Antarjyoti Part 3

Author(s): Kirtisagarsuri
Publisher: Adhyatma Gyan Prasarak Mandal
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008520/1

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zrImad buddhisAgara surIzvarajI graMthamALA graMthAMka 115| AMtara jyoti ( trIjo vibhAga ) racayitA AcArya zrImad kArtisAgarasUrIzvarajI : prakAzaka : vijApura jainAcArya zrI buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajI jJAnamaMdira taraphathI sekreTarI zA. bhogIlAla amathAlAla vijApura, kiM 3-0-0 For Private And Personal Use Only

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GE A - ' ' * * zrImaddabuddhisAgara sUrIzvarajIgraMthamAMLAMjhaLAMka 115 AMtara jyoti (trIjo nibhAva) racayitA AcArya zrImadda kIrtisAgarasUrIzvarajI prakAzaka : vijAparajenAcArya zrI buddhisAgara sUrIzvarajI jJAna che maMdira taraphathI sekreTarIzA.bhegIlAla amathAlAla vijApura ane 3i -0-0 A s 1 . . . . . . . For Private And Personal Use Only

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-vIra saMvata 2484 vikrama saMvata 2014 svAzana 1958 prata. 1000 paMDita maphatalAla jhaveracaMda gAMdhI, na ya na prinTiMga presa, DhIMkavAnI vADI, rIcI reDa pula nIce, a ma da va da. For Private And Personal Use Only

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'zrI 108 graMthapraNetA cAganiSTa AcAya zrImad buddhisAgara surIzvarajI mahArAja For Private And Personal Use Only

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be letA "atidurlabha manuSya bhava pAmIne manuSyane khAvA pIvAmAM viSaya vilAsamAM divase-mahinA tathA varSe, vyatIta karavAmAM Ave te te manuSya bhAvanI saphaLatA meLavI zake nahIM. eTaluM ja nahi paraMtu pazu paMkhI vigerenuM AyuSya bAMdhI atyaMta kaSTa dAyaka pazu paMkhInA bhavamAM yAtanA-vedanA veThavAne vakhata lAgI Ave evA dukho veThavA paDe nahI te mATe yauvanamAM viSaya kapALanA vikAne nivAravA badala buddhine vAparavAnI khAsa jarUra che. samajaNa vinAnA manuSya viSaya kaSAyanA vikAromAM sukha mAnatA hevAthI temAM ja Asakta bane che. paNa tenI pAchaLa doDatI AvatI Adhi-vyAdhi viDaMbanA dekhatA nathI. tethI ja zoka saMtApa-paritA pAdikanA duHkhe kadApI khasatA nathI. 'pArakAonI cintAmAM, nindA karavAmAM, teonA saMkaTa dudakhAdivelA khuzI thavAmAM tathA parigraha vigerene vadhAravAmAM vakhata vyatIta karavAmAM sAcA sukhanA sAdhane tara-daSTipAta paNa kayAMthI thAya. sAcA sukhanA sAdhane meLavI teonuM rakSaNa karavA vipattiothI mukta thavAno avasara maLe te mATe samyagU jJAnIoe kRpA karIne vividha upA batAvyA che. sAdhane batAvIne besI rahyA nathI paNa AtmaguNotarapha najara paDe te mATe vAre vAre prayAsa karyo che. A AtmaguNa tarahanI najara teja AMtarajyoti, A AMtarati tarapha najara rAkhavAmAM Ave te Atmika-vyavahArika kartavyamAM cIkaNuM karmo na baMdhAya. te mATe amoe A graMtha nirUpaNa karela che. A vivecanamAM daSTidoSathI temaja prisanA SathI je bhUle rahelI hoya te sudhArI vAMcavA bhalAmaNa che. A AMtara jyoti bhAga-3 aDhI mahinAmAM chApI Apela zrI nayana esanA mAlIka paMDita : maphatalAla jhaveracaMdabhAInI ame kadara karIe chIe. tathA A granthamAM kAne mAtra agara bIjA akSare rahI gayA jAya te sudhArI vAMcavA tadI leze. lI. kIrtisAgarasUri For Private And Personal Use Only

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zrI AMtara jyoti bhAga-3mAM Avela madada ' tarIkenI rakamanI yAda 210-0-0 upAdhyAya-kalAsasAgarajI gaNuM varNanA upadezathI-ama dAvAda-jaina sosAyaTInI taraphathI. 120-0-0 anugAcArya paMnyAsa-mahadayasAgarajI gaNanA upadezathI judA judA zrAvako tarAthI 100-0-0 sAdhvIjI-manoharazrIjInA upadezathI zrI. golavADanA upA zraya taraphathI. 10-0-0 saMdhavI zrAvakamaNIlAladrAvALA taraphathI hA-kaMkucaMdabhAI tathA-babaladAsa. pa1-0-0 prAMtIja-zeTha-ratalAla kezavalAlabhAI taraphathI. 50-0-0 vijApura-zA sAkaracaMda-amathAlAla taraphathI. hA bAbulAla. 41-0-0 prAMtIja zrAvikA-dIvALIbAInA upAzraya taraphathI 41-0-0 prAMtIja humaDanA upAzraya taraphathI. 25--0 prAMtIja-zrAvikA revAbAI taraphathI hA. zA-zAmaLadAsa tulajArAme ApyA. 25-0-0 mesANasemacaMda-cunIlAla taraphathI 25-0-0 mesANA-punamacaMdabhAI kauAcaMda taraphathI 25-0-0 ghATakepara-cA-nemacaMdabhAI tArAcaMdabhAI taraphathI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtatiSThA-zAMtamUrti zrImadda kItisAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAja janma: saM'. 1946 paMnyAsa paddha:-saM. 1984 dIkSA:-saM. 1969 AcAya pada-saM. 1996 For Private And Personal Use Only

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zrI AMtara jAti bhA-3: zuddhipatraka liTI azuddhi LA tenA teA teone tethI tethI jhAina pasA hela kAInI paisA rahela bAvA rAtrI bavA rAtra Ata Ata mAM zravaNa zramaNa goThavaNa goThaNa ganI banI maLelI thaLelI Iccha IcchA For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra pRSTha * OM OM }e para 7 7 76 1 86 87 87 89 92 101 135 135 141 143 166 162 17] 174 175. 178 186 191 thiTI 8 17 5 17 11 16 12 20 18 www.kobatirth.org 24 16 . ( 1 15 22 1 16 19 *cha jI 11 Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir azuddhi isaeg hRda * O calu kRti ja A vaSNuva javA nA Ama haTha hatA tA haze sanmA lAvyA pADavA suDhi caNa ** sabaMdhI For Private And Personal Use Only zahi dara cAlu vikRti jA eka ve vaiSNava jaivA tu Ama sAMbhaLa hA hatA nahI tA haro hi sanmAdi AvyA pAyA suSTi paNa samadha

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azuddhi zuddhi vanuM 208 pachI '200 mAtmA AtmAne ' nI kyaM 241 213 25 21 242 257 ane paraMtu sAra mAra la DAM kare raphula kere padArtho ghaNI pIDA nidha che nidha tA kheDakhAMpaNa kheDayuM Ae - bAca - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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azuddhi zuddhi 319 vaiSa 323 363 334 bhUla sahaya yAtamA parApAra anya gajAra saMkaTane khI mUla sahRdaya yAtanAmAM paropakAra ajeya gujArI keTa 358 38 bI 379 5Na na mAnya 380 382 3/4 385 ke keag* * # # # 6 407 mAtharU 4007 41Y 450 454 For Private And Personal Use Only

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A tamAma sadguru zrImadhudisAgarajI sUrIzvarAya namo namaH aiM aiM aiM aiM aiM zAradAyai namaH Ata 2 jyoti bhAga 3 je 1 samyagU jJAnathI Atmatatva parakhAya. maLela vastuonI saphalatAsamyagu darzana ane samyaga jJAna dvArA sajajane vyavahArika kAryo karatAM chatAM vepAtA nathI, nirlepatAmAM rahIne karmanA baMdhanane rAga-dveSa ane mehanA vikArane haThAve che. tathA Atmatatvane zeyatA rahe che eTale teone Adhi-vyAdhi ane upAdhi bahu satAvI zakatI nathI. tyAre saMsArika sukhamAM Asakata banela ajJAnIone vyAvahArika kAryomAM ajJAnatAnA ciMge Adhi-vyAdhi ane viDaMbanAe vAre vAre satAvyA kare che. sAdhana saMpajatA paNa AtmalAbhane levAmAM azakta bane che ane jIvana paryaMta vividha cintAomAM gherAtA raDe che. bharavADanuM dRSTAnta eka bhAinA hAthamAM pAraNAma, cittAmaNi hAthamAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita AvyuM paNa tenA svarUpa ane tenA prabhAvane nahI jANate hAvAthI gheTAnA gaLe be, ajJAnatA vastu tatvanI eLakhANa thatA nathI. jethI manuSya puo prApta thaela anakala sAdhanonI satya sArthakatA karavA ane banatA nathI te sadAya bIcArA rahe che. bAlAra banatA nathI. A bharavADane cintAcUraka cintAmaNi prApta thaye chatAM bIcAre ne bIcAra rado kAraNake tenA savarUpane prabhAvane jA te nathI. tene patha mAnI gheTAne gaLe bope chetevAmAM tenA tatvane jANanAra-ane prabhAvane pIchANanAra jhAe tenI rANI karI. tene kahyA pramANe miSTAnna pUrvaka pacIsa rUciyA ApIne lai lIdhe ajJAnI bharavADa, ATaluM maLavAthI ghaNe khuzI thaye paNa satya lAbhane laI zakaze nahIM. batrIza deSane TALavA mATe prayatna karanArane hInatA dInatA bhAratI nathI. ajJAnI mANasAne cintAmaNi kAmakuMbha kAmadhenu ane kalpavRkSA karatAM paNa adhika mahimAvaMta ane jenI kiMmata mehade jhaverI paNuM karI zake nahI. e manuSyabhava purUda maLe. paraMtu AnapAnamAM, mojazokhamAM-viSaya kakSAyanA vikArAmAM lepaTa banavAthI ane temAM khuzI thatA hovAthI tenI sArthakatA ane saphalatA karI zakatA nathI. jee saganAne meLavI zakaze nahI ane Atma svarUpane oLakhaze nahI te teonI hInatA ane sInatA basaze paNa nahI. pazunI mAphaka manuSya bhava pUrA karIne jazo mATe are bhAgya zAlio tamane mahApArikA sahugAma. daza daSTAnta durlabha prApta caro , mATe zahera ane nA vikArone For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyaMti kaMkhaje karavA pUrvaka mUlamAMthI teonA tyAga karavA tatpara aneA ane Atmika tattvane oLakhavA samyagajJAna darzana ane cAritranA ghaNA dRDhabhAvathI Adara karIne, ajJAnatA ane pramAdane haThAvI AtmasvarUpane ALAkhe te Atma svarUpane ALakhyA pachI dInatA-hInatA ane yAcanAe je cintAAne karAvI rahI che te ApeApa khuNIyA zrAvakanI mApha khasI jaze. zrAvakanuM dRSTAnta puNIyA zrAvake manuSya bhavanI sakSatA karavA mATe rUno puNIo vecI je maLe temAM sattASa rAkhIne Atma svarUpane ALakhavA anAdikAlanI ajJAnatA-hInatAdInatA-ane yAcanAeane TALavA mATe sAmA yaka karavAnI Teva pADI. AtmasvarUpane eLakhavAnu' lakSyamAM zakhIne phreza mAnasika. daza vAcika ane bAra kAyika DhASAne TALavAnA abhyAsa AdaryAM. temAM laganI hAvAthI saphalatAne prApta karI. prabhusajJa mahAvIra svAmIe temanuM sAmAyika vakhANyu. ane samrAT zreNika nRpane kahyuM ke, jo puNiyAzrAvakanA eka sAmAyikanuM phUla tameAne maLetA narakanA AyuSyanA aMdha tUTe che temanA sAmAyikamAM narakanA AyuSyane tADavAnI zakti haze tyAre ja prabhue kahyuM haze ja ne, tA A zrAvakanI sAmAyikamAM keTalI zakti ? kevA manavacana ane kAyA para kakhajo ? tathA satASa-nilepatA paNa kevI ? AvI tAkAta meLavavA mATe laganI lagADhavI te Avazyaka che kAraNa te vinA anAhikAlanA viSaya-kaSAyanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kAtisAgarasUri cita vikA ane vAMsanAnA A ikhasatA nathI. AvuM sAmAyika vAra thAya tyAre to sAMsArika sukhanI pati TALIne temaja sega zAmadikane prApta karavA pUrvaka trIza doSane TALavA laganI lagADo te ja thAya hurAvI sukhanI mIThAza levAmAM ane temAM sAcI mAcI rahevAmAM karmonA baMdhanene teDanAra nimala sAmAyika enI zakatuM nathI. mATe saMsAranA padArthonI Asaktine dUra kara. Asakti rAkhIne vrata niyamane lenAnI tenuM pAlana karavAmAM ane poSaNa karavAmAM daDhatA rahetI nathI. saheja pratikulatA AvavAthI vivekane visArI vividha bAnAo kADhIne lIdhelA vrata niyamane visAre che. lAlasAnuM daSTAnta eka lAlazA nAmanA mANase gurU pAsethI koInI vastu pUchayA vinA levI nahI evI bAdhA lIdhI. tene dararoja kAraNavazAt be gAu dUra rahela gAmamAM javuM paDe che. mAge rahelA AMbAnA vRkSane dekhI manamAM tenI kerIo levAnI abhilASA dara ja rahyA kare che. eka divasa te mArge jatAM manahara kerIovALe AMbe che. mAnasika vRtti kAbu rahI nahI ane lIdhelI bAdhA bhAge nahIM tevI rukti karIne AMbAnI pAse mAjhA mAravA lAgyA. are tArI karIe, daza bAra lauM. ane te kayAMthI bele? paNa pite havA lAgyA. "he..... daza-paMdara. A pramANe bAlI karIe lai ane manamAM mAnate mAhItI bApA zaraNAya che ane karIne paNa maLe che, For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti AMbAnA pAra karIe chI thayelI nayane vistAra karavA pUrva tene mAlika sahiao, tevAmAM lAlasA AvIne cAMbAne kahevA lAgyuM. "are AMbA ! kerI kahe hama, bAra? "che. daza paMdara" A pramANe bolI dhAma vaDe paMdara kerIo teDI pADIne jyAM levA jAya che teTalAmAM saMtAI rahela AMbAne mAlika AvIne kahevA lAgyuM ke "are dhikAzA ! lAlasAne daza mArUM ke mArI "mAra daza ke paMdara dhakA !" Ama kahIne beThe laIne lAlasAne para dhokA lagAvyA. lAlazAne thaze mAra paDo. paMdara divase cAlAvAnI zakti AvI. have kerIo levAnI kalAne bhUlI ga. te mAge jAya che paraMtu tenuM nAma paNa letuM nathI. A pramANe keTalAka mANase Asaktine rAkhIne badhAe te le che. paraMtu te vastuo hAjara thatAM bApAne bhalI jAya che. tethI kamarAjA dhakA lagAve temAM zI navInanA jyAre Aphata AvIne hAjara thAya che. tyAre anya upara Sane Aropa karIne vyAkuLa banavA pUrvaka vaira levAnI agara tene badalo levAnI vRtti rAkhe che. paNa vera vaLatu nathI. ane adhika adhika duHkhI thatuM rahe che. je ArAkti ochI kare te lIdhelA vrata niyama sArI rIte pALI zakAya te viSayanA vikAranuM jora cAlI zake nahIM. mAnasikavatti tathA pAMca Indriya paNa kabaje Ave. ane mAnada pUrvaka jIvana pasAra thAya. mATe Atmatatavane oLa AvA Asakitane tyAga karIne vivekapUrvaka te niyamAne timAM ane pAlana karavuM te ati uttama che For Private And Personal Use Only

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6 A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita 2 parepakAramAM svapakAra paNuM sadhAya che. samyajJAnI vicAra ane viveka pUrvaka pratyeka prANIo upara karUNA lAvIne zakaya sahakAra-sahAyane ApIne pitAnI pharaja bajAvI svajIvananI unnati sAdhe che. teo samaje che ke paropakAra vinA Atmanniti jaladI sadhAtI nathI. ane AnaMda pUrvaka jIvana vyatIta thatuM nathI. paropakArane pakAra mAne che teo sArI rIte mAnyatAne dharAve che ke popakAravinA pite AgaLa vadhI zake tema nathI. je je mANasee nati sAdhI che te paropakAranA AdhAre ja. eTale tevA prasaMge zakaya parepakArane karavAmAM pAchA paDatA nathI. DokaTaranuM dRSTAnta sAmAnya sthitimAnuM eka zrAvakanA putre anyanI pAsethI madada laIne DokaTarI abhyAsa sArI rIte karI ThekaTara banyA paNa dhArmika abhyAsa sArA pramANamAM prathama karela hovAthI je je dadIo Ave tenA upara karUNA bhAva lAvIne je te dardIonI sArI sthiti na hoya te phI" lete nahI. ane maphata davA Apate tethI tenI gAma nagaramAM sArI rIte prasiddhi thaI. sadagRhastha paNa tenI prazaMsA karavA lAgyA. ane dhaMdho adhika pramANamAM cAlavA lAgyA. kamANa ghaNI thatI hovAthI pApakAramAM prema adhika vaLe. eka majura, A divasa majurI karI je pasAo prApta thAya. tenA AdhAre mAtapitA putrAdina bhAraNa poSaNa karato paNa tAva AvatuM hovAthI majurI karI zakAtI nahIM. kuTuMba paisAnA abhAve bhUkhe rahevA lAgyuM. DokaTarane davAnA paisA ApavAnI paNa tAkAta nahotI. A For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti DaoNkaTarane bImAra paDela majura ane tenA piravAranI dazAnI khakhara paDI. karuNA lAvI tyAM AvIne tene davA tathA bharaNupASaNArthe pacIza rUpiyA ApI parepakAra karyAM. ane svAnnatine sAdhIne sadgatine meLavI Ama svApakAra sheje thAya che. 3 viveka karIne jJAnavaraNIya kA~ne dUra haTAvo. anAdi kAlathI AtmA karmAvarDa lisa anela che. ane rAga-dveSa ane mehu vaDe adhikAdhika lipta manIne cAra gatimAM ceArAzI lAkha ceAnIomAM paribhramaNa kare che. karmA vaDe ja krarmA badhAya che. ATha kAM siddha bhagavAneAne nathI tethI teo karmIne bAMdhatA nathI ane rAga-dveSa ane mAddhanA abhAve anata avyAbAdha sukhanA anubhava karI rahela che. ApaNe rAga-dveSAdikanA jo tyAga karIe, sathA-sA ane sarvatra jo teonA kSaya thaela hAya tA anaMta sukhanA avyAkhAdha rIte anubhava karI zakIe. jJAnAvaraNIca ka thI jJAnAvaraNIya karma khaMdhAya che, ane danAvaraNIya karmothI danAvaraNIya kama adhAtu rahe che. ane dazanAvaraNIya kramathI mithyAtva mAhanIya ka baMdhAya che. ane mithyAtva mAhanIya karmonA AdhAre cAre gatimAM paribhramaNu karavuM paDe che. jo mithyAtvamAhanIya kamanA kSaya thAya tA karmInA bhAra nathI ke lAMmA kALa TakI zake, mATe prathama jJAnAvaraNIyanA kSaya karavA mATe samyaga jJAnanI AvazyakatA rahelI che. samyag jJAnathI vastugate vastunI samajaNu paDe che. heya jJeya ane upAdeyanI samajaNu paDatAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarita muMjhavaNa rahetI nathI. dazanAvaraNaya kamane phaNa thavA pUrvaka AtmAnA guNAmAM-tathA jinevaranA guNemAM zraddhA thAya che. ane sAthe sAthe anukaMpA-vairAgya-saMvega ane pramAdi sadaguNe paNa AvIne nivAsa kare che. A sadaguNenA alathI cAritrane AvavAne avakAza prApta thAya che ane cAgnithI karmonI nirjarA pUrvaka Atmika vikAsa sadhAte rahe che. tethI apUrva satyAnaMdane anubhava thAya che. rAgacheSa ane mohane sarvathA kSaya thayele hevAthI janma jarAane mRtyunI jaMjALa rahetI nathI. mATe vastune vatugate jANe vastu vastu svarUpe jyAM sudhI samajAze nahI arthAta heyaya ane upAdeyanI samajaNa paDaze nahI tyAM sudhI dareka bAbatamAM muMjhavaNuM rahevAnI ja. ane asatyane satya tarIke mAnI besaze tathA satya vastu tarapha Adara bhAva raheze nahI upekSA vRtti rahevAnI ja asatya tathA zaNa vinAzI vastuomAM Adara vadhatAM. prema vadhatAM satya sukha maLe paNa kayAMthI? asatya vastu kadApi satya sukhane ApavA samartha banatA nathI temaja muMjhavaNanA eNe utpanna thayela cintAe vyAdhio ane viDaMbanAene khasavAne mArga maLatuM nathI. eTale jyAM sudhI vastuone tenA savarUpe jANIe nahI vicAra viveka dvArA prayakAraNa karIne nahI tyAM sudhI mohanIya karmonuM bala rahevAnuM ja ane vividha vibhAge sarvatra AvIne upArita thavAnI ja tamane Adhi-upAdhi ane viDaMbanA du:kha janaka bhAsatI hoya te samyajJAna paNa vicAra ane viveka For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAtara ati karIne vahunA svarUpane satya rIte oLakhe jethI paNa thaze nahI. ane cintAdika paNa vayameva khasI jaze. cintAe vyAdhi ane viDaMbanAone dUra karavAnI zakti tamArAmAM bharapUra che. paraMtu tenA sAdhanene meLavatA nathI tethI tamene upalabdha kayAMthI thAya? cintAhika vardhaka sAdhanAne mahAmahenate paNa meLave che. ane vyAdhi. viDaMbanAMone dUra karavA abhilASA pUrvaka prayAsa kare che te te vyAdhi vigere kevI rIte TaLaze? vicAra kare viveka lAve kadApi te TaLaze nahI. ane muMjhavaNamAM vadhAre thatuM raheze AthI dhArela kArya saMpUrNa thaze nahI. piolIsoe keTemAM eka mahaTI cerI karanArane nyAyAdhIzanI AgaLa ubhe rAkhe. nyAyAdhIze, te corane pUchayuM ke tAruM nAma zuM che? teNe kahyuM ke "lakho " bIjIvAra pUchyuM tenA javAbamAM core kahyuM ke "lakhe'trIjIvAra pUchatAM paNa teNe lakhe kahyuM. nyAyAdhIza samaye evuM ke, lakhe lakhe chelyA kare che paNa nAma detuM nathI. tethI te muMjhavaNa thaI. satya vastunI khabara paDI naha. vaLI tene cArane kahyuM ke tArA ApanuM nAma zuM? teNe kahyuM ke "mAM" A pramANe traNa vAra puchatAM gere mAMDa mAMDe kahyA karyuM nyAyAdhIzane muMjhavaNane pAra rahyo nahI. ane manamAM babaDavA lAgyo ke A mUkha "lakhe ane mAMDe" tenuM nAma ane tenA thApanuM nAma puchatAM bolyA kare che. mATe A pAgala have koIe ane pAgalanI jubAnI levI te mukhaI che. Ama cArIne tene choDI dIdhA. A cAra te nyAyIzanI dharI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasUri racita karate nAzI gaye. polIso jhaMkhavANA paDayA. ane kahevA lAgyA ke mahAmahenate tene pakaDaze ane tame jaladI mUkI dIdhe e ThIka na karyuM. nyAyAdhIze kahyuM ke tenuM nAma tathA tenA bApanuM nAma puchatAM. lakhe ane mAMDe Ama bolyA karatA hatA tethI pAgala jANIne tene choDI mUkapilIze kahyuM ke "sAheba te pAgala naheAte paNa Apa tenuM nAma samajyA nahi te ceranuM nAma lakhe hatuM ane tenA bApanuM nAma mAMDe hatuM tethI te pramANe bolate hate.* A sAMbhaLIne nyAyAdhIzane citAne pAra rahyo nahI. A leke mArI hAMsI karaze ane phajetI karaze paNa have zuM karavuM.? cAra pAche pakaDAya ema nahotuM. A pramANe nyAyAdhIzane paNa nAmanI samajaNa na paDatAM cintAne pAra rahyo nahIM. te AtmAnA tattvanI samajaNa paDe kayAMthI? barobara vicAra karIne bIjA jANakArane puchayuM heta te te nAmanI ane svarUpanI samajaNa paData. nimitto, sArAM haiya te, buddhibala saphala thAya che. nimitte, mAnavene buddhi-zakita ane sattAne vadhAravAmAM sArI rIte madada kare che, paraMtu te sArA ane anukula maLyA. hoya te ja. kharAba ane pratikula nimitto maLatAM buddhizakita vigeremAM bagADe pese che ane hAMsI pAtra thavAya che. bhale pachI rAjA mahArAjA hoya ke zeTha zAhukAra hAya. eTale zubha nimittone Adara karavAnI AvazyaktA rahelI che. dareka mAnave svayaM buddhibalamAM AgaLa vadhI zakatA nathI. ane buddhibalanI vyAvahArika temaja dhArmikakAryomAM khAsa For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti - 11 jarUra che. je buddhi na hoya te dareka kAryo sArI rIte banI zakatAM nathI ane saphalatA dhAraNa karI zakAtI nathI, buddhi balathI game tevI vyAvahArika kAryomAM guMcavaNa paDI heya. te paNa sugamatAe te ukelI zakAya che ane dhArmika kAryomAM saphalatA meLavI zakAya che. . eka buddhimAna mANasa keI eka gAma tarapha jate hate mArgamAM AMbAvADIyuM AvyuM. eka AMbA upara manehara kerIo jukI rahela hatI. tethI kerIo khAvAnuM mana thayuM. paNa AMbAnuM vRkSa ghaNuM uMcuM hatuM. tethI kerIone laI zakAya ema nahatI. tethI teNe kerIonuM bhakSaNa karatA. vAMdarAne betraNa patharAo mAryA. te patharA teo cUkAvIne ghaNa rasa sAthe kerIo pitAnA hAthamAM hatI te laIne patharA mAranArane mAravA mAMDI. A pramANe mANasa patharAo mAre che. ane vAMdarA kerIo mAre che. A pramANe daza bAra kerIo laI mANasa cAlate thAya che. nimitta sArAM hoya te yatheccha. lAbha thAya che ane kharAba hoya te lAbhane badale nukazAna thaI bese che. 4 vicArapUrvaka viveka karavAthI buddhibalamAM vadhAre thatAM AdhivyAdhi ane upAdhio TaLI jAya che. ane sahanatA vigere guNe AvIne vase che. mATe lAbha karanAra vicArIne karavA. kharAba vicArenI sAme zubha vicAre karIne kharAba vicArone haThAvavAnI Teva pADavI te jarUranI che. vicArakene evA nimitte maLatAM kharAba vicAro Ave che. paNa teo, teonA sAmenA zubha vicAre upasthita karIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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12 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita haThAvI zake che. eTale khoTA vicAranuM jora cAlatuM nathI, ane ApoApa beTA vicAra khasI jAya che. jeo kharAba vicArenA sAmenA zubha vicAra karatA nathI tenA upara te duSTa vicAre ghere ghAle che. ane mana tanane tapAvI nAMkhe che. je paMDitane phAke rAkhatA hoya teo je duSTa vicArene sAmane karI zake nahI te tenI paMDitAI lAbha ApavAne badale nukazAnakAraka bane che. sAdhutA paNa zubha vicAre vaDe zobhe che ane AtmakalyANane te sAdhutA sArI rIte sAdhI zake che. krodhanA vicAre kevA kevA vikAra ane vipAko vaDe atyaMta duHkhakAraka bane che. tene rItasara vikAro nAzaka kSamAnA vicAre je karAya te te utpanna thaela krodhanA vicAromAM parivartana thAya che ane tana manamAM zAMti rahe che. abhimAna-garvanA vicAro namratAne dhAraNa karIne TALavA joIe. mAyAnA vicArane TALavA mATe tenA vipAkene pariNAmane vicAra karIne saralatA dhAraNa karavI. tathA sarva pApanA mUlabhUta lebhanA vicArone saMtoSa dhAraNa karIne samyagna jJAnapUrvaka upaga rAkhave. ke jethI tanamanane tapAvanAra cintAo dUra khasI jAya ane samavane lAbha levAya. cintAo thavAnuM kAraNa ApaNuM viSaya kaSAyanA vicAro ane vipAke che. jyAM sudhI tevA duSTa vicAro raheze tyAM sudhI anukula sAdhane hAjara rahevA chatAM paNa cintAo dUra khasavAnI For Private And Personal Use Only

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1ra AMtara jyoti nahI. mATe vicAra karIne zAMta banI sarva dhArmika kAryo kare tethI dhAryA karatAM apUrva lAbha thaze dhairya-udAratA-kSamAnamratA saralatA ane saMtoSAdi guNo AvIne nivAsa karaze saddabuddhine dheryAdiguNe sAthe gADha saMbaMdha raheze che. tethI ja garvita banelA nRpane garva-abhimAna utArI zakAya che. ane saguNa vaDe vAsita banAvI zakAya che. eka rAjAne pitAnI sattAne saMpattine ane sAkSabane ghaNe garva hatuM ane madamAM AvI siMhAsana para ArUDha thaIne adhikArIone tathA zeTha zAhukArAne kahete. ke, prabhu je na kare te ame amArI sattAnA AdhAre karavA samartha chIe. mATe prabhu karatAM ame adhika zaktimAna. chIe. A pramANe sabhAmAM abhimAna pUrvaka belatA nRpane sAMbhaLIne eka sajajana sadguNIne bahu lAgI AvatuM. ekadA nirbhaya banI samayane barAbara pIchAnIne dheyane dhAraNa karavA pUrvaka abhimAnI rAjAne kahyuM ke, mahArAjA ! tame kahe che te barAbara che. prabhunI sattA zakita ane anaMta sAmarthya che. eTale tame je aparAdha gunhA ke bhUlo kare tevI bhUle aparAdhe te prabhu karI zake nahI. anya gunhegArane tame hada bahAra kADhI mUke paNa prabhunI sattA te sarvavyApaka che. eTale gunhegArane te kayA sthaLe kADhI mUke ? A pramANe sAMbhaLIne nRpane garva gaLI gayA ane kahevA lAgyuM ke te dhiratA pUrvaka sArI rIte Takera karI. have huM samajyo ke prabhunI anaMta sattA ane sukha kyAM? ane mArI maryAdAvALI sattA ane sAhAbI kayAM? atyArasudhI garvamAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasUri racita AvIne je bolyA karatuM hatuM tethI prabhune gunhegAra ane have AvA vicAro ane uccAre karIza nahI. A pramANe nRpa samajaNanA gharamAM AvIne namra ane sarala anya. A pramANe khuzAmatane tyAga karIne jeo nirbhaya banela hoya che. teo pitAnA AtmAne uddhAra karavA. temaja parane uddhAra karavA samartha bane che. A rAjA te guNAnurAgI-ane guNagrAhI hatuM tethI jadI namratA ne dhAraNa karIne thatI bhUlane sudhArI sarala ane saMtoSI banyA paraMtu keTalAka evA hoya che, yukitapUrvaka samajAvatAM garvita hovAthI rAvaNanI mAphaka pitAno garva mUkatA nathI, AvA abhimAnIe na mAne te sajajanoe aphasa karavo nahIM. paraMtu pitAnA saguNemAM daDha thavuM. kAraNa ke jeo samajAvyA samajatA nathI ane atyaMta madamAM AvI aparAdhane vadhAratA rahe che. tethI teo guNanA bhAjana lAyaka thatA nathI. Ama samajI upekSA bhAva dhAraNa kare ke jethI Atmahita te sadhAya. aphasosa karavAthI agara cintAo karavAthI te saguNemAM hAnI pahoMce che, keTalAka bhAgyazAlIe, anyane agara svajanane abhimAna-mamatAne tyAga karavA lAgaNa pUrvaka samajAve te chatAM paNa ahaMkAra-mamatAne tyAga karatA nathI tyAre ghaNe paritApa karIne guryA kare che ane cintA karIne ati dukhI bane che te ucita nathI. te vakhate A mANase karmonA vikArethI adhika gherAela che. -Ama samajI AtmakalyANamAM rahevuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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15 AMtara ti 5 manuSyajanmane sAra je kaI hoya te samyaga jJAnIonI vinayapUrvaka ArAdhanA karIne samyagU jJAnI banavuM A karavAthI saMsArika Adhi-vyAdhi ane viDaMbanAonuM jera cAlaze nahIM, samyagU jJAnarahita manuSya sahaja pratikulatA upasthita thatAM tenuM moTuM rUpa dhAraNa karIne vAre vAre cintAe karyA kare che tethI je pratikuLatA AvI che. te adhika jora pakaDe che. eTale pratikulatAne nivAravAnA upAye hastagata thatA nathI. tathA dareka bAbatamAM anukuLatA Ave che te garvane dhAraNa karIne unmatta banI viSaya kakSAnA vikAramAM Asakta banIne pariNAme atyaMta duHkhanuM bhAjana bane che. je te samyagajJAnInI vinayapUrvaka ArAdhanA kare te samyagajJAnI banIne pratikulatAnA prasaMge tathA anukulatAnA sago prApta thatAM zeka pari tApAdikane rAga-dveSa ane mahAdikane haThAvI Atmika vikAsane sAdhavAmAM samartha bane. ane dunyavI padArthonI Asakitane tyAgI banI AnaMdapUrvaka jIvanane pasAra kare mATe samyajJAnIonA pratyenIka thavuM nahIM. teonI pAse viruddha vartana karavuM nahIM. teo jema prasanna rahe te pramANe vartana rAkhavuM. temanI AzAtanA karavAthI temaja teonA sAme paDavAthI kaI jJAnI banatA nathI paNa jJAnAvaraNIya kama baMdhAya che. ane A bhavamAM-parabhavamAM samyagajJAnI thavAtuM nathI tethI vAre vAre dareka prasaMge muMjhavaNa AvIne upasthita thAya che. tathA jJAna sAdhanAnI AzAtanA karavAthI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasa mika te pAnAnuM thatuM nahi. havAmAM samAre mATe vANI guskelI AvI paDe che mATe tenI paNa AvanArA tyAga karavAnI AvazyakatA che. 6 vyAvahArika kAryomAM samyagUjJAnanA abhAve aneka prakAranA kaMkAsa vikhavAda vigere upasthita thAya che. samyagujJAnanA abhAve ahaMkAra abhimAna ISyadine AvavAno avakAza maLI Ave che. AvA durgAne jyAre praveza thAya che tyAre mAnave mANasAIne paNa gumAvIne pazuvRtti dhAraNa kare che sahajamAM abhimAnane dhAraNa karIne jhagaDe ubhe kare che eka pitAnA be bhAio yuvAvasthAmAM AvyA pachI vicAra kare che ke pitAnI puMjInA AdhAre jIvana vyatIta karavAthI pravINatA. svAdhInatA temaja anubhava Avaze nahI. mATe ApaNe paradezamAM jaI ApaNe svayaM vyApAra karIne dhanane prApta karIye. tethI sArI rIte prasiddha thaIzuM. Ama vicArI bane bhAIo paradezamAM jaIne kuzalatA pUrvaka vyApAra karavA lAgyA. dhanAdikamAM ja dhyAna hovAthI viSaya kakSAnA vikAramAM vaza na banatA pise prApta karavA lAgyA. pAMca varSamAM te sArI kamANI karIne pitAnA vatana tarapha teoe prayANa karyuM, paraMtu mArgamAM samagra jJAnanA abhAve moTAbhAInA manamAM meha peThe tenA coge tene muMjhavaNa-cintAo thaI ke, mArI huMzIArIthI ja A saghaLuM dhana prApta thayuM che. nhAnAbhAIe te kAMI kAma karyuM nathI mATe tene mArI nAMkhIne saghaLA dhanano For Private And Personal Use Only

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hara evA ahi banuM ane apI thAuM. A mane duSTa vicArAnA Akhare pitAnA vatanamAM AvyA pachI jamA vIrano kaza ubho karIne lADamAM vizva nAMkhyuM. paNa wla razo nahI jethI viSavALA lADave pite Adhe. viSanA vikArethI vyApta aje. upAye te ghaNA karyA , haLAhaLa jhera hevAthI maraNa pAmyuM. sALI milkatane mAlika mane bhAI zake ane maheke bhAI turgatinuM sAjana thaze. 7 sadAcAra e purUyanuM ananya sAdhana che, tethI ja karelA udhama-saphala thAya che. ne salAcAra heya nahI te karelA purUSArtha lAbha ApI zake nahI mATe udyamanI sAthe sadAcAranuM pAlana karavA kaTIbaddha thavuM joIe puNayAnuMbaMdhI puNya sadAcAre vaDe ja baMdhAya che deva gurU dhamanI sAthe temanI zraddhA prIti ane bhakita sahita ane AzA pUrvaka je sadavartana rAkhe che temanA jIvanamAM apUrva parivartana thAya che. mAnasika vRttimAM zubhabhAvanAo AvIne vase che vacanamAM amRta AvIne svaparane upakAraka mAne che kAyAnI pravRtti niyama baddha bane che. cakSuomAMthI karUNa bhAva vadhe che. dareka prANIo pratye maitrI bhAvanA vayameva AvIne vase che. eTale teo samakita zraddhAnI rAsAye sadabhAvI hovAthI temane abhiyAna ahaMkAra ke mAThita bahu alpa hoya che. ane jagatamAM prazaMsA pAtra atI amalita sAdhI zake che, For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasaMri racita amadAvAdamAM zAMtidAsa zeTha devagurU ane dharmanA upAsaka hatA ane jhaverAtane vyApAra karatA hatA. kapi koIne kapaTa karI chetaratA nahI. vyAyAMpanna vibhava vALA hovAthI pravezatamAM sArI kamANI temane thatI eka vakhata dilhI zaheramAM A zeTha jhaverAtanA vyApAra mATe Avela che. te vakhate jahAMgIra bAdazAhanuM rAjaya hatuM. ekalA A bAdazAha vicAravA lAgyuM ke A zahenazAta hune maLI tenuM kayuM kAraNa haze ? saghaLA rAjAo tAbe banIne mArI sevA bajAve che tenuM kAraNa hovuM joIe? sabhAmAM Avela jhaverIone prazna karyo ke tame jhaverAtanI kiMmata sArI rIte kare che. te mArI kiMmata keTalI? te barAbara tapAsa karIne kahe? jhaverIe muMjhavaNamAM paDayA. ane mAMhamAMhI vicAra karavA lAgyA ke, karoDanI kiMmata kahIzuM, te paNa A bAdazAha kaheze ke mArI pAse akhajenI kiMmatanA hIrAo ane jhaverAta che. tene huM vAmi chuM. tamee te jhaverAtanI kiMmata karI paNa mArI kiMmata keTalI te kaho? A pramANe sAMbhaLI jhaverIe vimAsaNamAM paDela che. teTalAmAM zeTha zAMtidAsa temanI pAse AvyA. ane udAsInatAnuM kAraNa puchayuM. jhaverIoe kahyuM ke bAdazAha jahAMgIre potAnI kiMmata puchI che. keTalI kiMmata AMkavI tenI muMjhavaNamAM paDayA chIe. zeThe kahyuM ke AmAM muMjhavaNamAM paDavA jevuM nathI. jahAMgIranI kiMmata huM karIza. jhaverIone Azcarya thayuM ke A yuvAna zAMtidAsa keTalI kiMmata AMke ane kevI rIte kahe che. te joIe te kharA ! jhaverIe zeTha zAMtidAsane sAthe laIne jahAMgIra For Private And Personal Use Only

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aAMtara naiti 12 mAdazAhanI sabhAmAM hAjara thayA. bAdazAhe kahyuM ke, 'mArI kiMmata mATeja karavI paDaze. zAMtidAse kahyuM ke bAdazAha ? kAMTA magAvA ! jokhIne tamArI kiMmata karIye.' bAdazAhe hIrA jokhavAnA kAMTA maMgAvye temAM hIrA * mUkIne ane pallAmAM vArApharatI hIrAo jekhIne kahyuM ke * jahAMpanAha ! ApanI kiMmata AMkI tamArI ka"mata eka ratinI (bhAgya) che. khAdazAhe vicAyuM ke zeTha vicArIne elela haze. tethI tenA atha puchaye. zeThe kahyuM ke manuSya paNAmAM ame tathA prajAe ane tame sarakhA chIe. paraMtu rati kahetAM bhAgya tamArU adhika che, eTale tame bAdazAhI bhAgavA che. A pramANe sAMbhaLI khAdazAhe zeThane amadAvAdanA nagarazeThanI padavI ApI. ane mahu sanmAna karyuM. A pramANe sadAcArI zeThane puNyathI saghaLI sAhyabI maLI. 8 DAhyA samaju mANusA paNa vastunu svarUpa jyAM sudhI na samajAya tyAM sudhI bhramaNAmAM paDe che ane vividha anane karI bese che. vastu svarUpa samajyA pachI bhramaNA-bhrAMti rahetI nathI, tethI haiya tyAga lAyaka vastuo tyAga karI zakAya che. viSaya kruSAyanA vikArAnu khala rahetuM nathI. amadAvAda zaheramAM gIradhara geApALanI peDhInI prasiddhi sArI hatI tethI te peDhImAM thApaNu mUkavA ghaNA loko AvatA. eka vakhata mahAra grAmanA eka zeThanA nAkara pAtAnA zeThanI thApaNane mUkavA A peDhI upara AvyA, gIradhara gepAle rUpiyA gaNIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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A kIrti sAma irati tenI thelI sirIyAM namUkatAM lithiI upara mUkIne sAravALuM karavA jatA hatA te vakhate saDAno motIlAla vANIco paNa rUpiyA levA AvyuM hatuM. tethI zeTha tene pitAne ghera laI jaIne jamADIne kahyuM ke, "ja, dukAne sUIjA. savAre naroDa jaje. motIlAla-kAne sUI gaye. pelA nokara tijorInA upara mUkelI rUpiyAnI thelIne carI javAnI bhAvanA karI. tethI madhyarAtrie AvIne dukAnamAM praveza karIne thelI upADI nATho. nidrAmAM gherAyala motIlAlane khabara paDI nahI. thelI laine A kira nAThe te khare paNa koTanA daravAjA baMdha hevAthI tenAthI bahAra jaI zakAyuM nahIM. tethI teNe pAse rahela ukaraDAmAM thelIne saMtADI eka oTalA para sUI gaye. jyAre A nokare corI karI tyAre sAmenI bAjue hIrAlAla vAge zeTha nAmu lakhatA hatA. khaDakhaDATa thavAthI tapAsa karavAne potAnA putrane meka. teNe cerInI vAta pitAnA pitAne kahI. pitAnA kahevAthI te putra pelA nekaranI pAchaLa gaye. gupta paNe rahIne ukaraDAmAM thelIne mUkatAM joI lIdhI. pele corI karanAra nekara sUI gayA pachI ukaraDAmAMthI zelIne laIne zeThanA putre thelI potAnA pitA hIrAlAlane ApI. zeThe vicAra karyo ke savAramAM zerInI bInA kahIne gIradhara gopAlane thelI ApIzuM. paNa savAramAM agatyanuM kAma AvI paDatAM hIrAlAla putra sAthe bahAra gAma gayA ane motIlAla vahele uThI dukAnanI muMgIe gIradhara epalane apIne svagAme gaye. gIsmAra gopAla nA vane patra para AvyA. sukAna uDADI dukAnamAM thela For Private And Personal Use Only

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etara hiti nahI narAkAnA pApIA para ja AvI jA temaja lIdhI haze ema dhArI polIsane sAthe laIne tebA mahA gayA, tIkAryuM tene svAgata pitAne tema hAI gaye ane kahyuM ke, kahe kema AvavAnuM thayuM. teo kahyuM ke, alyAstane rUpiyA karIe chIe, sAthIne dukAne paNa suvADIe chIe. ane dareka bAbatamAM sahakAra ApIye chIe chatAM te cAhI karI, te sAruM kAma nahI. sinerI upara rahI gaelImelIne te lIdhI che te pAchI Apa? nahItara polIsane svAdhIna karavAmAM Avaze koI paNa tAro vizvAsa rAkhaze nahI. ane phajetI pUrepUrI thaze mATe kaI jANe nahI evI rIte pAchI Apa. motIlAla samajo ke, A zeTha koI paNa rIte samajaze nahIM. eTale be hajAra rUpiyA laI pitAnI dIkarIne eka gRhasthanA putra sAthe vivAha karyo. ane te be hajAra rUpiyA gIradhara pAlane ApyA A be hajAra rUpiyA laIne gIradhara gopAla amadAvAda AvyA. A bAju bahAra gAmathI Avela hIrAhale thelI pAchI ApI. gIradharane bahu pastA thayete hAjara pAchA ApavA naroDA gayA. paNa motIlAle lIdhA nahI mahAnajananA kahevAthI sva. putrIne tIlAlanA putra sAthe paraNAvI kanyAdAna tarIke be hajAra ApIne sadugrahastha banAvyA. 9. svAtha sAdhavA khAtara putre paNa pitAnA Azayane avaLe artha kare che. le pitAnuM jIvana sukhathI pasAra thAya te mATe anekavividha AraMbharamAraMbha karIne ane zAna kare chedhanAvika For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgasUri upArjana karyA pachI AsaktinA ge tene sAro rasa nathI. temA samaje che ke dhAdika haze te sagAvahAlAM sevA cAkarI kaze paraMtu te dhanAdikathI jayAre cintAe utpanna thAya che. tyAre tene samajaNa Ave che. sukha to anAsaktinA ge prApta thAya che. eka zeThe kaSTane sahana karI ghaNuM dhana meLavyuM. parepakArAthe eka rUpiye paNa khabara nahI koI kahe tyAre tene kahe che, ke vRddhAvasthA jyAre Avaze tyAre khacIzuM. ane puNyanuM bhAtu bAMdhIzuM. Ama karatAM asahya vyAdhie tenA upara ghero ghAle. davAo vividha karI paNa ArAma thAya nahIM. sagAM vahAlAM tathA gAmanA leke jovA AvyA ane kahevA lAgyA ke, asAdhya vyAdhi thaela che. mATe have te kaI paropakArArthe kahe. svaputrone belAvI tijorI tarapha hAtha kare che tyAre putre mahAjananA sadagRhasthane kahe che. ke amArA pitA ema kahe che ke badhA rUpiyA bhIMtemAM ane makAnamAM nAMkhyA che. zeThathI have belI zakAtuM nathI. tethI pite hAthanI AMgaLIo halAvIne ema kahevA mAge che ke. pAMca hajAra rUpiyA dharmAdA khAte Ape paraMtu putra kahe che. ke are bhAIo amArA pitAzrIne saMnipAta thaye che. A pramANe putranA vacane sAMbhaLI zoTha bahu pastA karavA lAgyA. jyAre hAthamAM dhana hatuM tyAre kAMI paNa paropakArAze kharcAyuM nahI. have bhAvanA thaI tyAM putro kahe che ke sannipAta thayo Ate mananI manamAM rahI gaI. zeTha paraleka gayA. ane kAMI paNa Atmahita sAdhI zakyA nahIM, For Private And Personal Use Only

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' . ' = = atara ti 1 saMsArika viSayasukhe paDachAyA che ane sika risathI utpanna thaela jJAna teja sAcuM sukha che jeone AtmatatvanuM bhAna nathI. tathA jeene pitAnA AtmAmAM keTalI zakti rahelI che. tenI zraddhA ane jJAna nathI teo vividha prakAre latA saMbhaLAya che. ke ame zrImaMta ane dhanAdika parivAravALI hevIthI sukhI chIe tyAre keTalAka jane kahe che ke putrAdikanA abhAve ame dukhI jIvanane gunerIye chIe, zrImaMte paNa kahe che ke, amaputrAdikanA abhAve dukhI chIe. sattAdhArita adhikArIone ApaNe belatAM sAMbhaLI chIe ke. nera, sevaka tathA patnI putrAdika amArA tAbAmAM rahetA nathI amArI AjJA mujaba kAryo ne karatA nathI, svacchatA game tema bethA kare che. IcchA pramANe vartana rAkhe che tethI bahu dukha thAya che. bIjAo upara sattA-adhi kAra calAvIe chIe gharamAM sattA adhikAra calAvI zakatA nathI. A dukha kayAM jaIne kahevuM. vyAjanA AdhAre AjIvikA calAvanAra kahe che ke sarakAre amArI AjIvikAnuM sAdhana barajorathI jhuMTavI lIdhuM. kayAM jaIne pikAra karI zake zikSaka ane tyAM ze upAya? sarakAra paNa ghaNA prakAre bUmo pADe che, ke amArA upara anya sattAdhArIe, sattAne rUpaga karI dabANe punaH punaH karyA kare che, eTale amone sukha nathI. vyAdhigrasta, mAnasika citAvALAo paNa vadhAre para pikArA pADayA kare che ke A vyAdhio A citA. cAra TaLaze. A pramANe jemaNe AtmasvarUpanuM mi For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIti sAgarAra cita samu nathI tevA nirantara duHkhaaya manane zure che zake pAne TALavAnA upAya. Atmatatvane oLakhIne pa thI sagamAMthI khAsaktinA tyAga karavA jarUnA che. 11 IrSyALu, zrImaMta ke sAdhAraNa vyakitanA mANA levAnI gAThavaNa kare che paNa chevaTe te mevaDI daDAya che. dhanAki prApta karyo pachI zrImatane mahATAI meLavI prazaMsA pAtra banavAnI IcchA rahyA kare che, eke darekane mahattA meLavavAnI icchA hovI joIye. paraMtu unmA ne grahaNa karavA pUrvaka nahAvI joiye. eTale anya zrImatane samAjamAM hulakA pADavA khAtara kapaTa kaLA keLanavI ane halakA pADavA prayAsa karavA te hitakara nathI. dareka zrImaMte puNyadaye puruSArthIne karavAthI mahattAne meLavI prazaMsA pAtra bane che. A pramANe ne mAnyatA dharAvAya te du:khadAyI prasa`ga upasthita thAya nahIM. paraMtu mUrta ajJAnIne evI kuTeva hoya che, ke anya jAne halakA pADI te praznanIya anavu. eka zaheramAM jInadAsa nAme zrAvake saheATA zrImata ane dhArmika hatA tenI mhoTI peDhI ghaNA varSothI cAlatI hatI lAkhA rUpiyAnI levaDa deDha thatI hatI. tethI zeTha tarIke temanI prasiddhine vaNIne banne zrImaMta temanA para anekhAI dhAraNa karatA. ane te zeTha zaheramAM kema ho paDe ne sULamAMthI naSTa prema thAya te khAtara lAga joI rahela 'i For Private And Personal Use Only

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avara li hate. tevAmAM jInadAre pAMca lAkhano mAla lIdhela hovAthI maMgalAkhanI huMDIne cUkavavAne prasaMga upasthita thaye. mAlanA vAva besI gaela hovAthI lIdhela vastuo jI veNI zakAI nahI. mAlanA rUpisthA karavAne vakhata AvyA. bANa kave nahI te AbarU jAya ane thApaNene mUkanArA haraDe pADe tethI jInadAsa zeTha gabharAyA. triImAM parA hajAra hatA tethI kaI pAMca lAkhanI uMdha bha5AI karI zakAya kema nahatI. tethI bIjanI pAse udhAre rUpiyA le gayA paNa pAMca lAkha jevI rakama maLInahI. tethI thAkI adekhAIkaranAra zrImaMta pAse jaIne pAMca lAkhanI mAgaNI karI. ane kahyuM ke vyAja sahita be mahinAmAM rUpiyA pAchA ApI. adekhAI karanAra manamAM samajyo ke A lAga sAre AvyA che. mUlamAMthI nAza pAme te upAya kara. Ama vicArIne janadAsane kahevA lAgyA ke, zeTha vyAjanI jarUra nathI temaja gIra mUkavAnI tamAre AvazyaktA nathI. tamArA jevA zeThanI pAsethI vyAja levuM te ucita na kahevAya. sukhethI icchA mujaba rUpiA laI joo paNa zarata eTalI ke be mahinA thayA pachI je rUpiyA ApI ja nahI te savAzera mAMsa tamArA zarIramAMthI lauM, zeThane apAya hate nahI teNI te paNa kabulAta pUrvaka lakhANa karI ApyuM. pAMca lAkha rUpiyA laIne huMDInA rUpiyA cUkavI ApyA. paraMtu che mahinA sudhImAM mAlanuM ke grAhaka thayuM nahi. ane rUpiyA ApI zakAyA nathI. khera zrImaMta, tagAra karavA lAgyA. ke rUpiyA ApI zakAya nahI tethI zarIranuM savAzera mAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgareri racihna Ape A saMbhALI zeThe vicAra karyo ke mAre nAza karavAnI A kaLA teNe karI che mATe ghareNAM vecIne paNa rUpiyA basa dazA te hitakara che. ghareNAM vecone bharavA gayA tyAre pelesa kahevA lAgyuM ke, tamArA lakhANa mujama zarIranuM mAMsa Ape. rUpiyA. rUpiyA levAne vakhata vyatIta thaI gaye. zeTha rUpiA ApavA mAMDayA ane te levA mATe tene ghaNa AjIjI karI paNa nahI mAnatAM tamArA zarIranuM mAMsa ja Apo tamAe lakhI ApyuM che mAre rUpiyA jetA nathI. chevaTe A phariyAda rAjAnI AgaLa gaI-ke jInadAsa tenA lakhANa mujaba mAMsa ApatA nathI. mATe maherabAnI karIne apAve rAjAe dIvAnane kahyuM dIvAne-cukAdo Ape ke jInadAsa zeTha zarIranuM mAMsa savAzera Ape paNa je kApatI vakhate vadhAre kapAze agara lehI nIkaLaze te leNadAranA gharanI saMpattine luMTI levA purvaka tene zuLIe caDhAvAmAM Avaze. A pramANene sUkA sAMbhaLI pele bhayabhIta banya te levA gaI pUtta ane khaI AvI kharAma jevI dhImA banI. zarIrane kApavA jatAM niyama rahe nahI. vadhAre je kapAya te zuLIe caDhavAne vakhata Avaze. Ama samajI savAzera mAMsa levAnI vAta edha karI ane pAMca lAkha. rUpiyA levA mATe kahyuM. " dIvAne kahyuM ke temane rUpiyA ApavA chatAM lIdhA nahI ane rAjAnI pAse beTI phariyAda - 27 For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti ra7 karI tethI tamArA dazalAkhane kaDa karavAmAM Ave che pAMca varSanI kedanI sajA karavAmAM Ave che. IMAra zeThane daza lAkha daMDa tarIke bharavA paDyA ane pAMca varSa kedamAM rahevuM paDyuM. mATe dhanAdikane prApta karyA pachI keinA upara adekhAI dhAraNa karIne anyane halake pADA naSTa karavAnI IcchA paNa karavI nahI. prAyaH manuSyane saMpatti vaibhava maLyA pachI abhimAna adekhAIvigere durgaNe AvIne ghere ghAle che tethI te AMkhe chatAM aMdha bane che, kAna hovA chatAM badhira bane che. hita zikhAmaNa mAnatuM nathI ane saMpattinA madamAM evuM karI e che ke te pite vipattinA vAdaLo upasthita kare che. saMpattine mada kene chAje che? tene vicAra kare tapAsa karI. zraddhAvata ane TekavALA jInadAsa zeThanI prazaMsA thaI ane vipattinA vAdaLa vikharAI gayA. mATe AMkhemAM amI rAkhIne dareka prANuonuM zubha cintavavuM joIe. tenAthI ja AtmakalyANa sAdhI zakAya che. 12-vina sAthI manuSyo anyanI unnatine nihALI jema varSotratumAM meghajaLathI nava pala vita thaela vanaspatine dekhI "javAse sukAI jAya che. tema sukAI jAya che. paraMtu teo vicAra karatA nathI ke sAmanA puddha ane purUjhane laIne unnati thaI che. je te visaMtevIe adekhAI tyAga karavA pUrvaka sadavartana rAkhe to teonI vita thayela che temaja sAmAjI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgari zas pay jati thAya. tene A vAta gamatI nathI ane karataba karavAmAM pAchA paDatA hovAthI, manamAM sahAya maLatA rahe che. ane nati sAdhatA nathI. eka vR5nA darambAramAM cAra maMtrI hatA. tenA para anya adhikArIo adekhAI karavA. paNa A catura maMtrI dareka bAbatamAM pravINa hovAthI rAjA tenA para adhika prIti rAkha-anya maMtrI manamAM banyA karatA paNa temanuM kAMIpaNa cAlatuM nahIM. jyAre teo bahu akaLAyA tyAre nRpane kahevA lAgyA. ke tame catura sAgara maMtrI para ghaNe pyAra rAkhe che. ane dareka bAbatamAM tenI salAha laI rAjyanuM kArya kare che. ame zuM mukha chIe. ke amArI salAha letA nathI? ame tenA kastAM savAyA kAryo karavA samartha chIe. rAjAe te maMtrIonuM vathana sAMbhaLIne kahyuM ke tame catura maMtrInA karatAM savAyA buddhimAM che te kahe mane je lAta mAre mAruM apamAna kare tene zI zikSA karavI, temaNe vicAra karyA sivAya ekadama javAba Apyo ke tenuM mastaka uDAvI devuM joie. catura maMtrIne puchyuM-kema zI zikSA karavI. vicAra karIne catura maMtrIe kahyuM ke, mahArajA ! tenA para mRdutAne dhAraNa karI je mAge te cagya ApavuM. pelAe A saMbhALI hAMsI karavA lAgyA, ke dekhA mahArAjA ! tamArA catura maMtrInI caturAI ! 10 akhAI karanAra prathama hAthamAM baLe che ane buddhimAnanI AgaLa halake 5DatAM adhika baLAte rahe che. jethI kahevA lAgyA ke, For Private And Personal Use Only

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savAra nahi - tamane lAta mAranAra ane apamAna karanAra upara namratA-sUlA batAve che temaja vaLI kahe che ke je mAre te rApavuM. zuM tamArA vahAlA maMtrInI buddhimattA ? sadAya tenI salAha lIdhA karazo te kalyANa kalyANa thaI jaze. A pramANe teonuM kathana sAMbhaLo nRpe catura maMtrIne kahyuM ke tame je bInA batAvI tenuM sapaSTIkaraNa kare. tamAruM kathana mAre gaLe utaratuM nathI. catura maMtrIe kahyuM ke Apa vicAra kare te samajAya evI bInA che. mahArAjA? e kayA ApanA karatAM samartha che ke tamene apamAna karIne lAta mAre ane vaLI tame tene ucita mAgavA pramANe Apa "ApanA sahArANI rIsAyA ane kalAtura banIne lAta mAre agara rAjakumAra rIsAya ane rIsa karIne lAta mArI apamAna kare tene tame zuM karo? teeAnuM mastaka uDAvI deze? nRpe kahyuM ke te te kadAca rIsAya-ane lAta mAre ethI mAthe uDAvI devAya che? nahi ja te-mahArAjA ! mahArANI ke putra sivAya tamane lAta mArIne apamAna karanAra anya koI samartha he te huM dekhAtuM nathI. mahArAjAe tenuM cAturya dekhI AnaMdapUrvaka tenI prazaMsA karIne zIrapAna Ape. pelAe manamAM vadhAre baLavA lAgyA. paNa kare zuM? pitAnI ja akhAIthI pite ja halakA paDayA. ane hasI pAtra banyA. tyAra bAda adekhAI karavAnI ne bhUlI gayA. ane viddha sateSapaNAne tyAga karIne guNAnurAgI banI buddhi pramANe pitAnuM kartavya bajAvavA lAgyA. mATe koInI unnati rekhAne khuzI thavuM hu hariphAI karIne AkhA For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarAri racita kadApi karavI nahIM. ane manamAM maLavuM nahI. padayathI puNyazALIne buddhi tathA saMpatti AvI maLe che. 14 dhanAdika vastuo, svajana vaga upara-temaja AtmAnA guNe tarapha AsaktinA ge vizvAsa-zraddhA besavA detI nathI. dekhAdekhI-hariphAIbe prakAranI che. eka hariphAI evI che ke te hariphAI karanAra samartha hAya nahIM te dareka bAbatamAM pAcho paDe che. ane hariphAI karanAra samartha ane buddhimAna hoya te te AgaLa vadhe che, jyAre dhArmika hariphAI karanAra Atmika vikAsamAM AgaLa vadhe che ane viSaya kaSAyonA vikArane haThAvI savataMtra bane che. tyAre vyavahArika kAryomAM hariphAI karanAra pitAnI buddhi anusAre saMpatti vibhavane meLave che. paNa temAM je Asaktine dhAraNa kare te te Atmika vikAsamAM AgaLa vadhatuM nathI. viSaya kaSAyanA vikAsamAM adhika parAdhIna banate rahe che. tethI cintAo vyAdhio vadhe che chevaTe ArtadhyAne jIvanane vyatIta karI durgatinuM bhAjana bane che. ke eka nagaramAM zrImatanI hariphAI karIne eka vaNike ghaNuM dhana meLavyuM. eka be tijorIo lAvIne kharIda karela jhaverAtane teNe temAM bharyuM bharatAM eka khAnuM bAkI rahela che. temAM praveza karIne kaI paNa vajana varga dekhI na zake tevI rIte te jhaverAtane dararAja tapAsate. patnI patrAdikane paNa vizvAsa rAkhate nahI. AtinA cage karI harika mAM ja AsI . viSaya kavAyata For Private And Personal Use Only

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nara ti putrAdika te sthale AvI che te dhamadhamAvIne kADhI muko eka vakhata A vaNika jhaverAtanI tapAsa karavA tijorInuM bAraNuM aDadhuMvAsI tenA khAlI khAnAmAM paDe che. tevAmAM nAnA chokarAe dhakake mArI bAraNuM baMdha karyuM. cAvIo tijorImAM rahelI hovAthI ugADI zakAyuM nahI. A viveka vihIna vaNika ghaNuM bUma pADe che paNa koI sAMbhaLI zakatuM na hovAthI tene bacAvI zakayuM nahi ane guMgaLAIne maraNa pAmIne adhogatimAM gaye. 15-avikArI satya sukhanI prApti karavI hoya te 5Ta kaLAne tyAga karIne sateSane dhAraNa kare. manuSyane kapaTa kaLA keLavavA mATe ghaNe prayAsa kare paDe che ane kapaTa kaLAne keLavavA anyajanene chetare che. ane bakavA lAge che ke ame kevA kuzaLa chIe pilAne thApa mArI dhArela kArya pAra pADayuM, paNa vastutaH vicAra karIe te te kapaTa karanAra ja ThagAya che, kAraNa anyAya-vizvAghAta karIne ISTa kArya karyuMagara paisA paDAvyA. tethI AtmavikAsa upara je AvaraNa AvyuM tenI tene khabara paDatI nathI. ane dhApa mArI dhArela kArya pAra pADayuM. agara pasA paDAvyA tethI sukhane badale kapaTa kaLA khullI paDavAne bhaya te sahela che eTale manamAM zAMti joIe te rahetI nathI. mukhya muddA para zyAmatA phelAya che. vacana para asara thatI rahe che. jayAre kapaTa kaLA khulI paDe che. tyAre te tene duHkhane pAra rahetuM nathI. koI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. katisAra raziyA ane jIvanamAM bhayaMkara para hAvI badI karI rahe che. mATe nItizAe tema ja dharmazAstro pharamAve che ke kapaTa kaLAne tyAga kare tenAthI kadApi rAsa zAMti maLaze nahIM ulaTI vividha viDaMbanAe upasthita thaze koI vizvAsa dhAraNa karaze nahI ane jIvanamAM saralatA namatA kSamA ane saMpAdi guNene AvavAne AvakAza. maLaze nahI. tame je sukha zAMtine cAle che. tethI lAkhe gAu dUra jaze sukhazAMtine mATe prathama iMno tyAga karIne nyAya saMpanna vibhavavALA ane anyAya kaLA kapaTa prapa cathI koIne paNa satyazAMti maLI nathI ane maLaze paNa nahI. mATe je nyAyathI temaja puNyadaye je prApta thaela che temAM saMtoSa rAkhe. 16. kAma vikArane saMtoSavA khAtara kapaTa kaLA karanArane jIvananuM jokhama AvI lAge che. kaSTa karanArane A lokamAM ja bhayaMkara jIvanA jokhamamAM AvavuM paDe che. te vakhate pote karelI kaLAthI koI paNa sahAya karanAra maLatuM nathI. tene prANe vRthA, gumA vavAno prasaMge upasthita thAya che. mahedhArI eka bAvAne tenA bhakta gRhasthe jamavAnuM AmaMtraNa Apela hovAthI te zrA tene ghera jamavA gaye. jamatAM jamatAM te gRhasthanI putrInuM rUpa dekhI atyaMta kAmAtura thaye paraMtu lAja maryAdA te kAmane AvI sva sthAne AvyA paNa te rUpALI putrI uparathI tene moha gaye nahIM. tene mATe aneka For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara ti ghaTanAone ghaDe che tevAmAM te gRhastha bhakta bAvAjIne praNAma karavA AvyA. bAvAjIe pitAnA daMbhane pAra utAkaravA mATe pite udAsI hoya te dekhAva karyo. bhakate kahyuM ke kema tame udAsI dekhAve che ? teNe kahyuM ke tamArA taraphanI cintAne laIne udAsI chuM. bhakata che ke mArA taraphanI zI citA tamone che? jaladI kahe te tene upAya karavAmAM Ave. tamo je kaho te prANenA jokhame paNa karavAne huM tatpara banuM. bAvAe barAbara dekhAva karIne kahyuM ke, are bhakta! kahI zakAya ema nathI paNa tAre Agraha hovAthI ane tuM zraddhAvALo hovAthI kahuM chuM. jyAre tArA ghera jamavA beTho te vakhate tArI putrIne meM barAbara nihALI che te rUpavatI che paraMtuM pIThasapI che tethI tArA kAne nAza karanArI AgaLa jatAM nIkaLavAnI. ane je tene paraNAvIza te paNa nAza karaze tANa kula nAza yaMtAM amArI mahattA pUjA vigerene hAni pahoMcavAnI tethI udAsI banAyuM che. bhakate bhayabhIta banIne kahyuM ke ghara parivAli nA jAya nahI teno upAya jarUra tamArI pAse hazeja, bAvAe kahyuM upAya te paNa tArAthI te pramANe banI zakaze? bhakta kahyuM ke tame je upAyane batAve te hAlamAM ja karU. bAvAe kahyuM ke, te tArI putrIne eka peTImAM pUrI nadImAM vahetI mUkIkaI jANe nahI tevI rIte, eTale tArU bhAgya khIlaze ane kulAdikanuM rakSaNa paNa thaze. aMdha bhakta te kabUla karIne ghera AvyA ba vAe pitAnA ziSyone kahyuM ke madhyarAtra e nadImAM taratI AvatI piTIne huM jyAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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ka A. kIti sAgarasUri racita dhyAnAdika chuM tyAM lAvIne mUkaze. mAre eka devane prasanna karavA mATe anuSThAna karavAnuM che, kdAca khUmA pAkArA sabhaLAya tA paNa jyAM huM beThA . tyAM tamAre Avavu nahI. jo Avaze. te anuSThAnamAM vighna Avaze ane dhruva prasanna nahI thAya. celAe satya mAnI nadI kinAre gayA. ane peTInI rAha evA lAgyuM. bhakate ghera AvIne vahAlI putrIne uddhRtkrAmita thayela hAvAthI raDatI kakaLatI chatAM peTImAM purI madhyarAtrIe nadImAM vahetI mUkI. nadImAM taratI peDhIne te vakhate Avela eka rAjakumAre vacamAMthI upADI lIdhI.peAtAnA sthaLe lAvI tene ughADI. temAMthI eka ALA nIkaLI teNIne puchavAthI raDatI putrIe saghaLI mInA rA kumArane kahI. rAjakumAre tene mahena gaNI AzrvAsana ApyuM. ane madArInI pAsethI eka rIcha lAvI peTImAM pUrI tene baMdha karI. te peTIne pAchI nadImAM vahetI mUkI, nAra ubhelA ziSye taratI AvatI peDhIne grahaNa karI peAtAnA gurUnA besavAnA sthaLe mUkI khANu khA karI bahAra jaIne beThA. khAvAe peTI upADI, tA putrInA khAte rIM'cha nikaLyu bhUkhyA rIche tene karaDI khAdhA. AA gRhasthanI putrInuM rakSaNa thayuM. khAvAjI maraNu pAmI. durgAMtinuM bhAjana banyA. 17 bhAgyanI saphalatA purUSArthanA AdhAre che. are lAgyazAlI ! tArI kAmanAo sala thaI hoya ke nahI thaI teA paNa bhAgyanA ke krama bhAgyanA vAMka kADhIza nahI. mAnavadeha-gAya kula uttama-jAti--'pUrNAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti apAMga-dharma zravaNanI rUci, samyagUjJAnAdika A sarva bhAgyanA AdhAre ja maLela che. mATe te kama bhAgya nathI. paNa bhAgyazAlI ja che. jeone uparokata sAdhana maLyA nathI tenA karatAM te uttama che mATe hatAza banIza nahI. durlabha mAnavadehAdi prApta thaela che. te ja uttamatAnI nizAnI che. mATe pramAdane tyAga karIne dharma sahita vyavahArika kAryo kara! je AzAo saphala thaI nathI te saphalatAne dhAraNa karaze. cintAe karavAthI ke nirAza banavAthI AzAone saphala karavAnA sAdhane prApta karI zakAtAM nathI. AthI te buddhi ane zaktine hAsa thayA kare che. vakhatanI kiMmata paNa aMkAtI nathI. huM bhAgyazALI chuM ja Ama mAnIne ALasane tyAga karavA pUrvaka ubhuM thA? adhurA kAryone pUrNa kara. adhurA kAryomAM nipulatAne mata nahI. paNa aDadhI saphalatA mAna? AnpharanI nizAnI che jemAM kAryo karatA hatAza nirAza bane che tene prApta thaela skulatAne utAvaLathI rAkhI zakatA nathI. ane te kAne mUkI de che. paNa jo teo dhIratAne dhAraNa karI vicAra pUrvaka tapAsa kare te jarUra temane saphalatAnI khabara paDe. je mANasa utAvaLA thatA nathI. paNa dhIratApUrvaka kAryo karatA rahe che. teoneja saphatA varamALA paherAve che. 18 je anukala sAdhane maLyA che te pA5 baMdha mATe nathI. AtmAnatinA sAdhano prApta thayA pachI jeo piya For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita kakSAnA vicAromAM temaja vikAromAM phasAI paDelA che teo abhAgyazALI che. jeone puda sarva prakAre anukulatA maLyA chatAM paNa puNyAnubaMdhI puNayane prApta karavA mATe sadAcAra ke sadgatanuM pAlana karatA nathI temaja vividha viDaMbanAomAM sapaDAya te paNa anAthArAne tyAga kare nahI. te kamabhAgyavAnuM kahevAya. sAdhananI anukulatA, puNyAnubaMdhI puNya vadhAravA mATe che, nahIM ke pApane baMdha karavA mATe jyAre sadAcAranuM pAlana heya nahI. tyAre AttadhyAnanA ge pApano baMdha thato rahe che puNyane bhagavaTe bhagavatAM pApAnubaMdhane je khyAla zakhe nahI te mAnave bhaviSyamAM anukulatA kayAMthI prApta karI zake? mATe puNyAnubaMdhI puNyane prApta karavA mATe niSkAmabhAve sadvicAra saducAra ane sadavartanazIlI bane ke jethI anAsaktibhAve rahI zakAya. mithyAtvanuM jora cAle che te cAle nahIM. ane nizcita rahI zakAya. vastuonA svarUpanuM jayAM sudhI samyagrajJAna thatuM nathI tyAM sudhI mithyAtvanI prabaLatA a65 thatI nathI. ane puNyAnubaMdhI puNyane lhAve maLatuM nathI. tathA mithyAtvanA vegamAM taNAela mugdhajanone Atma dharmanI vyAvahArika dharmonI ane nItiSama nI vAta paNa pasaMda pakatI nathI. tethI AhApAdugalika vikArAnI adhika prabalatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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37. atara ti hovAthI Adhi-vyAdhi ane vividha viDaMbanAone AvavAne avakAza maLe che eTale dunyavI vastuo hAjara rahevA chatAM paNa satya zAMti maLatI nathI, vastuonA svarUpane samajavAmAM Ave te te prathamathI ja cetI jAya. ane mithyAtvanI prabalatAne haThAve, 19bhavAbhinaMdI ane pudagalAnaMdInA vartanamAM vacanamAM ane manamAM bhinnatA hoya che. eTale manamAM judu vacanamAM lina ane vartanamAM bhinna hoya che teo satya vastuone pArakhI zakatA nathI. ane pArakhavA mATe prayatna karavA samartha banatA nathI. bhavAbhinaMdI jIve manohara-ISTa padArthone lAbha thatAM harSaghelA bane che ane te ISTa padArthone viga thatAM zeka ghelA bane che AvI pAgala dazAmAM mAnasika sthiratA hoya kayAMthI? ane mAnasika sthiratA sivAya satya vastuo parakhAtI nathI. mATe IniSTa padArthonA mehane tyAga kare. pudagalamAM je AnaMda bhAse che te jamaNAnuM kAraNa che. jagatamAM vividha viDaMbanA prANIone upasthita thAya che te pite jAte karelA karmone paripAka che. pariNAma che. manuSya deva-naraka ane tiyaca5Nue utpanna thavuM te zubhAzubha kamanuM che. temAM vaLI manuSyanA bhAge mahaTI javAbadArI che. kAraNa ke manuSya bhavamAM taravA ane bUDavAnI agara ugra sthiti ane adhama sthitine meLavavAnI sarva sAdhana sAmagrI maLI rahe che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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38 A. kIti sAgarasUri racitaM sAdhanA prApta karIne tame je adhama sthitine meLavI tA javAbadArIne samajyA nathI. ane ucca sthiti karI te javAbadArIne adA karI ema kahevAya. mATe manuSya bhava ane uttama sAdhanA maLyA DAvAthI rAga-dveSa ane mAhanI ja jALamAM paDA nahI. sAdhanAne meLavI sAdhya je Atma 'vikAsa sAdhavAnuM che. tenuM vismaraNu kA nahI. jIbhanI mArke nileSa bhAve rahA. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 20 tamArI sattA, sapatti sAhyabI temaja parivAra vigere sAta prakAra tuTatA AyuSyane kSaNa bhare paNa TakAvI rAkhaze nahI. tathA Adhi-vyAdhine mULamAMthI nAza karI zakaze nahI. tUTatA AyuSyane sAMdhavAnI sattA-spatti vigeremAM nathI. tA pachI Adhi-vyAdhi vigerene mUlamAMthI nAza karavAnI tAkAta tenAmAM karyAMthI hAya ! jema adhika Asakita rAkhaze. tema adhika cintAe upasthita thavAnI ane hAthamAM tALI daIne sapatti khasI jaze tyAre tA cintAonA pAra raheze nahI. tameAe sattA-sa...patti vigere prApta karIne cintAone mAchI karI ke vadhArI ? vyAdhie keTalo mUlamAMtho haThAvI ? cintA temaja vicArA azubha vicAro, uccArA ane AAcArA potAnI meLe dUra khasIne zubha aMze nahI, paNa pratyAkhyAna,cathAzaktie karavAthI. zakaya tyAga karavAthI khasaze dhanAdika, parivAra vigerenI tathA zarIranI cintA alpa thatI jaze. keTalAka evA hAya che ke vaDIleAnI sunivaryAMnI zaramathI. * . For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti temaja AgrahathI khAvA-pIvAne amuka niyama le che. paNa cittamAM kapaTa rAkhe che tethI temanI cintAo ane vyAdhio khasatI nathI. eka jaina zrAvakanuM dRSTAnta keI eka AcArya mahArAje upAzrayamAM Avela zrAvakanA zarIranI nabaLI hAlata dekhI. tethI puchayuM ke AvI zarIranI sthiti hovAthI dhArmika kriyAomAM sthiratA tane thAya che? teNe kahyuM ke khAvApIvAmAM vyavahAranA kAryomAM ane dhArmika kAryomAM rahetI nathI paNa dareka bAbatamaM cintA bhaya paNa vigere rahyA kare che mATe kaI eka maMtra yaMtrAdika Ape ke jethI cintAdi rahe nahIM. AcArya mahArAje kahyuM ke, brahmacarya vinA maMtrAdika saphala thAya nahIM. mATe prathama brahmacaryanI bAdhA le ? te paNa bAdhA pAMca-cha mAsa sudhInI A sivAya tArA zarIranI hAlata sudharaze nahIM. ane cintA zekAdika dUra khasaze nahI. Ama sAMbhaLatAM ja bhAI te cUpa thayA. punaH AcArya mahArAje kahyuM ke mauna kema dhAraNa karyuM. zArIrika sthiti sudhAravA mATe pAMca-chamAsane bahAcarya pALavAno niyama ke tethI zarIramAM zakti Avaze ane cintAdikane AvavAno avakAza malaze nahI. A pramANe punaH punaH kahevAthI. "nA" kahetAM zarama AvavAthI kacavAte mane kahyuM ke bhale mahArAjA Apane ATale Agraha hovAthI pAMca-cha mAsa te nahI ghaNu pacIza divasanI bAdhA Ape. AcArya mahArAje tenI kapaTalAne barAbara samajyA sivAya poza divasa For Private And Personal Use Only

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40 A. kIrti sAgari racita brahAcayane pALavAne niyama Ape pelo manamAM te vicAra kare che ke "hAza" A lapharAmAMthI chUTa. ghera AvIne je pramANe hatuM te pramANe vartana karavA lAge. viza divasa gayA pachI tene puchayuM ke are bhalA brahmacarya pALe che ne "hA mahArAja ! pacIza divasanI bAdhA lIdhI che te divase pALuM chuM. rAtrInI bAdhA lIdhI nathI tethI rAtrImAM pALate nathI AcArya mahArAja te A sAMbhaLI vicAramAM paDyA ke bAdhA levAnI cAlabAjI AnI judA prakAranI che temaNe kahyuM ke tAre zarIranI hAlata mATe temaja citA ochI karavA A niyama Ape temAM paNa keTalA? mahAnubhAva samajo ! tyAre pele kahevA lAgyuM ke, jIvIe ke marI jaIe te paNa tevI bAdhA pAlI zakAze nahI. AvA mANasanI zArIrika sthiti sudhare kayAMthI? ane cintA zeka vigere haThe paNa kayAMthI? AvA mANasene vividha vyasane vaLagelA hoya che. eka te brahmacaryanA pAlana vinA zArIrika nabaLAI hoya che temAM vaLI divasamAM pacAzeka bIDI pIvAna vyasana hoya che tethI temanuM kALajuM khavAtu jAya che. A bhAine bIDI pIvAnuM paNa vyasana lAgu paDela hatuM tethI mahArAje kahyuM "ke alyA bamaNe mIThe mAra khAI rahela che tenuM tane bhAna nathI. mATe bIDI nahI pIvAnI bAdhA le, AcArya mahArAjane Agraha hovAthI bAdhA te lIdhI paNa bIDI pIvI ane bAdhAmAM vAMdha Ave nahI tevI rIte vicAra karI nAmamAM ja phakta taphAvata. evI sIgA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 41 reTa pIvA lAgyuM. ekavAra gurU mahArAje sIgAreTa pItAM dekhIne kahyuM ke alyA. te. mAdhA lIdhI che ane bIDI pIve che. kema ? teNe brIDrAIthI kahyu ke, ' gurUmahArAja ! sIgAreTanI kayAM khAdhA lIdhI che ? mIDInI mAdhA lIdhI che. nAmamAM taphAvata hAvAthI khAdhA kre che? pelA kahe che ke sIgAreTa teA pIvAne ja. A mANase zArIrika. Atmika ala ochu kare emAM zuM kahevu' ? ekavAra sadha bhegA thayA che. ane navIna upAzraya aMdhAvavAnA hatA tethI TIpa karavA mATe pAMca jaNAne ubhA karyAM. temAM A bhAI sAheba paNa AvI gayA. ane zaramathI ASA lIdhI ke. 'jyAM sudhI TIpa karavA na jaIe tyAM sudhI roTalI khAvI nahI.' mahAjanane vizvAsa beThA ke, cAkkasa TIpa karavA khIje dIvase jaze. eka mahinA lagabhaga thavA AvyA, paNa A bhAI jaI zakayA nahI. gharamAM strIne kahyu ke roTalInI mAre khAdhA che mATe kulakAM banAvIne Apa, A pramANe kahIne rAja khAvA lAgyA. ekavAra A bhAI bhANAmAM phulakA khAI rahela che teTalAmAM bAdhA lenAra pAMcamAMthI eka tyAM AvyAM. ane tene phulakAM khAte dekhIne kahyuM ke alyA A zuM kare che ? A bhAI kahevA lAgyA ke rezaTalI khAtA nathI paNa phulakAM khAu chuM Avela vyaktie kahyuM ke AmAM taphAvata nAmanA che mATe tArI AdhAmAM zA mAla ? AvI rIte jAhera mahattAne meLavavA mATe vrata niyama badhA vigere te pazu Asakti hovAthI For Private And Personal Use Only

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sa A. kIti sAgarasUri racita pALI zakatA, nI. temAnI cintAe vyAdhi khasatI nathI ane punaHpu:na saMtApa urjAve che mATe alane vAparI kapaTa kalAne dUra karI khAdhA vagere levAmAM Ave te Atmakhala vadhe ane sAthe sAthe zArIrika zakti Ave thAya. mATe niSkapaTabhAve vrata niyama vigera levAnI AvazyakatA che. AtmAnA svarUpane je rUpe che te svarUpe jANavu 21 hAya teNe tattvane jANavA mATe prathama sAmAyikane ane tenA ane jANavA mAMTe jarUra prayatna karavA mana vacana ane kAyAnA batrIsa DhASAne zAstra kArAe darzAvyA che teonA tyAga karavA tamannA rAkhavI jema jema A doSa dUra khasatA jAya che tema tema tirAbhAve rahela AtmatatvanA AvirbhAva thAya che. jyAre AMzika paNa Atmika svarUpanA prAdurbhAva thAya che tyAre rAga-dveSa ane mAha je saMsArika vastuomAM rahela che. te alpa thatA jAya che. ane padArthomAMthI rAga-dveSa ane mAhu alpa thatAM pratyAkhyAna tyAga karavAnI bhAvanA sAthe amuka kAla sudhI te te padArthAnA tyAga thAya che. A tyAga paNu AtmAnA guNu che. A pachI pratyAkhyAnanA yAge atItakAlanA thaelA DhASAnI nindA thAya che. vamAnamAM saMvara thAya che ane bhaviSyamAM tyAga yuge Asati alpa thavAthI Atma tatvanA prakAzanA Arabha thAya che ethI alpa parigraha hAya agara na paNa hAya tA paNa cintA zAka thatAM nathI. Atma prakAzamAM AnaMda pUrvaka jhIlAtu hAvAthI adhika parigrahanI * For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti AvazyakatA rahetI nathI. eTale tyAga pratyAkhyAnamAM AgaLa vadhatAM saMvara vadhe che. ane sAthe sAthe azubha vicArAdika AvI zakatA nathI tethI tapasyA karatAM sattAmAM rahelAM karmo paNa udayamAM AvI kSaya pAme che. jema jema kAyA-mAyAnI mamatA TaLatI jAya che. tema AnaMdanA. ubharAo AvyA kare che ane anukrame ghAtIyAkane ghAta thatAM kaivalyajJAnano prAdurbhAva thAya che. mATe prathama sAmAyikanI barAbara ArAdhanA karI batrIsa dene TALavA mATe lakSa devAnI khAsa jarUra che. AtmasvarUpa jANyA pachI bIjA padArtho jANavAnI jarUra ke prayAsa karavA paDaze nahI. kaI eka bhAgyazAlIne AtmasvarUpane jANavAnI IcchA. thaI tethI teNe mahAjJAnI-saMgI-vairAgI-tyAgI-Atmadarzana nIka pAse AvIne kahyuM ke, mane AtmasvarUpane lAbha thAya. tene upAya batAve? jJAnIo Avela jIjJAsu pAtra che ke nahI. tenI parIkSA mATe kahyuM ke sAme dekhAtA vRkSanI pAse jamInamAM dATela citAmaNine tuM laI Ava, jIjJAsu tyAM gaye. ane cintAmaNine hasta gata karyo paNa temAM te muMjhAya nahIM. ane vicAra karavA lAgyA ke A AtmatvathI bhinna che ane mAgaNI karIza tyAre te je vastuo Apaze te viyegavALI vastuo Apaze te paNa kSaNa vinAzI A vicArI viveka teNe lAvI mahAjJAnI pAse AvIne kahyuM ke, tame ene tyAga karyo che mATe tamArI pAse te cintAmaNi ratnanA karatAM sAthe sAthe ane samIpamAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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4 A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita paNa samIpa rahenAra ke zAzvata vastu hovI joIe mAre tene ja khapa che te Apo, ke jethI sarvathA-sarvadAane sarvatra AnaMdanA dhodhamAM jhIlI zakAya. A pramANe te jIjJAsune sAMbhaLI mahA munirAja bahu khuzI thayA ane kahyuM ke. cintAmaNi -kalpavRkSa karatA paNa sAmAyika atyaMta mahimAvaMta vastu che. paNa carmacakSuo vaDe dekhI zakAya ema nathI. e te kyAre dekhAya sArA jagatamAM paribhramaNa karatI mAnasika vRttione prathama aMtaramAM utArI AtmAnA guNAmAM sthira kare tyAre ja sAmAyika sAkSAt daSTigocara thAya ema che ane te Atmika guNamAM sthira thatAM AnaMda AvatuM hovAthI bIje sthale paribhramaNa karavAnuM baMdha thAya che. ane tethI mananA je daza de che te khase che. mananA daza de khase te vacananA daza de tathA kAyAnA bAra do TaLatA jAya che zAzvataapUrva avyAbAdha vastune prApta karavI hoya te rAga-dveSa ane meha mamatA ahaMkrAdikane mUlamAM khaseDavA mATe "sAmAyika karavAnI khAsa AvazyaktA che. mAnasikavRttio tarapha lakSa detAM Atma zakti AgaLa teone vega baMdha paDate jAya che ane Atmika zaktine vikAsa thatuM rahe che. A pramANe zravaNa karIne A bhAgyazAlI batrIza dene TALavA mAnasika vRttione aMtaramAM vALI te vRttio upara lakSa devA lAgyuM. anukrame te vatione paribhramaNa karavAnuM baMdha thayuM. ane Atmika zaktione sAkSAtkAra thavAne AraMbha thaye mATe sAmAyika karIne mAnasika vattio upara lakSa rAkhe ke te kayAM doDe che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti rara para nindAnA tyAgapUrvaka svAne nindI guNavAna bane. anya mANasenI AgaLa bIjAonA dene kahevA agara jAhera karavA te nindA kahevAya che. A nindA karavAthI vera virAdhAdika utpanna thAya che ane vadhe che vera utpana thatAM tathA vRddhine pAmatAM sattA-saMpatti ane zakti havA chatAM paNa sukha zAMti maLI zakatI nathI ane tenI sAthe rahelA sadaguNe paNa khasavA mADe che. jyAM paraspara vira virodhAdikaka hoya tyAM sukhazAMtine tathA saddaguNene AvavAnuM maLatuM nathI kAraNa ke tene anAdikAlIna vizeSa che. eTale anyajanonA ane bIjA AgaLa kathana karatAM nindA karatAM AnaMda khasavA mAMDe che ane vera virodhanI paraMparA vadhatAM nindA karanAranI bAonnati ke AtmatimAM vividha vidane AvIne upasthita thAya che. mATe je nindA karavAnI Teva paDI hoya te pitAnAmAM rahelAM denI nindA gaha kare. AthI durga,doSe khasavA mAMDaze. saddaguNomAM vadhAre thaze ane uttarottara AtmavikAza thata raheze. bIjAonA deze anyane AgaLa kahetAM te te dezone sAMbhaLanAra tamane kaheze ke, tenA jevA tamArAmAM paNa de rahelA che. te vakhate tamAre mijAja kAbumAM raheze nahI ane kaMkAsa belAbelI karavA mAMDaze agara ghaNuM khoTuM lAgaze. ane sAcA thavA khAtara aneka juThANuM asatye upasthita karavo paDaze. chatAM je zramaNa karanAra nahI mAne to mArAmArI '' For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasUri racita upara AvatAM paNa vilaMba thaze nahIM. mATe anyanI ninyA karavAne tyAga karI svanijA graha karo ke jethI zAMti rahe ane saMpAdikane lAbha maLe. ra3 bIjAnA dene jovAnI TevathI hAnine vicAra karo. anyajananA dene bIjA AgaLa kahevA nahI. temaja bIjAnA dene jevA paNa nahIM. kAraNa te dene jotAM agara kahetAM te deze kahenArane paNa vaLage e saMbhava che kahenAra sahuguNa heya nahI. temaja jenAra AtmadazI na hoya te tevA de AvIne vaLage temAM navAI zI? eTale duryodhananI daSTine tyAga karI dharmAtmA yudhiThiranI dRSTino vicAra kara. anyajanA ne jovAmAM agara kathana karavAmAM jeTale vakhata vyatIta thAya che teTale vakhata potAnA doSane jovAmAM kADhavAmAM Ave te je je je rahelA che teone dUra karavAnI bhAvanA pUrvaka prayatnazIla banAya. ane sadaguNe AvIne vase. paranA doSane jovA ane anyane AgaLa kahevA te durgati javAnI nizAnI che ane aSamatAne lAvavAnuM nimaMtraNa che. ninA karanAra ane dene jenAra bamaNe baMdhAela jANa eTale rAga-dveSa ane maha vigere tene barAbara phasAvI dukha devAmAM bAkI rAkhatA nathI tene adhikAdhika For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara jyoti kaSAyanene vikAra vadhatuM rahe che. rAga-dveSanA baMdhane daSTi gocara thatAM nathI. te rAga-dveSathI utpanna thaela nindA tene Indriyagocara na thatI hovAthI vera virodhAdika vadhArI nindA dukha devAmAM bAkI rAkhatI nathI. kahevAya che ke devanI nindA karavAthI daridratA Ave ane gurUonI nindA karavAthI kula kSaya thAya. samyam jJAnanA sAdhana tathA samyaga jJAnIonI tathA dhamIjanenI nindA karavAthI vividha vyAdhio utpanna thAya che. sAmAnya jIvenI ninA karavAthI pApa baMdhAya che te deva gurU ane dharmanI nindA karavAthI pApa zuM nahI baMdhAya? jarUra baMdhAya ja nidAne tyAga kare, ane nidA karavI ja hoya to potAnA aparAdhonI bhUlonI nA kare. ane tenI bhUle tathA aparAdha thAya nahIM tevI kALajI rAkhe nindA karavAnI TevavALA. bhale paMDita hoya ke dhArmika kahevAtA heya. te paNa tethI temane viDaMbanA AvIne vaLage che. ke eka zaheramAM zeThanI putrI sArI rIte vyavahArika ane dhArmika abhyAsa karIne nipuNa anela hatI. tethI gharamAM pADozamAM ane sArA zaheramAM tene saghaLA mANase sanmAna satkAra karatA paNa A putrIne para nindA karavAnI burI Teva paTTI hatI. tethI kekanA dene dekhI bIjAnI AgaLa nidA svA maMDI paDe pele mU che. pele che te pati pazu For Private And Personal Use Only

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ja8 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita vyabhicArI che pele buddhimAna che paNa uThAvagIra che pilI sI belavAmAM juThThI che ane zeTTI che gharamAMthI corI karIne chAnuM saMtADe che. A pramANe vividha nindA karIne maLela suavasarane vRthA gumAve che. ane temAM kevI viDaMbanA gupta rahelI che. tene khyAla AvatuM nathI. avasara maLe ke lavarI-nindA karavAmAM bAkI rAkhatI nahotI. eka vatana rAjAnI rANI eLeya zaNagAra paherI dAsadAsIonI sAthe udyAnamAM keli karavA gamana karI rahela che mukhe pAna cAvatI ane dAsa dAsIo sAthe hasIne vAte karatI evI rANIne zeTha putrIe dekhIne pAse rahelI beThaNane khIjavAIne kahevA lAgI ke, "sAMbhaLa bena !.A rANIe saLa zaNagAra paheryo che. mukhamAM tAMbula che ane pAchI dAsa dAsIo sAthe hasI-mazkarI karavA pUrvaka bolI rahI che ke prakAranI lajajA nathI te A rANI kevI rIte ziyaLa pALatI haze? mane te bena! tenA zIyaLa pativratA dharmamAM zaMkA thAya che nahItara A pramANe vartana hoya nahIM. A rANI koInI sAthe vyabhicAra karatI hevI joIe. AvuM vartana rAjAnI rANIne zobhe nahI. A pramANe potAnI beThavaNane kahetI zeTha putrInI vAtane pAchaLa rahelI dAsIe sAMbhaLI. dAsIe rANIne vAta kahI. rANIe nRpane pitAnI nindA karatI zeTha putrIne bolAvavAnuM kahyuM nRpe zekaputrIne bolavI nindA karatI hatI teNIne puchayuM ke tuM je rANI saMbaMdhI vAta karatI hatI te najare khela For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti che ke upara uparathI vAta kare che. zeThaputrI kAMI paNa puravAra karI zakI nahI. tethI rAjAe gussAmAM AvI dezanikAlanI sajA karI. tethI A zeThaputrIne ghaNI viDaMbanAe sahana karavI paDI. mATe paranindAne tyAga karI vanI nindA niraMtara kare. ke jethI he TaLe ane guNene pAdurbhAva thAya, 24 svecchAne pUrNa karavA mATe manuSya nItimAgane tathA dharmamAgane tyAga karI dhanAdikane meLavavA mATe nirantara cintAo-zeka karatA mAluma paDe. ane puNya-prayAsanA AdhAre te mANase dhanAvikane prApta karI IcchA pUrI kare che ane pUrI thai ema mAne che kharA. paNa pitAnA karatAM adhika saMpatti mAnene dekhI pUrI thaelI IcachAne adhurI mAnatA pAchA sure che. cintA kare che. tevA saMpattimAna banavA mATe prayatnazIla bane che paNa tathA prakAranuM puNya ane prayAsa na hovAthI dhAryA pramANe saMpatti sAhAbI na maLatAM nyAyane visArI koI paNa prakAre pApasthAnakane sevIne paNa IcchA pUrI karavA dhAraNuM rAkhe che ane pApe sevIne dhanAdika meLavavA mathe che. mAne ke dhanAdika teoe prApta karyuM". paNa te dhanAdikanA AdhAre je sukhane meLavavAnI AzA hatI paNa tenA badale nirAzA hAjara thaI. A pramANe AzAone pUrI karavA jatAM nirAzA maLatI hovAthI nirAzA TaLe ane AzA saphala thAya tene vicAra kare For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIti sAgarasUristhita agatyanA che. dunyavI padArthAthI sArSi gAthA IcchAe pUNa thatI ja nathI Ama samajI AzA-icchAne pUrNa karavA mATe zubha vicAra karavA pUrvaka aha kAra-mamatAnA tyAga karI svapara hitakArI dhArmika kAryo karavA joIe. tethI AzA pUrI thavAnI ane nirAzA TaLavAnI, svapara hitakArI kAryo karavA teja AzAone pUrNa karavAnA ane satya sukha meLavavAnA ananya upAya che. phAi ene evI mAnyatA hatI ke, ze paiAtmA ze te dhAye puchatA Avaze. mAna sanmAna zo ane mInA mArI pAse AvIne AjIjI karaze. ane AvelA badhA aMtaro nAma dhAraNA rAkhI nIti nyAya dharmAddhine bhrUNI dhaMdhA karavA lAgye chupu pAya karatA tathA chaLa kapaTAne karatA vyApAra karI rahelA che puNyeya savAthI badhA dhamayAkAra cAlI rahelA che. ane paisAnA sapatti sAAkhI mAna-sanmAnAhi paNa sArI rIte maLe che paNa paisA vigere, anItithI atyaMta bhAraMbhathI prApta karalA DAvAthI hRdaye kheda udvega vigera thatA hAvAthI eie tevI zAMti nahAtI. judA judA prakAre cintAe thatI hAvAthI vicAra karavA lAgyA ke paisAthI mahattA-zAMti maLaze AvI mAnyatA kheATI hatI. mATe zAMti-mahattA vigerene meLavavAnA mAga nuTA DhAvA joie kAI tajJAnI Atma jJAnInI pAse jaIne te mAga ne jANI te mAge prayANa karU jAma vicArI te mahAzaya samyagratAnI pAse gayA. satya For Private And Personal Use Only

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zani zakti sukha zAMti mAgI che ane A sAthe ke che sahAya sukhazAMtine prApta karavI hoya te neha rAkhyA rAga ane daSTi rAgane tyAga karI nyAyanIti pUrvaka mAcArenuM sevana karo sadAcAre vicArene utpanna kare che ane pachI vivekarUpI cakSuonuM uddaghATana thAya che. ane viveka pUrvaka vyApAra karatAM kheda ugazeka paritApane AvavAne AvakAza maLaze nahI. A pramANe sadagurU pAse samyagajJAnane upadeza zravaNa karI vana karavAmAM tatpara banela hevAthI pisAo sAthe saMpatti sAdAbI prApta thaI ane kheda-uga-ciMtA vigera cAlI gayA. ane AtmavikAsa sadhAtAM sadagatine paNa meLavo bhakti sevAnuM phala A jagatamAM nyAyanIti pUrvaka zakaya vepAra karI zAMtine meLavavI te che zAMti-sukha rahe nahI. ane eda-udvega rahetA meLavelA dhanAdikathI ze lAbha? 25 jyAre ApaNane ApaNA AtmAnI anaMta zakitanI zraddhA bese te bahAra Avazyaka vastuo mATe, bhaTakavAnI-parihAmaNuM karavAnI jarUra rahetI nathI. paNa AtmAnI anaMta zakti upara vizvAsa nahI hovAthI bahAranI vastuo mATe bhaTakavuM paDe che temaja zeka-paritApa karavo paDe che. jyAre AtmAnI-Atmika guNomAM barAbara zraddhA pUrvaka bhAna thaze tyAre ApatagI vigere mAluma paDaze nahI. anaMta nidhAnanA adhikArI banyA pachI. bhaTakavAnuM heya kyAMthI ane jIvanamAM pratApa bira rahe kayAMthI? ja nahI.. . For Private And Personal Use Only

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para A. kIti sAgarasUri racita 26 asa tAja paritApATTikathI ApaNane mAluma paDe che ke ApaNe hajI anata zakti-samRddhi ane zuddhinA svAmI sAthe ekAgratA pUrvaka saMbaMdha bAMdhyA nathI. tethI bahAra ApaNI sRSTi bhasyA kare che. ane paribhramaNatA karavI paDe che. jo anaMta jJAnakhalanA svAmI sAthe dunyavI viSayAsaktine nivArI ekAgratA pUrvaka saMkha`dha khAMdhIzuM' te kadApi paribhramaNa karavuM paDaze nahI. ane anata Rddhi siddhi ane zuddhi ApoApa AvIne hAjara thaze. khedanI vAta te e che ke ApaNe ApaNA AtmAnA guNAne jANavA mATe vakhata kADhayA nathI. ane jANavA mATe vicAraNA paNa karI nathI. tA pachI cAhanA kayAMthI hAya ? samudramAM mAtI maNI vigere kiMmatI vastue bharapura hAya che, paNa uMDA utaryAM vinA ane ekAgratAne dhAraNa karyo sivAya maNi, mAtI vigere vastuo kayAMthI maLe ! zArIrika zakti tathA mahattA sattAdine prApta karavA khAtara punaH puna: vicAra karyAM temaja prayAsa karIne te te sattAdikane prApta karyAM. pazu bhAtmika zakti-sattA-jJAna vagere kayAre meLavaze ? sayeAge maLelA temaja kSaNa vinAzI padArthI kATI jatAM tUTI paDatAM tathA nAza pAmatAM tathA alpa maLatAM mAnavAne bahu lAgI Ave che ane punaH prApta karavA athAga prayAsa karavAmAM Ave che. paraMtu kSaNe kSaNe viSaya kaSAyanA. vicArA ane vikArAthI tUTatI nAza pAmatI Atma zakti-sattAhikane prApta karavA mATe vicAraNA paNa karavAnA For Private And Personal Use Only

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tira ti vakhata maLatA nathI. A kevI buddhimattA mATe je buddhi zakti hoya te Atmika zakti vigere meLavavAnI AvazyakatA che. Atmabalane prApta karyo pachI jagatamAM paribhramaNa karavuM paDaze nahIM. ra7 kaDavAzane mALAzane tathA pratikulatAne pitAne managamatI banAvavAnI zakitao manuSyamAM rahelI che. je DahApaNuM hoya te kaDavAzane tathA meLAzane mIThI banAvI zakAya che ane pratikulatAne paNa anukulatAmAM pheravI zakAya che paNa sahiSNutAne kharekhara kevaLI hoya te ja, temaja vicAraNA vivekanA AdhAre zatruone paNa mitra tarIke banAvI zakAya che. sAMsArika saMbadhe tathA dhanAdikanI agavaDatAmAM-pratikulatAmAM sadvicAra ane viveka karavAmAM Ave te te vivekIne agavaDatA kaDavAza jevuM bhAsatuM nathI ane jAgratI rahe che tethI ja anaMta sukha samRddhi-ane zuddhinA svAmI pAse javAnI tAkAta utpanna thAya che. mATe prathama pratikulatAmAM-agavaDatAnI kaseTI mAnI AnaMdamAM rahevA mATe Teva pADavAnI jarUra che jyAre vivekadvArA jagatanA saMbaMdhe ane padArthomAM je Asakti che tene dUra karavAmAM Ave tyAre ja pratikulatAmAM anukulatA bhAse che. ane bhAsaze. nahItara te ja Asakti ke mAra khavarAve che ane tene dura karavAmAM ke AnaMda rahe che tenuM daSTAMta For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgari hiTa jApavAmAM Ave che tethI mAluma paDaze. eka sArA zake. ramAM sAmA rahelI dukAnanA oTalA upara cAra pAMca gADImAM beThA che. (mi) mAMhomAMhI vikathAnI vAte tathA gAma gapATA mArI rahela che teTalAmAM eka bhAInA hAthanuM so rUpiyAnuM ghaDIALa nIce sarakI paDayuM. tenI tene khabara rahI naWI. bIje sthale mAnasika vRtti doDatI hoya tyAre sarakI paDatI vastuo bhale kiMmatI hoya te paNa khabara paDatI nathI. A bhAI zAlI gayA ane sarakI paDelI kimatI ghaDIALa eTale beThelA pAMca beThIAe dekhI tene grahaNa karavA teo pAMce ya deDyA. temAMthI AgaLa AvelA eke te ghaDIALa lIdhI. bIjAe kahyuM ke, A ghaDIALa mUkI, che nahI mUke te be cAra tamAcA-lAphA lagAvIne laI jaIza prathamane ghaDIALanI Asakti ochI hatI. temaja mAranI bhIti hatI. tethI mUkI dIdhI, bIjAe te ghaDIALa grahaNa karI tyAre trIjAe kahyuM ke, A ghaDIyALa mahane A5-je ApIza nahI te mAra mArIne paNa laIza. bIjAne rAga adhika hovAthI trIjAne ApI nahI. tyAre teNe pelAe traNa cAra tamAcA lagAvyA. ane adhika mAravA jAya che. tyAre vadhAre mAranI bhIti hovAthI cAra tamAcA khAIne teNe trIjAne ApI. trIjAnA karatAM cothA adhika balavAna ane AsaktimAna havAthI. tene kahyA vinA cAra pAMca lAphA lagAvIne kahyuM ke A ghaDIALa tArI nathI mATe mUkI de. nahItara mAra mArIne adhamuo karIza, pitAe ghaDIALano tyAga karyo kahI. jethI hAthamAM rahelI soTI For Private And Personal Use Only

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bAMtara jAti lagAvI. A-bhAIe paNa barAbara mAra khAIne thAne ApI. DIALa hAthamAM laIne harSamAM jhIle che. teTalAmAM pAMcamA kAke A ghaDIyALa tArI ke tArA bApanI nathI. Ate mArgamAM sarakI paDelI che. mATe ane ApI de nahItara e mAra mArIza ke paMdara divase paNa ubho thaIza nahI. A pramANe kaI paNa thAe ApI nahI nahI tyAre pAMcamAe. tamAcA-late ane eTIemane mAra mAryo. A pramANe mAra paDavAthI tammaramUchI AvI. ghaDIALa pAMcamo laIne cAlyA jAya che. tevAmAM tene polIse pakaDaze. pilIze mAra mArI te ghaDIALa chInavI lIdhI tyAre kaI prakArane upAya cAlyA nahI Asakti ane atyaMta rAgathI mAra khAnAra ane ghaDIALa mATe mAranAra badhAye vilakhA paDayA. ane paraspara pastA karavA lAgyA. prathama ghaDIALane grahaNa karanAre bIjAne tarata ApI tethI teNe mAra khALe nahIM. ane AnaMdamAM rahyo mATe DahApaNukuzalatA-pravINatA je hoya te atyaMta rAgane tyAga karI pratikalatAmAM anukuLatAne dhAraNa kare. 28 sukhazAtA-ane zAMtine prApta karavA ane rakSaNa karavA jatAM je satya-saMteSa-samatAdi guNe haNAya te te sukhazAtA ke zAMtinI paNa kiMmata nathI. arthata pariNAme azAtA ane azAMti hAjara thavAnI. mATe satya-saMteSa-samavaghavAya e rItie sukhazAtA ke zAMti khAtara vatana rAkhavuM te bhayaMkara jokhama kheDavA mare For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita bara che. are mahAyAtanA-saMkaTe ane viDaMbanAone AvavAnuM AmaMtraNa che, paNa mahA dukha-viDaMbanA vigere sahana karIne satya-saMpAdine jALavavAmAM Ave te sukhazAtA ane satya zAMtine AvavAne mAga, sugama ane sarala bane che. ane pachI te sukha zAMti, AmaMtraNane rAha jotI nathI viSAyika sukha-zAMtinA abhilASijano AvI sukha zAtA khAtara satya-saMtoSa-samatAdi guNanuM lIlAma karIne pAchA harakhAya che. pitAne bahAdura-zuravIra mAnI bese che. paraMtu jyAre satya-saMteSAdi saddaguNanA abhAve sukhazAMti khasI jAya che tyAre vividha vilApa karavA besI jAya che. mATe prathama sahana karIne satya-sa teSAdi guNene sAcavyA haze te viDaMbanA vigere AvavAne mArga maLaze nahI. ane sAthe sAthe A nnati sadhAtI raheze. viDaMbanAazAMti-kalaha kaMkAsAtIne dUra karanAra ane satya sukhazAtA zAMti ane anaMta AnaMdane arpaNa karanAra-ahiMsA-satyasaMtoSa ane samatvAdikane kaI paNa upAye sAcavavA laganI lagADavI joIe. A sivAya karADo prayAsa karaze te paNa te sukha zAtA AvI maLaze nahI. ane kAMI haze te paNa khasI jaze. A satyAdiguNe te ApaNuM jIvana-mANe ane sAcI saMpatti che. 29 dhanAdikane prApta karyA pachI tenI sArthakatA salatA karavA samavanI jarUra rahevAnI ja. ane samatvane prApta karavA mATe sabhya jJAna For Private And Personal Use Only

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pAMtara ti sAthe dharmanI paNa agatyatA rahevAnI ja. samyajJAna pUrvaka dharmanI ArAdhanA vinA samatva rahevuM te azakaya che. mATe samatva prApta karavA mATe nItizAstra paNa kahe che ke, ajarAmaravatmAzo vidyAmarthaca cintayet gRhItaiva kazeSu, mRtyunA dharmamAcarata prakRSNa buddhimAnuM prathama samyam jJAnane prApta karIne tenA arthanI vicAraNA punaH punaH kare tathA vicAraNA karIne mRtyue keza vALamAM mane pakaDa che. Ama vicArI dharmanI sadA ArAdhanA kare te dharmanI ArAdhanA ge samatva hAjara thAya che. eTale rAga-dveSa mehanA vicAro ane vikAra khase che pachI je saMge prApta thaela dhana pari. vAranI sArthakatA ane saphalatA sadhAya che. teja sAdhane sahakArane ApavA samartha bane che samatva sivAya phakta meLavela dhanAdika sAdhana-sAmagrI, ahaMkAra, mamatA, adekhAI vigerene upasthita karIne AtmadazAne astavyasta karI durgatimAM phasAve che. je samyam jJAnapUrvaka dharmanI rItasara ArAdhanA haze te dhana-parivArane bhAra nathI ke, samatva lAbhane haThAvI zake. gRhasthapaNAmAM je sabhya jJAna sAthe dhamanI AcAraNa haze nahI te samabhAva te Avaze nahI. paNa tenA sthAne kalaha-kaMkAza adekhAI vigere AtmaguNa ghAtaka haze For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtikAra zakita AvI hAjara thaze aeva Adhi-vyAdhi upAdhinI viTa banAe AvIne barAbara ghere vAlaze. pachI te gherAne bAvavA prayAsa karaze te paNa haTha zakaya banaze. mATe A bhavamA tathA paralokamAM anukula sAdhana-sAmagrI meLa vavI hoya ane sAcA sukhanA hAvA levA hoya te samyagajJAnane meLavI tenA arthanI vicAraNA karI AcaraNa pUrvaka samatvane prApta kare. 3. dhanADhayo balavAne adhikArIo prAya abhimAnI hevAthI kaI mANasa temanI thaelI bhUlo aparAdhane batAve, tyAre je batAvanAra upara kapAtara nI be cAra gALo paDAvIne tenI barAbara khabara levAnI bAkI rAkhatA nathI. kAraNa ke temane yauvana-dhana saMpatti ane prabhutA caLelI che eTale temAM Asakta banI thaelI bhUlone aparAdhane sudhAravAnI vRtti jAgatI nathI ane batAvanAranI barabAdI karI bese che. sadvicArane viveka vinAnI dhana saMpatti prabhutA vigere, kayA dene utpanna karatA nathI ? eTale temane pudaye prApta thayelI sAdhana sAmagrI teone patana mATe thAya che mATe sattAdhArIdhanADhaye. adhikArIoe. sadvicAra-ane vivekane dhAraNa karI koI bhalene agara aparAdhane jaNAve tyAre teone sudhAravA mATe prayAsa karavAnI AvazyaktA che dholakAnA jaguhA zeThanuM daSTAMta chaguhA zeka sAmAnya sthitivALA hevAthI ghI tela For Private And Personal Use Only

