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________________ Namotyu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassA cAra gatinAM kAraNo. pahelA bhAga zrI jaina pravacananA sane 155 nA vArSika grAhake mATenuM bheTa pustaka chUTaka nakalanuM mUlya-e yupIA pU. parama zAsanaprabhAvaka, vyAkhyAna-vAcaspati AcAryadeva zrImad vijayarA macandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAja nAM pravacanAno sAra
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________________ Namotthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mahAvIrassa / cAra gatinAM kAraNo [vi. sa. 2006 nA caturmAsa daramyAnamAM pAlItANA mukAme apAelAM pravacaneAmAMnAM keTalAMka pravacaneAnuM saMkalana karIne taiyAra karAeluM TUMka sArabhUta avataraNa. ] pahelA bhAga zrI jaina pravacana avADikanA sane 1955 nA vArSika grAhakone bheTa pustaka mATenuM . * : pravacanakAra : pU. sakalAgamarahasyavedI, parama gItA, svata AcAya deva zrImad vijayadAnasUrIzvarajI-paTaprabhAkara, pU. siddhAntamahAdhi AcArya deva zrImad vijaya premasUrIzvarajI mahArAntanA paTTAla kAra pU. parama zAsanaprabhAvaka, vyAkhyAna-vAcarapati, AcAya deva zrImad vijayarAmacandrasurIzvarajI mahArAja
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________________ prakAzaka : zrI jene pravacana pracAraka sArvajanika dhArmika TrasTanI vatI menejara-cImanalAla nAthAlAla zAha [saM. zrI jaina pravacana] prakAzana-sthala : zrI jaina pravacana kAryAlaya The. zeTha zrI manasukhabhAInI poLa sAme, davAkhAnAne meDe, kAlupura roDa- amadAvAda. pustakAkAre prathamavRtti . . . . . . nakala 2125 zrI vIra saM. 2480 vikrama saM. 2010 sane 1954 chUTaka nakalanuM mUlya. . . . . . . be rUpIA .: mudraka : maNilAla chaganalAla zAha dhI navaprabhAta prinTIMga presa, ghIkAMTA roDa, amadAvAda.
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________________ prakAzakanuM prAthana pU. siddhAntamahodadhi AcAryadeva zrImad vijayapremasUrI dharajI mahArAjAnA paTTAlaMkAra pU. parama zAsanaprabhAvaka, vyAkhyAna-vAcaspati, AcAryadeva zrImad vijayarAmacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA, kaccha-mAMDavImAM peAtAnA ziSya-praziSyAdi munivareAnI sAthe vi. saM. 2004 nuM caturmAsa karIne, kaccha dezanAM tIrthonI yAtrAe nIkaLyA hatA ane zrI bhadrezvarajI tIrthamAM, teozrInI nizrAmAM, caitra mAsamAM, zrI arihaMtAdi nava padmanuM vidhi pUrvaka sAmudAyika ArAdhana thayuM hatuM. tyAra Ada, tyAMthI ugra vihAra karate karate, teozrI suratanA zrIsaMghanI vinaMtithI surata padhAryA hatA ane vi. saM. 2005 nuM caturmAsa teozrIe suratamAM ja karyuM hatuM. vi. saM. 2005 nuM caturmAsa suratamAM karIne, muMbAimAM vasatA jaina bhAI enI AgrahabharI vinaMtine lakSyamAM laI ne, teozrIe, muMbAI tarapha vihAra lakhAvavA dhAryAM hatA; parantu surata jIllAnAM judAM judAM gAmAnA zrIsaMgheAnI AgrahabharI vinaMti hovAthI, muMbAI tarapha vihAra laMbAvatAM pUrve, teozrIe surata jIllAnAM gAmAmAM vihAra karavA mAMDayo hatA ane navasArI AvIne muMbAI tarapha vihAra laMbAvavAnI teozrInI bhAvanA hatI. teozrI caitra sudImAM navasArI padhAryAM ane navasArImAM paNa teozrInI tAraka nizrAmAM, zrI arihannAdi nava padonuM vidhipUrvaka sAmudAyika ArAdhana zarU thayuM. A daramyAnamAM banyuM evuM ke e samaye, teozrInA pU. gurUdeva-pU. AcAryadeva zrImad vijayapremasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA, pAlItANA mukAme virAjatA hatA; ane tyAMthI pU. gurUdevazrInA puNya dehane lagatA evA samAcAra AvavA
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe pAmyA, ke jene laIne tarata ja pU. AcAryadevazrIe muMbAI tarapha vihAra laMbAvavAnI pitAnI bhAvanAne mokupha rAkhI dIdhI ane pAlItANuM pU. gurUdevazrInI sevAmAM pahoMcI javAne nirNaya karI lIdhe. A nirNaya mujaba, citrI enI pUrNa thatAMnI sAthe ja, pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrIe pitAne vihAra pAlItANuM , tarapha laMbAvyo ane jeTha sudI pAMcamanA zubha divase to teozrI pitAnA pU. gurUdeva-pU. AcAryadeva zrImadavijayapremasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanI sevAmAM pahoMcI gayA. - e vakhate, zrI siddhagirijInI taLeTImAM AvelI jaina saMsAyaTImAMnA zeTha zrI nagInadAsa karamacaMda saMghavInA "rasikanivRtti-nivAsa" nAmanA baMgalAmAM, pU. siddhAnta mahedadhi AcAryadeva zrImad vijayamasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA virAjatA hatA; AthI, pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrI paNa tyAM ja padhAryA ane ethI pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrInuM te divasanuM pravacana paNa, e ja baMgalAmAM thayuM. pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrInA pahelA divasanA pravacanane sAMbhaLavAne mATe ekatrita thaI gayelAM bhAI-benenA vizAla samudAyane jotAM, saune lAgyuM ke-pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrInA pravacanane mATe te, A sthAna ghaNuM ja nAnuM paDaze. AthI, bIjA divasathI ja, tyAM najadIkamAM AvelA zeTha zrI bakubhAI maNilAlanA baMgalAnA vizAla holamAM, pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrInuM pravacana goThavavAmAM AvyuM. pachI zarU thayuM caturmAsa. gAma-gAmathI ane deza-dezathI saMkhyAbaMdha bhAI-bene zrI siddhagirijInI ane sAthe sAthe banane ya pU. AcAryadevenI chAyAmAM caturmAsa karavAne mATe
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________________ pahelA bhAga AvI pahoMcyAM. ene laIne, zeTha zrI bakubhAI maNilAlanA maMgalAneA vizALa hAla paNa ghaNA nAnA paDavA lAgyA ane prama pAvanakArI parvAdhirAja zrI payu SaNAparvanI ArAdhanA atre sau sAthe kema karI zakaze, enA mATo vicAra thaI paDyo. AgevAna gahasthA maLyA ane temaNe zeTha zrI ANaMdajI kalyANajInI peDhInA vaMDAmAM eka ghaNA vizAla ane ghaNA suzAlita maMDapa khaDA karAvyA. zrAvaNa vadI trIz2athI, e nUtana maMDapamAM, pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrInAM pravacane rAja apeAre thavA lAgyAM ane A vyavasthA thatAM, zrotAjanAnI saMkhyAmAM paNa ghaNA meATo umero thavA pAmyA. e daramyAnamAM, pAlItANAmAM zAsanarakSAnA eka khAsa noMdhapAtra anAva banavA pAmyA hatA. seAnagaDhavALA kAnajIsvAmie pAlItANA AvIne, potAnA matanA pracAra karavAnI meTI ceAjanA ghaDI kADhI hatI ane te ceAjanAne anusAre, kAnajIsvAmI, peAtAnA saMkhyAbaMdha bhaktonI sAthe pAlItANA AvI pahoMcyA hatA. pAlItANAmAM AvIne, temaNe, peAtAnA matanAM pracAraka vyAkhyAne ane tene meTA kAryakrama pragaT karyAM. AthI, aneka bhadrika. AtmAne kumatamAM phasAi paDatA bacAvI levAne mATe, pU. siddhAntamahAdadhi AcArya deva zrImad vijayapremasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAe, kAnajIsvAmI upara eka patra meAkalAbyA; ane, zrI jaina siddhAntAnA saMbaMdhamAM spaSTa khUlAsAo karavAne mATe, peAtAnA padharapU. AcAryadeva zrImad vijayarAmacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjane peAte mekalaze, evA bhAvanuM lakhANa paNa temAM lakhI mokalAgyuM. kAnajIsvAmie, A patranA kaze ja javAba te ApyA
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe nahi, paraMtu pAlItANAmAMnA pitAnA vasavATane ane pitAnAM vyAkhyAnene je kAryakrama pragaTa thaI cUkyo hato, te saghaLA ya kAryakramane rada karIne, ekAeka kAnajIsvAmI sonagaDha cAlyA gayA. Ama thavAthI, kAnajIsvAmine spaSTa khUlAsAo karavAne mATe 'pAlItANA e anukULa sthala nathI ema lAgyuM hoya ane "sonagaDha" e anukUla sthala che-ema lAgyuM hoya, te te mATe jAte sonagaDha AvavAnI taiyArI darzAvatuM patra paNa, pU. AcAryadeva zrImad vijayarAmacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAe kAnajIsvAmI upara lakhyo ane te patra rajIsTarDa karAvIne, senagaDha kAnajIsvAmI upara ravAnA karAvAyo. have te, kAnajIsvAmie e patra ja levAnI TapAlIne nA kahI dIdhI ane ethI "mAlike levA nA pADavAthI mokalanArane pAcho "--evA zerA sAthe te patra, TapAlakhAtAe pAlItANuM pAcho mokalI Ape. Ama, pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrInI pAlItANA mukAme e samaye hAjarI hovAthI, kumatanA pracAranI kAnajIsvAminI murAda bara AvI zakI nahi ane temanI AkhI ya pejanA sarvathA niSphaLa nivaDI. upara jaNAvelA saMyogomAM, pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrIe vi. saM. 2006 nuM caturmAsa pAlItANAmAM karyuM hatuM. e vakhate, pU. siddhAnta mahedadhi AcAryadeva zrImad vijayamasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAnI nizrAmAM ja pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmA zrInAM ghaNAM-kharAM jIndAM pravacane thayAM hatAM. pAlItANAmAM thayelAM e pravacanamAMthI, keTalAMka pravacanenI noMdha levAmAM AvI hatI. e noMdhane TUMkAvIne ane paraspara meLavIne
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________________ pahele bhAga evI rItie taiyAra karavAmAM AvI, ke jethI vAMcakane prAya: saLaMga vAcana maLyA kare. Ama chatAM paNa, keTalIka rejanI bhUmikAnI paNa agatyanI vAte rahI javA pAme nahi, e mATe e naidhane amuka vibhAgamAM vaheMcI nAkhavAmAM AvI hatI. e neMdhane Ama amuka vibhAgomAM vaheMcI nAkhIne, zrI jaina pravacana aThavADikamAM pragaTa karI hatI. evA vibhAge paikInA cAra vibhAge A pahelA bhAgamAM pragaTa karavAmAM AvyA che. A pravacanenI noMdhane, zrI jaina pravacanamAM "kaSAye ane IndrithI jItAvuM e ja AtmAne saMsAra che!-anekaSAya ane IndriyethI mUkAvuM e ja AtmAne mekSa che !"-AvA mathALAthI pragaTa karavAmAM AvI hatI; parantu A vivecanamAM mukhya viSaya tarIke "cAra gatinAM kAraNe" banI gayela hovAthI, Ane pustakAkAre pragaTa karatAM, Ane cAra gatinAM kAraNe" e nAma ApavuM vyAjabI dhAryuM che. - pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAzrInAM pravacanonA koI paNa saMgrahanI upagitA ane upakAratA viSe kAMI kahevAnI jarUra ja hotI nathI, kAraNa ke-dareka pravacana ja nahi, parantu dareka pravacananuM dareka vAkya paNa mahA upayogI ane mahA upakAraka che, evuM dareka AtmAthine lAgyA vinA rahe ja nahi, e pitAne anubhava paNa anekee pragaTa karela che. AthI, A pustakanI upayogitA ane upakArakatA viSe paNa ame AthI kAMI ja vadhu kahevAne IcchatA nathI ane jemanA hAthamAM A pustaka pahoMce, temane A pustakamAMnA saMgrahanuM vAraMvAra vAMcana ane manana karavAnI ja eka mAtra bhalI bhalAmaNa karIe chIe.
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe pU. parama zAsanaprabhAvaka, vyAkhyAna-vAcaspati, AcAryadeva zrImad vijayarAmacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAnAM parama prabhAvaka ane parama upakAraka pravacananA sArane pracAra thAya, evA AzayathI, jAmanagaranivAsI sva. zeTha zrI zAntidAsa khetazIbhAie, rUA. 10000 aMke daza hajAra rUpIA dara varSe eka bheTa pustaka chapAvavAne mATe zrI vIrazAsana kAryAlayane arpaNa karelA; paratu zrI vIrazAsana kAryAlayanA kAryavAhakoe, sva. zeTha zrI zAntidAsabhAIno Azaya bara Ave e mATe, majakura AkhI ya rakama, zrI jaina pravacana kAryAlayane suprata karI hatI. AthI, A pustakanA prakAzana samaye sva. zeTha zAntidAsabhAIne AbhAra pragaTa kare ane emanA samyajJAnanA pracAranI amalI dhagazanI anumodanA karavI, e Avazyaka che. A sthale, ame, sva. zeTha zrI zAntidAsabhAIne sAnudana AbhAra mAnIe chIe. prAnta-A pustakanA mudraNamAM amArA daSTideSathI agara te chapAvatAM je bhUla rahI javAne ke navI utpanna thaI javAno saMbhava che tethI, je kAMI paNa azuddhio rahI javA pAmI haya, te badala micchA mi dukkaDaM daIe chIe; tema ja, amArA anupayegAdinA kAraNe ja AmAM koI paNa ukti pU. pravacanakAra mahAtmAnA AzayathI virUddhanI AvI javA pAmI hoya ane tethI kadAca ananta upakArI bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevonI AjJAthI virUddhanI AvI javA pAmI hoya, te te badala paNa micchA mi dukkaDa daIe chIe ane vAMcake ne namrabhAve vinavIe chIe ke-je evI kaI kSati temanI daSTimAM Ave, to te tarapha amAruM dhyAna doravAnI teo kRpA kare.
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________________ : zIrSa kAnukrama :, zIka zrI navakAra gaNanArane saMsAra game ane mekSa game nahi, e ane ja kema ? saMsAra haiye hAya tyAM sudhI game teTalI kriyAthI sadhAya nahi : kevA prakAranAM karmIne khapAvavAnI IcchA che ? amArUM cAlata teA ahI page cAlata nahi : kriyA puNyanI te haiyAmAM pApa : paramAtmA kayAre banAya? ... ... ... bhaktinA sAcA lAbha meLavavA hAya to bhagavAnane kharAkhara oLakhI leA : ... kama nabaLAM paDyAM hoya te ya sakhaLAM bane evA ApaNe nabaLA chIe : dharma karatAM ya' sukha ApanAra karma thADuM ane duHkha ApanAra ka dhaNuM badhAya ? .. kanI asara na hoya te| AtmA zarIramAM zAnA hoya ? ... tapa khAvAnI upAdhi TaLe e mATe che : zrI dhanA sAvAha ghInA dAnathI samyaktva pAmyA ke te paNa mekSa ... ... vakhatanA bhAvathI ? ... ... pApeAdhya vinA sukhanI IcchA thAya nahiH saMsAranA sukhanI IcchA upara dveSa keLavA : saMsAracakra aMdha kema thAya ? AMTA ATA mATe nahi thavA joIe H saMsAra khaTako ema katyAre kahevAya ? parameSThi pratye bahumAna kayAre pragaTe ? saMsAranA sukhane rAga khaTakyA vinA zrI vItarAganA zaraNane pAmI zakAya nahi : duSkRtanI nindA ane sukRtanI anumodanA : :: Y, sa 3 8 9 11 13 14 16 19 22 * 25 41 42 43 44 45 46 48 50
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________________ 5 4 55 cAra gatinAM kAraNe duSkatanI nindA ane sukatanI anamedanA dvArA zrI vItarAganA zaraNane kema pamAya che... ... *** ghAtI ane aghAtI karmo tarapha ke bhAva che ? ... 53 bhUtakALamAM karelI bhUla ahIM karavI che ? ... .. dharmasAmagrI uparano prema dhAvamAtA jevo che ? ... mehanIya karma sAthenI gADha maitrI : ... kameM ApelA sukha-duHkhanA ja rAga-dveSIne dharmanI sAthe zuM lAgevaLage che ?... ... sArA-kharAbanuM mApa movRtti uparathI kaDhAya ? ... dRSTinI ekatA : ... ... kalikAlanA chanA guNe:... .. kAlAdinA nAme karAte bacAva : .. ApaNI bhUlamAM bacAva zedhIe ane pArakI bhUlamAM? ... nokaranI bhUla nAnI lAge ke moTI? ... ****** mAnasaparivartana aMge udAharaNa: ... pitAnI bhUla vakhate ane pArakI bhUla vakhate vicAraNAmAM keTaluM antara rahe che ? ... ... A tAraka sAdhanane pAmIne ya anaMtA tUkhyA, te ema zAthI banyuM te zodhavuM joIe, ne ? ... .. je bhayaMkara vastuo anaMtAne DUbAvyA, te vastu mArAmAM che " ke nahi ?--evo vicAra AvyuM che ? tAraka sAdhanone thoDA pramANamAM seve ke avidhithI seve, eTalA mAtrathI ja saMsAramAM rUle nahi? jIvana dharmakriyAmaya bane, evuM karavAnuM manamAM te kharuM ne bhagavAna zrI jinezvarade antima bhavamAM mehane AdhIna na banIne saMsAramAM rahyA nathI. ... ... ** saMsArane bhegavavA chatAM paNa brahmacArInuM ane khAvA chatAM paNa upavAsInuM eka udAharaNa : rAjA ane munivaranI mAnasika avasthA : ... *.. - 75 77
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________________ pahele bhAga , ha3 (5: 103, 0 108. 0 O 111 112 AvAM tAraka sAdhana dvArA paNa anaMtA kema DUkhyA ? ... dharmapariNAmane sAkara jevo banAvI : ... ' zrAvakanI bhAvanA : ******** zrI arihaMtAdinI ne ApaNe sAcI pichAna thAya te--... gulAma hovA chatAM paNa gulAmIne khyAla Avato nathI athavA te te bhUlAI jAya che : *** * * samyajJAna ane samyapha kriyAnA vegathI mukti : ... anukULa ane uttama sparzadinA yoga vinA sukha saMbhave ja nahi-evuM mAnanArA mokSane nathI mAnatA : ... avidhivALI dharmakriyA paNa vidhibahumAnathI ane mokSanA AzayathI heya te adhyAtmamAM khape : .. .. abhavyAdi A dharmane seve te saMsArasukhane mATe ja : ... mana mehane AdhIna che ke jinane ? ... ... ' ... mohanA veThIyA ke gulAma ? ... apunabaMdhaka avasthA : ... ... zrI siddhonuM ne ApaNuM svarUpa eka che, paNa emanuM pragaTeluM che ne ApaNuM dabAeluM che : ... *** .. *** caramAvarta ja zrI jinavANIno pravegakALa : ... zrI jinavANIne jhIlavAne pratApa : .. dharmamAM mokSano hetu Ave, eTale karmasattA paNa anukULa banavA mAMDe: *** .. ****** caramAvartamAM AvavA mAtrathI zuM vaLe ? ... nAlAyakAtane ya sAce khyAla joIe : ... zrI jaina zAsanamAM mokSanI vAta na hoya te bIjuM heya paNa zuM ? ... ... bhagavAnanA thaI jAva : ... nAlAyakane dharma nahi devAmAM paNa upakAra : ... baheza dharmAdAtA paNa chetarAya e bane: .. vinayaratnane prasaMga : ThoTha nizALIyA jevA te nathI ne? ... 114: 11ra 118 121 12 126129 130. 132 134 14t
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________________ 12 cAra gatinAM kAraNe 143 maherabAnI ja magAya : A kALamAM jo sAdhanasaMpannAne ya muzkelI che, teA sAdhanahInAnuM zuM thatuM ?.... sukhI mANasoe potapotAnAM kSetrone sa MbhALI levAM joie : mAMdhA kALamAM ja mANasanI ane paisAnI kiMmata che te ? sAdharmika-vAtsalyanAM jamaNA : khaMbhAtanA eka prasaMga : sIdAtA kSetra tarapha paheluM lakSya : tamane te mAtra saMpatti ghaTavAnA bhaya che, paNa bhUkhyAne te bhUkhe marI javAnA bhaya che : manuSyabhava Adi je sAmagrI maLI che, te maLyAnA AnaMda kevA prakAranA che ? manuSyabhavamAM janmIne IcchA mujaba jIvavAne mATe tame keTakeTalAM pApo karyo che? janma tarIke manuSyajanmanAM vakhANa thayAM nathI ... jIvavAne mATe ya karavAM paDatAM pApo jene DaMkhe nahi, tene cAMle zeAbhA nahi : pApa vagara jIvI zakAya evA A bhava che : sauthI pahelAM te sarvatyAganA sarvottama mArga ja batAvAya H... dharamAM rahevA chatAM paNa kheMcANa sAdhupaNA tarapha ja thayA karavuM joIe H A manuSyajanmanI kiMmata pApanA tyAgane AbhArI che' eTaluM ya samajAI jAya tAte samajI hovAnA dAvA karanArAo paNa khIjAnI vAtamAM kevI. mUrkhAi Acare che ? devAne bhAge evA gaLe vaLagelA che ke-chUTe ja nahi zrI dazA bhadra : devabhava karatAM ya manuSyabhavanI kiMmata vadhAre aMkANI che--tenuM kAraNa zuM? -sAdhuveSane khALIne paNa zAsananI apabhrAjanA thatI aTakAvanAra munirAja : ... ... ... 144 146 148 149 150 153 154 157 160 162 164 167 169 171 174 177 180 181 183 185
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________________ pahelA bhAga saMsAramAM chUTA paDavAnI navAI nathI ... : jagapUjya banavAnuM nasIba mAnavInuM ja che : pApa khaTakathA vinA te paramAtmA ya tArI zake nahi : kaTuMba sAthe karavAnI vAtA : saMdhanAM eTale kaiAinAM nahi ke saunAM ?... jainatva jhaLahaLe tyAre ? ... * ... ... jainapaNuM Ave te manovRtti pharyA vinA kahe nahi : devadravyamAMthI zrAvakA pAse pUjA karAvavAnI vAtA dhanahIna zrAvaka sAmAyika laIne zrI jinamandire jAya : saMdhanI sAmagrIthI pUjA karanArA H potAnA dravyathI ja dha kRtya karavAnA AgrahavALA e tAkarAnuM mananIya udAharaNa : zrAvakAne DUbAvI devAnA dhaMdhA : ... pUjA gAMThanA dravyathI ja karavI joie :... nahi karanAra chatAM maneAbhava sAro ane karanAra chatAM maneAbhAva kharAkha-e viSe eka udAharaNaH... ... ... ... ... ... ... AvA kALamAM ya zAsananI suMdara prabhAvanA thai zake : dutinA Dara pedA karavA sahelA che, paNa durgatinAM kAraNone kara pedA karavA muzkela che : AyuSyabaMdha mATenI sAvacetI : durgAMtinAM kAraNeA sevavA lAyaka ja nathI '-ema lAgyA kare evuM mana keLavavuM joie : ... ... ... patithie ane AyuSyabaMdha : bhUla karAya to mULa paNa bhogavavuM paDe ! heya te heya ja-eTaluM kharAkhara mAnatA hai| te ya durgati tamArUM nAma laI zake nahi niraparAdhI trasa jIvanI hiMsAnA tyAga paNa zuM sUcave che? hiMsAnA rasa na hAya chatAM sa MyAgavaza karavI paDe che ne? zarIra nAnuM, jIve thADuM, chatAM jAya sAtamIe ! ...... ' ... 13 192 194 195 197. 199 201 204 205 207 209 210 219 221 222 224 226 228 230 232 234 235 237 240 241
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________________ 14 AraMbhanA doSa to lAge ja che, paNa ayatanAnA doSa kema vahAra che ? ... ... mahA AraMbhanA hissedArA : zrI jinamandirAnA vahIvaTa ane vIjaLInA dIvAo : ... devadravyanA vyaya karavAnI jarUra : vANIyAnI kuneha : dhana saMbaMdhI zrAvakanI icchA : parigraha pAchaLa mana keTaluM badhuM dheluM baneluM che ?... sukhI gRhasthA jo udAra ane, te te gAmanA rAjA jevA atI jAya ... cAra gatinAM kAraNo tamane gama khAtAM AvaDe ? ... Aveza vakhate AyuSyanA aMdha paDI jAya teA ? 46 ... ... karanAre rAkhavI joie AvI manevRtti keLavA : ... ... bhayaMkara hiMsAonI anumeAdanA : e rAjAe te e matrinAM haiyAM kevAM haze ? dhyAnA pariNAmanI khAmI : 266 ... ... ApaNe pApa karIe, chatAM bhagavAna duHkhathI ane acAvI de, e mane nahi : chokarAnA khUnIne phAMsInI sajA thAya te rAjI thAva ne? ... 268 zrI kumArapAle yuddho khelyAM che, paNa emanA haiyAmAM kvI dayA, udAratA te gaMbhIratA hatI ? ... ... durgAMtithI sAmAyikAdi zA mATe ? cakravartIe cakravartipaNe mare te narake ja jAya-H ..... sAmeA AjJAbhaMjaka banI javA pAme nahi'-tenI kALajI AjJA mananA khaLApA : 277 mAre tA ya mAravAte icche nahi ane mAyuM te game nahi ... 279 zrI zAlibhadrajInI mAtAnuM haiyuM kevuM hatuM -ene pArakhavAnA prayatna karyo che kharA ? -6 ... ... 243 ... 245 251 253 ... 256 258 260 261 263 265 269 205 276 21 285 286 287 291
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________________ pahelA bhAga bharatAMya ya vAsirAvI zakAya e mATe- mUkIne jatA nathI, haiye laIne jAya che! A badhA pApanA vA-vaTALa che: pleganI jema DaratA rahevAnu mana thAya te ? jyAMthI chUTIne AvyA tyAM pharI sAvA javuM nathI ne ? ahI Ave! tA DAhyA thaI ne Avajo : sAdhu na thavAya te apAra bhavALA ane alpa paricahavALA anI jAva ... ... ... AvuM karazo to chokarAe tamane gAMDA nahi kahe, paNa utsava ujavaze : ... ... 5-25 sukhI mANaso jo ahI` rahI jAya ne dekharekha rAkhavA mAMDe te| ahIMnI ronaka pharI jAya : ... ... ... ... ... takedArI ... ane A haiyuM kare to sukhI mANasA A sahelAithI karI zake karavAmAM bIjAone dhaNI muzkelIo naDe ... e kAraNeA sevAya to ya rasa na AvI jAya, tenI rAkhavI joie : niranugrahatA, e ya narakanuM kAraNuM jeNe ApaNuM bagADyuM hoya, tenA upara anugraha karavAthI paNa lAbha ja thAya che: ... : anugraha karavAnI taka Avye zuM karo ?... anugrahatAthI nukazAna lAgatuM hoya to ya te niranugrahatAthI thatA nukazAna jeTaluM te nathI te ? 317 zrI navakAra maMtranA jApanuM phaLa maLe paNa haiyAmAM bIjA pApabhAvA hAya tenuM ya phaLa maLe te ? Azrita AdinI bhUlone khamI khAtAM ane anugraha karatAM zIkhA : 319 mAMsabhAjana : 321 322 ... ... sthiraveratA : ... agnizamyuMmAM vairabhAvanI sthiratA thai gai, te jyAM jyAM yAga thayA, tyAM tyAM vairabhAva jAgyA ... 15 ... 292 293 296 197 298 299 300 302 304 306 309 310 312 314 315 323
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________________ 332 cAra gatinAM kAraNe vairabhAva te, khUda bhagavAna maLe te ya dharmanI prApti AdimAM antarAya karanAre bane? ... ... *** 325 sarva verabhAvane saMvatsarIe te tajavA ja joIe : ... 327 ApaNe vairane tajIe paNa sAme vairane taje nahi, te e mATe zuM karavuM joIe ? ... ... | ... .. 328 jenA mArelA bANane ghA maraNatola nivaDyo, tene vizeSa prakAre khamAve che :... ... ... ... ... 330 raudradhyAna ane tenA cAra prakAre : ... raudradhyAna, tenI tIvratA ane maMdatA Adine aMge aneka bheda vALuM banI zake che... ... ... ... 333 paisA Ave te pacAvavAnI zakti na hoya ane jAya te sahavAnI zakti na hoya, te zuM bane? ... ... ... 33 paisA AvavAnuM pariNAma : ... ... ... ... 338 keLavIne asatya bolo ne? ... ... .. 339 dharmagurUne saghaLI sthiti jaNAvavI paDe. 340 samyaktva apAya-levAya tethI lAbha : ... ... ... 341 dharmanA denAra ane dharmanA lenAra aMgenI caturbhagImAM karyo bhAMge sauthI sAre ? ... vyavahAramAM ne dharmasthAnamAM ya asatya:.. 345 dhana sAcavavAnI vRtti zuM sarje che ? ... , 346 dharmasthAnomAM AvatI TIpane baMdha karAvavAno vicAra karavo e ya zobhe nahi: *** * * * AgevAnonuM zANapaNa: ... garIba paise duHkhI ane zrImaMta haiye duHkhIH ... 351 A kAMI sAdAI nathI : ... ... ... 35ra traNe ya kALamAM duHkhI thatA jIvo : *** ... 353 tyAgavRttithI pite taje ne bIjAne khavaDAveH ... 355 343 348 349
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________________ OM hI zrI arha nmH| Namotthu NaM samaNassa bhagavao mhaaviirss| anantalabdhinidhAnAya zrIgautamagaNadharAya namo nmH|| cAra gatinAM kAraNo pahelo bhAga
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________________ pravacanakAraH pU. sakalAmarahasyavedI, parama gItArtha, sva. AcAryadeva zrImad vijayadAnasUrIzvarajI-paTTaprabhAkara-pU. siddhAnta mahedadhi AcArya deva zrImad vijayapremasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAnA paTTAlaMkArapU. parama zAsanaprabhAvaka, vyAkhyAnavAcaspati AcAryadeva zrImad vijayarAmacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAja
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________________ ayamAtmaiva saMsAraH , kaSAyendriyanirjitaH / tameva tadvijetAraM, mokSamAhurmanISiNaH // 1 // zrI navakAra gaNanArane saMsAra game ane mokSa game nahi e bane ja kema? ananta upakArI, bhagavAna zrI arihaMtadeve AdinA kathana tarIke, parama upakArI kalikAlasarvajJa AcAryabhagavAna zrImadda hemacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA pharamAve che ke-AtmA pite ja saMsAra che ane AtmA pote ja mekSa che; kaSAya ane IndriyothI parAjita thavuM, e ja AtmAne saMsAra che ane kaSAyane tathA Inyine vijaya, e ja AtmAne mokSa che. je AtmAe kamarahita thayA, te AtmAe zrI siddhipade virAje che ane je AtmAo karmasahita che, te AtmAo saMsAramAM rahe che. AtmA sAthe karmane vega, e saMsAra che, ane AtmAnuM karmanA bhegathI je rahitapaNuM, te mekSa che . kaSAyathI ane indriyothI jItAvAthI karmane baMdha thAya che ane kaSAyo ane Indrio upara vijaya meLavavAthI karmanA gathI rahita banAya che. mokSa, e AtmAnuM zuddha svarUpa che ane saMsAra, e AtmAnuM vikRta svarUpa che. jaina kuLamAM janmelA ane bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevene mAnanArA tathA ke svarUpa kRta svarUpa che bhagavAna zrI
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNo pUjanArA AtmAone, A vastu gaLathuthImAMthI ja samajAI gaI hoya, temAM zaMkA kharI ? A vastu jene samajAI gaI hAya, tene potAnA AtmAnA vikRta svarUpane kADhavAnuM ane sAcA svarUpane meLavavAnuM je kAI sAdhana hoya, te game ke nahi ? A vastu jene samajAi gaI hAya, tene vikRta svarUpathI mukta banIne peAtAnA sAcA svarUpane pragaTAvavAnuM mana thAya nahi, e mane kharUM? jene A vAta kharAkhara samajAI jAya, tene vikRtine kADhavAnuM mana thayA vinA rahe ja nahi, paNa Aje mATe bhAga evA che, ke jene A vAta samajAI nathI; A vAta sAMbhaLavA ane vAMcavA chatAM ya, A vAta haiye jacI nathI; eTale, AtmAne vikRta svarUpathI mukta banAvIne, potAnA svarUpamAM lIna banAvavAnuM lakSya AvatuM nathI. ApaNe je pAMca parameSThine mAnIe chIe, je pAMca parameSThine rAja tame vAraMvAra namaskAra karA che, temAMnA eka paNa parameSThinA svarUpanA varNanamAM meAkSamArganI vAta AvatI na hAya, evuM che ja nahi. bhagavAna zrI arihaMtadevA, meAkSamArgane sthApIne meAkSane pAmelA; zrI siddhabhagavantA, meAkSamArganI ArAdhanA karavA dvArA sakala karmothI rahita banIne zrI siddhipadane pAmelA; zrI AcAryabhagavantA, meAkSamArganA ja pAlaka, pracAraka tathA saMrakSaka; zrI upAdhyAyabhagavantA, meAkSamArgane sevanAra tathA meAkSamArganAM nirUpaka zAonA jJAnanuM dAna karanArA; ane zrI sAdhubhagavantA paNa, peAte ekAnte meAkSamArgane sevavAnI sAthe bIjAone meAkSamArganI sevA karavAmAM sahAya karanArA ! A pAMcamAMthI ekanA paNa svarUpadarzanamAM, meAkSamArganI vAta na hoya te 4
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________________ pahelA bhAga te cAle nahi. AvA pAMca parameSThine namaskAra karanArA ane e pAMca parameSThine karelA namaskAranA phaLa tarIke sarva pApanA vinAza thAya che evuM mAnanArA tema ja je kriyA sarva pApanI vinAzaka hAya te kriyAne ja sarva maMgalAmAM prathama maMgala tarIke mAnanArAo, AtmAnA zuddha svarUpane ane azuddha svarUpane samaje ke nahi ? e ema kahI zake kharo ke- mane mokSa gamatA nathI ane saMsAra game che?' ene saMsAra nathI gamatA ane mokSa game che; ene saMsArathI chUTavuM che ane mokSane meLavavA che; e mATe te e zrI navakAra maMtrane gaNe che! Ama chatAM ya, zrI navakAra maMtrane gaNanAro jo ema kahe ke- mane mokSa gamatA nathI ane saMsAra ja mane game che'-tA zrI navakAra maMtrane e je gaNe che, tenA hetu ze che? jJAnI te kharAkhara jANI zake ke'enA amuka hetu che' ane ApaNe paNa tenI kheAla-cAla, rItabhAta AdithI anumAna karI zakIe ke'e . zrI navakAra maMtrane gaNe che kharA, paNa zrI navakAra maMtrane gaNavAnuM je dhyeya heAvuM joIe, te dhyeyane e pAmyA lAgatA nathI.' zrI navakAra maMtrane gaNanArane jyAre A vAta jANyAne maLe ane lAge ke hajI huM A dhyeyanA mArge AvyeA nathI, tA e jANIne ene dhrujArI na chUTe? ene ema na thAya ke--zrI navakAra maMtra gaNavA dvArA rAja huM je pAMca parameSThine vAraMvAra namaskAra karUM chuM, temAMnA ekanA paNa varNanamAM mokSa zabdane mUkayA vinA cAle tema nathI ane mane haju mokSa gamatA nathI, mane haju saMsArathI chUTavAnuM mana thatuM nathI, e mArI kayI dazA che? 5
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________________ } cAra gatinAM kAraNeA saMsAra haiye hoya tyAM sudhI game teTalI kriyAthI paNa mekSa sadhAya nahi : bIjuM kAMI na samajAya, teA ya eTaluM te samajAya te ke-mokSa, e mArUM sAcuM rUpa che ane saMsAra, e mArUM viparIta rUpa che ? mokSa eTale saMsArathI viparIta sthiti, ema kahyA vagara te cAle nahi ne ? ema tA thAya ne ke-mAre atyAranI sthiti nathI joItI ane jemane huM rAja vAraMvAra namaskAra karUM chuM, temanA sthAne ane dhyeye mAre paNa pahAMcavuM che? sa. A vAta buddhimAM utare che. buddhimAM utare ne haiyAmAM nahi ? ekalA buddhivALA ceAgya nathI. buddhi hRdayapUrvakanI joI e. buddhithI je samajAya, te hRdayane sparzavuM joie. ene hRdayapUrvakane buddhivALA kahevAya. keTalAka evA hoya che ke--badhuM ame samajIe chIe ema kahe, keAInI joDe vAta karavA bese tA ene samajAvI paNa de, paNa peAtAne mATe khAnuM ja juduM! bIjAne kahevuM hAya tA saMsAra A, mokSa A, AtmAnuM azuddha svarUpa amuka, AtmAnuM zuddha svarUpa amuka-ema DahApaNanI meATI moTI vAta kare; paNa ene pUchIe ke-tArI zuM sthiti ? tA ke-mArUM khAnuM juduM! AvI samajane kAMI artha nathI. peAtAne peAtAnA azuddha svarUpanA ane zrI arihaMtAdinA zuddha svarUpanA khyAla AvavA joI e; tema ja, mAre mArA zuddha svarUpane prApta karavuM che ane e mATe huM zrI navakAra maMtrane gaNuM chuM--ema thavuM joI e. saMsAra, e mArUM azuddha svarUpa che ane mokSa, e mArUM zuddha svarUpa che, e samajAyA vinA
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________________ pahele bhAga mokSa tarapha prayatnapUrvakanI gati thavI, e asaMbhavita che. sa0 saMsAra che to mokSa che ne? vAta sAcI che ke-saMsAra na hatA te mokSa na heta, paNa haiyAmAM saMsAra hoya te kadI paNa mokSa thAya nahi. saMsArane je choDe, tene ja mokSa thAya. saMsAra jenI pAse heya, tene jyAre ema thAya ke-mAre saMsAra nathI ja joIto, tyAre ja e mokSamArganI sAcI ArAdhanA karIne mokSane pAmI zake che. mokSamArganI kriyAone sevavA chatAM paNa, jenA haiyAmAM saMsAra ja hoya, te game teTalI kriyAo kare te ya, mokSane pAme nahi. saMsAra pAse havA mAtrathI ja mokSa sadhAya nahi-evuM nathI, paNa saMsAra pAse hovA chatAM ya tenAthI chUTavAnuM ja mana hovuM joIe ane te ja mokSasAdhaka kriyA dvArA paNa mokSane sAdhI zakAya. duHkhI ja mokSe jAya ane sukhI mokSe jAya ja nahi-ema A zAsana kahetuM nathI. A zAsana te kahe che ke-sukhI ja mokSe jAya, paNa te kayuM sukha? haiyAnuM sukha. jene dunyavI sukha tuccha lAge, tajavA jevuM lAge ane AtmAnuM sukha game, te mele jAya. haiyAnA sukhane mATe paiso vagere joIe ja-e niyama nahi. piso heya te ya enuM mamatva jeTaluM ochuM hoya teTaluM sukha anubhavAya. tame ne ame ahIM beThA chIe. amAruM kaI gAmamAM kAMI saLagavAnuM nathI ane tamAre tame ahIM beThA che, paNa tamAruM saLagavAnuM keTaluM ya ThekANe che ne? kema ke amuka ThekANe mAruM che, ema tamArA haiyAmAM che. tame ahIM chatAM, manamAM e ke-amuka ThekANe mAruM che ane mAre tyAM javuM che. Atmika sukhamAM A moTuM vita che ne? saMsAra
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________________ = cAra gatinAM kAraNo pAse hoya to ya, haiyAmAM je te naja hoya, te keTaluM badhuM sukha anubhavAya? saMsAra haiye rahe ane mekSa maLe, e bane ja nahi. kevA prakAranAM karmone khapAvavAnI IcchA che? tamane saMsAra gamatuM nathI, saMsArathI tamAre chUTavuM che, mATe tame ahIM zrI siddhagirijInI yAtrAe AvyA che ne? saMsArathI chUTavAne mATe ane mokSane pAmavAne mATe karmathI chUTavuM ja paDe, eTale tame ahIM karmane khapAvavAne mATe AvyA che ne ?jJAnioe kahyuM che ke-zrI siddhagirijI, e karmone khapAvavAnuM uttama sthAna che. tame ahIM AvyA che, to tamAre kayAM karmone khapAvavAM che? kayAM karmo khapI jAya, to tamane AnaMda thAya? duHkhanI sAmagrI ApanArA paNa karmo che, sukhanI sAmagrI ApanAra paNa karyo che ane AtmAne pApamAM janArAM paNa karmo che; AmAMthI, tamAre kyA prakAranAM karmone khapAvavAne khAsa IrAde che? sava krame krame IcchA thAya ne? eTale ke-atyAre te mAtra duHkhane ApanArAM karmone ja kADhavAnI-khapAvavAnI IcchA che ne? duHkhane denArAM karmone khapAvavAM che ane sukhane ApanArAM karmone meLavavAM che, ema ja ne? eTale, saMsArathI chUTavuM che ane mekSa meLave che, e vAta te rahI nahi ne ? saMsAra nathI joIta-ema nahi, paNa duHkha nathI gamatuM ane ethI duHkhane ApanArAM karmone khapAvavAnI IcchA che, ema ja ne? jene kevaLa duHkha Ape evAM ja karmone khapAvavAnI IcchA che, ane te paNa saMsAranA
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________________ pahelA bhAga sukhane mATe ja, tene kadI paNa duHkharahita sukha maLe ja nahi. duHkha Ape tevAM karmone khapAvavAnI IcchA tA kAne nathI ? saMsAramAM, duHkha kAne game che ane sukha kAne gamatuM nathI? saune duHkhanA aNagamA che ane saune sukha game che, chatAM badhA du:khI kema che? duHkhane denArA karma mAtrathI chUTavA sAthe, mAtra sukhane ja denArAM karmonA cAga sAdhI zakAya, e banI zake ja nahi. nahitara, sukha mATe taraphaDIyAM mAranArA jIva du:khI thAya kema ? sukha ApanArAM karmo jene joIe che, tene duHkha ApanArAM karmo baMdhAyA vinA rahetAM ja nathI. jene ekaluM sukha ja joituM hAya, teNe karmarahita banavAnA ja prayatna karavA joie. A vAta kharAkhara samajI levI joI e. zrI sarvajJa bhagavAnanA zAsananA A arka che. kahevAtA adhyAtmavAdio, adhyAtmanI karI vAtA karanArAo, A vastune samajyA ja nathI. nAhakanA karmanI vAtathI gabharAya che. karmanI sAthe rahevuM ne karmathI gabharAvuM, te cAle ? karmarahita anavuM che, e IcchA ja karmanI asarane sUcave che. AtmA vibhAvadazAmAM che, te karmanI ja asara che. AtmA upara karmanI asara teA thAya ja che, paNa e asarane gaNakAryA vinA je potAnA svabhAvamAM sthira rahevAnA prayatna karyA kare, te karmathI sarvathA chUTA ane. karmanI asara nathI -ema kahevA mAtrathI ja kAMI karmanA ceAgathI mukta manI zakAya nahi. amAruM cAlata te ahIM page cAlata nahi H 9 zAstroe karmanA ghAtI-adhAtI e vagere bhedo varNavyA
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________________ 10 cAra gatinAM kAraNe che, paNa bALa jIvane jhaTa samajAya e mATe ja ApaNe karmanI vaheMcaNe traNa prakAre karI che. duHkha ApanAra karma, sukha ApanAra karma ane pApa karAvanAra karma. A traNa prakAromAMthI kayA prakAranA karmane khapAvavAnI IcchA che, e vAta cAle che. kaI pUche ke-"tame ahIM AvyA zA mATe?" te zuM kahe ? puNya baMdhAya e mATe, ema ja ne ? paNa, A zrI siddhigirijInI ATalI badhI mahattA zA mATe che? zrI AdIzvarajI bhagavAnanI pratimA bIje nathI ? bIje ghaNe ya ThekANe zrI AdIzvarajI bhagavAnanAM pratimAjI che, chatAM A sthAne sau ullAsathI dakyA deDakyA Ave che, tene hetu ze? A sthAnanI mahattA samajAyA vinA, A sthAne AvyAthI jJAnioe kahyA mujabane je lAbha thavo joIe, te lAbha thAya nahi. tamAre kahevuM joIe ke-bIje ghaNe ya ThekANe zrI AdIzvarajI bhagavAnanI pratimAo che, paNa ahIM bhUminI je pavitratA che, te bIje nathI. ahIMnI bhUmi paNa pavitra che. zAthI? te ke-ahIM kAMkare kAMkare anantA siddho thayA che. tamAre kahevuM joIe ke-jo amAruM cAlatuM hota, te ame A bhUmi upara paga na mUkata, paNa mAthuM ja mUkata. pagane uMcA rAkhIne ane mAthuM nIce mUkIne ame je A girirAjanI upara caDhI zakatA hatA, te ame A bhUmi upara paga mUkata nahi. Ama chatAM ya, A bhUmi upara ame je paga mUkIe chIe, te paga mUkavAne mATe nathI mUktA, paNa A pavitra bhUminI sparzanAthI pAvana thavAne amAre bhAva che. AvuM samajIne A bhUmi upara je paga mUke, te kevI rItie mUke? kALajIpUrvaka. jema bApanA zarIrane
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________________ pahele bhAga - 1 dabAvavAne mATe dIkare bApanI kammara upara paga mUke ne? Ama te vidhi e ja che ke-mAtA, pitA, gurU Adine athavA to emanA AsanAdine paNa paga aDADAya ja nahi, paga aDADe, e AzAtanA gaNAya; paNa zarIra dAbavAbhakti karavA te paga aDADAya ja ne? tema, A bhUmi upara paNa, jyAM anantA siddha thayA evI pavitra bhUmi upara. sparzanA karavAne mATe paga mUkAya. A bhAva antaramAM heya, te eka eka pagaluM bharo ane anaMtA karmo paNa nirjare, te emAM navAI che? kriyA puNyanI ne haiyAmAM pApa : stavanamAM Ave che ne ke - kajanita sukha te duHkha rUpa, sukha te AtamajhAMkha." te prazna e che ke tame ahIM kayA prakAranAM karmone khapAvavAne mATe AvyA che? duHkha ApanAra, sukha ApanAra ane pApa karAvanAra-e traNa prakAranAM karmomAMthI kayA prakAranAM karmo upara tamane gusso Avyo, ke jethI jhaTa TIkITa laIne tame ahIM deDI AvyA? tame maphata AvyA che ke paisA kharcIne? pisA kharcIne AvA meMghavArInA kALamAM tame ahIM sudhI AvyA, te zA hetuthI AvyA? tame kAMI gAMDA che ke-ema ne ema paisA kharcI nAkhe? tame te DAhyA che ane DAhyA hoya te vagara lAbha bhAye pisA khacI nAkhavAnuM gAMDapaNa thoDuM ja kare? eTale, vAta e che ke tamane kyAM karmo upara gusso Avyo, ke je karmone khapAvavAne mATe tame ahIM sudhI paisA kharcIne ane takalIpha veThIne
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________________ 12 cAra gatinAM kAraNe cAlyA AvyA ? sa0 ahIM karma khape che eTaluM mAveluM kharuM. eTale, karmane khapAvavAne mATe AvyA ne? karmane yoga nathI gamate, mATe AvyA ne ? oghathI samaja hoya, paNa avasare vizeSa samaja meLavavAnuM mana te thAya ne? duHkha ApanArA karmo para gusso che, sukha ApanArA karmo para guse che ke pApa karAvanArA karmo para gusso che, e nakkI kare. dharma karanAranI beTI rItabhAtathI, dharma nahi karanArane dharma nahi karavAne pracAra karavAmAM piSaNa maLI jAya che. e zuM pUche che? tamArA dharma karanAranAM haiyAM keTalAM sudharyA che? evuM kahIne, dharma karavAne virodha karanArAone to ame kahIe chIe ke-bIjuM kAMI nahi, te ya tame covIse kalAka pApakriyAomAM rakta che ane eNe be kalAka paNa pAkiyA cheDI to kharI ne ? e vAta emane gaLe utarI jAya che ane ema ame emanI jabAna to baMdha karIe chIe, paNa amane to haiyAmAM DaMkha rahI jAya ne ke-A dharma karanArAo dharma karavA dvArA je pAmavuM joIe, tenA tarapha najara paNa karatA nathI! emanuM vartana dharmanI nindAnuM kAraNa bane che ! saMsArane aNagame hoya ane mokSa ja meLave che-ema hoya te, jemanA haiyAmAM AvuM hoya, temanA haiyAmAM dunyavI sukhanI ja lAlasA hoya, e bane ? be kalAka paNa pApa vagaranA, e kyAre? kriyA puNyanI ne haiyAmAM pApa, e cAle ? haiyAmAM pApa rAkhIne dharmakriyA kare, eTale pApathI bacAya kharuM? A vAtane gaMbhIrapaNe vicAratAM zIkhe. pApanI kriyA karavI paDe to ya haiyAmAMthI dharma-mekSanI IcchA nahi khasavI
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________________ pahele bhAga joIe; tene badale, mokSamArganI kriyA karatI vakhate ya haiyAmAM saMsAra ja hoya, te nisvAra thAya zI rItie ? paramAtmA kyAre banAya? ApaNe jIva chIe. ApaNI AMkha sAme jagata che. jagatamAM ApaNe rahelA chIe, paNa ApaNe thAvuM che zuM ? ApaNe paramAtmA ja thAvuM che ne ? paramAtmA banavAne mATe, bahirAtmA maTIne antarAtmA banavuM paDe. jagatamAM rahIne ja paramAtmA banavAnuM che, paNa jagatamAM je rame, te paramAtmA banI zake nahi. jagatamAM rahevA chatAM paNa, jagatamAM je rame nahi ane paramAtmabhAvamAM ramavAne mATe je prayatnazIla bane, te paramAtmA banI zake. jagatamAM rame te bahirAtmA, jagatamAM rahevA chatAM paramAtmabhAvanA dhyeyamAM rame te antarAtmA ane jagatanA saMsargathI chUTe te paramAtmA. pApakarmone karAvanArAM karmothI chUTIne, e mArgane svatannapaNe prarUpe e ya paramAtmA ane karmanA vegathI sarvathA chUTe te paNa paramAtmA. ApaNo saMsAra sAthe meLa anAdikALathI sarjaelo che ane te meLa karmonA vegathI ja hato ane che; paNa have ApaNe eTalA DAhyA thayA ke-haiyAmAMthI meLa khasI gayo che. ApaNe hadayathI saMsAra sAthe meLa nahi ne? karma che tyAM sudhI saMsArano meLa te che, paNa ApaNe e meLa joI nathI ne ? haiyAthI meLa na hoya, te bhASA paNa pharI jAya. jema kaI saMbaMdhI hoya ane tenI sAthe meLa na hoya, te kaI pUche tyAre zuM kahe che? "A che te mArA kAkAne dIkare athavA mAjaNyo bhAI, paNa amAre haiyAne meLa nathI.
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________________ 14 cAra gatinAM kAraNe che mArA bhAI, saMbaMdhI che" ema vAta TALe che ne? ane jenI sAthe meLa hoya che, tenI vAta karavAmAM paNa Thase jude hoya che. "e te mAre sage bhAI thAya; mArA sagA kAkAne A dIkare che."--evuM evuM belAya ne? karma saMbaMdha karI Ape che, chatAM jenI sAthe phAvaTa na hoya tene mATe ane jenI sAthe phAvaTa hoya tene mATe, bhASAmAM phera thaI jAya che ne? saMbaMdhI joDe ya tamAre phAvaTa nahi, evuM kyAre ? e kharAba hoya te ja? nA, nA, e ApaNuM kAmamAM na AvatuM hoya to ya phAvaTa Ave nahi ne? tema, antarAtmAne ema thAya ke-karma sarjela A saMsAra che, karma che eTale mAre saMsArane saMbaMdha che, paNa saMsAra sAthe mAre haiyAthI meLa nathI. zuM karIe? jamyA eTale jIvyA vagara chUTake nathI, mAMDyuM eTale calAvyA vagara chUTako nathI, tema karma Apela A badhe saMsAra nibhAvIe chIe, paNa saMsArane saMbaMdha phAvatuM nathI. Ama kharuM ne? "nibhAvIe chIe saMsAra, paNa sAdhIe chIe mekSa - ema kharuM ne? ema thAya te ja krame karIne paramAtmA banAya. bhaktine sAro lAbha meLavavo hoya te bhagavAnane barAbara oLakhI lo tame badhA ahIM AvyA che, te karmane khapAvavAne mATe ja ahIM AvyA che, ema mAnIne ja vAta karavI paDe ne? karmane khapAvanAra girivaranI pAse karmane bAMdhavAne mATe jeno Ave kharA? have ahIM kyAM karmone khapAvavAnI mahenata karavI joIe, e vAta che. tamane samajAvavA pUratA karmanA
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________________ pahelA bhAga 15 traNa vibhAge| kahyA. karma che, karmanA cAga che, tenI asara che, tenAthI mukta manAya che, A badhuM keNe kahyuM che ? bhagavAne ! kayA bhagavAne ? A girirAja upara virAje che e bhagavAne pazu ! A girirAja upara virAjamAna bhagavAnane te tame eLakhA che ne? varSe varSe ahIM AvA ane vAraMvAra darzane jAva, pUjAdi karA, chatAM A bhagavAnane ALakhA nahi ? A bhagavAnane ghaNA dAdA kahe che, te zuM e ApanA Apa che mATe dAdA che ? nA, A tAraka A avasaNImAM A bharatakSetramAM thayelA cAvIsa tIrthapatiomAMnA prathama tIrthapati che. hajArA ja nahi, saMkhyA vinAnAM varSothI lApa thaI gayelA dharmanI, Adi karanArA A bhagavAna che. tame ATaluM teA kaheA, paNa kAI pUche ke-- e zI rItie bhagavAna thayA ? ' teA zuM kahe ? e amArA mahArAja jANe'-ema ja ne ? bhagavAna zI rItie bhagavAna thayA, bhagavAna pahelAM kevA hatA ane pachI kevA banyA, e tame jANA nahi, te tame jalanA abhiSekA karI, kesara caMdanAdithI pUjA karI, kulAnA hArA caDhAveA, dhUpa karA, dIpakeA pragaTAvA, AratI utArA, cAmarA vIMjhA-e vagere karatAM tamane je bhAvA AvavA joI e, te bhAvA Ave zI rItie ? snehI mATe dAgInA karAvatAM kevA umaLakA Ave che ? kema ke snehI sAthe kevA saMbaMdha che, tenI khakhara che ane A dAgInA e amuka rItie paheraze ane ethI e Ama zeAlaze ane ethI tene Ama thaze, e vagere thAya che ne ? tema jo bhagavAnane oLakhyA hoya, tA bhagavAnanI pUjAmAM kevA umaLakA Ave? pachI thAya kemeM e rUpIAnA hAra caDhAvyeA, paNa 500 nA hAra caDhAvuM '
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe to ya ochuM che. AvA hAra te eka kALe enA caraNe chuMdAtA, evA e sukhI hatA. A bhagavAne saMsAranAM saghaLAM ya sukhone lAta mArI ane kevalajJAna pragaTAvIne meMkSamArgane sthAge. AnA upakAranI avadhi nathI. pachI eno hAra letAM ema thAya ke-pAMcane nathI levAte, e kamanasIbI che; ane pAMcane hAra letAM ema thAya ke-dazane nathI levAte e kamanasIbI che, kAraNa ke-haju mamatA utaratI nathI. mamatA utAranAranI bhakti mATe jeTaluM karIe te ochuM lAge. tamane zuM lAge che? be-pAMca rUpIA hAra caDhAvyo hoya, temAM te jANe ThassAthI bele. ema thAya ke-ghaNuM karI nAkhyuM, kema ke-bhagavAnane oLakhyA nathI. sAcI bhakti karavI hoya, je kAMI bhakti thAya tenA sAcA lAbhane pAma heya, te bhagavAnane oLakho. have te ahIMthI javAnI taiyArImAM che ne? cAra-cha ke bAra mahine pharI AvavAnA ne? nirNaya karIne jAva ke-pharI ahIM AvatAM pahelAM bhagavAnane ame jarUra oLakhI levAnA. have ghera jaze to ya, A bhagavAnanA badhA bhava vAMcavAnA ne ? A bhagavAna bhagavAna kema banyA, e samajI leze ne? pachI, kayAM karma khapAvavAM che, e vicAra jarUra Avaze. karma nabaLAM paDayAM hoya to ya sabaLAM bane evA ApaNe nabaLA chIe? tamArI pAse pApa karAve evAM karmo tamane udayamAM varte che ne? saMsAramAM rahevuM, e pApa che ne ? saMsAramAM rahevAnuM pApa keNa karAve che? pApa karAvanAra karmane udaya
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________________ pahelo bhAga 17 ja ne? je karmane udaya saMsAravAsa rUpa pApane tajavA na de; ApaNe saMsAravAsane tajIne ekAnta mokSamArganI ArAdhanA karavI hoya, te paNa je karmane udaya ApaNuM e bhAvanAne saphala thavA de nahi, e karma khaTake che? pApane tajavAmAM aTakAyata karanAra ane pApane AcaravAnI preraNA karAve tevuM pApakarma tamane khaTake che, mATe tame ahIM AvyA che ne ? kayAM kyAM karmone khapAvavAne mATe tame ahIM AvyA che, tenI vigata tamane na AvaDe, te ya oghathI ema te thAya ne ke-ahIM AvavAthI mArAM te karmo khape, ke je karmo mokSamArganI ArAdhanAmAM bAdha karanArAM heya !? A vastune samajAvavAne mATe, tamane karmonA je traNa vibhAge kahyA che, e barAbara gokhI lo ! tamane je ema lAgatuM hoya ke-nA, nA, ame kAMI gharamAM beThA chIe te pApamAM beThA nathI, ame pApa karatA nathI, ema hoya te kahI de ! tame nathI belatA, eTale gharamAM rahevuM e pApa che" e vAtamAM tame sammata che, ema mAnI lauM ne ? have kaI pUche ke-gharamAM rahevuM e pApa che, te tame gharamAM kema beThA cho?" te kahevuM ke-"gharamAM rahevAnuM jarA ya mana nathI, paNa zuM karIe ? pApa karAvanArA karmo udayamAM varte che, eTale gRhavAsane tajavAnA amArA prayatna kAragata nivaDatA nathI!" jJAnioe amuka daSTie gRhasthaveSane ya pApaSa kahe che. zrI jaina zAsanamAM svaliMga kayuM? sAdhuliMgane ja zrI jaina zAsana sthagi kahe che. sabadhA pApa karAvanArA karmanA udayathI ja saMsAramAM rahyA che?
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe pApa karavAne prere evA karmanA udaya vinA teA, kAI paNa jIva saMsAramAM rahI zake ja nahi; parantu badhAnAM karme eTalAM badhAM joradAra ja che ke--prayatna karavA chatAM ya enA kSaye pazama sAdhI zakAya nahi, evuM kahI zakAya nahi. karma nabaLAM hoya paNu tame vadhu nabaLA hA, tA ya e karmanA jore pApa chUTe nahi. jo ApaNe nabaLA banIe tA nabaLAM karma paNa chAtI upara caDhI ese ane jo ApaNe kharAkhara sAme thaIe, teA sakhaLAM karma paNa nakhaLAM paDe. tamane tamAre mATe ema nathI lAgatuM ke-Aje saMsAramAM ame anIti Adi aneka pApe karIe chIe, paNa manane jo jarAka joradAra karIe, te anIti karyA vinA paNa jIvI zakAya tevuM che?' Aje te lagabhaga badhAne ' sarAramAM tA badhuM hAle '-ema thaI gayuM che ane ethI pApa vadhAre pramANamAM thAya che. tame anIti Adi je pApe karI che, te ' saMsAramAM te ema ja cAle'-evuM manamAM beThuM che mATe kare che ke na chUTake karI che ? ame ghaNA namaLA chIe, mATe pApa karAvanArAM karmo jora kare che; eTale e karyuM nakhaLAM paDe ane jAya, te mATe ame ahIM zrI siddhagirijInI yAtrAe AvyA chIe '-evuM mAre tamArI pAsethI sAMbhaLavuM che. tamArA jevA DAhyA mANasAne, je anIti thAya te DaMkhe ya nahi, evuM bane ? anIti thAya ne te DaMkhe nahi-evuM te tamArUM haiyuM nathI ja, evuM huM kahyuM ne? ane jenI pAse evuM haiyuM hAya ke-pApa thAya te ya te DaMkhyA vinA rahe ja nahi, tene teA ema ja thAya ke kayAre A pApa karAvanArA karmathI huM mukta banuM, ke jethI mAre karmane AdhIna thaIne je pApa karavuM paDe che, te 18
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________________ sukhanI no che ane koI ja thaze. pahele bhAga pApa mAre karavuM paDe nahi! dharma karatAM ya sukha ApanAra karma thoDuM ane duHkha ApanAra karma ghaNuM baMdhAya? amAre tamane kAMI duHkhI karavA nathI. tame mekSanA hetuthI dharmakaraNI kare ane ema karatAM tamane sukha ApanArA karmo baMdhAya te bhale baMdhAya, paNa tame dunyavI sukhanI IcchAne taje, pachI tame avazya sukhI thaze. Aje jeno ghaNA duHkhI che, e jANIne koI paNa dharmazIla AtmAne duHkha thAya. jeno cheka amArA sudhI anAja mAgavA Ave, evI sthiti keI paNa rItie IcchavA gya nathI, chatAM ya evuM paNa bane che. ahIM emane anAja keNa Ape? amArI pAse che nahi, chatAM mAgavA amArA sudhI Ave che. saApanI vANImAM che. avasara joga vihita upadeza karyA vinA ame rahIe nahi, paraMtu nAzavaMta sukhamAM sarvasva mAnI beThelA, bIjAonI cintA bahu ochI karanArA ane sedAnI jema dharma karanArAo pAsethI keTalIka AzA rakhAya ? Aje sthiti evI kathaLelI che ke-eka bAju udAratA bahu ghaTI che ane bIjI bAju mAgaNavRtti bahu vadhI che. sukhI mANasane devAne uchALo Avo joIe ane duHkhI mANasane hAtha lAMbo kare, e maraNanI bImArIne anubhava karavA jevuM lAgavuM joIe. Ama chatAM ya, jaino jyAre amArA sudhI mAgavAne Ave che, tyAre ghaNI kharAbI thaI haze ne? ame te, jaina samAja sukhI hoya, evuM jovAne IcchIe chIe. keI dukhI na
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________________ 20 cAra gatinAM kAraNe hoya te sAruM, paNa jeno to kema ja duHkhI heya? dharma jene uMce, te duHkhI hoya ? na ja hoya, paNa dharma dharma rUpe haiyAmAM vacce hoya te ne? tame nakkI kare ke huM je dharma karuM chuM, te sukha ApanArAM karmone bAMdhavAne mATe nathI karato, paNa pApa karAvanArAM karmothI mukta banavAne mATe karuM chuM ! mane sukha dunyavI nahi paNa Atmika joIe che." Atmika sukhane pragaTAvavAmAM sahAyaka bane tevAM puNyakarmo gamatAM heya, te ya mekSanA hetune visara joIe nahi. AvI IcchAthI dharma karatAM, sukha ApanArAM karmo baMdhAya te bhale baMdhAya. e karmane udaya thaze tyAre rAga nahi vadhe paNa virAga vadhaze. evuM puNya baMdhAya temAM vAMdho che? mokSanA atha jenene puNyanA udaya yoge vadhAre paisA maLaze, to te vadhAre vakhata yAtrAe Avaze, zrI jinamandira, upAzraya Adi dharmasthAne e vadhAre baMdhAvaze devanI bhaktinAM, gurUonI bhaktinAM, sAdhamikenI bhaktinAM, anukaMpA AdinAM kAryo e vadhAre pramANamAM karaze, zrI jinazAsananI prabhAvanA mATe e lakSamInI choLo uchALaze ! A kAMI paisA maLyA eTale dArU pIvA thoDA ja javAnA che? A kAMI nATakasInemAmAM rakhaDavA ochA ja javAnA che? uMdhA mAga ochA ja javAnA che? jene pApa karAvanArAM karmo khaTake, te saMsAramAM paNa zuM kare? enI najara te mekSa tarapha ja hoya, eTale saMsAranA vAsane paNa e mokSasAdhaka banAvavAnI peravI kare. tamane pApa karAvanAra karma che-ema samajAyA pachIthI, e karma khaTake che ke nahi? jene jANavA maLe keamuka karmane udaya AtmAnI pAse pApa karAve che, tene
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________________ pahele bhAga 21 AtmAnI pAse pApa karAvanAra e karma ja khaTake nahi, te te kAyadesara jaina nathI. e jaina kuLamAM janmelo hoya, te ya bhAvathI te te zrI jinazAsana rUpI saMsthAthI bahAra che. ghaNA evA che ke-emane pApa karAvanAra karma khaTakatuM te nathI, paNa e joradAra hoya ThIka-evI emanI IcchA hoya che, ema kahI zakAya. sae zuM ? jema ke-tamArI pAse je sukhasAmagrI hoya athavA te je sukhasAmagrIne meLavavAne mATe tame prayatnazIla che, tenI ADe keI Ave te ethI tamane zuM thAya che? ADe AvanAranuM zuMnuM zuM karI nAkhuM, ema thAya che ne ? ADe AvanArane ukheDI nAkhavAnI zakti na hoya, te te zakti nathI tene baLApa thAya che ne? A badhuM zuM che? zarIra mAMduM paDe te have khavAze-pIvAze nahi, vahepAra-dhaMdhAmAM dhyAna ApI zakAze nahi, e vagere vicAra Ave; paNa zarIra mAMdu paDavAthI mAruM amuka dharmakArya aTakI paDyuM, mArUM cAle to huM e dharmakArya karyA vinA rahuM nahi-AvuM vicAranArA keTalA? vaidyane ya kahe ke-khavAya pIvAya evuM jhaTa kara, paNa dharmakArya aTakI paDayuM che, mATe jhaTa sAje kara, evuM kahenArA keTalA? jene pApa karAvanAra karmane khapAvavAnI IcchA nathI ane sukha ApanAra karmane mATe ja je dharmane kare che, tene duHkha ApanAra ane pApakarma karAvanAra karma gADha baMdhAya ane sukha ApanAra karma sAmAnya baMdhAya. e puNya udayamAM Ave tyAre sukha theDuM ne duHkha ghaNuM tathA pApa paNa ghaNuM baMdhAya! pitAnuM sukha sukhe bhegavI
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________________ 22 cAra gatinAM kAraNe zakAya nahi ane bIjAnA sukhanI IrSyA thayA vinA rahe nahi. Aje ghaNA zrImaMta paNa zrImaMtAIbhegavI zakatA nathI. khAvAnuM gharamAM ghaNuM hoya, te ya hAjarI kAma Ape nahi. salAma bharanAra pacIsa ne gALa denAra pAMca so! kema? sukha ApanAra karma thoDuM ne dukha ApanAra karma vadhu. keI kaheze kesukhanA kALamAM duHkha ghaNuM kema? te ke-puNya ja evuM bAMdheluM. dharma karatI vakhate karma evAM baMdhAyAM ke-sukha maLe ane duHkha ghaNuM maLe, tema ja enA udayakALamAM pApa ghaNAM baMdhAya, e vAta to ubhI ja che. karmanI asara na hoya te AtmA zarIramAM zAne heya? anaMtI zaktine dhaNI e AtmA A zarIramAM pUrAya che, e karmano pratApa che. A zarIra to evuM che ke-samaje te keIne ya AmAM rahevuM game nahi. Ama chatAM paNa, Aje A zarIranA duHkhamAM AtmAne duHkha thAya che. A zarIrane game teTaluM sAcave, paNa duHkha denAra karmanA udaye khAdhuM pace nahi. bhUkhyA rahevAya nahi ne khAdhe jhADA thAya. A upAdhimAM AtmAne nAkhe koNe? karma ! chatAM kahenAra kahe che ke-AtmA upara karmanI kazI ja asara ja nathI!" karmanI asara ja na hoya, te A zarIramAM AtmA hAya ja zAne? paNa gADha mithyAtvane udaya thatAM, sAdI paNa sAcI vAta na samajAya agara samajavA chatAM paNa uMdhuM bolavAnuM mana thAya. mULamAM A dharmakriyAo pratye kaMTALe te hato ja ane emAM AtmAnA zuddha svarUpanI vAta maLI gaI, eTale dharmakriyAone tajI dIdhI! paNa vicAra na karyo ke-A vAta
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________________ pahelo bhAga 23 kayI apekSAe che ane svabhAve zuddha svarUpavALo AtmA paNa atyAre je parAdhInatA bhegave che te kene AbhArI che? dharmakriyAothI kaMTALelAone evI vAto jhaTa gamI jAya, kema ke-AtmAnA nAme svachandapaNe vartI zakAya. sadharmakriyAne kaMTALo te kaIkane heya. e vAta paNa jarA DAhyA banIne vicAravA jevI che. jema ke-saMvatsarI Ave tyAre keTalAka zuM bole che? "saMvatsarI AvI! pAche upavAsa Avyo ! upavAsa kare te kharA, paNa upavAsa karavAmAM rasa keTale? eka upavAsa Ave, temAM te uttarapAraNe ane pAraNe khAvAnI dhAMdhala evI kare ketapanuM parva khAvAnA parvamAM pheravAI jatuM lAge ! kAle upavAsa Abe, mATe Aje khAvAnuM A kare ne te kare ane upavAsa zarU thAya tyAM te jhaTa pUro thAya ne jhaTa pAraNuM karuM -enI cintA ! AmAM tapano rasa dekhAya che ke tapane kaMTALo dekhAya che? Ama te, saMvatsarIne aMge adRmane tapa vihita che, paNa jeo te divase upavAsa kare che, teomAM paNa AvA kaMTALAvALA keTalAka haze ? AvI dazA hoya, emAM pele kahe ke-"karma kAMI kare-kAra nahi, karmanI asara nathI." eTale jhaTa enI gADImAM besI jAya ne ? paNa, e na samaje ke-karmanA pratApe ja mAre gAMDAne ya bApa kahevuM paDe che ane nAlAyakane ya zeTha mAnIne salAma bharavI paDe che. keTalAka kahe che ke-kAma karIne marIe te ya zeTha kadara karavAne badale kalaMka Ape che. gALo de che te sAMbhaLavI paDe che. pagAra pUra Apato nathI ne enI sAme kAMI balAtuM nathI. karma zuM karatuM nathI ? tame je kAMI kare che, te tamane gamatuM ja
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________________ 24 cAra gatinAM kAraNo kare che? na game tevuM kAMI tamAre karavuM paDatuM nathI? kahe ke-na game tevuM ghaNuM karavuM paDe che. zAthI? parAdhIna mATe! kenAthI? karmathI ! karmanI to AtmA upara ghaNI asara che. vastutaH tamAre svabhAva pApa gamavAno nathI, paNa kane tene bagADyo che. khAvuM, e zuM AtmAne svabhAva che ? nahi ja, chatAM khAvuM kema paDe che? AtmAnI sAthe karmane vega che mATe ja ! tapa khAvAnI upAdhi TaLe e mATe che: eka khAvuM paDe che, temAM ya keTalI upAdhi karavI paDe che? khAvA aMge je upAdhi karavI paDe che, te jotAM je khAvA upara gusse na Ave, te te buddhizAlI nahi. peTa na mAgatuM hatuM, te gadheDA jevAne ya zeTha kahevA paData? ghaNuM kahe che-peTa karAve veTha." khAdhA pahelAM ane khAdhA pachI paNa ochI upAdhi che? pahelI paMcAta khAvAnuM meLavavAnI. khAvAnuM maLe tyAM vacce jIbha kharI ne? e bhUla karAve che. pachI hejarI bagaDe che. ne upAdhi vadhI paDe che. khAdhA pahelAM ya dhAMdhala ane khAdhA pachI ya dhAMdhala. Aje khAdhuM, paNa bIjA dahADA sudhImAM je mala na nIkaLe, te pachI sArI cIja paNa khavAya nahi. kaheze ke-game tema Ane nikAla thavuM joIe. e mATe na game tevI cIja paNa pIvI paDe. divela pIvuM game? chatAM ghaNA jakha mArIne pIe che ne ? emAM ya ThekANuM na paDe, to mIMDhIyAvaLa vagerene ukALIne pIvI paDe che. khAvAmAM sukha keTaluM? DuM, nAmanuM, jIbha rAjI thAya eTalA pUratuM ja! badhA kAMI mAtra zarIranA nirvAha
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________________ - - - - - - - pahele bhAga 25 mATe ane zarIra sazakta hoya te dharma sArI rItie thAya, e mATe DuM ja khAya che? ema khAnArAne ya tevA keI karmanA udaye peTa bagaDe ne? tapa zA mATe ? tamane bhUkhe mAravAne mATe tapane upadeza nathI, paNa khAvAnI upAdhi TaLI jAya e mATe tapa che! khAvAnI jema saMsAranA dareka sukhamAM e ja che ke-pahelAM upAdhi, pAchaLa duHkha ane e bhegavatAM ya duHkhane abhAva nahi! je sukhamAM duHkha samAeluM che, te sukha vajarya che-ema jJAnio kahe che. ATalI badhI uttama sAmagrI maLavA chatAM paNa je A na samaje, te kalpatarU maLavA chatAM paNa bhikhArIne bhikhArI rahevAne. A sukhane varya nahi lAgavA denAra ane A sukhane sAruM lagADanAra mithyAtva che. karmanI asara na hota, te AvI miyA buddhi thAta zAnI? jyAM sudhI mithyAtva jAya nahi, tyAM sudhI AtmAmAM samyakatva pragaTe nahi. mithyAtvanI maMdatA vinA dharma thAya paNa te bALakanI cAla je ! "tajIe avara anAdinI cAla"--evuM zrI nava padanA stavanamAM Ave che ne? zrI nava padanA ArAdhaka, bAra mahinAmAM be vAra zrI nava padanuM viziSTa prakAre ArAdhana karanArAo, e stavanane sAMbhaLatA haze ne? tamane thayuM ke-anAdinI cAlane tajIe? anAdinI cAlane tayA vinA athavA anAdinI cAla tajavA jevI che- ema lAgyA vinA, game teTalo dharma thAya te paNa, te lekhe lAge zI rItie? zrI dhanA sArthavAha ghIne dAnathI samyakatva pAmyA ke te vakhatanA bhAvathI ? zrI dhanA sArthavAhane prasaMga yAda che? ghInuM dAna detAM
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________________ 26 cAra gatinAM kAraNe e samyakatva pAmyA, ema sAMbhaLyuM che ne ? ghInA dAnamAM samyakatva kyAMthI AvyuM? samyaktva ghImAM hatuM ke bhAvamAM hatuM ? bhAva na heta athavA to je joIe te bhAva na heta, te ghInA dAnamAM samyaktva thAta kharuM? nahi ja. ATaluM jANavA chatAM ya, bhAvanI darakAra nahi ? tamane je eTaluM paNa thAya ke-dareka dharmakiyA karatAM jarUrI bhAva joIe, te ke bhAva joIe te samajAvI zakAya. have yAda rAkhaje ke-kera ghInA dAne nahi, paNa ghInuM dAna detI vakhate je bhAva hate, te bhAve zrI dhanA sArthavAhane samyakatva pamADyuM! zrI dhanA sArthavAha ke? zrI AdIzvarajI bhagavAnane jIva. ahIM girirAja upara je bhagavAnane bheTavAne mATe tame reja jAva che, te bhagavAnane jIva ! e samyaktva nahotA pAmyA, tyAre paNa temanI kevI hAlata hatI? emane paise rAkhI mUkavA jevuM ja lAgato nahe, paNa bIjAonA bhalAmAM vAparavA jevuM lAgate ja hate ! "dhana sarvathA tyAjya che evI samajaNa nahi AvelI hevA chatAM paNa, "mArI zrImaMtAI te ja zobhe ane mArI zrImaMtAI to ja sArthaka gaNAya, ke je huM bIjAone sahAyaka thAuM."--evI emanI mAnyatA hatI ane ethI ja emaNe je ulleSaNa karAvI hatI, te e karAvI zakyA hatA. dhanane ati lobhI ane svArthamAM ja rata mANasa, game teTale zrImaMta hoya to paNa, e karavAne zuM? dhanane tyAga kare ane tyAga na banI zake tethI rAkhatA che, te tene sadupayoga karatA rahe. dhana rAkhyAnI sArthakatA saMcayamAM nathI, paNa sadupayogamAM che. '
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________________ 27 pahele bhAga zrI dhanA sArthavAha, eka vAra vyApArAdi nimitte vasantapura javAne nirNaya karyo. vasantapura ghaNuM dUra hatuM ane rasto e vikaTa hato ke-raste nirvAha ane rakSaNa mATe ghaNI jogavAIo karavI paDe. zrI dhanA sArthavAha pote pitAne mATe badhI ja jarUrI jogavAI karavAne samartha hatA, paraMtu emane vicAra Avyo ke-"vasanapura jevA vyApArane moTA sthale javAnI IcchA to ghaNAne hoya ane sau kAMI evA na hoya ke raste jarUrI jogavAI pitAnI ja zakti ane sAmagrIthI karI zake !" A vicAra AvyuM, tenI sAthe ja temane bIjo vicAra e paNa AvyuM ke jyAre huM pote ja jAuM chuM, te jene vasantapura AvavuM hoya tene huM mArI sAthe ja laI jAuM !" A vicArane amala paNa zrI dhanA sArthavAhe ghaNuM umadA rItie karyo. zrI dhanA sArthavAhe pitAnA sevakonI pAse DiDima vagaDAvIne, AkhA zaheramAM evI uddagheSaNA karAvI ke-"dhanA sArthavAha vasantapura jAya che, te je kaIne vasantapura javAnI IcchA hoya, te dhanA sArthavAhanI sAthe cAle ! jenI pAse vAsaNo nahi hoya, tene dhanA sArthavAha vAsaNa Apaze, jenI pAse vAhana nahi heya, tene dhanA sArthavAha vAhana Apaze, jenI pAse bhAtuM nahi heya, tene dhanA sArthavAha bhAtuM Apaze, ene jene je sahAyanI jarUra haze, tene te sahAya dhanA sArthavAha Apaze; uparAnta, mArgamAM cerenA trAsathI ane hiMsaka pazuonA upadravathI dhanA sArthavAha saunuM rakSaNa karaze, tema ja sAthe AvelA saunuM dhanA sArthavAha pitAnA bhAIonI jema pAlana karaze !"
