Maa Baap Chhokarano Vyavhar Granth

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Dada Bhagwan Foundation
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008859/1

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dAdA bhagavAna kathita mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra vaDhIne nahIM, premathI sudhAro mA-bApa chokarAMne sudhAravA mATe badhuM phekacara karI nAkhe che. ApaNe chokarAo mATe bhAva karyA karavA ke chokarInI buddhi savaLI karo, ema karatAM karatAM bahu dahADA thAya ne, asara paDayA vagara rahetI nathI. e to dhIme dhIme samajaze, tamAre bhAvanA vI. emanI kheMca karazo to avaLAM cAlaze. ane chokarAne to mArazo ja nahIM. koI bhUlacUka thAyane, to dhIme rahIne mAthe hAtha pheravIne samajaNa pADavAnI jarUra cheprema Ape tyAre choruMDA thAya. bAkI A saMsAra jema tema karIne nabhAvI levA jaivo che. * dAdAzrI ALa THE Fir

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samarpaNa anAdithI mA-bApa chorAno vyavahAra; rAgadveSanA baMdhane, mamatAno mAra! na sahevAya, na kahevAya, zuM thAya? kone pUche, koNa batADe eno upAya? mUMjhAyelA rAma, dazaratha ne zreNika; zravaNane joI, mA-bAponA haiye cIMkha! paraNyA pachI pale pale pUche 'gurU'ne; trikoNa sarjAya, na sUjhe kema karuM re! AjanAM chokarAM ya muMjhAya mA-bApathI; moTuM aMtara, re'janarezana gepa' thI! mokSano dhyeya, teNe taravo saMsAra; koNa bane sukAnI, machavo majhadhAra! Aja sudhInA jJAnIoe cIMdhyo vairAga; chaiyAMvALAM aTakyAM, kema thavuM vItarAga?! na koIe dekhADyo saMsAra sAthe mokSa mArga; kaLikALe accheruM 'dAdA'e dIdho akrama mArga! saMsAramAM rahI, thavAya vItarAga; pote thaI, 'dAdA'e pragaTAvyo cIrAga! e cIrAganI rozanImAM puge mokSe mumukSu! sAcA khapI pAme nizce ahIM divyacakSu! e rozanInA kiraNo pragaTayA 'A' graMthamAM! 'mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra' ukele paMthamAM! dIvAthI dIvA pragaTe pratyeka ghaTamAM; jagane samarpaNa A graMtha, pAma jhaTamAM! ////////// 3 F dAdA bhagavAna kathita mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra (saMkSipta) Wel Come saMkalana : DaoN. nIrubahena amIna F

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saMpAdakIya kayA avatAramAM chokarAM nathI thayAM ?! mA-bApa vinA konuM astitva hoI zake ? bhagavAno paNa mAne peTe ja janmyA hatA !!! Ama mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra anAdi anaMta che ! e vyavahAra AdarzatA kema karIne Ave te mATe badhA dinarAta mathatA dekhavAmAM Ave che. temAM ya A kaLikALamAM to vAtavAtamAM mA-bApa chokarAM vacce matabheda bhALavAmAM Ave che tyAre arerATI vyApI jAya ! satyugamAM ya bhagavAna rAma ane lavakuzano vyavahAra kevo hato ?! RSabhadeva bhagavAnathI aLago paMtha kADhanAra marIci kayAM na hatA ? dhRtarASTranI mamatA ne duryodhanano svachaMda kayAM jANIto nathI ? mahAvIranA vakhatamAM zreNIka rAjA ane putra koNIka mogalonI yAda apAve tema hatuM ! mogala bAdazAho jagaprakhyAta thayA tyAre ekabAju bAbara hato ke jeNe humAyunA jIvana mATe potAnA jIvanane sATAmAM ApavAnI allAne baMdagI karelI ? tyAre bIjI bAju zAhajahAnane jelamAM nAkhIne auraMgajheba gAdI para beThelo ! e ja rAma bApane khAtara ja vanavAsa cAlyA gayA hatA ! zravaNe mA-bApane kAvaDamAM besADI jAte UMcakIne jAtrA karAvelI ! (mukhapRSTa) Ama rAgadveSanI vacce jholAM khAto mA-bApa ane chokarAMno vyavahAra dareka kALamAM hoya che ! A kALamAM dveSano vyavahAra vizeSa vizeSa jovAmAM Ave che. pUrvArdha : mA-bApano chokarAM pratye vyavahAra. uttarArdha : chokarAMno mA-bApa pratye vyavahAra. parvArdhamAM parama pUjaya dAdAzrI mA-bApa sAthe satsaMga kare che. mAbApanI aneka muMjhavaNo saMpUjayazrI sAme aneka prasaMgoe raju thayelI. jenA sacoTa solyuzana pUjayazrIe ApyA che. jemAM mA-bApane vyavahArIka gUMcavADAnA samAdhAna maLe, temanAM potAnA aMgata jIvanamAM jAtane sudhAravAnI cAvIo maLe tema ja bALako sAthe vyavahAramAM paDatI muzkelIomAM aneka ukela prApta thAya che, ane jethI saMsAra vyavahAra sukhamaya pUro thAya. mA-bApa ane chokarAM vacce je rIleTiva saMbaMdha che, tattva draSTie je vAstavikatAo che e samaja paNa jJAnI purUSa Ape che jethI mokSa mArge AgaLa vadhavAmAM mA-bApane mudgha UDI jAya ane jAgRti khIle. te sarva graMthanA pUrvArdhamAM saMkalita thayuM che. jayAre uttarArdhamAM parama pUjaya dAdAzrI bALako, yuvAna chokarAo, chokarIo joDe satsaMga kare che ane temane potAnA jIvananI aMgata muMjhavaNonA samAdhAna meLavyA che. mA-bApa sAthe kevo vyavahAra karavo tenI samajaNa prApta thAya che, paraNavAnI bAbatamAM samaja evI sarasa prApta thAya che ke yuvAno potAnA jIvanamAM sAcI vAta samajIne pachI vyavahArano pUrepUro ukela lAvI zake. bALako potAnA mA-bApanI sevAnuM mahAtmaya ane pariNAma samaje tenI samajaNa graMthanA uttarArdhamAM samAveza thAya che. - * AvA kALamAM samatAmAM rahI Adarza vyavahAra karI nIkaLI javAno rasto akramavijJAnI saMpUjya zrI dAdAzrIe atre prarUpyo che ! AjanA yuvAvarganuM mAnasa saMpUrNapaNe jANI temane jItavAno rasto sUjhADayo che. paradezamAM vasatA bhAratIya mA-bApo tema ja bALakonI be dezanA bhinna bhinna kalcara vacce jIvana jIvavAnI kaThIna samasyAno suMdara ukela prasaMge prasaMge vAtacIta karatAM khullo karyo che. je sujJa vaDIla vAMcakone tema yuvAvargane khUba khUba upayogI banaze emanAM Adarza jIvana jIvavA mATe ! prastuta graMtha be vibhAgamAM saMkalana thaI prakAzita thAya che. mA-bApanI muMjhavaNo jevI ke chokarA mATe ATaluM badhuM karyuM, chatAM chokarAM sAmA thAya che tenuM zuM ? chokarAM moTAM thaIne AvA saMskArI thaze tevAM thaze vi. vi. svapnA bhAMgI jatAM jue tyAre je AghAta anubhave tenuM samAdhAna kevI rIte levuM ? keTalAMka chokarAM to mA-bApanA lagnajIvananuM sukha joIne paraNavAnI ja nA pADe tyAM zuM karavuM ?! mAbApe kaI rIte saMskAra sIMcana karavuM? pote kaI rIte enuM jJAna meLavavuM ?

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bAlamAnasane kevI 'kera'thI 'henDala' karAya ? mA-bApa kALI majUrI karI kamAya ne chokarAM UDAve to zuM eDajasTamenTa levuM ? bALakone svataMtratA apAya ? apAya to keTalI hada sudhInI ? chokaro dArUDiyo hoya to zuM pagalAM levAM ? vahu gALo de to zuM karavuM ? adhyAtma ane mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra eno kaI rIte samanvaya karavo, dhyeya mokSano lakSamAM rAkhIne ?! mA-bApa chokarAthI judA thAya to ? chokarIo rAtre moDI Ave to ? lapharAMvALI thaI gaI hoya to zuM karavuM ? paranAtamAM choDI paNI gaI to zuM karavuM ? choDI para zaMkA rahyA kare tenuM zuM ? vIla karavuM? kevuM karavuM ? kone keTaluM ApavuM ? maratA pahelA ApavuM ke pachI ? chokarA paisA mAge to zuM karavuM ? gharajamAI karAya ? kyAMthI meLavavuM ? bagaDelA bALakone kaI rIte sudhAravA ? vAte vAte mAbApa chokaro vaccenI athaDAmaNothI aTakAya zI rIte ? chokarAne mA-bApa bosIjhama karatAM lAge che ne mA-bApane chokarAM vaMThI gayelA lAge che; have Ano rasto zuM ? chokarAMne sAruM zIkhavADavA kahevuM to paDe ja tene chokarAM kacakaca mAnIne sAmo ArgyumenTasa kare tyAM zuM karavuM ? nAnA chokarAM, moTAM chokarAM sAthe kaI rIte judo judo vyavahAra goThavavo ? - gharanI bhinna bhinna prakRtiono sAco mALI kaI rIte banAya ? eno lAbha kaI samajaNathI UThAvI zakAya ? koI lobhI to koI lApho, koI cora. to koI oNliyo, AvI bhinna bhinna gharamAM chokarAMonI prakRtio hoya tenAM vaDIle zuM samajavuM ne zuM karavuM ? bApane dArU, bIDInuM vyasana paDI gayuM hoya tyAM kaI rIte tenAMthI chUTavuM ke jethI karIne chokarA para tenI kharAba asarathI bacAvI zakAya ? chokarAM divase, moDI rAta sudhI TI.vI. sInemA joyA kare tyAM kaI rIte temane bacAvavA ? navI janarezananI kaI sArI vastune dhyAnamAM laI teno lAbha UThAvavo ! kAlanA kaSAyI ane vartamAnanA viSayI janarezananI gepa kaI rIte pUravI ? ekabAju AjanI janarezananuM 'helvI mAInDa' joI garadana jhUkI jAya tema lAge ne bIjI bAju viSayAMdha dekhAya, tyAM zuM thaI zake ? moDA UThanAra chokarAMne kaI rIte sudhAravA ? bhaNavAmAM 'Dala' chokarAMne kaI rIte "Imyuva' karavA ? emane kaI rIte bhaNavAmAM 'enkareja' karavA ? chokarA joDe vyavahAra karatAM paTTA tUTI jAya to kaI rIte "kAunTara pulIo' goThavavI ? chokarAM aMdaroaMdara laDhe to kaI rIte taTastha rahI jAya toLavo ? chokarAM rIsAya tyAre zuM karavuM ? chokarAMnA krodhane baMdha karavA zuM karavuM ? chokarAMne Takora karAya ? chokarAMne vaDhAya ? vaDhAya ke Takora karAya to kaI rIte ? chokarAne vaDhe to kayuM karma baMdhAya ? emane duHkha thAya teno upAya zuM ? chokarAne marAya ? mArI devAya to zuM upAya ? kAca jevA chokarAM para keTalo moha rakhAya ? lAgaNI, mamatA enuM zuM rahasya che ? keTalI phAyadAkAraka ? "guru" AvatAM ja dIkaro pATalI badalI de tyAre zuM karavuM ? jene chokarA nA hoya tenuM karma kevuM kahevAya ? chokarAM nA hoya to ? zrAddha sarAvI mukti koNa karAve ? nAnI uMmaramAM bhUlakAM marI jAya tyAM mA-bApe kema karIne sahI levuM ? tenA mATe zuM karavuM ? pUjya dAdAzrInAM bALako marI gayA tyAre temaNe zuM kareluM ? rIlezana phATatAM hoya to kaI rIte sAMdhavuM ? jJAnIo kayA jJAnathI saMsAra sAgara taravAno e rasto batAve che ! kaLIne khIlavavAnI kaLA jJAnInI kevIka hoya te jovA maLe che ahIM be varSathI bAra varSanA bhUlakAMne khIlavatAM joIe to khUba khUba zIkhavA maLe, prema, samatA ne AtmIyatAno raMga ! chokarAne bhaNatara, gaNatara ne ghaDatara traNe ya kaI rIte apAya ? chokarAM paraNavAlAyaka thAya tyAre moTo prazna AvIne khaDo thAya che,

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prastAvanA pAtranI pasaMdagI kevI ne kaI rIte karavI ? pUjyazrI, chokarAone temaja chokarIone khUba ja suMdara mArgadarzana Ape che jethI mA-bApa, chokarAM vacce sumeLa rahI pAtranI pasaMdagI thAya ! chokarIoe sAsarImAM badhAMne premathI vaza karavAnI suMdara cAvIo pUjayazrI pUrI pADe che. mA-bApanI sevA, vinaya, emano rAjIpo levo, tenuM mahatva zuM ne kaI rIte levAya ? aMtamAM gharaDAMonI vyathA ne tenA ukelamAM gharaDAMgharanI jarUriyAta ne adhyAtma jIvana kema jIvavuM tenuM suMdara mArgadarzana prastuta graMthamAM saMkalita thAya che je vAMcIne samajatA mA-bApa ane chokarAMo bannene Adarza vyavahAramAM mUkI de che ! DaoN. nIrubahena amIna mA-bApa chokarAMno thayo vyavahAra; anaMtakALathI, na to ya Avyo pAra! 'meM ucheryA, bhaNAvyA', na bolAya; 'tamane koNe bhaNAvyA ?" tyAM zuM thAya? chokarAMnI pharajo badhI che pharajiyAta! tAruM badhuM karanAro hato ja ne bApa? amasto dabaDAvIne nA Apa tApa; moTAM thaIne chokarAM karaze tAruM zAka! chokarAM AvAM hoya tema khoLe; pote kevAM banne jhagaDe, te na tole! mA mULo ne bApa hoya gAjara! chokarAM sapharajaMda kayAMthI propara! eka bALaka ucheravAnI javAbadArI; bhAratanA vaDApradhAna karatAM bhArI! 'tArA karatAM joI meM vadhAre divALI; chokarAM kahe, 'tame koDIyAmAM ne ame vIjaLI'! mA-bApanA jhagaDA, bagADe bALa mAnasa; paDe AMTIo, mAne emane bogasa! vaDhIne na sudhare AjanAM chokarAM kadi; premathI vaLI, ujALaze be hajAranI sadI! mAro vaDho to ya na ghaTe prema; premathI ja thAya bALa, mahAvIra jema! navI janarezana helthI mAInDavALI; che viSayI, na kaSAyI evA mAlavALI ! 10

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gussAnA paDaghAM, jhIle chokarAM bApa karatAM ane savAyA, AkarAM! ghera ghera prAkRtika khetarAM satyugamAM; bhinna bhinna phulonAM bagIcA kaLiyugamAM! mALI bane to bagIco suMdara saje; nahi to bagaDI gayA, kaSAyo bhaje! na karAya choDI para kadi zaMkA; sAMbhaLI le barabAdInA DaMkA! chokarAMne vArasAmAM apAya keTaluM? ApaNane bApa pAsethI maLeluM teTaluM! vadhAre Apazo to thaze uDAu; | dArUDiyo thaI karaze tane ja myAMuM! jeTalo chokarAM para rAga ubharAya; eTalo ja Sa "rIpemAM bhogavAya! rAgadveSathI chUTavA thA vItarAga; bhavapAra thavAno A eka ja mArga! mokSa mATe vAMjhIyA mahApuNyazALI; khoLo nahi paNa copaDo lAvyo khAlI! kyA bhavamAM na jamyA baccAM; have to jaMpa, bana mumukSu saccA! mA-bApa chokarAM che rIleTIva sagAI; vAraso nA Ape to korTamAM tagAI! TaiDakAve be kalAka to kAyamanI kITTA! samajI jA smazAna puratA A che beTTA! AtmA sivAya na koI potAno; duHkhe deha ne dAMta, hisAba khAtAno! na hoya kadi draSTimAM badhAM chokarAM sarakhAM; leNadeNa, rAgadveSanAM baMdhana mujaba pharakAM! hisAba cUkavatAM na javAya trAsI; have samajIne patAva, nahi to phAMsI! ghaNAM kahe, mAne chorAM sahu samAna; rAgadveSa e leNadeNanA pramANa! mA-bApa eka ne chokarAM bhinna bhinna; varSA sarakhI chatAM bI mujaba sIna! 'laoNthI eka kuTuMbamAM bheLAM thAya; maLatA paramANuo ja kheMcAya! thAya bhegAM dravya-kSetra-kALa-bhAva; ghaTe ghaTanA 'vyavasthita'no svabhAva! zreNIka rAjAne jelamAM nAkhyo dIkarAe; dIkarAnA DarathI hIro cUsI maryA e! AtmAno nathI koI dIkaro; choDI mAyA parabhava sudhAro!

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upoddhAta DaoN. nIrubahena amIta moDhe ja kahI de ke to tamane amane janma ApavAno koNe kahyo hato ? 'vI Ara bIkojha opha yora phana" tyAre mA-bApanuM zuM moTuM rahe ?! enA karatA mA-bApe nA samajavuM joIe ke bALako mATe ApaNe je kaMI karIe chIe te badhuM pharajiyAta che ! pharajiyAta karIe temAM zuM kahI batAvAya ? e to kahenAranI ja mUrkhAI che ! ane bALako mATe upakAra karavA nathI karatA paNa potAne potAnA bALako mATe khUba moha che te moha ja karAvaDAve che ! A to chokarAM sAmA thAya tyAre mohanuM AvaraNa khase tyAre avaLuM bolAya ! mA-bApato choksa pratye vyavahAra ! (pUrvArdha) 1. siMgata saMskAratAM.. dareka mA-bApane mahIMthI jhaMkhanA hoya ja ke mAruM bALaka moTuM thaIne AvuM thAya, Ama saMskArI thAya, prakhyAta thAya vi. vi. paNa thoDAka sivAya badhA pheIla jAya che ! saMskArI thAya tevI mahatvakAMkSA rAkhe paNa joDe joDe saMskAra siMcananuM jJAna, bhAna hovuM joIe ne ? saMskArI ja saMskArI zake bIjAne ! mA mULo ne bApa gAjara, chokarAM sapharajaMda kayAMthI thAya ?! 'anusaTiphAIDa phAdharsa enDa anUsarTiphAIDa madharsa!" AvAM kaDaka veNo mAbApa mATe jJAnIne kahevAM paDe te kaMI amastuM ja haze ? A kALanI A mA-bApanI kacAza hovAne kAraNe saMskAra purAtA nathI ! vaLI 'janarezana gepa' be peDhImAM aMtarane pUravA mA-bApe ja pahela karavI ghaTe. je nahi thavAne kAraNe matabheda, manabheda ne paiDapaNamAM judA evA ke gharaDAgharamAM javuM paDe ! mA-bApa ne mAstaro kamANImAM paDyA, pachI saMsAre-vyaktitva ghaDatara mATe khyAla paNa nA rahe. je gharamAM niyamita AratI, prArthanAo thatI hoya, tyAM vAtAvaraNa pavitra hoya ja, je bALakone suMdara saMskAra ne AtmabaLa arpe che ! 3. ta jhaghaDAya bALakonI hAjarImAM... mA ane bApa vacce roja kakaLATa thato dekhe ne ekabIjAnA doSa dekhADe ne te ya chokarAMonAM dekhatAM, eTale chokarAMnA bALamAnasa para e doSonI prInTa thaI jAya. te ja moTA thayA bAda mA-bApanI sAme nIkaLe ! AmAM kono vAMka ? patine, 'tamane ochI samajaNa paDe, cUpa raho' kahyuM hoya, 'tArAmAM akkala ja nathI" evuM patnIne vAraMvAra saMbhaLAvyuM hoya, te chokarAM moTAM thayAM pachI mAne ne bApane saMbhaLAve tyAre pachI sahana nahIM thAya ! mATe pahelethI ja jAgRta rahevuM joIe. chokarAnA dekhatA ekabIjAnuM kaMI ja nA bolAya ! ApaNe ja emane bagADIe chIe. AjakAla to keTalAMya chokarAM evA che ke je paraNavAnI ja nA pADe che. kAraNa zuM ? to kahe ke "ame amArA mA-bApanuM lagnajIvananuM sukha joI lIdhuM !!!? 4. atsarTiphAIDa phAdharsa enDa atsarTiphAIDa madharsa ! moTAbhAganA mA-bApanI phariyAdo hoya che ke chokaro amAruM sAMbhaLatAM nathI, sAmAM thAya che ! tyAre temane dAdAzrI phaTakAre che, "kaI kolejamAMthI mA-bApa thavAnuM sarTiphikeTa lIdhuM hatuM ? anUsarTiphAIDa phAdharsa ne anUsarTiphAIDa madharsa ! pachI kahevAnuM kone ?! mA-bApa thavAnI lAyakAta eTale chokarAone kAyama mA-bApa para pUjyatA hoya ! sAmuM nA bole ! ane chokarAM ya vaza varte evo to mA-bApano prema hoya ! 2. pharajiyAtamAM gAvAnuM zuM ? 'tamane bhaNAvAmAM moTA karavAmAM amane keTalI vItI haze jANo cho ? tamane enI kaMI kIMmata lAge che ?" AvuM to kaMI keTalIya vAra keTalAMya mA-bAponA moMDhe sAMbhaLeluM yAda che ? tyAre chokarAM moMDhe nA bole paNa manamAM to jarUra bole ke "tamane tamArA mA-bApe tamArA mATe A badhuM na hatuM karyuM ? emAM navuM zuM ?" emAM ya amerikAmAM to chokarAo 13 14

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saMpUjaya dAdAzrI pAse keTalAMya yuvAno AvatAM. emanA eka bola para badhA prANa pAtharatA ! e kaMI dhAkadhamakIthI nahIM paNa saMpUrNa premathI ! premathI ghaDIne mUrtine vaMdanIya banAvatAM ! 5. samajAvavAthI sudhare suputro... TokavAthI bALako sudhare ? bahu Toka Toka karavAthI 'kacakaca kare che" evuM emane thAya, ne ulTAM bagaDe. haMmezA manuSyanI sAyakolojI kevI hoya ke je Agraha pUrvaka nA karavAnuM kahe te pahelAM kare. kAraNa ke mahIM ahaMkAra chaMcheDAya che ! vaLI mA-bApanI evI kepesITI nathI hotI ke bALakane kanvInsa karAvIne vALe. chokarAM jayAM sudhI kanvInsa nA thAya tyAM sudhI ene judI judI rIte samajAvavuM paDe. A to mA-bApane samajAvatAM phAvatuM nathI ane chokarAM choDatAM nathI eTale chevaTe cIDhAIne bolIjhama kare eTale amuka hada pachI chokarAM gAMThe nahIM, sAmA thAya ke dhAryuM kare ja. eTale chokarAMne AgrahapUrvaka Ama ja karo ema kahevAthI eno ahaMkAra chaMcheDAze. Agraha e UghADo ahaMkAra che. mA-bApa ane chokarAMnA sAmasAmo ahaMkAra TakarAya che je samAdhAnane pAmatA ja nathI. mATe mAbApe samajIne chokarAMnA ahaMkArane chaMcheDayA vagara kAma levuM. te mATe pahelAM potAnAM ahaMkArane Ubho nA thavA devo joIe, manamAMthI e graMthI kADhI nAkhavI joIe ke ame kahIe tema ja chokarAoe karavuM joIe, chokarA zuM samaje ? Ama ja karavuM joIe, Ama nA karavuM joIe, vi. vi. kAraNa je kaMI chokarAM kare ke mA-bApa kare te sahu sahunA karmanA udaya mujaba kare che. mA-bApathI TokayA vagara nahIM rahevAya, mATe TokAI jAya ke bIjI ja kSaNe pote potAnI jAtane samajAvI devI joIe ke chokarAMne kahyuM kharuM paNa kahyA pramANe thAya ke nA thAya, bannenI taiyArIo rAkhajo ! pachI je banyuM te ekasepTa sahajatAthI thaI jaze. soLa varSa sudhI mA-bApa tarIke kaMIka kahevAya, soLa varSa pachI chokarA joDe mitra tarIke rahevuM paDe. dAdAzrIe suMdara cAvI ApI che mA-bApane chokarA sAthe eDajasTamenTa karavAnI. bosIjhama nA hovuM joIe. chokarA joDe vyavahAra karatAM mahIM pahelethI baTana dAbI rAkhavuM kAyamanuM ke e mAro bApa ne huM emano beTo. 6. premathI sudhAro bhUlakAMte ! bagIco khIlavavA pahelAM mALI bana ! eka choDavo ya premathI ucheryo hoya to bahu suMdara uchare ! ne kaSAyathI uchere to karamAyelo lAge ! sattA karatAM premanI zakti aneka aneka gaNI hoya ne te vaLI pojhITIva sAIDanI. ghaNI phera kuTuMbamAM koI vicitra prakRtinuM hoya to tenI joDe kaLathI kAma karavuM paDe. DAyarekaTa DIlIMga karatAM dajhAvAtuM hoya to vacce cIpIyAno upayoga karavo paDe, jema devatA pakaDIe tema ! vacce koI miDiyama khoLI rAkhavuM paDe. bolavuM kayAre ke je bola jhIlAtA hoya tyAre ! je bola nirarthaka jAya te bolavAmAM zo sAra ? tyAM mauna rahevuM uttama. ApaNe game teTaluM premathI karavA jaIe to ya sAmo na samaje to ? to pachI tyAM zAMta rahevAmAM mAla samajI zAMta rahevAya to sArI vAta che, nahi to polIsavALA AgaLa kevA DAhyA DamarAM thaI jaIe che ?! evuM karavuM paDe ! lagabhaga badhAM ja mA-bApo ema kahetAM hoya che ke amane to amAre mana badhAMya chokarAM sarakhAM. koInA ya mATe amAre ochuM vaju nA hoya ! have AvuM kahe paNa emanAM koI chokarAne gaLe A vAta nA utare ! kAraNa evuM banI ja nA zake ne ? ochuM vajuM to hoya ja. kAraNa vyaktie vyakti joDeno saMbaMdha rAga ane dveSanA leNadeNanA hisAba pramANe hoya che ! te badhAM joDe sarakhuM kaI rIte hoI zake ? eka AmalInA jhADane jo ati ati jhINavaTathI jovAya to khullu thAya ema che ke AkhA jhADamAM be pAMdaDA eka sarakhA ekajhekaTalI nA maLe ! ATaluM badhuM sAyanTiphikalI karekaTanesavALuM vizva che !!! ghaDIkamAM ghaTe ne ghaDIkamAM vadhu e joya prema ! e to che badhI Asaktio !!! chokaro pharsTa kalAsa laIne Ave to khuzI khuzI thaIne 15 16

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pArTIo kare ne mANase mANase chokarAnI hoMziyArInA vakhANa kare ane e ja chokaro bIje dahADe skuTara ThokIne ke gADI ThokIne Avyo hoya to bApa, 'akkala vagarano che, jaMgalI che, pharI kayAre ya gADI aDavAnI nahIM !' vi. vi. saMbhaLAvI de ! caDhelo prema UtarI gayo ! e Asakti kahevAya, rAgadveSa sahita hoya mATe ! ane jayAM kiMcitmAtra rAgadveSa nathI, sAmA mATe game tevuM thAya to doSita draSTi thAya ja nahIM te sAco prema ! ene ja paramAtma prema kahyo ! jenAthI saMsAra tarAya ! 7. "avaLAM' Ama chUTI jAya ! bApa vyasanI hoya to chokarAM tevAM thAya ja ! vyasanathI jAgRti para khUba AvaraNa Ave che. te choDayA pachI paNa ghaNo kALa rahe ! vyasanathI mANeluM sukha rI-pe karavA acuka jAnavaragatimAM javuM paDe ! mATe vyasanathI dUra rahevuM. vyasanInA saMgamAM na rahevuM. vyasanathI chUTavuM hoya to mahIM niraMtara pratitimAM to rahevuM ja joIe ke vyasana e so TakA khoTI vastu che. ane eno vAMdho nahi' ema mAne ke e coMTayA vagara rahe ja nahi ! chokarAMne iMDA, mIThAI vi. nA khavaDAvAya. enAthI vIrya vadhe ne pachI chokarAM kaMTrolamAM nA rahe ! 8. navI janarezana, helthI mAIDavALI ! AjakAla moTAbhAgano samaya chokarAM TI.vI. sInemA, ramatagamatamAM veDaphe che. pA kalAka jue to cAle paNa A to kalAkonA kalAko kADhe emAM teno zo artha ?! lhAya baLe tyAre gaMdhAto kAdava zarIre copaDIne ThaMDaka levA javuM enA jevuM che TI.vI., sInemAnuM ! saMpUjaya zrI dAdAzrIe AjanI janarezana mATenI suMdara zodhakhoLa karelI che ke Ajano yuvAvarga 'helthI mAInDavALo' che jANe devalokamAMthI sIdhA ja UtarelA nA hoya ! emanA bhAge sukha sAhyabI AvI che bhogavavAnI ! emanA bhAge baso, Teno moTaro ne plena AvyAM che ! pahelAM to gADAM ne TAMgA ke page cAlIne ja pharavuM paDatuM ! A vALachAvALI (lAMbA vALavALA) navI ja jAtanuM cokhuM mana lAvyA che. emanAmAM kaSAyo ochA ne viSayo vadhAre che ! mohI prajA, te mohamAM ja masta rahe. ApaNA bApadAdAoe DabalabeDa kyAM joyAM hatAM ? are, beDa-rUma ja kyAM hatI pahelAM ?! atyAre viSayomAM khuMpyA tethI vyavahArika cAlAkI ghaTI ! AjanAM chokarAMmAM tethI barakata ochI jaNAya ! mamatA ya bahu ochI ! paNa jIvanamAM saraLatA ane cokhkhAI bhAre ! corI, chetarapIMDI, tejoSa evAM apalakSaNothI khAssAM dUra jovA maLe AjanA chokarAM ? pahelAM gaNatara hatuM ne bhaNatara na hatuM. Aje enAthI avaLuM ja jovA maLe. bhaNatara paNa gaNatara nahi, chatAM helthI mAInDavALAne ghaDavA hoya to saraLatAthI ghaDAya ! 9. madhara-phAdharatI phariyAdo ! mA-bAponI eka phariyAda AjakAla bahu jovA maLe che; chokarAM moDA UThe che ! roja savAranA eTalA mATe kaSAyo ne kakaLATo thAya ! dAdAzrI rAha batAve che Ano ke gharanAMe kahevAnuM baMdha karI devuM. uparathI savAranA oDhADI AvavuM. enI meLe samayasara UThato thaze. ajamAvI jovA jevuM che ! nahIMtara ya kkaLATathI kaMI vaLatuM to nathI ja ne ! ramatIyALa chokarAMne, 'parIkSAmAM sArI greDe pAsa thaze to amuka InAma maLaze.' evI rIte enkareja bhaNavAmAM karavAM. nAnA chokarAMnA grAsmIMganA "rIvolyuzansa para miniTa' mA-bApa karatAM ghaNAM ochAM hoya. bannenA rIvolyuzana DIpharansane kAraNe paTTo phaTAphaTa tUTI jAya. have 'hA' 'rIvolyuzana'vALo 'laoN' karI zake paNa "laoN' vALo 'hA' nA karI zake ! eTale mA-bApe ja vacce 'kAunTara pulI' mukI 'laoN' karavA paDe. 'kAunTara pulI' eTale zuM ? ApaNe cAra kAma karavAnAM chokarAne soMpIne bahAra gayA hoIe ne pAchA AvIe to doDha ja kAma thayAM hoya to tarata ApaNI kamAna chaTake ne ? tyAM kAunTara slI goThavavI paDe. chokarAMne kAma soMpatAMnI sAthe ja Dabala ceka karavuM paDe ke je je ApaNe soMpyuM te eNe sAMbhaLyuM che ? sAMbhaLyuM to samajyo che ? samajyo paNa karavAnI rIta ene AvaDe che ? A badhI tapAsa karatAM jaNAze ke ApaNI

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to vAte vAte vaDhe te chokarAM ya samajI jAya ke mammI pappA barakta vagaranA che ! duSamakALamAM jIvaDAM pAkelAM cIbhaDAM jevAM che ! ene aDatAM ja phATI jaze, oraDo gaMdhAze ne chevaTe dhovo paDaze ! ApaNA laDhavAthI chokarAne duHkha thAya to tenuM turta ja hArTilI pratikramaNa karI nAkhavAnuM. nAnAM chokarAM hoya to hRdayathI manamAM mAphI mAMgI levI. vAta doDha pahoMcI ane tethI doDha ja kAma thayuM ! mATe soMpatAM ja ApaNe dhIre dhIre, zAMtithI samajAvIne kahevuM. kahyA bAda pharI pAchuM tene pUchI levuM ke "tane zuM zuM kAma soMpyuM te bolI jA. enI karavAnI rIta bolI jA !!" Ama pAkuM karyA pachI ja ene choDAya. A to ApaNI caMcaLatA, utAvaLa, ane adhurApaNuM ghaNAM badhA gUMcavADA UbhA karI de che ! mATe ApaNe A rIte kAunTara pulI goThavavI paDe. chokarAMnA levala sudhI ApaNe javuM paDe ! to ja meLa paDe ! paiDAM mA-bApane bALakoe saMbhALI levAM joIe. jema gADImAM paMcara paDe to kevuM tarata ja saMbhALI le che ! mA-bApoe paNa chokarAM aMdaroaMdara laDhe tyAre koInA ya pakSamAM beThA vagara samatA rAkhI 'joyA" karavAnuM ! chokarAMo aMdaroaMdara laDhe ane pappAne ke mammIne phariyAda kare ! emAM lagabhaga mA-bApo je paheluM AvIne phariyAda kare enA pakSamAM besI jAya ane bIjAne AropI gaNI le ! AmAM sAco mAryo jAya ! tapAsa karavA ya nA rahe vAstavikatAnI ! sAco nyAya thAya to gunegArI ghaTe ! paNa nyAyazakti ja nathI tyAM ! kaLiyugamAM je pahelI phariyAda kare te ja gunegAra ! chokarAM rIsAya to mA-bApa muMjhAI jAya ! akaLAI jAya ane ghAMTAghATI karI de ! rIsAvAnuM kAraNa zuM? potAnuM dhAryuM karAvavA ! chokarAM rIsAya tyAre mA-bApoe samatAthI, dhIrajathI joyA karavuM. enI meLe ja chokarAM pAchAM paDaze ! paNa dhIraja lAve kayAMthI ? enA mATe sakzAstranuM jJAnInI vANInuM vAMcana manana ke AdhyAtmika jIvana jarUrI che ! chokarAM bahu gusso karatAM thAya te pahelAM ja mA-bApano gusso baMdha thavo joIe. gusso e vIkanesa che. chokarAne vaDhavAno vAMdho nathI, paNa mahIM asara thayA vagara vaDho. A to mahIM akaLAIne vaDhe, moTuM bagADIne vaDhe ! tethI kaSAyo vadhe che ! kaSAya vagara, DrAmeTIka vaDho to chokarAMne rIyalAIjha thAya ne sudhare ! A karmano nyAya zuM kahe che ke mA-bApa chokarAM para gusso kare tenuM puNya baMdhAya che kAraNa ke hetu emAM UMco che ! mA-bApa ne guru gusso kare tyAM puNya baMdhAya che, bIje badhe pApa ! chokarAMne bahu vaDhavAthI te kapaTa karatAM zIkhI jAya bIkanA mAryA ! je chokarAnI mA bahu kaDaka hoya tenAM chokarAMne vyavahAra nA AvaDe. nA chUTake chokarAMne Takora karAya, te paNa sAdhAraNa, cetavaNI pUratuM kahevAya jethI avaLAne savaLuM mAnIne nA cAle ! chokarAMnA hAthe kazuM tUTI jAya, to nA vaDhAya. mA-bApa chokarAM para kaMTrola karavA jAya, DisiplInamAM rAkhavA jAya ! alyA, ApaNe keTalAM DisiplInDa chIe ?! chokarAMne kapaDAMnI jema dhIbI nAkhe ! te chokarAM pachI vera bAMdhe ! "jJAna" to zuM bane te 'juo' kahe che ane sAmAne duHkha thAya to pratikramaNa karI dhoI nAkho ! chokarAMne kayAre ya marAya nahIM. saMDAsa gaMdhAtuM hoya tethI bAraNAMne cIDhAIne lAto mAravAthI zuM vaLe ? pratikramaNa e ja che sAco upAya. gunegAra bALakone samajAvIne kAma levuM, nahIM to vadhAre vaMThI jAya ! chokarAM to DAhyAM ja hoya, mA-bApane henDala karatAM nathI AvaDatuM ! pArsala para "glAsa vItha kera" ema lebala zA mATe mAratA haze ? tema chokarAMnI sAthe glAsanI jema kALajI rAkhIne vyavahAra thAya. 19 20

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bApa rAtadA'Do sakhta mahenata karIne paisA kamAya ne chokarAM navAbanI jema uDAve ! zA mATe ? evA kudaratanA kAyadAne samaje to che kaMI upAdhi ?! chokarAM zuM mAne ke buDhAMnI buddhi bahu bahera mArI gaI che tethI ame karatA hoIe te nA karavA de ! paNa ApaNe kaMI lagADayA vagara premathI pharajo bajAvye rAkhavI. chokarAM game teTaluM sAmuM bole to ya enI noMdha rAkhyA karIe to copaDo kevoka te cItarAya ?! 'sahu sahunA udayakarmane AdhIna che" ATaluM samajAya to kaMI Dakho rahe ? bALakone svataMtratA ApI tethI satyanAza vaLyo ! have zuM ? have khUba dhIrajathI bhUla sudhAravAnI ja rahIne ! chevaTe prArthanAno upAya karavo ! "he dAdA bhagavAna, chokarAne sabuddhi Apajo' e ya ghaNuM kAma kare che jJAnathI ja hisAbonI patAvaTa karavAnI ! kaMIka gUMca paDI ke tarata ja potAnI mahIM ja tapAsa karI levI ke kayAM bhUla thaI gaI ? zodhIne bhUla bhAMgavI. 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM.' 'banyu te ja nyAya' 'vyavasthita che, ema akrama jJAnano upayoga karatAM ja nIveDo turta ja AvI jAya tema che ! koInA gharanAM jhagaDAmAM na ghalAya hAtha, nahi to ApaNA ja mAthe Avaze ne pelA be eka thaI jaze ! gharamAM vaDIlothI vaDIlapaNuM chUTI jAya, nAnA thaI javAya to paiDapaNa zAMtithI jAya. nahIM to chokarAM vAraMvAra dabaDAya dabaDAya karaze ! sAsu vahune bahu kakaLATa thAya tenA karatAM premathI judA rahevuM uttama. chokarAM paradezamAM hoya to ya Asakti mUkI dezamAM ekalA rahI AtmakalyANamAM rata rahevuM sAruM. bhinna bhinna prakRtio bhegI thAya eTale bagIco kahevAya, eka sarakhI prakRtio hoya te to khetarAM kahevAya ! kaLiyugamAM ghera ghera bagIco hoya. gulAba, mogarAM, dhaMtUro, hoya ne thore ya hoya ! koI uDAu, koI lobhI, koI vedIyo gharamAM hoya. darekanI prakRtine oLakhIne kAma letAM AvaDe, mALI thatAM AvaDe to bagIco kevo dIpI UThe ?! 10. zaMkAtAM zULa ! choDI rAtre moDI Ave to mA-bApane zaMkA paDe ke konI joDe rakhaDatI haze ? pUjaya dAdAzrI kahe che ke zaMkA bhayaMkara AtmaghAtI mAnyatA che ! zaMkAthI kazuM vaLe nahi ne mArI nAkhaze. zaMkA UThatAM ja mULamAMthI UkheDI nAMkhavI. choDI paranAtamAM paraNI gaI to DAhyA thaI svIkArI levuM. cheka paraNI jatAM sudhI virodha rAkhavo paNa paraNI gaI pachI, banyuM te karekaTa, A ja eno pAchalA bhavathI bhAvelo dhaNI, ema vAstavikatAne samajI svIkArI levuM tene ja DahApaNa kahevAya. choDInI kALajI rakhAya paNa zaMkA nA karAya. kALajI eTale chokarA nobIlITI ane opana mAInDathI pUjaya dAdAzrI kAyama cAlelA. ApaNI draSTithI sAmAne kevI rIte calAvAya ? vItarAgonI virodhI vAta thaI e to ! chokarA joDe kaLathI kAma levAya. bAvaLIyAne ghaNathI kaMI kapAya ?' potAnA gharanuM tALuM potAne ja UghADatAM na AvaDe to bIjo zuM kare ? nava mahinA maphatamAM bhADe rahyA, paNa mA davA pIvaDAve tyAre mAnA moMDhA para phuuu... kare badhI davA !!! chokaro dArUDiyo hoya tyAM zuM karavuM ? joI levuM ke bemAM bhogave che koNa ? ApaNe. mATe ApaNI bhUla ! bhogave tenI bhUla ! vahu ApaNane gALo de to ApaNe zo upAya goThavavo ? chokarAM sAthe DahApaNathI kAma levuM, nahIM to sAmA thaze ne paiDapaNa roLaze ! Asaktino ja mAra paDe che ! vItarAgatAthI chUTI javAnuM che ! 22

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joDe ekalI nA javA devAya, peTrola ne agni joDe nA rakhAya, rAtre koInA ghera nA mUkAya vi. vi. tema chatAM kaMI garabaDa thAya to tene 'samabhAve nikAla karavo. zaMkA nA karAya ke choDIne kADhI nA mUkAya. zaMkA to mokSamArganuM moTuM bAdhaka kAraNa che ? koNa bApa ne konI choDI ? A to nATakanAM pAtro che, samajIne nATakanI jema mahIMthI chUTuM rAkhI nirlepa rahevuM. nATakamAM karma baMdhAya ? gAdI mATe bAdazAho bApane mArI nAkhatA ! - gharajamAI karAya ? e phasAmaNa bhAre thAya. na kahevAya ke na sahevAya ! chokarAne vaDhAya paNa jamAIne kaMI kahevAya ? jIMdagImAM jamAIne gharamAM nA ghalAya ! emAM mAla nathI ! 12. mohatA mArathI maryA ataMtIvAra ! 11. vArasAmAM chokasaMte keTaluM ? vArasAmAM chokarAMne keTaluM ApavuM ? kudaratano kAyado zuM kahe che ke jeTaluM tamane tamArA bApA pAsethI maLyuM eTaluM ja apAya. adhadhadha lakSmI ApIne jAya to chokarAM dArUDiyA ne jugArI thAya ! kALA bajAranI kALI majUrI karIne chokarA mATe keza mUkI jAya to chokarAM bagaDe nahIM to zuM thAya ?! chokarAMne vArasAmAM saMskAra, bhaNatara, gaNatara ne ghaDatara ApavuM. nokarI dhaMdhe lagADavA. pachI potAnA paiDapaNa mATenuM bhAthuM rAkhavuM. paisA hatA tyAre chokarAMne ApI daIne chevaTe ghaDapaNamAM hAtha lAMbo karI chokarA pAse lAcAra thavAnuM e to mUrkhAI kahevAya ! vaLI parabhavanuM bhAthuM ya bAMdhavuM paDe ne ? sArA raste paisA vaparAya teno ovaraDrAphaTa maLe ne ! pArakA mATe vApare tenI ja puNya baMdhAya. chokarAMne Ape te to pharajiyAta gaNAya. chokarAM dhaMdhA mATe paisA mAge to ApavA paNa kahevuM ke vyAje lAvelA che, vyAja mahine mahine cukavavAnuM ne be varasamAM mUDI cUkavI devAnI ! to chokarAne javAbadArI mAthe rahe ne dhaMdho vyavasthita kare ! A paisA joDe laI javAtA hota to badhA ja bApo devuM karIne, milkata vecIne rokaDA karIne poTaluM vALIne joDe laI jAta ! A nathI joDe laI javAtuM e kAyado kudaratano keTalo suMdara che ?! vIla karavuM sAruM. jene je ApavuM hoya te nakkI karIne ApavuM ane bAkInuM dharmanA raste vAparavuM. jIvatAM vaparAya to uttama. milkata badhI pahelethI chokarAMne ApI nA devAya. 'guru" AvyA pachI badhuM badalAI jAya ! pachI vahunA ne chokarAMnA kakaLATa sAthe kaluSita jIvana jIvavuM paDe ! chokarAM para keTalo moha rakhAya ? are A deha ja dago de che to chokaro keTalo sago thAya ?! traNa kalAka khUba vaDhe to chokaro sAmo thAya ne korTe hau jAya ? chokarAMmAMthI jeTaluM sukha lIdhuM te pAchuM du:kha bhogavIne rIpa' karavuM paDaze, evo kAyado che. jeTalo rAga eTalo Sa thavAno ja. mohane lIdhe saMsAra mITho lAge. nahIM to khAro dava jevo lAge ! mAbApa AzA rAkhe ke chokarAM paiDapaNamAM cAkarI karaze ! paNa cAkarI karaze ke bhAkharI tenI kone khabara ? mAnA badhAM ja upakAra 'guru' AvatAM ja bhUlAI jAya ne mA ja doSita dekhAya vahu AgaLa ! lAgaNI mamatA e Ameya SamAM pariName che ane upakArI bhAva e samatAmAM rAkhe ! kaLiyugamAM chokarAM vera vasula karavA AvelAM hoya ! snehanA hisAba bahu ochA hoya ! te mA-bApane pajavI pajavI mAre. celaNA rANInA garbhamAM koNIka putra hato teNe garbhamAMthI ja mA dvArA bApa (zreNika rAjA)nuM mAMsa khAvAnI icchA karI ! ane moTA thayA pachI bApa(zreNika rAjA)ne jelamAM nAkhyo ne rAja kIdhuM ! kevuM vera ?! 13. bhaluM thayuM, ta baMdhAI jaMjALa... parama pUjaya dAdAzrI kahetA ke A kaLiyugamAM jene chokarAM nA hoya to mahApuNyazALI kahevAya !!! badhA RNa cUkavIne copaDo cokhkho karIne AvyA kahevAya ! mokSe javA mATe eTaluM vadhAre kalIyara thayuM kahevAya ! have lokasaMjJA ane jJAnInI saMjJAmAM keTalo badho phera ? kayA avatAramAM baccAM na hatAM ? gAya, kUtarAM, dUdhI, manuSya badhe baccAM, baccAM ne baccAM 23 24

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ja hatAM ne ?! gayo bhava jo yAda rahe to dekhAya ke A ja mA mArI vAIpha hatI to zuM dazA thAya ? moha rahe ? chokaro zrAddha sarAve to ja mukti thAya evI mAnyatAnA AdhAre rAha jue kAM to bIjIne paraNe ! alyA, ema mukti thaI jatI hota to gItAnA jJAnanI, upaniSadonI zI jarUra hatI ? A sAdhanA vi. karavAnI zI jarUra ? chokarAthI ja mukti thaI jAya to rasto sIdho ja thaI jAya ne ?! keTalAMka to chokarAnI rAha jotAM jotAM pAMca cha chokarIonI lAIna karI de ! A te kevo moha ? nAnA nAnA bhUlakAM nAnI ja vaye marI jAya tyAre mA-bApane keTaluM badhuM duHkha lAge ?! paNa e ya RNAnubaMdhano hisAba samajI sahI levuM ! gayA te gayA have jIvatA che tene sAcavI levAnuM sArI rIte. marI gayA pAchaLa kalpAMta nA karAya nahi to kalpanA aMta sudhI bhaTakavuM paDe ! mATe tenA zuddha AtmAne namaskAra karI prArthanA pahoMcADavI. e sArthaka thAya ! chokarAM ochAM rIyalamAM hoya ? e to rIleTIvamAM kahevAya. parama pUjya dAdAzrIne tyAM dIkaro janmelo. badhAMne peMDA khavaDAvyA be varasa pachI pAchA peMDA khavaDAvyA mitroe pUchayuM zenI pArTI ? tyAre chelle kahyuM, 'mahemAna AvyA hatA te gayA tenI'!!! pAchA bebIzrI janmyAM tyAre ya Ama ja kareluM !!! chokarAM mATe bahu hAya hAya kare to tenI janAvara gati baMdhAya ! gayA bhavanA chokarAMonI kaMI ciMtA thAya che ? are, ene to yAde ya karIne koI duHkhI thAya che ? garbhapAta karAya ? nA. enAthI jAnavaragati baMdhAya. mATe pahelAM ajJAnatAthI evuM thayuM hoya tenA khUba pratikramaNa karavAM paDe. bALaka janmatAM ja marI jAya e zuM ? enuM AyuSyakarma pramANe ja jIve mare ! AyuSya pUru thatAM ja cAlavA mAMDe ! AmAM koInuM ya cAle nahi. mATe teno zoka na karatAM svIkArI levuM yogya ! 14. sagAI rIleTIva ke riyala ? mA-bApa chokarAMnI rIleTIva saMgAI che. riyala nahi. riyala hoya to maryA pachI chokarA joDe ja jAya ! koI gayelo dITho ?! rIleTIva sagAI che mATe sAcavIe teTaluM sacavAya. nahi to tuTI jatAM vAra nahi lAge. sAmo phADe phADa kare to ApaNe sAMdha sAMdha karIe to ja sabaMdha Take. koIne sudhAravA nA javAya. nahi to kaSAya thaze ne sAmA thaI duzmana thaze ! kAyamanuM hoya to sudhArIe. A to A bhava pUratuM ja ne ?! A mAchalAnI jALa sArI paNa saMsAranI to jaMjALa kahevAya ! A to paMkhIono mALo che. savAra thatAM cakalAM jAya UDI ! A pazupakSIo sahaja jIvana jIve che ne manuSyoe vikalponI vaNajhAra mAMDI, buddhine kAraNe ! A badhAmAMthI pAra utAravA tamAma jJAnIo eka ja satya rasto batADe che ke paheluM to 'riyalamAM 'huM koNa chuM' e jANI le ane saMsArarUpI nATaka bhajavIne mokSe jA cAlyo ! nATakanA pAtro ! nATanAM chokarAM ne nATakanI rANI ! upalaka rahI nATaka bhajavavAnuM che. rAgadveSa vagara ! A badhI sagAIo ghATavALI che ! emAM je kaMI sAra ?! jayAM kaMI ghATa nathI te sAco saMbaMdha. 15. e che leNadeNa, ta sagAI ! chokarAM sAthe pUrvabhavanA RNAnubaMdhanA hisAbe ja prema ke vera maLe che evuM jJAna pacAvIne, je Ave teno samabhAve nikAla karyA vinA kayAM chUTako che ? potAnA ja hisAbanuM phaLa potAne pAchuM maLe che tene zAMtabhAve rahIne zamAvI lo to uttama. mA-bApathI ema nA bolAya ke A peTa kayAMthI pAkayuM ! dIkarIo badhAM hisAba vasula karavA Ave che. koI jayotiSa ke bAvAo pAse javAno kaMI mAla nathI. 25

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A to badhAM karmonA hisAba che. bahu cIkaNuM karma rAganuM ke dveSanuM baMdhAyuM hoya te vasula dUra rahIne thoDuM thAya ? e to najIkamAM janmIne vasula kare ! A karmanI gati evI citravicitra che ke pote potAno dIkaro thAya ! evuM banI zake paNa apavAdarUpa ! - gharamAM badhAM bALakone sarakhAM saMskAra sIMcAya chatAM prakRtio darekanI bhinna bhinna vartAya, tenuM zuM kAraNa ? varasAda badhe sarakho paDe paNa bIja pramANe choDavAM nathI UgI nIkaLatAM ?! eka vaDanA bIjamAM ja Akho vaDa DALa, pAMdaDAM sAthe sUkSmamAM samAyelo che ! saMta hoya tenAM chokarAM saMta ja pAke evuM kaMI na hoya e to dareka pota potAnuM laIne AvelA te mujaba ja phaLe. A badhuM kudaratI che. emAM bhagavAna kazuM karatA ke karAvatA nathI ! chokarAM kharAba pAke te ApaNo ja phoTo che ! kudaratano kAyado kevo che ke amuka aMze maLatAM paramANuovALA badhAM eka kuTuMbamAM bhegA thAya. emane badhAMne e ja ToLAmAM goThe ane ekabIjAno hisAba vasula kare ! bAkI AmAM mA-bApa to nimitta che, khAtara pANI ApavAmAM ! bIjano saMyoga mahatvano bhAga bhajave che ! bAkI eka ja mA-bApane tyAM koI catura to koI maMdabuddhino pAke ! koI krodhI to koI zAMta pAke ! eka jhADanuM dareka pAMdaDuM juduM judu hoya ! be eka sarakhAM na ja hoya, jo jhINavaTathI jotAM AvaDe tene samajAya ! kAraNa dareka vastu dravya, kSetra, kALa, bhAvane AdhIna bane che. emAM kSetra darekanuM juduM juduM hoya ja. eka evIDansa badalAtAM bIjA badhA ja evIDansa badalAya che ! mA-bApa chokarAM vacce je kaMI Apa-le thAya che te sahu sahunuM lAvelAM te cUkate thAya che ! 'jagata jIva hai, karmAdhInA, kucha nahIM kIsIse lenAdenA"! mATe A badhI mAyA mamatA choDIne parabhavanuM bhAthuM saMvAro ! Avato bhava be pagano ke cAra pagano ke cha pagano Avaze tenI ciMtA kema nathI thatI ? mokSanI taiyArI karavA manuSyabhava maLyo che te sArthaka thAya te ja jovAnuM che !!! (uttarArdha) 16. TInejarsa sAthe "dAdAzrI' nAnAM nAnAM bhUlakAMone saMpUjaya dAdAzrI kevI rIte saMskAratA hoya e samajavAno ya eka lhAvo che ! kalAkonA kalAko sudhI bhUlakAMo joDe vAto karIne tene Devalapa karatAM hoya ! bhaNavAnuM to sinsiyaralI, ane vAMcIne pAsa thavA AzirvAda ApatA ! "dAdAnuM nAma laIne vAMcaje, jA tane badhuM yAda raheze." evuM zIkhavatA ! dasa miniTa "dAdA bhagavAnanA asIma jaya jayakAra ho" bolIne pachI vAMcavA besavAnuM ! vAMceluM badhuM enI meLe yAda rahI jAya ! mammI mAre vaDhe to ya bALakonAM hItamAM ja hoya. ene dveSa lagAre ya hoI zake kadi ? chokarAM para mammI ke pappA bahu gusse thAya tyAre athavA e be aMdaro aMdara laDhe tyAre chokarAne parama pUjya dAdAzrI eka cAvI zIkhavADatA ke te ghaDIye moTethI "mammI, jaya saccidAnaMda" bolI devuM ! mammI hasI ja paDaze ! gharamAM, skulamAM, badhe badhAMne rAjI rAkhavA e ja dhyeya aMdarathI nakkI rAkhavo ! jUThuM bolatAM aTakAvatAM pUjayazrI samajAve che ke jUThuM bolavAthI ApaNA para kAyamano vizvAsa UThI jAya che ane badhAMne duHkhI kare che ! 'teM corI karelI kayAre ya ?" Avo prazna pUchatA dAdA ne bhalabhalo kabUlI deto ! ne mukta thato enAthI ! Aryaputro thaIne corI, bheLaseLa, aNahakkanA viSayo, chetarapIMDI karAya ? koI jIvane marAya ? eka jIva jene banAvatAM AvaDe tenAthI ja koI jIvane marAya. jeTalo ahiMsaka thayo teTaluM tenuM buddhinuM lAITa vadhe ja ! koI divasa gharanI vAto pADozIne tyAM na karAya. game teTalI mAbApa para mamatA hoya paNa e jAya tyAra pachI choDavI paDe ne ? chokarAMto mA-bApa pratye vyavahAra ! 27 28

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kharAba vicArothI kaI rIte bacavuM ?! bhagavAnanuM nAma levAthI ! nAnA bALaka pAsethI gharanI ekeeka vyakti mATeno mata jANI levo ! e nirdoSa ane niSpakSapAtI hoya haMmezA ! Ama bALakone keLavavA paDe ! sAmAnA zuddhAtmA jovAya to ja prema rahe ! ane 'samabhAve nikAla karavAthI' badhAM joDe sArI rIte ukela Ave. bhaNatara ane eTalI ja gaNatara zIkhavAnI agatyatA che ! bhaNatara eTale thIyarI ane gaNatara eTale prekaTIkala ! bApa game teTalo gusse kare to ya chokarA premathI ene sAcave tenI janetAne ya dhanya che ?! 'bhogave enI bhUla' e nyAyathI jabarajasta samatA rahe tema che !!! matabheda nA rahe to ja zAMti maLe. gADI garama thAya to zuM karAya ? ene TADhI pADavI paDe mazIna baMdha karIne. nahIM to e samULagI aTakI paDaze ! je garama thAya e gADI nahIM to bIjuM zuM kahevAya ?! 17. patnInI pasaMdagI ! paraNavuM e to pharajiyAta che. mATe je hoya te bhale ho, dhAryuM thatuM nathI mATe zuM bane che te jovuM. paraNavuM eTale paravaza thavuM. vItarAgo svavaza hatA. jenA udayamAM brahmacarya hoya to te uttama, nahitara paraNyA vagara cAle tema che kaMI ? lava mereja e pApa gaNAya ? nA. TempararI mereja e pApa gaNAya paNa AkhI lAIphanuM paramenanTa mereja e pApa nA gaNAya. ghaNAMne kaoNlejamAMthI lapharuM vaLage, paNa jayAre e lapharAnuM bIjuM lapharuM che evuM pakaDAya tyArathI lapharuM vaLagyuM che evuM thAya ne pachI e chUTatuM jAya ! 29 chokarAo DeTIMga kare te ja zuM yogya gaNAya ? DaiTIMga to saMpUrNa baMdha ja karI devuM joIe ! UMcu kULa ane UMcI jAta pahelAM pAtranI pasaMdagI vakhate mA-bApa khAsa jotA. tenuM AgavuM mahatva pUjayazrIe samajAvyuM che. dAdAzrIne koI pUche ke mAre paiNavuM ke nA paiNavuM ? tyAre dAdAzrI kabIra sAhebano dAkhalo ApatAM kahetA ke kabIra sAhebe dhoLe dahADe be dIvA maMgAvyA to bIbI laIne tarata ja AvyAM ! AvI maLe to paiNaje nahi to kuMvAro zuM khoTo che ? amuka komamAM paiThaNa athavA dahejano rivAja. te chokarInA mA-bApa jIMdagIbhara du:khI thAya ! pote jAte pAsa karIne vahu lAvyo to ya nA game emAM kono vAMka ? 18. patinI pasaMdagI ! pAtranI pasaMdagImAM AjakAla chokarAo mA-bApane khUba gUMcava gUMcava kare che. chokarAMo keTalIya chokarIo jue ne nApAsa kare ! keTalI badhIvA2 jue ane nA pADI de ! te chokarIone keTaluM badhuM duHkha thatuM haze !!! pahelAMnA vakhatamAM svayaMvaramAM rAjakuMvarIo seMkaDo rAjAne DokA tANIne varamALAnI rAha jotA UbhelAnuM AgaLa cAlI nIkaLIne je bhayaMkara apamAna karatI hatI teno badalo have chokarAo vALI rahyA che ! have chokarIo badalo vALe tevo samaya pAkI gayo che ! paradezamAM to AvI gayo che ! paradezamAM dezI chokarIo paNa chokarAMo pasaMda karavAmAM khUba kheMcAkheMca kare che ! are tyAMnI chokarIo to eTale sudhI kahe che ke ajANyA chokarAne ekavAra joIne AkhI jIMdagI kema karIne joDAI javAya ? enA mATe to chokarAne be varasa sudhI oLakhavo paDe. haravuM pharavuM paDe ! evI chokarIone kahyuM ke be varasa haryA pharyA pachI chokaro tane nA pADI de to tAruM zuM thaze ?! ane te tane nA pADe, ne evA cAra pAMca chokarAMone to tArI uMmara tyAM sudhI keTalI thaI gaI haze ?! atyAre pacIsa upara to thaI gaI !!! pachI 32, 35 varase kyo sAro vara maLaze ? pachI to rahI gayelo 'sela'no mAla ja tAre bhAge Ave ne levA 30

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mATe !!! A rIta khoTI nathI ? bIjI sAIDa paNa vicAravI to joIe ne ? cAra pAMca chokarA nA pADayA pachI kayo chokaro tArI pAse AvavA pachI hiMmata kare !! tArI chApa paDI jAya ne ke Ane to phakta chokarA pheravavA ja che, paiNavAnI dAnata nathI ! ane ATalI badhI cakAsaNI karyA bAda DAyavorsa vadhAre thAya che ke pahelAM joyA vagara karatA hatA tenA vadhAre thatA hatA ?! tyAM chokarAo keTalIya chokarIone pherave ne badhAne hAthatALI ApIne jAya ! kAraNa ke paraNAya to ekane ja ne ! jAnavara jevuM jIvana thaI gayuM !!! brahmacArI rahevAno udaya Ave tenuM to jIvana sarvottama ! paNa paiNavuM to paDe ja ne ! paraNatAM pahelAM chokarIo nakkI kare ke ApaNe to eka dhaNI ekalo ja joIe paNa paiNyA pachI khabara paDe ke keTaluM moTuM laMghara sAthe Ave che !!! paiNyA eTale dhaNInA, sAsunA badhAnAM aMDarahenDa rahevuM paDe ! tenA karatAM 'AtmA'mAM rahetA thaI jaIe to che koI uparI tyAM ?! che kazA jhagaDA tyAM pachI ? jaldI paraNI javAmAM sephasAIDa che ! pachI bagADe nahIM bIje. pahelAnA vakhatamAM jaldI ja paiNAvatA hatA ne ! mA-bApa choDIne paiNAvAnI ciMtA kare ! alyA enA mATeno chokaro janmI cUkelo haze ke janmavAno bAkI haze ?! paiNatA pahelAM viSayonA vicAro Ave to turta ja pratikramaNa karI tene UkheDI nAkhavuM. koI chokarI gaLe paDe, jhUre, raDe, ApaghAta karI nAkhavAno bhaya pesADe, tethI kaMI tene ochuM paiNI javAya ? ThaMDA kaleje delavAnuM hoya ? rIsponsa ja nA apAya ne kaDaka rahevAnuM ? AjakAla chokarIo chokarAMone babUcaka ja samaje che ! tethI macaka ja nA Ape emane ! chokarIo chokarAMo karatAM dasa varasanI uMmare AgaLa hoya che ! eTale chokarAM emanA magajamAM ja nathI besatA ! paiNavAno moha, ghara mAMDavAno moha, chokarAM jaNavAno moha. badho pAra vagarano moha che ! puruSane ya ekavAra DIlIvarI Ave to pharI kyAre ya viSaya nA kare ! A to tarata ja moha pharI vaLe ! chatAM ya chUTako nathI. hasabaMDa paNa karavA paDaze. chokarAM chokarIonAM DAnsa, pArTI, DeTIMga badhAya saMskAra bagADe che ane mA-bApane keTaluM badhuM Tenzana rahe ?! peTrola agni be joDe rakhAya ? tyAM mA-bApanI AjJAmAM ja rahevuM joIe. nahIM to ekavAra phasAyA pachI bahu moTuM DIprezana Ave ne magaja bagaDI jAya ! paradezamAM ApaNA bhAratIya chokarAM amerikansa jevI chUTavALI jIMdagI jIvatA thaI gayA che ! mA-bApa kazuM kahevA jAya to kahe ke ahIMnA chokarAMnI jema amAre jIvavuM ja paDe ! nahi to ame pachAta gaNAIe ! have tyAM chokarAMo e nathI jotA ke amerikana chokarAM thavuM che to mAbApa to tamAre inDiyana mAnasanA ja joIe. jema ke chokaro paraNe dhaMdhe lAge tyAM sudhI bApa ja badho kharco karato hoya. jayAre dhoLIyAo to 18 varSe javAbadArIothI chUTA ! tyAM kema asala bhAratIya rivAja bApa tarIkeno yogya che ?! paradezamAM dAdAzrI dareka chokarIne vyaktigata vAtacIta karI pAkA pAye #AvI detA ke amerikana joDe paiNavAmAM zuM nukasAna ane inDiyana joDe paiNavAmAM zuM phAyado ! eTale chokarI ja inDiyana sAthI icchatI thaI jAya ! emAM ya gujarAtI gujarAtImAM ja karAya. vicAra saMskAra ne raheNI karaNI sarakhI Ave eTale lagnajIvana sukhI jAya ! ane hindustAnamAM rahenArAMne to nAtamAM ja karavuM uttama, jethI AcAra vicAra maLatA Ave. dAdAzrI chokarIone mIThI gammatamAM kahe ke chokaro evo khoLaje ke je tArA kahyAmAM rahe, mokSanA dhyeyamAM sahAyaka bane ! te eka ja nAtanA hoya to bane ! vaLI thoDoka DIphekaTIva dhaNI khoLI kADhe to khUba ja AjJAmAM rahe ! dArU mAMsamAM cokhkho dhaNI joIe ! thoDoka ApaNAthI utaratA mArkavALo hoya to sAruM. thoDIka DIphekaTa hoya to ApaNA vazamAM

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rahe ! nahIM to roja kakaLATa thAya ! ApaNane dharmamAM rasa hoya to te karavA de ! mATe DIphekaTIva haze to ApaNAthI DIkaTeTarazIpa thAya. nahIM to e hITalara thaIne phare ! dhaNI dhaNIyANI ekabIjAne helpIMga hovA joIe ! unALo comAsAne helpIMga che ! osTrakaTIva nathI ! evuM A badhA mokSe javA helpIMga ja che. saMsAra duHkharUpa thAya tema mokSa vahelo Ave ! atyAre sati sItA khoLavA jAya to kayAMthI maLe ? rAma hoya tene ja maLe ! 'lava mereja' karAya ke nahi ? karAya ne ! kema nahi? paNa mAbApanI sahamati hoya to ja AziSa maLe ne sukhI thavAya ! ghaNA pUche dAdAzrIne ke pasaMdagI vakhate janmAkSara meLavavA jarUrI ke nahi ? tyAre dAdAzrI kahetA ke koIne janmAkSara jotA ja nathI AvaDatAM ne ? jo janmAkSara meLavavAmAM mAnatA hoya to tenI sAyakolojIkala iphekaTa rahe ane vahema mahIM gUMcave. mATe mAnatA ho to meLavajo ne nA mAnatA ho to emAM paDazo nahi ! zAka levA mokalIe to AjanI chokarIone ke chokarAMne zAka oLakhAtuM nathI, lAvatA AvaDatuM nathI, ane dhaNI khoLavA nIkaLyA che ? pasaMdagI karavAnI zI samaja paDe ? bahArathI rUpALI baMba kerI joIne lAve paNa cAkhe tyAre khATI caMDa lAge ! pachI zuM ? kApyA pachI koNa pAchI le ! mATe pAtranI pasaMdagI TANe anubhavInI salAha mAnavI jarUrI. bInaanubhavI bhIMDA levAmAM ya chetarAya to AmAM zuM nA chetarAya ? are, raste jatA cAra rastA Ave ne ApaNane khabara nA paDatI hoya to jANakArane, anubhavIne nathI pUchavuM paDatuM? to AmAM pUchavAmAM zo vAMdho ? tyAM AjanA chokarAMonA magajamAM bharAI gayuM ke mA-bApane zI samaja paDe ? amAre enI joDe jIMdagI kADhavAnI che to amane ja khabara paDe ne ? te jAta pasaMdagIvALAnA vadhAre DAyavorsa thAya che ke mA-bAponAM goThavelAnAM ?! chokarAM mATe dhaDadhaDa nA pADI de ne pachI pastAya ke AnAM karatAM pahelo sAro hato, khoTI nA pADI ! ane uparathI game teTaluM rUpALuM hoya paNa sinsiyara nA hoya to tene zuM karavAnuM ? paraNyA pachI bAhyarUpanuM mahatva rahetuM nathI, pachI to aMdaranuM rUpa kAma lAge che jIvanamAM sukhazAMtithI jIvavA mATe ! paraNatAM pahelAM cazmAvALI chokarIne kensala kare ne paiNyA pachI vahune ja cazmA banAvIne badhAMne jue ! ne jarAka vahune AMkhamAM naMbara Ave to vaDhI vaDhIne paherAve ! mATe UMcA cAritrane vadhAre mahatva ApavuM joIe bAhya rUpa karatAM ! lagnajIvanamAM ekabIjAne sinsiyara, eTale hakkanI sivAya bIje kayAM ya draSTi paNa nA bagADe ! sArA sArAne nA pADI de, te tene tarachoDa vAge ne tenuM rIekazana potA para AvyA vagara nA rahe ! mATe pahelAnuM pratikramaNa karI dhoI nAkhavuM. jo sukhI thavuM hoya to paraNatAM pahelAM gurune ke mA-bApane pUchIne karavuM. paiNatAM pahelAM dhaNIne Ama kaMTrola karIza, ne sAsune, naNaMdane Ama nahIM gAMThuM evuM badhuM goThave paNa tenuM pariNAma zuM Ave ? tallAka, TuMka samayamAM ja ! tenA karatAM mauna ane samatAthI je badhAM vaza varte tenI to vAta ja ora ! samatAmAM rahe to tenuM cAritrabaLa utpanna thAya ane teno prabhAva kaMI ora ja hoya ! krodha karanAra karatAM krodha nA karanArano tApa vizeSa prakArano hoya ! kaSAya vagaranAM je thaI gayA evA vItarAgo. tIrthakara bhagavaMtone Aje hajAro varSa pachI ya nAma paDatAM ja zIza jhUkI jAya che !!! kevo eno prabhAva !!! 19. saMsAramAM sukha sadhAya sevAthI ! mA-bApanI sevA vinaya ane rAjIpo levo e to adhyAtmamAM AgaLa javA pAyAnI mAMga che ! brahmacArI hoya ke paiNelA hoya, mAbApane tarachoDIne koI pragati na thaI zake ! hA, emane samajAvI, manAvI, dhIme dhIme kAma levuM. pratikramaNe ya khUba karavAM. mA-bApa chokarAM para dabANa kare ke DaoNkaTara thA, chokaro kahe mAre 34

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saMpUjayazrI dAdAzrI varSothI adhyAtmanI sAcI samajaNa badhAMne Apa Apa kare che jenAthI lAkho lokonAM jIvana AdarzatAne pAmyAM che ! ejInIyara thavuM che ! have dabANathI nA thAya, karma pramANe ja thAya ! gharamAM eka chokaro nA bhaNato hoya to mA-bApa enI ciMtA karI karIne jAnavara gati bAMdhe ! alyA badhAM ja sarakhuM bhaNatara lAvyA hoya ? ekAdanuM karma bhaNatara nA hoya to gaNatara hoya, dhaMdhAmAM hoMziyAra hoya to tene tevuM sIMcana karavuM. jIvanabhara mA-bApano upakAra bhUlAya zI rIte ? game teTaluM te bole to upakAra yAda karI sahI levuM ! ane ApaNAthI mA-bApane du:kha thaI jAya to tenuM turata ja pratikramaNa karI levuM. mA kone nA game ? game tevI kALI hoya to ya mA sahune rUpALI ja lAge ! mA-bApa ane guru A traNano upakAra AkhI jIMdagI bhUlAya tema nathI ! je bhUlyo te dagAkhora bane ne kayAre ya sukhI nA thAya !!! jaya saccidAnaMda pappAne rAjI rAkhavA, emanI sevA karavI, paga dAbavA, paiNyA pachI pappAnI sevA pUrI nA karAya, cheka sudhI karye rAkhavAnI ! duniyAmAM sevA karavA jevI hoya to sauthI pahelI mA-bApanI karavAnI ! mA-bApanI sevAthI khUba sukhazAMti maLe ! ane gurunI sevAthI mokSa maLe ! je gharamAM mA-bApanI sevA thAya tyAM bhagavAnano vAsa hoya ja ! atyAre sauthI duHkhI hoya to pAMsaTha varSanI uMmaranA loko ! gharamAM badhAMnA ThebA maLe ! zarIre ya dago de, nA kahevAya na sahevAya ! na chokarAM rAkhe ne na samAjanI Dare gharaDAMgharamAM rahevA javAya ! A gharaDAMgharanI vyavasthA e A kALane mATe yogya che ! paiDAMoe paNa jamAnA pramANe eDajasTa thavuM paDe. jUnA jamAnAnI mAnyatAone tilAMjali nahIM ApIe to kyAM sudhI A mAnyatAmAM rahIne duHkhI thaIzuM ?! parama pUjya dAdAzrI paiDAM mA-bApane dararoja nIcA namIne page aDIne namaskAra karavAnuM zIkhave che ! enAthI banne vaccenuM aMtara ghaTe ane doSa thayelA dhovAI jAya ! UMcAmAM UMco A vinaya che ! enuM pariNAma e Ave che ke emane emanAM chokarAM ya namaskAra karatA zIkhI jAya che ! ghara svarga jevuM banI jAya che ! mA-bApanuM ya cAritrabaLa evuM hovuM joIe ke chokarAMone mahIMthI page lAgavAnuM mana thAya ane e cAritrabaLa vadhAravA mATe 35

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anukramaNikA) (1) siMyana saMskAratAM... saMskArI hoya te ja sIMce saMskAra! mAbApano prema na javA de bahAra! vAtAvaraNanI asara bagADe chokarAM; mAbApe UkheDavA dinarAta photarA! dharma zIkhavADe, dharma svarUpa je thAya; bApanuM joIne chokarAMthI zikhAya! mA-bApa, mAstaro paDayA kamANImAM; nathI paDI, mAsUma zuM karaze jiMdagAnImAM?! AjanAM chokarA bhaNe, paNa na gaNe; ekAMgI citra bhaNataramAM, navI zuM laNe! chokarAMo bhAratamAM bhaNavA mUkAya? mA-bApa, chokarAMnA vartanathI muMjhAya mA-bApa tapathI jIve to saMskAra sIMce: dArU-mAMsa letA joIne bALaka DhIMce! mA vihoNA pratye bana Adarza pitA; jAgRta rahevuM ne siMcavI saMskAritA bApanI mUMcha kheMce tyAM kara DIskareja; bhaNavA mATe inAma, kara enkareja pappo kahe, jo bAbo khIsAmAM ghAle hAtha, mUA, chokarAne cora thavAmAM dIdho sAtha?! gharamAM phUMphADo mAravo e che ahiMsA! nahi to vaMThaze gharanA, ye bApa kaisA? gharamAM AratI-prArthanA sIMce saMskAra! vAtAvaraNathI zuddhi aMdara bahAra! 1 3 5 3 ' 10 15 18 20 21 23 24 37 (2) pharajiyAtamAM gAvAnuM zuM ? vItyAM varaso vegana veMDhAravAmAM; kAMdA-baTAkAnA bhAve vecAvAmAM! pharajo badhI che pharajiyAta! nahi to khAzo sahunI lAta! chokarAM bhaNAvyAM te DyuTI bAunDa! AtmAno nahi, suNyo pharajono sAunDa! 29 pharajo cUkavI te, na batAvAya gaNI; khoLa marajIyAta ne, le A bhava laNI! pharajiyAtamAM zIrapAva zAno? samabhAve kara nikAla to huM zANo! sukha ApyuM te kriyA thaI pharajiyAta, ApavAno bhAva karyo, te marajiyAta! cetIne cAla pahelethI chokarAM saMga; mela ghAlamela, nahi to khelAze jaMga? bhaNAvI dhaMdhe lagADo e ghaNuM; gAMTha rAkhI, rAkho vaDIlapaNuM! matabheda thatAM pUrve thavuM judA; dhANIo phUTe tyAM na rahe khudA! sAmAne na thAya bAdhaka te vyavahAra; joDe na jAya citAmAM, evo A saMsAra! dhaNI-bALakonI sevA karatI; aNajANe thAya prabhunI bhakti! kudarata to sahune rAkhe rAjAnI jema! akkaramI ciMtA kare rahevA hemakhema. 27 28 29 30 31 32 34 36 38 41 42 pharajo bajAvatA gati baMdha! aMdaranA bhAva sAthe saMbaMdha! 43 (3) tA jhaghaDAya bALakotI hAjarImAM.. Aje nAnuM kuTuMba chatAM ya ciMtA; mA-bApanuM joI chokarAM zIkhatA! bALako mA-bApanA jhaghaDAnI kare noMdha! nyAya zaktithI gunegAranI kare zodha! laDo, paNa ekAMtamAM, nA chUTake; dekhe, bALa paDe AMTI te ja jhaTake! 'pote' ja che sarva duHkhonuM mULa; ghera kaca kaca karI, bhoMke zULa! mA-bApanuM lagnajIvana joI! paiNavAnI vRtti yuvAvarge khoI! muMjhavaNo paradezamAM bALako mATe; bALako paNa muMjhAya be kalcaronI vATe 53 (4) asarTiphAIDa phAdharsa enDa madharsa! 46 47 re 51 para bApa thaIne paDayA chokarAMne mAthe; kara pUrI pharaja, rAkhI dharmane sAthe! lAyakanA chokarAM pUrAM saMskArI; pUjya draSTi rAkhI mA-bApa para vArI! dhIbe chokarAMne jema kapaDAM! A te bApa, gayo kUtarAM karatAM! mA-bApa te kone kahevAya? preme vaMThelAM 5 vaza thAya! kaLiyugamAM janmyA vALavA vera; lAvo nIveDo, navuM aTakAvavA jhera! kvaoNlIphAIDa mAbApanA kahyA pramANe cAle; dAdAI skUlameM sarTiphikeTa pA le! 6 . 57 62 63 65 rAja calAvatAM na AvaDayuMbharatane; rAme Adarza rAjya dIdhuM jagatane! na bolAya, chokaro nathI mAnato? nathI bApa tarIke chAjano! zIlavAna, zIla saMskAre; vAdha paNa tyAM salAmo bhare! jJAnI kaMDAre mUrti! phAdharone Ape pUrti! chAsIyAmAMthI so Taca banAve dAdA! taparva sonAne, paNa aMte phAyadA! (5) samajAvavAthI sudhare suputro... choDane te vaDhIne ucherAya? premathI pANo paNa pIghaLAya! AtmajJAna sAthe khape vyavahAra jJAna! zAMti mATe banyuM te vyavasthita jANa! khIle gulazana, tuM jo bane mALI! gADI UMdhe pATe, le premathI vALI! sudharelo kone kahevAya? vaDhe to paNa prema dekhAya ! chokarAM sudhare, karo sArA bhAva; viphare prakRti jo karo dabAva! dArUDIyo dIkaro, chatAM na kiMcit dveSa; premathI vaLe, ne hisAbe zUnya zeSa! dAdA greTesTa DaoNkaTara opha mAInDa! dareka dardI para sarakhA kAInDa! soLa varSe chokarAne rAkhe, phrenDa tarIke; uparIpaNuM nahi, to bagaDe na jarAM ke! dAdAe ApI badhAM bApAne cAvI; chokarAMne gaNe dAdo, to jaIza phAvI! 38 30 74 36 37 79 83 to 92 4 94 F ra Ce 101

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19 111 112 113 (6) premathI sudhAro bhUlakAMte premathI choDavAM ya uchare kAThAM; akaLAye sahune lAge mAThAM! sattAthI ya caDhe premano pAvara! hArTa dekhe tyAM premano zAvara! pahADa parathI patharo paDe, konA para gusso kare? devatAno saMga sIdho ke cIpiyAthI? keTalIka guMco, ukelo kImiyAthI! dAdAnA kahyA mujaba kare; bola e ke jeno artha sare! azruthI vyakta, nahIM kharI lAgaNI; DrAmeTIka rahya, kharI sAcavaNI!. thAya chokarA sAthe acUka pakSapAta; A to che leNadeNanI vasulAta! bALako dAdAnA satsaMgathI sudhare; jAte ghera AvIne sudhAre khaTapaTe! ghaDImAM gusso, ghaDImAM UchALo; e che Asakti, chokarAMne mujAro! na ghaTe-vadhe, paramAtma-prema dAdAmAM; na jovA maLe Aja koI pyAdAmAM! 115 117 jo jAte cIkana tuM zake kApI; to ja dharTe khAvA mATe rajA ApI! 130 bALakone mIThAInAM mAThAM pariNAma; | nAnI vaye viSayo macAve tophAna! duSaNo dUra kIdhAM, navI phezananAM... nakha ne hoTala bAranA janazananAM! 133 chokarAM sudharAya samajAvIne; hRdaya sparza tejavANI kharIne! 134 dAdA-premathI hRdaya palaTo corajo; vaza karyo mananA lAkho corane! 138 (8) tavI janarezana, heldI mAInDavALI! TI.vI.-sInemA jovAmAM zo sAra; gaMdhAto kAdava, lhAyane ThAra! 142 navuM penTa paherI jo jo kare takatAmAM; na ko' navaruM jovAM, sahu sahunI ciMtAmAM! 144 devalokathI utaryA vALachAvALAo! | paadhI badhuM poza pAmyA, na dIThAM khADAo! 146 bhIDa ja bhALI janmathI ja juvAnoe; nathI joI chUTa kadi saMtAnoe! 148 vaDIlonI kacakaca, traNeya kALamAM; UMdhI vepI, to ya o, zobhe tArA vALamAM! 149 he bujhargo, tame pharo! bhUlakAM vaccenuM aMtara haro! 151 1921-22nI sAlano sAMdho; AcAra-vicAra, paheravAM-khAvAmAM! 15ra te jo dveSa vadhAre paiDIyAmAM yuvAnone na paDI koInI duniyAmAM! 154 AvI A janarezana helthI mAInDavALI; na mArI-tArI tiraskAra ke tarachoDavALI! 156 pahelAM viSayomAM hoya cokhAM loka; dasa varSanAM ya dIgaMbara, vinA roka! 157 Dabala beDa na dIThAM bApa-dAdAe; koNa jANe bhAratamAM pA kyA kAyadAe! 158 nathI mamatA ke barakata yuvAnomAM; saraLatA ne cokhkhAI jIvanomAM! 161 kevo nikhAlasa Ajano yuvAvarga! saccAImAM to jANe utayAM svarga! 163 jarUra che yuvAvargane doranAranI; 'dAdA' jevA kalAkamAM pheravanAranI! 164 (9) madhara-phAdharatI phariyAdo ! moDo UThe to mA-bApanI zcakaca; kahevAnuM baMdha karo e ja rasto saca! 167 ramatIyALane vALavA bhaNavA; yojanA InAmanI kADho jItavA! bALaka sAthe bALaka banI jAya; kAunTara pulI mUkI eDajasTa thAva! 172 gADInuM paMcara karI, kevuM savAre? ema gheDIyAnuM hRdaya ThAre! chokarAM aMdaroaMdara laDhe; joyA kare to ja saMbaMdha baDhe! je pahelI kare phariyAda; te ja gunegAra rAkha yAda! rIsAya choruM to bApa muMjhAya; bolAvAnuM baMdha e ja upAya! krodhI chokarAM sAthe zuM thAya? pahelAM pote baMdha kare sadA ya! 181 gusso karo cho ke thAya che? e che vIkanesa aMte to thAya che!! 181 119 chorAMne vaDho samajyA vagara insIDansa; bhUlI gayAM nava mahinAno resIDansa? 182 | kema kADhe Avo Tona? vaDhIne le navI lona! chokarAM jayam pAkelAM cIbhaDAM; aDatAM ja phATe dhUo oraDAM! zIkha, chorAMne laDhavAnI rIta: nATakI laDhavuM ne nATakI prIta! duHkha thAya chokarAMne, vaDhavAthI; cokhkhuM thAya pratikramaNa karavAthI! krodha kare hIta mATe mA-bApa! puNye baMdhAya, nathI emAM pApa! 187 avaLA cAle tyAM karavI paDe Takora; nahi to mAne ame chIe barobara ! 189 gusse thAya tenI sAme samatA; chApa paDe jJAnanI, ne vadha pUjyatA! nathI bhUlamAM dIkaro ke phAdhara; laDhAI che pUrvakarmanI phAcara! DarAvIne karavA jAya kaMTrola; prema sivAya na jItAya, DaphoLa! mAra sahe banI bApaDAM; vera bAMdhI bane dIpaDA! 196 mA-bApanI dhAka hoya mAtra AMkhathI; kyAreka daMDa ke saMkorI prema pAMkhathI!. vaMThelAne vALo vItarAgatAthI; nahIM to sAmo thaze nirdayatAthI! jJAnamAM zuM bane te juo; sAthe pratikramaNathI dhUo! chokarAM sAcavo glAsa vItha kera; A che bhAratanA bhAvi heyara! ra04 120 121 124 (7) "avaLAM' Ama chUTI jAya! dArU svape na pIvAya kyAre ya; khoTonI pratiti kSaNe ya na bhUlAya! 126 dArU-mAMsAhAranuM rI pemAM jAnavara gati; jJAnInA vacana, khozo mAna mati! 127 na khavaDAvo kadi bALakone iMDAM; vadhu vIrya keDaDyA kare viSayonA kIDA! 129

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choDIne mAravAthI vaLAya? bhegAM rahI sAsu-vahu kare kaLATa; pArakI thApaNa, soMpI de 'dAdAya' ! 205 premathI sAcavo karI judo vasavATa! 234 samajo zuM che kudaratano javAba; na kara dUra vaselA putranI hAyahAya; bApa kare majUrI ne dIkaro navAba! 207 sukhI sahu ghera na lagADa lAya! 235 mAne, buddAnI buddhi bahera mArI; chokarAM paradeza vase na game bApane; to ya premathI to saMbaMdha sudhArI! 211 kSetra-kALane AdhIna saMjoga mA-bApane! 236 sAmuM chokarAM Ape vaNatolyuM! satayugamAM ghara eTale khetaramAM eka svabhAvI; noMdha ja na rAkho game te bolyuM! kaLiyugamAM ghara bagIco prakRtio.... 238 svataMtratA ApI vALyo satyAnAza; lAvelA saMskAranuM mAtra kara siMcana; bhUla sudhAro have, rAkhI haLavAza! 214 na apekSA, na vaDha, na kara tuM pIMjaNa! 240 zuM bebIne sudhAravI che ke, bApa lobhI ne dIkarI nobala; kazuM oparezana karavuM che? 216 | prakRti oLakhIne kara levala! 241 na calAvAya ApaNI draSTithI koIne narsarIno korsa karI uchere choDavAM; vItarAgathI viruddha che kahe dAdA joIne! 217 chokarAM uchero ema mAMDo vicAravA! na kapAya bAvaLIyo ghaNathI! samajAvanAro nisvArtha ghaTe; kapAya e to karatanI kaLathI! 219 sudharelo ja sudhArI zake! 245 bhogave tenI bhUla e nyAya; (10) zaMkAtAM zULa ! dArUDiyo dIkaro nathI anyAya! 222. choDI para zaMkA, mArI nAkhe jAtane; vahunI gALo kAnathI jAya saMbhaLAI; zaMkA paDatAM ja mULathI kADhane! 248 bhAMgo bhUla, tyAM hatA ja nahIM karI! 223 chokarA joDe karo DahApaNathI "DIlIMga'; choDI nAsI gaI paranAtamAM; svIkArI le nahi to ApaghAtamAM! nahIM to karaze e hArTanuM 'DrIlIMga'! 224 kolejIyana choDI para kare zaMkA; chokarAMthI bagaDe to ya, na kara dveSa; zAnathI ukelo hisAbo aMte niHzeSa! 227 'choDa' e, yAda kara dAdAI DaMkA! kALajI lo, paNa zaMkA na karAya; guMca paDatAM ja karo tapAsa mahIM; rAkha judo gUMcAyo 'huM' nahIM! 229 AsaktithI mukti e ja upAya! choDI moDI rAtre Ave ghera; na karAya nyAya koInA jhaghaDAmAM; | kADhI nA mUkAya, kaLathI kara phera! vinaMtI karuM chuM kahI paDo ragaDAmAM! sAmo kare zaMkA to na devuM aDavA; chokarAM-vahu bApane vAre vAre Teke; nAnA thaIne gujAre tene koNa roke ra3ra bhogave tenI bhUla ne mAMDa bhAgavA! 256 mokSa mArgamAM zaMkA bahu bAdhaka; 'samabhAve kara nikAla', he sAdhaka! 257 koNa choDI ne koNa bApa? nATakanAM pAtro na ko' sAca! 258 | (11) vArasAmAM chokarAMte keTaluM? chokarAM mATe vAparyuM, na baMdhAya bhAthuM; pArakA mATe vApare te puNya sAcuM! 259 | AtmA mATe kare, te kharo svArtha; te sivAyanuM badhuM parArtha! | bhaNAvo paiNAvo dhaMdhe lagADo; bAkInAM 'vATakharcA' kAje bhelADo! 262 moTo vAraso banAve dArUDiyo; saMskAra, bhaNatara ja kharo rUpiyo! dhaMdhe lagADe dIkarAne laI vyAje; zIkha bodhakaLA dAdAnI sukha kAje! ra66 bairI chokarAMne kyAreka bhIDa dekhADo; nahIM to vaMThaze ne karaze bhelADo! 269 | jo paisA joDe laI javAtA hota; devuM karIne poTaluM leta bahota! 271 chokarAne ApavuM paddhatasaranuM vIla; lokahitamAM vAparI, le ovaraDrAphaTanuM rIla! 272 na soMpAya pahelethI badhI milakata; lAcArI ne ThebAM maLe, jANa hakIkata! 274 rAkha lagAma hAthamAM e bannenuM hIta; vakhata paDe tyAre kheMca e kharI prIta! 275 | vIla karavuM vyavahArathI; pachI jIvana jIvAze pyArathI! milakta vecI dIkarAne dhaMdhe lagADyo; haDadhUta jIvana bApanuM re bhava bagADayo! 282 | UghADI AMkhe sAvadhAnIpUrvaka calAya; pachI athaDAya to vyavasthita manAya! 284 bApa bhaNAve dIkaro UDAve; zANo to vyAja sAthe UgharAve! 286 gAdI mATe bAdazAho mAratAM bApane; dUdha pAIne ucheryA gharanAM sApane! 287 gharamAM vAparyA te jarUrI gaNAya; UMcuM kyAre? pArakAM mATe vaparAya! - 288 AjanA yuvAno na rAkhe Aza; jAta kamAI para AdhAra khAsa! mAge paiThaNa, ApavI ke nahIM? saMjoga pramANe karavI sahI! gharajamAIthI bhAre phasAmaNa: na kahevAya-sahevAya-athaDAmaNa! 289 (12) mohatA mArathI maryA anaMtIvAra! na thAya dIkaro kadi sago; deha paNa aMte de che dago! traNa kalAka laDhe tyAM phUTe TeTo; na saMdhAya paDe bApathI chUTo! chokarAM pratye che uchInuM sukha; rI-pe karavAnAM bhogavIne duHkha! paga pahoMcatA sudhI chorAM pAMsarAM; pachI banAve bApane bahAvarAM! jeTalo moha haze chokarAM mATe; mAra teTalo ja paDe vyAja sAthe! mohane lIdhe lAge mITho saMsAra; chokarAM vaDe tyAre lAge asAra! mA-bApanI AzA paiDapaNamAM cAkarI; koNa jANe cAkarI thaze ke bhAkharI? 29 42

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348 30 vadhAre kamAvAnuM chokarAM mATe? vaDho to pahoMcADe halakI dhATe! kaladAra mAnIe to dhAya Asakti; TesTIMge bodA, mATe kara "sva"nI bhakti! 301 milakata mATe mAre, korTa jAya laI; rIyala nahi, A to rIleTIva sagAI! 30ra lAgaNI-mamatA e badhuM ebnormala; upakArI bhAva sadA, kara prazno hala! 304 bApane jovA jAye be vakhata sAhune davAkhAne bAra vakhata! mA vagara na phAvyuM varSa bAvIsa guru AvatAM ja mA lAgI bAlIza! 307 nava mAsa rahyo vagara bhADAMnI kholImAM; guru AvatAM mAne jalAve sadA hoLImAM! 309 vahu vALe vera te che 'vyavasthita'; 'bhogave tenI bhUla nathI AmAM prIta' 311 rAgamAMthI vera ne tethI saMsAra; vItarAgatA ja karAve bhava para! chokarAMne mArIne sIdho karAya? vera vasula karaze game te upAya! 314 chokarAM pajave to thavuM khuza maheM; choDAve che mohamAMthI upakAra lahI! 315 sthUla mohathI sUkSmatama, jJAnI samajAve, samaja moghama! 317 mamatA baccAnI gAya-bheMsane cha mAsa; manuSyo to sAta peDhInI rAkhe khAsa! 318 je mAbApa temane nabhAve! have navAM jaNI kyAMthI lAvo? 320 gerahAjarImAM lAgaNIo UbharAya; khAlI eka tethI hAjarImAM kaSAya! 320 badhAM mATe badhuM karyuM jIMdagIbhare; khare TANe koI nahIM 'zAnI' vagara! 323 bhaviSyanI ciMtA bagADe vartamAna; dUra DuMgarA choDI, Thokara saMvAra! 324 ciMtAthI paDe aMtarAya; mAtra prayatno ja karAya! 327 maratI vakhate jIva, choDI paiNAvAvALA; akkalano kothaLo na le koI cArAnAmAM! 330 soMpI de dAdAne chorAMono bhAra; geraMTIthI pachI ciMtA na lagAra! 331 chokarAM ja che ApaNuM tharmomITara; mokSane lAyaka banAve, choDa phIkara! 333 chokarAM uDADe, tene joyA karo; marIne jIvo e sUtra hade dharo! 334 (13) bhaluM thayuM, na baMdhAI jaMjALa... jJAnInI, draSTie vAMjhIyA puNyazALI; gata bhave RNa cUkavyAM have khAlI! 336 prajA mATe paiNyA ghaDapaNamAM bIjIvAra; dasa varasanI bIbI maLI to ya thaI hAra! 338 dAdA, dAdA sAMbhaLatA malakAya; A to signala paDyuM vadhu nA jIvAya! 338 gata bhava yAdImAM, to na khoLe baccAM, mokSanuM kara, nathI AmAM koI saccA! 339 kaI gAdI devAnI te jue putranI rAha; putrIonI lAIna lagADI kevI A cAha! 341 | karma pramANe ja maLe saMtAna; jyotiSanA cakkara thaIza herAna! 34ra koNe cAlyuM sarAvavAnuM tUta, paraNavuM ja paDenuM cAlyuM bhUta! kAcI samaje nIkaLe, hAya varALa; jAnavara gati baMdhAya karyo garbhapAta; zANo kahe, bhaluM thayuM bhAMgI jaMjALa! 344 bhAre pratikramaNathI ghaTe pApa! kyAM RSi-muni paiNe eka putradAna; be varSanuM bALaka mare, viSayAMdhe sarjAvyA phemiliplAna! 346 bAkI rahelAM karmothI phare! bALa mare duHkha paDe zuM kAraNa? bALakane karma baMdhAya kyArathI? hisAba patye na TaLe ko'thI maraNa! aMtaHkaraNa Devalapa thAya tyArathI! 367 allAnI vADInuM amAnata phaLa; (14) sagAI rIleTIva ke rIyala? dIdhAM lIdhAMno harSa-zoka na kara! bApa dIkarAnI sagAI "rIleTIva'; maryA tenI na karAya ciMtA; 'rIyala' ho to joDe jAya ekasarakhuM jIve! 369 jIve che teno kharo bana pitA! rIleTiva che mATe sAcavIne cAlo; mare teno na karAya kalpAMta; nahIM to tUTaze A to kAcano pyAlo! 370 du:kha pahoMce priyane samaja vAta! upara mAchalAMnI to kahevAya jALa; maraNa pachInuM laukika karavAnuM kahe; manuSyono saMsAra to jaMjALa! 37ra raDe badhAM, paNa aMdara nATaka rahe! 354 sAhajIka jIvana jIve janAvaro; deha choDI javAnI icchA na koIne! manuSyo mAMDe vikalponI vaNajhAro! 37ra hajI AMkhe dekhAya karI jIvavuM hoya ne! 355 bhajavA pAtra nATakanAM 'huM koNa" jANI! janmIne bALa tarata jAya marI; kahevAya rANIne 'ghera ThaMDa', 'kharI mAnI? 375 pUrvabhavanuM vera vasula karI! 356 'dAdA' bhajave nATaka dinarAta; eka kalpAMtanuM phaLa baMdhAya; karma kare chatAM akarma AtmasAt! 376 kalpanA aMta sudhI khaDAya! phemili vyavahAra mAtra che nikAlI; chokaro kaMI nizcayathI hoya? upalaka rahI rAga-dveSa karo khAlI! vyavahArathI, tethI joDe na jAya! 359 soMpe chorAMne karI kamANI kALI! 'dAdA'ne dIkaro-dIkarI AvI ne gayA, gharaDAM ghare ghAle, mare jIva bALI ! 379 gayAM tyAre peMDAnI pArTI, tyAre jJAnI! 359 | ghATavALI sagAIomAM zo sAra? dAdA gesTa AvyAM te gayAM! sAco saMbaMdhI AtmA e ja saMbhAra! 381 kevI samaja, chokarAM jayAre mayAM! 361 (15) e che leNadeNa, ta sagAI! chokarAMnI ciMtA bAMdhe jAnavaragati; jevo hisAba baMdhAyo, tevo cUkavAya; gayA bhavanI kare to kharI gati! 362 Apa-leno hisAba, nirAMte patAvAya! 383 maryA pachI to badhuM mUkI devAnuM; rAgadveSathI mA-bApa chorAM maLyAM; jIvatAM mUke tyAre mokSe javAnuM! 364 (duHkha vadhu bhogavavA khudanAM kya! 384) 312 343 43

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438 | na bolAya mA-bApathI, peTa pAkyuM; chorAM kahe, mArA pagale tamAruM cAlyuM! 385 bApa kahe, tane kazuM nahi maLe; chokaro korTe jaIne sAmo laDhe! jarUrI upAdhi vahorAya; bahArathI nakAmI nA kheMcAya! na hoya kadi mAne sahu korAM samAna; rAgadveSa mujaba abhAva ke kheMcANa! 389 cIkaNAM karme mA-bApa rahe joDe; nahIM to dUra videza khoraDe! pote potAno dIkaro' thAya; karmanI gati gajaba gaNAya! A bhave bAMdheluM kare kerI ona; mATe ceta, na le navI lona! sarakhuM sIMcana chatAM bhinna prakRti; bIja pramANe phaLa e che kudaratI! saMtanA pAMce, kayAre na pAke saMta; sva saMskAra pramANe, na cAle khaMta! ApaNA vAMke bheguM thayuM vAMkuM, ema ne ema na pAke peTe DAku! maLatAM paramANuo, joDe janmAve; tyAM ja goThe ne vasula karAve! phera kerI, kerIe pAMdaDe DALe DALe; spesa phere thayo phera, bhAva dravya kALe! 4CO rAjA zreNIkane dIkarAe nAkhyo jela; mahAvIra maLyA chatAM narke, karmanA re khela! 4O chorAM mA-bApa cUkave RNAnubaMdha; na ko' Ape ke le, sahu lAvelA prabaMdha! 403 choDa mAyAjALa parabhava sudhAra; saravaiyuM jo, gati cha paganI ke cAra? 409 | (16) TInejarsa sAthe "dAdAzrI' bhaNavAno dhyeya bALapaNathI; dAdA nAme pAzera, bhAra maNathI! 415 game teTaluM mAre to ya game mammI; hitamAM ja hoya jyArathI janmI! gharamAM, skulamAM je rAkhe sahune rAjI; Adarza vidyArthIe, sahunI 'hA'e hAjI! 419 jUThuM bolavAnA nuksAna tuM gaNa: duHkhI kare ne na rahe vizvAsa kaNa! 420 zAhukAro na kare corI DarathI; polIso na hoya to upaDe dhULathI! 421 he Aryaputro, na karAya bheLaseLa; nahi to jAnavara gatino che meLa! 422 eka jIva banAve, tene mAravAno rAITa; ahiMsaka hoya tenuM, UMcuM buddhinuM lAITa! 423 mAbApa rAkhe chokarAM saMge mitrAcArI; na khoLe chokarAM, pachI koInI yArI! 424 na bhogavAya aNahakkanA viSayo; dAdA dhare lAlabattI, jo je lapasyo! 425 Ave kuvicAro tyAre te prabhunuM nAma; na choDIza TheTha sudhI, e ja lAge kAma! 426 putrone ApavI maitrI, prema ne mAna; maskA mArI pADozIo, macAvaze tophAna!428 mamatA mA-bApanI bhAre; choDavI paDe, jaze tyAre! 430 sAcuM sukha kone kahevAya; je AvyA pachI kyAre na jAya! 431 dhAkathI nahi, samajAvIne lAvo ukela; AMTI dUra kADhavA mAbApe karavI pahelA 43ra mA-bApa thAya guse to zuM karavuM? 'jaya saccidAnaMda' kahI TADhA pADavuM. 433 gharamAM jANo bALakano mata; nAno paNa nirdoSa, tethI kahe ! 433 sukha ApavAnI kADho AjathI dukAna; sukhano vepAra vadhAro matimAna! 434 veDhamIno keLavavo paDe loTa; keLavaNI na phAve, samatAnI khoTI 435 sAco prema tyAM na hoya dveSa-rAga; vadhe ghaTe e to che Asakti anurAga! 436 sAmAnA zuddhAtmA jue to lAge nirdoSa; prakRti jue to dekhAya khUba doSa! 436 skUlamAM zIkhave bhaNatara; paNa kyAM zIkhave gaNatara? mazInanA maLe savAso rojanAM; manuSyanuM bhADuM cAlIsa, emAM lojanAM! 438 mA-bApa na mUke chokarImAM vizvAsa; vyAjabI e, kAraNa samajanI kacAza! 440 gALo de to sAcavIza phAdharane; dhanya tane ne tArI jaNatarane! bApa laDhe matabheda kaleza dhare; bhogave enI bhUla, karI cUkta kare! 442 jUnI gADI thAya jaldI garama; chokarAM zAMta to bApa jaldI narama! 444 (17) patnItI pasaMgI! paraNavuM pharajiyAta harakoIne; brahmacArI viralo, pUrvanuM laIne! 445 na thAya, ghAre tevuM haMmezA; nA nA karatAM paiNI jAya badhA! 448 paiNIne jItAya premathI patnI, jhaghaDAthI kaleza UMdhI mati! na cAle paraNyA vinA saMsAra; jJAnI ja nirAlaMba, vinA AdhAra! 450 yuvAvarga doDI Ave dAdA pAsa; mA-bApanAM sukha(?) joI thAya udAsa! 451 pAtranI pasaMdagImAM na ghAlo hAtha; na phAve to Ave bApane mAtha! 45ra na vaparAya buddhi pasaMdagImAM; saMjogo, sAcI Ape jiMdagImAM! 453 patnI, kuTuMba mATe na de karavA; khAnagImAM karI, beu sAcavavA! nathI pApa lava merejamAM; pApa che dagA ne pharebamAM! purAvA bhegAM thatAM lapharuM paDyuM! lapharuM jANatAM ja, paDe e chUTuM! moTuM rUpALuM pasaMda karI lAvyo paiNI; have nathI jovuM gamatuM kahe dhaNI! 458 na karAya kadi bhAratIyathI DeTiMga; varjInane maLe varjIna kudaratI seTIMga! 459 phorena leDI pahoMce chUTAcheDe cheka; iMDIyana roja laDhe to ya ekanA eka! 461 eka nAtanAnAM sarakhA svabhAva; paranAtamAM na bese meLa sAva! 463 rUpALI hAphusa dekhI lAvyo ghera; e cAkhe to khATI, silekazana phera! 464 vartaje ahIM nakkI karyA pramANe; nAtanIne ja hA, pasaMdagI TANe! 464 jJAna kahe paiNyo, te mujaba karma; vyavahAre nAtamAM ja kare e dharma! 465

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205 - 481 paradezamAM bahu nAtanI nahi jarUra; gujarAtImAM ja kare to ya zura! 467 kuLa ane jAta banne jovA silekazanamAM; saMskArI bALako janma kombInezanamAM! 470 kabIrane maLI tevI maLe to paiNAya; nahi to kuMvArA rahI, AtmA sadhAya! 474 dekhatAM ja mahIMthI thAya AkarSaNa; pasaMdagInuM vaijJAnika A dhoraNa! chokarIne pheravIne jue chokarAM; ghora apamAna, strIne mAne photarAM! 480 vALaze badalo strIo svayaMvaramAM; | vAro Avaze emano TUMka samayamAM! paiThaNIyA vara, A kevI sodAbAjI! na prema, tyAM jIvanamAM dagAbAjI! 483 jAte pAsa karI lAvyA hoMze; pachI nA game e konA doSa? 487 (18) patitI pasaMgI! mAMgyo meM to dhaNI eka; AvyuM laMgara vaLagyuM cheka! samajIne peso, du:khanA dariyAmAM; tarAze jo rAkhe 'jJAna' hRdiyAmAM! 40 phAITa kare che. asabhya hiMsaka; eno nahi aMta, koNa Ape macaka? 491 pATI ne DAnsa, bagADe sva saMskAra; emAM koI cora, kare dila bekarAra! 492 pArTI ne DAnsa mA-bApane na game; mA-bApanI AjJAmAM ja rahejo tame! 494 mA-bApa gussAthI samajAve; ghavAya ahaM, kare mana phAve! 498 choDIoe rahevuM mA-bApanA kahyAmAM; e ja prema samajI, majA che sahyAmAM! 501, vahelA paraNavAmAM sephasAIDa; phasAya ne kare pachI syusAIDa! chokaro haze janmI cukelo; TAImano saMjoga bAkI rahelo! peTrola ne agni na rakhAya kadi sAthe; saLage acUka, jokhama na rAkha mAthe! lagna pahelAM paiNavAnA vicAra; AvatAM ja pratikramaNathI UDADa! koI jhUre tethI ApaNe pIdhaLAya? pratikramaNa karI, bIje paiNI javAya! choDIone chokarAM lAge babUcaka; nathI paiNavuM karI, Ape na macaka! strIno moha paiNavAno jaNAvAno; chUTako nathI lAvyA karIne bhAvo! paraNIne kADhe tAraNa; mokSa vinA na nivAraNa! konI joDe paiNIza bena; inDiyana ke amerikana? ahaMkAra bAMdhe dAdA premathI sarvasva arpe dAdA kahe temathI! evo khoLe ke madadarUpa dhyeyamAM; nathI hAthamAM bhale icchayuM zreyamAM! DiphekaTIva dhaNI khoLe to rahe calaNa; dArUmAMsamAM cokho, to jhaTa paraNa! ekabIjAne helpa karavA che jagata; unALo kheMce varSAne kevI kudarata! je te eka khoLI ne joDAya; dAdA kRpAthI mokSasAthI karAya! lava mereja, paNa mA-bApa maMjUra; uttama erenjaDa, sakasesa jarUra! ghaNAM meLave janmAkSara; nahi to rahe mana para asara! para5 nAdAna choDI chetarAya letAM zAkabhAjI; dhoLo vara khoLe mahIM nIkaLe pAjI! pa26 pAtranI pasaMdagImAM gharanAMne pUcha; anubhavIno le lAbha, na gaNa ene tuccha' 528 kALo kahI kensala kare; pachI pastAya khoyo are! dAdanA jJAna sAthe lagana eDajasTa thA kara AtmaramaNa! DeTIMga bhAratIyothI karAya? jaMgalI jIvana phrenDa badalAya! mitra paNa sinsiyara ghaTe! rUpALA paNa dagAbAjane zuM kare? 534 rUpa karatAM cAritra UMcuM, sukhI thavA A samaja sAcuM! 535 lagna jIvana hoya sinsiyara; hakkanI sivAya na UThe bIje najara! 537 sArAne nA kahI, mArI tarachoDa; bhogava phaLa, mare paiNavAnA koDa! 540 | paraNatAM pahelAM, pUchI jA dAdAne; sukhI thaze, jo pasaMdagI sAdAne! 541 choDI goThave bRha paiNatAM pahelAM; tUTe cAritrabaLa, ne tallAka maLelAM! pa42 mokSe pugADe, eDajasTa evarIvhera; A sUtra pakaDI le to, badhe lIlA dhera! pa49 | (19) saMsAramAM sukha sadhAya sevAthI! brahmacArI paNa ghaTe vinaya; sevA karI rAkho sahune nirbhaya! - 551 mA-bApane samajAvI levI sahI, tene ja sAcI dIkSA mahAvIre kahI. 552 bApano 'dI' ajavALe e dIkaro; jhaMjhaTa choDAve badhI e kharo! mA-bApanA kahyAmAM je rahe; svAdhInatAnuM sukha aMte lahe! chokarAnuM kerIyara karma pramANe; chokarAMnuM na cAle mA-bApanA dabANe! 556 'potAnuM' sudharyuM te ja anyanuM sudhAre; kaSAyothI mUMjhAyelo anyanuM zuM dhoLe? mA-bApanI karavI sevA khUba; e avaLuM bole to ya rahe cUpa! 562 mAM game teTalI hoya kALI; chokarAMne lAge sadA rUpALI ! paga, mAthuM dabAvI de te sevA; paiNyA pachI choDI de te kevA? pa65 vaDIlonI sevAthI khIle vijJAna; zAMti acUka male jIvanamAM pradhAna! mA-bApanI sevAthI sukhasaMpatti; maLe gurusevAthI kAyamI mukti karmo para na choDAya kadi; karI chUTavI madada banatI! bhagavAna dekhAya kayAM? thAya mA-bApanI sevA jyAM! Adarza gharaDAM gharanI jarUrIyAta; jJAna sAte bAkInuM rahe zAMta! jamAnA pramANe paiDAMe cAlavuM; to thavAya sukhI, nahi to dAjhavuM! tame roja daMDavat karo mA-bApane; chokarAM zIkhIne UThAvaze lAbhane! pa73 chokarAM nathI lAgatAM mA-bApane page; na bhUla RNa mA-bApa gurUnuM jage! 574 489 119 pa23 para4 48

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mA-bApato chokarAM pratye vyavahAra ! (pUrvArdha) nathI. (1) siMcana saMskAratAM... saMskArI hoya te ja sIMce saMskAra! mA-bApano prema ta javA de bahAra! praznakartA : chokarAonI ciMtA thAya che. dAdAzrI : chokarAonI zuM ciMtA thAya che ? praznakartA : badhI ya, ApaNane ema lAge ke emanA saMskAra barAbara dAdAzrI : hA, e tamArI vAta bahu suMdara che ke chokarAne sArA saMskAra maLe evuM hovuM joIe. paNa ciMtA karavAthI to saMskAra sArA thAya ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to zuM karavAthI thAya ? praznakartA : zikhAmaNa ApIe thoDI-ghaNI, bIjuM to zuM karIe ? dAdAzrI : zikhAmaNa ApavAthI nA vaLe. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : to nAnA chokarAne saMskAra ApavA mATe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : keTalA varSanI uMmaranA che ? praznakartA : A lagabhaga dasa-bAra varSa sudhInA che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa saMskAra te AkhA gAmamAM ekAda mANasa saMskArI hoya tyAM laI javAnuM ke bhAI, Ane saMskArarUpI davA karo, kahIe. paNa pelA mA-bApa to ema jANe ke ApaNe chIe ne, vaLI pAchA ko'kane tyAM zuM karavA javuM ? praznakartA : chokarAM ucheravAM bahu kaThIna che. A dezanI aMdara (amerikAmAM). dAdAzrI : badhe ja, tyAM ya kaThIna che. A to ahIMnA chokarAM sArAM. ahIM mA-bApa jo saMskArI hoya ne to ahIMnAM chokarAMnI bIjI harakata Ave evI nathI. jarA muzkelI che khorAka-borAka pesI jAya, bahAranuM vAtAvaraNa aDe, paNa te jo mA-bApa sArAM hoya ne to chokarAM sArAM thavAnAM, DAhyAM thavAnAM. praznakartA : ahIMyA AjubAju amerikAmAM paiso che, paNa saMskAra nathI ane ahIMnuM AjubAjunuM vAtAvaraNa evuM che, to te mATe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : pahelAM mA-bApe saMskArI thavuM joIe. e chokarA bahAra jAya ja nahIM. mA-bApa evAM hoya ke prema joIne ahIMthI khase ja nahIM. mA-bApe evuM premamaya thavuM joIe. chokarAM jo sudhAravAM hoya to tame javAbadAra cho. chokarAMnI joDe tame pharajathI baMdhAyelA cho. tamane samajaNa nA paDI ? praznakartA : paDI. dAdAzrI : tamAre saMskAranI icchA che eTale ApaNA chokarA sugaMdhIvALA hoya, ATalA tamArA vicAra ja hAI levalanAM che, eTaluM sAruM che, chokarAnA saMskAra khoLo cho tame !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra vAtAvaraNanI asara bagADe chokarAM; mA-bApe ukheDavA dinarAta photara! praznakartA : dharma karyA kare paNa chokarAonuM dhyAna nA rAkhe. dAdAzrI : kyAM ? praznakartA ApaNA dezamAM, InDiyAmAM. ahIMyAM ya evuM kare che. dAdAzrI : ahIMyA ya kyAM dhyAna rAkhe che ? ahIMyAe badhuM ADe raste caDhI jAya che. dhyAna to zuM rAkhavAnuM ? ApaNe saMskArI thavAnI jarUra che. ApaNe saMskArI thaIe to e enI meLe joIne zIkhe e. ApaNAmAM saMskArano chAMTo maLe nahIM pachI e chokarAo zuM kare ? ApaNA lokoe chokarAMone saMskAra bahu UMcI jAtanA ApavA joIe. ghaNAM mANaso amerikAmAM kahetAM hatAM ke amArA chokarAM che te mAMsAhAra kare che ane e badhuM kare che. tyAre meM ene pUchayuM, tame karo cho ? tyAre kahe, hA, ame karIe chIe. tyAre meM kahyuM, te to haMmezAM chokarAo karaze ja. ApaNA saMskAra ! ane chatAM ApaNe nA karatAM hoya to ya kare, paNa e bIjI jagyAe. paNa ApaNI pharaja ATalI, ApaNe jo saMskArI banAvavA hoya to ApaNI pharaja ApaNe cUkavI nA joIe. praznakartA : ApaNe mAMsAhAra nA karatAM hoIe, to ya e chokarAMo mAMsAhAra zAthI kare ? dAdAzrI : hA. ene bahArathI to bahAranA saMskAra Ave ne ! e badhuM laIne Avelo che. A jagatamAM je dekhAya che, emAM navuM kazuM banatuM nathI. ApaNe to ApaNI pharaja che, bAkI e to laIne AvelA che badhuM. A ema ne ema gapyuM nathI A jagata. eksiDanTa ya nathI. InsIDanTa ja che A jagata ! je dekhAya che, e potAnI aNasamajaNane laIne dekhAya che ane bAkI A jagatamAM eksiDanTa jevI vastu ja nathI. ane "ena InsIDanTa hejha so menI kojhIjha, ena eksiDanTa hejha Tu menI kojhIjha.' paNa te badhuM eka ja che, insIDanTa ja che A. eTale vAta ja samajavAnI jarUra che. praznakartA : AvAM chokarAo ApaNA dezamAM nathI hotAM, ahIM AvAM banI jAya che. dAdAzrI : vAtAvaraNa maLe che. ahIM. dareka vastune vAtAvaraNanI asara thAya. praznakartA : eTale mA-bApa dhAre evAM to bALako thAya ja nahIM. to to pachI mA-bApanuM kazuM cAlatuM nathI AmAM ? dAdAzrI : nA. ahIM AgaLa ApaNe lokhaMDa mUkIe emAM phera judI jAtano paDe ane ApaNe dariyA kinAre mUkIe to phera. beu vAtAvaraNanI asaro thAya. tyAM jabarajasta kATa caDhI jAya. ahIM sAdhAraNa jarAka lAge. eTale badhI asaro che, A jagata asaravALuM che. mA-bApanI pharaja eTalI ke chokarAMne kharAba raste na jAya, evI eka saMskAra ApavAne mATe bhAvanA rAkhavI joIe. praznakartA chatAM ya pachI je pariNAma Ave e pachI ApaNe.. dAdAzrI : pachI pariNAma te to ApaNI potAno hisAba che. khetIvADI haMmezAM karanAro mANasa ene saMskAra nahIM Apato hoya ? praznakartA : Ape. dAdAzrI : Ama kheDa kare ane kevA saMskAra ApIne kevuM sarasa kare che. e pachI varasAda nA Ave ane nA pAke, iTa ijha DIpharanTa meTara. agara to kaMI roga paDayo ane bagaDI gayuM, te bIjuM ! have chokarAone to bIjI rIte, sArI rIte ApaNe e AvuM tevuM ahIMno khorAka na khAya e badhuM ApaNe enuM che te dhyAna rAkhavAnuM. ane ApaNe jo khAtA hoIe to have A jJAna maLyA pachI e ApaNe badhuM baMdha karI devuM joIe. eTale emane ApaNA saMskAra dekhe evuM e kare. pahelAM ApaNA mA-bApa saMskArI kema kahevAtA hatAM ? e bahu niyamavALA hatA ane tyAre saMyama hato badho. A to saMyama vagaranA hoya. mA-bApe saMskArI thaI javuM joIe, jeTalAM kusaMskAra hoya te

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra emanI gerahAjarImAM thavA joIe. kusaMskAra hoya, je chokarAne duHkha lAge evA saMskAra ApaNA nA hoya. dharma zIkhavADe, dharma svarUpa je thAya; bApatuM joIne chokarAMthI zikhAya! praznakartA : A chokarAo badhA moTA thAya to e lokone ApaNe dharmanuM jJAna kevI rIte ApavuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe dharma svarUpa thaI jaIe eTale thaI jAya. ApaNA jevA guNa hoya ne tevA chokarA zIkhe. eTale ApaNe ja dharmiSTha thaI javAnuM. zIkhe ApaNe joI joIne. jo ApaNe sigAreTa pItA hoya to sigareTa pItA zIkhe, ApaNe dArU pItA hoya to dArU pItA zIkhe. mAMsa khAtA hoya to mAMsa khAtA zIkhe, je karatA hoya evuM zIkhe e. e jANe ke enAthI savAyo thauM evuM kahe. chokarAnI icchA zuM hoya ? praznakartA : bApathI savAyo thauM. dAdAzrI : mArA phAdharathI savAyo thauM tyAre kharo. e dArUmAM ya savAyo thAya ne mAMsAhAramAM ya savAyo thAya. to ApaNe je karIe chIe e karaze. chokarAone sudhAravAnI icchA bahu che, nahIM ? tame mAMsAhAra karo cho ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : dArU-bArU pIo cho ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : tyAre vAMdho nahIM, to chokarAo bagaDe nahIM. chokarAne eka ja kahevAnuM ke bhaI, mArAthI savAyo thaje, huM karuM chuM emAM. chokarAnI icchA zuM hoya ke mArA bApathI savAyuM thavuM che. evuM karatA nathI ne, evuM lapharuM nathI ne kazuM ? praznakartA: nA, bIjuM kaMI nathI. dAdAzrI : tyAre sAruM che. nahIM to chokarAo savAyA thaze. ApaNane joIne zIkhe e ke ohoho, mArA phAdhara to kazuM jo.... brAnI nathI letA, sIgareTa nathI pItA, e joIne zIkhe ane pelo phAdhara brAnDI leto hoya ne, chokarAne kahe, jo dArUne aDIza nahIM. eTale chokaro samaje ke AmAM TesTa che ne mane levA nathI detA. chokarAne zaMkA paDe ke pote sukha bhogave che ane mane bhogavavA nathI detAM. huM to pIza ja. te nA pIto hoya to ya pIve. eTale ApaNe saMskArI thavuM joIe. ApaNe InDIyana blaDa, ApaNe AryaprajA, anADI jevA thaIe, e kema posAya ? praznakartA : ApaNA bALakone DisIplinamAM lAvavA mATe ApaNe zuM karavuM joIe, mA-bApe ? - dAdAzrI : emane DisIplinamAM lAvavA mATe ApaNe DisIplina thavuM joIe. jo huM DisIplinDa thaI gayo chuM tamane badhAne dekhAya che ke nathI dekhAtuM. jo mArAmAM koI vyasana nathI. koI harakata rahI nathI mArAmAM. ane no sIkresI, AkhuM jagata sIkresIvALuM ! ahIM no sIkresI, eTale tame kevAM DAhyA thaI gayA cho badhA ! A DaoNkaTara kevA DAhyA thaI gayA che ! eTale tamAre DAhyA thavAnuM to chokarA tamArA DAhyA, pahelAM chokarAMne DAhyA karIne pachI tame DAhyA thAva evuM nA cAle. tamAruM joIne zIkhe che chokarAo to ! emanI svataMtra gAMTho lAvyA hoya, paNa e AgaLa bahAranuM joIne ja taiyAra thAya. bahAranuM sAruM dekhAya ane potAnI pAse avaLI hoya to manamAM ema lAge ke sAluM A AvuM kema, mArAmAM kharAba che, evuM samajI jAya. e pheraphAra karI juo, DaoNkaTara ne tame beu jaNA, chokarAM to Ama olarAITa thaI jAya. have vAMdhA jevuM nathI ne ?! praznakartA : ahIMyA amerikAmAM to aDadho vAMka mA-bApano ne aDadho vAMka A Telivijhanano. A Telivijhana emAMthI chokarAo badhuM ghaNuM UMdhuM-UMdhuM zIkhI jAya che. - dAdAzrI : Telivijhanano doSa nathI. Telivijhana to e UMdhuM zIkhavADavA AvyuM che ke, te paNa chatuM zIkhavADavAmAM ya jora karaze. eka bAju pharaze pahelAM ne chatuM zIkhavADaze. e vastu judI vastu che, e

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ApaNI icchA na hovA chatAM AvI paDyuM che. paNa A to ApaNe ghera to sudhArIe ne. praznakartA : A chokarAo iMDAM ane mAMsane badhuM nathI khAtA, paNa.... emanI mAo paNa evuM kahe ke nA khAzo, paNa jyAre skUlamAM jAya, tyAre skUlamAM e lokone khAtAM zIkhavADI de che ane pachI khAtAM thaI jAya che. dAdAzrI : nA, pahelI mAthAkUTa A gharanI TALo. A to saMjogo guMcave che, teno upAya thaI raheze pAchaLa, paNa tame jo paheluM tamAruM ghara sudhAro to badhuM sudhare. A to saMjogo gUMcave emAM to upAya ja nathI ne. jeno upAya nA hoya, tene ApaNe zuM karIe ! te ya pachI upAya che. meM ahIM keTalA ya chokarAMone mAMsAhAra choDAvI devaDAvyuM. kAraNa ke zIkhI gayo eTale pachI mane kahetAM AvaDe che. huM kahuM eTale choDI de bicArA. nahIM to saMskAra hoya ja nahIM ne ! praznakartA : ApaNe skUla calAvatA hoIe, to zuM karavuM joIe ke jethI chokarAMone sArA saMskAra paDe ? dAdAzrI : tyAM sArA saMtone bolAvavA joIe. mAstara sArA hoya to ja evA vicAra Ave. je khyAtivALA hoya evA sArA saMtone bolAvavA joIe. khyAtivALA, propegaDAvALA nahIM. praznakartA : darekane skUlamAM moTAmAM moTo savAla che ke kaI rIte chokarAne saMskAra ApavA skUlomAM. dAdAzrI : hA, e bhAva bahu che lokonAM, paNa zuM thAya eno rasto ? atyAre to mAstaro ya saMskArI nathI pAchAM. mAstaro ya che te paisA bhegA karavAmAM paDyAM che. eTale sahu koI baMdhAmAM e pesI gayuM chene ! e saMskArI loko hatAM te ya kusaMskArI thaI gayAM, pachI rahyuM ja zuM ? eTale AnA mATe have kudarate AvI rahI che. kudarata Amane rAga pADI deze. A have je bagaDI gayuM chene, ene kudarata sivAya koI sudhAranAra nathI. eTale kudarata AvI rahI che. te kudarata mArI phaTakArIne sIdhuM karI nAkhaze ! mA-bApa, mAstaro paDayA kamANImAM; tathI paDI, mAsUma zuM karaze jiMdagAtImAM?! AjanAM chokarA bhaNe, paNa ta gaNe; ekAMgI citra bhaNataramAM, navIzuM laNe! praznakartA : A pablika narsarImAM chokarAMo jAya che eTale AvuM thAya che ? dAdAzrI : tene lIdhe nathI thatuM. mA-bApanI narsarI nathI. saMskAra mA-bApanA joIe. bahAranA saMskAra zuM karavAnAM ! bahAra gayA vagara chUTako ja nathI. emAM ApaNane cAlI zake ema nathI. ApaNA hAthamAM nathI. paNa pharsTa mA-bApanA saMskAranI ja jarUra che chokarAMne, pahelI narsarI gharamAM hovI joIe. praznakartA : sArI skUlamAM mUkavAthI sArA saMskAra nathI AvatA ! dAdAzrI : paNa e badhA saMskAra nathI. chokarAMne saMskAra to, mAbApa sivAya koInA saMskAra nA pAme. saMskAra mA-bApanAM, gurunAM. ane enuM sarkala thoDuM ghaNuM hoya, phenDasarkala, saMyogo enA. bAkI moTAmAM moTA saMskAra mA-bApanAM ! mA-bApa saMskArI hoya to te chokarAM saMskArI thAya. A to hamaNe kudaratI Aphato Avaze, te rAge paDI jaze badhuM haDahaDATa. ane e kudarata sIdhuM karI Apaze tame tamAre bhAvanA karyA karo. e thAya che ne roja ? AjanA chokarAMone bhaNatara kema AvaDe che ? kAraNa ke bIjuM koI paNa prakAranuM dhyAna nathI. ekAMgI thaI gayAM che. gharanuM zuM cAle che, bahAranuM zuM cAle che, bIjuM zuM karavAthI ghera phAyado thAya, ne zuM nahIM ? e kazuM vicAra ja nathI. ekalo vAMca vAMca karene, bhaNabhaNa karyA kare, basa ane bIjo moha pAra vagarano eTale bhaNatA AvaDe che. nahIM to bhaNatAe nA AvaDe.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra thAya tyAre sAcuM, gaNatara e prekTikala che ! chokarAo bhAratamAM bhaNavA mUkAya? mA-bApa, chokyatA vartatathI muMjhAya! praznakartA : bhaNavAno zuM dhyeya hovo joIe ? dAdAzrI : UMdhe raste nA jAya te. abhaNa hoya te kyAM kyAM jato hoya ? abhaNane TAIma maLe, te kaI bAju jAya ? e bhAMgaphoDiyAmAM pesI jAya badhuM. eTale bhaNavAthI ApaNI ATalI sthiratA rahe che ane thoDuMka emanAmAM ya bhaNavAthI vinaya to saheja Ave ja che. hAu Tu eDajasTa vItha pablIka e Ave che ane potAnA mohanI ja paDelI. koI jAtanI ane kuTuMbane phAyado thAya ke evuM tevuM kaMI ja paDelI nathI, saheje ya. huM badhAne tapAsa karuM ne, badhuM mArA hisAbamAM AvI jAya. ekaluM bhaNabhaNa karavAnI dAnatamAM hoya ene vediyo kahe che. vediyo zabda ApaNAmAM kahe che ne ? praznakartA : bUkavarma, copaDIno kIDo kahe che. dAdAzrI : nA, bUkavarma judAM ne vediyA judA pAchA. vediyo eTale zuM ? je eka kAma jhAlyuM temAM ja muMo hoya ane bUkavarma eTale bUkamAM ja hoya che. A vediyo to badhAmAM vediyo hoya ane jagata zuM mAge che ? sAta hamAliyo mAge che, vediyo nahIM. evarI DAyarekazanavALA mAge che. badhI DAyarekazanamAM jAgRti joIe. tyAre pahelAnAM lokone bhaNatA AvaDatuM nahotuM ane bahu ochA mANaso pAsa thatA hatA ane Aje game te nAtanAM, golAnAM, ghAMcInA badhA chokarAo grejyueTa thAya che, DaoNkaTaro thAya che. te mane eka jaNe pUchayuM ke 'zuM chokarAo hoMziyAra thayAM che, A jamAno kevo Avyo che !' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'pahelAM DaphoLa chokarAMo hatA evuM tame kaho cho ? ane temAMnA ame hatA ! AjanA chokarA hoziyAra ane ame nApAsa thayA eTale DaphoLa ?" paNa AjanA chokarAone bhAna ja nathI, eka ja bhaNavAnuM, bhaNavAnuM ne bhaNavAnuM ja, bIjuM kazuM gaNavAnuM to samajyA ja nathI. e bhaNe ja che. e gaNelA nathI ane amArA vakhatamAM to gaNatara ane bhaNatara banne sAthe cAlatuM ane atyAre to bhaNatara, te ya eka ja lAIna, pachI AvaDI ja jAyane ! emAM zuM karavAnuM bIjuM ? bhaNatara e badhuM thiyerITakala che, e prekTikala nathI. prekTikala praznakartA : ApaNe chokarAMone 'InDiyA' bhaNavA mokalI daIe, to ApaNe ApaNI javAbadArI nathI cUkatAM ? dAdAzrI : nA. cUkatAM nathI. ApaNe eno kharco-barco badho ApIe, tyAM AgaLa to, tyAM to evI skUlo che ke jyAM hindustAnanAM loko ya chokarAne tyAM mUke che. jamavA karavAnuM tyAM ane rahevAnuM ya tyAM. evI sarasa skUlo che !!! praznakartA : mAnI pharaja hoya ke, chokaruM mAMduM-sAjuM thAya tyAre mAe enI kALajI levI. paNa e have tyAM hoya to, e pachI pharaja cUkyA nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : nA, evuM kazuM nahIM. badhuM enA hisAbo ja goThavelA hoya che. tamAre gabharAvavAnuM koI kAraNa nathI. ahIMthI gayo eTale eno badho hisAba hoya che ja. tamAre ene mATe prema rAkhavo. 'DonTa varI'. enuM badhuM laIne Avelo hoya che. tamAre 'varI' karavAnI hoya nahIM. praznakartA : ApaNe chokarAone tyAM rahevA mokalIe, e paNa karmanI yojanA ja haze ne ? dAdAzrI : hA. yojanA ja che. eTale ApaNA manamAM eka jAtano ahaMkAra che ke meM mokalyo. e yojanA ja che badhI ane e yojanAmAM hAtha ghAlavo nahIM. enI meLe sephasAIDa ja hoya che. A to vadhu paDatA vicAra karIe. A DaoNkaTara 'normala' kone kahe ? nAInTIeITa DIgrI Ijha dhI normala. evuM kahIne tame ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ane '100' e 'ebova normala' kahe. eTale "ebova

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra normala' vicAra karavA e 'phIvara' che ane 'bIlo normala' vicAra karavA te ya 'phIvara' che. tamane 'phIvara' Ave che, A vicArano phIvara ? praznakartA: ghaNo. dAdAzrI : DaoNkaTara davA karajo emanI. ApaNA DaoNkaTarone ja ebova normala'nA 'phIvara' Ave che ne !! praznakartA : badhAne vicAra to Ave ja ne ? dAdAzrI : nahIM, vicAra karavAnI 'normAliTI', nAInTI eITa ijha dha normala. nAInTInAIna Ijha dha ebova normala. nAInTI sevana Ijha dha bIlo normala. ema gape gappA cAlatAM haze ?! tyAre ApaNA loko ThokAThoka, ThokAThoka kare che. keTalAya varSathI mArI bega che ne, te enI mahIM zuM che e huM jANato nathI. eno zuM artha ? zI rIte cAlatuM haze mAruM ? praznakartA : tamane moha nathI, mAyA nathI enI. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa mAruM zI rIte cAle ? praznakartA : karmanI yojanA haze. dAdAzrI : e badhuM hisAba che. paddhatisara. A duniyA 'ekkekTa' che. tene ApaNA loko Dakho kare che UlaTo. A loko 'vAIjha' rahe to ya sArA. 'vAIjha' rahe to bahu sAruM kahevAya. paNa "ovaravAIjha' thAya che pAchA. tame DaoNkaTara, joyelA koIne 'ovaravAIjha' thayelA ? praznakartA: ghaNAM joyA che. dAdAzrI : A 'ovaravAIjha' thayelA te tenAM duHkha che badhAM. ene gujarAtImAM zuM kahe "ovaravAIjha'ne, bena ? praznakartA : doDhaDAhyo. dAdAzrI : hA. doDhaDAhyo kahe. pAcho DAhyo hato, teno have doDhaDAhyo thayo, tenA du:kha che A badhAM ! bAbo tamArI pAse che, tyAM sudhI bAbAnA vicAra tamAre karavAnA. bAbo ahIMthI tame dezamAM mokalo eTale bAbAnA vicAra tamAre choDI devAnA ane pachI kAgaLa lakhavo. to lakhavuM ke bhaI, tuM eno javAba Apaje amane, teTaluM ja. bIjI bhAMjagaDamAM nahIM UtaravAnuM ane tAre zuM zuM joIe che, amane lakhI mokalaje. koI jAtanI 'varIjha rAkhIza nahIM. e to ApaNI pharajo bajAvavAnI che. to eno prema rahe, ApaNI upara ! pachI tamAre vahune hau ghera rAkhavI che ane chokarAne ghera rAkhavo che ? pAcho te bApo thAya tyAM sudhI ? eka cha mahinAmAM kakaLATa Ubho thaze ! evI vastu ja nA karazo. moTo thAya to ApaNe A phorenavALAnI peTha rAkhavuM, aDhAra varSano thAya bAbo, eTale pachI tuM judo rahe, kahIe. ApaNuM DiliMga bahu UMcuM che phorenavALA karatAM. judo rahyA pachI ekatA jevuM ja DiliMga rAkhIe chIe. pelA phorenavALA nahIM rAkhatA barAbara. A jamAno judI jAtano che. jamAnA pramANe nA vartIe to mUrkha thaIe. praznakartA : paNa ahIMyA e mA-bApa rahe ane chokarAM tyAM AgaLa InDiyAmAM rahe, to emAM zuM phera paDI jAya ? dAdAzrI : ahIMnA mA-bApone to chokaruM vaza ja rahetuM nathI, kAraNa ke bahAranA saMskAra ja evA maLI Ave che. bahAranA saMskAranA AdhAre ja chokaro moTo thAya che. potAnA mA-bApanAM saMskAra jevA joIe evA che nahIM. eTale bahAranA saMskAra che. bahAranA chokarAo je AdhAre uchare che, e AdhAre ja uchare che A ane ApaNe tyAM to bahAranA saMskArI chokarAo... khorAka-borAka bIjI badhI rIte kharAba nahIM ne ! Ama amuka bAbatamAM kharAba kharA ane A amerikAmAM jaDa thatA jAya che ane pelA InDIyAmAM che te kharAba vicAranA thatA jAya. paNa kharAba vicAra e sArA karI zakAya, jaDane sAro karavo muzkela che. praznakartA : paNa e loko khAya nahIM evuM, pIe nahIM evuM, ane evuM ja ApaNA inDIyAnA jevuM ja khAya to e loko evA ja rahevAnA dAdAzrI : thoDI havAnI asara che, eTalI raheze. bAkI bIjuM badhuM khAvAnI je asaro, bIjI badhI asaro nahIM thAya. ema ahIM keTalAya