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mahira jAti kapAsAhi ne pAra karI havAvikA calAvatA hatA chatAM koIne pAse pitAnI dInatA-hInatA batAvatA nahI. temaja thAthanA paNa karatA nathI. sAthe sAthe ghaNA baLavAna hovAthI dhanurdhara paNa hatA. mAreluM bANa khAlI jatuM nahI. tethI bhAthAne tathA dhanuSyane paNa dhAraNu karIne vepAra mATe gAma gAma jatAM. ane zrI. bhakatAmara stotrane ekAgratA pUrvaka bhaNatA. tethI zrI. cakezvarI devIe ema vazIkaraNa ratna ApyuM. tyArathI temanI uti thavA lAgI. samyagudhArI deva-devIe, je hInatA-dInatAne dhAraNa karatA nathI ane je nirbhaya hoya che teone tetra bhaNatA paNa devI prasanna thAya che ekadA zrI bhaktAmara stotrane bhaNIne vepAra mATe bIjA gAma A zeTha gayA. tyAMthI sAro lAbha laI pAcho svagRhe Ave che. teTalAmAM mArgamAM traNa ziroe paDakAra karyo. ubhe zahe vANIyA, je tArI pAse che. te mUkI che. temanA paDakArathI A zeTha gAMjyA jAya evA nahotA. dhAraNa karelA bhAthAmAM te ghaNA bA hatA. paNa temAMthI traNe bANene kADhI eka eka bANe vaDe. traNeya cArene parAsta karyA-Acaree. bhImadeva rAjAnI prajAone bahu luMTI ane herAna karI hatI. tethI lake trAsa pAmelA hatA. ane kabajAmAM AvatA hatA, A zerane parAsta karela hovAthI dhoLakA zaheramAM paNa temanI sArA pramANamAM prazaMsA thavA lAgI. bhImadeva nRpe paNa cArAne parAsta karyAnI bInA jANI-tethI tene sanmAna pUrvaka For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kautisAgarasUri racita lAvI keTavALanI padavI ApI. ane sonAnI muThavALI taravAra ApI tenA vakhANa karyA,zeThane keTavALa thavAnI Iccha nahAtI. paNa rAjAne atyAgraDa hevAthI svIkAravI paDI. te arasAmAM senA patie. nRpane kaTAkSa pUrvaka kahyuM ke he rAjanuM taravAra te jene taravArane khelavAne abhyAsa hoya tene apAya. jiguhAne te ghI tela kapAsAdikane taLavAnuM ApavuM joIe, temane telavAne sAre abhyAsa che. A sAMbhaLIne jiguhAe kahyuM ke taravAra-bhAlAdhanuSyadhara vigere zone dhAraNa karanAra ghaNA hoya che. paNa te zatruzalya? raNamAM parAkrama batAvI zatruone jItanAravirala hoya che, tathA he rAjana? azva zaru zAstra vINA ane purUSa-nArI, je ceca mANasanA panAre paDe te egya thAya che. ane agyanA panAre pati agya thAya che. A pramANe zeThanA vacane sAMbhaLI rAjA prasanna thaze ane e koTavALa tarIke sthApaka karyA. jiguhA zaktizALI havAthI corone upadrava rahyo nahI. sArI rIte tapAsa karatA hovAthI prajAo paNa AnaMdamAM rahevA lAgI. zeTha koTavALa tarIke te paNa prabhu pUjA daraja karatA tathA bhakatAmara gaNavAnuM paNa cUkatAM nahI. ane gurU-dharmanI ArAdhanAmAM khAmI rAkhatA nahI. ekadA prabhu pUjA karavAne jInamaMdire jAya che ane hAthamAM phalethI bharelI cAMdInI thALImAM kezara vATakI che tyAre temanA hAtha nIce rahelA sevakee eka cArane bAMdhIne lAvela che. ane kahyuM ke, A cAra jAtane cAraNa che. teNe prajAmAMthI eka mAsanuM uMTa cAreluM hatuM. jenI tapAsa tame tathA amAe For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara nyAti 61. karI paNa patto lAgatA nahAtA. Aja savAre tenA gharamAMthI pakaDayA che kaheA, mAne zI zIkSA karavI ? zeTha mukhe melyA nahI paNa sthAlImAM rahela eka puSpanuM khIja u tADI sajJA karI. pelA cAraNa samajI gayA ke, mastaka dUra karavAnI zikSA pharamAvI che have buddhi jo nahI vAparU te prANu jaze. Ama jANI te vakhate koTavALane kahyuM-De jizA zeTha tamAne hajI chanaizvara tArAtAra maLyA nathI tamA darAja jInezvaranI pUjA karI che paNa kharAkhara jInezvaranA guNAne jANyA nathI. ane jo jInezvaranA guNAmAM tArAtAra maLyA hAta tA je hAthe jInezvara pUjyA hAya te hAthe mArI nAMkhavAnI zIkSA pharamAvata nahIM. jiguhAne A vacana sAMbhaLI bahu lAgI AvyuM ane manamAM vIjaLIne AMcakA jema lAge te pramANe duHkha thayuM. vaLI gaLa cAraNe kahayu* ke huM zeTha ? cAraNe uMTa ceyura te tA tenA gharamAM samAtuM nathI paNa tamAe te jInezvaranI AjJA virUddha evI cArI karI che ke jANe bhuvanamAM te cArI samAtI nathI. A sAMbhaLI zeThe thALI nIce mUkIne cArazunA page paDayA. ane thaela bhUlanI mAphI mAgI manamAM dhaNA pastAvA karavA lAgyA ane kahayuM ke te mhane kharekhara jJAna ApyuM. cAraNane mUkta karavAmAM AvyA. zeTha paNa have pUjAnI sAthe prabhunA guNaiAmAM ramaNatA karavA lAgyA.. AvA adhikAra pade cAle che. jagatamAM je je rasa mIThAzane manuSyAe For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kAti sAgari ziva 31 abhayA haze paNa je eka rasa bAkI rahyo che. teno anubhava karyo haze nahI. IndriyanA viSayane rasa agara mIThAza mATe mANase jIvana paryata prayAsa karyA che ane nirantara kAyama rahe te mATe cintAtura paNa hoya che. paraMtu teone khyAla hatA nathI ke, A rasa ane mIThAza kSaNa vinAzI che chatAM nirantara cintAtura banI tevA rasa mATe pApa sthAnakene paNa sevatA pAchI pAnI karatA nathI, paNa vaSayika mIThAzamAM ane rasAsaktimAM kevI bhayaMkaratA (rasAsakitane che) evI phasAve che ke teonI vividha davAo kare te paNa khasatI nathI. tethI dAkhamaya jIdagAnI pasAra karavI paDe che AvI mIThAza. ane rasanA kaeNratAM eka e rasa che ke tene adhika rasa letAM Adhi-vyAdhi ane viDaMbanAo AvI zake nahIM ane Adhi vigere hoya te paNa mUlamAMthI paNa nivAravA samartha che. AvA rasanI jarUra hoya che ane AdhivyAdhi vagere dukhone dura karavA hoya te te rasa tamArI pAse che anyatra zodhavAnI jarUra nathI, paNa te rasane tathA mIThAza tarapha adyApi tamAe najara karI nathI. anyatra je mana vacana ane kAyAnI pravRtti che tene pAchI vALI attaramAM anaMta raddhisiddhi ane vRddhine svAmI je pitAne AtmA che ane Atmika guNe che te tarapha mIMTa mAMDIne joyA kare temAM mIThAza ane rasanA sAgare rahelA che te hastagata thaze pachI For Private And Personal Use Only

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nara jAti anya rasamAM je Asakita rahela che. te dUra khasaze. ane sAthe sAthe Adhi-vyAdhinI viDaMbanA TaLaze ane te TaLyA pachI punaH AvavAne avakAza maLaze nahI. ame sarva saMkaTothI mukta banaze. 32 bAhyaAtmAo, je je bahArathI rUpamAM adhika hoya temaja sarasa hoya tevI vastuomAM Asakata banIne te te vastuone meLavavA mATe potAnI keTalI zakti rahelI che. tene paNa vicAra karatA nathI. ane vividha upAye karyA kare che. paNa sAthe sAthe apAyane vicAra karatA nahI hovAthI aneka viDaMbanAomAM phasAI paDe che. ane maraNAMta kaSTa paNa AvI lAge che. mATe upAyo karatAM apAne paNa vicAra karavAnI Teva pADavI te hitakara che kAraNa ke apAye upasthita thatAM pahelAM teone haThAvavAne vicAra jAgrata thaela hevAthI sukhapUrva dUra karI zakAya che apAyene haThAvavAne vicAra ane prayatna antarAtmAmAM thayA vinA mana azakaya che. mATe AdhyAtmAoe kAryo karatAM apAye kanTene nivAravA mATe antara daSTimAna banavAnI khAsa jarUra rahevAnI kAraNa ke apa ya-viddha kaSTa kaI paNa prANIone pyArU lAgatuM nathI mATe upAye karatAM apAne paNa vicAra ane prayAsa karaze tyAre nidhine sukhazAMti pUrvaka karelA upAye saphala anaze. ane je bahAranI vastuo tathA vyaktimAM je Asadita rahelA che te ochI thaze pachI dunyavI vastuo mATe For Private And Personal Use Only

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e A, jAti sAgarasUri racita paNa punya pApanA vicAra karyAM vinA je DhoDadhAma thAya che te thaze nahI. ane sukhazAMti pUrvaka jIvana pasAra thaze. kaSAya viSayAdikanA je vicArI ane vikArA uchALA mArI rahyA che te paNa zAMta thaze ane Atmazakita samRddhi ane zuddhi keTalI rahelI che. tenI khakhara paDaze ane Atmazakita vigerenA khyAla AvatAM tenA AvirbhAva karavAnA prayAsa thaze atyAra sudhI Atmika khala-siddhineA khyAla naheAtA tethI ja sukhane mATe prayAsa karatAM apAyA kabdo AvIne hAjara thayA ane kAya'nI siddhi thavA pAmI nahI. 33 gupta rahelA ane dRSTigocara na thatAM evA mArAAthI bacavA mATe bhAvanA pUrvaka prayatnazIla banavAnI agatyatA che. zrImaMtA ke sattAdhArIonI pAchaLa prAya H mArA, tene lUTI levA agara ThAra mAravA mATe taiyAra hoya che. bhale pachI musApharI karatAM hAya ke, zahera-gAmamAM krUratA sAya tethI tenAthI svasa patinuM tathA prANAnuM rakSaNa karavA mATe cetatA hAya che. tetho soMpatti ane prANaiAnu rakSaNa karavA te samartha ane che. ane sukhI thAya che. te pramANe bahu chAnA karelA pApA ane viSaya kAcanA vicArA ke vikAro e paNu "mArA che. Ama mAnIne tenAthI bacavA mATe nAzI chUTavuM agara jJAna-danacAztri rUpI zasro hAya teA sAmanA karI svasa patinA tathA bhAva prANAnA bacAva karavA caigya che. pApa ane vikAra "" For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara jAti rUpI mArAo najare dekhAtA nathI. mATe teonI sArI rIte tapAsa karavAnI jarUra che. eka kSaNa mAtra pazu pramAda kara nahIM je pramAdamAM paDayA ane sAmane karyo nahI, agara nAsI gayA nahIM. te AvI banyu samajavuM, hutinA gahana gartAmAM dhakelI deze mATe dunyavI mArAo karatAM, A pApa-ane vikAre ghaNuM kharAba che. saMsAranA mArAthI svasaMpatti ane pitAnA prANanuM rakSaNa karavA khAtara tame sArI rIte sAvadhAnI rAkhI te have taddana gupta rahelA te mArA sarvasva luMTe te pahelAM sAvadha kayAre banazo? te mArAthI lUMTAela pitAnI saMpatti punaH punaH prApta thavI bahu durlabha che. mATe sAvadhAnI rAkhI sAvadha banI kSaNe kSaNe nirIkSaNa karo ane sabhya jJAnAdithI sAmane kare. sAmane e kare ke puna teo sarvasva luMTavA AvI zake nahI. 34 viSaya kakSAnA vicAre ane AvakArenI kAramI katalane jANe teone haThAve te paMDita ane zUravIra kahevAya! are paMDita ane zUravIra? tame azubha vicAro ane vikArothI kAramI tala je thaI rahela che te dekhI na hoya te te dekhavA jevI che ane dUra karavA jevI che. teNe evI kAramI katala karI che, ke tamene tathA rAgIone mAM mAMhI zuddha karAvI tathA sarvasva luMTI laI, unmAge dhakelI dIdhA che. AvA vicAra ane vikArane tame joI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri rasika zako ane haTAvI zake evI tAkAta tamAzamAM chupI rahelI che. AvI tAkAtane pragaTa karavA mATe prathama tatvajJAna meLavI zubha vicAre nirantara karyA karavA. tethI azubha vicAre je haze te khasavA mAMDaze ane sAthe vikAre je kAramI katala karI rahela che te nAza pAmaze A sivAya kAramI katalane haThAvavAne apAya nathI. lAkhe paMDita ane zuravIree tatvajJAnane prApta karI zubha-ane zuddha vicAre karavA pUrvaka azubhavikArane haThAvI satya vijayamAlA paherI che eTale teoe sukhazAntine meLavI che. tama-paNe sadagurUdvArA tatvajJAna-AtmajJAnane meLavI azubha-vicArene tathA vikAsane khaseDavA pUrvaka temanI bhayaMkara ane kAramI katala je sadAya thaI rahela che te badha karAve. ane prApta thaela sattA saMpati-siddhi ane zuddhinuM rakSaNa kare tathA kaMcana-kAminI-kuTuMba, kaMkAsa ane kaMpanI kad sadvicAranI tathA vivekanI hiMmata, akhata guNI mAne ane je sadvicAre dvArA kaMcana-kAminI vigere je maLela che. tenI sArthaktA kare. 35 je tibhAve rahelI tamArI saMpattisattA ane zakita che. te tamArI vATa-rAha joI rahela che tene kayAre prApta karaze? tame te saMpatti-sattA ane zakitane meLavavA mATe anyatra paribhramaNa punaH punaH karyA kare che paNa dhamAM ane mAmAne bhUlI juniyAmAM je sAcI saMpatti che te For Private And Personal Use Only

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ati ceta kyAMthI upalabdha thAya ? karmacathI bhale paribhramaNa karI paNa AtmAne tathA prabhunA dharmane visA nahI. jyAre vize nahI. tyAre kadApi AtmAnI tiAbhAve rahelI sattA-sapatti prApta karavAnI sAcI abhilASA thaze ane abhilASA pramANe prApta karavA prayatnazIla anAze. atyAra sudhI dunyavI lAbhanI khAtara svajana varRnI adhikArI vaganI, saMpatti--sattAvALA varganI AjJAne vinaya pUrNAMka amalamAM mUkI-ALasa pazu lAvyA nahI. te pramANe ana"tarIddhi-samRddhi-sattA-sa'pati ane zaktinA svAmI ariheta jInezvaranI AjJAone jyAre kharAkhara mAnaze tyAre tirAbhAve rahelI svasa pa-ita je tamArI vATa neI rahe che te jaya pragaTaze. tamArAmAM je tAkAta rahelI che tene skurAyamAna karI ane prasAda-nidrA nindA vikathA vigere tyAga karI ane svazakita khIlavA khAdyabhAvanA tyAga karyo sivAya antarAtmA manAtu nathI ane antarAtmA anyA vinA peAtAnI tAkAtane jovAnI-keLavIne prApta karavAnI pravRA.ta thatI nathI. mATe antarAtmA banavA prathama kAzIza karI lAgaNI rAkhA-bhautIka sukhanI lAlacamAM AtmakitanA ArvibhAva karavAnuM jJAna-vijJAna prApta karyu" nahI, tethI AtmAnI abhilASA, adhurIne madhurI rahI che mATe prathama AtmazakitanA AvibhAva thAya tevu jJAna-vijJAnane meLavI sukhanI abhilASAne pU karo. . bhautika sukhanI khAtara rAjA mahArAjAe svasa patti sattA ane zaktine paNa khuvAra karIne yuddho kare che paNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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e A. kIti sAgarasara racita jyAre ISTa sukha maLatu nathI tyAre cintAe valApAta kare che ke sa Mpatti vigere khuvAra karI chatA ISTa sukha kema na maLyuM. ane pari tApAdike AvIne sthAna lIdhuM paraMtu jo temane samyajJAna haiAta agara samyag jJAnane prApta kayu" hAta tA mAluma paData ke bhautika sukha te sAcu sukha nathI ane kSaNabhaMgura che, Ama mAluma paDate, bhautika sukhanI lAlasA, cintA paritApa-zekAdine AmatraNa ApI rahI che, Ama khyAla Avata, ane sAMsArika sukha khAtara je zakita sauMpatti vagere veDaphAi che. te vRthA jAta nahI ane Atma vikAza mATe prayatna zIla manata, jyAre samyag jJAna dvArA bhautika sukhanI lAlasAnI kAramI tala kharAkhara mAluma paDe che tyAre tenA uparanI lAlasA icchA DhaLatI jAya che. ane AtmAnnati karavAnI lAlasA jAgrata thAya che. ane zakaya prayAsa paNa sadhAya che. atyAra sudhI tamAe bhautika, sAMsArika, vaiyika sukhane mATe jJAnane meLavyu` ke Atmasukha ti mATe prApta karyuM ! tenA dadarAja khyAla karI, ane tenA vicAra karA, ane vicAra karaze tyAre khyAla Avaze ke ISTa sukhane khale vividha vyAdhi ane viDaMbanAo AvI che mATe nirantara ISTa eTale sAcA sukha mATe svasattA-kitanA sapayAga karI rAga-dveSa ane mAha vigerene kabaje karI satya sattA--zakita ane soMpattine prApta karI prAdurbhAva thaela sAcI satA-saMpati ane zaktione chInavI levAnI lUTI levAnI ke dAkhI devAnI kAinI paNa tAkAta che nahI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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atira jyoti 36 dhanAdikane meLavavAnI lAlasA ke AzA, anAcaraNene dekhavA detI nathI. ane umAge pagalAM bharAve che tethI pariName sukhI banAtuM nathI. unmArge meLavelI dhanAdika sAdhana sAmagrI vALAnA zubha vicAra paNa azubha bane che evA vicAre jyAre hoya tyAre zubha gati ane zubha avasthA hoya kayAMthI? mATe sukhazAMtinA athaoe kaTe AvI paDe te paNa unmArgane grahaNa kare nahI. ane janAjJA mujaba vartana rAkhavuM te hitakara ane zreyaskara che. zrI pAzvata zeThanuM STAMta magadha dezamAM azokapura nagara hatuM. tatra zrImAna pAzvadatta ane priya zrI ane daMpatI janAjJA pramANe bAra vrata lIdhAM hovAthI sukhI jIvana jIvatAM hatAM, vicAra vatanamAM taphAvata hatuM nahIM, paNa sukha saMpatti-sAhyabI sadAya keInI paNa kAyama rahetI nathI. pAzvata zeThane vyApAramAM heTI khoTa hAni thaI, makAne vigere sthAvara milkata vecI nAMkhI paNa je khAmI AvI tene pUrNa karI zakyA nahIM. tethI gAmaDAmAM gayA, kApaDa vigerene dha karavA lAgyA. paNa peTa pUratuM dhana, maLatuM na hovAthI kaDha paDavA lAgyuM. paNa trata dharmamAM dRDha rahIne sahana kare che A ke raudra dhyAna karatA nathI. pAchA pitAnA-nagaramAM AvyA, lekenA meMNA sahe che ane dharma dhyAne tatpara For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita bane che ekadA priya zrI. mATInI khANe mATI levale gaI kheratAM rana-sonA mahorAnuM nidhAna devuM paNa grahaNa karyuM nahIM. svagRhe AvI potAnA patine nidhAnanI vAta kahI. pArzvadate nagaranA patine paNa te bInA kahI. rAjAe pitAnA sevakane mokalI te nidhAna pitAnI pAse maMgAvyuM, svAdhIna karavAno vicAra kare che eTalAmAM satyanA prabhAve devavANa thaI ke A nidhAna pArSadaranA bhAgyanuM che. tene ja A5, rAjAe Agraha pUrvaka nidhAna arpaNa karyuM pAWdatta te dhanane sAta kSetramAM uga karI puNyazAlI baje A pramANe je vipattimAM paNa satya dharmamAM daDha bane che. te jaya pAme che ane sukhI thAya che. 37 tame ISTa vastuone temaja ISTa saMyegane meLavavA mATe ane aniSTa saMgene dUra karavA mATe kayAM sudhI citA zAka paritApAdi karyA karaze? cintAo-zeka paritApAdakathI je ISTa vastuo ane sage maLatAM hoya ane anISTa vastue nimitto dUra khasatA hoya te duniyAmAM pazuo mAnavIo tathA re vigere ne pAme nahI ane akSaya padane pAme paraMtu sAMsArika sukhanI lAlasAe je cintA paritApAdika karavAmAM Ave che tethI te te vastuo na maLatAM adhika dukha ane vAtAdika thayA kare che ane je kaI sukha che te paNa khasI jatAM hRdayamAM baLatarA thAya che mAnasika vAcika ane kAyika vRttio pravRttio zAMtinA badale For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAtara ti 1 azAMti upasthita kare che mATe sAMsArika sukhanI lAlaca Atara cintA-zaka paritApAdikano tyAga karI AtmakalyANa kevA prakAre sadhAya temaja uttarottara Atmanniti kela prakAre thAya duHkhamaya-dukhajanaka ane dukhanI paraMparAne vadhAranA evA saMsArano aMta kevI rIte thAya. enI cintA-vicAraNuM punaH punaH karaze. ane evA nimitte ane saMge prApta thAya te mATe vicAraNA pUrvaka prayatna zIla bane prayatna zIla banavAthI alabhya vastuo paNa labhya bane che. A pramANe vartana karavAthI duniyAnI vastuonI lAlasA cintA tathA paritApa vigere khasI jaze. ane tenA badale sthiratA gaMbhIratA, sahanatA, pApabhIrutA Indriya nigraha vigere sadaguNe AvI hAjara thaze. keI eka mANasane svani maraNa pAmavAthI ghaNuM kaSTa paDayuM ane dararoja zoka saMtApa-valepAta karavA lAgyA tethI cakama ane magaja ane mAnasika zakti gumAvI beThA hatA, te hate khAnadAna, tathA saddaguNa-AbarUdAre je cintA vagerene tyAga karI sadguNemAM vRddhi karavA mATe prayatna karyo hota te cakrama banata nahIM. ane dharma sAdhananI sArI mAsama maLI che Ama mAnIne Atmika vikAsa sAdhata, paNa A mujaba tenuM vartana nahI hevAthI pAgaladazA prApta thaI vyApAra-lakSamI-zakita-sAhAbI gumAvI beThA sArI sthiti hota te vaLI keI kanyA paraNAvata A te na rahyo gharane ane na rahyo ghATa, AvI kahevata tene lAgu paDI. A pramANe keTalAka, vyApAramAM saTTAmAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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27ra A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita dhana gumAvI bese che tyAre hiMmata hArIne cintA sAgaramAM bUDe che ane zuddhi buddhi ane siddhione gumAvI pAgala jevA thAya che mAna-sanmAna khAtara dariyAmAM-kuvAmAM paDI amulya meMgherA manubhavane saphala karatA nathI. are cintA-paritApa valepAta karavAmAM kevI kAramI ane bhayaMkara katala rahelI che te jANavA jevI che ane dUra karavA jevI che. cintAda karanAra, durgatinA bhAjana bane che ane durgatimAM gayA pachI zubha vicArone jaNAvanAra tathA dhAmikapadeza ApanAra sazurU maLavA zakaya bane che. tethI ja saMsAranI rakhaDapaTTI khasatI nathI. 38. dareka prANune jIvana vyAvahArika kAryomAM madada-TekAnI jarUra rahelI che sahakAra sivAya musApharI tathA vyavahAramAM sugamatA rahetI nathI. bALakane mAtapitAne Teke, yuvAvasthAmAM svajanavarga dhana dvArA zeTha zAhukArane Teko ane vRddhAvasthAmAM cAlatI vakhate lAkaDIne Teke heAya che, tethI sukhethI jIvana pasAra thAya che A bInA te cAlu bhavanI karI paraMtu parabhavamAM uparokta madada ke Teke khapamAM Ave tema nathI. mATe parabhavamAMTeke- sahakAra agara sahAya maLe te mATe upAya karavAnI khAsa agatyatA rahelI che je parabhava mATe TekAnA upAryo karyA haze te ja paralekamAM sava prakAre anukulatA AvI maLaze A bhavamAM TekAnA AdhAre sukhazAMti pUrvaka svajIvana pasAra karyuM, paNa parabhavamAM musApharI mATe bhUlyA te pratikulanA pagale pagale AvI hAjara thaze mATe A bhavanA sahakAra khAtara tame e prayAsa karIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti sugamatA meLavI te pramANe paralokanI musApharI mATe vicAraviveka pUrvaka prayAsa karavAnI jarUra che eTale A bhavamAM ane parabhave jIvana vyavahAramAM vidana-viDaMbanA Ave nahI, kadAca Ave te teonuM jora cAle nahI. keTalAka zeTha-zAhukAre-tathA paMDite paNa A bhavanA TekA mATe keLavaNa-kacana-kAminIkuTuMba-kaMpanI vigerene sahakAra-madada laIne manamAM malakAya che. ane A Teke je hAya nahI te kapaTa kalAne keLavIne paNa prApta karatA mAluma paDe che ane parabhavanA TekAne bhUle che tethI keLavaNI vigere saphalatA dhAraNa karatI nathI. keTalAka paMDita-zeThIAo be bhavanA TekAne sAdhe che. tethI cAlu bhavanA saMskAra mege bIjA bhavamAM paNa sukhethI jIvana pasAra karavA pUrvaka Atmonnati sAdhIne rAga-dveSa ane mehanA baMdhane haTAvI paramapadane prApta kare che. 39 lebhI-Asakta manuSya, je sthale ISTa vastuo tadana hotI nathI ane saMkaTa bharapura rahela che tyAM ISTa vastuone dekhI rahelA hoya che ane sukhanI mAnyatA dhAraNa karI rahela hoya che paNa saMkaTa bhArabhAra temAM raheluM hoya che tene dekhI zakatA nathI tethI anicchAe temAM phasAI paDe che lAbha ane AsaktinI kAramI katala evI che ke, zANu manuSyane pAgala banAvI sarvasva lakI laI, unmArge caDhAvI durgatimAM dhakelI de che eka vaNika dhIradhArane baMdha karatA bahAra gAmamAM paNa paisAone dhIrI vyAja je Ave. te AdhAre svAi vikAne calAvavA pUrvaka ravajana varganuM paripAlana karate, For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita ekAda ugharANI levA bAhira gAmamAM game tyAM ugharANumAM se sonA mahora maLI te khIssAmAM nAMkhI pitAnA gAma tarapha pAchA vaLatAM vacamAM heTuM jaMgala AvyuM, A mAge gamana karatAM tenI pAchaLa eka rIMcha, jaMgalamAMthI nIkaLyuM. A rIMcha. vaNikane mAravA mATe deDatuM dekhI vaNike vicAra karyo ke bhayabhIta banI nAsI jaIza te paNa A maheTA vagaDAmAM hene pakaDI pADaze Ama vicArI hiMmata ne dhAraka rIte te rIMchanI sAme jaIne ekadama tenA be karNo pakaDI lIdhA. kAna pakaDelA hevAthI. jera cAlyuM nathI. paraMtu te be kaNe mUkI de te krodhAtura banela A rIMcha. mAryA vinA mUke nahI. A te baDI phasAmaNa AvI. kAnane mUkAtA nathI ane pitAnA gAma tarapha gamana karAtuM nathI, e arasAmAM A jaMgalamAM kaIka dUrathI Avate mANasa bI vicAra pUrvaka eka yukti zodhI kADhI gajavAmAM rahelI pacAseka senA mahore hAthanI kaNI vaDe jamIna upara seravI nAMkhIne rIMchanuM mAthu vAre vAre halAvavA lAge pelo mANasa samIpamAM AvIne puchavA lAgyuM ke teo rIMchanA kAnene pakaDI tenuM mastaka kema halAvyA kare che ? vaNike kahyuM ke, are bhalA mANasa zuM dekhate nathI? rIMchanA mAthAmAMthI sonA maherane bahAra kADhe chuM dekha? A jamIna para A saghaLI paDI che A pramANe sAMbhaLI A mANasa ghaNe lobhI hovAthI kahevA lAgyuM ke tame ekalA sonA mahAre kADhaze? mane paNa tenA mastakamAMthI kADhavA ke, lAbhanI prabalatAe eTale paNa vicAra karyo nahI kADhI gajavA mANasa mAre hAthanI karavI nAkha For Private And Personal Use Only

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khAtara jyaMti ke A rIchanA mAthAmAM saiAnA mahAza hAya kharI ke ? lAbhI manuSya, jyAM iSTa vastu hAya nahI tyAM te vastune dekhatA hAya che tethI mhoTA sakreTamAM AvI paDe che ane pAchaLathI pastAvA karI duHkhanu bhAjana ane che leAbhInA kahevAthI vaNike kahyuM ke, tu' paNa rIMchanA kAnAne pakaDI mAthu halAvIne seAnA mahArAne meLava, leAlI, tenA kAna pakaDI tenu mastaka vAre vAre halAvavA lAgyA paNa ekeya seAnA ahAra nIkaLatI nathI. tyAre kahevA lAgyo tArU bhAgya evuM huM zuM karU? Ama hI jamIna upara paDelI seAnA mahAzane laI gAma ane ghara bhegA thaye A lAlI che. ghaDI mAthu` halAvyA kare che. chatAM eka pazusAnA mahedara nIkaLI nahI. paraMtu hAtha duHkhavA AvyA tyAre pastAvA karavA lAgyA have zuM karavuM? je rIchanA kAnAne mUkI devAmA Ave teA khIjAela A rIMcha mAryA vinA mUkaze nahI. lAlI janAnA AvA e hAla thAya che jo koI zastradhArI Ave teA A rIMchanI cuMgAlamAMthI mUkAvI zake. ane ghara bhegA thAya.lAbha karavA hAya tA dhamanI ArAdhanAmAM karA A sivAya anya lAbha karavAmAM kumAmI Avaze tamA dhAratA haze ke lAbha karavAthI lAbha maLatA raheze. ane lAbha maLe che. paNa kayA sthale ? te tA vicAraza ? jyAM kAMi paNa maLavAnu nathI ane gumAvavAnu tA nakakI che. tyAM lAbha karavAthI zuM prApta thavAnuM ? parizrama-tathA amulya avasara vRthA javAnA mAharUpI rIMcha tamArI pAchaLa che ane tame saMsAra rUpa mahAbhayaMkara jaMga For Private And Personal Use Only by

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A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita lamAM puNyarUpI ugharANI laIne musApharI karI rahela che. je sAvadhAnI rAkhazo nahIM te te mAha rIMcha tamane mAryA sivAya mUkaze nahIM. mATe tenA be kAnerUpI ahakAra ane mamakArane pakaDe kabaje karIne A rIMchane balahIna banAve te ja tenA bhayathI mukta thavAnI vicAraNA. jAthata thaze ane sukata banI zAzvata svagharamAM AvI zakaze 40 sadabhAvanAone bhAvI je bhAgyazAlIe vata niyamanI sArI rIte ArAdhanA pUrvaka potAnA AtmAne balavAna banAvela che te saMkaTamAM bhayabhIta banatA nathI. ane bhItinA prasage gabharAtA nathI vyAkula banatA nathI. paraMtu daDhatAne dhAraNa karI tejasvI bane che. nItizAstrakAra kahe che ke - taptaM taptaM punarapi punaH kAJcanaMkAntavarNa-dhRSTaM dhRSTaM punarapi punazcaMdanaMcArugaMdham / chinna zchinnaH punarapipunaH svAdavA. nikSudaNDaH prANAnte'pi prakRti kRti rjAyate ||yte nottamA nAm / kAMcanane punaH punaH tapAvavAmAM Ave te paNa zyAma banatuM nathI paNa ujavala bane che. caMdanane vAre vAre ghasavAmAM Ave te paNa tenI sugadhI jatI nathI paraMtu adhika sugaMdhane arpaNa kare che. tathA zeraDInA sAMThAne punaH punaH kApavAmAM Ave te paNa te zeraDI rasa vinAnI banatI nathI. paNa madhura rasa ApI kApanArane. gaDerI karanArane khuza kare che. te pramANe uttama vratI janene ke tiraskAra dhikkAra karavA For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara khyAti pUrNAMka ghaNu apamAna kare, agara gALA mAMDe ke lAThInA mAra mAre te paNa temanA svabhAvamAM vikAra thatA nathI. paNa te kasATo mAnIne adhika svadhama mAM--sthira thAya che. tethI teo prazaMsA pAtra mane che. eka zrAvakanI mAphka karATAnI sapatti TAte paNa eka zeTha vratadhArI manI deva-gurU ane dharmAMnI sevA-bhakti karavA pUrvaka sAdhamijanAnI sevA bhakti karavAmAM tAra hatA, tathA nirAdhAralulA--aMdha vigerenI sevA karavAmAM paNa khAmI lAvatA nahIM. vyAvahArika kArgImAM tathA vyApAra dhaMdhAmAM nyAya nItine rItasara pAlana karatAM hAvAthI dareka mANase temanuM sanmAna kadatAM ekadIupAzrayamAM sAMjare pratikramaNa karIne tathA sarvesunivarcIne sukhazAtA puchI pAtAnA ghara tarapha gamana karatAM mArgamAM e mANusA gALA gALI karatAM mArAmArI karI rahela che. mArA mArI karatAM eke khIjAne khaMjara mAyu ane bhItithI khajarane zarIramAM kADhayA vinA nAThe, jene khaMjara vAgyu che. te mAzusa khaMjaranI sAthe bhUmimAM paTakAI paDaye pIDA ghaNI thatI hAvAthI ghaNu` raDe che. tRSA paNa bahu lAgelI che. ghara tarapha jatAM A zrAvake, raDatA pIDA pAmatA A mANasane dekhI tenI pAse AvI ubhA rahyA. te mANasanI AvI avasthA dekhI A dhArmikanuM hRdaya dayA khanyuM. tenA kahevAthI zarIramAM raheluM khaMjara mahAra kADhe che. tevAmAM pAlIza AvI tathA peAlIzanA adhikArI Avya ane kahevA lAgyA. ke 'zeTha tamAe A mANasane khajara For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgari racita mAyu" che. tethI tamA gunhegAra anyA che zeThe kahyuM me kha Mjara mAyu nathI mAranArA khajara mArIne nAzI gayA che. A pIDAtAnA upara dayA AvavAthI zarIramAM rahI gaela khajarane bahAra kADhuM' chu. peAlIsa ane tenA adhikArIe kahyu ke tameja A mANasane mAryuM che tamArI cAlAkI have cAlaze nahI. Ama kahIne hAthamAM meDIe lagAvI jelanI kATaDImAM tee lai gayA. ane kahevA lAgyA. eka hajAra rUpiyA ApeA te mukta karavAmAM Ave nahItara tamArA para phAdArI keza mAMDavAmAM Avaze. tamA vadhAre du:khI thaze| mATe prathama cetI eka hajAra rUpiyA ApI Dho A sAMbhaLI zeTha nirbhaya banI kahevA lAgyA. Ama damadATI ApavAthI huM gabharAtA nathI. tamArAthI thAya eTala karI lA ! sevAbhakti karatAM dayAne karatAM koTI Ave, paNa je gabharAya nahI. te paNNiAma sArU Ave che. peAlIza adhikArIe peAtAnA svArtha khAtara zeThane mAra mArca tA pazu hiMmata rAkhIne kahevA lAgyA. meM te te mANasanA zarIramAM khaMjara bahAra kADhyuM. mAranArA nAsI gayA che. eka paise pazu tamene ApIza nahI. jene majara vAgyu che. tenA sagAM vahAlAMne khabara paDatAM tyAM AvI tene ghera laI gayA. davA sAravAra karatAM sAnna thayA. ane sagAM vahAlAMne tathA anya mANasAne kahevA lAgyA ke pelA bajara mArIne nAzI gayA paNa amuka zeThe zarIramAMthI khaMjarane bahAra kADhI maratA bacAvI lIdhe temanA upakAra bhUlAya ema nathI. pANIthe rAjadArI keza mAMsa. zeThane phAmAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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ati ti bolAvavAmAM AvyA, jubAnI levAmAM AvI. zeThe kahyuM ke meM khaMjara mAryuM nathI paNa jene khaMjara vAgye hatuM tenA zarIramAM rahelA khaMjarane bahAra kADhayuM che. nyAyAdhikArI sAkSI mAge che. te arasAmAM je pelo khaMjara mArIne nAsI gayela te raste jatAM bIjA pilIze tene pakaDa ane kerTamAM hAjara karyo. tathA jene khaMjara vAgyuM hatuM te mANasa paNa keTamAM hAjara thaye teNe kahyuM ke sAheba! zeThe mane khaMjara mAryuM nathI. paNa mArA upara dayA AvavAthI zarIramAM rahela khaMjarane bahAra kADhayuM che. mAranAra te A pilIzanA hAthe pakaDAela sAme ubhe teja che khaMjara mAranAra kAMI belI zakaye nahI. kArTamAM levA AvanAra mAse samudAyane dekhatAM nyAyAdhIze bIna zahegAra ane niSa tarIke jAhera karyo. dayA karatAM zeThanI kasoTI barAbara thaI, paNa kaseTImAM AvatAM haha thayA. tyAre prazaMsA pAtra banyA. sevA bhaktine prabhAva vAro ane zeTha AnaMda pUrvaka tathA sanmAna sahita pitAne ghera AvyA mATe sevA-bhakti karatAM saMkaTa Ave tene kATI mAnIne daDha banavuM. 41 ajJAnI manuSya prANe karatAM tathA puNya karatAM paisAone adhika sukhadAyaka mAnatA hevAthI prANe-5Naya karyo tathA dharmanA bhege paNa paisAenuM rekSaNa karavA ghaNA prayAsa karatAM mAluma paDe che. bhale potAnA prANa nAza pAme, puNya kriyAo hAzi tathA salAcAra nAza pAme paraMtu paisA raho For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasUri racita saMpatti nAza pAmaze nahI. AvA mANaso, pitAnA prANanuM tathA sadAcArAnuM ane paisA-saMpattinuM paNa rakSaNa karI zakatA nathI. kAraNa ke pitAnA prANa ane puNya-sadAcArenA AdhAre paisA saMpattinuM rakSaNa thAya che. tathA tenA sadupayeAga dvArA ja lAbha maLato ja rahe che. prANa ane puNya-sadAcAra gayA pachI je prayAsa karIne temaja kALAM dhaLA karIne pasA, saMpatti prApta karI che. tene tenA khapamAM ApatI nathI. anya saMbaMdhIonA upayogamAM Avaze. Ama te mANaso mAnatA hoya te paNa mahatI bhramaNA che. puNya ane prANe haze temaja te saMbaM dhIo, prApta thaela paiso agara saMpattine upayoga karavA zaktimAna banaze. je teone pudaya haze nahI te te pite upaga kevI rIte karI zakaze? mATe saMpattinA bhege, puNya sadAcArAnuM tathA prANanuM rakSaNa karavuM te meMgherA manuSya bhavanI sArthakatA che. nahItara jenuM puNya haze, sadAcAre haze teja bhegavaze eka kathA kahenAra brAhmaNanI mAphaka ke eka brAhmaNa kathAo kahevAmAM atikuzala hatuM. tenI kathA sAMbhaLavA mATe bahAra gAmanA leke paNa AvatA, ane kathA zravaNa karI ghaNA khuzI thatA. keIka zrotAo AnI-beAnI rUpiyA bheTa tarIke mUkIne pitAnA thele jaIne pitAnA AnaMdanI vAta anya janene paNa kahetA. teo paNa kathA sAMbhaLI brAhmaNa jANI yathAzakti rUpiyA vigerenI bheTa mUkatAM. A kathA kahenAra brAhmaNa pAse ghaNuM dhana vadhyuM. temaja bhaya paNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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vara naiti sAthe vadhavA lAgyo tethI jamInamAM eka kAThIne rAkhI, temAM bhegu thaela dhana nAMkhatA ane kahe-tA ke mArI pAse kAMIpaNuM nathI. koI sagA vahAleA Ave tyAre kRpaNutA hAvAthI pAtAnA hAthanI rhatheLI batAvatA ane dvInatAnA ThThala karIne khasI jatA dIkarA-drIkarI hAta tA manAya ke teone mATe sadharatA haze, te paNa naheAta!, eka divase A brAhmaNanA mitre bahAra gAmatho AvI pAMcaseA rUpiyAnI mAgaNI karIne kahyuM ke mahAre agatyanuM' kAya` hAvAthI. ane tame snehI hAvAthI rUpiyAnI khAsa jarUra paDI che mATe rUpiyA ApIne ane sahAya karA khAra mahinAmAM pAchA ApIzuM. tamArI madada sivAya mArUM agatyanuM kAma saphUla thAya ema nathI. A pramANe punaHpunaH prArthanA karatAM pazu A kathA karanAre cAkhkhI "nA" sabhaLAvI. jethI udAsa thaIne peAtAnA gAma jatA hatA te vakhate tenI strIce kahyuM ke jyAre e hAya nahI tyAre Avo tamAne rUpiyA ApIza. mitra tenA tenA ghera gayA. ane kathA karanAra brAhmaNa bahAra gAmanA lAkAnA atyAgraDa hAvAthI te gAmamAM kathA kahevA mATe gayA ahIM A brAhmaNIe sadeze! mekalAvye tethI tenA mitra rUpiyA levA Avye. brAhmaNIe bhUmimAM utArelI kAThInu' bAraNu' ughADIne temAM rahelI rUpiyAnI thelIne levAnu kahyu, A mitra thelI levA jAya che. teTalAmAM te kAThImAM rahela nAgadeve kahyu ke, erUpiyA laiza te paNa tArA prANane nAza karIza. A dhananA mAlika kathA karanAra brAhmaNa temaja tenI patnI paNa nathI. mAtA kAThImAM rahela b OM For Private And Personal Use Only

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dara A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita milakatanA dAsa che rakhevALa che tAre je rUpiyAne khapa hoya te kAzInagarImAM zrI pAzvanAthanA sAcA sevaka dhamalA mALInI rajA cIThThI laI AvI A keThImAM nAMkhaje pachI sukhethI rUpiyA laI jaje. nAgadeve kahelI vAta brAhmaNIe paNa sAMbhaLIne aphasa karavA lAgI. ke mArA pati mamatAnA cage mArU mArU karIne dhana bheguM kare che. paNa jyAre eka rUpiye paNa levA jaze tyAre tene khabara paDaze ke A dhana kenA bhAgyanuM che? pele mitra kAzImAM AvI dhamalA mALIne maje. rUpiyAnI cIThThI lakhI ApavAnuM kahyuM tyAre tyAre teNe kahyuM ke koI jagyAe meM thApaNuM mUkI nathI ke jethI cIThThI lakhI ApavAthI rUpiyA maLe, Avela tenA mitre kahyuM ke tamArA mATe nAgadeva, mArA mitre bheguM karela dhananI rakSA kare che mArA mitrane ghera rUpiyA levA gaye tyAre nAgadeve kahyuM ke dhamalA mALInI cIThThI laIne Ave te tane levA dauM. tethI tamArI pAse cIThThI levA Avyo chuM. maherabAnI karI cIThThI lakhI Ape te mAruM agatyanuM kAma pAra paDe dhamalA mALIe vicArIne kahyuM ke, meM lakhI ApelI ciThThIthI kAma saratuM hoya te lakhI ApuM lakhI ApelI cIThThIne laI A brAhmaNa mitra tene ghera AvI. kathAkAra brAhmaNane brAhmaNane dekhatAM keDhImAM lAvelI cIThThI nAMkhIne rUpiyA lIdhA. ane pitAne sthAne gaye brAhmaNa levA jAya che tyAre nAgadeve kahyuM ke eka rUpiyA laIza te paNa tArA prANe nAza pAmaze A pramANe tAgadevanuM vacana sAMbhaLI kathAkAraka brAhANa ghaNe pastA For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara jyoti karavA lAge nAhakka, Asaktine dhAraNa karI pite khAdhu nahIne pite bIjAne ApyuM nahIM. sagA vahAlA mitra vigerene madada karI nahI. paisA meLavavAne mATe karelA prayAsa vRthA gace eka rUpiye kaThImAMthI levAtuM nathI tethI valepAta karavA lAge dhamale mALI, zrI pArzvanAtha prabhunA tIrthamAM je yAtrALuo Ave teonI sArI rIte sAra saMbhALa rAkhate joItuM karatuM lAvI Apate ane jAta mahenata karI pitAne nirvAha calAvate A vakhata navakAravAlI gaNata, ane yathA zakti dharmanI ArAdhanA karI AnaMdamAM rahete. AyuSya pUrNa thae paisAne bhegA karanAra brAhmaNane putra thaye A putra jyAre rUpiyA levA jAya tyAre tene nAga devatA levA de, tene bApa levA jAya jyAre eka rUpiyA paNa levA de nahI temAM udAratA ane sadAcAra ne prabhAva che mATe paisA karatAM puNyane sadAcArane tathA udAratAne adhika mAne. paMDito buddhimAne AbhavamAM evuM suMdara kArya kare che, AbhavamAM tathA parabhavamAM tene vipAka-la sArU Ave. vinA vicAre karelA kArya duHkhajanaka phala Ape che. Ama samajatA hovAthI tarachamAM paNa tuccha kArya, paNa prathama vicAra ane viveka lAvIne kare che. jeone vicAra ane viveka nathI teo bhale manuSya tarIke gaNutA hoya, paNa pazupaMkhI samAna gaNAya che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri saMcita __" saguNa mapaguNaM vA kurvatA kAryajAtaM, pariNatiravadhAryA yatnataH paMDitenaM-atirabhasakRtAM karmaNA mAvipatte bhavati hRdaya dAhI zalya tulyo vipAka: paMDita purUSe guNavALuM athavA guNa vinAnuM kArya karatI vakhate prayatnathI te kAryanuM pariNAma zuM Avaze tene prathama vicAra karo, kemake ativegathI, vicAra karyA vinA karelA kAryane maraNa paryata hRdayane dAha karanAra zalya je vipAka AvIne upasthita thAya che. mUrkha mANasa pite jAte vicArI pitAne mUrkha mAnate heya ke jAte heya te buddhimAna che. are abhimAnI paMDita, pitAnA abhimAna ke ahaMkArane jANatA nathI te ma jevuM che. kAraNa pitAne AtmA ke che te jA nahI. jeTalA aparAdhI. anAcArI mANaso che. te potAnA aparAdhane tathA anAcArane jANatA nathI ane mAnatA nathI ane aparAdha-anAcAra sevIne khuzI thAya che. prazaMsA anumadanA karavA maMDe che te mUrkhAmAM paNa mUrkha kahevAya. vicAraka ane vivekI prathama pitAnA AtmAne sArI rIte jANe ane jANIne thatAM ane thaelA doSene nivAravA prayAsa karatA rahe, pitAnA AtmAnI samyagajJAnI sAthe tulanA kare ke jJAnI banavAne cagya chuM ke nahI ? Ama tulanA karate pitetAne oLakhato rahe che. eTale bhaviSyamAM thatAM aparAdha aTake che. ane anukame samyajJAnI je banI AtmAne saMpUrNatayA nirmala For Private And Personal Use Only

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85 AMtara ti karavA samartha bane che vyApAramAM ane vyAvahArika kAryomAM vicAra ane viveka karanAra maLI Avaze paNa pite ke che tene vicAra ane viveka karanAra keTalA? bahuja a95 pramANamAM hoya che teo potAnA AtmAnI zaktine prApta kare paNa kyAMthI? dareka kAryomAM tevA mANase pAchA paDe che ane behAla dazAmAM AvI paDe che eka brAhmaNanI mAphaka pANIpatanA yuddhamA IbrAhimaladI marA paThANe marAyA ane megalenA hAthamAM rAjya AvyuM te vakhate zerakhAM nAmanA paThANane lAgyuM ke bhaviSyamAM egalene harAvavA hoya te baMgALa ane vihAra vacce rehatAsa gaDhane killo maLe te sArU paNa rehatAsa gaDha nRpa cintAmaNanA tAbAmAM hatuM. sugamatAe kile kabaje karAya ema naheAte eTale zerakhAM paThANe eka brAhmaNane bolAvI gupta rIte kahyuM ke A rehatAsane kile che. temAM mArA sIpAIone praveza karAve ane kile kabajAmAM Ave te tane maMtrI banAvIza. tethI tArI mahattA vadhaze lobhI brAhmaNe pUrate vicAra karyA vinA sIpAIone killAmAM dAkhala karavAnuM mAthe lIdhuM. ane cintAmaNI rAjA pAse jaIne kahevA lAgyuM ke, meMgalo dhasI Ave che ane AvelA che, tethI amArA gAmanI strIo dAsa-dAsIo tathA purUSa tyAMthI nAsI chUTayAM che. je ApanA zaraNe rAkhe te dharmabhraSTa thatAM bacI jAya ane jIvanaparyata gAmanA leke tathA amArA parivAra tamee karela upakAra bhUlaze nahI. prathama te rAjAe AvyuM nahIM. paNa adhika kAlAvAlA karavAthI mAnyuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasara racita vizvAsaghAtI A brAhmaNane ATale paNa vicAra Avye nahI ke eka paThANa muslamIne maMtrI padanI lAlaca ApI. paNa brAhmaNe upara vizvAsa rA5nAra A rAjAne daze nahI de. dago devAmAM paThANa taraphathI maMtrI pada maLaze ke nahIM maLe tene vicAra karyo nahI. nRpa cintAmaNInI AjJA maLatAM A brAhmaNa zerakhAM paThANane maLe. rAjAne kahelI vAta paNa saMbhaLAvI. paThANe khuzI thaIne pitAnA sIpAIone paDadAmAM rAkhI strIo Ave che A bAnAe rehatAsanA killAmAM praveza karAvyo eka be vAra hIMdu strIone DALIomAM besADI praveza karAvyuM ane pachI paThANa sIpAIone A pramANe bAraso paMdaraze sIpAIne dAkhala karyA. rAjAne khabara paDavA dIdhI nahI. rAjA te jANe che ke saghaLA hindae mAre zaraNe AvyA tethI teonI sAravAra karavI. Ama dhAraNA rAkhI jyAM pelA sIpAIe, strI veze rahyA che tyAM AvIne khabara pUchavA lAge paNa strIonA badale temaja hinduonA badale paThA ne dekhI rAjA vicAra karavA lAgyo ke brAhmaNe dago karyo ane hinduonA badale paThANane praveza karAvyuM he ze upAya? Ama vicAre che eTalAmAM Avela zerakhAM paThANe sIpAIone IzAro karyo, ane tyAMja cintAmaNi nRpanuM zIra kapAI dhaDathI juduM thayuM. sAthe rahelA subhaTane yuddha karI nArI nAMkhyA. have dagAgara brAhmaNa zerakhAMnI pAse AvI kahevA lAge tamee jillAnI sAthe rAjyane kabaje karyuM. te mane maMtrIpada Ape paThANa kahe lAgyuM rAjAne For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti te vizvAsa ghAta karyAM. tA pachI lAga maLe mArA vizvAsanA ghAta kema nahI kare tArA jevA setAnane maMtrIpada kevuM ? Ama kahIne tenA paNa zIraccheda karAvyeA mananI manamAM rahI ane drutimAM gayA mATe sArA saguNavALu ke kharAba guNavALuM kAya karatAM bhaviSyamAM tenuM phUla kevu Avaze tene vicAra Avazya karavA joIe sArA kAryoMmAM pazu vicAra ane viveka karatAM sudaramAM sudara lAza prApta thAya mATe dareka kAryo karatAM bhAvinA vicAra karavA lAlane laIne pelA brAhmaNe vizrvAsaghAta karyo, paNa peAtAnA ja prANA ugArI zakayA nahI. mATe kAInI sAthe prasa'ga pADatAM paNa vicAra karavAnA che. 42 za`kA lAvIne anyane mArI nAMkhavAnA upAya karavA nahI. 70 kAi evA mANasA hAya che sadAya za'kA. khIjAonA vacanA sAMbhaLIne karatA hAya che ane evuM mAnI bese che ke A mANasA mArI vAtA karI rahela che ane mArI phajetI leAkamAM karaze khIjA mANaso teA bIjI sAmAnya vAtA karatA hAya che paNa doSI hAvAthI pAte emaja mAnatA DAya che. ke mArI vAtA ja kare che tethI ja zakAtura khanI anyajanAne duHkha devA agara sakaeNTamAM sapaDAvavA vividha ghATa ghaDanArane ja nukazAna thAya che ane pAtAnAnA anAcArA jAheramAM Ave che| eka gAmamAM rasikalAla karIne vaSNuva hatA te For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra 88 www.kobatirth.org A. kIti sAgarari racita peAtAnA putranI sAthe kamAvA paradeza gaye gharamAM ekalI tenI strI che te khAvA pIvAmAM ja AnaMda mAnavA lAgI. tapa japanI vAta sAMbhaLatAM ja bhaDake che tenA pati, kSu dhana ApI gaela hAvAthI keAInI paNa paravA tez2Ine hatI nahI. game tyAM javAmAM tenI kAca thatA nahI. anukrame svacchaMdI anela hAvAthI aTThacAlanI thaI kAi paNanI lAja zarama nahI DAvAthI Avela dhananI marakhAdI karavA lAgI. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir ! koi saMbaMdhI zIkhAmaNa detA tenI barAbara khakhara te jhagaDA ubhA karI kalaMka paNa devAmAM khAkI rAkhe nahI eTale teNIne kAI, kahI zakatuM nahI. paNa tevAmAM eka Ave!, tenI zerImA bhIkSA mAgavA Ave che, te bhIkSA mAgatA khele che ke kuraMgA ve bharaMgA-khAdegAvA paDegA" A pramANe khAvAnu vacana sAMbhaLI zakAtura manI ane manamAM mAnavA lAgI ke mArI phajetI A pramANe melIne karI rahyo che. ane mArA dhaNI Avaze tyAre mArI khAcAlanI mInA kahI deze. mATe te AvyA pahelAMja khAvAnA ghATa ghaDI nAMkhavA haLAhaLa viSa nAMkhI A rAMDe cAra lADue banAvyA. ane bhIkSA levA mATe AvelA khAvAjIne AlAnI cAra medakA ApyA. mAvAjI laine jhuMpaDImAM AvyA cAralADuone khIje divase khAvAnA rAkhI je roTalA vigere bhIkSAmAM AvyuM hatuM te khAIne rAtrImAM sUI gaye banavA joga che ke madhyarAtrIe e mANase AvIne jhuMpaDI khakhaDAvI khAvAjI jAgrata thayA pUrvaka ubhA thaIne bAraNA ughADI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti ahAra AvIne puchayuM. tame kema cho? Avela musApharoe kahyuM. pAsenA gAmanA ame rahIza chIe ane paragAmathI AvatA mArgamAM bhUlA paDavAthI ghaNuM moDuM thayuM. tethI tamArI pAse AvyA chIe, bAvAjIe te bene jhuMpaDImAM lAvI teone bhUkha lAgelI hovAthI te raDe ApelA cAra lADune khAvA mATe ApyA. A be jaNa lADu khAI pANI pIne sUI gayA. savAramAM maraNa pAmela hovAthI Ave gabharAyA pAsenA gAmamAM jaI lekane lAvI, saghaLI vAta kahI. lekee kahyuM ke, je lADu khAvA mATe ApyA temAM viSa hevuM joIe. nahItara maraNa pAme nahI. bAvAjIe kahyuM ke, amuka zerImAM amuka khAIe mahane bhIkSAmAM ApyA hatA. zArU thayuM ke meM khAdhA nahI. nahI te A be mANasanI mAphaka maraNa thAta, A rAMDane paNa khabara paDI ke, lADuonA khAvAthI be musApharo tenI jhupaDImAM AvelA maraNa pAmyA. ane bAvAjI bacI gayA. te jAvAne mATe bAvAjInI jhupaDImAM AvI. pitAne pati ane putra maraNa pAmela dekhI chAtI kuTavA lAgI. ane ghera AvI zaka saMtApa karavA lAgI. pati ane putra marI gaela hovAthI. ane Avaka na hovAthI bhIkhArI banI. ane chevaTe bhIkha mAgavA lAgI. bAvAjIne mAravA mATe je dago karyo te teNene ja naDo mATe dago kare nahI. sadAcAra pALIne sadgatine prApta karaze. kaI paNa prANuonuM ahita cittavavuM nahI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A, kIti sAgarasUri racita kAraNa ke jagatamAM rahelA sarvajI, ApaNA mitra banela che ane bane che ane banaze. tenA vinA ApaNe AgaLa vadhyA nathI. pRthvI pANa vigere paNa ApaNane sahakAra ApI rahela che te pachI teonuM ahita kema cintavAya? tame, jene zatru-pratikula mAnI beThA che teoe paNa tamane madada karI che ane madada karI rahelA che kiMmatI vastuo-suvarNa vigerenI kiMmata jANavA mATe kaseTInI jarUra che te mujaba pratikula varga, ApaNe kaSa kADhI ujavala banAve che tethI tenuM paNa ahita cittavavuM nahI. teonuM paNa ahita cittavavAmAM ApaNe pitAnuM ahita karIe chIe mATe dehanA bhege paNa ahita cintavavuM nahI. temaja ahita karavA prayAsa paNa kare nahI tethI ja ApaNe darekanuM hita kalyANa IcchIe. kalyANa IcchIe mATe darekanuM hita kalyANane Io anyajananuM ahita IcchanAranI temaja ahita karanAranI dazA burI thAya che ane nahI dhArela nukazAna AvI paDe che. eka paTelanI mAphaka-paTele mahAmahenata karI bhUmine kheDI anAja vAvela che. mola taiyAra thavA AvyA tevAmAM uMdare paDyA. ane taiyAra thaela melane khAvA lAgyA. teone mArI nAMkhavA somala-jhera nAMkhI jAra bAjarInI rAba banAvI, tenuM bhejana khetare mUkayuM. uMdara khAvAnI lAlace AvIne khAvA lAgyA. khAdhyA pachI sarve uMdaro maraNa pAmyA. paTela khuzI thaIne vadhelI rAbanuM pAtra khetaranI bahAra mUkayuM. tevAmAM tenAja be baLade caratAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara yAti 1 cr caratAM te sthale AvIne rAkhane khAvA lAgyA. ane te rAmane khAI te hajAranI kiMmata vALA maraNa zaraNa thayA. maraNa pAmela baLadone dekhI paTala chAtI kuTavA lAgyA. ane valeApAta karavA lAgyA ke hAthanA karyAM haye vAgyA." sA khasAnA mAlane rakSaNa karavA mATe uMdarAne sAmalanI rAkha khavarAvI mArI nAMkhyA. pazu eka hajAranA me baLado maraNu pAmyA. have AvatI sAlamAM kevI rIte khetI karIza. bIjA baLadone lAvavA mATe gharamAM nANAM nathI. A pramANe nukazAna thaela hAvAthI pAgala jevA anyA. mATe zAstrakArA. pukArIne kahe che ke koI prANInuM ahita cintavA nahI. karA nahI. khIjA kAMI paTele pAtAnA khetaramAM zeraDI vAvI ane taiyAra thavA AvI che. tevAmAM ziyALa varU vigere prANIe AvI ghaNuM nukazAna kare che. cArA AvIne kApI laI jAya che. tethI paTele teone phasAvavA eka mhATI khAI khAdI. ane tenA upara jhAMkharAM karAThI vigere nAMkhI, rRkhAya nahI tevI karIne pAte saMtAi rahela che. prAtaHkAla thayA chatAM paTela pAtAnA ghera gayA nahI. tethI paTalANI cintA karavA lAgI. temane bhUkha lAgI haze, te bhAtu ApavA huM pote tyAM jau. Ama vicArI bhAtu laI te AvatI teone khAIne khADhelI che. tenI khakhara nahI paDavAthI teja khAImAM paDI ane hAtha paga bhAgI gayA lAveluM bhAtu, khAImAM verAI gayu. ane raDavA lAgI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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kara A. kIti sAgarasUri racita teNInuM rUdana sAMbhaLI paTela dADatA AvyeA hAtha paga bhAgI gayA che evI peAtAnI strIne dekhI chAtI phATa raDavA ane kuTavA lAgyA ane kahevA lAgyA ke, arere! hAthanA karyAM haiye vAgyAM " je khAde te paDe " paTalANI sAjI thai tyAM sudhI gharamAM rahevuM paDayuM. ane peAtAnA hAthe rAMdhavAnA nakhata Avye te arasAmAM ziyALa varU vigere temaja cArAe taiyAra thaela zelaDInA khetara sApha karI nAMkhyuM. paTelane tA e bAjuethI sakreTa naDayu, thoDA mAla macAvatAM saghaLA e mAla nAza pAmyA paTalANI sAjI teA thaI paNa khADa rahI mATe nukazAna karatA prANIe tarapha dhyAbhAva zakhavA ane rakSaNa mATe khInne upAya zeAdhI levA, khAI khAdyavAnA upAya na karatAM khetaramAM eka mhATA cADI ubhA karyA hAta tA ziyALa vigere bhaya pAmIne nAsI jAta cArAne paNa brAnti thAta ane zeraDI kApavA Avata nahI. paraMtu daiyA hitane AvA upAya sujhe kayAMthI? ahitanA vicAre ke vikArA, dayA vinAnAne sukhethI jIvavA kAMthI ke nukazAna thavAnA prasaMge dayAbhAva vALe sajana, bIjAnA prANA jAya nahI. ane adhika kaSTa paDe nahI te mujaba buddhiputraka upAyA cALe che tethI vadhAre nukazAna thavAnA prasaMga AvatA nathI. mATe dareka prANIo upara hita thAya evA vicAro karI ane amalamAM mUke, jIvana nazvara che sAge maLelA sabadhA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AtAra ti tathA padArtho visagavALA che Ama citavIne svahita ane pasahitanI vicAraNA karo dhAryA pramANe anukula nimitto. maLatA raheze. anyathA vipattio AvI upasthita thaze. 43 adekhAI, sattA-saMpatti-sAhAbI vidyamAna he te paNa sukhethI jIvanane vItAvavA detI nathI. punaH punaH hadayamAM dAha utpanna karI mAnavatAmAM anicchanIya prasaMge upasthita kare che pavitra kAryo sadAcA-- nA catuphAne besavA detI nathI. manuSya dhAre che ke ame dhArmika kAryo karIne mAna vatAne saphala karIe, chatAM je adekhAIne dUra kare nahIM te teone mAnavatAnI saphalatA-ane sArthakatA kyAMthI prApta thAya? mATe dharmijanoe prathama vividha vinene utpanna karanAra adekhAIne dUra karavAnI jarUra che. A sivAya mAnavatA ane dhArmikatA zobhAspada banaze nahI. adekhAI : pitAnA jAtibhAIomAM thAya te atyaMta hAnikAraka bane che ane dAvAnalanI mAphaka AcaraNa kare che eka mANase bajAramAM luhArane kuThAre-kuhADA. banAvato dekhI puchayuM ke pacAsa-so kuhADA zA mATe banAvyA che. luTAre kahyuM ke eka heTA vanane kApavAnI rAjAe AjJA ApI che tethI. saghaLA kuThAre bane che. A bInA kAMbhaLI A mANasa moTA vanane dubhAtA manathI kahevA lAgyo For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita are mahaTA vana! tArU AvI banyuM che. rAjAe tArA sarva vRkSane kApavA mATe luhAra pAse kuhADA taiyAra karAvyA che. mATe cetavuM hoya te cetI jA? vane kahyuM bhale rAjAe kuhADA taiyAra karAvyA paNuM amArA jAtibhAI bhegA bhaLyA nathI tyAM sudhI cintA karavA jevuM nathI. A mANasa sAMbhaLIne cAlyA gayA. tyAra bAda sUkA lAkaDAnAM hAthA banAvI kuhADAmAM lAguM karyAM. vananA vRkSene kApavA mAMDayA te avasare pele mANasa tyAM AvI kahevA lAgyA. alyA tArA vRkSo kapAya che. tene upAya karyo ke nahI? moTA vane kahyuM ke have ekeya upAya rahyo nathI. zuSka paNa jAti bhAIo bhegA bhaLyA che. have te mArA vRkSone kApI nAMkhaze have mAruM zuM cAlI zake! A mujaba adekhAIne laIne zatrunA hAthA jyAre najAti bhAIe bane tyAM jJAti-samAjanI durdazA thAya. mATe adekhAIne te prathama tyAga karavA lAyaka mAnavI joIe jethI dhArmika kriyAonI sAthe mAnava bhava paNa saphala thAya. adekho mANasa bahArathI sAro dekhAya che paNa hadacamAM haLAhaLa jheravera vaseluM hoya che kayAre te bIjA pAse nukazAna karAvaze agara vera virodha karAvaze te kahI zakAya nahIM. mATe adekhAIthI bahu sAvadha rahevAnI jarUra che. mAyA-mamatA-abhimAna vigerene je ApaNe tyAga karIye te kaI paNa ApaNuM upara adekhAI kare nahi. eTale ISyaadekhAIne tyAga karavAne sAco upAya je kaI hoya te For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara pati mAyA mamatAne tyAga che mAyA mamatAnA tyAgathI ja ekatA saMpa AvI vase che. 44 anaMta traddhi siddhi ane samRddhine prApta karavAno pahelo upAya vyavahAramAM pramANikatA nyAya nItinuM pAlana karavuM. ane tenA pAlaNa purvaka devagurU ane dharmanI AradhanA karavI te che pramANikatAnuM je rakSaNa thayuM nahI te dhArmika kriyAmAM ujavalatA AvatI nathI. eTale dhArmika kriyAmAM yathArtha phala maLavAnuM hoya che te maLatu nathI. eka bAju dhamanI ArAdhanAmAM lAkha rUpiyA kharce ane bIjI bAju vyApAra vigere vyAvahArika kAryomAM nyAya-pramANikatA sAcave nahI. te dharmanI ArAdhanAne badale vagevazuM thAya che ke keTalAka vaLI evA hoya che, je nyAya nIti ane pramANikatAne sAcavatA hoya che teone vedIyA Dhorane IlkAba ApIne aprabhAjanA ja kare che te paNa sArU karatA nathI. eka zeThanI kathA eka zeTha kApaDanA moTA vepArI hatA, ane temaNe dukAne ekaja bhAva A pramANe pATIyuM lagAvyuM hatuM tethI ghaNA leke te dukAne AvI kApaDa kharIdatA-ane zeThane sArI kamANI thatI dhana paNa sArI rIte kharacatA-paNa jAti bhAI pramANika hoya tene gumAstA tarIke rAkhatA nahi te For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. krIti sAgarasUri ta zeTha samajatA ke, vyApAramAM pramANikatA rAkhanArane catheccha lAbha maLatA nathI. Ama samajI kAI naTTakhaTa-khelavAmAM cAlAka DhAya tene rAkhatA-eka sAdhAraNa sthitinA pramANikatAne pradhAna tarIke mAnanAra pADIzoe A zeThane kahyuM ke are zeThajI mArA putrane gumAstA tarIke sAro pagAra ApIne rAkhA tA AjIvikAnuM kaSTa-AchuM thAya. ane dhamakriyAmAM sthiratA thAya, mATe mahemAnI karI mArA putrane gumAstA tarIke rAkhA, ghaNI AjIjI karI tyAre zeThe tenA dIkarAne gumAstA tarIke rAkhyuM. A putra tenA pitAe pramANikatAnA saMskAro nAMkhela hAvAthI pramANika tathA cAlAka ane buddhimAna hatA tethI bIjA gumAstA karatAM leke tene sArI kahetA-eka vakhata eka khAI sAlle levA mATe A zeThanI dukAne AvI khIjA gumAstAe zeThanA IsArAthI chidra vALA sAllA ApyA. A pramANika jhumAstAne lAgyu ke A bAi sAllA laine ghera jaze ane tapAsa karaze tyAre zaDa pADatI zeThanI dukAne Avaze. te zeThanI AkharUmAM hAni thaze. Ama dhArI te khAIne kahyuM ke A sAllA chidra vALA che mATe pAche lAva badalI ApuM. Ama kahIne te pramANika gumAstAe khadalI ApyA. paNa zeThane khamI zakAyuM nahi tethI tenA pitAne kahyu' tamAro putra vedIyA DhAra jevA che vyavahAranI rIta kharekhara jANatA nathI. mATe have dukAne mAkalatA nahI. enI amAre jarUra nathI. pramANika pitAe svaputrane puchyuM ke tArA ze| aparAdha AvyeA ke dukAne tane AvavAnuM 'nA' kahe che' putra kahyuM ke H For Private And Personal Use Only

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chatara pati aparAdha te kayo nathI paNa eka bAI sAllo levA AvI hatI. Ape sAle chidravALe hatuM te meM badalI Apyo tethI zeThane aNagame thaye haze! zeThanI AbarU sAcavA mATe A pramANe karyuM. paNa zeThane pasaMda paDayuM nahI. tethI ja mane rajA ApI haze." pitAe kahyuM ke sArU karyuM. ApaNe te pramANikatA-nyAya-nItinuM rakSaNa karavuM teja kamANa che mATe cintA karavA jevuM nathI. bIje sthale goThavaNa karIza. zeThe A pramANikane rajA ApyAnI vAta jAhera thaI. pramANikatA chUpI rahetI nathI. tethI bIjA zeThe tenI kadara karIne te pramANikane gumAstA tarIke adhika pagAre rAkhe A pramANika gumAstAthI bIjA zeThanI dukAne adhika pramANamAM grAhake AvavA lAgyA. tethI adhika lAbha thaze. pAMca varSa pachI tene bhAgIdAra banAvyuM. bhAgIdAra banyA pachI gumAstA tarIke have te zeTha tarIke gaNAvA lAgyuM. mATe pramANika nyAya nItimAnane je vedIyA hera kahe che. teja heTI bhUlI kare che. je pramANika ane dhArmika zeTha hoya che te pramANika munImane agara gumAstAne vekI Dhera kahe nahI paNa tenI kadara karIne adhika pagAra Ape. ane dhamanI prabhAvanA kare. paNa apabhAjanA kare nahI jee sAcA dhArmika hoya che. te nIti-nyAya ane vyAvahArika kAryomAM pramANikatAne pradhAna paNe rAkhIne te te kAryo kare che. ane tethI ja manAvacana ane kAyAmAM nimalatA AvI vase che. hevA chatAM te bAha phaSTi manue potAnI For Private And Personal Use Only

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t A. kIti sAgarasUri racita 45 pAse anaMta lAbhadAyI vastuo paNa jANI zaktA nathI. kAraNa ke. tenI najara bahAra paribhramaNa karatI hAya che tyAre Antara dRSTi antarAma mahAzaye . peAtAnI samIpamAM rahela amulya vastuone tathA kImatI vastuo jANI tenA viveka karIne A lAka ane paraleAkamAM sAthe rahenArI vastuo grahaNa kare che tethI ja temane dInatAhInatA bhAsatI nathI. ane AnaMdamAM jhIlyA kare che tyAre mAhya dRSTivALA manuSyA. pAtAnI pAse satya vastuo hAvA chatAM ajJAnatAthI petAne dIna-hIna ane duHkhI mAnI vAre vAre valApAta kare che cintAmaNi ratnanI sthA eka zeTha, paisA-parivAra-pratiSThA vigerethI sapanna hatA. tethI potAne sukhI samajatA-paNa ajJAnatA-rAga-dUSa mAMha vigere kevA kevA duHkha dAyaka che ane kAramI katala che tathA khAdya dRSTinI kevI bhaya'karatA chete samajatA nathI. ekadA bahAra paribhramaNu karatA cintAmaNi hastagata thayA paNa tenA svarUpanI tathA prabhAvanI khabara nahI hAvAthI tene rUpALA paththara mAnI keAI khapamAM Avaze Ama mAnI jhaverAtanI peTImAM sUkA cArAe tenA gharamAM khAtara pADayuM. zeTha bhara nidrAmAM rAvAthI temane khabara paDI nahI. pramAda magnane keTalI, ane kANu cArI karI rahela che. tenI khabara kayAMthI paDe ? savAramAM zeTha jAgyA gharamAM khAtara paDela hovAthI zAka satApa karavA For Private And Personal Use Only

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: - - 1 1 ) Azare cAti lAgyA. leke bhegA thayA. zeTha peTIne dekhADavA lAgyA, dekhADatA peTIne paNa dekhADI ane kahevA lAgyA ke A peTImAMthI saghaLu jhaverAta cere laI gayA. paNa phakata A rUpALA paththare rahI gaye. je jovA AvyA hatA temAM pravINa eka jhaverIe A paththarane oLakhe. kharekhara tenuM svarUpa jANIne kahyuM ke are! zeTha zA mATe saMtApa-paritApa kare che. A rUpALe paththaro nathI paNa cintAmaNI che ane A prabhAvazAlI cintAmaNI ratna che. tenAthI tame mAgaNI karaze te maLI raheze. tame Ane oLakhe nahI. tenA prabhAvane pichA nahi. tethI paztiApa karIne dukhI thAo, che, zeThane have samajaNa paDI-zeka saMtApa tyAga karIne, vicAravA lAgyo ke pramAda-niMdrAthI jhaverAta vigere cAre laI gayA-paNa mArI pAse cintA rAraka cintAmaNi che. mATe have dIna-hIna banavuM te pAmaranuM kAma che. Ama samajI zeTha AnaMdamAM rahevA lAgyA. A pramANe bAhya daSTi. mAnanI pAse paNa citAmaNi karatAM paNa atyaMta prabhAva zAlI ane anaMta avyAbAdha satya sukhane ApanAra pitAnI pAse najIkamAM najIka pitAne AtmA che. paNa najara bahAra bhamatI hevAthI parakhAto nathI. tenA svarUpane khyAla Avato nathI. tethI kaI vakhate vipatti, Ave ke bhAre nukazAna thAya ke cere mAla milakata carI jAya tyAre paritApa-pikA pADI pitAne dIna-hIna mAnI atyaMta kane anubhave che. te vakhate tene te potAnA AtmAne te care, laI gaw nathI mATe AbhyanA varUpane 9 tathA tenAmAM, I ? * ', for a * ka For Private And Personal Use Only

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1 A. kAti sAgari racita rahelI ane zaktine pIchAnI paritApasine hara ? AtmAne jANa je tenI barAbara ArAdhanA karIza te kaI prakAre hInatA dInatA jAso nahi mATe are bhAgyazAlI eka AtmAne oLakha tenA satya savarUpane jANa A magbdanuM satya kartavya che. are bhAgyavAna tame kahe che ke "oLakhANa te sukhanI khANa che" Ama mAnI jagatamAM dareka sthaLe dareka vastuonI oLakhANa karI. dareka jagyAe saMbaMdha bAMdhe paNa jenI sAcI oLakhANa karavAnI hatI ane satya saMbaMdha bAMdhavAne have tyAM bAMdhe nahI. te tamAre saMtApa paritApAdika kayAMthI TaLe! 46 zayatAnA paripAka yoge bAhya dRSTijane antarAtmA sazurUne coga malavAthI, sabhya (STimAna banIne aArAtma daSTi bane che je pitAnI bhUlane aparAdhane samyagU rItyA jANI dUra kare che tene kaleza kaMkAsa rahetuM nathI. eka dhanADhaya zeThane alaMkAra tarIke metIne kaDA paheravAno zokha hatuM. tethI nAhI-dhoI-svaccha kapaDA paherIne motIno kaMTha dhAraNa karatA koI prasaMge paheravAno visarI jAya te mana udAsI banatuM. Ama daravAja paheravAthI kaMThAne dore ghasAvA lAgyo ekadA-sArA kapaDA paherI motIne kAma dhAraNa karavA pUrvaka derAsara jInezvaranA darzana stavana karIne pitAne ghera AvyA te vakhate eka sAdharmi badhu balavAna mATe Ave. sukhazAtA pUche che. tevAmAM te thI kaThAne de sAkarAsarajImAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghara sthati 1 * aneA kAza tUTI gayA ane mAttIo paheNamAM ane dhAtIAmAM sarakI gayAM--tenu bhAna rahyuM nahIM. vAtacIta purI thai eTale gaLAmAM kaDI nahI dekhavAthI zeThane zakAnI sAthe saMtApa thavA lAgye Avela sAdhamika arjune puche ke, tame te keTA lIdhA nathI ne? Avela mitra kahe che ke huM tamArI samakSa beThA chuM. nAzI gayA nathI tapAsa karI tru ane kaMThamAMthI te karA lauM te tamane khabara na paDe te kema ane? Ama pachI zeTha tarata ubhA thayA. te tUTalA kaThA ane chUTA paDelA mAtI nIce paDelAM dekhyA-zeTha zaramAyA-mitrAnI pAse mAphI mAgI. A pramANe jyAre manuSya. sAmAnI zIkhAmaNumAnI pAtanI jAtane jyAre arAbara tapAse tyAre ajJAnatA TaLe che ane ajJAnatA khasatAM kaleza kaMkAsa paNa khasI jAya che. 47 cetana heAya che tene pAtAnA vicAranI tathA anyajanAnA vicArAnI asara thAya che. > sArA zubha vicArA hAya tA sArI ane jIrA vicArA hAya tA kharAba asara thayA vinA rahetI nathI. kahevata che maneAmana sAkSI bIjanAnA vicAAnI asara zubha vicAraka jANe tyAre te cetI jAya che. ane tethI kalInI ghaTanAmAM phasAtA nathI. paNa daMbhI pAte pAtAnI daMbhanI racanAmAM sAi paDI asAsa kare che. mATe pAtAnA hita ane paranA kalyANu mATe sArA vicAra karavAnI Teva pADavI maitrI, pramAda, anukaMpA ane mAdhyasthya bhAvanAnA vicA For Private And Personal Use Only

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FOR A. kIti sAgarasUriziyana razo temaja anityAdika bhAvanAnA vicArA karavAthI khAma vicArA khase che. ane zubha vicArAne sthAna maLe che. DAzInI sthA Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir eka DAzI vRddhAne parivAramAM eka rUpALI kanyAM hatI, te kanyAnI sAthe DAMsI pAMca gAu dUra bIjA gAmamAM javA mATe nIkaLI. mALamAM kanyAne thAka lAgyA. tethI eka vaDanA vRkSanI chAyamAM ArAma levA beThA. tevAmAM eka sAMDha pIvALA jatA hatA tene te ALakhatI na hatI chatAM kahevA lAgI 2 * are sAMDhaNIvALA mArI kanyAne thAka lAgyA che. mATe tuM sAMDhaNI upara besADa ane amuka gAma Ave tyAre utAraje. huM dhIme dhIme te gAmanI bhAgALe AvIza. A pramANe DAsInu vacana sAMbhaLI sAMDhaNIvALA kahevA lAgyA. mAre jaldI javu che. huM rAkAIza nahi, tame dhImedhIme cAlI gAmamAM jAo. Ama kahI teNe cAlavA mAMDayu, aDadhA gAu thayA pachI tenA vicAra malIna thayA. ane vicAra karavA lAgyA ke, me mhATI bhUla karI. te kanyAne esADI nAzI gayeA hAta te| A dezI zuM karavAnI hatI T pachI te kanyAne samAvI, + 1 lagna karIne patnI anAvata A pramANe vicAra karIne sAMDhaNIne ubhI rAkhIDAsInI ane kanyAnI rAha jovA lAgyA. dAsIne paNa vicAra Avye ke huM kevI mUkhI" ke jene oLakhatI na hatI chatAM mArI dIkarIne esADavA mATe For Private And Personal Use Only

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atira ti kahyuM. kadAca A kanyAnA rUpamAM mugdha banI te nAzI gaye hota te huM zuM karata? kayAM zedhata? mATe kaI kahe te paNa ajANyAnI sAthe kadApi mokaluM nahI. A mujaba vicAra karIne dhIme dhIme cAlavA mAMDayuM. jyAM pele ubhe che tyAM AvI pahoMcyA pele kahevA lAgyA DesIne phasAvavA. DesImA DesImA-jagatamAM rahelA jhADe, chAyA phula phalAdika ApI upakAra kare che. nirmalanIra bharelI nadIo zItala jala ApI prANIone zAMti arpaNa karavA pUrva ke upakAra kare che tathA pazu paMkhInA hADakA-tathA pIchAM leke laIme potAnA kAmamAM le che tethI pazu paMkhIo paNa upakAra kare che paNa manuSya je manuSya thaIne koI paNa prakAre upakAra kare nahI te te pazupaMkhI karatAM paNa nIca halake gaNAya. mATe tamArI A kanyAne sukhethI sAMDhaNuM upara besADe tame kahela gAmamAM utArIza. DosIe kahyuM ke, "tane je kahI gaye te mane paNa kahI gaye "mArI putrIne besADavI nathI. tuM tAre mArge cAlyuM jA, ame dhIme dhIme ISTa gAmamAM pahecIzuM. pele paNa vicAravA lAgyuM ke mArA vicAra badalAyA to DesInA vicAra paNa badalAyA. Ama vicArI cAlavA mAMDayuM. DesI. dikarI sAthe potAnA ISTa gAmamAM pahoMcI. A uparathI mAluma paDe che ke vicAronI asara bIjA upara paDe che ane vicAre badalAya che mATe dararoja azubha vicArane tyAga karI zubha vicAra karatA rahe. 48 keTalIka vAra sAmA mANasano Azaya For Private And Personal Use Only

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1ja AkIrtisAgarUri racita abhiprAya jAya ane samajyA sivAya sAmA magSya upara deSa devAya che tathA bhUlone dekhADAya che. tethI kaMkAsa-kaleza-vera virodha vigere ubhA thAya che. ane sneha premamAM paththarAo paDe che. sAme maLe tyAre paNa sukhazAtA puchAtI nathI. paraMtu jyAre sAmAna Azaya-abhiprAya zubha jaNAya che tyAre ghare pastA thAya che. mATe kaI mANase kahela vacanane sAMbhaLI uchaLI paDavuM nahIM. ane zaMkAtura paNa banavuM nahIM. paNa barobara tapAsa karavI. ke jethI saMpa-premane kSati pahece nahIM ThAkaranI kathA eka ThAkarane dIkare dhArmika upAdhyAya pAse bhaNavA AvatA ThAkarane ane upAdhyAyane sAre prema thaye upAdhyAya vyAvahArika keLavaNInI sAthe nIti nyAya ane dharmanuM sArI rIte jJAna ApatA.-ThAkarane putra zraddhALu hovAthI. te keLavaNathI kuzaLa kuzaLa ane bahAdura banya eka vakhata lAkha rUpiyAnA dAgInA paherI ThAkarane putra bhaNavA sArU Avela che, e arasAmAM bahAra guDA thA bahAravaTIAne AvyAnI bUma paDI. upAdhyAye vicAra karyo. A putra alaMkAra yukta che. kadAca ghara tarapha jatAM guMDAo ke bahAravaTIone tene pakaDI ghareNA levA mArI nAMkhaze. te ThAkara mahArI bhUla kADhaze. mATe paherelA alaMkArane utarAvI putrane ekaluM Ama vicArI, ghareNuM kADhI laI tene gherameka, ghareNA vinAnA dIkarAne dekhI ThAkare kahyuM ke upAdhyAya buddhi For Private And Personal Use Only

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Atara ameti 15 bagaDI che. tethI mArA lekarAnA ghareNAM laI lIdhAM. vAta gAmamAM pracAra pAmI ThAkara paNa temanI pAse jaI jema tema bolavA lAgyA. paNa upAdhyAye jyAre sAcI samajaNa paDI. tyAre ThAkora zaramI banyuM ane pastA karavA mATe sAmAnA Azayane paNa jANavAnI jarUra che. 49 ApaNe jeoe AdaramAna-sanmAna ApIye. teo jarUra ApaNuM samIpamAM AvatA rahe paraMtu jeone AdaramAna ApIe chIe, te ke che? vizvAsa lAyaka che Atmahita karanAra che. ke nahI tenI tapAsa avazya karavA lAyaka che. je barAbara tapAsa karavAmAM Ave nahIM. te jenA upara vizvAsa rAkhIne AdaramAna ApavAmAM Ave che. te kadAcit vizvAsaghAtI nIvaDe te bahu nukazAna thAya, mATe jeo samIpamAM Ave che. tenI jarUra tapAsa karo. unnati karanAra hoya te jarUra AdaramAna Ape. ane hAnI karanAra hoya te teone dUra karavAmAM eka ghaDIne paNa vilaMba kare nahI. tame je krodha-mAna mAyA bhAdikane AdaramAna ApI pAse rAkhyA che. te kalyANa kare che ke vizvAsaghAtI che sattA-saMpatti-bala-buddhine malIna karanAra che. ke lUMTanAra che. tene khyAla karyo ke nahIM! tame buddhimAna ane bahAdura banI teone dUra karyA na hoya te AjathI AraMbhI yukti ane jJAna pUrvaka khaseDavA mATe buddhibalane sArI rIte skurAyamAna kare? teja tamArI sattA-saMpatti vigerenuM rakSaNa thaze ane sArA nimitte For Private And Personal Use Only

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10 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita maLatAM vadhAro thaze. mATe ALasa-pramAdikane tyAga karI jAgrata thAo tame je kaSAyAdikane mAna sanmAna ApI paMdhAyA che. teoe tamArI sattA-saMpatti-bala-buddhi vigerene chInavI lIdhI che. tene khyAla kare ane dUra karavA mATe tatpara bano ! eka ThAkoranI pAse cAra cAraNa (bhA) AvIne tenI vividha prakAre prazaMsA karatA tethI DAkAra teone bahu dAna mAna ApIne rasoDe jamADatA. tethI khuzI thaIne daravAja tenI pAse te cAraNe AvavA lAgyA. ane ThAkoranA vakhANa karIne khuzI karatA. ThAkara paNa khuzI thaIne dararoja dAna-mAnAdi ApavAmAM khAmI rAkhate nahi ThAkorane khyAla raho nahI ke dararoja dAnAdi ApavAmAM khajAne khAlI thAya che ke vadhAre thAya che? ThakarANIne cintA thaI ke A pramANe veMdhelA A cAra cAraNone dAnAdika ApavAthI thoDA vakhatamAM khajAne khAlI thaze ane khAlI thatAM vividha viDaMbanAe AvIne gherI leze ThAkarane bhAna nathI ke prazaMsA sAMbhaLavAmAM keTalI hAni thAya che. dararoja pitAnI prazaMsA khAtara teo dhana mAlane veDaphI veDaphI nAMkhe che mATe buddhi vAparI teone jarUra khase. havA ke bIjIvAra DhAkAra pAse Ave nahIM. ane nukazAna paNa thAya nahI. A pramANe vicAra kare che tevAmAM ThAkoranI AjJA AvI che. mane AnaMda ApanAra evA A cArane jamADavA mATe suMdara raseI ane ThakarANIe rasoIto. banAvI paNa sAthe cAra tAvIthAne tapAvI lAla cALa banA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 10 vIne rAkhyA. cArA jamavA meThA. tapAvelA tAvIthAne dekhI cAraNAe puchyu ke zA mATe A tAvIthA tapAvIne lAlaceALa manAvyA che. ThakarANIe kahyu tamArA mATe tamane jamADIne lagAvavA mATe. ThAkeratu' magaja hamaNAM malIna thayuM che. tethI mane AjJA ApI che, ke tAvIthA tapAvI taiyAra rAkhaje Ama sAMbhaLI cAraNA jamyA vInA suThIvALIne bhAgyA ThAkAre AvIne kahyuM ke te huM ThakarANI kayAM gayA? ThakarANIe kahyuM. A tAvIyAne mAgatA hatA. meM ApyA nahI tethI rIsa caDhAvIne jamyA vinA gayA. DhAkAratAvIyAne lai tenI pAchaLa DhADayA. tAvIthA tAvIthA khelatA ThAkArane sAMbhaLI cAraNA bhaDakayA ke zuM ThAkAra zarIre lagAvI deze ? Ama samajI evA bhAgyA ke trIjI vAra AvavAnI kheA bhUlI gayA. ThakarANInI cintA ochI thaI A pramANe evI yukti karI ke cAra kaSAye pa khA bhulI jAya ane stra sapatinuM rakSaNu thAya tathA sArA nimitto maLatAM temAM vadhArA thatA rahe. 50 vrata niyama jIvanamAM navajIvana arpaNa kare che eTale niyamabaddha banela prANIo peAtAnA jIvananI saphLatA prApta kare che ' niyamabaddha mAnavI--tathA pazuo hAya nahI teA peAtAnA jIvanane unmArge laI javA pUrvaka mahAyAtanAonA bhAjana ane che. gheADAne lagAma hAya tAja kabajAmAM rahe a zake nahI. tathA hAthIne aMkuza na hoya nahIM. tA madgAmata For Private And Personal Use Only

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108 A. kIti sAgarika mila banI mAnavIoAne herAna parezAna kastAM vAra lagADe nahI. te mATe niyama-tanI khAsa jarUra che. mAnavIne niyamAnika hAya nahiMtA siddha vigere zIznA pazu karatAM RSika krUra banI svaparanI unnatimAM moTA vistA ubhA thAya che eTale svaparanuM kalyANa sAdhavu azakya mane che niyama baddhane bahu ka-saMtApa vagere kleSA hAtA nathI. eka AcAyanI vAta. vidvAna AcArya mahArAjanuM vyAkhyAnane sAMbhaLavAnA eka cArane vicAra thayA ane rasika vyAkhyAna hAvAthI A cAra eka divasa paNa pADatA nahIM. cAra-pAMca mahinA sudhI satata vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLyuM. tethI koI eka niyama levAnI abhilASA thaI paNa lIdhelA niyama paLAze ke nahIM. tenI zaMkA thatI hAvAthI gurU pAse niyama laI zakatA nahIM AcAya mahArAje tenA bhAvane jANI niyama addha anavA mATe kahyuM ke are te cAra mAsa sudhI amArU vyAkhyAna sAMlaLela che kAI eka niyama le? mahArAja ! mArA dhaMdhA cArInA che. eTale bhAvanA tA thAya che paNa niyama laI zakAtA nathI. gurU mahArAje kahyuM ke tArAthI pAlana thAya tevA niyasa le. 51 niyama vinAne mAnathI pazu karatAM nIca gaNAya che. niyama baddha banela cAra hAya tA paNa ate peAtAnA AtmAnI unnati karavA bhAgyazAlI bane che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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jAti pati AcArya mahArAjanA Agraha thavAthI, te bhASA leza mATe taiyAra thaye. ane kahyuM ke, mane "gADu" na khAvAne niyama, bAdhA Ape. gurU mahArAje bhAvi sArU jANI. tene paNa eTale mADu na khAvAnI bAdhA ApI. cora paNa bAdhA lai khuzI thaye ke AvI bAdhA levAthI pelA gurU mahArAja prasanna thayA. ane gADu khAvAne prasaMga paNa kayAMthI AvI vAne che? paraMtu banyuM evuM ke daza cerene sAthe A cAra cerI karatA eka senAnA gRhamAM peThe nidrAvaza banela senIne ane tenA parivArane khabara paDI nahI. A cAra lagAma lAkha rUpiyAne mAla cerI rAtrimAM nAThA. mArgamAM eka maMdira AvyuM tenA oTale beThA. atizaya sudhA lAgela rahevAthI khAvAnuM zedhavA lAgyA. maMdiramAM eka gADu khAMDanI cAsaNI karIne banAvela dekhuM. A gADu te mUe hatuM ke keI eka mAse "je putra thaze to mAMnuM gADa maLIza" A pramANe ASA-rAkhela hatI. bhAvibhAvanA cAre tene putra che tethI teNe AvI aMbikA mAtAnI pAse teNe e dharAvela hatuM. A khAMDanA gADAne dekhI varanI mAphaka thaela cAre tene khAvA lAgyA. niyama vALAne kahevA lAgyA ke tame kema khAtA nathI? teNe kahyuM ke gurU mahArAja pAse gADu khAvAnI bAdhA lIdhI che mATe huM te khAIza nahI. sAthenA cArAe Agraha pUrvaka bahu samajAvyA chatAM lIdhela niyamanuM rakSaNa karyuM zraddhA hatI niyamane sAcavavAmAM atyaMta lAbhane kalyANuM che banyuM evuM ke je thie, khAMDatuM banAvela gADu For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita khAdhu teo prAtaHkAlamAM uThayA nahI. temane maraNa zaraNa thaela dekhI vicAra karavA lAgyuM ke, je meM khAdhuM hata te mArI dazA AvI thAta, khAMDanI cAsaNI banAvatAM temAM gIrelInuM jhera paDeluM hatuM. tethI niyama baddha cAra sivAya bIjA cAra maraNa pAmyA. cerIne mAlaniyama vALA ceranI pAse AvyA. ane manamAM vicAra karavA lAge ke eka sAmAnya niyama levAthI prANanuM rakSaNa thayuM. ane huM maraNa zaraNa thaye nahI. ane niyama vinAnA sarve maraNuM pAmyA. mATe te gurU mahArAjanI pAse jaI te kahe te mujaba niyame grahaNa karI jIMdagIne sudhArU tathA A cerInA mAlane dhArmika mArge vAparUM gurU mahArAjanI pAse A cera AvIne kahevA lAgyo. are gurudeva! gADu na khAvAnI bAdhAthI mArA prANe bacyA nahitara mArI sAthe Avela rAnI mAphaka mArI paNa dazA thAta. mATe je ApanI abhilASA hoya te niyamo mahane Ape. guru mahArAje tenI zraddhA jANI zakaya niyame ApyA. ane daDhatA pUrvaka pAlana karavAne upadeza Ape.niyamane grahaNa karIne guru mahArAjane aMjalI jeDI namratA pUrvaka kahevA lAgyA ke AjathI AraMbhI ceArI karIza nahI. pAradArone mAtAnI mAphaka mAnIza tathA abhakSya cIjone prANAMte paNa khAIza nas , ane A cerInA mAlane dharmanA mArge vAparIza. gurudeve kahyuM ke, cArIne mAla dhArmika mArge vAparavAmAM lAbha-kalyANa sadhAya nahIM. nyAya nItithI prApta karela dhanAdika dharma mArge vaparAya te ja puNya thAya lAbha tathA bhAvanI vRddhi hoya te mamatA, For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara joti 111 meha khase tyAre A cArIne mAla kayAM vAparUM tema puchatAM guru kahe tenA mAlIkane ApI Ava. te zeka saMtApa karato haze. bhIkhArI je banI velepAta karatA haze. tuM jyAre A mAla pAcho ApIza tyAre AnaMdamAM Avaze mATe jA, ane tenA mAlIkane A mAla pAchA ApI Ava re kahyuM Ape je upadeza Ape te barAbara che. paNa A mAla ApavA jatAM tene mAlika polIsa pAse pakaDAvI maherI viDaMbanAmAM nAMkhaze dharma karatAM dhADa "A kahevatanI sArthaktA karaze mATe tenA temaja mAlIkanI pAse jatAM hiMmata cAlatI nathI. paga upaDatA nathI gurUdeve kahyuM ke "dharmanuM pAlana karavuM che ane nirbhaya banavuM nathI te kema bane? mATe sarvathA bhayathI mukta banIne A mAla pAcho ApI Ava. dharmanA prabhAve unI AMca Avaze nahI. sanInA manamAM paNa dharma bhAvanA jAgaze hiMmata rAkha hathIAra karatAM temAM adhika bala che. A pramANe zravaNa karIne sanInI pAse gaye. mAphInI sAthe cele mAla pAcho Ape. ane gurUdeve Apela niyamane lAbha je thayo hato te saghaLo kahI batAvyo. senI mAlIke khuzI thaI mAphI ApI. ane tenI prazaMsA karIne kahevA lAgyuM ke huM paNa gurUdevanI pAse jaI zraddhA pUrvaka carI nahI karavAne niyama laIza? sanIe paNa gurU mahArAjanI pAse corI na karavAne niyama lAdhe A pramANe be jaNA dharmanA mArge vaLyA.. mATe are puNyazAlIe niyama vinA eka ghaDI paNa rahevuM nahI. niyamathI For Private And Personal Use Only

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11ra A kIrtisAgari siyA Ini ane mAnasika vRttine kabajAmAM Ave che. kabajAmAM AvelI vRttio, manuSyane anaMta sAcA sukhane, sArI saMpatti samape che jyAre vaiSayika sukhanA svarUpa babara jANI temAMthI Asakti khase che tyAre ja niyama gratAdika levAnI bhAvanA jAge che, te bhAvanA dRDha vatI hoya che. tyAre viveka pUrvaka vratAdikanuM pAlana thAya che. dAnAdika, cacejanene ApavAmAM puNyane baMdha ane mamatA rahitatA thAya che. paraMtu te jyAre AzaMsA-eTale A lekanI ane paralekanA sukhanI abhilASA heya nahI tyAre ja mATe zAstrakAre kahe che ke, je dAnAdika karo te niSkAma bhAve karA tathA atimAnAdi daza no tyAga keza temaja dAnAdika satkAryo karavAmAM zaMkAdine nivAre kaMTALe lAvI zaramathI, dAkSiNayathI Apazo te tenuM phI meLavI zakaze nahIM. kadAcita dAnAdika ApavA IcchA thaze nahI. tyAre aneka yukti karavA pUrvaka nAnA batAvaze te paNa sAme dAna lenAra huMzIAra haze te mauna dhAraNa karavuM paDaze. eka rAjA prAtaHkAle brAhmaNa paDitAne yathecacha dAna Apate paNa dAna lenArA vadhI paDayA. tethI kaMTALo Avyo che ke apayazanI bhIti saghaLA brAddAne dAna de paNa dAna dIdhA pachI pastAvo karate ane kaMTALate saghaLA brAhaNene zaramathI dAna dIdhA pachI eka paMDita brAhmaNa dAna levA mATe A AzIrvAda ApyA tyAre rAjAne dAna jemAnI ica nahI hovAthI teNe yuti zekhIne kaNaka For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti AgaLanA brAhmaNane baSione dAna levA mATe vAre vAra vinatI karatA chatAM te letA nahI. nirapRha hovAthI rAjAe teone page paDatA ane sAme jaI satkAra-sanmAnAdika karatA. hAla brAhmaNa paMDite te ulTA rAjAonI pAse AvI namratA dhAraNa karI dAna levA mATe punaH punaH prazaMsA kare che mATe teomAM brahma teja-varcasva jevuM dekhAtuM nathI. tethI ja rAjAnI pAse dAna levA mATe vArevAre A jIjI kare che tamAruM brAhmaNatva kayAM rahyuM che ke dAnasanmAnAdika ApIe. paMDita rAjAnI dAnata samajI gayo. ane kuzaLatA pUrvaka kahevA lAgyA. prathamanA rAjAe pramANika ane game tevA yAcaka Ave teone dAna detAM kaMTALatA nahi tathA te rAjAe vyasana vinAnA tathA pApabhIru haIne pitAnI tathA prajAnI unnati IcachatA tethI teo sAme jaI nispRha brAhmaNe tathA RSi-munione vArevAre vinati karatA tyAre hAlanA rAjAe pitAnuM ane prajAonuM game te thAya tenI paravA rAkhyA vinA sAta vyasanemAM Asakta banI prajAne pIDavAmAM ane cusavAmAM kayAM bAkI rAkhe che? mATe tame jevA tevA ame A pramANe paMDita brAhmaNanuM vacana sAMbhaLI A rAjAe mauna dhAraNa karyuM. ane anicchAe dAna ApavuM paDayuM. paNa lAbha ze? mATe anyanA deze batAvI dAna devuM te ucita nathI. puna: A nRpanI pAse eka nirdoSa brAhmaNe AvI AzIrvAda arpaNa pUrvaka dAnanI mAgaNI karI. tyAre vaLI bIjI yukti zodhI kADhIne kahyuM ke agasti kaSi jAte brAhmaNa tejevI varcasI hatA. temaNe eka aMja For Private And Personal Use Only

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114 A. kIrti sAramaNi racita limAM dariye pIdhe. tame je samudra pIe te dAna-mAna satkArAdika ApuM. brAhmaNa vicAramAM paDaze ane kahevA lAgyuM ke he rAjA! "mAgaNe bhale nahI sagA bAyake" A kahevata jANuM chuM. paNa ekeya upAya nathI tyAre tArA jevA rAjA pAse mAgavA Avela chuM. paraMtu tame sUryavaMzI rAjA kahevAo che ane rAmacaMdrajI paNa sUryavaMzI nRpa hatA. temaNe mahAna dariyAmAM paththarane tarAvyA. ane pUla bAMdhI laMkAmAM jaI rAvaNane jItI sItAjI lAvyA. tame dariye te nahI paNa eka nadImAM eka paththarane tarAve te mahAtmAnuM. mATe yuktine tyAga karI khuzI thaIne dAna Ape. rAjAe chevaTe dAna ApyuM. brAhmaNa dAna laIne gayA, paNa je lAbha joIe te maLe nahI. - A rAjA dAna devAmAM kaMTALatuM hovAthI teNe yAcako pitAnI meLe samajIne cAlyA jAya tevI yuti zodhI kADhI. savAranA vakhate vadhelI dADhInA vALAne pheravatA pheravatA agara vALatAM jeTalA vALa hAthamAM Ave teTalI senA mahAranuM dAna devuM te saMkalpa karyo. karaja dADhImAM hAtha pheravatAM meM vALA eka-be-traNa Ave, teTalI senA mahoranuM dAna dete. ane A mATe niyama che ema yAcakone te rAjA jaNAvate, kaI vakhate ekeya vALa hAthamAM Ave nahI tyAre kahe ke tamArA bhAgyamAM nathI nahItara hAtha pheravatA eka te Ave ! mATe tamane ApavAmAM Avaze nahIM. Ama kahIne AzA bharelA yAcake ne vidAya karo. eka vakhata savAramAM eka paMDita brAhaNe Aje AzIrvAda For Private And Personal Use Only

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atira jAti pUrvaka yAcanA karI. rAjAe potAno niyama kahI saMbhaLAvyo ke A DADhIne eLatAM-jeTalA moMvALA hAthamAM Avaze. teTalI senAmahora ApIza. A pramANe kahIne hAtha pheravatAM ekaja maMvALuM hAthamAM AvyuM. tethI rAjA kahevA lAgyuM ke tArA bhAgyamAM eka ja senA mahAra che tArA bhAgyamAM vadhAre haze nahI tethI ekathI adhika AvyA nahI. paMDite kahyuM ke Ama bhAga-abhAgyanI parIkSA thAya nahI. bhAgyA-bhAgyanI parIkSA karavI hoya te tamArI dADhI mArA hAthamAM Ape, keTalA moMvALA hAthamAM Ave che te mAluma paDaze. zA cUpa thayA ane vicAra karavA lAgyo ke A brAhmaNa mAthAne ma. nahI ApuM te nagarImAM phajetI karaze tethI prajAne prema mArA uparathI ocho thaze. premanA AdhAre rAjyanI AbAdI-AjhAdI sthira rahe che. Ama dhArI cathe cha dAna ApIne vidAya karyo. paNa puNyabaMdhAdika AvI yuktithI kayAMthI thAya? para. keTalAka manuSya evA heya che ke A kAma karavA jevuM che ane tuM kara. tyAre teo kArya kare nahI. -ane cako "nakAra" saMbhaLAvI de. ane A kArya kAma karavA jevuM nathI mATe tuM kara nahI tyAre khuzI thaIne tevuM kAma karavA bese. niSedha karavAmAM Ave te paNa mAne nahI. ane kahe ke, tamAre kahevAnI jarUra nathI. ame badhu samajIe chIe. tamAre DahApaNa oLavAnI AvazyakatA nathI. zuM ame gamAra pAgala chIe. sArA narasA kAmanI ame For Private And Personal Use Only

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116 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita khabara paDe che. mATe tame vAre vAre Tapha Tapha kare nahI. A pramANe kahIne magarUrI dhAraNa karIne pAchA malakAya che eTale A kAma kara nahI. te kahe ke karuM chuM ane A kAma kara te karuM nahI. A pramANe pitAnI buddhinuM lIlAma karI aMte ghaNuM saMkaTamAM AvI phasAya che. eka zeTha sAdhana saMpanna hatA. paNa tenA putra ane patnI avalacaMDAM hatAM. jyAre zeTha putrane kahe ke, paisAone kAma vilAsamAM veDaphI nAMkha nahIM mojamajAmAM lahera nathI, lAhya che tethI dharma-dhana-AbarUmAM hAni pahoMce mATe A unmArge ja nahIM. tyAM pahelAM jAya. buddhi belAdika hAni thatI hoya to paNa e savabhAva paDele hAvAthI abhimAnamAM tene mAluma paDe nahIM. tephAnI paNa eka ke be jaNa sAthe jhaghaDe karyA vinA cena paDe nahI. unmAge gamana karanArane kaleza kaMkAsa-jhaghaDe thayA sivAya rahe nahI. chatAM pitAne pravINa mAnate hevAthI pitAnI zIkhAmaNane kadApi mAnate nahi. eka vakhata kAmavilAsI anyajane sAthe mahAna kaMkAsa thaze. A mANasoe tene e mAryo ke ubhe thaI cAlI zakyo nahI. tenA pitAne khabara paDI. eTale eka mAsa sudhI sAravAra karI tyAre ubhe thaI cAla vAnI zakti AvI Ama chatAM paNa unmAgane tyAga karato nathI. chevaTe pitA khedane tyAga karI dharmakriyA karavA lAgyA. tathA patnI paNa evI vicitra ane kajIALI malI hatI For Private And Personal Use Only

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17 AMtara jyoti ke A kAma karavA jevuM che te te kAma kare nahI. bIjuM kare. tethI zeThane dhArmika kriyA karatAM paNa sthiratA rahetI nahI. eka vakhata gharamAM memAne AvyA tyAre zeThe kahyuM ke emane-sagAMvahAlAM ghaNe varSe AvyA che mATe rasoI suMdara banAvaje, strIe kahyuM ke "mUA tamArA memAne huM to tabIyata narama hovAthI rAI karavAnI nathI." zeThe kahyuM ke tArA mATe navA sAlA tathA suMdara ghareNuM ghaDAvIza' te teNe kahyuM "raseI suMdara banAvIne sanmAna pUrvaka jamADIza. keTalI vAnIo banAvuM." "paMdara banAvaje' Ama kahI zake mahemAnanI sarabharA-sanmAnAdika karavA lAgyA. rAI taiyAra thaI, mahemAne jamavA beThA-paMdara vAnIo pIrasavAmAM AvI chevaTe bhajIAM mAgyA tyAre strIe kepa karIne kahyuM ke, paMdaravAnIo kahI hatI. bhAjInI vAta kayAM kahI hatI? Ama kahI, mUA tamArA mahemAne huM to saMdhI rAMdhIne marI gaI. A pramANe mahemAne sAMbhaLI manamAM hasavA lAgyA. ane kheda karavA lAgyA. zeTha te svabhAve sArA che. vivekI paNa che paNa bAyaDI mAthAnI maLI che. zeTha vicAra karavA lAgyA ke A strIe te mArI AbarU lIdhI. hAMsIpAtra banAvyA mahemAne jamIne pitAnA sthAne gayA. eka vakhata gumAstAe tenA piyaramAMthI Avele kAgaLa A AgaLa vAMce. ke tamArA mAtA pitA ghaNA mAMdA paDayA che. A sAMbhaLI strI piyaramAM javA taiyAra thaI, zeThe kahyuM ke varasAda ghaNe paDavAthI nadImAM ghoDApUra Avela che, mATe For Private And Personal Use Only

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118 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita betraNa divasa javAnuM baMdha rAkhe paNa A mAne kayAMthI ? bhale pUra AvyuM. mane taratAM AvaDe che. mArA mAtApitA mAMdA paDela hovAthI gayA vinA cAlaze nahI Ama kahI cAlavA mAMDayuM. zeThe kahyuM ke mAstAne agara munImajIne sAthe letI jA." "nAnA teeAnuM kAma nathI. ekalI ja javAnI, avala caDe svabhAva te hatuM ke je zeTha kahe te karavuM nahIM. ane kahe nahI te karavuM. A vicitra svabhAva hovAthI keIne paNa sAthe lIdhA vinA piyara javA nIkaLI. sagA saMbaMdhIe paNa kahyuM ke nadIe ghoDApura Avela che tethI kharekhara taranAra heya te paNa tarI zake nahI. mATe pUra utaryA pachI javuM te hitakara che, abhimAnI ajonI zikhAmaNa hitakara hoya te paNa mAne nahI. ane madamAM ne madamAM magna banela hovAthI vividha viDaMbanAomAM AvI phasAya che evI viDaMbanAomAM phasAya ke tevA avasare sahakAra-sahAya karanAra keI paNa hAya nahI. bhale pachI pikAra karavA paDe A strIe kaI sagA saMbaMdhInI zikhAmaNa mAnI nahI. ane nadImAM taravA lAgI. pUranuM jora vadhAre hevAthI thAkI gaI, aphasa karavA lAgI. have hAtha paganuM bala ochuM thaela che ane pUra uparA uparI Ave che. have mArUM thaze zuM? sahAya mAgavAnI IcchA thaI paNa te vakhate tenA pikAra paNa keI sAMbhaLI zake ema nahatuM. mukhamAM bharI gaelA nadInA pANIe teNIne DubADI. maraNa pamADI. mAtapitAne maLI zakI nahI. nadInI madhyamAM maraNa zaraNuM thaI. mATe For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara jyoti kaI sArI zikhAmaNa Ape temanA pati mAne tarachoDavI nahI. sArI zikhAmaNa mAnavAthI abhimAnaajJAnatA-adekhAI rAga-dveSa vigere atyaMta duHkhadAyI deze khasatA jAya che ane samyajJAna-sahiSNutA-udAratApApabhIrutAsavartana vigere sadaguNene AvavAnuM sthAna sulabha bane che. 53 kAyA-mAyA ane tenI mamatAmAM mugdha banela ajJAnI mAna upakArI upara upakAra karavo to dUra rahe paNa te upakArane eLavI apAra karavA tatpara bane che. paraMtu upakArInuM puNya hovAthI apakAra karavA agara saMkaTamAM nAMkhavA taiyAra thaelane apakAra naDe ane tene pitAne mahAviDaMbanAmAM phasAve are prANAnA jokhamamAM paNa pote AvI paDe che. teone tenAthI nIkaLavAne lAga phAvatuM nathI. upakArI para upakAra karanAra tene badale vALanAra-tathA niSkAraNa upakArIe paNa jagatamAM vidyamAna che te apakAra karanArane mAluma hotI nathI ke upakArI upara apakAra karavA jatAM niSkAraNa upakArIo mane phAvavA deze nahI. ane karela apakAra mane pitAne bhayaMkara nIvaDaze. huM pote nAhakka kAramI viDaMbanAmAM phasAI paDIza. purANamAM eka kathA che. kazyapanA putre jagatanA manuSyane kabaje karavA zaMkara-mahAdevanI kaSTa sahana karIne ghaNuM kAla sudhI ArAdhanA karI. zaMkaradeve prasanna thaI varadAna ApavA IcchA darzAvI. vRtrAsura For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita bhAna bhUlI-bhramaNamAM paDI evuM mAgyuM ke te mAgaNI pitAnA ja prANene nAza karanAra thaI deva pAse evI mAgaNI karI ke huM je mANasa agara deva upara hAtha mUkuM te vyakti baLIne bhasmIbhUta thAya. zaMkare "tathAstu" kahIne varadAna ApyuM. vRtrAsure, vicAryuM ke mArA je koI A. rAdhanA kare ane mArI mAgaNI mujaba zaMkara varadAna Ape te te mAnavI ke asura prathama mArA upara te varadAnane akhataro kare mATe A vara ApanArane pahelA ja bhasmIbhUta kara ke jethI mArI hariphAI karanAra keI bane nahIM. Ama vicArI varadAna arpaNa karanAra zaMkara devane ja bhasmI bhUta karavA taiyAra thaye. zaMkara nAThA. brahmAnI pAse gayA. brahmAe kahyuM ke have vRtrAsurane haThAvavAnI mArI zakti nathI. viSNu pAse jAo. zaMkare viSNu pAse AvIne vRtrAsuranI saghaLI bInA kahI. viSNu tenI pAse AvIne kahevA lAgyA ke are vRtrAsura! zaMkara te gaMjerI ane bhAMga pInArA che. tene vizvAsa rAkhavA lAyaka nathI. te vaLI te gAMDAnA vacana upara vizvAsa rAkhI mahAkaSTa sahana karyuM. jagatanA prANIjanene kabaje karavAnI ane maheTA banavAnI bIjI yukti batAvuM. jamaNe ane DAbe be hAtha mastaka upara mUkI mahA viSNunI pAgamana karIne prArthanA kara. te tArI dhAraNA pramANe thaze. vRtrAsura mahamugdha banela hevAthI svabhAna bhUlI be hAtha pitAnA mastaka upara mUke che teja vakhate piteja bhasmIbhUta thAya che. jagatane jItavAnI IcchA tene ja nAza karanArI thaI. mATe upakArI upara apakAra na For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara jAti 121 karatAM tene badale vALavAnI dararoja bhAvanA bhAvavI. ane zakti hoya te badale vALavA mATe vilaMba kara nahI. apakAra karavA tatpara banaze to keI niSkAraNa upakArI tamArI khabara barobara leze. kadAca e upakArI kaI maLaze nahI te paNa kama rAjA te tayAra cheja. mATe apakAra keIna upara kare nahI. jagata saMsAra-agara temAM rahelA prANIjane upara sattA meLavI mahAna banavuM hoya te mahA prabhu devAdhideva vItarAganuM zaraNa svIkArI mana-vacana kAyAne kabaje karavA pUrvaka devAdhideva vItarAge mahAt banavA mATe ane anaMta avyAbAdha sukha mATe je je AjJA pharamAvI che te te AjJA mujaba vartana rAkhe ke jethI jagatanA prANIjanene kabaje karavA khAtara mahAvizvayuddho karavA paDaze nahI. ane sugamatAthI svarAjyane prApta karI mahAnuM cakravatI banaze. pachI saghaLI AzApalIbhUta thaze. evI phalaze ke kaI prakAranI IcchA ke AzA utpana thaze nahIM. kAmAsakta-viSayAbhilASI vyaktio paNa upakArI upara apakAra karavAmAM bAkI rAkhatA nathI. pitAnI duSTa vAsanAne saMtoSavA khAtara upakArInA paNa prANene nAza karavA taiyAra thAya che paraMtu te kAmAsakti ke viSayAbhilASA apakAra karanArane prANene bhayaMkara jokhamamAM nAMkhe che pahelA eka asure mahAdevanI ArAdhanA mahAkaSTane sahana karavA pUrvaka karI. mahAdeva zaMkare varadAna ApyuM tenI mAgaNI mujaba ke jA tArA kathana mujaba jenA mAthA upara hAtha mUkIza For Private And Personal Use Only