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________________ 28 cAra gatinAM kAraNe AvI uddaghoSaNA karavAnI AjJA ApatAM, zrI dhanA sArthavAhanA haiyAmAM kevA bhAva pedA thayA haze? kamAvA javAnI vAta chAnI rAkhavAnI hoya ke jAhera karavAnI hoya ? raLavA javuM, temAM A kharca zA mATe? haiyAnI udAratA zuM kare ane zuM na kare, te kahevAya nahi. mithyAdaSTi chatAM ya lakSmInI mUccha keTalI badhI ochI ane paropakAranI bhAvanA keTalI badhI vizALa ? A udaghoSaNAnA ge, zrI dhanA sArthavAhane sauthI vizeSa lAbha te e thayo ke temane AcAryabhagavAna zrImad dharmaghoSasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA maLI gayA ane gamI gayA. zrI dharmaghoSasUrivarane vasantapura tarapha viharavAnI bhAvanA hatI; sArthanA sAtha vinA teo ekalA munio sAthe visantapura jaI zake tema hatuM nahi, eTale zrI dhanA sArthavAhe karAvelI ulleSaNae teone utsAhita banAvyA. zrI dhanA sArthavAhe vasantapura javAne mATe nagaranI bahAra jaIne jyAM paDAva nAkhyA hatA, tyAM AcAryabhagavAna padhAryA. zrI dhanA sArthavAhe, tene jotAMnI sAthe ja, namaskAradithI satkAryA ane atre AvavAnuM kAraNa pUchayuM. AcAryabhagavAne kahyuM ke-"tArA sArthanI sAthe ame vasantapura AvavAne IcchIe chIe !" zrI dhanA sArthavAha kahe che ke-"Aje huM dhanya chuM, ke jethI ApanA jevA mahAtmA mArA sArthanI sAthe AvavAne mATe atre padhAryA che." AcAryabhagavAnane A pramANe kahIne, AcAryabhagavAnanI hAjarImAM ja, zrI dhanA sArthavAha pitAnA rasoIyAone
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________________ pahele bhAga hukama kare che ke-A mahAtmAone mATe tamAre roja anna -pAnAdinI jogavAI karavI." sAdhusevAnA AvA rasika AtmAne mATe samyakatva sulabha bane, emAM navAI che? zrI dhanA sArthavAhe pitAnA raseIyAone karelI AjJA AcAryabhagavAne sAMbhaLI, eTale AcAryabhagavAna, zrI dhanA sArthavAhane kahe che ke- bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevanA zAsanamAM sAdhuone nirdoSa azana-pAnAdi ja ka9pe che. je azanapAnAdi amArA saMkalpathI karAya ke karAvAya, te amane kalpa nahi. amane sacitta azanAdi ane kuvA, vAva, talAva AdinuM ke bIjuM aprAsuka jala paNa kahyuM nahi !" - A vAta cAle che, tyAM te kaI taraphathI manahara ane rasapUrNa kerI bheTa Ave che; eTale, zrI dhanA sArthavAha vicAra kare che ke-"A kerIo te A mahAtmAone jarUra kalpaze, kAraNa ke-A kerIomAM teonA saMka95thI thayela kAMI ja nathI.' bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevonA zAsananA sAdhuoe pALavAnA AcAranuM zrI dhanA sArthavAhane jJAna nathI, paNa mahAtmAono satkAra karavAnI kevI sundara vRtti che? zrI dhanA sArthavAha, zrI AcAryabhagavAnane vinaMti kare che ke-"mahAtmana ! A phaLone A5 grahaNa kare ane ema karIne Apa mArA upara anugraha kare !" mithyAdaSTi hovA chatAM paNa, zrI dhanA sArthavAhanI e mAnyatA che ke AvA mahAtmAo je pitAnA upayogamAM Ave tevuM kAMI paNa ApaNu pAsethI grahaNa kare, te te ApaNuM upara anugraha karyo kahevAya. tamane te ema ja
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe che ne ke-sAdhuo kyAre ApaNI kaI paNa vastune svIkAravA dvArA ApaNA upara anugraha kare ? zrI siddhagirijInI yAtrAe AvyA che, eTale ahIM to tamane sAdhuonA ane sAdhvIonA anugrahane meLavavAnI ghaNI ja IrachA ne? kyAre mArI koI paNa vastu sAdhunA ke sAdhvInA upayogamAM Ave, ema kharuM ne? sAdharmika jananI bhaktine tema ja anukaMpA jIvonI anukaMpA karavAne lAbha levAnI IcchA paNa kharI ne? keI sAdharmika tamAruM AmaMtraNa svIkAre, to teNe tamArA upara upakAra karyo-evI ja tamArI mAnyatA ne ? kaI paNa dIna-dukhine jotAM, tamAruM haiyuM saLavaLyA vagara ane tamAre muThIbharyo hAtha lAMbe thayA vagara rahe nahi ne? zrI dhanA sArthavAha zrI AcAryabhagavAnane kerIone grahaNa karavAnI vinaMti kare che, tenA javAbamAM AcAryabhagavAna temane samajAve che ke-"A phaLane to sparza kare e paNa amane kalpa nahi, pachI khAvAnI te vAta ja kyAM rahI?" AcAryabhagavAnanA AvA uttarathI te zrI dhanA sArthavAhanuM haiyuM bhaktibhAvathI ekadama nAcI uThe che. emane thAya che ke-"mahAtmA to mahAtmA, paNa AvA gajabanA tyAgI mahAtmA ? AvuM AcArapAlana keTaluM badhuM duSkara che? mArA jevA pramAdithI to eka divasa paNa AvuM utkaTa AcArapAlana thaI zake nahi" ane hRdayanA A bhAvane, zrI dhanA sArthavAha, vANImAM mUkyA vinA paNa rahI zakatA nathI. ATalI vAta karIne, zrI dhanA sArthavAha AcAryabhagavAnane vinaMti kare che ke-"Apane A phaLe na kalpe to ya bhale; Apane je kAMI anna-pAnAdi kalpaze te huM Apane ApIza;
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________________ pahelA bhAga 31 paNa Apa kRpA karIne Aje ja mArA A sArthanI sAthe padhAro ! ' Ama kahIne zrI dhanA sArthavAha zrI AcAryabhagavAna Adi munivarone vinayapUrvaka namaskAra kare che. pachI mahAtmA tyAMthI vidAya le che, peAtAne ceAgya sthAne jAya che ane zrI dhanA sArthavAha, e mahAtmAonA uttama AcArapAlananI uttama chApane hRdayamAM vahetA thakA, peAtAnI anya pravRttiomAM pravRtta thAya che. sArthane vasantapura sudhI pahoMcADavAnI vyavasthA paNa uttama prakAre karI che. sAthenI meAkhare zrI dhanA sArthavAha pote rahyA che ane sAthenI pAchaLa temaNe peAtAnA eka vizvasanIya mitrane rAkhela che. vacce sArtha che ane te paNa AjImAjI saMrakSakAthI vIMTaLAelA ! sAthe cAlate cAlatA aTavImAM AvI paheAMcyA, tyAM garamInI meAsama zarU thaI gaI. garamI paNa evI paDavA lAgI ke-cAre kAra agni saLagatA hAya ane vacce beThA hAie, evuM lAge. kuvAo, taLAvA, jalAzayAnuM pANI sukAI gayuM. garamIne lIdhe tathA pANInI muzkelIne lIdhe, sAthe dhAryA mujaba AgaLa vadhI zako nahiM. saune herAnagatine pAra nahAtA; eTale zrI dhanA sArthavAhanI vedanAnuM te pUchavuM ja zuM ? pachI varSARtu AvI. bhavitavyatA evI hatI ke- unALAmAM jema garamInA koI AMka rahyo nahi,tema cAmAsAmAM ati vRSTi paNa evI ja thaI. AkhI ya aTavI jalamaya banI gaI. jyAM najara nAkhe, tyAM jala ja jala dekhAya, jamInamAM khADA paDI gayelA ane kAdava thai gayeleA, eTale vAhane
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________________ 32 cAra gatinAM kAraNo kheMcI javA lAgyAM. eka sthale uMcANavALI jamIna maLI jatAM, zrI dhanA sArthavAhe muzkelIne samaya tyAM ja pasAra karavAno nirNaya karIne, sArthane paDAva nakhAvya. sau jhuMpaDAM bAMdhIne tyAM rahyA. sArthamAM AvelAoe AcAryabhagavAna Adi mATe paNa AvI ja vyavasthA karI. ATalI muzkelI jANe adhurI hoya, tema raste khAvAne mATe sAthe lIdheluM anAja paNa khUTI gayuM. divaso vadhI gayA ane varasAdathI ghaNuM bagaDI gayuM. kyAMyathI anAja maMgAvI zakAya evI sthiti rahI nahi. anAja vinA kema jIvavuM, e savAla thaI paDyo. sArthanA mANase khAvAnuM zodhavA mATe jyAM tyAM pharatA ane kaMdAdi je kAMI maLI jatuM, te khAIne divaso pasAra karatA. sArthane mAthe AvI paDelI A muzkelI viSe, zrI dhanA sArthavAhanA mitre, eka vAra rAtrinA samaye zrI dhanA sArthavAhanI pAse besIne vigatavAra vAta karI. sArtha muzkelImAM mUkAI gaye che-ema te zrI dhanA sArthavAha jANatA ja hatA, paNa temanA mitra pAsethI temaNe sArthanI jIvavA mATenA khorAkanI muzkelI AdinI vigatavAra vAta sAMbhaLI, tyAre te temanI cintAne pAra rahyo nahi, sAthenI muzakelInI cintAnI paraMparA temanA haiyAne kIDAnI jema kerI khAvA lAgI. sArthanA duHkhanI cintAe temane jaDa jevA banAvI dIdhA. cintAmAM ne cintAmAM temane nidrA AvI gaI. rAtrinA chellA prahare prAtarike rivAja mujaba gheSaNa
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________________ pahelA bhAga karI ke- amArA svAminI kIti sarvatra prasAra pAmI rahI che, kAraNu ke-viSama dazAne pAmavA chatAM paNa, amArA svAmI, peAte svIkArelA karttavyane adA karI rahyA che !' 33 prAharika jevA A ghASaNA karI rahyo, ke tarata ja bIjA koI mANase e ja vAkaya punaH uccAryuM. zrI dhanA sArthavAha peAtAnA prAharikanA avAjane kharAkhara oLakhatA hatA, eTale prArike karelI prAta:ghASaNAne khIjA keAI e duharAvI, tethI temane lAgyuM ke- prAharikanI prAtaH ghASaNAne duharAvIne, A rItie kAI e mane upAlambha ja ApyA che!' kAraNa ke-rAtathI temanI sArthanA duHkha viSenI cintA vadhI gaI hatI. have zrI dhanA sArthavAha vicAre che ke-'zuM mArA sArthamAM koI atyanta kharAba sthitimAM mUkAyela che ? ' e viSe vicAra karatAM karatAM, temane AcAryabhagavAna zrI dharmaghASasUrivara yAda AvyA. AcAryabhagavAna ane temanI sAthenA sAdhueno khyAla AvatAMnI sAthe ja, zrI dhanA sArthavAhanuM haiyuM trAsI gayuM, kema ke temane potAnI pharajanuM bhAna hatuM. sAthe jemane lIdhA hAya, temane sAcavavAnI jokhamadArI ApaNI che, ema e samajatA hatA. zrI dhanA sArthavAhane ema thaI gayuM ke-'AvI muzkelImAM e mahAtmAonuM thayuM zuM haze ? je mahAtmAe akRta, akAritA ane prAsuka bhikSA-pAnathI ja nirvAha karavAnA niyamavALA che ane kaMdamUla tathA kula-kula Adine jee kadI aDakatA paNa nathI, temanI hAlata zI thaI haze ?? A 3
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________________ 34 cAra gatinAM kAraNe vicArathI zrI dhanA sArthavAhane jabara AghAta lAge. te vicAre che ke-"meM mUrkhAe A karI zuM rAkhyuM? mArge temanI saghaLI saMbhALa rAkhavAnuM meM vacana ApyuM hatuM ane huM to haju Aje ja teone saMbhAruM chuM ! Aja sudhImAM meM jemanuM vacana mAtrathI paNa aucitya sAcavyuM nathI, evA e mahAtmAone have huM mAruM meDhuM paNa kema dekhADI zakIza?" AvA prakAranA mAnasika paritApane anta, zrI dhanA sArthavAhe nirNaya karyo ke-kharekhara, e mahAtmAo te sarvatra niHspRha che, eTale teone mAruM zuM kAma hoya ? paNa huM te Aje ja teonuM darzana karIza ane mArA pApane dhoI nAkhIza !" A nirNaya karIne, zrI dhanA sArthavAha e ja vicAramAM besI rahyA -kyAre savAra thAya, kyAre huM e mahAtmAonAM darzana karyuM ane kyAre huM temanI kSamA yAcuM!" theDI rAtri bAkI hatI, te emaNe mahA muzIbate pasAra karI. savAra thatAMnI sAthe ja, veSane dhAraNa karIne, AgevAna gRhasthanI sAthe zrI dhanA sArthavAha, AcAryabhagavAna je ghAsanI jhuMpaDImAM virAjatA hatA, tyAM pahoMcyA. AcAryabhagavAna ane badhA sAdhuo prasannamukha ja hatA. keInA ya meMDhA upara leza mAtre ya glAni nahatI. munivare te, kaI manamAM, kaI kAryotsargamAM, te kaI paThana-pAThanamAM ane kaI bhUmipramArjanAdi kAryamAM, to kaI gurUvandanAdi kAryamAM lIna hatA. AcAryabhagavAnanA mukhane jatAM athavA te AcAryabhagavAnanI nizrAmAM je munivare hatA, temAMnA eka paNa munivaranA mukhane jotAM, "Amane kaI
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________________ 35 pahele bhAga Aphata che athavA to AmaNe kaI Aphatane bhegavelI che?-- ema lAge ja nahi. temAM ya, te mUrti AcAryabhagavAna te, jANe sAkSAt dharmanI mUrti samA lAgatA hatA. AcAryabhagavAnane ane munivarene ATalA badhA prasannamukha ane pitAnA kAryamAM rata joIne, zrI dhanA sArthavAhane haiye kevI asara thaI haze ? zrI dhanA sArthavAha, samyaktva pAmyA pahelAM paNa kevI uttama manodazAvALA hatA, e paNa samajavA jevuM che, ane samyakRtvane pAmavAmAM temane kevI sundara pUrvabhUmikA prApta thaI hatI, te paNa samajavA jevuM che. A sAthe bhayaMkara viDaMbanAmAM mUkAI gayo hato, tyAre sAdhuone kAMI ochI takalIpha sahana karavI paDI haze? nahi ja, chatAM ya, takalIpha viSe pharIyAda to nahi, paNa takalIpha paDI che-evuM zaherA uparathI ya jaNAvA de nahi, e jevI-tevI vAta che? jaina sAdhu eTale e, ke je duHkhamAM paNa duHkha mAne nahi ane AtmAnA sukha sivAyanA sukhanI spRhA kare nahi. jaina sAdhune jo duHkhamAM duHkha lAge ane sukhanI pRhA thaI jAya, te ene e pitAnI uNapa mAne. zrAvakanI pharaja e che ke-sAdhu ane sAdhvInA saMyamanI ArAdhanAnI anukULatAne aMgenA sukhanI e ja cintA kare ane temanuM duHkha TALavAmAM pAchI pAnI kare nahi, paNa sAdhu-sAdhvI te duHkhane paNa premathI veThavAnI vRttivALAM hoya. tamane sAdhu-sAdhvI saMyama sukharUpa pALI zake, enI cintA kharI ne ? "mArA samAjamAM sAdhu-sAdhvI keTalAM? temane saMyamanI sAdhanAmAM kayI kayI takalIpha naDe che? e
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe takalIphAne TALavAne mATe zuM zuM karavAnI jarUra che ? '-ATalI cintA jenA haiyAmAM sthAna pAmI jAya, teneA aDadheA saMsAra bhUlAI gayA vinA rahe ? e te evA hAya ke-ene saMsAra jhera jevA lAge ane sAdhu thavAnI IcchA rAja thAya. tame Aje sAdhu-sAdhvInI karavA jevI cintAne paNa ghaNe bhAge visarI gayA che, kema ke-mananuM valaNa sAdhupaNA tarapha nathI, paNa saMsAra tarapha che. tamane khyAla nahi hoya, paNa tame saMsAramAM jenI cintA karI rahyA che, temAM tA tame pAyamAla thaI rahyA che. 36 zrAvakanI pharaja judI ane sAdhu--sAdhvInI kruja judI. sAdhu-sAdhvIe teA duHkhamAMya sukha mAnavAnuM ane sukhanI pRhA karavAnI nahi. duHkhathI Dare ane sukhane jhaMkhe, e sAdhu rahI zake nahi. je sAdhu-sAdhvI duHkhathI bhAgatAM ka ane sukhanI jhaMkhanA karyA kare, emanA du:khano pAra nahi. jene page lAgavAnuM kahe te ADuM jue ane jene paga dAkhavAnuM kahe te gALa de, eme ya bane. sukhanI IcchA thaI ane tevuM puNya hAya nahi, tA mahA paMcAtamAM paDI javAya. evAnA samaya, mahA durdhyAnamAM pasAra thAya. je kaya sukhanI icchA karAve, te ca pApeAya che ane je kahRdaya duHkhanI cintA karAve, te ya pApeAya che. zrI dhanA sArthavAha, zrI AcAryabhagavAnanI pAse AvIne, pahelAM teone ane te pachI yathAkrame sarva mahAtmAone vaMdanA kare che. sau dharmalAbha Ape che. mahAtmAonI nIti- rItithI temane ghaNA AnaMda thAya che. pachI, AcAryabhagavAnanI pAse besIne, zrI dhanA sArthavAha
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________________ pahele bhAga 37 kahe che ke-"he bhagavana ! Apane meM mArI sAthe padhAravAnuM je AmaMtraNa karyuM, te te zaratrAtunI meghagarjanAnI jema dekhAva mAtra ja nivaDayuMkAraNa ke-tyArathI AraMbhIne atyAra sudhImAM nathI to meM ApanI khabara pUchI, nathI meM Apane vAMdhA ane nathI te meM anna-pAna-vastrAdikathI kaI paNa vakhate Apane satkAra karyo ! jAgavA chatAM paNa jANe uMghato houM tema, meM mUDhe A kevuM karI nAkhyuM ? meM mArA vacanane ghAta karyo ane te dvArA ApanI avajJA karI !" ATaluM kahIne, chevaTamAM zrI dhanA sArthavAha, pitAnA aparAdhane khamAvavAne mATe, mahAtmAnA mahAtmApaNAnuM zaraNa svIkAre che. emane lAge che ke-mAre aparAdha e che ke ene to mahAtmAo ja sahI zake. AthI teo kahe che ke-"he pUjya ! Apa mahAtmA che, pRthvI jema sarvane sahe che, tema mahAtmAo paNa sarvane sahanArA hoya che, te Apa mArA pramAdAcaraNane khamA !" zrI dhanA sArthavAha Ama kahI rahyA, eTale AcAryabhagavAna kahe che ke-"he mahAmata ! tuM viSAda na kara ! mArgamAM duSTa ane hiMsaka prANiothI tema ja carathI te amAruM rakSaNa karyuM che, eTale te amAre badhA ja satkAra karyo che ! vaLI, tArA sArthamAM AvelA ja amane ucita evAM anna-pANI Ape che! AthI, ame sIdAyA hoIe--evuM kazuM ja banyuM nathI." Akhe ya sArtha jyAre mahA vipattimAM mUkAI javA pApe garamI ane varSothI trAhi trAhi pikArI gaye; pahelAM paNa zeDyuM na jaDe evI hAlata thaI ane pachI
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________________ 38 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA peTa pUratuM anAja maLavuM paNa durlabha anI gayuM; tyAre, bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevanA zAsane pharamAvelA sAdhvAcArAnuM pAlana karavAnI pratijJAvALA ane e pratijJAnA pAlanamAM dRDha rahenArA mahAtmAone, keTakeTalI pratikULatAe veThavI paDI haze ? e mahAtmAee teA AvI paDelI vikaTa sthitine mahA karmanirjarAnuM kAraNa ja manAvyuM haze ne? jo ema na hAta, tA A avasare paNa AcAryabhagavAna AveA uttara ApI zakata kharA ? zrI dhanA sArthavAha, bhUlamAM ne bhUlamAM kazI ja saMbhALa nathI laI zakayA; te chatAM paNa, AcAryabhagavAne sArthavAha dvArA thayelA rakSaNane ja yAda karyuM, paNa peAtAnI saMbhALa na lIdhI tene mATe vicAra sarakhA ya karyAM nahi. Thapako daI devA jevI A taka nahotI ? paNa mahAtmAonuM haiyuM evuM hatuM ja nathI. saMsAramAM doSanI navAI zI che ? thADA paNa guNanI ja navAi che. dASa tA bharelA ja che. guNu keTaleA pragaTyo, e ja jovA jevuM che. zrI jinazAsananA mahAtmAe tA. sAgarathI ya vadhu gaMbhIra hoya. emanA svabhAva ja saoNrUM jovAnA hAya. duHkhanI cintA karyA karanArAe ane bAhya sukhane jhaMkhyA karanArAo, bIjAone dharma te| pamADI zake nahi, paNa khIjAenA dharmane lUTI nA le te ya ghaNuM che. peAtA pratye sAmAe game tevuM ayeAgya vartana karyuM hoya, parantu pAte pUrve AcarelA pApanuM ja e pariNAma che ke bIjuM kAMI ? peAtAnA azubheAdaya na heAta, teA sAme zuM karI zakavAnA hatA ? zrI jaina zAsananA sAdhu thaine nArAe paNa jo ATaluM nahi samaje, teA pachI Ane samajaze keNu ? ApaNA
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________________ pahelA bhAga 39 aparAdha karanAra paNa jyAre mAphI mAgatA Ave, tyAre ene ApaNe evuM AzvAsana ApavuM joIe ke-enA bIjA paNa doSo gaLI javA pAme ! AcAryabhagavAnane, zrI dhanA sArthavAha kahe che ke-"saMta purUSo sarva prakAre guNAne ja jue che, eTale ja Apa pUjya doSita evA mAre mATe paNa Ama kahI che. parantu, huM te| mArA pramAdathI sarvathA zaramAuM chuM, mATe Apa prasanna thAo ane sAdhuone mAkalA, ke jethI huM temane mArI icchAnusAra AhAra ApI zakuM!' AcAryabhagavAne paNa ' vartamAna ceAga 'kahIne, pAchuM yAda AvyuM ke- tuM jANe che ke-amane akRta, akArita ane acitta annAdi ja upakAraka thAya che! zrI dhanA sArthavAha kahe che ke-'sAdhuone upakAraka thAya tevuM ja huM ApIza.' Ama kahIne, zrI dhanA sArthavAha peAtAnA AvAse gayA ane AcAryabhagavAne mekalelA be sAdhuo paNa temanI pAchaLa pAchaLa gayA. zrI dhanA sArthavAhanA haiyA upara kevI chApa paDI haze ? kharA mahAtmAe tA A, ke jemane duHkhanI cintA nahi ane sukhanI spRhA nahi, ema thai gayuM haze ne? mArA ghaNA dASAmAMthI ekane ya joyA nahi ane nahi jevA guNAne ja AgaLa karyo, eTale A mahAtmAe kevA udAra ane paropakArI che, ema ene lAgyuM haze ne ? bhaktibhAva khUba vadhI gayA che, A mahAtmAnI bhakti karavAnI bhAvanA uchALA mArI rahI che, paNa bhAgyavazAta
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________________ 40 cAra gatinAM kAraNA ane che evuM ke-sAdhuone khape evuM kAMi ja annapAnAdi e vakhate taiyAra nathI. bhaktibhAvathI taraeALa haiyAvALA banelA zrI dhanA sArthavAha, sAdhuone vaheArAvavA yeAgya annapAnAdinI zeAdha kare che, tyAM temanI najara tAjA ghI upara paDI. zrI dhanA sArthavAha khelyA ke- A kAMIka kalpe evuM che.' eTale emanA bhAvane jANIne, munioe paNa 'khapaze' -ema sUcavIne, peAtAnuM pAtra dharyuM! munie avasaranA jANu hatA. zrI dhanA sArthavAha atyAre kevI bhAvanAmAM rame che, tene temane khyAla hatA. emane, zrI dhanA sArthavAhanI e bhAvanAne, jarA ya AMca AvavA devI nahAtI. AthI, zrI dhanA sArthavAha ghI vaheArAvavAne Icche che ema jANyuM, te tenA paNa niSedha karyo nahi. mahAtmA, mAsakhamaNunA pAraNe dahIM maLI jAya te dahIMthI pAraNuM karI letA ane pAchA mAsakhamaNane AdaratA, eTale mahAtmAoe ekaluM ghI kema vaheAyuM, e vicAra ja karavA jevA nathI. zrI dhanA sArthavAhe ghIthI munionA pAtrane bharI dIdhuM ane muniee paNa pAtrane bharAvA dIdhuM. sAdhuoe pAtrane ghIthI bharavA dIdhuM, kema ke-sAdhuone teA nirdoSa te kiMmatI ane dASita te nakAmuM ! zrI dhanA sArthavAha je vakhate sAdhuone vaheArAvI rahyA hatA, te vakhate 'huM dhanya chuM, huM bhAgyazALI chuM'-evA vicArothI, temanA zIranI rAmarAjI vikasvara thatI hatI. e bhaktimaya AnaMdamAM, emaNe, mithyAtvane haDaselI mUkayuM ane samyaktvane pragaTAvI dvIdhuM !
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________________ 41 pahelo bhAga pApodaya vinA sukhanI icchA thAya nahi sAdhuonA pAtramAM ghInI dhArA karatAM karatAM jema zrI dhanA sArthavAhanuM mithyAtva taNAI gayuM, tema bhagavAnane abhipekanI dhArA karatAM karatAM tamAruM mithyAtva paNa taNAI jAya ne ? jarUra taNAI jAya, paNa e vakhate tamArA haiyAmAM e bhAva Avavo joIe. mithyAtvane kADhavAne mATe moTAM hathIyAre nathI joItAM, paNa AtmAne sAre bhAva avazya joIe che. jyAM sudhI tame saMsAranA sukhanI IcchAmAM ja ramatA ho, tyAM sudhI e bhAva Ave nahi. saMsAranA sukhanI IrachA tarapha aNagame thayA vinA ane mokSanI IcchA pragaTayA vinA, mithyAtva na jAya. mithyAtvane kADhavAne mATe, pApa karAvanAra karma pratye suga AvavI joIe. e mATe, pahelAM nakkI kare ke-je karma saMsAranA sukhanI IcchA karAve, te pApa che; saMsAranA sukhane meLavavAnI icchA, e pApane udaya che. puNyodaya vinA e IcchA phaLe nahi, paNa pApodaya vinA e IrachA thAya nahi. jIvane saMsAranA sukhanI je icchA thAya che, te pApanA udayathI thAya che-e vAta bese che? e vAtane haiye jacAvavAnI jarUra che. pApanA udaye saMsAranA sukhanI icchA janma ane e IcchA karAve zuM? e IcchA dharma karAve te ya pApa baMdhAvyA vinA rahe nahi. e IcchA dharmane dharma rUpe thavA ke phaLavA de nahi. sAruM khAvAnI IchA te pApa ane bhaktithI agara dayAthI sAruM khavaDAvavAnI IcchA te dharma. pele rAga che ane A tyAga che. sAruM khavaDAvavAnI pAchaLa paNa, je ethI khAvAnuM sAruM maLe-evI IcchA hoya, to te dharma nahi,
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________________ = 4ra. cAra gatinAM kAraNe paNa pApa! saMsAramAM je sAvadha na rahIe, te pApamAM jhaMpalAI jatAM vAra lAge nahi. saMsAramAM dharmamaya jIvana jIvavuM, e talavAranI dhAra para cAlavA jevuM che. talavAranI dhAra para cAlavuM--e haju saheluM, paNa bhagavAne kahelA dharmane pALa e kaThina; paNa, e dharmane pALyA vinA mekSa thAya nahi. dharma kare hoya, te pApathI khUba ja sAvaceta rahevuM joIe. ApaNe te, pApanA mULane ja pakaDI pADIne, tene ukheDI nAkhavuM joIe. saMsAranA sukhanI IcchA upara dveSa keLoH tame ahIM, duHkhane ApanArA karmane toDavAne mATe AvyA che-emAM te zaMkA nathI, paNa bhegI sukhane ApanArAM karmone bAMdhavAnI IcchA kharI ke nahi? e IcchAnA yege paNa pApa karAvanAra karma baMdhAya che. saMsAranA sukhanI spRhAthI dharma karanArane puNya baMdhAya, paNa sAthe pApa paNa baMdhAya ja ane ethI sukhanA kALamAM paNa dukhanA kakaDA hAjara hoya. saMsAranA sukhanI IcchAthI karelA dharmathI baMdhAela puNyanA udayakALamAM, dharma visarAI jAya ane pApane rAga jera kare, e susaMbhavita che. duHkhane dveSa te anAdithI che, eTale duHkhane ApanArAM karmone kADhavAnI IcchA thAya temAM navAI nathI; paNa pApane karAvanArAM karmone kADhavAnI IcchA thAya, te ja kAma thAya. e mATe, saMsAranA sukhanI IcchA upara zreSa keLavA joIe. bhagavAna kevaLajJAna pAmIne tIrthane sthApe, tyArathI te jIve tyAM sudhI mATe, roja be prahara dezanA de. samavasaraNamAM re ja traNa prahara jeTale samaya dezanA devAya; manA kALa paNa jAranA
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________________ pahele bhAga temAM be prahara jeTale samaya bhagavAna dezanA de ane eka prahara jeTalo samaya gaNadharadeva dezanA de. emAM zuM kahyuM haze? duHkhanA dveSI jAne, saMsAranA sukhanA dveSI banavAnI preraNuM karelI. saMsAranA sukhane TheSa pragaTe ane mekSasukhane rAga pragaTe, pachI mukti cheTI zAnI rahe? bhagavAne eka mAtra mokSamArganI ja prabhAvanA karI, kema ke-sukhane upAya, e ja eka che. Aje duHkhanA upara je dveSa che, te cheSa je saMsAranA sukha upara thaI jAya, te duHkha gayuM samaje. saMsAranA sukhane rAga jyAM kADhavA jevuM lAge, eTale karma dhrujavA mAMDe. mekSamArgane ArAdho hoya, to duHkhanA Darane ane saMsAranA sukhanA rAgane choDavAne abhyAsa kare. khyAla. kare ke-ApaNe duHkhanA dveSI ane sukhanA premI chIe, mATe karmanuM jora cAle che. duHkhathI DarIe nahi ane sukhane IcchIe nahi, te karma bhAgavA mAMDe. e samaje ke-jenA ame mAlika banI beThAM hatAM, te have jAge. saMsAracaka baMdha kema thAya ? jenAmAM sukhane dveSa pragaTe, te tyArathI ja bAra AnI sukhI thaI jAya. jagatamAM IcchAnuM ja duHkha meTuM che. IcchA thaI, eTale zANe paNa gamAra bane. samaju paNa IcchAne AdhIna thAya, to mAthe hAtha daIne bese. DAhyAmAM DAhyA mANasane paNa je IcchAnuM bhUta vaLagI jAya, te te pAmara banI jAya. je kaI IcchAne AdhIna bane, te duHkha, duHkhI ne duHkhI ja heya. saMsAranA sukha upara TheSa AvI gaye, eTale e bAdazAha banI gayo. kAMI joItuM hoya, te e.
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________________ 44 cAra gatinAM kAraNe sadAya ne? A jagat meTuM yaMtra che. AmAM jeTalA jhaMpalAya, teTalA kapAIne sApha thaI jAya. je sAvadha rahe, te ja bace. yaMtro calAvanArA dhotIyAne badale pATaluna pahere che. kema? bhUlathI paNa yaMtramAM cheDe AvI jAya te jAna jAya, ema samaje che. saMsAra te, duniyAnAM bhayaMkaramAM bhayaMkara cakrothI paNa mahA bhayaMkara caka che. IrachA thaI, puNya hoya ne pUrI thaI ke tarata bIjI IcchA thavAnI. jema baTana dAbe to ja pelAM yantro baMdha thAya, tema saMsAracakrane baMdha karavAne mATe IcchAnA baTanane dAbe te ja kAma thAya. duniyAnAM cakone te mApa che, paNa saMsAranA cakane mApa nathI. saMsAranA cakrathI bacavAne mATe, zrI vItarAganA gharamAM pesavuM joIe; ane saMsAranA sukhanI IcchA upara kAbU meLavyA vinA, zrI vItarAganA gharamAM pesI zakAya nahi. ApaNe zrI vItarAganA gharamAM pesIe, eTale karma mAMkANa mAMDe ane ApaNe AnaMda anubhavIe. zrI siddhagirijImAM to tamArAM pApakarmo raDe che ne? mAlike amane kADhavA mAMDayAM, ema tamArA karmone lAge che ne ? saMsAranA sukhanI IcchAmAM ja ramatA haze, enI ja cintA haze, te raDavAnuM mehane nahi, paNa AtmAne raheze. AMTo ATA mATe nahi thavo joIe: zrI vItarAgane dharma kaThina che, paNa te saMsAranA sukhanI IcchAvALAne. duHkhane sahavAnI ane sukhanI sAme najara paNa nahi karavAnI tAkAta keLave, te A dharma bahu sahele che. zrI nandana munivara mA khamaNane pAraNe mA khamaNa karatA. lAkha varSa paryanta mAsakhamaNane pAraNe mAsakhamaNa karavA
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________________ 45 pahele bhAge chatAM paNa, jyAre juo tyAre e prasannamukha ja jaNAtA. eTalo tapa ane sAthe apramAda paNa e. emanI kaI kiyA sIdAtI nahi. zAthI? temaNe IcchAne kacaDI nAkhI hatI! zarIrabaLa kharuM, paNa IcchA jo kacaDAI gaIna heta, te apramAdathI eTalI tapazcaryA thAta nahi. ApaNane to vagara bhUkhe paNa khAvAnuM mana thAya che. nakkI kare ke-bhUkha lAgyA. vinA te khAvuM ja nahi. je jovAnuM mana thAya te jovuM nahi ane je khAvAnuM mana thAya te khAvuM nahi, ATalo niyama kare che? je mAtra cha mahinA sudhI paNa A abhyAsa kare, te lAge ke-duHkha gayuM. bhUkha lAgyA vinA khAvuM nahi -eTaluM ja nahi, paNa jyAM sudhI khAdhA vinA cAle, bhUkha pIDIne pramAda lAve nahi, tyAM sudhI khAvuM nahi-AvI Teva pADe, te jIbhanI AdhInatA TaLe ne ? peTa mAgatuM hoya, eTale te je maLe te cAle ne ? paNa, pApa karAvanArAM karmone kADhavAM hoya, te ne? pApa karAvanArAM karmone kADhavAM che-e nirNaya kare ane jarUrI abhyAsamAM lAgI jAo, to dukha tamane aDe nahi ane mekSa tamArI rAha jue. zrI siddhi girijInI yAtrAe AvIne, A nirNaya avazya karavo joIe. ATale moTo AMTo, ATA mATe nahi thaI javuM joIe.. saMsAra khaTakya ema kayAre kahevAya? ahIM zrI siddhigirijInI yAtrAe AvIne paNa tame jo saMsAranA sukha tarapha ja lakSya ApyA kare, te AvI sArI yAtrA paNa phaLe zI rItie? saMsAra, e te AtmAnuM vikRta svarUpa che ane mokSa, e ja AtmAnuM sAcuM svarUpa,
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________________ 46 cAra gatinAM kAraNe che.-AvuM bhAna na thAya, tyAM sudhI vikRta svarUpane TALavAnI ane pitAnA svarUpane pragaTa karavAnI IcchA thAya zI rItie ? jene potAne saMsAraparyAya khaTake ane pitAnA mokSasvarUpane pAmavAnI IcchA thAya, te ja mokSane pAmI zake. saMsAra khaTakyA vinA, game teTalI kriyAo karAya to paNa, mekSa thAya nahi. ApaNane saMsAra khaTake che khare? ane khaTake che, to kyAre khaTake che? saMsAra khaTake che to khare, paNa te takalIpha Ave tyAre ne? anukULatA maLe to saMsAra khaTakato nathI, paNa sAre lAge che. tyAre, e saMsAra khaTakyo-ema na kahevAya. sukhamAM, anukULatAmAM paNa saMsAra khaTake, AtmAnuM vikRta svarUpa khaTake, to ja ene saMsAra khaTakyo ema kahevAya. jyAM sudhI vikRta svarUpa khaTake nahi, tyAM sudhI sAcA svarUpane pAmavAnI irachA janma nahi ane sAcA svarUpane pAmavAnI IcchA jamyA vinA, zrI arihaMtAdi pAMce ya parameSThio jevA rUcavA joIe, tevA rUce nahi. zrI arihaMtAdi pAMce ya parameSThione namaskArAdi karavA chatAM, e pAMcanI oLakha keTalI? ane sAcI oLakha na hoya, te e tArakene namaskAra karatAM paNa je bhAva Ave joIe, te bhAva Ave zI rItie? zrI arihantAdi pAMce ya paramechienA svarUpanI vAtane vicAre, to emAMnA ekamAM paNa mekSanI vAta AvyA vinA rahe nahi; eTale, saMsAra khaTakyA vinA ane mokSa rUcyA vinA, zrI arihaMtAdi pratye sAce bhaktibhAva pragaTe ja zI rItie ? parameSio pratye bahumAna kayAre pragaTe ? zrI arihaMtAdine tame je namaskAra kare che, te zA
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________________ pahele bhAga 47 mATe karo cho ? e tArakene namaskAra karavAnI sAthe, e tArakane oLakhavAne prayatna paNa kharo ? sa, bahumAna che mATe namaskArAdi karIe chIe. e tArako pratye bahumAna thavAnuM kAraNa zuM? ane jyAM bahumAna hoya, tyAM AchI paNa oLakha hoya; tema ja, oLakhavAne vizeSa vizeSa prayatna paNa cAlu heya. sa. emanuM sthAna uMcuM che. keInuM sthAna game teTaluM UMcuM hoya, paNa ApaNane kAma na lAge te ApaNane tenI kiMmata keTalI? ApaNe e sthAna tarapha bahumAna rAkhavAnuM kAraNa zuM? emanuM sthAna uMcuM zAthI? zrI arihaMta paramAtmAe tAraka mokSamArgane pragaTAvyo, zrI siddha paramAtmAnI avasthA zrI siddhigatine pAmavAnI preraNA Ape che ane zrI AcArya Adi munivare e mokSamArganA pAlaka, pracAraka ane pAThaka tathA enI sAdhanAmAM sahAyaka thanArA che, mATe ja pAMce ya parameSionuM sthAna uMcuM che ne? A pAMca pratye bahumAna pragaTe, eTale e sthAnane pAmavAnI IcchA pragaTe ja; athavA te, e sthAnane pAmavAnI IcchA jame, eTale A pAMcanA svarUpane khyAla AvatAM, A pAMca tarapha bahumAna pragaTyA vinA rahe ja nahi. bahumAna eTale hadayane AdarabhAva. je sthitine bIjA pAmyA hoya, te sthiti ApaNane game, te sthiti pAmavA jevI lAge, te ja temanA pratye AdarabhAva pragaTe ne? pAMca parameSTie je sthitine pAmyA che, te sthiti ja kalyANakArI che-ema je lAgatuM hoya, e sthitine pAmavAnI je abhilASA hoya ane ApaNI atyAranI sthiti ApaNane je khaTakatI hoya,
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________________ 48 cAra gatinAM kAraNe te ja ApaNe kahI zakIe ke-amane A pAMca parameSThi pratye bahumAna che. huye saMsAranuM eTale ke saMsAranA sukhanuM bahumAna hoya ane e sukha A pAMcanI sevAthI maLazeema lAgyuM hoya, tA tethI paNa bhakti Adi thAya e khane; paNe emAM vastutaH pAMca parameSTie pratye bahumAna nathI, paNa saMsAra pratye ja bahumAna che. saMsAranA sukhane rAga khaTakathA vinA zrI vItarAganA zaNane pAmI zakAya nahi : zrI vItarAga AtramAM, zrI vItarAgadevanI stavanA karatAM, parama upakArI-kalikAlasarvajJa-AcAryabhagavAna zrImad hemacaMdrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAe, e vAtane spaSTa karI che ke-jene peAtAnI zaraNarahita avasthAnuM bhAna thAya, tene ja zaraNuM mAgavAnuM mana thAya. zrI vItarAganA zaraNane mATe e zarate aMgIkRta karavI joie; paNa zrI vItarAganA zaraNane svIkAravAnuM mana kacAre thAya ? huM zaraNurahita chuM, ema lAge tyAre ne ? A saMsAramAM ApaNe! AtmA zaraNarahita che, enuM ApaNane bhAna thavuM joie ne ? ApaNane lAge che ke-ApaNe zaraNarahita chIe ane zaraNarahita chIe mATe ApaNe mAthe bhaya tALAI rahyA che ? saMsAranA ApaNane bhaya che ? saMsAranA bhaya na hoya, teA ApaNane A saMsAramAM zaraNanI jarUra che--ema lAge zAnuM? ane zaraNanI jarUra lAgyA vinA, ApaNe zrI vItarAganA zaraNane svIkArIe zAnA? saMsArathI bhayabhIta banyA vinA, zrI vItarAganA zaraNane sAcA bhAve svIkArI zakAya ja nahi. jene bhaya lAge ane ethI je zaraNanI
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________________ pahelA bhAga 49 zeAdhamAM paDe, tenI dazA kevI heAya ? je bhayabhIta ane, tene - bhayathI acAvanAranuM zaraNa svIkAra '-ema kahevuM paDe nahi. e ja zaraNane mAge. eka kutarAnI pAchaLa khIAM kutarAM paDyAM hoya che, tyAre bhayabhIta baneluM kutarUM, kevI rItie gharamAM pesI jAya che athavA jyAM rakSaNa dekhAya tyAM kevuM lapAI jAya che ? ane tame zaraNu na Ape ane kADhavA mathA, teA ya pAchaLa paDelAM kutarAMnA ene eTaleA badhA bhaya lAgelA hoya che ke--enuM cAle tyAM sudhI te e khase nahi. saMsArane ApaNane evA bhaya lAgyA che kharA ? ' bhagavan ! saMsArathI tAra, saMsArathI tAra | '-evuM ApaNe khAlIe chIe kharA, paNa haiyAmAM ApaNane saMsArane bhaya kharA ? saMsAranA bhaya hAya ane ' deva-gurU-dharma sivAya mAre mATe koI zaraNa levA ceAgya nathI '-ema lAgyuM hoya, tA kahA ! zrI namrutyuNuMmAM bhagavAnane zaraNanA dAtA tarIke paNa stanyA che, paNa khUlAsA karyAM che ke- bhavathI bhayane pAmelA jIveAne zaraNanuM dAna karanArA !' bhagavAna paNa tene ja zaraNu ApI zake, ke jene saMsAranA Dara lAgyA heAya. bhavanA Dara lAgyA vinA tA, bhagavAna paNa zaraNa ApI zake nahi; eTale, ApaNe jo zrI vItarAganuM zaraNu joItuM hoya, tA ApaNane bhavane Dara lAgavA joie ane ' bhavathI ugAranAra A ja che'-ema paNa lAgavuM joie. e vinA, zrI vItarAganuM zaraNa maLe zI rItie ? sa0 AdhathI paNa bhavatA Dara tA kharA. Aghe Aghe paNa saMsAranA Dara lAgyA hoya, teA saMsArathI chUTavAnI IcchA thayA vinA rahe ja nahi. bhavanA Dara, eTale 4
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________________ 50 cAra gatinAM kAraNe saMsAranA duHkhane Dara ke saMsAranA sukhane paNa Dara? saMsAranuM sukha paNa tajavA jevuM ja che, ema lAge che kharuM? ke saMsAranA sukhanI te pUrI IcchA che? zrI vItarAganA zaraNane pAmelAmAM paNa, saMsAranA sukhane rAga hoya-e bane, paNa ene e rAga khaTakatuM ja hoya. jene saMsAranA sukhane rAga khaTake paNa nahi, te zrI vItarAganA zaraNane pAmyo ja nathI. mohanI AdhInatAmAM sapaDAela chava, zrI vItarAganA zaraNane meLavIne, mohanI AdhInatAmAMthI chUTI zake, paNa mohanI AdhInatAmAM rahevuM paDe te khaTake, te e zrI vItarAganA zaraNane meLavI zake ne? duSkatanI nindA ane sukRtanI anumodanA: mehanI jALamAMthI chUTavAne mATe, zrI vItarAganA zaraNane svIkAravAnI jarUra che. jene mehanA banthanamAMthI chUTavAnI tAlAvelI lAge, mehanuM sAmrAjya jene bhayabhIta banAvI mUke ane AmAMthI choDAve tevA eka zrI vItarAga ja che-ema jene lAge, te zrI vItarAganA zaraNane kevA bhAvathI svIkAre? huM A saMsAramAM zaraNarahita chuM ane eka zrI vItarAga ja zaraNa levA yogya che-ema lAgyA pachI, zrI vItarAganA zaraNane pAmavAne mATe, zuM karavuM joIe? e mATe be zarate kahI. kayI ? pitAnA duSkatanI nindA ane sukRtanI anamedanA ! jenAmAM A be guNe Ave, te zrI vItarAganA zaraNe jaI zake ! pitAnAM duSkata jene DaMkhe ane sukRta jene game, tene ja zrI vItarAga game ne? duSkata zuM kare? mehanA sAmrAjyamAM bhamAve! ane sukRte zuM kare? mehanA baMdhanamAMthI chaTavAmAM
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________________ pahele bhAga 51 madada kare ! ApaNane ApaNAM duSkato khe che kharAM? pitAnAM duSkRtanI nindA kyAre thAya?"mArAM duSkRta ja mArI saghaLI kharAbInuM mULa che"--ema lAge che ne ? dukRtanA tyAganI vAta te pachI che, paNa duSkRta tarapha aNagame te khare ne? aNagame na hoya, to enI nindA thAya zI rItie? ApaNuM jIvanamAM duSkRta keTalAM che ane sukRta keTalAM che, ene vicAra, tame, kadI paNa kare che kharA? sa, duSkRta ghaNAM hoya tyAM zuM thAya ? duSkRta ghaNAM hoya ane sukRta DAM paNa hoya, paNa duSkatane tajavAnI ne sukRtane sevavAnI vRtti kharI? sukRta thoDuM paNa thAya, te tene AnaMda khare ne? sarasava jeTaluM sukRta hoya, paNa te jeTaluM thAya che teTaluM bhAvapUrvakanuM thAya che ne? duSkRta moTe bhAge, sukRta , chatAM sukRtanA bhAvanI vAta Ave ke-locA vaLe. bhAva kema AvatuM nathI ? duSkRta upara tiraskAra ja nathI, mATe ne? eTale, vastutaH nathI duSkatanI nindA ke nathI sukRtanI anumodanA! sukRta sArA bhAve kyAre thAya? duSkRta khaTake to ! duSkRta khaTakyA vinA, sukRta sArA bhAve thAya nahi ! pahelAM duSkRtanI niMdA kahI ane te pachI sukRtanI anumodanA kahI, enuM kAraNa zuM? duSkRta nindApAtra che-ema lAgyA vinA, sukRta anumodanAne pAtra lAge ja nahi! duSkRtanI nindA ane sukRtanI anumodanA dvArA zrI vItarAganA zaraNane kema pamAya? duSkRta nindApAtra lAge, eTale viSayane rasa ane
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________________ 52. cAra gatinAM kAraNe kaSAyanuM jora, nindApAtra lAge ja ne? AtmAne duSkatane rasa lagADanAra keNa che? puNyakarmanA udayathI ane jJAnAvaraNuMyAdi karmonA upazamAdithI je sAmagrI ane je zakti maLI hoya, tene duSkRtamAM upayoga karavAne preranAra keNa che? kahe ke-viSayane rasa ane kaSAyanuM jera. tame tamArAM duSkatone yAda kare ane e darekanA kAraNanI tapAsa kare. je viSayane rasa na hota ane kaSAyanuM jora na hota, to tamArAthI thayelAM duSkRta pikI evuM kayuM duSkRta che, ke jene tame AcaryuM hota? tyAre duSkata jene nindApAtra lAge, tajavA jevuM lAge, tene viSayane rasa ane kaSAyanuM jera nindApAtra lAgyA vinA rahe? ene tajavAnuM mana thayA vinA rahe? pachI, sukRta paNa viSayanA rasathI ane kaSAyanA jorathI karavAnuM mana thAya kharuM? viSayanA rasathI ane kaSAyanA jerathI je sukRta karavAnuM mana thAya agara te karelA sukRtanA badalAmAM je viSayasukhanI ane kaSAyasukhanI abhilASA AvI jAya, te e ya khaTakyA vinA kema ja rahe? viSayane rasa ane kaSAyanuM jora ghaTe, e mATe sukRta che ne ? je kAraNathI duSkata janma, te ja kAraNathI je sukRta janma, te e duSkRta ane e sukRtamAM phera keTale ? duSkatathI bacAvanAra sAdhanane paNa duSkRtanA kAraNane poSanAra banAvAya, te e sukRta paNa duSkRta karatAM vadhAre kharAbI karanAra nivaDe, te emAM navAI pAmavA jevuM zuM che? sukRta, e duSkatanI pratipakSI vastu che, eTale duSkRtanA kAraNanuM pratipakSI kAraNa ja sukRtanA AcaraNamAM hevuM joIe ne ? sukRtanA sevana dvArA duSkRtanuM kAraNa nAza pAme, e ja bhAva have joIe ne? "viSayano rasa ane
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________________ pahelA bhAga kaSAyanuM jora mane duSkRtamAM yAjanAra che, mATe huM sukRtane AcarUM, ke jethI mArA viSayanA rasa ane kaSAyanuM jora ghaTe ane antu enAthI huM chUchyuM, eTale mArAthI kadI paNa duSkRta thavA pAme nahi'-AvA prakArane bhAva, sukRtanA AcaraNamAM joI e ne ? AvI vRtti jenAmAM Ave, te ja sAcA bhAve duSkRtanI nindA ane sukRtanI anumeAdanA karI zake ne ? AvI vRttithI, peAtAnA duSkRtanI nindA ane sukRtanI anumeAdanA karanArA AtmAne, ema ja lAge ke-eka zrI vItarAga sivAya mAre mATe kazuM ja zaraNa ceAgya nathI ane zrI vItarAganuM zaraNu svIkAryAM vinA cAle tema nathI, kAraNa ke--e viSaya ane kaSAyathI mUkAelA che ane mAre viSaya ane kaSAyathI mUkAvuM che ! ' viSayanA rAga paNa heAya ane kaSAyanuM jora paNa hAya, parantu jo e khaTake teA ja zrI vItarAganA zaraNane svIkArI zakAya ane zrI vItarAganA zaraNane svIkArIne prayatna karate karate vItarAga banI zakAya. ghAtI ane aghAtI karmo tarapha kevA bhAva che ? viSayanA rasa ane kaSAyanuM jora, ApaNane duSkRtamAM ceAje che, paNa viSayanA rasa ane kaSAyanuM jora kAnA pratApe che? evA prakAranA pApakarmanA cega ApaNane che, mATe ja ApaNe viSayA tarapha ane kaSAyA tarapha khIMcAie chIe, ema thAya che ? viSaya-kaSAyanI AdhInatA, e ja saMsAra che. saMsAramAM rahevAnA svabhAva ApaNA nahi; ApaNA svabhAva te meAkSamAM rahevAne; paNa karyuM ApaNane saMsAramAM zakI rAkhyA che. karmanA ceAge ja, ApaNe anAdikAlathI rakhaDIe 53
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________________ 54 cAra gatinAM kAraNe chIe. karmane bAMdhanAra keNa? karmane vega anAdithI che, paNa jUnAM karma jAya te pahelAM navAM karma bAMdhavAnI bhUla ApaNe karI, eTale karmane yoga kAyamane kAyama rahyo. ApaNane saMsAramAM rakhaDAvanAra karmano yoga che, paNa ApaNe tene oLakhI zakyA nahi, mATe ja haju saMsAramAM rakhaDavAnuM cAle che ne? have te, ApaNe karmane oLakhI lIdhAM che ane ApaNe ene kADhavAnI mahenatamAM ja chIe, ema mAnI lauM ne ? ApaNane saMsAramAM rakhaDavAnuM mana nathI, saMsAramAM rakhaDavuM e ApaNo svabhAva nathI, chatAM karma ja ApaNane anAdikAlathI saMsAramAM rakhaDAvyA che ane haju paNa karma ApaNe pIche choDatAM nathI, eTale karma upara ApaNe guruso ghaNe ne? paNa e sthiti nathI. karma upara gusse khare, paNa te duHkha ApanArAM karmo upara. sukha ApanArA karmo upara te prema ane jarUra lAge teTalAM pApa karavAnI zakti ApanAra karma upara paNa...? saMsAranA sukhane meLavavAne mATe, saMsAranA maLelA sukhane sAcavavA mATe, AvI paDelA duHkhano nAza karavAne mATe ane dukha Ave nahi tevI jogavAI karavAne mATe jarUrI lAge tevAM pApa AdinI preraNA ApanArA karmo upara zuM che, te tame kahe. dharma karmanirjarA mATe che, paNa ApaNe kyAM karmonI nirjarA karavI che, e tame nakakI karyuM che? pApanI preraNAdi ApanAra karma upara reSa na hoya, to tame je badhI dharmakriyA kare che, tenI pAchaLa kaye bhAva che? e te jJAnI kahI zake athavA prAmANika ane vivekI banIne ApaNe kahI zakIe. moTe bhAge to e ja bhAva jaNAya che ke- duHkha nathI joItuM tathA saMsAranuM sukha khUba joIe che ane ethI saMsAranA
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________________ pahelA bhAga sukhanI sAmagrI khUba maLe evI IcchA che. ene TakAvavAnuM, emAM AvatAM vighnAne TALavAnuM baLa joIe che.' AvI IcchAvALA, sukha ApanArA karma upara khUba rAjI hoya ane enAM sAdhanA upara rAgI hAya Ama, pApa karAvanArA karmanI sAthe ThIka ThIka meLa che ne ? ghAtIkama sAthe gADha maitrI ane je aghAtI che, temAM je zubha che, tenA upara prema ane je azubha che, tenA upara dveSa-A traNamAM hA pADA, eTale zrI jaina zAsananI chAyAne pAmavAnI lAyakAta paNa pragaTI nathI, ema nakkI thAya. bhUtakALamAM karelI bhUla ahIM karavI che ? 55 ATalI badhI tAraka sAmagrIne pAmavA chatAM paNu, ApaNAmAM bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevanA zAsanane pAmavAnI lAyakAta pragaTI na hoya athavA e lAyakAtane pAmavAnI vRtti AvI na hoya, teA pariNAma zuM Ave? tameame varSothI dharma karIe chIe ne ? varSothI dharma karanArA ApaNe, e te tapAsIe ne ke--' mArI dharmakaraNIe mArA rAgane keTalA ghaTA Dayo ane tyAganI bhAvanAne keTalI vikasAvI ?' bhUtakALamAM paNa ApaNe dharma nahi karyo hoya ? bhUtakALamAM ya ApaNe ghaNI dharmakriyA karelI, chatAM paNa ApaNI dazA AvI kema ? bhUtakALamAM ApaNe dharma na karyAM hota, tA ApaNe ahIM zI rItie Avata ? zrIjinazAsananI nikaTamAM AvI paheAMcyA, e pratApa dharmanA; paNa ATalI sArI sAmagrI maLavA chatAM ya jo sasAranA rAga ghaTe nahi, teA e pratApa konA ? bhUtakALamAM dharma karatAM karelI bhUlAnA ja ne ? tyAre je bhUla
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNeA bhUtakALamAM karelI, te ja bhUla pAchI ahIM karIe, teA riNAma zuM Ave ? dharma saMsAranA rAgane poSavAne mATe nathI, paNa saMsAranA rAgane kADhavAne mATe dharma che. dharma karatAM, saMsAranA rAga pASAvA nahi joie paNa kapAvA joI e. saMsAranA rAgane vaza banIne, game teTalA dharma game teTalAM varSo paryanta karavAmAM Ave, te paNa e saMsArathI tAranArA ane zI rItie ? evAne mATe tA, te jema jema dharma karatA jAya, tema tema enA saMsAranA rAga gADha banatA jAya, evuM ja pariNAma Ave ne ? dharmasAmagrI uparanA prema dhAvamAtA jevA che? pa Aje ApaNane dharmanI sAmagrI paNa maLI che ane saMsAranI sAmagrI paNa tamane te maLIja che. saMsAranI sAmagrI upara tamane khUba prema che, eme ya jaNAI Ave che. have dharmanI sAmagrI upara prema kharA ke nahi ? sa0 dharmanI sAmagrI upara prema to kharA ja! dharmanI sAmagrI upara prema che, paNa te kevA ? pADAzInA ghara sAthe heAya tevA ne ? pADeAzInA gharamAM nukazAna thAya, tenI ApaNane asara keTalI ? bIcArAnuM bagaDathuM' ema thAya, paNa ApaNA gharamAM ethI gheADuM paNa nukazAna thAya ane ApaNane enI jevI asara thAya, tevI asara pADozInA ghare thayelA nukazAnathI kAMI gheADI ja thAya ? ghaNAne saMsAranI sAmagrI upara te eTalA badhA prema che ke-mUkIne javuM paDaze te di' ya rAtA javAnA, paNa dilathI cheADavAnA nathI. mUkavA vagara chUTakA nahi hAya tyAre mUkazuM te kharA, paNa haiyAthI nahi-ema ja ne ? enI ja sAthe dharmasAmagrI uparanA premanA
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________________ pahelA bhAga 57 vicAra karA. dharmanI je sAmagrI maLI che-enA prema nathI ema tA nahi, ema tame kaho che; paNa tamArA e prema kevA che, e tA kahe ! sa0 dhAvamAtA jevo, dhAvamAtAne zeThane chekarA jeTalA vahAlA hAya teTalA tamane dharma vahAlA che ane ene peAtAnA cheAkarA upara jevA prema hoya tevA tamane sasAra upara prema che, ema ja ne? A varSonA anubhavI mANase sAcI vAta kahI dIdhI. dhAvamAtA jevI manodazA saMsAra tarapha joie, tene badale dharma tarapha dhAvamAtA jevI dazA che ne? zeThanA chekarA upara dhAvamAtAnA prema zA mATe? peAtAnA svArtha sadhAtA hAya, te ja dhAvamAtA zeThanA chekarA upara prema rAkhe ne ? dhAvamAtAne khUza na rAkheA, te vakhate e gaLuM ya TuMpe ke nahi ? dAgInA paherAvyA hoya ane kAi jANe tema na hoya, teA gaLe TuMpA daIne dAgInA kADhI le-evuM ya bane ke nahi ? kAika vakhate emAM jAnanuM ya jokhama ne ? tema, tamane paNa je kri' A dharmathI je joie che te na maLe, te di' tamane dharma upara aprema thatAM vAra lAge nahi ne ? A te kahe ke-ApaNe dhAratA'tA ke amuka karavAthI amuka thaze, paNa have camatkAra garcA. ApaNane devanA devatvanI kiMmata nathI, paNa enA dvArA ApaNuM kAma thatuM hoya, te ja tene ApaNane khapa che. AvI dazA heAvAthI, Aje je dharmonuSThAnA thAya che, te ghaNe bhAge viSa athavA garala thAya che ane kadAca ananuSThAnamAM gaNAya tevAM gatAnugatikapaNe thAya che. jee saMsAramAM pakkA heAya, te tA prAyaH viSa ane garala ja kare. ananuSThAna karanAra tA,
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________________ 58 cAra gatinAM kAraNe mugdhAdi che hoya che. ApaNe joIe che-tahetu anuSThAna ane amRta anuSThAna, paNa jyAM sudhI dharma tarapha dhAvamAtA je pratibhAva hoya, tyAM sudhI e Ave zI rItie? mehanIya karma sAthenI gADha maitrIH jeoe aneka vAra sAMbhaLyuM che ke-bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevenA zAsanamAM viSAdi anuSThAnane niSedha karAela che, teo je viSAdi anuSThAnene AcaratA hoya ane viSagaralane je bhAva Ave che te temane khaTako paNa na hoya, te e vAta nizcita thAya che ke saMsAranuM sukha temane khUba khUba game che ane potAnA karma AvI paDatA duHkhane sahI levAnI temanI jarA ya IcchA nathI. evAone ghAtI karmanI, mehanIyanI lAgaNIo bahu AnaMda Ape, emAM kAMI navAI nathI. rAta-divasa ene saMsAranA sukhanI ja cintA hoya che. saMsAranA sukhane IcchanArA badhAnesaMsAranuM sukha maLI jatuM nathI, paNa moTo bhAga IcchAmAM ne AzAmAM lahera kare che ne? saMsAranA sukhanI IrachA ne AzA karAvanAra keNa? ghAtI karmane-mehanIya karmane udaya ! enI sAthe jene gADha mitrI heya, tene zrI arihaMta ane zrI siddha Adi sAthe ze meLa hoya? ane jyAM meLa na hoya, tyAM vaLI bahumAna kevuM? e vinA, sAce namaskAra paNa kevo? ane e namaskArathI, ene potAne je lAbha thavA joIe, te lAbha thAya zI rItie? je leke, AtmAne bIjA padArthanI asara nathI thatI -ema kahe che, te mUrkha che. AtmA upara bIjA padArthanI asara thatI ja nathI-evuM mAnanAre, kaI paNa vAtane nikAla karI
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________________ pahele bhAga 59 zake tema nathI. AtmA upara je bIjA keI padArthanI asara thatI ja na heta, te jIva kadI paNa saMsAramAM bhaTakate na hota ! AtmA upara karmanI asara che, mATe ja ApaNe saMsAramAM bhaTakIe chIe ne? AtmA upara karmanI asara che, mATe ja AvI uttama sAmagrI maLavA chatAM ya, saMsArane tamAro rAga hAlate nathI ne? AtmA upara karmanI kazI ja asara thatI nathI, evuM kahenArAne pUche ke to saMsAranA sukhane lobha AtmAne hoya? AtmA saMsAranA sukhanA lebhe ja saMsAramAM bhaTakAvanAra karmane bAMdhe che ne? saMsAranA sukha uparane rAga khase ane enA upara dveSa pragaTe, e kyAre bane? laghukarmitA thAya te ! laghukarmitA kayAre thAya ? zrI jinavANInuM zravaNa, e vagere paNa laghukarmitAne pAmavAnA upAya che. laghukarmitA sAdhe AtmA, paNa temAM upadeza nimitta banI zake. je AtmA upara bIjA ke padArthanI asara ja thatI na hota, te upadeza devAnuM paNa mAMDI vALavuM paData. karme ApelA sukha-duHkhanA ja rAgI-dveSIne dharmanI sAthe zuM lAge-vaLage che? zuM AtmAne svabhAva, saMsAranA sukhane lobha karavAne che? viSayenA abhilASa ane kaSAne dhamadhamATa, e zuM AtmAno svabhAva che ? nahi ja, te A badhuM tenA pratApe che? karmanA roganA pratApe! karmanI AtmA upara A jevItevI asara nathI. karmane vega hovA chatAM paNa, bhavalaghutAnI sAthe je laghukarmita thAya, te ja "saMsAranA sukhanA leje. AtmAne keTalo badho pAyamAla karI nAkhyo che ene khyAla
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________________ 60 cAra gatinAM kAraNo Ave. saMsAranA sukhane lebha na hatA, te dharmamAM vAMdho na Avata. dharmamAM AvatA badhA vAMdhA, moTe bhAge, saMsAranA sukhanA lobhathI ja Ave che. dharmamAM vAMdhA Ave, enuM duHkhe ya keTaluM? saMsAranuM kAma na thAya, te zuM thAya ane dharmanuM kAma na thAya, to zuM thAya? amuka muzkelI AdinA kAraNe dharmanuM kAma na thaI zakee bane, paNa bhAvanA thI hoya? karmanA yoge AvatuM je duHkha-tene je draSI ane karmanA bhege AvatuM je sukha-tene je rAgI, e e laIne phare te ya zuM vaLe ? evA zreSamAM ja ne evA rAgamAM ja AnaMda mAnanAre, dharma zuM kAma kare che, e ja eka meTe savAla che. ene ne dharmane lAge-vaLage zuM? ene meLa, sukha ApanArA karma jeDe ane e sukhanI IcchA karAvanAra, e sukhane meLavavA mATe jarUrI pApa karAvanAra karma jeDe! pachI, e duHkhI na thAya te bIju thAya paNa zuM? dharmakiyAdinuM kaSTa sahe, ethI puNya baMdhAya ane e puNyanA udaye sukhasAmagrI maLe, paNa sukhasAmagrInI hAjarImAM ya e sukha bhegavI zake nahi. viSayanI lolupatAnA ane kaSAyanI AdhInatAnA ge, enA haiyAmAM asamAdhi ane durgAnane dAvAnaLa saLagyA karato hoya. enA pariNAme, e kevA bhayaMkara duSkarmane upArja sukhasAmagrIvALa kALa TuMke, e kALamAM ya sukhane anubhava karI zake nahi ane pachI e kALamAM upArjalAM duSkarmonA pratApe jJAnI jANe keTale ya lAMbe kALa e durgationAM duHkhane bhegavyA kare. saMsAranA sukhanI sAmagrI paNa dharmathI ja maLe; dharma vinA te, saMsAranA sukhanI sAmagrI paNa maLe ja nahi; paNa e sukhanA lebhIyA banIne ene mATe ja dharma karavAnI vRtti rahyA kare, te duHkha
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________________ pahelA bhAga jAya nahi ane joItuM sukha kadI paNa maLe nahi ! sArA-kharAbanuM mApa maneAvRtti uparathI kyAya : 61 tame ahIM AvyA te paNa paisA kharcIne AvyA ane ahIM paNa tame paisA kharcavAne mATe AvyA, te zuM gAMDA che ke-maLelA agara to cena kena paNa meLavelA paisAne tame Ama veDaphI nAkheA ? paisA tajavA jevA lAgyA hoya ane ethI paisA uparanI mamatAne utAravAne mATe tame ahIM AvyA ho, teA kaho ! sa zakti mujaba kharca karIe. kharca karavAnI vAta tA pachI, paNa kharca karavAnA hetunI vAta che. je kAMi kharcA karI che, te zA mATe kharcI che ? tame kAMI gAMDapaNathI kharcatA nathI, tyAre manamAM bhAva zeA che ? ahIM kharcIe, tenAthI AgaLa vadhAre maLe, evA bhAva kharA ke nahi ? gheADA kharcIe ane ghaNA maLe, ema manamAM beTheluM che ke nahi ? eka pAi kharco, paNa dhananI mUrchA utAravAnI vRttithI kharcA, te e bahu kiMmatI che. samakitI paisA na * ja rAkhe-ema nahi, paNa paisA rAkhavA jevA che'-ema tA e na ja mAne. tamArI pAse te kAMI dhana nathI, paNa jemanI pAse mahA dhana hatuM, evAne ya zAstra samikatI kahyA che. jemane tyAM dhananA hisAba naheAtA, jemane dhana tIjorImAM rAkhavuM paDatuM nahotuM paNa jemane tyAM dhananA DhagalA khaDakAtA hatA, jemane tyAM jyAM hAtha nAkheA tyAM dhana hoya-evA e zrImaMta hatA, evAne ya zAstra samakitI kahyA che; tyAre tenI pUThe kAraNa te haze ne ? paisA nahi rAkhavAthI ke paisAne
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe cheDI devAthI ja samakita Ave, evuM nathI. sAdhupaNuM, e e dharma che ke-e dharma joIe to paisAne choDavA ja joIe; paNa samati ke dezavirati mATe evuM thoDuM ja che? sa0 paisA na hoya te sAruM kharuM ne ? paiisAnuM mamatva na hoya te sAruM. bhikhArI paNa samakitI hiI zake ane zrImaMta paNa samakitI hoI zake. bhikhArI ya mithyAdaSTi hoI zake ane mahA zrImaMte ya mithyAdaSTi heI zake. bhaNelA paNa samakitI hoI zake ane abhaNa paNa samakitI hoI zake. bhaNelA ya mithyAdaSTi hoI zake ane abhaNe ya mithyAdaSTi hoI zake. sArA ke kharAbanuM mApa, zrImaMtAI ke garIbAI athavA bhaNatara ke abhaNapaNA uparathI ja nIkaLI zake nahi. sArA ke kharAbanuM mApa, mukhyatve manevRtti uparathI kaDhAya. evA bhikhArI paNa joyA che ke emanA AgaLa zrImaMta rAMkaDA lAge. dayA khAvA lAyaka-e na hoya, paNa zrImaMta hoya ! zrImaMta mANasa te vAta vAtamAM kahe ke-vakhata nathI. nAzabhAga karyA ja kare. pelo TukaDA roTalAmAM paNa sukhe jIve ane adhikanI IcchA kare nahi. e bemAM sAre keNa? evI ja rItie, evA zrImaMta paNa heya, ke jemane dhana tajavA jevuM che-ema lAgI gayuM hoya ane bIjI tarapha jenI pAse dhana na hoya, te evA paNa hoya, ke jeo dhananI lAlasAmAM ja jIvatA hoya; te e bemAM sAre keNa? daSTinI ektA : gRhasthanI daSTi sAdhu jevI hovI joIe. sAdhumAM ane zrAvakamAM tratAdine phera khare, karaNamAM phera khare, sAdhu
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________________ pahelo bhAga sarvatyAgI ane gRhastha gharabArI, chatAM paNa e benI daSTimAM virodha nahi joIe. daSTi eTale mAnyatA. zrAvake ya samyagdaSTi ane sAdhu ya samyagdaSTi ! tamAre te bahu sAvadha rahevAnuM. gharamAM rahevuM ne "gharamAM rahevuM e kharAba che -ema mAnavAnuM. gharamAM rahevA chatAM ya, "huM pArakI paMcAtamAM beThe chuM"--ema zrAvakane thAya. amAruM mana bagaDe tevuM sAdhana nathI, chatAM paNa amAruM mana je bagaDe, te ame mahA kamanasIba ane tame evA saMyogomAM beThA cho ke-tamAruM mana na bagaDatuM hoya, to tame mahA bhAgyavAna ! kalikAlanA chanA guNeH tame vicAra te kare ke-tamane saMsAramAM rahevAmAM rasa upaje, evuM tamArI pAse che ja zuM? parama upakArI, AcAryabhagavAna zrImAn munisundarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA jyAre A kalikAlanA jIne vicAra karavAne beThA, tyAre e mahApurUSane paNa thaI gayuM ke-A jenI pAse evuM che ja zuM, ke je A jIvane saMsAramAM rahevAmAM rasa upajAvI zake? kalikAlanA jInI pAse evI kayI sAmagrI che, ke je emane saMsAramAM rahevAne lebhAvI zake? paNa pAche prazna thAya ke-je evI sAmagrI nathI, te pachI kalikAlanA saMsArane choDatA kema nathI? pachI, e mahApurUSe nirNaya karyo ke-kalikAlanA jIve evA evA guNothI saMpanna che, ke jethI saMsAra emane choDe nahi. e guNe pUrvakAlanA uttama chavAmAM nahetA, mATe emane saMsAre saMgharyA nahi ane kalikAlanA jemAM e gaNe che, mATe emane saMsAra saMghare che. Ama kahIne,
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________________ ------------ --- - 14 cAra gatinAM kAraNe e mahApurUSe kalikAlanA jImAM rAgAdi sevakajane tarapha vAtsalya Adi je guNa rahelA che, te varNavyA che. so e doSa kahevAya ke guNa ? che to deSa ja, paNa cAnaka lagADavAne mATe e mahApurUSe guNa zabdano prayoga karyo che. kAlAdinA nAme karAte bacAva : pUrve evA paNa sukhI mANase thaI gayA che, ke jemane tyAM trAddhine pAra nahoto. e vepAra karIne ja kamAyA hatA, evuM paNa nahotuM. dhanamAM janmyA hatA ane dhanamAM AvyA hatA. kuTuMbAdi paNa eTaluM badhuM anukULa ke sau hAtha joDIne ubhA rahe. je hoya te enI bIrUdAvalI bele, paNa kaI enuM bhUMDuM belanAra maLe nahi. evAe paNa, vAta-vAtamAM, saMsArane lAta mArIne nIkaLI gayA. emane tyAga karavAnI vRtti kema AvI? mahIM beTheluM athavA te beThuM ke-A badhuM tajavA jevuM ja che. sae kALa te sAre ne ? pAMcamA ArAne kALa paNa e nathI ke-e bhAva na ja AvI zake. kALanA nAme, A te kahI dIdhuM ke-ame chIe te sArA, paNa kALa kharAba che! kALa jyAre kharAba ja Avaze, tyAre A vAta nahi hoya. chaThThA ArAmAM bhagavAnanuM zAsana nahi hoya. A te pAMcame Are che. kALa paDate che, paNa bhagavAnanuM zAsana vidyamAna che. AvA kALamAM paNa, ApaNane bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevonuM zAsana maLyuM, eTale ApaNe mATe te A kALa ja uttama. sArA kALamAM
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________________ pahele bhAga paNa je bhagavAnanA zAsanane na pamAya, to sAre paNa kALa sArA mATe thAya zI rItie? kALa, bhavitavyatA, karmane udaya AdinA nAme, Aje keTalAkane pitAne bacAva karavAnI Teva paDI gaI che. zakya eTale purUSArtha karavA chatAM paNa dhAryuM pariNAma na Ave, tyAre ya, pahelAM te e zedhavuM joIe ke mArA purUSArthamAM kyAM ya bhUla te thaI nathI ne? mArI bhUle , mAre purUSArtha, dhAryuM phala ApavAne asamartha banyo nathI ne? pachI, hatAza na thavAya teTalA pUrate kAlAdine vicAra karIne paNa, purUSArthane jArI rAkhavo joIe. Aje te, meTe bhAge purUSArtha ghaNe zeDo ane te paNa aneka dethI bharele, chatAM paNa vAta vAtamAM kalAdinA nAme bacAva kare. ahIM kAlAdinA nAme bacAva karIne, tame kadAca bIjAonI pAse sArA mANasa karI zakaze, paNa tethI sAruM phala thoDuM ja maLavAnuM che? ApaNuM bhUlamAM bacAva zodhIe ane pArakI bhUlamAM ? pitAnI vAtamAM ane bIjAnI vAtamAM phera che. ApaNI bhUla jevI ane bIjAne bacAva kare, e zIkhavuM joIe. sAcuM sArI rItie, hitakara thAya tema kahevA chatAM ya, sAmAne asara na thAya, te tene kAla nahi pAkyo hoya ane kAla pAkyo haze paNa bhavitavyatA Adi tevI nahi heya, e vagere vicAra karavAnuM paNa ApaNane asara na thAya, to ema vicAravuM ke-"huM kevuM pApa bAMdhIne Avyo chuM, ke jethI AvI sArI vAta paNa mane rUcatI nathI?" bIjAnI bhUlane savAla Ave, tyAM saMyogo zedhavA ane jeTalo banI zake teTale
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________________ }} cAra gatinAM kAraNeNA tene bacAva karavA. dayAne khaMDita thavA devI na hAya ane dveSane AvavA devA na heAya, te| A vastu bahu jarUrI che; paNa tamane A vastu jarUrI lAge che ? tamane ema thAya che kharUM keApaNe teA prAya: evA chIe ke-sAmAnI vAta Ave, tyAM tenA vyAjakhI bacAvanI vAtane paNa gaNukArIe nahi ane jyAM ApaNI vAta Ave, eTale aNuchAjatA paNa macAvA zeAdhIe ! ApaNAthI bhUla thaI jAya, te acAvanI vAta vadhAre karIe ke bhUlanI vAta vadhAre karIe ? bhUlanI vAtane bhUlavI devAne mATe, thAya teTalA khacAvA karyA vinA paNa rahIe nahi ne ? ane pArakI bhUlanI vAta AvI, eTale ? eTale aTa kahI nAkhIe ke e AvA che ane e tevA che! ' bIjAnI bhUla mATe te haiyAne sAgara jevuM banAvavuM joie. khIjAnI bhUlamAM khUba udAra haiyAvALA banIne vicAra karavA joie. enA saMcAgo AdinA pUratA vicAra karavA joI e. evA vartAva rAkhavA joI e ke--e jo jarA ya cAgya hAya, tA ene ema thaI jAya ke- mArI bhUla tA thaI, paNa te AmanI najare caDhI te sArUM thayuM.' ApaNA vartAva evA hovA joI e ke-sAmAne, ApaNI pAse bhUlane chUpAvavAnuM nahi, paNa potAnI bhUlane kharAkhara kabUla karavAnuM mana thAya. peAtAnI bhUla nAnI hAya, te ya te mATe AtmAne Thapaka ApavA ane khIjAnI bhUla vakhate ene AzvAsana ApIne, pachI ene bacAvI levAnA prayatna karavA. nAkaranI bhula nAnI lAge ke mATI ? tamArAthI A bane ? nAkaranI bhUlane, tame, tamArI
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________________ pahele bhAga 67 bhUlanI jema, sahI zake kharA? nakara ke? tamArA karatAM e che puNyazAlI ne? enI bhUla meTI lAge ke nAnI ? enA hAthe 500 khovAya, te zuM lAge ane tamArA hAthe 5000 khavAya, to ya zuM lAge ? tame khUo tyAre zuM kahe ? heya, mANasa chIe; bhUla paNa thaI jAya!" ane nekara khUe, te bevakUpha, gadheDe, akkala vagarane vagere kahe ne? nekara bIcAre garajALa heya, eTale sAMbhaLI le; maryAdAzIla hoya, eTale paNa javAba na de; bAkI, keI ugra prakRtine heya, te ema na kahI de ke-"bevakUpha Apa ke huM? meM to 500 ja kheyA che ane Ape 5000 kheyA che!" je e nekara eTaluM ja nakkI karI le ke--mane je A zeTha rajA Apaze, te huM bIje nekarI zeAdhI laIza, paNa mAre mArA zeThane jarA samajAvI devuM joIe.'-te e dhIre rahIne paNa, zeThane khyAla Ave, evuM kahI paNa de ne? keIka vAra evA prasaMgamAM paNa lAbha thaI jAya che. kahevAya che ke-eka bahu ugra prakRtinA amaladAranuM mAnasa, AvA ja prasaMgamAM, enI karaDInA zabdothI badalAI gayuM. eNe amaladArI mUkI dIdhI ane saMnyastapaNuM svIkArI lIdhuM. mAnasaparivartana aMge udAharaNaH e prasaMga viSe, evuM khyAlamAM che ke-eka amaladAre pitAnI sagavaDa sAcavavAne mATe, eka bAIne nekara tarIke rAkhI hatI. e bAI, enA gharanI sAphasuphI vagerenuM kAma karatI hatI. e amaladArane mATenuM bichAnuM paNa e bAI bichAvatI hatI. amaladAra bahu kaDaka svabhAvane che, e
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________________ - -- -- - - -- -- - --- - - --- --- -- -- -- cAra gatinAM kAraNe e bAIne khyAla hatuM eTale, e amaladAranuM dareka kAma e bAI bahu ekasAIthI karatI hatI. reja e bAI e amaladAranuM bichAnuM bahu kALajIthI bichAvatI hatI. temAM, eka divasa e bAIe bichAnuM bichAvyA pachIthI, e bichAnA upara najara pheravI ane ene e bichAnA upara meha thaI gaye. bichAnuM mulAyama paNa hatuM ane sArI rItie bichAveluM paNa hatuM, eTale e bAIne e bichAnA upara suI javAnuM mana thaI gayuM. e bAIne, e bichAnA upara suI levAnI IcchA eTalI badhI prabaLa thaI gaI ke-eNe vicAra karyo ke haju zeThane AvavAne vAra che, mATe Aje te jarA bichAnAnI meja mANI lauM ane pachI zeThane mATe pharI sApha karI laIza. A vicAra karIne, tarata ja e bAI bichAnA upara suI gaI ane e bAIne e bichAnAnI mIThAzanuM ghena evuM caDhI gayuM ke-e bAI kSaNa mAtramAM uMghI gaI. moha kyAre ane kevI rItie mANasane paTakI de che, e vicAravA jevuM che. e bichAnAne e bAI reja bichAvatI hatI ane te AvI ja rItie bichAvatI hatI. Aje kazuM ya navuM pAtharyuM-karyuM nahotuM; chatAM paNa, e bichAnAne meha, e bAIne Aje ja kema thaI gayo ? roja, e enA kAmanI dhunamAM haya, eTale bichAnuM bichAvI rahe ke tarata cAlatI thAya ane bIjA kAme vaLagI jAya. Aje e bAI e bichAnA upara najara pheravavAne mATe jarA ubhI rahI ane jyAM jarA najara karavAne ubhI rahI ke-aMdara rahela meha saLavaLyo. AvuM mulAyama ane svaccha bichAnuM ! AnA upara sunArane
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________________ pahelA bhAga 69 kevI majA Ave ?' ane AveA vicAra karAvIne, meha evA ya vicAra karAvI de ke' huM paNa A majA cAkhI teA lauM !' vicAra tA AtmA pote ja kare che, paNa aMdara rahelA mAha AtmAne AvA vicAra karavAnI dizA sujhADe che! tamane, mehanA AvA anubhava thAya che ke nahi ? divasamAM keTalI ya vAra jIvane vividha svarUpe mehanA AvA prakAranA anubhava thAya che; parantu, meAhanA A anubhavane, meha jayAre bahu joradAra hoya che tyAre, jIva mehanA anubhava tarIke pichAnI paNa zakatA nathI. mAha prabaLa hoya, to mANasa, chatI AMkhe AMdhaLA ane ane chatI buddhie evakUpha bane; eTaluM ja nahi, paNa e AtmAne meAha pA evA vicAra karavAnI dizAe paNa prere ke- huM je karI rahyo chuM, te ThIka ja karI rahyo chuM.? meAha nacAve tema AtmA nAce ane ene khyAla paNa Ave nahi ke- mAha mane nacAvI rahyo che. ' jema, dArUnA nazAmAM mANasa bhAnabhUlA ane che, tema AtmA, meAhanA nazAmAM bhAnabhUlA ane che. ' huM AtmA chuM, huM ananta jJAnAdi guNAne dharanArA chuM ane karmanAM AvaraNAe ja mane ajJAna Adi manAvI dIdheA che. ' AvA khyAla sarakhA paNu, AtmAne, te jyAM sudhI mAThunA nazAmAM magna heAya che tyAM sudhI, AvI zakatA nathI. dArU pIdhela mANasane, jyAre nazAnI asara utaravA mAMDe che, tyAre ja tene kAMIka bhAna Ave che; chatAM, jyAM sudhI dArUnA nazAnI asara hoya che, tyAM sudhI e sIdhe raste paNa lathaDIyAM khAtA khAtA ja cAlI zake che. e ja rItie, meAhanuM jora jyAre
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNeA amuka aMze ghaTI jAya che, tyAre ja AtmAne peAtAnA svarUpane kAMIka paNa sAcA khyAla AvI zake che ane te pachIthI paNa jayAM sudhI mAhanI asara nIce AtmA hoya che, tyAM sudhI te lathaDIyAM khAyA ja kare che. 70 Aje, ApaNane khyAla che ke huM, te AtmA chuM; anantajJAnAdi guNAmAM ramavuM, e mArA svabhAva che; ane, karmInA AvaraNAnA kAraNe ja huM ajJAna Adi chuM.' e sUcave che. ke--ApaNA mAhanI prakhalatA ghaNI ghaTI gayelI che; parantu, ATaluM jANavA chatAM paNa, ApaNA meha ApaNane kayAre kayAre ane kayAM kayAM nacAvI jAya che, te jo ApaNe jANI zakIe nahi agara to tene khyAla AvI jAya te paNa, pAchA bhUlAvAmAM paDI jaie ane lathaDIyAM khAI jaIe, teA e pratApa, meAhanA nazAnI je asara hajI paNa AtmA upara che, tenA che ! . AtmAnA, bhayaMkaramAM bhayaMkara koTinA koI duzmana hoya, tA te meAha che. meAhanI paravazatAthI mUkAyA pachIthI ja, mAhuthI mUkAvAne purUSArtha thaI zake che ane e purUSArthanA pratApe jee mAhathI sarvathA mukta anI jAya che, teonA ananta jJAnAdi guNA, antarmuhUtta mAtramAM ja pragaTI jAya che ane e bhavanA antu e AtmAe zrI siddhAvasthAne pAme che. eTale, ApaNane ApaNA hitamAM, meTAmAM meTA nannura rUpa kAI hAya, te te ApaNA peAtAne meha ja che; chatAM paNu, ApaNA meAhanI sAme ApaNI AMkha lAla thatI nathI ne ? mehanI sAthe te ApaNane gela karavAnuM mana thaI jAya che ne ? meAhanA hukama chUTaco, eTale ApaNI te| meAhane tAme
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________________ pahelA bhAga 71 - thavAnI ja taiyArI che ne ? haju te ApaNe, meAhanA hukamanI jANe rAha jotA rahetA hAie, evI dazA che ne ? pachI, mAha muMjhave temAM navAI che ? tamane samajAya che ketamArI dazA AvA prakAranI che ? meAhanI sAme lAla AMkha karanArA paNa, jo jarAka gaphalatamAM paDI jAya, teA mAha ene muMjhavI mAre che ane emAM jo e cetI jAya nahi, tA meha ane phrI pAchA peAtAnA nazAmAM cakacUra banAvI de che, tA meAhanI sAthe gela karavAnuM jemane mana thaI jAya che, temane mAha kayAre pAchA bhAnabhUlA banAvI deze, tenI cintA paNa thAya che kharI ? kAI paNa prakAranuM viSayasukha jene AkarSI zake, tene meAhanI cuMgAlamAM AvI jatAM vAra lAge nahi. pelI khAine peAtAnA zeThanA bichAnAnA sparzasukhe AkarSI ane e sAvaceta ane tyAM sudhImAM te, mAhe tene samajAvI dIdhuM ke hajI zeThane AvavAne vAra che, mATe tuM tArI meLe A majenA sparzasukhane lAgavI le ne !' e rItie meAhe samajAvI devAthI e sui gai, eTale mAhane jora karavAnI taka maLI gai ne ? pachI thAya che, AvI sArI pathArImAMthI ekadama te kAMI uDI javAtuM haze ?'-evI preraNA, mAhe e mAine ApI dIdhI. eTale, e khAI tarata e pathArImAMthI uDI zakI nahi ane emAM te khIcArIne uMgha AvI gaI. uMgha AvI gayA pachIthI, kAMI samayanA khyAla rahe che ? e khAI uMghyA ja karatI hatI, tyAM te, vakhata thayA eTale pelA amaladAra, ke je e khAI nA zeTha hatA, te ghare
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________________ 72 cAra gatinAM kAraNe AvyuM. enI najara jevI bichAnA upara paDI ane temAM pitAnI nokaraDI bAI sutelI che-evuM jaNAyuM, ke tarata ' ja ene ene samajAvI dIdhuM ke-"tArI pathArImAM bIjA keIthI suvAya ja kema? ane temAM paNa, nokaraDIthI te paga paNa mUkAya kema ?" AvuM e amaladAranA AtmAne samajAvI daIne, enA mehe, krodha nAmanA pitAnA baLavAna nekarane, e amaladAranA AtmAnI sevAmAM barAbara che dIdhe. e krodha, e amaladAranA AtmAne sUcave che ke- Ama joI zuM rahyo che? le A haMTara hAthamAM ane ThekavA mAMDa enA zarIra upara ! amaladAre, haMTarane hAthamAM laIne pelI uMghatI bAI upara ThokavA mAMDyuM! eka cAbakhe paDatAMnI sAthe ja e bAI jAgI gaI, gabharAI gaI, palaMganI nIce utarI paDI, mAphI mAgavA lAgI, karagaravA lAgI. paNa e amaladAranA AtmAne krodha kahe che ke-"e to karagare, paNa ema te kAMI choDI devAya ? kevI gaMbhIra bhUla? tArA bichAnA upara suI javAnI hiMmata, AvI eka nekaDI kare ? AvuM calAvI levAya? AnI to evI khabara laI nAkhavI joIe keAvuM kAma kadI paNa karavAnI, e enI jIMdagImAM be bhUlI jAya !" ane e amaladAre e bAIne cAbakhA upara cAbacA ThekavAnuM cAlu ja rAkhyuM. thaDAka cAbakhA paDyA, tyAM sudhI te bAI karagarI, bahu karagarI, cIse pADI pADIne raDavA lAgI ane mAphI mAgavA lAgI; paNa pelAe te cAbakhA mAravAnuM kAma cAlu ja rAkhyuM; emAM e bAIne eka e vicAra AvI gayo,
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________________ pahelA bhAga * ke je vicAranA ceAge e khAI raDatI, karagaratI, cIseA pADatI ekadama adha thaI gaI ane khaDakhaDATa hasavA lAgI. A tA, eka navAI nA viSaya gaNAya ne ? vadhu raDavAnA ThekANe raDatI baMdha thaI jAya ane hasavA mAMDe, eTale navuM dRzya najare paDe ne ethI vicAradizA badalAya, evuM mane ne ? amaladAranA hAtha ekadama thaMbhI gayA, kema ke-A navuM zuM che, te jANavAnuM kautuka jAgyuM ! 73 " amaladAra e khAIne pUche che ke- tuM raDatI hatI, temAMthI ekadama hasavA kema lAgI ? huM to tane mArce ja jatA hatA, tyAre vadhAre raDavAne badale tuM hasI kema ?' bAI kahe che ke- mane eka evA vicAra AnyA, ke jevicAranA yeAge mArI vedanAne huM visarI zakI ane mArUM mana zAnta thaI gayuM.' amaladAra kahe che ke tane ze| vicAra AbyA ?' khAI kahe che ke- mane tamArA ja vicAra AvyeA. tame mane uMdhuM ghAlIne mAravA mAMDI hatI, ethI pahelAM te mane thayuM ke-meM ghaNI gaMbhIra bhUla karI che, eTale mArA zeTha gusse thAya ane mane mAre, temAM navAi jevuM nathI; paNa pachI meM tamArI pAse karagarI-karagarIne mAphI mAgI, chatAM paNa jyAre tame jarA ya dayALu banyA nahi, tamArA mArathI mArI zI hAlata thaze-tenA ya tame vicAra sarakhA ya karyo nahi ane mane lAgyuM ke-tame bahu kaDaka svabhAvanA cheA eTale kadAca mane jIvatI mUkazeA nahi, AthI mane tamArA upara mahu gussA AvyA; paNa pachI pAchuM meM mana vALyuM ke-zeThane je karavuM hoya, te karI levA dene? tane te zeThe sajA karI lIdhI
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________________ 74 cAra gatinAM kAraNe eTale tuM te chUTI, paNa zeThanI te dazA ja bhUMDI thavAnI che ane te tArA karatAM keINa vadhAre! kAraNa ke AvI pathArImAM tuM je eka divasane mATe ane te paNa thoDAka ja vakhatane mATe suI gaI. te tenI tane AvI AkarI sajA maLe che, te zeTha te A pathArImAM ja ane te paNa kalAkonA kalAko sudhI suI jAya che, eTale A pathArInA meha badala emane jyAre sajA thaze, tyAre te keTalI badhI thaze? AvA bhAvanuM kahyA pachIthI, e bAI, chevaTamAM pitAnA zeThane kahe che ke "tamane pUratI sajA thavAnI che e mane vicAra Avyo, eTale mane hasavuM AvyuM ! mane thayuM keATalI sajAmAM tuM zAnI raDe che ? ghaNuM ghaNuM raDaze te paNa mAramAMthI chUTaze nahi, e kharekhara vakhata te tArA A zeThane mATe AvavAne che, mATe dhIraja dhara !" bAI je vakhate A badhI vAta kahI rahI hatI, te vakhate pele amaladAra, enA vicAranI vAtane sAMbhaLatAM sAMbhaLatAM, potAnA vicAramAM garakAva banI gayo hato. e vakhate, enA mehanuM jora ochuM thaI javA pAmyuM hatuM, eTale ene ema thaI gayuM ke A nokaraDI bAImAM jeTalI akkala che, teTalI akkala paNa mArAmAM nathI ! gussAmAM ne gussAmAM, huM keTakeTalA gunhAo karUM chuM ? keIne ya gunhAne huM nathI sahana karI zakato, to pachI mArA A badhA gunhAone ke sahana karI zakaze? je di kudarata rUThaze ane mane mArA karelA A badhA gunhAonI sajA maLe-evuM te nirmANa karaze, te di mArI zI hAlata thaze?" A vicAra AvatAMnI sAthe ja, e amaladAre, e
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________________ pahele bhAga 75. bAInI mAphI mAgI ane kahyuM ke "Aja tuM mArI gurU banI ! tArA A upakArane huM jIMdagImAM kadI paNa nahi bhUlI zakuM !" Ama kahIne ane bAIne sArI rItie saMtoSa ApIne vidAya karyo pachIthI, e amaladAre vicAra karavA mAMDyo ke mane ATalo badhe bhAnabhUlo, kUra ane dareka gunhAmAM pAvara kese banAvyo? A amaladArIe ane IndriyasukhanI mArI lAlasAe ! basa, nahi joIe AmAMnuM kAMI !" ane, evA vicArathI, e amaladAra karIne ane gharabArane choDIne saMnyAsI banI gaye. 1. tamane A keI nekara maLe che? nasIba joIe ne? kadAca A keI nekara maLI jAya, te AvA kaI prasaMgathI tamArA mAnasanuM parivartana thaI jAya, e ya zakya che? pitAnI bhUla vakhate ane pArakI bhUla vakhate vicAraNAmAM keTaluM attara rahe che? ATaluM sAMbhaLyA pachIthI ya, tamane lAge che ke-nAnA mANasanI bhUla ochI AMkavI? tamArA hAtha nIcenA keIthI paNa, game tevI bhUla thaI jAya, te paNa te vakhate enI bhUla viSe dhIratAthI vicAra kare ane enI sAthe e bhUla badala udAratAthI kAma levuM, e phAyadAkAraka che-ema tame mAne che kharA? AjathI te nakkI kare ke-pArakI bhUlane nAnI banAvIne jevI ane potAnI bhUlane meTI banAvIne jevI! tamArAthI bhUla thaI gaI hoya ane te mATe tamane koI pUche, te tame keTalA bacAva kare? bhUlane sAva InakAra thaI zake tema na hoya,
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________________ 76 cAra gatinAM kAraNA A tA bhUlane kabUla karavA chatAM ya, 'A bhUla bhUlamAM gaNI zakAya tevI nathI'-evuM ThasAvavAnA prayatna karo kharA ne ? cAle tyAM sudhI tA, 'kahevAtI bhUla, e bhUla ja nathI'-evuM ThasAvavAnA ane emAM phAvaTa Ave tema na heAya, teA * e bhUla chatAM paNa e bhUla evA saMyeAgAmAM thayelI che ke-vastutaH e bhUla gaNAya nahi'-evuM ThasAvavAnA, prayatna karavAmAM tame bAkI rAkhA kharA ? dhAro ke-eTaeTalA khacAvA karavA chatAM paNu, tamArA bacAvAne sAmethI lakSyamAM levAmAM Ave nahi ane sajA karavAmAM Ave, te te vakhate tame babaDavAmAMthI ya jAva kharA ? 'mane anyAya karyAM'-evuM kAMIka khelyA vinA rahI zake kharA ? tamane jo A badhA adhikAra che, tA bIjAne Avo koi adhikAra che ja nahui, ema mAnavAnI mUrkhAI zuM kAma kare che? tamane bhUla karavAnA sayeAge Ave, athavA tA, saMceAgeA tamArI pAse bhUla karAvI zake, te tamArAthI je nAnA hAya, temane temanA saMyeAgA bhUla karAve ja nahi, ema kema manAya ? kharI vAta teA e che kemANase peAtAnI bhUlanA bacAvo nahi zeAdhatAM, AvA saMceAgAmAM paNa mAre bhUla naheAtI karavI joitI.'-evo vicAra karIne, bhUlane sudhAravAnA prayAsa karavo joIe; ane jyAM bIjAnI bhUlanI vAta Ave, tyAM enI vAtane dhIrajathI sAMbhaLavI joie, udAratAthI enA saMyAgAnA vicAra karavA joIe ane ene AzvAsana ApavAnI sAthe, enA pratye dayALu anyA rahIne, e je rItie sudharI zake tema hoya, te rItinA upAyA ceAjavA joI e. dASita pratye krUra bananArAe dASitane sudhArI zake kharA ? dASitane sudhAravo e kAma krUratAnuM che ke dayAnuM che ? jarA vicAra teA karo !