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 13 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra amane bhegA thAya chene chokarAo, emanI lAIpha bagaDI gayelI hoya, eTale chokarA ane sudhArI ApIe chIe ! praznakartA : amArA chokarAMo carcamAM javA mATe jIda karatA hoya che, to zuM karavuM emane javA devA ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : chone jAya emAM vAMdho zuM che ! praznakartA : pachI ApaNo dharma nA pALe tenuM zuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNo dharma ja kyAM che te ! enA karatAM je carcamAM jatA hoya to javA do ne ! ApaNo dharma to aMdara che, te ko'ka sAro mANasa bhego thaze, te ghaDIe UgI nIkaLaze. paNa carcamAM jaze to corIo to nA kare ne, carcamAM jaIne ! chone jAya ! bodharezana nA rAkhIza. mITa khAto nathI ne ? praznakartA : khAya che. dAdAzrI : tyAra pachI mITa khAto thayo, to tyAM carcamAM ja jAya ne ! tuM khauM chuM ke nahIM ? praznakartA : huM paNa khauM chuM. dAdAzrI : tyAra pachI e to zuM rahyuM ? to tuM enA karatAM carcamAM jatI houM to zuM khoTuM che ! jene maryAdA ja nathI koI jAtanI, limiTa ja nathI. praznakartA : ApaNA bALako ghaNI vakhata ApaNA dharmanI bAbatamAM pUche to e bALakone sArI samaja kevI rIte ApavI ? dAdAzrI : bApA jANatA hoya to vAta kare. bApa kazuM jANato na hoya to dharma vize vAta kare ja nahIM ne ! emane pachI bIjI bAbatanuM avaLuM zIkhI jAya enI nAnI uMmaramAM. ApaNe jo sArI samaja pADIe nahIM to avaLuM to bharyA ja kare. vepAra to kaMI kare ja ne ! A vepAra nA kare to pelo kare. praznakartA : paNa emane dhArmika zuM samajAvavuM ? dAdAzrI : jJAna vagara zuM samajAvo che ? praznakartA : ahIMyA bALakone dharma samajAvavA mATe eka to leMgvajano paNa bhAga che ane bIjuM dharmanI samaja mA-bApane paNa ghaNI ochI che, to AvA saMjogomAM bALakone dharmanuM mArgadarzana kevI rIte ApavuM ? to eno ukela bALako sAthe kaI rIte lAvavo ? dAdAzrI : kema karIne Ave, A bALakano ukela ja nA Ave ne ! eka to pote saMskArI thavuM joIe, bALakonI joDe phrenDazIpa karavI joIe. A be bALaka hoya, emanI joDe phrenDazIpa karavAmAM zuM nukasAna che ? ene ApaNA vagara game nahIM evuM karavuM joIe ane mAMsAhAra upara caDhe nahIM. mAMsAhArathI pachI mANasanA mana upara AvaraNa pharI vaLaze ne te pachI sArAsArano vicAra raheto nathI. A hitakArI ke ahitakArInuM bicArAne bhAna rahetuM nathI. AvaraNa pharI vaLe. mAMsAhAranuM moTuM gADha AvaraNa che. eTale brAnDI, mAMsAhAra upara na caDhe. e jovuM joIe ane te badala ApaNe paNa cetatA rahevuM joIe. ApaNe paNa ene aDAya nahIM. have ApaNe laIe ne chokarAne nA pADIe e khoTuM che. eTale badhuM pote saMyamamAM hoya to pachI AgaLa vadhAya. saMyama sivAya cAle nahIM. huM bIDI pIto houne lokone kahuM ke nA pIvI joIe, e cAle nahIM. A varlDamAM koI cIja huM leto nA houM, mane koI paNa e nA hoya. viSayano vicAra thato nA hoya amane, lakSmIno vicAra amane nA hoya. lakSmI aDIe nahIM, abajo rUpiyA Apo to mAre kAmanAM nahIM. tyAre amArA eka eka zabdathI badhI AkhI mila Ama dharI denArA hoya paNa amAre jarUra ja nahIM ne ! bAkI tamAre baMne jaNAe, tamArA vAIpha ane tamAre bannee saMyamamAM AvI javuM joIe. kaMIka bhoga nA Apavo joIe chokarAo mATe !! praznakartA : ahIMyA je bhASAnA prazna che, bALako nAnapaNathI peluM aMgrejImAM zIkhe. eTale A ApaNo A dharma che te lokone zIkhavA mATenuM ApaNuM bhASAnuM mAdhyama emanI pAse rahetuM nathI. to e prazna kevI rItanA solva karavo ? dAdAzrI : emane gujarAtI zIkhavADI do. loko phorenavALA badhA

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 16 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra gujarAtI zIkhavA AvyA che amArI pAse. A gujarAtI zIkhazo to A vijJAna samajazo. A varlDanuM bhAre ajAyaba vijJAna che-"akrama vijJAna', AkhA varlDanuM kalyANakArI che. ene samajo ! avirodhAbhAsa che, siddhAMtika che. buddhine gAMThatuM nathI. bhalabhalA buddhizALIonI buddhinAM paDIkAMo vALI devaDAvyA che, dhULadhANI karI nAkhyA A vijJAne to. praznakartA : ApaNA bhAratamAM paNa, muMbaImAM joIe to 70 TakA jainanA chokarAo iglIza mIDIyamamAM bhaNe che. dAdAzrI : hA, te e badhuM nukasAna ja thaI jAya che ne ! potapotAne sudhAro, mAruM kahevAnuM ema che. bIjo Ama kare che tethI, bIjo kUvAmAM paDato hoya to ApaNe kUvAmAM paDavuM evuM kaMI lakhI ApyuM nathI ! potapotAne sudhAravAmAM vAMdho nathI. A to pahelethI AvuM cAle che, A AjanuM nathI, mahAvIranA vakhatamAM ya AvuM hatuM. pote potAnuM sudhAravuM. potAne mAthe je jokhamadArI che, eTalI samajI levI. praznakartA ahIMyA amerikAmAM Apa pharI Avo tyAre huM badhAne bhegA karIza. tyAre Apa evuM kaMIka jJAna badhAne Apo ke jethI karIne badhAnA jIvanamAM parivartana thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : e huM pheraphAra thAya evuM karI ApIza. ghaNAM kharAmAM pheraphAra thaI gayo, ghaNAM mANasomAM pheraphAra thaI gayo. evuM chokarAne mATe evI hAIskUla ne koleja bAMdho ane tyAM AgaLa badhuM rahevAnuM karavAnuM vyavasthA karo, to badhuM ApaNA InDiyAthI AvIne badhuM karAve ane jyAM chokarAone rahevAnuM hoya to khorAka paNa dezI ApaNo InDiyana phUDa lAvIne karavuM paDe. paNa te kaMI kare tyAre ne! Ave nahIM kazI bAbatamAM. pachI kaheze, ATaluM ATaluM kamAyo paNa kaMI barakata AvatI nathI. e to mahIM gharamAM kaleza-kaMkAsa nA thAya to lakSmIdevI rAjI thAya. DaoNlara nahIM lAvatA ? keTalA DaoNlara lAvuM chuM tuM ? rojanA so DaoNlara lAve che ne ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : have to pachI zuM aDacaNa che ? kazI aDacaNa che nahIM. tuM kaMI lAvuM chuM. thoDuM ghaNuM ? keTaluM lAvuM chuM ? paccIsa DaoNlara ? praznakartA : hA, eTaluM ja. dAdAzrI : have, savAso DaoNlara Ave, pachI have to zuM ! badhuM khaIpI ane AnaMda karo, chokarA DAhyA banAvo ane chokarAne evo khorAka Apo ke bahArano pelo khorAka khAya nahIM. nA khavAya kahIe. ahIM amerikAmAM DaoNlara maLe, paNa chokarAonI bhAMjagaDa che ne ? praznakartA : e to badhAne rahevAno ja ahIMyA. A dezamAM badhAne e prazna rahevAno. paisA-DaoNlara maLavAnA paNa chokarA gumAvAnA. dAdAzrI : mArI pAse keTalAka chokarAoe niyama lIdho ne, te nathI mITa ke kazuM khAtA. mArI pAse tyAM nyUjarsImAM keTalAya chokarAM laI gayA. e mArI pAse niyama laI le to chUTI jAya. praznakartA : A prazna badhA ahIMyA pUchatA hoya che. A chokarAono prazna je che, e badhAne A prazna che. paNa jo A jJAnIpuruSanAM AzirvAda laI le, to A prazna raheto nathI koIne. dAdAzrI : nA, e to amukane ja AzirvAda phaLavAnA. e kaMI badhAnAM karmamAM lakheluM na hoya e. e kaMI kAyado nathI evo. khoTA saMskAramAM rahevuM, e bagaDavAnuM ja sAdhana. sArA saMskAramAM ja javuM joIe. chatAM nA javAya to harakate ya nahIM rAkhavI. jo javAya to ThIka che ne nA javAya to harakata nahIM rAkhavAnI. je banyuM e karekTa. nyAya khoLazo nahIM ke bhaI A Ama thayuM ane tema thayuM, kazuM nyAya A jagatamAM khoLazo nahIM. nyAya je thaI rahyo che e nyAya. mA-bApa tapathI jIve to saMskAra saro; dArU-mAMsa letA joIne bALaka DhIMce! jene ghera kleza thAya eTale bhagavAne ya kaheze, "baLyuM, A gharamAM to avAya nahIM, ThaMDo bIjI jagyAe jaIe.' eTale gharamAM pachI barakata

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 17 18 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra samaja paDIne ? praznakartA : paNa dAdA, saMsAramAM hau rahevAnuM ne ! dAdAzrI : paNa e to enI meLe ja jozene duniyA ! bagaDI gayeluM haze to bagaDI gayeluM kaheze ane sudharyuM haze to sudhareluM kaheze. mA-bApa Tebala upara Ama reDIne pItA hoya ne chokarAne kaheze, tuM pIza nahIM ! pachI emAM dArUvALA thAya ne ! mA-bApe to bahu saMskAra batAvA joIe. praznakartA : dAdA, gharasaMsAra badho zAMtithI rahe ne aMtarAtmAnuM sacavAya evuM karI Apo. dAdAzrI : gharasaMsAra zAMtithI rahe eTaluM ja nahIM, paNa chokarAM paNa ApaNuM joIne vadhAre saMskArI thAya evuM che. A to badhuM mA-bApanuM gAMDapaNa joIne chokarA paNa gAMDA thaI gayAM che. kAraNa ke mA-bApanA AcAra-vicAra paddhatisara nathI. dhaNI-dhaNiyANI ya chokarAM beThAM hoya tyAre cenacALA kare eTale chokarAM bagaDe nahIM to zuM thAya ? chokarAne kevA saMskAra paDe ? maryAdA to rAkhavI joIe ne ? A devatAno kevo oM paDe che ? nAnuM chokaruM ya devatAno oN rAkhe che ne ? mA-bApanAM mana "phrekacara thaI gayAM che. mana vihuvaLa thaI gayAM che. vANI game tevI bole che, sAmAne duHkhadAyI thaI paDe tevI vANI bole che, eTale chokarAMo kharAba thaI jAya. ApaNe evuM bolIe ke dhaNIne du:kha thAya ne dhaNI evuM bole ke ApaNane duHkha thAya. hindustAnanA mA-bApa kevA hoya ? te chokarAne ghaDe te badhA saMskAra to tene paMdara varSamAM ja ApI dIdhA hoya. praznakartA : have e je enuM A saMskAranuM che ne, paDa ochuM thavA mAMDyuM che. enI A badhI bhAMjagaDa che. dAdAzrI : nA, nA. saMskAra ja UDI javA mAMDyA. AmAM pAchAM dAdA maLyA eTale pharI mULa saMskAramAM lAvaze. satyugamAM hatAM evAM saMskAra pAchAM. A hindustAnanuM eka chokaruM AkhA vizvanuM vajana UMcakI zake eTalI zakti dharAve che. phakta ene poSaNa ApavAnI jarUra che. A to bhakSaka nIkaLyA, bhakSaka eTale potAnAM sukhane mATe bIjAne badhI rIte lUMTI le ! je potAnuM sukha tyAgIne beTho che, e sarvasva bIjAne sukha ApI zake ! paNa A to zeTha Akho dahADo lakSmInA ne lakSmInA vicAromAM ghUmyA kare ! eTale mAre zeThane kahevuM paDe che ke, "zeTha, tame lakSmI pAchaLa paDyA cho ? ghara badhuM bhelAI gayuM che ! choDIo moTara laIne Ama jatI hoya, chokarAo tema jAya ne zeThANI A bAju jAya. zeTha, tame to badhI rIte lUMTAI gayA cho ? tyAre zeThe pUchyuM, 'mAre karavuM zuM ?" meM kahyuM, 'vAtane samajo ne kevI rIte jIvana jIvavuM e samajo. ekalA paisA pAchaLa nA paDo. zarIranuM dhyAna rAkhatA raho. nahIM to hArTa-pheIla thaze. zarIranuM dhyAna, paisAnuM dhyAna, chokarIonA saMskAranuM dhyAna, badhA khUNA vALavAnA che. eka khUNo tame vALa vALa karo cho, have baMgalAmAM eka ja khUNo jhApaTa jhApaTa karIe ne bIje badhe paMjo paDyo hoya to kevuM thAya ? badhA ja khUNA vALavAnA che. A rIte to jIvana kema jivAya ?" mATe emanI joDe sAruM vartana, UMcA saMskArI banAvo. A chokarAone UMcA saMskArI banAvo. ApaNe pote tapa karo. paNa saMskArI banAvo. mA vihoNA pratye basa Adarza pitA; jAgRta rahevuM te siMcavI saMskAritA! praznakartA : jo gharamAM madhara nA hoya, marI gayAM hoya ane phAdhara ekalAM ja hoya ane ene Adarza pitA tarIke, enI putra mATenI badhI DyuTI, pharajo zuM ? e kaho. - dAdAzrI : hA, e pharajo badhI ejhekTa hovI joIe. chokarAnI joDe kyAM AgaLa ene enkareja karavo, kyAM AgaLa Diskareja karavo, keTalA pramANamAM Diskareja karavo, keTalA pramANamAM enkareja karavo-A badhuM eNe samajavuM joIe. atyAranA A samajaNa che nahIM. tene lIdhe chokarAM badhA evI ghareDamAM pAke che, pachI chokarAne koI saMskAra ja nathI maLelA, eTale bicArAMnI AvI dazA thaI che. hindustAnamAM. praznakartA chokarAM to je potAnAM saMskAra laIne AvelAM che te to

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra che ja, have e saMskAramAM paNa.... dAdAzrI : chokarAM enAM to saMskAra laIne Ave. paNa have tamAre pharajo bajAvavAnI rahI. 19 praznakartA : emAM Adarza pitAnI zuM pharajo ? dAdAzrI : hA, te kayA kayA saMskAra enAM khoTA che, e ApaNe jANI levuM joIe. kyAM sArA che ? emAM vakhate tyAM AgaLa UMghIzuM to cAlaze, paNa jyAM kharAba hoya tyAM jAgRta rahevuM joIe. ane ene kema karIne have pheravavo joIe, e badhuM ApaNe lakSamAM rAkhavuM joIe. paisAnI pAchaLa paDyAM che loko ! praznakartA : ApaNe prayatno to badhAM karIe chIe, ene sudhAravA mATe tema chatAM ya pelo nA sudhare, to pachI enuM prArabdha karIne choDI devuM, Adarza pitAe ? dAdAzrI : nA, paNa prayatna te, tame tamArI rIte karo cho ne ? sarTiphikeTa che tamArI pAse ? mane dekhADo ? praznakartA : amArI buddhimAM jeTalAM Ave evA prayatno karIe. dAdAzrI : tamArI buddhi eTale jo huM tamane kahI dauM ke eka mANasa jaja pote hoya, AropI pote hoya, ane vakIla pote hoya, to kevo nyAya kare ? bAkI choDI nA devuM joIe, koI dA'Do ya. enI pAchaLa dhyAna rAkhyA karavuM joIe. choDI daIe to to pachI e khalAsa thaI jAya. potAnAM saMskAra to laIne ja Ave che chokaruM. paNa emAM tamAre helpa karI ane A saMskArane raMga ApavAnI jarUra che. praznakartA : hA, to e karIe chIe pachI lAsTa sTeje, e prArabdha para choDI devuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : nA, choDAya nahIM. e choDavAnuM thAya tyAre mArI pAse teDI lAvajo. huM oparezana karI ApIza. choDI nA devAya, jokhamadArI che. 20 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra bApatI mUMcha kheMce tyAM kara DIskeraja; bhaNavA mATe itAma, kara enkareja! eka bApane to chokaro mUcho kheMcato hato, te bApA khuza thaI gayA. kahe che, kevo bAbo ! juone, mArI mUcho kheMcI ! le ! pachI enuM kaheluM karIe to chokaro mUcho jhAle ne kheMca kheMca kare to ya ApaNe kazuM nA bolIe, tyAre zuM thAya pachI ? bIjuM kazuM nA karIe, to jarA cUMTI khaNIe, cUMTI khaNavAthI e jANe ke A vAta khoTI che. huM je karI rahyo chuM A vartana, 'e khoTuM che' evuM ene jJAna thAya. bahu mAravAnuM nahIM. sAdhAraNa cUMTI khaNavAnI. eTale ene jJAna thavuM joIe ke A mUcho kheMcIe chIe tyAre eka bAju A cUMTI vAge che. e jJAna khoLe che. AvuM karavAthI jJAna zuM thAya che ? jo tyAM AgaLa enkareja kare ke bahu sarasa, bAbA kevA sarasa, enkarejamenTa thaI gayuM. pachI vadhAre kheMcaze pharIvAra ke ! ApaNe dareka bAbatamAM chokarAMone samajaNa pADavI joIe ke A khoTuM che. e emane khyAlamAM AvavuM joIe. nahIM to e badhA zuM mAnI le che ke huM karuM chuM e badhuM kharuM karuM chuM. eTale pachI avaLe raste caDhe che. eTale chokarAMne kahI devAnuM. A amArI joDe je badhA rahe che ne, te badhAMne amAre vaDhavAnuM. e to huM nA samajuM ? zuM karavA AtmA bagADuM ? paNa vaDhavAthI zuM AtmA bagaDI javAno che ? nA vaDhuM to mArA para jokhamadArI che. ane sAruM karato hoya to ApaNe kahevuM ke bhaI..., thAbaDavo Ama. to ene enkarejamenTa maLe. praznakartA : eTale ApanuM kahevuM evuM che ke darekane zAbAzI ApIne karAvavuM ? dAdAzrI : khoTA kAmamAM zAbAzI na apAya. ene samajAvavuM joIe ke Ama na hovuM joIe. ApaNe koNa chIe, tuM kono chokaro ? praznakartA : sAruM kAma eNe karyuM hoya to ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 21 22 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : sAruM kAma eNe karyuM hoya, to ene zAbAzI ApavI joIe ane te kaMI AgaLa ThokavAnuM ? ApaNe pAchaLa Tapalo mArIe chIe ne tyAre ahaMkAra enkareja (utsAha) thAya eTale pachI sAruM kAma kare pharI. zAbAza bAbA, pAchaLa nIce ApIe ne, to jyAM AgaLa TapalI mAre che ne, tyAM ahaMkAra che. eTale ahaMkArane tyAMthI uttejana maLe che. tethI ApaNA loko pAchaLa TapalI mAre che. paNa mAratA AvaDatI nathI. kaI jagyAe che e khabara nathI rahI have. nAnA chokarAne ahaMkAra suSupta dazAmAM hoya. ahaMkAra to hoya paNa te kogresa thaIne rahelo hoya. e to jema jema moTo thato jAya tema phuTe. nAnAM chokarAMne khoTA ahaMkAranAM pANI nA pAIe to ja DAhyA thAya. temanA ahaMkArane poSavA tamArA thakI khorAka nA maLe to chokarA suMdara saMskArI thAya. pauo kahe, jo bAbo khIsAmAM ghAle hAtha; mUA, chorAte cora thavAmAM dIdho sAtha?! zuM thAya ?! pharI 'gajavAmAMthI kADhavuM e sAruM che' evuM ene jJAna pragaTa thaI gayuM. tamane kema lAge che ? kema bolatAM nathI ? AvuM karavuM joIe? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : AvuM ne AvuM badhuM kema cAle te ! te bAbo zuM Ama joyA kare. ohoho, ke meM evuM zuM sarasa kAma karyuM che. A mArA pappAjI ne mammI vakhANa karI rahyAM che. mera cakkara, chokarAMne cora banAvI rahyo che A. te mUA, AvuM samajaNa vagara zuM kAma paiNyo ? samajaNa joIe A to. AvA lokone paiNAvavA ya nA joIe. chokarAMno bApa thaI jauM chuM tuM ? A te kaMI rIta che ? mera cakkara, ghanacakkara AvA kaMIthI pAkyA ! A bApa thaI beThA ! zarama nathI AvatI ? A bAbAne kevuM uttejana maLyuM e samajAya che ? bAbAe joyA karyuM ke ApaNe bahu moTuM parAkrama karyuM ! AvuM AvuM lUMTAI jAya te zobhe ApaNane ? zuM bolavAthI chokarAMne sAruM "enkarejamenTa' thAya ne zuM bolavAthI tene nukasAna thAya, enuM bhAna to hovuM joIe ne ? A to, 'anTesTeDa phAdhara" ne "anTesTeDa madhara' che. bApa mULo ne mA gAjara, pachI bolo, chokarAM kevAM pAke ? kaMI sapharajana ochAM thAya ?! 'gajavAmAMthI paisA kADhyA. keTalo hoziyAra thaI gayo che." A vAta helpIMga che ke nukasAnakAraka che ? have AmAM 'helpIMga" zuM haze ? bAbo corI karatAM zIkhe. ane AvA loko, AvuM bApa thavAnuM ane AvI mA ! alyA mUA, mAra, lApho to mArA eka. eTale e samaje ke A gajavAmAMthI paisA kADhyA e khoTuM jJAna che. ane pachI sAruM kAma kare. to pachI ene enkareja kara. to A to evuM bolatAM haze kharAM ? ke mArI joDI kADhelI vAta haze ? praznakartA : hakIkata che ! dAdAzrI : paga UMcA karIne paisA kADhe ? ke meM joDI kADheluM che? praznakartA : nA, joDI kADheluM nahIM. dAdAzrI : Avo mAla che A. badho mAla rabIza mAla che, te ya mA-bApa tarIke kema rahevuM tenuM ya bhAna nathI. have eka bApa to evuM kaheto hato, enAM chokarAMe zuM karyuM ? paga UMcA karI, paganI eDIo UMcI karI ane koTanA gajavAmAMthI paccIsa paisA kADhyA eNe. paccIsa paisAno sikko Ave che ne, tyAM hindustAnamAM, te kADhyA eNe. eTale eno bApa beTho hato te joI gayo ke have zuM hoziyAra thaI gayo chokaro to ! eTale enA bApe bAbAnI mammIne bolAvI. tyAre pelI roTalI vaNatI hatI. te kahe che, "zuM kAma che ? huM roTalI vaNuM chuM.' 'tuM ahIMyA Aya, jaldI Aya, jaldI Aya, jaldI Aya." pelI doDatI doDatI AvI. zuM che ? tyAre kahe, 'jo, jo, bAbo keTalo hoziyAra thaI gayo. jo paganI eDIo UMcI karI ane mahIMthI A paccIsa paisA kADhyA'. eTale bAbo joIne kahe, "sAluM, A sarasamAM sarasa kAma meM Aje karyuM. AvuM kAma huM zIkhI gayo have.' eTale pachI cora thayo, pachI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra A cAre kALano. pahelo satyugamAM cALelo ane pachI je nA caLAyelo (caDhe evo) mAla, e nAkha dvAparamAM. dvAparamAM cALyo. te pachI nA caLAya, te tretAmAM nAkha. tretAmAM nA caLAyo te kaLiyugamAM Avyo. A caLAmaNa che, AmAMthI ApaNe A cALaNo mUkyo che, jeTaluM caLAyuM eTaluM sAcuM, pachI rAma tArI mAyA ! ApaNA cAraNe e caLAze, e eka avatArI thaze. be avatAre, pAMca avatAre paNa kaMI ukela Avaze ! A huM jeTalI vAta karuM chuM eTalI badhI mane jAgRti haze ne nahIM hoya ? 23 praznakartA : hoya ja. dAdAzrI : badhI ja jAgRti hoya. haju to badhI bahu jAgRti. A jeTalA mAthAnA vALa che ne eTalI jAgRti mane varte che. pachI zI rIte phasAya ? jene cogaradamanI badhI jAgRti varte che ! lokone to jarA pavana Ave ne, to ya A loko UMghI jAya ! eTale A kaLiyuganAM mA-bApane to badhuM AvaDatuM ya nathI AvuM tevuM. ene khoTuM enkarejamenTa Ape che keTaluMka to. laI laIne phare che. pelI baI kahe ne Amane ke, bAbAne UMcakI lo. bhaIne kahe, to bAbAne laI le. zuM thAya te ? ane e te pAcho kaDaka hoya ne nA leto hoya. te baI kaheze, 'kaMI mArAM ekalInAM che ke tyAre ? sahiyArAM rAkhavAnAM'. evuM tevuM bole. te pachI bAbAne UMcakI levo ja paDe ne, pelAne. chUTako che kyAM jAya te ? jAya kyAM ? UMcakI UMcakIne sInemA jovAnA, doDadhAma karavAnI te ! chokarAMne zI rIte saMskAra paDe ? gharamAM phUMphADo mAravo e che ahiMsA! tahi to vaMThaze gharatA, ye bApa kaisA? tamArA uzkerATathI chokarAM avaLe raste caDhyA. kharI ke nahIM javAbadArI ? mATe darekamAM 'normAliTI' lAvI nAkho. eka AMkhamAM prema ne eka AMkhamAM kaDakAI rAkhavI. kaDakAIthI sAmAne bahu nukazAna nathI mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra thatuM, krodha karavAthI bahu nukazAna thAya che. kaDakAI eTale krodha nahIM, paNa phUMphADo. ame paNa dhaMdhA para jaIe eTale phUMphADo mArIe, 'kema Ama karo cho ? kema kAma nathI karatAM ?' vyavahAramAM je jagyAe je bhAvanI jarUra hoya, tyAM te bhAva utpanna nA thAya to e vyavahAra bagADyo kahevAya. 24 eka benkano menejara kahe che, dAdAjI, huM to koI dahADo ya vAIphane ke chokarAne ke choDIne eka akSare ya bolyo nathI. game tevI bhUlo kare, game te karatAM hoya, paNa mAre bolavAnuM nahIM. e ema samajyo ke dAdAjI, mane evI pAghaDI paherAvI deze sarasa ! e zuM AzA rAkhato hato, samajAyuM ne ?! ane mane enI para khUba rIsa caDhI ke tamane koNe benkanA menejara banAvyA te A ? tamane choDI-chokarAM sAcavatAM nathI AvaDatAM ne vahu sAcavatAM nathI AvaDatI ! te e to gabharAI gayo bicAro. paNa meM temane kahyuM, 'tame chellAmAM chellA prakAranA nakAmA mANasa cho. A duniyAmAM kazA kAmanA tame nathI.' pelo mANasa manamAM samaje ke huM AvuM kahIza eTale A 'dAdA' mane moTuM InAma ApI deze. mera gAMDiyA, AnuM InAma hotuM haze ? chokaro UMdhuM karato hoya, tyAre ene ApaNe 'kema AvuM karyuM ? have AvuM nahIM karavAnuM.' ema nATakIya bolavAnuM. nahIM to bAbo ema ja jANe ke ApaNe je kaMI karIe chIe te 'karekTa' ja che. kAraNa ke bApAe 'eksepTa' karyuM che. A nA bolyA, tethI to gharanAM phATI gayAM che. bolavAnuM badhuM paNa nATakIya ! chokarAone rAtre besADI samajAvIe, vAtacIta karIe. gharanAM badhA khUNAmAM pUMjo to vALavo paDaze ne ? chokarAone jarAka halAvavAnI ja jarUra hoya che. Ama saMskAra to hoya che, paNa halAvavuM paDe. temane halAvavAmAM kazo guno che ? gharamAM AratI-prArthatA sIce saMskAra! vAtAvaraNathI zuddhi aMdara-bahAra! nAnAM chokarAM-chokarIone samajAvuM ke savAre nAhIdhoIne bhagavAnanI pUjA karavI, ne roja TUMkAmAM bole ke, mane tathA jagatane

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 25 26 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra bIje dahADe bahAra pharavA javAnuM kaheto hoya ne, to kahe, "ApaNe peluM bolo, peluM bolo.' evuM kahe. pharavA javAnuM rahevA de ane saMskAra paDe. sabudhdhi Apo, jagatakalyANa karo.' ATaluM bole to temane saMskAra maLyA kahevAya, ane mA-bApanuM karmabaMdhana chUTyuM. bIjuM chokarAMne A tamAre 'dAdA bhagavAnanA asIma jaya jayakAra ho' roja bolAvavuM joIe. eTalA badhAM hindustAnanAM chokarAM sudharI gayA che ke sinemAmAM jatA nathI. paheluM be-traNa dahADA jarA vAMkAcUkAM thAya, paNa pachI betraNa dahADA pachI rAge paDyA pachI mahIM jo svAda utaryA pachI e ulTAM saMbhAre. praznakartA: ghera AratI karIe tenuM mahatva zuM ? dAdAzrI : AratI karIe, enuM mahatva bIjuM kaMI nahIM, AratInuM phaLa maLe tamane. AratInuM phaLa, ahIM mArI hAjarImAM je maLe ne evuM phaLa koI jagyAe nA maLe. paNa peluM to ApaNuM goThavaNIvALuM. paNa to ya AratInuM phaLa bahu UMcuM maLaze, ghare karaze to ya. eTale badhAe goThavI dIdheluM badhuM. Akho dahADo dUSita vAtAvaraNa UbhuM nA thaI jAya ne. naryA klezanA vAtAvaraNavALA gharo che. have temAM AratI goThavAI gayelI hoya ne, to Akho dahADo kaMIka chokarAM, badhAmAM phera paDI jAya. ane AratImAM chokarAM-chokarAM badhAM UbhA rahe. e chokarAMnAM mana sArAM rahe pachI. ane akaLAyelAM chokarAM hoya ne, te chokarAMne zuM ? A tApa, akaLAmaNa ane bahAranAM kusaMga. te kucAritranA ja vicAra Ava Ava kare. emAM ApaNuM A che ne, te ThaMDaka Ape, te pelA vicAra uDADI mele. bacAvavAnuM sAdhana che. A, bahu suMdara che. keTalAMka to be vakhata kare che. savAramAM ne sAMje, be vakhata. chokarAM UbhAM rahe ne ? ane moTAone kleza nA thAya. naryuM klezanuM ja vAtAvaraNa che. atyAre to nA Ubho karavo hoya, paisA hoya, badhuM ya sAdhana hoya, tene kleza to mahIM pesI ja jAya. Tebala khakhaDAve, jamavA beThA pachI. khakhaDAve ke nA khakhaDAve ? tame Ama karyuM ne tame Ama karyuM, cAlyuM pachI. nA cAle ? eTale keTalAMke gharamAM evuM nakkI kareluM ke ApaNe jamyA pachI badhAM, be chokarAM-bairI ane dhaNI badhAM sAthe bolavuM. ApaNI 'vidhi-AratI-asIma jaya jayakAra ho' e badhuM. eTale chokarAM badhAM regyulara thaI jAya ne ! DAhyAM thaI jAya !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : e javAbadArI.... dAdAzrI : hA.... A javAbadArI ! tethI to kALAnA dhoLA thaI gayAM baLyAM ! upAdhine baLI A to badhI. e to paiNyA pachI khabara paDe; paheluM to bahu mIThuM mIThuM lAge. pachI vegana kheMcavAnuM thAya, tyAre Injanane khabara paDe badhuM A. paiNyA pachI badhuM khabara paDe saMsAranuM to! pahelA to Ama jhagamagATa lAgyA kare ! ene ya paiNAvavo paDazene have! karo badhI che pharajiyAta; nahi to khAzo sahatI lAta! (2). pharajiyAtamAM gAvAnuM zuM? vItyAM varaso vegata veMDhAravAmA; kAMdA-baTAkAnA bhAve vecAvAmAM! dAdAzrI : keTalI uMmara thaI tamArI ? praznakartA : pacAsa. dAdAzrI : have so varSanuM AyuSya, temAM pacAsa to, aDadhAM to vaparAI gayAM, aDadhAM rahyAM have. ane (dikarAne) tAre to badhAM bahu, bAkI silaka eTale tAre pappAjIne rAjI rAkhavA. silakamAM pacAsa to vaparAI gayAM. te pUchayuM nahIM ke zemAM vAparI khAdhAM, pappAjI ? praznakartA : nathI pUchayuM. dAdAzrI : e zemAM vAparI khAdhAM haze eTalAM badhAM ? praznakartA : moTA karavAmAM. dAdAzrI : A nAnAthI moTA karavAmAM ?! praznakartA : paNa vyavahAramAM pharajanuM pAlana kharuM ? dAdAzrI : pharajiyAta ja che Akho. pharajanuM pAlana karavAnuM nathI, pharajiyAta ja che. vyavahAra jo tame pAlana nA karo to ADozI-pADozI kaheze, 'A chokarAnI phI nathI ApatA ? phI Apo ne ! chokarAM bicArAM kyAM jAya ?" tyAre ApaNe temane kahIe, 'tame amArAmAM Dakhala zuM karavA karo cho ?' tyAre kahe, 'Dakhala nA karIe, paNa chokarAnI phI to ApavI paDe ne !' eTale pharajiyAta che A. loko kahetAM Avaze. hA, ane chokarAne bahu dhIbI nAkhyo hoya ne, to ya loka kahetAM Avaze. praznakartA : ApaNA bALako pratye ApaNI pharaja to kharI ne ? dAdAzrI : pharaja bajAvavI. e pharaja bajAvavAthI kaMI tame enI upara upakAra karo cho ? eTale pharajiyAta che. tame nA karo ne to badhA kaheze, 'kaI jAtanA cho ? chokarAne paiNAvatA nathI ke ?" tyAre tame kaho ke "mArI pAse paisA nathI." tyAre loka kaheze, 'vyAje lAvIne paiNAvo. chokarAne paiNAvo, moTI uMmarano thaI gayo have.' eTale mArI-ThokIne tamAre karavuM paDaze. kaMI upakAra karatA nathI. keTalI pharajo che tamAre ? hA, jeTalI pharaja che ne, e badhI pharajiyAta che.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra chokarAM bhaNAvyAM te DayuTI bAunDa! AtmAto tahi, suNyo pharajoto sAunDa! 29 praznakartA : eTale A vyavahAranI bhrAMtimAM ja rahevuM paDe che. dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, ApaNe benkonI sAthe je ovaraDrAphaTa lIdhA che te to pUrA cUkavavAM ja paDe ne ! ApaNe rUpiyA lAvyA hoya tyAMthI ja promisa ApyuM hoyane ke bhaI, mArI je dazA thaze, kAM to mokSano adhikArI thaI jaIza to ya ApIne jaIza; kAM to mokSano adhikArI nahIM thAuM to ya tamAruM pemenTa pUruM karIza.' evuM ApaNe promisa ApIne AvelAne ! evuM A badhuM vyavahAramAM promisa patAvavAnAM che ane A pharajiyAta che pAchuM. marajiyAta tame kazuM karatA ja nathI. pharajiyAta, bilakula 'DyuTI bAunDa' ! A mA-bApa badhAM zuM kare che ? chokarAMne moTAM kare che, bhaNAve che ne je badhuM kare che, e badhuM DyuTI bAunDa che, noTa vila bAunDa ! ene A loko vila bAunDa mAne che e ja bhrAMti che !! 'DyuTI bAunDa'mAM to ApaNAthI kema koInI upara upakAra caDhAvAya ? A huM 'DyuTI bAunDa' chuM. eTale mane manamAM evuM tamArI upara upakAra caDhAvavAno bhAva ja utpanna nA thAya ne ! huM jANuM chuM ke A 'DyuTI bAunDa' che, parasattA ja che ! pharajo cUkavI te, ta batAvAya gaNI; khoLa marajIyAta te, le A bhava laNI! mA-bApe pAMca hajAranuM devuM karIne chokarAne bhaNAvyo hoya tema chatAM koI divasa chokaro udhdhatAI kare to, bolI nA batAvAya ke ame tane bhaNAvyo. e to ApaNe 'DyuTI bAunDa' hatA, pharajiyAta hatuM. pharajiyAta hatuM te karyuM. ApaNe pharaja bajAvavI. pharajiyAta eTale 'DyuTI bAunDa' ane marajiyAta eTale 'vila bAunDa'. loko pharajiyAtane marajiyAta mAne che. alyA, tArI vilIMganesa je bAju hoya te bAju saMsAra vIMTAI rahyo che. pharajiyAta che temAM marajiyAtanuM citarAmaNa cItarI rahyA mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra che. je pheravI zakAya che te vila bAunDa che. ghaNAM chokarAM bApanI sAmA thaI jAya che tyAre bApa gusse thAya che ane badhuM kahI batAve che ke meM tane bhaNAvyo, gaNAvyo, moTo karyo. alyA, pharajiyAta hatuM. tAruM marajiyAta je hoya te kahI batAva ne ! pharajiyAta je baMdhAyelA che ApaNI joDe AvavA mATe tenI mALA zuM karavA gaNuM chuM ?! marajIyAtane khoLI kADha. 30 pharajiyAtamAM zIrapAva zAto? samabhAve kara tikAla to tuM zANo! tame koI kAma marajiyAta kareluM kharuM ? praznakartA : nahIM. dAdAzrI : to pharajiyAta kareluM ? pharajiyAtanuM InAma hoya ? praznakartA : nA hoya. dAdAzrI : huM. marajiyAtanuM InAma hoya. eka bhaI pharajiyAtanuM InAma khoLavA mAMgatA hatA ! AkhuM jagata InAma khoLe che ne ke meM ATaluM ATaluM karyuM, tamane bhAna nathI, tamane guNa nathI mAro.' alyA mUA, zAno guNane khoLe che, A to je karyuM, e to pharajiyAta teM karyuM ! eka jaNa chokarAMnI joDe bolato hato. kUdAkUda karato hato, huM vaDhyo pachI. pelo kaheto hato, 'devuM karIne meM tane bhaNAvyo. nahIM to huM devuM nA karata to tuM zuM bhaNavAno hato, rakhaDI marata.' mUA, zuM karavA bola bola kare che amatho vagara kAmano ! e to pharajiyAta che, AvuM bolAya nahIM ! eTale chokaro DAhyo che ne ? tamane koNe bhaNAvyA ema pUche to zuM kahuM ? gAMDuM bole che ne, loko ?! abhaNa loko, samajaNa nahIM, bhAna vagaranAM. A bAbatamAM bhAna nahIM. vaijJAnika bAbatamAM bhAna nahIM, A svArthamAM bhAna, badhe jyAM ne tyAM svArtha AvaDe ene. have e svArtha te parArtha che pAcho. mane phI Apo cho, to tamane koNe ApI hatI ? emAM zuM navAI

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32 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 31 karo cho ?" kaheze. e to pharajiyAta che, emAM zuM ApyuM tame. pharajo bajAvatAM nathI, A to pharajiyAta che. samabhAve nikAla karo A phAIlono, to AbarU raheze, nahIM to AbarU nahIM rahe. eTale phAdharathI evo ahaMkAra nA karAya ke meM tane bhaNAvyo. kAraNa ke A bhaNAvavuM e badhuM pharajiyAta che. sukha ApyuM te kyiA thaI pharajiyAta, ApavAno bhAva karyo, te marajiyAtA pahelAM bIja nAkheluM tenuM. samajAya che vAta ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hA, hA. dAdAzrI : samajavAmAM kAcuM paDI jAya che. praznakartA : nA, nA. cAle che, barAbara samajAya che. dAdAzrI : kAcuM paDe to baMdha rAkhajo tyAM AgaLa. amane ya ema lAge ke amAro TAIma sAre raste gayo. e copaDIomAM khoLe, zI rIte jaDe ?! copaDIomAM, pharajo bajAvajo ne Ama tema. alyA mUA, copaDIvALAe lakhyuM, enA lekhakoe lakhyuM ane pelA pravacana karanArA kaheze, bhaI, pharaja ApaNe bajAvavI joIe. sArI rIte pharaja bajAvajo. alyA mUA, zuM zIkhavADe che, tuM amatho gAMDo. tuM ya gAMDo ane mane ye gAMDo banAvuM chuM ?! e bajAvAnI ja kyAM rahI ! Ane A garabaDa cAle che A badhuM. cetIne cAla pahelethI chokarAM saMga; mela ghAlamela, nahi to khelAze jaMga? eka moTA mANasa mane kahe che, badhI jAtanI pharajo, meM to ophIsanI pharajo badhI... zuM bajAvo cho te kahIe ? pharajano artha zuM samajo cho ? tyAre kahe, nA, ApaNe karavuM ja paDe ne, e chUTako nahIM. kAma karavuM joIe ApaNe. mUA zAthI karo, kahuM? DyuTI bAunDa nahIM ? tyAre kahe, hA, DyuTI bAunDa. alyA, tuM artha to kara, pharajIyAta eTale ! zabdo khoTAM nathI hotAM ne ?! lokone samajaNa paDavI joIe ne ! pharajo bajAvelI che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ane temAM eno pachI manamAM e mAne ke ghaNI pharajo bajAvI meM ! saMtoSa le ! alyA, paNa zeno saMtoSa, A to pharajiyAta hatuM ! kaMI marajiyAta zuM karyuM e mane khoLI lAva ? A to badhuM pharajiyAta. nAhyA-dhoyA e pharajiyAta karyuM ke marajiyAta karyuM ? zuM zuM marajiyAta karyuM che tame ? praznakartA : zodhavuM paDaze ! dAdA, potAnuM sukha bIjAne Ape che, e Ama to pharajiyAta kahevAya ne ? dAdAzrI : e pharajiyAta, ApI dIdhuM eTale pharajiyAta ane ApI devAno bhAva e marajiyAta che. hA, tame A kaDhI khArI hoya to e zAMta bhAve calAvI levI, evo bhAva che tamAro. te tamAruM marajiyAta che, paNa pharajiyAtamAM zuM banyuM ke "kaThuM khAruM che' bolI uThyAM. e bhAva eTale zuM ? bIja kahevAya. ene DuM Ave tyAre ! A pahelAnuM DuM atyAre AvyuM. amArA mAmAnA eka dIkarA kaMTrAkTara hatA. te chokarAnI bahu ghAlamela ghAlamela karyA kare. meM kahyuM, "amArA mAmAno phoTo tame rAkhatA nathI ?" tyAre kahe, "che ne phoTo." meM kahyuM, 'to pUjA kazuM karo cho ?" tyAre kahe, 'pUjA to kaMI nathI karatA." tyAre meM kahyuM, 'to A chokarAM ApanI pUjA karaze, have ?" tyAre e kahe, "e to koI nA kare.' meM kahyuM, 'jarA jaMpone, o zuM karavA mohano mAra khAva cho ? jarA pAMsarA paDo ne !" tyAre kahe, 'have mane samajaNa paDI. nahIM to mane to ema ja lAgatuM hatuM ke A to ApaNe karavuM ja paDe ne !' pachI meM samajaNa pADI ke, chokarAne bhaNAvIe nahIM to khoTuM dekhAya. paiNAvIe nahIM to ye loka kaheze, 'ene paiNavuM che to ya paiNAvatA nathI ?" paiNAvyA pachI nokarIe kaMI rAge paDI gayo, pachI ApaNe levAdevA nahIM. pachI ApaNe ghAlamela karIe tyAre loka kaheze, 'haju A DosA choDatA nathI. e tyAM ne tyAM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 33 34 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra bhaNAvI dhaMdhe lagADo e ghaNuM; gAMTha rAkhI, rAkho vaDIlapaNuM! TaLyo rahe che.' alyA bhAI, pahelAM AvuM enA pakSamAM bolatA hatA te have ya enA pakSamAM bolo cho ? paNa e lokanyAya kahevAya. A samajavA jevuM che. badhA mAra khaIne parArtha kare che ane tene jarA ya upakAra jevuM che nahIM. chokarAM upakAra jo mAnatA hoya ke mArA bApe bahu upakAra karyo... praznakartA : e paNa nahIM mAne. dAdAzrI : rAma tArI mAyA. pachI loka kahe, have ATalo dAdAno dharma pAmyA to ya mahIM chokarAmAM ne chokarAmAM vRttio rahe che. loka AvuM kahe, tyAre nA samajIe ApaNe ke loka pharyuM che. kAyadesara kahe che, nahIM to kazuM ya tamane kahe nahIM. have ApaNe ene rAge pADI dIdho. te pachI tamAre kazuM e chokaro hakadAra che nahIM. eTale ApaNe ApaNI calAvI levI paDI. paiso badhuM hoya te ya ApaNuM e ya chokarAnuM nahIM. eTale chokarA pratyenI pharajo kyAM sudhI meM kahI ? kaho. praznakartA : e bhaNI rahe ane kamAto thAya tyAM sudhI. dAdAzrI : e kamAto thAya ane rAge paDe tyAM sudhI ApaNe jarA dhyAna devAnuM. ane pachI enI pAse jaIne vAre ghaDIe jaIne, 'tuM dhaMdho barobara samo karato nathI.' evuM kahe kahe kare to zuM thAya ? vahu zuM kahe ? ke "A sasarA bahu kharAba che.' evuM ahIM AvIne amane kahI jAya che. chUTAM rahIe chIe to ya jaMpIne rahevA nathI detA. le, tuM to chokarAnuM samuM karavA gayo tyAre vahue InAma(!) ApyuM ! te pote evo mAra khAya che. chokaro jyAre ema kahe che ke "have kazo vAMdho nahIM." alyA, tane mukta kare che; tamane kema lAge che ? loko ya kahe ke 'dAdAnuM jJAna pAmyA cho ne have chokarAnuM zuM kAma vadhAre karo cho ?" loka to Ame ya kahe ne Ame ya kahe ! jo phI nA ApatA hoya to teme ya kahe. eTale lokanuM mAnavuM paDe ApaNe keTalI chokarAMnI pharajo te ApaNe samajI levAnI ! e rAge paDI gayA pachI kahIe, "aDacaNa hoya to amane kAgaLa lakhI jaNAvaje.' pachI e nA kahe ke 'huM bApujI bahu khuzI chuM." pachI mahIM saLI nahIM karavI. ApaNI gAMTha ApaNI pAse mUkI devI. gAMThane (mUDIne) ApIe karIe nahIM. nahIM to ApyA pachI 'Apa, Apa' karIe to e pAchA nA Ape. pachI ApaNe kahIe ke 'daseka hajAra Apa joIe, mane.' tyAre e kaheze, "huM, mAre bhIDamAM atyAre kyAMthI ApuM ?" tyAre ApIne have DacakAM mAre che ? aMdhArI rAte baLadIyA choDIe ane pachI "Ava Ava' karIe to Ave ? e to ApaNI gAMTha ApaNI pAse mUkI rAkhavAnI. ane emane chokarAne kahevAnuM ke 'tame tamAruM calAvI lo. mAruM cAlaze.' gAMTha mUkI devAnI. praznakartA : to emAM ApaNo svArtha na lAge ? dAdAzrI : vaLI svArtha ne paramArtha kyAM jovA gayA te ! A svArtha to che ja nahIM, naryo parArtha che. pArakAM hAruM jIvI rahyA che. parArtha ! nathI paramArtha, nathI svArtha ! svArtha to konuM nAma kahevAya ? ame 'jJAnI purUSa svArthI kahevAIe. ane tamane badhAne svArthI banAvyA. te AtmArthe jIvavuM enuM nAma svArtha ! "sva" koNa ? 'AtmA' ! A to 'caMdubhAI'ne 'huM kahe che. alyA, A to parArtha ! smazAnamAM e TAIme chokaro nirAMte nAstA-pANI karaze ! ne tame jANo ke chokarAM ApaNA hAruM kaMI karaze, nahIM ?! ' are, ApaNe ene be lAkha rUpiyA ApyA. pachI ApaNe kahIe, 'eka daseka hajAra kAle jarA mAre pelAne tyAM ApavAnA che, te lAva joIe.' tyAre kaheze, 'mAre bhIDamAM hAtha ghAlazo nahIM. tamAre joItA hoya to so-baso laI jAva. ApaNe samajI jAva ke jaya saccidAnaMda. Avate avatAra to have bhUluM nahIM. meM gAMTha vALI dIdhI, kahIe. meM to gAMTho vALelI che A, te gAMTho mane yAda che A badhI. pharI bhUlavAnuM hoya ? eka phero "jaya saccidAnaMda' kahIne ApaNe jANIe ke A chetarAyA e chetarAyA. bAkI have chetarAvuM nahIM. tamane kema lAge che ? chokarAM para e bahu rAkhavAnuM nahIM. ene aDacaNa AvI hoya to pachI ApaNI pAse

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 35 36 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra keTalI ? matabheda thatAM pUrve thavuM judA; dhANIo phUTe tyAM ja rahe khudA! hoya to ApavAnuM. paNa chokarAnI mahIM amathA vagara kAmanAM ghAlamela karIe, eno artha zo che te ? Doso savAramAM tyAM jaIne Ubho rahe. vahune kaheze, 'kemano dhaMdho barAbara cAlato nathI. A atyAre kaMI kamAyA dekhAtA nathI. tyAre vahu kaheze, "e saMDAsa gayAM che. hamaNe Ave tyAre kahejo.' have chokarAne kahIe tyAre e cIDhAyA karato hoya ke 'bApujI, tamAre cA pIvI hoya to pIo nirAMte. mane jaMpIne besavA do ne !" eTale ApaNe samajI jaIe ke huM bApujI chuM ke A bApujI ? A saMsAramAM ATalo ATalo mAra khAdho to haju A jatuM nathI ! bhayaMkara mAra khAdhAM che ! kono? baccAnAM ja ! kaMI pArakAM mAra detA haze ? baccAM ja mAra mAra kare. chatAM emanA taraphathI buma nahIM AvavI joIe. e pharajo che. pharaja, ne pharajiyAta che pAchI. e ya kaMI evuM gamyuM nathI. loko zuM samaje ke marajiyAta che. samajajo badhuM A ke nahIM samajo ? praznakartA : samajAya che. dAdAzrI : tyAre sAruM che. samaje ne to Ukela Ave. anaMta avatAra gayA che badhA. tamane samajAyuM ne badhuM ? gAMTha vALI ke nahIM ? te vALajo gAMTha moTI. ame kevA gAMTha vALIne beThA chIe. tamane to eTalI zraddhAne ke mArA chokarA jevo koI chokaro nahIM? paNa e to jyAre cAkhazo tyAre khabara paDaze. paccIsa varSano chokaro, ne pacAsa varSano pitA, to be ahaMkAranuM zuM thAya ? TakarAya pachI ? ke ekatAra thaI jAya ? praznakartA : nA. paNa ApaNe ahaMkAra rAkhIe nahIM to nA TakarAya ne. dAdAzrI : e nA rAkhIe to ya niyama che kudaratano ke eka dahADo TakarAyA sivAya raheze nahIM. te dahADe vairAga Avaze. tenA karatAM pahelethI ja cetIne ja vairAga Ave e zuM khoTuM ? A to te dahADe vairAga Ave, ke have A lokonI joDe UbhuM nA rahevAya; tyAre pahelethI ja cetavuM hatuM ne. dAdAe zIkhavADyuM hatuM tyAMthI cetavuM hatuM ne ke bhAI ApaNI pharaja hA, chokarAM badhAMne che, putra che, paNa badhA vyavahAranAM che. nizcayano koIno chokaro hoto haze kharo ? kema bolatAM nathI ? nizcayano chokaro hoya to TheTha sudhI enuM karavuM. TakarAmaNa thAya to ya vAMdho nathI, paNa nizcayano che ? eTale kAyamano che ne, ApaNo ja che ne ?! praznakartA : paNa hoto ja nathI ne evo. dAdAzrI : A to ghaDI pachI, ye kyA ho gayA ?! eTale sahu sahune karmanA udaye nIkaLI javAnuM badhuM. A to kaheze, eTalo badho saMpa che ke ame judA thaIe evAM chIe ja nahIM. meM kahyuM, karAra lakhI Apo mane. ne sahIo laI Avo badhAMnI. A to sArI rIte nANuM Ave jAya che ne tyAM sudhI. nANuM khUTyuM eTale zuM thAya ? A kaheze, 'tame bagADyuM." eTale pelo bhAI kaheze, 'te mArA hAruM karato hato ? A badhA hAruM ja karato hato.' 'paNa tame A badhuM bagADyuM, tamane akkala nahIM ne !' A saMpa(!) mATe cetIne cAlIe ke uMmara lAyaka thAya ke tamAre juduM thaI jAva. kAraNake saMpano vaLI niyama hoya, enI bAunDrI hoya, limiTa hoya. ne nahIM to pachI jhaghaDAM karyA pachI judA thaIe. pachI sAmAsAmI moDhAM nA jue, enA karatAM ApaNe samajIe ke have dhANIo phUTavA mAMDI. tAvaDo utArI do, haDahaDATa ! nahIM to A phUTI phUTIne phUTam phUTA thaI jaze ! eTale tAvaDo utArI devAno. - vyavahAramAM ye cokhkhuM rahyA sivAya mokSa pAme nahIM. vyavahAra cokhkho joIze, Adarza joIze. A to satyuganI ApaNI Adata hatI ke badhAe saMpamAM rahevAnuM. kAraNa ke satyugamAM kaMI bhAMjagaDa hatI ja nahIM. dAdo beTho hoya ne te dAdo kahe e pramANe badhAM karyA kare. paNa atyAre to A ? A jIvAta te kAMI pAMsarI rahetI haze? enA karatAM sahu sahunuM chUTuM, kAraNa ke darekano ahaMkAra hoya ne, TakarAyA vagara rahe nahIM. TakarAya

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 37 38 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra joDe na jAya citAmAM, evo A saMsAra! tyAre majA Ave, nahIM ? TakarAya tyAre to taNakhA jhare ! cakamakane Ama mArone tyAre taNakhA jhare, evA taNakhA jhare, TakarAya tyAre. eTale badhuM pramANasara sAruM. ApaNA AtmAnuM karI levuM. A zA hAruM zikhavADuM chuM praznakartA : AtmAnuM karavA mATe. dAdAzrI : hA. chokarAnuM badhuM ya karavuM joIe. paNa chokarAM kahe ke nA, bApujI have bahu thaI gayuM. to ya bApo choDe nahIM pAcho. to zuM thAya ? chokarAM lAla vAvaTo dhare to ApaNe nA samajavuM joIe ? tamane kema lAge pachI e kaheze, mAre dhaMdho karavo che. to ApaNe ene kaMIka dhaMdhAno rasto karI ApavAno. pachI vadhAre UMDA utare e bApa mUrakha. agara to e nokarImAM lAgI gayo eTale potAnI pAse je hoya e gAMThe mUkI devAya. koI phero aDacaNamAM Ave to be hajAra mokalavA pAchA. A to ene pUcha pUcha kare pAcho. tyAre chokaro kaheze, 'tamane nA kahuM chuM ne, mArAmAM Dakhala nA karazo.' tyAre A zuM kaheze, 'haju akkala nathI ne eTale AvuM bole che." alyA, A to nivRta thaI gayA, bhaluM thayuM bhAMgI jaMjALa. e pote ja nA kahe che ne. are, pADozIo ya ema kahe ke Doso mahIM pesa pesa kare che. ane nokarIe nA lagADatA hoya to e ja pADozIo kaheze, 'vagara kAmano Doso suI rahe che." evuM kahe ke nA kahe ? eTale ApaNI pAse je hoya e gAMThe mUkI devA haDahaDATa, pAchuM niSphara nahIM thavAnuM. e kaheze, mAre rUpiyA daza hajAranI bahu aDacaNa paDI che. tyAre ApaNe aDhI hajAra ApavA. nahIM to daza hajAra lIdhAM pachI ApaNI pAse Avaze nahIM. ane daza hajAra lIdhA pachI traNa hajAra pelo phAlatuM vAparI nAkhe. te bahu mAMgato hoya to aDhI hajAra ja ApIe. eTale A padhdhatisara jIvana jIvIe ! A vyavahAra bahu samajavA jevo che. bAkI ghaNAM phAdhara chokarAnI pAchaLa phara phara karyA kare. chokaro nA kahe. 'ahIMthI jAvane' kahe to ya khasatA nathI ! praznakartA : kharo vyavahAra to jJAnI pAsethI jANavA maLe. dAdAzrI : hA, vyavahAra eTale zuM ? sAmAne bAdhaka nA thAya, sAmAne AnaMda rahe, ApaNane AnaMda rahe, enuM nAma vyavahAra; nizcaya nahIM. chokarA nizcayanAM hota to to e gALo deta to ya ApaNe enI pAse raheta. e marI jAya eTale ApaNe marI javuM joIe. A to bApA gayA pachI rastAmAM ja cA-pANI kare. ApaNe TIkA nathI karatA. e to e ya bApa thavAno che. emAM navuM nathI. paNa ApaNe samajI levuM ke mAre have kyAM UbhA rahevuM; dAdAnuM jJAna maLyuM che to. nahIM to A lokonuM aphaLa jAya che badhuM ne parArthe vaparAya che. e nathI svArthamAM. svArtha eTale AtmAnuM karo e svArtha. nathI paramArthamAM. paramArtha eTale zuM ? ke lokopakAra, A to parArthe jAya che. mArA nathI tene mArA mAnIne dUdha pAuM chuM !! te parArthe gayuM ! parArtha eTale zuM samajyA ? A loko je svArtha kare che e paramArtha nathI, svArtha nathI, ne parArtha che. praznakartA : samajAvo. dAdAzrI : pArakA mATe gAya dohavI ane kUtarAne pAI de. tAruM zuM AmAM ? gAya dohIne kUtarAne pAI dIdhuM. lokonuM nukasAna karI karI ane AmathI tema AghApAchA karIne pAMca karoDa bhegA karI, chokarAne ApIne ThaMDyA tyAM ThAThaDImAM haDahaDATa. te gAya dohIne kUtarAne pAyuM. javAbadArI potAnI, chokarAM majA karaze have. javAbadArI enI badhI. AMTI-ghUMTI karI, e javAbadArI. tyAM hisAba pUchaze Ano ! praznakartA : ame ahIMyA satsaMga-bhagavad bhajanamAM amAro jIva lagADIe ane avAranavAra ahIMyA AvIe to gharanAM mANaso ema samaje ke A bena potAnI pharaja cUkI jAya che. ane strIne potAne ya ema lAge che huM vadhAre jo bhagavAna pratye prIti rAkhuM athavA AvI rIte satsaMgamAM jauM chuM to bALako rakhaDI paDe ? to zuM karavuM joIe ? ghera besIne bhajana karavuM joIe ? ke ApanI pAse ahIMyA AvavuM joIe ? ane vadhAre samaya besavuM joIe ? sAmAte na thAya bAdhaka te vyavahAra;

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : A mana, buddhi, ahaMkAra zuM kare che tene juo. eTale je karatAM hoya te karavA dejo. ahIMyA AvatA hoya te ya karavA devuM ane ghera pAcho jatA rahe te ya karavA devuM. potAnA chokarAM mATe besI nA rahezo ke AnA mATe besI nA rahezo ! 39 praznakartA : sAco rasto kayo ? amAre tyAM chokarAo sAcavavA ke amAruM potAnuM kalyANa karavA mATe satsaMgamAM AvavuM. dAdAzrI : chokarAM to sacavAI rahyA che. chokarAne tame zuM sAcavavAnA ? tamAruM kalyANa karavuM e ja mukhya dharma. bAkI A chokarAM to sacavAI rahelAM che ne. chokarAM ne kaMI moTA tame karo cho ? bagIcAmAM gulAbanA choDa badhA ropyA hoya te rAte UMcA thAya ke nA thAya ? e to ApaNe samajIe ke gulAba mAruM, paNa gulAba to ema ja samaje ne ke huM pote ja chuM. koIno ya nathI. pote potAnA svArthathI badhA AgaLa che. atyAre to ApaNe ahaMkAra karIe gAMDo, gAMDapaNa karIe. praznakartA : ApaNe jo gulAbane pANI nA reDIe to gulAba to karamAI jAya ? dAdAzrI : nA reDIe evuM bane ja nahIM ne. nA reDIe to bacakuM bhare chokaro. nahIM to DhekhALo mAre. praznakartA : bIjo prazna che ke sAMsArika pharajo ane dharma kArya vacce samanvaya kevI rIte sAdhavo ? dAdAzrI : sAMsArika pharajo to pharajiyAta ja che. mA-bApe mAnavuM ke chokarAMnI ApaNe pharajo bajAvI e che te pharajiyAta che. chokarAe ema mAnavuM joIe ke mArI upara upakAra karyo che, eTale emanA tarapha mAre bhAva rAkhavA joIe, evI mAnyatA hovI joIe. nahIM to pachI pelo mIkenikala thaI jAya. pharajiyAta thayuM eTale, mA-bApa pratyenI sevAno bhAva UDI jAya ne. have, saMsAranI pharajo bajAvatI vakhate dharma kArya vacce samanvaya zI rIte thAya ? tyAre kahe che ke, chokaro avaLuM bolato hoya, to ya ApaNe mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ApaNo dharma cUkyA vagara pharaja bajAvavI. ApaNo dharma cUkyA vagara. tamAro dharma zuM ? ke chokarAne pAlana-poSaNa moTo karavo, ene sadste caDhAvavo. have e avaLuM bolato hoya to tame avaLuM bolo to zuM thAya ? e bagaDI jAya. eTale tamAre premathI ene pharI samajaNa pADavI ke besa bhaI, Ama che, tema che. eTale badhI pharajomAM dharma hovo ja joIe. dharma nahIM pesavA do to e vekyumamAM adharma pesI jaze. khAlI oraDI nahIM rahI zake. atyAre ApaNe ahIM khAlI oraDIo rAkhI hoya to tALAo UghADIne pesI jAya ke nA pesI jAya ? 40 praznakartA H rAITa (barAbara). dAdAzrI : to tyAM AgaLa khAlI nA rakhAya. tyAM dharmane ghAlI ja rAkhavAno. nahIM to adharma pesI jAya. eTale dareka pharajo dharma sahita karavI joIe. manamAM Ave evI pharajo nahIM, manamAM Ave temAM pAchuM dharma nAkhIne sarakhI karIne pachI bajAvavI joIe. e samajAyuM samanvaya karavAnuM ? praznakartA : eTale A pharaja ane dharma be, eka ja banAvIne vartavuM ema ? dAdAzrI : nA. pharajo eTale pharajiyAta che. dharma eTale necarala laoN che. be prakAranA dharma. eka Atmadharma ane eka dehAdhyAsa rUpI dharma. jemAM sukhI thavAya. eTale azudhdha ane azubha e adharma che ane zubha e dharma che. koInuM sAruM karavuM, koIne sukha ApavuM, koIne helpa karavI, koIne dAna ApavuM, e badhuM dharma kahevAya che. paNa e dehAdhyAsa rUpI dharma kahevAya, te muktidharma nathI. muktidharma to Atmadharma, svadharmamAM Ave tyAre. to e dharma, svadharma pALavA mATe kAle huM tamane bolAvuM chuM. tame pelA dharma to bahu dahADA karyA. anaMta avatAra karyA. enuM phaLa AvyuM zuM ? puNye AvI. ane puNyanuM phaLa bhogavatI vakhate pApa baMdhAyA. samanvaya samajAyuM tamane thoDuM ghaNuM ? praznakartA : hA jI.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : gha2mAM strIono sAco dharma kyo ? ke AjubAjunI badhI strIo, AjubAjunA badhA purUSo ema kahe ke kahevuM paDe A baI ! evI pharajo bajAve ke AjubAjunA loko khuza thaI jAya. eTale strIno sAco dharma che te chokarAMne moTA karavAM, chokarAMne saMskAra ApavA, dhaNImAM saMskAra ochA hoya to saMskAra reDavA. badhuM sudhAravuM ApaNuM, enuM nAma dharma. nA sudhAravuM paDe ? dhaNI-bALakotI sevA karatI; aNajANe thAya prabhutI bhakti! 41 keTalAka to zuM kare che ? bhagavAnanI bhaktimAM tanmayAkAra rahe ane chokarAM dekhe ne cIDha caDhe. jemAM bhagavAna pragaTa thayAM evAM chokarAM dekhe ne cIDha caDhe ane tyAM pelA bhagavAnanI bhakti karyA kare enuM nAma bhagata ! A chokarAM upara cIDhAvAtuM haze ? A AmAM to bhagavAna pragaTa che. praznakartA : chokarAMne to jaMjALa samaje ne ! dAdAzrI : jaMjALa ! A AkhA jagatanI mAo, kharAbamAM kharAba kAma karanArI hoya, paNa chokarAMne khavaDAve che. mATe emane A jagatamAM khAvA-pIvAnuM badhuM maLe che. chokarAne, potAno chokaro mAnIne khavaDAve che, paNa mahIM bhagavAna tarIke che eTale enuM phaLa maLe che A. chokarAnAM nAmathI paNa bhagavAnanI pUjA kare che ne, tane samajAyuM ? mohathI ya bhagavAnanI pUjA kare che ne. A jagatamAM jIvamAtrane khAvAnuM maLe che enuM kAraNa zuM ? to ke' potAnA chokarAnuM poSaNa kare che eTale. A jIvamAtra enA potAnA chokarAnuM poSaNa kare che, enI mA dhavaDAve che ne, eTale ja A lokone khAvAnuM maLe che. kAraNake e to bhagavAna che. e rIte bhagavAnanI bhakti thaI rahI che. aMdara to bhagavAna ja beThelA che ne ? A kUtarIne khAvAnuM kema maLe che ? e baccAMnI mahIM bhagavAna rahelA che. te baccAMnI sevA kare che. tenAthI badhuM maLI rahe che. A AdhAre jagata badhuM cAlI rahyuM che. kUtarI baccAM dhavaDAve che e pharajiyAta che, e kaMI upakAra karatI 42 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra nathI. pADu be dahADA bheMsane dhAve nahIM to bheMsane bahu du:kha thAya. A to potAnI garaje dhavaDAve che. bApA chokarAne moTAM kare che te potAnI garaje, emAM navuM zuM karyuM ? e to pharajiyAta che. jagata zuM samaje che ke A chokarAne dhavaDAve che emAM chokarAMne mATe dhavaDAve che, paNa e mAone pUchI jojo ke chokarA hAruM dhavaDAve che ke potAnA hAruM dhavaDAve che ? dhAvaNa AvatuM hoya ne te kaiDa lAge. A DaoNkaTara samaje. te kaiDa maTADavA hAruM dhavaDAve che, paNa vyavahAramAM Ama nA bolAya. vyavahAramAM to upakAra mAnavo joIe. kudarata to sahune rAkhe rAjAtI jema! akkaramI ciMtA kare rahevA hemakhema. ahIM janma thatA pahelAM, ApaNe bahAra AvavAnA thayA te pahelAM loko badhI ja taiyArIo karI rAkhe che ! bhagavAnanI savArI AvI rahI che ! janmatA pahelAM bALakane ciMtA karavI paDe che ke bahAra nIkaLyA pachI mArA dUdhanuM zuM thaze ? e to dUdhanI kUMDIo badhuM ja taiyAra hoya che ! DaoNkaTaro, dAyaNo ya taiyAra hoya, ane dAyaNa nA hoya to chevaTe vALaMdANI ya hoya che. paNa kaMIkanI kaMIka taiyArI to hoya ja, pachI jevA 'gesTa' hoya ! 'pharsTa klAsa'nAM hoya tenI taiyArI judI, sekanDa klAsa'nI judI ane 'tharDa klAsa'nI judI, badhA 'klAsa' to kharA ne ? eTale badhI ja taiyArIo sAthe tame AvyA cho, to pachI hAya-ajaMpo zAnA hAruM karo cho ? ApaNA hAthamAM karavAnI sattA hoya to eka bAju dADhI Uge ne eka bAju nA Uge to ApaNe zuM karIe ? ApaNA hAthamAM karavAnuM hota to badhuM goTALiyuM ja thAta. A to kudaratanA hAthamAM che. enI kyAMya bhUla nathI hotI, badhuM ja padhdhatisaranuM hoya. juo cAvavAnA dAMta judA, cholavAnA dAMta judA, khANiyA dAMta judA. juo kevI sarasa goThavaNI che ! janmatAM ja AkhuM zarIra maLe che. hAtha, paga, nAka, kAna, AMkho badhuM ja maLe che, paNa moDhAmAM hAtha nAkho to dAMta nA maLelA hoya, tyAre kaMI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra bhUla thaI gaI haze kudaratanI ? nA, kudarata jANe ke janmIne tarata ene dUdha pIvAnuM che, bIjo khorAka pace nahIM, mAnuM dUdha pIvAnuM che to dAMta ApIzuM to e bacakuM bharI leze ! juo kevI suMdara goThavaNI karelI che ! jema jema jarUra paDe tema tema dAMta Ave che. pahelAM cAra Ave pachI dhIme dhIme bIjA Ave, ane A gheDiyAne dAMta paDI jAya to pAchA nA Ave ! kudarata badhI ja rIte rakSaNa kare che, rAjAnI peThe rAkhe che. paNa akkaramIne rahetAM nathI AvaDatuM, te zuM thAya ? pharaja bajAvatA gati baMdhA aMdaranA bhAva sAthe saMbaMdho praznakartA: dharma be rIte oLakhe che. eka to rIlIjIyana ane bIjuM DyuTI, to ApaNe kaI rIte cAlavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : DyuTI bajAvavI e dharma nathI, DyuTI nA bajAvavI e guno che. DyuTI tame nA bajAvo te guno che. DyuTI nA bajAvo evuM to bane ja nahIM ne ! DyuTI bajAvavI to paDe, paNa kaca kaca karatAM bajAvo to guno che. tame koI phero evuM kaca kaca karatAM bajAvo cho ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to badhI DyuTI rAjIkhuzIthI bajAvo cho ? chokaro phI mAge, kharco mAge, te badhuM rAjIkhuzIthI Apo cho ? praznakartA : ApuM chuM, paNa khoTuM hoya to samajAyuM ke A khoTuM che. dAdAzrI : TaiDakAvavAnuM nahIM. praznakartA : nA. koIne TaiDakAvavAnuM nahIM. dAdAzrI : ema ? tyAre sAruM. hA, nahIM to baInA dhaNI thaI bese. jANe duniyAmAM bIjo dhaNI ja nA hoya ?! evuM dhaNI thaI bese ne pachI TaiDakAve ! A varlDa Imuva karavAnI jarUra nathI. A to pote ja Immuva thAya 44 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ne, eTale badhuM oNla rAITa thaI jaze ! ene Iva karavAmAM zuM karavuM joIe ? ene dharmanI samaja pADavI paDe. have dharma kaho ke DyuTI bAunDa kaho ke pharajo kaho, badhI eka ja vastu che. bAkI A loko jene dharma kahe che enuM nAma dharma ja nA kahevAya. paNa ApaNe chokarAM joDenI pharajo, vAIpha joDenI pharajo, e paddhatasara bajAvIe, eTale emAM dharma AvI ja gayo. eTale je loko e pharajo barAbara bajAvatA nA hoya to ApaNe ene samaja pADIe, ane e pachI A pramANe badhAne eDajasTa thAya. eTale ene sukha ja Avaze. bAkI bhagavAnamAM to ekadama bIlipha bese evuM che ja nahIM. bhagavAnane oLakhyA vagara bhagavAnamAM zI rIte bIlipha bese ?! chokarAM mATe keTalAM javAbadAra tame, samajAyuM ne ? ane keTalAka satsaMgIo kaheze, chokarAne mATe enA bApa pUrA javAbadAra che, pachI jyAre chokarAne be lAkha devuM hoya ne to ApavAnI vakhate, mAre levAdevA nathI, e chokaro mAro hoya, huM eno bApe ya nahIM, kaheze. alyA mUA, e atyAra sudhI tuM kaheto'to ? eTale, saba sabakI samAlavA jevuM che. A zI hAya, hAya ? ApaNe pharaja bajAvI chUTavI. tame tamArI pharaja bajAvI cUkyA, bhaNAvyA, ejInIyara banAvyA ? pachI have tamane zuM vAMdho che ? keTalI pharaja bajAvavI ? praznakartA : paraNAvavAnI pharaja kharI ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : pharaja to badhI ya, paiNAvo tyAre ne. paiNAvo nahIM tyAM sudhI pharaja to pUrI nA thaI kahevAya ne ? badhI pharajo che ? ane ApaNe dAdA thavAnI ya ApaNI pharaja che. zI pharaja nathI ApaNI ? paNa A pharaja moTAmAM moTI ke ene ApaNe pAlanapoSaNa karIne ene bhaNAvI ane ene nokarI-dhaMdhe lagADavo. ApaNI pharaja ATalI che. ne chokarIo hoya to to ApaNe ene paiNAvavI ja joIe. ane nA paiNatI hoya to enI bAjumAM evIDansa jovA joIe. e vairAgyavALI che ke kema ? have vairAgIne paiNAvIe to zuM thAya ? ApaNI dIkarI vairAgI, cogaradama vairAgavALI hoya, ane moha ja nA thato hoya, ApaNe moha Ubho karIe to ya nA thato hoya ane paiNAvIe, to pelAne duHkhI kare ne pote duHkhI thAya. eTale A badhuM jovuM paDe. khAsa karIne chokarIne to khAsa paiNAvavI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 45 joIe ApaNe. AkhA jagatanA loko badhuM zuM kAma kare che ? DyuTI ja bajAve che, paNa koIka kaca kaca karato bajAve to eno guno lAgu thAya, ene jAnavara gatimAM javuM paDe. rAjIkhuzIthI pharajo bajAve to pharI manuSyamAM Ave ane namratAthI pharajo bajAve to devagatimAM jAya. DyuTI to badhAM ya bajAve che. paNa kevI rIte e bajAve che, e samajavAnI jarUra che. //////////

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 41 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : gharamAM strIono sAco dharma kyo ? ke AjubAjunI badhI strIo, AjubAjunA badhA purUSo ema kahe ke kahevuM paDe A baI ! evI pharajo bajAve ke AjubAjunA loko khuza thaI jAya. eTale strIno sAco dharma che te chokarAMne moTA karavAM, chokarAMne saMskAra ApavA, dhaNImAM saMskAra ochA hoya to saMskAra reDavA. badhuM sudhAravuM ApaNuM, enuM nAma dharma. nA sudhAravuM paDe ? praznakartA : e javAbadArI.... dAdAzrI : hA.... A javAbadArI ! tethI to kALAnA dhoLA thaI gayAM baLyAM ! upAdhine baLI A to badhI. e to paiNyA pachI khabara paDe; paheluM to bahu mIThuM mIThuM lAge. pachI vegana kheMcavAnuM thAyane, tyAre IjInane khabara paDe badhuM A. paiNyA pachI badhuM khabara paDe saMsAranuM to! pahelA to Ama jhagamagATa lAgyA kare ! ene ya paiNAvavo paDazene have! dhaNI-bALakonI sevA karatI; aNajANe thAya prabhunI bhaktiA pharajo badhI che pharajiyAta; nahi to khAzo sahunI lAtA! keTalAka to zuM kare che ? bhagavAnanI bhaktimAM tanmayAkAra rahe ane chokarAM dekhe ne cIDha caDhe. jemAM bhagavAna pragaTa thayAM evAM chokarAM dekhe ne cIDha caDhe ane tyAM pelA bhagavAnanI bhakti karyA kare enuM nAma bhagata ! A chokarAM upara cIDhAvAtuM haze ? A AmAM to bhagavAna pragaTa che. praznakartA : chokarAMne to jaMjALa samaje ne ! dAdAzrI : jaMjALa ! A AkhA jagatanI mAo, kharAbamAM kharAba kAma karanArI hoya, paNa chokarAMne khavaDAve che. mATe emane A jagatamAM khAvA-pIvAnuM badhuM maLe che. chokarAne, potAno chokaro mAnIne khavaDAve che, paNa mahIM bhagavAna tarIke che eTale enuM phaLa maLe che A. chokarAnAM nAmathI paNa bhagavAnanI pUjA kare che ne, tane samajAyuM ? mohathI ya bhagavAnanI pUjA kare che ne. A jagatamAM jIvamAtrane khAvAnuM maLe che enuM kAraNa zuM ? to ke' potAnA chokarAnuM poSaNa kare che eTale. A jIvamAtra enA potAnA chokarAnuM poSaNa kare che, enI mA dhavaDAve che ne, eTale ja A lokone khAvAnuM maLe che. kAraNake e to bhagavAna che. e rIte bhagavAnanI bhakti thaI rahI che. aMdara to bhagavAna ja beThelA che ne ? A katarIne khAvAnuM kema maLe che ? e baccAMnI mahIM bhagavAna rahelA che. te baccAMnI sevA kare che. tenAthI badhuM maLI rahe che. A AdhAre jagata badhuM cAlI rahyuM che. praznakartA : paNa vyavahAramAM pharajanuM pAlana kharuM ? dAdAzrI : pharajiyAta ja che Akho. pharajanuM pAlana karavAnuM nathI, pharajiyAta ja che. vyavahAra jo tame pAlana nA karo to ADozI-pADozI kaheze, 'A chokarAnI phI nathI ApatA ? phI Apo ne ! chokarAM bicArAM kyAM jAya ?" tyAre ApaNe temane kahIe, 'tame amArAmAM Dakhala zuM karavA karo cho ?" tyAre kahe, 'Dakhala nA karIe, paNa chokarAnI phI to ApavI paDe ne !' eTale pharajiyAta che A. loko kahetAM Avaze. hA, ane chokarAne bahu dhIbI nAkhyo hoya ne, to ya loka kahetAM Avaze. praznakartA : ApaNA bALako pratye ApaNI pharaja to kharI ne ? dAdAzrI : pharaja bajAvavI. e pharaja bajAvavAthI kaMI tame enI upara upakAra karo cho ? eTale pharajiyAta che. tame nA karo ne to badhA kaheze, 'kaI jAtanA cho ? chokarAne paiNAvatA nathI ke ?" tyAre tame kaho ke "mArI pAse paisA nathI. tyAre loka kaheze, 'vyAje lAvIne paiNAvo. chokarAne paiNAvo, moTI uMmarano thaI gayo have." eTale mArI-ThokIne tamAre karavuM paDaze. kaMI upakAra karatA nathI. keTalI pharajo che tamAre ? hA, jeTalI pharaja che ne, e badhI pharajiyAta che.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra cItarI rahyA che. je pheravI zakAya che te vila bAunDa che. ghaNAM chokarAM bApanI sAmA thaI jAya che tyAre bApa gusse thAya che ane badhuM kahI batAve che ke meM tane bhaNAvyo, gaNAvyo, moTo karyo. alyA, pharajiyAta hatuM. tAruM marajiyAta je hoya te kahI batAva ne ! pharajiyAta je baMdhAyelA che ApaNI joDe AvavA mATe tenI mALA zuM karavA gaNuM chuM ?! marajIyAtane khoLI kADhe. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra karo cho ?" kaheze. e to pharajiyAta che, emAM zuM ApyuM tame. pharajo bajAvatAM nathI, A to pharajiyAta che. samabhAve nikAla karo A phAIlono, to AbarU raheze, nahIM to AbarU nahIM rahe. eTale phAdharathI evo ahaMkAra nA karAya ke meM tane bhaNAvyo. kAraNa ke A bhaNAvavuM e badhuM pharajiyAta che. sukha ApyuM te kriyA thaI pharajiyAta, ApavAno bhAva karyo, te marajiyAta! pharajiyAtamAM zIrapAva zAto? samabhAve kara tikAla to tuM zANo! tame koI kAma marajiyAta kareluM kharuM ? praznakartA: nahIM. dAdAzrI : to pharajiyAta kareluM ? pharajiyAtanuM InAma hoya ? praznakartA : nA hoya. dAdAzrI : haM. marajiyAtanuM InAma hoya. eka bhaI pharajiyAtanuM InAma khoLavA mAMgatA hatA ! AkhuM jagata InAma khoLe che ne ke "meM ATaluM ATaluM karyuM, tamane bhAna nathI, tamane guNa nathI mAro." alyA mUA, zAno guNane khoLe che, A to je karyuM, e to pharajiyAta teM karyuM ! eka jaNa chokarAMnI joDe bolato hato. kUdAkUda karato hato, huM vasyo pachI. pelo kaheto hato, 'devuM karIne meM tane bhaNAvyo. nahIM to huM devuM nA karata to tuM zuM bhaNavAno hato, rakhaDI marata.' mUA, zuM karavA bola bola kare che amatho vagara kAmano ! e to pharajiyAta che, AvuM bolAya nahIM ! eTale chokaro DAhyo che ne ? tamane koNe bhaNAvyA ema pUche to zuM kahuM ? gAMDuM bole che ne, loko ?! abhaNa loko, samajaNa nahIM, bhAna vagaranAM. A bAbatamAM bhAna nahIM. vaijJAnika bAbatamAM bhAna nahIM, A svArthamAM bhAna, badhe jyAM ne tyAM svArtha AvaDe ene. have e svArtha te parArtha che pAcho. mane phI Apo cho, to tamane koNe ApI hatI ? emAM zuM navAI eka moTA mANasa mane kahe che, badhI jAtanI pharajo, meM to ophIsanI pharajo badhI... zuM bajAvo cho te kahIe ? pharajano artha zuM samajo cho ? tyAre kahe, nA, ApaNe karavuM ja paDe ne, e chUTako nahIM. kAma karavuM joIe ApaNe. mUA zAthI karo, kahuM ? DyuTI bAunDa nahIM ? tyAre kahe, hA, DyuTI bAunDa, alyA, tuM artha to kara, pharajIyAta eTale ! zabdo khoTAM nathI hotAM ne ?! lokone samajaNa paDavI joIe ne ! pharajo bajAvelI che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ane temAM eno pachI manamAM e mAne ke ghaNI pharajo bajAvI meM ! saMtoSa le ! alyA, paNa zeno saMtoSa, A to pharajiyAta hatuM ! kaMI marajiyAta zuM karyuM e mane khoLI lAva ? A to badhuM pharajiyAta. nAhyA-dhoyA e pharajiyAta karyuM ke marajiyAta karyuM ? zuM zuM marajiyAta karyuM che tame ? praznakartA : zodhavuM paDaze ! dAdA, potAnuM sukha bIjAne Ape che, e Ama to pharajiyAta kahevAya ne ? dAdAzrI : e pharajiyAta, ApI dIdhuM eTale pharajiyAta ane ApI devAno bhAva e marajiyAta che. hA, tame A kaDhI khArI hoya to e zAMta bhAve calAvI levI, evo bhAva che tamAro. te tamAruM marajiyAta che, paNa pharajiyAtamAM zuM banyuM ke 'kaTuM khAruM che' bolI uThyAM. e bhAva eTale zuM ? bIja kahevAya. ene DuM Ave tyAre ! A pahelAnuM DuMDuM atyAre

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ApaNe mAMsAhAra nA karIe, dArU nA pIe ane gharamAM strI joDe athaDAmaNa nA karIe. eTale chokarAo jue ke pappA bahu sArA che. pelAnA pappA-mammI laDhatAM hatAM. mArAM mammI-pappA laDhatA nathI. eTaluM jue eTale pachI chokarAo zIkhe. praznakartA : eTale chokarAonA saMskArano mA-bApa upara to ghaNo AdhArane ? saMskAra mATe ? - dAdAzrI : moTAmAM moTo vaLI. nA hoya ?! tane jue dekhe evo chokaro thAya ane tuM ja UMdhuM karuM, vahunI joDe godA mAra mAra karuM e dekhe, to pachI chokaro evo ja thaI jAyane ! e jANe ke kAyado Avo haze. vahune godA ja mAravAno kAyado haze, tethI A mArA phAdhara mAre (3). ta jhaghaDAya bALakonI hAjarImAM... bALako mA-bApatA jhaghaDAtI kare toMdhA! nyAyazaktithI gunegAranI kare zodhI Aje tAtuM kuTuMba chatAM ya ciMtA; mA-bApanuM joI chokarAM zIkhatA! dAdAzrI : koI dahADo ciMtA-biMtA thAya che ? koka dahADo thAya? praznakartA : ciMtA to, phemilIvALA hoya eTale ciMtA to rahevAnI. dAdAzrI : keTaluM soeka mANasanuM che phemilI ? praznakartA: nA, ema kaMI vadhAre moTuM nathI ! dAdAzrI : ApaNI hindustAnanI gavarnamenTa kahe che evuM ? huM ane e, be ane amArA be. hama do ora hamAre do, e phemilI. praznakartA : eka ja che. hama do aura hamArA eka. dAdAzrI : ema ! e phemilI ! praznakartA : ApaNe A bALakone dharma kevI rIte zIkhavavo ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe dharmarUpa thaI jaIe eTale enI meLe thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : sAheba (dhaNI) sArA maLyA che ke ? bolatI nathI ? praznakartA : sArA ja maLyA che. jo sArA nathI maLyA, kahIza to gharamAM nahIM pesavA de. dAdAzrI : ApaNe ja sADI mATe dhaNI joDe laDIe, to chokarAM jue to kaheze, A kevAM mA-bApa che ? eka sADI hAruM laDI paDe e mA-bApa kahevAya ? chokarAne ya zarama Ave ke ahIM kyAM A mA-bApa karyo emane, enAM karatAM bhADUtI lAvyA hota mA-bApa to ya sArAM hota. te bAbo che, te ene kharAba nA lAge evI rIte ApaNe jIvana jIvavuM joIe, nahIM to e avaLe raste caDhI jaze. e AvaDo hoyane, to ya tamane bene mAthAkUTa thatI hoya, vaDhAvaDha thatI hoya to e joyA kare, eTale paheluM tamAruM e jue ne, tame enI hAjarImAM laDo cho, te chokarAM Ama joIne kaheze, "mammI ja kharAba che. huM moTo thaIza eTale mammIne barAbara ApI daIza." paNa bole nahIM e jANe ke huM bolIza to mane mAraze. paNa badhA samajI jAya. nAno chokaro hoya te ya samajI

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48 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra jAya, koNa kharAba che te ? nyAyAdhIzanI peThe samajI jAya. eTalI badhI nyAyazakti chokarAmAM hoya che. - roja bairI joDe jhaghaDe, te chokarAM Ama joyA kare. 'A pappA ja evo chekahe, kAraNa ke bhalene AvavuM hoya to ya nyAyAdhIza buddhi hoya enAmAM. chokarIomAM nyAyAdhIza buddhi nA hoya. chokarIo game tyAre enI mAno ja pakSa kheMce. paNa A to nyAyAdhIza buddhivALAM, pappAno doSa che ! be-cAra jaNa hoya ne, te pachI pappAno doSa kahetAM kahetAM, pachI nakkI ya pAcho pote kare moTo thaIza ne ApIza ! pachI Ape nirAMte. jA terI hI thApaNa pAchI. praznakartA : dAdA, emAM doSa kono ? bApano doSa zuM? dAdAzrI : nA. saMskAra nahi ApavA joIe chokarAMne ? praznakartA: paNa bApano doSa zuM emAM ? kaMIthI lAve ? enI pAse saMskAra nA hoya ! dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, bairI joDe jhaghaDo thavAno thAya, to ApaNe kahIe ke bhaI, chokarAM che tyAM AgaLathI ApaNe bIje rUmamAM cAlo. ane pachI pelAM rUmamAM jaIne jhaghaDo karIe, zuM khoTuM ? praznakartA : paNa agAuthI evo khabara ApIne jhaghaDo Avato hoya to evuM kare ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, e to khabara to paDe, manamAM gaNI rahyo hoya ke Aje uDADIzuM. vagara saLagAve to TeTA ya nA phUTe. divAsaLI peTAvyA vagara TeTAM ya nA phUTe. hA, mAla to che, mAla bharelo che. paNa saLagAvo to phUTe ne ? eTale javAbadArI che A. tethI ame AvA cAbakhA mArelAM, ko'ka vAMce ne, to cAbakhAmAM emane samajAya ke ApaNe vicAravAnuM che, ApaNe samajavuM paDazene? tame koI phero laDhelA, chokarAMnI hAjarImAM ? have atyAre nA kahe che, jo AbarU DhAMke che, mArI hAjarImAM kevA AbarU DhAMke che. praznakartA : kanTrola karavAno prayatna karuM chuM. dAdAzrI : hA, e kanTrola karavo joIe. ApaNuM jIvana ja evuM dekhAvuM joIe ke pelAne Azcarya thAya ke A bIjAne tyAM AvuM nA hoya evI mArI madhara che. ApaNuM jIvana evuM jIvavuM joIe ke ene zIkhavADavuM nA paDe, enI meLe joIne zIkhe e ane pachI ApaNe che te dhaNI joDe laDhatA hoya eTale e ya pelo jue, AvaDo bAbo hoyane te ya samaje ke A yujhalesa (nakAmAM) che A loko, nA samaje ? e zIkhe evuM. ApaNuM AuTa opha kaMTrola jIvana dekhe eTale pachI ene yujhalesa lAge. nAno chokaro e samaje nahIM ? praznakartA : samaje ne. dAdAzrI : bahu samaje. AvatuM hoya to ya samajI jAya. kAraNa ke. e kharekhara evaDo nathI. gayA avatAramAM eMsI varSano thaIne marI gayo ne pachI A pAchA be varSa thayAM te vyAsI varSano thayo. badhA nAnA chokarAM kaMI nAnA hotAM nathI, e to eMsI varSanA marI jaIne pAchA ahIMyA janme che. bahu samajaNavALA hoya. ahaMkAra bahu hoya ene to, moTI uMmaravALo page lAge, paNa nAnI uMmarano page nA lAge muMo eTalo ahaMkAra hoya ! laDho, paNa ekAMtamAM, nA chUTake; dekhe, bALa paDe AMTI te ja jhaTake! eTale kakaLATa nA karavo joIe. ane bahu zokha hoya kakaLATa karavAno ke laDhavAno. to chokarAMo jyAre sUI gayAM hoya te vakhate bIjI rUmamAM besIne be jaNAe bAthaMbAthA karavuM. nA, e zokha hoya to te ghaDIe pUro karavo, paNa chokarAMonI gerahAjarImAM. chokarAMonI hAjarImAM to na ja thavuM joIe. agara to e skUle gayA hoya, tyAra pachI laDhavAnI zarUAta karavI. emanI hAjarImAM laDhavuM nA joIe. saMskArI thavuM joIe. tamArI bhUla thAya to ya bena kaheze, "kaMI vAMdho nahi." ane emanI bhUla thAya to tame kaho, kaMI vAMdho nahIM.' chokarAo AvuM jue to badhA olarAITa thatA jAya. ne pachI laDhavuM ja hoya to

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50 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa kevI sArI rIte jIve che !!! eTale paheluM to gharamAM badhuM klIyara karavuM joIe. ghare koIne saheja paNa azAMti thAya nahIM. vAIphanI joDe samAdhAnapUrvaka rahevuM joIe. pote' ja che sarva duHkhonuM mULa; ghera kaca kaca karI, bhoMke zaLa! silaka rahevA devI, ne pachI e pAchA chokarA skUlamAM jAya, tyAra pachI laDhavuM eka kalAka. paNa AvuM A chokarAnI hAjarImAM laDhavADa thAya to e joyA kare ane pachI enA manamAM pappA mATe ke mammI mATe avaLI bhAvanA atyArathI ja cAle, ene enuM pojhITIvapaNuM chUTI jaIne negeTivapaNuM zarU ja thaI jAya. eTale chokarAMne bagADanAra mA-bApa che atyAre ! eTale ApaNe vaDhavuM hoya to ekAMtamAM vaDhavuM, paNa enI hAjarImAM nahIM. ekAMtamAM bAraNA vAsIne lAkaDI laIne beu jaNA sAmasAmI dAMDiyA ramavA. praznakartA : dAMDIyA ramIne karma bAMdhavA, enA karatAM phAIla baMdha karavI sArIne ? dAdAzrI : enA jevuM uttama nahIM, paNa A jene zokha hoya e ! paNa tuM kahuM ne paNa e mAne evA nathI. A to mAra khAze tyAre mAnaze. anubhava thazene, anubhava thayA sivAya ApaNe samajaNa pADIe to nA mAne. A jJAna tame lIdhuM che eTale have nAnAM chokarAMono to prazna bahu have nahIM rahe. pahelAM to tame chokarAM UbhA hoya, to ya bolabola karo to e chokarAMone badhAne kharAba saMskAra paDI jAya. badhAM mA-bApane chokarAMono khyAla ja nathI raheto ke A chokarAo UbhA che ane ApaNe A zuM karIe chIe, ene paNa khyAla ja raheto nathI. eTale bebhAnapaNe bolabola kare che ne laDhe che. pachI e chokarAone saMskAra kharAba paDe che. A saMskAra avaLA nA paDe eTalA hAruM ! jokhamadArI na hoya ApaNI, chokarAo mATenI ? eTale e bhAMjagaDa ochI karI nAkhavI joIe. zA mATe, zAnA mATe matabheda pADavo ? ahaMkAra, khoTo ahaMkAra che, meDanesa che. huM akkalavALo chuM, ne tuM akkala vagaranI chuM, basa A ja bhAMjagaDa ! akkala vagaranI hoya kharI koI ? paNa e saMskAra chokarAMonA evAM ja thaI jAya pachI. eTale kharI rIte mA-bApe koI dahADo jhaghaDavuM nA joIe, matabheda nA paDavo joIe. e badhuM matabheda paDyo hoya to, vALI levo joIe. chokarAM jue ke ohoho !! kaMI bhagavAnane mAravA AvavuM paDe che ! enI meLe ja vaDhavaDhA kare che. ciMtA enI meLe ja kare che. du:kha UbhAM enI meLe ja kare che ne ! koIe duHkha ApavA AvavuM paDe che ? pote duHkha UbhAM kare che ke, bahAranA loko ApI jAya che ? koI UbhAM kare che ? praznakartA : pote ja UbhAM kare che. dAdAzrI : are ! moMghA bhAvanI kerIo lAvyo hoyane, ane pachI kerIno rasa, roTalI badhuM bene mUkeluM hoya teyAra ane khAvAnI zarUAta thaI ane thoDuMka khAdhuM ane kaDhImAM hAtha ghAlyo jarA khArI lAgI ke tyAMthI Tebala pachADe muMo. naryuM kahuM khAruM karI nAkhyuM che. mera cakkara, pAMsaro rahIne jamane ! gharano dhaNI e, koI tyAM uparI nathI. e pote ja bosa, eTale kUdAkUda karI mele. chokarAo bhaDakI jAya ke pappA AvA kema gAMDA thaI gayA, ke zuM kaheze ! paNa bolAya nahIM. chokarAM dabAyelAM bicArAM, manamAM abhiprAya to bAMdhI de ke pappo gAMDo lAge che ! mUA, kaDhI nhotI khArI, evuM kahe. chokarAne ApaNe pUchIe, bola have A kaDhI khArI che ne ? tyAre kahe, "pappAjI, kaDhI nA khAzo. bIjuM badhuM khAI lo.' paNa bUmo pADe te chokaro kahe, "pappo mUo gAMDo che' kaheze. A pappA e ahaMkAra dekhADato hoya eno, A gharano moTo vaDIla. ene mArA jevo kahenAra hoya, tyAre sIdho karI nAkhuM ene. pappo thaIne Avyo ! zarama nathI AvatI. A chokarAM noMdha kare che ke pappo gAMDo mUo che. atyAre bolAya nahIM chokarAthI ! kaDhI khArI thaI to ApaNe ene bAjue mUkIne bIjuM badhuM jamI laIe nirAMte, to zuM

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pare mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra vAMdho ? ane kaDhI vagara na cAle evuM hoya, to pachI sTeje pANI nAkhI daIe. khArI thaI eTale, nahIM to benane zAMtithI ema kahIe, ke A jarA kaDhImAM pharI upara pANI-bANI nAkhI ane jarA khAMDa-bAMDa nAkhIne lAvane ! to e pharI lAve bicArAM, paNa Ama kUdAkUda zuM karavA karo cho ?! A moMghA bhAvanI kerI lAvyo ane A gaLe utaraze nahIM. A baIne ya gaLe nA utare pachI. pachI baI ne chokarAne, badhAne bhAve ya nA Ave. to ke' A pappo khAvA ya nahIM deto. chokarAMe samaje ! eTale mAre tyAM A to mane kyAre khabara paDI A pola, mAre tyAM pacAsa-so chokarAo AvyA badhAM. koI bI.I. thayelA, koI DaoNkaTara thayelA, e badhA AvyA. meM kahyuM, 'kema bhaI tame....' tyAre kahe, 'dAdA, ame tamAre tyAM ja rahIzuM.' kahe che. meM kahyuM, 'amAre tyAM rahevAmAM vAMdho nathI, tame lagna karI nAkho.' kahyuM. moTI uMmaranA thayA cho. tyAre kahe, 'nA, lagnamAM amane sukha nathI lAgatuM.' kahe che. alyA, paiNyA vagara paNa emAM zI rIte khabara paDI tamane, lagnamAM sukha nathI evuM ? tyAre kahe, "amArA phAdhara-madharanuM sukha joyuM ame ! te emanuM sukha che nahIM evuM ame joyuM badhuM.' eTale chokarA badhA kaMTALI gayA che. phAdhara-madhara paiNelA che, emanA sukha joI ane ame kaMTALI gayA chIe, kahe che. meM kahyuM, 'kema ? zuM joyuM ?" tyAre e kahe roja kakaLATa. eTale ame jANIe ke paiNavAthI du:kha Ave che. evuM paiNavuM nathI have amane. A to lokone jIvana jIvatA nathI AvaDatuM. mA-bApatuM lagnajIvana joI! paiNavAnI vRtti yuvAvarge khoI! muMjhavaNo paradezamAM bALako mATe; bALako paNa muMjhAya be kalcaronI vATe! praznakartA : bIjI zI asara thAya chokarAM upara ? dAdAzrI : bahu ja badhI kharAba asara paDe, chokarAone. A badhA bagaDI gayA evuM nA bolAya enA sAMbhaLatAM. manamAM samajI javAnuM ke sAluM bagaDI gayuM. ApaNe bolyA, ke sAMbhaLI le chokarAM badhuM ya. asaravALuM A jagata, iphekTiva. ApaNe jANIe ke A zuM samajavAnuM che ?! paNa choDavA-boDavA badhuM samaje, e lAgaNIo pradarzita na karI zake, paNa samajI jAya badhAM ya. tame e chokarAMne kaho ke "kevo sarasa tuM dekhAuM chuM'. to bIjA dahADe suMdara dekhAya. kevuM IphekTiva che ! ane chokarAnI rUbarU 'tArAmAM akkala nathI" chokarAM ema ja samaje ke "A pappo ja vAMko che' kaheze. mATe eTale chokarA joDe to saMskAra sArAmAM sArA dekhAvA joIe. vAIpha joDe vaDho to nahIM ja ! ene chokarAMnI rUbarU vaDho to nahIM ja bilakule ya, e bhale eka varSano hoya chokaro, paNa AMkhathI dekhato thayo che, mATe laDhAya to nahIM ja, bilakule ya ! A to roja bAjhAbAjha ! pelAM InDIyAmAM to nAnAM chokarAM zuM kahe che, mammI, pappA, jaya saccidAnaMda !' eTale pappo baMdha thaI jAya. samajI jAya tarata. "saccidAnaMda' bole ne eTale. kaMIka to manuSyapaNuM hovuM joIe. haze have je thaI gayuM te thaI gayuM. praznakartA : Ape vAta karI ke chokarAMone tamAre sAcavavA, chokarAMnA dekhatA mA-bApe jhaghaDA nahIM karavA, have ahIMyA evuM thaI gayuM che ke chokarAMo lagabhaga bahAra ja hoya, gharamAM rahe enAM karatAM bahAra hoya, gharamAM hoya to TI.vI. ne viDIyo badhuM jotA hoya ane amuka uMmaranA thAya. eTale pachI chokarAo lagabhaga mA-bApathI judA, chokarIo sAthe bahAra rahetAM thaI gayAM che. have ApaNA inDiyana chokarAone paNa have AvuM thaI gayuM che, to ke atyAre AvuM che to pacAsa varSa pachI zuM thaze ? ApaNuM kalcara raheze ke nahIM rahe e lokomAM ? dAdAzrI : are, pacAsa varSanI ciMtA atyAre zuM karavA karo cho, atyAre je thayuM e sudhArone-chokarA sudhAravA hoya to sudhare haju, nahIM

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54 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra to paraNI jaze bahAra badhA gorI joDe. praznakartA : e loko bahAra vadhAre rahe ane bahAranA vAtAvaraNanI emanA upara bahu asara rahe che, to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : vAtAvaraNanI asara paDyA vagara rahe nahIM. ane bahAra zenA mATe rahe che te jANo cho ? A mArI joDe amerikAmAM janmelA ApaNA chokarAone to huM kahuM ke mArI joDe paDyA raho to badhA AghApAchA nA thAya. nAnA hoya, traNa varSanA hoya te ya paDyA rahe ane bAra varSanA hoya ke aDhAra varSanA hoya te ya paDyA rahe mArI pAse. enuM zuM kAraNa haze ? praznakartA : prema jue che eTale. dAdAzrI : pelA bAbA zuM kahetA'tA ? praznakartA : AI lava yu dAdA. yu sTe vItha mI. amArI joDe raho ema kahe che. hArTa doryuM'tuM, hArTa ane enI aMdara lakhyuM' tuM. dAdAzrI : have bolo tyAre ke tamArA chokarA tamArI joDe kema nathI rahetAM ? to ke' tame to mahIMo mahIM jhaghaDo cho eTale prema ja nathI jotAM. A AvA kaMI DaphoLa phAdhara-madhara maLyA evuM manamAM lAge. e kaMTALe bicArA, emane bahA2 pUchIe ne, to tamAruM bole to sAruM, ke mArA phAdhara-madhara sArAM che, paNa aMdarakhAne mahIM zuM che ? ApaNe enuM rahasya joIe to bahu ajAyabI lAge, bahAra to A chokarAo badhA hoziyAra hoya che 'mArA phAdhara-madhara beu sArAM che' kaheze, nahIM ke 'mArA phAdhara kharAba che.' evuM nA bole muA. huM pUchuM ke phAdhara tArA vAMkA nathI? tyAre kahe, 'nA beu sArAM che.' pAkkA badhA, paNa prema nathI tamAro. A chokarA mArI joDe rahevA taiyAra che bicArAM. A savAramAM ciThThIo ApatAM hatA. emanA chokarAo 'AI lava yu, AI vonTa Tu sTe vItha yu.' ane tamArI joDe rahetAM nathI. praznakartA : chokarA mA-bApa sAthe savAramAM eka kalAka hoya. ne rAtre be kalAka, traNa kalAka divasamAM mA-bApa sAthe kADhe ane ATha kalAka bahAra skUlamAM rahe. vadhAre paDatI emanI jIMdagI skUlamAM ke gharanI bahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra jAya, eTale vadhAre saMga bahAranA mANaso joDe rahe. eTale enI takalIpha vadhAre thAya che. ApaNe bhale ne ApaNe game te paNa samajAvIe, zIkhavIe ? 5 dAdAzrI : evuM che ne chokarAone jo tamAro prema hoya, to bahAra navaro paDyo pAcho ahIM Avato rahe, skUlamAM navaro paDyo ke tarata ghera ja Avato rahe, ene ghara vagara game nahIM. praznakartA : prema amAre Apavo hoya, paNa bALako ahIMyA broTa apa (ucharyA) thAya eTale bALakone ahIMnuM kalcara asara karI gayeluM hoya che ane e loko ahIMnA kalcara pramANe jIvavA mAMge che ane ame hindustAnamAM ucharelA eTale amArA saMskAra hindustAnanA rahe che. ame ahIMnA kalcarane (saMskArane) eDajasTa thavA nathI mAMgatA. have e banne vacce gharSaNa thAya che, ame game eTaluM kahIe to e lokone eksepTa (svIkAra) thatuM nathI ane ahIMnA jevuM kalcara e lokonuM thaI jAya evuM ame icchatA nathI. to enuM solyuzana(ukela) zuM che ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, ke losa enjalasanA badhA chokarA-chokarIo hatA te mArI pAse mokale che e loko. e lokonuM khAvA-pIvAnuM badhuM baMdha thaI gayuM ane e lokonuM jIvana pheraphAra thAya che. keTalAka chokarAoe to khAvA-pIvAnuM badhuM choDI dIdhuM che. pachI enA phAdharamadhara khAtA hoya te pAchA e pharI e cAlu hoya. chokaro phAdharane jue eTale pharI pAcho cAlu karI de. kAraNa ke e jANe ke mArA phAdhara akkalavALA che ane e je kare e mAre karavuM. praznakartA : ghaNI vakhata moTA bhAge evuM bane che ke mA-bApa ja potAnA chokarAomAM rasa nathI letA hotA. emane TAIma ja nathI hoto hakIkatamAM e paNa che. dAdAzrI : TAIma maLato nathI e lokone hakIkata che. paNa ApaNe bhAva badalo. bhAva badalo to pheraphAra thaze. bhAva badalone to ja pheraphAra thaze. praznakartA : hamaNAM DITroITamAM eka konpharansa rAkhI'tI. emAM

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paE mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra (4) asarTiphAIDa phAdharsa enDa asarTiphAIDa madharsa ! chokarAo ane mA-bApa e lokonI vacce sAmasAmI ekabIjAne praznotarI rAkhelI. temAM pachI chokarAo potAnA phAdharane ema kaheluM ke tame che te paisAnI pAchaLa ja paDyA cho, tame paisA sivAya bIjuM kazuM zIkhyA ja nathI A jIvanamAM ane amAruM tame samajatA nathI. ame nA inDiyana rahyA ke nA amerikana rahyAM. gharamAM amAre inDiyana kalcara apanAvavAnuM, bahAra jaIe to amAre amerikana kalcara rAkhavAnuM eTale amArI AvI dazA thayelI che ! dAdAzrI : kharuM kahe che. paNa jeTaluM bane eTaluM ApaNe pheravavuM ane amuka uMmaranA thAya to te pahelAM dezamAM laIne tyAM pharI ghara mAMDavuM. praznakartA : e lokone tyAM dezamAM rahevuM nathI hotuM. e loko inDiyA javA nathI taiyAra thatA chokarAo. dAdAzrI : paNa e samajAve to thaI jAya che. pAchA evuM nahIM. samajAvIe to thaI jAya che. praznakartA : amuka uMmara pachI nathI thatAM, nAnA hoya tyAM sudhI ja thaI jAya pachI nathI thatAM. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa amuka uMmara sudhI jo ApaNe samajAvI laIe to cAle. badhuM jaDamULathI pheraphAra karavo che evuM nakkI karo. to enI meLe pheraphAra thayA karaze badhuM ya. strI-puruSanA vyavahAra badhuM pheraphAra thatA jAya te ekadama pheraphAra thato jAya. praznakartA : ahIMthI inDiyA pAchuM javuM hoya to kaMIka taka maLavI joIe ne ame kAma karavA taiyAra chIe ? saMjoga bAjhavo joIe ne ? dAdAzrI : nathI bAjhato. tyAM to DaoNlara paDAvI le evA che. joIne ja beThA hoya ke amerikAthI AvyA che te kaMI laIne AvyA che. 'vyavasthita' jema doravaNI kare tema cAlajo. bahu ciMtA karavA jevI nathI, vicAra karavA nahIM. AvA vicAra zenA mATe kahyA ke tamArA thoDA ghaNAM bhAva pheravavA joIe. bApa thaIne paDayA chokarAMne mAthe; kara pUrI pharaja, sakhI dharmate sAthe praznakartA : bebInA nAnAjI che ne, ene bahu caDhAve che. badhI vastumAM enI ja sAIDa le che ! mAno pakSa nA le ! dAdAzrI : pakSa to chokarAno levo ja paDe ne ! nahIM to DarI jAya ! paNa evA te zA gunA karI nAkhyA che ke ene daMDa ApavAnI jarUra che ? evo zo guno karI nAkhyo eNe ? praznakartA : bIjuM kaMI nahIM, paNa nAnA-moTAnuM jue nahIM ne sAmuM bolI de. eTale ApaNe kahevuM paDe. dAdAzrI : e to tame aTakAvo cho, tethI bola bola kare che. nA aTakAvo ane ApaNe kahIe ke "bola joI badhA joDe, badhAne gALo bhAMDI Aya'. to nA kare. eka bApa kahe che, "A chokarA badhA mArI sAmA thaI jAya che." meM kahyuM, 'tamArAmAM barakata nathI, e khulluM thAya che." tamArAmAM barakata

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58 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra hoya to chokarA sAmA zI rIte thAya te ? mATe evI AbarU ja nA UghADazo. A tamAre ghera satsaMgamAM so-baso mANasa Ave jAya, paNa kazuM koInI joDe sAmuM bolyuM ja nathI. bolyuM che kaMI koI ? praznakartA : nA.. dAdAzrI : nA bole e ! pachI jUThuM bole che ? praznakartA : koI vAra. dAdAzrI : ko'ka ja vAra. to pachI eno zo guno pAcho temAM ? tame ene moMDhe caDhAvI che, eTale evuM bole che. ekanI eka choDI eTale zuM thAya ?! jUThuM bolabola karatI hoya, corI karatI hoya ke hiMsaka thaIne jIvaDAM mAra mAra karatI hoya, tyAre khoTuM kahevAya. ane jarA sAmuM bolI jAya temAM khoTuM nA kahevAya. sAmuM to, mAstarane sAmuM kyAre bole chokarA ? mAstaramAM barakata jarA ochI hoya tyAre e bole. eTale ApaNe samajI javuM ke ApaNAmAM barakata jarA ochI che ! ane chokarAMne vaDhavaDha karIe to bagaDI jAya. ene sudhAravA hoya to amArI pAse bolAvaDAvI aDadho kalAka vAtacIta karAvaDAvIe eTale sudharI jAya ! praznakartA : mA-bApa tarIke ApaNA je espekTazana (apekSAo) hoya, e pramANe cAIlDa bIheva (bALaka vartana) nA karatuM hoya ane ene ApaNe e pramANe karavAnuM kahevA chatAM ya nA karatuM hoya, to kaI rIte ene kaMTrola karIe ? dAdAzrI : koIne kahevuM nahIM AvuM. jo ApaNe kahIe ke amArA chokarA AvuM kare che to e loko samaje ke Ane bApa thatAM nahIM AvaDatuM ! eTale AbarU jAya, enA karatAM koIne kahevuM nahIM ! praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : bApa thatAM nA AvaDe tyAre AvI bhAMjagaDa paDe. mA thatA nA AvaDe tyAre AvI bhAMjagaDa paDe. praznakartA : chokarA ApaNuM sAMbhaLe nahIM, tenuM zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : to bApa jotuM thavuM. bApa thavAnI lAyakAta dharAvatA nathI eTale chokarA sAMbhaLatA nathI. ApaNe lAyakAta keLavIne bApa thavuM hatuM pahelethI. e bhaNavuM nA joIe, bhaI ? praznakartA : bhaNavuM joIe ne. dAdAzrI : e javAbadArI nahIM ?! praznakartA : javAbadArI ne. dAdAzrI : eTale chokarAo to sAcavavA bahu muzkelI che, A chokarAnI javAbadArI to bahu moTI che. paNa loko AmAM kvaoNliphAIDa thatA nathI ne, emane ya chokarAo thaI jAya che. kvaoNliphikezana lIdhA pachI bApa thavuM joIe. A DaoNkaTare ya kvaoNliphAIDa hoya che ke anukvaoNliphAIDa hoya ? praznakartA : kvaoNliphAIDa ? dAdAzrI : to phAdhara thavAmAM anUkvaoNliphAIDa ?! praznakartA : kvaoNliphAIDa che ke nahIM, e nakkI koNa kare ? dAdAzrI : chokarAMnI joDe AvuM vartana thAya eTale kvaoNliphAIDa nahIM ja ne ?! chokarAMne sAcavatA nA AvaDe, chokarAM bagaDI jAya, to ApaNe kvaoNliphAIDa nathI. e vAta nakkI thaI gaIne ? tamane kema lAge che ? bolatAM nathI ?! kaMIka liphikezana joIe ke nA joIe ? eTale meM pustakamAM lakhyuM che ke 'anukvaoNliphAIDa phAdharsa enDa anukvaoNliphAIDa madharsa." pachI chokarAo AvAM ja thaI jAya ne ! eTale mAre kahevuM paDyuM, phAdhara thavAnI lAyakAtanuM sarTiphikeTa levuM ne pachI paiNavuM joIe. A baMdhanamAM kaMTALo nathI Avato ?

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60 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : paNa bhaNatara, chokarAnI javAbadArIo pUrI karavI, e paNa badhI jIvana jarUriyAta che ne ? dAdAzrI : e paNa javAbadArI koNa pUrI kare ? je bhagavAna mahAvIranA jJAnane samaje e pUrI kare. bhagavAna mahAvIranA jJAnane samajatA nathI ne chokarAnI javAbadArI zuM pUrI karavAnA ? ulTAM chokarAne mAthe paDyA cho. bApa thatAM AvaDatuM nathI ane chokarAnA bApa thaI beThA cho ! phAdhara to kyAre thaI zake bhagavAna mahAvIranuM vijJAna samaje tyAre phAdhara thaI zake, phAdhara thavuM e to keTalA guNo hoya ane keTalI javAbadArI che. A to phAdhara thaI beThA ane chokarAnI joDe kaca, kaca, kaca. Akho dahADo kakaLATa, kakaLATa kakaLATa, alyA mUA, A te kaMI mANasa cho ? eTale mAre pustakamAM lakhavuM paDyuM ke anUkavaoNliphAIDa phAdharsa enDa inkavaoNliphAIDa madharsa, dhara masTa bI kavaoNliphikezanalsa. ema game tema phAdhara-madhara thaI gayA e cAlI zake ? praznakartA: to kvaoNliphikezana joIe ? dAdAzrI : kvaoNliphikezana to, ApaNAmAM nabaLAI utpanna na thavI joIe. ane nabaLAI thAya to ApaNane potAne ja thAya. bIjA koIne, chokarAone ya harakata na thavI joIe evI rIte jIvavAnuM. chokarAne kevI rIte enI narsarI karavI joIe, e badhuM bhAna hovuM joIe. ema ne ema mA-bApa thaI gayA ! enA karatAM to kUtarA-kUtarIonA mAbApa sArA hoya che ke vaDhavaDhA nahIM koI dahADo ya. nA phAve to chUTA. A to bApa jANe ke AkhI duniyAno huM jJAnI chuM ne evI rIte chokarAne vaDhe che. mAruM sAcuM ne tane to samajaNa nathI, kahe che. A akkalano kothaLo, bApa Avyo te ! praznakartA : dareka phAdhara, evI rItanA vartana karato hoya evuM mAnI levAnuM kaMI kAraNa nathI. dAdAzrI : evuM mAnI levAmAM kAraNa nathI. paNa mAnI lo, huM enA gharamAM AvuM, cAra dahADA rahuM. to badhuM khabara pADI dauM. A to badhuM ThIka che, A polaMpola cAlyA kare che. sahusahunA kAryanA udaye badhuM cAlyA kare che. eTale ema jANe che ke mAre lIdhe A chokaruM moTuM thayuM che ! jIvana to evuM hovuM joIe ke potAnI nabaLAI nA dekhAvI joIe. krodhamAna-mAyA-lobha rUpI nabaLAIo na dekhAvI joIe. 'anusarTiphAIDa madhara'ne peTe chokarAM janmyAM che, temAM e zuM kare ? vIsa-pacIsa varSano thAya eTale bApa thaI jAya. hajI eno ja bApa enA mATe bUmo pADato hoya ! A to rAma Azare 'phAdhara' thaI jAya che. AmAM chokarAno zo vAMka che ? A to 'anukvaoNliphAIDa phAdhara ane ankvaoNliphAIDa madhara.' kvaoNliphikezana joIe kaMI. ahIM kvaoNliphAIDa badhuM thaIne pachI chokarAM thAya che lokone ?! phAdharanI kolejamAM gayA pachI, A pAsa thayA pachI thAya che?! kolejamAM pAsa nahIM thayelA A loko ? kharI rIte pahelAM TesTiMga karAvIne, 'sarTiphikeTa' meLavIne pachI ja paraNavAnI chUTa hovI joIe. parIkSAmAM pAsa thayA vagara, 'sarTiphikeTa vagara 'gavarnamenTa'mAM ya nokarIe letA nathI, to AmAM 'sarTiphikeTa vagara paiNAvAya zI rIte ? parIkSA ApIne pAsa thavuM joIe. parIkSA nA ApavI joIe ? kArakunamAM ya parIkSA lIdhA vagara, pAsa thayA vagara nathI pesavA detA. te bApa thavA devAya ene? jenAM chokarAM vaDApradhAna thavAnA, ene vagara sarTiphikeTe bApa thavA devAya ? AvuM hovuM joIe ? kArakune ya bhaNelA khoLe, nahIM ?' sarTiphikeTa joIe ne ? AmAM sarTiphikeTa nahIM ? no sarTiphikeTa ? ane jenI vaDApradhAna karatAM vadhAre risponsibiliTI chokarAMne keLavavAnI che emAM sarTiphikeTa nahIM !! lAyakatA chokarAM pUrAM saMskArI; pUjaya draSTi rAkhI mA-bApa para vArI! praznakartA : chokarAone ApaNA mATenI draSTi avaLI paDI gaI hoya, rAga-dveSavALI paDI gaI hoya, ApaNA mATe abhAva hoya chokarAone to ApaNe tyAM zuM karavuM? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne chokarAone abhAva nathI. A to bApa che te bApa thavA jAya che. bApa 'bApa' thavA jAya che. mA 'mA' thavA jAya che. A chokaro jANe che ke bApAmAM phITanesa che nahIM ne mAro bApa thaI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra beTho che. eTale pelA chokarAM bApAnI sAmAM thayA kare che. atyAre badhe evuM ja thayuM che. have A chokarAomAM paNa 'phITanesa' nathI baLI, paNa ene A bhaNatara che ne te ene ema dekhADe che ke mArA bApAnI ja bhUlo thAya che. e to bApAnI e khAmI hoya che. sarTiphAIDa phAdhara hoya tyAM enA chokarA kevAM hoya ?! Ama chokarAM kUdAkUda karatA hoya, evuM hoya ? nA hoya ! praznakartA : sarTiphAIDa phAdharsa-madharsanA chokarA kevAM hoya ? dAdAzrI : saMskArI hoya e. enA gharamAM bApa game te bole to ya chokaro kaheze, 'nA, mArAthI nA bolAya. pUjya che mArA !' 62 ghIbe chokarAMte jema kapaDAM! A te bApa, gayo kUtarAM karatAM! A to jIvana jIvatAM ya nahIM AvaDatuM, kazuM ene AvaDatuM ja nathI. A duniyA kevI rIte calAvavI te ja nathI AvaDatuM. eTale pachI chokarAne mAra mAra kare. alyA mUA, dhIbuM chuM te A lUgaDAM che te mAra mAra kare che ?! chokarAne sudhArIe, mAra mAra karIe, te A kaMI rIta che ! eTale jANe pApaDano loTa nA bAMdhatA hoya, pelA ghaNathI pApaDano loTa bAMdhatA hoya evI rIte mAra mAra karatAM eka jaNane dekhyo. eTale pachI mAre pustakamAM lakhavuM paDyuM ke hindustAnanA phAdhara-madhara e annkvaoNliphAIDa phAdharsa enDa akavaoNliphAIDa madharsa che !! kvaoNliphAIDa hovo joIe. chokarAM joDe kevuM vartana karavuM, e kvaoNliTI nA hovI joIe ? chokarAMne vaDha vaDha kare, tyAre bApa thatAM AvaDatuM nahIM ne mUA. zuM jarUra che te vaDhe che ? tane zarama nathI AvatI? te chokarAMnI A sthiti karI tame ? praznakartA : e lokone sarTiphikeTa levuM hoya to jAya kyAM ? dAdAzrI : nA, ema nahIM. sarTiphAIDa hovAM joIe. kema tamArA chokarA mAne nahIM ?! chokarA nA mAne tyArathI arTiphAIDa thayo. tamArA khetaranA choDavAM tamane ja duHkha ApatA hoya, to tame kheDUta ja mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra nhoya. eTale cokhkhuM lakhyuM meM. koNa lakhe AvuM, AvuM UghADuM koI lakhatA haze ? badhA mIThuM mIThuM lakhatAM'tAM ane amAre emane choDAvuM che ke A samajo A, AvuM samajo, Ama kema cAle che ! eTale dhIba dhIba kare, jANe A paththaro nA hoya. tyAre A dhIbavAnI vastu na hoya ! A to ema ne ema bApa thaI gayo. kUtarAM vagara bhaNe bApA thAya che ne evI rIte ?! kUtarA paNa phAdhara thAya che emAM navuM zuM karyuM te ?! kUtarA phAdhara nahIM thatAM hoya ? dAdA hau thAya. A to kUtarA-kUtarInI peTha mA-bApa thaI jAya che ane pachI chokarAM ucheratAM AvaDatuM nathI. kUtarAe laDhe nahIM enAM chokarAne. koIkanA gharamAMthI pUrI laIne AvatuM rahyuM chokaruM. to bApa kaMI laDhato haze kUtaro ! e bhUkhyuM hatuM te khaI gayuM vaLI ! mA-bApa te kone kahevAya? preme vaMThelAM ya vaza thAya! 63 praznakartA : paNa chokarAM kharAba lAIne caDhI jAya to mA-bApanI pharaja che ne ke ene vALavo joIe ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, ke mA-bApa thaIne ene kahevuM joIe. paNa mA-bApa che ja kyAM atyAre ? praznakartA : mA-bApa kone kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : mA-bApa to tenuM nAma kahevAya ke chokaro kharAba lAIne caDhyo hoya chatAM ya eka dahADo mA-bApa kaheze, 'bhaI, A ApaNane zobhe nahIM, A teM zuM karyuM ?" te bIje dahADethI enuM baMdha thaI jAya ! evo prema ja kyAM che ? A to prema vagaranAM mA-bApa. A jagata premathI ja vaza thAya. A mA-bApane chokarAM para keTalo prema che-gulAbanA choDa para mALIno prema keTalo hoya teTalo ! Ane mA-bApa kema kahevAya ? 'asarTiphAIDa phAdhara' ne 'asarTiphAIDa madhara' ! pachI chokarAMnI zI sthiti thAya ? tane samajaNa paDI, bhUla thAya che evI ? chokarAM to DAhyA hoya che, te ulTAM bagADe che ApaNA loko. sAruM lAge A, AvuM kahIe te ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : vicAra karavA mATe vAMdho nathI. praznakartA : bhaNatara to skUlamAM thAya, paNa ghaDataranuM zuM ? dAdAzrI : ghaDatara sonIne soMpI devAnuM, enA ghaDavaiyA hoya te ghaDe. chokaro paMdara varasano thAya tyAM sudhI ene ApaNe kahevuM, tyAM sudhI ApaNe jevAM chIe evo tene ghaDI ApIe. pachI ene enI vahu ja ghaDI Apaze. A ghaDatAM nathI AvaDatuM. chatAM loka ghaDe ja che ne ?! ethI ghaDatara sAruM thatuM nathI. mUrti sArI thatI nathI. nAka aDhI IcanuM hoya tyAre sADA cAra IcanuM karI nAkhe ! pachI enI vAIpha Avaze te kApIne sarakhuM karavA jaze. pachI pelo ya pelInuM kApaze ne kaheze, 'AvI jA." kaLiyugamAM jamyA vALavA vera; lAvo nIveDo, navuM aTakAvavA jhera! e to evuM che ne, eka to ApaNane mA-bApa thatAM ja AvaDatuM praznakartA : evuM dAdAe to kahI ja devuM joIe. mane jhATako cho Aje, mane evuM thAya che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa jhATake nahIM to A jagata sIdhuM kema thAya che ? javAbadArI samajavI joIe ne ? pote chokarAMno bApa thayo ane saMskAra ApatAM na AvaDe ane koIkane tyAM saMskAra ApavA javuM paDe, e sAruM lAge ? koIkane tyAM laI jAya nahIM pAcho. pote pAcho akkalano Iskotaro hoya. eTale saMskAra ApavAnA. ane amArI pAse pUchI jajo badhuM. huM tamane dekhADIza e pramANe saMskAra pachI ene ApavAnAM. jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA zIkhavI joIe Ama ! A lakhavAnuM sAruM lAgatuM haze, InDiyana mATe ! AvuM lakhAya ke nA lakhAya ? koI lakhe ja nahIM ne mUA, enuM zuM kAraNa ? e ja anUkavaoNliphAIDa phAdhara hoya to pachI zI rIte lakhe te ! eTale koI lakhatuM nahIM ! meM to jhATakyA che e lokone ke AvA hoya ? mUA, RSimunionA putro, tame konA chokarAo ! Arya prajA. Aja anADI jevA thayA che. A anArya kahevAya paNa... ! praznakartA : AvAM chokarAMne sArA saMskAra kevI rIte ApavA ! dAdAzrI : sArA saMskAra to koI bApa hoya to ne ! saMskArI bApa hoya to enI meLe saMskAra to saheje AvI jAya chokarAne. saMskAra ApavAnAM nA hoya. saMskAra joIne zIkhI jAya. tethI mAre lokone rIsa caDhe evuM lakhavuM paDyuM ke, A kALamAM. mane sAruM lAge, AvuM lakhavAnuM? tethI to mAre pustakamAM hArDa zabdo vAparavA paDyA. pustakamAM lakhavuM paDyuM. AvuM hArDa lakhAya nahIM ne ! paNa zuM thAya ? A chUTako nahIM ne ! koI jAtanI kaDakAI ja nahIM ne ! A bApo to ema ne ema thaI gayo. dezanA vaDApradhAna jevI mA-bApanI javAbadArI che. vaDApradhAnane javAbadArI che ne, eTalI ja javAbadArI che ApaNA gharamAM. eTale saMskAra ApavA joIe ane nahIM to ApaNI javAbadArI che. enuM phaLa ApaNane maLe che. praznakartA : chokarAMnA ghaDatara mATe ke saMskAra mATe ApaNe kazo vicAra ja nahIM karavAno ? nathI, praznakartA H to mA kema thavuM, enI zarUAta karavI joIe ne ! dAdAzrI : evuM thAya tyAre zuM karavuM, vaDhavaDhA thAya tyAre zuM karavuM, raDe tyAre zuM karavuM, e badhI kaLA jANavI joIe ne ! dhIba dhIba karIe... praznakartA : nathI karavuM e. jANavAnI IcchA che ke mA kema thavuM ? dAdAzrI : chokaruM haThe caDhe ne ApaNe haThe caDhIe to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : mA haThe caDhe ne chokaruM haThe caDhe, to saravALe chokaruM TipAya. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa eno artha ja nahIM ne ! eTale enI, chokarAnI haTha bhAMgavI joIe. praznakartA: kevI rIte bhAMgavI ? dAdAzrI : enI prakRti jemAM rAjI thatI hoya, thoDI vAra galIpacI karavI ne rAjI karIne pachI... pachI gADuM cAlu thaI gayuM. pachI ADAI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra jatI rahI. ADAI Ave teTalA pUratuM galIpacI karI levI paDe. praznakartA : paNa chokaro ADo hoya, to ApaNe zuM karavuM ema ? dAdAzrI : paNa ADAne ja AvuM karavuM paDe ne ! galIpacI karIne eka vAra sIdhuM karIne pachI cAlyA kare. paNa A to vadhAre ADA banAve che loko. enI joDe pote ya ADo thAya. peluM to chokaro nA bole ne to mA ya nA bole. praznakartA : hA, moDhuM caDhAvI de. dAdAzrI : moDhe caDhAve. eTale A to mA thavAnAM lakSaNa ja nhoya praznakartA : artha kaMI nahIM, barAbara che. dAdAzrI : bahu tAre jANavAnI IcchA hoya to pachI jJAna laI levuM. praznakartA : jAnavaro hoya che, emAM mAtRtva to kudaratI ja hoya che. ene kema mA thavuM, kema enA pelA baccAne ucheravAM, e to kudaratI ja hoya che ne ! dAdAzrI : e to kudaratI. praznakartA to pachI manuSyomAM kudaratI e guNa na hoya ? dAdAzrI : hato. tyAre doDha DahApaNathI sudhAryo lokoe. kudaratI ja hato te pelA doDha DahApaNe sudhAryo. praznakartA sudhAryo kema gaNAya ? dAdAzrI : e ene sudhAryo ja kaho ne ApaNe ! bagADyo evuM kahIe to khoTuM dekhAya. enA karatAM sudhAryo, doDha DahApaNathI. praznakartA : kharI rIte to kudaratI ja hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : kudaratI ja hoya. 'mA kema thavuM ?" e to kudaratI hoya. saMjJA ja che eka jAtanI. paNa lokonuM joI joIne pelI dhIbatI hoya eTale pelI ya dhIbe. chokaruM corI karI lAvyuM, eTale pelI dhIbe to pelI ya dhIbe ane pAchI kahe zuM, mArI kUkha vagovI. tyAre e hatI ja evI, sArI ja kyAM hatI ? tArI kUkha te amathI vagovI vagovI bole che tuM ! sArI hoya to A janma kyAMthI AvA pavitra purUSo !? pAchI kahe zuM, kUkha mArI vagovI ! evuM beno bole ne ? mane kahe, mArI kUkha vagovI. meM kahyuM, sArI hatI te ! sArI hoya to vagove kharuM ? ane kaLiyugamAM to evo ja mAla Ave ! koNe kahyuM hatuM kaLiyuga sudhI besI rahejo ? A kaLiyugamAM to chokarAM ane e badhuM verabhAve Ave che. kevuM Ave che ? vera vALavA mATe. praznakartA : vera vALavA mATe Ave che ene ja prema karavAno. dAdAzrI : enI joDe pharI vera nA baMdhAya evI rIte jema tema karIne niveDo lAvavAno. satyugamAM badhe premabhAve AvatA hatA. praznakartA : paNa A to pazu-pakSIonI samaja che, enAM karatAM nIcI koTInI samaja UbhI thaI enA jevuM thayuM ne ! dAdAzrI : nA, nA. samajanI jarUra ja nathI AmAM. A to oTomeTikalI cAleluM ane jo gAyanA bAbAne tame herAna karo ne nAno bAbo hoya to, to gAyanI AMkhamAM je jhera Ave ne, te kharekharuM jhera Ave. mArI nAkhe tyAM sudhI choDe nahIM evuM jhera Ave. hoya kharuM enI AMkhamAM ? pelA bheMsanA bhaInI ya AMkhamAM jhera joyeluM ne tame ! bheMsanA bhaI jabarA hoya ne ! praznakartA: jabarA to hoya, pADA. dAdAzrI : eTale bena, jema tema karIne niveDo lAvavAno. ApaNe chokarAone to sArA saMskAra ApIe, sAruM e karIe to kaMI rAge paDe. jo saMskAranI sArI jagyA hoya to teDI jaIe to tyAM rAge paDe. keTalA chokarA che ? praznakartA : eka ja bAbo che. dAdAzrI : ohoho ! meM jANyuM ke so eka haze. kauravo-pAMDavo jeTalA pesI gayA haze. te e bAbAne mArI pAse teDI lAvaje. huM rIpera