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1rara A. kIti sAgaramUri racita te baLI khAkha thaze Avu' varadAna prApta karI ghaNA madonmatta anyA ane zaMkaranI pAse beThelA rUpALA pAvatIne dekhI kAmAtura banI teNInI mAgaNI zaMkaranI pAse karI. jo pAtI nahI Ape te hai zaMkara ! tane ja bhasmIbhUta karI nAMkhIza. bhasmIbhUta thavAnI bhItiye doDatA doDatA zakara brahmAnI pAse AvyA, sahakAranI mAgaNI karI. brahmAnA kahevAthI. zaMkare viSNu pAse jaIne asuranI saghaLI vAta kahI, mArU AvI khAkhatamAM azakta paNuM che Ama kahIne viSNue mAhinI rUpa dhAraNa karIne te asuranI pAse AvIne kahyuM ke tAre pA'tInuM zuM kAma che ? huM pAte tane varavA mATe Avela chuM.' mAhinInA rUpamAM mugdha banela asura te pAgala jevA anyA ane kahevA lAgyA ke, 'tuM je pramANe kahIza te sujakha vIza' mAhinIe kahyu ke 'tame mArI AgaLa tAMDava nRtya karI pachI yatheccha karIza.' tAMDava nRtya karavAmAM DAmA hAtha mastaka upara mUkavA paDe te mujaba tenA rUpamAM mukhya anelA peAtAnA hAtha mAthA upara mUke che teTalAmAM pAte bhasmIbhUta thayA ane za'karane bhaya rahyA nahI, tethI te asuranu nAma bhasmAsura paDayuM'. upakArInA upara apakAra karatAM kAMI pazu lAbha maLyA nahI mATe upakAra bhUlA nahI. dararAja AtmikaguNAne prApta karavAnA abhilASI mahAzayA AtmAnA guNA tarapha STi rAkhI vyAvahArika kAryAM karavA hAvAthI teenI mAyA-mamatA-mUrchA dehagehAdimAM rahetI nathI tethIja te mahAbhAge prANAMte paNa upakAra karavAmAM khAmI lAvatA nathI. te mahAzayAne paNa AtmikaguNAmAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara yAti ra3 zraddhA hAvAthI DheDhageDhAdi parApakAra AgaLa tuccha bhAse che. ane parAkAra karavAmAM AtmAnA vikAsa mAnatA DAvAthI AnaMda pUrvaka daiDugehArdikane apaNu kare che. jyAre dehagelAkrikamAMthI mamatA-mAyA khase che tyAreja svApakAra ka parApakAra karavAnI abhilASAnA AvirbhAva thAya che ane teja abhilASA. paropakAra karavAmAM vAre vAre preraNA karatI rahe che tethI pApakAra karavAmAM te mahAzayA pAchA haThatA nathI. khIjAne kA karavAnI kabulAta ApI haiAya te prasaMge lAkhA rUpIAnA nukazAna paNa gaNatA nathI. pratijJAnuM pAlana kare che teone parApakAranI tathA pratijJAnI adhika kiMmata Aya che. saMbhaLAya che ke kahyu nRpatine evI pratijJA hatI ke svasamIpe AvIne mAgaNI karanAra je mAge tene ApaNa karavu. sArA bhAvathI dAna detA haiAvAthI A nRpatinI pAse hujArA yAcakA AvatA. karNe tene kahyA mujaba dAna ApI saMtASa pamADatA hatA. tethI temanuM puNya ghaNuM vadhyuM. A kazuM nRpanI parIkSA karavA mATe kRSNa mahArAje brAhmaNanu rUpa dhAraNa karI yAcanA karI, ke 'huM nRpati ! mArI patnIe maraNa pAmyA pahelAM kahyuM ke, mane vIza khAMDI caMdananA lAkaDAthI khALajo. anya kASThAthI mALatA nahI. mATe tu vIsa khAMDo caMdanane Apa, jethI me karelI kakSulAta vRthA jAya nahI.' rAjAe sa`sthale tapAsa karAvI pazu vIsa khAMDI caMdana maLyuM nahI. tethI vicAre caDayA vicAra karatAM lAkho rUpigmAnA vyaya karIne caMdananA je AlIzAna For Private And Personal Use Only

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124 A. kIrtisAgarasari racita mahela banAvyuM che te yAdimAM AvyA. khuzI thavA pUrvaka brAhANane kahyuM ke tamArA kathana mujaba tamane caMdana arpaNa karuM chuM. A pramANe kahIne caMdananA mahelane teDIne 20 khAMDI caMdana ApIne tene vidAya karyo. A pramANe potAne baMgale teDIne kaNe caMdana Apela hevAthI dAna ApavAmAM kuzaLa evA arjunano garva gaLI gaye. ane karNarAjAnI prazaMzA karavA lAgyA. AvA nRpati rAjya sAhyabI vizerene bhegavaTe kare che chatAM nilepa rahIne AtmajJAna pUrvaka Atmika vikAsa sAdhavAmAM samartha bane che. vaLI saMbhaLAya che. ke yuddhamAM karNa anadhanurdharanA bANa vAgavAthI ghaNuM vyathA-vedanAne bhegavI rahyA che te vakhate dAna devAmAM kevI dRDhatA che tenI parIkSA karavA kRSNa mahArAje brAhmaNanuM rUpa dhAraNa karIne dhananI yAcanA karI. A vakhate karNa nRpanI pAse kAMI paNa dhanAdika hatuM nahIM. tethI aphasosa karavA lAgyA. paNa smaraNa thatAM kahyuM ke, dAMtamAM jaDelI senAnI rekhAo zA khapamAM Avaze. zarIranI sAthe A rekhAonI paNa rAkha thavAnI ja mATe dAMtene teDI rekhAonuM dAna, Avela brAhmaNane ApuM, Ama vicAraNA karI sevake dvArA dAMtene teDAvI senAnI rekhAonuM dAna karI vItarAganuM zaraNa svIkArI dehane tyAga karI sadagati prApta karI. A pramANe dehagehanI mamatAne mUkyA vinA svapakAra ke papakAra sAdhI zakAtuM nathI. ane sAdhyA sivAya Amenati kadApi thatI nathI ane thaze paNa nahIM. deha geha dhana parivAramAM baddha banavAthI anicchAe cintAo hAjara For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti 125 thAya che vikalapa saMka9panI paraMparA vadhatI hovAthI jIvane keI prakAre sthiratA thatI nathI. ata eva dehagehAdika, satya zAMtine arpaNa karavA samartha nathI. mATe tene tyAga karI cintA vinAnA bane! ' 'mana-vacana ane kAyA pazuone tathA paMkhIone hoya che ane manuSya-devane paNa hoya che paNa pazu paMkhIo tenI prAyaH sArthaktA saphalatA karavA zakti dharAvatA nathI. mana-vacana ane kAyAnI sArthaktA ke saphalatA karavAnI zakti dharAvatA hoya te manuSya ane deve che. deve te AjanA kAlamAM pratyakSa nathI. manuSya pratyakSa hovAthI je zakAya che ke amuka bhAgyazAlIoe Apela vacananI saphalatA karI pote Apela vacananuM pAlana karyuM. Apela vacana mujaba vartana rAkhatAM mAnasika vRttio nimala thAya che. AtmakalAsa jAgrata thAya che. jeNe vacananuM pAlana karyuM te sadAya jIvate che paNa jeNe vacana pALyuM nahI. ane kapaTa kalA karI pitAnuM kAma sAdhI lIdhuM te jIvate chatAM marele samaja. mATe sadAya jIvatuM rahevuM hoya te Apela vacane nukazAnIne sahana karIne paNa pALe ane jIvatA rahe. eka nagaramAM jInadAsa putra parIvArAdika sAdhanethI saMpanna hatA. tathA dhArmika tahevAthI nukazAnInA bhege paNa Apela vacanenuM pAlana karatA, temane paisA ane prANa karatAM pramANiktA adhika vahAlI hovAthI Apela vacananI kiMmata adhika jANutA. nukazAnIne sahana karIne Apela vacana prathama pALatA hovAthI temanI pratiSThA sArI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgari racita rIte vadhI. eka vakhata zeTha cauTAmAMthI potAnA ghera javA nIkaLyA mArgamAM eka ramatIALa chokarInA hAthamAMthI kAcanI baraNI paDI rUTI gaI. tethI raDavA lAgI. raDatI chokarIne dekhI dayA AvelI hovAthI zeThe kahyuM ke tuM raDa nahI bIjI lAvI ApuM chuM. baraNI levA jAya che tevAmAM putra tathA munIme AvIne kahyuM ke zeTha pAchA vaLe ane dukAne padhAre. lAkha rUpiyAne lAbha thAya ema che. je jaladI nahI Ave te lAbha maLa azakaya banaze. zeThe kahyuM ke lAbha maLe ke na maLo paNa raDatI chokarIne baraNI ApyA pachI bIjI vAta. Ama kahIne baraNI vecAtI laine raDatI dIkarIne ApI. A chaDI paNa khuzI thaI. zeTha paNa upakAra ane lAkhane lAbha thaela hevAthI adhika khuzI thayA. vacananuM pAlana thayuM ane lAbha e nahI. be lAbhe prApta thayA. mATe vacananA pAlanamAM kaSTa paDe te paNa bhUlavuM nahI. AhAra-vyavahAramAM niyamabaddha rahenAra manuSya ochI taddana ochI vastuothI jIvananirvAha calAvI zake che a5 vastuothI AhAra-vyavahAra calAvavAmAM jarUrIAta paNa ochI thAya che. tethI paisA ane puNyane bacAva thavA pUrvaka vadhAre thatuM paNa rahe che paNa ochI vastuothI vyavahAradika kAryo calAvavAmAM zraddhA sahita Teva pADavI joIe. Teva paDayA pachI adhika vastuonI jarUra paDatI nathI ane ochI che ema manAtuM nathI. niyamabaddha banelAne tathA alpa vastuothI jIvananirvAha calAvanArane IcchAo ane AzA paNa ochI thAya. punaH punaH utpanna thatA saMkalpa For Private And Personal Use Only

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aAMtara "ti ane viddhA zAMta thatA jAya che tethI aya upAdhivALAnA kaSAya ane viSayanA vicArAnI tathA vikAronI sAmaNI rahetI nathI. AvA bhAgyazAline jo satsaMga-sadgurUnI sa'ati thAya tA te mahAzaya AtmAnnati karavAmAM samartha ane. puNyadayathI khAvA pIvAnI paheravAnI sAmagrI adhika pramAzumAM bhale hAya tA paNa tenI jarUriyAta temane rahetI nathI. apa vastuothI calAvI zake che ane vadhelI adhika sAmagrIne puNyArthe parApakAramAM vApare che tathA sAta kSetromAM vAparI mamatA-mAyAne AchI karatAM Atmika guNAnA AvirbhAva karI AnamAM jhIle che. 120 AtmAnA guNenA AvirbhAva karavA tathA puNyAnu adhI puNyanI sAcI kamANI karavA mATe mahAprabhu mahAvIra svAmi e pharamAvyuM che ke zraddhA sahita niyama addha anI vratAdikanI ArAdhanA karI tathA jIvana nirvAhane alpa vastuo dvArA calAvA. tethI pAMca indriyA tathA mAnasika vRttie kabAmAM Avaze. ane mAnavabhavanI sArthakatA tathA calatA sudhAro, ekadama pAMca indriyA tathA mAnasika vRttie ane teonA vikArA TaLaze nahIM, mATe prathama apa vastuethI calAvI levAnI Teva pADA AvI TevathI icchAo ane AzA bahu jora pakaDaze nahI. * eka kaMdoInI dukAnamAM vividha prakAranI mIThAi hatI, grAhakAne te mIThAi vecAtI ApI ghaNI kamANI karatA paNa tene mIThAI khAvAnI IcchA thatI nahotI. gharamAM je For Private And Personal Use Only

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mara8 A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita sAdI seI thatI te jamI lete te paNa cAra pAMca vAnIethI nibhAvI lete. keI kahe ke dukAnamAM vividha mIThAI che ke kema khAtA nathI ? tyAre kahe ke te mIThAI khAvAmAM Ave te kamANI kyAMthI thAya ! aMte je sAdu bhejana maLe che. te paNa maLaze nahI. sAdI rasoI jamavAnI Teva paDelI hovAthI mIThAI tarapha mAnasika vRttio jatI nathI. ane je kamANI thAya che. tene pa5kAre yathAzakti vAparuM chuM tethI mAnasika vikalpa-saMkalpa tathA teonA vikAre uchALA mAratA nathI. A pramANe je bhAgyazAlIne puNyanI kamANI karavI hoya te alpa vastuothI jIvanane vyavahAra calAvavA Teva pADavI te Avazyaka che. A pramANe vartana rAkhyA vinA anAdikAlanI cAra saMjJAoe nivAsa karela che tenI parAdhInatA khasavAnI nahI, te pachI AtmAnA guNene AvirbhAva paNa kayAMthI thAya? samaju mANase, saMsArane dArUkhAnA rUpe mAne che dArUkhAnAmAM phaTAkaDA-havAI-dArUthI bharelI keDIo vigere . vividha jAtanI vastuo bharelI hoya che tema saMsAra rUpI dArUkhAnAmAM kAma-krodha-mAna-mAyA-lAbha-adekhAI vigere saLagAvanArI vastuo temaja saLagI janArI vastuo heya che ke eka agninI cInagArI, dArUkhAnAnI dukAnamAM nAkhe te eka vastu saLagI phuTatAM tenI asara saghaLI vastuone thatAM saghaLI dArUkhAnAnI dukAne bhayaMkara jokhamamAM AvI paDe baLI khAkha thAya che te pramANe saMsAra rUpI dukAnamAM koI ajJAnI mANase adekhAI dhAraNa karI bIjAnA For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara nyAti 129 upara mehuNA rUpI agninI cANugArI nAMkhI, teTalAmAM krodhAnala saLage che ane pAse rahelA samadhI tenI asaramAM Ave che tethI kamANI puNyanI karavAnI hAya che te nAza pAme che ane bhayaMkara okhamamAM AvuM paDe che. mATe dArUkhAnAnI dukAnavALAone vAre vAre upayeAga rAkhavA paDe che te mujaba saMsArI jIvAne paNa puna: punaH upayoga rAkhavAnI jarUra che caNugArI paDe nahI te pramANe dukAna- saMsAra calAve. mhoTA zaheramAM ghaNIvAra upayAga nahiM rAkhavAthI dArUkhAnAnI dukAnA khaLIne khAkha thaela che. tethI te dukAnavALAne ghaNI nukazAnImAM utaravu paDela che. te pramANe saMsAra rUpI dArUkhAnAmAM evA nimitto maLatAM krodha dAvAnala saLagatAM vAra lAgatI nathI. tethI. bhAre jokhamamAM-nukazAnamAM mAnavAne AvavuM paDe che ethI thaela evI nukazAnI hajArA bhavAmAM paribhramaNu karatA paNa purAtI nathI. te nukazAnIne puchu karavA mATe karelA prayAsA vRthA jAya che mATe, saMsAra rUpI dArUkhAnAnI dukAna mAMDIne saLagI uThe dAvAnala utpanna thAya. tevA nimitto pAse rAkhavA nahI. hAya tA dUra khaseDavAM je bhAgyazAlIe prabhunI AjJAone pUrNa bhAvathI mAnI te AjJA mujaba vartana rAkhe che. ane prabhunA guNNAnA Adara satkAra kare che te bhAgyavatAnI pAchaLa sattAsaMpatti ane samRddhi DhADatI Ave che ane cintA rahita banI anukrame prabhumaya anI anaMta sukhanA strAmI ane che paraMtu prabhunI AjJAne bhUlI tathA temanA guNAna For Private And Personal Use Only

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Bo A. kIti sAgarasuri racita vaiSiyaka sukhanA risake! paisAne anAdara karI sasAranA prabhumAnI tenI pAchaLa doDa doDa karatA mAluma paDe che ane atyaMta kaSTone paNa sahana karI paisAthenA svAmI manavA vividha manAthI kare che paraMtu jyAre ISTa paisA maLatA nathI tyAre prabhunI mUrtine paNa phagAvI de che manamAM khATA vikalpe karI pApanA khUdha karatA rahe che eka pUjArInI mAphaka eka brAhmaNu dhananA athI hatA paNa prayAsa karatAM paisAone meLavI zakayA nahI. tethI viSNu madiramAM pUjArI manI bahArathI bhakti sevA karatA hovAthI vaiSNavA tenA upara adhika Adara sanmAna karavA lAgyA. koi vakhata paisA dAra vaiSNuvA, zata rUpIyA-hajAra rUpIyA tathA seAnA mahArA viSNunI mUrti AgaLa bheTa tarIke mUkatA tethI A pUjArI te dhanane grahaNa karI dhanADhaya banyA ane prabhunA bhakatA leTa mUkI peAtAne kRtArtha mAnavA lAgyA. prabhujI amAne vaikuMThamAM laI jaze. A mAnI AnadamAM rahevA lAgyA. eka vakhata pUjArI viSNu bhagavAnanI Arati utArI rahyo che. tevAmAM eka vaiSNuva bhakate AvI eka hajAra seAnA mahArA bheTa tarIke mUkI. te arasAmAM Avela bAvAe te senAmahArA dekhI manamAM lAlaca dhAraNa karI pUjArIne kahevA lAgyA ke, 'mArI pAse che.TelAlajI viSNunI mUrti che, temanI Arati bhegAbhegI utArA' pujArIe te mUrtine pAse mUkI Arati utArI bhakta hatA te khuzI thayA ke, e bhagavAnAnI mati uttarI ane leTa tarIke mUkelI sAnA mahArAnI saphaLatA thaI. rati utArI rahyA pachI pUjArI je For Private And Personal Use Only

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atira jAti tra tarIke rakama AvI che te levA lAgyA. bAjIe kahyuM ke meM mUkelI mUtinI paNa Arati bhegAbhegI thaI che mATe je bheTa tarIke 2kama AvI che temAMthI aDadhI rakama hune maLavI joIe pUjArIe kahyuM ke-aDadhI rakama tane maLaze nahi mahAmAMhI belAbelI thaI. pUjArI krodhanA AvezamAM AvI "le tArI cheTelAlajInI mUti' Ama kahIne te mUrtine teNe bahAra pheMkI dIdhI bA kahevA lAgyA ke "maMdiramAM je mUrti rahela che tene prabhu tarIke mAne che ane A nAnI viSNunI mUrtine prabhu tarIke na mAnatAM anAdara karIne phagAvI dIdhI. tethI Ama mAnavAmAM Ave che ke tuM paisAne pUjArI che nahI ke prabhune pAse rahelA bhakate paNa A banAva dekhI pUjArIne Thapako Apyo ghaNA varSo sudhIne khAI- badale hovAthI vadhAre kahI zakAyuM nahIM. paNa nAkhuza banIne kahyuM ke "tame paisAnA pUjArI che. prabhunA nahI. A mujaba saMsAra sAthe viSaya sukhanA rasike, jyAre paisAnI bAbata Ave che tyAre prabhune bhUlI mAyA mamatAmAM Asakata banI anaMta saMsAra paribhramaNa karI mahAkaSTane sahana kare che. paisA mATe aneka pApAraMbhe karI anaMta duHkhanI yAtanA sahe che. eTalI paNa samajaNa hotI nathI ke bhAgya sArI lakSamI che ane bhAgya-puNyAdhIna che. AvuM bhAgya ke puNya prabhunI AjJA pUrvaka sevA bhakti karavAthI upalabdha thAya che ane bhAgyAnusAre paisA maLe che. phakta pisAnA pUjAro banavAthI bhAgya-puNyanI prApti thatI nathI. bIja hoya te vRkSanI sAthe phalAdika AvI maLe-Aja vinA phalAdikanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita mane ratha karanAra. tathA prayAso karanAra unmAdI samajavA. unmAdane prayAsa kare paNa kAMI maLatuM nathI ulaTuM je pAse heya te gumAvI bese che. mATe prabhu pUjArI bane. 54 paisAmAM Asakata banela, vataniyama-pramANikatA vigerene tyAga karI paisAnA pUjArI bane te te dhanAdika, teone pAyamAla karI nAMkhe che. pAyamAla kare che eTaluM ja nahI paNa anaMta saMsAramAM paribhramaNa karAve che. pisAdhanAdikanA pUjArIone kadAcita bAhya lAbha maLatuM hoya te saddagurUonI paNa avahelanA karavA te pAchA haThatA nathI jyAre dhana-se pAse rahetA nathI. ane sAmAnya sthitimAM hoya che tyAre zubha bhAvanAnA - vicAro dararoja karatA hoya che ke, "are saddagurUdeva, je hane paisAo prApta thAya te navakArazI-piriSI-ekAsaNa-AyaMbIla karIne tathA prabhu pUjA-dAna vigere karIne dharmanI ArAdhanA karuM paNa hamaNAM mArI tevI paisAdAra jevI paristhiti nathI. te kevI rIte ArAdhanA karUM. paisA maLe te saghaLI cintAe ochI thAya. ane sukhazAMti maLe. A mujaba vicAro karatAM ane saddagurU vigerene pitAnA manerane darzAvatA jaNAya che, kadAcita puye paisAo prApta thAya. tyAre tenI saMbhALa karavAmAM te paisAomAM vadhAro karavAmAM pahelAM karelA anero kayAM khasI jAya che ke tenI khabara paDatI nathI. eTale pasAnA pUjArI bano prabhu-vrata-niyamAdikane visAre che For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara khyAti 131 viSNune ane lakSmIne mahattA mATe vAda vivAda thayA ke emAM mhATu kANu ? tenI parIkSA karavA viSNu sanyAsInuM rUpa dhAraNa karI eka nagaranA rAjAne dharmanA AtmAnA ane saphgAne meLavavA mATe upadeza ApavA mAMDayA. rAjA tathA prajA AnaMdathI sAMbhaLe che tevAmAM lakSmI paNa nagaramAM AvI. prajAone seAnA mahArA ApavA lAgI upadeza zravaNu karavAnuM bhUlI saghaLI prajA-lakSmI tarapha vaLI. ane AjIjI karavA lAgI, lakSmIe saghaLI prajAne seAnA mahAra ApI. A vAta rAjAe sAMbhaLI. rAjAe lakSmIne melAvI kahyuM. * are lakSmIjI tameAe saghaLI mArI prajAne seAnA maheArA ApIne khuzI karI. paNa huM tenI rakSA karanAra nRpati rahI gayA mATe sArA saghaLA bhaMDArA seAnA mahArAthI bharapUra kare.. lakSmIjIe kahyuM ke pele saMnyAsI mArI ghaNI nindA kare che dareka sthale mane haThAvavA upadeza Ape che. tame tenA nAka ane kAna kApe teA bhaDArA bharI dauM.' rAjA lakSmIjInA kahyA mujaba te sanyAzInuM nAka-kAna kApavA taiyAra thayA. teTalAmAM sanyAsI ane lakSmIjI e adRzya thayAM. lakSmIe sanyAsI rUpe anelA kRSNane kahyu * 'kaheA ? ApaNA emAMthI have kANu maheATu' che' kRSNajIe kahyuM ke mAyA mamatAmAM Asakta banelA tArI mahattA mAne Adara satkAra kare temAM navAI zI ? ' paNa samyagrAnIe tA hune tuccha mAne che tArA tyAga karavA pUrvaka paramAmAmAM laya lagADI janma maraNanA paribhramaNeAne dUra kare " For Private And Personal Use Only

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14 A. kIrti sAgarasuri racita che. saMsArarasikee hArI mahattA mAnI tethI hArI mahattA ochI thatI nathI. khAnapAnAdinA rasikene mahArI mahattAnI samajaNa nathI, samyagrajJAnAbhAve tArU mAna vadhAre paNa janma maraNAdika viDaMbanAone TALavA mATe tArAmAM zakti nathI. bhale te mAyA mamatAmAM muMjhAela tyAre Adara kare temAM mahane adekhAI ke dveSa nathI. paNa teo tArAmAM Asakta banelA Adhi-vyAdhi-upAdhinA saMkaTone TALavA mATe samartha banatA nathI tethI ame upadeza ApIye chIe ke mAyA mamatAne tyAga karI tathA dhanAdikane sAdhana tarIke mAnI sAdhyane bhUlatA nahI. duHkha cintA-vyAdhiene kSaNika pratikAra kare che te sAcA sukhanuM sAdhana mAnI zakAya nahI. mATe abhimAnane tyAga karI namratA dhAraNa karavI joIe. A pachI lakSamIjI samajI gayAM ane paramAtmAnuM dhyAna dharavA lAgyAM. are bhAgyazAlIo lakSamIjI paNa paramAtmAnuM dhyAna dhare che te tamAre paNa lakSmIne meha mUkI paramAtmAnuM dhyAna dharavuM- papa keTalAka zraddhA vinAnA mAnave kahe che ke ame paramAtmAnuM dhyAna sadA dharIye to bhUkhe maravAne prasaMge upasthita thAya tathA vividha vinA AvI ane hatAza banAvI de. teonuM A mantavya jamaNAvALuM che. paramAtmAnuM dhyAna eTale temanI AjJA mujaba vyavahArika kAryomAM vartana rAkhavuM. paramAtmA kahe che ke je vyavahArika kAryomAM AjJA pramANe vana rAkhe che. teo mAyA-mamatAne nivArI viSaya kaSAyana For Private And Personal Use Only

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batara ti 13 vikArane haThavI anaMta sukhanA svAmI bane che paramAtmAnI AjJA paramAtmAthI bhinna nathI. te AjJA mujaba vartana rAkhavAthI bharapura bhaMDAre bharAya che. ane sAthe sAthe vyAdhi viDaMbanA, tathA vinne khasatA jAya che. kadAcit vyAdhi vigere upasthita thaela hoya paNa teonuM jora cAlatuM nathI. paramAtmAnuM dhyAna karanAra. temanI AjJA mujaba vartana karavAra-temanI AjJA mujaba vartana karanArane vinA paNa lAbha dAyaka nIvaDe che. eka paTelanA gharamAM dazabAra bheMse hatI. te paikI cArabhese mAMdI paDI. paTalANI kakaLATa karavA lAgI ke A bheMse sAjI kayAre thaze bIjI bheMse caravA jAya che A bheMsethI javAtuM nathI. gharamAMthI ghAsa nAMkhavuM paDe che. evAmAM banyuM evuM ke. je bheMse jaMgalamAM caravA gaI che. teNuone cere laI gayA. gharamAM paTalANuM jyAre bhese AvI nahI. tyAre ghaNuM cintA karavA lAgI. paTela, sadAcArI ane bhakta hatA. temaNe kahyuM ke bheMse mAMdI paDI te ceraze tene laI gayA ApaNA bhAgyamAM haze te pitAnI meLe corAyela gharamAM AvIne ubhI raheze tapAsa karIzuM. mATe tenI cittAne tyAga karI paramAtmAnA upara vizvAsa rAkhI zAMta bane ! paTalANIe kakaLATane tyAga karyo, paramAtmA upara vizvAsa rAkhI zakaya vartana rAkhyuM. have ce bheMsane corI te gayA paNa paTelanA ghara sivAya bhe sene cena paDatuM nathI. tathA cero pAsethI jeoe te bheMsane vecAtI lIdhI che teone pitAne baccA vinA te davA detI nathI. tethI teoe paNa anya For Private And Personal Use Only

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13) A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita sthale vecI. tyAM paNa DhAvA detI nahI hovAthI paraparA e mahArASTra (dakSiNa)nA rahevAsI eka paTele vecAtI lIdhI. tyAM paNa bheMsAne gamatu nathI. ane potAnA baccAone sabhALe che. ne tyAMthI nAsI chuTavA bhAvanA rAkhe che. dhanaterasa divALImAM te dakSiNanA paTelA gAya-bhe se| maLada vigere alakArAthI zaNagArI, rezamI vastrone eADhADI teonI AgaLa Dhola vagADe che. te mujaba A bheMsa AgaLa paTela ane tenA parivAra vigere te bhesAne zatrugArI DhAla vigere vagADavA pUrvaka nAcatA hatA. le'seAnA svabhAva mujaba teNI laDIne nAThI, nAsatAM nAsatAM mUtra paTela nA AMgaNAmAM AvIne ubhI rahIne peAtAnA baccAone dhavarAvI khuzAlImAM AvI kavA lAgI. paTele paTalANIne kahyuM ke bhAgyamAM hatI teA bhese AvI. prabhunI bhakita thaI cintA cAlI gaI. A pramANe paramAtmAnI AjJA mujaba cintAnA tyAga karI vartana karanArane duHkhA khasI jAya che. ane gaela sa`patti AvI male che. mATe zraddhA rAkhavI. ' tathA cAra pAMca cArA cArI karavA nIkaLyA. te paikI eka cArane pagamAM maheATA sakhata kAMTA vAgyA. tethI jaI zakAyuM nahI. ane jyAM kathA vaheMcAtI hatI tyAM jaI ne eThA pelA cArI karavA nIkaLelA cArI haSa mAM AvyA. ke tene bhAga ApavA paDaze nahI. Ama khuzI thaIne kAI dhanADhayanA gharamAM praveza karI mhoTI cArI karI paNa zeTha jAgyA. tethI tenI pAchaLa peAlIza DhoDAvI peAlIse cArAne pakaDI lIdhA. kedamAM pUryAM. cAreluM dhana pAse raghu For Private And Personal Use Only

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atira ti 137 nahI. jene kAMTo vAgye hatuM. tenA para pilIzane zaMkA gaI paNa sAkSIo na maLavAthI mukata karyo te manamAM mAnavA lAgyuM ke kAMTe vAgye te sArU thayuM. nahIMtara teonA jevI mArI dazA thAta, mATe je vina AvyuM te lAbhadAyaka thayuM che. A pramANe samajaNanA gharamAM Avela sajajanee vidane Ave te paNa paramAtmAnI AjJA pramANe vatana rAkhavuM. temAM ja kalyANa che ane satya zAMti che paraMtu je bhautika sukhamAM magna bane che te bhUla svayaM karelI chatAM bIjA upara denuM AropaNa karI krodhAtura banI savaparanI unnatimAM pite ja vidane lAvI mUke che jyAre te vidhAne dUra karavAnA sAcA upAyo maLatA nahI hovAthI bolAbAlI karI mArAmArI upara Ave che eTale bamaNe dukhI bane che eka te vina upasthita thayuM. mArAmArI karI ubhu kareluM duHkha-A pramANe viddhane dUra karavA mATe avaLe upAya lIdhe. tethI te TaLe kayAMthI ? kaI gAmamAM varAgI tyAgI mahAtmA gAmanI pAse rahela parvatanI guphAmAM paramAtmAnuM dhyAna karatA hatA. temanA darzanArthe ghaNu mANase AvavA lAgyA. jo ke dhyAnamAM vina AvatuM chatAM AvelA manuSyane upadeza ApI sanmArge vALatA, manuSyane dhArmika lAbha sArI rIte maLatuM tethI ahobhAgya mAnatA, eka bhaktane bhAvanA jAgI tethI rAtrimAM zI banAvI te mahAtmAnI pAse AvIne kahyuM ke mahAtmanI A zIre ApanA mATe banAvI lAvyo chuM. tame Aga mahAmAe kahyuM ke rAtrie banAvela kaI paNa vastune ame For Private And Personal Use Only

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18 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita khAtA nathI..mATe pAche laI jA, bhakate vicAra karyAM rAtrie khaze nahI. paNa divase jarUra khAze Ama vicArI guphAnA eka khuNAmAM mukI sukha zAtA puchI peAtAne ghera gayA te gayA pachI bIjo bhagata Avye guphAmAM aMdhakAra hAvAthI mahAtmAne zeAdhavA lAgyA. zeSatAM eka khuNe mukelA zIrAnA bhAjanamAM tenA paga paDayA ane sAcu svarUpa nahI jANavAthI krodhAtura banI mahAtmAne gALe! devA lAgyA. ke sArI rIte khAIne ahIja A bhAjanamAM viSThA karI che. tame kuvA pramAdI che. guphAmAMthI bahAra nIkaLI eka pharloga dUra jaIne jhADe jatA hAtA mArA viSThAthI paga magaDhayA che te bagaData nahI. AvyA dana karavAne viSThAthI paga kharaDAyA. tamAne vadhAre zu' kahevu' ? mahAtmAe zAMta manI kahyuM ke ame rAtrie khAtA nathI. ane rAtrie jhADA karyAM paNa nathI, eka bhakate AvI ziA sUkA haze paNa te'zirAne viSTA mAnI tethI tuM A pramANe AvezamAM AvI yadghA taddA khAlyA kare che barAbara tapAsa kara-ke A zIrA che ke viSThA ? dIvA lAvI tapAsa karatAM viSThAne badale zirA mAluma paDayA Avela bhaktane ghaNe! pastAvA thayA. bhakti karavI joIe tene male vibhakti thaI meATA aparAdha thayA. A pachI AjIjI karIne pagamAM paDIne mArI mAgavA lAgyA. mahAtmAe kahyuM ke, AmAM tArI bhramaNA thavAthI bhUla thaI che. tArA AtmA bhramita anyA. amAne rASa-tASa nathI. A pramANe bhramaNAmAM paDela mAnavIe sukhanA sAnAne duHkhadAyaka mAnI sukhasAdhaneAne darzAvanAra upara aNugame lAvI jema tema elavAmAM AAkI For Private And Personal Use Only

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atira jyoti 129 rAkhatA nathI. paNa jyAre satya svarUpanuM bhAna thAya che. tyAre pitAnI thaela bhUlethI ghaNe pastA thAya che mATe bhale tame saMsAramAM vyAvahArika karyo kare paNa te vyAvahArika kAryomAM bhUla kare nahI. satyAsatyane khyAla kare. sukhAthe je kAryo kare che. te duHkhadAyaka bane nahI tene barAbara vicAra pUrvaka viveka kare. je bhramaNAmAM paDI vicAra viveka karazo nahIM. te teja vyavahAranA kAma tamane unmArge khamaDI laI jaze. pachI ekeya upAya sanmArge AvavAne sujhAze nahIM. mATe satyasvarUpane jANI sukhI thAo. 56 zubha nimitte prApta thatAM je zubha vicAre hayA che te daDha thAya che. tathA azubha vicAre dUra khasavA pUrvaka zubha vicArene prAdurbhAva thAya che. tethI Atma vikAsa uttarottara sadhAto rahe che. zubhanimitto devagurU che. devadarzanathI samakita pharaze che. ane gurUmahArAja upadeza ApIne tene daDha kare che. ane daDha thaela zraddhAvALe bhAgyazAlI cAritravAna bane che. mATe gurUdevanI vANIne sAMbhaLI zraddhAne daDha karI saccAritravALA ane keTalAka evA hoya che. ke gurU devanI vANI sAMbhaLI khuzI thAya che. paNa vartanamAM mukatA nathI. eka kAne sAMbhaLI bIje kAnathI te vANIne dUra kare che. tethI teone yathArtha lAbha maLato nathI. A manuSya bhale paisAdAra hoya te paNa keDInA kahevAya che. jyAre sAmAnya For Private And Personal Use Only

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A kIrtisAgarasUri racita sthitine koI eka bhAgyazAlI gurUdevane upadeza sAMbhaLI magajamAM dhArI rAkhI te mujaba vartana rAkhe che. te bhale sAdhAraNa sthiti vALo hoya te paNa karenI kiMmatane gaNAya che. eTale zubha nimattA prApta thatAM zraddhA pUrvaka vartanathI kiMmata aMkAya che. eka rAjAe suvarNanI be manuSyanI sarakhI mutie banAvI. saMbhALa pUrvaka sabhAmAM lAvI kahyuM ke A be mUtionI kiMmata keTalI ? sabhyajanene bAda daSTie tapAsa karatAM taphAvata mAluma paDe nahI. antara daSTivALA eka sajajane tapAsa karatAM pheraphAra mAluma paDe rAjAne kahyuM ke eka mUttinI kiMmata konI che. ane bIjInI eka keDInI paNa nathI. kevI rIte ? eka mUrtinA kAnamAM nAMkhelI saLI bIjA kAnamAM jaIne bahAra nIkaLI paDe che, tyAre bIjI mUrtinA kAnamAM saLI tenA magajamAM jaI sthira thAya che. A pramANe bemAM jema pheraphAra che. te pramANe manuSyAmAM pheraphAra samaja je upadeza sAMbhaLI magajamAM dhArI rAkhe che. ane vartanamAM muke che te uttama bane che. 57 stuti-bhakita purvaka AjJA pAlananuM AkarSaNa sarve AkarSaNethI adhika balavAna che dhanajobana-rUpa-rAmAdikanA AkarSaNe tenI AgaLa tuccha che. dhana-rUpa-rAmAdikanuM AkarSaNa kSaNavinAzI hoI te sthAyI nathI. stuti-bhakti sahita AjJA pAlananA AkarSaNa dvArA For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara ti 141 paDelA saMskAra sthAyI hoI bIjA bhavemAM paNa sAthe Ave che ane Atma vikAsamAM vadhAro kare che dhanAdikanA AkarSothI paDelA saMskAro Atma vikAsamAM vividha vine upasthita karI kaSAyanA vicAro ane vikAromAM vadhAro karatA hovAthI anekabhavamAM paribhramaNa karavAmAM nimitta rUpa bane che. mATe rUpa-2mA-dAmAdikanA AkarSaNanuM niyaMtraNa karIne bhakti stuti pUrvaka jInezvara deva ane gurUmahArAjanI AjJAmAM raMgAvuM te hitakara ane zreyasakara che deva-gurUnI stuti-bhakti kare paNa je AjJA mAne nahI te yathArtha phala maLatuM nathI tethI AjJAnI pradhAnatA che mATe AjJAnA pAlana pUrvaka stuti bhakti karavAnI AvazyakatA che. zrAvake-ke sAdhuo devagurUnI AjJA pAlananI sAthe stuti bhakti kare che teonA upara gurUo adhika prema rAkhe che te ja prema athavA AkarSaNa hoya che te pakSapAta kahevAya nahI. keTalAka kahe che devagurUone pakSapAta che ane ISTa vastuo arpaNa karatA nathI. ane bIjAo je che teone ISTa vastuo Ape che mATe teo pakSa kare che paNa teo vicAra-viveka karIne jAte tapAsa kare te tene bhAna thAya ke stuti. bhakti pUrvaka te deva gurUoe kahelI AjJAnuM keTaluM pAlana karuM? paNa teone pakSapAtanI dhuna lAgelI hovAthI vicAra sAthe viveka karavAnuM kayAMthI sujhe! devagurUone tA zrAvaka ane sAdhuomAM pakSapAta heta nathI paNa AjJApAlakanA upara prema AkarSaNa hoya che. mATe AjJApAlananI paNa jarUra che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgari raciAda dhAro ke. moTI peDhInA mAlIka zeThanA munIma huzIcAra che pagAra IcchA mujaba zeTha Ape che tethI stuti prazaMsA kare che paNa munIma AjJA mAnatA nathI. te eka tene rAkhIne pagAra Apaze ke nahiM ja jyAre kADhI mUke tyAre Ama kahe ke bIjA gumAstA upara zeTha, prema rAkhe che ane huM huMzIyAra hovA chatAM paNa pakSapAta karI hane kADhI mUke che. A pramANe tenuM kathana vyAjabI kahevAya ke? nahi. kaI paNa DAhyo mANasa tene kaheze ke tuM AjJA mAnatuM nathI. ane temanAthI avaLuM kare te tane keNu rAkhe? bhale tuM huMzIyAra ke bahAdura heya. mATe AjJAmAM stuti bhakti samAya che jenAmAM AjJAne pAlavAnI zakti nathI temaja bhAvanA nathI teone pakSapAta bhAse che ane jene AjJA pAlana karavAnI zakti che. teone pakSapAta bhAsane nathI. te te AjJA pAlanamAM parAyaNa heya che. eka ziSya upara gurU mahArAjane AjJA pAlana karate hovAthI adhika prema hatuM. tyAre bIjA ziSya kahevA lAgyA ke gurUmahArAja, pakSapAta kare che. pelA ziSya upara adhika neha rAkhe che. A pramANe sAMbhaLI gurU mahArAje kahyuM ke mAre kaImAM pakSapAta nathI. paNa bhakti pUrvaka AjJAnuM je pAlana karanAra che tenA upara savAbhAvika prema thAya che tene pakSapAta manAya nahi. tame je zraddhA pUrvaka AjJA mAno te tamArA upara prema thaze. nAhaka adekhAI karI kamane bAMdhe nahI. AjJA mAnatA nathI ane jenA upara prema rAkhuM tenI pakSapAta kahI nijA kare che te ucita kahevAya For Private And Personal Use Only

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astara jAti hI. AthI zive samajyA. ane kathana mujaba vartana karavA lAgyA. 58 jyAM sudhI ghAtakarmo jJAnAvaraNIya-darzanAvaraNayaaMtarAya mehanIya karmonI prabatA rahelI che tyAM sudhI punaHpunaH bhUla tathA agara thavAnA ane teonA cage vArevAre kaleza-kaMkAsekaSTa vigere thavAnA te je tamane kameM dukhadAyaka bhAsatA hoya te te karmone mulamAMthI dUra karavA tatpara bane mUlamAMthI dUra karyA vinA temene sAcI sukhazAtA kadApi prApta thaze nahIM. sukhazAtA mATe bhautika sAdhanAmAM vizvAsane dhAraNa karavA pUrvaka vividha pApAra kare che tethI ghAtaka vadhAre jora pakaDe che ane satyazAMtimAM ADA AvI parvatanI mAphaka ubhA rahe che. je te kamene mUlamAMthI khaseDavAnI vicAraNabhAvanA haze te te kadApi khasavAnA nahI ja ane punaHpunaH bhUle tathA aparAdhe karAvI Atmika zakti jJAnasukhAdikane dabAvI cAre gatimAM rakhaDAvI mAravAnA ja. mATe te cAra ghAtIyA kamIne ghAta karIne kevalajJAna meLavo tene meLavavA mATe Asaktine tyAga karI, pAMca Indriyone tathA mAnasa vRttione kabaje kare. pachI bhUla tathA aparAdhe thaze nahIM bAkI rahelA cAra aghAtI karmonI eTalI badhI zakti nathI ke temane jamaNAmAM nAMkhI lo karAve ane 28 a For Private And Personal Use Only

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14 A. kAMtisAgarari racita duHkha avasthA upasthita kare. bhautika sukhane bhegAvatAM aneka prakAranA vikAro vakare che ane tenA piSakane-prazaMsA karanArane paNa vAgha-siMha mAphaka mArI nAMkhe che. keI eka sarakasanA mAlIke vAgha siMhane AjIvikA paka keLavaNI ApIne pioSaNa karyuM paNa barAbara kabaje rAkhe nahi. lAga maLatAM bhUkhyA thaelateNe tenA mAlIkanuM bhakSaNa karyuM. tenI mAphaka bhautika sukho paNa vAgha ane siMha jevA che. teonuM pioSaNa tame sukha-zAtA mATe karo cho paNa khyAla rAkhaje ke te temene khAI jAya nahI. tamArI zakita haNI nAMkhe nahIM. bhautika sukha mATe sAdhane meLavyA ane khuzI thayA paNa tenA upara vizvAsa rAkhaze nahI. bhautika sukho upara vizvAsa rAkhI tenI sAdhana sAmagrI meLavI tenuM rakSaNa vividha prakAre karyuM paNa te sAdhane tamArI sabhAvanA-vicAraNa--ane vivekAdine haNI nAMkhe nahI. te barAbara dhyAna rAkhazo kAraNa ke sAdhanethI zaMkA jaya mahAdika upasthita thAya che. eka zeThane paTelanI pAse rUpiyA lezA hatA. tethI tenA ghera ugharANIe AvyuM. paTele rItasara sarabharA pUrvaka jamADIne pitAnA gharanI meDI upara khATale DhALIne suvADa zeThane zarUAtamAM te nidrA AvI paNa madhyarAtrie te jAgI gayA ane pezAba karavA nIce utarI bahAra gayA. mahA2 paTalANIe lugaDAM joI eka zukA lAkaDAnA kuThA For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara ti upara sukavelAM hatA te dekhIne zeThane zaMkA thaI ke mArI pAse rahela paisAne levA mATe kaI cera tAkI rahela che. jarUra te mArI jhuDIne paisA leI jaze. Ama zaMkA bhIti nAyege gabharAI zeTha gharamAM pesI gayA ane bUma pADavA lAgyA. ke koI jAge che ke UThe. pakaDo nahI uThe te svane mArI guDIne paisA laI jaze. vAre vAre buma pADavAthI paTela ane tene parivAra jAgIne zeThanI pAse AvI kahevA lAgyA ke, "kayAM cera che? batAve, tame gabharAve nahI. 59 dareka vyakitaomAMthI guNene grahaNa karanAra mAna, mANasAIne meLavI dIvyatAne prApta karI Amennati sAdhavA bhAgyazAlI bane che. jyAre dene grahaNa karanArA, mANasAIne gumAvI pazutAne dhAraNa karI cAre gatimAM paribhramaNa karavA pUrvaka asahA saMkaTane sahana karI bahu duHkhI thAya che. guNene grahaNa karavAmAM paisA ApavA paDatA nathI temaja prayAsa karavuM paDatuM nathI, paNa hRdayanA premanI jarUra paDe che. ane te premanA AdhAre dareka vyaktimAM rahelA guNa draSTi gocara thAya che. je prema hAya nahI te sadguNe tarapha najara paDatI nathI. tethI vItarAga prabhunA guNene grahaNa karanAra anukrame vItarAga bane che. ane rAgI janenA guNene grahaNa karanAra rAgI bane. tamAre rAganI jarUra che ke zuddha premanI. premathI je guNe grahaNa karavAmAM Ave te rAga-dveSa ane mehane rahevAnuM ke AvavAnuM sthAna maLatuM nathI. te te zuddha premane dekhI bhAgI jAya che pachI kaleza kaMkAsa thAya For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgaramAri saciva kayAMthI? kAraNa ke zuddha Atmika premathI zraddhA pUrvaka sabhya jJAna prakraza thAya che. A suMdara dIpakane dekhI vicAraNA jAge che. dIpakane jyAM rAkhe heya tAM prakAzane pAtharI pitAnI ane paranI vastuone dekhADe che. aMdhakArane haThAve che. ane eraveravALI vyaktiothI cetAve che. sarSa vIMchI dekhIne dUra basAya che. te pramANe samyak jJAnane tIyaka mArA cittamAM kyAre pragaTa thaze. ane tenA AdhAre ajJAna aMdhakArane haThAvI saguNene prApta karI Atma vikAsa kyAre sAdhIza, mAyA mamatA-rAga-dveSanA AvaraNe kayAre dUra asaze. kevaLa jJAnane meLavI jIvana mukta kayAre anIza, ane jagatanA prANIonI rAga-dveSa ane mehanI vRttione kayAre haThAvIza, ane svArane upakAraka kayAre anIza, A pramANe guNene grahaNa karanArane vicAra jAge che. jyAre cArA tathA vyabhicArIone, dIvo gamanathI. dI hAya. te paNa prAyaH bujhAvI nAkhe che. tathA mAlatI megarA-caMpa vigerenA puSpane dekhI, guNa grAhakane vicAraNA evI jAge che. ke, A puSpa, dareka vyaktione sugaMdhIdAra banAve che. ane khuzI kare che bhale pachI teone kaI kacare agara pheMkI 2. ke tene kehaDAvI attara kADhe te paNa savaguNane gumAvatA nathI. guNa hovAthI deva-dAnava ke mAnava, teone cAhe che. ane svamastake mUke che. mastake muke te paNa ahaMkAra teone Avate nathI, huM paNa puSpanI mAphaka banIne mArI AcAraNAthI dareka jIvane sugaMdhita kayAre ApIza. hitakAraka kayAre banIza. kaI AvIne gALa deH apamAnadi kare te For Private And Personal Use Only

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147. jhAMtara ti paNa krodha-adekhAI vigere kayAre dUra khaseDIza-keI AvIne sanmAnAdika Ape te paNa garva--gumAna dhamaDane tyAga karIza! ane prabhunA zaraNe rahIne pUjA kayAre banIza. AvI vicAraNa karIne durgAne tyAga karI sadguNene prApta karavAmAM bhAgyazAlI tatpara thAya che. tyAre jene guNene grahaNa karavAnI draSTi jAgI nathI te guNene grahaNa karavAmAM be nasIba rahe che mATe guNene grahaNa kare. ane durgAne tyAga kare.tame caMdananA lAkaDAne ghasI temA kezarane bheLavI prabhu pUjA te dararoja kare che paNa te caMdananI guNene grahaNa karI caMdana jevA banavA mATe kazIza karI che? caMdanane kaI ghase, keI kApe te paNa ghasanArane sugaMdha Ape che. kaI pUje te paNa ahaMkAra karatuM nathI. tema tame paNa apamAnAdikanA prasaMge zAMta bane kepa kare nahIM. ane sadguNa rUpI sugaMdhathI sAmAne vAsita banAve. te tamo guNa banaze. guNa vinA tame bhale dhanavAna ho ke rUpavAna che te paNa mAnavabhavanI sArthakatA sAdhI zakAze nahI. ane tethI dhanamAM ane rUpamAM mAyA mamatA vadhavAnI mATe guNenA grAhaka banI guNa bane. 6. sukhazAtAmAM Asakitane dhAraNa karIne ALasupramAdI ane DhIlA thaela manuSyane saMkaTa cetAve che ane preraNuM kare che ke sukhazAtAnI Asakitane tyAga karI paropakArArthe tathA sva-nati mATe purUSAthane pheravo saMkaTe tamane kahe che amArA upara nArAja thAo nahI. amArA AvyA sivAya tamArI cakSue ughaDaze nahI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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148 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita tathA ALasa-pramAda tathA zithilatAne tyAga karavA samartha banazo nahI. saMsAramAM jeone zaradI thaela che teone tApanI jarUra paDe che ane tApathI zaradI gayA pachI spharati Ave che tethI dhArela kArya karavA zaktimAna banAya che tathA saMsAre saMkaTane sahana karyA sivAya keNu AgaLa vadhyuM che? ane paripakava thaela che varSARtumAM vAvela bIjathI anAja uge che paNa tApa sivAya te anAja paripakava thatuM nathI. eTale anAjane paNa tApanI jarUra che te mujaba prApta thaela sukhazAtAmAM magna banela puNyazAlIone tApa rUpI saMkaTanI jarUra paDe che. eTale jJAnIe sukhazAtAne tyAga karI saMyamane mArA svIkArI AvatA saMkaTone sahana karI karmone paripakava karI satyasukhanA lekatA bane che karmo paripakava mATe tathA nirmala thavA mATe AvelA saMkaTane samyaga jJAnIo sAcA sukhanA sAdhane mAnatA hovAthI teone zoka saMtApAdi thatA nathI. paraMtu samatAe sahana karI sAmI chAtIe ubhA rahe che mATe saMkaTe agara vividha viDaMbanA Ave tyAre gabharAvuM joIe nahIM. temaja zeka saMtA pAdi karavA nahI.' kRtapuNya zeTha yuvAvasthAmAM vezyAmAM Asakata banyA pitAe paNa putranA premathI vezyA je mAge te pasAdika ApavA lAgyA. viSaya vilAsamAM evA te Asakta banyA ke mAtApitAnA maraNa pAmyAnA samAcAra sAMbhaLyA paNa pitAnA ghera gayA nahI. dhanAdika maLyuM nahI tyAre vezyAe apamAnita karIne kADhI mUkayA. ghera AvyA tyAre svapa For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti 149 tnInI tathA pitAnA gharanI avasthA dekhI zeka saMtApa vigere karavA lAgyA. temanI patnIe AzvAsana ApIne zAMta karyA-tyAre temanI AMkhe ughaDI ane purUSArthane pheravI sukhI thayA. saMkaTa paNa sukha ApavAmAM sAdhana thayuM abhayakumAranI mitratAnA ge samRddhimAna banyA. je vezyAe kADhI mUkayA naheta te je saMpattinA svAmI banyA te kayAMthI thAta ? eTale ALasu-pramAdane dUra karAvanAra, saMkaTa paNa sAdhana che. A pramANe jeTalI sukhazAtAnI jarUra che. teTalI saMkaTa-duHkhanI jarUra che. vipatti vinA saMpattinI kiMmata samajAtI nathI. dareka prANIone jagatamAM taDake ane chAMyaDe tathA varasAda ane taDakAnI jarUra che. tethI ja pitAnuM sukha zAtAmAM jIvana pasAra kare che. nirantara varSAda paDayA kare te vAvela bIja kehI jAya. eTale ja tApanI AvazyakatA che, mATe ISTane viyega thavAmAM. ane aniSTane saga thae gabharAvuM nahI. valepAta kare nahIM. A saghaLI karmonI ghaTanA che. tame karmavAdane mAne che. paNa tenA vipAkamAM kAMte Asakata bane che kAMte valopAta karyA karI che. paNa vilepAta karavAthI viDaMbanA khase kharIke ? nahIM khase! mATe samabhAva dhArIne sahana kare. 61 puNyodaya hoya che tyAre maraNa jevA prasaMgene dUra karavA umadA nimitto maLyA kare che ane pApodaLe evAM nimitto prApta thAya ke sAvadhAnI rAkhe paNa bacAva thato nathI. eka paTelane putra pitAnA khetarathI ghara tarapha jaI For Private And Personal Use Only

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150 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita rahela che. tevAmAM ekadama varasAda garjanA karatA AkAzamAM ArUDha thai varasavA lAgyA. sAthe vijaLIe cAre dIzAe camakavA lAgI. tethI A DhokarA bhIti pAmI eka vRkSanI peAlamAM peThA. A putranuM nAma phakIra hatuM. vIjaLI mA vRkSanA upara paDavAnI hatI te veLAmAM tenA puNyAya hAya nIzuM. tema kAi eka khetaramAM rahelI paTalANI phakIra nAmanA dIkarAne khelAvavA lAgI. are kIrA ! kayAM bhamyA kare che, jone vIjaLIe camakayA kare che. tane bhItI lAgatI nathI jaldI Ava. kAma che. A pramANe vRkSanI polamAM peThelA pelA putra mAnyu ke. mane khelAve che. Ama mAnI bahAra nIkaLe che. tevAmAM vinaMLI vRkSanA upara paDI. vRkSa khaLI khAkha thayuM. kUkIranuM rakSaNa thayu. paTalANInA putra phakIra AvyA. e bhegA thayA. kharcI gaelA kUkI cheAkarAe kahyu ke tamArI vANI devavANI jevI mane lavatI banI. tamArI vANIthI vRkSanI peAlamAMthI nIkanyA ane tarata jhADanA upara vijaLI paDI. jo tamAe bAlA aa na hAta tA, mArI pazu vRkSanA jevI hAlata manata, rakSita anela paTelanA dIkarAe paTalANInA ane puNyanA pADa mAnce A pramANe je vyaktinA puAAya hAya che tenA koI paNa nimitte acAva thAya che. kadAca puNya kriyA karatAM kaSTa Ave te paNa tene duHkhadAyI na mAnatA-sukhanu sAdhana mAnI AnaMdamAM rahevu. kara duniyAnI bhabhakadAra vastumAM phasAela manuSyAne khabara paDatI nathI ke A bhaladAra padArtho svAmI For Private And Personal Use Only

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151 AMtara ti natA Ave che ke parAdhInatAnIbeDImAM phasAve che. jagatanA A padArtho kSaNa bhaMgura che Ane vicAra nahI AvavAthI Indra dhanuSyane paMcaraMgI bhabhake dekhI paTelane dIkare tenA raMge levA mATe prayAsa karavA lAgyo. tenI mAphaka cha vRthA prayAsa karyA kare che. eka paTelanA putra meghadhanuSya dekhI tenA raMge levA mATe raMga bharavAnI piTI laIne deDa ane mAnate hato ke tenA raMge AMbAnA pAMdaDA upara paDyA haze temAMthI khaMkherIne raMganI paTI bharIza. Ama dhArI AMbAnI pAse gayo. tenA pAMdaDAone khaMkheravA lAgyo paNa-raMganA badale tenA upara paDelA varasAdanA binduo AvyA. tethI nA khuza thaI mAtapitAnI pAse AvI raMgonI bInA kahI. mAtA pitAe kahyuM ke, temAM raMga hAya nahI. e te sUryaprakAzathI vAdaLamAM evA raMga dekhAya paNa vastutaH te pANI che putra samajyA pachI raMga mATe deDaye nahI. 63 pitAnA AtmAmAM satya jhaverAta-dhanAdika evuM rahela che ke jANe jagatanA deva-dAnava-ane mAnavanI traNeya kAlanI saMpatti ekaThI karavAmAM Ave to paNa tenI sarakhAmaNuM pAmI zake nahI. - sadAcArI vratadhArIone te satya jhaverAta dhanAdika maLI zake che ane teone te prApta thaela hevAthI dunyavI jhaverAta-agara dhanAdikanI temane spRhA haitI nathI. satya saMpattine mUkI mana kalipata pArthiva dhanAdikane kezu cAhanA kareje bAlaka ajJAnI hoya te cAhe che ane te nazvara For Private And Personal Use Only

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15ra A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita dhanAdaki mATe kaleza kaMkAza jhaghaDA-cuddhAdika karavAmAM bAkI rAkhatA nathI. teja bAlaka agara yuvAna-ke vRddha samyagajJAnI ane te Atmika satya jhaverAtAdika AgaLa te pArthiva dhanane ta7 mAnI sadAcAra-tathA vratAdinA pAlana karavAmAM parAyaNa thAya. varSARtumAM IndradhanuSyane dekhI be chokarA ane dIkarIo pitAnI mAtA pAse AvIne kahevA lAgI ke he mAtA ! keTalAka ema kahe che ke, meghadhanuSya jyAre AkAzamAM thAya tyAre senAne varasAda varSe che tenA AdhAre jagata sukhI thAya che duHkhe rahetA nathI. paNa Aje meghadhanuSyane AkAzamAM dekhyuM, paNa sonAne varasAda thaye nahI. tenuM zuM kAraNa? mAtAe kahyuM ke, are bAlake! je dIvya cakSumAna hoya che te dekhI zake jyAre tame dayA-dAna kSamA-udArAdika sadaguNene prApta karaze-ane tamArAmAM te dayAdi saguNa pariNAma pAmaze tyAre tame divya cakSuvALA thaIne dekhI zakaze ke satya dhana varSe che. dIkarIe kahyuM ke AjathI AraMbhI dayA-kSamA udAratA vigere meLavavA mATe prayAsa karIza. A bAlikA mAtAnA kathana mujaba vartana karavA lAgI sadAcAre vrata niyamAdine pAlavA lAgI te vakhate amA-dayA-Indriya niyama-udAratAdi guNe krame krame AvIne nivAsa karavA lAgyA. tethI jhaverAta-senA-rUpAdi karatAM paNa adhika sukhazAMti-saMteSAdikathI tene adhika AnaMda AvavA lAge bIje varSe AkAzamAM dhanuSya kheMcAyuM. mAtAekirIne kahyuM ke je senAne varSAda varSa rahyA che te For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti 153 levA mATe jA, sadAcAre vigere pariNAma pAmela hovAthI dIkaroe kahyuM ke are bA mArI pAse te senA-karatAM paNa amUlaya satya senuM che je dIvya cakSuthI dayA-dAna saMtepAdika sAcuM dhana maLyuM che tenI AgaLa kalpita dhanAdika tuccha bhAse che te mATe keNa dADa kare, satya senAne mUkI khoTA pAvidhanAdikanI keNa spRhA rAkhe? prathama mane dIvya cakSu maLyA hatA nahI tethI tevA sonAnI cAhanA rAkhatI. have te tenI IcchA paNa thatI nathI. bhale Ave ke jAya, mane te have kSamA-namratA-saralatA-saMteSAdika saddaguNethI adhika AnaMda Ave che. mAtAe kahyuM ke beTA A pramANe rAkhIza te sAcu anaMta sukha paNa AvIne hAjara thaze. are mahAnubhAve? sadAcAra-trataniyamAdinuM pAlana karaze te tamane dIvya netro upalabdha thaze ane satya dhanAdika najara AgaLa AvIne hAjara thaze pachI tamane je pArthiva dhanAdikamAM je Asakita che te ochI thatI jaze tethI kaleza kaMkAsa vigere thaze nahIM. dIvya netrane ughADa joIe A sivAya carmacakSuothI jotAM meha-mamatAmAnAdine AvavAne avakAza maLe che. divya netrone ughADa cAthe guNasthAne thAya che tethI tyAgavA lAyaka jANavA lAyaka ane grahaNa karavA egya vastuone tathA vicArone khyAla rahe che. upayoga rahetAM tyAgavA lAyaka vastuo upara Adara rahetuM nathI. ane purUSArtha yoge tene tyAga karavA samartha manAya che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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154 A. kAti sAgarasUri racita ja ApaNe bIjAo pratye jevI vartaNuMka rAkhIye tene paDa sAme paDato hovAthI sAmA mANasa taraphathI tevI ja rIte sAMbhaLIye chIe tethI manathI kharAba vicAre anya taraphanA karavA nahI. je anyane tarapha kharAba aniSTa vicAre karaze te anya mANase paNa tamArA tarapha kharAba vicAra karaze tethI anya anya tarapha thatA aniSTa vicArethI maitrI pramadAri bhAvanA bhAvI zakAze nahIM. ane irSA-adekhAIne AvavAne avakAza maLaze. puNya-pApa tathA sukha duHkhanuM mUla kAraNa suMdara-asuMdara vicAre che. mATe vicAro anya prANIo upara paNa umadA rAkhavA, ke jethI mAnasika vicAmAM malInatA praveza karI zake nahI. tathA vANIne pravAha eve vaherAve che temAM snAna karI. temAM jhIlela mAnavI zAMtA thAya. ane AnaMdamAM rahe vacanAmAM amRta che. ane vera-jhera paNa temAM rahela che. to sAmA mANasane jevA vacane kaheze tevA tame sAMbhaLaze. gALo bhAMDaze te sAmA taraphathI geLa maLaze nahIM. paNa gALe sAMbhaLaze ane madhurA vacanathI belAvazo. te madhurI vANI sAMbhaLazo kAraNake madhurI vANI jagatanA prANIone priyatama heya che. kaDavA vacane kene paNa vahAlAM lAgatA nathI. kaTuka vacane saMbhaLAvaze te madhurA kocane tamene munivarya sivAya ke saMbhaLAvaze. mATe hita, mita, paga evA madhurA vacane bolavAnI Teva pADavI hitakara che. tathA mArAmArI karaze te mahAtmA samaktidhArI mahAzayo sivAya tamene keNa satkAraze. agara sanmAna Apaze For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 155 puNyadayathI tamane mana-vacana ane kAyAnI je zakitao maLI che. tene sadupayoga karI ghera manuSyabhavane mahAna hA laIsatya saMpattinA svAmI ane pachI tamane AdhivyAdhinI viDaMbanA satAvaze nahI. cAra pAMca chokarAe bhegA malIne ramata karatAM karatAM -eka hATI guphAmAM gayA. ane guphAnI manoharatA-suMdaratA dekhIne aho aho A guphA kevI suMdara che A pramANe bAlatA hovAthI tene paDe guphAmAM paDyA ane pitAnA belelA zabda pAchA temAMthI saMbhaLAyA. tethI kahevA lAgyA. ke kaI badamAsa guphAmAM gupta rahe che te ApaNA cALA pADe che mATe damadATI ApIne tene bela baMdha kara Ama vicArI pAMce ya chokarAo AvezamAM AvI bAlavA lAgyA. ke are bevakupha pAgala amArA cALA pADe che. evA ja vacane guphAmAMthI saMbhaLAyA. ke are bevakupha pAgala tuM amArA cALA pADe che, A pramANe zabdo je je kahe gALe che te sarve sAmI de che. Ama dhArI mArA mArI upara AvyA. ane guphAne gALa detA mAravA lAgyA. teo jANe che ke lAThIonA ghA mAravAthI saMtAI rahele bahAra Avaze pachI tenI barobara khabara laIzuM. lAThIonA ghA mAratAM paNa mAnI lIdhele hue badamAza bahAra dekhAya nahI. tyAre sarva jaMgalane khuMdI nAMkhyuM. paNa dekhAye nahI. Ama mAnyuM ke amArA bhayathI te nAzI gaye. A pramANe vAmita thaelAne khabara paDI nahI ke A te amArA belelA vacanonA paDaghA che sva ghera AvIne mAtapitAnI AgaLa For Private And Personal Use Only

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156 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita bahAdurI batAvatA kahevA lAgyA ke ame ramatAM ramatAM jaMgalamAM rahelI guphAmAM gayA. tenI ramaNIyatAne dekhI amo ahe bolyA tyAre te guphAmAM rahelo eka lucce amArA cALA pADavA lAgyA. ame tene gALo bhAMDI tapAsa karatAM guphAmAM ke jaMgalamAM dekhAya nahI. ane amArI bhItithI nAzI gaye. mAtApitAe kahyuM ke te te tamArA belelA caDaghA hovA joIe. tame je pramANe bolyA tevA paDaghA paDyA, A uparathI samajavuM ke, jevuM tamo belaze tevuM tame sAMbhaLaze. mANasane bhautika sukhe tathA adhyAtmanA satya sukhane meLavavAnI IcchA te heAya che. paraMtu teonA sAdhanamAM kaSTa paDatuM dekhI pAchA paDe che. ane kahe che ke Ate amArAthI banI zakaze nahI. temAM bahu kaSTa paDe che. zeTha sAhebanA kahA pramANe ubhA rahevuM paDe. vAMkA paDavuM paDe. dareka sthale pari jamaNa karavuM paDe tethI bahu kaSTa paDe che. Ama kahenArane kaI sajajana kahe ke kaSTa sahana karyA sivAya koI prakArane lAbha thaye jANe che. jANe hoya te kahe. dhArmika kriyAmAM saMyamanI ArAdhanA karanAra saMyamI mahAbhAgyazAlIone paNa Atmika satya sukhanA lAbha mATe vividha kaSTa sahana karavA paDe che. le-pAdavihAra bhUmithyA tApAdikanuM sahana karavuM paDe che. te pachI bhautika lAbha mATe sahana karavuM paDe temAM zI navAI? ISTa sahana karyA sivAya malIna thaela vastro paNa svaccha thatAM nathI. ane paisA vigerene lAbha thatuM nathI. mATe AvA daDAM mUkI ALasa pramAdAdikane tyAga karI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti 157 udyama karanAra, ISTa lAbha meLavavA samartha bane che. eka mANasa e pramAdIne sukhazIlI hatuM. je sthale cAkarI kare te sthale kaSTa sahana thatuM na hovAthI. keI tene nokara tarIke rAkhatuM nahI. gharamAM AvIne mAtapitA AgaLa kahe ke I mahane nekara rAkhatA nathI. mAtapitAe kahyuM ke ApaNI sAdhAraNa sthiti che. ane pramAdI banI gharamAM besI rahIza te AgaLa jatAM tuM ghaNe duHkhI thaIne durgatinuM bhAjana banIza. kaSTane sahana karatuM nathI te tane nekara tarIke keNa sakhe ?tuM kaSTathI ghaNe gabharAya che paNa bhaviSyane vicAra karaje tArI zI gati thaze. tene vicAra kare jarUra che. lAbha duHkha sahana karyA sivAya kadApi maLatuM nathI. mATe vicAra karIne dukha sahana karatAM zIkhavuM te zreyaskara che. sAMbhaLa? tane eka sukhazIlIyAnI vAta kahuM. dhanADhaya zeThane AgheDa ummaramAM eka putra thaye tethI tenuM lAlana pAlana sArI rIte thatuM hovAthI kai kahe te mAnate nahI. tephAna karavAmAM bAkI rAkhate nahIM. moTI ummarane thaye paNa tephAna karavAmAM ja prema hovAthI kaI mANasa tene mAra mAratA tyAre gharamAM AvI raDavA pUrvaka pharIyAda karate ke amuke mane gALo bhAMDI ghaNe mAra mAryo. mAtApitA kahevA lAgyA ke, have tuM maTe thayo che. te kAna karavuM joIe nahI. sarvenI sAthe haLI maLIne vartavuMtyAre tene A zIkhAmaNa gamatI nahI. ane mAtApitAnI sAthe paNa kalaha kaMkAza karate vakhate vakhate zIkhAmaNa ApatAM chatAM mAnate nahI. ane tephAna-kalaha kaMkAsAdika For Private And Personal Use Only

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58 . jAti sAgarasUri racita karatA hAvAthI darekane aniSTa thayeA. koi tene khelAvatuM nathI. ane gharamAM kudde kudA karatA. abhyAsa-udyoga paNa zIkhyA nahI. mAtapitA jIvatAM tA koi prakAre duHkha paDayu nahI. pazu teo gujarI gayA pachI dareka khAmatamAM kaSTa paDavA lAgyuM te sahana thatuM nahI hAvAthI raDavA lAgyA. ALasu manI ke prakAranA udyama karatA nathI. beThAM beThAM khAtA nhAvAthI je milakata hatI te khatama thaI gaI tadna duHkhI avasthAmAM AvyA te pastAvA karavA lAgyA ke mAtiA je zIkhAmaNa ApatA hatA te mAnI nahI. ane ALasu adnI-tathA pramAdI banyA have teA saMkaTane pAra rahyo nathI, zuM karU ? kene kahuM ? leAkeA paNa anAdAra kare che sagAM vahAlAM paNa sAmuM jotA nathI. ane sahakAra ApatA nathI. A pramANe valApAta karatA dekhI phAI eka duHkhane dUra karavAmAM sahAya karanAra dayALu zeThe tene AzvAsana ApI pAtAnI peDhImAM nAkara tarIke rAkhyA ane dhIme dhIme AgaLa vadhAo-jo kekAma karatAM kaSTa paDe che pazu te sahana karyAM sivAya chUTake nahI hAvAthI sahI letAM zIkhyA ane sukhI banya. 65 udyama ApaNA parama mitra che. Ama mAnanArA-saMkaTo duHkhAne haThAvI sukhanA leAkatA ane che unALAno sakhata garamIthI ghaNA tapelAe, ekadama vizrAma lIdhA vinA ThaMDu pANI pIve te anukula paDe nahI hairAna thai vyAdhigrasta banavAnsa sabhava che. te pramANe utkRSTa tapasyA karanAra je zitala jala pIe te temane te For Private And Personal Use Only

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Ahira jAti pIdhela pANI anukala paDe nahI. vAtapittano prayAsa thAya mATe je adhika tRSA lAgelI hoya te garama pIvAmAM bAdha jevuM nathI kAraNa ke garamIne garama vastu zAMta kare che. peTane sApha karI kaThINa thaela malane dUra kare che te pramANe kIdhAturane te vakhate madhurA vacane gamatA nathI. ane adhika AvezamAM AvI zAMta pADanArane jema tema jevAM tevAM vacane sAMbhaLavAne vakhata Ave che. paraMtu be ghaDI gayA pachI tene yukita pUrvaka garama kaTuka vacane kahevAmAM Ave te paNa te zravaNa karIne grahaNa kare che mATe krodhane zAMta thayA pachI madhurAM-agara garama kahevAmAM lAbha che tamone anubhava haze ke. kAraNasara be vyakitao krodhAtura banI gALAgALI karatI hoya te samaye teone zAMta pADavA mATe tamo zIkhAmaNa ApatA he tyAre teo kahe che ke, tame dUra jAo-tamArI zIkhAmaNanI amAre jarUra nathI. tamArA gharavALAne zIkhAmaNuM Apaje. ahIM A DahApaNa DALe nahIM. te vakhate tamo vilakhA paDyA haze krodha te paNa AMdhaLe che aMdha te samajAve te samaje paNa kodhathI aMdha banela to te vakhate adhika garama thaela hevAthI ane buddhi baherI thaelI hoya che ulaTa samajAvanArane bhAMDavA besI jAya-ane kaI vakhate mAra khAI bese, kaI eka gAmamAM be jaNa jamIna mATe gALAgALI karavA pUrvaka mArAmArI upara AvyA, te vakhate eka parApakArI teonI pAse AvI zAMta pADavA ke zIza karavA lAge paNa teo zAMta thayA nahI. ane zAMta pADanArane be traNa lADIone mAra paDaye, mAra paDavAthI te bhAga ane pastAvo karavA lAgyuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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160 mA. z2Iti sAgarasUri racita 66 dunyavI padArthAMmAM Asakata banelA mAnavA tuccha vastu mATe paNu gALAgALI pUrvaka mArAmArI upara Ave che chatAM je mAla vinAnI tuccha vastuo mATe karavA lAyaka nahI evI takarAra--mArAmArI karIne te vastune meLavI zakatA nathI. alabuddhinI hAni thatI hovAthI pariNAme duHkhada sthiti Ave che. tuccha vastu tamArI hAMsI karatI hAyanI zuM ke mArA mATe tamArI mahattA zAmATe gumAveA che ? huM teA koInI thaI nathI ane keAInI thavAnI nathI. je zAMta ane puNyavAna che tene AdhIna chu. zA mATe kroSAtura anI zaktine gumAve che ane janatAmAM hAMsI pAtra ane che. A pramANe tuccha vastu maheATAone kahe che paNa mahATAe mAnatA nathI tyAre te vastu khIjAnA hAthamAM jAya che ane takAra-mArAmArI karanAra hatAza ane che. zaheranA zeThIne kAThAnI caTaNI upara prAyaH ghaNe bhAge adhika prema hAya che ane koThAe zaheramAM AchA pramANamAM vecAtA maLe che. ekAda be zeDIA sahelagAhe nIkaLyA. jaMgalamAM havA khAI rahelAM che tevAmAM kAThInA jhADa uparathI paripakava anela eka ke|ThuM nIce paDyuM. juDAlAIne te paDeluM dekhAyu ane mIThAbhAie te kAThuM upADI lIdhuM. jIThAbhAie kahyuM ke pahelAM me' dekhyu` mATe te mArU che mATe mane Apa, mIThAbhAIe kahyu ke bhale teM dekhyu paNa upADI lIdhu meM tethI tane Apu nahI. tenI caTaNI banAvI amA khazuM. ane For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara nyAti 161 zeThIAe pAtAnI mahattAne gumAvI A tuccha vastu mATe lAkhAlI karavA lAgyA. ane Asakti hAvAthI gALA gALI ane mArAmArI upara AvyA. te arasAmAM eka yuktimAja tyAM thaIne jai rahelA che. teNe A anAva dekhI mArAmArI karatA e zeThImane kahyuM ke tamArI kAThA mATenI takarAra huM dUra karU. mArA hAthamAM ApA, hAthamAM ApelA kAThAne lAgI eka tenu' cheDIyuM juThAbhAIne Apyu. ane khIju mIThAbhAIne Apyu. vacalA gala" pAte laIne cAlyA gayA. e zeThIAe sva mahatva gumAvI pastAve karatA peAtAnA ghera gayA. 67 nyAyeApAjIta dhana A lAka paralAya saMbadhI sukhanI AsA rahita, eTale niSkAma bhAve dIdhu hAya tA te AtmazaktinA AvibhAva tathA vikAsa karavA samartha bane che, jo ke dAna ghaNA leke Ape che paraMtu nyAyeApAta dhanathI ke anyAyathI adhama thI meLavelu che te tA dAnane denAra dAtA--agara atizaya jJAnI jANe paNa nyAyathI-pramANikAthI prApta karela haze teA jarUra Atma vikAsamAM rItasara mahRda karaze ane anyAyathI meLavela haze te ahaMkAra ane mamatA hAjara thaze eTale je satya lAbha maLavAnA haze te dubha anaze mATe AtmAnnatinA icchanAra bhAgyazAlIe nyAyathI yukta prApta karela dhanAkinu dAna karavuM, ke jethI uttarAttara svaparanI unnati sadhAtI rahe bhale pachI AchAmAM Achu dAna DevAya dhanyakumAra tathA zAlIbhadre ane caMdana khAlAe 11 For Private And Personal Use Only

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1ra A. kIrti sAgarasari racita sunimahArAjane tathA zrI mahAvIra svAmIne dAnamAM phakta khIra vahorAvI tathA aDadanA bAkaLA vaharAvyA hatA. paNa te dAna AzaMsA rahita hatuM tethI temane AtmavikAsa thaye ane sAthe sAthe tenI pAchaLa addhi-samRddhi AvI malI tathA caMdana bAlA mekSapade gayA te prabhAva niSkAma dAnane che. devAnuM dAna zuddha nirdoSa hatuM ane a5 kiMmatanuM hatuM chatAM sadabhAvanA adhikahevAthI ananya lAbhadAyaka banyuM. AbarU prazaMsA-mahattA khAtara dIdheluM dAna Atma zakitane prAdurbhAva karavAmAM samartha banatuM nathI. bhale pachI kIMmatI dAna hoya paNa ahaMkAra-mamatAne khaseDI zakatuM nathI tathA dAna lenAra je pAtra maLe te A bhavanI bhAvaTha bhAge cittamAM zAMti thAya. ane puNyAnubaMdhI puNya baMdhAya eTale mudhA dAyI ane mudhA jIvI maLavA joIeAvA bhAva AvA pAtre maLe te sonuM ane sugaMdhIvALuM A meLApa paNa bhAgyeAthe maLe che. dAna lenAre paNa gaSaNa karavI joIe ke A dAna denAranuM dravya nirdoSa che ke sadevI che. nyAyathI meLavela che ke jema tema anyAya karIne. A mujaba gaSaNA karanAra je nirdoSa dravya hete buddhimAM nirmalatA Ave che ane te kAyama rahe. ane temAM vadhAre thAya nahItara jevuM tevuM lIdhela hoya te vicAramAM vikAra thayA sivAya rahe nahI. ane thaela vikAra manuSyane pazutAmAM sthApana kare. mATe dAna lenAra paNa dravyanI gaveSaNa karavAnI AvazyaktA jANavI joIe. bhale pachI munimahArAja hoya ke sAdharmika baMdhu hoya. gaveSaNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara ti 16 vinA kadAca anyahAnI thAya nahIM. paNa ALasu pramAdI banAve che. ane AtmatimAM vividha vidano upasthita thAya gRhapaNumAM vipattinA prasaMge sIdAtA chatAM zrAvake agara jainetare dAna denAranA dravyanI gaveSaNa karanAra hoya che. nyAya nItithI meLavela dravya hoya te le nahItara prANe jAya te paNa le nahI evA paNa bhAgyazAlI hoya che sArI rIte keLavaNI laIne keI eka mANasa yuddhamAM joDAye. paraMtu tene yuddhamAM zastra vAgavAthI tene eka paga kapAI gaye. tenA adhikArIe sAjo karIne tenA ghera mokalya gharamAM pite ekale hate. keI svajana vargamAM hatu nahI. lAkaDAne paga banAvI jIvana nirvAha mATe udyama karate kaI sadAte jANuM dravyanI madada kare te prathama gaveSaNA karI nyAyathI meLavela hoya te te madada le. Ama karatAM pAchA mAMde paDaze. eTale udyama thaI zakaze nahIM. ane adhika sIdavA lAgyuM. eka mANasa dayAnI khAtara tene khAvA pIvAnuM lAvI Apate. tyAre sIdAte mANasa kahete ke je tame mane madada kare che. te nyAyathI prApta karela dhanathIne! madada karanAre kahyuM ke jAtamahenate je kamAI Ave che temAMthI niSkAma bhAve madada karuM chuM. A sAMbhaLI te bahurAjI thayo. ane AzIvAda ApavA lAgyo keTaloka samaya gayA pachI eka sAheba gADImAM esI tyAM thaIne jaI rahela che teNe A gAmamAM vIsAme lIdhe. bhegA thaela mANasee te bhUlAM-ane mAMdAnI vAta kahI tethI te sAheba te mAMdAnI pAse gaye. mAMdAe adhikArIne oLakhe adhikArI madada karanAranI vAta sAMbhaLI ghaNe khuzI thaye ane For Private And Personal Use Only

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164 mA. krIti sAgararasUri racita jAta mahenata karIne madadane karanArane seAnA mahArA ApavA lAgyA paNa teNe lIdhI nahI. ane kahyuM ke seAnA mahArA mATe me' madada-sahakAra karyAM nathI paraMtu mArA dharma krUja jANIne madada karI che tyAre sAhebe kahyuM ke A mardAnA adalA tarIke ApatA nathI. paNa jAta mahenatathI dhana pedA karIne niSkAma bhAve je tame sevA ajAvI che tenA zatAMza bhAge huM Apu chu... adhika lAla puchyAya tamane A savamAM ane parabhavamAM Apaze ke je lAbhanI AgaLa A je ApuM chuM te tucchamAtra che A pramANe tyAM seAnA mahArA sukI sIdAtA subhaTane AzvAsana ApIne cAlI nIkaLye je mANasAne tRSNA nathI teone icchAthI paNa adhika maLe che paNa jeone tRSNA-leAbha che te IcchA mujaba prApta karI zaktA nathI. ghaNI jamInavALA saradAra eka paTelane jamInanA e vIghAnuM khetara kheDavA ApyuM. paTele sArI rIte khAtara-kheDa karIne te khetara taiyAra karyuM. khetaranA eka bhAgamAM rIMgaNanA khIja vAvyA, eTale rIMgaNA utpanna thayA temAMthI e traNa suMdara rIMgaNAne laI saradArane prema sahita bheTa tarIke mUkayA. uttAra vRtimAna saradAre tenA premanI kiMmata jANI cAra-pAMca seAnAmahArA te paTelanI ApI. saradAranI udAratA vigerenI anumAdanA karatA paTela pAtAnA ghera AnyA. vAre vAre teNe karelI praza zAne sAMbhaLI pADAzamAM rahetA lAbhI khIjA paTele vicAra karyo ke e traNa rI'gaNAnA badale saradAre cArapAMca seAnAmaheArA ApI te huM eka nAnA vAcharaDA bheTa tarIke Apu' te mane seA khasA maheArA Apaze Ama dhArIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti nAne vAcharaDA laI lobhI paTela saradAra pAse AvyA. saradAra A lebhIne sArI rIte oLakhe che ke mahere ApyAnI vAta sAMbhaLI A bhAI paNa adhika levAnI lAlace Avela che. A lobhI paTele saradArane kahyuM ke A vAcharaDA bheTa tarIke svIkArI mArA upara maherabAnI kare saradAre nA kahyuM chatAM, karagarIne kahevA lAgyo mArA garIbanI ATalI bheTa avazya svIkAre te mane bahu AnaMda thAya. saradAre tenA senA mahero levAnA vicAre jANI lIdhA. ane dekhAdekhIthI adhika dhana maLavAnI abhilASAe Avela che, ane vAchaDAnI bheTa dharIza te pelA paTela karatAM vadhAre sonA mahAra Apaze Ama dhArI sAdhana saMpana ane dhanADhaya hovA chatAM paNa lebhanI khAtarI AvyA che. Ama vicArIne kahyuM ke tamArI ghaNuM AjIjI che te tamArI bhAvanA mujaba bheTa ApavI joIe. Ama kahIne je nispRha paTele rIMgaNuM prema sahita ApyA hatA te A lemIne ApyA ane kahyuM ke bheTanA badale rIMgaNA laIne svagRhe jAo lebhI jaMkhavANe thaye. kAMI paNa bolyA vinA pitAne ghera AvyuM. A pramANe kaI paNa spRhA sivAya bhakti sevA karanArane IcchA karatAM adhika prApta thAya che ane sAMsArika padArthonI spRhA rAkhIne sevA bhakti pUrvaka bheTa dharanArane rIMgaNuM jevI mAmulI cIja maLe che. dunyavI padArthonI IcchA-AzAtRSNA rAkhIne prabhunI bhakti-vigere karanArane dunyavI tucchakSaNa vinAzI vastuo maLe tyAre nispRha bhAgyazAlIne evI vastuo prApta thAya ke Adhi-vyAdhi-viDaMbanAdika For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita heThAvanAra temaja parabhavamAM sAthe. AvanAra vastuo maLe che. mATe sadvicAra-ane viveka sAthe prabhu-gurUnI bhakti sevI. ane AjJAne dhAraNa karI AzaMsAne dUra karIne sAthe ne sAthe rahe. kadApi dUra khase nahI tevI vastuo meLa saMpanna ane sAhyabIthI bharapura mANaso dhanAdikanA nazAmAM akkaDa rahetA ema pitAnA manamAM mAne che ane guNavAna. ane sukhI chIe. ane kSamA-namratA saralatA tathA teSAdhika guNavALA bIcArA du:khI che. tethI namratA- saralatA dhArIne vyavahArika kAryo kare che. A pramANe mAnyatAne dhAraNa karIne namratA vigere sadaguNene dhAraNa karanAra bhAgyazAlIone halakA ane tuccha. mAnatA hovAthI temAM sadaguNa kayAMthI Ave! te akkaDa. ane abhimAnI pAsethI jyAre sAhyabI khasI jAya che tyAre teonI AMkhe ughaDe che, ke sadaguNaene halakA ane tuccha mAnyA te mArI avasthA halakI ane tuccha thaI jJAnIo. kahe che ke kSamA-namratA-saralatA vigere sadaguNene dhAraNakaranArane halakA-tuccha mAne nahI paNa teonuM sanmAdika karIne anumodanA-prazaMsA karI tevA guNene meLavavA mATe prayatnI, bane ke azubhedaye kadAcit sAhyabI vigere khasI jAya te paNa dInatA-hInatA bhAse nahI. ane sadguNemAM pUrNa zraddhA sAthe dunyavI sAhyabI te sAcI nathI paNa banAvaTI che. satya sAhyabI te saddaguNomAM samAkhela che. sadguNene tuccha mAnanAra pate tuccha bane che. mATe dhanAdikanI sAhAbImAM Asakta banI akkaDa abhimAnI bane nahI. paNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti sAthe sAthe saguNene meLavavA mATe prayAsa kare teja tamAre ahaMkAra sArthakatA dhAraNa karaze. "bApa ane dIkaro potAnA kSetramAM pAkelI jAra jevAne gayA. temAM keTalAka kaNasalAM nIcA namI gaela che. ane keTalAka akkaDa ubhAM rahela che. te dekhIne dIkare pItAne kahe che. ke A bIcArA namI gaelA kaNasalAM halakA lAge che. ane ubhA rahelAne page lAgatA hoyanI zuM ema mAluma paDe che. mATe garIba jevAM dekhAya che. tenA pItAe kahyuM- dIkarA ? tAruM mAnavuM bhUla bhareluM che. je namI gaelA che. ane namI rahelA che. te mAla vinAnA nathI. paNa mAlavALA che. tethI namI paDelA che saddaguNaone e svabhAva hoya che ke namratA vigerene tyAga karatA nathI. ane je akkaDa ubhA rahelA che te ahaMkArI-abhimAnI purUSanI mAphaka mAlavinA guNa vihIna che. temAM mAla ke saddaguNa hotuM nathI. he putra tyAre je sadaguNI banavuM hoya te kSamA namratA vigere guNene dhAraNa karaje paNa akakaDa abhimAnI banIza nahI. 68 dunyavI kalAo zikhavA mATe ekAgratA rItasara rAkhavI paDe che. te AtmakalA-jJAna mATe ekAgratA sthiratA mAnasika vRtinI karavI paDe temAM navAI nathI. ekAgratA dhAraNa karIne svAdhIna karelI kalAnI kadara, mahArAjA-zeThIyA zrImati kare ke nahIM kare paNa Atmika jJAnanI kalA to evA prakAranI che ke tyAM lAbhalA mAnavIo namI paDIne prazaMsA kare che. ane AtmajJAnamAM rasa letAM rahe che. mATe dunyavI kalAonI sAthe For Private And Personal Use Only

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168 Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir A. kIti sAgarasUri racita AtmajJAnanI kalAo zIkhavAnI paNa AvazyakatA che. eka mANase stravikAthe vividha kalAo sthiratAne dhAraNa karIne zIkhI te kalAo paikI eka kalA. evI zIkhI ke te dekhIne rAjA-mahArAjA vigere khuzI thaI ISTa InAma Ape che. A kalAvAne eka rAjA pAse jaI peAtAnI kalA dekhADavA mATe AjIjI karI. sabhyAnI sAthe rAjA tenI kalA jovA lAgye. teNe bhIjAvIne narama karelAM vaTANAnA pyAlA peAtAnA hAthamAM lIdhA ane eka mANasane sAyA hAthamAM ApIne dUra ubhA rAkhyA. tyAra pachI ekAvratA pUrNAMka evI cAlAkIthI vaTANAnA dANA sAthe upara nAMkhe che. ke dANA seAya upara lAgI jAya che nIce paDatA nathI A pramANe dekhI rAjAe kahyuM ke udara bharavAnI kaLA ekAgratA rAkhIne zokhI ethI karIne, sa'kaTA AdhivyAdhi khasavAthI nathI, mATe jevI sthiratA rAkhIne dunyavI kalAo zIkhavAmAM AvI tevI ekAgratA rAkhIne Atmati. kalyANanI kalA zIkhavAnI khAsa jarUra che dunyavI kalAmAM sarvasva AvI maLatuM nathI. je kAMI udara nirvAhapuratu maLe che te paNa pApAye khasI jAya che mATe have AtmahitanI kalA zIkhavA mATe ekAgratA rAkhI siddha cakranI ArAdhanA kara. jethI uttarAttara dravya ane bhAvathI sAdhana sAmagrI-tathA sAhyabI maLavA pUrvaka vinaya--vivekaprasannamana-mahattA tathA-meAkSamA AvI maLe ane punaH punaH janma maraNunI viDaMbanA krUra khase A pramANe satya zAMtinA mArga dekhADayA. ane upadezelA mAge gamana For Private And Personal Use Only -w

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AMtara jyoti karavAthI sthiratA rAkhavAthI dareka bAbate nizcita banI Atma svarUpanI oLakhANa karI saddagatinuM bhAjana bane AtmajJAnanI kalAmAM sarve kalAo samAya che udara nirvAhaparivAra vigerenA piSaNamAM A dunyavI kaLA zIkhavI te ThIka che paraMtu jyAM sudhI Adhi-vyAdhi-upAdhinI viDaMbanAene dUra karavAnI zIkhyA nahi tyAM sudhI te sarva kaLA vRthA che dunyavI kalAbAjImAM saMsAranuM paribhramaNa che ane AtmAnI kalAbAjImAM sAMsArika rakhaDapaTTIne nivAravAnI zakti che temAM anaMta sukha ApavAnI paNa tAkAta rahelI che. mATe dekhAdekhImAM paDe nahI. viveka lAvI Atma kalyANanI kalAone zIkho AtmajJAnanI kalAmAM jIvana mukta banAya che tyAre dunyavI kalAmAM viSayAsakta banAya che. tethI cintAone vyAdhione tathA vividha saMkaTane Are Avate nathI. jeo vicAraka ane vivekI hoya che te dunyavI kalAmAM Asakta banatA nathI. paNa teothI nilepa rahIne Atma kalyANanI kalAmAM Asakta bane che. 9 udyama vinAnA ALasu ane pramAdI manuSya mahenata karI buddhi dvArA sAdhana saMpanna thaela hoya tenA upara itarAjIne dhAraNa karIne ade. khAi karyA kare che teo anyajanane kahe che ke are tame juo te "kharA ke mArA pitAnA gumAstAo kevA lIlA pILA thaIne phare che ane lahera karI rahela che te vakhate ALasu putranA vacana sAMbhaLI kei kahe che ke tArA pitAnA te nokara For Private And Personal Use Only

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1170 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita tathA gumAstA hatA te vAta sAcI. paNa teo buddhi pUrvaka jAta mahenata karIne lIlApILA thaIne lahera mAre che temAM tuM zA mATe adekhAI kare che te te tArA pitAnA gujarI gayA pachI temaNe upArjana karelI milkata vaDe tAgaDadhInnA karI ane udyama karyA sivAya beThA beThA lahera karI ane beThA beThA khAdhu, Avaka vinA te maheTA bhaMDAre mojamajAmAM. khatama thAya che ane jyAM mojamajA karavAmAM ja AnaMda paDavA lAge tyAM ALasa-nindA-visthA vagere pramAdane AvavAne avakAza maLe che AvelA te pramAde khaseDavA duzakaya bane che te ja pramAdI manuSyanI barabAdI-pAyamAlI karavAmAM bAkI rAkhatA nathI. te pramANe tamee paNa ALasu ane pramAdI banI sarvasva gumAvyuM hajI paNa hAthamAM bAjI che ane thatI ane thaelI barabAdI ane pAyamAlInI khabara paDatI hoya te uThe jAgrata bane ALasa-pramAdane. tyAga karI jAta mahenata kare buddhi te maLelI che paNa tene upayoga mojamajAmAM karavAmAM ane beThA beThA khAvAmAM karyo tethI AvI dazA AvI maLelI che. tame paNa udyama karaze te barabAdI-pAyamAlI dUra khasaze ane ALasapramAda paNa khasI jaze puNya ane paise prAyaH jAta mahenata karavAthI maLI rahe che paNa ALasu pramAdI pAse rahetuM nathI. puNya khatama thayA pachI prANuone duHkhadAyaka dazA avasthA upasthita thAya che. mATe puNyazAlIone tema paisAdArane jAta mahenatanI jarUra rahe che. kaI adekhAI karavAthI ke ALasu banavAthI For Private And Personal Use Only

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171 AMtara jyoti puNya ke paise AvI maLatuM nathI. moTA vidvAne paNa jAte pitAnA ziSyone bhaNAve nahI. tathA anuyAyIonI upekSA rAkhe. ane gAma gapATAmAM paDe te temanI vidvattA karAI jAya che. arthAt rahetI nathI. tyAre vidvAna banelA anyajanene abhyAsa karAve te vidvattAmAM vadhAre thAya che. ane sadA smaraNa rahyA kare che. are maheTA dhanudharA thaelA, pramAdI banI ane te vidyA zIkhaDAve nahI te tathA tene abhyAsa rAkhe nahI te lakSyane vadhI zake nahI. ane je vidhavA jAya te hAMsI pAtra bane. are gurumahArAja pAsethI lIdhela navakArAdika maMtre paNa teonuM smaraNa karyA sivAya phalIbhUta thatAM nathI, A zarIra paNa jAta mahenata sivAya zithila bane che, dhAryA pramANe kAma ApI zakatuM nathI. ane vividha vyAdhionuM nivAsanuM sthAna bane che. ane sahaja evA nimitte maLatAM paDI jatAM vilaMba thatuM nathI. tethI zAstra kAe purUSArthane pradhAne kahyo che. purUSArthathI cIkaNuM karmo pANu rahI zakatA nathI ane AtmavikAsa sadhAte rahe che. eka jamInadArano putra, tenA pitAnA maraNa pachI ghaNe ALasu ane pramAdI banela hovAthI sArI jamIna hote paNa bhIkhArI dazA bhegavI rahela hate. ane jamInamAM ugelA bAvaLIA pAse bUmo pADavA karate are pratye te AvI dazA mArI karI. mArA mAtapitA upara tamArI maherabAnI hatI. mArA upara nathI, meM ze aparAdha karyo ke tame AvI dazA karI pratye? have te kRpA kare. mhArA pitA jevI sAhAbI Ape. A pramANe puna:punaH pikAra karatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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172 A. kItisAgarasUri racita hate tevAmAM tenA pitAne sAthI anAjanuM gADuM bharIne te mAge thaIne jatuM hatuM tenA para cIDAIne kahevA lAgyuM. anAjanuM gADuM bharIne janAra keLI hatuM tethI kahyuM ke alyA-gADA keTalAM laI gaye. tenA pitAnA sAthI keLIe kahyuM ke tuM zA mATe adekhAI kare che jamIna te tArI pAse sArA pramANamAM che. ane anAja paNa ghaNuM pAkI zake ema che. jAta mahenata karIne mahenata karatuM nathI. ALasu thaIne ALeTayA kare che ane prabhunA upara deSa mUke che. mArI upara paNa adekhAI kare che tuM ALasane tyAga karI mArI mAphaka mahenata kare te tuM paNa gADA gADA bharIne anAja pakavI zake, AvI dazA rahe nahI. A pramANe kahIne pile kevI cAlate thayuM tenA kahevAthI jamInadAranA putrane cAnaka caDI. jAta mahenata karI khetI karavA lAge te sukhI thaye. A pramANe dareka manuSyamAM pupArjana karavAnI tAkAta hoya che, paNa mojamajAmAM ane ALasamAM te zaktine AvirbhAva karI zakatuM nathI tethI bhaviSyamAM duHkhada paristhiti upasthita thAya che pArakA tamAruM keTaluM ane kayAM sudhI kAma karI Apaze ? jyAM sudhI puNya-ane paise che tyAM sudhI, paNa purUSArtha-ke jAta mahenata te sadAya saMbaMdha dharAvatI hovAthI kAma karavAmAM samartha che puNya-tathA pise na hoya te meLavI Ape che. jagatane Azcarya pamADe che. ahiMsAnuM pAlana svAmI bhAIo para vAtsalya-tathA kSamApanA karavI. ane tapasyA karavI vigere jAta mahenata For Private And Personal Use Only

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batara ti 173 purUSArtha karyA vinA banavuM: azakaya che ane arihaMtasiddha-AcArya-upAdhyAya sAdhu-munivarya banavuM te paNa jAta mahenata vinA kayAMthI bane ? pahelA-bIjA ArAnA yugalikane mAgaNI mujaba kalpavRkSe ISTa vastuone arpaNa karatA hovAthI jAta mahenata temane hotI nathI tethI sava sAmagrI saMsAra sukhanI hovA chatAM paNa dharmanI ArAdhanA karavAmAM be nazIba che-mekSe jatA nathI70 guNakarmonA AdhAre jagatanI vicitratA che. tethI judA judA prakAranA prANIo daSTigocara thAya che. prANuonA guNa karmo zubha keTInA hoya te ucca zreSTha gati pAme che. ane azubha hoya te teonI gati halakI keTInI hoya che AvI jagatanA prANIonI vicitratA hovAthI keTalAka manuSyane acaMbo thAya che. jeonI mAnyatA evI hoya che samagra sRSTi brasthAe utpanna karI teo brahmAne upAlaMbha-Thapako ApavA maMDI paDe che ke he brahmar tamoe moTI bhUla karI. ke je lAyaka hoya egyatA dharAvatA hoya teone egya vastu nahi ApatA zokAtura banAvI nAkhuza karyA ane je regyatA dharAvatA nathI teo cagya vastu ApI khuzI karyA tamArAmAM kayAM nyAya che? tame sRSTi utpana karatAM bhUla bhUlAmaNImAM paDyA. A pramANe ajJAna nathI bolyA kare che teoe jANavuM joIe ke brahmAe sRSTi utpana karI nathI paNa karmo ane guNenA AdhAre jagatanI-prANIonI vividhatA-vicitratA thaI che bhale pachI ucca keTInA hoya ke halakI keTInA hoya temAM brahmA For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita ke prabhu zuM kare? svabhAve banyA kare che A pramANe vicAra kare te samAdhAna thAya. eka brahmAne bhakta musApharI karavA gamana karI rahelo che thAka lAgavAthI eka kaThInA jhADa nIce beThe. A vRkSanA upara keLAnI velaDImAM lAgelA keLAne dekhI tathA keThI upara rahelA keThAne dekhI brahmAne Thapako ApavA lAgyuM ke A meTA keThInA vRkSane nAnA phale ApyA. tathA sAme rahelA vaDane paNa taddana nAnA ane halakA phaLa AkhyA ane tenA upara rahelI velaDIne meTA phala tarIke keLA dIdhA. tene nAnA phaLa ApavA joIe. ane meTA A ne mahATA phale ApavA joIe A bhIMta jevI mahaTI bhUla he brahmA tame karI che mArAmAM jagatane-sRSTine banAvavAnI tAkAta heta to AvI bhUle huM karata nahIM A pramANe bolI rahyo che. teTalAmAM vAvAjhoDuM thayuM tethI be traNa kAMThA belanAra Thapake ApanAranA mAthA upara baro bara paDI vAgyuM ane naskerAmAM vAgavAthI naskarI kuTI ane lehI nIkaLavAnI ghaNI pIDA thaI tethI kaMTALIne vaDanA vRkSa nIce beThe tyAM paNa vaDanA TeTA mastaka upara paDavA lAgyA. tyAre khyAla Avyo ke, brahmA kahe ke karmo kaho teoe barAbara karyuM che. je kaMThInA nAnA phaLothI ATalI pIDA thaI te heTA keLA jevAM phaLe heta ane te mAthA upara paDayA hatA te mAthuM kuTI jAya. jIvate raheta nahI. ATalA tadana nAnA phalethI ATalI pIDA thaI te heTA hitane pIDAmAM bAkI rahetI nahI. mATe emAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 175 brahmAne aparAdha nathI. paNa kare che. A mujaba che banyA kare che. te karmo AdhAre bane che. mATe aphasesa ke saMtApa kare te vRthA che. 71 jagatamAM vividha nimitte sukhadAyI ane duHkha dAyI maLI Ave che. te vakhate karmavikAre barAbara khyAla hoya to muMjhavaNa thAya nahI. tathA reSateSa thazuM thAya nahI. jagatamAM sugadhI , hAya che ane nirgadha rUpe hoya che. sugaMdhadAra pupene dekhI mAnave khuzI thAya ane grahaNa kare che. tyAre sugaMdha vinAnA pupane tenA sAmuM Adara bhAvathI dekhAtA nathI. paraMtu jyAre jarUra paDe che. tyAre tevA puSpane paNa grahaNa karIne khuzI thAya che. mArgamAM gamana karatAM bAlaka raDatuM hoya tyAre khIlelAM bAvaLa-ke AvaLanA "pupe te bALakane khuza kare che. te vakhate caMpa caMpelI juI jAInA putra kyAMthI lAve ? mATe dareka vastuo temAM rahelA guNe AdhAre guNI che. keIpaNa padArtha guNa rahita nathI. Ama samajI samatva lAvI mAnasika cintAne nivArI zAMta banavuM ucita che, 7ra "samakita sAthe jeene vrata niyamo hatA nathI teonI vRtti ane pravRttio nimaryAdita hevAthI aneka aparAdho tathA vizvAsaghAta-cerI asatyAdika bolavAmAM pAchA haThatA nathI. cArI vigere karI nirdoSa batAvavA mATe vividha cAlAkI kare che. tathA ISTa prabhunA segana khAIne karelI cArI vigerene For Private And Personal Use Only

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276 A. kItasAgarasuri racita chupAvavA beTI sAkSIo paNu upasthita kare che, paraMtu jyAre teone buddhimAna nyAyAdhIza buddhinA balathI pakaDI pADe che. tyAre vilakhA banI nIcuM mukha rAkhI karelA aparAdha karelI cerIne bIna upAye ekarAra kare che. ane zikSA pAtra bane che. tyAre samakti sAthe vrata niyamAdikane dhAraNa karanAra ke dAtA dAna Ape te paNa grahaNa karanA nathI. kadAcita ghaNe Agraha karIne keIausA vigere Ape che. te jAta mahenata pUrvaka pasIne utArIne Ape che ke game tyAMthI lAvIne Ape che dAtA kahe ke jAta mahenata karI meLavela dhanAdikanuM dAna-bhakti karU chuM te le anyathA kai senAmahArane arpaNa kare te paNa tenI sAme jotuM nathI. AvA bhAgyazAlIe svarUpanuM kalyANa sAdhIne sadgatinI sAthe anukaraNIya banI prazaMsA bane che. eka gAmamAM Indra ane oghaDa nAme be mitro hatA. vrata niyamAdinuM pAlana karatAM yAtrA karavAnI Indrane abhilASA thaI, oghaDane svecachA jaNAvIne zubha divase prayANuM karyuM. oghaDa eka gAu sudhI vaLAvA gaye. gamananI velAye oghaDe kahyuM ke gharanI cintA rAkhIza nahI. ane pAse dara dAgInAnuM jokhama rAkhIza nahI. A pramANe mitranuM kathana sAMbhaLI InDe kahyuM ke mArA pAse pAMcasAtasenA dAgInA che te tane ApuM chuM. te sAcavI rAkhaje. yAtrA karIne AvIza tyAre mAgI laIza. lAva! tyAre ema kahIne tenA dAgInA laIne oghaDa pitAne ghera AvyA. ane Indra tIrtha yAtrA karavA nIkaLe. nibaMdha-kheda rahita AnaMda pUrvaka tIrthayAtrA karIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMsara aMti gA * svagRhe AvI Indra pAtAnA mitra eAvaDanI pAse je ApelA dAgInA hatA te pAchA mAgyA. tyAre kharAba AnatavALA oghaDe kahyu ke, dAgInA kevA ane tenI vAta kevI? kayAre ApyA che ane tenI mAgaNI kare che cAtrA karIne gaLe paDavu te vyAjabI kahevAya ? te dAgInA kAne ApyA che ? alyA bIjA koIne ApyA haze ghaNA divasa thayA tethI bhUlI gayA lAge che Indre kahyuM ke tuM vaLAvavA Avye tyAre taneja ApyA che khIjA kAine ApyA nathI. temaja bhUlI gayeA nathI. mArA jIvana nirvAha te dAgInA upara che mATe bhaleA thaine te dAgInA pAchA mane Apa. ane mitra tarIkenI sAkatA kara.! indre madhura vacana dvArA sArI rIte samajAvyA chatAM te oghaDa mAnyA nahi tyAre pharIyAdIe rAttva pAse jaine vAta karI. rAjAe nyAyAdhikArIne te kesa' sAMkhyA. nyAyAdhikArIe enI jhubAnI lIdhI. AvaDe kahyu ke Izvara prabhunA sAgana pUrvaka me tenA dAgInA lIdhA nathI. chatAM Indra asatya khAlI khoTI rIte phajetI kare che bIjA phAIne ApyA haze ane mArA upara ArApa mUke che nyAyAdhIzee jaNAnI jIkhAnI lIdhI tyAra pachI kahyuM ke koI sAkSo che indre kahyu` ke mAzusa tarIke kAi sAkSI nathI. paNa je kAThInA vRkSa nIce rahIne oghaDane dAgInA ApyA hatA. te jhADa sAkSI rUpe che. vArU tyAre te kAThInA jhADanI eka DALI laI AvI DALA levA gayA ane ghaNI vAra lAgI tyAre elaDane adhikArIe kahyuM ke ghaNA vakhata lAgyuM tuM mArIe jo ke Ave che ke nahi? ghaDe kahyu ke te vRkSa tA ghaNuM dUra che 12 For Private And Personal Use Only

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15% A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita jaldI kyAMthI AvI zake? A pramANe balavAthI tenI cerI pakaDAI gaIcAra tarIke jAhera thayo ane hAMsIpAtra banI Indrane dAgInA pAchA ApavA paDayA. vataniyama je tene hata te AvI dazA thAta nahi. ane hAMsIpAtra banata nahI. 72 krodhAtura banIne mArelA kuhADAne ghA vakhata jatAM davA karavAthI paNa rUjhAya che. vacanane mamabhedaka kuThAra ghA rUjhAtA nathI. A kahevata kaMIka aMze ThIka che. te vacananA ghA rUjhAvAnI davA che, nathI ja. ema nathI. je virodhI thaelanI pAse jaIne aMta:karaNathI mAphI mAge te te ghA paNa rUjhAya che. paraMtu temAM mANasAIne heya te. jarUra mAphI Ape thaela vidhi kare paNa virodhI thayela ati krarAya te kSamApanA karatAM paNa khamAve nahI te banavA joga che paraMtu mANasAI vALA ene mAphI mAgavA bhUlavuM nahIM. ane tenI sAthe kArya karavAmAM sAvadhAnI rAkhavI. kaI eka brAhmaNa ghaNe duHkhI hate. AjIvikA pUratuM paNa gharamAM sAdhana hatuM nahI. patnI parivAra, dhaMdhA mATe dararoja Thapako ApatA. dhaMdhe vyApAra karatAM paNa yatheccha lAbha maLatuM nahI. tethI kaMTALIne eka siMhanI guphA pAse AvyuM. guphA mAMthI siMha bahAra AvIne mArI nAkhaze AvA vicArathI nIDara banIne beThA che. tevAmAM dayA AvavAthI vyaMtara deva. siMhanuM rUpa dhAraNa karIne te brAhmaNanI pAse AvI kahevA lAge. tuM hune dekhIne bhaya pAmatuM nathI. tethI tArApara prasanna thayela chuM. tuM pAcho ghera jA ane dararoja A For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti sthaLethI je seAnA mahArA dekhAya te laIne jIvana vyavahAra caDhAvaje, maraNa pAmavAthI du:kha, kaSTa khasatA nathI. brAhmaNa AzIvAda ApI seAnA mahArA laIne svaghera AvyA, darAja guDhDhA pAsethI pazu adhika seAnA maheArA maLavAthI saMpattimAna anyA ane nyantara-siMhanI upAsanA karatA hAvAthI gADha prIti thaI. eka vakhata sva putranA lagna prasaMge A siMhane AmatraNa ApyuM tame AvazeA tA mArI zeAbhA vadhaze mATe jarUra padhAro, siMhe kahyu` ke mArA AvavAthI hArA sagA vahAlAM. temaja AvelA khIjA mANusA bhaya pAmI nAzI jaze tethI hArI theAlA vadhaze nahI. tenI tame cintA rAkhe nahI. teone sAro rIte samajAvIza. tamAre AvyA vinA cAlaze nahI. tamAre AdhAre te amA sarve sukhI thayA chIe. mATe jarUra mArI sAthe siMhanu rUpa dhAraNa karI padhArA. ati Agraha hAvAthI taradeva siMhanu. rUpa dhAraNa karI te brAhmaNanI sAthe tenA ghera AvyA. 3. pazu tene dekhI svajana varga tathA anya mANasA bhIti lAgavAthI bhAgavA lAgyA, tene nAsatA dekhI kahevA lAgyA ke tameA zA mATe nAzeA che. A sidgha tA kutarA jevA che. bhAgavAnI jarUra nathI, te sAMbhaLI sarve zAMti pAmyA. paNa A siMhane bahu lAgI AvyuM, ke mane kutarA jevA banAvye atre AvyA na hata tA Avu sama vedhaka vacana sAMbhalavAnA vakhata Avata nahi. haze AvyA tA AvI jAvuM. Ama vicArI mauna dhAraNa karIne sva guphAmAM AvyA. khIje divase jyAre seAnAmaDhArA levA mATe : For Private And Personal Use Only

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. A. kIti sAgarasUri racita kahyu ke tAre peAtAne gherathI kuhADA brAhmaNa gayA tyAre laIne Ava ane mArA mAthAmAM mAra pachI seAnAmahArA laI jA, brAhmaNe te mujaba karyu, paDelA ghA e cAra divasAmAM rUjhAI gayA tyAre tene kahyu ke te mArelA kuhADAnA ghA a5divasamAM rUjhAI gayA. paNa hai brAhmaNu ! tArA lagna prasaMge bheLA thaela svajanavaga mAM kutarA tarIke kahyo te vacananA ghA kemaye karIne rUjhAtA nathI. brAhmaNu zaramanA mAryAM melI zakayA nahI. ane punaH punaH mAphI mAgavA lAgyA mArI mhATI bhUla thai che have AvA vacanA mAlIza nahI. ekavAra mahAt mAphI Ape che. jevI prathama avasthAmAM dayA karI ane sukhI sapattimAnU banAvye. have aparAdhI upakAra karI. siMhai udAra vRtti haiAvAthI mAphI ApI. A pramANe ghAne rUjhAvAnI davA-mauSadhi che te pramANe vacananA je ghA hoya tenI pazu rUjhavAnI davA che. antaHkaraNathI punaH punaH mAphI mAge teA A ghA paNu rUjhAya che mATe zastrakrikanA ghAnI davA karI che te pramANe vacananA ghAnI davA karo. . 73 ajJAnI mANasAne kAI mANasa AvIne jema tema khelIne bharamAve tyAre vicAranA tyAga karI anyajanAnA prANAnA nAza karI bese che agara mArAmArI karIne pAte paNa prANAne jokhamamAM nAMkhavA jevI AlIzatA karI bese che. sAdaDI zaheramAM eka vepArInI dukAne hajAmanI strI koi vastu levA AvI ane vepArI sAthe vAtacIta karatI For Private And Personal Use Only

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184 atara jyoti hatI, ane vAta karIne dukAnanI aMdara vepArInA kathana mujaba vastu levA gaI vakhate pAsenI dukAne beThelA sutAre zaMkA lAvI tapAsa barAbara karyA sivAya te strInA pati hajAmane dukAnamAM gaelInI vAta karI. tethI te hajAma krodhAtura banI ekadama AvIne vepArIne astro lagAvI kApI nAMkhe ane pitAne ghera AvI tapAsa karyA sivAya pitAnI strInuM nAka kApI nAMkhyuM. bajAramAM kelAhala macI rahyo. ane pite phejadAranI pAse hAjara thayA. AvA mANase udumita banela hovAthI anya mANasenA kahyA mujaba sAcu mAnI anyanA prANene nAza kare che ane pote pitAnI pAyamAlI karI bese che mATe kaI adekhe mANusa AvIne pitAnA ghara saMbadhI ADuM avaLuM bharamAve agara saMkaTamAM nAMkhavA bIjA mANase saMbaMdhI asatya belI cAlAkI vApare tyAre barobara tapAsa karavAnI jarUra che kAraNa ke jagatamAM evA mANase che ke anyajanenI saMpatti sahana karI zaktA nathI. agara vera virodhAdikanI vasulAta karavA mATe lAga joIne pote kAvA dAvA karIne bIjAone prANenA jokhamamAM lAvI mUkI che mATe khAsa tevA prasaMge krodhAtura anIne utAvaLuM pagaluM bharavuM na joIe ane tapAsa karI pachI je kArya karavuM hoya te karavuM. tethI vyAvahArika kAryomAM sukhazAMti rahe che anyathA Dagale Dagale dakhalagIrI karanAra maLI AvatA hovAthI kaI prakAranI anukulatA rahetI nathI ane pratikulatA upasthita thAya che. samayanA jANakAra DAlA mANasenI AgaLa kaI AvI AvI bhaLatI vAta kahe agara For Private And Personal Use Only