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________________ pahelA bhAga e A tAraka sAdhanAne pAmIne ya anaMtA DUbyA, te ema zAthI anyuM te zAdhavu joie ne? ApaNI cAlu vAta tA e hatI ke ApaNane je kAMi paNa sArAM sAdhanA maLyAM che, tenA ApaNe muktinI sAdhanAne mATe upayega karavAnA lakSyavALA banI javuM joie. AtmAnI lAyakAta vinA, muktinAM sAdhanA paNa muktine mATe anI zakatAM nathI. muktinAM sAdhanA paNa, jeNe tene muktine mATe banAvavAM hoya, tene ja mATe te sAdhanA muktinAM sAdhanA khanI zake che. muktinAM sAdhanAne paNa jene saMsArane mATe banAvavAM hAya, tene mATe te saMsAranAM banI zake che. muktinAM sAdhanAmAM tAkAta adbhuta che, paNa je AtmAne muktinA khapa ja na heAya, tene e sAdhanA ze| upakAra karI zake ? sAdhaka ane sAdhana-bannenA suyeAga joI e. ApaNe te jANIe chIe ke-A eghAne ane A dvAdazAMgIne pAmIne paNa, anantA AtmAe DUbI gayA che. A egho ane A dvAdazAMgI tAranAra che ke DUbADanAra che ? AnA svabhAva tA tAravAne ja. jIvAne saMsArasAgarane tarI javAne mATenuM, A sarvottama sAdhana che. AvA tAranArA sAdhanane pAmelA paNa DUbyA, ema ApaNe sAMbhaLIe, tyAre ApaNane ema thAya te kharUM ne ke--AvAM AvAM sundara sAdhanAne pAmIne paNa je taryA nahi ane DUbI gayA, teomAM zI khAmI hatI ? ApaNane eTale teA vizvAsa che ne ke-A sAdhanA khAmI vinAnAM che? A sAdhanAmAM AtmAne tAravAnuM pUrepUrUM sAmarthya che ane ApaNe jo taravuM hAya, te ApaNe A sAdhaneAne ja sevavAM e
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNeA jarUrI che, A vAtamAM teA zaMkA nathI ne ? te pachI, jyAre tame ema sAMbhaLe ke- A sAdhanAne pAmIne jema anantA AtmA tarI gayA che, tema anantA AtmAe A sAdhanA dvArA ja DUbI paNa gayA che'-tyAre tamane eTale vicAra te| Ave ne-ke--sAdhana AvAM sArAM, jene taravuM hAya tene kadI paNa tAryA vinA rahe nahi evAM, AtmAnA kalyANane karanArAM sAdhane A sivAyanAM kaI hoI zake ja nahi, chatAM paNa, A sAdhanAne pAmIne ya jIvA A sAdhanA dvArA DUbI gayA, te temAM kAraNa zuM ?' sAdhaneAmAM khAmI nathI, chatAM khAmIthI ja je piraNAma Ave tevuM pariNAma Ave che, te e khAmI kathAM che ane e khAmI kayI che, e zeAdhI kADhavuM joie ne ? sAdhanAmAM khAmI na hoya, teA pachI sAdhakamAM khAmI che, ema mAnavuM paDe ne ? Ama, jyAre tame nakkI karA ke-A dvArA jeo DUbyA, teonA DUbavAnA kAraNamAM te AtmAenI pAtAnI ja khAmI hatI, te te khAmI kayI hatI-e viSe paNa tamAre nirNaya karavA paDe ne ? ane evI koI khAmI mArAmAM che ke nahi, e paNa jovuM paDe ne ? je bhayaMkara vastue anaMtAne DUmAvyA, te vastu mArAmAM che ke nahi ! -evA vicAra AvyA che ? 78 ApaNe tAraka sAdhaneAnA cegamAM AvI gayA chIe, emAM be mata nathI. ApaNAthI jeTale aMze banI zake che, teTale aMze athavA tA thADA aMze ke vadhAre aMze paNa, ApaNuM valaNa, A sAdhanAne sevavA tarapha che--emAM paNa e mata nathI. AvAM sAdhanAmAM beThelA ApaNane, jyAre ema
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________________ pahele bhAga 79 jANavA maLe ke-"A sAdhane jene jene maLI gayAM, te te badhA tarI ja gayA che evuM nathI. A sAdhanane pAmIne tarI janArAonI saMkhyA jema anantanI che, tema A sAdhanane pAmIne DUbI janArAonI saMkhyA paNa anantanI ja che." tyAre ApaNe jarA cekIe te kharA ne ? ApaNane ema te thAya ne ke "AvAM sundara sAdhane A sAdhanane koI anAge paNa seve, te ya puNya baMdhAyA vinA rahe nahi; karmanI sthiti ghaTIne jyAM sudhI eka kaDAkaDI sAgaropamathI paNa kAMIka ochI na thAya, tyAM sudhI te A sAdhanene sevavAnuM banI zake ja nahi; anantA AtmAo, A sAdhanAne sevate sevata, saMsAramAM rahyA tyAM sudhI sArI gatine tathA sukhanI sAmagrIne pAmyA ane ane mokSe gayA; jeo vItarAga , banyA tathA anantajJAnI banyA, teoe jagatanA jIvane A sAdhanene sevavAmAM ja udyamazIla banavAne upadeza Ape ane A sAdhanane sevavAnI rIta paNa evI ke-je keIne A sAdhanene sevavAM hoya, tene e che-vadhate aMze paNa pApakriyAone cheDyA vinA, amuka aMze paNa viSayasukhane choDyA vinA tathA kaSAyo upara kAbU meLavyA vinA te chUTake thAya ja nahi; AvAM sundara sAdhanene pAmavA chatAM paNa, jJAnio jyAre spaSTapaNe ema pharamAve che ke A sAdhanA kega dvArA anantA DULyA paNa che, te AnuM kAraNa zuM?"tame jarAka lakSyavALA bane, te tamane A vicAra AvyA vinA rahe nahi! tamane ema thaI jAya ke-"saMsAramAM evI te kayI bhayaMkara vastu hayAti dharAve che, ke je vastu, AvAM sundara sAdhanonA vegane ane AvAM sundara sAdhanonI
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________________ 80 cAra gatinAM kAraNe sevAne pAmanArane paNa, saMsAramAM rUlAvI de?" A vicAra zA mATe Ave? kevaLa jANavAne mATe nahi, paNa A vastune jANIne, ApaNAmAM te vastu che ke nahi-te jovAne mATe ane je ApaNAmAM e vastu hoya, to tene kADhI nAkhavAno prayatna karI zakAya, e mATe A vicAra Ave ne? ApaNane ca evI bIka na lAge ke-"A sAdhanone pAmavA ane sevavA chatAM paNa jema anantA AtmAo saMsAramAM ravaDI maryA, tema ApaNe paNa ravaDI marIe, evuM te ApaNAmAM kAMI che nahi ne?" ApaNe jJAnI heIe, te ApaNane AvI bIka na lAge, paNa ApaNe jJAnI na hoIe, te ApaNane AvI bIka to lAge ne ? ane AvI bIka lAge, eTale"ATalAM badhAM sundara sAdhanone pAmanArA ane sevanArA paNa anantA AtmAone kyI vastue saMsAramAM rUlAvI dIdhA"--e jANavAnuM mana paNa thAya ja ne? tamane kadI paNa AvuM mana thayuM che kharuM? tAraka sAdhanane thoDA pramANamAM seve ke avidhithI seve, eTalA mAtrathI ja saMsAramAM rUle nahi ? sa0 sAdhano sArAM maLyAM hoya, paNa e sAdhanone eTale upayoga kare joIe teTalo upayoga karI zakAyo na hAya, thoDAka ja upaga karI zakAye hoya ane je upayoga karAyo hoya, te paNa avidhi sAthe karAyo hoya, te A sAdhanane pAmavA tathA sevavA chatAM paNa DUbI marAya ne ? A tAraka sAdhanone pAmavA chatAM ane sevavA chatAM paNuM, je anantA AtmAo A saMsAramAM DUbI gayA, te
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________________ 81 pahele bhAga tame kaho cho tevA kAraNasara ja DUbI gayA nathI ! tame be vAta kahI. eka vAta te e ke-A sAdhanone upaga bahu thoDo karyo ane bIjI vAta e ke-eTale upayoga karyo, teTalo upaga paNa avidhi sAthe karAyo ! A kAraNomAM pitAmAM, evI tAkAta che ja nahi ke-e kAraNe AtmAne taravA daI zake ja nahi ane DUbAvI ja de! A tAraka sAdhanA egamAM ane A tAraka sAdhanonI sevAnA yogamAM paNa, je cIja AtmAne saMsAramAM rUlAvanArI bane che, te te kaI bIjI ja cIja che. jenAmAM "A tAraka sAdhana ja sevavA lAyaka che, ane A manuSyajanmane pAmIne mAre jo kAMI paNa sevavA lAyaka hoya, te te A tAraka sAdhana ja che - AvA prakAranI manovRtti hoya, tevA paNa jIvane mATe, zakti ane sAmagrI AdinA pUratA bheganA abhAve tathA viratinA pariNAmamAM aMtarAya karanAra karmanA tevA prakAranA udaye, evuM paNa bane ke-e jIva A tAraka sAdhano A jIvanamAM jeTaluM upayoga karI levAnI bhAvanAvALo hoya, teTalo upaga karI zake nahi ane vidhine sevavAnI tathA avidhine nahi AcaravAnI bhAvana hovA chatAM paNa, saMgavaza avidhi thaI gayA vinA paNa rahe nahi ! evA saMyogomAM, jIva saMsAramAM DUbI jAya nahi ! e jIvanI to, niyamA sadgati thAya ane eNe je kAMI ArAdhanA karI hoya, eNe A tAraka sAdhanonI je kAMI sevA karI hoya, te sevA tene bhavAntaramAM A tAraka sAdhanonI zuddha sevAne pamADanArI bane. kema? kare joIe teTale upaga nathI karI zakAye, paNa bhAvanA to pUrepUro upayoga thAya evI ja che; ane avidhi thaI jatI hovA chatAM paNa,
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________________ 82 cAra gatinAM kAraNo haiyAmAM vidhibahumAnane bhAva paNa barAbara che ! eTale, e prakAre jeo A tAraka sAdhanAnI theDIka ane te ya avidhinI sAthe sevA karatA hoya, teo eTalA mAtrathI saMsAramAM rUlI jAya nahi! e jene te nistAra sadhAya, kAraNa ke vidhinA bahumAnapUrvakanI thoDI paNa sArI kriyA, vikAsamAM addabhuta sahAya kare che, eTale pariNAme e jIvane mekSa maLyA vinA rahetuM nathI. jIvana dharmakriyAmaya bane evuM karavAnuM manamAM te kharuM ne ? A vAtamAM, tamAre ghaNe bacAva thaI jAya che ne ? tame dharmakiyA ochA pramANamAM kare che ane saMsArakriyA vadhu pramANamAM kare che, eTale tame saMsAramAM rUlI javAnA -ema kahevAya nahi; agara te, tame je dharmakriyA kare che te avidhithI kare che, eTale paNa tame saMsAramAM rUlI javAnA ema kahevAya nahi; kema ke tame je dharmakriyA nathI karatA, te dharmakiyA tamAre nathI karavI mATe nathI karatA-evuM paNa nathI ane je dharmakriyA tame kare che, temAM je avidhi AcarAya che, te avidhine AcaravAne mATe tame AcaratA nathI. tame jo sarva kALe dharmakiyA karI zake, te ethI tamane AnaMda thAya ne? tamAruM mana evuM te kharuM ne ke-A jIMdagInI eka kSaNa paNa je dharmakriyAthI rahitapaNe jAya nahi, te bahu sAruM? tame bhale dharmakiyA bahu ochA pramANamAM karI zake che, paNa je tamane evA saMge sAMpaDI jAya ke jIvanamAM dharmakriyA sivAyanI keIkiyA tamAre karavI ja paDe nahi, te tamane ethI bahu AnaMda thAya ne? kema ke-dharmakriyA thaDI
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________________ 83 pahele bhAga thAya che, te paNa je dharmakriyA thAya che, temAM tamane evA AnaMda Ave che ke-ghaNuM pramANamAM ane ghaNe vakhata saMsArakiyAne karatA rahevA chatAM paNa, emAM tamane e AnaMda te Avato ja nathI! pelI kiyA ghaNI thAya, chatAM manamAM ema thAya che ke-nahi karavAnI kriyA thAya che ane ethI emAM mana TharatuM hatuM. emAM AnaMda AvI jAya che, te paNa, e AnaMda thavA tarapha aNagame upaje che! jyAre dharmakriyA thAya che theDI, chatAM manamAM ema thAya che ke-huM A kiyA vadhAre karI zakuM te sAruM, kema ke-mAre karavA lAyaka te A ja kriyA che; eTale, theDI paNa dharmakiyAmAM AnaMda ghaNe Ave che ane e AnaMdanI anumodanA karavAnuM mana thAya che ! hamaNAM e vAta nathI ke-tame saMsArakiyA ghaNI kema kare che ane dharmakiyA theDI kema kare che ? mAnI laIe ke-hAla tamAre mATe AthI vadhAre sArI anukULatA nathI; eTale, tame tamArA jIvanane saMsArakiyAthI para ane dharmakiyAmaya banAvI de, e vAtane gauNa banAvI dIdhI che; paNa manamAM evuM to kharuM ja ne ke-kayAre e samaya AvI lAge, ke jyAre mAruM jIvana saMsArakiyAthI sarvathA para banI jAya ane dharmakriyAthI bharapUra banI jAya? evA saMganI rAha jotA ja tame beThA che ne? bhagavAna zrI jinezvara antima bhavamAM mehane AdhIna banIne saMsAramAM rahyA nathI : zuddha samyagdaSTi AtmA, saMsArane seve ja nahi ane je kaI saMsArane sevato hoya, te samyagdaSTi hoI zake ja
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNo nahi"--evuM vidhAna, bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradenA zAsanamAM che ja nahi. zuddha samyagdaSTi AtmA paNa saMsArane seva hAya, te e banavAjoga che; paraMtu zuddha samyagdaSTi AtmA saMsArane seve, te paNa saMsArathI chUTavAne mATe seve ! seve saMsAra ane sAdhe nirjarA, evuM paNa zuddha samyagdaSTi AbhAone mATe bane che. sasaMsArane seve ne karmanirjarA sAdhe ? hA, keTalAka jIne dharmapariNAma sarvottama madhura rasa je paNa hoya che. seve saMsArane ane sAthe karmanirjarA, e vastune taddana azakya mAnanArAoe, bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradeva pitAnA antima bhAvamAM je bhega bhegave te mehAdhInatAthI bhegave che, ema mAnavuM paDaze ane zAstrakAra mahApurUSa te pharamAve che ke-e tArake pitAnA tevA prakAranA karmanI nirjarA sAdhavAne mATe ja jarUrI lAge te bhaga paNa bhogave che. e tArakenuM lakSya bhegasukha nathI hatuM, paNa kamanI nirjarA sAdhavI, e hoya che. traNa nirmaLa jJAnane dharanArA ane parama virAgamAM jhIlatA evA e tArakone paNa viSayasukha AkarSe che, ema kahevuM e narI bAlIzatA che. e tArake saMsAramAM jeTale kALa nirgamana kare che, te mahAdhInatAthI ja kare che-ema kahenArAe, kAM te zAstrone bhaNyA nathI ane zAstrone bhaNyA che te zAstronA marmane pAmyA nathI athavA te, ghera pApanA udayathI, teone bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevene mehAdhIna TharAvavAnI durbuddhi jAgI che. jIvane saMsAramAM rAkhanArUM mehanIya karma che. mehanIya karmanA udaya vinA, jIva saMsAramAM rahI zake ja nahi. bhagavAna zrI
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________________ pahele bhAga jinezvaradeve jeTalo kALa saMsAramAM rahyA, teTale kALa e tArakene paNa mehanIya karmane udaya vartate ja hatA, paNa e tArA pitAnA e mehanIya karmanA udayane AdhIna banelA nahotA. udayamAM vartatA pitAnA mehanIya karmane khapAvavAne mATe ja, e tArake saMsAramAM rahe che. A rItie saMsAramAM rahe, te mohane AdhIna thaIne saMsAramAM rahyA -ema kahevAya kharuM? bhagavAna antima bhAvamAM paraNe, te zA mATe paraNe? bhoga bhogave, te zA mATe bhogave ? mahApurUSoe spaSTa khUlAse karyo ke-pitAnuM tevA prakAranuM karma je e ja upAya dvArA, eTale ke-paraNavA dvArA ja agara te bhoga bhogavavA dvArA ja nirjare ema che, evuM e tArakane lAge, te ja e tArake paraNe ane bhoga bhogave ! e sivAya te, e tArake paraNe paNa nahi ane bhoga bhogave paNa nahi ! je tIrthaMkaradevone paraNavAnI jarUra nahi hatI ane bhoga bhogavavAnI jarUra nahi hatI, e tArakene jyAre e tArakenA saMbaMdhioe paraNavAne Agraha karavA mAMDyo che ane e Agraha karatAM karatAM, jyAre temaNe je tIrthakara bhagavAne paraNyA hatA te tArakonAM udAharaNo ApyAM che, tyAre A tArakoe khUlAse karyo che ke-"emanAM caritrone huM jANuM chuM. emane evA prakAranuM karma hatuM ke paraNavA AdithI ja nirjare, e mATe e paraNyA ane mAre evA prakAranuM karma nathI, mATe mAre paraNavAnI jarUra nathI !" eTale, dekhItI rItie sevAya saMsAra ane vastutaH sadhAtI hoya karmanirjarA, e vastune je sarvathA azakya ja mAnI levAmAM Ave, to ApaNe bhagavAnanAM vacanane ja juThThAM mAnavAM paDe !
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________________ 86 cAra gatinAM kAraNe saMsArane bhAgavavA chatAM paNa brahmacArInuM ane khAvA chatAM paNa upavAsInuM eka udAharaNa : samyagdarzana guNanA mahimA kAi gajabanA che. je AtmAmAM e guNa pragaTyo hoya, te AtmAemAM ja sarvottama madhura rasa samAna sundara keTanA dharmapariNAma pragaTI zake che. je sabhyaSTi AtmAomAM evA sundara dharmapariNAma pragaTe che, teo jo saMsAramAM rahe che, saMsArane bhogave che, te te paNa saMsArane kApavAne mATe ja ! zarata eTalI ja ke e dharmapariNAma pramAda rUpa malathI sarvathA rahita hAvA joIe. chellA kevalajJAnI zrI jammUsvAmijI, zrI vajrasvAmijI, zrI pRthvIcandra ane zrI guNusAgara tathA zrI puMDarika rAjA vagerenA dharmapariNAmeA evA sAkara jevA hatA. A saMbaMdhamAM zAstromAM eka sura nAmanA rAjAnI kthA Ave che. sura rAjAnA sAma nAmanA nAnA bhAIe dIkSA lIdhI hatI; ane rAjyanA keAI saMcAlaka nahi hAvAthI, sura rAjA nirUpAye rAjagAdI upara rahyA hatA. eka vAra, peAtAnA muni bhAi vihAra karatA karatA najadIkanA vanamAM padhAryA che, evA samAcAra sura rAjAne maLyA; eTale, te peAtAnA muni bhAine vandana karavAne mATe gayA. muni evA peAtAnA nAnA bhAIne vandana karIne, sura rAjA pAchA pharyAM, eTale e vAtanI rANIne jANa thai. rANIne paNa potAnA dIyara munivarane vandana karavAnI icchA thaI ane te eTalI badhI pramala ke-rANIe tarata ja abhigraha karyo ke AvatI kAle savAre devara munine vandana
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________________ E pahelo bhAga karyA pachIthI ja huM bhojana karIza." A abhigraha karIne, rANI rAtanA suI gaI ane savAre uThI tyAre tenA jANavAmAM AvyuM ke-"je vanamAM devara munirAja che, te vana ane A nagara vacce je nadI che, temAM te pUra AvI gayuM che." nadImAM pANI ghaNuM AvI gayeluM, je vanamAM javuM che te vanamAM javAne bIje kaMI rasto nahi ane pitAne abhigraha ke-devara munivarane vAMdyA vinA khAvuM nahi, eTale rANI ghaNI cintAtura banI gaI. rANIne cittAtura banI gayelI joIne, rAjAe kahyuM ke-"cintA kara nahi! nadInI pAse jaIne kaheje ke-he nadi! mArA dIyare jyArathI vrata grahaNa karyuM che, tyArathI AraMbhIne je mArA patie akhaMDa brahmacaryanuM pAlana karyuM heya, to mArA dIyara munivarane vandana karavAne mATe sAme kinAre javAne IcchatI evI mane, tuM mArga Apa!" rAjAe AvuM kahyuM, eTale rANInA Azcaryane pAra rahyo nahi. pitAnA pati kevA brahmacArI che, e rANuM to jANe ne? rANune rAjAnI e vAtane sAMbhaLIne vicAra paNa AvyuM che ke mArA dIyarajIe vrata lIdhA pachIthI ja A rAjAnI putrasantati mArA dvArA pedA thaI che, chatAM paNa A rAjA AvuM asambaddha kema bese che ?" rANIne AvuM Azcarya paNa thayuM ane A vicAra paNa Ave, paraMtu teNIe e viSayamAM rAjAne kAMI paNa kahyuM ya nahi ane kAMI paNa pUchayuM ya nahi. teNIe e vicAra karIne pitAnA Azcaryane dabAvI dIdhuM ke- atyAre A vikalapa karavAnI jarUra zI che? hamaNAM ja, je haze
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________________ 88 cAra gatinAM kAraNA te jaNAI Avaze. vaLI, pativratA strIoe te pati je kahe te pramANa karavuM joI e, nahi ke--patinA kathananI sAme zaMkA, uThAvavI joI e !' AvI rItie peAtAnA mananuM samAdhAna karI laI ne, rANI peAtAnA devara munivarane vandana karavAne mATe nIkaLI 1 AmAM, tamArI vAta kAMI vicAravA jevI che kharI ? tamArI patnIe AvI rItie tamArA kathanane pramANa karI le kharI ? rANIne rAjAe je kahyuM, te rANIne mATe te pratyakSa ane anubhavasiddha jItyuM che ne ? tamArA gharamAM, tamArA vacanane ATale dheA vizvAsa kadAca na hoya, paNa tamArUM sIdhuM sAduM kathane ya, tamArA gharamAM vizvAsathI manAya che kharUM ? evuM nathI, emAM tame mAtra tamArI patnInA doSa kADho, e ya cAle evuM che? tamArA upara enA vizvAsa keLavAya, evuM tamArUM vartana paNa joie ne ? nahitara, AryapatnI patinA vacanane vizvAsa nahi kare, to keAnA vacananA vizvAsa karaze ? Arya patnIe te evI hAya ke patinI AjJAne ja nahi paNa patinI icchAne ya AdhIna thavAmAM ja kartavya mAne, Aje tA, tamAre, tamAre ghare koI ne jamavA lai jatAM paNa vicAra karavA paDe ne ? kAi TIpamAM nANAM bharatAM paNa vicAra karavA paDe ne ? koI garIba Adine ApavuM hoya, teA keTalAka gharavALInI najarane cUkAvIne Ape che. jANe che ke--jo A joi gaI, to raNasaMgrAma jAmyA vinA rahevAnA nathI. ane AvA saMsAramAM paNu, keTalAkAne bahu rasa Ave che! rANIe teA nadInI pAse jaine, rAjAe nadIne je pramANe kahevAnuM kahyuM hatuM, te pramANe nadIne kahyuM ane nadIne
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________________ pahelo bhAga e pramANe kahetAMnI sAthe ja, nadIe rANIne mArga karI Ape. nadInuM pUra be bhAgamAM vaheMcAI gayuM. rANIne Ama to khAtrI thaI gaI ke-patie je kahyuM hatuM, te taddana sAcuM nivaDayuM; paNa, e sAcuM hoya zI rItie, e vAtano tAgane rANI pAmI zakI nahi ! enA manamAM, have vAtanI saccAI viSe te zaMkA rahI ja nahi, paNa e vAta evI hatI ke-e vAtanuM rahasya jANavAnI IcchA zame ja nahi. rANI te saparivAra nadInA mArgamAMthI sukhe pasAra thaI gaI ane sIdhI ja devara munivaranI pAse pahoMcI. munivarane vaMdanA karIne, te jarA ubhI rahI eTale munivare pUchayuM ke-"nadImAM ghaNuM pUra AveluM che, to tame badhAM ahIM AvI zakyAM zI rItie ?" e prasaMga ja e hato ke-AvuM pUchavAnuM mana thAya, kema ke-Ama banavAmAM kaI vizeSa vAta avazya hevI joIe, ema lAgyA vinA rahe nahi. munivaranA pUchavAthI rANIe je banyuM hatuM te ati jaNAvyuM. badhuM kahIne, rANIe pitAnA devara munivarane pUchyuM ke-"bhagavad ! rAjAmAM brahmacAripaNuM ghaTe zI rItie ?" e vakhate sema nAmanA munivara rANIne kahe che ke rAjAmAM brahmacAripaNuM barAbara ghaTI zake che. meM jyAre vrata grahaNa karyuM, tyAre emanI IcchA paNa vratane ja grahaNa karavAnI hatI, paNa rAjyane bhAra vahI zake-evuM bIjuM kaI hatuM nahi, eTale meM vrata grahaNa karyuM ane rAjAe saMsAramAM rahevAnuM mana nahi hovA chatAM paNa, nirUpAye rAjyane saMbhALyuM. A rItie rAjA tarIke rahevA chatAM paNa, e rAjA jayArathI
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe meM vrata grahaNa karyuM tyArathI, saMsArathI viraktapaNe ane vratane grahaNa karavAnI AkAMkSAmAM ja divaso pasAra kare che ! zAstramAM kahyuM che ke- je strI parapurUSamAM rakta banI hoya che, te strI pitAnA dhaNInI sAthe, tenA upara hRdayane rAga nahi hovA chatAM paNa, jema anukULapaNe varte che, tema tatvamAM rata e cogI saMsArane anukULapaNe varte che. tevI ja rItie, A rAjA, kAdavamAM kamaLa jema nirlepapaNe rahe che tema, gRhavAsamAM nirlepa manathI rahelA che ane ethI te brahmacArI che, e vAta barAbara ghaTe che." devara munivaranA mukhethI Avo khUlAse sAMbhaLIne rANI saMtuSTa thaI pitAne pati A virakta hovA chatAM paNa, pitAne eNe kevI rItie sAcavI che, e vicAra Ave te, ethI paNa enA manane Ananda thAya ne? pachI, rANuM potAnI sAthe lADu Adi je bhakSya padArtho laI AvI hatI, temAMthI teNIe devara munivarane vaherAvyuM. devara munivarane vaherAvIne, rANIe pitAne abhigraha pUrNa karyo ane pote paNa tyAM ne tyAM ja khAI lIdhuM. pachI, pAchA vaLatI veLAe rANIe devara munivarane pUchayuM ke-"have mAre A nadIne kayI rItie utaravI?" | munivare kahyuM ke tyAM jaIne nadIne ema kahevuM keje A muni emaNe jyArathI vrata grahaNa karyuM tyArathI ja upavAsI rahetA hoya, te tuM mane mArga Apa !" A vakhate rANIne Azcarya te thayuM nahi, paNa ema te thayuM ke-haju hamaNAM ja meM medakAdi vaherAvela che ane sAthe keI anya muni nathI, eTale e medakAdi A devara
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________________ pahelo bhAga 91 munie ja vAparelA che; chatAM, teo pote ja potAne sadAne * mATe upavAsI rahelAnuM jaNAve che, te emAM paNa rahasya zuM che, e jANI levuM joIe. rANa tyAMthI nIkaLIne nadInI pAse AvI ane jyAM teNIe devara munivare sUcavyA mujabanuM kahyuM, eTale tarata nadIe teNIne mArga karI Ape. Ama rANuM mahelamAM sukhapUrvaka pAchI AvI gaI. pachI teNIe rAjAne vAta karI ke-"devara munivarane A pramANe meM lADu vagere vaharAvyuM ane ame najadIkamAM ja hatAM te vakhate e munivare badhuM vAparI paNa lIdhuM, chatAM ya e munivare amArI pAse ane nadInI pAse paNa potAne rojanA upavAsI tarIke oLakhAvyA, emAM hetu zuM che? AmaNe vAparyuM te ame jANIe chIe, chatAM e rojanA upavAsI kema kahevAya?" rAjA kahe che ke "devi! tuM mugdha che; dharmanA tatvane tuM jANatI nathI! A mahAtmA khAya ke na khAya, te paNa banneyamAM samacittavALA che! je munio akRta ane akArita evA zuddha AhArane kare che, te munio rojanA upavAsI ja che!" rAjAe karelA khUlAsAthI, rANIne ghaNe saMtoSa thaye. bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevanA dharmanuM mAhAsya kevuM che, e jANIne rANI dharmamAM daDha banI. rAjA ane munivaranI mAnasika avasthA: e rANIne gaLe te A vAta utarI gaI, paNa tamane A vAta samajAya che ke nahi ? ApaNe vAta te e nakkI
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________________ 92 cAra gatinAM kAraNo karavI che ke-evuM te kayuM kAraNa che, ke je kAraNanA vege jIva dharmanI sAmagrIne sevato hoya, te chatAM paNa, saMsArathI tarI javAne badale saMsAramAM rUlI jAya che? jIva dharmakiyAone ochA pramANamAM karI zake agara je dharmakriyAo kare te avidhi sAthe kare, eTalA mAtrathI ja saMsAramAM rUlI jAya, evuM bane nahi. bhega bhegavanAra chatAM paNa nityanA brahmacArI rAjA ane khAvA chatAM paNa nityanA upavAsI munivara, emAM rAjAmAM zuM hatuM ane munivaramAM zuM hatuM? rAjAnA brahmacAripaNAne vicAra tenA gRhasthapaNAne lakSyamAM rAkhIne ja kare joIe. rAjAe rANIne sevI che e vAta nakkI che, paNa kema sevI? viSayanI sevAmAM e rAjI hato? viSayarasa ene pIDate hato? ke tevA prakAranAM karmone udaya tene e tarapha ghasaDato hato? jyArathI rAjAnA nAnA bhAIe dikSA lIdhI, tyArathI rAjA virAgabhAvamAM ramato rahyo che ane ethI "kyAre huM dIkSA laI zakuM?"--evI ja AkAMkSAne e sevato rahyo che. rAjApaNAnA rasathI eNe rAjyanuM pAlana karyuM nathI, paNa pite je sthAnamAM che, te sthAne pitAnuM kartavya zuM che, te samajIne nirlepapaNe teNe rAjagAdIne sevI che. evI ja rItie, munivare AhAra lIdhe, te zA mATe lIdhe? AhArane grahaNa karavAmAM hetu saMyama ke jIvAne rasa ? sAdhune saMyamanA nirvAhane mATe AhAranI jarUra hoya, chatAM e ke AhAra grahaNa kare? nirdoSa AhAra mATe ja gavepaNa kare ne ? AhAranI jarUra hoya ane nirdoSa AhAra maLI jAya, te ya munivaranuM citta kevuM hoya? te ke-AhAranI jarUra hoya ane nirdoSa AhAra na maLe to paNa jevuM
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________________ 93 pahelA bhAga citta hoya tevuM ! khAya tyAre paNa te citta hoya, ke jena khAya tyAre hAya ane anazana vakhate je citta hoya, te ja citta azana vakhate hAya ! kema ema ? e ya saMyamanI sAdhanA mATe che! emane, khAvuM, e ya saMyamanI sAdhanAne mATe che ane na khAvuM, e ya saMyamanI sAdhanAne mATe ja che! e mATe, bhikSAe jatA munivaranuM- maLe te saMyamapuSTi ane na maLe. tA tapeAvRddhi '-AvA prakAranuM mAnasa hoya che. AvAM tAraka sAdhanA dvArA paNa anaMtA kema DUbyA ? A uparathI ApaNe samajI zakIe chIe ke-saMsA ranA rasa na hoya, mana virAgathI bharapUra hoya ane vratanI AkAMkSA hoya, tA evA jIva nirUpAye gRhasthapaNAne seve e ane; ane nirUpAye gRhasthapaNAne je sevatA hAya, te e rItie gRhasthapaNAmAM rAkhanArUM je karma udayamAM vartatuM hoya tene khapAvatA hoya tathA virAgabhAva ane vratAkAMkSA AdithI khIjA paNa ghaNAM ghaNAM karmonI nirjarA sAdhatA hoya, tamArA haiyAmAM dharmapariNAma AvA prakAranA che ? dharmapariNAmathI ja tame dharmakriyA karo che ne? ane saMsAranI kriyAo karatI vakhate paNa, tamArA dharmapariNAma sajIva rahe che ne ? have AvAM sundara sAdhanAne pAmavA chatAM paNu ane sevavA chatAM paNa je anantA AtmAe saMsAramAM rUlI gayA, tenA kAraNanA nirNaya tame jhaTa karI zakaze!! AvAM sundara sAdhanAne jIva pAmyA hoya ane sevatA ya hAya, paNa haiyAmAM viSayarasa hAMsI ThAMsIne bharelA hAya, te zuM thAya ? haiyAmAM viSayarasa, mithyAtvasa, pAparasa Adi hoya ane A sAdhanAne sevatA
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe hoya, te A sAdhanane paNa e jIva kevA hetuthI seva heya? jema dharma pariNAma sAre, tema AtmAnuM kalyANa vadhAre ane jema viSayarasane ane kaSAyarasane, eTale ke-saMsArarasane pariNAma gADha, tema AtmAnuM akalyANa vadhAre! jeomAM saMsArane rasa gADha hoya che, teo avasare usUtraprarUpaNAdi paNa kare. mekSanI vAtane haMbaga kahe. je kAMI kare, te saMsAranA rasane AdhIna banIne ja kare. saMsAranA rasane AdhIna banIne AvAM tAraka sAdhanene sevanArAo tarI jAya, e banavAjoga vastu ja nathI. viSayasukhanA hetuthI ja, e dharma kare ane ene viSayasukhanA hetune Agraha paNa heya. viSayasukha tajavA jevuM che, e vAta haiyAnA eka khUNAmAM paNa na heya. viSayanI sAmagrI anukULapaNe maLe, bhagavAya, e vageremAM ja, e sukha mAne. virAga vinA, dharmanI upAsanA, dharmanI upAsanA tarIke thaI zake ja nahi. mugdha jIvone mArge lAvavAnA hetumAM paNa, e vAta te rahelI che ja ke-enAmAM saMsAranA sukhane ja mATe dharma karavAne Agraha hato nathI. mugdha hovAthI vizeSa samajI zako nathI, paNa saMsArasukhanA hetune Agraha paNa nathI, eTale enAmAM viSayarasa joradAra che-ema kahevAya nahi. evAenuM AlaMbana laIne, viSayarasanA yoge ja A dharmakriyAone karanArA ane karAvanArA, saMsAramAM ja rU. dharmakriyAo dharmarasathI karavI joIe ane saMsAranA vegane kADhavAne mATe karavI joIe. saMsArarasa jyAM sudhI bahu ja mIThe lAge che, tyAM sudhI to jIva, tAraka sAdhanene pAme ne seve, te paNa te saMsAramAM rUle che.
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________________ 5 pahele bhAga dharmapariNAmane sAkara jevo banAva tyAre, tamAre paNa tamArA pariNAmanI parIkSA karavI joIe ne? ghaNe vakhata saMsArakiyAmAM jAya che ane dharmakiyAmAM Deka ja samaya jAya che, paNa manamAM IcchA zI che? "mAruM jIvana evuM kyAre bane ke A jIvanamAM dharmakiyA sivAyanI kaI kriyA heya ja nahi"--evI IcchA kharI ne ? saMsArakiyA na chUTake kare che ne ? tamAruM cAlatuM hoya, te tame dharmakriyA sivAyanI keIkiyA karo ja nahi ne? haiyAmAM dharmapariNAma che ke nahi ane che te kevA prakAra che? dharmapariNAmane sAkara je mIThe banAvavAno prayatna karo. haiyAmAM e dharmapariNAma hovA chatAM ya, saMsAramAM rahevuM paDe e zakya che, paNa saMsAramAM rahevAya te taddana virAgabhAve rahevAya ane saMsAranA tyAganI tathA saMyamanA sevananI abhilASApUrvaka ja rahevAya. A dharma pariNAma na hoya to te pragaTe, e mATe mahenata kare che? tamane je kAMI tAraka sAdhana maLyAM che, tene UlaTe upayoga te nathI karatA ne dvAdazAMgI, o, ANuvratAdine UlaTe upayoga karanArAone mATe ja e vAta che ke teo A sAdhanane pAmyA ane temaNe A sAdhanane sevyAM, chatAM paNa teo saMsAramAM rUlI gayA. tamAre saMsAramAM rUlavuM nathI ne? saMsArathI chUTavuM ja che ne ? saMsArathI chUTavuM hoya, to atyAre pega sarasa che. zrI siddhagirijInI chAyAmAM che, eTale vAtAvaraNa majenuM che. doSane kADhavAnI ane guNone pragaTAvavAnI ahIM suMdara sAmagrI che. ahIM AvyA pachI paNa, je ApaNA de khaLabhaLe
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe nahi ane guNe pragaTe nahi, te ApaNane lAgavuM joIe ke-ApaNe mahA nAlAyaka chIe. A kSetra uMcuM che, emAM te be mata che nahi ane ApaNe mATe kALa paNa uMce che, ema lAge che, kema ke-zrI siddhagirijInAM darzana karyA ane je zrI siddha bhagavAnanA siddhapaNAnI prAptinA ge A tIrthane mahimA che, e tArakenA jevA ApaNe kyAre banIe, evI ApaNA haiyAmAM IcchA pragaTI che! zrAvakanI bhAvanA : AthI, ApaNe e vicAravuM joIe ke ApaNane A saMsAra ke lAge che? tame sAdhu na banI zake e zakya che, kema ke-sAdhu banavuM hoya, te saMsAra nirguNa lAge eTalA mAtrathI ja cAlI zakatuM nathI. sAdhu thavA mATe te, saMsAra nirguNa lAgavo joIe ane vratapAlananI zakita paNa hovI joIe. zrAvakamAM saMsArane choDavAnI ane vratane pALavAnI zakti na hoya, to zrAvaka saMsAramAM rahe paNa, kahevAya che zrAvaka ane game che paNa saMsAramAM rahevAnuM ja, te pachI badhuM kahevAnuM ja rahe. ApaNe tyAM tapa mATe khAvAnuM che ke khAvA mATe tapa karavAnuM che? tapa mATe khAvuM paDe tema hoya te khavAya, paNa khAvA mATe tapa karavAnuM keI kahe te ? have jene khAvAnuM paNa tapa mATe hoya, te upavAsa kare eTale pAraNuM kare ja? jue ke-haju tapa thAya tema che, to bIje dahADe navakArazI kare nahi ne parisI kare, parisI vakhateya zakti hoya, te tapanI bhAvanAne teja banAvavA prayAsa kare. jema vyavahAramAM 20 maLyA pachI, 50 sAme AMkha jAya ne? 500
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________________ pahelA bhAga 97 meLavavAnA parizrama karavAnuM mana thAya ne? tema, upavAsa te karyAM, paNa bIje divase vadhavAnuM mana kema thatuM nathI ? Aje paNa upavAsa thAya teA sArUM, ema kema thatuM nathI ? bIje divase upavAsanI zakti na hoya, teA vadhAya teTaluM vadhe ane vadhAya tema na hoya, teA navakArazI ya kare; paNa manamAM zuM hoya ? thADI paNa dharmakriyA, kevA prakAranA pariNAmathI karA che, te zeAdhI kADho ! tame ATalI meATI uMmaranA thayA, vAraMvAra dharmakriyAo kare che, chatAM ATalA badhA ajJAna kema rahyA ? parizrama teA karyAM, paNa jJAnAvaraNIya karma naDyuM, ema kahI zakaze? tame jo dharmapariNAmane pAmyA hota, te tamane tamArUM jIvAditattvAnuM ajJAna khaTakata. 'saMsAra te heya ja ane karaNIya teA dharma ja'-A vAta jo tamArA haiyAmAM jacI gaI hota, teA tame tamArAM ceAgya saMtAnAne ahIM ApavA Avata. zrAvaka saMtAnane uchere nahi-ema nathI ja, paNa zrAvaka saMtAnane uchere, tyAre enA keADa kevA hoya ? A chekarA sAdhu thAya te ghaNuM sArUM ! paNa A che.kA jo sAdhu thaI zake nahi, teA ya sAdhupaNAnI sevatA zrAvaka te avazya navo joie !' " abhilASAne sa amArA dhyeyanuM ja ThekANuM nathI ne ? saMsArathI chUTavAnA dhyeya vagaranI ane saMsAranA rasathI thatI dharmakriyAothI paNa puNya aMdhAya-enI nA nathI, e puNya devAdi gatine Ape-enI ya nA nathI, paNa tethI saMsAra nahi ghaTe. rAganA sthAne paNa virAga pragaTavo joie, ene adale virAganA sthAne ya je virAga pragaTavA joie te nahi pragaTe; bhAga bhayaMkara lAgavAne badale maneAhara lAgaze 7
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________________ 98 cAra gatinAM kAraNo ane ema saMsArane rasa puSTa banatAM, saMsAra vadhI jaze. ' zrI arihaMtAdinI ne ApaNI sAcI pichAna thAya te' mekSa, e ja AtmAnuM vAstavika svarUpa che. saMsAra te karma nirmaluM AtmAnuM vaibhAvika svarUpa che. saMsAra, e paNa AtmAne paryAya che ane mekSa, e paNa AtmAne paryAya che; paNa AtmAne saMsAraparyAya karma nimele che ane mokSa, e AtmAne zuddha paryAya che. parAdhIna svarUpamAM te rAce, ke je ajJAna heya. rAgAdi karavA, te ApaNuM pitAnuM svarUpa che? zuddhAtmA rAgAdi kare khare? je rAgAdi kare, tene ApaNe deva mAnIe kharA? saMsAranA rAgAdinA je tyAgI na hoya, tene ApaNe gurU mAnIe kharA? rAgAdimAM ramaNa karavAnuM je sujhADe, tene ApaNe dharma mAnIe kharA? nahi ja! kema nahi? ApaNe evA devAdine kema mAnIe nahi ? kema ke ApaNe rAgAdithI chUTavuM che! ApaNane rAgAdi karavA game che ? rAgAdi keNa kare? parAdhIna AtmA ja rAgAdi kare. ApaNane ApaNuM A parAdhInatAne khyAla che? raste cAlate bhikhArI paNa, bIjAne AjJA karavAmAM AnaMda mAne che, paNa bIjAnI AjJA mAnavAmAM AnaMda mAnato nathI. saMsArane rasa, eTale pArakI AjJAne rasa. ApaNane e rasa che ne ? e rasa game che ne ? eka te gulAmIne rasa ane emAM AnaMda, e ochuM ajJAna che? jema khAvAmAM peTa mAge nahi ne jIbha mAge, tyAre kevI viTaMbaNuM thAya? e IndriyanI gulAmI che ne? ema, saMsAranA rasathI jeTaluM thAya che, te pArakI AjJAnA rasathI ja thAya che. saMsAra eTale AtmAnuM keda
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________________ pahele bhAga khAnuM. A vastune jene sAco khyAla AvI jAya, tene saMsAra jhera jevuM lAge. ApaNane saMsAra kevo lAge che? saMsAramAM ApaNI sthiti kevI lAge che? ApaNane saMsAra je heranuM sAdhana lAgato hoya ane "ApaNe je kAMI karIe chIe te badhuM ApaNI marajI mujaba ja karIe chIe"--ema je ApaNane lAgatuM hoya, te ApaNe mahA ajJAna chIe. zrI arihaMta bhagavAnane meTAmAM moTe upakAra karyo ? e tAraka mekSamArganA dAtA banyA, e ja ne? zrI siddha bhagavAne paNa melasvarUpanI preraNA Ape tevI avasthAne pAmyA che, mATe ja namaskaraNaya che ne? AcAryAdi paNa saMsArane tajIne eka mekSamArgane ja seve che ane mokSamArgane ja pracAra Adi kare che, mATe vandanIya Adi che ne? AvA zrI arihaMtAdine sevanArAne "saMsAra tajavA jevuM che ane mekSa meLavavA jevo che"--evuM jo na lAge, te samajI levuM joIe ke ene zrI arihaMtAdinI paNa sAcI pichAna nathI ane pitAnA AtmAnI paNa sAcI pichAna nathI ! gulAma hovA chatAM paNa gulAmIne khyAla AvatuM nathI athavA te te bhUlAI jAya che: sa0 jJAna hoya te samajAya ne? bahu zAstrajJAna na hoya, paNa je devane sevIe chIe, temanA jevA banavAne mATe ja dharmane sevavo joIe, eTaluM paNa jJAna nathI? vItarAga ja deva game ane vItarAgapaNane pAmavAne mATe nircanthapaNAne sevanArA gurUo ja game, evuM
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________________ 100 cAra gatinAM kAraNe te tame ThassAthI kahe che, te tamane evA banavAnI IcchA che, mATe tame ema kahe che ke e IcchA nathI chatAM ema kahA cho ? AvA deva-gurU-dharmane pAmelAne, ema te thavuM joIe ne ke-"jeTale thAya teTale, thaDe thAya te cheDe, paNa jeTalA thAya te teTale dharma mekSane mATe ja kare che !? mAre AtmA saMsAranI gulAmImAM phasAI paDyo che, temAMthI chUTavAne mATe ja mAre dharma kare che !" sa. saMsAramAM gulAmI nathI lAgatI. saMsArane rasa che tethI. jarAka DAhyA thaIne vicAre ane bhUlakaNuM bane nahi, te tamane lAge ke-saMsAramAM ghaNuM viSamatA bhegavavI paDe che. saMsAramAM, Dagale ne pagale gulAmI che. huM dhAryuM karuM --ema keI vAra lAge, tyAre yAda karavuM ke-jIdagImAM huM dhAryuM keTaluM karI zakyo ane mAruM dhAryuM keTaluM thayuM nahi ?" vepAra karavA jAya, te raLavA ja jAya ne? chatAM, badhA raLIne ja Ave? nA, koI raLIne paNa Ave ane koI raDIne paNa Ave. tyAre je raLe ane je raDe, emAM kaI kAraNa kharuM ne? be ya parane AdhIna che. svAdhInatA te, raLavA chatAM khumArI nahi AvavA devI ane khAvA chatAM dInatA nahi AvavA devI, e che. tamAre te keTalIya vAra dhAryuM thatuM nathI ke dhAryuM maLatuM nathI, eTale durbAna karyA karavuM paDe che, paNa jyAM jarAka dhAryuM maLe, eTale nAco che. saMsArane e kepha che. kutarAne prAyaH keI ghare Adara nahi, jyAM caDhe tyAMthI meTe bhAge 'haDe ene kAne paDe, jyAM jAya tyAMthI ene kADhe ane je heya te ene mAre, AvuM meTe bhAge bane te chatAM tene bolAvavAne madara nahi, jayAMthI ene.
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________________ pahelA bhAga 101 zuM karavuM paDe? hAthamAM kAMIka che--ema batAvIne 'tu' tu ' ja karavuM paDe, tema, saMsAramAM lubdha anele jIva, jyAM jarA anukULatA maLe che, eTale gheADA vakhata pahelAM veThelI bhAre Apattione paNa e bhUlI jAya che. jarAka joItuM maLyuM, eTale e AjubAjunI Apattione bhUlI jatAM vAra nahi. karma jarA anukULatA Ape, eTale karmanI gulAmIne bhUlI jatAM vAra nahi. bApa chekarAne kheALAmAM besADe, to samajavuM ke-karmanI maherabAnI che. kharAkha karma AvyuM, te AnA A mApa, ene lAta mAratAM paNa acakAze nahi. bApe paNa samajavuM joIe ke-lADa laDAvIne ucherelA chekarA paNa, kyAre lAta mAraze te kahevAya nahi. A samaja Ave, te karmanI AdhInatA khaTake. pachI lAge ke--saMsAra e mArUM svarUpa nathI. 'saMsAra e mArUM svarUpa nathI ane mekSa ja mArUM svarUpa che'-ema lAgyA vinA, dharma je bhAve karavA joI e, te bhAve dharma thAya nahi. sa aa dharma ya karmanI AdhInatAthI thAya che? karmanI AdhInatAthI dharma karanArAono paNa teATA nathI. karmanI AdhInatAthI dharma kare, e karmane khapAve nahi paNa karmane vadhAre. karmanI AdhInatA jyAre ghaTe che, tyAre AtmAne peAtAnA svarUpanuM bhAna thAya che. huM gulAma banelA chuM, ema lAge che. A gulAmImAMthI chUTavAne mATe mAre dharmane sevavA joie, ema lAge che. e dharma vivekathI thayeA kahevAya. e dharma AtmAnA nistArane sAdhanArA ane TUMkamAM kahIe tA, AtmA karmanA hukamathI je kAMI kare te saMsAra ane potAnA sAcA vivekathI je kAMI kare te dharma.
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________________ 102 cAra gatinAM kAraNe samyajJAna ane samyak kviAnA yogathI mukti H zrI jaina zAsanamAM "jJAnavirSo mekSa'--ema kahyuM che. A zAsana, samyagra jJAna ane samyaka kriyAne sugathI ja AtmAne mokSa thAya, ema mAne che ane ethI ja A zAsana jema mithyA kiyAono niSedha kare che, tema viparIta hetuthI thatI agara te vicArazUnyapaNe thatI dharmapravRttine paNa niSedha kare che. kharAba vicAra vinA ane sAmAnya sArA vicArathI paNa kaI sArI dharmapravRtti thaI jAya, te ya lAbha thAya, paNa makSasAdhaka samyapha kriyA ApaNe mokSanI sAdhaka tyAre ja banI zake, ke jyAre ApaNe mokSanA bhAvathI ene AcaravA mAMDIe ane temAM ekatAna banI jaIe. vicAra, e jJAnano aMza che. samyagU jJAna hoya, eTale mekSano bhAva Ave ja. melanA bhAva vinA, mokSasAdhaka nivaDe-tevI kriyA paNa, mekSasAdhaka nivaDI zake nahi. eTalA mATe te kahyuM ke jenA upara mehane ja adhikAra che, tenAmAM adhyAtma heya nahi." adhyAtma-kiyA eTale kriyA rUpa adhyAtmanI zarUAta kyArathI mAnI? mehane adhikAra uDyA pachIthI ja mehane adhikAra jemanA uparathI uThaDyo che, tevA AtmAonI, AtmAne uddezIne karAtI zuddha kiyA ja, adhyAtmakiyA hoI zake, ema upakArioe kahyuM ApaNe tyAM. ekalA jJAnane adhyAtma kahyuM nathI ke ekalI kriyAne adhyAtma kahyuM nathI. saMsAramAM sAcuM adhyAtma tyAM ja hoya, ke jyAM jJAna paNa hoya ane kriyA paNa hoya. jema, eka cake ratha cAlI zake nahi, eka pAMkhe paMkhI uDI zake nahi ane
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________________ pahele bhAga 103 eka hAthe tAlI pADI zake nahi, tema ekalA jJAnathI ke ekalI kriyAthI muktine pAmI zakAya ja nahi. ekalA jJAnathI mukti mAnanAra paNa mithyASTi che ane ekalI kiyAthI mukti mAnanAra paNa mithyAdaSTi che. zAse vyAkhyA ApI. kenI zuddha kriyAne adhyAtma kahevAya? to ke-jenA uparathI mohana adhikAra uThayo che, tenI ja zuddha kriyAne adhyAtma kahevAya. AmAM be vAta kahI. eka to mehane adhikAra nahi joIe ane bIjuM kiyAnI zuddhi. joIe. anukULa ane uttama spardhAdinA yoga vinA sukha saMbhave ja nahi-evuM mAnanArA mokSane nathI mAnatA mehano adhikAra kenA uparathI uThaDyo che, ema kahevAya? AtmA upara mehano adhikAra hovA chatAM paNa, e AtmA puNya-pApane mAne e banavAjoga che, paralokane mAne e paNa banavAjoga che ane sagati-durgatine mAne e paNa banavAjoga che; paNa mekSane te e mAne ja nahi. sukha e AtmAno potAno guNa che ane e guNa jo barAbara pragaTI jAya, te AtmA keI paNa padArthanA saMga vinA ananta sukhane ananta kAla paryanta bhegavI zake che. A vAta enI buddhimAM utare ja nahi. khUda bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradeve samavasaraNamAM virAjIne kahetA hoya; Indro ne narendro, devatAo ane mANase, e tArakanI sevA karavAne mATe doDAdeDa karatA hoya; jene saMzaya thAya tene saMzaya vagara pUcha paNa bhedAya te te e tArakanI vANIno prabhAva sau potapotAnI bhASAmAM bhagavAnanA upadezane sAMbhaLI zake,
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________________ 104 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA pazu ane paMkhIo tyAM jAtivairane bhUlI jAya; A badhuM jovA chatAM ane bhagavAna meAkSasukhanuM je varNana kare te sAMbhaLavA chatAM paNu, e tA ema ja vicAre ke- meAkSanI vAta saMbhave ja kema ?' ene ema jarUra thAya ke' A purUSa ahu puNyazAlI che; bahu jJAnI che; A kahe che te mujaba karIe, te devaleAkanAM sukhA maLyA vinA rahe nahi.' paNa, manamAM ne manamAM pAchA e ja nirNaya karI le ke- kAI paNa vastunA saMyega vinA kei paNa sukha bhAgavI zakAya, e ane ja nahi !' sukha joI e, te sayeAga paNa joI e ja, A enI mAnyatA. ene ema ja thAya ke-' anukULa ane uttama jAtinI vastunA sparzathI, enA rasathI, enI sugaMdhIthI, ene jovAthI ane ene sAMbhaLavAthI ja sukha anubhavI zakAya. anukULa ne uttama prakArano sparza karyA vinA, te sukha saMbhave jIbha upara mIThA padArtha mUkayA vinA, te sukha saMbhave ? nAkamAM sArI gandha AvyA vinA, te sukha saMbhave ? AMkhane sArUM, game tevuM jovAnuM maLyA vinA, te sukha sabhave ? ane jyAM sudhI karNapriya avAja kAne paDe nahi tyAM sudhI, te sukha saMbhave ? jene indriyA ja nathI, tene vaLI sukha kevuM ? ane IndriyA hAya, te chatAM paNa anukULa ane uttama sparzodi karyA vinA paNa, sukha anubhavAya zAnuM? AtmA zarIra vagaranA ne indriya vagarano hoya ne e sukha bheAgave, e badhI vAtamAM kAMI mAla nathI. A zarIra na heAya, tA ya sukha bhogavAya nahi. A zarIra jarAka mAMduM ke DhIluM paDI jAya che, te sukha bhAgavAtuM nathI ane zarIra na hoya tyAre sukha bhogavAya ? A badhI vAtamAM kAMI sAra jevuM
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________________ pahelA bhAga 105 nathI.' ene meAkSa ane meAkSanA hetunI vAta rUce ja nahi. AtmA meAkSa pAme, athavA tA mekSa pAme evo keAI AtmA hAI zake, e mane ja nahi, evuM e mAne. bAkI indrAdi devone jue, eTale devAMta che-ema paNa mAne ane IndrAdikane bhagavAnanI sevA karatA jue, eTale ene ema paNa thAya ke- A kahe che tema jo tyAgane sevyeA hAya, tA ja IndrAdikanuM sukha maLI zake.' eTale, saMyeAgajanya sukhane mATe e bhagavAne kahelA dharmane sevavA paNa mAMDe. bhagavAne kahelA dharmane e eTalI adhI kaDakAIthI seve ke-vAta pUche| mA. kema ? ene khAtrI che ke A dharmane A kahe che tema sevIe, teA ja devatAI sukha maLe !' enI kriyAmAM avidhi na AvI jAya, aticAra na lAgI jAya, enI ene pUratI kALajI hAya. badhAmAM khAdya keTalI vAta ? mAtra meAkSanI vAta ja khAda! meAkSanI vAtamAM ya. te, te vakhate dveSa keLave nahi. kANu jANe, mekSa zuM che te? emanI meAkSanI vAta emanI pAse bhale rahI ! Ama te mekSanA viSayamAM adveSa rAkhe ane devatAI sukhAnA, viSayasukhAnA rAgathI bhagavAne kahelA dharmane eTale bhagavAne kahelI dharmakriyAone e khUba rAgathI seve. vicAra karo ke bhagavAnanA vacana upara eNe keTalA badhA vizvAsa rAkhyA ? bhagavAnanA vacana upara vizvAsa mUkIne, eNe saMsArasukhanA saMyeAgeAne tajI dIdhA, saMsArasukhanA saMyeAgeA AvI maLyA hAya ta ya tene grahaNa karyAM nahi ane prANAtipAta AdithI virAma pamADanArI kriyAo paNa kALajIpUrvaka karI ! tamane lAge che ne ke-A kAMI bhagavAnanA vacana upara jevAtevA
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________________ cAra , 106 cAra gatinAM kAraNo vizvAsa rAkhyo kahevAya nahi!? paNa kharuM jotAM, e jIve nathI te bhagavAnane mAnyA ke nathI te bhagavAnanA vacanane mAnyuM ! kAraNa ke-bhagavAnane e vItarAga, sarvajJa ane mokSe janArA tarIke svIkAre ja nahi tema ja bhagavAne mokSamArganI prarUpaNa karI hoya, tyAre A jIva ene saMsArasukhanA mArga tarIke ja grahaNa kare ! bhagavAna jeno sarvathA niSedha kare, tene ja ene rasa ! bhagavAna viSayavirAga Adine mATe dharma karavAnI jarUra batAve, tyAre A viSayarAgathI ja A karavuM joIe-ema mAne! AmAM, eNe bhagavAnanA vacanane vizvAsa karyo, eTale ke-ene bhagavAnanuM vacana rUchyuM, ema kahevAya kharuM? avidhivALI dharmakriyA paNa vidhibahumAnathI ane mokSanA AzayathI heya te adhyAtmamAM khapeH tamane te bhagavAnanA vacana upara vizvAsa che ne? pelAmAM ne tamArAmAM phera zuM che? tamArI dharmakriyA kriyA tarIke te pilAnI tulanAmAM AvI zake tema che ja nahi, kema ke tame je thoDI-ghaNI kriyA kare che, te paNa keTalI badhI pAMgaLI che, te tamArI jANa bahAra to nathI ja ne ? pelAnA jeTalI kriyA paNa nahi ane kriyAne enA jeTalI vidhithI karavAnI kALajI paNa nahi, e te dekhItI vAta che ne ? e apekSAe to, tame enA karatAM caDhIyAtA nahi ja ne ? tyAre, enA karatAM tame caDhIyAtA che, e vAta tamAre kahevI hoya, te zuM kahevuM paDe ? amArI kiyA adhyAtmamAM mUkI zakAya tevI che, ema tamAre kahevuM paDe. tame je dharmakriyA kare che, te AtmAne uddezIne kare che, ema kahevuM paDe. tamAre tamArA
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________________ pahelA bhAga 107 AtmAne saMsArathI mukta banAvavA che, e mATe tame A badhI dharmakriyAo kare che, ema tamAre kahevuM paDe, tamAre kabUla karavuM paDe ke-meAkSa che ane je kAi paNa AtmA samyajJAna tathA samyak kriyAnA cegane pAme, te peAtAnA purUSArthathI meAkSane pAmI zake che. sukha, spedika viSayAnA saMcAgamAM nathI, paNa AtmA sarva saMyeAgeAthI para banIne ja ananta ane akSaya sukhanA bhoktA khanI zake che. zarIra teA AtmAnuM kedakhAnuM che. zarIrathI rahita banIne AtmA azarorAvasthAne pAme, e ja AtmAnuM sAcuM ane saMpUrNa svarUpa che. AtmA vItarAga paNa khanI zake che, sarvajJa paNa banI zake che ane azarIrI paNa banI zake che. jyAM sudhI AtmA viSayasukhane ja sAcuM sukha mAnI beThA che, tyAM sudhI AtmAnA nistAra ja nathI. tamAre kahevuM joI e ke ame A badhuM mAnIe chIe ane meAkSane pAmavAne mATe ja dharma karavA joIe-e vAtamAM amane jarA ya zaMkA nathI. ame je dharma karIe chIe, te saMsAranA sukhane mATe nahi, paNu amArUM dhyeya te meAkSasukhane ja meLavavAnuM che. jenA haiyAmAM ATaluM parivartana thaI javA pAmyuM hoya, tenA upara meAhanA adhikAra rahyo nathI ane vivekanA adhikAra zarU thayA che. mehanA adhikAra gayA vinA mekSa rUce nahi ane e vinA, meAkSanA hetuthI kriyA thaI zake nahi. tame meAhunA adhikAra nIce ja che ke have AtmAnA adhikAramAM AvI gayelA che, enA nirNaya tamAre karI levA joI e. tame khAtrIthI kahe ke-ame A dharmakriyA meAkSane mATe Ie chIe ' eTale e kriyA adhyAtmamAM jAya, kema ke-jJAna ane kriyA
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________________ = = 208 cAra gatinAM kAraNe bane thayAM. kriyAmAM avidhi Adi de lAgI jAya che, paNa IrachA te vidhipUrvaka ja karavAnI che ne ? eTaluM hoya te ya e kriyAne adhyAtmamAM gaNI zakAya. sAruM karavAnI IcchA chatAM bIjA deze avidhi Adi karAvI de, paNa ApaNuM lakSya avidhi Adine kADhavAnuM te kharuM ne? jenA haiyAmAM avidhi pratye abhAva hoya ane vidhi pratye bahumAna hoya, tenI avidhi paNa kadAca vidhine lAvanArI dutI bane. kiyA karanAranA haiyAmAM, A kriyA mAre bhagavAne kahelA vidhipUrvaka ja karavI che, evuM lakSya te hevuM ja ghaTe. abhavyAdi A dharmane seve te saMsArasukhane mATe ja mehathI mUkAvAnuM jene mana thAya, moha ja mane saMsArasukhamAM muMjhavI rahyo che-ema jene lAge, mane muMjhavanArA A mehathI mAre mUkAvuM joIe--evuM jene thAya, tenA upara mehane adhikAra rahe nahi. ene moha hoya, paNa enA upara mehano adhikAra na hoya. ApaNI kevIka sthiti che? hamaNAM je vAta karI ke-bhagavAne kahelA dharmane saMsArasukhanA kAraNa tarIke mAne paNa mokSanA kAraNa tarIke mAne nahi, kema ke-mokSane ja mAne nahi, emAMnA te tame nathI ne? evI rItie A dharmakriyAone bahu ja kALajI pUrvaka sevanArA kaNa kaNa hoya che, te jANe che? saghaLA ya abhavya jyAre jyAre bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevee mokSane mATe batAvela dharmakriyAene seve, tyAre tyAre te saMsAranA sukhanA hetuthI ja seve. saghaLA ya durbha paNa A dharmakriyAne kare, te te saMsAra sukhanA hetuthI ja kare. bhArekarmI bhavya paNa, A dharmakriyA
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________________ pahele bhAga 109 ene seve te saMsArasukhanA hetuthI ja seve. khUda zrI tIrtha kara bhagavAna maLe ane kahe, paNa emane mokSa rUce ja nahi; mekSa rUce nahi, eTale mokSanA astitvamAM vizvAsa upaje nahi. saMga vagaranuM sukha hoI zake ja nahi, e emane mata. khUda zrI tIrthakara bhagavAna na maLyA hoya ane bIjI kaI rItie A sAmagrIne vega thaI gayo hoya, paNa saghaLA abho, saghaLA durbha ane bhArekama evA saghaLA bhavya paNa mekSanA hetuthI A dharmakriyAone sevanArA bane ja nahi; ane jyAM sudhI saMsArathI chUTavAne mATe eTale ke mekSane pAmavAne mATe A dharmakriyAone sevAya nahi, tyAM sudhI makSasAdhaka jJAna-kriyAne vega thaye ema kahevAya nahi. e badhA dekhItI rItie kare dharma, paNa hoya saMsAranA, kema keemanA upara adhikAra mehano ja che. mana mehane AdhIna che ke jinane? tamane tamArI kharI manodazAne khyAla Ave, e mATe ja ApaNe A vAta karIe chIe. zrI siddhakSetra sudhI ApaNe AvI pahoMcyA chIe. zrI siddhagirijInA darzane bhaktibhAvathI AvyA chIe. e paNa sUcave che ke-ApaNe caramAvarta kAlane te jarUra pAmyA chIe. ApaNAmAM mokSano Azaya pragaTayo che athavA to jenA kAMkare kAMkare anaMtA AtmAo siddhi gatine pAmyA che-enI chAyAne pAmIne ApaNe e Aza. yane pragaTAve che, ema te kharuM ne? A badhI dharmakiyA, ApaNe e mATe ja karIe chIe ne? ApaNe kenI kahelI dharmakriyAo karIe chIe ? zrI jinanI kahelI ! zrI jine
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________________ 110 cAra gatinAM kAraNe A kiyAo zA mATe karavAnI kahI che? AtmAne saMsArathI mukta banAvavAne mATe! ApaNe saMsAraparyAyavALA maTIne, ekSaparyAvALA banIe, e mATe! sa0 haju te moha muMjhavI rahyo che. mehanI muMjhavaNa kharAba che, ema lAge che ke nahi? meha upara gusso Ave che ke nahi? "A mehathI kyAre huM mUkAuM"-ema thAya che ke nahi ? meha tamane herAna te kare ja che, paNa ema lAge che ne ke- moha ja mArI herAnagatinuM mULa che, mATe have huM zrI jinanI kahelI kriyAomAM rakta banIne mohane mArI pAse rahevA dauM nahi?" ApaNA upara mehane adhikAra na hoya, to ya te kAMI ochuM nathI. ApaNuM mana mehane AdhIna che ke jinane? meha manane bIje ghasaDI jAya, saMsAranA sukha tarapha ghasaDI jAya, saMsAranA sukhamAM Ananda ya upajAvI de, chatAM "A badhuM mArI kharAbI karanAruM che ane A herAnagatimAMthI chUTavAne mATe, zrI jinanI sevA karavI, e ja sAro upAya che"--ema lAge che ke nahi? sukha viSayasevAmAM ke zrI jinanI sevAmAM viSayasevAmAM sAcuM sukha nahi ane zrI jinanI sevAmAM ja sukha, ATaluM haiye beThuM che? mehanA roge viSayAdinI sevA thAya e bane, emAM Ananda AvI jAya ema paNa bane, ene mATe anekavidha nahi karavA yogya karaNIe thAya--evuM paNa bane, paraMtu e badhuM ya chatAM, eka vAta je haiye hoya ke-A badhuM mane saMsAramAM rUlAvanAra che ane zrI jinavacananI sevA ja mane saMsArathI tAranAra che -te paNa, tame prAyaH meSathI bahu dUra nathI, ema mAnI zakAya.
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________________ pahele bhAga 111 mehanA viThIyA ke gulAma? A vAta haiyAmAM je barAbara besI jAya, te mehane gamatAM kAryo paNa tame mehane bhagADI devAne mATe karanArA banI zake. mehanuM kaheluM tame karo cho kharA, paNa e karavuM e tamane gamatuM nathI, ema to kharuM ne? sa0 emAM Ananda anubhavAya che ne ? saMgAdine vaza Ananda anubhavAya che, ke "AnandanuM sAcuM sAdhana ja e che-ema lAge che? mANasa jene duzmana mAnato hoya, tenI sAthe paNa ramata-gamata karatAM AnaMda AvI jAya, paNa jyAM vicAra Ave eTale e ceke ! ene thAya ke-mane enI sAthe ramatAM kyAMthI majhA AvI gaI? je jarAka bInasAvadha rahIza ne ene taka maLaze, te e cheDaze nahi! eTale, eno prayatna to duzmana sAthe ramata-gamatane prasaMga ja na paDe e dizAno hoya ne? je zeTha thavAne mATe nokarI kare che, tene nokarI nathI gamatI, ema kahI zakAya. e, nekarI karavI game che mATe nokarI nathI karato, paNa karI karyA vinA chUTake nathI ane zeTha banavAnuM sAdhana paNa e dvArA maLe tema che-ema e jANe che, mATe nekarI kare che. manathI gulAmI game ane gulAmI kare, te gulAma kahevAya. mehanA tame veThIyA cho ke gulAma? dharmarAjAnA tame gulAma che paNa veThIyA nathI ane mahArAjAnA tame veThIyA che paNa gulAma nathI, ema te kharuM ne? ahIMnuM ochuM thAya che ane barAbara hukama mujaba thatuM nathI, paNa bhAvanA e ja che kebadhuM ahIMnuM ja karavuM che ane te ya barAbara hukama mujaba; jyAre tyAM ghaNuM thAya che, paNa te kamananuM, eTale ke enAthI
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________________ 112 cAra gatinAM kAraNe kyAre chUTAya evI bhAvanA che-evo ekarAra, karI zakAya tema che ke nahi? veThIyA te samajyA ne? jene kAme javuM gamatuM na hoya, paNa kAme gayA vinA jeno chUTake thatuM na heya evA. tyAre tame mehanA veThIyA che ke gulAma che ? meha tamane pakaDI jAya che ke pachI tame ja mehane vaLagatA tame jAva cho? bhagavAnane jaIne kahe che ke he bhagavan! gulAmI to tArI ja karavI game che, mehanI gulAmI karavI gamatI nathI, paNa mehanI gulAmI karyA vinA cAlatuM nathI-e huM nabaLo chuM; have tuM mane maLyo che, te tArI sevAthI mAre evI dazA joIe che ke-mAre mehanI gulAmI karavI ja paDe nahi!? apunarbandhaka avasthA : tamane kaI pUche ke "tame dharmakriyA kema kare che te tamAre zuM kahevuM joIe? "rahIe chIe tyAM gamatuM nathI, eTale A kriyA karuM chuM, ke jethI A saMsArathI chUTuM !" AtmAnI AvI avasthA, apunarbandhaka avasthAthI AvI zake ane apunarbandhaka avasthA, caramAvarta kAlamAM ja Ave. abhavya ane durbha, apunarbandhaka avasthAne pAmI zake nahi. bhavyAtmAo ja apunarbandhaka avasthAne pAmI zake. apunabandhakanI theDI paNa dharmakiyA adhyAtmabhAvane lAvanArI che. AtmA apunarbandhaka avasthAne pAme, eTale enAmAM traNa guNe pahelA Ave. eka guNa te e ke pApanA sevanamAM ene tIvra bhAva Ave nahi; bIjo guNa e ke-bhayaMkara bhava eTale bhayaMkara evA saMsAra pratye enA haiyAmAM bahumAna hoya.
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________________ pahelo bhAga 113 nahi, ane trIjo guNa e ke kyAMya ucitapaNuM laMghAvA pAme nahi, tenI e kALajI rAkhe. AvA traNa guNe pragaTayA hoya ane emAM zrI jinavANIne yoga thaI jAya, to e AtmAne samyagdarzana pAmatAM bahu vAra lAge nahi. pApane rasa ghaTI jAya, saMsAra pratye bahumAna na rahe ane sarvatra aucityane jALavIne vartana kare-A traNa guNe, mokSanA sAcA mArgane pAmavAmAM, khUba ja sahAyaka bane che. bhagavAne kahele mokSamArga rUmyA pahelAMnI A avasthA che, jyAre ApaNe to bhagavAne kahelA mekSamArgane AcaranArA chIe, eTale ApaNAmAM te ethI paNa vadhAre guNasamRddhi pragaTelI hevI joIe ne ? ahIM sudhI AvIne, pAchA ApaNe zrI jinathI vikhuTA na paDI jaIe ane sadgatine pAmate pAmate mokSane pAmI jaIe, e mATe A vagere vAtane vicAravAnI khUba ja jarUra che. tame have A vicAravAnA ne ? vizeSa te, jyAre jJAnie dIThuM hoya tyAre.
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________________ [2] zrI siddhonuM ne ApaNuM svarUpa eka che, paNa emanuM pragaTeluM che ne ApaNuM dabAeluM che ananta upakArI, kalikAlasarvajJa, AcAryabhagavAna zrImad hemacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA pharamAve che ke kaSA ane IndriyothI jItAelo evo A AtmA ja saMsAra che ane je AtmA saMsAra che, te ja AtmA jyAre kaSAyo tathA indriyane vijetA bane che, tyAre te mokSa che, ema bhAgavAna zrI arihaMtadevo ane bhagavAna zrI gaNadharadeva Adie pharamAvela che. AthI, e vAta spaSTa thAya che ke A AtmA ja, saMsAra paNa che ane mekSa paNa che." saMsArasvarUpa paNa AtmA pote che ane mekSasvarUpa paNa AtmA pote ja che. kaSAyo ane IndriyathI jItAelo AtmA saMsArasvarUpa che ane ene e ja AtmA jyAre kaSAyo ane Indri upara vijaya meLave che, tyAre te mekSasvarUpa bane che. kaSAyo ane IndriyathI parAjitapaNAmAM saMsAra ane kaSAyo ane Indriyo upara vijaya prApta karavAmAM mekSa. je AtmAo zrI siddhigatine pAmyA che, te kaSAyo ane Indriyo upara vijaya prApta karIne ja zrI siddhigatine pAmyA che. kaSAyane ane Indriyane kAbUmAM laIne, kaSAya ane IndriyethI mukta banI janArA AtmAo, siddhAtamAo banyA. e tArakoe
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________________ pahelo bhAga 115 saddhigatine A paNa che, e rUpa, A che ke e pitAnuM svarUpa pragaTa karyuM. evuM ja svarUpa ApaNuM paNa che, paNa Aje te DhaMkAeluM che. zrI siddhigatine pAmelA AtmAonuM ane ApaNuM svarUpa, Ama to sarakhuM ja che; paNa phera eTalo che ke-emanuM svarUpe pragaTa thaeluM che ane ApaNuM svarUpa dabAeluM che. je A vAta ApaNA khyAlamAM AvI jAya; ApaNane samajAI jAya ke-je anaMtA siddho ApaNe mAthe che, temanA jevuM ja mAruM paNa svarUpa che; kaSAya ane indri upara vijaya meLavIne ja e tArake zrI siddhigatine sAdhI zakyA che ane huM paNa je dhAruM ane mahenata karuM te mArA evA svarUpane pragaTAvI zakuM tema chuM; te A prakArane khyAla AtmAne jAgRta banAvI de! "siddhanuM je svarUpa che, e ja mAruM svarUpa che; kaSA tathA Indriyone AdhIna banavAnA yege ja, huM Aje A saMsArasvarUpane-vibhAva svarUpane bhegavI rahyo chuM ane huM je mahenata karuM, te huM paNa kaSAyo ane Indriyo upara vijaya meLavIne mArA sAcA svarUpane pragaTAvI zrI siddha jevA ja svarUpavALe banI zakuM chuM."--Avo khyAla Ave, eTale AtmAne sahaja rItie potAnuM svarUpa pragaTAvavAnI IcchA thAya. A khyAlane pAmele AtmA, e svarUpane lakSyamAM rAkhIne, e svarUpane pragaTAvavAnA hetuthI ja dharma karavA mAMDe. caramAvarta ja zrI jinavANIne prayAgakALaH je AtmAone potAnuM dabAeluM svarUpa pragaTAvavuM hoya, te AtmAone mATe ja, bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevoe A mArga sthApe che. bhagavAna zrI tIrthakaradevee, zrI tIrthakara
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________________ 116 cAra gatinAM kAraNo -nAmakarmanI nikAcanA karI, te kayI bhAvanAthI karI? bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevee tIrthanI sthApanA karI, tenI pAchaLa hetu kayo? emAM, mekSa sivAya bIjuM kAMI paNa bolI zakAya tema che kharuM? sArA ya saMsAranA cha duHkha mAtrathI chUTe ane sadAkALane mATe sau mAtra sukhamAM ja jhIlyA kare, evI e tArakenI bhAvanA hatI. e tArakene lAgyuM hatuM kekeI paNa jIva, jyAM sudhI te mokSane pAme nahi, tyAM sudhI te jIva duHkha mAtrathI chUTe ane sadAkALane mATe mAtra sukhamAM ja jhIlanAre bane, e zakya ja nathI." AthI, e tArakee evI bhAvanA bhAvI ke je mArAmAM zakti Ave, te huM sau koIne mokSamArganA ja rasika banAvI dauM !" A bhAvanAnI utkaTatAmAM ramaNa karate karate, e tArakoe zrI tIrthaMkara-nAmakarmanI nikAcanA karI; ane e nAmakarmanA pratApe ja, e tArakoe pitAnA antima bhAvamAM rAga-dveSane kSaya karIne ane kevalajJAnane upAjIne, dharmatIrthanI sthApanA karI. ATaluM jANanAra, e na samaje ke- bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradee pharamAvele A mArga, mokSane mATe ja che? have je ApaNane mokSanI IcchA ja na hoya, te ApaNe mATe A mArga, upAgI rahyo ja nahi ne? sAmAnyamAM sAmAnya buddhivALo paNa, je jarA samajIne A mArgane svIkAre, te e eTaluM te samaje ja ke mAre mArA mokSane sAdhavAne mATe ja A mArga che." A vAta, ATalI badhI spaSTa hovA chatAM paNa, jyAM sudhI bhavya jIvane ya kALa pAka hete nathI, tyAM sudhI ghaNI ghaNI dharmakriyAo karavA chatAM paNa, "huM A dharmanI
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________________ pahele bhAga 117 mekSanA hetuthI ArAdhanA karUM" evI IcchA tenAmAM pragaTI zakatI nathI. jyAM sudhI, eka pudagalaparAvartathI vizeSa kALane mATe jIvane saMsAramAM bhaTakavAnuM hoya che, tyAM sudhI, e jIvane khUda zrI tIrthaMkara bhagavAna Adino vega thaI jAya ane e tArakanI vANInuM zravaNa karavAno yoga paNa prApta thaI jAya, te ya e jIvane mokSanI IcchA thAya ja nahi. mokSane pAmavAmAM eka pudgalaparAvartathI e kALa bAkI hoya, to ja "mekSanI IcchA thavAne mATe e jIvane kALa pAkyo che"--ema kahI zakAya. AthI te, caramAvarta kALane ja zrI jinavANInA prayogano kALa kahyo che. caramAvartamAM Avela jIva ja, zrI jinavANane jhIlI zake che. caramAvarsamAM AvelAne, zrI jinavANIne jhIlavAmAM, kAla antarAyabhUta bane nahi. te pachI, samyagdarzana guNa pragaTavAne mATe te, ardha pagalaparAvarta kAlathI paNa ocho saMsArakAla joIe. jIvane saMsArakAla je ardha pudgalaparAvarta kAlathI paNa ocho bAkI hoya, te ja samyagdarzana guNane pragaTAvavAne mATeno te yogya kALa gaNAya. caramAvartane nahi pAmelA jIvone mATe to, zrI jinavANIno prayoga niSphaLa nivaDe, e avazyabhAvI che, kema ke-jIva bhavya heya te ya, kAla ja e che ke-enA haiyAmAM zrI jinavANuM pariNAma pAmI zake ja nahi. koIpaNa rItie, enAmAM mokSane abhilASa pragaTI zake ja nahi; jyAre caramAvarta kAla, e evo kAla che ke-e kAlane pAmelA jIvane je laghukarmitA Adine vega thaI jAya ane jIva je purUSArtha bane, to enA haiyAmAM zrI jinavANI kame karIne pariNAma pAmI zake ane ethI enAmAM mekSane abhilASa paNa pragaTI zake tathA mokSanA hetuthI
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________________ 118 cAra gatinAM kAraNe dharmAnuSThAnene AcaravAnI rUci paNa enAmAM pragaTI zake! eTale, A kALa e che ke-zrI jinavANIne jhIlavAnI ApaNe jeTalI mahenata karIe, eTalI lekhe lAgyA vinA rahe nahi. zrI jinavANIne jhIlavAne pratApa : zrI jinavANIne ApaNe jhIlI zakIe, te, mikSa te jyAre maLaze tyAre maLaze, paNa enA pratApe saMsAra paNa sukara banI jAya. Aje saMsAranA sukhanI AzAmAM ja rIbAvuM paDe che ne ? zrI jinavANI jhIlAya, eTale saMsAranA sukhanI tRSNA upara kApa paDe. A sukha tajavA jevuM lAge ane mokSasukha meLavavA jevuM lAge. theDe ghaNe paNa je kAMIdharma thAya, te saMsArathI chUTavAne mATe ane mokSane meLavavAne mATe thAya. ethI, sukha maLe ghaNuM, chatAM AtmAne e sukha muMjhave nahi. zrI jinavANI jenA haiye vasI, te duHkhamAM paNa sukha anubhavI zake ane maLeluM sukha bhegave, te ya pApathI te bahu lepAya nahi. jema kahevAya che ke rAjezvarI narakezvarI. rAjyamAM narake laI javAne guNa kharo, paNa rAjAnA ya haiye je zrI jinavANI vaselI hoya, te rAjyane bhogavavA chatAM paNa, e narake jAya nahi ane sadgatine pAmI zake. narake laI jAya -evI paNa vastune bhogavavA chatAM, narake jAya nahi ane sadgatine pAme, te zAthI? rAjya tajavA jevuM ja lAgyA kare, rAjya bhogave paNa na chUTake bhagave; IcchA te mekSasukhanI ja hoya, ane mokSamArgane sevavA tarapha valaNa heya. A, mana pharI gayuM ne? pApamAM rahevA chatAM paNa, mana pApAsakta - rahyuM nahi ne? e pratApa kene? zrI jinavANIne jhIlavAne,
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________________ 119 pahelo bhAga e pratApa che. zrI jinavANIne jhIlIe, eTale ApaNane ema thAya ke-saMsAranuM koI paNa sukha IcchavA jevuM nathI, mATe je kAMIkiyA karavI te dezanA AzayathI karavI. mekSanA AzayathI kiyA karavAnA yoge, na mAgIe to ya saMsAranuM sukha maLavAnuM che, to pachI enI mAgaNI zuM kAma karavI ? mAgaNI karIne lezuM, te rAga vadhI jaze ane te durgatimAM ghasaDI jaze, ema thAya ne ? saMsAranuM sukha mAgIne meLavavAmAM ochuM maLe ane Asakita ghaNI thAya. saMsAranA sukhane tajavA jevuM mAnIne, dharma je mekSanA AzayathI karyo hoya, te saMsAranuM paNa sukha maLe ghaNuM ane tene rAga muMjhave nahi. dharmamAM mekSane hetu Ave, eTale karmasattA paNa anukULa banavA mAMDeH zrI siddhagiri eTale? ahIM te kAMkare kAMkare anaMtA A tmAo zrI siddhapadane pAmelA che. AvA mahimAvatnAgirivaranI yAtrAe AvyA, mATe ApaNe zrI jinavANIne jhIlavAne mATe pAtra rUpa kAlamAM AvelA chIe, ema mAnIne cAlavuM. nakkI karavuM ke bhagavAnanuM darzana Adi je kAMI huM karuM chuM, te mokSane mATe karuM chuM ! saMsArane mane rAga che, paNa e rAga mane gamato nathI, tethI mArA e rAgane teDavAne mATe huM darzanAdi karuM chuM." A rItie darzanAdi kare, to e mekSa ApanAra te thAya; paNa mokSa ApanAra nahi thAya tyAM sudhI ya, te ApaNane saMsAramAM sArI rItie rAkhavA baMdhAela che. jema rAjyanA mahemAnane pilIsa sAcave ke nahi ? ene kema anukUlatA rahe, tenI polIsa ja cintA kare ne? rAjayanI
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________________ 120 cAra gatinAM kAraNo polIsa jyAM bIjAne pesavA na de, tyAM rAjyanA mahemAnane AdarathI laI jAya. e rItie, ApaNe mekSa mATe bhagavAnanuM darzana Adi karanArA thayA, eTale bhagavAnanA banI gayA. pachI te, karmasattA paNa ApaNane sukha ApavA ane kharAba sthitimAM nahi rAkhavA baMdhAelI che. "saMsAranuM sukha tajavA jevuM ja che, eka mokSasukha ja meLavavA jevuM che ane huM je kAMI karuM te mokSasukhane meLavavAne mATe ja karUM-ATalI paNa zrI jinavANI ja jhIlAI jAya, te ya saMsAramAM bAdazAhanI mAphaka jIvavAnuM thaI jAya. anAdi kALathI je karmasattA medA mAryA kare che, te ApaNI saMbhALa rAkhatI thaI jAya. sava samakita pAmyA pahelAM A bhAva kema Ave ? samakti pAmyA pahelAM AvA te ghaNA bhAve AvI zake che. samakti te, ghaNA purUSArthe Ave. mokSane Azaya, eTale mokSanA AzathI dharmakriyA karavAnI vRtti! e, samakita pahelAM ja AvI zake ane e dvArA paNa samakita mATe jarUrI kSapazamAdine sAdhI zakAya. zrI jinazAsananI mokSa mATe upadezAelI kriyAo karanAramAM, vyavahAra samakita mAneluM che. nagama nAmane paNa eka naya mAnelo che. nigama naya, e eka evA prakArane naya che ke-e naya thoDI paNa zrI jinazAsanane anusaratI kriyAne dekhe, eTale e naya ema kahe ke-enAmAM ya samakita che. sa. evA samakitIne saMsAra ardha pudgalaparAvartathI ya ocho khare ke nahi ? cothA guNasthAnakane pAmelA jIvanA ja saMsArane ardha pudagalaparAvartathI e che saMsAra kahI zakAya. e mATe te, darzanamohanIyanA kSayopazamAdinI AvazyakatA. ApaNI vAta
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________________ pahele! bhAga 121 tA e che ke-ApaNane ema nizcita thaI javuM joI e ke'bhagavAne meAkSa mATe dharma kahyo che ane huM je zrI jinadarzanAdika thoDI paNa kriyA karUM chuM, te mokSane mATe karUM chuM' pachI kAI pUche ke-zrI siddhagirie kema AvyA che ?' tA kahevAya ke A evI puNyabhUmi che ke-ahIM kAMkare kAMkare anaMtA siddho thayA che, eTale ahIM AvavAthI mArI paNa mokSanI bhAvanA sateja ane ane mokSamArganI ArAdhanA mArAthI sArI rItie thAya, e mATe huM ahIM Avye chuM.'AvI icchApUrvaka je jIva dharmakriyA karavA maMDayo, te jIva dharmakriyA theADI paNa karI zake, chatAM kamasattA tenI saMbhALa rAkhavA mAMDe. karmasattA ene sukha Ape, paNa mokSanA abhilASa e kAma kare ke-ene emAM muMjhAvA de niha. mokSanA hetuthI dharma karanArane je sukha maLe, te sukha khIjAenA karatAM bhogavaTAmAM sArUM hAya, paNa muMjhavIne bhayaMkara pApa baMdhAvanArUM na heAya. mokSanI IcchApUrvaka karelA nAnA paNa dharmathI je sukha maLe, te bIjI icchAthI moTA paNa dharma karI, te ya nA maLe. uparAnta, e sukha, dharmane bhUlAvI na de, paNa dharma karavAnI anukULatA karI Ape, e vaLI moTA lAbha ! caramAvarttamAM AvavA mAtrathI zuM vaLe? jema zrI tIrthaMkara bhagavAnane saMsAranA sukhanI kAMi ja paDI heAtI nathI, chatAM temAM jarA ya khAmI rahetI nathI. Rddhi-siddhinI emane icchA ke cintA nahi, paNa Rddhisiddhine pAra nahi ! kuTuMbAdi ane sevakajane Adi sarve anukULa hoya. emane indrAdi name te joI e che ema nahi,
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________________ 122 cAra gatinAM kAraNo paNa IndrAdi emane namyA vinA rahe nahi. jagatamAM je mANasa bahumAnanIya banI jAya che, tenuM vacana Adeya thaI jAya che. mANasane jagatamAM bahumAnanIya banAvanAra puNyakarma che. e puNyakarma sAruM bAMdheluM hoya, te enI vacanAdeyatAthI ghaNuM tare. pA5vRtti sAthe e puNyakarma bAMdheluM hoya, to e yahUbe ane e ene maLelI zaktithI anekene DUbAve. saMsAranA sukhanA lebhIyAone sAruM puNyakarma baMdhAya nahi. suMdara keTinuM puNya te, saMsArathI udvigna ane mokSanA arthI mATe ja anAmata hoya che. mokSanA AzayathI dharma karaze, to sukha joIze te maLI raheze, takalIpha naDaze nahi, pApodaye takalIpha Avaze te ya te takalIphamAM ya samAdhi jaze nahi ane sukha bhegavavAnA kALamAM ya rAga muMjhavaze nahi. A dharma karavAne ApaNe anukuLa kALa AvI lAge che, kema keApaNe ahIM AvI gayA chIe. sava game tema avidhithI dharma kare te ya phaLa maLe? mokSane Azaya AvyuM ane mokSanA hetuthI dharma karavAnuM mana thayuM, eTale pachI dharma bhagavAnanI AjJA mujaba karavAnI vRtti AvyA vinA nahi rahe. pachI te, kiyAmAM je avidhi Adi thatuM haze, te ene ja dekhAvA mAMDaze ane khaTakavA mAMDaze, kema ke-khapI thayo khare ne? khapI banela jIva, "pitAne Azaya kevA prakAre phaLe tema che-e zeAdhavAno prayatna karyA vinA rahe nahi. vidhibahumAna hoya, te avidhi bahu nukazAna karI zake nahi; mATe, hamaNAM avidhi AdinI bahu cintAne avakAza nathI. eka vAra Azayazuddhi karI lo, pachI kAma ghaNuM saheluM banI jaze. mokSane Azaya pedA
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________________ 123 pahele bhAga thaI zake, e A kALa che ane mokSane Azaya pedA karyA vinA, AmAMnuM kAMIja vAstavika rUpamAM saphala thaI zake tema nathI. mokSano Azaya zaramAvarta sivAya bIje thato nathI. abhavI ne durbhavI, zrI tIrthakara bhagavAnanA yogane pAmavA chatAM ya, sudharI zakatA nathI; paNa, emAM e bIcArA kare paNa zuM? mokSanA Azayane pAmavAne mATe, te je taddana agya che, kAraNa ke-caramAvarta kALamAM ja mokSano Azaya pedA thaI zake che. ApaNe dhArIe te, ApaNe e Azayane jarUra pedA karI zakIe. e mATe ja, ApaNe e vicAra karavA mAMDayo che ke-puNya tamane saMsAranI sAmagrI paNa ApI che ane dharmanI sAmagrI paNa ApI che, paNa e bemAMthI tamane kayI sAmagrI maLyAne AnaMda che ? A be prakAranI sAmagrImAMthI kayI sAmagrI tarapha tamAruM kheMcANa che ? kyI sAmagrI mATe, kayI sAmagrIne upacoga karavAnuM mana thAya che ? dharmasAmagrIne saphalA karavAmAM saMsArasukhanI sAmagrIne upayogI banAvavI che ke saMsArasukhanI sAmagrInA rakSaNa, bhagavaTA Adine mATe dharmasAmagrIno upayoga karavAnuM mana che? A vagere prazno tamane vicAra karanArA banAvavAne mATe mUkyA che. banne prakAranI sAmagrI te maLI, paNa emAM khumArI kyI sAmagrInI prAptinI ? ema thAya che ke huM te gAmane chuM, ke jyAM eka, be ke vadhu zrI jinamandire che; upAzraye che; sAdhu-sAdhvIonuM AvAgamana cAlu che ane sAdhamikene sahavAsa che? athavA mAre deza te che, ke jyAM ghaNAM tIrtho AvelAM che, ema thAya che? zaramAvarta, e dharmaprAptine kALa khare, adhyAtmanI prApti caramAvartamAM ja thaI zake, paraMparAe mokSanuM kAraNa
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________________ 124 cAra gatinAM kAraNe banI zake-evI dravya kiyAo paNa mAtra caramAvartamAM ja saMbhave, paNa caramAvartamAM AvavA mAtrathI kAMI vaLe nahi. nAlAyakAtane ya sAce khyAla joIe? e vAta nakkI ke-caramAvartane pAmyA pahelAM, mokSane Azaya na Ave, temAM, kALanI pratikULatA e mahattvanuM kAraNa paNa caramAvarta te AtmAnA purUSArthane kALa che. adhyAtmane AzrayIne puruSArtha karavAnuM mana thAya, to te caramAvarta kALamAM ja thAya. AvA kALane pAmavA chatAM paNa ane AvA kALamAM uttama sAmagrIne vega thayA chatAM paNa, ApaNe je zrI jinavANIne jhIlI zakIe nahi, te zuM kahevAya ? sameTI nAlAyakI. kharekhara, A kALamAM ane AvI uttama sAmagrInA cogamAM paNa "saMsAra tajavA jevuM che-ema lAge nahi ane mokSane Azaya pragaTe nahi, te ApaNAmAM haju ghaNI nAlAyakAta che, ema tamane lAgavuM ja joIe. haju paNa ApaNI nAlAyakAta jIvatI ne jAgatI che, enuM je tamane bhAna thAya, te ene upAya jhaTa thAya. jene "huM nAlAyaka chuM - ema lAge, te pitAnI nAlAyakIne kADhavAnI ane lAyakAtane meLavavAnI keziSa kare ke nahi? paNa, tame, tamArA antaHkaraNamAM tamane pitAne nAlAyaka mAne che kharA? ApaNe jevA chIe, tevA ApaNane mAnatA nathI; ApaNane ApaNI nAlAyakInuM kharekharUM bhAna nathI; enAthI paNa ghaNI moTI paMcAta ubhI thaI gaI che. mANasa jyAre sAcA dilathI pitAne nAlAyaka mAne che, tyAre enAthI pitAnI nAlAyakI khamI
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________________ pahele bhAga 125 jAtI nathI. e nAlAyakIthIe mukta na banI zake-e bane, paNa ene pitAnI nAlAyakI khaTakyA vinA-duHkha upajAvyA vinA rahe nahi. AjanA keTalAka dhama gaNAtAomAM paNa khumArI hovAnuM jaNAI Ave che. theDI-ghaNI kiyA kare, temAM ya khAsa bhalIvAra jevuM te hoya nahi, chatAM mUrkhAIbharI khumArI evI ke-Azayazuddhi ane vidhibahumAnanI vAtane e leke premathI sAMbhaLI zake paNa nahi. evAne ja pUchIe ke-"tuM je A kriyAo kare che, te tArA haiyAmAM ema ugI gayuM che ke-saMsAra kheTo che, saMsAranuM sukha tajavA jevuM che ane saMsArathI chUTavuM che, mATe A kriyAo karuM chuM! ?" te prAyaH locA vALavA mAMDe. anukULatA na hoya ne mAtra eka ja sAmAyika karato hoya, paNa saMsArathI chUTavAno ane mokSane sAdhavAne Azaya haiye hoya, to e eka sAmAyikathI paNa ghaNe moTe lAbha thaI jAya. A vAtane je e samaje ane A Azayane haiye rAkhIne e kriyA karavA mAMDe, te samyagyadarzanAdi anAthI AghAM rahI zake nahi. e vinA te, kriyAmAM avidhi Adi ghaNA de Ave, chatAM ene TALavAnuM mana thAya nahi ane viparIta Azaya to evuM ya pariNAma lAve ke-jenA cage saMsAra ghaTa joIe, tene ja meMge saMsAra vadhI jAya. evI ja rItie, nAlAyakAta hoya paNa ene jo sAco khyAla AvI jAya, to lAyakAtane meLavavAnuM mana thAya. ene thayA ja kare ke-"huM keTale badhe nAlAyaka chuM, ke jethI AvI sundara sAmagrIno cega thavA chatAM paNa, mane haju "saMsAranuM sukha tajavA jevuM che' -ema lAgatuM nathI ane mAre mokSa ja meLavavo che - evo bhAva mArAmAM pedA thato nathI ?