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra karI ApIza. eka ja bAbo che, to pachI ene sAcavavAno. evuM che ne gulAbanA choDane jo mAvajata karavAnI akkala hoya to gulAbano choDa kharekharo khIlI uThe. ane akkala nA hoya to mahinA sudhI pANI reDavAnuM bhUlI jAya eTale pachI sUkAI jAya. eTale badhAmAM e to joIe ne praznakartA : A prazna badhAno ja che dAdA, emane ekalAne che evuM nahIM, paNa A badhAne A jarUranuM ja che. mA thatAM AvaDavuM joIe, bApa thatAM AvaDavuM joIe. A to pAyAno ja prazna che. dAdAzrI : paNa e kaMIthI have thaze, have koNa kADhaze svabhAva ! praznakartA : tame kADho ne dAdA. dAdAzrI : nA, huM kema kADhuM ? praznakartA H kADho ja cho ne, A zuM che ? A skUla ja che ne A. badhA Ave che ne pUche ne e bhaNI jAya che. dAdAzrI : te dareka chokarA eka kalAka AvIne AkhuM vijJAna zIkhI jAya. eTale lAIpha bahu sarasa thaI jAya. bIjA badhA joDe kema vartavuM ? jagata zuM che ? koNe banAvyuM ? e badhI vAstaviktA jANe, tyAre DAhyo thaI jAya. A guMcavADAnA lIdhe loko DAhyA nathI. A vAstavikatA jANavAnI kone jarUra ke je kolejamAM bhaNelo hoya tene mATe jarUra che, bIjA majUrone jANavAnI jarUra nathI. praznakartA : mAro haju e prazna che ke je kudaratI rIte, sAhajIka mAtRtvano guNa che ke pitRtvano guNa che, e sAhajIka rIte Ave ane A badhA avarodho rahe nahIM, evuM jJAna kevI rIte laI zakAya ne ApI zakAya ? evuM kema bane eno kaMI Apa upAya batAvo ne ! che sAhajIka ja ane chatAM ya avarodha thAya che. dAdAzrI : e to thoDA vakhata pachI evI mAo thaze eTale enuM joIne zIkhaze loko. ghaNA phere dareka vastunuM bIja ja UDI gayuM hoya te pAchuM bIja pharI utpanna thAya ane pachI cAlu thAya. eTale pharI thaze kharuM. paNa ene mATe nimitta to joIe ne ! prayatna bahAranA joIe ne ! praznakartA : A to Apa jema pahelA kahetA hatA ne ke sArA majAnA bAsamatI cokhA, emAM kAMkarA nAkhIne pachI khAvAnA. dAdAzrI : hA. praznakartA : enA jevI vAta che A. dAdAzrI : aNasamajaNa ja che ne ! juo ne keTaluM badhuM sukha che ghera, paNa joyuM koInA moDhA upara sukha ! A bahAra jaIe to koInA moDhA upara sukha dekhAya che ? praznakartA : ahIMyA dekhAya che, bahAra nathI dekhAtuM. dAdAzrI : ahIMyA dekhAya che, ahIM to mArI hAjarImAM mAyA bahAra jatI rahelI hoya ne ! eTale mAyA vaLagelI ja nA hoya ne ! paNa bahAra sukha dekhAtuM nathI ne koI jagyA para ! praznakartA : ahIMyA to badhAnA moMDhA upara hAsya hoya che. dAdAzrI : ... dila che ne, te dila bahAra che te AkhuM dila murajhAI gayuM che. sAco dharma nA hovAthI A badhuM thayuM che. dharmathI ja saMsAra sarasa cAle. chokarAMo kema keLavavA te dharmathI sUjha paDe. kvaoNliphAIDa mA-bApatA, kahyA pramANe cAle; dAdAI skulameM sarTiphikeTa pA le! praznakartA : "sarTiphAIDa phAdhara-madhara'nI vyAkhyA zuM ? dAdAzrI : "anUsarTiphAIDa' mA-bApa eTale potAnAM chokarAM potAnA kahyA pramANe cAle nahIM, potAnAM chokarAM potAnA upara bhAva rAkhe nahIM, herAna kare ! te mA-bApa 'anusarTiphAIDa' ja kahevAya ne ? praznakartA H kvaoNliphAIDa perenTasa thavA mATenuM kvaoNliphikezana maLe kyAM ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : e to mArI pAse Ave to huM ene zIkhavADI dauM. kAraNake bhUla kADhanAra huM chuM ne ! koI pustakamAM evuM nahIM lakhyuM ke anukvaoNliphAIDa phAdharsa enDa inkvaoNliphAIDa madharsa. te A InDiyAmAM badhA pUchavA Ave che, amane potAne samajaNa pahoMcatI nathI ke ame anukvaoNliphAIDa chIe to have amAre kvaoNliphAIDa kevI rIte thavAya ? te samajAvI daIe. emanI sAthe kevI rIte vartana rAkhavuM, kevI rIte nahIM ! Ama game tema thaIne beThA cho ?! ane pAchA ema kahe che. huM dhaNI... mUA, A tamArA vetA juo. dhaNI cho te pelI gAMThatI to che nahIM. eno oM (prabhAva) paDavo joIe Ama ! dhaNIno to oN paDavo joIe. bolyA vagara oN paDavo joIe. praznakartA: A 'anUsarTiphAIDa' 'phAdhara' ane 'madhara' thaI gayAM che eTale A 'pajhala' UbhuM thAya che? dAdAzrI : hA, nahIM to chokarAM AvAM hoya ja nahIM, chokarAM kahyAgarAM hoya. A to mA-bApa ja ThekANAM vagaranAM che. jamIna evI che, bIja evuM che, mAla rAzI che ! uparathI kahe ke "mArAM chokarAM mahAvIra pAkavAnAM che !' mahAvIra te pAkatA haze ? mahAvIranI mA to kevI hoya !! bApa vAMkAcUkAM hoya to cAle, paNa mA kevI hoya ?! karatA nA AvaDatuM hoya to Ama pradhAnane pUche, have kevI rIte mAre rAja karavAnuM ? to A gAdI parathI utarI pADe ne ! rAmacaMdrajI tyAM gayA, vanamAM gayAM sItA laIne. kyAM gayA ? cauda varSa vanavAsa. have savAramAM to gAdI para e besavAnA hatA rAmacaMdrajI. moTA moTA che te vizvAmitra muni, vaziSTha muni. AvaDAM AvaDAM dADhAM. te Ama beThelA badhA rAtre. sADA bAra-eka vAge joSa kADho, jyotiSanA badhA, jyotiSavALAne bolAvyA. sADA pAMca vAge gAdIe besADo rAmacaMdrajIne. badhuM DIsAIDa thayA pachI dazaratha rAjA Ama gayA, jyotiSa ema gayA. pelA badhA dADhAvALA Ama gayA ane savAramAM to kaMInuM kaMI thaI gayuM. peluM kaikeyIe karyuM. kekevI hatIne, teNe zuM karyuM ? praznakartA: kaMInuM kaMI karI nAkhyuM. dAdAzrI : te kaikeyIe dazaratha rAjAne kahyuM, 'tame mane vacana ApeluM, te vacana pALo.' te A rAmacaMdrajIne vanamAM javAnuM thayuM. eTale kaikeyIno chokaro bharata, te khUba ja sinsiyara. bharata rAjA rAmacaMdrajIne kahe che ke tame jazo to mane gamavAnuM nathI. mane to A rAja joItuM ya nathI ne A.... tyAre kahe, nA, tuM karaje ane sArI rIte rAja karaje ane A mArI prajA duHkhI nA thAya e joje. zuM kahe che ? praznakartA : prajA duHkhI nA thAya. dAdAzrI : eTale eNe promisa ApyuM ke koIne du:khI nahIM karuM. eTale rAmacaMdrajI vanamAM gayA sArI rIte, rAmacaMdrajI ne lakSmaNa. ane bharata ekalAe rAja karavA mAMDyuM. eTale bharate promisa kareluM ke prajAne duHkhI nA karuM. eTale eNe dhIme dhIme verA ochA karavA mAMDyA. revanyu ane tagAvI. lokoe lona lIdhI te mAMDavALa karI, atyAre kare che ne mAMDavALa ! praznakartA : hA, hA. dAdAzrI : atyAre pradhAno kare che ne mAMDavALa te. lono mAMDavALa karI nAkho. loko kharAba thAya, bagaDI jAya ulTA. lona to mAMDavALa rAja calAvatAM na AvaDyuM bharatane; rAme Adarza rAjaya dIdhuM jagatane! rAjAne rAja calAvatA nA AvaDatuM hoya to prajA duHkhI thaI jAya ane bApane che te ghara nA calAvatAM AvaDe to chokarAM bagaDI jAya. eTale hAu Tu cenja, e to ApaNe nA jANavuM joIe, mA-bApe ?! te tethI mAre lakhavuM paDyuM badhAne. mane kaMI tiraskAra karavAnuM sAruM lAge ! nA sAruM lAge. paNa jarAka to tame TreIna karo Amane. praznakartA : e kevI rItanA TreIna karIe ? dAdAzrI : tethI ja anUkavaoNliphAIDa lakhyuM meM. e to tamAre pUchavAnuM ja nA hoya. e to AvaDavuM joIe. rAjA thayo to ene rAja

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra karAtI haze ! te Ane tagAvIo ya badhI mAMDavALa karAvI. revanyu ochuM karI nAkhyuM. te pagAra zI rIte lokone ApavA ? to kahe, tijorImAMthI kADhI kADhIne Apo. tijorI badhI bahu hatI, sArI hatI. jabarajasta hatI enI mahIM dhana hatuM. te bAra varSamAM ene vAparI khAdhuM dhULadhANI karIne ane lokoe che te peluM bharavA karavAnuM nA hoya ne revenyU-bevenyu, tagAvI ne e. eTale lokoe dArU pIne sUI rahevA mAMDyA. pelA khetaromAM vAve ja nahIM ne. kAraNa ke sarakArathI dabANa hoya to vAve. kaMI bharavAnuM hoya to bIkanA mAryA vAve. ANe to bIka ja kADhI nAkhI badhAnI. pachI potAne khabara nahIM e to bharata rAjA bicArAne. e to jANe huM sukhI karuM chuM A badhAne. ane loka ALasu ne dArUDiyAne evA thaI gayA ne khetaromAM ya koruM dekhAya ane grIna belTa hato ne tene badale sUko thaI gayo, DrAya belTa thaI gayo. pachI rAmacaMdrajI jyAre cauda varSanA vanavAsathI pAchA AvyA tyAre jotA jotA AvyA to kahe, Ama kevuM ? A DrAya belTa kevo, A badhuM AvuM ? mahIM jotA ja gabharAI gayA. AvIne bharata rAjAne pUchIne kahe che ke te lokone.... kema A loko du:khI thaI gayA che ne kaMI A kazuM vAvatA karatA nathI ? tyAre kahe, meM to bahu sukha ApyuM che emane. juo tijorImAM kazuM rAkhyuM nathI. e rAmacaMdrajI samajyA ke Ane rAja kyAM meM sopyuM A badhuM. eTale rAmacaMdrajIe AvIne pachI zuM karyuM ? badhe khabara ApI dIdhI ke 'badhA cauda varSanA verA bhegA peIDa apa karI jAva ane tagAvI pAchI bharI jAva vyAja sAthe.' A rAma jevA rAma bole che ? tyAre kahe, 'hA, e ja rAma, e ja bole che." A lokoe che te khetIvADI karavA mAMDI ane pAchI navI tagAvI ApavA mAMDI ke aDacaNa paDe to bIjI tagAvI laI jAva paNa khetIvADI zarU karI do ane pAchA paisA bharI jAva. e lokoe pAchI tagAvI vALI ne lokoe pAchA kUvA khodyA. navI tagAvI laIne ane pachI kosa kheMcavA mAMDyA pANInA. te kose kose bole, eka kosa nIkaLe mahIMthI, "AyA rAma karIne eka kAMkaro mUkavAno. te atyAra sudhIe kAMkaro haju ya mUkAya che. AyA rAma ! e rAma AvyA tyAre pANI nIkaLyuM, nahIM to nIkaLata ja nahIM, hA. lIluM thaI gayuM traNa varSamAM, pharsTa kalAsa thaI gayuM. samajAyuM ne ! - jo bharata rAjAe UMdhuM karI nAkhyuM ne ! ene zuM khabara paDe ke UMdhuM thaI rahyuM che ! gamI vAta AmAMnI koI tamane, vAta gamI koI? praznakartA: A gamI jAya che, tyAre enI asara thaI ja jAya. dAdAzrI : ghaNA loko chokarAne kahe che, "tuM mAruM kahyuM mAnato nathI." meM kahyuM, 'tamArI vANI gamatI nathI ene. game to asara thaI ja jAya.' ane pelo pappo kahe che, "tuM mAruM kahyuM mAnato nathI." alyA mUA, pappo thatAM tane AvaDyuM nathI. A kaLiyugamAM dazA to juo lokonI ! nahIM to satyugamAM kevA phAdhara ne madhara hatA ! huM e zIkhavADavA mAMguM chuM, tame evuM bolo ke, chokarAne tamArI vAtamAM ene InTaresTa paDe eTale tamAruM kahyuM karaze ja. tame kahyuM mane ke tamArI vAta mane game che ja. to tamArAthI eTaluM thAya. praznakartA : ApanI vANInI asara evI thAya che ke je buddhi pajhala ukelI nA zake, te A vANI ukelI zake che. dAdAzrI : hRdaya sparzatI vANI. hRdaya sparzatI vANI to madharalI (mAtRtvavALI) kahevAya. hRdaya sparzatI vANI jo koI bApa chokarAne kahe e sarTiphAIDa phAdhara kahevAya ! praznakartA : bahu sahelAIthI nahIM mAne chokarAM ! dAdAzrI : to hITalarIjhamathI mAne ?! e helpaphula nathI. hITalarIjhamathI jo karIe to helpaphula nathI. praznakartA : mAne che, paNa bahu samajAvyA pachI. dAdAzrI : to vAMdho nahIM. e kAyadesara kahevAya. bahu samajAvavuM paDe che. enuM kAraNa zuM ? ke tame pote samajatA nathI. mATe vadhAre samajAvavuM paDe. samajatA mANasane eka phero samajAvavuM paDe. te ApaNe

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74 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra nA samajI jaIe ?! bahu samajAvo cho paNa pachI samaje che ne ! praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : e rasto sArAmAM sAro. A to mArI ThokIne samajAvavA mAMge che ! jema bApa thaI beTho, te jANe atyAra sudhI koIno duniyAmAM koI dahADo koI bApa ja nahIM hoya ! eTale je samajAvIne AvuM le che tene mAre anUkvaoNliphAIDa nathI kahevA. na bolAya, chokaro nathI mAnato? tathI bApa tarIke chAjato! bApa thavuM' e sadvyavahAra kevo hovo joIe ? chokarA joDe dAdAgIrI to nahIM, paNa sakhtAI ya nA joIe, enuM nAma bApa kahevAya. praznakartA : chokarAM pajave to ? chokarAM pajave to pachI bApe zuM karavuM joIe ? to ya bApe sakhtAI nahIM rAkhavAnI ? dAdAzrI : chokarAM A bApane lIdhe ja pajave che. bApanAmAM nAlAyakI hoya to ja chokarAM pajave. A duniyAno kAyado evo ! bApanAmAM barakata nA hoya to chokarAM pajavyA vagara rahe nahIM. vaLI e to nyAya ane tarata ja ApI daIe. bApa kahe ke, "mArA chokarAM pajave che.' to huM kahI dauM ke tArAmAM barakata nathI. jato rahe ! chokarAno bApa thatAM AvaDatuM nathI. chokarAM zI rIte pajave ? khavaDAvI-pIvaDAvIne moTA kya. kudaratI kAyado evo che ke chokaro bApanuM nA mAne to bApanAmAM barakta nathI ema kahevAya. A eno kAyado ! praznakartA : dIkaro bApanuM nA mAne to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : "ApaNI bhUla che' ema mAnIne mUkI devAnuM ! ApaNI bhUla hoya to ja nA mAne ne ! bApa thatAM AvaDyuM hoya, eno chokaro nA mAne evuM hotuM haze !? paNa bApa thatA AvaDatuM ja nathI ne ! praznakartA : eka vAra phAdhara thaI gayA pachI kaMI galuDIyA choDe ? dAdAzrI : choDatAM haze ? galuDIyAM to AkhI jiMdagI evA DaoNga ne DaoNgInane beune joyA ja kare, ke A bhasa bhasa kare ane A (DaoNgIna) bacakAM bhara bhara karyA kare. DaoNga bhasyA vagara rahe nahIM. paNa chevaTe doSa pelA DaoNgano nIkaLe. chokarAM enA mA taraphI hoya. eTale meM eka jaNane kaheluM, 'moTAM thaIne A chokarAM tane mAraze. mATe dhaNIyANI joDe pAMsaro raheje !" e to chokarAM joyA kare te ghaDIe, emano paga nA pahoMce ne tyAM sudhI ane paga pahoMce eTale to oraDImAM ghAlIne mAre. te evuM banyuM hauM lokone ! chokarAe te dahADAthI niyANuM ja kareluM hoya ke huM moTo thAuM ke bApane ApuM ! mAruM sarvasva jajo paNa A kArya thAva, e niyANuM. A ya samajavA jevuM che ne ?! praznakartA : eTale badho doSa bApano ja ? dAdAzrI : bApano ja ! doSa ja bApano. bApanAmAM bApa thavAnI barakata nA hoya tyAre vahu sAmI thAya. bApanAmAM barakata nA hoya tyAre ja AvuM bane ne ! mArI-ThokIne gADuM rAge pADe. kyAM sudhI samAjanI bIkanA mAryA rahe. praznakartA : evuM ja hoya ke bApanI bhUla ja hoya ? dAdAzrI : bApanI ja bhUla hoya che. ene bApa thatAM AvaDatuM nathI, eTale A badhuM bhelAI gayuM. gharamAM jo bApa thavuM hoya to, strI enI pAse viSayanI bhIkha mAMge evI draSTi thAya tyAre bApa thaI zake. praznakartA : bApa gharamAM vaDIlapaNuM nA rAkhe, bApapaNuM nA rAkhe to ya enI bhUla gaNAya ? dAdAzrI : to rAge paDI jAya. praznakartA : chatAM chokarAo bApanAM kahyAmAM raheze, enI khAtrI dAdAzrI : kharI ne ! ApaNuM kerekTara(cAritra) to AkhuM jagata kerekTaravALuM. praznakartA : chokarAM chellI koTInAM nIkaLe temAM bApa zuM kare ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra jJAtI kaMDAre mUrti phAdharote Ape pati! dAdAzrI : mULa doSa bApano ja. te bhogave che zAthI? AgaLe ya AcAra bagaDyA che tethI A dazA thaI che ne ? jeno kaMTrola koI avatAramAM bagaDato nathI, tene AvuM hoya nahIM, ame e kahevA mAMgIe chIe ! pUrvakarma to zAthI thayuM ? ApaNo muLa kaMTrola nathI tyAre ne ! eTale ame AmAM, kaMTrolamAM mAnIe chIe. kaMTrola mAnavA mATe tamAre badhA enA kAyadA samajavA joIe. A chokarAMo arIso che. chokarAMo uparathI khabara paDe ke ApaNAmAM keTalI bhUla che ! zIlavAta, zIla saMskAre; vAgha paNa tyAM salAmo bhare! praznakartA : evuM kharuM ke chokarAo bahu bhaNelA hoya. eTIkeTavALA hoya ! enI budhdhi bahu vadhelI hoya mA-bApa karatAM paNa vadhAre, tethI problema thAya che ? dAdAzrI : te e budhdhi atyAre vadhI che ne, eTale ApaNe samajIne kAma levuM joIe. evuM che, jo ApaNAmAM zIla nAmano guNa hoya, to vAgha paNa ThekANe rahe. to chokarAonuM zuM gajuM ? ApaNA zIlamAM ThekANuM nathI tenI A badhI bhAMjagaDa che. zIlamAM samajI gayA ne ?! praznakartA : zIla kone kahevuM, jarA vistArathI kaho ne, badhAne samajAya evuM ! dAdAzrI : kiMcit mAtra duHkha devAnA bhAva nA hoya. kiMcit potAnA duzmanane paNa duHkha devAnA bhAva na hoya. enI mahIM che te sinsiyAriTI hoya, morAliTI hoya. badhA ja guNo bhegA thAya. kiMcit mAtra hiMsaka bhAva nA hoya. tyAre 'zIla' kahevAya. tyAM vAgha ThaMDo thaI jAya. praznakartA : evuM to kyAMthI lAve AjakAlanAM mA-bApa ? dAdAzrI : to paNa thoDA-ghaNAM, emAMthI ApaNe paccIsa TakA joIe ke nA joIe ? paNa ApaNe A kALane laIne sAva AIskrImanI DIzo khAdhA kare evA thaI gayA che. praznakartA : phAdharanuM kevuM cAritra hovuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : chokarA roja kahe ke pappAjI amane bahAra nathI gamatuM. tamArI joDe ja bahu game che evuM cAritra hovuM joIe. praznakartA : A to UMdhuM, bApa gharamAM hoya to chokaro bahAra jAya ane bApa bahAra jAya to chokaro gharamAM hoya. dAdAzrI : chokarAne game nahIM pappAjI vagara. praznakartA: to evuM thavA mATe zuM karavuM, pappAe ? dAdAzrI : have mane chokarA maLe che ne te chokarAne gamatuM nathI mArA vagara. IMDA maLe che te paiDAone ya gamatuM nathI mArA vagara. juvAna maLe che te juvAnane ya gamatuM nathI mArA vagara. praznakartA : amAre tamArA jevuM ja thayuM che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa e to tame A mArA jevuM nakala karo to thaI jAya. ApaNe kahIe, 'pepsI lAvo.' to kaheze, 'nathI.' to ya kaMI vAMdho nahIM, pANI laI Avo. A to kaheze, 'kema lAvIne rAkhI nahIM ?" e Dakho karyo pAcho. amane to bapore jamavAno TAIma thayo hoya ane kaheze, 'Aja to jamavAnuM karyuM nathI.' huM kahuM ke 'bhaI barobara, sAruM karyuM. lAya jarA pANI-bANI pI laIe, basa." tame kema nathI karyuM ? e phojadAra thaI gayo. phojadAra thaI jAya tyAM AgaLa. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, Akho divasa kAma karIne tame AvyA ho ane sAMje khAvAnuM nA maLe, barobara bhUkha lAgI hoya to zuM karo tame ? dAdAzrI : 'bhogave enI bhUla.' praznakartA : beu bAjuthI mAra paDe ne ! dAdAzrI : beu bAju mAra ja che. A jagata khoTuM che badhuM. tamAro hisAba AvIne hAjara raheze. tame nA kahezo to ya Tebala upara haze.

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78 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 79 samajAtuM jaze. tema tema ora AnaMda ne ora vAta samajAze. kahuM chuM ne amane TvenTI sevana yarsathI Tenzana thayuM nathI bolo, sinsa TvenTI sevana yarsa ! to tame A dazAnI bhakti karo cho te tame ya evA thaI javAnA. jene bhaje tene puruM pAme. jenuM nididhyAsana kare te rUpa thAya. asarTiphAIDane lIdhe A dazA thaI che ApaNI. have eka kALa evo Avaze ke sarTiphAIDa Avaze. A to ApaNe ene TeDakAvavA mATe zabda bolatA nathI. e zabda nIkaLavAthI zabda kAma kare che. chAsIyAmAMthI so Taya batAve dAdA! tapave soyAte, paNa aMte phAyadA! tame kaho, A badhuM nA banAvazo. to ya e hAjara thayA kare. mAre keTalI cIja hAjara thAya che. te mAre paNa nA pADa-pADa karavuM paDe che. A kaheze, rasa lAvuM, kerI lAvuM. alyA bhaI, mAre nathI jarUra AnI ! keTalI cIjo hAjara kare. temAM paNa mane to jarUra nA hoya. mane zuM cIja hAjara nahIM karatA hoya loko ? tamane zuM lAge che ? jamatI vakhate, badhI vakhate zuM hAjara nahIM karatA hoya loko ? te amAre jarUra nahIM koI jAtanI. tema tiraskAre ya nahIM. tame mUkyuM jarAka kakaDo laI laIe. tame bahu kaho to nA khAvuM hoya to ya kakaDo laI laIe. tame kaDavuM Apo to ya pI ja laIe. thoDuM pIe. ApaNe to eDajasTa thaI javuM joIe. praznakartA : dAdA, A tame je vAta karI ke tamane kaDavuM ApyuM hoya to ya tame thoDuMka laI lo. have amane kaDavuM nA bhAvatuM hoya to temanuM laIe ? eTale peluM je lAIkIMga upara jAya enI vAta karIe chIe have ApaNe. dAdAzrI : paNa 'nA' zabda to kADhI nAkhajo DikSanarImAMthI. e 'nA'thI ja A jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. nA kahevAthI ja loko che te kleIma mAMDe che. 'hA' lAvo. pachI moDhAmAM mUkIne 'yuM' karyuM hoya to ya thAya, vAMdho nahIM ! paNa ene InsalTa nahIM karo. ame to keTalAka pherA, 'dAdA prasAda lo', te laI lauM ane magaphaLIne e hoya to gajavAmAM mUkuM. te pachI pAchuM bahAra nIkaLe tyAre koIkane ApI dauM, paNa InsalTa nahIM karavAnuM. kAraNake 'vyavasthita'nA AdhAre e to mane kahyuM ke lyo. praznakartA: hA. dAdAzrI : ane tame to Dakho karyA vagara raho nahIM. Dakho nahIM karo. vyavasthita che A badhuM jagata. je bane che e vyavasthita. thAya che e vyavasthita. vyavasthita nahIM lAgatuM ! praznakartA : vyavasthita che. dAdAzrI : ane kare che e ya 'vyavasthita' che. kone vaDhazo ? chokarAne, vahune ? koIne vaDhavA jevuM jagata che ?! ame to klIyara kaTa badhI jogrophI ApI che badhI. bilakula klIyara kaTa. jema jema klIyaransa A have ApaNA mahAtmAo DAhyA thavAnA. jJAna lIdhuM tethI chokarAM sArAM thavAnAM, DAhyA thavAnAM. kAraNake mAIpaNuM Ave, sTaMTa nA hoya. pelAM to sTaMTa ! praznakartA : jJAna lIdhelAM mA-bApo 'sarTiphAIDa mA-bApo' kahevAze. dAdAzrI : thaze ne ! nA kema kahevAya ? tamAro chokaro sarTiphAIDa thaI gayo, te uparathI nA samajIe ke mA-bApa sarTiphAIDa thaI gayAM che ? chokarAM sarTiphAIDa thaI gayAM ! praznakartA : dAdA, A eka ja jagyA evI joI ke jyAM yogyatA pUchavAmAM AvatI nathI. nahIM to bIje badhe ThekANe pUche ke tamAro zuM mAla che, tamArAmAM zI yogyatA che, tyAra pachI pesavA de ane ApanI pAse to badhAM chAsiyA sonA ja ame AvyA. te Ape koI dahADo pUchayuM nathI ke A chAsiyuM che tAruM. Apa coksI eTale to chAsIyuMne cokhkhuM karI Apo cho ! dAdAzrI : hA, kAraNake huM jANuM ne, ke kazA ya mAla vagaranA che A loka. ene pUchIe to ApaNI jokhamadArI. sAmAnI AbarU lIdhA barobara ne ! jenI pAse lakSmI nA hoya ene ApaNe kahIe, keTalI lakSmI che tamArI pAse ? te ulaTuM zaramamAM mUkavA jevuM. evuM kema pUchAya ApaNAthI ? ApaNe kahIe, bA, sukhI chuM ? basa bA. e to AmAM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mAla kazo ya nahoto, A to badho. A duniyA mAla vagaranI thaI gayelI che atyAre to. A to vyavasthita calAvyA kare che gADAM. nahIM to koI avatAramAM, koI kALamAM ya che te jJAnI purUSe Avo cAbakho nahIM mAryo hoya ke anUkvaoNliphAIDa phAdharsa enDa inkvaoNliphAIDa madharsa, Avo cAbakho to koIe mAryo ja nathI. kAraNake evuM ja A badhuM thaI gayuM che. have kvaoNliphikezana eTale e levAnuM nathI. paNa sAmAnya budhdhi hovI joIe ke nA hovI joIe. bApa thavAnI sAmAnya buddhi hovI joIe ke nA hovI joIe ? koIe mAra mArelo ja nahi ne ! mAra mAravAmAM kaMI phAyado ? tamane lAgyuM ke loko vAMcaze, tyAre samajAze ke A bhUla to kharI, A chokarAMne keLavatAM AvaDatuM nathI. hA, bIjAM badhAM lokane che te keLavavAM nA paDe. bIjAM devalokone ke bIjAM lokone ke A jAnavaronAM chokarAMne koIne keLavavAM nA paDe. e sahaja keLavAyelAM hoya. Amane ja keLavavA paDe. keLavavA mATe pote keLavAvuM joIe. jokhamadArI che e to badhI. 'anukvaoNliphAIDa phAdharsa' e to bolavuM, kaMI jevI tevI vAta che ? A duniyAmAM koI paNa roga evo nathI ke jenI davA nA hoya. DaoNkaTaro ya kahe, A to kevo thaI gayo pelo? kaSTa sAdhya ? praznakartA : kronika thaI gayo che. dAdAzrI : DaoNkaTaro kahe, kronika. paNa kronikanI davA che. phakta enI purve kAcI paDI che tethI bheguM thatuM nathI. bAkI, amathA koIka evA purUSanA hAtha aDe to maTI jAya badhuM. agara to capaTI davA Ape ne, to ya maTI jAya. badhI cIja che jagatamAM. kazuM nathI evuM nathI. phakta enI pacce kAcI paDe che. eTale enA upAya jANavA paDe ema. ane nA jANe tyAM sudhI phAdhara thavAnuM baMdha rAkhatA hoya to zuM khoTuM ? e to asarTiphAIDamAM gaNAze. praznakartA : eTale badhA dAdA, asarTiphAIDa ja che ! dAdAzrI : paNa evuM kahevuM paDe ne ! praznakartA : khulluM to pADavuM paDe. dAdAzrI : je sAcA che te to pakaDaze ne ! jene ema khAtarI che ke bhaI, ApaNe evA nathI to ene lAgatuM nathI. jene che evA te pakaDI ja le che ne, tarata ? evuM che ne, cokhkhuM koI bolanAra nIkaLe nahIM. kAraNake AkhA jagatamAM koNa cokhkhuM kahI zake ? nirbhaya thayelA hoya evA "jJAnI puruSa', jene koI cIjano bhaya nA hoya, jene bhagavAna vaza thaI gayelA hoya. bhagavAna jene caudalokano nAtha vaza thayelo hoya, e badhuM bolI zake phAve evuM. bIjA koInuM gajuM ja nahIM ne ! zuM chokarAne karazo ? kaho have ! te rAkhavAnA, paTAvavAnA ! mAthA bhAre jaDyAM che. ne, lakhelAM che. praznakartA : mAMgelA ja che dAdA. e to AgaLathI mAMgelA ja che. dAdAzrI : hA. eTale samajIne ja ApaNe kAma karavuM. kADhI mele to posAtuM nathI. praznakartA: brahmasvarUpa thaI gayelA dAdA, A kaI karUNA che ? AvI vAtomAM paNa samaya Ape che. dAdAzrI : hA, samaya Ape ne paNa ! Apavo ja joIe. nahIM to loko A muMjhAmaNamAMthI kema nIkaLe te ?! keTalI muMjhAmaNa haze ? eTale Akho dA'Do A ja kArUNyatA vaparAya che ne ane tyAre pelo guMcAmaNamAMthI nIkaLe to A jJAnane pAme ne to ja raste caDhe. nahIM to caDhe zI rIte te ? kaMIka AmAM muMjhAmaNa nIkaLaze ne, mArI joDe besazo to ? tamane khAtarI thaI gaI ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : nIkaLe pachI muMjhAmaNa. kAraNake amAruM vacanabaLa hoya. zabda hAjara thAya te ghaDIe. mATe chokaro gAMDAdhelo hoya ke evuM tevuM hoya to kaMTALyuM nA phAve. e to ApaNe lamaNe lakhelo che. praznakartA : lamaNe lakhelo e svIkArIne rahIe to cAle.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : svIkArI laIne kAma AgaLa calAvavuM paDe. ApaNo ja hisAba A. kaMI pArako hisAba nathI ane te lamaNe lakhelA pAchAM. meM jANyuM ke A kALamAM AvuM 'anUsarTiphAIDa phAdharsa ne asarTiphAIDa madharsa' zA hAruM lakhAI gayuM haze ? huM ya vicAra karato hato ke AvA kaMI zabda bolAtA haze ? eka-be jaNe mane kahyuM ya hatuM ke "AvuM AvuM lakhyuM ?" meM kahyuM, 'hA, lakhyuM.' evA phAdhara che te khabara paDI jaze. samajAvavAthI sudhare suputro choDane te vaDhIne ucherAya? premathI pANI paNa pIdhaLAyA praznakartA : ApaNane ema thatuM hoya ke AnuM bhaluM thAya che to ene TokaToka karIe, to e nahIM sAruMne ? koIne vaDhIe, TokIe, enAM sArA mATe to e karavuM ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : nA, e to ApaNA hAthamAM nahIM. e to TokAya, e karavA jevI vastu nahIM, paNa TokAya te ApaNe joyA karavAnuM. ApaNe nA karavuM hoya to ya thaI jAya e to. nA vaDhavuM hoya to ya vaDhI javAya. eTale e ApaNe joyA karavAnuM ke Ama na hovuM ghaTe, evuM ApaNe manamAM abhiprAya rahevo joIe. praznakartA: haM, ke Ama nahIM karavuM. dAdAzrI : Ama hovuM ghaTe nahIM evo ApaNo abhiprAya phera thayo eTale ApaNe chUTA. ApaNI javAbadArI nahIM pachI. praznakartA : maunavrata laIe to kevuM ? mauna laIe to, bolavuM ja

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : e mauna ApaNA hAthanI vAta nathIne. mauna thAya to sArI vAta che ane nA thAya to AvI rIte karavuM. praznakartA: mauna rAkhavAthI sAmA mANasamAM phera paDe ? dAdAzrI : paDe. praznakartA : vaDhavA karatAM vadhAre paDe ? dAdAzrI : hA, ghaNo phera paDe, mauna bahu kAma kare. praznakartA : koIne zIkhavADavAnuM hoya to pachI maunathI kevI rIte zIkhavADAya ? dAdAzrI : nA, e zIkhI javAya, ema ne ema AvaDe. zIkhavADIne bagaDe che ullu A to. ahIM badhuM jJAna che, ApaNe mauna rahIene to ene jJAna pahoMcI vaLe. e jJAna che ja ene, chokarAone ya jJAna che, chatAM bolAya che te ApaNe joyA karavuM. A kaca kaca karyA karatAM mauna keLavavuM sAruM, nA bolavuM sAruM. sudhAravA karatAM bagaDe, mATe akSare ya na kahevAya. bagaDe enI javAbadArI ApaNI. samajAya evI vAta che A ? praznakartA : hA, samajAya evI vAta che, dAdA. dAdAzrI : jarA ya chokarAne kahevAya nahIM. kAraNa ke chokaruM jJAna lIdheluM nathI ane tarata ja ene lAge ke avaLuM bole che. huM kahuM, tyAre avaLuM bole che evuM nA kahe, huM mArIne kahuM to ya ! kAraNa ke ene vizvAsa beTho hoya, mArA vAkyothI. e tamAruM to vAkya tamane ja samajaNa paDatI nA hoya tyAM AgaLa ! maphatamAM bApa thaIne beTho !! eTalI mArI vAta samajAya che ? praznakartA : hA, dAdA. dAdAzrI : eTale A mA-bApa kahe che mArAM chokarAM sudhare, mUA zenA sudhare paNa ? anUkavaoNliphAIDa phAdharsa. chokarAM vadhAre bagaDe che. enuM kAraNa enA mA-bApane lIdhe. A to jJAna lIdhA pachI DAhyA thAya thoDA. have thoDuM DahApaNa Ave ke nA Ave ! praznakartA : hA, Ave dAdA. dAdAzrI : tame hisAba kADhone, tamane nAnapaNamAM vaDhatA hoya koI to mahIM kazI asara thatI hatI ? zuM thatuM hatuM ? praznakartA : khoTuM karIe chIe evuM lAge. mane khabara paDI jatI ke huM khoTuM karI rahyo chuM. beno kahe che ke amane evuM lAgatuM hatuM ke A badhA amane vagara kAmanA laDha laDha kare che. dAdAzrI : haM, badhAne ema ja lAge. bahu laDhe tyAre.... praznakartA : lAge, dAdA. ema lAge ke mArI bhUla che. dAdAzrI : ko'ka phero lAge. roja ema kare to 'nakAmAM A kacakaca karyA kare che' ema mAne. ane tamArA chokarAM zuM kahe, A Dabala kacakaca karI rahyA che, A nakAmAM, yujhalesa ! ene pUchIe ke tArA gharamAM sAta mANasa che emAM naMbara, tArA phAdharano naMbara ? tyAre sevantha naMbara. A tAruM pUruM kare che. gharanuM badhuM kare che. e eno naMbara nA lAge. AvuM bane ke nA bane ? praznakartA : bane, dAdA. dAdAzrI : e evuM ja thayeluM. chokarAo nyAyAdhIzanuM kAma kare che. eTale chokarAMone huM pUchuM, meM kahyuM, tArA gharamAM kono pahelo naMbara lAge ? tyAre kahe, gharamAM sAta mANasa hoya ne, 'mArA moTAbhAIno naMbara pahelo lAge." cAlo, pachI bIjo ? tyAre kahe, 'mArI nAnI benano." ane badhAM naMbara kahI Ape. 'pachI tArI mammIno ?" tyAre kahe, mammIno pAMcamo naMbara. cha jaNa hoya temAM. 'tamAM chaThTho kono ? tyAre kahe, "chaThTho mAro.' 'sAtamo kono ?" mArA pappAno.' mera gAMDIyA, tArA pappAe mahenata karI ane tArA hAruM AkhI DhIMgalI laI AvyA, ne mUA Avo sAtamo ?! le !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra jajamenTa ApeluM, kahe che. meM badhuM pUchI lIdhuM. chokarAM badhAMne, ghaNAM kharAM chokarAM pappAne chello naMbara mUke che. bApa chokarA upara ropha mAre eTale emanAM hRdayamAM nIkaLe nahIM ne, pachI zuM thAya ? 'mArA pappA sAtamo naMbara" bole. ropha rAkhIne AbarU bagaDI, tenAM karatAM ropha nA rAkhavo e zuM khoTuM ? zAthI sAtamo ema kahe che ? tame vadhAre bhAva bagADatA hoya enI upara, tyAre jeTalo bhAva vadhAre bagADene eTalo dhakko vAge pelo. eTale gusso ya tyAM kare. eTale pelAne naMbara utarI jAya. pelA bApanA manamAM ema thAya ke huM ATaluM bhAva karuM to ya mAro naMbara sAtamo Ave? alyA mUA, A na hoya bhAva tAro. bhAva to A dAdA kare che. kazuM ApatA nathI, letA nathI. to ya che te pelo kahe che, "nA, dAdA sArA che." kahe ke nA kahe ? kAraNa ke jagata evuM khoLe che ke vItarAga thAva. rAgadveSa zenA karo cho ? praznakartA chokarAo UMdhA raste jAya che evuM ApaNane khabara paDe, ke A je raste cAlI rahyA che e rasto kharAba che ane emane e ja rasto cAlu rAkhavo hoya to zuM karavuM paDe ? dAdAzrI : kakaLATa karavAthI vadhAre bagaDyA ulaTAM, je hatA ne tenA karatAM ! bahu kakaLATa karIene, to nAsI jAya gharamAMthI. ane nAsI gayA pachI peparamAM chapAve, 'tuM jyAM hoya tyAMthI pAcho Avaje, ame to Ama... tArI mammI raDe che, ema tema.' mera cakkara, muA nAsI gayelA ne bolAvo cho zuM karavA te !? e sudhAravAno rasto che ? A to saDI gayuM, tyAre emane khabara paDI ke bagaDyo, emane sudhAro. sudhare e rasto che pAcho. chokarA haju sudhare evA che, sarasa che chokarAo. praznakartA : kevI rIte paNa ? dAdAzrI : paNa jJAna lIdhuM e to sudharI zake. potAnI prakRtine kaMTrolamAM rAkhI zake Ama ! nA rAkhI zake ? praznakartA : rAkhI zake dAdA. dAdAzrI : eTale bolAvIne pachI hAtha pheravavAno. ene pUchavuM. tamane kevuM lAge che, A barobara che ? enI pAse nyAya jyAre karAvIe ne to kahe, "nA, e barobara nathI." eTale ene khAtarI thavI joIe. ene zraddhA besavI joIe ke 'A barobara nathI." ane tame kahezo to eno ahaMkAra jAgaze. kAraNake tamArA zabdomAM barakata nathI. emAM vacanabaLa nathI. eTale eno ahaMkAra jAgrata thaze ke A khoTuM khoTuM kahyA kare che. ulTo mahIM vicAra kare, 'jAva ema karIza ja !' ApaNe kahIe ke nA karIza, tyAre e bhaI uchuM kare. 'karIza, jAva thAya e karo." e vadhAre bagADe che ulaTAM ! chokarAo dhULadhANI karI nAkhe che. A InDiyano ene jIvatAM nahIM AvaDyuM ! A bApa thatAM AvaDyuM nahIM ane bApa thaI beThA che. eTale jema tema mAre samajAvavA paDe che, pustako mAre bahAra pADavA paDe che. eTale ApaNuM jJAna lIdheluM che, e to sarasa chokarAM banAvI zake. besADIne, hAtha pheravIne ene pUcha ke 'bhAI, tane nathI lAgatuM A bhUla thaI evuM !' praznakartA: paNa tyAM peluM bApapaNAno ahaMkAra AgaLa Ave dAdAzrI : have kharo ahaMkAra to jato rahyo che, have A maDadAla ahaMkArane zuM karavAno? praznakartA: have to bahu ema ke badhA ahIMnA dhoLiyAM chokarAo jevAM kapaDAM evAM ja joIe. jIda kare ane pachI ApaNe lAvI ApavA ja paDe, ane pachI evuM thAya ke A chokarAo bagaDe che. dAdAzrI : peluM bhaNavA enI joDe mokalyA, eTale enI icchA thAya. paNa pachI ApaNe ene samajaNa pADIe, ke ApaNe koNa ! kaMI nAtanA ! tyAre e pAcho pharI jAya. praznakartA : e lokone samajavuM ja nathI hotuM. dAdAzrI : badhI taiyArI hoya che. huM pUchI jouM choDIone amerikA bhaNatI ke 'tamAre amerikana joDe paiNavuM che ?" nA, bA. eTale mana pAchuM paDI jAya. tyAM peThuM hoya to ya. meM kahyuM, 'tamAre dakSiNa bhAratavALI joDe ?" nA. ema karatAM karatA enI jagyA upara lAvI dauM.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : e dAdAno siddhAMta jabaro che ke pahelAM pUche ke tamAre amerikana joDe paraNavuM ? to ke', 'nA' ema kahetAM dAdA chelle nAta upara lAvIne mUkI de che. dAdAzrI : eTale Ama rasto khoLavo joIe. potAnuM sudhAratA nahIM AvaDayuM, to A bIjAne zuM sudhAre che ?! A to pUrvajanmanI kamANIne lIdhe bairI maLI, nahIM to bairI ya nA maLe. kAyadesara guNAkAra gaNavAnA hoya ke A lAyaka che bhaI ? tyAre kahe, A to pUrvajanmanI purve, te bairIne bhAyaDo maLe. A pUrvajanmanI puNyane lIdhe bheguM thayuM badhuM. tamane kaMI nathI lAgatuM evuM ? praznakartA : lAge che ne ! dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke mA-bApe evA saMskAra ApyA nathI tamane badhAne ke je tame mA-bApa thaI zako. have e to badhuM thavAnuM hatuM te thaI gayuM. paNa ApaNe have e bhUla sudhAravIne ! ApaNA mA-bApone bleIma karyA karatAM ApaNe sudhArI nAkhIe e zuM khoTuM ! praznakartA : barobara che ! dAdAzrI : koI paNa vastune bleIma karavuM, e to khoTuM ja che. chokarAne eka zabda ya bolAya nahIM. premathI rahevAnuM, nahIM to pelA sudhare nahIM, ne TAIma nakAmI jAya ane kakaLATa Akho dahADo gharamAM rahyA kare. pAchI InDiyana phIlosophI kevI hoya che, eka jaNa vaDhavA taiyAra thAya tyAre pelo uparANuM le. eTale peluM sudharatuM hoya to ya sudharavAnuM to kaMI gayuM. chokaro ema jANe ke "mammI sArI che ane pappA kharAba che. mArIza moTo thaIza tyAre.' te evuM nakkI kare pAchuM, mahIM zuM nakkI kare ? praznakartA : te vakhate kono vAMka kahevAya. dAdA ? dAdAzrI : bhogave eno. enA phAdharano ja ne ! vAMka to pUchavAno vakhata ja nA Ave evuM rAkhyuM che ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hA, barAbara. 'bhogave enI bhUla'. e chokarAMo, mA ane bApamAMthI, dhAro ke emane khabara paDI ke mA ApaNe sAMbhaLe che, mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 89 ApaNane je joIe che, karIe che, te mA taraphathI ApaNane maLI jAya che. eTale chokarAo pachI sAyakolojI 'rIDa'(vAMcIne) karIne mAne hAthamAM rAkhe, mIThuM, mIThuM bolIne potAnuM kAma kaDhAve. to mAne pelI khabara nA paDatI hoya, bApane khabara paDe. dAdAzrI : evuM bane. chokarAo mammIne samajAvIne kAma kADhI le. eka chokaro enA bhaIbaMdhane kaheto hato, ke mArI mammIne samajAvIne huM laI AvIza. nA, chokaro mammIne samajAve tyAMthI nA samajIe ke mammI thavA lAyaka che ke nahIM ? praznakartA: dAdA, chokarAo Apasa ApasamAM kahetA ja hoya che, e to huM mammIne kahIne karI laIza, badhuM thaI jaze. mammI mArA pappAne paTAvI deze. dAdAzrI : zuM thAya have ? Ane kaMI kADhI melAya ahIM AvyA che to ! praznakartA : huM AvuM ja karato hato. ke mAre bahAra javuM hoya ane huM bahAra jato houM, to huM pUchuM ke huM jauM bahAra ? to e loko nA pADI de tarata ja, eTale pachI huM zuM karuM ke huM ema kahyuM ke huM bahAra jauM chuM. eTale pelA pUche to keTalA vAge AvIza pAcho ? eTale AvI sAyakolojI huM bahu vAparato. dAdAzrI : chokarAM mUrkha banAve che. bApane bApa thatAM... mA-bApa thatAM nA AvaDyuM tyAre ja ne ! hindustAnanA chokarAo kevA DAhyA hoya ! AvuM ne AvuM rAkhazo ke sudhArazo ? praznakartA : sudhAravAnuM. dAdAzrI : tamAre kaMI chokarA che ? keTalAM chokarAM che ? praznakartA : be. eka chokaro ne eka chokarI. dAdAzrI : be ja AkhI vastI ! te emAM to zuM moTI nizALa che te tane zIkhavADavAnuM ! e to chokarA ramatAM ramatAM zIkhe. praznakartA : dAdA, pahelAM pAchalA jamAnAmAM to dasa-dasa chokarAM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra hatAM ne, to mA-bApanI joDe kaMI khaTapaTa nhotI, A to eka hoyane to upAdhi moTI, - dAdAzrI : are, dasa-dasa ne bAra-bAra ! e paDozI kahe ke tamArA kurakuriyAM badhAM amArA gharamAM pesI jAya che. pAchA ko'kane tyAM vadhAre hoya to ApaNe pUchIe ATalA badhA chokarAM eka baIne jamyA ? nA, AgaLa tenA traNa hatA, AnA bIjA agiyAra. jo tyAre kurakuriyAM keTalAM badhAM che ! tamAre to be ja che ! e ya sudhAratAM nA AvaDyuM tamane ? bena tane ya sudhAratAM nA AvaDyuM ? ApaNane sudhAratAM nA AvaDe to ene bagADavA karatAM hosTelamAM mUkI devuM. chokarAM bagaDI jAya pachI chokarAM sudhAro, eno zo artha che ? tamAre kazuM sudhAravA mATe vaDhavAnuM nahIM. chokarAne vaDhavAnuM hotuM haze ? A choDavAne vaDhIe bahAra ?! kema sArAM thatAM nathI ? parama dahADe phUla hatuM ne Aje kema nA AvyuM ? vaDhavA karavAnuM chokarAne nahIM. chokarAne to ApaNe karI batAvo. e zuM kahe che ? kazuM karI batAvo. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra kahevAya ke bhaI, tame A pheravI nAkho. paNa A pariNAma kaMI pheravAya ?! tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : nA pheravAya. dAdAzrI : eTale ene pheravavA jAya che, paNa kazuM sudharatuM nathI. eTale mA-bApane asaMtoSa rahyA kare che eTale A eno bheda samajI ane pachI Ukela lAvavo joIe. ApaNe samajIe ke A e ya saMjogomAM che, ApaNA hAthamAM nathI kazuM sarakamasTenziyala eviDansamAM Ave to tema pAchuM evuM mAnIe nA lezo. e jo mAnI lezo to e taraphI tamAruM mana thaI jaze. evuM nahIM huM kaheto. tamAre A taraphI rahevuM ane pelI taraphanuM jANavuM beuM karavuM. samajAyuM ne ? ke amathA hA e hA karo cho ? praznakartA : nA, samajAya che. dAdAzrI : igoIjhama hoya ja. kAM to jJAna lIdheluM hoya, to pelo jIvato IgoIjhama nA hoya. paNa pelo maDadAla to hoya ja ne ! e ahaMkAra bhagna to karAya ja nahIM, tema ene khoTuM enkareje nA karAya ! kAraNa ke ko'ka phero kAcA paDI jAva paNa khoTuM ne ekaMdare evuM na ja thavuM joIe ne ! mATe tamAre bALakonuM sAcavavAnuM. A be ja che ne ! bIjA to pArakAM hoya. e jokhamadArI pArakAMnI. ApaNe to khavaDAvIepIvaDAvIe A benI jokhamadArI ApaNI. have AmanuM nA sAcavIe to huM ya tamane kahuM, ane loko ya kahevA Ave ke A chokarAnuM jotAM nathI, tamane lAgatuM-vaLagatuM, tenI A bhAMjagaDa hoya. ane A vAta tamane bahu helpaphala thaI paDaze. samaja paDIne ? tame eka ja vAta karo. A sudharavuM joIe, sudharavuM joIe. alyA, loka sudhare nahIM. AvI rIte sudhArAtuM haze ? badhAne kAcanI peThe sAcavuM chuM. kAraNa ke tame to evI bhUlacUka karI do, paNa mArAthI kema bhUlacUka thAya ? tamane sAcavato hoIza ke nahIM sAcavato hoIza ? tamane sAcavuM ke nA sAcavuM ? sAcavuM. phasAyelo che chokaro, ene saMjogo barobara Ama custa che. eTale zuM kahevAnuM, ke bhaI ene samajAvIne. Ama tema enA bhAva che te badala badala karyA karavAnA. AtmajJAna sAthe khape vyavahAra jJAtA! zAMti mATe banyuM te vyavasthita jANa! A jJAna ja badhuM kAma kare, bIjuM koI karatuM nathI. jJAna ja kAma kare. jJAna ja jANavAnI jarUra che. pelu jJAna to maLI gayuM. 'huM koNa chuM ?" e jJAna to maLI gayuM. paNa jo A vyavahArika jJAnanuM jo badhuM jANavAnuM maLe pachI Dakho rahe nahIM koI jAtano. badhA saMjogo bhegA thaIne bAbo eka kArya karato hoya tyAM ApaNe enI upara ciDhAyA karIe, ene dhIba dhIba karIe, eno zuM minIMga che te ?! kAraNa ke gayA avatAramAM puruSArtha karyo hoya, te avaLo karyo hoya tene laIne A pariNAma AvyA. tene ApaNe kahevAya ke kema A bagADyuM ? nA, atyAre bhAva bagaDyA hoya evuM karyuM hoya tene ema

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ene nahIM to ApaNe zuM kahIzuM, ke tuM A choDI de, choDI de ! eTale bahu kahIe ne tyAra pachI zuM kahe manamAM ? moDhe kahe ke 'hA, choDI daIza.' paNa aMdara kahe, 'huM vadhAre karIza.' lyo ! bahu chaMcheDa chaMcheDa karIe eTale zuM thAya ? kema bolatA nathI ? praznakartA : vadhAre kare. dAdAzrI : haM, e hada nA cUko, emane ya IgoIjhama hoya che. e kaMI IgoIjhama vagara rahe ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to sAmAno IgoIjhama toDIe, te ghaDIe te potAnI, jAtane saTTAmAM mUkI de. je thavAnuM haze e thaze, paNa karavAno ja kaheze. AvuM nA karo. ene sAcavo, enA IgoIjhamane sAcavo, huM kAcanI peThe sAcavuM chuM. khIle gulazana, tuM cho bane mALI! gADI UMghe pATe, le premathI vALI! sAmAne vizvAsamAM levA jevuM che. A bola bola karavAthI koInuM sudhare nahIM. sudharavAnuM to 'jJAnI puruSa'nI vANIthI sudhare. chokarAM mATe to mAbApanI jokhamadArI che. ApaNe nA bolIe to nA cAle ? cAle. eTale bhagavAne kahyuM che ke jIvatAM ja marelAnI jema rahe. bagaDeluM sudharI zake che. bagaDelAne sudhAravuM e "amArAthI' thaI zake, tamAre nA karavuM. tamAre amArI AjJA pramANe cAlavuM. e to je sudharelo hoya te ja bIjAne sudhArI zake ? pote ja sudharyA nA hoya te bIjAne zI rIte sudhArI zake ? chokarAne sudhAravA hoya to A amArI AjJA pramANe cAlo. chokarAM pUche to ja bolavAnuM ane te paNa temane kahI devAnuM ke mane nA pUcho to sAruM ane chokarA mATe avaLo vicAra Ave to tenuM tarata ja pratikramaNa karI nAkhavuM. koIne sudhAravAnI zakti A kALamAM khalAsa thaI gaI che. mATe sudhAravAnI AzA choDI do. kAraNa ke mana-vacana-kAyAnI ekAtmavRtti hoya to ja sAmo sudharI zake. manamAM jevuM hoya tevuM vANImAM nIkaLe ne tevuM ja vartanamAM hoya to ja sAmo sudhare. atyAre evuM che nahIM. gharamAM darekanI joDe kevuM valaNa rAkhavuM tenI "normAliTI' lAvI nAkho. AcAra, vicAra ne uccAramAM savaLo pheraphAra thato jAya, to pote paramAtmA thaI zake che ne avaLo pheraphAra thAya to rAkSasa paNa thaI zake che. loko sAmAne sudhAravA mATe badhuM phrekacara karI nAkhe che. pahelAM pote sudhare te bIjAne sudhArI zake. paNa pote sudharyA vagara sAmo kemano sudhare ? mATe pahelAM tamArA potAnA bagIcAnuM saMbhALo pachI bIjAnuM jovA jAva. tamAruM saMbhALazo to ja phaLa-phUla maLaze. eTale chokarAM sudhAravA mATe potAne sudhAravAnI jarUra che. bhagavAne kahyuM, 'tuM sudhara to tArI hAjarIthI badhuM sudharaze ! tamAre sudharIne besavuM paDaze, to sudharaze jagata. tamAre sudharavuM nA hoya to jagata kema sudharaze ! tamane kema lAge che ? ApaNe sudharyA hoya to sudhArI zakIe ! praznakartA : chatAM chokarAM vAMkA cAle to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : chokarAM vAMke raste jAya, to ya ApaNe ene joyA karavuM ne jANyA karavuM. ane manamAM bhAva nakkI karavo, ane prabhune prArthanA karavI ke AnA para kRpA karo. 'rileTiva' samajI upalaka rahevuM ! chokarAMne to nava mahinA peTamAM rAkhavAnAM. pachI calAvavAnAM, pheravavAnAM, nAnAM hoya tyAM sudhI. pachI choDI devAnAM. A gAyo-bheMso ya choDI de che ne ? chokarAMne pAMca varSa sudhI TokavA paDe, pachI TokAya paNa nahIM ane vIsa varasa pachI to enI bairI ja ene sudhAre. ApaNe sudhAravAnuM nA hoya. - eka phero manamAM vikhavAda paDI gayo pachI enI linka cAlu thaI jAya, pachI manamAM enA mATe graha baMdhAI jAya ke A mANasa Avo che.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra sudharelo kone kahevAya ? vaDhe to paNa prema dekhAya ! praznakartA : sudharelAnI vyAkhyA zuM ? dAdAzrI : sAmA mANasane tame vaDho to ya ene emAM prema dekhAya. tame Thapako Apo to ya ene tamArAmAM prema dekhAya ke "ohoho ! mArA phAdharano mArA para keTalo badho prema che !' Thapako Apo, paNa premathI Apo to sudhare. A kolejomAM jo prophesaro Thapako ApavA jAya to prophesarone badhA mAre ! sAmo sudhare e mATe ApaNA prayatno rahevA joIe, paNa je prayatno 'riekazanarI' hoya evA prayatnomAM nA paDavuM. ApaNe ene TaiDakAvIe ne ene kharAba lAge e prayatna nA kahevAya. prayatna aMdara karavA joIe, sUkSma rIte ! sthULa rIte jo ApaNane nA phAvatuM hoya to sukSma rIte prayatno karavA joIe. vadhAre Thapako nA Apavo hoya to thoDAkamAM kahI devuM joIe ke, "ApaNane A zobhe nahIM." basa ATaluM ja kahIne baMdha rAkhavuM. kahevuM to paDe, paNa kahevAnI rIta hoya. gayA avatAranA chokarAM keTalAM che ? bolatAM nathI ? dareka avatAre chokarAM mUkIne AvyA che. gayA avatAranAM chokarAM joDe... sudhAravA mATe prayatna karatA'tA. ane have A avatAramAM ya evuM ja karo cho. koI sudharyo ? ekuM ya chokaro sudharyo nahIM. ane te AcaraNamAM hovuM joIe potAnA. potAnA AcaraNamAM hoya to enI meLe sudharI jAya. khoTa jAya che, e to jAya che ja. have javA mAMDI che to emAM keTalI aTake che e kara tuM. ane sudhArI zakAya che, badhuM karI zakAya che. A to potAne dhaMdhA karavA che, lAkho kamAvavA che ane ghara tarapha durlakSa sevavuM che. tyAre choDI jatI ja rahene pachI bIjuM zuM thAya ?! choDIo pAchaLa, chokarA pAchaLa to dhyAna ApavuM joIe. saMskAra ApaNe ApavAnA che. - chokarAo sudhAro, A badhuM sudhAro, ekasTenzana maLavAnuM nathI. to zA mATe hAya, hAya, hAya karavAnI jarUra ane varSo jaze ne, game tema dardo pharI vaLaze pAchAM, pelo kaheze, mane prezara thayuM che. pelo kaheze, mane Ama thayuM che. pelo kaheze, mane sugara jAya che. A badhAM dardo..... eTale emAM sAruM kaMI evuM karI lo ke jethI sugaMdhI mahIM hoya. dADe dA'De vadhe, nA vadhe ? pheraphAra thAya ke nA thAya kaMI ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : Agale dahADe chokarAMne ema kahIe chIe ke bhaI, jo kAle divALI che, besatuM varSa che. kAkA joDe ApaNe bolatA nathI, paNa kAle 'je je' karI Avaje. te evuM ApaNe Agale dahADe vAta karIe chIe ke nathI karatAM ? to bIje dahADe e pramANe thAya che. "je je karI AvIe chIe ne te dahADe kaSAya kazuM dekhAtA nathI. Akho dahADo kevo sAro jAya che, lUgaDAM sArAM paheravAnAM maLe che, sAruM khAvAnuM maLe che, loko mAna Ape che. A to eka ja dahADo divALIe ApaNe nakkI karIe chIe, to pachI evuM kAyamane mATe nakkI kare to ? paNa A to kaheze ke, basa kALa ja kharAba che. alyA, tuM ja nakkI karIne ! ApaNe evuM kahIe ke divALI kharAba che, divALI kharAba che. eTale pachI divALI kharAba ja thAya ne ? paNa ApaNA lokone to "eya, Aje divALI che ho !' te lokonI laDhavADo ya pAchI te dahADe baMdha thaI jAya che, ne kAkA joDe nA bolatA hoya paNa te dahADe vAtacIta cAlu thaI jAya che. evuM nathI banatuM ? ane divALIno eka dahADo nakkI karyuM, te enA paDaghA to cAra dahADA sudhI paDyA kare che, pAMcama sudhI to jayAM jaIe chokarAM sudhare, karo sArA bhAva; viphare prakRti jo karo dabAva! praznakartA : ApaNe IcchIe ke e loko sudhare, samAjane upayogI thAya. dAdAzrI : sudhAravA mATe ApaNI dazA bahu UMcI joIe, tyAre mANasa sudhare !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra tyAM sAruM khAvAnuM maLe, kapaDAM ya te dahADe to sArA IstrIbaMdha hoya. eTale kALane zuM karavA doSa do cho ? kALane to nakkI karI pheravo. ApaNe ema nakkI karIe chIe ke bhaI kAle ApaNe mAtherAna cAlo, to javAya che ke nathI javAtuM ? badhAe nakkI karyuM hoya to savAramAM badhuM bheguM thaI jAya che ne ? eTale kALane nahIM, potAnA pariNAmane jovAnAM che. ApaNe chokarAo mATe bhAva karyA karavA ke chokarAnI buddhi savaLI karo. ema karatAM karatAM bahu dahADA thAya ne, asara paDyA vagara rahetI nathI. e to dhIme dhIme samajaze. tamAre bhAvanA karyA karavI. emanI kheMca karazo to avaLAM cAlaze. bAkI saMsAra nabhAvI levA jevo che jema tema karIne. praznakartA ane pharajiyAta che ne, saMsAra to ? dAdAzrI : chUTako ja nathI ne ! avaLuM karIe to sAmo thaI jAya, mAra mAre hauM. bhAna ja nathI ne ! chokarAMne kazuM bhAna nathI. mAre zuM thAya ne zuM nahi evuM bhAna ja nathI, saMskAra nathI. tenAM karatAM sIdhesIdhuM jema tema patAvI levuM ApaNe. pAMca-pacAsa varSano enI joDe meLApa. eTale koI bApa tamane kaheto hoya ne, to ene kahevuM ke patAvI dejo. nahIM ? dAdAzrI : vaLI sudhAranArA hota to sudharyo nA hota ! e Avo thaI jAta kyAMthI te ?! sudhAranAranA chokarA ne kevAM DAhyAM hoya ! praznakartA : e enA AvAM karmanA udayathI Avo thaI gayo chokaro, to ene sudhAravAnA bhAva karavA joIe ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : bhAva karavA joIe. badhAne to bhAva hoya ja, enA mA-bApane hoya ja bhAva. paNa rasto nA jANato hoya. rasto jANyA vagaranA bhAva zuM karavAnA te ! jJAna jANyA sivAyano bhAva karavAno zuM te ! praznakartA : chokaro vadhAre bagaDe nahIM evI rItanA ene sudhAravo, evuM ApaNe karavuM joIe ke nahIM ? evI bhAvanA rAkhavI joIe ? dAdAzrI : badhuM karavuM joIe. paNa e phaLadAyI hovuM joIe. nahIM to ulaTo vadhAre bagADe. eTale sudhAravAnI AvaData hovI joIe ke nA hovI joIe ? ane sudhAravAnI AvaDatavALAne tyAM bagaDe ja nahIM chokarAM. praznakartA : je vakhate bagaDato hato, te ghaDIe sudhAravAnI e AvaData nahotI. dAdAzrI : ApaNane AvaData jo AvI hoya to sudhAravo. nahIM to sudhAravA vadhAre bagaDe evuM na karavuM. ApaNe ene sudhAratAM jaIe, ane e rAIphala laIne pharI vaLe ApaNane, evuM na karavuM joIe. praznakartA eTale sudhAravA mATenI bhAvanA, prayatno karavA joIe kharAM ? dAdAzrI : prayatna karavA joIe, paNa prayatna ene nukazAna kare evA na hovA joIe. ene helpa thAya evA karavAM joIe. tyAM e prayatnamAM samatA rAkhavI bahu muzkela che, samatA rAkhavI joIe. ame to mAthe hAtha pheravIne kahIe ke bhaI, A nA thavuM joIe. premathI kahIe, amane dveSa nA hoya enI para ane tamArAmAM dveSa hoya ja ene mATe, A kharAba che eTale. paNa e dveSa kADhI nAkhIne jo karo dArUDIyo dIkaro, chatAM ta kiMcit dveSa; premathI vaLe, te hisAbe zUnya zeSa ! chokaro tamane duHkha deto hoya ne, dArU pIne AvIne, to tame mane kaho ke A chokaro mane bahu du:kha de. huM kahuM ke bhUla tamArI che. mATe zAMtipUrvaka bhogavI lo chAnAmAnA, bhAva bagADyA sivAya. A mahAvIrano kAyado ane jagatano kAyado judo che. jagatamAM loka kaheze ke 'chokarAnI bhUmsa che' evuM kahenArA tamane maLI Avaze. ane tame bahu TAITa thaI jazo ke "ohoho ! chokarAnI bhUla ja che. A mArI samajaNa sAcI che." moTA samajaNavALA ! bhagavAna kahe che, 'tArI bhUla che.' praznakartA : to pachI chokarAne samajaNa ApavI, ene sudhAravo ke

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra to kAma thAya. dveSanI ulaTI karI nAkhavI joIe. dAdA greTesTa DaoNkaTara oNpha mAInDa! dareka dardI para sarakhA kAInDa! praznakartA : hA, tamane ja soMpIe. amArAthI nahIM thAya. dAdAzrI : haM. eTale ame rIpera karI ApIe to rAge paDI jAya. kAraNa ke ame DaoNkaTara kahevAIe, DaoNkaTara opha mAInDa, bebIne rIpera karI ApI. have paisA nahIM bagADe. pahelA to paisA ene ApIe to sArA kAmamAM vApare nahIM ane dhULadhANI karI nAkhe ane have to amArI pAse Ave to zemAM tuM vAparuM ? praznakartA : tamane maLavA mATe. dAdAzrI : hA. sArA kAmamAM vAparI dauM, nahIM ! have pelA kAmamAM nA vAparuM. evuM to rIpera ame karIe chIe. bebI paisA nahIM bagADe e khAtarI have. soLa varSe chokarAMte rAkhe, phrenDa tarIke; uparIpaNuM nahi, to bagaDe ta jarAM ke! eka bhAI AvelA. te kahe ke eka chokaro Ama kare che ne bIjo tema kare che, emane zI rIte sudhAravA ? meM kahyuM, 'tame evA chokarA zuM karavA lAvyA ? chokarA sArA vINIne ApaNe nA laIe ?" A hAphUsanI kerIo badhI eka jAtanI hoya che te badhI mIThI joIne, cAkhI karIne badhI lAvIe. paNa tame be khATI lAvyA, be UtarelI lAvyA, tUrI lAvyA, be gaLI lAvyA, pachI enA rasamAM barakata Ave kharI ? pachI vaDhavaDhA karIe eno zo artha ? ApaNe khATI kerI lAvyA pachI khATIne khATI jANavI tenuM nAma jJAna. ApaNane khATo svAda Avyo te joyA karavAnuM. A prakRtine joyA karavAnI che. koInA hAthamAM sattA nathI. avasthA mAtra kudaratI racanA che. AmAM koInuM kazuM cAle nahIM, pheraphAra thAya nahIM ne pAchuM 'vyavasthita' che. kerI kharAba nIkaLe to ApaNe nAkhI daIe, mUA pAMca Dolara bagaDyA ApaNA. paNa dhaNI kharAba nIkaLe to zuM karAya, kaMI nAkhI devAya ? praznakartA : chokarAone kahIe tame sAcavIne cAlo, badhI bAbatamAM to e lokone game nahIM eTaluM ja, bIjuM kaMI nathI. jarUriyAta to badhI e lokone maLe che. "paisAno sadupayoga karo" ema kahIe ame. - dAdAzrI : hA. e barAbara che. paNa atyAre ApaNI pAse evuM che ne ke e kahevAthI jo kadI rIpera na thatuM hoya to bIjI kaMI davA karIne paNa rIpera karavuM paDe. praznakartA : ne A oTomeTika ja thaI gaI. - dAdAzrI : nA, nA. e to rIperanuM mane soMpo to huM karI ApuM. tame rIpera karo to vadhAre bagaDe. praznakartA : mA-bApa ane chokarAMo vacce kevuM rIlezana hovuM joIe ? e lokonI lAIphamAM ApaNe keTale sudhI inTaraphIyara thavuM joIe ? kaI uMmara sudhI ane kevI rIte ! dAdAzrI : soLa varSa pachI ApaNAM phrenDa tarIke gaNavo joIe. mAbApanA hakko choDI devA paDe ! ane pachI phrenDa tarIke rahevuM joIe. praznakartA : soLa varSa pachI chokaruM kaMI kharAba kAma karatuM hoya, jemAM ene hArma (nukazAna) thavAnuM hoya to ApaNe e rokavuM ? dAdAzrI : phrenDa eTale phrenDa, ejha e phrenDa tarIke rokavAnuM. to vAMdho nahIM Ave. phAdhara banIne kahezo to thoDo vAMdho Avaze. praznakartA : phrenDa tarIke rokavAnI kozISa karIe ane nA mAne to ene karavA devuM khoTuM ? dAdAzrI : to pachI ene karavA devAnuM, e to cAlyA ja karavAnuM. nahIM to ApaNe ene jo kadI mAra mArIzuM, to sAmo thaze agara e kArya gupta rAkhe, chAnuM rAkhaze. ene samaja pADavI joIe phrenDa tarIke

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 101 10) mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ke AmAM zuM phAyado ? AmAM jela thAya, evuM badhuM thAya evI samaja pADavI joIe phrenDa tarIke, phAdhara-madhara tarIke nahIM. phAdhara-madharano phorsa hoya che. e phorsa nA hovo joIe. praznakartA : jema gAMdhIjI pAse emanI bAe promIsa lIdhuM hatuM ke 'huM dArU nahIM pIuM, mAMsa nahIM khAuM." evI rIte ApaNe ApaNA chokarAone kahIe ke tuM koleja jAya che, to mane promIsa Apa ke huM have dArU nahIM pIuM, mAMsa nahIM khAuM koI divasa. to chokaro nA pADe ke huM evuM promIsa nahIM ApuM, tyAre ApaNe zuM karavuM ? ApaNane duHkha thAya evuM kare che ! dAdAzrI : chokaro nA pADe eTale ApaNe kahevAnuM baMdha karI devAnuM. ApaNe zuM levAdevA chokarA joDe ? eka kalAka AvaDI AvaDI gALo bhAMDe to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : jatAM rahe. dAdAzrI : ApaNe bolyA nathI tyAM sudhI e phrenDa jevo rahe. praznakartA: to ene paisA ApavAnuM, kolejanI phI ApavAnI badhuM baMdha karI devAnuM ? dAdAzrI : nA. e to pharajiyAta che, e gALo bhAMDe to ya ApavuM paDe. iTa ijha e DyuTI, DyuTI bAunDa, yu Ara DyuTI bAunDa. e gALo bhADe to ya ApavA paDe. tame phrenDazIpa karazo to sudharaze. phrenDazIpa haze te chokarA sudharaze. bAkI phAdhara-madhara tarIke raho cho, ropha pADavA jAva cho, e jokhama che badhuM ! phrenDazIpa tarIke rahevuM joIe ane bahAra phrenDa khoLe ja nahIM, e rIte rahevuM joIe. A phrenDa to e... pAnA ramavA joIe, badhuM ja enI joDe karavuM joIe ! tuM AvyA pachI ame cA pIzuM, evuM kahevuM joIe. ApaNe badhAe sAthe cA pIvAnI. "yora phrenDa hoya e rIte vartavuM joIe to e chokarA tamArAM raheze. nahIM to chokarAM tamArAM-koI chokaruM koInuM thAya ja nahIM. koI marI gayo, enI pAchaLa chokaro marI gayo ? badhA ya ghera AvIne nAsto kare, A chokarAM e chokarA che nahIM. A to khAlI kudaratI niyamane AdhAre dekhAya che eTaluM ja. 'yora phrenDa' tarIke rahevuM joIe. pahelAM phrenDa tarIke tame nakkI karo to rahI zakAya. jema phrenDane rIsa caDe evuM bolatA nathI. e avaLuM karato hoya to ApaNe phrenDane samajAvIe keTaluM ? e mAne tyAM sudhI. nA mAne to ApaNe pachI kahIe, tArI marajInI vAta ! ane manamAM phrenDa thavA mATe paheluM zuM karavuM paDe ? bAhya vyavahAramAM huM eno phAdhara chuM, paNa aMdarakhAne manamAM ApaNe mAnavuM ke huM eno chokaro chuM. tyAre phrenDazIpa thAya, nahIM to thAya nahIM ! phAdhara phrenDa kevI rIte thAya ? tyAre kahe, levala laIe tyAre. levala kevI rIte levAya ? tyAre kahe, enA manamAM evuM mAne ke huM Ano chokaro thauM chuM, enuM kahe to kAma thaI jAya. keTalAka loko kahe che ne kAma thaI ya jAya che ! praznakartA : Ape kahyuM ne soLa varSa pachI enA phrenDa thavAnuM, paNa soLa varSa pahelAM paNa phrenDazIpa ja rAkhavAnI ! dAdAzrI : e to bahu sAruM. paNa daza-agiyAra varSa sudhI to ApaNe phrenDazIpa rakhAya nahIM. tyAM sudhI bhUlacUka thAya. eTale ene samajaNa pADavI joIe. ekAda dhola mAravI ya paDe daza-agiyAra varSa sudhI. e bApanI mUcho kheMcato hoya to dhola mAravI paDe. bApa thavA gayelAne, e mAra khAIne marI gayelA. A gAyo-bheMsoe bApa nA thAya. bAra mahinA pachI phrenDazIpa ! vAcharaDuM nAnuM hoya tyAM sudhI cha mahinA sudhI sAcave. evuM ApaNe enI buddhi jarA khIle nahIM tyAM sudhI.... dAdAe ApI badhAM bApAte cAvI; chokarAMta gaNa dAdo, to jaIza phAvI! sudhAravAnA to prayatna badhAe karavA joIe. dareka mANase, paNa prayatno saphaLa thavA joIe. bApa thayo ane chokarAne sudhAravA mATe e bApapaNuM choDI de ema che ? 'huM phAdhara chuM" e choDI de kharo ? praznakartA : jo e sudharato hoya to, aham bhAva, dveSa badhuM kADhIne ene sudhAravAno prayatno karavo joIe. dAdAzrI : tamAre bApa tarIkenA bhAva choDI devA paDe.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 103 102 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA: 'A mAro dIkaro' ema mAnavAnuM nahIM ne 'huM bApa chuM' ema nahIM mAnavAnuM? dAdAzrI : to to enA jevo ekuM ya niyama ja nahIM. praznakartA: to bApe kevI rIte bApa thavuM ? bApe bApa thavA zuM karavuM? dAdAzrI : eka dAkhalo ApuM, tamane helpa kare, tamane eDajasTa thAya eTalA mATe. amArA eka cheTenA bhatrIjAno dIkaro hato ane khAsa karIne mArAthI be-traNa varSa nAno. bhatrIjAno dIkaro eTale mane dAdA kahe. eTale huM jyAre jauM to enI meLe dAdAnA premathI bola bola karyA kare. dAdA kyAranA AvyA, dAdA Ama che, tema che. jANe potAnA ja dAdA hoya evuM, eTale pachI mane bojo vadhavA mAMDyo ke sAluM vAreghaDIe dAdA, dAdA kare. eTale mArA mana upara bojo caDhavA mAMDyo. mane upakAra caDhatyA kare ke "arere, dAdA thayA paNa AnuM kazuM kAma karyuM nahIM ApaNe." eTale bojo vadhe ke nA vadhe ? praznakartA : vadhe. dAdAzrI : A chokaro Akho dahADo bApujI, bApujI kare ne, to ApaNo bojo vadhI jAya te vakhate. eTale pachI meM vicAra karyo ke A bojo thaze. to have zuM karIza ? A to mAthA upara bojo caDhato jaze dahADe, dahADe. e to 'dAdA, dAdA' kahyA ja karavAno. to A bojo utAravo kema ? AvuM bane ke nA bane ? pachI ApaNI AMkha narama thaI jAya. eTale satya bolatA paNa DarIe ApaNe. temane samaja paDIne ? eTale A prazna mane mUMjhavelo, aDhAra-vIsa varSanI uMmare. kAraNa ke huM ghaNAM kharAno dAdo thauM. eTale loko 'dAdA, dAdA' kare. keTalAka mANaso 'dAdA, dAdA' kare ne te upalaka jevo vyavahAra rAkhe to mane bojo vadhI nA jAya. paNa A to jANe potAnA dAdA hoya evuM premathI bole ne, to mane bahu bojo lAgavA mAMDyo. pachI vicAra karyo. meM kahyuM, 'have A bojo zI rIte utare ?" ane ema kahIe ke "tuM mane dAdA nA kahIza." to pachI e ya khoTuM kahevAya. vyavahAramAM tamane dAdA nA kahuM to huM zuM kahuM ? eTale Ame ya guMcAmaNa ane Ame ya guMcAmaNa ubhI thaI. evA be-cAra jaNa hatA te mane premathI dAdA kahe. te mAro svabhAva badho premavALo ane bIjA badhA to upalaka 'dAdA kyAranA AvyA cho ?" huM kahuM ke parama dahADe Avyo. e pachI kazuM ya nahIM, laTakatI salAma. paNa A to regyulara salAma kare che. meM zodhakhoLa karI ke e mane dAdA kahe, ne huM manathI ene dAdA mAnuM. e jyAre mane dAdA kahe tyAre huM ene manathI dAdA kahuM eTale plasa-mAInsa karyA karuM. cheda uDADI dauM. huM ene manathI dAdA kahuM. eTale mAruM mana bahu sAruM rahevA mAMDyuM. halakuM thavA mAMDyuM. tema tema pelAne eTrekzana vadhAre thavA mAMDyuM. huM dAdA ene manathI mAnuM eTale pachI enA manamAM mArI vAta pahoMce ne ! ohoho ! keTalo mArI upara bhAva che emane. A bahu samajavA jevI vAta che. AvI TUMkI vAta Ama nIkaLe koI vakhata. to A kahI dauM. tamane AvI jo goThavaNI karatAM AvaDe to kalyANa thaI jAya evuM che. eTale pachI zuM karyuM ? Avo vyavahAra cAle eTale enA manamAM ema ja lAge ke dAdA jevA koI mANasa maLe nahIM koI. have enA potAnA kAkA hatA. eka ja peDhI daranA. sagA kAkA nahIM, paNa enA phAdharanA kAkAnA dikarA eTale eka ja peDhI dUranA, huM cothI peDhIno dAdo thauM. have enA kAkA hatA e zuM kare ? ene tyAM utare AphrikAthI Ave tyAre. te enA kAkA phakta enAthI pAMca varSa moTA ane mArI uMmaranA. te ene tyAM utare pachI veDhamIo jame. kAkA Ave eTale pelI bhatrIjAnI vahu to veDhamIo ja banAve ne ! te veDhamIo jame, sArI rIte, dUdhapAka banAve, zrIkhaMDa-pUrInuM jamaNa jamatA jAya. cAnAstA karatA jAya ane pachI A kAkA zuM kare sAMja paDe te, 'tAro hisAba dekhADa mane. A tane ATalo pagAra maLe che te tuM A badhuM pUruM zI rIte karuM chuM. tamAre cA-pANIne A badhA zuM lapharAM ? jyAre rokAvuM chuM, tuM mane A veDhamIo khavaDAvuM chuM." te pelAne manamAM thAya ke A kaI jAtano kAko ? AmAM mAro khoTo bagADa nathI. cA-pANI to A mArI vahu AvI tene nA joIe ?! paNa kAkA zrIkhaMDa-pUrIo khAtA jAya ne kaca kaca karatA jAya ke AvuM AvuM che te kharcA rAkhazo, tame zI rIte jIvazo, zI rIte A nokarImAM posAya ? evuM jyAre hoya tyAre kakaLATa kare ane jamatI vakhate veDhamI jame. pelA bicArA ema jANe ke

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104 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 105 ApaNA kAkA AvyA che, eTale jamADo barAbara ane pelA kakaLATa karyA vagara rahe nahIM. alyA mUA, veDhamIo khAuM chuM ne vaLI pAchuM AvuM boluM chuM ? e mAro bhatrIjo thato hato. e je emano kAko hato, te mAro bhatrIjo thato hato. mUA khauM chuM ne vaLI ene DaphaLAvuM chuM ? eTale pachI AvuM DaphaLAya DaphaLAya kare ane kAkAno ropha mAratA jAya, kAkA thavA phare. e zuM kare ? praznakartA : kAkA thavA phare. dAdAzrI : ane jema bApa TaiDakAve, ema kAko TeDakAve. AvuM kaMI jIvavAnuM phAve ? nA jIvAya ne ! eTale pelo bicAro kaMTALI gayo. A kAkA herAna karI nAkhe che. pachI e bhatrIjAne thoDuM beeka hajAranuM devuM thayuM haze. te kAkAe eka phero kahyuM, 'huM tAruM devuM ApavA taiyAra chuM. tuM mane devuM tAruM kahe. kone kone che e ?' eTale pelAne jANe ke A kAkA to bole che avaLuM ane pachI Apato ya nathI ane enA karatAM ApaNe nA kahevuM e zuM khoTuM. ApaNI AbarUmAM rahIe e sAruM. eTale pelAe kahyuM nahIM. bApa karatAM ya vadhAre jora karato hato kAko. pelAne bApa marI gayelo. enA bApa karatAM ya vadhAre jora... pelo bhatrIjo badhuM Ama zaramathI nabhAvI le. bicAro bole nahIM, nabhAvI le. paNa enA manamAM ene prema nA rahyo kAkA upara jarAM ya. eTale A bhatrIjAne be-eka hajAra rUpiyAnuM devuM thaI gayeluM. te jamAnAmAM be hajAra devuM eTale vadhAre thAya ema, ogaNIsaso batrIsatetrIsanI sAlanI vAta karuM chuM. te be hajAranuM devuM vadhAre paDatuM gaNAya ne ! eTale pachI ene enA kAkAe AphrikAthI AvIne kahyuM ke tAruM devuM keTaluM che, mAre ApI devuM che. eTale pelo kahe che ke mAre kaMI khAsa devuM che nahIM. eTale pachI mane kahevA mAMDyA enA kAkA, je mAro bhatrIjo thAya. mane kahe che, "A zuM samaje che, A devuM che, ane mAre enAthI aDadhA to paisA ApavA che, hajAreka huM ApuM paNa nA pADe che. A kaI jAtano mANasa che. meM kahyuM, A ya duniyA navI jAtanI ne ! kAM to ene bhatrIjo thatAM nathI AvaDatuM ne kAM to tane kAkA thatAM nathI AvaDatuM. kaMIka bhUla che AmAM. tyAre pachI pelo kAko kahe che, "kaMI kaheto ja nathI enI bimArI aDavA deto ya nathI. kevo Ama naphaphaTa mANasa che te !" meM kahyuM, 'evo nathI bhaI, huM evo nathI mAnato.' tyAre kahe, 'tamane enA upara vizvAsa che. meM kahyuM, 'so TakA vizvAsa che." eTalI vAramAM e to AvIne uparathI utaryo nIce. e jato hato. meM kahyuM, 'bhaI, ahIM Aya bA, tAre devuM che ?" tyAre kahe, 'hA mAre che devuM.' 'keTaluMka che te ?" tyAre kahe, 'dAdA, phalANAnuM, phalANAnuM A badhuM thaIne soLaso-sAraso rUpiyA devuM che, vadhAre che nahIM." pachI meM kahyuM ke 'tuM jA." pachI pelAne kahyuM, 'jo tuM kahuM chuM ne ke nAlAyaka mANasa che. A to lAyaka mANasa che.' tyAre kahe, 'tamArI pAse zI rIte kabUla kare che ane mane kaheto nathI !' meM kahyuM, 'cothI peDhIno dAdo chuM. tuM pahelI peDhIno kAko eTale mArI pAse AvuM kabUla kare che.' tyAre kahe, "nA, nA. e tame kaMIka karAmata karI mArI para bhAva ja nahIM rAkhato, huM ApavA pharuM to ya ' meM kahyuM, 'nA le, koI kAko ya nA le. tuM to AMgaLI vALIne mArIne ApavA mAMguM chuM. hAtha jhAlI le pahelAM." pachI evuM kahyuM ke 'pacAsa ApuM chuM, ApI Ava jA! hAtha dhara, bIjA pacAsa ApuM." te alyA A to kSatriya putra che. ghara vecI deze, paNa AvuM koI nA le. AvuM letuM haze ? te pachI mane kahe che, kaMIka tamArI pAse karAmata che. meM kahyuM, tuM kAko thaIne beTho chuM. moTA kAkA AvyA ! heMDatA AvaDe nahIM ne moTA kAkA thaIne beThA che te ! tyAre kahe che, 'tame dAdA nahIM thayA ?" meM kahyuM. mane e dAdA kahe che ane huM manathI ene dAdA mAnuM chuM, ema karIne plasa-mAyanasa karuM chuM. huM zuM karuM chuM ? e mane moMDhe kahI zake. mArAthI moMDhe nA kahevAya, nahIM to bahAra khoTuM dekhAya ne ! eTale manathI huM ene dAdA mArA mAnuM chuM ane e mane moMDhe kahe che, plasa-mAyanasa karI nAkhuM chuM. ethI e bicArAne ene ema nA lAge ke A mArA virodhamAM che ane tuM to DaphaLAvuM chuM. plasa-mAyanasa karajo, badhuM cAlaze. bIjI koI karAmata nathI. e mane dAdA kahe, to huM ene dAdA mAnuM. tuM kAko chuM to e tAro kAko che, evuM mAnI le ! Avo kImIyo

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106 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 107 jANIe ja nahIM. huM AjathI have A kImIyo vAparIza. te meM kahyuM, kImIyo vAparazo to badhuM ya cAle, A duniyAmAM badhuM ya cAle. A to eka vAta nIkaLI tyAre ja ne ? plasa-mAInasanI vAta. A tamane kAma lAgaze A. tame jo jo to kharAM, kaMI eka moTo camatkAra che A. mArA eka eka vAkyamAM camatkAra thaI jaze. A nathI lAgatuM camatkAra jevI vAta ! tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : che. dAdAzrI : potAnuM AmAM kazuM bagaDe nahIM. A to ekalA bApa thaIne, ekAMtika ! alyA, anekAMta rAkhane ! eTale A mane te dahADe e nAnI uMmaramAM che te meM ema nakkI kareluM ke A bojo vadhe che te meM pachI AMtarIkathI ene dAdA tarIke mAnyuM. e mane kahe, te pahelAM huM ene dAdA kahI dauM. ene manathI eTale manamAM hiNapada Ave ja nahIM ene. ane koI dahADo meM ene chaMcheDyo nathI ke dAdA tarIke ene meM TaiDakAvyo nathI. evuM koI dahADo bane nahIM, prema ja hoya. TeDakAvIe kyAre, ekAMtika thaI jAya, huM dAdo thaI jauM ane e pautra thaI jAya eTale pachI TaiDakAvIe to dhAMdhala cAlu thaI jAya. bolo, have AvI samaja nA hoya tyAM sudhI dIkarAnA bApa thatAM zI rIte AvaDe ? praznakartA : atyAre sAthe rahevuM hoya to bApe dIkarAnA dIkarA tarIke rahevuM joIe, eka ja rIta che. dAdAzrI : hA. meM pelAne kahyuM ke, 'e mane dAdA kahe che, te ghaDIe huM ene dAdA mAnuM chuM. e plasa-mAInasa thaI gayuM eTale mane enI tarapha tiraskAra rahe nahIM. 'huM dAdo chuM' evuM mane bhAna rahe nahIM. tyAre badhI kaLAo joIe. A to ema ne ema bApa thaI gayA. e kUtarAM bApa thayelAM ja che ne ! gadheDAM badhAM ya bApa thAya che ne ! chokaro ApaNI pAsethI khase nahIM, evo bApa joIe. huM ene dAdo mAnuM eTale mArI joDe beTho hoya to e khase nahIM ane bahAragAma gayA hoya to enA kAkAnI pathArI nA kare, mArI pahelI karI nAkhe. juone, enuM devuM mane kahI dIdhuM ne ! eno kAko to sajjaDa ja thaI gayo ! 'tame kaMIka cAvI mAro cho.' kahe che. kahyuM, 'dekha amArI cAvI !" evuM nA AvaDe ? A ya kaLA che ne ! A kaLA nAnI uMmaramAM mane AvaDI. praznakartA : te vakhate tamArI uMmara keTalI haze ? dAdAzrI : e 20-22 varSa. huM jANuM ke huM dAdo thaI besuM, to pachI e mAro pAro vadhato ja jAya ne eno ocho thato jAya. enuM levala kyAre Ave ? 'Avo dAdA, Avo dAdA' kahe, eTale thaI gayo dAdo ! UMdhA pheravo to ya dAdA, evA dAdA ApaNe nathI joItA ! plasamAInasathI uDADI do, nahIM to sAmA mATe tiraskAra thAya. praznakartA : bApa evuM vicAre ke chokaro mane kema eDajasTa nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : e to enuM bApapaNuM che eTale. bebhAnapaNuM che. bApapaNuM eTale bebhAnapaNuM. dhaNIpaNuM e bebhAnapaNuM. jyAM 'paNuM' AvyuM e bebhAnapaNuM. praznakartA : ulaTo bApa ema kahe ke huM tAro bApa chuM, tuM mAruM nA mAnuM ? mAruM mAna nA rAkhuM ? dAdAzrI : 'tuM jANato nathI, huM tAro bApa thAuM ?" tyAre kahe, 'tamArA bApA ya jANatA hatA." eka jaNane to meM evuM kahetAM sAMbhaLelo, 'tuM jANato nathI, huM tAro bApa thAuM ?" kaMI jAtanA cakkaro pAkyA che ?! AvuM ya kahevuM paDe ? je jJAna pragaTa AkhI duniyA jANe che, te ya kahevuM paDe ?! praznakartA : dAdA, enI AgaLano DAyaloga paNa meM sAMbhaLelo ke tamane koNe kIdhuM hatuM ke pedA karo amane ?!! dAdAzrI : evuM kahe eTale ApaNI AbarU zuM rahI pachI ? praznakartA : pachI to jIvavAno artha ja nahIMne ?

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108 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : artha ja nahIM. aisI duniyAmAM rahevuM, enAM karatAM vairAga laI levo sAro. prema bharelI duniyA joIe ! AvI duniyA ?! - gharamAM 'tame moTA" saMbhaLAya che e ja tamArI bhUla che. tame 'moTA' evuM sAMbhaLo ja nahIM. e kahe, teno vAMdho nahIM. paNa tame ene sAMbhaLo nahIM, jo tamane roga caDhato hoya to ane jo roga nA caDhato hoya to sAMbhaLo nirAMte. e zabda roga karanArA hoya to tame nA sAMbhaLo. nahIM to 'tame moTA, huM nAno' evuM che te plasa-mAInasa karI nAkho. to bojo vadhaze nahIM ne badhAne AnaMda raheze. A samajaNa paDI plasa-mAInasanI ? samaja nahIM paDI, nahIM !? A plasa-mAInasanI sisTama, jo tamane AvaDe to svIkArI lejo. mArI pAse A vyavahArika jJAna badhuM jANavAne mATe bahu TAIma hoya, to lAbha levo. tane gamyuM ke badhuM ? praznakartA : hA. () premathI sudhAro bhUlakAMte ! premathI choDavAM ya uchare kAThAM; akaLAye sahune lAge mAThAM! praznakartA : vyavahAramAM koI khoTuM karatuM hoya to tene Takora karavI paDe che. to enAthI tene duHkha thAya che. to te kevI rIte eno nikAla karavo ? dAdAzrI : Takora karavAmAM vAMdho nathI, paNa ApaNane AvaDavuM joIe ne. kahetA AvaDavuM joIene, zuM ? praznakartA H kaI rIte ? dAdAzrI : bAbAne kahIe, 'tArAmAM akkala nathI, gadheDo chuM." AvuM bolIe to pachI zuM thAya te ! ene ya ahaMkAra hoya ke nahIM ? tamane ja tamAro bosa kahe ke "tamArAmAM akkala nathI, gadheDo chuM." evuM kahe to zuM thAya? nA kahevAya AvuM. Takora karatAM AvaDavI joIe. praznakartA : kaI rIte karavAnI Takora ?

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110 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 111 pariNAma nathI AvatuM. dAdAzrI : nA Ave. pariNAma premathI karyA sivAya Ave nahIM. eka choDavo Ucheravo hoyane, to ya tame premathI Uchero, to bahu sAro Uchare. paNa ema ne ema pANI reDone, bUmAbUma karo, to kazuM nA thAya. eka choDavo Ucheravo hoya to ! tame kaho ke ohoho !!! sarasa thayo choDavo. te ene sAruM lAge che! e ya sarasa phUlo Ape moTAM moTAM !! to A pachI manuSyone to keTalI badhI asara thatI haze ?! satAthI ya caDhe premano pAvarI hArTa dekhe tyAM premano zAvara! dAdAzrI : ene besADavo. pachI kahIe, ApaNe hindustAnanA loka, Arya prajA ApaNI, ApaNe kaMI anADI nathI ane ApaNAthI AvuM na thAya kaMI. Amatema badhuM samajAvI ane premathI kahIe tyAre rAge paDe. nahIM to tame to mAra, lephaTa enDa rAITa, lephaTa enDa rAITa laI lo te cAlatuM haze ? praznakartA : ahIMnA bALako dalIlabAjI bahu kare che, ArgyumenTa bahu kare che. A tame zenA lekacara mArI rahyA cho, kahe ? dAdAzrI : dalIlabAjI bahu kare. chatAM premathI zIkhavADo ne to dalIlabAjI ochI thaI jaze. A dalIlabAjI tamAruM riekazana che. tame atyAra sudhI ene dabaDAya dabaDAya karyo che ne. e enA magajamAMthI jatuM nathI, bhUMsAtuM ja nathI. eTale pachI e dalIlabAjI ene lIdhe kare che. mArI joDe eke ya chokaruM dalIlabAjI nahIM karatuM. kAraNa ke huM sAcA premathI A tamArI badhA joDe vAto karI rahyo chuM. praznakartA chokarAo hoya, to enI joDe kevI rIte Takora karavI ? dAdAzrI : zI Takora karavAnI ? praznakartA H Takora karavI paDene, ke enI bhUla thatI hoya to ? dAdAzrI : te ApaNe emane ema pUchavuM ke tame A badhuM karo cho e tamane ThIka lAge che, tame vicArIne karyuM A badhuM ? tyAre e kahe ke, mane ThIka nahIM lAgatuM. to ApaNe kahIe ke bhaI, to zA mATe ApaNe nakAmuM Ama karavuM ? ema pote jarA vicArIne kahone, pote nyAyAdhIza hoya che badhAM, samaje che badhAM, pote khoTuM thayuM hoya ne to ene samaje to kharo ja. paNa tame ema kaho ke tuM mUrkha chuM ane gadheDo chuM. teM A kema karyuM ? tyAre UlTo pakaDa pakaDe. nA, 'huM karuM chuM' e ja kharuM che, jAva kaheze. UMdhuM kare pachI kema ghara calAvavuM te AvaDatuM nathI. jIvana kema jIvavuM te AvaDatuM nathI. eTale jIvana jIvavAnI cAvI mUkelI che badhI AmAM, kema karIne jIvana jIvavuM te ?! praznakartA : ahIM amerikAmAM kolejomAM 'pablIka rIlezana'nA klAsIsa cAle che. pablIka sAthe saMbaMdho kevI rIte rAkhavA ? to ya kaMI sAmAno ahaMkAra Ubho ja nA thAya. sattAvAhI avAja amAro nA hoya. eTale sattA nA hovI joIe. chokarAne tame kahone to sattAvAhI avAja nA hovo joIe. praznakartA : hA, Ape kaheluM ke koI ApaNA mATe bAraNAM vAsI de. te pahelAM ApaNe aTakI javuM. dAdAzrI : hA, kharI vAta che e bAraNAM vAsI de te pahelAM ApaNe aTakI javuM joIe. te ene vAsI devAM paDe tyAM sudhI ApaNI mUrkhAI kahevAya, zuM ? AvuM nA hovuM joIe ane sattAvAhI avAja to koI dahADo mAro nIkaLyo ja nathI. eTale sattAvAhI avAja nA hovo joIe, nAno hoya tyAM sudhI sattAvAhI avAja dekhADavo paDe. cUpa besI jA. te ya huM to prema ja dekhADuM. huM to premathI vaza karavA mAMguM. praznakartA : premamAM jeTalo pAvara che eTalo pAvara sattAmAM nahIM ne ! dAdAzrI : nA. paNa tamane prema utpanna thAya nahIM tyAM sudhI pelo kacaro nIkaLI nA jAya tyAM sudhI ! kacaro badho kADhuM chuM ke nahIM kADhatI ! kevA sarasa hArTavALA, je hAlI hoyane tenI joDe Dakho nA karavo, tAre

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra enI joDe sAruM rahevuM. buddhivALA joDe Dakho karavo, karavo hoya to. 112 pahADa parathI patharo paDe; kotA para gusso kare? praznakartA : saMsAramAM rahyA pachI keTalIka javAbadArIo bajAvavI paDe che ane javAbadArIo adA karavI e eka dharma che. e dharma bajAvatAM kAraNe ke akAraNe kaTu vacana bolavAM paDe, to e pApa ke doSa che ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, kaDavuM vacana bolIe te ghaDIe ApaNuM moDhuM kevuM thaI jAya ? gulAbanA phUla jevuM, nahIM ? ApaNuM moDhuM bagaDe to jANavuM ke pApa lAgyuM. ApaNuM moDhuM bagaDe evI vANI nIkaLI tyAM ja jANavuM ke pApa lAgyuM. kaDavA vacana nA bolAya, dhIme rahIne Aste rahIne bolo. thoDAM vAkyo bolo paNa Aste rahIne samajIne kaho, prema rAkho, eka dahADo jItI zakazo. kaDavAzathI jItI nahIM zako. paNa e sAmo thaze ne avaLA pariNAma bAMdhaze. e chokaro avaLAM pariNAma bAMdhe. atyAre to nAnI uMmarano chuM te mane AvuM TaiDakAve che. moTI uMmarano thaIza eTale ApIza.' evA pariNAma mahIM bAMdhe. mATe AvuM nA karo, ene samajAvo. eka dahADo prema jItaze. be dahADAmAM ja enuM phaLa nahIM Ave. daza dahADe, paMdara dahADe, mahinA sudhI prema rAkhyA karo. juo, A premanuM zuM phaLa Ave e to juo. tamane gamI A vAta ? kaDavuM vacana bolIe to ApaNuM moDhuM nA bagaDI jAya ? praznakartA : ApaNe anekavAra samajAvIe, chatAM e nA samaje to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : samajAvavAnI jarUra ja nathI. prema rAkho chatAM ApaNe ene samajaNa pADIe dhIme rahIne. ApaNA paDozIne ya evuM kaDavuM vacana bolIe chIe ApaNe ? praznakartA : paNa evI dhIraja hovI joIe ne ? dAdAzrI : hamaNe DuMgara uparathI DhekhALo paDe ne e tamArA mAthe paDe to tame upara joI lo ne pachI konI upara krodha karo ? te ghaDIe mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra zAMta raho ne ? koI dekhAya nahIM eTale ApaNe jANIe ke A koIe nathI nAkhyo mATe enI meLe paDyo che. eTale eno ApaNe guno nathI gaNatA. tyAre pelo ya enI meLe ja paDe che. e to nAkhanAra to vyakti dekhAya che eTaluM ja che. bAkI enI meLe ja paDe che. tamArA ja hisAba cUkate thAya che badhA. A duniyAmAM badhA hisAba cUkate thaI rahyA che. navA hisAba baMdhAI rahyA che ne jUnA hisAba cUkate thaI rahyA che. mATe sIdhuM bolajo chokarAM joDe, sArI bhASA bolajo. devatAno saMga sIdho ke cIpiyAthI? keTalIka guMco, ukalo kImiyAthI! 113 praznakartA : ApaNI ekadama najIkanuM koI saguM che. gharamAM ApaNI javAbadArI che. enuM koI paNa vartana kharAba hoya to ApaNe ene sudhAravA mATe kahIe, enuM sAruM karavA mATe ene kahIe to UlaTuM ApaNI upara ja AvI jAya. e pote samaje che ke A gharamAM mArA vaDIla che, mArA sArA mATe kahe che, mane sudhAravA mATe kahe che. chatAM ya paNa jyAre kahIe tyAre enAthI ApaNA sAme vartana UMdhuM ja thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : e ApaNane kahetA AvaDatuM nathI eTale. sAmI vyaktinI jokhamadArI nathI. ApaNane kahetAM nA AvaDe pachI e to evuM ja thAya ne ! praznakartA : paNa dareka mANasane je je kahevAnuM che, e enI kepesITI je hoya e AdhAre ja kahevAI jAya che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa kalekTaranI mAphaka kaho eTale pachI e evuM ja kare ne ! tame jANe kalekTara ho evI rIte kaho. eTale evuM ja thaI jAya ne ! tame kArakunanI peTha kaho, to ene sAruM lAge. to e vAta sAMbhaLe. tamane kema lAge che ? kalekTaranI peTha kaho eTale vAMdhA ja paDe ne ! have A devatAne ApaNe aDIe ane ene oLakhI jaIe ke A to aDAya evo che ja nahIM, to pachI ApaNe pharI ene aDavuM joIe ?

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114 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 115 'mArAthI A nA bolAvuM joIe to ya bolAyuM.' e pastAya. dAdAtA kahayA mujaba kare; bola e ke jeno artha sare. praznakartA : nA, aDakAya nahIM. dAdAzrI : to pachI, jema devatAne mATe zuM karIe chIe ? cIpiyAthI pachI pakaDIe chIe ne ? e cIpiyo rAkho cho ne, tame ? cIpiyo nathI rAkhatA ? tyAre emane ema devatA hAthamAM jhAlavA jaIe to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : dAjhI ja javAya. dAdAzrI : eTale cIpiyo rAkhavo paDe. praznakartA H to e kaI jAtano cIpiyo rAkhavo joIe ? dAdAzrI : ApaNA gharano eka mANasa cIpiyA jevo che, e pote dAjhato nathI ane sAmAne dAjhelAne pakaDe che, ene bolAvIe ne kahIe ke 'bhaI, AnI joDe huM vAta karuM ne, tyAre tuM te ghaDIe TApazI pUravA lAgaje.' eTale pachI e rAge pADI Apaze. kaMIka rasto karavo paDe. ema ne ema devatAne hAthe pakaDavA jaIe to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : hA. e barobara che. paNa mArI joDe UMdhuM vartana karyA pachI ene duHkha thAya che ke meM khoTuM karyuM che. A gharamAM moTA che, ane emano mArA upara prema che, eTale mane e sudhAravA mAMge che. evuM e samaje che, chatAM ya enuM vartana to evuM ne evuM ja thAya che. dAdAzrI : hA, prema che ane hitanI vAta kare che. evuM ya samaje che, paNa A 'tArAmAM akkala nathI' evuM ene kema bolo cho ? enI joDe kalekTaranI peTha kema bolo cho ? ame to premathI kahIe chIe. to prema keLavo ne ! AvA sarasa samajadAra thaIne.... praznakartA: e kevI rIte thAya paNa ? huM ene kazuMka kahuM eTale e gusse thAya. eTale huM paNa gusse thaI jAuM chuM. dAdAzrI : tyAre gusse thaI jAva cho, eTale pachI nabaLAI hoya tyAM sudhI zuM thAya te ? mane to koI kahe, dAdAjI, tamArAmAM akkala nathI. to huM kahuM, 'besa, barAbara che tArI vAta.' kAraNa ke ene samajaNa nA hoya to evuM bole ne ! ane pachI pastAya pAcho. e kaheze ke, eTale tame thoDo prayoga mArA kahyA pramANe karone. praznakartA : zuM karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : premathI bolAvo ne ? praznakartA : e jANe che ke mAro enA para prema che. dAdAzrI : evo prema kAmano nahIM. kAraNa ke tame bolo cho te ghaDIe pachI kalekTaranA peTha bolo cho. 'tame Ama karo. tamArAmAM akkala nathI, Ama tema." evuM hatuM kaho cho ne ? praznakartA : evuM nathI kahetA. dAdAzrI : to zabda zuM bolo cho ? praznakartA : e to dareka prasaMganA AdhAre zabda nIkaLe. kaMIka bahu nukazAna karato hoya, nakAmuM khoTuM vAparI kADhato hoya, to huM ene ema kahuM ke 'A ATalI badhI moMghavArI che ane tuM ATalAM badhAM kema kharcA karI nAkhe che ?" evuM kahuM. dAdAzrI : pachI ethI e sudhare che ? praznakartA : nahIM. dAdAzrI : to pachI bolavuM nakAmuM che. eka mANasa mane bAvananI sAlamAM kaheto hato ke "A gavarnamenTa kharAba che ne javI ja joIe.' te bAvanathI bAsaThanI sAla sudhI bola bola karyA karyuM. eTale pachI meM ene kahyuM ke, 'roja tame mane A vAta karo cho, paNa tyAM kaMI pheraphAra thAya che ? A tamAruM boleluM tyAM kaMI phaLe che ?" tyAre e kahe che, "nA. e phaLyuM nahIM.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'to zuM karavA gA gA karyA karo cho ? tamArA karatAM to reDiyo sAro."

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116 mA-bApa chokarAMne vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 117 praznakartA : paNa mAre zuM karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNuM boleluM phaLatuM nA hoya to ApaNe baMdha thaI javuM joIe. ApaNe mUrkha chIe, ApaNane bolatA nathI AvaDatuM, mATe baMdha thaI javuM joIe. ApaNuM boleluM phaLe nahIM ane UlaTuM ApaNuM mana bagaDe, ApaNo AtmA bagaDe. AvuM koNa kare che ? eTale eka mANasa sudhArI zakAya evo A kALa nathI. e ja bagaDelo che, sAmAne zuM sudhAre che ? e ja 'vIkanesa'nuM pUtaLuM hoya. te sAmAne zuM sudhAre che ?! ene mATe to baLavAnapaNuM joIe. eTale premanI ja jarUra che. choDa ropyo hoya, tamAre ene vaDhavaDha nahIM karavAnuM ke jo tuM vAMko nA thaIza, phUla moTAM lAvaje, evuM tevuM vaDhavaDha nahIM karavAnuM. ApaNe ene khAtara ane pANI ApyA karavAnuM. jo gulAbano choDa ATaluM badhuM kAma kare che, A to chokarAo manuSya che A to ! ane mA-bApo dhabeDe hauM, mAre hauM ! haMmezA premathI ja sudhare duniyA. e sivAya bIjo koI upAya ja nathI enA mATe. jo dhAkathI sudharatuM hoya ne to A gavarnamenTa DemokresI... sarakAra lokazAhI uDADI mele ane je koI guno kare ene jelamAM ghAlI ane phAMsI kare. premathI ja sudhare jagata. praznakartA : ghaNI vakhata sAmo mANasa ApaNe prema karIe chIe to ya samajI nathI zakato. dAdAzrI : pachI ApaNe zuM karavuM tyAM AgaLa ? zIMgaDuM mAravuM ? praznakartA : khabara nahIM zuM karavuM pachI ? dAdAzrI : nA, zIMgaDuM mAre che pachI. pachI ApaNe ya zIMgaDuM mArIe eTale peluM ya zIMgaDuM mAre pachI cAlu laDAI. jIvana kleSita thaI jAya pachI. praznakartA to evA saMjogomAM ApaNe kevI rIte samatA rAkhavI ? AvuM to ApaNe thaI jAya to tyAM AgaLa kevI rIte rahevuM ? samajaNa nathI paDatI tyAM zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : zuM thaI jAya to ? praznakartA : ApaNe prema rAkhIe ane sAmo mANasa nA samaje, ApaNo prema samaje nahIM, to ApaNe zuM karavuM pachI ? dAdAzrI : zuM karavAnuM ? zAMta rahevAnuM ApaNe. zAMta rahevAnuM, bIjuM zuM karIe ApaNe ene ? kaMI mArIe ene ? praznakartA : paNa ApaNe e kakSAe nathI pahoMcyA ke zAMta rahI zakIe. dAdAzrI : to kUdIe ApaNe te ghaDIe ! bIjuM zuM karavuM? polIsavALo TaiDakAve tyAre kema zAMta raho cho ? praznakartA : polIsavALAnI othoriTI che, enI sattA che. dAdAzrI : to ApaNe ene othorAIjha (adhikRta) karavA. polIsavALA AgaLa sIdhA rahIe ane ahIM AgaLa sIdhA nA rahevAya! azruthI vyakta, tahIM kharI lAgaNI; DrAmeTIka raho, kharI sAcavaNI! praznakartA : saMsAramAM rahevA mATe lAgaNInI jarUra che. lAgaNI pradarzita karavI ja paDe. lAgaNI pradarzita na karo, to mUDha kahe che. have jJAna Ave, jJAnanI samaja utare, pachI lAgaNI eTalI pradarzita nathI thatI. have karavI joIe, vyavahAramAM ? dAdAzrI : zuM thAya che e jovAnuM. praznakartA : dAkhalA tarIke chokarAM bahAragAma bhaNavA gayo. ane eraporTa upara mA ne bApa banne gayAM, ane mAnI AMkhamAMthI AMsu paDyA ane bApa raDyo nahIM. eTale tuM kaThaNa patthara jevo chuM, kahe che. dAdAzrI : nA, hoya nahIM, lAgaNI AvI. bahAragAma jato hoya to zuM? enA AMkhamAM AMsu paDe to ene vaDhavI joIe ke DhIlI AvI

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118 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 119 kaMI sudhI rahIza, kahIe. mokSe javuM che to ! praznakartA: nA, eTale ema ke e jo lAgaNI nA hoya, to eTalo mANasa che to kaThora thaI jAya che. e lAgaNI vagarano mANasa bahu kaThora hoya che, ema kahe che. dAdAzrI : lAgaNI to jene AMkhamAM AMsu nathI AvatAM tenI sAcI che ane tamArI khoTI lAgaNI che. tamArI dekhAvanI lAgaNI che ane enI sAcI lAgaNI che. sAcI lAgaNI hArTilI hoya. e badhuM khoTuM, UMdhuM mAnI beTheluM. lAgaNI kaMI jabaradastI thAya nahIM. e to necarala gIphaTa che. evuM kahetI hoya to lAgaNI utpanna thatI hoya to baMdha thaI jAya. e kaMI raDavuM ane pachI tarata bhUlI javuM e lAgaNI kahevAya nahIM. lAgaNI to raDavuM ya nahIM ane yAda rahevuM, enuM nAma lAgaNI kahevAya. lAgaNIvALA to ame ya, koI dahADo ya raDIe nahIM, paNa chatAM ya badhAMne lAgaNI kAyamanI badhAMne. kAraNa ke jeTalAM vadhu maLe eTalA to roja amArA jJAnamAM AvatAM ja hoya badhAM. praznakartA : mA-bApa potAnA bALako mATe je rIte lAgaNI batAve che, to ghaNI vakhata lAge che ke khUba batAvatAM hoya che. - dAdAzrI : e Imozanala ja che badhuM. ochI batAvanAre ya Imozanala kahevAya. normala joIe. normala eTale banAvaTa khAlI, DrAmeTika ! DrAmAnI strI joDe jhAmAM karavAno te asala, ekkekTa. loko ema samaje ke saheja bhUla nathI karI. paNa bahAra nIkaLatI vakhate ene kahIe, heMDa mArI joDe to nA Ave che. A to DrAmA pUratuM ja hatuM kahe. e samajAyuM ne ? praznakartA : hA, samajAya che. dAdAzrI : eTale chokarAne kahIe, "Aya bhAI, besa bA. tArA vagara mAruM bIjuM koNa che ?" ame to hIrAbAne kahetA'tA ke mane tamArA vagara gamatuM nathI. A paradeza jauM, paNa tamArA vagara mane game nahIM. praznakartA : bAne sAcuM ya lAge. dAdAzrI : hA sAcuM ja hoya. mahIM aDavA nA daIe. praznakartA: pahelAnA jamAnAmAM mA-bApane chokarAo mATe prema ke enI sarabharA e badhI karavAno TAIma ja nhoto ane kaMI prema ApatA ya hotA. bahu dhyAna nhotA ApatA, atyAre mA-bApa chokarAone bahu prema Ape, badhuM dhyAna rAkhe, badhuM kare to ya chokarAMone mA-bApa mATe bahu prema kema nathI hoto ? dAdAzrI : A prema to, je bahArano moha evo jAgrata thayelo che ke emAM ja citta jatuM hoya che. pahelAM moha bahu ocho hato ne atyAre to mohanA sthaLa eTalA badhAM thaI gayAM che. praznakartA: hA. ane mA-bApa paNa premanAM bhUkhyAM hoya ke amArA chokarAo che, vinaya-binaya rAkhe. dAdAzrI : prema ja, jagata premAdhIna che. jeTaluM manuSyone bhautika sukhanI nathI paDI eTalI premanI paDelI che. paNa prema TakarAyA kare che. zuM kare ? prema TakarAvo nA joIe. praznakartA : chokarAomAM mA-bApa pratyeno prema ghaNo che. dAdAzrI : chokarAne ya ghaNuM che ! paNa chatAM TakarAyA kare. thAya chokarAM sAthe acUka pakSapAta; A to che leNadeNanI vasulAta! praznakartA : zAstramAM lakheluM che ke mA-bApane potAnAM bALako pratye sarakho ja prema hoya, e barAbara che ? dAdAzrI : nA, evuM mA-bApa kaMI bhagavAna nathI ke sarakho prema rahe ! te sarakho prema to bhagavAna rAkhI zake, bAkI mA-bApa kaMI bhagavAna nathI bicArAM, e to mA-bApa che. e to pakSapAtI hoya ja. sarakho prema to bhagavAna ja rAkhI zake, bIjuM koI rAkhI zake nahIM. A mane atyAre sarakho prema hoya badhAnAM upara.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra bALakane prema to jJAnIo ekalAM ja kare che. mA-bApa to Uchere che, narsarI kare che. te zA hAruM Uchere che ? ke A AMbo moTo thAya eTale phaLa Avaze ane te mane khAvAnAM kAma lAgaze. 120 praznakartA : pUrvenAM RNAnubaMdha e jAtanAM che, eTale chokarA tarIke AvyAne ? dAdAzrI : RNAnubaMdhano vAMdho nathI, prema rAkhavAno ya vAMdho nathI. paNa vyavahAra rAkho, ema kahe che. vyavahArane nizcaya nA karI nAkhazo. A to vyavahArane ja nizcaya karI nAkhyo. bALako dAdAtA satsaMgathI sudhare; jAte ghera AvIte sudhAre khaTapaTe! AjanA chokarAMone bahAra javAnuM game nahIM evuM karI nAkho, ke gharamAM ApaNo prema, prema ne prema ja dekhe. pachI ApaNA saMskAra cAle. ApaNe sudhAravuM hoya to zAka sudhAravuM, paNa chokarAone nA sudhAravA ! e lokone zAka sudhAratAM AvaDe. zAka sudhAratAM nA AvaDe ? praznakartA : AvaDe. dAdAzrI : he... AvaDA AvaDA TukaDA karIne banAve zAkanAM haDahaDATa. bAbo cokhkho che. haju cokhkho che te ene puSTI ahIMthI Apo. ahIMnuM ne ahIMnuM ja. ene AnaMda-bAnaMda badhuM ahIM ja thAya. mitrAcArI tamArI ja hoya, bahAra mitra karavA khoLe nahIM. eTale te ApaNe mitra jevA ja thaI javuM joIe ene. huM to hAtha pheravuM, ramADuM, badhuM ya karuM. eTale ene ghera Ave ne, kolejamAMthI chUTIne ene ghera Ave to AvavAnuM ene mana thaI jAya. ane ahIM ghera prema nA dekhe eTale bahAra prema khoLe. nAnA bALako prema khoLe, paisA khoLatA nathI, eTaluM dhyAna rAkhajo. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra Amane TheTha sudhI sAcava sAcava karo. ekanuM eka ja che. sarasa thaI gayuM have ene. have to A dAdAne mATe ja badhuM jIvana. emane kahyuM ke bhaI, A karoDonI milakata A badhI tane soMpavAnI che. nA, huM mArI karI laIza. tame A dAdAne karoDo ApI dejo. te have mane kahe che. meM kahyuM, nA, bhaI mAre joItA nathI. meM nA pADI dIdhI. eTale bAbAne sAcavajo. bAbo bahu sAro che. A bhAIne e ja kaheluM ne ke tamArA chokarAo laIne amArI pAse ne pAse Avajo. bhale bhADuM-bADuM thAya to ya. chokarAo sudharI gayA eTale thaI gayuM, lAkho rUpiyA sudharI gayA. 121 praznakartA : tame kaho cho ke chokarAone ahIM laI Avo.' paNa chokarAo nA Ave to ? dAdAzrI : e to mane padharAmaNI karAve eTale huM bIje dahADe, huM mArI ApuM, jarA mArI ApuM. ghera padharAmaNI karAvaDAvo ne, eTale ene pakaDI lAvo. bahu InDiyAmAM badhAM ghaNAM rIpera karI ApyA che. mA-bApa khuza thaI gayA che. te vahu rIpera karI ApIe. vahunAM dhaNI rIpera karI ApyA, mA-bApa rIpera karI ApyA, nahIM to zI rIte mokSe jAya ?! jJAna to ApyuM paNa mokSe zI rIte jAya ?! ghaDImAM gusso, dhaDImAM UchALo; e che Asakti, chokarAMte muMjAro! chokarAo joDe bahu phAve. nAnA chokarAMo joDe phAve amAre to. mArI joDe phrenDazIpa kare. ahIM AgaLa pesatAM hatAM ne ? tyAre pelo AvaDo bAbo hato te teDavA Avyo, heMDo kahe che. ahIM pesatAM ja teDavA Avyo. amArI joDe phrenDazIpa kare. tame to lADa laDAva karo. ame lADa nA laDAvIe, prema karIe. praznakartA : e jarA samajaNa pADone dAdA, lADa laDAvAnuM ane prema karavAnuM. badhuM jarA dAkhalA ApIne samajAvo. dAdAzrI : are, eka mANase to emanA bAbAne evo dabAvyo, Ama chAtIe. be varSathI bhego thayo nhoto, ane UMcakIne Ama

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122 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 123 dabAvyo ! te pachI bAbo khUba dabAI gayo, eTale ene pachI chUTako nA rahyo, eTale bacakuM bharI lIdhuM. A rIta che A te ?! A lokone to bApA thatAM nahIM AvaDatuM ! praznakartA ane premavALo zuM kare ? je premavALo hoya, e zuM kare ? dAdAzrI : hA. te hAtha pherave Ama tema. gAle TapalI mAre, Ama tema kare ane ene pAchaLa laIne Ama jarA khabho Thoke, ema khuza kare. ene Ama dabAvI devAnuM ?! pachI e bicAro guMgaLAya eTale bacakuM bharI lene ! nA bharI le guMgaLAya eTale ? tamArA bAbAe bacakuM bharyuM hatuM ? praznakartA : meM evuM nathI karyuM koI divase. dAdAzrI : tyAre sAruM ! doDha varSano chokaro kaheze, 'dAdA, mAre ramavA tamArI joDe AvavuM che.' tyAre huM kahuM, 'hA.' zAthI doDha varSanA chokarAne mArI joDe bIka nahIM lAgatI hoya ? praznakartA : kazo ahaMkAra nA maLe tamane eTale. dAdAzrI : ahaMkAra nahIM eTale prema lAge ! praznakartA: hA. dAdAzrI : eDajasTebala thAya. kharI majA Ave. chokarAne, doDha varSano-be varSano, pAMca varSano, badhAM ya ne majA Ave. chokarIone haluM majA Avane ! huM to paMdara varSanI chokarI hoya to ya huM kahuM tene, ke kema paNatI nathI ? paiNavAmAM tane zuM nukazAna che e badhuM ene samajAvuM, enI hareka bAbata, tenI AuTasAIDa-InasAIDa vAta karuM, te ya enI vAta khullI kare. teja mAruM joI lIdhuM. AMkhomAM vItarAgatA joI. loka to nathI kahetA ke AMkhomAM to sApalIyA rame che ! vItarAga puruSa hoya to ya kahI de !! eka chokaro mArI pAse aDadho ja kalAka vAtacIta karI haze. te pustaka mAMgI gayo. kahe che, tamAro phoTo Apo. keTalA varSano chokaro hato ? praznakartA : tera varSano. dAdAzrI : phoTo mAMgI gayo, pustaka Apo. pustaka ApyuM. pustaka eNe vAMcyuM kharuM pAchuM Aje ! pachI AvatI vakhate ya mane jo jo karato hato. phoTo le le karato hato. e baMdhAI gayo, mArI joDe baMdhAyo. eTale bahAra prema khoLe nahIM, mArA phoTAmAMthI prema Avaze ene. premathI ja jagata jIvI rahyuM che ane ApaNA loka mAre kharAM chokarAMne ?! bIvaDAya bIvaDAya kare ! akkala vagarano chuM ane A moTAM akkalavALA ! "joba' to maLatI nA hoya ane akkalavALA AvyA ! emane emanAM sAsu latA hoya. e to koNa kahI zake ? mArA jevo koI lakhanAra nA hoya, te huM kahI zakuM. bAkI tamane laDhanAra hoya pAchaLa to tame zI rIte kahI zako ?! tamane vAta samajAya che, A kAma lAgaze ? ane chokarAne to mArazo ja nahIM. koI bhUlacUka thAyane, samajaNa pADavAnI jarUra ane dhIme rahIne mAthe hAtha pheravI ane samajaNa pADavAnI jarUra. prema Ape tyAre chokaruM DAhyuM thAya. A to ame pUchIe, tArA pappA kevA che ? tyAre kahe, javA do ne, pappAnI vAta ! te mUA, eka to pappo thayo che, chokarAne ucheravo nA hoya ?! chokarAne mAravA paNa... atyAre huM moTI uMmaranAMne mAruMne, to ene rasa nahIM caDhatI, enuM zuM kAraNa ? premathI mAruM chuM. tamArAmAM prema hoya nahIM. tamArAmAM prema ja kyAMthI lAve ? premavALo mANasa koI joyelo ? kyAM joyelo ? A chokarAne huM mAra mAra karuM chuM ne, to ya khuza thAya che ane tuM mAra joIe ? kAraNa ke tArAmAM ahaMkAra che, eTale eno ahaMkAra jAgRta thAya. mArAmAM prema che, eTale ene prema jAgRta thAya. e to huM game eTaluM mAruM to ya mane kazuM nA hoya, mArI upara khuza thaI jAya. kAraNa ke huM premathI jouM chuM ane tArAmAM to ahaMkAra bharelo che eTale pachI te chokarAmAM ahaMkAra jAge eTale eno ahaMkAra laDe pachI, 'AvI jA' kaheze. ane tame ene eka TapalI mAro to e raDavA mAMDaze, enuM zuM

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124 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 125 e ja jANe, kahevAya nahIM ne sahevAya nahIM. AjanA juvAniyAo mATeno rasto amArI pAse che. A vahANanuM sukAna kaI rIte levuM te amane ahIMthI ja rasto maLe che. mArI pAse prema evo utpanna thayo che ke je vadhe nahIM ne ghaTe paNa nahIM. vadhaghaTa thAya tene Asakti kahevAya. je vadhaghaTa nA thAya te paramAtma-prema che. eTale game te mANasa vaza thaI jAya. mAre koIne vaza karavA nathI, chatAM premane sahu koI vaza rahyA kare che. jene sAco prema kahevAmAM Ave che ne, e jovA nahIM maLe. prema jagata joyo nathI. ko'ka phero jJAnI puruSa ke bhagavAna hoya tyAre prema dekhe. premamAM vadhaghaTa nA hoya, anAsakti hoya. e ja prema, e jJAnIono prema e ja paramAtmA che. kAraNa ? ene vAgyuM tethI ! nA, ene vAgyAnuM duHkha nathI. enuM apamAna karyuM tenuM ene du:kha che. A jagate prema zabda ja joyo nathI. kaMIka prema joyo hoya ko'ka jagyAe, to madharano prema haze. te ya kaMIka prema ! praznakartA : te ya kahevAmAM Ave che ne ke tuM mAro bALaka che. dAdAzrI : e ya che te AsaktinuM ja svarUpa che. paNa prema kaMIka dekhAto hoya, nirmAtA kaMIka sAdhAraNa hoya, to 'madhara'nAM premamAM hoya che, bIjI badhI Asaktio che. ane jenI pAchaLa mane kAma lAgaze, chokarAM moTAM thaIne cAkarI karaze, Ama karaze, nAma rAkhaze. e badhI Asaktio badhI. - praznakartA : madharanI jo A pramANe hakIkata hoya, to pitAjIno kevo bhAga hoya, A prema.... dAdAzrI : pitAjIno ghATavALo prema. mAruM nAma kADhe evo che. kaheze. eka mAno ekalo saheja prema, te ya saheja ja pAcho. te ya manamAM hoya ke moTo thaze, mArI cAkarI karaze ane zrAddha sarAvaze to ya bahu thaI gayuM mAruM. eka lAlaca che, kaMI paNa enI pAchaLa lAlaca che tyAM prema nathI. prema e vastu ja judI che. atyAre tame amAro prema joI rahyA cho, paNa jo samajaNa paDe to. A duniyAmAM koI cIja mane khapatI nathI, tame lAkho DaoNlara Apo ke lAkho pAunDa Apo ! AkhA jagatanuM sonuM Apo to mAre kAmanuM nathI. AkhA jagatanI strI saMbaMdhI mane vicAre nA Ave. huM A zarIrathI judo rahuM chuM, paDozI tarIke rahuM chuM. A zarIrathI judo, paDozI 'pharsTa nebara'. ta ghaTe-vadhe, paramAtma-prema dAdAmAM; na jovA maLe Aja koI pyAdAmAM! A jagatane sudhAravAno rasto ja prema che. jagata jene prema kahe che te prema nathI, te to Asakti che. A bebI para prema karo, paNa te pyAlo phoDe to prema rahe? tyAre to ciDhAya. mATe e Asakti che. chokarAM prema khoLe che, paNa prema temane maLato nathI. eTale pachI emanI muzkelI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 127 che ke vyasanI mANasothI dUra rahevuM joIe. dAdAzrI : nA. moTI uMmaravALA mATe vAta nathI A. A to ugatA bALakone mATe vAta che. tamAre je saMjogo Ave ne e to... tame to badhuM have e rIDhA thaI gayelA, navI pese nahIM, jUnI nIkaLe nahIM. paNa A ugatA bALakone A vicAra AvavA mAMDe che. praznakartA : barAbara che. A vicAra tarIke barAbara che. mAruM zuM kahevuM hatuM ke nAnapaNathI e loko sAthe ucharyA hoya ne bahu ja sArA kuTuMbanA mitro hoya. pelo moTo thaIne sigAreTa pIe ane A na pIe samajIne. have e sigAreTa pIe che. tenI mitratA choDI devI, bIjI badhI rIte sAro hoya. to e ene mATe samajaNa nA paDe ? dAdAzrI : ApaNA jJAnamAM rahIne Ama vyasanInA saMgamAM na rahevuM. chatAM kudarata ApaNane vyasanInA saMgamAM rAkhe, to paNa jJAna to tenuM te rahe ja ne ! praznakartA : nA. paNa joDe rahIne vyasanathI dUra rahevA zuM karavuM ? dhAro ke joDe rahevAno saMjoga Ave to ? dAdAzrI : e joDe rahevAno prayatna ja nahIM karavAno. praznakartA : vyasanathI mukta kevI rIte rahevuM ? dAdAzrI : vyasanathI mukta thavA 'vyasana e khoTI cIja che' evI ApaNane pratiti thavI joIe. e pratiti khasavI nA joIe. ApaNo nizcaya nA khasavo joIe. pachI vyasanathI dUra ja rahe che mANasa. emAM kaMI vAMdho nahIM." evuM kahe tyArathI coMTyuM. avaLAM' Ama chUTI jAya ! dArU svapna na pIvAya kyAre ya; khoTAMtI pratiti kSaNe ya na bhUlAya! A koTho eMTho karo cho ne ? DrIMksa kazuM... ? praznakartA : koIka koIkavAra. eTale gharamAM thAya tyAre. sAcuM boluM dAdAzrI : e baMdha karI deje. paravaza thaI gayo. ApaNane nA cAle, ApaNane joIe nahIM. laIza ja nahIM, aDIza ja nahIM tuM. dAdAnI AjJA che, mATe aDavAnuM nahIM. to tAruM jIvana bahu sAruM jaze. kAraNa ke tane jarUra nahIM paDe have. A caraNavidhi ne badhuM vAMcIza eTale tane e jarUre ya nahIM paDe ane Ama AnaMda puSkaLa raheze, bahu AnaMda raheze. samajAyuM che ne tane ? samajAyuM ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hA, dAdA. paNa Aje evuM che ke bijhanesamAM to Aje dArUnI pArTIo thAya ja che. kokaTela pArTI ane emAM to tamAre hAjarI to ApavI ja paDe ne ? paNa pote ema nathI pItA. ApanI vAta sAcI dArU-mAMsAhAratuM rI pemAM jAtavara gati; jJAtInAM vacana, khozo mAla mati! praznakartA: bahu vakhata koIe dArU pIdho hoya ke pelA Dragsa lIdhA hoya. to kahe, enI asara ApaNA breIna upara paDe to pachI baMdha karI de, paNa enI asara to rahe, to e asaromAMthI mukta thavA mATe dAdA

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 129 barAbara paNa A bhavamAM zuM thaze ? A bhavanA zuM pariNAma che ? dAdAzrI : A bhavamAM che te ene potAne AvaraNa AvI jAya eTale jaDa jevo, jAnavara jevo thaI gayelo ja hoya. lokomAM presTIja nA rahe lokomAM mAna nA rahe, kazuM ja nA rahe ! te khavaDAvo kadi bALakone IMDAM; vaghe vIrya kaiDacA kare viSayonA kIDA! 128 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra zuM kahe che? kaI rIte nIkaLavuM bahAra, ene mATe kaI che rasto? - dAdAzrI : nA, paNa pachI che te rIekzana AvyuM pharI. paramANu che te badhA cokhkhAM thavAM joIene. pIvAnuM baMdha karI dIdhuM che ne ! have ene karavAnuM zuM? "dArU pIvo kharAba che." evuM kAyama bolavuM kahIe! - hA, pachI ya bolavAnuM. 'sAro che" evuM koI dahADo nA bolIza. nahIM to pharI ene asara thaze pachI. praznakartA: A pIvAthI magajane nukazAna kaI rIte thAya che ? dAdAzrI : e bhAna bhUlAve ne ! e vakhate mahIM jAgRti upara AvaraNa AvI jAya che. pachI kAyama mATe e AvaraNa khasatuM nathI. ApaNe manamAM ema lAge ke khasI gayuM, paNa nathI khasatuM e. ema karatuM karatuM AvaraNa AvatuM AvatuM badhuM pachI... mANasa jaDa jevo thaI jAya. pachI ene sArA sArA vicAra-bicAra kazuM Ave nahIM. eTale je Devalapa thayelA che. te AmAMthI bahAra nIkaLyA pachI enAM breIna bahu sAruM Devalapa thayeluM hoya ! pharI pAchuM bagADavuM nA joIe ? praznakartA : A dArU pIdhAthI je badho Demeja thayuM hoya magajane. magajanA paramANune je Demeja thaI gayo hoya, to e Demeja bhAga pharIthI rIpera kevI rIte thAya ? dAdAzrI : e kaMI rasto ja nathI eno. e to TAIma ja pasAra thaze tema tema e thaze. pIdhA vagarano TAIma jaze, pasAra thaze tema tema e badhuM khulluM thatuM jaze. ekadama nA thAya. dArU ne A mAMsAhArathI je devuM thAya che, e dArU-mAMsAhAramAMthI A sukha bhogave che, e sukha "rIpe' karatI vakhate jAnavaramAM javuM paDe che. A dareka sukha jeTalA che ne, jeTalA sukha tame lo cho e "rIpe' karavA paDaze evI javAbadArI ApaNe samajavI joIe. A poluM nathI jagata ! A rIpavALuM jagata che. phakta A AMtarika sukhanuM ja rIpe karavuM nathI paDatuM ! bIjA badhA bahAranA sukho e badhA rIpe karavAnA che. jeTalI ApaNe jame levI hoya eTalI levI ane pachI ApavI paDaze !! praznakartA : AvatA janmamAM rIpe karavuM paDaze janAvara thaIne, e praznakartA : egsa (IDA) khAdhAM che. dAdAzrI : zA hAruM lIdhelAM ? praznakartA : zarIra sAruM karavA mATe lIdhelAM. dAdAzrI : zarIrathI zuM vajana levAnuM che tAre ? praznakartA : e pelA DaoNkaTaroe ya kahyuM ke chokarAne iMDAM khavaDAvo. eTale pachI ghera lAvIne khavaDAvA mAMDyuM. paNa e to ko'ka ja vAra, amAre tyAM regyulara nahIM. mahinAo ke varSo sudhI nahIM. ko'ka vAra hoya, kyAreka ! dAdAzrI : pachI game che ? praznakartA : bahu gamatuM nathI. dAdAzrI : pasaMda paDyA nahIM ? praznakartA : bahu gamatuM nathI. kokavAra khAuM paNa roja nA khAI zakuM. dAdAzrI : IDAM hoya ane baccAM hoya e beu eka ja che badhuM. koInuM IDuM khAvuM ane koInuM baccuM khAvuM emAM phera nathI. baccA khAvAnuM pasaMda kharuM tane ? koInA baccAM khaI javAnuM pasaMda kharuM ? praznakartA : nA, nA. dAdAzrI : kema ema ?