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182 A kIrtisAgarasUri racita te sivAyanI anya vAta kahe te vAtane barAbara sAMbhaLe paNa bhramita banI gabharAya nahI. paNa bhItinI saMbhAvanA heya te prathamathI ja cetIne sAvadhAna bane ane vakhata mujaba vate teja jAna-mAlanuM rakSaNa karI zake. mAne ke bhayane prasaMga AvyuM te vakhate gabharAyate kAMI sujhe nahI. zrA saMkhalapuranA derAsaramAM bahAvaTIA cAra dhA pADIne dAgIne vigere carIne tenA pAse gAmamAM te re dhADa pADavA gayA te vakhate gAmanA leke gabharAvA lAgyA. jema tema bhAgavA lAgyA. eka gharamAM sadhavA bAIne khabara paDI ane pADozIe paNa cetavaNuM ApI tyAre A sadhavA bAI nirbhaya banI sAvadhAna thaIne pitAnA hAthamAMthI balaiyAcUDI kADhI nAkhI jema keI vidhavA bAI hoya tema khuNAmAM besI mALA gaNavA lAgI. pitAnA patine kahyuM ke tame bahAra cAlyA jAo te paNa cAlyA gaye eTalAmAM paisAdAranuM A ghara haze tema jANuM dhADapADuo pahelAM ja A gharamAM peThayA. bAIe kahyuM ke hAlamAM huM vidhavA chuM be traNa mahinAthI khuNAmAM besI mALA gaNyA karuM chuM dhADapADue TelAM ane AgaLa paDelAM hAMllA dekhI ane vidhavAne dekhI kahyuM ke prathama ja AvA gharamAM ApaNe kayAM AvyA. apazukana thayA Ama jANe te gharamAMthI bahAra gayA ane je gabharAyA ane samaya sUcakatA jeoe vAparI nahI. teoe mAra khAdha ane luMTAyA te adhika. mATe tevA prasaMge gabharAvuM nahI. ane samayane oLakhI sAvadhAnI zakhavI ke jethI hita sadhAya che maraNa vakhate paNa je gabha For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 183 rAtA nathI ane nirbhaya banI ISTadevanuM dhyAna dhare che teo lUMTAtA nathI. ane sadgatine pAmI sukha sAmagrInA svAmI bane che. guNavAna putra prathama mAtapitAne vinaya karavA pUrvaka dararoja page lAgI AzIvAda meLave che tethI pAThazALAmAM nizALamAM jatAM zikSakane vinaya karavA samartha bane che te ja bALaka jyAre derAsara-jinamaMdire jAya tyAre tathA saddagurU pAse jAya tyAre rItasara vinaya karI sake che. A pramANe mAtapitAne zikSakane tathA devagurUne vinaya karatAM tenAmAM eTale bALakamAM vivekAdi guNeno nivAsa thAya che. vivekAdi guNenA AdhAre AtmonnatimAM te AgaLa vadhe che. mATe AtmavikAsanA athIoe moTA thaela hoya te paNa vinayAdi guNene bhUlavA joIe nahIM. ke jethI vyAvahArika kAryomAM viSaya kaSAyAdikanA vicAra ane vikAre adhika pramANamAM jora pakaDe nahIM. ane vyavahAramAM malInatA Ave nahI mATe vinayanI jarUra che eka evI kathA saMbhaLAya che. ke zaMkara-pArvatInI pAse temanA putra gaNapati ane skaMdha kArtikeya beThelA che, te arasAmAM kaI eka bhakate amaraphala bheTa tarIke mUkayuM gaNapatie ane bIjA putra, skaMdhe te amRtaphalanI mAgaNI karI. tyAre pArvatIjIe kahyuM ke je putra pRthvInI pradikSaNa pUrvaka aDasaTha tIrthonI yAtrA karI Ave tene A phala ApavAmAM Avaze. kArtikeya je putra hato te mAtapitAne vinaya-page lAgyA sivAya pRthvInI pradakSiNA karavA nika. tyAre vinayazAlI gaNapati pradakSiNA karavA For Private And Personal Use Only

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184 A. kIrtisAgarasUri cita gayA nahI. ane mAtapitAne vinaya pUrvaka pAye lAgI temanI pradakSiNA traNavAra karI. tethI adhika khuzI thaIne te amRtaphala gaNapatine arpaNa karyuM skaMdha, sArI pRthvInI pradakSiNa tathA tIrthonI yAtrA karIne AvyA. ane phalanI mAga karI pArvatIe kahyuM ke tArA pahelA gaNapati AvyA. tethI tene phila ApyuM che. teNe kahyuM ke moTAbhAIne besI rahyA che. gayA nathI. pArvatIjIe kahyuM ke teNe vinaya pUrvaka pAye lAgI amArI pradakSiNA karI che. mAtApitAne vinaya sahita page lAgI traNa vAra je vinayazAlI pradakSiNa kare che temAM pRthvInI tathA tIrthanI pradakSiNA samAya che, te phakata phalanI abhilAvAe vinaya tathA pAye lAgyA vinA pRthvI vigerenI pradakSiNA karI paNa vinaya kare joIe te karyo nahIM. ane gaNapatie karyo tethI ja phala tene ApavAmAM Avela che. mATe prathama vinayAdi guNene zIkhavA joIe. phala te tenI pAchaLa jarUra maLe che. parama prabhu tIrthakara bhagavAne zrIuttarAdhyayana sUtramAM vinayadharmane prathama upadeza Ape che. ke sarva guNemAM vinayaguNanI pradhAnatA che. vinaya vinA guNe AvI zakatA nathI. temaja zobhAspada banatA nathI. mATe ahaMkAra-adekhAIne tyAga karIne vinayamAM tatpara thAo. tamene anubhava paNa che ke vinayazAlI putrAdika ane ziSya vigere dhanAdika tathA jJAnAdikane prApta karavA bhAgyazAlI bane che. paNa je akakaDane abhimAnI hoya che tene maLatuM nathI. are vinacArita karavAthI virodhI ke je vairI che te paNa vera virAdhAphikane tyAga karI zAMti pakaDe che. ane mitrAcAri rAkhe che For Private And Personal Use Only

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185 AMtara ti je mAnave vinayAdikane dhAraNa karatA nathI tene je virodhI heya nahI te paNa virodhI bane che. ane aMTasa rAkhIne koI prasaMge jokhamamAM utAre che. pratikulatA dhAraNa karIne nukazAnI karI bese che. eTale je dhanAdika hoya che. tene gumAvavAno vakhata AvI lAge che. tathA viSaya kaSAyanA AdhAre utpanna thaelI adekhAI paNa khasatI nathI. tethI jIvana paryata zAMti rahetI nathI. te pachI Amannati kyAMthI sadhAya, mATe kaI krodhAtura banI jema tema bole te paNa vinaya vivekane dhAraNa kare paNa bhUla nahI. ekadama tenA sAme thavuM nahI. ekadama tenA sAme bolavuM nahI. A zAMtine prApta karavAnuM satya sAdhana che. 74 anya garIbanuM chInavI-paDAvI levAnI abhilASAvALA ane paDAvI-chInatrI lenAranuM pariNAme bhaluM thatuM nathI. A bhavamAM ke para -bhavamAM atyaMta du:khadAyaka sthiti AvI maLe che. anya garIba upara upakAra kare te dUra rahe paNa apakAra kare te te adhamanuM kArya che. kadAca puNyadaye A bhavamAM bIjAnuM paDAvI laI moja majA-lahera mA paNa te karelA apakAranI bhayaMkaratA gaI nathI bIjA bhavamAM vyAja sAthe tene badale levA hAjara thAya che. eka jAgIdAranI pAse jamIna ghaNI hatI tathA bAga bagIcAmAMthI 'ghaNuM utpanna thatuM. chatAM bAganI pAse rahelI eka bAInI jamInane khUTa, paththarane kakaDo ukheDI nAMkhI cAra-pAMca kara jamIna paDAvI lIdhI. garIba bAIe kahyuM are bhAI! For Private And Personal Use Only

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186 A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita tArI pAse jamInane kayAM te che ke mArI jamInane khUTa ukhADI nAMkhI te jamInane bathAvI pADI. jAgIradAra kahevA lAgyo tuM jamIna kayAMthI lAvI ? mArI jamIna hatI tethI te mUkele khUTa ukhADI nAMkhyo. ane mAre khUTa sthApana karyo. bahu lavAre kara nahI. "jA' sarakAramAM phariyAda kara. garIba bAI phariyAda karavAmAM azakta hatI, pasAra hatA nahI. temaja tenI sAthe vera virodha thAva-te paisAdArane pakSa, prAyaghaNu le. garIbanuM kaI paNa AvA prasaMge thAya nahI. tethI raDatI A bAI kAMI paNa karI zakI nahIM. paNu kama te barAbara khabara le che banyuM evuM ke je khUMTa, jamInadAre, lagAvyuM hatuM. tenI pAse keThInA vRkSa upara rahelA kAThAne levA te khUTamAM nisaraNI TekavIne uMce caDhaye koMThA levA uparanA chellAM pagathIe paga mUke. teTalAmAM nisraNa khasI ane keThAM te hAthamAM AvyA nahI paNa pite lagAvela paththaranA khUTa upara paDe ane mastakamAM vAgyuM. ane te thoDA divasamAM thaelI IjAthI maraNa pApe jamIna paDI rahI. ane hasavA lAgI ke anyanuM paDAvI lenAranI AvI dazA thAya che. mATe dayA rAkhavI ucita che. 75 tamArI pAse paropakAranI sAdhana sAmagrI na hoya te bAdha jevuM nathI paNa bhAvanA to rahelI che ne? dareka prANIonuM kalyANa thAo saMkaTaviDaMbanAo TaLe dekho dUra khase ane sukhI bane. A mujaba bhAvanA bhAvaze te paNa adharmanA mAge For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyaMti 187 gamana karaze nahI. ane bhAvanA malathI pApakAranI sAdhana sAmagrI maLI raheze khIjAone duHkhI karavAnI bhAvanAvALAne sukhazAMti kayAMthI maLe ? anya prANIonuM kalyANu IcchazA tAja tamArUM kalyANa thavAnuM. dareka prANIe sukhanI cAhanA rAkhe che keAIne duHkha pasaMda paDatu nathI. tethI khIjAAne mAratA ke duHkho karatAM peAtAnI evI sthiti upasthita thAya che. eka bAIne DhIkarA-dIkarIonA sArI rIte parivAra hatA ane A khAI jAta mahenatamAM zraddhAvALI hatI tethI rAtrInA chellA paheAramAM jAgrata thavA mATe eka kukaDA rAkhyA. A kukaDA chellA pahAre zabda karIne jagADatA. khAI jAgrata thaI ne potAnI DhIkarIone jagADI pAtAnA gharanA kAmamAM joDatI paNa nidrAmAM dakhala thatI hAvAthI A putrIne khahuM kaMTALA AvavA lAgyA tethI kukaDA upara adekhAI karI tenA ghATa karavA taiyAra thaI. A kukaDA vaDelA Ale che ane mAtA jAgIne amAne jagADI gharanA kAmamAM lagADe che uMgha pUrI levA detI nathI. mATe jo kukaDA mArI nAMkhIce te mAtA vahelI jAge nahI. ane ApaNane jagADI kAme lagADe nahIM sArI rIte nidrA levAya. Ama vicAra karI chAnI rIte kukaDAnA ghATa ghaDI nAMkhyA mAtAne duHkha thayuM. kukaDA khelate hatA tyAre niyamasara uThAtu have niyama rahyo nahI. kadAca rAtrInA bIjA pahAre jAgIne pelI cheAkarIAne jagADI kAma dhaMdhe saMgADatI tethI A chekarIone adhika duHkha thayuM. ane mAMDAmAMhI kahevA lAgI ke A tA karI kADhatAM UMTa peThA jevI dazA thai kukaDAne jIvatA rAkhyA For Private And Personal Use Only

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188 A. kIti sAgararasUri racita hAta tA bahu sArU thAta ? A pramANe khIjAone duHkha ApatAM peAtAne duHkha AvI satAve che. 76 sAMsArika sattA ane sa'pattine svAdhIna karavA mAyA-mamatAmAM magna banela mAnavA ghaNA prayAsa kare che Arbha samArabhanA kAryo karatAM prANIonA nAza karatA pAchu vaLIne jotA nathI. ke A prANIone ghAta karI peAtAnA prANeAne pASa che paNa pAtAnA prANA karyAM sudhI TakavAnA che sAta prakAre rAga-dveSAdinA AdhAre stra prANAnA ghAta thAya che temAM eka kSaNa paNa vadhArI zakAze nahI teA paNa jANe amara paTTo laIne `AvyA hAyanI zuM? tema hu'sA-asatyacArI-jArI tathA vividha kapaTa kalAne kevaLI sattA tathA sapatti vigerene meLavavA mATe mathI rahyA che, paNa dunyavI sattA-sAhyakhI vigere " khIsakAlI "nI mAphaka khasIjatAM vilaMba karatI nathI, jyAre te sa Mpatti vigere khasI jAya che. tyAre teone ghaNu kaSTa sahana karavu paDe che. eka khIsakAlI jAmalInA upara besI tenA phUlane khAtI AnaMdamANI rahelI che. tevAmAM meM khALakA, ramatAM matAM tyAM AvyA ane puMchaDIne paTapaTAvatI ane DacakAzane mAratI rUpALI AkhalIne dekhI, tene svAdhIna karavA lIlAdhara ekarAe pAtAnI bena maMjulAne kahyuM ke, ena dekhatA kharI ? A khalI kevI rUpALI che. ane DacakArA mAratI AnaMdamAM mhAlI che. huM tene pakaDIne kabaje kar For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara pati te baDI majA paDaze ApaNe tene ramADIzuM. ene kahyuM bhAI tuM tene kabaje karavA prayAsa karIza. kAvAdAvA karIza. te pazu pakaDAze nahIM. ulaTuM tane kaSTa paDaze. ane dukhI thaIza. ApaNuM mAtapitAe kahyuM che ke, AvA prANuone pakaDavA nahI. te bhUlI gaya lAge che. bene kahI bInAne avagaNa te "khalIne pakaDavA jAmaphalanA upara caDho. pakaDavA mATe pAsa nAkhe paNa temAM phasAI nahI ane kudIne nAzI gaI. ane jAmaphalInuM DALu bhAgI gayuM. tenA sAthe lIlAdharanI keka tathA hAthapage paNa bhAgyA. A pramANe sattA-saMpatti agara sAhAbInI paNa evI svAbhAvika vRtti rahelI che. tene pAsAo racIne pakaDavA jatAM khasI jAya che ane karelI mahenata mAthe paDe che. je mAnavabhavamAM meLavavAnuM hoya che. te meLavAtuM nathI ane najare dekhatAM dekhatAM khasI janArI sAhAbI-saMpatti khAtara jIvana vRthA gumAya che. A sattA-saMpattine vizvAsa na rAkhatAM je Amika sattA--saMpatti mATe prayAsa thAya te jIvananI sArthakatA saphalatA sadhAya. eka brAhmaNe mane hara menAnA baccAnuM pAlana karI tene moTuM karyuM. ane pAMjarAmAM rAkhI te brAhmaNa, tene e huM A rahI" A pramANe bhaNAvate, tethI kaI bolAve tyAre kahe ke "e huM A rahI. A pramANe belI darekane khuzI kare che. tethI brAhmaNa tathA bIjA ADezI pADozI te menA upara ghaNe prema rAkhe che. keTalAka vaLI jAmaphala-dADama vigere lAvIne mUke che. ane enA beThI beThI khAya che pADe For Private And Personal Use Only

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190 A kIrtisAgarasUri racita zamAM rahenAra eka chokarAne tenA para ghaNuM vahAla hovAthI dADama vigere phala mUkI chAnI rIte tene pakaDI gajavAmAM mUkI. te vakhate tene mAlIka bahAra gayA hatA. te AvIne bAlavA lAgyo. pelA chokarAnA gajavAmAM rahetI menA belI ke, "e huM A rahI" Ama sAMbhaLI chupI rIte cerI karIne gajavAmAM rAkhanAra pelAne be tamAcA mArI menAne grahaNa karI pachI pAMjarAmAM nAkhI. eka samyagajJAnI e bInA dekhIne jANIne menAne pAlanAra brAhmaNane kahyuM ke tuM game tevuM A paMkhInuM pAlana poSaNa kara, paNa tArI gerahAjarImAM bIjAnA hAthamAM javAnI ja, tuM game te prayatna kare paNa raheze nahI. ATale prayatna Atmazakti mATe karyo hota te te AvelI zakti khasI jAta nahI. manahara menA jevI dunyavI sattA-saMpatti bhAse che, paNa puNyanI gerahAjarImAM bIje sthale khasI jAya che. mATe AtmAnA guNane meLave ane piSaNa karo sadAya samIpamAM ja raheze 177 tame niraMtara sukhI rahevA mATe athAga prayAsa karIne dunyavI vastuone meLavaze te paNa sukhI rahevAnI abhilASA purNa thaze nahi adhurI rahevAnI ja. kAraNa ke te vikArI ane banAvaTI sukhanA sAdhane che tamAre te nirvikArI ane asalI sukhanA sAdhane joIe chIe ane meLavyA che ? vikArI. ane banAvaTI te te abhilASA kayAMthI pUrNa karaze? vikArI sAdhane rAga-dveSa adekhAI, mArAmArI karAvI dUra khasI jaIne hAMsI karAve For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti che ane evA prasaMge prANenA jokhamamAM paNa phasAve che. be mitre bajAramAM pharI rahelA che. tevAthAM eka gRhasthanA gaLAmAMthI re tUTI javAthI motIno hAra bhAgamAM sarakI paDe tenI khabara gRhasthane rahI nahI. ane cAlI nIkaLe mArgamAM paDelA hArane be mitroe dekhe be jaNe levA mATe deDyA. temAMthI eka mitre laI lIdho bIje kahevA lAge "mane Apa" jyAre Ape nahI tyAre mitratAne saMbaMdhI visArI bolAbAlI karavA lAgyA. ane mArAmArI upara AvyA. pahelA hAranA metI vIkharAI chUTA paDI gayA ane dhULa bhegA thayA. paNa mArAmArI karatA baMdha paDayA nahI. ane mAthAM nAM kuTayAM. lehI vahevA lAgyuM hAranA mAlIkane khabara paDavAthI pAchA AvI te matIone laI gayo be mitro vilakhA banIne vaidyanI pAse davA karAvA gayA. pIDA thatI hovAthI have bhAna AvyuM ane vaidyane kahyuM ke tuTelA motIne hAra levA jatAM ame laDI paDayA lehIluhANa thayA. kahe amane zuM lAbha thaye? vaidya te A sAMbhaLI peTa pakaDIne hasavA lAgyA temane kahevA lAge ke tamArA mAthAM kuTayAM paNa mane te be rUpiyAne lAbha thaye tamene te mAMthAmAMthI lehI nIkaLyuM te lAbha. be mitro castA karavA lAgyA ke banAvaTI vastu mATe kalaha thaye mArAmArI paNa karI te vastu bIje laI gayA ane maine lAbha thayo. 78 lAlaca burAmAM burI che sagAvahAlAmAM vera virodha karAvI tathA mArAmArI karAvIne khasI jAya che For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIti sAgarapara mita ane bIjAe lAbha uThAve che tyAre pUrepUrA pastAva thAya che. mATe lAlacane tyAga karavA jarUrI che. lAbha dekhAtA hAya tA paNa paDelI-bhUlI gaelI vastuo peAtAnA hAthamAM Ave tA tenA mAlIkane zeAdhI ApavI joie paNa svAcIna karavAnI icchA karavI nahI. keTalIka vakhate cAra lAke lAlaca matAvI tathA lAlacamAM nAMkhI ghaNuM laI le che. tevA prasa'ge sAvadhAna rahevu. nahItara gAyA cAranAra zevALano mAphaka bane. eka dhanADhaya zeThane ghaNI gAyA hatI, zeTha mAnatA hatA ke A nAnI gauzALA, vejo nAme gAvALa A gAyAnI kharAkhara sabhALa rAkhatA ane zeThanA gharamAM mhoTA thaela DhAvAthI gharanA parivAra paNa tenA upara prema rAkhatA gAyA vagaDAma caratI caratI bahu dUra jatI hovAthI karye sthale carI rahelI che tenI khabara paDe te mATe dareka gAyAnA gaLAmAM zeThane kahIne phruTa badhAvyA. ane te gAyAmAM bahu dudha ApanArI ane hRSTa puSTa gAyanA gaLAmAM eka mhoTA ghaMTa manAvyA. eka vakhata Avejo gAyA carAvI rahela che tevAmAM eka dhRta mhATA ghaTa vALI gAyane dekhI ane cArI javAnI yukti racIne mahATI AyanA gaLAmAM rahela ghaTanI keTalI kiMmata ApI che. vejAe kahyuM ke cAra rUpiyA ApIne AMdhyA che. zrUte kahyu ke tane Ara rUpiyA ApuM jo A ghaTa mane Ape teA vejA gAvALe, lAlacamAM lalacAI te ghaTa ApyA ane rUpiyA AAra lIdhA. paNa te maheTI gAya caravA mATe ghaNI dUra gaI. tenI khakhara paDI nahI pelA pUta, te caratI gAyane lai gayA tapAsatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti Re ghaNI kara paNa kayAMthI khabara paDe jo ghaTa hota teA avA jathI mAluma paData, me mUkhe mhoTI bhUla karI lAlacamAM ghaTane vecyuMA, zeThane saghaLI vAta kahI ane rUdana karavA lAgyA have rUdana kara nahI. khIjIvAra lAlacamAM paDIza nahIM. 79 lAlaca lAbhanI putrI che. ane lAbha sarva vinA zanu kAraNa che. sarve pApA o thatA hAya tA leAbha-lAlacathI thAya che. mATe havethI pApa bhIrU anI lAlacamAM paDIza nahI. ane satASAdi dhAraNa karIne vana rAkhaje A pramANe zeThanI zIkhAmaNanI vejA geAvALane sArI rIte asara thai. lAlacanA tyAga karI sukhI thayA. A pramANe samakiti zrAvaka, lAbha lAlacanA tyAga kare tA sAcA sukhanI vAnagI maLatI rahe ane kalahu kaMkAzAkrika thAya nahI ane samyaktva sAthe dhAraNa karelA vrata niyamanI satA thAya. ane uttarAttara AtmavikAsamAM AmaLa vadhIne anaMta sukhanA svAmI bane. paraMtu lAbha lAlacamAM lapaTAya tA samakti sAthe dhAraNa karelA trata niyamAne naSTa karanAra krodha-mAna-mAyA-adekhAirUpI kutarA ane ekaDAe AvIne praveza kare ane sAcu dhana samakti sAthe vrata niyamAnA nAtha karavAmAM bAkI rAkhe nahI. kAraNu ke leAbha-lAlaca e sa pApAne AvavAnA khullAM kharaNAM hoya te kutarA-mekaDA pese emAM Azcarya nathI ja mATe te moTA bAraNAne madha rAkhavA sadA upayAga rAkhavA te Avazyaka che. jo lAla lAlacanA AraNAM khullAM rAkhaze te eka khAInI mAphaka pastAvA 13 For Private And Personal Use Only F

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri carita thaze. ane bhAre nukazAnImAM AvI paDAze. eka zeThanI patnI hatI te rUpALI paraMtu jyAre bahAra jatI tyAre gharanA bAraNAne baMdha karavAnuM vArevAre bhUlI jatI. zeTha tene punaH punaH baMdha karIne javAnuM kahetA-paNa mAnatI nahI. ane kahetI ke. bhara vastImAM cAra vigere zuM pesI jAya che. ke vArevAre kahyA kare che. zeTha kahIne thAkayA-pachI kaMTALIne kahevAnuM mUkI dIdhuM. eka dI A bAI potAnA gharanI pAse rahelA piyaranA sagAM vahAlAM sAthe vAta cita karavA gaI, paNa bAraNA baMdha karyA nahI tevAmAM piLamAM bhamatA-kutarA ane bekaDAone gharamAM pisalAne lAga maLe ane praveza karIne je rAMdheluM hatuM te tathA roTalI roTalA save khAI gayA. ane khAIne pAchA haMgyA ane mUtrIne caDhayA meDI upara. mALamAM ArisAe je rahelA hatA temAM teone paDachAye paDaze. te kutarA bekaDAo bhramita banI amArI sAme bIjA AvyA che. ema mAnI bhasavA lAgyA punaHpunaH zIMgaDA jerathI mAravAthI ArIsAo bhAgI gayA ane kutarAo zera bakera karavA lAgyA. zeThANI vAta cita karIne piyaramAMthI pitAne ghera AvIne jue che te badhuM ramaNa bhamaNa thaela dekhyuM. rasoI paNa kharAba thaela ane asta vyasta paDelI dekhI tathA upara rahelA kutarAonuM bhasavAnuM sAMbhaLI tathA ArisAone bhAMgI nAMkhanAra bekaDAone dekhI ghaNe pastA karavA lAgI teTalAmAM zeTha cauTAmAMthI vaghera AvyA. thaela kharAbIne dekhI tathA pastA karatI patnIne dekhIne kahevA lAgyuM ke cAra te peThA nahI. paNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti kutarA bekaDA gharamAM praveza karIne kharAba karI nAMkhI ArIsAone bhAMgI nAkhyA mATe have jyAM javuM hoya tyAre bAraNuM baMdha karIne javuM ke jethI AvI kharAbI ane nuka, zAnI thAya nahI. bIjIvAra raDAne sApha karIne rasAI karavI paDI. tyAre khAvAne vakhata malyo. zeTha samatA rAkhI jamIne coTAmAM gayA patnI A je kheDa hatI te bhUlI gaI have te jyAM javuM hoya tyAre bAraNuM baMdha karIne jAya che. A pramANe are bhAgyazAlIe tame paNa lebha lAlacanA bAraNuM baMdha karavA pUrvaka vyavahAranA kAryo karavAnuM bhUlatA nahI. tame paNa pApane AvavAnA bAraNA baMdha karaze nahI te krodhAdika kutarAo sabhya darzana-jJAna cAritrAdikane nAza karaze mATe AvavAnA bAraNuM baMdha karavA jarUrI che. 80 keI paNa mANase jANI zake nahI. evAM taddana chAnA karelA pApe A bhavamAM paNa atyaMta mAyaka thAya che. te vakhate lAkhamAM kaI bhAga paDAvI zakyuM nathI. pitAne ja bhogavavA paDe che mATe gupta karelA pApothI khuzI thaI malakAo nahI. jAlamasiMha nAme rajapUta rAjAne rIsAladAra hato tene eka paThANe kaI paNa mANasa jANI zake nahI tevA gupta sthale khaMjara mArIne lohIluhANa karIne te nAzI gaye jAlamasiMha ghaNe ghAyala thaela hevAthI maraNa pAme rAjAe te paThANane pakaDavA mATe ghaNI tapAsa karAvI paNa te pakaDAye nahI. jAlamasiMhanA putra harisaMgane tenI mAtAe bhaNAvI gaNAvIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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1296 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita pravINa anAce. vIza varSoMnA harisaMgane huMziyAra jANI rAjAe tenA pitA jAlamasihunI jagyAe sthApana karI rIsAladAra banAnyA harisaMga cAra pAMca mitro sAthe gALI khAra karavA gADha jaMgalamAM gayA. nizAna tAke che tevAmAM eka gALI te jagalamAM gupta rahelA vRddha mANusane kharAkhara chAtImAM vAgI. tethI teNe bUma pADI. harisaMga tyAM AvIne pastAvA karavA lAgyA ane rUdana karavA lAgyA tyAre pelA vRddhe kahyuM ke are harisaMga tu rUdana kara nahI. gupta karelA pApe| A bhavamAM paNa vipAka Ape che A jagyAe tArA pitAne mArI nAMkhanAra huM paThANu chuM. karelA pApAthI bhale pachI pakaDAyA nahI. paNa pApe ane pakaDI lIdhA ane A jagyAe ja tArI gALI vAgI. have mane khabara paDI ke chAnAM karelAM pA| koine paNu chADatA nathI. bhale pachI rAjA-mahArAjA hAya ke deva dAnava DhAya, te paNa tene atyaMta saMkaTo viDaMbanAone bhAgavavAnA samaya AvI lAge che tameAe jANyuM ke jAlamasi'hune mArI nAMkhanAra paThANunu paNa teja sthale maNu thayu mATe jAhera agara gupta pApa karatAM pAchA haThI. . 81 chaLa prapaMca karIne bhegA karelA paisAnA pApA paNa A bhavamAM sukhethI rahevA detA nathI. duHkha dAyI sthitimAM lAvI mUke che. keTalAka khoTI sAkSI purI, ke bIjAnI thApaNa oLavI- agara kapaTa kalAne keLavI paisA-dhanAdikane meLavI meAjamajA kare che. paraMtu jevA mAge AvyA tevA mAge khasI jAya che ane pApanu phUla peAtAne bhAgavavu paDe che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara yAti 190 koi eka gAmamAM leAbhI vANIyA rahetA te jAte vaheArA hAvAthI vividha prakAranA vepAra karatA hiMsA karavAmAM kuzaLa hAi zarIra mAMsAdika khAvAthI laSTa puSTa hatA. tathA sAcAnu juThThuM' ane juThAnuM satya sArI rIte karatA kAI kahevA jAya tyAre mArAmArI upara AvatA ane vepAra karatAM jyAre khATa AvatI tyAre agni lagADI nAdArI laIne devALuM kADhatA gharamAM lAkhA rUpiyA chAnA rAkhIne kahetA mArI pAse vAlanI vI'TI paNa nathI. nAdArI lIdhelI hAvAthI leNadAranuM jora kAMI cAlatuM nahI. tethI manamAM khuzI thatA ane pAMca-cha mahinA gayA pachI khIjAnA nAme dukAna pAte calAvatA paNu karelA pApA kayAM gupta rahe che. ! arthAt chAnAM rahetA nathI. pApAphreMce banyuM evuM' ke gharamAM ja mIna upayAgathI hrAya lAgI. tenA bujhAvavA mATe dukAnane aMdha karyA vinA ghara tarapha nAThA eka bAju dukAnamAM gallAmAM pAMcA chaAA rUpiyA che ane ughADI rahelI tIjorImAM daza-khAra hajAranI nATA che tevAmAM eka vAMdarA dukAnamAM rahela mevA khAvA peDhayA. mevA tA khAdhe paNa tIjorImAM rahelI neATA pakaDI phADI phADIne TukaDA karavA lAgyA ane bahAra phagAvIne pAchA gallAmAM rahelA rUpIyAne paNa mUThI bharIne mAgamAM noMkhavA lAgyA. mAga mAM paDelA rUpIyAone laIne leAka nAzI gayA. te vaheArA AvIne dukAnamAM rahelA vAMdarAe karelI nukazAnIne dekhI pAka mUkavA lAgyA taddana pAgala jevA anyA. karela pApa phaLyA vinA rahetu nathI. mATe dagA-prapaMcane mUkI pramANika bane. 22 keTalAka manuScAne be jaNA chAnI vAtA karatAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIti sAgarasUri racita hAya te vAtane sAMbhaLavAnI Teva hAvAthI gupta rIte sAMbhaLe che. paNa be jaNA dhImethI vAta karatA hAvAthI pUrI vAta sAMbhaLavA zaktimAna banatA nathI. aDadhI vAta paNa zravaNu karI ke na karI te upara zakAtura, khanI ema ja mAnI bese che ke A be jaNuA. mArI ja vAtA kare che. tethI dveSa-pedane pAraNu karavA pUrvaka pote jAte ja duHkhI thAya che. jo ke vAta karanArane sukhe kahI zakatA nathI paNa manamAM khakhaDayA kare che. AvAne cintA jevuM hAya nahI teA paNa pote jete ja cintAone utpanna kare che. tethI cintAnA pAra AvatA nathI. pAte DhASita DAya nahI chatAM doSita mane che. kAI kahe ke, chAnI vAtane zravaNa karavAnI Teva rAkhe che. te dUra karavA jevI che. tA paNa mAne nahI. paNa kAi evA prasaMga AvI lAge che ke jIMdagImAM A khADa bhUlI jAya. sAdhana sapanna eka zeThanI pAse AvI eka sevAbhAvI, gheADAnA tabelAmAM te zeThane nirAdhArane sahakAra ApavA saMbadhI vAta karatA hatA, te arasAmAM pADAzamAM rahetA pADAthI chAnemAne AvIne tamelAnI pAchaLanI bhIMtamAM chupAi khArImAM AvatA zabdane sAMbhaLatA hatA tevAmAM te vAta ne peAtAnA sadhI. vAta kare che ema mAnI dveSa ane kheda karavA lAgyA ane manamAM khakhaDavA lAgyA. ADu avaLu jotAM gheADAnA takhelAmAM rahelI agAi kAnamAM pesI gaI tathA bhIMta upara lAgela madhapuDAnI mAkhIe AkhA zarIra cAMTIne DaMza deba For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti lAgI. adhurAmAM purUM te sthaLe rahela vIMchI page karaDe. pelAe kAramI cIsa pADI. zeThane sevAbhAvI doDI AvyA. te upakAra ane upacAra karavAthI kAnamAMthI bagAine kADhI. mAMkhIne dUra karI paNa vIMchInI vedanAe barAbara khabara lIdhI. be dIvase vedanA zamI. have A bhAI chAnI vAta sAMbhaLavAnI "khe bhUlI gayA. zeThe puchayuM. tabelAnI pAchaLa kema AvyuM hatuM? teNe kahyuM ke tamArI chAnI vAta sAMbhaLavA khAtara Avyo paNa zaMkAtura banela hovAthI jema tema pharavA lAgyuM. teTalAmAM A viDaMbanAe hAjara thaI zeThe kahyuM ke tArI vAta nahitI paNa keI eka nirAdhArane madada karavAnI hatI. mATe zaMkA lAvIza nahIM. ane dveSa khedAdikane dhAraNa karIza nahI. ame keInI bhale pachI doSita hoya te paNa TIkA ke vAta karatA nathI. A sAMbhaLI zaramI banI pitAnI Tevane dUra karavA prayAsa karavA lAgyA. A Teva paNa gaI. mATe "jyAM be jaNa vAta kare chAnI tyAM ubhA na rahevuM" A nIti kAvya satya che. tethI zAMti rahe che. vikalpa saMkalpa bahu thatA nathI. sukhane A paNa mArga che. beyane dhAraNa karanAra te potAnI vAte ke karatA hoya te paNa zakAtura banatA nathI. temaja kaSa khedAdikane dhAraNa karatA nathI bhalene teo vAto kare. Ama hiMmata rAkhI pitAnI sabhyatAne cUkatA nathI. tethI tene rItasara zAMti rahe che. ane tenA para anya jane AdarabhAva rAkhe che For Private And Personal Use Only

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200 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita keI eka dhanADhaya, nirAdhAra nirAzrita mANasane anAjanA roTalA banAvI bapore ApatA ane kahetA ke tame A TepalAmAMthI eka eka roTale laIne javuM, ghaNA nirAdhAro AvIne paDApaDI karIne eka eka reTa laIne jatAM tyAre eka nirAdhAra karI dUra rahI dhIraja rAkhI chevaTe vadhele nAne jeTalo laIne bhUkhyA mAta pitAne ApatI. zeThane chellI dhIraja rAkhIne ubhI rahetI A chokarIne dekhI tenA upara saddabhAva AvavAthI chellA nAnA roTalAmAM senAmahore naMkhAvI pelA utAvaLIAo roTalA laIne gayA pachI bAkI rahela nA reTa laIne mAtapitAne arpaNa karyo roTalo bhAgatAM sonAmahore nIkaLI. tene pAchI ApavA cheDIne mokalI zake kahyuM ke, jA pAchI laI jA. tArI dhIrajane dekhI meM arpaNa karI che. A pramANe sAMbhaLI khuzI thaIne svaghera AvI mATe dhIraja rAkhavAnI jarUra che. 83 udAra banI nirAdhAra dukhI mANasene anna pANI devAthI tathA sadaguNajanene madada karavAmAM parigraha je meLavyuM tenI sArthakatA ane saphalatA thAya che. parigrahane dhAraNa karI je mamatA mUccha rAkhavAmAM Ave te te parigraha kaleza kaMkAzanuM kAraNa banI vividha viDaMbanAo upasthita kare che. tethI zakaya sahakAra sahAre ApavA prayatnazIla banavuM. pAdiye nirAdhAra banavAne prasaMga AvI lAge tathA saMkaTa Ave tyAre je madada sahAro Apela hoya te tamane sahAre agara zakaya madada maLI zake, koI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 201. vakhate e prasaMga Ave che ke jene duHkhI avasthAmAM madada karI nathI tenI pAse mAgaNa madadanI karavAne samaya Ave che. eka dhanADhaya bapore jamavA beThe che. vividha rasavatI khAI rahela che. te vakhate be traNa divasane bhUkhyA mANasa AvIne bhejananI mAgaNI karavA lAgyo. ke traNa divasathI mane khAvAnuM maLyuM nathI mATe thoDu khAvA Ape te zakti Ave ane dhaMdhe lAguM. tAva AvatuM hovAthI majurI mahenata banI zakI nathI. mATe peTapuratuM agara tamArI IcchA mujaba alapa paNa Ape. A zravaNa karI dhanADhaye ekadama kudIne kahyuM ke ! tArA mATe A raseI banAvI che zuM.? jA, jA, dUra khasI jA, kaI paNa maLaze nahI. mAgaNI karanAra majU2ne keI dayALue peTa bharIne khavarAvyuM. zakti AvI dhaMdhe vaLagyA. dhaMdho karatA bhAgyAnusAre paisAdAra banyA. A mANase lAkaDAne vepAra karatA hovAthI zukA lAkaDA kapAvavA mATe jaMgalamAM bhAta pANIne laIne gayA che tevAmAM dhanADhaya zeThanI lAkheNuM ghaDIne cAra laI gayA che. tethI tene zodhavA mATe A jaMgalamAM paribhramaNa karI rahela che. baporane tApa prakhara tapI rahela hovAthI zeThane tRSA ane kSudhA ghaNuM satAvI rahela che paribhramaNa karavAthI thAka paNa ghaNe lAge che. tevAmAM je bhejana mATe mAgaNI karanArane dekhe ane pANI tathA khAvAnI mAgaNI karI hatI teNe dhUtakArIne kADhI mUkanAra zeThane oLakhe ane kahyuM ke khasa khase atrethI tamArA mATe bhAta-pANI lAvyA nathI. zeThe kahyuM ke are bhAI tane meM oLakhI lIdhe tuM jyAre nirAdhAra avasthAmAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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22 A. kItisAgarasUri racita khAvAnI mAgaNI karI bhejana hovA chatAM paNa tane thoDuM paNa AkhuM nahI ane dhUtakArI kADhI mUke te meM te vakhate sAruM karyuM nahI. atyAre pastA karuM chuM ane mAphI mAguM chuM. A mujaba sAMbhaLI teNe zeThanI pAse phaLAdika tathA pANIne bhale ghaTa mukIne kahyuM ke sukhe yatheccha phaLAdika khA ane pANI pIve zeThe zaramIMdA banIne khAdhuM ane pIdhuM tene upakAra mAnI vicAra karyo ke, huM mATe ke bhAtu pANI ApanAra mATe? havethI keIpaNa AMgaNe AvelAne nirAza kare nahI. yathAzakita sahAro Apa dhanAdika hete zA mATe kRpaNutA karavI duniyAmAM nItizAstranuM lakhAyuM che ke ana-pANI ane madhura vANI A traNa ratna che jeNe madhura vANa pUrvaka ana-pANIne sahAre Ave teNe traNa rane ApavA samAna che tRSAturane khIssAmAM rahelA ratna vigere tRSAne maTADatI nathI. temaja kSudhA balavatI lAgI hoya tyAre khIsAmAM rahela ratna-sonA mahere agara karansI noTe sudhAne khaseDatI nathI. te vakhate madhura vacana pUrvaka mUkela annapANI jIvanamAM prANene sateja kare mATe anna-pANI ane madhura vANanuM dAna dIdhA karI zakti hete paNa je anAdi traNa ratna ApIne jIvanamAM prANene sateja karatA nathI teone keI prasaMge sahAre maLatuM nathI anukaMpA dAnane kaI paNa zAstramAM niSedha nathI tethI mANase sArA nimitto maLatAM dharma pAmI sadAcArAnuM pAlana karI sadgatinuM bhAjana bane che. 84 hajAra-lAkho rUpiyAnuM dAna karanAra dhanikanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara joti 204 karatAM sarvasvanuM dAna karanAra garIba sArA bhAvathI vadhAre mATe che. potAnI pAse ghaNuM dhana hoya temAMthI amukAze dAna denAra dhanADhaye ghaNuM maLI Avaze paraMtu sarvasvanuM dAna ApanAra virala hoya che. tethI te dhanADhaya karatAM mATe kahevAya che. sadUbhAva sivAya dAna karanAra garIba je nahI hovAthI sadabhAvanI apekSAe mahAna gaNAya nahIM. dareka dhArmika dAnAdi kriyAmAM bhAvanI pradhAnatA che sadubhAva pUrvaka sarvasavanuM dAna denArane A bhavamAM temaja parabhavamAM yatheccha lAbha maLI Ave che. bale pachI dAna, bahu a5 kIMmatanuM hoya paNa bhAva ghaNe hovAthI te dAna, amulya gaNAya che. zrImAna zAlIbhadra tathA zrImAn dhanya kumAre prathama bhavamAM mahAvratadhArI tapasvI munivayane pAraNumAM khIranuM dAna karyuM hatuM paNa khIranuM dAna detI vakhate bhAva eTalo badhe. hate. ke pitAnI bhukhanuM paNa bhAna rahyuM nahIM. saghaLI khIra vaharAvI. tethI bhAvanA AdhAre aDhaLaka saMpattinA svAmI banyA. te saMpatti parivAra ane vigerene tyAga karI munirAja banyA. tapasyA samatA bhAve karela hovAthI anuttara sarvArtha siddha vimAne deva tarIke thayA. mATe bhAvanI apekSAe sarvasvanuM dAna denAra garIba mahAna che "zrImAna udayana maMtrI pitAnI AgaLakarelI pratijJAnuM pAlana karavA zrI zatruMjayane punarUddhAra karavAnI pUrNa ane pavitra bhAvanAthI taLeTI AgaLa paDAva tAo, nagaramAM tathA gAmomAM rahenAra dhanADhayene khabara For Private And Personal Use Only

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204 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita paDI ke, vAg bhaTTa mahAmatrI zatruMjayanA punarUddhAra karavA tatpara anyA che tethI teo A pavitra kAya mAM puNyanA bhAgI banavA mATe pAlItANA AvyA. ane zakti mujama keAIe hajAra daza hajAra tathA koi dhanike karADApati hAvAthI lAkha rUpiyA TIpamAM bharAvyA. te vakhate bhImajI karIne zrAvaka hatA tene pazu TIpamAM zakaya rUpiyA bharavAnI bhAvanA thaI paNu pAtAnI pAse rUpiyA hatA nahI. muDInA eka rUpiyAnA AdhAre ghInA vepAra karatA. khahAra gAmanA DIAe Avela hAvAthI ghInI sAthe pAtAnA bhAva vadhyA. eka rUpiyAnA azvika lAbha thayA tethI zrImAn vAgbhaTTamaMtrojInI pAse AvI TIpamAM eka rUpaiyA bharAvavAnI bhAvanA darzAvI. maMtrIjIe pUchyuM. tamArI pAse keTalI milkata che bhIme kahyu` ke ekaja rUpiyAnI che. puNyavA heArA lAkhA TIpamAM bharAve che. te jANI mArI bhAvanA vadhe che mATe A rUpiyA lai mArI bhAvanA pUrI karA. tenI bhAvanA ane sarvasva dAnanI kadara karI TIpamAM tenuM prathama nAma lakhyu. tethI dhanADhayA nAkhuza banyA ane kahevA lAgyA ke Ama kema karyuM* ? mahAma'trIjIe kahyu ke tamArI pAse je sa'patti che. temAMthI zatAMza bhAge tamAe A puNyanA kAmAM arpaNa karI nathI. ane suMdara bhAvanAvALA A bhImajI zrAvake saghaLI milkata muDI apaNu karela che. tA tamArA sarvemAMthI vadhAre bhAvanAvAnuM kANu ? pAtAnI AjIvikAnI darekAra karyA vinA tenI muDI eka rUpiyAnI hatI te ApaNu karI. tethI tenuM nAma prathama lakhyuM. zeThIA paNa zANA hAvAthI khuzI thayA. bhImAjI peAtAne ghera AvI strapatnIne saghaLI For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara yAti 205 nA kahI. teNIe paNa khuzI thaI ne anumedanA karI. adhika bhAvanA pUrvaka karela dAna tatkAla phaLe che sAMjare gAyane mAMdhavA mATe khIlAne khAdatAM jhaverAtanA bharelA kaLaza nikaLye te paNa laIne ApaNu karavA gayA. paNa maMtrIe kahyu ke tArA bhAgyanu che tArI bhAvanA tatkAla phaLI. amAre puratuM dhana AvI mahyu che. mATe pAchA kaLaza laI jA. adhiSThAyaka deva kapaTTI yakSe pragaTa thaIne kahyu ke tArUM puNya vadhyuM. mATe laine ghera jA tethI bhImajI zrAvaka-sukhI thaye dAnAdika puNya karIne sadgatinuM bhAjana thayeA mATe sadbhAvanA pUrvaka alpa Apela dAnathI mahAna manAya che. * ekalA dhanAdikathI mahAn manAtu nathI. TekIlA mANusA vyavahArika kArTamAM jema TekanA tyAga karatA nathI tema dhArmika kAryomAM paNa lIdhelI Teka zraddhAne vividha lAlaca ApanAra maLe tA paNa cheDatA nathI kahevAya. che ke je rAkhe Teka, tene maLe aneka 5 'tu je Teka zraddhAne rAkhatA nathI tenI pAse kAI sajjana AvatA nathI tenA upara koi vizvAsa dhAraNa karatA nathI. saMbhaLAya che ke mAravADI eka zeTha - amadAvAda jevA zaheramAM mATA vepAra kare che hajAro rUpiyAnA mAla kharIddha karavA pUrvaka yathecchabhAva Ave tyAre vecIne hajAro-lAkhA rUpiyAnI kamANI kare che ekadAlAkha rUpiyAnA taiyAra mAla kharIdyo paNa tenA bhAva esI gayA. tethI te mAla vecI zakAyA nahIM. ane jenI pAsethI mAla lIdhA che. te AvIne muddata purI thatAM rANI vAre vAre kare che muddata mujaba nANA je cUkavAya nahI teA Ama For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgari cita rUne dhakako paheMce gharanA ghareNAM gIra mUkAya te paNa pratikAnI hAnI thAya che tethI eka suMdara peDhInI pAse jaIne lAkha nANAnI mAgaNI karI. peDhInA zeThe kahyuM ke kAMIka gIra mUke te nANuM ApuM. A zeTha baDA kuzaLa hatA tema mAravADI zeTha paNa TekIle hatuM tethI kahyuM ke ghareNAM te mukI zakuM ema nathI, paNa mArI muchane eka vALa gIre tarIke mUkuM chuM. Ama kahIne eka vALa teDI Ape.pravINa peDhInA zeThe kahyuM ke A vAMke chemAravADI zeThe kahyuM ke vALa vAMke paNa mAhe A pramANe kahevAthI TekIle jANI IcchA mujaba rUpiyA ApyA te laIne je devuM hatuM ke cUkavyuM A bInA bajAramAM jAhera thaI tethI bIje dhUrta AvIne nANu mAgavA te peDhInA zeThanI pAse Avye zeTha gIre mUkavAnuM kahyuM tyAre ThagArAe mUchane vALa cUMTIne Ape zeThe kahyuM ke, A vALa te vAke che. tyAre bIje cUMTIne Ape. tene paNa vAMke kaho A mujaba aDadhI mUchanA vALa, cUMTIne ApyA tethI zeTha dhUrta jANuM dhakelo mUkyuM ane kahyuM ke tane mUchanA vALanI kiMmata nathI te AbarUnI kiMmata kayAMthI haze ? ThagAre dekhAya che. jene mUchanI vALanI kiMmata che. tene ja AbarU pratiSThAnI kiMmata hoya, A ThagAre mastakane khate cAlyo gaye. ane kAMI maLyuM nahI. ane Thaga tarIke jAhera thaze. tene koIe vizvAsa rAkhe nahI. AvA mANasene nItinyAya ke dhArmika kAryomAM Teka hoya kayAMthI? hAlamAM ghaNuM mANase mUche rAkhatA nathI tethI teomAM Teka haze ke nahI hoya te zaMkA te thAya ja, pachI bhale zeThIyA hoya ke veThIyA hAya. mAravADI zeTha te TekIle For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara ti, 207 havAthI be traNa mahinA pachI bhArI rAkhelA mAlane bhAva vacce. tethI zeThane bamaNe lAbha thaye. vyAja sAthe nANA laIne peDhInA mAlIka zeThanI pAse AvI devuM cUkate karyuM. tyAre zeThe kahyuM ke kaI evA prasaMge jarUra paDe tyAre sukhethI rupiyA levA Avaze-tamane jarUra nANuM ApavAmAM Avaze. mAravADI zeThanI AbarU vadhI. dareka mANase tenA para vizvAsa rAkhavA lAgyA. A mAravADI zeTha jevA vyavahAramAM TekavALA hatA tevAja dharmanI ArAdhanAmAM TekIlA hatA. dharmanI ArAdhanAmAM je TekavALA hoya che. te vyavahAranA kAryomAM TekIlA levA joIe te ja dharmanI ArAdhanA phalavatI bane che. dharmanItinI ArAdhanA karatAM vyavahAramAM eTale khAnagI jIvanamAM anAcArI, vyabhicArI bane to te ArAdhanA kulavatI banatI nathI mATe jAheramAM temaja khAnagImAM tathA vyavahAramAM ke dharmamAM sadAcArane bhale joIe nahI. te ja jIvananI unnati thAya che keTalAka evA mAluma paDe che. jAheramAM dhArmika jevA dekhAya che. paNa khAnagImAM zanya jevA hoya che. tevAne kevA mAnavA? sudeva-sugurU ane sudharmamAM je bhAgyazAlIone zraddhA- Teka rahelI che ane temanA saddaguNAmAM jJAna pUrvaka pyAra pUrNa rahela che te game te jAti kulane temaja samAja sasudAyane heya te paNa teone sadvicAra ane vivekanI prApti thAya che tenI prAptinA ge jANavA lAyaka je vastu hoya tene jANe che ane meLavavA lAyaka hoya tene meLavavA mATe samartha ane pachI tyAgavA lAyaka je hoya tene tyAga karI For Private And Personal Use Only

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8 A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita zake che sad vastune jANyA vinA tathA tene meLavyA sivAya tyAgavA lAyakanA tyAga thavA azakaya che duniyAmAM e vastuo rahelI che eka AtmA, mIjI jaDa vastu te e pakI je sadeva-gurU ane sudharmanI zraddhA pUrvaka je bhAgyazAlIoe ArAdhanA karo che te mahAzaye peAtAnA tathA paranA AtmAne oLakhI zake che peAtAnA AtmAne sayama-saMvara pUrNAMka je dravya guNa ane paryAyathI pIchAnA zake che te paranA AtmAne rItasara jANI kema na zake? avazya jANI zake che eTale rAga-dveSa ane mAhAdika te mahA bhAgyacAlIethI khasatA jAya che paraMtu jemAne zraddhA-prema nathI teo sudevAdikanA sadUganAA jANyA sivAya svaparanA AtmA kevI rIte oLakhI zake? oLakhavA azakaya bane che mATe suvAdikamAM zraddhA prIti rAkhI. Adara-samakti pUrNAMka rahelA guNAne grahaNa karI pachI svaparanA AtmAMnI ALakhANu thatAM pAnAnA rAga-dveSAdrikathI utpanna thatAM saMkalpa vikalpe tarapha najara paDavAnI, tethI anaMta zaktimAnlR AtmAnI sRSTinA ge sAMsArika sukha vilAseAnI je Asakti che TaLavAnI ja are manuSya jevA manuSya anI mANasAIne sala karavA potAnA DhASA tarapha najatA karA anya sthale pari bhramaNa karatI dRSTine devAdikanA guNAmAM tathA pAtAnA AtmAnA guNeAmAM sthira karA sthira thatAM ananya sukhanA svAmI banaze. saMsAranA nAzavata padArthomAM dRSTine ana tavAra noMkhI tethI tamArI cintAe vikhanA TaLI che ke vadhI che ? tenA vicAra karI tethI cintA, valApAta, vikA khA For Private And Personal Use Only

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Datara jAti haze nahIM paNa vadhyA haze. te pachI A merA manuSyabhavamAM AtmA zivAya anyatra daSTIone nAMkhatA te cittA vi. banAo TaLavAnI ke ? nahI khase te jarUra mAnaje. teonA yege jama jarA maraNanA asahA saMkaTe hAjara thavAnA te vakhate saMkaTa vigere TALavAne ekeya upAya sUjhaze nahI mATe gaI gujarIne visarI jaIne AthI jete ane sudevAdikanA guNemAM tathA AtmAnA doSone dUra karI guNemAM daSTine sthira kare apUrva pratibhAne ughADa thaze sAthe sAthe apUrva AnaMdanI laherIe AvIne upasthita thaze. keInI sAthe vera, virodha, mAyA, mamatAdhi raheze nahI. tathA anAdikAhAnA zaga dveSa mahAdikanA baMdhanathI je parAdhInatA che te khasatI jaze. ane sAthe sAthe avataMtratA AvIne maLaze kanyavI padArtho ne kaSTa sahana karI meLavaze te paNa je anAdikAlanI je parAdhInatA rahelI che te khasavAnI nahI ja le to temAM svAdhInatA mAnatA che. paNa temAM savAdhInatA ApavAnI zakti ja nathI. ulTA adhika pratibaddha banaze. mATe be ghaDI paNu AtmAnA guNe tarapha najara karavA vakhata kADhave te manuSya jIvananuM mukhya kartavya che. devAdika bhAmAM suMdara sAdhane puNyadaye maLyA paNa bhegavilAsamAM daSTi hovAthI AtmAnuM hita kalyANa sadhAyuM nahIM. pazu paMkhInA bhavamAM pUratAM sAdhane nahIM hovAthI Amika ne dUra karI zakAya nahIM emAM dukhi bhegavAtAM hevAthI te dukhe tarapha dRSTi cUMTelI hoya che. phakata manuSyabhavamAM ja je sAdhane joIe te maLI zake ema che. mATe zubha sAdhanene meLavIne 14 For Private And Personal Use Only

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210 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita AtmAnA guNemAM daSTine sthira kare. 5 85 upakAra karanArane apakAra kare nahIM ! tame sArI rIte tapAsa karaze te mAluma paDaze ke bhaMga vilAsamAM Asakta mAnave sva mANasAIne tyAga karI dAnavanI mAphaka AcaraNa karI rahelA hovAthI devAdikanA sadga tathA Amika guNa tarapha dRSTi paNa karatA nathI te pachI potAnA dene dUra karavA kayAMthI zaktimAna bane? AvA manuSya bhale rAjA mahArAjA ke zeTha hoya ke zaMkara kiMkara hoya te save pitAnA doSathI ja adhama gatimAM phasAI paDe temAM Azcaya zuM? AvA manuSya leka samudAyamAM halakA paDe te mATe karelA aparAdha-pApa upara paDa nAMkhavA banatA prayatna kare che. paNa sthAna ane kAlanI mayatA evI che ke pApanA paDadAne cIrI nAMkhI te karelA gunhAo-pApane khullAM kare che. keI rAjA sahelagAhenIka nya che. tenI laheramAM TAImanI khabara-bhAna rahyuM nahI. baporanA sUryanA prakhara tApathI tapela hevAthI tRSNAe barAbara ghere ghA pANInA abhAve mUcha AvI tevAmAM eka harijana DhaDe tyAM AvI yatheccha jalapAna karAvI lejana karAvyuM. tene sahacAri sevake anyatra zodha karI rahela che. zodha karatAM A rAjAne bheTe thaye nahI. tethI pote svasthAne gayA. A nR5 teonI vATa joi rahela che. vATa jotAM rAtri paDI tethI pitAnA mahelamAM jaI zake nahI. harijane tene satkAra-sanmAna karI pitAnA makAnanI rUmamAM besADaze. suvA mATe suMdara palaMga-suMvALA daDA sahita For Private And Personal Use Only

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211 AMtara jAti Ape. ane oDhavA mATe kemala rajAI ApI upakArane badale Apa joIe. tenA badale harijananuM makAna tathA sAhyabI sukha dekhIne adekhAI karavA lAgyo. ke harijana AvI sAhyabI bhagave che are TekSa kara bharatA nathI. mATe dareka DheDa upara kara nAMkha joIe. prAtaHkAle sahacAri sevake tyAM AvyA. teonI sAthe savanagara jaIne adhikArIne harijananI sAhyabIthI vAta kahI tenA upara kara nAMkhe. AvA dAnava jevA mAnava, upakArane badale apakAra karI vALe. teone potAnA deza tarapha daSTi kayAMthI paDe. ? che sahana kare che 86 manuSyone vipatti Ave che te mANasAIne vikAsa karavA Ave che, A mujaba je jANatA nathI te adhika dukhI bane che. keI samyajJAnI samajAve tyAre teonI zikhAmaNa pasaMda paDe te je AvI paDela saMkaTanuM jera cAle nahI. ane sahana karavAnI zaktine AvirbhAva thAya. sAMsArika sAdhane sarvadA ane sarvathA sukhazAMti ApavAmAM samartha che ja nahIM. te sAdhane prathama AnaMda eTale vikArI sukhazAMti ApIne khasI jAya che. tyAre bhoga vilAsamAM rakta banelane mahAna duHkha thAya che. kAraNa ke sahana karavAnI zaktine keLavI nathI tethI ja AtmabhAna bhUlI pAgala jevA bane che. mATe puryodaye bhale bhegavilAsanA sAdhane maLyA hoya. tenA AdhAre sukha cenamAM rahetA he te paNuM sahana karavAnI zaktine keLavavI joIe. kayAre duHkhadAyaka saMkaTa For Private And Personal Use Only

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ra A. kIrtisAgari racita ke vipatti AvI paDaze te jJAnI sivAya ke anya kahevA mATe zaktimAna nathI. jyAre viDaMbanAo upasthita thAya che. tyAre zeka saMtApAdika karavAmAM te je Atmika bela hoya che. tene avarodha thAya che. avarodha thayA pachI tene vikAsa tha duHsAdhya bane che. mATe tevA TAIme hiMmata rAkhI vicAra karo ke, A je viDaMbanAe AvI che. te anubhavI banAvavA mATe AvI che. ane vikAsanuM sAdhana hovAthI zA mATe saMtApAdika kare, AvA zANA sajajane lekhanA upara mekha mArI kaMTakathI patharAyela mArgamAM paNa pitAne mAga zodhI le che. asahiSNu duHkhadAyI avasthAmAM zoka saMtApAdi karIne kaMTakavALA mArgane adhika dugama banAve che. eTale AgaLa vadhI zakatA nathI, paNa pAchaLa paDA ke che. jagatamAM satvazAlI-hiMmatavAna-purUSa ane jIe e vipattivelA hiMmatane dhAraNa karavA pUrvaka vikAsanuM sAdhana mAnI pAchaLa na paDatAM AgaLa vadhelA che. te pramANe vartana rAkhavAmAM ALasa karavI nahi. 87 saMsAramAM kaIpaNuprANIonI sarakhI mAnasika vRttio hotI nathI vidvAnonA mata-abhiprAya prAyaH sarakhA hotA nathI. are jaDa ghaDiALa paNa sarakhI hotI nathI eTale eka sarakhe TAIma teone hete nathI, trASi-munione paNa sarakhe upadeza hete nathI, keI RSi jagatane mithyA mAne che. keI eka vaLI AtmAne anitya mAne che, koIka punaH AtmAne nitya ekAMte mAne che. tethI kahevata che ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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213 * " : AMtara ti kure ratikriA " sAdhAraNa manuSyomAM samajaNa ane vividhatA hoya che. tethI vAda vivAda thAya che ane temAMthI vera virodha jame che. Ane nikAla karavA mATe nItizAstra kAre eka kAvya lakhyuM ke, dRSTipUtaM nyaset pAdaM vasapUtaM pivejalam satyapUtaM vadedvAkyaM manaHpUta samAcarat // A kAvya sarve vidvAnanetrASi-munione tathA sAdhAraNa manuSyane pyArU lAgyuM che, dakti vastrathI gaLIne pIdhela pANIthI temAM rahele kaca parA vigere peTamAM jAya nahI ane pIDA thAya nahIM. satyapUra hitamita ane pathya vacana bolavAthI vacana siddhi thAya ane kalaha kaMkAsa vigere vikAra zAMta paDe evA evA vacane dvArA thatA deze tathA aparAdhane AvavAne avakAza maLe nahI. ane usUtra bhASI banAya nahIM. anaMta saMsAramAM bhaTakevAnuM baMdha thAya, laghukamI thavAne vakhata Ave. 'mana pUrva mAnasika vRttie pavitra rAkhavAthI aniSTa vicArone dezavaTe maLe sAthe sAthe saMka95 vika zubha-zubhatara ane anukrame zuddha ane daza dizAone je Azrava Ave che te aTake AthI jema tema tapAsa karyA vinA cAlavuM nahI tathA phAve tema pheke rAkhavuM nahI. ane tRSA lAgI hoya te paNa gaLyA sivAya jalapAna karavuM nahi. ane mAnasika vRttione kabaje karI pavitra banAvavI A pramANe vartana rAkhavAthI manuSya ghaNA pApothI ane aparAdhothI bace che. ane meza manuSyabhavanI saphalatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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214 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita sadhAya che. eTale viSaya kaSAyanA vikAro tathA ahukAra mamatAnA Aveza alpa thavAthI kAi saMyamI munivarya, sasAranI anityatAnA upadeza Ape te pasada paDe che. ane pasaMda paDatAM meAkSa mArge vaLAya che, jayapuranA nareza mAnasiMhe parAkrama phAravIne kAbula deza upara vijaya prApta karyAM. A vijayanI khumArImAM laMkAne jItavAnI abhilASA thaI. pradhAnAnI salAha lIdhI ke ApadAdAnI jamIna sattA khAe kabaje karI hAya te yuddha karIne paNa svAdhIna karavI ke nahI. ? pradhAnAe kahyu ke jarUra svAdhIna karavI. je kabaje kare nahI te parAdhIna ane che. A pramANe 'hAmAM hA' mIlAvI 'vacane jA vRddhitA' mAnasiMhe kahyuM ke, teA karA taiyArI. laMkA jItavA caturagIsenAne sajja karI. A sAMbhaLI pradhAne gabharAyA ane vicAra karyAM ke khelyA tA khelyA paNa have zuM karavuM. kAraNake laMkAne jItavA jatAM mAmAM rahelA rAjAo sAthe laDAi karIne jItavA paDe temaja dariyAne ula ghavA te paNa azakaya che, ane rAjAe te mATe hA'. pADI tenI nA paDAvavI te khaDI muzkelI che. A te evuM banyuM ke mIyAMbhAI gayA nImAja paDhavA ane masajI kATe vaLagI. koi zANA saMyamInI salAha levAnI IcchA thaI ke A viDaMbanAmAMthI kevI rIte mukta thavAya. zANA anedazI e nRpanI pAse AvIne upadeza ApyA. ke mahArAjA mAnasiMha. tame mahArAjA rAmacaMdranA vaMzanA che ane mahAzaja rAmacaMdrajIe laMkAne vibhISaNane dAnamAM ApelI che. te pAchI kema levAya ? : For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti tamArA vize Apela dAna, pAchu levAya temAM pratiSThA hAni thAya Ama sAMbhaLI mAnasiMhe laMkA levAnI baMdha rAkhI ane pradhAne khuzI thayA te mATe kahevAya che ke satyapUtaM vAcana 88parAkramI purUSa pratijJAnuM pAlana, prANenA jokhame paNa karI zake che. pratijJA levI te sahelI che paNa tenuM pAlana karavuM te muzkela che. ane mamatA-ahaMkArane tyAga karI dharmane dhAraNa kare teja banavuM zakaya che. te pachI dhanAdikanA bhAge kathana karelA vacananuM pAlana kare temAM Azcarya zuM? te pratijJA pAlakone ApelA vacananI kiMmata prANe vigere karatAM adhika bhAse che. teonuM mantavya evuM hoya che ke, jIva jAya te jAya paNa vacana bhaMga na thAya, teo ghaDImAM vacana Ape ane ghaDIkamAM te vacanane vRthA kare evA hatA nathI, tyAre temane yaza jagata bharamAM phelAya che. vyApaka bane che. teo mahAbhAge paraleke gamana kare te paNa yaza kIrtirUpe A lokamAM jIvatA che. vacanane bhaMga karanAra A lokamAM jIvatA hoya te paNa maraNa pAmela che. mATe prANenA jokhame paNa karelI pratijJAnuM pAlana karavuM te Avazyaka che. eka maheTA dhanADhaya vepArI zeThane ghaNe sthale vyApAra karavAnI peDhIe hatI. tathA vacana pAlanamAM paNa makkama hatA. je pramANe bele te mujaba pAlana karatA dhanAdhikamAM mamatA-rAkhatA nahI eka vakhata temanA vaphAdAra moTo munIme jaththA baMdha taMbAku vigere kharIda karI bIje sthale For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita rahelA zeThane khabara ApI ke amuka vastuonI jaththA baMdha tamAku kharIda karI che tevA vakhate kharIda karela vastunA bhAva narama paDatA hatA. tethI zeThe kahevarAvyuM ke, narama paDatA bhAvamAM je kharIda karI che. te sArU karyuM nahI. naphe Ave ke nukazAna thAya te tAre zIre. nukazAnanI javAbadArI huM rAkhatA nathI. A pramANe kahyA pachI banavA joga che ke, kharIda karela vastunA bhAva vadhI gayA ane be lAkha rUpiyAne lAbha thaye. zeTha khuzI thayA. ane kahelA vacana mujaba munImane kahyuM ke, A je lAbha thayo te tArA bhAgyathI thaye che. temAM mArI mAlIkI nathI mATe tuM rAkha? nIme kahyuM ke mArAthI thaela lAbha rakhAya nahI. mATe Apa ja rAkhe. zeThe kahyuM ke, huM belyo chuM ke, kharIda karela vastuthI je lAbha ke nukazAna thAya tene javAbadAra ke mAlIka huM nathI mATe tane ja arpaNa karavAmAM Ave che. mArAthI vacanane bhaMga thaze nahI. Ate be lAkha rUpIA lAbha thaye. kadAcita ethI adhika lAbha thaye heta te huM rAkhI zakuM nahI rUpiyA karatAM vacananI kiMmata adhika mAnuM chuM. ane nukazAna thayuM. hata te tuM vaphAdAra rahevAthI mAMDI vALata, tane devAdAra rAkhata nahI. tyAre vacananuM pAlana karavAmAM pAgala azakta zeThe jyAre lAbha maLe tyAre pitAnI tijorI bhare che ane nukazAnI Ave tyAre kharIda karanAranA nAme oDhADe che. AvA astavyasta mAnasika vRttimAne upara kaI vizvAsa rAkhatuM nathI. koI vakhate evAnI peDhIne ghaNI nukazAnI AvI jAya che. tyAre pratijJA mujaba pAlana karanAranI peDhImAM kadAca saciva mA 2 vALAe For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara ti nukazAnI Ave te paNa sahAro madada karanAza maLI Ave che. ane peDhI taratI rahe che. banavA joga che ke jaththAbaMdha vyApAramAM samudranI mAphaka bharatI oTa AvyA kare paNa je vacanabhaMga thatA nathI teone bhAgyadaye bharatI thAya. ane naukAnI mAphaka te peDhI taratI rahe. mATe nukazAnInA prasaMge paNa vacanabhaMga kara nahI A pramANe vratadhArI sAdhu-sAdhvI zrAvaka-zrAvikAe vrata niyamane grahaNa karatAM karelI pratijJAne, pALavI joIe bhale pachI prANe javAnuM jokhama AvI lAge te paNa tene bhaMga karavuM joIe nahIM. pratijJA pUrvaka lIdhelA vataniyamane bhaMga karanArane ghaNuM vipatti AvI lAge che. ane puNya vihIna banI duHkhe bhegavavA paDe che te vakhate zakaya sahAya maLatI nathI. ane vrata niyamanAM daDha rahenArane puNya prabhAve sahAre maLatuM rahe che. jo ke teone vipatti prAyaH AvatI nathI. ane AvI hoya te nirbhayatAthI sahana karavAnI zakti jAgelI hayAthI tenuM jora cAlatuM nathI. mATe pratijJA pAlanamAM ghaNe lAbha jANI dRDhatAne dhAraNa karavI joIe. 89 saMsArI prANuoe svayiAone AdhAre sukhadAyaka ane duHkhadAyI karmo saryo tethI ja tenA vipAke sukha-duHkha bhaMga che. sukhane jogavaTo karatAM garva gumAna dhAraNa karaze nahI te sukhazAtAne mANu zakaze nahItara sukhane bhegavatAM aneka vine AvI hAjara thaze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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ne Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir cyA. kIti sAgarasUri racita viSaya kaSAyanA vikArA, ga gumAna vagerenI vATa joI rahela che. jo ahaMkAra-mamatA vigere dhAraNa karI tA te vikArA ubhA thaIne sukhazAtAmAM dhULa nAMkhI saMkaTA kaTakA lAvIne pheke che. ane duHkhanI avasthAmAM jo dInatA- hInatA bhAsI ke AvI tA te dInatA-adhika duHkhamAM vadhArA karavAnI ja. mATe sukhI avasthAmAM ke duHkhI dazAmAM ga tathA dInatA--hInatAne tyAga karavA te sukhanA mAga che. sukhane logavaTA tathA duHkha sa'kaTa kAyama rahetAM nathI. tenI tA dariyAnI bharatI mAphaka bharatI ane eTa thayA kare che. Ama samajI tevA samaye samasta avasthAmAM samatva dhAraNa karavuM joie. dIvasa vityA pachI rAtrI AvyA kare che. temAM navAI nathI te mujaba sukha--pachI saMkaTa Ave temAM zu. Azcaya ? eka vepArInA mAla lAkhA rUpiyAnA hatA tene luTArAe lUMTI lIdheA. tethI te vepArI dezAntarathI peAtAne ghera AvyA. luMTAyAnI khInA gAmanA svajana vage tathA mitra vage jANI, tethI temane AzvAsana ApavA AvyA. vepArI zeThe jANyu ke A saghaLA jamavA AvyA che. teone AdaramAna ApIne besADayA. ane kahyuM ke gheADIvAra ese tamene jamADavAnI sAmagro taiyAra karUM, Avela snehI vage kahyuM ke. ame jamavA AvyA nathI paraMtu tame lUMTAyA hAvAthI AzvAsana ApavA AvyA chIe tamArI mukhAkRti AnaMda bharelI TrUkhI amane ama thAya che. AvA saMkaTa vakhate ghaNA vepArIe udAsI manI vividha valepAta For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara khyAti 219 kAI karyA kare che. paNu-tamArI sthiti Ara prakAranI dekhAya che. vepArIe zAMta mudrAe kahyuM. ke tame je mInA kahI te satya che. temAM dIlagIra ke nirAza thavA jevu nathI. huM traNa kAraNe prabhunA upakAra mAnuM chuM. kevI rIte ? sAMbhaLeA ? eka tA khIjAonu luTArAonu dhApa mArI ke kapaTa kalA karIne me` dhana meLavyu nathI cArA javAvALI nazvara vastuone laI gayA che mAre pazu maraNAMta mUkavAnI hatI ja te pahelAM gai. tathA aDadhuM dhana tA mArI pAse che trIjI dharUpI dhana teA pUrepUruM mArI pAsene pAse che kabajAmAM, phakta sAMsArika dhana lUMTAyu che. temAM sArU' satya dhana teA gayuM nathI. zA mATe huM udAsI atuM ane leApAta karU, je mArI pAse satya dhana rahelu che tene lUTavAnI keAInI paNa tAkAta nathI. A pramANe sAMbhaLI maLavA AvelAne AnaMda thayA ane tenI tArI karatAM peAtAnA sthAne gayA. jo ke AvA bhAgyazAlI vepArIe alpa pramANamAM hAya che paNa jagatanA sA tenA taraphathI bahu pAmI jAya che ane sukhI ar thAmAM chalakAtA nathI temaja duHkhadAyI dazAmAM dInatA-hInatAne dhAraNa karatA nathI. A mujaba je saMsAramAM rahevAya tA viSaya kaSAyanA vikArAne dezavaTo maLe tathA sArA saMskArAnA cAge zubha gatinA lahAvA levAya. AvA bhAgyazAlI ja anukrame mAkSa sukhanA mAlIka ane che. A sivAya cAra gatimAM rakhaDapaTTI karatAM asahya yAtanA AvI. lAge temAM Azcarya zuM? duHkha sakeTamAMthI sukhazAtAnA lhAvA levA For Private And Personal Use Only

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30 A. kItisAgararasUri racita temAM AvaData joIe. AvaDatavALA buddhimAn dhULamAMthI ke rakSA rAkhADImAMthI dhana meLave che tema asAra-sasAramAMthI sAra samyagajJAnI prApta karIne sukhI bane che. eka sArI AvaDatavALA muMbaImAM nekarI tarIke rahyo pazu pUratA pagAra maLatA nahI hAvAthI nekarInA tyAga karIne dhaMdhA karavA ye vyApAramAM mUDI nANA na heAvAthI rAkhADI lAvI UvA lAgyA cAra saNu pAMca maNu rakSA vinA mUlye lAvI pAMcazera rakSAnA pAMca AnA tarIke vecavA lAgyA. zeThANIe rakSAnA dAma bharIne letI. tetho paisAdAra anya. mukhaImAM prAyaHrakSAnA abhAva hoya che tethI te levA zeThANIo paDApaDI karatI. Ane paNa utsAha jAgatA tethI AnadathI lai AvI rakSA vecatA. A pramANe dareka manuSyA e asAramAMthI sAra levA teAja mAnava jIvananI saphalatA sadhAya. 90 sakalAnI keLavaNI lenAre dhamalAne prApta karavA paNa prayAsa karavAnI AvazyakatA che. kAraNa ke vyavahAranA kAryo dha kalAthI saphala thAya che dha kalA vinAnA vyavahAra, viSaya kaSAyAnA vicArA ane vikArA vadhAravA pUrvaka adhAtimAM dhakelI de che. jIvanamAM aneka viDaMbanAe upasthita kare che. mATe dhama kalAne kharAkhara jANI vyavahAranA kAryo kare. mAnasika vRttione kamaje karavI tathA satyavANI khelavI ane kAyAno pravRttione adhama mArga mAMthI pAchI haThAvI dhama mA mAM joI tapAsIne AjavI. A mujaba vartana karavAthI AvelI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti viDaMbanAe khasavA mAMDe che. ane AvatIne nirAdha kare che. A mujaba vyavahArane calAvatAM ghaNe lAbha maLe che. ane sukhazAtAe jIvana pasAra thAya che. dharmakalA eTale pitAnA AtmAne unnatinA mAge vikAsanA mArge laI javAnuM sAdhana te AtmajJAna che. mATe prathama tene meLavavA mATe paNa tamannA rahevI joIe. Amika jJAna thayA pachI sAMsArikakalAnuM jJAna saphala thAya che. eTale jIvananA vikAsamAM te jJAna, asAdharaNa sahakAra Ape che. dunyavI bahetara kalAethI je saMkaTa-kaSTa khasatA nathI te phakta AtmajJAnathI, khase che. zArIrika keLavaNI laIne zarIrane laSTa puSTa banAvanAramAM je AtmajJAna nahI hoya te te ahaMkArI ane kara banI pitAne pote ja adharma mAge laI javAno saMbhava che. sanmArge laI janAra eka ja AtmajJAna kahe ke dharmakalA, ja che. viSaya kaSAyathI utpanna thaela ahaMkAra, mamatA, akhAI. viSaya sukhanI Asaktine TALanAra je keI hoya te. AtmajJAna che. 91 dhArmika kriyAo paNa AtmajJAnathI sakla thAya che. nahItara te kriyAmAM nindA karavAne prasaMge upasthita thAya che. AtmajJAnI, anyanene paisAnuM dAna karyA sivAya. paNa upakAra karavA samartha bane che. unmAgathI ukheDI. sanmArge joDavAmAM kharekhara upakAra samAela che. dAnanA pAMca prakAramAM abhaya dAna mahatvanuM che. vratomAM brahmacarya vrata mahatva dharAve che. tema dareka jJAna-vijJAnamAM AtmajJAna For Private And Personal Use Only

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A kIrtisAgarasUri racita mahAna che. ane kevalajJAnI mahArAjA tenI ja adhika pramANamAM prazaMsA kare che. anyajJAna kalA te saMsArane vadhAranArI bane paNa kharI, tethI samyagUjJAnI, AtmajJAnI upara adhika prIti rAkhe che. ane anumodanA paNa kare che. eka rAjA pAse kIMmatI hIre te tenI parIkSA karAvavA jhaverIone bolAvyA. jhaverIoe parIkSA karI kiMmata batAvI paNa rAjAnuM mana mAnyuM nahI ane kahyuM ke tamoe A hIrAnI kharekhara kiMmata karI nathI. tyAre eka jhaverIe kahyuM ke be traNa divasamAM tenI barobara kiMmata karAvI ApIzuM. tyAra bAda eka jhaverIe pitAnA vRddhapitAne kahyuM ke rAjAe potAnI pAse rahela hIrAnI parIkSA karavA saghaLA jhaverIone bolAvyA. teoe te hIrAnI kimata va buddhinA AdhAre karI paNa tethI nRpane sataSa ye nahI. vRddha jhaverIe kahyuM ke huM paNa tyAM AvI hIrAne dekhI parIkSA karUM te khare teNe rAjAnI pAse AvI hIrAne dekhI tapAsI kahyuM ke, are mahArAjA A hIrAnI kiMmata, nivANuM lAkha rUpiyAnI che, nupe kahyuM ke sarva jhaverInI AgaLa parIkSA karI batAve vRddha jhaverIe so sone maMgAvI sUryanA tApa AgaLa teonI ghoDI banAvI, "chI se maNione AgavI te ghaDInI AgaLa pAchaLa eThavI dIdhAM. hIrAnA Tiza maNie upara paDayA paNa eka maNi upara tenuM kiraNa paDayuM nahI, rAjAne kahyuM ke eka hAMsa A hIrAnI deSa yukta che. je nirdoSa heta te eka karoDanI kiMmata thAta, nipane tathA sabhyajanone AnaMda thaye ane zIrAva Sii tapAsa karI che, je ko maMgAvI ne For Private And Personal Use Only

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bAMtara jAti ApavA nRpa taiyAra thaye. vRddha jhaverIe kahyuM ke TAIma ghaNe thaye che. mATe kAle Apaje Ama kaho jhaverI, sava sthAne gayA. rAjAnA dIvAne tenI parIkSA karavAno vicAra karyo ke jhaverI sarva kalAomAM kuzaLa che paNa dharma kalAmAM kuzaLa che ke nahIM tenI tapAsa karIne zarapAva rAjAnI pAsethI apAve. dIvAna pite AtmajJAnI temaja vyAvahArika kalAmAM kuzaLa hatuM tethI rAtre jhaverI pAse jaIne kahyuM ke tame sarve kalAmAM pravINa che leke kahe che ane amoe paNa jANyuM paraMtu Atmika jJAnamAM dhamakalAmAM kuzaLa che ke nahi, jhaverIe kahyuM ke sarve kalAe jANa paNa dharmakalA jANI nathI. dIvAne kahyuM te tamane zarapAva maLaze nahIM. jhaverIe kahyuM ke AiDA divasamAM te kalA jANIne dhamakalAnI parIkSA ApIza, pachI te zarapAva Apaze ne? jarUra. jhaverI Ama te vyavahAramAM huMzIyAra hatA. tethI sadagurU pAse vaMdanA paeNvaka dhamakalAnuM zikSaNa a5 vakhate laI temAM pravINa banyA tavAne kahyuM ke dharma eTale zuM? je jJAna kriyAnA AdhAre karma baMdhAya nahI. ane AvatA karmone nirodha thAya te sAco dharma kahevAya ane e dhama karAya ke jethI janmajarA maraNanA asahRA yAtanA,viDaMbanA mUlamAMthI naSTa thAya. viSaya kaSAyanA vika saMkalpa TaLe. A pramANe sAMbhaLI tivAna ghaNe khuzI thayo ane teNe rAjAne kahyuM ke hIrAnI parIkSA karanAra jhaverI je sarva kalAmAM huMziyAra che te dharma kalAmAM-AtmajJAna kriyAmAM paNa pravINa che. mATe IcchA mujaba zIrajhAva Apa egya che. nRpe AmaMtraNa ApIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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para A. kItisAgari thatA te jhaverI khuzI thAya te mujaba zIrAva Ape. jhaverI pitAne ghera jaI vicAra kare che ke, AtmajJAna meLavyuM te ja yatheccha: lAbha meLavyo. je na meLavyuM hatuM te barobara lAbha prApta thAta nahI. have te AtmajJAna pUrvaka saMka9pa vikalpane dUra karUM ane anaMta lAbhane svAmI banuM. dharma kalA ja zakti-saMpatti ApavAmAvAM samartha che mATe tene bhUle nahI. 9 jyAM sudhI prANIo, pAMca IndriyanA viSayamAM Asakata hoya che. tyAM sudhI dharmakalA Atma jJAna tarapha Adara bhAva karatA nathI. khuzI thaIne sevelA viSaye teoneja saMkaTamAM phasAve che. tethI jIvana sukhakAraka bane che. jIva tyAre prApta thaelA nimitto ane sagAne deSa devA maMDI paDe che. tethI dukha a5 thatu nathI paNa vadhatuM rahe che. araNa ke pAMca IndranA viSaye tenA vicAra ane vikAsa te mahaTI phasAmaNI che. bala buddhi vigere nAza karanArI che. mATe viSayenuM sevana karatAM prathama vicAra karavAnI ane viveka karavAnI khAsa jarUra che. viSayamAM kevI pAchaLathI phasAmaNI kaTatA duHkha ane jIvanuM kevuM jokhama che. te sAMbhaLo. eka mAtapitAne eka dIkarI ane be dIkarA hatA. tene gaLapaNa khAvAnI Teva hatI. gharamAM corIne paNa khAtA. teonI mAtA ghaNuM zIkhAmaNa ApatI paNa te kuTeva bhUlatA nathI. temAM eka putra mahaTa thaye. gAMdhInI dukAne nekarI tarIke besADo. nekarI rItasara kare che paNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti 225 mIThAza khAvAnI Teva hovAthI tenA zeThathI chAnI mAnI rIte sAkaranA bhAjanamAMthI sAkara khAvA lAgyA. ekadA sAkara khAtAM tene zeTha joI gaye. ghera khAvA gayo tyAre sAkaranA bhAjananA ThekANe phaTakaDInuM bhAjana gaThavyuM. A chokarAe gherathI AvyA pachI dararojanI Teva mujaba sAkaranuM bhAjana mAnI temAMthI eka gAMgaDa mukhamAM nAMkhe zeTha tenA tarapha jaI rahela che. pele mukhamAM phaTakaDIne kAMkare nAMkhe pachI bahAra kADhI zakatuM nathI ane mukhe pIDA thayA kare che. zeThe kahyuM ke tArU mukha AvuM kema banyuM che. belAtuM nathI paNa zeTha jANI jAya te mATe phaTakaDI kADhI zakatA nathI. ane huM are, karI rahela che. zeThe kahyuM ke joI tArI cAlAkI. mukhamAMthI phaTakaDIne gAMgaDA kADhI nAMkha ane sAkara khAvAnI Tevane dura kara, mukhamAMthI phaTakaDIne gAMgaDA kADhI nAkhyuM paNa tenI pIDA ghaNA divasa rahI, pachI nAkara sAkara khAvAnI Teva bhulI gaye. kaphaje paDate hati te baMdha thaze ane zarIra puSTa banyuM. bIjA chokarAne jamI khAI rahyA pachI hiMgASTaka cUrNa khAvAnI Teva paDI hatI te vinA tene cAlatuM nahI. eka divasa DabbImAnuM cUrNa khatama thayuM. tethI tenI mAtAe te DabbImAM sudarzana cUrNa bharyuM hatuM. A bhAI. bhejana karI rahyA pachI hiMgASTaka cUrNa mAnI te DabbImAMthI cUrNane kAkaDe laI mukhamAM nAMkhe. mukha ghaNu kahuka thaela hevAthI zU zuM kare che tyAre khIjAIne kahevA lAge ke hiMgASTaka cUrNanA badale sudarzana cUrNa khAvAmAM AvyuM. hiMgASTaka cUrNa kayAM che mAtAe kahyuM te te khalAsa thayuM ane te DabbImAM sudarzana 15 For Private And Personal Use Only

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36 . kIti sAgarasuri racita cuNu bhareluM hatuM. paNa tane kahevAnuM bhUlI gaI. paNa have tAre A svAda karavA mUkI devA ghaTe, A pramANe jIbhanA svAdamAM dararAja teA nahI paNa kAI vakhate kaDavAzane sahuna karavI paDe mATe tenA paNa svAdane tyAga karavAnI jarUra che. vaLI tenI mAtAe chekarIne kahyuM beTA ! meDA upara jaIne caNAnA lATa laI Ava, cUlA upara rahelI kaDhImAM nAMkhavA che. A dIkarI paNa mIThAI khAvAmAM mazagula hatI. tethI mIThAInA bhAjanA tapAsavA lAgI. pazu mIThAI maLI nahI chevaTe gALanA mATalAmAM hAtha nAkhyo. tyAM te temAM rahelA makADAo evA karaDayA ke, ame pADavA lAgI. raDavA lAgI. teNInuM raDavAnuM jANI mAtA jaldI upara AvI khacakA bharatAM makADA dUra karyo. ane kahyuM ke tane caNAne lATa levA kahyuM ane A mATalAmAM hAtha kemanAMkhyA ! chekarIe kahyuM ke, leTa levAnuM bhUlI jaI mIThAI khAvAnI Teva paDI hatI. tenA bhAjanA tapAsyA. pazu khAlI hatA. chevaTe gALa AvA hAtha nAkhyA, ne temAM rahelA ma keADA vaLagyA tethI mAtA peTa pakaDIne hasavA lAgI. pADAzI bhegA thaIne pUchavA lAgyA ke, tamArI dIkarI kema bUma pADIne raDatI hatI. tenI mAtAe kahyu ke, me' lATa maMgAvye tyAre gALa khAvA mATalAmAM hAtha nAMkhyuM. ane temAM rahelA ma phADA karaDayA. tethI raDavA lAgI che. jIbhaDInA svAda evA DAya che. mATe jIbhaDIne vaza karavA tevA svAdane tajavA. 93 cakSunA viSaya paNa kAI prasaMge jIvanA jokhamamAM nAMkhI prANAne hare che. mAnasika vRttie agADI For Private And Personal Use Only

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aAMtara jyAti buddhinA bhraSTa kare che. mATe nATaka-sInemA takarAra laDAi vigerene jovAmAM Asakata banavu nahI. eka yuvAnane nATaka-sInemA vigerene jovAmAM ghaNI prIti hatI. dararoja jovA jAya. ane paisAeAnuM pANI kare mAtapitA sArI rIte samajAve te paNa mAne nahIM. ane kahetA ke. nATaka sInemA vigerene jovAthI ghaNI huMzIyArI Ave che. ane vyavahAra kAryoMmAM pravINu manAya che. mAtapitA, kahevA lAgyA ke, vyAvahArika kAryomAM kevA tu pravINu anela che. te ame tArI cAla calagatathI jANIe chIe. nyAya nIti-sadAcArane bhUlI unmArge gamana karI paisAnI sAthe muddhibalanuM lIlAma karI rahela che, mATe A khUrI TevanA tyAga karetA ja amAne sukha zAMti rahe. tArI sthiti dekhIne amAne ghaNI cintA thAya che. amAre kAyA eTalA varSo have kADhyA nathI. paNa tArI bhaviSyamAM kevI sthiti thaze. AvI cintAmAM dhArmika kriyAomAM sthiratA rahetI nathI. paNa yuvAna zenA mAne ? vRddho bhale Tak Tak karyA kare. baMdA tA dararoja nATakAdikane jovA javAnA ja, eka divasa susalamAnae hullaDa karyuM. tene baMdha karavA peAlIseAe ghaNA prayatna karyo chatAM zAMta thayuM nahI. ane geALI bahAra cAlu thayA. te jevA khAtara A yuvAna khahAra nIkaLyeA ane hullaDa najIka Avye tevAmAM eka gALI tene mama sthale vAgI, ane prANA .. For Private And Personal Use Only 227 '.

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228 A. kirtisAgarasuri racita cAlyA gayA. mAtApitAne dukhane pAra rahyo nahI. tathA vidhavA thaela tenI Ane paNa duHkhane pAra rahyo nahI. mATe pAMce IndriyanI Asaktine tyAga kare. tyAra bAda mAnasika vRttio paNa kabajAmAM Avaze. ane vikAsa sadhAze. saharAnA raNamAM bhUlA paDelA musApharane annapANInI jarUra paDe che. paribhramaNa karIne thAkI gaelane annapANI sivAya jIvana TakI zakatuM nathI. te vakhate dhana-sattA pari. vArAdika tathA jhaverAta pAse hoya te paNa prANe kevI rIte Take? Take nahI ja. annapANInI garajane dhana-jhaverAtAdi zAMta karI zakavA samartha nahI hovAthI te vakhate musAphIra annajaLanI jhaMkhanA karate heya che tevAmAM kaI kRpAvaMta tene bhAtupANI Ape te mahAupakArI kahevAya te pramANe jIvanamAM mANasAI nyAya-jJAna cAritranI jarUra che tyAM dhanAdika keI arpaNa kare tethI mANasAI-pramANikatArUpI anajala prApta thaI zakatuM nathI paNa keI saddagurU upadezarUpI annajalanuM pAna karAve teja jIvana Take ane unnatinA zikhare ArUDha thAya manuSyagaNa saharAnA raNa jevA saMsAramAM musApharI karI rahela che ane paribhramaNa karIne atyaMta pIDA mANI rahela che tene samakita sAthe jJAna cAritranI avazya jarUra che te Ape te upakArI sAcA kahevAya. eka musAphIra saharAnA raNamAM mArgane zedhe che paNa mArga jaDatuM nathI. cAre bAju tapAsa kare che tyAM retInA For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara jyoti 229 DhagalA dekhAya che. bhUla paDela hovAthI parizramanI sAthe bhUkha tRSA lAgelI che eka ghara dekhAtA vRkSa nIce ArAma levA beThe zeDo thAka utaryo paNa kSudhA ane tRSA barAbara satAvI rahela che eTalAmAM eka piTalI pAse paDelI dekhI hAtha pheravatAM caNA-vaTANu jevuM lAgyuM. piTalI choDI jUe che tyAre temAM matI-maNi-hIrA dekhyA. dekhIne nizAse mUkatAM kahevA lAgyo ke are jhaverAta atyAre tArI jarUra nathI. anna jalanI AvazayaktA che tArAthI nAza pAmatuM jIvana TakAvI zakAze nahIM. atyAre koI dayALu annapANI arpaNa kare te jhaverAtanA karatAM adhika kiMmatI mAnuM. prANe gayA pachI dhana kaNa kAmakuM-A pramANe besI rahyo che te arasAmAM uMTa upara besI eka musAphIra bhUlI gaela vastunI zodha karatAM tyAM AvyA, jhaverAtanI piTalI dekhI khuza thayo. sudhA tRSAthI atyaMta pIDA pAmI rahelanI dayA AvavAthI potAnI pAse rahela bhAta khAvA ApyuM ane yatheccha pANI pAyuM tethI pIDAthI gherAelAne zakti AvI, ubhe thaIne tene upakAra mAnavA lAge. ke tame je AvyA na hota te A raNamAM maraNa pAmata, tame mAro bacAva karyo. AvelA musAphare kahyuM ke, Avyo te jhaverAtanI piTalI zodhavA tame je A sthale na heta che ane bIje hetate laIne cAlyA jAta tethI je banyuM te sArU thayuM. annajala ApavuM te te amArI pharaja che. emAM upakAra zAne? Ama kahIne potAnA vAhana upara besADI IcchA mujaba ISTa sthale pahoMcatuM karyuM. A pramANe bhAvamAM bhUlA paDelane For Private And Personal Use Only

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230 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita kaI saddagurU upadeza rUpI aja jala ApIne sanmArge ArUDha karI ISTa sAcA sukhane arpaNa kare te je te upakAra nathI. ane jhaverAtathI adhika kiMmatI puNyAnuM baMdhI puNya bAMdhe. anukrame benuM paNa kalyANa sadhAya, ane satya sukhanI prApti thAya, paraMtu e keI hAya ke, jhaverAtane dhanAdikane grahaNa karIne rakSaNa karuM bhale maraNa pAmuM te paNa tene tyAga karuM nahI. AnAthI ja pIDAo dUra bhAgaze ane ISTa sukha AvI maLaze. AvA mAnavo ahaMkAra ane AsakitanA cAge pitAnA bhAva prANe je kAMI ala5 pramANamAM che te paNa gumAve che. ane saMpatti sAhyabI tathA parivAra vigere ahIMja paDI rahe che. keI sAthe AvatuM nathI. hAya hAya karate durgatinuM bhAjana banI asahya pIDAone sahana karate jIvana vyatIta kare che. mATe jhaverAta-dhanAdika karatAM samyaktva-jJAna-cAritra vigere sAcA sukhane ApanAra che ema mAnIne ahaMkAra ane mamatA Asaktine tyAga kare te anAdikAlanI viDaMbanAne tyAga karavAne satya upAya che. keI samartha saddagurU maLe. te teno tyAga karAvI zake. 94 maitrI-pramoda anukaMpA ane madhyasthA bhAvanAo. tathA anitya azaraNu vigere bAra bhAvanAo je che te ahaMkAra, mamatA, adekhAIne dUra karIne Amennati karavAmAM satya sAdhanarUpa che A bhAvanAonA AdhAre anaMta mahAbhAgyazAlIoe AtmavikAsa sAdhavA pUrvaka kevalya jJAna pAmI anaMta zakti For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara ti 231 prApta karI che. tathA janma jarA maraNanI viDaMbanAone tyAga karI anaMta satya sukha prApta karela che. jyAM sudhI maitrI vigere bhAvanAo bhavAtI nathI tyAM sudhI ahaMkAra mamatA vigere je atyaMta duHkha dAyaka che. te khasatA nathI ane satya kevaLajJAnane AvirbhAva thatuM nathI. ahaMkArAdi eka ja bhavanA nathI paNa anAdikAlathI cUMTelA che. manuSyanI Rddhi samRddhi ane zaktine khAI bIlADAnI mAphaka laSTa puSTa banela che. temane manuSyanA zarIra ane AtmArUpI ghara maLela che. sAMsArika sAdhano dvArA te nIkaLI zake ema nathI. ene keAI samartha sadgurUnI sahAya laIne atyaMta purUSArtha karavAmAM Ave teja nIkaLI zake ema che. bala pheravyA vinA temaja samartha sadUgurune sahAre lIdhA sivAya te bIlADa nIkaLaze nahI. teNe ghaNI pAyamAlI barabAdI karI che. ane je nahI kADhaze te adyApi karaze. mATe tenAthI rakSaNa karavuM hoya te alapheravI sahakAra le. eka kheDUtanA gharamAM tenI pAse cAra, pAMca gAye ane bheMsa hatI. tethI dudha, dahIM ane ghI bharapUra hatuM. te saghaLuM kaThalAmAM mukavAmAM AvatuM eka dIvasa bhUlathI te kaThalAnuM bAraNuM thADuM ughADeluM hovAthI temAM bIlADa peThe tenI khabara kheDUtane rahI nahI. A aMdara paDele bIlADe have bahAra nIkaLate nathI. nukazAnInI kheDUtane khabara paDI. tethI tene kADhavA mATe ghaNI mahenata kare che paNa nIkaLate nathI. khAvA pIvAnI jyAM majA paDatI hoya tyAM kayAMthI nIkaLe ! kheDUte eka samartha khetInA karanAranI sahAya lIdhI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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232 A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita tethI te bIlADA nIkaLe. A pramANe samarthanI sahAya laIne thatI barabAdInuM rakSaNa kare. 5 sAMsArika sAdhana puryodaye AvI male che AvI malyA pachI je tene svarUpane khyAla rahe nahI to teonuM rakSaNa karavA mATe aneka prakAranA saMka9pa vikalapo thayA kare che chatAM te sAdhane pratikulatAne dhAraNa kare che tyAre manuSyane atyaMta kaMTALo Ave che. ane gharamAMthI nAzI javAnI vRtti-pravRti thAya che. paraMtu saMkalpa vika9pa TALyA sivAya bhale gharamAMthI nAzI jaIne jaMgalamAM vAsa kare te paNa te kaMTALe TaLatA nathI. ane yatheccha siddhi thatI nathI. mATe prathamathI ITa siddhinA abhilASIe, dhana-dhAnya patnI putra vigere je sAdhana che tene barAbara svarUpane jANavuM, tenA svarUpane jANyA pachI Asakti a95 thavAnA saMkalpa vikalpa paNa TaLatA rahevAnA ane sthiratAnA ge iSTa siddhi thavAnI. - eka brAhmaNane AjIvikAnuM sAdhana barobara hatuM nahIM. ane putra putrIne parivAra adhika hatA. tethI tenI strI ghaNe Thapake ApatI. kaI vakhate chaNakA-mamavacanenA bANe paNa lagAvatI. tethI kaMTALe lAvI jaMgalamAM kaI eka megInI sevAmAM tatpara banyo. ane manamAM mAnyuM ke. yogI mArA duHkha dura karaze. gIe kahyuM ke duHkha dUra karavA hoya te aSTAMga roganI sAdhanA kara. tethI tArI daridratA nAza pAmaze ane For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara pati 233 sukhI thaIza. A brAhmaNa gAmamAMthI bhikSA mAgI lAvI pitAnuM peTa bhare che ane roga sAdhanA karavA mATe yama niyama-AsananI vidhi saghaLI pAlIne daDha bane. pachI prANAyAmamAM pravINa bane paNa pratyAhAra je ceganuM aMga che te sadhAtuM nathI. gurUgae tenI bInA jANa kahyuM ke tuM vikalpa vadhAre karate haze. brAhaNe kahyuM ke sagarbhA strIne mUkI atre Avela chuM. tene dIkaro ke dIkarI Avela haze. gIe kahyuM ke, pAchA ghera jA, tenI tapAsa karI Ava. tene vicAra Ave che. brAhmaNa ghera gaye. kAMI paNa dhana nahI lAvela hevAthI udhaDo lIdhe. dhikkAra karavA lAgI tethI saMsAranA sAdhananuM svarUpa jANuM yegI pAse AvyuM. ane sthira thaye saMkalpa vikala gaela hovAthI pratyAhAravigere aMgone rItasara sAdhIne siddhi meLavI. ane jagatanI mAyA mamatAne tyAga karavA pUrvaka Atmika vikAsa paNa sAdhI sukhI thaze. mATe sukhI thavAnI IcchA vALAe, saMsAra sAdhanAnuM svarUpa jANI vika9pene tyAga karI sthiratA dhAraNa karavI agatyanI che. 6 A bhavamAM te puryodaye anukula sAdhana sAmagrI maLI paraMtu paraloka mATe kAMI anukuLatA rahe evuM puNyopArjana karyuM ke nahi tenA vicAra kare khAvApIvAmAM mejamajAmAM ane viSayamAM Asakata banavAthI puNya khavAtuM jAya che tene khyAla che ke nahi ! je A bhavamAM ja puNaya khatama thayuM te paralokamAM anu For Private And Personal Use Only

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234 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita kulatA rahevI azakaya che. mATe paraphekamAM gamana karatAM sAthe Ave tevI sAmagrI kaSTa sahana karIne paNa meLavavA mATe mahenata karavI. keTalAka kahe che ke vRddhAvasthAmAM paralokanI sAdhana sAmagrI mATe prayAsa karIzuM atyAre te prApta thaela sAdhanene bhega-upabhega karI lahera karavA de? paNa vRddhAvasthA Ave te pahelAM paraleke gayA tyAre zuM karaze lahera karatAM AyuSya pUrNa thayuM te tame je AzA rAkhI te adhurI raheze mATe laheramAM kAramI kera samajI yuvAvasthAmAM ja paralokamAM sAthe AvI tevI sAmagrI prApta kare pachI vRddhAvasthAmAM paNa vilepAta thaze nahIM. kAraNa ke te avasthAmAM zarIranI zakti, puNya sAmagrI meLavI zakAya evI rahetI nathI mATe prathamathI cetI puNya sAmagrIne prApta kare. eka dezanI rAjadhAnI upara je rAjA rAjya kare te rAjAne daza varSa rAjya karyA pachI vanavAsamAM javuM paDe A rIvAja hatuM tethI rAjya karatAM e rAjAne cintA thaI ke mudata pUrI thayA pachI vanavAsa kare paDaze tyAM huM sAdhana sAmagrI sivAya zAMtithI kevI rIte rahIza. pAMca varSomAMthI traNa gayA bAkI be eka varSa rahyuM. ema valepAta karavA lAgyuM. te vakhate samyagajJAnI tene maLyA. temaNe kahyuM ke cintA karavAthI sAdhane maLatA nathI. paNa mudata pUrNa thayA pahelAM cetIne suMdara sAdhana sAmagrI sAthe Ave evI vyavasthA kara, pachI te laIne vanavAsa kara A mujaba jJAnInI vANuM zravaNa karI sAthe Ave evI sAmagrIne saMgraha karI mudata pUrI thatAM vanavAsa svIkAryo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 235 ane sukhI thaye. pratikulatA rahI nahI. te pramANe sukhIjanee pitAnA sukha mATe parapheke gamana karatAM pahelAM sAthe Ave evI sAdhana sAmagrI prApta karavA prayAsa karavAnI AvazyakatA che. A bhavamAM viSaya kaSAyamAM Asakta bane nahI. parabhavamAM anukuLatA rahe evI sAmagrI maLavI azakaya che. kAraNa ke vrata-niyama dhAraNa karyA nahIM. ane pApathAnakamAM rAcI mAcI rahyA. mATe prathama cetIne prayAsa karaze te anukulatAnA sAdhane maLI raheze. vairI upara vera vALavAnI mAnyatAne tyAga karavA pUrvaka maitrI-prema rAkhavAnI bhAvanA rAkhe tethI vera vadhaze nahI. ane puNyanI sAthe premamAM vadhAro thaze. ane arasa parasa sahakAra ApavAne samaya AvI maLaze. eka samyagra jJAnInA guNavAna putrane sarpa karaDA, tethI te maraNa pAme tenA mAtA pitAne atyaMta duHkha thayuM. ane rUdana karavA lAgyA. tevAmAM gArUDIyAe maMtra dvArA te sarpa, lAvI maMgAvyuM ane kahyuM ke tamArA putrane mArI nAMkhanAra A sApane kahe te ahIM ja mArI nAMkhuM zoka saMtApane dUra karI samajaNa te mAta pitAe kahyuM ke tene mArI nAMkhavAthI maraNa pAmela putra jIvate thavAne nathI. ulaTuM vairamAM vadhAre thaze. mATe tene mukI de pahelA bhavanA vera vinA temaja caMpAyA vinA koIne sApa karaDate nathI mATe tene mArI naMkhAvIne amAre temAM vadhAro kare nathI, mATe bhAI tuM A sApane mUkI de. A pramANe kahevAthI vera gayuM ane sArI bhAvanAthI puNya bAMdhIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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236 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita sukhI thayA. mATe ahiMsAdika vratene pAlIne sukhI thAo viyegI vastu khAtara vera kare nahI ane vadhAre paNa nahIM. tamArI pAse je saMge vastuo maLI che te viyegavALI che te nakakI samajI verane vadhAre kare nahI. ane vera hoya te maitrI bhAvanA tathA premathI vALa ke jethI A bhavamAM ke parabhavamAM athaDAmaNa vigere thAya nahIM. ane sukhethI Atmanniti sAdhavAno samaya maLI rahe. 97 pudagalAnaMdI manuSyo bahAra dekhAva karavAmAM adhika mAnyatA dharAve che. jana samudAya, khAmIone kheDA-tathA aparAdhane jANI zake nahIM tevI vividha yukti karI mAnavIone bhramamAM nAMkhI pite kulAya che ke ame kevA huMziyAra chIe ke ke amArA doSa-kheDa vigerene dekhatA nathI. paraMtu sujJajane te te saghaLuM jANI le che ane hAMsI kare che. jIvarAmabhaTTa ratAMdhaLe hate rAtrImAM cAlatAM dekhate nahI tethI gAmanA leke tene ratAMdhaLe kahetA, A bhaTTanI strI maraNa pAmI. bIjIne paraNavAnI IcchA thaI. gAmanA jJAtijane tene ratAMdhaLo hovAthI koI kanyA detuM nathI. eTale dazabAra gAu upara eka gAmamAM suMdara rezamI vastro paherI be mitrone sAthe laIne gaye tene bahAranA bhabhakAne dekhI eka brAhmaNe kanyA dIdhI. lagna thayA pachI be traNa varSe svavadhUne teDavA gaye paNa te gAmamAM pahoMcatAM rAtrI paDI. sasarAnA ghara tarapha jatAM kheDelA gharanA moTA uMDA pAyAmAM gabaDI paDe. bahAra nIkaLavA prayAsa karI rahela For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara jyoti 27. che paNa nIkaLatuM nathI, te mAge thaIne jatAM sAsarA pakSanA saMbaMdhIe tene oLakhIne belA. jIvarAmabhaTTa ! A gharanA pAyAmAM paDI zuM kare che ? phIsIArI karatAM kahyuM ke mAre paNa baMgale baMdhAve che te mATe A gharanA pAyAnI tapAsa karuM chuM. jarAka Teke Apa bhaTTajI bahAra nIkaLyA. sAsarAnA ghera AvyA. sAsarIyAe sanmAna ApI besADayA. sAsue kaMsAra banAvI thALImAM pIrasyuM tevAmAM AMgaNAmAM pharatI pADI ane kutarI AvIne te kaMsAra khAI gaI sAsue kahyu thALImAM pIrasele kaMsAra kutarI ane pADI khAI gaI zuM tame dekhatA nathI? huMzIArI batAvatAM bhaTTe kahyuM ke ame sArI rIte dekhIe chIe paNa tamArI pALelI ane mAnItI hAvAthI dUra karI nahI. sAsu samajI gaI ke rAtrimAM bhaTTa dekhatA nathI, tethI A kheDane chupAvavA asatya javAba Ape: che. paNa atyAre mauna rahevuM Ama samajIne kahyuM ke have je Ave te A lAThI teone lagAvajo. bhAgI jaze. Ama kahI bIjI thALImAM kaMsAra pIrase. sAsu ghI levA gaI. laIne AvatAM. ratAMdhaLA bhaTTe jAyuM ke pADI AvI che. Ama samajI lAThI lagAvI sAsunA mAthAmAM. sAsu rADa pADatI khasI gaI. bhaTe jANyuM ke pADI nAzI gaI evAmAM sAsarIA pakSanA sarve sagAM bhegAM thaIne kahevA lAgyA. bhaTajIte. ratAMdhaLA dekhAya che. tevAmAM Teke ApanAra sage AvIne kahevA lAgyA. mArgamAM rahelA uMDApAyAmAM paDI gayA hatA, parANe Teke ApIne bahAra kADhayA ane atre AvyA. puchayuM tyAre kahevA lAgyA ke mArA baMgalAne ke uMDe pAye, For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita bAda tenI tapAsa karate hate. paNa have khabara paDI ke jIvarAma bhaTTa te ratAMdhaLA che bhrama TaLI gaye. A mujaba hAMsI karatA svajane pitAne sthAne gayA. bhaTTa te e halake paDaye ke bIjIvAra sAsare javAnI be bhUlI gaye. pudgalAnaMdIe paNa bahAra dekhAva karavAmAM bAkI rAkhatA nathI. gharamAM te tIjorInA taLIA dekhAtA hoya chatAM bajA2mAM navalazA hIrajI jevA thaIne phare jyAre kaI zikhAmaNa Ape tyAre tene udhaDo laIne bahAdurI mAne AvA mANase sabhya antarAtmAnaMdI AgaLa hAMsI pAtra bane temAM zuM Azcarya AtmAnaMdIne bahAra dekhAva bhapake kare te pasaMda paDatuM nathI. ene AtmAne vikAsa sAdhavAmAM tatpara hoya che. ane temAMja AnaMda mANI rahela hoya che. jyAre AtmAnaMdI banAya che. tyAre ja rAgadveSa ane mahatuM balaalpa thAya che. 94 sArAmAM sArI vastuo prApta karavI hoya to bahAra bahu paribhramaNa karavAnI jarUra che nahI sArAmAM sArI vastune meLavavA mATe bhautika padArthonI je Asakita che tene tyAga karI tala spazI vicAra karI viveka karaze te ja vastuo maLI zake ema che. vicAra aneka viveka karyA vinA te manahara vastuo maLI zake ema nathI. ane Asakti TaLe ema nathI. jJAnIo kahe che ke sArAmAM sArI vastuo prApta karavA mATe nIce mujaba kahyA pramANe vartana rAkho kAmakrodhAdikane For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara jayAti 239 mArA, varIne Adara ApatA raheA. potAnA dASA tarapha nirIkSaNa karo, ane jAgatA rahA. A cAra AjJAnA amala karanAra game te jAtikulanA DAya te paNa sArAmAM sArI vastune prApta karI anukrame anata Rddhi siddhine pAme. keAI eka gAmamAM rahenAra DhAkAra rajapUta jAgIradAra tA hatA ane Avaka paNa sArI hatI paNu vyasanI manela hAvAthI AvakanA karatAM jAvaka vadhAre kare che. tethI jate dhise ghaNA daridrI ane duHkhI thayA. tenI patnI pativratA ane satI hatI. te DhAkeArane punaHpunaH samajAvatI. ke A vyasanA du:khadAyI hAvAthI tenA tyAga karavAnI jarUra che. vyasanA vaLagyA pachI tenA tyAga azakaya bane che. tyAga karI zakAtA nathI ane adhika duHkhI thatA dekhI tenI patnIe eka lakhelA kAgaLa ApyA. ane kahyu ke je cAra lAkha rUpiyA Ape tene A patra arpaNu karaje. ThAkeAra kAgaLa laIne bajAramAM gA, ane talaspazI vicAra karanAra ane vivekIne A patra ApyA. teNe patra vAMcI cAra lAkha rUpiyA sthapitAnA munIma pAsethI apAvyA--nagara zeThane munIme cAra lAkhanI vAta kahI. zeThe krodhAtura khanI tene gharamAMthI kADhI mUkayA. ane kahayu ke cAra lAkha rUpIne meLavIza. ane laIne AvIza tyAre ja gharamAM pesavA daIza. zeThanA putra vicAra karyo ke atyAre ja krodhane mAravAmAM sAra che. pUjya pitA upara krodha karavA nahI. Ama vicArI vinaya pUrvaka kahyu ke jevI tamArI AjJA, Ama kahI jevA gharathI bahAra nIkaLe che tAve prathama mAtAne page lAgavA gayA ' For Private And Personal Use Only

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40 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita mamatALu mAtAe vAtsalyathI bhAtu tathA nAnI ratna bharelI DhabuDI-lATI ApI. tene grahaNa karIne dezAntara ganana karavA nIkaLye rastAmAM sago bahenanuM ghara Avyu teNIe paNa Adara satkAra karyAM nahI. tenA pitAe patra dvArA jaNAvela hatu ke tArA bhAi Ave te Adara satkAra karavA nahI. tethI bahene paNa Adara satkAra karyA vinA javA mATe kahyuM. te paNa krodhAtura thayA vinA kSamAne dhAraNa karavA puka sukhazAtA puchIne AgaLa cAlyeA. eka mATA nagaramAM gayA tenA rAjAne ekaja putrI che. paraMtu je mANasa rAtrimAM tenI pAse rahe te macchu pAme che. tethI rAjAe evA DhaDharA jAhera karyo che ke je mANasa mArI dIkarI pAse rAtrie rahe ane jIvatA uMThe tene putrI sAthe rAjyane aNu karIza. A nagaramAM Avela zeThanA putre kharAkhara vicAra karIne rAtrie teNI pAse sUI javAnuM kabulyu rAtrie te rAjakanyA nidrAmAM gherAela che tenI pAse jaine eka bAju guptapaNe rahyo che ane jAgatA kuvA banAva bane che te tapAsa karI rahela che tevAmAM rAjakumArInA mukhamAMthI viSadhara sApa nIka khyA ane kAi uMghI gayelAnI tapAsa kare che. sApa zeTha putranI pAse AvyA paNa jAgatA DhAvAthI daza mArI zakA nahI. sApane paNa jAgatA manuSya taraphathI bhIti hoya che. tethI aa caDAvIne DAlyA kare che jo uMdhI jAya te jarUra karaDuM paNa te jAgatAnejAgatA rahyo. zeThaputra vicAra kare che. ke jo uMdhIza tA nakkI A sApa karaDaze mATe verI anelane mAravA nahI paNa Adara satkAra ane premathI vaza karavA, Ama dhArI te sApanI AgaLa suga MdhIDhAra puSpA varyAM dudhanA TArA For Private And Personal Use Only

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tatra naiti 249 mUkAvyA. ane upadeza ApavA lAgyA hai sApa, rAjakumArI pAse rahelAM nidrAvaza anelane tu zA mATe karaDe che tArA sukhamAM kAMi Avatu nathI. ane veranI sAthe atyaMta pApa adha kare che mATe zAMta manI A bhavamAM niyamanI ArAdhanA karI sadUgatine meLava ? vera levAthI vera vaLatu nathI. pazu vadhe che. AvuM samajI kumArInA zarIramAM tAre pAchuM pesavu* nahI. paNa jyAM tArU sthala che tyAM javuM ane koIne karavuM nahI. A pramANe sAMbhaLI verabhAvane tyAga karI sarpa jaMgalamAM peAtAnA sthAne cAlyA gayA ane je rAjakanyA pIDAtI hatI te pIDA rahita manI. zeThaputra paNa jIvatA rahyo. zeThaputra vicAra kare che ke te patranA cAra lAkha rUpiyA ApyA te vaLI gayA. rAjA tra vacana pAlaka che tethI prAtakAle IcchAthI adhika lAbha thaze. sArU thayuM ke pitAe gharamAMthI kADhI mUka ane patramAM lakhela hita zikSAonA paNa anubhava Atmyo. savAramAM jIvatA zeThaputrane dekhI rAjA ghaNaiA khuzI thayeA rAtrinI banelI khInA puchI. tenA uttara sAMbhaLI rAjAe peAtAnA rAjyanI sAthe kanyAne dIdhI. have nagara zeThanA putra nRpa thayeA. nyAyathI rAjya karavA lAgyA tenI praza MsA tenA pitAe sAMbhaLI te paNa adhika khuzI thayA. A mujama je vana rAkhe te sukhI ane che mATe krodhane mAravAmAM sAra, vairIne Adara ApavAmAM sAra ane jAgate nara sAra. A kahevata yAda rAkhavAnI jarUra che. je leAkA sauMpatti-sattAmAM sAra mAnI beThelA che te o upara kahelo hita zikSAone mAnI te pramANe vana 16 For Private And Personal Use Only