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________________ ra6 cAra gatinAM kAraNe sa, nAlAyaka chIe ema kahe, paNa te ya bevaDA lAyaka chIe evuM ThasAvavAne mATe kahe. daMbhathI bole, e te vaLI vadhAre DUbe. A, daMbhathI bolavAnI vAta nathI, paNa haiyA sAthe nirNaya karavA jevI vAta che. ekAntamAM beThA hoya, tyAre ya e ema vicAre ke-mAre e te kevo pApedaya che ke, anantajJAnio saMsArane bhayaMkare kahe che, chatAM paNa mane A saMsAra bhayaMkara lAgato nathI? bIjA AgaLa te kyAre kahe ? acAnaka "uddagAra nIkaLI jAya athavA te kahevAnI pharaja paDe tyAre kahe. bAkI deva pAse jAya, tyAM ya e devanA svarUpane lakSyamAM rAkhIne pitAnI nAlAyakAtane raDe ane gurU pAse paNa pitAnI nAlAyakI kevI che te avasare khUllI kare. pitAnI nAlAyakAtane mATe je deva-gurUnI pAse ke ekAntamAM rahetA nathI ane cAra pAse raDe che, te to daMbhamAM jAya. A te ApaNe ApaNI pitAnI antardazAne pichAnatA banI jaIe, e mATenI vAta che. AvA saMge maLavA chatAM paNa, mokSane Azaya je pragaTe nahi, te pitAne ema thaI jAya ke-"huM keTale badhe nAlAyaka chuM, ke jethI AvA suMdara pegamAM paNa, mArAmAM mekSane Azaya pragaTate nathI! ?" zrI jaina zAsanamAM mekSanI vAta na hoya te bIjuM hoya paNa zuM ? eka mekSa Azaya AvI jAya, te A dharmakriyAomAM te ajaba tAkAta che. mekSane abhilASa pragaTyA pachI, saMsAranI kriyA paNa tIvra bhAve thaI zakatI nathI, eTale,
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________________ pahelA bhAga 127 pApa ochuM aMdhAya che ane thADI paNa je dharmakriyA thAya che, te mATe lAbha ApanArI thAya che. meAkSanA Azaya AvatAM, karma anukULa banavA mAMDe che. rAjye peAlIsa bajAramAM gADhavI che, te bhayaMkara keAne mATe ? mamAzAne mATe; bAkI sajjanAdine te rastA karI ApavAne mATe ne ? AjanI peAlIsa zuMkare che, te tarapha na jotA, paNa rAjye peAlIsa rAkhI che zA mATe ? sArA ane sIdhA mANasAnI anukULatA mATe ne ? tema, meAkSanA Azaya AvyeA, eTale ApaNe mATe karma sArUM banI jAya. AvI uttama kriyAe teA maLI gaI che ane emAM meAkSanA Azaya AvI jAya, pachI kamInA zI rahe ? mAtra bhAvanA ja pheravavAnI jarUra che ne ? keTalI bhAvanA pheravavI joIe ? saMsAranuM sukha joItuM nathI ane mokSa joI e che. ApaNe mATe te, A ghaNuM saheluM kAma che, kema keApaNA bhagavAna kANu ? saMsAranuM sukha ghaNuM hatuM, chatAM tene tajI denArA, mokSane sAdhanArA ane mokSamArgane pravartAvanArA ! gurU paNa saMsAranA tyAgI ane mokSamArganI ja ArAdhanAmAM rata rahenArA. jenA haiyAmAM mokSanA Azaya pragaTyo hoya, te ghare jAya ke peDhIe jAya, teA paNa A vAtane e bhUlI zake nahi. A dharma mokSa mATe ja che, A vicAra jene nathI AvyA, tene kayA kAraNasara A vicAra nathI AvyA ? ApaNe tyAM te mokSa zabda rAja, vAraMvAra, lagabhaga badhI kriyAomAM ane badhA parameSThinA varNanamAM Ave che. chevaTa kAMI nahi,teA khAra mahine zrI kalpasUtra tA sAMbhaLe ne ? temAM ya, sAMbhaLyuM haze ne ke-bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevAe zrI tIrthaMkara-nAmakarma saune meAkSamArganA rasika anAvI devAnI
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________________ 128 cAra gatinAM kAraNe bhAvanA dvArA upAryuM ane e bhAvanAthI nikAcita karelA puNyanA vazathI ja, mokSamArga rU5 A zAsananI e tArakoe sthApanA karI ? ATaluM sAMbhaLavA-jANavA maLyuM hoya, te chatAM paNa je mekSanI IcchA na thaI hoya, to te navAInI ja vAta gaNAya ne ? sa0 saMskAra ja nathI pAmyA. zrAvakakuLanA saMskAro te sArAmAM sArA hovA joIe. e saMskArene tame jhIlyA hatA, te ya mekSa na bhUlAta. A avasarpiNI kALamAM A kSetramAM covIsa bhagavAna thayA ne? e kyAM gayA? mele! zuM sthApIne mokSe gayA? mokSamArgane sthApIne ! ApaNe tyAM te, mokSanI vAta, Dagale ne pagale Ave. ApaNe jemane bhagavAna mAnIe chIe, te lIlA kare nahi, mekSe gayA che tyAMthI pAchA Ave nahi, emane saMsAra heya nahi, have e kadI paNa dehane dhAraNa kare nahi. ema ApaNe tyAM te devanuM paNa badhuM svarUpa eTaluM cokhuM che ke-A bhagavAnane mAnanArane, mokSanI IcchA thayA vinA rahe nahi. ApaNe jANIe chIe ne ke-ApaNA jevIse ya bhagavantoe dIkSA lIdhelI ? dIkSA letAM pahelAM, e, badhI vAte sukhI hatA ke koI vAte duHkhI hatA ? dIkSA lIdhelI, te sukhane tajIne lIdhelI ke dukhathI bhAgI chUTavAne lIdhelI? badhA ya zrI tIrthaMkaradeve, badhI ya vAte sukhI ja hatA. eke ya zrI tIrthaMkaradeva, eke ya vAte duHkhI nahotA. ApaNe tyAM te, krama ja e che ke-zrI tIrthaMkara bhagavAna badhI ja rItie uMcA hoya ane dAnAdi badhA ya prakAranA dharmane ArAdhIne mekSe gayelA heya. e tArake, dIkSA letAM pahelAM, dAna keTaluM
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________________ 129 pahelo bhAga de? eka varSa sudhI, reja, niyamita dAna de ane teya "mAgo' mAgo -ema kahIne dAna de. lakSmI rAkhavI sArI nahi, tajavI ja sArI,-ema e tArakoe, dAnathI paNa lokanA haiyAmAM pesADI dIdhuM. sArA mANasonA haiyAmAM e bhAvanA pedA karI dIdhI ke-lamI jo sArI heta, rAkhavA jevI ja hota, to AvA mahApurUSa, jema kAMkarA uDADe tema lakSamIne uDAData kharA? tame jema vIse ya bhagavonAM nAme jANe che, tema e tArake e kevuM dAna dIdhuM, te pachI kevI rItie saMsArane tyAga karI dIdhe, te pachI kaSAyethI sarvathA rahita banIne kevalajJAna upArjavAne kevAM kevAM kaSTone-upasargone ane parISahIne prasanna hRdaye sahyA, ema kevalajJAnane upArjine e tArakoe mokSamArganI sthApanA karI ne jagatanA jIne eka mAtra mokSamArgane ja upadeza ApavA mAMDyo ane AyuSyane anta e tArake mekSane pAmyA, e vagere paNa jANe che ke nahi? AvuM jANanArane, mokSanI vAtamAM, navAI zAnI lAge? ene te, ema ja thAya ke-zrI jaina zAsanamAM mokSa sivAyanuM kaI lakSya ja hoI zake nahi. bhagavAnanA thai jAva : ApaNA sagAmAM, ApaNane mokSanI IcchA thavI, e ghaNuM ja saheluM ane svAbhAvika che ne? mokSanI IcchA thaI jAya ane e lakSyathI nAnI paNa dharmakriyA karavAne abhilASa pragaTe, eTale saMsAramAM ya badhu anukULa banavA mAMDe. AvA saMgo maLavA chatAM paNa, je mokSane Azaya pragaTe nahi, te adhika kALa bAkI che ke pachI karma bahu bhAre che, e te
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________________ 130 cAra gatinAM kAraNo jJAnI kahI zake. mArAM karma bahu bhAre che, eTalo vicAra Ave ane e khaTake, te ya karmane bhedavA prayAsa karavAnuM mana thAya. A Azaya na Ave, te badhI huMzIyArI eLe javAnI. kharAba mANasa jema adhika huMzIyAra thAya, tema adhika kharAba thAya. ApaNe, ApaNA kalyANane mATe, je kAMI dharma cAle che te audacika bhAvane cAle che ke kSaye pazama-bhAvane cAle che, tenI zedha karavI joIe. paugalika abhilASAthI thate dharma, te audayika bhAve thate dharma che. padgalika abhilASAthI dharma na thAya, paNa mekSanI abhilASAthI dharma thAya, e jANavA chatAM ya je paugalika abhilASAnA AgrahathI dharma thAya, te dharma karatI veLAe paNa pApane baMdha joradAra thAya. enA pariNAme, sukha thoDuM maLe ane duHkha ghaNuM maLe. sukhanA kALamAM ya asamAdhi rahyA ja kare, eTale te vakhate ya pApa ghaNuM baMdhAya. ene badale, bhagavAnanA thaI jAva ne ? bhagavAnanA thaI jAva, eTale sukhamAM ya sukhI ane duHkhamAM ya sukhI! tame Iccho nahi chatAM sukha tamArI pAchaLa bhamyA kare ane je dukha Ave te ya javAne mATe Ave. pakaDanArI pilIsa cAkarI karavA maMDI paDe, e kone game nahi? tema, tamAre je tamArA karmanI pAse cAkarI karAvavI hoya, te ene mATe A ja upAya che. nAlAyakane dharma nahi devAmAM paNa upakAraH dharma je-tene apAya nahi. lAyakAta joIne ja dharma devAnuM vidhAna. jene dharma Apa haya, tene DuMTI sudhI jaIne oLakha paDe, eTale ke jANavuM paDe ke-Ane bIju mUkavAnuM
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________________ 131 pahelA bhAga ane A levAnuM mana thayuM che, tenuM kAraNa zuM ?' manatI dareka rItie, khAtrI karI levI paDe ke-AnA haiyAmAM kevA bhAva pedA thayA che, ke jethI e saMsArathI vimukha banAvIne dharmasanmukha banAvanArI kriyAone karavA tatpara thayA che? dharmane levA AvelA kANu che, kayAMnA che, e vagere jANyA pachI, ene pUchAya ke-zA mATe dharma joie che?" jo e ema kahe ke--mane A saMsAramAM bhaTakavuM gamatuM nathI, mAre saMsArathI nistAra pAmavA che, mATe huM A dharma karavA Avyo chuM' tA e lAyaka gaNAya. e pachI, eNe kahelI vAta sAcI che ke nahi, enI paNa parIkSA karAya; paNa e jo ema ja kahe ke-A dharma karavAthI bhegasukha, mAnapAnAdi sArAM maLe che, mATe dharma karavA Avye huM'-tA e lAyaka gaNAya nahi. ene lAyaka banAvavAnA prayatna thAya. ene samajAvAya ke-- A dharma ja tene mATe che, ke jene saMsArathI chUTavuM hAya.' mugdhAne mArge caDhAvavAne mATe, bALakane patAsuM ApIne ya pAThazALAe jatA karAya che, tema paNa gItArthA dharmAcaraNane mArge dore; kema ke-mugdhAne viparIta hetunA Agraha hotA nathI. samajanA abhAve ja te jIvA paulika Azaya rAkhe che, paNa paudgalika AzayanA temane Agraha hotA nathI. jene paulika AzayanA Agraha hoya, te teA A dharmane mATe nAlAyaka ja che. AzayanI zuddhi paNa joI e ane vratapAlananI dRDhatA paNa joI e. A dharmanI ArAdhanAthI jema asAdhAraNa lAbha thAya che, tema A dharmanI virAdhanAthI nukazAna paNa asAdhAraNa thAya che. dharmanA svIkAra nahi karavAmAM je nukazAna che, tethI kei guNuM nukazAna, dharmanA svIkara karIne dharmanI
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________________ 132 cAra gatinAM kAraNo virAdhanA karavAmAM che. dadI davA na khAya emAM dardIine nukazAna jarUra che, paNa davA le ane carI pALe nahi, kupane sevavA mAMDe, te je davA dardIne nAza karavAne samartha hatI, te ja davA daIne khUba khUba vadhArI mUke-evA rUpe pariName. dharmanA sAcA dAtAo dayALu hoya che. keIne paNa nukazAna thaI jAya nahi ane thAya te lAbha ja thAya, evI e tArakenI mane vRtti hoya che. AthI, lAyakane dharma de-emAM jema sva -parane upakAra che, tema nAlAyakane dharma nahi detAM lAyakAta keLavavAnuM kahe, emAM paNa sva-parane upakAra ja che. "carI nahi pALe te e maraze, emAM mAre zuM?, huM te davA sArI ApuM ane pathyApathya kahI chUTuM -AvuM dayALu vadha na kahe dayALu vaidya kupagyane aNagame na jue ane dardI kupa ja sevavAne che ema lAge, te davA na Ape; kema kebane te dardIine sAjo kare che, paNa davA ApIne ene vahela. mAra nathI. tema jene saMsAra mATe nahi paNa mokSane mATe ja dharma karavAnI IcchA hoya ane jenAmAM "bhaviSyamAM paNa viSayAbhilASAdithI pIDAIne dharma mUkAya to ya temAM harakata jevuM nathI--A bhAva na hoya, ene ja bhagavAne batAvelA A auSadhanuM sevana, mokSa rUpa Aregyane ApanAruM nivaDe che. bAhoza dharmadAtA paNa chetarAya e bane? dharmano atha mugdha hoya te cAle, paNa dharmane dAtA mugdha bane, e cAle nahi. gyAyegyatA jue nahi ane uMdhuM ghAlIne dharma jene-tene daI de, pachI kahe ke- ApaNe te dharma ja dIdhuM che ne?"_AvuM dharmadAtA tarIkenI javA
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________________ pahele bhAga 133 badArI samajanArathI belAya nahi. mATe te, gItArthane ja dharmadAnane adhikAra che. dharmadAtA cAle tyAM sudhI nAlAyakane dharma de nahi, banatI parIkSA karIne lAyaka jaNAya te ja dharma de ane mugdhane de to ya vicAre ke-AnAmAM samaja nathI, bAkI viparIta bhAvane Ane Agraha nathI" ane ene ya samaju banAvIne Azayazuddhi pamADavAnuM lakSya rAkhe. dharmadAtAne mAthe, dharmane levA AvelAnI lAyakAta tapAsavAnI javAbadArI na hota, to pelA vinayaratnane dIkSita banAvanAra AcAryabhagavAne, "evA duSTane meM kyAM dIkSA daI dIdhI ? meM ja bhUla karI"--e je pazcAttApa karyo, te karata nahi. vinayaratnanA AcaraNathI, e mahApurUSa, enI nAlAyakAtane jANI zakyA nathI. vinayaratna je rItie dIkSita banavA Avyo hato, temAM game tevA parIkSakanI paNa bhUla thaI jAya evuM hatuM. kevaLa chetarapIMDI karIne pitAnuM dhAryuM kAma kADhavAne mATe je AvyuM hoya, te bAhoza hoya te bhalabhalA bAheza dharmadAtAne paNa chetarI jAya, emAM navAI nathI. vAtacIta ne vartAva vagere evuM hoya ke-chadmastha dharmadAtA mAtra cherAI ja jAya ema nahi, paNa evA chetarAI jAyaka-bIjA sArA munio karatAM paNa e duSTa hadayane muni vadhAre sAre lAge. AvAonI banatI parIkSA karI hoya, chatAM chetarAI javAyuM heya-e bane ane jyAre enuM bhayaMkara pariNAma Ave, tyAre gurUne khyAla Ave ane pazcAttApa thAya. parIkSA karavA chatAM ya duHkha thAya, kema ke parIkSA karavAne je hetu hatuM, te saryo nahi ne ? ajJAnavaza paNa eTalI bhUla thaIne? mahApurUSane potAnI evI bhUla mATe paNa, khUba khUba lAgI AvyA vinA
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________________ 134 cAra gatinAM kAraNe rahe nahi. vinayaratna jyAre rAjAnuM khUna karIne bhAgI gayo, te pachI e vAtane khyAla AvatAnI sAthe ja, vinaya ratnane dIkSita banAvanAra AcAryabhagavAnane, evuM ja lAgI AvyuM che ke-AvA krUra svabhAvanA nAlAyaka AtmAne meM kyAM dIkSita banAvI dIdhe?" e AcAryabhagavAne, pite bedarakArIthI ke jANI joIne ene dIkSita banAvyo nahi hatuM, te chatAM paNa e mahApurUSane bahu lAgI AvyuM. vinayaratnane prasaMga: vinaya ratnanA prasaMgamAM banyuM che evuM ke-prasaMgavazAta rAjA udAyI pratye, enA haiyAmAM tIvra prakArane dveSabhAva pragaTavA pAmyo hato. e mULa te rAjakumAra hite. enuM rAjya yuddhamAM rAjA udAyInA kabajAmAM AvyuM hatuM. AthI, te pitAnI rAjyabhUmine tajIne, anya kaI rAjAnI sevAmAM jaI rahyo hate. je rAjAnI sevAmAM jaIne e rAjakumAra rahyo hato, te rAjAne paNa rAjA udAyInI sAthe aNabanAva hatuM. A takane lAbha laIne, e rAjakumAre, avasare pitAnA svAmine kahyuM ke ApanA zatru udAyI rAjAne nAza huM karI ApuM. pelA rAjAe paNa, e kAmanA badalAmAM, enI mAgaNI mujaba rAjyane bhAga ApavAnuM kabUla karyuM. rAjakumAra rAjya te joItuM ja hatuM, paNa rAjA udAthInI sAthe laDIne e rAya meLavI zake, evuM enAmAM sAmarthya nahatuM. rAjA udAyI mahA pratApI hatA ane e jIvatA hoya tyAM sudhI zatru rAjAonuM kAMI vaLe tema nahotuM. e rAjakumAra, jarUrI veSapalaTa karIne, rAjA udAyInI
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________________ pahelA bhAga 135 rAjadhAnImAM AvyeA. ene teA mAtra rAjA udAyInuM khUna karavuM hatuM, eTale e mATenI taka e zeAdhavA lAgyA. eNe joyuM ke-rAjamahelanI bahAra tA, rAjAnuM khUna karI zakAya tema che ja nahi ane jAptA evA che ke rAjamahelamAM te praveza karI zake tema nathI. AthI, e rAjakumAre zeAdhavA mAMDyuM ke--A rAjamahelamAM niHzaMka praveza keAnA che ? rAjA udAcIna! rAjamahelamAM, koI paNa prakAranI roka-Toka sivAya, mAtra jaina sAdhue jaI zakatA. e sivAyanA teA te ja jaI zakatA, ke jemane paravAnagI hoya. AthI, e rAjakumAre jaina sAdhu banavAnA nirNaya karyo, kAraNa ke--eNe e mAtamI paNa meLavI hatI ke-jaina munienuM ja, rAjAnI pAse ekAntamAM alpsalita gamanAgamana, thaI zake che. AvA mANasa, jyAre rAjAnuM khUna karavAnA irAdAthI jaina munipaNAne svIkAravAne taiyAra thai jAya, tyAre e keTalI pUrva taiyArI karI le ? peAtAnA haiyAmAM bhAre bhavirAga utpanna thayA che, evuM sAmAne jaNAvavAmAM e kacAza rAkhe kharA? saMsArathI atyanta udvigna anyA hoya ane mAkSa sivAya potAne kazAnA khapa ja na hoya, evA bhAvane pradarzita karatA te rAjakumAra, sUrimahArAjAnI pAse AvyeA. sUrimahArAjAne jema banAvaTI bhAva darzAvyeA, tema nAma-ThAma paNa banAvaTI darzAvyAM; paNa e badhuM eTalI badhI heAMzIyArIthI karyuM ke-mahA gItArtha evA sUramahArAjA paNa, enI banAvaTa viSe kalpanA sarakhI ya karI zakayA nahi ane ethI sUrimahArAjAe ene bahu lAyaka samajIne, ane dIkSA daI dIdhI. A rAjakumArane dIkSA denArA sUrimahArAjA prabhuzAsananA
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________________ 136 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA marmanA jJAtA hatA ane prabhuzAsanane hAni thatI aTakAvavAne mATe avasare jAna paNa daI de evA hatA, ema ApaNe teozrIe chelle karelI vicAraNA ane AcaraNA uparathI paNa kalpI zakIe evuM che. AvA sUrimahArAjA vagara parIkSAe dIkSA dai de ja nahi, paNa kapaTakuzaLa AtmAe evA paNa mahAtmAone chetarI jAya, e zakaya che. maMtrIzvara zrI abhayakumAra mahA buddhinidhAna hatA, paNa vezyAthI chetarAI gayA ne ? vezyA vezyAnA veSamAM heta, tA zrI abhayakumAra chetarAta nahi, paNa eNe parama zrAvikAnA pATha bhajavIne zrI alayakumArane chetaryAM. vezyAnuM vartana parama zrAvikA jevuM joIne, peAtAnA haiyAmAM rahelA dharmabhAvanA yeAge ja, zrI abhayakumAra enI jALamAM phasAI gayA ane eka abaLA zrI abhayakumArane aMdhAvIne zatru rAjAnI pAse lai jai zakI. dharmanA bhAvamAM AvuM ane, e Azcaryajanaka nathI. dharmI game teTalA cakAra hAya, paNa dharmanA AThe e chetarAI jAya, e banavAjoga che. ane, emAM dharmAMnI nAnama nathI, paNa emAM te dharmInI mahattA che. AvI rItie chetarAI javAya, emAM dharmInI kALajInI uNapa gaNAya nahi. ema sUrimahArAjA paNa pelA rAjakumAranI dharmanA arthipaNAnI anAvaTamAM AvI gayA. e rAjakumAre dIkSA te lIdhI, paNa eNe, eNe lIdhela vratAnuM pAlana karavAnI keTalI kALajI rAkhI che, te jANA che ? sarva kriyAomAM apramAda ane sarvatra vinayabhAva tA jANe enA mApanA ja. vratapAlanamAM ane ATale cAsa anAvavAmAM, anya munionI AcAraparAyaNatAnA paNa phALA to kharo ja. A munimaMDaLamAM AvatAM, enA upara evI chApa
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________________ pahele bhAga 137 paDelI ja ke "ahIM A rItie ja vartAya ane Ama vatIe te ja saunA pratipAtra banAya tema ja kaI kadI paNa ApaNA tarapha zaMkAnI najarathI jue nahi!"munioe ane zrAvakee A vAta vicAravA jevI che. tamArA maMDaLamAM nave kaI AvI jAya, te tenA upara tamArA AcAra-vicAranI AvI chApa paDe ne? AvanArane ema lAge ne ke-ahIM sau pitapatAnA lIdhelA vratanuM pAlananI kALajIvALA che ane ahIM teone ja vadhu ne vadhu Adara thAya che, ke jeo pitAnA lIdhelA vratanuM pAlana karavAne mATe utsAhita rahetA hoya che. tame tamArA AcAra-vicArathI, sAmAnA vratapAlanano utsAha vadhAranArA ja bane che ne ? pelo rAjakumAra te dIkSita banIne, pitAnAM vratanuM sArI rItie niraticAra pAlana karavAmAM, jANe ekatAna banI gaye. bIjI tarapha, teNe gurUmahArAja ane anya munionI paNa evA prakAre ArAdhanA karavA mAMDI ke-munie A rAjakumArane mATe -banAvaTI zramaNane mATe, "A ja sAdhu zreSTha che-ema mAnavA lAgyA. enA vinayAcArathI e "vinaya ratna" tarIke oLakhAvA lAgyA. sau enA vinayAdinI prazaMsA karavA lAgyA. A uparathI, jarA kalpanA te kare ke-e kevAka prakAre vrata pAlana ane vinayAcaraNa karato haze? enuM A badhuM AcaraNa, kevaLa udayabhAvanuM nATaka hatuM, ke daMbha hatuM, paNa AvuM vinayAcaraNa ane vrata pAlana je kSayezama bhAvanA cage ja hoya, to AnuM kevuM sundara pariNAma Ave? AvA vratapAlana ane vinayAcaraNathI, karmo te bhAgAbhAga karI mUke; paraMtu enA kamanasIbe, A vratapAlanAdi udaya
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________________ 138 cAra gatinAM kAraNe bhAvanuM nATaka hatuM, eTale karmo bhAgAbhAga karavAne badale, khUba khUba baMdhAtAM hatAM. vratapAlanAdithI, karmothI aLago thavAne badale, e baMdhAte jato hate. kiyA keTalI uttama che je Azayazuddhine vega hoya, to kriyA evI che ke-ati kaThina karmonI paNa tAkAta nathI ke-TakI zake. AvI uttama kiyA paNa, eka pApamaya AzayanA kAraNe ja, phalavatI banI zakI nahi ane bhAre pApakarmothI lepAvanArI nivaDI ! AthI, ApaNe prabhuzAsananI nAnAmAM nAnI kriyA paNa, viparIta bhAvathI rahitapaNe ane kevaLa bhavanistAranA hetuthI ja karavI joIe, ema lAge che ne? pelA rAjakumArane bhavanistArane khapa nahote, paNa ApaNane te bhavanistArane ja khapa che ne? kharAba AzayathI, kaSAyanA cegamAM paDelo paNa e rAjakumAra, je A lekanA eka hetune siddha karavAne mATe ATalI badhI kALajI rAkhe, to ApaNe te bhavaparaMparAne TALavI che, aneka bhAmAM saMcita karelAM karmonI nirjarA karavI che ane mokSane meLavo che, mATe ApaNe vratapAlanAdimAM keTalI badhI kALajI rAkhavI joIe ? ApaNuM AzayamAM khAmI che ke ApaNI kiyA karavAmAM khAmI che ke pachI beyamAM ThekANuM nathI ? pelA rAjakumArane jevuM kaSAyanA udayanuM jora hatuM, tevuM je ApaNe kSapazama bhAvanuM jora pragaTAvIe, te kAma thaI jAya ne ? banAvaTI zramaNa evA A rAjakumAre, A pramANenuM AcaraNa bAra bAra varSo sudhI karyuM. emAM eke ya divasa belavAcAlavAmAM paNa eNe A zramaNapaNAnA pAlana pAchaLa mokSane Azaya nathI ane anya keI Azaya che, evuM jaNAvA
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________________ pahele bhAga 139 dIdhuM nahi. dareka vAtamAM ane dareka vartanamAM, eNe eTale badhe zAntabhAva rAkhe ke-khUda AcArya mahArAjane paNa lAgyuM ke-"A AtmAmAM zama pariNamyo che. AvI asara thayelI hovAthI ja, AcAryamahArAja dvArA, sahasAtkAre bhUla thaI javA pAmI. rAjA udAyI, aSTamI ane caturdazInA divasoe, rAtripauSadha karatA hatA. rAjA pauSadha paNa potAnA mahelamAM ja karatA hatA ane ethI sva-parane upakAra sAdhavAnA mArgane jANanArA tathA sva-parano upakAra sAdhavAmAM parAyaNa AcArya mahArAja paNa, dharmakathAnA hetuthI, e divase rAjamahelamAM jaIne, tyAM ja rAjAnI sAthe rAtri pasAra karatA hatA. e mujaba, eka parvatithinA dine, sAMjanA samaye sUrimahArAja rAjamahelamAM javAne mATe taiyAra thayA ane saMbhramathI teoe pelA mAyAvI zramaNane AjJA karI ke-"he kSullaka ! upakaraNa le. ApaNe rAjakuLamAM jaIe !" | mAyAvI zramaNa rUpe rahelA rAjakumArane taka maLI gaI. ATalI badhI mahenata Aje lekhe lAgaze, ema ene lAgyuM. rAtri mATe Avazyaka upakaraNo eNe laI lIdhAM bAra bAra varSothI oghAmAM chUpAvIne sAcavI rAkhelI chUrI paNa saMbhALI lIdhI; ane bhakti rUpa nATakane karate te rAjakumAra muni, AcAryamahArAjanI sAthe cAlyA. rAjamahelamAM gayA bAda, lAMbA samaya sudhI dharmakriyAo ane dharmakathAo cAlI. dharmakathA karIne AcArya mahArAja tathA pauSadhamAM rahela rAjA udAyI paNa saMthArA upara suI gayA. zAsananA e bane mahApurUSe suI gayA ane nidrAdhIna
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________________ 140 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA anI gayA. mAyAvI zramaNa rAjakumAra, saMthArAmAM sutA sutA, uMghI gayAnA DhoMga karatA hatA, paNa uMghdhA nahAtA. jyAre ene kharAkhara khAtrI thaI gai ke-AcAryamahArAja ane rAjA, banne ya nidrAdhIna thaI gayA che, eTale e uco; potAnA eghAmAM varSo thayAM sAcavI rAkhelI chUrI eNe kADhI; ane jarA paNu arerATa vinA, jarA paNa khamacAyA vinA, pUratI jhaDapathI eNe rAjAnuM gaLuM kApI nAkhyuM ! rAjAnA gaLAne kApI nAkhyA bAda, pelA mAyAvI zramaNa rAjakumAra, tyAM jarA vAra paN thAbhyA nahi. sthaMDila javAnA ahAne te bahAra nIkaLyo ane bhAgI chUTayo. ahIM banyuM evuM ke-rAjAnA zarIramAMthI leAhI vahetuM vahetuM sUrimahArAjAnA saMthArA nIce AvyuM. lAhIthI sUrimahArAjAnA saMthArA bhIMjAI gayA ane enI asarathI sUrimahArAjA jAgI gayA. sUrijI mahArAje tapAsa karI, tA rAjAnuM gaLuM kapAeluM joyuM, pAse chUrI paDelI joi ane pelA mAyAvI zramaNanA saMthArA khAlI joyeA. e badhuM joine, zuM banavA pAmyuM che tenI. kalpanA teoe karI lIdhI. emanA haiyAe kArameA AMcakA anubhabyA. emane lAgyuM ke- mArI ja bhUlathI akalpanIya evuM A ati bhayaMkara kRtya banI gayuM !' ghaNA pazcAttApa thaye ke- AvA pApine dIkSita karavAnI ane ahIM lAvavAnI bhUla, mArAthI kema thaI gaI ?' pachI pAte pariNAmanA vicAra karavA lAgyA. manI gayuM, te banI gayuM; e anyathA thavAnuM nahAtuM; paNa have vadhu nukazAna na thAya, e teA jovuM joie ne ? sUrijI mahArAjAe nirNaya karI ke-bhagavAnanA zAsana upara AvavI
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________________ pahele bhAga 141 susaMbhavita evI mahA AphatanuM je nivAraNa karavuM hoya, to mAre mArA hAthe ja mAruM khUna paNa karI nAkhavuM joIe. ema thAya, te ja evI vAyakA phelAya ke-kaI duSTa jaina dharma pratyenA dveSathI rAjAnuM ane sUrimahArAjanuM khUna karI nAkhyuM !" Avo nirNaya karI laIne, e mahApurUSe tarata ja pAse paDelI chUrIthI pitAnA gaLAne paNa chedI nAkhyuM ! TheTha nizALIyA jevA to nathI ne? ApaNe vAta te e hatI ke-dharma jene tene apAya nahi. dharmane atha banIne Avelo, bhavanitArane atha banIne dharmane arthI banyuM che ke nahi, te jovuM joIe. parIkSA karavA chatAM ya, chadmasthapaNuM Adine kAraNe bhUla thaI jAya e bane, paNa dharma e evI kiMmatI davA che ke-e game tene daI devAya nahi. zrI jaina zAsananI sthApanA ja mokSane mATe che. zrI jaina zAsanane jene cheDe paNa paricaya thAya, tene ema ja lAge ke-ahIM badhuM mokSanA hetuthI ja varNavAeluM che. sau saMsArathI mUkAya ane mokSane pAme, e bhAvanA A zAsananA mULamAM che. je kuLamAM A zAsananI chAyA heya, evA kuLamAM AvelAne, mekSanI vAtamAM navAI lAge ja nahi. ApaNane zuM lAge che? saMsAra tajavA jevuM che ane mokSa ja meLavavA jevuM che, e vAtamAM zaMkA kharI ? mokSane Azaya AvI jAya, te phAyado keTalo? mokSanA AzayathI karelI dharmakriyAothI nirjarA sadhAya ane puNyabaMdha thAya te te ucca prakArane thAya. e puNyanA udayathI sukha maLe ghaNuM, bhegavAya ghaNuM sArI rItie ane tema chatAM ya e
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________________ 4i2 cAra gatinAM kAraNe tamArAmAM kharAba bhAvane pedA kare nahi. "ame nAlAyaka chIe"--ema kahIne tame chUTI jAe, ene koI artha nathI. antaHkaraNamAM nAlAyakAtane khyAla pedA thavo joIe. sAce khyAla Ave, eTale khaTakA pedA thayA vinA rahe nahi. ApaNane sAce ja ApaNe nAlAyakane khyAla AvI jAya, te ApaNe ene kADhavAne banate prayatna karyA vinA rahIe nahi. jema vidyAne arthI heya paNa buddhi ochI hoya, te e vidyArthI dareka vastune samajavAne mATe vadhAre ne vadhAre parizrama kare che ane naThera vidyArthI mAstara bhaNAve tyAre dhyAna Ape nahi, mAstara je kahe tene samajavAne prayatna kare nahi, ghera lezana kare nahi ane tema chatAM paNa mAstarane ayogya kahI de. mAstara ene zikhAmaNa Ape ke zikSA kare, te e mAstaranI khabara laI nAkhavAnI dhamakI paNa Ape. tame tamArI nAlAyakAtane samajIne, lAyakAtane meLavavA prayatna kare evA che ke TheTha nizALIyA jevA che? TheTha nizALIyA kaI badhe TheTha hetA nathI. ramata-gamatamAM, tophAnamAM, jhADa upara caDhavA vageremAM, evAone naMbara prAyaH pahelo hoya che ane bhaNavAmAM mIMDuM hoya che. tema, tame paNa bIje badhe huMzIyAra ane ahIM ja mIMDuM, evuM te nathI ne ? tame khAtrI rAkhe ke-melanA hetuthI mokSa sAdhaka dharmane yathAvidhi sevavAno prayatna karanArane, saMsAranuM sukha nahi maLe ema nahi; mokSa nahi thAya tyAM sudhI ene sukha maLavAnuM ja; paNa vAta e che ke-e sukha pratye e aNagamo pedA thavA joIe ke-saMsAranuM sukha joIe ja nahi, ema thayA kare ane mokSanuM sukha ja joIe,
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________________ pahelo bhAga 143 ema thayA kare. eTale, saMsAranA sukhane mATe dharma karavAnI vRtine kADhavI joIe. maherabAnI ja magAyaH moTA mANasane salAma bharIne, enI sevA karIne "mAre amuka joIe"--ema na kahevAya; paNa e pUche tyAre ya enI maherabAnI magAya. maherabAnImAM badhuM AvI jAya ane mAgaNI karavAmAM te amuka cokkasa vastu ja Ave ne ? mATe mANasa khUza thaI jAya ane tame mAgaNI karavA mAMDe, te pariNAma zuM Ave? sakAMI Ape nahi. kadAca ApI te de; sajjana mANasa ekadama nA na pADe; paNa mAgaNI karanAra maherabAnI gumAvI bese. jyAre pUche tyAre maherabAnI mAganAranI te, avasare e khabara levA jAya ane mAganAre pharIthI sAme pagale mAgavA Ave, te ya A kaheze ke-mAgaNa AvyA. bAraNAM baMdha karI de! tema dharmanI pAse paNa tame kAMI mAgo ja nahi ane dharma karyA kare, to dharma tamArI khabara lIdhA vinA nahi rahe. ane dharma tamArAthI Aghe paNa jaze nahi. jJAnioe mokSanA hetuthI dharma karanArane, AzvAsana bahu ApyuM che. jJAnio kahe che ke-bhavanitArane lakSyamAM rAkhIne nirAzasabhAve je dharma kare, tene sukha ghaNuM maLe ane jyAre e sukha maLe tyAre, ene e sukhanI mamatA evI hoya nahi ke-duSkarma baMdhAya. sukha maLe ne muMjhave nahi. tame ema samaje che ke tamArI pAse bahu sukha che? zAstromAM sukhI mANasenAM
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________________ 144 cAra gatinAM kAraNe varNane Ave che. e vAMce agara sAMbhaLo, te tamane lAge ke-tamAruM ghaNuM paNa sukha heya, to ya emanA hisAbe tuccha che! Aje te prAyaH nAmanuM sukha che, chatAM enI khumArI keTalI che? jarA sukha maLyuM, eTale ghamaMDamAMthI hAtha kADhe nahi. Aje, moTe bhAge leke, moTAnuM aucitya bhUlI gayA che ane nAnAnI dayA bhUlI gayA che. mahine base ja kamAto hoya, temAM to bola bola kare ke ApaNe keInI paDI nathI! huM zA mATe koIne salAma bharUM? keIne jagyA huM kema ApuM? AvuM Aje ghaNAe dharmasthAna mAM bole che. A vRtti kyAMthI AvI? bhagavAnanA samavasaraNamAM indrAdika deva paNa aucitya jALavIne bese che. navamA-dazamAM Indra, agIAramA-bAramA IndranI jagyA rAkhyA vinA bese nahi. dharma viparIta bhAve na karyo hoya, te ene vege sukha maLe tyAre nAnA pratye AMkha mIThI hoya ane moTA pratye AMkha hasatI heya. Aje te jarAka ThIka sthiti hoya, te belI nAkhe ke-zeTha enA gharane; paNa evuM na bole te na cAle? nahi, Avakane Thasso che. mekSanI IcchAthI thayela dharmanA pratApe zuM hoya? aucitya ne dayA, beu heya. A kALamAM je sAdhanasaMpannene ya mukelI che, te sAdhana hInuM zuM thatuM haze ? tamane ke mANasa game? moTA pratye uddhata hoya ane nAnA pratye nirdaya hoya, e mANasa tamane game kharo? tame kenA pratye kevA che, e vAta bAjue rAkhe; paNa tame meTA che te tamArA tarapha keI uddhatAI batAve, te te tamane
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________________ pahele bhAga 145 gamatuM nathI ane tame nAnA che te tamArA tarapha kei nirdayapaNuM batAve, te te tamane gamatuM nathI, e te kharuM ne? tyAre, jenAmAM moTAo pratye aucitya ane nAnAo pratye dayA heya, te kevo lAge? sAre; chatAM ApaNe sArA banIe evI takedArI kharI? haju moTA pratye aucitya jALavanAra maLaze, kema ke-samaje che ke vakhate khapa Avaze, je kevastutaH e aucitya nathI, paNa svArthane ja eka aMza che; chatAM, dekhItI rItie moTAo pratye aucitya jALavanArA haju maLaze, paNa nAnAo pratye dayA dAkhavanArA durlabha banatA jAya che. pitAnAthI nIcI sthitivALAo pratye mIThI najara hoya, evA sukhI mANase durlabha banatA jAya che ane ethI paNa bekArI, bhUkhamare, jIvavAnI hADamArI vagere vadhatuM jAya che. sukhI mANase jo nIcenA varga tarapha dayAvRttivALA hoya, te AjanA jevI viSama dazA, keI paNa samAjanI na ja hoya. duHkhI mANasonAM anAcaraNanI sukhI mANaso TIkA karyA kare, e vyAjabI nathI. duHkhI mANasamAM zuM hoya, te kahevAya nahi. e anIti, chetarapIMDI Adi na kare te sAruM, paNa duHkhI mANasa duHkhano mAryo anIti Adine Acare, tyAre sukhI mANasane te ema thavuM joIe ke-AnI anI timAM mAre paNa hisso che, kAraNa ke-meM enI khabara lIdhI nahi." temAM ya, A kALamAM to, sukhI mANasoe vadhAre udAra banavAnI jarUra che. sa0 vakhata e AvI lAge che ke sukhI kahevAtA mANa senA haiyAmAM paNa zAnti nathI, eTale e kare zuM ? A ema kahe che ke-Aje jeo sukhe khAtA-pItA 10
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________________ 146 cAra gatinAM kAraNe che ane taddana garIba bhAIone khavaDAvI-pIvaDAvIne ubhA rAkhI zake tevA che, temanA haiyAmAM paNa atyAre haLI saLage che. emanA hRdayane ya zAMti nathI. pote sukhamAM hoya, te bIjAnA duHkhanI paravA kare ne ? pote ja duHkhamAM DUbelA hoya, tyAM zuM thAya? paNa mananuM duHkha, e judI vastu che ane peTamAM nAkhavAnA sAdhananuM dukha, e judI vastu che. khAtA-pitA ane khavaDAvI-pIvaDAvI zake evA mANasoe te vicAra karavo joIe ke-je A kALamAM amArA jevAnI paNa A dazA che, te sAdhanahIna ane alpa sAdhanavALA mANasa, zI rItie A kALamAM pitAne gujAre karI zakatA haze? Ama vicArone, paNa tevAo pratye anukaMpAzIla ja banavuM joIe. sukhI mANasoe pitAnAM kSetrone saMbhALI levAM joie? Aje samAjamAM madhyama varga rIbAya che, e phariyAda pheMkI devA jevI nathI. A kALamAM samAjanA madhyama varganI Antarika muzkelIo ghaNI vadhI javA pAmI che. maLelI mAhitI mujaba, dhaMdhA-nokarI vagere nimitta bahAragAma gayelAenA karatAM paNa, sthAnika samAjanI sthiti vadhAre bhayaMkara banavA pAmI che. dareka sthale, madhyama varga prAyaH muzkelImAM che ane jaina samAjanA badhA AgevAne eTale sukhI mANase je A vAta lakSyamAM le, te samAjanI gujarAnanI muzkelI, kAMI na TaLe evI nathI. mAtra sukhI mANase jarA DAhyA thaI jAya, udAra banI jAya ane DahApaNathI kAma kare che, AjanI bhayaMkara gaNAtI muzkelIone paNa, samAja sukhe
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________________ pahele bhAga 247 vaTAvI jAya, evI sthiti haju paNa che. jema keTalAkamAM jAtyabhimAna hoya che ke-huM je jAtine chuM, te jAtinA leke kamathI kama seTale duHkhI te nahi ja hovA joIe, tema ApaNAmAM jAtyabhimAna nahi paNa dharmAbhimAna avazya hovuM joIe. dareka sukhI jainane ema thavuM joIe ke-mAre eka paNa jaina bhAI reTale duHkhI te nahi ja hovo joIe. AmAM dareka sukhI mANase hajAre ne lAkho khacIM nAkhavAnA che, ema paNa nathI. AkhA samAjamAM thaIne lAkhe kharcAya, paNa vaheMcaNuM evI thAya ke keIne lAge nahi. A kAma mATe, meTAM phaMDa karavA karatAM ane vyavasthAnI moTI kamITIo nImavAne prayatna karavA karatAM, sthaLe sthaLanA sukhI mANase A kAma saMbhALI levA jevuM che. kamITIe ane phaMDanuM tophAna te, evuM che ke-vahIvaTa, vyavasthA, ugharANuM vagere vagere kAmomAM moTo kharca thaI jAya tema ja kuLavAna ughADA paDI jAya athavA to kharI jarUravALAo sIdAtA rahI jAya. sAdharmika jane pratyenI bhaktithI A kAma karavAnuM che. darekane khAvA mATe pATale bese ne ema thavuM joIe ke-atyAre mArAM keTalAM sAdhamika bhAI-benane roTalAnI muzkelI haze? dareka jaina nakkI kare ke mAre mArA thaDAmAMthI paNa DuM, mArAM sAdhAmika bhAI-benane ApavuM che te kAma thaI jAya. sthale sthale jemAM sukhI mANase te che ja. teo je DAhyA thaI jAya, te suMdara prakAre sAdharmika-bhakita karI zake. pita pitAnA kSetramAM dareka sukhI mANasa tapAsI le ke-kene tyAM zuM muzkelI che ane kaI jANe nahi tema tene ghera pahoMcatuM thaI jAya. ame ATalAM phaMDa karyA ane ATalAM zrAvaka-zrAvikAne madada
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________________ 148 cAra gatinAM kAraNe karI, evAM DiDima pITavAnAM heya nahi. sthale sthale je sukhI mANasa A kAma karatA hoya, temane tyAM jenI je IcchA hoya te ApI jAya ane sAdharmikenI bhakitanuM kArya, keI na jANe evI rItie thaI jAya. e ja, jaina samAjane zebhatuM gaNuya. meMghA kALamAM ja mANasanI ane paisAnI kiMmata che ne? tamArAM sAdharmika bhAI-bene jIvavAnI muzkelImAM AvI paDyAM hoya, tevA vakhate tame kevaLa tamAruM, tamArAM nikaTanAM sagAMonuM ja sukha zodhyA kare, e kaI paNa rItie vyAjabI nathI. tamArA keI paNa sAdharmika bhAI-benane jIvavAnI muzkelI heya, emAM tamAre ja zaramAvA jevuM che. jema AgaLa kahetA ke-"A te mAre sAta peDhIne pitarAI che athavA A mAre sAta peDhIne sabaMdhI che" dareka sArA avasare ene yAda kare ja. keI raLIne Ave, te ene sAta peDhIne saMbaMdhI paNa duHkhI nahi rahe joIe, evI mAnyatA rahetI. evI kalpanA rahetI ke huM kamAye ane je mAre sAta peDhIne saMbadhI paNa duHkhI rahe, te loka mArI pAchaLa vAta kare! loka paNa kahe ke-dhULa paDI enA paisAmAM, ene amuka sage te duHkhI che ! pelAne levAnI IcchA nahi, paNa Ane ApyA vinA cena paDe nahi. tema, AmAM paNa tamAre e ja jevAnuM ke A jaina to kahevAya che ne? kaI kaheze ke amuka bhUkhathI rIbAIne marI gaye; e koNa hato ? jaina. e kalaMka nahi joIe. je A buddhi AvI jAya, te haju paNa jaina samAja jIvata che.
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________________ pahele bhAga 149 sa, AjanI rAjanItine age paNa jene ghaNI muzkelIomAM mUkAvuM paDyuM che. e game tema hoya, paNa AjanA saMgamAM ya tamAre jIvI jAvuM che ne? tamAre jema jIvI jAvuM che, tema tamArAM jaina bhAIbaMnene paNa tamAre jIvADI levAM che ne ? tame tamArAM duHkhI sAdharmika bhAI-benene, e vAta jarUra kahI zako che ke tamArI badhI jarUrIyAta pUrI pADavAnI zakti amArAmAM nathI, paNa AvA kaparA kALamAM tame jIvI jAva e mATe, ame amArAthI banI zake teTaluM badhuM ja karavAne mATe taiyAra chIe. tame sArI rItie jIvana gujArI zake, evuM karavAnI amArI zakita nathI, tema, tame kharAba rItie ma-e paNa ame sAMbhaLI zakIe tema nathI; AthI, jIvananirvAha aMge jarUrI hoya teTaluM ja le ane tamArA jevAM bIjo bhAI-benane paNa phALo maLe, e tarapha najara rAkho! ATaluM te AvA kALamAM ya, AgevAna ane sukhI gRhastha dhAre to, karI zake tema che. meMghA kALamAM ja mANasanI kiMmata che. mANasanI ke pisAnI kiMmata ja, meghA kALamAM akAya che ne? sAdharmika-vAtsalyanAM jamaNe: eka kALamAM sAdharmika-vAtsalyanAM jamaNe lokane bahu bahu kiMmatI nahotAM lAgatAM, Aje ghaNAone ema lAge che ke e cAlu hota, te ya ghaNuM sAruM thAta. Aje e paNa eka phariyAda che ke-jeo roTalA khAI zake che, teone ya jIvavAne mATe jarUrI poSaNa nathI maLatuM, kema ke piSaNa
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________________ 150 cAra gatinAM kArNI Ape evA padArtho bahu ja meMghA thaI gayA che. je sAdhamikavAtsalyanAM jamaNone pravAha cAlu hota, te e piSaNa be mahinA maLata, to ya bAkInA daza mahinA nIkaLI jAta ! sa. Aje paNa bIjA raste ghaNo kharca thAya che ane A mArge karatA nathI. evuM na bolAya. dharmakSetramAM bIjA mArgoe kharca karanArAo paNa kAMI khoTA mArge kharca karatA nathI. temaNe A dizAe paNa lakSya ApavAnI jarUra che ema kahevAya. je leke dharma karanArA che, zrI jinamandirAdimAM kharca karanArA che, teo ja avasara pAmIne khyAla AvatAM, A mAge bIjA badhA karatAM sArI rItie kharca kare che. khaMbhAtane eka prasaMga : | mArI yAda mujabane khaMbhAtane eka prasaMga kahuM. eka vAra, duSkALa agara te evI ke Aphatane age, janatAne rAhata ApavAnuM kArya hAtha dharAyuM ane tyAMnA adhikArio vagere, upAzrayamAM vyAkhyAna vakhate e age phaMDa karavAne mATe AvyA. - temaNe ubhA thaIne pite laI Avela kAryanuM mahatva varNavyuM ane te aMge "dayAnuM e kArya zrAvakee karavA gya che"--evuM sUcana meM paNa karyuM. pachI TIpa zarU thaI. TIpamAM je rakama bharAI, tethI TIpa karAvavAne Avela adhikArine saMtoSa thaye nahi. AthI, temanA eka AgevAne ubhA thaIne jaino "dhArmika utsava, ujamaNa, jamaNavAre, varaghoDA ane mandire Adi pAchaLa
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________________ pahelo bhAga 151 aDhaLaka kharca kare che"--e vagere kahIne, e kAryonI jarA TIkA lAge tevuM kahyuM ane thayelI TIpa ghaNI ochI che, tema jaNAvyuM. e adhikArI belI rahyA pachIthI, meM kahyuM ke-"amArA jeno jema utsavAdi suMdara prakAre karI zake che, tema jIvadayA AdinAM kAryo paNa suMdara prakAre karI zake che. garIba mANasonI ane jIvanI dayAnAM kAryomAM paNa, moTe bhAge jenone ja moTo hisso hoya che, kAraNa ke-jeno je deva-gurUnA utsava Adi kare che, te deva-gurU emane dayA karavAnuM paNa kahe che ja. A kAryamAM tamane saMtoSa thAya evI TIpa na thaI, temAM kAraNa e paNa hoI zake ke-A kAryanuM tame jeTaluM mahattava AMke che, teTaluM mahatva tame AmanA khyAlamAM lAvI zakyA na ho; athavA te, Amane A kArya karanArAone aMge kAMI kahevApaNuM hoya. Ama chatAM paNa, tame ema kaho ke-A kAryane ame amAre AmanI pAsethI amuka rakamanI jarUra che, te A jaino tamane e pUrI karI Apaze, e viSe mane jarA paNa zaMkA nathI. bAkI, tamane je A kArya mATe ATaluM badhuM lAgI Ave che, te ema kare keeka mahinAne pagAra tame ane tamArA badhA adhikArio A kAryamAM ApI de ane jo tame ema kare, to ahIM beThelA jeno, pitapotAnI eka eka mahinAnI kamANe A kAryamAM ApI devAne acakAze nahi, ema huM mAnuM chuM. jeno pitAnA deva-gurU AdinA utsavAdimAM aDhaLaka dhana kharce che." A kAMI ghelApaNuM nathI, paNa jeno mAne che ke-"lakSmIne sArAmAM sAro upayoga ja A che." enI TIkA karIne,
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________________ 152 cAra gatinAM kAraNe jeno pAsethI paisA kaDhAvavAnI rIta ajamAvavI, e vyAjabI nathI. ethI te, jainone duHkha thAya. bAkI, jaina, saMkaTagrasta jIvonA rakSaNamAM paNa mAne ja che ane A kArya aMgenuM tame dhAre che tevuM mahattva je temanA khyAlamAM AvI jAya, te e chUTe hAthe dAna dIdhA vinA rahe ja nahi." - A pachI te, e adhikArie ubhA thaIne, pite je kAMI bolyA hatA te badala, zrIsaMghanI mAphI mAgI. pachI meM pUchayuM ke-"tamAre A badhAnI eka mahinAnI kamANI joItI hoya, te tema kaho." eTale e adhikArI kahe ke-"mArA badhA adhikArio eka eka mahinAno pagAra AmAM ApI de, e huM kahI zakuM tema nathI." pachI meM pUchayuM ke te tamane AmanI pAsethI keTalI rakama joIe che, e kaho !" e adhikArie je rakama kahI, te rakama TIpanI thayelI rakama karatAM deDhI lagabhaga hatI; AthI, saheja sUcana karatAM, saue TapamAM je rakama maMDAvI hatI, te bevaDI karI ApI ! - kahevAnuM tAtparya e che ke-dhArmika utsave ane zrI jinamandirAdimAM kharca karanArAo, sAdharmika-vAtsalya ane jIvadayA AdinAM kAryomAM jevI udAratAthI kharca karI zake che, tevI udAratAthI bIjAo te kAryomAM kharca karI zakatA ja nathI. AthI, dhArmika utsava tathA zrI jinamandirAdimAM kharca karanArAonI TIkA karanArAo te ajJAna ja che. koI vakhate kaI kSetra sIdAtuM hoya ane jainonuM lakSya e tarapha deravuM hoya, te bIjA kSetro tarapha apAtA lakSyanI TIkA karyA vinA ja, sIdAtA kSetra tarapha jainonuM lakSya daravuM joIe.
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________________ 153 pahele bhAga sIdAtA kSetra tarapha paheluM lakSyaH ApaNe tyAM zrI jinamUrti, zrI jinamandira ane zrI jinAgama tathA sAdhu, sAdhvI, zrAvaka ane zrAvikA-ema sAta kSetro gaNAya che ane e sAte ya kSetrone zrI jinazAsanamAM pavitra kSetro tarIke mAnavAmAM AvyAM che. e sAta kSetromAM, pahelAM be deva sabaMdhI hovAthI, sAmAnya rItie samAna gaNAya. trIjI kSetra, samyagu jJAna saMbaMdhI che; ceAthuM-pAMcamuM sAdhu ane sAdhvI kSetra paNa sAmAnya rItie samAna gaNAya tathA chaThuM-sAtamuM zrAvaka ane zrAvikA kSetra paNa sAmAnya rItie samAna gaNAya. Ama chatAM ya, ema paNa kahI zakAya ke-"e sAta kSetromAM pahelethI gaNIe to eka ekathI nIcuM ane chellethI gaNIe te eka ekathI uMcuM, evI e sAta kSetrenI maryAdA che. vAta to e kahevI che ke-zrI jinamUrti Adi A sAta kSetronI, eka ekathI caDhIyAtI sthitine jaNAvanArAM zAstroe, evI paNa eka TAMka mArelI che ke je kSetra sIdAtuM hoya, te kSetra tarapha paheluM dhyAna ApavuM. A vAtane keTalAke bhUlI gayA che, te dhyAna para lAvavAnI jarUra che. je Aje badhA sukhI jenone ATaluM dhyAna upara AvI jAya ne haiyuM khUlI jAya, te jana bhAIone keI duHkhI na kahI jAya. Aje keTalAka jene roTale duHkhI che, e vAtane sAMbhaLatAM, amane zuM thAya che, te huM nahi kahI zakuM, paNa amArAthI e sahAtuM nathI. jema Aje keTalAke zrAvakazrAvikAonA duHkhanA nAme zrI jinamandirAdi kSetromAM vyaya karanArA puNyavAnanI nindA kare che, tema Aje keTalAke
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe sAdhuomAM dayA nathI ema paNa kahe che. jenA haiyAmAM zrI jinamandirAdi pratye bhakti nathI, tenA haiyAmAM zrAvaka-zrAvikA pratye, zrAvaka-zrAvikA tarIkenI bhakti haiAya ja nahi. e lAkA to, A nimitte ya, peAtAnA haiyAmAM rahelA dharma pratyenA dveSane ja vyakta kare che. evAe game tema khele, paNa tame tamArA karttavyane cUkI zake nahi. sAdhue upadeza ApI zake ane sAdhue avasaracita rItie zAstrAnusArI upadeza Ape paNa kharA, parantu sAdhuonA avasAcita ane zAstrAnusArI upadezanA yeAge paNu, jo bIjAone joItuM pariNAma na Ave, te teo ajJAnapaNe sAdhuemAM dayA nathI-eme ya kahI de. AvA kaparA kALamAM, AvI kAI paNa khAkhatane lakSyamAM lIdhA vinA, jaino jIvI jAya--evuM tA karI chUTavuM ja joie. A kAmane hAtha dharanArAoe, pahelAM kadI paNa ema pUchavuM nahi ke-' pUjA kare che ?' paNu 'jaina che ke nahi '-eTaluM ja jovuM ane jaina hAya te e jIvI jAya evI sahAya karavI. sahAya karyA pachIthI ATha-daza divasa bAda avasare pUjAnuM pUchazeA, tA e jo pUjA nahi karatA hAya te nIcuM joze ane prAyaH pUjA karatA thaI jaze. tamane teA mAtra saMpatti ghaTavAnA bhaya che, paNa bhUkhyAne te bhUkhe marI javAnA bhaya cheH 154 mane te khAtrI che ke--AvA nakhaLA kALamAM paNu jainAne sAcavI zake--evA nakhIrA, haju paNa A jaina samAjamAM jIve che; paNa emanAmAM udAratA Ave ane peAtAnAM sAdhamika bhAI-beneAne mATe lAgaNI janme, teA kAma thAya ne?
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________________ pahele bhAga 155 jaina bhAI-enA duHkhI hoya, chatAM paisA tIjorImAM ja paDacA rahe teA sArUM, evuM keAne lAge ? tamArA paisA tamArAM chekarAM ja khAya, nahi te maratAM tamArI pathArImAM nAkhe te sArUM, ema lAgyuM che ? Aje sukhI neAnA manamAMthI e nIkaLI gayuM che ke-AkhA jaina samAjanAM chekarAM, e paNa amArAM chekarAM che.' sAdharmika teA sagA chekarA karatAM ya vadhAre lAgavA joIe, jyAre ghaNe bhAge huM ne mArAM chekarAM sivAya prAyaH lAMbe vicAra nathI. Aje te vyavahAramAM paNa jarA AghenA saMbaMdhI mATe ya ghasAvAnI taiyArI bahu ochAnI che. AvAM kAmeAmAM, sukhI sAme ja AMkha jAya ne ? kema ke-e manamAM le, teA kAma thAya. Aje A viSene ghAMghATa eTale badhA vadhI gayA che ke-amArI pAse AvI vAtA vAraMvAra Ave che. dareka dharmakArya prasaMge, A vAta hAya ja che. A vastu evI che ke-avasara ceAgya ane zakti anusAra karyA vinA, dharma dIpe nahi. jyAM sukhI mANasA dharma karavAne ekaThA thayA hoya, tyAM sAdharmikA duHkhI che e vAta, amArA kAne Ave ja zAnI ? asala tA, AkhA zaheramAM keAI roTalA mATe duHkhI nahi joie. dharma karavAne ekaThA thayelA sukhI mANasA, duHkhI mANasAne sukhI karyAM vinA rahe nahi. Aje sukhI gaNAtAnuM eTaluM gajuM nathI. sukhI mANase paNu, mahAra jeTalA sukhI gaNAya che, teTalA aMdarakhAne sukhI nathI. kahe che ke--sarakAranI prathA vagere evuM che ke--Aje sukhI gaNAtAo paNa hu mAladAra rahyA nathI. Avaka upara moTA akuze AvI gayA che, AvakanAM vahetAM vaheNu aTakI gayAM che ke chIcharAM thai gayAM che ane ethI, je sukhI che, temanA manamAM
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________________ 156 cAra gatinAM kAraNe paNa bhaya pesI gayA che. AvakanuM vaheNa cAlu hoya te vadhAre udAratAthI kAma thAya, paraMtu Aje e vicAra karavA je che ke-bhUkhane bhaya, e badhA karatAM moTe bhaya che. tamane te mAtra saMpatti ghaTavAne bhaya che, jyAre bhUkhyAne te bhUkhe marI javAno bhaya che. e bhaya pAse, tamArA bhayanI kAMI kiMmata nathI. AthI nakakI kare ke-tamArAthI zakya hoya tyAM sudhI tame je kSetramAM che, te kSetramAM te, kaI ja bhUkhyo nahi rahevo joIe. temAM ya, tamAre mana, tamArAM sAdharmika bhAI-bane te pahelAM ja heya ne? eTale, kAMIka yojanApUrvaka je A vicAra thaI jAya, te ApaNe dharma evA sundara prakAre thaI jAya ke-A dharmanI ArAdhanA jIvanabhara yAda rahI jAya. kadAca A kAma karavAmAM muDIne ghasAre lAgaze, paNa temAM cintA karavA jevuM zuM che? "ghasAre lAgIne paNa bhAIne mATe lAgato hoya, te te bhegavI levAnI sAdharmika tarIke mArI pharaja che"-ema tamAre samajavuM joIe. upadezathI AgaLa vadhavuM, e mane vyAjabI lAgatuM nathI. senAnI jALa pANImAM nAkhavAnI bhUla keNa kare ? paNa tame ATalI vAtamAM ghaNuM samajI jAva, evA che ne? dareke dareka jainanA haiyAmAM, zrI jinane mAnanAra jaina, kamathI kama raTale duHkhI to nahi ja hovuM joIe, evuM abhimAna avazya hovuM joIe "ApaNe sukhI hoIe ane ApaNane keIema kahe ke-jenene bhUkhe maravAne vakhata AvyA che; tyAre ApaNuM haiyuM cIrAI jatuM hoya evuM ApaNe jaina hoIe te ApaNane lAgyA vinA rahe nahi."--AvI manedazA jemAM hoya, te te svAbhAvika gaNAya.
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________________ [ 3 ] manuSyabhava Adi je sAmagrI maLI che, te maLyAnA AnaMda kevA prakAranA che ? parama upakArI, kalikAlasarvajJa, AcAryabhagavAna zrImad. hemacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA pharamAve che ke-bhagavAna zrI ahintadevAe ane gaNadharadevA Adi mahApurUSAe, kaSAceAthI ane IndriyAthI jItAelA AtmAne ja sasAra kahyo che ane enA e ja AtmA jyAre kaSAyAnA ane indriceAnA vijetA ane, tyAre enuM nAma meAkSa che, ema paNa e tArakAe kramAvyuM che. atyAra sudhImAM anantA AtmAe peAtAnA kaSAyA upara ane peAtAnI indricA upara saMpUrNapaNe vijaya meLavIne, kaSAyeAthI ane IndriyAthI sarvathA mukta anyA thakA zrI siddhipadane pAmyA che, ke je tArakAne ApaNe rAja ' name| siddhANuM ' kheAlIne namaskAra karIe chIe. AthI, ApaNe mATe e vAta navI nathI ke-AtmAnA saMsAra kAne kahevAya ane AtmAnA meAkSa kAne kahevAya. A vAtanA ApaNe vicAra karIe, to ApaNane lAge ke-anantA AtmAe zrI siddhipadane pAmyA ane ApaNe haju saMsAramAM rakhaDIe chIe, kema ke-ApaNe hajI kAyA upara ane IndriyA upara vijaya meLavI zakayA nathI. je divase ApaNe ApaNA kaSAye! ane ApaNI indriyA upara kharAbara vijaya meLavI.
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________________ 158 cAra gatinAM kAraNA zakIe, te di' meAkSa ApaNAthI dUra nathI, kema ke ApaNe ja mokSa chIe. ApaNane AvI samaja che, eTale ja Apane A manuSyabhava Adi je sAmagrI maLI che, tethI AnaMda thAya che. manuSyabhava, te ya Arya dezamAM maLyo ane jaina kuLa jevuM uttama kuLa maLyuM, A vagere sAmagrI ApaNane maLI, tene ApaNane je AnaMda thAya che, te eTalA ja mATe thAya che ne ke-ahIM ApaNane, IndriyAne tathA kaSAyAne jItavAthI mekSa maLe che e vAta sAMbhaLavAne maLe che; eTaluM ja nahi, paNa A bhavamAM ApaNe jo dhArIe, teA kkSAye| upara tathA indriyA upara vijaya meLavavAnA sArAmAM sArI rItie prayatna karI zakIe tema chIe ? kaSAyeA upara tathA IndriyA upara vijaya meLavavAthI meAkSa maLe che evuM sAMbhaLavAnuM tA, daivAhikane paNa maLI zake che; paNa sAMbhaLelAne AcaravAnI je jogavAi joI e, te temane maLI nathI; jyAre ApaNane te jema sAMbhaLavAnI sAmagrI maLI che, tema mana thAya teA e sAMbhaLelAne sArI rItie AcaravAnI sAmagrI paNa maLI che; tethI ja, ApaNane A maMnuSyabhava Adi sAmagrI maLI che, tenA AnaMda thAya che ne ? IndriyAnI ane kaSAyAnI AdhInatAne je rAkhe, te saMsAramAM rUle ane je enA sAmane kare, te enA upara vijayI banIne, khUda mokSa ane IndriyA tathA kaSAyAnI AdhInatAnA sAmanA karIne, enA uparavijaya meLavavAne mATe je kAMI AcaravAnI jarUra che, te AcaravAmAM sarvathI vadhAre anukULa ane--evI, A manuSyabhavAdi sAmagrI che ne ? ane, e prakAranA AcaraNamAM A sAmagrI sarvathI vadhu upayAgI che, e mATe ja ApaNane A manuSya
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________________ pahele bhAga 159 bhavAdi sAmagrI maLyAne AnaMda che ne? ApaNe ApaNA pUrvakRta puNyanA vazathI evI jagyAe janmI gayA chIe keA manuSyabhavAdi sAmagrI zA mATe prazaMsApAtra che, e ApaNane sAMbhaLavA maLyuM che ane ApaNe je A manuSyabhavAdinI prAptinI saphalatAne sAdhavAne IcchIe, te ApaNe ApaNane maLelI manuSyabhavAdi sAmagrInI saphaLatAne sArI rItie sAdhI zakIe tevI sAmagrI paNa ApaNane maLI che, e mATe ja ApaNane A badhI sAmagrI maLI, tene AnaMda che ne ? ApaNe evA puNyazAlI chIe ke-manuSyabhavane pAmavA chatAM ya, je vAta ghaNAone sAMbhaLavA maLatI nathI, te mokSanI ane mokSane sAdhavAnA upAyanI vAta, ApaNane vagara prayatna sAMbhaLavA maLI gaI che; anArya dezamAM manuSyabhava maLyo heta, te A vAta sAMbhaLavAne maLata nahi; Arya dezamAM paNa evA ghaNA manuSyo che ke-emane A vAta sAMbhaLavAnI sAmagrI maLI nathI, jyAre ApaNane te A vAta sAMbhaLavAne paNa maLI che ane mana thaI jAya to ApaNe mokSamArganI sArI rItie ArAdhanA karI zakIe, evI sAmagrI paNa ApaNane maLI che. A vAta sAMbhaLavAne maLe-evuM puNya heya, manuSyabhavAdi sAmagrI paNa hoya, paNa kANA, baherA, bobaDA, laMgaDA vagere hoIe, to e paNa ArAdhanAne mATe jarUrI sAmagrInI khAmI gaNAya. ApaNe te, badhI rItie puNyazALI chIe ke-A sAMbhaLavAnI sAmagrI paNa maLI che ane mana thaI jAya to ArAdhavAnI sAmagrI paNa maLI che. Ano ja, ApaNA haiyAmAM Ananda che ne? sa. A badhuM maLyuM che ane AnaMda to che, paNa te A prakA rane nathI.
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________________ 160 cAra gatinAM kAraNe je A prakArane haiyAmAM Ananda nathI ane AthI UlaTA prakArane ja haiyAmAM je Ananda che, te ene artha e thAya che ke-A badhI sAmagrI ApaNane ApaNA puNyathI maLI che-ema sAMbhaLatAM ApaNane je Ananda thAya che, te ApaNo Ananda udaya-bhAvanA gharane che, paNa kSapazamabhAvane nathI; karmanA gharane e Ananda che, paNa e Ananda AtmAnA gharane nathI. karmanA gharane Ananda te, karmabandha ja karAve ne? manuSyabhavamAM janmIne IcchA mujaba jIvavAne mATe tame - keTakeTalAM pApe karyA che? je janma tarIke ja vicAra karIe, te manuSyajanma e paNa duHkhanuM ja nimitta che. manuSya janma paNa janma tarIke duHkhanuM ja nimitta hovA chatAM paNa, jJAnioe manuSyapaNAne mATe "sulabdha" ema kema kahyuM? manuSyajanma maLyo, eTalA mAtrathI ja "sulabdha" ema nahi. manuSyapaNane "sulabdha kahevA pAchaLa, jJAnione viziSTa hetu che. bAkI, janmamAM sukha zuM che? janmanI pIDA kAMI jevI-tevI hatI nathI ane jamyA eTale jIvavAnI keTalI moTI upAdhi jamyA pachI jIvavAne mATe jarUrIyAta keTalI badhI ? e mATe pApa keTalAM thAya che? saghaLAM pApanuM mULa te, janma che ne? janma na heya, te pApa zAnuM hoya tyAre zAstra janmane vakhANe ke ajanmAne vakhANe? je janmamAM ajanmA thavAnI athavA te e dizAmAM sArI rItie AcaraNa karavAnI sAmagrI maLe, e janmanAM, e hetuthI ja jJAnie vakhANa kare ne ? bAkI
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________________ pahele bhAga 16 te ApaNe atyAra sudhImAM keTalIka vAra jamyA? anaMtI vAra. bIjA bhavAnI vAta bAjue rAkhIe, paNa A manuSyabhavamAM ya ApaNe kadAca anaMtI vAra jamyA hazuM ne? e badhA janmo, vakhANane pAtra kema banyA nahi? jJAnioe badhA janmone kema vakhANyA nahi? je janma mukti ApanAra bane athavA muktinI sAdhanAmAM Avazyaka AcaraNa sArI rItie karAve, e ja janma vakhANavAne egya che. koI paNa janma, janma tarIke vakhANane pAtra nathI. muktinA hetuthI ja janma vakhANane pAtra bane che. ApaNA kALamAM paNa, keTalA ya A janmane pAmyA che ne? te zuM e badhAne janma prazaMsAne pAtra che?nA. te ApaNe janma prazaMsAne pAtra kema? zuM heya, te ApaNe janma prazaMsAne pAtra bane kahevAya? A manuSyabhavamAM jamyA pachI, tame zuM zuM karyuM che? janmIne jIvavAne mATe ane te ya anukULatAthI jIvavAne mATe, tame keTakeTalAM pApa karyo che? ApaNe karelAM pApa, jJAnio sivAya bhale bIjA keI na paNa jANatA hoya, paraMtu ApaNe keTalAM keTalAM ane kevAM kevA pApa karyo che, te ApaNe pite te jANIe chIe ne ? jIvavA mATe A janmamAM pApe te karavAM paDayAM, paNa pApa karavAM paDyAM ane pApa karavAM paDe che, tenuM tamAre haiye duHkha te che ne? ema te thAya che ne ke je mAre jamavAnuM ja na hota, to mAre A badhAM pApe karavAM paData nahi? jyAre e vakhata AvI lAge, ke jyAre huM janmathI ja mukta banI jAuM?" zAstra kahe che ke-janma e duHkhanuM kAraNa che, ema jene na lAge, tene muktine khapa na hoya? evAne mAtra jIvavAnuM ane te paNa pote mAnelI rItie
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________________ 162 cAra gatinAM kAraNA sukhamAM jIvavAne khapa hAya, eTale pachI jIvavAne mATe e je kAMi jarUrI lAge te karatA hoya. avasara AvI lAge tA, e mahApApe ya kare. A mATe, ApaNe evA vicAra karavAnA che ke ApaNe A manuSyabhavamAM janmI gayA chIe e nakkI che ane atyAra sudhI jIvyA chIe eTale jIvavAne mATe ApaNe atyAra sudhImAM zuM zuM karyuM che, te ApaNe tA jANIe ja chIe; aNasamaju maTavA ane kAMIka samajI thayA, tyArathI ApaNe ApaNI IcchAnusAra jIvavAne mATe zuM zuM karyuM che, te ApaNI jANa bahAra tA nathI ne ? temAM, ApaNA hAthe je kAMI khATuM thaI gayuM hoya ane hajI paNa thatuM hoya, tenuM ApaNane duHkha kharUM ke nahi ? enuM duHkha paNa na hoya, te sudharavAnA upAya nathI. enuM du:kha haiye hAya, teA ja sudharavAnA upAya che. ApaNe janmyA ne ATalAM varSAM jIvyA, e jIvavAne mATe je pApA karyAM ane je pApA karavAM paDatAM hoya, tenuM duHkha thatuM hoya agara teA samajAvavAmAM Ave te haiye duHkha pedA thavAnI yAgyatA hoya, te ja ApaNane upakArio macAvI zake tema che. janma tarIke manuSyajanmanAM vakhANa thayAM nathI : jJAniee janmane duHkha rUpa kahyo che, chatAM paNu manuSyajanmanAM vakhANa karyAM che; teA janmane duHkha rUpa kahenArA jJAniee, manuSyajanmanAM vakhANa kema karyo* ? jJAnie manuSyajanmanAM je vakhANa karyAM che, tenA hetune samajIe nahi, tA sArI vastu pAmavA chatAM paNu, enA ceAge maLavA joitA lAbha, ApaNe meLavI zakIe nahi ane AvI sAmagrI
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________________ pahelA bhAga 163 na maLI hAta, tAje nukazAna thavAnI saMbhAvanA naheAtI, te nukazAna ApaNane kadAca AvI sArI sAmagrInA ceAgamAM paNa thaI jAya. jema durbhAgane peDhI eTalA mATe maLe ke e mArge enI pAyamAlI thavAnI hoya. bApanuM nAma DUbAvavAne mATe, hAya te paisA khAvAne mATe ane cintAmAM saLagyA karavAne mATe durbhAgane peDhI maLe, ema paNa bane ne ? sukhe nokarI karanArA ane sArI rItie potAno tathA peAtAnA kuTuMbanA nirvAha karanArA, kaSAyane vaza banIne zeTha thavA gayA, tA Aje peAte paNa rIkhAya che ane enA kuTuMbanI rIbAmaNanA ca pAra nathI. peDhI eTale keTalI cintA ? peDhI kamANInuM uttama sAdhana kharuM, paNa te kene mATe? sa0 AzA saune sarakhI te? AzAthI badhA peDhI kheAle, teA zuM thAya ? je nirvAMgI hoya, te duHkhamAM ja DUbI jAya ne? evanI jema peDhI kheAlanAranAM, Aje AMtaraDAM paNa khavAi jAya che. jemanI sahAya laine peDhI kheAlI ane peDhIne calAvavAne mATe jemanI sahAya lIdhI, te leNadAro jIva khAI jAya che. hoya te mAlanI khapata nathI, bIjo mAla lAvI zakAtA nathI, vakarAmAMthI gharanuM kharce ya nIkaLatuM nathI, mAlamAM evA bharAI jAya che ke-levAnA devA thAya ane mAganArA herAna herAna karI mUke. evAe Aje kahe che ke-Aje ame jIvavA jogA paNa nathI rahyA ane maravA jogA paNa nathI rahyA. ame kharAkhakhasta thaI gayA ane kuTuMbe ya pAyamAla thai gayuM. nAkarI sAcavI rAkhI hota ane peDhI kheAlavAnI bevakUphI na karI hAta, te amArI A hAlata thAta nahi !' tema, manuSyajanma ahu
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________________ 164 cAra gatinAM kAraNe sAre che, paNa te janma tarIke sAre che ema nathI. manuSyajanmanAM vakhANa, e janma tarIke vakhANa nathI, paNa enI pAchaLa jJAnione bheTe Azaya che. manuSya tarIke janmyA temAM duHkha veThavuM paDyuM ane pachI atyAra sudhI jIvyA kevI rItie? tame tamArI IcchAnusAra jIvavAne mATe pApa keTakeTalAM karyA, te te jANe che ne? janmamAM duHkha ane jIvavAne mATe pApanuM AcaraNa, chatAM A manuSyajanma sAre zI rItie? tame vicAre ke-ApaNe je jamyA ja na hatA te pApathI jIvavAnI upAdhi heta nahi ne ? sa0 janmI te gayA, eTale jIvavAne mATe pApa te karavAM paDe ne ? " pApa karyA vinA paNa jIvI zakAya evo rasto che. jI, paNa pApa na thAya evI rItie jIve, ema A zAsana kahe che. pApa vagara paNa kema jIvI zakAya-e mArga ApIne ja, A zAsane "A jIvana pApa karIne jIvavAne mATe nathI" -evI vAta karI che. jIvavAne mATe ghaNuM pApa karavuM paDe che, te kharAba che -e vAta jene haiye beThI hoya athavA jene A vAta sAMbhaLatAM sAMbhaLatAM paNa, jIvavAne mATe je pApa karavAM paDe che te DaMkhe ane pApathI chUTavAnuM mana thaI jAya, tene ja A mArga ja. jIvavAne mATe ya karavAM paDatAM pApa jene DaMkhe nahi, tene cAMlle zebhe nahi ? jIvavAne mATe tame keTakeTalAM pApa kare che? jIvavAne mATe, jIvAya tyAM sudhI tame mAnI lIdheluM sukha bhegavavAne mATe,
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________________ pahele bhAga 165 ane pAchaLa paNa sukha mUkI javAnI IcchAthI, tame keTakeTalAM pApa Acare che? ghaNAM ja. enuM duHkha thAya che ke nahi ? jIvavA mATe pApa na karavuM paDe te sAruM, ema to thAya che ne? mAnI laIe ke-jIvavAne mATe pApa karyA vinA chUTake nathI-ema lAgyuM che, mATe atyAra sudhI pApa karyA, paraMtu manuSyajanma e pApathI jIvavAne mATe nathI, paNa pApane tyAga karavAne mATe ja manuSyajanma che -evuM sAMbhaLyA ane samajyA pachIthI ya, jIvavAne mATe je pApa karavAM paDyAM ane hajI je pApa karavAM paDe che, tenuM duHkha thAya che ke nahi ? tame jaina che, eTale tamane karavAM paDatAM pApa Dakhe nahi, ema to bane ja nahi ne? tamAro cAMllo paNa kahe che ke-Ane jIvavAne mATe ya karavAM paDatAM pApa DaMkhe che. jene pApa DaMkhatAM na hoya, tene A cAMllo zebhe nahi. duniyAmAM je kaI cerI, badamAzI vagere kare che, te jIvavAne mATe ja kare che ne? jIvavAne mATe jeo corI vagere karatA hoya, teone tame sArI daSTie juo cho ne ? nA, te kema nahi? potAnI IcchAnusAra jIvavAne mATe, ene paisAnI jarUra hatI; mahenata karavA chatAM paNa ene je joItuM hatuM te maLyuM nahi; jarUrI paiisA vagere meLavavAnI bIjI kaI khAsa AvaData, enAmAM hatI nahi; zarIre sazakta hato ane cerI karavAnI AvaData hatI; ene thayuM ke mAre je joIe che, te corI karyA vinA maLe tema nathI. mATe ene taka maLI, te eNe koInuM ghara phADyuM. AvuM kaI kare, te temAM vadhe nahi ne? tame kaho che ke-jIvavAne mATe pApa karyA vinA cAle nahi; jIvavAne mATe pApa karavAmAM vadhe nahi; te cera, lUMTAra vagere jIvavAne
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________________ 166 cAra gatinAM kAraNo mATe temane jevuM sUjhe ane jevuM AvaDe tevuM pApa kare, te temAM vAMdho nahi ne ? tamAre sArA nasIbe rahevAne ghara che, AvakanuM sAdhana che, maTI cerIo vagere karyA vinA paNa tamane joItuM maLI rahe che, mATe tame tevAM kAma nathI karyA paNa pelAne gharabAra ke tamArA jevuM sAdhana nathI, eTale e jIvavAne mATe cerI vagere kare che, te vAMdhe che ? pelAne mA-bApa vagere evAM maLyAM ke-ene bIjuM kaI sAruM zikSaNa maLyuM nahi ane cArI vagere karavAnuM zikSaNa maLyuM, eTale jIvavAne mATe eNe corI vagere karavA mAMDayuM, to tamArA mate te jIvavAne mATe e paNa thAya ne? sa, e na thAya. kema na thAya? jarA vicAra kare. "pApa karavuM jarUrI lAge ane "pApa karavA jevuM nathI" ema lAge, temAM bheda che. jIvavAne mATe, pApa te pApa, paNa te karavuM ja joIe, AvuM mAnanAre, kayuM pApa na kare ? jene mATe taka na hoya, te ja pApa e kare nahi ne? pApa karavA chatAM paNa, jene pApa DaMkhe che, te te pApathI bacavA prayatna karyA vinA rahe nahi ane pApathI bacavAno prayatna karavA chatAM paNa je pApathI e bacI zake nahi, te pApane mATe e ema paNa kahI zake ke-pApane AcaryA vinA jIvAya tema nathI, paNa jIvavAne mATe anIti Adi meTAM pApe te nahi ja karavAM joIe!" bAkI, A jIvanamAM jIvavAne mATe pApa karavAmAM jene vAMdho nathI lAgatuM, tene cerI vagere karanArane mATe paNa, vadhe levAne ze hakka che? sa, pilAnAM pApa pragaTa thAya che, eTale ene dhikkAravAmAM Ave che.
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________________ pahele bhAga 167 eTale, jenAM pApane je jANe, te tene dhikkAre te emAM vAMdho nahi ne? tamArAM je pApane bIjAo pragaTapaNe jANe, te badhA tamane dhikkAravA mAMDe, te tame zuM kahe ? tamArAM pApa amArI jANamAM AvI jAya, to ame paNa tamane dhikkArIe ja ne ? ame evI bhUla karIe nahi, paNa evuM kaI sAdhu karI bese, te tamane emAM khoTuM te lAge nahi ne? evA vakhate tame zuM kare, e to kahe ! tamAruM cAle te tame mahArAjane bolatA baMdha karI devAne maLe ane tema bane evuM na hoya, te tame ahIM AvatA baMdha thaI jAva ane bahAra pracAra karyA karo ke "mahArAjane kazI gama ja nathI ke zuM belAya ane kema belAya?" je kRtyane mATe tamane bIjAne dhikkAravA game che, evAM ja tamArAM kRtyane mATe ke ethI paNa bhayaMkara evAM tamArAM kRtyone mATe paNa je kaI tamane dhikakAre, te e tamane gamatuM nathI ! mATe, dhikkAravuM, e sAruM te nahi ja ne ? jene A janmanI mahattA zAthI che, te barAbara samajAI jAya, tene to pApa karanAranI dayA Ave. pApa karanArane pApathI choDAvavAnuM mana thAya, paNa pApa mATe pApa karanArane nivivekapaNe dhikkAravAnuM mana thAya nahi. ene, e vAtanuM paNa bhAna hoya ke-pApathI bacIne jIvavuM, e keTaluM badhuM muzkela che? pApa vagara jIvI zakAya e A bhava cheH anantAnanta jJAnioe joyuM ke A manuSyajanma e eka ja janma e che, ke jene pAmIne yogya sAmagrI maLatAM jIva, sarvathA pAparahita jIvanane paNa jIvI zake che.
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________________ 168 cAra gatinAM kAraNo sarvathA pAparahita jIvanane jIvavuM, e zakya che te eka manuSyajanmamAM ja zakya che. bIjA koI paNa janmamAM sarvathA pAparahitapaNe jIvavuM, e zakya ja nathI." cAra gatio-deva, manuSya, tiryaMca ane nArakI-emAM uMcAM sthAna be gaNAya; devanuM ane manuSyanuM; parantu, devabhavane pAmelA AtmAo, dhAre te ya emanAthI sarvathA pApa vagara jIvI zakAya evI sAmagrI ja e bhavamAM nathI, jyAre A eka manuSyabhava e che ke-A bhavamAM pApa vagara paNa jIvI zakAya. ahIM sAmagrI evI ke-je mANasa dhAre ane bhavitavyatAdine suga hoya, te mANasa bahu khUzIthI pApa vagara jIvI zake. raseInuM pApa karatAM ya tamArI strIone thAya ke-"raseInuM pApa karavAne mATe A jIvana nathI. A jIvana te saMyamanI sAdhanAne mATe che ane saMyamanI sAdhanAne mATe A jIvanane nirdoSa bhikSAthI nirvAha kare, e ja vyAjabI che. e bAI raI kare nahi-ema nahi, paNa rasaMIkarate karate paNa jeTalAM pApothI bacI zakAya tema hoya, teTalAM pApathI bacavAnI e kALajI rAkhe. keI paNa cIja le-mUke che te pUjIne le ane pUjIne mUke. cUla-saghaDI saLagAvatAM pahelAM, tenA upara ke tenI AjubAju kyAMya jIvajaMtu che ke nahi, te paNa joI le ane pachI pUje paNa kharI. lAkaDuM ke kelase paNa ema ne ema na mUke. vAsI, dvidala Adi na thaI jAya, tenI kALajI paNa rAkhe. Ama pApathI bacavAnA banatA upAye kare ane manamAM e ja cintave ke huM bhagavAne kahelA dharmamArganI ekAte ArAdhanA karanArI banI nathI, tethI ja mAre A pApa karavAM paDe che. AvI bAIonA
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________________ pahele bhAga 169 khoLe ucharatAM karAM paNa, kevAM saMskArI bane ? saha Aje te AvuM bhAgye ja bane. dazA ghaNuM bagaDI gaI che, e cakkasa vAta che, paNa have ya sudhAro kare che ke nahi ? A sudhAre kyAre thAya ? e vicAra Ave ke-janmane kadI paNa nahi vakhANanArA ane ajanmA banavAne ja sadAne mATe upadeza denArA jJAnioe, A manuSyajanmane kema vakhANuM nAkhe? te ke-pAparahitapaNe jIvavuM hoya, te A eka ja manuSyajanmamAM pAparahitapaNe jIvI zakAya tema che, mATe ja A jJAnioe, A manuSyajanmanAM vakhANa karyA che!" AvA manuSyajanmane pAmIne, jIvavAne mATe ya pApa na karAya te sAruM ane pAparahitapaNe jIvavAne ja prayatna karAya, ema te mAne che ne? pachI pApa karavuM paDe ane kare, paNa pApa karatAM chAtI ghavAya ne ? "je janmamAM pAparahitapaNe jIvI zakAya tema che ane e mATe ja je janmanI mahattA che, tevA janmamAM paNa mAre pApa karIne jIvavuM paDe che!--e vicArathI, jIvavAne mATe pApa karatAM ane pApa karyA pachI paNa chAtI ghavAya ne ? sauthI pahelAM te sarvatyAgane sarvottama mArga ja batAvAya? piSAtI vageree A vAtane barAbara javAba deve paDaze. sAmAnya rItie, bIjAo karatAM emanI lAyakAta vadhAre gaNAya. bIjAo karatAM poSAtI kAMIka sAruM samajyA che athavA te je samajyA che tene AcaraNamAM utAravAne temane prayatna che, eTale emanI lAyakAta vadhAre gaNAya. 1 sa0 lAyakAta vadhAre ?
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNe temaNe Aje je veSa paheryAM che, te ceAgya samajIne paheryAM che, ema samajIne vAta thAya che ne ? gRhasthaveSamAM pApa lAgyuM, mATe Aja pUratA paNa ahIM AvyA ne ? e tajavA ceAgya che ane karavA cAgya A ja che; haMmezane mATe ene tyAga nathI thaI zakatA, paNa manamAM te ema ja che ke-kayAre enA haMmezane mATe tyAga thaI zake; e mATe parvadivaseAe tyAga karavAnA prayatna kareA che, ema mAnI lauM ne ? je veSa pApa karAvanAra hoya, te veSa tarapha keTalA badhA tiraskAra hoya, mAnavajanmanA dhaNIne e veSamAM rahevuM paDe, ethI enuM haiyuM saLagatuM hoya ne ? vivekI enuM cAle tyAM sudhI te pApa kare nahi ane pApa karavuM paDe te AghAta thAya, enuM haiyuM kaMpe, ene ja haiyuM saLagatuM kahevAya. A janma evA che ke-mANasa dhAre te pApa karyA vinA jIvI zake ane pApa karyA vinA jIvIne pApanA kSaya sAdhavAthI ja meAkSa maLe che. je A samaje, tene ema jarUra lAge ke-mAnavajanma pApa karIne jIvavAne mATe nathI. A vAta jenA haiye beThI haya, te kakdAca pApanA pUra tyAgI na paNu khanI zake, teA paNa enA jIvananA DhALa kayI dizAe hoya ? sAmAyika, pASadha, pratikramaNAdi je kAMI e kare, te pApanA sarvethA tyAga karIne jIvAya, evuM jIvana meLavavAne mATe ja e kare ne ? 170 sa vAta bahu uMcI. zrI jaina zAsanamAM A ja sAmAnya vAta che. sa0 kaheze ke--mahArAja dIkSAnI ja vAta kare che. e vAta karUM, te temAM navAI paNa zI che ? jenI pAse je
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________________ pahelo bhAga 171 sAruM hoya, te te ja batAve ne ? sArA jhaverIne sAre gharAka maLe, te jhaverI ene keka mAla batAve ? pitAnI pAse eka ekathI bhAre hIrA-motI vagere hoya, paNa grAhakane sauthI bhAre hIro kharIdavAnuM mana karAvavAno prayatna to e kare ne? pachI, gharAka bhArenI kharIda karI zake tema na hoya, te eka ekathI utaratA vaLa batAvavA mAMDe, paNa jhaverI batAve to jhaverAta ja ne? tema, ame paNa, sauthI pahelAM te sarvatyAgano sarvottama mArga ja batAvIe ne? ame tyAga na batAvIe, te zuM bhega batAvIe? bhegamAM sukha hota, to ame ene cheData zuM karavAne? amAruM liMga paNa tyAganuM sUcaka ja che ne ? sAdhune joIne ja, jenAre samajI javuM joIe ke-A Ape to tyAga ja Ape. tamane tyAganA mArge doravAne mATe ja, A vAta che ke-jIvavAne mATe tamAre pApa te karavuM ja paDe che, paNa je pApa karavuM paDe che, tenuM tamane duHkha thAya che ke nahi ? ane haju sudhImAM evuM duHkha na thayuM hoya, te ya A sAMbhaLatAM sAMbhaLatAM paNa evuM duHkha pedA thavA jogI tamArA haiyAmAM lAyakAta che ke nahi ? A sivAya, taravAne zAstramAM keI upAya batAvela nathI. pApa tarapha aNagamo pedA thayA vinA tarI zakAya, e banavAjoga vastu ja nathI. gharamAM rahevA chatAM paNa kheMcANa sAdhupaNu tarapha ja thayA karavuM joIe? tame tamArI buddhine jarA kasIne vicAra kare ke-manuSyajanma, enAM vakhANa, janmane duHkhanuM kAraNa mAnanAra zAstra,
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________________ 172 cAra gatinAM kAraNa zuM kAma kare? je janmyA te maravAnA, emAM zaMkA nathI. zrI tIrthaMkaradeva thanArAe paNa, jyAM sudhI janmyA tyAM sudhI avazya maryAM. evuM maraNu jarUra che, ke je maraNa pachIthI janma na heAya; paNa evA janma ekeya nathI, ke je janma pachIthI maraNa na heAya. je kAi janmyA, te maravAnA, maravAnA ne maravAnA ja. AthI, ApaNane maraNanA Dara na heAya; bhaya mAtra janmavAnA ja che ne ? janmyA na hota, teA kazI upAdhi hatI ? jeo evuM mare che ke-maryA pachI janme ja nahi, teo sadAne mATe potAnA svarUpamAM ramaNu karavA rUpa anaMta sukhamAM hera karyAM kare che. 'namo siddhANuM' pada dvArA ApaNe rAja e tArakone namaskAra karIe chIe. e tArakAnI avinAzI ane sukhamaya avasthA, e ApaNA Adarza che. jainane tA, jo kAi jJAnI kahe ke-have tAro janma thavAnA nathI'-tA e vAtane sAMbhaLIne, ane utsava ujavavAnuM mana thAya. je zAsanamAM AvI vAtA hoya, te zAsanamAM manuSyajanmanAM vakhANa karelAM che, te ApaNane evA vicAra na thAya ke A zAsane A janmane vakhANyA kema ?' kAI paNa janmamAM, janmarati banavAnI jIvanI icchA pUrI thaI zake tema hoya, teA te icchA A manuSyajanmamAM ja pUrI thai zake ema che. e mATe ja, A manuSyajanmanAM, zAoe vakhANa karyA che. janmarahita avasthAnI prApti, e A janma sivAyanA kAi paNa janma dvArA thaI zakatI nathI; eTale ja, janmarahita avasthAne meLavavAnA mArga darzAvanArAM zAstroe, A janmanAM vakhANa karyAM che. janmarahita avasthAne pAmavAne aMge ja, A janmanuM mahattva che. A vAta jenA haiye jacI
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________________ 13 pahele bhAga jAya, tene jIvavAne mATe kadAca pApa karavAM paNa paDe, te ya enuM ene duHkha thayA vinA rahe nahi. eka yA bIjI rItie baMdhAelAM pApanA nivAraNa mATe, pratikramaNa karavAnuM vidhAna che. sAmAyika zA mATe ? pApa ochAM thAya, pApane tajavAnI vRtti sateja bane ane samabhAvanA sAcA sukhane anubhava karI zakAya, e mATe sAmAyika che. pauSadha karanAramAM paNa e . bhAva have joIe ke-Ama to ApaNe pApamAM ja jIvIe chIe, paNa be-pAMca tithi pApathI bacIe, e mATe pauSadha che. AvuM samajIne kare, te A pauSadha, sAmAyikAdi kharekharAM kiMmatI bane. "saMsAramAM rahevuM e pApa che"-ema jene na lAgatuM hoya, te pauSadha karavAne Avyo che. zA mATe? kAM to rUDhithI ane kAM to viparIta IrAdAthI ne? jenane te mAnavajIvanane pAparahitapaNe ja jIvavAnA manoratha hoya. e pauSadha kare, to ya ene yAda Ave ke- A pauSadhamAM paNa haju huM badhAM pApothI sarvathA chUTato nathI. tame kAMI AjanI tArIkhanuM vyAja cheDI devAnA cho ? zrAvaka sArAmAM sArI rItie pauSadha kare, te ya ene paccakhANa "duvihaM tiviheNanuM apAya, paNa "tivihaM tiviheNuM "nuM paccakhANa ene apAya nahi. kema? tame Aje mUkIne AvyA kharA, paNa tyAMnI vyavasthA karIne AvelA ne ? tame sAdhunI jema badhuM mUkIne te nahi AvelA ne? Aje tame ahIM che, paNa tyAM tamArI peDhI cAlu che ne ? emAM, Aje je naphe thayo hoya ke nukazAna thayuM hoya, tene jANIne, ethI tamane AnaMda ke zaka thavAne ke nahi? tyAM thAya te na thAya, paNa nukazAna thAya nahi, evI yojanA karIne tame ahIM beThA
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________________ 174 cAra gatinAM kAraNe che, mATe AnaMda che ne? tyAMnI vyavasthA bagaDe, te mAre ne ene kaze saMbaMdha nathI-ema manamAM rahe ke enI asara thAya? A khyAla Ave, eTale poSAtIne sAdhupaNuM mahatvanuM lAgyA vinA rahe nahi. pisaha pALIne e ghera jAya khare, paNa ghera javAnuM ene game nahi. sAcA sukhane khare anubhava te sAdhupaNamAM ja thAya, e prakAranA anubhavanI vRttine laIne e ghera jAya, eTale e gharamAM rahe te ya enuM cANa sAdhupaNA tarapha thayA kare. "A manuSyajanmanI mita pApanA tyAgane AbhArI che? eTaluM ya samajAI jAya te"A janmane upayoga, janma na thAya evI kiyA karavAne mATe che ane e mATe ja jJAnioe A janmane kiMmatI kahyo che"--e vAta khyAlamAM haya, eTale pApa karatAM haiyuM kaMpyA vinA rahe nahi. ene ema thAya ke-"vepAra karavA, peDhI calAvavA, bhega bhegavavA vagerene mATe A janma nathI. ApaNe je kAMI saMsAranAM kAryo karIe chIe, te kAryo karavAne mATe jJAnioe A janmanI mahattA gAInathI. jenAmAM A samaja Ave, te gharanAM-saMsAranAM kAmo na ja kare ema nahi, paNa A samaja heya, te jainanA gharamAM badhAMne gharanAM kAma karatAM ema thAya ke-"zuM karuM? saMsArane tajavAnI zakti nathI, mATe saMsAramAM rahevuM paDe che ane saMsAramAM rahevuM paDe che, mATe A pApa karavAM paDe che !' - sa0 A vAta samajAya che, paNa Apa kaho cho tevuM thatuM nathI. haiyAnI samaja vagaranI samajanI kazI kiMmata nathI.