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130 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 131 praznakartA : bhAve ja nahIM. dAdAzrI : tyAre e IDAM e ja che. baccAM ja che. tane nahIM lAgatuM ke baccAM ja che. enI mahIM bacyuM ja thavAnuM ne ? praznakartA : emAM IDAM paNa zAkAhArI IDAM hoya che, evI lokonI mAnyatA hoya che. dAdAzrI : nA, e to roMga mAnyatA che e IDAMne nirjIva IMDAM kahe che, e jIva vagaranI vastu. jemAM jIva nA hoya e vastu khavAya nahIM. praznakartA : A judI vAta lAge che. dAdAzrI : judI eTale ejhekTa vAta che. A to sAyanTisTone kahyuM hatuM ke haMmezAM nirjIva koI vastu khavAya nahIM. ane jIva hoya to khavAya. emAM jIva kharo paNa amuka jAtano jIva. eTale A to e lokoe khoTo lAbha uThAvyo che jagatano. ene aDAya ja nahIM ane AvA chokarAone IDAM khavaDAvAthI zuM thAya, zarIra pachI eTaluM badhuM uzkerATavALuM thAya ke pachI mANasanA kaMTrolamAM rahe nahIM. amuka ApaNuM vejITeriyana phUDa to bahu sAruM hoya, kAcuM bhale rahyuM. DaoNkaTarono emAM doSa nathI hoto. DaoNkaTara to enI buddhi ane enI samajaNa pramANe karyA kare. ApaNe ApaNI saMskAra sAcavavAnA ne. ApaNe saMskArI gharavALA loko chIe. manamAM ema thatuM nathI ke badhA loko kema bIjuM khAya che ne huM kema ekalo ja bIjuM khAuM chuM ! dAdAzrI : nA, evuM thatuM nathI. paNa to ya haju ene bIjA saMskAra badalAya, haju avasthA evI che, ...uMmara. eTale ApaNo ahIMno evo evo sarasa svAdiSTa khorAka bIjo banAvI Apavo ke ene AmAM ja svAda lAgyA kare ! bIjA kazAthI kaMTALo Ave. ane evI vAta nIkaLe to ApaNe vAta karavI ke zI rIte A gaMdavADo khavAya ? game zI rIte A ? e koIkane kApIne khaI javAnuM te gamatuM haze ?! e eTale A chokarAone huM mAMsAhAra choDAvaDAvuM chuM bicArAne. ghusI gayeluM, choDAvyuM pachI meM. praznakartA : amerikAmAM dAdAe keTalA ya chokarAone ekadama Tarna karI dIdhA. dAdAzrI : hA, emanAM mA-bApa phariyAda karavA AvyA ke A chokarA amArA bagaDI javA beThA che, enuM zuM karIzuM ? meM kahyuM, tame kyAre sudharelA hatA te vaLI pAchA chokarA bagaDI gayA ! tame mAMsAhAra karo cho ? tyAre kahe, koIka dahADo. peluM pIvAnuM ? tyAre kahe, koIka dahADo. eTale A chokarA jANe ke mArA bApA kare che eTale hitakArI vastu che A. hitakArI hoya te ja mAro bApa kare ne, kaheze. eTale tamane zobhe nahIM A badhuM. eTale pachI e chokarAne mAMsAhAra choDAvI dIdho. emane kahyuM, chokarAone ke 'bhaI A baTAkA tuM kApI zakuM ? A papaiyo tuM kApI zakuM ? A badhA epala kApI zakuM ? A badhuM tuM kApI zakuM ?' 'hA, badhuM kApI nAkhuM." meM kahyuM, 'koLuM AvaDuM hoya to ?" "te e ya kApI zakuM." kAkaDI AvaDI hoya te ya kApI zake e ? te ghaDIe hArTane asara thAya? tyAre kahe, "nA." paNa meM kahyuM, 'bakarI kApI zakuM ?" nA. "maraghI kApI zakuM ?" tyAre kahe 'nA kapAya mArAthI.' mATe ja tAruM hArTa eksepTa kare che kApavAmAM, eTalI ja vastu tuM khAje. tAruM hArTa eksepTa na karatuM hoya, hArTane game ja nahIM, e nahIM e vastu khAIza nahIM. nahIM to enA parINAma UMdhA Ave che ane te paramANu tane hArTa upara asara karaze. eTale chokarAo sArI rIte samajI gayA ane choDI dIdhuM. chokarA kahe jo jAte cIkata tuM zake kApI; to ja hATe khAvA mATe rajA ApI! bAbAne saMskAra evA Apo ke pharsTa kalAsa thaI jAya evo. A ahIMnuM khorAka-borAka kazuM pese nahIM evuM bicArAne. uttamamAM uttama khorAka Apavo. ApaNo uttama khorAka evo Apavo ke A ja ene sAMbhara sAMbhara thayA kare. peluM game nahIM evuM thaI jAya. tyAre kharuM kahevAya. praznakartA : e chene ! khorAka ahIMyA ApaNo ja le che. ane have

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132 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 133 che, A buddhino dAkhalo Apo to huM kabUla chuM. paNa mA-bApa to zuM kahe, mAMsa nA khAIza, mAMsAhAra nA karIza, mITa nA khaIza. paNa A badhA khAya che ne huM kema nA khauM. te A badhA skUlamAM khAya che ne ! eTale paNa mA-bApa zuM javAba Ape pachI ? eTale Avo javAba Ape sAyanTiphikalI, tyAre e loko svIkAra kare. praznakartA : pelI barnADa zaoNnI vAta karo ne ! dAdAzrI : hA, barnADa zaoNne eka jaNe pUchyuM ke tame mAMsAhAra kema karatA nathI ? tyAre kahe, mAruM zarIra e che te kabrastAna nathI. A maraghA-kUkaDAnuM kabrastAna nathI e. te paNa emAM zuM phAyado ? tyAre kahe, Aya vonTa Tu bI e sIvIlAIjhaDa mena." chatAM ya kare che. kSatriyone adhikAra che, paNa kSatriyapaNuM rahyuM hoya to adhikAra che. A vAta kyAMya hoI zake nahIM. A vAta zAstramAM nA hoya, pustakamAM nA hoya, magajamAM nA hoya. A to bodha kaLA che. ajAyaba ja kaLA che, navuM vijJAna che. chokarAne to DAhyA banAvavA joIe. uzkerATa vagaranA, kevA suMdara ! uzkerATa eno Ubho karIe, uzkerATano khorAka khavaDAvIe ane saMskAra khoLIe, e be kema bane ? ene dALa, bhAta, roTalI, zAka badho sAdo khorAka ApIe e bahu suMdara khorAka che, emAM vAMdho nathI. dUSaNo dUra kIdhAM, tavI phezatatAM... nakha te hoTala-bAratA jazamatAM! bALakone mIThAInAM mAThAM pariNAma; tAtI vaye viSayo macAve tophAtA praznakartA : A nAnA chokarAone magasa khavaDAyA kare che, te khavaDAvAya ? dAdAzrI : nA khavaDAvAya, magasa nA khavaDAvAya. nAnA chokarAone magasane, guMdarapAka, dagaDA nA khavaDAvAya. emane sAdo khorAka Apavo ane dUdha paNa thoDuM ApavuM joIe. chokarAne nA apAya AvuM badhuM-ApaNA loko to badhA dUdhanI cIjo khavaDAya khavaDAya kare che. mUo nA khavaDAvAya. uzkerATa vadhaze ane bAra varasano thayo tyArathI draSTi bagaDaze mUAnI. uzkerATa ocho thAya evo khorAka Apavo joIe. chokarAMone, bALakone A to badhuM khyAlamAM nathI. jIvana kema jIvavuM te bhAna ja nathI ne ! praznakartA : A to draSTi ja UMdhI che, kema chokarAne jADo karIe ! dAdAzrI : "chokarAM kevI rIte ucheravA ane narsarI kevI rIte karavI te bhAna ja nathI emane. chokarAM bALaucheranI jokhamadArI ghaNI vadhAre che. loka zarIranI jokhamadArI ekalI ja samaje che. A to narsarI che !! eka mANasa badhI rIte doSita thayelo hoya. enA doSo kApavA joIe. to doSa e AcAra che ane AcAra udayAdhIna che. eTale kazuM vaLe nahIM ane ApaNe vasyA karIe. ane e vaLe nahIM, vatyA karIe ne pelo ulaTo bhAva avaLAM kare. bApa chokarAne vaDhe. roja hoTalamAM jauM chuM, pelAne javuM nathI chatAM jAya che, bicArAne chUTako nathI. javuM nathI chatAM udaya ene laI jAya che pAcho. ane bApa kahe che, tuM kema gayo ? eTale bahu kahe kahe kare ne, to chokaro bApane to kahe ke huM javAno nathI. paNa manamAM nakkI kare, ApaNe javAnA ja chIe. e cho ne bole. ulaTAM bhAva bagADIe chIe. A lokone bApa tarIke jIvatAM nathI AvaDatuM. mA tarIke jIvatAM nathI AvaDatuM. gurU tarIke jIvatAM nathI AvaDatuM. mAre bUmo pADavI paDe che narI. kaMI AvaDe che jIvatAM ? A hoTalamAM khAya che te pachI dhIme dhIme Ama bhego thAya ane eka bAju paDI rahe. pachI e jyAre paripAka thAya tyAre maraDo thAya. cUMka Ave e keTalAMya varSo pachI paripAka thAya. amane to A anubhava thayo tyAra pachI badhAne kahetA ke hoTalanuM nA khavAya. ame eka vakhata mIThAInI dukAne khAvA gayelA. te pelo mIThAI banAvato hato. temAM parasevo paDe, kacaro paDe ! AjakAla to ghere ya khAvAnuM banAve che te kyAM cokhkhuM hoya che ? loTa bAMdhe tyAre hAtha dhoyA nA hoya, nakhamAM mela bharAyo hoya.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 135 134 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra AjakAla nakha kApatA nathI ne? ahIM keTalAMka Ave ene nakha lAMbA hoya tyAre mAre tene kahevuM paDe che, "bahena AmAM tane lAbha che ke ? lAbha hoya to nakha rahevA deje. tAre kaMI DroIganuM kAma karavAnuM hoya to rahevA deje.' tyAre e kahe ke, "nA. AvatIkAle kApI lAvIza.' A lokone kaMIka 'sensa' ja nathI ! te nakha vadhAre che, ne kAna pAse reDiyo laIne phare che ! potAnuM sukha zAmAM che e bhAna ja nathI, ane potAnuM paNa bhAna kyAM che ? e to lokoe je bhAna ApyuM te ja bhAna che. A amerikAmAM jauM, te chokarA-chokarIo paga dabAvatA hoya ane pachI huM gammata karuM. eya ! zuM vAgyuM? zuM vAgyuM ? tyAre chokarIo bhaDakI jAya bicArI. kazuM vAgyuM nahIM ne dAdA AvuM kema karatA haze ? zuM vAgyuM haze e enA manamAM zaMkA paDe. meM kahyuM, A koInA nakha vadhAre che ? te pachI enAM nakha ja vadhAre hoya. tyAre meM kahyuM, A nakha vadhAre che e mane to vAge. eTale zuM karIe ? meM kahyuM, "varasa dahADA pachI ene kApI nakhAvaje. utAvaLa nA hoya to varasa dahADA pachI paNa kApI nAkhaje." huM pharI varase AvuM to e kapAyelA hoya. "nA, e huM kAle ja kApI lAvuM.' to to bahu sAruM. te tarata kApI nAkhe. have ApaNe ene kahIe, 'nakha kapAvI nAkha. huM khAvAnuM nahIM sAMje ApuM." tyAre ene kaMI nA AvaDe che ? tane celenja mAratAM AvaDyuM to ene celenja mAratAM AvaDe che ! 'jA, nathI kApavAnI, tAre thAya e karaje', kaheze. e premathI kAma levuM joIe. premathI vaza thAya ne ! dhaNI ya vaza thAya ne jAnavare ya vaza thAya ne vAdya vaza thAya. A to prema che te tane ghaDIyALa upara prema che. khoLI kADhavuM joIe. kojhamAM eTaluM ja hoya ke ene corI karavAmAM sukha paDe che evuM ene jJAna prApta thayeluM che gaye avatAre. eTale ja corI kare che, e to bicAro paravaza thaIne corI kare che. pUrvabhave bhAvanA karI che ane enuM phaLa AvI gayeluM che. have che te emAM zuM upAya karazo bIjo ? ene karavAnI IcchA nA hoya bicArAne. ApaNe samajaNa pADIe to ke bhAI, A corI karavAmAM phAyado kharo ? ane phAyado hoya to opanalI kema karato nathI tuM ? chAnomAno kema nAsI jato rahe che ? koI hoya tyAre kema nathI karato ? eTale khoTuM e to jANe ja che ne ? pachI kahIe ke bhaI, A corI karavAthI koI tane pakaDe to zuM thAya ? to kahe, mane jelamAM ghAlI de, phojadAra mAre. eTale corI karavAmAM AvuM du:kha che. tyAre besADI ene badhI samajaNa pADavI joIe ke bhaI, tuM ahIMthI bahAragAma gayo hoya ane tArA gajavAmAMthI 25 rUpiyA hoya te laI le. to tuM pAcho zI rIte muMbaIthI AvuM ? tyAre kahe che, nA avAya e to. tyAre meM kahyuM, tuM ahIMthI lokonAM laI lauM chuM, to enuM zuM thatuM haze bicArAnuM ? AvAM badhAM ja dAkhalA ene Apa Apa karI ene, enI pAse nyAya karAvavo paDe. pachI ene samajAya ke A sAluM khoTuM thaI rahyuM che. khoTuM to che ja. eTale badhuM pote ja kabUla karI de ke A khoTuM ja che. mAre have nathI karavuM. praznakartA : barAbara che, paNa bhale ApaNe kaMI kahevuM na hoya, paNa ApaNe ema mAnIe ke ApaNo dIkaro hoya, corI karato hoya, to corI karavA devI ? dAdAzrI : dekhAvamAM virodha, mahIM aMdara samabhAva, bahAra dekhAvamAM virodha ane te e corI kare tenI upara ApaNe nirdayatA saheja paNa na thavI joIe. jo aMdara samabhAva tUTI jaze to nirdayatA thaze ane jagata AkhuM nirdaya thaI jAya che. eTale pachI chokarA samajI jAya ke mArA para bApano dveSa nathI. e bUmo pADe che, paNa aMdarakhAne samajI jAya ke mArA bApano dveSa nathI. pelo samabhAva rAkhe ne eTale pachI zuM kare ? bApa zuM kare ? pachI chokarA sudharAya samajAvIne; hRdaya sparze tejavANI kharIte! A kaMI gamyuM nathI, AnI pAchaLa kojhIjha che. A to IphekTa che badhI. mATe IphekTa mATe doSa kaDhAya nahIM. ApaNo chokaro cora thaI gayo hoya, ene dhIbAya nahIM. 'e zAthI corI kare che, e kojha zuM che ?" e

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136 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 133 besADIne kaheze, 'besa bA, besa.' Ama hAtha-bAtha pheravene eTale ene bicArAne e lAge, sukha lAge. dila Thare enuM. pachI ApaNe kahIe bhaI, juo ApaNe koNa khAnadAna, evuM tevuM te. eTale bhAva pherave ke nA ja karavA jevuM. A karavA jevI vastu ja hoya. zuM nakkI kare ? A jhera khAvA jevI vastu che nahIM. to ene upara caDhAvyo kahevAya, nahIM to adhogati karAve che. ApaNe zuM kahevuM paDe, have chokarAne zuM kahevuM joIe ke chokaro nakkI kare ke have mAre A karavA jevuM nathI, evuM e manamAM bhAva kare. pahelAM to bApane nA kahe. bApane pachI kahI de ke mArI icchA nathI to ya thaI jAya che. paheluM to ApaNe pUchavuM paDe, tuM jANI joIne karuM chuM ke thaI jAya che ? tyAre pachI kahe, mAre nathI karavuM. e be-traNa vakhata nahotuM javuM to ya mahIM javAI gayuM. eTale chokaro ya samaje ke mAre A nathI karavuM to ya thaI jAya. mATe ko'ka trIjuM, ko'ka bhUta che. e karmanA udayanuM bhUta che. eTale ApaNe nathI karavuM to ya thaI jAya evuM kahe ne tyArathI ApaNe jANIe ke pharyo, enI samajaNa pharI. tyAra pachI ApaNe ene zuM kahevuM joIe ke have pratikramaNa karaje. jyAre jyAre thaI jAya, tyAre 'he kRSNa bhagavAna ! Aje mArAthI A thaI gayuM, enI mAphI mAMguM chuM ane pharI nahIM karuM', kahIe have. e pratikramaNa zIkhavADIe basa. bIjuM kazuM nahIM. praznakartA : barAbara che. e to meIna (mukhya) che ne. dAdAzrI : e kyAre karavuM che, evuM kahe ? tamArA jevA phAdhara maLe tyAre. phAdhara zuM kahe, "mArI nAkhIza jo ene nahIM choDuM to ?" tyAre pelo chokaro zuM kahe ? karavAno ja. evA mahIM bhAva karI nAkhe. moDhe bole nahIM. moDhe bole to pelo mAre pAcho. karavAno ja jAva, thAya te karo. AvuM thayuM che, tene lIdhe A chokarA AvA pAkyA. bhAvasattA (ajJAnIne) enA hAthamAM che. eTale avaLo pharI jAya. jene tyAM corI karI tenuM pratikramaNa Ama karaje ane pratikramaNa keTalAM karyA te mane kaheje. to pachI pelo rAge paDI jAya. pachI corI nahIM karavAnI evI pratijJA le tuM. pharI nahIM karuM ane thaI gaI tenI mAphI mAMguM chuM. evuM vAre ghaDIe samajaNa pADa pADa karIe ne, to e jJAna phITa thAya. eTale Avato bhava pachI corI na thAya. A to iphekTa che te parI bhajavAI jAya ane iphekTa che te ekalI ja. pAchuM bIjuM navuM ApaNe zIkhavADIe nahIM. to have navuM UbhuM thAya nahIM. eTale A bhavamAM ya ochuM thaI jAya. keTalIka IphekTa evI hoya, moLI hoya. tene ahaMkAre karIne majabUta kare. te moLIne to nizcaya majabUta karatAM baMdha thaI jAya. A amAro rasto. ame ene zuM kahIe ke te corI karI, tuM DarIza nahIM, AvI rIte zakti mAMgaze. ApaNe to ene Ama samajaNa pADavA vAtacIta karIe. A je AcAra che AjanAM, e badhAM iphekTa che. ane tuM kema apavAsa nahIM karato ? tyAre kahe, mArAthI nathI thatAM. alyA mUA, zenA apavAsa nathI thatAM ? e to kaMI karAtA haze ? e to kojhIjha kareluM hoya to apavAsa karAya. eTale Aje zuM kare che e joI levuM joIe ane je AcAra kAmanAM nA hoya, tene mATe ApaNe ene pharI jJAna pheraphAra karI nAkhavuM joIe enuM. enuM jJAna pheraphAra karavAnuM che. bAkI dhIbadhIba karo to uchuM manamAM zuM kare ke corI karavI ja joIe. evuM manamAM nakkI kare. ulaTo avaLo cAle. bhaya nA pamADavuM joIe. phAdhara kevAM saMskArI hoya. jenA saMskArathI chokarAo badhAM DAhyA thaI jAya. A to eno upAya jANo nahIM bicArAno ! corI karI Ave che. te ene khabara ja nathI ne, e to ema ja jANe ke A ja corI karI rahyo che, te baMdha karavI hoya to karI zakAya. e baMdha kare to thaI jAya. le ne tAruM baMdha karane, tArA je doSo hoya te baMdha kara. gurU mahArAjo, e evuM kahe ke A choDI do, A choDI do. mahArAja chIMkaNI choDI do ne ? ane A krodha tamArA choDI do ne, A krodhamAM to badhAne duHkhI karo cho. te choDI do. krodhamAM ApaNe kahIe, tuM krodhane choDI de. paNa nA choDI de ! A juone tamAro krodha ame sudhArI dIdhone ! tamArA kAbumAM raheto na hato, paNa sudhArI dIdho ne !

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138 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 139 dAdA premathI hadaya palaTo corato; vaza karyA matatA lAkho corate! huM surata gayo'to. te be polIsa InspekTaro darzana karavA AvyA. e lokone kahyuM ke amAre darzana karavA AvavuM che, dAdAnAM. eTale pachI mane kahe che ke ame ATaluM badhuM polIsakhAtuM, mANasanI pAsethI kabUla na karAvI zakIe, te tame AvA 'jJAnI puruSa' tarIke kema karIne kabUla karAvo cho ? guno zuM hato ? ke eka paccIsa varSano chokaro hato, eNe ATha mahinAmAM eMsI lAkha rUpiyAnI khoTa karI. A khoTa enAM gharanI nahIM. ghera to paisA hatAM ja nahIM. badhA vepArIo raDI uThyA. ane e che te tyAM Avyo ApaNe tyAM, vaNAkaborI. e bhAgI gayo tyAMthI. lokoe mAravAnI taiyArI karI nAkhI. bALI nAkho, kahe che. badhA vepArInA manamAM ema thayuM ke A chokarAne, paccIsa varSanAne mArI nAkho. eTale e samajI gayo. eTale tyAMthI bhAgI gayo. naDiyAda ne e badhe phara pharI rakhaDavA mAMDyo. pachI eno bhaI che te tapAsa karavA Avyo. enA bhAI jANatA'tA ke dAdA vaNAkaborI che tyAM, ApaNe tyAM teDI lAvyAM. teDI lAvyA pachI meM kahyuM ke bhaI A kema, keTalA vakhatamAM 80 lAkha rUpiyA bhegA karyA ? tyAre kahe, 8 mahinAmAM. tyAre meM kahyuM, zuM vAparuM chuM, zemAM kharco che tAro ? tyAre kahe, kharco mAro to hajAra rUpiyA ja che. evuM kahyuM, bhaNyo chuM ke ? tyAre kahe, iglIza bhaNyo nathI. alyA, te kevI rIte banAvyA ? tyAre kahe, ke huM Amane tyAMthI eka lAkhanAM hIrA lAvuM. bIjAne tyAM 80mAM vecI dauM. e 80 rokaDA AyA, te pelAne emAMthI 60 ApI AvuM. AvI rIte bIjhanesa cAlu karyo. eTale AmAM bIjI raMDIbAjI, dArU-barU ? tyAre kahe, nA kazuM cAlu nathI karyuM kaMI. eTale zA hetu mATe karyuM te ? tArA gharanAne mATe nathI karyuM ? nathI raMDIbAjI, dArU-bArU hetu, to zA mATe karyuM ? tyAre kahe, huM aDhAra varSano hato tyAre nakkI karyuM'tuM ke A zrImaMtano kuco kADhavo. te alyA AvaDuM moTuM te nakkI karyuM'tuM. tyAre kahe ke hA. meM zrImaMtono kuco kADhavo evuM nakkI karyuM'tuM. alyA mUA AvuM ? to kahe, hA. meM kahyuM, sAruM. je vigate vigatavAra kSaNekSaNa badhI ekajhekTa rIte kahI dIdhuM. A badho guno mAro ja che ane badhuM meM ja karyuM che A." eTale pachI enA bhaI ne badhAM, badhAM sagAvahAlAM ahIM AvelAM. e kahe che, jo A sAva surata nA Ave to pelA loko amAro kaMco kADhaze. eTale pachI meM zuM zarata karI ? ke polIsavALAne mArI pAse vAta nakkI karAvaDAvo. polIsavALAne meM kahyuM, jo tame koI paNa, Ane koI hAtha nA aDADe. to A mANasane huM tyAM AvavA dauM chuM, nahi to nahi Ave. eTale e lokoe kabUla karyuM. pachI meM mokalyo. tyAM badhAnI pAse eksepTa karI dIdhuM eNe, zuM karyuM ? ane kaMI nAma nA lIdhuM. eTale polIsavALA kahe che, tame ATaluM badhuM eksepTa kevI rIte karAvo cho ? meM kahyuM, mane tera varSanI chokarI hatI te pIstALIsa varSanI thaI tyAM sudhI enA lakSaNa badhAM lakhIne Ape che ane chokarA ya lakSaNa lakhIne Ape che. nahi ApatA hoya ? purepurA ApatAM haze ke mahIM kAcA rAkhatAM haze ? je bArIo khole, eka-be kholato haze ? ane nA kholanArA to eke ya khole nahIM ane bArIo khole te evuM evuM lakhIne Ape che ke A ya ajAyabI. have emAM, amane potAne game nahi. mAthuM caDhe evuM lAge. paNa chatAM ya ame ene dhoIne pAchuM ApIe ne mahinA sudhI vAMcaje ane tuM ene pachI bALI mUkaje, kahyuM. koI jagyAe mANasa kahI zake nahIM. enuM zuM kAraNa che ? dhaNI pAse jo bole, to dhaNIne pachI lAga Ave tyAre lAgamAM le. jyAM jAya tyAM loka lAgamAM le. 'jJAnI puruSa' karUNAvALA hoya, lAgamAM nA le. eTale tyAM AgaLa badhuM mANasa khulluM karI Ape. samajAyuM tamane ? eTale pelA polIsavALAnA manamAM ema ja thAya ke AvuM badhuM zI rIte kabUla karAve che. meM kahyuM, mAravA-karavAnuM nA hoya, amArA premathI badhuM kabUla kare. badhuM ja kabUla karI de. premathI badhuM thAya. A tame zuddhAtmA thayA, prema eTalo badho utpanna thAya che tyAM. have bIjo upAya atyAre A karajo. chokarAM na hoya tamArAM ! A to badhuM ApaNA vyavahArathI nakkI karavAnuM. 'kIsake laDake ne kIsakI bAta' evuM ghera bolavuM nahi.

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140 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 141 karI Ape, eksaparTa. nahIM to vIsa varasa kolejomAM ghAle to ya nA AvaDe ne ! emanA prophesarone ja AvaDe nahIM tyAM AgaLa ! A chokaro amArI pAse badhI bhUlo kabUla kare, corI kare to te ya kabUla karI le che. AlocanA to gajabano puruSa hoya tyAM ja thAya. hindustAnano kaMI ajAyaba "sTeja'mAM pheraphAra thaI jaze ! ApaNe manamAM samajavAnuM. ghera to ApaNe kahevuM, 'he chokarAo ! tame to amAruM badhuM nAma ujjavaLa karavA AyAM cho.' hA, lakhuM paDI jAya che. zabda avaLA bolavAthI lakhuM paDI jAya saMsAra. have je pelI potAnuM khAnagI lakhI Ape che, eno eka ja zabda huM bahAra pADuM to e ApaghAta karIne marI jAya. eTale amAre keTalo badho saMyama rAkhavo paDato haze ke koIe ya jANe nahIM. jyAM lokoe khAnagI vAta karI, te lokoe lAbha uThAvyo che. eTale khAnagI vAta ja karavAnI choDI dIdhI. badhAe lAbha uThAvyA, kAmamAM lAge tyAM A sAMkaLa kheMce che. kema lAge che tamane ? praznakartA : lAbha ja uThAve che. dAdAzrI : eTale premathI juo. A zuM badhuM hAya hAya hAya ! 'kisakA laDakA kIsakI bAta !' A to kyAM sudhI ? upara mAthe coMTelA che tyAM sudhI ApaNe kacakaca karIe ! ukhaDyA pachI pelo vALavALo kaheze, lyo ne sAheba, Ane laI jAva. mera mUA, A to coMTelo che tyAM sudhI mArAM. tamane kema lAge che ? eTale nakAmI hAya hAya nA karavI ! amArI pAse zIkhavAnuM che. pAse zA hAruM besADI rAkhuM chuM ke joI joIne emanuM jIvana juo. AMkho juo. AMkhomAM zuM rahe che ? tyAre kahe, "sApolIyAM rame che ?" tyAre kahe, "nA, sApolIyo nathI ramatAM aMdara.' tyAre zuM rame che ? to kahe, 'vItarAgatA rame che.' e zIkho. vANI dila Thare evI hoya. eTale A badhuM joDe besa besa karavAthI thaI jAya. bhaNavAthI nA thAya. ulaTAM loka zuM kahe che, tame karI batAvo. eka phero ApaNe ene kahIe, le Tebala para besIne AvI rIte jamaje. to eka phero jamatAM zIkhavADIe eTale zIkhI jAya. ApaNe pharI zIkhavADavA na javuM paDe ane copaDIomAM zIkhavADyuM hoya, copaDImAM Ama plAnIMga karyuM hoya ane zIkhavADyuM hoya to kyAre zIkhI rahe ? ane koI chokarAne gajavuM kApavAmAM eksaparTa karavo hoya to kaI kolejamAM dAkhala karavo paDe ? ane gajavuM kApanAranI pAse mUkyo hoya to cha mahinAmAM olarAITa

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mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 143 (8) navI janarezana, helthI mAIDavALI ! evuM A TI.vI., sinemA, badhuM gaMdhAtA kAdava kahevAya. emAMthI kazo sAra nA nIkaLe. amane TI.vI. joDe bhAMjagaDa nathI. dareka vastu jovAnI chUTa hoya che. paNa eka bAju pAMca ne dasa miniTe TI.vI. hoya ne eka bAju pAMca ne dasa miniTe satsaMga hoya. to zuM game ? agiyAra vAge parIkSA hoya ne agiyAra vAge jamavAnuM hoya to zuM karo ? evI samajaNa hovI joIe ! praznakartA : rAte moDe sudhI TI.vI. jotAM hoya eTale pachI sUve ja nahIMne ? dAdAzrI : paNa TI.vI. to tame vecAtuM lAvyA, tyAre juene? tame ya chokarAone phaTavyAM che ne badhA. A tame mAbApe chokarAMone phaTavyAM che ane TI.vI. lAvyA pAcho ! e tophAna nahotuM te pAchuM vadhAryuM tophAna. praznakartA: hA, te duniyAmAM rahevA mATe to duniyAnuM karavuM ja paDe. nahIM to A loka to kahe, bAghAM cho. dAdAzrI : duniyAmAM rahevA mATe khAvAnuM, zvAsanuM, e badhuM, kapaDAMbapaDAM ane A makAna, eTaluM ja Avazyaka che. bIjI Avazyaka vastu nathI. saMDAsanI AvazyakatA bahu che. saMDAsa nA hoya to tamane khabara paDI jAya. jo sarakAra ema karI de kAyado ke paMdara dahADA sudhI koIe saMDAsa nA javuM. to sarakArane kaheze, tame kaho e vero bharIe, paNa amane saMDAsa javA do. have jenuM mahattama ATaluM badhuM che, to ya lokone kiMmata nathI. sarakAra saMDAsa baMdha kare to kevI dazA thAya !? praznakartA : bahu bUrI dazA thAya. dAdAzrI : te ulaTo sarakArano upakAra saMDAsa javA de che, bahu sAruM TI.vI.-sInemA jovAmAM zo sAra; gaMdhAto kAdava, lhAyane ThAra! dAdAzrI : ravivAre tamArA najIkamAM ja satsaMga hoya che to kema AvatA nathI ? praznakartA : ravivAre TI.vI. jovAnuM hoyane, dAdA ! dAdAzrI : TI.vI.ne tamAre zuM saMbaMdha ? A cazmA AvyA che to ya TI.vI. juo cho ? ApaNo deza evo che ke TI.vI. nA javuM paDe, nATaka nA jovuM paDe, badhuM A ahIM ne ahIM rastA para thayA kare che ne? praznakartA : e raste pahocIzuM tyAre e baMdha thazene? dAdAzrI : kRSNa bhagavAna gItAmAM e ja kahI gayA ke manuSyo anartha TAIma veDaphI rahyA che. kamAvA mATe nokarIe jAya e to kaMI anarthapUrvakanuM nA kahevAya. jyAM sudhI pelI draSTi maLe nahI tyAM sudhI A draSTi chUTe nahIM ne ? loka zarIre gaMdhAto kAdava kyAre copaDe ? ene lhAya baLe tyAre pachI reDiyo, A gAMDapaNa kyAMthI pesI gayuM A badhuM. AmAM zuM sAMbhaLavAnuM ? mANaso sAmasAmI bole te sAMbhaLavAnuM. jIvatAMnuM sAMbhaLIe. A marelAnuM zuM sAMbhaLavAnuM ? meM koI dahADo reDiyo lIdho nathI. jo ghaDiyALe ya eTale hAthanuM ghaDiyALa kharIdyuM nathI. huM, peluM gharamAM mUkavAnuM lAvyA chIe. A to badhI meDanesa che, ghanacakkara banAvavAnAM

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144 mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 145 kArakhAnAM che. A chokarAMo Akho dahADo kAne reDiyo nathI aDADI rAkhatAM ? kAraNa ke A rasa navo navo udayamAM Avyo che bicArAMne ! A enuM navuM 'DevalapamenTa' che. jo 'Devalapa' thayelo hota to kAne reDiyo aDAData ja nahIM, eka phero joI lIdhA pachI pharI aDADe nahIM. navIna vastune eka phera jovAnI hoya, eno kAyama anubhava levAno nA hoya. A to kAnanI navesarathI Indriya AvI che tethI Akho dahADo reDiyo sAMbhaLyA kare che ! manuSyapaNAnI tenI zarUAta thAya che. manuSyapaNAmAM hajAro vakhata AvI gayelo mANasa AvuM tevuM nA kare. amArI pAse vyavahAra jAgRti to niraMtara hoya ! koI ghaDiyALanI kaMpanI mArI pAse paisA laI gaI nathI. koI reDiyovALAnI kaMpanI mArI pAsethI paisA laI gaI nathI. ame e vasAvyAM ja nathI. A badhAMno artha ja zo che ? 'miniMgalesa' che. je ghaDiyALe mane herAna karyo, jene jotAMnI sAthe ja mahIM tela reDAya e zuM kAmanuM ? ghaNAMkharAMne bApane dekhavAthI mahIM tela reDAya. pote vAMcato nA hoya, copaDI AvI mUkIne ramatamAM paDyo hoya ne acAnaka bApane dekhe to tene tela reDAya, evuM A ghaDiyALa dekhatAMnI sAthe tela paDyuM to baLyuM, mela ghaDiyALane cheTuM. ane A bIjuM badhuM reDiyo-TI.vI. to pratyakSa gAMDapaNa che, pratyakSa meDanesa' che. praznakartA : reDiyo to ghara-gharamAM che. dAdAzrI : e vAta judI che. jyAM jJAna ja nathI tyAM AgaLa zuM thAya ? ene ja moha kahevAya ne ? moha kone kahevAya che ? nA jarUriyAta cIjane lAve ne jarUriyAta cIjanI kasara veThe enuM nAma moha kahevAya. nakala karI ke bhautikavALAnI nakala karI ? jo bhautikavALAnI nakala karavI hoya to A pelA AphrikAnA che, emanI kema nathI karatAM ? paNa A to sAheba jevA lAgIe.. eTale nakalo karI. paNa tArAmAM barakata to che nahi ! zAno 'sAheba' thavA phare che ? paNa sAheba thavA mATe Ama arIsAmAM juo, paTIyA pADa pADa kare. ne pote mAne ke have olarAITa thaI gayo chuM. pAcho pATaluna paherIne Ama pAchaLa thabokA mAra mAra kare. alyA, zuM kAma vagara kAmano mAra mAra kare che ?! koI bApo ya jonAra nathI, sahu sahunA kAmamAM paDyAM che. sahu sahunI ciMtAmAM paDyA che. tane jovA navaruM ya koNa che ? sahu sahunI mAthAkUTamAM paDyA che. paNa potAnI jAtane zuM ya mAnI beThAM che ! manamAM mAne ke A traNaso rUpiyA vAranuM kapaDuM che. eTale loka mArI kiMmata karaze. paNa A to jovA ja koI navaruM nathI ne. paNa to ya manamAM phUlAyA kare. ane sTeja gherathI bahAra javAnuM thAya ne to pATaluna badalyA kare. e ya bIjuM pATaluna lAvo. A loka kaMI jevA tevA hoya che ? alyA, zuM dhAryuM che te A ? tane jovA mATe koI bApo ya navaro nathI. zuM tAruM jovAnuM che te ? paNa to ya sAruM pATaluna paherIne manamAM zuM ya mAnyA kare, AvuM che. A jagata. pAchuM penTa phATayuM hoya to sAMdha sAMdha karyA kare. zA hAruM sAMdho cho ? tyAre kahe, koI joI jAya che. alyA che kaMI AbarU, te vagara, kAmanA AbarU rAkha rAkha karavA pharo cho. mUA, koInI AbarU to meM joI ja nahIM. AbarUdAra mANasa to kevo sugaMdhIvALo hoya. AjubAju loka paccIsa mAIlanA 'reDIyasa'mAM bolatAM hoya ke zreSThI puruSa kahevA paDe ! phalANA zeTha kahevAM paDe ! AjubAju badhA kahetAM hoya. ene ghera jaIene to ya suMgadha Ave. A to mUA, gharamAM ja gaMdhAtA hoya. gharamAM ya enA bAbAne pUchIe ke, 'bhaI caMdulAla zeTha...." tyAre kahe, 'mArA phAdharanI vAta karo cho ? e cakkara tamane kaMIthI bhegA thayA.' evuM che A jagata. praznakartA : phakta chokarAone phezananI paDI hoya che. badhAM kapaDAM ne A te badhAnAM zokhIna hoya che ! tavuM penTa paherI jo je kare takatAmAM; ta ko' navaruM jovAM, sahu sahatI ciMtAmAM! navuM penTa paherIne arIsAmAM jo jo karyA kare. alyA, arIsAmAM zuM jue che ? A konI nakala kare che. to juo ! AdhyAtmavALAnI

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146 mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 143 Avaze. dAdA padhAryA pachI ja Avaze. A badhAnuM kAma thaI jaze. A to haju ApaNuM prakAzamAM Avaze ne tyAre A badhA chokarAo kAma kADhI leze. dAdAzrI : phezananI ya nathI paDelI, mohI che A to ! e to darajI Ama vAMkuM sIvI Ape ne to evuM paherIne phare. paNa moha, phezana nahIM. A mohI prajA kahevAya. A kALamAM darajIe lokone nacAvyA che ! eka phero TAITa kapaDAM karI Ape che, to evAM ya paherIne phare che. eka phero AvaDuM pahoLuM karI Ape che te ya paherIne phare che. A to nonasensa kahevAya, paNa AvA che mATe hindustAnanuM bhaluM thavAnuM che. AvAnI jarUriyAta hatI. pablika AvI thaI javAnI jarUra hatI. devalokathI utaryA vALachAvALAo! purthyathI badhuM poza pAmyA, na dIThAM khADAo! juone, AjanAM chokarAM ATalA lAMbA vALa rAkhe che, te zAthI? emanA abhiprAyamAM che ke A sAruM dekhAya che. ane A bhAIne lAMbA vALa rAkhavAnuM kahIe to ?! emane e kharAba dekhAya. A abhiprAyonuM ja sAmrAjya che. buddhie jemAM sukha mAnyuM tenA abhiprAya che. praznakartA : A to dararoja mUcha kApavI nA paDene, eTale rahevA devAnI. dAdAzrI : eno vAMdho nahIM. mUcho nA rAkhavI hoya teno ya vAMdho nathI. e to svataMtra zokhanI vAta che ne ! mUMDavI ke nA mUMDAvavI enA zokhanI vAta che ne ?! pelA bAvAo to AvaDI AvI moTI karIne rAkhe che ne ! emane kyAM pANI chAMTavuM paDe che !! - satyugamAM je devagatimAM gayA hatA, te atyAra sudhImAM devaloka bhogavyuM, emanuM belensa tyAM puruM thayuM eTale ahIM padhAryA pAchAM. khare TAIme, ApaNe nAdArIno vakhata Avyo tyAre e padhAryA. thaI gayA sAdArane ! e padhAryA eTale atyAre kAma to cAlu thaI gayuM ne ?! hoya che rUpALAM pAchAM, evAM kadarUpA nathI hotAM. ATalA vALa-bALa rAkhIne A have kazuM ya nathI rahyuM, paNa A devaloko AvyAM kharAM, nahIM ? tyAMthI choDyA kharAM. pelA gAnatAnamAMthI AvelAne eTale ahIM ke gAnatAna joIe ja. praznakartA : e jIvo Ave to ja badhuM prakAzamAM Ave ne ? dAdAzrI : prakAzamAM AvavA mATe ja A badhuM thayuM che. vacce traNa-cAra peDhI evI AvI gaI, A pAchalAM eMsIeka varSamAM te mUcho kADhavAnI cAlu thaI gaI. e cAreka peDhI sudhI TakI, pachI have e khalAsa thaI gaI. pAchuM navI jAtanuM Avaze. pAchA thobhIA rAkhaze, dADhI rAkhaze ne badhA kaMI jAtajAtanuM tophAna cAlaze. Ama A cakkara pharyA kare, kALa pramANe badhuM thayA kare, emAM koIno ya doSa nathI. eka dahADo naryA phreMca kaTavALA ja dekhAtA hatA. jyAM gADImAM badhe ja phreMcakaTavALA. eTale badhuM pharyA karavAnuM. A mUcho kADhavAno nAda to ApaNA dezamAM hato ja nahIM. e to phorenano badho pesI gayo che, A yuropIyana AvyA ne emano nAda A lokone peTho che. paNa ApaNA loko sudharI gayA ne ! pahelAM pArasIo sudharyA, pachI dhIme dhIme ApaNA loko ya sudharI gayA. nahIM to to ApaNe tyAM mucho kADhene eTale loka pUche ke bhaI koNa marI gayuM che ? huM to nathI jANato ? ottArInI ! A apazukananI vAta thaI ? hA, koI marI jAya tyAre ja mUcho kADhajo. evuM ApaNA loka kahetA. paNa A have evuM kazuM ya rahyuM nathI. atyAre A vALa vadhAravAnI phezana cAlI che. paNa A loko puNyazALI to kharAMne ! juone emanAM AvatAM pahelAM makAno kevA kevAM baMdhAyAM, IlekTrisiTI kevI UbhI thaI, e badhuM kevI kevI taiyArIo thaI. nahIM to A dAdaramAM rahetA hoya ne to sAMje to keTalAM ya maccharAM keDI khAya. dAdaramAM to pAra vagaranAM maccharAM ane muMbaI zaheramAM jo kadI oLakhANavALAne tyAM bhUlezvaramAM mukAma karyo hoya ne to Akho dahADo saMDAsa gaMdhAyA karatAM hoya, e cAlIo gaMdhAyA phare ! sIdhA devaloko AvyA che ne atyAre emano kALa nirmANa thayelo hoya, te dahADethI ja nirmANa thayelo hoya ke amuka kALe ja A loko

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148 mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 149 ja karatI hoya baLI ! tyAM to bhUlecUke nA javAya. enAM karatAM A maccharo sArAM. bahu tyAre rAte moDhAMmAM pesI jaze ! paNa atyAre A vALachAvALA chokarAMo to emaNe AvuM kazuM joyuM ja nathI ! e jANatA ja nathI ke ahIM maccharAM hatAM. e lokoe bhIDa ja badhe joI che. bhIDa ja bhALI janmathI ja javAnoe tathI joI chUTa kadi saMtAnoe! ja nathI. ame to AvuM jANIe ke AvuM ja hoya, bhIDa hoya. meM kahyuM ke amArA vakhatamAM ame muMbaI AvatA te eka DabbAmAM beThA hoya to joDe koI mANasa nA maLe te bIjA DabbAmAMthI ko'kane khoLavo paDe, tyAre evI chUTa hatI. tyAre chokarAMo hasavA lAgyA ke evuM to hotuM haze! meM kahyuM, evuM ja hatuM badhuM. emaNe to joyeluM ja nahIM ne evuM badhuM. emaNe to janmyA tyAranuM AnuM A ja joyeluM. laTakIne AvavAnuM ne laTakIne javAnuM ane kyu, kyu ne kyu vagara to joyuM ja nathIne ! badhAmAM kyu, khAMDamAM, telamAM, TIkITa levA mATe badhe kyu ne kyuM ja. eTale A badhuM jUnuM pharyA kare, pAchaluM badhuM badalAyA kare ne navuM Ave. A rAunDamAM che badhuM. A yugo e ya rAunDa che. pAchaluM badhuM bhUlADI de ane pAchuM A navuM navuM utpanna thAya. navI navI avasthAo utpanna thayA ja kare jagatamAM. ane navI peDhI ane jUnI peDhIne jhaghaDA cAlyA ja kare. vaDIlotI kacakaca, traNeya kALamAM; UMdhI TopI, to ya kaho, zobhe tArA vALamAM! eka phero huM gADImAM beTho hato. te ja paccIseka varSa pahelAMnI vAta che. huM to gADImAM pesavA gayo, tyAre badhA chokarAo Ama sAmasAmI paga para paga nAkhIne beThAM hatAM ne UbhA rahevAnI jagyA nahIM. meM eka nAnI bega hAthamAM rAkhelI. A jJAna thatAM pahelAMnI vAta karuM chuM. bega evI vAparuM ke bhale be mahinA, cAra mahinA cAle to vAMdho nahIM, paNa eka bega upara ApaNe besavuM. e cAmaDAnI bega tUTI jAya to vAMdho nahIM. paNa enI upara besavA joIe. Ama khurazI jevuM. eTale TrenamAM peThAne pachI bega mUkavA gayo. tyAre pelAM chokarAM kahe, 'kAkA, zuM karavA bega upara besavA jAva cho, bega upara besatAM nahIM phAve. tame ahIM Upara beThaka upara beso." emAM eka chokaro uThIne nIce besI gayo ane mane ATalI jagyA karI ApI. mAre to besavA mATe bahu thaI gaI. pachI beTho. tyAra pachI meM chokarAMone kahyuM, "alyA, tamane A bhIDa nathI lAgatI ! tamane kema karIne A bhIDa game che ? tame A paga upara paga nAkhyAM che, khabhekhabhA Ama aDADIne badhA beThelA cho, A pAra vagaranI bhIDamAM !' tyAre pelA chokarAoe javAba Apyo, mane e noMdha karavA jevo javAba lAgyo. mane kahe ke "kAkA, tame bhIDa zene kaho cho?" A chokaro ulaTo mane pUche ke bhIDa tame zene kaho cho ? tyAre meM kahyuM ke "alyA, A bhIDa na hoya ?" tyAre kahe che ke, "nA, A bhIDa nA kahevAya. tame Ane bhIDa kaho cho ?" meM kahyuM ke bhaI, meM to chUTa joyelI eTale mane A bhIDa lAge, tame to chUTa joyelI nathI lAgatI. to kahe, nA, ame janmyA tyArathI ja AvuM joyeluM ne eTale ame chUTa jANatA jUnI peDhIvALAM chokarAMo jo ke kacakaca karatAM hoya to huM ene pUchuM ke tame nAnA hatA tyAre tamArA bApa kazuM tamane kahetA hatA ke ? tyAre kaheze, bApA ya kacakaca karatA hatA. e bApAne pUchIe tame nAnA hatA tyAre ? to kaheze, amArA bApA ya kacakaca karatA hatA. e A 'Age se calI AvI che. allAnI kUNI jevuM, Age se calI ApI! chokaro jUnI vAta svIkAravA taiyAra nathI. eTale ApaNe badhA, vAMdhA paDI gayA che. bApane huM morDana thavAnuM kahuM chuM, to thatA nathI. e zI rIte thAya ? morDana thavuM e kaMI sahelI vAta nathI. kAraNa ke dareka yugamAM haMmezA Avo bheda paDI jAya che. kaLiyuga jyAre palaTo mAre tyAM e vakhate jo mUrkha hoya to pakaDa rAkhe. huM to pahelethI ja morDana thaI gayelo. kAraNa ke e yuga phare che. A vacce chokarAM che te AvaDAM AvaDAM vALane Ama thobhIyA-bobhIyA emAM lokoe TIkA

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150 mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 151 karavA mAMDI, meM kahyuM, nA karazo. e chokarAM emane A buddhipUrvaka nathI thatuM A. A to varlDa Ijha dhI pajhala ITaselpha. pote jAte ja koyaDo thaI gayo che. A ane guhya che koyaDo !! A vaiDiyAM gharamAM pese to kaheze, "A lokhaMDanuM kabATa ? A reDiyo ? A AvuM kema ? tevuM kema ?" ema Dakho kare. alyA, koI juvAnanI dostI kara. A to yuga ja badalAyA karavAno. te vagara A jIve zI rIte ? kaMIka navuM jue eTale moha thAya. navuM nA hoya to jIve zI rIte ? AvuM navuM to anaMta AvyuM ne gayuM, temAM tamAre Dakho karavAno nA hoya. tamane nA phAve to te tamAre nA karavuM. A AIskrIma ema nathI kaheto tamane ke amArAthI bhAgo. ApaNe nA khAvo hoya to nA khaIe. A to gheDiyAM enI para ciDhAyA kare. A matabhedo to jamAno badalAyAnAM che. A chokarAM to jamAnA pramANe kare. moha eTale navuM navuM utpanna thAya ane navuM ne navuM ja dekhAya che. ame nAnapaNathI buddhithI bahu ja vicArI lIdheluM ke A jagata UMdhuM thaI rahyuM che ke chatuM thaI rahyuM che, ane e paNa samajAyeluM ke koIne sattA ja nathI A jagatane pheravavAnI. chatAM ame zuM kahIe chIe ke, 'jamAnA pramANe eDajasTa thAva !chokaro navI ja TopI paherI Ave to evuM nA kahIe ke, 'AvuM kaMIthI laI Avyo ?" enA karatAM 'eDajasTa' thaIe ke, 'AvI sarasa TopI kyAMthI lAvyo ? keTalAnI AvI ? bahu sastI maLI ?' Ama eDajasTa' thaI jaIe. praznakartA : reDiyo, ghaDiyALa badhuM hoya, to eDajasTa to thavuM paDe he bujhargo, tame karo! bhUlakAM vaccenuM aMtara ho! praznakartA : chokarAMne mahemAna gaNavAM ? dAdAzrI : mahemAna gaNavAnI jarUra nathI. A chokarAMne sudhAravA mATe eka rasto che, emanI joDe mitracAra karo, ame to nAnapaNathI ja A rasto lIdhelo. te AvaDA nAnA chokarA joDe paNa mitrAcArI ne paMcyAzI varSanA daiDiyA joDe paNa mitrAcArI ! chokarA joDe mitrAcArInuM sevana karavuM joIe. saMsArano artha ja samasaraNa mArga, eTale niraMtara parivartanapaNAne pAmyA kare. tyAre A vaiDiyAo jUnA jamAnAne ja vaLagI rahe. alyA, jamAnA pramANe kara, nahIM to mAra khAIne marI jaIza ! jamAnA pramANe "eDajasTamenTa' levuM joIe. jagata pharyA ja kare che. niraMtara pharyA ja kare che. ekane eka jAtanuM rahene, to mANasane game ja nahIM ane manuSyano svabhAva kevo che, ke nAnapaNamAM joyuM hoya evuM ne evuM ja A chokarAne kaheze, tAre AvuM karavAnuM. alyA, rahevA de. vakhata badalAI gayo, vAta badalAI gaI. te dahADe hoTalo ya hotI ne kazuM nahotuM. atyAre hoTalo che, atyAre nA cAlIe to kyAre cAlIe ? samaya pramANe pharavuM joIe badhuM. samaya pramANe A jagata pharyA ja karavAnuM ane pachI pharI pharI pAchuM enI e ja jagyAe Ave ane have evA ja caNIyA ne badhuM pAchuM evuM ja paheraze. praznakartA : A zarUAta thaI gaI. dAdAzrI : hA thaI jAya. te cUDIo-bUDIo pAchuM pharI evuM ne evuM ja paheraze. eTale samaya pramANe badhuM pharyA ja kare ane tethI ja navuM navuM lAge che, tethI ja jIvAya che. nahIM to jIvAya nahIM. jUnuM thaI jAya to game ? enI e ja dazA hoya to game nahIM mANasane. amArA vakhatamAM saheja hoTelamAM gayo hoya to ghare mA-bApa dama dAdAzrI : eDajasTa to thaIe, paNa ApaNane e anukuLa nA Avene. eDajasTa thaIe, emAM ApaNe virodhI nahIM. e kahe, vecAto lAvavo che. to kahIe 'lAvo bhAI, emAM virodha nA karIe ApaNe. lAvo mUko. juo, e pUche ke AmAM nukazAna zuM? to ame kahIe. nahIM to vAre ghaDIe ApaNe zuM kAma kaca kaca karIe. A to sahu sahunuM bagADe che !

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mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra kADhI nAkhe. kAraNa ke mA-bApe joyelI ja nahIM. e amuka jamAnAmAM UcharyAM. emanAM amuka jAtanAM e paryAya paDI gayelAM. A emane game nahIM ane chokarAone A game. te matabheda, A sAMdhA ja badhA paDyA kare che. anaMta avatArathI ja, A avatAramAM ja AvuM thayuM evuM nathI, pahelethI ja AnuM A ja cAlyuM AvyuM. navA-jUnAno sAMdho cAlyA ja kare, jhaghaDo thoDo vakhata rahe, thoDo vakhata sAruM rahe. te gharamAM vIsa mANaso hoya te badhA ya dAdA kahe e pramANe cAlyA kare. evuM thoDo vakhata rahe. pachI to badhAMnAM dhANI-caNA vecI khAya evo jamAno Ave. 152 1921-22tI sAlato sAMdho; AcAra-vicAra, paheravAM-khAvAmAM! badhuM vAtAvaraNa AnaMdamAM rAkho. bhUlavALAne ya AnaMdamAM rAkhIne pachI kAma levuM ? ane mArI joDe beso cho roja, kaMI ne kaMI zIkhavAnuM to maLe ja ne ? paNa jyAM sudhI tame peluM jUnuM khaseDo nahIM, tyAM sudhI peluM navuM eDajasTa nA thAya. kAraNa ke A to ApaNe vArasAmAM AveluM, e zI rIte ApI devAya (!)? praznakartA : bApa-dAdAnuM prekTIkala joyeluM che. dAdAzrI : e to te dA'rDa kiMmatI haze, Aje nathI kiMmatI. mAruM zuM kahevAnuM che ? 21 ane 22nI sAlano sAMdho, 21nI sAla pahelAM je janmelAM hoya tene tamAre je kahevuM hoya te kahejo. paNa 22nI sAla pachI nA kahezo. praznakartA : emAM ya je vaoNra kvoliTImAM janmelA ene bIlakula nA kahevAya. dAdAzrI : kazuM ja nA kahevAya. A vaoNra kvoliTIne kazuM ja nA kahevAya. paNa 22nI sAla pachI huM joI lauM, ke A 22nI sAla. te dADe be sAMdhA paDyA, 21ne 22mAM. 21mAM janmelAnAM dhotiyA, badhAMyanA haMDreDa parasanTanA ane 22mAM leMghA peThA. tyAMthI leMghA vadhatA, vadhatA, vadhatA 1921ne 22nI sAlano sAMdho. koIne leMghAvALo jANuM to huM mA bApa-chokarAno vyavahAra jANuM ke 1922nI sAlavALo che. bAkI vaoNra kvoliTI mAla to vAta ja judI. 1921 ne 1922nI sAla te meM hisAba khoLI kADhelo. divase divase manobaLa tUTatAM cAlyAM, aMtaHkaraNamAM AkhuM baLa ja ! te amArA pahelAM kaMI dhaiDiyAo baLavALA hatA evuM nahIM. praznakartA : saraLa haze. 153 dAdAzrI : sa2Le ya abuddhine laIne buddhi ochI tene laIne, jyAM sudhI buddhi hoya te mUo saraLa rahe ja nahIM evA hatA. ApaNA loko game e kahe ke amArA vaiDiyAo bahu sArA hatA, paNa e to emane jyAM jyAM skopa maLyo che ne, tyAM skopa choDyo nathI. eTale Amane skopa vagara A sIdhA rahelA che. tamArA bhaIne ane tamAre bene jhaghaDo cAlato hoya to ya tamArA vADa AgaLa galakuM laTakatuM hoya, to toDI ne, ema nahIM ke A pArakAnuM lauM chuM. e to khoLato ja hoya AvuM. pachI vANiyo, brAhmaNa badhAM ya, AvI dAnato hatI. to atyAre bahu sArI. meM to badhA laiDiyAo joyA'tA ne. bhoLA zAthI kahevAya ? joyeluM ja nahIM. bIjuM gAma ja joyeluM nahIM. pachI zuM ? DAmarano rasto joyo hoya to bhAMjagaDa thAya ne ? te dADe to huM 22-23 varSe muMbaI jaI te Avelo ne ! te pachI bhAdaraNa jauMne tyAre ko'ka Ama pacAsa-poNaso mANaso upara amatho TeM karato hoyane. tyAre huM kahuM, kAkA, muMbaImAM saMDAsa joI Avo. zeThIyAonA kevAM che ?' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'A tamArI badhI milakata eka saMDAsamAM ! haiM ?" vagara kAmano mUo TeMTaeN karyA kare!! bahu receDa, receDa badhuM. kazuM dharmano to AMkaDo ya nahotAM jANatA. Ama maMdiramAM jAya to parasAdamAM citta. parasAda vaheMcAyone, parasAda ? are, mUA parasAdamAM... te hoya keTalo zIro, ATalo ja Ama lIsoTo mAre, te ya Ama cATacATa kare. are melane, zuM cATacATa kare che A ? ane AjanA chokarAM to ApaNe ApIe chIene peMDo. to ya nahIM letAM, tame joyeluM evuM badhuM ? ApaNAM paiDIAonuM joyeluM ? tamane lAge che evuM ? ApaNAM paiDIyAnuM. khoTuM nahIM bolatone ? teM badhuM joyeluM ? meM bahu joyeluM. tema chatAM evuM nathI, tadna evuM nahIM. Tena parasenTa evA sarasa

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154 mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 155 hatA ke vakhANavA jevAM. Aje evA mANasa nA maLe, Tena parasenTa mANaso evAM hatA. vANiyA-pATIdAra badhAM ya che te zAka-bAkanI corI karI lAve. ame hauM karI lAvelAne ! paNa mane nAnapaNamAMthI eka Teva bahu suMdara hatI, game tyAM e laI jAya emanA khetaramAM. badhA zAka bAMdhI lAve, paNa huM ghare bAMdhI nA lauM. koI dA'Do ghera kazuM lAvyo nathI, koI dA'Do ya lAvyo nathI. amuka amuka dhyeya bahu suMdara hatAM. tyAM AgaLa, tyAM mogaro khAdho eTalo kharo, bAkI ghera nahIM lAvavAno. pelA badhAM to bAMdhI lAve che loko. paNa bahu saMskAra kharAba ane jo tiraskAra, tiraskAra, harijana upara, badhA tiraskAra, tiraskAra, tiraskAra ane rAMDelI baI upara tame joyelo tiraskAra ? tamane arerATI nahotI thatI ? bahu ja jabarajasta tiraskAra ane huM to virodhI pAcho, kaDaka, kaDaka ne virodhI. mane to poSAya nahIM A tiraskAra, bahu tiraskAra. A kUtaruM gharamAM pesI jAya che ne, teno vAMdho nathI. paNa A harijana gAmamAM pese te ya harakata tane paDI. tyAre kahe, nA pAchaLa jhADuM bAMdho, enA pagalAM paDe che ne ! te e bhAI cAle tenI pAchaLa jhADu cAle eTale pelA pagalAM bhUMsAI jAya, ane AgaLa koDiyuM bAMdho, kahe che. te ahI koDiyuM bAMdhatA'tA, ghUMkavuM hoya ne nIce thuMkAya nahIM. tyAre muA bilADIo tamArA gharamAM phare che. mUA, tamArA rasoDAmAM phare to ya calAvo cho ne A nahIM calAvatA ? bilADIo dahIMmAM moTuM ghAlyuM hoyane, to ya mUA dahIM khAya che. jANe che ke A bilADI e cAkhyuM. kaI jAtanA loka che te badhA ! tamAro nyAya kaI jAtano ? praznakartA : e kuNI ja caDhe ne ! dAdAzrI : ane pelI paiDI ? praznakartA : caDhe ja nahIM. dAdAzrI : ene caDhatAM vAra lAge. pelI kuNI dUdhI to sapATAbaMdha caDhI jAya, Ama varako vaLI jAya. eTale A javAna mANaso to jaladI vaLI jAya. potAno chokaro hoya, bhatrIjo hoya ke game te hoya, e vadhAre paDatI buddhi vadhAre, ane enI AgaLa jato hoya to ApaNe ene helpa karavI joIe. ame to nAnapaNamAMthI ja AvuM nakkI kareluM paNa A badhAM gheDiyAone meM joyelA. saheja koI AgaLa vadhyo ke mArI ThokIne, dhakko mArIne pAchaLa pADI deze. ane pAchaLa rahI gayo hoya to ene AgaLa laDI Avaze. paNe mArI pAchaLa rahe. A badhAM khoTAM khoTAM ja ne ! A keTaluM badhuM DevalapamenTa kAcuM che. mane bahu cIDha caDhe ke A kaI jAtanA loko che ? chokaro AgaLa vadhyo to ApaNe AnaMda pAmavo joIe ne ! paNa have A jamAnAmAM lokonAM mana sArAM che eTaluM meM joyuM. chokaro AgaLa vadhe emane te game. praznakartA : paNa e to pahelAM bhaNatara ochuM hatuM ne, eTale evuM haze. tejo dveSa vadhAre paiDIyAmAM; yuvAnone na paDI koInI duniyAmAM! dAdAzrI : nA nA. ane e loko zuM kahe che ? tame bhaNyAM cho paNa ame gaNelAM chIe, pAchA amArI sAme vAta moTI kare che ? gaNatarI amAruM hatuM. jo ke e loko gaNataramAM khoTAM nahotA, barobara hatuM. A badhuM DevalapamenTa kAcuM. A aMgrejo AvyA pachI ApaNAM lokonI buddhi Devalapa thaI gaI che. A bhaNatara vadhyuM ene lIdhe Devalapa thayo. khoTAM durAgraha ne khoTI dhamAlo badhI tuTI gaI. eTale bahuM sAruM thaI gayuM. pahelAM to koI koIne AgaLa ja vadhavA nA de. eTale meM to mArAM bhatrIjAone kahI dIdhuM ke, 'tame mArI helpathI AgaLa Avo, to mane vAMdho nathI. ane AgaLa AvyA pachI tamArAM zIMgaDAM laIne mane sAmAM AvIne mArajo ne mane mArazo tyAre mane ema lAgaze ke A DAhyo che. mANasanI nAnI uMmara ne eka bAju kuNI dUdhI ane mANasanI moTI uMmara ne eka bAju paiDI dUdhI, te kayuM zAka caDhI jAya ?

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156 mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 157 paNa tame mArAthI AgaLa vadhajo.' jyAre ApaNA loko to pAchuM pADavAnuM khoLa khoLa kare. meM zuM kaheluM ke AI vIla helpa yu. meM AkhI jIMdagI evuM ja rAkheluM. AvI A janarezata helthI mAIDavALI; ta mArI-tArI tiraskAra ke tarachoDavALI! praznakartA : mA-bApano chokarAo tiraskAra kare, mA-bApane gAMThe nahIM evA badhA thayA che ne ! dAdAzrI : e tiraskAra-biraskAra kare che te badhuM ene mArga maLyo nathI eTale. mArga maLe ne to A to bahu sArAM chokarAMo che. praznakartA: heldI mAInDa eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : heldI mAInDa eTale mArA-tArAnI bahu nA paDelI hoya ane ame to nAnA hatA ne, tyAMthI bahAra koIkanuM kazuM paDeluM hoya, kaMIka Apo te laI levAnI icchA. koIkane tyAM gayA jamavA, to thoDuM vadhAre khaIe, ghera khAtAM hoya tenA karatAM. nAnA chokarAthI mAMDIne TheTha sudhI mamatA. pahelAM viSayomAM hoya cokhkhAM loka; dasa varSamAM ya dIgaMbara, vitA roka! ApaNo deza yujhalesa thaI gayo, je eTalo badho tiraskAra, halakI nAtano. pATIdAra vANiyAnI joDe brAhmaNo bese nahIM ne brAhmaNanI joDe vANiyo bese nahIM. UMcA hAthe prasAda Ape. paNa atyAranI A prajA helbI mAinDavALI che, bahu sarasa che ! chokarAo mATe sArI bhAvanA ja karyA karone. e badhA saMjogo bhegAM thaI jaze. bAkI A chokarAMomAM kazuM vaLe evuM nathI. chokarAM vaLaze, paNa te enI meLe kudarata vALaze. chokarAM sArAmAM sArAM che. koI kALe nahotA evA chokarAM che atyAre. guNo haze te huM evuM kahuM chuM ke koI kALe nahotAM evAM ? koI jAtano bicArAMne tiraskAra nathI, kazuM nathI. khAlI mohI, bhaTakabhaTaka kare che sInemAmAM ne badhe. ane pahelAnA kALamAM te tiraskAra eTalA badhA ke brAhmaNanuM chokaruM pelAne aDe nahIM. che atyAre kazI bhAMjagaDa ? praznakartA : evuM kaMI nathI. jarA ya nathI. dAdAzrI : te badho cokhkho thaI gayo mAla ane lobhe ya nathI, mAnanI e paDI nathI. ane pelo atyAra sudhI to badho jUThTho mAla. mAnI-krodha-lobhI ! ane A to mohI bicArAM jIvaDAM jevA che. praznakartA H Apa kaho cho ke atyAranI janarezana helthI mAInDanI che ane bIjI bAju juo to badhA vyasanI che ne badhA keTaluM badhuM che. dAdAzrI : bhale e vyasanI dekhAya, paNa emane bicArAne rasto nA maLe ne to zuM thAya mANasa ? emanuM mAInDa helthI che. paNa amArA vakhatanI e prajA eka bAbatamAM bahu sArI hatI. viSaya vicAra nahi. koI strI tarapha kharAba draSTi nahi. hoya, seMkaDe pAMcasAta TakA mANasa evA hoya kharAM. te phakta rAMDelIo ja khoLI kADhe. bIjuM kazuM nahi. je ghare koI rahetuM nA hoya tyAM rAMDelI eTale ghara vagaranuM ghara ema kahevAya. ame 14-15 varSanAM thayAM tyAM sudhI chokarIo jue to bena kahIe. bahu cheTenI hoya to ya. e vAtAvaraNa evuM hoya. kAraNa ke 10-11 varSanAM hoya tyAM sudhI to digaMbarI pharatA ! 10 varSanAM hoya to ya digaMbara pharato hoya. digaMbara eTale samajyA ? praznakartA : hA, hA. khyAla AvI gayo. dAdAzrI : ane e ghaDIe mA kahe paNa kharI, "raDyA, digaMbara, lUgaDuM pahera, payagaMbara jevo." eTale digaMbara dizAo rUpI lugaDAM. eTale viSayano vicAra ja nA Ave. eTale bhAMjagaDa nahi. te viSayanI jAgRti ja nahi. praznakartA : eTale samAjanuM eka jAtanuM prezara eTale ? dAdAzrI : nA, samAjanuM prezara nahi. mA-bApanuM valaNa, saMskAra !

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mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra traNa varSanuM chokaruM e nA jANatuM hoya ke mArAM mA-bApane Avo kaMI saMbaMdha che. eTalI badhI suMdara sikrasI hoya ! ane evuM hoya te dahADe chokarAM bIjA rUmamAM sUtAM hoya. e mA-bApanAM saMskAra. atyAre to peNe beDarUma ne peNe beDarUma. mAne eka bAju chokaro thAya ane vahune ya chokaro thAya. jamAno badalAyo ne ?! beDarUma, DabalabeDa hoya che ne ? 158 ane koI puruSa te dahADe eka pathArImAM sUve nahi. koI nA sUve. te dahADe to kahevata hatI ke strI sAthe AkhI rAta sUI jAya to te strI thaI jAya, enA paryAya aDe. te koI AvuM nA kare. A to ko'ka akkalavALAe zodhakhoLa karI. DabalabeDa vecAyA ja kare ! eTale prajA thaI gaI DAuna. DAuna thavAmAM phAyado zo thayo ? pelA tiraskAra badhA jatA rahyA. eTale huM to khuzI thayo ke sAruM thayuM A DAuna thaI gayA.' have DAuna thayelAMne caDhAvatAM vAra nahi lAge. paNa tiraskArane e badhuM gAMDapaNa jatuM rahyuM haDahaDATa! nobala thayA, nobiliTI AvI. bahu lAbha thayo che. aMgrejo ne A badhA bhegA thayA te bahu sAruM thayuM, tiraskAra jatA rahyA. DabalabeDa na dIThAM. bApa-dAdAe; koNa jANe bhAratamAM peThA kayA kAyadAe! alyA, A DabalabeDa te hiMdustAnamAM hotAM haze ? kaI jAtanA jAnavaro che ? hindustAnanA strI-puruSo koI dahADo bhegA eka rUmamAM hotA ja nathI ! haMmezA judI ja rUmamAM rahetA hatA ! tene badale A jo to kharAM !! atyAre A bApa ja beDarUma karI Ape, DabalabeDa ! te pelAM samajI gayAM ke A duniyA AvI ja cAlyA kare che. tamane khabara che ke pahelAM strI-puruSonI judI rUmomAM pathArIo rahetI hatI. tamane khabara nathI. e badhuM meM joyeluM A. tame e Dabala beDa joyelA ? haiM ? zuM kahe che ? praznakartA : Dabala beDa goThavAya evA oraDA ja kevI rIte hatA ? mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : ekaMdara sAruM che, A chokarA badhA yujhalesa nIkaLyAM che ne ! sAva jUTho mAla, taddana jUTho mAla. paNa emane kahyuM hoya ke A holamAM paccIsa jaNa sUI jAva, to tarata badhA sUI javAnA. ane ene bApa zIkhavADe ke jAva DabalabeDa laI Ava. eTale pAchuM evuM ya zIkhI jAya bicArA. emane evuM kaMI nathI. Aja DabalabeDa hoya te ahIM AgaLa bIje dahADe Ame ya hoya. evuM kazuM nathI. A to bApa vAMkA che. barakata nathI evo UMdhe raste caDhAve che. 159 mArI TacamAM Avelo eke ya chokaro jUThuM bolato ja nathI. bhaya lAge che chatAM ya jUThuM bolato nathI. have e chokarone joIne mane evuM thaI jAya che ke mArA vakhatamAM koI chokaro sAcuM bolato nahoto. vaDhavAnI jagyA hoya tyAM sAcuM bolato nahoto; saheja ja apamAna thaI jAya evI jagyA hoya to ya sAcuM bolyA nathI ane A to game te thAya mArI nAkhavAno hoya to ya jUThuM bolyo nathI. tyAre juone A prajA kevI sarasa che ! hindustAnanuM bhAvi kevuM ujjavaLa che !! te A kudaratano upakAra che ke A janarezana bilakula helthI mAInDanI pAkI che, helthI mAInDanI janarezana koI vakhata pAke nahIM ane pAke tyAre varlDanuM kalyANa kare. Ane mArgadarzana ApanAra joIe. praznakartA : eTale kaI rItanuM mArgadarzana ? dAdAzrI : huM ApuM chuM atyAre mArI pAse badhAM taiyAra karuM chuM. ame janmyA tyAre helthI mAInDa nahotuM. huM janmyo tyAre to cora mAInDanI janarezana hatI, 78 varSa pahelAM to. praznakartA : dAdA, e trevIsa varSanAM che. A helthI mAInDamAM AvI gayA ? dAdAzrI : hA, tame helthI mAInDamAM AvI gayA. praznakartA : emane phIjhIkala phITanesanuM sarTiphikeTa ApavuM hoya to kaI rIte ApavuM ? dAdAzrI : helthI mAInDanA mANaso ane anahelthI lokonI bhegA

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mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 161 ne temAM moha, jemAM ne temAM moha ! AjanA chokarAmAM kazI barakata nathI. raste jatAM sulemAna enI benane pakaDene to, 'eya sulemAna, mArI bena che, bena che" karaze. pahelAMnA chokarA hoya to zuM kare, ke sulemAnane gaLe bacakuM bhare evA. ne atyAre A loka to bicArAM 'mArI bena thAya, mArI bena thAya' choDI de. evuM badhuM moLuM khAtuM ! paNa e moLuM che to phAyadAkAraka thaze ke A jJAna badhe pahoMcaze. ApaNuM jJAna badhuM pahoMcaze, moLuM nA hota to pesata ja nahIM ne ! tathI mamatA ke baskata yuvAnomAM; saraLatA ne cokhkhAI jIvatomAM! 160 mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra rahevuM. eTale phIjhIkala phITaneza hoya ja nahIM bicArAne ! eTale A mAInDa helthI che emanuM, e mArI zodhakhoLa che. heldI mAInDanI koI vakhata janarezana pAkI hoya to te A kALamAM pAkI che. helthI thatI thatI AvI. amArA vakhatathI heldI thatI thatI AvI lAge che, mamatA ja nahIM. praznakartA : AjakAlanAM chokarAMone mAruM-tAruM nathI paNa mAruMmAruM che ema. dAdAzrI : bhale e lAge evuM, paNa kharI rIte Ama nathI bicArAne. bahu heldI mAInDanA che. huM emane oLakhI zakuM chuM sArI rIte. A mAruM kevuM kharAba dekhAya evuM kazuM nahIM. pAchuM luMgI paherIne ya pharyA kare. eTale chata nathI eTaluM sAruM che. A lokonI mahIM chata AvatAM vAra nahIM lAge. saMskAra AvatAM vAra nahIM lAge. praznakartA : A chokarAo ja bahu moTI samasyA che. dAdAzrI : samasyA moTI che, jabarajasta che. paNa te samasyA sudhare evI che. A kALamAM ja AvAM chokarAM che ke jenAmAM bilakula barakata ja nathI ane barakata nA hoya to ja sudhare. paNa barakatavALA sudhare nahIM. barakatavALA to emanAmAM, potAnA svArthamAM ekaThAM hoya, joDe tiraskAra hoya, bIjuM hoya, badhuM svArthamAM ekkA hoya. tethI AkhuM hindustAna bagaDI gayuM ne ? enAM karatAM barakata vagarano mAla sAro. mAnanI paDI nathI, kazI koI jAtanI paDelI nathI. ane mAne mAsI kahe evAM AjanAM loko ! mA jatI hoya ne to "mAsI, mAsI' kaheze !' alyA, tArI bA che A to ! are, keTalA to, vahu jatI hoya ne, to kaheze, 'bA ubhA raho, ubhAM raho.' A pAchaLa sADI evI dekhAtI hoya ne to vahune bA kahe ! eTale sAva barakata vagarano ! mohamAM paDelo ! vadhu mohI thaI gayA che ne ! eTale mohamAM paDelo mAla barakata vagarano hoya. jemAM bApa thatAM nahIM AvaDatuM. dhaNIne dhaNI thatAM nahIM AvaDatuM ane vahune vahu e thatAM nahIM AvaDatuM ne sAsu e sAsu thatAM AvaDatuM nathI. chokarAnI vahu Ave to rahI zake nahIM. A sAsu thaIne bese tyAre zuM e thAya ? A to have jJAna maLyA pachI, nahIM to pelInuM zuM thAya ? A jJAna maLyA pachI jema tema karIne nikAla kare, samabhAve phAIlono. sAsu thatAM AvaDe nahIM ne. sAruM thayuM eTale kaMI jevI tevI vAta che ?' DIgrI korsa pAsa thavo joIe, eno DIplomAM thAya to ya cAle. praznakartA : nAnapaNathI jo A jJAna badhuM maLyuM hoya, to cokhkhuM ja badhuM, vyavahAra badho cokhkho cAle. dAdAzrI : hA, ghaNuM kAma thaI jAya. praznakartA : atyAre to badhA naphaphaTa jevA ame thaI gayA chIe. ahIMthI bahAra jaIe eTale pAchuM mazIna cAlyA kare. dAdAzrI : hA, barAbara che. kharuM kahe che. nAnapaNamAM AvuM maLyuM hoya to kAma thaI jAya ne ! juone, A chokarAone nAnapaNamAM maLyuM che te kevA DAhyA thaI gayA ! nahIM to A chokarAne to, AmAM barakata ja nahIM ! e soLa varSano pelo Avyo ne. te meM kahyuM, A barakata vagarano, tuM zuM karavA ahIM pesI gayo chuM ! A ja chokaro. tyAre kahe, je kaho e, mAthe paDyo chuM tamAre.

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162 mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 163 e prophesare lakhyuM ke gajabanI zodhakhoLa che A to kaMIka ! helthI mAInDa jUnA jamAnAmAM ya che te dhaNIne ne vahune phAvatuM zAthI ? e kaMI dhaNI hoMziyAra nahotA evA kaMI ! samajadAra nahotA. pelI abhaNa hatI strIo. ane pati e paramezvara svIkArI le ane A bhaNelI AvI e kaMI gAMThe ! kevo nikhAlasa Ajano yuvAvarga! saccAImAM to jANe utaryA svarga! bhaNatara nahotuM, paNa gaNatara hatuM te dahADe. A bhaNelI strIomAM gaNatara che nahIM bilakula. paNa A chokarAomAM ya gaNatara nathI. badhA barakata vagaranA kahevAya che chokarA AjanAM. Ame ya barakata nahIM ne Ame ya barakata nahIM. paNa emAM phAyado zo thayo ? eka prophesare pUchayuM ke A tamArA Aptaputro badhA nAnI uMmaranA kema che, moTI uMmaranA kema nathI ? meM kahyuM, moTI uMmaranA mananA cora hatAM, mUA. AjanI A janarezana helthI mAInDanI che. heldI mAInDa zAthI ? mamatA ja nahIM, bhAna mahIM hoya to mamatA hoya ne ! jene bhAna hoya tene to mamatA hoya ! mamatA ja nahIM ane pahelAM to, mArI uMmaramAM to chokarA hoya ne, te nAnuM pAMca varSanuM hoya ne, to ya tamArA ATha AnA paDI gayA hoya ne, to enI upara paga mUkIne vAta kare. cora bilakula, amArA vakhatamAM bilakula cora ja hatA loko. have atyAranAM chokarA bilakula barakata nahIM. eTale A guNe ya nathI emanAmAM. mamatA ja jatI rahI ne ! eTale meM kahyuM, heldI mAInDa che. emane vALanAra joIe. A chokarAone vALanAra joIe. amArA hAthe vaLe eTale olarAITa thaI jAya, bhagavAna thaI jAya. praznakartA H helthI mAInDano pelo jamAno kaI sAlathI kaho cho ? helthI mAInDavALA kaI sAlanA janma pachI gaNAya ? dAdAzrI : AjanA je A chokarA-chokarIo che, te paccIsa varSanI aMdaranA che e badhA helthI mAInDanA che. heldI mAInDa kema kahuM chuM huM ke ene jevuM zIkhavADe evuM taiyAra thaI jAya ! jUnA roga nathI. bhUkha lAge tyAre khAvAnuM khoLe, bIjuM nahIM. mamatA nahIM eTale enuM ghara eno bApa vecavA pharato hoya ne, to mahIM ene paDelI nA hoya. ane junA jamAnAmAM to bApAne kaheze, vecavAnuM nathI mAre. atyAre to helvI mAInDavALA, mamatA nahIM. eTale jevo ghaDavo hoya evo thAya. eTale praznakartA: Ajano yuvAnavarga kayA rAha para jaI rahyo che ? enuM bhaviSya ApazrInI draSTie zuM che ? sAco rAha zuM che ? dAdAzrI : Ajano yuvAnavarga atyAre kaMI paNa doravaNI nahIM hovAthI saphokezanamAM che. paNa Avo yuvAvarga koI kALe hato nahi evo che ke je yuvAvarga cokhkho che, pyora che. ene mArgadarzana ApanAranI jarUra che. jo mArgadarzana Ape to A hindustAna olarAITa thaI jAya ane mArgadarzana ApanAro maLI Avaze have thoDA vakhatamAM, badhuM maLI Avaze. ane A yuvAvarga eTalo badho sAro ke pote badhuM ja... kazuM saMtADato ja nathI. pyora kahI de che amane. eka chokaro hato, te mane kahe che ke dAdAjI, mane bahu duHkha thAya che. aMdara. meM kahyuM, zenA mATe tane duHkha thAya che ? tyAre kahe che, mane eka kharAba vicAra Ave che eTale mane duHkha thAya che. kema, AvA kema vicAra Ave che ? tyAre meM kahyuM, paNa zuM vicAra Ave che mane kahene ! huM tane maTADI dauM. tyAre kahe, "mane evAM vicAra Ave che ke dAdAjIne goLI mArI dauM.' hA, meM kahyuM. e barobara che. have tane duHkha thayA jevI vAta che A, nahIM ? meM kahyuM, paNa zAthI AvuM thayuM e mane kahe. tyAre kahe, tame vidhi karAvatA hatA te vakhate bIjAM bahAranAM mANasa AvyA. tene jhaTa bolAyAM ne mane tyAM AgaLa 10 miniTa aTakAvyo. eTale mane manamAM thayuM ke A dAdAne goLIbAra karo. meM kahyuM, 'barobara che, e mArI bhUle ya barobara che. eTale A mArI bhUla thaI ne mATe tane A vicAra Avyo. have nahIM Ave." bIjAMne pesavA dIdhAM, ene nA pesavA dIdho. Ave ja ne mANasane ? tIkho mANasa hoya to AvI jAya nA AvI jAya ? baMDakhora hoya..... eTale sAcuM bolyo. eTale meM eno khabho thAbaDyo ke dhanya che ke mArI rUbarUmAM tuM mane goLIbAra karavAnI vAta kahuM chuM, tuM sAcuM bolyo ? dhanya

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164 mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra mA bApa-chokarAMno vyavahAra 165 che A yuvAvargane ! ATaluM ja satya haze to yuvAvarga ekadama UMcA hAIlevale pahoMcI jaze ane A yuvAvarga to amArAM nimittamAM Avaze. te jeTalAM AvyAne e sapATAbaMdha caDhI jaze ! kAraNa nimitta che A. ane yuvAvarga bahu ja suMdara che. taddana sAco. kaMIpaNa sukha paDatuM nathI. chatAM ya satyatA choDato nathI. tyAre mane eka jaNe kahyuM, ke tame ene khabho thAbaDo cho, paNa tamArA jevAM A sAMbhaLanArA ya nahIM maLe. goLIbAra karavAnuM kahe che, chatAM tame ene thAbaDo cho ? bIjo to kADhI mele kahe che. tyAre meM kahyuM. nA, amAre ahIM nA hoya. akramavijJAna che A to. tame game eTalo virodha batAvo to amane vAMdho ja nA hoya. virodha e amArAmAM kaMI paNa bhUla hoya tenuM kAraNa che. amArI ja bhUla kaMI thAya. virodha kema utpanna thAya ? koI paNa jAtano virodha thAya e mArI ja bhUla che ! eTale yuvAvarga to bahu sArAM rAha para jaI rahyo che. emane nimitta maLI Avaze. joIe ke yuvAnone e sivAya bIjuM jovAnuM ja nA game. jotAMnI sAthe dila Thare evI yuvAnI joIe. hA, pachI e dharmamAM vaLI jAya. A to dila Thare evAM mANasa jatAM nathI, eTale bicArA bhaTake che. eTale A kabIra sAheba chene, te AkhI dilhImAM, te ghaDIe keTalAya mANaso rahetA'tA. to ya kabIra sAheba nIkaLyA, ko'ke pUchayuM ke kema kaMI Aja zuM che ? tyAre kahe, tapAsa karavA nIkaLyo chuM. tyAre kahe, konI tapAsa karavA nIkaLyo ? 'mANasane khojuM chuM.' kahe che, zuM kahe che ? hA, A dilhImAM ATalA badhA loka Aya-jAya kare che tyAre mANasa khojavo paDe ? kahe che. eTale pachI bolyo, ke "mANasa khojata meM phIrA, mANasakA beDA sukAla' kahe che, sAmAsAmI athaDAtA'tA. kahe che. paNa 'jAko dekhI dila Thare, tA kAM paDyA dukALa' kahe che. AkhI dilhImAM dila Thare evo mANasa nA joyo eTale bIje gAma bhaTakavA gayo, kahe che. eTale dila Thare evAM mANaso bhegAM thaI jAya to ApaNuM kalyANa thaI jAya ane yuvAno-buvAno badhA pharI jAya. ahI mArI hAjarImAM to A yuvAna khasatAM ja nahIM. paiNavuM ya nathI, kazuM ya karavuM nathI, kahe che. praznakartA: have A janarezanamAM pheraphAra karavA, e lokomAM vadhAre zaktio pragaTa karavA, kansTrakTIva (racanAtmaka) karavA mATe zuM mArgadarzana ApavuM ? zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : cAritravAna joIe. hA, sAmo mANasa cAritravAna hoya to bane. A vepArI loko zuM kare emAM ? A badhAM ja bIjhanesavALA vepArI thaI gayelAM che. cAritravAna joIe. e jenA vANImAM vacanabaLa hoya. jenA vANI-vartana ane vinaya manohara hoya, mananuM haraNa kare evuM jarUra che yuvAvargane doranAratI; 'dAdA' jevA kalAkamAM pheravatAratI! praznakartA : A navI prajAmAMthI dharmano lopa zA mATe thato jAya hoya. dAdAzrI : dharmano lopa to thaI ja gayo che, lopa thavAno bAkI ja rahyo nathI. have to dharmano udaya thAya che. lopa thaI rahe tyAre udayanI zarUAta thAya. jema A dariyAmAM oTa pUrI thAya eTale aDadhA kalAkamAM bharatInI zarUAta thAya. tevuM A jagata cAlyA kare che. bharatI-oTanA niyama pramANe, dharma vagara to mANasa jIvI ja zake nahIM. dharma sivAya bIjo AdhAra ja zo che, mANasane ? praznakartA : yuvAnone vALavA mATe zuM karavuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : yuvAnone dharma tarapha vALavA mATe bahu ja suMdara yuvAnI praznakartA: AjanA vidyArthIo to mAstara jo phUTapaTI saheja mAre to sAmI phariyAda kare. dAdAzrI : zuM kare che ? mAstaro evA ja maLyA che ke vidyArthInI pAse kAma kema levuM te AvaDatuM nathI eTale mAstarone doSa nathI. bIcArAM e ya zuM kare ?! emane jo kadI kamAya nahIM to ghera vahu vaDhe ! eTale

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166 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra emane A kamAvA mATe A badhuM javuM paDe che. phITanesa thatuM nathI, kAraNa ke cAritra nathI. cAritrabaLa joIe ! praznakartA: jo zikSako ja saMpUrNa hoya nahIM, to e loko TuDanTa ne kaI rItanA taiyAra karI zake, pUrNa thavA mATe ? - dAdAzrI : TuDanTa to nizALamAM, cAritravAna puruSa khoLI kADhI ane eka-eka jaNane hajAra-hajAra chokarAM soMpo to taiyAra thAya ! mArI pAse eka lAkha mANasa lAvo, huM vidhIna vana yara taiyAra karI ApavA taiyAra chuM ! eka lAkha TuDanTo lAvo ! (9) madhara-phAdharatI phariyAdo! moDo UThe to mA-bApatI kacakaca; kahevAtuM baMdha karo e ja rasto sacA praznakartA H have ame to chokarAne kahIe chIe ke bhaI, savAre vahelA UTho, vahelA bhaNo. paNa AjanA chokarAo badhA ja moDA UThe, sUryavaMzI. have A rojanI ja Tasala gharamAM thayA kare che. dAdAzrI : ne tame keTalA vAge UTho ? praznakartA : huM to pAMca vAge UThuM chuM. dAdAzrI : ane sAheba ? praznakartA : sAheba paNa pAMca-sADA pAMce. dAdAzrI : ema ke ! to pachI have emane, chokarAMone A samajAvI-paTAvIne kAma levuM paDe. praznakartA : chokaro dasa vAgatA sudhI UMdhI raheto hoya, to mane gusso Ave ane tene huM vyAjabI gaNuM chuM !

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168 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 169 dAdAzrI : hA, paNa gusso Ave to pachI chokaro mAne nahIM, jo gusso nA Avato hoya to chokaro tamAruM mAnya rAkhe. tamArI nabaLAI dekhe eTale e chokaro zuM jANe ke Amano svabhAva ja evo che, vicitra svabhAvavALA che ane bahAra lokone kahe ya kharo ke "mArA phAdhara eTalA vicitra svabhAvanA che, vAta vAtamAM ciDhiyA kare che ! evuM bole e. e to bApa prabhAvazALI hovo joIe ! bApa chokarA joDe gusso nA thAya ne to chokaro kahyA pramANe cAle ja ! A to gusse thAya te nabaLAI dekhe che ne eTale bhaDake che ke A kyAM phasAyo huM ahIM ! AvA mAbApa kyAM maLyA ! evuM badhuM ThasAya manamAM ! mane chokarA kahI de che, ke amArA mA-bApa to sAva kaMDama che ! ApaNe kaMDama nahIM rahevuM joIe. ApaNe bilakula karekTa, eTale nabaLAI nA utpanna thAya. nabaLAI UbhI thatI hoya to enA karatAM nahIM kahevuM sAruM, eka jagyAe besI rahevuM. ane kahyAthI sudharato nathI. nabaLAI hoya tyAM sudhI sudhare ja nahIM. tyAM sudhI to pelo, tamArA dekhAva khAtara kare, pAchaLathI manamAM bhAva avaLo kare.. praznakartA : samAjanI vyavasthA paNa jALavI rAkhavI paDe, nahIM to e avyavasthita. dAdAzrI : nA, e samAjanI vyavasthA jALavI na kahevAya. nA samajavAthI pote game tema varte, gusso karavAnI jarUra nathI. samAja evuM nathI kaheto ke gusso karo. praznakartA : paNa dhAro ke ahIMyA koI gunDAo corI karatA hoya ane polIsavALA ene daMDa nA kare to e cAle nahIM. daMDa to karavo ja joIene. dAdAzrI : e to karavuM ja paDe. emAM cAle ja nahIM. daMDa karI teno vAMdho nahIM, paNa gusso thavo e vAMdho che. nabaLAI nA thavI joIe. mAruM kahevAnuM, nabaLAI thAya to sAmA mANasa upara prabhAva nA paDe ane prabhAva nA paDe eTale kArya thAya nahIM. koI paNa kArya, haMmezA prabhAvathI ja thAya che. mATe ApaNe vicArI ane nabaLAI hoya to bolavAnI nahIM. AvuM nabaLAIthI mANasane chokarAo badhA bagaDI jAya che badhA. eno Avato bhava bagADe che bicArAM. atyAre to ApaNA kahyA pramANe doDe, paNa manamAM bhAva kare ke AvuM mane khoTuM kahe che ne UMdhe raste dore che. eTale avaLuM bagADe eno Avato bhava. eTale Avato bhava na bagaDe eTalA mATe ApaNe ene dhIme rahIne kahevuM. praznakartA to pachI gharamAM atyAre badhA bhegAM rahetA hoya, to kazuM kahevAnuM nahIMne ema. dAdAzrI : nA kahevAnuM badhuM ya, paNa rAgadveSa vagaranuM savAre kahIe ke tame badhA vahelA uTho to zuM khoTuM ? tyAre kahe, 'ame vahelA nathI UThavAnA, bahu kaca kaca nA karIzatyAre kahevuM, 'have kaca kaca nahIM karuM' ema kahevAnuM ApaNe, loko to kaca kaca karene ! praznakartA : atyAre badhA bahu A chokarAo hoya, skUle sAthe javAnuM hoya. hAvA-dhovAnuM hoya ane e badhA ArAmathI karatA hoyane, to ApaNe kahevuM paDe. eTale e kahe, tAre kazuM koIne kahevAnuM nahIM. dAdAzrI : e to kahevuM paDe kharuM, kahevuM to paDe, halAvuM to paDe. ghaMTa vagADavo. praznakartA : ane e to savAranA nIkaLI jAya ne rAtre Ave. eTale gharamAM zuM Ave jAya, khAvA-pIvAnuM pachI khabara paDe nahIM. traNa gelana to dUdha lAvavAnuM roja. dUdha ATaluM nA hoya to 'dUdha nathI' bUmAbUma thaI jAya. eTale ApaNe kahevuM to paDene, eTale A mane kahe, tAre kazuM koIne kahevAnuM nahIM ema. dAdAzrI : nahIM, kahevAnuM. nahIM kahevuM e ya guno che ane kahe kahe karavuM e ya guno che. kahevAnuM ane rAga-dveSa nahIM rAkhavAno. praznakartA : nA, rAgadveSa to jarA ya nahIM. dAdAzrI : 'nA kahevuM" e eka jAtano ahaMkAra che. je nIkaLI jAya, e bolI gayA pachI pelA kaheze, AvuM zuM bolo cho ? to kahIe, A mArI bhUla thaI gaI. have nahIM boluM. eka bhaI kahe che, amAro bhatrIjo roja nava vAge UThe che. gharamAM kazuM kAma thatuM nathI. pachI gharanAM badhAM mANasone pUchayuM ke A vahelo nathI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 171 badhI maLaze. ramatIyALate vALavA bhaNavA; yojanA IlAmatI kADho jItavA! 170 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra UThato e tamane badhAne nathI gamatuM ? tyAre badhAM ya kahe che ke amane nathI gamatuM, chatAM ya e vahelo UThato ja nathIne. meM kahyuM ke sUryanArAyaNa AvyA pachI to UThe che ke nathI UThato ? tyAre kahe che ke tyAra pachI ya eka kalAke UThe che. eTale meM kahyuM ke sUryanArAyANanI ya maryAdA nathI rAkhato ? mATe to e bahu moTo mANasa haze ne ? nahIM to loka to sUryanArAyaNa AvatA pahelAM pote UThI jAya, paNa A to sUryanArAyaNane ya nahIM gAMThato. pachI e loko kahe che, have tame kaMIka Thapako Apo. meM kahyuM ke amAre Thapako nA apAya. ame Thapako ApavAM nathI AvyA. ame samajaNa ApavA AvyA chIe. amAro ThapakAno vepAra ja nahIM. amAre to samajaNa ApavAno vepAra, pachI e chokarAMne kahyuM ke darzana karI le, pachI bolaje ke dAdA, mane vaheluM UThavAnI zakti Apo. eTaluM karAvyA pachI gharanAM badhA mANasone kahyuM ke have e cAnA TAIme nA UThe to ApaNe pUchavuM ke oDhADuM bhaI tane. vakhate ziyALAnI ThaMDI che te oDhavuM hoya to oDhADuM. eTale mazkarI khAtara nahIM, rItasaranuM ene ApaNe oDhADavuM. gharanAM mANasoe evuM karyuM. te cha mahinAmAM eTalo badho vahelo UThe che e bhaI, ke gharanAM badhA mANasonI bUma maTI gaI. A loko kahe che ke amAre emane sudhAravAnA nahIM ? je sudhAranArA ahIM jagatamAM pAkyA che ne e lokoe ja Amane bagADyA che. kAraNa e rasto jANatAM nathI. vakIlAtano dhaMdho karatAM nA AvaDato hoya. e mANasane vakIlAta karavA teDI jaIe to ? enI prakRti judI te moDo UThe ne kAma vadhAre kare ne akkaramI cAra vAgyAno UDyo hoya to ya kazuM nA kare. huM ya dareka kAmamAM haMmezAM 'leTa' hato. skUlamAM ya ghaMTa sAMbhaLyA pachIthI gherathI nIkaLato ane kAyama mAstarano kakaLATa sAMbhaLato ! have mAstarane zI khabara ke mArI prakRti zuM che ? darekanuM 'rasTana' juduM, 'pIsTana' juduM juduM hoya. praznakartA : paNa moDAmAM 'Disiplina' nA rahe ne ? dAdAzrI : A moDo UThe eTalA mATe tame kakaLATa karo te ja 'Disiplina' nathI. mATe tame kakaLATa karavAnuM baMdha karI do. tamAre je je zaktio mAgavI hoya, to A 'dAdA' pAse roja so-so vakhata mAgajo, praznakartA: AjanA chokarAo bhaNavA karatAM ramatamAM dhyAna vadhAre Ape che, teone bhaNatara tarapha doravAM temanI pAsethI kevI rIte kAma levuM, jethI chokarAo pratye kaMkAsa Ubho nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : InAmanI yojanA kADho ne. chokarAne kahIe ke pahelo naMbara Avaze tene ATaluM InAma ApIza ane chaThTho naMbara Avaze tene ATaluM InAma ane pAsa thaze tene ATaluM InAma. kaMIka ene dekhADo. hamaNe tarata ja vepAra thAya ane temAM napho thAya evuM kaMIka dekhADo ene to lalakAraze. bIjo rasto zuM karavAno ! nahIM to prema rAkho. jo prema hoya ne to chokarA badhuM ya mAne. mArI joDe chokarAo badhuM ya mAne che. huM je kahuM e karavA taiyAra che. nahIM to pachI ApaNe ene samajaNa pADa pADa karavI paDe. pachI je kare e sAcuM. praznakartA : chokaro kaMI bIjuM kaMI bhaNato nA hoya tyAre to emane vaDhavuM paDe, ene kahevuM paDene vAMcavA besavA mATe ? dAdAzrI : hA, paNa keTalI vAra ? be kalAka sudhI ? praznakartA : nA, nA, ema nahIM. be kalAka ema nahIM. dAdAzrI : keTalI vAra kahevuM paDe ? praznakartA : e chokarAnuM bhaNavAmAM lakSa ja nathI. e chokarAne bIjI koI lAInanI aMdara rasa che, bhaNavAmAM rasa nathI. dAdAzrI : eTale mANasane rasa nA hoya ne te jema tema karIne meTrika sudhI jAya to bahu thaI gayuM. e bijhanesamena thavAno hoya ane pachI mahIM prakRti evI hoya, tene koI zuM kare ? nahIM to ApaNe ene bhaNavAnuM choDI devAnuM kahIe to ya nA choDI de. chokarAmAM jovuM ke kyA kayA guNo enAmAM varte che. te ApaNe jovuM

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172 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 173 ke corI karato nathI, jANI joIne jIvaDAM mArato nathI. evuM badhuM joI levuM paDe, to calAvI levAya. praznakartA : mULa prazna ema che ke chokarAone ApaNe ghaNI rIte samajAvIe bhaNavA mATe. paNa ApaNe kahIe to ya e loko samajatAM nathI, ApaNuM sAMbhaLatA nathI. dAdAzrI : nA, te nathI sAMbhaLatA eTale mA thatAM AvaDyuM nahIM tethI. mA thatAM AvaDe to kema nA sAMbhaLe ? kema eno chokaro mAnato nathI ? tyAre kahe, 'enA mA-bApanuM eNe mAnyuM ja nahotuM ne.' praznakartA : dAdA, emAM vAtAvaraNano doSa kharo ke nahi ? dAdAzrI : nA, vAtAvaraNano doSa nahIM. mA-bApane mA-bApa thatAM ja AvaDyuM nathI. mA-bApa thavuM e to bahu moTAmAM moTI javAbadArI che, vaDApradhAna thavuM e javAbadArI ochI hoya. praznakartA : e kaI rIte ? dAdAzrI : vaDApradhAna thavAnuM e to lokonuM oparezana thavAnuM. A to potAnAM chokarAnuM ja oparezana thavAnuM. gharamAM pesIe bAbA-bebI badhAM khuza khuza thaI jAya. ane atyAre to chokarAM zuM kahe ? "amArA phAdhara nA Ave to sAruM gharamAM. alyA mUA, zuM thAya tyAre ?! pahoMcatI nathI, eTale bAgho thaI gayo chokaro bicAro. emAM A gAMDA kADha kADha kare, te ciDhAya ciDhAya kare. ne 'bolane bola, kaMI bolato nathI, mUMgo thaI gayo chuM.' ane Ama kAnapaTTI pakaDAve ! cakkara, zuM karavA AvuM karyA kare che ? keTalAya mAstaro AvuM kare che. Tayuzana rAkhe che ne AvuM...! keTalAya kare che ane pachI zuM kahe ke chokaro mane mAthe paDyo che ! alyA, chokaro nathI mAthe paDyo, tuM chokarAne mAthe paDyo che. ApaNe nA samajIe ke A chokaro Dala che. eTale ApaNe ene DalanesamAM jeTaluM pANI pivaDAvAya eTaluM pAvuM, bIjuM vadhArAnuM pANI pAvuM nahIM. ene kahIe ke A kavitA gokhI lAvaje. pachI nA bole to kaMI nahi. paNa A to mananI kalpanAo kare, "sAlo bolato ja nathI. mUMgo che !" alyA hoya mUMgo. ene vAta pahoMcatI nathI. tuM vAta zuM kahevA mAMge che e ene pahoMcatI nathI. eTale e kuMThita thaI gayo che bicAro ! ene tuM bahu e kara kara karIza, godA mAra mAra karIza, to ene zaoNka lAgaze. IlekTrikano zaka lAge ne mANasa thaI jAya, evo e pachI thaI jAya. vagara kAmano godA mAra mAra kare ! have jo ene bairI AvI maLI hoya ne nA samaje evI, to zuM thAya te ? AkhI jindagI zI rIte kADhe ? praznakartA : moTA bhAganuM to pote je samajyo hoya te pelo mANasa tarata samajI jAya, evo Agraha vadhAre utpanna thaI javAthI avaLAM pariNAma UbhAM thaI jAya che. dAdAzrI : potAnI draSTithI sAmAne mApe che. tuM sAmAnI draSTi zodhI kADha. sAmAnI draSTi eTale zuM ke darekane eDajasTa thavuM evI draSTithI jo, A to potAnI draSTithI sAmAne mApa mApa kare che. keTalAM vizeSaNa bolyo ?! 'mUMgo che, alyA, marI jA ne !' pAcho 'marI jA' hatuM kahe. chokarAno bApa sAMbhaLe to, e kahe, 'mAstara, evuM nA bolazo. amAro ekano eka chokaro che.' Ama enA mA-bApa pAchAM kaleIma mAMDe ke mAstara AvuM bolazo nahi. praznakartA : ame vAto karavAmAM eTalA badhA mIkenikala thaI jaIe chIe ke kAunTara pulI goThavavAnI jAgRti jatI rahe che. dAdAzrI : mANasa jAta to bahu cokkasa jAta che. mANasa kaMI ghelI bALaka sAthe bALaka banI jAya; kAunTara pulI mUkI eDajasTa thAva! keTalAka to chokaro bhaNato nA hoya, praznano javAba Apato nA hoya to mAstara ene vaDhe ne, "kaMI samaja paDe che tane ? bola ne bola, mUrakha bola !' have tyAM parIkSAmAM pAsa thAya mATe mAstaranuM Tyuzana rAkhe che. paNa Ama kare to pelo chokaro bicAro bAgho banI jAya ne A mAstara akaLAyA kare. te mAstaranI zI dazA thAya. te ApaNA jevA jonAra kahe ke e bAgho thaI gayo. tuM zuM karavA Ama gAMDA kADhe che ? pAMsaro mane ! sIdho marane ! nahi to tuM tArI baInA kAmamAM nahi rahuM ! e chokaro bicAro bAgho thaI gayo ! ene tArI vAta mahIM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra jAta nathI. loko e mANasa jAtanI upara pote ajJAna oDhe che. nahi to koI mANasa evo nathI. AvaDAM nAnAM cAra varSanA chokarAMne kahe ke, 'tuM akkala vagarano che, mAruM samajato nathI.' tyAM kevI rIte bolAya ? enI kAlI bhASAmAM loka bole. A chokarAMnI joDe loko kAlI kAlI bhASAmAM bole. A traNa-cAra varSanI uMmaranAM chokarAM joDe moTI uMmaranAM chokarAM jevuM nA bole. zAthI evuM nA bole ? praznakartA : ene enI bhASAmAM vAta karavI joIe. 134 dAdAzrI : pote badhuM samaje che ke A bALaka bhASA che. ApaNe bALaka bhASAmAM vAta karo, nahIM to e bicAro samajaze nahIM. ene to kahevuM, 'jo bAbA, A ramakaDuM pelA jevuM che ne ? te peluM joyuM hatuM ne ?' ema be-cAra vakhata kahevuM. tyAre e kaheze, 'hA'. tyAre ApaNe jANIe ke A mahIM pahoMcyuM. have evI rIte AnI joDe ApaNe vAta karavI joIe. ApaNe jANIe ke AnuM Dala magaja che. eTale ApaNe jANIe ke bALaka jevI avasthA che eTale 'bAbA, bAbA' karavuM joIe. praznakartA : paNa bALakanI avasthA samajavAmAM cetanatAno upayoga joIe. dAdAzrI : are, ajJAnadazAmAM ya bALaka joDe enI mA suMdara vyavahAra kare che. bALakanI joDe enI mA suMdara vyavahAra nahIM karatI hoya ? e koNe zIkhavADyuM emane ? praznakartA : e to kudaratI che. dAdAzrI : kudaratI nahIM, AvI badhI ApaNI aMdara jAgRti che. paNa moTI uMmarano thAya che eTale pAcho aham bahu Ubho thAya che. tyAM tamane ema thAya ke A to moTo thayelo che. A AvuM kema kare che ? nAnAne AvuM hoya, moTAne paNa hoya ? paNa moTAne bIjI bhASAmAM tuM samaja ke A nAnA karatAM ya moTo bhUMDo che bicAro ! eTale moTo Dala lAge to ApaNe jANavuM ke traNa varSanuM chokaruM che. eTale enI joDe evuM ApaNe vartana rAkhavuM joIe. pachI AmathI Ama godo mAre. koNa pachI sAMbhaLe ? mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : chokarAM joDe chokarAM thaI javuM ane e rIte vartavuM, to e kaI rIte ! 175 dAdAzrI : chokarA tarIke atyAre chokarA joDe vartana rAkho cho. eTale ApaNe moTAM hoya to eno bhaya lAgyA kare. e bhaya nA lAge evI rIte vartavuM joIe ApaNe. e samajaNa pADIne eno doSa kADhavo joIe, bIvaDAvIne nA kADhavo joIe. nahIM to bIvaDAvIne kAma lAge nahIM. tame moTI uMmaranA, e nAnI uMmaranA, bhaDakI jAya bicArA ! paNa tethI kaMI doSa jAya nahIM, doSa to vadhyA kare aMdara. paNa jo samajAvIne kADho to jAya, nahIM to jAya nahIM. praznakartA : mAnasika uMmara nAnI hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : te mAnasika uMmara joIne ApaNe eDajasTa karavuM joIe. ame darekanI joDe vAta karIe te enI mAnasika uMmara keTalI che e joIne ene ApIe. tethI ame kahIe chIe ke ame kAunTara pulI mUkI daIe chIe. eTale amAre athaDAmaNa thatI nathI, matabheda thato nathI. kAraNa ke ame kAunTara pulI mUkI daIe ne ! enuM mAnasika greDezana, vAcika greDezana, zarIranuM greDezana kevuM che e badhuM ja joI laIe. zarIrathI uMmaramAM moTo che, vANImAM bahu jabaro che, zUro che. paNa mAnasika badhuM laoN (nIcuM) che. eTale rIvolyuzana ochAM karI nAkhavAM. bALaka jevuM ja mAnI levAnuM. praznakartA : mAre mArA moTA dIkarA joDe bahu khaTapaTa thAya che. to kAunTara pulI nAkhavI kyAre ? kyA prakAranI ? e samajaNa paDatI nathI ane icchA na hovA chatAM baphATa thaI jato hoya che. to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : are, icchA vagare ya baphATa thaI jAya che ! A to huM tamane rasto dekhADuM chuM, te raste dhIme dhIme tamAre goThavaNI karavAnI che. bAbo dasa-bAra varasano hoya, enI joDe tame vAta karo, to tamArI vAta samaje ke nA samaje ? amuka vAto na samaje ne ! evuM nA bane ? praznakartA : evuM thAya che, A to mAro potAno anubhava che e

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 137 176 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ja kahuM chuM, mAro je prazna che e ja vAta che. A mAro potAno ja prazna che ane vAre ghaDIe mAre AvuM banI ja jatuM hoya che. dAdAzrI : hA, eTale huM A dAkhalo ApuM chuM ke bAbo tamAro hoya to e bAra varSano hoya, have ene tame badhI vAta karo. to badhI vAtamAM keTalIka vAta e samajI zake ane keTalIka vAta nA samajI zake ? tame zuM kahevA mAgo cho te enI samajamAM AvatuM nathI. tamAro vyu poInTa zuM che enI samajamAM nathI AvatuM eTale tamAre dhIme rahIne kahevuM ke mAro hetu Avo che. mAro vyu poInTa Avo che. huM AvuM kahevA mAguM chuM. tane samajAya ke nA samajAya, mane kaheje. ane tArI vAta mane nahIM samajamAM Ave to huM samajavA prayatna karIza, kahIe. e samaja paDIne ? eTale ApaNo enI joDe phoDa karI levo joIe ane kevo ? phrenDalI TonamAM hovo joIe. tethI ApaNe lokoe kahyuMne ke bhaI, soLa varSa pachI, amuka varSa pachI phreMDa tarIke svIkArajo ema kahyuM, nathI kahyuM ? phreMDalI TonamAM hoya to ApaNo Tona sAro nIkaLe. nahIM to roja bApa thavA jaIe ne, to bhalIvAra Ave nahIM. cAlIsa varSano thaI gayo hoya ane ApaNe bApa thavA pharIe, to zuM thAya ?! dAdAzrI : nA. evA badhA thaI gayA hoya, tenI joDe bALaka jevI buddhi rAkhIe eTale ApaNI buddhi ane vAge nahIM. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, gharaDAM mANasa paNa ApaNI sAthe evuM vartana kare, emanA maMtavyo pelA junA baMdhAI gayA hoya, to paNa kevI rIte ApaNe emanI sAthe henDala karavuM joIe ? kevI buddhithI ? dAdAzrI : A gADIne paMkacara paDe, khare TAIme utAvaLa hoya ne, to ApaNe pachI enA vhilane mAra-mAra karavuM ? praznakata : nI. dAdAzrI : khare TAIme utAvaLa hoya ne, gADIne paMkacara paDyuM. to hilane kaMI marAya ? e to jhaTapaTa sAcavIne ApaNe kAma karI levAnuM. gADI to bicArI paMkacara paDe ja. ema paiDA mANasanAmAM paMkacara paDe ja. ApaNe sAcavI levAnuM. gADIne mAra mAra karAya ? praznakartA : nA karAya. chokarAM aMdaroaMdara laDhe; joyA kare to ja saMbaMdha baDhe! gADInuM paMcara karI, kevuM saMvAre? ema baeNDIyAtuM hRdaya ThAre! koIne duHkha na thAya evI buddhi hovI joIe. nAnuM bALaka hoya tene ya du:kha na thAya evI buddhi hovI joIe. e bALaka joDe bALaka jevuM meLavI laIe. tyAM tIkSNa buddhi rAkhIe to zuM thAya, bALaka joDe ? bALaka cholAI jAya bicAro. eTale AvI vAta che, bIjI kaMI nahIM. praznakartA : to vaDIlo sAthe kevI buddhi rAkhavAnI ? emAM paNa tIkSNa buddhi rAkhavAnI ? dAdAzrI : vaDIlo sAthe bALaka jevI buddhi rAkhavAnI. praznakartA: emanA paNa jUnA badhA vicAro custa thaI gayA hoya ! praznakartA : be dikarAo aMdara aMdara laDhatA hoya. ApaNe jANIe ke A koI samajavAnuM nathI. to tyAM ApaNe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : eka phero bannene besADIne kahI devuM ke mAMhyomAMhya vaDhavAmAM phAyado nahIM, lakSmI jatI raheze. praznakartA: pachI e mAnavA ja taiyAra na hoya to zuM karavuM, dAdA ? dAdAzrI : rahevA devuM. jema che tema rahevA do. praznakartA : chokarAo ApasamAM laDhe, emAMthI moTuM thaI jAya, ApaNe ema kahIe ke A kema thaI gayuM Ama ? dAdAzrI : emane upadeza levA done, ApasamAM laDhIne emanI meLe ja khabara paDaze, bhAna thaze ne ! Ama AMtara AMtara karIe ne, tyAM sudhI

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178 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 139 upadeza maLe nahIM. jagata to joyA karavA jevuM che ! praznakartA : je vastu hAthamAM Ave chokarAone, e ekabIjAne pachI mAre, ene laIne e upAdhi ApaNe ja thAya. dAdAzrI : upAdhi ApaNe karIe zuM kAma ? ApaNe zuM levAdevA? upAdhi nahIM karavAnI, badhuM DrAmeTika karyA karo ke bhaI, kema mAre che ? Ama tema, Ama tema ! praznakartA H kyAreka hAtha upaDI jAya che. dAdAzrI : hAtha upaDI jAya e badhuM khoTuM, ApaNA hAthane vAge. AjanA chokarAMo to vagara phoDyuM, TeTA phUTI jAya evAM che. ahIM TeTA mukyA hoya to devatA-bevatA nAkhyA vagara ema ne ema phUTe to ApaNane nA samajaNa paDe, A kaI jAtanAM TeTA ? devatA paDyA vagara phUTe. dukAnamAM mUkyA hoya ne tyAM phUTe. ApaNe to UhuM ene kahIe khUba vaDho. Aje amAre jovuM che, khUba laDho Aja mAramAra karo, kahIe. ApaNe kahIe, tame laDho. tyAre nA laDhe mUA ! ApaNe kahIe, nA laDhazo, tyAre laDhe. badhuM vAMkuM karavuM enuM nAma chokarAM AjanAM. emane kahejo, 'laDhajo, tame badhA laDho joIe, koNa jIte che ? e mAre jovuM che !" - koInA chokarAM ja nathI hotAM A badhAM, A to mAthe paDelI jaMjALa che, eTale ApaNe madada karavI emanI. paNa mahIM DrAmeTika rahevuM. bApA pAse jAya ne kahe, 'bApA, A bAbAe mane Ama, Ama kahyuM" te pachI bApA tarata ja bebInA pakSamAM besI jAyane, bAbAne kahe ke "e ya ahIM Ava ! Ama kema karyuM ?" alyA, bAbAne bhAMDatA pahelAM bAbAne pUcha, bebInI vAtano paDagho zo hato ? ane kema bebIe phariyAda karI ? bAbAe kema phariyAda nA karI ? bAbAe zuM karyuM hatuM ? A to pote sensiTiva te bebInI vAta sAcI mAnI le. pAcho kahe ke huM jarA kAnano kAco, te bhUla thaI gaI ! A to pote DaphoLa ne kAnanI bhUla kahe che ! pote tAraNa nA kADhe ke bebI gunegAra te pahelI phariyAda karavA AvI ! gharamAM badhI vAto thAya, amArI pAse badhAnI phariyAda thAya to ame zuM karatA ke badhAMnI vAto sAMbhaLIe ne pachI nyAya karIe. sAco nyAya karavAthI gunegAra pachI vadhe nahIM. gunegAra samaje ke A to nyAya kare che, mATe ApaNI bhUla pakaDAI jaze ! gharamAM cAra chokarAM hoya. temAM benI kaMI bhUla nA hoya to ya bApa emane TaiDakAya TeDakAyA kare ane bIjA be bhUlo karyA ja kare, to paNa ene kaMI nA kare. A badhuM enI pAchaLanA "rUTakojha'ne laIne che. potAne ghera be chokarAM hoya, paNa beu sarakhAM lAgavAM joIe. ApaNe koInA pakSamAM hoIzuM ke "A moTo jarA dayALu che ne A nAno kAco paDI jAya che.' to e badhuM bagaDI gayuM. beu sarakhAM lAgavAM joIe. tamane haju pelo pakSa rahyo che ne ? eTale A trAjavuM name ne peluM trAjavuM UMcuM jAya to pelAM trAjavAmAM veITa mUkIne sarakhuM karo. have e veITa ApaNe bIjAmAMthI kApIne AmAM nA mUkAya. eTale ApaNe bahAranuM veITa mUkIne paNa sarakhuM karavuM paDe. eTale jyAre juo tyAre ApaNe belensa jovuM, nahIM to pakSApakSI thaI jAya. je pahelI kare phariyAda; te ja gunegAra rAkha yAda! paheluM phariyAda karavA koNa Ave ? kaLiyugamAM to gunegAra hoya, te ja pahelo phariyAda karavA Ave ! ane satyugamAM je sAco hoya te pahelA phariyAda karavA Ave. A kaLiyugamAM nyAya karanArA paNa evA ke jenuM paheluM sAMbhaLyuM enA pakSamAM besI jAya ! A nAnI bebI hoya te sAMje bApA ghera Ave ke tarata ja bebI rIsAya choruM to bApa muMjhAya; bolavAnuM baMdha e ja upAya! praznakartA : bAbo jaldI thoDI thoDI vAre rIsAI jAya che.

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180 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra krodhI chokarAM sAthe zuM thAya? pahelAM pote baMdha kare sadA ya! dAdAzrI : moMghA bahune ! moMghA bahu eTale pachI zuM thAya ? bebI sastI te rIsAya nahIM bicArI. praznakartA : A rIsAvAnuM zAthI thatuM haze, dAdA ? dAdAzrI : A pelA pharI bolAve eTale. mArI pAse rIsAya joIe ?! koI rIsAyeluM ja nahIM mArI joDe. pharI bolAvuM ja nahIM ne ! pharI bolAvuM nahIM, khAya ke nA khAya to ya pharI bolAvuM nahIM. e huM jANe ke kuTeva paDI jAya UlTI, vadhAre kuTeva paDI jAya. nA, nA, bAbA jamI le, bAbA jamI le. are, enI meLe bhUkha lAgaze eTale bAbo jamaze. kyAM javAno che ? tamAre AvuM nA karavuM paDe, ema to amane to bIjI kaLAo AvaDe. bahu ADuM thayuM hoya, to bhUkhyuM thAya to ya nA khAya. eTale ame pAchA enA mahIM vidhi mUkIe pachI. tamAre AvuM nA karavuM. tame to je karo cho e karo. bAkI rIsAya nahIM mArI joDe ! ne rIsAIne zuM kADhe ? praznakartA : mATe zIkhavADone dAdA e kaLA. kAraNa ke A rIsAvAnuM-manAvAnuM to badhAne rojanuM hoya dAdA. to A cAvI ekAdI ApI do to badhAne Ukela AvI jAya ne ! dAdAzrI : e to ApaNo bahu garajAva hoya tyAre e rIsAya. eTalI badhI garaja zI vaLI ? praznakartA : eTale zuM, nA samajAyuM, bahu garajAva hoya tyAre rIsAya ? kone garaja hoya ? dAdAzrI : sAmAne garaja. A rIsAnAro mANasa, sAmAne garaja enI hoya tyAre rIsAya. praznakartA: eTale ApaNe garaja ja nahIM dekhADavAnI. dAdAzrI : garaja hoya ja nahIM. garaja zenI vaLI te ! karmanA udaya je banavAnuM haze e banaze, enI garaja keTalI rAkhavAnI ! ane pAchAM karmanA udaya ja che. garaja dekhADavAthI haThe caDhe UchuM. praznakartA : nAnAM bALakone gusso dUra karavA TUMkANamAM kevI rIte kahevuM ? dAdAzrI : emano gusso dUra karIne zuM phAyado ? praznakartA : jhaghaDe nahIM ApaNI joDe. dAdAzrI : pachI ThaMDuM paDI jAya e to. mahAparANe davAo karIe tyAre gusso thAya mANasane. pAchuM TADhuM paDI jAya, TATuM paDI jAya e to sAruM nahIM, gusso sAro. praznakartA : nA, nA, ema nahIM. chokarAM koI vakhata bahu hoTaTemparanAM hoya ne. dAdAzrI : enAM mATe to davA bIjI karavA karatAM enA mA-bApe gussAno dekhAva na dekhe evI rIte rahevuM joIe. e dekhIne thAya che ke mArA phAdhara kare che, huM enA karatAM savAyo gusso karuM tyAre kharo. e to tamAre baMdha karI do, to enI meLe baMdha thaI jaze. A meM baMdha karyo che, mAro baMdha thaI gayo che, to koI mArI joDe karatuM ja nathI. huM kahuM ke gusse thAva to paNa nahIM thatAM. chokarAo ya nahIM thatAM, huM mArIza to ya nahIM thAya gusse. gusso karo cho ke thAya che? e che vIkanesa aMte to thAya che!! praznakartA : chokarAne sArA mArge vALavA mA-bApanI pharaja to pUrI pADavI joIene, eTale gusso to karavo paDe ne ? dAdAzrI : gusso zuM karavAM karavo paDe ? ema ne ema samajAvIne kahevAmAM zuM vAMdho che ? gusso tame karatA nathI. gusso thaI jAya che tamane. karelo gusso e gusso gaNAto nathI. ApaNe jAte karIe gusso,

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182 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra e to ApaNe dabaDAvIe e nahIM, e gusso na kahevAya. eTale gusso karajo. paNa gusse thaI jAva cho tame. gusso karatA hoIe to vAMdho nahIM. eka bALaka che te A koI vastu pheMke to jANI joIne pheMke, eTale bhAMgavA nA de paNa ema ne ema pheMke to paDI jAya e to bhAMgI jAya. evuM gusso tamAre nathI karavo to ya thaI jAya che. eTale gusso jo karo ne to kaMTrolebala hoya. gusso karIe ApaNe, to kaMTrolebala hoya ke nA hoya ? bAbA kyAM gayo hato ? Ama che, tema che ? bolIe paNa mahIM krodha nA hoya, gussAmAM. A to tame gusse thaI jAva cho eTale UlaTo bAbo samajI jAya che ke A mammI nabaLA svabhAvanI che, yujhalesa che, sArI nathI evuM samaje. evo abhiprAya ApI de. praznakartA : gusse thaI javAnuM kAraNa zuM ? dAdAzrI : vikanesa. e vikanesa che ! eTale e pote gusse thato nathI. e gusse thaI gayA pachI potAne khabara paDe che, A sAluM khoTuM thaI gayuM, AvuM nA thavuM joIe. eTale enA hAthamAM kAbU nathI. A mazIna garama thaI gayuM che, reIjha thaI gayuM che. eTale ApaNe te ghaDIe jarA ThaMDuM rahevuM. enI meLe TADhuM thAya eTale hAtha ghAlavo. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 183 dAdAzrI : rastAmAM kAMTo vAgI jAya to enI upara gusso Ave kharo ? praznakartA: nA, tenI upara kevI rIte Ave gusso ? tenI upara gusso nA Ave. dAdAzrI : kema nA Ave ? praznakartA : iTsa e ojekTa ne. dAdAzrI : to A ya jaDa ja che vastu, A ya tamane je dekhAya e jaDa ja vastu juo cho. ane bAbA upara to gusso karAya nahIM, kAraNa ke bAbAne to ApaNe nava mahinA peTamAM rAkhelo. have ATaluM badhuM kAma karyu. helpa karI ne pachI have gusso karIne zuM kAma che ? pachI A gusso karIne DebiTa zuM kAma karAvIe ? jyAM ATaluM badhuM jame thayuM hoya to DebiTa karavAnuM kAraNa zuM ? nava mahinA koNa rAkhe AvuM resiDansa ?! nava mahinA ATalo upakAra karyo, to have gusso karavAnI jarUra nA hoya. chokarAo joDe tame ciDhAo to enI navI lona lIdhI kahevAya. kAraNa ke ciDhAvAno vAMdho nathI, paNa tame pote ciDhAo cho te vAMdho che. praznakartA: chokarAo che te vaDhIe nahIM tyAM sudhI zAMta ja nA thAyane, eTale vaDhavuM paDe ! dAdAzrI : nA, vaDhavAne mATe vAMdho nathI. paNa jAte vaDho cho eTale tamAruM moTuM bagaDI jAya che, eTale javAbadArI che. tamAruM moDhuM bagaDe nahIM ne vaDhone, moTuM sAruM rAkhIne vaDho, khUba vaDho ! tamAruM moDhuM bagaDe che eTale tame je vaDhavAnuM che te tame ahaMkAra karIne vaDho cho ! praznakartA : to to chokarAone ema lAge ke A khoTuM khoTuM vaTe chorAMte vaDho samajyA vagara InsIDansa; bhUlI gayAM nava mahinAno resIDansa? dAdAzrI : have tane konI upara gusso Ave che ? praznakartA : ghaNI vakhata mArA bAbA upara gusse thaI jauM. varka upara gusse thaI jAuM. dAdAzrI : kAma upara konI upara Ave che ? praznakartA: ko-varkara sAthe. dAdAzrI : e loko kaMI bhUla kare tethI gusso AvI jAya, kharuM ! praznakartA : hA, barAbara. dAdAzrI : to e eTaluM jANe to bahu thaI gayuM. to ene asara paDaze, nahIM to asara ja nahIM paDe. tame khUba vaDho eTale e jANe ke A nabaLA mANasa che. e loko mane kahe che, amArA phAdhara bahu nabaLA

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184 mANasa che, bahu ciDhAya-ciDhAya kare che. kema kADhe Avo Tona? vaDhIte le navI lona! mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ApaNA loka hisAba to cUkave che, paNa navI lona le che. navI lona le nahIM to ApaNI mukti thAya. praznakartA : navI lona kone kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : ApaNo chokaro kolejamAM hoya ne barobara bhaNato nA hoya, to enI joDe khUba cIDhAva to e navI lona lIdhI kahevAya. te hajI jUnI lona hatI te to ApaNAthI pUrI thaI nathI. tyAra pahelAM navI lona ApaNe jame karAvI. kAyado zuM kahe che ? cIDhAvAno koI kAyado nathI. te AUTa opha konTrAkTa thayuM kahevAya. konTrAkTanI zaratonI bahAranuM A thayuM, eTale 'ekasTrA AITama' thaI jAya che. badhAM devAM enAM UbhAM thaI jAya che. Ama jUnAM devAM Apato jAya che ne navAM devAM UbhAM karato jAya che. ahaMkAra zuM manAvaDAve ke huM badhuM samajuM chuM ane huM jANuM chuM, basa. eTaluM manAvaDAve ne, eTale jANavAnI vAta rahI jAya. eTaluM peluM ajJAnatAthI A mArga che badho. jyAM jyAM kaMI paNa aDacaNa Ave che te aNasamajaNathI che, samajaNa nahIM paDavAthI. samajaNathI aDacaNa nIkaLI jAya. have samajaNa nathI ane ahaMkArano svabhAva evo ke jema moTo thAya tema e badhAne kahe ke huM to jANuM badhuM, badhuM jANuM chuM. ane Akho dahADo kakaLATa karyA karatAM hoya. koI chokaruM be-traNa vastu khoIne AvyuM hoya ne to chokarAne TaiDakAve. alyA, emAM khoIne AvyuM, te emAM kayuM sAyansa AmAM kAma lAgaze, te TaiDakAvuM chuM ? chokaruM samajI jAya ke A badhuM barakata nathI, eTale A TaiDakAve che. chokaruM ya samaje ke paDI gayuM eno upAya zuM ? to ya mA vaDhe. ane upAya hoya to vaDhavAnI jarUra nathI. phakta samajAvAnI jarUra che badhAMne. vaDhAya kema karIne ? ApaNe chokarAne vaDhIe to e ya pAcho bApa to thavAno ne ! mA-bApa chokarAno vyavahAra e jANe ke jevuM mArA bApAe mane ApyuM che tevuM huM mArA chokarAne ApuM. to ema vaDhavaDhAnuM ja cAlyuMne, to sukha ja zuM raheze. eTale hisAba dekhADI samajAvI laIe to e chokaruM AgaLa Avaze ane chokaruM ya samaje ke bApA sArA maLyA che, nahIM to e samaje ke aTesTeDa che evuM samajI jAya mahIM. A bApa TesTeDa nathI, kaheze. chokarAM yam pAkelAM cIbhaDAM; aDatAM ja phATe dhUo oraDAM! jevAM. 185 dAdAzrI : duSamakALanA jIvo che badhA, meM dekhADyuM hoya ke A bhUla thaI to pAcho jato raheze, pharI koI dahADe nahIM Ave. eTale dhIme dhIme paTAvI paTAvIne kAma laIe ame. praznakartA : pelo cIbhaDAMno dAkhalo Apyo'to ne, pAkelAM cIbhaDAM dAdAzrI : hA. pAkelAM cIbhaDAM jevAM che AjanA jIvo, te ApaNe rUmamAM aMdara mUkyAM hoya ane jo halAvIe to, pAkeluM cIbhaDuM phATI jAya ane Akho oraDo dhovo paDe. tema A chokarAne jo vaDhIe, to phATI jAya to to pAcho ene manAya manAya karavo paDe. A kALa evo che. duSamakALanA jIvo che eTale ame koIne ya saheje ya halAvIe nahIM. mArI joDe avaLuM bolene, tene ya nA halAvIe. besa barobara che tArI vAta. eka bApe enA chokarAne saheja ja halAvyo eTale chokaro phATI gayo, ne bApane kahevA lAgyo ke, 'mAre ne tamAre nahIM phAve.' pachI bApa chokarAne kahevA lAgyo ke, bhAI ! meM tane kazuM kharAba nathI kahyuM. tuM zuM kAma gusse thAya che ?" tyAre meM bApane kahyuM ke, 'have zuM kAma oraDo dhUo cho ? pahelAM halAvyuM zuM kAma ? koIne halAvazo nahIM, A pAkAM cIbhaDAM che. kazuM bolazo nahIM. merI bhI cUpa ne terI bhI cUpa. khaI, pIne moja karo.'

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186 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 187 zIkha, chorAMte laDhavAnI rIta; vATakI laDhavuM te tATakI prIta praznakartA : tame rasto kaMIka batAvo ke krodha jato rahe. dAdAzrI : e chokarAone pachI zI rIte vaDhIza ? hathiyAra jatuM rahe. ke 'pratikramaNa karo." praznakartA : paNa ApaNAthI nAno hoya, ApaNo dikaro hoya to e kema mAphI mAMgavI ? dAdAzrI : aMdarathI mAphI mAMgavI. hRdayathI mAphI mAMgavI. dAdA Ama dekhAya ane emanI sAkSIe AlocanA-pratikramaNa-pratyAkhyAna e chokarAnAM karIe to tarata pahoMcI jAya. caMdubhAI chokarA para gusse thaI gayA ne caMdubhAIe eka-be dhola ApI dIdhI. to pachI ApaNe caMdubhAIne kahevuM ke, chokarAne moDhe kahevuM nahIM, paNa enAM manathI pratikramaNa karo. A chokarAne dhola mArI e bhUla karI have pharI nahIM karuM AvuM. ene moMDhe kahIe to chokaruM avaLuM phATe. e ya buddhizALIne pAchuM eno durupayoga thAya haMmezAM. pratikramaNa karavuM te e jANe nahIM evI rIte karI levuM. nahIM to e caDhI bese pAchAM. praznakartA : evuM kaMIka nA thAya ke chokarAne vaDhavuM ja nA paDe. dAdAzrI : nA, vaDhavuM to paDe. e to A saMsAramAM rahyA eTale vaDhavuM to paDe ne ! praznakartA : evuM vaDhavAnuM nA thavuM joIe ke ApaNane potAne ja manamAM vicAro AvyA kare ane potAne asara rahyA kare ! dAdAzrI : e to khoTuM che. evuM vaDhavAnuM nA thavuM joIe. vaDhavAnuM suparaphaluasa, jema ke A nATakamAM laDhe che evI rItanuM hoya. nATakamAM laDhe che, "kema tuM Ama karuM chuM ne Ama tema' badhuM bole, paNa mahIM kazuM ya nA hoya evuM vaDhavAnuM hoya. krodha kare hIta mATe mA-bApa! puNya baMdhAya, nathI emAM pApA! dukha thAya chokarAMte, vaDhavAthI; cokhkhuM thAya pratikramaNa karavAthI! praznakartA chokarAone kahevA jevuM lAge to vaDhIe, to ene duHkha paNa lAge to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : pachI ApaNe aMdara mAphI mAgI levI. A benane vadhAre paDatuM kahevAI gayuM hoya ne du:kha thaI gayuM hoya to tamAre benane kahevuM ke, mAphI mAguM chuM. evuM nA kahevA jevuM hoya to atikramaNa karyuM eTale aMdarathI pratikramaNa karo. te tame to 'zuddhAtmA' cho. te tamAre caMdulAlane kahevuM ke 'pratikramaNa karo. tamAre beu judA bhAga rAkhavA.' ApaNe khAnagImAM aMdara potAnI jAtane bolIe ke 'sAmAne du:kha nA thAya" evuM bolajo. ane tema chatAM chokarAne duHkha thAya to caMdubhAIne kahIe koI bApa potAnA chokarA para gusso kare ane eno e ja bApa pADozI joDe gusso kare, e bemAM phera zuM ? praznakartA : bApano putra pratyeno gusso haze te kaMIka aMze phaLadAyI haze, e parapajhalI karato haze. dAdAzrI : hA, e to paNa A beu gussA ja kahevAya ? praznakartA : paNa banneyamAM phera che ne ? dAdAzrI : zo phera ? praznakartA : pelo je gusso kare che, teno hetu pelAne sudhAravA mATeno che. - dAdAzrI : paNa loka to ema ja jANene ke A bApa chokarA joDe gusso kare. evuM kahe ke nA kahe ?