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242 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita rAkhe tA ja kAMIka sAra prApta karI zake, nahItara ahaMkAraabhimAna-mamatA-adekhAi AvIne phasAve. mahApaMDite AcAya upAdhyAya vigerenI prajJA-ane mahattA tyAre ja sala thAya ke uparAkta vacanAne anusare teA. anyathA te paMDitAine mahatva, vAvivAda-caDasAcaDasImAM vRthA gumAvI bese. mATe dareka mAnavIone tenI jarUra che. te krodhane mAre nahI te dhananA gava hAvAthI saheja pratikulatA thatAM magaja gumAvI krodhAnnura ane agara cIDAIne gALeA devA lAge eTale maLelA dhananI salatA maLe nahI. ane vairIone UbhA kare, pachI vairanI paraparA vadhatAM je AtmAnnati thavAnI hoya tenA nirodha thAya. ane nirodha thatAM adhama gatimAM Avavu' paDe mATe kAma krodhAdikane mArA, verIne Adara Ave ane jAgatA rahyA. - anAdikAlathI kAM lAgelA hAvAthI mAha-ajJA natA vigere dAAthI prANIo gherAelA che. tethI jagatamAM sArA sayAgA tathA tathA nimitA prApta thAya teA paNa satya lAbha-meLavI zakatA nathI. ane mAyA samatAmAM Asakta banI pAte jAte du:khamAM viDaMbanAomAM phasAi jAya che. temAM je samyajJAnI. vicAraka-ane vivekI hAya che. te samyag jJAnanA khaLathI zubha nimitto maLatAM lAbha uThAvI zake che. ane prApta thayelA lAlane eTale saMpatti-sattA zaktine samAge vAparI pAte sukhI thAya che. ane meha For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara ti mamatAne tyAga karavA pUrvaka ane anaMta sukhanA svAmI bane che. eka vaNajhArAnI pAse vyApAra karatAM lAkha senAmahere hatI, tethI tenuM rakSaNa karavA eka cejanA karI. jevI ke eka jaMgalamAM mANasanI lAkaDAnI mUrti banAvI raMga sAthe rUpALI banAvI, te paNa pilI rAkhI. ane temAM lAkha sonAmahore bharI, mastaka evuM banAvyuM ke tene kAgyA sivAya judu paDe nahI. A pramANe banAvI sonA mahA pilI te mUrtimAM bharIne pAchA vyApAra karavA lAge. lagabhaga kare senAmaha bharIne te mUrtinA mastake lakhyuM ke je mAthu-vaDhe te mAla kADhe. A pramANe lakhIne pitAnA sthale vaNajhAre. gaye. te mAge gamana karanAra mANase, lakhelAne vAce che ke mAthu vADhe te mAla kADhe. A pramANe vAMcIne keTalAka te maraNanI bhItie cAlyA jAya che. keTalAka pitAnuM mastaka kApavA taiyAra che. paNa tene sAcA artha jANavAmAM AvatuM na hovAthI karela prayAsa vRthA jAya che. tevAmAM eka vicArake AvIne te lakhela mujaba pilI mUrtinuM taravArathI mastaka uDAvI dIdhuM ane senAmaherene grahaNa karI cAlato thaye. te pramANe dharmazAstronA arthane je sArI rIte jANatA nathI. tene rahasya sAra kyAMthI maLe! phakta zabdane vacce paNa tenA sAce artha-2hasya jANe nahI. te bhaNavAnI karelI mahenata mAthe paDe che. mATe zAstranA rahasyane jANa alabhya lAbhane prApta kare. AzaMsA sahita-nipRhadAtA virala hoya che, yazakIri For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAramAra ti prazaMsA prApta karavA mATe dAna lenAra ghaNA hoya che tethI te virala dAna denAranA upara adekhAI karatA dekhAya che. kAraNa ke AzaMsA prazaMsA vigerene citte rAkhI dAna denA2nA karatAM AzaMsA rahitanI prazaMsA sumAM adhika thatI hAvAthI hRdayamAM alyA kare che ke mArAthI adhika tenI prazaMsA thAya che. paNa mArI sujJajanemAM thatI nathI. tethI dIdheluM dAna mamatAne alpa karatuM nathI ane samatvane lAvI ApatuM nathI mATe dAna devAmAM keI prakAranI AzaMsA rAkhavI nahI. A dAnezvarI anyanA bhalA mATe lAbhane mATe prANanuM dAna devA paNa tatpara bane che. keI rAjA svaprazaMsAnI khAtara je kaI mAgavA Ave tene IcchA mujaba dAna ApIne mokahato. tethI tenI prazaMsA mAganArAo karavA lAgyA. te zravaNa karI zA bahu khuzI thaze. mAgyA karatAM paNa adhika dAna rate. paraMtu eka hAtima karIne AzaMsA sahita dAnezvarI hate teno sarve mANasA surajano tathA te sivAya anyane tenI bhUrI bhUrI prazaMsA karatA hovAthI prathama rAjA, tenA upara adekhAI karavA lAge. ke jyAM sudhI A hAtIma jIvate che. tyAM sudhI sarve jAmArI bhUri bhUri prazaMsA karaze nahI. mATe tenuM kAsaLa kADhI nAkhavuM. A pramANe vicAra kare che. te avasare parvanA divase mAgaNI karanArAo thANA bhegA thayA. rAjAe dAna paNa yatheccha dIdhuM. teo paikI keTalAeka rAjAnI ghaNI prazaMsA kare che. ane vakhANe che. te sAMbhaLI eka be dAna lenArA kahevA lAgyA ke, bhale rAjA dAna IcchA mujaba de che. paNa prazaMsA meLavavA khAtara Ape che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 245 jo koIe prazaMsA karI nahI ane khuzAmata karI nahI teA joI lA,tenuM mukha dIvela pIdhA jevu' banI jAya che. paNa hAtIma jyAre dAna kare che tyAre khuzAmata ke prazaMsAne icchatA nathI. ane ke khuzAmata kare tA nIcu mukha rAkhI khuzAmatanuM nIvAraNu kare che. tethI amane A rAjA karatAM te adhika dAtA lAge che. A pramANe khAnagImAM vAta karanAranuM zravaNu karI. rAjAe pAtAnA sevakAne kahyuM ke, je hAtimanuM mastaka kApIne hAjara kare tene savA lAkha rUpiyA ApIzuM, A sAMbhaLI eka krUra sevaka tenuM mastaka kApavA mATe hAtimanI zeSa karavA lAgyA paNa zeAdha karatAM patto lAgyo nahI. zekhI zekhI thAya! udAsIna anyA. eka yuvAnanA gharamAM jaI pANI mAgyuM. tyAre yuvAne tene annapANI Apyu. tethI tenI khuzAmata karavA lAgyA. yuvAne kahyu ke huM khuzAmatane huM IcchatA nathI. thAkelA musAphA vigerene annapANI ApavuM te amArI pharaja che. A sAMbhaLI AvelA 2 sevaka aca pAmyA ane vicAra karavA lAgyA ke, amArA rAjA dAna te mAganArane Ape che. paNa dAna dIdhA pahelAM tathA dAna dIdhA pachI jo kAI vakhANuM nahI khuzAmata kare nahI te bIjAone kahevA lAge che ke A leAkeAne daraja nathI. A yuvAna teA khuzAmata ke vakhANu paNa IcchatA nathI. A pramANe vicAra kare che tevAmAM yuvAne puchyuM. tame kayA gAmathI AvA che ane zA kAma mATe phA che. te sevake kahyuM ke huM hAtimanI zodha karU chu pazu tenA patto lAgyA nathI. zeAdha karatAM ahIM A Avela For Private And Personal Use Only

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241 A. kItisAgarasUri racita chuM. dhavAnuM kAraNa e che ke, amArA rAjAe hAtImanuM mastaka kApI lAve tene savA lAkha rUpiyA ApavAnuM kahela hevAthI tene mAryo tenuM mastaka kApavA mATe paribhramaNa karuM chuM. A sAMbhaLI yuvAne kahayuM ke huM pite hAtIma chuM je tane lAbha thato hoya te talavAravaDe mArU mAthuM kApIne laI jA, sevake hAtImanuM mastaka kApavA talavAra ugAmI paNa tenA hAthamAMthI talavAra nIce paDI gaI ane bheTI paDI kahyuM ke tamArI dAna devAnI bhAvanA judA prakAranI che Ama kahIne rAjAnI pAse AvyA ane banelI saghaLI bInA kahI. rAjA paNa hAtImanI bhAvanAne jANI tathA niSNuhatAne jANI. pote tenA upara prItine dhAraNa karavA lAge. ane AzaMsA rahita dAnAdi karavAmAM tatpara banyuM. mATe AzaMsA-adekhAIno tyAga kare. dhanAdikanA lAbha khAtara manuSya vividha kaSTa sahana karavA pUrvaka krodha-AbhamAna adekhAI vigerene tyAga karIne zeTha-adhikArI taraphathI dhanAdikane lAbha prApta kare che. bhale pachI zeTha agara adhikArI gussAmAM AvI tiraskAra-dhikAra sahita gALe bhAMDe te paNa tenA taraphathI lAbha maLatuM hevAthI sahana karI zake che. sAmane karatA nathI. kaTuka vacane paNa amRta jevA mAnI sva magajane gumAvatA nathI. khIjAtA-cIDAtA paNa nathI. teo samaje che ke je sAmane karyo ke khIjAIne belIzuM te kAMI lAbha maLaze nahI ne kADhI mUkaze. Ama samajI vividha kapAtura thavAnA prasaMge upasthita thAya. khIjAvAnA nimitto maLe te paNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 240 sahana karI le. eka nAkaranI mAka. eka dhanADhaya zeThanA gharamAM dazamAra nAkarA hatA. temAM eka nAkara kAmanA kara hateA, kAma karIne zeThane satASa ApatA. pazu peAtAnI marajI mujaba khIjA dAsa-dAsIo kAma kare nahIM te maga jane gumAvI tenI sAthe darAja takarAra-kalaha kara. ane gALe! paNa bhAMDatA. dAsadAsIoe bhegA maLI zeThane phariyAda karI. tamArA mAnItA nokara amA sArI rIte gharanA kAryo karIye chatAM takarAra-kalaha vigere karIne gALeA bhAMDe che. mATe tene samajAvA. tenI marajI mujama kAma thayu' nahIM te ekadama udaLI paDe che, jema tema pheke rAkhe che. zeTha te nAkarane khAnagImAM samajAve che. tyAre kahe che ke mArI marajI mujama kAma thatu na heAvAthI magaja kAbumAM rahetu nathI. zeThe kahyu ke e nekarA tArA dAsa nathI ke tArI marajI pramANe gharamAM dukAnanA kAmeA kare. darekanA svabhAva bhinna bhinna haiAya che. te ne gharanA kAme magADatA haiAya te kahevu ucita che. mATe tAre bIjAnA kAmamAM mAthu' mAravuM nahIM. tane soMpelI kAya paddhati kare jA, khIjAvAthI tArU magaja adhika kharAkha thaze. ala buddhihIna banIza. A pramANe zeTha dararAja zikhAmaNa ApyA kare che, paNa nA tathA pramANika hAvAthI tene kADhI mUkAtA nathI, sArI rIte vicAra karIne zeThe eka yukti zeAdhI kADhI. ke game tevA mANu kAraNAne pAsIne kApAtura bane ke khIjAya tA ANu dhanAdinI lAlace zAMta bane che. khIjAtA nathI. Ama samajIne te nAkarane jenu magaja kAbumAM rahetuM nathI tene khelAvIne kahyu ke Aje tu koInI paNa sAme For Private And Personal Use Only

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148 A. kIrtisAgaracari sarita takarAra-kajI vigere na kare te pAMca rUpiyA InAma tarIke ApIza. bhale pAMca rUpiyA InAma tarIke ApatA he te huM mana dhAraNa karIne mane peluM kAma karIza, bIjA dAsa-dAsIo tene kepa karAvavA, khIjavavA mATe ghaNe prayAsa kare che. tenI sAme chaNakA mazkarI vigere kare che. te paNa te nekara dhanAdikanI khAtara kaMI paNa bela nathI, ulTa manamAM hasyA kare che. te samaje che ke je takarAra ke kaMkAsa karyo te zeTha rUpiyA Apaze nahI. bhale teo bAlyA kare ke hAsI mazkarI, karyA kare, paNa mauna dhAraNa karavuM temAMja lAbha ane hita che. bIjA dAsa dAsIo chevaTe thAkayA ane kahevA lAgyA ke Aje mAre beTe ke zAMta banI beThA che. bIjA nekare kahyuM ke Aje zeTha pAMca rUpiyA ApavAnA che. tethI bIlDIbAI 25 thayA che. nahItara gusse thayA vinA rahetI nahi. The sAMje AvI mauna rahelo hevAthI ane kalahakaMkAza vigere nahI karavAthI pAMca rUpiyA ApIne kahyuM ke eka mahInA sudhI zAMta banI kaMkAza vigerenahI kare te ja pAMca rUpiyA ApIza ane kahyuM ke eka mahinA sudhI zAMta banI kaMkAza na kare te vadhu InAma tarIke pacIsa rUpiyA ApIza. pacIsanI lAlace mahinA sudhI mauna rahyo tyAre tene AnaMda paDavA lAge. have zeTha inAma Ape nahI te paNa jIvana parvata karIe kaMkAsa karIne magajane gumAvavuM nahI A vicAra kare che. tevAmAM zeThe kahyuM ke rUpiyAnI khAtara te mahinA sudhI mauna dhAraNa karyuM. te pramANe dagAnI sudhI zAMta ane minaja gumAve nahI te AtmAne vikAsa thAya. ane For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara ti Anada paNa maLatuM rahe. nekare kahyuM ke zeThazrI tamane satya kahyuM, bhale rUpiyAnI lAlace mahinA sudhI mauna dhAraNa karyuM paNa rUpiyAnA lAbha karatAM zAMta rahevAmAM atyaMta AnaMda maLe che. have InAmanI jarUra nathI, jIvanaparyata magaja gumAvIza nahI. zeTha khuzI thayA. ane InAma tarIke Apela rUpiyAnI saphaLatA mAnavA lAgyA 100 nirAzakta mAtapItA, pitAnA saMtAnane pazu zubha saMskArene sarasa vAro bAlyA vasthAmAMthI paNa ApatA rahe che. tethI pitAnA saMtAne ane teonI paraMparA lAlacu ane labADa ane laMpaTa banatI nathI. sadAcAranuM rItasara pAlana karavA pUrvaka anyajanene anukaraNIya bane che. ane prazaMsA pAtra banI A bhavamAM ane parabhavamAM sukhazAMti pAme che. tyAre je mAtApitA Asakta banela hoya che tenA saMtAnone zubha saMskAra nahI paDatA hovAthI ane pADavA na hevAthI lAlaca labADa teo pAke emAM navAI zI? saMskAra rahita saMtAne lAlacanA ge labADa banI peTa bharIne mAra khAya ane pastA karavA ane rUdana karavA besI jAya che. eka gAmane rAjA nyAyanIti parAyaNa hatuM ane te gAmamAM rahetA eka brAhmaNa sAmAnya sthitinohate paNa pitAnA saMtAnane tene dararoja sadAcAranA saMskAra ApI nIti nipuNa karela hatAM. temaja rAjAe paNa potAnA sevaka sama For Private And Personal Use Only

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250 A. kIti sAgarari racita saMtAneAne zubha saMskAra arpaNu karavA pUrNAMka nItimAna anAvela hatA. zubha saMskArI brAhmaNane tAvanA vyAdhi lAgu paDayA vaidyanI davA lIdhI tAva moMda paDayA paNu azakta hAvAthI kAMI kAya karI zakatA nathI. parANe parANe keI yajamAnanA gharamAM jai caMDIpAThane karyo tethI dakSiNAmAM cAra rUpiyA maLyA. ane putrane kahyuM ke vaidyanI pAse jaI lIdhelI davAnA cAra rUpiyA ApI Ava, rUpiyAnuM pAkITa laI ne ramata karatA ApavA jAya che. teTalAmAM khIssAmAMthI rupiyAnuM pAkITa sarakI paDayuM'. jyAre khIssAmAM tapAsa karI tyAre pAkITa dekhyu nahI ane raDavA lAgyA. have hu vaidyane rupiyA kevI rIte ApIza, mAtapitA ThapakA Apaze, Ama raDI rahela che. tevAmAM rAjA peAtAnA sevakA sAthe tyAM thaine gamana karI rahela che. eka sevakanA hAthamAM paDI gaela pAkITa sAbu, mArge raDatA te putrane dekhI puchyuM' are chokarA tuM kema raDe che ? teNe paDI gaelA pAkITane tathA svagRhanI sthitinI mInA kahI. rAjAe te satya rahe che ke asatya raDI rahela che tenI khAtrI karavA mATe-parIkSA karavA peAtAnI pAse rahela seAnA mahArAthI bharela pAkITa dekhADayuM. ane kahyuM ke je A pAkITa tArU che. nA sAheba A mArUM' nahI. Avu. senAmahArAthI bharela amArA garImanI pAse hAya kayAMthI? kruta vaidyanI davAnA cAra rUpiyA, mArA pitAe mAkalela hatAM paNa ramatamAM paDI gaela pAkITanI khabara rahI nahI. tethI raDuM chuM. rAjA chekarAne sArA saMskAra vALe ane pramANika jANI khuzI thayA. ane sevakanI pAse hAthamAM Avela te dekhADayuM. tethI khuzI thaIne kahevA lAgyA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti 251 sAheba Aja mArU pAkITa che. rAjAe te pAkITa arpaNa karyuM. ane senAmaheranuM pAkITa paNa arpaNa karyuM, e pAkITane laIne vaidyanI pAse AvI davAnA rUpiyA. ApyA. ane ghera AvI rAjAe Apela pAkITanI bInA kahI. mAtA pitAe kahyuM ke tuM lAlacu baLe nahi te ghaNuM suMdara karyuM. hamezAM sadAcAra pALavAthI he dIkarA! prabhu ApaNunI vAre Ave che. saMkaTo viDaMbanAone nivArI anaMta raddhi siddhinA svAmi banAve che. rAjAe Apela senAmaheranA pAkITanI vAta bIjA lAlacu chokarAe jANI ke raDatA chokarAne rAjA mahArAnuM pAkITa Ape che te lAva, huM paNa raDate mArgamAM besuM ane dInatA hInatA rAjAne darzAvuM. mane paNa maLaze. A dhArI rAjamArgo rUdana karatA beTha. nRpa, sevake sAthe te sthaLe AvyuM. raDatA A lAlaca ane daMbhI chekarAne puchayuM. alyA? kema raDe che teNe banAvaTI bInA kahI duHkhI avasthA jaNAvI. mArI pAse pAkITa paDI gayuM che tethI rudana karuM chuM. A rAjAe parIkSA levA pitAnI pAsenuM senAmaheranuM bIju pAkeTa dekhADyuM. pelAe lAlacathI asatya belI kahyuM ke sAhIbAna-Aja mAruM pAkITa che. rAjAe sahaja hasIne pAse rahelA sevakane IzAre karyo. sevake, te A pAkeTa Ama kahIne cAra paNa seTInA phaTakA lagAvyA. juThe labADa kahIne kADhI mukayA saMskAra heya nahI. tyAM AvI sthitivALA dIkarAo pAke che mATe saMskAra Apo. zakAtura mANase paripurNa tapAsa karyA sivAya For Private And Personal Use Only

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15ra A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita utAvaLIyA banIne aneka upadrave karI bese che. temAM je rAjAne adhikArI ke zeThane pitAnA nekara ke anuyAyI taraphanI zaMkA thaI to te adhika nukazAnI mArajhuDa vigere karI bese che pachI tapAsa karatAM cokkasa thAya ke gunahegAra nathI tyAre ghaNe pastA kare che. mahAsatI kalAvatI upara zaMkAtura thaela zaMkharAjAnI mAphaka. pitAe mekalela kaMkaNane paherI svapitAnA guNenuM vakhANa karatI kalAvatI upara zaMkAne lAvavA pUrvaka tenA be hAtha zaMkhe kapAvyA paraMtu jyAre cokkasa khabara paDI tyAre paritApAdikaratA zaMkha rAjA baLavA mATe taiyAra thaye pradhAnee samajAvI sthira karyo. te pramANe AjanA jamAnAmAM keTalAka strIo upara nokara cAkara upara zaMkAne dhAraNa karI strInuM nAka kApe che agara tene nAza kare che. nekara cAkara hoya te mAra mArI tagaDI mUke che. paNa barobara tapAsa karatA nathI. te temanI utAvaLa che. "malakacaMda jaDIAnI mAphaka-eka ThAkarANIe potAnA pati ThAkaranI AjJA laI tene bolAvyuM. ane senAnA kaDAmAM jaDavA mATe hIrA mANekane dekhADayA. malakacaMda jaDIo sarasa ane pANIdAra hIrA vigerene dekhI khuza thayo. ane te laIne pitAne ghera AvI kuzaLa kArIgara je pitAne hatuM tene kaDAmAM jaDavAnuM kahyuM. raMgIla nAme kArIgara hIrA dekhI vakhANa karavA lAge. ke AvA hIrA mANeka alpa pramANamAM dekhavAmAM Ave che. thaNuM sarasa pANIdAra che. Ama vAre vAre vakhANa karatA hovAthI jaDIAne tenA upara zaMkA thaI paNa kaMI te be nahI. -bIje dIvase tapAsa kare che. te sArAmAM sArA be hIrA For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara ti 253 khyA nahIM. Ama tenA para vakhANa karatA hovAthI prathama zaMkA te hatI ane be hIrA nahIM dekhavAthI pUre pUrI zaMkA thaI, tene bolAvIne jaDIAe puchayuM athA! hIrA be dekhAtA nathI. te lIdhA te nathIne! te be meM lIdhA nathI ane lauM paNa nahIM. tyAre te hIrAo kyAM gayA? te lIdhA na hoya te levA joIe ne ! Ama kahI gussAmAM AvI mArajhuDa karI dhakako mArI kADhI mUke. ane kahyuM ke harAmakhera! te hIrA lIdhA che. chatAM khoTuM bele che. polIsane svAdhIna kara joIe. paNa te sArI. rIte nokarI karI che. tethI pakaDAvatuM nathI. kArIgara sarve sahana karI pitAnA sthAne Avyo. tenA gayA pachI bIje divase trIje hIra dekhAze nahI. tapAsa karatAM pATanA nIcenI bhUmimAM eka dara dekhAyuM. tenI pAse traNa hIrA paDelA dekhyA. traNa hIrAne laI jaDIo vicAra karavA lAgyuM ke kArIgaranA gayA pachI trIje hIra ceranAra keNa haze. tenI tapAsa karavAnI jarUra che. tapAsa mATe rAtrimAM jaDIye jAgate rahyo. tevAmAM eka mATe uMdara cothA hIrAne laI jatetenI pAsethI tho hIra paDAvI lIdhe paNa jaDIo kArIgarane mAramArI dhamadhamAvIne kADhI mUke te mATe saMtApa karavA lAge. hIrAte uMdara laI gayA ane kArIgaranA upara behIza. laI gayAne Aropa mUkaye te sArU karyuM nahIM. temAM vaLI mAramArIne kADhI mUkya kuzaLa ane vaphAdAra A kArIgara - maLavo muzkela che. mArI have zaMkA gaI che ke kArIgare e hIrAo ceryA nathI. prathama zAMta banIne tapAsa karI hota For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasari racita te saMtApe karavAne avasara AvatA nathI. ane have tenA vinA kAma cAle ema nathI. A vicArI tenA ghera malukacaMda jaDI gaye. kArIgaranI pAse mAphI mAgI. ane kahyuM ke meM avicArI utAvaLuM pagaluM bharyuM te kSamA kara, ane cAla pAche mAre ghera kArIgara khuzI thaye. ane kahevA lAgyA. tapAsa dvArA satya vAtanI mAluma paDI tethI huM khuzI thaye chuM zeTha! kadApi huM corI karato nathI. mATe have tevI zaMkA lAvatA nahI ane e prasaMga AvI lAge te barAbara tapAsa karaze. Ama kArIgAra zeThanA ghera gaye-jaDIyA zeTha khuzI thayA. ane sArU InAma ApyuM. mATe vicAra karIne varte. 101 puNyodaye prApta thayela sattA-saMpattine sadupacega karo te cakravRddhi vyAja ApanAra tayA saMprakhyAta asaMkhyAta gaNuM vyAja A5nAra heTI peDhInI bAbara che. bhAga upagamAM kharacavuM te gumAvavA jevuM che mATe sAta kSetramAM dhana-balane vyaya karI. vAvIne sadupayoga kare te dhArmika zraddhALunuM kartavya che. je sadupayoga karazo nahI te tene nAza thavAno saMbhava che te nAza thAya. ane anyanA hAthe jAya te pahelAM potAnA hAthe sAtakSetromAM dhanAdikane vAvI acinya lAbha le te DAhyA mANasane jarUranuM che. A lekamAM AbarU vadhavAnI sAthe puNyabaMdha thaze ane paralekamAM sadupayeganA AdhAre ISTa anukulatA maLI Avaze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti. eka dhanA zeTha nyAya saMpanna vibhavavALA hatA. temaja dharmanA sArA saMskAre hovAthI temane prApta thaelA pisAna atyaMta lAbha levA mATe vicAra karavA lAgyA. upabhegamAM kharacavAthI te paisA gumAvI pApabaMdha karavA jevuM che. nA chUTake vAparavA paDe che ane pApane baMdha paDane rahe che. AnA karatAM sAtakSetramAM dhanAdikane vAparavAmAM Ave te puNyabaMdhanI sAthe mAyA mamatAne abhAva thAya. ane mAyA-mamatAne tyAga te parama-satya saMpattinuM kAraNa che. Ama samajI AnapAnAdikamAM, bhege pagamAM sAdAI rAkhIne je dhana vadhe te sAta kSetramAM vAparavA lAgyA tyAre eka paDelI A zeThane kahevA lAgyA ke tamArI pAse aDhaLaka dhana che. chatAM tame ghaNI sAdAI rAkhe che besavA mATe vAhana-meTara- TekSI ke rIkSA paNa rAkhatA nathI page cAlIne jAe che bhejanamAM paNa evA mIThAI khAtA nathI. tyAre zeThe kahyuM sAdAI rAkhavAthI dhanane bacAva thAya che ane page cAla vAthI tAkAta vadhavAnI sAthe jIvajatunuM rakSaNa thAya che dayA paLAya che adhika pApa baMdhAtuM nathI ane vadhelA dhanAdikanuM atyaMta vyAja maLe tevA sthale mUkuM chuM-kahe have sAdAI rAkhavA keTalo lAbha che? lAbha sivAya sAdAI kaNa rAkhe che? lAbha je dekhAtuM hoya te kSudhA pipAsAne paNa tyAga karIne lAbha levA mAnavIo tatpara bane che. A sAMbhaLI pADozIe pAchuM kahyuM ke, tamee keIuttama peDhImAM agara beMkamAM rUpiyA vyAje mukyA hoya te khabara paDyA vinA rahe nahI ke? jarUra mAluma paDe beMkamAM agara suMdara peDhImAM tame For Private And Personal Use Only

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mA. kIti sAgarari saMta vyAje rUpiyA cukayA nathI ane tenI kharAbara mAluma e zeThe uMcu ke, A cAlatI peDhI ke ekamAM cukayA nathI tyAM tA mAryA pramANe sArAmAM sArI bhAvanA hAya te paNa yathaicchAthI adhika lAbha maLatA nathI paNa cchiAthI adhika suMdara bhAvanAnA yoge sAtakSetra rUpI ekAmAM dhana vigerene muku chuM. tethI prathama tA tene sAcavavAno cintA DhaLe che. ane bhAvanA vadhatI hAvAthI Atma vizvAsa sadhAtA rahe che temaja puNyama dhanI sAthe praza'mA pazu thatI ya che mATe are bhAI ! sAta kSetrAne peDhI agara ekI mAnuM jI. mA peDhI agara bekAnA ane sudra vyavahAra ane vyApAra che ke dApi tene khATa thatI nathI ke devALu kADhatI nathI ke makelA paisAmenI barabAdI thAya. DezIe huM ke tamArI beMko agara peDhImA judA prAranI che AvA lakSaNa ke vyAja dunyavI khetIe kayAMtho ApI zake? temaja leAittara peDhIone saramA Asakata mAnavA oLakhe kyAMthI? te te, tamArA jevA je anAsakata dhanADhya DAya te lAkottara beMka peDhI sArI rIte oLakhI janme yukIne asabhya lAbha laI zake? dunyavI ekAnA vizvAsa zuM ? ghaDIkamAM devALu karI leAkAnI milkata hajama karI nAMkhe che. pachI rUpiyA mukanArA bhAvanagarI cAphALa eDhIne pAka muke te paNa te e kAnA tathA peDhIAAnA mAlIkAne kaMI thatuM nathI. AAvI peDhIo ekAmAM ajJAnI hAya tA ja dhanane muke, A gujama pADAzIe kahIne kahyu ke havethI huM sAdAi zakhI-macelI rUpiyAne sAtakSetrAmAM vAparI sadupayoga karIza. For Private And Personal Use Only

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khAMtara ti 257 ane parekanuM bhAtu taiyAra karIza ke jethI parakamAM Adhi vyAdhi ane viDaMbanA AvI zake nahI. 10ra cAritra zIla bhAgyazAlIone tenA jeTalA jeTalA sAdhana kenimitta hoya che. te kAmazeSaNanA hevAthI cAritranuM rakSaNa zakya bane che. bhale pachI dezathI ke savathI cAritravALA hoya. dezathI cAritravALAe dezathI skUla janAjJA mujaba pAlana kare che. dezathI cAritravALAone paNa sarvathI cAritra pAlana karavAnI tIvrachA hevI joIe. tethI ja AtmannatimAM AgaLa vadhI teo svaparane satya lAbha ApavA samartha bane che. teo sArI rIte samaje che. dhana-dhAnyAdika tathA prANo bIjIvAra prApta thaze paNa gumAela dhamapunaH prApta thavuM azakya che. eTale ja cAritra pAlanamAM vividha vine Ave to paNa nibhaya banI sahana karI le che. - savA varSa pahelAM kaccha dezamAM vAkI gAmamAM pAlaNa zAha ane ummarabAI daMpatI hatA. teoe gurumahArAja pAse dezaviti-sthUlathI bAravrate prANAtipAtAdiviramaNa ucaryAM hatAM ane lIdhelAM tene tridhAe pAlana karatA hatA. vratamAM kasoTI Ave, kasaTI vipnane sahana karI alabhyalAbhane meLavI Ape che. dhamanI sAthe vyavahArika kAryo karavAmAM a85 ke adhika sahana karavAnuM hoya che. paNa temAM aDaga makkama rahete vinenuM jora cAlatuM nathI. banyuM evuM ke, eka dIvasa temanI dIkarI nadIe vastrAdika devA gaI dhoIne 17 For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgara rata AvI eka thele pagamAM Thesa vAgatA tApaNA karI. to paththaranI nIce teNe kerIone dekhI. te laI svara AvI. dIkarIe kerIe pitAnI mAtAne arpaNa karI. tevAmAM pAlaNa zAha khetaramAMthI ghera AvyA. jamInamAMthI maLelI kArIonI bInA jANIne kahyuM ke, A kora ApaNe khape nahI teNIono mAlIka gAmane ThAra kahevAya. mATe lAvo A kerIo ThAkorane ApI AvuM. Ama kahI kAkeranI pAse AvI jamInamAM nIkaLelI te kerIonI vAta kahI. tene ApI. tethI Thokara bahu khuzI thayo ane dareka adhikArI-zeTha sAhukAre AgaLa tenI prazaMsA karavA lAgyA. kArabhArIne pAlaNa zAhanI prazaMsA sahana thaI nahI. adekhAI karavA pUrvaka kAke ne kahevA lAgyo ke are ThAkora! A te vANIyAbhAInI karAmata che. ghaNI koro nIkaLI haze paNa zAhukArI dekhADavA ATalI reDI karIne tamane dekhI che. mATe te prazaMsA pAtra nathI. vANInI gati ame jANIe. ThAkaeNra pAlaNa zAhane bolAvIne puchayuM, are zAha je amane arpaNa karI tethI vadhAre kerI nIkaLI che te saghaLa kema ApI nahI? pAlaNazAhe kahyuM ke je tamArA AgaLa mukI teTalI ja maLelI che. jamInamAMthI nIkaLela tathA visarI gaela-thApaNa vigere ame jenA svAmI nathI te dhanAdika levAne niyamatrata lIdhela che eTale eka korI paNa amo saMgharatA nathI. tame gharamAM tapAsa kare. IrSyALu kArabhArIe kahyuM ke tapAsa karavAnI jarUra nathI paNa tame sAcA ho te tapAvela tAvI upADo je nahI ane te tame sAcA che nahItara For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara gati R C asatya khelavAthI gunhegAra khanaze. pAlaNuzAhe karyuM ke mA kAM satyayuga che bApujI. ke AvAM dIvya hAMya chatAM tamArI marajI hAya tA te kriya karavAne ame taiyAra chIe tAvIce tapAvIne hAjara karavAmAM mAnyA. pAlaNa zAha sakalpa karyo ke ame acauya vratanuM pAlana karatA hAie tA hAtha maLe nahI. Ama sakalpa karIne lAlaceALa anelA tAvIthAne pakaDayeA. kArabhArIe kahyuM tenA hAthAne hAtha lagADhace che tenA AgaLanA bhAgane pakaDAvA. AgaLanA bhAga pakaDayA, ane hAtha aLyo nahI. tyAre kArabhAroe kahyu` ke te bhAga ThaMDA thaela hovAthIDhAjhayA nahI. tyAre ThAkura kArabhArInA hAthamAM cAMpI dIdhA. hAtha maLavAthI buma pADatA nAke tenI nindA thaI ane pAlajI zAhanI adhika praznasA thaI mATe cAritra pAlavAmAM dhanAdhikanI mamatAnA tyAga karavA jarUrI che. A prabhunI AjJAnuM je bhAgyazAlI mArI rIte pAlana kare che te ja satya sayama pAlAmAM samatha mane che ane prANAMte paNa saMyama-cAstrine gumAvatA nathI, kAraNa ke mAnasika vRttimAne kabajAmAM karIne pAMca indrinA gulAma anavu nahI te ati duSkara che, jInezvaranI AjJAne zraddhA pUrvIka nahI pALanAranA sadA gulAma rahIne svaparanuM kalyANu karI zakatA nathI tethI ja sasAra sAgaramAM khUDIne vividha vedanAo sahana kare che. jyAre jItezvaranI AjJAne pAlana karanArA saMsAra sAgarane tarI akSaya sukhanA bhaktA bane che. mATe vyavahAramAM sayama-satyAdikanI pAlana karavAnI tamannA rAkhavI joIe. kaccha dezamAM rAtaDIyA gAmanA jAgIradAra er For Private And Personal Use Only

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20 A. ti prAgarasUri racita pAte te rUpALA tathA bharAvadAra hatA. jyAre ala kArA paherI bahAra nIkaLatA tyAre kAmadeva jevA lAgyA karatA tenu nAma mahezamaNujI hatuM. nAma pramANe guNu hatA. saMsAra sAgaramAM maherAmaNanI lahera madhurI hAya che. te mujaba pAte brahmaca` vratamAM suMdara hatA, parastrI mAtA bahena-dIkarI tarIke mAnatA tethI tenA vakhANu leAkA sArI rIte karatA. 2bhAke uvI ke menakA jevI para strIonI lAlacamAM ke tenA hAvabhAvamAM sAtaeNA nahI, eka divasa khaLA bharavA jAMbuDI gAmamAM alakArI paherI manAtura gheADA para esI jaI rahelA che. vacce thamAra gAma AvyuM. te gAmamAM rahetI cAraNanI strI tene rRkhIne sugdha banI ane sakhI dvArA khelAvIne peAtAnA gharamAM rAta vAseA rahevA mATe AjIjI karavA lAgI. A cAkSusI paNa raMbhA jevI. hatI. tenA hAvabhAvane oLakhI laine maherAmaNe kahyuM ke, ena-mAtA mAre khaLA bharavA jevuM che. eTale atre huM rAkAIza nahI, teNIe kahyu ke tamane dekhI mugdha banI chuM. mATe eka divasa zakAI jAo. cAraNu strIe mAre mAtA sarakhI che. tamAre A pramANe mugdha banavu nahI. ane hAvabhAva kaTAkSa karavA nahI. tathA mAre parastrI mAtA tulya che. kadApi huM" prANAMte mArA natane bhraSTa karIza nahI. mATe huM mAtA tame zAMta aneA. tamArI AAmarU pratiSThA jagatamAM vikhyAta che. jAgIradAranuM vacana sAMbhaLI cAraNanI strI vAghaNanI mAphaka vakarIne kahevA lAgI. mAtA enanA vacananA tyAga karI mArA kathana mujaba ahI mAre ghera eka dIvasa rahe For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 1 tame keAnI sAthe khela karI rahyA che. je naho mAnA tA prANAnA okhamamAM AvI paDaze. ane jAMbuDI jaI zakaze nahI. mahezamaNujIe kahyu ke prANA jAya te bhale jAya pazu mArA tratane tyAga karIza nahIM. Ama kahIne cAlavA mAMDe che, tevAmAM acAnaka peTamAM zULa AvavAthI gheADA uparathI nIce gabaDI paDayA, te vakhate cAraNu strI kahevA lAgI. adyApi mAnaze te jIvatA rahezeA. nahI mAnA tA hamaNAMja maraNu pAmazeA. maherAmaNujIe kahyuM ke mane. maranA bhaya natho. bhale atyAre ja maraNu pAmu, paNa vratanA tyAga karIza nahIM. cAraNu strI vIlakhI anI. ane vicAra karavA lAgI ke. AvA purUSA vratamAM sthira rahenArA virala hrAya che. dhanya che tenI mAtAne ane pitAne! A pramANe mAnasika vRttione sthira karanAra jagatabharamAM vikhyAta ane che. mATe prabhunI AjJAne mAnI koI paNa vastuomAM sugdha khanavuM nahIM, teAja uttarAttara aAtma kalyANa sadhAtuM rahe che. A lavanA vratAne pAlana karavAnI dRDhatAnA sa'skAro parabhavamAM paNa sAthe Ave che, ane parabhavanI makkamatAnA saMskArA dvArA viSaya kAcAne paNa dUra karAya che. prANA tA maLaze paNa vratanuM pAlana karavu' anyabhavamAM Avazyaka anaze nahI. mATe mANeA karatAM tapAlanamAM sattA-samRddhi ane zaktine adhika mAnIne tenu jIvanA jokhame paNa rakSaNa karavu' te manuSyAnu' prathama kAya che. jenI mAnasika vRttie sthira nathI ane indricAnA gulAma banela che te manuSya janmamAM sAdhavAnuM hAya che te sAkhI zakatA nathI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita rAdhana saMpanna mANaso, bhale rAjA hoya zeTha sAheba hoya te paNa dunyavI padArthothI temanI cittAo ane AzAe zAMta thatI nathI. ulTI vadhyA kare che. temAM keIne zArIrika vyAdhinI tathA pratikula varganI cintAe satAvI rahelA hoya che. tathA keTalAkane prApta thaela sAmagrI AyabhAsatI hovAthI adhika meLavavAnI AzAthI paritApa valepAta karI rahelA hoya che. tathA yatheccha prApta thaela nyAdikanuM rakSaNa karavA zastrAdikane vadhAravAne valepAta karatA hoya che. saMkSepamAM kahIe te dareka prANIone are deva, dAna. mAnave tathA cakravatione paNa cintAne AzAone ane rakSaNa karavAne hRdayadA ghaDI ghaDIe bALa heya che. tenAthI adhika maraNa cintA te te vyaktione pitAnA kartamAM pAgala jevA bane che. keI prakAranI sthiratA rahetI nathI. e vakhate koIjezI AvIne rAjAne kahe ke tamAruM AyuSya ochuM che. mATe cetIne je kAMI puNyadAnAdika dhArmika kriyAo karavAnI hoya te karI le, Ama sAMbhaLI rAjAnI mAnasika vRttio sthira rahI nahI. khAtAMpItAM, rAjyanA kAryomAM paNa lakSa rahetuM nathI ane jAgatAM udhatA paNa babaDayA kare che. ke have zuM thoDA vakhatamAM maraNa Avaze ? rAjyanuM putra parivAranuM zuM thaze ? AvA AvA vividha vikala karate hovAthI rAjyanA pradhAne kahyuM ke "mahArAjA: cintA phakarane tyAga kare. ke jeNInA kahevAthI meha mugdha banI vAta kare nahI. joSI kayAM sarvajJa hatA. ke tenA kathana mujaba ane cittA saMtApa For Private And Personal Use Only

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ati naiti . vigere karavAthI zArIrika zakti teja ane AyuSya AkhuM thAya che. mATe zAMta ano vyAvahArika tathA dhArmika kAryo karA. pradhAne joSIne bahu ThaMpA ApyuM ke AvA zaviSya bhAkhI keTalAkane duHkhI karazeA. vacana upara kAbu rAkhA nahIM. tara tamAre ghaNuM sahana karavu paDaze. vicAra viveka vinA vadhelA satya vacanamithyA asatya kahevAya che tamAe nyAtiSa jANyu paNa amAza nRpane hAnIkAraka nIvaDayu che kAI mAthAnA maLaze tA mastaka uDAvI deze. eka pradhAnanI mAka. sAMbhaLe! Ama kahI pradhAne joSIne kahyuM ke tamAza jevA vicAra viveka vinAnA vidvAna joSI hateA ane jema tema keke rAkhatA. eka divasa rAjAe tene khelAvI peAtAnu' AyuSya puchyuM tyAre teNe kahyuM ke tamArI AyuSyanI dArI ghaNI ochI che A sAMbhaLI nRpa cintAtura ane pAgala jevA banyA prayAne rAjAnI avasthA DhaMkhIne cintA dUra karavA te ochI AyuSya DhArIne kahenAra joSIne elAvIne kahyu ke te amArA rAjAnuM alpa AyuSya karyuM te tA ThIka che paNa tArU peAtAnuM keTaluM AyuSya che joSIe mRtyu aSika. eMzI varSanuM che. te sAMbhaLI rAjAne ThekANe lAvavA mATe eka mArAne khelAvI tenuM mastaka kapAvI nAMkhyuM rAjAne pachI kahyuM ke jo joSInuM eMzI varSanuM AyuSya hAta te atyAre kema maraNa pAmata. mATe tenA upara vizvAsa rAkhe nahIM. ane cintA leApAtanA tyAga karI kanya kAryo karA tyAra khAda nRSa zAMta thayeA ane rItasara vartAvA lAgyA paNa aDANumAM pelI cintA gaI nahI. mATe sArI sAyana sAmagrI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgari racita meLavavAnI khAsa jarUra che ane te khATI sAmagrIne tyAga karyA sivAya cintAo saMtApa paritA pAkine haThAve evI sAmagrI maLatI nathI. mATe prathama dunyavI vastuonI mamatAne tyAga karI manavacana ane kAyAne sthira kare evA sAdhane meLave. sthiratA karyA vinA caMcalatA, cintA, valopAtaparitApAdi kadApi TaLaze nahI. mATe, caMdanamalayAgirIrAjArANanI mAphaka vartana rAkhI sukhI thavA mATe prayAsa karA saMsAramAM saMga-viyega-bharatI oTa te vArevAre thayA karavAne ja mATe tethI gabharAvuM te bAlIzatA che. 103 AkarSaNa be prakAre che eka sneharAganuM ane bIju kAmarAganuM, A be rAganA karatAM paNa dRSTirAganuM AkarSaNa judA prakAranuM che AvA AkarSaNamAM sAMsArika prANae evA mugdha banyA che ke pitAnA AtmAnI sthiti kevA prakAranI che tene temane khyAla rahyo nathI. keTalAka saMpatti-sAhyAbInA AkarSaNathI zatruonI sAthe paNa saMbaMdhane bAMdhavA tatpara bane che. teonI anukuLatA mujaba vartana rAkhe che tathA sAmAnya sthitivALA dhArmika svajanavagane tyAga karI teonI AjJAne uThAvavA khaDe page taiyAra rahe che. tathA keTalAka kAmarAgamAM eTalA phasAI paDelA hoya che ke bala-buddhi ane sattA vigere vRthA veDaphI rahela che. tenuM bhAna teone rahetuM nathI, tethI pAyamAla banIne asahA saMkaTamAM jaI paDe che. tathA daNirAgamAM gherAela manuNene satya dhamanI samajaNa paDatI nathI. tethI ADA avaLa paribhramaNa karIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara khyAti mA unmArge gamana karI du:khanA gartAmAM jaI paDe che. pramANe traNa rAganA tyAga karI je AtmAnA guNNAmAM rAgI ane che. te kaleza kaMkAzarUpa saMsAra sAgarane taravA samartha ane che. mATe sa`sAranA svarUpanA eTale sneherAga-kAmarAga ane dRSTirAganA Akane samajI tenAthI alaga rahevA je prayAsa kare che te AtmAzita karI zake che. sava jaga tamAM matrI pramAda anuka pA ane madhyasthatAnA ceAge caMcalatAne tyAga karI sthiratAnA anubhava kare che koi eka gAmamAM eka nAnA khAlakane mUkI tenA mAtapitA maraNa pAmela che. A khAlakane tenA kAkAe bhaNAvA mATe skule mUkayA. nIti nyAya ane pramANika zikSakAe sArA sa"skArA pUrNAMka vyavahArika keLavaNInI zikSArUpI pANInu siMcana karyuM" tethI A khAlaka saheja mATe thayA ane kuzaLa anya tyAre tene jaMgakhArajatI sTImaranA vepArIne bhaLAvyeA. vepArI vinayI, vivekI ane pravINa thayelA tene dekhIne khuzI thayA. jaMgaAramAM buddhi--bala ane lAgavagathI sArI kamANI karavA lAgyA. . lAkhAnI kamANI karyAM pachI pAMtrIza varSanI ummare potAnI sAdhana-sAmagrI-zaca racIluM laI pAtAnA vatanamAM AvyA tyAre navA vo paheryA vinA sagAM vahAlAMne maLavA ga. sAmAnya vastro paherelA hovAthI kAI paNu, saba khIe Adara satkAra karyAM nahI. tethI pAse rahelA mAra kahyuM' ke tame ullAsa pUrvaka sagAM samadhIne maLavA gayA, paNa koIe Adara Apyo nahI. AvA sagA vahAlAthI sayuM, temanuM'. tamAza para ketane dekhAtu nathI. tyAre For Private And Personal Use Only i

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RE A. kIti sAmarasuri racita manahara zeTha nAkarane kahyu, Dhekha ? tane camatkAra dekhADuM' Ama kahIne navA vastro paheravA pUrvaka hIrAnI vIMTI AMgalImAM lagAvo potAnA kAkA-kAkI pAse pAche thayA. cakaLatI hIzanI vITI kImatI vastro paherelA heAvAthI manahara bhatrone. mAI AvyA che. AmadhArI kAkA-kAkI kahevA lAgyA ahe mArA dIkarA tane pahelAM oLakhyA nahI. have tu mhoTI thayA. sArU thayu ke atre ANye. besa besa are dIkarA-dIkarAo manaharabhAi AvyA che. temane esavA mATe Asana lAve. pAna seApArInI taiyArI kare. ghaNA vaSe AvyA. Aje amAre ghera jamavAnu, teTalAmAM khukhara paDavAthI mAmA-mAmI mAsI-mAsA vigere AvIne tenI sAhAkhInA AkaSa NuthI peAtAne ghera jamavA mATe Agraha karavA lAgyA. ane sukhazAtA pUrvaka joMgakhAranI saghaLI vAta puchavA lAgyA, naH pUrvaka sarve sagAvahAlAne vAta kahI. nAkara kahyuM ke tamArA vastro ane vITImAM ajaba camatkAra che. tamArA ADaMbara dekhI tamArA tA svajana vaga aDadhA aDadhA thaI gayA. camatkAra dekhyA, dunyavI padmAOmAM koI pazu sage svArtha sadhAtA hoya te snehuM rAkhe che, paNa mane te temAM hama ane zeka nathI. emAM sagA vahAlAMnA doSa nathI kAraNa ke te madhe ko~ya che. mATe sAMta banI Atmika guNemAM saya rAkhavAna jarUra che. A kahIne sapI le. anIne Atmahita sAdhavA lAgyA. 104 sarjJAna-dazana ane cAritrana ArAdhanAthI. Atmika guNInI ALakhANa thAya che For Private And Personal Use Only

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atira ti ane te guNothI Adara vadhe che. ane tethI rAga-dveSa, meha mamatAthI thaelA aparAdhe ane bhUlone sudhAre te jJAnI che ane rAgAdikanA yoge bIjI vAra temAM phasAya nahI te anubhavI che ane punaH punaH apa rAdhe karIne sudhAre nahI ane kharA khAya te paNa ahaM. kArAdikathI khase nahI te ajJAnI. bala-buddhiArA sALAnI vigerene nAza thAya te paNa ahaMkAra abhimAnAdikane mUke nahI tene jJAnI-bahAdura huzIyAra kema kahevAya? kadI bhale thavAno saMbhava che ja, ane bhUlene sudhAravI te potAnI sattAnI vAta che mATe sukhanI IcchAvALAe mana tana karsane bhUla sudhAravA prayAsa kare te jarUra che. gRhasthapaNAmAM sthalibhadrajIe kezA vezyAnA pAsamAM paDI ghaNI bhUlo karI. temanA pitA zakatAla maMtrI vararUcinI kapaTa kalAthI maraNa pAmyA. naMdarAjAe temane bolAvIne pradhAna padanI mudrikA svIkAravAnuM kahyuM. te vakhate thaela bhUlanI yAdi karavA pUrvaka saMsAranI anityatA-asAratA barAbara jANa jJAnI banyA. eTale cAritranI ArAdhanA karI Atmika guNene oLakhI temAM sthira thayA. pachI gurUnI pAse kezA verAnA maMdIre cAturmAsa karavAnI AjJA mAgI. gurUdeve egya jANa AjJA ApI. ane ghaNA varSono paricayavALI vezyAne ra AvI cAturmAsa rahyA. te daramyAna kozAe potAnA pAsamAM pADavA mATe vividha prapaMco karyA paNa temAM phasoyA nahIM. ane te vezyAne pratibadha ApI dhArmika banAvI. cAtu mausa vItyA pachI guvanI pAse AvyA. anubhavatI banela For Private And Personal Use Only

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}C/ aa. krIti sAgarasUri racita hAvAthI prazaMsA thaI ane mahattA vadhI. temano prazaMsAne sahana nahI karavAthI siMha guphAvAsI munivaya gurUnI pAse tyAM cAturmAMsa karavAnI AjJA mAMgavA AvyA. gurUdeve kahyuM ke te kozAnA maMdire tamAne cAturmAsa karavAnI AjJA Apa vAmAM Avaze nahI. tame tapasyA karI IrSyAnA caiAge siMha guphAvAsI vezyAnA maMdire gayA. kathAnA hAvabhAvathI mukhya anyA cAturmAsa hAvA chatAM nepALanA nRpa pAsethI ratnaka khala lAvIne fAzAne ApI. teNIe page ghasIne phagAvI dIdhI. sunie kahyu` ke prayAsa karIne lAvelI savAlAkhanI ratnaka'balane page ghasIne kema phagAvI dIdhI ? vezyAe kahyuM ke tame ratna trayInA svAmI che. ke je ratnamayInI AgaLa dhruvaleAkanI sapatti sAhAkhI tuccha che. tene tame phekI devA taiyAra thayA che tenu N tamAne bhAna nathI te jaNAvavA ratnaka khalane phagAvI dIdhI. A pramANe zravaNa karI munivaryane vicAra ane viveka jAgavAthI pastAvA karavA lAgyA. ke guruvayanI AAjJAne lepI atre AvyA. te sArU karyuM nahI. dhanya che A kAthA vaizyAne, ke jeNIe tapasyA karanArane paNa pratimAdha ApI hune sthira karyo. A pramANe thaelI bhUlAne sudhArI gurUdeva pAse AvI mahAmunivarya sUrIsamrAT smRtidrajInI stuti karIne jJAnI anyA. ane AgaLa anubhavI pazu thayA. mATe thayelI bhUlAne sudhArI jJAnI ane anubhavI anA, paraMtu je DhASAnuM sevana karIne khuzI thAya che. peAtAne ahAdura mAne che te paNa jyAre sadupadeza sAMbhaLe hRdayamAM utAre ullAsa lAvI vicAra ane viveka e lAve tA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jayaMti 269 jJAnI anubhavI bane. dareka prANIone prAyaH sattAmAM jJAnI anubhavI banavAno gyatA che. paNa dravya kSetra, kAla, bhAvAdi pAmIne parAkrama pherave teja bane. anyathA anAdikAlanI ajJAnatAmAM aTavAya che ane aTavAI rahevuM paDe che. saMkaTa vedanA, vAsanA, sukha, dukha vigere ajJAnatAthI ja AvI maLe che. paNa jyAre jJAna dazA jAge che. tyAre te sarve khasI jAya che. mATe jJAnI ane anubhavI thavAnI AvazyakatA che. te sivAya deva devendranI sAhyabI haze te paNa sAcu sukha dUra rahevAnuM ja105 vastu karatA vastunA bhayanA bhaNakArA manu ne bhramaNamAM nAMkhI bhramita banAve che. tethI saMtApAdikane karatAM gure che. vastutaH bhaya jevuM kAMi paNa hotuM nathI chatAM vividha kalpanAo karIne bhaye jAgRta banI sva jIvanane jokhamamAM nAkhI prANa sukhI thAya che. kAraNa ke teone deha gehe putra parIvAdikanI adhika Asakti hovAthI arere! mAruM zuM thaze, AvA vicAre ja teone pAgala banAve che. puNyadaye prApta thaela saMpatti-sAhAbIne te bicArAe sadupayoga karavA samartha banatA nathI. pApabhIru bane te bhayanA bhaNakArA paNa rahe nahI. ane saMpatti sAhAbImAM coMTelI mamatA- mAyA khasatI jAya ane nirbhaya banI sava jIvananI For Private And Personal Use Only

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270 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita unnatinA upAya tathA yuktio sujhe paNa para vastuone pitAnA satya sukhane arpaNa karanArI mAne tyAM upAya. ane yuktio kayAMthI sujhe ? eka bAIne pitAnA putrAdika parivAramAM ghaNuM Asakti hatI. ane gharamAM sahaja nukazAna thAya tyAre vAre vAre saMtApa karatI, sagAM vahAlAM kahetA ke AvI tuccha bAbatamAM kaleza kaMkAsa karavo te ThIka kahevAya nahI. paNa je svabhAva paDayo te zene jAya ? banyuM evuM ke teNIne rAtrimAM nidrA karatAM Akhe dariye pIdhAnuM svapna AvyuM. tethI gabharAI gaI. ane eka pADozaNanI pAse jaIne svapnamAM dariyA pIdhAnI vAta kahI. A sAMbhaLI mUkha ziromaNi-pADAsaNe kahyuM ke, te dariye pIdhe. eTale have maraNa pAmavAnI ja. kAraNa eka ghaDe paNa pIvAthI peTa phuTe che. te pachI te te Akhe dariye pIdhe. have kayAMthI jIvavAnI A sAMbhaLI maraNanA bhayathI zeka-saMtApApa-valopAta karatA hRdaya baMdha paDayuM. ane maraNa pAmI. maraNane bhaya bIjA bhaya karatAM dareka prANIone adhika hoya che mATe sukhethI jIvana gujAravuM hAya hAya te bhayathI bhramita bane nahi. vastuonA svarUpane jANa bhayane dUra karanAra eka huMzIyAravANIyAnI mAphaka bane. eka vANIo zarIre majabUta, matimAM yuktimAM baDe pravINa hatuM ane judA judA vyApA ne karate tathA TAIma maLo tyAre saddagurUnA vyAkhyAnane paNa sAMbhaLate tethI dehagehAdikanI Asakti tene hatI nahI. tethI bhayanA prasaMge maLatAM nirbhaya banI vastunI vicAraNuM For Private And Personal Use Only

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pAMtara beni 101 karI satya vastune gutA eka bhasa ahAra gAmathI vIneza OMkhkhA bharapUra dhIthI bharelA laIne sAMjare nInmyA. peAtAnA gAma AvatAM rastAmAM rAtrI DI. mArge AvatA AkaDAnI sAthe rahela khAkharAnuM jhADa hatuM. ma jhADanA pAMdaDA vAyuthI vAre vAre hAlatA ane avAja karatA dekhIne ghIne laIne AvatA viSNukane sahaja bhaya peThA ane zakAtura thaela hAvAthI kAI mAnava che ke dAnava? paNa vicAra karatAM thaya dUra gayA ane te jhADanI pAse Ave che. te vakhate bhaya ane zaMkA dUra khase che. hiMmata dhAraNa karIne te vRkSanI pAse AvyA hiMmata na hAta tA tyAMne tyAMja laya pAmIne gabaDI paDhA hAta. mA pramANe evA prasagAmanA ane zaMkAnAM nimittA maLe che te vakhate hiMmata rAkhavAnI khAsa jarUra che. e hiMmata kAya nahIM te zastra avigera hathIAArA kArya ApI zakatA nathI. tethI prathama hiMmata ane pachI hethImAra hAya tA ja strAyanI siddhi mATa anyathA teja hathiyAMthI peAtAne nukazAna thAya. agara sva mastaka kapAya, mATe je je sthAne jAo tyAM tyAM bhaya jevu lAge te paNa gabharAvuM nahI. ane hiMmatane trANu karavI, bAdAnA tathA antaranA zatruone harAvavA mATe mathAma khelavA che tyAM jo laya pAmyA ane vijayanI zakA karI tA nArIpAsa manAze ane jIvananI je sAcakatA saphaLatA sAdhavAnI che te sAthe nahI. mATe hiMmata rAkhA. rasa iSTadevanI sevAbhakti,zraddhA pUrvakanuM bahumAna tathA temanA dhyAnamAM ekatritA rAkhavAthI peAtAnA AtmAmAM divya zakti For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisagarAri racita jAzAMta thAya che. te divya zaktinA AdhAre AvI paDelI vipattine sahana karavAthI keIka deva tenI sahanatAthI khuzI thaIne madade Ave che. ane rItasara sahakAra ApIne svasthAne jAya che. paNa sevA bhakti kare ane ekAgratA pUrvaka te devanuM dhyAna dhare nahI ane AvI paDelI viDaMbanAne sahana kare nahI te je dIvya zakti jAgavAnI hoya che te jAgatI nathI. kAraNa ke vipatti viDaMbanAnA prasaMga nimitte je AvyA che tenA upara dveSa karavA pUrvaka zeka saMtApa vApAtAda karatA hovAthI ISTadeva prasanna thatA nathI. ane sahakAra ApavA samartha banatA nathI. mATe zakti hoya te viDaMbanAne sahana karI levI. ane zakti je na hoya te Ideva sevA bhakti pUrvaka ekAgratA dhAraNa karIne dhyAna karavuM te Avazyaka che. tethI deva-dAnava mAnava paNa sahAya karanAra maLI Ave. zrImAna sudarzana zeThanI mAphaka ane mAlInA upadravane laIne nagaramAMthI koI paNa bahAra nIkaLatuM nathI, mAre te yakSAviNa mAlI cha purUne ane strIne mArI nAMkhI zAMta bane tyAre koI paNa bahAra nIkaLI zake che. anyathA maraNanI bhItithI kaI paNa bahAra nIkaLatuM nathI, te arasAmAM devAdhideva-mahAvIra svAmI parvatanA upara padhAya paNa kaI paNa zrAvaka-zrAvikA vaMdanA karavA jatuM nathI. zrI sudarzana zeThane khabara paDI. eTale bhale maraNa thAya paNa prabhu mahAvIrane vaMdanA karAvI. sagAMvahAlAMnA nivAraNane mAnya karyuM nahIM ane prabhunuM ekAgratAe be ghaDI rItasara dhyAna dharIne zaheranI bahAra nIkaLyA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara pati 2 evAmAM pele ane mAlI zeThane gadA upAdhe mAravA deDa zeThe hiMmata dhAraNa karavA pUrvaka zeka saMtApAdine paNa tyAga karI cAra arihaMtAdinuM zaraNa svIkArI sthiratA pUrvaka dhyAna karyuM, dIvya zakitanA AvirbhAvathI pelA mALImAM je yakSa pehele ho te bhAgI gaye. mAlI zarIramAM yakSa bhAgI gaela hovAthI sudarzana zeThane page lAgyuM. maraNanI je bhIti hatI te khasI gaI. ane zeTha prabhunA darzana vaMdana mATe nIkaLyA. ajunamAlI paNa zeThanI sAthe vAMdhavA mATe gaye. prabhu mahAvIra svAmInA darzana karI-vaMdanA sAthe dezanA sAMbhaLI pratibaMdhane pAmyA. A pramANe mahAsatI-caMdanabAlA-mRgAvatI-satI sItAjIdraupadI vigere satI strIoe vipattinA prasaMge hiMmata rAkhI. zoka saMtApAdine nivArI ISTa prabhumAM ekAgratA pUrvaka dhyAna karavAthI temane sArI rIte madada maLI che ane sadugatinA svAmI banyA che. jenetaramAM paNa saMbhaLAya che ke, mahArASTramAM paMDharapuramAM dAmodara paMta bhakta hatA. ISTa devanI tanamanathI ekAgratA pUrvaka dhyAna karatA ane rAjAnA mAmalatadAranuM kAma karatA. tathA dayALu evA che ke prANInI vipatti-saMkaTa dekhI pite duHkhI thatA. bhakta je dayALu evA hoya te tenuM ane sugaMdha. e dezamAM eka vakhata dukALa paDaze. kheDute mahesUla bharI zakayA nahI. puSkaLa rakama kheDutanA nAme bAkI nIkaLavA lAgI. eka bAju rAjAnA nANu mATe tagAjA AvavA lAgyA. dAmodara paMta dayALa hovAthI kheDutone saMtApatA nathI. ane kheDute bhagayuM detA 18 For Private And Personal Use Only

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274 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita nathI tethI te potAnA gharabAra sthAvara milakata vecIne kheDute vatI mahesUla bharavAnI taiyArI kare che. tevAmAM temanA ISTadeva vihubhA tanamanathI bhakti sevA-ekAgratA tathA dayALu paNathI prasanna thayA. ane kheDutenuM mahesula sIpAIne veza dhAraNa karIne bharyuM. rAjAe saMtuSTa thaIne puchayuM. AvA kharAba vakhatamAM saghaLu mahesula keNe bharI ApyuM ? viThebAe uttara Ape ke meM. mAmalatadAra kheDutonI vatI gharabAra veicavA taiyAra thayA tyAre meM ja mahesUla ApyuM. rAjA vicAra kare che ke AnA sivAya ghaNe sAro tuM zo pagAra laIza. tenA uttaramAM sIpAIe kahyuM. eka lakSa, rAjA vicAra karavA lAge ke eka lAkha to zuM paNa pAMca lAkhathI paNa A sIpAI kayAMthI maLe tevAmAM viThobA adazya thayA. bhautika padArthomAM satya sUteSAdikane zeAdhanArAone jyAre te padArthone prApta karyA pachI asateSa rahe che tyAre cintA vilepAta karyA kare che ke have ATa ATalA padArtho meLavyA te paNa saMtoSa prApta thayenahi, te kayA padArtha saMteSa karaze, kayA upAye karU, ke saMtoSa thAya? paNa teone mAluma nathI ke, saMtoSa, Atmika guNa che. bhautika padArtho game tevA bhegA karavAmAM Ave te paNa te dvArA kayAMthI prApta thAya? kAraNa te padArtho Atmika guvALA nathI. cakravartI jevI sAhAbI maLe. vaibhava vilAsa prApta thAya te paNa mAnasika vedanA rahevAnI ja. tathA asateSanI cintAo vAre vAre haiyAne bALavAnI ja. je te sAcA saMtoSanA atha hoya te Atmika guNene meLavavA mATe mahenata kare te ja saMteSane hA, For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti levA samartha bane. kAraNa ke tyAM sukha saMteSane sAgara jaLa haLI rahela che. dunyavI padArtho prayAsa karIne prApta karyA pachI tenuM piSaNa saMrakSaNanI cintAo te sAthe sAthe rahevAnIja eTale valopAta agara cintA karanArane saMtoSa thavo azakya che mATe vicAra-viveka pUrvaka te bhautika padArthomAM je rAga che. tene dUra karIne Atmika guNemAM rAgane dhAraNa kare. eTale acinya saMtoSa hAjara thaze. dunyavI padArtho khAvA pIvAnI mejamajA mANavAnI cintA ochI karaze paNa rAga ocho nahi kare te cintA hajAre upasthita thaze. je satya sateSa joIe te maLaze nahI. ane asaMteSa hAjarane hAjara rahevAne ja Ama samajI sujJa ane vivekI mahAzayoe bhautika padArthone rAga hato tene haTAvI Atmika guNemAM joDayo tyAre ja saMtoSI banyA. svakAryane sAdhavAnuM hatuM te sAdhI kRtArtha banyA. tamArI mAphaka te padArthomAM cUiMTI rahyA nathI. mATe saMteSane prApta karI hoya te Atmika guNemAM laganI lagAve. jarUra AvI maLaze. 106 "AtmazraddhA-AtmajJAna-AtmasaMyama-ane Atma bhAga A cAra to, AmennatinA Atmika vikAsanA parama sAdhana che. jJAnI AcArya mahArAja paNa sudeva-sugurU-ane sudhamanI zraddhA pUrvaka ane ArAdhanAnI sAthe uparokta sAdhana tarapha lakSa rAkhe te viSaya kaSAyonI viDaMbanAone TALI mokSamArganA sarala ane sugama prabhutAnA pathe vicare Ama pharamAve che. A sAdhane sivAya anya vikAsanA upAye nathI. anya upAyo che. paNa gauNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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26 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita che. paNa dUrakaravA jevA nathI. ahiMsa-vrata niyama tapa japAdi sAdhanAnI ArAdhanA karatAM je Atma vikAsa-karma nijArAne sAdhya mAne che te paNa sAdhane ghaNuM phaladAyaka bane. kAraNa ke vratAdikathI cagyatA pAtratA AvI maLe che. ane pAtratA prApta thayA pachI ja sadguNene AvavAne avakAza maLe che. eTale sadagurU deva-dharmanI ArAdhanA rItasara karavA pUrvaka temaja vrata-niyamAdi pAlana karavAthI yogyatA AvatAM vikAra khasavA mAMDe che. ane viveka jAge che pachI AtmazraddhA-jJAnAdine prAdurbhAva thAya che. pachI tenA vege AtmonnatinA zikhare ArUDha thavAya che. mATe pAtratA prApta karavA paNa lakSa rAkhavAnI AvazyaktA che. pAtratAsaddaguNe ane AtmavikAsanA sAdhano dvArA sAcI mahattA. sAcI sattA prApta thAya che. nahI ke bhautika padArthodvAra. bhautika padArtho dvArA kadApi pAtratA AvatI nathI.temaja Atmika unnati sAdhI zakAtI nathI. mATe te padArthonI Asaktine tyAga jarUrI che. dhanA dhana karatAM yaza-AbarU pratiSThAne adhika adhika lAbhadAyaka mAne che. ane dhanane vApare che. enA karatAM tenI Asaktine dUra kare te yaza-AbarU pratiSThA mahattAdi pAchaLa deDatI Ave. "vicAraka ane vivekI mahAzaye manuSya bhavane satya kahA levA mATe deha-zehadhanAdikane meha e che karI vrataniyamAdine AcaravA pUrvaka satya mahattA ane padavI prApta kare che, eTale temane zrama tathA vakhata vRthA vyatIta ja nathI. ane Atarika mahattA AvI maLavAthI keIe arpaNa karela heTAI padavImAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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aAMtara jyaMti 277 muMjhAtA nathI. sAcI mahattAnI AgaLa sAMsArika mahattA tuccha mAne che. ane jagatanA prANIonuM kalyANa karatAM AgaLa vadhatA rahe che. teonI IcchA paNa sAMsArika sacAge maLatI mahattAnI hAtI nathI. paraMtu Atma vikAsanI hAya che. 107 "tamArA jIvananuM kArya tame dhArA che. te karatAM atyaMta uttama che. ane umadA chete yu' ? viveka pUrvaka IcchA ane vicAra karI mAnasika vRttione pavitra anAvA ke jethI kAI prakAranA kharAkha-duSTa vicArA ane icchAe TaLI jAya, ane pavitratA AvIne vase. A kAya prathama karavA jevu` che. kanA baMdhana che tyAM sudhI IcchA-tathA vicArA thavAnA paNu jevA tevA vicAre ane icchAethI Atmika lAbha ke zArIrika lAbha joie tevA maLatA nathI. pazu paMkhIe zikArI siMhAkine paNa IcchA tathA vicAra DhAya che. paNa viveka hAtA nathI. tethI durgatimAM jAya che. viveka sahita karelI IcchA ke AzA lavatI mane che. puNyAdo savendriyAnI paTutA maLI che. ane zArIrika nirAmayatA paNa che. paraMtu viveka o na hAya te temAM Asakti ane mAha mamatA-mUrchA thAya. ane AsaktimAha mamatAnA yoge jIvana eTaluM adhu halaku-nIca manI jAya ke pramANikatA nIti maryAdA paNa bhUlAya che kevI rIte jIvana gujAravu tenu' bhAna rahetu nathI. tA pachI jainatya agara mANusAI Ave kayAMthI mANasAI ke jainatva, Asakti mAha mamattA tyAga vinA AvatI nathI. ane sAMsArika viSayAnI asAratAne samajyA sivAya maha- For Private And Personal Use Only

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ra78 A. kItisAgarasUri racita mane tyAga thavuM azakya che. mATe asAratAne rItasara jANe Asaktine tyAga kare jarUra che. jaDavAdanI bhayaMkaratA ane mehAMdhatAnI AdhInatAnA kAraNe aNucintavI vipattio viDaMbanA ane paritAyAdikanI paraMparA vadhe che. tathA IndriyonA viSaye ane tenA vikArenA kAraNe Atmika guNe adhikatA avarAya che. ane bhavanI paraMparA vadhatAM asahAyAtanA AvIne upasthita thAya che. AvI yAtanAone tame nivArI zake nahI. paraMtu upadeza ApIne sanmAge svayaM vaLIne bIjAone vALe temAMja mAnava jIvananI sArthakatA che, ane saphalatA che. utpanna thaela regonI davA karAvavI te ThIka ja che. paNa rege utpanna thAya nahI tenA upAya javA te Avazyaka che. roga vyAdhio je utpanna thaze nahI te davA levAnI jarUra raheze nahi. zArIrika mAnasika vyAdhio tathA janmathI vyAdhio tathA janmanI vyAdhio pIDAo mehAMdhatAne tyAga karyA sivAya TaLatI nathI. dareka anartho tathA vyAdhio ane Adhio ane yAtanAo mehamamatAnA kAraNe upasthita thaI punaHpunaH atyaMta kaSTa arpaNa kare che. mATe prathama te raMge utpanna thAya ja nahIM, tenA upAye levA joIe kaMkAsa, kaleza, jhaghaDAone dabAvavA agara zAMta karavA mATe yuktio karavI te ucita che. paNa tenA kAraNene mUlamAM dUra karavA agara te kaMkAsAdi utpanna thAya nahI te mATe upAyo yuktio karavI te ati kalyANa kare che ane uttamattama che. kAraNe haze nahI te kArya banaze nahI. ane mane paNa kayAMthI ? thaI na thAya ane For Private And Personal Use Only

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che . atira ti 108 deha-gehAdikanA adhyAsa-AsakitanI saghaLI pravRtti ane vRttionA tyAga vinA kaMkAsa vigere kaMkAsa dUra khasatA nathI. ane nibheLa sukhazAMtino anubhava AvatuM nathI mATe jJAna pUrvaka zubha bhAvanAone bhAva ane tenA ge kalezAdi TALo ane kaMkAsAdikane kanyA pachI AtmiguNa-prazama- vairAgya-saMga-anukaMpA ane zraddhA jaLahaLI uThaze A Atmika guNene prAdurbhAva thayA pachI dehadine adhyAsa khasavA mAMDe che ane guNasthAne anukame ArUDha thatAM mahinA mastake kuThAra paDe che "he cetana ! vikathAnI vAte karavAmAM tathA paranindA karavAmAM ghaNe vakhata vyatIta karyo have svadAnI nindA karavAmAM tathA gurUsAkSIe gahI karavAmAM avasarane saphala kara, paranindA karavAmAM ane vikathAo karavAmAM svadoSanI nindA garNa karavAne vakhata maLyo nahI. tethI Atmahita-kalyANa sadhAyuM nahIM. tethI tene pastAve thAya che. je kharekharo pastAvo thato hoya te saghaLI paMcAtane tyAga karI pitAnA doSane dUra karavA avasara sAdhI le. tamAre ane amAre vadhAremAM vadhAre jarUra, je kaI hoya te kSamAdi daza guNenI ja che. kAraNa ke kSamAdika guNe AtmatatvanI oLakhANa karavAmAM ananya kAraNa che. A guNe sivAya bhautika sAdhane, AtmasvarUpane jANavAmAM tathA ramaNatA karavAmAM sahakAra ApavA samartha banatA nathI. ulaTA kAramA kaMkAsa-kilaSTa karmone tathA vicArone vadhAravAmAM sahAya kare che ane dunyavI padArtho khAtara karela kaMkAsAdi vera virodhAdi karAvI bhava paraMparAne vadhArI mUke che tethI For Private And Personal Use Only

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280 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita ja kSamAdikanI AvazyaktA che ane dareka vyAvahArika prasaM. goe tenI jarUriyAta rahevAnI. vrata-tapa-jayanI ArAdhanA paNa kSamAdika guNenA AdhAre zabhA rUpa bane che. eTale AtmatatvanI oLakhANa vinA mANaso game tevuM sAcuM sukha meLavavA mATe prayAsa kare agara karaze te paNa pAchaLaja rahevAnA mATe sadvicAra ane vivekane lAvI kSamA namratA saralatA saMteSa vigere guNene lAvavA mATe lAgaNa pUrvaka prayatna kare te zreyaskara che. mahattAnIyegyatA tathA satya saMpatti vigere paNa uparokta guNa vinA kayAMthI maLaze? nahI ja maLe, vyavahArika kAryo paNa gyatA sivAya rItasara sadhAtA nathI. mATe kAmakrodhAdikane hAsa karI Atmika guNene prApta kare eka vyavahArI, mahattA meLavavA temaja prasiddha thavA khAtara dAnAdikane karate paraMtu keI mANasa tenA sAmuM bele agara aNagamatuM kahe tyAre tene mijAja bAra khAMDI vadhI jate. eTale atIva kapAtura banI kahenArane kahe ke ame dAnAdi karIe te paNa tenI kadara karate nathI. ane punaH punaH bhUle batAvyA kare che. tArA je labADa mANasa meM je nathI. A mujaba zravaNa karIne zikhAmaNa ApanAre kahyuM ke, tame dAnAdi kare che te te ThIka che paNa tenI paddhati bhUla bharelI che. prathama te dhArmikanItimAne je sIdAtA hoya te teone sahAya karavI. teo sAdhana saMpanna banaze te ahiMsA saMyama ane tapasyA vigerenI ArAdhanA rItasara karI zakaze. derAsara dvAra For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 281 / 66 pAThazALA vigere sAta kSetrAnI sa MbhALa rAkhaze. tathA dareka prANIo upara maitrI-prameAda anuka MpA vigere dhAraNa karaze. tame te dhAmikAne bhUlI je mANaseA tamArI prazaMsA kare teone dAna Ape che tethI ja kahevu' paDe che. tA bhUlA kADhavAnA madale sAcI bhalAmaNu ke sUcanA mAnA ane mijAja kare| nahI. A sivAya anyatra dAnane karavu nahI. ema ame kahetA nathI. paNa prathama dhArmikane dAna de te paNa AzaMsA rahita Apaze| tA te satyaphala dAyaka nIvaDaze. tenu kathana mAnyuM te kharU. paNa e cAra ghaDI, pachI enA e krodhAdikanA hrAsa karavA zaktimAna te anyA nahI. mATe lakhavu' paDe che ke kSamArdikanI prathama jarUra che. ke jenA AdhAre mANasAi ane dAna vigere saphala ane. jInezvara-kevalajJAnI e dekhADelA mALe, A satkruSNe vinA kevI rIte gamana karazeA. gamana karAze nahI. ane Atma tatvanI oLakhANu kevI rIte thaze ? are lAyakAta paNa AvI zakaze yAMthI ? tamArI bhAvanA te mahattA meLavavAnI haze, para tu jInezvare darzAvela mAge gamana karyuMvinA satya mahattA maLaze nahi. svAthI A tamArI prazaMsA karaze ane mhoTA mhATA kaheze te paNa mhoTAInA badale madre AvIne khaDA thaze. AvelA mada, mAnavIone dareka khAkhatAmAM hAnikAraka khane che. mATe dunyavI mhATAi upara vizvAsa dhAraNa karA nahI. prabhu pathai gamana karatAM-agara gamana karanArane satya mahattA maLe che. ane satya mahattA maLyA pachI kAInI AzIArI rahetI nathI, ezIyALIne dUra karavA punaHpunaH For Private And Personal Use Only

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18 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita cintAe karyA kare che temaja prayAsa paNa kare che te pachI ezIyALI kema khasatI nathI ? ane kAyama rahyA kare che? jyAM sudhI dhArmika kAryo karatAM tathA tathA vyAvahArika kAryo karatAM A leka temaja paralokanA sukhanI AzaMsAabhilASA tathA pratiSThA-mahattA vigerenI IcchA khasI nathI tethI ja ezIyALI kAyama rahe che. ane rahevAnI ja mATe tenI AzaMsAne dUra karI tathA kSamAdika guNone dhAraNa karavA pUrvaka jInezvare kathana karelA mArge saMcare. A ozIyArI TALavAne rAjamArgane AdhAra lIdhA vinA kadApi mAnasika vRttio sthira thaze nahI. ane satya mahattA-pratiSThA maLaze nahI. mATe kaSTa sahana karIne paNa A sugama-ane sarala paMthe saMcara. ApaNuM jIvanamAM be prakAranA mArgo rahelA che eka aMdhakArane ane bIjA prakAzane A be mArgamAMthI kayA mAge cAlavuM te buddhi upara AdhAra rAkhe che. vicAra viveka buddhi te ApaNane puNyanA cage maLI che te pachI aMdhakArane mAga" je che tene tyAga karI prakAzananA mAge gamana karavuM te hitakara che anubhavI kahe che ke, sadAya manapasaMda sukhane, anukulatAne, A jagatamAM ke jIvanamAM mAga maLatuM nathI. chatAM buddhi hoya te prakAza mArga paNa che ne? te mAge vaLe manapasaMda mukhane mArga maLI Avaze. ajJAnAMdhakAranA mArge bhayanA bhaNakArA tathA vividha bhItio AvI upasthita thAya che tyAre zerabakora karI adhika bhaya. bhIla bane che. te vakhate zAMta banI prakAzanA mArge vaLavAne, For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara ti 283 prayAsa kare te bhItio TaLe ane sAthe sAthe AnaMda pUrvaka gamana karavAno mArga maLI rahe che. zerabakora karavAthI bhaya kadApi khasatA nathI ane khasavAnA paNa nahI. mATe buddhine vAparI prakAzanA mArgane zodhe eTale tamAre mAga sarala ane sugama banaze. atyAra sudhI aMdhakAranA mArge cAlavAthI bhaya-bheda-arUci dUra gaI nathI tene anubhava Avate te haze ja, paraMtu te mArgane tyAga karyA sivAya bhaya vigere kyAMthI khase? saMsAra eTale viSaya kaSAyane mArga sAta bhayathI bharelo che chatAM buddhimAna vivekanA AdhAre temAMthI ja tatvanI vicAraNA karIne bhayane haThAvI zake che A jJAna prakAzane mArga che kharekhara, buddhimAne saMsAramAM taravanI vicAraNAnA vege prakAzanA mArge saMcarI bhayAdikane haThAvI paramapadane pAmyA che ane pAmaze ajJAta manuSya aMdhakAramAM athaDAya che ane TIcAya che ane zerabakera kare che chatAM prakAzanA mArge vaLatA nathI. A kevI ajJAnatA? asahAya yAtanA bhogavatA chatAM prakAzanA mArge vaLatA nathI. 109 zArIrika ke bhautika keLavaNadvArA prApta karelI zakitane sanmAge vALanAra je kaI hoya to AdhyAtmika jJAna che. A jJAnanA abhAvamAM meLavela sarve jJAna umAge laI janAra che. eTale viSaya kaSAyAdinA vikArene vadhAranAra che. che. mATe zArIrika temaja bhautika keLavaNI laIne AdhyA. tmikajJAna meLavavAnI jarUra che. tenA cage sarvajJAna saphalA thAya che. ane Atmika vikAsa sadhAte jAya che. phakta bAhya keLavaNI lenArAo bhale pachI dhanADhaya banI vilAsamAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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284 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita mhAle paNa temanA haiyAne cintAnA jaMtuoA kArI khAtA hAya che. te cintAe vilAsAmAM mahAlavAthI kayAMthI khase ? dUra khase . AdhyAtmika jJAnathI ja, mATe tene paNa Adara karA. sava bAhya keLavaNI lenArA, sArI duniyAmAM pharI vaLe te paNa teonI mAnasika vRtti saMtuSTa banatI nathI. ane paribhramaNanA prayAsa vRthA jAya che te vRttimAne saMtuSTa banAvavAnA upAya teA samyagajJAnathI magna banela vikasita thaela AtmAmAM che. AtmikajJAnamAM magna anela AtmAne bhavAbhina dIpakSu ke pudgalAnaMdI paNu` hAtu nathI. paraMtu pudgaleAnI sahAya laIne AgaLa vadhe che. kAraNa ke te sivAya AgaLa vadhavAmAM azakathatA che "satya sukha prApta karelA padArthoM dvArA maLatuM nathI. paNu-sabhyajJAna dvArA karelA sarasa saddhicAra-ane vivekamAM che. tame game tevA mana gamatA padArthone meLavA tA paNa sukhanI abhilASA pUrNa thaze nahI. apUrNa ja rahevAnI. kAraNa ke te padArthonA vicAga thatAM ke nAza pAmatA duHkha AvI hAjara thaze. tevA samaye jo sadvicAra haze ke sadviveka haze teA duHkha mAluma paDaze. nahI nahIMtara zAra khakAra karatA jIvana gujAravu paDaze. AvI vipattinI veLA Ave nahI te mATe prathamathI cetIne khAdya keLavaNIne sAthe AtmajJAna prApta karavA pramAda karI nahI. dhanADhayanA eka putra ummara lAyaka thatAM anukrame kAle. janI keLavaNI laI vijJAnanA abhyAsa karavA surApa gayA tenA pitAe tenI pAchaLa hajArA rUpiyAnA vyaya karyo. te For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara nyAti 285 putra, vijJAnamAM praviNatA meLavI peAtAnA vatanamAM AvyA ane ghaNA sthale AprIsa kholIne ghaNuM dhana meLavI vilAsa karavA lAgyA, dhanamAM ane dharmomAM hAni thatI hAvAthI cintA karavA lAgyA. ke AvA maneAhara vilAsA karU chuM chatAM zAMti kema maLatI nathI ? kharekhara dunyavI vilAse mana mAnyA hAya te paNa kSaNu sthAyI hAvAthI iSTa zAMti kayAMthI prApta thAya ? temAM vinAza rahelA hAya che. AvuM samyagajJAna, vilAse bhAgavatAM kayAMthI upalabdha thAya ? ane sadviveka paNa kAMthI Ave ? A bhAIne sukhanI abhilASA te hatIja, kene sukhanI icchA na hoya ? dareka prANIone hAya cheja, ISTa sukhanI tenI IcchA dhanadvArA meLavelA padArthImAM nathI tathA tenA vilAsemAM paNa nathI. Ama niNuya karI AtmajJAna meLavavA mATe laganI lAgI, koi eka AtmajJAnInI pAse gamana karI, satya sukha kayA AdhAre maLe, te mArga mhane darzAvA ? AtmajJAnIe kahyuM ke tenA upAya tArI pAse paNa che. paraMtu te mAge gamana karyuM nahI. tethI sukhane badale valApAta viDaMbanA AvI che. have AtmijJAna meLavI savicAra karI vilAse Aje khAdya padArthonA che tenA tyAga karI AtmAnA guNeAmAM magna ane teA vilAsA karatAM adhika Anada Avaze ane vinAza thatA aTakaze. A pramANe jJAnInA upadeza sAMbhaLI AtmajJAna meLavI vyavahAra kAryo karatAM nile pa rahevA lAgyA cintA valApAta vigere dUra khasI gayA. chevaTe AtmajJAnanA vilAseAmAM magna manI dunyavI vilAsAne haThAvI sAcI zAMti For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIti sAgarasUri racita meLavI ane padArthonA sahakAra levA pUrva ke sadgatine sAdhaze 110 Atmika guNAmAM laganI lagAvIne AtmikAnnati sadhAya che tene ja samyagajJAnI unnati svIkAre che. eka mANasa pApane pApa tarIke mAne che ane chUTakA nahi hAvAthI te pApa sthAnaka sevavuM paDe che ane bIje pApane pApa tarIke mAnatA nathI te emAMthI pApane pApa tarIke mAnatA nathI te nIca ane halakA kahevAya, bhaTTe pachI zrImaMta-dhanADhya kahevAtA hAya te paNa samyagajJAnI STie nIca gaNAya che. Ave zrImaMta prasiddha thavA khAtara lAkhA rUpiyAnA vyaya kare teA paNa ucca sthitine prApta karavA lAgyazAlI ane kayAMthI ? AyuSya pUru thavAnA avasare mAMtA Ata dhyAna ke raudradhyAna karatA hAya che. zAstrakAra kramAve che ke raudra dhyAnathI naraka gati maLe jyAM pIDAgmAnA pAra nathI. tyAM kSetrajanya ane paraspara karelI laDAIthI ane uSNa-zItathI utpanna thatI pIDA eka kSaNa zAMti ApatI nathI. kAraNa ke je pApane pApa tarIke nahI mAnela hAvAthI sattA-sapatti ane khalanA AdhAre pApa sthAnakane sevavAmAM bAkI rAkhatA nathI tethI vicAraza evA duSTa hAya che ke taddana nIca bhUmikAmAM lAvI mUke ane Artta dhyAnanA vicArAthI dhanadhAnya parivAra vigeremAM ghaNI Asaktine lIdhe tiryaMca gatimAM pazupa"khI vigerenI gatimAM jaI TakAya che tyAM paNa pIDAnA pAra nathI. parAdhInatA pUrepUrI hAya che tethI sAMsArika sukhazAtA paNa kayAMthI haiya? A pramANe pApane For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti 287 pApa nahI mAnanAra aMte mahAduHkhI bane che paraMtu pApane pApa tarIke mAnI na chuTake pApa karanAra ane karela pApanI Atma sAkSie nindA gaha karanAranA vicAre nimala thatA hevAthI ane pApa thAya nahIM te mATe upaga rAkhavAthI aMte zubha vicAronA AdhAre devagatine prApta karavA zaktimAna bane che ane AtmaramatA rUpa zukala dhyAnathI anaMta sukhanA svAmI paNa bane che mATe be dhyAnane nivArI dharma ane zukala dhyAnane dhyAvavA prayatnazIla thavAnI AvazyaktA che tathA zAstrakAra pharamAve che ke raudra dhyAnInA taddana phara vicAro hovAthI, maraNa vakhate tenA prANe paga mAMthI nIkaLe che. ane AdhyAnanInA vicAre halakA havAthI aMte tenA prANe jaMghA zAthaLamAMthI nIkaLe che. ane jyAre chAtImAMthI prANe nIkaLe te manuSya gati, agara tiyaca gatine prApta kare che. mastakamAMthI nIkaLe te devagatine meLave. je siddhagatimAM saMyamI javAne hoya te sarve zarIramAMthI prANe nIkaLe che. A mujaba zarIramAMthI judA judA aMgemAMthI prANe nIkaLatA hovAthI anubhavIne paNa mAluma paDe che ke, A bhAI kevI gatimAM gayA, mATe saddhagatinA lahAvA levA hoya to jIvanamAM sadvicAra ane vivekane sthApana kare. maraNa te sarva prANIo janma pAmelA havAthI thavAnuM ja. janame te javAna ja. paNa pApa sthAnaka pIDA-duHkha-viDaMbanAnuM kAraNa mAnIne na chUTake pApa kare ane te pApa karyA pachI nindA gaha karavA pUrvaka pAyacchita laIne nirmala bane. ghaNu pApane karanAra arjunamAlI For Private And Personal Use Only

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288 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita cIlAti putra vigeree pApanI nijA gaha karI AtmadhyAnamAM rata banI sadgatine meLavI sukhane satya lAbha meLavyo che. duSTa ane krUra vicAre pUrvaka tevA kharAba varta. nathI sukha kadApi upalabdha thatuM nathI. duSTAcaraNathI dukha AvI maLe temAM navAI zI? ane duHkha te kehane pasaMda hatuM ja nathI mATe pApane pAtaka tarIke mAnI sadvicAra-ane vivekane lAvI dhArmika bane. Teva sArI ke kharAba pADavI te pitAnA vicAre upara AdhAra rAkhe che sadvicAra dvArA kharAba Teva-latane sudhAravAnI ApaNAmAM tAkAta rahelI che te pachI te zaktine AvirbhAva karI kharAba Tevane dUra karavA mATe sadvicAre kema na karavA? dararAja bUrI late je paDelI hoya che. tenI gulAmI ochI nathI. te te keI vakhate hAMsIpAtra banAve che, ane mUtAmAM gaNanA karAve che. "eka be vAra bUrI Tevane namatuM ApyuM te jarUra mAnajo ke bagAInI mAphaka eMTI paDavAthI dUra karavIduSkara banaze. rUDha banela Teva svAbhAvika banI manuSyane unmAge ghasaDI jAya che. ane pAgala banAvI sadvicAra karavA detI nathI. cerI jArInI lata-TevavALAoe ghaNuvAra lAte khAdhI hoya che. hAMsI pAtra, svajana vargamAM banela hoya che, tathA AbarU pratiSThAnuM lIlAma paNa karela hoya che. temaja zArIrika zaktinI barabAdI thaelI hoya che. chatAM te bUrI Tevane dUra karavA samartha banatuM nathI. tethI aMte asahya saMkaTanA bhoktA bane che. eka dhanADhaya zeThanI patnI rUpavatI te hatI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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atira jAti paNa corI karavAnI kharAba Teva paDelI hevAthI sArI rIte sAdhana sAmagrI hovA chatAM paNa zeThanA gajavAmAMthI dararoja rUpiyA-ATha AnA je hAthamAM Ave te cerI laI saMgraha karIne khuzI thatI. zeTha kahetA ke tuM corI karIne je kAMI hAthamAM Ave che. te upADI le che. tenA karatAM hune puchIne lete ghaNuM sAruM kahevAya ? ne devAmAM bAdha nathI. Ama cerI karatAM koI prasaMge tane ghaNuM sahana karavuM paDaze. ApaNA gharamAM dhana vigerenI kAMI khAmI nathI. zeTha Thapake Ape tyAre kaTANuM mukha karIne rIsAI besatI. zeThe pachI kahevAnuM mUkI dIdhuM. eka divasa lagna prasaMge jAnamAM piyara gaI tyAM paNa corI karavA lAga jotI rahI che. paNa cArI karavAno lAga maLatuM nathI, tethI becena rahevA lAgI. miSTAna paNa bhAvatuM nathI. khAya kharI paNa uMcA manathI, sagA vahAlA che te kAMI nahI kAMI nahI Ama karIne patAvI letI. eTalAmAM sagAMvahAlAM agatyanA kAmamAM rokAela che. teTalAmAM bhAga phAvavAthI mAtapitAnA gharamAM rahelI metInI mALA cerIne caNIyAma beThavI. paNa cAlavAmAM ghaNuM aDacaNa paDavA lAgI. eTale keI belAve te paNa tenI pAse jatI nathI. ane mauna dhAraNa karIne besI rahe che. cAlavAthI kaI jANI jAya ane pakaDI pADe tethI saMDAzamAM paNa jatI nathI. jhADe pezAba baMdha thavAthI peTamAM vyAdhi thaI ane pIDA thavAthI buma pADavA lAgI, mAta pitAe vAghane belAvyuM. teNe recanI davA ApI. have saMDhAzamAM gayA vinA cAle ema nathI. jAya nahI te lugaDAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgaTyuri racita vo malIna thAya ema hatuM, saMDAzamAM hatAM. caNIyAmAM goThavelA hAra nIce labaDavA lAgyA. sagAMone khabara paDI ke hAra jevuM kAMI che. tapAsa karatAM hAra metIne mAluma paDaye. ane ghaNe Thapako dIdhe ke tAre hAranI jarUra hatI te amane kahIne levuM hatuM ne? ame tane arpaNa karatA, cerI karavAthI kevI-vyAdhi thaI. pelI bahu khasIANuM paDI gaI. mAtA pitAdi hAMsI karavA lAgyA. ke tArA gharamAM metInA hAra vigerenI khAmI che nahI. chatAM cerI karavAnI bUrI Tevane lIdhe A phajetI thaI. havethI A kharAba Tevane tyAga karaje, nahitara hArI kIMmata keDInI thaze. sagAM vahAlAM vigere tArA upara vizvAsa rAkhaze nahI. A zeThANI piyaramAMthI sAsare gaI. tenA patine hAra coryAnI khabara paDI. ghaNe Thapake Ape ke te piyaramAM paNa corI karI, tyAM tArI kiMmata keTalI thaI? mATe samajIne A Tevane tyAga karavuM jarUrI che. corI karanAra bamaNe gunhegAra bane che. asatya balI karelA gunhAmAMthI chUTavA mAge che. paNa pakaDAyA vinA rahetuM nathI. kadAca mAra khAIne paNa gunhA kabUla kare paDe che. ane pApI banI taddana nIce halakI bhUmikAnuM bhAjana banavuM paDe che. pANImAM paDele pathare tare nahI paNa taLIye jaIne paDe tema corI karanAra saMsAra- sAgaramAM tarate nathI paNa temAM DUbIne maraNa pAme che. tethI ja svayaM atyaMta saMkaTa upasthita karI pote duHkhI thAya che. 111 * sukha zAMti kadApi gerahAjara hatI nathI hAjarane hAjara hoya che. mAtra ApaNeja enI For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara jyAti 21 hAjarIne oLakhatA nathI, ALakhANa vinA anyatra laTakavAnuM ane vAre vAre TIcAvAnuM thAya che. buddhimAnA viSaya kaSAyanA vikArAne haThAvI Atmika guNeInA AvirbhAva karavA mATe anyatra bhaTakavAnuM mUkI daI sthiratA dhAraNa karavA pUrNAMka tenA sAdhanA meLave teA jarUra sukha zAMtinI hAjarIne rRkhe. sAMsArika mAyA mamatAmAM phasAI paDelA ane vikArImAM vavattI anelA kAyama rahelI sukhanI hAjarI kayAMthI Dhekhe ? AvA mAnavIe pAtAnI jAtane pAte halakI nIca kIDA jevI manAvI mUke teA pachI keAi teone pagathI cAMpe agara vividha pIDAothI, saMkaTAthI akaLAtA hAtA potAnI jAtane unnata manAvavA kaTTIbaddha banavu. te kalyANakara mArga che. 112 jagatanI sava jAtione tathA padArthone ALakhavA mATe prayAsa karI rahelA mAnavIoe prathama peAtAnI jAtane AtmAne oLakhavAnI lAgaNI rAkhavAnI jarUra che. peAtAne oLakhyA pachI sukha zAMtine mATe anyatra paribhramaNa karavAnu raheze nahI. anyathA te paribhramaNa kapAlamAM cAMTI rahevAnuM ja, ane vividha vedanA AvIne thavAnI ja. 8 Atmika guNeAne bhUlI viSaya kaSAyanA vikAzane vahAlA mAnI temAMja sarvasvanI kalpanA dhAraNa karavA pUrva ke tenA sAdhanAne prayAsathI prApta kare che. paraMtu jyAre te sAdhanA naSTa thAya che. tyAre keTalAka mAha mugdha mAnavA saLagatA agnimAM svadehane DAmI de che. tathA keTalAka viSa khAI akAle For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgari racita cAi, pAme che. keTalAka jaMgalamAM vasI, savajIvanane vyatIta kare che. paNa saMyama-tapAdinI ArAdhanA karavAnuM ke bhAgyazAlI kahe te pasaMda paDatuM nathI. bhale pachI atyaMta yAtanAo sahana karavI paDe. AvAone bhaTakavAnuM thAya temAM navAI zI? 113 rasa gAra-ddhi gAra ane zAtA gAra AbAdInI tathA AjhAdInI barabAdI karelI che. tevI zatruoe temaja zaoe karI nathI. temaja karatA nathI, rasAdigAravamAM garakAva thaelA mAnavIo zaktine gumAvatA rahevAthI zastrone, ane zatruone barabAdI karavAne lAga phAve che je temAM lubdha thAya nahI te zatruonuM jora cAlatuM nathI ane AbAdI-AjhAdI kAyama rahe che. AbAI-AjhAdIne sAcavavI hoya ane tenA tarapha lAbha hAya te prathama mAnasika-vAcika ane kAyika nivRttione samyajJAna pUrvaka sudhArI balavatI kare tathA amiAnane tyAga karIne samAja jJAti ane deza tathA Ata nati thAya te mujaba te balavatI thAya evI pravRttione je kadApi parAdhInatA Avaze nahI. ane zatruonuM jora cAlaze nahI 114 saMyama sivAyane saMsAra-asAra che saMyamanA AdhAre saMsAramAMthI iSTa vastuo meLavI zakAya che A sivAya saMsAra, narakAgAra bane che saMyamInuM AyuSya dIdhuM hoya te vakhANavA lAyaka che asaMyamInuM dIdha jIvana, pitAne tema pArakAone dukhajanaka bane che mATe saMsAra rasikene paNa pratikalatAnA ge saMyamane jALavavAnI For Private And Personal Use Only

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aAMtara khyAti khAsa jarUra che zAstrakAre saMyamanA sattara prakAra kahyA che te paikI viSaya kaSAyanA asaMyama, ghaNA anatha karanAra che temAM vaLI krodha kaSAya te duniyAmAM atyaMta dAvAnala saLagAve che. ane kAramI *tala-kera vartAve che te vakhate koI sajjana samajAve tA paNu zAMta manate nathI. te vakhate kAramA kera thatA aTake te mATe kSamAnI jarUra che te paNa te samaye kSamA-sahanatA AvavI azakaya che te pachI kace1 upAya karavA, upAya tA che ja, te krodhAveza sarca te sthalethI khasI javuM, zreNika nRpanI mAphaka " tamAe vAta sAMbhaLI haze. ke pRthvI talane pAvana karatA mahA upakArI tIrthaMkara mahArAjA-mahAvIra svAmI, sva samudAya sAthe rAjagRhI nagarInI samIpa rahelA vaibhAragira upara samAsaryA-zreNika nRpa cellArANI sAthe vadana karIne pAchA vaLatA eka yuvAna munine dekhI AnaMda pUrNAMka vaMdana karIne sva sthAne gayA. te rAtrimAM aeTuM hima paDayuM. mahelamAM rahela rANInA hAtha mADamAMthI bahAra rahI gaela hAvAthI huM ThavAI gayA. tethI ghaNI thaI. ane vicAra karavA lAgI ke AvI kaDakaDatI TADhamAM pelA munivaryanI kevI dazA thaI haze. ghaNu' kaSTa thayuM haze, A gujakhanu avaNu karIne pAse sutela rAjAne ghaNeA kApa thaye te vakhate rAjA jAgatA vicAra karavA lAgyA are A rANI anyatra rAgI banela che. AvI saz2IthI saryuM, anyatra rAgI manela A rANI pratikrulatA thatAM hune mArI nAMkhe te kahI zakAya nahIM. rAjAe marAkhara puchyA vinA krodhanA AvezamAM sva putra~ For Private And Personal Use Only

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194 Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir A. kIti sAgarasuri racita mahAmAtya, alayakumArane kahyu. cillaNA rANInA mahela khALI nAMkho, paraMtu tu zreNikane hukama ApyA pachI vicAra Avyo ke mAre A sthale rahevu' nahI. prabhu mahAvIra samIpe jaine puchuM ke cillANA-satI ke asatI, A pramANe te sthalethI khasI mahAvIra svAmI pAse jaIne pRcchA karI. prabhue kahyuM ke satI che. AthI nRpane atyaMta pari tAya thayA. abhayakumAre rANInA mahela khAnyA nahI. paNa eka khAlI jhuMpaDAne khALyuM. AthI rAjAnA piratApa zAMta thayA. A dRSTAMta uparathI samajavAnuM ke tyAMthI khasyA tyAre ja krodha zAMta thayA. ane zaMkA rahI nahIM. abhayakumAre dvIkSA lIdhI. mATe krodhanI vakhate te sthalethI khasI javu' hitakAraka che. pachI vicAra jAge che. kSamAne dhAraNa karavI te zreyaskara che paNu sahanazIlatA na heAya teA khasI javuM te paNa kalyANa kare che. ke jethI anatha thAya nahI. 115 sasAre ke kaSAye tamAne vividha lAlA dekhADI tamArU Atma bala ane dhana dabAvI dIdhuM che. tethIja tamArI AvI paristhiti upasthita thaela dekhAya che. dunyavI padArthoM dvArA vaiyika sukhA bhAganyA te paNa valApAta nAbuda thayA nahI. dInatA-hInatA ane yAcanA khasI nahI. ane bhautika vastuo prayAsa karatA prApta thaI nahIM tyAre paNa paritApa, zeka, sa'tApa thayA ke AvI dazA kALe karI ? te vicAraNIya che. kaSAyeja karI che. kAca kahA ke sasAra kahA te nAmAntara ja che. mATe sa sAre For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 295 apaNu karelI vastuomAM laMpaTa na khanatAM svAtmAnI satya vastuone prApta karavA prayatna zIla thavAnI agatyatA che. ke jethI sarva saMkaTAthI mukta thavAya. Adhi vyAdhi ane upAdhinI viDaMbanA mUlamAMthI khase. paraMtu jo lAlaceAmAM laMpaTa anyA te rahI sahI Atmasa patti gumAvI besAthe, eka lAlacukhAIna mAphaka--eka dhanADhayane lAlacu zeThANI hatI. dararAja svapatinA khIssAne tapAsI eka e rUpiyA laine khAnagImAM rAkhatI. zeTha puche tyAre rIsAIne kaMkAsa karI mukatI. tethI zeThe upekSA karI evuM samajIne ke, ahAra kAIne ApI detI nathIne, lAga Avaze tyAre sarve rUpiyA kamaje karIza, zeThANI pAse khIssAmAMthI uThAvela rUpiyA be hajAre thayA. eTale kulAi. eka dhUtArI pADAsaNane vAta kahI ke huM kevI jabarI chuM. ke zeThane chetarI e hajAra rUpiyA khAnagImAM bhegA karyAM che. A khInA sAMbhaLI dhUtArIne tenI pAsethI rUpiyA, dhRta kalA vAparI chInavI levAnI IcchA thai. eka vakhata zeThANI pAse AvI mukha ThAvakuM rAkhI kahevA lAgI. mAre se| rUpiyAnI jarUra paDI che. jo Ape te e mahinAmAM pAchA ApIza. ane upara daza rUpiyA vyAja tarIke ApIza. zeThANI Ama tA lAlacu hatI ja. daza rUpiyAnI lAlace rUpiyA ApyA. dhUtArI laine peAtAne ghera gaI e mahinA thayA tyAre sA rUpiyA upara daza rUpiyA ApyA. tethI zeThANI khuzI khuzI thaI. ane kahevA lAgI ke vaLI rUpiyAnA khapa hAya tyAre levA Avaze. jarUra ApIza. punaH be traNa mahinA gayA bAda pADAsaNa dhUtArIe zeThANI pAse AvI pAMcase For Private And Personal Use Only

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Hao A. kItimAri racita rUpiyAnI mAgaNI karI. ane traNa mahinAmAM rUpiyA pacAza vyAja tarIke ApIza, pelIe gaNI ApyA. ane dhRtArIe kahyA mujaba vyAja sAthe pAMcasA pAchA ApyA. A pramANe koI vakhata hajAra rUpiyA laIne sA rUpiyA vyAja tarIke te bhUtArI ApatI. zeThANI ghaNI khuzI thatI. ane kahyA pramANe rUpiyA ANu karatI. lAlacune leAbha vadhAre hoya che. tene mAluma paDatI nathI ke ATaluM adhika vyAja zA mATe Ape che tete vadhAre lAbha thAya temAM lapaTa bane che. eka vakhata dhUtArIe AvIne kahyuM ke mArA dIkarAne paraNAnavA che. ane mArI pAse atyAre sAdhana sAmagrI che nahI mATe becAra senAnA ghareNAnI sAthe eka hajAra Ape te lagna patI gayA pachI te ghareNAnI sAthe lIdhelA rUpiyA jarUra ApIza tathA se rUpiyA adhika ApIza. zeThANIe zeThano salAha lIdhA sivAya ghareNAnI sAthe hajAra rUpiyA ApyA. pelI laIne peAtAne ghera gaI putranA lagna patI gayA pachI e mahinA thayA paNa te ghareNAM ane rUpiyA pAchA ApavA AvI nahI tyAre zeThANI teNInA ghera jaIne mAgaNI karo. teNIe kahyu ke are zeThANI dhIraja rAkheA. tamArI vastuone varkane nAsI jaIza nahI, be mahinA pachI ApIza. A pramANe puna:punaH Talle caDhAvavA lAgI. zeThANI kaTALIne pakA ApavA lAgI. tyAre dhUtAro kahevA lAgI ke ghareNA ane rUpiyAnI vAta zI ? koI bIjI AvIne lai gaI haze are dhUtArI koInuM ghara bhUlI lAgI che. me tA kAMi pazu lIdhu nathI. ahIthI khase| jeNe tamArIRRtuo lIdhI hoya tene dhare jAma najIka DhamakI Ape nI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara jyAti zeThANI te AApramANe dhUtArInA vacane sabhALI mUDha anI gaI khelavAnI paNa tAkAta rahI nahI. zu Ave-1 lakhANa patra teA hatuM ja nahI. A te vyAjanI lAlace rUpiyA tathA ghareNA Apela hatA. adhika khele tA dhUtArI javAba ApavAmAM bAkI zakhe tema naheAtI. aksesa karatI zeThANI pAtAnA ghera AvI, ane manamAM cintA karavA lAgI ke vyAjanI lAlace muDI tathA ghareNAM thayAM. kahevAya che ke cArInA mAla caMDAle jAya. ane pApI hAtha ghasatA thAya. A pramANe dhUtArI saMsAranI mAyA mamatAe vividha lAlacA ApIne jagata jIvAtuM sarvasva chInavI lIdhuM che mATe saMsArathI ane tenI mAyAthI sadAye cetavA jevu' che je cetyA che teoe Atmika dhananu rakSaNa karyuM che mATe tamArI pAse rahela satya dhanane tathA sattAne barAbara sAvadhAna banIne rakSaNa karavA pUrvaka vadhArA karI. 116 pramANikatA pravINatA, zuravIratA, peTa bharavAmAM tathA vyAvahArika kAryAmAM vaparAya tA ghaNA saTo tathA viDaMbanAo AvI zake nahI, ane jIva nanA mArga sarala ane sugama ane. anyathA te saMsAranI mAyA mamatA, mIThe mAra paNa mAravAne taiyAra che te vakhate tamAne bahu bhAre paDaze jIvana jIvavAnI dizA sujhaze nahI, tathA anya prANIo upara che DhavA bhAva che te paNa raheze nahI. vividha Arasa jamAragamAM paDI mahutI ApattimAM phasAvu' paDhaze te samaye kAI lI tamArA banaze nahI. sa MsAranA sugama ane surata mAgI For Private And Personal Use Only

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ra88 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita paNa gama paDaze nahIM. kayA mArge gamana karavAthI viDaMbanA TaLe ane sukhethI musApharI karI zakAya. mATe ja jJAnInuM A ja kathana che ke saMsAramAM be mArgo rahelA che eka mArga vikaTa che ane bIjo mArga sarala ane sugama che. vikaTamAM kaSAye vividha lalacAvanArI vastuo mUkI che mATe te vastu ene dekhI temAM laMpaTa bane nahIM. 117 anAtmabhautika padArthomAM pitAnI kalapanAne karI beThelA mANasane keAdha-mAna-mAyA ane lAbha rUpI saMsAra AvIne vaLage che. pachI te kaSAmAM phasAI paDavAthI AtmatatvanI oLakhANa thavI azakaya banI rahe che. eTale samyagU dazanajJAna ane cAritra je mokSa mAge che te teone durlabha bane che. ane atyaMta kaSTadAyaka mArgamAM gamana karatAM sva jIvanane vyatIta kare che. je AtmAthI para vastuo che te kadApi pitAnI thatI nathI ane thaze paNa nahI. chatAM temAM potAnI kalpanA karI vRthA durlabha manuSya bhava gumAve che, ane AtmAnnatimAM AgaLa vadhavA be nasIba banI bese che. tethI ISTa parapadArthane viyAga thatAM vividha vilApa valepAta karI duHkhane bhegave che. ane mAne che ke arere gaI vastu kyAre maLaze je viyegI vastu jaldI pAchI AvI maLe te sukhI thAuM. anyathA dukhI. AvI AvI kalpanA karI duHkhI hAya nahI chatAM duHkhI thAya che. tyAre AtmajJAnI, bhale gRhastha heAya sAdhu saMta haya zrImaMta heya ke sAmAnya hoya, tathA rahevAnuM makAna nAnuM hoya ke mhAruM For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti hAya, sacage sAnukula hoya ke pratikula hoya. zarIra-gI. hoya ke nirogI hoya, ekale hoya ke samudAyavAnuM hoya. te paNa mAruM zuM thaze. sahAya rahita e mAruM zuM thaze. sukhI thaIza ke duHkhI thaIza AvAM diDAM raDatuM nathI. ane hiMmatane hArI besatuM nathI. tevA prasaMge dheyane dhAraNa karI AtmajJAnamAM-dhArmika kriyAmAM adhika daDha bane che. ane samaje che ke AtmikalAbha levAne avasara umadA maLe che. tethI teone ISTane viyega thatAM daDAM raDavAne tathA valepAtAdika karavAnuM pasaMda paDatuM nathI. sadAya AnadamAM mahAle che. tyAre valepAta-aphasa-saMtApAdi vigere keNa kare,te tame jANI gayA che. jene anAtmika padArthomAM potAnI mamatA ka95nA hoya tene ja. 118 garIbAIno anubhava laIne bhAgya cage. zrImAn thayA hete garIbAIne bhUlatA nahI. je. bhUlyA gagubhAna AvIne ghere ghAlaze prathamanI paristhitinuM smaraNa karyAthI gumAna gaLI jAya che. ane zrImaMtAIne anubhava karatAM paNa namratA laghutA AvI vase che namratA-vigere sadaguNe dvArA AgaLa vadhAya. che pAchaLa paDAtuM nathI. naraka gatinA tathA tiya gatinA khe tathA saMkaTa ke viDaMbanAonuM je maraNa thAya te. manuSyane maLelI mahatI saMpatti sAhAbI vibhavane ahaMkAraabhimAna thAya nahI. tevI dukhada sthitinuM vismaraNa thavAthI manuSya, garvane dhAraNa karI anya janene pitAnA karatAM halakAM gaNe che ane jema tema belavA pUrvaka AcaraNanA cage thI narakagati dvArA AvA navA For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgarasuri racita pitaja halakA bane che. kAraNa ke ahaMkAra-gumAna AvatAM saMpatti-sattA-sAhyabI khasavA mAMDe che. gumAnanI sAthe saMpatti vigerene anAdikAlIna virodha che eTale garva AvatAM te khasavAne AraMbha kare che buddhimAM viparyaya thAya che ane avaLI buddhi thatAM vera virodha vigerene karavAnI manovRtti jAgRta thAya che vera virodha kenuM kalyANa karyuM? mATe svargamAM rahelI sAhyabI karatAM tathA labdhimAnanI saMpatti karatAM tamArI pAse rahelI sAhyabI tucchamAtra che mATe nagnatAne dhAraNa karI prApta thaela saMpattine sadupayoga kare. tamArI pAse je saMpatti sAhyabI che te dvArA ahaMkArAdika dhAraNa karIne tame zuM meLavyuM? te kaheze? zubha saMskAra meLavyA ke azubha? sAthe AvanAra vastuo meLavI ke ahIMja paDI rahevAnI? tene kadApi vicAra karyo che A vicAra dararoja karavAnI khAsa jarUra che azubha saMskAra hoya te kara nahItara te saMskAro tana samIpe rahelAM punaH punaH AgaLa vadhavAmAM vividha vidane upasthita karaze. "vipatti velAye tene dUra karI saMpatti arpaNa karanAra zubha saMskAra-hiMmata vigere che. te je nahi hoya te vipattine vadhAre jora AvavAnuM, ane tene haThAvavAnI tAkAta paNa khasI javAnI tAkAta gumAvyA pachI dareka bAbatamAM nirAza banavAnA ja. mATe sArA nimittonA saMsargamAM AvI zubha saMskArane grahaNa karIne azubha vicAra-saMskArane tyAga kare. pachI nirAza thavAne vakhata Avaze nahI ane dhArmika bAbatamAM hiMmata pUrvaka prayatna For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti karyo karaze, mahAsatI-DhaupadI-tathA damayatIne vipatti paNa AvI ane vanavagaDAmAM rajhaLatI karI mUkI. chatAM zubha sa'skAra ane hiMmata dvArA te AvI paDelI vipattione haThAvI sapatti-sAhyabInA bhAjana thayA. eTale vipatti velAye sAcA mitra, zubha saMskAra-ane- hiMmata ane sArA saMskArAnI AzA rAkhe che. ane mAgaNI kare che. te vinA teone paNa nirAza banavu paDe che, ane hiMmatavALAne tathA nibhayane sArA sa'skArI hAvAthI vipattinA avasare madadasahakAra maLyA kare che. 119 tamAe bhUlA karelI hAya tA zAka satApa karatA nahI-paNa sudhAravA prayatnazIla banaze. ane bIjIvAra tevI bhUle thAya nahI tenA barAbara upayAga rAkhaze| eTale zAka saMtA pAdi karavAnA vakhata Avaze nahI. 30% ane anya vyaktioe tamArI taraphathI bhUle karI hAya te! kSamA dhAraNa karavA pUrNAMka teone samajaNu ApavI. tethI vera virAdha-adekhAI raheze nahI. ane jIvananA mAga sugama khanaze, paraMtu jo bhUla thatAM teNIne sudhAravAnuM cUkI zAka saMtApamAM paDayA tA te bhUla kadApi sudharavAnI AzA rAkhavI te azakaya che. temaja sAmAe karela bhUlA taraph kSamA rAkhavo. nahIM tA verivarAdha tayA adekhAI hAjara thavAnI ane mAga sakaTAthI bharapura banavAnA ja. " je vyatIta thaelA divase mATe haSa agara zAka karatA nathI paraMtu te divaseAmAM kayA kAraNathI haSa thayA For Private And Personal Use Only