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________________ pahele bhAga 175 aNasamaju samaje ane ene asara thAya, paNa jenI samaja sAthe haiyAne meLa nathI, ene kazI asara thAya nahi. ene je vAta kahIe, temAM e kahe ke-e huM jANuM chuM, samajuM chuM; paNa e vAta enA haiyAne aDe nahi ane ethI ene asara thAya nahi. Aje keTalAka jANakAre evA paNa che ke-vAta vAtamAM kahe ke-"e mArI jANamAM che; tame kahetA ho to tame kaho tene huM A vAta samajAvI zakuM tema chuM; AnuM jevuM vivecana karavuM hoya tevuM vivecana huM karI zakuM tema chuM." paNa evAone enI kazI ja asara nahi ! zAstra Ama kahe che-ema e kahe, paNa "e zAstranI vAte tArA haiyAne zI asara karI?"-ema pUchIe, te piola nIkaLe. AvI samaja lAbha na kare, kadAca nukazAna kare; bhAre nukazAna paNa kare. bAkI jJAnioe A manudhvajanmanI ATalI moTI kiMmata kyA hetuthI AMkI che, e vAta je barAbara samajAI jAya, te bAIo rasoI karatAM karatAM ane tame dhaMdho karatAM karatAM paNa karma khapAvI zake, e paNa azakya nathI. bAIo raseI Adi karatAM karatAM ane tame dhaMdho Adi karatAM karatAM, jyAre A badhAM pApathI chUTIe ane pAparahita avasthAne pAmIne A jIvanane saphala karIe"--evI bhAvanAmAM ramatA he, to enA ge, pApane keTale badhe a5 baMdha thAya ane keTalI badhI karmanirjarA sadhAya ? e bhAvanAnA pratApe, oghe jhaTa maLe. e bhAvanAmAM ramatAM, cAritramohanIya karmane kSapazama thAya ane viratinA pariNAme Ave, e paNa zakya che. cAritramehanIya karma kaThina hoya ane ethI kadAca A bhavamAM viratinA pariNAmo na paNa Ave, te paNa bhavAtaramAM ATha varSe o maLe, e zakya che. mAtra manane
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________________ 17 cAra gatinAM kAraNo evuM keLavavuM joie ke mAre pApathI sarvathA virAma pAmavuM che; mAre tA sAdhujIvana ja jIvavuM che.' saMsAramAM khAione ane bhAione, mATe bhAge teA, AraMbha-samAraMbhAdinAM ja kAryo karavAM paDe ne ? paraMtu, e mATe tA A janma nahi ne ? zrAvaka -zrAvikA tA, A vAtane samaje ja ne ? AvI samajaNane pAmelI khAI e jIvavicAra, nava tattvAdine bhaNyA vinA rahe kharI ? ane bhaNelI samajI mAI e, raseADAmAM paNa bALakone jIvavicArAdi zIkhavI zake ne ? peDhI upara beThAM beThAM paNa, tame, chokarAone tyAgI jIvananI preraNA ApI zake ne ? jo eTaluM ja haiye jacI jAya ke-A manuSyajanma pApanA sarvathA tyAga karavAne mATeja che; A manuSyajanmanI kiMmata pApanA tyAgane ja AbhArI che, ema jo lAgI jAya; tA bahu ochI mahenate ghaNuM kAma thaI jAya. jema peDhI khele te bahu sAvaceta anI jAya che, kAraNa ke-ene khyAla hAya che ke--kALajI nahi rAkhIe, te peDhIne DUla thaI jatAM vAra nahi lAge.' ethI peDhI kheAlyA bAda, ALasue paNa udyamI banI jAya che ane rakhaDanArAe paNa ThekANe besatA thai jAya che; tema A janma pApa karavAne mATe nathI, paNa ajanmA banavAnA prayatna karavAne mATe A janma che ane e mATe pAparahitapaNe jIvAya ane saMyama sadhAya evI avasthAne pAmavAnuM ja lakSya rAkhavuM joIe'-evuM jene lAge, te saMsArane cheADI zake nahi teA ya, saMsArane te rasapUrvaka seve nahi. samajI dardI jema na chUTake apane seve, tema e saMsArane seve. enI najara, sAdhupaNA tarapha ja hoya. sAdhune jotAM ja, ene yAda Ave ke-A mahAtmA jIve che, paNa 6
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________________ pahele bhAga 177 pApa karatA nathI. AvA mahAtmAnAM ApaNe darzana karIe, to ya ApaNAthI pApathI chUTAya. A mahAtmAnuM darzana paNa pApathI chUTavAnI yAda ApanAruM che." sAdhunAM darzanAdi karatAM ene khUba AnaMda Ave, kema ke-ene ema thAya ke-A saMsAramAM AvA sAdhuo sivAya keI e jIva nathI, ke je jIva jIve ane pApa kare nahi! "zrI vItarAganA sAdhu sivAya, bIje kaI ja e jIva nathI, ke je jIve paNa pApane aDavA de nahi ane mAtra ajanmA banavAne ja prayatna karyA kare, mATe AvA mahAtmAo ja khUba khUba vandanIya che-ema mAnIne ja, tame "namo AyariyANaM' Adi pAdothI AcAryone, upAdhyAye ane sAdhuone vandanAdi kare che ne? pite samaju hevAne dA karanArAo paNa bIjAnI vAtamAM kevI mUrkhAI Acare che? je A samaja nahi Ave, te tamane tamArI pitAnI eTale AtmAnI ya bhAvadayA nahi Ave ne bIjA AtmAonI ya bhAvadayA nahi Ave. e vinA, jagatanA jI para je bhAva rahe joIe, te bhAva paNa nahi rahe. e vinA, prazasyanI prazaMsA ane ninjanI nindA karatAM AvaDaze nahi. are, e vinA belatAM ya AvaDaze nahi. bele khare, paNa te prAyaH evuM ke-viveka maLe nahi ! duniyAmAM kahevAya che ne ke-mUrkha mANasa vivAhanI varasI karI Ave, tema AnuM bolavuM paNa prAyaH evuM hoya. bAkI, jene A samaja AvI jAya, te to samaje ke-"A jagatamAM pApa koNa nathI karatuM? ajJAna ane parAdhIna jagat pApa na kare, te bIjuM kare 12
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________________ 178 cAra gatinAM kAraNe paNa zuM? ajJAna ane parAdhIna jagat pApa kare, eTalA mAtrathI, kema ja ene tiraskArane pAtra gaNAya? abhaNa mANasa gaNavAmAM bhUla kare, temAM navAI pAmavA jevuM zuM che? ajJAnane ajJAnathI thatA nukazAnane ane parAdhInane parAdhInatAnA duHkhane samajAvIne, tenAthI mukta banAvavA prayatna thAya. enI dayA khavAya ke ene haDaselo devAya? nAnuM bALaka agnimAM hAtha nAkhe, te jenAra zuM kare? ene mAravA mAMDe? sau kahe ke-ene bIcArAne "A agni che ane agnimAM hAtha nAkhavAthI baLAya"--enI gama nathI, mATe ene marAya nahi. eTalA mATe te, mA bALakanuM dhyAna rAkhyA kare che. e gabaDI na paDe, dAjhI na jAya, enI mA kALajI rAkhe. garamAgarama cahAnI tapelImAM acAnaka bALaka hAtha nAkhI de, te mA ene dhela na mAre, paNa enA hAthane paMpALe; jhaTa ene ThaMDaka vaLe, evA upacAra kare. bALakane retuM joIne, mAne raDavuM Ave. mAne, bALake tapelImAM hAtha nAkhyo, temAM paNa pitAnI bhUla lAge. meM kALajI rAkhI nahi--ema thAya. kema ? mA samaje che ke-ene zuM gama bIcArAne ? tema, jagatanA ja pApa kare che, tyAM tamane bahu gusso Ave che ane tame pApa kare che, tyAM tamane tamArA upara gusso kema Avete nathI? tame eTale samajI jAta; chatAM, pApI ! ane pelA aNasamaju !! te ya, tamane tamArA upara gusse na Ave ane pelAo upara gusse Ave, tyAre vicAranArane te thAya ne ke- A te kevA aNaghaDa mANase che? tame keInA pApanI vAta kare, bIjAonI temanA pApane nAme tame nindAdi kare, tyAre e sAMbhaLIne vikiene tamArI ya dayA Ave,
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________________ pahele bhAga 179 paNa sAthe duHkhe ya thAya ke-samaju hovAno dAvo karanArA, A kevI mUrkhAI Acare che? pitAnI dayA janmI nathI ane bIjAnI vAta karavAne nIkaLyA che! pApine bALakanI kakSAmAM goThavatAM zIkho. dAjhayuM karuM, chatAM raDe mA, enuM kAraNa? ene khyAla che ke-meM bhUla karI ! mA raDe che temAM meha che mATe enI prazaMsA nahi, bAkI mAtra bhUla samajIne raDe, to te aThIka nathI. jenAmAM viveka pragaTe, tene te lAge ke-AkhuM jagat pApa tarapha dhasI rahyuM che, mATe tene saunI dayA Ave. dayA Ave, eTale jagatane pApathI parAbhukha banAvavAnA, e, yathAzakya paNa cagya upAye kare. upAya karavA chatAM paNa na sudhare te enI upekSA kare, paNa keInuM ya ahita cittave nahi. evA keI prasaMge, sAmAnuM ahita thatuM dekhAya-evuM ya kare; anekonA ane tAraka mArganA rakSaNane savAla hoya, tyAM yathAvasara eme ya kare; paNa enA ahitanI bhAvanA te Ave ja nahi. dhela mAre te ya sudhAravAne mATe mAre, paNa pAchuM paMpALatAM ya AvaDe, kema ke-mahIM dayA beThI che. Ama jananI zAnti keIthI khaMDita thAya nahi. A vAtanI jene gama nathI, jene A vAta jANavAmAM AvI che chatAM paNa haiye utarI nathI, tevAnA manuSyajanmanI zI kiMmata che? jaMgalamAM gulAba khIle ane te kharI paDIne khavAI jAya, tema evAne manuSyajanma paNa eLe ja jAya ne? tyAre, manuSyajanma kimatI hovA chatAM paNa manuSyajanmane pAmelA saghaLAone manuSyajanma kimatI ja nivaDe che, evuM to belAya ja nahi ne? ATalI paNa vAta, je badhA ghera laIne jAya, te paNa ghaNuM kAma thaI jAya.
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________________ 180 cAra gatinAM kAraNe DhavAne bhoge evA gaLe vaLagelA che ke-chUTe ja nahi : ekanI eka vAta phrI phrIne kema kahevAya che? bALakone samajAvI paTAvIne davA pAvI hoya, teA ekanI eka vAta paNa aneka vAra kahevI paDe ne ? ahIM kAMi paMDitAI khatAvavAne mATe khelavAnuM nathI. paMDitAnI sabhA heAya, te Ama vAta na thAya; judI paddhati akhatyAra karAya; paNa paMDitAne ya aparicita evI vAta jo samajAvavI hAya, teA te vAta vAraMvAra kahevI paDe. ApaNe jANIe chIe ke-bhavamAM be bhava sArA gaNAya che; eka devanA ne bIje manuSyanA; chatAM paNa, jJAnioe devabhavane bhava tarIke vakhANyA nathI, kema ke- devabhavamAM pAparahitapaNe jIvavAnI zakathatA ja nathI. ene bhAga evA gaLe vaLagelA hAya che ke devabhavamAM te e enAthI chUTI zake ja nahi. devA ane devendrA, bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevAnA samavasaraNamAM gayA hoya ane bhagavAnanI dezanAne sAMbhaLatA hAya, te vakhate ya mULa rUpe tA teo, devalAkamAM devIo ane indrANIo sAthe beThelA ja hoya ! sa0 e vakhate e bhagavAnanI dezanAne sAMbhaLe ke krIDA kare ? samaye samaye upayega badalAyA kare. je samaye ahIM upayAga, te samaye tyAM upayAga nahi ane je samaye tyAM upayAga, te samaye ahIM upayoga nahi! eka samaye eka ja upayAga hAI zake, parantu e hera-pherI evI thAya che ke jJAnio ja samajI zake. ajJAnione te ema ja lAge ke 6 A ekathI vadhAre khamatAmAM ekI sAthe dhyAna Ape che' paNa tema hotuM nathI. je samaye eka khAkhatamAM dhyAna hoya, te samaye bIjI khAkhatamAM dhyAna hotuM ja nathI.
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________________ pahele bhAga 181 sa, IndrAdi bahAra jyAre jyAre jAya, tyAre tyAre mULa rUpe jAya ja nahi ne? jyAM jAya tyAM uttara vaikiya rUpe ja jAya; mULa rUpe te sthaLe ja rahe, eTale ja, pApathI chUTI zake nahi. bAkI IndrAdika deva bhagavAnanI je bhakti kare che, te hisAbe mANasa te zuM bhakti karI zakavAne hato? mATe te, dravyapUjAmAM devonA anukaraNanuM kahyuM. dravyapUjAmAM devanI sAmagrI keTalI ane mANasanI sAmagrI keTalI? vaLI, devajIvana te avadhijJAnavALuM jIvana che. A badhuM chatAM paNa, moTI paMcAta e che ke-pApathI, dezathI ke sarvathI, virAma pAmavAnuM emanAthI banI zake ja nahi. devabhavanI e uNapanA kAraNe te, rAjA dazArNabhadra jyAM muphaTane utArIne prabhunI pAse dIkSita banavAnI taiyArI batAvI, tyAM Indrane paNa namavuM paDayuM. zrI dazArNabhadra : bhagavAna padhAryA che, evuM sAMbhaLIne rAjA dazArNabhadranA manamAM e mane ratha pragaTo ke-"A vakhate to huM bhagavAnanAM darzana evI RddhithI karuM, ke jevI RddhithI keIe paNa bhagavAnanAM darzana karyuM na hoya !" puNyane pitAne maLelI Rddhine saphala karavAne A sarvottama avasara che, ema rAjA dazArNabhadrane lAgyuM ane ethI, ene pitAnI sarva RddhithI bhagavAnanA darzane javAnuM mana thayuM. emAM, nahi AvavA jevI e eka vAta AvI gaI ke keIe paNa jevI RddhithI bhagavAnanAM darzana na karyo hoya, tevI RddhithI huM bhagavAnanAM darzana karUM !" rAjAe, tarata ja, maMtrI vagerene badhI taiyArI
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________________ 182 cAra gatinAM kAraNo karavAnA hukama ApI dIdho. nagaramAM DhaMDhero pITAbyA ke' AvatI kAle, rAjA, mATI Rddhi sahita bhagavAnanA darzane javAnA che, mATe saghaLA ya nagarajanAe, pAtapAtAnI Rddhi mujaba nagarane zaNagAravuM.' rAtamAM te AkhuM ya nagara bhavya rItie zaNagArAi gayuM. kadI na maMDAyA hAya tevA, bhagavad darzananeA mahotsava maMDAyA. zaNagArelA hAthI upara besIne, saghaLA ya parivAranI sAthe, caturaMgI senAne paNa sAthe laI ne, rAjA dezANuMbhadra bhagavAnanA darzane nIkaLyA. nagarane zaNagAreluM joIne ane bIjI badhI sajAvaTone joIne, e khUba ja AnaMdita thayA. emane ema thaI gayuM ke- Aja mArI Rddhi saphaLa thaI. mArA manAratha phakhyA.' rAjA dazArNabhadranA bhagavadarzananA A mahotsavanI indrane khabara paDI. indra, rAjA dazArNabhadranI prabhu pratyenI bhaktinI bhAvanAne jANIne khUza thayA; parantu, indra avadhijJAnI che, eTale emane khabara paDI gaI ke kAI e paNa jevI RddhithI bhagavAnanuM darzana karyuM hAya nahi, tevI RddhithI huM bhagavAnanA darzane jAuM chuM, evA khyAla AnA haiyAmAM che. indrane thayuM ke-A khyAla, enA magajamAMthI kADhI nAkhavA joie. AvI sundara bhaktimAM, A bhAva, e teA seAnAnI thALImAM leADhAnI mekha jevA che. ene ema thavuM joie ke-A bhagavAnanI AnAthI ya keI guNI RddhithI bhakti karanArA vidyamAna che. A bhagavAna ja evA che ke je Amane oLakhe, tene peAtAnI saghaLI ya RddhithI AmanI bhakti karavAnuM mana thayA vinA rahe nahi. rAjA dazArNabhadranA haiyAmAMthI pelA bhAvane kADhI nAkhavAne mATe, indre evA Rddhiyukta hAthI vikubyA, ke
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________________ ka pahelo bhAga 183 jenI pAse zrI dazArNabhadranI saghaLI ya Rddhie tuccha bhAse. e hAthI upara besIne, Indra, bhagavAnanA darzane AvyA ane rAjA dazArNabhadra jyAM potAnI svArI sAthe AvatA hatA, tyAM ja utaryA. rAjA dazArNabhadra, IndravikurvelA hAthInI Rddhine joIne saheja khacakAyA; acaMbo pAmyA, thaI gayuM ke "meM dhAryuM hatuM te saphala thayuM nahi !" paNa ethI, emane zreSa AvyuM nahi. haiye kSAtravaTa hatI. nakakI karI lIdhuM ke AvI ddhi ja mAre nahi joIe." Indra ane rAjA dazArNabhadra, sAthe ja bhagavAnanA samavasaraNamAM pahoMcyA. tyAM jaIne, rAjA dazArNabhadde mukUTa Adine utArIne, bhagavAnanI pAse dIkSAnI mAgaNI karI. Indra tarata ja namI paDyA. kema? bAhya trAddhinI sarasAI karavAnI zakti IndramAM hatI, paNa AmAM sarasAI karavAnI zakti IndramAM nahotI. dravyabhaktimAM de. mANasa karatAM vadhI jAya e bane, paNa bhAvabhaktimAM te mANasa ja phAvI jAya. devabhava karatAM ya manuSyabhavanI kiMmata vadhAre aMkANI che-tenuM kAraNa zuM ? devabhava viratinA pariNAmane pratibaMdhaka che. virati game, virativAnane namaskArAdi karavAnuM mana thAya, "saMsAramAM sAdhavA yogya A ja che ane bhaktipAtra paNa AvA ja puNyAtmAo che-ema lAge, deva-gurUnI bAhya pratipatti rUpa zakya bhakti paNa ghaNI kare, paNa emane viratine pariNAma Ave ja nahi. samyagdaSTi devatAone te, keTalIka vAra, tyAMnI sukhamaya avasthAvALAM paNa lAMbA AyuSpo
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________________ 184 cAra gatinAM kAraNA bhAgavavAM, e bhAre lAge che. indro bhagavAnane kahe che ke he nAtha ! tArA caraNamAM je sukha lAge che, te khIje lAgatuM nathI !' chatAM e evA parAdhIna che ke--tyAga karI zake ja nahi ! ane manuSya jo dhAre, te game teTalI Rddhine paNa kSaNa vAramAM tajI de! devabhavamAM teA janmanuM du:kha paNa nathI hatuM. mAtAnA garbhamAM rahevuM paDatuM nathI. devAne zayyAmAM utpanna thavAnuM hoya che. uttama jAtinA devAne te bhegasukhanI sAmagrI paNa ghaNA ja uttama prakAranI hoya che; parantu bhAgasukhanI sAmagrI jevI sAmAnya keTinA daivAne hoya che, tevI ya mANasAne heAtI nathI; chatAM samyagdaSTi devatAe manuSyapaNAne saMkhyA kare che. vivekI devatAo paNa jene jhaMkhe, evuM manuSyapaNuM tamane maLI gayuM che; paNa, enI tamane keTalI kiMmata che ? tamArAmAM e tAkAta che ke-devatAo paNa tamane bhaktithI name. viratimAM jatAne joine indrAdi devA temane praNAma kare che. tyAre, tamArI kiMmata virati mATe aMkANI ke ? sukhasAmagrI AdinI apekSAe jIA, tA devabhava ghaNA sArA; paNa jJAnie kahe che. ke-e vakhANavA jevA nahi. manuSyabhava Ama ghaNA gaMdA, chatAM paNa jJAni kahe che ke vakhANavA lAyaka A bhava! A zarIra maLa-mUtrAdithI bhareluM ane upara paNa parasevA vaLe, mela jAme ane durgaMdha vachUTe. apavitra malAdi aneka drArAthI nIkaLyA ja kare. devanA zarIramAM evuM kAMi nahi. sukeAmalatA ya evI ane sugaMdhamayatA paNa evI ! zarIre parasevA thAya nahi ne mela lAge nahi. dhruvanA zarIramAM, mala-mUtrAdine aMza paNa nahi. manuSyaleAkanI durgaMdha tA, jIravavI bhAre paDe evI che. e tA
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________________ 185 pahelA bhAga ApaNe TevAI gayA, eTale na lAge. manuSyazarIra te jANe meTI gaMdI gaTara jevuM che. sArAmAM sArI vastu paNa aMdara jaine mala-mUtrAdi rUpe pariName. A badhI apekSAe joI e te devabhava ghaNA sAro lAge, paNa vivekI kaheze ke-e badhuM chatAM paNa, e bhava vakhANavA jevA nahi ! kema e bhavane vakhANI zakAya nahi ? e ja mATe ke-bhAvanA game teTalI sArI hoya, teA ya e bhavamAM pApathI pAchA haThaDI zakAya ja nahi. tyAM, pApa rUpa karaNIthI alaga thai zakAya ja nahi ! devabhavanI kiMmata nahi ane ApaNA janmanI kiMmata, paNa te kayAre? jenA yeAge jJAniee A manuSyapaNAnI kiMmata AMkI che, tenA tarapha vaLIe tyAre ! pAparahita thavAnuM lakSya Ave, jema bane tema pAponA tyAga karAya ane na chUTake je kAMI paNa pApa karavuM paDatuM hAya, tenuM haiye duHkha hoya, tyAre ja ApaNe mATe ApaNA A janma kiMmatI gaNAya ne ? sAdhuveSane maLIne paNa zAsananI apabhrAjanA thatI aTakAvanAra munirAja : tame keAi di' tamArA gharamAM AvI vAta kare che. kharA ? gharamAM A vAta heAya ane A vAtanA saMskAra hAya, tA rAMdhIne ke raMdhAvIne khAvAmAM majA Ave ke nirdoSapaNe jIvananirvAha karavAnA vakhata kayAre Ave, ema thAya ? zrAvakazrAvikA gharamAM zuM rAganI ja vAtA karyAM kare ? rAganI vAtA na ja kare ema nahi, paNa zrAvaka-zrAvikA rAganI vAtAmAM ya tyAganI vAtane visare nahiM. zrAvaka-zrAvikAmAM tyAganI bhAvanA hoya ja. tyAganI bhAvanA, rAganI karaNImAMthI paNa
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________________ 186 cAra gatinAM kAraNe rAganA jherane niceAvI nAkhe ! kadAca e ya samajI na hoya, paNa eke ya jo samajI hAya, te te bIjAne dharma pamADavAnAM prayatna karyA vinA kema ja rahe? dharmane pamADavAnA prayatna karatAM ya, tamane AvaDe che ? dharmane pamADavAne mATe keTalA anukULa banavuM paDe ane anukULatA karI ApavI paDe, e jANA che ? gussA karye, dhamapachADa karyuM, rUpA ja dIdhA karyuM, sAmeA dharma pAmI jAya ? dharma pamADavA hAya, tA avasaroga mIThAza khatAvatAM paNa AvaDavuM joIe. zrI vItarAganuM zAsana, eTale kaye vakhate, katyAM, zuM karavuM-e ya zIkhavyuM hoya. jagata eTale prapaMcanA akhADA, pApanI raNabhUmi. emAM rahevuM ane jIvatAM AvaDe nahi, teA zuM thAya ? A rajoharaNa pavitra che ne ? ghaNA ja pavitra, kema ke-kevaLa chavAnI rakSAne mATe ja AnA upayAga karavAnA ane zrI vItarAganA zAsananA sAdhu AnAthI jaNAi Ave. A sAdhuveSane, rajoharaNa sahita, eka munirAje bALI mUkIne enI rAkha zarIre cALI, tema chatAM paNa e mahAtmA zAsananA prabhAvaka gaNAyA, kema ke-e avasare ema karavuM e ja ucita hatuM. zAstramAM evA eka prasaMga paNa varNavAelA che ke eka mithyAdaSTi rAjA kAi tevA prasaMgane pAmIne, jaina sAdhuonA dveSI banI gayA hatA. mAtra rAjA ja jaina sAdhuonA dveSI banI gayA hatA, eTaluM ja nahAtuM; paNa enA prajAjanA jaina sAdhuonA evA ja dveSI banI gayA hatA. sau kAI, jaina sAdhuonI nindA ja karyA karatuM. e nagaramAM, jaina sAdhuene AhAra paNa kAi ApatuM nahi. paNa
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________________ pahele bhAga 187 e rAjAnI rANI jena hatI. rAjA jema custa mithyAdaSTi hatuM, tema rANa custa jaina hatI. nagaramAM jyAM ne tyAM jaina sAdhuonI nindA thatI, e enAthI sahAtuM nahi; paNa kare zuM? rAjAne samajAvavAne e prayatna karatI, tyAre rAjA teNIne jana sAdhuo pratyenA bhaktibhAvathI mukta banAvavAne prayatna karato. Ama, rAjA-rANI vacce bIje badho ja saMbaMdha sAre hovA chatAM paNa, dharmanI vAtamAM jarA ya meLa nahoto. paraspara e kevI rItie vartatAM haze, e vicArI juo. Ama keTalAka samaya vItyA bAda, rAjAne ane nagaralokane bhramita karanArI tApasInA saMbaMdhamAM e eka prasaMga banI gaye, ke jethI pahelAM je loke enA guNonI prazaMsA karatA hatA, te ja loke e tApasInA denI nindA karavA lAgyA. e prasaMge upasthita thavAmAM rANIe bhAga lIdhela, paNa enI keIne ya khabara paDelI nahi. e prasaMga banya, eTale e takane lAbha laIne, rANIe rAjAne meM jaina. sAdhuonI prazaMsA karI. rAjAne pele prasaMga banI gaye, enuM bhAre duHkha hatuM, ane rANIe AvI vAta karI, eTale e vakhate te rAjA kAMI be nahi; parantu pAchaLathI bahu ekasAIpUrvaka rAjAe jaina sAdhuonI paNa halakAIthavA pAme, e prasaMga e . prasaMga jotAM lAge che ke-rAjAnI evI ja bhavitavyatA hatI ke-e nimitta dvArA ja e dharmane pAme, bAkI, rAjAe je kArya karyuM, te kArya jevuM-tevuM bhayaMkara kArya nahatuM. e avasare, sAdhu je avasarane oLakhIne avasaroga vartI
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________________ 188 cAra gatinAM kAraNe zakyA na hota, to e nimitta jaina sAdhuonI beIjajatI thavAmAM, keI kamInA rahevA pAmata nahi. "jana sAdhuomAM paNa kAMI mAla nathI ane emanA guNomAM ya kAMI mehAvA jevuM nathI"--evuM rANIne dekhADI ApavuM, evI ja rAjAnI IcchA hatI; eTale, rAjAe te mujabanI pAkI gaThavaNa, pitAnA eka vizvAsu sevaka dvArA karI hatI. rUpa ane lAvaNyathI yukta tema ja viSayavikArane jagavavAnI kaLAmAM nipuNa evI eka vezyAne e mATe upayoga karAyo hato. rAjAe pitAnA sevakane kaheluM ke "e vezyAne tAre kAmadevanA mandiramAM rAkhavI. e maMdiramAM agAuthI palaMga tathA viSayabheganI sAmagrI vagere tAre mUkAvI devuM. pachI, je jaina muni ApaNA nagaramAM che, temane kaI dharmanuM bahAnuM kADhIne, te maMdiramAM laI javA. pachI maMdiranAM bAraNuM baMdha karIne majabUta tALuM mArI devuM ane mArA hukama vagara tAre paNa e tALuM kholavuM nahi" . kevI bhayaMkara yejanA che? mamatane vaza mANasa zuM nathI karato? rAjAnA te sevake rAjAnI AjJA mujaba badhuM karyuM. munirAjane te dharmakAryane bahAne e ThekANe laI Avele, paNa munirAje jyAM bAraNuM baMdha thayAM, eTale aMdara vezyA, palaMga, viSayabheganI sAmagrI Adine joyuM ane have bahAra nIkaLavAno keI upAya ja nathI "--ema paNa joI lIdhuM. munirAjane lAgyuM ke-"huM ahIM phasAI gaye. anAgathI huM chetarAI gayo. munirAja jhaTa samajI gayA ke-"A keI prapaMcajALa che. A kAma A strInuM nathI, paNa keI bIjAnuM ja che, eTale, A prayAsa kAMI mAruM vrata lUMTavAne ja nathI,
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________________ pahele bhAga 189 paNa zrI jaina zAsananI vAvaNI karavAnA hetuthI ja Ave prapaMca karAyo che!" | munirAjane, vezyA pAse hovA chatAM paNa, zIla kema sAcavavuM-tenI cintA nathI thatI; pitAnA zIlavatanuM rakSaNa karavAne mATe te, e munirAja pUrepUrA samartha hatA; paNa emane ema thAya che ke-"savAre A strI sAthe huM ekalo jaina sAdhu tarIke bahAra nIkaLuM, to prabhuzAsananI apabhrAjanA keTalI thAya ? | munirAja A vicAra kare che, tyAM te pelI vezyA enA hAvabhAva zarU karI de che; munirAjane muMjhavavAnA e jAtajAtanA prayAsa kare che, paNa munirAjane to enI kazI ja asara thatI nathI. AvA prasaMgamAM TakavuM, e saheluM che? paNa jene potAnuM grahaNa kareluM vrata vahAluM che, te je sattvazIla rahe, te sAme kharAbamAM kharAba dekhAva karanAra ja thAke ne? munirAje vezyAnA hAva-bhAva Adi tarapha kazuM ja lakSya ApyuM nahi ane "prabhuzAsananI apabhrAjanA thavA pAme nahi, e mATe have zuM karavuM"--ene ja vicAra karavA mAMDyo. munirAje jhaTa nirNaya karI lIdhuM. rAjAe tyAM dI te mUkAvelo ja hato, eTale munirAje ene upayoga karyo. pitAnAM badhAM vastra, rajoharaNa ane muhapatti paNa, e badhAne e munirAje saLagAvI dIdhAM. pachI, enI rAkha pitAnA AkhA zarIre coLI dIdhI ane avadhUtane veSa dhAraNa karyo. ATaluM karyA bAda, dhyAnamAM tatpara banIne, e munirAje
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________________ 190 cAra gatinAM kAraNo AkhI ya. rAtri pasAra karI. bIjI tarapha vezyA, enAthI thAya teTalA prayatna karIne Akhara thAkI, eTale uMghI gaI. rAjA tA kayAre savAra thAya ane kAre huM mArI rANIne tathA mArA nagarajanAne, jaina sAdhuo kevA viSaTalaMpaTa hoya che e batAvuM" enI ja cintAmAM che; eTale, prAtaHkALa thatAMnI sAthe ja, rAjA, peAtAnI badhI rANIo tathA saMkhyAbaMdha nagarajanA ane rAjasevakA sahita, e maMdire AvI pahoMcyA. tyAM AvIne rAjAe potAnI rUbarUmAMja maMdiranuM dvAra ughaDAvyuM. maMdiranuM dvAra ughaDatAMnI sAthe ja jaya alakha niraMjana, jagannAthAya namaH ' khelatA avadhUta cagI bahAra nIkaLyo. tenI sAthe vezyA paNa bahAra nIkaLI. 6 > zarIre nagna, ceAgadhArI, nirvikArI ane alamasta cAgine mahAra nIkaLatA joIne, rAjAnA kheDhanA pAra rahyo nahi. pelI rANIe tarata ja rAjAne kahyuM ke Apa tA kahetA hatA ke jaina sAdhu che; ane A te bIjo ja nIkhyA ! ? > rAjA zamazamI uThayo, paNa kare zuM? dhAryuM hatuM kAMI ane banyuM kAMi ! nindA jaina sAdhunI karAvavI hatI ane pariNAma evuM AvyuM ke-rAjAne gamatA avadhUtAnI leAkamAM nindA thavA lAgI. pachI, rAjAe peAtAnA sthAne jaine te sevakane meAlAvyeA, ke jene A paTakArya soMpAyuM hatuM. tene pUchyuM ke--teM AvuM avaLuM kema kazuM ? ' pelA sevaka rAjAne kahe che ke- svAmin ! meM te badhuM ca ApanI AjJA mujaba ja karyuM hatuM, paNa pAchaLathI zuM thayuM te huM jANatA nathI ! '
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________________ 191 pahele bhAga sevakanI pAsethI A khUlAse maLyo, eTale rAjAe pelI vezyAne bolAvI ane pUchyuM ke-"rAtre zuM banyuM?" vezyA kahe che ke-"svAmin ! zuM kahuM? ene bhega mATe lalacAvavAne je kAMI prayatna thaI zake, te karavAmAM meM kamIne rAkhI nathI. meM badhuM karI joyuM, paNa e te aMza mAtre ya pIgaLe nahi. mane te, enAmAM evI abhUta mahA gazakti jaNAI ke huM te , paNa IndranI apsarAo paNa enA cittane kSebha pamADI zake nahi. A muni te meM kyAM ya je nathI!" Ama kahIne teNIe, e munirAja, jaina sAdhune badale avadhUta egI kevI rItie banyA, e vagere hakIkata varNavI. vezyAnA mukhethI munirAjanI makkamatAnI A vAtane sAMbhaLIne, rAjAnA haiyAe palaTe khAdhe. rAjA pratibaMdha pAmya ane janadhama banyuM. pachI te eNe, pitAnA cittane ane vittane zrI jinazAsanamAM jIne, purajanene paNa jana dharma pratye bhaktivALA banAvI dIdhA. je nagaramAM sarvatra jana sAdhuonA avarNavAda belAtA hatA, te ja nagaramAM leke jena sAdhuonI prazaMsA karavA lAgyA. kahe, kaye vakhate kema vartavuM joIe, enuM A zAsanane pAmelAne, kevuM jJAna hoya che? munirAja vidyAsiddha prabhAvaka hatA, gItArtha hatA, eTale ja avasare e A pavitra (sAdhu) veSane bALavA dvArA paNa zAsananI apabhrAjanA thatI aTakAvI zakyA ane pitAnA zIlAdi guNemAM nizcala rahevA dvArA prabhuzAsananI prabhAvanA paNa karI zakyA. agItArthonuM TeLuM hoya to ya, e mArgane lajave, ane gItArtha ekalA
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________________ 192 cAra gatinAM kAraNe ya hoya, te ya e mArgane ArAdhe ane ujavala kare. saMsAramAM chUTA paDavAnI navAI nathI ? ApaNuM cAlu vAta to e hatI ke gharamAM ya paraspara dharmanI vAta cAlavI joIe. rAjA ane rANI vacce dharmanI carcA cAlatI hatI, mATe A prasaMga Avyo ne? gharamAM pitapetAnA sthAnane ucita vyavahAra barAbara jALave, paNa pitAne sArI cIja maLI che-ema lAge, te potAnA snehI Adine te ApavAnuM mana na thAya, e bane ja kema? "pApathI rahitapaNe jIvavAnI jevI sAmagrI A manuSyabhavamAM che, tevI bIjA keI paNa bhavamAM nathI."--A vAta jenA haiyAmAM jacI. hoya, tenA gharamAM bIjI vAta zI heyara gRhasaMsAra che eTale vAte te ghaNuM hoya, paNa A vAta lagabhaga dareka vAtamAM vaNAelI hoya. tamArA gharamAM A vAta thAya che? sabIjI badhI vAta thAya che. eka A ja vAta thatI nathI, ema ne? tame badhAnA hitasvI kharA ne? tamArA saMbaMdhane pAmelA marIne kyAM jaze, enI ya cintA nahi ? gharamAM bAIo vagerene kahyuM che ketame ne ame ahIM paMkhImeLAnI jema maLyAM chIe; pa-25 varSane A sodo che; AmAM rAcavA jevuM kAMI nathI; A jIdagImAM kharuM kAma to pAparahita banIne bhagavAnane dharma ArAdhavAnuM ja karavA jevuM che, jyAM sudhI evI sthiti na Ave, tyAM sudhI gharamAM paNa rahevuM paDe, paNa gharamAM rahIne yA kyAre gharabAra chUTe, e prayatna karyA kare jaIe!" sa, je amArA haiye na hoya, te vAtamAM Ave kyAMthI ? pachI, tamArA gharamAM vairAgya paNa kyAMthI hoya? tame
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________________ pahele bhAga 193 badhA koI eka-bIjAne pasaMda karIne ja bhegA thayA che? tamane je mA-bApa maLyAM, te mA-bApa ja tamAre joItAM hatAM, mATe tame ahIM jamyA che?nahi; karmanA vazathI saMbaMdhe saMdhAya che ane saMbaMdha tUTe che te paNa karmanA vazathI ja tUTe che. je saMbaMdhomAM tame AvI paDyA cho, te saMbaMdhe ya TakavAnA kyAM sudhI? badhAnA badhA saMbaMdhe maratAM sudhI Take che ? jIvatAM nekhA na paDe to sAruM, ema kahevuM paDe ne ? bApadIkarA ya jIvatAM jIvatAM nekhA paDI jAya che ne? bhAI-bhAI ane dhaNI-dhaNIyANuM paNa? mA-dIkaro ya chUTA paDe? chUTA paDavAnI saMsAramAM navAI nathI, paNa mAtra bhagavAnanI AjJAna pAlana mATe chUTA nahi paDavuM joIe, ema ne? dIkare mAnI sAme na jue, lAta mArIne cAlato thaI jAya, te mAM zuM kare che? retI rahe che ne? paNa e ja mA, dIkarAne bhagavAnanI AjJAnI ArAdhanA karavAne mATe chUTA paDavuM hoya, te chUTo paDavA de kharI? gharamAM jarA eka bIjA vivekathI besIne AvI vAta karo ! pApanA yoge dIkarA, mAtAnA ne bApanA nathI rahyA, e A saMsAra che. chokaro koNe, bahere, bebaDe, muMga ja heta, te zuM karata? puNyanA yoge e sAre pAkyo, te ene pAparahita banatAM aTakAvo zA mATe? zI khabara ke-e vahelo jaze ke ApaNe vahelA jazuM? asala te, mAtA-pitAe pite bALakane pAparahita jIvana tarapha vALavo joIe; tene badale, bALaka taiyAra thAya te ya viddha karavAnI vAta, e kayI dazA ? A manuSyajanmanI mahattA zA mATe che, e vAta samajAI nathI-enuM ja A pariNAma che, ema lAge che ne? "A manuSyajanma zA mATe 13
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________________ 194 cAra gatinAM kAraNe vakhANavA lAyaka che?"--ema kaI pUche, te tame zuM kahe? zAstramAM lakheluM che, ema? athavA te, amArA mahArAja jANe ke pachI bhagavAna jANe, ema ne? paNa zAstramAM lakheluM che ane mahArAja jANe che, emAM tamAruM zuM vaLyuM? tamane phAyade kyAre thAya? tamane phAyado te, tame kAMIka paNa jANatA che, te thAya ne? tame jANatA he, te tame vicArI paNa zake ane saMbaMdhio Adine avasare kahI paNa zake. A manuSyajanmane pAmIne ApaNe zuM karavuM joIe, enI vAte tamArA gharamAM thAya che ke nahi? jainanA gharamAM te AvI vAte reja thAya, kema ke jaina, gharamAM rahetA hoya te ya, te saMsArathI chUTavAne mATe rahete heya. jagapUjya banavAnuM nasIba mAnavInuM ja cheH tamArA gharamAM je AvI vAte cAlatI hoya, te dharmagurUo vairAgya ane tyAganI vAta kare, eTale e jhaTa rU ne? Ama te, A janma devA karatAM ghaNuM kharAba che; janma te e, ke jyAM bhegamaya sukhI jIvana; paNa vivekI kaheze ke-ene karavAnuM zuM? pApathI pAchA haThavAne mATe deve rAMkaDA che. Indra je Indra paNa, jyAM viratinI vAta Ave tyAM, sAmAnya mAnavI AgaLe ya hArI jAya che. tyAM je maLyuM te maLyuM. vikAsanI taka ja nahi. ahIM te raMka hoya te nasIba hoya te rAjA ya banI zake ane saMsArane tajI devo hoya te tajI ya zake. deva ne devendro potapotAnI sthitimAM pheraphAre ya karI zake nahi ane bheganA bane tyAga paNa karI zake nahi. mAnavI lekamAM te, eka vAranA bhayaMkara
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________________ pahele bhAga 195 pApAtmAo paNa, pApane tajIne ane saMyamanA upAsaka banIne, jagapUjya banI zake. e nasIba mAnavInuM ja hoI zake, devanuM nahi; kema ke-ahIM pApatyAga zakaya che ane tyAM pApatyAga azakya che. A janma ApaNe pAmyA, te chatAM paNa je pApathI viramavAnI bhAvanA na Ave, te karavAnuM zuM? ghara eTale pApanuM sthAna, eTale A janmamAM maratAM sudhI gharamAM rahevuM paDe, te vivekI zuM mAne ? pApanA saMsargamAM jIvana pUruM thAya, e tamane game? maratAM pahelAM te avazya tyAga kare che, A maratha khare? tamAruM kuTuMba A vAtane samaje nahi, te tamane enI dayA na Ave? kuTuMba upara je prema hoya, te e premane A dayAnA mArge vALave. A vicAra haiyAmAM pedA thAya, to sAdhupaNuM pamAya; sAdhupaNAnI zakti na hoya te dezaviratipaNuM pamAya; ane kadAca aviratine keI te udaya heya, te tethI na sAdhupaNuM pamAya ke na dezaviratipaNuM pamAya te paNa, AgAmI janmane mATe ghaNI sArI sAmagrI ubhI thaI javA pAme. pApa khaTakyA vinA te paramAtmA ya tArI zake nahi ? A vAta haiye barAbara jacI javI joIe ke-janma te kharAba ja che, eTale A janmanAM kAMI janma tarIke vakhANa karAyAM nathI; paNa A janmanAM je vakhANa karAyAM che, te e mATe karAyAM che ke-jIvanane pApamukta banAvavAnI A janmamAM ja sArAmAM sArI sAmagrI che. jyAM sudhI pApa khaTake nahi, tyAM sudhI A vicAra haiye ja nahi. pApa khaTakyA vinA te, bhagavAna zrI jinezvarade paNa bacAvI
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________________ 196 cAra gatinAM kAraNe zakavAnA nathI. tamane pApa khaTake, te ja tamArA upara devagurU upakAra karI zake. sa0 pA5 khaTake, e mATe te gurU prayatna kare ne ? e mATe prayatna cAlu ja che, paNa prayatna tha yegya upara phaLe che. zikSaka game teTalo sAre hoya, paNa TheTha nizALIyAne kare zuM? vidyAne arthe hoya tene vidyA apAya, paNa TheThane zuM thAya? ene je bahu satAvAya, te zikSakane ya e kahI de ke-"zerImAM maLaje, mAthuM na pheDuM te mAruM nAma nahi" deva vItarAga che ane gurU nircantha che; nircanthapaNuM ane vitarAgapaNuM tamane game, te ja e phaLe ne ? A deva-gurU haiyAmAM kyAre pese? tamane pApa khaTake tyAre ! jene pApa na khaTake, tenA haiyAmAM deva mATe jagyA na hoya ane jyAM devanI jagyA na hoya, tyAM amArI jagyA to hoya ja zAnI? tamArA haiyAmAM je deva ane gurU mATe jagyA na hoya, te pachI devanuM kaheluM vacana gurU kahe, te ya te tamane rUce zI rItie? keIka vAra vacananA yege paNa purUSa upara vizvAsa thAya, paNa moTe bhAge te purUSa upara vizvAsa hoya te ja vacana upara vizvAsa thAya. vizvAsa purUSa upara hoya, te enA vacana mAtrathI kAma kare. ema thAya ke-A je batAve che te khoTuM batAve ja nahi, mATe manda buddhi AdinA yoge mane na samajAya, te ya mAre A jema kahe tema karavuM joIe. A vizvAsa hoya, to dharmAcArya gusse thAya ane keI kahe ke-"dharmAcAryathI AvuM te thatuM haze?" te paNa, pele ema ja kahe keemaNe gusso karyo che, mATe e paNa bhalAne mATe ja karyo
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________________ pahele bhAga 197 haze." sagI mA chokarAne mAratI hoya, to pADozI jhaTa mUkAvavAne na jAya. kema ? samaje che ke-mA che; te chokarAnA bhalAne mATe mAre ya kharI ! e jagyAe oramAna mA hoya ta, oramAna mA kadAca bhalAne mATe ja mAratI hoya, te paNa be jaNIo Ave ane kahe ke mAre, kyAM mA che?" vyaktine vizvAsa thayo ke? DAhyAo kahe che ke- jene ApaNuM upara vizvAsa nahi, tene bahu salAha devA jevuM nahi. ApaNe kevaLa enA ja hitane mATe kahIe, to ya te uMdhuM dhAre!" jene ApaNAmAM vizvAsa hoya nahi, tene je ApaNAthI levAya nahi. ame game tene nizrAmAM laIe nahi. jene amArI nizrAmAM taravAnuM lAge, tene ja nizrA apAya ne ? kaI vAra kaDake ya AjJA karavI paDe. e kene game? AjJA gyane ja thAya. upadeza Ape, e judI vAta che ane AjJA karavI e judI vAta che. AjJA pALe evAne ja AjJA thAya. tyAre tamane tAraka paNa deva-gurU tAre zI rItie? tamane pApa khaTake ane pApathI chUTavAne mATe tame deva-gurUnA zaraNane svIkAre te ne? kuTuMba sAthe karavAnI vAta jJAnioe mAnavajanmane kema vakhANe che, e have te tame samajyA ne? ajanmA thavA mATe je udyama ahIM thaI zake che, te udyama bIjA keI paNa janmamAM thaI zakato nathI ane ethI ja janmanA nAzanI preraNA ApanAra jJAnioe manuSyajanmane vakhANyo che. have kahe, ajanmA banavA mATene je udyama, temAM sauthI sAro udyama karyo
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________________ 198 cAra gatinAM kAraNe che? pAparahitapaNe jIvanArA banavuM, e ja ne ? jIve ne pApa lAge nahi, evuM kyAre bane? jIvana je bhagavAnanI AjJAne ja AdhIna banI jAya to ! yatanAmaya sAdhujIvana jIvavuM, e ja sAcuM pAparahita jIvana che ne ? te, A vAta, have te tamArA kuTuMbane tame samajAvaze ne ? kaheje ke "A manuSyajanmane jJAnioe daza daza daSTAnta durlabha kahyo che; Arya dezAdi sAmagrIo sahita manuSyajanma maLa, e atizaya durlabha che; ApaNe pUrve evuM vipula puNya kareluM, ke jethI ApaNane A manuSyajanma maLI gayuM che, paNa A janma maLyo, tene ApaNe saphaLa karIe te kAmanuM; atyAre ApaNe je rItie jIvIe chIe, te rItie jIvavAne mATe, A manuSyajanma nathI. A manuSyajanma maLe, e tene ja saphala che, ke je potAnA jIvanane pAparahita banAve! mATe, ApaNe paNa ApaNA jIvanane pAparahita banAvavAne prayatna kare joIe !" tame AvI vAta kare, eTale kadAca kaI ema paNa pUche ke A saMsAramAM pAparahita jIvana keNa jIve che?" tyAre tamAre kahevuM ke-"ApaNAM sAdhu ane sAdhvI pAparahita jIvana jIve che. sAdhupaNA vinA, sarvathA pAparahita jIvana jIvAya, e bane nahi." A badhI vAta tame kare, eTale keIne sAdhu ke sAdhvI banavAnuM mana thaI jAya, ema paNa bane, kema ke-pApa te khaTakatuM ja hoya ane pApathI rahitapaNe jIvI zakAya e janma maLyo hoya, eTale je samaje tene sAdhu ke sAdhvI banavAnuM mana thaI jAya, emAM navAI nathI. zrAvaka-zrAvikAne te ATha varSanI uMmare sAdhu-sAdhvI na banAyuM hoya, tenuM haiye duHkha hoya. ene ema thAya ke
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________________ pahele bhAga 199 AvI uttama sAmagrIvALA manuSyajanmane pAmavA chatAM paNa, meM ATalAM varSo pApamAM gujAryA!" jenA manane AvuM duHkha hoya, te ja sAcA bhAve ema kahI zake ne ke "dhanya che te puNyAtmAone, ke jeo ATha varSanI vaye pAparahita jIvanane jIvanArA banyA !" tame atyAra sudhImAM dIkSita banyA nathI ane pApakarmanA udaye tamane dIkSita banavAnA pariNAma haju jAgatA nathI, paNa tamArA kuTuMbamAM je kaMInA antaHkaraNamAM dIkSita banavAnI bhAvanA pragaTe, ene tame zuM kahe? bahu bahu te tame ene sAdhujIvananI kaThinatA batAve ne? tame eTaluM ja kare ke kAMI vadhAre kare? tamane tamAre meha e vakhate muMjhave, te e mohane dabAvI devAne mATe, tame tamArA vivekane upayoga kare ne? tyAM haiyAmAM dharma keTalo vacce che, enI kasoTI thaI jAya che. saMghanAM eTale keInAM nahi ke saunAM?. AvI vAto tamArA gharamAM thavA mAMDe, te pariNAma keTaluM sundara Ave? sa, AvI vAte ghera thAya zI rItie ? zuM vAMdho Ave? tyAgI game che ane gharamAM vairAgyanI vAta thAya to e game nahi? bhUlecUke A vAta ghara sudhI na jAya, enI kALajI rAkhe che? gharamAM A vAta hoya, peDhImAM A vAta hoya, eTale samajI levuM ke-e ghara ne e peDhI para, AjanA jevuM mamatva nahi rahe. e ghara tamAruM nahi rahe, paNa bhagavAnanuM banI jaze. jainanAM gharabAra vagere, badhuM zrI jinazAsananuM ja gaNAya. kema ema? tyAM mAnyatA bhagavAna
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________________ 200 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA zrI jinezvaradevanI AjJAnI ja hoya. saunA manane ema hoya ke-A badhuM sauthI pahelAM zAsanane mATe. Ama ghara ne peDhI tajI zake nahi, paNa zAsanane jo jarUra paDI jAya, teA enA te zuM ?, paNa jAtanA ya bhAga devAnI taiyArI jainamAM hAya. sau mAne ke-pahelA ApaNe zAsananA ane pachI kuTuMba AdinA ! puNyavaze je kAMi mane maLyuM che, te zAsananA upayegamAM AvI jAya te sArUM-e bhAvanA jainanA haiyAmAM hoya. Aje mATe bhAge tame badhuM tamArUM ja che-ema mAnI beThA che ane ethI tamAre mATe deva, gurU, dharma jANe pArakA hoya evuM thai gayuM che. sa mandira, upAzraya Adi te saMdhanAM te? saMghanAM eTale keInAM nahi ke saunAM ? dareka jainane enuM mamatva hoya ke koIneya enuM mamatva na hoya? zrI jinamandirAdi saghanAM, enA artha e che ke-saghanI dareke dareka vyakti emAM peAtAnI zakti-sAmagrInA kharca karavAne Icche. eka jainanuM ghara paNa jAhojalAlIvALuM hoya, teA saMghanAM mandirAdi kevI jAheAjalAlIvALAM heAya ? ghara vagerenI cintA karanArA te ekAda-be hoya ane zrI jinandira AdinI cintA karanArA tA sau hoya; eTale, je kALamAM ghara AdimAM UNapa Ave, tevA kALamAM paNa zrI jinamandirAdimAM uNapa| Ave nahi ! Aje mATe bhAge lagabhaga ethI UlaTI ja paristhiti dekhAya che ne ? ghara vagerene mAthe dhaNI che ane zrI jinamandirAdi aMge jANe dhaNIdhArI kAI nahi ! peAtAnI sagavaDanA ane potAnI sattA AdinA hakka karatA sau Ave ane kayAM keTalI jarUra che enI cintA tA bhAgye ja koI kare. Aje
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________________ pahele bhAga 201 devanI pUjA keNa kare, tenI ya cintA ane devanI pUjA zAmAMthI karavI, tenI ya cintA, ubhI thavA mAMDI che ne ? mandiranI cintA amAre kyAre karavI paDe ? gRhastho karI zake tyAM sudhI amAre emAM paDavAnuM nathI. tame na kare, te amAre paNa emAM paDavuM paDe. tamArAM ghara bhagavAnanA zAsananAM maTI javA mAMDyAM, mATe Aje vAMdho paDyo che. cheka traNa zera dUdha pIte hoya, te cAra zera dUdha pIte kema thAya--enI cintA kare, paNa pADozamAM sAdharmika bhAI sIdato hoya, te ya enI cintA kare nahi! chokarAne kaI di' ema kahyuM ke tuM pIe che emAMthI thoDuM rahevA de ane bIjAne Apa!? " are, chokare kadAca pitAnAmAMthI bIjAne ApavAnuM kahe, te ya A kahe-nA, tuM pI!" chekere pIe te mana Thare ane sAdharmika duHkhI thato hoya te rUMvADuM yu pharake nahi! ghara, chokarA Adi pratye mArApaNuM che, eTale mana kare che ane sAdharmika pratye mArApaNuM nathI, mATe enA duHkhe duHkhI thavAtuM nathI ane ethI ja janatva jhAMkhuM paDe che. jainatva jhaLahaLe kyAre ? jainatva jhaLahaLe kyAre? haiyAmAM deva gurU-dharmane je sthAna hoya, te bIjA koIne paNa na hoya tyAre ne? tamAre te ema kahevuM joIe ke amane ghara jeTaluM gamatuM nathI, teTaluM mandira game che; peDhI Adi dhaMdhAnA sthAne jeTalAM gamatAM nathI, teTalAM upAzraya Adi dharmasthAne game che; mAtA-pitAdi vaDilo jeTalA gamatA nathI, teTalAM sAdhu ne sAvI game che; kuTuMbAdi parivAra eTale gamatuM nathI, eTalA
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________________ 202 cAra gatinAM kAraNe sAdharmike game che ane dhana jeTaluM gamatuM nathI, eTale amane dharma game che. sava evuM bolIe, te te taddana khoTuM bolIe chIe, ema kahevuM paDe ema che. kAraNa ke-haiye e vAta nathI. jainatvane sAco AsvAda pamA na hoya, eTale evuM haiyAmAM uge nahi ane haiyAmAM evuM ugyA vinA ja evuM bole, te te te beThuM ja gaNAya ne? haiyAne evuM keLavavuM joIe. jainatvane pAmelo AtmA sAdhu ja banI jAya, gRhasthapaNe rahe ja nahi ane gRhasthapaNe rahe te enuM jainatva jAya, e niyama nathI. jainatvane pAmele AtmA paNa, saMsArane tajIne sAdhu na banI zake e zakya che athavA te, e dezathI viratine paNa na pAmI zake, e paNa zakya che; paraMtu, enA haiyAmAM avirati pratye 'anAdara ane virati pratye Adara avazya hoya. "avirati e pApa rUpa ja che, huM aviratimAM beThe chuM eTale pApamAM ja beTho chuM, viratine pAmyA vinA keI kALe mAre uddhAra thavAne nathI-A vagere mAnyatAo, enA haiyAmAM sudaDha hoya. AthI, ene ema lAge ja ke-"huM saMsArane tajI zakato nathI ane ethI mAre gRhasthapaNe rahevuM paDe che, eTale mAre ghara vagerenI jarUra paDe che; bAkI, cintA karavA lAyaka te zrI jinamandirAdi ja che. ghara bAMdhavuM e pApanuM kAraNa ane zrI jinamandirAdi bAMdhavAM e dharmanuM kAraNa, gharamAM pApanI pravRttio thavAnI ane zrI jinamandirAdimAM prabhubhaktinI pravRttio thavAnI. huM gharamAM rahuM ne udaranirvAha bhIkha mAgIne karuM te te anucita che, mArA dharmane lajavanAra che, mATe mAre
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________________ pahelA bhAga 203 peDhI Agni dhaMdhAdArI sthAnAne sevavAM paDe, bAkI sevavA lAyaka tA dharmasthAnA ja che. mAtA-pitA karme ApyAM che, chatAM emane mArA upara meATo upakAra che, eTale emanI mAre cAkarI tA karavI ja joI e, paNa kharekhara cAkarI karavA lAyaka tA gurUe ja che. kuTuMbIjanA sAthenA saMbaMdha karme joDelA che, chatAM huM e saMbaMdhamAM chuM eTale e saMbaMdhane paNa mAre nibhAvavA to paDe che, kema ke-bhagavAne ucitanuM ullaMghana karavAnI nA pADI che ane saMbaMdhane nibhAvavA paDe che, mATe emanA sukha-duHkhanI mAre cintA ya karavI paDe; paNa mArA kharA saMdhio, mArA kalyANakArI kuTuMbIjane te mArA sAdharmikA ja che, kema ke-e sabaMdha te dharme joDelA che. huM evA sthAne huM ke--dhana meLavyA sivAya, rAkhyA sivAya ane gRhakAryAdimAM kharcyA sivAya cAle tema nathI; khAkI meLavavA lAyaka, sAcavavA lAyaka, vinimaya karavA lAyaka tA eka dharma ja che. dharma tAre ane dhana DUbAve." jainanA haiyAmAM AvI AvI ja lAgaNIo hoya. e karatA badhuM dekhAya; jonArane kadAca ema paNa lAgI jAya ke-- A ghara, peDhI, mAtA-pitA, kuTuMbie ane dhana pAchaLa ja peAtAnI badhI zakti ane badhI sAmagrI kharcI rahyo che; paNa enA antaHkaraNamAM zrI jinandirane je sthAna hAya, te sthAna gharane hoya nahi; upAzrayAdi dharmasthAnAne je sthAna hoya, te sthAna peDhI Adine hoya nahi; gurvAdikane je sthAna hoya, te sthAna mAtA-pitAdine hoya nahi; sAdharmikAne je sthAna hoya, te sthAna kuTuMbIjanAne hoya nahi; ane dharmane je sthAna hAya, te sthAna dhanane hoya nahi. ene zrI jinamandirAdi tarapha rAga hoya ane e rAgamAM ene kalyANa lAgatuM hoya,
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________________ 204 cAra gatinAM kAraNe jyAre ghara Adi tarapha rAga hoya te khare, paNa "e rAga mane DUbAvanAra che-ema ene lAgatuM hoya! jenapaNuM Ave te mane vRtti ryA vinA rahe nahi ? A karaNInI vAta nathI, paNa mane vRttinI vAta che. AvI mane vRttivALA, avasare, zAsanane, dharmasthAnane, sAdhana mikAdine ane gurnAdikane e upayogamAM AvI jAya, ke je, AvI manovRtti vinA, saMsAranA sukhanA lebhathI ke gADarIA pravAhanI jema reja zrI jinamandire pUjAdimAM ane upAzraye dharmakiyAdimAM dekhAnAre upayogamAM Ave nahi. A manovRtti hoya ane sAdhananI muzkelInA kAraNe ja pUjanAdi na karI zakate heya; athavA te, tevA prakAranA karmodayathI bahu dharmakriyAo na karI zakatuM hoya, te paNa je kaMI vakhata zrI jinamandirAdi upara Aphata AvI hoya ane e enA jANavAmAM AvI jAya, to e avasare e AphatanA nivAraNane mATe, e zuM kare ane keTaluM kare, e kahevAya nahi; kadAca jAtane homI detAM paNa e acakAya nahi. evA kaI avasare, jaNAI Ave ke-ghara vagere Ane jeTaluM gamatuM nathI, teTaluM zrI jinamandirAdi game che. jenA haiyAmAM jainatva pragaTayuM hoya, tenA haiyAmAM AvI mane vRtti na hoya, to kayI mane vRtti heya? jena kuLamAM janmelA hoya, zrI jinamandirAdimAM janArA heya, bhagavAnanI bhakti karanArA heya ane gurUonA mukhe sAMbhaLIne "A manuSyajanma bahu durlabha che vagere vagere belanArA paNa hoya, paNa je A manavRtti na hoya ane A mavRttine keLavavAne
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________________ pahelA bhAga 205 prayAsa paNa na heAya, teA e jainatvane samajelA che, ema kahevAya nahi. zrI jinamandirAdi taravAnAM sthAna ane ghara Adi DUbavAnAM sthAna, eTalA nirNaya, jo jainane na hoya, tA e jaina kahevAtA hovA chatAM ya, jainatvane e pAmelA che -ema kahevAya nahi. jainapaNuM Ave, eTale manevRtti pharI gayA vinA rahe nahi. tamArA haiyAmAM paheluM sthAna kene ? gharane ke zrI jinamandirane ? peDhIne ke upAzrayane ? mAtApitAne ke gurUvaryAne ? kuTuMbIjanAne ke sArmikAne ? dhanane ke dharmane ? tame ghara Adine saMbhALeA che. kharA, paNa e tamArA manane gamatI vAta te nahi ne ? enAthI kayAre chUTAya, ema manamAM te kharUM ne ? eneA rAga khaTake kharA ne? ane sAmagrInA vyaya karavA lAyaka tathA sevavA lAyaka sthAna!-zrI jinamandirAdi che, ema tamArA haiyAmAM te che ja ne ? jaina, pahelA teA, jinanA ja hoya ne ? A maneAvRtti na hoya tA lAveA. AvI manAitta jenA jenA haiyAmAM hAya, te badhAnAM ghara, e zrI jinazAsananAM ghara che. tamArUM ghara zrI jinazAsananuM ghara banI jAya, evI mArI IcchA che. tamArAmAM paNu, evI icchA to kharI ja ne ? devadravyamAMthI zrAvakA pAse pUjA karAvavAnI vAte Aje, ATalA badhA jaino jIvatA hAvA chatAM paNa ane emAM samRddhizAlI nA hovA chatAM paNu, eka bUmarANu evI paNa upaDI che ke A madirAne sAcavaze keNu ? saMbhALaze koNa ? bhagavAnanI pUjA mATe kesara vagere joie, te kayAMthI lAvavuM ? peAtAnI kahevAtI bhagavAnanI pUjAmAM paNa
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________________ 206 cAra gatinAM kAraNe devadravyano upayoga zA mATe na thAya ? ethI Aje pracAra cAlI rahyo che ke-"bhagavAnanI pUjAmAM devadravyane upayoga karavA mAMDe." kaI kaI ThekANe to evAM rItasaranAM lakhANe thavA lAgyAM che ke maMdiranI AvakamAMthI pUjAnI vyavasthA karavI! AvuM vAMcIe ke sAMbhaLIe tyAre, ema thaI jAya che ke-zuM jene khUTI paDyA? devadravya upara sarakAranI dAnatA bagaDI che-ema kahevAya che, paNa Aje vAte evI cAlI rahI che ke-devadravya upara janenI dAnata bagaDI che-ema lAge. nahi te, bhakti pitAne karavI che ane te mATe devadravya vAparavuM che, e bane ja zI rItie? ApattikALamAM devadravya mAMthI bhagavAnanI pUjA karAvAya-e vAta judI che ane zrAvakane pUjA karavAnI sagavaDa devadravyamAMthI devAya-e vAta judI che. jene zuM evA garIbaDA thaI gayA che ke-patAnA dravyathI bhagavAnanI dravyapUjA karI zake tema nathI? ane e mATe, devadravyamAMthI temanI pAse bhagavAnanI pUjA karAvavI che ? jenA haiyAmAM te, e ja vAta hovI joIe ke amAre mArA dravyathI ja bhagavAnanI dravyapUjA karavI che !" devadravyanIvAta te dUra rahI, paNa anya zrAvakanA dravyathI paNa pUjA karavAnuM kahevAmAM Ave, te jaine kahetA ke "enA dravyathI ame pUjA karIe, temAM amane zuM lAbha? amAre te, amArI sAmagrIthI bhakita karavI che!" zrAvake dravyapUjA zA mATe karavAnI che? AraMbha ane parigrahamAM grasta, je chatI zakitae dravyapUjA karyA vinA ja bhAvapUjA kare, te te pUjA vAMjhaNuM gaNAya. zrAvaka parigrahanA viSane utAravAne mATe, bhagavAnanI dravyapUjA kare. parigrahanuM jhera ghaNuM ne? e jherane utAravAne mATe
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________________ pahelA bhAga 207 dravyapUjA che. maMdiramAM jAya ne kAi kesaranI vATakI Ape to enAthI pUjA kare, tA emAM enA parigrahanuM jhera utare kharUM? peAtAnuM dravya vaparAyuM hoya, te eme ya thAya ke * mArUM dhana zarIrAdine mATe te ghaNuM vaparAya che, emAM dhana jAya che ne pApa vadhe che, jyAre traNa leAkanA nAthanI bhakitamAM mArUM je kAMI dhana vaparAya, te sArthaka che.' peAtAnA dravyathI pUjA karavAmAM, bhAvavRddhinA je prasaMga che, te pArakA dravyathI pUjA karavAmAM nathI. bhAvane pedA thavAnuM kAraNa ja na hoya, te| bhAva pedA thAya zI rItie ? dhanahIna zrAvaka sAmAyika laIne zrI jinandire jAya : sa0 sagavaDanA abhAve jee jinapUjA karyA vinA rahI jatA 6 hAya, temane sagavaDa ApavAmAM Ave te lAbha thAya ne ? zrI jinapUjA karavAnI sagavaDa karI ApavAnuM mana thAya e sArUM che; tamane ema thAya ke- ame teA amArA dravyathI rAja zrI jinapUjA karIe chIe, paNa ghaNA evA che, ke jemanI pAse evI sagavaDa nathI. tevAo paNa zrI jinapUjAnA lAbhathI vaMcita na rahI jAya, teA sArUM.' te e tamane zaiAlatuM ja gaNAya; paNa ema thavAnI sAthe ja, ema paNa thavuM joI e ke- peAtAnA dravyathI zrI jinapUjA karavAnI jee pAse sagavaDa nathI, tene amAre amArA dravyathI sagavaDa karI ApavI joIe.' AvuM manamAM AvatAM, ' jeonI pAse pUjA karavAnI sagavaDa nathI, teo paNa pUjA karanArA ane e mATe paNa amAre amArA dravyanA vyaya karavA'- Ave nirNaya jo tame karo, to te tamAre mATe lAbhanuM kAraNa
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________________ 208 cAra gatinAM kAraNe che, paNa zrI jinapUjA karanArane pitAne manebhAva ke hoya, enI A vAta che. sava bIjAnA dravyathI pUjA karanArane sAre bhAva Ave ja nahi ? bIjAnA dravyathI zrI jinapUjA karanArane mATe sAre bhAva AvavAnuM kAraNa kayuM ? pitAnI pAse zrI jinapUjAne mATe kharcI zakAya-e pramANenuM dravya nathI ane zrI jinapUjAthI vaMcita rahevuM-e gamatuM nathI, e mATe je e pArakA dravyathI zrI jinapUjA karato hoya, te ene pUjAmAM pArakuM dravya vAparavuM paDe che ane pitAnuM dravya vAparI zakato nathI"--e khaTake che, ema nakkI thAya che, eTale, enI IcchA te pitAnA dravyathI ja pUjA karavAnI thaI ne? zakita nathI, e pUratuM ja e pArakA dravyathI pUjA kare che ne? taka maLe, te pitAnA dravyathI pUjA karavAne, e cUke nahi ne ? AvI mane vRtti heya te sArA bhAva AvI zake, kAraNa ke-jeNe parigrahanI mUcha utArIne pUjAnuM sAdhana ApyuM, tenI e anumodanA karate ja hoya. paNa vicAravA jevI vAta te e che ke-Aje je loke, pitAnA dravyane vyaya karyA vinA ja pUjA kare che, teo zuM evA garIbaDA che ke-pUjAne mATe kAMI kharca karI zake ja nahi ? je zrAvake dhanahIna hoya, teone mATe te zAe kahyuM che ke-evA zrAvakee ghera sAmAyika levuM. pachI je keInuM evuM devuM na hoya, ke je devAne kAraNe dharmanI laghutA thavAne prasaMge upasthita thavA pAme tema hoya, to e zrAvaka sAmAyikamAM rahyo thake ane Isamiti AdinA. upayogavALe banyo thaka, zrI jinamaMdire jAya. zrI jina
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________________ pahele bhAga 208 maMdiramAM jaIne, e zrAvaka jue ke ahIM mArI kAyAthI banI zake evuM, keI gRhasthanuM devapUjAnI sAmagrInuM kArya che kharuM?" jema ke-keI dhanavAna zrAvake prabhupUjA mATe puSpa meLavyAM hoya ane te pupanI guMthaNa karavAnI hoya. AvuM keI kArya hoya, to e zrAvaka sAmAyikane pArIne, e kArya karavA dvArA, dravyapUjAne paNa lAbha laI le. zAstra ahIM spaSTa karyuM che ke-dravyapUjAnI sAmagrI potAnI pAse che nahi ane dravyapUjA mATe jarUrI sAmagrIno kharca nirdhanapaNAne kAraNe pite karI zake tema nathI, eTale sAmAyika pArIne pArakI sAmagrI dvArA, e, e pramANene lAbha le, te egya ja che. vaLI, zAste ema paNa kahyuM che ke-reja je aSTaprakArI Adi pUjA karI zake tema na hoya, teNe chevaTa reja akSatapUjA karavA dvArA paNa pUjAnuM AcaraNa karavuM. saMghanI sAmagrIthI pUjA karanArAo: zAstromAM AvI AvI spaSTa vAta kahelI hovA chatAM paNa, zrAvake pAse devadravyanA kesara AdithI pUjA karAvavAnI vAto, Aje zAstrapAThanA nAme paNa karavAmAM Ave che, ane temAM, dahADe dahADe sammati ApanArAo vadhatA jAya che. zrI jinapUjA aMge Aje keTaleka sthaLe nhAvA AdinI vyavasthA thaelI che, paNa tyAM zuM bane che e te juo ! nhAnArA 1500 ne pUjA karanArA pa00 jevI dazA AvavA lAgI che. pUjA karanArAo paNa pUjA kare che, te jANe upakAra karatA hoya -evuM vartana mATe bhAge rAkhe che. pUjA karIne vADakI ne thALI game tema rakhaDatI mUkI de che ne ? pUjAnAM kapaDAM kADhIne 14.
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________________ 210 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA jema-tema pheMkI de che ne? pUjAnAM kapaDAM mATe ya zAstra te e vidhi kahyo che ke ane tyAM sudhI khIjAnAM kapaDAM paheravAM nahi; ane peAtAnAM kapaDAM paNa bahu ja ceAkhkhAM rAkhavAM, nahi te AzAtanAnuM pApa lAge. keTalAka pUjA karanArAo bhagavAnane tilaka kare che, te ya evA avivekathI kare che ke-jANe pUjAnI kAI kALajI ja na hoya. bhagavAna pratye, ene keTaluM bahumAna haze, evA vicAra, ene pUjA karatA joIne AvI jAya. jo bhagavAna pratye sAcA bhaktibhAva hota, bhagavAnanI pUjA mAre mArA dravyathI ja karavI joIe'-evA khyAla hAta ane 'huM kamanasIma chuM ke mArA dravyathI huM zrI jinapUjA karavAne samartha nathI'-ema lAgatuM hota, te e kadAca saMghe karelI vyavasthAnA lAbha laI ne pUjA karata, tA paNa te evI rItie karata ke-enI prabhubhakita ane bhakti karavAnI maneAjAgRti jaNAI Avata. peAtAnA dravyathI pUjA karanArAone e hAtha joDatA hota ane peAtAnI kAyAthI zrI jinamaMdiranI tathA zrI jinamaMdiranI sAmagrInI jeTalI sArasaMbhAla thaI zake tema heAya, te karavAne, e cUkatA na hota. Aje tA, AvI sAmAnya paNa vAtA, jo sAdhuo kahe teya, keTalAkAne te bhAre lAge che. peAtAnA dravyathI ja dharmakRtya karavAnA AgrahuvALA e nAkarInuM mananIya udAharaNa : bhagavAnanI pUjA karavAnA sAcA bhAva jenA haiyAmAM pragaTe, tene peAtAnA kharce pUjAnI sAmagrI meLavavAnuM mana thayA vinA rahe ja nahi. ene ema ja thAya ke--mAre pUjA
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________________ pahelA bhAga 211 karavI hoya ane mArI pUjAnuM phUla jo mAre meLavavuM hoya, te mAre mArI zakti mujakha paNu, mArA kharce ja meLavelI sAmagrIthI, bhagavAnanI pUjA karavI joI e.' zAstramAM abhayaMkara nAmanA zeThanA e nAkarAnI kathA Ave che. e kthA tA mahu lAMkhI che, paNa enI zarUAtanA bhAga A vicAraNAmAM bahu upayogI che. abhayaMkara zeTha jevA sukhI hatA, tevA ja dharmaniSTha hatA. emane tyAM e nAkarA hatA. eka nAkara gharanA kAmakAjane mATe rAkheleA hatA ane eka nAkara gAyAne caravAne laI javAne mATe rAkhelA hatA. e banne nAkare jotA ke-ApaNA zeTha sukhI che ane rAja pUjA-dAna Adi dharmane paNa Acare che.' banne nAkarA bhadraka prakRtinA heAvAthI, e andeyanA haiyA upara, zeThanI dharmakaraNInI sArI chApa paDaye jatI hatI. bIjAnI dharmakaraNInI paNa sArI chApa tenA ja haiyAmAM paDe che, ke jenAmAM kAMika paNa ceAgyatA hAya. lAyaka AtmAe ja, sArI cIjane paNa sArI najare joI zake che. nAlAyakA te sArAM kAma kare nahi ane sArAM kAma karanAranI nindADhi karavA dvArA pApa bAMdhe. jenuM mithyAtva joradAra heAya, te sArAnI sArI karaNIne paNa, sArI karaNI tarIke joI zake nahi. anumedanAmAM paNa dharma kahyo che, te amathA nathI kahyo. anumeAdanA karavAne mATe ya, haiyAnI lAyakAta joie che. je cIja game nahi, tenI anumAdanA sAcA bhAve thAya zI rItie ? ane sAcA bhAve anumAinA karanArA, taka maLe teA, e cIja peAte karyAM ane karAvyA vinA paNa rahe zAnA ?
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________________ 212 cAra gatinAM kAraNe eka vAra, e bane nekare ekalA beThA beThA vAta karatA hatA. temAM potAnA zeThanI vAta nIkaLI. banne jaNA vicAravA lAgyA ke ApaNuM zeTha bahu bhAgyazAlI ! ApaNuM zeThanA traNe ya kAla sArA! kema ke pUrva bhavamAM ApaNA zeThe sArAM kAryo karelAM, eTale A bhavamAM ApaNuM zeTha puNya bhegavaTe karI rahyA che ane A bhavamAM zeTha evAM kAryo kare che, ke jethI te AvatA bhavamAM paNa sugatine pAmIne sukhane ja bhegavanArA banavAnA!" pitAnA zeThane age, A vicAra karavAnI sAthe, e banee pitAne vicAra paNa karyo ane te evA prakArane vicAra karyo ke "ApaNe pUrve kAMI sAruM kareluM nahi, eTale A bhavamAM ApaNuM AvI sthiti che ane A bhavamAM paNa ApaNe kAMI sAruM karI zakatA nathI, eTale ApaNe Avate bhava paNa nakAme ja nivaDavAne che!" pitAnA banne nakara aMdara aMdara A vAta karatA hatA, te bhAgyavazAt zeThanA kAne paDI gaI. pitAnA nekaranI A - vAtane sAMbhaLIne, zeThane thayuM ke-"jI lAyaka che. AvA jIne je cogya sAmagrIne vega karI Ape che, te jarUra A jI dharmane pAmI jAya !" zeThe A vAta dhyAnamAM rAkhI lIdhI ane cemAsIne divasa Avyo, eTale zrI jinamaMdire pUjA karavA jatAM, zeThe pitAnA e bane nekane sAthe lIdhA. karene zrI jinamandire laI javA hatA, eTale emane paNa zeThe ThIka ThIka vastrAdi paherAvyAM ane pachI kahyuM ke-"bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevanuM pUjana karavAne mATe, tame A puSpane grahaNa kare!" e vakhate, pelA banne jaNA kahe che ke-e te jenAM
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________________ 213 pahele bhAga puSpa hoya, tene phala maLe. amAre te majurI mAtra thaI kahevAya." Ama kahIne, emaNe potAnA vatInI pUjA mATe, zeThanAM puSpane grahaNa karavAnI nA pADI dIdhI! zuM bhaNelA che? zA saMskAra che? keTalIka samajaNa che? kAMI nahi, paNa A to sAmAnya akkalane savAla che ne? zeThanAM kula ame bhagavAnane caDhAvIe, temAM amane zuM phala maLe?"-eTaluM, e ajJAna ane asaMskArI nekane paNa samajAyuM ane zrAvakanA kuLamAM utpanna thayelA, gurUonA paricayamAM AvelA, vyavahAramAM kuzala banelA tamane A vicAra na Ave, to samajavuM zuM? tamane ema na sUjhe ke pUjA karavI che mAre, pUjAnuM phala meLavavuM che mAre ane keInI vATakI, keInuM kesara ane keInAM kula laIne je huM pUjA karuM, te emAM mAruM vaLe zuM?" zeThe, pitAnA e banne ya nekarene, bhagavAnanI puSpapUjA karavAne mATe bahu bahu samajAvyA, paNa te ekanA be thayA nahi! eka ja vAta ke "karIe te amArAM puSpathI ja pUjA karIe, bAkI nahi!" nekaranA AvA valaNathI, zeTha gusse thatA nathI, kAraNa ke-zeTha samajI che. pachI, zeTha e bane nekarene, gurU mahArAjanI pAse laI jAya che ane gurU mahArAjane vAta kare che. gurU mahArAja nAkarenA manabhAvane samajI jAya che. gurU mahArAjane paNa lAge che ke-jI lAyaka che." gurU mahArAja e banene kahe che ke-"puSpathI paNa bhagavAnanI pUjA je bhAvapUrvaka karI hoya, te te ghaNA meTA phalane denArI thAya che, tamArI pAse thoDuM paNa dravya che ke nahi ?"