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188 praznakartA : loka to kahe. A keTalA krodhI dAdAzrI : ane A pADozI joDe ya gusso karyo. mANasa che. A chokarA pare ya gusso karyo. e hetu pachI jovAno hoya, paNa Ama dekhAvamAM zuM dekhAya che ? mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : ApaNe koIne vaDhIe, paNa enA sArA mATe vaDhatAM hoIe. have chokarAMne vaDhIe to e pachI pApa gaNAya ? dAdAzrI : nA. e puNya baMdhAya. chokarAnA hitane mATe vaDhIe, mArIe to ya puNya baMdhAya. e krodha karelAnuM puNya baMdhAya che. tyAM bhagavAnane ghera to anyAya hoya ja nahIM ne ! chokarAne hitane mATe potAne akaLAmaNa thaI, chokaro AvuM kare che eTalA mATe akaLAmaNa thaI ane e chokarAnA hitane mATe ene be dholo mArI, to ya enuM puNya baMdhAya. evuM jo e pApa gaNAtuM hoya to A kramikamArganA badhA sAdhuAcAryo koI mokSe ja nA jAya. Akho dahADo ziSya joDe akaLAyA kare, paNa badhuM puNya baMdhAya. kAraNa ke pArakAnA hitane mATe e krodha kare che. potAnA hitane mATe krodha karavo enuM nAma pApa. te nyAya kevo sarasa che A ! keTaluM badhuM nyAyI che ! bhagavAna mahAvIrano nyAya kevo suMdara che, e nyAya to dharmano kAMTo ja che ne !! eTale chokarAMne vaDhatAM hoya, mAratAM hoya enA bhalA mATe to puNya baMdhAya. paNa enAM jo pAchA bhAga paDe. 'huM bApa chuM, ene to jarA mAravuM paDe' evo bApano bhAva mahIM Avyo hoya to pAchuM pApa baMdhAya. eTale jo samajaNa nA hoya to pAchuM bhAga paDI jAya !! eTale bApa chokarA para akaLAya to tenuM phaLa zuM Ave ? puchya baMdhAya. praznakartA : bApa to akaLAya, paNa chokaro sAme akaLAya to zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : chokaro pApa bAMdhe. kramika mArgamAM 'jJAnI puruSa' ziSya upara akaLAya to enuM jabarajasta puNya baMdhAya, puNyAnubaMdhI puNya baMdhAya. e akaLAmaNa kaMI nakAmI jatI nathI. nathI emanAM chokarAM, nathI mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra emane levAdevA, chatAM ziSya upara akaLAya che !! ApaNe ahIM vaDhavAnuM bilakula nahIMne ! vaDhavAthI mANasa cokhkhuM kahe nahIM ne pachI kapaTa kare. A badhA kapaTa tethI UbhAM thayAM che jagatamAM ! vaDhavAnI jarUra nathI jagatamAM. chokaro sInemA joIne Aje Avyo hoya ane ApaNe tene vaDhIe to bIje dADe bIjuM kaMI kahIne, mArI skUlamAM kaMIka hatuM tema karIne sInemA joI Ave ! jenA gharamAM mA kaDaka hoya tenA chokarAne vyavahAra nA AvaDe. 189 praznakartA : gharamAM ApaNuM nAnuM bALaka hoya, te ApaNI IcchA na hovA chatAM paNa enA doSa dekhAI ja jAya. ApaNe jANIe ke A nathI ja jovuM, chatAM paNa ApaNI najaramAM evuM AvI ja jAya ke A barobara nathI. eTale ene Takora karavI paDe, nahIM to ApaNAM manamAM ene mATe du:kha thAya, manamAM kaleza thAya. A badhuM zuM, A kaI jAtano varte che ? to A badhAnuM zuM kAraNa ? dAdAzrI : evuM che, ke ApaNI jAgRti UMdhe raste che. ApaNI jAgRti mithyAtvamAM che. atyAre tamArI draSTi e bAju che eTale avaLuM badhuM dekhAya che. 'jJAnI puruSa' draSTi pheravI Ape eTale A jAgRti samyaktvamAM jAya. tyAra pachI jAgRti chate raste Ave, tyAre ApaNane badhuM chatuM dekhAya. mithyAtva eTale avaLI draSTi ane samyaktva eTale savaLI draSTi. savaLI draSTi thAya eTale badhuM sukha thAya. tyAM sudhI atyAre tame tamArI UMdhI draSTithI badhuM karo cho, tethI mahIM du:kha thAya che. chatAM ya paNa potAnAM chokarAM mATe AvuM badhuM kare che eTale puNya baMdhAya. tame chokarAMne Azaro Apo, sArAM saMskAra mATe Takora karo, e badhAthI tamane puNya baMdhAya. enuM bhautika sukha maLe. paNa e sukho badhA TempararI hoya. 'jJAnI puruSa' draSTi savaLI karI Ape, eTale pachI paramenanTa sukha utpanna thAya. avaLA cAle tyAM karavI paDe Takora; tahi to mAte ame chIe barobara! chokarAthI pyAlA paDI gayAne phUTI gayA, eTale e to bicAro

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190 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 191 eTale chokarAne hAthe kazuM tUTI jAya, to vaDhIza nahIM. praznakartA : tUTI jAya to nathI vaDhatI. dAdAzrI : to zuM kare tyAre vaTuM chuM ? praznakartA : bahu pepsI pIe, bahu koka pIve, cokaleTa bahu khAya tyAre vaDuM. gabharAI gayo. pyAlo phUTI jAya enI para vaDhavAnuM nathI. paNa, ApaNe kahIe, "kema dhakamaka karyA kare che ? dhIme dhIme cAla.' Takora to karavI ja joIe ne ! hareka bAbatamAM Takora to hovI ja joIe. amathA amathA nahIM. paNa sAdhAraNa Takora hovI joIe. A to kahe che, 'huM kazuM kaheto nathI !' pahelA chokarAM jANe ke "ApaNe jeTaluM karIe chIe e badhuM karekTa ja che. bApa khuzI thaIne svIkArI le che ! pote jeTaluM kare che e karekTa ja che, e mAnI le che. have InTarekTa hoya eTale cetavo ke A khoTuM che. ahIM nahIM, Ama nahIM cAle. pachI calAvI levuM paDe. paNa paheluM ApaNe bolavuM, e ema na jANI jAya ke "A huM boluM chuM, karuM chuM e badhuM barobara che.' eTale chokarAMone che te vaDhIe nahIM ne, tyAM AgaLa ene pUchIe ke bhaI, dajhAyo nathI ne. tyAre kahe, nA, nathI dajhAyo. to ApaNe kahIe ke jarA dhIme dhIme cAlaje. eTaluM ja eka ja vAkya kahevAnI jarUra ke tuM vicAraje enI upara. to pachI e vicAre ke 'sAluM have mArI kyAM bhUla thAya che', e zodhakhoLa kare. A to ene mAro, eTale pachI pelo zuM kahe, 'evuM ja karavAno.' evuM avaLuM cAlaze. ApaNA loka, inDiyana kevuM cAle ? avaLA cAlavuM e A inDiyanano svabhAva. tame mAro ne to ya kaheze, 'have evuM ja karavAno. jAva, tamArAthI je thAya e karajo.' evuM bane ke nA bane ? tamane kema lAge che, avaLA cAle ke nA cAle? praznakartA : cAle.. dAdAzrI : te A avaLA nA calavazo, UlaTAM bagADe che ane enA mAthe hAtha pheravIne kahIe, 'bhAI, have pharI AvuM nA thAya, evuM karaje. ApaNA keTalA paisA bagADyA jo A ! ane tArA bagaDyA ne, mArA zuM bagaDavAnA che ? A tAre bhAge AvIne bagaDyAne." evuM kahIe eTale pAchuM samaje. badhuM samaje che ane A e toDato nathI. kharekhara A to A kudarata toDe che, kAraNa ke nahIM to pelA pyAlAnA kArakhAnAvALAnuM cAle ja nahIM. A to huM joIne boluM chuM, gapyuM nathI A, ekajhekTa kahuM chuM. huM tamane. mATe A pustaka vAMcajo ne gharanA jhaghaDA maTADI dejo. pahelAM gharanA jhaghaDA maTavA joIe. dAdAzrI : te vaDhavAnI zI jarUra, ene samajaNa pADIe ke bahu khAvAthI nukasAna thaze. tane koNa vaDhe che ?! A to uparIpaNAno ahaMkAra che khoTo. 'mA' thaIne beThAM moTAM !! mA thatAM AvaDatuM nathI ane chokarAne vaDha-vaDha karyA kare Akho dahADo ya ! e to sAsu vaDhatI hoya ne tyAre khabara paDe. chokarAne vaDhavAnuM koIne sAruM lAgatuM hoya ! chokarAne ya manamAM ema thAya ke A sAsu karatAM ya bhUMDI che. eTale vaDhavAnuM baMdha karI de chokarAne. dhIme rahIne samajaNa pADavI ke A nA khavAya, zarIra tAruM bagaDaze amathuM. dhaNIne hau vaDhuM chuM ?! praznakartA : nA, e mane vaDhe che. dAdAzrI : e zAno vaDhe pAcho ! kaMI lakhI ApyuM che ?! vaDhavAnuM kaMI lakhI ApyuM nathI. ene kaheje ke dAdA kahetA ke 'vaDhavAnuM lakhI ApyuM nathI. tamAre je kahevuM hoya te sIdhI vAta karo." vaDhavAnuM hotuM haze ?! A te gAyo-bheMso che ke vaDhe che ! mANasa che A to. mANasane vaDhavAnuM hoya ? tamane kema lAge che ! ApaNAmAM mAnavatA nA hoya ?' gAyo-bheMso laDhI paDe ! gusse thAya tenI sAme samatA; chApa paDe jJAnatI, ne vadhe pUjyatA! tamAre gharamAM vaDhavADo baMdha che ke nahIM ? bilakule ya baMdha ? praznakartA : have A vaDhavAnuM phAvatuM nathI. dAdAzrI : hA, zuM karavA bolIe ? potAnuM magaja bagADavuM, mUrakha banavuM e konA gharanI vAta che te ? pote mUrakha bane ane pAcho magaja

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192 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra bagADe ! zuM kADhayuM sAramAM ? sAra kazo kADhavAno nahIM !! moTAbhAI kacakaca karatA hoya ne, to ya ApaNe kacakaca karavA jevI nathI. e ApaNane mUrakha jANe to mUrakha jANavuM. emanA hAthamAM kaMI ocho kAyado che mokSe laI javAno ? dAdAnI pAse sarTIphIkeTa levuM, basa ! ane bane evuM ApaNA saMjogamAM Ave che, to enI joDe evuM vartana karavuM ke enI chApa paDavI joIe. tamane jJAna che to tame chApa pADI zako ke nA pADI zako ? pelo akaLAyo hoya to tame zAMta rahI zako ke nA raho ? praznakartA : cokkasa. dAdAzrI : pachI ene chApa paDe ke ohoho ! A kevA mANasa che. te juone huM gusse thayo chuM, to ya kevA zAMta che A ! paNa te e chApa ja kyAM paDe che atyAre to. jo chokaro cIDhAyo eTale bApa bAra gaNuM cIDhAya. tyAre chokaro kaheze, AvI jAva !!! A jeTalAM mA-bApa che, te chokarAMne laDhe che. enI chokarAMo kaMI noMdha nathI karatAM. enA karatAM vaDhyA vagaranuM hoya che, tenI noMdha thAya che. kAraNa ke A duSamakALamAM phAdhara pratye eTalI badhI pUjyatA nathI hotI. A duSamakALanA pratApe eTale pachI UMdhuM kare che ! mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 193 dAdAzrI : bApano ThaMDo hoya ne pelAno garama hoya, to laDhavuM zA mATe paNa ? praznakartA : chokaro laDhe eTale e laDhe ema. dAdAzrI : pachI bApa zuM kare ? bApa pachI zuM kahe ? mArA moDhAmAM AMgaLA ghAlIne tuM bolAvaDAvuM chuM. paNa jo ThaMDA cho, to tamAre bolavAnI jarUra che A ? paNa nA rahevAya, ThaMDA zI rIte rahe ? kAraNa ke e pote caMdubhAI che. khudAno baMdo thayo hota to nA bhAMjagaDa Avata. paNe e to caMdubhAI rahyA che. eTale A bhAMjagaDa aDe ja ne pachI ! have kharI rIte bApa-dIkarAne vaDhavADo thAya che, emAM dIkarAnI ya bhUla nathI ne bApanI ya bhUla nathI. karmanI phAcara che. karma pelAne uzkere che ane Ane ya ukere che, karmAdhIna, karUNA khAvA jevuM ! ene ApaNAM loka kaheze, zuM A bApane gALo de che ? nAlAyaka mANaso !" nA, abhiprAya nA Apazo bhaI. 'e de che ke koI devaDAve che ?' e tamane khabara nathI. zA mATe abhiprAya Apo cho ? e de che ke koI devaDAve che ? tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : hA, devaDAve che. dAdAzrI : hA. ko'ka devaDAve che. koI bhUtanuM vaLagaNa che enI pAchaLa. ApaNAM loko nyAya karI nAkhe. 'zuM A nAlAyaka che, bApane gALo de che !! nA, tuM nyAya nA karIza mu. tAre nyAyAdhIza thavAnI jarUra nathI. vALavuM hoya to vALa bannene. tane vALavAno adhikAra che, nyAyAdhIza thavAno adhikAra nathI. kAraNa ke karmanAM udayo badhuM laDhAve che bicArAne. karmanAM udayo badhuM A kare che ane sAruM rAkhe che te ya karmanAM udayo. A to mAro svabhAva sAro te gharamAM huM jhaghaDo thavA deto nathI. paNa e to eka ahaMkAra che. karmanA udaya sArA che, te eTale jhaghaDA nathI thayA. jene saMsAra vadhAravo hoya teNe A saMsAramAM vaDhavaDhA karavI, badhuM ya karavuM. jene mokSe javuM hoya tene ame 'zuM bane che? tene "juo" ema kahIe chIe. A saMsAramAM vaDhIne kazuM sudharavAnuM nathI, UlaTo manamAM ahaMkAra kare che ke huM khUba vaDhyo. vaDhyA pachI juo to mAla hato teno tathI bhalamAM dIkaro ke phAdhara; laDhAI che pUvekametI phAcara! laDhavAno zokha hoya che ? chokarA ne bApa laDhe kharAM, paNa laDhavAno zokha kone hoya che ? praznakartA : e to jenuM mAthuM garama hoya e laDhe. jeno jeno svabhAva garama hoya te laDhe. emAM chokarAno svabhAva garama hoya to chokaro laDhe ne bApano svabhAva garama hoya to bApa laDhe.

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194 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 195 te ja hoya, pittaLano hoya te pittaLano ja. ne kAMsAno hoya te kAMsAno ja rahe. pittaLane mAra mAra kare to ene kATa caDyA vagara rahe ? nA rahe. kAraNa zuM ? to kahe, kATa caDhavAno svabhAva che eno. eTale mauna rahevAnuM. jema sInemAmAM nA gamato sIna Ave to tethI karIne tyAM ApaNe jaIne paDado toDI nAkhavo ? nA, e ya jovAnuM. badhA ja gamatAM sIna Ave kaMI ? keTalAka to sInemAmAM khurazI para beThA beThA bUmAbUma kare ke, 'e ya mArI nAkhaze, mArI nAkhaze !' A moTA dayALunAM khokhAM joI lyo ! A to badhuM jovAnuM che. khAva, pIvo, juo ne majhA karo !! DarAvIte karavA jAya kaMTrola; prema sivAya ta jItAya, DaphoLa! gharamAM dhaNIne paNa bhaya nA lAge ApaNo. chokarAMne koIne ApaNo bhaya nA lAge. evI rIte jIvana jIvavuM joIe. praznakartA : huM evA AzayathI karatI nathI ke emane bhaya lAge, paNa kadAca kaMI lAgato hoya to ApaNane khabara nathI. dAdAzrI : koI paNa kAraNe bhaya nA lAgavo joIe. premasvarUpa thavuM joIe. bhaya nA lAgavo joIe ApaNo. praznakartA : have evo prayatna karIzuM. dAdAzrI : hA. tamane bhaya lagAvo evuM game che ? praznakartA : kaMTrola rAkhavo game che. dAdAzrI : hA. bhayathI ja tame zIkhavADo. moTo thaze bhayathI, pachI kalyANa kADhI nAkhaze (!) praznakartA : bALakane ApaNe kaMTrola to rAkhavo paDene, eTale kaMTrola rAkhavA mATe pachI ene bIka to lAge ja ne, ApaNe evuM kaMI karIe to ! ene Disiplina to zIkhavADavI paDene ?! dAdAzrI : pachI DisiplinavALA thayA che kharAM ? praznakartA : amuka vastumAM pachI e zIkhe che ke A khoTuM che ke A sAcuM che. dAdAzrI : gapyuM che badhuM ! koIne ya bhaya nahIM pamADavAM joIe. ApaNane koI pamADe, te ApaNe sahana karI levAnuM. keTalAka loka ghera koIne mArAmAra nA kare paNa bhaya bahu pamADe, bItI ne bItI rahe bicArI, vAIpha. chokarAM rAta-dahADo bItAM ne bItAM rahe. mUA, AvuM zuM karavAM kare che ?! bhaya to koI jIva nA pAmavo joIe ApaNAthI. A bhaya koNa pamADe ke vAIlDa jAnavaro che, te bhaya pamADe ane vAIlDa mANaso. jevA jAnavaro vAIlDa hoya che, evA mANaso paNa vAIlDa hoya che te bhaya pamADe. bAkI A gAyo, ghoDA kaMI koIne bhaya pamADe ? eka dIpaDo Avyo hoya to AkhA roDa upara mANasa AghuMpAchuM thaI jAya. evA mANaso ya vAIlDa kharAM. joyelA mANaso vAIlDa ? praznakartA : nathI joyA. dAdAzrI : ApaNA hindustAnamAM ghera ghera mUA che. chokarAM ya dararoja kahe, "pappA mAraze, pappA mAraze." pappo mAre ya kharo. praznakartA : pahelAMnA jamAnAmAM kahevAtuM hatuM ke soTI vAge cama cama ne vidyA Ave ghama ghama. jyAM sudhI mAra nA paDe tyAM sudhI vidyA caDhe nahIM ema. dAdAzrI : pahelAnA jamAnAmAM to e ekalI kahevata nahotI. 'budha nAra pAMsarI' kahetAM hatAM. e jamAnAnI A vAto badhI, Devalapa jamAnAnI nahIM. te dahADe agiyAra varSanAM thatAM tyAM sudhI luMgI paheratAM nhotA. te jamAnAnI vAta A ane atyAre kevaDAM chokarAM luMgI pahere che ?! janme tyArathI hoya. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, amuka vAtano to bhaya hovo ja joIe. dhAro ke parIkSAno bhaya na hoya, to chokarAM vAMce ja nahIM. dAdAzrI : paNa vAIlDa bhaya nahIM hovo joIe. vAIlDa nA hovo joIe. bhaya vaDIla tarIkeno hovo joIe.

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196 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 197 mAra sahe batI bApaDAM; vera bAMdhI bane dIpaDA! e khoTuM karato hoya, to ene dhIba dhIba karavAno nA hoya. khoTuM karato hoya ane ene dhIba dhIba karIe to zuM thAya ? eka jaNa to lugaDAM dhue ema dhoto'to. alyA mUA ! bApa thaIne A chokarAnI A dazA zuM kare che ? chokaro manamAM zuM nakkI kare che te jANo cho te ghaDIe ? sahana nA thAya ne, te kahe, 'moTo thauM eTale tamane mAruM, joI lo." mahIM niyANuM karI nAkhe e ! pachI ene mAra mAra ja kare roja moTo thaIne pachI ! tyAre mUA atyAre zuM karavA bagADyuM chokarAM joDe ? rItasara ene samajAvI, popalAvIne kAma le ! haMmezAM mAravAthI dareka kAma bagaDe che. mAravuM enuM nAma kahevAya ke enAthI e bhaya pAmyo hoya. te ya ko'ka dahADo ja ! khAlI bhaya ja pamADavAnI jarUra che, ene mAravAnI jarUra nathI. eTale A bAjunA bhAva karavAnA baMdha karI de, pachI ane A khoTuM che evuM samajAI jAya ene. kharI rIte sIdhA karatAM lokone AvaDatAM nathI. evuM jJAna nahIM hovAthI e AvaDatuM nathI. nahIM to chokarAMne sIdhA karavA mATe premanA jevuM to auSadha ja nathI. paNa evo prema rahe nahIMne, mANasane gusso ja Avene ! chatAM e gusso karIne mArIne ya ene savaLe raste lAve che e sAruM che. nahIM to e avaLe raste cAlyo jAya. kAraNa ke ene jJAna ja nathI ane 30 varSanI uMmaranAne ApaNe mArIe to e sAmo thAya. te jayAM sudhI ApaNuM cAle tyAM sudhI karI levuM. nA cAle to paDatuM melavuM. praznakartA : paNa kahyuM mAne nahIM, eTale koI vakhata mAravAM paDe bALakone ! dAdAzrI : nA mAne, te mAravAthI kaI mAnI jAya che ? e to manamAM rIsa rAkhe moTo thaIza tyAre mArI mammIne joI laIza, kaheze. manamAM rIsa rAkhe ja, dareka jIva rIsa rAkhe ja ! pote haMmezAM samAdhAnIpUrvaka kArya karo, dareka kArya ! mAravuM hoya to kahevuM, 'bhaI tuM kaheto hoya to tane mAruM, nahIM to nahIM mAruM.' e kahe ke "nA, mane mAro." to mAro, samAdhAnapUrvaka marAya. evuM kaMI marAtuM haze ? nahIM to e vera bAMdhe ! ene nA gamatuM hoya ne tame mArI to vera bAMdhe. nAno hoya tyAre vera nA bAMdhe, paNa manamAM nakkI kare ke A huM moTo thaIza ne mammIne mArIza ! praznakartA : paNa dAdA, mArI bebI ene to ApaNe vaDhIe to kazuM nahIM, sekanDamAM badhuM bhUlI jAya. dAdAzrI : e bhUlI jAya che. to kaMI eTalI cAlAkI ochI che. caMcaLatA ochI che jarA, eTale bhUlI jAya. paNa caMcaLa mANaso bahu Ugra hoya. eTale vaDhavAnuM zuM kAma che have ? bAbAne kahevuM vaDhavuM hoya to ke bola tane huM vaDhuM AvuM kAma karyuM ne kharAba karyuM A. huM tane vaDhuM to kahe, 'hA, vaDho.' to ApaNe vaDhavuM. e khuzI thaIne vaDhavAnuM kahe, to ApaNe vaDhavuM. chokarAMne tame mArazo nahIM, chokarAnuM vyaktitva che. mA bApanI dhAka hoya mAtra AMkhathI; kyAreka daMDa ke saMkorI prema pAMkhathI! praznakartA : ghaNAne evI bIlipha hoya che ke chokarAMne mArIe to ja sIdhAM thAya, nahIM to bagaDI jAya. ApaNe mArIne dhAkamAM rAkhavAM ja joIe. to ja chokarAM pAMsarA cAle, e zuM barobara che ? dAdAzrI : jyAM sudhI mAravA jevI enI uMmara hoya tyAM sudhI mAravA joIe ane 30 varSanI uMmara thaI ne mAravA jaIe to ? praznakartA : e sAmA Ave. dAdAzrI : mATe ame ema kahIe ke mArajo ane eme ya kahIe ke nA mArajo. jyAM sudhI khamI zake evo eno ahaMkAra jAgRta thayo nathI, tyAM sudhI chevaTe mArIne paNa sIdhA rAkhavAM joIe. nahIM to avaLe raste jAya.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : ApaNAmAM kahe ne ke bALaka upara dhAka rAkhavI mAbApe. dAdAnuM zuM mAnavuM che ? bApa ke mAnI dhAka hovI joIe ? kevI hovI joIe ? 199 dAdAzrI : hA. dhAka to phakta AMkhanI ja hovI joIe, hAthanI nahIM. ane roja je prema ApatA ho ne, te baMdha karIe eTale enI meLe ja mahIM samajI jAya. praznakartA : evI tame mahAtmAo upara rAkho cho ne ! dAdAzrI : hA, rAkhuM chuM. evI saheja rAkhIe nahIM ne to ene khabara zI rIte paDe ? daMDa thayelo evuM ! eTale jAgRti rAkhavA mATe. eTale A AvI rIte karavuM, ene bIjuM kaMI marAya nahIM. chokarAMone soLa varSa pachI to mitra ja karI nAkhavAno, soLa varSa sudhI Takora karavI joIe. chokarAMne samajaNa paDAya. samajAvI-paTAvIne kAma levAnuM. e to marAya nahIM bicArAne. emanI buddhi haju pragaTa thaI nathI, mAravAthI UlTuM bhaDakI jAya. A to be dholo mArI de. alyA mUA, nA marAya chokarAMne. e to phUla jevAM kahevAya. praznakartA : ahIMyAM bahAranA je amerikano che, amerikanonuM vAtAvaraNa je che, emanAM je saMskAra, enI asara ApaNA bALako upara nA paDe ? dAdAzrI : paDe. ApaNe ghera che te mAra-mAra karIe chokarAne, to e rakSaNa khoLe. eTale javAna phrenDa maLI Ave ke thayuM, cAlyuM. ApaNe to chokarAne mAra-mAra nA karAya, chokarAne to manamAM ema thAya ke kyAre ghera jauM to mArA pappAjInI pAse besuM. eTalo badho prema hovo joIe. A to mAra-mAra kare eTale prema ja nA hoya bicArAM, eTale game tyAM rakhaDI mare che. samajAya evI vAta nathI ? praznakartA : mAravAthI chokarAM sudhare ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : koI dahADo sudhare nahIM, mAravAthI kazuM sudhare nahIM. A 'mazIna'ne mArI juo to ! e bhAMgI jAya. tema A chokarAM ya bhAMgI mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra jAya. uparathI sAjAM samAM dekhAya, paNa mahIM bhAMgI jAya. bIjAne 'enkareja' karatAM nA AvaDe to pachI mauna rahe ne, cA pIne chAnomAno. badhAMnA moDhAM joto jA, A be pUtaLAM kakaLATa mAMDe che tene joto jA. A ApaNA kAbumAM nathI. ApaNe to AnAM jANakAra ja chIe. mAravAthI jagata nA sudhare, vaDhavAthI ke ciDhAvAthI koI sudhare nahIM. karI batAvavAthI sudhare che. jeTaluM bolyAM teTaluM gAMDapaNa. vaMThelAte vALo vItarAgatAthI; nahIM to sAmo thaze nirdayatAthI! 199 praznakartA : chokarAMone bahu kahyA pachI paNa jo nA vaLatAM hoya to pachI emane mAravAM ? gherathI bahAra kADhavAM ke pachI emane emanAM je hAla thAya te para choDI devAM ? dAdAzrI : bIjA koIne milakata ApavAnI hoya to ghara bahAra kADhajo. paNa tyAre e dAvo mAMDe, enA karatAM gharamAM rahevA dejone ! tame kaho ke mArI jAte milakata nahIM ApuM ? to e dAvo mAMDaze, eTale khoTuM to dekhAze ne ! ghare rAkhIne zobhA rAkhajo. mAra mAra to karazo ja nahIM. kAraNa ke e joradAra vadhAre hoya mUo, ApaNe phaiDA thayelA hoIe tyAre badalo vALe. praznakartA : A kevI rIte prazna solva karavo ? jo chokarAone ApaNe ApaNA raste lAInamAM nA laIe, na vALI zakatA hoIe, to zuM karavuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : ApaNuM kaheluM nA mAnatA hoya to ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : thaI rahyuM, ApaNe hAthamAMthI lagAma chUTI gaI. pachI karavuM zuM te ? e mArI pAse mokale to sudhArI ApIe. bAkI koI sudhAranAro che nahIM. A phere chokarIne kahyuM ke mITa nahI khAvAnuM. te olarAITa thaI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 201 200 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra gayuM pelI chokarIne ! praznakartA : to AnuM solyuzana zuM? dAdAzrI : nA, nA. e chokarAo Disiplina rAkhe che ne, te DisiplinDa puruSo pAse ja rAkhe che. paNa anu-DisiplinDa pAse e Disiplina rAkhe ja nahIM. eTale badho mA-bApano ja doSa che. eka bhAI hatA. te rAtre be vAge zuM zuM karIne ghera AvatAM haze tenuM varNana karavA jevuM nathI. tame jANI jAo. te pachI gharamAM badhAMe nizcaya karyo ke Amane vaDhavuM ke gharamAM pesavA nA devAM ? zo upAya karavo ? te teno anubhava karI AvyA. moTAbhAI kahevA gayA, to e moTAbhAIne kahe ke, 'tamane mAryA vagara choDIza nahIM." pachI gharanAM badhAM mane pUchavA AvyA ke, "AnuM zuM karavuM? A to AvuM bole che." tyAre meM gharanAMne kahI dIdhuM ke, "koIe tene akSare ya kahevAnuM nahIM. tame bolazo to e vadhAre 'phreTa' thaI jaze, ane gharamAM pesavA nahIM do to e bahAravaTuM karaze. ane jyAre AvavuM hoya tyAre Ave ne jyAre javuM hoya tyAre jAya. ApaNe rAITe ya nahIM bolavAnuM ne roMga ya nahIM bolavAnuM. rAge ya nahIM rAkhavAno ne pe ya nahIM rAkhavAno. samatA rAkhavAnI, karuNA rAkhavAnI." te traNa-cAra varSa pachI e bhAI sarasa thaI gayo ! Aje e bhAI dhaMdhAmAM bahu madadarUpa thAya che ! jagata nAkAmanuM nathI, paNa kAma letAM AvaDavuM joIe. badhA ja bhagavAna che, ane dareka judAM judAM kAma laIne beThAM che, mATe nA gamatuM rAkhazo nahIM. rahe che ke nathI rahetuM ? praznakartA : rahe ne. dAdAzrI : pachI zo vAMdho che ? evuM che ne kharI rIte to ApaNuM sAyansa zuM kahe che ke mAratI vakhate tame ene joyA karo. 'caMdubhAI chokarAMne mAratAM hoya te ghaDIe tamAre 'caMdubhAIne joyA karavuM. 'caMdubhAI zuM karI rahyA che, eTaluM ja joyA karavAnuM ane pachI 'caMdubhAIne kahevAnuM ke A tame atikramaNa karyuM, zA mATe A bicArAne mAryuM ? tamArAthI AvuM vaDhAya, tame kema vasyA ? mATe A badhAnuM pratikramaNa karo. eTale 'caMdubhAI' chokarAMne mAre te ghaDIe tamAre jANyA ja karavuM ane joDe joDe pratikramaNa karAya karAya karavuM. AvuM phAve ne ? eka mANasa saMDAsanA bAraNAMne lAto mAra mAra karato hato. meM kahyuM ke kema lAto mAro cho ? tyAre kahe che ke bahu sApha karuM chuM, to ya gaMdhAya che. khUba sApha karuM chuM to ya gaMdhAya che. bolo, have e murkhAI keTalI badhI kahevAya ? jAjarUnA bAraNAne lAto mArIe to ya gaMdhAya che. temAM bhUla konI ? praznakartA : lAto mAranAranI. dAdAzrI : kevaDI moTI bhUla kahevAyane ? kaMI daravAjAno doSa che bicArAno ? A lAto mArI mArIne jagata AkhuM gaMdhAya tene sApha karavA jAya che. paNa e saMDAsanA bAraNAne lAto mArIne potAne upAdhi thAya che ane bAraNAM ya tUTI jAya che. keTalI badhI A muzkelIo. saMsAra badho muzkelImAM mukAyo che, nahIM samajaNa paDavAthI muzkelImAM mukAyo che. A muzkelI solva thaI jAya ke kalyANa thaI gayuM. praznakartA : have bIjuM kahIe ne ke DakhoDakhala karavI nahIM ane joyA karavuM badhuM. have gharamAM cAra varSanuM bALaka hoya ane kaMI khoTuM karato hoya, te ApaNane ema ke have A ene samajaNa ochI che eTale lAva ApaNe ene Takora karIe ke vaDhIe, Dakho karIe. evuM thaI jAya ApaNAthI, ApaNe evuM karavuM paDe, ApaNuM bALaka che ema karIne. to jJAtamAM zuM bane te jao: sAthe pratikramaNathI dhUo praznakartA : Akho dahADo chokarAM bahAra rakhaDe. gharanuM kAma hoya, agatyano phero khAvAno hoya, tevuM to eNe karavuM joIe ne. vaDhIe to ya kazuM kare nahIM. pachI mauna rahevAya nahIM ne chokarA para hAtha upaDI jAya. dAdAzrI : nA, evuM mauna thaI javAya nahIM. tamAre zuddhAtmAnuM lakSa

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202 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 203 e zuM barAbara kahevAya ke zuM karavuM tyAM ?! dAdAzrI : hA, paNa je kare che, ApaNe joyA karavAnuM. praznakartA : kazuM kahevAnuM nahIM ? dAdAzrI : 'caMdubhAI' ene vaDhatA hoya, mAratA hoya to ya joyA karavAnuM, paNa vadhu mAre tyAre kahevuM ke bhaI AvuM nA marAya. praznakartA: have mAravAnuM nahIM. paNa zuM che, ApaNe jANatA hoIe ke A 'caMdubhAI" ja kare che. paNa e je aMdara Dakhala karI enI kriyAmAM, e yogya che ke ayogya che ? - dAdAzrI : karavuM badhuM ya. Dakho, Takora-bakora badhuM ya karavuM. karavI evo bhAva nA hovo joIe, zuM thAya che e jovAnuM. karavI e to karavApaNuM rahyuM ja nahIMne have. kartApada ja rahyuM nahIM ne have zuM thAya che e joyA karavAnuM. e Dakho karI nAkhe te jovuM ane A sAruM kare te ya jovuM ! praznakartA: chokarAo bahu tophAnI thaI jAya, to pachI samAja ene svIkAre nahIMne. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa tamArAmAM sudhAravAnI zakti hoya to sudhAro. paNa mArI-ThokIne nA sudhare che. mArI ThokavAnA eka ja rastAthI nA sudhare. e to padhdhatasara sudhare. praznakartA : eTale ene dasa miniTa UbhA rAkhIe athavA evI rIte paniza (zikSA) karIe, to enA AtmAne harTa (du:kha) thAya ? dAdAzrI : zikSA karavAthI zuM phAyado kADhavAno, zikSA karIne ! zikSA karavA karatAM tane ThIka lAge e bhagavAnanuM nAma leje, kahIe. ane mAphI mAgaje, to kaMIka emAM mana sAruM thAya baLyuM. ema mAno ne tamane zikSA kare dhaNI to tame zuM karo ?! manamAM ema thAya ke kyAre vakhata Ave to emanuM tela kADhI nAkhuM. emane mArA ghATamAM AvavA do! majA nathI AmAM, AvuM nA hoya. jevA che evA, tame jo prema rAkho to jagata premavALuM haze. jagata tamAro phoTo ja che, arIso ja che badho tamAro. mArI pAse pacAsa hajAra mANasa che, paNa mAre koInI joDe matabheda paDato nathI. e mane kahe ke "tame dAdA cora cho.' to huM kahuM, 'besa bhaI, mane zI rIte cora chuM ?" e mane tuM samajAva. tyAre kahe che, tamArA koTanI pAchaLa lakhyuM che ke 'dAdA cora che.' kahyuM, 'karekTa.' lakheluM hoya to pachI evuM kahe ja ne lokoe lakhyuM hoya to nA kahe ?! praznakartA: hA, kahe. to pachI badho samAja che to ema kahe ke, A mA barAbara nathI, chokarAMone sAcavatI nathI. evI rItanA mAne badhA vagove ke, evuM nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : e to ApaNA mananA khoTAM bhaya che, loko mane Ama mAnaze ne tema mAnaze ! chokarAMo sudharavAM ja joIe ApaNAM. ApaNA saMskAra evA suMdara karI nAkho ke chokarAMo sudhare. A to chokarAMo zuM kare che ke pappA ne mammI be vaDhatA hoya cALA karIne, te ghaDIe bAbo ema joyA kare. 'pappo ja kharAba che, A mammI to bicArI sArI che.' te ghaNA mA-bApane to meM inDiyAmAM kahI dIdheluM ke mUA AvuM nA karazo, nahIM to e chokarAM moTA thaze ne, tyAre mammI ne chokarAM badhA bhegA thaIne tamAruM tela kADhI nAkhaze. mATe evuM nA karo. A premamaya jIvana jIvo. AvuM zA mATe karo cho ?! have tame hitamAM karavA jAva cho. tame ahita nathI karatA, paNa hita karatAM AvaDatuM nathI, tenuM zuM thAya te ?! jIvana jIvavuM e to kaLA che. hita karatAM nA AvaDavuM joIe ! mAre koI mANasa joDe matabheda nathI paDato, enuM zuM kAraNa haze ?! to tamAre pacAsa-so mANasa joDe matabheda nA paDavo joIe eTaluM nA karavuM joIe eTaluM ? praznakartA : karavuM joIe. dAdAzrI : haM. mATe thaI zake ema che, tame nakkI karo eka vAra ke ApaNe Ama ja jIvana jIvavuM che AvuM. to tamArI lAIpha UlaTI sudharI jAya che sarasa. ane ApaNA gharanA mANasone to sukha hovuM ja joIe. tamAre mAravAno zokha hoya to bahAra polIsavALAne mArIne Avo. paNa A lokonI joDe kazuM evuM nA karo. tamane zokha hoya to bahAra tamArA hAtha UMcA karo ane ahIM gharamAM ?! nA zobhe ApaNane.

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204 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 205 ApaNe khAnadAna kavaoNliTI, ApaNe anADI na hoya. ApaNe Arya prajA chIe ane benoe vera nA vALavuM joIe koI paNa rIte, emaNe emanI maryAdAmAM rahevuM joIe. ApaNe ApaNI maryAdAmAM rahevuM joIe. praznakartA chokarAo joDe kakaLATa, jhaghaDo thaI jAya che. te enuM zuM kAraNa ? dAdAzrI : e to mA thatAM nathI AvaDatuM eTale. chokarAM to bALako che bicArAM, e to tophAna kare ja ne ! paNa mAne mA thavuM joIe ne ! te tophAna vadhAre kare ne to dhIba dhIba kare. chokarAM sAcavo glAsa vItha kera; A che bhAratanA bhAvi heyara! nathI ne bApa thayo che te parANe ajANapaNe bApo thaI gayo che. A to dUdhIyuM vAvyuM, eTale dUdhIyuM pahelAM be pAMdaDA phUTe. pachI pAMdaDe pAMdaDe AvaDuM dUdhIyuM bese. tyAre A dhIbavAnI vastu nA hoya. e baMDala upara lakhyuM hoya ke "glAsa vItha kera." to e loko kevI rIte utAre ? praznakartA: sAcavIne utAre. dAdAzrI : pelI sImeMTanI guNIo utAre evuM nahIMne ?! A bALako che, e kaMI lokhaMDanA ghaDelA nathI ke ghaNathI mAravAnAM hoya ! A to 'glAsa vItha kera." glAsane vadhAre marAya ? praznakartA : sAcI vAta che. dAdAzrI : 'glAsa vItha kera' eTale pachaDatuM nA nAkhe ane sAcavIne utAre. ApaNA chokarAM pachaDatAM nAkhe che. alyA mUA, A chokarAM e to 'glAsa vItha kera' che, sAcavIne mUka. loko chokarAM paDatAM nAkhe che. A chokarAM eTale to bhAvi peDhI ApaNA hindustAnanI che. ene kema bagADAya te ! Amane soMpIne to javAnuM ApaNe duniyAmAMthI. duniyA Amane soMpavAnI badhI, juone bhaIbaMdha hatAne te soMpIne gayAne badhAne ! soMpIne ja javAnuM che. have pachI meM chokarAo sudhAravA mATe 'glAsa vItha kera" lakhyuM che. have boksanI pAchaLa juo to kharAM. praznakartA: glAsa vItha kera. keTalAka to chokarAne mAra mAra kare, A marAtI haze cIja ?! A to glAsavera che. glAsavera to dhIme rahIne mUkAya. glAsaverane Ama pheMke to ? henDala vItha kera ! eTale dhIme rahIne mUkavAnuM. have AvuM nA karAya. praznakartA : gharamAM chokarAM-chokarIo gAMThatAM nathI. huM khUba vaDhuM chuM to ya kaI asara thatI nathI. dAdAzrI : A relavenAM 'pArsala' para 'lebala' mAreluM tame joyuM che? "glAsa vitha kera' evuM hoya che ne ? tema gharamAM paNa 'glAsa vitha kera' rAkhavuM. have glAsa hoya ane tame hathoDA mAra mAra karo to zuM thAya ? ema gharamAM mANasone kAcanI jema sAcavavAM joIe. tame e baMDala para game teTalI cIDha caDhI hoya to ya tene nIce pheMko ? tarata vAMcI lo ke 'glAsa vitha kera !" A gharamAM zuM thAya che ke kaMIka thayuM to tame tarata ja chokarIne kahevA maMDI paDo, 'kema A pAkITa khoI nAkhyuM ? kyAM gaI hatI ? pAkITa kevI rIte khovAI gayuM ?" A tame hathoDA mAra mArI karo cho. A 'glAsa vitha kera' samaje, to pachI svarUpajJAna nA ApyuM hoya to ya samajI jAya. Apane samajAyuM ne ? chokarAM e 'glAsa vItha kera che.' mUA samajatA nahIM. chokarAMne dhIbavAnAM hoya ?! paNa e samajaNa ja paDatI choDIne mAravAthI vaLAya? pAskI thApaNa, soMpI de 'dAdAya'! le tuM kaMI pUchatI karatI nahIM ne joyA kare che ! vAMdho nahIM, e to pUchAya badhuM. praznakartA : huM pUchuM enA vatI. ene eka bebI che, paNa eNe ene sAcavavI bahu bhAre paDe che.

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206 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 207 atyAra sudhI ! e to ApaNI pAzavatA che. chokarAMo mAravA mATe nathI. samajAvIne DAhyo karavA mATe che, "ejha phAra ejha posIbala." ane nA thAya to enuM nasIba, ApaNuM zuM ? khoTa gaI to ene gaI, ApaNe zuM ? jene nAma kADhavuM hoya tene bhAMjagaDa. ApaNe nAma to kADhavuM nahIM dAdAzrI : kema ? praznakartA : bahu pajave che, ema kahe che. e ene problema (prazna) moTo che bebIno. dAdAzrI : badho problema ene, pahelethI kahyuM, e phAIla che. phAIla eTale problema ja che ne ! praznakartA : e jarA enI vadhAre che, buddhi bahu Devalapa vadhAre thayelI che. to kahe ke e UMdhe raste nA jAya, enI mane bIka lAge che. dAdAzrI : phAIla che eTale evI ja hoya. koI cIkaNI hoya, koI moLI hoya. ApaNo hisAba ja che ne A to. eTale phAIla che. phAIlanuM kahevAya nahIM kevI nIkaLe che ! praznakartA : eno samabhAve nikAla kevI rIte karavo ? dAdAzrI : le je, dAdAnuM nAma laIne karaje ne badhuM. huM AzIrvAda ApIza. e chokarI che te sArI che. te koIkane ghare jatI raheze. chokaro hota to AkhI jIMdagI sudhI... praznakartA : duHkhI karata. dAdAzrI : haM.... mATe evuM ! ApaNe manamAM samajavuM ke ene ghera jatI rahevAnI che. chokarI che te vAMdho nahIM. chokaro hoya to mArIne pAMsaro kare. nA samajaNa paDI ? praznakartA : hA, barAbara che. dAdAzrI : eTale amane tarata ja vicAra Avyo ke A chokarI che ne ! dasa varSa sudhI graha naDe, pachI ? ene ghera jatI rahe. ene dhaNI evo maLI Ave pAcho. chokaro hoya to upAdhi. TheTha khATalAmAM paDyA hoya to ya haju pANI-pANI mUo karAvato hoya. praznakartA : evI phAIla cIkaNI hoya, to, ene mArIne sIdhI karavAnI ? ene jhATakavAnI ? dAdAzrI : baLyuM, e mAravAthI sudharatuM hoya to mArIne sudhare nahIM meM eka bhaIne pUchayuM, tamAre nAma kADhavuM che ? tyAre kahe, nA bA, huM to thAkyo. kaMTALyo A phAIlothI. meM kahyuM, mane soMpI do. te pachI A cIkaNI phAIlo badhI mane soMpI dIdhI. have e ya rAge paDI gaI. pelo to kahe, have mAre to dAdAnA AzIrvAda joIe che. te kharo phAvI gayo. eTale emane zAMti thaI gaI. mane soMpI devI cIkaNI phAIlo. huM kaMI enuM prArabdha badalI zakuM nahIM, prArabdha te kaMI badalAya nahIM, paNa prArabdha DhIluM karI ApuM. du:kha AvavAnuM hoya ne tene halakuM karI ApuM. bhAgAkAra karatAM AvaDe ne baLyuM ! praznakartA: hA jI. dAdAzrI : eTale ApaNe bhagavAnane kahI devuM ke zeSa tamArI, bhAgAkAra mAro. bhAgAkAra karatAM karatAM zeSa vadhe te tamArI ane bhAgAkAra mAro pachI. samajo zuM che kudaratano javAba; bApa kare majUrI ke dIkaro javAba! praznakartA : ekabIjA sAthe meLa nathI besato. badhA ekabIjA sAthe laDyA vagara rahe, ene mATe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : nA bese, koI dA'Do beTho ja nathIne. A kaLiyuga che ne, sayugamAM besato hato. mane tamArA phAdhara kahetA hatA, mane koInI joDe meLa nathI. praznakartA : badhA manamojI rIte rahe, jene jema rahevuM hoya ema rahe. enuM zuM karavuM ?

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208 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : zAnA mATe ? praznakartA: kuTuMbamAM badhA potAne mana phAve ema rahe, to ene mATe zuM karavuM ApaNe ? dAdAzrI : te ApaNe badhA bhegA thaIne kaMIka kAyado karavAno. kAyado karavo ke A pramANe rahevuM joIe. game tevuM svacchaMdI vartana nA hovuM joIe. kaMIka kAyadesara hovuM joIe vartana. praznakartA : ane nA mAne to ? dAdAzrI : nA mAne to gayuM. chokaro nA mAne to chokaro judo thaI jAya ane bApa judo thaI jAya. praznakartA: to pachI judA thaI jaIe to koI vaDIla hoya to kaheze, tame kema dhyAna nhotuM rAkhyuM chokarAonuM ? dAdAzrI : e to kahe to kharAM, Takora kare ne loko. mauna rahevuM e vakhate ApaNe. A vAta to kharIne ! ApaNI kaMIka bhUla to thaI tethI chokarAnI joDe AvuM thayuM ne. badhe ja evuM thayA karavAnuM e to. praznakartA : gharanA je mukhya mANasa hoya, ene je ciMtA hoya e kaI rIte dUra karavI ? dAdAzrI : kRSNa bhagavAne zuM kahyuM che, ke "jIva tuM zIdane zocanA kare, kRSNane je karavuM hoya te kare.' evuM vAMcavAmAM AvyuM che ? praznakartA : mAruM evuM mAnavuM che ke mANase zrama to karavo ja joIe, dekhabhALa to karavI ja joIe. dAdAzrI : zrama to puSkaLa karavo. zrama tame pAMca vAge UThIne karyA karo, paNa ciMtA-varIjha tamAre zuM karavA karavAnI jarUra che ? praznakartA : gharanAM cAlIsa mANaso kharAMne, eTale ciMtA to rahyA ja karavAnI ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, paNa A tame calAvo cho ? kaSNu bhagavAna zuM kahe che ke mane calAvavA do ne ! tame zuM karavA bhAMjagaDa karo cho ? mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 209 praznakartA : evuM che, gharamAM mAre badhI mahenata karavI paDe che. chokarAMo kazuM karatAM nathI. ApaNe chokarAMone zrama karatAM zIkhavADIe to e barAbara cAle. paNa e loko zrama kazuM karatAM nathI, kAma kazuM karatAM nathI, je kahIe tenAthI UlaTuM cAle che. dAdAzrI : evuM che, ke A to atyAranAM chokarAMonI ciMtA ApaNe karavI joIe. paNa gayA avatAramAM chokarAM hatA, tenuM zuM karyuM? dareka avatAramAM baccAM mUkI mUkIne AvyA che, je avatAramAM AvyAne te avatAramAM baccAM mUkI mUkIne Avyo che, te nAnA nAnA AvaDAM rakhaDI jAya evuM mUkIne Avyo che. tyAMthI javAnuM jarA ya gamatuM nahotuM to ya tyAMthI AvyA. pachI bhUlI gayo ne pAchAM A avatAramAM bIjA baccAM ! eTale baccAMno kakaLATa zuM karavA karo cho ? dharmane raste vALI do emane, sArAM thaI jaze. eka zeTha mane kahe, 'A mArA chokarAne kazuM kahone, mahenata karavI nathI. nirAMte bhogave che.' meM kahyuM, 'kazuM kahevA jevuM ja nathI.' e enA potAnI bhAgyanI puNya bhogavato hoya. emAM ApaNe zuM karavA Dakho karIe ? tyAre e mane kahe ke, "emane DAhyAM nathI karavAM ?" meM kahyuM ke jagatamAM je bhogave che e DAhyo kahevAya, bahAra nAkhI de ene gAMDo kahevAya ne mahenata karyA kare e to majura kahevAya.' paNa mahenata kare che ene ahaMkArano rasa maLe ne. lAMbo koTa paherIne jAya eTale loko zeTha AvyA, zeTha AvyA' kare eTaluM ja basa. ane bhogavanArane evI kaMI zeTha-beThanI paDelI nA hoya. ApaNe to ApaNuM bhogavyuM eTaluM sAcuM. praznakartA : chokarAM enI javAbadArI samajIne rahetAM nathI. dAdAzrI : javAbadArI 'vyavasthita'nI che, e to enI javAbadArI samajelo ja che. ene kahetAM tamane AvaDatuM nathI tethI Dakho thAya che. sAmo mAne tyAre ApaNuM kaheluM kAmanuM. A to mA-bApa bole gAMDuM, pachI chokarAM ya gAMDAM kADhe. praznakartA : chokarAone pharavAnuM bahu hoya che. dAdAzrI : chokarAM koI ApaNAM baMdhAyelAM nathI, sahusahunA

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210 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 2 11 vakIlane ela.ela.bI.nuM sarTIphIkeTa maLe te che AghuMpAchuM thAya che pachI ? jyAre juo tyAre..... ane bApanuM ApeluM to kalAke kalAke phare. bApa dharmiSTha hoya to chokarAMnI khoDa kADha kADha kare. prakRtinI khoDa kADhavI nA joIe. prakRtinI khoDa kADhavAthI bhagavAnane vAta pahoMce che. prakRti niyamita che, 'vyavasthita che. mAte, buDhAnI buddhi bahera mArI; to ya premathI to saMbaMdha sudhArI! baMdhanamAM che. ApaNe to eTaluM kahevuM paDe ke, 'vahelA Avajo." pachI jyAre Ave tyAre 'vyavasthita.' vyavahAra badho karavAno, paNa kaSAyarahita karavAno. vyavahAra kaSAyarahita thayo to mokSa ne kaSAyasahita vyavahAra te saMsAra. A chokaro tamAro ne ? have e koI dahADo sAmo thAya che kharo ? e sAmo thaze tyAre tame zI rIte sukhI rahezo ? praznakartA : e to bhagavAnanI marajI. dAdAzrI : vaLI marajI koIkane ghera evuM kema ? A chokarAM ApaNAM, davAkhAnAmAM ApaNe jaIe, DIlIvarI ApaNe karAvIe ane pAchI marajI pArake ghera ? evuM te hotuM haze ? marajI koIkanI hotI haze ? ApaNe ghera ApaNI marajI. tame bhagavAnanI marajInuM zAka lAvo cho ? A sADIo ya tamArI marajInI ja lAvo cho ne ! ane AmAM bhagavAnanI marajI ?! bhagavAnano kAgaLa-bAgaLa kazuM koI dahADo Avelo ? zI rIte A lokonuM cAle che gADuM ? ke dhakam dhakkA ja pachI ? chokaro sAmo thayo ke pachI dahADo sukhamAM jAya kharuM ne ? (!) potAno chokaro sAmo thAya kharo ? praznakartA : thAya che ne ! dAdAzrI : eTale A duniyAmAM kazuM nA bane evuM nathI ne ! badhuM ja bane ane jokhama keTalAM badhAM ?! chokarAM hoya pachI choDIo hatuM hoya ! ApaNe pUchIe ke baheno tame zuM karavA AvI ? tyAre kaheze ke e pUchazo nahIM, amArA hisAbathI ame AvyA ne tamArA hisAbathI tame cho. AvuM kahe, te ApaNAthI kazuM pUchAya paNa nahIM. eTale koI koInI upara upakAra nathI karatA, evuM sarasa che A jagata ! praznakartA : chokarAM tochaDAIthI bole che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa e tame zI rIte baMdha karazo ? A to sAmasAmuM baMdha thAya ne to badhAnuM sAruM thAya. kolejanuM sarTIphIkeTa AvyuM ke AghuMpAchuM nA thAyane ? juone, A praznakartA : chokarAMo evuM mAne che ke buddAomAM buddhi ochI che. eTale e loko ApaNuM mAne ja nahIM. ame karatAM hoya ema karavA do amane, eTale choDI devAnuM e lokone ke bhaI, cAlo tamAruM kharuM. dAdAzrI : nA. choDI nahIM devAnuM. ApaNe ApaNuM karyA javAnuM. e game tevuM bole to ya ApaNe ApaNuM karyuM javuM. ApaNI pharaja che, cUkAya nahIM. chokarAM nathI gAMThatAM e ApaNI bhUlo che, ApaNI khAmI che, DiphekTa che. praznakartA : e khAmI dUra karavA mATe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe prema keLavavo joIe. A to chokarAthI rakAbI bhAMgI gaI. tArA hAtha bhAMgalA, ema kahIne che te be-cAra muThIo mArI praznakartA : A jamAnAmAM ApaNAM ja saMtAno ApaNuM sAMbhaLatAM na hoya, ane avaLe raste caDhI gayAM hoya. to emane kevI rIte pAchAM vALavAM ? ane jo na mAne to emane zuM karavuM ? javA devAM emane raste ? dAdAzrI : zuM kare che, nA mAne tene ? mAne nahIM, tene zuM karavAnuM? ApaNAmAM bApa thavAnI taiyArI ja nA hoya, samajaNa ja nA hoya bApa thavAnI, eTale pachI mAne ja kevI rIte ? polIsavALAnuM ya loka mAne che, nahi ? e polIsavALo che jo ane A bApa thayA to nA mAne ?

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212 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 2 13 sAmuM chokarAM Ape vaNatolyuM; noMdha ja na rAkho game te bolyA chokaro sAmo thAya to tame zuM karo cho ? praznakartA : samajAvuM ke A khoTuM che, AvuM nA karavuM joIe. dAdAzrI : paNa e sAmo thAya, tyAre tame kaDaka nA thaI jAva ? praznakartA : koI vAra evuM thAya. dAdAzrI : paNa athaDAmaNa nA thaI jAya ? koI dahADo vAsaNo khakhaDatAM nathI ? praznakartA : khakhaDe. tyAre jarA phUMphADo mAravo paDe. basa eTaluM ja, bIjuM nahIM. dAdAzrI : phUMphADo mAro cho ? tyAre pelo sAme phUMphADo mAre to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : evo anubhava nathI thayo, e sAme nathI phUMphADA mArato. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa e phUMphADo mAre to zuM thAya ? mATe phUMphADo ya nA karavo joIe. phUphADo zene mATe ? phUMphADo sApa kare. ApaNe zene mATe phUMphADo karavo paDe ? phUMphADo tamane AvaDe paNa zI rIte ? phUMphADo kone kahevAya, e paNa tame jANatA nathI. phUMphADAmAM ahaMkAra nA hoya. tamArA phUMphADAmAM to ahaMkAra hoya ne ! nahIM to DheDaphajeto ja thAyane ! e ApaNane nAlAyake kahe. eTale ApaNe bIjuM hathiyAra vAparIe, pachI rahyuM ja zuM gharamAM ? pachI loko bhegA thAya, 'juone, A chokaro ATaluM badhuM bhaNelo che, A bApanAmAM akkala nahIM ne !' kaheze. e ApaNI akkala pAchA loka jue. enAM karatAM ApaNI akkala ApaNe ja joIe, e zuM khoTI ? nahIM to loka to tAyapho jue ! lokone to joIe che evA tAyaphA !! eTale A zodhakhoLa che mArI !! ane chokarAne to kahIe ke laI jA pelI poTalI ! bhaI, tArI poTalI laI jA. evuM meM vyavahAramAM kaheluM. amAro eka oLakhANavALo ApI jato hato AvaDuM AvaDuM, eTale pachI meM zuM karyuM ? A vaNatolyuM ne vaNamAguM Ape che, eTale ApaNe ahIM bAjue mUkI rAkho. ApaNe kaMI bolavA jaIe agara to AkhI rAta tola tola karIe to upAdhi thAya. tame koI dahADo AkhI rAta kazuM toleluM ? pahelAM tolyuM hazene ?! praznakartA : hAjI, koIkavAra banyuM hoya. dAdAzrI : hA, tole. rAte tole pAcho huM, sADA agiyAra-bAra thAya to ya tole. "ohoho, AvuM moTuM, AvuM moTuM !" kATalA nA hoya, kazuM ya nA hoya ne tole !! praznakartA : chokaro kharAba zabda bolyo, sAmo thayo hoya, te noMdhI rAkhyuM. to e abhiprAyathI laukika vartanamAM gAMTha paDI jAya. AnAthI sAmAnya vyavahAra gUMcAI nA jAya ? dAdAzrI : noMdha ja A duniyAmAM nakAmI che. noMdha ja A duniyAmAM nukasAna kare che. ko'ka bahu mAna Ape te noMdha nA rAkhIe. ane ko'ka gALo bhAMDe, "tame nAlAyaka cho, anaphITa cho." te sAMbhaLI ne noMdha nahIM rAkhavAnI. noMdha eNe rAkhavI hoya to rAkhe. ApaNe A pIDA kyAM laIe pAchI ?! copaDA-bopaDA lAvIne pAchI noMdho rAkhavA mAMDIe !! noMdhavahI ne e badhuM e karyA kare. jene khAtAvahI rAkhavI hoya te, ApaNe to noMdhIe nahIM, tane je bolavuM hoya te bola, kAraNa ke e AgalA hisAba haze to ja bolAze, nahIM to bolAze nahIM. praznakartA : udayakarmanuM che ema samaje to pachI noMdhano savAla ja na Ave. dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke udayakarma samaje to pachI kazuM che nahIM, badhuM ja udayakarma che. A kazuM che nahIM. ahaMkAra jAgRta thAya eTale sAmo javAba Apene. jyAM sudhI ahaMkAra che nahIM, tyAM sudhI enA paga pahoMcatA nathI, tyAM sudhI e potAnuM dhAreluM kare nahIM. moTo thayo, eTale potAnuM mana dhAryuM karene,

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ra14 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 2 15 ApaNuM mAne kharo ? praznakartA : mAne nahIM, tyAM sudhI e barobarapaNa pachI to doSo kADhe ApaNAM. dAdAzrI : hA, doSo kADhe. jeNe moTo karyo, jenuM e karyuM. te badhAMnAM doSo kADhe. te vakhate kevI dazA thatI haze ? koInuM apamAna nA sahana kareluM hoya ne te vakhate chokarI sAmuM bole to zuM thAya ? praznakartA: ApaNAmAM doSa hoya ane doSa batAve, emAM khoTuM dAdAzrI : e khoTuM nahIM. khoTuM to kazuM hotuM nathI. paNa sahana nA thAya mANasane. chokarAM ke vahu dekhADe te mANasathI sahana thAya nahIM. praznakartA : e vakhate jAgRti rAkhavI joIe ke A mArAmAM doSa che, ne kahyo. dAdAzrI : nA. e jAgRti rAkhe to ya UDI jAya. kAraNa ke bIjA bahAranAM mANasa joDe jAgRti rAkhe, paNa enAM gharanAM mANasa joDe jAgRti rahe nahIM. kAraNa ke huM eno bApa chuM.' e to khyAlamAM bhUlI jAya ke ? "huM eno bApa chuM.' e bhUlI nA jAyane ? e to tamAre anubhava thAya tyAre khabara paDe. emane samajaNa nathI bilakula. bALakonA hAthane svataMtratA apAvI pAchI A lokoe, ApaNe zuM karyuM? ApaNe tyAM rivAja che ke ucharatA yuvAnane svataMtratA ApavI e svataMtratA satyAnAza vALe che. e svataMtratA nA apAya. te A lokoe svataMtratA ApI. DemokreTa karI nAkhe che. eTale kaMTrolamAM rahevuM joIe. e svataMtratA satyAnAza vALe che. praznakartA H to A svataMtratA ApI che, to have DisiplinDa kevI rIte thAya ? dAdAzrI : have e to evuM che ne ke aMdhArI rAtrI hoya ane kALo ghoDo hoya ane khIle bAMdhelo hoya, pachI rAtre choDIe ene, pachI ApaNe "ghoDA Aya Aya' karIe to Ave ? praznakartA : nA Ave. dAdAzrI : ghoDo chUTI gayo e chUTI gayo, aMdhArI rAta ne pAcho kALo, zI rIte jaDe ApaNane ?! A to pataMganI dorI chUTI gaI. dorI hoya tyAM sudhI pataMga gulAMTa khAya to kheMcIe. paNa have dorI ja hAthamAMthI chUTI gaI to zuM thAya ? eTale have bIjo upAya karavAno. upAya to hoya ja enI pAchaLa. praznakartA : hA, have bIjA upAya zuM karavA ? dAdAzrI : e to enI meLe upAya khoLe. tyAra pachI invenzana thAya pAchuM ke A upAya karavo. A to navI vastu pesavAnI, pelI jUnI hatI te chuTI gaI. anubhavanI hatI te to. have upAya khoLI kADho to jaDI Avaze upAya eno evI AzA rAkhIe ApaNe. praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : juvAnane svataMtratA nA apAya, paNa A svataMtratA be peDhIthI apAya che te satyAnAza vALI deze. praznakartA : mA ne bApa banne gharamAM che, to emAM eka che to chokarAne svataMtratA ApavAnA pakSamAM hoya ane bIjA che to svataMtratA svataMtratA ApI vAvo satyAnAza; bhUla sudhAro have, sakhI haLavAza! praznakartA : e loko haMmezAM ArgyumenTa bahu kare. dAdAzrI : e ArgyumenTa eTalA mATe kare ke 'huM chuM te A.... moTA moTA lekhako hoya ne ane moTA moTA pradhAno hoya, enAM jevo thaI gayo chuM." evuM mAne che badhAM. "mArA bApa ne badhA karatAM huM hoziyAra chuM' evuM mAne che. tamArA badhAnuM jue che ne ene kAcuM lAge che ke A loko jIvana jIvatAM nathI barAbara. jIvana to ApaNane jIvatAM AvaDe che. "ApaNe ja hoziyAra chIe" evuM mAne che eka jAtanuM.

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216 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 217 nA ApavAnA pakSamAM hoya. eTale ene, chokarAne dekhatAM ja mA-bApa sAmAsAmI jhaghaDI paDe. dAdAzrI : hA, e jhaghaDI paDe. eka svataMtratA ApavA mAMgato hoya bIjo nA ApavA mAMgato hoya. e jhaghaDI paDe eTale chokaro jANe ke have ekano voTa Ave che, to pachI ApaNe zuM vAMdho ! eTale AmAM bhalIvAra nA Ave. samajAvI zakIe. pachI e nA samaje to eno upAya nathI. pachI ApaNe eTaluM kahevuM ke, 'dAdA bhagavAna! Ane sadgadhdhi Apajo." ATaluM kahevuM paDe. kaMI ene adhdhara nA laTakAvAya, gapyuM nathI. chevaTe nahIM to prArthanAnuM 'eDajasTamenTa' ! na calAvAya ApaNI draSTithI koIne; vItarAgathI virudhdha che, kahe dAdA joIta! zuM bebIne sudhAravI che ke; kazuM oparezana karavuM che? praznakartA : bIjuM kAMI nahIM, dAdA. basa game tenI sAmuM bole eTalI ja, A chokarIne Teva che. - dAdAzrI : e cho ne bole ! e to enI meLe mAra khAze. nahIM to chevaTe sAsu tela kADhI nAkhaze. kazuM nahIM, e to badhuM bhUlI jAya pachI. jema jema samajaNa Avene, ApaNe ene samajaNa pADavI ke AvuM nA bolAya sAmuM, eTaluM kahevuM ApaNe zuM ? praznakartA : hA, dAdA. dAdAzrI : e samaje kharuM pAchI, e nA bolAya evuM samaje. ghaNAM pherA to guru hoyane potAne, te chokaro thaIne Avyo hoya, have pachI TaiDakAve bApane. pelI Teva che ne pahelAMnI ne jAya nahIM. A to badhuM RNAnubaMdha che ne ! guru chokaro thaIne beTho hoya to zuM thAya ? eTale AvA RNAnubaMdha hoya che. lokone samajAya nahIM ane mAramAra karIe to khoTuM dekhAya uchuM. eTale pahelAM AtmAnuM potAnuM kare, to chokarA DAhyA thaI jAya. pote potAnuM karatA nathI ne chokarAnuM bhaNAvA jAya ! ane badhA samajaNavALA chokarA. pAchA evuM te kaMI gAMDA-ghelA hoya to ThIka che. praznakartA : sAmAne samajAvavA meM mAro puruSArtha karyo, pachI e samaje-nA samaje e eno puruSArtha ? dAdAzrI : ATalI ja javAbadArI ApaNI che ke ApaNe ene praznakartA: phAila cIkaNI ane pAsenI, eTale evuM ja lAge. ene to e phAIlo badhI kaleImavALI kahevAya. dAdAzrI : cIkaNI phAIlo badhI potAnI bhUlo che e. praznakartA : e kai bhUla ? dAdAzrI : jeTalo pArakAM joDe nobala rahe che, opana mAinDa, eTalo ahIM opana mAInDa raheto nathI. eTale pachI zodhakhoLa karelI ame, te opana mAinDathI ja ame cAlelA. eTale amAre AmanI joDe ya phAve ne AmanI joDe phAve. A to opana mAinDathI cAlatAM nathI, manamAM ema che ke huM enuM sIdhuM karI ApuM, AvI rIte nA cAlavuM joIe. praznakartA : hA, dAdA evuM ja che. dAdAzrI : ApaNI draSTie calAvavo che ene, cAle che je draSTie e nahIM cAlavA devAno. e vItarAga matanI virudhdha che, e vItarAgonA sAmAvaLIyA kahevAya che. je potAnI draSTie bIjAne calAvaDAve, vItarAgonA sAmAvaLIyA kahevAya. praznakartA: cAnaka lAge evuM vAkya che ke vItarAgonA sAmAvaLIyA thAva cho tame AvuM karIne ! dAdAzrI : che ja sAmAvaLIyA, tethI ja du:kha che ne ! phare kazuM ya nahi. tuTI jAya tyAM sudhI kheMce eTaluM ja keTalAka DAhyA hoya te kaheze, 'bhaI, tUTyAM pachI gAMTha vALavI.' tenA karatAM ApaNe tUTavA ja nA daIe

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2 18 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 219 e zuM khoTuM ! pachI gAMTha vALavAnuM nA samaje che. tUTyA pachI gAMTha vALavI DAhyA thaI jAva tenA karatAM ! praznakartA : koI vakhata evuM thAya, to samajaNa pADavA mATe kaMIka kahevuM ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : baLyuM, pArakAMne samajaNa pADo cho ?! te A kaMI nizALiyAM che ApaNAM ! A to hisAba levA AvyA che, rAga-dveSanA. A kaMI ApaNA nizALiyAM joya. nizALiyAM eTale mAstarane kyAreka paisA maLe, bIjuM maLe. A to badhAM rAga-dveSanAM pUtaLAM che, badhuM levA AvyAM che. UlaTo hisAba ApaNI pAse zIkhavADe ke mArA kahyA pramANe cAlatAM nathI. praznakartA: AvI ja vAta che dAdA, A hakIkata che. chokarAo ema ja kahe che. dAdAzrI : kharuM kahe che e. have AvuM ApaNe moDhe kahe, tyAMthI pachI ThekANAM vagaranAM thaIne pharIe ! A to kaheze, 'huM ThekANAvALo chuM." bahArano koI nA kahe ApaNane, bahArano evo koI kahe nahIM ke 'tame ThekANAM vagaranAM cho.' praznakartA : bahAranuM koI kahetuM nathI. dAdAzrI : eTale chokarAonI joDe evI rIte vartIe ke chokarAo kahe ke mArA jevA phAdhara koIne maLaze nahIM. koI dahADo amAre bhAMjagaDa nahIM, matabheda nahIM, kazuM nahIM. praznakartA : bIjI kaMI bhAMjagaDa paDatI nathI, paNa huM jyAre kahevA kaMIka jAuM, eTale aTakyuM badhuM. dAdAzrI : kahevAnI icchA ja nA rAkhavI, A nizALiyAM joya. nizALiyAM e konuM nAma kahevAya ke jene zIkhavADIe, vaDhIe to e svIkAra kare. A to sAmA thAya che, te baLyuM e zI kamANI ! A huM tamane zIkhavADuM ane tame sAmA thAva, to huM to ahIMthI choDIne jato rahuM ne haDahaDATa ! praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : eTale koI dahADo koIne vaDhuM ? praznakartA : nathI vaDhatA. dAdAzrI : badhA vAMkAcUkA nahIM hoya ?! mArA kahevA pramANe cAle ! mArA dhAryA pramANe koI cAlatAM haze ?! sahu sahunI prakRti pramANe cAle. praznakartA : dAdA, ApanI pAse jyArathI Avyo chuM tyArathI Apa eka zabdakoSa jevA ja mane dekhAva cho. DikSanarI jevA ja ho, jyAre kaMIka ame gUMcavAIe tyAre ApanI pAse pUchavA AvIe eTale tarata ja eno khulAso Apo cho ! dAdAzrI : badhA khulAsA, badhuM darzana prApta kareluM che. covIsa tIrthakaronuM bheguM darzana prApta kareluM che. jeno je gUMcavADo hoya teno khulAso tarata maLaze. tenuM jJAna thayuM nathI pUrNatAe paNa darzana to che ja. samajamAM AvI gayuM che. kevaLajJAna samajamAM AvI gayeluM che. anubhavamAM nathI AvyuM tyAM sudhI huM ya 'dAdA bhagavAna, dAdA bhagavAna" karyA karuM. e anubhavamAM AvyuM nathI ne ! A UMcAmAM UMcI ATalI jo AvaData Ave jagatamAM, ATaluM DahApaNa pharI vaLe, to kAma kADhI nAkhe jagatanA lokonuM. mAnyatAo ThokI nA besADAya. ta kapAya bAvaLIyo ghaNathI! kapAya e to karavatatI kaLathI! praznakartA: svataMtratA ane svacchaMdatA gharamAM eTalI badhI ghusI gaI che ne, potAnAM ja bALakone kahIe to ApaNuM sAMbhaLatAM ja nathI. dAdAzrI : baLyuM, A pAMca minITamAM ja mArI pAse sudharI jAya che. AmanI pAse AkhI jIMdagI nahIM sudharatAM te nA samajIe ke e ghaNathI bAvaLIyA pADavA jAya che, kuhADAthI bAvaLIyA pADavA joIe ke ghaNathI pADavA joIe ?

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220 mA-bApa chokarAno vyavahAra praznakartA : kuhADAthI ! dAdAzrI : to ghaNathI mAraThoka kare, Ama Thoke ke AmathI Thoke, paDe che bAvaLIyo ? eka bApa che te eno AvaDo traNa varSano chokaro hato. tene laIne ahIM darzana karAvavA teDI lAvyo ane chokarAne kahe che, "bhaI, darzana kara dAdAnAM, dAdAjIne je' je' kara." tyAre pelA kahe, 'nA.' cokhkhuM ja nA kahyuM, 'nahIM karuM', kahe che. nA mAnyuM te nA ja mAnyuM. tyAre bApAe zuM karyuM ? Akho UMcakIne ahIM aDADI dIdho. eTale pelo ja bApA sAme joIne Ama cIDhAyo, te pachI mAra mAra karyo bApAne. AnI pAchaLa zuM haze ? tyAre meM kahyuM, 'A bApAnI bhUla che.' chokarAnI bhUla che ke mArI bhUla che A ? konI bhUlathI A jhaghaDA ? konI bhUlathI A gADI UbhI rahI che ? enuM zuM kAraNa ? praznakartA : ene saMskAra evA nathI, eTalA mATe. dAdAzrI : saMskAra nathI evuM kema kahevAya ApaNAthI ? pachI enAM bApane kahuM ke tane A tALAnI cAvI UghADatAM AvaDatI nathI. tArA potAnAM gharanAM kArakhAnAnuM tALuM, ene cAvIthI UghADatAM tane nathI AvaDatuM. hA, lokonAM kArakhAnAnuM tALuM hoya ne nA UghaDe to e vAta judI che ! eTale pachI bApe bahu jora karyuM. Ama lAvI ApIza, tema lAvI ApIza. bahu lAlaco ApI ne, tyAre eNe je' je' karyuM, paNa Ama pAchaLa hAtha rAkhIne. je' je' karyuM to ya sIdhuM nA karyuM. Ama UMdhA pharIne karyuM. eTale huM samajI gayo ke kayAM DIphekTa che. A chokarAne keTalo ahaMkAra haze te sAmuM joIne je' je' paNa nathI karI zakato. tyAre e pUrvano keTalo ahaMkAra laIne Avelo che ! eTale pachI enA bApe kahyuM, "Ama nA thAya. sIdhuM je' je' kara.'' tyAre ema kaMI thatuM haze ? samajaNa sIdhI pADo. tyAre kahe, 'A samajaNa pADuM chuM, paNa nathI mAnato ne !' meM kahyuM, 'zI rIte mAne ?" bApA thayA che eTale bApa nA thayA hota, ne bhAI thayA hota to mAnata. paNa tame to bApa thaI beThA cho pAchAM. ke' kara, kare che ke nahIM ? mane kahe che, mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 'A nathI kare evo.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'UbhA raho. bAbA, huM tane je' je' karuM to ? tuM ahIM Ava. 'jaya saccidAnaMda'. to eNe tarata karyuM. Ama hAtha sIdhA joDIne bolyo, 'jaya saccidAnaMda'. are vALa to kharo ! ene vALavAmAM zuM jAya che ? pachI karyA karaze. eka phero vALI ApIe eTale pachI karyA kare. meM je' je' karyuM ne tyAre tarata eNe karyuM. e emanI aTakaNa AvI ! tyAre bApo kahe che, 'tame kharuM karyuM.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'ATaluM zIkha.' ema ne ema bApa thaI beTho che, vagara kAmanAM ! paNa AMkho kADhIne bIvaDAve. bApa nA thaIza mUA, chokaruM haThe caDhyuM che ane A chokaruM e chokaruM nathI. gaye avatAre 80 varSano thaIne marI gayo ne e 83 varSano thayo che atyAre. 221 bolo punarjanmanI hayAtI vagara e chokarAne eTalo badho ahaMkAra kyAMthI Avyo ? ane te Avo ? A to meM joyeluM ja nahIM AvuM to, '"Ama je' je' kahyuM, paNa A AMkhe dekhatAM nahIM karuM" tyAre e ahaMkAra keTalo bhAre ?! eTale cAvI UghADatAM AvaDavI joIe. paththara mAra mAra karIe to tALAM UghaDe ? tALuM UghADatAM nA AvaDavuM joIe ?! praznakartA : Apa je je levalanA mANasa hoya tenI sAthe te te rItanI vAta karo cho. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa zuM karIe tyAre ! eka chokaro to, evo ADo hato, te kaDavI davA pAya, te pIve nahIM, utAre nahIM gaLe evo ADo thayelo. tyAre enI mAe bahu pAkI hatI. e to jema chokaruM ADuM hoya to enI mA kaMI kAcI hoya ke ! te mAe zuM karyuM, nAka dabAvyuM. te huDahuDa karIne UtarI gayuM. eTale chokaro vadhAre pAko thaI gayo. eTale bIje dahADe jyAre pAtI hatI ne, tyAre mA nAka dabAvA gaI, to ANe phUuu karIne AMkhamAM pheMkyuM ! A to AnI A kavaoNliTI ! peTamAM nava mahinA naphAmAM rahe vagara bhADe ane vaLI pAchAM uparathI pAchAM phUMkArA mAre, mUA ! vidhAuTa enI renTa nAIna mantha !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 223 bhogave tenI bhUla e nyAya; dArUDiyo dIkaro tathI anyAya! eTale evA chokarAnuM ApaNe calAvI levuM paDe badhuM. emAM cAle nahIM. vahu hoya to DAIvorsa ya ApIe. paNa chokarAne DAIvorsa apAya nahIM, A duniyAmAM evuM sAMbhaLavAmAM AvyuM che ? praznakartA : ghaNA loko chokarAMne kADhI mUke che. dAdAzrI : evuM kADhI mUkavo e guno che eka jAtano. e bejavAbadArI kahevAya. e chokaro pachI kyAMya hoTalamAM game tyAM AkhI jIMdagI bagADe. ApaNe tyAM janmyo eTale ene mATe ApaNI kaMIka javAbadArI to hovI joIene !! eTale rIsponsIbIlITI ApaNI che! vahatI gALo kAtathI jAya saMbhaLAI; bhAMgo bhUla, tyAM hatA ja nahIM karI! eka bApa amane kahetA hatA ke "A mAro trIjA naMbarano chokaro bahu ja kharAba che. be chokarA sArA che." meM kahyuM, 'A kharAba che, to tame zuM karazo ?" tyAre kahe, "zuM kare baLyuM A ? paNa be chokarAne mAre kazuM kahevuM nathI paDatuM ane A trIjA chokarA mATe mArI AkhI jIMdagI ja kharAba thavA mAMDI che' meM kahyuM, 'zuM kare che e chokaro tamAro ?" tyAre e kahe, "rAtre doDha vAge Ave che, dArU DhIMcIne Ave mUo. meM kahyuM, 'pachI tame zuM karo cho ?" tyAre kahe, 'huM jouM chuM, jo ene moTuM dekhADuM to e gALo bhAMDe. huM cheTo rahIne bArImAM rahIne joyA karuM ke zuM kare che !" tyAre meM kahyuM, 'doDha vAge ghare AvIne pachI zuM kare che ? tyAre kahe che, "khAvA karavAnI kazI vAta nahIM karavAnI, AvIne pathArI enI karI ApavAnI, mahIM sUI javAnuM eNe tarata ane sUI jAya che ne, tarata nAkhorA bole che." tyAre meM kahyuM, 'tamArI zI dazA thAya che ?" tyAre e kahe, 'e sUI jAya ne tarata UMghI jAya naphikaro' meM kahyuM, "to phikara koNa kare che ?" tyAre kahe, 'te to huM ja karuM chuM.' pachI kahe che, "mane to AkhI rAta UMgha nahIM AvatI, eno A veza joIne." kahyuM, "A doSa tamAro che. e to sUI jAya che nirAMte. tamAro doSa te tame bhogavo cho. A pUrvabhave zIkhavADanAro tuM A dArUnuM vyasana." pelAne zIkhavADIne khasI gayAM. zA hAruM zIkhavADe ? lAlacanAM mATe. te A gayA avatAre phaTavyo che, UMdhe raste caDhAvyo che. te e zIkhavADyAnuM phaLa AvyuM A phere. te have phaLa nirAMte bhogavo ! te bhogave enI bhUla. jo pelo DhoMgaro to sUI gayo che ne nirAMte ? ane bApa AkhI rAta upAdhi karato karato, pAcho doDha vAge jANe ya kharo. Avelo che, jANe ne bolAya nahIM pAcho. bole to kahe, AvaDI gALo Ape ane sUI jAya to pAcho nAkhorA haDahaDATa bole. pAcho sIgareTa pIIne sUI jAya nirAMte. jone konA bApanI paDelI che ? te bhogave pelo. bhUla enI. vahu jANe ke sasarA pelA rUmamAM beThAM che. eTale vahu bIjA joDe vAta kare ke 'sasarAmAM jarAka akkala ochI che.' have ApaNe te ghaDIe tyAM AgaLa UbhA hoya to ApaNane A sAMbhaLavAmAM Ave. to ApaNI mahIM e roga peTho. to tyAM ApaNe zo hisAba kADhavAno ke ApaNe pelA rUmamAM tyAM beThA hota to zuM thAta ? to kazo roga Ubho nA thAta. eTale ahIM AvyA te bhUlano roga che ! ApaNe e bhUla bhAMgI nAkhIe. ApaNe ema mAnIne ke tyAM ja beThA hatAM. ne A nahotuM sAMbhaLyuM eTale e bhUla bhAMgI nAkhIe. mahAvIra bhagavAnanI ya pAchaLa to loko bolatA hatA. e to bole loka. ApaNe ApaNI bhUla bhAMgI nAMkhavI. ene phAve evuM bole ane ApaNA karmanA udaya hoya, to ja enAthI AvuM bolAya. ApaNA udaya rAzI hoya to ja bolAya. ApaNe sAMbhaLI gayA ke vahu ApaNI mATe 'akkala vagaranAM che' evuM bolI. to ya ApaNe jANIe ke A to AvuM ja cAlavAnuM che. ApaNe koIkane ghare rahevA gayA hoya, ne koIkanAM chokarAnI vahu hoya to ApaNe calAvI laIe ke nA calAvIe ? evuM ja ahIM mAnI levAnuM. nahIM to Ano kyAre pAra Ave ? A sonuM cokhkhuM thAya nahIM

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224 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 225 ne dahADo vaLe nahIM. enA karatAM chAzIyuM ne chAzIyuM rahevA devuM. A sonuM koI dahADo cokhkhuM thAya nahIM. Aje ApaNe gALIne lagaDI mUkIe to ya pAchI kAle hatI tevI ne tevI thaI jAya ane A to badhuM hisAba ame joIne beThelA, anaMta avatArathI hisAba khoLI kADhelo. eTale amane to bhAMjagaDa ja nA thAya ne AnI ! ane amane to tarata kImiyA jaDe. amArI pAse lAkho cAvIo hoya ! chokarAM joDe karo DahApaNathI "DIlIMga'; nahIM to karaze e hArTatuM 'DrIlIMga'! pAchuM uMmaranuM, jema uMmara vadhene, tema e jANe ke mArI bhUla thAya nahIMne, chokarAnI bhUla bahu thAya che. potAnI bhUla bahu thAya che, paNa pote mAne ke potAnI bhUla thAya nahIM, jANe mejIsTreTa nA hoya. chokaro pAcho kahe ya kharo ke tamArAmAM akkala nathI. to ya e manamAM vicAra kare ke A nAno che, samajaNa nathI. alyA mUA, e kahe che to tolI to jo. ApaNAmAM akkala che ke nahIM te tolavI ! e kahe to tolavI nA joIe ke 'mArAmAM akkala nathI', te lAva tola to karavA de. to mahIM vicAra kare to khabara paDe ne ke kazuM akkala nathI. akkala hoya to AvuM hoya nahIM. akkala hoya tene tyAM kleza nA hoya. akkalavALA hoyane, tene tyAM khAya-pIve zAMtithI badhA. ochuM hoya to ochuM ne ghaNuM hoya to ghaNuM, paNa kleza nA hoya. te ahIM keTalA kleza vagaranAM ghara hoya ? praznakartA : chokarAMnI bAbatamAM kayuM ghaTita che ne kayuM aghaTita che. e samajAtuM nathI. dAdAzrI : jeTaluM sAmA jaIne karIe chIe e ja doDhaDahApaNa che, te pAMca varSa sudhI ja karavAnuM hoya. pachI to chokaro kahe ke, 'bApujI mane phI Apo." tyAre ApaNe kahIe ke, 'bhaI, paisA kaMI ahIM AgaLa naLamAM AvatA nathI. amane be dahADA AgaLathI kahevuM. amAre uchInA lAvavA paDe che.' ema kahIne bIje dahADe ApavA. chokarAM to ema samajI beThAM hoya che ke naLamAM pANI Ave ema bApujI pANI ja Ape che. mATe chokarA joDe evo vyavahAra rAkhavo ke enI sagAI rahe ane bahu upara caDhI vAge nahIM, bagaDe nahIM. A to chokarAM upara eTaluM badhuM vahAla kare ke chokaro bagaDI jAya. atizaya vahAla te hotuM haze ? A bakarI joDe vahAla Ave ? bakarImAM ne chokarAmAM zo phera che ? beumAM AtmA che. atizaya vahAle ya nahIM ne niHspRha paNa nahIM thaI javAnuM. chokarAMne kahevuM ke, "kaMI kAmakAja hoya to pUchajo. huM beTho chuM tyAM sudhI kaMI aDacaNa hoya to puchajo.' aDacaNa hoya to ja, nahIM to hAtha ghAlIe nahIM. A to chokarAnA gajavAmAMthI paisA nIce paDe 5Da karatA hoya to bApa bUmAbUma karI mele, "eya eya...' ema. ApaNe zuM kAma bUmAbUma karIe ? enI meLe pUchaze tyAre khabara paDaze. AmAM ApaNe kakaLATa kyAM karIe ? ane ApaNe nA hota to zuM thAta ? 'vyavasthita'nA tAbAmAM che, ane vagara kAmano Dakho karIe chIe. saMDAsa ya vyavasthitanA tAbAmAM che, ane tamAruM tamArI pAse che. potAnA svarUpamAM pote hoya tyAM puruSArtha che. ane potAnI-svasattA che. A pudgalamAM puruSArtha che ja nahIM. pudgala prakRtine AdhIna che. chokarAMno ahaMkAra jAge, tyAra pachI tene kazuM kahevAya nahIM ane ApaNe zuM kAma kahIe ? Thokara vAgaze to zIkhaze. chokarAM pAMca varSanAM thAya tyAM sudhI kahevAnI chUTa, ane pAMcathI soLa varSavALAne vakhate be TapalI mAravI ya paDe. paNa vIsa varSano juvAna thayA pachI enuM nAma ya na levAya, kazuM akSare yu bolAya nahIM, bolavuM e guno kahevAya. nahIM to ko'ka dahADo baMdUka mArI de. amArI peTha "abudha' thaI gayo to kAma ja thaI gayuM. budhdhi vaparAI to saMsAra Ubho thayo pAcho. gharanAM pUche to ja javAba Apavo ApaNe ane te vakhate manamAM thAya ke "A nA pUche to sAruM' evI ApaNe bAdhA rAkhavI. kAraNa ke nA pUche to ApaNe A magaja calAvavuM nA paDe. evuM che ne, ke ApaNA A jUnA saMskAra badhA khalAsa thaI gayA che. A duSamakALa jabarajasta vyApelo che, saMskAramAtra khalAsa thaI gayA che. mANasane koIne samajaNa pADatAM AvaDatI nathI. bApa chokarAMne kaMIka kahe to chokaro kaheze ke, "mAre tamArI salAha nathI sAMbhaLavI. tyAre salAha ApanAro kevo ne lenAre kevo ? kaI jAtanA loka bhegA thayAM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra cho ?! A loka tamArI vAta zAthI nathI sAMbhaLatA ? sAcI nathI tethI. sAcI hoya to sAMbhaLe ke nA sAMbhaLe ? A loka zAthI kahe che ? Asaktine lIdhe kahe che. A Asaktine lIdhe to pote potAnA avatAra bagADe che. 226 praznakartA : eTale have pachI emAM bIjo mane prazna e thayelo ke koIpaNa vastu ke bane tyAM sudhI salAha nA ApavI. paNa jo moMmAM AMgaLA nAkhIne ja pUchavAmAM Ave, to pachI jo sAcuM tame kaho to sAMbhaLanArane game nahIM ane khoTuM tame kahI nA zako, to e vacce dvidhAmAM huM chuM. dAdAzrI : 'vaNamAgI salAha ApavI nahIM' evuM ame lakhyuM che kharuM ! eTale koI kahe, ApaNane pUche, to ApaNe salAha ApavI ane te ghaDIe ApaNane ThIka lAge evuM ApaNe kahI chUTavuM ane salAha ApyA pachI ApaNe ema kahIe ke tamane anukULa Ave ema karajo. ame to A tamane kahI chUTIe. eTale ene pachI kaMI kharAba lAge evI vastu nathI. eTale ApaNe A je badhuM karavAnuM che ne enI pAchaLa vinaya rAkhavAno che. A kALamAM ochuM bolavuM enA jevuM eke ya nathI. A kALamAM bola paththara jevA vAge evAM nIkaLe che, ane darekanA evAM ja hoya. eTale bolavAnuM ochuM karI nAkhavuM sAruM. koIne kazuM kahevA jevuM nathI. kahevAthI vadhAre bagaDe che. ene kahIe ke, 'gADIe vahelo jA.' to e moDo jAya ane kazuM nA kahIe to TAIme jAya. ApaNe nA hoIe to badhuM cAle evuM che. A to potAno khoTo ahaMkAra che. je dahADAthI chokarAM joDe kacakaca karavAnuM tame baMdha karazo, te dahADAthI chokarAM sudharaze. tamArA bola sArAM nIkaLatA nathI, enAthI sAmo akaLAya che. tamAro bola e saMgharato nathI, UlaTAM e bola pAchAM Ave che. ApaNe to chokarAMne khAvAnuM-pIvAnuM banAvI ApIe ne ApaNI pharaja bajAvIe, bIjuM kahevA jevuM nathI. kahevAthI phAyado nathI, evuM tamane tAraNa nIkaLe che ? chokarAM moTAM thayAM che e kaMI dAdarethI paDI jAya che ? tame tamAro Atmadharma zuM karavA cUko cho ? A chokarAM joDeno to 'rileTiva' dharma mA-bApa chokarAno vyavahAra che. tyAM khoTI mAthAkUTa karavA jevI nathI. kakaLATa karo cho, tenA karatAM mauna rahezo to vadhAre sAruM raheze. kakaLATathI to potAnuM magaja bagaDI jAya ne sAmAnuM paNa bagaDI jAya. chokarAMthI bagaDe to ya, ta kara dveSa; jJAtathI ukelo hisAbo aMte tiHzeSa! chokarA joDe athaDAmaNa thAya che ke ? praznakartA : cAle e to. dAdAzrI : bahu nahi. thoDI thoDI, nahIM ? zuM cAle ? praznakartA : athaDAmaNa. 227 dAdAzrI : hA, paNa emAM chokarAonuM zuM jAya, ApaNuM jAya. e to athaDAvA hAruM ja AvyA che. paNa ApaNane mokSa ja joIe ne ! praznakartA : e ema na kahe, huM athaDAva chuM. tame athaDAva cho, ema kahe e to. koIne potAnA doSa dekhAya nahIM ne !! dAdAzrI : doSa nA dekhAya tyAM sudhI mokSe javAnuM vicArI ja nA zake ne. ene draSTi ja nA kahevAya ne ? draSTi samyak hovI joIe. praznakartA : chokarAM ApaNI joDe jhaghaDe, rAga-dveSa kare. have ApaNane chokarAMo mATe khUba lAgaNI hoya. ApaNI kuTuMba bhAvanA hoya, badhA saMpIne rahIe evI badhI bhAvanA hoya, paNa AvuM thayA kare. tyAre mAbApe zuM karavuM? dAdAzrI : zuM karo cho, AvuM bane che tyAre ? praznakartA : AvuM bane che tyAre zuM thAya ? chokarAo joDe thoDIvAra cakamaka thAya pachI enI meLe ja TADhuM paDe. pAchuM be-cAra dA'De thAya. evuM cAlyA kare. dAdAzrI : Ano pAra ja nA Ave ! tamane mAratAM to nathI ne ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : nA. koI dahADo chokarAo mAravA karavAnuM karatAM nahIM. dAdAzrI : tame kaho cho ke mArA chokarA mAratA nathI mane, eTale haju sArAM kahevAya. praznakartA : hA, sArAM kahevAya. dAdAzrI : e tamane kharAba kahe, tame emane kharAba kaho. ane pachI vAtAvaraNa dUSita thatuM cAlyuM ane pachI bhaDakA thaze AmAM. eTale tamAre emane sArAM kahevA, kaI draSTie ? eka draSTi manamAM samajI lo ke 'AphaTara ola hI ijha e guDa mena.' (aMte to e sArA mANasa che.) 228 praznakartA : paNa dAdA, bIjI jAtanI paNa athaDAmaNa thAya che. tIvra budhdhinA chokarAo ema kahe ke tame vIsa varSa pachAta cho. dAdAzrI : AvuM badhuM to kaheze ! ne A kALamAM to pAchaLathI bhaNelA chokarAo ane emanA bhegA rahevuM, te A breIna (magaja)nI kaDhI karavA jevuM che. eTale mane pUchI levuM, khAnagImAM pUchI javuM. huM dekhADIza pachI tamane rasto. A problema darekane judo judo hoya eTale judI judI rIte kahevAnuM hoya. eTale mane khAnagImAM pUchI levAnuM. bAkI Ano niveDo Ave evo nathI. A badhe Ano A ja problema che. kAraNa ke darekanA chokarA judI judI rItanAM, karyo judI jAtanAM ane rIte ya judI hoya. praznakartA : chokarAo sAthe athaDAmaNa thAya to ApaNe kevo eproca levo, ApaNe zuM karavuM, ApaNe kevuM vartana karavuM ? dAdAzrI : te ApaNe mahIM jAtane pUchavuM, 'kema athaDAva cho, emAM zuM svAda kADhavAno che have ? mokSe javuM che ke athaDAI athaDAIne mAra khAvo che ?!' udaya pramANe badhuM thayA kare. praznakartA H athaDAmaNa jyAre thAya tyAre chokarAo sAthe kevuM vartana karavuM ? dAdAzrI : rAga-dveSa nA thavo joIe, eNe kaMI bagADyuM hoya ke nukasAna karyuM hoya, to ya enI upara dveSa nA thavo joIe ane ene mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 'zudhdhAtmA' rIte jovo joIe basa. rAga-dveSa nA thAya eTale badho niveDo AvI gayo ane ApaNuM jJAna rAga-dveSa nA thAya evuM che. 229 praznakartA : ane dhAro ke chokarAne rAga-dveSa thAya, to ApaNane rAga-dveSa thaI jAya to zuM karavuM pachI ? dAdAzrI : nA thAya. A jJAna jo lIdheluM che ne mArI AjJA pALaze to rAga-dveSa thAya nahIM ane thAya che to mArI AjJA pALato nathI. A rAga-dveSanuM jJAna na hoya ane je rAga-dveSa jevuM kaMI dekhAtuM hoya to te phAIlanuM che, ApaNuM nhoya. bharelo mAla che e bahAra nIkaLI jAya. gUMca paDatAM ja karo tapAsa mahIM; rAkha judo gUMcAyo 'huM' tahIM! ApaNuM mana sheja gUMcAya, te e gUMca bIjAnI nahIM, ApaNI ja. eTale ApaNe samajI javuM ke A gUMca ApaNI che. ene bAjue mUkI devI. ApaNe 'zudhdhAtmA' ja jovo. jeTalI gUMca dekhAya e gUMca badhI ApaNI. kone gUMca paDI ? ApaNane paDI gUMca. zAthI gUMca paDI ? e ApaNane jotAM nA AvaDyuM tethI, paNa gUMca nA paDavI joIe. gUMca ApaNe bhAMgI nAkhavAnI. 'huM zudhdhAtmA chuM', bIjuM badhuM 'vyavasthita' che. A 'solyuzana' meM ApyuM che. gUMca paDe eTale jANavuM ke ApaNI bhUla thaI. gUMca che ja nahi jagatamAM. tamane gUMca che nahIM, chatAM ya dekhAya che ne gUMco ? praznakartA : dekhAya to kharIne ! paNa pachI jatI rahe che. dAdAzrI : pachI jatI rahe, nahIM ? paNa e dekhAya kharI ? e ApaNI bhUlathI gUMca paDI. koInI bhUla nathI. koI paNa gUMca paDe. te ApaNI ja bhUla, bIjA koInI bhUla hotI nathI. gUMca kema dekhAya ?! gUMca vagaranuM jagata !! AtmA ja dekhAya che badhe. bIjuM to badhuM nirdoSa che jagata AkhuM. kevI rIte gUMca paDe ? eTale gUMca nA paDavA dezo, bahu dahADA, anaMta avatAra gUMco ja pADa pADa karI che. bIjo kazo dhaMdho karyo

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230 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 231 jANavuM potAnI jAtane ! te zarIrane to khIcaDI ekalI ja joIe che. A to badhAM cenacALA che. chatAM ya bIjuM maLe to khAjo. mAruM kahevAnuM ke enI meLe thALImAM Ave te khAjo. gUMcAvAno prayatna nA karazo ke 'mAre Ama kema nahIM ?" evuM tevuM nA karazo. maLe to khAjo. paNa nA Ave to khIcaDI ekalInI ja jarUra. khIcaDI-kaDhI be ja joIe. bIjuM kazuM joIe nahIM. zI dhamAla A vagara kAmanI ? chatAM ya Ave to laIe, thoDI prasAdI khAI laIe. ta karAya nyAya koInA jhaghaDAmAM; vinaMtI karuM chuM kahI paDo gaDAmAM! nathI, gUMco ja pADa pADa karI. eTale have gUMca nA paDavA dezo, ane gUMca paDe to tamArI ja bhUla. tamArA amerikAvALA chokarAonI bhUla nahIM ? praznakartA : nA, mArI bhUla. dAdAzrI : hA, tamArI bhUla. chokarAnI bhUla nahi. chokarAo to lakhe. e lakhe emanA karmanA udaye. e pote to AtmA che. caMdubhAInA karmanA udaya pramANe pelA chokarA lakhe. te 'A' jANe ke mAre gUMca paDI gaI enI joDe. nA. 'ApaNane nahi', 'caMdabhAIne guMca paDI. hA, te ApaNe" kahIe ke 'bhAI, mArI na hoya A guMca.' eTale amasto boja mAthe lezo nahIM have, karmAdhIna che. eka ja zabda chokarAe evo lakhyo hoya ne te mahIM vAgyA kare, ghaMTanI peTha. te pachI gUMca paDe. "AvuM ?! AvuM lakhyuM ?" tyAre kahevuM, jevA cho evuM lakhyuM. moTA ghaMTano moTo avAja hoya ne ? moTo ghaMTa hoya tene ApaNe kahIe ke dhIme rahIne vAgaje to ? praznakartA : nA vAge ? dAdAzrI : kema nA vAge ? praznakartA : eno svabhAva, enAM evAM lakSaNa badhAM. dAdAzrI : te ApaNA hisAbanI gUMco paDe che. jevA tevA nahIM. A to moTo mANasa ! gUMco pADI lAve ne ?! paNa bhAMgI jAya, jatI rahe che kharI have, nahIM ? UbhI nathI rahetI, nahIM ? praznakartA : hA. tarata ja pAchaLathI yAda Ave ke ApaNuM ja che ne ApaNI sAme AvyuM che. dAdAzrI : hA, kharI vAta che. gUMco jatI rahe to bahu thaI gayuM. solyuzana' karavAnuM che ne ApaNe to ? kharekhara gUMco che ja nahIM, gUMco ja nathI ne ! A to Ama draSTi karIe to kaheze, kazuM thayuM ? alyA, kazuM thatuM nathI. AtmA sivAya kazuM thatuM ja nathI. TAIme zuM thAya che e joI levuM. jamavAnuM maLe che ke nathI maLatuM ? ane te rasa-roTalI nahIM, paNa khIcaDI ekalI e maLe che ? ekalI khIcaDI maLe to moTo rAjA praznakartA : mArA bhaIbaMdhane tyAM gharamAM mA-bApa joDe jhaghaDo thayo. be mahinA upara banelo prasaMga, pelo bhaIbaMdha mane parANe kheMcI gayo ke, cAla amane samAdhAna karI Apa. have tyAM joyuM ke enAM mA-bApa sAcA che, bhaIbaMdhano vAMka che. eTale have samAdhAna karatI vakhate bhAIbaMdhane kahyuM ke tArI bhUla che, to pelA bhAIbaMdha joDe kaTa thaI jAya vyavahAra. enI joDe dveSa Ubho thAya ane bhaIbaMdhanuM sAcavavA jAya to pachI enAM mA-bApane anyAya thAya. to mA-bApa pAchAM dveSa kare ane mauna rahIe to pachI eno artha nathI. to zuM karavuM AvA vakhate ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne A duniyAmAM eka paNa mANasa evo nathI ke je be mANasano nyAya karI zake ane A nyAya karavA gayA !! A to dArUkhAnuM phoDyA jevuM thaI gayuM. pachI dajhAya tyAre zuM thAya ? koI dahADo nyAya karavA jazo nahi koI jagyAe. praznakartA : dAdA, be laDatA hoya ne choDAvA jAya to DaphaNAM ya khAvAM paDe. be laDatAM hoya bAthamUbAthA, to keTalAya choDAvanArA marI gayelA che. dAdAzrI : hA. praznakartA : A jevo eka mitrano dAkhalo kIdho. evuM ghaNIvAra gharanI aMdara paNa thAya. have gharanI aMdara paNa AvuM mauna to sevAya ja

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232 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 233 nahi, bolAya paNa nahi. AvuM gharamAM paNa bane to tyAM AgaLa zuM karavuM ? kaMIka to kahevuM paDe, karavuM paDe, samAdhAna lAvavuM hoya to. to tyAM paNa thaI jAya AvuM to zuM karavuM gharamAM ? dAdAzrI : vAre ghaDIe ame tamane vinaMtI karIe chIe, ema kahetAM ya rahevuM. vinaMtI kahe eTale eno vAMdho nahi. bAkI ene nyAya karavA jazo nahi, nyAya koNa karI zake ? jeno zabda, vAdI-prativAdI oLaMge nahi e nyAya karI zake. chokarAM-vaha bApane vAre vAre Toke; tAtA thaIte gujAre tene koNa roke? praznakartA : dAdA, mAro chokaro paMdaraso rUpiyA mahine kamAya che. huM 'riTAyarDa chuM, tenI sAthe rahuM chuM. have chokarA ane vahu mane TokyA kare che ke tame Ama kema karo cho ? bahAra kema jAva cho ? eTale huM temane kahevAno chuM ke huM gharamAMthI cAlyo jaIza. dAdAzrI : khavaDAve-pIvaDAve che sArI rIte ? praznakartA : hA, dAdA. dAdAzrI : tyAra pachI "cAlyo jaIza" ema nA bolAya. vakhate kahyA pachI javAnuM nA bane, to ApaNA bola ApaNe ja gaLavA paDe. praznakartA : eTale mAre emane kazuM ja kahevAnuM nahIM ? dAdAzrI : bahu tyAre dhIme rahIne kahIe ke, 'Ama karo to sAruM, pachI mAnavuM-nA mAnavuM tamArI marajInI vAta che. tamArI dhola sAmAne vAge tevI hoya ane tenAthI sAmAnAmAM pheraphAra thato hoya to ja dhola mArajo ne jo polI dhola mArazo, to e UlaTo vipharaze. tenA karatAM uttama to, dhola nA mAravI te che. praznakartA chokarAo vIsa-bAvIsa varSanA thaI jAya eTale cAle. dAdAzrI H nahIM to pachI zuM? paDI rahevuM paDe. chokarAo kahe, sUI raho chAnAM mAnAM. enA karatAM ApaNe ApaNuM saba sabakI saMbhAlo, e zuM khoTuM ?! nahIM to chokarAo to A gAdI upara beThAM pachI sUI rahevAnuM kahe. sUI raho chAnAMmAnAM, kahe ke nA kahe ? praznakartA : kahe. dAdAzrI : tame sAMbhaLeluM nahIM Ave tevuM, nahIM ?! praznakartA : hajI nathI sAMbhaLyuM. dAdAzrI : hA. e kahe, sUI raho chAnAMmAnAM. e to bahu bolIe tyAre kaheze, tamArAmAM samajaNa nahIM ne vagara kAmanAM bola bola karo cho ! eTale thaI rahyuM, AvI rahyuM e badhuM sahana karavuM paDe. enAM karatAM ApaNe potAnuM hoya tyAM rahevuM nirAMte ! ApaNe to nAnA thaIne kAma kADhI levuM. bAbAne be vakhata kahIe ke alyA, peluM lAva, peluM lAva. tyAre e paTiyA pADato hoya to ApaNe tarata jAte UThIne levuM. chokarA kaheze ke rahevA do, rahevA do. tyAre ApaNe kahIe, nA, huM laI lauM chuM. ema kahIne kAma kADhI levuM. ApaNe to A saMyogo joDe saMyoga purA karavAnAM che, A saMyogomAM AvI phasAyA chIe, to A saMyogo jema tema karIne UMcA mUkavAnA che. ApaNe to dhaNI thavA mATe nathI AvyA, bApA thavA nathI AvyA, A to saMyogone UMcA mUkavAnA che, ukela lAvavAno che. praznakartA : bALako che ahIMyA amerikAmAM, to amerikAnuM je kalacara che, ejyukezana che sosAyaTInuM, to bALakoe ghaNIvAra e eksepTa karavuM hoya ane kare che. ane perenTsa eno virodha kare, to te mATe ApanuM zuM kahevuM ?! dAdAzrI : virodha karavo hoya to e jagyAe mokalavAM nahIM. ane mokalyAM eTale pachI virodha karyAno zo artha che ?! te samajAvIne kAma lo ne ! ApaNe chokarAne tyAM laI gayA, UMdhA raste gayA, ane pachI virodha to thavAno ja che ne ! virodha nahIM, goLIo mAraze haju to, moTA thaze tyAre. kAraNa ke magaja emanA tora rahevAnA. A lokonA saMgamAM 'yu, yu" karIne goLI mArI deze. A bhAna vagaranAM che. have

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234 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 235 mokalyA eTale pachI have zuM karavA sukha khoLo cho emAMthI. te haju che te cetavavA hoya to cetI lo. koI lAIna upara caDhAvI do ene. praznakartA: nahIM, e pote pUche che ke ame A sosAyaTImAM chIe, ane mA-bApo virodha kare che ! - dAdAzrI : to zuM thAya ne ! mA-bApane zI rIte ruce ! mA-bApa pahelAnuM ekaThuM karavA jAya che, A atyAranI vAta karavA jAya che, meLa paDe nahIM ne ! mA-bApe choDI devuM joIe. eka cha mahinAmAM kakaLATa Ubho thaze evI vastu ja nA karazo. moTo thAya to ApaNe A phorenavALAne peThe rAkhavuM. aDhAra varSano thAya bAbo, eTale pachI tuM judo rahe, kahIe. ApaNuM 'DIlIMga bahu UMcuM che, phorenavALA karatAM. judo rahyA pachI ekatA jevuM ja DIlIMga rAkhIe chIe, pelA nathI rAkhatAM barAbara. kAraNa ke have A jamAno judI jAtano che. jamAnA pramANe nA vartae to mUrkha thaIe. ta kara dUra vaselA putranI hAyahAya; sukhI sahu ghera ta lagADa lhAya! bhegAM rahI sAsu-vahu re LATa; premathI sAcavo karI judo vasavATa! eTale badhA ame jyAM jyAM gayAM ne amerikAmAM, te badhA ya chokarAMnI bUmo pADatAM hatAM ke 'dAdAjI, amArA chokarAonuM zuM thaze ?" tyAre meM kahyuM, 'zuM vAMdho Ave ?" te kAle savAre "merI'ne paiNIne lAve to mAre zuM karavuM? enAM bheguM bhaNavAnuM. ane "merI' joDe paiNe to mArI zI dazA thAya, kahe che ? tyAre meM kahyuM, "merI"nI sAsu thajo. emAM zuM khoTuM che ?! sAsu thavAnuM nA phAve merInuM ? e pachI, AvyA pachI kaMTALIe to cAle nahIM, te pahelAM cetIe. bhegAM rAkhazo to kleza UbhA thaze ane enuM jIvana bagaDaze ane ApaNuM bagADaze. jo prema joIto hoya to ene judo rAkhI ane prema sAcavo, nahIM to jIvana bagADazo. nahIM to AmAM prema ghaTI jaze. haMmezAM enI vAIpha AvI hoya ne, to ApaNe ema bhego rAkhavA jaIe to vAIphanuM kaheluM e mAnaze, tamAruM nahIM mAne. ane vAIpha kaheze, ke "Aja to bA che te AvuM bolatAM hatAM ane tevuM bolatAM hatAM.' tyAre kahe, 'hA, bA evA ja che.' e cAlyuM tophAna. have enAM karatAM cheTe rAkhavA ane roja sAsu thavuM enI ghera jaIne e sAruM. cheTethI badhuM sAruM. premamAM ApaNe AMdhaLA thaI javAnI jarUra che? premamAM AMdhaLA nA thaI javuM joIe ne ? tyAre tamArA vahune hauM ghera rAkhavI che ane chokarAMne ghera rAkhavo che ? pAcho te bApo thAya tyAM sudhI ?! praznakartA chokarAM paradeza che e yAda AvyA kare, ciMtA thAya che emanI. dAdAzrI : e chokarAMo to tyAM khAya-pIne majhA karatAM haze, bAne yAda paNa nA karatAM hoya ane A bA ahIM ciMtA karyA kare, A konAM gharanI vAta ? praznakartA : e chokarAo tyAMthI lakhe che ke tame ahIM AvI jAva. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa javuM kaMI ApaNA hAthamAM che ? enAM karatAM ApaNe ja jema che tema goThavI daIe, e zuM khoTuM ? enuM ene ghera, ApaNuM ApaNe ghera ! A peTe avatAra thayo mATe kaMI e badhA ApaNAM che ? ApaNAM hoya to ApaNI joDe Ave. paNa koI Ave A duniyAmAM? praznakartA : joDe koI nA Ave. dAdAzrI : eTale A to vagara kAmanI hAya hAya karavAnI. ApaNuM koI thAya nahIM. ApaNAM chokarAone jarUriyAta hoya, kAgaLa Ave ke 'bA, A laIne mokalI Apajo.' to ApaNe mokalI ApavAnuM. bAkI nA Ave to ciMtA karavAnI nahIM. A kaMI joDe AvavAnAM sodA na hoya! tema masko paNa ApaNe nahIM lagADavAno. 'suparaphalyuesa vyavahAra" badho karavAno ! ahIMthI koIka dahADo javAnuM to kharuMne ApaNe ? te badhA kaMI

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236 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMne vyavahAra 237 joDe Avaze ? joDe AvavAnAM hoya tenI ciMtA karavI. A to vagara kAmanA ApaNe ciMtA karIe ! nahIM levA, nahIM devA, nahIM joDe AvavAnA. enI zI ciMtA karavAnI te ? jeno saMgAtha karavAno hoya enI ciMtA karavAnI hoya. saMgAtha to ApaNo AtmA ekalo ja kare evo che, bAkI saMgAtha koI kare nahIM. to AmanI ciMtA ApaNe kyAM karIe ?! A chokarAM ApaNI joDe AvavAnA che ? bena, Ave kharAM ? tame jANone ke e joDe nA Ave to ApaNe ciMtA nahIM karavAnI. ApaNe AtmAnI ciMtA karo, potAnA AtmAnI ciMtA karo. eTale chokaro che te vAMdho nahIM ApaNane. jyAre Ave tyAre AvA bA, tAruM ghara, besa. huM ya tArI, A badhuM tAruM.' evI vAto-cIto karIe. ene kaMI vAgyuM karyuM hoya to mAthe hAtha pheravavo, badhuM ya karavAnuM. paNa koI paNa cIja, je saMbhAraNuM ApaNane satAve, e saMbhAraNuM ApaNe aDavA nA daIe. ApaNane satAve e saMbhAraNAne ApaNe zuM karavAnuM ? mATe kazuM navakAra maMtra bolo. kAraNa ke chellI ghaDIe koI hAtha pakaDe nahIM. badhA te ghaDIe khasI jaze. zuM kahe ke ame zuM karIe? eTale A to ApaNA karelAM karma to bhogavavAM ja paDe ne ! tame kaho ke navakAramaMtra boluM paNa karma to nathI bhogavavAM, to nA cAle. e to bhogavavAM ja paDe ne ! koI ApaNuM thAya nahIM. mATe navakAra maMtra bole te aDadhI rAte bolazo to ya e phaLa Apaze, nahIM to 'dAdA bhagavAna sarvajJa zaraNaM gacchAmi' bolo. dhIsa Ijha dhI keza benka, rokaDuM phaLa Ape. mArI icchA AvI che. tame nA jAva to sAruM. pachI zuM bane che e jovAnuM. kAraNa ke TAIma ane spesa, e benA guNAkAra thayelA ja hoya che. mANasa dhAre ke spesa badalavI che, paNa TAIma thayA vagara spesa nahIM badalAya ane TAIma thaze tyAre spesa AvyA vagara raheze nahIM. A benAM guNAkAra hoya che. eTale mukhya vastu, A TAIma ane spesa che. eTale chokarAono paradezamAM praveza karavo e spesa tyAM haze to TAIma maLaze, nahIM to nahIM maLe. eTale AmAM tamAre to kahI chUTavuM ke 'bhAI, ahIM raho to ApaNe tyAM dhaMdhA bahu sArA che Ama che, tema che.' badhuM kahI chUTavuM, tema chatAM ya emane e na thAya, to zuM bane che. e joyA karavAnuM. bIjuM kazuM ApaNA hAthamAM nathI. ApaNe to kahI chUTavuM, basa. praznakartA : dAdA, paradeza javAthI manano vikAsa thAya eTale betraNa varSa mATe paradeza javAnI mArI icchA che. dAdAzrI : paNa 'zuM bane che e joyA karavuM. Agraha nahIM karavo ke Ama ja karavuM che. paNa zuM bane che, kudarata kyAM laI jAya che, te ApaNe joyA karavAnuM. chevaTe to kudarata dhArelAM ThekANe ja laI jAya che. TAIma ane spesa beno guNAkAra hoya che. kArakhAnAmAM hatA tyAre khabara tamane hatI ke ahIM A jagyAe besazo ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : makAna tamAruM che. tame dhAro tyAM besI zako tema cho. paNa nA, e jagyA ane TAIma be nakkI thayeluM hoya, 'tyAre mAre tamArI joDe A kornaramAM vAtacIta thAya. nahIM to pelA kornaramAM vAtacIta thAya. te A badhI goThavaNI che. phakta ApaNe puruSArtha zuM karavAno che ? ApaNe nizcaya rAkhavAno ke mAre Ama ja karavuM che. koInuM bUruM nathI karavuM evo nizcaya rAkhavAno. chatAM thaI jAya to iTa ijha e DIpharanTa meTara. e ApaNA hAthanI sattA nathI. tene mATe paNa ApaNe kSamA mAgIe chIe ke AvuM nA thavuM joIe. 'ApaNe sAruM thavA devuM ja che, sAruM karavuM ja che." evuM manamAM rAkhavuM ane tema chatAM avaLuM thaI jAya, ApaNe tenA chokarAM paradeza vase, na game bApane; kSetra-kALane AdhIta beThaka saMjoga mA-bApane! praznakartA: chokarAM badhAM ja paradeza javAnuM kahe che, ahIMno moTo dhaMdho choDIne. to mAre zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : tame atyAre je jagyAe beThA cho e jagyA, TAIma badhuM sAthe guNAkAra thayelA hoya che. TAIma ane spesa beno guNAkAra hoya che. emAM mANasanuM cAle evuM nathI. tamAre to kahevAnuM kharuM ke bhAI,

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238 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 239 jokhamadAra nathI. phakta eTaluM ja pazcAtApa rAkhavo joIe ke A nA thAya to sAruM. praznakartA: ame 18 varSa amerikA rahyA. pachI chellA sAta varSa bhArata rahI AvyA ane tyAM peluM gujarAtamAM tophAno cAlyA kare. eTale be varSa upara pAchA ahIM AvI gayA. paNa amane bhArata javAnuM bahu AkarSaNa rahyA kare. eTale mahIM peluM gharSaNa cAlyA kare. 'paisA mATe ahIM rahevuM che" evuM nathI. paNa chokarAonAM bhaNatara mATe ahIMyA rahevuM paDe ema che. tyAM eDamIzana have nathI maLatuM, to have zuM karavuM ? bhArata rahevAnuM mana che ane rahevuM paDe che ahIMyA. dAdAzrI : to bhaNatara baMdha karI do ane bhaNatara cAlu rAkhavuM hoya to chokarAne choDI devAnAM ApaNe. jema ThIka lAge ema karo. praznakartA : chokarAMne kevI rIte mUkI devAya ? dAdAzrI : to enAM karatAM bhArata rahevAnuM choDI devuM. bemAMthI eka choDI devAnuM. kAM to chokarAM choDI devAnAM. kAM to bhArata choDI devAnuM. be sAthe thAya nahIMne. emAMthI manamAM gUMcavADo rahyA kare ne thAya nahIM kazuM ya. ne gUMcavADo AkhI jIMdagI rahyA kare. eTale gUMcavADAne kahIe ke tuM tAre ghera jA. DIsAIDa vansa, DIsIjhana ijha dhI phAInala ! praznakartA H tame kaI bAjunuM DIsIjhana lo ? bhArata javAnuM lo ke chokarAo joDe amerikAmAM rahevAnuM lo ? dAdAzrI : chokarAM para prIti hoya to chokarA joDe rahuM. prIti zenI para che e huM joI lauM. kaI bAju mATe prIti che, te bAju tarapha laI javAnuM DIsIjhana ! rAta UMgha nA Ave ane potAnA ja chokarAthI UMgha nA AvI juone ?!! A lAIpha badhI, yujhalesa lAIpho ! ciMtA Akho dahADo, manuSyapaNuM jatuM rahe ! lAIpha sArI nA joIe baLI ?! matabheda joyelo ke nahIM joyelo ? praznakartA : joyelo ne. dAdAzrI : ghaNAM joyA che ne ? e matabheda ja badhuM rajhaLapATa che. jyAM matabheda che tyAM rajhaLapATa che. matabheda eTale judA judA mArga laIne besavA. eDajasTamenTa nathI thatuM, enuM kAraNa zuM ? kuTuMbamAM bahu mANasa hoya tethI ne, bahu mANasa hoya te badhAnI joDe meLa paDato nathI ne ! ane dahIMno Dakho thaI jAya pachI, dahIM AkharIyuM hoya ne Dakho thaI jAya savAramAM. eTale evuM che A manuSyono svabhAva, je mAnavatAno svabhAva che ne, te eka jAtano nathI. jevo yuga hoya ne tevo svabhAva thaI jAya che. sayugamAM badhAM ekamate rahyA kare, so mANasa gharamAM hoya ne to ya paNa e dAdAjI kahe e pramANe ! tyAMthI A kaLiyugamAM dAdAjI kahe temane AvaDI copaDe, bApa kahe tene ya AvaDI copaDe. kaLiyugamAM evuM hoya, avaLuM hoya. enAthI A yugano svabhAva che. have kahe che, yugano svabhAva, paNa badalAI kema gayuM ? tyAre kahe, mAnava to mAnava ja che, manuSya ja che. paNa tamane oLakhatAM nathI AvaDyuM. gharamAM pacAsa mANasa hoya, paNa ApaNane oLakhatAM AvaDyuM nahIM, eTale Dakho thayAM kare, ene oLakhavA joIe ne ? ke A gulAbano choDa che ke A to zeno choDa che, evuM tapAsa nA karavI joIe ? pahelAM zuM hatuM ? satyugamAM eka ghera badhAM gulAba ane bIjAne ghera badhAM mogarAM, trIjAne ghera caMpo ! atyAre zuM thayuM che eka ghare mogaro che, gulAba che ! jo gulAba haze to kAMTA haze ane mogaro haze to kAMTA nahIM hoya, mogarAnuM phUla sapheda haze, pelAnuM gulAbI haze, lAla haze. ema dareka judAM judAM choDavAM che atyAre. Apane samajamAM AvI e vAta? sayugamAM ghara eTale khetarAM eka svabhAvI; kaLiyugamAM ghara bagIco prakRtio oLakhAvI! kaMI vAtacIta karajo. khulAso thavo joIene ! A kyAM sudhI cAlavA devuM ?! chokaro moTI uMmarano thayo ane matabheda paDe to AkhI

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240 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 241 - satyugamAM je khetarAM hatA te kaLiyugamAM bagIcArUpe thayuM che ! paNa ene jotAM nathI AvaDatuM, enuM zuM thAya ? jene jotA nA AvaDe tene duHkha ja paDe ne ? te A jagatanI draSTi nathI A jovAnI. koI kharAba hotuM ja nathI. A matabheda to potAnA ahaMkAra che. jotA nathI AvaDatuM tenA ahaMkAra che. jotAM AvaDe to duHkha ja nathI. mane AkhI duniyA joDe matabheda nathI paDato. mane jotAM AvaDe che ke bhaI, A gulAba che ke A mogaro che. A pelo dhatUro che ke kaDavI gIloDInA phUla che, evuM badhuM oLakhuM pAcho. che guNa eTalA ja bagaDavAnA, eTaluM ja thavAnuM. Ama reDo, Ama UMdhA karo ke Ama karo paNa enuM e ja thavAnuM. tamAre pANI chAMTavAnI jarUra. tamArAmAM saMskAra jo ene dekhAya, to ene helpa (madada) kare che. A to ene mArI ThokIne, "gulAba kema chuM? Avo kAMTAvALo kema chuM?" bUmAbUma karI mele che. eTale ApaNe samajI javAnuM ke AnI prakRti gulAba jevI che, enI prakRtine to oLakhavI paDe ke nA oLakhavI paDe ? praznakartA : cokkasa. dAdAzrI : ApaNe A lImaDo dekhIe, pachI koI moDhAmAM pAMdaDA ghAle kharAM ? zAthI ? prakRti oLakhe ke A kaDavo jhera jevo. pharI lAva TrAyala karIe kaMIka moLo thayo haze ke nahIM thayo ? lAvelA saMskAranuM mAtra kara siMcata; ta apekSA, ta vaDha, na kara tuM pIMjaNa! bApa lobhI te dIkaro tobala; prakRti oLakhIte kara levala! praznakartA : ahIMyA je amerikAmAM je ApaNA hindu loko vase che. emano mukhya prazna e che ke emanA je bALako che, emane ApaNA saMskAra nathI, to e kaI rIte jALavI rAkhavA ? dAdAzrI : saMskAra to evuM che ne, ke saMskAra to gulAbanuM bIja hoya ne, te gulAba ja thAya. phakta ene mATI, pANI ane khAtara ApavAnI jarUra. pachI ene mAramAra nahIM karavAnuM roja. ApaNA loko chokarAone mAre ne vaDhe. alyA mUA, gulAbane vaDhIe ApaNe, kema kAMTA che, to zuM thAya ? konI mUrkhAI ? praznakartA: ApaNI ja. dAdAzrI: tyAre caMpAne kahIe, tuM kema gulAbI raMgano nathI ? to e jhaghaDAmAM paDe ? eTale ApaNA loko zuM kare che ke emanAM chokarAne emanA potAnA jevA banAve che. pote cIkaNo hoya to chokarAne cIkaNo kare, pote nobala hoya to chokarAne nobala banAve. eTale potAnAM Azaya upara kheMcI jAya che, eTale A jhaghaDA che. bAkI ene khIlavA done chokarAne. phakta ene sAcavIne pANI, khAtara e badhuM nAkhyA karavAnuM. chokarAM bahu sarasa che, e koI vAra bagaDe nahIM, emAM bIjamAM eka mA-bApa hatAM, te sAruM kuTuMba hatuM. khAnadAna zrImaMta phemIlI hatuM. chatAM enA chokarAMne zuM kahe che ? enA chokarAnI phariyAda karI mane, ke A amAro chokaro A dukAna para besADIe chIe. te sAMje dasa rUpiyA lAvato nathI, kahe che. te e chokarAnI dukAna meM joyelI, huM tyAM AgaLa jatAM-AvatAM besuM thoDIvAra, mane bolAve eTale. kApaDanI dukAna kare bicAro, sIdho mANasa. have A zuM kahe che, game te raste dasa rUpiyA lAva. jarA vadhatuM-ochuM karIne paNa dasa rUpiyAnuM lAva. tyAre pelo chokaro kahe che, nA. mane e nahIM phAve. eTale A chokarAMne kahe che ke A chokaro amAro kusaMskArI pAThyo. have bolo, A mA-bApanA saMskAra chokaro le to sAruM ke na le to sAruM ?! praznakartA : nA le to sAruM. dAdAzrI : paNa AvuM ! AvuM kaMI A mA-bApa badhA saMskArI che atyAranA !! potapotAnAM vyupoInTa upara laI jAya che badhAM. evuM bane

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242 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 243 ke nA bane ? eTale pachI bahu lokonI bhAMjagaDo thavA mAMDIne. pachI mane sArA sArA vicAraka mANaso AvIne pUchavA mAMDyA, to A kALamAM karavuM zuM ? meM kahyuM, prakRtine oLakho A kALamAM. A to enA dhAryA pramANe nA kare. eTale chokarA joDe laDhavA Ave. tamArA dhAryA pramANe thatAM haze ! ApaNA dhAryA pramANe chokarAe cAlavAnuM ? bApa lobhiyo hoya eTale chokarAne lobhiyo karavo ? chokarA to nobala hoya ne bApa lobhiyo hoya to zuM thAya ? roja laDhavADa thAya. bApa nobala hoya ne chokaro lobhiyo hoya to ya laDhavADa thAya. have e laDhavA jevI vastu nathI. e pahelAnA jamAnAmAM hatuM ke lobhiyAnA chokarA-choDI badhuM lobhI hoya, satyugamAM ! A to kaLiyuga che. lobhiyAne tyAM moTA moTA nobala mANaso janme che ! eka bApa enAM chokarAne vagova vagova kare. chokaro bahu kharAba, kema ema ? tyAre bApa karakasariyA hatA jarA, ghare paisA bahu hatA. paNa karakasariyA svabhAvanAM. chokaro jarA nobala hato. te bApanI zI icchA ? ke A chokaro mArA jevo thAya, to mArA gharanuM rAge paDe. te pachI bApA mane pAchA kahevA mAMDyA, ke juone A chokaro mAro bagaDI gayo che. meM kahyuM, kema duniyAmAM bIjA koI nobala mANaso nahIM hoya ? tamAro chokaro ekalo ja nobala che. bIjA nobala kharAM ke duniyAmAM ? tyAre kahe, nA, paNa mArA jevo thAya to enuM rAge paDaze ne pachI, atyArathI du:kha nA Ave ne ? meM kahyuM, prakRtine oLakho. eka hajAra koIkanA kADhI ya lAvanAro hoya pAcho. ame karIe nahIM karuM. e to AvuM ja hoya. hA, ene samajaNa pADa pADa karIe. mArA jevA pAse teDI lAvo to davA karIe ame. paNa mAra mAra karavAno zuM artha che ene mUA ! tArAM jevo babUcaka banAvuM chuM ! cAra AnA to vaparAtAM nathI tArAthI ane Avo moTA manano mANasa, ene mAra mAra karuM chuM ? moTA manano to ko'ka hoya, ekAda mANasa. moTA manano kyAre thAya ? keTalA saMskAra thAya tyAre manano moTo thAya. A bhAInuM keTaluM moTuM haze ? mATe kahe che, badhuM ya AmAM, satsaMgamAM ja vAparavuM che. tyAre mana keTaluM moTuM ? dara sAla eka A prakRti oLakhatAM nathI. eTale meM pustaka lakhyuM che, "ghara bagIco thayo che. mATe kAma kADhI lo A vakhatamAM." A pote jo nobala hoya ane chokarAM cIkaNo hoya to kaheze, "alyA, sAva cIkaNo che, mAro ene.' ene e mArI-ThokIne enI jema nobala karavA mAMge, nA thAya. e mAla ja judo che. mA-bApa potAnA jevA karavA mAMge. alyA, ene khIlavA do. enI zaktio zuM che ? khIlavo. konAmAM kayo svabhAva che e joI levAno. mUA laDho cho zenA mATe ? eTale A bagIco oLakhavA jevo che. bagIco kahuM chuM te tyAre loko tapAsa kare chene, pachI chokarAne oLakhe che. prakRtine oLakhane mUA ! oLakhI jAne ekavAra chokarAne ane pachI e pramANe varta ne ! enI prakRti joIne vartIe to zuM thAya ? bhAIbaMdhanI prakRtine eDajasTa thAya che ke nahIM thatA ? evuM prakRtine jovI paDe, prakRti oLakhavI paDe. oLakhIne pachI cAlIe. to gharamAM bhAMjagaDa nA thAya. nahIM to badhAne, mArI-jhUDIne mArA jevA ja thAva, kahe che. zI rIte thAya te pelAM ? have Ano meLa kyAre paDe ? eTale tyAM sudhI eDajasTamenTa AvaDe nahIM ane mAra khAyA kare. A hakIkatamAM zuM che ? e samajavuM to paDazene ? bagIco jANe to pachI pheraphAra nA kare ? tamAre tyAM pAMca choDavA hatA, be moTA choDavAM ne traNa nAnA choDavAM. have e badhA eka ja jAtanA hoya ? badhAM kaMI gulAba ja hoya ? ApaNAM badhA choDavAM kema gulAba thatA nathI, evuM lAgyA karene pachI ? praznakartA : paNa dAdA, Thera Thera badhA mA-bApo kahe che ke amArAM chokarAM gAMThatA nathI, e zuM che ? dAdAzrI : zenAM gAMThe te ? A mogaro gulAbane zI rIte gAMThe ? have ApaNe gulAba hoIe eTale pelAne kahIe, 'kema tuM AvuM phUla kAThuM chuM ! tAruM phUla AvuM kema ?" eTale A oLakhI ane kazuM jhaghaDA karavA jevuM che nahIM, badhA potapotAnAM emAM ja che. ene phakta khAtara ane pANI ApavAnI jarUra che. A to potapotAnAM AIDIyA upara laI jAya che, mANaso UlaTAM bagADe che. A chokarAne badhA bagADI nAMkhyA lokoe. tamane evuM nahIM lAgatuM. bhUla thatI haze evI ? pustaka chapAve che !