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202 A kIti sAgarasUri racita ane zoka saMtApa vigere thayA tenI vicAraNA je kare che. te vicAraka dukha prasaMge agara sukhanA prasaMge unmAdI ke Asakta banatA nathI. temaja kAyara banIne besI rahetA nathI. paNa vartamAna divasane sudhArI zake che. tethI temanuM bhAvI hitakara ane zreyaskara bane che. tyAre vyatIta thaela divaso mATe zoka saMtApAdi karanAra mANase svahita paNa sAdhavA zaktimAna banatA nathI. ALasu banI duHkhadAyaka paristhiti pite pitAnI sarjaje che. rItasara vicAraNA karanAra mahAzaya, saMtApa paritApadika upara temaja harSanA unmAda upara svAmItva meLavI zake che. zAstrakAre, zoka saMtApAdikane karavAnuM pharamAvyuM nathI paNa niA kAryone tyAgavAnuM kahyuM che. jeo tevA kAryone tyAga karatA nathI te bhale saMpatti-sAhAbImAna hoya te paNa dukha dAyI sthitine dUra karI zakatA nathI, mATe vizva kAne tyAga kare te manuSyanuM prathama kartavya che. te rItasara jANavuM joIe.' 120 saMsAranA kAryo karatAM ghaNe thAka lAgavAthI hAtha paga ane zarIrane visAme Ape che, te pramANe mAnasika vRttione tathA jIbhane visAmo ApavA vakhatane kADhe. ane te vakhata daramyAna, mane vRttionI tathA jIbhanI pravRttinI tapAsa kare. tenI tapAsa karIne je nindavA lAyaka vRttio ane pravRttio mAluma paDe te tene sudhAravA tatpara anaze te sudharI jaze. pachI ja je dukhadAyaka dazA che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara ti te sudhAravA mAMDaze are navajIvananA lahAvAne anubhava Avate raheze. mATe hAtha-paga zarIranI mAphaka manovRttine tathA jIbhane visAme Apo. 121 karmonA AdhAre saMsAramAM paribhramaNa karatAM baLadane avatAra jyAre AvyA tyAre purUSanA karatAM prAyabAra guNu baLavALe AtmA banyo. ane azvane avatAra thaye tyAre baLada karatAM daza guNuM baLa meLavyuM, ane mahiSa-pADAnA bhAvamAM AtmAe bAra ghaDA jeTaluM baLa maLyuM. hAthInA bhAvamAM AtmAne pAMcaze hAthI jevI zakti maLI. ane aSTApadanA bhavamAM be hajAra je sihanuM bala che teTaluM maLyuM. ane daza lAkha aSTApadanuM bala eka vAsudevamAM kahevAya che ane e vAsudevenuM bela eka cakravatImAM hoya che ane eka keTI cakravatIonuM bala vaimAnika devamAM hoya che ane eka karoDa devenuM bala IndramahArAjAmAM hoya che ane karoDa IndronuM bala eka tIrthakaramAM hAya. AvA balane pAmI tIrthaMkara mahArAjAoe te saMpUrNa saMyamanI ArAdhanA karI anaMta bala-jJAnane pAmyA. tathA daza cakravatIoe temaja baladee paNa anaMta duHkhane dUra karI anaMta Rddhi-siddhi ane sukhane meLavavA mahAna bhAgyazAlI banyA. ane banaze tiryaMca bhavamAM ghaNuM baLa maLyuM. tathA manuSya bhavamAM paNa mana gamatI sAdhana sAmagrI maLI chatAM saMyamanI ArA dhana thaI nahI tethI saMsAranI rakhaDapaTTI nasIbamAM AvIne vaLagI ane maLelA balanI saphalatA thaI nahI mATe balanI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIti sAgara racita sAnA karavA mATe sayamanI sAcAranI AvazyaktA che. amUlya vastu maLyA pachI tene oLakhavAnI AMkha joie ane parakhavAnI muddhi joIe. te maLyA pachI kiMmatI maLelI vastuo upara AdarabhAva jAge che. paraMtu jene viveka cakSu nathI ane parakhavAnI buddhi nathI tenI AgaLa kAhInuranA hIrA dharA paNuM Adara thaze nahI. devagurU ane dharmanA sahAro laIne bhautika padArthAna prApta karavAnI bhAvanAvALA temaja pravRtti karanAra, Atmikakhala ane je jJAna icchI rahela che. te meLavavA bhAgyazAlI ane kayAMthI ? kAraNa ke devagurU ane dharmAMno sahArA, niti nyAya pramANikatA vigerene aNu karavA samartha che. ane Atmika kti paNa kone dunyavI aMdhane toDI zake che. tyAre sahArA ane meLavela padArtha, nIti nyAya vigera hAya nahI te AsaktimAM lapaTAve che, ane AsakitamAM lapaSTa thayA pachI A vyAdhinA pAra raheneA nathI. mATe devagurU ane dharmanA sahAro laine dunyavI padArthone meLavavAnI IcchA paNa karI nahIM, paraMtu nIti nyAya ane pramANikatAmAM AgaLa vadhA. keTalAka evA hAya che ke devagurU ane dharmAMnI AzadhanA bhautika padArthA khAtara ja karatA hoya che. temA bhAgya ceAge. manavAMchita vastuo meLavI zake paNa je AvI paDelI viDa'banAcyAne haThAvavA zakitamAna banatA nathI. paNa je nItinyAya ane pramANikatA haze tathA dharmanI ArAdhanA rItasara karI haze. tA AvI paDelI vi'banAone haThAvavA For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara ti samartha banaze. mATe devAdikanI ArAdhanA karI nItinyAyamAM tatpara bane. nItinyAyAdika haze teja dunyavI padArtho paNa sahakAra ApI zakaze. eka mANase devagurU dharmanI ArAdhanA karI paNa nIti nyAya, pramANikatAne bhUlI aneka kapaTa kalA keLavIne dunyavI padArtho meLavyA, ane dhanADhaya banyA. paraMtu tene je sthiratA joIe te maLI nahI. keInA upara vizvAsa raNe nahI. ane dararoja cintA karyA karate ke keI svajana varga chUpI rIte laI jaze. eTale duHkhI thaIza AvI cintA karatuM hatuM tevAmAM bahAravaTIA AvyAnI buma paDI. bUma sAMbhaLI tenuM hayu hAthamAM rahyuM nathI. eka dama hRdaya baMdha paDayuM. ane maraNa pAmyA. chevaTe te padArthoe daze dIdhe. meLavela padArthone lAbha prApta karI zakaze nahI. temaja nIti nyAya je dharma che tene barAbara oLakhI zake nahIM. mATe kamene dUra karavA deva gurUnI ArAdhanA karI Atma kalyANa sAdhA. 1rara daMbhIonI mauna rahevAnI kalA kaI judI prakAranI hoya che teo monane dhAraNa karI, mukhe belatA nathI. hAtha paganI ceSTA dekhAya nahI e mujaba karI sAmAnA upara kAramAM kera vartAve che. ane jAheramAM Ave nahIM tevI saphAI dhAraNa karI malakAya che. tyAre satya munivara-saMte mauna dhAraNa karI anya prANuonI kAramI katala dUra karAve che. ane Atmika 20 For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasari racita guNene vadhArI AnaMdamAM mahAle che. metArya munivare tathA zrImAna-sudarzana zeThe mona dhAraNa karI. temaja kanTene paNa sahana karI krauMca pakSIne tathA abhayArANIne bacAva karyo A pramANe mauna dhAraNa karavAmAM ghaNe taphAvata che. tame evuM mauna dhAraNa kare ke, kajIo-kaleza tathA kAra kera thAya nahIM. ane zAMti AvIne rahe daMbha rAkhIne rAkhela mauna, kadApi zAMti Apaze nahI. ane haiyuM paNa sthira thaze nahI. keTalAka evA hoya che. pite jAte bele nahI. paNuM AMkhanA IzAre karIne bIjAone evA uzkere ke gharamAM tathA bajAramAM kAra kaMkAsa jhaghaDAe ubhA thAya, ane pite dUra khasI jaIne ubhA ubhA khuzI thAya, paraMtu pariNAme temanI badamAsI nAlAyakI jAheramAM thayA vinA rahetI nathI. AvAnA upara ke vizvAsa rAkhatuM nathI temaja temanI sebata IcchatuM nathI. chevaTe te daMbhI pitAnA daMbhanA cage e vipattimAM phasAI paDe che ke teone madada karanAra kaI maLatuM nathI. saghaLA de karatAM daMbhane deva, asAdhAraNa che. A deSane tyAga karyA pachI ja ArAdhela dhama-pUjA-prabhAvanA-vigere saphala bane. ane saddaguNone AvavAne AvakAza jaladI maLe mATe are dhamI jane! dhamInI ArAdhanA karatAM pahelAM daMbhane jarUra tyAga karaze. 123 "rAjasattA-tathA kamanI sattAmAMthI je kaI mukata karAvanAra hoya to dhamasattA che. paraMtu temAM daMbha, chAne mAne. je ghusI jAya te rAjya sattA agara karmanI sattA daMbhIne pakaDI pADI vividha veda For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jayoti nAnA bhAjana banAve che. tyAre daMbhIo, dharmane deza kADhI anyAyanA mArge ArUDha thaI bamaNu vedanAo bhogave che. tyAM dharma che tyAM daMbha nathI. ane jyAM daMbha che tyAM dharma nathI. kheDaNa paNa vALa sAce rUpiye hoya te paNa tene svIkAra thayela che. te mujaba daMbha vinAne kheDa khAMpasuvALa paNa dhamI je hoya te tenuM sanmAna karAya che. paNa dekhAvamAM manahara heya paNa kheTe hoya te tene svIkAra thatuM nathI. jyAM tyAM athaDAI aMte khIlAne bhega bane che. mATe rAja sattAmAMthI temaja karma sattAmAMthI mukta thavuM hoya, ane sanmAna-satkAra temaja prazaMsA pAtra banavuM hoya te daMbha rahita vyAvahArika kAryo kare ane dhArmika kriyAe paNa kapaTa rahita kare. je guNe joItA haze te AvI maLaze. anyathA khoTA upara jema khIlA vAge che. tema khIlA vAgavAmAM bAkI raheze nahI. ane bhara bajAramAM lIlAma thaze. keI eka daMbhI munimahArAjanA vyAkhyAnamAM Avate ane upadeza sAMbhaLI mastaka dhUNAvavA pUrvaka khuzI te paNa tenI najara kayA kayA zrImate AvyA che. ane teo ze vyApAra kare che te dhanADhaye catura che ke bheLA che. tenI paNa anyane pUchI tapAsa karI lete ane tapAsa karI tene kevI rIte chetaravA tene ghATa ghaDIne teonA nIce rahelA chatrI jeDAone vahelA uThI laI jato. A mujaba dararoja corI karate ane dararoja barobara najara rAkho. tapAsa karatAM pakaDAto nahI. eka divasa chatrI ane DAonI corI karatAM koI eka cAlAke pakaDI pADa For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kautisAgarasUri vinA pachI Thapake ApIne dUra karyo. A mujaba dhArmika sthale paNa daMbhI jana kapaTa karavAmAM bAkI rAkhatA nathI. tene dhamanI ArAdhanA kayAMthI saphalatI bane ? na ja bane. dareka mAnavane urdhvagamana karavAmAM be pAMkhe, paMkhInI mAphaka hoya te urva gati karavA teo zaktimAna che. te pAMkhene kApavAmAM Ave te game te samartha urdhva gatimAM AgaLa vadhavAnI zakti meLavI zakatuM nathI. te be pAMkhe samyagudarzana ane samyaga jJAnane prApta kare te ja AgaLa gamana karI zake. urdhvagamana karavAnI icchAvALA te jagatamAM ghaNuM che. paraMtu te be pAMkha vinAnA urdhvagamana karavA mATe ghaNe ThekaDA mAre che paNa pAchA paTakAI atIva asahya pIDAne sahana karatA mAluma paDe che urvagamana, kahetAM unnati mATe keTalAka videzamAM premI banIne aneka kaMkAsa, jhaghaDA mArI vigerene AdhAra laI mArAmArI karavAmAM bAkI rAkhatA nathI. ane maraNa pAme che. ane keTalAka adhikArane prApta karI pitAnI tijorIne bharapura kare che tyAre keTalAka vividha kapaTa kalAone keLavI prajAonuM dhana kabaje karI moTara eroplenamAM ja kare che. A pramANe karatAM paNa udhA gatine meLavI zaktA nathI. kAraNa ke be pAMkhenuM zaraNa lIdhuM nahI ane kudakedA karI, te pachI nIce paTakAyA vinA rahe kyAMthI? vyahAvArika kAryomAM samyagudarzana ane samyaga jJAnIonI AvazyakatA rahevAnI ja, A sivAya dareka kartavyamAM saphaLatA maLavI azakaya che. mATe te be pAMkhene prApta karIne dareka kAryo karo. unnati tamArI rAha joI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 39 rahelI che. buddhizALIe teja kahevAya ke te be pAne dhAraNa karIne urdhvagamana kare. A sivAya tekAne karIne AgaLa vadhavAnI AzAvALA svaparanuM hita sAdhI zakavA samartha banatA nathI. pite jAte saMkaTamAM phasAya che ane bIjAone viTaMbanAomAM phasAve che samyagadarzana ane jJAna vinA zubha AcaraNa banI zakatI nathI ane urvagamana thatuM nathI te haiyAmAM cokkasa lakhI rAkhavuM joIe. 124mAnasikavRttio, game tevI unnata hoya sArAmAM sArI hoya paNa krodhAdikane dUra karyA sivAya te vRttio saphala banatI nathI. prAya mAnasika vRttiomAM samyagUjJAna ane samyaga darzana hoya te ja zubha gatine upAI zakAya che. A sivAya azubha vRttio, adhogatimAM ghasaDI laI jAya temAM Azcarya zuM? samyaga jJAnAdika, zaktio unnata karI zakta banAvI yogya paristhitimAM sthApana kare che. nahItara karelA mane rathe kAgaLanA killAnI mAphaka havAmAM uDI jaI naSTa thAya che. ane je zakti ane sthiti joIe chIe. te prApta thatI nathI. pachI tene karavAthI zuM maLe? mAla te maLe nahI paNa mAre ja maLe. mATe manerathAne saphala karavA hoya te gurUgamane grahaNa kare. pachI kudakudA kare. anyathA je sthiti hAlamAM che. temAM bagADe pesaze ane je anukuLatA rahelI che te paNa raheze nahI. kruratA niyatAne nivAsa thatAM dukhada paristhitimAM paDavAne avasara Avaze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A kItisAgarasUri racita sarva zaktio tathA sarvajJAnanuM kendrasthAna tame pote ja che. tame pite ja pitAne satya svarUpe pIchANa temAM AtmAmAM sthiratAne dhAraNa karavA sAdhana sAmagrI meLave teja te zakti ane jJAnane AvirbhAva zakya bane A sivAya anaMta zakti jJAnane prApta karavAne upAya nathI. tame je zaktio tathA jJAnAdika prayAsa karIne prApta karelA che. te sAMta ane viyegavALuM hovAthI satya ane anaMta kahevAya nahI. sAMtane anaMta mAnaze te bhavabhramaNa TaLaze. nahI. te paribhramaNamAM anaMta kaDhe sahana karavAne vakhata AvI lAgaze. mATe sarvazaktione tathA kevalajJAnane meLavavuM hoya te AtmAne oLakhavA mATe sAdhana sAmagrI meLavIne anaMta zakti vigerene pragaTa kare. anaMta zaktinI ane anaMta jJAnanI lAgaNI haze te karmodaye AvI paDelI vipattio sahana karI levAze. zrIkRSNa mahArAjAnA laghu bAMdhava zrI gajasumAlanI mAphaka asahya pIDA paNa sahana thaze. asahA saMkaTa je jJAna pUrvaka sahI le che te anaMta zaktionA tathA anaMta jJAnanA svAmI thAya che. gajasukAle zrI neminAtha tIrthaMkara pAse mAta pitAne samajAvI dIkSA lIdhI. tyArabAda anaMta jJAnane prApta karavAnI tamannA hovAthI prabhunI pAsethI AjJA. laIne smazAnamAM kAryotsarga pUrvaka svAtmAmAM sthiratA barabara dhAraNa karI. temanA sasarAe mastake kAdavanI pALa bAMdhavApUrvaka dhagadhagatA kASTanA aMgArA bharyA paNa manamAM durbhAva lAvyA nahIM. ane A sasarAe te mekSanI-anaMta For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti zaktinI anata jJAnanI prApti mATe pAghaDI bAMdhI. AvA zuddha vicAre ane sahana karela AdhAre ISTa zaktinA svAmI thayA. tathA-munivarya-baMdhaka munirAje paNa anaMta karmone haThAvavA ane anaMta jJAna-ane anaMta zaktine meLavavAnI tamannA hevAthI zarIra uparanI cirAtI cAmaDInuM kaSTa AnaMda pUrvaka sahana karyuMlezamAtra durbhAva lAvyA nahI tethI ja kevaLajJAna pAmI anata zaktinA mAlIka banyA. tamene gajasumAla ane baMdhaka munivara jevI tamannA hoya te A bhavamAM anaMta zakti-ane jJAnanA sAdhane meLave. te sAdhanene meLavyA pachI bIjA bhavamAM tevA sAdhane meLavavAnI anukuLatA AvI maLaze ane te anukulatAnA adhikArI banaze. sAMsArika- viga vALA saMga mATe ane padArtho khAtara kaSTa sahana karavAmAM khAmI rAkhI nathI. paNa tethI sAcuM sukha meLavI zakAze nahi have tenA uparathI prItine dUra karI AtmAnI sAthe prema barobara lagAve prema pramANe je Icche che te AvI maLaze zaMkA rAkho nahi.. 125 bhautika padArthonA satya svarUpane rItasara jANanAra samyagajJAnI. te padArthonI lAlacamAM lapaTAtA nathI paNa teone potanA vyAvahArika kAryomAM sahakAra ApatA tarIke mAnatA hovAthI nilepatAne dhAraNa karI A satimAM AgaLa vadhatA rahe che. jeo bhautika padArthonA sAcA savarUpane pachAnatA nathI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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ra A. kIti sagarasUri racita te te temAM sAcA sAdhyanI kalpanAe karIne lapaTAI khAtmazaktinI barabAdI karatA jIvana gujAre che. nile patAe jIvana gujAravAmAM manuSya jIvananI saphalatA rahelI che. kAraNa ke mamatA-rAga dveSa adekhAInA AvirbhAva apa thatA jAya che. zeThane gumAstA kamAI Ape. paNa jevI kamANImAM zeThane mamatA hAya che, tevI mamatA gumAstAne hAtI nathI. te te je pagAra maLe temAM satASane dhAraNa kare che. tethI ochI kamANI thAya agara adhika thAya tenI cintAe. teone zeThanI mAphaka hAtI nathI. zeTha gumAstA dvArA adhika kamANI kare tyAre khuzI thAya che. ane jyAre ochI thAya tyAre cintA valApAta pUrvaka akaLAya che. tenuM kAraNa zeThane kamANImAM mamatA che. gumAstAne tevI mamatA nathI. tathA zeThANInuM ghara saMbaMdhI kAryo dAsI karI Ape che. paraMtu zeThANIne gharanA kAmamAM je mamatA rahelI che. tevI dAsIne na hAvAthI kAma bagaDe ke sudhare temAM rAga-dveSa thatA nathI. zeThANIne tA dhArela kAma bagaDatAM kALajI kapAI jAya che. cintAneA pAra rahetA nathI, dhAvamAtA mAlakanuM rakSaNu pAchu kare che. pazu sAravAra karatAM mAlaka mAMduM paDe te tenI mAtAne jevA lApAta thAya che. tevA dhAva mAtAne thatA nathI tenu kAraNa tamA jANeA che. mamatAne tyAga teja sArA bhAva bhajave che. te mujaba vatana rAkhavAmAM Ave te sArI sa MpattinA viyeAga thatAM paNa valeApAta thAya nahI ane dhamanI ArAdhanAmAM tatpara banAya. " eka zeThane azubhedaye saMpattinA viyAga thayo For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara khyAti chatAM sAcI sapatti nile patA-mamatA tyAge akaLAmaNahInatA dInatAne AvavAne avakAza ApyA nahI. manamAM samaje che. ke chevaTe teA teNIne mukavAnI ja hatI. agara viyAga thavAnA ja hatA. sArU` thayu` ke vahelAM tenA viyAga thA. mArI satya sapattinA viyAga tA thayA nathI. Ama samajI zaka paritApanA tyAga karavA pUrvaka jIvananA vyA vahArika kAryoMnA nirvAha mATe zakaya prayatna karavA lAgyA. ane nIti-pramANiktAne AgaLa rAkhI ceAgya vepAra karavA pUrNAMka dhAmika kAryo paNa kare che. koI svajana mitra AvIne DhIlAze! Ape che ke, tameA zeka, cintA karaze! nahI. amArI taraphathI madada levAnI abhilASA hoya te amA aNu karavA taiyAra chIe, zeThe kahyuM ke sAcI sapatti te mArI pAse rahelI che. tenA viyega thAya te aAAsa vilApa karavA jevu mane, paNu te te mArI pAse ne pAse che. eTale cintA karavA jevu' nathI. je sa`ttine aMte viyAga thavAnA hatA te agAuthI thayA. tethI mane Ana che A sAMbhaLI svajana vage puchyu ke, e sAcI saMpatti kayI ? mamatA rahitapaNu-ane nile papaNu -A mujaba sAMbhaLI svajana vargane navAI lAgI. prazaMsA karavA lAgyA ke AvI nima latA-nile patA amArAmAM kayAre Avaze ke khAdya saMpatti-parivArAdika khasI jatAM paNa AnaMdamAM rahIye. te . 13 svajane peAtAnA sthAne gayA. zeTha pramANikatAe dhama ne sAcavI vyApAra karavA lAgyA. zubhedaye prathama jevA zrImaMta anyA. chatAM prApta thaelI sapattimAM vizvAsa na rAkhatAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita dhArmika kAryomAM daDha zraddhA hevAthI-AtmatimAM AgaLa vadhavA lAgyA. ane samAdhi pUrvaka AyuSya pUrNa thatAM jIrNa zarIrane vastranI mAphaka tyAga karI mane suMdara zarIra dhAraNa karyuM. A saghaLo prabhAva bAhI saMpattine nathI. paNa Antarika saMpattine che mATe nirlepatA dhAraNa kare. 126 "Agama rUpI pANuM bhItaramAM asara kare te ja kaSAya rUpI kATa kapAya che. ane rAga-dveSa mehane ghaTADe thatuM jAya che. je AgamanuM zravaNa karIne krodhAdika dUra karavAmAM Ave nahI te Agama zravaNa yathArtha thaI zakatuM nathI. mATe evuM zravaNa kare ke bhItara bhIjAya ane kaSAyane. kATa khasate jAya, tamArI potAnI bhAvanA te haze ja ke amAruM kalyANa thAya. ane kyAre thaze. paraMtu evI bhAvanA upara uparathI bhAvavAnI kalyANa sadhAtu nathI. evI bhAvanA. bhAve ke saMkaTo AvI paDe tyAre paNa suMdara bhAvanA khase. nahI. ane durbhAvanAne sthAna maLe nahI. AvI bhAvanAthI saMkaTanA kaSTane sahana karI zakAya che. ane bhAvelI bhAvanAnI saphalatA thAya che. paraMtu cakamakanA patthara jevuM kare nahI. cakamakane patthara pANImAM sadAya bhIjAela rAkhIye ane ApaNe jANIe ke temAM rahela uSNutA khasI gayela haze. paNa pANImAMthI bahAra kADhI leDhA sAthe ghasatA temAMthI agninA kaNayA karavA mAMDe che. kAraNa ke pANae te pattha rane rAkhe paNa bahArathI ThaMDA dekhA aMdaranI garamI te kAyama ja rahelo che. mATe AgamavANI rUpI pANImAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jayoti evuM jhIlavuM ke bahArathI ane atarathI krodhanI uSNatA ghara jAya. ane Atmahita sadhAya. mATe sAMsArika padArthomAM rAga rAkhavAthI kadApi sthiratA prApta thatI nathI. ane je saMpatti-sattA-bala vigere che te paNa gumAvI besAya che. eka dekaDA mATe lejIye hajAra senA mahora gumAvI tenI mAphaka eka mANasanA gharamAM putrAdika parivAra ghaNe hate. Avaka rItasara hatI nahI. tethI muMjhAvAta lAgyA tenI patnIe kahyuM ke kaI sArA zaheramAM jAo te vyApAranA ge ghaNI kamANI thAya. ane je bhAraNa piSaNanI cintA muMjhavaNa punaH punaH satAvI rahI che te dUra jaze. A mujabanuM zravaNa karIne vyApArI kaI mahetA zaheramAM gamana karI vyApAra karavA lAge vyApAra karatAM eka hajAra senAmahane lAbha thayo. putrAdika parivAramAM ghaNe prema hovAthI. vyApArane baMdha karI senAmahorene tathA mArgamAM khAvA pIvA mATe khapamAM Ave te mATe eka rUpiyAnA se dokaDA lIdhA che. temAMthI khAvApIvAnuM patAvI lete have pitAnuM gAma pAMca gAu bAkI che. temaja gAma dUra nathI Ama jANe lIdhela bhAtu khAvA beThe. bhejana karI cAlavA mAMDayuM. aDadhe raste dekaDA gaNavA lAge temAM eka dokaDo che jANe je sonAmahoro che. te jamInamAM dATI te pAcho jyAM bhAtu khAvA beThA hatA tyAM AvIne bhUlI gayA dekaDAnI tapAsa karI paNa ja nahI. eka bAju je sthale senAmahe dATI che te sthalanI gIca jhADImAM cAre saMtAI rahelA hatA. temaNe laI lIdhI. dokaDe hAthamAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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16 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita nahI AvavAthI aphasa karatAM valopAta karate pAcho AvI dATelI sonAmahora levA gaye. paraMtu jyAre dekhI nahI tyAre ghaNe paritApa saMtApa karavA lAgyuM. paNa have game te valepAta kare te paNa vaLe zuM? gharamAM saghaLI kamANI gamAvIne AvyuM. te pramANe manuSya dunyavI padArthomAM ghaNe rAga hevAthI anaMta samRddhine gumAvI bese che. anaMta samuddhinA mukAbale dunyavI padArtho dekaDA jevA che. Ama samajI te padArthomAM Asakta na banatAM jInezvara kathita AgamavANI rUpI pANInuM pAna karI haiyAmAM rahelI malInatAne dUra kare. malInatA dUra gayA pachI sattAmAM rahelI satya samRddhi Ape A5 hAjara thaze. pachI kaI bAbatanI Adhi-vyAdhi upAdhi raheze nahI. mATe eka kaDA jevA dunyavI padArtho khAtara anaMta Rddhi-samRddhine gumAvI bese nahI. rAga-dveSa ane mehAdikane TALavAnI zakti tamArAmAM bharapUra che tene pAdurbhAva karI pharAyamAna karo. A mujaba vartana karaze nahI te dekaDe paNa hastagata thaze nahI. ane je addhi che te te kaSAya cere laI lIdhI che. mATe khAsa upayoga rAkhIne vartana karo. tamArI pAse je AvI malyuM che ane je AvI maLe che te tamArU nathI ja. tamArU je heya te khasI kema jAya? khasI jAya che tethI kahevuM paDe che ke je maLyuM che te tamAruM nathI. tamArUM te tamArI pAse sadAya nirantara kAyama raheluM che tene oLakhI najara karone svAdhIne kare paNa te svAdhIna kayAre thAya ke sArI For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara jayoti 31 duniyAmAM paribhramaNa karatI najarane pAchI vALI Atmika guNemAM sthira kare tyAre ja, atyAra sudhI jagatamAM najara rAkhIne tamee zuM prApta karyuM. kaho te kharA ? ane meLavelI vastuo sAthe laIne parabhavamAM keNa gayuM? sAthe to puNya-pApanA je sa skA paDayA che. teja Ave che dunyavI vastuo tamArI hAMsI karatI ahIM ja paDI rahe che mATe sAthe Ave evA zubha saMskAra haiyAmAM khuba ThAMsI, ThaMsIne bhare. AnaMda-jJAna ane Atmika zraddhA te sava vipattiomAMthI sarva prANIone bacAve che rakSaNa karIne sanmArge laI jAya che. ane jJAna-AnaMda dareka prANuMone pasaMda paDe che chatAM teonuM AlaMbana kema karatA nahI hoya? ane jayAM vipattio tathA viDaMbanAone pAra nathI tyAM dhasatA jAya che ? kahevuM paDe che ke, bhale AnaMda vigere pasaMda paDatA hoya, paraMtu nA pasaMda jevuM che. te prANIo sAdhana sAmagrI maLatAM je unmAge lIdhe che tene barAbara pIchAnI nIti nyAyanA sanmArge caDhe te sarvatra AnaMda bhAse ane pitAnI tathA pArakAnI paNa unnati sAdhI zake. sarva jIvananI kalA jo koI hoya te sadAya AnaMdamAM rahevuM draSa-adekhAI kadApi karavI nahIM. sarva kALamAM AnaMdamAM rahevuM te uttamottama kalA che vaLI dharma kalA je hoya te kadApi saMkaTa AvI zake nahI. kAraNa ke dharmanI kalA karmane mane rAgadveSa-mahAdine dUra haThAve. che ane Atmika guNomAM sthira kare che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIti sArasari racita 127 je potAnA aMge pAgane tathA pAMca indriya sahita mAnasika vRttiye kabajAmAM rAkhI zake che tenI AgaLa zatruonuM jora cAlI zakatuM nathI. ane pitAnA dravya bhAva prANenuM rakSaNa karavA samartha bane che eka sarovaramAM be kAcabA rahetA hatA. te lahera karavA bahAra nIkaLyA. teone sarovaranA kinAre bhamatA be ziyALAe dIThA. kAcabAne dekhI mAravA mATe deDayA. paNa aMge pAMga vigerene teoe gepavI dIdhA hovAthI teonuM kAMI cAlyuM nahI. jo ke te be zIyALe te be kAcabAne khama DhaDhAvyA. paNa lesa mAtra calAyamAna thayA nahI. eTale teo nirAza banI chUpI jagyAe saMtAI rahyA. tevAmAM eka kama te sarevaramAM ja rahyo. bIjAne bahAranI majA mANavI hatI te tyAMnA tyAM sthale rahyo DIvAra pachI mukha vigere pitAnI hAlamAMthI bahAra kADhI majhA mANavA lAgyA paraMtu zatruo chUpAI rahyA che. te lahera laheramAM khabara paDI nahI. ziyALe jANyuM ke, bhAI sAheba bahAranI majAmAM magna banyuM che. have lAga sAre Avela che. Ama jANu chUpI rIte pagalA bharIne pAchaLathI AvI barAbara mukha dabAvyuM sukha dabAI gaela hovAthI kAMI paNa upAya bacavAne rahyo nahI. aMte te zatruoe A bahAra lahera mAratAM kAcabAnI eDAla dazA karI. prathamanA kAcabAnI mAphaka sarovaramAM sarakI gaye heta te AvI behAla dazA kayAMthI Avata, eTale laheramAM kAramo kera majhA mANavAmAM kajA AvIne upasthita thAya che. dunyavI laheramAM ane mojamajAmAM are bhAgyazA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AAMtara jAti lIo vicAre. ghaNuM cetavAnuM che. zatruo gupta rahelA kayAre AvIne behAla dazA karaze. je upayoga rAkhaze nahI te kayAre antaranA ke bahAranA zatruo herAna parezAna karaze tene khyAla raheze nahIM. mATe sadAya zatruonuM jora cAle nahI te mujaba sadAcAra karavAnI rAkhavAnI jarUra che. mAthe karaja karIne vida-vilAsa-mojazokha karanArA mAnave ghara bALIne ajavALuM karanAranI barAbarI karanAra che te mujaba anAcAra AcarI karmonuM adhika karaja karanAra ane vaSavika zAtA gArava-rasagAravAmAM magna bananArAo sva saMpatti-svasattAne gumAvI pitAnuM ghara bALI udyota karanAra samajavA, dhana, rUpa-ramA-rAmA-ArAmane mATe pitAnuM jIvana samApta karavuM ane anaMta sukhanA je sAdhana che tenAthI vaMcita rahevuM ane susAdhya tarapha lakSya devuM nahI. te paNa eka jAtanI mUrkhatA che paraMtu vipatti velAe tathA sukhazAtA samaye valepAta karavo nahIM. ane meha ghelA banavuM nahI. temAM ja buddhimattA tathA dIrgha darzitA rahelI che. vartamAna kAlamAM paNa vicAraNanA ge viveka karIne bhaviSyamAM Atmika ucca dazA karavI te samaju sunuM agatyanuM ane prathamanuM kArya che Ane bhUlavAmAM ja pitAnI avadazAne AmaMtraNa ApavA samAna che. vartamAna kAlamAM dIrghadazajane vicAraNA ane viveka karavA pUrvaka kadAcit mAthe devuM karIne tathA ghaNe bhAre karmone bhAra upADI vineda-vilAsa mejamajAmAM ja atyaMta asahya vedanA mAnI rahelA hoya che tethI kadAcita vipatti AvI paDe te paNa nyAyanIti ane dharmane bhUlatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. katisAgararisara nathI. paraMtu adhika daDha bane che te te samaje che ke vipatti vinA saMpattinI kiMmata parakhAtI nathI. te vinA karma vijayanI cAvI hasta gata thatI nathI. mATe vartamAnakAlamAM ja samaya prathamathI cetI jAya che ane saMpatti vidyamAna hete paNa vinoda-vilAsamAM ke mojamajAmAM magna banatA nathI. ane vaparanuM kalyANa karIne svajIvananI sArthakatA ane saphaLatA karI rahela hoya cheA sivAyanA mAna ke dAna ke de, karmane bhAra laI adhogati meLave temAM navAI zI? are mAthe karaja karIne sAMsArika lahAvA lenArAo tathA mejamajAmAM magna bananArAo ane anAcArane AcarI AnaMdane mAnanArAo, tamAe bhaviSyane vicAra karyo che. ke kevI adazA AvI lAgaze. tame najare dekhe che ke tevAonI kevI dazA thaI che. ane te vakhate kaI madada karanAra maLI zakela nathI. chatAM vartamAna kAlanA vine vilAne manahara mAnI temAM magna bane che mATe karaja karIne paNa vineda-vilAsane viSA tarIke mAnI dura kare. ghaNAya chatrapati-rAjA-mahArAjA vilAse-vinAda vigeremAM naSTa bhraSTa banyA che. ane tadana halakI dazAne pAmela che. mATe karajane tathA karmone beje vadhatAM tamane khabara paNa che ja ke buddhi-bala-sattA-saMpatti rIsAI jAya che, te vakhate bahAdura hAya bakarI jevA bane che. paraMtu jyAre sat purUSArtha karatA te banne haThAve che tyAre ja bahAdurI AvI punaHpunaH upasthitine pAme che. eka rAjAe samRddhinI velAye vineda-vilAsa vige For Private And Personal Use Only

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pratira ati **t ramAM magna banI sAme zatrue naSTa draSTa karavA AvI rahelA che. tenA upayoga rAkhyA nahI. mahAmatrI tathA adhikArIe vAre vAre cetAve che. chatAM mAnatA nathI. ane manamAM mAne che ke zatruo sAme yuddha karavAmAM AvI meAjamA kayAMthI Avaze? tyAM te kaSTa rahelu che paraMtu te mukhyane mAluma nathI ke kaSTane sahana karavuM te sa'pattine AvavAnu dvAra che A mujama nahI mAnatA trilAsamAM pAchA haThayA nahI. zatruoe te rAjAne vilAsamAM magna thaela jANIAna pUrvaka tenA upara AkramaNa karyuM ane rAjya svAdhIna karI nRpane sevaka manAvyA. ane kedakhAnAmAM nAMkhI ghaNuM kaSTa dIdhuM. te vakhate buddhi-mala-sattA gumAvI pAgala jevAM anyA. have te zajA kayAre punaHpunaH svasa patine pAmI zake. te tamA kalA mATe karmonA mene tathA vilAsAne haThAvavA mATe hamezAM prayatnazIla anA. 128 peAtAnI nAnI bhUlo tathA aparAdhAne mahAna mAnavAmAM Ave tyAre tevI bhUlA tathA aparAdha thatA adha thAya che. pazu temAM zuM ? Ama mAnI upekSA karavAmAM Ave te te nAnI bhUlA vigere mhoTI thatAM sudhArI zakAtI nathI. upekSA karAya che. tethI ja mAnavAne lAbhane badale geralAbha thAya che. sukhazAtAnA badale vividha Adhi-vyAdhinI viDha ma AvI gherI le che. eTale tevA bhAIe jeNe nAnI bhUlAne mhoTI mAnIne sudhArI nathI. te nahI sudhArelI bhUlA tyA aparAdhA, dhArmika kriyAe je savara ane nijasanA nA 21 For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarathari racita kAraNe che temAM punamuna upasthita thaI sajajaDa karmabaMdhana kAraNe bane che. eTale saMvara-nirjarone lAbha maLate heya te maLatuM nathI. tathA nhAnI bhUlane mahatI mAnI jaldI sudhArI lenAra bhAgyazAlI baMdhanA kAraNene paNa rItasara upaga rAkhate havAthI saMvara tathA nirjarA karate hoya che. eTale hanI bhUla tathA aparAdhonI kadApi upekSA karavI nahI. guptasthale utpanna thaelI nhAnI phellInI je upekSA karavAmAM Ave che tevA kAraNe maLatAM mahedI ane che, pachI pIDAne pAra rahetuM nathI tene cepa lAgatAM anya gumaDAo janme che. mATe prathamathI je cetI upalA kara nathI te duHkhI thatuM nathI. 129 karaja-kANuM-kaMkAsa-kalezanI upekSA karavAthI nimitto maLatAM vadhatAM jAya che. mATe temane prathamathI ja DAmavA jaIe. dararoja tame pitAnI bhale tathA aparAdhane jANI kabula karyA che ke anyanA guNa tathA bhUle dekhI tenA upara kApa karyo che tenI tapAsa karI che? tapAsa karI na hoya te dararoja nirIkSaNa karavA ALasa karaze nahI tethI ghaNe lAbha thaze vAyado karaze te phAyado maLI zakaze nahIM. tame pitAnA duguNene joine dUra karyA haze te ucca bhUmikAe jarUra ArUDha thaze ane bIjAonA de tathA bhUlane jotAM kadApi AgaLa vadhI zakaze nahI. tamA. zathI bIjAe tarapha doSe thayA hoya te mAphI mAgI re, ke pachI bIjAne kSamAve nahI te paNa tamane khamA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara pati thavAmAM lAbha che. kSamApanA karavAmAM bIjAone keLA sadvicAra Avaze. ane je kaDavAza-vera virodhAdika thaye haze te khasI jaze. ahaMkAra-abhimAna raheze nahI. ane AgaLa vadhavAne mArga sugama thaze. 13) vera virodhAdikane badale levAthI vera virodha, kaMkAsa vigere dUra khasatA nathI. paNa vadhatA rahe che. mATe teone bhUlamAMthI zAMta karavA maitrI bhAvanA pUrvaka premathI bheTe. 1 lAkha rUpiyAne vyaya karaze te paNa vera vireSAdhika zamaze nahi. ane teone zAMta karavA hoya te kSamApanA karI premathI bheTa. eka paisAne kharaca karavo paDaze nahIM. je tAjapa-dAnAdika dharmanI ArAdhanA karI pratikulavargane amAvatA nathI. ane haiyAmAM DaMkha rAkhyA kare che teonI ArAdhanA yathArtha phalavatI banatI nathI. satya sukhanuM sAdhana, dareka prANIone sAcA dilathI dararoja khamAvavAmAM che. A sivAya haiyAnI hAyavarALa khasatI nathI. uccatara avasthA para ArUDha thaela mahA bhAgyazALIoe Atma dharmanI ArAdhanA karatA pahelAM sarvajIne khamAvI ArAdhanA karelI che. tethI ananya mahattAne meLavI anaMta zaktinA svAmI banyA che. lezamAtra pratikulatA thaelI hoya che. te paNa AmenatimAM vina upasthita karI AgaLa vadhavA detI nathI. vasa zarIrAdika upara sahaja malInatA AvI hoya che te sApha karavA tatpara bane che tenI mAphaka hathane zuddha banAvavA udyama karo, For Private And Personal Use Only

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ka24 karanAra amI te 2 thAya che. gaI ane. A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita 131 mahAnamAM mahAna daMbha-mithyAtva pApane pApa tarIke na mAnatAM puNya tarIke mAnI tenA prakarA racIne pracAra karavAmAM Ave te adha:pAta che. A daMbha-mithyAtva samAjane tathA zerI vigerene mahAna zatru che. asaMyamamAM-kruratAmAM ane svaparane chetara vAmAM tathA agatinA khADAmAM lAlace ApI patita karanAra, bhayaMkaramAM bhayaMkara-jo koI hoya te daMbha che asaMyamI te potAnA asaMyamane gupta rAkhavA ghaNuM. cAlAkI kare te paNa jAhera thAya che. gupta rAkhI zakatA nathI. tyAre daMbhI ane mithyAtvI te saphAI ane cAlAkIthI evI rIte gupta rAkhe che ke sAmAnya janatAne paNa khabara paDe nahIM. tethI te pote bhava bhramaNA ubhI karI anaMta duHkhane bhAgI bane che mATe satya sukhanA bhAjana banavuM hoya te prathama mithyAtva ane daMbhane dezavaTe Ape anna pANI ane prANanI jeTalI jarUra che tenA karatAM samyaktvanI kaIka guNa AvazyaktA che ke jene AdhAre jagatanA svarUpanuM ane Atmika tatvanuM jJAna thAya che. ane mithyAtvamAM phasAI paDavAnuM thatuM nathI, tamArI anaMta ddhi-siddhi ane zuddhine dabAvI kabaje karanAra, mithyAtva vinA anya keI harAmakhera nathI. vyavahArika kAryomAM harAmakhorane barobara oLakhI, tene haThAvavA mATe tatpara bane che. sIdhI rIte na khasI jAya te anekane. sahAre laI mArI jhuDIne dUra kare che. te pachI A harAma For Private And Personal Use Only

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onara ti bAra je unmAge laI. sarvasva paDAvI lenArane dUra karavA zuM tatpara na banavuM joIe? saddagurUne sahAre laI baLa pUrvaka jyAre haThAvaze. nahI haThAve te atyAra sudhI je sarvasva gumAvyuM che te pAchu hastagata thaze nahIM. mATe zurUgamane grahaNa karI te harAmakhorane haThAvI tamAruM sarva sva je che te kabaje kare ane punaH te harAmara chInavI le nahI tenI kALajI rAkhavA pUrvaka rakSaNa kare. 132 tamArI pAse saMpatti sAhyabI vaibhava agara dunyavI sattA, anya karatAM adhika haze ane jagatamAM prazaMsApAtra banyA haze. te paNa temAM sva jIvanI salatA ane sArthakatA samajatA nahI svajIvanI phateha te prAmANikatA pUrvaka saMteSa vRttimAM temaja Atmika guNene prAdurbhAva karavAmAM rahela che. anyatra Rddhi-siddhi maLI haze te paNa prAmANikatA sahita saMteSavRtti ke AtmatRpti AvavI azakya che. mATe bhale ghaNuM sAhyabI vaibhava maLela hoya te paNa prAmANiktAne tathA saMtoSavRttine bhUlo nahI ane je sattA saMpatti malI che tene saMsAra sAgarane taravAnuM sAdhana mAne paNa bUDavAnuM sAdhana banAve nahI. temAM ja tamArI kuzaLatA ane dhArmiktA kahevAze ane Atmiha guNene AzirbhAva thata raheze. keTalAya mugdha evA hoya che ke ISTasaMpatti sattA maLyA pachI pramANikatA-satiSa-saMyama ane Amika ne bhUlI maLelI sAhyabImAM satata sukhI kalpanA karI For Private And Personal Use Only

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326 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita temAMja zacI mAcI rahe che tethI vividha vighna upasthita thatAM vyAkula banI duHkhI duHkhI ane che kAraNa ke te sa'patti vigere prApta thaela che te krama*janya che, je kamajanya hAya tene khasatAM vilaMba thatA nathI. sAthI sa`patti, ane sAhyabI tathA satya' sukha, kadApi gerahAjara che nahI. phakta tamAe enI hAjarI tarapha najara nAMkhIne ALakhI nathI. tethIja bhautika sAhyabI vigeremAM mugdha banela che. jo najara nAMkhavA pUrvaka Atma sAhyabIne oLakhaze| tA hAjara hAjara thaela dekho. dunyavI sAAkhI khAtara doDadhAma karavI paDaze nahIM. ane cintAe, valApAta, vighneA tathA vedanA ane viSayanA vikArA khasavA mAMDaze mATe dararAja Atma nirIkSaNa karatA rahevu te parama kartavyu che. ghAtI karmo rUpI pUrve kabaje karela parvata upara sukhe ADha thavAya che. kabaje karIne jagatamAM mAnada pUrNAMka nivinatAe viharI zakAya che. jo ghAtI karmone kamaje karyo sivAya jagatamAM pabhrimaNa karaze teA mahAna pavatAnI mAphaka te ADA ubhA rahevAnAja. tethI punaHpunaH pAchaLa paDavAnu thaze. AgaLa vadhavuM azakaya banaze. mATe te ghAtI karmI rUpI pava tAne kakhaje karI tathA ArUDha thavAnA se|pAne taiyAra karavA atizaya prayAsa karI. jagata upara sattA meLa vavAnA prayatna karavA karatAM, pAtAnA AtmAnI sattAne sAma karavA prayAsa karavA te ghaNuAja jarUrI ane sarasa che. temAM prathama kaSTa. mAluma paDaze, pariNAme atyaMta lAbha dekhAze. jagatanI sattA paNa kaSTa vinA maLI zake ema nathI For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhatira jyoti ka86 tyAM te bhArobhAra Adhi vyAdhi-upAdhi rahela che. chatAM pariNAme ArtadhyAna ane raudradhyAna thavAnuM mATe sarva dunyavI sattAne prApta karavAnI mugdhatAne tyAga karI Atma sattAne meLavavA mATe sAdhane meLavI, samagra vizva upara sattA calAve pachI Adhi vyAdhi vigere raheze nahI. have Atma sattAne prApta karavA, tamAre je puna:punaH bhale tathA. aparAdhe thAya che tene sudhAravA mATe ane bIjIvAra tevI bhUla vigere thAya nahIM te mATe khAsa upaga rAkhavA jarUrI che. lAgaNI haze te upaga rakhAze. kaTakothI bharapUra mArgagamana karatAM jyAre kAMTA vAge che tyAre te mAgane tyAga karI sugama mAge jAe chene? bhUlatA nathI. kAraNa ke te kaMTaka mAge gamana karatAM vedanAne pAra rahetuM nathI. A pramANe bhUlo tathA aparAdhe paNa kaMTakanA jevA mAnavA. ane te mArgane duHkhadAyaka mAnyA pachI bhUlone sudhArI sanmArge vaLavuM te zreyaskara che. je bhUlene sudhAraze nahI. ane te mArgo punaHpuna: gamana karaze te mUkhanI gaNatrImAM naMbara lakhAze - 133tamAre cintAo ochI karavI hoya te sAmA mANasee kahetAM pratipakSoe vatamAna kAlamAM ane bhatakAlamAM kahelA vacana bhale pachI ISTa hoya ke aniSTa heya. tenA upara AdhAra rAkhatA nahI. kAraNa ke te je vacane bele che te mujaba vartanamAM makaze agara bIjA pAse karAvaze ema nirNaya karaze nahI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgasUri racita nimitte maLatAM vicAranuM parivartana thatAM vilaMba lAgatuM nathI. tathA ghaNI cintAo dUra karavI hoya te keInI nidA kuthalI karavI nahIM. kAraNa ke niMdA karavAthI Artana dhyAna pUrvaka pitAnA zubha vicAromAM malInatA AvI upasthita thAya che ane sAmA mANase vireAdhI banI kaDavAza vadhArI mUke che. vastutaH cintAo mUlamAMthI nAbuda karavI hAya te dharmadhyAnamAM tathA pApakAramAM jIvanane vyatIta kraravuM te hitakara che. moTara agara eroplene, paTela hoya tyAM sudhI cAle che je na hoya te baMdha paDI jAya che. te pramANe pApakAra vRtti hoya ane dharma dhyAnanA zubha vicAro hoya tyAM sudhIja nizcitapaNAe svajIvana pasAra thAya che. ane sukhazAMtino anubhava AvyA kare che. je te zubha vicAre haze nahI te AnaMdadAyaka jIvana baMdha paDaze. mATe nindA kuthalI vigerene tyAga karI zubha vicAra sadAya karatA rahevuM. jethI kaI prakArane virodha thAya nahI. ghaNuM rasapUrvaka karelI niMdA kuthalI vigerethI baMdhAela kaTuka karmonA vipAko A bhavamAM bhogavavA paDe che. temaja ghaNA parabhavamAM teonuM phala bhegavavuM paDe che. kaMTake te sArA ke teone dekhatAM sAdhanadvArA dura karI zakAya. paNa bAMdhelA kaTuka karmo evAM barAM che ke najare dekhatAM paNa dura karI zakAtA nathI. temaja keI najare dekhADatA paNa nathI. mATe AnaMdapUrvaka jIvana pasAra karavuM hoya te barAbara sAvadhAna bano. 14 nidabhatA pUrvaka vartana karatAM sAMsArika kAryo tathA For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara vi dhArmika kAryomAM IcchA mujaba lAbha maLato rahe che. je ke prathama sahana karavuM paDe che. paraMtu jyAre Arthika ke Atmika lAbha maLe che. tyAre AnaMda thAya che, ane karelI sahanatA kaSTa rUpe bhAsatI nathI. duHkhane sahana karyA sivAya ane daMbhane dUra karyA vinA dunyavI lAbha maLatuM nathI te pachI Atmika lAbha kayAMthI maLaze? daMbhIjanee daMbha kapaTa kasa Arthika lAbha meLavyuM hoya te tarapha joze nahIM. paraMtu Atmika vikAsa keTale meLavyuM temanuM jIvana cintAmaya che ke cintA rahita che. tenI tapAsa talaspazI karaze te temanuM jIvana nIcatAthI bharelu mAluma paDaze. AvA lAbhathI te parizume ghaNuM gumAvavAnuM thAya che. jyAM jIvana halakI koTInuM vyatIta thatuM hoya tyAM zubha vyavahAra ane zubha viveka paNa kayAMthI hoya? Arthika lAbha mATe daMbha-kapaTa karanArAo dhArmika kAryomAM paNa daMbha kapaTa karyA vinA rahetA nathI. pahelA kapaTa kalAnA saMskAro dhArmika kAryomAM asara kare che. tethI ja jJAnIo kahe che, ke, jIvanane AnaMdamaya vyatIta karavuM hoya ane Arthika ke Atmika lAbha le heya te saMkaTane sahana karIne paNa nibhI bane. daMbhanI, gAMTha hoya che tyAM sudhI sArA varA AbhuSaNe pahere. agara samAjamAM sArA sArA kahevarAve agara anurAgI tamArI mahattAnI prasiri kare te paNa cena paDaze nahI. temaja daMbha rUpI zailya ke gAMTha haze tyAM sudhI sAcI zAMti maLavI azakaya che. vratadhArIe daMbharahita banavA prayatana kara ke jethI lIdhelA banne For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasUri racita yathArtha phalane ApavA samartha bane daMbhanA tyAgamAM anya guNene AvavAnI jagyA maLe che. 13pa baganI mAphaka ekAgratA je bhagata duSTane eTale duSTa dene dUra karavA nAza karavA rAkhe te Atma sateja thAya. sarovaramAM beThelA bagalAo pitAnuM peTa bharavA kevI ekAgratA rAkhe che te tame joI haze mana-vacana kAyAne sthira karI mAMchalAone jaI rahelA hoya che. te mujaba tame je mana-vacana ane kAyAne sthira karavA pUrvaka dene dekhaze te AtmatRpti thaze. eTale te dene dura karavAnI tamannA jAgaze. - dunyavI pravRttimAM deze ghaTaze nahIM, paraMtu vadhavAnA. mATe AtmasaMteSa prApta karI hoya te sthiratA dhAraNa karo. temaja thaI gayelA dene dura karavAnI tamArAmAM tAkAta bharapura che paNa te tAkAtane bahAranI pravRttimAM veDaphI nAMkhatA hovAthI rahelI tAkAtane adyApi pIchAnI nathI. ane Atmika saMteSa thayo nathI. dunyavI pravRtti karatAM tamane saMtoSa te thaela haze. paNa te rahyo kayAM sudhI ? kSaNika saMtoSamAM ne dura karavAnI zakti che ja nahIM. ane tamAre joIe che nirantara nitya sateSa ! te. pachI te de tarapha ekAgratApUrvaka daSTi karyA sivAya te dura kayAMthI jaze. tathA peTa-parivAra-paTAro bharavA jevI lAgANa tatparatA rAkhe che tevI ja Atmika guNene A vibhava karavA tatparatA thazo te kaI bAbatanI khAmI For Private And Personal Use Only

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pAMtara cAti raheze nahiM. eya khAkhatamAM lAbha maLatA raheze. asAya cintAlApAtAdi thAya che tenu kAraNa tamAe jANyu nathI. ekAgratApUrvaka sAMsArika pravRttinI upekSA karI mana tana ane vacananI malInatAne dura karavA lAgazI rAkhI nathI ane puTTugalAnI banI sage maLelI vastuomAM mugdha banyA che tethIja asASa vigere vArevAre satAvyA kare che. mATe tene prathama TALavAnA upAya karA samagra sAMsArika prANIo bhale pachI mAnava-dAnava hAya tathA pazu pa`khI, narakAdikanA jIvA cAya te saghaLA saMtoSa vigerene IcchI rahelA che. keTalAka mAnasika saMtuSTane icchI rahela DAya che. paNa mithyAtva. avirati-kaSAya vigerene dura karyA sivAya te athAga kArya pravRttimAM rAcI mAcI rahelA DAvAthI tene mAnasika sa MteSanA anubhava AvavA azakaya bane che keTalAka vacana, upadeza dvArA satASAdi IcchI rahela DAya che. ane upadeza zravaNu karavA upAzra cAdi sthale jAya che. paNa sAMbhaLIne aMze paNa vanamAM mUke teA deSA dura jAya. ane satASa AvI maLe. A mukha DhASAne haThAvavA mATe pravRtti rAkhe teA lIdhelA parizrama vRthA jAya nahi. pravRtti te sAdhana che. sAdhya nathI. sAdhya te mithyAtva avirati kaSAyAkrikane haThAvavAnu hAvu joie sAMsArika sAdhanAmAM je tamAne sASa bhAse che te mastakane phADI zirA khAvA jevu che.. eka gharamAM zeTha-zeThANIne pAMca dIkarA ane pAMca vadhu hatI. vastAra hAvAthI eka zeThANI karakasara karIne De Shen For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. katisaNasarili vyavahAra calAvatA. nAnA dIkarAnI vahune zIrA khAvAnI abhilASA thaI, ane sAsune kahyuM ke mane zIra banAvI Ape. sAsue kahyuM ke, tArA mATe phakta banAvAya nahIM. zIra banAvIe te saghaLA vistAra mATe banAva paDe. ane te banAvatAM je kharca thAya tenI pahoMca amArAmAM nathI. kijAvaka adhika che Avaka a5 che mATe he vahu! saMte rAkhI darareja je sAduM bhejata che tene jame. nAnI vahue haTha lIdhI. sAsu banAvI ApatI nathI. chevaTe vahue eka sukti karI. patharA sAthe mAthu pADI ghaNI vedanA thavAthI buma pADavA lAgI. te gharamAM e rIvAja hatuM ke, keIne tAva Ave agara mAthAnI pIDA thAya tyAre zIre banAve, sAsue vahunI mastake thatI pIDAne jANI teNI mATe zIre banAvI Ape. khAdhe tyAre A vahune saMtoSa thaye. paNa thaelI vedanA ghaNA divase sahana karavI paDI, dararoja te zIre kayAMthI maLe, paNa vedanA darAja bhegavavI paDI. A pramANe vaiSayika sukha rU5 zIrAnI pIDAe asahA vedanAe bhegavI, sahana karIne paNa sudhajane tenI abhilASAne karI rahela che. bhale asahya pIDAo bhegavavI paDe paNa saMsArika sukha te maLe che ne? AvA mugdhajanene kayAM khabara che Avo pIDAone jogavI sukha legavavAmAM anaMtakAla jaze ane gamela che. chatAM sukhane badale saMkra nasIbamAM coMTavAnAja. sujJajane AvA vaiyika sukhamAM mAM banatA nathI. AvA sukhane te dura karavA aheniza prayAsa karatA hoya che tyAM sudhdhAne sarArA 2 be vihabanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara joti mizrita sukha mATe prayatna karatA hovAthI tene nirbhaya satya sUteSa maLe kayAMthI? amRtanA ghaDAmAM viSaya viSane dekhatA nathI ane ThaMDI karI teo amRtanI AzAe. viSanuM pAna karI rahelA hoya che. 136 nirbheLa sadhanI icchA hoya to saMyama samatA-upazama-vivekane dhAraNa kare. viSa haze te dura khasI jaze. ane Atmika zuddhine. AvavAne avakAza maLaze anyatra kAM paribhramaNa karI che! zakya saMyamane Adara karI saMvaramAM manavRttine joDe saMtoSa gerahAjara nathI. kSazunivAsI sAMsArika sukhamAM mugdha banelAne zAzvata sateSa mane nahI ja. ane thaelI kharajAne dura karavA kauvacane lagADavAthI khaja vadhavAnI ke ghaTavAbI ? tene vicAra karavAnI kSaNe kSaNe jarUra che jyAre kharaja vadhaze. tyAre vedanA ja thavAnI viSaya sukhamAM laMpaTa banelane te maLela sukha, saMsAra sAgaramAM kharAbe caDhAvI cAra gatimAM paribhramaNa karAve che ane sukhane badale vividha saMkaTamAM phasAvI de che kAraNa ke sevA kAlpanika sukha, teone satya sukha tarIke bhAsatA hovAthI sajanene upadeza-mAtapitA vigerenI zikhAmaNa gurUdevanI preraNAne Thakakare mAre che teo sahuthI kahe che ke viSaya sukhamAM lapaTa banavuM te sutelA pApane jagADavA jevuM che ane agnimAM dhRta-hemavA jevuM che mATe laMpaTa anavuM te mahAna duHkhanuM kAraNa che A mujaba zravaNa karI mukhe te barAbara tame kaheze paNa mArAthI te mujaba banaze - For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kautisAgarasUri racita nahI. tamo punaHpunaH upadeza ApyA kare ne ? A pramANe upadezanI upekSA karanArane rakhaDavAnuM thAya ja ! tamane khabara che ke, lIMTamAM phasAI paDela mAkSikAone temAMthI mukta banavuM azakaya bane che kSaNabhara mIThAza AvI paNa maraNanI yAtamA mAthe ceTI. tenI mAphaka tame viSayathI vividha vedanAmAM phasAI paDayA. te paNa upadeza mAne nahI te karma baMdhana sAthe yAtanA bhogavavAno avasara Avaze. mATe tamArAmAM buddhi hAya nahI te vaDIlene gurUne upadeza mAnI laMpaTa bane nahI. tamArA sukhanI kALajI vaDIla tathA gurU tenA upadezanI upekSA karIne tame je je vicAra karo cho mane vANI dvArA vatanamAM mUkavA dhAre che te baMdhana to bane che ane banaze tathA sudhajanenuM anukaraNa keTaluM bhayaMkare che. tenI paNa tamane samajaNa nathI. anukaraNa karavuM hoya to sarala-namra-caMtAthI ane saMyamInuM karo ke jethI samAge ArUDha thavAya ane cintAnA dAhathI mukta banI Atmonnati sAdhIne sAcA sukhanA svAmI banAya. mUDha anukaraNa karavAthI te duHkha dariyAthI pAra utarAze nahI ja, 137 yovanAvasthAmAM parepAranA kAryo-tathA Atmika vikAsanA sAdhanone meLavavAnI tamannA lAgaNI hoya te jagatanA mANasonI prazaMsA sAMbhaLa vAnI abhilASA rAkhatA nahI. kAraNa ke vizvanA saghaLA mAnavIone tame je kArya karI rahelA che te keTalAkane rUcikara thaze ane keTalAkane pasaMda paDaze nahI tyAre tamArI hAMsI karaze agara mUkhe For Private And Personal Use Only

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sattara jAti gAze jagatanA sarve mAnavene svabhAva-mane vRtti bhinna bhinna hoya che te badhA tamArI prazaMsA karaze te banavA joga nathI. prazaMsA sAMbhaLavAthI peTa ane pUNya bharAtuM nathI. mATe prazaMsAnI IcchAne tyAga karI niSkAma paropakAranA kAryo kare ane AmennatinA sAdhane meLa. prazaMsA sAMbhaLavAnI abhilASA karavAthI dunyavI Asakti satI nathI. tethI je ke tamArI prazaMsA nahI kare te dInatA ane hInatA tamane bhAsamAna thavAnI ane temAMthI je tame ucca sthitimAM ArUDha thaela che temAMthI khasavAno avasara Avaze. keTalAka mAnavIe sAdhana saMpanna heI sAhAbI rItasara jogavatAM hoya che chatAM jyAre yAcanA kare tyAre ja temane AnaMda paDe che yAcanA karyA sivAya gamagIna banI Akala vyAkala thAya che. eka rAjAe rUpavatI ane belavAmAM cAlAka evI vAgharaNane paTTarANuM banAvI tene AnaMdamAM rahevA mATe mAgyA vinA paNa rAjA rANIne lAyaka sarva sAmagrI hAjara kare che chatAM gamagIna ane vyAkula banI divase gujAre che vAgharInA ghera janmelI chokarI yovana vayamAM vagaDAmAM jaI bAvaLaAvaLanA dAtaNe kApI lAvIne ghera ghera jeTalAnA TukaDA khAtara-dAtaNa ApIne te TukaDA lAvatI. ane mAtapitAne batAvI piTa bharatI eka vakhata nagarane rAjA sahelagAhe nIkaLI jaMgalamAM Avyo che bara thaela hovAthI tuSA ane sudhAthI bAdhita thaela AthI te jaMgalamAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kAtisAgara sArI dAtaNa karatI A vAgharaNanI kanyA chI. smA ane pANI mAgyuM. teNae svaccha ghaDAmAM svaccha pANI lAvIne ApyuM. nRpe jalapAna karI sateSa anubhavyuM paNa A kanyAnuM rUpa dekhI temaja bolavAnI cAlAkI jANI teNIne paraNuvAnI IcchA thaI. tenA mAtApitAe rAjanI sAthe tene paraNAvI. rAjAnI paTTarANI banAvI. ane IcchAthI adhika tene paisA arpaNa kare che. paraMtu zukAtI dekhI. rAjA zukAvAnuM kAraNa vAraMvAra puche che chatAM zaramane laIne belI zakatI nathI. rAjAe vaidyane belAvI cikitsA karAvI. vaidyane daradanI mAluma paDI nahi. rAjAne vaidhe kahyuM ke zArIrika sahito mAluma paDatI nathI paraMtu mAnasika vyAdhi hAvI Iie te rANI saMbaMdhI saghaLI bInA rAjAe vaidyane kahI saMbhaLAvI. vaiva kuzaLa hovAthI kahyuM ke, prathamAvasthAnA saMskAra kemeya karIne khasatA nathI, game tevI manahara sAmagrI maLe te paNa prathamanA paDelA saMskAra AgaLa AvIne upasthita thAya che. mahArAjA! A vagharaNa kanyAne rUpavatI dekhI tamee paTTarANuM banAvI. arne IcchA mujaba vastrAbhUSaNa-khAna pAna-ezaArAma apazu kare che chatAM dAtaNa vecIne roTalA levAnI Teva gaI nathI. ArAma tene gamatuM nathI. bhaTakIne peTa bharavAnA saMskAre gayA nathI tethI udAsI rahe che. tame game tevI sAdhana sAmagrI hAjara karaze te paNa AnaMda paDaze nahI. yAcanA karavAnI Teva ghaNI kharAba che. mATe ema karo ke eka hAlamAM roTalAnA TUkaDA mukI tene rAkhe. rAjAe te mumba goThavaNa kara. For Private And Personal Use Only

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yAtara ti, A rANI have koI heya nahI tyAre oraDAmAM paribhramaNa karavA pUrvaka bhIMtanI AgaLa roTalAnI mAgaNI karI AnadamAM rahevA lAgI. rAjAne ghaNe aphasa thaye. A pramANe rAjA-mahArAjA-zeTha zAhukAra sAdhanasaMpanna hoya chatAM yAcanA karyA vinA AnaMdamAM rahI zakatA nathI. tyAre dharma rAjAne aphasa thAya che. ke A lokonI yAcanA kayAre khasaze...mAre zaraNe Avela che. managamatI vastuo maLI che. chatAM tene lAbha nahI letAM yAcanA karI rahelA che, je maLela che. tene sadupayega karatA nathI ane cAre bAju paribhramaNa karI pAchA khuzI thAya che. A kevI bramaNa mATe je dharmarAjAne zaraNe gayA che temanuM zaraNa svIkAryuM che. temane khuza karavA yAcanAne tyAga kare. temAM ja tame je yAcanA. karIne AnaMdamAM rahe che tenA karatAM sthAyI AnaMdahAjara thaze. kSaNa sthAyI yAcanA karIne meLavelA padArthomAM mugdha bane nahI. yAcanA karaze te paNa padArtho kayAre maLaze ke puNyadaya haze tyAre ja mATe yAcanAnI Tevane tyAga karI AtmA dharmamAM sthira thAo. 138 "vivekane haiyAmAM dhArIne je bhAgyodaye vastuo tathA savege maLyA che. te bAbara che. ane jIvana nirvAha puratA che. Ama samyagUjJAna pUrvaka jANI anya zrImatanI sarakhAmaNI karIe nahI te AnadathI AyuSya pUrNa thAya che. ane je bIjA dhanADhayenI sarakhAmaNI karavAmAM Ave te moha mamatAne AvavAno avakAza maLela hovAthI cintAne pAra rahetuM nathI. sukha 22 For Private And Personal Use Only

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kampa A. kIti sAgarasUri racita bhAsa je che te paNa kayAMya khasI jAya che. bIjAnI saMpattinI sarakhAmaNI na karavI. yAda rAkhA ke je koi bhAgyavatA e mahattA meLavI che teoe anya zrImaMtAnI sarakhAmaNI nahI karatAM sva jIvanamAM bhavya sadhyA khIlavIne Anada meLavyeA che. ane meLatratA rahyA che mATe bhavya sadhyAne khIlAvavA mATe je maLyuM che tene sadupayega karo. 66 139 " anya zrImatAnI sarakhAmaNI karanArane peAtAnI pAse joitA pramANamAM saMpatti hoya chatAM paNa anya dhArmikanI thApaNu vigere ALavavAnI pravRtti thAya che. ane manamAM mAne che. khIjA zrImaMta jevA anu! paraMtu tene khabara nathI anyanI vastu paDAvI. chInavI letAM peAtAnI hAni thavAnA prasaMga upasthita thAya che.ane pramANikatAnA vijaya thAya nahIM. eka dhanADhayanI mAka. eka zrImaMtanI pAse jhaverAta-dAgInA-ane seAnAmaheArA vigere parigraha sArA pramANamAM hatA. tathA jaththAadha kApaDanA vepArI hatA. tethI pAtAnI dukAnamAM kApaDanI gAMsaDIe ghaNA pramANamAM rAkhI vecANa karatAM-IjataAkharU paNa majAramAM sArI rIte hatI. tethI mahAra gAmanA kApaDanA vepArI kApaDanI khapata nI hAvAthI eka gAMsaDI laI ne A zrImaMtanI dukAna pAse AvI tene vecavA mAMDI paNa bhAva rItasara na maLatA pAvAthI zeDanI dukAne rAkhI ane kahyu ke jyAre sArA bhAva Avaze tyAre ha' vecavA AvIza. Ama kahIne peAtAnA gAmamAM gayA. ahIMyA evu banyu For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara kyAti ke zeThanI dukAnamAM hAya lAgavAthI sagaLI gAMsaDIo maLI gaI paNa bahAra gAmanA vepArInI gAMsaDI baLI nahI. kApaDAnA bhAva vadhavAthI bahAra gAmane vepArI AvI zeThanI pAse mUkelI gAMsaDInI mAgaNI karI. zeThe kahyuM ke dukAnamAM hAya lAgavAthI amArI gAMsaDIonI sAthe tArI gAMsaDI baLI khAkha thaI. A sAMbhaLI te vepArIe kahyuM ke mArI kApaDanI gAMsaDI kadApi baLe ja nahIM. kAraNa ke pramANikatAe dharmane AgaLa dharI vyApAra karuM chuM. koIne chetarata nathI. ane anya keI zrImaMtanI hariphAI karatA nathI. mATe pAlana karelo dharma, mahane tathA keI anya vastuone agnithI paNa rakSaNa kare che. mATe tame asatya bole che. lethI chUpI rAkhelI pAchI ApI de nahitara zaheranA rAjA pAse phariyAda karIza. temAM tamArI Ijajata-AbarU raheze nahI. gAMsaDIonI sAthe AbarUne paNa gumAvaze ghaNIvAra samajaNa ApI paNa zeThe mAnyuM nahi tyAre rAjAnI pAse phariyAda karI. jubAnI levAmAM AvI. tyAre zeThe kahyuM ke dukAnamAM lhAya lAgavAthI kApaDanI gAMsaDIo bhegI tenI gAMsaDI maLI gaI che pelA vepArIe kahyuM ke, kRpALu rAjana nyAyanIti pUrvaka ane koInI hariphAI na karatAM rItasara vepAra karate hovAthI kei paNa hArI vastu agnithI baLatI ja nathI. meM oDhelI cAdara paNa tamArI samakSa agnithI baLaze nahI. tapAsa karavI hoya te karI jue rAjAe aMgArA maMgAvI tene cAdaramAM nAMkhyA paNa baLI nahI. tyAre rAjAne khAtrI thaI ke A bahAra gAmane vepArI pramANika che. zrIma For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasari racita tanI dukAnamAM tapAsa karatAM akhaMDa gAsaDI rekhI. rAjAnI bhItithI pAchI ApI. ane bharabajAramAM hAMsI thavA pUrvaka Ijata gaI. bahAra gAmanA vepArInI ghaNI prazaMsA thaI. bhAva paNa sArI rIte upanyo. A mujaba zrImaMtenI hariphAI karatAM jyAre pahoMcI vaLe nahI tyAre unmAge gamana karI potAnI AbarU gumAve che tyAre pramANika je hoya che te keInI spardhA karatA nathI paNa nyAyanIti pUrvaka AjIvikA khAtara udyama karI saMtoSa dhAraNa kare che. 14. keTalAka svArtha paTuo sattAdhArI agara rAjAnI maherabAnI maLatAM AtmabhAna bhUlI sagAM vahAlAMnA saMbaMdha visArI tathA madamAM AvI anekadhA kahevAsa-kaMkAsa-jhaghaDo ubho kare che ane manamAM mAne che ke mArA je keNa che? dareka sagAMvahAlAMne paNa dabAtA rAkhuM chuM keI paNa mArI sAmuM balavAnI tAkAta dharAvatuM nathI. Ama dhAraNA rAkhI darekane zatru thAya che paraMtu pAdiye eve vakhata AvI lAge che ke pokAre pADatAM kaI sAMbhaLatuM nathI ane sahAya ApatuM nathI. pachI tenA netra khullAM thAya che ke svArtha mATe bIjAene dabAvyA. kaleza kaMkAsa ubhe karyo te sAruM karyuM nahI. eka rAjAne medI hatA. rAjAnI IcchAnusAra dareka vastuo hAjara karate svaccha ane manahara vastuo lAvo. havAthI atIva priya banyuM eTale keInI paNa paravA rAkhate nathI. bIjAone ochu Ape ke vadhAre laI le te paNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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341 atara ti rAjAne vahAla hevAthI kaI tenA sAme belatuM nathI. A svArtha paTue anya grAhakene ThagI pitAnuM ghara bharyuM ane mada karavA lAgyA. kaI mane ochuM Apela che Ama kahevA Ave tyAre dhUtakArI kADhate. rAjAnI bIkathI ke tene vadhAre kahetuM nahIM. A modIe te halakA darajajAnA adhikArIone paNa ThagavA bAkI rAkhyuM nahIM. tethI svajana varga-Itarajane tathA sAmAnya adhikArIo kaMTALI gayA. ane manamAM vicAra karavA lAgyA ke AnAM pagalAM A rAjyamAMthI TaLe te nirAMta thAya. sarvene chetarI potAnuM ghara bhare che chatAM kAMI paNa kahevAtuM nathI. kahevA jaIe te jhaghaDe ubhe kare che. AvA vicAramAM che teTalAmAM A rAjAnA medIne kAraNa vazAt anya gAme javAnuM thayuM. ane tyAM be mahinA lagabhaga rahyo rAjA, adhikArIone pUche che ke modI hamaNAM dekhAtuM nathI. kayAM gaela che adhikArIo kaMTALI gayA hatA. tethI kahyuM ke mahArAja, meMdI marI gaye. rAjAne aphasosa thaye darekane AnaMda thaye paraMtu be mAsa pachI te meMdI pAche pitAnA gAmamAM AvI rAjAne maLavA jAya che paNa antapuramAM kaI pesavA detuM nathI. rAjAe paNa marI gayo mAnI tenI tapAsa karI nahI. eka mahinA bAda rAjA jharUkhAmAM AvI pharI rahela che tevAmAM te mAge thaIne jatA modIne dekhyo ane hajurIyAne Thapako Ape ke modI te jIvate che ne tamoe marI gaela che ema kema jaNAvyuM? hajurIyAoe kahyuM ke ame baTuM bolatA nathI. tenA bIjA mANasane puchI For Private And Personal Use Only

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242 A. kItisAgarasUri racita juo saghaLAone puchatAM teoe kahyuM ke, meMdI marI gayela che. "rAjAe kahyuM ke maraNa pAmela hoya te mATe medI, kayAMthI dekhAya? maraNa pAmela jIvatA thatA nathI. mATe tame asatya bele che dareke kahyuM ke tamArA upara ghaNe prema hovAthI.bhUta thaIne Avela che ane tamane dekhA de che. rAjAe barAbara tapAsa na karatAM sAcuM mAnyuM te pAse AvavA. mATe ghaNe prayAsa kare che. chatAM kei pesavA detuM nathI. sarvanI sAthe kaMkAsa-jhaghaDe karela hovAthI tene marelo mAne che. A daSTAMta uparathI samajavAnuM ke svAthI ane kalaha karanAra marelo mAna. bhale jIvate hoya te paNa tenI kiMmata thatI nathI. have te A medIne garva gaLI gayo. rAjA paNa tenA sAmuM bhUtane vahema havAthI jete nathI dareka mANasa dhikkAra karI kaDavI najare jue che. tethI samajaNa paDI ke keInI sAthe levA devAmAM kajIe karI nahI. mATe te manuSya svArthanI khAtara-ke svAdane lIdhe temaja meha mAyAnA kAraNe keInI sAthe aNu banAvI rAkhe nahI. aNa banAvamAM dararoja te nahI paNa koI prasaMge mahATI nukazAnI AvI lAge che. pachI pastAvAne pAra rahetuM nathI. svArthamAM ane svAdamAM tathA atyaMta rAgamAM aneka athaDAmaNe ubhI thAya che. ane agatyanuM kAma adhurUM rahe che. - jyAre svArtha ane svAdane dUra karavAmAM Ave tyAre sva paropakAra sAdhI zakAya che je bhAgyavaMtanA tyAga-saMyama-sahanatA vigere saddaguNe prakAza mAna thaI rahelA hoya che te mahAbhAgo svAda-ane svArthane tyAga For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti 344 karI zake che. pachI temane dravya daza prANanI paravA rahetI nathI. tethI sarvatra teo prAya prazaMsA pAtra bane che. saMya. manuM pAlana karyA sivAya svArtha ane svAdane tyAga banI zakta nathI ane Atma vikAsa ke prazaMsA maLatI nathI. duryodhana pAse rAjya Rddhi hatI. koI prakAre dunyavI padArthonI khAmI hatI nahi chatAM pAMDavo karatA adhika mahattA meLavavA-ane teone vipatti-viDaMbanAomAM nAMkhavA kapaTa karI jugAramAM pAMDane parAjIta karI vanavAsa-makalyAvanavAsamAM paNa svArtha khAtara vANuvarta nagaramAM lakSA ghara banAvI tathA bahArathI prema dekhADI temAM rAkhyA ane teone bALI nAMkhavA lAkSA gharamAM hAya lagADI. paNa vidurajI mAraphata banelI suraMga dvArA teo bahAra nIkaLI gayA. teone mArI nAMkhavA kImira sAthe masalata karI ekale temAM paNa duryodhana phAvyuM nahI.te rAkSasane parAbhava karI pAMDa mAtAnI sAthe AgaLa vadhyA. ane heDaba vanamAM AvI heDaMba rAkSasane harAvyo. bhImasene tenI bena heDaMbAnI pAsethI aMdhakAramAM prakAza karanArI vidyA meLavI heDambAne sevA bhAva dekhI kuMtI mAtAe ane laupadIe bhImasenanuM tenI sAthe lagna karAvyuM. teNIne ghaTeca nAme dIre thaye. tyAra bAda ekacakA nagarImAM AvI devazarmA brAhmaNane gharamAM sukhethI rahyA. A nagarImAM bakAsurane mahAna upadrava hate. dararoja te eka mANasane bhega lete dararoja eka mANasa ane baLI bAkaLA ApavAnI kabulAta hevAthI devazarmAne vAre AvyA tethI gharanA mANaso kalpAMta karavA For Private And Personal Use Only

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244 A, kIrti sAgarasUri racita lAgyA. popakArI kuMtA mAtAthI sahana thaI zakayuM nahI. tethI temaNe kahyuM ke tame kalpAMta kare nahI. devazarmAne badale mArA bhImasenane mekalIza. devazarmAnA parivAre nA kahyuM chatAM mAtAnI AjJAthI bhImasena gaye ane bakAsurane parAsta karyo. ane sarvajanene bacAvyA. ekacakra nagarInI prajAe tathA-rAjAe bhUri bhUri prazaMsA karI. paropakAra vRttivALA-paropakAranA prasaMge prANenI paNa paravA rAkhatA nathI. A uktinI siddhi karI. duryodhane A bInA sAMbhaLI te baLavA lAgyo. bhayabhIta adhika banyA nindApAtra banI je mahattA hatI te gumAvI beThe. bIjAone nukazAna karavAnI bhAvanA-tathA kapaTa karavA pUrvaka anyanuM chInavI levAnI vicAraNA kaSTa dAyaka che. te pachI te mujaba vartana karanArane dukhadAyaka kema na thAya ? mATe darekanuM kalyANa Icche. 141 saMteSa-saMyama-sahanatA ane samatA, sarvenI AzAo pUrI kare che. chatAM AvA umadA mAgane tyAga karI umA gamana kare tene kaI nirodha karatuM nathI. paNa temAM svAranuM kalyANa nathI. ja Ama rItasara samajI hitakara mAge vaLavuM teja buddhimattA che. ghaNAya - nmatta mANase saMteSAdi sanmAgane tyAga karI duryodhananI mAphaka unmArge gamana karI rAjya-ddhi-samRddhi-zuddhi gumAvI nIca kaTInI avasthAne prApta thaela che ubhAge gamana karanArane ISTa lAbha maLe kayAMthI je potAnI pAse hoya te yaNa gumAvI bese che mATe saMyama ane sahiSNutA vigerene For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara jayoti 345 AdhAra laI svaparanuM kalyANa karavA udyamazIla bane. A A sivAya anya sAcA sukhane mAga nathI. unmArge jazo ane sAcI zikhAmaNa mAnaze nahI te pariNAme pastAvAnuM thaze pachI AgaLa vadhavAnuM sAdhana maLavuM te azakaya banaze mATe viveka netrane ughADe ane samAge vaLe. AzAo icachAo ane tRSNane AdhIna banela bhale pachI rAjAmahArAja agara sAdhana saMpanna zrImaMta hoya te paNa teonI tRSNa zAMta nathI. anekadhA cintAo-vyAdhiomAM gherAela hAvAthI duHkhamaya aMdagAnI pasAra kare che jyAre pitAnI sAmAnya sthiti hoya che tyAre evI vicAraNA kare che ke je mArI pAse manahara ane Icchita dhana dolata hoya te sAdhamika baMdhuonuM pUratA pramANamAM vAtsalya karI punyane baMdha karUM tathA sAta kSetremAM dhanane vAparI maLela jIvananI sArthakatA karI sukhI thAuM. Ama dhAraNa karI aneka vyApAra kare che vyApAra karatAM puNya cege dhanADhaya bane tyAre delatanI rakSA mATe ciMtAtura bane che ane putrAdika parivAra na hoya tyAre tenI Adhi AvIne vaLage che. putrAdika parivAra hete paNa prasiddhi-pratiSThA vigerenI jaMjALamAM paDI je sva kartavya prathama dhAreluM hatuM te bhUlI jAya che. teo samajatA nathI ke dunyavI sArA anukula sarva saMga tathA dhanAdika prApta thaela heya te paNa Atma saMteSa-saMyama ane sahi. 1NutA sivAya cintAo ane jaMjALa TaLatI ja nathI. eka sukhanA athIe pote sAdhana saMpanna hovA chatAM paNa cinAo vApAta vigere dUra khasyA nahI tyAre devanI ArAdhanA sukha For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgarasari racita mATe kaSTa veThIne karI. cha mahinA bAda deve prasanna thaIne kahyuM ke tAre have kevuM sukha joIe chIe te viveka ane vicAraNA sAthe temaja sarvasthale nirIkSaNa karIne mAga? A bhAI sAheba sukhI mANasanI zodhamAM paDayo. darekane pUche ke kahe bhAI tame sukhI che? cintA vinAnA che? tyAre javAbamAM teo kahe che ke amane paisAnI cintA che paisA maLe te dInatA khase tyAre dhanADhya zrImate kahe che ke amArA gharamAM putra-patnI vyAdhigrasta che te vyAdhi TaLe te AnaMda rahe. tyAre putrAdi parivAra vinAnA kahe che ke dhana delata te che paNa putra-putrI nahI hovAthI cintA khasatI nathI. duniyA ame vAMjhIyA tarIkenuM maheNuM mAre che. A mAra amArAthI sahana thatuM nathI. je putra agara putrI janme te khuzI thaIe tyAre keTalAka kahe che ke putra-putrI jame che te kharA paNa jIvatA nathI. davA mATe hajAro rUpIyAne kharca karavAmAM Ave che te saghaLe phegaTa jAya che tyAre keTalAka kahe che ke dhana dolata vigere sArA pramANamAM che paNa dIkarAe naphaphaTa pAkayA che vyasanamAM milakatane veDaphI nAMkhe che. are bhAI cintAne pAra nathI. A mujaba darekane puchatAM kaIne kaI-kaIne kAMI kaSTa te sukhanA athane mAluma paDayuM chatAM paNa sukhIne ze dhavA mATe AgaLa prayAsa kare che. tevAmAM eka nagaranA zeThane sukhI de. A nagazeDa zarIre sAjA tAjA che. putra parivArAdika paNa anukula che. Avaka paNa pUratA pramANamAM jANa tathA cintA rahita che. ema jANI. AvA zeDanA sukhanI mAgaNa deva pAse karUM For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti " Ama vicAraNA kare che, tevAmAM zeThanI najara tenA sAmI paDI. ane pRcchA karI ke bhAI zI vicAraNA kare che. teNe kahyuM ke Adhi-vyAdhi ane upAdhi rahita banavA mATe devanI ArAdhanA karI. deve prasanna thaIne kahyuM ke tAre kevuM sukha joIe, meM kahyuM ke AdhivyAdhi vigere vinAnuM. deve kahyuM ke evI kaI vyakti hoya tene zodhI tapAsa karI mArI pAse lAva! tethI tapAsa karatAM he zeTha! tame saghaLI bAbate sukhI dekhAve che. Ama, vicAraNA karate hatA. zeThe kahyuM ke mArA je kaI duHkhI nathI. je je mArA jevuM sukha mAgate nahI. nahItara pastAvAne pAra raheze nahIM. are zeTha! Ama tame kema bole. che huM te tamane saghaLI vAte sukhI dekhuM chuM. zeTha kahe, sAMbhaLa paise Take sukhI te chuM paNa eka putra jamyA pachI gharamAM patnIne asAdhya vyAdhi thaye. davAmAM ghaNA paisA kharcA paNa te vyAdhi naSTa thayuM nahIM. tyAre mArI patnI nAnA putra mATe azisa karavA lAgI. ane kahevA lAgI ke A thaela rega maTato nathI ane marI javAze. A be varSanA bALakanI zI vale thaze ? tame mArA maraNa pachI bIjI bAyaDI karavAnA. teNane paNa putrAdika thaze. pachI te mArA dIkarAne kaI puchaze nahI. zakya mAtA zaka saMtAnene saMbhALaze ke mArA dIkarAne? zeThe tene zAMta karavA kahyuM ke bhale apara mAtA kadAca saMbhALa rAkhe nahI. paNa dIkaro mAre paNa kharo? huM saMbhALa kazuM nahI rAkhu? mArA para vizvAsa che ke nahI. teNue kahyuM ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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348 A. kItisAgarasUri racita purUSane ze bharUse. paraNelI bIjImAM Asakta banyA te mArA putranI behAla dazA thaze te mATe vApAta karyA kare chuM. zeThe sogana lIdhA paNa mAnyuM nahIM. ane cintA karavA lAgI tyAre meM vicAra karyo, A strI cintAnA ge maraNa pAmyA bAda sadagati pAmaze nahI, Ama vicAraNuM karIne kahyuM ke AcArya mahArAjane atre padharAvI tArI samakSa sarvathA jAvaja jIva yAvat brahmacarthanI bAdhA-niyama lau te pachI tane cintA raheze nahI ne? strIne cakkasa maraNa pAmavAnI khAtrI hatI. tethI hA kahI. AcArya mahArAjanI pAse teNInI samakSa brahmacarya jAvaja jIva sudhI grahaNa karyuM. strIne zAMta vaLI. AnaMdamAM rahevA lAgI. pachI are bhAI! banyuM evuM ke cintA gaI. valopAta thaye nahIM. davA te cAlu hatI tethI davA lAgu paDavAthI strIne rega naSTa thaye ane dhIme dhIme Arogya prApta karI sAjI thaI. khAvA pIvAnI sArA pramANamAM anukulatA hovAthI anukrame vikArI banI. viSaya sukhanI jaMkhanA karavA lAgI. meM te brahmacarya jIvana paryata lIdhela hovAthI game tevI prArthanA karI khuzI karatI paNa te niyamamAM makkama rahyo, kAMI paNa vaLyuM nahI tyAre keAI viSayAbhilASI-vyabhicArI sAthe saMbaMdha bAMdhye. ghaNI rAgI thaela hovAthI be dIkarA teNIne thayA. krodha karyo nahIM. tenA dIkarAnI paNa saMbhALa rAkhI. A traNa putromAMthI eka dIkaro amAro che ane be dIkarA tenA che. manamAM te atizaya muMjhavaNa thAya che. paNa have upAya rahyo nathI. ela. mArA jevuM sukha For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti tAre mAgavuM che? sukhInI zodhamAM nIkaLela bhAI te acaMbe pAmI vicAra karavA lAge. have sarva sthale sukhI mANasanI zodha karI paNa keI sukhA vyakti prApta thaI nahI. have zo upAya kara. zeThe tene samajaNa ApI ke are mahAnubhAva! sukhI thavuM te ApaNuM hAthanI bInA che. anyatra zodha karavAnI nathI. saMteSa-saMyama ane samatA dhAraNuM karIza te sAcuM sukha kadApi gera hAjara nathI. pAse ne pAse che. keIne puchIza te satya sukhane AsvAda karanAra, munivarya sivAya anya vyakti maLaze nahI. mATe saMtoSa saMyamane Adara kara, A pramANe zeThanI zikhAmaNa mAnI munivaryone upadeza zravaNa karI saMteSa vigerene dhAraNa karI dhArmika kriyAmAM tatpara banyo. paisA TakAnI cintA hatI nahI. upadezanI khAmI hatI. te pUrNa thaI have te kaDavAza-pratikulatA Ave te saMyamane dhAraNa karI tene rItasara sahana karI lete are bhAgyazAlIo sukhane mATe anyatra zodhavA jaze te kaI paNa sthale prApta thaze nahIM. tamArI samIpamAM hoya te bIje zodhavAthI kema maLaze? kadAca sukha maLaze te kalayanA janya. paNa kalpanAnuM parivartana thatAM vilaMba thato nathI. vividha vyavasAya karatAM dhana delata vigere maLyuM paNa vyApAra karatAM te lata lAta mArIne khasI gaI agara zArIrika vyAdhi utpanna thaI tyAre sukhanI ka95nA TaLI jAya che. ane saMkaTa AvIne hAjara thAya che. tevA vakhate saMtoSa saMyama-samatA haze te dukha saMkaTa jevuM bhAsaze nahI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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50 A. kIrtisAgarasUri saMcita ane Ate kaTI-parIkSA thaI ema manAze. Amika guNanA AvirbhAvamAMja satya sukha samAela che. anyatra zodhavAmAM te AzA-nirAzA udvega-bedAdi che. Ama samajI AtmAnI zakitane phe ra. ISTa sukhane anubhava AvatA raheze. anatA aDAzAe dhArmika vyavasAyanA ge saMyama-samatAdi guNe ne prAdurbhAva karI anaMtA sukhanA svAmI banela che ane banaze. rAtri vyatIta thayA pachI divasa sarva prANIone sarakhe uge che paraMtu te divasa paropakAra vigerene karavA pUrvaka AnaMda pUrvaka pasAra kare ke anAcAra ge rodaDAM raDIne ke vyAdhi viDaMbanAo bhegavIne pasAra kare te ApaNA hAthanI vAta che. ugele divasa je cintA rahita pasAra thaye te Avate divasa AnaMda pUrvaka pasAra thaze. anyathA te rAdaDAM raDavAno vakhata Avaze. kaho, tyAre kevI rIte divasa pasAra karazo. tamAre vidyamAna divasa ane AvatAM divase sukha pUrvaka pasAra karavA hoya te cAlu lakSaNathI nIti nyAyamAM tatpara bane. bhaviSyamAM kevA banavuM, sukhI ke dukhI tenA vicAre karo. jo tame dhArmika kAryomAM tatpara che te koI kaSTa ApavA samartha banaze nahI tamane sahAre maLyA karaze gulAba pupane dekhI nIce rahelA kAMTAthI bhayabhIta banaze nahI. tamAre gulAbanI jarUra che te upayoga rAkhI tene svIkAra kare. upaga rAkhe nahI te kAMTA vAze emAM navAI zI? dareka Atma kalyANakAraka kAryomAM kaSTa rahela che. paraMtu upayoga rAkhanArane kaSTa kaTake sukha detAM nathI. kaSTa kaMTake For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti haze te khyAla rakhAze ane kacchamAMthI AnaMda meLavavAnI cAvI maLI raheze. 14ra jyAM sudhI ApaNuM mAnasika valaNa, abhyadaya ke zreyanA lakSe nathI tyAM sudhI ApaNe alyudaya tarapha prayANa karavA samartha banatA nathI. nasIba viparIta che. Ama dhAraNa karI te ALasa pramAdane AvavA avakAza maLaze. ane je abhyadayanI icchA che te pUrNa thaze nahi. nAzI pAsanA vicAro karavA phateha je tamArI rAha joI rahela che te dura khasI javAnI mATe paramAtmAnI AjJA mujaba mAnasika valaNane abhyadaya tarapha rAkhI pramANika paNue vatana rAkhe. abhyadaya tamArI pAse che te AvI hAjara thaze. satya abhyadaya dUra haito nathI ane tamArI rAha jotA hoya che mATe mAyA-mamatAne nivArI puNage maLele divasa sadAcAranI ArAdhanA karI saphaLa banAve. jagatanI khaTapaTamAM tathA anyane parAjaya karavAmAM kayAM divasa ne vRthA gumAve che ? lAkho senAmahoro karatAM eka kSaNanI adhika kiMmata che. gumAela mahero maLI raheze paNa vRthA gumAela vyatIta karela kSaNa maLI Avaze nahi, saMsAramAM manuSya to ghaNA kareDe abajonI saMkhyAmAM che paraMtu vastugate varatuone jANanAra keTalA? hajAronI saMkhyAmAM paNa maLI Avaze nahI. je sarvajJa bhagavAna gaNatrI karIne kadAca kahe te taddana alapa pramANamAM maLI Avaze. heya-ya ane upAdeya-sat -asatuM nityanityanI samajaNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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para A. kItisAgarAri ravi vALA viralA hoya che. jemAM sat-asat vigerenI sama. jaNa pUrvaka sadviveka-upazama samatva bhAva jhaLahaLI rahela hAya ane tenA cage kaSAyamAM kApa paDela hoya agara sarva thA nAza pAmela hoya teo ja ravajIvananI sattA meLave che. A sivAyanA bhale manuSya kahevAtA hoya ane dunyavI sattA samRddhi vigere bhegavatA hoya teo svajIvanane sArthaka karavA be nasIba rahe che. mATe manuSyabhavanI saphaLatA sAthekatA karavI hoya te sat-asa-heya-zeyAdinuM samyagUjJAna rItasara meLavI viveka upazama ane samatvane dhAraNa karavAnI khAsa agatyatA che. pazuo paNa svajIvananI cena kena prakAre pUrNatA te kare che. te pachI manuSyamAM ane pazuomAM taphAvata che? te kaheze. sat-asatarheya-seya upAdeya vigerenuM samyagujJAna hoya nahi tevA manuSyo, ajJAnatAnA jere kAraNa vinA paNa apakAra karI pAchA khuzI thAya che te adhama koTinA jANavA. apakAra karIne sajajanane upadeza sAMbhaLI pastAve kare te adhama karatAM ThIka che. ane kAraNa pAmIne anya prANIone apakAra karI punaH pastAvo karanAra madhyama che. ane upakArIne upakAra mAnI tene badale vALavAnI kazIza karavA dhAraNA rAkhe ane avasare sahakAra Ape te uttama kahevAya, paraMtu je mahAzaya? apakAra karanAranA upara upakAra kare che te uttamatama che. AvA bhAgyazALIeja jagatamAM svaparanu kalyANa sAdhI zake che. tathA keTalAka mANase, prathama saMkSipAta jevA hoya che ke jenA prathama keLIomAM Avela mAMkha-pote maraNa pAme ane khAdheluM For Private And Personal Use Only

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tira nyAti 53 skUlamAMthI ekAve vamana karAve vaLI keTalAka evA hAya che. tenI tamane khabara teA haze, karALIA jevA, peAte maraNu pAme ane khAnArane kuSTa-keADhane vyAdhi utpanna kare AvA mANasA adhama koTInA kahevAya temAM navAI nathI. AvI adhama kATInI gaNanAmAM avAya nahI ane uttama anAya temaja sva jIvananuM paNa kalyANa sadhAya te mATe upakArInA upakArane bhUlA nahI. zakaya badalA vALavA dararAja dhAraNA rAkhavI. maneAhara madhura phulavALA vRkSAnA guNNAne grahaNa karI je mAnavA apakAranA upara upakAra kare che. zItala chAMye ane phle arpaNa kare che. teo kalpatarU karatAM paNa uttama gAyakalpatarU tA. prArthanA karanArane iSTa kula Ape paNa patharA mAre tA kAMI paNa prApta thAya nahI tyAre madhura phulavALA vRkSA musAphAne patharA mAratAM pazu la Ape che. devA pazu rItasara ArAdhanA karavA pUrvaka jo puchyAya hAya tA ja mAgaNI mujaba apaNu kare paraMtu apamAna-tiraskAra karanArane kAMI pazu Ape nahI tethI madhura phulavALA vRkSA kalpatarU-deva-kAmavaTa karatAM uttama kahevAya che. tamA paNu madhura phulavALA vRkSA jevA anA. kAi tamArU apamAna kare. tA paNa nArAja khanatA nahI. tene dayApAtramAnI ISTa lane ApatA rahyA. temAM ja karma-kAmanAnA nAza che. ane AtmAnA zubheAnA ughADa che. atyAra sudhI A mujaba vana karela nahI hAvAthI ApaNe Atmika guNAne meLavI zakavA samartha anyA nathI. ane mAnava bhavanI saphalatA karI zakayA nathI. 23 For Private And Personal Use Only

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54 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita - "are vicAra karIne vivekamAM ArUDha thaela mahAza! tamArI AzA-ke kAmanA je tamee rAkhI haze. te kAraNa vazAt phalIbhUta thaela haze nahI. tethI cintA valayAta karavA jevuM nathI. A jagatamAM kenI kAmanA-ke AzA tRSNa phalavatI banela che. te tamo rItasara kahI zakaze nahI. enI saphalatA ke niSphaLatA uparathI bhAgyane ke abhAgyane chelle AMka kADhaze nahI. mAnava deha-zArIrika bala-Arya kSetrAdikanI prApti e bhAgyadaye ja maLe che. abhAgyane haThAvavuM-ane bhAgya-puNyanI prApti karavI te tamArA hAthanI bInA che. je je AzAo tathA kAmanA phalatI nathI tenuM kAraNa tapAse eTale tamane khyAla Avaze ke antarAya karma bAMdhela hevAthI IchA AzAo phalatI nathI. have te AzAo vigerene phelavatI banAvavI hoya te antarAya karmane haThAvavA mATe barAbara balane pherave tame keIne antarAya karaze nahI te antarAya tamane naDaze nahI-svAda-svArthanI khAtara bIjAone antarAya karela hovAthI tamArI AzAemAM ane kAmanAmAM vAre vAre vidane upasthita thAya che. e nakakI samaje. 14ra keInA kAryomAM vina kare nahI. ane vidana karIne khuzI thAo nahI, eTale vidana-antarAyane Ava vAne avakAza maLaze nahI. dhArmika kAryomAM kadApi vidata karaze nahIM. paraMtu sahakAra ApIne khuzI thaze. atarAya vina Avela haze For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti te paNa khasI jaze. ane lAgaNI rAkhI dhArmika kriyAmAM tatpara banaze bIjAone dhArmika kAryomAM paNa viM upasthita karavAthI kene pariNAme lAbha maLe che te tame barAbara tapAsa karaze. pAMca prakAranA vidane zAstrakAre kahelA che. te khyAlamAM lAvI tene haThAvavA mATe prayAsa karaze. sarva kAmanA adhurI raheze nahI. lAbha thate jaze. jenAthI Atmika vikAsa Atmaniti thAya. evA samyaga jJAna vinAnI sattA-sAhyabI-saMpatti vigere meLavIne khuzI thavuM te mastakane kApI nAka rAkhavA jevuM che. kAraNa ke je sAhAbI sattA meLavI che. te samyam Atmika jJAna vinA saMsAramAM abhimAna vigerene hAjara karI cAra gatimAM paribhramaNa karavAmAM nimitta bane che. saMteSa saMyama sahiSNutAnI ArAdhanAmAM punaHpunaH vine upasthita kare che. te prasaMge upasthita thaela vidanene haThAvavAnI tAkAta rahetI nathI jema jema haThAvavA mATe prayAsa thAya che. tema tema vidane vadhAre vega pakaDe che. je je vaibhava vigere maLe che. ane vadhAryo che. te te dvArA A nnati thavI joIe. cintA valopAta TaLa joIe tenA badale viparIta pariNAma Ave tevI sAhyabI sattAthI zuM sukha maLavAnuM? mATe kahevAya che ke, jenAthI Atmonnati na sadhAya evA samyagajJAna vinAnI sAhyabI ane saMpatti, mAthuM kApIne nAka rAkhavA jevI che. mastaka kapAI gayA pachI nAka raheze kevI rIte ? arthAta raheze nahI. brahmadatta cakravatinI pAse temaja subhama cakavatinI pAse cha khaMDanI sattA hatI ane sAhyabI paNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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paka A. kItisAgarasUri racita mane hara hatI. cauda ratna navanidhi vigere jenI pAse hoya tene sAMsArika viSayenI khAmI hotI nathI. ane temane bhAsatI paNa nathI. paraMtu eka AtmajJAnanI khAmI hevAthI durgatinA bhAjana banyA. te saMpattie durgatinA bAraNuM baMdha karyA nahI paNa tenuM udgATana karyuM ane tetrIza sAgarepama sudhI mahAviMpattimAM phasAvI nAMkhyA. bharatacakrI sagara cakravartIone AtmajJAna hovAthI maLelI saMpattine tyAga karI temaNe AtmavikAsa sAdhI paramapadane prApta karyuM ane sAdI anaMtame bhAge anaMta sukhanA svAmI thayA che. mATe dunyavI sattA-sAhyabI, puNyodaye prApta thaze paNuM AtmajJAna haze nahI to AvI banyuM ema mAnazo. anaMtajJAna-darzana sukhAdi meLavavuM hoya te sattAsAhyabImAM vizvAsa rAkhatA nathI. mannamatta banatA nahIM. je aMte anaMtA duHkhamAM phasAvanAra che. te TALavA mATe prayAsa karavAnI khAsa agatyatA che. sAhyabI-saMpatti vigere karmajanya che. ane karma paNa jaDa che. ane cetana AtmA che. kamanI zakti karatAM AtmAnI zakti anaMta guNa che. tethI A kama zaktine tyAga pUrvaka AtmonnatimAM sArI rIte AgaLa vadhe aMtavALI vastuomAM keNa vizvAsa rAkhe? aMtavALI A saghaLI sattA saMpatti che te mATe samyajJAna hevuM joIe. jyA sudhI A samajAze nahIM. ane rAga dUra karavAmAM nahIM Ave te phasAmaNa vATa joIne rahela che. tamArI pAse dunyavI padArthonuM jJAna haze te anaMta sukha meLavavAmAM kAragata thaze nahIM. paNa sAthe sAthe Atmika guNonuM jJAna haze te ja khapamAM Avaze For Private And Personal Use Only

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357 AMtara jayoti mATe sAMsArika vastuonuM samyagajJAna meLavIne DulI jA nahI. sAMsArika jJAnathI yuddha kaMkAsa-kaleza adekhAI vigere nAza pAmatA nathI paNa temAM vadhAre karatA rahe che tamArI sattAthI anya janane dabAvI deze. paNa kamajanya kalezanI zaktine haThAvI zakazo nahIM. tamArI pAse AlIzAna mahele haze ane temAM moja majA mANatA haze. paraMtu chevaTe tene tyAga kara paDaze. agara tamane raDAvI aneka dharatIkaMpAdi kAraNe pAmI pite paDI jamIna dosta thaze. tamArI senAmahAre priya jhaverAtane te vakhate pRthvImAM garI jatAM zarama Avaze nahi. ane behAla karavA pUrvaka pRthvI kAyanI jAti hevAthI pRthvI sAthe sArI rIte sagAI bAMdhaze Ama vicArI AtmAnI unnati sadhAya tevuM jJAna meLave deva-gurU ane dharmane sahAre laIne-saMvegI- vairAgI ane zraddhAvALA samyaga jJAnIo, jagatanA saMge ane viyegone svabhAva rItasara jANuM Atmika guNene AvirbhAva karavA upara dararoja najara rAkhyA kare che. tethI teo bhautika padArthomAM mugdha banatA nathI. teone sahAre laI azubha vicAre vRttione dUra karI Atma guNemAM sthiratA dhAraNa kare che. tyAre sAMsArika padArthomAM mugdha banela-devagurU dharmane sahakAra laI pitAne svArtha sAdhavA dararAja jaga-tamAM dRSTine deDAve che. eTale tenAmAM dayA-dAna damaviveka vigere je Atmika guNene prAdurbhAva karanAra ananya sAdhana che te meLavI zaktA nathI. ulaTA unmArge caDhI je zakti tathA puNyadaya che tene paNa veDaphI nAMkhI heTI For Private And Personal Use Only

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358 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita yAtanA bhAgave che. mATe bhautika padArthAnA sahakAra tathA devagurUnA ane dhama'nA sahArA laI Atmika guNA tarapha najara rAkhyA karI. jethI Atmika guNAmAM sthitA thatAM je Anada joIe chIe te ApAAya hAjara thaze. satya sukhanA abhilASIe tA pAtAnu vatana eTale manavacana ane tananI saghaLI vRttie ane pravRttio upara najara rAkhI sudhAravA tatpara bane che. eTale karmodaye je AtA AvelI DAya che. tenu jora cAlatuM nathI. svayameva hatAza manIne khasI jAya che. pachI temane koi prakAranI bhIti ke viDaMbanA rahetI nathI. azubha vRtti ane pravRttie saMkaTaviDaMkhanAmAM nAMkhavA khAkI rAkhI nathI, ane cAreya narakAdika azubha gatimAM vividha vedanAomAM sapaDAvyA che ATaluM ja nahI paraMtu khAlatA baMdha karAvyA che, dekhavAnI zakti lai lIdhI che. temaja sAMbhaLavAnI zakti paNa baMdha karI che. 143 jagatanA jIvAne prabhue utpanna karyAM nathI. utpanna karanAra potAnAja karyAM che kaceAgeja prANIA sukha duHkhanA bhAkatA ane che. jyAre prabhunI AjJA mujaba Atmika guNAmAM lInatA thAya che tyAre karmAM khasavA mAMDe che. A karmInI zakti ajaya che. amuka gAma amuka zahera, amuka pALa, pADA ke peThamAM temaja amukajJAti ke gharamAM tame prathamathI nakkI karIne janmyA nathI tyAM paNa karyAM mujaba janma dhAraNa karavA paDayA che. tamAne janma pAmyA pachI je saceAge nimitta agara je kAMI maLyuM che. ane maLaze tathA je bhagavaTAmAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jayoti 359 AvI rahela che. te sAnukula hoya ke pratikuLa hoya temAM mukhyatAye karmonI sattA che. jo ema na hoya te keIka dIvasa sAdhana saMpanna dvArA lahera karatA mAnavene dekhavAmAM Ave che teja anya divase pAgala jevA banI bhaTakatA hoya che. eka dIvasa rAjyagAdImAM mahAlatA hoya che. tyAre e vakhata AvI maLe che. teja rAjAo nekara banI sevA bajAvatA hoya che. tathA je satkAra samAna pUrvaka sAhAbI bhegavAtI hoya che te saghaLI karmasattAnI pradhAnatA che. eka divasa cAre dizAe paribhramaNa karate zubha karmodaye mAnavI adhi. kArI banI darekanA upara vasattAne bajAvate hoya che. te kaI upakAra karI ananya lAbha meLavatA hoya che te tenA karelA zubha kAryonuM phala che Ama samajI karmo evA karo ke aniSTaphala bhegavavAne avasara Ave nahI. puNyodaye sAhAbI vaibhava vigere AvI maLaze paNa tenA bhegavaTAnuM puNya haze nahI te zarIre vyAdhi utpanna thaze kAMte savajana vagara virodhI banaze sanmAna satkArAdi Apaze nahI mATe sAhAbI maLyA pachI pavitra kAryo kare ke jethI sarve bAbatamAM anukuLatA rahe. sattA-vaibhava malyA pachI madamAM magna banI upakArAdi pavitra kAryo nahIM kare te te mada abhimAna-mamatA puNyanA udayane kSaya karaze mATe cetatA raheze. abhimAna, mamatA, adekhAIne tyAga karI pavitra kAryomAM parAyaNa bane puNyane kSaya thayA pachI behAla dazAne AvatAM vAra lAgaze nahI. eka vyaktie puNyodaye zeTha zeThANane, cAlAkIthI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasUri racita evA te vaza karI lIdhA ke tene puchIne vyAvahArika kAryo kare che. sonAmahoro tathA jhaverAta AbhUSaNothI bharelI tIjorI paNa tene seMpavAmAM AvI. A mujaba sattA maLela hovAthI A bhAI madamAM AvI pitAnA sagAM vahAlAne gaNAvavAmAM paNa tene pitAne apamAna bhAse che, keIka divasa svajana vaga tene salAha levA bolAve che paNa te temanI pAse ja nathI uTe tiraskAra karIne halakA pADe che. eTale svajana varga tenuM nAma paNa letuM nathI. have A bhAI te lakSmI sattAnA adhikArI banela hovAthI, tenA joramAM ane temAM huM kayA mAge gamana karUM chuM tenuM bhAna rahyuM nahi, raMDIbAja banI lakSmIne gupta rIte durUpayoga karatA hovAthI zarIre asAdhya rogo utpanna thayA. AbarU sAthe zArIrika zakti gumAvI beThe. tethI zeTha zeThANIe kahyuM ke, tamAre ghera jAo tamArI mAvajata have amArAthI banI zakaze nahIM. ane sagAMvahAlAM sivAya tamArI sevA anya kaI karI zakaze nahI. aNabanAva hovAthI vajanavarga tenuM nAma sAMbhaLavA mAgatA nathI. A mAM paDela sagAMvahAlAne paNa gALe bhAMDe che. Ama unmAge caDhI javAthI puNya khavAI gayuM. ane behAla dazAmAM maraNa pAme, mATe sAhyabI-samRddhi sattA maLyA pachI keIne tiraskAra kare nahI. sanmArge gamana karI namratAne dhAraNa kare. 144 ahiMsA-satya-acaurya-brahmacarya ane parigraha mamatAne tyAga vigere vatanuM ArAdhanA karavA pUrvaka je pramANikatA dhAraNa kare che teonI For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra AMtara jyAti 361 buddhimAM-manamAM ane vatanamAM malInatAnA nivAsa thatA nathI. gRhasthA paNa zakaya niyamAnuM pAlana kare teA je buddhimana-tanamAM malInatA rahelI che te dUra khase anyathA te zrImaMtA ke sattAdhArI hAya ane manavAMchita sAhyakhI bhAgavatA hAya tA paNa malInatAne AvavAne avakAza maLe che. keTalAka vrata niyamAdi vinAnA dhanADhaya ke sattAdhArI peAtAnA svAtha sAdhavA anya prANIone ghAta karavA pAchA paDatA nathI. teone nAza karI peAtAnA bhaDAratijorIne bharI de che tathA keTalAka sva samIpe sapatti prApta karavA khAtara prayAsa karI rahela DAya che temAM vaLI adhikArI hAya te bIjAAne damadATI ApIne meLavelI saMpatti ke sattA, tevA adhikArI-dhanADhayamAM rahelI buddhi mana tanane malIna karI haiyAne kIDAnI mAphaka darAja karI khAya che eTale teone eka ghaDI paNu cena paDatuM nathI. tethI temanuM jIvana A-raudra dhyAnanA cALe tadna halakI kATInuM bane che. ane te nimitte bAMdhelA karmAM A bhavamAM vipAka dekhADe che. kadAca sUrya pazcimamAM udaya pAme pRthvI rasAtala jAya dariyA maryAdA mUke te paNa anyAya-azva`thI bAMdhelA cIkaNA krarmAM vila thatAM nathI. avazya bhogavavA paDe che. kAi kaheze ke tapa japa vigere dhArmika kriyA karavAthI te kramanA vipAka la rukhADI zakAtA nathI. A kathana tenu kharAbara che. paNa adhama -anItithI buddhimAM mInatAne 44 prApta karela sa patti sattAe For Private And Personal Use Only