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________________ 214 cAra gatinAM kAraNe gurU mahArAje A pramANe pUchayuM, paNa zeThanAM puSpothI pUjA karavAne upadeza Ape nahi. gurU mahArAje e pramANe pUchavAthI, zeThanA e be nakamAMne eka nekara, ke je gAyone carAvavAnuM kAma karanAre hatuM, te be ke-gurUdeva ! mArI pAse dravya te che, paNa te ghaNuM thoDuM che. mArI pAse AkhI pacIsa keDI ja che!" eTale, gurU mahArAje kahyuM ke huM paNa tapa ane dAna Adi, je pitAnI zaktine pavyA vinA ja, zuddha bhAvathI karavAmAM Ave, to tethI vipula phalanI prApti thAya che!" gurU mahArAjanA mukhethI A javAba sAMbhaLatAM, e pAlaka nekarane bahu ja AnaMda thayo. ene lAgyuM keATalAmAM paNa huM bhagavAnanI bhakti karI zakuM chuM, eTale basa che!" tarata ja te tyAMthI uDyo. zeTha paNa sAthe gayA. pitAnI pAse je dravya hatuM, te sarva dravyanAM e nekare puSpa kharIdyAM ane e pu dvArA eNe bahu ullAsapUrvaka bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevanI pUjA karI! A rItie gurU mahArAja pAsethI uThIne gopAlaka nekara pUjA karavA gaye, paNa zeThane bIje nekara te tyAMnI tyAM ja besI rahyo. pele gaye, paNa A udyo nahi. enuM mana tatkAla uddhigni banI gayuM. ene thayuM ke-"enI pAse eTaluM gheTuM paNa dravya hatuM ane mArI pAse te kAMI nathI! huM zuM karuM?" udvignapaNe te A vicAra karate hatA, tyAM ja eka mANasane teNe gurU mahArAjanI pAsethI pratyAkhyAnane grahaNa karato joye. gurU mahArAja paccakhANa ApI rahyA, eTale zeThanuM gharakAma karanAra A nekare, gurU mahArAjane pUchayuM ke
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________________ pahelA bhAga 215 'he bhagavan ! A mANase A zuM karyuM ?' gurU mahArAja kahe che ke--'bhadra ! A mANase Aje tapa karyAM.' Ama kahIne, gurU mahArAje, tene tapanA aMgIkAranA vidhi samAnce; ane tapa karavAthI kevuM phaLa maLe che, te paNa tene kahyuM. A sAMbhaLIne, e nAkare tarata ja tapa karavAnA nirNaya karI lIdhA. ene lAgyuM ke--paisA nathI, te paisA vinA paNa thai zake evuM A uttama kArya che!' enI pAse jo paisA hAta, tA e potAnA byanA vyaya karIne pUjA karyA vinA raheta nahi; paNa enI pAse paisA nahAtA, eTale enuM mana lAcAra banI gayuM hatuM. Ama chatAM ya, paisA vinA paNa thai zake tema hoya tA, je dharmakRtya thaI zake te dharmakRtya karavAnI enI maneAvRtti tA hatI ja; eTale, eNe jhaTa gurU mahArAjanI pAse upavAsanuM paccakhkhANa karI lIdhuM. chate paise, paisA vagara thatA dharmane ja zeAdhe, emAM te paisAnI mUrcchanA atireka gaNAya. paisAvALo te, paisAthI thatA dharma paNa kare ane sAthe sAthe kAyAdikathI thaI zake tevA dharma paNa kare, jenI pAse je hoya, te tenA zakita ane bhAvanA mujaba dharma karavAmAM upayAga kare. tamane A vAta te sama jAya che ne ? ANe, paisA bacAvavAne mATe, paisA vagara thai zake evA dharma nahotA zeAdhyA, e vAta tamArA khyAlamAM AvI gai che ? sArA zeDa maLavAthI, A rItie banne nAkara dharmakArya karI zakayA. tamArA nAkaramAM lAyakAta bhALo, teA ane dharma pamADavAnuM mana, tamane thAya ne ? tamArA gharanuM keAI dharmathI vaMcita na rahI jAya, evI icchA te kharI ne ? tame tamArAthI
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________________ 216 cAra gatinAM kAraNA anatI mahenata karo, chatAM koI dharmane na pAmI zake, te vAta judI che; paNa tamArA manamAM te ema kharUM ne ke-A adhAne dharma pamADavA che!? tamArA nokarIne, tamArI karaNI joIne, tamAre mATe kevo vicAra Ave? nAkaramAM ceAgyatA hAya, tA tamArI badhI rItabhAta tA evI te ke-ene, tamArI puNyAinI prazaMsA karavAnuM mana thAya ja ? AvAM udAharaNA jyAre jyAre sAMbhaLo, tyAre tyAre, jAtanA paNa vicAra karanArA ane ! vicAra karavA ke--alayaMkara zeThanI chApa, jevI temanA nokaronA haiyA upara paDI; tevI chApa, mArA nekarAnA haiyA upara, mAre mATe paDI che kharI ? nathI paDI, te emAM doSa mAre che ke nAkarAnA ja che? mArI nAlAyakAtathI, mArA nAkarAnA haiyAmAM mAre viSe sArI chApa paDI nathI ke nAkarA evA nAlAyaka che ke huM sArA hovA chatAM paNa temanA haiyA upara mAre viSe sArI chApa paDI nathI ?' AvA vicAra karo, te ema thavAmAM jo tamAro doSa hAya, tA te tamArA khyAlamAM Ave ane e dveSane kADhavAnuM mana thAya ! ' abhayaMkara zeTha bahu sArA '-ema kahIne vAtane mAMDI vALA nahiM. jhaTa vicAra karavA ke e zeTha sArA hatA, teA huM zA mATe sAro banI zakuM nahi ? ' eka pUjA karIne ane bIjo upavAsanuM paccakhANa karIneane nAkarA haiyAmAM khUba khUba harSane pAmatA thakA zeThanI sAthe zeThane ghera AvyA. bhojanaveLA thaI hatI, eTale bannene temane mATenAM bhANAM maLI gayAM. zeThanuM gharakAma karanAra nAkare upavAsa karyAM hatA, chatAM paNa teNe pAtAnuM bhANuM pIrasAvyuM. eNe vicAra karyAM ke
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________________ pahele bhAga 217 mane A bhejana mArA kAmanA badalAmAM maLe che eTale A bhejana mArA hakakanuM che. A bhejana mAruM raLatara che, eTale mArA puNya je kaI munirAja atyAre ahIM AvI jAya, to huM temane mAruM A bhejana vaherAvI dauM !" gharakAma karanAra nokara je nokara paNa ke vicAra kare che, to e te juo ! zrI jinapUjAmAM paNa pitAnA dravyathI ja zrI jinapUjA karavAno Agraha ane gurUne vaherAvavAmAM paNa pitAnuM hakkanuM ja bhejana vaherAvavAno Agraha ! bhakitano bhAva jyAre sAcA rUpamAM pragaTe che, tyAre haiyAmAM kevI phuraNAo pragaTe che, e jANavAne mATe A ghaNuM ja sundara udAharaNa che. pArakA dravyathI ja ane have te chevaTa devadravyanA kharca paNa zrI jinapUjA karavA-karAvavAnI vAta karanArAo, je potAnA haiyAne khelIne AvI vAtone vicAre, te emane khyAla Ave ke-emanA vicAre, keTalA badhA unmArga tarapha ghasaDAI rahyA che. pelo nokara, pitAnA vaLataranuM bhejana, je kaI paNa munirAja maLI jAya to temane te vaherAvI devAno nirNaya karIne, gharanA bAraNuM pAse AvIne ubho rahyo. evAmAM, tyAM eka munirAja bhikSAne mATe AvI caDyA. glAnAdikanA kAryane aMge e divase e mahAtmA upavAsa karI zakelA nahi, eTale bhejanaveLAe gocarI vaheravAne mATe e nIkaLelA; ane pelA nekaranuM bhAgya evuM sAruM ke-e munirAja tyAM ja AvI pahoMcyA. munirAjane jotAM te, AnA harSa uchALo mAryo ! ene tarata ja vicAra Avye ke-raMka e huM kyAM ane AvA
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________________ 218 cAra gatinAM kAraNe munirAja kayAM ? temAM vaLI, mArUM raheluM dravya kAMthI ? ' mArA jevA raMkane AvA munirAjanA cega kayAMthI thAya ane kadAca AvA munirAjano yAga mane thaI jAya, paNa te vakhate AvA munirAjane ApI zakAya evuM dravya, mArI pAse mArA raLataranuM hAya kyAMthI ? e vakhate, ene ema paNa thAya che ke--A badhA yoga sUcave che ke-AvatA bhavamAM cAsa mane keAI adbhuta saMpatti prApta thavAnI che! AvI sAmagrI kadI paNa anyathA thAya nahi ! ' A vicAramAM, khUba AnaMdapUrvaka ane saMtASapUrvaka, e nokare potAnuM saghaLuM ya bheAjana munirAjane vaheArAvI dIdhuM. zeTha A badhuM jotA hatA ane joine prasanna thatA hatA ! peAtAnA nAkarane, A pramANe saghaLuM ya munirAjane vaheArAvI detA joine, zeTha paNa khUba prameAda pAmyA. zeThe peAtAnA nokarAne paNa kevuM bhAjana pIrasAvyuM haze ? tamAre tyAM te, mATe bhAge zeThanuM khANuM juduM ane nokaranuM khANuM juduM, evuM ja hoya che ne? kahe che ke-nAkara upara sArI chApa paDatI nathI, paNa nokara upara sArI chApa paDe evA tamArA vyavahAra ja kayAM che? zeThe joyuM ke-ANe teA kAMI paNu rAkhyA sivAya potAnuM badhuM ja bheAjana vaheArAvI dIdhuM che, eTale zeThe tenA bhANAmAM khI bheAjana pIrasAvavA mAMDayuM, kema ke-emane khabara nahAtI ke ANe Aje upavAsa karyo che. geApAlaka nAkaranI sAthe zeTha jyAre zrI jinamandiramAM gayelA, te vakhate ANe upavAsanuM paccakhkhANa karI lIdheluM ane pachI koine ya eNe e viSe kaheluM nahi. upavAsa
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________________ pahele bhAga 219 ne ene harSa ghaNe hatuM, paNa potAnA harSane potAnA haiyAmAM samAvavAnI lAyakAta enAmAM hatI. e nokare je saMgomAM upavAsanuM paccakhANa ka hatuM, te saMgamAM tame koI dharmakRtya karyuM hoya, to e bIjAone kahyA vinA tame rahI zako kharA? potAnI pAse kAMI paNa dhana nahi hevAthI ja, e pUjA karyA vinA rahI gayo hato, eTale, ene te ema kahevAnuM heje mana thaI jAya ke mArA mitre pUjA karI, te meM vagara paise ya apUrva karyuM che!" paNa jIva bahu lAyaka che, eTale ene evuM bolavAne vicAra sarakhe ya AvyuM nathI. zeThe jyAre pharIthI bhejana pIrasavAnuM kahyuM, tyAre ANe nA pADI ane kahyuM ke Aje mAre upavAsa che." zeTha kahe che ke te pachI te pahelAM zA mATe bhejana lIdhuM hatuM?" zeThanA manane ema ke-A, munirAjane vaherAvI dIdhuM, eTalA mATe te upavAsa karavAne Icchato nathI ne ? pele nokara kahe che ke-e bhejana mAruM hatuM, eTale mArA bhejanane huM zA mATe tyAga karUM?" eTale ke-mArA hakakanA bhAjanane mane gamate upayoga karavAne badale, eno tyAga huM zuM kAma karuM ? AvA javAbathI zeTha adhika prasanna thayA ane A banAva bane te divasathI to, te banne nekare upara zeThe adhika vAtsalya karavA mAMDayuM; kema ke-have te e nekare hovA chatAM paNa sAdharmika thaI gayA ne ? zrAvakane DUbAvI devAne dhaMdhe H . abhayaMkara zeThanA e be nokare, nahatA pUjAnA vidhine
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________________ 220 cAra gatinAM kAraNe jANatA ke nahotA bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevanA guNasamUhane pichAnatA; paNa pitAnA zeThane lIdhe emane pUjA karavAnuM mana thayuM hatuM ane "devapUjA e puNyakaraNa che ane A bhagavAna e deva che evI egha samaja hatI. enA yoge, emanA haiyAmAM potAnA dravyathI pUjA karavAno zubha pariNAma ja ne ? e banne nokarane, te pachI je bhAvalAsa ja, te bhAllAsa je temaNe zeThanAM puSpothI pUjA karI hata, to janmata khare? "amAre pUjA karavI hoya, te te amAre amArA dravyathI ja karavI joIe -e prakAranI emanI manodazAe, emane kevA sundara bhAvollAsanI taka pamADI dIdhI? tame, tamArI pAse dravya hovA chatAM paNa, pArakAM dravyathI pUjA kare, to temAM "Aja mAruM dravyavAnapaNuM sArthaka thayuM -evo bhAva pragaTavAne kAMI avakAza che kharo? kharekhara, bhaktinA bhAvamAM khAmI AvI che, eTale ja Aje ADA-avaLA vicAro sujhe che. zrI jinamaMdiramAM rAkhelI sAmagrIthI ja pUjAdi karanArAo vivekahInapaNe varte che, tenuM kAraNa zuM? potAnI sAmAnya kimatanI cIjane paNa teo jeTalI sAcave che, teTalI derAsaranI bhAre kiMmatanI cIjane paNa teo sAcavatA nathI; jyAre kharI rItie te, zrI jinamandiranI ke saMghanI nAnAmAM nAnI, sAdhAraNamAM sAdhAraNa kimatanI cIjane paNa, sArAmAM sArI rItie sau keIe sAcavavI joIe. Aje mAre mArA dravyathI ja zrI jinapUjA karavI joIe -e vAta visarAtI jAya che ane ethI je sthale jenonAM saMkhyAbaMdha ghare haya, temAM paNa sukhI sthitivALAM ghare hoya, tyAM paNa kesara-sukhaDa AdinA
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________________ pahele bhAga 221 kharcane mATe bUma paDavA lAgI che. AnA upAya tarIke, devadravyathI zrI jinapUjana karavAnuM kahevAne badale, sAmagrIsaMpanna janone potapotAnI sAmagrIthI zakti mujaba pUjA karavAno upadeza Apavo joIe. devadravyanA rakSaNane mATe paNa, A devadravyamAMthI zrAvakone pUjA karavAnI sagavaDa karI devAno upAya, vyAjabI nathI. devadravyano durUpayega thato aTakAvavo heya ane sadupayoga karI le hoya, to Aje jirNa mandire ochAM nathI. badhAM jirNa mandirano uddhAra karavAno nirNaya kare, to tene pahoMcI vaLe eTaluM devadravya paNa nathI. paratu, devadravyamAMthI zrAvakene mATe pUjA karavAnI vyavasthA karavI. ane zrAvakane devadravyathI AvelI sAmagrI dvArA pUjA karatA banAvI dIdhA, e te temane tAravAno nahi paNa DUbAvI. devAno dhaMdhe che. pUjA gAMThanA dravyathI ja karavI joIe ? zrI jinapUjA kAyika, vAcika ane mAnasika -ema traNa prakAre paNa kahI che. zrI jinapUjA mATe jarUrI sAmagrI pote ekaThI karavI-te kAyika, dezAntarAdithI te sAmagrI maMgAvavI -te vAcika ane naMdanavananAM pupe Adi je sAmagrI meLavI zakAya tema nathI, tenI kalpanA karavA dvArA tenAthI pUjA karavIte mAnasika ! pArakI sAmagrIthI pUjA karanArAo, A traNamAMthI kyA prakAranI pUjA karI zakavAnA hatA? zAstroe te gRhamaMdiramAM utpanna thayela devadravyathI gRhamandiramAM pUjA karavAnI paNa manAI karI che. gRhamandiramAM upajela devadravya dvArA saMghanA zrI jinamandiramAM pUjA karavAmAM paNa deSa kahyo che
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________________ :222 cAra gatinAM kAraNA ane gAMThanA dravyathI ja zrI jinapUjA karavI joIe, evuM vidhAna karyuM che. tIrthayAtrAe jatAM keAIe dharmakRtyamAM vAparavAne mATe kAMI dravya ApyuM hoya, te te dravyane potAnA dravyanI sAthe bheLavI daIne, pUjAdi karavAnI paNa zAstra manA karI che ane kahyuM che ke pahelAM devapUjAdi dharmakRtyA gAMThanA dravyathI ja karavAM ane te pachI bIjAe je dravya ApyuM hoya, tene sarvanI sAkSIe, eTale ema ke- A amukanA dravyathI karUM chuM'-ema kahIne, dhamakRtyA karavAM. sAmudAyika dharmakArya karavAnuM hoya, temAM jene jeTaleA bhAga hoya, te sarva samakSa jAhera na kare, tA paNa puNyanA nAza thAya ane cArI AdinA doSa lAge, ema zAstra kahyuM che. jo zAstromAM kahevAelI A badhI vAtAne vicAravAmAM Ave, to saune A badhI vAte kharAara samajAvI zakAya ane ethI zrI jinabhakta evA sarva zrAvakAne lAge ke ApaNe ApaNI zakti mujaba paNa ApaNI" gAMThanA dravyathI ja zrI jinapUjA karavI joi e. nahi karanAra chatAM maneAbhava sAro ane karanAra chatAM maneAbhAva kharAkha-e viSe eka udAharaNa : sa game tema paNa zrI jinapUjA kare, to tethI gheADA ghaNA paNa lAbha thAya ne? zrI jinapUjA game tema kare ane te paNa tethI lAbha ja thAya, AvuM vaLI kacAMthI laI AvyA ? kare pUjA, paNa AzAtanA thAya evI rItie kare, teA ya lAbha thAya ? maneAbhAva upara te phUlanA moTA AdhAra che. maneAbhAvanI taratamatAnA kAraNe, phUlamAM paNa taratamatA rahe che. maneAbhAva viparIta
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________________ 223 pahele bhAga prakArane thaI jAya, to lAbhane badale hAni paNa thaI jAya. zAstramAM be vaNikanuM eka udAharaNa Ave che. e be vaNikomAM ekanuM nAma nandaka hatuM ane bIjAnuM nAma bhadraka hatuM. e banenI dukAne pAse pAse hatI. nandaka nAmanA vaNike reja devapUjA karavAno niyama grahaNa karyo hate. reja savAre te pahelAM pUjA karavA jato ane pUjA karIne AvyA pachI te pitAnI dukAna kholato, jyAre bhadraka reja savAre uThIne sIdhe pitAnI dukAne jato. nandakane pUjA karavAne mATe te joIne, bhadraka rAja vicAra karo ke dhanya che A nandakane, kAraNa ke-anya sarva kRtyane tajI daIne, A, reja savAre bhagavAna zrI jinezvaradevanI pUjA kare che ! huM ke nirdhana, pApI ane dhana kamAvAnI lAlasAmAM paDelo chuM, ke jethI savAre divasa ugye ahIM AvuM chuM ane pAmaranAM meMDhAM jouM chuM! dhikkAra che mArA jIvitane ane mArA getrane paNa!" AvA vicAre, ene roja AvatA hatA, ane ethI zAstra kahe che ke-AvA prakAranA dhyAna rUpa jala vaDe karIne, e, pitAnA pApamalane hete hate tathA potAnA puNyabIjane sIMcato hato. eka tarapha pUjA nahi karanArA bhadrakanI jyAre AvI manodazA vartatI hatI, tyAre bIjI tarapha roja pUjA karanArA nandakanI ethI UlaTI ja manodazA vartatI hatI. nandaka vicArato hatuM ke huM je vakhate devapUjA karavAne jAuM chuM, te vakhate A bhadraka ekale ja vepAra kare che; eTale, e ghaNuM dhana kamAI jaze! meM abhigraha laI lIdhe che, eTale bIjuM karuM paNa zuM? bAkI pUjAnuM phala te bahu dUra che ane atyAre
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________________ 224 cAra gatinAM kAraNo te mane dhananI ja hAni rUpa phala maLI rahyuM che!" AvA AvA kuvikalpathI, zAstra kahe che ke-e pitAnI pUjAnA phalane hArI gaye! pUjA nahi karavA chatAM paNa, bhadrakane sArA manabhAvanA ge lAbha thaI gayo ane pUjA karavA chatAM paNa, nandakane kharAba manobhAvanA ge lAbha thavAne badale hAni prApta thaI! AthI, zrI jinapUjAmAM paNa manobhAva jema bane tema sAre ja rAkha joIe ane pariNAma sArA rAkhyA vinA dhAryuM pariNAma Ave nahi. AvA kALamAM ya zAsananI suMdara prabhAvanA thaI zakeH A udAharaNa uparathI, dhanahIna zrAvake paNa kevA prakAre lAbha laI zake, e vastu sUcita thAya che. pite dhanahIna heya te, pite pUjAdina karI zakatA hoya; paNa je dhanasaMpanna pUjAdi karatA hoya, temanI anumodanA te e karI zake ne? pUjA karanArAonI anumodanA karavA sAthe, zAstranA vidhi mujaba zrI jinamaMdire jaIne, pitAnI kAyAthI banI zake tevAM zrI jinamaMdiranAM ane zrI jinabhaktinAM kAryo te e karI zake ne? paNa pUjA mATe kazo ja kharca karI na zake-tevI sthiti hoya, evA jaino, AjanA viSama kALamAM ya thaDA che. pUjA mATe thoDuM paNa kharca karI zake, evA jaino te, AjanI sthitimAM ya, moTI saMkhyAmAM che. jo A badhAne A vastu barAbara samajAI jAya, te A kALamAM paNa bhAgye ja kaI maMdirane kesara, sukhaDa Adi mATe ciMtA karavAnI jarUra paDe! kadAca kaI ThekANe khUTatuM hoya, te Aje sukhI jene paNa eTalA
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________________ pahele bhAga 225 che ke-ene pahoMcI zake. kharI khAmI te, bhagavAna pratyenI bhaktinA bhAvamAM ja AvatI jAya che, ane e khAmIthI, anekavidha anartho jamyA kare che. jenA haiyAmAM bhaktino bhAva jAge, te to vidhi Adine na jANato hoya, te chatAM ya pitAnAthI je kAMI lAvI zakAya te lAvIne, bhagavAnanA caraNe dharyA vinA rahe nahi. tamane ghara Adi karatAM, zrI jinamaMdirAdi vadhAre gamatAM banI jAya ane "A manuSyajanmamAM AvIne mAre jema bane tema pApathI nivRtta banavAno prayatna karavo joIe"--ema lAgI jAya; te, A kALamAM paNa zAsananI sundara prabhAvanA thaI zake. bahAranI kharAbIo karatAM paNa antaHkaraNanI kharAbIo bahu ja nukazAnakAraka nivaDe che. jenuM ataHkaraNa svaccha banI jAya che, pApathI rahita banavAnI cintAmAM vejAI jAya che, tene mATe muzkelImAM paNa dharmArAdhana saheluM banI jAya che ane mana malina hoya, te ghaNuM sArI sAmagrIno vega paNa dharmArAdhanane sulabha banAvatuM nathI. A manuSyajanmanAM jJAnioe kayA viziSTa hetuthI vakhANa karyA che, e vAta je tamArA khyAlamAM barAbara AvI jAya, te tamArA saghaLA prayatnanI dizA ja pharI jAya. pachI, tame sAdhu na banI zake te paNa, gRhasthapaNe ya uttama jIvanane jIvanArA banI zako ane durgatio te tamArAthI dUra ja bhAgatI phare. have te, tame, e mATe prayatna karavAnA ja ne? "joIe che eka mokSa ane jyAM sudhI mekSa na maLe tyAM sudhI dharmasAmagrI tathA dharmasAdhananI anukULatA joIe che."--A sivAyanI kaI IcchA na rahe, te paNa A jIvana ghaNe aMze sArthaka thaI jAya. 15
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________________ [4] dagatine Dara pedA kare sahelo che, paNa durgatinAM kAraNa Dara pedA karavA muzkela che? ananta upakArI, kalikAlasarvajJa, AcAryabhagavAna zrImad hemacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA pharamAve che ke-kaSAyathI ane IndriyothI jItAele AtmA, e saMsAra che ane kaSAyone tathA Indriyone je AtmA jItI cUkyA che, te mekSa cheema bhagavAna zrI arihaMtadevo Adie pharamAvyuM che. kaSAyo upara ane Indriya upara saMpUrNapaNe vijaya meLavIne, atyAra sudhImAM, anantA AtmAoe potAnA ekSaparyAyane pragaTa karyo che ane evA anantA AtmAo zrIsiddhipade virAje che, ke jene ApaNe "namo siddhANaM' ema kahIne, namaskAra karIe chIe. je jIvoe haju paNa potAnA ekSaparyAyane pragaTa karyo nathI, athavA te, je jIvo potAnA mekSaparyAyane pragaTa karI zakyA nathI, teo saMsAramAM rUle che, ApaNe paNa emAMnA ja chIe, kAraNa ke ApaNo mekSiparyAya haju pragaTa thayo nathI. je jIvone ekSaparyAya pragaTa thaye nathI ane ethI je jIvo saMsAramAM rahe che, te jIvo paikInA je jIvo avyavahAra rAzimAMthI nIkaLIne vyavahAra-rAzimAM AvyA che, teo cAra gatio dvArA saMsAramAM paribhramaNa kare che. saMsAramAM rUlanArA evA jIvone mATe, saMsAramAM pari
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________________ pahele bhAga 227 bhramaNa karavAnAM sthAno cAra che. devagati, manuSyagati, tiryacagati ane narakagati,A cAra gatio sivAya, vyavahArarAzimAM AvelA saMsArI jIvone mATe, keI sthAna nathI. A cAra gatio paikI be gatio-narakagati ane tiryaMcagati -ApaNane pasaMda nathI. zAthI e be gatio pasaMda nathI? tyAM duHkha bahu che, mATe ne? narakagatimAM ane tiryaMcagatimAM nathI javuM, emAM te matabheda nathI; paNa zA mATe narakaMgatimAM agara tiryaMcagatimAM nathI javuM? tyAM dharsasAmacIne abhAva che, e mATe? jene dharma sivAya kaI cIjano khapa nathI, tene te devagatimAM javAnuM paNa game nahi. ene to ema ja thAya ke-"mane to manuSyagati maLe te sAruM, ke jethI dharmanI sundara prakAre ArAdhanA karI zakAya." ene duHkhane Dara hoya, to ya te e pUratuM hoya ke duHkhamAM dharma sAdhavAnuM sattva mArAmAM nathI, mATe duHkhanA roge mArI dharmasAdhanAmAM vidana AvavAno saMbhava che. AthI, duHkha na maLe ane mArI dharmasAdhanAmAM vizna Ave nahi, te sAruM!" AvI manovRtti jenI hoya, tene paNa narakagati ane tiryacagati pasaMda paDe nahi, kema ke-narakamAM paNa dharmasAmagrI nathI ane tiryaMcagatimAM paNa dharma pAmavo ane dharma pALavo -e atizaya muzkela che. tame AvI IcchAthI ja ane AvI samajathI ja, narakagatine ane tiryaMcagatine nApasaMda kare che ne? ke kevaLa duHkhanA DarathI ja, e gatio, tamane pasaMda nathI ema kahe che ? sa0 dharmasAmagrI na maLe ethI paNa na game. te ahIM je dharmasAmagrI maLI gaI che, tene tame
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________________ 228 cAra gatinAM kAraNe keTale sadupayoga karo cho? ahIM je dharmasAmagrI maLI che, tenI tamane keTalI kiMmata che, enA uparathI mApa nIkaLI zake. bAkI, durgatine Dara, nAstika sivAya ke nathI? narakamAM ATalAM ATalAM dukhe che ane tiryaMcagatimAM paNa amuka amuka dukhe che-e vagere sAMbhaLatAM, narakagatino ane tiryaMcagatino Dara te pedA thaI jAya, paNa DaravA mAtrathI zuM vaLe? durgatino Dara pedA kare sahelo che, paNa durgatinAM kAraNene Dara pedA karavo muzkela che. jJAnio te durgatinAM kAraNone Dara pedA karavA mAge che. duHkhathI DaratA hoya, eTale durgatine Dara hoya, paNa saMsArasukhanA rasika hoya eTale durgatinAM kAraNe te rasa hoya, evA te ghaNA jIve che. ApaNe te durgatinAM kAraNethI bacavuM joIe, durgatinAM kAraNethI mUkAvAne ApaNe prayAsa joIe. durgatinAM kAraNothI bacI koNa zake? jIvamAM jyAre amuka yogyatA pragaTe che, tyAre ja tenAmAM durgatinAM kAraNothI bacavAnI vRtti paNa pragaTe che. . AyuSyabaMdha mATenI sAvacetI : jJAnioe cAreya gatinA AyuSyanA baMdhanAM kAraNonuM paNa varNana kareluM che. narakagatinA AyuSyanA baMdhanAM kAraNe kyAM kyAM che, tiryaMcagatinA AyuSyanA baMdhanAM kAraNe kayAM kyAM che, manuSyagatinA AyuSyanA baMdhanAM kAraNe kayAM kayAM che ane devagatinA AyuSyanA baMdhanA kAraNe kyAM kyAM che, enuM jJAnioe varNana karyuM che. jene durgati na joItI hoya, teNe durgatinA AyuSyanA baMdhanAM kAraNethI dUra rahevuM
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________________ pahele bhAga 229 joIe ne ? e kAraNo samajAya ane samajIne yAda rakhAya, te ja tenAthI dUra rahI zakAya ne? e kAraNone ekadama tajI devAM-e saheluM nathI, paNa e kAraNone mAre tyAga karavo joIe"-ema te thavuM joIe ne? "e kAraNe sevavA jevAM nathI" ema ja lAge, te e kAraNone sevavAM paDe to ya, e kAraNone sevatAM sevatAM haiyuM kaMpyA kare ne ? e kAraNene tajavAnI vRtti hoya ane sAgAdine vaza thaIne e kAraNene sevavAM paNa paDatAM hoya, te paNa e kAraNone sevatI vakhate paNa "A nahi sevavA lAyaka sevAya che"--ema manamAM thAya ane pachI paNa ene mATe pazcAttApAdi thAya; eTale, e kAraNane rasapUrvaka sevAya paNa nahi tathA pAchaLathI tenI anumodanAdi paNa thAya nahi; ane ethI, e kAraNenuM sevana paNa durgatinA AyuSyanA baMdhanuM kAraNa bane nahi. jIMdagImAM AyuSyane baMdha eka ja vAra paDe che ane te paNa aMtarmuhUrta kALa jeTalA samayamAM ja AyuSyane baMdha paDe che, tyAre AyuSyanA baMdha mATe keTalI badhI sAvadhagIrI rAkhavI joIe? je bAIne vIjaLInA prakAzamAM seyamAM doro parovI le hoya, te bAI keTalI badhI sAvadha rahe? vIjaLI jhabuke tyAre soya-doro levA jAya ke pahelethI ja seya-dere laI rAkhe? soya-dare laIne paNa nIce mUkI rAkhe ke hAthamAM ne hAthamAM rAkhI mUke? e eTalI sAvadha rahe che ke-Ama jevI vIjaLI jhabuke che, tevI ja te seyamAM dere parevI de che. AyuSyanA baMdhane mATe paNa, evI sAvacetI rAkhavI paDe? kAraNa ke kyAre AyuSyane baMdha paDaze, tenI nizcita khabara nathI ane je bInasAvacetImAM AyuSyane baMdha paDI gayo, to pachI
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________________ 230 cAra gatinAM kAraNe temAM gatine pheraphAra thaI zakatuM nathI. AyuSyakarma baMdhAI gayuM, eTale khalAsa. e gatimAM gaye ja chUTake. Ama niyama kesamyagdaSTi mAnavI niyamA vaimAnika deva thAya, paNa samyadarzana pAmatAM pUrve je AyuSyano baMdha paDI gaye hoya, te samyaktva emAM gati saMbaMdhI keI pheraphAra karI zake nahi; athavA te, samyagdarzana AvyA pachI paNa jo te cAlyuM gayuM hoya, to te pachI paDanArA AyuSyanA baMdhamAM paNa, tenI tevI asara rahe nahi. je vakhate AyuSyano baMdha paDe, te vakhate je mAnavImAM samyagdarzana guNa vidyamAna hoya, te ja te mAnavIne niyamA vaimAnika devanuM AyuSya baMdhAya. durgatinAM kAraNe sevavA lAyaka ja nathI -ema lAgyA kare evuM mana keLavavuM joIe : AtmA kyAre dharma tarapha vaLI zakaze ane dharmane kema pAmI zakaze, e cAlu vAta eTalI badhI mahattvanI che ke- e vAtane vicAryA vinA cAlI zake tema nathI, paraMtu hAla te tamArI mAgaNathI cAra gatienAM kAraNone vicAra karavAne rAkhe che; ATalI sAmagrIne pAmIne, have durgatithI te avazya bacI javuM che, ema tamane thAya ne ? Aje je loke dharmakiyAone Acare che, teonA manamAM vizeSa kAMI nahi, te ya eTaluM te kharUM ja ne ke-"A dharmakiyAonA ge, mArAM durgatinAM dvAra baMdha thaI jAya ane mane sadgati maLe?" je durgatithI bacavAne IrAde hoya, to paNa tamane e vicAra Ave ke atyAra sudhImAM huM bahu rakhaDyo chuM ane meM ghaNuM ghaNuM duHkhene veThayAM che, kema
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________________ pahelo bhAga 231 kemane durgatinAM kAraNe kyAM ane sadgatinAM kAraNe kayAM, enuM bhAna nahotuM. have te, mane mArA keI mahApuNyanA udaye, evI sAmagrI maLI gaI che, ke jethI kema vartavAthI durgatimAM javuM paDe ane kema vartavAthI sadgatimAM jaI zakAya, enuM mane bhAna thayuM che. durgatinAM kAraNothI bacavAne tathA sadgatinAM kAraNone sevavAne, mane sundara yega maLI gayA che. ATaluM jANavA chatAM paNa ane ATalo sundara suga maLavA chatAM paNa, ahIM ja huM bhUlyo, te pAchuM mAre ghaNuM rakhaDavuM paDaze ane tema thaze te, A badhI ALapaMpALa nakAmI javAnI !" jeNe durgatinAM kAraNene jANyAM hoya, tene te ema thAya ne ke-je A kAraNene sevyAM ne cUkyA, to tyAM javuM ja paDaze !" tame kaho ke-amAre duHkha nathI joItuM ane amAre durgati nathI joItI, paNa ema kahevA mAtrathI kAMI cAle ? tenAM kAraNene sevIe ane emAM bephAma banIe, to durgati thayA vinA rahe nahi. bhagavAna zrI tIrthaMkaradevanA AtmAoe paNa je bhUla karI, te e tArakonA AtmAone paNa e avasthA bhegavavI ja paDI, tyAM ApaNI to gaNatrI ja zI che? eTale, je durgatithI bacavuM ja hoya, te durgatinAM kAraNene jANIne, e kAraNene tajavAne prayAsa kare joIe. sasadgatinAM kAraNene paNa sevavAnAM ne ? duHkhathI DaravAnA yoge ane mAtra saMsAranA sukhane ja kAraNe jeo sadgatinAM kAraNone seve, tene sadgati maLI jAya, cheDe kALa sukhasAmagrI maLI jAya, paNa te sukhasAmagrIna kALamAM e bhUla kare ne ? rAgamAM ragadoLAya ne?
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________________ 232 cAra gatinAM kAraNe e vacce AMtare nAkhIne durgatimAM bhaTakavA jAya, ema bane ne? sukhasAmagrI maLI gaI ane sukhasAmagrInA tAnamAM durgatinAM kAraNene rasapUrvaka sevyAM, to pariNAma zuM Ave? ene badale, mana ja evuM keLavavuM joIe ke-durgatinAM A kAraNe sevavA lAyaka ja nathI. A kAraNene sevavAnA yoge, je koI sukha maLatuM hoya, te sukha mAre joItuM nathI ane A kAraNone nahi sevavAne mATe mAre je kaI duHkha veThavuM paDe tema hoya, te duHkhane veThavAnI mArI taiyArI che." svabhAva evo banI javuM joIe ke-duHkhanA DarathI ke sukhanA lebhathI, durgatinAM kAraNone sevavAnuM mana thAya nahi. parvatithio ane AyuSyabaMdha : sava durgatinuM AyuSya baMdhAvA pAme nahi ane sadgatinuM AyuSya baMdhAya, e mATe parvatithionuM ArAdhana karAya parvatithio paikI bIja, pAMcama, AThama, agIAraza ane caudaza-e parvatithioe prAye karIne parabhava mATenA AyuSyakarmanuM upArjana chava kare che, paNa ene artha e nathI ja thato ke-e sivAyanI koI tithie keIne ya AyuSyane baMdha paDe ja nahi! moTe bhAge, bIja Adi pAMca parvatithioe AyuSyakarmanuM upArjana thAya che, paNa keTalAka jIne e sivAyanI tithioe paNa AyuSyane baMdha thAya e zakya che, mATe, AtmAe sAvadha te sarvakALane mATe rahevuM joIe. bIja Adi pAMca parvatithioe jIva prAyaH parabhavanA AyuSyanuM upArjana kare che, e hetune lakSyamAM
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________________ pahele bhAga 23 3 rAkhIne parvatithionuM ArAdhana karanArAo, te te tithionA divase paNa bahu sAvadha rahe che? tame e divasee AraM. bhAdine barAbara ta cho ? upavAsAdi kare che, paNa AraMbhAdine keTalA tajo cho? UlaTuM, upavAsa hoya eTale khAvA vageremAM vakhata jate bace, te peDhI AdinuM kAma vadhAre kare, evA paNa kharA ne? te divase AraMbhAdimAM vadhAre rakta bane, tenuM zuM thAya ? ema thAya, to hetu keTale sare? bacavAne mATe je karyuM hatuM, te paNa phasAvavAmAM vadhAre madada rUpa thAya, ema paNa bane ne? eTale, sAvacetI haMmezAM rAkhavI joIe ane bIja, pAMcama, AThama, agIAraza ane caudaze te vizeSa prakAre sAvacetI rAkhavI joIe. e divasoe AraMbhAdine tajavAne vizeSa prayatna karavo joIe. bAkI te, jyAre jyAre durgatinA AyuSyanA baMdhanAM kAraNone sevavAM paDe, tyAre tyAre yAda AvavuM joIe ke-"nahi karavA lAyaka mAre karavuM paDe che, ahIM bhUlyA ne rasIyA banyA, te durgatinA AyuSyane baMdha paDI javAne !" durgatinAM kAraNene je je koI jANe, te te badhAo durgatinAM kAraNene cheDI ja de-ema kahevAya nahi; kema ke-e kAraNone jANavA chatAM paNa, e kAraNone choDavA na de-evI sAmagrI aMdara beThI hoya, e paNa zakya che. tevA prakAranAM karmo pahelAM baMdhAI gayAM hoya, te tyAM zuM thAya? e ekadama kema choDavA de? paNa e kAraNane sevatAM je sAvaceta rahevAya, to ya ghaNuM kAma thAya. saMyegavazAta e kAraNene sevavA chatAM paNa, e kAraNane heya ja mAnatA hovAthI, e kAraNene rasa nahi hevAthI, ghaNAe durgatimAM nathI gayA ane sugatine pAmyA che. AthI,
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________________ 234 cAra gatinAM kAraNo kadAca ekadama e kAraNene tajI na zakAya, te paNa e kAraNene tajavA jevA mAnavAM, e kAraNene rasathI sevavAM nahi, e kAraNene sevatAM rasa AvI jAya te tene kADhI nAkhavAnI kALajI rAkhavI ane e kAraNone sevatAM paNa evA sAvadha rahevuM joIe, ke jethI e sAvadhagIrI e kAraNone durgatinuM phala ApavAmAM niSphala banAvI de. jeo durgatinAM kAraNene jANIne, ekadama ene tajI devAne samartha na hoya, teo paNa ATaluM te nakakI karI zake che ne? bhUla karAya to phaLa paNa bhogavavuM paDe! cAra gatiomAM narakagati ane tiryaMcagati, e banne durgatie kahevAya che. narakamAM duHkha bahu che ane tiryaMcamAM kadAca kaI kaI jIvane sukhasAmagrI maLe, te ya vivekavikalatA che. tamane duHkha te gamatuM ja nathI ne? duHkha na gamatuM heya, eTale durgati na joIe-ema te thAya, paNa "mAre durgati nathI joItIe vicAra mAtra karAya, te eTalA mAtrathI durgati na maLe, evuM bane kharuM? khAvAmAM bhUla karIe, adhika khAIe agara na pace tevuM khAIe, te peTamAM duHkhe ne? kema ? kAyade ke-je bhUla karIe tene natIje bhegava paDe. tema, ahIM paNa je durgatimAM ghasaDI jAya tevAM pApane rasathI sevIe, te durgatimAM javuM ja paDe. cAra gatiomAM jevI sukhasAmagrI devagatimAM che, tevI ja duHkhasAmagrI narakagatimAM che, tiryaMcagatimAM kavacit sukha, bAkI duHkha; ane manuSyagatimAM vivekane pAmavAne tathA vivekane saphala karavAne ghaNe avakAza. AthI, ApaNane durgatie pasaMda
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________________ 235 pahele bhAga paDe nahi, paNa e gatiemAM na javuM hoya, to enAM kAra ne jANavAM paDe ane e kAraNothI bacavAno prayatna paNa karavo paDe ! upakArioe, zAstromAM, cAre ya gationAM kAra ne paNa varNavelAM che. parama upakArI, kalikAlasarvajJa, AcAryabhagavAna zrImadda hemacandrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjAe, zrI yogazAstramAM ane anyatra paNa, e cAre ya gationA AyuSyakarmanA Azrane vistArathI varNavyA che. jene durgatina joItI hoya, teNe durgatinAM te te kAraNothI bacavuM paDe ne? duHkhanAM kAraNene sevAya ane duHkha na Ave, e kema bane? hAthamAM tINa hathiyAra mArIe, te lehI nIkaLe ne? tarata upacAra na karIe, to kadAca e pAke ne? pAkyA pachI bedarakArI rAkhIe ane kupanuM sevana karIe, te vedanA vadhI jAya, darda asAdhya banI jAya ane cIse mAryA karIe paNa dardane TALavAne upAya jaDe nahi, evuM paNa bane ne ? evI ja rItie, "narakanA AyuSyane baMdhAvanArAM kAraNone sevIe ane temAM ja rasa anubhavIe, te narakagati na maLe evuM bane zI rItie ? "--evuM te tame samaje che ne ? heya te heya ja-eTaluM barAbara mAnatA ho to ya durgati * tamAruM nAma laI zake nahi ? tyAre, narakanA AyuSyane baMdhAvanArAM kAraNone choDavA che, ema manamAM thAya kharuM ? narakanAM kAraNone choDavAnI IcchA thAya, to ya moTA bhAganA che e kAraNane sarvathA choDI zakavAnA nathI; paNa e kAraNene cheDavAnI IcchA thAya che ke nahi? "zakya hoya te mAre e kAraNane sevavAM
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________________ 236 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA nathI ane e kAraNeAne sevavAM na paDe-evI sthitine pedA karavAnA prayatna karyo karavA che'-ema uMDe uMDe paNa thAya che ? narakamAM nathI jAvuM, evuM te manamAM cheja ne ? naraka haze ke nahi, evA vicAra Ave--evA nastaka te tame nathI; nahi te, pahelAM e vAta karavI paData, naraka che, narakamAM duHkha bahu che ane je kAi mahApApa kare tene narakamAM javuM paDe '-A vAta tame tA samajo che; tyAre kaho ke tamane pApa karatAM zuM thAya che ? bIjAne zikhAmaNa detAM te tame kaheA che ke- pApa kare te duHkhI thAya' paNa tame pApa karo, tyAre tamane lAge che kharUM ke'huM duHkhane kharIdI rahyo chuM ?" narakanA AyuSyanA AzravanAM kAraNeAthI jene khacavAnI IcchA thAya, tene te kAraNeA te sevatA hoya te chatAM ya, vakhate narakanA AyuSyanA baMdha na ce paDe. A kAraNeAne tajAya te bahu sArUM, mATe pahelA upadeza teA A kAraNeAne tajavAnA ja apAya; paNa je ene taratamAM tajI zake tema na hAya, tene zuM kahe. vAya ? e ja ke--sAvadha banI jA ane ene cheADavAnI peravImAM paDI jA ! upakArioe, e mATetA, pahelAM sAdhudharmanA upadeza ApavAnuM kahyuM; sAdhudharmane svIkAravAne mATe je azakta hoya, tene dezivaratidharmanA upadeza ApavAnuM kahyuM; ane dezivaratinA svIkAra karavA jogI paNa jenAmAM zakti na hoya, tene samyaktvanA upadeza ApavAnuM kahyu. Ama, dharmanI caDhatIutaratI pAyarI rAkhI che. je jIva jayAM caDhI zake tema hAya, tyAM tene caDhAvavA-ema rAkhyuM che. pahelAM te ame sauthI sAra rastA ja batAvIe. hAla ne hAla tame sAdhu thaI zake tema che ? nA. zrAvakadharmanAM bAre ya vratAne grahaNa karIne alpAraMbhI
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________________ pahele bhAga . 237 ane alpa parigrahI Adi banI zake tema che ? te paNa badhA . mATe muzkela. tyAre durgatinAM kAraNe avazya tajavA yogya . che, evI mAnyatAmAM to tame barAbara makakama ja che ne ? e kAraNene sevavA chatAM paNa, jene e mAtra heya ja lAge, ene ya narakanuM AyuSya baMdhAya nahi. tame sAdhu nathI thaI zakyA ane dezaviratidhara paNa na banI zakyA che, te paNa heya te heya ja eTale sudhI paNa AvI gayA ho, to paNa durgati tamAruM nAma laI zake nahi. dhAre ke-atyAra sudhI A kAraNe heya ja che" ema nahatuM lAgyuM, paNa Aje sAMbhaLyuM ane have jyAre jyAre e kAraNene sevavAM paDe, tyAre tyAre haiyuM hAlI uThe, evuM ya haiyuM che? A kAraNene je sarvathA tajI zake tema hoya, teNe te A kAraNene hamaNAM ne hamaNAM ja sarvathA tajI ja devAM; sarvathA tyAga zakya na hoya, te ya enA sevanamAM maryAdita banI javuM, ane e ya na bane, te paNa hayabuddhine te jIvantanI jIvanta. ja rAkhyA karavI. chevaTane upAya e ke-je hAla A kAraNenA sevanathI bacI zakAya evA saMge na ja hoya, to paNa jyAre jyAre A kAraNene sevavAM paDe, tyAre tyAre to jarUra eTalI sAvadhagIrI rAkhavI ke-mana enA sevanamAM rasa anubhave nahi. niraparAdhI trasa jIvanI hiMsAne tyAga paNa zuM sUcave che ? narakanA AyuSyanA AzravanAM kAraNe mAM, paheluM kAraNa paMcendriya prANivadha. kaI paNa paMcendriya prANine vadha karavAnI vAtamAM che, tamAruM dila nArAja ja ne? duzmananuM paNa maraNa
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________________ -238 * cAra gatinAM kAraNo mArAthI mArA svArthane khAtara na IrachAya, eTale te manamAM nirNaya khare ne ? duzmana paNa marI jAya ne manamAM je mAtra eTaluM paNa AvI jAya ke-"ThIka ja thayuM -te paNa enA vadhanuM pApa lAge. sa, koI kasAI marI jAya, te ThIka thayuM ema na thAya ? enA hAthe ghaNA jIvone je saMhAra thatA hatA, te te aTakyo ne ? kasAInuM paNa bhUMDuM IcchAya nahi. e hiMsAthI bace, ema IcchAya; paNa enA ya maraNane IcchAya nahi. ghaNA jIvane saMhAra thatuM aTakyo te sAruM thayuM, paNa bIcAre ghaNuM bhayaMkara pApa upAjIne gaye, ema thavuM joIe. keIe keInA paNa maraNane IcchavuM joIe nahi-eTaluM ja nahi, paNa keInA ya maraNanI anumodanA sarakhI paNa karavI joIe nahi. sAruM ya jagatu ahiMsaka bane-evI bhAvanA jarUra karIe, jagatanA jIvane hiMsAthI bacAvavA mATenI yejanA paNa zakti ane sAmagrInA pramANamAM jarUra karavI joIe, paNa ApaNA hAthamAM sattA AvI jAya che. ApaNe hiMsakene mAravA nIkaLI paDIe, e kema ja bane ? hiMsakane mAravAne mATe, ApaNe paNa hiMsaka ja banavuM paDe ne ? ema je vicAra kare, te, jagatamAM tame keTalAne hAni karIne jIve che ? to, e jIvo tamAre mATe zuM cittave ? zAsananA pratyanikene sajA karyAnA prasaMge Ave che, paNa temAM ya haiye ekaluM zAsana beTheluM hoya che. kRtya krUra lAge, paNa heye krUratA na heya. haiye te, enA pratye paNa dayAbhAva ja hoya. narakanA AyuSyakarmanA AzravanA A pahelA kAraNamAM, tamAre ema
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________________ pahele bhAga 239 kahevuM joIe ke-"huM mArA svArthane mATe paNa kaI paMcendriya prANine vadha karavAne Icchato nathI, ene vadha karavAnI kaI paNa janAmAM huM sAmela thavAnI vRttivALe nathI ane koIne vadha thaI jAya te ya tenuM anumodana thaI jAya nahi, tenI kALajI rAkhuM chuM." gRhasthane, pahelA aNuvratamAM, tyAga niraparAdhI trasa jIvanI hiMsAne che; sthAvara jIvonI ane aparAdhI trasa jIvonI hiMsA nahi karavAne, ene niyama nathI, paNa enI vRtti, sthAvara jIvone mATe athavA te aparAdhI trasa jIvone mATe paNa, hiMsaka hoya ke ahiMsaka heya ? ene sthAvara ane aparAdhI trasa jIvenI hiMsA karavI paDe, e bane, paNa zrAvakane sthAvara ane aparAdhI vasa jInI hiMsA karavI paDe, e game kharuM? nahi ja. niraparAdhI trasa jIvenI hiMsA nahi karavAne te niyama ja, paNa ethI evuM to nahi ja ne ke-sthAvara ane aparAdhI trasa jAnI hiMsA karavAmAM vAMdhe nahi ? zrAvakane amuka hiMsAne tyAga ane bIjI hiMsAne tyAga nahi, enuM kAraNa zuM? enAthI zakya nathI, mATe ne ? ene artha e to nahi ne ke-sthAvara jIvonI hiMsAthI bacavAnI ene kALajI hoya nahi ane aparAdhI trasa jIvane te e haNI ja nAkhe? hiMsA thaI jAya nahi enI ane hiMsA karavI paNa paDe te ya AtmAmAM hiMsaka bhAva AvI jAya nahi, tenI kALajI rAkhavI joIe. hiMsA pratye aNagame pragaTyo, mATe te paheluM ANuvrata lIdhuM ane temAM niraparAdhI trasa jIvenI hiMsAne tyAga karyo ! Ama, niraparAdhI trasa jIvenI hiMsA sivAyanI hiMsAne tyAga karyo nahi ? kAraNa ke-pitAne
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________________ 240 cAra gatinAM kAraNe je sthitimAM rahevuM paDe tema che, te sthitimAM e tyAga karI zakAya tema nathI ! eTale, haiyAmAM ahiMsakabhAva te pragaTyo ja che, paNa saMpUrNapaNe hiMsAthI virAma pAmavA jegI sthiti nathI, mATe "niraparAdhI traNa jIvonI hiMsA te huM karuM paNa nahi ane karAvuM paNa nahiM--evo niyama grahaNa kare che. hiMsAne rasa na hoya chatAM saMyegavaza karavI paDe che ne? rAjA vagerene paMcendriya prANinA vadhanI IcchA na hoya, te paNa teo je sthAne hoya che, te sthAnanA aucityane aMge paNa temane yuddhamAM UtaravuM paDe-e zakya che. pite rAjA che, eTale rAjyanuM rakSaNa karavuM, e enI pharaja che. rAjya uparanA bIjAonA AkramaNane khALavuM, e enI pharaja che. e vakhate, ene, yuddha karIne seMkaDo prANionA saMhAranI sthitimAM mUkAvuM paDe ne? chatAM, e narake ja jAya, evo niyama nahi. ene e hiMsAne rasa na hoya ane mAtra kartavyane aMge je ene e hiMsA karavI paDI heya, te paNa e pApane baMdha ene narake laI ja jAya-ema kahevAya nahi. aneka rAjAo, yuddha khelanArA rAjAo paNa, svarga gayA che. jema, kuTuMbane vaDe, kuTuMbanA pAlana Adine aMge hiMsAdi kare, ema paNa bane ne ?? kuTuMbanA vaDAnA haiyAmAM meha karatAM pharaja vadhAre kAma karatI hoya, ema paNa bane ane pharajanA khyAla karatAM moha vadhAre kAma karate hoya, ema paNa bane. eka meha kAma karate hoya, te pApane baMdha bahu vadhI jAya. jokhamadArI samajIne kare ane mehanA uchALA Ave ne kare, temAM bahu bheda che. bane
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________________ pahele bhAga 241 tyAM sudhI, keInA ya vadhamAM rAjIpe keLa nahi. keInA ya vadhamAM rAjIpe AvI jAya, te tarata manane vALI levAne prayatna kare. ApaNuM svArthane aMge, keI paNa jIvane vadha, maraNa ke trAsa na IcchAI jAya, evA prakAre manane keLavavuM, e to saheluM che ne? svArthamAM ane aparAdhamAM phera che. svArthane aMge te, niraparAdhI jIvanI hiMsA paNa IcchAI jAya, evuM ya bane che ne ? aparAdhI jIvanI hiMsAmAM paNa hiMsakabhAva na Ave tenI kALajI rAkhavI joIe, tyAM svArthane aMge te keInA ya vadha Adine IrachAya ja kema ? zarIra nAnuM, jIve thoDuM, chatAM jAya sAtamIe! paMcendriya prANine vadha karavAno prasaMga te tamAre e Ave, paNa paMcendriya prANine vadha karAvavAne ane paMcendriya prANinA vadhamAM anumodana AvavAne prasaMga, ghaNe bhAge AvI jAya ne? mAtra kero hiMsAne bhAva paNa jIvane narakamAM ghasaDI javAne samartha banI zake che. taMdulIo maccha hiMsA kAMI karI zakato nathI, paNa hiMsakabhAvamAM ramaNa karanAro hoya che ane ethI ja e narakanA AyuSyakarmane upArja che. svayaMbhUramaNa nAmanA samudramAM eka hajAra ejananI kAyAvALe meTe maryA paNa hoya che. enI pAMpaNanA bhAgamAM taMdulIye maccha utpanna thAya che. pAMpaNamAM beThe beThe e maccha joyA kare che ke A meTA matsyanA meMDhAmAM saMkhyAbaMdha masyAdi jIvo pese che ne sahIsalAmata pAchA nIkaLe che." ethI, ene ema thAya che ke-"A mATe atya kevo mUrkhA che ke-A badhAne moMDhAmAM AvelA pAchA javA de
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________________ 242 cAra gatinAM kAraNe che? jo mAre AvI kAyA hota, to AmAMnA ekane paNa huM cheData nahi!" ane e hiMsakabhAvamAM ramaNa karatA karate, e taMdulIye matsya tyAMthI marIne sIdhe sAtamI narakamAM jAya che. e taMdulIyA mastranuM AyuSya keTaluM ? aMtarmuhUrtanuM ! enuM zarIra kevaDuM? cekhA jevaDuM ! AyuSya TUMkuM ane zarIra nAnuM, chatAM e jIva sAtamI narake jAya che ! zAthI? mAtra hiMsA karavAnI vicAraNAthI ja, hiMsAnA pariNAmamAM rahevAthI ! jagatamAM jeTalAM pApa manathI thAya che, teTalAM pApa vacanathI ane kAyAthI thatAM nathI. vacanathI ane kAyAthI pApa bAMdhanArAonA karatAM, manathI pApa bAMdhanArAo ghaNA ! eTale, mAtra mana paNa jo sudharI jAya, te paNa ghaNAM pApathI bacI javAya ! sava mana sudhare zI rItie ? Teva pADe. sArA vicAro kare. keInA ya maraNano bhAva Ave, eTale jhaTa vicAravuM ke-"ApaNA maraNane kaI che te ApaNane kevuM thAya? duHkha thAya ne? te, jevI mArI sthiti thAya, tevI sthiti bIjAnA maraNane huM IcchuM, te tenI paNa thAya ne? mATe, mAre koInA ya maraNane IcchavuM nahi !" vaLI vicAra karo ke "enuM maraNa meM IcchayuM eTale kAMI e marI gaye nahi ane mane to enA maraNanuM pApa lAgyuM ja!" ATalo vicAra Ave, to DAhyAnuM mana pharyA vinA rahe nahi. bIju-"huM IcchuM te huM karI ja zakavAno chuM, ema paNa nathI! mArAthI karI zakAvAnuM kAMI nathI ane pApa jarUra baMdhAvAnuM che. sAme baLavAna Adi hoya, te ApaNane tenA tarapha game teTalo gusso Ave, to paNa tene
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________________ 249 pahelo bhAga gALa daI zakAya nahi, tenA upara hAtha upADI zakAya nahi, paNa manamAM zuM thayA kare ? nabaLA mANase karI kAMI zake nahi, paNa manathI pApa bAMdhyA kare ne ? tyAre manathI pApa na bAMdhyuM hoya te vAMdhe zuM Ave?" AvI AvI vicAraNAo kare, te mana pharI jAya ane mana phare, te pApa ghaNuM ghaTI gayA vinA paNa rahe nahi. AraMbhane doSa te lAge ja che, paNa ayatanAne deSa kema vahere che? eTaluM ja nakkI karI le ke-"mAre paMcendriya prANinA vadhathI aLagA ja rahevAne prayatna karyA kare che te paNa ghaNe phera paDI jAya. dhAre ke-saMsAramAM che ane sukhI che eTale sthitine anukULa baMgale baMdhAvavAnI IcchA thaI. baMgalo baMdhAvatAM AraMbhanuM pApa te che ja, paNa emAM ayatanAnuM pApa na pesI jAya, tenI kALajI kharI ? baMgale baMdhAve kharA, paNa badhuM kAma yatanApUrvaka thAya, tenI kALajI rAkhe kharA? hiMsAthI bacavAne bhAva heya, te yatanAnI upekSA na heya. tame sAdhu thatA he, alpa parigrahI thatA he, to ame rAjI; paNa dhAre ke-atyAre tame e badhuM karI zake tema nathI, chatAM paNa tame narake na cAlyA jAva, ATale sudhI AvIne, e mATe A vAta che. bAI cule saLagAve ane temAM lAkaDAM mUke-te pApa te che ja, paNa lAkaDAMne joyA vagara mUke te ? AraMbha sAthe ayatanAne doSa paNa lAge ne ? jIva mare te ja hiMsAnuM pApa lAge, e niyama nathI. rAkhavA jogI kALajI na rAkhIe ane hiMsAnI upekSA sevIe, te ya
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________________ 244 cAra gatinAM kAraNe hiMsAne doSa lAge. tame koIne mAravAne mATe pathare mAryo ane ene e pathare kadAca na paNa vAgyo, te ya tamane te pathare mAravAnuM pApa lAge ja. sa, kaI vakhate DarAvavAne ugAmIe to ? DarAvavA pUrate hAtha ugAme ane mAravAne IrAde na hoya te hiMsAnuM tevuM pApa na ya lAge. zrI jaina zAsana pariNAma upara te khUba bhAra mUke che. keIne ya mAravAnI IcchA nathI ane koI amArI bhUle na marI jAya-enI kALajI che, eTaluM je tame kahI zake, te e tamAre mATe ghaNuM sAruM kahevAya. ApaNe tyAM, jayaNAe dharma kahyo che. maMdira, ghara Adi badhAvanAra jina hoya, te dekhAI Ave ke-jaina baMdhAve che, kema keyatanA cAlu ja hoya. saMsAramAM rahyA che, eTale makAna banAvavAne prasaMga Ave, paNa yatanA jALavI zakAya ke nahi? kadAca cheDe kharca vadhI jAya, eTaluM ja ne? paNa, temAM keTalA jIvonI hisAthI bacI javAya ane yatanA age haiyAmAM je hiMsAthI bacavAne pariNAma AvatuM hoya, tenAthI keTale badhe lAbha thaI jAya ? evA paNa jene che, ke jemane makAna bAMdhavAnuM kAma kaI sagA sepe ane saMsAramAM rahyo hoya eTale nA paDAya tema heya nahi, te kahe ke-50 hajAra makAna bAMdhavAnA gaNatA he, te bhegA 10 hajAra vadhAre mArI yatanAnA gaNI leje! yatanA pALatAM je kharca vadhaze, te bhegavavAnI taiyArI heya, te mane A kAma eNpa !" jayaNAmAM 10 hajAra vadhAre kharca, te tamArI daSTie to gaDe gaNAya ne ? Aje te kahe ke baMgale lAkhane badale savA lAkhane kare, paNa yatanAne kharca karavAnI vAtamAM muzkelI !
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________________ pahele bhAga 25 jamaNavAra mATe kare ane pANInuM pIpa ke keThI bharI mUke, eTale badhA emAM eThA loTA-pyAlA DALe ne jIvahiMsA thAya ! theDo kharca vadhAre kare, te sau sukhe jamI zake ane keTalI ya hiMsAthI bacI zakAya; paNa kaheze ke-e vAta nahi ! tame kaho to jamaNa mATe be cIja vadhAre banAve, kema kee samaje che ke be cIja vadhAre banAvIe, emAM AbarU che; paNa vyavasthAne mATe kharca vadhAre karavAnI vAta prAyaH kAne dhare nahi. kahe ke-e te ema ja cAle. e zuM sUcave, che? kaI jIvanI hiMsA na thaI jAya tenI kALajI nathI, ema ja ne? AvI sthiti nahi joIe. mananuM valaNa jema bane tema hiMsAthI bacavA taraphanuM devuM joIe. tyAre, have to tamAre nirNaya ne ke-huM mArA svArthane mATe ke bedarakArIthI paNa mAruM cAle tyAM sudhI to picendriya jIvane vadha karuM nahi, paMcendriya jIvane vadha karAvavAmAM bhAga lauM nahi ane keI paMcendriya jIvane vadha kare, agara paMcendriya jIvane vadha karAve, athavA to kaI paMcendriya jIvane vadha thaI jAya, to tene sAruM thayuM ema paNa huM mAnuM nahi!? mahuM AraMbhanA hissedAre : zrI jinamandiranA vahIvaTa ane vIjaLInA dIvAo : narakanA AyuSyanA AzravanuM paheluM kAraNa "paMcendriyaprANi-vadha" che ane bIjuM kAraNa "mahA AraMbha" che. mahA AraMbha, Aje te, tamane moTuM sthAna apAvanAra che ne ? jyAM ema lAge ke-AnA yoge ja duniyAmAM moTuM sthAna maLe tema che athavA mArI nAmanA mahA AraMbhane lIdhe che,
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________________ 246 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA ' eTale mahA AraMbha kharAba lAge ke sAre lAge ! enAthI maLatI nAmanA game, te e mahA AraMbha kharAba na lAge paNa sArA lAge. 'mAre ATalI peDhIe che ane mAre peDhIe che mATe lAka mane pUche che; bAkI, peDhIe na hoya te pUche kANu ?" -ema thAya, eTale e game che ema nakkI thAya. A ekakrama chUTe? Aje tame bhale mahA AraMbhane mUkI daI zake nahi, parantu mahA AraMbha narake lai janAra che--e vAta haiye rahevI joI e. mahA AraMbha narake laI jaI zake tema che, e vAtanA khyAla Ave, teA ' kayAre huM AnAthI chUTI jAuM ? kayAre huM Ane eza karI nAkhuM ? '-evI evI IcchAe jAge. mahA AraMbha tajavA jevA che--ema lAge ane ' mahA AraMbhamAM huM paDyo chuM te ThIka nathI '-ema lAge, teA ghaNA mAnasika pApathI bacI zakAya. je AraMbhamAM ghaNA jIvAnI hatyA thatI hoya, tevA AraMbhane mahA AraMbha kahevAya che. 15 karmAdAna vagere mahAraMbhamAM gaNAya. jemAM ghaNAM kaThera karmo karavAM paDatAM hoya, jemAM ghaNA jIvAne trAsa upajate hoya, jemAM trasa jIveAnI bhAre hiMsA thatI hoya--e vagere dhaMdhAo, mahAraMbhamAM gaNAya. kArakhAnAM vagere mahAraMbhamAM gaNAya. mahAraMbha nahi karavA chatAM paNa, mahAraMbhamAM hissA hoya, evAe Aje teA ghaNA che ne ? zera holDara, e mahAraMbhanA hissedArA che. je kArakhAnAnA zaeNra hoya, te kArakhAnAnI kamANImAM rAjI thAya ane e kArakhAnuM khUe temAM nArAja thAya. kArakhAnuM vadhAre kamANI kayAre karI zake ? vadhAre vakhata cAle tA ne ? jema jema utpAdana vadhe, tema tema A rAjI thAya ane jema jema rAjI thAya, tema
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________________ pahelA bhAga tema e mahAraMbhanA pApathI aMdhAya. 247 sa0 zera teA vyAja upajAvavAne mATe rAkhIe chIe; temAM kArakhAnAnuM pApa kema lAge ? kArakhAnuM sArUM cAle che, evA samAcArathI rAjI thAva ke nahi ? kArakhAnuM khATana kare, evI icchA thAya kharI ke nahi ? kArakhAnuM baMdha thaI jAya nahi, evuM manamAM kharUM ne ? tyAre vyAja mATe manane kevA bhayaMkara pApAmAM ceAjI dIdhuM che ? sa0 ema tA derAsaranA paisAnuM vyAja upajAvavAne mATe paNa zUrA levAya che. evI rItie derAsaranA vahIvaTa karavAnuM kahyuM kANuM ? derAsaranA ane devadravyanA vahIvaTa kema karavA, e mATe zAstramAM te ghaNuM kahyuM che, paNa na sAMbhaLe tyAM karavuM zuM ? eka teA, vyAja vadhAre upajAvavAnA khATA mAha vacce ane sAthe sAthe ' mArA vahIvaTamAM derAsaranI muDI ATalI vadhI '-ema kahevAya, tenA mAhu vacceA; eTale, bIjuM joyuM nahi ane muDI vadhAravAnuM ja lakSya rAkhyuM. derAsaramAM zuM karavuM joI e athavA bIjAM derAsarene kevA prakAre saMbhALavAM joIe, enA vicAra keTalAe karyAM ? jo devadravyanA kharAkhara upayAga karavAmAM Ave, te Aje keTaleka ThekANe derAsarAmAM muDI dekhAya che, te muDI dekhAya zAnI ? paNa, derAsaronA vahIvaTa, mATe bhAge svacchandvapaNe ja thavA lAgyA che. zrI jinamandira Adi dharmasthAneAmAM kAyamI AraMbha nahi karavA joIe-ema vAraMvAra kahevAya che, paNa e tarapha lakSya apAtuM nathI ane vIjaLInA dIvA rAkhavAnI pravRtti vadhatI ja jAya che. e sthiti AvavA mAMDI che ke sagavaDa
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________________ 248 cAra gatinAM kAraNe na hoya, te ja vIjaLInA dIvA na hoya. A to prAsaMgika vAta thaI. ApaNe te, sAMsArika mahArambhane vicAra karI rahyA chIe. mahAratne khUba ja vadhI rahyA che, ema to Aje keIne ya kabUla karavuM paDe tema che. Ama zAthI bane che? mahArambhano Dara gayo, mATe ne ? | gRhasthane AraMbhAdi karavA paDe, te paNa emAM enI heyabuddhi jIvatI hoya, to mahAraMbha tarapha mana vaLe nahi ne? kadAca mahAraMbha kara paDe, to ya haiye enuM keTaluM duHkha hoya? mahArambha, e paNa narakanA AyuSyanA AzravanuM eka kAraNa che, ema jANIne Aje tame mahAraMbhane mUkI deze ? mahAraMbha nahi karanArAone paNa, mahAraMbhamAM bhAga te che ne? have tame badhA zere kADhI nAkhavAnA ne ? mahAraMbhane kaI zera kharIdavAnA nahi ne? gharamAM ke maMdiramAM vIjaLInI battI AvI, eTale ahIMnI battI mATe kArakhAnuM cAlu rahevuM joIe, ema thAya ne? baTana dabAvyuM ne battI thaI nahi, te manamAM zI asara thAya? "kArakhAnuM kema baMdha thayuM ?, zuM bagaDI gayuM ?, jhaTa cAlu thAya to sAruM "--ema thAya ne? jyAM battI cAlu thAya, eTale "ThIka thayuM" ema thAya ne? tyAre e kArakhAnAnuM pApa tamane paNa lAge ke nahi? e to kahe ke-tame ATalA badhA AjhAdInA premI, ne ATalI badhI gulAmI kyAMthI kharIdI lIdhI ? dIvAmAM parAdhIna ! pavanamAM parAdhIna ! pANImAM ya parAdhIna ! Aje ThAma ThAma cakalIo thaI gaI, paNa je di' pANI khUTaze te di mArI nAkhaze ne? kaI vAra vIjaLInA kArakhAnA upara tavAI Ave, te vagara mate maravAne vakhata Ave ne?
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________________ pahele bhAga 249 kuvA heta te ATalI paMcAta heta? pahelAM kuvA pUravAnI bevakUphI karI ane have ughADavA mAMDyA che. kuvA, nadI vagerenuM pAchuM vaparAtuM, tyAre pANIne AraMbha AjanA AraMbha karatAM samA bhAge paNa nahi hoya ne? Aje te, naLa nIce mAthuM ane upara naLa khUllo - zera pANInI jagyAe 5 zera pANI vaparAya ne? e pANInA nikAla mATenuM pApa paNa keTaluM? kuvA vageremAMthI pANI lAvavAnuM hota, te bAIo paNa ochuM pANI vAparavAnuM kaheta, kema ke-majurI karavI paDe ane mAthe lAvavuM paDe ! | gharamAM te mahAraMbhane kAyamI saMbaMdha joDI dIdho, paNa zrI jinamandirAdimAM ya e pApa ghAlI dIdhuM. vIjaLInA dIvA paNa AvyA ane naLa paNa AvyA ne? derAsaramAM vIjaLInA gaLa paNa kevA rAkhavA mAMDyA che? barAbara bhagavAnanI sAme ja rAkhe ane te paNa bhAre prakAzanA rAkhe. prakAza eTale badho hoya che ke-mUtinuM lAvaNya ane AMgInI manaharatA mArI jAya. tamArI sAme keIe eTalA dIvA dharyA hoya, te tame bhAgI ja jAva. pahelAM dIpaka rahetA te hAlatA-cAlatA ane prakAza saumya eTale mUrtinuM lAvaNya khIlI uThatuM ane AMgInA caLakATanAM sthAne badalAyA kare, eTale badhuM jhagamaga thayA kare. vIjaLInA dIvAomAM AMkha karavI muzkela bane, garamI paNa vadhe ane pachI bhAvavRddhimAM uNapa Ave, temAM navAI paNa zI che? uparAnta, jokhama ghaNuM ane mahAraMbha sAthe haMmezanuM joDANa! sa. A bAbatamAM upayoga apAya te phera paDe. upayoga nathI apAya agara nathI apAto evuM nathI,
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________________ 250 cAra gatinAM kAraNe paNa keTalAka vahIvaTadArAne jANI joine A karavuM che. A aMge eka vAra hIlacAla upaDI hatI. keTalAka jaino evA nIkaLelA ke-derAsaramAM jaine tAra kApI Ave. hathiyAra sAthe laIne jAya ane vIjaLInA samaya tADI nAkhe. e traNa vAra evuM thayuM, eTale emanA mATe cAkIe mUkAi. te vakhate AcArcInA abhiprAyA paNa maMgAvAelA ane badhAe vIjaLInA dvIvAe zrI jinamandirAdimAM nahi joie, evA abhiprAya ApelA. e abhiprAyA pragaTa paNa thaI gayA che. eTale, A saMbaMdhamAM prayatnA nathI thayA ema nahi, paNa A tA vadhatuM ja cAlyuM. sa paNa vIjaLInA dIvAmAM kharca ochuM Ave ne ? dhI 135 rUpIye maNu thaI gayuM ! na thAya evuM karIne kharca ghaTADavAnuM kahyuM koNe? pahelAM derAsaramAM jyAre ghInA dIpakAnI rAzanI thatI, tyAre sAkSAt devaleAkanA jevuM derAsara lAgatuM. paMcaraMgI jhummara, hAMDIe vageremAMthI ghInA dIpakAnI mIThI, ThaMDI reAzanI pragaTatI ane vAtAvaraNa AhlAdamaya banI jatuM. je darzana karavA jAya, tene esI javAnuM mana thatuM. Aje darzana karyo ke jhaTa nIkaLyA, evuM mATe bhAge thaI gayuM che. 130-35 rUpIe maNu ghI thayuM, temAM gharamAM jeTaluM ghaTADayuM hAya teTaluM ahIM ghaTADayuM hAta, te vAta judI hatI; paNa 130-35 rUpIe maNa ghI thayuM eTale ghara mATe ghI lAvavuM hoya te, bahu cAkasAIthI lAve che ane derAsara mATe ' game tevuM paNu ghI che ne ?' -ema karIne, uThAvI lAve che. hamaNAM hamaNAM tA, dharmasthAnAne aMgenI bhAvanA ja keAI vicitra thatI jAya che.
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________________ pahele bhAga - 251 ApaNI vAta te, mahAraMbha enarakanuM kAraNa che e hatI. mahAraMbha chUTe te ghaNuM sAruM, paNa mahAraMbhathI mUkAI zakAya tema na hoya, to ya tene rasa te rAkhavo ja nahi. mahAraMbhane rasa jAya, e mATe vicAra karavo ke "jIvavuM zeDuM ne A badhuM zuM karavA? mArA mananA teSane mATe, keTalA jIvonI hiMsAmAM mArA saMbaMdha? kyAre AnAthI chUTAya ?" dhana saMbadhI zrAvakanI IcchA: mahAraMbha jema narakanA AyuSyane Azrava karAvanAra che, tema mahA parigraha paNa narakanA AyuSyane Azrava karAvanAra che. tame parigrahI te che ja, kema ke-dhana ane dhAnyAdi parigrahanA tame svAmI thaIne beThA che. dhana-dhAnyAdi nava prakAranA parigraha sAthe, tamAre svAmI tarIkeno saMbaMdha che ne? ene meLavavAnI, rAkhavAnI, sAcavavAnI IcchA ane mahenata cAlu che, eTale, tame parigrahI te che, paNa tamAre parigraha keTaluM che? alpa ke mahA ? alpa parigrahavALAne paNa mahA parigrahanI icchA che ane je mahA parigrahavALA che, tene haju temane parigraha alpa lAge che. parigraha e pApa che, ema lAge che? hiMsA, asatya, cerI-e vagerene pApa mAnanArA te haju ghaNA che, paNa parigrahane pApa mAnanArA keTalA? zrAvaka saMsAramAM beThe che, eTale ene parigraha vinA cAle nahi, paNa zrAvakanI dhana sabaMdhI IcachAnI zAstrakAra mahAtmAoe maryAdA bAMdhI ApI che. ati unA ghIthI cepaDeluM anAja ane sAMdhyA vinAnuM vastra-ATaluM sukhapUrvaka khAI ane paherI zakAya, tethI adhika dhananI IrachA zrAvake karavI
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________________ -252 cAra gatinAM kAraNe joIe nahi. sa0 ghara vagere na joIe ? AmAM, rahevA mATe joItA ghara Adine samAveza paNa thaI ja jAya che. zrAvakane ghara te heya ja, ema samajIne cAlavAnuM che. saMsAramAM rahelAne rahevAne mATe ghara to joIe ne ? ghara sthiti mujabanuM samajI levAnuM. eTale, zrAvake ghara nahi rAkhavuM-e vAta AmAM nathI, paNa ahIM to vAta e che ke-zrAvakanI dhana saMbaMdhI je IcchA, tenuM parimANa kayuM? dhananI IcchAnuM A parimANa che. gharamAM dhana keTaluM rAkhavAnuM? khAvAne mATe ati unA ghIthI cepaDeluM anAja ane paheravAne mATe sAdhyA vinAnuM vastra maLI rahe, ethI adhikanI jeTalI IrachA, te kevaLa lebhanuM ja nATaka kahevAya. ethI adhika dhana rAkhe, te zrAvaka kahevAya ja nahi-ema paNa nathI; ane je zrAvaka hoya, tene ethI adhika dhananI IcchA thAya ja nahi agara to ethI adhika dhananI IcchA thAya eTale zrAvakapaNuM jAya ja--evo niyame ya nathI; paNa ethI adhika dhananI IcchA je zrAvaka kare, te tene mATe te geravyAjabI jarUra gaNAya. adhikanI IcchAmAM ane jarUra pUratI IcchAmAM phera che. jarUra pUratI IcchA rahe, temAM patanane eTale parigrahamAM upAdeyabuddhi AvavAne saMbhava ocho ane adhikanI IcchAmAM parigrahamAM upAdeyabuddhi utpanna thaI javAne saMbhava ghaNe. zrAvaka, eTalA thoDA paNa dhananI je IcchA kare, te evI rItie kare ke-"parigraha e pApa che, hAla huM sAdhu thaI zakuM tema nathI ane zrAvaka tarIke rahIne mArAthI bhIkha mAgIne jIvAya nahiM; mATe, mAre ATaluM dhana meLavyA ane rAkhyA
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________________ pahelA bhAga 253 vinA chUTako nathI. kacAre evA avasara Ave ke-huM sAdhu thaI jAuM, ke jethI na chUTake karavAM paDatAM AvAM pApo paNa mAre karavAM paDe nahi !' parigraha pAchaLa mana keTaluM badhuM gheluM aneluM che. je alpa parigrahavALAe paNa jo A vRtti rAkhavI joie, te ghaNA parigrahavALAe kevI vRtti rAkhavI joIe ? keTalAkeAne te| janmathI ja mahA parigraha maLeleA hoya che; puNya evuM ke-meATI samRddhivALAne ghare janmI gayA. AvI rItie paNa mahAraMbha ane mahA parigrahavALI sthitimAM mUkAI gayA haya, teoe sAvadha banI javuM joI e. emAM upAde yabhAva na AvI jAya, enA ceAge maLatA sukhathI ne mAnathI AnaMdamaya banI javAya nahi, enI kALajI rAkhavI joIe. dhana-dhAnyAdi bAhya parigraha meTA hAya, paNa haiyuM mATA piragrahavALuM na heAya, teA macI javAya. thADA parigrahamAM paNa jo aMtarane parigraha mahA hAya, teA DUbI javAya; ane mahA parigraha hoya, paNa aMtaranA parigraha ghaTI jAya, teA khacI javAya. parigrahamAM rahevuM paDe, te ya mUrchAmAM ramavuM nahi. mahA parigraha mahA mUrchAnuM kAraNa che; paNu, vivekI aneA te mahA mUrchA TakI zake nahi. mahA parigraha mahA mUrchA dvArA narake dhakelI zake che, eTale mahA parigraha hAya, te parigrahane ghaTADavAnA prayatna karyA karavA ane te paNa mUrchA ghaTe,-e mATe ja parigrahane ghaTADavAnI vRtti rAkhavI. parigraha jene pApa rUpa lAge, tene mahA parigraha jarUra khaTake ane jene mahA parigraha khaTake, tene mamatA ochI thAya. ene
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________________ 254 cAra gatinAM kAraNo ema thayA ja kare ke-"mAre jarUra nathI, chatAM ATaluM badhuM mArI pAse che, te mAre A badhuM zuM kAma rAkhavuM? huM khAvAne keTaluM ? paheravAne keTaluM ? vAparavAne keTaluM ? bhegavavAne keTaluM? chatAM, ATaluM badhuM huM zuM kAma rAkhI beThe chuM?" mamatA ghaTe, eTale sadupayoga karavAnuM mana thAya. tamAre rahevAne makAna keTalAMka joIe? tame rahe to ekamAM ne ? ekane badale be makAna hoya, tema chatAM paNa je trIjuM makAna baMdhAvavAnuM mana thAya, to "A jIvane be makAnanI paNa zI jarUra hatI?"-e vicAra, ene pitAne te Ave ja kyAMthI? kharo mahA parigrahI te, te ja che ke-jene jeTaluM maLe teTaluM ochuM ja lAgyA kare, ane mAre keTaluM joIe che enuM-mApa ja je kADhI zake nahizrI zAlibhadrajI, zrI dhanAjI, zrI bharatajI vagere kevA hatA? emane parigraha keTalo ? mahA parigrahI ane mahAraMbhI hovA chatAM paNa, e puNyavAnanA haiye lakhAeluM ke-A rAkhavA lAyaka nathI, tajavA lAyaka che. e rAkhatA kharA, paNa rAkhavuM sAruM che-e buddhithI nahi! "mahA parigraha vinA sukha nahi"--evuM tamArA haiye lakhAeluM che ane paNa "mahA parigraha e narakanuM kAraNa che . -evuM lakhAeluM hatuM, ema lAge che? ema na hata, te zrI zAlibhadrajI jevA sukamaLa, sarvatyAga karI zakata kharA ? zrI dhanAjI jevA, bhAIone kajIyA karatA sAMbhaLIne, pitAnI raLelI saMpattine paNa tajI daIne, paheryA kapaDAbhera ghara choDIne cAlyA jaI zakata? zrI bAhubalijIne kezakuMcana karIne cAlI jatA joIne, zrI bharatajI emanI anumodanA karI zakata? che ane ema vicArI zakata ke-vaM matona?' gAdIe
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________________ pahelA bhAga 255 esavuM ane rAjyane saMsAra rUpa vRkSanuM khIja mAnavuM, e saheluM che ? temaNe rAjya meLavavA yuddhAdi karyA, temAM mAnavuM paDe ke-karme emanI pAse yuddho karAvyAM; khAkI, rAjya mATe yuddho karavAM game, evuM e haiyuM nahotuM! tame, tamArA haiyAnI parIkSA tA karI juo ! parigrahamAM beThA che, enA trAsa che ? pApamAM beTho chuM, ema lAge che? keTalA parigrahanI IcchA che? zuM maLI jAya, teA saMtASa thAya ? gharamAM keTalA paisA Ave, te vepAra baMdha ? ane gharamAM keTalA paisA thai jAya, eTale eka pAi paNa jo adhika Ave, te tarata kADhI nAkhavI, ene nirNaya che ? enA vicAra karavA esA, tA khabara paDe ke-parigraha pAchaLa mana keTaluM gheluM khaneluM che? jemanI pAse mahA parigraha nathI, te ya alpa parigrahI ja che, evuM kayAre manAya ? haiyA sAthe vAta kare. jemanI pAse mahA parigraha nathI, chatAM aMdara mahA parigraha beThA che ane jemanI pAse mahA parigraha che temane vaLI vadhAre joI e che, eTale parigrahanuM duHkha nathI ne ? pachI, ApaNI IcchA na hAya te| ya, narake javuM paDe ne ? te ema na thAya ke- ahIM sudhI AvelA ApaNe, have te vaLI narake jaIe?' ApaNI keTalI uMcI kakSA ? AvI suMdara dharmasAmagrI pAmyA ane cheka zrI siddhagirijI sudhI AvI paheAMcyA, chatAM DUbI jaI e, te te pachI 'daLI daLIne kulaDImAM' jevuM ja thAya ne AkhI rAta DhaLyA karyuM, paNa karyuM zuM ? ATo kulaDImAM bhare ane e ja ATAne ghUMTImAM eryAM kare. ghauM pIsavAne badale ATA pIsavA mAMDayo. aAbhI manane, have te kahI Dho ke mAre narake nathI javuM !' parigrahane ghaTADA ane
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________________ 256 cAra gatinAM kAraNe parigrahanI mamatAnA tyAga karI, te kAma thAya. na hAya, te nAhaka AzAmAM jhurA nahi ane hAya, te e ja vicAraza keA kema chUTe ? AnAthI chuTavAne mATe, mAre zuM karavAnI jarUra che? 'parigraha pApa che ane mahA parigraha narakanuM kAraNa che, e vAta kharAkhara haiyAmAM kAtarI le. sukhI gRhasthA jo udAra ane, teA teo gAmanA rAjA jevA manI jAya : Ama thAya, to mahAraMbha ane mahA parigrahanuM jhera utarI jAya. 'A badhuM pApa rUpa che ane tajavA jevuM che'-ema lAge, eTale udAratA AvI jAya. AjanA gRhasthAnA meTA bhAgamAM, udAratA dekhAtI nathI. gRhasthA Ape che, kharce che, paNa emAM je udAratA dekhAvI joIe, tyAjyane tajavAnA je umaLakA dekhAvA joI e, lakSmInI mamatAne A utArI rahyA che ema je lAgavuM joie, evuM bhAgye ja jovA maLe che. gRhasthAnI udAratAnA abhAve, bIjAonI udAratA paNa marI jAya che. gRhasthAnA dAnathI paNu, khIjAone lakSmInI tucchatAnuM bhAna thAya. Aje, dAna detI vakhate je nATaka cAle che, e joIne lakSmInuM mahattva vadhatuM hoya, evuM paNa ane che. jyAre gRhasthA chUTe hAthe detA, tyAre bIjAe pAtA pAse thADuM hAya, tA ya kAMika ApyA vinA jatA nahi ane na apAya te bahAra nIkaLIne rAtA. AgaLa beThelA gRhasthAmAM, dAnanI AkhI bhAvanAnuM khUna thatuM dekhAtuM hoya, tyAM pAchaLanAe upara zI asara thAya ? AgaLanA jo ulaTabhera detA hAya, teA pAchaLanAenA haiyAmAM, e dRzyane
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________________ pahelA bhAga 257 joIne paNa ubharA Ave ane ethI emanAthI kadAca peAtAnI zaktinI uparavaTa thaIne ya rakama bharAI jAya. utsAhamAM, emanAthI peAtAnI nAjuka sthitine paNa visarI javAya. tame je rItie dAnAdi kare che, temAM AvuM banavAnA saMbhava kharA ? sukhI mANasA tA, jo dhAre to, gAmanA rAjA jevA anI jAya. AkhA gAmanA leAkA, enA upara najara rAkhyA kare, kema ke-e gAmamAM Ave, eTale duHkhIyAnAM duHkha jAya ne bhUkhyAne roTalA maLI jAya. Aje te kahe che ke--amArA gAmamAM amuka sukhI che, paNa jovA jevA nathI! gAma mATe ghasAya jarA ya nahi ane gAmanA ghasArA levAne taiyAra ! enuM mAna kANu jALave ? gAmanA dIna-duHkhI AdinI tame khabara letA heA ane zakti mujaba ApyA karatA hA, tA gAmanA bIjA mANasA paNa salAma bharIne ubhA rahe. kema garImanA belI che!' evA mANasa, kAi vAra kahe ke dharmanuM amuka kAma karavuM che tA kAI ADA Ave kharA ? paNa haiyAmAM udAratA na hoya, tyAM zuM thAya ? parigrahanI ati mUrchA, udAratAne AvavA deja zI rItie ? sukhI mANasa pUjA bhaNAve, te ya savA pAMca rUpIAnI bhaNAve ane sAdhAraNu mANasa pUjA bhaNAve teA ya savA pAMca rUpIAnI bhaNAve ? sukhI mANase ya zeAdhI zeAdhIne naivedyanAM ne phaLanAM naMga TeNIyAM TeNIyAM bhegAM kare ? savA pAMcanI pUjA, sAdhAraNa bhaNAve, tA sukhI savA pacAsa na Ape ? mamatA ghaTe ne udAratA Ave, te ja bhagavAnanI bhakti paNa sArI rItie thai zake. eka sArA sukhI AdamI dhAre, tA AkhA gAmane dharma karatuM banAvI zake; enA gAmamAM, adharma paisI zake nahi ane kugurU paga 17
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________________ 258 cAra gatinAM kAraNe mUkI zake nahi; paNa enAmAM eTalI udAratA ane dharmazIlatA heya te ne? tame ahIM zrI siddhagirijInI chAyAmAM comAsuM karavAne AvyA che ane A vakhate ahIM paNa je vAparavA yogya kSetramAM nahi vAparI zake, te bIje kyAM jaIne tame ahIMthI sAruM karI zakavAnA hatA ? tamAre te, evuM sAruM karIne javuM joIe ke AvatA varSe AvanArAone, vadhAre sAruM karavAne utsAha jAge. sava zakti na hoya te ? zakti na hoya, tene mATenI A vAta nathI. jenI zakti che, tene je kRpaNutA rekatI hoya, te kRpaNatAne kADhI nAkhavAnI vAta che. zakti hoya ne kRpaNatAthI devAnuM mana na thatuM hoya, te kaDavI davA jema AMkhamAM pANI pADatAM paNa pIvAya che, tema parANe devuM. tamArAmAM je DIka paNa udAratA sArI rItie AvI jAya, te maMdirAdinI cintA karavA jevuM rahe, ema lAgatuM nathI. sukhI mANase jema meMghavArI vadhI gaI che te ya ghera khAya-pIe che, tema je maMdirAdi dharmasthAnane ane pitAnA sAdhamikene saMbhALavA mAMDe, te nAnAone paNa zakti ane bhAvanA mujaba karavAnuM mana thAya. devadravyane vyaya karavAnI jarUra : - dhananI mUccha Aje dharmakSetramAM paNa keTakeTalI muzIbate ubhI kare che? Aje "devadravyanuM Ama thaI jaze ane tema thaI jaze"--evI vAto karyA kare che, paNa devadravyane suyogya rItie vyaya kema karI detA nathI? sa0 peDhIvALA rAkhI mUke che.