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244 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 245 praznakartA : thAya. dAdAzrI : jo samajI gayAne ! praznakartA: saMsAramAM gulAba joIe che ane kAMTAne gALo bhAMDavI che e kema bane ? dAdAzrI : hA, paNa jene gulAbanI jarUra che te kAMTAnI bUma pADe ja nahIM ne ! dareka mALIne pUchI Avo joIe, e kAMTAnI bUmo pADe che ? pADe ja nahIM. e to sAcavIne ja kAma kare. potAne vAge nahIM evI rIte kAma kare. e to jene gulAbanI bahu paDelI nathI e loko ja kAMTAnI bUmo pADe che. gulAbanI paDelI hoya te to kAMTAno doSa kADhe ja nahIM ne ! bAkI kaLiyugamAM to ghara badhAM bagIcA jevA thaI gayA che. pahelA to bApa-dAdA udAra hoya to AkhA gharanAM dareka mANasa udAra ane bApa-dAdA cIkaNAM hoya to ghara badhuM evuM, eTale gharamAM darekano eka abhiprAya ! ane atyAre to darekanA abhiprAya judA, te Akho dahADo abhiprAyanI ja bhAMjagaDa ne vaDhavaDhA, atyAre to bApano paMtha judo, mAno paMtha judo, moTAbhAIno paMtha judo, nAnAno paMtha judo. Ama prakRti jovA jaIe to bahu sArAmAM sArI, paNa ekabIjAne meLa paDe nahIM. huM prakRti oLakhuM eTale mane to bahu sAruM lAge. Amane tyAM ema bagIco ja che ne ? koI goro, koI kALo, koI TUMko, koI UMco, koI jADo, koI pAtaLo. jAtajAtanAM phUlo che ne ! pelA gaLyA che te moLA thAya, tIkhA nA thAya. tIkhA to moDhAMmAM ghAle ke veSa karI nAkhe ane mahIM nA nAkhyA hoya to svAde ya nA Ave ane moLo hoya to majhA nA Ave. gharamAM ya eka taraphI hoya to moLuM kahevAya. UThe to ene ALasu kahe, kahe karyA kare roja. have mA-bApa ja sADA cha e UThanArA hoya ane chokaro pAMca vAge UThanAro. tyAre kaheze, bahu utpAtiyo ne bahu utpAtiyo ne tophAna. A badhuM samajyA vagara ThokAThoka karyA kare.. praznakartA: hA. evuM thaI jAya. amAro bAbo evo ja che. e pAMca vAge UThIne jato rahe, khabara nA paDe. jAya tyAM sudhI ame sUtA hoIe. dAdAzrI : nahIM, paNa AvA badhA tophAna nahIM karavA joIe. ene khIlavA devo joIe. ene enI prakRtimAM khIlavA devo joIe ane ApaNe ene khAtara ane pANI ApyA karavAnuM. khAtara-pANImAM zuM ? tyAre kahe, ApaNe eka mukhya vastu kahevI ke bhaI dArU-mAMsAhAra, e na karIza ane khoTI corI e ApaNane na posAya. A to chokarAne zI rIte keLavaNI maLe ? enI narsarI kevI hoya ? A vejITebalanA choDavA hoyane, te narsarImAM pAsa thayelA hovA joIe. to ja narsarImAM pesavA de, nahIM to narsarI bagADI nAkhe badhI. tyAM nApAsa thayelA haze loko ?! praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to AmAM ? tamane kema lAge che ? vicAra mAMgI le evuM nathI A vAkya mAruM ? praznakartA : che. dAdAzrI : te vejITebala choDavAne mATe ATalI badhI sarasa narsarI hoya che, to A chokarAne narsarI nA joIe ?! samajAvatAro nisvArtha ghaTe; sudharelo ja sudhArI zake narsarIto korsa karI uchere choDavAM; chokarAM uchero ema mAMDo vicAravA! hindustAnamAM ApaNA loko karatAM ahIM amerikAnAM (InDIyano) sArAM chene A loko. badhAM hase ja chene ! kaMI che ? koInI joDe kaMI sAmAsAmI rAga-dveSa ke kaMI bhAMjagaDo che koI jAtanI ? bahu sAruM ! jo vahelAM UThanArA mA-bApa hoyane, te chokaro jarA sADA chae

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246 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 247 praznakartA : pachI cokhkhI vAta karI de pAchAM. dAdAzrI : Ane samajAvanAra joIe. samajAvo to bahu suMdara cAle evA che. samajAvanAra nathI tenI A bhAMjagaDa che ane je samajAvA Ave che e potAnA svArthathI samajAvA Ave che. potAnA svArthavALo mANasa samajAvI zake nahIM tamane sAcI vAta. jene kaMI paNa svArtha nathI e ja loko sAcI vAta samajAvI zake. praznakartA : amAre ahIMyA vaDIlo nathI hotA eTale samajAve koNa? ahIMyA koI vaDIlo to hoya ja nahIM. dAdAzrI : hA, te samajAvanAro nA hoya eTale mANasa gUMcAyA kare che. zuM thAya ? praznakartA : A gUMcAIe, koI samajAvanAruM nA hoya vaDIlo, to eno rasto zuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe bhagavAnane prArthanA karavI, te bhegA karI Ape ApaNane. eTale chokarAMone A bAbatamAM jANavA mATe bIjI badhI vastuo hoya te, Ama jANatAM jANatAM phITa thaI jAya emanuM jIvana. vAIpha joDe kema vartavuM joIe ? madhara joDe kema vartavuM joIe ? phAdhara joDe kema vartavuM joIe ? pote potAnI joDa, mAgatAvALA joDe kema vartavuM joIe ? ApaNI jenI pAse mAMgatA hoIe tenI joDe kema vartavuM joIe ? AvuM badhuM ene samajAvAmAM Ave to kAma cAle. nahi to e to muMjhAyA ja kare che ! ane pAchuM kevuM ? A jagatamAM pAchAM loko zuM kahe ? ame tArA duHkhane laI laIzuM evA saMto hoya che. sAMbhaLeluM kharuM evuM ? praznakartA : sAMbhaLeluM. dAdAzrI : mAnyuM kharuM evuM tame? praznakartA: nA. dAdAzrI : mAneluM nahIM ! paNa sAMbhaLeluM kharuM ne ? have evuM kaMIka mAnanArA haze ne ? jo e du:kha lenArAM che to mAnanArAM ya haze ne ? mAnanAra hoya to ja A pachI AvAM UbhA thAya ne ? lAlacu loko. mArA chokarAne ghera chokarA thAya eTalI lAlaca ! are mUA paNa tAro chokaro, tane have chokarAnA chokarA mATe lAlaca zuM karavA rAkhuM chuM tuM ? paNa A lAlacu loko ! te mANase kaMI kevuM jIvana jIvavuM ? e kaMI svataMtra jIvana jIvavAnuM hovuM joIe. bhale bhrAMtivALuM to bhrAMtivALuM, paNa potAnuM svataMtra hovuM joIe. AvuM nA hovuM joIe. AkhuM jagata AvuM vyavahAra jJAna khoLe che ane A dharma nathI. A saMsAramAM rahevAno upAya che. saMsAramAM rahevAno, eDajasTa thavAno upAya che. 'vAIpha joDenAM eDajasTamenTa kema levAM ? chokarA joDe eDajasTamenTa kema levAM ?" tenA upAya che. gharamAM bhAMjagaDo thAya, te A vANInA zabdo evA che ke badhAne bhAMjagaDo maTI gaI. eTale A vANIthI badhuM rAge paDe che. jenAthI du:kha jAya e vANI khoLe che loko. kAraNa ke koIe AvA upAya ja nathI batAvyA ne ! sIdhA eplAya thAya evA upAya ja nathIne ! praznakartA : ane eka-eka upAya ApanA sacoTa che. dAdAzrI : hA. sacoTa che.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 249 hoya ane e dhaMdhAmAM hoya. tethI gADuM sAruM cAle che ne ! nahi to marI jAya mUA. mATe zaMkA jyAMthI utpanna thAya game tevI koI paNa prakAranI zaMkA utpanna thAya, tyAMthI te bIjamAMthI kADhIne pheMkI devI. zaMkAthI kazuM vaLaze nahIM ane e zaMkA tamane mArI nAkhaze te judI ! choDI nAsI gaI paramAtamAM; svIkArI le nahi to ApaghAtamAM ! (10) zaMkAtAM zULa! choDI para zaMkA, mArI nAkhe jAtane; zaMkA paDatAM ja mULathI kADhate ! zaMkAthI AkhuM jagata sapaDAyuM che. huM to eTaluM kahI dauM. je vyavasthita che ene koI pheravI zakavAnuM nathI. eka bhaI enI chokarI saMbaMdhI vAta karatA'tA. te mane kahe che, "A bIjI nAtano chokaro mArI chokarI joDe phare che ne e badhuM, mane rAte UMgha nathI AvatI." meM kahyuM, 'kema nathI AvatI ?" nA UMdhuM tethI kaMI A chUTI jaze ? praznakartA : nA chUTe. dAdAzrI : meM kahyuM, 'A zaMkA kADhI nAkha." kAraNa ke cAra choDIono bApa hoya ane te pAcho briliyanTa hoya, jAgrata hoya. eTale pharsTa yaramAM AvI chokarI, tyAMthI dekharekha rAkhyA kare enI draSTi, 'konI joDe pharatI haze ? zuM karatI haze ? kyAM gaI haze ?" cAranuM jovA jAya to zuM rahe enI pAse ? e to sAruM che, A pablika mohI che ne, te bhAna ja bhUlI jAya. bebIo gaI hoya kolejamAM ane e bhUlI gayo eka mANasa mArI pAse Avato. te ene eka choDI hatI. tene meM pahelethI ja samajAvyuM hatuM ke A to kaLiyuga che, emAM kaLiyuganI asara choDIne ya thAya. mATe cetato raheje. te e mANasa samajI gayo ane jyAre enI choDI bIjA joDe nAsI gaI. tyAre e mANase mane yAda karyo. ne mArI pAse Avyo ne kahevA lAgyo. 'tame kahI hatI te vAta sAcI. jo tame mane AvI vAta nA jaNAvI hota to mAre jhera pIvuM paData." AvuM che A jagata polaMpola. je thAya te svIkArya karI levuM paDe. emAM te kaMI jhera pIvAya ? nA mUA ! e to tuM gAMDo gaNAIza. A to kapaDAM DhAMkIne AbarU rAkhe che ane kahe che ke ame khAnadAna ! eka bhAI mane kahe, 'mArI choDIo to bahu DAhI." meM kahyuM, 'hA, sarasa.' pachI e bhAI bIjI choDIonI TIkA karavA mAMDyA. tyAre meM temane kahyuM, 'TIkA zuM karavA karo cho lokonI ? tame lokonI TIkA karazo to tamArI hau loko TIkA karaze !" tyAre e kahe che, "mArAmAM TIkA karavA jevuM che zuM ?" tyAre meM kahyuM, 'dekhADuM, cUpa rahejo." pachI choDIonI copaDIo lAvIne dekhADyuM badhuM. juo A, kahyuM. tyAre e kahe, 'hai ' meM kahyuM, "cUpa thaI jAva. koInI TIkA karazo nahIM. huM jANuM chuM. to ya huM tamArI joDe kema cUpa rahyo chuM?" ATaluM badhuM tame ropha mAro cho to ya huM cUpa kema rahyo chuM ? huM jANuM ke bhale ropha mArIne paNa saMtoSa rahe che ne, emane ! paNa jyAre TIkA karavA mAMDI tyAre kahyuM ke, "nA karazo TIkA." kAraNa ke choDIonA bApa thaIne ApaNe ko'kanI choDIonI TIkA karIe e bhUla che. ane AjanI choDIo ya bicArI eTalI bhoLI hoya che ke mArA

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250 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 251 bApA koI dahADo DAyarI nahIM vAMce evuM mAne. enI 'skUlanI lakhavAnI DAyarI hoya ne, enI mahIM patro mUke. enA bApe ya bhoLA hoya, te choDI para vizvAsa ja AvyA kare. paNa huM to A badhuM jANuM ke A choDIo uMmaralAyaka thaI che. huM enA 'phAdhara'eTaluM ja kahuM ke Ane paiNAvI dejo vahelI. hA, bIjuM zuM kahuM te ?! kolejIyata choDI para kare zaMkA; choDa' e, yAda kara dAdAI DaMkA ! eka amAro khAsa sago hato, tene cAra choDIo hatI. te jAgRta bahu. te mane kahe, "A choDIo moTI thaI, kolejamAM gaI. te mane vizvAsa nathI raheto." tyAre meM kahyuM, 'joDe jajo. kolejamAM joDe jaIe ane e kolejamAMthI nIkaLe tyAre pAchaLa Avaje." e to eka dahADo jaIza, paNa bIjI vakhata zuM karIza ? vahune mokalaje (!) alyA, vizvAsa kyAM rAkhavo ne kyAM rAkhavo nahIM eTaluM ya nathI samajato ?! ahIMthI ApaNe kahI devAnuM, 'bena jo, ApaNe sArA mANasa, ApaNe khAnadAna, kuLavAna chIe." Ama ene ApaNe cetavI devAnuM. pachI je banyuM e 'karekTa'. zaMkA nahIM karavAnI. keTalAka zaMkA karatA haze ? je jAgrata hoya te zaMkA karyA kare. evo saMzaya rAkhe kyAre pAra Ave ? mATe game tevI zaMkA to utpanna thatAM pahelAM ja tene ukhADIne pheMkI devI. A to A choDIo bahAra pharavA jAya, ramavA jAya, enI zaMkA kare. ane zaMkA utpanna thaI ke tyAM sukha ApaNane bahu varte kharuM ? praznakartA : nA. paNa pachI zaMkA karavAno artha nathI. dAdAzrI : hA, basa, eTale game tevuM kAraNa hoya to ya paNa zaMkA utpanna thavA devI nahIM. sAvadhAnI rAkhavI, paNa zaMkA nA karavI. zaMkA kare ke "maraNa' AvyuM jANo. praznakartA : paNa zaMkA to enI potAnI meLe ja utpanna thAya che paDe. chokarIo bahAra gaI hoya, to koI kaheze ke ene eno phrenDa maLyo che ! eTale pAchI chokarIo upara zaMkA paDI, te zo svAda thAya ? praznakartA : basa, pachI azAMti rahyA kare. dAdAzrI : azAMti kare. tethI bahAra ThekANe paDI javAnuM che ? phrenDa joDe phare che temAM kaMI pheraphAra thaI javAno che ? pheraphAra kaMI thAya nahIM ane e zaMkAthI ja marI jAya ! eTale A zaMkA utpanna thAya ke tarata ja 'dAdAe nA pADI che. eTaluM yAda karIne baMdha karI devI. bAkI, sAvadhAnI badhI rAkhavI. lokone potAnI choDIo to hoya ne ? tyAre e "koleja'mAM nA jAya ? jamAno evo che, eTale kolejamAM jAya ne ? A kaMI pahelAMno jamAno che ke choDIone gharamAM besADI rAkhavAnI ?! eTale jevo jamAno e pramANe vartavuM paDe ne ?! jo bIjI choDIo enA 'phrenDa sAthe vAta kare, tyAre A choDIo ya evuM enA 'phrenDa sAthe vAta nA kare ? have choDIonI jyAre kaMIka evI vAta sAMbhaLavAmAM ke jovAmAM Ave ne zaMkA paDe tyAre enI kharI majhA (!) Ave. ane mane AvIne pUche to tarata kahI dauM ke zaMkA kADhI nAkha. A to teM joyuM tethI zaMkA paDI ane nA joyuM hota to ?! jovAthI ja jo zaMkA paDI che to nathI joyuM, ema karIne 'karekTa' karI nAkhane ! A to aMDaragrAunDamAM badhuM che ja. paNa ene manamAM ema thAya ke 'Ama haze to ?" to e vaLagyuM ene. pachI bhUtAM choDe nahIM ene, AkhI rAta choDe nahIM. eTale zaMkA rAkhIe te khoTuM che. kALajI lo paNa zaMkA na karAya; AsaktithI mukti e ja upAya ! ApaNI choDIne uThAvI gayA hoya to ya zaMkA nahIM rAkhavAnI. kAraNa ke choDI 'joDe laI javAnI' cIja nathI. ane uThAvI jAya e gerakAyadesara hotuM nathI. enI pAchaLa laoN che ! laoN haze ke nahIM hoya ? praznakartA : kharuM. dAdAzrI : hA. A jJAna to tamane keTaluM badhuM sepha rAkhe che, kazI ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, paNa e bhayaMkara ajJAnatA che. enAthI bahu du:kha

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra harakata nA Ave. pelA zaMkAvALA, ajJAnI ja bagADe che A badhuM. evo saMzaya rAkhe kyAre pAra Ave ? nyAya e tharmomITara che, nyAya zuM kahe che ? jo e pramANe bane to karekTa kahevuM ! 252 A bena kahetI hatI ke amatho ko'ka Avyo hoya to ya, ye kona AyA ?" e zaMkAvALA phAdhara, e bicArA duHkhI-duHkhI thaI jAya. A loko mArI kane pUchatA hoya ne to huM emane samajaNa pADI dauM ke mUA du:khI nA thavuM joIe. enI para kALajI rAkho. badhA ja prikozansa lo. paNa enI upara zaMkA nahIM. paNa ApaNA loko bicArAne samajaNa nahIM ne ! praznakartA : dhAro ke enAM perenTasa, enAM mA-bApa enAM mATe prikozana letA hoya, jApto rAkhatA hoya, to ene potAne khabara to paDe ne ke.... dAdAzrI : jApto nahIM rAkhavAno, prikozansa levAnAM. praznakartA : prikozana rAkhe, to paNa ene khabara to paDe ne ke A zaMkA mATe mArI prikozana rAkhe che. dAdAzrI : e to bhale khabara paDe. praznakartA : to pachI ene lAge ne ke A mArA upara zaMkA kare che evuM thAya nahIM ! dAdAzrI : nahIM, enuM nAma zaMkA nA kahevAya. zaMkA nA karAya. prikozansa eTale ene badhA chokarAMnA ToLAmAM ekalI javA nA devI, evuM tevuM te badhA levA joIe. ApaNe to amuka uMmaranI chokarI bahAra ja nhotA kADhatA. khabara che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke peTrola ane agni be sAthe mUkI zakAya nahIM. jokhama bhareluM te jagatanA loko ya samaje ke be chUTAM rAkhajo. pachI have A jJAnavALAne to kazuM aDe ja nahIM. pAMca choDIo phreMDasa joDe pharatI hoya ne, to ya nA aDe evuM ApaNuM jJAna che. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : kone nA aDe ? mA-bApane nA aDe ke pelI pharanArIne nA aDe ? dAdAzrI : koIne ya aDe nahIM e to, A 'jJAna' hoya pachI to. praznakartA : e chokarIone 'jJAna' hoya to ne ! dAdAzrI : nA, chokarIone nahIM, ApaNane jJAna hoya ne, to zA mATe A bodharezana karavAnuM ?! A to ApaNI chokarI jevuM lAge che ApaNane e ya ApaNI chokarI hotI nathI. A to tarabucAnuM bIja ropyuM eTale tarabucA thayA ja kare. e to badhA keTalAya tarabucA bese. mAlikIpaNAnuM du:kha che A mAlikIpaNAnuM. 253 praznakartA : eTale bALako mATe evuM nA thAya ke e loko duHkhI thaI jaze, sAva khoTA raste caDhaze to ? dAdAzrI : e thAya. paNa te eno artha evo nahIM ke ApaNe ene mATe zaMkAo karavI. duHkhI nA thAya evo rasto lo. koleja badalI nAkhIe, jagyA badalI nAkhIe, saMjogo badalI nAkhIe. tema chatAM ya pheraphAra nA thAya to upAya nathI, niupAya che, zuddhAtmAmAM rahevuM, jeno upAya ja nathI tyAM ! praznakartA : ApaNe enI koleja badalI nAkhIe, enuM sarkala badalI nAkhIe, paNa ApaNane enI zaMkA paDe tyAre pachI AvuM badhuM karIe ne ApaNe ! dAdAzrI : zaMkA nahIM. praznakartA : to ? dAdAzrI : sephasAIDa mATe ! praznakartA : emAM zuM phera che ? dAdAzrI : zaMkA nahIM, sephasAIDa, aTakAvavuM. kaMI paNa upayoga karo. mArI choDI hota to ya zaMkA nA karata. hIrAbAnI joDe ya zaMkA nA karuM. koInI upara huM zuM karavA zaMkA karuM ?! AmacA kyA lenA denA ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 255 254 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 'amAre zuM levAdevA ?" tumacA ya nahIM ne AmacA ya nahIM, jagata mAjA mAjA karyA kare che. amAre zuM levAdevA ? (tamAruM ya nahIM ne amAruM ya nahIM. jagata mAruM mAruM karyA kare che !) praznakartA : jyAM AgaLa Asakti hoya, tyAM AgaLa ja zaMkA thAya ne ApaNane ?! dAdAzrI : hA, tyAM ja. bIjI koI jagyAe nahIM. koI paisA laI gayo hoya to zaMkA thAya. koI bAgamAMthI phUlAM laI gayo hoya to zaMkA thAya. badhI bahu jAtanI zaMkAo thAya. zaMkAo to pAra vagaranI thAya. ane ApaNe tyAM to bAbAne... mAro bAbo rUpALo, mArA bAbAne pelA joI leze, enI najara lAgI jaze." evI zaMkA paDe. te kALuM TapakuM mArIne Ave ahIMyA AgaLa. alyA mUA, zuM karavA najara lAge ! e kaMI khAvAnI cIja che? ko'kane chokarA nA hoya, tyAre pahelAMnA jamAnAmAM evuM thatuM hatuM. atyAre kaMI paDelI nathI ! pachI meM kahyuM ke, ane tema chatAM ya choDIne koI joDe prema thaI gayo. to e pachI rAte sADA agiyAra vAge Ave, to tame kADhI mUko ? tyAre e kahe, 'hA, huM to geTa AuTa karI dauM. ene gharamAM pesavA ja nA dauM." meM kahyuM, 'nA karazo evuM. e kone tyAM jaze rAtre ? e kone tyAM Azaro leze ?' ene kahIe, 'Ava, besa, sUI jA.' pelo kAyado che ne, ke nukazAna to gayuM, paNa have ethI vadhu nukazAna na jAya eTalA mATe sAcavavuM joIe. e bena kaMIka nukazAna karIne AvI ane vaLI pAchA ApaNe kADhI mUkIe eTale to thaI rahyuM ne ! lAkho rUpiyAnI khoTa to javA mAMDI che, paNa temAM khoTa ochI jAya evuM karIe ke vadhI jAya evuM karIe ? khoTa javA ja mAMDI che, to eno upAya to hovo ja joIe ne ? eTale bahu khoTa karIza nahIM. tuM tArI meLe ene ghera sUvADI deje. ane pachI bIje dahADe samajaNa pADI daIe ke 'TAImasara Avaje. mane bahu duHkha thAya che ane pachI nahIM to mAruM hArTapheIla thaI jaze." kahIe. eTale ema tema karIne samajAvI devAnuM. pachI e samajI gayo. rAte kADhI mele to koNa rAkhe ? loko kaMInuM kaMI karI nAkhe. pachI khalAsa thaI gayuM badhuM. rAte eka vAge kADhI mUke to choDI kevI lAcArI anubhave bicArI ?! ane A kaLiyugano mAmalo, jarA vicAra to karavo joIe ne ?! eTale koI phero choDI rAte moDI Ave to paNa zaMkA nA karIe, zaMkA kADhI nAkhIe, to keTalo phAyado kare ? vagara kAmanI bhaDaka rAkhyAno zo artha che ? eka avatAramAM kazo pheraphAra thavAno nathI. pelI chokarIone vagara kAmanuM duHkha dezo nahIM, chokarAone duHkha dezo nahIM. phakta moMDhe ema kahevuM kharuM ke, "bena tuM bahAra jAya che te moDuM nA thavuM joIe. ApaNe khAnadAna gAmanAM, ApaNane A zobhe nahIM. mATe ATaluM moDuM nA karazo.' Amatema badhI vAtacIta karavI, samajAvIe karIe. paNa zaMkA karyo pAlave nahIM ke 'konI joDe pharatI haze, zuM karatI haze." ane pachI rAte bAra vAge Ave to ya pAchuM bIje dahADe kahevAnuM ke, "bena, AvuM nA thavuM joIe !" tene jo kADhI mUkIe to e kone tyAM jaze enuM ThekANuM nahIM. phAyado zemAM ? ochAmAM ochuM nukasAna thAya choDI moDI rAtre Ave ghera; kADhI nA mUkAya, kaLathI kara phera ! have eka cAra choDIono bApa salAha levA Avyo hato. e kahe che, "mArI A cAra choDIo kolejamAM bhaNavA jAya che, te e badhI zaMkA to Ave ja ne ! to mAre zuM karavuM A cAra choDIonuM ? choDI bagaDI jAya to zuM karuM ?" meM kahyuM, 'paNa ekalI zaMkA karavAthI sudharaze nahIM." alyA, zaMkA nA lAvIza. ghera Ave tyAre ghera beThAM beThAM enI joDe kaMI sArI vAtocIto karIe. ApaNe 'phrenDazIpa" karIe. ene AnaMda thAya evI vAto karavI joIe ane tuM phakta dhaMdhAmAM, paisA mATe paDyo che, evuM nA karIza. pahelAM chokarIonuM sAcava, enI joDe 'phrenDazIpa' karIe. enI sAthe jarA nAsto karIe, jarA cA pIe, te prema jevuM lAge ene. A prema to uparacoTiMyo rAkho che, eTale pachI e prema bahAra khoLe che.

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2 56 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra emAM phAyado ne ?! eTale meM badhAne kahyuM che ke moDI Ave to ya choDIone gharamAM pesavA dejo, emane kADhI nA mUkazo. nahIM to bahArathI kADhI mele, A kaDaka mijAjanA loko evAM kharAM ke ? kALa kevo vicitra che ! keTalI baLatarAvALo kALa che !! ne pAcho A kaLiyuga che, eTale gharamAM besADIne pachI samajAvavuM. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 257 praznakartA : sAmA mANasanI draSTi evI hoya to zuM karIe ApaNe ? dAdAzrI : nA, sAmAnI draSTi evI nathI hotI, e ApaNI ja bhUlanuM pariNAma che. eTaluM jagata gerakAyadesara nathI ke tamArAmAM bhUla nA hoya to sAmAne draSTi AvI utpanna thAya. jagata bilakula kAyadesara, eka seMkaDe seMkaDe kAyadesara che ! 'bhogave enI bhUla' e vAkya lagADI dIdhuM ke ukela AvI gayo. zaMkA karanAra che te bhogave che ke zaMkA jenI para thAya che te bhogave che, e joI levuM. sAmo kare zaMkA to na devuM aDavA; bhogave tenI bhUla te mAMDa bhAMgavA ! mokSa mArgamAM zaMkA bahu bAdhaka; 'samabhAve kara tikAla' he sAdhaka ! praznakartA : have sAmo koI ApaNA upara saMzaya rAkhe to eno kevI rIte pote ukela lAve ? dAdAzrI : e saMzaya rAkhe che evuM ApaNe jJAna ja bhUlI javAnuM. e je jJAna che ApaNane, e jJAna ja bhUlI javAnuM. sAmo saMzaya rAkhe che ke nathI rAkhato, e zuM tamane khabara paDe ? praznakartA : mane AvI AvI zaMkA che, evuM moDhe kahe to ? dAdAzrI : moMDhe kahe, to kahIe, 'zaMkA tamane che, duHkhI tame thazo. zaMkA rAkhazo to duHkhI thazo.' evuM kahI cukIe. pachI je thAya tene ApaNe zuM karIe ? ! ane tamArAM evAM AcaraNa nahIM hoya to tamane koI zaMkA karaze ya nahIM. jagatano niyama ja che evo !! ko'ka dahADo evAM AcaraNa karelAM che, tethI A zaMkA UbhI rahI che. kAraNa ke guno thayo hoya paccIsa varSano hato tyAre, ane sATha varSano thAya tyAre korTamAM kesa cAlyo ! A AvuM badhuM hoya che badhuM. mATe koI zaMkA kare che te ApaNo ja guno che. praznakartA : ene ApaNA para saMzaya Avyo hoya, to ApaNe pUchavuM paDe ke kema saMzaya Avyo ? dAdAzrI : pUchavAmAM majA ja nahIM. e pUchavuM nahIM. ApaNe tarata ja samajI javuM ke ApaNo kaMIka doSa che. nahIM to zaMkA kema AvI ? keTalAka mANaso cora nathI hotA. chatAM enA para coranI zaMkA Ave che. to e cora pahelAM hovo joIe. nahIM to ema ne ema zaMkA nA paDe. eTale ApaNe zuM kahyuM ke phAIlono samabhAve nikAla karo. A badhI phAIlo (RNAnubaMdhI sagAIo) che. A kaMI tamArI choDI nathI ke A tamArI vahu nathI. A vahu, choDIo e badhI 'phAIlo' che. 'phAIlono samabhAve nikAla karo. jyAre pakSAghAta thayo hoya ne, tyAre koI tamAruM saguM thAya nahIM. UlaTuM bahu dahADA thAya ne, to loka badhA ciDhAyA kare. pelo pakSAghAtavALo ya mahIM manamAM samajI jAya ke badhA ciDhAyA kare che. paNa zuM kare che ?! A 'dAdA' e dekhADelo mokSa sIdho che, eka avatArI che. mATe saMyamamAM raho ne 'phAIlono samabhAve nikAla karo. chokarI hoya ke bairI hoya, ke bIjuM hoya ke trIjuM hoya, paNa badhAno samabhAve nikAla karo. koI koInI chokarI hotI nathI duniyAmAM. A badhuM karmanA udayane AdhIna che ane jJAna' nA maLyuM hoya tene ApaNAthI AvuM kazuM kahevAya nahIM. AvuM bole to te e vaDhavA taiyAra thaI jAya. - have mokSa kyAre bagaDaze ? mahIM asaMyama thaze tyAre ! asaMyama thAya evuM ApaNuM 'jJAna' ja nathI. niraMtara saMyamavALuM 'jJAna" che. phakta zaMkA karI ke upAdhi AvI ! mATe eka to zaMkA rAkhavI, kaMI paNa zaMkAzIla banavuM e moTAmAM moTo guno che. nava choDIonA bApane

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258 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra niHzaMka pharatA meM joyelA, ane te ya bhayaMkara kaLiyugamAM ! ane nave ya choDIo paiNI. A zaMkAmAM rahyo hota to keTalo jIvata e ?! mATe koI dahADo zaMkA nA karavI. zaMkA kare to ene potAne khoTa jAya. koNa choDI ne koNa bApa? nATakatAM pAtro ta ko' sAva ! ekanI eka choDI hoya ne tene koI uThAvI jato hoya, ne bApa vItarAga hoya to te zuM kare ? mahAvIrane choDI hatI ke nahIM ? evuM vItarAganI ekanI eka choDI hoya ne koI uThAvI jato hoya to zuM kare ? (11) vArasAmAM chokarAMte keTaluM? chokarAM mATe vAparyuM. baMdhAya bhAthuM; pArakA mATe vApare te puNya sAcuM ! praznakartA : ene aTakAvavA prayatna kare. ne chatAM ya laI jAya to kaMI nahi. dAdAzrI : e prayatno paNa DrAmeTika kare. DrAmeTika, nATakamAM Ama kare ne ke, "zuM samaje che tuM tArA manamAM ? tArA para dAvo mAMDIza. tane korTamAM phariyAda karIza. Ama karIza, tema karIza.' badhuM bole. nATakI badhuM bole. potAnI ekanI eka chokarI hoya, tyAM jJAnI puruSa zuM kare ? nATakI kare. chokarI hotI ja nathI potAnI ! jyAM deha ja potAno nathI tyAM chokarI potAnI zI rIte hoI zake ? ane je bane che, je banI rahyuM che, e koInI sattAnI vAta nathI. paNa chatAM ya te ghaDIe tamArAthI ema nA kahevAya ke, "sAruM bhaI, tyAre tuM laI jA bA." evuM nA bolAya. e vyavahAra pAMgaLo dekhAya. praznakartA : badhuM karavuM chatAM nirlepa rahevuM. dAdAzrI : hA. chatAM nirlepa rahevuM. kharuM samajI gayA. deha ja ApaNo nathI. A to gALo khAIne karma bAMdhavA nIkaLyA che loko !! praznakartA : puNyanA udaye, joIe tenAM karatAM vadhAre lakSmInI prApti thAya to ? dAdAzrI : to vAparI nAkhavI. chokarAM hAruM bahu rAkhavI nahi. emane bhaNAvavA, gaNAvavA, badhuM kamplITa karI, emane sarvisa lagAvI dIdhAM. eTale pachI e DALe (kAma) lAgyAM, eTale bahu rAkhavI nahi. eTaluM dhyAna rAkhavAnuM ke jeTaluM ApaNI joDe Ave eTaluM ja ApaNuM. tamAre keTalA dIkarA che ? praznakartA: traNa. be dIkarA ne eka dIkarI. dAdAzrI : mAthAkUTa koNe karI ? tame karI. bhogavaze koNa ? A badhAM, paNa e loko sAthe laIne AvyAM hoya ! praznakartA : huM mUkI jaIza to chokarAM vAparaze.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : chokarAo ya soMpIne jaze ke A soMpyuM. kAraNake emane ya kyAM joDe laI javAya che ? 260 praznakartA : paNa evo koI rasto che sAthe laI javAya evo ? dAdAzrI : A chokarAMo laIne AvyA'tAM ? A chokarAMo kyAMthI laIne AvyA'tAM ? emaNe mahenata karI ? mAthAkUTa karI emaNe ? ane taiyAra thaIne AvyuM ? joDe lAvelAM ja ne ! praznakartA : A bhAI ahIMthI joDe joDe laI jaI zakaze kharA ? dAdAzrI : have zuM laI jAya ? joDe hatuM te ahIM vAparI khAdhuM ? have A kaMIka mokSanuM mArI pAsethI AvIne maLe to dahADo vaLe ! haju jiMdagI che, hajI lAIpha Tarna kare, jAgyA tyAMthI savAra ! tyAM laI javAmAM kaI vastu Ave che ? ahIM je tame vAparyuM te badhuM gaTaramAM gayuM. tamArA mojazokha mATe, tamArA rahevA mATe je badhuM karo, e badhuM gaTaramAM gayuM. phakta pArakAM mATe je kaMI karyuM, eTalo ja tamAro ovaraDrAphaTa che. praznakartA : eTale kreDiTa maLe. dAdAzrI : eTalo ovaraDrAphaTa che, samaja paDIne ? eTale pArakAM mATe karajo, pArakAMnA rastA jJAnIone pUchI pUchIne karajo. praznakartA : dAdA, Ape kahyuM ke bIjAne sukha ApavAthI tAruM sukha vadhe che. to huM mArA dIkarAne kALAdhoLA karIne pAMca lAkha rUpiyA ApuM ne e sukhI thAya to mAruM sukha vadhe ? dAdAzrI : nahIM, sukha ApyuM kone kahevAya ? ke jene ApaNane lAgatuM-vaLagatuM nA hoya. chokarAMne to ApaNe pharajiyAta ApIe chIe, premathI, naryA premathI ApIe e kaMI sukha ApyuM nA kahevAya. e to eka prakArano moha che, Asakti che. bAkI, bIjA lokone Ape jyAM Asakti nathI, e ApyuM kahevAya. ane A to ApaNe nA ApIe to e dAvo karIne laI le. eTale A eTecamenTa-DITecamenTa to Ama kema karIne jAya te ? e mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ya kaMI kADhavAthI jAya nahIM. potAnuM rIyalAIjha thaI jAya, to chUTuM ja che A ! nahIM to lAkha avatAre ya nA vaLe. zuM hakIkata che, vAstavikamAM zuM che e jANIe to badho hisAba AvI jAya ApaNI pAse. sukha-duHkhanuM zAthI projekzana thAya che, te ya paNa ApaNe hisAbamAM AvI jAya. projekTa karavAno rasto samajI gayAM, eTale ukela AvI gayo. AtmA mATe kare, te kharo svArtha; te sivAyanuM badhuM parArtha ! 261 dAdAzrI : koI svArthI che kyAMya ? praznakartA : badhAM ja che. dAdAzrI : mane nA dekhAyo. svArthI to huM ekalo ja chuM A duniyAmAM. A to bicArAM kaMI svArthI che ? A to parArthI che bicArAM ! pArakAM hAruM UMdhA-cattAM karI ane pArakAMne hAruM mUkIne jAya che, parArthI loko che. emAM svArthI kyAM che te ? svArthI to potAnuM ja kAma kare. bIjA koInuM nA kare. A to parArthI ! lAkho rUpiyA lokonI pAse UMdhA-cattAM khaTapaTa karIne bhegAM karIne pachI A chokarAM-chaiyAne badhAne ApIne jato rahe mUo ! pote kazuM laI jAya nahIM joDe, e parArthI. pArakAM hAruM jIvavAnuM ne khaTapaTo karIne marI javAnuM, pAchuM pelAne soMpIne javAnuM. ane chokarAM jIvatA'tA, tyAM sudhI TaiDakAvatA'tA. ane tene ja pAchuM ApavAnuM. ane ApaNe ApavAnuM nA kahIe ne, tyAre kaheze, ame dAvo karIne laIzuM, amAro hakka che.' nhoya e svArtha. A to parArthI che. e parArthI A loko, te nATakavALA ya pasaMda nA kare che, A parArthInuM. eka nATakavALo gAto'to ke, 'jo maraNa A jIMdagInI che re chellI dazA, to parArthe arpavAmAM A jIvananA moha zA ?' te parArthano artha loko e zuM kahevA mAMge che ke A pArakAM lokone ApavAnuM, paNa e to paramArtha thAya. A to chokarAMne Ape che eTale e parArtha.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 263 bhaNAvo, paiNAvo, dhaMdhe lagADo; bAkInAM vATakharcA kAje bhelADo ApavAno. ApaNe rahetA hoIe te. te ya hoya to ApavuM. ApaNe batAvI devuM ke 'bhaI, ame nA hoIe ke te dahADe tAruM, tyAM sudhI mAlikI mArI ! gAMDA karIza to kADhI melIza, kahIe. vahu sAthe kADhI melIza. ame chIe tyAM sudhI tAruM nahi. amArA gayA pachI badhuM tAruM. vIla badhuM karI nAkhavuM. ApaNAM bApe ApyuM hoya eTaluM ApaNe ene ApavAnuM. eTalo hakkadAra che. TheTha sudhI chokarAne manamAM ema rahe ke haju ke 'bApA pAse haju pacAseka hajAra che.' ApaNI pAse hoya to lAkha. paNa e manamAM jANe ke 40-50 hajAra Apaze. e lAlacamAM rAkhavo TheTha. enI vahune kaheze, 'jA, pharsTa klAsa bApAne jamADa, cAnAstA lAva.' rophabhera rahevuM ApaNe. eTale ApaNA bApAe je kaMI oraDI ApI hoya te ene ApI do. eTale A loko, phorenarse zuM kahe ? 'bApA e je kaMI oraDI ApIne, e tane ApI daIe chIe, ame khoTuM karyuM nathI ke ame devuM kazuM karyuM nathI.' evuM kaheze. moTo vAraso batAve dArUDiyo; saMskAra, bhaNatara ja kho rUpiyo ! eka jaNe mane kahyuM, 'chokarAne zI amArI pharajo che ?" to meM kahyuM, tamArI pharaja eTalI ke chokarAne bhaNAvavo joIe. tamArI pAse paisA hoya to sArI rIte bhaNAvavo joIe. praznakartA : chokarAone paiNAvavA joIe ne ? dAdAzrI : ene paiNAvIe-aiNAvIe, badhuM ya karAvavAnuM. A phorenavALAM zuM khoTuM kahe che ke bhaI, chokaro chokarAnuM karI leze. chokarAne, ene eDajasTa thAya evuM ApaNe bhaNAvI-gaNAvo ane 18 varSano thAya eTale judo ! A lobhanI gAMThavALAne e amerikano zuM kahe che ? ke 'tame loko InDIyano zA mATe tame AvuM karo cho, peTa bALIne bhegA karo cho ! khAva-pIvo, majA karo. 'alyA, amArA pAchaLa joIe ne !" "chokarAne ApavA mATe bhegA karyA." tyAre chokarAne ApavA e to guno che moTo. eka mANase mane prazna karyo ke 'chokarAMne kazuM nA ApavuM ?" meM kahyuM, 'chokarAMne ApavAnuM. ApaNA bApe ApaNane ApyuM e badhuM ja ApavuM. vacalo je mAla che te ApaNe phAve tyAM dharmAdAmAM vAparI nAkhIe.' praznakartA : amArA vakIlanA kAyadAmAM ya evuM kharuM ke vaDIlopArjita proparTI (milakata) kharI te chokarAMne ApavI ja paDe, ane svopArjita tenI aMdara bApane je karavuM hoya te kare. dAdAzrI : hA, je karavuM hoya te kare. hAthe ja karI levuM ! ApaNo mArga zuM kahe che ke tAro potAno hoya te mAla tuM judo karIne vApara, to te tArI joDe Ave. kAraNake A "jJAna" lIdhA pachI haju eka-be avatAra bAkI rahyA che te joDe joIze ne ! bahAragAma jaIe chIe to thoDAM DhebarAM laI jaIe chIe. to A nA joIe badhuM ? eTale chokarAne to phakta zuM ApavA-karavAnuM. eka phaleTa praznakartA : bApe enAM chokarA mATe keTalA rUpiyA mUkI javA joIe ? dAdAzrI : chokarA mATe rUpiyA mUkI jaIe to dArUDiyA thAya. eTale mA-bApe ahita karyuM kahevAya. vadhyA hoya tyAre ja evuM karavuM paDe ne. vadhAravuM keTaluM ke e bUma nA pADe ke, mArA bApAe badhuM kharAba karI nAkhyuM ! ane Dolara te kaMI ahIMthI koI joDe laI gayelo ke ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : koI joDe laI javA detA nathI. ApaNane bALe che jatI vakhate. to pachI chokarA mATe bahu mukI jAya to ? chokarAM mATe bahu mukI jAya to chokarA zuM kare ? have dhaMdhA-nokarI karavAnI jarUra nathI. pIvAnuM rAkhe ane nirAMte emAMthI dArUDiyA thAya badhAM. kAraNa ke sobata evI

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264 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 265 maLI Ave pachI. A dArUDiyAnAM ja thayelA che te badhA ! eTale chokarAne to ApaNe padhdhatasaranuM ApavuM joIe. A vadhAre ApIe to durUpayoga thAya. haMmezA joba (nokarI)mAM ja rahe evuM karI ApavuM joIe. navaro paDe to dArU pIve ne ! praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : A ApaNe samajavA jevuM. nahIM to paisA khUTe nahIM, eTale chokarAne Ape pachI zuM thAya ? ApaNe ene hevAna banAvyo. mANasamAMthI hevAna banAvyo. A ApaNo prema, AnuM nAma prema kahevAya ?(!) - praznakartA : Ape je kahyuM, e to pAchaLanI vAta thaI. hayAtImAM to evuM ja kare che ne mA-bApo. chokarAMo mA-bApanA paisA hayAtImAM UDADe ja che ne ? mA-bApanA paisA hoya ane mA-bApa jIvatA hoya, to paNa mA-bApa ene paisA UDADavA de che ane UDADavA mATe rastA paNa karI Ape che. haju evAM che mA-bApa. dAdAzrI : chokarAMne sAruM ne ! praznakartA : dAdA, Aje to evuM che ke, amuka mA-bApane tyAM, pelo chokaro bhaNavA jato hoya nizALe, to so rUpiyAnI noTa ApI de. dAdAzrI : zuM thAya have ? ane chokarAMne rokaDA badhA ApavA e che te gADuM ghoMcamAM paDyuM ! ApaNA loko je chokarAne Ape che ne, e bhrAMtithI Ape che ke mArAM chokarAM che ne emanA sukhane hAruM e kare che. eTale e badhI bhrAMti che. pote vApare nahIM ne paisA sAcava sAcava kare tyAre A chokaro zuM kahe che ? ke 'bApAjI, kaMI dharmAdA karo ne, Ama zuM karavA karo cho ? ame amAruM karI laIzuM.' AvI aNasamajaNa zuM kAmanI ! badhuM rItasara zobhe. ApaNe ApaNA bApa marI gayA pachI keTalA dahADA saMbhALIe chIe ! tevo e ApaNane e saMbhAranArA che, tame game eTalA Dolara Apo ne to ya ! e to moha che badho. chokarAne milakta ApavI e mahAnamAM mahAna guno che. kAraNa ke tarata ja ene dArUDiyA maLI Avaze. ane ApaNe gayA ke dArUDiyA badhA bhegA thaIne badhuM gharamAM dhULadhANI karI nAkhe. kaMIka bApanI mUDI rakhaDI gaI Ama to. chokarAne ApavuM e moTAmAM moTo guno che ! ulaTAM emane lobhiyA banAvo cho ane avaLe raste caDhI jAya. kAM to jo kadI AgaLa dArUDiyA nA malyA to lobhiyo banI jAya. tamArAthI rokaDA apAya nahIM ! loko dArUDiyA banAve che, tenAM karatAM mA-bApa ja chokarAne bagADe che. moTI milakata ApIne jAya che. pachI pelo navaro ja rahe ne, joba kazuM kare nahIM ne ! jobamAMthI navaro ja nA paDe evuM karavuM joIe. jobamAMthI navaro paDe tyAre AvuM badhuM jaDe ne ! bhaIbaMdho maLI Ave ! praznakartA : dAdA, badhuM laIne Avyo hoya ne e hisAba. dAdAzrI : hA. hisAba laIne Avyo hoya. paNa ApaNe to samajIne cAlavuM ne pachI hisAba laIne Avyo hoya to mAMgaze. paNa ApaNe hAthe na thavuM joIe. A DaoNkaTara to pAra vagaranuM dhana, paNa jo potAnI kamANI upara rahe che ke, ahIM nirAMte ! bApa-dAdAnA paisA upara AdhAra rAkhavo e to sAruM nA kahevAya. TADhI khIcaDI khAdhI kahevAya. khIcaDI to tAjI ja khAvAnI. ane te svAdiSTa lAge. pelI TADhI khIcaDImAM majA na Ave. praznakartA : haM. vAta sAcI dAdA. dAdAzrI : eTale A chokarAne nA apAya evI TADhI khIcaDI. emane to dhaMdho karI ApavAno, ekAda moTara rAkhI ApavAnI, basa. ApaNA phAdhare kaMI nA ApyuM hoya, to ya ApaNe kaMI ne kaMI ApavuM joIe. chokarAM dArUDiyA bane kharA, bahu vaibhava hoya to ? praznakartA : hA, bane. chokarAo dArUDiyA na bane eTaluM to ApavuM joIe. dAdAzrI : eTaluM ja ApavuM joIe. praznakartA : vadhAre vaibhava ApIe to evuM thaI jAya.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : hA, e haMmezA ya eno mokSa bagADaze. haMmezA padhdhatisara ja sAruM. chokarAne vadhu ApavuM e guno che. e to phorenavALA badhA samaje che. kevA DAhyA che. Amane to sAta peDhI sudhInA lobha ! mArI sAtamI peDhInA mArA chokarAne tyAM AvuM hoya. keTalA lobhiyA che A loko ? ! chokarAne ApaNe kamAto-dhamAto karI Apavo joIe. e ApaNI pharaja ane choDIone ApaNe paiNAvI devI joIe. choDIone kaMIka ApavuM joIe. atyAre choDIone pArTa apAvaDAve che ne bhAgIdAra tarIke ! paiNAvIe ja chIe ne ! paNa potAnuM to pote vAparavuM joIe. 266 dhaMdhe lagADa dIkarAne laI vyAje; zIkha bodhakaLA dAdAtI, sukha kAje ! bIjuM kaMIka sAdhana hoya, to ene dhaMdho karI Alavo joIe. basa, eTaluM ja. nAno amatho pAMca-paccIsa hajAra rUpiyAno dhaMdho zarU karI ApavAno. dasa-vIsa-paccIsa hajAra ApaNA nAkhavAnA. koI bIjhanesa ene gamato hoya to karI Apavo. kyo dhaMdho game che te pUchI ane ene je dhaMdho ThIka lAge e karI ApavAno. ane paccIsa-trIsa hajAra beMkanA laI ApavA. lona upara te bharyA kare enI meLe ane thoDAka ApaNe ApI devA. ene joItI hoya temAM aDadhI rakama ApaNe ApavI ne aDadhI beMkanI lona bharyA kare. eTale paccIsa hajAranI kahIe beMkamAMthI lona le. e lona tuM haptA bharaje, kahIe. eTale haptA bhare, e chokaro DAhyo thAya. beMkavALAno kAgaLa Ave ke tame A sAla A bharI gayA nathI, ene jAgato ne jAgato rAkhe. ane ApaNe jAte karIne devuM ApavuM. e devAnA AdhAre e sIdho thAya. praznakartA : barAbara, dAdA. dAdAzrI : nahIM to tamane TaiDakAvI TaiDakAvI tamAruM tela kADhaze. ane jo tame TaiDakAvazo to e sAmo thaI jaze. A beMkavALo TaiDakAvaze to e sAmo nahIM thAya tamane. eTale ApaNe eTalA benkamAMthI laI levAnA paccIsa hajAra. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ane kahevuM ke paccIsa hajAranA AvI rIte haptA bharyA karaje. te soMpI devAnuM, haptA sAthe. te beMkavALo godo mAre ne jAge, godo mAre ne jAge. rokaDuM badhuM nA apAya, guno che. amArI vAta jo samaje to kAma kADhe. vAta samajavI joIe ne. 267 chokarAnuM hita karyuM kyAre kahevAya ? godA mAranAra joIe beMkavALo. 'rUpiyA bharI jatAM nathI, Ama ne tema.' ane ApaNe kahIe, 'alyA, rUpiyA meM tane kahyuM'tuM A bharI jaje.' tyAre kahe, 'kacakaca nA karazo. amathA vagara kAmanuM mAruM magaja khaI jAva cho.' alyA, tyAM beMkavALAne kahe ne ?! tArAM bApAne to tyAM sAmuM kahe ! paNa beMkavALAne to zI rIte sAmuM kahevAya ? eTale badhuM khAnagI cIja karI nAkhavAnI ane beMkavALo TaiDakAya TaiDakAya roja kare. beMkavALo pachI ApaNI pAse Ave. tame jAmIna rahyA.' tyAre benkavALAne kahevuM, 'huM tamane game tyAMthI lAvIne ApIza. tamArA hamaNe enI (chokarAnI) pAse lo ne !' 'game tyAMthI lAvIne ApIza.' ene kahIe. 'mArI pAse nathI.' evuM dekhADavuM. beMkavALAne jAmIna to rahevuM paDe. to zuM thAya, beno saMbaMdha bahu mITho rahe. uparAMta che te A chokaro koIka phero aDacaNamAM muMjhAyo. to kahe, 'kema alyA, A zuM che ? kema aDacaNamAM chuM ?" e kahe, 'be-cAra hajAra DolaranI bahu muzkelI che te have kyAMkathI vyAje lAvuM.' tyAre kahIe, 'nA, huM tane laI ApIza. mArA phrenDa che ne tenI pAsethI laI ApIza.' pote nA Ape. phrenDa pAsethI laI ApIza, AvuM kahe ane thoDuMka beMkamAM koI jagyAe mUkI rAkhavuM dasavIsa hajAra. te ko'ka phero chokaro muzkelImAM Avyo hoya to ene pAMceka hajAra ApI devA. ene kahevuM nahi ke bhaI, meM mUkI rAkhyA che. hA, nahi to muzkelImAM nA AvatAM hoya to ya Ave. pAkAM hoya ne ! praznakartA : hA, karavuM ja paDe ne ! tame to evI rIta zIkhavAnI vAta karo cho ne paNa ! dAdAzrI : evuM che ne A rIte sAmasAme koIno kaMTrola tUTe nahIM.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ra69 dekhAIe, chokarA pAse. chokaro kaheze, 'bApA to sArA che, paNa mAro svabhAva vAMko che.' huM avaLuM bolyo tethI. bAkI bApA bahu sArA che ! eTale chaTakI nAsavuM A jagatamAMthI. pachI chokaro kaheze, 'haju to mUDI bIjI vadhAre joIze.' tyAre kahe, 'have amArI pAse vadhAre nathI, amAre jarUriyAta pUratuM ja rahyuM che have.' tyAre chokaro kahe ke pappAjI, A ApaNI pAse paisA ATalA badhA hatA ne A devuM kema tamAre ? tyAre kahe, 'hatA ne e zeramAM jatA rahyA.' koIne kahevAya nahIM. have kahIe to ApaNI AbarU jAya. terI bI cupa ne merI bI cUpa. samajI jAne, vAta kahIe chIe te ! bairI chokarAMte kyAreka bhIDa dekhADo; nahIM to vaMThaze te karaze bhelADo ! 268 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra AtmA vaza karavo sahelo che, manavaza karavuM vasamuM che. manane koI dizAnuM ThekANuM nathI. pelI dizAmAM ya bhAge ane A dizAmAM ya bhAge. eTale ene mATe A kaLA che. A 'dAdA bhagavAnanI kaLA che ne bodhakaLA kahevAya che. AkhA gharanAM mANasa AnaMdamAM rahe ane koIne ema nA lAge ke amArI upara dabANa che. ane koI maryAdA nA toDe. jo kazuM bolIza, khoTuM lAgaze to mane nahIM Ape, koI vakhata madada nahIM kare. pachI pelAne pharI bhIDa paDe ne to kaheze, "pappAjI, thoDA mAre Tena thAujhanDa joIze.' hA, bhaI Ubho rahe, pAMca hajAra mArI pAse che. pAMca hajAra huM uchInA laI AvuM chuM jA." eTale e kaheze, "ohoho ! mArA phAdhare pAMca hajAra uchInA laI ApyA. hoya bhale ApaNI pAse. paNa jarA AvuM rAkhavAnuM, TekanikalI. evuM nA joIe ? praznakartA : joIe, joIe. dAdAzrI : pachI pAMceka hajAra bIjA ene ApyA hoya ApaNA. paNa kahevAnuM ke bhaI A phalANA bhaInA vyAje lIdhelA che. eTale haptA bharaje, kahIe. nahIM to e jANe ke ATalA che to vAparI khAva ne ! pachI joI laIzuM, kaheze. haptA bharavAnA hoya tyAre gADuM cAle. haptA vagara to mANasa bephAma thaI jAya. eTale o amerikAmAM eTalo sAro rivAja che ke badhAne haptA bharavAnA hoya che. e mane gamyo. darekane haptA bharavAnA hoya. mahino pUro thayo ke ciMtA AvIne UbhI rahI. paccIsa hajAra DolaranuM devuM che te ApyA karaje, vItha InTaresTa, to rItasara dhaMdho kare, haptA bharato jAya beMkanA. pachI chokaro kahe ke, "A varSamAM mAre lona bharAtI nathI. tyAre kahIe ke 'huM lAvI ApuM, tane pAMca hajAra. paNa ApI devAnA vahelA." eTale pAMca hajAra lAvI ApavAnA. pachI ApaNe pelA pAMca hajAra saMbhArIe. pelA vahelA ApI devAnA che, evuM kahyuM che. AvuM saMbhArIe to chokaro kahe, 'tame kacakaca nA karazo hamaNe." eTale ApaNe samajI javAnuM. 'bahu sAruM che e.' eTale pharI levA ja nA Ave ne ! ApaNane vAMdho nathI, 'kacakaca karo cho' evuM kahe teno. paNa pachI levA Ave nahIM ne ! eTale ApaNI sephasAIDa ApaNe rAkhavAnI ane pachI khoTA nA eka mANasa to amArI pADozamAM rahetA'tA. te chokaruM eka traNa varSanuM, eka pAMca varSanuM, eka sAta varSanuM, eka nava varSanuM. ema cAra chokarAM hatAM. te divALIne dahADe paracuraNa laI Ave so rUpiyAnuM ane chokarAMne pachI muThIe muThIe Ape. chokarAM bagaDI gayAM UlaTAM. e, cAra AnA mAge tyAre ApaNe ene kahevuM ke "cAra AnA to soLa paisA thayA ne ? to tuM agyAra paisA laI jA. pAMca paisA pharI Avaze tyAre ApIza.' to e maryAdAmAM haiDe. A to muThIe, muThIe, bairIne ya pAnase-pAnase Ape. pachI Teva paDI jAya e to. praznakartA : pachI to bIje varSe paNa mAMge ja ne ! ApyAM che eTale, A phere. dAdAzrI : mAMge, e ja mAMge. pachI ochuM ApIe tyAre vaDhe. dAMtiyA kare. pahelAM ApatA'tA ne have kema nahIM ApatA ? paNa e rasto kara ne padhdhatasarano. ene ApavAM kharAM, paNa ene ema lAge ke paisA e cIja evI che ke A naLamAM pANI Ave che evuM nathI A. e to gharanAM mANaso ya ema ja mAnI le che ke hamaNAM naLanI cakalI UghADIza eTale pANI Avaze, evuM mAnI beThAM che.

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2 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 271 akkalavALuM hoya ne e mane game. rasto to sAro ne ! emAM to be mata ja nahi ne ! che ne dhanya enI budhdhine ya ! je paisA joDe laI javAtA hota; devuM karIne poTaluM leta bahota ! praznakartA : gharanAM mANasa mAnI beThAM Ape kahyuM e koNa ? dAdAzrI : gharanAM badhAM bairI-chokarAM e badhAM. kAraNake ApaNe karIe evuM eTale pachI evuM ja mAne ne ! eTale pachI eka zeThe mane zIkhavADyuM. eka zeThane tyAM huM beTho'to. zeTha paisAvALA mANasa hatA ane jaina lugaDAM-bUgaDAM pahere e bIjA. ATale sudhI ja TUMkuM. ATale sudhI lAMbuM sIvaDAvIe to kapaDuM vadhAre jAya ! bhalene TADha haze to vAMdho nahi ! roja mArI beThaka tyAM AgaLa. pachI che te chokaro zAka levA mATe paisA levA Avyo. te dahADe mArI hAjarImAM AvI vAta banI. nahIM to roja to evuM kaMIka paheluM thaI gayuM hoya. paNa te dahADe to evuM banyuM ke chokaro levA Avyo. to A kahe che, "Aja tArI mammIne kaheje ke bhIDa che Aje. eTale Aje che te pelAM tuveranAM bAkarAM banAvajo.' kahe. Aja bhIDa che, kahe che. are, A zeThiyo zuM bole che ? hamaNe koIne vIsa hajAra joIe to hamaNAM dhIre paisA. sarasa nANuM beMkamAM ane AvuM bole che ! tyAre meM kahyuM, AnuM magaja khasI gayuM che ke zuM AnI akkala che A, te ApaNane AnI kaMI samajaNa nathI paDatI ! pachI e chokaruMbokaruM gayAM pachI ekalAM paDyAM. tyAre meM kahyuM, zeTha, AvuM zuM karo cho ? A nirdayatA zuM karo cho ? chokarAne, ene zAka lAvavAnA paisA ya nA joIe ? tyAre kahe, roja ApuM chuM, jeTalA joIe eTalA. paNa eka dahADo AvuM karuM aThavADiyAmAM. eTale ema jANe ke A paisAnI bhIDa hoya che Amane. meM kahyuM, A to bahu akkalavALA. nahi to e lokone Teva paDI jAya. meM jANyuM. A nirdayatA kema kare che ? nirdayatA nahIM, paNa e sAco rasto hato. praznakartA : enA dhyAna upara lAvyA ke ahIMyAM ya koI vakhata bhIDa hoya che. jyAre mAMgIe tyAre maLI jAya evuM nathI. dAdAzrI : nahIM, pelAM lokonAM manamAM ema thAya ke Aja bhIDa che eTale Aja karo ane pharI ApaNane vakhate kharekhara bhIDa AvI to ApaNe kahI zakIe ke bhIDa che. eTale tarata mAnI jAya. pahelethI kevuM sarasa ghaDatara karI rAkhe che. mane to huM jyAM jauM tyAM AvAM, AvAM nusakhA yAda rahI jAya vadhAre. mane A game. koI navI jAtanuM ahIMthI joDe nA laI javA de ?! ahIMthI sAthe ApaNane Dolara kamAyelA laI javA nA de ? kema bolatA nathI ? praznakartA : nA, nA. dAdAzrI : nA laI javAya ? to pachI, paisAne ApaNe zuM karavAnA tyAre ? ApaNe jAte vAparyA nahIM potAnAM sukha ne sAhyabI mATe ! ne sArA kAmamAM ya vAparyA nahIM ! bIjA pAMca lAkha hoya to to ApaNe bIjI vyavasthA karavAnI sArI ! te eno ovaraDrAphaTa to maLe. bIjAnAM sukhane mATe vAparavAM enuM nAma ovaraDrAphaTa, bIjuM badhuM ApaNe AgaLano DrAphaTa kaDhAvI levAno. praznakartA : kaI beMkamAM ? dAdAzrI : e to huM kaDhAvI ApIza. eTale chokarAne rItasara padhdhatisara ApI ane bIjuM sAre raste ApaNe lokonAM sukhane mATe vAparI devuM. lokone sukha kema paDe, lokonA dila ThAravAthI, e tamArI joDe Avaze milakata. Ama rokaDuM nathI AvatuM, paNa A ovaraDrAphaTa rIte Ave che. rokaDuM to javA ja nA de ne tyAM AgaLa ! Ama ovaraDrAphaTa kare, lokone khavaDAvI de, badhAnuM dila ThAre, koIne aDacaNa hoya to bhAMge. A rasto che AgaLathI DrAphaTa mokalavAno. eTale paisAno saupayoga karo. varIjha-barIjha karavAnI nahIM. khAvA-pIvo, khAvA-pIvAmAM aDacaNa nA karo. eTale huM kahuM chuM ke, 'vAparI nAkho, ne ovaraDrAphaTa lo. zA hAruM Ama karo cho te ?" paNa ovaraDrAphaTa kaDhAvanArA ochA che ne ? praznakartA : hA.

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272 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : te eka zeThiyAne meM pUchyuM hatuM, Ama sArI milakata dharAvatA hatA ane gAmaDAnAM zeThiyAo eTale ATale ghuMTaNa sudhI dhotiyuM pahere, ane ATale sudhI TUMkI baMDI pahere, te ya khAdInI. te badhuM thaIne te jamAnAmAM traNa rUpiyAnuM hoya. A eno phula Dresa. tyAre meM ene kahyuM ke, "zeTha, A kyAM sudhI potaDIo paheryA karazo ? moTAM milakatadAra cho, have kaMI sArAM dhotiyAM pahero ne !' tyAre kahe ke, "emAM zuM ? AmAM zuM du:kha che ?" tyAre meM kahyuM ke, 'to A badhuM. eka-be lAkha joDe laI jajo !" tyAre kahe che ke, 'aMbAlAlabhAI, e to joDe nA laI javAya. e to koI laI gayelo nahIM.' tyAre meM kahyuM ke, 'tame loko kaMI kAcA cho ? ame jarA kAcA paDIe." tyAre kahe che, "nA, koIthI ya nA laI javAya.' tyAre meM kahyuM ke, 'joDe laI javAya evo mane rasto jaDyo che. huM tamane dekhADuM." tyAre kahe ke, "zuM ?" kahyuM ke 'AvI rIte thoDo ovaraDrAphaTa kaDhAvo. tyAre kahe ke, "mArI mahIM aMdarakhAne e bhAvanA kharI." paNa e Ama chaTakI gayA, e jANe ke A UMdhuM pAchuM kyAM dekhADyuM ?! eTale pachI meM emanAM chokarAMne pUchayuM ke tamArA bApAe A badhI milakata karI che, te tamArA mATe karI che, potaDIo paherIne ! tyAre kahe che, 'tame amArA bApAne oLakhatAM ja nathI.' meM kahyuM ke, "kema ?" tyAre kahe che ke, 'jo ahIMthI laI javAnuM hota ne, to mArA bApA, ahIM lokonI pAse devuM karIne dasa lAkha laI jAta. AvA pAkA che ! dasa lAkhanuM devuM karIne jAya evA che, mATe bahu manamAM rAkhavA jevAM nathI A." eTale enAM chokarAMe ja mane AvI samajaNa pADI. meM kahyuM ke, 'have sAcI vAta maLI mane ! huM zuM jANavA mAMguM chuM e mane maLI gayuM. Ama karatAM karatAM e zeTha jatAM rahyA ne kazuM joDe laI gayA nahIM. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 273 dAdAzrI : chokarIne amuka pramANamAM ApavuM. ApaNe chokarAne pUchavuM, 'tAre zuM dhaMdho karavo che ? zuM karavuM che ? sarvisa karavI che ?" ApavuM paNa amuka pramANamAM. aDadhI mUDI to ApaNI pAse rahevA devI, eTale prAIveTa ! eTale jAhera karelI nahIM. bIjI badhI jAhera karavI ane kahevuM ke, amAre joIe, paNa amArA be jaNane jIvatA sudhI joIe ne ? kahIe. ane pAchuM devuM karI ApavuM beMkanuM. beMkanuM devuM nA kare e dhaMdho nA karavo. eTale godA mAranAra joIe ene, jethI dArU nA pIve. eTale ApaNe padhdhatisara, samajaNapUrvaka kAma karavuM. praznakartA : paNa mANasa marI jAya, pachInuM vIla kevuM hovuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : nA, maryA pachI to je che te ApaNI pAse, aDhI lAkha rUpiyA vadhyA che, te to ApaNI hAjarImAM ja maryA sudhI rahevA ja nA devAM. banatAM sudhI ovaraDrAphaTa karAvI ja levA. davAkhAnAnA, jJAnadAnanA badhA ovaraDAphaTa kaDhAvI levA ane pachI vadhe te chokarAone ApavA. te vadhAravA ya kharA thoDAka. e lAlaca emanI che ne, te lAlaca hAruM pacAsa hajAra rAkhavA. pachI bIjA be lAkhanA to ovaraDrAphaTa kaDhAvI levAnA, Avate bhava ApaNe zuM karIe ? A badhA gayA avatAranAM ovaraDrAphaTa atyAre vAparo cho, to A avatAramAM ovaraDrAphaTa nA kADhavo paDe ? A zuM kahevAya ? praznakartA : ovaraDrAphaTa. dAdAzrI : hA, koIne ApaNe ApyA nathI A. A lokonA hitane mATe, lokakalyANa mATe vAparyA e che te ovaraDrAphaTa kahevAya. chokarAne ApIne to pastAyelA, evA pastAyelA ke kharekhara ! chokarAnuM hita kevI rIte karavuM te ApaNe samajavuM joIe. te mArI joDe AvIne vAtacIta karI javI. eTale huM kahuM chuM ke dhULamAM jAya enA karatAM kaMI sArA raste jAya evuM kaMIka karo. joDe kAma lAgaze ane tyAM to jatI vakhate cAra nALiyera baMdhAvaze ne ! ane te ya chokaro zuM kaheze, 'jarA sastAmAMnA, pANI vagaranAM Apajo ne !' mATe sAre raste paisA vAparajo. lokonA sukhane chokarAne ApavuM padhdhatasaranuM vila; lokahitamAM vAparI, le ovaraDrAphTanuM rIla ! praznakartA : ApaNI je milakata hoya, tenuM vIla banAvavuM hoya chokarAM mATe, to Adarza vIla kaI rItanuM hovuM joIe ? eka chokaro ne eka chokarI hoya to ?

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274 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mATe vAparajo. tamArA paisA jo vadhArAnA hoya to lokonA sukhane mATe vAparazo. eTalA ja tamArA, bAkI gaTaramAM.....! A to AvuM badhuM nA bolavuM joIe. chatAM bolIe chIe ame ! na soMpAya pahelethI badhI milakata; lAcArIne ThebAM maLe jANa hakIkata ! mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 275 emano. to e pote kare sarvisa ane emano dhaMdho mane soMpI de, kahe che. meM kahyuM, rUpiyA Apa vyAje lAvIne ane jo tAre A joItA hoya to keTalA TakA InTaresTa ApIza e nakkI kara ! eTale ene ema lAgyuM ke dAdA che te kaMI karAra karAvI leze mArI pAse hauM. paNa pelo samajI gayo ke karAra karyA vagara cAle evuM nathI, nahIM to pachI dAdA, navI jAtanuM pheravIne kazuM Ape nahIM to zuM karIe ? camakyo ! ane chokaro to zuM bole, tamArA beu jaNamAM bilakula sensa nathI, kahe che. eTale enA bApA kahe che, A badhA Dolara ApyA teno A badalo ? bApathI bolAya nahIM, bApa bole ne tyAre pelo kaheze, paNa nyAya A nathI kaheto. alyA mUA, nyAya karuM chuM, bApanI joDe ?! e to bApanuM kahyA pramANe ja karavAnuM. Akho vAraso levo che, ane enI pAchaLa uparathI nyAya khoLuM chuM ! ane tAro svabhAva vAMko hoya to e to pAchuM te ghaDIe tuM vAMkuM bolIne Ubho ja rahevAno chuM. atyArathI ja AvuM karuM chuM, to te dahADe tuM mAro zuM phajeto kare ?! A chokarI AvuM bole che, kaMI jAta jAtanuM bole che. meM kahyuM, jo soMpazo nahIM. lAgaNIvALo che badhuM ya. lAgaNIvALo che, paNa svabhAva kaMI jAya ke ? praznakartA : nahIM. ekano eka chokaro che te vArasadArane sopyuM. bhaI A badhuM tAruM, have ame be che te dharma karIe. A milakata badhuM enuM ja che ne, evuM bolazo to phajeto thaze ! kAraNake ene milakata ApavAthI zuM thAya ? pelA bhaI milakata ApIne UbhA rahe, ekano eka chokaro. eTale pachI chokaro pelA be jaNane sAthe rAkhe. paNa chokaro eka dahADo kaheze, 'tamane akkala nathI, tame eka jagyAe besI raho ahIM AgaLa te !' eTale te ghaDIe pelAnA manamAM ema thAya ke A meM Ane kyAM hAthamAM lagAma ApI !? e pastAvo thAya ne, enA karatAM ApaNe kUMcI ApaNI pAse rAkhavI. have pelA bhaIno chokaro mArI hAjarImAM kahe che, dAdAjI, mArI kahelI vAta bApA eksepTa karatA nathI. eTale meM ene kahyuM, tuM zuM samajuM chuM tArA manamAM ?! Ijha hI pArTI ? e pArTI che ? e ema samaje, A amAro bApa e pArTI ane A ya pArTI, huM ya pArTI. pArTI samaje che mahIM. te pachI chokaro mane kahe che, paNa mArA pappA Ama kare che e kema cAle ? e mane nahIM phAve. eTale meM kahyuM, A jabaro mUo ! meM kahyuM, yu Ara noTa dhI pArTI ! ahIM pArTI-bArTI nA hoya. ke A e Ama kare che. pachI kahyuM, 'pappAjI tArA pAse khAvAnA paisA le che ?" eTale camakyo. "khAvAnA le mArI pAse ?' tyAre te konI pAse le ?" tane khavaDAve che. te tuM nAno houM tyAM sudhI khavaDAve. ane ahIM nyAya karavAno nathI. ahIM to tArA phAdharano nyAya e nyAya che, kahyuM. e vahelI take UDADI melI enI vAta. pelo nyAya khoLato hato, mUo ! alyA mUA, ahIM nyAya khoLuM chuM ?! bApanI pAse nyAya khoLuM chuM ?! emanuM badhuM, emanA paisAnuM khauM chuM. tyAra pachI kahe, bijhanesa che rAkha lagAma hAthamAM e bannena hItaH vakhata paDe tyAre kheMca e kharI prIta ! dAdAzrI : eno svabhAva evo eTale pachI... e chokaro mane zuM kahe, mane lAgaNI che dAdAjI. emane bahu sArI rIte sAcavIza, kahe che. lAgaNI che paNa game teTalI lAgaNI hoya bApa joDe, paNa bApane kaheze, nonasensa. eTaluM kahyuM eTale thaI rahyuM ! emanA manamAM ema thAya ke baLyuM AvuM jIvana kema jIvAya ? chokaro ja kahe te ! e lAgaNIne zuM karavAnI ? pachI pote je rIte jIvelo te nathI jIvAtuM ne ! praznakartA nahIM ja ne ! dAdAzrI : eTale TheTha sudhI jIvavAnI cAvI ApaNI pAse

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276 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 273 rAkhavI, cAvI. ene badhI rIte uttejana karavAnuM. dhaMdho karAvI Apavo, bahu helpa karavI. eTale pelA samajI gayA badhA. te emaNe goThavaNI karI che hamaNe. eTale hAthamAM lagAma rAkhIne kAma lejo. te ene bahu samajaNa paDI gaI. badhA AvI rIte phasAyelAM hatAM. A to mA-bApa bicArAM bhalAM eTale kahe, A tAruM ja che ne, bA. A tAruM ja che ema karIne to chokarAM pAchAM caDhI bese e to pachI. nA Ape e to ApaNane. mATe lagAmane padhdhatasara rAkhavI joIe. e ya samajavA jevI ne vAta pAchI. ApaNA hAthamAMthI lagAma choDI ane pachI bUmo pADIe. ApaNAmAM eka kahevata che ke aMdhAruM ghora thayeluM hoya ane kALo baLada hoya ane pachI khIlethI ApaNe choDyo. pachI ApaNe kahIe ke, Ava, Ava, Ava. te dekhAya nahIM ne kaI bAju Ava Ava karIe ? e khIle bAMdhavA sAruM ! le Ava, le Ava. te mUA khIlethI nA choDIza. aMdhAruM che ne kALo che e. praznakartA : barAbara. dAdAzrI : eTale kahyuM, lagAma rAkha tArI pAse. praznakartA: to emAM vANI, mana ane vartananI saraLatA rAkhIe, to e to zudhdha guNa che. to pachI enuM zuM karavuM ? e ya nahIM rAkhavAnuM? dAdAzrI : e saraLatA rAkhI ja nA kahevAya. ApaNe che te ghoDAne hAMkavAno hoya ne, to enI lagAma DhIlI karI daIe ene sukha paDe evuM, ene sukhI thAya eTalA sAruM. to zuM thaze ? Thokara khAI deze, pADI nAkhaze badhuM. praznakartA : hA, hI. dAdAzrI : eTale ApaNA hitane mATe lagAma kheMcavAnI e bhale DoLA kheMcAya. jarA lohI nIkaLatuM hoya to bhale nIkaLe. paNa baMnenA hitane mATe che. praznakartA: have lagAma hAthamAMthI jatI rahI pachI zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : jatI to rahI e lagAma jANIne pachI, pharI vAta dabAvI devAnI. thayelI bhUlane zuM karavAnuM? praznakartA : badhAne ja evuM thayuM che, dAdA. dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, bahu muzkelImAM AvyuM hoya to mArI pAse lAvaje, huM samuM karI ApIza. nA muzkelImAM AvyuM hoya to calAvI dejo. jevuM cAle evuM kharuM, zuM thAya te ?! kAraNa ke amAre jJAnInI pAse jJAna ekaluM nA hoya, enI pAse bodhakaLA ne jJAnakaLA badhI kaLAo hoya. e vyavahAramAM evI rIte rahe ke koInI joDe matabheda nA paDe. koI gALa bhAMDanAranI joDe matabheda nA paDe evo vyavahAra rAkhe. ane koI sAmo thAya ja nahIM. moTo rAjA hoya to ya sAmo nA thAya evo vyavahAra hoya. eTale vyavahArakaLA ne bodhakaLA beu hoya. jJAna che, tyAM zuM nA hoya emanI pAse. eTale ApaNe ApaNuM kAma kADhI levuM. jarA kAcuM paDyuM hoya to pharI sudhArI levuM. saMsAramAM badhA kAcA paDI gayelA. atyAre to A vyavahArika jJAna ja nathI ne lokone ! vyavahArika jJAna ochuM thaI gayuM che. lokone. DolaranI paDI che. basa, bIjI kazI paDelI nathI. rAtadahADo enuM ja dhyAna. jANe e mA-bApa nA hoya ! badhe dhyAna rAkhavuM paDe. ekataraphI nahIM hovuM joIe. badhuM ja dhyAna, chokarAonuM dhyAna rAkhavuM joIe, vAIphanuM dhyAna rAkhavuM joIe, DolaranuM dhyAna rAkhavuM joIe. ApaNo chokaro sAro che, paNa to ya nAtha to eka nAnI amathI ApaNI pAse rAkhavI. praznakartA : nAtha ? dAdAzrI : nAtha, lagAma. bahu jenTalamena che, paNa ene bolatAM zuM zIkhyo hoya ane koI vakhata ciDAya tyAre zuM bolI jAya, te e bolI jAya. jo ApaNane mahIM pacI jatuM hoya to vAMdho nathI. enA badhA bola pacatA hoya, to vAMdho nathI, paNa nahIM pace. jJAna che to ya nahIM pacatA. to pachI jJAna nA hoya to zuM pace ? eTale pelA DaoNkaTara kahe che, mane ya evuM karI Apo, mArA chokarA joDe. meM kahyuM, karI ApIzuM. chokarAM joDe niveDo to Avavo joIe ne ! e chokaro to DAhyo thaze, jo tame ene kaMTrolamAM rAkhazo to. badhI rItanAM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra kaMTrola nahIM. bIjuM nahIM. e ane enAM vAIpha vinayamAM rahetA hoya to eno kazo vAMdho nahIM. paNa amuka enA magajathI ja rAja calAve badhuM. ane ApaNe enAM prajA thaI jaIe. praznakartA : te nahIM cAle. dAdAzrI : te na thavuM joIe. mahAparANe parasevA pADI pADIne kamAyA. te pAchaLanI jIMdagI du:khI karavA mATe nahIM karyA. amArI jIMdagI duHkhI thAya to amAro AtmA jato rahe. ame to AtmA mATe AvyA chIe. 238 praznakartA : paNa du:khI thAya to AtmA jato rahyo ? dAdAzrI : du:khI thAya to mahIM bagaDI jAya pachI. ApaNA kAna kharI jAya evuM bole. pachI enI vahu Avaze ne ! eTale pachI kaheze, tamArAmAM sensa nathI barobara, to te AbarU rAkha. te phajeto nA thavA dejo ! cetI jAva A. A vyavahAra che. kharekhara rIyalI vastu nathI, A rIleTiva vastu che. praznakartA : paNa dAdAjI tyAre paNa ApaNe jJAnamAM, jAgRtimAM rahIe to suMdara ne ! dAdAzrI : rahevAya to bahu sAruM. ulaTuM AvuM jo male ne tyAre sAruM kahevAya. paNa mahIM sahana nA thAya to pachI UMdhuM thAya. tamAruM to eTaluM badhuM sahana karavAnI zakti nA pahoMce te vakhate. vIla karavuM vyavahArathI; pachI jIvata jIvAze pyArathI ! A to bApa ekanA eka chokarAne kaheze, 'mane tArA vagara gamatuM nathI, bAbA. tAruM ja che ne bA, badhuM tAruM ja che ne !' mera cakkara, tArI zI dazA thaze ?! enuM hoya to ahIM zuM levAdevA ? eTale pachI e jANe 'mArAM bApAnuM e mAruM ja che ne, A to ?" hove, A tAruM che ! vahu Ave te ghaDIe amArI dazA ja besADe ne tuM to ?! mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra A to ekano eka chokaro che, te vahIvaTa karavA mAMDyo, moTalano e badho. to A bhaI, enA phAdhara mane kahe che, badho vahIvaTa have saMbhALI le che e. meM kahyuM, nA soMpAya vahIvaTa. ane vahIvaTa soMpI daIe to zuM thAya ? e to jANe ke mArI ja che milkata A to. ane ApaNe ya ghaNAM vakhata bhoLA bhAvamAM bolI jaIe ke bhaI, bIjuM koNa vAparavAnuM che, tAre ja vAparavAnuM che ne. eTale jhAlI paDe. 239 eTale pachI meM kahyuM, chokarAne pUchyuM ke A moTalano tuM vahIvaTa karuM chuM te moTala tane soMpavAnI che ? tyAre kahe, mArI ja che emAM zuM soMpavAnuM che ?! meM kahyuM, tArI zI rIte ? lAva kAgaLa. lAva tArI pAse che kazuM ? A to pappAnI pAse che. pachI kahe che ke, huM emano chokarone, ekano eka ja chuM. meM kahyuM, nA cAle. e to tArA pappA kAle bIjA meM koIne ApI de. emanI jAtanI kamANI che. A dAdAnI kamANI nahIM ke tuM dAvo mAMDIne laI zake. pachI chokarAne meM kahyuM, 'ahIM tAre zuM levAdevA che ahIM ?! A to phAdharanuM che, huM jANuM chuM ane A badhAM ya jANe che. cUpa thaI gayo. paheluM to A ema ja jANato hato ke A badhuM mAruM. tane bhaNAvAnobaNAvAno adhikAra emane hato, ema karIne utArI pADyo jarA. have kaMTrolamAM raheze. peluM to rahetA haze ke ! tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : kaMIka nA joIe badhuM ? ane chokarAne kahyuM, tane zuM hakka che bIjo ahIM ? A to tane pesavA de che eTale sArA mANasa che. tyAre kahe, hA, sArA mANasa che. tyAre meM kahyuM, tane moTela soMpe, to tArI pAse DAuna che paisA ? tyAre kahe, nathI. eTale TADho paDyo. tyAra pachI mane kahe che, to paNa A vahIvaTa to huM karuM chuM emAM to vAMdho zo che ? tyAre meM kahyuM, nA, te vAMdho nahIM, tuM tArA nAme ja karI le A moTela. tyAre kahe, huM paisA kaMIthI lAvuM ? meM kahyuM, paisA to tuM vyAje lAvaje. InTaresTa Apaje. tyAre kahe, keTaluM vyAja ? meM kahyuM, bAra TakA. tyAre kahe, kAle vicAra karIne kahIza. to pachI koIne pUchI Avyo haze ke sAta Take hA pADe to mAnaje. to kahe, sAta TakA. meM kahyuM, sAta TakA

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280 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra Apaje. meM kahyuM, ene karAra karI Apo A. tamArI badhI soMpI do moTelo-boTelo. have dhaMdhAmAM hamaNe be varSa pachI e jyAM sudhI bhaNe che. tyAM sudhI be varSa che te pa000 Dolara kAma karyA badalanAM dara sAla ene ApavAnA. be sAla dasa hajAra ApI devAnAM ane dhaMdhAnuM egrImenTa AjathI kare. te be varSa pachI A moTelano dhaMdho tane soMpavAmAM Avaze. ane ATalI kiMmatathI ATalA DolarathI soMpavAmAM Ave che ane tenuM dara sAla ATalA tAre bharavAM Amane ane InTaresTa paMdara TakA bahAra cAle che tene badale sAta TakA e eksepTa kare che. praznakartA : A phAdhara ne chokarAnAM rIlezanamAM A badhuM kema ? dAdAzrI : e vyavahArane khAtara. pachI jyAre aDacaNa paDe to madada kare pAchA phAdhara. phAdhara to kharAM ne ! paNa vyavahArathI to karavuM paDe ne, vyavahAra to sarakArI kAyadA badhA. basa, barAbara che ? karekTa che egrImenTa ? sAta TakA InTaresTa barAbara che ke paMdara TakA joIe ? praznakartA : gharavALA che eTale sAta TakA barAbara che. dAdAzrI : barAbara che, yu Ara rAITa. hA, gharanAM mANasonI pAse vadhAre levAya nahIM. barAbara che rUpiyo hoya to pAMsaro nA thAya, evo mANasano svabhAva. hAthamAM Dolara khalAsa thAya to pAMsaro thaI jAya, e tyAM sudhI nA thAya, evo manuSyano svabhAva. eTale ame to badhI lagAma hAthamAM rAkhIe. e vyavahAra evo che ke AvI rIte lagAma pakaDavI ke jethI e ghoDo duHkhI nA thAya, pakaDanAra duHkhI nA thAya. vyavahArane vyavahAra kahevo joIe. vyavahAra aNIzuddha hovo joIe. vyavahAramAM matabheda nA thAya, ciMtA nA thAya, duHkha nA thAya koIne, evI rIte vyavahAra hovo joIe. tane paNa duHkha nA thavuM joIe. tuM chokaro che ne ! have paiNIne Avyo te tArI vAIphane paNa duHkhuM nA thAya evuM hovuM joIe. jema beMkomAM goThavaNI karavAmAM Ave che, A rUpiyA gaNavAno adhikAra che, ghera laI javAno adhikAra nathI. evuM vyavahAramAM goThavaNI karavAnI che badhI. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 281 e jANe ke A to badhuM ApaNuM ja che. eTale meM kahyuM, egrImenTa karI lo. karAra sAthe karI lo. ane chokarAnI pAse vyAja ochuM le e to bahu sAruM kahevAya ne ! praznakartA : hA, hA. dAdAzrI : Ama sArA, ahIM janmelA ne ! eTale Ama hRdaya sArA hoya che A paisAnI bAbatamAM ane ApaNe tyAM InDIyAmAM coMTI paDe, zAno mArI pAse karAra maMgAvo cho ? A to mArI milakata che, evuM kahe mUo. ApaNe to ema kahIe ne ke bhaI A mArA phAdhare ApyuM e tane ApIza. bAkI badhuM jUduM, mAruM ja che. vAraso jeTalo phAdhare Apelo hoya eTalo ja hoya, kAyadesarano. tamAruM kamAyeluM e chokarAnuM nA hoya. e tamArI marajI para vIla (vasiyatanAmuM). eTale kAyadesaranuM korTamAM e na karI zake. phAdharanuM ApaNe lIdhuM hoya eTale ApaNe ApavuM joIe. nahIM to caDhI bese ne pachI ApaNI jiMdagI khalAsa karI nAkhe. pachI manamAM thAya ke jiMdagI A jIve che ne, kUtarA jevuM jIvana gALe che. evuM apamAnita jIvana kaMI sAruM kahevAya ! e ApaNane bApa thatAM nA AvaDyuM tenI ja bhAMjagaDa ne ! praznakartA : hAsto, hAsto. dAdAzrI : have e to kAle have paiNAvI daIe, to pelA enA gurU mahArAja Ave to ApaNuM kalyANa thaI jAya ! ApavuM che ene ja, manamAM ApaNe samajI rAkhavAnuM. paNa gurU mahArAjane laIne ApaNe mUrkha banIe evuM nA thavuM joIe. kUMcI ApaNI pAse rAkhavI. praznakartA : hA, rAkhavI paDe. dAdAzrI : kUMcI rAkhavAnI, prema badho rAkhavAno, badhuM rAkhavAnuM paNa vyavahAra karavo. evo kaMTrolamAM laIe ke vahunuM mAne ja nahIM. e jANe ke vahanuM mAnIza to A mAre ahIMthI A jagyA khAlI karavI paDaze. e bhayanuM mAthuM jagata rahe che. praznakartA : hA, bhayanuM ja che, barAbara che. badhe bhaya ja che. dAdAzrI : hA, bhayanuM. bhaya chUTyo ke A kharAba thaI jAya. eTale

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282 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 283 meM kahyuM, A chokaro phajeto karaze, tyAM sudhI tame karAra karI lo. tamAre to AvuM egrImenTa pepara lAvIne A pramANe ene lakhI levAnuM. e ene sAyakolojIkala IphekTa rahyA kare. emanuM to kAma thaI gayuM. enuM egrImenTa thaze, tAruM egrImenTa thaze. eTale gharamAM jhaghaDA nahIM thAya have. pachI kahyuM, paccIsa hajAra DaoNlara mAMgavA Ave. te bhaI mArI pAse nathI, ko'ka mArA mitra pAsethI laI ApuM, ema karIne ApavA tamAre. ane vyAja-vyAja badhuM letA javuM ane mitrane ApI de have, kahIe. evuM DIliMga rAkhavuM badhuM. saMsAramAM ya vyavahAra samajavo joIe ke nA samajavo joIe ? praznakartA : samajavo joIe. dAdAzrI : vyavahAra nA samajelAM te badhAM guMcAI gayelAM. pachI che te eka phero phasAya, pachI vaLe nahIM. kakaLATa karanAro je machavAvALo hoya. be-traNa machavAvALA UbhA hoya, koI paNa jato hoya to eka jaNa kahe che, alyA mUA, e kakaLATiyA che enAmAM nA jaIza, hamaNe thoDI vAra pachI AnAmAM jA. to ya pelAmAM besI jaIe ane pachI A heTha sudhI, nadI oLaMgatA sudhI kakaLATa karyA kare e sahana karavuM paDe ne ! praznakartA : karavuM paDe. dAdAzrI : eTale vyavahAra samajIne karavAno che nahIM to phasAmaNa. polIsavALA joDe bole ke ? polIsavALA joDe kema sAmA nathI thatAM, eno svabhAva che to ya ? tyAM kema nahIM kahetA, mAro svabhAva vAMko che ? nA, e joIe ja vacce, parama vinaya joIe ja. jyAM juo tyAM. bApA joDe ya parama vinaya to joIe ne ! parama vinaya nahIM hoya to badhuM dhULadhANI thaI jAya ! te ghareNAM vecIne ApyA. have chokaro kahe che, mArI joDe raho ahIM. te amane bannene amerikA bolAvI dIdhA. have amane kahe che, A moTalamAM kAma karo ane tamAro pArTa rAkhIza. alyA, amAre pArTa zuM karavo che. A ? tyAre kahe, kAma karo to tamAro pArTa rAkhIza. e chokaro atyAre rAkhe che kharo, paNa e kahe che ke "pagAra jeTaluM pAMcaso Dolara mahine Ape, kAma karo." ane amAre vAparavA kahe, mane pAMca-dasa Dolara nA joIe ? paNa kazuM Apato nathI ane A dasa varSathI kUtarA jevuM jIvana jIvIe chIe beu jaNa chokarAnI pAse. tyAre meM kahyuM, baMgalo vecIne zuM karavA ApyA ? koNe kahyuM hatuM tamane ? baMgalo vecIne ApyA muA! e to ghoDuM ApIne gadheDo banAvyo ? have amane nokarI karAve che. paNa pagAra nahIM Apato. amAre kazuM joItuM hoya, dharmAdAmAM so-baso Dolara vAparavA hoya te ya nathI Apato. tyAre meM kahyuM, A lagAma choDyA pachI bUmo pADo cho ? praznakartA : hA, barAbara. dAdAzrI : tamane nA gamyuM, nahIM ?! praznakartA : barAbara. gamyuM. dora TAITa rAkhavAnI, lagAma. dAdAzrI : e TAITa nahIM. ene vyavahAra kahevAya che. evo ja vyavahAra. paNa polIsavALAnI sAthe eTalI badhI phrenDazIpa nahIM karI nAkhavI ke pelo game tema TaiDakAve. e kevuM kharAba lAge, jo soMpI dIdhuM, badhuM ApI dIdhuM. ane A to hArTa vagaranAM chokarAM, satyAnAza vALI de ApaNuM to. hoya chokarA potAnA, chatAM prema rAkhavAno. paNa aMdarakhAne e nA samajI jAya ke Amane AvuM che. vepArI sisTama e samajavA jevI. praznakartA : ATalI badhI InDipenDansa kema AvI jAya, bahAra rahevA Ave che, paradeza rahevA Ave tyAre ? dAdAzrI : lokonuM joIne. A phorenanA chokarAne emanA mA-bApa pahelethI kahe ke tAre chUTuM rahevAya. have emanuM ApaNA zIkhe to kyAre pAra Ave ? ane te thAya evuM. eka zabda ya avinaya bolato na hoya, milakata vecI dIkarAne dhaMdhe lagADayo; haDadhUta jIvana bApatuM re bhava bagADayo ! eka bApA to mane kahevA lAgyA, meM amArA chokarAne dhaMdho karavA mATe paisA ApyA, amadAvAdamAM baMgalo hato te vecIne, enI mAnAM che

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284 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 285 avinaya vartane nA hoya. A to evuM bole ke ApaNA mAthAnA vALa kharI jAya. eTale pachI ApaNe jatuM rahevuM paDe. bhale ema ne ema roTalA koIkanAM khaIzuM, paNa A nA hoya. phasAI gayA e phasAI gayA. ApI dIdhuM e ApI dIdhuM, have pAchuM maLe ja nahIM ne ! pelAM kAkA Ave che ne. praznakartA : hA, e tyAM vAta karatAM hatAM. dAdAzrI : are, eTalI muzkelImAM ke na pUcho vAta. eka kAgaLa lakhIne Apyo hato. e vidhi karI ApI te rAge paDaze have. praznakartA nA, eTale samajAvato hato ghaNI vakhata ke kazuM ApI nA devuM. dAdAzrI : nahIM, ApaNe ja bagADyuM. sAmA khoTAM nathI hotA, ApaNe chUTa ApIe... praznakartA : hA. ane pachI ApaNA para caDhI bese che. dAdAzrI : have chokarAno ya guno hoto. chokarAno kaMI IrAdo nhoto evo. paNa evA saMjogomAM chokaro guMcavAyelo che ke evA lobhamAM ke A capaTI hoya te ya pAchuM bIjuM nAkhIne dhaMdho AgaLa vadhAra vadhAra kare, te paNa ApaNA gharanA mA-bApane joItuM hoya eTaluM to. ApavuM paDe ! paNa chokaro nhoto Apato. chokarA kaMI gunegAra nathI hotA paNa e chokarAnuM enA svabhAva para jato rahe ne ! te pachI enI ya vidhi karI ApI. te chokarAne bolAvIne rAge pADyuM. thoDuM-ghaNuM rAge paDyuM che. dhIme dhIme paDI jAya. AvuM nA hovuM joIe. bicArA, kevA bicArA baMgalo-jaNaso vecIne ApI dIdhuM badhuM ! Apyo che, gADuM cAle che. bahu bhADuM AvatuM nathI. paNa A doDhaso che te enA uparathI calAvIe chIe. Akho dahADo kakaLATa karIne mane herAna, herAna karI nAkhe che. dAdA, huM zuM karuM ? A ekano eka chokaro che have ! Ama pajavIne tela kADhI nAkhe che. te mane kahI dIdhuM sAruM thayuM. pachI pelA bhAIne bolAvyo. alyA mUA, kamAto nathI ne uparathI pAchuM zirajorI karuM chuM ! zirajorI AjathI baMdha karI de. akSare bolIza ? tyAre kahe, nahIM boluM. atyArathI baMdha. pachI baIne pUchayuM, nA akSare bolato nathI. mAre tyAM to badhA polIsa DipArTamenTa, badhA DipArTamenTa che. ekaluM sivila ekaluM nA hoya. sivila cAle nahIM ekaluM. sivila ekaluM cAlatuM haze !? praznakartA : nA cAle. dAdAzrI : ApaNe tyAM to polIsa DipArTamenTa. eTale badhA UMdhA cattA karIne Ave te badhAne. praznakartA : ApaNe chokarAne bhaNavA mATe mUkyo hoya ane tyAM e khoTI rIte paisA vAparato hoya, dhyAna nA rAkhe nApAsa thAya, to ApaNe vyavasthita ja samajavAnuM ? ke pachI kaMI karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : kaMI karavAnuM. vyavasthita nahIM samajavAnuM, karavAnuM. praznakartA : eTale ApaNe kahIe chIe ne ke badhuM vyavasthita che, eTale e mAnI levAnuM ? dAdAzrI : evuM kahevAya nahIM ne ! praznakartA : zuM karavAnuM tyAre tyAM ? dAdAzrI : vyavasthita eTale AMkho mIMcIne cAlavuM enuM nAma vyavasthita nahIM. UghADI AMkhe cAlo ane sAvadhAnIpUrvaka cAlavAnuM. pachI athaDAya e vyavasthita. vyavasthitano artha samajo. UghADI AMkhe cAlo ane sAvadhAnIpUrvaka cAlo. praznakartA : eTale tyAM AgaLa chokarA joDe zuM pagalAM levAM ? UghADI AMkhe sAvadhAnIpUrvaka calAya; pachI athaDAya to vyavasthita mahAya ! eka baI AvIne kahe che ke A chokaro mane eTalI badhI gALo de che, kazuM kamAto to che nahIM, nokarI jatI rahI che. huM jAte cAra kalAka jaIne doDhaso Dolara laI AvuM chuM. makAna gharanuM che. thoDo bhAga bhADe

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286 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : ene samajAvAnAM. bIjuM mArAmAra karavAnuM hoya ja nahIM ne ! bApa bhaNAve dIkaro UDAve; zANo to vyAja sAthe UdharAve ! praznakartA : dAdA, meM to ene kIdhuM mArA dIkarAne ke, A kolejamAM bhaNavA jAya, pacAsa hajAra DaoNlara kharca thAya. ekeeka paiso lona tarIke ApavAno ane ekaeka paInuM InTaresTa sAthe. mArI IcchA thAya ke tuM sArI rIte ucharyo ane e ApavuM hoya to mArI marajI. dAdAzrI : hA, hA. barAbara che. vAta badhI vepArInI karI. praznakartA : kAraNake nahitara zuM kahe che, A badhuM mAruM ja che. meM kahyuM, huM... evuM mAnI nA besato. mArI pharaja che ke tuM taiyAra thAya basa. tuM mArA karatAM dasa gaNuM meLavaje, paNa ApuM nahIM. dAdAzrI : eTale ApaNe tyAM mukhya kahevata che ke ucharatA yuvAnane svataMtratA ApavI e svataMtratA satyAnAza vALe che. meM badhI jagyAe joyuM che, A kaMI jJAnIo nathI ke jemane svataMtratA apAya. A to ajJAnI. juone, paNa A chokaro bApane mArI nAkhe che bicArAne. raDatA hatA kAle bicArAM. AvuM badhuM tyAM cAle che. eTale huM jANuM ne badhuM. A AkhuM jagata badhuM saDI gayuM che. bahu moha rAkhIe ne mAro dIkaro, mAro dIkaro karIne A soMpe badhuM. A badhuM tAruM ja che ne, tAruM ja. eTale pelAne sAyakolojIkala IphekTa thaI jAya. praznakartA : mAruM ane mArA dIkarAnuM khAtuM eka kholeluM beMkamAM bhezuM, karanTa. kAraNake e dUra rahe ne sAnaphrAnsisko. eTale kaMI jarUra paDe. eTale eka varSa TrAya karyo. meM kahyuM, have bahu thaI gayuM. kAraNake pachI chUTa thaI gaI ne. eTale badhA kharca jasTIphAya kare ke A jarUra hatI. eTale huM jouM ke A huM ahIMyAthI pAMca senTa mATe kaMI AMTo mArato houM ane pelo tyAM beTho beTho enA phrenDane Teliphona karIne paccIsa DaoNlara UDADI mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mArato hoya. eTale meM kahyuM ke A nahIM. dAdAzrI : evuM che AvuM karIe tyAre e sudhare. ene potAne pachI bhaviSyamAM ema lAge ke ohoho, mArA phAdhare mane sAro banAvyo. sAruM ghaDatara ghaDyuM ema lAge. nahIM to pachI vAIphano badho kaMTrola. kAraNake A chokarAone pachI khyAla ja nahi ne, bicArAMne anubhava ja nahIM. moTA moTA khovAI jAya che to ?! gAdI mATe bAdazAho mAratAM bApate; dUdha pAIne ucheryA dharatAM sApane ! 287 A rasto jIvana jIvavAno, jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA. nahIM to bApa thaIne 2kama Apazo badhI, te e 2kama khalAsa karIne pachI kaheze, tamAre bIjI rakama ApavI paDaze. alyA, mArI jAta kamANI che A. tyAre kahe, jAta kamANI che mATe zuM thaI gayuM ? nahIM Apo to charo dekhADIza, kAraNa ke ghaNAM kharA bAdazAhone chokarAoe mArI nAkhelA, dilhImAM. sAMbhaLeluM tame ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : zA mATe mArI nAkhe ? gAdI levA mATe ! mUo, A bUDho kyAM sudhI jIvaze have ? A bUDho jIvaze to ApaNI gAdI hAthamAM Avaze nahIM. moDI gAdI Ave to kAmanI zI ? atyAre javAnImAM nA AvI to ! ema karIne bApAne khalAsa karI nAkhelAM ! gammata che A to. vAta mahIM gamatI hoya to levI. ApaNane nA gamatI hoya to rahevA devuM. paTelanuM ghara che, nA gamatuM ahIM paDI raheze to pUMjo vALavAmAM kADhI nAkhaze e loko. vAta thoDI gamI AmAMthI ? praznakartA : barAbara che ! bilakula sAcI vAta che. dAdAzrI : A vAta mAre kahevAmAM mAro keTalo svArtha haze ? praznakartA : kazo ja nahIM.

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288 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 289 gharamAM vAparyA te jarUrI gaNAya; UMcuM kayAre ? pArakAM mATe vaparAya ! mAge paiThaNa, ApavI ke nahIM? saMjoga pramANe karavI sahI ! praznakartA : mArI pAse atyAre je ghara che. have huM ephorDa karI zakuM ema chuM. chokarAo nAnAM che ane jo moTuM ghara hoya, eka ekaranA ploTa upara, to chokarAone vadhAre majA Ave. ane huM e dhyAnamAM rAkhIne moTA gharamAM paisA rokuM. dAdAzrI : to vAMdho nahIM, vAMdho nahIM. praznakartA : to enA e gaTaramAM gayA kahevAya ke ? dAdAzrI : nA, nA. e gaTaramAM nA kahevAya. paNa gaTaramAM gayA kyAre kahevAya ke e pramANe pelI bAju che te sArA mArge jato nA hoya to gaTaramAM gayA kahevAya. pramANa sAcavavuM joIe. ApaNI pAse paMdara lAkha hoya to paMdara lAkhe AmAM ne AmAM badhuM chokarAone khuza karavA ghAlyA. paMdara lAkhamAMthI pAMca-sAta lAkha pelI bAju jAya ane pAMca-sAta lAkha A bAju rahe, to vAMdho nahIM. paNa pelI bAju pelAmAM javuM joIe. pelI nahera ja korI hoya pachI dhULa UDatI hoya e zuM kAmanuM ?! sUkI nahera tyAM AgaLa mokalo e ja tamAruM, bAkI A badhuM ya gaTaramAM gayuM. praznakartA : koI choDI mATe khUba paiThaNa mAge to ApavuM ke nA ApavuM ? dAdAzrI : evuM sonuM hoya to ApavuM joIe. pyaoNra golDa hoya to ApavAmAM zuM vAMdho ?! pittaLa lAvavuM tenA karatAM pyaoNra golDa hoya to ApavAM. praznakartA : meM to siddhAMta karyo che ke ApavuM nahIM. dAdaro utArI dauM. dAdAzrI : e to paNa bIjo maLI Ave tyAre ne paNa ! praznakartA : bIjo to maLe. enA vagara cAle. dAdAzrI : maLI Ave. paNa ApaNA manamAM moha hoya to pUro karavo. paNa tane moha che ne evo ?! praznakartA : dAdA, paNa chokarIone ApavuM evo bhAva sAro ? ApaNI potAnI chokarIo hoya ane vyavahAra pramANe kaMI hoya e ApavuM evo bhAva sAro ? dAdAzrI : vyavahAra pramANe nahi, paNa ApaNuM hoya e ApavuM joIe. AjanA yuvAno ta rAkhe Aza; jAta kamAI para AdhAra khAsa ! dArajamAIthI bhAre phasAmaNa; ta kahevAya-sahevAya athaDAmaNa ! AmaNe emanA chokarAne kahyuM ke, badhI milakata ene ApavAnI che. tyAre e kahe che ke, tamArI milakatanI meM AzA rAkhI nathI. e tamane jyAM yujha karavI hoya tyAM karajo. pachI to kudaratanuM nirmANa e judI vastu che. paNa nizcaya Avo eno abhiprAya ApI dIdho che ne ! eTale thaI gayo sarTiphAIDa ane moja-zokha kazuM rahyuM nathI have. bhaI, tamane vAta gamI A ? praznakartA : hA. paNa amAre to chokarA nathI. chokaro nathI eTale gharajamAI lAvavAnAM che. dAdAzrI : chokaro to sAro. ene vaDhAya ya kharo ane A jamAIne

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290 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra zuM kahIe ? bolAya nahi ne mAra khAvo paDe. te jamAInI joDe bahu cetIne cAlavuM. baMgaDI-baMgaDIo, achoDo-achoDo damabhera karI Alo. 'le bA. tamArA hAruM rAkhI melI che.' paNa ApavAnuM nahi jarA ya. tamArA hAru rAkhI melI che bA, kahIe. amAre vecavAnuM nahi.

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292 mA-bApa chokarAnA vyavahAra (1ra) mohatA mArathI maryA avaMtIvAra ! ta thAya dIkaro kadi sago; deha paNa aMte de che dago! praznakartA : nathI thato. dAdAzrI : rAta-dahADo braza mArIe chIe to ya kADho duHkhe che ne pAchI, rAtre UMghavA nA de. eTale deha to dago che ApaNo. have A deha che eTale AgaLano Dakho Ubho thayo che. tyAM sudhI mANasa zI rIte sukhI hoya ? praznakartA: jIvana che to jIvavA mATeno dhyeya to hovo joIe ne? dAdAzrI : dhyeya hovo joIe. zuM dhyeya che tamAro ? chokarAM moTAM karIne dukAne besADI devA e dhyeya che ? praznakartA chokarA moTAM thaze, pachI ApaNA raheze ke nahIM e kone khabara ? dAdAzrI : hA, te koI ApaNuM koI kazuM rahetuM haze ? A deha ja ApaNo nathI raheto to ! A deha ja laI le che pachI ApaNI pAsethI. kAraNa ke pArakI cIja ApaNI pAse keTalA dahADA rahe ? e mohane lIdhe to "pappAjI, pappAjI" evuM bAbo bole, eTale pappAjI UMco ne UMco caDhato jAya. ne bAbo "mammI, mammI' kare eTale pelI mammI ya UMce caDhatI jAya. pappAjInI mUcho kheMce to ya pappo bole nahIM. A nAnA chokarAM to badhuM bahu kAma kare. e pappA-mammIno jhaghaDo thayelo hoya ne to e bAbo ja lavAda tarIke nikAla karI Ape. jhaghaDo to haMmezA thavAno ja ne ! strI-puruSane amathI bhAMjagaDa to paDyA ja karavAnIne ! to bAbo kevI rIte nikAla karI Ape ? savAramAM pelAM cA pItA nA hoya, jarA rIsAyA hoya, to pelI baI bAbAne zuM kaheze ? ke jA pappAjIne kahe "mArI mammI cA pIvA bolAve che, pappAjI cAlo.' eTale A chokaro pappAjI pAse jaIne bolyo ke "pappAjI, pappAjI' ke pelo badhuM bhUlI jAya ne tarata cA pIvA Ave. evI rIte badhuM cAlyA kare. "pappAjI" bolyo ke jANe ohoho ! jANe zuM ye maMtra bolyo ! alyA, hamaNe to kaheto hato ke mAre cA nathI pIvI ! are, pappAne ja bAbo jaIne kAlI bhASAmAM kahe ke "pappAjI, cAlo mammI cA pIvA bolAve.' te bApo mahIM evo malakAya, evo dAdAzrI : tame eka kalAka TeDakAvo ne ! nAlAyaka, badamAza, cora loko, emane vaDho to ? eka kalAka mArI to juo ! mArIe to zuM kahe ? praznakartA : ThapakArIe to sAmA thAya. dAdAzrI : sAmA thAya to mAravA pharI vaLe. to e tamArA chokarA kema kahevAya ? chokarA to enuM nAma ke mArI mArIne e karI nAkhIe, to ya kaheze, bApujI, tame bApujI je karo e. tamAruM ja che A badhuM. enuM nAma chokarAM. evAM che ? praznakartA : nathI. rAma-sItAnAM vakhatamAM haze. dAdAzrI : rAmanA vakhatamAM ya nahotA. A deha potAno nathI to A chokarA zI rIte potAnAM thAya ? A deha, potAno deha potAno thAya

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 293 294 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra malakAya, jANe sAMDha malakAyo ! eka to bALabhASA, kAlIbhASA, temAM ya pappAjI kahe eTale tyAM to moTo pradhAna hoya to ya temano hisAba nahIM. A to manamAM zuM ya mAnI beTho che ke mArA sivAya koI pappo ja nathI. mera gAMDiyA ! A kUtarAM, gadheDAM, bilADAM naryA pappA ja che ne ? koNa pappA nathI ? A badho kakaLATa eno e ja che ne ? samajIne pappA nA thAya evuM kaMI caritra koInuM udayamAM Ave to enAM to vadhAmaNAM ja levAM paDe. bAkI badhA pappA ja thAya che ne ? bose ophisamAM TaiDakAvyo hoya ne ghera bAbo "pappA, pappA" kare. eTale te ghaDIe badhuM bhUlI jAya ne AnaMda thAya. kAraNa ke A paNa eka prakAranI madirA ja kahevAya che, te badhuM bhUlAvI de che ! traNa kalAka laDhe tyAM phUTe TeTo; ta saMdhAya paDe bApathI chuTo! chokaro kAle kAluM bole to nA samajI jAya ? vakhate pappAne pappI kahyuM to, pappAne rIsa caDhe ? pappAne e kahe, 'tuM pappI chuM, pappI chuM." to ya rasa nA caDhe. e jANe ke A kAluM kAluM bole che, bicAro. koI koIno chokaro thayo nathI varlDamAM. AkhA varlDamAM evo koI chokaro khoLI lAvo ke jenI joDe bApa traNa kalAka laDhe ane chokaro kaheze, "he pUjya pitAzrI, Apa game teTaluM laDho to ya tame ne huM eka ja chIe." evuM bole evo chokaro khoLI lAvazo ? A to aDadho kalAka TesTamAM lIdho hoya tyAra pahelAM to phUTI jAya. A baMdukIyo TeTo phUTatAM vAra lAge, paNa A tarata phUTI jAya. jarA vaDhavA mAMDIe te pahelAM phUTI jAya ke nA phUTI jAya ? zAnA kaho cho amane ? tyAre kahe che, sahI karatI vakhate, bApa chokarAne zuM kahe ? alyA, 'pa" lakha 'pa'. pappAno "pa" eTale lokoe pappA nAma pADI dIdhuM. patra lakhavAno ne, te sahI karatI vakhate 'pa" lakhAvyo hoya to pappAno "pa" lakha kahe che. te 'pappA' loka kahetAM hatA, mazkarI karatA hatAM. have pappA kahe che, eTale khuza thaI jAya che ! have, A je sukho lo cho ne e badhAM, to lona upara lo cho, te pAchAM rIpe (Repay) karavAM paDaze. mATe cetIne cAlajo, lona upara lIdhelAM sukha badhAM rIpe karavAM paDaze A. A vAIphanI pAsethI, chokarA pAsethI sukha laI lauM chuM ne, lona upara lauM chuM e rIpe karavAM paDaze. jeTaluM rIpe karavAnI ApaNI zakti hoya eTaluM lona upara lejo ane pachI sahana nahIM thAya. praznakartA : saMsAra bhogavavAmAM sukha cAkhyuM, to e pachI enuM du:kha kaI jAtanuM AvavAnuM che ? dAdAzrI : e lona to evI bhAre paDaze, te maravAnA vicAra Avaze ke A kyAM jaIne maravuM ! haju to AnI lona rIpe karavAnuM Avazene tyAre khabara paDaze. haju to kAgaLa nathI Avyo rIpe karavAno, mATe samajIne lona le A. lona lauM ne to rIpe karavI paDaze, evuM samajIne le. A jeTalAM sukha, saMsArI sukho che ne, e badhAM rIpe karavAM paDaze. praznakartA : mArA mA-bApe saMsAra sukha bhogavyuM ane mane pedA karyo, te e to hajI sukhI ja che. e sukha bhogave ja che. emane duHkha AvatuM nathI kaMI. dAdAzrI : e to sukhI lAge tane. moMDhA upara ApaNe kahIene, koI bahu duHkhIyo hoya, enA moMDhA upara kahIe, 'bahu du:khIyo che." tyAre kahe "tAro bApa duHkhIyo mUA' ane Ama raDato hoya. mArI pAse badhA bahu raDe che bicArAM, paNa moMDhe nA kahe, moMDhe to badhAnI AbarU jAya. chokarAM pratye che uchItuM sukha; rI-pe karavAtAM bhogavIte du:khI loka ApaNane ema ja kahe che, A pappA cAlyA. alyA, pappA

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra zA mATe pappA kahe che ? ema karIne bhADAnA pappA kahe che e to ! sAcA pappA nahIM. bhADAnA eka vakhata pappA kahyA badalanAM vIsa DaoNlara leze !! chokaro 'pappAjI, pappAjI' kare to te kaDavuM lAgavuM joIe. jo mIThuM lAgyuM to ene uchInuM sukha lIdhuM kahevAya. e pachI duHkharUpe pAchuM ApavuM paDaze. chokaro moTo thaze, tyAre tamane kaheze ke, "tame akkala vagaranA cho.' tyAre thAya ke Ama kema ? te peluM tame uchInuM lIdhuM hatuM te pAchuM le che. mATe pahelethI ceto. ame to uchInuM sukha levAno vyavahAra ja mUkI dIdhelo. aho, potAnA AtmAmAM anaMta sukha che ! e mUkIne A bhayaMkara gaMdavADAmAM paDavAnuM ? paga pahoMcatA sudhI chorAM pAMsarAM; pachI batAve bApate bahAvarAM! 295 keDamAM ghAleluM chokaruM hoyane, dariyAmAM jaiene, te paga nIce laMbAvI jue, jo bhoMye aDe nahIMne, tyAM sudhI ApaNane choDe nahIM. ane bhoMye aDyuM to choDI de ApaNane. te dabAvI jue, paga mUkI jue ane paga pahoMce nahIM bhoMya para, eTale ApaNane choDe nahIM. ApaNe kahIe choDa choDa, to ya nA choDe. paNa paga pahoMcyA ke tarata choDI de. eTale A pajhala che badhuM ! moTI uMmarano thAya ane ahaMkAra thAya, tyAra pachI eno paga pahoMce, pachI ropha mAre ne ? paga nA pahoMce tyAM sudhI to mUo TADho Tapa jevo rahe. paNa pahoMcyA eTale ApaNA para ropha mAravAnI taiyArI thAya ! e enA ghATamAM ja hoya. jeTalo moha haze chokarAM mATe; mAra teTalo ja paDe vyAja sAthe! amAre tyAM pADozImAM eka AMdhaLAM DosI ane teno dIkaro rahe. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra DosI Akho dahADo ghara sAcave ne kAma karyA kare. te bhAIne ghera eka divasa tenA sAheba AvyA. A gharanA sAheba ane pelA ophisanA sAheba ! baMne ghera AvyA. te bhAIsAhebane thayuM ke mArI AMdhaLI mAne mAro sAheba joze, to mArI AbarU jaze. te mUo sAhebanI sAme potAnI mAne kahe ke AMdhaLI UThane, mArA sAheba AvyA che ! mUAe mAne lAta mArIne sAheba pAse potAnI AbarU DhAMkI ! moTo sAheba nA joyo hoya to ! A mUo AbarUno kothaLo ! 'mA'nI AbarU sAcavavAnI hoya ke sAhebanI ? 296 ApaNe kalakattAthI AvatAM sArI kerI dIThI hoya, ne tyAM majUra nA maLe, karaMDiyA nA maLe, to ya sAcavIne ahIM lAvIe. ane ahIM lAvyA pachI kerIo khAIe ane khAI lIdhA pachI goTalA ne chotarAM nAkhI daIe. alyA, ATalI mahenata karyA pachI nAkhI dIdhuM ? to kahe ke hA, mAtra rasanuM ja kAma hatuM. ema A mANasone ya goTalA-chotarAM rahe, rasa nA rahe tyAre chokarAM ya lAto mAre ! A kerI zAthI laI AvatA raho cho ? to kahe ke rasa mATe, svAda mATe, A to svArthanuM jagata ! mATe ApaNA mAMhyalA bhagavAna sAcA, ne mokSe gayA to kAma thayuM. nahIM to A to 'UTha AMdhaLI' evuM kahe ! nAnapaNamAM meM najaronajara joyeluM. eka AMdhaLA DosA hatA. e khAtAM hoya tyAre chokarAM emanI thALImAM kAMkarA nAkhI Ave. pelAM kaMTALIne ciDhAya ne bUmo pADe. eTale A chokarAM khuza thaI jAya ne vadhAre kAMkarA nAkhe ! evuM A jagata che ! ane pAchAM AvAM keTalAM avatAra thavAnA che enuM ThekANuM nathI ! mokSano sikko vAgyo hoya to be-traNa avatAramAM ya ThekANuM paDe. paNa evo sikko vAgyo nathI chatAM ya A jagata para lokone keTalo moha che ! naryo mAra khA khA karyo, anaMta avatAra mohano mAra khA khA karyo che ! have hindustAnamAM AvyA pachI ApaNe mohano mAra khAIe to e ApaNane zobhe nahIM. kAraNa ke bahAra hoya tyAM sudhI mohano mAra khAvAno vAMdho nathI.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 297 298 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mohate lIdhe lAge mITho saMsAra; chokarAM vaDhe tyAre lAge asAra! have saMsAra gamato nathI e nakkI thaI gayuM che cokkasa ! praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : e to khAtarI thaI gaI che ? praznakartA : khAtarI thaI gaI che. dAdAzrI : A khAtarI joIe. A Devalapa koma zene kahevAya che ke jenI strIo ema kahe che ke have A saMsAra amane gamato ja nathI. e Devalapa koma kahevAya che. nahIM to strIo to badhI mohI hoya. mArA khAya to ya ene game. paNa A koma Devalapsa zAthI kahevAya che jenI strIo paNa jAgRta thaI gaI ke A, AmAM zuM sukha che baLyuM ! kaDavuM lAge che. are khAruM lAge che ! saMsAranuM pANI badhuM, A saMsAra saMbaMdhInuM pANI khAruM che. to ya loka zuM ke' che, nA mIThuM che. bolo keTalI bhrAMti haze ! bhramaNA keTalI haze ! te eka paiDAM mAjI hatAM, sittera varSanAM bahAra AvIne kakaLATa karavA mAMDyAM. baLyo, A saMsAra khAro dava jevo, mane to A gamato ja nathI. he bhagavAna ! tuM mane laI le. tyAre ko'ka chokaro hato ne te kahe che, mAjI roja kahetAM hatAM, bahu sAro che ne Aja khAro kema thaI gayo ? roja mITho darAkha jevo lAgato hato. ane Aja khAro kema thaI gayo chokarAe pUchayuM, tyAre kahe, baLyo, mArI joDe kakaLATa kare che chokaro ane ghaDapaNamAM paNa kahe che, tuM jatI rahe ahIMthI. hA, baLyo khAro dava jevo ja lAge che ke saMsAra ! chokaro bolyo nahIM tyAM sudhI mITho ane A bolyo eTale pelo moha uDI gayo. eTale dekhAyuM khAruM ne khAruM. bole to moha uDe ne. chokaro pajave eTale mUrchA eTalA pUratI UDI jAya ne saMsAra khAro lAge paNa pharI pAchI mUrchA AvI jAya ne badhuM bhUlI jAya ! ajJAnI to eTa e TAIma jaIne badhuM bhUlI jAya. jyAre 'jJAnI'ne to eTa e TAIma badhuM hAjara rahe. emane to A jagata 'jema che tema' niraMtara dekhAyA ja kare, eTale moha rahe ja kyAMthI ? A to pelAne bhAna nathI, tethI mAra khAya che. baMdhana game che ? kaMTALo Ave che koI vakhata ? A baMdhanamAM kaMTALo Ave che koI vakhata ? praznakartA : kaMTALo ja che. dAdAzrI : kaMTALo che ja. kaMTALo Avato nathI, che ja kaMTALo. tamane nathI lAgato kaMTALo ? thoDo ghaNo lAge che, bahu nahIM ? cA pItI vakhate hauM kaMTALo Ave ? sarasa TesTI cA pIvo to ya kaMTALo Ave ? praznakartA : dara vakhate kaMI evo kaMTALo Avato nathI. AmAM racyApacyA rahIe te vakhate bhUlI javAya. dAdAzrI : AmAM racyApacyA rahIe eTale kaMTALo bhUlI javAya ne ? eTale e to mUrchA kahevAya ne? eka phero kaMTALo AvyA pachI, ApaNe devatAmAM eka phero dajhAyA, pharI pharI bhUlI jaIe ene to mUrchA ja kahevAya. eka phero devatAne aDyA ne dajhAyA. pachI bhUlI jaIe ? A to kAyamano khAro che. chatAM mUrchAne lIdhe mITho lAge che. pachI jyAre gALo bhAMDe, khoTa jAya, ghara baLI jAya tyAre murdA utare. tyAM sudhI mUrchA utare nahIM ne ! te A macchamAM badhAM, mastImAM gadhdhAmastAnImAM rahyA che. gadheDuM enAM manamAM mastAna ! mucchita sukha che A. sAcuM sukha to AvyA pachI jAya ja nahIM. eno aMta ja nA Ave. ene sanAtana sukha kahevAya. praznakartA H e chokarAMno upakAra mAnavo joIe. dAdAzrI : upakAra ja mAnavo joIe ne. tethI A kALamAM upakArI ghera beThAM janmyA che. pahelAM khoLavA javAM paDatAM hatAM bahAra ane upakArI ghera beThAM janmyA che eTale nirAMte chokaro Ape eTaluM laI levuM. ane mahAvIra bhagavAnane ya upakArI maLatA nhotA. Arya dezamAM upakArI maLatA nhotA. te pachI anAryamAM vicaravuM paDyuM, sAITha mAIla

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 299 3CO mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra bIjI be kerIo ApaNI pAse mAMgaze, eTale A AMbA Ucherazone, ucheryA vagara chUTako nathI. AvI paDe te ucheravA to paDe ja. paNa Ajano A mAla che badho. kaLiyugano mAla. vadhAre kamAvAnuM chokarAM mATe? vaDho to pahocADe halakI dhATe! che. ane ApaNe to ghera beThAM upakArI che. chokaro kaheze, amAre moDuMvaheluM thAya to tamAre kacakaca nA karavI. tamAre sUvuM hoya to sUI raho chAnAmAnA. have sUI rahIza kahIe, huM nA jANuM AvuM tevuM, nahIM to mAMData ja nahIM A. mAMDyuM to mAMDyuM kahIe have. A pahelI khabara nA paDe ne ApaNane, te pahelAM to mAMDI daIe ane pachI phasAIe ! praznakartA : nA gamatuM Ave ne AtmAnA upayogamAM ene levAnuM evo artha thayo ? dAdAzrI : nA gamatuM Ave te AtmAnA hitakara ja hoya. e AtmAnuM vITAmIna ja che. bhIMsa AvI ke tarata AtmAmAM rahe ne ? hamaNe koI gALa bhAMDe ne te ghaDIe e saMsAramAM nA rahe potAnA AtmAmAM ja eka thaI jAya. paNa jeNe AtmA jAmyo che tene ! mA-bApatI AzA paiDapaNamAM cAkarI; koNa jANe cAkarI thaze ke bhAkharI? praznakartA : paiDapaNamAM cAkarI koNa kare, to pachI ? dAdAzrI : cAkarInI AzA zuM karavAnI ? bhAkharI nA kare to sArAM che. cAkarInI AzA rAkhavI nahIM. koI mANasa sekaDe pAMca TakA sAruM maLI Ave, bAkI 95 TakA to bhAkharI kare evAM che. eTale tamArI bhAkharI nA kare to uttama, tamArA jevA koI puNyazALI nahIM. mane pAMsaro khAvA dauM to bahu sAruM, suvA dauM to bahu sAruM ! kahIe. sAsuthI kAma nA thatuM hoya, to vahu sAsune zuM kaheze ke tame AvyAM beso. nahIM to sAsune ghaMTIe besADI de. sAsune kahe ke tame daLo eTale vacce nA Avo ane A mA to zuM jANe ke chokaro moTo thAya to mArI cAkarI karaze. te e mUo cAkarI karaze ke bhAkharI karaze e pachI khabara praznakartA : ApaNe mATe to inapha (pUratA) che. paNa ApaNAM chokarAo mATe to kamAvuM joIe ne eTale mATe kamAie chIe. dAdAzrI : barAbara che. chokaro potAno hoya to kamAvuM joIe ane potAnA nA hoya to zA mATe kamAvAnuM ? have potAno che ke nahIM te jovA mATe e paccIsa varSanI hoyane, te eka kalAka sudhI TaiDakAva TaiDakAva karavo. tamAro che ke nahIM te khAtarI thaI jaze. game teno chokaro hoya, paNa eka kalAka jo kahI do joIe ? 'tArAmAM akkala nathI, tuM gadheDo chuM', TesTa lo joIe. e kaheze, "pappA, sAcavIne bolajo, nahIM to mArIza." kharekhara chokarAnI jo nADI joIe ene TesTa upara mUkIe to to sAmo thaI jAya, ke tame koNa ne huM koNa, evuM kahI de ! alyA, tuM mAro chokaro nahIM ?! tyAre kahe, tamane tamArA bApanA chokarA thatAM AvaDatuM nathI, mAruM zuM che ! eka kalAkamAM veravI thaIne rahe e hoya chokarAM. A to badhuM ja ApaNe sAruM rAkhIe to sAruM rahe, nahIM to nA sAruM rahe. ApaNe bagADIe to bagADavA taiyAra ja hoya. tame mAnI beThAM hatAM ke mAro laDako ! hoto haze koInI joDe laDako !? laDakAMvALA AvyAM ! A to badhI bhrAMti ja che ! A to bhrAMtithI samajAya nahIM, ne kaheze ke mAro dIkaro mArA jevo ja che. ohoho, mUA dIkarAvALA AvyA. ThaMDatA AvaDatuM nathI ane moTA dikarAvALA thayA. e sAmo thAya tyAre kahe, 'zuM karuM, sAmo thaI jAya che. gALo bole che." eTale ApaNe zuM levAdevA ? A to ApaNe mAnI beThAM chIe ane levAdevA hoya to ApaNe chaMcheDIe to pahelAM AMbA ucheratA hatAM. e to kerIo ghera AvatI hatI ane AjanA AMbA ucheratAM, chokarArUpI AMbA, te be kerIo emane Ave,

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 301 302 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra zuM kahevAnuM ke bodA rUpiyA hoya che ne, ene kaladAra mAnIe to Asakti thAya ne ! A to badhuM bodA rUpiyA ne bodI vAta !! AmAM majhA nahIM. DhAMkeluM ja sAruM che. jyAM sudhI DhAMkeluM che tyAM sudhI sAruM che. kavarDa joIe ! khabara paDI jAya. chaMcheDIe to 'mArI, tamArI' thaI jAya ane AvaDI AvaDI copaDaze. TesTa kare to khabara paDe ke nahIM ? praznakartA : chokaro paccIsa varSano thAya tyAM sudhI rAha jovAnI, TesTa levA mATe e to bahu leTa kahevAya. aDhAra varSe karI nAkhavAnuM. dAdAzrI : aDhAra varSe kare. paccIsa varSano barAbara jarA vadhAre samajaNo thayo hoya. evuM che ne ke ahaMkAra potAno khaDo thaI gayo, eTale bApa nathI ne beTA nathI. jyAM sudhI ahaMkAra khIlyo nathI tyAM sudhI 'pappAjI pappAjI' karyA kare. ahaMkAra khIlyo ke, AvI jAva, bhaI ! milakata mATe mAre, korTa jAya laI; rIyala nahi, A to rIleTIva sagAI! kaladAra mAnIe to thAya Asakti; TesTIMge bodA, mATe kara 'sva'nI bhaktiA praznakartA : chokarAnI upara lAgaNI che. dAdAzrI : hoya, chokaro sAmo thAya to lAgaNI hamaNe thAya ?! chokaro bApane kahe, 'yu Ara nAlAyaka, anUphITa mena.' to pachI lAgaNI thAya ? praznakartA : to ya thAya. dAdAzrI : nA, nA, nA. e to eka kalAka ja vaDhavAnI jarUra che. TesTeDa. kaladAra che ke nahIM te ! bodo che ke kaladAra, tarata khabara paDI jAya. lAgaNI to kaladAra hoya to rAkhavA jevuM. e rUpiyo khakhaDAvatAM pahelAM ja bodo che ke kema mAlama paDI jAya ? te khabara paDI jAya ke potAnAM che ke pArakAM che ! tame khakhaDAvI joyelo rUpiyo ? pachI tame samajI gayAM ke khakhaDAvAmAM mAla nathI have, nahIM ? chokarA kaladAra che ke bodA, e khakhaDAvyA vagara zI rIte khabara paDe ? evuM khakhaDAvyA sivAya chokaro zuM kAmano ? ane bairIne ya khakhaDAvene eka kalAka to khabara paDI jAya ke kaladAra che ke baherI(bodI) che. mATe ApaNuM potAnuM che ke nahIM te khakhaDAvIe eTale khabara paDI jAya. eka vakhata khakhaDAvIne joI laIe, pachI beu bhegAM rahone ! mAruM bApane dIkarA joDe matabheda paDe, to beu korTamAM koI dahADo jAya kharAM ? bahu matabheda bhAre paDI gayo hoya to korTamAM jAya ne ? praznakartA : ghaNAM jAya che. dAdAzrI : hA, bolo have, A kharekhara bApa-dikarA che ke zuM che ? enI karekTanesa jANavI joIe ke nA jANavI joIe ? AvuM gamyuM kyAM sudhI cAlavA devuM ? jo kharekhara bApa-dikaro hoya to eka paNa Avo kesa bane ? eTale A to badhI sAcI sagAIo na hoya. A badhI rIleTiva sagAIo che, ene kyAM sudhI sAcI mAnavI ? kyAM sudhI AvuM gamyuM cAlavA devuM ? ' are ! chokaro to zuM kare, eka chokarAe enA bApane kahyuM ke tame mAro bhAga ApI do, roja roja kacakaca karo cho mane nahIM posAya. to eno bApa kahe che, te mane eTalo badho herAna karyo che ke huM tane kazuM bhAga ja nathI ApavAno. tyAre kahe, 'nA kema Apo ? mArA dAdAnI kamANI che, nahIM Apo to jelamAM ghalAvIza. tame nA Apo paNa mArA dAdAnI milakata to tamArI pAsethI dAvo mAMDIne laIza." vArasAInI ne ! pappA zuM kahe ? huM tane mArI jAtanI kamANI che eTale milakta nahIM ApuM. tyAre pelo kahe, A badhuM to mArA dAdAnI che eTale huM dAvo mAMDIza korTamAM. huM korTamAM laDhI laIza. paNa choDIza nahIM. eTale kharekhara A chokarAM potAnAM hoya. praznakartA : cAvI pAse ja rAkhI hoya to ? dAdAzrI : mArIne laI le, Ajano chokaro to. te kaMI niyama che

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304 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra hato ne, vahu vagara gamatuM hotuM, have vahune khaseDIne chokarAM vagara gamatuM nathI. pachI to e mArA bAbAno bAbo che te bahu mAMdo che. alyA, paNa e mAMdo che te tuM zuM karavA mAMdo thauM chuM ! e to milakata levA AvyA che. ghANI tame kADho ane DabbAmAM laI jaze tela A. bApA e to ghANI kADhavAnI. lAgaNI-mamatA e badhuM ebanormala; upakArI bhAva sadA, kara prazno hala! mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 303 koI jAtano ? mArIne laI le. eka chokaro to tenA phAdharane kahe, 'mArI milakata mane ApI do.' eno phAdhara pharI paiNyo eTale. tyAre enA phAdhara kahe che, 'bhaI ApIza haju, AmAM tAruM kaMI jatuM rahevAnuM che ! tAro hisAba tane huM ApI daIza.' te pelAe loco vALIne jhaghaDo karyo. jhaghaDo karyo eTale phAdhara jarA kaMI ADuMavaLuM bolI gayA haze eTale pelAe mAMDyo dAvo korTamAM. roja 'pappAjI, pappAjI' karato hato ane pappAjI khuza thaI janAra te ja chokaro A. te mAMDyo dAvo. eTale dAvAmAM pappAjI hArI gayA. chokaro kesa jItI gayo. pachI enA vakIlane eNe samaja pADI. vakIlane kahyuM ke kesa tame jItADyo to kharo, paNa have bIjuM eka kAma karo to traNaso rUpiyA ApuM. tyAre kahe ke zuM kAma karuM ? tyAre chokaro kahe che ke mArA bApanI nAkakaTTI thAya evuM korTamAM karo, to traNaso rUpiyA ApuM. bolo, have A sagAI kevI ? praznakartA : to ya dIkaro to dIkaro ja kahevAya ne ? ane bApa bApa ja kahevAya ne ? emAM kaMI phera nA paDe ?! dAdAzrI : hA, phera paDe nahIM, paNa bApa aMdara jANe ke chokarAne kyAre mArI nAkhyuM ane chokaro jANe ke kyAre bApanI nAkakaTTI karAvuM. evuM A badhAM mahIM vera UbhAM thAya. Ane sukha kema kahevAya te ? chokaro bApanI sAme dAvo mAMDe emAM chokarAne sukha paDe kharuM ? have A phAdhara acchA ke laDakA acchA ? koNa acchA ? chokarAM to, AvAM chokarAM hojo ! AvAM chokarA malo ke jethI karIne mokSe javAnI bhAvanA jAge ApaNI badhI. tyAre zuM kare te vaLI A ! pappAjI, pappAjI kare ne roja, te javA nA de mokSe ! eTale ApaNe pharajiyAta che, emAM kaMI bolI ke karI batAvavA jevuM nahIM. A to dAkhalo ApuM chuM ke pharajiyAta che. ghANIo kADhavI e ya pharajiyAta. bolI batAvavAnuM nahIM, paNa manamAM samajI javAnuM ke A ghANIo kADhavA baMdhAyA chIe. A to dhANIo kADhe che ne uparathI kahe che ke, mane chokarA vagara gamatuM nathI ! meM kahyuM, mUA, pahelAM kaheto praznakartA : ApaNA sagAsaMbaMdhIne duHkha thayuM hoya, paisA ke mAnaapamAnanuM, tabiyatanuM vagere. tenI ciMtA ApaNane thatI hoya ? dAdAzrI : e to badhuM ApaNuM IgoIjhama che, mamatA che. mamatA hoya to duHkha thAya, hamaNAM tamAro sago bhAI hoya, te mamatA hoya to thAya. paNa eka dahADo khUba laDyA ane pachI tame kaho ke bhaI tAruM moTuM nA dekhADIza, tyAra pachI duHkha nA thAya. ene du:kha thAya to ke, temane pachI du:kha thAya ? tyAre ene mamatA chUTI gaI. A mamatAne duHkha thAya eka bApa DaoNkaTarano e oLakhIto hato. enA chokarAne AMgaLIe vAgeluM. te pachI pAkeluM, eTale enuM oparezana karavAnuM hatuM. bApa chokarAne bahu phaMTavelo, bahu paisAvALo hato. have DaoNkaTara kahe ke huM ghaDImAM ja Ama oparezana karI nAkhIza. tame ciMtA nA karazo. paNa zeTha kahe ke mane oparezana thIyeTaramAM besavA do. zeTha to vajanadAra mANasa eTale DaoNkaTare besADavA devA paDyA. have bApa beThelo ATha phUTa che. ane DaoNkaTare AMgaLIe oparezana karavA kApa mUkyo. chokarA para mamatA bahuM, te peluM AMgaLInuM oparezana karavAnuM hatuM ne te davA copaDIne kahyuM, chokarAne kazuM nA thayuM, ane pelAM bApe joyuM. bApe, peluM Ama oparezana karyuM te joyuM, te raDavA mAMDyo. thara, thara, thara ! alyA, tAra-bAra nathI, A zI rIte ? paNa e mamatA, e bhogave te bhUla enI. 'bhogave enI bhUla.' evuM bane ke ? bApa bhogave ema ? raDe e ? AMgaLI pelAnI kyAMya hoya ?! have nhoto koI tAra joDyo, kazuM hatuM nahIM ne chatAM A