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362 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita avakAza Apela hovAthI tapa japAdika dhArmika kriyAo karavAnI bhAvanA jAgatI nathI ane valepAtamAM aMdagI pUrI thAya che duryodhane pAMDenI pAsethI jugAramAM kapaTa, kalA karIne rAjya-trAddhi-sattA chInavI lIdhI. ane rAjya gAdI meLavavA pUrvaka sAhAbI vaibhava bhegave che chatAM tene kaI prakAranI sukha zAMti maLI nahI. tathA pAMDane mArI nAMkhavA vividha upAye karyA paNa chevaTe duHkha pIDA pUrvaka maraNa pAmavuM paDayuM. sAthe vAlanI vIMTI paNa gaI nahI." dhanADhaya saMpattimAne keIne mArI nAMkhavA prAyaH upAya karatA nathI. paNa kAvA dAvA kapaTa karIne anya jananuM paDAvI. levAmAM pAvaradhA hoya che. teone saMpatti hovA chatAM paNa saMteSa Avato nathI. te pachI sukhathI jIvana paNa kyAMthI gujAra zake ? eka kapaTI dhanADhayanI mAphaka keI eka viprane pitAnA gAmamAM bhIkha mAgatAM paNa peTa bharAtuM nathI. tethI bahAra eka zaheramAM gaye. tyAM pitAnI vidvattAnA cage pAMcaso sonAmahoronI kamANI karI tathA motI maNuM vigere prApta karI pitAnA vatanamAM AvavAno vicAra thaye-mArgamAM lUMTArAothI rakSaNa karavA mATe eka polA vAMsanI lAkaDI laI temAM senAmahera matI-maNuM bharIne vatana tarapha prayANa karyuM. mArgamAM thAka lAgavAthI madhyamAM Avela gAmamAM eka zrImaMtanI dukAne visAme lIdhe. lIdhela bhAta khAI jalapAna karIne cAlavA mAMDyuM. paNa milakatanI lAkaDI utAvaLamAM bhUlI gaye. pitAnA gAmamAM AvyA pachI te lAkaDI sAMbhaLIne levA mATe te gAmanA zeThanI pAse jaIne kahevA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti lAgyuM ke atrethI visAme laIne gaye paNa lAkaDI bhUlI gaela chuM Ape te lAkaDI lIdhI haze zeThe kahyuM ke "hA" A tamArI lAkaDI che ne ? le tyAre vipra laIne "barAbara tapAsa karyA sivAya pAchA pitAnA gAmamAM AvyuM AvIne tapAsa kare che tyAre khAlI dekhI. zeThe vAMsanI lAkaDImAMthI tenI senAnahero laI lIdhela hovAthI kayAMthI hoya? vipra, ghaNI cintA karate ane valepAta karate zeThanI pAse AvIne kahevA lAgyuM ke zeTha! lAkaDI te ApI. paNa temAM rahela sonAmahe metI maNio laI lIdhA che, meM sArA naga. ramAM pharIne vidvatAnA cuMge je milakata prApta karI hatI te tame milakata chInavI lIdhI che. ane lAkaDI phakta ApI te tamArA jevA zrImaMtane zobhe nahI. mATe lIdhelI sonAmahora pAchI Ape A mujaba kahyuM eTale lobhI zeThe tene dhUtakArI kADha. ane kahyuM ke tane visAmo karavA besavA dIdho tene badale le che tArI sonAmahero ane metI maNu kevAM te meM dIThA nathI. nAhakane gaLe paDe che cAlyo jA, nahitara badanakSIne keza mAMDIza. pAse rahelI eka bAIe paNa TAbarI pUrI-ane kahevA lAgI ke AvA moTA zrImaMta tArI milakata kadApi chInavI le nahI, emanI pAse kayAM kamInA che ke tArA garIba brAhmaNanI milakata hajama kare. brAhmaNa kAlAvAlA karavA lAge ane rUdana karate kahevA lAge ke tamArI pAse saMpatti aDhaLaka che. paNa mAre te te milakata vaDe jIdagAnI gujAravAnI che dayA lAvI pAchI Apa lIdhA vinA pAche nahIM jAuM, krodhAtura banI zeThe tene dhakako mAryo.-durbala viprane For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita mama sthAne vAgavAthI tyAM ja maraNa pAmya zubha vicAraAcAravALA munIme zeThane ghaNuM samajaNa te prathama Apela paNa mAnyuM nahIM ane bIje sthale kADhI mUko. polIsapaTela ane bIjA mANase tenI zehamAM taNAyA hevAthI kAMI elI zakayA nahI. paNa karma je bAMdhyuM che mukta kare kayAMthI? maraNa pAmela te brAhmaNa zeThane ghera putra tarIke utpanna thaye zeiThane AnaMdane pAra rahyo nahI. janma mahesUva karavAmAM ghaNe paisA kharae. bhaNAvya. yuvasthA pAmyuM tyAre sArI rIte dhAmadhUma karavA pUrvaka dhana vAparI hAthe lIdhuM. A dIkarIne paraNAvyA pachI kSaya lAgu paDa bagIcAmAM pharatAM sApa karaDe tyAM tenA prANe cAlyA gayA. zeTha zeThANane duHkhane pAra na rahyo. ghaNe vilApa ane vepAta karavA lAgyA ke putranA janma velAye bhaNAvavAmAM ane paraNAvAvAmAM je dhana vAparyuM te vRthA gayuM. ane uparathI paraNelInI lotha mukate gayeA. munIme AvI zAMta karavA kezIza karI ane kahyuM ke tame pelA brAhmaNanI milakata bacAvI pADI ane dhakako mAravAthI maraNa pAmyu teja vipra tamAre putra ya. je laheNuM hatuM te ladhu. tenI milkata barAbara tamee hA levA khAtara khacI che leNuM pUrNa thayuM ne te cAlyo gayo. maraNa pAme ane uparathI vahunI saMbhALa karavAnI mUkI gaye. kIdhelA karmabhegavyA vinA khasatA nathI. mATe have saMteSa rAkhI dharmadhyAnamAM jIvana gALe. tRSNAthI dhanane vadhArI zuM karaze. maraNa pAmyA pachI saghaLuM ahIM ja paDayuM raheze ane citAe karAvaze. tenA vege sadgati maLaze nahI. zeThane For Private And Personal Use Only

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aAMtara ceta ghaNe pastAvo thayo ke te vipranuM dhana pAmyuM nahI. ulaTu punaputra thaIne adhika khaca karAvI gaye. A mujaba anIti-adharmathI meLavela dhana keIne paNa cena paDavA detuM nathI. A bhavamAM kadAcit puNyodaye tene vipAka mAluma paDe nahI. chatAM paralekamAM tenI bhayaMkaratA khasatI nathI. cAluM jIvanamAM paNa buddhimAM malInatA lAvI mana-tanane ubhAge ghasaDI laI jAya che. nItinyAyathI prApta karela dhanAdikathI je sAmAnya sthitimAM haze. sAdu jIvana gujArazo. te paNa AnaMda pUrvaka aMdamAnI pasAra thaze kameM cIkaNuM baMdhAze nahIM. ane paralekamAM paNa zubha saMskAranA ge anukuLatA AvI maLaze mATe adharma anyAya kapaTa vigere karIne saMpattine meLavavAne vicAra paNa karo nahI. 145 yuvAvasthAmAM samajaNa sahita sahanatA keLavI hoya che temaja vipatti velA hiMmata-dhIraja rahe che. AkuLa vyAkuLa banAtuM nathI. temAM sADhAbI vabhava hite sahiSNuttA keLavAya te dhArmika kriyA karatA kaSTa bhAse nahI. hiMmata te paNa Atmika guNe pikI eka sadUguNa che, jyAM sudhI siddhipadane pAmyA nathI arthA-ghAtI karma ke aghAtikama nAza pAmyA nathI tyAM sudhI kaI kaI prakAre vipatti AvI lAge che. te veLA je hiMmata heya nahI. te vyAkuLatA hAjara thAya che, tIrthakara sivAya sAmAnya kevaLa jJAnI bhagavatee siddhipada pAsa karyuM che, tekaSTane vipattine sahana karavA pUrvaka hiMmatane dhAraNa karyA sivAya prApta karelA nathI dhIraja Atmika vikAsamAM eka sAcA mitranI garaja For Private And Personal Use Only

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A kItisAgarasUri racita sAre che, mATe samajaNA thayA pachI sahana karatAM zIkhe ane hiMmatane dhAraNa kare keTalAka samajaNa sivAya ane hiMmata vinAnA evA hoya che ke, vipatti vakhate hAya hAya karavA maMDI paDe che. ane pikA pADatA ema mAnI bese che ke, AvI paDelI Aphata have kadApi khasavAnI nathI. have mArU zuM thaze? Ama dhAraNuM rAkhI taddana nirAza banI mANasAI gumAvI bese che. paraMtu samajatA nathI ke saMpatti khasI gaI che. te mujaba vipatti paNa kAyama rahevAnI nathI. Ama samajI hiMmata dhAraNa kare to Atmika bala skurAyamAna thAya ane Aphatane khasatAM vilaMba thAya nahIM. evA samayamAM vrataniyama-japatapAdika adhika pramANamAM karavAmAM Ave te azudaya nAza thAya. caMdana nRpe tathA malayAgIrI rANIe tathA sAyara nIyara putrAe rAjya gayuM chatAM dhIraja dhAraNa karI kaSTa sahana karyA, azudaya TaLatAM tapa-japa prAcarya vigerenA vege zubhedaya thatAM punaH rAjya Rddhine prApta karI. mATe vipattivelAye haiye dhAraNa karI dharmakriyAmAM ArUDha bane. 146 "AtmAmAM anaMta guNe ane anaMta zakita rahelI che. te rAga-dveSa ane mehe dabAvelI hovAthI prApta thavI duzakya che e te jyAre jJAna purvaka AvelAM saMkaTa tathA AvI paDelI viDaMbanAomAM sahana karI hiMmatane rAkho tyAre te aprApya guNe ane zakitane AvirbhAva thato raheze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti vipatti-saMkaTa ane viDaMbanA tathA vyAdhine TALa vAnI sAcI davA sahanatA zakhavI te che. ane dhaya dhAraNa karyA vinA te meLavavI azakya che, saMpatti-sAhyabI vaibhava malyA pachI vipatti vigere Avaze ja nahI Ama na dhAratA. te kayAre AvI lAgaze te jJAnI vinA keI kahI zake ema nathI. dhIraja dhAravA pUrvaka sahanatA rAkhavI tamArA hAthanI vAta che temaja vipatti-viDaMbanAone haThAvavI te paNa tamArA hAthanI bInA che. keI eka gAmamAM kelerA cAlate rahevAthI eka zeThanA gharamAM putra patnI marI gayA. zeTha paNa A ge sapaDAI gayA. paraMtu zeTha rItasara samajaNavALA hAvAthI valepAta cintA karatA nathI ane vaidya vigerenI davA paNa letA nathI paraMtu phakta ukALeluM pANInuM pAna karI japatapAdikane kSaNabhara paNa muktA nathI, kaSTa sahana karI rahelA che. tethI hiMmatanA ge temane bacAva thaye eTale zeThane zraddhA beThI ke japa tapAdike paNa vyAdhi-re maTe che, davAo paNa japa tapAdikanA AdhAre vyAdhio dUra karavA samartha bane che, keTalAkanuM mantavya evuM hoya che ke phakta davA-auSadha ja gene dura kare che, tapa japAdikanI jarUra nathI IcchA mujaba khAva ane IcchA mujaba apeya paNa pANInuM pAna kare. A emanI mAnyatA bhUla bharelI che, vyAdhio tathA asAdhya rogo je utpanna thAya che te tapa japAdikane bhUlI jema jema IcchA pramANe khAvA pIvAthI prAyaH lAgu paDe che. lehI dabANa-lakavA-kSaya-dama vigere cIkaNuM roge paNa japa tapAdithI maTe che. mATe tevA prasaMge For Private And Personal Use Only

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68 A. kIrtisAgarasari rAcata hiMmata hAra javI nahIM. ane sahana karI arihaMtAhika jAmamAM ArUDha thavuM te zreyaskara mArga che. 147udAratA nilepatA-kSamA-saralatA vigere saddaguNenA AdhAre mAnavo pUrNatAne pAmavA lAyakatA meLave che paraMtu kadAgraha ane asaMtoSa-AsakatapaNue pUrNapaNane pAmI zakatA nathI. ane pUrNapaNune pAmyA sivAya janma jarA maraNanA saMkaTane khasaze nahi. kadAgrahathI mAyA mamatA-viSaya kaSAyAdinA vikAre AvIne vaLage che mATe udAratAdika guNene meLavavAnI AvazyakatA rahelI che. tamArI pAse je balabuddhi saMpatti rahelI che tene udAratA rAkhI svaparanA kalyANArthe vApare jethI mikSa mAge sugamatAye saralatAe gamana karI zakAze anyathA te e prasaMga AvI lAgaze ke sarva saMpatti gumAvavAno vakhata Ave. muMbaImAM hukalaDa thayuM. makAna-bane bALavA mAMDI. manuSyone paNa mAra mArI tenI milkate lUMTavA lAgyA, sarakAre rakSaNanI vyavasthA sArI karI. mIlTarI pilIso sthale sthale UbhA rahyA. paNa mAnave bhayabhIta banI svavatanamAM javA mATe nIkaLyA. polIsenA rakSaNa nIce relvemAM besI pitAnA vatanamAM gayA. paraMtu eka mAravADI pAse milakata hatI. te paNa nIkaLe haThIlo ane lebhI havAthI eke ya polIsa teNe tenI pAse rAkhe nahI, strIe kahyuM ke polIsanA rakSaNa sivAya ahIMthI nIkaLavuM jokhama bhareluM che. mATe eka be pelIsane pAse rAkhI sTezane javAmAM sahi salAmatI che. mAravADIe kahyuM ke, For Private And Personal Use Only

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zani ti jIMDAe zuM karavAnA che? huM teone pahoMcI vaLavAnI zakti dharAvuM chuM. polIsane paisA ApavA paDe te mane pAlave nahIM. sIe kahyuM ke bIjA mATe udAratA bhale rAkhe nahI. paNa tamArA-amArA ne parivAra mATe te rAkhe. kAraNa ke guMDAonI pAse charA vigere zA hoya che tamArI pAse zasAdika che nahI. mATe luMTAI javAne saMbhava rahe che paNa A lebhI ane haThIle mAravADI zene mAne ? cAlene, kAMI paNa thavAnuM nathI. strI vigere sAthe laine AgaLa jAya che tevAmAM ja eka guMDe Avyo. ane kahevA lAgyuM ke tamArI pAse dAgInA-rUpiyA hoya te mUkI de. mAnatuM nathI tyAre khaMjara sAme dharyuM. e nahI mUke te peTamAM lagAvI dauM chuM. putra patnI vigere kaMpavA lAgyA. mAravADIne dhrujArI chUTI. hAzakAza uDI gayA. pAMcaso rUpiyA je chupAvyA hatA te AkhA guDa laIne palAyana thaI gaye. vaLI AgaLa jatAM bIje guDa sAme Avyo. teNe paNa dhamakI ApI ne tapAsa karI te pAMcasonI neTe maLI. te paNa laIne nAThe. A pramANe pitAnI pAse hajAra rUpiyA hatA te gumAvI beTho ane raDavA lAge ane Izvarane Thapake ApavA lAgya, sIe kahyuM ke Izvarane Thapako Ape che, tenA karatA tamArI haThIlAIne tathA lebhIpaNAne Thapake Apo. prabhu te kRpALu che paNa temanI AjJAne mAnI nahI tyAre raDavAne prasaMga AvI lAge. pilIsane InAma tarIke daza rUpiyA ApavA paData temAM tame muMcha banyA te hajAra gayA. have vatanamAM gayA pachI kevI rIte AjIvikA calAvI zakAze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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mATe ane ja gaI che meM merI 1 vakhata A 27* A. kItisAgarasUri rathita ane bhIkhArI jevI hAlata thaze. tamArI tAkAta kayAM gaI? huzIArI-bahAdurInI DaMphAsa te sarva pANImAM gaI. theDI paNa udAratA pitAnA parivAra mATe ane pitAnA mATe rAkhI heta te Avo vakhata Avata nahIM. mAravADI kahevA lAge meM meTI bhUla karI. have sAvadhAnI rAkhIza. mATe udAratA samaya sUcakatA-nirlobhatA vigere guNethI mAnavatA zebhe che ane khIle che. tamArI pAse bharapUra cakravartI jeTalI saMpatti haze te paNa udAratA vigere guNe vinA mAnavatA bhaze nahI ane mekSa mAge vividha vidane AvI hAjara thaze. mATe prathama DahApaNa lAvIne guNeno saMgraha karo. prasiddha thavA ke kIrti pratiSThA mATe tame dhanAdika vAparatA haze. paNa te udAratA nathI. udAratA te Amika guNa che. kIti pratiSThA te jaDatAnA paDachAyA che paDachAye kAyama rahetuM nathI. paDachAyAne guNa mAnavAnI bhUla karatA nahi. ane paDachAyAmAM muMjhAtA nahI. 148 yaza kIrti-pratiSThA-mahaTAi meLavavAnI tamannA sune paNa chetare che eTale teone guNa mAnI te meLavavA khAtara lAkhonI hAni kare che ane prasiddhi prApta kare che. paraMtu jyAre vipatti viDaMbanA AvI lAge che. tyAre hadaya baMdha thatAM vilaMba thatuM nathI. kAraNa ke mehamamatAne tyAga thaela nathI. dhIratA-udAratA sthiratA AvI nathI. tevA prasage kIti vigere kAragata thatI nathI. juone muMbaInA hulaDa prasaMge keTalAka nAmAMkita pratiSThita AbarUdAra mANase For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara pati hadaya baMdha paDavAthI maraNa pAmyA. te paNa hAya hAya karatAM. 149 rAganA AdhAre mAyA ane lAbha utapanna thAya che jeTalA aMge rAga teTalA aMze mAyA-lesa, atyaMta rAga jyAre sAMsArika vastuomAM thAya che tyAre mAnave temAM Asakata banI. pitAnA AtmA ane Atmika guNa tarapha vimukha bane che ane vimukha banatA sAMsArika sparza-rasa-gaMdhazabda ane rUpamAM mugdha banI svazakti-saMpatti-matibuddhi ane vijJAnane gumAvI bese che kAraNa ke viSayamAM mugdha banatAM buddhi baherI thaelI hovAthI ajJAnatA vize ne adhika pala Ave che keTalAkane dhanamAM adhika rAga hoya che tyAre keTalAkane patnI putra parivAramAM vadhAre rAga hoya te te ThIka, paraMtu vRddha buddAone paNa yuvAnI gaelI pAchI lAvavAne labha lAge che rAga jAge che tyAre te hasavA jevuM bane che kAraNa ke vyatIta thaelI yuvAvasthA pAchI AvavI ja azakaya che chatAM keTalAka buDhAo, kAyA kapa-rasAyaNAdikane AdhAra levA maMDI paDe che paNa gaelo yuvAnI punaH kayAMthI AvI maLe? dhanAdika cAlI gaela punaHprApta karI zake te barobara che paNa yuvAnI meLavavA mugdha banavuM che te kharekharI bAlIzatA sUcave che. bAvaLA sTezana para eka vRddha haTala belI, rItasara cAlavA lAgI. musAphare ane majurane AnaMda thaye che rUpIyAnI kamANI paNa vRddha sArI karatA hatA. be traNa hajAra rUpiyA ekaThA karyA paNa vRddhAvasthA hevAthI bIjAone khuzI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasUri racita kare che paNa pite udAsI rahe che mana mAnyuM khavAtuM nathI gavAtuM nathI, rasAyaNAdikanA upacAra karyA te sALA viparIta banyA. lehI ochuM thavAthI garamI zarIre kuTI nakaLI. manamAM ane zarIre dAha thavA lAgyuM. jo ke e kImIyAgara Ave ane evI davA batAve ke yuvAnI pAchI AvI maLe ane vyAdhi cAlI jAya A mujaba vicAra kare che tevAmAM vezadhArI cAra bAvAoe tenI hoTalanI pAse AvI bhajananI mAgaNI karI ke traNa divasanA ame bhUkhyA chIe mATe amane khavarAve Izvara tAruM bhaluM karaze A pramANe kahevAthI teone peTa bharI jamADyA. jamatAM-khAtAM teo vezadhArInI daSTi traNa hajAra rUpiyA bharelI peTI upara paDI ane vicAra karyo ke, keIpaNa upAye peTIne upADI javI. banavA joga evuM banyuM ke te vRddhane dazayAra rUpIyAnI jarUra paDI. tethI ughADIne lIdhA, pachI te luccAe sArI rIte peTa bharIne vRddhane kahevA lAgyA. are buTTAche? tamAre juvAnI pAchI lAvavI hoya te amArI pAse rAma ANa-akasIra davA che. je khAvAthI buDhApaNuM rahetuM nathI. tathA rAga-vyAdhi apa thato nathI. tamArI IcchA hoya, ane viSaya vilAsanI abhilASA hoya te ame tamane phakta pANI sAthe davA ApIye vRddhane IcchA te hatI ja. kahevata che ke rAtI bairIne piyarIyA maLyAM. khuzI thayA ane kahyuM ke evI davA hoya te hAlamAM pIvaze. davAo te ghaNI karI. paisA kharcA paNa saghaLA phegaTa gayA. pelA dhutArAoe kahyuM ke cintA kare nahI. amArI pAse evI jaDIbuTTInI davA For Private And Personal Use Only

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ha zAtira ti che eka divasamAM ja juvAnI Avaze tyAre te tame atyAre ja davA kare bIlADAnA hAthamAM dudha Ave ane khuzI thAya tenI mAphaka AnaMdamAM AvI pAlAmAM pANI bharI temAM davA nAMkhI jyAre te hoTalamAM keIpaNa hatuM nahI. tyAre te pAlAmAM phuka mArI tene te pANI pIvarAvyuM. pyAlAnuM pANuM pItAMja vRddha bezuddha bane. tammara khAI nIce paTakAye pelA vezadhArI 5 peTI upADI cAlyA gayA. ane vezane paTa karIne gAmaDAomAM bhamavA lAgyA. heTalavALe vRddha bIje divase zuddhimAM AvyuM. peTI dekhI nahI tyAre teNe pilIzane belAvI tapAsa karavA mATe kahyuM. polIzae paNa atyaMta prayAsa karyo. paNa tene patto lAgyo nahI. juvAnInI mAphaka peTI gai te gaI pAchI maLI zakI nahI. ulTA adhika duHkhI thA. karelI kamANuM dhULamAM gaI. A sujaba keTalAka, viSayamAM vikAsa karavA khAtara vividha davAo lIdhA kare che paNa vRddhAvasthAmAM mAphaka AvatI nathI tyAre adhika duHkhI bane che AvI avasthAmAM dhama dhyAnanI davA levAnuM sujhatuM nathI ane aneka davA khAIrigenuM ghara bane che mATe saMteSane dhAraNa karI vRddhAvasthA egya dharmadhyAnamAM rahevuM te kalyANa kara che. tathA eka bAI zyAma hovAthI zvetA banavA khAtara mukhe pAvaDara lagAvatI ane rUpALA-AkarSaka banavA mATe divasamAM be traNavAra vastrAbhUSaNa dhAraNa karIne rAjamArgo pharavA jatI tene pati ghaNe kaMTALIne kahe ke Ama pAvaDara lagAvAthI ke navIna navIna vastrAbhUSaNa paheravAthI rUpALA-ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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274 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita AkarSaka nahI banAya, nAhaka paisAno vyaya karI hAMsIpAtra bane che keI vakhate vipattimAM AvI paDIza. paNa mugdha banela zAnI mAne ? eka vakhata piyarathI kametrI AvI ke bhAInuM lagna che te avasare tamAre AvavuM. tene pati te gaye nahI paNa pite bAI pAvaDara lagAvI. kiMmatI vastrAbhUSaNa paherI pIyaramAM javA mATe ekalI nIkaLI mArgamAM ghu maLyA. teNInA bahu vakhANa karyA. ane lAga maLe tUTI lIdhI. raDatI pAchI AvI. patie kahyuM ke tene AkarSaka banavAne ghaNe zekha hatuM te pUrI thaye have samaja ke. ghaNe ThaThAra karavAmAM ThagAvAnuM che. je sthati maLI che te bhAgyAnusAre sArI maLI che. Ama vicAra karIne saMteSI banavuM. 150 vIratva e prakAre che saMsAramAM vIratva batAvanAra vIro jaya meLave te rAjyane agara nirbala manuSya upara, paNa je kharekhara vijaya meLavavAne heya che te rahI jAya che. mada-mAna-mAnAdika upara vijaya meLavyuM nathI tyAM sudhI satya vIratva kahevAya nahIM. mATe bIjo prakAra che antaranA zatruo upara vijaya prApta kare temAM ja tamArU vIratva satya che. phakta saMsAra uparanA jayathI te mada-mAnamAM vadhAre thaze, sujJo te antaranA zatruone parAjaya karavAmAM vIratva mAne che. eTale ja teone parAjaya karavA kaTTIbaddha bane che. temane rAjya ke prANIone jItavAnI tamannA hatI nathI. eTale sarva zakti-buddhibala ekatra karI ke jo For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti nahI tevI rIte saMgrAma karI anukrame vijayamAlA dhAraNa karI vIratvane dIpAve che. mATe sarva zakti ane buddhithI mada-mAna-meha vigere jatI vIra bane. ane tenA cege janma-jarA-maraNa-Adhi-vyAdhi ane viDaMbanAe parAsta thaze. jema tame dunyavI zatruone pratikula vagarane parAstA karavA vicAra kare che ke, "huM tana-vArtha sAdhami" te vicAra viSaya kaSAyane jItavA mATe rAkhe dunyavI parAdhInatAne phagAvI devA tame kahe che ke baMdukanI goLIo vAge agara talavAranA charAnA khaMjaranA ghA vAge paNa ame pAchA haThIzuM nahIM. te pramANe krodhAdikanI parAdhInatAne TALavA mATe amane game tevA ghA vAge lAThIonA mAra paDe te paNa pAchA haThazuM nahi. A pramANe garjanA karI saMgrAma khelaze te jarUra tamane vijaya prApta thavAne. ane tyAra bAda sAcI svAdhInatA hAjara thavAnI. vijaya meLavavA ne A sAro upAya che nahItara tame dunyavI vijaya meLavaze paNa tamAre parAjaya karanAra saMsAra vidyamAna hoya che. ane parAjaya pAmatAM bala-buddhi-saMpattinI barabAdI thavAnI. eka musAphara jaMgalamAMthI pasAra thaI rahela che tevAmAM guphAmAMthI nIkaLela siMha tene dekhI garjanA karatA mAravA mATe spe. manamAM malakAte siMha tenA upara je paje mAre che tevAmAM zIkArInI rAyaphalanI goLI tenA mastakamAM vAgI. taraphaDate siMha bhUmi upara paDI maraNa pAme. pele musAphara prabhune pADa mAnate AgaLa vadhyuM. A pramANe jagatamAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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37 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita zerane mAthe savA zera hAya che. paraMtu Atarika zatruone parAsta karavAmAM kAI prakAranA bhaya rahetA nathI. A mujaba kayAre ane ke, ma-mAna-madana vigere jItavA mATe tatpara aneA tyAre ja. 151 jagatamAM DahApaNavALA ALasu pramAdIne kahe che. ke balabuddhi hAvA chatAM paNa pramAdI banIne zaktine gumAvA nahI. uThe, udyama karI, pagaluM AgaLa AgaLa mUke. ALasu banIne kaTakathI bharelA viThThothI bharapura mAne dekhIne mujhavaNamAM paDA nahI. pramAdI banIne paDI rahyA karatAM kAMTAthI ke vidhrothI bharelA mAge javu kalyANakara che. utsAha dhAraNa karIne eka pagalu mUkatAM te kAMTA vighne khasI javAnA jyAM sudhI tamArAmAM rahela parAkrama pheAravyuM nathI tyAM sudhI teonI bhIti rahevAnI. pagalu bharatAM ja te khasI javAnA. tamArA utsAha parAkrama AgaLa teonuM jora cAlaze nahI. mATe taiyAra thAo tamArI bhUmikA tamArU sAmrAjya ane saMpatti samRddhi tamArA hAthamAM che. A mujaba zravaNuM karI ALasu pramAdI taiyAra thAya che. ane parAkrama phAravI dunyavI sAMsArika sattA-saMpatti prApta kare che. paNa Atmika sattA-samRddhi jyAM sudhI hastagata karI nathI tyAM sudhI sAcI sattA-sa'patti vigere hAjara thatI nathI. dunyavI saMpatti vigere meLavyA pachI AtmajJAna hAya nahI te mahu-mAna-madanAdikane AvavA mArga jaDe che. satya pAtratA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ni G7 AvatI nathI. kahevata che, "ochu pAtrane adhikuM bha. ane vaDhakaNI vahue dIkarA jaye" A kahevata lAgu paDavAnI ja. eka vAgharIe lagna karyuM. vAgharaNa gharamAM AvI paNa bahu cabAvalI. ane kajIALI hatI. vAgharI pastA karavA lAgyA have zuM thAya ? kADhI mUke te pAlave ema nahetuM. tethI te saghaLuM sahana karI lete eTalAmAM be varSa gayA pachI vAgharaNane agharaNuM AvI. pachI te baDAI hAMkavAmAM ane kajIe karavAmAM bAkI rAkhatI nahatI. vAgharIne kahyuM ke mArI A agharaNI prasaMge zerInA saghaLAM bhAI enene belA gIta gAyuM garabIone gavarAvI mAre khoLe bharAve. vAgharIe kahyuM ke tuM karuArI hovAthI keI Avaze nahI. A sAMbhaLI teNe kudIne kahyuM. kema nahI Avaze tame ALasu edI che jAo jaladI. ane AmaM. traNa Ape. kaMkAsanA bhayathI vAgharIe sagAMvahAlAMone tathA lAgatA-vaLagatAone AmaMtraNa ApyuM. vAgharInI zaramathI saghaLA AvyA. temAM eka vAMjhaNuM hajAmaDI paNa AvelI che. te dekhIne vAgharaNa jussAmAM AvI kahevA lAgI, tArA AvavAthI apamaMgaLa thayuM. ane jema tema belavA lAgI. AvanAra bAIe kahyuM ke, ATaluM badhuM zuM bolyA kare che, jyAre tuM jaNeza tyAre vAgharIne ja jaNaza. zrImaMta putrane jANaza nahI. tArA karatAM ame vAMjhIyA sArA. A sAMbhaLI madamAM AvI, AvelI bAI sAthe jhaghaDe karyo. hajAmanI vahue kahyuM ke tuM ja kaMkAza kalaha karIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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0i08 AkIrtisAgarasUri racita apamaMgala che teno vicAra kara. kajIArane zikhAmaNa sadatI nathI. pasaMda paDatI nathI. teNIe te adhika jhaghaDe karyo. AvanAra sagAM-vahAlAMne paNa kaMTALe hevAthI gANuM gItane tyAga karI pitAne ghera gayAM. ane kahevA lAgyA ke A kaMkAsaNu ane madhamAna bharelInA ghera kayAM gayA? A pramANe vAgharaNane hajI putra ja nathI tenI pahelAM vAMjhaNa bAInuM apamaMgala bhAsyuM tu kayAM AvI ema kahIne madathI kaMkAsa karavA lAgI, teija pitAnuM apamaMgala karI rahela che tenuM abhimAnanA ghenamAM bhAna rahyuM nahI te pachI pAse sattA sAhAbI hoya, tene mada abhimAnAdi. thAya emAM zI navAI? mATe zAsakAro kahe che ke dunyavI sattA-saMpattine prApta karatAM AtmajJAnane bhUle nahI. sAhAbI-sattAnA madamAM Asakta banela keTalAka bhUMDA-kharAba kAma karatA jAya ne pitAne nirdoSa mAnatA bIjAone doSa devA tatpara bane che. are deva gurU dharmanA upara doSane detAM paNa acakAtA nathI. AvA mAnavAne pRdaye raddhi-samRddhi maLe te paNa Atmatattava oLakha vAmAM kamanasIba rahe che jyAre ociMtI viDaMbanA vipatti. AvI paDe tyAre judA judA bAnA batAvI pite nirdoSa chuM Ama daMbha karIne raDavA besI jAya che. ane pokAre pADe che paNa kama koIne choDatuM nathI. eka mANasa ghaNe pApI ane bAvAle hate tene kaI zIkhAmaNa Ape te kahe ke, huM bahu sAre chuM pApa karavAmAM pAchuM paDuM chuM. paNa kaliyuga mArI pAse lAgelo. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti che, teja pApa karAve che. hiMsA-asatya-cArI jArI karAvIne khasI jAya che ane mANase taraphane Thapake apAve che. ane sattAdhArI-adhikArI taraphathI mAra marAve che kedamAM naMkhAve che emAM mAre upAya nathI. are sArA kAmo karatAM vividha vidane upasthita karI aTakAve che. A mujaba sAMbhaLI sAkSAt kaliyuge pragaTa thaIne kahyuM ke are cabAvalA? tuM mhane phegaTa doSa de che ane badanAma kare che tane je ema lAgatuM hoya te A saghaLuM pA5 kaliyuga karAve che te huM . khasI jauM chuM tuM sukhethI sArA dhArmika kAryo kara ane svaparane upakArI bana. Ama kahIne kaliyuga araya banya A pachI paNa teNe pApAcaraNane tyAga karyo nahI. duSTAcaraNamAM rAcI mAcI rahevA lAge vaLI tene sagAMvahAlAM kaTuka vacano dvArA Thapako Ape che ke AvA AcaraNathI tuM ane ame duHkhI thaIe chIe kAMIka te samaja. emAM tane zo lAbha dekhAya che. tyAre kahevA lAgyuM ke, A badhuM zayatAna-moha karAve che. sArA kAma karavAnI abhilASA te ghaNI che. paNa moha vaLagyA hovAthI koIpaNa sArU kAma thaI zakatuM nathI. nAIlAja chuM. saddagurUe upadeza ApI mohane dUra karavAnuM kahyuM. teNe paNa mAnyuM. be divasa pachI ena e adhikArIe beDIo paherAvI kedakhAnAmAM nAMkhyo tyAM zikSA bhegavI bahAra AvyA te paNa sAna-samajaNa AvI nahI. ane cAra jarI-laMTaphATa karavA lAgyo mAra khAya che. paNa mAla pacatuM nathI. beAbarU thaIne pAchuM ApavuM paDe che tyAre lAgatA vaLagatAM kahe che ke alyA ? ATale mAra For Private And Personal Use Only

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Ma A. kIti agarasUri racita "khAya che kedamAM jAya che chatAM A chaMda mUkatA nathI. tyAre rahe che ke A saLu paramezvara karAve che emAM mArA keI doSa nathI. prabhu paramezvarane game te sAcu, paramezvaranI icchA tethI AvAM bhUMDAM-kharAba kAmeA karAve che temAM sArU jora cAlatu nathI. temanI AgaLa huM kANu ? tathA chevaTe nasIbane vAMka batAvatA maraNa mAmI dutimAM gayA paNu sudharyAM nahI. A pramANe mANase khelavAnI khAvaData hoya tyAre aneka mAnA batAvI DhAmAMthI chaTakavAnI kozIza kare che paNa pApAthI pAchu huDavAthI kAzIza karatA nathI. pazu paNa eka evAra mAra khAya tyAre samaje che mANasa jevA mAsa thaIne samaje nahI teA zu kahevu? tamArI pAse sAMsArika sukha bhAgavavAnI anukulatA haze elavAnI tAkAta--khIjAone ADAavaLA samajAvI peAtAnA paTArA bharavAnI abhilASA haeNze ane Arbha samAra bheA karI abajapati thavAnA vicAre haze paNa yAda rAkhajo ke kharAkha anAcAreA karavAthI chevaTe tame pApeAthI chaTakI jaze nahI. paisA-parivAra atre paDatA raheze ane duHkhanA viDaMbanAeAnA bhAmtA tamAre peAtAne thavu paDaze mATe kAi upadeza Ape ke sagAvahAlAM ThapakA Ape tyAre khAnA batAvI ame nirdoSa chIe. evA dasa karaze nahI. pazu sudharavA mATe prayAsa karavA te hitakara che mATe sadgurU pAse jaine vinaya pUrvaka kahe ke amArA kalyANunA mA darzAveA. ane darzAvyA mujaba anAcArathI pAchA haidha te paNa jIvana paryaMta etraNa va nahI. te ja vipattione viDaMbanAeAne saTAne AvavAne For Private And Personal Use Only

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patnI halaka kara che ane ho rAkhatA mAtara jAti avakAza maLaze nahI. sattA-saMpatti vigerenI mAyA upadeza vinA ane parAkrama pheravyA kadApi khasatI nathI. ane khasaze paNa nahI. ane temAM rAcI mAcI rahevAthI svane paNa sukha nathI. mATe nAnA-daMbhane tyAga karavA pUrvaka karela doSano ekarAra karIne sanmArge vaLo- rAjya sattA-saMpatti prApta thayA pachI keTalAka kara rAjAo, aparAdha thatAM zaMkAtura banI patnI putrAdikane mArI nAMkhavA taiyAra thAya che ane keI anuyAyI varga upara vizvAsa rAkhatA nathI. badhAe aparAdha, doSe karanAra hotA nathI. ekanA dethI bIjAonuM AvI bane che. badhAne sarakhA mAnI teone paNa mArI nAMkhavA jeTalI karatA kare che. sattAnA paeNnamAM teone bhAna rahetuM nathI ke eka badAma kaDavI nIkaLI tethI saghaLI badAma kaDavI heya nahI ane koI paNa sAdhAraNa manuSya bahAne phagAvI detA nathI. AvI kyA vinAnA pAne sanmArge vALavA te azakaya che, paraMtu tevAone sanmArge vALanAra keI zuravIra virala maLI Ave che. eka bAdazAha rAjAnI begama ghaNI rUpavAna hatI. te rAjAne bahu vahAlI hatI. rAjA je joIe te hAjara karate paNa A begama bevaphA nIvaDI. bIjAne lAgu paDI. ghaNA divase bAdazAhane khabara paDI. ekadama krodhAtura banI rAjAe teNInuM mastaka juduM karI nAMkhyuM. kAMI paNa vicAra sara karyo nahI. paNa bAdazAhane begama vinA cAlatuM nathI. tethI bIjI kanyAne paraNe tene eka divasa rAkhI For Private And Personal Use Only

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gara kIti sAgarasUri sUcita bIje divasa mArI nakhAve che manamAM evA vahema bhAI meThI che ke saghaLI strIo kharAma duSTAcAravALI hoya che Ama dhAraNA rAkhI jenI sAthe sAdI kare che. teNInA khIje divase nAza karAve che. tethI saghaLo prajAmAM hAhAkAra vatI rahyo. khAdazAha mAgaNI kare ane jo peAtAnI kanyA para NAve nahI te tenuM paNa AvI mane. mAgaNI nAma jIra thAya nahI. dararAja eka putrIne ApavI paDatI. paNa kAinAthI sAmaneA thAya nahI ane samajAvI zakAya nahI. AvI AdazAhanI katala dekhI vajIranI eka putrI kaMpI uThI. bhale mArUM mRtyu thAya paNa sa chekarIone maraNumAMthI bacAvu, Ama vicArI svapitA vajIrane kahevA lAgI ke pitAjI mAdazAha sAthe mane paraNAve. vajIre kahyuM beTA ? tane mAluma nathI ke te eka divasa paraNIne bIje divase tene mArI nakhAve che. hAthe karIne maravAnuM zA mATe mAge che? te mAdazAha ghaNA krura che. mATe tenI sAthe sAdI karavAnu mAMDI vALa. putrIe kahyuM ke bhale mArUM maraNa thAya pazu saghaLI kanyAonuM rakSaNu karavAnI mArAmAM tAkAta che. buddhibale bAdazAhane vaza karI teNInuM rakSaNa karI zakIza. ane huM paNu maraNu pAmIza nahI. mATe khAdazAha sAtheja paraNAve. bIjA sAthe sAdI karavI nathI. putrIne kadAgraha jANI vajIre AdazAhane peAtAnI putrI sAthe sAdI karavAnu kahyuM rAjAe kahyu are vajIra ! tArI putrIne jANI joIne zA mATe mArI nAkhe che tu' jANe che teA kharA .khIje divase parNIne egamane mArI nakhAvu chu.... vajIre kahyuM, mArI putrIe tamArI A. For Private And Personal Use Only

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38 tira ti sAthe sAdI karavAnI haTha lIdhI che bhale maraNa pAme. samajAvI samajatI nathI. tamane deASa daIza nahI. bAdazAhe "hA pADI sAdI dhAmadhumathI karI vajIranI putrI have te begama banI. suMdara mahelamAM beThI che. bAdazAha AvIne kahevA lAgyA. tArU rUpa dekhIne vahAla Ave che paNa tane kAle mArI nAkhavAmAM Avaze. begame kahyuM ke maraNamAM hane kaI prakAranI bhIti nathI. maraNa te ekavAra A jIvanamAM jarUra AvavAnuM. je jagyuM te jarUra maraNa pAmavAnuM ja. e kudaratane niyama che. bAdazAhane acaMbe thaye A begama te vaLI maraNa mATe bhaya pAmatI nathI, ane tenA rUpanuM ananya AkarSaNa che. belavAmAM cAlAka dekhAya che. begame kahyuM ke eka bevaphA banI tethI badhI egame evuM duSTAcaraNa kare nahI. ekane badale badhI begamene mArI nakhAvI temAM zobhA zI ? mATe kAMIka vicAra ane viveka lAve. bAdazAha thayA pachI keI puchanAra nathI. ema mAnaze nahI. khudAne barAbara khabara leze. bAdazAhe kahyuM ke tArI cAlAkI dekhI. bacavA mATe AvI DAhI DAhI vAta kare che paNa tane AvatI kAleja mArI nAMkhavAmAM Avaze. keIne vizvAsa have huM rAkhatA nathI. Ama vAta karatAM vahANuM vAyuM. bAdazAha teNIne mArI naMkhAvavA taiyAra thaye. tyAre begame kahyuM ke tauyAra chuM paNa eka vAta kahuM te sAMbhaLo, kahe zI vAta che? sarva rAjAonA rAjyamAM e niyama che ane ApanA rAjyamAM paNa niyama che ke, maratA pahelAM mAranAra ISTanI mAgaNI punaH punaH karavI te mArI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A jAti sAgaramAra rA bahena je nAnI che tene mAre maLavuM che. teNIne mahI elAve. teNIne svAgatapUrvaka lAvavAmAM AvI. AvelI nAnI bahena kahe che ke mhATI ena. have te tArU maraNu pAse AveluM che. mATe eka suMdara-maneAhera vAta kahe. te sAMbhaLI khuzI cAu ane sararAja tArI yAdI karU ? AAdazAha Amate vAtane risaye hatA. ane kahyu tArI nAnI enane maneAhara vAta kahI khuzI kara? emane kahyu ke jyAM sudhI vAta purI thAya nahI tyAM sudhI mane mArI nAkhavI nahI. rame $ jA nahI mArUM. paNa vAta teA kahe! me sAMbhaLyuM che ke vAta karavAmAM tuM huMzIyAra che. begame evI vAta ravA AMDI ke temAM karUNA-zUratA raudratA vigere rasAthI bharapUra hatI. ane divaseAnA divase gayA paNa te vAta samApta thaI nahI. begame kahyuM ke khAra mahinA vAta karatAM vyatIta thayA paNa vAta pUrI thaI nahI. mATe sArI na khAvA. bAdazAhe kahyuM. vAta pUrI thaI nahIM tethI mArI zakAze nahi. vAta te jIvana paryaMta pUrNa thaze nahi. kazeya vAMdhA nathI. paNa have adhurI vAta AgaLa tyAre ja kahuM ke tame begameAne sArI nAMkhA nahIM te tyAre bAdazAha kabula thayA. Ama peAtAnI kuzalatAthI jIvana paryaMta vAta kahIne svaparanuM hita sAdhyuM prANAnuM rakSaNa karyuM. jo ke mAdazAhe bIjI kanyAo sAthe sAdI karI paNa A begamanI kuzalatAthI mArI zakayA nahI.. AvI mahenA jagatabharamAM virala hAya che. ane purUSa paNa virala hAya che ke potAnA prANAnA jekhame paNa bIjAonA bacAva karavAmAM samaya hoya che. AvI mANasAi AvI For Private And Personal Use Only

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ati ati . tenA janma saphala che. keTalAkamAM peAtAnA prANAnu patnI putra parivAranuM rakSaNa karavAnI AvaData hoya che. paNa bIjAnu rakSaNa karavAnI AvaData hAya tenI tA malIhAro. mATe tame buddhimAna alavAna ane sattAdhArI hai| teA svaparanuM kalyANu karavA tatpara maneA. temAM ja tamArI maDhuttA che. 152 duHkhI mANasA dhanADhaya zrImaMtanI pAse peAtAnAdu:khanI vAta kahevA jAya che. tyAre pete tenI AgaLa peAtAnA du:khanI vAta kahI teone nirAza karI mUke che. tene dhananA ghenamAM khyAla rahetA nathI ke je Avyo che te kAMIka madada sahArA levA AvyA che. paNa pAtAnI madada karavAnI IcchA na hAvAthI potAnI sahaja cintAmAne vipatti mAnI adhika rADA raDavA besI jAya che. paNa zakaya sahakAra ApavA te bhUlI jAya che. dhanADhayatA prApta thai te pApakAra karavAthI puNyanA cALe maLI che. mATe tenI yathAzakti mujaba pIDAne TALI puNya meLavuM, ke jenA AdhAre zrImatAize.bhe du:khInA duHkhane te te jANe ke jemaNe duHkhanA anubhava karela hAya. eka viDaMkhanAthI pIDAyela sAdhAraNa vyakti, zrImatanI pAse jaIne peAtAnI vItI kahevA lAgyA, ke bhAgyathAlI ? ame ghaNA vipattimAM AvI paDayA chIe. putrAdika parivArane ghaNu kaSTa paDe che. vyApAra mUDI hoya teA karI zakAya tevI mUDI mArI pAse nathI. prathama tamArI mAphaka paisAdAra hatA. paNa vyApAramAM ghaNI khATa AvI, milkata khatama thaI 2. . 5 For Private And Personal Use Only

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086 A kIrtisAgaTsari racita have dhaMdhA vinA kharacane pahoMcI vaLAtuM nathI. sahakAranI vAta kahevA jAya che. tevAmAM zeTha vacce bolI UThyA ke tane pIDA che tevI amane paNa pIDA che jene pAMca lAkhane mAla vakhAromAM mAla bharyo che. paNa bhAva narama paDI gayA che nekarAnA pagAra caDhe che. moTara eka che bIjI rAkhI zakAtI nathI. navANuM lAkha rUpiyA che paNa karoDapati thavAtuM nathI ghaNuM udhAmA karavAmAM Ave che. paNa eka lAkha maLI zakatA nathI kahe ? A ochI pIDA che. Avela vyaktie kahyuM ke mAre lAkha be lAkha joItA nathI pAMca hajAra aMga uddhAra Ape te rItasara baMdha thAya AjIvikAnI pIDa TaLe eka be varSamAM tamene vyAja sahita pAchA ApIza. zeThe tene nahI ApavAnI dAnatathI kahyuM ke, hamaNAM te nahI. paNuM bharelA mAlane bhAva vadhaze ane be lAkhane na maLaze tyAre tuM Avaje-pAMca hajAra te zuM daza hajAra ApIza, karoDapati thayA pachI tene sahakAra ApI zakuM sivAya atyAre banI zake ema nathI. Avela vyakti nirAza banI pitAne ghera Avyo paNa zeThane dayA-anukaMpA AvI nahI. karoDapati thavAnI dhUnamAM garIbanI pIDA kayAMthI jaNAya. je pAMca hajAra aMga uddhAra ApyA hota te kAMI ochuM thAta nahI. paNa zrImaMta-garIbanI pIDAne kayAMthI jANe? AvA zrImaMta pitAnI pAse je milakata che. tene sadupayoga karI zakatA nathI ane eza ArAmamAM mAja zekhamAM dhanane veDaphI nAMkhI pApane vadhAratA rahe che. mATe teonI pAse javAmAM kAMI lAbha thato nathI. ulaTA nirAza banI pAchuM AvavuM paDe che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti te ja vyakti paropakArI eka sajajana pAse gayA. pitAnI pIDA darzAvI. te zravaNa karI bhaktinA dAve pAMca hajAra gaNuM ApyA-je ke ApanAra lakSAdhipati hate nahI paNa kareDa pati karatAM sAdharmika bAMdhAmAM bhaktibhAva tene Adhakahate. pAMca hajAra laIne rItasara te bhAIe vyApAra karyo. ane naphe male tyAre vyAja sahita rUpiyA ApavA Ave. tyAre te bhAIe kahyuM ke bhaktinA dAve rUpiyA tane ApyA che. mATe pAchA huM laIza nahI. ane AjIvikAnI pIDAne dUra kara, tArI bhakti karavAthI vyApAramAM mane lAbha thaye che. mATe pAchA levAmAM Avaze nahI. ghaNe Agraha karyo chatAM lIdhA nahI tyAre te mANasa sva sthAne AvIne nyAya purasacara vyApAra karavA lAgyA. mATe lebhI dhanADhaya pAse javAmAM mAla nathI. javuM hoya te paropakArI nirlobhI pAse javuM. zakaya sahAze te maLe. bhale lakSAdhipati, karoDapati thAya te paNa temanI pIDA TaLavAnI nathI ja. kAraNa bhaktibhAvaparopakArane bhUlI nazvara dhana saMpattimAM Asakta bane. tyAre paropakArI-saMteSI- puudaye je saMpatti prApta thaela tene sadupayega sevA bhaktinA AdhAre puNya kAryomAM Asakta bane che. ane sAcA samRddhimAna bane che. tene cintA valepAta ghaNe thatuM nathI ane aMte zubha vicAre dvArA sadugatine meLavI sukha bhojana bane che. 153 paiso puNya ane purUSAtha vaDe prApta thAya che ekalA purUSArthathI prApta thatuM nathI. pasA hoya paNa paropakAra-bhakti sevA kare nahI to For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAkhI mArIne dUra laI jAthI A. kItisAgarasuri saMcita temAM vArAne rahI javAthI maraNa pAmI sApa ke chachuMdara cAya. kAMte vRkSamAM utpanna thaI tenuM rakSaNa kare che. paNa te sthitimAM kaIne ApI zakAtuM nathI. keI jANakAra Ave te sApa-vigerene mArI sava dhana svIkAra kare, eTale pite te lAbha laI zake nahI ane bIjAo jhuMTavI mArIne laI le. ane maraNa thAya te adhika, madhamAkhIo keIne madha ApI zakatI nathI. tyAre vAgharI AvI teNuone mArI nAMkhI badhe madhapUDo laI le che. AnA jevuM bane. mATe paropakAra karatA rahevuM. saMpatti keInI chAjI nathI. ane rahI nathI. 154 dhanAdika dvArA je anukulatA maLe che. ane maLI. che. tene sadupayoga karI A nnati karI suMdara hAve che ke jenA cage bhavobhavanI pIDAo Tache ane vrata niyama pALIne paramapadanI prApti thAya. , "zrImate pitAnuM kArya sAdhavA tane vakhANaze ane pitAnI pAse rahevA IcchA batAvaze ane tame paNa meTAnI sabatamAM mAna darajajo vadhaze Ama dhArI teonI pAse raheze. ane leke tamArI prazaMsA karaze Adara satkAra Apaze paNa chalakAI jatA nahI ane maheTAIne ke rAkhatA nahIM. kAraNa ke eka divasa bhUla thatAM ane pitAnA kAryo sadhAI jatAM tamane tageDI mUkaze te vakhate tame je ke rAkhela haze tenI anyane hAMsI karaze. ane prathama je dara je hato tenAthI halake mAnaze. mATe zrImaMtenI pAse For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 38 rahIne maheTAIne phAMke mada rAkhave te mUkhamAM khapavA jevuM che. eTale pitAnI mUla sthitine vicAra karI namratA dhAraNa karIne vartana rAkhavuM te hitakara che namratAnA cege tame tamArA gharamAM che ke heTAnI pAse rahelA che te paNa tamArI bhUlanI mAphI maLaze. ane heTAI jarUra AvI maLaze. kAraNa ke namratA laghutA e guNa che ke bIjA saddaguNene AkarSaNa karIne hAjara kare che. paraMtu namratA daMbha vinAnI hovI joIe, kAraNa ke sva kAryane sAdhavA khAtara ghaNuM mAna dekhAvamAM bahArathI laghutA darzAve paNuM hadayamAM te kAramI katala karavAnI bhAvanA vartatA hoya che. mATe sAcI namratAne dhAraNa karI dareka paristhitimAM jIvanane pasAra kare. nahatira meTAne AdhAra maLatAM phAMke rAkhaze to eka dAsInI mAphaka banaze. eka rAjaputrIne anapuramAM ekalI hevAthI gamatuM nahI. AnaMda Avato nahI. pitAnI samAna vayanI sakhI hoya te vAtacitta-gammata karavAnI majA paDe Ama dhArI pitAnA makAnanI pAse rahelI eka samAna ummaranI chekarI sAthe mitrAcArI karI. ane kahyuM ke, tuM dararoja mArI pAse Avaje ekalA rahevAmAM AnaMda Avato nathI. A bekarI vicAra kare che. rAjaputrInI sAthe rahevAmAM maheTA maLaze. ane tenA mAtA pitA paNa hune satkAraze. ane garIbAInI pIDA TaLaze. Ama vicArI tenI pAse dararAja AvavA lAgI. bannene majA paDavA lAgI. rAjaputrI jyAre khAvA bese che tyAre tene mIThAI-mamarA-kevaDA vigere khAvAnuM maLe che tathA For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita varAbhUSaNa paNa paheravAnA maLe che. tethI bahAra jyAre vastrAbhUSaNa sajIne jAya che tyAre tenA sagAM vahAlAM vakhANe che. tuM to bhAgyazAlI che ke tane rAjaputrIe sakhI banAvI. A mujaba sAMbhaLavAthI "adhUre ghaTa adhika chalakAya tenI mAphaka chalakAvA lAgI. mAta pitAnI AgaLa je vinaya namratA rAkhavuM joIe te rAkhatI nathI. keI kAma batAve tyAre kahe che ke A kAma have karI zakuM nahI. tame karI le. have rAjaputrI mArI sakhI banI che. mAre have kenI paravA che? A pramANe phAM ke rAkhI koInuM paNa gaNakAratI nathI, tenA mAtapitA phikara cintA karavA lAgyA. ke rAjaputrIne saMbaMdha kayAM sudhI. A abhimAnanA teramAM amArU mAnatI nathI jema tema bolyA kare che. paNa vakhata jatAM tene ja pastAvuM paDaze. Ama dhArI mauna rahyA. be traNa varSe vyatIta thayA pachI tene bolAvAmAM bhAna rahyuM nahI. rAjaputrIne je viya-sabhyatA sAcavavI. joIye te sAcavatI nathI ane jematema bole che. tethI rAjaputrIne gusso thayo ke havethI tAre mArI pAse Avavu nahI. AvIza te tiraskAra pUrvaka dUra karAvIza. A sAMbhaLI pelI te hebatAI gaI ane pitAnA ghera AvI raDavA lAgI. mAtapitA puche che. ke kema Aje raDavA mAMDayuM che? saheja balavAmAM vadhAre belAI gayuM. tethI mane kADhI mUkI ane kahyuM ke havethI mArI pAse AvIza te tiraskAra yuvaka dUra karAvIza tethI mahane bahu lAgI AvyuM che. rAjaputrIne A svabhAva haze te jANatI nahatI, thADuM sanmAna maLatAM. ane sarasa khAvApIvAnuM prApta thatAM phAke rAkhIne tamArI AgaLa ane. For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara ti sagAMvahAlAMonI AgaLa jema phAve tema belatI. mAtapitAe kahyuM ke jo tuM rAja putrInI AgaLa vinayapUrvaka namratA zakhIne belI hatI te A pastA karavAno vakhata Avata nahi. dareka sthitimAM laghutA rAkhavI joIe. tebhUlI ane mAla pANI maLatAM amArI AgaLa paNaphAke rAkhavA lAgI. abhimAna ahaMkArane dhAraNa karavAthI je padaya heAya che te khatama thAya che mATe havethI abhithAna rAkhIza nahI. have gharanA kAryakara ane vaDIlene vinaya sAcava, AgaLa jatAM padaye vaLI sukhI thaIza. A zikSA nathI paNa zikhAmaNa che. A mujaba sAMbhaLavAthI dareka bAbatamAM vinaya-namratA rAkhI. tethI aMte sukhI thaI mATe are mahAnubhAvo je tamane saMpatti sAhyabI vigere maLI che. tene phAM ke rAkhatA nahI. paNa laghutAne apanAvI darekanI sAthe madhura vacane belI pitAnuM ane pArakAnuM kalyANa kare tene zAstrakAra vacanagupti kahe che." madhura vacana vANIthI keyala kALI hoya che chatAM dareka mAna ne priya bane che. ane gadheDI zveta hoya che. chatAM bhUMkavAne svabhAva hovAthI apriya bane che. 155 vANuM vartanathI jAtikula parakhAya che. ane sva bhAva paNa parakhAya che. je ke zrImaMta hoya paNa bolavAmAM te chaDe hAya. ane vartanamAM mIThuM hoya te tene kaI hadayathI satkAra nathI. tenA rephamAM ke belavAnI cAlakImAM aMjAI koI tene A bese vigere satkAra kare te vastu judI che. paNa manamAM te samajatA hoya che. bhAIsAhebanI sAthe sobata For Private And Personal Use Only

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thara A.kItisAgarasUri racita karavA jevI nathI. dUranI salAma karavAmAM ja hita che A pramANe samajatA hovAthI nA chUTake tenI pAse Ave che. vipattinA tathA saMkaTanA prasaMge nabaLA upara baLIyAnuM jora ve che ane te lAga, keTalAka zodhatA hoya che ekAda vyakti je hAthamAM AvI jAya te Ile manahara managamatI vAte karI jANe ke saMkaTamAM sahakAra ApavAja Avela che tema sAmAne lAge paraMtu jyAre sahakAra ApavAne badale svArtha sAdhatA hoya tyAre ja mAluma paDe che. ke madada ApavA Avela nathI paNa zayatAna banI saMpatti lUMTavA Ave che. paraMtu have tene khaseDavAne upAya nahI hevAthI manamAM muMjhavaNa thAya che eka gAmamAM vidhavA bAInI pAse ghaNI milakata hatI. sonArUpAnA dAgInAne eka dAbaDa teNIe chAno rAkhe hato. tenI mAluma eka sagA mANasane hatI. samajAvI madhura vAta karIne te chAnA rAkhela dAbaDAnI vAta jANI lIdhI hatI. A vidhavAbAIne asAdhya vyAdhi lAgu paDe. uThavA besavAnI tAkAta nahotI. AvA prasaMge svArtha sAdhavA te sago te bAInI pAse AvI sAravAra karavA lAgyA. jANe pitAne putra heyanI zuM? pitAnI patnIne kaheluM ke barAbara sevA bhakti karaje. AvA vakhata ApaNe sagAMvahAlAM sevA je khabara naho karIye te bIje kaNa AvIne karaze ? sahaja bhUla thatAM paNa strIne dhamadhamAvate hate. vyAdhigrasta bAI te tenI sAra saMbhALa dekhIne khuzI thaI ane kahevA lAgI ke, tameja kharA sagA vahAlA che nahItara AvI sevAcAkarI koNa kare ? sago For Private And Personal Use Only

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kSetramAM ane paralokagamAMthI e raheze AMtara jAti mukha ThAvaku rAkhIne have kahevA lAvyuM ke temane asAdhya roga lAgu paDela che. davA sevA te karIye chIe paNa ociMtI vyAdhinA mege DhabI gayA-te maraNa pAmyA te milkata ghareNAM jyAM haze tyAM raheze mATe mane saghaLI milakata Ape. rAgamAMthI bacI gayA te pAchI ApIza. ane paraleka gayA te tamArA puNyamATe sAta kSetramAM te vAparIza-anumodanA karavAthI tamene puNyane lAbha thaze. A bAI sarala ane bheLI hatI. tenI vANuM sAMbhaLI sthAvara-jaMgama milakata tene seMpI. tathA gupta rAkhe dAgInAne DAbaDe paNa ApyuM. have te A bhAI bIlADInA hAthamAM dUdha Ave tema khuzI thaze. ane sevA cAkarI bahu karavA lAgyo. ane manamAM mAne che ke A bAI jarUra maraNa pAmaze. ane huM paisAdAra banIza. paNa bAI Ava. khAnI balavAna hovAthI beThI thaI, pelAne hRdayamAM dhrAsake paDaze. bAI te beThI thaI, have milakata pAchI ApavI paDaze kAMI nahI. dAgInAne dAbhaDo to mArA kabajAmAM che. bIjI milakata arpaNa karI hatI te je ghera bhegI karI hatI te sAruM thAta, heTI bhUla karI. tevA vicAramAM che tevAmAM bAIe ghareNune dAbhaDe pAcho mAgyA e dAbhaDo huM atrethI laI gaye nathI. tamArA makAnamAM ja haze. tapAsa kare. maLI Avaze. A mujaba sAMbhaLIne tapAsa karI paNa prApta thaye nahI. tyAre pele prapaMcI kahevA lAge. tamArI gerahAjarImAM keI upADI gayo haze. mArI pAse te nathI. lIdhe hAya hoya te ApatAM zI vAra lAge? nAka gaLe paDe nahI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita sevA cAkarIno A badale Ape che ne ? pelI bAI A mujaba sAMbhaLI tene kahevA lAgI ke mAre hAthe tane A che. tuM tAre ghera laI gayela che. ane kahe che ke meM lIdhe nathI. keI laI gayA haze. AvuM bolavuM tamAre ucita nathI. paNa svArthIe dAbhaDe pAchA Ape nahI. bAI samajI gaI ke sevA bhakti mArI karavA AvyuM nahotuM paNa milakatane kabaje karavA AvyuM hatuM. bhale dAbhaDe gaye. bIjI milakata mArA kabajAmAM che huM pite ja AjIvikA puratuM rAkhI sAta kSetramAM dhana vAparI puNya bhAtuM bharU. bAI sAta kSetromAM puNyArthe dhana vAparatI hevAthI pele sage pAchA manamAM baLavA lAgyo. paNa have bAI bheLavAya evI nathI. manane zAMta karyuM. dAbhaDAnA dAgInA vecI rUpiyA karI vepAra karavA lAge. paNa anItinuM dhana levAthI vepAramAM lAbha maLe nahIM. ane gharanI mUDI paNa khatama thaI, A mujaba kapaTI sevA cAkarInA bAne svArtha sAdhe che. paNa pariNAma viparIta Ave che vizvAsa rahetuM nathI. gAmamAM be AbarU thavAya che mATe niSkAma sevA bhakti kare. dhAraNa karatAM paNa adhika maLI Avaze. paNa dhananA lebhIne A kathana kayAMthI pasaMda paDe? Atma ti vinA bicArA prayAse te ghaNuM kare che ane kAvAdAvA karIne pApa baMdha kare chatAM mananI ane peTanI bhUkha bhAgatI nathI-mATe Atma jyoti meLave. 156"zANu sujJajane, lAbha levAnA vakhate pramAdI. banatA nathI. avasarane oLakhI utsAha pUrvaka For Private And Personal Use Only

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bAMtara jAti parAkama pherave che. tyAre saMpattinA svAmi bane che. paraMtu pramAdI ALasunene saMpattinA badale Apatti AvI hAjara thAya che. Ama samajI sujJajane lAbha levAnI mosama-avasaramAM viSaya vilAsane tathA kaSAyanA vikArone tyAga kare che. te mujaba anaMta lAbha levA mATe manuSyabhava paNa mesama che. taka che. Ama jANuM pramAdane tyAga karIne vrataniyamonuM pAlana sArI rIte kare te temane maLelI mosama lAbha barAbara ApI zake. avasarane oLakhI dunyavI saMpattine prApta karI paNa tevA saMge maLatAM khasI jatAM vilaMba thatuM nathI. te vakhate citAone tathA vipattione haThAvanAra vrata niyamene ArAdhI je Atmazakti meLavI che. te AzvAsana tathA dheya ApI zakaze. mATe dunyavI saMpattimAM Asakta banavuM nahI. sAthe sAthe Atmika saMpattine meLavavA mATe paNa tatpara rahevuM. ke jethI vipatti viDaMbanAnA vakhate hAya varALa valepAta thAya nahI. ane sthiratA rahe. eka sadugrahastha vyApAramAM ghaNuM kamANuM karIne dhana meLavyuM. paNa te sArI rIte samajatuM hatuM ke padaye A dhana maLyuM che. ane maLatuM rahe che. paNa tene evA saMge dura jatAM javAmAM vilaMba thatuM nathI tethI vrata niyamone dhAraNa karI sAcu dhana meLavuM. vrata niyama-japa-tapAdi kare che. tevAmAM muMbAImAM guMDAoe bhAre mArAmArI karIne lUMTa calAvI. gujarAtI kAThIAvADI mAravADI jenee ane jeneree paherelA kapaDAo sAthe pitAnA vatana tarapha prayANa karyuM, piyA vinAnA For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgara rasika banI gaela hovAthI aheTI vipattimAM AvI paDayA. dhIraja rahI nahI. raDavA lAgyA. kaIka valepAta karavA lAgyA. teo paikI A vratadhArI paNa lUMTAye. paherela kapaDe bahAra nIkaLI gayo paNa vrataniyamanI rItasara ArAdhanA karela hovAthI hiMmata rAkhIne vicAra karavA lAgyA ke maLela saMpatti te te sArA saMyege maLI hatI. ane maLatI. have tevA saMyegA khasI gayA. ane khasI gaI paNa je dhamanI ArAdhanA karI che. tene kaI paNa lUMTavAne ke jhuMTavI levAne samartha nathI. vaLI A burA saMge paNa kAyamanA rahevAnA nathI. Ama samajI upavAsa AyaMbila ekAzanAdi karI dharmanI AsadhanA cUkatA nathI. hiMmata pUrvaka bIje sthale vyApAra karavA lAgyo. dhana maLyuM. ane dharma paNa sacavAye. Ama jANa saMpatti upara vizvAsa na rAkhatAM. dharmanI ArAdhanA paNa karavI jarUranI che. 157 "AtmAnI ArAdhanA sArI rIte karIne jemaNe AtmavikAsa sAthe che tene anaMta jJAnIo mahAnuM mAne che. A sivAyanA bhale saMpatti-sAhyAbInA AdhAre tathA sattA-sAmrAjya vaDe hoTA kahevAtA hoya paNa te mahAna nathI. kAraNa ke teo AzA tRSNAmAM parAdhIna banela hevAthI nirantara cintAo ane vAta karatA hoya che. kayAre mArI AzA pUrNa thAya ane abajo-karoDapati banuM ane devaloka jevI sAhyabI kayAre bhegavuM. paNa puNya vinA kayAMthI prApta thAya? Ama AzAmAM-tuNAmAM jIvana vyatIta karatA hoya For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara jAti che. tyAre emaNe Amenati karela hoya che temane te tyAganA vege anata Rddhi-siddhi ane zuddhinA dvAra khullAM thAya che tethI mahAna jJAnIo teone mAne che. sAMsArika saMpatti mAnene mahATA mAnatA nathI. kAraNa ke teoe sAthe para lekamAM Ave tevI saMpatti meLavI nathI. ane meMgherA manuSyabhavanI kiMmata pIchAnI nathI-adhika saMpattinI AzA tRSNAmAM pitAnuM kartavya je jarUranuM hatuM te bhUlAyuM ane sAga maLatAM khasI janAra upara vizvAsa rAkhe. eTale jenI AzA rAkhI hatI te vastu paNa gumAvAI "vagaDAmAM paribhramaNa karatAM zayALanA hAthamAM eka roTalAne TukaDA Avye ane khuzI thaI nadI kinAre khAvA mATe beThuM tevAmAM nahImAMthI bahAra nIkaLI eka mAchaluM uchaLatAM kinAre AvI paDayuM. Ane dekhI ziyALa jeTalAne TukaDe mUkI mAchalAne levA gayuM. paNa te ja vakhate cetI mAchaluM nadImAM paDI gayuM bIjIvAra mAchalAne bahAra nIkaLavAnI rAha joyA kare che. eTalAmAM bhamate kAgaDe nadI kinAre mUkela roTalAnA TukaDAne hAI gaye. mAchavuM hAthamAM AvyuM nahIM. ane TukaDA paNa kAgaDe laI gaye. tethI cintA thaI A mujaba dharma vihIna mAnave parAdhIna vastuone svAdhIna karavA prayAsa kare che ane svAdhIna je Atmadhana che tene gumAvI bese che. mATe Atmadharmane dhyAnamAM rAkhI vyAvahArika kArya karavAM ke jethI AzA tRSazuM adhika jora pakaDe nahI. ane anukrame je moTAI Icche che te AvI maLe pachI ja saMpattimAM tame potAne moTA mAne che tenI sArthakatA cayAya For Private And Personal Use Only

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AkArtisAgarasari racita 158 vrata niyama ta5 japAdi karatA sugdha dhArmikajane potAnI sAdhAraNa sthitine jANuM temaja dhama vinAnA mAnavene saMpattimAna dekhI manamAM zaMkAne dhAraNa kare che ke prabhue kahelA dharmanuM phala haze ke nahI? kAraNa ke jeo prabhunA darzana-vaMdana pUjana tathA gratAdi karatA nathI chatAM managamatI sAhyabI bhegave che. mojamajAmAM AnaMdathI mahAlyA kare. lake "khamA khamA kare che, moTara vigere vAhanamAM besI AnaMda kare che. pagapALA cAlavAnI tasdI letA nathI. amArA te cAlI cAlIne paga thAke che. che. moja mA te dUra rahI paNa jIvana nirvAha mahenata karyA sivAya thatuM nathI. te pachI moTara eraplenamAM besavAnuM kayAMthI prApta thAya? AvA AvA vicAra karIne manamAM vividha cintAe karyA kare che. ane moja majA karavAne avasara kayAre Avaze te bhAvanA rAkhI moja karanArane dekhI sAhyabIne punaH punaH Icche che. ane mahenata karavAmAM khuzI thatA nathI. paNa te dhanADhayenI Antarika sthiti zakti. mahenata karanAranI zakita AgaLa nabaLI hoya che. keIkane dama lAgu paDela che. dazabAra pagathI caDhatAM paNa zvAsozvAsa bharAI javAthI vacce besI jAya che. belavAnA vakhate hRdayanA dhabakArA vadhI jAya che. sArI rIte mAla malIdA vigere bhajana kare paNa pacAvI zake nahI. ane vividha vyAdhiothI gherAela hoya che. vaidya DAkaTaranA khIssA bharAtA hoya te AvA zrImaMtonA AdhAre. A pramANe je barAbara For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara tyAMti Be tapAsa kare te mahenatu vargane nAkhuza thavAnA avasara maLe nahI. ane AnamAM rahe. kAraNa ke mahenata karanArA parasevA vALIne jIvana nirvAha karanArA zarIre khalavAna DAya che. bhale pachI sAdhAraNa sthitinA hAya. ane mAla malIdA khAtA na DhAya ? ghaNA vikArI paNa hAtA nathI tethI vRddhAvasthAmAM paNa teone rAga lAgu paDatA nathI. tyAre zrImatAnI sthiti jotAM dayA karUNA Avaze. A pramANe tapAse tA dha kriyAmAM zakA dhAraNa kare nahI. ane je sthiti maLI che. te sArI che. Ama mAnIne AnamAM rahe eka zrImaMtanI sAhIkhI ane mAja mAne dekhI mahenata karanAra, peAtAnI sthitine DhekhI dharmakriyAo karatAM bhramaNAmAM bhUlA paDI zakA karatA hatA. ke prabhunI AjJA mujaba vana rAkhIye chIe. chatAM zrImatanI mAphaka mAja majAnI lahera AvatI nathI. dhAmikanA ghera dhADA paDe. ane mastAnA mAja kare. A pramANe vicAra rAkhe che. tevAmAM eka dhanADhya mATaramAM esI rAjamArge jatA hatA teno meTara AvatI mATara sAthe athaDAI akasmAt thayA.. bhAgyayeAge zeTha bacI gayA. meTarane ane DrAivare nukazAna thayuM, Ama kheMcI javAthI prabhunA pADa mAnavA lAgyA. vaLI agatyanA kAryArthe ezaplenamAM ArUDha thaI kAika zaheramAM jatAM akasmAta thayA. tyAre te zeDa saghaLe parivAra mAla milkatane anIcchAe tyAga karI maraNa pAmyA. A mahenata karanAre sAMbhaLIne viveka lAvI mananI zakAne dura karI ke zeThanA karatA mArI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kAtisAgari sIla niyati ghaNI sArI. zarIra majabUta-AgA prapaMca vinA cho nivaha thAya che. ane yathA zakita pUjA-vaMdana-zana tathA dhArmika kriyA karAya che. moTara ke eroplenanA akasmAne bhaya nathI. mATe je avasthA maLI che tethI dharmamAM zaMkA karavA jevI nathI. sthira banIne vrata niyamanuM pAlana karate rahyo. tathA eka paisAdAranI pAse aDhaLaka dhana che. paNa putra nathI ane sAdhAraNa mAnane ghera putra-putrI vigerene dekhIne paisAdAra popakAranA kAryomAM tathA dhArmika kAme zaMkA karavA lAgyuM. ane putra mATe paththarane prabhu mAnI sevA bhakti karI te paNa saMtAnanI prApti thaI nahIM. A dhachI uccATa karatAM jInezvaranI pratimAnuM pUjana-karatAM aMtarAya kama dura khasavAthI putranI prApti thaI tethI harSane pAra rahyo nahIM. anukrame putra bhaNI gaNIne oNTe thayo. tyAre tene saMsArane hA levA mATe paraNAvyuM. paraNAvyA pachI te putrane gharamAM gamatuM nathI. anukuLatA rahetI nathI. tethI judA rahevA mATe tenA pitAne kahyuM. pitA mAnate nathI tyAre virodha-kaMkAsa-karavA lAge. gharamAMthI milkatane uThAvI phAve tema vAparavA lAge. have tenA pitA vicAre che ke jyAre putra hate nahI tyAre AnaMdathI gharamAM ane bajAramAM jaI zakAtuM. AnA karatAM prathama sthiti sArI hatI. AnA karatAM putra vinAnA rahevuM te sArUM. have A chokarAne zuM kahevuM. Thapako tathA zikhAmaNa ApavAmAM Ave, che, tyAre sAme thAya che. A pramANe vicAra karI. je, thAya te sArA mATe have paropakAra-dhArmika kAryomAM zaMkA tethI jI virAdha-kaMkAsa have tenAmAM ane For Private And Personal Use Only

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atira ti rahI nahI. zAMtithI sara yogya karavA lAge. mATe je ava sthA puNyAnusAre. prApta thaela hoya tene vadhAvI levI. ane AnaMda pUrvaka dharmanI ArAdhanA karavI. sAMsArika putrAdika maLe agara sAhyabI maLe te paNa sAcA sukhanI prApti thavI azakya che. AmadhArI-zaMkAne dura kare. 159 saMsAra rasika, sparza rasa gaMdha rUpa zabda vigere upara ghaNe prema rAkhe che. tyAre AtmajJAna tatvanA rasiyA mahAzaya, AtmAnA guNemAM adhika prItine dhAraNa kare che. sparza-rasAdika kSaNamAM parivartana pAmatAM tenA rasiyA ene cintA, paritApa, saMtApa, zaka thAya che. tethI AtmA malIna banI sukhanI bhramaNAmAM paDe che. ane sukha zAMtinI prApti mATe mahAraMbha samAraMbhe paDI adhika pIDAya che. samyam jJAnIone te viSamAM Asakita nahI hovAthI AtmikaguNe uparanA AvaraNe dura khasatA AnaMdanI urmio AvyA kare che, viSayomAMthI Asakita khasatAM mAnasika vRttio zuddha banatI hovAthI te vRttio Atmika guNemAM ane tenA paryAyAmAM ramaNa kare che. pachI vipatti kadAca Ave te paNa saMpatti bhAse che. ane jJAnayoge sahI letAM anubhava Avate rahe che pachI temane mujhavaNa kayAMthI thAya? mATe jema tame vastrAbhUSaNa vigere malIna thatAM teonI zuddhi karavA prayatna zIla bane che. are paheravAnA pagarakhAM tathA zarIrane melAM dekhIne mAlIza kare che ane karAve che te mujaba kharAba vicAro ane vikArothI malIna For Private And Personal Use Only

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4 A. kIrtisAgara racita banela AtmAne zuddha karavA dararAja prayatnazIla thavAnI AvazyaktA che sparza-rasa-rUpa vigeremAM ghaNe Adara rAkhatAM te bhAbhava peTa bharIne mAra khAdhe che anaMta pIDAonA bhetA banyA che. mATe A manuSya bhavamAM te viSaye tarapha ghaNuM mAna dharAve nahI. Adara Ape nahIMmAna-Adara Apaze te pAcho mAra bharapUra khAvo paDaze. eka paTelanI pAse dazabAra-gAya tathA bheMse hatI. temAM kaI kALI-gerI-kAbaracItrI viviMdha raMganI hatI. eka dIvasa A paTelanA ghera keI AtmajJAnI munIvarya bhikSA mATe padhAryA. temane dudhanI jarUra hatI-tethI paTele pitAnA nekara jenuM nAma be che. tene kahyuM ke alyA? jA ane vADAmAMthI dudha laI Ava? be rUparaMgamAM bahu mAnate hevAthI thoDeka jaIne pAchA AvI paTelane kahevA lAgyo. ke kALI--gerI-rAtInuM dudha lAvuM ke, bIjI gAya bheMsanuM lAvuM. game te raMgavALI gAyanuM lAvaje bheMsanuM lAvuM te vAMdho nathI ne? gAyanuM ja lAvaje. badhe vADA bhANI nIkaLe vaLI pAchA AvIne kahevA lAgyo ke vAchaDA vALInuM lAvuM ke vAchaDA vinAnuM lAvuM. tame Thapako Apazo tethI pUrNa chuM. jAtane game tevInu lAvaje. A sAMbhaLI be cA ane ane Deka dUra gayo ane pAchA paTelane AvI kahevA lAgyA. juvAnagAyanuM lAvuM ke AdheDanuM lAvuM. A sAMbhaLI paTele kahyuM ke are baghA tuM baghA je rahyo AvI rIte mAthAjhIka karAve che. jo game tevI gAyanuM lAva. bhale pachI kALI hoya gerI hoya ke vAcharaDA vinAnI hoya to For Private And Personal Use Only

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daMtara gAta paNa dudha jaldI laIne khAva. hAM have amara paDI, jaldI jaIne lAvu chu' dudha laIne AvyA. mahArAjane vaheArAkhyuM. temanA gayA pachI bAvAne paTele ghaNe methIpAka ApyA. kahyu` ke are mUrkha ? dudha lAvavAnuM kahyuM tyAre kALI rI vigere khelavAnI zI jarUra hatI? dudha lAvIne ApavuM hatu. bahu DAhyo thayA teA mAra paDayA. A pramANe mAnavA raMga-rUpa vigeremAM sAya tA mArA khAdhA vinA rahe nahI mATe mUla vastu dudharUpI Atma guNA tarapha lakSya rAkhavAnI jarUra che. rUpa raMgamAM karyAM dAdoDa karI che. AtmAne ALakhI vikArAne khaseDI AtmamAM sthira thAe. sArI rIte AtmAnI oLakhANa thayA pachI saMsAramAM rahetAM paNa akaLAmaNu Avaze nahI. kAraNa ke tethI vikArA utpanna cAM nathI. kadAca utpanna thAya te paNa temanu jora cAlatu nathI. pAtAne bhAva bhajavI TaLI jAya che. vikAna rItunera cAlatu hAya te viSayamAM Asakta mAnavA upara mAtA pitAe pAtAnI putrI keLavaNI pAmIne sukhethI jIvana gujAre te mATe sArI rIte bhaNAvI. paNa bhaNyA pachI ema mAnavA lAgI ke paraNavAthI patinI tAbedArImAM rahevu. paDaze, mATe keAI zrImaMta sAthe paNa lagna karavuM nahI. zikSaNa lIdhu che sArI nAkarI maLI raheze ane sArA pagAra maLatAM khAvA pIvAnI cintA raheze nahI. Ama vicArI lagna karavAnuM mAMDI vALyu, kAlejamAM zikSikA tarIke nAkarI maLavAnI sAthe pagAra sArI rIte maLavA lAgyA. have khAI pIne mAjamajhA kare che tevAmAM kAi ekanI For Private And Personal Use Only

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A prIti sAgarasUri racita sAthe dastI thaI. vArtA vinAda karavAmAM zeza vAMdhA che. Ama dhArI adhika paricayamAM AvatAM sagarvAM ano. ghaNA pastAvA karavA lAgI. viSaya sparzamAM Asakta banavAthI phajetI pUrepUrI thaI. garbhane gALavA davA khAdhI. garbha nAza pAmyA paNa zrImArI asAdhya lAgu paDI. tenA mAtA pitAne pIDAnA pAra rahyo nahI. have te jyAM jAya tyAM haDadhUta ane che. DhakhA bhAie ? viSayanA vikAranA ThaMDA ane guDha mAra 160 jeAne AtmAnI tathA AtmAnA guNAnI khabara chatAM khaDAi hAMkattA mele che ke amA doSa vinAnA chIe AzasA rahita kriyAo karI AnaMdamAM rahIe chIe. A kathana temanuM ucita nathI. kAraNa mAnasika vRttie jyAre Atmika guNNAmAM ramaNatA karatI hAya che tyAre Araba-samArabhanA kAmA hAtA nathI. nirdoSa dhAmika kAryAM karavAmAM tayA dhama dhyAnamAM lAgelI DAya che. kadAcit pApanA kAmA thai jAya tyAre nindA gA~ karIne puna: tevA kAme karavAnI rUci thatI nathI. mATe Araba samArabhanA kAryone karIne kahevu ke ame nirdoSa chIe te mithyA che DhASa rahitane sa'sAranI lIlA-kriyAo hAtI nathI ane pasaMda paDatI nathI. je je sasAranI lIlA karI rahela che te sarva saDhASI che Ama samajI DhASAne dUra karavA mATe satata jAgrat rahevuM. ane jJAna pUrvaka dhAmika kAryomAM maneAvRttie lAge tyAre DhASA khasatA jAya che. nahIMtara saMsAranI lIlA te For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti 45 e mIThA mAra mAre che ke lIlA karanArane paNa khabara paDatI nathI. paraMtu jyAre be hAla dazA thAya che tyAre kAMIka vicAra Ave che ke saMsAranI lIlA-kriyA karavAmAM saghaLI bAbate barabAdI thaI zArIrika-mAnasika zaktio nAza pAmI eTale pariNAme te paritApAdi utpanna karAve che eka zeThanI pAse be ghoDAo hatA. teone gADImAM jeDI pharavA jatA agara anya kAryAthe jatAM temAM eka azva, ravAla cAle cAlate tethI zeTha tenA upara khuzI thaI sArI rIte saMbhALa rAkhate bIje ghaDe tophAnI ane bahu caMcala hovAthI tene ghaNe mAra paDate ane ghaNuM retimAM ragaDAvavAmAM AvatA tyAre thAkI jaIne rItasara cAlate A pramANe paramezvaranI AjJA mujaba je vartana kare che te nirdoSa banIne sukhI thAya che paNa mana gamatI lIlA karavAmAM te kArame mAra paDe emAM navAI zI? mATe saMsAranI lIlA te aMdhakAra che ane aMdhakAramAM prakAza sivAya aDhaLaka saMpatti-sattA zakita gumAvavAne prasaMge upasthita thAya temAM keI zuM kare? paramezvara te pharamAve che ke mArI AjJAne rItasara uThAvI jJAna prakAza karIne mAnasika vRttione deDA eTale aMdhakArarUpI sAMsArika lIlAmAM lUMTavAnuM thaze nahIM. ane mokSa mArga tarapha saralatA, sugamatA e prayANa karavA samartha banaze pachI tamane deva-dAnava ke mAnava luMTI levA mAra mArIne barabAdI karavA zakitamAna thaze nahIM. mATe tame jAheramAM ele che ke ame nirdoSa chIe te mujaba vartana rAkhaze te beleluM saphala thaze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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406 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita pitAnA dene gupta rAkhavA jAheramAM Ave nahI te mATe jeTalI buddhi hoya teTalI mahenata kare che bolavAmAM cAlAkI vApare che paNa chevaTe te doSI jAheramAM AvatAM vAra lAgatI nathI. mATe te dene dUra karavA jeTalI buddhi hoya te pramANe prayAsa kare. pachI bhaya zaMkA kheda jevuM kAMI paNa raheze nahI. manamAM potAnI unnati thAya. tevI buddhi ane bala raheluM che. paNa tene sadupayoga karavAnuM AvaDatuM na hovAthI unmAge vAparI deze karatA rahe che. ane mahAvipattiomAM phasAI duHkhI bane che. mATe viveka pUrvaka vartana kare, ghaNe bhAge jagat jara karatAM patnI parivAra ane jamIna-ghara makAna mATe devadAnava ane mAna, dene sevI sukhI thavAnA abhilASI hoya che. paNa doSe kapaTa-prapaMca karavAthI te kadApi sukhI thavAnI abhilASA saphala banatI nathI. paNa vera virodhAdika vadhe che. ane buddhi bala tathA saMpattine hAni thavAne prasaMga Ave che. buddhi balane unmAge vAparI kapaTa kalA karIne kuMTubamAMthI-kaMpanImAMthI judA paDatA. agara phAragata thatAM vadhAre bhAgane mAgaze vadhAre bhAga na maLatAM tephAna kakAsa karaze ane sAme rahela saMbaMdhI prema sAcavavA khAtara ane salAha-saMpa rahe te mATe vadhAre bhAgamAM ja jamIna Apaze paNa je bhAgyamAM nahI hoya. agara sadvartana nahI hoya te bhAgamAM Avela bhAgavA mAMDaze. sarakhu maLe. agara eAchuM maLe te paNa sArA AcAra-vicAra ane vivekavAnene bhAgyAnusAre adhika maLI Ave che ane For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti 47 tene sadupayega paNa karI zake che. ane tenA yoge balabuddhimAM vadhAro thato rahe che. eka saMskArI kuMTuba, eka makAnamAM saMpIne ekatra rahetuM hatuM. paNa putrAdi parivAra vadhavAthI judA rahevAnuM thayuM eTale jara-jamInanI vaheMcaNI karavAmAM AvI. dareka bhAIne sarakhuM mahyuM che paNa nAne bhAI adhika dhana -ane jamInanI mAgaNI kare che samajAvyuM mAnatuM nathI. ane kalaha karavAmAM tatpara thAya che moTAbhAI saMskArI ane vivekI hatA-adhika ApIzuM te nAnAbhAI che ne bhale te laIne khuzI thAya. ApaNuM bhAgyamAM haze te tene ApyA karatAM adhika maLI Avaze Ama vicArI tenI mAgaNI pramANe arpaNa karyuM. saMpa-saMbaMdha kAyama rahyo jJAtima Aba vadhI meTAbhAIone paNa nIti pUrvaka vyApAra karatAM te nAnAbhAIne ApyuM te karatAM vadhu dhana maLI AvyuM mATe virodha karavAnI jarUra nathI. 161 tamArAmAM nyAya nItipUrvaka buddhibalane sahupaga che te jarUra IcchA mujaba AvI maLavAnuM, kAraNa ke nIti-buddhi ane balathI jara-jamIna vigere maLI Ave che. ane tenuM rakSaNa karI zakAya che jenI pAse buddhibala te che. paNa nyAyanIti nathI. tene kadAca jara-jamIna vigere maLe paNa dazabAra varSo sudhI rahI zake AgaLa rahI zakavI te durlabha che kAraNa ke anyAya-anI tanuM dhana-jamIna TatI nathI. ane tene AvavAne avakAza maLe che mATe koI paNuM upAye nIti nyAya ane dharmane sAcave. For Private And Personal Use Only

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408 A.katisAgarasUri racita anubhavI su kahe che ke nyAya nIti ane Atma jJAnathI saMsAramAM lepavAnuM thatuM nathI ane zaMkhanI mAphaka ujajavala banAya che. paMcavaNuM mATI khAIne zaMkha tejasvI ane zveta bane che tenI mAphaka je tame pAMca bhUtemAM- bhautika padArthomAM lepAze nahI te tame ujavala banaze, paraMtu bhautika padArthomAM lipta banelA anubhavI sunuM kathana te mAnatA nathI are hAMsIpAtra mAnI dhikakArI kADhe che paraMtu jyAre anubhavI jJAnIonA vacanane avagaNI anItinA mArge jAya che tyAre anekavyAdhio viDaMbanAonA bhaktA bane che pachI temane sAna ThekANe lAvavA mATe vicAra Ave che mATe bhautikavAdanA rasikanA vacane upara aMjAI javuM nahIM. paNa AtmavAdamAM prema rAkhI te mArge prayatna banavuM. bhautika vAdIo kahe che ane je kahIye chIe te sukhane mAge che ane keIno parAdhInatA te mAge gamana karanArane rahetI nathI. AtmavAdamAM rasiyAo keTalA sukhI thayA. te kahe? juo ame meTara-basa-eroplenamAM meja karIe chIe tamAre pagapALA cAlavuM paDe che ane keTaluM saMkaTa sahana karavuM paDe che. amArI mAnyatAmAM Ave te tamene yatheccha dhananI prApti thAya. patnI putrAdika parivAra sukhethI jIvana gujAre. AvA AvA lebhana-lAlaca ApIne tamene AkarSaNa karaze paNa tamo barobara vicAra karaze ke bhautika sukha te mada-mAna viSaya vikArane utpanna karAvIne nIca gatimAM dhakelI de che. emAM saddagatinuM kAraNa nathI. ulaTuM bhAre jokhama che ane kAramI katala che paisAdAra For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara yAti 40: zrImatAnI sa`patti ke sAhyamIthI ke mAmajA karavAthI mANasAI jainatva AvatuM nathI paNa nIti niyama-tratAnI ArAdhanAthI mANasAI jainatva ane tenA cALe divyatA pragaTe che. 162 dhanAdikamAM mAha pAmelA dhanAdikane zAdhatA prayatnazIla khanaze ane a Mte-maraNu vakhate paNa tenI AzAthI mukta thaze nahI. karoDapati-lAkhApati tA thayA paNa abajapati thayA nahI ane mATAInI gaNatrImAM mAnyA nahI. Ama asesa karatA kilaSTa karmonuM bhAtu laI paraleAka jAya che tyAre nIti niyama tenI ArAdhanA karanAra dhanAdikamAMthI mAha e karI sudara dharma dhyAnanA ceAge zubha karmonuM bhAtuM grahaNa karI paralAke padhAre che. 163 zarIre laSTa puSTa dekhIne tathA maneAhara makAnA ane sAthI dekhIne vrata niyamane mUkaze nahI tAja A lAkamAM paNa sukhazAtA raheze. ane paraleAkamAM sArA saMskArA paDelA hAvAthI sapatti sAhyakhI maLaze dhanAdikamAM sukha mAnanArA eka vratadhArI- niyama pAlanArane kahevA lAgyA ke alyAbhAI ! vrata-tapAdi karavAthI tArI kAyA karamAI che tArAmAM amArA jeTalu khala rahyu` nathI. mATe vrata niyameAnA tyAga karI amArI mAphaka dhana meLavA mATe dararAja prayatna kara. pAMcama AThame codaze lIleAtarI khAvI nahI. ane upavAsa vigera karIne pauSadha karavA tethI tane zA lAla thayA ? ulTA dukAne nahI javAthI tArA grAhakI anyatra jAya che tethI geralAbha For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasUri racita thAya che mATe pauSadhAdine tyAga karI dukAne besa. jethI kamANI sArI rIte thAya. ane baccA sukhI thAya. vratadhArIye kahyuM ke sukhI thavAnuM sAdhana te saMteSa che game teTalI kamANa thAya te paNa nizcita jIvane jIvAtuM nathI, ane asaMtoSa vadhatuM rahe che. bhale tamo dhana sAhyabInA AdhAre mojamajA kare. paNa te asaMtoSane tApa zame che? ane jyAM sudhI te pApa zame nahI tyAM sudhI kAMIka ne kAMI dukha rahevAnuM ja. A mujaba vAta karIne be jaNA pite pitAnA kAme lAgyA. AThamanA divase vratadhArIe sAcI bhakti karavA mATe upavAsa karIne pisaha lIdhe. dharmadhyAne ArUDha thaye. kApaDanI dukAna baMdha karelI hovAthI te taraphanA vicAra karato nathI. evAmAM guMDAoe muMbaImAM lUMTa calAvI jenI dukAne khullI hatI te saghaLAone mAra mArIne lUMTI lIdhA. pelA dhana rasiyAnI dukAnane mAla saghaLe kaMTAye paNa jeNe pisaha lIdhe hate tenI dukAna baMdha hovAthI te guMDAe lUMTa karI zakyA nahI. pele lUMTAela ghare AvIne. raDavA lAgyuM kAraNa ke saghaLI milakatane mAla dukAnamAM bharyo hate te lUMTAI javAthI taddana garIbAI AvI. bIje divase vratadhArI pisaha pALIne ghera AvyA. sarva lUMTanI mAluma paDI. ane vicAra karavA lAgyuM ke, saMteSa rAkhIne pisaha lIdhe. tethI kaMTavAnuM thayuM nahIM. ane dhanamAlanuM rakSaNa thayuM ane dharmakriyAnI ArAdhanA rItasara thaI mATe have te kadApi upavAsAdikane tyAga kare nahI. bhale pele. ane enA jevA bolyA kare paNa pariNAme lAbha che. dhananA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jayAti 411 sapattinA rasiyAne garva gaLI gayA. te paNa dhIme dhIme dha kriyAthI sukhI thayA. mATe sadA AtmavAdane tathA vrataniyamane bhUle nahI. nahI bhulanArAo sAcI sAhyakhIvALA ane che. 164 zArIrika mAnasika ane Atmika vikAsa sAdhavAnI icchAvALAe, eTale baLavAna thavAnA abhilASI janAe prathama kSamAne dhAraNa karavI jarUranI che. A sivAya unnatinA vikAsanA ke zakti sapattine prApta karavAnA anya mArga nathI. koI ema kahe ke. kSamA dhAraNa karavI te nila azaktanuM kArya che. zakta khalavAna mANase kSamAne dhAraNa karatA nathI. paNa mareAkhara zikSA Ape che. A temanu kahevu' cAgya nathI kAraNa ke zakti vihIna mAnavA krodha vigerene karatA DAvAthI vadhAre khalahIna ane che tethI temanI peAtAnu kAma sAdhavAnI buddhi bahera mArI jAya che ane pAte pAtAnI pAyamAlI kare che. duryodhane pAMDavA upara kapAtura banI kAramA kera vartAtmyA paNa aMte peAtAnA zayanI--parivAranI ane kuTuMba ane jeoe tenA pakSapAta karyo tenI pAyamAlI karI. ane jagatamAM duna tarIke jAhera thayA tyAre kSamAne dhAraNa karanAra pAMDavAe gaelI rAjya-Rddhine pAchI prApta karI sajjana tarIke prasiddha thayA. nIti zAsrakAza pazu kahe che kSamA balamazakAnAM zaktAnAM bhUSaNaM kSamAkSamA vazIkRtirloke kSamayA kiM na sidhyati - For Private And Personal Use Only

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412 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita azakatene bala aApanAra tathA buddhi-saMpatti ApanAra kSamA che ane zakanuM bhUSaNa kSamA che balavAna banIne kSamA rAkhe nahI te zaktihIna ane vaira virodhAdika karIne pAyamAla thAya. kSamA vaDe saghaLuM jagata vaza bane che pite -bhIti pAmatuM nathI ane anyanene bhayamAM nAMkhate nathI. tethI kSamAne dhAraNa karanAra kaI kaI siddhine meLavatA nathI. vAMchita siddhine prApta karI anukrame Atmika vikAsane sAdhI paramapadane pAme che ane kaSAya karanAra janma-maraNanA saMkaTAmAM sapaDAI saMsAramAM paribhramaNa kare che mATe sAme Avela prANIo tathA mAna upasargo mArAmArI kare te paNa kSamA rAkhavAnI jarUra che. draupadInI mAphaka kurUkSetramAM yuddha karatAM duryodhane sarva sagAMvahAlA-putra mitre mAryA gayA hovAthI adhika krodhAtura banI droNanA putra azvatthAmAne kahyuM ke tuM je pAMDanA mastaka kApI mArI pAse lAve te mane zAMti thAya. ane tAre paNa tArA pitAnuM vera vaLe azvatthAmA yuddhamAM svapitA droNAcArya marI gaela hovAthI pAMDa upara ghaNe krodhI banela che temAM vaLI duryodhananA vacanarUpI gyAsatela reDAyuM. jo ke azvatthAmA hatA te baLavAna paNa pAMDane pahoMcI zake ema nahatuM tethI rAtrinA vakhatamAM draupadInA dIkarA pAMca je sthale sUI rahelA che ane bhara niMdrAmAM che te lAga jANe pAMDavenA sarakhA mukhavALA jANa teonA mastaka kApI duryodhanane ApyA. paNa savA 2mAM teonA putronA mastake jANuM nAkhuza banyuM ane kahyuM ke A mAMthA pAMDavAnA nathI. temanA putronA che tethI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti aphasesa karavA lAge eka bAju pAMDa ane draupadI pitAnA putronA dhaDa dekhI rUdana karavA lAgyAM. draupadIe kahyuM ke A kAramuM kAma azvasthAmAe karela che mATe tene mArI pAse pakaDI lAve ane tenuM mastaka kApI nAMkhe tyAre ja mane zAMti thaze A sAMbhaLI bhImasena tene pakaDI lAvI draupadInI AgaLa hAjara karyo. te vakhate tenI kaMgAla avasthA dekhI draupadIne dayA AvI. ane vicAra-viveka kare che ke mArA putro maraNa pAmavAthI mane atyaMta duHkha thAya che ane zoka saMtApamAM baLavuM paDe che tema tene mArI nakhAvavAmAM tenI mAtAne adhika dukha thaze zoka paritApa thaze ane mArA putro maraNa pAmelA tene mArI nAkhavAthI pAchA AvavAnA nathI. mATe kSamA rAkhavI te kalyANukara che Ama samajI kSamAne dhAraNa karI tene mukta karAvyA ane apakArI upara upakAra karavAne dAkhale barAbara besADaze tethI draupadI satI tarIke jAhera thayAM. ane paramapadane pAmyAM. mATe Atmika mAnasika-zArIrika belanI saphalatA karavA mATe kSamA dhAraNa karavI. tethI AgaLa anaMta guNenA svAmI banAya che mRtA- saralatA-saMtApa vigere guNe vigerene rahevAnuM sthAna maLe che cha khaMDane sAdhI je cakravatIoe vijaya prApta karyo hoya che tenA karatAM kSamAne dhAraNa karIne je vijaya meLavyA hoya che tenI kiMmata anaMta ghaNuM vadhAre che temAM savAranuM kalyANa che paraMtu kSamAne dhAraNa karyA sivAya sAmAne parAjaya karavA ke veranI vasulAta karavA. mArAmArI-laDAI karaze temAM sAmAnuM kalyANa nathI. ane tamAruM paNa hita nathI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaLa4. A. kautisAgaraNari racita kAraNa ke sAme mANasa vera vALavA sAdhane ekaThA karIne tamArI sAthe laDAI karavAnI dhAraNuM rAkhaze tame je ALasamAM rahyA te te phAvI javAne Ama veranI paraMparA vadhavA vAthI kaI prakAre hita thavAnuM nahI ja. 165 tamAre vera vALavuM hoyato ane vijaya meLavavo hoya te, kedhAdika je zatruo khare kharA che. ane barabAdI karI durgatimAM dhakelI denAra che tenI sAthe yuddha karIne vijaya prApta karo te saLela vijaya dareka bAbatamAM tamane samartha banAvaze. ane AtmAnI zaktine vadhAravAmAM sArI rIte sahakAra Apaze. pachI sAcI savataMtratAmAM tame lahera karaze. bahAranA zatruonuM paNa bala cAlaze nahI. anyathA te sAdhana saMpannatAnA AdhAre prApta karela vijaya, parAjayamAM parivartana pAmaze. khate hAlamAM sukha sAhayabI che te paNa raheze nahI. nA vIrA va8-mUSai, keI eka mANasa bhUMDe-lucco hoya tenI sAthe -bhUMDAI lucAI karavI te sajajanenuM kartavya nathI, tevAnI sAme bhaMDAI karavAmAM Ave che teo paNa gunhA pAtra bane che. mATe kSamA rAkhI sahana karI levuM temAM sajajanatA ane mahattA che. Ama sahana karavAthI bhUMDAI karanAroja deza pAtra ane zikSApAtra Tharaze. bhalA sajjane, upara dujane bhalAI karatA nathI ane bhUMDAI karatA rahe che, tyAre ociMtI teone zikSA babara thAya che. te vakhate te bhUMDA mANaseja ghaNuM duHkhI thAya che. kAraNa ke zerane mAthe savAzera jagatamAM hoya che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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415 Atara pati eka zeTha, zrImaMta ane sarala hatA. temanI peDhImAM sanIma ane tenA hAtha nIce gumAstA hatA. zeThanI Avaka ane zrImaMtAI dekhI munImane adekhAI thaI ane mAnavA lAgyuM ke, mArI kuzaLatAthI zeTha bahu kamAya che. ane manamAnato pagAra ApatA nathI. mATe e upAya kara ke zeThanI halakAI thAya. ane nindA pAtra bane apAya na hevAthI gumAstAonI AgaLa guma chAnI niMdA karavA lAge. ke zeka. ghaNu kRpaNa che. muMjhI che. mATe temane chetarI rUpiyA addhara uThAvI levA. tamane paNa bhAge paDatu ApavAmAM Avaze keIne kahevuM nathI. gumAstAo paNa lobhI banI tenI vAta mAnI rUpiyA uThAvavA lAgyA. jyAre zeTha puche che. ke cepaDAmAM jame che. ane trijerImAM rUpiyA nathI. kayAM gayA? amane zI khabara? tame jANe A pramANe kahIne gumAstA tathA munIma, uThAvagIra banela hatAM. ni. jatA pitAnI jAhera kare che. ane kahe che ke, bIjAo uThAvI jAya che. ane amArA upara cArIne Apa mUke che. te ThIka nahI. zeTha vicAra kare che ke tenA upara vizvAsa rAkhe paNa barAbara tapAsa rAkhI nahI. tenuM A pariNAma AvyuM, have barAba2 takedArI rAkhavI. dararoja jameLa tapAse che ane AvakanI tapAsa kare che. tethI Doka vakhata lAga phAvatuM nathI, paNa teonI luccAI karavAnI je Teva paDI che te kayAMthI jAya ? bhUMDA mAguse bhalAI karanAranA upara phAvI jAya che ane bhalAI karanAranA upara uSa ApaNu karatAM paNa A For Private And Personal Use Only

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416 A. kItisAgarasUri racita kAtA nathI. dararoja tapAsa karatA hovAthI rUpiyA uThAvavAne lAga maLato nathI. tethI manamAM mujhAya che eTalAmAM agatyanA kAma mATe zeThane bahAra gAma javAnuM thayuM tyAre zeThe gumAstAo ane munImane kahyuM ke be divase mAre jarUranA kAme bahAra gAma javuM paDe ema che mATe barAbara peDhInuM kAma calAvaje A sAMbhaLI pelAe khuzI thayA. ane kahevA lAgyA. tenI phIkara-cintA karatA nahIM. ame barAbara tapAsa rAkhIzuM. zeTha ghera gayA. jamI karIne taiyAra thAya che tevAmAM je gAmamAM jarUranuM kAma hatuM te gAmathI sArA mANasa sAthe saMdeze AvyuM ke tamAre atre AvavAnI jarUra nathI. dhakako nakAme khAtA nahi. saghaLuM kAma patI gayuM che. A sAMbhaLI zeka khuzI thayA. ane dukAna tarapha cAlavA mAMDayuM. have peDhImAM pelAe zeTha bahAra gayA che Ama dhArI chAnI rIte tijorI ughADI rUpiyA uThAvavA lAgyA. ane gajavAmAM mUke che teTalAmAM zeTha AvIne hAjara thayA. ane kahyuM ke alyA A zuM karo che ? tijorI ughADI rUpiyA uThAvo che ne ? are badamAze ? pahelAM paNa tame rUpiyA cAryA che ema srAbIta thAya che tameja cera che. ane bIjAnA upara Aropa mUke che. A sAMbhaLI munIma gumAstA zeThane damadATI ApavA lAgyA ke mAla lIdhevAnA rUpiyA ApavA mATe tijorI ughADIne rUpiyA bahAra kADhIe chIe tevAmAM tame AvyA. eTale ame cAra banI gayA. tame kevA che? jema tema pheke rAkhe che? zeThe khIssAmAM mUkelA rUpiyA bahAra kADhayA ane kahyuM ke tamane AjathI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 1 rajA ApavAmAM Ave che bahAra cAlyA jAo. pelA mahAra gayA. ane bIjI peDhImAM rahyA. ane prathamanA zeThanI nindA karavA lAgyA. e traNa varSa tA sArI rIte rahyA. je Teva paDI che te pAchI ahiM hAjara thaI. pAchI A bIjI peDhImAM cAro karavA lAgyA. zeThane kahe che ke ame cArI karatA nathI paNa evA cAra evA che ke te cerI karatAM dekhAtA nathI, zeThane vahema paDacA ane chaTaku goThavyuM. temAM pelA munIma vigere pakaDAI gayA. zeThe peAlIza eAlAvI pakaDAvyA. khAra mAsanI zikSA ane eka hajAra daMDanA rUpiyA bharavA paDayA kedamAM rahI majurI karavI paDI. naramagheMsa jevA thayA, AkharUnI sAthe rUpiyA pazu gayA. have tene kAI peDhImAM rAkhatuM nathI. mahA duHkhI thayA. A pramANe evI AkRta luccAone AvI paDe che ke jIMdagImAM cArI karavAnI khADa bhulI jAya. mATe bhuMDAImAM luccAImAM chevaTe tA saMkaTa che Ama samajI bhuMDAI ne bhulI sarala ane sajjana sAthe kapaTa rahitapaNe rahevu. bhalAI karavI temAMja AnaMda che. " sa'patti sattA ane sAhyabInA AdhAre madanmattachAkelA, zrIma MtAne, anuyAyI mANaseAnI tathA nAkara-cAka ranI jarUra rahelI hAvAthI, teone vividha lAlace ApI prathama khuzI kare che. pachI peAtAnA tAbedAra banAvavA aneka yuktie ghaTanAone cenyA kare che, tethI tee amAro garIbAI daridratA dUra karI sukhamAM rAkhaze. Ama samajI temanA vacanane zirasAvadya mAnI temanI tAbedArI uThAve che. ane kaSTAne sahana karIne paNa temaNe batAvela kA 27 For Private And Personal Use Only

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418 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita kare che. paraMtu tevA zrImate te anuyAyI nekara-cAkaranI kadara karatA nathI. saheja aparAdha ke deSa thatAM teone zikSApUrvaka rajA Ape che. evAonI khuzAmata karanAra aMte pastAya che. mATe zeThIyAonI khuzAmatamAM aMjAvuM nahI, ane teonI lAlacamAM lapaTAvuM nahI. sarve zrImate chakelA rahetA nathI. keTalAka vrata niyama dhArI paNa hoya che, te te pitAnA anuyAyIne nokara-cAkaranuM kalyANa-hita karanAra hoya che, teonI karelI khuzAmata lekhe lAge che, bhale pachI kaSTa lAgatuM hoya paNa aMte lAbhadAyI nivaDe che. ane sukhI jIvana gujAre che. mATe dhArmika zrImaMtonI sevA cAkarImAM dhyAna rAkhavuM, eka zrImaMtanI pAse gAye ghaNI hatI. tethI gAvALane rAkhavAnI jarUra paDI, rAkhelA govALane pagAra ane sAthe khAvAnuM paNa ApatA tethI te govALa gAnI sArI rIte pitAnI che Ama mAnI saMbhALa rAkhate, zeTha tene dharma pAme ane kalyANa sAdhe te mATe kahe che ke tuM dara ja derAsaramAM jaIne paramezvaranA darzana kare ane gurUne vaMdanA kare te tane pagAramAM be rUpiyA adhika ApavAmAM Avaze. gevALa paNa zeThanA kathana mujaba dazana vaMdana kare che. pachI gAye cAravA jAya che. ekadA govALe prazna karyo. paramezvara ane gurUdevane darzana vaMdana karavAthI zo lAbha thAya? zeThe kahyuM ke temanA guNe jANavAnA vicAra jAgrat thAya ane temanA guNone grahaNa karavAthI sAcI sukha saMpatti maLe. vaDe guNenI zevALane samajaNa ApavAthI prabhu gurUnA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti 19 guNemAM ghaNo prema jAgyo. gurUnI pAse jaIne vaMdanA pUrvaka cArI-jorI na karavAno niyama lIdho. tethI zeTha. ghaNA khuzI thayA. gAye carAvavAnuM mukAvI daI, gharanA kAmakAjamAM jeDa. gharanA kAmakAja sArI rIte karate hovAthI navakAra maMtrane zikhavADI navakAravALI gaNAvate karyo have te A govALane adhika AnaMda thayo. gharanA kAma saphAIbaMdha karIne TAIma maLatAM navakAramAM manavRttine sthira karavA lAgyuM. tethI AyuSya pUrNa thayA pachI sagatinuM bhAjana bane. AvA zeThIyA enI nokarI karelI sukhazAtA pUrvaka saddagatine meLavavAmAM sArU sAdhana che. paNa te vratadhArI vinAnA zrImaMte che te che teone je dazana-vaMdanAnA abhilASIone dukAna peDhI upara rAkhavAne IcchatA nathI. kAraNa ke teo ema mAne che. ke evA kare darzana vaMdana karavAmAM vakhata lagADe ane pAchA vihAra karatAM hovAthI sAMjare vahelA jAya. mATe evAne rAkhavA nahI. ane je vratavinAnA-niyama vinAnA che teone rAkhavA. AvA zeThIyAne vicAra paNa Avate nathI ke, vratadhArI nokara cAkare gharanA kAmamAM-dukAnanA kAryomAM dage reze nahI. bevaphA banaze nahI. niyamavihIne te kayAre bevaphA bane che te jANI zakAya nahIM. tevA nekare prathama te evuM kAma bajAve vakhatasara Ave ke zeTha khuzI khuzI thAya. paraMtu teonI najara temanI milakata upara hoya che. lAga maLatAM rUpiyAnI thelI upADIne cAlatA thAya. tyAre temane mAluma paDe ke te nekare daze dIdhe. ane rUpiyA laI "cAle gaye. AvA gunhAe te For Private And Personal Use Only

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420 A. kIti sAgarasUri racita * tevA nAkarI kare che. paNa vratadhArIo karatA nathI, mATe taniyama dhArI nAkarAne rAkhavAmAM zAMti rahe che. Ama eka zrImaMte ugharANI lAvavA mATe nAkarane rAkhyA. pUratA pagAra Ape che. chatAM tene satASa rahetA nathI. cAlAka hAvAthI ugharANInA rUpiyA jaldI lAvIne Ape che. tethI gharanI vastuo lAvavA mATe tene kahyu. vastuo lAvI Ape che. paNa temAM ochI kiMmate lAvelI vastuone meghA bhAve AvelI che. Ama kahIne temAMthI paisA addhara uThAvavA lAgyA. zeTha-zeThANI khakhara paDe nahI te mATe jenI dukAnethI mAla lAve che. tene kaDhI mUkeluM ke, kadAca zeTha AvI puche te tyAre mArA kathana mujaba bhAva kahevA. dareka khAkhatamAM uThAvagIrI karavA lAgyA. eka vakhata zeThANInA metIneA hAra tUTI gayA ane mAtI verAI gayA. ekaThA karatAM e meAtI hAthamAM AvyA nahI. gumAstAne kahyuM ke e mAtI jaDatA nathI. teeAnI tapAsa kara, Ama kahIne zeThANI peAtAne ghera Avela sakhI sAthe vAta karavA lAgI. pelA neAkaranA hAthamAM tapAsa karatAM khUNAmAM gabaDI gaela mAtI e hAthamAM AvyA. te TrUkhIne mana lalacAyuM, e meAtI chAtInA gajavAmAM chAnI rIte mUkIne kahevA lAgyA zeThANI ! tapAsa karatAM hAthamAM AvyA nahIM. kANu jANe kayAM gabaDI paDayAM haze ? zeThANIe zeAdha karI. paNa hAya tA maLene ? manavALI zeThANI peAtAnA kAmamAM lAgI, zeThane paNa khabara paDI. pazu tapAsa kharekhara karI nahI. A nAkarane pe' paDayuM. Ama karavAmAM rUpiyA maLe For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti 421 che. eka vakhata bIjI piDhI upara zeThe rUpiyA bharavA mekalyuM. paNa mArgamAMthI ja paisA laIne te nAzI gaye. hAthamAM Avyo nahIM. ane cAra hajAranI nukazAnI veThavI paDI. A pramANe viveka-vita vinAnA nekarane rAkhavAthI mahATI hAni thAya che. mATe jAta-kulavAna-nokarane rAkhavA. kAraNa ke tene bhaya paNa rahe che. 165 ke dhAtura thaela mAnave sudharatI ane sudharelI pitAnI sthitine bagADI nAMkhe che. lAbhanA badale geralAbha uThAvI pote ja potAnI dInatA hInatAne ubhI kare che. krodhane karatA teo ema samaje che ke tenA vinA mANase ane pazu paMkhIo pitAnA vazavata banatA nathI, gusso karavAthI dhAryuM kAma banI zake che. je krodha-gusse karIe nahI te jagatanA leke nirmAlya mAnI adhika satAvyA kare, mATe tenI paNa jarUra che. AvA vicAre karavAthI paNa viveka AvI zakatuM nathI. ane jyAre barAbara pitAnA kAryo bagaDe che. tyAre kaMIka vicAra Ave che. kArya viNazI gayA pachI vicAra kare te vRyA che. krodhanI pahelAM ade- khAI hevAthI tenA saMbaMdhI tarIke te hAjara thAya che. pachI te buddhi-zuddhi ane saMbaMdhane khyAla rahetuM nathI. be bhAIo ekaja pitAnA putra hatA, prema e ke dudha ane pANI je ekanA duHkha-pIDA ane cintA thAya tyAre bIjAne duHkha vigere thAya zarIra judA paNa mana eka sarakhA hatA, tethI AnaMdathI gRhastha dharma yogya For Private And Personal Use Only