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________________ pahelA bhAga 259 peDhInI vAta judI che. ene mAthe javAbadnArI kevaDI mATI che ? ekalA zrI siddhagirijI uparanAM madirAne saMbhALavAne mATe paNa ene keTaluM badhuM draSya joie ? tyAre, peDhI pAse te ghaNAM tIrthAnA vahIvaTo che ane e hisAbe enI pAse je muDI che te meATI che, ema kahevAya nahi. parantu Aje je je sthale devadravyane vadhAro hoya, te te sthaaAnA vahIvaTadAro hajI ya mUrchAmAM paDyA raheze, te kevuM pariNAma Avaze ? tame dhArA tA evuM karI zake ke-sarakArane amaladAra jyAre vahIvaTa saMbhALavAne Ave, tyAre ene ema thAya ke-ahIM vahIvaTa saMbhALavA jevuM che ja zuM ? Aje ThAma ThAma jirNoddhAranI jarUra che; tyAM devadravyanA vyaya karI de ne ? keTalAkeA kahe che ke-- pachI ahIM pUjA vagerenI vyavasthA zI rIte karavI ?' zuM evA sArA zrAvake eTalA chUTI gayA che ke-devadravyamAMthI ja vyavasthA karavI paDe ? athavA, sAdhAraNanI rakame kAI maMdiranA upayAga mATe mUkI gayuM hoya, teA ya zuM tenA vinA nahi ja cAle ? zrAvake jo nakkI kare keamAre zrI jinanI bhakti karavI che' te AmAM kAMI cintA karavA jevuM che ja nahi. avasaroga vartatAM AvaDavuM joie. kAi kALa dAgInA caDhAvavA jevA paNa hoya ane kAI kALa dAgInA na caDhAvavA jevA paNa hoya. saMgha jayavate varte che. tame kAMi nahi rAkhyuM hoya, eTale bhaviSyamAM koI bhAgyavAna saMbhALa lenAra nahi nIkaLe, evuM mAnI levAnI mUrkhAI zuM kAma karo che ? zrI jinamandirAne teA, 200-500 varSa enI pAchaLa jovuM ja na paDe, evAM banAvI devAM. cAlu AvakamAMthI cAlu rakSaNAdine lagatAM kAryo karyA karavAM ane
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________________ 260 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA pAse lAMbI muDI rAkhavI ja nahi. jo tame ema karA, te sarakAra ke khIjAe zuM karI zakavAnA hatA ? vANIyAnI kuneha : Aje tamArAmAM evI zakti agara hiMmata che ke tame sarakArane tamArA dharmamAM Dakhala karIne devadrAdine na thAya tevA mArge upayAga karavAnuM e kahe, tA tame ene aTakAvI zake ? e na hoya, teA ya vANIyAvALI kuneha teA che ke nahi ? e viSe eka vAta kahevAya che. ema kahevAya che ke-kAi eka gAmamAM eka vANIyAnuM ane musalamAnanuM ghara sAmasAme hatuM. vANIe eTale DarapeAka jAta ane pelAne vAta-vAtamAM khAMya caDhAvavAnuM mana thAya. kAMI uMcuM nIcuM thAya, eTale musalamAna melI nAkhe ke- sAle khanIye kA mAra DAlanA paDegA !' vANIyAe vicAra karyAM ke- AnA kAMIka rastA karavA joie; nahi te, A keAI vakhate herAna karI mUkaze." ghara cheADIne javAya tema nahetuM ane laDavAnI zakti ke hiMmata nahotI. AthI eNe potAnA gharamAM besIne, sAme rahenArA mulasamAna sAMbhaLe tema, khelavA mAMDyuM ke- bhAi, have tA A rAjanI paMcAta thaI. eka dahADA AnI joDe laDI ja levuM paDaze. ApaNe majabUta cAra mANasAne rAkhI le !' pelA musalamAne e sAMbhaLyuM, eTale eNe tA tarata ja cAra mANesAne rAkhI lIdhA. gheADA divasa gayA, eTale pharI pAchA vANIye evI
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________________ pahele bhAga 261 ja rItie bIjA ATha mANasane rAkhI levAnuM belyo ane e sAMbhaLIne pelA musalamAne tarata ja bIjA ATha mANasene rAkhI lIdhA. Ama, vAta thatI gaI ane musalamAnane tyAM mANase vadhatAM gayAM. e badhAne kharca karatAM karatAM, musalamAne joyuM ke- A te muDI sApha thaI javA pAmI ane haju laDAI te thaI ja nathI." AthI, teNe eka dahADe vANIyAne pUchayuM ke-"ama kaba laDanA he?" vANI kahe ke-"laDavAnuM vaLI kevuM ? tamArI sAthe te laDavAnuM hoya ?" | musalamAna kahe ke "ka jUTha belatA hai? kaMI dine se te laDane kI taiyArI karatA hai aura kitane hI AdamI IkaThe kiye hai, laDanA he te laDa le, lekina nikammA kharca karyo karatA hai?" vANIye hasIne kahe che ke- paNa meM te eke ya mANasa rAkhyo nathI." pile samajI gayo ke-"sAle banIye ne hama ke banAyA." paNa muDI sApha thaI gaI hatI, eTale mIjAja utarI gayo. AvI rItie, tame paNa kuneha te vAparI zake ke nahi? kuneha vAparIne devadravyAdine savyaya karI nAkhe, te pachI sarakAra, kAyade ke bIjAe zuM karI zakaze? bhayaMkara hiMsAonI anumodanA narakanA AyuSyanA Azrone jaNAvatAM parama upakArI, kalikAlasarvajJa, AcAryabhagavAna zrImadda hemacandrasUrIzvarajI
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________________ 262 cAra gatinAM kAraNe mahArAjAe paMcenidrayaprANivadha Adi jaNAvela che. A sAMbhaLIne, tamAre e vicAra karavAne che ke ApaNe e kAraNothI para chIe ke nahi? ane kadAca e kAraNathI sarvathA para na hoIe, te paNa, ApaNe e kAraNene sevavA chatAM paNa, e kAraNathI kevA prakAre bacI zakIe?" tame evI sthitimAM che ke-vagara karyo ane vagara kAravya paNa, jo tame vivekI na bane ane manane sArI rItie keLave nahi, te narakanAM kAraNanI anumodanAthI bacI zake nahi. A yuga te, vartamAna patrane yuga gaNAya che ne ? saune vartamAna patro vAMcavAno zokha ! AjanAM chApAMomAM zuM AvavAnuM ? emAM paMcendriyaprANivadha, mahAraMbha ane mahA parigrahanI vAto ghaNuM Ave ne? hajAre paMcendriya prANionI katala jemAM thAya--evuM kAma karyuM hoya, paNa pariNAma tarapheNamAM AvyuM hoya, te enAM vakhANa Ave ne? mahAraMbhI ane mahA parigrahI AdinAM paNa vivecane ane vakhANe Ave ne? e vAMcatAM, tame emAM rasa anubhave, te tamAruM zuM thAya? yuddha kyAM ya cAlatuM hoya ane jemanI sAthe tamane kaze paricaya hAya nahi evA mANase laDatA hoya, paNa tamane lAbha jaNAtuM hoya, te emAM hajAre maratA hoya te chatAM paNa, AnaMda AvI jAya ne ? amuka hAryA, amuka khedAnamedAna thaI gayA, amuka maryA, emAM tame AnaMda na anubha, te na cAle? hiMsAne rasa e hoya che ke-keTalAka te vagara levA-devAe, khAlI vAtanA zAkha khAtara, bhayaMkara yuddhonI anumodanA kare che. tame Aje evI hiMsA na karatA ho, te paNa tamAruM mana "evI hiMsA nahi ja karavI" evA
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________________ pahelA bhAga 263 nizcayavALuM che-ema mAnI levA jevuM che kharuM ? Aje teA, tame evA bahAdUra nathI ke-hathiyAra hAthamAM hoya te chatAM paNa hathiyAra ugAmI zake, paNa dhArA ketamArAmAM zakti hoya ane hiMmate ya hoya, tA tame zuM kare ? kAi upara gusse AvI jAya tyAre, zakti ne hiMmata hoya teA paNu, talavAra myAnamAM ja rahe ke bahAra nIkaLI jAya ? sa0 myAnamAM rahevI muzkela. atyAre teA tame eTalA bhIrU che ke-sAmeA hathiyAra ugAmaze--ema lAge, tyAM te tame nAsI chUTA, athavA te hathiyAro khakhaDe eTale tyAM ne tyAM ja kadAca hRdaya baMdhathaI jAya; paNa sAdhana hoya, tAkAta hoya ane hiMmata paN hoya, te tame karAmata karavAmAM AAkI rahI jAva nahi ne ? kei ApaNuM game teTaluM nukazAna kare, te paNa tene pAyamAla karavAnuM mana na thAya, evuM haiyuM keLavyuM che ? aparAdhInI vAta mUkI daie, paNa tamArA sAMsArika svArthanI ADe AvatA keAI lAge, te eTalA mAtrathI teA tame tenuM kAsaLa kADhI nAkhavAne taiyAra thai jAva nahi ne ? manane jarA pUchI juo. koI ne tame nahi mAratA ho, te temAM saMyeAga nahi maLyo hoya ane saMcAga maLyA haze, te zakti nahi hoya; pazu, mArA svArthane khAtara paNa huM niraparAdhIne teA mArUM ja nahi, evA nizcaya kharA ? e rAjAe te e maMtrionAM haiyAM kevAM haze ? A dharmane pAmelA evA paNa rAjA-mahArAjAo ane maMtrie Adie, saMyeAgavaza bhayaMkara yuddho paNa khelyAM che;
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________________ 264 cAra gatinAM kAraNA parantu, avasare jaNAI Ave ke emanAM haiyAM sArAM; hiMsaka bhAvathI bharelAM nahi ! ceDA mahArAjAne niyama hato ke duzmanane paNa eka divasamAM eka mANuthI vadhu mANu mAravuM nahi ! tamAre gALe denArane paNa eka divasamAM eka gALathI vadhu gALa tA devI ja nahi, eTaleA ya niyama karavA che? gALa na de te sArUM, paNa dhAro ke-gALa dvIdhA vinA rahI zakAya ja nahi, te ya eka divasamAM eka gALathI vadhu gALa nahi devA jeTaleA saMyama paNa tame rAkhI zake! tema che ? pelA tA rAjA-mahArAjA hatA, mAthe javAbadArI meATI hatI ane ethI yuddha-prasaMge teo yuddha khelatA pazu kharA; te chatAM paNa, jovA jevuM te e che ke-te peAtAnI pratijJAthI calita thatA nahi. yuddhabhUmimAM javuM, duzmananI khaLavAna senAnI sAme jhajhumavuM, cAre ya tarapha duzmane viMTaLAelA hoya ane saMkhyAbaMdha prahArA cAlyA AvatA hoya, te chatAM paNa mAtra acAva ja karyA karavA ane taka Ave tyAre mAtra eka ja khANu mAravuM ane te pachI game tema thAya te ya, juM khANa te divase te nahi ja vAparavuM, e jevI tevI vAta che ? bANAvaLI evA che ke eka ja bANu mAre, paNu ghA cUke nahi; jene khANa mAryuM te paDayo ja samajo, chatAM, eka divasanA eka khANanI pratijJAne vaLagI rahe, e kayAre ane? khANa mAre kharA, paNa AvI pratijJA rAkhe ane game tevA saMcAgeAmAM paNa pratijJA kharAkhara jALave, e vastu uparathI ApaNe emanuM haiyuM kevuM haze, enI kalpanA karI zakIe. enI sAthe, ApaNe ApaNA haiyAnA vicAra paNa karI laie. Aje tame paMcendriya prANinA vadha nahi karatA heA,
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________________ pahele bhAga 265 paNa te tamAruM haiyuM bahu dayALu che mATe? prANanA bhAge paNa, koInA ya prANa nahi levA, e prakAre manane keLavyuM che mATe? zakti na haya, AvaData na hoya, hiMmata na hoya, saMga na heya ane ethI paMcendriya prANine vadha na karatA ho, te temAM bahu rAcavA jevuM nathI. savAla te e che ke-mana kevuM che? zakti Adi hoya to paNa, mana sAmAnA vadhanI preraNuM na kare evuM che ke "je zakti hota te AnI khabara barAbara laI nAkhata"--evA evA vicAro Ave evuM che? pelA paMcendriya prANine vadha karatA, te chatAM paNa emanuM haiyuM vadhanI vRttivALuM nahetuM mATe bacI gayA ane jenuM haiyuM vadhanI vRttivALuM hoya, te vagara vadha karyo paNa, vadhanA pApane bAMdhe ane durgatimAM cAlyo jAya. dayAnA pariNAmanI khAtrI : haiyAmAM hiMsakabhAva na hoya ane dayAne pariNAma hoya, te avasare hiMsA karanAre paNa, yatanApUrvaka varte. mahArAjA kumArapAla, gheDA upara caDhatAM pahelAM palANane pUjatA ane pachI gheDe caDhatA. yuddha karanArA hovA chatAM paNa, emanA haiyAmAM hiMsA nahatI ane jIvadayA hatI, te ja pUjI zakatA ne? tame jyAM bese tyAM jaI-pUMjIne ja bese ne? joIne ane pUjIne besavAmAM jIvarakSAne bhAva rahe che, paNa tame gAdI ke kaeNca upara besatAM pahelAM juo ane pUje, e bane kharuM? jIvo nasIbadAra hoya to tamArA bhAra nIce cagadAya nahi, bAkI tame koI jIva mArA anupagathI paNa cagadAI jAya nahi, evI kALajI theDI ja
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNo rAkhe che? gAlIcA pAtharelA hoya, te nIce jIva na hoya? upare ya jIva na hoya? besatAM pahelAM, e juo kharA ? jovAmAM te lAbha ghaNuM che. kAMI lAkaDuM vagere paDyuM hoya, te vAgI na jAya ane keI jherI jaMtu vagere hoya, te karaDI na jAya, e vagere lAbhe paNa ghaNA che; paNa vAta te e che ke-kaI paNa niraparAdhI trasa jIva mArAthI nahi ja mare joIe, enI kALajI che kharI ?paSahamAM te caravaLe rAkhave paDe mATe rAkhe che, bAkI joyA vinA besavAmAM vAMdho nahi ne? piSaNa AdimAM caravaLe pAse hovA chatAM ya, pramAIne ja besavA-uThavAno upaga keTalo rahe che ? upaga barAbara rahetuM nathI, tenuM kAraNa vicAryuM? joI-pramAjIne besavAuThavAnI rajanI Teva pADI hoya, te piSaNa AdimAM keTale badhe upaga rahe? I-pramAIne besavA-uThavAnI kALajI kema nathI AvatI? lAge che ke-dayAnA pariNAmanI khAmInuM e pariNAma che? sajayaNAnuM sAdhana rAkhavAnuM gayuM ne ? pahelAM gRhastha khesa rAkhatA ane pramArjivAmAM khesane upayoga karatA, paNa Aje khesa rAkhavAnuM gayuM, ema kahe che! paNa, e vAta vaLI bIjI thaI. haiye dayAne pariNAma keTale che, e vicAre ne? khesa te game, paNa jovAnI AMkha te nathI gaI ne ? haiye dayAne pariNAma hoya, te AMkha to kAma lAge ne? ApaNe pApa karIe, chatAM bhagavAna duHkhathI ane durgatithI bacAvI de, e bane nahi ? paMcendriya prANine vadha karavAne prasaMga na Ave-e
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________________ pahele bhAga 267 uttama vAta che, paNa paMcendriya prANine vadha kara paDe, te ya tene rasathI te ja bacI zake, ke jenA haiyAmAM dayAne ogha pariNAma paNa beThe hoya. hiMsAnI kriyA karatAM paNa, hiMsAne rasa, vadhAre nukazAnakAraka che. naraka ane tiryaMcagatimAM javAnI IcchA nathI, paNa pApa karaze to koI choDAvaze nahi-evI khAtrI che ne? ApaNe pApa karIe ane pachI bhagavAnane kahIe ke-"tuM amane duHkhathI ane durgatithI bacAva!"--te ethI bacAvI de, evA bhagavAnane ApaNe mAnatA nathI. ApaNe to mAnIe chIe ke-bhaktithI rAjI thAya ane gALathI gusse thAya, e deva nahi. deva te vItarAga che. keIbhakti kare, ethI emane rAga thAya nahi ane keI AzAnatA kare, ethI emane dveSa thAya nahi. ApaNe to bhakti karIne paNa devanI bhaktinA pariNAmathI lAbha levAne che. devanI bhakti, deva pratyenI bhaktinA pariNAmane pamADanAra, e pariNAmane zuddha banAvanAra ane e pariNAmane vRddhi pamADanAra che, mATe deva vItarAga hovA chatAM paNa, ApaNe bhakti karIe chIe. jema bhaktinA pariNAmathI lAbha thAya che, tema abhaktinA -e tArakanI AzAtanAdinA pariNAmathI nukazAna paNa thAya ja che. deva svayaM nathI ApatA lAbha ke nathI karatA nukazAna. tyAre, ApaNe pApa karye rAkhIe, manane pApamAM pacce rAkhIe ane pachI bhagavAnane duHkhathI tathA durgatithI bacAvavAnuM kahIe, te e banI zake evI vastu che? nahi ja. "he bhagavan! tuM mane duHkhathI tathA durgatithI bacAva ane mekSane pamADa!"--e vagere ApaNe jarUra kahIe chIe, paNa te aupacArika bhASA che. ema kahIne, ApaNe e tArakanI
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNo AjJAnI ArAdhanAthI ja tarAya ane e tArakanI AjJAnI virAdhanAthI DUbAya, e saMskArane puSTa karIe chIe. ane tyAra sudhI tArI AjJAne meM mAnI nahi, mATe haju paNa huM saMsAramAM bhaTakuM chuM ane mokSane pAmavAne mATe, duHkhathI chUTavAne tathA sukhane meLavavA mATe, kAMI paNa ArAdhavA yogya heya, te te tArI AjJA ja che"--A khyAla pedA thAya, e khyAla pedA thayo hoya to e khyAla satatuM jAgrata rahe, e mATe ApaNe bhagavAnanI pAse yAcanA karIe chIe ke"tuM mane tAra !" bAkI che, bhagavAne, ApaNe saMsAramAM rUlIe chIe zAthI, saMsArathI chUTavAnI jarUra zA mATe che ane saMsArathI chUTIne muktine meLavavAne mATe zuM zuM karavuM joIe--e vagere darzAvyuM che. e ja, e tArakane moTAmAM mATe upakAra che. e nathI DUbAvatA ke nathI tAratA, paNa ApaNe ja ApaNAM kRtyathI DUbI e chIe ane ApaNuM purUSArthathI ja ApaNe taravAnuM che. chokarAnA khUnIne phAMsInI sajA thAya te rAjI thAva ne? tyAre ApaNe je duHkhathI ne durgatithI bacavuM hoya, te kamathI kama paMcendriya prANine vadha, mahAraMbha ane mahA parigraha AdimAMthI mane vRttine te pheravI ja nAkhavI paDaze ne? e kAma baMdha ja karavAM heya, te sAdhu banavuM paDe agara te bahu ja parimIta banI javuM paDe; paNa te mATe ya manevRttine pheravyA vinA te cAle tema che ja nahi. manevRttimAM hiMsAne, AraMbhane ane parigrahane rasa nahi rahe joIe. prasaMgavaza thaI jAya, jarA gamI ya jAya, paNa tarata pAchuM
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________________ pahele bhAga 26ThIka nathI thatuM" ema thavuM joIe. e tajavA gya ja che, e vAta haiyAmAMthI visarAvI nahi joIe. dhAre ke-keIe. tamArA chekarAnuM khUna karyuM. tamArA chokarAnuM khUna karanAra pakaDAI jAya, te tene tame korTamAM laI jAva ne? korTamAM kesa cAlyo ane tamArA chokarAnuM khUna karanArane kaeNTe phAMsInI sajA karI, te e jANIne tamAre haiye AnaMda Ave ne? "ThIka thayuM, e ja dAvane hata"--ema thAya ne? e AnaMda AvI gayA pachI ya, ema thAya kharuM ke-cheka te gaye ja hatuM, paNa meM AnA vadhanA anumodanathI, nAhakanuM pApa upAryuM? A mare te ya che te pAchA AvavAne nahete ja, to Ane huM korTamAM zuM kAma ghasaDI gayA?" ApaNuM upara ghA karavA keI AvyA ane ApaNuM nasIba saMjoge, ApaNA upara ghA karatAM pahelAM, e polIsanA hAthamAM sapaDAI jAya, te ene tame zikSA karAvIne rAjI thAva ? ke ene choDAvIne e sudhare e mATe kAMI karo ? tame evA sthAne beThA che ke-paMcendriya prANinA vadhanA prasaMge Ave e banavAjoga che; kadAca, tame teno vadha kare agara kara, te ya banavAjoga che; paNa e vakhate ya "pApamAM beThe chuM, mATe AvA pApa karavAM paDe che"--ema haiyuM hAle kharuM ne? zrI kumArapAle yuddho khelyAM che, paNa emanA haiyAmAM kevI dayA, udAratA ne gaMbhIratA hatI? zrI kumArapAla mahArAjA jema avasare yuddha karavAne jaI zakatA, tema game tevA duzamanane paNa avasare bacAvI levAnI udAratA batAvI zakatA.
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________________ 270 cAra gatinAM kAraNo eka vAra, temane pitAnA banevInI sAthe ja yuddhamAM utaravAne prasaMga AvyuM. pite je sthAne beThA hatA, te sthAnanI javAbadArI evI hatI ke-emane pitAnA banevI rAjA sAme paNa, yuddha AdaravAne prasaMga Avyo. zrI kumArapAle, pitAnI meTI senA sAthe caDhAI karI. duzmana rAjAe joyuM ke- kumArapAlanI senA ghaNI moTI che ane mArI senA ghaNI nAnI che, eTale kumArapAla sAthe enAthI laDavAmAM huM pahoMcI zakuM tema nathI." AthI, teNe eka chUpI bAtamIone lAvavAne mATe jAelA cAra bhaTane pUchyuM ke-"Ane jItavAne keI upAya che? pelo jANabhedu hato. eNe kahyuM ke-"eka upAya che. rAjA kumArapAlanA je kelDaNa vagere sAmata che, te phuTI jAya to kAma thaI jAya.' rAjA kahe-"e kema bane?" pele kahe che ke "e sAmanatanuM kumArapAla upara mana nathI kema ke-kumArapAla kRpaNa che ane akRtajJa che, evI emanA manamAM khAtrI thaI gayelI che." A vAtane jANuM laIne, zrI kumArapAlanA duzamana rAjAe, zrI kumArapAlana sAmone paisA vagere ApIne pheDI nAkhyA. zrI kumArapAlane AnI kazI ja khabara paDI nahi. zrI kumArapAlane A viSenI koI bAtamI ApavAnI paNa keIe hiMmata karI nahi. - savAre ane senAonI vacce yuddha zarU thayuM; eTale zrI kumArapAle joyuM ke-Aje mArA sAmate yuddha karavAmAM udAsInatA seve che. je sAmanta yuddhamAM hukama maLatAMnI
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________________ pahele bhAga 271 sAthe ja hathiyAra uThAvyA vinA rahetA nahetA, te sAmane Aje nArAja jaNAya che. pite Azcarya pAme che ane mahAvatane pUche che ke kema Aje A badhA sAmatte haMmezanI jema hathiyAra uThAvatA nathI?" mahAvata kahe che ke mahArAja! ApaNuM duzamane A sAmantane suvarNa daIne ane bIjI paNa lAlaca ApIne keDI nAkhyA che. pise zuM nathI karato? paise te traNa bhuvanane pheravI nAkhavAne samartha che." AvA vakhate, AvA samAcAra maLe, te haiyAmAM zuMnuM zuM ya thaI jAya ne? duzmana rAjA ane enI senA medAne paDI che, yuddha zarU thaI cUkayuM che ane mahAvata kahe che ke ApaNA sAmanto phuTI gayA che." AvA vakhate dhIraja Take? sarva uchALe mAre ke dabAI jAya? phUTI gayelA sAmatene mATe haiyAmAM zI zI bhAvanA Ave? AtmAne pUche ke-e jagyAe tame che, te tamArA haiyAmAM zI zI gaDamathala thaI jAya? sa0 haiyAmAM ulkApAta macI jAya. | zrI kumArapAla dhIraja gumAvatA nathI, nAsIpAsa thaI jatA nathI ane kuTelA sAmonI bAbatamAM paNa duSyane caDhI jatA nathI. zrI kumArapAla mahAvatane eTaluM ja pUche che ke-e badhA phuTI gayA che te te ThIka, paNa tuM kema che?" mahAvata kahe che ke-deva ! eka huM, bIje A kalaha paMcAnana nAmane hAthI ane trIjA Apa. A traNa pharI jAya ke phuTI jAya tema nathI." zrI kumArapAla kazI ja vadhAre vAta karyA vinA, mahAvatane
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________________ 272 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA AjJA Ape che ke-jo ema che, tAjo, sAme duzmana rAjA dekhAya che. hAMka e taraka hAthIne!' zrI kumArapAlanI AjJA mujaba mahAvata hAthIne hAMke che, ema ekalAne sAme AvatA joI ne, duzmana rAjAne ane duzmana rAjAnI senAne ema thAya ne ke-keTaleA baLavAna che ? athavA teA, enA sAmantA phuTathA che--ema mAnavAmAM ApaNe bhUla tA nathI karI ne ? duzmana rAjA ane duzmana rAjAnI senA joyA kare che ane zrI kumArapAlanA hAthI dhasyA ja jAya che. e vakhate, agAuthI duzmana rAjAe ane tenA salAhakAre karelI gAThavaNa mujaba, siMhanAda thAya che. sAmantAne phADI nAkhIne, zrI kumArapAlanA hAthIne paNa siMhanAda saMbhaLAvIne bhagADI devA, evI gAThavaNu karelI. hAthInA kAnamAM siMhanAdanA dhvani athaDAya, eTale e DarIne pAchA paDe ane kadAca bhAgAbhAga paNa karavA mAMDe. zrI kumArapAla je hAthI upara beThA hatA, te hAthI paNa, enA kAnamAM siMhano dhvani athaDAtAM, pAchA vaLavA lAgyA. tarata ja, zrI kumArapAla mahAvatane pUche che jo sAcA che ane hAthI paNa jo sAcA che, teA atyAre pAche kema paDe che ?? " ke- tuM ya A hAthI mahAvata kahe che ke-Apa zaMkita thAva mA; sAmethI chala karIne koi siMhanAda kare che, mATe A hAthI pA paDe che!' * zrI kumArapAla jevA mahAdUra hatA, tevA ja buddhizAlI paNa hatA. emaNe tarata ja peAtAno khesa utAryAM, tenA be
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________________ pahelA bhAga 273 kaTakA karI nAkhyA ane e mane ya kaTakAe hAthInA ane kAnomAM kheAsAvI dIdhA. pachI mahAvatane kahyuM ke-'have jhaTa kara.' duzmana rAjA ane tenI senA joyA kare che, tyAM te zrI kumArapAla mahArAjA vIjaLInI jhaDape, duzmana rAjAnA hAthI pAse pahoMcI gayA ane tenA hAthI upara caDhI jaIne enI dhvajAne chedI nAkhI. dhvajAne chedrI nAkhIne duzmana rAjAne zro kumArapAle nIce paTakI dIdheA. ene nIce paTakI daIne ane peAte paNa nIce utarIne enI chAtI upara paga mUkIne, ubhA rahyA. je menanA nimitte zrI kumArapAlane A yuddha karavuM paDyu hatuM, te bena tarata ja tyAM doDI AvI. duzmana rAjAe paNa dayA yAcI ane peAtAnI ene paNa tenA patinA prANanI bhikSA mAgI. zrI kumArapAle, duzmana rAjAnI pAse je kabUlAta karAvavI hatI, te karAvI lIdhI ane pachI tene zikSA ApIne chADI dIdhA. ene choDI detAM paNa kahyuM ke- tane cheADI dauM chuM, te A mArI benane kAraNe nahiM, paNa dayAdharmane huM sarvathI adhika mAnuM chuM ethI ane teM dayA mAgI mATe tane huM cheADI dauM chuM ! zrI kumArapAla laDavA gayA, tyAre kevA hatA ? duzmana rAjAnI senAmAM pesI jaI ne, duzmana rAjAne paTakIne nIce nAkhI dIdhA, tyAre e kevA hatA ? ane te pachI emaNe duzmana rAjAne choDI dIdhA, tyAre paNa e kevA hatA ? pahelAM dayA bhAgI gayelI ane pachI dayA AvI gaI ? nA, haiye dayA te pachInI jema pahelAM paNa hatI ja, paNa pahelAM potAnA sthAna, kartavya, saMjoga AdinA savAla hatA. je sAmantA phuTI gayA hatA, te sAmantAne paNa zrI 18
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________________ 274 cAra gatinAM kAraNo kumArapAle kaI divasa kAMI kahyuM nathI. e vAta sarakhI ya uccArI nathI. haiyAmAM udAratA sAthe gaMbhIratA paNa hatI. bAkI, baLa keTaluM hatuM? ghaNuM! sAmantane guhe paNa ke hate? sAmone mATe A gunhA, e bahu bhayaMkara gunho gaNAya. rAjA je dhAre, to badhA sAmone pIlAvI nAkhe, chatAM kaI kAMI bolI zake nahi! zrI kumArapAla jItI gayA, tyAre e sAmantanA haiyAmAM tela reDAyuM che. pitAne gunha ke gaMbhIra che ane A ke baLavAna che, e teo samajatA hatA, eTale, have ApaNane zuM ya karI nAkhaze, ema e badhAne thatuM hatuM, paNa zrI kumArapAle potAnI jIMdagImAM e vAta viSe kadI paNa temane kAMI kahyuM nathI ! zrI kumArapAle e vAtane yAda paNa karI nahi, enI e sAmanto upara kevI asara thaI haze! pahelAM bhUlathI phuTI gayA, paNa AvuM bane tyAre enA e samaje ke-suvarNAdine denArA svAmio te ghaNA haze, paNa A udAra svAmI te kaI nahi hoya ! e badhA jiMdagInA nimakahalAla banI jAya ne ? zrI kumArapAla yuddhamAM paNa jatA ane paMcendriya prANi ene vadha paNa karatA, paNa jovA jevuM che e che ke-emanuM haiyuM kevuM hatuM ? tame evA vadha karanArA te nathI ja, paNa tamAruM haiyuM kevuM che? zrI kumArapAla narake nathI gayA. emaNe paMcendriya prANione vadha karelo ke nahi ? saghaNe karele. ema? chatAM narake kema nahi gayA? haiyuM vadhanI vRttithI para hatuM ane dayAnA pariNAmavALuM hatuM, mATe ne ?
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________________ pahele bhAga 275 tamane gama khAtAM AvaDe? tame kaI di AvI rItie vadha karyo nathI ane prAyaH evA prasaMgamAM mUkAvAnA paNa nathI, paNa tamArI pAse evuM haiyuM che? tamArA saMyoge keTalA badhA suMdara che? ATalA suMdara saMyogomAM paNa, zrI kumArapAlanA haiyA jevuM tamAruM haiyuM che ke nahi? saMsAramAM beThelAne aneka prasaMga Ave, prasaMgavaza aparAdhIne mAre-ema paNa bane, paNa gRhasthamAM gRhasthAI hoya ke nahi? uttama gRhastha tarIke jIvavuM hoya, te haiyuM kevuM hovuM joIe? zrI kumArapAla eTalA badhA baLavAna hatA, chatAM paNa aNunA vakhate phuTI janArA sAmantane mATe ya, durbhAva lAvyA vinA emaNe manamAM samAdhAna karI lIdhuM ke-"hoya, paisAthI badalAtuM keNu nathI?" keTalI gama khAdhI haze? kaI vakhate tamAre keI nAkara tamArA 5-50 upAcata karI jAya te? e vakhate evo vicAra kare kharA ke- bIcArAne jarUra paDI gaI haze, mATe lIdhA haze?" ane "have hamaNAM kAMI nahi, avasare zIkhAmaNa dezuM.'--Ama thAya ne? tame te mAneluM ne ke-eka vakhata corI karI, eTale ene saptamAM sakhta sajA karIe, te ja e sudhare. sava evAne sudhAravAne kAMI karavuM nahi ? tamAre te, sudhAravAnI rItano khyAla paNa jude che ne ? tame eNe cerI karI eTaluM ja juo ke saMbhavitatA Adino vicAra kare? tamane ema thAya kharuM ke-je taka AvI lAge, te mArA je paNa 5-10 hajAra AghA-pAchA karI de-e saMbhavita che, te A bIcArAne jarUranA mAryA ke
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________________ 276 cAra gatinAM kAraNe lebhanA mAryA ATaluM karavAnuM mana thayuM, e saMbhavita nathI? jarUrane ane lebhane AdhIna banIne, chatI take cerI na kare, evA te viralA ! AvuM lAge ane pachI tame ene dhela mAre, te ya te sudhAravAne mATe bane. sAmAe corI karI eTale guse AvI gaye, dhole ya mArI dIdhI, paNa pachI zuM kare? enI jarUrIyAtane oLakhI le? ene corI karavAnuM mana jarUranA mAryAM thayuM hoya, te enI jarUrane pUrI karI Ape? chevaTa kAMI nahi, te ene zIkhAmaNa sAthe zAntavana, ApIne ane jamADIne, pachI ja ravAnA kare ne? Aveza vakhate AyuSyane baMdha paDI jAya che ? tamArA keTalAkenuM mAnasa judI rItie keLavAI gayuM che, eTale tamane A badhI rIta ekadama gaLe nahi utare; paNa vicAra te kare ke-saMsAramAM kaI ApaNuM gunho kare, evA prasaMge te prAyaH ghaNA AvavAnA ane ApaNe je evA prasaMgamAM AvezamAM ja AvI javAnI kuTeva pADI daIe, te kaI vakhate ApaNane e keI Aveza AvI gayo hoya ane te vakhate AyuSyane baMdha paDI jAya, te jyAM javAnI ApaNI bIlakula IcchA nathI, tyAM ApaNe cAlyA javuM paDe ne? mahArAjA zreNike narakanuM AyuSya kevA saMgamAM bAMdhyuM hatuM, e jANe che? e dharmane nahetA pAmyA, te samayanI A vAta che. eka vAra zikAre gayA hatA. eka haraNI upara emaNe potAnuM bANa cheDyuM ane te haraNane vAgyuM. e haraNI sagarbhA hatI. ene bANa evA jorathI vAgyuM ke-e ja vakhate ene garbha bahAra nIkaLI paDyo ane bane taraphaDatAM tara
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________________ pahelA bhAga 277 phaDatAM tyAM marI gayAM. mahArAjA zreNike e dRzya joyuM, eTale emane ema thayuM ke-meM kevuM AkhAda mANu lagAvyuM ? mANu eka mAryuM ane zikAra e karyA ! paMcendriya prANionA vadhanA e AnaMda je vakhate anubhavAtA hatA, te ja vakhate temane AyuSyanA baMdha paDyo. evA samaye AyuSyanA baMdha paDe, tA naraka sivAyanA bIjA kayA AyuSyanA baMdha paDe? tema, tame paNa tamArA koI gunhegArane aMge agara te tevI kai vAtamAM AvezamAM AvI gayA hai; 'caudamA ratana vinA te sAlA mAne ja nahi evA evA vicArA karatA hA; jene zikSA karI hoya agara jene zikSA thaI hAya, tenI zikSAne aMge haiyAmAM AnaMda anubhavatA he; ane kharAkhara e ja vakhate AyuSyano aMdha paDI jAya, to tamArUM thAya zuM ? manano maLApA H koIne dheAla mAravAno prasaMga Ave ane kadAca tame dheAla mArA paNa kharA, parantu te vakhate ya tamArUM haiyuM dayALu hovuM joIe. dheAla mArA aa ya, dheAla mAryAnA AnaMda anubhavA nahi. haiyAmAM tA e ja joie ke-dheAla na mAravI paDe te sArUM. AvI vAtA kahIe, tyAre keTalAka teA prAyaH ema kahe ke-Ama te kAMI ghara cAlatAM haze ? tyAre dayAnA pariNAmeAne rezI nAkhIne ghara calAvavAM che ? tamAre te, khUba sAvadha rahevA jevuM che. tame te gharabArI, paisAvALA, nAkara-cAkaravALA che ne ? eTale, tamAre mATe vakhate vakhata bhUla thavAno saMbhava kharuM ne ? tamAre sajA karavAnA prasaMge vAraMvAra Ave ne ? e vakhate, tamAruM jIgara kevuM rahe che ?
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________________ - 278 cAra gatinAM kAraNe kuTuMbamAM ya aNabanAvanA prasaMge aneka Ave ne? jene puNyane yoga hoya, tene saMbaMdhI sArA maLe, bAkI te, saMbaMdhio paNa kharAba maLe ne? tamane saMbaMdhio pratikULa maLyA hoya, te zuM thAya? evA saMbaMdhio paNa maLe che ke-emane ghara bahAra kADhI zakAya nahi, sajA thaI zake nahi ane e pratikULapaNe varyA vagara rahe nahi. emane tame kaI ja karI zake nahi, paNa manamAM te baLyA kare ne? enuM meTuM na jevuM paDe te sAruM, ema thAya ne? ema manamAM baLyA karatAM "AvA mare te sArUM"--ema paNa thaI jAya ne? mana upara kAbU meLavyo hoya, to evA vakhate, keTalA pApa-vicArathI AtmAne bacAvI zakAya? tamAre te vAraMvAra sAvadha rahevuM paDe. tamArA jevAM durgAnanAM kAraNe amAre nathI. amAruM mana duryAnamAM caDe, te te amArI nAlAyakAtathI ja caDhe. tame te kAramAM beThA che, eTale vAta-vAtamAM prasaMga Ave. tamAre evuM haiyuM keLavavuM joIe ke-keIne zikSA, sajA Adi karavI paDe, te ya enA dukhathI tame AnaMda anubhave nahi. tamAruM dila evuM banAvavAno prayatna kare ke tamArA dilamAM keInA ya bhUMDAnI bhAvanA Ave nahi! tame ema kahI zake ke-amane koIne ya mATe krodha Ave, te te bahArane-dekhAvane mAtra heya e krodha Ave, paNa haiyAthI enuM ahita IcchAya, evo krodha te. amane Ave ja nahi ! sa. krodha ja nahi Avo joIe ne? ema ? krodha na Ave to te ghaNuM sAruM paNa koI Ave te ya te game nahi, ema kharuM?
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________________ 279 pahelo bhAga mAre te ya mAravAne Irache nahi ane mAryuM te game nahi? avasare mAne potAnA chokarA upara krodha Ave ke na Ave? mAne pitAnA chokarA upara paNa avasare koi AvI jAya, e banavAjoga che; krodhamAM AvI jaIne mA chokarAne mAre, e paNa saMbhavita che; paNa mA chekarAne gussAmAM ne gussAmAM bhUkhyo mAre, e saMbhavita che? chokarAe nahi karavA jevuM karI nAkhyuM, mAe e joyuM-jANya, ethI mAne gusse AvavAthI ke pharIthI tevuM na kare e mATe paNa mAe chokarAne mAryo, paNa pachI mA zuM kare? pite rovaDAvelA chekarAne rete chAne rAkhavA, enAM AMsu luchavA paNa, e ja mA jAya ne? mA ghaNuM samajAve, paMpALe, manAve, paNa pelo haThe caDyo ane bhUkhe paDayo rahe, to mA enI pAse raDavA bese ne? pachI, je chokarAne mAryo hoya, te ja chokarAne e mA hetathI khavaDAve ne? tema, tamAre paNa mA jevA banavuM joIe. tame je tamArA haiyAne sau pratye mA-bApanA jevuM banAvI de, to tame saMjogavazAt prANivadhAdi karavA chatAM paNa, enA bhayaMkara keTinA pApathI bacI jAva. sa mAne te heta hoya che, eTale kudaratI tyAM ema thAya che, paNa bIje evuM heta kyAMthI lAvavuM? je jenI sAthe tamAre aNabanAva AdinA prasaMge Ave che, te jIvomAM paNa keI javo, kaI bhavamAM tamArAM mAtA, pitA, putra, putrI Adi haze ne ? anantAnanta kALa gaye, temAM ApaNe kenI sAthe keTalA saMbaMdha bAMdhyA ane keTalA saMbaMdhe choDayA-enI kalpanA te karI juo!
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________________ 280 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA vaLI, tamArA IcchavAthI khIjAnuM bhUMDuM thaI javAnuM che? ema nahi, te pachI sarvanI pratye maitrIbhAva ja cintavA ne? mitti me sabvamULajI, vaira maLyuM naherUM ' mAre maitrI sarva prANionI sAthe che ane vera kAInI ya sAthe nathI, AvuM tame keTalIka vAra khAlA che ? jJAniee A khelavAnuM geAThavI ApyuM che, te maitrI na heAya te lAvavAne mATe ane vera hoya te tene TALavAne mATe ne ? sau pratye maitrIbhAva keLavA, te mAne ca TapI jAya evuM haiyuM banI jAya. ene te mAhe ya che ane svArthe ya che. tamAre tA, badalAnI koI AzA ja nahi ane viveka pUrvakanI maitrI ! maitrIbhAvanI khAmI che, eTale bahu muzkelI naDe che. jenAmAM sarva jIve pratye maitrIbhAva hAya, te haiyAnA krUra koI pratye ya kema ja khanI zake ? mAre tA ya mAravAne Icche nahi ane mAryuM te game nahi, e sthiti tamArI che ? jema keAi vakhate cheAkareA peAtAnI mA sAme phariyAda karavA Ave, te tame zuM kahe ? mA che te mAre, paNa enA hetamAM khAmI hoya nahi, evuM evuM tame ene kahA ne ? tema, tamAre mATe paNa jo kAi mArI pAse pharayAda karatA Ave, te kahuM ne ke-mAre, paNa gabharA mA ! mAvaze ana pALaze e ! tamArUM haiyuM kevuM che, e jANI zakAya e mATe A badhI vAtA che. sa0 emAM peAtAnA AtmAnI yA paNa rahelI che. paNa, e haiyuM Aje mATe bhAge marI gayuM che. sukhI mANasA mahAraMbhI ane mahA parigrahI hoya e khane, paNa e sthitimAM hovA chatAM paNa jo emanuM haiyuM sArUM hoya, tA teo pApa kare, chatAM pApa rasathI te kare nahi.
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________________ pahelo bhAga 281 zrI zAlibhadrajInI mAtAnuM haiyuM kevuM hatuM, -ene pArakhavAne prayatna karyo che khare ? mahArAjA zreNike eka paNa ratnakaMbala kharIdI nahi ane zrI zAlibhadrajInI mAe sele ya ratnakaMbale kharIdI lIdhI, e prasaMga sAMbhaLe che ne? emAM, zrI zAlibhadrajInI mAtA bhadrA zeThANInA haiyAne pArakhavAno prayatna karyo che kharo ? banyuM che evuM ke-nepAladezathI keTalAka vANiyAe, nepAla dezamAM banelI mahA mUlyavAna ratnakaMbalene laIne, e ratnakalane vecavAne mATe, rAjagRhI nagarImAM AvI pahoMcyA. teo jANatA hatA ke-A vastu rAjabhagya che, eTale e ratnakambalene laIne teo, mahArAjA zreNikanI pAse gayA. teoe pitAnI pAsenI ratnakaMbale mahArAjA zreNikane batAvI ane e ratnakambalamAM rahelA guNone varNavatAM kahyuM ke-A ratnakambalo traNe ya RtuomAM sukha pUrvaka vAparI zakAya che. varSARtumAM, A ratnakambalanA taMtue, ekabIjAnI sAthe evA gADhapaNe maLI jAya che ke-varSAnuM pANuM ene bhedIne nIkaLI zakatuM nathI ane varSAnuM pANI jevuM AnA upara paDe che, ke tarata ja te nIce paDI jAya che. eTale, A kambala jeNe oDhI hoya, tenA zarIrane varasAdanuM pANI aDI zakatuM paNa nathI ane kambala paNa karI ne korI ja rahe che. A kambala ekalI paNa je zIyALAmAM eADhI hoya, to ya kSaNa mAtramAM zarIramAMthI parasevo chUTe che ane A kambala unAchAmAM oDhI hoya, te zarIre jANe candanane lepa karyo hoya evI zItalatAne pedA kare che. A kambala jyAre melI
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________________ 282 cAra gatinAM kAraNe thAya, tyAre tene jo agnimAM nAkhavAmAM Ave, te agnimAM nAkheluM seAnuM jema zuddha thaIne bahAra Ave che, tema A kambala paNa melarahita manI jAya che.' vepArioe A pramANe ratnakaskhalanA guNAne varNavyA, eTale mahArAjA zreNike ' ratnakaskhalanuM mUlya zuM che' te pUchyuM. vepArioe 'eka ekanuM mUlya savA savA lAkha rUpIA che ema kahyuM. ratnakaskhalanI evaDI meoTI kiMmata jANIne, mahArAjA zreNikane Azcarya thayuM. temaNe vepAriAnI sAthe jarA samajAvaTathI vAta karIne, peAtAne eka paNa ratnakambala kharIdavAnI IcchA nathI, ema jaNAvI dIdhuM. vepAriA tA meATI AzAe AvelA ane AmaNe to eka ratnakambala paNa kharIdI nahi, eTale vepAra khUba ja hatAza thaI gayA. emanAM meAMDhAM paDI gayAM. rAjAne nasIne teo nirAza vadane tyAMthI nIkaLyA ane peAtAnA utArA tarapha pAchA javA lAgyA. rastAmAM zrI zAlibhadrajInuM makAna AvatuM hatuM. bhadrA mAtA, peAtAnI dAsIonI sAthe, geAkhamAM beThelAM hatAM. pelA vepArie e rastethI pasAra thatA hatA. khinna vajrane tee paraspara vAta karatA hatA ke- AvA mATA nagaramAM paNa jo ApaNI A ratnakambaleA vecAI nahi, te pachI bIjuM AnAthI te mAruM kayuM nagara che, ke jayAM A ratnakambale vecAze ? A dezamAM jyAM zreNika jevA mahArAjAdhirAja paNa A ratnakambaleAne kharIdavAne mATe azakta che, tyAM A dezamAM khIjo tA kANu kharIdanAra hoya ?'
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________________ pahelA bhAga 283 bhadrA zeThANIe, gavAkSamAM beThe beThe, pelA vepArione svAna vadane jatA joyA ane temanI vacce thatI A vAta paNa sAMbhaLI. tarata ja, bhadrA zeThANIe peAtAnI eka dAsIne kahyuM ke- jaladI jA; ane pelA paradezI vahepAra jAya che, temane ahIM khelAvI lAva !' keAI ema na kahe ke-ratnakaeNmalavALA nirAza thaIne cAlyA jatA hoya, temAM Ane zI paMcAta ? paNa, bhadrA zeThANIthI, vepArIonAM mAMDhAM utarI gayelAM joyAM, te khamAyuM nahiM. zakti hAya tA, nirAza banI gayelAnI nirAzAne TALavAnI vRtti tamArAmAM che ? koI nirAza thaIne jatA hAya, temAM ApaNane lAge-vaLage zuM ?, ema ja che ne ? bIjAnA duHkhamAM ApaNane kAMI lAge-vaLage nahi ne ? bIjAnA du:khanI upekSA karate karate haiyuM dhIkkuM, niSThura khanI jAya che, e vAta jANA che ? bhadrA zeThANIe hukama karyAM, eTale tarata ja dAsI pelA vepAriAnI pAse pahoMcI gaI ane temane kahyuM- tamane mArAM zeThANI melAve che, mATe tyAM emane ghera cAle !' e vahepArie eTalA badhA nirAza thaI gayA hatA ke-tee ekadama AvatA nathI ane temAMnA eka je jarA vAcAla hatA, te kahe che ke- tArI zeThANI amane zuM kAma khelAve che ? ame tyAM AvIne karavAnA zuM chIe ? amArI pAse je vastue che, te vastuone kharIda karavAne mATe khUda rAjA paNa jyAM azakta che, tyAM tArI muThThI zeThANI zuM kharIda karI zakavAnI hatI ?' e vakhate, pelI dAsI kahe che ke- tamArA jevA tA
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________________ = = 284 cAra gatinAM kAraNe saMkhyAbaMdha vahepArio mArI zeThANInA AMgaNe AvyA che ane Ave che ane te badhA pitApitAnA bhAgyAnusAra lAbha laIne ja jAya che, paNa keI nirAza thaIne pAchA pharatA nathI ! tame keI navA vahepArI lAge che, kema ke-vyApAranI rItane paNa tame jANatA nathI. anekene mAla batAvIe, te emAMthI kaI kharIdanAra maLe, paNa keIne mAla batAvIe ja nahi, te kharIdanAra keNa maLe ? " AvuM koNa bole che? bhadrA zeThANInI dAsI. tamAre nekara bele AvuM? "mArA zeTha pAsethI keI nirAza thaIne te pAcho jAya ja nahi"--evuM tamAre nakara kahI zake, evuM tamAruM vartana che kharuM ? pelA vahepArio bhadrA zeThANInI pAse AvyA. zrI zAlibhadrajInA makAnamAM pesatAM ja, vahepArio makAnanI ronaka joIne aMjAI gayA. bhadrA zeThANIe badhA vyApArione Adara sahita besADyA ane "tame zuM lAvyA che?"--ema pUchayuM. vahepArioe kahyuM ke ame A dezamAM ratnakambale vecavAne AvyA chIe. amArI pAse kula sela ratnakambale che. bhadrA zeThANInA pUchavAthI vahepArioe e ratnakambalanA guNe paNa varNavI batAvyA ane darekanI kiMmata savA savA lAkha rUpIA che, ema paNa kahyuM. bhadrA zeThANI kahe che ke-"mAre 32 putravadhUo che, eTale darekane eka eka ApatAM paNa 32 joIe, jayAre tamArI pAse te 16 ja che. have zuM karavuM? khera, darekanA be kaTakA kare, eTale dareka putravadhUne eka eka kaTake ApI zakAya." A vAtane sAMbhaLIne, vahepArio cakita te thaI gayA
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________________ pahele bhAga 285 che, paNa sAthe zaMkita paNa thaI gayA che ane ethI temaNe te vakhate paisAne mATe jarA adhIratA paNa batAvI che; bhadrA zeThANI, e vAtane samajI gayAM che; chatAM paNa emaNe jarA ya gusse karyo nathI. tarata vIsa lAkha rUpIA apAvI dIdhA che. eka te, ratnakambalanI jara hatI evuM hatuM nahi; bIjuM, jeTalI joIe tenA karatAM aDadhI saMkhyAmAM ratnaka ala hatI, eTale vahuone TukaDA karIne ja ApavI paDe tema hatuM, ane vevArioe pisA maLaze ke nahi evI adhIraja batAvI. bhadrA zeThANI adhIrajane samajI gayAM, te chatAM paNa temaNe ratnakambalone nahi kharIdatAM, vahepArione ubhA karI dIdhA jevuM karyuM nahi! UlaTuM, tarata ja paisA apAvI dIdhA. e jagyAe tame he, te zuM kare ? sAmAyikAdi zA mATe ? ApaNo muddo te e hatuM ke-kaI khinna thaIne ja jovAmAM Ave, te te sukhithI khamAya nahi. zakti hoya te pelAnI khinnatAne TALe, nahi te AzvAsana Ape. keI khinna thAya, emAM e rAjI na hoya. AvuM haiyuM heya, te aparAdhine sajA kare-karAve, chatAM ene ene rasa na hoya. AvA haiyA vagara, durbhAva AvatAM vAra keTalI? ane, durbhAvamAM ramaNa karavAnI kuTeva paDI jAya, pachI kharAba AyuSya baMdhAtAM vAra keTalI ? sAmAyika, pauSadha, pratikamaNa, dAna, pUjA, tapa vagere kriyAo zA mATe karavAnI che? haiyuM kuNuM, zAnta, namra, zuddha bane, e mATe ne? tame jeTalI dharmakriyAo kare che, tenI tamArA haiyA upara zI asara
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________________ 286 cAra gatinAM kAraNe thAya che, e tapAso che kharA ? AraMbha ane parigrahamAM paDelAnI pAse reja "mitta je navamUhue vagere zA mATe belAvAya che? mAnasa mitrIyukta banyuM rahe, e mATe ne? kaI paNa jIva pratyenA maitrIbhAvamAM khAmI AvI javA pAmI heya, te te khAmI nIkaLI javA pAme, e mATe ne? kalyANakAmie ene vicAra karIne, nirNaya karavo joIe kemAruM mAnasa paMcendriya prANinA vadhathI, mahAraMbhathI ke mahA parigrahathI teSa pAme evuM nahi joIe. evA prasaMgomAM paNa, e badhuM tajavA jevuM ja che-ema lAgyA karavuM joIe. cakavatie cakravartipaNe mare te narake ja jAya: cakravartio gAdI upara ne gAdI upara mare, te narake ja jAya; kema ke-kharekharA mahA parigrahAdimAM beThelA che. cakravatione mATe te zAstra A vAta nizcita rUpamAM jaNAvI dIdhI che ke-cakravartio je antakAla paryanta akavartI tarIke ja rahe, to narake ja jAya. cakravatio je tyAgI bane, te ja svarga ke mekSe jAya, bAkI to narake ja jAya. cakravatio picendriyaprANivadha keTale kare? emane parigraha kevo maTe? enA rAjayamAM mahAre keTalA ? e badhuM chatAM, e je tyAgI banI zake, te narake na ja jAya ane na ja cheDI zake, te narake gayA vinA rahe nahi. sa0 zrI bharata cakravartI cakravartipaNamAM ja kevalajJAna pAmyA ne ? "vadha, AraMbha, parigraha Adi heya ja che"--ema te, e, pahelethI mAnatA ja hatA ane jyAM bhAvanArUDha thayA, eTale pariNAma keTalA badhA uMcA thaI gayA? haiyAmAMthI
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________________ pahelA bhAga 287 AraMbhAdi nIkLI gayA vinA, e pariNAme Ave nahi. zukaladhyAnArDha banyA pachI ja vItarAgapaNAnI ane te pachI kevalajJAnanI prApti thAya che. tyAre virati AvI gaI ke ? eTale cakravartio jo tyAgI manI jAya, te svarge agara mAkSe jaI zake, bAkI tA narake ja jAya. vAsudeva ane prativAsudeva tA, tyAgI banI zake ja nahi. e te badhA narake ja jAya. niyANAnuM evuM anyana laIne e Ave che kevAsudeva ane prativAsudeva thAya, paNa marIne te narake ja jAya. Ama te e jIvo uMcA hoya che, paNa e bhavamAMthI marIne e narake ja jAya, evI emanI karmasthiti hoya che. khaladevo paN dIkSita thaI svarge agara mAkSe jAya. e sivAya paNa ghaNA rAjA-mahArAjAo thayA che; teo ya mahA parigrahI ja hatA; paNa e badhA narake ja gayA che evuM nathI. emAMnA svarga paNa gayA che. kema ? mahA parigrahI hovA chatAM paNu, haiyuM sArUM hatuM ! mahA parigrahI hovA chatAM paNa, emane emanA mahA parigrahanA evo rasa nahi hAya, mATe ja teo narakathI bacI zakayA haze ne ? tamArI pAse evo tA mahA parigraha nathI, paNa tamArAmAM rigrahanA rasa keTalA che ? sAmeA AjJAbhaMjaka banI javA pAme nahi ?-tenI kALajI AjJA karanAre rAkhavI joie : Aje tamane mahA parigrahanA ghAra pApathI khacAvavA hAya, tA zuM karavuM joIe ? tamane Aje huM ema kahI dauM ketame jarUra pUratuM rAkhIne bAkInuM badhuM mUkI do !' tA
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________________ 288 cAra gatinAM kAraNe tame mUkI devAnA kharA ? evuM kahIne paNa tamane mahA parigrahanA pApamAMthI bacAvI zakAya, evuM tamAruM haiyuM che kharuM? tyAre, ame tamArI dayAthI, tamArA hita khAtara paNa evI AjJA na karIe, te sAruM che ne ? ame samajIe chIe ke-ApaNe atyAre kahI daIe te paNa, A loko ema choDI de evA haiyAvALA nathI, mATe ja ame jhaTa choDavAnuM nathI kahetA. ame tamane parigrahAdithI choDavavAne Atura ghaNuM amArA saMsargamAM je kaI Ave, te sArA ya saMsArane tajI de, te ethI ame bahu rAjI thaI e; tema chatAM paNa, ame tamane ekadama cheDI devAnuM kema kahetA nathI? ame tamane evI AjJA karI besIe ne tame tajI zake nahi, te zuM thAya? tyAre ame evI AjJA nathI karatA, te sAruM che ne? AmAM te bole. tajavAnI taiyArI na hoya, te AmAM "hA" kahevI joIe ne? saema kahevAya ? kahevAya. khUda bhagavAne paNa keIne ema nathI kahyuM ketame pahelAM mahA parigrahAdine tajI ja de ane pachI dharma levAne Avaje. dharma joIe to, mahA parigrahAdi tajavA jevA ja che, ema jarUra lAgavuM joIe. mahA parigrahAdi tajavA jevA che-e upadeza apAya; e sAMbhaLIne kaI tarata badhAne tajavAne taiyAra thaI jAya te sArUM; paNa je tajavAne taiyAra thAya nahi, tene "hamaNAM ja tajI de" evI AjJA na thAya. tame amane kahI zako che ke ame Aje evI sthitimAM chIe, karmane evA AdhIna chIe ke-A badhuM choDavA jevuM che ema jarUra lAge che ane choDavuM paDaze e
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________________ pahelo bhAga - 289 vAta paNa nakkI che, chatAM ya Aje cheDI zakIe tema nathI ane AjJAbhaMjananuM pApa amAre levuM nathI. ApanI AjJA pALavAnA keDa gaLA sudhI che, paNa sthiti evI nathI keApa Aje cheDavAnuM kahI de, eTale ame cheDI zakIe; eTale, Apa kadAca AjJA karI beso ane amArAthI na bane, te eka to ame A pApamAM beThA chIe ane emAM pAchA AjJAbhaMjaka banIe; pachI amArI gati zI thAya?" AvuM tame e kaI avasara AvI lAge, te jarUrI vinayathI kahI zako che. AjJA karanAre sAme AjJAbhaMjaka na thAya, tenI bahu ja kALajI rAkhavI joIe. AjJA karanAra upara, zAe bahu javAbadArI mUkI che. AjJA karanAre kene, kevI rItie, kevA saMgamAM, kevI AjJA karavI joIe-e vagerenAM varNane vAMcatAM paNa ema thAya ke-sarvajJa sivAya AvuM koI batAvI zake nahi! upadeza uMcAmAM uMce apAya, paNa AjJA te yogyane, yegya kALe,cogya rItie ja thAya. tamane dAnane upadeza ApatAM, tamane badhAnuM dAna daI devAnuM mana thaI jAya, e ullAsa tamArA haiyAmAM pragaTI jAya, e mATe ame amArAthI banatI badhI mahenata karIe; paNa tame je amArA hAthamAM kAgaLa -penasIla ApI de ane ema kahI do ke-"Apane yogya lAge te rakama Apa mArA nAme lakhI do, te rakama huM ApI ja daIza." te amAre AMkaDe sUcavatAM, lAkha vicAra karavA paDe. tamane vAraMvAra pUchIne, tamArI ekalI dhanAdikanI sthiti ja jANavI paDe ema nahi, paNa tamArI bhAvanA paNa jANavI paDe. jo ke Avo prasaMga bane tyAM sudhI ame AvavA daIe nahi ane tame paNa prAyaH A bAbatamAM Avo 19
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________________ 290 cAra gatinAM kAraNe vizvAsa mUkI de, e muzkela che, paraMtu tame je vizvAsa mUkI ja de ane emAM amAre kAMIka karavuM ja paDe-evA saMge AvI lAgyA hoya, te ame tamArA bhAvane jarA paNa hAni pahoMce nahi ane tamAre dAnane ullAsa caDhatA pariNAmavALe rahe, e mATe bahu kALajI rAkhIe. ame kema tamArI pAse balAtkAre ke dabANathI dAnAdi karAvIe nahi? athavA te, "amuka dAna kare"--evI AjJA, kema karIe nahi ? amane khabara che ke-karmanI AdhInatA, mananI nabaLAI athavA meha Adine aMge jIvo catuvidha zrIsaMghanI vacce ullAsathI lIdhela niyama paNa bhAMgI nAkhe che, to evA kAraNe amAre kahelo AMkaDo na mAne, te temAM navAI zI? jeNe jIvanamAM niyama laIne kaI paNa niyama kadI paNa na bhAMgyA hoya athavA to ene dUSite ya na karyo hoya, evA keTalAka zrI arihaMta bhagavAnanI sAkSIe, gurUnI sAkSIe, catuvidha zrIsaMghanI hAjarImAM athavA paMcanI rUbarUmAM karelI pratijJAomAM, keTalAne keTalA locA vaLI jAya che? jIMdagImAM jeNe jeTalA niyama lIdhA heya, teNe te badhA prANa sATe pALyA hoya ane tene dUSita na karyA hoya evA cheDA! tame zuM anubhava karyo che? tyAre ame sIdhI AjJA karI daIe ane tame nA pADI de, te? ema tame AjJAbhaMjaka bane, temAM ame paNa deSita banIe ne ? mATe, jJAnioe kahyuM ke-darekane ekadama AjJA thaI zake nahi. AjJA gyane ja thAya ane avasare gyane AjJA karatAM paNa, enI zakti,bhAvanA Adi jevuM paDe. enA saMgAdine paNa vicAra karavo paDe.
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________________ 291 pahele bhAga AvI manavRtti keLaH mATe huM tamane, atyAre ne atyAre badhuM choDI ja de, ema kahete nathI, ane ema kahuM chuM ke-kamathI kama haiyuM te jarUra pheravavuM paDaze. sAme game tevuM nukazAna kare, te paNa khamI khAtAM zIkhavuM paDaze. tamane, tamAre aparAdha karanAra pratye paNa, mA jevA haiyAvALA banAvavA paDaze ne? have tame nakara ane chokarA vacce bheda nahi pADo? nekarane ane chokarAne eka sarakhe gunha hoya, te bheda paDe ne? so bheda te paDe. chokarAne be dhela vadhAre mAre, ema? kema ke-enA upara mamatva che! tamAre hayAne sudhAravuM hoya, te khamI khAvAnI Teva pADavI paDaze. tame khamI khAvAnI Teva keTalI pADI che? tamAruM cAlatuM hoya ane tame sAmAne pAyamAla karI zake tema , te ya svabhAva ja evo ke khamI khAva, A bane? svabhAvamAM A vastu nathI, eTale tame khamI khAtA he to ya te bahArathI, paNa haiyAthI nahi ne ? tamArA haiyAne pUche ke-tame paMcendriya prANine je vadha nathI karatA, te saMga nathI, sAdhana nathI, zakti nathI, mATe vadhu nathI karatA ke vadha karavAnI vRtti ja nathI, mATe vadha nathI karatA? jenuM mana evuM hoya ke-"zuM karuM? mArI zakti nathI, nahi te ene ThIka karI nAkhuM!" AvA manavALe, vagara hiMsA karyo paNa, hiMsAnA pApathI lepAya. ene hiMsAno rasa bhAre kahevAya. e rasamAM je AyuSyane baMdha paDI jAya, te zI gati thAya? mATe, pahelAM manane te sudhArI ja lo ane te pachI "manane
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNA khagADanArA A parigrahanA saMyeAgA che'-ema vicArIne, jema ane tema, parigrahane ghaTADavA mAMDI. mahAraMbhanA rasamAM paNa parigrahanA lAbha, mAnAdikanI vRtti ane hiMsAnI upekSA Adi kAma kare che. mahAraMbhamAM paDelAne paNa thavuM joIe ke-'A mArA leAbha bahu bhayaMkara che! zAne mATe ATale adheA lAbha ? keTalA jIvonI hiMsA thAya, tyAre huM kamAuM ? AvuM dhana ne AvI kIrti nahi joIe !' AvI manevRtti keLavo, tA mahA parigraha ane mahArabha chUTe; sarvathA chUTe nahi tA, mahA nIkaLI jAya ne alpa anI jAya; ane ene rasa nahi hAvAthI, e vadhAre nukazAna karI zake nahi. saratAM ya vAsirAvI zakAya e mATe 292 6 Arabha ane parigrahanA jeene bahu rasa hoya che, te maratAM dekhItI rItie te badhuM ahIM mUkIne jAya che, paNa kharI rItie tA te maratAM ya mUkatA nathI ane aAbhAdine aMge sAthe laIne jAya che. manamAM mArUM dhana, mArUM dhAnya, mArUM makAna '* vagere vagere laI ne jAya che, paNa vosirAvIne nathI jatA. sAcA bhAve vosirAvyuM na heAya, te makAna Adi rahe ahIM ane e jAya khIje, paNa ahIM makAna AdimAM je jIvahiMsAdi thAya, tenuM pApa tene tyAM ya lAge. sa0 maratI vakhate vAsirAvI de tA ? tame dilathI vosirAvI devAnA ? A mArUM nathI ane huM AneA nathI '-evuM nakkI karIne javAnA ? Aja sudhI mArUM mAnyuM te bhUla karI, evI samaja laIne javAnA ? maratAM ya sAcA dilathI vosirAvI devAya te sArUM, paNa 6
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________________ pahele bhAga 293 maratAM sAcA dilathI vosirAvI zakAya, e mATe zuM karavuM paDe? manane keLavavuM joIe ne? ja dhyAna rahevuM joIe ne? "A pApanuM sAdhana che tajavA lAyaka che; rAkhavA lAyaka nathI; rAkhyA sivAya chUTako nahi hato, kema ke-saMsAramAM rahyo hato, mATe rAkhyuM hatuM"-AvA vicAre e vakhate Ave, e mATe ja abhyAsa karavo joIe ne? baMgalAmAM pisatAM, ema thAya che ke meM A pApanuM sAdhana khaDuM karyuM che? A sAdhanane meM sukhanuM sAdhana mAnyuM che, paNa A baMgale sukhanuM sAdhana thavuM ane te paNa puNyadaya hoya te, bAkI pApanuM sAdhana te ghaNuM! AnAthI sukha maLe te yA te ceDA kALane mATe ane AnA rAgAdinA ge je pApa baMdhAya, te pApa duHkha de ghaNe kALa!' e ema paNa vicAre kesuvAne huM eka oraDAmAM, chatAM badhA oraDAnuM pApa AvavAnuM mAre mAthe." AvA vicAre, koI vakhate ya Ave kharA? ane koI vakhate AvA vicAre nahi Ave, te ya tame maratI vakhate haiyAthI ene sirAvI zakaze, ema mAnI beThA che? haju te baMgalAmAM pesatAM zuM thAya che? ThIka baMdhAya che, paNa amuka ThekANe bArI mUkI hoya te sAruM ane amuka ThekANe bAraNuM mUkayuM hoya to sAruM! A rasa anubhavanArAo, maratI veLAe paNa sAcA dilathI sirAvI zake, e muzkela che. mUkIne jatA nathI, paNa haiye laIne jAya che! maratI vakhate keTalAkane te mamatvanuM jora UlaTuM vadhI jAya che. mUkIne javuM paDe, e eTaluM badhuM vasamuM lAge che
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________________ 294 cAra gatinAM kAraNe ke-enI manedazA e ja jANe. duniyA hayAne dekhatI nathI, mATe kahe che ke-mUkIne jAya che, paNa mamatvane dabAvI nahi zakanArAo te, badhuM haiyAmAM sAthe laIne ja jAya che. sirAvIne nahi javAmAM ane haiye laIne javAmAM, bahu nukazAna che. mamatvanA ge je nukazAna thatuM hoya te te thAya ja, paNa A zarIra ahIM ra-tene saMbaMdhio Adi saLagAve, temAM ya ene pApa lAge che ane enuM hADakuM rahI gayuM hoya ne te koIne vAge te enuM ya pApa ene lAge che, kAraNa ke-haiyAthI mUkyuM nathI. zarIra Adine te laI jaI zakyo nahi mATe laI gaye nathI, paNa zarIra Adine haiye rAkhIne gayo hoya, te zuM thAya? jema tame badhA paradezathI ahIM AvyA che, te tyAMnAM gharabAra-peDhI vagerene, mUkIne ja AvyA che ne ? dekhItI rItie to tame e badhAne cheDIne AvyA che, paNa haiye te e badhAne laIne ja AvyA che ne ? cAra dahADe kAgaLa Ave ja joIe, evI evI sUcanAo karIne AvyA che ne? ahIM beThAM beThAM tyAM kema haze, tyAM zuM thatuM haze, enI cintA kharI ne ? atyAre ahIMyAM nirAMte beThA che, paNa tyAM kAMIka saLagyuM evuM sAMbhaLe, te tamane zuM thAya? ahIM paNa haiyuM saLage ne? evAmAM je ema thaI jAya ke-"mAre javuM joIe te zuM kare? evA vakhate, cAle te mahArAja pAse bArI kaDhAve ane mahArAja bArI kADhI Ape nahi, te pite bAraNuM khelI nAkhe, evA keTalA? haiyAmAMthI eka vastune kADhI nAkhI na heya, te e zuM kAma kare che, te juo ! ane haiyAmAM bahu mamatva na hoya, te pAsenI vastu jAya, bagaDe, te ya bahu
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________________ pahele bhAga 295 lAge nahi ane jhaTa manane thAya ke-"paNa e mArI hatI ja kyAM? ene svabhAva e hato ane mAre saMbaMdha pUre thaye, eTale e gaI" AmAM keTalo taphAvata? jIvatAM jIvatAM sadgurUonA paricayamAM rahevA chatAM paNa A badhAne tajavAnI vRtti na Ave; AmAM je mArApaNAnI buddhi che tene dUra karavAnuM game nahi; rAta-divasa "mAruM, mAruM ja karatA rahevAya; te maratAM rIbAtI vakhate A badhAne sAcA dilathI sirAvavAnI vRtti kyAMthI Ave? keIne ya e vRtti karatAM na ja Ave-ema te na kahevAya, paNa jIvatAM jeNe manane keLavyuM nathI, tene e vRtti AvavI muzkela to kharI ne ? samaratI vakhate puNyaprakAzanuM stavana saMbhaLAvAya che ne ? e te eka rIta thaI paDI che. ethI paNa kadAca kaIne lAbha thaI jAya, eTale saMbhaLAvavAnI nA nathI; bAkI tame te e stavanane ya evI cheka chellI ghaDIe saMbhaLAve che kejyAre prAyaH maranAranI sAMbhaLavA, vicAravA ane vosirAvavA jevI sthiti rahI na hoya. evAM stavanAdine reja vAMcIne suI jatA he, te ? ja enA arthanuM ane emAM AvatI vAtonuM cintana karyuM hoya, to keTale badhe phera paDI jAya ? Aje te prAyaH evI hAlata che ke-kyAMkathI e stavanane avAja Ave, te kahe ke-"zuM thayuM ? koNa jAya che ?" kajIye thate sAMbhaLe, te na pUche. kahe ke- hoya e te!" ane AmAM pUche. kema? jANe anta ghaDI pUratI ja e vastu che! anta ghaDIe paNa je sAMbhaLavA ane saMbhaLAvavA lAyaka che, tenuM ja cintana karyuM hoya ane manane Teva pADI heya, te keTalo badhe phera paDe? maratI vakhate koI saMbhaLAvanAra
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________________ 296 cAra gatinAM kAraNe na hoya, to ya pite manathI duSkatanI nindA ane sukRtanI anumodanA karI zake, zaraNAne grahaNa karI zake ane sirAvavA gyane sirAvI zake; jyAre manane Teva pADI na hoya ane UlaTI Teva te paDelI ja hoya, to saMbhaLAvanAra maLe te ya kadAca lAbha thAya nahi. A badho pApane vA-vaMToLa cheH tamAre te, A badhAne haiyAmAM sAthe laIne javuM nathI ne? uMcAmAM uMcI keTinA, jenI jagatabharamAM je DI maLI zake nahi evA, deva-gurU-dharmane ApaNane ATaleM badhe saMbaMdha thaI gayo che, chatAM paNa ApaNe je ApaNA haiyAne sudhArI zakIe nahi ane maratAM maratAM ya A pApane haiyAmAMthI kADhI nAkhI zakIe nahi, te ApaNe kevAka haiyAnA dhaNI kahevAIe? AraMbha ane parigrahane sarvathA tyAga karI zakAya nahi, te ya haiyAmAM enI khaTakato pedA thaI ja javI joIe; ane jema jema AraMbha ane parigraha vadhAre hoya, tema tema khaTaka paNa vadhavI joIe. reja thavuM joIe ke- ATale labha? ATalI mamatA? mArI nAkhaze mane!" Ane rAga ekadama na chUTe, to ya e rAgane dhIme dhIme paNa mITAvavAnuM laya te rAkhavuM joIe ne? tamArI pAse bahu paisA hoya, tame moTA udyogapati che, te ethI ajJAna loka bhale tamane vakhANe, paNa tamArA haiyAmAMthI dhanAdikanI khumArI nIkaLI javI joIe. e badhe pApane vA-vaMToLa che, ema lAgavuM joIe. keI tamArAM vakhANa kare, tyAre tamane lAgavuM joIe ke-A sAmagrI mane bhUlAvanArI ane bhUMDI gatimAM ghasaDI jAya
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________________ 297 pahelA bhAga tevI che. rAja vicAravuM ke-mArI pAse dhana ghaNuM che, kema ke puNyanA yAga sArA che; paNa A che parigraha ane parigraha e pApasthAnaka che. jo huM AnA yAgamAM sAvaceta nahi rahuM, te mArA parigraha mane khAdhA vinA raheze nahi.' mahAraMbhamAM paDelAoe khyAla rAkhavA joI e ke--mArAM jeTalAM kArakhAnAM cAle che, te badhAM jIvAnI meATI katleAmanA namunA che; te A katleAma mane kayI katleAmanI sthitimAM mUkI deze?' kayAre AnAthI huM, ema thayA ja karavuM joIe. pleganI jema DaratA rahevAnu mana thAya ne ? tamane anubhava tA haze ke-plega vakhate leAko gAma ahAra jaIne khetImAM jhuMpaDAM bAMdhIne rahe che. e vakhate, e kevA sAvadha rahe che ? sutA sutAM paNa emane thAya che ke- gharamAMthI koI kAMi lUTI jaze teA nahi ne ? ' gAma khAlI thaI gayuM hoya, eTale cArAI javAnI khIka ghaNI rahe ane plega thavAnI bIka evI lAge ke-cArAi javAnI bIka ghaNI hAvA chatAM paNu, gharamAM rahI zakAya nahi ! evA vakhate mANasA rAtanA kAMIka khakhaDATa thAya ke tarata jhamakI uThe che. rAtanA jyAre jyAre jAgI jAya, tyAre tyAre temane ema thAya che ke-'gharamAM koI peThuM teA nahi hAya ne ? gharanuM tALuM koI e tAvu tA nahi hoya ne ?" AvA tA keTalA ya vicAra kare ane savAre jyAre khabara maLe ke-rAtamAM kAMI navAjunI thaI nathI, tyAre haiye zAnti vaLe. tema, Aje tame bhale khadhuM mUkI zako nahi, paNa A durgatinuM kAraNa che --e vicArathI, manamAM vasavase| tA rahyA kare ne ? DaratA
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________________ 298 cAra gatinAM kAraNe rahevAnuM mana thAya ne ? tamane ema thAya kharUM ke mArA vepAra Adi mane durgatimAM lai jaze ?" tamane kadI ema thAya che ke huM koNu ane A badhAnI sAthe mAre lAge-vaLage zuM? huM te AtmA; e vaLI, A badhI ALapaMpALamAM kema paDI rahyo chuM ? huM kevA paravaza chuM ke mane mArUM yAda AvatuM nathI ane pArakuM bhUlAtuM nathI!'? jyAMthI chUTIne AvyA tyAM pharI phasAvA javuM nathI ne? ahIM tame AvyA che, te nivRttimAM kevuM sukha che, enA anubhava karo che ? jene mUkIne AvyA che, te sUkavA jevuM ja che-ema mAnIne AvyA haze| ane haiyAmAMthI ene jeTale aMze kADhI nAkhyuM haze, teTale aMze tamane ahIM nivRttinA sukhanA anubhava thatA haze ne ? tyAMthI ahIM AvavAne nIkaLyA, tyAre karAne kahIne AvyA che ne ke- tAre mane ahIMnA kazA samAcAra ApavA nahi ! tane mana thaI jAya ne mane kAgaLa lakhe, teA tAre mane ema ja lakhavuM ke-'tyAM tame nivRttithI ArAdhanA karavA gayA che, mATe bhUle -cUke paNa tame amArI ke ghara AdinI cintA karaze nahi! tyAM javA chatAM paNa, jo tame amArI ja cintA karyAM karazeA, tA tamArI durgati thaze. ame emAM ADe AvI zakIzuM nahi ! ' ' kAgaLa lakhaze! nahi te cAlaze. paNa kAgaLa lakhA te AvuM lakhajo '-evuM kAMI kahIne AvyA che ? ke pachI ' rAja mane madhuM vigatavAra lakhaje 'ema kahIne AvyA che? AvyA tyAre je kahyuM hAya te tame jANA, paNa have te AraMbha ane parigrahathI chUTI javAnI IcchA che ne ? sAdhu
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________________ pahelo bhAga 299 na thavAya te ya, zrI siddhagirijInI chAyAmAM nivRtta jIvana gALavAnI IcchA thAya che kharI? tamArA vagara ghara-peDhI aTakI paDyAM che? tame calAve te ja e cAlavAnAM che? "chokarAenuM kAMI puNya ya nathI ke temanAmAM koI AvaDate ya nathI -ema mAne che? have te nakakI karavAnuM mana thAya che ne ke-jayAMthI chUTIne Avyo chuM, tyAM pharI phasAvAne javuM nathI!" tamane mana thaI jAya, to tame chokarAne lakhI zake che ke meM have pAchA AvavAnuM mAMDI vALyuM che. tuM tAre mane phakta eka lAkha rUpIA mekalI Apaje, jemAMthI huM ahIM khAIza, pIIza ane dharma karyA karIza." tame comAsuM uThaLe. sarvatyAgI banavAnA vicAramAM che te judI vAta che, paNa e bane tema na hoya, to A te banI zake ne? chokarAne lakhI devuM ke- have huM tAre bApa nahi ane tuM mAre dIkare nahi, e nirmamabhAva mAre keLavavo che. A te lakSAdhipatiene mATenI vAta karI, eTale lAkha rUpIA kahyA; paNa sAmAnya sukhI sthitivALAe pitAnI sthiti mujabanI goThavaNa karI le ane nivRtta banIne thAya teTalo dharma kara che-evo nirNaya karI le, te temane ya vAMdho na Ave. jeo AvuM karI zake evA sAdhanasampanna che, teo vicAra kare ke-jIva ! tane AvuM karavAnuM mana thAya che? ahIM Ave te DAhyA thaIne AvaH durgatimAM nathI jAvuM ne? ahIMthI marIne sadgatimAM ja javAnI IcchA che ne? jema bane tema vahelA saMsArathI chUTIe. ane mekSane pAmIe, evuM manamAM AvI gayuM che ne? tame
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________________ :300 cAra gatinAM kAraNo je AraMbha-parigrahAdine ekadama cheDI zake, te enA jevuM khUzI thavA jevuM bIjuM zuM che? paNa tamArAthI e ema chUTI zake tema na hoya, te ya dhIme dhIme chUTe ane rahe tyAM sudhI ya bahu nukazAnakAraka bane nahi, evA rastAo ghaNA che. comAsuM uThaze ahIM AvavAnuM (sAdhu thavAnuM) mana thaI gayuM che ane je ahI AvavAnA ja ho, te DAhyA thaIne Avaje. ahIM Ave te manamAM zeThAI rAkhIne Avaze nahi; dhanavAna tarIkenI khumArI laIne Avaze nahi; agara "huM maTe chuM -evI samaja laIne paNa Avaze nahi. ahIM AvanAre, ahIM AvatAM pUrve game te zeTha heya, mAna-mobhAvALo hoya, dhanavAna hoya ke uMmara lAyaka hoya, paNa teNe samajI ja levuM joIe ke ahIM te mAre Aje ja janma thAya che, eTale ahIM sauthI nAne huM chuM ane bIjA badhA mArAthI meTA che, mATe, mAre koInI ya pAse mAruM manAvavAno prayatna karavAne nahi ane mAre saunuM mAna jALavAnuM !" amAre, bALakane levAno hoya te, bahu bhAMjagaDa karavI paDe nahi; amuka jarUrI gyatA joI laIe eTale cAle; jyAre ummare pahoMcelAone letAM te, amAre temane bahu tapAsavA paDe. parIkSA badhAnI karavAnI, paNa parIkSAnI rIta-rItamAM phera heya ne ? sAdhu na thavAya te alpAraMbhavALA ane alpa parigrahavALA banI jAva! atyAre tamAre AvI meTI phALa bharavAno nirNaya hoya tema te jaNAtuM nathI, tyAre jeo hamaNAM sarvatyAgI banI
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________________ pahele bhAga 301: zake tema na hoya, temaNe zuM karavuM joIe ? alpAraMbhavALA ane a5 parigrahavALA banI javuM joIe. gRhasthapaNe jIvavAne mATe je AraMbhane karyA vinA chUTake na hoya, te sivAyanA AraMbhane tyAga ane gRhasthapaNAmAM rahIne sukhe jIvAya tathA sukhe dharma thaI zake e mATe jarUrI je dhanadhAnyAdi parigraha, e sivAyanA parigrahane tyAga. AvuM karanArane paMcendriya prANinA vadhathI bacavAne mATe to kaI janA karavI paDe nahi ne ? ATale duHkhI na hoya ane jenA gharamAM saMcAlaka pAkI gayA, teo je A nirNaya karI le, to evuM nivRtta ane mukhyatve dharmaparAyaNa jIvana gALavAne mATe A bhUmi jevI keI bIjI bhUmi nathI. mane AvuM sundara banI gayuM hoya ane zrI siddhagirijInI chAyA maLI jAya, pachI kamInA zI rahe? jeo sAdhanasaMpanna hoya ane jemane ghare ghara vagerene saMbhALI zake tevA chekarAo haya, teo comAsuM utaryuM zuM kAma ahIMthI pAchA jAya? pachI, chokarA vagerenI sAthe potAnA tarIkeno kaze ja saMbaMdha rAkhavo nahi. jarUrI je parigraha rAkhyo hoya, te sivAyanA parigrahane ane saMsAranA badhA saMbaMdhane vosirAvI devA. dharma agenA saMbaMdha sivAyanA saMbaMdhane tajI dIdho heya, te vAMdho Ave ? chokarAne lakhI devuM ke-"mAre jeTalI jarUra hatI, eTalA maMgAvI lIdhA che. have gharamAM ke peDhImAM game te thAya, tenI sAthe mAre kazI ja levAdevA nathI. mArI IcchA te tame paNa badhA pApathI chUTe evI che, paNa tame kadAca na chUTe, to ya have. mane saMbaMdhamAM rAkhIne, mane pApane bhAgIdAra banAvaze nahi! ApaNe saMsArane saMbadha have pUro thayo che, ema mAnI lakhI devuM ane tajI dIdhI che. dha
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________________ 302 cAra gatinAM kAraNe leje." AvuM lakhavuM ane te barAbara pALavuM. ahIM paNa upAdhimAM paDavuM nahi. rAkhelI muDInuM vyAja upajAvavA javuM -nahi. muDImAMthI ja khAvuM ane maratAM paNa vadhAre nANAMnI jarUra paDe nahi, evI rItie vartavuM. Ama chatAM paNa, karo je vadhAre nANAM mekale, te te sArA mArge vAparavAM, paNa sArA mArge vAparavAne mATe ya navAM nANAM maMgAvavAM nahi, kema ke-sirAvI dIdhela che. AvuM karaze te chokarAo tamane gAMDA nahi kahe, paNa A utsava ujavazeH tame AvuM kare, to te tamArA chokarAone paNa game ne? pitAjIe bahu sAruM karyuM, ema thAya ne? sa, keIeme ya kahe ke bApA gAMDA thaI gayA che. AvuM kare, temAM ya tamAre sage cheka tamane gAMDA kahe? ane, evA chekarAnA bApa kahevaDAvavAmAM, tamane rasa che? chokarA game tevA hoya, paNa emane tame A rItie badhuM seMpI detA ho, te evI svatantratA maLe, e kone game nahi ? keNa jANe, kadAca tame haju ya peDhIe bese, te ja chokarAne nahi gamatuM hoya. 'Dose vagara maphatane vacce Ave che"--ema paNa thatuM haze. chekarA zuM kaheze, tenI cintA kare nahi. jene ghera saMcAlaka haya, jenI pise-Take jotAM sukhI sthiti hoya ane Ama ahIM nivRtta jIvana gALavAnuM jene mana thaI gayuM hoya, evA kaNa kaNa che, e te kahe ! kharI vAta to e che ke-ghara, peDhI vagere kema cAle che, e joyA vinA, tamane ja cena paDe nahi ne? A te kAMI
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________________ pahelA bhAga nathI, paNa kadAca tamane kAI e pUrI rAkhyA hoya, tA ya chevaTa varSemAM eka divasanI ghera javAnI chUTa paNa, mAgyA vinA tame raheA kharA ? jAya eka di' tA paNa pApa mAMdhI Ave prAyaH AkhA varSanuM ! jeTaluM jovAya eTaluM badhuM joI levAnA prayatna kare ane chekarA AraMbha tathA parigrahamAM vacceA hoya, te khUza khUza thaI jAya. eNe rahevAnA jaMgale dekhAvaDA madhyeA hoya, teA enI anumeAdanA karI Ave. jo kAMIka bagaDayuM hoya, teA gusse thayA vinA rahe nahi. tema ja, te vakhate rahI zakAya tema hoya, teA pAchA rahevAnuM ya sana thaI jAya ! AvI maneAdazAmAM, AvuM kAMI bane ? maneAdazAne ekadama palaTAvI devI joIe. chekarAne eTalI hada sudhI lakhI devuM ke mane dharmakAraNa sivAya kAgaLa lakhatA mA, kema ke-meM badhA saMbaMdhAne vAsirAvI dIdhA che. ATalI ApaNI muDI che. temAMthI huM ATaluM mAre mATe lauM chuM ane bAkInuM badhuM tane soMpI dauM chuM.' e pachI, tamane, keAI TIpamAM bharavAne mATe dakhANuM nahi kare ane tame kahI zakaze ke-- sAdhu thavAya tema nathI ane zrAvakathI bhIkha magAya nahi. sukhI tarIke amuka rItie rahevuM paDe che. temAM ATalA hAthamAM che ane ATalA chokarA meAkale che, eTale huM vadhAre ApI zakuM tema nathI.' A jANIne, TIpa bharAvavA AvelA ya, tamArI kAravAInI anumeAdanA karIne jaze. chekarA te, tame AvuM kare tA, utsava ujave, ene svatantratA maLe, lAka 'AnA mApa bahu sArA '-ema kahe ane ' e bApane A chekaro dharma karAve che'-ema paNa kahe, eTale kadAca ene sArA bhAva jAgI jAya, to e nakkI karelA karatAM 303
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________________ 304 cAra gatinAM kAraNe paNa vadhAre paisA mekale ane uparathI ema lakhe ke-Apa nirAMte dharma karaje ane jyAM kharcavAnuM mana thAya tyAM chUTathI kharcane !" mATe, tame chokarAo ADe Avaze, evI vAta karaze ja nahi. tame tamArA manamAMthI mamatAne kADhI nAkhe, pachI juo ke-kevo raMga jAme che !? 5-25 sukhI mANase je ahIM rahI jAya ne dekharekha rAkhavA mAMDe te ahIMnI renaka pharI jAyaH paMcendriya-prANivadha, bahu AraMbha ane bahu parigrahane saMgamAMthI chUTavuM hoya te, tamArA jevAne mATe sAdhu na thaI zakAya to ya, A suMdaramAM suMdara upAya che. Avo nirNaya kare, eTale tamAre mATe narakanAM kAraNe khacIta baMdha thaI jAya. ahIM beThelAomAM evA sukhI mANase paNa che, ke jemanA chokarA, ghara-peDhI vagere barAbara calAve tema che ane temAM AmanI temane kazI ja jarUra nathI. kadAca DI-ghaNI jarUra hoya, te ya tene chokarAo tamArI uMcI bhAvanAne ane daDhatAne joIne nIbhAvI leze. paNa vAta e che ketamane AvuM karavAnuM mana thAya che ? tamArA jevA pa-25 zeThIyAo je A rItie ahIM rahI jAya ane dharmakiyAe karavI tathA dharmanAM khAtAMone saMbhALavAM, e kAma laIne besI jAya, te dareka dharmanAtAM taratAM banI jAya. zrI siddhagirijIne vahivaTa vagere paNa khUba sArA banI jAya. AvA. zeThIyAe je yAtrA karIne AvyA pachI peDhI upara jaIne besatA hoya, te munIma vagere badhA samajI jAya ke-have gAdIe ghaNI beThA che. gAdIe roja dhaNa besatA heya
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________________ 30-5 pahele bhAga ane badhe sIdhI dekharekha rAkhatA hoya, te pachI vahivaTa evo banI jAya ke-zrI jinamandirane ane dhArmika khAtAMene vahivaTa kema thAya, e zIkhavAne mATe judAM judAM sthAnonA vahivaTadArane ahIM AvIne, ahIMne vahivaTa joI javAnuM mana thAya. Aje keTalAkonI phariyAda che ke-ThekANe ThekANe nigada thaI jAya che, paNa peDhIne je AvA gRhastha dekharekha rAkhavAne maLI jAya, te prAyaH kyAM ya phariyAda karavAnuM kAraNa rahevA pAme nahi. AvA sukhI mANaso ahIM rahIne Ama ArAdhanA karatA hoya ane dekharekha rAkhatA heya, te bIjA yAtrAe AvanArA sukhI mANasa pAse teo ghaNuM kAma karAvI zake. koI paNa sukhI mANasane, A kahe ke ahIM pAMca hajAranI jarUra che. te prAyaH koI nA pADe nahi. UlaTuM, uparathI kahe ke-"vadhAre kharca thAya, to tenI ciMtA karaze nahi." ane ema joIe te karatAM paNa vadhAre rakame maLI rahe. kema? saune khAtrI hoya ke-eka pAI paNa bagaDavAnI nathI. durUpayega thaze agara te geravalle jaze, evI zaMkA ya Ave nahi ane ema thAya ke-jeTalAM nANAM AmanA hAthamAM seMpIzuM, teTalAM nANAM barAbara lekhe lAgaze. je AvA 5-25 gRhastho nIkaLI Ave, to pAMca varSamAM te zrI siddhagirijInI ronaka pharI jAya. ahIM rahevAno nirNaya karatAM, tame tIrthayAtrAdi dharmahetuthI bahAra javAnI chUTa rAkhI zako che. kadAca zarIranI bImArInA kAraNe samAdhi Take tema na hoya ane DokaTara AdinI salAhathI upacArAdine mATe atra javAnI jarUra lAge, te tema karavAnI chUTa paNa rAkhI zako che. jo ke-ApaNe tyAM te manAyuM che ke-chellI jIdagI 20
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________________ 306 cAra gatinAM kAraNA ahIM gALavI joie. ahI havA-pANI sArAM che ne ? ahI tA havA ya zrI siddhagirijIne sparzIne AvavAnI ne ? ahIM te mANasane ema thAya ke zarIra chUTavAnuM teA cheja, paNa te ahIM chUTe te sArUM !' chatAM, mAMdagI mATe chUTa rAkhavI hoya, te tame jANA, ahIM koI bhAre upadravane vakhata AvI lAge ane kAmacalAu javuM paDe, te tenI ya chUTa rAkhI zako che. A badhI chUTonI vAta judI che, paNa ahIM rahevAnA nirNaya evA prakAre karavo joIe ke-bIjI koI paMcAta khIlakula rAkhavI ja nahi. zake ane haiyuM phare tA sukhI mANasA A sahelAithI karI A karavAmAM bIjAone ghaNI muzkelIo naDe : sukhI mANasA jo AvI rItie ahIM rahI javA mAMDe, teA khIjA paNa ghaNA jIvA sudharI jAya. bIjA sukhI jainone tame eka sundara Adarza pUrA pADI zakeA. tamane joIne sukhI mANasAne mahAraMbha ane mahA parigrahAdine cheDavAnuM mana thAya ane sAdhAraNa tathA garIba sthitinA jaino, je parigrahAdinI IcchAthI rIkhAtA hoya, te saMtASI banI jAya. tamane joIne prAyaH saune ema thAya ke- A bhAgyazAlie mahu jakharA.' sAdhu maLe ne emane joine jema AnaMda thAya, tema tamane joIne paNa ghaNA moTA sAdharmika tarIke tamane hAtha joDe ane tamArI anumedanA kare. pachI, tamArA A maMgalAe paNa dharmasthAna jevA khanI jAya, tamArA mahAraMbha ane mahA parigrahAdinI anumedanAdi karIne teA ghaNAe pApa bAMdhyuM haze; tame e rItie paNa
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________________ 307 pahelA bhAga ghaNAonA pApaodhamAM nimitta anyA haze; paNa A karaze, te tamArI anumeinAdi karIne paNa ghaNAe azubha karmone khapAvanArA tathA zubha karmone bAMdhanArA manaze. paMcendriya prANi--vadhAdi narakanA AyuSyanAM kAraNeAne tajavAnA, A paNa eka bahu ja sAro upAya che. sAdhu banI zakAya tema na hoya ane narakanAM kAraNeAthI para banI javuM hoya, teA A sArAmAM sAro upAya che ne ? haiyAmAM saMtASa pragaTI jAya ane AtmAnuM kalyANa sAdhavAnI IcchA prakhaLa khanI jAya, te sukhI jIveAne mATe A bahu saheluM che. sukhI jIvA dhAre tA, badhAne tajIne ane jarUrI sAdhanAne laIne, ahIM rahevAnA nirNaya jhaTa karI zake. emane A rItie paMcendriya--prANi-vadhAdi narakanAM kAraNeAthI bacavuM hoya, te te ghaNuM saheluM che. bIjA mANasAne tA, AvuM karavAnuM mana thaI jAya te ya, teo kare zuM ? ane teA, peAtAne jIvavAne ane kuTuMbane jIvADavA Adine mATe kamANI karyA vinA cAle nahi ane ethI ene kamANI jyAM maLe tyAM javuM paDe ne? sa0 jJAnagarbhita vairAgya paNa sukhI mANasane ja thaI zakene? khare| jJAnagarbhita vairAgya teA mahAjJAnIne thAya ane aupacArika jJAnagarbhita vairAgya sukhI mANasane paNa thaI zake ane duHkhI mANasane paNa thaI zake. jene AtmAnuM bhAna thAya ane rAgAdithI AtmAnA hitamAM thatI hAninA khyAla Ave, ane ethI je gItArtha jJAninI nizrAne svIkAre, tene paNa aupacArika jJAnagarbhita vairAgya thAya. ahIM te, vAta e cAle che ke-sAdhAraNa sthitivALA mANu sAne nivRtti laine gRhasthapaNe dharmaparAyaNa banavAnI game
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________________ 308 cAra gatinAM kAraNeA teTalI IcchA hoya, te paNa emane muzkelIe ghaNI che; jyAre mANasa sukhI hAya tA, enuM mana sudharyuM, eTale ene khIjI kazI cintA nahi ne ? pelAne game teTaluM mana thAya, paNa kudrummAdine kathAM mUkI Ave ? pAMjarApoLe mUkavA jAya ? pAMjarApALe mUkavAnA vicAra kare, teA ya mANasanI pAMjarApeALa che ? kuTumbI jAne ema rakhaDatAM mUkI de, ethI ene dharma zAbhe paNa nahi. ema karavAthI tA, lAkane dharmanI nindAnuM eka kAraNa maLe. sAmAnya sthitivALAne pAchaLanA saMyAgAnA bahu vicAra karavA paDe. ema ne ema mUkIne bhAgI Ave, tA lAka ema kahe ke- gAMDA che ke badhAMne mUkIne cAlyA gayeA !' jyAre sukhI AvuM kare, tA lagabhaga sau koI enI anumedanA kare. koi ema na kahe ke-tAkAta naheAtI, tethI tyAM jaIne besI gayA ! sukhI mATe, pAchaLanA koI bhUkhe mare-evI sthiti nathI hotI ne ? sukhI mANasAne teA, A vAtamAM kAM te| hA pADavI paDe ane kAM te ema hevuM paDe ke hajI haiye saMteASa pragaTatA nathI; ahIM rahevAmAM samAdhi Ave tema nathI, kema ke-mamatA ghaTatI nathI !' sukhI mANasane moTAmAM moTuM kAI naDatara hoya, teA te enA mananuM che; bAkI jo ene ema thaI jAya ke-mAre paMcendriyaprANivadha Adi kAraNeAthI khacI ja javuM che, te peAtAnI e icchAnA amala, e jhaTa karI zake tema che. sukhI mANasAe, A kALamAM te khAtrI rAkhavA jevI che ke-tame AvA nirNaya karA, temAM tamArA gharanA saMcAlaka Adi prAya: mahuM rAjI thAya. kadAca dekhAvamAM nA pADaze, paNa aMdarathI zAMtinA zeraDA vaLaze. eka kALa evA hatA.
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________________ 309 pahelA bhAga ke-pitAnI caraNasevAmAM rahevAne icchatA cheAkarAo hatA. A kALamAM, evI AzA rAkhavI e vadhAre paDatuM che ne ? tamArA cheArA tamArI cAkarI keTalIka kare che, tene tamane te anubhava che ne ? mATe, khIjI madhI vAteAne javA daine, sukhI mANasAe peAtAnA haiyAne tapAsavAnI jarUra che kemane AmAM utsAha AvatA nathI, temAM kharUM kAraNa zuM che? emane lAgaze ke-khAmI amArA haiyAnI ja che. e kAraNe sevAya teA ya rasa na AvI jAya, tenI takedArI rAkhavI joie H Aje tA, ghaNe bhAge mana evuM che ke-keAI khelAve nahi te ya javAnuM mana thayA vinA rahe nahi. manamAM Aje ghaNI bhUtAvaLa pesI gai che. narakanuM kAraNa paNa sukhanuM kAraNa lAgyA kare, te e kAMI jevI-tevI bhUtAvaLa che ? pachI, antakAle ya samAdhi Ave zI rItie ? dilathI vAsirAvI zakAya zI rItie ? A to jANe sukhI mANasAne mATenI eka viziSTa vAta thaI. Aje evI nivRtti na laI zake, tA ya manane te sudhAravuM ja paDaze. duHkhathI tathA durgatithI acavuM che-e vAta jema tamAre mana nakkI che, tema jJAni kramAve che ke--e vAte ya nakkI ja che ke-manane sudhAryA vinA, duHkhathI ne durgatithI bacI zakAze ja nahi. duHkhathI ane durgatithI bacavAnA, sauthI sArA upAya, e che ke-dukhanAM tathA durgatinAM kAraNeAne sarvathA tajI devAM; paNa e na khanI zake, te jeTalA pramANamAM e kAraNeAne tajI zakAya, teTalA pramANamAM e kAraNeAne tajavAM ane je kAraNeAne hAla tajI
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________________ E 310 cAra gatinAM kAraNo zakAya tema na hoya, te kAraNene paNa rasathI sevavAM nahi. "kyAre AnAthI chUTAya?" e vicAra karyA kare. e kAraNene sevavAM paDe, eTale vicAravuM ke-"huM keTaluM badhuM mUrto chuM? mAre duHkha ne durgati nathI joItAM ane huM je kAraNone evuM chuM, te duHkhane ane durgatine ApanArAM che; pachI, AnAthI mArI zI sthiti thaze? A vicAranA yoge, e kAraNane sevAze te ya, haiyuM kamakamyA karaze. viSayasukhane rasa ane kaSAyamAM Ananda anubhavavAnI kuTeva, e eTalI badhI bhayaMkara vastuo che ke-ApaNane sArAmAM sArI sAmagrI maLI hoya, to ya ApaNe e sAmagrIne je lAbha uThAva joIe; te lAbhane uThAvI zakIe nahi; eTaluM ja nahi, paNa e sAmagrInI kadAca upekSA ya sevAya ane avagaNanA ya thAya. phakta duHkhathI Dare ane duHkhathI DaratA ho eTale phakta durgatithI Dare, paNa e Darane zuM artha che? enAM kAraNethI bacavuM joIe ne? ane, e kAraNathI bacavAne mATe, chevaTa kAMI nahi to, e kAraNone sevavAmAM rasa na AvI jAya, eTalI takedArI te rAkhavI ja joIe ne? niranugrahatA, e ya naranuM kAraNa narakanA AyuSyane Azrava thavAnAM kAraNomAM cothuM kAraNa niranugrahatA che. niranugrahatA eTale anugrahathI rahitapaNuM. pitAnA upara agara te keInA ya upara upakAra karavAnI vRttine abhAva, e niranugrahatA che. jenAmAM niranugrahatA hoya, tene keInuM paNa bhaluM karavAnuM mana thAya ja nahi. dayAhInatA, niSpharatA vagere doSo niranugrahatAnA gharanA ja che.