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 305 306 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : vyavahAramAM mA-bApanI ne chokarAonI mamatA kevI rIte chUTe, e to nA chUTe. dAdAzrI : e mamatA zene kahevAya che ? vadhAre paDatuM ebnormala thavuM ene mamatA kahevAya che. nahIM to mamatA kevI rIte kahevAya ? enormala jo thaI gayuM hoya to mamatA ! ane bIlonormala e paNa sAruM nA kahevAya ! kAraNa ke manuSyo chIe ApaNe, mA-bApa upara, chokarA upara bhAva to rahevo joIe ja ApaNo ! bApa jevA jAya be vakhata; sAtRte davAkhAne bAra vakhata! DaphoLane vagara tAre AMkhamAMthI pANI nIkaLavA mAMDyuM. A vagara tAre pANI nIkaLe to zuM haze ? e to babUcaka kahevAya. nA samajaNa paDI ? praznakartA : hA, paDI. dAdAzrI : hamaNAM bApa chokarA joDe eka kalAka laDe, AvaDI AvaDI gALo bhAMDe, to chokaro zuM kahe ? zuM samajo cho tame ? vArasAnI milakata mATe korTamAM dAvo hauM mAMDe. pachI e chokarA mATe ciMtA thAya ? mamatA chUTI gaI ke ciMtA chUTI. chokarAnI mamatA chUTI gaI. mUo e chokaro, mAre nahIM joIto have. A ciMtA thAya che ne te mamatAvALA ne thAya che. praznakartA : ema nahIM, jhaghaDo nA thayo hoya ane mamatA bAMdhelI hoya to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : e mamatA dhIme rahIne choDI nAkhavI. mahIM manathI bolavuM 'he dAdA bhagavAna' e mArA na hoya, 'he dAdA bhagavAna' mArA mAnyA, tethI mane upAdhi AvI gaI. praznakartA : e kevI rIte posIbala bane ? dAdAzrI : hA, cokkasa bane. AvuM karone, eka dahADo karI jo. bIje dahADe jatI raheze. A to badhA upAya che. praznakartA : mA-bApa hoya, emanI pratye mamatA hoya. e to kema choDAya ? dAdAzrI : mA-bApanI ya choDI devAya ne ! mA-bApa to vyavahAranA che ane vyavahAranA upakArI che, ane vyavahArano upakArano huM badalo vALIza, paNa bIjuM mAre zuM levAdevA ? Ama karIne ya mAbApanI yu mamatA choDI devAya. vyavahAra upakArI che, te ApaNe vyavahArathI badalo ApIzuM. paNa mA mane tArA vagara gamatuM nathI, tArA vagara gamatuM nathI, pachI ciMtA ja thAya ne ! tamane evuM thatuM nathI ne? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to sAruM. evI bhAMjagaDa nahIM. Amane bahu thAya. praznakartA: dAdA, ApaNane evo bhAva kema raheto haze ke ApaNe A chokarAonAM chokarAo che, enAM mATe paNa kaMIka ApatA jAva, Ama karatAM jAva. e zuM ? e kema bhAva raheto haze ? dAdAzrI : baLyuM ! bApanuM nAma saMbhArato nathI, marI gayA pachI. praznakartA : hA. e to barAbara che. dAdAzrI : jyAM saMbhAravuM che tyAM saMbhArato nathI. jeno upakAra che tene A bhaI saMbhArato nathI ane vyAjanA vyAjane be phero saMbhAre che. je mArA nathI tene mArA karyA ane je mArA hatA tene tarachoDyA. mAMbApe ApaNane upakAra karyo, nava mahinA to ApaNane peTamAM rAkhe mA, to ya paNa ene tarachoDe. praznakartA : hA, evuM bane che. dAdAzrI : ane chokarAne mArA-mArAM kare ! have chokarAne ApaNe pUchIe tyAre e ApaNane, paiDAM thayA ne te kacakaca karyA kare che vagara kAmanAM ! e pAcho enA bAbAne ramADe ramADa karato hoya. bAbo godA mAre to ya pAcho ene ramADa mADa kare ane bApa suMvALuM suMvALuM bole to ya ene game nahIM. eTale meM to chekIne kADhI dIdheluM ke A joya mArA, ema karI ne! mamatA, khoTI mamatA !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 307 ADe dA'De zuM kahe, svabhAva vahuno sAro nathI ane vakhata Ave tyAre be eka thaI gayA hoya. huM to e kahe tyArathI samajuM ! mUchathI chetarAya che jagata, mUrchAthI mAra khAya che. mane e poSAya evo nahoto mArga. A mArga kema poSAya ! milakata ApavI ane pAcho pelo TaiDakAve. eno sATu hoya ne, to bAra vakhata davAkhAnAmAM joI Ave ane bApA hoya tyAre traNa vakhata gayo hoya. alyA mUA, evI te kaI cAvI ne AdhAre tuM AvuM karuM chuM te ! gharamAM bIbI cAvI pherave, mArA banevIne jotAM Avajo ! te bIbIe cAvI pheravI eTale ekAkAra. te bIbIne Adhina che jagata. 308 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra lagna kare eTale bahArano mAla AvavAno ane e guru thaI besavAno pAcho. pachI ene zIkhavADe eTaluM ja e zIkhe. paNa atyArathI chokarAne huM taiyAra karI rAkhuM, eTale pelI guru thaI bese nahIM ne ! atyAre to badhe guru thaI bese che ne mA-bApane muzkelImAM mUke che !! praznakartA : A moha choDAvA mATe chokarAo vadhAre upakArI ke vahuo ? mA vagara na phAvyuM varSa bAvIsa; guru AvatAM ja mA lAgI bAlIza! A dhaNI maLyo, chokaro maLyo, A badhA joDe kaMI ApaNane sATuM sahiyAruM che ?! Ama to 70-80 varSanuM AyuSya hoya. temAM A chokaro 18-20 varSano thAya, eTale 20 varSa to jatAM rahyA. pachI ene paiNAvo eTale enA guru AvyA hoya eTale navI ja jAtano pheraphAra thayelo hoya ! phakta 20 varSa ApaNA tAbAmAM rahe ane guru AvyA ke tarata pheraphAra ! eTale ApaNe pahelethI nA samajIe ke guru Avaze eTale pheraphAra thaI jaze. mATe ApaNe pahelethI taiyArI karI rAkhavI. ApaNe gAMTha karIne baMdha rAkhI devAnuM. dhaNIne ya kahevuM ke 'gAMTha karI rAkhajo ApaNe.' A dekhAtuM ApaNe ene ApI devAnuM !! pachI chokaro hakka nA kare ! Ama to chokaro sAro hoya, paNa jo ene guru nA maLavAnAM hoya to. paNa guru maLyA vagara rahe nahIM ne ! pachI paradezI guru AvI ke inDiyAnI hoya, to ya paNa mAruM kahevAnuM ke pachI ApaNA hAthamAM kAbu nA rahe. mATe lagAmane paddhatisara rAkhavI joie. chokarAmAM UMcA guNo AvyA hoya to gharamAM tamane badhAne zAMti rahe, AnaMda rahe, badhAne sukha rahe. ane chokarAnAM lagna to karavAnAM ja. dAdAzrI : vahuo ja upakArI ne vadhAre. vahuo vadhAre upakArI ! paNa mULa kAraNa to chokarAM ja che. dekhAvamAM vahuo lAge. paNa mULa kAraNa to chokarAM ja che. kAraNa ke chokaro je hato enI bAno asala bhakta hato, enI madharano. A chokarAo enI madharanA bhakta hoya che bicArA. paNa pachI eka bena mane kahetI hatI ke mAro chokaro mane pUchaLyA vagara kazuM karavAno nathI. enI mA AvuM kahetI hatI. eTale meM kahyuM ke haju enA guru AvavA to do, pachI juo ! enA guru Ave tyAre zuM kahe, ene guru malavA joIe. guru maLyA nathI tyAM sudhI. guru malyA ke cAlyuM ! 'guru brahmA, guru viSNu, guru devo mahezvarA." chokarA to bahu sArA hoya che. paNa paiNyA pachI emanA guru Ave che tyAre joI lo pachI ! vAIpha hoya ne, ene ya guru kare ne ! jyAre guru ene kahe ne, ke A bA to tame jANo cho, bA to AvA che ! tyAre pahelAM to chokaro jora kare ke be tamAcA mArI de, kema mArAM bAnI vAta karuM chuM !? eka zabda jo mArI mammI mATe bolI cho to tArI vAta tuM jANe, kADhI mUkIza.' kahe che. be-cAra vakhata evuM karIne pelIne narama karI mUke. have hamaNe TAIma che ne te vAta narama mUke. te varSa-be varSa AvuM bole eTale pelI samajI jAya ke Amane kaMI rAge pADavAM paDaze. pachI che te dhIme, dhIme TAITa karI de naTa, pachI IjIna UMcuM-nIcuM ja nA thAya. te badhuM AvaDe ene kaLA, te dhIme dhIme garama thAya ke upara hathoDI mAre ane vALe. ema ne ema TATuM vaLe nahIM. doDha-be Icano saLIyo garama thAya eTale hathoDI mAre. ema karI karIne vALe ene ane pachI kahe, jo bA Aja A pramANe bolatAM hatAM ne tamane kema lAge che ? tyAre chokaro kaheze, 'hA, te mArI bAno ja vAMka che, barAbara che, yu Ara rAITa." te cAlyuM avaLuM. draSTi badalI nAkhe che !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra kAraNa ke baI jo jarA jabarI hoya ne, to bhaIne oLakhI jAya ke bhaIne kayA priya ane apriya zabda para bahu mamatA che. pachI baI kayo priya zabda che enI zodhakhoLa kare. ApaNe gAya rAkhI hoya ne to ya cAra divasamAM ApaNane khabara paDI jAya ke A gAyane zI rIte rAkhe to sArI rIte khAya. evuM baI e ya samajI jAya eTale baI priya zabda evA bole ke pachI pelAne mAjI joDe jhaghaDo thAya. tava mAsa rahyo vagara bhADAMtI kholImAM; guru AvatAM mAte jalAve sadA hoLImAM! 309 eka pAMtrIsa varSano che te bI.koma. thayelo moTo ophIsara hato. amAro bhatrIjAno dIkaro. eTale huM dAdo thauM eno. te mane AvIne kahevA mAMDyo ke dAdAjI mArI madhara opha thaI gayAM, to ya mAre haju kahevuM paDe che ke bahu pakSapAtI hatAM. eTale A jJAna thatAM pahelAMnI A vAta, be varSa agAu. eTale pachI jJAna thayeluM nahIM ane vAtane to ene javAba ApavAnI prekaTIsa. eTale pachI meM ene zuM kahyuM, tArI bAe pakSapAta karyo e vAta sAcI bhaI. tArI bAe tane zuM karyuM che e huM kahI ApuM tane have. jo sAMbhaLa badhI vigata. huM jANuM chuM, tuM to nAno hato AvaDo. nava mahinA peTamAM rAkhyo. aDhAra varSa kurakuriyuM joDe pherave ema pheravyo. chokaruM to mAnI joDe ja phare ne ! Ama AthI khase to ya hAtha jhAle. mA AghI khasI jAya te A sAllo jhAlIne phare ane atyAre to ochA jhAle che AjanAM chokarA to. paNa pahelAM to bahu jhAlatA hatA mUA ! ane pachI guru AvyA tyAre pachI pharI gayo ! guru zIkhavADe che ema tuM karuM chuM ! meM pUchyuM, A peTamAM rAkhanAra koNa ? AvaDA moTA ophisarane ! ane huM to jANato hato ke enI mAe nava mahinA peTamAM rAkhyo hato, bhADuMbADuM dIdhuM nathI te. nava mahinA ArAma karyo tenuM. nA, paNa A juone kahe che, A mArI mAe pakSapAta karyo, bolAtuM haze ?! karyo hoya to ya nA bolAya. madhara eTale madhara. tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : nava mahinA kebInamAM tame rahyA hatAM, e nava mahinA to mAjI khAtAM hatAM te rasa cAkhIne tamAruM baMdhAraNa thayeluM che, ghana cakkaro ! kaI jAtanA pAkyA cho ? aDhAra varSa sudhI gAyane pAchaLa vAcharaDuM phare ema tane joDe pheravyo, to ya tane mA para vizvAsa UDI gayo ? ane A vahu AvI enI para vizvAsa besI gayo ? Ama moTo ophisa2, bhaNelo, te AvuM kazuMka jarA kahIe tyAra vagara gAMThe nahIM ne ! A nava mahinA peTamAM rAkhyo e kaMI jevI tevI vAta che ?! enuM bhADuM to ApI jo ! khAvA pIvAnuM, sUI rahevAnuM, badhuM sAthe, vitha kamplITa rIjharvezana ! to ya A lokone kiMmata nahIM ! 310 have moTA thayA pachI sAheba thaI jAya, to zuM thAya ? nava mahinA peTanI rUmamAM rahyA tyAre bA upara tiraskAra nhoto Avato. A chokarAMone samajaNa nathI tethI mAno upakAra nathI mAnatAM ne ! mAno upakAra to bhUlAya nahIM. AkhI cAmaDInA joDA sIvaDAvIe to ya mAno upakAra cUkavAya nahIM. kAraNa ke nava mahinA peTamAM rAkhe che, aDhAra varSa vAcharaDAnI jema joDe pherave che; ane vahu AvI eTale A vipharyo ! A te kaI jAtanuM kahevAya ?! mAjI joDe jhaghaDo karuM chuM ? tane mAjI upara vizvAsa nathI Avato eTale A vahu upara vizvAsa Ave che. AvuM kema hoya mANasane ? manuSyapaNuM koI mUrakha banAvI jAya evuM nA hovuM joIe. varlDamAM koI mUrakha nA banAvI zake evuM manuSyapaNuM hovuM joIe ane jevI enI vAIpha Ave che, tyAre ja e guru Ave che ke tarata badalAI jAya che ne ! AvA mANaso je ko'kanA kahevAthI, ko'kanA caDAvavAthI badalAI jAya. mA-bApanI viruddha thaI jAya. bahu zarama AvI ene. A zuM kahe che, dAdA ! kharuM kahe che, strInuM manAya ja kema karIne ? potAnA mA-bApa game tevA gAMDAyelAM hoya. tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. sAcI vAta che. dAdAzrI : A kALa duSama kALa che. jyAre mahAvIra bhagavAnano kALa hato ne, te vakhate pitAnuM kahevuM chokaro mAnato hato ane enI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 311 312 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra vAiphanuM kahevuM mAnato nahoto. atyAre to vAiphane guru kahe che ane pachI pitAne AvaDI AvaDI copaDe che. vAiphane guru karI de che ane vAiphanA kahyA pramANe ja cAle che. eTale pitAne gaNakAratAM nathI. eTale ApaNAM mahAtmA duHkhI na thAya evAM badhA rastA batAvIe. vyavahAramAM ya du:khI nA thAya. eTale dezamAM badhAne zikhavADI devAnuM A to. pharI phajeto nA thAya. nahIM to pachI dAdAne samuM karavA AvavuM paDe. pAchuM naTa to kholI ApuM huM to. tyAre zuM thAya ? eTale cetatA rahevuM ApaNe. kAraNa ke chokaro to ApaNo ja che, paNa haju guru AvavAnA bAkI che ane guru ApaNe ja laI AvavAnA pAchA. koNa laI Ave ? praznakartA : ApaNe ! mA-bApa ja. dAdAzrI : hA, e ja guru ApaNI gAdIne khaseDe che. te khaseDe, joI lo, dekha lo, majA pachI ! praznakartA : sAruM paNa maLe, kadAca. sArI guru paNa maLe kadAca. dAdAzrI : atyAre mAla ja sAro nA hoya ne ! praznakartA : ApaNe sArA hotA ? dAdAzrI : e jamAno judo gayo ane A jamAno judI jAtano Avyo ! pAsa karIne vahu lAvyA ane pachI vahu avaLuM bolavA mAMDI. eTale tarata ApaNe A bole che e 'vyavasthita' che badhuM. kAraNa ke pAsa karIne lAvyA ApaNe. AzIrvAda ApyA, gharamAM AvIne sonAnI mALA paherAvI. have e bolavA mAMDI. to A 'vyavasthita' samajI javAnuM ane pachI bhogavavuM paDe to 'bhogave tenI bhUla" kahevAnI. ApaNe bhogavavuM to ApaNe mahIM jAtane kahevuM ke bA, 'bhogave tenI bhUgla'. e dAdAjIe badhI eka eka vAta samajaNa pADI dIdhelI che. praznakartA : A to tame pachInI vAta karI, paNa A amane prIkozana joIe ke have.... dAdAzrI : prIkozana to hotAM ja nathI. prIkozanamAM to ApaNe sAruM lAvavuM che evI bhAvanA rAkhavI. je AvavAnI che ne, tene koI choDavAnuM nathI. paNa chatAM ApaNe jovI, karavI. praznakartA ane ApaNe enA zudhdhAtmAne joyA karIe, to kadAca DhIluM paDI jAya. dAdAzrI : narama paDe, narama paDe. paNa pUrvanuM je vera hoya ne, te vALyA vagara nA rahe. rAgamAMthI vera che tethI saMsAra; vItarAgatA ja karAve bhava pAra! vahu vALe vera te che 'vyavasthita'; bhogave tenI bhUla nathI AmAM prIta! praznakartA: ApaNe ema kIdhuM ke chokaro paiNAvIe, pachI vahu Ave ane jo ApaNuM vyavasthita evuM hoya ke tamArA bA to AvA che. A badhAnI sAme ApaNe kyuM zastra rAkhavuM ? enI sAme ApaNe prIkozana kevuM rAkhavuM ke jenAthI ApaNI jAgRtine athavA ApaNAthI e sahana thAya. ene mATe kayA pagalAM bharavAM ? kharo svArtha kayo? sva eTale AtmA ane svane arthe, AtmAne arthe je karavuM enuM nAma kharo svArtha kahevAya. ane jagatamAM je svArtha cAle che te to parArtha che. badhuM pArakAM mATe ja karavAnuM. emAM pote joDe kazuM laI javAnuM nathI. koI kaheze ke A chokarI potAnA hoya ? A deha ja potAno thato nathI, to chokaro kaye dahADe potAno thavAno che te ! chatAM vyavahAramAM chokarAne chokarA tarIke rAkhavo joIe ane vyavahAramAM ApaNI pharajo bajAvavAnI ane te kudaratI rIte ja baMdhana che ane evI rIte thaI ja jAya che, enI varIjha karavA jevuM nathI. chokaro hoya te Akho dahADo soDamAM ghAla ghAla karIe te sAruM lAge ? chokaro pachI

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314 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra che ? AsaktimAMthI ja, eTale chokarA upara abhAva nathI karavAM jevo, tema chatAM ene chAtIe vaLagADa vaLagADa karavAM jevo ya nathI. badhAmAM Asakti nahIM, normAliTI. badhuM normAliTImAM joIe. chokarAMne mArIne sIdho karAya? vera vasula karaze game te upAya! mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 313 kaMTALI jAya to bacakAM bhare ApaNane. eTale rItasaranuM badhuM sAruM. A chokarAM e to badhA pUrvabhavanAM RNAnubaMdha che ane te AsaktinA ja badhA baMdha che. AsaktithI vera baMdhAyA che ane verano ja baMdha che, te vera pramANe vera vALIne jAya. praznakartA H A chokarAMo vera vALIne jAya e nA samajAyuM. dAdAzrI : evuM che ne e chokarAne ApaNI joDe sneha baMdhAyelo haze ne, to sneha vALIne jAya ane vera baMdhAyeluM hoya to game teTaluM enI joDe vahAla karo to paNa e verane vera ja vALyA kare. mATe snehanuM to ApaNe nikAla karI nAkhIe, snehanuM to vAMdho nahIM Ave. paNa vera baMdhAyeluM haze tyAM bahu muzkelI UbhI thaze. ApaNe verane zAthI AgaLa mUkIe chIe ke A vera e muzkelIvALuM che. snehanuM baMdhAyeluM hoya to e muzkelI vagaranuM che, paNa A duSama kALamAM snehanAM te ochAM hoya che, naya vera ja vadhAre hoya che. A kALanI vicitratA che ke gharanAM mANaso ja sAmasAmI Aropa Ape ke tame Ama karI nAkhyuM, tame Ama karI nAkhyuM. alyA bhaI, meM nathI karyuM A. to e kaheze ke nA, tame ja karI nAkhyuM che. eTale napho Ave ne tyAM sudhI zeThane "Avo zeTha Avo zeTha" kare. ane khoTa jAya tyAre, tame ja UMdhuM bagADyuM, tame Ama karyuM. tamArAmAM akkala nathI, Ama badhAM AkSepo Apa Apa karyA kare. te vakhate kaDavuM jhera jevuM lAge. pachI manamAM AMTI rAkhe ke mane sapaDAvyo ane mArI para AkSepa Ape che, paNa e mArA lAgamAM Ave to huM enI para ApIza. te vakhata Ave tyAre pelo AnI para AkSepa Ape ne pAchuM vera vALe. eTale jyAre ApaNe sapaDAI gayA hoIe ne tyAre eNe ApaNane AkSepa ApyA hoya, tyAre ApaNe sahana karI laIe. paNa pharI e lAgamAM Ave ne, e sapaDAya tyAre pAchA ApaNe ene AkSepa ApIe. evI rIte A saMsAra Ubho rahelo che. verabIjathI A saMsAra Ubho rahyo che. premamAM kaMI saMsAra baMdhAya evo nathI. paNa premamAMthI ja vera UbhuM thayeluM che. vera zemAMthI UbhuM thAya praznakartA H gayA avatAramAM koInI joDe vera bAMdhyuM hoya, to te koI bhavamAM tene bhegAM thaIne cUkavavuM paDe ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, evuM nathI. evI rIte badalo vaLato nathI. vera baMdhAya eTale mahIM rAgadveSa thAya. gayA avatAramAM chokarA joDe vera bAMdhyuM hoya to ApaNe vicAra karIe ke e kayA avatAramAM vaLaze ? AvI rIte pAchA kyAre bhegAM thaIzuM? e chokaro to A bhavamAM bilADI thaIne Ave. tene tame dUdha dharo to e tamArA moDhAM para nakha mArI jAya ! A evuM che badhuM ! Ama tamAruM vera cUkavAI jAya. paripAka kALano niyama che eTale TUMka samayamAM hisAba pUro thAya. keTalAka to verabhAve Ave ne, te chokaro ApaNane verabhAve tela kADhI nAkhe, samaja paDIne ? evuM bane ke nA bane, duzmana bhAve Ave to !? praznakartA : bane. dAdAzrI : chokarAM mArI ThokIne samA karavA jAya che tenAM vera baMdhAya che. AkhI rAta oraDImAM pUrI rAkhyo eka jaNane. alyA mUA, ene manamAM keTaluM badhuM duHkha thAya. pachI manamAM zuM bhAva thAya che e jANo cho ?! huM moTo thauM eTale A bApAne evo mArIza ! eTale pote DisAIDa kare, Disijhana le. alyA mUA, vera nA bAMdhIza. jIvatuM che A chokaruM. vera bAMdhelAnI zI dazA thAya ? eka rANI hatI. te ene rAjAnuM mAMsa khAvAnuM mana thayuM. eTale rANInA manamAM thavA lAgyuM, AvAM kema mane vicAra Ave che ? rANIe rAjAne kahI dIdhuM ke mane AvuM hoya nahIM, chatAM AvA vicAra Ave che. te rAjAe jANyuM ke dhera ijha samathiMga roMga. eTale jyotiSione

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 315 316 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra bolAvyA. jyotiSa jovaDAvyuM. jyotiSioe kahyuM ke A mahIM je garbha rahyo che rANIne, tenA pratApathI A bolI rahI che. A garbha rahyo che te bolAve che. te rAjAne mAravo ne ene kApIne khaI jAya evo hato. peTamAM AvIne bole che ne tarata ! choDe nahIM ne, vera ! praznakartA : eka mA-bApane tyAM cAra chokarAM che, badhA laDhe che, ne bhayaMkara vera bAMdhe che. eka chokaro vAMdarAnA kRtyavALo che ne vAMdarAmAM javAno che. bIjo chokaro gadheDAmAM jAya evI judI judI pazuyonimAM gati bAMdhI rahyA che. peluM RNAnubaMdha sakhata che to pelAM mA-bApanuM zuM ? e kaMI gadheDAmAM jAya ? dAdAzrI : javuM ja paDene, chUTako ja nahIM ne ? praznakartA : mA-bApanA kRtyo evAM nathI, chokarAomAM evAM che. dAdAzrI : e jenAM hoya te gadheDAmAM jAya. praznakartA : paNa pelAe mA-bApa joDe vera bAMdhyuM hoya to ? dAdAzrI : mA-bApathI emAM sAmo pratikAra thAya to vAMdho Ave. nahIM to mahAvIra bhagavAnane ya mokSe javA nA deta loka. bhagavAna to bahu dehakarmI, te loka UThAvI jatA hatA. paNa e pote ja koInI para. kiMcit mAtra rAga nathI rAkhatAne ! rAga nahIM ne dveSe ya nahIM, vItarAga. pachI chone emanI para jeTalo rAga karavo hoya eTalo kare. sAmo pratikAra nA thAya to kazuM vAMdho nathI. eka nakkI kare. AvAM ajaMpAthI badhuM cAlI rahyuM che. mAne pajave to ya ene A vhAlo lAgyA kare ane bApane sahana nA thAya, bApane zI rIte sahana thAya ? jyAM buddhinuM lAITa hoya. strIomAM ya budhdhi kharI, paNa moha kharo ne, te mohane laIne aMdhAruM thayA kare buddhi para ? ane ApaNe pAchaLa phokasa mUkeluM hoya eTale muMjhAmaNa thaI jAya. A kALamAM pelA dhaNI kaheze, huM gharaDAgharamAM jauM chuM, tame Avo cho ke ?' tyAre pelI kahe, nA, chokarA joDe mane phAvaze, vahu sArI che. ne ! nA Ave, Ave nahIM koI dahADo ya. A bahAranAM lokone mATe vAta che. bahAranA lokone kevI muzkelI che e to mane samajAya ! A mane to sAta chokarA hoya ne, jo kadi AvuM chokarA pajava pajava karatA hoya ne to jema avaLuM bole, tema huM khuza thaI jauM, heDa tuM gAMDo chuM, paNa huM DAhyo chuM ne ! paNa huM moDhA upara avaLuM dekhADuM. moDhA upara evuM dekhADavuM paDe ke mane bahu duHkha thayuM ane aMdarakhAne huM khuza thauM ke eno cakkara kAco paDyo, kahIe. je mazIna phaTAkA mArene tene ame kAcA kahI daIe. mazIna bolene mArI pAse eTale 'huM pAko chuM' evuM kahI dauM. vinaya rAkhe eTale huM jANuM ke pAko che A. paNa, tame AvA chone tevAM cho, bole eTale huM nabaLo, vIkanesa mAnI lauM ke A vIka che bicAro, dayA khAvA jevo che. ApaNe kaMI evA vIka chIe ?! chokarAo joDe DIla karatAM nA AvaDe e ApaNI bhUla kharI ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hA, bhUla kharI. dAdAzrI : haM, badhe AnI A ja bhUlo thayelI tamArI, nahIM ? A badhe jyAM juo tyAM AnI A ja bhUlo. loko mohamAM mAruM laDakuM, mUA nhoya laDakuM, jarA athaDAvI jojo, enI joDe sAmo thA joIe eka kalAka ! e tAruM laDakuM che ke nahIM ! khabara paDaze ! e to rItasara badhuM sAruM. chUpo prema rAkhavAno, uparathI prema nA opana karAya chokarAone, chokarAM pajave to thavuM khuza mahIM; choDAve che mohamAMthI upakAra lahIM! AjanA chokarAo, A janarezana joDe meLa nathI paDato paiDA mANasone. eTale e khattA khaIkhaIne rahevuM paDe che. pelo avaLuM bole che, calAvI laIzuM paNa evuM A calAvI le che. ahIM paNa pAra vagarano ajaMpo thayA kare ne manamAM ema ya thAya ke mUo. AthI vahelo marI gayo hota to sAro e. kAM to huM marI gayo hota to sAro. bemAMthI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 313 318 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : eTale chokarAne je ApavuM hoya te Apajo. e to Asakti kahevAya. eTale jarA rItasaranuM karavuM badhuM ApaNe. ApaNuM kaMI kalyANa to karavuM joIe ne kayA avatAramAM nahotAM chokarAM ?! dareka avatAramAM chokarAM hatAM ja ne ?! to haju zenAM hAruM ATalo badho moha !! tema chatAM chokarAMne chaMcheDavAnAM nahIM. emane jarUra hoya, je joIe e badhuM ya ApIe karIe ! rAte sUI jAva cho tyAre soDamAM ghAlIne sUI jAva cho ? e kaheze, mane nathI gamatuM to ? eTale rItasaranuM jeTaluM thAya eTaluM ja karAya. ApaNe dAjhIe to chokarAMne lhAya baLe ? kema nA baLe ? chokarAM to ApaNAM ne ? eTale AvuM che A badhuM ! mATe saba saba kI samAlo. mamatA bacyAtI gAya-bheMsate cha mAsa; manuSyo to sAta peDhInI rAkhe khAsA skUla mohathI sUkSmatama; jJAtI samajAve, samaja moghama! praznakartA : skUla moha, sUkSma moha, sUkSmatara ane sUkSmatama moha e zuM che dAkhalA sahIta samajAvo. - dAdAzrI : e zenA jevuM che, ApaNe dUdha kADhI laIe, dUdha kADhyuM e bhUla kahevAya. emAM thoDuMka pANI reDatAM gayAM e sUkSma kahevAya. pachI enAMthI vadhAre pANI, khUba pANI reDIne pachI e karyuM. cA banAvI e paNa dUdha kahevAya che. pANI reDyuM to ya, te sUkSmatara kahevAya ane sUkSmatama eTale sApareTa(mAkhaNa kADhela chAsa). evI rIte che e. sthUla moha eTale zuM ? bApa amerikA hato ane chokaro ahIM moTo thayo hato. e agiyAra varSano thayo. bApa amerikAthI AvyA ne eTale chokaro AvIne. pappAjI karIne je je karavA lAgyo. bApe ene UMcakyo, UMcakIne evo dabAvyo, premano mAryA ke chokarAe bacakuM bharI lIdhuM. tyAre kahe, A kayA prakArano moha ? tyAre kahe, sthUla moha. bAbAnI joDe cheTe rahIne je' je' karIe ane mAthe hAtha mUkIe e sUkSma moha. ane bAbo UMdho cAle ane ene TaiDakAvIe e sUkSmatara moha. e eka prakArano moha. ane sUkSmatama moha kayo ? te gALo bhAMDe, gharamAM pesavA nA de, to ya chevaTe ghara-milakata ene ja ApI de. eTale AvAM badhAM mohanA prakAra. samajAyuM ne ? jo du:khI, duHkhI, e chokarAM ya du:khI ane ApaNe ya du:khI. pArakAM chokarAM ! pelo chokaro bApane kaheze, tamAre ne mAre have zuM levAdevA che ? pachI ApaNe enA bApane kahIe, juo have, tame nA joyuM? to ya bApa zuM kaheze, e chokaro to mAro ja ne ! mera akkaramI ! melane pULo ahIMthI. chokarAM eTale to, A dUdhInuM bI vAvIe ne eTale UgIne velo phelAya. te pAMdaDe pAMdaDe dudhIyAM bese haDahaDATa. ema A dUdhIyAM bese badhAM. chokaro ne bApa che te rIleTIva vepAra, jo cAlyuM to cAlyuM, nahi to rahyuM ! chokaro kahe, 'have tamAre kazuM bolavuM nahi. to ApaNe jANavuM ke sAruM, iMDone nirAMta thaI ! vagara kAmanI pIDA mAthe kyAM sudhI rAkhavI ?" praznakartA : ame evuM ja rAkhyuM che. dAdAzrI : hA, A zI pIDA ApaNe ? jema mArI-ThokIne miyAMbhAI nA banAvIe, ema mArI-ThokIne chokaro thato haze ? evuM che ne, koI chokaro enA bApanuM koI dahADo dhyAna rAkhato nathI. chokaro emanAM chokarAnuM dhyAna rAkhe. praznakartA: e to evI ja rIte duniyAno krama che ke bApa dIkarAnuM dhyAna rAkhe ! dAdAzrI : hA, te A kaLiyugamAM. sayugamAM savaLuM hatuM. chokaro bApanuM dhyAna rAkhe, eno chokaro emanuM dhyAna rAkhe evuM hatuM. A avaLuM thayuM ane pAchuM dhyAna ApaNuM rAkhe nahIM ane milakata enA potAnA nAma para karI nAkhe 'TrAnsaphara'. enAM karatAM thoDI milakata vecI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ane koI duHkhIyA-bukhIyAne hajAra-behajAra ApIe, mahine pAnaso, to pAMsaruM nA kahevAya ? e to RNa kaMI sudhI mAne ? AkhI jIMdagI mAne ! tamAro pratApa kaheze. tamArAM pratApe ame sukhI thayA, kaheze. ane pelo chokaro kahe nahi. e to kaheze, mAruM che ne meM lIdhuM, emAM tamAre zuM levA-devA ? 319 praznakartA : peluM Apa eka kahetA'tA ne, AkhI jIMdagI bhatrIjA pAse cAkarI karAve ane maratI ghaDIe chokarAMne ApIne jAya. dAdAzrI : hA. cAkarI karanAro to ema jANe ke have pelAMne bolAvatAM nathI eTale ene kazuM Apaze to ya thoDuMka Apaze, vadhAre to mane ApI deze, jamIna-jAgIra to mane Apaze ! maratI vakhate eka daza tolAno achoDo rAkhI melyo hoya ne, 'le bhaI, le bA, te bahu cAkarI karI che.' ane pelAne bolAvIne cAvIo ApI de. kharI rIte A to hisAba ja che sAmasAmI. amArAM eka sagAvahAlAM to, chokarAMnI bahu kALajI rAkha rAkha karyA kare, pote jarA bhIDa veThIne paNa. meM kahyuM, tArA phAdharano phoTo dekhAto nathI. tyAre kahe, nahi hoya te dahADe khAsa phoTo. meM kahyuM, pUjA zAnI karo cho ? phAdharanI zI rIte pUjA karo cho ? phAdharanI pUjA karo cho ? tyAre kahe, nA. pachI kahyuM, paNa A chokarAM tamArI pUjA karaze ja ne ? ATalI badhI chokarAM pAchaLa mahenata karo cho ? tyAre kahe, nA, koI nA kare. tyAre meM kahyuM, zuM joIne A pAchaLa paDyA ? gAyo-bheMso ya choDI de, cha mahinAnAM, bAra mahinAnAM thAya eTale chokarAM chUTAM. tuM tArA raste ne huM mArA raste ane pazuomAM to chokaro be varSano thAyane, tyAre pAcho dhaNI thaIne ya Avyo hoya ! emane kazuM nahi, kAyado lAgu nahi ne ! kAyado A gRhasthAzramane, manuSyaloka chene A. praznakartA : A bAbatamAM ema kahevAya che ke dhera ijha no laoN ina dha necara, kudaratamAM koI kAyado nathI.' dAdAzrI : hoya ja nahi ne paNa. je kAyadA che e judAM che paNa A manuSyonA kAyadA tyAM nathI. A korTonA kAyadA judAM ! jAnavaramAM tyAM to dhAvavA nA AvyuM hoya to joyA ja kare eka bAju. paNa e mA-bApa chokarAno vyavahAra limiTa, cha mahinAnI. A phorenarsanI limiTa aDhAra varSanI ane ApaNI to limiTa ja nahi ne, sAta peDhI thAya to ya ! mArAM chokarAnI vahu sAtamI peDhIe sonAnI goLImAM chAsa valove ne te sAtame mALe ane te pAcho huM jouM AMkhethI, evI AMdhaLo mAMgaNI kare che. mALa sudhI dekhAya mane. ane sAtamI peDhInI vahu eTale, chokarAMnI vahu eTale keTalAM varSano thAya pote ! kevuM mAMgyuM ? bhagavAna muMjhAyA ke A dezamAM kyAM Avyo huM ! 30 praznakartA : mArA gharethI ekalI AvuM chuM eTale ekalApaNuM bahu lAge che. dAdAzrI : gharanAM kone kaho cho ? kalAka gALo bhAMDe to geTa AuTa kahI de. je mA-bApa temate tabhAve! have navAM jaNI kyAMthI lAvo? lAge. praznakartA : gharanAM be-cAra jaNAM eka vicAranAM hoya to bahu sAruM dAdAzrI : paNa evuM hoya to ne ? enI mATe ApaNe kyAM pAchAM navA jaNIe ? je jaNyA che e sAcAM. navA pAchA kyAre jaNIe ane kyAre dahADo vaLe ! jaNIe to ya paccIsa varSa to joIe ne pAchAM ! enAM karatAM je hoya te kharuM. eTale badhI sephasAIDa jovA jaIe to nathI pAra Ave evo. chatAM gharanAMne judAM gaNavAM nahIM. gharanAM e gharanAM, paNa atizaya lAgaNI evuM badhuM nA rAkhavuM. chatAM bhAvanA rAkhavAnI ke badhA jJAnane pAmo ! gerahAjarImAM lAgaNIo UbharAya; khAlI sToka tethI hAjarImAM kaSAya! chokarA para bhAva to joIe. manuSya che, vicArazIla che. eTale bhAva to joIe. eTale bIlo normala ApaNAthI rakhAya nahIM. paNa

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 321 322 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra normAliTInI hada sudhImAM enI mamatA rAkhavI joIe. ane ebava normala mamatA, loko kahe, ATalI badhI zI mamatA ! e jarA ochI rAkha ne mamatA, ATalI badhI zI mamatA rAkhuM chuM. e chokaro gayo kolejamAM, te mane gamatuM nathI, kaI jAtanI phIkara che ? ene loko ya vaDhe. evuM nA kahe ke ATalI badhI mamatA zuM karavA rAkho cho ? kahe ke nA kahe ? e mamatA eTale vadhAre paDatI eksesa, ebava normala thaI e mamatA. A amAre badhA joDe saMbaMdha vadhe paNa ebava normala to nahIM, e to upara jatuM rahe. ApaNe jaIe eTale vaLI yAda nA Ave. ane yAda Ave e vadhAre paDatI mamatA. praznakartA : yAda na Ave e mamatA nahIM. dAdAzrI : hA, yAda to na ja AvavuM joIe. zuM helpaphula yAda Ave che ? praznakartA : to pachI ApaNe lAgaNI vagaranAM chIe, evuM nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : lAgaNI vagarano koNa ? A yAda Ave e lAgaNI vagarano. lAgaNIvALAne yAda ja nA Ave. praznakartA : A to UMdhuM ja kahyuM. dAdAzrI : A lAgaNI to tame rAkho, tethI pelAne zuM phAyado thAya ? praznakartA: kaMI nahIM. ApaNane ciMtA thaI, ene to kaMI nA hoya. dAdAzrI : eTale helpaphula nathI. tamAre lAgaNImAM, phula lAgaNI batAvo ne ! paNa ahIM chUTayA eTale kazuM ja nahIM. pachI bhegAM thAya eTale phula lAgaNI batAvo. ahIMthI uThayA eTale kazuM ya nahIM evuM hovuM joIe. A to, tame ahIMthI UThyA te lAgaNI laI jAo, pachI bhegA thAya tyAre kUdaMkUdA karo, vaDhavaDhA karo. e lAgaNI kahevAya nahIM ne, kAraNa ke lAgaNI vaparAI jAya che, khoTe raste vaparAI jAya che. e lAgaNI silaka rAkho, rastAmAM pADI nA devI joIe ane pachI bhegAM thAya tyAre pachI lAgaNI vAparavI. pelI samajAya ke nA samajAya, mArI vAta ? bahu jhINI vAta che A. saMto ya nA samaje evI vAta che. praznakartA : banI nA zake, imposibala che ema. dAdAzrI : A duniyAmAM kazuM imposibala hotuM ja nathI. tame dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma laIne karo. tame dAdA bhagavAnanI sAkSI laIne jo karo to badhuM posibala che. praznakartA : ApaNe ahIMyA amerikAmAM rahIe, paNa mA-bApane bhUlI ochAM zakIe ? dAdAzrI : e jagata bhUlAtuM nathI ne e ja mamatA, khoTI mamatA che. ebnormala mamatA. mane badhAM sagAvahAlAM kahe che, zuM dAdA, tamAro prema kevo jabarajasta prema che. ane tamane che te tamArA gharamAM ja mANaso kahe che, tuM AvI chuM, tevI chuM. AvuM tamArA gharanAM ja mANaso kahe. kAraNa ke tamane prema DhoLatAM nathI AvaDatuM. tame prema rastAmAM DhoLI do cho ane bhego thAya tyAre aDadho pyAlo Apo cho ene. AvAM jIvanathI to A mana, zarIra phrekacara thaI jaze. eTale bahu atizaya karavA jevuM nahi. rItasara sAruM che. nATakIya kesamAM koI AMgaLI nA kare evuM joIe. nATakamAM koInI AMgaLI thAya to pagAra ocho thaI jAya, kapAI jAya. eTale abhinaya karavo paDe. hA. chokaro marI gayo nATakano, eTale AMkhamAM jarA pANI nA hoya to Ama Ama e karIne lAvavuM paDe. bAkI chokarAnAM to svAda bhavobhava joyelAM ne ! eka kalAka chokarAne lephaTarAITa laI juo joIe ane kADhe svAda pachI. jo mAkhaNa kADhe valovIne !! A to vaLI maryAdAmAM hoya to sAruM che. paNa enAM bApAnI pAchaLa koI javA taiyAra thayelo nahi ! AMtaravuM paDe nahi ApaNe ke, "nA, bA. tArAM bApa joDe nahi javAnuM, bA. heMDa bA pAcho.' jhAlI jhAlIne laI javAM paDe, evuM nahi. paNa jAya ja nahi, mUo. e bApA gayA to mAre zuM ? huM paiNIza ghera jaIne ane biskITabiskITa badhuM, ghera lAvIne khAya nirAMte.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 323 324 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra eTale AnI maryAdA keTalI che, ApaNe jANIne pachI kAma levuM. maryAdA nA samaje e moha kahevAya. pappA kharAM, paNa mUrakha banavA mATe hAjara thaI gayA. koI nA thAya, A dAdA hAjara thAya. game te du:khesukhe prasaMgamAM tarata hAjara thaI jAya. ane huM kahuM ya kharo. meM kahyuM, gabharAzo nahIM. bIjuM koI hAjara nahIM thAya. A chokarA-chokarA to koI hAjara nahIM thAya. nahIM. badhAM mATe badhuM karyuM aMdagIbhara; khare TANe koI nahIM 'jJAtI' vagara! bhaviSyanI ciMtA bagADe vartamAna; dUra DuMgarA choDI, Thokara savAra! badhuM 'vyavasthita' calAve che, kazuM bolavA jevuM nathI. 'potAno dharma karI levA jevo che. pahelAM to ema jANatA hatA ke ApaNe calAvIe chIe eTale ApaNe holavavuM paDe. have to calAvavAnuM ApaNe nahIM ne ? have to A ya bhamaraDA ne te ya bhamaraDA ! mela ne pIDA ahIMthI ! pyAlA phUTe, kaDhI DhaLe, vahu chokarAMne vaDhatI hoya to ya ApaNe Ama ADA pharIne nirAMte besI javuM. ApaNe joIe, tyAre e kahe ne ke, 'tame jotA hatA ne kema nA bolyA ?" ane nA hoya to hAthamAM mALA laIne pheravyA karIe. eTale e kaheze ke, "A to mALAmAM che', melo ne paiDa ! ApaNe zI levA-devA ? smazAnamAM nA javAnuM hoya to kaca kaca karo ! mATe kazuM bolavA jevuM nathI. A to gAyo-bheMso ya enA bAbA joDe rItasara bho bhAM kare, vadhAre bole nahIM ! ne A manuSyo to TheTha sudhI bola bola kare. e mUrakha kahevAya, AkhA gharane khalAsa karI nAkhe. eno kyAre pAra Ave ? anaMta avatArathI saMsAramAM bhaTakyA. nA koInuM bhaluM karyuM, nA potAnuM bhaluM karyuM. je mANasa potAnuM bhaluM kare te ja bIjAnuM bhaluM kare. koInI ya paDelI nathI Aje. nATaka che A. te ApaNe kADhI nAkhavAnuM nathI. Ava bhaI, besa bA. evuM tevuM thoDuM che te prema-bema dekhADavAno, badhuM karI zako. e to "bhAbho bhAramAM to vahu lAjamAM evuM che. koI ApaNuM thAya nahIM. A dAdA ekalA tamArAM thaze. jyAre jozo tyAre, sukhamAMdu:khamAM ekalA dAdA tamArA thaze, bAkI koI tamAruM thAya nahIM. enI gerenTI ApuM chuM. e khare TAIme koI hAjara nahIM thAya. pelA sAheba kahetA hatA ke bahu jagyAe pharyo. vIsa-paccIsa varSa to eka saMta joDe rahyo paNa mAro kharo TAIma Avyo te ghaDIe koI hAjara nA thayuM, dAdA praznakartA : mArI traNa chokarIo che, e traNa chokarIonI mane ciMtA rahe che ke enA bhaviSyanuM zuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe AgaLanA vicAra karavAnAM ne, tenA karatAM Aje sephasAIDa karavI sArI, roja-dararoja sephasAIDa karavI sArI. AgaLanAM vicAra je karo cho ne e vicAra helDiMga nathI koI rIte. nukasAnakAraka che. enA karatAM ApaNe sephasAIDa dararoja karatAM ja rahevuM e ja moTAmAM moTo upAya. nA samajAyuM tamane ? praznakartA : hA samajAyuM. dAdAzrI : AgaLanA vicAra karavAno artha nathI. e sattAmAM ja nathI. eka ghaDIvAramAM to mANasa marI jAya. eno e vicAravAnI jarUra ja nathI. e tArA vicAramAM mahenata nakAmI jAya. ciMtA thAya, upAdhio thAya, ane herliMga ja nathI e. e vaijJAnika rIta ja nathI. ApaNe jema bahAra jaIe chIe, e keTalA phUTa lAMbu joIne cAlIe chIe so phUTa. baso phUTa ke najIkamAM joIe chIe ? praznakartA : hA, najIkamAM joIe chIe. dAdAzrI : lAMbuM kema jotA nathI ? lAMbuM joIe to najIkanuM rahI jAya to Thokara vAgaze. eTale potAnA emAM normAliTImAM raho. eTale enI roja sephasAIDa joyA karavI. ApaNe ene saMskAra sArA ApavA e badhuM karavuM. tame jokhamadAra enA cho, bIjA koI jokhamadAra tame nathI. ane AvI varIjha karavAno to adhikAra ja nathI mANasane.

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326 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 325 mANasane koI paNa jAtanI varIjha karavAno adhikAra ja nathI. e adhikAra eno chAnomAno vAparI khAya che. A gupta rIte bhagavAnane ya chetare che e. varIjha karavAnI hoya ja nahIM, varIjha zene mATe karavAnI ? tame DaoNkaTara karo cho AvI cIja ? zenI ciMtA karo cho tame ? praznakartA : badhAnI. dAdAzrI : kema, badhA pezanTo marI jAya che tenI ? ke gharanA mANasonI ? praznakartA : badhI. gharanI, bahAranI, pezanTonI. badhI varIjha, varIjha, varIjha ja che. dAdAzrI : e to eka jAtano igoijhama kahevAya khAlI. kRSNa bhagavAne kahyuM, jIva tuM zIdane zocanA kare. kRSNane karavuM hoya e kare ! A ahIMthI bahAra nIkaLo eTale tame loMga sAITa joIne cAlo cho ? kema ApaNe sAITa nakkI karIe chIe najIkamAM ? ke ahIM eksiDanTa na thAya, pachI AgaLa ema ne ema AgaLa jatI ja raheze. eTale sephasAIDa thaI gaI kahevAya. tamane nA samajAyuM emAM ? helpa karaze ke pachI vAta nakAmI jaze ? praznakartA : helpa karaze. dAdAzrI : keTalI badhI yujhalesa vAto ! A to bahu cheTe jozo to eksiDanTa karI nAkhazo, ghaDIvAramAM pAMca pAMca miniTamAM eksiDanTa karazo. samajAyuMne, vaijJAnika rIta A che, pelI to gappA mAravAnI rIta che badhI. koI jAtanI chokarIone harakata nahIM Ave. enI thoDI davA huM ApuM , harakata nahIM Ave tenI. pachI zuM chokarIonI bAbatamAM have e prazna baMdha thaI jAya che, pUro thAya che ? khAtarI che pUro thAya dAdAzrI : chokarA-chokarI che, tenA tamAre vAlI tarIke, TrasTI rahevAnuM che. ene paiNAvAnI ciMtA karavAnI nA hoya. A to sAyansa che. koI vakhate akrama vijJAna nIkaLe che. akrama eTale krama-bama nahi. A dhorI mArga nathI, A to keDI mArga che. dhorI mArga to cAlu ja chene. te mArga atyAre mULa sTejamAM nathI, atyAre apaseTa thaI gayo che. dharmo badhA apaseTa thaI gayAM che. mULa sTejamAM dharma hoya tyAre to jainone, vaiSNavone ciMtA vagara gharo cAlatA hatA. atyAre to choDI traNa varSanI hoya to, kaheze ke juone mAre A chokarI paiNavAnI che. alyA, chokarI vIsa varSe paiNaze, paNa atyAre zAnI ciMtA kare che ? to maravAnI ciMtA kema nathI karato ? tyAre kaheze ke nA, maravAnuM to saMbhArazo ja nahi. tyAre meM kahyuM ke, maravAnuM saMbhAravAmAM zo vAMdho che ? tame nathI maravAnAM ? tyAre kahe ke, paNa maravAnuM saMbhArazo ne to AjanuM sukha jatuM rahe che. Ajano svAda badho bagaDI jAya che. tyAre choDInuM paiNavAnuM zuM karavA sAMbhare che? to ya tAro svAda jato raheze ne ? A choDI enuM paiNavAnuM, badhuM ja sAdhana laIne AvelI che. mAbApa to AmAM nimitta che. vadhAre ke ocho jeTalo kharco hoya e ekajhekTalI badhuM laIne AvelI hoya che. A to badhuM bApane soMpeluM hoya che phakta. eTale varIjha karavA jevuM A jagata che nahi. ekajhekTalI jovA jatAM A jagata bilakula varIjha karavA jevuM che ja nahi, hatuM ya nahi ne thaze ya nahi. choDIe eno hisAba laIne AvelI hoya che. choDInI varIjha tamAre karavAnI nahIM. choDInA tame pAlaka cho, choDI ene mATe chokaro ya laIne AvelI hoya che. ApaNe koIne kahevA nA javuM paDe ke chokaro jaNajo. amAre chokarI che tene mATe chokaro jaNajo, evuM kahevA javuM paDe ? eTale badho sAmAna taiyAra laIne AvelI hoya che. tyAre bApA kaheze, 'A paccIsa varSanI thaI, hajI enuM kaMI ThekANuM paDatuM nathI, Ama che, tema che. te Akho dahADo gA gA karyA karaze. alyA, tyAM AgaLa chokaro sattAvIsa varSano thayelo che, paNa tane jaDato nathI, to bUmAbUma zuM karavA kare che ? sUI jAne, chAnomAno ! e choDI enuM TAImIMga badhuM goThavIne AvelI che. praznakartA : hA.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 327 328 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra keTalAka to hajI choDI traNa varSanI hoya tyArathI ciMtA kare che, 'amArI nAtamAM kharcA bahu, kevI rIte karIzuM?" te bUmo pADyA kare. A to khAlI IgoIjhama karyA kare che. zuM kAma choDInI ciMtA karyA kare che ? choDI paiNavAnA TAIme paiNaze, saMDAza saMDAzanA TAIme thaze, bhUkha bhUkhanA TAIme lAgaze, UMgha UMghanA TAIme Avaze, tuM koInI ciMtA zuM kAma kare che ? UMgha eno TAIma laIne AvelI hoya che, saMDAza eno TAIma laIne Avelo che. zene mATe varIjha karo cho ? UMghavAno TAIma thaze ke enI meLe AMkha mIMcAI jaze, UThavAnuM eno TAIma laIne AveluM che, evI rIte choDI eno paiNavAno TAIma laIne AvelI hoya che. e pahelI jaze ke ApaNe pahelAM jaIzuM, che kazuM enuM ThekANuM ? ciMtAthI paDe aMtarAya; mAtra prayatno ja karAya! tamAre kemanuM che ? koIka phero upAdhi thAya che ? ciMtA thaI jAya dasa mANaso beThA hoIe, moTI be ghoDAnI ghoDAgADI hoya. have ene calAvanAro calAvato hoya ane ApaNe aMdara bUmAbUma karIe ke, "eya Ama calAva, eya Ama calAva,' to zuM thAya ? je calAve che ene joyA karone ! koNa calAvanAra che e jANIe to ciMtA ApaNane hoya nahIM. evuM A jagata koNa calAve che e jANIe to ciMtA ApaNane hoya nahIM. tame rAta-dahADo ciMtA karo cho ? kyAM sudhI karazo ? eno Aro kyAre Avaze ? te mane kaho. A bena to enuM laIne AvelI che, tame tamAruM badhuM laIne nahotA AvyA ? A zeTha tamane maLyA ke nA maLyA ? to zeTha tamane maLyA, to A benane kema nahIM maLe ? tame jarA to dhIraja pakaDo. vItarAga mArgamAM cho ane AvI dhIraja nA pakaDo to tenAthI ArtadhyAna thAya, raudradhyAna thAya. praznakartA : evuM nahIM paNa svAbhAvika phikara to thAya ne ! dAdAzrI : e svAbhAvika phikara te ja ArtadhyAna ne raudradhyAna kahevAya, mahIM AtmAne pIDA karI ApaNe. bIjAne pIDA nA karato hoya to bhale, paNa AtmAne pIDA karI. Ano calAvanAro koNa haze ? bena, tame to jANatA hazo? A zeTha jANatA haze ? koI calAvanAro haze ke tame calAvanArAM cho ? praznakartA : koI nahIM. dAdAzrI : koInAM vagara e kevI rIte cAle ? koIka to saMcAlaka haze ne ? saMcAlaka vagara to cAle ja nahIM ne ? evuM che, ke ko'ka dahADo tAva Ave che tyAre manamAM ema thAya che ke mane tAva Avyo, paNa koNe mokalyo e tapAsa nathI karatAM. eTale manamAM zuM lAge che ke have tAva nahIM jAya to zuM karIzuM ? alyA, bhaI Avyo che, mokalanAre ene mokalyo che ne pAcho bolAvI leze, ApaNe phikara karavAnI ja kyAM rahI ? ApaNe bolAvyo nathI, mokalanAre mokalyo che, to pAcho bolAvI leze, A badhI kudaratI racanA che. ApaNe vicAra karavAno hoya to khAtAM pahelAM vicAra karavAno ke A dALa mane vAyaDI paDaze ke nahIM ? paNa praznakartA : A amArI ja moTI bebInI sagAInuM nathI patatuM te upAdhi thaI jAya che ne ! - dAdAzrI : mahAvIra bhagavAnane emanI dikarI nahotI paiNavAnI ? e ya moTI thaI gaI hatI ne ? bhagavAna kema nahotA upAdhi karatAM ? tamArA hAthamAM hoya to upAdhi karo ne, paNa A bAbate tamArA hAthamAM praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : nathI ? to upAdhi zene mATe karo cho ? tyAre kaMI A zeThanA hAthamAM che ? to A benanA hAthamAM che ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to konA hAthamAM che te jANyA vagara ApaNe upAdhi karIe, to zenA jevuM che ? ke eka ghoDAgADI cAlatI hoya, emAM ApaNe

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 329 khAdhA pachI 'have mane zuM thaze ? zuM thaze ?" evo vicAra karIe eno zo artha che ? ciMtA karavAthI to aMtarAya karma paDe che UlaTuM, e kAma lAMbuM thAya che. ApaNane koIke kahyuM hoya ke phalANI jagyAe chokaro che, to ApaNe prayatna karavo. ciMtA karavAnI bhagavAne nA pADI che. ciMtA karavAthI to eka aMtarAya vadhAre paDe che ane vItarAga bhagavAne zuM kahyuM che ke, 'bhaI, ciMtA tame karo cho, to tame ja mAlika cho ? tame ja duniyA calAvo cho ?" Ane Ama jovA jAya to khabara paDe ke potAne saMDAza javAnI paNa svataMtra zakti nathI, e to jyAre baMdha thAya tyAre DaoNkaTarane bolAvavo paDe. tyAM sudhI e zakti ApaNI che evuM ApaNane lAgyA kare, paNa e zakti ApaNI nathI. e zakti kone Adhina che, e badhuM jANI rAkhavuM nA paDe ? 1 kyArathI choDI paiNAvavAnI ciMtA zarU karavI joIe, evuM kayA zAstramAM lakhyuM che ? Ama vIsame varSe paNAvI hoya to ApaNe ciMtA kyArathI zarU karavI joIe ? be-traNa varSanI thAya tyArathI ? praznakartA : cauda-paMdara varSanI thAya pachI mA-bApa vicAra kare che 330 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra AnA ya hAthamAM nA hoya. ciMtAvALo rUpiyA lAve kyAMthI ? lakSmIno svabhAva kevo che ke je AnaMdI hoya ene tyAM lakSmIjI mukAma kare. bAkI ciMtAvALAne tyAM mukAma kare nahi. je AnaMdI hoya, je bhagavAnane yAda karato hoya ene tyAM lakSmIjI jAya. te A to choDInI atyArathI ciMtA kare che. ApaNe ciMtA kyAre karavAnI che ? ke jyAre AjubAjunA loko kahe ke, choDInuM kaMI karyuM ? eTale ApaNe jANavuM ke have ciMtA karavAno vakhata Avyo ane tyArathI ciMtA eTale zuM ke ene mATe prayatno karyA karavAnA, A to AjubAjuvALA koI kahetAM nathI ne tyAra pahelAM A to paMdara varSa pahelethI ciMtA kare. pAcho enI bairIne kaheze ke, 'tane yAda raheze ke ApaNI choDI moTI thAya che, ene paiNAvavAnI che ?alyA, pAcho vahune zuM kAma ciMtA karAvuM chuM. ApaNA loka to evAM che ke eka varSa dukALano gALo hoya, to bIjA varSe zuM thaze, have zuM thaze, karyA kare. te bhAdaravA mahinAthI ja ciMtA karyA kare. alyA, Ama zuM karavA kare che ? e to je dahADe khAvA-pIvAnuM tAre khalAsa thaI jAya ane koI jogavAI nA hoya te dahADe ciMtA karaje ne ! maratI vakhate jIva, choDI paiNAvAvALA; akkalano kothaLo na le koI cAra AtAmAM! dAdAzrI : nA. to ya pAchA pAMca varSa rahyAM. e pAMca varSamAM ciMtA karanAro marI jaze ke jenI ciMtA kare che e marI jaze, e zuM kahevAya ? praznakartA: evuM jo hoya to to pachI loko kamAvA ja nA jAya ne koI ciMtA ja nA kare. dAdAzrI : nahIM, kamAvA jAya che e paNa emanA hAthamAM ja nathI ne, e bhamaraDA che. A badhA necaranA pheravyA phare che ane moDhe ahaMkAra kare che ke, huM kamAvavA gayelo ane A vagara kAmanI ciMtA kare che. pAchuM e ya dekhAdekhIthI ke phalANA bhAI, to juone, choDI paiNAvavAnI keTalI badhI ciMtA rAkhe che ne huM ciMtA nathI rAkhato. to ciMtAmAM ne ciMtAmAM pachI taDabucA jevo thaI jAya ane choDI paiNavAnI thAya, tyAre cAra jo AkhI jiMdagImAM bhaktinuM saravaiyuM sAruM hoya, satsaMganuM saravaiyuM sAruM hoya, e saravaiyuM moTuM hoya to chellA kalAkamAM citta emAM ne emAM vadhAre rahyA kare. viSayonuM saravaiyuM moTuM hoya to maratI vakhate enuM citta viSayamAM ja jAya. koIne choDI-chokarAM para moha hoya to chellI ghaDIe citta emanAmAM rahyA kare. eka zeThane maravAnuM thayuM, te badhI rIte zrImaMta hatA. chokarAMo ya cAra-pAMca. te kahe, pitAjI have navakAra maMtra bolo. tyAre pitAjI kahe ke A akkala vagarano che. alyA, A bolavuM e huM nathI jANato ? huM mArI meLe bolIza. tuM pAcho mane kahe kahe kare che ! te chokarAM ya samajI gayA ke pitAjInuM citta atyAre koI jagyAe bhame che. pachI badhA

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 331 332 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra chokarAMoe sAra kADhyo ke zemAM bhame che ? ApaNane paisAnuM duHkha nathI, bIjI koI aDacaNa nathI, paNa traNa chokarIo paiNAvI hatI ne eka nAnI chokarI rahI gaI hatI, te zeThanuM citta nAnImAM rahyA karatuM hatuM ke mArI A choDIne paiNAvavAnI rahI gaI, te have AnuM zuM thaze ? te chokarAM samajI gayA, eTale nAnI bahenane jAte mokalI. e kahe che, pappAjI mArI koI ciMtA karazo nahi. tame have navakAra maMtra bolo. tyAre pappAjI ene kazuM bolyA to nahi, paNa manamAM ema samaje ke A haju chokaruM che ne. ene zuM samajaNa ! alyA, javAno thayo te pAMsaro rahe ne. A hamaNAM kalAka-be kalAka pachI javAnuM. te choDI kahe che te karane, navakAra maMtra bolavA mAMDane ! paNa zuM thAya ? zI rIte navakAra bole ? kAraNa enAM karma ene pAMsaro nathI rahevA detAM, enA karma te ghaDIe pharI vaLe che ! A nAnI chokarI paiNAvI nahi, temAM jIva rahe emano. eTale pachI cAra pagane paMchaDAM caDhAvyAM. jo akkalano kothaLo ! javAnuM thayuM ne loka cetave che, to mUA pAMsaro marane ! ne atyAre mUA, have jatI vakhate paiNAvavA beTho chuM ?! sAro chokaro hato tyAre nA paiNAvI, ne have paiNAvavA beTho chuM ?! A to maravA jevo khATalAmAM paDyo hoya to ya nAnI bebInI ciMtA karyA kare ke Ane paraNAvavAnI rahI gaI. te ciMtAmAM ne ciMtAmAM mare eTale pachI jAnavaramAM jAya. jAnavarano avatAra nAlezIbharelo che. paNa manuSya avatAramAM ya samo nA rahe te zuM thAya ? praznakartA : e vAta sAcI, dAdA. dAdAzrI : kAle ApaNane ja uThAvI jAya enuM zuM karavAnuM, guMDA hoya to ? eTale e tamArI ciMtA mArI para soMpavI ke chokarA dAdAne soMpyA evuM kahI devuM. mane soMpI do to baMdha thaI jAya. A badhA ciMtA mane soMpI de che badhA. praznakartA : ame to eTalA mATe ja AvyA chIe ke ciMtA tamane soMpI daIe have. dAdAzrI : hA, te ciMtA baMdha karI devaDAvIe, hA, to have zenI bhAMjagaDa che pachI ? praznakartA : mArI ciMtAvALo svabhAva che eTale nAnI nAnI vAtamAM kaMI ne kaMI thaI jAya ema. dAdAzrI : eTale pyAlA phUTI jAya to ? praznakartA: nA, nA. e bAbata nahIM. paNa A chokarAMonuM kaMI paNa karavAnuM hoya te na thAya, to te bAbatamAM ciMtA thaI jAya mane. dAdAzrI : tethI kaMI chokarAMonuM kAma thaI jAya, ciMtA karavAthI ? ApaNe A ciMtA jo phUTala na thatI hoya, to pachI e baMdha karI devI. jo helpa na karatI hoya ciMtA to baMdha karI devI. | 'tuM mArI ciMtA karIza nahIM amathI vagara kAmanI, jo tAruM zarIra kevuM thayuM." mAne AvuM kahe tyAre pelI ciMtA kare ! A to beu mUrkha che. have je ciMtA karo cho, yAda lAvo cho ne, e igoijhama che, roMga igoijhama che. A igoijhama zuM kAmanAM badhAM. je igoijhama helpaphula nA thAya, nukazAnakAraka hoya, e igoijhamane zuM karavAnuM ? jANyA vagaranAM jagatamAM zuM sukhI thAo cho tame ? ene jANavuM paDe jJAnI puruSanI pAse. jJAnI puruSane AkhA jagatanuM jJAna hoya emane. dareka bAbatanuM tamArI samasyAono ukela lAvI Ape. mAne kahe ke tuM mArI ciMtA karIza nahIM ane A ciMtA kara kara haju ya kare che. kahe che, ciMtA soMpI de dAdAne chorAMono bhAra; geraMTIthI pachI ciMtA na lagAra! praznakartA : A dezamAM evA banAvo bane che ke jo ApaNe barAbara dhyAna na rAkhIe, to koI chokarAone uThAvI jAya, herAna kare ne evuM kaMIka prasaMga bane. enI mATe ciMtA vadhAre thAya che koIka vAra. dAdAzrI : to pachI chokarAone avatAra nahoto Apavo. zuM karavA navarA paDyA hatA ?! ATalo badho bhaDakATa raheto hoya to !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 333 334 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra karyA vagara nA cAle "ohoho !" have A che meDanesa ke DahApaNa ? chokarAM UDADe, tene joyA karo; marIte jIvo e sUtra hade dharo! chokarAM ja che ApaNuM tharmomITara; mokSane lAyaka batAve, choDa phIkara! ApaNo chokaro moTo thayo hoya ne sAmo thaI jato hoya to jANavuM ke A ApaNuM "tharmomITara che. A tamAre dharma keTalo pariNAma pAmyo che, enA mATe "tharmomiTara' kyAMthI lAvavuM ? gharamAM 'tharmomiTara maLI Ave to pachI bahAra vecAtuM levA nA javuM paDe ! chokaro dhola mAre, to paNa kaSAya utpanna thAya nahIM, tyAre jANavuM ke have mokSamAM javAnA ApaNe. be-traNa dholo mAre to ya paNa kaSAya utpanna nA thAya, eTale jANavuM ke A chokaro ja ApaNuM tharmomITara che. evuM tharmomITara bIjuM lAvIe kyAMthI ? bIjo koI mAre nahIM. eTale A tharmomITara che ApaNuM. gharanAM tharmomITara kAma lAge che koI vakhata ? praznakartA : lAge che ne dAdA. dAdAzrI : gharanAM mANaso ja tharmomITara hoya ApaNuM. ApaNane tAva keTalo caDhyo che, keTalo utaryo che, tarata khabara paDI jAya che. ApaNe ene kazuMka salAha ApI ane salAha ApI eTale jarAka kaThaNa bolyA ke tarata e kaMI evuM bole ke ApaNane tAva caDhyo che ke nahIM, e ApaNane khabara paDI jAya. eTale gharamAM beThA tharmomITara ! davAnI dukAnavALAne kahIe, ke tharmomITara lAva joIe, to e zuM Ape ? AvuM tharmomITara koI Ape ? chokarAM koI phero tharmomITara thAya ke na thAya ? praznakartA : thAya. dAdAzrI : tamane khabara paDI jAya ke A tharmomITara che mAruM ? evuM lAge tamane ? eTale tame sAcavIne ja muko. tharmomITara bhAMgI nAkhavuM nathI ? rahevA devuM che ? e hoya to kAma lAgaze. pachI toDI ja nA nAkhone ! tharmomITara kAma lAgene ? eTale sAcavIne mUke ke nA sAcavIne mUke ? eTale sAcavIne mUkI rAkhavuM. praznakartA : dIkaro bhUla karato hoya vyavahAramAM, ApaNe ene na kahIe. Ama saMsAramAM zuM kahe, vyavahAranI aMdara ke bhaI tamAre kahevuM joIe. ApaNe kahevuM joIe, ene samajAvavo joIe. paNa ApaNe kaMI paNa emAM na kahIe, kaMI bolIe ja nahIM kaMI. eTale Dakho kaMI paNa na karIe. kAraNa ke A jJAna lIdhA pachI ApaNane to ema samajAtuM hoya ke A je cAlI rahyuM che e sAmenA ekabIjAnA karmanA udayane laIne cAlI rahyuM che. emAM ApaNe kazuM pheravI zakavAnA nathI. to pachI zuM kAma bolavuM joIe kaMI paNa ?! dAdAzrI : barAbara che, pachI ? praznakartA : basa, ATaluM ja pUchavuM che, e barAbara che ? ApaNe na bolIe kaMI paNa te ? dAdAzrI : haMDreDa parasenTa. ane bolyA hoya to pastAvo karo. khoTuM che mATe pastAvo karo. bAkI ApaNe nA hoya tyAre zuM kare ? udaya pramANe varte che. enA udaya che eTale varte che. jagatanA loko to na bole to ya khoTuM. kAraNa ke to ene khabara nA paDe ke bhUla che. e khoTuM kaMI phaLatuM nathI paNa loko upadeza mAne. praznakartA : hA, paNa emAM ja garabaDa thAya che. kaMI paNa thAya to ema kahe ke tamAre kaMI kahevuM joIe ne. vyavahAra khAtara to kahevuM joIe. dAdAzrI : e to e bole ne ApaNe ya kahevuM ke hA, e barAbara che, vAta sAcI che. e kahevuM ke nA kahevuM e ApaNA hAthanI vAta che ? nA kahevAya e uttama. praznakartA : huM, nA kahevAya e uttama. dAdAzrI : are, nA kahevuM hoya to ya kahevAI jAya che.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 335 praznakartA : hA, e to barAbara che, paNa na kahevAya to... dAdAzrI : enA jevuM eke ya uttama nahIM. ApaNe na hoIe to e zuM kare ? praznakartA: haM, e ja kahuM chuM ne. meM to ekavAra kIdhuM ke huM marI gayo houM to zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : eTale zrImad rAjacaMdra kahe che, "marIne pachI jIvo.' praznakartA: hA, barAbara che. meM to badhAne kIdhuM che ke huM nathI ema ja samajavuM tamAre. dAdAzrI : hA, e to eka vAra mare tene pharI maravuM nA paDe. e paNa thavuM joIe ne ! jIvatA marelAM, jIve to chokaro che te paisA uDADato hoya, to ya paNa marelo mANasa zuM kare ?! joyA kare. evuM A ya che. evuM jIvana hovuM joIe. (13). bhaluM thayuM, na baMdhAI jaMjALa... jJAtInI draSTie vAMjhIyA puNyazALI; gata bhave RNa cUkavyAM have khAlI! ciMtA-biMtA koI dahADo karo cho ? praznakartA : ciMtA bahu nahIM, koIka vakhata ema thAya ke Ama to badhuM ja che, paNa bALaka nathI. dAdAzrI : ohoho ! eTale khAnAro nathI. A badhuM che to ya, khAvAnuM badhuM che paNa khAnAra nA hoya to e ya pAchI upAdhine ! eka jaNa to Avyo hato. ame rahetA'tA ne tyAM badho sAmAna mokalyo, majUro pAse. meM kahyuM, A mAravADI lAge che, pheMTo-beMTo bAMdhyo che ! te moTo milamAlika hato. te AvaDI AvaDI traNa peTIo te jANe zuM ya sAmAna lAvyo hoya ! cAMdInA vAsaNo lAvyo hoya ke zuM ya lAvyo hoya te ! te majUrane mAthe caDhAvIne lAvelo, ane badhuM mukAvaDAvyuM eTale mahIM jarA avAja thayo vAsaNo jevo. eTale samajI gayo ke A kazuMka lAvyo che A mAravADI ! e mAravADIne pUchyuM, bhai, ye kyA he zeTha?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 337 338 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra puNyazALI kahevAya !! tyAre mUA A koNe zIkhavADyuM ? tyAre kahe, mArI zeThANI roja kaca kaca karyA kare che. meM kahyuM, huM AvIza, tyAM AgaLa. pachI zeThANIne samajaNa pADI, pachI DAhyI thaI gaI. zeThane bahu bhAMjagaDa nathI. tamAre to copaDAmAM khAtAM nathI, te sAruM che, nahIM ?! eTale parama sukhiyA ja cho. prajA mATe paiNyA ghaDapaNamAM bIjIvAra; dasa varasanI bIbI maLI to ya thaI hAra! ye kyA cIja hai ? kucha nahIM sAheba, kucha nahIM, kucha nahIM, phUla nahIM ne phUlanI pAMkhaDI, kahe che ! eTale huM samajI gayo A. ' kahyuM, "zeTha A zuM che, ahIM A tophAna, A badhuM lAyA cho te ?!" pachI kahyuM, 'phUlanI pAMkhaDI ahIM kyAM lAyA ? huM kaMI sAdhumahArAja chuM nahIM." tyAre kahe, "nA, nA, Apa svIkAro eTaluM." tyAre meM kahyuM, A zenA jevuM che teno huM tamane dAkhalo ApuM ke tamArI silka mIla che. temAMthI lIMTa Ave che. vadhAre lIMTa Ave che te mane copaDavAM AvyA cho tame, kharuM ne ?! paNa huM konTrAkTano dhaMdho karuM chuM. mArI lIMTa kone copaDuM kaho have. tame ja kaho, tame nyAya karI Apo ke tame to tamArI lIMTa mane copaDI jAva. paNa mArI lIMTa Ave to kone copaDavI ? eTale gabharAI gayo bicAro, A lIMTa kahIne ! meM kahyuM, koIne nA AvatI hoya evuM, sAdhu-saMnyAsIone nA AvatI hoya tyAM copaDI Avo. ahIM kyAM AvyA ? mAre lIMTa bahu Ave che, A konTrAkTano dhaMdho che eTale. pachI mane kahe che, 'paNa sAba..' eTale huM samajyo ke Ane zuM icchA che e to pUchavA do. meM kahyuM, "zeTha zuM joIe che tamAre ? A badhI vastuo pAchI mokalI do. paNa tamAre zuM joIe che e mane kahIne jAva.' 'kucha nahIM kucha nahIM.... zera mITTI, zera mITTI.' 'baLyuM tAruM jIvatara !' zeThane meM kahyuM, "kyA avatAramAM tame baccA vagara rahyA'tA.'' kUtarAmAM gayAM, mAMkaDAmAM baccA, giloDI, bIlADI, phalANI badhe jayAM jayAM juo tyAM baccAM, keLamAM gayA to ya baccAM ! keLane keLa hoya ne, te ene baccA UbhAM thAya pAchAM. jyAM juo tyAM baccAM, baccAM ne baccAM! haju akaLAyo nahIM mUA ? ane pachI meM kahyuM, "mUA, A eka jaNane duniyAmAM rahevA do cokhkho, AkhI duniyAmAM eka taddana yora rAkhone ! zuM karavA AvAM pAchA locA nAkho cho ?" ko'ka avatAra, bahu puNyazALIno avatAra hoya tyAre banyuM nA hoya. kAraNa ke e copaDAno hisAba che baccAM ke nA baccAMno. A avatAramAM mahAna puNyazALI cho ke tamane chokaruM nA thayuM ! te mahAna eka zeThane chokaro nahoto ane karoDa rUpiyAnI pArTI ! zeThane manamAM thatuM ke huM marI jauM to zuM thAya ? sATha varSanI uMmara thaI gayelAM to zuM thAya ? pahelI baIne chokaro nahIM. pahelI baIe rajA ApI ke jAva pharI paiNo, jo tamArI icchA pUrI thatI hoya to ! te zeTha pharI paiyA ! tyAre mAravADaNa 10 varSanI maLI. kAraNa ke pacAsa hajAra rUpiyA ApyA tyAre eka mAravADIe potAnI choDI e zeThane paiNAvI ! have zeThanA manamAM ema ke varSa dahADAmAM marI jaIe to zuM thAya ? have zeTha utAvaLa kare che ke chokaro kema vahelo thAya, chokaro kema vahelo thAya ! to bAdhA rAkhe to chokaro thAya ? kema nA thAya ? bIbI 10 varSanI to chokaro zI rIte thAya ? emaNe nA samajavuM joIe evuM ? ane zeTha nA manamAM bhaDaka pesI gaI ke varSa dahADAmAM marI jauM to zuM thAya ? alyA nathI maravAno ! bhaDaka zuM karavA rAkhe che ?! paNa bhaDaka pesI gaI te zuM thAya ? dAdA, dAdA sAMbhaLatA malakAya; A to sitala paDayuM, vadhu nA javAya! keTalAka to chokarAM 'dAdA, dAdA' kahe, eTale dAdAjI mahIM malakAya ! alyA, chokarAM 'dAdA, dAdA' nA kare, to zuM "mAmA, mAmA" kare ?! A chokarAM 'dAdA, dAdA' kare, paNa mahIM samajatAM hoya ke dAdA eTale thoDA vakhatamAM je marI javAnA che te, je kerIo have nakAmI thaI

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34) mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 339 gaI, kADhI nAkhavAnI thaI enuM nAma dAdA ! ane dAdo mahIM malakAya ke huM dAdo thayo ! AvuM jagata che ! ekuM ya chokarAM nA hoya ne chokaro janme to te hasAvaDAve, bhAIne khUba AnaMda karAvaDAve. tyAre e jAya tyAre raDAvaDAve ya eTaluM ja. mATe ApaNe eTaluM jANI levuM ke AvyA che te jAya, tyAre zuM zuM thAya ? mATe AjathI hasavuM ja nahIM. pachI bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM ne ! gata bhava yAdImAM, to ta khoLe bacyAM; mokSanuM kara, nathI AmAM koI saccA! praznakartA : pAchalA janmanI smRti rahetI nathI, eTale mAMgyA kare. dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, pAchalAM janmonuM yAda nathI rahetuM te ja sAruM che. nahIM to pAchalAM janmonuM jo yAda AvyuM, to vahune pachI kADhI mele tarata. A to badhuM yAda nathI AvatuM to A polaMpola cAlyuM che jagata. Aje chokarAMone soDamAM ghAle che bApa ! bhagavAna zuM hase che ke mUA, gayA avatAramAM kahe che, tAruM mAre moMDhuM jovuM nathI, ciDhAtoto, te ja mANasane A kare che. A jagata e phulsa pereDAIjha che. A lokone zuM bhAna hoya che ? praznakartA H bhagavAna mahAvIrane pAchalAM janmo khabara hatI ne ? dAdAzrI : emane poSAya, e bhagavAnane poSAya. A lokone pAchalAM avatAra dekhAya ne zI dazA thAya A lokonI ! te Amane to dekhAvAM nA ja joIe. A lokone trikALa jJAna Ape, tamane trikALajJAna Ape, to tamArI zI dazA thAya ? evuM che bena, gayA avatAranAM chokarAM kyAM mUkI AvyA ? e nAnAM nAnAM mUkIne AvyA hatA ! AvaDAM AvaDAM chokarA ane choDIo. te ghaDIe to emane choDavAnuM gamatuM paNa nhotuM. manamAM ema ke hajI jIvAya to sAruM, pelo chokaro nAno cho. paNa nA jIvAyuM ane chokarAMchoDIone mUkIne AvyA. te bhUlI gayAM ? lyo ! ane A navo veSa, navI duniyA ! pelA chokarAMone dago karyo ane A navA chokarAM jhAlyAM ! AvuM kevuM karyuM ?! A badhuM to juo ! ane A badhAM Thera Thera AnAM lacakAM mAryA che ! pelI kUtarI enAM kurakuriyAM mukIne Ave ane A mANaso, A baIo enAM baccAne, choDIne, chokarAMne mUkIne Ave. jyAM ne tyAM A ja lacakAM mAra mAra karyA che ! praznakartA : ane AmAM ne AmAM ja lAkho karoDo bhava karI dIdhA. dAdAzrI : hA, evA karoDo avatAra karyA che. mATe A phero A eka avatAramAM ke be avatAramAM, jo mokSe javuM che tethI A vAta karuM chuM, mATe vAtane samajI jAvane ! A 'dAdA' pharI nahIM maLe. A to bhegAM thayA te thayA. nahIM to A pharI bhegAM thaze nahIM. eTale vAta samajI jAva ne ! te anaMta avatAranA pherA chUTI jAya ane Akho ukela AvI jAya. jarA vairAga Avavo joIe ke nA Avavo joIe ? ApaNe nAsI javAnuM nathI kahetAM ke sAdhu thavAnuM nathI kahetA. ane ApaNA RSi ane RSi-patnI joDe rahetAM hatAM, to AkhI jiMdagImAM eka putradAna Ape ane A to pAMca-sAta chokarAM ! eka jaNa mane kahe ke ghera mArI mATe cA pIvA jeTaluM ya dUdha mAre bhAga nathI AvatuM. meM kahyuM, kema ? tyAre kahe ke cAra choDIo che ne be chokarAM che. alyA, tane UMce koNe bAMdhyo hato te ? sarakAre kAyado kADhyo to pAMsarA rahevuM joIe ke nA rahevuM joIe ? pAchA meTarniTI vorDa nIkaLyA che ! te bojo bicArA dhaNIne mAthe ne ! amAre tyAM kaMTrAkTanA kAma mATe majUra baIo kAma kare. mATI kAma ne majUrI mATe baIo, te mAlavaNI baIo hatI. te mane kahe ke zeTha chellA be-traNa dahADA che. tyAre meM ene kahyuM ke to rajA laI le ne. ame tane pagAra ApIzuM. paNa te eka ja dahADo rajA laIne bIje dahADe pAchI AvI. rastAmAM ja ene bALaka janme te eNe hAthamAM laI lIdhuM ane upara mAthe TopalAmAM nAkhIne ghare laI gaI. have kyAM gayo meTarniTI vorDa ! A kUtarAM-bilADIne kyAM meTarniTI vorDa hoya che ? A meTarniTI vorDa kADhIne to mANasane DhIlADhasa karI nAkhyA ane dhaNIne paisA kharca karavAno bojo vadhyo !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 341 342 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mAre tyAM Avo ! jene tyAM che tyAM bhale che. karma pramANe ja maLe saMtAta; jyotiSanA cakkara thaIza herata! have to jhaMpIne besa. paNa nA bese ! e bacco pachI moTo thaIne mAre ne be-cAra, tyAre e bole ke A saMsAra khAro che. tyAre A rAgadveSane kAraNe mITho lAgato'to ! baccAM e to ApaNo hisAba rAga-dveSano hoya, paisAno hisAba nahIM, rAga-dveSanA RNAnubaMdha hoya che. rAga-dveSanA hisAba cUkavavA mATe A baccAM bApAnuM tela kADhe, avaLI ghANIe !! zreNika rAjAne bacce hatuM ne, te roja phaTakAratuM hatuM jelamAM haluM ghAlI detA hatAM. pAchA ko'ka kaheze ke mAre chokarAM nathI. mUA, chokarAMne zuM topane bAre caDhAvavAM che ? AvAM chokarAM hoya te pajave te zA kAmano ? enA karatAM to zera mATI nA hoya te sAruM ane kayA avatAramAM mUA tAre zera mATI nahotI ? A eka manuSya avatAra mahAparANe maLyo che tyAM to mUA pAMsaro mara ne ! ane kaMIka mokSanuM sAdhana khoLI kADha, ne kAma kADhI le. kaI gAdI devAtI te jue patranI rAha; pUtrIonI lAIna lagADe kevI A cAhA praznakartA H ghaNAM che to niHsaMtAna hoya che, to amuka jyotiSa zAstranA badhA upAyo batAve che paNa ethI karIne kaMI prApti thatI nathI, evo koI upAya batAve ke jethI karIne niHsaMtAna hoya ene saMtAna prApta thAya ane enI e upAdhi jAya. evuM Apa kaMI batAvI zako ? dAdAzrI : A AvuM tevuM amane khabara nA hoya. A to amArI lAIna ja nahIM ne ! loko evuM ja vadhAre pUche ne ! praznakartA : hA, paNa Apa samajAvone ke A saMtAna zA hisAbe che ane zA hisAbe nathI hotA ? dAdAzrI : e to jANe badhuM ya. paNa e lAlaca choDe nahIM ne ! jANe to badhA, bIjAne tyAM nyAya karavAno hoya to karI Ape, potAne joItuM hoya tyAM lAlaca choDe nahIM ne, eTale bhUlI jAya ! badhuM samaje InDiyano to. bIjA duHkho maTADavAnAM che, A bIjA badhA keTalAMya prakAranAM duHkho che ! saMtAnanuM to darekane duHkha hoya che ja kyAM ? ko'kane ja hoya e to. darekane to ulTAM chokarAM vadhAre paDatA hoya che. loka kaMTALI gayelA hoya che. saMtAnanuM du:kha to ko'kane hoya ane loke ye lAlacu che bicArAM ! chokarAMne ghara chokarAM nathI, kaheze ! alyA mUA, tArA chokarAM che ne ! sahune chokarAM che, paNa emane nathI. to ya paNa jo AnaMda che ne ! nahIM to pachI manamAM AvuM rAkhe ke sAluM Ane chokaro che ne mane nathI, to UMgha Ave be jaNane ? nA Ave ne ! - te eka jaNa to mane jyAre jue tyAre kahe, 'badhuM sukha che, prajA nathI haju, tenuM duHkha che.' kahyuM, 'prajA nathI te zuM kAyadAthI nahIM hoya praznakartA : Ape kahyuM ke eka-be putra ane eka putrI, pachI badhuM brahmacarya pALavuM joIe. have keTalIka vakhata evuM paNa bane ke be putrI ne putrane badale, putrI ja traNe traNa ke pAMca putrInI lAIna paDI jAya, putra marI jatA hoya to evA saMjogomAM Apano zo abhiprAya ? dAdAzrI : to tamAre zuM karavA che ? kaI gAdI tamArI rahI gaI che, ahIMyA gAdIo koIne tyAM che haju ?! khAvAnuM che nahIM, dUdha pIvAnA paisA nathI ane chokarAM moTA karavAnAM che ! mUA, gAdI rahI gaI hoya to jANe ThIka che ke dasa gAmanuM utpanna che ! nokarIvALA cAra mahinA rajA Ape ne to muzkelImAM mukAya. dUdha pAvAnuM nA hoya. te AvI sthitimAM, chokarAM hoya to nAkhI devA nathI ane nA hoya to bolAvAnI jarUra nathI. hoya to nAkhI devAnAM nathI, hoya to moTA karavAnAM ene ane nA hoya to bolAvAnI jarUra nathI ke Avo, Avo

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 343 344 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra tamane?" tyAre kahe, 'beu jaNe kaMI pApa karyo haze." meM kahyuM, "mokSe javAnI icchA kharI ?" tyAre kahe, 'e kone nA hoya !' to prajA e zuM che e jANo cho tame ? jeTalAM khAtAM bAkI rahyAM hoya ne, eTalAM ja copaDAmAM khAtAM paDe. traNa choDIo ane sAta chokarAM, dasa khAtAM paDe. agara eka choDI ane eka chokaro, eTalA khAtAM paDe. agara bAkI ja nA hoya ene, to A be ja ! UMcAmAM UMcuM ! to vaheluM mokSe javAnuM sAdhana thaI gayuM !! pachI te ene samajaNa paDI gaI. pachI kahe che, A to ghaNuM mArA lAbhamAM ja che. tyAre kahyuM, A to ghaNuM lAbhamAM ja hatuM. Akho kesa lAbhamAM, tame geralAbhamAM samajIne beThA cho. jo copaDA cokhkhA thAya to chokarAM thAya ja nahIM. ne thayo hoya to ya marI jAya. paNa copaDA jeTalAM hoya, eTaluM ghAlamela hoya. te koIne tyAM agiyAre ya hoya che ane koIne tyAM ekano eka bAbo hoya che. tamAre ekano eka ja che ne ? praznakartA : eka ja che. dAdAzrI : te sAruM ! copaDA eTalAM jarA ochAM citaryA ! AvA traNa hota to zI dazA thAta ? nahIM. eka kALa evo Avyo hato. A to kALe kALe badhuM badalAyA kare. te loka A bAju ja vaLI gayeluM. eTale pachI A mUkeluM, ke bhaI jo paiNaze nahIM, chokarAM nahIM hoya to pachI sarAvaze koNa ? ne sarAvaze nahIM to gati sArI nahIM thAya, evuM te dahADe badhuM mUkeluM. enuM tophAna che badhuM ! RNAnubaMdhano hisAba hoya ne, to chokarAM Ave. A hisAba vagara koI Ave ja nahIM eTale e moTAmAM moTA puNyazALI ke jene ghare prajA bolAve to ya nA thAya. copaDAmAM hisAba hoya to Ave ne ! hisAba cokhkho karatAM karatAM AvyA hoya. e bahu puNyazALI kahevAo tame. hisAba ATalo cokhkho pyora laIne pharo cho ! praznakartA : emane jarA e ja samAdhAna joItuM hatuM. emane A vAkyathI samAdhAna thaI gayuM, emanA patnIne paNa A vAkyathI samAdhAna thaI gayuM. paNa pelA mA-bApa je che jUnI peDhInA, jUnI samajanA. enAM mananI aMdara ema thayA kare che ke A jaja jevo mAro chokaro ane enI pAchaLa koI have dIvo ya nahIM kare ! dAdAzrI : e to AvuM ja UbhuM thayeluM che A badhuM. have pachI dIvo hoya te kolaso nIkaLe che ke e zuM nIkaLe che, e zuM khabara paDe ! paNa jagatanA A lokoe eka jAtanI mohanIya ghAlI dIdhI. nA mohanIya hoya tene caDhAve, topane bAre ! e mahIM copaDAmAM nA hoya to zI rIte Ave ? kyAMthI Ave ? A to bhaNelAM che, paNa to ya bAvAo pAse jAya ane bAvAo chokarAMo Ape che, kahe che. jo tamAruM che e tamArI pAse AvavAnuM che, tamAruM nathI e to zI rIte Ave ?! kAcI samaje tIkaLe, hAya varALa; zANo kahe, bhaluM thayuM bhAMgI jaMjALa! koNe ghAlyuM sarAvavAnuM tUta; paraNavuM ja paDenuM ghAlyuM bhUta! praznakartA : e pota-pati patnI be ja che. emane bALaka nathI, eTale sAdhAraNa rIte emanA vAIphanI aMdara manamAM e thayA kare ke bALaka nathI ane pAchA jaja jevI moTI pratiSThita pojhizana. eTale emanA phAdhara-madhara badhAne ema thayA kare, ke Amane chokaruM nathI eTale e badhAne mananI aMdara kaleza thayA kare. paNa ApanuM jyAre A vAkya vAMcyuM ke saMtAna jo na hoya to e bahu moTo puNyazALI hoya to tene Avo yoga bese. e jarA samajAvo Apa. dAdAzrI : kone kaheluM A ? saMtatinuM A aMdara UMcA pustakomAM ghAlI dIdhuM che. A lokoe. kAraNa ke lokone pelI bAju draSTi vadhAre hatI. have Ama pUruM samajadAra nahIM ane brahmacarya tarapha draSTi vadhAre hatI A kALamAM jene chokarA nA hoya e mahApuNyazALI ! copaDo ja cokhkho ! udhAra nahIM ne jamA ya nahIM, e mahApuNyazALI kahevAya. tyAre

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 345 346 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pAchA bIjA khAtAM mahIM ghAle, 'tuM amArA chokarAM jevo ja chuM !" alyA zuM topane bAre caDhAvavo che !! enA bApane tyAM ja rahevA de ne ! ApaNe nahIM cItareluM to ya A zI dhamAla ? paNa Ama chetarAya che. jJAnIo zuM kahe che ? ke evA DAhyA thaI jAva, ke mohathI chetarAva nahIM koI jagyAe. mohano mAra khAva cho tame ! AvuM jJAna maLyA pachI koI mANasa pAchAM jatAM haze ? e to ahIM thoDA ghaNA paisA lAvata. ne be rUmo rAkhIne rahe ne satsaMga karyA kare. bahu DabAvALo hoya tene copaDo bahu lAMbo hoya. A to mArA chokarAM jevo ja che. tyAre pachI bairI ene javAba Ape, ema to kaMI DhIMcaNe dUdha AvatAM haze ke ? evuM kahe to ya pAMsaro nA rahe. jJAnIo bahu pAkAM hoya. are, aDeluM hoya tene pheMkI nA de ane nA aDavuM hoya tene coMTADe nahIM. ane A loko zuM kare che ? nA aDeluM hoya tene coMTADe ane aDeluM hoya ene pheMkI de. te dhakamaka dhakamaka kare, nathI A ya nikAla karato, nathI pelo nikAla karato. e A bAbatamAM jJAnIo bahu pAkAM hoya. tIrthakara bhagavAna thayA te amathA thayA haze, kaMI ? zuM emane choDIo nahotI ? jamAI nahotA ? badhuM ya hatuM. paNa aDavA de e bIjA ! ane bahArathI amArA jamAIrAja AvyA, jamAIrAja ! bole, abhinaya kare, nATaka badhuM kare paNa aDavA-baDavA de nahIM. ane A to Ama chAtIe ghAle. alyA, melane pULo. zAM vahAla AvyAM ! AvA vahAla hotAM haze ?! vahAla AtmA joDe hoya. pudgalanA zAM vahAla ?! je pudgala gaMdhAI UThe kalAka pachI, hAya nahIM to bIje dahADe jovA jevo thaI jAya. samaja paDIne tamane mArI vAta ? praznakartA : barobara che. dAdAzrI : samajIne cAlo. have koNa cetave AvuM ? ane RNAnubaMdha, copaDe hisAba che, to pajave to ya sahana karavuM ApaNe. paNa pajavIne pachI ApaNane choDato hoya to pAchuM pharI tyAM javuM ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : e kahe ke amAre have tamArI vAta jANavAnI jarUra nathI. to 'bhaluM thayuM bhAMgI jaMjALa.' nA choDe A loko to. jyAM sudhI kerImAMthI rasa Ave che tyAM sudhI chokarAM ya nA choDe. rasa nA Ave pachI pheMkI de. nahIM to nAnuM chokaruM pheMkI de kerI ? ApaNe kahIe ke kerI pheMkI, de joIe ? paNa nA pheMke. mahIM rasa Ave che ne ! te e to bApano rasa chokaro cAkhI gayo hoya, te pachI mahIM jyAre goTaluM ne choDiyuM rahe, tyAre bApAne pheMkI de ! tyAre ApaNe nA samajavuM joIe baLyuM ke rItasara enI hada hoya ! mohanI hada hoya ke nA hoya ? have moha nahIM thAya ? praznakartA H nahIM thAya. dAdAzrI : A sukhamAM ja rahezone ? praznakartA: A benanI dIkarI che, bhANeja che. dAdAzrI : hA, evuM besADe che. ko'kane khoLI lAve. koI nA AvatA hoya to ya khoLI lAve. have besADyA pachI zuM thAya ? bhUlacUka evaDI moTI kare che. besADe che pAchAM ! ane pAchAM enuM rakSaNa kare, rAte jAgIne. rAte e jAgaraNa kare bApA ! ApaNe ema nathI kahetA ke bAvA thaI jAva, chokarAMne moTA karo, chokarAMne saMskAra Apo. bhaNAvo, gaNAvo badhuM karo. paNa enA vagara game nahIM evuM karI nAkho cho ? chokarAM vagara mane gamatuM nathI. evo kevo mANasa che ? mAre tyAM che te jAbuMDAnuM jhADa che. eTale jAbuMDA vagara mane gamatuM nahIM, enAM jevI vAta karuM chuM. A to badhA keTalAya jhADa hoya naryA ane A chokarAM, e chokarAM to manuSyanA avatAra che. jo manuSyamAM AvI manuSyapaNAnuM sArthaka nA karI gayo, kAma nA kADhI gayo, to dUdhImAM ja gayone bicAro ! kyAM RSi-muti paiNe eka putradAta; viSayAMdhe sarjAvA phemiliplAta! A dUdhI hoya ne, te pAMdaDe-pAMdaDe bese baLI. tevuM A ya saMsArI velA badhA sarakhA. e pachI manuSyano velo hoya ke galakAno velo hoya,

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 347 348 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra velA badhA sarakhA. ene bese ke nA bese ? pahelAM to bAra bAra besatAM hatAM. ApaNe kahIe keTalA chokarAM che kAkAne ? tyAre kahe, sAta choDIo che ne pAMca chokarAM che. e koI TIkhaLI mANasa hoya te kaheze, eka Dajhana pUrAM ! praznakartA : sAMbhaLuM chuM huM. dAdAzrI : aDapalAM karatAM zIkhelA nahIM !! A badho mAla e no e ja badhA. paNa A zarIranI milakata sArI rahe eTalA mATe A vastu che. jarA thoDo vakhata ema ne ema bharAya ne, bhale lIkeja thayeluM hoya paNa bharelo hoya to jIve jarA. kAThuM sAruM majabUta hoya ne ! ane peluM lujha jhaTa thaI jAya. eTale ApaNA loko kerIo besavA nahIM detA. nAnI uMmaranA AMbA hoyane, tyAre mora Ave ene. paNa ApaNA loko zuM kare ? mora khaMkherI nAkhe. nahIM to AMbo vadhe nahIM pachI. eTale atyAre eka bAbo ne eka bebI basa. ke be bahu thaI gayuM. pahelA Dajhana joyelAM. aDhAre chokarAM joyelA ! be strIovALA hoya. jyAM sudhI huM AvyuM nathI tyAM sudhI choDavo lIlo dekhAya. ne huM AvyA pachI e choDa sUkAvA mAMDe. A badhuM pUchayuM te tamane gamyuM badhuM ? badhI vAtacIta gamI ? emAM vAMdho uThAvavA jevo nhoto. vivAda karavAnuM mana thatuM hotuM ne ! e vivAda karavAnuM nA mana thAya e sAcuM jJAna ane jyAM vivAda UbhA thayA tyAM ajJAna. e pachI kAgaDAnI peTha kau kau kau karyA kare. Dajhana pUrAM atyAre kema nahIM thatA ? atyAre eka-dona-tIna. cAra to ko'kane ja hoya. kema DajhanavALA nIkaLatA nathI koI ? DajhanavALA dekhAya che koI jagyAe ? pahelA strI ne puruSa saMsAra abhaDAvelo nahIM. pelI cauda varSanI paiNe ane A soLa varSano paiNe te thoDuM ghaNuM lIkeja thayeluM hoya. khAsa kaMI lIkeja nahIM. e tyArathI cAlyuM te pAMdaDe-pAMdaDe bese ane A to badhA lIkeja thaI gayelA. moTI uMmare paiNyA eTale zuM thayeluM ? AkhuM lIkeja ja thaI gayeluM hoya. eTale pachI eka-be rahyA hoya mahIM phUla ! samajAya evI vAta che ke ? A vAta amArI sAcI che, evuM ame koI vAra kahIe nahIM. kAraNa ke e to khoTI paNa nIkaLe. kAraNa ke amArI vAta sAcI che, e amArI draSTimAM ! mokSanA mArgamAM amArI vAta sAcI che evuM haMDreDa parasenTa kahIe. paNa AmAM to khoTI paNa nIkaLe, A have buddhibaLanuM kAma che ! A moTI uMmaranA nicovAI gayelA hoya ane pachI paiNe aThThAvIsa varasano thAya tyAre. pachI eka bAbo ekalo thAya. pachI rAma rAma ! pelA bene ya evA. e tamane khabara nA paDe. paNa mArI pAse huM to DokaTarane, eTale mArI pAse A loko-strIo che te potAnI bAra varSanI uMmarathI potAnuM lakhIne Ape, zuM karyuM te, bhUlo thaI te ! te cAlIsa varSanI thayelI hoya tyAM sudhInI badhI bhUlo mane lakhIne Ape. ane puruSo ATha varSathI lakhIne Ape. ATha varSano hato tyArathI te ya cAlIsa varSano sudhI lakhIne Ape. eTale badhI mane to khabara ja hoya ne ! mAla zuM che AmAM ! ATha varSano hato. tyArathI aDapalAM zIkhyo ! kyArathI aDapalAM karatAM zIkhe ? kema bolatA nathI ? bALa mare du:kha paDe zuM kAraNa? hisAba patye ta TaLe ko'thI maraNa! praznakartA : gaye varase eno eka bAbo gujarI gayA ne tyAre kahe che mane bahu ja du:kha thayeluM ne bahu ja menTalI bahu sahana karavuM paDeluM. to ke evuM ApaNane jANavAnuM mana thAya ke ApaNe evuM zuM haze ke jethI karIne AvuM thAya ema. gayA bhavamAM zuM karyuM hoya to AvuM Ave ApaNane ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne ke jeTalo jeno hisAba eTalA ja ApaNI joDe rahe e hisAba patI jAya eTale copaDAmAMthI judA thaI jAya. basa A Ano kAyado che. praznakartA : koI bALaka janmIne tarata marI jAya che, to te enuM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 349 350 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra eTaluM ja leNadeNa ? dAdAzrI : jeno jeTalo hisAba hoya che mA-bApa joDe rAgadveSano eTalo pUro thaI gayo, te mA-bApane raDAvIne jAya, khUba raDAve. mAthA hauM phoDAve. pachI DokaTara pAse davAnA paisA kharcAvaDAve, badhuM karAvIne chokaro jato rahe ! A ApaNA vaDodarAmAM zukkaravArI che, tevuM tame jANone ? te A zukkaravArImAM loka bheMso lAve, te Aje bheMsa cogaradamathI joI karIne lAve. badhA dalAlone pUche ke, 'kevI lAge che ?" tyAre badhA dalAla kahe ke, 'bahu sarasa che.' te bheMsa ghera bAMdhI jAya, pachI traNa dahADA pachI te marI jAya. alyA, A te zuM hatuM ? A to pelAne paisA apAvIne gaI. nahIM to ene tyAM ja nA marI jAta ? AvuM bane kharuM ? A badhA hisAba cUkavavAnA che. chokaruM janmIne tarata marI jAya, e badhAne raDAvIne jAya. enA karatAM nA Ave to sArA, evuM badhAne pachI thAya. alAtI vADItuM amAnata phaLa; dIdhAM lIdhAMto harSa-zoka na kara! che to tene have 'leTa go' karavAnuM. praznakartA : e to barobara che, allAnI amAnata ApaNI pAse hatI te laI lIdhI ! dAdAzrI : hA, basa. A badhI vADI ja allAnI che. praznakartA : A pramANenuM enuM mRtyu thayuM te ApaNA kukarma haze ? dAdAzrI : hA. chokarAMnAM ya kukarma ne tamArA ya kukarma, sArAM karmo hoya to teno badalo sAro maLe. praznakartA: ApaNe ApaNo doSa zodhI zakIe ke A bAbatathI ApaNuM kukarma thayuM hatuM ? dAdAzrI : hA, e badhuM jaDe, ene mATe satsaMgamAM besavuM paDe. A allAnI vADI che. tame ya allAnI vADImAM cho ne e chokaro ya allAnI vADImAM che. allAnI marajI pramANe badhuM cAlyA kare che, emAM saMtoSa levAno che. allA jemAM rAjI temAM ApaNe ya rAjI ! basa, khuza thaI javAnuM che ! praznakartA: to to pachI kazo prazna raheto ja nathIne ! dAdAzrI : allAe zuM kahyuM che ke tame calAvanAra ho to tame ciMtA karo. paNa calAvavAnuM mAre che to tame zene mATe ciMtA karo cho ? eTale ciMtA karo cho e allAno guno karo cho. praznakartA : eTale allA che, enI allAhImAM ApaNe Dakhala nahIM karavAnI ema ? dAdAzrI : Dakhala to nahIM, paNa ciMtA ya nahIM karavI joIe. ApaNe ciMtA karIe to allA nAkhuza thaI jAya. praznakartA: je savAlo pedA thAya, enA javAbo to joIene ? dAdAzrI : savAla Ubho thAya che, eno javAba eTalo ja che ke allA kahe che ke, 'che mAruM, ne tuM zuM kAma ciMtA kare che ?" ciMtA nahIM karavAnI. ApaNe enI sevA karavAnI. davA karavAnI, TheTha sudhI enA tamAre je kaMI pUchavuM hoya te pUcho. allAne tyAM pahoMcavA mATe je kaMI aDacaNa Ave te amane pUcho. te ame tamane dUra karI ApIe. praznakartA : mArA dIkarAnuM akasmAtathI maraNa thayuM, to te akasmAtanuM kAraNa zuM ? dAdAzrI : A jagatamAM je badhuM AMkhathI jovAmAM Ave che, kAnathI sAMbhaLavAmAM Ave che, e badhuM "rIleTiva karekTa' che, taddana sAcI nathI e vAta ! A deha paNa ApaNo nathI, to chokaro ApaNo kema karIne thAya ? A to vyavahArathI, loka-vyavahArathI ApaNo chokaro gaNAya che, kharekhara e ApaNo chokaro hoto nathI. kharekhara to A deha paNa ApaNo nathI. eTale je ApaNI pAse rahe eTaluM ja ApaNuM ane bIjuM badhuM ja pArakuM che ! eTale chokarAMne potAno chokaro mAna mAna karIe to upAdhi thAya ane azAMti thAya ! e chokaro have gayo, khudAnI evI ja icchA

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 351 upara mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mArI vAta ? prayatna karavAnA. ApaNe prayatna karavAnA adhikArI, ApaNane ciMtA karavAno adhikAra nathI. mare teto na karAya kalpAMta; du:kha pahoMce priyate samaja vAta! maryA tenI na karAya ciMtA; jIve che teno kharo bata pitA! ApaNA hAthanA khela nathI A ane ene bicArAne tyAM du:kha thAya che. ApaNe ahIM duHkhI thaIe enI asara ene tyAM pahoMce che. te ene ya sukhI nA thavA daIe ne ApaNe ya sukhI na thaIe. eTale zAstrakAroe kahyuM ke, 'gayA pachI upAdhi nA karazo.' tethI ApaNA lokoe zuM karyuM ke garuDa purANa besADo, phalANuM besADo, pUjA karo, ne manamAMthI bhUlI jAva. tame evuM kazuM besADyuM hatuM ? to ya bhUlI gayAM nahIM ? chokarAM marI gayA pachI enI pAchaLa enI ciMtA karavAthI ene du:kha paDe che. ApaNA loko ajJAnatAthI AvuM badhuM kare che, eTale tamAre jema che tema jANIne zAMtipUrvaka rahevuM joIe. khoTI mAthAkUTa karIe eno artha zo che te ? badhe ja chokarAM maryA vagara koI hoya ja nahIM ! A to saMsAranA RNAnubaMdha che, hisAba levAdevAnAM che. amAre thI bAbA-bebI hatAM, paNa te marI gayAM. mahemAna Avyo hato te mahemAna gayo, e ApaNo sAmAna ja kyAM che ? ApaNe hauM nathI javAnuM ? ApaNe jIvatAM hoya ene zAMti Apo, gayuM e to gayuM, ene saMbhAravAnuM ya choDI do. ahIM jIvatA hoya, jeTalAM Azrita hoya ene zAMti ApIe, eTalI ApaNI pharaja. A to gayelAne saMbhArIe ane Amane zAMti nA apAya, e kevuM ? eTale pharajo cUko cho badhI. tamane evuM lAge che kharuM ? gayuM e to gayuM. gajavAmAMthI lAkha rUpiyA paDI gayA ne pachI nA jaDe eTale ApaNe zuM karavAnuM ? mAthuM phoDavAnuM? praznakartA : bhUlI javAnuM. dAdAzrI : hA, eTale A badhI aNasamajaNa che. ApaNe bApadIkarA koI rIte hotAM ja nathI. dIkaro mare to ciMtA karavA jevuM che ja nahIM. kharI rIte jo ciMtA karavA jevI hoya jagatamAM to mA-bApa mare to ja manamAM ciMtA thavI joIe. chokaro marI jAya. to chokarAMne ane ApaNe zuM levAdevA ? mA-bApe to ApaNI upara upakAra karyo hato, mAe to ApaNane peTamAM nava mahinA rAkhyA pachI moTo karyo. bApAe bhaNavA mATe phIo ApI che, bIjuM badhuM ApyuM che. kaMIka guNa mAnavA jevA hoya to mA-bApanA hoya, chokarAMne zuM levAdevA ? chokaro to milakata laIne gALo bhAMDe. mATe chokarA joDe saMbaMdha rAkhavAno. paNa marI jAya to AvI rIte manamAM du:kha nahIM rAkhavAnuM. tamane kema lAge che praznakartA: paNa e bhUlAtuM nathI, bApa ane dIkarA vacce vyavahAra evo hato ke vyavasthita cAlato hato, eTale e bhUlAya evuM nathI. dAdAzrI : hA, bhUlAya evuM nathI, paNa ApaNe na bhUlIe to enuM ApaNane duHkha thAya, ane ene tyAM du:kha thAya. evuM ApaNAM manamAM ene mATe duHkha karavuM e ApaNane bApa tarIke kAmanuM nahIM. praznakartA : ene kaI rIte duHkha thAya ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe ahIM du:kha karIe enI asara tyAM pahoMcyA vagara rahe nahIM. A jagatamAM to badhu phonanI peTha che, Telivijhana jevuM che A jagata ! ane ApaNe ahIM upAdhi karIe to e pAcho AvavAno che ? koI raste AvavAno nathI ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to upAdhi karIe to ene pahoMce che ane enA nAma upara ApaNe dharma bhakti karIe to ya ene pahoMce che ne ene zAMti thAya che. ene zAMti karavAnI vAta tamane kema lAge che ? ane ene zAMti karIe e tamArI pharaja chene ? mATe evuM kaMIka karo ne, ke ene sAruM lAge. eka dahADo skUlanAM chokarAMone jarA peMDA khavaDAvIe evuM kaMIka karIe.

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354 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ApaNe tyAM eka bhAI AvelA, eno ekano eka dIkaro hato te marI gayo. meM ene pUchayuM, 'chokarAMne ghara chokaro che ke nahIM ?" tyAre kahe che, "che ne, haju nAno che, paNa A mAro chokaro to marI gayone !' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'tame ahIMthI bIje bhavamAM jazo to tyAM zuM Avaze ? tyAre kahe ke, 'tyAM to badhuM bhUlI javAya.' eTale chokaro gayo enI ciMtA nathI, A to nahIM bhUlavAthI ja bhAMjagaDa che ! pachI meM kahyuM ke, 'huM tamane bhUllAvI devaDAvuM ?" tyAre kahe, 'hA bhUlADI do.' eTale pachI meM ene jJAna ApyuM, pachI e bhUlI gayAM. pachI ene kahyuM ke, have yAda karo joIe. to ya yAda nA Ave. eTale dAdA bhagavAna tamane sopyuM' evuM bolajo. tamane khAtarI che ke nathI ? so e so TakA khAtarI che ke thoDI kAcI che ? dAdAne soMpajone, badho ukela AvI jaze ! mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 353 praznakartA : e badhuM karyuM ! dAdAzrI : hA, paNa evuM pharI pharI karIe. jyAre kaMIka sagavaDa thAya ne pAMca-pacAsanuM evuM kaMIka kAma karo ke jethI ene pahoMce. praznakartA : A bhAIne dIkaro marI gayAnuM je duHkha thAya che ne, paNa mAre potAne evo anubhava thayelo ke mA-bApa gujarI gayA pachI mane koI divasa yAda ja nathI AvyAM. marI gayAM ne pAMca-sAta dahADA pachI memarI paNa nathI AvI, e zAthI ? dAdAzrI : tamAre e sAruM kahevAya, mA-bApa eTalAM puNyazALI. jo tamane memarI hota to emane duHkha thAta. tamane mArI vAta samajAya chene ? mATe jyAre yAda Avene, tyAre eTaluM bolajo ne ke "he dAdA bhagavAna A chokaro tamane soMpyo !" eTale teno ukela Avaze. tamArA dIkarAne saMbhArIne enAM AtmAnuM kalyANa thAya evuM manamAM bolyA karajo, AMkhamAM pANI nA AvavA dezo. tame to jaina thIarIvALA mANaso cho. tame to jANo ke AtmA gayA pachI evI bhAvanA bhAvavI joIe ke, 'emanA AtmAnuM kalyANa ho ! he kRpALudeva, emanA AtmAnuM kalyANa karo.' tene badale ApaNe manamAM DhIlA thaIe te poSAya nahIM. ApaNA ja potAnA svajanane du:khamAM mUkIe te ApaNuM kAma nahIM. tame to DahApaNavALA, vicArazIla, saMskArI loko, eTale jyAre jyAre yAda Ave tyAre AvuM bolavuM ke, 'emanA AtmAnuM kalyANa thAva. he vItarAga bhagavAna, emanA AtmAnuM kalyANa karo." eTaluM bolyA karavuM. kRpALudevanuM nAma lezo, dAdA bhagavAna kahezo to ya kAma thaze. kAraNa ke dAdA bhagavAna ane kRpALudeva AtmArUpe eka ja che ! dehathI judA dekhAya che. AMkhomAM judA dekhAya, paNa vastu tarIke eka ja che. eTale mahAvIra bhagavAnanuM nAma dezo, to ya ekanuM eka ja che. emanA AtmAnuM kalyANa thAva eTalI ja ApaNe niraMtara bhAvanA rAkhavAnI. ApaNe jenA joDe niraMtara rahyA, joDe khAdhuM pIdhuM, to ApaNe emanuM kema kalyANa thAya evI bhAvanA bhAvIe. ApaNe pArakA mATe sArI bhAvanA bhAvIe, to A to ApaNA potAnA mANasane mATe to zuM nA karIe ?! maraNa pachInuM laukika karavAnuM kahe; raDe badhAM, paNa aMdara nATaka rahe! chokaro marI gayo hoya to bApa raDavA lAge. chokarAMnA mAmAne, enA kAkAne, e badhAne ApaNe pUchIe ke, 'tame kema raDatA nathI ?" tyAre kaheze, 'ema raDe kaMI pAlave kharuM ? je janme e maravAnuM ja chene !" juone, A loko kaMI 'vyavasthita' nathI jANatA ? paNa ApaNane to pelo svArtha che ke mAro chokaro moTo thayo hota to mane lAbha thAta, e badho svArtha che. bIjA koI raDavA nathI lAgatAne ?! praznakartA : have nA raDe, to samAjamAM loko pAchA ema kaheze ke Ane to kaMI lAgatuM ya nathI. - dAdAzrI : hA. evuM ya bole. samAjanA loko to be bAjunuM bole. sUI rahyo hoya tyAre kaheze ke, 'DhoMgarAnI peTha suI rahyo che. ane doDadhAma karato hoya tyAre kaheze ke, 'Akho dahADo doDadhAma ryA kare che, kUtarAnI peTha bhaTaka bhaTaka karyA kare che.' tyAre ApaNe kyAM rahevuM ? eTale samAjanI vAta kadI eTalI badhI dhyAna para nA levAya, vyavahArika rIte dhyAna para levAya. ApaNane hitakArI hoya eTalI vAta dhyAna para

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 355 upa6 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra laIe, bIjI badhI vAto dhyAna para nA levAya. evuM dhyAna para laIe to to pAra ja nA Ave ne ?! samAjanA manamAM ema thAya ke A paththara jevuM hRdaya che, to ApaNe bAtharUmamAM jaIne AMkhamAM pANI copaDIne AvIe. kAraNa ke A to laukika che. loko ya nathI kahetAM ke, 'laukikamAM Avajo.' laukika eTale banAvaTI. laukikano artha ja banAvaTI, juThuM ! pelAM chAtI phUTe evI rIte A ya chAtI kare, paNa chAtI toDI nA nAkhe. Ama hAtha para hAtha Thoke. jo kharekharuM laukika kare che ne ? ane sahusahunuM saMbhArIne raDe. mAro nAno bhAI marI gayo tene saMbhAre, pelI enA dhaNIne saMbhAre ne pachI raDe ! have A aNasamajaNano kyAre pAra Ave ? A gAyo-bheMso koI raDatI nathI. emane ya bAbA marI jAya che, bebIo marI jAya che, paNa raDatI karatI nathIne ! paNa A to sudharyA te vadhAre raDe ! che gAyo-bheMsone koI dahADo bUmabarADo ke, mArI bebI marI gaI ke mAro bAbo marI gayo ?" ane mAruM kahevAnuM ke koInAM maraNa pAchaLa Aje tame raDavAnAM ho, tyAM zarata karo ke, 'bhAI, traNa varSa sudhI huM 2hyA ja karIza; pachI raDavAnuM baMdha karIza', evI kaMI zarata karo, 'egrImenTa' karo. A to baheno paNa raDavA Ave to temane kahIe ke, 'zarata karIne pachI raDo ke traNa varSa sudhI ApaNe raDIzuM.' paNa A to paMdara dahADA pachI kazuM ya nahIM ! ne pachI sArI sADI paherIne hasI hasIne laganamAM hauM jAya !! AnuM kAraNa zuM che ? bebhAnapaNuM che ! have evA bebhAna joDe ApaNe kyAM raDavA besIe ? ApaNe to tyAM AgaLa amathuM nATaka karavuM paDe ! tyAM AgaLa kaMI ApaNAthI hasAya nahIM. hasIe to mUrakha kahevAIe. paNa dekhAva to karavo paDe ne ? nATakamAM jema abhinaya kare che, evo abhinaya karavo paDe. maNibhAI mane kahe, 'tuM kAma para rahe, huM phAdharanI khabara kADhI AvuM." pachI e bhAdaraNa gayA thoDI vAra pachI mane sahaja vicAra Avyo ke meM to badhAMne kAma soMpI dIdhuM che, lAvane huM ya khabara kADhI AvuM te pachI huM to UpaDyo, ne gADImAM besI gayo. rastAmAM maNibhAI borasadathI AvatA hatA. te sAmA bhegA thayAM. temaNe mane pUchyuM ke, 'tuM Avyo ke ?" meM kahyuM, hA mane mahIMthI vicAra Avyo ke jauM. te huM badhAne kAma soMpIne Avyo chuM." tyAre emaNe mane kahyuM, 'to have tuM tyAM ghera jA ane have huM kAma para pAcho jAuM chuM.' phAdhara pAse Avyo eTale emaNe rAtre ne rAtre javAnI taiyArI karI dIdhI, tyAM sudhI e jatA na hatA. eTale jene khabhe caDhavAnuM hoya tene ja khabhe caDhAya. praznakartA : jIvane zarIranI mAyA kharIne ? dAdAzrI : zarIranI mAyA nathI. ene A bIjI mAyA che. A AMkhe badhuM dekhAya che. A mAro chokaro, A mArA chokarAMno chokaro, tenI bahu mAyA che ane chokarAMno chokaro dekhAya to ene, 'bAbA ahIM Ava, ahIM Ava." kare. ene AMkhe dekhAya che tyAM sudhI A badhuM bahu game. ApaNe kahIe ke, 'kAkA, have mAyA jatI nathI ? tyAre kaheze ke, 'nA, bA, haju AMkhe dekhAya che tyAM sudhI sAruM che.' ApaNe kahIe, 'kAkA, A paga bhAMgI gayA che, hAtha bhAMgI gayA che, khavAtuM nathI to ya." tyAre kAkA kahe, "nA, haju AMkhe dekhAya che tyAM sudhI sAruM che !' javAnI koIne ya icchA nathI hotI. janmIte bALa tarata jAya marI; pUrvabhavatuM vera vasula karI! deha choDI javAnI IcchA na koIne hajI AMkhe dekhAya karI jIvavuM hoya ! praznakartA : bALaka janmIne nAno hoya ne marI jAya, nAnuM bALaka marI jAya. to e ene kevo avatAra male. eNe kevA karma karelAM hoya ? dAdAzrI : e to evuM che ne, nAnuM bALaka AvyuM che, te ApaNo ahIMno ja paiDo thayelo mANasa marI gayo hoya ane pAchaLa paNe AgaLa amArA phAdharanI tabiyata sArI nahIM. eTale amArA moTAbhAI

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 353 358 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra e tarata janma laI le. enA mA-bApane jarAka thoDuM herAna karavAno hoya, peTamAM jaIne duHkhADavAnuM. vera hoya ne thoDuMka, te jaIne peTamAM saLI karIne cUMka mArI Ape ane pachI janamatI vakhate vAMko thaIne janma mUo. te peTa kapAvaDAve to ja choDe ane pachI e ya vera vALavA Ave che. A chokarAM badhAM vera vALavA Ave che A kaLiyugamAM ane satyugamAM prema karavA AvatAM hatAM. eTale vera vALavA Ave che, jeTaluM vera vALI jAya eTaluM sAcuM. e pachI ahIMthI gayo. eTale pAchuM bIjI jagyAe eMsI varSa jIve pAcho. ahIM ATaluM vera haze ApaNuM, te eTaluM pUruM karIne jato rahe haDahaDATa. A badhA vera che. dhaNI joDe ya vera che A kaLiyugamAM. dhaNIne bairI joDe ya vera che, mATe aTAvI-paTAvIne kAma laIne dahADA kADhI nAkho. ApaNe Avato avatAra to nA bagaDe baLyo ! AvI phasAyA e AvI phasAyA. kema bolatAM nathI ? nathI AvI phasAyA ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : tyAra pachI have je phasAyA e phasAyA. lakkaDa kA lADu khAya, vo bhI pastAyA, nahIM khAyA vo bhI pastAyA. nA paiNe to ya pastAvo che, nahIM ?! kahetA haze ? eka AkhA 'kalpa'nA aMta sudhI bhaTakaze. raDe, mAthAphoDe ane pachI kaheze, "DaoNkaTara bolAvI lAvo.' ApaNe kahIe pharI DaoNkaTara nA bolAvavAnA hoya to phoDajo, nahIM to hamaNe rahevA done ? praznakartA : ATalAM badhA varSo bagaDe che evI samajaNa nahIM. dAdAzrI : emane bhAna ja nathI ne ? ATalAM mATe pustakomAM A badhuM ApaNe lakhyuM che ke "kalpa'nA aMta sudhI bhaTakavAnuM thaze tAre. enuM nAma kalpAMta. kalpAMtano artha koIe karyo nathI ne ? tame Aja pahelI vakhata sAMbhaLyone ? praznakartA : pahelI vakhata sAMbhaLyo. dAdAzrI : eTale A 'kalpa' nA aMta sudhI bhaTakavAnuM thAya ane loka zuM kahe ? bahu kalpAMta kare. are mUA, kalpAMta eTale pUcha to kharo, ke kalpAMta eTale zuM ? te ko'ka ja mANasa kalpAMta kare. kalpAMta to ekano eka chokaro hoya ne, AvI sthiti hoya ne to ja bane kalpAMta. bhagavAna kahe che ke ciMtA karanArAne be daMDa che ane ciMtA nA karanArAne eka ja daMDa che. ekano eka javAna chokaro aDhAra varSano marI jAya tenI pAchaLa jeTalI ciMtA kare che, jeTaluM duHkha kare che, mAthuM phoDe, bIjuM badhuM je je kare, tene be daMDa che ane A badhuM nA kare to eka ja daMDa che. chokaro marI gayo eTalo ja daMDa che ane mAthuM phoDyuM te vadhArAno daMDa che. ame e be daMDamAM koI dahADo ya nA AvIe. eTale ame A lokone kahyuM che ke, "pAMca hajAra rUpiyAnuM gajavuM kapAya eTale vyavasthita karIne AgaLa cAlavAnuM ne nirAMte ghera javAnuM !" A eka daMDa te ApaNI potAno hisAba ja che. mATe gabharAvAnuM koI kAraNa nathI, tethI meM 'vyavasthita' kahyuM che, ekkekTa 'vyavasthita' che. mATe thaI gayuM che ene to barAbara karekTa ema kahIe ! ekano eka chokaro marI gayo to 'karekTa' che ema koIne nA kahevAya. tyAM to ema kahevuM paDe ke, 'bahu khoTuM thaI gayuM.' dekhADo karavo paDe. 'DrAmeTika' karavuM paDe. bAkI aMdarakhAne 'karekTa ja che." ema karIne cAlavuM. eka kalpAMtatuM phaLa baMdhAya; kalpanA aMta sudhI khaDAya! ekano eka chokaro marI jAya to ya e 'vyavasthita' thAya che, paNa A to e enA lobhane laIne, enA svArthane laIne raDe che, eTale e avyavasthita mAne che. A gajavuM kapAya che te ya vyavasthita ja che; paNa pAcho svArthane laIne, lobhane laIne bUmAbUma kare che, nahIM to raDAraDa karavAthI pAchuM Ave ? kema ? cha mahinA sudhI raDa reDa kare to ? praznakartA to ya nA Ave. dAdAzrI : chatAM lokone kalpAMta karelAM joyelAM ne ? zAthI kalpAMta

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra chokaro kaMI tizcayathI hoya? vyavahArathI, tethI joDe na jAya! 359 nAno bAbo aDhI mahinAno marI gayo to ya raDe. bAvIsa varSano paiNAvelo marI gayo to ya raDe ane paMcAvana varSano bAbo hoya, te ya marI jAya to ya raDe. tyAre mUA tane samajaNa zuM paDI AmAM to ? kyAM raDavAnuM ne kyAM nahIM raDavAnuM samajato ja nathI. DaphoLa chuM ke zuM chuM ? praznakartA : eTale buddhino upayoga A jAtano koI dA'Do thayo ja nathI. dAdAzrI : nahIM thAya tyAM sudhI jagatamAM sukha kema paDe ? sukha ja che manuSyone. dareka jAnavarone sukha che ne A manuSyone kaMI duHkha hotuM haze ? phakta Amane bhogavatAM nathI AvaDatuM, eTaluM ja che. ane marI gayuM. tyAre kahe, koNa marI gayuM ? amAro ekano eka chokaro marI gayo. e bahu khoTuM thayuM. manamAM samajI levAnuM ke chokaro marI gayo, pote kaMI marI gayo che ? chokaro to vyavahArane lIdhe chokaro. potAno ekano eka chokaro marI jAya tyAM zenA hAruM kaleza kare che ? chokaro nizcayathI tAro hato ja enI sAbitI Apa. sAbiti che nahIM potAnI pAse ane e chokaro, bApa joDe jato hoya to to ApaNe jANIe ke, e chokaro nizcayathI eno hato. paNa bApA gayA pachI ghera AvIne khAya-pIve kharo ? to eno zAno chokaro ? chokaro vyavahArathI che e to hoya tyAM sudhI pADozInuM ya mAna rAkhe ema bApanuM mAna rAkhe, emAM zuM navAI hoya te ? 'dAdA'te dIkaro-dIkarI AvI te gayA; gayAM tyAre peMDAtI pArTI, tyAre jJAtI thayA! praznakartA : dAdAnAM chokarAM keTalAM ? dAdAzrI : eka chokaro ne eka chokarI hatA. chokarAMno janma thayo tyAre meM bhaIbaMdhone peMDA khavaDAvyA. 1928mAM janmelo. pachI mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ekatrIsamAM e opha thaI gayo. eTale pachI meM badhAne peMDA khavaDAvyA. te pahelAM to badhAM ema ja samajyA ke A to bIjo kaMI chokaro haze, tethI A peMDA khavaDAvatA haze. peMDA khavaDAvatAM sudhI meM phoDa nA pADyo. khavaDAvyA pachI meM badhAne kahyuM, "pelA bhAI, gesTa AvyA hatA ne te gayA !!' jo mAnabhera AvyA hatA, to mAnabhera kADho ApaNe. eTale A mAna ApyuM. te mane badhA vaDhavA ja mAMDyA. are, nA vaDhAya, mAnabhera javA devA joIe. 360 pachI bebIbena AvyAM hatAM. te emane mAnabhera bolAvyAM ane mAnabhera kADhyAM. je badhA AvyA te jAya badhAM. pachI to koI che nahIM. huM ne hIrAbA be ja chIe. amAro chokaro marI gayo, choDI marI gaI tyAre huM khuza thato hato. khuza thato eTale ema nahIM ke sAruM, paNa hoya to ya hA, barobara che ane nA hoya to ya kaMI vAMdho nathI. kAraNa ke e gesTa che. koI koIno chokaro nathI ne koI koIno bApa thayo ya nathI. A to khAlI RNano anubaMdha che, mAMgatA leNAno. te rUpiyAnuM mAMgatuM leNuM nahIM, meM tamane duHkha dIdheluM e duHkha devA tame Avo. te A bAMdhelA vera choDe che loko, eTale meM to chokaro, choDI marI gayAM hatAM tyAre mane to thayuM, 'ApaNuM koI thayuM ?' A deha ApaNo nathI thato, to vaLI dehano chokaro te vaLI zI rIte ApaNo thato haze ? thAya kharo ? A chokaro dehano ke AtmAno ? praznakartA : dehano. dAdAzrI : to pachI A deha ApaNo nathI, to chokaro zI rIte ApaNo thAya ? A badhI rIleTiva sagAIo che. ola dhisa rIleTivjha Ara TempararI eDajasTamenTasa. tyAM ApaNe zuM karavAnuM ? praznakartA : putra janme tyAre loko peMDA vaheMce, paNa putra mare tyAre peDA vaheMcanAra nahotA. dAdAzrI : hA, mare tyAre peMDA vaheMcanAra nahIM.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 361 praznakartA : tyAre hIrAbAne zuM pratibhAva thayo hato ? dAdAzrI : hIrAbAne sAruM nA lAge. AvuM karAtuM haze ?' kahe che ane amArA mitroe ya kaheluM 'AvuM karyuM ?" meM emane samajaNa pADI ke huM tamane kaheta ke pelo chokaro ApaNe peMDA khavaDAvyA hatA e chokaro marI gayo. to tamArAM moMDhA upara udAsInatA nA AvI hoya ane hArTilI nA AvI hoya to ya tamAre banAvaTa karavI paDe. enA karatAM A kazuM bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM. khAIpIne moja karo. dAdA kahe, gesTa AvyAM te gayAM! kevI samaja, chokarAM jyAre maryAM!! bAkI mane to pappo thavAnuM nahotuM gamatuM, baLyuM. hato ja ne, pappo. gayo tyAre meM kahyuM, 'saccidAnaMda'. rahyo hota to vAMdho nhoto. ane bebIne ya paiNAvata nirAMte. nA, e vAMdho nhoto. praznakartA : tamane kema pappo thavuM nhotuM gamatuM ? dAdAzrI : nA, nhotuM gamatuM evuM niha. eTale DIslAIka jevuM nahi, tema lAika jevuM nahi. je hoya, ApaNI dukAnamAM je AvyA gharAka e kharAM. jatAM rahyA to ya gharAka. praznakartA : paNa jatAM rahe tyAre hAza lAge ne ? jatAM hoya tyAre ApaNe chUTyAM evuM lAge ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, evuM nahi. baMdhAyelAM ja nahotAM, te chUTyAM kyAMthI ? mane to evuM lAgyuM ke, 'A gesTa AvyA'tA, te gesTa cAlyA gayA.' gesTa Ave ne jAya. ApaNe tyAM kaMI hisAba bAkI che tethI AyA. ane nahIM to loka UMcakIne emane ramADe ? nA, hisAba che bAkI tyAre ja ne. hA, amArA bhaI bolatA'tA evuM nhoto bolato huM. amArA bhaI vaLI evuM bolatA'tA. 'chokarAM dhADe devA che', kahe che. te emane chokaruM mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra hatuMne eka e marI gayuM. pachI thayuM ja nahIM. bIjI paiNyA to ya nA thayuM. dhADe devAM che, kahe che te nA ja thayuM. evo tiraskAra nA karAya ! 362 ApaNe tyAM je Ave te padhAre. tyAre kahIe, Avajo bhaI, sAruM thayuM bA.' e kaMI ApaNA bAbA che ? e to manamAM mAnI le che, phUlAyA kare, bAbAno huM bApo ne ! jJAna thatAM pahelAM hIrAbA kahe. chokarAM marI gayAM te have chokarAM nathI. zuM karIzuM ApaNe ? chaiDapaNamAM sevA koNa karaze ?' emane hauM mUMjhave ! nA mUMjhave ? tyAre meM temane kahyuM, 'AjanAM chokarAMo dama kADhaze tamAro. e dArU pIne Avaze te tamane gamaze ?" tyAre e kahe, 'nA e to nA game.' tyAre meM kahyuM, "dArU pIne Avaze. A AvyA hatA te gayAM. tethI meM peMDA khavaDAvyA.' te pachI jyAre emane anubhava thayo tyAre mane kahe che, 'badhAnAM chokarAM bahu duHkha de che.' tyAre meM kahyuM, ame tamane pahelethI kahetA paNa tame nahotAM mAnatAM !' A pArakuM te vaLI potAnuM thatuM haze koI dahADo ya ? nakAmI hAya, hAya, hAya karIe. A deha jyAM pArako, te dehanAM pAchAM e sagAM. pArako ane pArakAnI pAchI mUDI, te potAnI thatI haze ? chokarAMtI ciMtA bAMdhe jAtavaragati; gayA bhavatI kare to kharI gati! dAdAzrI : mokSe javAnI icchA thatI nathI ? praznakartA : jIvana kaMTALeluM che. dAdAzrI : kaMTALo dUra thAya evI icchA nahIM ? zuM karavA kaMTALI gayA cho ? khAvApIvAnuM nathI maLatuM ? praznakartA : badhuM maLe che. dAdAzrI : to zenAthI kaMTALI gayo che ? praznakartA : kuTuMbika jaMjALathI.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 363 364 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : to zI rIte A badhuM goTALA karo cho ? maryA pachI to badhuM mUkI devAtuM; jIvatAM mUke tyAre mokSe javAtuM! dAdAzrI : kuTuMba to tamane ekalAne che ? A badhAne, kUtarAne ya kuTuMba hoya. kUtarAne ya baccAM hoya, be-cAra-pAMca nA hoya ? jaMjALa to badhe ja hoya ne ! saMsAra eTale jaMjALa. e loko kaMTALatA nahIM, tame zuM karavA kaMTALI gayA cho ? kUtarAM kaMTALatAM nathI. zenAthI kaMTALyA ? khAvApIvAnuM badhuM maLe che ne ? sUI rahevAnuM, kaMI rahevAnuM sthaLa che nahIM ? praznakartA : badhuM che. dAdAzrI : tyAre kapaDAM-bapaDAM lAvavAnI sagavaDa ? chokarAMne phI ApavAnI sagavaDa che ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hA che. dAdAzrI : to pachI kayuM du:kha che te ? zene du:kha kaho cho te ? te ATaluM badhu kaMTALI gayA cho ! praznakartA : eka ja chokaro che, judo thaI gayo che. dAdAzrI : e to traNa hota to ya judA thaI jAta ane nA judA thAya to ApaNe javuM paDaze pAchuM. e pAchA bhegA rahelA hoyane, to ya javuM paDaze, ApaNe melIne. melIne nahIM javuM paDe ? tyAMnI hAya hAya zuM ? gayA avatAranAM chokarAM kyAM gayAM ? gayA avatAranAM chokarAM kyAM rahe che ? praznakartA : bhagavAnane khabara. dAdAzrI : lyo ! gayA avatAranAM chokarAMnuM ThekANuM nathI, A avatAranAM chokarAMnuM pAchuM AvuM thayuM. kyAre pAra Avaze Ano ? mokSa javAnI vAta karone, nakAmA adhogatimAM jatAM rahezo. upAdhi. kaMTALo Avene, te upAdhimAM zenA avatAra thAya ? ahIMthI pachI manuSyamAMthI zeno avatAra thAya ? jAnavarano avatAra. narkagatimAM jato rahe. narkagati ne jAnavaragati badhI game che ? praznakartA : nA. narkagatimAM javAnuM kone game ? praznakartA : jIvatA nathI chUTatuM e ja duHkha che. dAdAzrI : gayA pachI AkhuM ya choDI de che. pachI hapuruM (saMpUrNa) kAgaLa-patra kazuM bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM. jIvatAM nathI chUTatuM e ja muzkelI che. ne. tame ahIM Avo to choDAvI ApIe. gayA avatAranAM chokarAM bhUlI gayAM ane A avatAramAM ahIMthI jAya ke tarata bhUllI jAya. tyAM sudhI bhUle to jJAnI kahevAya. jIvatAM bhUle to jJAnI kahevAya. nahIM to gayA pachI to badhA bhUlelAM ja che ne ! jIvatAM bhUle e jJAnI. kabUla karyuM ne ?! praznakartA : nathI bhUlAtuM e ja duHkha che. dAdAzrI : huM tamane bhUlADI ApIza. praznakartA: Apa to evuM jJAnamAM batAvI do cho ke ene bhUlavAM paDatAM ja nathI. e emanI meLe ja chUTI jAya. dAdAzrI : enI meLe ja bhUlI jAya. enI meLe ja chUTI jAya. eka-eka avatAramAM bhayaMkara mAra khAdho che, paNa pAchalo mAra khAdhelo bhUlato jAya che ane navo mAra khAto jAya che. gayA avatAranAM chokarAM mUkato Ave che. ne navA A avatAramAM vaLagADato jAya che ! gayA avatAranI be-traNa nAnI choDIo hatI, chokarAM hatAM, e badhAM AvaDAM AvaDAM nAnAM nAnAM mUkIne AvyA'tA. te e badhAnI kaMI ciMtA kare che ? kema ? ane Ama maratI vakhate to bahu ciMtA thAya che. ne, ke nAnI bebInuM zuM thaze ?! paNa ahIM pachI navo janma le che, te pAchaLanI kazI ciMtA ja nahIM ne ! kAgaLa-bAgaLa kazuM ja nahIM !! sattAmAM nahIM e citaravuM nahIM. eTale A badhI parasattA che. emAM hAtha ja nA ghAlavo. mATe je bane e 'vyavasthita'mAM ho te bhale ho ne nA