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422 A. kItisAgarasUri racita kAryo rItasara karI zakatA. sagAM vahAlAMmAM temaja gAmamAM te be bhAIonA vakhANa thatAM. paraMtu eka rUpALI kanyA upara be bhAIone rAga-prema lA. heATe bhAI kahe che. mAre tenI sAthe lagna karavuM. nAne kahevA lAgyuM ke mAre tenI sAthe paraNavuM che. Ama belAbelI karatAM je pahelAM gema hatuM te naSTa thaye tenA badale adekhAI hAjara thaI. mahAbhAI moTAIne tilAMjalI ApI nAnAbhAIne mArI nAMkhavAnI yojanA karavA lAgyA. nAnAbhAIne te rojanAnI khabara paDI tethI te paNa prathama prema-sneha bhUlIne heTA bhAIne mAravAnI peravI karavA lAgyo. have te eka bIjAne dekhe che ne AMkhamAMthI aMgArA jhare che. paNa mAravAnuM phAvatuM nathI. gharanA mANaso kAryavazAta bahAra gayA tyAre adekhAIe navInarUpa dhAraNa karyuM, krodhanA AvezamAM AvI. be bhAIo, lAThIone laI mAro calAvavA lAgyAM. mahetAbhAIne marma sthale coTa lAgavAthI mUccha khAI nIce DhaLI paDaze. ane tenI lAkaDInI cATa nAnAne lAgI te paNa hAya hAya" karate maraNa pAmyuM. gharamAM Avela mAtapitA be putrone maraNa pAmelA dekhI raDavA lAgyAM. ane aphasa, karavA lAgyAM. ke bAIone ananya sneha hato chatAM sAmAsAmI mAre calAvIne kema marI gayA? tapAsa karatAM mAluma paDI bemAMthI ekane vicAra-viveka AvyuM hatuM te maraNa pAmata nahI. paNa te mUkhAoe vicAra paNa karyo nahI ke kanyA ekane paraNaze be jaNAne te nahIM paraNene? paNa adekhAInA ge kodhAtura banavAthI kayAMthI sujhe? A For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara joti '423 mujaba paisA khAtara-jamIna khAtara eka bIjAne mArI nAMkhe che. kadAca mArAmArI karatAM keI maraNa pAme nahI. te paNa rAjA ane karma tene mukta karatuM nathI. mATe dunyavI cIjo mATe adekhAI karavI nahIM. ane kapAtura banavuM nahI, "dudhamAM khaTAza paDatAM te phATI jAya che." pachI dudha jevI mIThAza rahetI nathI. khaTarAga thayA pachI saMpatti sAhyabI rItasara sukha zAMti Ape kyAMthI? dAna-zIyala tapa bhAvanAthI bhAvita banela AtmAne tyAM sudhI nirmalatA rahe che ke jyAM sudhI adekhAI kepa vagere thaye hAya nahI, tyAM sudhI. je te hAjara thAya te dudha je nirmala AtmA paNa malIna bane che. mATe dunyavI vastuonI Asaktine tyAga karI kaSTa paDe te paNa sahana karI tevA prasaMge vicAra viveka lAve te zAMtine mArga che. "chevaTanI zAMti AgaLanA duHkhane dabAvI de che. eTale duHkha jevuM lAgatuM nathI. AtmAnA guNanA rAgIone te Asakita nahI hovAthI sAMsArika kaSTa janaka prasaMge upasthita thatAM vicAra-viveka lAvI saghaLuM sahana karI le che. ane zAMti pUrvaka jIvana vyatIta karI svargamAM jAya che. 166 dhamane bhUlI nIti nyAyano tyAga karI mAna. kSaNabhaMgura najare dekhatAM khasI jatI vastuomAM rAjapATa sukha sAhyabImAM adhika lapaTAya che. tema tema vikalpa-saMka9pa-zeka saMtApa velaDInI mAphaka vadhatA rahe che. ane vakhata Ave tyAre peTa bharIne mAra paNa khAya For Private And Personal Use Only

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424 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita. che. ane rAjapATa vigere rahetuM paNa nathI. dudhdhana thavA lAge che. eTale ke prakAre mana sthiratA dhAraNa karatuM nathI "satya ga jo koI hoya te prathama maLelI sAhyabImAM lapaTAvuM nahI. te che. je laMpaTa banyA te AvI banyuM mAnajo. tathA Rddhi-siddhinA AdhAre sanmAna-satkAranI IcchA rAkhaze te paNa zeka saMtApAdine AmaMtraNa ApavA jevuM che. tamArAmAM sadUguNe haze. udAratA-niSkapaTatA Indriya jaya haze te sanmAnAdi nahI che te paNa AvI maLaze. jagat sanmAnAdi ApavA tatpara baneze mAge tene maLatuM nathI. nathI mAgatA tene AvA maLe che. mATe paraspara savAre ApI duHkha pIDAomAM AzvAsana ApI tathA jJAna pUrvaka laMpaTapaNane tyAga karavA taiyAra thavuM joIe. ane premanehane vadhArI haLI maLIne rahevuM167 jenA AdhAre sagAMvahAlAMonI AjIvikA cAlatI hoya ane mitre vigerene madada maLatI hoya te udAratA-dIrvAdazitA vigere guNe jANavA. Ama te dareka mANase pitAnuM peTa bhare che temAM kAMI vizeSatA kahevAya nahI. keI upakAra vinA mAtra pitAnuM piTa bharavA aneka doSane seve che tejIvatA marelA kahevAya che. keI zaheramAM be bhAIo hatA. temAM nAnA bhAI dhanADhaya hato ane mATe sAdhAraNa sthitine hate chatAM sadAcArI prabhu bhakita sevA karato. zakaya udyoga karI pitAnuM ane parivAranuM jIvana calAvate. nAno bhAI ane tenI strI moTAnI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 425 'ra "" mazkarI karatAM ke kevA bhikhArI hAlatamAM che ane tuccha gaNI moTA madada levA Ave tyAre tene tiraskAra karIne kADhI mUkatAM koIpaNa prakAre sahAya ApatAM nahI. tethI mATe! bhAI cAlIza gadheDA rAkhIne jaMgalamAMthI sukA lAkaDA kApI majAramAM vecIne svavyavahAra rItasara calAvatA. eka divasa jaMgalamAM jaIne lAkaDA kApI gadheDA upara bharIne mAga mAM gamana karI rahela che tevAmAM dhADapADuo-luTArAne dekhI A meTA bhAI bhaya pAmI gadheDAone eka patanI TekarInI pAchaLa tagaDI mUkayA ane pete ghaTAvadAra vRkSa upara caDhI gayA ane cArA kayAM jAya che ane zu kare che te gupta rahIne joI rahela che tevAmAM te luMTArA ceArA paryaMtanI guphA pAse AvI tenuM khAraNuM ughADavA khula jA sama sama A mujaba khelatAM te khAraNuM ughaDayuM. ane uTA upara rahela seAnA mahArAno thelIo utArI guphAmAM peThA. temAM khAlI karI pAchA bahAra AvIne melyA. " madha jA sama sama" khANuM aMdha thayuM ane uTa upara besI te gucchatI karI gayA. jhADa upara rahela moTAbhAI cArAnI karAmata tathA vacanA sAMbhaLI Azcaya pAmyA pachI khuzI thaine guphAnI pAse AvI teNe kahyuM ke " khula jA samasama '' khAraNuM ughaDayuM. aMdara pesIne jue che. teA seAnAmahArAnA DhagalA rUpAseAnAnA dAgInA ane aDhaLaka jhaverAta dekhI vicAra kare che ATalI milkata che chatAM cArA lUMTanA gojhArA dhaMdhA mUkatA nathI ane lekAne luMTI mArI pAyamAla banAve che ane lUMTanA mAla tenA upayegamAM AvatA dekhI khuzI thAya che. lAvane For Private And Personal Use Only

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426 A. kIrtisAgarasUri raci huM paNa temAMthI sonAmahoranI cAlIza thelIo laIne ghara bhego thAuM. gadheDAne tagaDI lAvI tenA upara sonAmahoronI thelIo barAbara goThavI ane tenA upara sukA lAkaDAne e rIte goThavyAM ke bIjAone khabara paDe nahI. cAlIza gadheDAne tagaDate potAnA gharamAM teone laI gaye. tevAmAM tenI strIe tADUkIne kahyuM ke, tamane bhAna nathI. gharamAM badhAone laI AvyA-teNe IzAro karyo. cUpa rahe bolIza nahI. strI chAnI rahI. teNe lAkaDAne gharanI bahAra nAMkhI thelIone nIce utArI nAMkhI te harakhAtI tyAM AvIne jovA lAgI-ke emAM zuM che ? temAM rahelI sonAmahene dekhI gAMDI ghelI banI gaI ane bolavA lAgI. ATalI badhI sonAmahora kyAMthI lAvyA? teNe kahyuM. uMce sAdathI bela nahI. keI jANI jaze. saghaLI bInA tene kahI. ane gharamAM dATavA mATe khADo khodavA lAge. ubhA rahe ? keTalI che. huM gaNuM lau gaNavA lAgI tene pAra AvyuM nahI tyAre mApIyAthI mApavA mATe IcchA darzAvI potAnA gharamAM nahI hovAthI derANunA ghera javA mATe nIkaLI. teNe kahyuM ke javAde tArI derANI baDI catura ane ThagArI che. mApI mAgatAM cetI jaze. ane te ane nAne bhAI vakhate jAhera kare te te lUMTArAe ghaNuM herAna karaze. strIe kahyuM. emAM zuM jANI javAnA che? Ama kahI teNInA ghera jaIne zeranA mApanI mAgaNI karI. derANI manamAM babaDavA lAgI. gharamAM te zera loTa paNa nathI ane mApIyuM levA AvI che. chatAM kAMIkathI tene dhaNuM lAvyA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti, hoya te kahI zakAya nahI. AmadhArI mApIyAnA nIce mINuM cApaDIne ApyuM. te laIne ghera AvI. te mApathI sonAmahero bharIne gaNuM. ke ATalI thaI. Ama sonAmahorone mApI. tenI gaNatrI karI. paNa tenA taLIye eka sonAmahera mINamAM cuMTI gaI. tenI khabara rahI nahI. tapAsa karyA vinA pAchI ApI AvI. derANuMe tapAsa karI te senA. mahera eMTelI dekhI. teNe anumAnathI karyuM ke, senAmaherAne mApavA laI gaI. ahe tyAre keTalI haze. jarUra, lAkhakareDa hevI joIe. pitAnA patine vAta kahI. dhanane lebhI have bhAI pAse AvI kahevA lAgyuM ke sAcuM bela ATalI senAmahoro kayAMthI lAvya. ke gaNI zakAI nahIM. ane mApanI jarUra paDI. moTAbhAIe saghaLI bInA kahI. tethI nAne bhAI huM tenAthI adhika dhanavAna banuM. Ama dhArIIrSyAthI baLate te guphA pAse AvI. "khulajA samasama" bAraNuM ughaDayuM. temAMthI moTAbhAInA karatA Dabala thelIo te lIdhI. paNa AnaMdamAM ane adekhAImAM baMdha karavAne maMtra bhUlI gaye. yAda karatAM bapora thayuM. tevAmAM pelA cere. AvyA. khullA bAraNane dekhI vismaya pAmyA. aMdara peThAtyAre nAnA bhAIne de. tene mArI nAMkhe. thelIo. pAchI gaThavI dIdhI. jyAre ghera gaye nahI tyAre tene parivAra raDavA kuTavA mAMDyo. mATe saMpa rAkhI keIne tiraskAraIrSyA karavI nahI. 168 AmA thakI para vastuone grahaNa karavAmAM magna thaelA potAnA guNene bhUlI sukhazAMtine For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita prApta karavA khAtara pramANikatAne tyAga karI anyAyane mAge deDayA jAya che. paraMtu sukhazAMtinA badalAmAM cintA-zeka AvIne upasthita thAya che ane vAMchita vastu teone maLatI nathI mATe je paTutA hoya te pramANitAne pATu mAre nahI. ane kuzaLatAne kApa nahI. DahApaNanA dariyAmAM baDe nahI. saguNe sivAya meLavelI paTutA-kuzaLatA unmArge laI jaze. sadguNe heya teja pravINatA zobhAspada bane che tyAM vezavaya vigere kAmamAM AvatA nathI. sattAdhArI tathA zrImaMte je Atmika guNe vinaya-viveka. vrata niyAmAM na hoya te vividha upadro ubhA kare che mAtapitAnI ke saMbaMdhIonI zarama lAgatI nathI. bhale pachI teoe kolejamAM managamatI keLavaNI lIdhI heya. saheja bAbatamAM magaja gumAvI tiraskAra karavA besI jAya che mATe keLavaNuM sAthe dhArmikaAtmika guNanI paNa kuzaLatA meLavavI ke jethI manavAMchita vastu AvI maLe ane tene sadupayega thAya. kelejamAM adhyApaka-vidyArthIone vijJAnane abhyAsa karAvatA ane sAthe sAthe Atmika dhArmika guNonuM paNa vijJAna rItasara ApatA. eka dIvasa teonI parIkSA karavA vicAra thaye ke A vidyAthIe phakta jaDavAdamAM pravINa che ke AtmavAdamAM tenI tapAsa karavI. adhyApakane saMtAnamAM ekaja putrI hatI te paNa Atmika guNanuM samyaga jJAna grahaNa karIne pravINa che. yuvAvasthAnA AMgaNe paga mUkatAM adhyApakane citA thaI. tenI sAthe teNIne paraNAvavI. lAyaka For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti, 429 vara maLe te tene sukhazAtA rahe lAyaka vinAne paraNAvavAmAM Ave te pagale pagale viDaMbanA thAya. Ama vicArI bIje sthale tapAsa na karatAM potAnA vidyAthIone kahyuM ke tame zrImaMtanA nabIrA che ane vijJAnane jANI sArI rIte paTutA-kuzaLatA meLavI che tethI mArI putrIne lAyaka varanI jarUra che mATe tamArAmAMthI tame vastrAbhUSaNa ane hajAra senAmahe keI dekhe nahI ane keI paNa jANe nahI te laIne Ave te amane pasaMda paDaze tenI sAthe lagna karAvIzuM. vidyArthIoe te kanyAne dekhI hatI. rUpavatI ane vivekI tathA vijJAnamAM kuzaLa hevAthI tenA upara saghaLA vidyAthIone ghaNe prema hatuM tethI te vastrAbhUSaNa tathA sonAmaha levA mATe potAnA ghera gayA. paNa potAnI pAse na hovAthI gharamAM chAnI mAnI rIte corI karIne lAvIne adhyApakane ApI. te vidyAthIo paikI eka vivAthI pramANika hatuM ane nyAya nIti dharmamAM tathA Atma jJAnamAM pravINa hate. te vicAra karavA lAgyo. mArI pAse te te kanyAne cagya vastrAbhUSaNa nathI temaja eka paNa senAmahora nathI. cerI karIne mAtApitAne chetarI laI jauM te mAruM jJAna lajavAya-hAMsIpAtra bane-mATe mAta pitAne chetarI gupta rIte javAmAM kAMi mAla nathI. tathA mAtapitA vigere dekhe nahI. paNa huM pote te dekhuM chuM ane adhyApake te kahyuM che. keI paNa dekhe nahI ane jANe paNa nahIM A mujaba lAvavI, te pachI te vaAbhUSaNa vigere chAnA lIdhA karatAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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43. A. kIti sAgarasUri racita khAlI hAthe javu temAM ja kuzaLatA che. ane vijJAna je jANyuM tenI sAktA ane saphalatA che. Ama viveka karIne khAlI hAthe A vidyAthI AvyA. adhyApake puchyu ke tArA sivAya saghaLA vidyAthIe ghareNA gAMDA laIne AvyA. tuM kema lAvye nahI ? sAheba ? kevI rIte lAvuM? mArI pAse tA paherelA sivAya vastrAbhUSaNeA tathA sonAmahArA che ja nahIM. gharamAM cArI karI gupta rIte lAvuM teA karelA abhyAsa vRthA thAya. nIti dharma upara lAta paDe. ane jAheramAM Avu te hAMsIpAtra manu, temaja vaLI tame kahyuM hatuM ke kAI dekhe-jANe nahI te mujaba lAvavI paraMtu kadAca sagAM saMkha'dhI dekhe jANe nahI. paNa hu* pAte te| dekhuM ane jANu huM ke cArI karIne A mAla lAvavAmAM AvyA che. mATe kAMi paNa lAkhyA nahIM. mhane patnI karatAM pramANikatAmAM aSika prIti che. A sAMbhaLI adhyApaka manamAM khuzI thayA. ane kahyuM ke tuM ja mArI kanyAne lAyaka che, cArI karIne lAvelA vidyAthI one kahyuM, tameA bhaNyA-paNa gaNyA nahI. tameAe kaSTa karIne vijJAnanA abhyAsa karyAM te phAgaDha che, abhyAsa karIne cArI karavAnuM zikhyA tethI tamArAmAMthI kAIne A khAlI hAthe AvelA vidyAthI sivAya kanyA devAmAM Avaze nahI. mArI pAse vastrAbhUSaNeAne tathA seAnA mahArAnA taTe nathI. A te tamArI parIkSA karavA mATe kahyuM. Ama kahIne peAtAnI kanyA pramANika ane potAnA AtmAne oLakhanAra vidyArthIne paraNAvI. ane kanyAdAna adhika dIdhu, kanyA paNa lAyaka pati maLavAthI Atma sAdhana For Private And Personal Use Only

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401 AMtara jAti pUrvaka vyavahAra calAvavA lAgI. A pramANe zrImaMte paNa nyAya nIti ane AtmAnA dharmane bhUle nahI te sura suMdarI-tathA ziva suMdarI varamAlA paherAvI AtyAMtika sukha arpaNa kare ane Adhi-vyAdhi ane upAdhine valepAta TaLe mATe bhaNe vyavahAra calAve che te vyAvahAra Atmika dharmanA AdhAre zreyaskara bane. deva-gurU ane dharmanI ArAdhanAnA ge puryodaya thatAM, devadurlabha meMghere manuSya bhava maLe. ane sAthe Aryakula-pAMca indriyanI paTutA. balavAnuM zarIra vigere prApta thayuM. paNa teonI saphalatA-sArthakatA karIne Atma-ti karI zakyA nahI. ane prabhu puNyane bhUlI paisAne meLavavAmAM. ane adhikAdhika prApta karavAmAM prayatna karyo tene ja sarvasva mAnI keI bI prakAre kema vadhu ekaThA thAya tenA ghATa karavA lAgyo. tethI keIe thApaNa mUkI hoya temAM paNa laMpaTa banI lAkhopati thavA IcchayuM paraMtu jyAre aMte Aphata ociMtI AvI paDe che. tyAre hAya pITa karavA maMDI paDe che. eka lAkhe pati zrImaMta hate. vyavahArika kAryomAM kuzaLa hovAthI AbarU paNa sArI jAmI. vepAra dhamadhokAra cAlate. AvakamAM varSe varSe vadhAre thatuM. paNa A saghaLI anukulatA sAthI maLI che. kayA kAraNathI upalabdha thaI che. tene vicAra sarakhe paNa karatA nathI. viveka te kayAMthI Ave? paisA paisAmAM lAgI rahela che. "eka vepArIne zubha bhAvanA thaI ke, paisA-parivAra vigere puNedaye maLyuM che. puNya khitama thatAM pAmara banAze mATe lAva. For Private And Personal Use Only

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42 A. kIti sAgarasUri rAcata yAtrA karavA jAuM, tyAM deva gurU dharmanI ArAdhanA karavAnA samaya rItasara maLI Avaze. A vicAramAM jhaverAta tathA seAnA mahArAnI cintA thaI. mArI gerahAjarImAM krAI gaThIe dagA-prapaMca karIne ThagI jAya te A dhArIne jhaverAta tathA seAnA mahArA, sArI peTImAM bharIne tathA tenA upara akharoTa' barAbara DhAMsI ThAMsIne mUkI, upara lakhela lakSAdhipatine tyAM thApaNu mUkavA Aye. te vakhate A dhanADhaya peAtAnA gharamAM bhajana karatA hatA. tene kahyuM ke mAre yAtrA karavA javuM che. mATe A akharATanI peTI tamAre tyAM mUko. teNe kahyuM ke bhAI tamArI peTI mArI vakhAramAM mUko. yAtrAe janAre vakhAranA eka khUNAmAM mUkI gharanI kharAkhara vyavasthA karI peAte yAtrA karavA nIkaLyeA. tIthe jaIne sArI bhAvanAthI devagurU dharmanI ArAdhanA karIne vepArAtha khIje sthale gAma-nagarAdimAM vepAra karatAM ghaNuM| lAbha meLavyeA, ane sAta varSo pachI peAtAnA vatanamAM AgaiA. te daramyAna jenI pAse thApaNu mUkI che. te zeThe vakhAramAM gayA. akharoTa khAvAnI IcchA thaI. peTIne ughADI e traNa phaLa hAthamAM lIdhA. paNa te ghaNA vakhata lAgavAtho kharAba thaela DAvAthI nIce sArA haze Ama dhArInetenI nIce rahelA akharoTa ne 1 kADhavA lAgyA. paNa badhA kharAma thaela hAvAthI nIce nAMkhI dIdhA. tevAmAM seAnA sahArA eka hajAra ane jhaverAta dekhI lalacAyA ane jhave rAta daza hajAranuM ane eka hajAra seAnAmaheAra hatI te lai navA akharoTa kula lAvI peTImAM bharyuM ane manamAM malakAvA For Private And Personal Use Only

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tara neti hA ane vicAra viveka paNa AvyuM nahI ke pArakAnI thApaNa eLavavI te mahA pApa che. mAre kayAM ochuM che A khyAla pisAnA pUjArIne Avyo nahI. thApaNa mUkanAra sAta varSe pitAne ghera AvIne tenI pAse jaIne piTInI mAgaNI karI. tenA kahevAthI vakhAramAMthI peTI laI svasthAne jaIne peTI ughADI tapAsa kare che paNa jhaverAta-ane sonAmahero dekhI nahI. tethI pelA zrImaMtanI pAse AvI kahevA lAgyuM ke zeThajI! peTImAM akharoTanA phale nIce mUkela jhaverAta vigere nathI. zeTha bolyA jhaverAta kevuM ane senAmahere kevI? akharoTanI peDhI kahI tene te vakhAramAM mUkAvI nAhakane gaLe paDe che. teNe kahyuM zeThajI! zA mATe takarAra karAve che? akharoTa nIce meM jhaverAta-nAmahera mUkI hatI. te tamArA vizvAsane laIne. nahI Ape te phariyAda karavI paDaze. jA jA kacerI ughADI che. ghaNI AjIjI karI paNa mAnyuM nahI. tyAre kerTamAM keza dAkhala karyo. nyAyA. dhIze sAkSI pUrAvA nahI maLavAthI zeThane gunegAra TharAvyanahI. chevaTe rAjAnI pAse jaIne phariyAda karI. rAjAe ghaNA vyavahAramAM kuzaLa buddhimAnane kahyuM ke tame Ane nikAla lA. teNe pelI peTI maMgAvI. ane tapAsa karI ke sAta varSa sudhI A akharoTa sArA rahe nahI. saDI jAya. Ate. navA tAjA dekhAya che mATe tenuM jhaverAta vigere laIne navAM peTImAM bharyA che mATe jarUra A zeThe jhaverAta vigere lIdhuM che. zeThe kahyuM ke jevAMbharyA tevA che je tevA rahela hoya te vepArIone bolAvI puche. vepArIoe kahyuM. be varSamAM 28 For Private And Personal Use Only

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434 A. kIrtisAgarasUri cita agaDI kharAba thAya che tethI zeTha mauna rahyA. rAjAe ghaNI damadATI Apela hAvAthI ALavela saghaLuM Apavu' paDyuM ane AbarU gai te vadhAre. thApaNa mukanAra te milkatane laI ghera gayA ane zeTha gamagIna khanI straghera gayA ane hAMsIpAtra anya. mATe dhana dolata je maLI che. temAM sa MtASa rAkhI lAla lAlacathI pArakI thApaNa ALavavAmAM dhana ane dha AmarU rahetI nathI. ane veravarAdha vadhatA rahe che dhanADhaye e ana sAta kSetrAmAM vAparavuM joie ke temAMthI uDAvavu joiye? uThAvanAra e bhavA ke ghaNA bhavo sudhI peAtAnuM kalyANanu lIlAma kare che ane tenA vighnA vAre vAre AvI satAvyA kare che mATe mamatAnA tyAga karA. jADAi-tathA 169 prANIo-tathA daiva dAnava ane mAnavAnI cAmyatA tenI zArIrika bhabhakA upara nathI. paNa zakti-zANu paNa udAratA ane pavitratA upara che. tethI ja dAnava saTI mAnava ane che. ane mAnavadeva jevA ane che. ane pavitratAthI AtmAnA vikAsa sAdhavA samartha ane che. AvA samane phAI dAnava jevA kahe ke yAtA nila ane mAyakAMgale che. tethI te AtmAnA vikAsa karanAra, dAnava ke mAya kAMgalA anatA nathI senAnI vITImAM jaDela maNi ke horAne annajane paththara jevA kahe. tethI temanI kimata ghaTI sakatI nathI. tathA pittaLanI vITImAM jaDela hIrAne ke maNine parakhanAra jhaverI temAM jaDanAranA doSa kahe che. mATe duniyAmAM saghaLA For Private And Personal Use Only

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alara ti jane DahApaNavALA detA nathI. Ama jANuM AtmajJAnI, rAga-dveSa ane mehAdine dhAraNa karatA nathI. ane dunyavI vAtAvaraNamAM phasAtA nathI. jalakamalanI mAphaka nirlepa rahe che. AmAnatimAM AgaLa vadhatA rahe che. DAhyA ane vidvAna gaNutA, samaya-kAlanA parivartanamAM potAnI divyatA ane pavitratAne tyAga karI lekaherImAM phasAI paDe te teonI buddhi-zakti ubhAge jAya, ane vicAra paNa unmAga gAmI banatAM je dezamAM-samAjamAM ke jJAtimAM ekatA rahe che. temAM bheda paDAvI bhAgalA pADe tethI teonuM paNa hita sadhAya nahI. kAraNa ke ekatAmAM bala-buddhi vigerenI sArthaktA che. tamArAmAM buddhi bala hoya te dunyavI bhautika padArtho khAtara bheda paDAve nahI. ane bhAgalA pADe nahI. enI AgaLa be mUkavAmAM Ave to bAvIza thAya. bAvIza banatAM bAvIza parisAne jItavAnI zakti Ave ane be bagaDAnI AgaLa bIjA be bagaDAo mUkavAmAM Ave te be hajAra AvIza thAya. eTale bAvIne bAvIza ane te paNa pUrNa vikAsa sadhAtuM nathI. tethI je cAra bagaDA che tethI AgaLa pAMcame bagaDe mUka-agara mUkAvAne vicAra rAkhe. pachI joIle ke bAhA ane antaranA zatruo kevA bhAgo bhAgI karI jAya che? jarUra raheze nahI. ane sAcI svAdhInatA AvI hAjara thaze. tame kaheze ke, e pAMca bagaDA kayA! jJAna-ane kriyA-"saMvara ane nirjarA "kSamA ane saMtoSa zauca-satya AtmAnA vikAsanI tamannA-ane dehAdhyAsane tyAga, A mujaba vartana karanAranI kAyA ka2vRkSa karatAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrtisAgarasUri adhika kiMmatI ane mahimAvaMta che. 17 "mehamugdha ajJajanene mAluma paDatI nathI ke devadurlabha manuSyanI kAyA malI che. deve paNa A kAyAne IcchI rahyA che. ke kyAre manuSyanI kAyA-zarIra maLe, ne ame jJAnakriyA vizerenI ArAdhanA karI apAra saMsAra sAgarane pAra pAmIye. AvI kAyA, sarva zaktiono tathA siddhi-zuddhine prApta karavA malI che. tene sadupayoga karavA pUrvaka saMsAra sAgarane pAra pAmIe ane Adhi-vyAdhi ane upAdhio mUlamAMthI khase te prayAsa karIe. sAMsArika viSamAM te pariNAme paritApa ja che. AvI samajaNa nahI hovAthI amulya kAyAne jema tema viSaya kaSAyanA vicAromAM ane vikAromAM vRthA veDaphI de che, ke eka mALInA bagIcAmAM vividha velaDIe sugaMdhathI mahekI rahela che. vRkSe pitAnI zItala chAyA vaDe bhAgamAM Avelane ArAma ApI rahelA che. tathA na oLakhAya evI jaDIbuTTIonI vanaspati paNa ugI rahela che. tathA teo aMdara Dhera DhAMkharane khAvA lAyaka ghAsa paNa ugela che. bagIcAne mAlI-ugelA ghAsane ukheDI nAMkhatA hatA. ane ghAsa sAthe bhegI rahela jaDIbuTTIauSadhine ukheDI nAMkhavA lAgyuM. tevAmAM Avela kuzaLa vaghe kahyuM ke are mAlI! ghAsa bhegI A roganAzaka auSadhine ukheDI nAMkha nahiM-je tenuM rItasara piSaNa maLaze te tane ane jana samudAyane ghaNe lAbha thaze. AvI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti auSadhi jyAM tyAM maLatI nathI ke te AvI vyAdhinAzaka auSadhine ghaNe sthale tapAsa karatA phare che. tAru bhAgya che. ke AvI amulya auSadhi malI che. A sAMbhaLI mAlIe kahyuM ke, huM ene oLakhatuM nathI. ane oLakhIne paNa zuM karUM, mArU zarIra nirogI che, mATe tenI jarUra nathI. vaidya kahyuM ke tAre jarUra na hAya-paNa jana samudAyane lAbha kartA hevAthI jarUra che. ghaNuM samajAvyuM paNa mAnya nahI. ane ukheDIne pheMkI dIdhI. A mujaba kAyA paNa bhavanA roga nAzaka che. paNa tene sadupaga karavAmAM Ave te lAbhadAyaka bane, ane unmArga-anItinA mArge vAparavAmAM Ave te tene lAbha maLe nahI. sujJa munivaryo kahe che ke. AtmAne-prabhune parakhavA mATe kAyA maLI che. tene kaleza-kaMkAsamAM-kusaMpamAM ukheDI nAMkhe naho-vRthA gumAve nahI. tame kAyAnI kiMmata jANatA nathI paNa sujJajane te jANe che. temane upadeza sAMbhaLI, tapa-japa-jJAna kriyA rUpI pANInuM siMcana karI piSaNa kare. vividha aNu cintavyA vida-vipAttao ane viDaMbanA je AvI satAvI rahe che. pIDAo utpanna karI rahela che tene nAza thaze. 171 moTA ane saddaguNuM sujJonA AdhAre AgaLa vadhelA, sAdhAraNa manuSyone kaI puche tyAre kahetAM zaramAya che, ane halakAinI zaMkA dhAraNa karIne baDAI hAMkatA kahe che. ke ame amArI zaktithI ja vadhyA chIe Ama belI pitAnI halakAIne AmaMtraNa ApI rahelA che. jenA For Private And Personal Use Only

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438 A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita AdhAre vadhyA che teone upakAra mAnavAnA badale apakAra-nindA karavA tatpara bane che. tethI teonI halakAI jAhera thAya che. ane sazuNenA rAgI banI zakatA nathI. mATe sadgu meLavavA heya ane tenA ge mahattA prApta karavI hoya te thaela alpa upakArane bhUle nahIM. thaelA thoDA upakArane nahI bhUlavAthI ghaNuM upakAranuM vismaraNa thaze nahI. ane svayameva mahattA AvI maLaze. anyathA jevA hazo tethI paNa nIcatA upasthita thaze. "eka gRhastha saMsAranI anityatA jANI gharabAra-pUjA parivArAdikane tyAga karavA pUrvaka saMnyAsa svIkAryo. maDha bAMdhIne jaMgalamAM rahIne kaMda mUlAdi vaDe jIvana calAve che. kArane jApa karIne AtmAne sthira karavA prayAsa karI rahela che. te arasAmAM eka vidyAvALe hajAma vidyAnA AdhAre A saMnyAsInI hajAmata karavA Avyo. khAlI hAthe Avela hovAthI tene puchavAmAM AvyuM. sAdhana vinA tuM kevIrIte hajAmata karIza, hajAme kahyuM ke, tenI cintA kare nahI. juo ! AkAza mAge, ane nakhaharaNI vigere AvI rahela che. AvelA dekhI saMnyAsIne acaMba thaye. AvI vidyA mArI pAse hoya te janasamudAyamAM mAna-satkAra pUrvaka jamavAnuM sArI rIte maLe ane leke deDuM deDa karatA AmaMtraNa ApavA Ave mATe keIbI. prakAre hajAmanI pAsethI vidyA prApta karavI. hajAmata karI rahyA pachI saMnyAsIe tene kahyuM ke, tuM tArI pAse rahelI vidyA mane zikhavADa, hajAme bhale Apa sukhethI laIne tenI barAbara ArAdhanA karo. tamene ApatAM bAdha jevuM nathI, For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 439 Ama kahIne vidyAnI sAthe ArAdhavAnI AnaMdathI saghaLI vidhi darzAvI. saMnyAsIe ekAgratAthI te vidyAne sAdhI. have te saMnyAsI vastImAM Ave che tyAre daMDa, kamaMDalakAmaLa mAlA vigere vidyAnA prabhAve temanI sAthe AkAzamAM AvI rahelA hovAthI mAnavIone Azcarya thayuM. aha! A saMnyAsI camatkArI dekhAya che. ApaNe je Adara satkAra pUrvaka gharamAM jamADIe te kalyANa thAya, jana samudAya camatkArane dekhI Adara pUrvaka gharamAM bhAvatA bhejana jamADe che. ane ame tarI. gayA mAne che. have dareka mANase jaMgalamAM AmaMtraNa ApI jamADIne khuzI thayelA che. saMnyAsI bAvAnI mahattA sAthe prabhAva vA. khamAkhamA thavA lAgI. paNa saMnyAsI te prabhAvane pacAvI zakayA nahI. mAna-satkAra prabhAva vigere maLa te ThIka che paNa pacAva duSkara che. eka dIvasa vastImAM AvI rahelA che daMDa-kamaMDala vigere AkAzamAM AvI rahela che te vakhate eka bhagate puchayuM ke, tame kayAMthI AvI prabhAvazALI vidyA zIkhyA ke daMDa vigere tamArI sAthe AkAzamAM Ave che kahe to kharA, hajAme puchanAra bhagatane saMnyAsIne vidyA ApavAnI vAta kahelI hovAthI teNe puchayuM. are bhAIbhagata, mane vaLI vidyA keza arpaNa kare. meM pate dhyAna karavAthI meLavI che bIje koNa AvI prabhAvazAlI vidyA zIkhavADe? hajAmanuM nAma detAM halakAI thAya. ane mAnapAnamAM hAni thAya. Ama vicArIne keIe mane vidyA ApI nathI. Ama bolatAM daMDa-kamaMDala vigere AkAzamAMthI jamIna upara paDayA. lake ekaThA thAya, puchavA lAgyA ke Ama kema For Private And Personal Use Only

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ja. A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita thayuM ? saMnyAsIne zarama AvI nIcu mukha rAkhIne ubhA kema rahyA che? zuM hajAmatuM nAma detAM lAja zarama AvI upakAra kare te dUra rahyo tenuM nAma detAM tamone halakAI bhAsI? bhegA thaela leke paNa hAMsI karavA lAgyA ane vilA mukhe saMnyAsI maThamAM AvI pastA karavA lAgyA. bhagate bhegA thaelAne kahyuM ke A saMnyAsIne hajAme ja vidyA ApI hatI. tenuM nAma detAM zarama AvI tethI vIlA mukhe javuM paDayuM. ane hAMsIpAtra banyA. satya vAta kahe. vAmAM te adhika mahattA maLI heta tethI sujJa mAnavIoe kahyuM ke, sAdhAraNa ke halakA prANIo ke manuSe dvArA upakAra thaela te bhUle nahI. tenA upakAranuM maraNa bhUlavuM nahI. sAme upakAra karavAne prasaMga ma hoya nahI te nAmanI yAdI te rAkhavI. paNa apakAra kadApi karo nahI. nindA pAchaLa karavI nahIM. apakAra karanArane tathA pAchaLa nadA karanArane jANItA mAne tiraskAre che keI tenI sAthe kAma pADatuM nathI. eka gAmamAM eka zrImaMte eka saMbaMdhIne AgaLa vadhAravA mATe potAnA gharamAM rAkhyo prathama te vizvAsa besADavA mATe rItasara rahevA lAgyuM. zeThane tene upara vizvAsa beThe tethI gharanuM tathA dukAnanuM sarva kArya tene seMpavAmAM AvyuM. zeThanI milakata dekhI mugdha banyuM. pote zrImaMta thavAnI lAlacamAM gharamAMthI dAgInA-jhaverAtanI cerI karI bajAramAM vece che. Ama chatAM paNa zeThane zaMkA tenA upara AvatI nathI. chevaTe zeThANane paNa mArI nAMkhavA yukti For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 441 karavA lAge. vyAdhi thavAthI zeThANI maraNa pAmI. have zeThane mAravA janA ghaDavA lAgyo. paNa khabara paDI gaela hevAthI tene kADhI mUka aMte duHkhI thaye ane AbarU gaI te vadhAre mATe apakAra kare nahI ja. 172 karmone laIne prANuo-mAnava-dAnava ane devonI bhinna bhinna prakRtie heya che te pachI sarakhA vicAra ane avasthA heya kayAMthI? jyAre sarve karmo-ghAtIyA-ane aghAtIyA tathA dezathI ghAtIyA karmo kUlamAMthI naSTa thAya che tyAre ja sarva prANIone sarakho svabhAva thAya che. A sivAya mAnavAdine judI judI avasthA thAya che keIne AMtaraDAnI vyAdhi hoya ane peTamAM pIDA thatI hatI hAya-AhArAdi pAcana thatA na hoya tyAre A vyAdhi kayAre nAza pAmaze tenI kalpanA thayA kare, keIne strI mAMdI rahetI hoya, zyAma hovAthI bIjI gerIne paraNavAnI AzA hoya, koIne vaLI putrAdikanA abhAve cintA satAvatI hoya che. tathA keIne sAdhana sAmagrI hoya chatAM tAva-tarI AvatuM hovAthI tene dUra karavA vicAra karatA hoya che. tathA keIne vaLI peTa bharavAnI cinatA rahelI hoya che. A pramANe dukhe AvI ghera ghAle che. tyAre teone TALavA mATe vividha prayAsa karatA khAya che. chatAM jyAre te te dukha khasatA nathI tyAre koI vidhAtAne kaI prabhu paramezvarane upAlaMbha Ape che. ke he For Private And Personal Use Only

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jara A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita vidhAtA amArA duHkha-saMkaTa-ane pIDAone kayAre TALIza, tuM amArA upara duSTa thaela che ke zuM? A sAMbhaLI dhAre ke vidhAtAe rAjA mahArAjAnuM rUpa dhAraNa karIne AvIne Dho pITAvI jAhera karyuM ke jeone pIDAo saMkaTa-- vipattio hoya teoe amArI pAse AvI te dukhene TALavA mATe davA laI javI sarve mANase deDatA deDatA. AvI lAgyA. AMtaraDAnI ane peTanI vyAdhivALAne prathama recanI davA ApI. tethI saMDAsamAM jaI jaIne thAkI gayA. pIDA te naSTa thaI paNa azakti adhika thaI mAMdI strI vALa AvyuM tene nirogI banavAnI davA ApI. sAjI thaI tyAre dareka bAbatamAM ciDAIne gusso karavA lAgI tyAre tene pati vicAre che. mAMDI hatI te ThIka hatuM. ke sAmu belatI nahI. dhIme dhIme paNa zAMta rahIne gharanuM kAmakAja karatI-atyAre te kahe che ke rasoI lAve pANI bharavA mATe eka dAsa-dAsI rAkhe. Avaka ochI che kayAMthI kara-raseIthAnuM kharca pahoMcI vaLAya-are prabhu A te prathamanA karatAM adhika saMkaTa AvyuM. kALI strIvALo vidhA. tAnI dayA hovAthI gorI bAyaDIne lAvye paNa A evI nIkaLI ke tene sUte vece evI baDI ThagArI ane ghamaMDavALI-tenA patine adhika viDaMbanA thaI ane vicAra karavA lAge ke kALI sArI che je kahIe te khamI le che sAme uttara ApatI nathI. paNa have zuM thAya? A cintAmAM te bIcAre banI levAI gaye. jene putra hatuM nahIM. tene vidhAtAe dazabAra saMtAne ApyA. paNa te putrAdika moTA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti thayA pachI te ane paraNAvyA pachI milakatanI mAgaNI karavA lAgyA ke amAre juduM rahevuM che mATe vaheMcI Ape ane sarakhA bhAge. bApa bicAre banI aphasesa kare che AnA karatAM vAMjhIyA hatA te sArU hatuM. milakatanA bhAga te paData nahI. tathA Avaka jene nahatI tene Avaka thaI ane adhika mahenata karavA lAge, pisA dekhIne khuzI te thAya che paNa have bhegA thaelA paisA kayAM mUkavA tenI cintA thavA lAgI. A pramANe bhAgya yege kAmanA phalIbhUta thAya che. paraMtu eka IcchA pUrNa thatAM bIjI be IcchAo janme che te pUrNa karatAM. cAra ubhI thAya che. eTale IcchAone kAMI Ara nathI. mATe je puNyage prApta thaela che tene sadu5yoga karatA rahe ane je kartavya che te karyA kare. dhana karatAM dharmanI ArAdhanA kare. tamArI se IcchAo ane. AzAo pUrNa thaze ane sadAcArI banI sanmArge prayANa karI Atmika hitane sAdhI zakaze, IcchAone pUrI karavA khAtara dhanane saMgrahaze te paNa IcchA-AzA adhUrI rahe. vAnIja ane mada mAna vigeremAM vadhAro thavAne ane ahaMkAra bAvI meLavelI mUDIne ochI karatA raheze. eka vepArI prathama te sAdhAraNa hatuM paNa huM zIAI ane lAgavagathI dhanADhaya banyA. be traNa lAkhane mAlIka banyA ane manamAM mAnavA lAgyA ke, mArA je khAnapAna-vyavahAra vigeremAM nipuNa nathI. gumAstAne paNa kahI mUkayuM. keI evA prasaMge mArU nAka rAkhavuM. pAchuM haThavuM nahI. zeThane rIMgaNAM bahu bhAvatA hovAthI gumAstAne kahyuM ke Aje eka Tepa For Private And Personal Use Only

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'** . . 444 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racitra rIMgaNAne bajAramAMthI vecAte lAvaje. gumAste bajAramAM gaye rIMgaNane Teyale dekhe. tenI kiMmata puche che tevAmAM bIjA zeThane gumAsta paNa rIMgaNA levA AvyuM. teNe rIMgaNa vecanArane kahyuM ke, tuM je eka rUpiye kahe che te be rUpiyA ApuM. ane mane ja Apa. prathama Avela vicAra karavA lAgyA. A vadhAre kiMmata ApI laI jaze te zeThane neka raheze nahIM. Ama vicArI teNe te TepalAnA cAra kahyA. bIjAe paNa madamAM AvI. ATha karyA Ama hariphAI thatAM pAMca hajAra-dazahajAra vIza hajAra-cAlIza hajAra sudhI pahoMcyA. bIjAe hariphAImUkI dIdhI. prathama Avela gumAstAe cAlIza hajArathI kharIdI rIMgaNane Tepala lIdhe. zeThane saghaLI bInA kahI. zeTha khuzI thayA. neka to rAkhyuM ne? cAlIza hajAra khacIne rIMgaNAne Topale kharIdanAra ane khuzI thanAra. zeTha ke kahevAya? mukha ke pAgala? neka rAkhatA nAka rahyuM nahI. A pramANe dhanavAne madamAM Ave tyAre saghaLuM bhUlI jAya che ane paisAnI barabAdIka re che. mANasane prathama paisA meLavavAnI bhAvanA jAge bhAvanA cege ane bhAgyayoge prayatna karavAthI paisAdAra bane che. dhanADhaya banyA pachI Ijajata AbarU meLavavA ane tenuM rakSaNa karavAnI tamannA jAge che mAna satkAra meLavavA khAtara -talapI rahela hoya che. je koIe satkAra karyo nahI te tene barAbara khabara levA vicAra rAkhe che paNa zraddhA sahita samyam jJAna meLavavA prayatna karatA nathI. tethI keIe yogya sanmAna karyuM nahI te joI lo? bhAInA dedAra? dhanADhya banela atA nAka che te che ane bhAvanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara prati 5 hAya tA suMdara vicAra jAge ke, che Atman tArAmAM evA kayA guNNA che ke tu tArI pAtAnI stutinI IcchA kare che! ane teM evu* karyu. AzcaryakAraka . mahAnakAya che ane jJAna kriyAnI ArAdhanA karavA pUrvaka AtmavikAsa sAdhyA che. sAta bhaya upara jIta meLavI che. paNa AvI bhAvanA kayAMthI Ave ! jyAM paisA meLavI prazaMsA pAtra banavu hAya AvA dhanAjyanA ghera lagnAdi prasaMge! Ave tyAre tA nAkara cAkarAnA marI, bahAranA kAmA karAvI teone thakavI nAMkhe. vakhatasara khAvA pIvA mATe paNa rajA Ape nahI. ane manapasaMda. kAma na thatAM jema tema khelavA bese. sAme jo javAba Ape. tA tagaDI mUke. " kahevata che ke vAdhane ghera lagana ane gadheDAnA marA " mATe dhanADhayAe dhanAdi meLavyuM. dhama kayAre meLavaze. ke, jenA AdhAre IcchA vinA paNa stutisatkAra-samAnAdi maLI rahe dhanADhya tamA haze| nahI paNu, dharmAvya haze te sa vAMchita AvI hAjara thaze mATe mANasAIne lAvI kAInA upara gussA na karatAM duzeTa upara gusso karI tene dUra kareA te ja tamArI zAlA che. dhArmika dhanADhyo dareka vakhate sArA vicArI karatA hAvAthI koinA upara krodhAtura khanatA nathI. krodha na karavA te dhArmi katAnI ane zrImaMtAinI sAthe katA che ane satA che jyAre sAnukulatA hAya che tyAre zAMta rahevAya paraMtu pratibhulatAnA prasaMge krodhane vipAka jANI tene vila banAvIne zAMta rahevu temAMja khukhI che ane sATI che. 173 zatruo aMtaranA tathA bahAranA Ama be For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItikSAgariravi prakAra hoya che temAM pratikula zatruone ApaNe ekalA jItI zakatA nathI. anyanI madadanI jarUra rahe che sahakAra hoya te ja teone parAjIta karAya. eTale badhAyane pahoMcI vaLe nahI. mAne ke, eka vaDe pradhAna che. sArA prAMtanI saMbhALa rAkhe che paNa te prAMtamAM ja baLave thaye. hukalaDa thayuM. te vakhate vaDe pradhAna ekAkI zuM karI zake? eTale pilIzane hAjara karI zastro sahita sAmane karavA mokale che te vakhate zatruo parAjaya pAme che ethI karIne vaDA pradhAna ahaMkAramAM AvI ema kahe ke meMja pratikAra karI zatruone dabAvI dIdhA. A mujabanuM kathana megya nathI. te pramANe kaI sabhAmAM pramukhane vadhAre voTa-mata maLyA, te kathana paNa vyAjabI nathI. are paLamAM pADAmAM ke zerImAM takarAra thatAM je tame jaya meLave che te traNa cAra pADozInA sahakArathI ane savajananA sahArAthI. tame ekalA takarArane dUra karI zake nahIM. eTale sAmA pratikula vargane zatruone parAjaya kara hoya temAM anyanA sahArAnI jarUra che mATe ghamaMDane tyAga karI jaya meLavyA pachI namratAne dhAraNa karo, eka poLamAM hAthamAM lAThI laI mANasa jAte hatA tevAmAM piLamAM rahelA kutarA bhegA thaI tene bhasavAnI sAthe karaDavA ghasAre karyo. pelA mANase lAThI ugAmI tethI mAranA bIke pAchA haThI dUra rahIne bhasavA lAgyA. te vakhate lAThIvALA mANase kahyuM ke AghA A dura rahIne bhasyA karyA kare che. pAse AvA te barAbara svAda cakhADuM For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara ti tyAre jANe moTe lAlI kutare kahete haiya nI zuM! are bhalA ghamaMDa kara nahI. tArAthI bhaya pAmatA nathI. lAThI mUkI de te barAbara tane paNa svAda cakhADIye A sAMbhaLI cUpa banIne cAlyo gaye lAThIne tyAga karyo hota te te kutarAo karaDavAmAM bAkI rAkhata nahIM. mATe lAThInI madada hatI tyAre kutarAone dUra khasyA. eTale bIjAonI te prasaMge jarUra rahe che paraMtu antaranA zatruone jItavA mATe pite je samartha hoya tathA jJAna darzana cAritrathI yukta hoya te bIjAonI AvazyaktA rahetI nathI. ekaleja kAma-krodhAdi parAjya karI vijayamAlA paherI ananya sAhyabIne svAmI thAya che. janma-jarA maraNanI viDaMbanA rahetI nathI. mATe bAhya zatruone parAjaya karyo ane vijaya-prApta karyo. have Antarika zatruone jItavA mATe kayAre parAkrama pheravaze. phakta bAhyanA zatruone jItavAthI sAco vijaya kahevAya nahI. 174 vipatti-saMkaTanI veLAe ghaNu mANaso adhIrAbanI evA upAya le che ke teja upAya temane bhAre duHkhamAM lAvI mUke che. keTalAka bIjAne Azare le che paNa teo sArI rIte samaje che ke ThIka lAga AvyuM che ApaNuM kAma sAdhI levA dene! kayAM vAre vAre Avo vakhata AvavAnuM hatuM. Ama samaja evA kAmamAM joDe che ke Azare lenAra trAhitrAhi pikAre ke kayAM AvIne phasAI paDyA. AnA karatAM prathama je duHkha hatuM te sahI lIdhuM hatuM te bahu sArU thAta For Private And Personal Use Only

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Ne A. jAti sAgarasUrisi eTale je sthale rahyA hae te svalamAM gharamAM ke gAmamAM du:khane sahana karavA mATe taiyAra rahevu. eka zeThane putrA ane eka putrI hatI. uMmara lAyaka thatAM cAre satAnA dhanADhyanA ghera paraNAvyAM. tyAra khAda, traNeka varSI gayA khAda te saMtAnAnA mAiipatA gujarI gayA traNa bhAioe bhegA rahI sa pIlA banI gharanA bhAra upADayA. tathA paisAmAM pratiSThAmAM vadhArA karyAM. jenA ghera dIkarI paraNAvI che tenA sAsarIyA thADIka bhUla thatAM jema Ave tema meNAnA mAra mAre che. zeThanA gharanI A putrI hAvAthI gharanA kAmakAjamAM nipuNu banela nahAtI. bhUle thatI ane sudhAravA prayatna karatI. chatAM tenA sAsarIyA, AvaDI mATI khAIpIne kAyAne vadhArI paNa DAkhA jevI rahI. tArA jevaDI vahue ghaNI cAlAka hAya che. A pramANe dararAja TakaTakArA ane meMzuA mAratA DAvAthI kaMTALI sahana karI zakI nahI tethI kaMTALIne piyaramAM gaI. thADA divasa te tenA bhAI bhAbhI Ae sArI rIte rAkhI. paNa e traNa mahinA thayA pazu sAsare gaI nahI tyAre bhAIo tA peAtAnI sagI bahena jANI kAMI paNa kahetA nathI. bhAbhIeAnA mana uMcA thavA lAgyA ke kayAM sudhI paDI raheze tenA ghera jAya te ahu sArUM, pazu peAtAne ghera jatI nathI. tethI tenI bhAbhIee gharanuM kAma karavA dhIme dhIme kahevA mAMDayuM. kacavAtA mane ahI paNa kAma karavuM paDe che, gheADIvAra ArAma letA paNa A kAma khAkI che A kAma khAkI che. kema besI rahyA che uThA rasAI banAvavAnA vakhata thayA che hamaNA tamArA For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara kori bhAIo nethI Avaze besI rahevuM paDe nahIM. A mujaba haraja sahaja ArAma letAM paNuM TakaTakAre te havAthI bIcArI kaMTALI gaI ane vicAra karavA lAgI ke piyaramAM AvavAthI te adhika pIlAvAnuM thayuM. have ahI rahevAmAM mAla nathI. bhAbhIone gamatuM nathI. cAla jIvaDA sAsare. Ama AtmAne samajAvI potAne ghera AvI ane sthiratA dhAraNa karI. mATe pitAnA sthale eTale AtmaguNemAM sthiratA rahevuM te hitakara che. 17ya saMkaTa paDe paNa sahana karavAmAM bhaviSyamAM hita sadhAya che nahItara bhAre dukha sahana karavuM paDe DahApaNuvALA te saMkaTane sahana kare che. paNa anyatra bhaTakatA nathI. eka gumAstAne tene zeTha vAre vAre kAmakAja mATe Takera karate ane thatI bhUlane amAravA Thapake paNa Apate tethI bIjI dukAne game tyAM paNa prathamanA zeTha karatAM bIje zeTha adhika kAmane batAvatA. sahaja ArAma letAM damadATI ApI kahetA ke kema besI zahevA Avela che. pagAra mujaba kAma karavuM joIe. hADakAne harAma thaela dekhAya che. uTha? Ama besI rahe te mane pAlave nahI. A pramANe zeThanI dararoja damadATI thatI hovAthI ane eka ghaDIne ArAma nahI maLatuM hovAthI-vicAra karavA lAgyuM ke, A zeThanA karatA prathamanA zeTha sArA hatA, damadATI detA te nahI. have zuM karavuM? eka divasa-prathamanA zeThanI pAse kahevA lAgyo ke game ema karIne mane rAkhe. ahIMyAM te kAmakAjane pAra Avato nathI dhANe thAka For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAgarasari racita lAge che. ane uparathI damadATI-tethI bahu kaMTAnya che. tame kahezo te mujaba vartana rAkhIza, zeThe kahyuM ke bIje sthale jatAM te vicAra karyo nahI-ke te bIjA zeTha ceDA kAkA mAmA che. tyAM paNa kAma karavAnuM hoya che ja, gumAstAe kahyuM. mArI bhUla thaI. mApha karo. punaH AvI bhUla karIza nahI. prathamanA zeThane dayA AvI tene rAkhe. have te bhUla thatAM Thapako Ape che. te sahI le che. ane anukrame nAmAThAmAmAM dukAnanA dareka kAryomAM kuzaLa thaela hovAthI mATe munIma banAvI adhika pagAra Ape. zeTha paNa tene puchI vyApAra kare che. ane cAra pAMca gumAstA hAtha nIce rahelA che. A rIte prathamanA sthale AvatAM sukhI thaye. ane zeThane upakAra mAnavA lAgyo. jaina dharmane tyAga karI keTalA sugdha jainetara dharmamAM joDAya che. tyAM jyAre adhika kaSTa paDe che. tyAre ghaNu pastAya che. kAraNa ke tyAM te dayAkarUNAne abhAva hovAthI kaI sahAre ApatA nathI. majurImahenata kare te paNa pUruM peTa bharAtuM nathI. ane kaI khabara-aMtara puchavA paNuM AvatuM nathI. mATe potAnA dharmamAM sthira thAya che tyAre sukhI thAya che. mATe pitAnI jagyAmAM havAmAM ja majA che, - kadAca jokhama bharelA kAmamAM paNa ekavAra phAvaTa Ave tethI chanI levuM nahIM ke puna:puna: phAvI javAze ane ghaNe lAbha maLaze. je sthaLe ekavAra game te rIte phAvI gayA. te sthalanA mANaso sAvadha banatAM tamane phAvavA deze nahI. vAyadAnA vepAramAM tame zuM vArevAre phAvI jAo cho?nahI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jAti 454 A vepAra jakhama bharelo che ne mATe je vepAra karatA ho tene tyAga karaze nahI. vAyadAnA vepAranA chAMyaDAe jaze nahI 176 "vAyadAne vyApAra karavA te vAgharIvADe zIyALane khAvA mATe javA barAbara che. ekavAra zIyALane vAgharInA gharamAM khAvAnI majA paDI. vAgharI nidrAmAM gherAela hovAthI ziyALanI gharamAM AvyAnI khabara paDI nahi. tethI tene eka dIvasa khAvAnI taka maLI. bIje divase paNa khAvAne lAga maLe. have te ziyALane paMdhu paDayuM. dararoja khAI jatI hovAthI vAgharI chAne mAne taka joI hAthamAM haMgere grahaNa karI chAne mAne gharanA khUNAmAM saMtAI rahela che. te arasAmAM ziyALa khAvA AvI ane bhAjanamAM rahela bhejana khAvA jAya che. te vakhate e mAra mAryo ke be bhAna thaI bhUmimAM DhaLI paDI. be ghI pachI zuddhi AvatAM nAsI gaI ane vAgharI. -vADe javAnI che bhUlI gaI. te mujaba vAyadAne vepAra karanAra bhAge eka be vAra phAvI jAya che. lAbha laI zake che. paNa dareka vakhate kayAMthI khATI jAya? te paNa tevA vepAramAM peThuM paDela hovAthI kaSTadAyaka-pariNAme mahA vipattimAM nAMkhanAra te vepArane tyAga karatA nathI tyAre e guDha mAra paDe che. ke bIjIvAra ubhA thavuM azakaya bane che. mATe evA jokhama bharelA vepAramAM eka be vAra phAvI javAya tethI mAnavuM nahI ke, dareka vakhate phAvI jaIzuM. mATe tene cha% tyAga karavA jevuM che. "kahevata che ke vAyadAmAM phAyadA hetuM nathI. are dhArmika kAryomAM ke paro For Private And Personal Use Only

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jabara A. kautisAgarasUri racita pakAra kAryamAM vAyare karavuM te paNa peTano vepAra che. kAle zuM thaze te samyagajJAnI vinA kahevAne kaI samartha nathI. kAraNa ke mANasanI vRttionA ane pitAnI manovRttionA parivatane kSaNe kSaNe thayA kare che. tene pAra pamAtAne nathI. lAbha levAnA avasare vAyado karavAmAM Ave te vakhata te lAbhane khAI jAya che. mATe tarata lAbha levA pramAda-ALasane tyAga kara Avazyaka che. pramAda-ALasa-ke vAyado kare che te durAcAra sevavAmAM kare. temAM tamane lAbha thaze. ane sAdhana saMpanna banazo pramAda-ALasa karIne lAbha levAmAM mAMdA paDelA-ane vepAra karIne pAyamAla thaela vyaktione ghaNu mANase zikhAmaNadevA ApavA maMDI paDe che. paNa kaI paisAdAra sagA vahAlAMmAMthI paisAnI madada karavA AvatuM nathI. te kevuM che. mAMdI nirdhana DesIne zIre khAvAno upadeza Ape-te barAbara che. bahu bolyA karatAM zikhAmaNanI sAthe sahakAra Ape temAM DahApaNa che. ane bolyA vinA avasara jANI zakya madada kare, tenI alihArI che. mATe mAMdA na paDAya tenI sAvadhAnI rAkho. 177 vaiSayika sukhanI Asakita ochI thAya che tyAre arasparasa zakaya sahakAra ApatAM saMpatti ane saMpa dUra hoya to paNa samIpamAM hAjara thAya che. ane dhArmika kAryo tathA vyavahArika kAryo nirvine cakala bane che. ane cacha lAbha maLato rahe che. eka For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara jyoti sAMkaLanA AMkaDA mahemAMhI pratibaddha hovAthI hajAra maNa pilAdane kheMcI zake che. ane mALa upara laI javA samartha bane che, paNa te akeDA pratibaddha hAya nahI. chUTA paDelA heya te eka nAnuM bALaka paNa tene upADI phagAvI de che. eTale rajhaLate aTavAya che. mATe Asaktine ochI karI mitha pratibaddha sahakAra ApatA rahevAmAM mANasAInI sAthakatA che. anyathA te pazutA kahevAya. tamArI pAse sahakAra Apane vAnI zakya sAmagrI na hoya te kAyAthI sevA madada kare. mAnasika zubhecchA rAkhe ke kayAre huM sahakAra ApanAra banIza. tenA Arthika saMkaTane TALanAra banIza, je mane sAdhana sAmagrI maLe te sAcA dilathI jarUra tene madadagAra thauM. A pramANe sAcA dilathI zubhecchA karanArane gya sAdhane maLI rahe che. paraMtu zubhecchAmAM paNa khAmI hoya tyAM eka bIjAne madada kevI rIte karI zake tethI ja samAja jJAti, ane dhArmikatAnI paDatI thAya che. eka avAja nahI cavAthI zatruo AvI dabAvI pADe che. saMpIlA hoya te zatruo teonI zaktine jANI bhAgI jAya che. eka chokarI pAse tenI mAtAe geLa maMgA. mATalAmAMthI meLa laIne AvatAM khAvAnI IcchA thaI thaDeka khAtA geLane gera nIce paDaze. tenI sugaMdhathI eka uMdara tene khAvA AvyA. tevAmAM bhamate makoDA paNa paDelI goLanI gera levA Avye baMne levAmAM jera karI rahela che. uMdara baLavAna hovAthI maMkoDAne levA deto nathI. evAmAM bIjA makaDA kIDIo madade AvyA. eka be kIDIoe For Private And Personal Use Only

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w4 A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita uMdaranI puchaDIe, caTake bharyo. eka maMkeDAe tenA pagamAM DaMkha mAryo. uMdare jANyuM ke have ApaNe geLa levAmAM phAvIzuM nahI. mATe nAzI javAmAM majA che. baLa vAparIza te paNa phAvaTa Avaze nahI. ane mAryA jaIzuM zuM cUM karate nAzI gayA ane makaDA kIDIoe bhegA maLI paDelA gaLanI ujANI karI. A mujaba uMdara karatAM nirbala mekeDA ane kIDIo paNa saMpIlA hevAthI balIka uMdarane nasADo. triIndriyo karatAM paMcendriya mAnamAM saMpa dekhAte nathI tyAre aphazosa thAya che. eka kuTuMbamAM paNa vera virodha adekhAI dekhAya che. eka bIjAnuM aniSTa IchI rahela heya che, eka upara kaSTa paDatAM. vipatti AvatAM bIjAe khuzI thAya che. ThIka thayuM. A lAgane che. A vicArI jANe ghaNu kAlane virodhI hoyanI zuM te mujaba vate che. paNa teone adekhAInI eTalI paNa khabara paDatI nathI ke, Aje ene viDaMbanA AvI che. te kAle amArA upara AvI paDaze tyAre sahAre keNa Apaze ? eka zerInA kutarAe kevA saMpIlA che? paraderIne paLapADAne bIje kALIo peLIe ke metIe kutaro Ave te bhegA saMpa karIne ubhI puchaDIe nasADI mUke tyAre jaMpIne bese che. ATalI ekatA saMpa eka kuTuMbamAM are eka gharamAM paNa nathI. ane pAchA mAne che amArA kaTTe amArI viDaMbanA dUra TaLe. kayAre TaLaze ? he prabhe? amArA para dayA karUNuM karo ke jethI amArI vipatti nAza pAme. ane sukhI thaIe paramezvara te pharamAve che. ke tame ISya adekhAI vera virodhAdikane tyAga For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyAti 455 karaze teA sukhI banazeA. dInatA cAcanA karavAnI jarUra nathI. mArI stuti sevA pUjA vigere vera virAdhAdikanA tyAgamAM saphala bane che. ane tamArI stuti vigerenI sAthe katA thAya che. zu tamAre teA mAMDAmAMhI vera virAdha vigere karavA che. ane vipattione dUra haTAvavI che. te khanavuM ja aza ya che. mATe stuti sevAhika karIne vera virAdha adekhAine dUra karavA kAzIza karA. dareka bAbatamAM zaktizAlI manaze. 178 23 mANusA jyAre satsaMgati pAme che tyAre gurUgama pAmIne samyagajJAna pAmatAM mahAn banI svaparanuM kalyANa sAdhI zake che. rakAne paNa svaparanuM kalyANa sAdhavAnI zakti je tAbhAve hatI te gurUgama pAmavAthI pragaTa thaI ajJAnatA TvInatA hInatA khasI gai. zakaya dhArmi kakriyAmAM prema lAgavAthI puNyadaya jAgrata thayA pachI yatheccha anukulatA AvI male che. pachI tene prathama sthitinu' bhAna hAvAthI ahaMkAra-mamatva bhAva rahetA nathI. tethI namra anI svapara hita sAdhatA rahe che. mATe satsaMgatinA prabhAva alaukika che. zrImatAne ne ke puNyAye sAnukulatA teA rahelI heAya che paraMtu zrImaMtAInA nazAmAM satsaMgati-taniyamAdi karavAnA vicArA jAgrata thatA nathI. vrata niyamAdi karavAmAM teone kaSTa bhAse che tethI puNya khavAtu jAya che. tenI khamara paDatI nathI. eTale ra anI paralAke jAya che. bIjA bhavamAM 2kapaNu -dInatA-hInatA hAjara thAya temAM zI navAi mATe zrImaMtAe sAnukulatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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45. A. kIti sAgarasUricita maLelI hAya teA vrata niyameAne dhAraNa karavA joie. kAraNa ke meAjazeAkhamAM puNya khavAtuM jAya che paNa puNyama dhA dikathI tenI Avaka thatI hAvAthI A lekamAM ane paraleAkamAM dareka 'khAMkhatanI anukulatA maLI rahe che. eka mANusa taddana garIba hAlatamAM hatA. pAtAnuM tathA putra parivAranuM rItasara pAlana pAchu karavAmAM asamatha hatA. eka dIvasa tene gurUdeva pAse javAnI bhAvanA jAgelI hAvAthI upAzrayamAM jaI vadanA karIne beThA ane sva sthitinI saghaLI mInA kahI. gurUdevane karUNA AvavAthI vaMdana karavA Avela zrImatane tene sahAro ApavA mATe kahyuM. A zrAvaka zrImaMta ane vrata niyamadhArI hovAthI teNe garIane zakaya sahAya ApI. paisA maLavAthI khaMta pUrNAMka potAne lAyaka dhaMdhA karavA lAgyA. nIti pUrvaka vepAra karatA hAvAthI ghaNA lAke tenI pAsethI lAbha levA lAgyA. dIvase dIvase lAla maLate hAvAthI A raka paisAdAra banyA tethI paiAtAnI prathama avasthAnuM bhAna hAvAthI paisAnA kepha caDhatA nathI. sarvajanAnI sAthe namratA-saralatA rAkhIne varte che ane gurUdevanI pAse jatA rahe che gurUmahArAja tenA viziSTa uddhAra karavA upadeza Ape che ke are mahAnubhAva! putra parivAranuM je kaSTa hatu' te have nathI ane sukhethI pAlana pASaNu karavA samartha banela che mATe svAtmAnA uddhAra karavA tatpara banavuM Avazyaka che. khAra tratAne grahaNu karI puNyane vadhArI pASaNa kara, ane jenI pAsethI tane paisAnI madada maLI che tenA upakAra mAnI vyAja sAthe pAchA ApavA . For Private And Personal Use Only

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atara pati viveka kare te Ucita che. A mujaba upadeza zravaNa karI zrImaMtanI pAse AvIne vyAja sahita pisA ApavA lAge paNa zrImaMte kahyuM ke, vyAja sAthe mane rakama maLI che. mAre -have levAya nahIM. teNe kahyuM ke meM te rakama ApI nathI. tamane kayAMthI maLI? zeThe kahyuM ke nIti nyAya sahita tuM vepAra kare che ane vratadhArI banela che tethI ghaNe khuzI thaela chuM. ame vrataniyama-nItinyAya ane pramANikatAne paisAo mAnIye chIe mATe lAvelI rakama pAchI laI jA. ane keI sIdAte duHkhI hoya tene madada karaje. AthI ApaNa baMnene lAbha maLaze. rakama pAchI laIne ghera AvI zrImaMta zeThanA guNenI anumodanA-prazaMsA karavAnI sAthe sIdAtA duHkhIne yathAzakita sahakAra ApavAthI sAnukulatA sateSAdi gue AvIne nivAsa karyo. tethI A leka parakamAM sukhI thayA. satsaMgati gurUdevane prabhAva e bene sukhI banAve che. zrImaMtane na caDhatuM nathI. temaja raMka zrImaMta bane. lAne paNa kepha caDhatuM nathI. mATe saddagurUnI vANInA pravAhamAM dararoja snAna karatA rahevuM. A sivAya uddhAra thavAne mArga bIjo nathI. dararoja upadezamAM snAna karanAra nirmala banI sahita sAdhI zake che 179 "A jagatamAM saMgatinA guNa ane doSathI durjanasajajana bane che. aparAdha karanAra niraparAdhI bane che. nIca kula jAtimA--ucca kula jAtimAn banI prazaMsA pAtra bane che. sajajana saMgatinA dethI durjana banI aneka For Private And Personal Use Only

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58 AkIrtisAgarasUri racita aparAdha karI vividha upadrava karI bese che. pachI bhale ucca kulaheyasuMdara jAtimAna gaNuta hoya, saMgatinA deSathI duSTa je banI trAsarUpa banI adhogatinuM pAtra bane che. "svarUpa ane svabhAvanuM parivartana thatAM vilaMba lAgatuM nathI. svabhAva netaranA sarakhA che. ane svarUpa kamalanA sarakhuM kamaLa che. mATe sebata karatAM pahelAM barAbara vicAra ane viveka karavAnI AvazyaktA che. durjananI saMgati thatAM AtmA dhamane tyAga thatAM jaDavAda bhautikavAdamAM prema jAge che. ane pArthiva padArthomAM sAcA sukhanI bhramaNa thatAM te padArthone saMgraha karavAmAM saghaLo prayAsa karavAnI vRtti jAge che. ane saMgraha karavAmAM ja jIvana vyatIta thAya che, AtmAnuM bhAna rahetuM nathI. mATe saMgati karavI hoya te guNIyala gurUdevanI saMgati kare. ke jethI pArthiva padArthomAMthI prIti alpa thAya ane Atmaprema jAge. "rAgInI saMgatithI rAga dazA vadhe Atmadharma bhUlAya. tethI viSaya vicAre ane vikAre adhika pramANamAM vakarI rAgIne barabAdImAM lAvI mUke che. tamArI pAse je bhautika padArthone saMgreDa karatA rahe che. tethI tamane zuM lAbha thAya. gADI ghaDAo deDAvyAmoTAmAM majA karI, khAIpIne masta banyA paNa zArIrika mAnasika zaktimAM vadhAro thaye ke ghaTADo thayo tenI tala pazI vicAraNA karI che. zrImatenI sthiti bahArathI jovAmAM manehara mAluma paDe che. paNa Antarika jIvana te zoka janaka-cintA janaka hoya che. keIne lehIdabANanI kaIne damanI-ajIrNanI vyAdhi pIDA utpana karatI hoya che. kAraNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jyoti 459 ke bhautika padArthonA sukhamAM magna banela hovAthI-ahiMsA saMyama ane tapa vigerene tyAga karela hoya che. eTale vividha vyAdhinuM ghara banela hovAthI sukha kayAMthI hoya ? ane satsaMgati karIne pArthiva padArthomAMthI premane a5 karI dharmamAM prati lagAve. te ja zrImaMtAI zeThAI kAyama rahe che. mAyA-mamatA ane mahine mAra paDaze nahI. nirogI banaze te dharmamAM sthiratA thaze. pArthiva padArthomAM atyaMta prItivALAo kharAba saMskAra-vAsanA sivAya kAMI laI gayA nathI. ane laI jaze paNa nahI. 180 sAta sAdhuomAM zreSThatama dhAtu vIrya che, tethI tene zArIrika zakitane rAjA kahevAya che. je vIya nRpa nibala hoya te anya dhAtuo balAhIna bane che. ane kapAyamAna bane che. tophAne caDhI Atmika zakti-sattAne sthira rahevA detI nathI. mATe zubha vicAra ane viveka pUrvaka tenuM rakSaNa ane vardhana karavAnI kozIza karavI Avazyaka che. te vinA magajanI tAkAta-zarIranI zobhA tejasvitA, tathA daSTinI nirmalatA thaze nahI mATe sArA upAye vaDe tenuM rakSaNa karavuM tathA piSaNa karavA dararoja satata upayogI banavuM. vIrya balanA AdhAre utsAha vadhe che. parAkramanI preraNA thAya. che ane dravya bhAve rahelA zatruonuM bala ghaTe che. mAnasika taragomAM te vIryane veDaphI nAMkhavAthI manuSya mAyakAgalAM banI pAyamAla banatA hovAthI teonI kiMmata rahetI: For Private And Personal Use Only

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4. A. kIti sAgarasUri raci nathI. udyoga-vepAra vagere vyAvahArika kAryomAM teone rIta sara gama paDatI nathI. muMjhavaNumAM paDI hatAza banatA hAvAthI sAnavabhavanI sArthakatA thatI nathI. vIya vAnU mAnavAne zatruonA tathA pratikulavarganA bhaya rahetA nathI. teone adada karanAra hoMze hAMza maLI rahe che. jyAre dhArmika kAryo karavA bese tyAre paNa nirbhaya anI jeje zubha kAryo karavA dhArelA hAya, tene kaSTa veThIne paNu pUrNa kare che. tathA smaraNa zakitanI vRddhi thavAthI zravaNu karelu. bhaLelu' bhUlatA nathI. mATe tenu rakSaNu peSaNa karavA, alakSya AhAranA ane apeyane tyAga kareA, tethI kharAba vicArA ane vikArA Avaze nahI. ane vIya ghaTa khanI sthira thaze. ala vinAnA mAnavIo, kaSTadAyaka, AphtadAyaka prasa MgeA AvatA bhayabhIta anI 'pavA lAge che. tethI kaSTa vigerenuM adhika jora thAya che. te prasa Mge koI sahArA ApavA samakhanatuM nathI. muMbAImAM guMDAoe gujarAtI-mAravADI ane saurASTa vepArIAne tathA anya janAne herAna parezAna karyAM haiAya te nikhalAteja,sakhala mAnavAe tA joradAra sAmanA karI tenA alane phAvavA dIdhu' nathI. sikkA nagaramAM dAgInA paherelA bALakane lUTavA te gu MDAo AvyA. teNe ama pADI. tenI mAtA ghaNI khalavatI hatI. lADIne grahaNa karIne sAme dhasArA karyAM. khIjAe paNa teNInI madade AvyA. ghaNA mAra paDavAthI te guMDAo ubhI pucha DhIe nAThA-A pramANe vepA2Ie tathA itara mAnavA niya anI saMgaThThana karIne sAmanA karyA hAta teA dhana mAlanu ane prANAnuM rakSaNa karI zakata, ane bhAgAbhAgo karIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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aAMtara abhi 46 nAsI jAta nahIM. "khalanI kaseATI viDaMkhanA vakhate thAya che." 11 sapatti sattA ane sAhyabImAM khuzI thavA jevuM nathI. paNa tenuM rakSaNa karanAre mAsa karavA pUvakarakSaNa ane vadhArA khuzI thavu joie. svavIya ne karavAmAM tethI AtmamalamAM paNa sArI rIte sahakAra maLe che.. ala vihIna haThayoga rAjayoga vigere sAdhavA samartha banatA. nathI. ulTA kaTALIne mAMdA paDIne mUkI de che. eTale vIya - thAn prApta saMpatti, sattA ane samRddhinuM rakSaNa, pASaNa ratA AgaLa vadhatA rahe che. tathA nimaIlane DarAvatA nathI ane zatruothI DaratA nathI. tethI ja bhautika padArthonA sahArA haI Atmika dharmanI sattAmAM puSTa ane che. eka naiSThika brahmacArI peAtAnA zArIrika ane Atmika mahanA AdhAre pazu prANIothI paNu bhaya pAmatA nahAtA bASTie ane Atmika dRSTie tejasvI hAvAthI rAjA mahArA temaja Itara mANusA praNAma karatA ane AzI vadhu mAgatA. ApeleA AzIrvAda saphala banatA tethI khAvA pIvAnI cintA rahetI nahIM. je joIe te jana samudAya hAjara karatA. tethI ekAgratA sahita eka ma'diramAM. esI paramezvaranA guNeAnuM dhyAna karIne AnaMda anubhava letA. eka divasa rAjAnA hastI AvIne tenA para dhasyA, eTale kAMi karI zakayA nahI.. darAja AvIne chaMcheDavA lAgyA. tethI temI kheADa bhulAvavA brahmacArI haThIne puchaDa chatAM nirbhaya anI sthira rahyo. paNa hAthIne khazakha Teva paDI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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462 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita barAbara pakaDI pheravavA lAgyo. hAthI zarIra jADe hovAthI pharatAM ghaNI takalIpha paDatI hovAthI pIDA pAmavA lAgyA. puchaDuM choDAvavA zuM vIMjhe che. paNa pakaDAtuM nathI. ane khasI jato nathI. pAchaLathI mAra paDate havAthI. ane punaH punaH bhamavuM paDatuM hovAthI hAthI ghaNe thAkI gaye. ane nAsI gaye. rAjAne A bInAnI khabara paDI. ane vicAra karavA lAgyuM ke, AvA balavAna hastIne thakavI nAMkhyo te keI prasaMge mane paNa thakave. harAve temAM Azcarya zuM? mATe tenuM mala kema ochuM thAya te upAya le te ThIka che. A dhArI rAjAe Agraha pUrvaka rUpavati kanyA paraNAvI. paNa tenuM bala ochuM thayuM nahI. jyAre saMtAne thayA ane teonI bharaNu piSaNanI cintA thaI ane vadhI tyAre bala alpa thayuM. have te hAthIne harAvI zakate nathI. tenI zakti tene dekhI kaMpAro thAya che. A mujaba rAjAe vAta jANI ane khuzI thaye. eTale jyAM sudhI lagna karyuM nahotuM ane parivAra vadhe nahote tyAM sudhI te bephIkara rahe tyAre hAthI jevA prANIone paNa harAvI zako. paraMtu phikara cintA vadhI tethI baLahIna banI bhayane dhAraNa karavA lAge. mATe zArIrika mAnasika ane Atmika bala meLavavA mATe brahAzaye pAlI vIryane puSTa karo. 18ra "pramAdI ane ALasu banIne besI rahevuM te pitAne kedakhAnAmAM nAMkhavA jevuM che. kAraNa ke tevA mAna-bIjAonI nindA kuthalI karavAmAM, ke zeka cintA karavAmAM amulya avasarane vRthA For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara khyAti 463 gumAve che. dhama dhyAna ke sva cAgya kAya karavAnuM teone sujhatu nathI. ane nindA kuthalI agara satApa-paritApAdi karIne karmAMnA adhanamAM paDe che. tethI kahevAya che, ke karmonu baMdhana te paNa Antara dRSTie kennakhAnuM che. AvA kharAma baMdhanathI kadApi mukta thavAtu nathI. abhilASA sala banatI nathI. ane pratikulatA hAjara thAya che. mATe duSTa karmInA aMdhanamAM pA nahI. A kedakhAnu evuM che ke, dekhyu' dekhAtu nathI. je sadUgurU saMta mahA bhAgAnI saMgati thAya nahI te anaMta kAla-anaMta bhavA sudhI temAM ja jhakaDAI rahevu paDe che. tamAne svAcInatA tA priya che ja, paNa mAga lIdheo che svaccha MdatAparAdhInatAne teA pachI svAdhInatA kayAMthI maLe ? mATe dunyavI padArthanI anukulatA maLI hAya tA AtmAnnati mATe ane parApakArArthe mAnasika vAcika ane kAyika vruttione-tathA pravRttione ceo. ke jethI pramAda ane ALasa dUra khase ane anubhava AvatA rahe. keAInA kAryoMmAM ahaMkAra-adekhAIthI vighna nAMkhaze! nahI. vighnA nAMkhavAthI peAtAnI paDatInA ja kAraNeA upasthita thAya che. tethI vera virAdhAkri ghaNA bhava sudhI khasatA nathI. 'sAdhana sapanna hAtA-tapa japa-saMcama-ane pApakAra vigeremAM parAyaNu khanIne zarIrane kharekhara kase. senAne paNa kaSavAmAM Ave che. ane tenA vasA jovAmAM Ave che. tyAre tenI kiMmata thAya che, khAI pIne peTane paMpALI tathA medane vadhAravAthI kiMmata vadhatI nathI. ane khala Avatu nathI. paNuM ghaTatuM rahe che. mATe For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kItisAirilika maja zekhane tyAga karIne zarIrane kasavAnI jarUra che. khArAkamAM-pozAkamAM ane vahIvaTamAM zakya sAdAI rAkhe zero jArI vigere sAta vyasanamAM laMpaTa bane nahI. pitAnAthI bane evuM kArya pote jAte kare. eTale pagabhara banaze. banatA sudhI nekara-cAkarane kAma bharAve nahI. eTale parAdhInatA khasatI jaze. ane svAdhInatAno anubhava Avate raheze. je zrImate pitAnAthI banatuM kArya kara-cAkarine bhaLAve che. tethI parAdhInatA khasatI nathI. tethI viSama-vikaTa veLAe temane ghaNuM kaSTa paDe che. dIna hIna bane che. 183zIra-ane manane kasIne kAbu rAkhanAre zrImaMta sAdhAraNa hoya to paNa viSama vikaTa avasthAmAM jokhamanA prasaMge AvI maLatAM gabharAtA nathI. ane muMjhAtuM nathI. tevI avasthAmAM pitAne mArga zeAdhI le che. tethI tevI sthiti kAyama rahetI nathI ane prathamanI sthiti karatAM suMdara avasthA AvI maLe che eTale zarIranI sAthe manavRttine kasIne kAbu rAkhavI te umadA avasathAnI nizAnI che. je A pramANe vartavAmAM Ave nahI te saMsAramAM keI vicAre ane bhAva anaMtajJAnI sivAya jANI zaktA nathI. pazupaMkhI ane kapaTI prapaMcI-daMbhIo prAyaH vizeSatAye mAluma paDe che kyAre AvI vidane upa. sthita karI vikaTa prasaMge lAvI mUke te kahI zakAya nahI. te vakhate zarIra ane mana upara kAbu nahI hoya te ghaNI vipattimAM phasAvuM paDaze ane tenAthI nIkaLavAne rara, For Private And Personal Use Only

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raviti. 465 Daze nahI. kRtajJatA karatAM kRtatA vizeSa pramANamAM hoya che. eka zrImaMta vahIvaTanA kAryo karavA mATe tathA gharanA kAryo karavA mATe kara-cAkare rAkhyA. ane pate ezaArAmamAM gulatAna banyA. kaI paNa kAryanI jhINavaTathI tapAsa karatuM nathI. te pachI pitAnA kArya rIsara kyAMthI bane? nokara cAkare phAve tema varte che. zeTha jANe che ke teo sArU kAma bajAve che paraMtu A loka mukhe madhuratA ane hRdayamAM kAtI rAkhatA hovAthI kayAre lAga Ave ne zeThanI pAyamAlI karIye. gharamAM te zeThANuM kuzaLa hevAthI phAvI zakatA nathI. paNa dukAnanA vahIvaTamAM phAvaTa Avaze Ama dhArI eka kare haTalamAM cA lAvI temAM bebhAna thavAnI vastu nAMkhIne pA. cA pIdhe pachI zeTha bebhAna thayA. te arasAmAM nekara traNa hajAranI rakama laI palAyana karI gayo. zuddhimAM AvyA pachI abara paDI ke amuka nekara rakama upADI nAzI gaye. tapAsa jatAM pakaDAI gayo. paNa traNa hajAranI rakama hAthamAM AvI nahI. have zeThane khyAla Avye nokara sAthe kAma levAmAM pazizume paritApanI sAthe nukazAnI thAya che. teonI madhura vANImAM vizvAsa rAkhave nahI. Ama samajI vahIvaTanuM kAma pite jAte tapAsavA lAgyA. pitAnAthI banatuM kArya ravayameva karavuM ane bIjA kAryo karavAmAM paNa ALasa karavI nahI. A mujaba vartana karavAthI zarIra kaseTImAM AvyuM. sAthe sAthe zakita vadhavAthI AnaMda thavA lAge. A pramANe je manane vataniyama tAjapAdikathI kaSavAmAM Ave te prathama manA AnaMda karatAM ora AnaMdanI khumArI AvatI rahe ane For Private And Personal Use Only

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A kIrtisAgarasUri racita karmonA baMdhana DhIlA thAya mATe ezaArAmane tyAga karI mana vacana kAyAne kase. 184 pitAnA aMta:karaNa-mAnasika vRttionI zuddhi mATe ja prabhu stuti-stavana-smaraNa tathA pUjAdi karAya che. mAnasika zuddhi dvArA A naMti thatI rahe che. AtmA ane aMtaHkaraNa ayogo caudamA guNasthAnake judA thAya che. sagI teramA guNasthAnakamAM paNa dravya mana rahela che. jyAre sarvathA ane nirAdha thAya che. tyAre AtmA sAthe rahela aMtakaraNane viyega thatAM AtmA saMpUrNa nirmala banI siddha svarUpe bane che. tethI prathama paramezvaranI prArthanA-pUjA bhakita karavAthI mAnasika vRttio nimala banatI rahe che. paramezvaranI prArthanA-pUjA be prakAre banI zake che. eka te ghaNA manuSyo bhegA thaela heya temAM, ane bIjI ekAMta sthale besIne, samudAyika prArthanA vigeremAM bhAvanI vRddhi thatAM ulalAsa jAge che. anyatra mana paribhramaNa karatuM nathI. pachI mAnasika vRttio sthira thatAM ekAMtamAM prArthanA pUjA karavAmAM eAra AnaMda Avate rahe che. eTale sAmudAyika prArthanA vigere karavAmAM mananI nima. latA thatI hovAthI tenI paNa AvazyakatA che ja, ekadama ekAMtamAM besavAthI abhyAsanA abhAve sthiratA rahevA zakaya che. mATe cittanI prasannatA mATe sAmudAyika - prArthanAdikanI jarUra che. ane ekAMtanI paNa AvazyakatA che. kAraNa ke te sivAya prANuM niyamana cittanidhi-zuddhi-ekAe For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtara ti gratA ane Atma cintavana banavuM duSkara che. tathA Atma bala: vadhatuM nathI, samayanI anukuLatA mujaba ekAMtamAM AdhivyAdhi ane upAdhi rahita dhIraja pUrvaka zAMta manathI karelI nezvaranI ArAdhanA aneka bhavanA saMcita karmone dura kare che, paNa bedarakArIthI-ekAgratA vinA karelI upAsanA yathArtha phelavatI banatI nathI. phakta kAMIka puNyabaMdhamAM kRtArtha bane che. ApaNe te karma malane dura kare che. te sthiratA vinA kayAMthI bane ? puNadaye pArasamaNi prApta thaela hoya. tene sparza thatAM suvarNa thAya che. ane suva. nathI sAdhana saMpanna banAya che. AjIvikAdikanI cintA hatI nathI paNa tenAthI karmakATanI zuddhi thatI nathI. paraMtu bhakti bhAva pUrvaka ekAgratAthI karelI umasanA, mane addhi karIne kamalane kADhavA samartha bane che. mATe dararoja jaya kAla jInezvaranI prArthanA-pUjA-stuti karavI joIe sivAya Adhi-vyAdhi-viDaMbanA khasatI nathI. ane anasika vRtti sthira thatI nathI. te mATe satya sukhanA milASIjane upakata upAsanA karIne sAcA sukhanA jAmI banyA che. 15 "jInezvara-paramezvaranA guNenI daDha zraddhA ane AtmAmAM pUrNa vizvAsa vinA ekAgratAthI bhakita upAsanA banAvI azakaya che. zraddhA ane vizvAsathI saddaguNI banAya che. ahI ke cintA-saMtApa vigere karavAthI karmonA AdhAre saMsAra sAramAM anaMtavAra paribhramaNa sAmela che ane thaze A For Private And Personal Use Only

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A. kIrti sAgarasUri racita daramyAna anaMta yAtanA bhegavI haze. ane jogavavI paDaze mATe deva durlabha mAnava bhava pAmIne evI umadA upAsanA kare ke anaMta bhavanA karmo khasavA mAMDe ane laghukama banI alapabhavamAM saMsAra sAgarane pAra thAya. sonu cAMdIke tene saMgraha karavAthI zeka-cintA-kaleza-kaMkAsAdi saMsArane Are Avaze nahI. pAra pahoMcAze nahI-ulTI karma baMdha sAthe cintA paritApAdi javAlAe vadhavAnI ja. eka jhaverInI evI mAnyatA hatI ke sonu cAMdI-vigerene saMgraha haze te cintAo nAbuda thaze. nizcita rahI zakAze A vicArI tene saMgraha karavA lAgyuM ke pArasamaNi maLe te zAMti maLe. A vicAra karIne pArasamaNinI zodhamAM gAmegAma-nagare nagare bhaTake che. paNa te prApta thaela nahI hovAthI kaMTALI keI eka gAmanI bahAra vRkSanI chAyAmAM ArAma levA beThA. tevAmAM bharavADanA mahATA gheTAnA gaLAmAM bAMdhela pArasamaNi dekhI ghaNekhuzI thaye hadayamAM utsAha A bharavADane tenI icchA mujaba rakama ApI te grahaNa karIne pitAnA sthale AvI gAmamAM jeTaluM lekhaMDa hatuM te ekaThuM karI pArasamaNinA sparzathI setu banAvyuM. te paNa cintA valopAta gaye nahI. bIjA gAmamAMthI tathA zaheramAMthI lokhaMDa lAvI suvarNa banAvyuM. have te tenuM rakSaNa karavAnI cintA bALavA lAgI. eka ghaDI paNa cena paDatuM nathI. jyAre pArasamaNi hatuM nahI tyAre ghaDI bhara zAMti rahetI tethI cintAne dUra karavA mATe gurUdevanI pAse AvI vaMdanA pUrvaka hoya dAha maTe ane zAMti maLe. te mATe puchavA lAgyA. ' For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara ti gurUdeve kahyuM ke deva-devendranI sAhyAbI maLe te paNa cintA vApAta khasa azakya che. mATe cintA zekane dUra kare hoya te nezvaranI ekAgratA pUrvaka pUjA-prArthanA-bhakti kara ke jethI tArI manazuddhi thAya ane valepAta vigere satAve nahI. AjIvikAnuM sAdhana te tArI pAse mana mAnyuM che. tethI kaleza khasaze nahI. A zravaNa karI dararoja traNeya kAle sthiratAthI samudAyamAM temaja ekAMtamAM upAsanA karavA lAge. cintA zoka vigere gayA. ane sukhazAtAne anubhava AvavA lAgyo. 186 ApaNe manuSyabhava pAmyA chIe te janasamUhanA sArA-kharAba abhiprAya-kAryo jANI tathA sAMbhaLI hava-zeka-valepAtAdi karavA prApta karela nathI. paraMtu pitAnuM tathA paranuM kalyANa sAdhavA ane zubha kAryo karavA janma dhAraNa karela che te kSaNe kSaNe lakSya rAkhavAnI jarUra che. tethI ja keipaNa vyakti sAthe vAta pita karatAM mukhamAMthI eka paNa zabda tucchatAne pIDAjanaka nIkaLave ne joIe tethI ghaNuM kaMkAsa-kaleza thatAM virAma pAme che, ane vacanege pApa-aparAdhe thatA nathI. uparoga pUrvaka besavAthI kAyika ane mAnasika vRttiomAM zubha asara thAya che ane saMgaThThana sAdhI zakAya che. saddaguNe paNa kayAre AvIne nivAsa kare ke jayAre kAyika-vAcika ane mAnasika vRtti-pravRttimAM zubha saMskAra paDyA hoya tyAre ja kAbumAM Ave che. bhale pachI dhanADhya hoya ke sattAdhArI For Private And Personal Use Only

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7i0 A. kIrtisAgarasUri raciya hAya paNa mana vacana ane kAyAne jeoe kabajo meLavyo nathI. teonI sabhya janasamudAyamAM kadara thatI nathI. svA. thane laI svAthI mAna vakhANa kare prazaMsA tathA kadara kare tethI zuM? sabhya sujJa samudAya te saddaguNenI kiMmata AMkI kadara kare che saMpatti ane sattA te Aja che ane kAle nathI. mATe janasamudAyanA sArA-narasA abhiprAne jANu-sAMbhaLI harSa zekane dhAraNa karo nahI. ane manavacana-kAyAnI vRtti-pravRttio upara lakSa rAkhe. anAdi. kAlathI harSa zeka-saMtApadi karavAnI Teva hovAthI upa rahe nahIM. ane vRttio-pravRttimAM malInatA thAya te banavA joga che paraMtu AtmAmAM nirIkSaNa karavAnI zakti rahelI che tethI AtmAne vaLagelI malInatAne khaseDavA mATe prayatnazIla bane paNa jema tema cAlavA de nahI. adhika malInatA thavAthI nIcenA raNamAM javuM paDaze te gheraNamAM anIcchAe, pUre mAra paDaze te vakhate tamArI pIDAnA zabdo keI sAMbhaLaze nahIM. te paNa daza-bAra varSe sudhI nahI. hajAro varSa parvata. mATe nazo utArIne cete ? manuSyabhava AgaLa vadhavAne maLe che. pAchalA dhAraNamAM paDavA mATe nahIM. je upaga rAkhIne cetyA che te keIpaNa vyakti tamene halakA ane pIDAjanaka dhoraNamAM pADavA mATe samartha nathI. svayameva sArA vicAra-viveka pravRttinA AdhAre uMcA dhAraNamAM jaI zake che mANasAInA-divyatAnA lAbha levA samartha bane che, anyathA halakA-nIcA dhoraNamAM kevA saMkaTa che. te tame jANI gayA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAMtara ti jaha1 187 sadaguNI sajanI TIkA karanAra nidA-tira skAra karanAra ghaNu jagatamAM hoya che. kAraNa ke lokene sadaguNe pasaMda paDatA nathI. tethI kahevA maMDI paDe che. ke A leke nibaMdhabAyalA che. jagatanuM kalyANa karavA zaktimAna nathI. sAme AvelA pratikula varganI barobara khabara letA nathI, ane koI apamAna-nukazAna kare te paNa sahana karI le che. A pramANe tevA mANase bele te paNa gabharAvuM nahIM, TIkAnindA thayA vinA AgaLa unnatimAM vadhAtuM nathI. ane jAnI levuM ke je TIkA karanAra che te bhaviSyamAM pastA rakAra banaze bhale atyAre jema phAve tema pheMke rAkhe paNa saddaguNe sivAya keIne paNa traNeya kAlamAM sukha zAMti maLI zaktI nathI. bhale pachI ahiMsA-saMyama-tapAdi ane pAMca mahAvate mAnatA hoya nahI. paraMtu jyAre vrata niyamAdi zivAnIne, mithyAtva-avirati kaSAyoga ane pramAdathI vipa o-viDaMbanAo AvI lAge tyAre pokAre pADatA saduhInI pAse AvI pitAne rakSaNa mArga puche che. mATe avayava e A sUtrane anusaranArAja prazaMsA pAtra bane che. ane trAdikane nahIM mAnanArA-mAra khAI viTaMbanA gavI pachI ahiMsA saMyama satyatapAdikane mAnanArA bane che. keTalIka vAra paththara jevA mANase paNa Aphata prasaMge nAnA-saralatAne dhAraNa karI satya samaje che. ane svIkAra kere che. sadaguNIone te saMpattinA samaye temaja vipattinI velAe harSazeka saMtApe thatuM nathI. te to samaje che ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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472 A. kItisAgarasUri racita jevuM vAveluM che. tevuM AvI male che. A mujaba dhAraNa hovAthI mahamugdha banatA nathI. kAraNa ke audayika bhAve upasthita thaelI saMpatti ane vipatti-viTaMbanA kAyama rahetI nathI. tene jANanAra AtmA kAyama traNe kAlamAM rahe che. ane harSazeka kyAre thAya nahI tyAre uttarottara AtmA, nirmala thate ane vikAsa pAmate jAya che. keI saguNa sadAcArIne evA bhAgyadaye sAhyAbI-saMpatti khasI gaI, tenA badalAmAM viTabanA-Aphata AvI te paNa nirbhaya banI dIrgha dRSTie sahana karIne vrata niyamAdikanuM pAlana karavAmAM tatpara banela saMpatti sAhyabI cAlI gaI paNa Atma vizvAsa ane sudeva-sugurU ane sudharmanI daDha zraddhAnA ge temanI AjJA mujaba vyApAra karatAM saMdharelA mAlane bhAva vadhatAM vipatti dUra thaI. sAdhana saMpanna banI prathama karatAM paNa adhika sadAcAranuM pAlana karavA lAgyuM. ane anubhava Avyo ke, Atmatatva ane tenA sAdhane jagatamAM jayavaMtA che. ane prArabdha ege maLela saMge kAyama rAkhavA mATe IcchIe te paNa rahetA nathI. 188"daMbhI ane doSIjane pitAne svAtha sAdhavA ane sthAne gupta rAkhavA khAtara vinaya - namratA sArI rIte kare che. tethI khuzI thavA jevuM nathI. paNa tenAthI cetI cAlavA jevuM che. kAraNa ke svArtha sadhAI rahyA pachI pitAne bhAva bhajavavAmAM bAkI rAkhaze nahI, paraMtu jeo nibha ane sarala pariNAmI che. teo kadAca rItasara For Private And Personal Use Only

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bAMtara jyoti sAma vinaya kare nahI te paNa nAkhuza thatA nathI. kAraNa ke teone svArtha sAdhava nathI. ane sva doSone chupAvavA nathI. pitAnuM kalyANa sAdhavA mATe rItasara vinayavAna heAya che te namratAne dhAraNa karIne nibhI banIne gurUdevane puche che. he gurUdeva mArUM kalyANa zreya kayA AdhAre sadhAya?, samyagajJAnI gurU mahArAja kahe ke, are bhAgyazAlI AvA praznane puchanAra virala hoya che. sAMbhaLIne barAbara dhArI rAkha! huM eka chuM. parivAra rahita sahAya vinAne chuM, mAruM kalyANa kevI rIte sadhAze, A valepAta kadApi kare tahI. paNa zakaya purUSArtha karavAmAM pramAda kare nahI. bhAgya purUSArthane AdhIna che. manuSya-purUSArthane AdhAre bhAgya vadhArI zake che. ane saMsAranA viSaya-kaSAyamAM ragaDAjagaDAmAM anyane chetaravAmAM je purUSArtha mAne te durbhAgyane AmaMtraNa ApI duHkhI bane che bhale ekAkI-parivAra vinAne temaja sahAya rahata hoya, te paNa je daMbha karato nathI. vyabhicAra cerI jArI karatA nathI ane jInezvaranI AjJA mujaba rItasara dhArmika kriyAmAM ArUDha thAya che. teonuM kalyANa sadhAya che. rAjAne prabhune gunhegAra banate nathI tethI bhAgya vadhatAM teone anukulatA maLI rahe che. je cArI jArI karate hAya karAvatA hoya, tenI anumodanAprazaMsA jAheramAM paNa karate heya-tevAne ekAMta sthAnamAM rAkhavA mATe anukulatA karI ApatuM hoya, teonI pAsethI sA paDAvI lete heya-masalata khAnagI karate hoya te sarve cAra-vyabhicAranI kaTimAM gaNAya che. mATe tevA For Private And Personal Use Only

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52 sadhAya che. tAja ane A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita aparAdhane tyAga karI nyAya nIti pUrvaka vartana rAkhavuM tethI svaparanuM hita sadhAya che. mATe huM ekAkI vigere chuM. tevI cintA kara nahI, ekAkI dhArmika ane nirdabhI AtmanA svarUpane oLakhavAmAM je zaktimAna bane che. tene anukulanA maLI rahe che. jayAre tyAre ekAkI thayA sivAya parivAravALAne nizcita banAtuM nathI. parivAravALA samyam jJAnIne ekalA banavuM te adhika pasaMda hoya che. paNa ekAkI thavuM te duSkara che. kAraNa ke. 189teone parivAranI citA temane AgaLa vadhAravAnI icchA ADI AvIne upasthita thAya che je bhAgyazAlI, samyagajJAnI ane AjJA mujaba zakaya vartanazAlI hoya te rItasara Atma tatvamAM ramaNutA kare che. mATe Atma kalyANa sAdhavuM hoya te dunyavI vale-- pAtane tyAga karI yathAzakti purUSArtha kara parivAra prApta thayA pachI jayAre tene viyoga thAya che. tyAre parivAramAM mAnyatA dharAnArane ghaNuM kaI satAvyA kare che. parivAra kAyama hoya te paNa AyuSya khatama thatAM teone mukIne paraloke te javuM paDe che ne? te pachI cintA karavAnI jarUra nathI. AtmahitanuM kArya asAdhya mAnavuM nahIM. yukti pUrvaka kArya karavAnI pAtratA-AgyatA, dIrghadazI ane talasparzI vicAra samaja zaktinI bakSIsa hAya agara ekAgratA pUrvaka prApta karI hoya to sAdhya bane che. raMka hoya te paNa mahArAjA bane che. zaTha hoya te zeTha bane che, baheza hoya te bahAdura For Private And Personal Use Only

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475 - AMtara ti bane che, phakta jInezvaranI AjJA mujaba vartanazAlI thAya teja. anyathA saMsArATavImAM Thera Thera kaMTake upasthita thaI vidane ubhA thAya che. mATe hita sAdhavuM hoya te kathana mujaba vana-vicAra ane viveka rAkha. eka gRhasthane AjI. vikAnuM sAdhana sAruM hatuM. paNa paTArA-khaTArA bharAya evuM dhana hatuM nahIM. mojamajAha-ezaArAmanI adhika tamannA hatI. paNa majamajA nahI maLatI hovAthI darAja cintAsaMtApa karatA. bhAgyane sAdharmika baMdhunI sahAya maLavAthI vepAra karatAM phAvI gaye. ane dhanADhya banyuM ane mAnasika abhilASAne pUrNa karavA ezaArAma-mejamajAmAM gullAna bajo paNa je vepAramAM phAvaTa AvatI hatI. temAM phALe nahI. milakata ochI thavA mAMDI. sAthe sAthe azakti ane vyAdhie barobara ghere nAMkhe. raMDIbAjImAM mejamajAhamAM svazarIranI ane AtmAnI adhogatimAM zubha vicAra-viveka paNa hAya kyAMthI ? Ate prathamanI sthiti karatAM adhika duHkhI thayo. raMka-kaMgAla je bace. davAmAM hajAro rUpiyAne vyaya karyo, ekalI davA zuM kare ? chevaTe kaMTALI taddana azakta banela hovAthI sudeva-sugurUnuM zaraNuM svIkAryuM gurUdeve yukti pUrvaka upadeza ApI sanmArge vALe paDelA vyasanane tyAga karavAthI ane dharmanI rItasara ArAdhanA karavAthI cintA-valepAtanI sAthe azakti ane vyAdhi paNa khasI gaI. paisAone sAta kSetramAM vAparavAthI mejamajA karatAM paNa adhika AnaMda ane utsAha thavA lAgyo. aMte parivAranI cintAne paNa tyAga karI AtmahitArthe sarva For Private And Personal Use Only

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' 476 A. kautisAgarasUri racita saMgane tyAga karI mahArAja banyA. svaparanuM zreya sAdhyuM. 19 zrI sarvajJa-anaMtajJAnIe kathita sUtrane agara eka paNuM sUtrane vicAra ane viveka pUrvaka punaHpunaH manana nididhyAsana karavAmAM Ave te mAne mada-madanane tyAga karI Atma tatvamAM virAma pAmI anaMta bhavanA paribhramaNane TALavA mATe samartha bane. te vinA karmonI nijA thavI azakya che. ane sAcA sukhane meLavavAne sAce upAya paNa nathI. sukhanA athajane vividha prayAsa kare che, lAgelA agnine bujhAvavAmAM AvI paDelI vyAdhine kADhavAmAM zatruone nigraha karavAmAM ugharANI hoya te vasula karavAmAM ane dhana dhAnyAdi parigrahano saMgrahamAM tathA mAthe devuM hoya te tene dUra karavAmAM vilaMba karatA nathI. chatAM sAcA sukhanI prApti thatI nathI. kAraNa ke, karmonuM devuM traNa bAkI che. tene dUra kareluM nathI. tethI vAre vAre satya sukhamAM vidane AvIne hAjara thAya. che. koI paNa prakAre sthiratA thatI nathI. mATe AjIvikAnA sukha khAtara prayAsa karyA paNa karmone dura karavA mATe kayAre prayAsa karaze ? tamArI caturAI bahAdurI, agara vidvatA kayAre manAya ane kayAre sArthakatA gaNAya ke jyAre kamene dUra karavA jJAna pUrvaka prayatnazIla bane tyAre. nahItara te caturAI vigere saMsAra sAgaramAM puna:punaH paribhramaNa karAvIne thakavI nAMkhaze ane satya zAMti lAkhe yojana dUra raheze tame bhAgyeAdaye dhanADhaya banyA. sanmAna-satkAdi, janasamudAya For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara jayAti taraphathI ke adhikArI sarakAra taraphathI meLavyu' ane khuzI thayA paraMtu jyAre ghAtIyA karmInA dhAta karI Atma svarUpamAM ramaNutA thAya tyAreja khuzI thavA jevu che. mATe te karmonA ghAta karavAnA tricAra-prayatna karavA te Avazyaka che. saMsA ranI bhUla bhUlAmaNImAMtho ane bhramaNAmAMthI bahAra nIkaLe te bahAdura ane zUravIra. samyag zraddhA pUrvaka samyagdgAnI vyAvahArika kAryaM pramANikatAe karIne paNa karmone dUra karavA mAM pramAda karatA nathI, kAraNa ke te AdhAre mANasAI maLI antarAtmA manAyu. have paramAtmA padanI prApti mATe avazya prayatna zIla ane che. keTalAka dhanADhya kahe che. ke amAne cintA zAka-sa'tApa jevuM che nahI. tetA ThIka che. paraMtu zAka saMtApa-viDaMkhanAnA mUlIyAM adyApi vidyamAna che. te kyAre pAMgarI navapallavita ane sakreTa sa'tApAi kyAre upasthita thAya te jJAnI sivAya kahevA mATe kAI samatha nathI. tethI teeAnA mUlane dura karavA prayatna zIla khanavAnI jarUra che. mATe parigrahanI mamatAnA tyAga karIne Atmatattva oLakhavA mATe saMtASane dhAraNa karI dhama kriyAmAM tatpara ane. Xoo 191 vartamAnakAlamAMkanI kaTutAne dUra karavA Arbha samArMbha karavA pUrvaka parigrahanA sagraha karIne mIThAza mAnI paNatenI kaTutA gai nathI, mATe bhAvimAM zubha phleTanI mIThAza levo tathA tenA umade AsvAda levA te bhaviSya tamArA hAthamAM che bhAvIne sudhA raze. te vartamAnakAla sudharelA che te mAnA, suMdara leAnI For Private And Personal Use Only

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478 A. kIrtisAgarasUri racita mIThAzane anubhava AvyA karaze. kaDavA phala Ape tevuM vRkSa ghara AMgaNe rahyuM hoya tene tame mUlamAMthI dUra kare nahI ane upara uparathI DALA-pAMkhaDAne dUra kare che tethI kaDavA phala naSTa thatAM nathI. vakhata jatAM tevA kaTuka phalene ApavA vRkSasamartha bane che mATe tene dUra kare. jJAnIo karmorUpI vRkSone dUra karavA kammara kase che ane mUlamAM lUNe lagAvI dUra kare che tethI teo sAcA sukhanA svAmI banI AnaMdane AsvAdalodhA kare che kaTuka vRkSone dUra karyA sivAya ane madhura vRkSone ropyA vinA mIThAza kayAMthI Avaze? nItizAstra kahe che ke, balavAnane namaskAra karIne vaza kare zUrAone bheda paDAvI kabaje kare ane sarakhe carakhAne parAkrama batAvIne vaza kare. paraMtu karmo te tamArI AgaLa-antarAtmA banelanI AgaLa kaMgALa che. te pachI teone kabaje karI dura haThAvavA mATe ALasa karavI joIe nahI, pramAdamAM paDI agara upekSAvRtti dhAraNa karazo te te kaMgAle kAramo kera karaze pachI lahera kayAM bhAgI jaze tenI khabara paDaze nahI. parigraha te bhayaMkara graha che. tenI sadAya vakragati che tethI mUla rAzImAM AvatuM nathI. jema tema paribhramaNa karavA prayatnazIla che mATe parigraha kArame kera kare nahI te mATe kabaje karI mUla AtmasvarUpane prApta karavA tene sahAro le paNa vadhAre nahI. je vadhAryA kaze te mamatA-ahaMkAra tathA krodhAdine uzkerI je alpa pramANamAM zakti che tene paNa nAza karIne paTakI pADaze. pApanuM tathA dukha pIDAnuM mUla parigraha che. parigrahanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AMtara ti 478 upara rAjyanA adhikArIo tathA cera-khIsA kAtaranArAo najara pheravyA kare che. ane TekSa-lAgAe nAMkhI herAna karavA bAkI rAkhatA nathI. anIcachAe rAjyanA adhikArIone ane cAra guMDAone ApavuM paDe che eTale parigraha vadhAravAmAM saMteSa haze nahI. ane pApa dukha AvIne ulaTu vadhyuM. tenA karatAM parigraha hoya te popakAra kare agara saMtoSa rAkhI dhArmika mArgane grahaNa karI bhaviSyamAM sArA-madhurA phala maLe te mATe balane pherave tethI ja parigrahanI saphaLatA thAya che. parigraha te pariNAme gaLe TuMpo de eve che. pe lAgavAthI ghaNAya mAna maraNa pAmyA. pitAnA kulanA-parivAranA rakSaNa mATe ekane tyAga karanAra-gAma-nagaranA rakSaNa mATe kulane tyAga karanAra tathA deza-rASTranA rakSaNa mATe gAmane tyAga karanAra ghaNAe hoya che. paraMtu pitAnA AtmAnA rakSaNa mATe kula parivAratathA grAmAdine tyAga karanAra virala hoya che. kAraNa ke kulAdinA tyAga karavAmAM yazakIti tathA prazaMsAnI abhilASA hovAthI AnaMda pUrvaka teone tyAga karI zake che. paNa teo ahaMkAra-mamatA-adekhAI-nindAdikane tyAga karI zakatA nathI. paraMtu AtmAnA rakSaNamAM te ahaMtAmAyA-mamatAne tyAga karavAne hevAthI, eTale sarvasvano tyAga hovAthI te kulAdikane jyAre tyAga karavAno avasara Ave tyAre meha mugdha muMjhavaNamAM paDe che. paraMtu rAgazreSa-mahAdikanA tyAga karyA sivAya jene tyAga karyo tenI kiMmata keTalI ? zarIra vigerenuM rakSaNa karyuM. paNa zarIramAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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480 A. kIrtisAgarasUrI racita rahenAra AtmAne rakhaDate mUkyo tenI saMbhALa karI nahI, te je tyAga karyo tethI zuM? vastutaH mAyA mamatA adekhAI nindA vigerenA tyAgamAM sarvasva tyAga samAela che. ane AtmAnuM rakSaNa che. jyAre AyuSya pUrNa thAya che tyAre kula parivAra vigere sarva sagAne tyAga, anIcchAe paNa karavuM paDe che. paNa AtmAnuM rakSaNa karela nahI hovAthI karmone sAthe laIne paraleke javAnuM hoya che. eTale saMsAranA saMbaMdhanA tyAganI sAthe ahaMkArAdikane tyAga karI AtmAnA rakSaNa mATe prayAsa kare te satyatyAga che. AvA tyAgathI AtmAnuM kalyANa ane svazreya che. A tyAga pitAnA kalyANa sAthe saunA kalyANamAM paNa upakAraka che. hA AMtara joti samApta, pha For Private And Personal Use Only

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