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________________ pahele bhAga 311 dayA heya, te anugraha karavAnuM mana thayA vinA rahe nahi, eTale, jenAmAM niranugrahatA hoya, tenAmAM dayA, kRpA, sAmAnA bhalAnI bhAvanA-e vagere vRttio pragaTe ja nahi. enuM haiyuM bahu kaThera hoya. narakanAM kAraNemAM pahelI vAta te haiyAnI niSpharatAnI ja che. keTaleka sthale narakanAM kAraNene TUMkamAM darzAvatAM, mahAraMbha ane mahA parigrahane jaNAvela che ane emAM paMcendriya-prANivadha, niranugrahatA Adi AvI jAya che. jemAM jIvanI hiMsA cAlu ja thayA kare, evA AraMbhe jene rasa hoya ane dhana-dhAnyAdi parigrahamAM jenI atizaya Asakti hoya, te taka maLe te, paMcendriya prANione vadha karatAM ya, zAne acakAya? enuM haiyuM kaThora ja heya ne? kaI jIvane potAnA kAraNe trAsa thAya, ethI enuM haiyuM kape nahi ane kadAca AnaMda anubhave ! keTalAka evA che ke-jene kaI jIva tarapha anugrahabuddhi ja hotI nathI. bIjAne sajA vagere karavAne taiyAra hoya, paNa bIjA upara anugraha karavAne prasaMga Ave, tyAre haiyuM kuNuM hoya nahi ane ethI enAmAM anugrahabuddhi Ave nahi. kaI paNa vyakti pratye, haiyuM evuM nahi thavuM joIe ke-anugrahanA kALamAM, ApaNe anugraha karI zakIe nahi. evA aneka prasaMgo Ave che ke-yuddhamAM utaravuM paDyuM hoya ane temAM pite ghAthI maraNatela banI gayA hoya; evA vakhate jyAM ema lAge ke-have bacAya tema nathI, eTale jhaTa tyAMthI khasI jAya, ghAsane saMthAre karIne sarvanI sAthe kSamApanA karI le, badhuM sirAvI de ane anazanane AdarIne dhyAnamAM lIna banI jAya. thoDI vAra pahelAM te, jeTalI zakti ane sAmagrI hoya, te mujaba zatruo upara
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________________ 312 cAra gatinAM kAraNe prahAra karatA hoya ane jyAM pitAnuM zarIra vIMdhAya ane lAge ke-ApaNe bacazuM nahi, eTale Ama antakAlIna ArAdhanAmAM lIna banI jAya. evAonuM haiyuM kevuM haze ? evA vakhate, zatru upara-ghA karanAra upara gusso karavAnuM sujhe ke A sujhe? te vakhate, aMtarathI sarva jIvone khamAvI le ane keInA ya pratye durbhAva lAvyA vinA AtmacintAmAM magna banI zake, e haiyuM anugrahazIla na hoya, te banI zake nahi. haiyuM anugrahazIla banyA vinA, sAcI kSamApanA ane sAcI ArAdhanA paNa thaI zake ja nahi. jeNe ApaNuM bagADayuM hoya, tenA upara anugraha karavAthI paNa lAbha ja thAya che : haiyAne evuM anugrahazIla banAvI devuM joIe keApaNuM game tevuM kharAba karanAra upara kadAca kodha AvI jAya, te ya enA bhUMDAnI bhAvanA Ave nahi. kodhavaza durbhAva AvI jAya, to ya te TakI zake nahi. enA tarapha AvatAM zuM durbhAva AvI jAya, paNa pAcho pite ne pote ja vicAre ke-"mAre A svabhAva nathI." krodhamAM ne krodhamAM ene mArI beTho hoya, nukazAna karI beThA hoya, paNa sAme je anugrahane Icchate Ave, te enA upara paNa anugraha kya vinA, A rahI zake nahi. jenAmAM niranugrahatA heya, te badhAne nukazAna karI ja zake che, evuM koI nathI. sAmAnuM puNya jAgatuM hoya, to ene eka vALa paNa vAMke karI zake nahi ane durbhAvanA yoge ene pitAne pArAvAra nukazAna thAya. ApaNe eTalA badhA mUrkha chIe ke-ApaNe keInuM
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________________ pahele bhAga 313 bhUMDuM cintavIne ApaNuM bhUMDuM karIe? vicAra kare ke-avasare avasare tamAruM bhUMDuM keTalAe cintavyuM haze ? tyAre, jeTalAe tamAruM bhUMDuM cintavyuM che, te badhA zuM tamAruM bhUMDuM karI ja zakyA che? nahi, te pachI, ApaNe paNa jenuM bhUMDuM cintavIe, tenuM bhUMDuM thaI ja jAya? agara te, ApaNe tenuM bhUMDuM karI ja zakIe? nahi ja. anugrahavRttimAM te ethI adhika vAta che. ApaNane jeNe ghaNuM nukazAna pahoMcADayuM hoya, ApaNe jANatA paNa hoIe keANe mane A rItie hAni pahoMcADI che, chatAM paNa je e ApaNA upakArane cAhate Ave, to ApaNe enA upara upakAra karyA vinA rahI zakIe nahi. kadAca e ApaNuM upakArane cAhato na Ave, kema ke-ene evI ya bIka hoya agara zarama paNa hoya ke-AnI pAse huM mArA upara upakAra karAvavAne jAuM, te e kAMI mArA upara upakAra karavAne che ? meM enuM bagADayuM che-te e jANe che, eTale e mArA upara upakAra kare zAne ? athavA, ema thAya ke-meM jenuM ATaluM adhuM bagADyuM che, tenI pAse huM mArA upara upakAra karAvavAne mATe, kema ja jaI zakuM? AvA AvA vicArethI, te tamArI pAse tamArA upakArane cAhate na paNa Ave, paraMtu je ApaNane khabara paDe ke-e amuka ApattimAM mUkAI gayA che ane ApaNe tenI e Apattine TALI zakIe tema chIe, te te vakhate ApaNuM haiyuM je anugrahazIla heya, te zuM kare? "sAme jaIne paNa enA upara upakAra kara !"-- evI preraNA, ApaNane ApaNA antaHkaraNamAMthI maLe ne? evA vakhate, enA upara tame anugraha kare, te duzamanane
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________________ 314 cAra gatinAM kAraNe paNa thAya ke-mANasa uMce ! game tema thaI gayuM, paNa A keIne cheDo le e mANasa nathI. enAmAM jo lAyakAta hoya, te enAmAM sadbhAva janmI jAya; tamArA pratyene kharAba bhAva nIkaLI jAya ane sAre bhAva AvI jAya; tema ja, kadAca ene ema paNa thaI jAya ke-ApaNe paNa AvI ja rItie bIjAonA upara anugraha karatAM zIkhavuM joIe ! AvI rItie, enAmAMthI niranugrahanI vRttine kADhavAne lAbha, anAyAse paNa tamane maLI jAya ! anugraha karavAnI taka Acce zuM karo? anugrahavRttivALa, aneka pApothI svAbhAvika rItie bacI zake che ane anekavidha lAbhone pAmI zake che, jyAre jenAmAM niranugrahavRtti hoya che, te te jeNe tenuM nukazAna karyuM nathI, tenA upara paNa anugrahanA samaye anugrahane karI zakatuM nathI. enI pAse keI anugrahanI AzAe jAya, te nirAza thaIne pAcho Ave eTaluM ja nahi, paNa pelo ene keTaluM ya saMbhaLAvI de ane ethI kadAca sAmAnA haiyAmAM virabhAva pedA thaI jAya. tame sukhI ho, peDhIvALA ho, sthAnavALA ho, kAMIka sAdhanasaMpanna ho, tyAre tamArA taraphathI anugraha meLavavAnI AzAe koI ne koI Ave te kharuM ne? sAme tamAro anugraha mAgavAne Avyo che-evuM tame jANe tyAre, athavA te, te tamArI pAse tamArA anugrahanI vAta mUke tyAre, tamArA haiyAmAM kevA kevA vicArane uchALe AvI jAya che? anugraha karavAnI taka maLe, e tamane game ne? anugraha thaI zake tema hoya, te tame anugraha karyA vinA
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________________ pahele bhAga 315 raho nahi ne? "ApaNAthI banI zake tema hoya, to ApaNe koInA ya bhalAnuM kAma karI chUTavuM"--evuM tama rA manamAM te kharuM ne? anugraha karI zakAya ke na paNa karI zakAya, paNa haiyAne evuM te keLavavuM ja joIe ke--anugraha karavAnA avasare, anugraha karavAnuM mana thaI gayA vinA rahe nahi. haiyAne evuM kaThera to nahi ja banAvavuM ke-sAme anugraha mAge ane ApaNe kaThoratA batAvIe. deNadAra tamArI pAse anugraha mAge, te tame zuM kare? enI ApavAnI zakti na hoya, te tamane anugraha karavAnuM mana thaI jAya ne? e mATe sahavuM paDe, te sahavAnI taiyArI paNa kharI ne? chevaTa, eTaluM ya vicAre ke-enI ApavAnI zakti hoya nahi ane tame enuM devuM mAMDI vALe to tamAre kazI paNa takalIpha bhegavavI paDe tema heya nahi, to tame anugraha kare kharA ke nahi ? kadAca, lobhanA mAryA tame enA para anugraha karI zake nahi, te paNa ene tamArA taraphathI niranugrahavRttine anubhava to thAya nahi ne ? tamArA paisA mATe, ene pAyamAla karI nAkhavAnI, enI peDhIne Dula karI nAkhavAnI, enI vagevaNI karI nAkhavAnI vRtti te tamArAmAM nathI ne? anugrahatAthI nukazAna lAgatuM hoya te ya te niranugrahatAthI thatA nukazAna jeTaluM to nathI ne ? jyAre jyAre keIna paNa kharAba vicAra Ave, ke tarata ja manane vALavuM joIe. e vakhate, anugrahano vicAra Ave, ema karavuM. keInA ya kharAba vicAra, e nathI to pitAne anugraha ke nathI te para anugraha ! tamane gusse
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________________ 316 cAra gatinAM kAraNA 6 Ave evA prasaMge teA ghaNA AvavAnA, eTale haiyuM kaThAra mane nahi, enI khAsa kALajI rAkhavI paDaze. kuTuMbanA mANasanA hAthe, nAkaranA hAthe, pADAzInA hAthe ke bIjAnA hAthe game tevuM kharAba kAma thaI gayuM hoya, ethI ApaNane gussA paNa AvI gayA hoya, paNa ApaNA haiyAmAM anugrahavRtti hoya, te e ApaNA gussAne lAMkhA kALa TakavA ke nahi. gheADAka vakhata jAya, eTale haiyuM zAnta thai jAya ane jenA upara gusseA karyAM hAya, tene zAMti ApavAnuM mana thAya. ane melAvIne kahevAya ke " tAre hAthe evuM kharAba kAma thaI gayuM che, ke jethI mane gussA AvI gayA ane ethI AvezamAM meM tane kahI paNa nAkhyuM ketArI khakhara laI nAkhIza' paNa have tuM mArA taraphathI koI paNa prakAranA bhaya AvavAnI cintA rAkhIza nahi. tane teM je karyuM che, temAM bhUla karI che--ema lAgatuM hoya, te pharI evuM kAma karIza nahi !" nAkare cApaDAmAM goTALA karIne nANAM ucApata karyA hoya ane evAne nAkarImAM rAkhaveA-e jokhamakAraka lAgatuM hoya, to ya ene kahI zakAya ke huM tane have nokarImAM teA nahi rAkhI zakuM, paNa koI paNa vakhate jo tuM aTakI paDyo ho, te| Avaje ane 5-50 nI jarUra hoya teA lai jaje!' e mANasa peDhI upara esADavAne mATe nAlAyaka hoya, te ene peDhI na soMpAya; paNa, ene madada te karI zakAya ne ? niranugrahatA narake laI janAra che, mATe A vicArA lAvavA paDaze ne ? anugrahatAne lAvavAnA A upAya che. ahIMthI marIne, sIdhA narake javuM De, teA asaMkhyAta kALa sudhI ApaNA tA mAra vAgI
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________________ pahelA bhAga 317 jAya ne ? jyAMnuM jeTaluM AyuSya baMdhAyuM hoya, tyAM teTalA kALa sudhI duHkha bhAgavavuM paDe ne ? pachI paNa pAchI AvI dharmasAmagrI kacAre maLe ? tamane lAgatuM hoya ke-Ama anugrahazIla banIe te nukazAna ghaNuM thai jAya, tA paNa A nukazAna AgaLa, e nukazAna teA gaNatrImAM ya Ave evuM nathI ne ? tamArA azubheADhaya sivAya, tamane keAInAthI paNa nukazAna thAya nahi ane jeTaluM nukazAna thAya teTaluM azubha karma khape, ema te mAneA che ne ? vaLI, anugrahabuddhinA ceAge tamane je lAbha thAya, tenA vicAra paNa tamAre karavA joIe ne ? zrI navakAra maMtranA jApanuM phaLa maLe pApabhAvA hAya tenuM ya phaLa sa nava lAkha navakAra gaNanArane narakanuM AyuSya baMdhAya nahi te ? 6 zuM enA artha evA che ke-e game tevAM pApakarmAmAM rakta rahe, mahAraMbhanA rasIyeA banyA rahe ane mahA rigrahamAM ja AnaMda mAnatA, haiyAne niSThura manAvIne kAInA ya upara anugraha kare nahi, te chatAM paNa nava lAkha navakAraneA jApa, ene bacAvI le ? pApa karavAmAM pAchI pAnI dharaze nahi, pApa karatAM haiyAne jarA ya kaMpavA dezeA nahi ane mAtra nava lAkha navakAranA jApa karI lejo, eTale tame phAvI jazA 'AvuM keAI zAstramAM kahyuM che ? zrI sarvajJa bhagavAnanAM zAstromAM, evI vAta heAya paNa kharI ? vAta teA e che ke-zrI navakAra maMtranA nava lAkhanI saMkhyAmAM jApa karavAnuM jene mana. thAya, tenA haiyAmAM kAMIka teA ugyuM hoya ne ? paNa haiyAmAM bIjA maLe ne ?
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________________ 318 cAra gatinAM kAraNo sa. ema to bhagavAnane karelo eka paNa namaskAra saMsAra sAgarathI tAre che, evuM ya kyAM nathI AvatuM ? e vAta paNa apekSAe sAcI che ane pelI vAta paNa apekSAe sAcI che. dareka vAta apekSAe kahevAya ane dareka vAta apekSAe samajavI joIe. zAstra te kahe che kesAdhu kAladharma pAmIne kAM to mokSe jAya, kAM te svarga jAya. AvuM ja kahenArAM zAstromAM, e vAta paNa Ave ja che ke amuka jIva sAdhuveSamAM hatuM ane sAdhuveSamAM maryo, chatAM narake gayo!" apekSAne samaje nahi, te A be ya vAtane baMdhabesatI zI rItie karI zake ? zrI navakAra maMtramAM tAkAta ghaNI che, enA je kaI maMtra nathI, paNa enA jApane karanAre ya lAyakAtane keLavavI paDe ke nahi? jApanI kriyA lAbha ApI de, paNa mahAraMbhane rasa, parigrahane AnaMda ane haiyAnI niSpharatA,e vagerethI je pApa baMdhAya, tenuM phala paNa maLe kharuM ke nahi? zrI navakAra maMtrane gaNanAre duHkhI hoya nahi, ene artha zuM e che ke-ene duHkha Ave ja nahi? ene duHkha Ave, te ya e duHkhI thAya nahi, ema kahI zakAya. ema, zrI navakAra maMtra gaNavAnA kAraNe duHkha Ave ja nahi, ema paNa kahI zakAya; athavA te, ema paNa kahI zakAya ke-zrI navakAra maMtra gaNavAthI ghaNAM pApanI nirjarA thaI jAya; paNa ema kahevAya kharuM ke tame tamAre pApa karyo ja rAkhe, paNa eka navakAra gaNyA karaje, eTale beDe pAra thaI jaze? samyagdaSTi avirata hoya te paNa, devaleke ja jAya-ema zAstra kahe che. emAM pakSapAta che? zrI arihatAdine sudevAdi rUpe mAne che, mATe ja e durgatinuM AyuSya
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________________ pahelA bhAga AMdhe nahi ? kharI vAta e che ke samyagdaSTi aviratipaNAmAM hoya te paNu, enA haiyAmAM evA pApa-pariNAmA pragaTatA ja nathI, ke je pariNAmeAnA kAraNe tene durgatinA AyuSyakarmanA Azrava thAya ! eTaluM ja nahi, paNa pApathI nahi virAma pAmavA chatAM paNu, enA haiyAnA pariNAme evA kuNA ane evA sundara hoya che ke--e devagatinA AyuSyane ja upArjanArA ane ! AzritA AdinI 319 leAne khamI khAtAM ane anugraha karatAM zIkhA : ApaNI vAta te e che ke--ApaNA svabhAvamAM niranugrahapaNuM hAvuM nahi joie ane haiyAne kuNuM banAvavAne mATe anugraha karatA rahevAnI Teva pADavI joie. niranugrahavRtti bahu kharAba che. kAI ke ApaNuM magAyuM, ethI tatkAla te ApaNane tenuM bagADavAnA bhAve ya AvI gayA; kadAca kahI paNa dIdhuM ke--' joI laIza ' paNa pachI ya ema thAya kharuM ke-' mArA haiyAmAM AvI kaThAratA kema AvI gaI ? mamatAe mane bhUlAvye !' AvA vicAra Ave, te ame ya thAya ke AvI mamatAne pedA karanArA saMyeAgeAthI jo chUTI javAya, teA keTaluM badhuM sArUM thAya ?' eme ya thAya ke- maiM ene joi laIza ema DDI dIdhuM, have mArA vicAra tA pharI gayA, paNa e vAta enA aMtaramAMthI nIkLI javI joie ne ? jyAM sudhI enA haiyAmAM e vAta raheze, tyAM sudhI e khIcArAnuM mana mArAthI keTaluM DaratuM ne duHkhI raheze ? enA ceAge, e je kAMi pApa mAMdhaze, tethI mane paNa .
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________________ 320 cAra gatinAM kAraNe nukazAna ja thayA karaze !" Avo vicAra Ave ane tame je pelAne maLIne vAta karI lo ke mArA manamAM koI rahyuM nathI ane tArA manamAM te kAMI rAkhIza nahi, te ene zuM lAge? pelAne thAya ke-jevo e mANasa maTe che, tevuM tenuM dila paNa meTuM che !" tame evuM karo, te kadAca ema paNa bane kesAme thanAre tamArA page paDI jAya ! tame tamArA Azrita AdinI bhUlane khamI khAtAM zIkhe ane anugraha karatAM zIkhe, te tamAruM haiyuM keTaluM kareluM rahe ane tamArA upara saune kevo bhAva thAya, e vicArI juo. mahArAjA zrI kumArapAlane dAkhala tame sAMbhaLyo ne? sAmano pharI gayA, yuddhanA avasare phuTI gayA, e jevI-tevI vAta hatI ? e te pite khUba sattvavALA hatA ane emanI puNyAI joradAra hatI, te pitAnA banevI rAjAne ekalA hAthe harAvI zakyA, paNa sAmoe to evuM karyuM hatuM ke-zrI kumArapAla jItavAne badale kadAca baMdIvAne ya banI jAta. zrI kumArapAla rAjA maTI jAta ane duzmanane baMdIvAna banI jAta, to je bena nimitte e yuddha hatuM, te bena vagerenuM paNa thAta zuM ? eTale, emanuM haiyuM je niranugrahavRttivALuM hota, te jItyA pachI e koI e ja hukama karata ke-"mAre e sAmatonuM meMduM sarakhuM paNa jevuM nathI! rezI nAkho e badhAne !" paNa zrI kumArapAla te, potAnA sevakonI ati bhayaMkara bhUlane paNa gaLI gayA. A je-te anugraha che? tyAre, yuddhamAM e zatruone ghAta karatA hatA ke nahi? karatA hatA, kema ke-e rAjA hatA. rAjA hatA, mATe rAjAnA sthAnanI javAbadArI adA karavI paDatI hatI. jema tame vepAra laIne beThA che, te
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________________ pahele bhAga 321 tamAre nANAM cUkavavAnI sagavaDa karI levI paDe che ne? mAla bharAI gayuM hoya, peDhImAM ke gharamAM rokaDa nANuM na hoya ane vepArione nANuM cUkavavAno vakhata thavA Avyo hoya, te tame devadhAma, lAgavagane upaga, e vagere je kAMI karavuM paDe te karIne paNa, vepArione cUkavavA jeTalAM nANAM ekaThAM karI lAve che ne ? kema ? manamAM che ke-peDhI calAvavI hoya, to peDhInI rItarasamene jALavavI paDe ! peDhInI AbarU rAkhavI hoya, te ema na kahevAya ke-maLaze tyAre ApIzuM! tema, saMgavazAt rAjAdine yuddhamAM ya javuM paDe. yuddhamAM jAya tyAre khAlI hAthe jAya ke hathiyAra laIne jAya ? hathiyAra laI jAya, te dekhADavAne mATe laI jAya ke jarUra paDaye pitAne bacAva karavAne ane duzmana upara upayoga karavAne laI jAya ? AvuM karavA chatAM paNa, haiyAmAM anugrahavRtti hoI zake. aneka rAjAo ane maMtrio evA paNa thaI gayA che keyuddhamAM duzmanane ane duzmananI senAne kaccaraghANa kADhI nAkhyo hoya, paNa te pachI avasara AvatAM anugraha karavAmAM ya pAchI pAnI nA karI hoya. mAMsAjana : niranugrahatA, e narakanA AyuSyanuM kAraNa che-ema jaNAvyA bAda, zAstrakAra paramarSi pharamAve che ke-mAMsAjana, e paNa narakanA AyuSyanA AzravanuM kAraNa che. A viSayamAM te tamane kAMI kahevAnI jarUra nathI ja ne? kaI tamane zakti AdinA bahAne paNa AvA koI mArge ghasaDI jaI zake nahi ne? je davAomAM paNa AvuM mizraNa AvatuM 21
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________________ 322 cAra gatinAM kAraNe hoya, te davAo paNa tamane vAparavI game nahi ne ? kadAca na chUTake evI davAone upaga karavo paDe, to ya haiyAne AghAta lAge ne? jaina kuLamAM janmelAone, mAMsabhejana viSe bahu kahevuM paDe agara te enA tyAga viSe samajAvavuM paDe, evI sthiti te nathI ja, eTale cAlIe AgaLa. sthiratA: mAMsajana pachI Ave che- sthiratA. ApaNA haiyAmAM keInA ya pratye vairabhAva utpanna thavA pAme nahi te bahu sAruM, paNa narakanAM aneka kAraNomAMnA A kAraNathI bacavuM hoya, te chevaTa eTaluM to karavuM ja joIe ke-keInA paNa pratye utpanna thavA pAmelA vairabhAvane, haiyAmAM TakavA de nahi. keziSa karIne, manamAM sArA sArA vicAro karyA karIne, varanAM bhayaMkara pariNAmenuM cintana karI karIne ane bhayaMkara koTinI duzmanAvaTa karanArAo upara paNa virabhAvane nahi dharanArA puNyapurUSanAM udAharaNane AMkha sAme rAkhyA karIne paNa, koInA ya pratye kAMI paNa vairabhAva utpanna thavA pAmyo heya, te tene jema bane tema vahelo sirAvI devuM joIe. koInA ya pratye pragaTele vairabhAva, ApaNA haiyAmAM sthiratAne pAmI jAya nahi, e mATe khAsa sAvacetI rAkhavI joIe. keTalAka te, maratAM sudhI vairabhAvane sirAvI zakatA nathI ane ethI te bhavAMtaramAM paNa sAthe jAya che. evA paNa mANasa hoya che ke-jemane amuka jI sAthe sthira vaira thaI gayuM hoya. emane game teTaluM samajAvavAmAM Ave, te ya e prAyaH ema ja kahe ke badhI vAta karaje, paNa AnI sAthe amA
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________________ pahele bhAga 323 vavAnI vAta karaze ja nahi!" vairane kharAba kahe, paNa jenA pratye evuM vaira baMdhAI gayuM hoya-enI vAta Ave, eTale ema ja kahe ke-e bane evuM nathI; eTaluM ja nahi, paNa uparathI ema paNa kahe ke-"ene te huM jyAre barAbara ThekANe pADIza, tyAre ja jaMpIza." sthira vairane A namune che. eka vAra vaira je sthiratAne pAmI jAya, te pachI e jIvane ghaNI sAmagrI maLe to ya, prAyaH vaira nIkaLavuM muzkela thaI paDe. AvuM vera pitA-putra vacce paNa baMdhAI jAya, mAtA -putra vacce paNa baMdhAI jAya, dhaNa-dhaNu ANuM vacce paNa baMdhAI jAya ane zeTha-nekara Adi vacce paNa baMdhAI jAya; eTale, ApaNe jenI jenI sAthe ceDe ke vadhato saMbaMdha thaI jAya, temAMnA koInI paNa sAthe, koI paNa saMgomAM, virabhAva AvI jAya nahi, tenI kALajI rAkhavI joIe ane kadAca vairabhAva AvI paNa jAya, te ya te virabhAvane nirmula karI nAkhavAnA ane tene sthira nahi thavA devAnA, sAvacetIthI prayatno karavA joIe. agnizarmAmAM gherabhAvanI sthiratA thaI gaI, te jyAM jyAM yoga thaye, tyAM tyAM vairabhAva jAgye : zAstromAM sthira varanA aneka prasaMgo varNavAelA che. zrI pArzvanAtha bhagavAnanA jIva ane kamaThanA jIva vacce, sthira varane prasaMga hato. guNasenane jIva ane agnizarmAne jIva, e be vacce paNa sthira vairane prasaMga hato. guNasenanA AtmAnI sAthe bAMdhelA varane, agnizarmAnA AtmAe saMkhyAbaMdha bhavo sudhI sAcavI rAkhyuM che. nava bhavamAM te, varanA
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________________ 324 cAra gatinAM kAraNe ge herAnagatimAM mUkavAnA ane mUkAvAnA prasaMgo banyA; paNa agnizarmAnuM vaira te enA keTalA ya bhavo sudhI pahoMcyuM che. e varanA anubadhe, agnizarmAnA jIvane, anaMta saMsAranA paribhramaNamAM dhakelI dIdhe. agnizarmAnA bhAvamAM vairabaMdha paDyo, paNa te bhavamAM e jIvanI keTalI badhI sArI hAlata hatI, te jANe che? jIva hato mithyASTi; paNa eNe tApasapaNane grahaNa karIne, mApavAsane pAraNe mApavAsa karavAnI pratijJA jIvanabharane mATe grahaNa karI hatI. mAsapavAsane pAraNe, te keInA paNa gharamAM pAraNuM karavAne jAte ane e gharamAM je kAMI maLI jAya, tenAthI pAra karI laIne pAcho pharI, te punaH mApavAsane tapa zarU karato hato. je gharamAM jAya, e gharamAM je pAraNA mATe AhArAdi kAMI na maLe, te ya te bIjA gharamAM ja nahi ane mApavAsa upara mApavAsa khecI nAkhata. A tapasvI ane tApasa tarIke saMsArane tyAgI hovA chatAM paNa, enuM vaira sthiratAne pAmI gayuM ane te evuM te sthiratAne pAmI gayuM ke-je je bhavamAM ane jyAre jyAre, ene guNasenanA AtmAne vega thayo, tyAre tyAre ene guNasenanA AtmA pratye vairabhAva jAgyA vinA rahyo ja nahi. e vairabhAvanA pege, agnizamane AtmA, e dareke dareka bhamAM, e guNasenanA AtmA pratye, evuM evuM karapINa vartana karato rahyo ke-meTe bhAge te durgatiomAM ja bhamato rahyo ane duHkhane ja pAmato rahyo. agnizama nAnI uMmarane hato, tyAre te guNasenanA kautukanuM pAtra banI jatAM, enA pratye ene durbhAva jAgele; paNa pite gAma choDIne cAlyA gaye ane tapAsa banyo, eTale
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________________ 325 pahele bhAga e vAta visAre paDI gayelI. jyAre e mApavAsanA pAraNe mAsopavAsa karavAnI daDha ane kaThora pratijJA karIne tapazcaryA karI rahyo hato, te vakhate bhavitavyatAnA yoge evA saMge banI gayA ke-eno ne guNasenane pAcho melApa thaI gayo ane emAMthI pUrvanA virabhAvane tAje thavAnI tathA e vairabhAvane sthira thaI javAnI taka maLI gaI. e vairabhAvanI sthiratA thaI jatAM, jyAM jayAM e bannene yoga thayo, tyAM tyAM vairabhAva tAjo thayo. guNasenanA jIvane jue ane tarata ja agnizamanA jIvamAM vairabhAva jAge. e sthiratA kyAM sudhI rahI, te jANo cho ? guNasanano jIva je bhava sudhI saMsAramAM rahyo, te bhava sudhI! agnizarmAnA vaire guNasenanA atima bhavamAM, eTale ke-je bhavamAM zrI guNasena muktine pAmyA, te bhAvamAM paNa pitAne prabhAva batAvyo. e pachI ya, agnizarmAnA jIve e vairabhAvane taLe ke nahi, te te jJAnI jANe; paNa te pachI zrI guNasena mokSane pAmyA, eTale e bene vega thate maTI gayo. vairabhAva te, khuda bhagavAna maLe te e dharmanI prApti AdimAM antarAya karanAre bane A vairabhAva jyAre sthiratAne pAmI jAya che, tyAre enuM upazamana bahu muzkela banI jAya che. bhavitavyatAdi sArAM heya ane kaI prasaMga vizeSathI e vaira TaLI jAya, te te vAta judI che; bAkI te, khUda zrI tIrthakaradeva jovA maLyA heya ane e tAraka vairane tajavAnuM kahe, to ya e bAdabAkI kare ke-AnA sivAya. jema rAganA gADha saMskAre kAma kare
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________________ 326 cAra gatinAM kAraNe che, tema cheSanA gADha saMskAro paNa kAma kare che ne? sneharAganA saMskAre, gaNadharabhagavAna zrI gautamasvAmijI jevAnA paNa kevalajJAnane aTakAvI rAkhyuM hatuM ne? ghaNuM samaje, bhagavAna pratye samajapUrvakane bhaktibhAve ya ghaNo, chatAM sAthe bhagavAnanA jIva pratye sneharAga paNa khare ja ! tema, vairamAM paNa samaje ne? kheDutane yAda kare ! kheDutane jIva gaNadharabhagavAna zrI gautamasvAmijIthI pratibaMdhane pAmyA ane bhagavAnane jotAMnI sAthe ja, bhagavAnanA jIva sAthenA pUrvanA virane saMskAra tAjo thaI gayo ! kevI sArI avasthAmAM, kheDutanA jIvane, bhagavAnanA jIvane yAga thaI gayo hato? paNa vairabhAva tAjo thaI gayo, eTale bhagavAna pAsethI ane je gurUthI e pratibaMdhane pAmyA hatA, te zrI gautamasvAmijI pAsethI paNa e ravAnA thaI gayA ne? e kheDutanA jIvane, pratibaMdha pamADavAne mATe, khuda bhagavAna gayA nahi ane bhagavAne pote ja gaNadharabhagavAna zrI gautamasvAmijIne mokalyA. kema? bhagavAna jANatA hatA ke-A jIva mArAthI pratibaMdha pAme e zakya ja nathI, mATe ! khUda bhagavAna jAta, to e jIva pratibaMdha pAmata nahi; temAM kAraNa te, bhagavAnanA jIva pratyene vairabhAva ja ne ? khuda bhagavAna pratibaMdha pamADavAne prayatna kare, te ya kevaLa virabhAvanA kAraNe jIva pratibaMdha pAme nahi, evI enI dazA hatI ne? ene, dharmanI ArAdhanAmAM antarAya paNa, vairabhAve ja karyo ne ? tyAre virabhAva, e keTalI badhI bhayaMkara cIja che? tamAre je koInI sAthe sthiratA thaI jAya, te jIva bhavAntaramAM dharmagurU Adi tarIke maLe, te ya tamane phAyado thAya khare? e tamane dharma
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________________ 327 pahele bhAga pamADavAne cAhe, te ya tame dharmane pAmI zake kharA ? UlaTuM, e vakhate paNa virabhAva tAjo thAya ane ene lIdhe, dharmagurUnI AzAtanA agara dharmagurUnI hiMsAdi karavAnuM ya pApa baMdhAya, ema paNa bane ne ? sarva vairabhAvone saMvatsarIe te tajavA ja joie sthira vaivALo narake na jAya, to navAI e narake jAya, temAM te navAI ja nahi. tyAre, ApaNe koInI ya sAthe varabhAva nathI ne? hoya, te ya tene kADhI nAkhave che ne ? haiyAmAM keI Aveza beThe haze, te vairabhAva nahi jAya. chevaTamAM chevaTa, saMvatsarIe te sarva jIvonI sAthe kSamApanA avazya karavI joIe, e te jANe che ne? eno artha e nathI ke-saMvatsarI sudhI varane sAcavI rAkhavuM joIe ane saMvatsarI pahelAM kSamApanA nahi karavI joIe. vairabhAva te, jeTalo vahelo tajAya teTalo sAre. te ne te divase varabhAva na jAya te paMdara divasamAM, paMdara divasamAM na jAya te cAra mAsanI aMdara aMdara ane chevaTamAM chevaTa saMvatsarIe te cokkasa, sarva jIvonI sAthenA sarva prakAranA vairabhAvane tajIne, sAcA dilathI kSamApanA karI levI joIe. saMvatsarIe paNa je keInA ya pratyene vairabhAva rahI jAya te te AtmAnA samyagdarzana rUpa vivekane paNa harI lenAra nivaDe. keI paNa jaina, saMvatsarInI ArAdhanA karyA vinA rahI zake nahi ane saMvatsarInI sAcI ArAdhanA karavI hoya, te te mATe sarva ja pratyenA sarva prakAranA vairabhAvane sirAvI devA ja joIe. A varSanI saMvatsarI have bahu dUra nathI. A saMva
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________________ 328 cAra gatinAM kAraNe tsarI AvatAM pahelAM, badhA ja vara bhAvone sirAvI daIne, sundara prakAre ArAdhanA karavAnuM mana thAya che ne? virabhAvane nahi sirAvavAthI, tene sthira thaI javAnI taka maLI jAya che. ApaNe tyAM, e mATe te, anta kAle paNa khamAvavAne vidhi rAkhelo che. mAre, keI paNa rItie, keI paNa jIvanI sAthe, virabhAva nathI rAkhave, AvI vRttine haMmezane mATe sateja rAkhavI joIe. ApaNe vairane tajIe paNa sAmo varane taje nahi, te e mATe zuM karavuM joIe? sa. ApaNe to khamAvIe, paNa sAme na khamAve te ? ApaNe mAvIe, eTale ApaNe to ArAdhaka banIe ja ne ? ApaNe khamAvIe ane sAme paNa khamAve te bahu ja sarasa, paNa ApaNe khamAvIe ane sAme na khamAve, te muzkelI te kharI ja. ApaNe pratyene ene vairabhAva sthiratAne pAmI jAya, te bhavAntaromAM jyAre jyAre enI sAthe ApaNe na thaI jAya, tyAre tyAre ene vairabhAva jAge ane ethI e ApaNane muzkelImAM mUke, e paNa zakya ja che. e te, ApaNane mAtA rUpa banIne, pitA rUpa banIne, putra rUpa banIne, patnI rU5 banIne athavA te bIjA paNa aneka prakAree herAna kare, e bahu ja banavAjoga che. atyAre te ApaNe khamAvIe, paNa bhavAtaramAM kaI te prasaMga AvI lAgatAM ApaNe pItta phATI jAya, ApaNuM magaja kAbUmAM na rahe ane ApaNA haiyAmAM ya enA pratye vairabhAva jAgI jAya, te pachI kadAca beyane sthira vairana
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________________ pahele bhAga 329 roga thaI jAya; e mATe, majagane ThekANe rAkhanArI vRtti keLavI levI joIe. evo abhyAsa pADave joIe kekoI ApaNane game teTaluM herAna kare, te ya ApaNe krodha kare nahi! ahIM sAcA bhAve kSamApanA karIne, vairabhAvane vosirAvI devAnA saMsakAre pADaze, to te paNa tamane bhavAtaramAM upayegI nivaDaze. jyAre jyAre keI ApaNane herAna kare, muzkelImAM mUke, tyAre tyAre enA upara krodha nahi karatAM, e vicAra karavo ke-e mArA pApane dhue che! zrI guNasene vairabhAva keLavyo nahoto, paNa agnizarmAe pitAnA vairane sthira karI dIdhuM hatuM, te e ekapakSIya viranA kAraNe paNa, zrI guNasenanA jIvane ghaNI ghaNuM herAnagati veThavI paDI che. e vakhate, zrI guNasenane pitAnA upazamabhAvanA saMskAroe madada karI che. AthI, ApaNe be vastu nakkI karavI joIe. eka te e ke-keInA ya haiyAmAM ApaNe mATe vairabhAva pedA thavA pAme nahi, enI takedArI rAkhavI. kadAca kedanI sAthe te prasaMga banI jAya, te ya ApaNA haiyAmAMthI virabhAvane kADhI nAkhavAnI sAthe, tenA haiiyAmAMthI paNa ApaNA pratyeno vairabhAva nIkaLI jAya, e mATe banI zake teTaluM badhuM karI chUTavuM. je kaI rItie e vairI maTIne mitra banI jato hoya, te rItine pitAnA lobha, mAna Adine jarA ya macaka ApyA vinA, ajamAvI levI. bIjI vastu e ke-ApaNA AtmAne upazAnta bhAvathI khUba khUba susaMskArita banAvI devo. AtmAne hitazikSAdithI evo te banAvI devo ke-game tevA kaparA saMgamAM AvI paDAya, te ya AtmA gusse thAya nahi ane bhAnabhUlo bane :
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNo nahi. upazamabhAvamAM ramaNa karavAnA saMskArAthI, AtmAne ahIM saMskArita karyAM haze ane jo keAI tamArA pratyenA sthira vairavALA banI gayA haze, te tenA ceAgamAM tame ghaNI karmanirjarA sAdhI zakaze. muzkelI AvavA chatAM ya je ArAdhanAne cUke nahi, te te ghaNAM ghaNAM karmonI nirjarAne sAdhI zake. cAlu prakAranI ArAdhanA mAtrathI je sadhAvuM muzkela hAya che, te muzkelI vakhate ArAdhanAmAM sthira rahI zakAya, to sadhAvuM saheluM banI jAya che. jenA mArelA mANanA ghA matAla nivaDaco, tene vizeSa prakAre khamAve che : 330 zrI pArzvanAtha bhagavAnanA jIve, marUbhUti tarIkenA bhavamAM, upazamabhAvanA saMskArAne dRDha manAvyA hatA; te jyAre jyAre temane kamaThanA jIve herAna karyAM, tyAre tyAre teo peAtAnI ArAdhanAmAM susthita rahI zakayA. marUbhUti tarIkenA bhavamAM ja, zrI pArzvanAtha bhagavAnanA jIva, samyakRtvane pAmyA hatA ane e bhavamAM ja e tArakanA jIva pratye, kamaThanA jIva, sthira varavALA banyA hatA. e, te vakhate zrI marUbhUtinA meTA bhAi tarIke hatA ane virAgI evA zrI marUbhUtinI dharmapatnine eNe peAtAnI viSayavAsanAnI zikAra banAvI hatI. zrI marUbhUtijIne e vAtanI jANa thatAM, emaNe, pahelAM te e vAtanI khAtrI karI lIdhI ane te pachIthI emanAthI e anAcAra sahAye nahi, mATe emaNe rAjAne e vAta karI. rAjAe zrI marUbhUtijInA moTA bhAI-kamaThanA jIvane bhAre zikSA karIne, nagaranI bahAra kADhI mUkayo ane emAMthI
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________________ pahele bhAga 331: te zrI marUbhUtijI pratye vairabhAvavALe baLe. AvuM pariNAma AvavAthI, zrI marUbhUtijIne pastA thaye ane tethI teo pitAnA moTA bhAIne khamAvavA gayA; jyAre kamaThanA jIve te vakhate pitAne jAgelA vairabhAvanA yoge, zrI marUbhUtijIne ghAta karI nAkhyo. Ama, zrI marUbhUtijIne jIva upazamanA saMskAra sAthe ane kamaThane jIva varanA saMskAra sAthe, bhavA ntaramAM gayA. bannenA saMskArae pitapatAnuM kAma karyuM. kamaThanA jIve zrI marUbhUtinA jIvane, je je bhavamAM e bannene ga thaye te dareka bhavamAM, herAna ja karela che ane zrI marUbhUtijInA jIve, upazamane ja anubhava karyo karyo che. eka bhavamAM, zrI marUbhUtijIno jIva jyAre munipaNAmAM hato, te vakhate kamaThanA jIve temane bANa mAryuM. e bANa vAgavAthI teo nIce paDI gayA, paNa vicAra karyo ? emaNe e bANanA ghAne jIvaleNa nivaDele jANavA chatAM paNa, vicAra e ja karyo che ke huM saune khamAvuM chuM ane A bANa mAranArane te vizeSa prakAre khamAvuM chuM!" kema ema? enA tarapha verabhAva AvI javAnuM meTuM kAraNa hatuM mATe ane ArAdhanAmAM e sAre sahAyaka maLI gaye, e mATe paNa! e vakhate, je ema thaI jAya ke huM mArI meLe mArA dhyAna namAM ubho hato, tyAM ANe mane bANa kema mAryuM?" ane emAMthI je gusso AvI jAya, te? te, kamasattA emane cheDI de? nahi ja. karmasattA te kahe ke-eNe enuM haiyuM bagADayuM te sAcuM, enuM phaLa e bhegavaze, paNa emAM teM tAruM haiyuM kema bagADayuM ? te tAruM haiyuM bagADyuM, mATe enuM phaLa tuM paNa bhagava!' paNa zrI marUbhUtijInA jIvane gusso Avyo
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________________ 332 cAra gatinAM kAraNe nahi, kemake- emaNe pitAnA AtmAne upazamabhAvathI saMskArita karyo hato. keInA ya pratyenA sthira vairathI bacavuM hoya ane keI ApaNA pratye paNa je sthira vairavALe banI gaye hoya, to enA dvArA AvatI ApattiomAMthI je lAbha uThAva hoya, te ya haiyAne upazamabhAvathI khUba khUba saMskArita banAvI devuM joIe. A bhavamAM haiyuM je sAcA upazamabhAvathI susaMskArita banI jAya, te tamAre mokSa bahu dUra nathI, ema mAnavuM. raudradhyAna ane tenA cAra prakAra : parama upakArI, kalikAlasarvajJa, AcAryabhagavAna zrImad hemacaMdrasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA, narakagatinA AyuSyanA Azrane varNavatAM 1-paMcendriyaprANivadha, 2-baha AraMbha, 3-bahu parigraha,4-niranugrahatA, 5-mAMsabhejana, ane 6- sthiratA, A chane jaNAvyA bAda, raudradhyAnane paNa narakanA kAraNa tarIke varNave che. hiMsA karavI, asatya bolavuM, cerI karavI ane parigrahanuM saMrakSaNa-e pApakriyAo che; jyAre hiMsAdikane karavAnI IcchA, ene karavAne mATenI vicAraNA ane ene karavAne mATe manamAM vividha prakAranI yojanAo ghaDavI, e vagere saMbaMdhI je dhyAna, tene raudradhyAna kahevAmAM Ave che. hiMsAnubaMdhI, mRSAnubaMdhI, teyAnubaMdhI ane saMrakSaNAnubaMdhI, ema raudradhyAnanA cAra pAyA agara prakAre kahevAya che. A cAra kriyAo, gRhasthane te rahevAnI ja ne? hiMsA te, ghara, peDhI vagerene pitAnAM banAvIne beThA che, eTale beThI ja che. vayanA vadha vinA, kAMI ghara cAlI zake? SakAyanA
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________________ pahelo bhAga 333 jIvonA ghAtathI bacavAnI vRtti hoya, te paNa saMsArI gRhatha, tenA ghAtathI saMpUrNapaNe bacI zakatuM nathI. hiMsA pachI asatya. te paNa avasare avasare belyA vinA cAle ? kodha, lebha, bhaya ane hAsyathI asatya bolAya. asatyathI bacavuM hoya, te e cArathI bacavuM paDe. krodhAdikane vaza paDelAo paNa asatyathI bacI zakatA nathI, te pachI krodhAdikamAM AnaMda mAnanArAo te, asatyathI bacI zake ja zI rItie ? tyAre, jenAmAM bhAdi joradAra hoya, te cerI paNa taka maLe te kare ne? ghara, peDhI vagere je kAMI heya temAM ane dhana -zarIra AdimAM mamatvabhAva hoya, te tenuM saMrakSaNa karavAne prayatna karyA vinA paNa rahe nahi ne? keI kAMI laI jAya nahi ane zarIrAdi ThIka ThIka rahe, e mATenA prayatne te cAlu ja ne? hiMsAdi e cAra pAkiyAe che ane e cArane sevavAne satata vicAra, e cArane karavAne mATe janAdi ghaDavAnI dhyAna rUpa vicAraNA, te vagerene samAveza raudradhyAnamAM thAya che. raudradhyAna, tenI tIvratA ane maMdatA Adine aMge aneka bheda - vALuM banI zake che: jagatamAM ja hiMsAdi pAkiyAone jeTalA pramANamAM Acare che, tenA karatAM hiMsAdinI vicAraNA Adi ghaNA ja vizeSa pramANamAM kare che. hiMsAdine AcaravAne mATe te, bIjI ghaNI sAmagrI joIe che; jyAre hiMsAdinI vicAraNuM te mananI malinatA upara AdhAra rAkhe che. tame meTAnI, rAjAnI, baLavAnanI e vagerenI hiMsA kyAre karI zake?
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________________ 334 cAra gatinAM kAraNe baLa, taka vagere jarUrI sAmagrIne vega hoya agara te tevA prakArano vega tamane AvI maLe te ne? ane nabaLAmAM nabaLo mANasa paNa, zarIre paNa nabaLe ane sAmagrIe paNa nabaLo-e mANasa paNa, game tevA rAjA-mahArAjA AdinI athavA te moTAmAM moTI saMkhyAnA jenI hiMsAnI vicAraNA to karI zake ne? taMdulIye matsya cokhApUra zarIravALo ane jIve antarmuhUrtathI adhika nahi, chatAM ApaNe jaI AvyA ne ke-e sAtamInarake jAya? e pratApa kene? raudradhyAnane ja ema nahi, paNa ati tIvra evA raudradhyAnane ja e pratApa che. jenI pAse ghaNI sAmagrI hoya, tene raudradhyAnane saMbhava ghaNe che, paNa ethI ema samajavAnuM nathI ke-jenI pAse sAmagrI ochI che agara te nahivat che, ene raudradhyAna na hoya agara te manda koTinuM ja hoya! thiDI paNa sAmagrImAM je atizaya mamatvabhAva heya, agara te sAmagrI na hoya te chatAM paNa je "sAmagrI hoya te Ama karI nAkhuM ne tema karI nAkhuM"--evI hiMsAdigarbhita tIvra manebhAvanA hoya, to enuM ghaNuM gaMbhIra paNa pariNAma AvyA vinA rahe nahi. sa0 raudradhyAna narake ja laI jAya? raudradhyAnamAM narake laI javAnI paNa tAkAta che. raudradhyAnane ati tIvra anubhava karI rahela AmA je Ayuvyakarmane upArja, te te narakanA AyuSyane ja upArja, ema kahI zakAya. sa0 raudradhyAna mithyAdaSTine ja hoya ? ema paNa kahI zakAya nahi. raudradhyAna avirata samya
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________________ pahele bhAga 335 gdaSTimAM ane dezavirata samyagdaSTimAM paNa saMbhave, paraMtu temAM taratamatA heya. dhyAna raudra prakAranuM hoya, paNa emAM ati tIvra, tIvra ane manda, ati manda Adi bhede ghaNA paDe. raudradhyAna AvI jatuM hoya, te chatAM paNa A dhyAna karavA lAyaka nathI-e je khyAla haya, A dhyAnamAM je huM lIna banI jAuM, te saMsAramAM DUbI jAuM--e je upaga hoya, te enAthI paNa keTalo badhe phera paDI jAya? jema, tame hiMsAdi jemAM sunizcita che evI kiyAe paNa kare che, paNa e kriyAone karatI vakhate tame je vivekI che, te tamArA hiMyAmAM jIvadayAne pariNAma hoI zake ke nahi ? saLagAvavAne mATe lAkaDuM le che, te temAM jIvahiMsA nathI thavAnI? thavAnI ja che, paNa lAkaDuM letAM-mUkatAM yatanA jALave, te te jIvadayAne pariNAma che ke nahi? hiMsA thAya tevI pravRtti karavAnuM vicAra karatAM ane hiMsA thAya tevI pravRtti karatAM paNa, jIvadayA na bhUlAya ane yatanApUrvaka vartAya, e te banI zake evI vastu che ne? hiMsAdika thAya tevI kriyA karyA pachI paNa, eka jIva e vicAra kare ke huM evA asaMyamamAM chuM ke A badhAthI chUTI zakato nathI. ane bIje jIva e vicAra kare ke-"ema pApa pApa karyuM te kAMI cAlatuM haze ? gharamAM rahevuM ne hiMsAthI DaravuM? sAgaramAM rahevuM ane magarathI bIvuM ? e to hiMsAdi karavAM ja joIe." -te e be vacce, vicAraNAnI dizAne eTale mananA pariNAmene keTaluM badhuM taphAvata che? ema, dhyAnanI taratamatA hoya. "paisA gayA-evI khabara Ave, to eka mANasane ema thAya ke-"ApaNuM bhAgya evuM haze ane bIjA mANasane
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________________ 336 cAra gatinAM kAraNe evA ja samAcAra maLavAthI manamAM evo valopAta zarU thaI jAya ke-te vakhate jenArane ema thaI jAya ke-AnuM haiyuM te nahi besI jAya?" keTalAka jIve evA hoya che kepitAnI amuka cIja khavAI jAya, to "haze, evAI gaI.' -ema karIne manane vALI le ane enI upekSA kare; jyAre keTalAka cho e khovAI gayelI vastune bhUlI zake nahi; keTakeTalAne viSe zaMkA laI jAya. bhagavAna pAse beThe heya, tyAM ya ene e cIja gaI ema yAda Ave ane enA vicAramAM caDhI jAya. A badhI vAta evI che ke tame je tamArA pariNAmane barAbara tapAsatA rahe, te jhaTa khyAlamAM AvI jAya. pariNAme mAM keTalIka vAra kevI ugratA hoya che ane keTalIka vAra kevI mandatA hoya che, te samajavA jevuM che. raudradhyAna mithyASTine paNa hoya; temAM ghora mithyAdiSTine paNa hoya ane manda mithyAtvavALAne paNa hoya; avirata samyagdaSTine paNa hoya ane dezavirata samyagdaSTine paNa hoya; kadAcit sarAga saMyamIne paNa hoya tyAre, emAM taratamatA keTalI badhI hoya? eTale, jeTalI emAM maMdatA Ave, teTaluM sAruM-ema samajavuM joIe. eTale, raudradhyAna narakanuM ja kAraNa bane-ema na kahevAya, paNa enAmAM narakanuM kAraNa banavAnI paNa ghaNI moTI zakti che, ema jarUra kahI zakAya. paisA Ave te pacAvavAnI zakti na hoya ane jAya to sahavAnI zakti na hoya, to zuM bane? sa, jenI pAse je heya, tene tenA saMrakSaNanA vicAro te Ave ne ?
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________________ pahele bhAga 337 saMrakSaNanA vicAro Ave, emAM paNa ghaNA bheda paDI jAya. eka mANasa saMrakSaNanI IcchA kare, chatAM jAya te muMjhAya nahi, ema paNa bane ne ? virAgI suzrAvake ya avasara joga saMrakSaNa kare, chatAM "saMrakSaNa karavuM paDe evI sthitimAM rahevuM, te sAruM che-ema to e mAne nahi ne? pisA Ave te tene pacAvavAnI ane jAya che tene khamI khAvAnI tAkAta keTalI keLavI che? keTalAkane evuM hoya che ke-paisA pacAvavAnI tAkAta nahi ane pisA maLavAnuM puNya kharUM, eTale enAmAM saMrakSaNAnubaMdhI raudradhyAna ugra prakAranuM paNa Ave ne? eka kaDIo pAlakha upara beThe beTho kAma karate hato. tyAM keIe AvIne ene samAcAra ApyA ke-"tArI loTarI lAgI gaI hajAro rUpIA tane maLyA." kaDIo e sAMbhaLIne pitAnA lAbhane jIravI zakyo nahi ! harSanA AvezamAM, e evo AvI gayo ke-bhAna bhUlyA ane ATalA badhA rUpIA mane maLyA ?"--ema bolate, e jyAM pitAnA hAtha paheLA karavA jAya che, tyAM te e pAlakha parathI nIce gabaDI paDyo ane je e paDayo, te tarata ja marI gaye. pAtratA vagaranA je hoya, teone dhana maLI jAya, te have e mArI pAsethI ja javuM ja nahi joIe"--evI dhunamAM AvI jAya ne ? to tyAM saMrakSaNAnubaMdhI raudradhyAna kevA ugra prakAranuM hoI zake? tethI vicAra karo ke paisA maLyA che, eTale mAruM e prakAranuM puNya to che, paNa paisAne pacAvavA jevuM haiyuM mArI pAse che ke nahi ?' pacAvavAnuM haiyuM na heya, to zuM thAya? sAcavavAne mATe, kAMI kAMI vikalpa karyo 22.
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________________ 338 cAra gatinAM kAraNe kare. enuM mana, tyAM ne tyAM ja AMTA mAryA kare. emAM je pisA jAya, to zuM thAya? pisA Ave te levAnA jema keDa che, tema jAya to sahavAnI zakti paNa che ke nahi? sahavAnI zakti nathI hatI ne pisA jAya che, te raudradhyAna joradAra banI jAya che. haiyuM bahu krUra banI jAya che. "keNa laI gayuM haze ? je laI gayo hoya, te je hAthamAM AvI jAya, te ene jarA ya jato karuM nahi! AvA ceTTAone te ThekANe pADayA ja sArA !"--AvA AvA te keTalAya kUratAbharyA vicAra karI nAkhe. pisA laI janArane zedhavAne mATe ya pisA kharce ! kahevAya che ne ke-khAtara pAchaLa dIvela ! paisA laI janArane zedhI kADhavAne mATe paisA kharcane jAya ane "e pakaDAI jAya te enuM zuM zuM karI nAkhavuM -enA vicAro paNa karato jAya. AvezamAM ne AvezamAM, te, je paisA gayA hoya tenA karatAM paNa vadhAre paisA, e paisAne laI janArane zodhavAnI pAchaLa kharcI nAkhe, ema paNa bane ! Ama, paisA ya gumAve ane raudradhyAnanA ge pApe pArjana paNa kare ! ema chatAM ya, pelo na pakaDAya, evuM paNa bane ne? pelo pakaDAya nahi, eTale A vaLI vadhAre rUe! AvA vakhatamAM je AyuSyane baMdha paDI jAya, to te kyI gatinA AyuSyano baMdha paDe, e vicArI juo! paisA AvavAnuM pariNAma pisA paNa vikine page; bAkI che, e Ave ne jIvane pasA paNa bhAre raudradhyAnane svAmI banAvI de. paisAvALo thayo, eTale na thayo. eTale e saune avizvAsu banI jAya ane game tevA sArA mANasa
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________________ 339 pahelA bhAga upara paNa zaMkA laI jatAM vAra lagADe nahi. e te ' va zvAsaH zriyo mUlam '-evA vAkacane kharAkhara yAda rAkhI le ane enA amala paNa karyAM kare. keTalA ya evA dAkhalAo che ke-jyAre sAmAnya sthiti hatI, tyAre AkhuM kuTuMma lhera karatuM hatuM ane paisA AvyA, eTale mitra jevA bhAI o paNa vairI jevA dekhAvA lAgyA. nANAM Ave, eTale namratA jAya ane khumArI Ave. nAnA joDe besavuM game nahi. sAthe esavAne mATe sameAvaDIo joI e; eTale, sAmAnya sthitinA sagA jema na game, tema sAdharmika paNa na game. elacAlanI rIta paNa pharI jAya, kema ke--paisAnA naze| caDhI jAya che. jema vadhAre khavAya tA AphA caDhI jAya ne ?, tema pAtratA karatAM paisA adhika maLI jAya, teA magaja ThekANAsara rahe nahi ne ? tamane pace teTaluM maLyuM che ke ethI vadhAre maLyuM che? paisAdAra thatAM pahelAM tamArUM je haiyuM hatuM, temAM paisA AvyA pachI, khagADA thayeA che ke sudhArA thayA che? hiMsAdikanI ceAjanAo ghaDavAmAM magaja vadhAre rAkAeluM rahe che ke ene ghaTADavAmAM magaja vadhAre rokAeluM rahe che ? keLavIne asatya melA ne? mArI pAse paisA adhika che' evuM jo koi jANI jAya, tA mArI pAse paisA mAge, evI kalpanAthI paNa tame juThThuM AlA ne ? ane te paNa ceAjanApUrvakanuM jIruM paNa khelA ne? peAtAnI pAse hoya ghaNuM ane ghaNuM che ema batAvavuM nA hoya. tathA thADuMka ja che--ema batAvavuM hoya, teA e mATe, keTakeTaluM jIruM keTakeTaluM keLavIne khelavuM paDe ? saMrakSaNanI vRtti
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________________ 340 cAra gatinAM kAraNe bahu hoya, to dharmasthAnamAM paNa evuM keLavIne bele ke tame dhAre che tevuM mArI pAse che ja nahi." manamAM te samaje che ke A dhAre che te karatAM ya mArI pAse vadhAre che, chatAM bele zuM? "dhAre che tevuM nathI!" gharamAM kaI khAnagImAM pUche ke-"kema AvuM bolyA?" te kahe ke ema belIe nahi, te choDe nahi!" manamAM ya vicAra kare ke ThIka thayuM ke AvuM be, eTale bacI gaye!" janApUrvaka asatya bole ane pachI tenI anumodanA paNa kare ! maMdira, upAzraya AdimAM paisA ApatAM bacI jaIe te sAruM ne ? evuM karavAmAM bacI jaIe chIe ke bhAre phasAI jaIe chIe, e vAta bahu vicAravA jevI che. tamane raudradhyAna te hoya, paNa sAvadha che ke nahi? jemanuM raudradhyAna maMda paDyuM hoya, tevA abhavI ane durbhavI, kaI paNa tevA prakAranI dharmakiyAe AdinA pratApe svargAdikamAM paNa jAya che, eTale raudradhyAna heya teTalA mAtrathI gabharAI javAnI jarUra nathI, paNa tapAsavuM e joIe ke-ApaNuM raudradhyAna ugra keTinuM che ke manda keTinuM che? raudradhyAnamAM AvI javAya, te te haiyAne khaTake che ke nahi? e mATe, A vAta che ketamane je paisA maLyA che te te puNyane maLyA che, paNa je paisA maLyA che agara maLaze, tene pacAvavAnI tAkAta tamArA haiyAmAM che ke nahi? dharmagurUne saghaLI sthiti jaNAvavI paDe? tame kadAca bIje game tema bolatA he, paNa dharmagu-- rUonI pAse te sAcI vAta kare ne?
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________________ pahelA bhAga ' sthiti hoya tevI mArA ugArA kema jeTalA bhagavAnanA sa0 dharmagurUonI sAthe saMsAranI vAta karavAnI hoya ? dharmagurUonI pAse, saMsAranI vAta, saMsAranA hetuthI karavAnI na hoya, paNa saMsArathI chUTavAne mATe tA karavAnI hAya ne ? dharmagurUonI pAse te, peAtAnI jevI dekhADI daI ne, * A sthitimAM huM chuM, tA thAya ? '-ema pUchavuM joie. Ama tA zAsananA sAdhu, eTalA badhA dharmagurU; paNa je dharmagurUthI Adha pAmyA ane dharmane levAnI IcchA thaI, temanI pAse tA adhI vAtanA ekarAra karavA joIe ne? samyakRtvanA dAnamAM paNa, e vidhi che ke-jene samyaktva uccaravuM hoya, teNe samyaktva uccaratAM pahelAM, dharmadAtA gurUnI pAse peAtAnI saghaLI ya sthiti rajU karI devI joIe. e vinA, samyaktva uccarAvAya nahi. prAyazcitta mAtra levuM hAya, teA paNa je pApanuM prAyazcitta levuM hoya, te pApane kevI kevI rItie sevyuM, te pApa karatAM pahelAM kevuM vicAryuM ane te pApa karyAM pachIthI kevuM vicAryuM, e vagere badhuM ja vigatavAra varNavavuM joIe. dharmagurU prAyazcitta ApatAM pahelAM, pharIthI paNa e vigatAne pUche ane prAyazcitta lenAre te pharIthI paNa kahevI joI e. samyaktva apAya-levAya tethI lAbha 341 sa0 samyaktva, e zuM ApavA-levAnI cIja che? vidhipUrvaka cAgya jIvane ceAgya gurU dvArA samyakRtvanuM uccAraNa karAvAya, te te paNa samyaktva na hoya teA 5mADanAra bane che. samyaktva kharAkhara uccare ane enI maryAdA jALavyA kare, te emAMthI paNa samyagdarzana mATe jarUrI pira
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________________ 342 cAra gatinAM kAraNe NAma pedA thAya. jema sAdhune Aghe. yegya jIvane A e Ape che, te A eghAnA ge paNa, A ghAne hAthamAM lenArA bhAgyavAnanA AtmAnA pariNAme upara, evI asara pedA thavA pAme, ke jene laIne sarvaviratinA pariNAma na hoya, te te Ave ane hoya to te TakyA rahe. egha hAthamAM hoya, to te keTalAM ya pApakarmothI ke. ene sInemA jovAnuM mana thaI jAya, te paNa e jevA jaI zake nahi ane pAchuM mana ThekANe AvI jAya. rAtre bahAra bhaTakavAnuM mana thaI jAya, to ya te bahAra nIkaLI zake nahi ane pAchuM mana ThekANe AvI jAya. e hAthamAM rAkhIne paNa je AnI maryAdAne cUke, enI vAta judI che; bAkI, A veSa e che ke-AtmAmAM je lAyakAta hoya, te sarvaviratinA pariNAma na hoya, te pedA karavAmAM madadagAra thAya ane sarvaviratinA pariNAme hoya, to tene sthira karavAmAM tathA jatA aTakAvavAmAM madadagAra banI jAya. A veSa vagara sAdhu paNAnuM pAlana thaI zake nahi. keI jIva vizeSa ema ne ema kevalajJAna pAmI jAya, e vAta judI che; paNa sarvaviratinA pariNAme je pragaTyA hoya, to te pariNAmone TakAvavAne mATe A veSa jarUrI che. A veSa apAya che, te zuM kahevAya ? sAdhupaNuM ApyuM ne sAdhupaNuM lIdhuM, ema ja bolAya che ne? te tame e vicAre ke-sAdhupaNuM, e haiyAnI cIja che ke te ApavA-levAnI cIja che? sAdhupaNuM, e vastutaH haiyAnI ja cIja che, te chatAM paNa veSanI mahattA keTalI? tema samyakRtva paNa ApI zakAya ane laI zakAya. cogya rItie e je apAya, levAya ane paLAya, te ethI lAbha ja thAya.
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________________ pahele bhAga 343 dharmanA denAra ane dharmanA lenAra aMgenI caturbhagImAM karyo bhAMge sauthI sAre ? vAta te e hatI ke jeNe samyaktva uccaravuM hoya, teNe samyakatvadAtA gurUnI pAse potAnI Antarika ane bAhya sarva sthitine yathAsthita rUpamAM ekarAra kara joIe. saha Aje ATalI kALajI rakhAya che? jeTale aMze, jenA taraphathI, jeTalI kALajI na rakhAtI hoya, teTale aMze bhUla thAya che, e cokkasa bInA che. Aje A bAbatamAM paNa bahu avidhi cAlI rahyo che, e kabUlyA vinA cAle tema nathI. enI paNa caturbhagI che. lenAra ane denAra-bane ya jaNA, je levAya che ane je devAya che, tenA svarUpane jANanArA hoya; je levAya che ane je devAya che, tenA svarUpane denAra jANakAra hoya, paNa lenAra jANakAra na hoya; je levAya che ane je devAya che-tenA svarUpane denAra jANakAra na hoya, paNa lenAra jANakAra heya, ane je levAya che ane je devAya che-tenA svarUpane jANakAra, na to lenAra hoya ke na te denAra heya! A cAra bhAMgAomAM, taddana nakAme chelle bhAMge che ane sauthI sAro pahelo bhAga che. je levAya che ane je devAya che tenA svarUpathI ane jANakAra hoya, te emAM adhika lAbha thAya; ane banne ya ajANa hoya, to ethI zuM nukazAna thAya, te kahI zakAya nahi. jema vepArI pramANika ane grAhaka huMzIyAra heya, te sauthI sAruM. vepArine haMmezane grAhaka maLI jAya eTale vakaro vadhe ane grAhakane je mAla lIdhe tenI pichAna hoya, to te ene kare I upaga karI
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________________ cAra gatinAM kAraNeA zake. grAhaka ajANa hAya, paNa vepArI pramANika hoya tyAM sudhI grAhaka chetarAya nahi, paNa grAhakane bhUlamAM paDI javAno saMbhava ghaNA. vepArI apramANika hoya ne grAhaka catura hoya, tA grAhaka chetarAya nahi, joitA mAla laI le ane pachI bIjo vepArI zeAdhI le. jyAM vepArI apramANika ane grAhaka bheAMTha hAya, tyAM grAhaka lUMTAI jAya. tamane kevA grAhaka game ? apramANika vepArine teA mUrkha grAhaka ja game ne ? grAhake paisA ApIne mAla levAno che, mATe sAvadha bahu rahevuM paDe ne ? tame paisA dhIratAM ke hisAba cUkavatAM, sAmAnI peDhI sArI hAya, AbarUdAra hoya, te chatAM paNa e peDhI taraphathI paisA levA AvanArA dAdhAraMgo hAya, tA tene pAcho kADho ne ? sAmA peDhIvALAne paNa kaho ne ke-mANasa te jarA sArA mekale!? tame je levaDa-devaDa karA, te samajathI karI ne ? eNe zuM ApyuM ne meM zuM lIdhuM athavA meM zuM ApyuM ane eNe zuM lIdhuM-enI amane gama nathI, ema bemAMthI eke ya kahe kharA ? nahi ja, tema dharmanI vAtamAM paNa lenAra-denAra annee peAta peAtAnA adhikAra Adine samajavA joIe. 344 sa0 AvI vAta dharmagurUe samajAvavI joI e ne ? dharmagurUnI e kaja che, paNa jema apramANika vepArI grAhakane mUrkha banAvavAne Icche, tevuM ahIM paNa evuM bhaLatuM ja kAMIka bane, teA e paNa zakaya ja che. apramANika vepArI kAMI 'huM apramANika chuM '-ema kahe nahi; grAhake ja parIkSA karavI paDe; tema, dhArA ke dharmagurUe tamane na samajAvyuM hoya, paNa tame jo dharmanA arzI hota, tA tame pUchyA vinA kema rahyA hota kharA ?
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________________ pahele bhAga 345 vyavahAramAM ne dharmasthAnamAM ya asatya : tame paisAdAra ho, tyAre tamArI kharI sthitine chUpAvavAnuM tamane keTaluM badhuM mana thAya che ? paisAdAra tarIkenI AbarU hoya ane paisA rahyA na hoya, tevA vakhate lokanA paisAthI pisAdAra tarIkenI AbarUne sAcavI rAkhavAne mATe, keTakeTalAM asatyone keLavIne belo che? ane, jyAre pAse paisA hoya, tyAre ya koIne paisA ApavA na paDe-e mATe, keTakeTalAM asatyane keLavIne bolo cho? tamArI sthiti, moTe bhAge, tame tamArA aMgata mitrathI paNa chUpAvavAne mAthe ne? ochI sthitivALAne te na kahe, paNa sarakhe sarakhAne paNa pitAnI sthiti sAcA rUpamAM jaNAve nahi, kema ke-je e jANe, te avasare mAgI bese ne ? ja enI sAthe beThA hoya, sAthe khAdhuM-pIdhuM hoya, sneha-saMbaMdhanI ghaNuM ghaNI vAte karI hoya, chatAM ene ya enI jarUra vakhate ApavAnI IcachA hoya nahi! AvA mANaseno vyavahAra, ke hoya che? A pelAne zeTha kahe ane pelo Ane zeTha kahe! paisA bacI jAya, e mATe keLavI keLavIne asatya balavAnI kuTeva, dharmasthAnomAM ya tamAro pIcho choDe nahi, te e keTaluM badhuM kharAba kahevAya? maMdiramAM ke upAzrayamAM koI uchAmaNI thatI hoya ane temAM vadhate vadhate bhAvanA TakI na zake eTale aTakI jAva, tyAre koI pUche ke zeTha tame AgaLa kema vadhyA nahi?" e vakhate tame zuM kaho? evA vakhate, pitAnI sthiti pahoMcatI hovA chatAM paNa, dhIme rahIne potAnI sthiti pahecatI nathI-evuM batAvI devAnI kuneha nahi vAparanArA keTalA?
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________________ 346 cAra gatinAM kAraNe uchAmaNImAM na belivuM hoya, tyAre sthiti kharAba che evuM, batAvI denArA keTalA? bele zuM? "hamaNAM vahepAra-dhaMdhA keTalA badhA khalAsa thaI gayA che? saune atyAre kamANI cheDI che ane kharca ghaNe che." kharI vAta e hoya ke-bIjAonA vahepAra dhaMdhA na cAlatA hoya, paNa eno cAlato hoya. e kamANI ja karate hoya, paNa saphatathI belIne chaTakavAno prayatna kare. enA badale sAcuM kahe ke-"sthiti che, paNa bhAva jAgavo joIe ne?" te zuM vAMdho Ave? paNa tyAM AbarU sAcavavI che. kayI AbarU? pAse ghaNA paisA che ke mArI sthiti sArI che, evI AbarU nahi; paNa evI AbarU kemArI pAse sagavaDa hoya, te AmAM dIdhA vinA agara to vadhu dIdhA vinA huM rahuM ja nahi!" AvI AbarU meLavavAnA ane ene sAcavavAnA manamAM kaMDa che, eTale, zrI jinamaMdirAdi dharmasthAnomAM paNa, keTalAka keLaveluM asatya belavAnI bhUla kare che. dhana sAcavavAnI vRtti zuM sarje che? - pitAnuM je kAMI hoya, tene sAcavI-saMbhALI rAkhavAnI IcchAmAMthI, te IcchAne saphala karavAnA hetuthI je dhyAna jame, te paNa raudradhyAna che. pelI IcchA jeTalI prabaLa hoya, teTaluM A dhyAna paNa ugra bane ne ? enA ge, keTakeTalAM asatya bolAya? je maLyuM ane maLe, tene sAcavI rAkhavAnI buddhi paNa keTakeTalAM pApomAM phasAve? hiMsA, asatya ane corI vagere pApa, e karAve ne? e pApe te karAve tyAre karAve, paNa te pahelAM mana kevuM bane ? sAcavavAne mATe, kevA kevA
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________________ 347 pahele bhAga saMgomAM zuM zuM karavuM joIe, enA dhyAnamAM lAgI jAya, te hiMsA, asatya, cerInA keTakeTalA ghATa ghaDI nAkhe? je cera AmathI levA Ave te Ama ThAra kare, ema paNuM thAya ke ? kaI pUchaze tyAre Ama kahIza, evo asatyano paNa vyavasthita vicAra thAya ke? ahIM bhayanuM kAraNa bane ane bIje dhanane khaseDavAnI jarUra hoya, te keIne jaNAya. nahi agara dANa vagere bharavuM paDe nahi, e mATe cerI karavI ane te amuka amuka rItie karavI, ema paNa thAya che? hiMsAnI kriyA, asatyanI kriyA ane cArInI kiyA karatAM paNa, saMrakSaNanI vRttithI dhyAnamagna banI, hiMsAdinI yojanAnuM tame citana ane ghaDatara kare, e vadhAre kharAba che, ema lAge che? parigrahane lAbha keTale bhUDe che? lakamI AvI na hoya paNa AvavAnI hoya, chatAM ene Ama sAcavIza ne tema sAcavIza, ene sAcavavAne mATe Ama karIza ne tema karIza, evuM dhyAna AvI jAya kharuM ke ? AvuM raudradhyAna tIvra prakAranuM bane te narakAdinuM kAraNa bane che, evuM jANanAre, evuM dhyAna na Ave te mATe vicAre upara kAbU rAkhavAne prayatna karyA kare ne ? maLelA dhanAdinA saMrakSaNane prayatna kare, te paNa, e mATe jema bane tema mana dUSita na thavA pAme tenI kALajI rAkhe ne? jema viveka vadhAre, tema pAkiyA karavA chatAM paNa, e karyA pahelAM, e karatI veLAe ane e karyA pachI pApavicAre ochA ane "ThIka nathI karato" vagere. vicAro vadhAre, ema bane ne ? raudradhyAna narakanuM kAraNa hovA chatAM paNa, samyagdaSTine, vratadhArI zrAvakane ane sAdhune ya e na ja hoya -evuM nahi; eTale, enI jeTalI maMdatA thAya teTaluM sAruM,
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________________ 348 cAra gatinAM kAraNe ema samajAya che ne ? samyagdaSTi Adine raudradhyAna AvI jAya, paNa e jana to e na Ave enI kare ne ? enuM lakSya, e raudradhyAna bhUlecUke paNa na Ave, e tarapha heya ne ? tame paNa have te raudradhyAnathI bacatA rahevAnI kALajI avazya rAkhavAnA ne ? dharmasthAnomAM AvatI TIpane baMdha karAvavAno vicAra kare ' 'e ya zobhe nahi? Aje keTalAkanI phariyAda che ke-"dharmasthAnamAM paisAnI TIpa na Ave to sAruM. paisAnI TIpa Avaze, te leka Avaze nahi." paNa eTalo vicAra karatA nathI ke dharmasthAne, e te dAnAdikanAM sthAne che. dharmasthAnomAM dAna, zIla, tapa ane bhAva-e cAre ya prakArane dharma zakti, sAmagrI ane adhikAra Adi mujaba sevavAne hoya. dAnAdika mATenAM A sthAnemAM, dAna levAne mATe kaI Ave, te tene niSedha kema karI zakAya? tamArI zakti na hoya, te AvanArane zakti nathI-ema kahevuM joIe, ochI zakti hoya, te ochuM paNa ullAsathI ApIne hAtha joDavA joIe; paNa "keIe dharmakArya mATe Tepa karavAne ahIM AvavuM nahi "--ema kahevAya nahiH kema ke-A sthAne to zakti mujaba dAnAdi karavAne mATenAM ja che. zakti, sAmagrI ane bhAvanA hoya, te A sthAnamAM TIpa karavAne mATe jeo na AvatA hoya, teone pate belAvavA joIe. ahIM te, zakti-sAmagrI hoya teNe, dAnAdikanA bhAvathI agara te dAnAdikanA bhAvane pedA karavAne mATe paNa dAnAdika karavAM joIe. Avo vicAra
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________________ 349 pahele bhAga AvavAne badale, have vyAkhyAna vakhate TIpa karanArAo na Ave, evI vyavasthA karavI joIe"--evo vicAra kema Avyo? Aje TIpe vadhI gaI che-e sAcuM; meTe bhAge sthitimAM meTo pheraphAra thaI gaye che-e paNa sAcuM; kharcA ghaNI rItie vadhI gayA che-e paNa sAcuM; paranta bhAvanAmAM moTuM ane khoTuM parivartana AvI gayuM che, e paNa eTaluM ja sAcuM che. bhAvanAmAM parivartana AvI javAthI, je kharcAo kharekhara ghaTADavA jevA che, te kharcAone ghaTADavAnA prayatnamAM lAgI javAne badale, dAnAdika na karavAnA prayatnomAM lAgI javAyuM che ane te adhogatinI nizAnI che. tame jarA DAhyA thaIne. vicAra karaze, te tamane paNa A vAta samajAze. jenanA haiyAmAM dAnAdikanA niSedhano vicAra Ave khare? jenane te ema thayA kare ke-"mArA khAvAnA bhANumAMthI paNa huM keIne thoDuM ke ya ApI zakuM to sAruM !" je jaino ema mAnatA hoya ke-dAnAdikamAM je lakSmI vagere vaparAyuM te ja saphala che, te jaino TIpa karanArAone AvavAno niSedha karavAnI vicAraNA kare, te kema zebhe ? Aje jeTalI zakti ghaTI. che, tenA karatAM bhAvanA vadhAre ghaTI che. AvA kALamAM te, dAnAdikanI bhAvanAne khUba ja uttejita karavI joIe. ema thavuM joIe ke viSama kALa AvyuM che. kyAre lUMTAI jaIzuM, tenI khAtrI nathI. kene daI devA paDaze te sujhatuM nathI. ene badale, saMtoSathI besI jAuM ane vadhArAnuM je kAMI hoya tene sadupayoga karI lauM ! AgevAnonuM zANapaNa : - jyAM AgevAne DAhyA hoya che, tyAM AvI bhAMjagaDa
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________________ 350 cAra gatinAM kAraNe ubhI thatI nathI. TIpa karavAne mATe bahAragAmathI je bhAIe Ave, tene AgevAne ghare laI jAya ane AdarathI jamADe. pachI, badhI hakIkata pUchI le ane jue ke-hamaNAM TIpamAM vadhAre nANAM bharAya tema nathI, te evI rItie vAta kare ke-sAmAnA haiyAmAM AradabhAva janme. e kahe ke "tame ahIM TIpa laIne AvyA te bahu sAruM thayuM; amane sArA kAmamAM be paisA kharcavAnI taka tamArA AvavAthI maLI, ahIM badhAnI sthiti sArI hota, te tamAruM kAma ahIM ja patAvI deta; paNa hamaNAM saMge anukULa nathI, eTale tame dhArI hoya tevI meTI TIpa ame na karI ApI zakIe, te tethI duHkha lagADaze nahi; tame AvyA che, eTale tamane phula nahi te phulanI pAMkhaDI paNa ame ApIzuM, paNa tame ochuM maLyuM mAnIne nirAza thaze nahi!" Ama temane samajAvI de ane saMghamAM vAta mUkIne zakti mujaba TIpa bharAvI Ape. AvanArAo ghaNuM levAnI AzAe AvyA hoya ane maLe thoDuM-ema bane, paNa AgevAne varte evI rItie kepelA nirAza thavAne badale khUza thaIne jAya ! moTI AzA rAkhavAmAM pate bhUla karI hatI-ema emane lAge, paNa thoDuM ApanAra mATe duHkha lAge nahi ! jyAM jAya tyAM e vAta kare ke-"amuka gAme gayA hatA. tyAM AgevAna zeThIyAo bahu samaju ! TIpa to maTI thaI zake tema nahotuM, paNa emaNe je prema batAvyo, te visarI zakAya evuM nathI !" tame AvuM te karI zake ke nahi ? Aje Tepa karavA AvanAra kyAM utaryA che ane kyAM jame che, tenI cintA tame karo kharA ? emane joIne "A AvyA te be paisA
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________________ 351 pahelo bhAga sArA mArge kharcAze"--ema thAya kharuM? "Ama to sthiti evI thaI gaI che ke-kharcavAne ullAsa na Avata, paNa ThIka thayuM ke A AvyA, eTale thoDuM paNa sArA mArge kharcAze.... AvI rItie vicAra karo kharA ? zakti te nAza pAmI rahI che, kema ke-puNya khUTatuM haze; paNa tame tamArI meLe tamArI bhAvanAne ane bIjAonI bhAvanAne paNa nAza karI nAkhavAnuM pApa, zuM kAma vahorI rahyA che? garIba paise duHkhI ane zrImaMta haiye duHkhI keTalAkane to, pasAnI prApti cAlu hovA chatAM paNa, lobhe eTalA badhA gheryA che ke-ghaNAne A vAta gamatI nathI; eTale A vAta mUkI che ke-jeTalA pisA pAmavA jeguM puNya che, teTalA paisAne pacAvavA jeguM haiyuM che ke nahi? pitAnI mane dazA kevI che, e jANavAnuM A eka mApaka yaMtra che. pisA Ave, eTale ene haiyAmAM useka na Ave, nAnAene anAdara karavAnuM mana thAya nahi; hiMsAdikathI bharelA dhaMdhAone sarjavAnI athavA to evA dhaMdhAomAM ThekedAra banavAnI rUci thAya nahi; asatyAdi taraphanuM valaNa vadhe nahi; tema ja, jyAre paNa potAnA paisAthI koInA duHkhanuM nivAraNa karavAnI taka AvI lAge, tyAre AnaMda thAya; dharmasthAnamAM lakSamI vAparavAnA manoratho pragaTe; pase jAya te ya khamI khAvAnuM mana thAya; AvuM AvuM kAMI manamAM che ke nahi? ke pachI, eka paisA ja maLI gayA che? moTe bhAge te Aje evI hAlata jaNAya che ke-garIba mukhyatve pese duHkhI che ane zrImaMta mukhyatve haiye duHkhI che. pelo paise
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________________ 35ra cAra gatinAM kAraNe nathI mATe jyAM-tyAM AgaLa AvI zake nahi ane A pase sAcavI rAkhavAne mATe "AgaLa AvIe te paisA ApavA paDe ne?AvuM vicArIne, paisA nahi ApavA paDe, e mATe satAte phare. garIba paisA nathI mATe dIna bane che ane zrImaMta pisA devA paDe nahi, e mATe dIna banI jAya che. pisAnA rakSaNa mATe AvI janAo ghaDyA karanArA che, raudradhyAnathI khUba khUba rIbAtA heya, te te svAbhAvika che. A koI sAdAI nathIH zrImaMta hovA chatAM paNa, je che raudradhyAnathI khUba rabAtA hoya che, teo sukhe khAya paNa nahi ane sukhe khAvA de paNa nahi! enAM chokarAMo ane enA gharanAM bIjA mANase enA pApe cerI Adi karatAM zIkhe che. e bahAra jAya, enI e rAha jotA hoya che ane jyAM jarAka e melavA-mUkavAmAM bhUla kare ke-A uThAvI levAne taiyAra hoya che. A pUche te enA aMgata saMbaMdhIjane paNa enI bIkane lIdhe khoTuM bole. AvI sthiti je vadhI jAya che, te khUda enA nikaTanA sagAo, sagA chokarAo paNa, enA maraNane Icche che. kaI kaI vAra sagA chokarAo vagerene paNa ema thaI jAya ke-"A have mAre te sAruM, ke jethI ApaNe sukhe bhegavI te zakIe?" emAMthI kavacit jhera dIdhAne prasaMga paNa bane. evA badhA, bheganI lAlasAnA yoge, AvI rItie durgAnathI pIDAya ane bhayaMkara pApane upArja. paNa, emAM nimitta te A bane ne? AnI te, badhI janAo ja e jAtinI ke-paisA bace kema? Ama khAdhuM
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________________ pahelA bhAga 313 na hoya ne Ama paheryuM na heAya tathA ATaluM khAdhuM hAya ne ATaluM paheryuM hoya, teA paisA bace ema dhArIne, gharamAM saunA khAvA-pIvA upara ane paheravA-ADhavA upara paNa akuza mUke. AvA mANasa, keAI paisA laI nA jAya, e mATe hiMsAnI, asatyanI ane cArInI keTakeTalI yeAjanA manamAM ghaDavA kare ? AvI vRttithI ochuM khAya ne enDru pahere, e sAdAi nathI; paNa haiyAmAM saLagI rahelA durdhyAnanA agninuM e pratIka che. tyAgabuddhithI, hiMsAdikathI kharcavAnI muddhithI, sAmAnya khAya ane sAmAnya rahe, e sArA; paNu kharca na thai jAya e mATe chatI lakSmIe sAdhAraNa rahe, te sAre| nahi. sAmAnya sthitine mANasa, peAtAnI sthitithI adhika kharca kare teA duHkhI ane ane A ema ne ema duHkhI rahyA kare. raudradhyAnamAM ja jIndagIne pasAra karIne, pachI e sukhe narake jAya; kAraNa ke-maratAM ya ene haiye te e ja vAta hoya ke huM jIndagImAM ATaluM kamAyA, paNa emAMthI ATaluM badhuM mUkI janAra tA mArA jevA kAIka ja ! traNe ya kALamAM du:khI thatA jIvA : AvA jIva kayAre sukha pAmaze, te teA jJAnI jANe. ahIM te ATalI meATI saMpattine pAmyA, eTale bhUtakALamAM eNe kAMIka ne kAMIka dharma tA karelA ja; kema ke-dharma karyAM na heAta, te saMpattinuM puNya sAMpaData nahi; parantu ATalI saMpatti maLavA chatAM paNa, A bhavamAM e je rItie varto, te uparathI evI kalpanA jarUra thaI zake ke eNe bhUtakALamAM dharma karelA, te vakhate ya AzAe karelA. te vakhate paNu, e 23
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________________ 354 cAra gatinAM kAraNe AzAnuM dukha jarUra anubhavatA haze. ene bhUtakALamAM AzAe pIDayo ane A bhavamAM saMrakSaNanI tIvra lAlasAe paDyo. pUrve AzAnuM duHkha, maLyuM tyAre bhagavAIna jAya tenI ciMtAnuM duHkha ane pAchaLa durgatinuM duHkha ! ApaNe tyAM mammaNa zeThane dAkhalo Ave che ne ? enI saMpatti keTalI? kahevAya che ke--mahArAjA zrI zreNika pAse je saMpatti hatI, te mammaNa zeThanI saMpattinI pAse keI visAtanI gaNAya nahi! paNa, e jIvato tela-geLA khAIne! eNe jeTaluM lakSamInI mUchathI sahana karyuM che, teTaluM ja je eNe mokSanI abhilASAthI mekSamArganI sAdhanAne mATe sahana karyuM hatuM, te e mekSane pAmyA vinA raheta nahi ! eTaluM badhuM sahana karanAre e, marIne gaye kyAM? sAtamI narake ! kema eNe khAdhuM pIdhuM ne paheryuM-oyuM nahi? eNe, vadhumAM vadhu sAdAIthI jIvana kema pasAra karyuM? vadhAre kharcAI jAya nahi, e mATe! eTale, bhUtakALamAM paisA mATe dharma karelo, ahIM paise maLyo te bhegavI zakAya nahi ane anta durgatinA duHkhamAM jaI paDo ! AvuM paNa bane ne ? raudradhyAna kuTilatAnA gharanuM che ane jo e joradAra banI jAya, jIva emAM ja je Asakta rahyA kare, te jarUra e narake laI jAya. tyAgavRttithI pite taje ne bIjAne khavaDAve narakanAM kAraNe saMsAramAM ThAMsI ThAMsIne bharelAM che. je koI bhAnabhUle bane ane raudradhyAnamAM rakta ja banyuM rahe, te te, AraMbhanI kriyA kare te ya narake jAya ane AraMbhanI kiyA na kare te ya narake jAya; dhana-dhAnyAdi parigraha tenI
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________________ pahele bhAga pAse pitAnA tarIke hoya, ya te narake jAya ane dhanadhAnyAdi parigraha tenI pAse potAnA tarIke na hoya, te yA te narake jAya. parigraha hoya nahi paNa meLavuM meLavuM karyA kare ane emAM hiMsAdikanI ejanAo ghaDayA ja kare, te zuM thAya? bhUtakALamAM, A Arya dezamAM to bhikhArIo paNuM evA hatA ke-Ape tene ya hAtha joDe ane na Ape tene ya hAtha joDe. keI na Ape te ya e kahe ke mAruM puNya nathI." Aje kahe che ke- Apa, nahi to joI laIza." jalAvI dauM tAruM ghara, ema manamAM vicAre che. kAM te lauM, nahi to tArI pAse rahevA dauM nahi, AvI vRtti AvatI jAya che. vagara khAdhe-pIdhe paNa pApa baMdhAI zake. lobhathI ochuM khAze to ya pApa baMdhAze. evA paNa sukhI hatA ane hoya kemahemAnane bAvana cIja pIrase ane pite be ja cIja khAya. kema? tyAganI vRttithI ! tyAganI vRttithI svayaM bahu tyAgI banavAnI AjJA che, paNa aucityamAM khAmI AvavA devI nahi. pote DuM khAya paNa rasoDuM meTuM rAkhe. bIjAone premathI jamADe. ene gherathI sAdhu-sAdhvIne nirdoSa AhAra-pANI ane pacca paNa nirdoSa maLe. eTale, ApaNe. tyAM badhuM vivekathI joIe. mananI dizAne pheravI nAkhIe, te durgatinAM kAraNe sevavA chatAM ca, tenAthI ghaNe aMze bacI zakAya ane sArA bhAva AdithI sagatine sAdhI zakAya. AthI, saue potapotAnA manane sudhAravAnI bAbatamAM te, khUba ja kALajIvALA banI javuM joIe. cAra gatinAM kAraNe-pahelo bhAga samApta.
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________________ jaina dRSTie iidina ane paryArAdhana - saMbaMdhI - saMgrahAtmaka mATA grantha [sane 1955 mAM pragaTa thaze ] sane 1954 nA DIsembaranI 31 mI tArIkha pahelAM zrI jaina pravacananA sane 1955nA lavAjama tarIke je grAhakAe rUA. 12-0-0 bharyAM haze, temane ' cAra gatinAM kAraNA-pahelA bhAga ' e grantha uparAnta, A mATe grantha paNa vinA mUlye ApavAmAM Avaze. A takane Apa cUkaze nahi. chUTaka nakalanuM mUlya rUA. 11-0-0 rAkhyuM che. zrI jaina pravacana kAryAlaya The. zeTha zrI manasukhabhAInI pALa sAme, kAlupura rADa-amadAvAda
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________________ zrI jaina pravacana kAryAlaya zeTha zrI manasukhabhAInI poLa sAme kAlupura rAhu amadAvAda