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365 366 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ho te paNa bhale ho. jAtavara gati baMdhAya karyo garbhapAta; bhAre pratikramaNathI ghaTe pApa! to dAdA bhagavAna kSamA mAMguM chuM. A mArI bhUla thaI gaI. to bahu thaI gayuM. pahelAM deDakAM jotAM mAya !? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : haM. tyAra pachI dAdA bhagavAnane namaskAra karuM chuM, kSamA mAMguM chuM. dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma laIne mAphI mAMgI levI, basa. tane ema lAge ke khoTuM thayuM che, evuM lAge tyAM tAre pachI mAphI mAMgI levI. praznakartA: e badhA AtmAonuM zuM thatuM haze ? e loko to haju bahAra AvyA nathI ane AvA che to eborzana eka miliyana jeTalA dara varSe thatAM hoya che ane nAnI nAnI chokarIo, TInaejara, aDhAra varSathI nIcenI chokarIo. e paNa eka miliyana chokarIo AvI eborzana karAvI jAya che. A badhA AtmAonuM zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : kazuM thavAnuM nahIM. ahIMthI jAnavaramAM jAya pachI. bIjuM kazuM thavAnuM nahIM. karAvanArane ya che te jAnavaranI gati thAya. badhAne jAnavaranI gati thAya. e jJAnamAM hoya to nA thAya, enI gerenTI ApuM badhuM ja IphekTa che A. davAkhAnuM, tame calAvo cho ne, e Akho dahADo iphekTa ja hoya che. eka sekanDa paNa kojha nathI hotuM. praznakartA amArA je dhaMdhAno eka prazna che. peluM eborzana karAve ne, have to peluM lIgala hoya che ne. eTale jyAre paNa e mAne lAge ke mAre chokaruM paDAvI nAkhavuM che, to DaoNkaTaranI pAse jAya to DaoNkaTare ene pADI ApavuM paDe evo kAyado ja che ema. enAthI nA nA paDAya. to A eka prazna che, kharI rIte to A khoTuM ja kahevAya. paNa have ApaNe to evuM koI jajamenTa kazuM levAnuM rahetuM ja nathI. to have AmAM kaI rItanuM rahevuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : badhuM iphekTa ja che. praznakartA H have ghaNI che to nAnI nAnI soLa varSanI, cauda varSanI chokarIo Ave ane kahe che ke, tame amane A pADI Apo. nahIM to mAre ApaghAta karavo paDaze. huM samAjamAM rahI nA zakuM evuM kahe amane. to tyAM AgaLa e to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : keTalA DaoNlara lo ? praznakartA : huM evuM nathI karatI, paNa janaralI bIjA badhAM poNA baso DaoNlara jeTalA le. dAdAzrI : paNa tame karatAM nathI ? Ave to zuM karo ? praznakartA : huM nA karuM paNa bIjA pAse huM mokalI ApuM. to e enuM kaMIka doSa to lAge ne A, anumodana jevuM. dAdAzrI : nA, nA. e ApaNe ema kahevuM, zuddhAtmA bhagavAnane ke 'mAre bhAge kyAMthI AvyuM A kAma." basa, eTaluM bahu thaI gayuM. agara praznakartA : ane bALakanuM zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : bALakane to eno pAcho hisAba che. A to iphekTa ja che khAlI. praznakartA : ene koI karma nA baMdhAya enuM ? dAdAzrI : nA, ene karma zenuM baMdhAya ? ene to A chUTya karma. be varSanuM bALaka mare; bAkI rahelAM karmothI phare! praznakartA: kahyuM ne ke dareka potAnAM karmo jeTalA laIne Avyo che e bhavamAM e pUrA karIne ja jAya che. have A be varSanuM bALaka hoya

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 367 368 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ke cha mahinAnuM bALaka hoya, e mA-bApane duHkha ApIne marI jAya. e bIjA janmamAM. bIjI yonimAM jAya, to tyAM AgaLa kayA karma laIne jAya ? atyAre to kaI rItanA navA karmo bAMdhyAM haze ? dAdAzrI : hA, ene che te hisAba badho tyAM AgaLa pUro thaI jAya che. A cha mahinAnuM bALaka to hisAba ApIne cAlyo gayo. paNa haju temanAM tema ja che bIjAM karmo, e karmo ene janma Ape pAcho bIjI jagyAe. bALakane karma baMdhAya kyArathI? aMta:karaNa Devalapa thAya tyArathI! baMdhAya. sauthI paheluM bhAna thAya che te kapaTanuM thAya che. aMtaHkaraNamAM kapaTano mAla pahelAM hoya, eTale chokarAM kapaTa karatAM paheluM zIkhe che. have ene karma baMdhAya to kharuM, paNa e to jeTalo ahaMkAra hoya ne teTaluM baMdhAya. haju ahaMkAranI bahu badhI paripakavatA nA hoya, te chatAM paNa e saMskAra paDyA vagara rahe nahIM. e badhA saMskAra jAya nahIM ne. eTale tyAMthI ja gAMTha baMdhAya. - praznakartA : nAnA bALakane gamatuM-nA gamatuM hoya ? ke teone te badhuM sarakhuM ja lAge ke emAM pharaka che ? dAdAzrI : enuM laI le to ene duHkha thAya. ene gamatuM ne nA gamatuM hoya che ja, bALakane ! ene sarakhuM nA hoya. ene nathI gamatuM tyAre raDe che ane gamatuM Ave tyAre hase che. e rAga-dveSa karma tyArathI ja cArja thaI gayAM. ane jema buddhi vadhatI jAya tema tema cArja vadhAre thatAM jAya. chokarAne kaDavI davA ApIe to moTuM khUba bagADe. ApaNe joIe to A moTuM phoTo pADavA jevuM dekhAya ane sArI davA Apo, mIThI davA Apo to khuze ya eTalo thaI jAya. praznakartA : nAnuM cha mahinAnuM bALaka kayA dhyAnamAM hoya ? dAdAzrI : ene dhyAna nA hoya. jyAM sudhI aMtaHkaraNa phUla Devalapa nA thAya tyAM sudhI dhyAna utpanna nA thAya. dhyAna to aMtaHkaraNa Devalapa thayA pachI ja utpanna thAya. bALaka to raDavAnA TAIme raDe ane hasavAnA TAIme hase. basa, e ja enuM kAma ane A dhyAna karanArA to raDe nahIM. A to raDavAno TAIma hoya to raDe nahIM, dhyAna kare ! A dhyAna karanArA judAM ne bALako judAM. bALaka to eno TAIma thAya eTale raDe, basa. temane kazuM jovA karavAnuM nahIM ke mArI AbarU jaze ne moTI uMmaranA hoya to enI to AbarU jAya. praznakartA : emanAmAM nirdoSatA to kharIne ? dAdAzrI : e tadna nirdoSa ja ne, jyAM sudhI aMtaHkaraNa barobara cAlu nA thAya tyAM sudhI nirdoSa ja kahevAya ! haju 'huM karuM chuM' evuM bhAna pAchuM emane nathI. jema mahIM nacAve ema e nAce che ! praznakartA : nAnuM bALaka corI kare to ene corInuM karma baMdhAya ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : ene baMdhAya ne ! mahIM jeTaluM bhAna thayeluM hoya teTaluM

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(14) sagAI rIleTIva ke rIyala ? 37 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra vyavahAra haMmezA Adarza hoya. je mANasa nizcaya cUkyo ne, enuM nAma vyavahAra nA kahevAya. nizcayane nizcayamAM rAkhavAno ane vyavahArane vyavahAramAM rAkhavAno, enuM nAma Adarza vyavahAra, huM Akho dahADo Adarza vyavahAramAM ja rahuM chuM. mAre ghera AjubAju pUchavA jAvane to badhA ya kaheze. koI dahADo e laDhayA ja nathI. koI dahADo bUma pADI ja nathI. koI dahADo koInI joDe gusse thayA nathI. evuM badhA AjubAjuvALA kahe to e Adarza kahevAya ke nA kahevAya ? praznakartA : kahevAya. dAdAzrI : ane tamArA mATe AjubAju pUchavA jaIe to ? evuM kahe ke, e koI dahADo ya UMcA sAde bolyA nathI ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : tyAre tame to vyavahAre ya bagADayo ane A nizcaya paNa bagADayo. vyavahAra eTalo ja karavAno che ke bApa thayo mATe chokarAnAM dhakkA tuM nA khAIza, nahIM to chokarAne kharAba lAgaze. ane chokaro thayo che enA mATe vyavahAra eTalo karavAno che ke bApanA dhakkA tuM khAje, nahIM to khoTuM dekhAze. evo vyavahAra-viveka cUkavAno nathI. pahelAM to mUrchAthI vyavahAra bahu kAco raheto hato. keTalIka jagyAe to haVcAM TADhAM, te Akho dahADo gharamAM koIne kazuM bole ja nahIM. bApa dIkarAnI sagAI "rIleTIva'; rIyala' ho to joDe jAya ekasarakhuM jIve! rIleTiva che mATe sAcavIne cAlo; nahIM to tUTaze A to kAyato pyAlo! A kaMI kharekhara bApa-beTA nathI, A rIyalI spIkIMga AkhA duniyAmAM koI bApa hoya ja nahIM. ane rIyalI spIkIMga jo bApa hoya to, bApa marI jAya eTale chokarAM enI joDe ja jAya. ke bApA, mArAthI nahIM jIvAya. mArA phAdhara ne huM eka ja ?! paNa e mare nahIM pachI, nahIM ? koI mare nahIM ? badhA DAhyA che ne ? breDa-biskITa, pAuM-bAuM badhuM khAI le !! eTale jJAna vastu satya che, yathArtha jJAna che A ! eTale zukaladhyAna che A, emAM jema che tema juo ! ane A to hoya, sAsuvahue nhoya, mAmIe nhoya ne kAkIe nhoya. vyavahArathI tamAre badhuM karavAmAM vAMdho nathI, paNa nizcayathI kare to bhUla che. loka nizcayathI varte che ne ? praznakartA : paNa vyavahAra dharmamAM to rahevuM paDe ne ? dAdAzrI : vyavahAra dharmamAM to tame koI dahADo rahyA ja nathI. rIleTiva che A saMbaMdha ! sAcavI sAcavIne kAma levAnuM che. A rIleTiva saMbaMdha che, eTale tame jevuM rIleTiva rAkho tevuM e raheze. tamAre jevuM rAkhazo evuM raheze, AnuM nAma vyavahAra kahevAya che ! tame jANo ke mAro chokaro che. eTale kyAM javAno che ! alyA mUA chokaro che, paNa ghaDIvAramAM sAmo thaI jaze. koI AtmA bApabeTo thAya nahIM. A to hisAba che sAmAsAmI leNadeNanA. jone ghera

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332 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra kADhavAno ja nathI ! te phADe tyAre ApaNe ya phADI nAMkhavuM. te ukela AvI gayo. mAchalAMnI to kahevAya jALa; manuSyoto saMsAra to jaMjALa! mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 371 jaIne evuM kaheto nahIM ke tame mArA bApa nahIM, evuM ! e vyavahArathI to kharA ja ne ! eTale rIleTiva saMbaMdha che. A sAcavI sAcavIne kAma karo ane koIne sudhAravA pharazo nahIM. sudhare tyAM sudhI sudhAravo. pachI mUkI devuM. nahIM to pAchuM sAmAvALiyo thaI jaze. ApaNe joI levuM ke sudhare evuM che ? to jarA prayatna karI jovo. paNa jo vaLI sAmo thato hoya, to choDI devuM. A vaLI pAchuM upAdhi ! duzmana thAya ulTo. ApaNe ene sudhAravA jaIe, e duzmana thAya. e jANe ke mAro bApa veravI che. evuM kahe ke nA kahe ? praznakartA : kahe. dAdAzrI : bairIne ya sudhAravA bahu mahenata nahIM karavAnI. ene jo sudhArI zakAya to sudhArI lo ane nA sudhArAya to rahyuM. kAraNa ke A bhava pUratuM ja che ne bhAMjagaDa ! kaMI kAyamanI che ! jo kAyamanI hoya to lAva sudhArIe ApaNe ! eTale A rIleTiva sagAIo che. rIleTiva eTale koI vastunAM anusaMdhAnamAM. eTale kaMI hisAba mAMgato hoya, kaMI bIjuM hoya, trIjuM hoya, tenA hisAbe A bheguM thAya che, badhuM RNAnubaMdha. - ola dhIsa rIleTisa Ara TempararI eDajasTamenTa. te ApaNe eDajasTamenTa rahe tyAM sudhI sAruM che ! ApaNI dAnata kevI rAkhavI ke e toDavA phare to ya ApaNe sAMdha sAMdha karavuM. ema karatAM karatAM rahe thoDo vakhata ane jyAre ApaNane ema lAge ke A badhuM uDI javAnuM che, to e phADe tyAre ApaNe ya phADI nAkhavAnuM. bane tyAM sudhI sAcavavuM. praznakartA : e nA samajAyuM. dAdAzrI : ApaNe samajI javuM ke A sagAI rIleTiva che, vinAzI che. e chokaro cheDo phADato hoya ne to tyAre ApaNe sAMdha sAMdha karavuM. jo ApaNe kAma hoya to. e phADa phADa kare ne ApaNe AkhI rAta sAMdha sAMdha karIe to savAramAM thoDuM ghaNuM aDadhuM saMdhAyeluM rahe ane ApaNe jANIe ke A chokarAnI jarUra nathI, enI joDe rahIne AmAM svAda praznakartA : saMsArane gADha jaMjALa kahyo. paNa saMsAra nA hota to chUTate ja kaI rIte ? dAdAzrI : to to chUTelo ja hato ne ! chUTelAne zuM karavAnuM ? praznakartA : paNa manuSya yonimAM AvyA pachI chUTe ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, nA. A saMsAra nA hota to chUTelo ja che ne ! A to saMsAra che eTale ene jaMjALa kahyuM. jaMjALa to kharI ja ne. jaMjALa jo nA kahI hota to pAcho pharavAno prayatna ja kare nahIM ne. A jALo ja che nahIM ? mAchalAMnI jALa to sArI. ene koIka jagyAe dAMta mUke ne to kApI nAkhe. A jALa to kapAya nahIM. A to jaMjALa kahevAya. A jALa nahIM, jaMjALa ! pAchI kapAya nahIM, bhogavyuM ja chUTako ! bhogave tyAre jALa chUTe ! hisAba badho cUkavIe tyAre jALa chuTe pAchI ! paNa pAchI navI jALa to taiyAra karI hoya ApaNe, AvatA bhavanI jALa pAchI UbhI karI ja hoya !! koI koIno chokaro-bApa hoto haze ? A to ekadama A cakalAM AmathI UDIne AvyAM, AmathI UDIne AvyAM ane pachI tyAM AgaLa rAtanAM beThAM, savAra thaI te badhA UDI UDIne ThaMDavA mAMDayAM. evI rIte che A. e joDe beThuM hoya te bAra kalAka mATe paNe pAchAM ! savAramAM UThIne javAnuM che ne ! sAhajIka jIvana jIve janAvaro; manuSyo mAMDe vilponI vaNajhAro manuSya ekalAnI ja jAta haze ke bIjA paNa jAto che ? gAyo,

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 333 bheMso, nAnAM jIvaDAM, vIMchIo, sApa keTalI badhI jAto che ne ? temAM mANaso ekalAe ja AvA gAMDA kADhayA che. deva lokoe ya AvA gAMDA nathI kADhayA ! deva loko ya koIne ema nathI kahetA ke A mArA sasarA AvyA ne A mArA sALA AvyA. A mArA phuvA thAya ne A mArA mAmA thAya, evuM koI loko nathI kahetAM. manuSyo ekalAe ja che te vikalpanI jALo UbhI karI che. Amane kudaratanA niyamathI buddhi UbhI thaI gaI. te buddhino durUpayoga karIne vikalpanI jALo UbhI karI. e jALamAM pachI pote ja phasAyA. nirvikalpa pote hato, tene badale vikalpI thaI gayo. have zuM thAya te ?! have A 'mArA sasarA thAya' kahevAno vAMdho nathI, e to TempararI eDajasTamenTa che paNa A to kAyamanAM jANe sasarA hoya ne evuM bole che. tame atyAra sudhI badhuM A kAyamanuM ja jANatA hatA ne ! A kAyamanA sasarA, A kAyamanA mAmAM, badhu kAyamanuM mAnatA hatA ne ? paNa e badhuM TempararI eDajasTamenTa che. bairI bhAyaDAne nA phAve ne, eTale pelo kaheze 'mAre DIvorsa levA che.' ane pelI kaheze, "mAre DIvorsa nathI Apavo'. pachI cAle tophAna ! che evuM tophAna bIjI nAtomAM ? gAyobheMso emane ya ApaNI peThe bairI-chokarAM badhuM ya hoya che. paNa tyAM che kazI bhAMjagaDa ? lagana nahIM, laDhavADo nahIM, kAMNa nahIM, mokANa nahIM. 2DAroLa nahIM. emane ya choDIo nAsI jAya kharI, paNa te kazI bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM ne ! kAraNa ke e kAyadesara che. bhagavAnanAM laoNmAM rahe che. bIjI AvI jAto UbhI karI nathI. tamane lAge che evuM ke kaMIka ApaNI ja bhUlo che ? praznakartA : mAyAnuM baMdhana to pazuone paNa hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, e mAyAnuM baMdhana nathI. mAyAnuM baMdhana to ekalAM manuSyone ja che. emane to duniyAdArInuM baMdhana che. vAcharaDuM nAnuM hoya tyAM sudhI gAya ene rAkhe. ane moTuM thayuM eTale gAyane levAdevA nahIM ne baccAM ne ya levAdevA nahIM ane ApaNe ahIM to sAta peDhI sudhI khasavA nA de. ApaNe ahIM to mamatA bhAre che ke nahIM ? mArA chokarAno chokaro khAze eTalA mATe bheguM karatA hoya che ne ?! e gAyane evuM 374 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra hoya che ? gAyane ya chokarAM hoya che ke nathI hotAM ? paNa gAyanuM kaMI nAma kADhe che ? e enuM ja nAma nathI kADhatAM ne ?! ApaNe ahIM to mAruM nAma kADhaze, phalANuM kADhaze ! ane ApaNe tyAM marI jAya, tyAre raDe ke nA raDe ? ane gAyo-bheMsomAM raDavA karavAnuM kharuM ke ? raDavAnuM kazuM ya nahIM. emane paiNAvAnI ciMtA nahIM ne rAMDyAnI ciMtA nahIM, kazuM ja ciMtA nahIM. chatAM paiNe-rAMDe badhuM ja thAya paNa ciMtA nahIM karavAnI. kudaratI vyavahAra to badhe ya thayAM ja kare che. A to vacce ApaNuM DahApaNa ghAlyuM, tethI to badhA jIvo karatAM vadhAremAM vadhAre du:khI hoya to manuSyo. gAyo-bheMsone ya AvuM du:kha nahIM hoya, ciMtA-kakaLATa kazuM nahIM. gAyobheMsone bhUkhanuM du:kha kharuM. jarA khAvAnuM nA maLyuM to du:kha lAge, bAkI bIjuM duHkha nahIM. ane A manuSyo to ciMtAmAM Akho dahADo zakkarIyA bharavADamAM mUkelA hoya ne evA baphAyA kare che. Ano pAra ja nA Avane ! eTale A gUMthAyeluM che badhuM. kalpita gUMthaNI che A badhI. te gUMthaNImAM bharAIne nahIM rahevAnuM. gUMthaNImAM ApaNe haravAnuM-pharavAnuM, karavAnuM badhuM paNa nATakIya, DrAmeTika badhuM rahevAnuM. ApaNuM jJAna kaI evuM che ke gharanAMne mukIne nAsI javAnuM che. evuM nAsI javAnuM hoya to gharanAM keTalA jaNAne dago karIne nAse e bicAro ? bairI-chokarAM, mA-bApa, badhAMne choDe to emane keTaluM duHkha thAya ? paNa ApaNe evo dago-phaTako kazuM nahIM ne ! phAIlano samabhAve nikAla karI nAkhavAno ne ! ApaNuM A vijJAna bahu sAruM che. mahIM ThaMDaka paNa vaLe che. atyAre kevI ThaMDaka che ne ! dukAno sAMbharatI nathI, ne kazuM ya sAMbharatuM nathI. nahIM to jagata vismRta ja nA thAya. jagata vistRta kare e ja sAcuM vijJAna kahevAya. atyAre kazuM ya yAda nathI AvatuM ? sagAvahAlAM kazuM ya nahIM ? praznakartA : nA. kazuM ya nahIM, koI jaMjALa yAda nathI AvatI. dAdAzrI : jaMjALa, A jaMjALa to keTalI lAMbI che ne ? jo citaravA jAya ne to moTo nakazo thaI jAya. dIkarAnA dIkarA ne tenAM dIkarA, A to pAne pAne dUdhiyAM besatAM ja jAya, svAbhAvika rIte ! A koI dUdhI bIjA dUdhiyAne ema nathI kahetI ke 'huM tAro bApa chuM." ane

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 375 A buddhizALI to A mAro dIkaro, A mArA dIkarAno dIkaro ! A badhAM dUdhiyAM bUmAbUma kare nahIM ne ! paNa e to velAne dUdhiyAM besyA ja kare, e eno kudaratI krama che A badhuM to ! eTale manuSyoe badho vikalpa Ubho karelo che. vikalpa jUThTho vikalpa Ubho karIne Akho mALo Ubho karyo che. jyAre nirvikalpa thAya tyAre baMdha thaI jAya. A bhajava pAtra nATakatAM 'huM koNa' jANI! kahevAya rANIne ghera heDa', kharI mAtI? eTale A badhA vikalpo che. have A vikalpomAM rahIne ApaNe potAnuM kAma kADhI levAnuM che. kAraNa ke A vikalpo lokoe paramenanTa banAvyA che ane kharekhara e TempararI eDajasTamenTa che, e DrAmeTika eDajasTamenTa che. A tamArA phAdhara, tamArA vAipha, tamArA bhAI e badhAM DrAmAnAM, onlI phora DrAmA che. jyAM sudhI ApaNo A deha che tyAM sudhIno A DrAmA che ! bApa chokarAMne kahe ke, 'tane Avo jANyo hota, to janmatAM ja tane mArI nAkhyo hota !' tyAre chokaro kahe ke, 'tame mArI nA nAkhyo te ya ajAyabI che ne !! AvuM nATaka thavAnuM te zI rIte mAro !!!' AvAM AvAM nATaka anaMta prakAranAM thaI gayAM che, are ! sAMbhaLatAM ya kAnanA paDadA tUTI jAya !! alyA, AnAthI ya kaMI jAtajAtanuM jagatamAM thayuM che, mATe ceto jagatathI ! have 'potAnA' deza bhaNI vALo, 'svadeza'mAM cAlo. paradezamAM to bhUtAM ne bhUtAM ja che, jyAM jAo tyAM ! A to nATaka che ! nATakamAM bairI-chokarAMne potAnAM kAyamanAM karI laIe te kaMI cAlI zake ? nATakamAM bole tema bolavAmAM vAMdho nahIM ke, 'A mAro moTo dIkaro, zatAyu thA.' paNa badhuM upalaka, 'suparaphaluasa' nATakIya. A badhAMne sAcAM mAnyAM tenAM ja pratikramaNa karavAM paDe che. jo sAcuM nA mAnyuM hota to pratikramaNa karavAM nA paData. jyAM satya mAnavAmAM AvyuM tyAM rAga ne dveSa zarU thaI jAya, ane pratikramaNathI ja mokSa che. A 'dAdA' dekhADe che te 'AlocanA-pratikramaNa-pratyAkhyAna'thI mokSa che. 376 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 'dAdA' bhajave tATaka ditarAta; karma kare chatAM akarma AtmasAt! A to eka ja phero potAnuM bhAna thAya ne to A jaMjALathI chUTe. paNa potAnuM bhAna ja thayuM nathI. 'pote koNa chuM' e bhAna jo thayuM hota ne to A mAthAkUTa hota nahIM ane lokone ema kaheta ya nahIM ke 'A caMdulAlano huM sasaro thauM'. alyA, sasarA thavAtuM haze ? kAyamano sasaro chuM ke zuM che te ? jANe kAyamanA sasarA hoya ne, evuM coMTI paDayA che ne ?! A badhI to TempararI eDajasTamenTasa che ! vagara kAmanAM A mArA sAsu ne A mAro sasaro ! pahelAM to huM ya sAcuM ja mAnato hato ke Aje to mAre sAsune tyAM javAnuM. paNa A badhuM pola nIkaLyuM. jo e ApaNAM sAsu thatAM hoya paNa emane koI sAsu nA hoya to, ApaNe jANIe ke A kharekhara sAsu. paNa e sAsu ne ya sAsu che ne emane ya sAsu, mATe Ano artha ja zuM che te ? ApaNA jamAI hoya to ApaNe jANIe ke ohoho ! ApaNA A jamAI che. paNa jamAIne pAchA jamAI hoya. tyAre melane pULo !! A mAro jamAI, A mArI vAIpha, A mArA chokarAM, e ja baMdhanane tyAre bIjuM zuM te ? e baMdhanane baMdhana jANe, tyAra pachI vyavahAra karavAno vAMdho nathI. pachI sasarA tarIke vyavahAra karavAno vAMdho nathI. praznakartA : vyavahAramAM nA Ave e mANasa pheMkAI jAyane ? dAdAzrI : paNa vyavahAramAM rahevuM ja joIe. vyavahAramAM to bahu sArI rIte rahevuM joIe. juone huM vyavahAramAM rahuM ja chuM ne ! ahIM AgaLa badhA mane bhagavAna kahe che, koI jJAnIpuruSa kahe che. jene je vizeSaNa ApavuM hoya te Ape che ane huM mosALamAM jAuM tyAre mane 'bhANAbhAI AvyA' ema kahe che ane TrenamAM mane koI TikiTa ekjhAmInara maLe ke, 'Apa koNa cho ?" tyAre huM kahuM ke 'bhaI, huM pesenjara chuM.' ane dhaMdhA upara jauM chuM, tyAre huM kahuM chuM ke 'huM konTrAkTara chuM, huM zeTha chuM.' eTale jyAM jyAM jevuM jevuM nATaka mAruM hoya che te pramANe huM vAta bahAra pADuM chuM.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 377 338 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra che ?" enuM bhAna tamane karAvI daIe, pachI tamane A nATaka jevuM ja thaI jaze. A huM DrAmA ja karuM chuM. mAre bhagavAna thaIne zuM kADhavAnuM che? kemilI vyavahAra mAtra che tikAlI; upalaka rahI rAga-dveSa karo khAlI! praznakartA: amArA ne tamArA DrAmAmAM phera che ne ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, tame A bhAInA bApa thaIne nATaka karo cho ane huM to asala rUpamAM nATaka karuM chuM. jevo pATha hoya tevo bhajavuM chuM. A badhAnA rUparaMga, evuM tevuM huM joto nathI. huM badhAnAmAM AtmA jouM chuM. rUparaMga joIne zuM karavAnuM che ? rUparaMga joDe Ave kharuM ? kALuM hoya ke goruM hoya. jADuM hoya ke pAtaLuM hoya, e sAthe AvavAnuM kazuM ? AtmA tevo nathI. AtmA to eka svabhAvI che. A badhAM pekIMga che jAtajAtanA A purUSo pekIMga, strIo pekIMga, gadheDAM, kUtarAM badhAM pekIMganI aMdara bhagavAna pote rahelA che. e sAmAna oLakhI gayo to kAma thaI gayuM. kharo vepArI pekIMga nA jue ne ? mAlasAmAna bagaDayo nathI ne ! eTaluM ja jue. alyA, A to nATaka che, DrAmA che khAlI ! varlDa ijha dhI DrAmA iTaselpha. tame emAM ekaTara cho ne huM ekaTara chuM. DrAmAmAM bhartuharI kaheze. ke huM kAyamano bhartuharI chuM. evuM nA bolAya ane pIMgaLAne ya coMTI nA paDAya ke tuM to mArI kAyamanI pIMgaLA che. eTale bhartuharI rahe to kevI ya rIte ? abhinaya pUrato ja. paNa aMdarakhAne pote jANe ke huM to lakSmIcaMda taragALo chuM. e bhUle nahIM ane A loka to sAcuM ja raDe. eTale ApaNe bhartuharInI peTha pATha bhajavavo, to tamAre kazuM duHkha che nahIM. paNa A to pATha bhajavavAmAM pote potAne bhUlI gayo, pote koNa che e visAre paDI gayuM ! paNa bhartuharI 'pote koNa che te lakSamAM nATaka kare to vAMdho zo che ? "huM lakSmIcaMda chuMne ghera jaIne mAre khIcaDI khAvAnI che, te yAda hoya ne abhinaya kare ke 'bhikSA de ne maiyA pIMgaLA ?" to kazo vAMdho Ave kharo ? praznakartA : bhUlI gayAM che tenI to upAdhi che ne ! dAdAzrI : bhUlI gayAM che teTalAM mATe to ame badhAne A jAgRta karIe chIe ke nATakamAM AvI jAva badhA. kAraNa ke UMgha UMghanA TAIme Ave che, bhukha bhukhanA TAIma lAge che. nahAvAno TAImIMga thAya ne, tyAM pANI garama thaIne taiyAra thaI gayuM hoya che. eTale A nATakamAM ApaNe AvyA chIe. ame e 'pote koNa saMsAramAM DrAmeTika rahevAnuM che. 'Avo bena', 'Ava bebI', Ama te ya badhuM che te suparaphalyuasa karavAnuM che. tyAre ajJAnI zuM kare ke soDamAM ghAla ghAla kare, to pelI bebI ya enI para ciDhAyA kare. ane jJAnI puruSa vyavahAramAM 'suparaphalyuasa' rahe to badhA ya khuza rahe emanI para. kAraNa ke lokone 'suparaphalyuasa' joIe che. bahu Asakti lokone nathI gamatI. eTale ApaNe paNa badhuM 'suparaphalyuasa' rahevuM, A badhA tophAnomAM paDavuM nahIM. 'jJAnI' zuM samaje ? ke bebI paiNI, te paNa vyavahAra ane bebI bicArI rAMDI, te paNa vyavahAra, 'rIyala' na hoya A. e banne vyavahAra che, "rIleTiva' che ane koIthI pheravI nA zakAya evuM pAchuM !! have A loka zuM karaze ? jamAI marI gayo ne pAchaLa mAthAM phoDe ? te UlaTAM DaoNkaTarane bolAvavA paDe. eTale e rAga-dveSane AdhIna che ne ! vyavahAra vyavahAra samajAyo nathI tethI ne ! chokarAMne vaDhavuM paDe, baIne be zabda kahevAM paDe. paNa nATakIya bhASAmAM, ThaMDakathI gusso karavAno. nATakIya bhASA eTale zuM ke ThaMDakanI sAMkaLa kheMcIne gusso karavAno enuM nAma nATaka ! jema nATakamAM kAma kare che ne, enA jevuM 'suparaphalyuasa" che, paNa A badhI kriyA che, tene potAnI kriyA mAnI lIdhI. e khoTI 'bIlipha' thaI che. A 'suparaphalyuasa' che. Ane manamAM rAkhI mUkavA jevuM nhoya. cittamAM phoTogrAphI levA jevuM hoya, A 'suparaphalyuasa' che ! A tethI ApaNe kahIe chIene ke tamane 'A' jJAna ApyuM che, tame 'homa DIpArTamenTamAM tamArI rUmamAM raho ane 'phorena'mAM 'suparaphalyuasa' rahejo. A vyavahAra badho 'phorena' che. jeTalo vyavahAra dekhAya che,

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380 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 379 vyavahAra jeTalo badho kahevAya che, e badho 'phorena' che. ane A rIleTiva' che, e badho vyavahAra ja che, "rIyala' ekaluM ja nizcaya che, hakIkata svarUpa che, vAstavika che ! vyavahAramAM paNa jAgRtipUrvaka thAya tyAre 'progresa' kahevAya. vyavahAramAM potAno chokaro che evuM kahe kharo, paNa mahIM potAno che evA pariNAma nA vartatA hoya. AtmA koIno chokaro thAya nahIM, AtmA koIno putra ke pitA thAya ? eTale e jAgRtipUrvakanuM hovuM joIe. Ama vyavahAramAM vAtacIta karIe, paNa nATakanI peThe ane aMdara jAgRti rahevI joIe ke koI koInA bApa nahIM ane koI koIno chokaro nahIM. e AtmA ja che, ApaNe AtmA ja chIe, evuM rahevuM joIe. badhAnAmAM zuddhAtmA jo jo karyA karavA. bIjuM AmAM zuM karavAnuM che ! bIjo vyavahAra vacce lavAya nahIM. bIjo vyavahAra to vyavahAra karavA mATe che. mokSe javuM hoya to tamArA koI putra-putrI che nahIM. saMsAramAM rahevuM hoya to putra-putrI tamArAM ja che. soMpe chorAMte karI kamANI kALI! gharaDAM ghare ghAle, mare jIva bALI! AvyA hoya che ! ApaNe gharAkane kahIe ke, 'mane tArA vagara gamatuM nathI, tArA vagara gamatuM nathI." to gharAka zuM kare ? mAre. A to rIleTiva' sagAIo che, AmAMthI kaSAyo UbhA thAya. A rAgakaSAyamAMthI SakaSAya Ubho thAya. uchALe caDhAvAnuM ja nahIM. A dUdhapAka UbharAya tyAre lAkaDuM kADhI levuM paDe, enA jevuM che. chokarAMne ApaNe kazI levAdevA nathI. A to vagara kAmanI upAdhi ! badhAM karmane AdhIna che. jo kharI sagAIo hoya ne to gharamAM badhAM nakkI kare ke ApaNe gharamAM vaDhavADa nathI karavI, paNa A to kalAkabe kalAka pachI bAjhI paDe ! kAraNa e koInA hAthamAM hoto ja nathI ne ! A to badhA karmanA udaya phaTAkaDAM phUTe tema phaTAphaTa phaTAphaTa phUTe che ! A moha konI Upara ? jUThA sonA Upara ? sAcuM hoya to moha rakhAya. A to gharAka-vepArI jevo saMbaMdha. mAla sAro maLe to gharAka paisA Ape, evo A saMbaMdha che. jo eka ja kalAka vara joDe bhAMjagaDa kare to saMbaMdha tUTI jAya, evA saMbaMdhamAM moha zo rAkhavo ? zeTha zuM kahe ke ame zuM karIe ? amAre to milakata chokarAne ApavAnI che. mUA, cArasovIsI karIne kamANI karI ane te ya pAchI paradezamAM kamANI karI ane pachI chokarAne Apaze ? chokaro to rIlezanavALo che; rIleTiva saMbaMdha ane pAcho ahaMkArI kaMI zAzvata saMbaMdha hoya, riyala saMbaMdha hoya ne kamANI karI Apato hoya to sAruM. A to samAjane lIdhe dabAIne ja sagAI rahI che ane te ya kyAreka bApa-dIkaro laDhe che, jhaghaDe che. te uparathI keTalAka chokarAM to kahe che ke, bApane gharaDAonA gharamAM mUkI AvavAnA che ! jema A baLadone pAMjarApoLamAM mUkI Ave tema gharaDAMonuM ghara ! kevuM rUpALuM nAma kADhayuM che ! A sagAImAM kema besI rahyA cho te ja mane to samajAtuM nathI. A rIlezana saMbaMdhamAM ahaMkAra nA hoya to to pachI e calAvI levA jevo saMbaMdha che. tame kyAM nathI jANatA ke bApane kedamAM nAkhIne, mArI nAkhIne rAjagAdIo lIdhelI ! A to machavAmAM bheguM thayeluM mANasa. te e to eno kinAro Avaze eTale UtarI paDaze. ane A kaheze ke, mane enA vagara nahIM bAbo mAMdo hoya to ApaNe davA badhI karIe, paNa badhuM upalaka. ApaNAM chokarAMne kevAM mAnavA joIe ? oramAna. chokarAMne 'mArA chokarAM' kahe ane chokarAM ya "mArI mA' kahe, paNa mahIM lAMbI sagAI nahIM. eTale A kALamAM oramAI sagAI rAkhajo, nahIM to mAryA gayA jANajo. chokarAM koIne mokSe laI janArAM nathI. jo tame DAhyA thazo to chokarAM DAhyA thaze. chokarAM joDe vahAla te karAtuM haze ? A vahAla to goLI mAre. vahAla dveSamAM pharI jAya. parANe prita karIne calAvI levAnuM bahAra 'sAruM lAge che tema kahevAnuM. paNa mahIM jANIe ke parANe prIti karI rahyA chIe, A hoya sAcI sagAI. A to badhI parabhArI pIDA che. chokaro ema nathI kaheto ke mArA para paDatuM nAkho, paNa A to bApa ja chokarAM para paDatuM nAkhe che. A ApaNI ja bhUla che. A kaLiyugamAM to mAMgatA leNAvALAM chokarAM thaIne

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 381 382 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra potAne kAma lAge tyAM sudhI saMbaMdhI ! ghATamAM le ne ! tamane koI ghATamAM letuM nathI ? A saMsAra ghATavALo ja che. jyAM koIpaNa prakAranuM ghATa nathI hoto tyAM paramAtmA avazya hoya ja. ghATathI bhagavAna vegaLA. jyAM sudhI sAMsArika koI paNa ghATa che, saMsArika icchAo che tyAM sudhI sAcI vAta koIthI nA nIkaLe. eka zabda ya sAco nIkaLe nahIM. cAle. AvuM 'enA vagara nA cAle' e kema thAya ? A to RNAnubaMdha che. AvuM te kyAM sudhI cAle ? A zo Dakho ? nahIM levA, nahIM devA. capaTIka khAvuM ne gAma AkhAnuM mAthe laIne pharavuM ne paga duHkhe to koI jovA ya Ave nahIM. ekaluM jAte ja paMpALa paMpALa karavuM paDe. - bhagavAne zuM kahyuM ke "saba sabakI samAlo. meM merI phoDatA huM ! eka bhaiyAonuM ToLuM hatuM. te jAte khIcaDI pakAvIne khAya. A badhA bhaiyAo eka medAnamAM UtarelA. badhAe sau-saunI khIcaDI traNa patharA mUkIne hAMllImAM mUkI. pachI badhA gAmamAM vepAra karavA gayA. eka mANasane sAcavavA mUkIne gayA. pachI sAMje pAchA AvyA. temAM ekane zuM thayuM ke, tene potAnI hAMllI jaDI ja nahIM, tene ciMtA thaI ke. mArI pelI ke pelI ? A jhADa nIcenI ke pelA jhADa nIcenI ? ne pAcho te vicAra karavA mAMDayo ke, bIjAnI laIza to mane badhA gAMDo kaheze. eTale eNe upAya zodhI kADhayo. eka moTo patharo lIdho ane moTethI bolavA mAMDayo, 'merI hAMllI phoDatA huM, saba sabakI samAlo'. te tarata ja badhAe pota potAnI hAMllI pakaDI lIdhI ane pelAne enI hAMllI maLI gaI ! A to ApaNI hAMllI samAlIne cAlavA jevuM che. ghATavALI sagAIomAM zo sAra? sAco saMbaMdhI AtmA e ja saMbhAra! pariNAma samajavuM joIe, chatAM chokarAM che. chokarA para prema rAkhavAno, chokarA ja mAnavAnAM. chokaro eTale zuM saMbaMdha che e samajI levuM. kAraNa ke A dareka joDe zuM saMbaMdha che, e nA samajI laIe ApaNe? e to jyAre dADha du:khe tyAre khabara paDe ! kAna duHkhe, peTa du:khe ne tyAre khabara paDe. mATe bahu atizaya mAyA karazo nahIM. phasAmaNa che. samajIne karajo A badhuM. huM tamane mAyA choDavAnuM nathI kaheto. choDyuM chUTAya evI nathI. paNa A bahu mAyA nA karazo, hAyavoya nA karazo. mArI vAta vyAjabI lAge che ne ? sAco saMbaMdha kone kahevAya ke je koI dahADo ya nA bagaDe. AtmA joDe ja sAco saMbaMdha che. bAkI badhA ghATavALA saMbaMdha che. ghATavALA eTale

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384 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra (15) dAdAzrI : hoya ja ne, badhuM ! badhuM leNa-deNa ja che ne A ! praznakartA : A badhA manuSyo che, emAM koI mA che, koI bhAI che. koI chokaro che. emano e badhAno pUrvApara saMbaMdha kharo ? dAdAzrI : pUrvApara eTale ApaNA copaDA hoya ne dukAne, dukAnavALAe dukAna pAchI laI lIdhI, to ApaNe copaDA ghera laI jaIe. tethI kaMI gharAka to je che bAkI, tenI pAse UgharANI karAya ne ? mAgato hoya tene tyAM UgharANIe javAya ne ? evuM ApaNe tyAM hisAba levA mATe ne ApavA mATe AvelA. ApaNe tyAM je je AvyA che ne, te levA mATe ane ApavA mATe, te ApaNane zuM Ape che ? e uparathI joI levAnuM ke A le che ke Ape che ? A hisAba che, badhA hisAba patAvavA AvyA che. tamane evo anubhava thoDo ghaNo thayelo nahIM ? ke A hisAba patAve che ? praznakartA sArI rIte thayo che. dAdAzrI : je chetarI jAya che e ApaNo ja hisAba. te tamAro ja hisAba cUkave che, e nimitta che. bairI-chokarAM jo potAnAM hoya ne, to A zarIrane game teTalI gabharAmaNa thatI hota to vAIpha thoDI laI leta, ardhAganA kahevAya che ne ! lakavo thaI gayo hoya to chokaro laI le ? paNa koI le nahIM. A to hisAba che badho ! bApA pAse mAMgato hato, teTaluM ja tamane maLyuM e che leNa-deNa, na sagAI! jevo hisAba baMdhAyo, tevo cUkavAya; Apa-leno hisAba, nirAMte patAvAya! praznakartA : amArA be chokarAo sAthe koI vakhata Amatema bolAcAlI thaI jAya. bAkI mAre eka chokarAnI bAbatamAM ghaNuM sahana karavuM paDe che. dAdAzrI : badhuM sahana karavuM paDe e to. e godA mAravA Avyo hoya ne, to godA khAvA paDe ApaNane. evuM che ne, e RNAnubaMdha kevuM bAMdheluM ? je premathI baMdhAyeluM hoya te AnaMda Ape ane bIjI rIte baMdhAyeluM hoya te godA mAre. eTale ApaNe godA khAvAM ja paDe, chUTako ja nahIM ne. eTale samabhAve nikAla karavAno. kAraNa ke ApaNe chUTA thavuM che. ene kaMI paDelI nathI, e to bAthaMbAtha karavA taiyAra che. A tamArA pakSano ane pelA vipakSI, paNa evuM moDhe bolIe nahIM. moDhe to kahIe ke 'tArA vagara mane gamatuM nathI.' ema tene kahevuM. nahIM to sAmAvaLIyo thaI jAya. pachI ene ema lAge ke A che ja evA. praznakartA : to chokarAMo joDe gayA bhavanuM leNa-deNa hoya che ? raNadveSathI mA-bApa chorAM maLyAM; du:kha vadhu bhogavavA khudatAM karyA! praznakartA : ApaNe tyAM evo chokaro pAkyo hoya to zuM karo ? tene ApaNe kaMI kADhI mUkIe chIe ? dAdAzrI : nA, kADhI nA mUkAya. praznakartA: to pachI e to ene rAkhavo ja paDe ne.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : rAkhavo ja paDe. rAkhIne gALo khAvAnI, mAra khAvAno ne rAkhavAno !! 385 chokarAM joDe ya bahu UMDA UtaravuM nahIM. pArakAM ne potAnAM chokarAM vacce phera zuM che ? pArakAMno chokaro mAgato nathI ne A mAge che, tyAre kahe ke rUpiyA mAge che ? nA, bA, rUpiyA ekalA mAgato nathI ? kAM to azAtA vedanIya ApavA Avyo hoya ke zAtA vedanIya ApavA Avyo hoya. ne A duSamakALamAM zAtA to ApatAM nathI. to zuM ApavAnuM rahyuM ? azAtA Ape ! eTale evuM che A bApane ane chokarAne RNAnubaMdha hoya che ne ! kaMI paisAne lIdhe RNAnubaMdha nathI hotuM. A to rAgadveSanuM RNAnubaMdha hoya che. A chokaro ATaluM ene duHkha Apaze ane bApa ATaluM sukha ApavA mAMgaze. tyAre pelo chokaro ATaluM duHkha ApavA mAge. e pachI paisAthI sukha Ape ke bIjuM game tenAthI. AmAM paisA to AvatA ja nathI vacce. praznakartA : bApa sukha ApavAno prayatna kare ane chokaro duHkha Ape evuM nakkI ja che ? dAdAzrI : nA. te be ya sAmasAmI sukha Ape evuM hoya ane eka du:kha Ape ne eka sukha Ape evuM ya hoya. have choDIo-boDIo che ne, te hisAba cUkate karavA AvI che. te ApaNo ja hisAba che. emAM eno zo doSa bicArIno. te ene patharA kahIe. mahIM bhagavAna beThA che ene patharo kahIe, eTale pharI karma baMdhAya badhA. ane e choDIo je thAya che ne, chokarA thAya che ne te potAnuM beMka belensa badhuM bheguM mUkIne A limiTeDa kaMpanImAM pese che, korporezanamAM pese che. ema ne ema pesatAM nathI A. ta bolAya mA-bApathI, peTa pAkyuM; chorAM kahe, mArA pagale tamAruM cAlyuM! praznakartA : dAdA ApaNe moTuM kuTuMba hoya eTale phAilonI vacamAM mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra to ApaNe rahevAnuM, paNa e dareka phAilonI sAthe ApaNane rAga-dveSa nahIM thAya. eTale hisAba cUkavelA ja kahevAya ne ? 386 dAdAzrI : e ja hisAba cUkavAnuM. eTalA mATe ja bhegA thayA che. ApaNI bhUla thAya to rAga-dveSa thAya. eTale bhUlathI baMdhAyeluM che A jagata. bhUla na thAya to kazuM nahIM. pelo ulaTo lokone ema kaheto hato ke mAre lIdhe emanuM cAlatuM hatuM. mArA pagamAM paDayA tethI ja emanuM cAlyuM. evuM kahe ne, tyAre ApaNe sAMbhaLavuM enuM. tyAM zuM ApaNe kahevuM ? jhaghaDo karavo ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : hisAba che e cUkave che. chokaro evuM bole tyAre zuM kaheze ? praznakartA : kaMI nahIM. dAdAzrI : mArA janama pachI mArA bApA sukhI thayA, nahIM to pahelAM bahu du:khI hatA. chokaro evuM bole tyAre zuM thAya ? tyAra pachI eno bApa DAhyo na hoya ne te kaheze, peTa pAkyuM tyAM zuM karuM ! alyA mUA kaMI pAkyuM che te ?! mATe A jagata samajI levAnI jarUra che. bhUlathI A saMsAra Ubho thaI gayo che. te ekaluM akramavijJAna ja bhUlo baMdha karAvaDAve che. bIjuM koI vijJAna bhUlane baMdha nA karAvaDAve. tamane samajAyuM ke ? praznakartA : barAbara. dAdAzrI : nathI koI koInI mAlikInuM. ko'ke kahyuM hoya ke tArA janama pachI tArA bApA sukhI thayA che. to UMdho laI paDe. A hathiyAra hAthamAM AvyuM ne laDavAnuM. to ApaNe zuM kahevuM paDe, 'peTa pAkyuM che.' e peTa pAkyuM tyAM zuM karavuM, kyAM oparezana karAvavuM ! pahelAMnI thayelI bhUlono hisAba cUkate karI nAkhe, navI bhUla thavA nA de, evuM ApaNuM vijJAna che. A bAvA karavAno mArga nathI, A to RNAnubaMdha patAvavAno mArga che. RNAnubaMdha patAvyA vagara doDadhAma karIne bAvo thaI jAya emAM kaMI dahADo vaLe nahIM. eTale RNAnubaMdha

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 387 patAvavAnAM. jenI gALo khAvAnI hoya tenI gALa khAvAnuM, jeno mAra khAvAno hoya teno mAra khAvAno, jenI sevA karavAnI hoya tenI sevA kare, paNa hisAba badhAM cUkavavAM paDe. copaDAmAM citareluM che te co to karavuM paDe ne ? 388 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA: khAya che. dAdAzrI : hA, gaDadApATu ! sArI rIte methIpAka. AvaDuM AvaDuM bole te mAthAnI naso phATe !! ane hakadAra pAcho. ApaNe kahIe ke huM tane kazuM nahIM ApuM. to kahe, 'tame nahIM Apo to korTamAMthI meLavI laIza." bolo have, mAgatAvALo sArone AnAM karatAM ? eTale A khAtAM ja, mokSe jatAM rUkAvaTa ja e che ! bApa kahe, tane kazuM nahi maLe; chokaro korTe jaIne sAmo laDhe! jarUrI upAdhi vahorAya; bahArathI nakAmI tA khecAya! praznakartA : A koI kuTuMbamAM bALaka janme che, to e bALaka enI potAnI purvethI janme che ke kuTuMbIonI purvethI janme che ? dAdAzrI : potAnI puathI. kuTuMbIonI puNya to kharI. eTale e kuTuMbIono hisAba ane pelAno hisAba, paNa e janme che te potAnI puNyathI. kuMTuMbIone zuM ? kuMTuMbIo to peMDA khavaDAve ane ropha mAre. paNa jyAre marI jAya tyAre peMDA khavaDAvelA khabara paDI jAya. pachI raDAroDa ! te peMDA khavaDAvatAM pahelAM nA samajavuM joIe ? ke bhaI, A to hisAba che te Avyo che. hisAba thaI rahe to jato rahe. evuM samajIne beThA hoya to zuM khoTuM ?! praznakartA : amuka vAMjhIyA hoya ene zuM RNAnubaMdha nahIM hoya ? dAdAzrI : copaDAmAM hisAba bAkI nA hoya tyAre khAtuM ya nA hoya. copaDAmAM kazuM nA hoyane, eTale khAtuM ja nA hoya. kaMI bAkI hoya to khAtuM hoya. A to ApaNA loko pachI pelo sukhIyo hoya ne, ene sukhIyo nA thavA de. praznakartA : barAbara che. saMsAramAM evAM chokarAM sAthe RNAnubaMdhanA anubhava bahu thAya. dAdAzrI : thayelA ja hoya. paNa A mohanA mAryo mAra khAya che. mohanA mAryo eTalo badho mAra khAya che ke kaMI pAra vagarano mAra khAya che. narkanA jevI yAtanA bhogave che badhA. chokaro sAmo thaI jAya, UMdhuM bole, gALo bhAMDe. paNa mohanA mAryA, bebhAnapaNe mAra khAyA kare che. mohanA mAryA mAra khAtAM haze ke nahIM ? eTale bane eTalI ochI upAdhi karo. have temAM khAsa strInI upAdhi to karavA jevI che ja, kAraNa ke saMsAramAM AvyA eTale saMsAramAM kaMIka helpIMga to joIe ne ! sAluM dhaMdho karIe to ya bhAgIdAra joIe che. to pachI strInI upAdhI vahorI, eTale bALa-baccAM jenA hisAbamAM lakhelAM hoya enAM thayA kare. paNa bIjI badhI jANI joIne upAdhi bahArathI vahorI lAvavI nahIM. praznakartA : tame kIdhuM ne ke bApa-baccAM hisAbamAM hoya e thAya, to e hisAba zuM che ? dAdAzrI : e hisAba che eTalo. mAre ghera chokarA ne choDI hatAM. te badhAM AvyAM ne gayAM. meM kahyuM, A to badhA mahemAna, gesTa che. jeTalo mArI pAse hisAba mAMgato hoya ne, eTaluM laIne cAlyA jAya. AmAM kazuM koI koInI sagAI nathI A. dhIsa Ijha rIleTiva ! eTale A rIleTiva rIlezana che. eTale ApaNe saMbaMdha che, koI paNa jAtanA enI joDe e saMbaMdha che pUrvanA-pahelAMno. eTale ApaNe tyAM bhegA thAya che ane saMbaMdhano niveDo lAvavAno che, tyAre UlaTo saMbaMdha vadhAre cIkaNuM kare che. A AMkhe dekhAya che, e badhI vAta taddana sAcI nathI. taddana khoTI ya nathI. sApekSa vAta che. sApekSa eTale ApaNe ene RNAnubaMdha hoya tyAM sudhI sAruM cAle, ne RNAnubaMdha avaLuM thayuM ke tarata e korTamAM jAya,

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 389 390 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ApaNAM sAmo. A to ApaNe oLakhANe ya nahIM, pArakhANe ya nahIM. A to badhuM hisAba che. A to ApaNuM puNya sAruM, khAva nirAMte ane kaDhI bagaDI gaI, to ApaNAM pApano udaya Avyo. ochuM khAva, paNa ukela lAvo ne ! na hoya kadi mAte sahu korAM samAta; rAga-dveSa mujaba abhAva ke kheMcANa! praznakartA : paNa pelo chokaro sAro hoya to ya ene.... dAdAzrI : sAro chokaro kazuM jovAnuM nahIM. praznakartA : je banyuM e kharuM. dAdAzrI : banyuM e kharuM. tethI A jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. A du:kho tethI che ! praznakartA: kaI thIyarIe A banI rahyuM che ? dAdAzrI : nyAyanI thIyarI ! ekazana enDa rIekazana Ara ikvala enDa opojhiTa. emAM enI mA sAcI che ane A vagovanArA khoTA che. enI mA joDeno saMbaMdha Avo vAMko haze eno. eTale mA enI joDe vAMkI thAya. praznakartA : hA. e atyAre ema ja cAle che ke ANe Ama karyuM, ANe Ama karyuM, ANe Ama karyuM. dAdAzrI : A jIvato tane rAkhyo e ja tAro nyAya che, nahIM to ATaluM poIjhana ApI dIdhuM hota to zuM karata ?! e jIvato rAkhyo te ja tAro nyAya che. mATe sUI jA nirAMte ne nAma de sAruM ke bahu sAro mANasa che. eka chokarAne enI mA che te kazuM kharAba nA karato hoya to ya mAramAra karatI hoya. ane eka chokaro ATalo badho tophAna karato hoya to ya ene ramADa ramADa karatI hoya. chokarA badhA enA hoya, pAMceva. pAMceva joDe juduM juduM vartana hoya. enuM zuM kAraNa ? praznakartA : enA darekanA karmanA udaya judA haze? dAdAzrI : e to hisAba ja cUkate thAya che ane A che te mAre pAMce pAMca chokarA para sarakho bhAva rAkhavo joIe, paNa e zI rIte rahe ? ane pachI chokarA kaheze, mArI mA che te AnA pakSamAM che. evI bUmo pADe. enA jhaghaDA che A duniyAmAM. praznakartA H to e pelI madharane evo bhAva kema thAya che pelA chokarA joDe. dAdAzrI : te ene kaMI pUrvanuM vera che. pelAno pUrvano rAga che. eTale rAga sUcave che. loka nyAya khoLe che ke pAMce chokarA sarakhA nahIM, ene ? praznakartA : to A je chokarAnAM RNAnubaMdha che e badhA ya eno hisAba ja che badho. tethI e badhA jIvo bhegA maLyA che. - dAdAzrI : e hisAbamAM che te kazuM rAga-bAga badhuM sarakhuM khoLavAnuM nahIM, je Ave e karekTa. cIkaNAM karme mA-bApa rahe joDe; nahIM to dUra videza khoraDe! praznakartA : ApaNA cIkaNAM karma kuTuMbIjano sAthe vadhu hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : hA. kuTuMbIjano eTale je ApaNI joDe vadhAre najIkamAM hoya tenI joDe vadhAre hoya. praznakartA : eTale mAtApitA najIkamAM kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : mAtApitA e bahAragAma rahetA hoya to ochuM cIkaNuM hoya ane najIkamAM rahetA hoya to vadhAre cIkaNuM hoya. mAtApitA AphrikA rahetA hoya to temanI joDe ochuM cIkaNuM hoya. e cIkaNA

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 391 karmanA hisAbe to e ApaNI pAse ne pAse hoya che. e dUra jAya paNa nahIM. nokara rAkhyo hoya ne to AkhI jiMdagI eno e ja hoya ane bilADI pALelI hoya ne vIsa varasa rahI hoya, to vIsa varasa sudhI enA karmano hisAba ApaNI joDe ja hoya. enI joDe sagAvahAlA karatAM ya vadhAre hoya che. eTale A to badhuM karmanA hisAbe badhuM bheguM thAya che. praznakartA : eTale sAdhAraNa rIte A kuTuMbIjanonuM leNuM-deNuM pUruM nA thAya tyAM sudhI ApaNI joDe ja janmyA kare ne ? dAdAzrI : hA. basa enuM e ja badhuM. jyAM sudhI leNuM-deNuM pUruM thAya nahIM, tyAM sudhI joDe ja pharyA karavAnuM. leNuM adhUruM mUkato gayo hoya to pAcho Avaze. ane navA leNAM UbhAM karyA hoya to e pachI navuM vadhatuM jAya. 392 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : hA, badhuM banI zake. pote potAno chokaro paNa thAya !!! evuM A prakRtino tyAM sudhI sAMdho maLe evo che !!! "caMdulAla'ne 'maganalAla'no AtmA ekano eka ja hoya evo sAMdho ya maLI jAya! bane ja che, evuM baneluM ya che ! ghaNAM vakhata baneluM che. A jagata to bahu vicitratAne pAmeluM che. 83 varSano thaIne pachI pAcho ahIM Ave ! keTalAya chokarAnA chokarA ne tenAM chokarAM mUkIne Ave !! A bhave bAMdheluM kare kerI ota; mATe ceta, ta le tevI lotA! pote potAno dIkaro (!) thAya; karmanI gati gajaba gaNAya! praznakartA : eTale ekanAM eka kuTuMbamAM janme evuM bane ! dAdAzrI : nA, evuM kaMI khAsa nathI. ko'ka phero ja evuM bane ane to be-cAra vakhata ja bane, vadhAre to nA bane. kAraNa ke haMmezAM ya maraNa thAya, eTale leNuM to pUruM thaI ja jAya che. agara to deNuM hoya to deNuM pUruM thaI jAya. paNa navuM leNuM eNe UbhuM nA karyuM hoya to ahIM nA Ave. navuM leNuM bIjI jagyAe karyuM hoya to bIje jAya. eTale eka janmamAM ja badhAnI joDe leNuM-deNuM pUruM thaI jAya che. tethI ApaNe A jJAna ApIe chIe ane kahIe chIe ke pharI leNuM-deNuM nA karazo, karma nA bAMdhazo eTale tame chUTAM ane hisAbo to enI meLe badhAM cUkate thaI ja javAnA, chUTako ja nahIMne ! jIvatAM ja duHkha Ape. te rUbarUmAM du:kha nahIM Ape to svapnamAM paNa duHkha ApIne jaze. svapnamAM duHkha Ape ke nA Ape ? eTale svapnAnuM duHkha bhogavavuM paDe, paNa hisAba cUkate thaI ja jAya. praznakartA : dAdo potAnA ghera ja janme evuM banI zake kharuM ? kharI rIte A chokarA ne phAdharano saMbaMdha che ja nahIM. A to ApaNe karmathI mAnI lIdhuM che. praznakartA: ApaNe A bhavanA je karmo karyA hoya, puNya ke pApanAM, te ahIMyA ja sarabhara thaI jAya ke pachI e jamA-udhAra ApaNe AgalA bhavamAM kerI ona karavAM paDe ? dAdAzrI : AgalA bhavanuM taiyAra e badhuM laIne gayo hoya, nahIM to AvatA bhavamAM zuM kare ? pachI mA-bApa kaMIthI lAve ! eTale kaMI sArA karma karyA hoya, eTale puNya prApta karyuM hoya to mA-bApa sArA maLI Ave. pApa karyuM hoya to rAkSasa jevo bApa ane mA evI maLe. tyAMthI ja zarUAta thaI enuM puNya ane pApa vaparAvAnuM. eTale garbhamAM e pramANe duHkha-sukha rahyA kare. e badhAM ApaNAM A karelAM karmanuM phaLa badhuM ya. AkhI jIMdagInuM evuM che. gayA avatAramAM karma karelA te atyAre bhogavo cho badhuM. skUlamAM kema AvaDatuM nathI ? kAraNa ke eNe karmo khoTAM karelA. sarakhuM sIMcata chatAM bhinna prakRti ; bIja pramANe phaLa e che kudaratI ! praznakartA: eka bApane traNa chokarAM hoya, eka chokaro cAkarI kare ane bIjA be chokarA lephaTa-rAITa le, enuM zuM kAraNa ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 393 394 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : jevo hisAba hoya ne tevo hisAba pajave. ApaNe khetaramAM eka jhADa vAvyuM, eka ropyuM hoya to eka kaDavAM phaLa Ape ane eka ropyuM hoya to mIThAM Ape. kaDavI gIloDIne badhuM hoya che ne ? eka khetaramAM gIloDIo badhe sAthe hoya, paNa eka mIThI hoya, eka kaDavI hoya, evI rIte A kaDavA chokarAM hoya, eka mIThAM chokarA hoya, mAbApe ya kaDavA hoya baLyAM ! praznakartA : dhAvaNa to badhAne eka jAtanuM ApyuM hoya ne ! dAdAzrI : dhAvaNa eka ja jAtanuM, A kaDavI gIloDIne ne mIThI gIloDIne badhAne dhAvaNa eka ja jAtanuM; lImaDAne eka jAtanuM, AMbAne eka jAtanuM, badhAne dhAvaNa eka ja jAtanuM; paNa sahusahunA svabhAva pramANe thAya. bIjamAM je guNa che ne, bIjamAM jevo guNa hoya evo thAya. praznakartA : bIja paNa eka ja hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, bIja eka nA hoya. bIja jAtajAtanAM hoya, A jema AMbo, lImaDo evuM jAtajAtanAM bIja. dhAvaNa eka ja jAtanuM. praznakartA : eka ja jAtanuM bI vAvyuM hoya. dAdAzrI : bI eka jAtanuM vavAya nahIM ne ! bIja to jAta jAtanA paDe. kayuM bIja paDayuM che te Uge tyAre khabara paDe ne enuM phaLa khaIene, cAkhIe tyAre khabara paDe ke A kaDavI gIloDI ! tyAM sudhI to ApaNane samajaNe ya nA paDe, gIloDI kaDavI che ke nahIM, paNa phaLa cAkhIe, tyAre khabara paDe. praznakartA : eka ja gIloDImAMthI kADhelA badhAM bI hoya to ? dAdAzrI : e to lAge che eka gIloDInA bI badhA. paNa A to mANasane kSaNe kSaNe pote ja mANasa ja badalAyA kare che. eka moTo puruSa kahe che ke mane phalANA chokarAno janma thayo tyAre te ghaDIe mArA muslima vicAro hatA, tethI A chokaro muslimane paiNyo, kahe che. eTale jevA jevA ApaNA hisAba e pramANe bIja badhA utpanna thayA kare ane pachI bIja kaDavuM hoya, mIThuM hoya. karelAMnA phaLa bhogavavAnAM che. je ApaNe karyuM hoyane, tenA phaLa bhogavavAnAM che. chokaro sevA ya kare ne mevA ya kare. ApaNe evuM karavuM ke ApaNe koIne trAsa nA ApIe to koI ApaNane trAsa ApanAro jIva ApaNe tyAM Ave ja nahIM. jenA khetaramAM cokhyuM che, je vastu vAvavAnI badhuM cokhkhuM veNI karIne to pachI dANA badhA cokhkhA Uge ane vakhate UgyuM hoyane, peluM bIjuM ADuM UgyuM hoya to nIMdI nAkhe to ya thAya. paNa loko khoTuM karavAmAM kaMI bAkI rAkhatA nathI, te pachI nIMdavAnuM to vAta ja kyAM che ? praznakartA : eka ja papaiyAmAM, eka ja vADI hoya, eka ja khetara hoya, eka ja ucheranAro hoya, to ya emAM nara ane mAdA be judAM judAM nathI thatAM ? dAdAzrI : are, e to vaLI mIThI gIloDI vAvI hoya to ya ThIkarI Ave to kaDavI thaI jAya badhI, Amane zuM vAra ?! ApaNe jo cokhkhAM hoIe ne, to ApaNane koI nAma de evuM nathI. ApaNe cokhkhAM raho to chokarAM Avaze ke cokhAM. A badhuM tamAruM. ne mAruM RNAnubaMdhathI bhegA thayA chIe. ghasAro paDayo tamane ne tamane gALo ApI, nukasAna kara kara karyuM hoyane, e enuM che te tamArI joDe hisAba baMdhAyo. tame che te e hisAba cUkavavA enI pAse Avo. A rUpiyA ekalAnI ciMtA nathI. rUpiyAnuM mAMgaNuM ekaluM nathI. bIjI bahu bhAMjagaDo che. rUpiyAnuM mAMgaNuM to ko'ka ja hoya. pachI bIjI bhAMjagaDo pUrI thaI jAya, rAga-dveSa, krodha-mAnamAyA-lobha e kakaLATa, kakaLATa, teno A badho hisAba ukelIne chokarAM thAya che. bApa pote cora hoya to chokarAMne cora banAve che. zAhukAra chokaro hoya tene ya cora banAve. have e meLa paDe nahIM ne ! eTale meLa paDe nahIM, enI A badhI vaDhavADo che ane kaLiyugamAM to mahAduHkhadAyI ! du:kha devA mATe ja chokarAM Ave. koIe AzA rAkhavI nahIM.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 35 396 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra saMtanA pAMce, kyAre na pAke saMta; sva saMskAra pramANe, na cAle khaMta! eTale rAga-dveSanA pariNAmothI emane badhA bhegAM thayAM. emAM eka-be sArAe hoya pAchAM, eno kaMI savAla nathI. pachI ekAda mahIM avaLuM phare. e eno mAla pramANe dArU hoya. jevo dArU bharelo hoya evo phUTe pachI ! ApaNA vAMke bheguM thayuM vAMkuM; ema ne ema na pAke peTe DAku! praznakartA : eka saMta ane temanAM patnI e bane che te saMskArI ja hoya, emane pAMca chokarAM hatAM, to pAMca saMta kema nA pAkyAM ?! dAdAzrI : nA pAke. saMta pAke nahIM. e pAke kevI rIte ?! saMskArI beu hatAM. eTale kaMI saMskArI hoya to chokarAmAM saMskAra paDe. paNa mAla to bahArathI Avelo hoyane, te ja mAla nIkaLe pachI. ApaNA bApanA saMskAra ApaNAmAM UtaratA nathI. e potAnA ja saMskAra laIne Ave che. paNa ApaNo jevo hisAba hoya te ja ApaNane ahIM joInTa thAya che. ApaNA ja RNAnubaMdha e ja ApaNe tyAM Ave che badho hisAba. chokarAM enA potAnA saMskAra svataMtra lAvelo hoya ne ! paNa mA-bApe saMskAra avazya ApavA joIe. praznakartA chokarAone saMskAra ApavA mATe e saMte kacAza to nahIM rAkhI hoya ne ?! dAdAzrI : nA, nA. zenI kacAza rAkhe ? pArakAMnI kacAza nhotA rAkhatAM, to potAnA chokarAmAM kacAza rAkhe ?! praznakartA : to pachI emanA chokarAo e saMta jevA kema nA thayAM ? dAdAzrI : saMta to thAya ja nahIM ! evuM eka ja jAtanuM hoya ja nahIM haMmezAM, eka jAtanuM koI phero hoya ja nahIM. e pahelAMnA jamAnAmAM hatuM. atyAre A Devalapa jamAnAmAM eka jAtanuM zI rIte Ave ?! A badhA ApaNA oLakhANavALA ane ApaNA RNAnubaMdhavALA ja ApaNe tyAM chokarAo thAya che. kaMI navI jAtano mAla Avato nathI. tamane guNa maLatAM AvatAM hoya te tamane A bhego thayelo ane tamane nA maLatAM hoya te ya guNano ekAda bhego thaI gayo. kAraNa ke dveSathI thayelo hoya ane pelA rAgathI thayelo hoya. evuM rAga-dveSathI A badhAM bhegAM thayA che. praznakartA: paNa dAdA, keTalAMkanA mA-bApa bahu saMskArI hoya che. paNa emanAM chokarAM bahu rAzI hoya che, to tenuM zuM kAraNa ? dAdAzrI : ghauM UMcI jAtanA hoya, indoranA che. dANA to, ahIM AgaLa ropIe, jamIna rAzI, khAtara nahIM, pANI khAruM, to kevA ghauM thAya ? praznakartA : kharAba thAya. dAdAzrI : evuM A badhuM thayuM che, badho kacaro bhego thayo. khArAM pANI bhegAM thayAM. te pachI pAchuM gerakAyadesara nahIM. pAchuM potAno hisAba che te ja mAla maLyo che. chokarA nAlAyaka eTale tamAre samajI levuM ke mArAmAM nAlAyakI dekhAtI nathI, paNa A nAlAyakI mArI ja che evuM samajI levuM. ApaNI nAlAyakI AmAM dekhAya che. pratyakSa phoTA rUpe tamane samajAyuM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : kAma lAgaze A vAkya ? vAta A kAma lAgaze tamAre ! praznakartA : hA, hA. dAdAzrI : ahIM badhuM kaMI kudarata, bhagavAna nathI karato ne bIjo koI hAtha nathI ghAlato, A badhuM tamAruM te tamAruM ja che. sArA chokarA pAke che te ya tamAro phoTo ane rAzI pAke che te ya tamAro phoTo. pelA saMte kahyuM hatuM ne ke, mArA kharAba vicAra hatA tyAre A kharAba pAkyo

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 397 398 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra hato ! AnAM janmatAM pahelA mArA je vicAra hatA ne te pramANe pAkyo, hindune tyAM muslima jevo zI rIte pAke ? potAno ja hisAba ! pUcho, bIjuM badhuM pUcho, kaMI gUMcI jeTalI hoya eTalI gUMco pUcho badhI. A gUMca kADhavAnuM sthAna che. gUMco nIkaLe to mokSe javAya. nahIM to mokSe javAya nahIM. gUMcAyelo mANasa zuM mokSe jAya ? ahIM gUMcavAyelo mANasa saMsAramAM rahetA nA AvaDe to ?! kone tyAM chokarA kharAba pAkyA che ? tArA pADozIne tyAM ? praznakartA : A janarala vAta karI meM to phakata ! dAdAzrI : hA. ane chokarA kharAba pAke ! ane keTalAka chokarA mA-bApanI sevA kare che, evI sevA kare, khAdhA-pIdhA vagare ya sevA kare che. temane mATe evuM nathI. badho ApaNo ja hisAba che. ApaNA vAMkathI bheguM thayuM ApaNane. A kaLiyugamAM zuM karavA ApaNe AvyA ? satyuga nhoto ?! sayugamAM badhA pAMsarA hatA. kaLiyugamAM badhA vAMkA maLI Ave. chokaro sAro tyAre vevAI rAzI male, te vaDhavaDhA kare. vahu rAzI male te vaDhavaDhA kare. ko'kanuM ko'ka rAzI male ane A gharamAM cAlyA ja kare sTava, vaDhavADano sTava saLagyA ja kare. Avyo che ne to e sArA nIkaLyA ! praznakartA H eTale dareka potapotAnA pUrvajanmanuM laIne Ave te pramANe cAle. dAdAzrI : emAM kazuM mA-bApanuM kazuM ya che nahIM. paNa mA-bApanuM to A che, sarakhA paramANu ekalA che. bAkI badhu ApaNuM, svabhAva hatuM ApaNo. loka kahe che ne, eno bApa krodhI che. eTale e krodhI nIkaLyo. tyAre meM kahyuM, A bIjo chokaro kevo che ?! jarA ya krodha nahIM, enuM zuM kAraNa ? 'tyAre e nahIM jANuM pAchuM." mUA e jANa. A badhA potAnA svabhAvathI ja jIve che loko. mA-bApa to nimitta che phakta. ene phakta e paramANu maLI jAya ene. te maLato svabhAva che mATe A tyAM janmyo. kaMIka maLatAvaza AvatI hoya phAdhara joDe, to tame emane tyAM janma lyo. praznakartA : barAbara. dAdAzrI : tamAre saMta puruSa joDe maLatAvaza AvatI haze kaMI ! to ja janma lyo tame, nahIM to ema ne ema janma zI rIte mANasa le? praznakartA : kharI vAta. dAdAzrI : pachI paiNyA, tamane emanI joDe maLatAvaza AvatI hatI to ja paiNe ne, nahIM to paiNe zI rIte ?! pachI mArI joDe tamane maLatAvaza Ave ? praznakartA : e bahu Ave. dAdAzrI : bIjA badhAM karatAM dAdA joDe vadhAre Ave ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : hA. eTale maLatAvaza Ave to ja e badhuM bheguM thAya. eTale pahelAMno hisAba che A. praznakartA mA-bApane be bALako hoya, emAM ghaNI vakhata evuM bane che ke eka bALaka maMdabuddhi hoya ane eka bahu catura hoya che, enuM kAraNa zuM? eka ja mA-bApanAM bALako ane bannemAM A jAtanuM kema hoya ? maLatAM paramANuo, joDe janmAve; tyAM ja goThe te vasula karAve! praznakartA : eka phAdhara hoya ane ene cAra chokarA hoya. phAdhara badhAne eka sarakhI TrITamenTa Ape che, bhaNavA mATe. khAvA-pIvAmAM badhAmAM. have emAM eka ke be chokarA vadhatA-ochAM sArA nIkaLyA. to e je chokarAo che te potAnA pUrvabhavanA saMskArane lIdhe emAM pheraphAra lAge ke mA-bAponI keLavaNIthI lAge. dAdAzrI : mA-bApane kazuM ya levA-devA nahIM. mA-bApa to badhAne khAtara nAkhe kare ne badhuM. paNa ene kaI jagyA malI, kevI jamIna malI. khArAmAM UgI che, pANI bharAI rahe evI jagyAmAM UbhuM che ke TekarA upara UbhI che, khAtaravALI jagyA che ke nahIM ! e pUrvajanmanuM badhuM laIne

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 399 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra levAdevA che tyAM sudhI ahIM saMsAramAM AvavAnuM che. bhagavAna mahAvIre kahyuM ne ke mAre koInI joDe levAdevA nathI. huM to vItarAga chuM, e koInI upara mane rAge ya nathI ne dveSa hoya nahIM. mAranAra upara dveSa nathI ane phUlo caDhAvanAra upara mane rAga nathI. eTale A rAga-dveSathI UbhI thayelI vastu che. eTale A RNAnubaMdha che. ApaNI mAlikInI koI vastu che nahIM. mAnI beThelA chIe eTaluM. phera kerI kerIe, pAMdaDe DALe DALe; spesa phere thayo phera, bhAva dravya kALa! dAdAzrI : e kaMI mA-bApano masAlo nathI e. e potAno masAlo dekhADe che. mA-bApa che te krodhI hoya ane chokarA eka krodhI hoya ane eka evo ThaMDo hoya, kharekharo ThaMDo hoya. eTale mA-bApane ane chokarAne kazuM levAdevA nathI. phakta dehanA paramANu enA jevA sarakhA dekhAya, paNa paramANu mA-bApanAM nathI. kAraNa ke A zuM che ke tamAruM sarkala je che, e tamane phITa thatuM hoya je sarkala, e ja sarkalamAMthI ja tamAre tyAM Ave che chokarA tarIke, jo tamane amuka paramANu guNa malatA hoya to ja bhegA thAya. emAM eka ochI buddhivALo, e tamane AIskrIma khavaDAvato hoya to nA thAya bhaIbaMdhI ?! ko'ka dahADo AIskrIma khavaDAvato hoya ne khuza karato hoya, to bhaIbaMdhI thAya ke nA thAya ? rAga thayo. eTale emAM bIjuM kazuM nahIM ApaNe to. RNAnubaMdha che ApaNe, bIjuM kazuM nathI. praznakartA : eTale pUrvajanmanuM kAraNa che. dAdAzrI : pUrvajanmanuM RNAnubaMdha ja che. bIjuM kazuM nahIM. mAbApane ne chokarAne kaMI paNa levAdevA nathI. phakta hisAba cUkavavAnI ja levAdevA che. khAlI hisAba ja cUkavavAno. ke A ATaluM duHkha Apaze ke A ATaluM sukha Apaze. bemAMthI eka Apaze, trIjI koI vastu hotI nathI. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, bAyolojIkalamAM evuM che ne ke mA-bApane DAyAbiTIsa hoya, to chokarAne ya DAyAbiTIsa thAya. dAdAzrI : e to eTale ApaNI joDe beThelA hoya ne ! tamane paNa evA guNo hoya to ja bhegA thAya che. eTale badhuM AmAM kazuM levAdevA nathI. badhuM tamAro ja A rAga jyAM coMTyo hoya ne, tyAM pachI rAganA hisAbe Ave. agara dveSa coMTayo hoya, nA gamato hoya te tamAre tyAM Ave ke bahu gamato hoya te Ave ane levAdevAnuM nA hoya to tamAre tyAM koI Ave nahIM. eTale A mahAvIra bhagavAna zuM kahe che, "mAre koInI joDe have levAdevA nathI. tyAre kahe, 'tamAre ahIM nahIM AvavAnuM have. jyAM sudhI praznakartA : ApaNe A vanaspatimAM paNa jIva che evuM kahe che, have A AMbo hoya, AMbAne jeTalI kerIo hoya, te badhI kerIono svAda eka ja jAtano hoya, jyAre A manuSyamAM pAMca chokarA hoya to pAMce ya chokarAnA judAM judAM vicAra-vANI-vartana evuM kema ? dAdAzrI : kerIomAM ya juduM juduM hoya, tamAre eTalI badhI sUkSmatA nahIM, tamArI samajavAnI zakti nahIM. bAkI badhI dareka kerImAM judo judo svAda, dareka pAMdaDAmAM ya pheraphAra. eka ja jAtanA dekhAya, eka ja jAtanI sugaMdha hoya paNa pheraphAra kaMI ne kaMI. kAraNa ke A duniyAno niyama evo che ke spesa badalAya eTale pheraphAra thAya. spesa badalI eTale pheraphAra hoya ja ! tamane samaja paDIne ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ApaNA manuSyo che ne, te badhAno pheraphAra tamane dekhAya, paNa gAyo-bheMsone nA dekhAya. gAyone eka jAtanA mANaso dekhAya badhA evI rIte ApaNane A pAMdaDA-bAMdaDAmAM, kerI-berImAM pheraphAra nA dekhAya. dareka spesa jevI badalAya, e badhuM ja pheraphAra hoya. A spesa judI, A spesa judI. A sAyansano niyama, kALa badalAya to ya pheraphAra thAya. atyAra roTalI pahelI banAvIe, e roTalIno svAda judo ane bIjI roTalIno svAda judo. lAge eka ja jAtanuM ! ApaNane to eTalI badhI sUkSmatA nahIM ne, parIkSA nahIM eTalI badhI. banAvanAra eka ja jaNa

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 401 402 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra rAjA zreNikate dIkarAe nAkhyo jela; mahAvIra maLyA chatAM tarka, karmanA re khela! che. spesa enI e ja che, paNa TAIma badalAyA kare che. eTale svAdamAM pheraphAra thayA ja kare. tethI ApaNe ahIM koI paNa mANaso kazAkamAM prakhyAta thaI jAya. enuM zuM kAraNa ke, badhAe judI judI jAtathI banAveluM. e eno bhAva, TAIma, spesa, eTale AvI duniyA cAle che, TAIma ne spesa badalAya eTale badhuM pheraphAra thAya ja, bhAva badalAya. ApaNo bhAva badalAya. hamaNAM roTalI banAvatAM hoya. pahelI A bena banAvatAM hoya, to pahelI be banAvI tyAre manamAM ema ke Aja sArAmAM sArI roTalI khavaDAvuM ane tyAM sudhI eka mahemAna AvyA emanA oLakhANavALA. Ama moTuM dekhyuM, mana bagaDI gayuM. A vaLI kyAMthI AvyA ?! e pachI roTalI bagaDI. eno e ja loTa !!! gulAbanA phula ekasarakhAM nA hoya, badhA phUlamAM ceMja e sUkSmatA dekhAya nahIM tamane. jagyA phera che mATe badho phera. roTalI vaNavAmAM phera che eTale phera. praznakartA: roTalI banAvatI vakhate bhAva bagaDelA hoya, e roTalI dhAro ke bIjuM koI khAya, to enuM zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : bagaDI jAya moTuM. praznakartA : enuM ya bagaDI jAya ? dAdAzrI : hA. pahelI roTalI moDhAmAM mUkatAM sAthe ogaLI jAya ane pelI vATa-vATa karo, to ya nA ogaLe. TAImano ceMja, jagyAno ceMja, bhAvano ceMja, eTale badhuM caeNjebala che. A jagata ja AkhuM caeNjebala che. eTale chokarAM je che ne te, e chokarAM pahelAM eka jAtanA dekhAtAM hatAM kharAM, paNa emAM ceMja hato ja. paNa pahelAM kevuM hatuM ke badhA eka ja jAtanAM chokarAM Ave badhAM. ko'ka ja judI jAtanuM nIkaLI jAya. bAkI gulAbanAM chokarAM badhAM ya gulAba. eTale pahelA gulAbanA khetarAM thatAM hatAM ApaNe ghera, ane have to gulAba pote hoya ane chokarAmAM eka gulAba hoya, eka mogaro hoya, eka caMpo hoya, jAtajAtanAM hoya chokarAM. eTale have mUo kaMTALe ke mArA jevA kema nahIM ?! praznakartA : mANasanI je prakRti Devalapa thAya che. te tenA janmathI je AjubAjunA vAtAvaraNa, saMskAra maLe che enAthI thAya che ke gayA bhavathI saMskAra laIne Avyo che enA AdhAre prakRti Devalapa thAya che. dAdAzrI : gayA avatAranA AdhAre. gayA avatAranA AdhAre Aje A badhA saMskAra dekhAya che ApaNane. A je saMyogo bhegA thAya che, te gayA avatAranA AdhAre bhegA thAya che. koI paNa bIjuM kAraNa nathI, ke saMyoga bhegA thAya. paheluM to mA-bApano saMyoga thAya, A zarIramAM hADakuM, lohI badhuM saMyoga bhegA thAya che, e badhuM saplAya enA AgaLanA AdhAre thAya che badhuM. AgaLanA saMskArane AdhAre badhA saMyogo bhegA thAya che, mA-bApa saMyoga bhego thAya, jagyA saMyoga bhegA thAya ! nahIM to mA-bApa duSTa male. e janmyo tyArathI ja saMyogane AdhAre ane TheTha maratAM sudhI saMyoganA AdhAre che ane vacce manamAM ropha mAre che. meM A karyuM ne te karyuM. mUA bhamaraDA, saMDAsa javAnI zakti nahIM ne zuM bUmAbUma kare che vagara kAmanA. e AvatA bhavanuM pAchuM karma bAMdhe, bIjuM kazuM nahIM. ane karma bAMdhe che teno vAMdho nahIM. paNa e karma kharAba bAMdhe, pote duHkhI thavuM paDe evA karma bAMdhe che. praznakartA: keTalAkane mA-bApanI prakRti ne chokarAnI prakRti ekadama virodhAbhAsavALI hoya che, sAva judI hoya che. to e zuM ? dAdAzrI : mA-bApane prakRti bAbatamAM levAdevA nathI. kazuM ja levAdevA nahIM. e to enI prakRti ane AnI prakRti, A to badhA sarakhA svabhAvavALA bhegA thAyane, te rIte sarakhA svabhAvavALA janma le sAmasAmI ! kazuM ya levAdevA nahIM. mA-bApa A dizAmAM hoya to pelo tRtIyama dizAno hoya. zreNika rAjAne roja chokaro mArato hato ane jelamAM haluM ghAlI, dIdhelA evuM A jagata ! A to hoya bApa-chokarA. kazuM nahIM, RNAnubaMdhathI bhegAM thAya badhA. chatAM vyavahAramAM nA ya nA kahevAya. nA

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404 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 403 kahIe tyAre loka, pADozI kahe, mUA chokaro tamAro che ne AvuM kema karo cho ? eTale ApaNe kahIe ke mAro ja chokaro che A to. vyavahAramAM hA kahevuM paDe ne. gAMDo-ghelo to ya pesavA nA daIe to loka AvIne vaLage ke chokarAne kaMI bahAra rakhaDavA devAto haze, gharamAM rAkho ene. eTale evuM dekhAya che. A to mA ne bApa beu UMcA hoya ane chokarA ThIMgaNA hoya, A to virodhAbhAsa che. praznakartA : A je janma lenAra che e enA karmothI janma le che ne ? chorAM mA-bApa cUkave RNAnubaMdha; ta ko' Ape ke le, sahu lAvelA prabaMdha! praznakartA : eka janarala vAta kahe che ne ke A badhA kuTuMbo hoya che ne, te eka vaMza paraMparA bhegA thAya che. dAdAzrI : hA, e to badhA ApaNA oLakhANavALA ja. ApaNuM ja sarkala badhuM joDe rahevAnuM. sarakhA guNavALuM che, eTale tyAM AgaLa rAga-dveSane laIne janma thAya che ane te bhAvo cUkavavA mATe bhegA thAya che. bAkI AMkhe AvuM dekhAya che e bhrAMtithI che ane jJAnathI tevuM nathI. praznakartA : Ape jema kahyuM ke dareka jIva svataMtra che. dAdAzrI svataMtra eTale eTaluM badhuM svataMtra che ke ATaluM ya koI koIne ApI zake ema nathI. loka to badhA jevuM AMkhe dekhAya evuM bole che. buddhithI samajAya evuM bole che. paNa A samaja paDe evI vastu nathI. praznakartA : amuka vakhate samajaNa na hovAthI kahe ya kharAM, tame krodhI cho mATe huM krodhI thayo chuM. dAdAzrI : hA, evuM ya kahe ne bApane mUrakha banAve. praznakartA : e mUrakha banAve che ? dAdAzrI : mUrakha ja banAve che ne ! tame krodhI eTale huM krodhI evuM bApane kahe eTale gunegAra tame, huM gunegAra nahIM, thayuM ne ! eTale bApa mUrakha nA banyo ? A to jo DAhyA hota to huM DAhyo hota, kahe che ! bAkI eka ATalo ya guNadharma apAya evuM nathI. tyAre A to kaheze, rUparaMga to enA bApanuM ja. alyA hoya evuM, A to eDajasTamenTa che dAdAzrI : basa. e goro che ke kALo che ke ThIMgaNo che ke UMco che, e enAM karmathI che. tyAre A to lokoe eDajasTamenTa lIdhuM, A AMkhe dekheluM ke A nAka to ekajhekTa sarakhuM ja dekhAya che, eTale bApanA ja guNa chokarAmAM UtaryA che, kaheze ! to bApa kRSNa bhagavAna thaI gayA, eTale chokaro kRSNa bhagavAna thaI gayo duniyAmAM ? AvAM to karoDo kRSNa bhagavAna thaI gayA. badhA pragaTa puruSa kRSNa bhagavAne ja kahevAya. paNa eke ya chokaro kRSNa bhagavAna thayo ? eTale A to samajaNa vagaranI vAta che !! jo bApanA guNa chokarAmAM AvatA hoya, to to badhAM chokarAmAM sarakhA Ave. A to bApane je pUrvabhave oLakhANavALA che, enA guNa maLatA AvatA hoya, tamArA oLakhANavALA badhA kevA hoya ? tamArI buddhine maLatA AvatA hoya, tamArA Azayane maLatA AvatA hoya. to tamane maLatA AvatA hoya, te A bhavamAM pAchA chokarA thAya. eTale eno guNa tamane maLatA AvatA hoya, paNa kharekhara e to enA potAnA ja guNo dhAraNa kare che. sAyanTisTone ema lAge che ke A paramANumAMthI Ave che. paNa e to enAM potAnAM ja guNo dhAraNa kare che. pachI koI naThAro, nAlAyaka hoya to dArUDiyo ya nIkaLe. kAraNa ke jevA jevA saMjoga eNe bhegA karyA che, evuM ja tyAM AgaLa bane che, koI jIvane vArasAImAM kazuM akSare ya nA maLe. eTale vArasAI e to eka dekhAva mAtra che. bAkI pUrvabhave je enAM oLakhANavALA hatA te ja AvyA che. praznakartA : paNa A je sthULa guNo che ne, dehano AkAra, e badhuM thoDuM ghaNuM maLatuM AvatuM hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : dehano AkAra-bAkAra badhuM e laIne Avelo hoya che.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 405 khos mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra vezyAne peTe ya jJAnI pAkelA. eTale A loka to ThokAThoka kareluM che badhuM. praznakartA : paNa vezyAnA chokarAnA rUparaMganI vAta che e to kharuM ne ? A to badhuM ya potAnA hisAbathI ja hoya che. phakta A mA-bApa nimitta bane che ke bhaI A mA-bApa taraphano che. bAkI je hisAba che ne e potAno ja hoya che. nahIM to dareka chokarAnAM nAka sarakhAM hoya. DIjhAIna sarakhI hoya. paNa evuM kazuM che nahIM. A to badhuM mAneluM che ke mAbApanA guNa chokarAmAM utare che. bAkI vAta taddana judI ja che. A vAta samajavI hoya to huM sAyanTiphika rIte samajAvavA mAguM chuM. A nahIM samajAvAthI ThokAThoka karI nAkhyuM che ke bApAnA guNa Ave che. eTale pachI bApane zuM kahe ke tame krodhI cho tethI huM krodhI thayo. alyA tuM gayA avatAre krodhI hato ne tArA bApA ya krodhI hatA. te A avatAramAM be bhegA thayA che. te pharI pAcho krodha Ave che ane evuM ja jo hoya to bIjo bhAI che te kema krodhathI bolato ya nathI. kAraNa ke bIjo oLakhANavALo bolato nA hoya. A to judA judA oLakhANavALA badhA bhegA thaI jAya che. te bIjA chokarAmAM bApano eka akSare ya guNa nA Ave. praznakartA paNa evuM kharuM ne ke vaDa che enA bIjanI aMdarathI vaDA ja thaze, kAreluM nahIM thAya ? dAdAzrI : e to Ama dekhAvamAM bApanA guNa Ave. paNa e pote bIDI pIve che ke game te kare, paNa e potAnA guNo badhuM ja mahIM svataMtra laIne Avelo che. e parAvalaMbI nathI. potAnuM rUpa, AkAra, badhuM potAnA svataMtra guNo laIne Avyo che. praznakartA : manovaijJAnika vAta barobara che. paNa huM vAta karuM chuM e dehanI vAta karuM chuM. dAdAzrI : e dehe ya potAno ja laIne Avelo che. kazuM pArakuM nathI. nahIM to bApa caDhI bese ke mAre lIdhe, mAruM nAka sAruM che tethI tAruM nAka sAruM che ! paNa evuM kazuM levAdevA nathI. kiMcitmAtra levAdevA nathI. ene tyAM jAya che te RNAnubaMdhane AdhAre garbhamAM jAya che ane badhuM enA svataMtra guNo ja che. A ame jJAnathI joIne bolIe chIe. atyAra sudhI badhAe ThokAThoka karyuM ke bApanA guNa chokarAmAM AvyA. paNa evuM nathI. A to bApa cora hato te enA chokarA jJAnI pAkelA, dAdAzrI : rUparaMge ya jo potAnuM svataMtra laIne Avelo che, badhI ja cIja pote svataMtra laIne Ave che. praznakartA : paNa rUparaMgamAM to ghaNAM dAkhalA evA che ke e mAbApane chokarAM maLatAM Ave. dAdAzrI : nA, e to dekhAya. ane maLatuM to badhuM Ave che. maLatuM Ave eno savAla nathI, paNa e sAyanTiphika vAta nathI. tamArA Ama dekhAvamAM maLatuM Ave. paNa e guNAkAra mAMDo eno artha nathI, mInIMgalesa vAta che, e sAyanTiphika nathI. jo e bApano jarAka guNa utarato hoya to to bApa ropha mAre ke "mAre lIdhe... huM goro chuM tethI tuM goro che." tyAre pelo bhAI kaheze, 'A mAro bIjo bhaI kALo kema ? mArI mA gorI che, tame gorA cho, paNa mAro bhAI kALo kema ? e hisAba kADhI Apo.' eTale vastusthitimAM potAnuM svataMtra laIne Ave che. praznakartA : e svataMtrapaNAmAM paNa mA-bApano thoDo bhAga che ? dAdAzrI : nA, jarA ya nahIM. mA-bApa nimitta mAtra che. A to RNAnubaMdha che te enA nimitte bApa eno hisAba cUkave che, A bApa tarIke bhAva cUkave che, pelo chokarA tarIke bhAva cUkave che. e bhAva cUkavavA mATenuM che A badhuM. bAkI potapotAnuM svataMtra che badhuM. jIva mAtra svataMtra ja che. praznakartA: paNa A vijJAna eTaluM badhuM hambaga nathI. A vijJAna to eka avalokananuM kAraNa che. dAdAzrI : A vijJAna to AMkhe dekhyuM ene kahe che. paNa A vastu AMkhe dekhela nathI. A to sAyanTiphika vAta karuM chuM. AMkhe dekheluM to kahe che ke bApa Avo goro hato, temAM A goro thayo. to A bIjo bhAI kALo kema thayo ? e banne virodhAbhAsa nA Ave enuM nAma vijJAna kahevAya. vijJAna to kyAre ya paNa virodhAbhAsa utpanna nA thAya

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 407 408 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra che. paNa eno hisAba hoya teTalI ja milakata le che. kazuM bApathI kaMI paNa ApI zakAya evuM nathI. mAthI ke bApathI eka paramANuM mAtra paNa ApI nA zakAya. praznakartA : to to pachI A badhA pAke che, to temAM mA-bApanI jarUra ja nA paDe. khoLiyAmAM AvavAnI koI jarUra ja nA paDe. adhdhara ja AvI jAya ? dAdAzrI : evuM che, hisAba cUkavavAno hoya to khoLiyAmAM AvavuM enuM nAma vijJAna kahevAya. A to jyAM ne tyAM naryuM virodhAbhAsa che ke mA UMcI, bApa UMco ane chokaro ThIMgaNo. A badhI zodhakhoLa huM jAte joIne boluM chuM. AkhA varlDane javAba ApavA huM taiyAra chuM. A badhA sAyanTisTo mUrakha banI jaze jo kadI AvuM bolaze to. A bahAranuM joIne bole teno artha mInIMgalesa che. praznakartA : e bahAranI vAta ja karI che emaNe. aMdaranI vAta karatA ja nathI. A bahAranI vAto ja che. dAdAzrI : nahIM, paNa mULa ekkekTa zuM che e jANavuM joIe. nahIM to bApa ropha mAre ke huM goro hato, te mAre lIdhe tuM goro chuM. ohoho gorA AvyA !! AkhuM jagata to vijJAna svarUpa che. chokarAne chokarAnAM bhAva cUkavavAnAM hoya ne bApane bApanA bhAva cUkavavAnAM hoya to bApane tyAM pelAe chokarA tarIke avatAra levo ja paDe. praznakartA : paNa te avatAra je lIdho che e kaMI khoLiyuM jANe che ? dAdAzrI : khoLiyAne kazuM levAdevA nathI. khoLiyuM svataMtra che. koI paNa vastu levAdevAnI nathI. e kaheze meM tamane bhaNAvyA. paNa e eDajasTamenTa evuM thAya. paNa e buddhinA khela che. buddhithI tamane AvuM dekhAya ja. praznakartA : nA, paNa huM tamane eka dAkhalo ApuM. dAdAzrI : nA, dAkhalo AmAM hoya nahIM ne. A to vaijJAnika che huM je boluM chuM e vaijJAnika vAta che ane vaijJAnikamAM virodhAbhAsa hoya nahIM. A to eka chokaro kALo ne ThIMgaNo. mA-bApa beu gorA ne UMcA te zAthI ? eTalo virodhAbhAsa thayo A ! praznakartA : paNa prAkRta bhAgamAM virodhAbhAsa nA hoya evuM batAvo. dAdAzrI : vijJAnamAM virodhAbhAsa hoya nahIM. amAruM A akramavijJAna che. emAM akSare ya virodhAbhAsa nA hoya. te A ja vIsa varSathI boluM chuM. vijJAna virodhAbhAsa kema hoya ? ane jagate ya virodhAbhAsa che nahIM. e to lokone nahIM samajAvAthI ThokAThoka kare che. milakate ya bApa Apato nathI. paNa lokone ema lAge che ke bApa Ape praznakartA: hisAba cUkavavo hoya to ahIM peTamAM zuM karavA Ave ? sIdho ja nA Ave. tame kaho cho ne AvavA mATe svataMtra che ! dAdAzrI : nA, paNa mAnA peTamAM rahevAno hisAba che, leNadeNano hisAba che, te ! praznakartA : ekasepTeDa, ekaseTeDa. dAdAzrI : hA, basa. nahIM to jo tamArI vAta sAcI hoya to ame ekasepTa karI laIe. nA, paNa eno artha zuM? mInIMgalesa vAta che ane evuM banatuM ja nathI. eka paramANu mAtra koI bApa ApI zake ema che nahIM. eka paramANu jo ApyuM hoya ne to ya ropha mAre. praznakartA : manovaijJAnika bhUmikA che ke je zarIra.... dAdAzrI : manovijJAna ke phalANuM vijJAna, saheja paramANu mAtra ApI zake ema nathI. A to je ene peTe janma le che te bApa tarIkenA je bhAvo che enAM ja RNAnubaMdha cUkavavA mATe che. mAnA taraphanA, mAne nAnapaNamAM gALo devAnI e kaMI RNAnubaMdha hoya to gALo de, bApane mAna Ape. nahIM to bApane ya gALo de, evo je badho hisAba cUkavavA mATe ja ene tyAM janma thAya che. badhA hisAba cUkavavA mATenuM ja jagata che. 'jagata jIva hai karmAdhIna kucha nA kisase levA-denA." potapotAnA svabhAvamAM raho, kahe che. A to badhuM potapotAnA karmanA AdhIna ja bhamyA kare che. koI koIne

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra YOU 410 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra kazuM ApI zake nahIM. bhagavAna paNa kazuM ApI zake nahIM. to bApa zuM ApavAno hato te !! jene saMDAsa javAnI zakti nathI e !! vastu paddhatisara hovI joIe ke jeno cheDo Ave. vAtano cheDo Avavo joIe ne ! praznakartA : vAtano cheDo Ave, paNa alaukika vAta ane laukika vAta be judI paDe che. alaukika vAta hoya teno laukika artha mANasa potAnI rIte kare, eTale e vAtamAM ema lAge ke A matabheda che. paNa kharekhara e hotAM nathI. dAdAzrI : paNa mULa arthamAM ja e khoTI vAta che. pachI tamAre bIjA arthamAM je karavuM hoya te karajo. praznakartA : eTale je bhAva cUkavavAnAM hoya che. RNAnubaMdha cUkavavAnAM hoya te apAIne jatA rahe che. dAdAzrI : hA, e apAI ja jAya badhAM. eTale mAre tyAM AgaLa A vijJAna badhuM khulluM karavuM paDayuM ke alyA, bApano te zo doSa che ? tuM krodhI, tAro bApa krodhI, paNa A tAro bhAI kema ThaMDo che ! jo tArAmAM tArA bApano guNa utpanna thayo hoya to A tAro bhAI ThaMDo kema che ? eTale A nahIM samajAvAthI loka ThokAThoka kare che ane je upara dekhAya ene satya mAne che. vAta bahu samajavA jevI che. A bahu UMDI vAta che. A to meM kahI eTalI nathI. A bahu UDI vAta che ! bhagavAna paNa ATaluM na ApI zake. A to badhA hisAba ja levAya che ne cUkavAya che ! AtmA koIno chokaro thAya nahIM ne AtmA koIno pitA thAya nahIM. AtmA koInI vAIpha thAya nahIM ke AtmA koIno dhaNI thAya nahIM. A badhuM RNAnubaMdha che. karmanA udayathI bheguM thayeluM che. have lokone e bhAsyuM che ne ApaNane ya e bhAsyuM ane e bhAse che eTaluM ja. kharI rIte dekhAtuM ya nathI. kharI rIte hoya ne to koI vaDhe ja nahIM. A to klAkamAM ja bhAMjagaDa paDI jAya, matabheda paDI jAya to vaDhI paDe ke nA vaDhI paDe ? 'mArI, tArI' kare ke nA kare pachI ? praznakartA: kare. dAdAzrI : mATe bhAsyamAna che, ekajhekaTa nathI. kaLiyugamAM AzA nA rAkhazo. kaLiyugamAM AtmAnuM kalyANa thAya evuM karo, nahIM to A vakhata bahu vicitra AvI rahyo che, AgaLa upara bhayaMkara vicitra AvI rahyo che. haju hajAreka varSa sArAM che. paNa pachI bahu AgaLa bhayaMkara AvavAnA che. pachI kyAre ghATamAM Avaze ? eTale ApaNe kaMIka AtmAnuM karI lo. chokarA-bairI koI potAnuM thAya nahIM. A to badhuM thayuM eTaluM te ApaNA karmanA hisAba pAMsarAM hoya to thAya. nahIM to pAMsaruM nA hoya to thAya nahIM. ApaNA hisAbe badhu A jagata cAlyA kare che. ApaNuM jo pAMsaruM to bahAra pAMsaruM ne ApaNuM vAMkuM to bahAra vAMkuM. rastAmAM zULa UgelI hoya Ama, bAvaLIyAnI zULa UgelI hoya, so mANasa Ava-jA kare, paNa koInA bUTa nIce Ave nahIM. ane joDA vagara nIkaLe nahIM evo mANasa hoya to amatho kaheze, 'hA, huM paherIne AvuM." ema ne ema UghADA page gayo, tyAM saMjoga ene bheguM karI Ape. viMchInI joDe bhego karI Ape, zULanI joDe, kAMTA joDe bhego karI Ape, sApa joDe bhego karI Ape. praznakartA : ApaNe jo AtmajJAna tarapha vaLIe, Atmadarzana karIe to pachI sAmA chokarAonAM mana phare nahIM ? dAdAzrI : kazuM phare nahIM. pharavAnuM hoya to phare, nahIM to rAma choDa mAyAjALa parabhava sudhAra; saravaiyuM jo, gati cha pagatI ke cAra? AtmAne chokarA hoya nahIM, te juone chokarAM potAnAM mAnI beThAM che ne ! chokarA sArAM hoya to UlaTuM kaheze, mAre ghera nahIM Avo to cAlaze. to ya paNa A kaheze, 'nA huM tyAM AvIza. mAre mokSane zuM karavuM che ? UtAvaLa zuM che ?"

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 411 tArI mAyA, koI phare-kare nahIM. ApaNe pharavAnI jarUra che. bIjo koI phare nahIM. saba sabakI samAlo. jamAno bahu vicitra che. eTale, ApaNe bhAvanA rAkhavI ke chokarA, vahunuM badhAnuM kalyANa thAya evI bhAvanA rAkhavI. paNa bahu eTalI badhI pakaDa nA karavI ke ApaNuM bagaDe pAchuM. cheTA rahIne kAma levuM. koI potAnuM thAya nahIM A badhuM. e to satyuganA mANasa judA hatA. A mANasa A RNAnubaMdha judI jAtanA, pelA RNAnubaMdha judI jAtanA hatA ! eTale evI AzA rAkhIne zuM kAma ? ApaNe AtmAnuM kalyANa karo ne kaMIka ! AmAM zuM svAda kADhavAnA che ? saba sabakI samAlo. pota potAnA AtmAne zAMti rahe. te maratI vakhate kaMIka AtmAnI pariNatI sArI thAya. maratI vakhate hisAba AvavAno, saravaiyuM AvavAnuM. AkhI jiMdagI je tame karyuM tenuM saravaiyuM maratI vakhate Ave. jema Aja vepAra karIe chIe te divALIne dahADe saravaiyuM kADhIe chIe ke DisembaramAM Akhare kADhIe chIe ke mArca Akhare, paNa te mahIM haze, napho-khoTa haze, tenuM saravaiyuM nIkaLaze ne ? peluM AkhI jiMdagInuM saravaiyuM Ave, te zAnuM ? cAra pagavALo thaze ke cha pagavALo thaze te mahIM khabara paDe ke be pagavALo ya thAya. mANase ya thAya ke devaloko ya thAya, kahevAya nahIM. paNa jevuM karyuM haze tevo badalo maLaze. mATe ApaNI potAnI saMbhALa pahelI.

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416 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra skulamAM jatAM ya bolaje, ghera AvatAM hoya to ya 'dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma bolatAM bolatAM Avaje. tane evuM game ? praznakartA : hA. chokarAMto mA-bApa pratye vyavahAra game teTaluM mAre to ya game mammI; hitamAM ja hoya jayArathI janmI! (uttarArdha) (16) TInejarsa sAthe "dAdAzrI'! bhaNavAno dhyeya bALapaNathI; dAdA nAme pAzera, bhAra maNathI! dAdAzrI : bhaNavAnuM game che ? praznakartA : bhaNavAnuM game. dAdAzrI : zuM bhaNuM chuM atyAre ? praznakartA : navamImAM chuM. dAdAzrI : dara sAla pAsa thaIza ke besI rahIze be-traNa varSa ? praznakartA : pAsa thaIza. dAdAzrI : basa, tyAra pachI bahu thaI gayuM. paNa A dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma leje have roja. tuM taiyAra thaI jaze, dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma bolaje, jatAM-AvatAM. tuM eka vakhata vAMcuM ne, to badhuM AvaDI jAya pachI vadhAre vAMcavuM nA paDe. dAdAzrI : mammI vaDhe che ke koI dA'Do ? praznakartA : bhAgye ja vaDhe che. dAdAzrI : bhAgye ja nahIM ! tAruM bhAgya jAge to ja ane pappA vaDhe che koI dA'Do ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ema ! e bemAMthI koNa nyAyathI vaDhe che ? praznakartA : beu jaNa. baMne nyAyI. dAdAzrI : baMne nyAyI ! pappA ekalA nyAyI haze, mane lAge che? mammI nyAyI nahIM hoya. praznakartA : baMne nyAyI che. mane mammI ane pappA mArA sArA mATe kahe, paNa to ya mane nathI gamatuM evuM kema thAya che ? dAdAzrI : DaoNkTara kaDavI davA Ape to ya tane nA game ? praznakartA : e levI paDe to levI ja paDe ne. dAdAzrI : evuM A ya levI ja paDe. nA game to ya pIvI paDe. ApaNe zarIra sudhAravuM hoya to pIvI ane nA sudhAravuM hoya to nahIM. kahI devuM ke eka zabda ya tame kahezo nahIM amane AjathI. praznakartA : dareka vakhate mA-bApa sAcA ja hoya che ? dAdAzrI : sAcA ja mAnI levAnAM. ene tola karavA jaja ApaNe bhADe rAkhIe pAchA ! e pAMca hajAra DaoNlara e pagAra mAMge. sAcA cho

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 417 418 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ke khoTA ?! enA karatAM sAcA ja mAnI levAM, e jaja to rAkhavo nA paDe. praznakartA: koIvAra mA-bApanuM khoTuM hoya to chokarAone nukasAna nA thaI jAya ? dAdAzrI : nukasAna vaLI zuM thavAnuM che te ! A moTala kaMI nAnI thaI javAnI che Ama ! tane mAre che ke mammI ? praznakartA : hA. koIka vAra mAre che. dAdAzrI : tuM nA nathI kahetI, nA mArazo evuM ? praznakartA : nA, nathI kahetI. dAdAzrI : tane game che mAra khAvAnuM ? nathI gamatuM, nahIM ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to ya mArI jAya che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : kazuM bhUla thAya tethI mAre che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : zuM bhUla thAya tyAre ? praznakartA : koIkavAra gharamAM doDatI houM to mane mAre. dAdAzrI : doDatI houM to ? sAmuM boluM chuM ke ? praznakartA : koIka TAIma boluM chuM. dAdAzrI : konA sAmuM boluM chuM? pappAnI ke mammInI ? praznakartA : mammIne koIka TAIma bolAI jAya che. dAdAzrI : ohoho ! eTale mammIno ropha paDato nathI ! have sAruM nA dekhAya, mammInI joDe sAmuM bolIe te ! tane game che bolavAnuM? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : nathI gamatuM badhuM A jANe che ne ApaNe mAra-mAra karavAno zuM artha che te ? A to nA jANato hoya che, tyAre mAravuM paDe. jJAnane nA jANe ne tyAre mAravuM paDe, A to badhuM jJAnane jANe che. ApaNe ene pUchIe to badhuM ya kahe. A ene samajaNa ja pADavAnI jarUra ke AvuM nA thAya ne ! mammIne tuM koI dahADo mAruM kharI ? praznakartA : kokavAra mAruM. dAdAzrI : e DhekhALo (patharo) ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : zuM mAruM chuM ? praznakartA : hAthathI mAruM. dAdAzrI : keTaluM vAge tArA hAthathI to ? enA karatAM DhekhALo mArIe to, to vAge. DhekhALo mAravAnuM game tane ? praznakartA : nA. nA marAya. dAdAzrI : tyAre sAruM. dAdAzrI : (bIjI bena ne) tane mA-bApe mArI'tI koI dahADo ? praznakartA : nathI mArI, hajI sudhI. dAdAzrI : mArI nathI ? ne mAre to tane game? to te ghaDIe tuM praznakartA : kaMI nahi. sahana karI lauM. dAdAzrI : paNa cIDha to caDhe ne emanI para ke vagara gune mane mAre che te ? praznakartA : guno hoya to ja mAre ne, ApaNane. dAdAzrI : ane guno nA paNa hoya. tAro guno nA hoya ane

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 419 420 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra emane guno lAgato hoya, evuM paNa bane. emane gunegAra tuM lAgatI hoya, to tuM zuM karuM ? praznakartA : hA, e pachI ApaNane e samajAze. pachI ApaNe sAcuM mAnI levAnuM. dAdAzrI : jaya saccidAnaMda. kaMIthI zIkhI lAvI tuM ? praznakartA : dAdAnI copaDI vAMcuM chuM huM ghera. dAdAzrI : ema ?! praznakartA : ene sAcA mArge laI javA prayatna karuM. dAdAzrI : nahIM to te ghaDIe khasI javuM ApaNe. jema A gAya mAthuM mAratI hoya tyAre ApaNe khasI javuM. samaja paDI ne ? ane gAyane pachI kAMkaro nahi mAravAno. ApaNe joI levAnuM ke A mArakaNI che ane A nathI mArakaNI. eTaluM jJAna utpanna thaI gayuM eTale ApaNe enI joDe cetIne cAlavuM ? mArakaNI gAya, te cetIne nA cAlavuM joIe ? AvaDaze tane cetIne cAlavAnuM ? konI joDe nathI phAvatuM tane ? praznakartA : phAve ja che badhAM sAthe. dAdAzrI : konI joDe cIDhAva chuM tuM ? praznakartA : koInI joDe cIDhAI nathI ? koInI joDe nahi ! gharamAM, skUlamAM je rAkhe sahute rAjI; Adarza vidhArthIe, sahunI 'hA'e hAjI! praznakartA H Adarza vidyArthInAM jIvanamAM kyA kyA lakSaNonI jarUra juThuM bolavAtA nukasAna tuM gaNa; duHkhI kare te na rahe vizvAsa kaNa! dAdAzrI : vidyArthIni, gharamAM jeTalAM mANaso hoya e badhAne rAjI rAkhavAnI jarUra ane pachI skUlamAM paNa je mANaso joDe e hoya, ApaNe je beno-beno badhAnI joDe e badhAne rAjI rAkhavAnI jarUra. jyAM jaIe tyAM ApaNe badhAne rAjI rAkhavA ane potAnAM bhaNataramAM ja dhyAna rAkhavuM. Adarza zabda kaMIthI lAvI tuM ? moTA hoya enI joDe sArI rIte bole, sArI rIte vartana kare, enI sAmuM nA bole, e Adarza kahevAya. rAjI rAkhatAM AvaDe tane ? zI rIte rAjI rAkhuM ? praznakartA : badhAnI sAthe sArI rIte vartavuM. dAdAzrI : hA, basa, sArI rIte ! ne ko'ka kharAba rIte vartatuM hoya to ? praznakartA : haju sudhI koI kharAba rIte nathI varlDa. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa varte to zuM karuM ? dAdAzrI : tane mArI vAta game che ? kaMTALo Ave che ? praznakartA : game che eTale beTho chuM. dAdAzrI : tuM jUThuM koI dahADo bole che ke ? praznakartA : boluM chuM. dAdAzrI : jUThuM bolavAthI nukazAna zuM thatuM haze ? praznakartA : nukasAna thAya. dAdAzrI : ApaNA parathI vizvAsa ja UThI jAya. praznakartA : sAmAne khabara paDatI nathI ema samajIne bolavuM. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa vizvAsa UThI jAya eTale mANasanI kiMmata khalAsa ! koI ApaNI pAse jUThuM bole to ApaNane duHkha thAya, tevuM ApaNe koInI pAse jUThuM bolIe to ene keTaluM duHkha thAya ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 21 422 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra zAhakAro na kare corI DarathI; polIso na hoya to upaDe dhULathI! dAdAzrI : e to mApha karI ApIe. ApaNe tyAM mAphI karI ApIe tane. tane mAphI karAvI che ? praznakartA : hA. he Aryapatro, ta karAya bheLaseLa; nahi to jAtavara gatino che meLa! te corI koI divasa karelI ke ? praznakartA : nA, nathI karI. dAdAzrI : nathI karI ? tane corI karavAnuM gamatuM nathI ? praznakartA : game to kharuM paNa Dara lAge ne ! dAdAzrI : eka jaNane meM pUchayuM ke tArI poLa to bahu zAhukAronI che, te corIo thatI nahIM hoya ! tyAre eNe kahyuM ke jo A sAmenI polIsacokI uThAvI juo, pachI amArA ADozI-pADozI saMDAsano loTo hoya te ya nA rahevA de ! eTale teM kahyuM enA jevuM, bIkanA mAryA ! koI bIka nA hoya to vAMdho nahIM ne ? praznakartA : to vAMdho nA Ave. dAdAzrI : tuM corI lAve ? tane gamatI hoya te cIjo ? praznakartA : gamatI cIjo to laI AvuM. dAdAzrI : sonAnI lagaDIo paDI hoya to lAve che ? praznakartA : evuM hoya to badhAnuM mana lalacAI jAya. dAdAzrI : A lokonAM mana evA sTeDI nathI. A to bhayanA mAryA sIdhA rahe evA che. eka bhAIe mane kahyuM ke A nAlAyakone mATe sarakArane lazkara ne polIsavALA rAkhavA paDe che ane eno kara che te lAyaka pAsethI le che ! evAM ghaNAM loko haze ke jemane mATe polIsavALAnI jarUra nA hoya. te corI karelI ke koI dahADo ? (bIjA chokarAne) praznakartA : ekavAra karelI. dAdAzrI : rAtre karelI ke dahADe ? praznakartA : dahADe. aNahakkano paiso nA paDAvI levAya. A muMbaI zaheramAM loko bheLaseLa karatA nathI ne ? praznakartA : vepArIo kare to che. dAdAzrI : te koI oLakhANavALo hoya tene cetavaje ke cAra pagavALA thavuM hoya to bheLaseLa karo. nahIM karo to ya tame bhUkhe nahIM maro tenI ame geranTI ApIe chIe. kaMIka samajavuM to joIe ne ? ApaNe kyA dezanA chIe ? praznakartA: bhArata dezanA. dAdAzrI : bhArata dezanA ApaNe, te ApaNI kavaoNliTI kaI che? Arya prajA ! ane bahAranI kaI kahevAya ? praznakartA : anArya. dAdAzrI : ApaNe ahIM koI koI mANasa evA thaI jAya che to temane zuM kahe che ? anADI. AryaprajA eTale Arya AcAra, Arya vicAra ne Arya uccAra. A ADAavaLA dhaMdhA have karIza ? jAnavara thavuM che tAre ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : A be pagathI paDI javAya, tenA badale cAra paga hoya to sAruM, paDI to nA javAya ! ane vadhArAmAM pUMchaDuM InAmamAM maLe te kUdatuM kUdatuM to javAya !!! have tAre evuM kaMI thavuM che ke manuSya ja thavuM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 423 424 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : manuSya thavuM che. dAdAzrI : to pachI manuSyanA guNo joIze. je tane 'game che" evuM ja sAmAne ApIe to manuSyapaNuM Ave. koI tane nAlAyaka kahe to game ? praznakartA : nA game. dAdAzrI : eTale ApaNe samajI javuM ke ApaNe koIne nAlAyaka kahIe to ene kema game ? eTale ApaNe ema kahevuM ke Avo bhAI, tame bahu sArA mANasa cho. eTale ene AnaMda thAya. eka jIva batAve, tene mAravAno rAITa; ahiMsaka hoya tevuM, UMcuM buddhinuM lAITa: praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to pachI marAya zI rIte ApaNe ! tyAre koI duniyAmAM banAvI Ape kharo, sAyaMTIsTa loko ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to pachI je banAvI nA zakIe ne tene mArI zakAya nahIM ApaNAthI. A khurazI banAvIe, A badhuM banAvIe, eno nAza karI zakIe. tane samajaNa paDI ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : have zuM karIza ? praznakartA : nahIM mAruM. dAdAzrI : e jIvaDAne maravAno bhaya lAge kharo ? ApaNe mAravA jaIe to nAsI jAya kharuM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : to pachI kema marAya ? ane A ghauM, bAjarI ne bhaya nA lAge, ene vAMdho nahIM, zuM kahyuM ? ghauM, bAjarI badhuM, A dUdhI kaMI nAsI jAya ? ApaNe cappa laIne jaIe to dUdhI nAsI jAya ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to ene zAka karIne khavAya. tane maravAno bhaya lAge ke nA lAge ? praznakartA : lAge. dAdAzrI : haM. to evuM ene ya lAge. dAdAzrI : jIvaDAM mArelAM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : kyAM mArelAM ? praznakartA: bagIcAmAM pAchaLa, vADAmAM. dAdAzrI : zuM hoya jIvaDAM ? vaMdA-vaMdAne evuM tevuM hoya ? praznakartA : badhuM ja mAreluM. dAdAzrI : mANasanA chokarAne mArI nAkhuM kharo ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : nA marAya chokarAne ! A ko'kano chokaro hoya to mArI nA nakhAya ! praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : kema ema ? have te mAryuM, te jIvaDuM mAryuM, eka banAvI ApIza tuM mane ? lAkha rUpiyA InAma ApavuM che ke koI jo banAvI Ape to ene lAkha rUpiyA InAma ApuM. tuM banAvI ApIza ! nA bane! mA-bApa rAkhe chokarAM saMge mitrAcArI; na khoLe chokarAM, pachI koItI yArI! dAdAzrI : tyAre tane zuM game che kahe ? paiNavAnuM game che ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 425 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : hamaNe paiNavuM che ke moTo thaIza tyAre ? praznakartA : hamaNe nahIM, moTo thaIza tyAre. dAdAzrI : paiNyA vagara loko phrenDazIpa kare kharAM ke? A chokarIo lokonI hoya che, te lagna karyA sivAya phrenDazIpa kare kharI ke ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : e karavI joIe ke nA karavI joIe ? praznakartA : eTale bahu najIka nA AvavuM joIe, paNa phreMDasa tarIke rAkhavAnA. dAdAzrI : najIka nA AvavuM joIe. ane phreMDazIpa to mA-bApane jo AvaDatuM hoya ne, to chokarAo bahAra koInI joDe phreMDazIpa ja nA kare. mArI pAsethI to khase nahIM. ane A to mA-bApathI ja thAkI gayelA hoya che, kaMTALI gayelA hoya che ! ja nahIM. mATe cetIne cAlavuM sAruM. mATe tuM cetI jaje. A javAnI che, buDhApo AvavAno hoya tene ame nA kahIe, mATe A bhaya-signala tane batAvIe chIe. praznakartA : hA, hA, nahIM laI jAuM, bIjAnI bairI nahIM laI jAuM. dAdAzrI : hA, barobara. laI javAno vicAre ya nahi karavAno. koI strI pratye AkarSaNa thAya to ya, "he dAdA bhagavAna ! mane mApha karo' kahIe. Ave kuvicAro tyAre te prabhunuM nAma; na choDIza TheTha sudhI, e ja lAge kAma! na bhogavAya aNahakkanA viSayo; dAdA ghare lAlabattI, jo je lapasyo! pachI aNahakkanuM bhogavI nA levAya. aNahakkanuM viSaya bhogave che loko ? praznakartA: ghaNAM jaNa bhogave. dAdAzrI : are, bairI hau uThAvI jAya che ne lokonI ! potAnI hakkanI bairI rAkhavI. A to bairI bIjAnI khoLI lAve ! hakkanI potAnI strI hoya to koI vAta nA kare. gharanA ya koI vaDhe nahIM. mATe kyA khADAmAM paDavuM sAruM ? praznakartA : hakkanA. dAdAzrI : aNahakkano khADo to bahu UMDo ! pAchuM upara avAya dAdAzrI : kharAba vicAro Ave che tane ? praznakartA : koIka vAra Ave. dAdAzrI : te zuM karuM te ghaDIe ? e vicAro kharAba Ave tyAre davA zuM copaDuM tuM ? praznakartA : huM kharAba vicAra nA Ave evA prayatna karuM. dAdAzrI : paNa e mokale che koNa e vicAro ? praznakartA : mAruM magaja ja mokale che. dAdAzrI : e kyAMthI lAvyA navA te ! bahArathI ghusI jAya che ke mahIMthI utpanna thayelA che ? praznakartA : bahArathI ghusI jAya che. dAdAzrI : e kema ghusI jAya che ? praznakartA : e je bahAra joyuM, sAMbhaLyuM, e pramANe... dAdAzrI : sinemAmAM vadhAre ghuse che ? praznakartA : koIka vAra jouM, paNa bahu nathI joto.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 427 428 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : to bahAra zuM jouM chuM, te vicAro ghusI jAya che ? praznakartA : koIkavAra kaMI kharAba vAto sAMbhaLuM to e mArA magaja upara rahe. dAdAzrI : to zuM karIza have tuM? Ano proTekzanano zuM rasto lIdho che ke nAma che. praznakartA: nAma che. dAdAzrI : nAma nathI. nAma hoya to bIjo bhagavAna thaI zake ja nahIMne, to to bhagavAnadAsa kahevA paDe. bhagavAna e vizeSaNa che, koI paNa mANasa ene mATe taiyAra thAya to tene e vizeSaNa ApI devAnuM. kRSNa hoya to kRSNane, mahAvIra hoya to mahAvIrane, rAma hoya to rAmane, je koI paNa phITa thAya, ane te paNa phITa thauM to tane paNa bhagavAna pada maLe. e vizeSaNa che. jenAmAM ATalA vizeSa guNo hoya, tene A vizeSaNa ApavuM. putrone ApavI maitrI prema te mAta; maskA mArI pADozIo, macAvaze tophAta! praznakartA : evuM thAya tyAre huM jarA bhagavAnanuM nAma laIne magajamAMthI bahAra kADhavAno prayatna karuM chuM. dAdAzrI : Akho vakhata eTale AkhI lAIpha sudhI karavo paDaze? praznakartA : hA, AkhI lAIpha sudhI karavo paDaze. dAdAzrI : to emAM zuM sukha che eTaluM badhuM, ATalo badho prayatna karavAmAM sukha zuM AmAM ? praznakartA : sukha to lAge che. dAdAzrI : tyAM sudhI kharAba vicArane tAre sameTavA to paDaze ja ne ! zuM karIza tuM ? ane vicAro to dhaDadhaDI rAtre paNa Ave. tane rAtre UMghavA paNa nA de. evuM bane ke nA bane ? praznakartA : hA, evuM bane. dAdAzrI : haM. to pachI zuM karIza ? praznakartA : tyAre bhagavAnanuM nAma laIne ema UMgha Ave.... dAdAzrI : zuM nAma lauM ? praznakartA : bhagavAnane bhagavAnanA nAmathI ja bolAvIza. dAdAzrI : enuM nAma to haze ne kaMI ? praznakartA : emane eTalA badhA nAmo che eTale huM bhagavAnanA nAmathI ja bolAvIza. dAdAzrI : paNa bhagavAna zabda vizeSaNa che ke nAma che, eDajekTiva tane vaDhe to AnaMda thAya ke koI nA vaDhe to AnaMda thAya ?' praznakartA : khUba vaDhe to AnaMda na thAya. dAdAzrI : tuM Aya beTA, to bahu sAro chuM. bahu DAhyo chuM, to AnaMda thAya ? praznakartA : koIka vAra thAya. dAdAzrI : dara phere nA thAya ? praznakartA : jenyunzI (sAcI rIte) koI nA kaheto hoya to nA thAya. eTale khuzAmatathI je kaheto hoya mANasa to eno AnaMda na thAya, paNa sAce sAca kahe to game. dAdAzrI : eTale khAlI chetarAvA mATe karato hoya to nA game tane ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : nahIM to ya game. haMmezA A manuSyano svabhAva evo che ne, chokarAMne mAna ApI bolAve ke, 'Avo bhaI, tuM to bahu DAhyo

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra chuM.' eTale enA gharanI vAta pUche. ghera kaMI mA-bApa joDe e thatuM hoya, kaca kaca thatI hoya, to pelA kahe, "bhaI kema tArA phAdhara to tane koI dahADo kazuM kahe evA nathI !' 'nA, e to A gusse thaI jAya che.' eTale phUTI jAya badhuM. pADozIne tyAM ghaNAM chokarAo phUTI jAya che. ane pADozIo ulTo lAbha uThAve che. eTale A game che eTale, 'Avo bhaI, le cA pI.' ene mAna joIe che, mAnano svAda paDe che ne ! 429 eTale e chokarAone mATe mA-bApe zuM karavuM joIe ? ke bahAra mAna khoLe nahIM evI rIte rAkhavuM joIe. e mAnanA bhUkhyA nA hoya ne bahAra peluM mAna khAvA jAya nahIM, mAnanI hoTalomAM. eTalA mATe zuM karavAnuM ? ghera Ave to Ama bolAvAno, bAbA tuM to DAhyo chuM, Ama chuM. tema chuM, ene thoDuM mAna ApavuM eTale phreMDazIpa jevuM valaNa rAkhavuM joIe. ene mAthe hAtha pheravIne besavuM, ApaNe "beTA le heMDa ! jamavA besIe, ApaNe nAsto karIe sAthe.' evuM tevuM badhuM hovuM joIe. to pachI bahAra prema khoLe nahIM pachI. ame to pAMca varSanuM chokaruM hoya to enI joDe prema karIe, enI joDe phreMDazIpa jevuM rAkhIe. praznakartA : joyuM che. auraMgAbAdamAM badhA chokarAone bhegA karIne tame vAto karatA, emanA ja draSTibiMduthI 'dAdA' bI pAMca varSanA banI jAya. dAdAzrI : A bebI joDe bI phreMDazIpa jevuM vAtAvaraNa. hAM.. ane e pAchA pote bhAvathI kahI de badhuM hakIkata, badhuM kahI de. kAraNa ke e tamArAmAM to zuM hoya, 'huM moTI uMmarano chuM', eTale tamArA bAraNA baMdha hoya, 'e pelo nAnI uMmarano che' e bheda paDI jAya. te bAraNAM badhA baMdha hoya. ahIM khullA bAraNAM. doDha varSano chokaro amArI joDe rame hauM. doDha varSano chokaro rame, 'dAdAjI' joDe ahIM je' je' kare badhuM kare. praznakartA : vidhi kare ! dAdAzrI : hA, vidhi-bidhi badhAM doDha varSanAM chokarAM kare, bahu chokarA kare. 40 mamatA mA-bApatI bhAre; choDavI paDe, jaze tyAre! mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mamatA kharIne tane ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : tArA pappAne hauM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : tane konI konI ? pADozInI hauM ? praznakartA : pADozIonI bahu nahIM. pappA-mammInI vadhAre mamatA. dAdAzrI : tyAre tArA dAdA to hazene, pahelAM ? emanA phAdhara hazene ? ke ? praznakartA : meM joyA nathI. dAdAzrI : paNa haze to kharAM ne ? tane khAtarI che ne ? evuM tArI buddhi to kabUla kare che ne ke hovA joIe ? ke nathI kabUla karatI ? praznakartA : hatA. dAdAzrI : to tArA pappAne, tArA dAdA joDe mamatA nahIM hoya ? praznakartA : hoya ja ne. dAdAzrI : to pachI zI rIte choDI haze ? e ahIMthI gayA che praznakartA : gayA. dAdAzrI : te zI rIte mamatA choDI haze, jatI vakhate ? mamatA choDavI to paDe ja ne pachI ? jyAre jAya tyAre ApaNe mamatA choDavI nA paDe ? nahIM to javAya zI rIte ? pelAne javAya nahIM. ahIMne ahIMyA ja bhamyA kare. ApaNe mamatA nA choDIe to pelA tyAM ne tyAM ja bhamyA kare. emaNe mamatA choDI dIdhI haze ke nahIM choDI hoya ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra jarUra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : eka vAra to choDavI ja joIe. sAcuM sukha kone kahevAya; je AvyA pachI kyAre na jAya! A to sukha ja nhoya. A je sukha lAge che ne, sarasa jamavAnuM sArI rasoI banI hoya pharsTa kalAsa, batrIsa bhAtanI rasoI hoya te ghaDIe sukha lAge, paNa jarA vadhAre khavaDAve to ? jabarajastI khavaDAva khavaDAva kare to zuM thAya ? dhAkathI nahi, samajAvIne lAvo ukela; AMTI dUra kADhavA mA-bApe karavI pahelA dAdAzrI : kaMI tane sukha lAge che A saMsAramAM ? praznakartA H sukha to lAge che. dAdAzrI : zemAM sukha lAge che ? jamatI vakhate sukha lAge che ke UMghatI vakhate sukha lAge che ke skUlamAM jatI vakhate sukha lAge che ? praznakartA : jyAre huM kaMI sArI cIja karuM tyAre mane sukha lAge che. dAdAzrI : zuM karuM tyAre ? praznakartA : sAruM kAma karuM, tyAre mane sukha lAge. dAdAzrI : ane kharAba karuM to ? praznakartA : kharAba karuM to duHkha bI lAge ke kema karyuM ? dAdAzrI : to mammI joDe ciDhAuM chuM ne to tene duHkha nathI thatuM? te badala duHkha nathI lAgatuM ! praznakartA: koIka vakhata du:kha lAge. huM ciDhAuM to mane duHkha lAge. sAcuM sukha eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : hamaNe koI gALo bhAMDe che te ghaDIe sukha utpanna thAya praznakartA : ApaNane nAnapaNathI dhAka lAgI gayo che, badhA vaDhe, khIjavAya eTale ApaNAthI bolAya nahIM, jema che tema.. dAdAzrI : paNa ahIM mArI pAse hau dhAka lAgI gayo che ? mArI pAse to bolAya ne ! jyAM dhAka nA lAgato hoya tyAM to bolAya ne !! jyAM dhAka lAgato hoya tyAM nA bolAya. tethI mA-bApa pAse loko potAnI badhI hakIkata kahetAM nathI, vAstavikatA. dhAka lAgI gayo ane pAchA pharI kaMIka kaheze. eTale AmAM guMcavADo Ubho thAya che pachI. eTale huM mAbApane zuM kahuM chuM ke enI joDe besIne vAtacIta karo, ene zuM aDacaNa che, zuM che, tArA vicAro zuM thAya che. je thatA hoya joI lo. nahIM to ya boMba phATavAno ja che, jo kadI dArUkhAno bharyo haze to te pahelAM jANI lIdhuM te nA phATe ke moDo phATe evo rasto karI zake ne ! nahIM to boMba to phATyA vagara rahe ke !? praznakartA : nA rahe. dAdAzrI : eTale ame badhA phAdhara-madharane badhAne kahIe chIe ke badhA beso, vicAro, karo. bAra-tera varSanI pachI enI joDe sAthe beso, vAtacIta karo. enA mana khullA karo. manamAM ene gUMcavADo Ubho thAya, koNa eno gUMcavADo kADhI Ape ? bIjI benapaNIo maLe, te sArI benapaNI te enI pAse UbhI nA rahe ane bIjI benapaNIo to enA jevI hoya te UbhI rahe. e badhI enkareja kare sAmasAmI. koNa Diskareja kare ? tane samaja paDIne ? praznakartA : hA. praznakartA : e to nA ja thAya, du:kha ja thAya e to. dAdAzrI : duHkha kone kaho cho tame ? A tamane je sukha lAge che ne, e ya du:kha che baLyuM. A sukha to kalpita sukha che, hoya sAcuM sukha. te tamane AnA jevuM pAchuM AkhuM kalpita sukha ja joIe ? sanAtana sukha joIe, sAcuM sukha ! je sukhanI pachI du:kha Ave ja nahIM, enuM nAma sAcuM sukha kahevAya. je AnaMda pachI du:kha ja nA utpanna thAya !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 433 434 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : eTale A badhA vyavahArika prazno ame che te ukela karI ApIe badhA. tAto paNa nirdoSa, tethI kahe sat tane lAge che, pappA phasAI gayA che ahIM AgaLa ? te kahyuM nahi ? praznakartA: sAcA mArge ja Ave che ne. dAdAzrI : A sAco mArga tane lAge che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : tanna sAco che evuM ? loka kahe che ke, ko'ka anubhavIne pUchI AvIe. alyA, chokarAMne pUchane mUA. anubhavIne zuM pUchavAnuM ? anubhavIne nA AvaDe. chokarAMne pUcha, zuM ? kAraNa ke nirdoSa che. sukha ApavAnI kADho AjathI dukAta; sukhano vepAra vadhAro matimAtA mA-bApa thAya gusse to zuM karavuM? jaya saccidAnaMda' kahI TADhA pADavuM! praznakartA : pappA ke mammI gusse bharAya to zuM karavuM ? mammI mArA upara gusso kare tyAre mAre zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : 'saccidAnaMda' bolavAnuM, 'saccidAnaMda, saccidAnaMda, saccidAnaMda, jaya saccidAnaMda' bolavAnuM bolaze to TADhI paDaze. ahIM inDiyAmAM to badhA chokarA evuM ja bole che. mA-bApa gusse bharAyA hoya ne tyAre chokarA kaheze, "saccidAnaMda, saccidAnaMda.' pachI cUpa thaI jAya. pappA, mammI joDe vaDhavADha karavA phare tyAre chokarAo badhA 'saccidAnaMda, saccidAnaMda' kahe eTale badhuM baMdha thaI jAya. beu zaramAI jAya bicArA ! bhayanI elArma kheMce che eTale tarata baMdha thaI jAya. 'saccidAnaMda saccidAnaMda' karatAMnI sAthe ja baMdha thaI jAya e samajI jAya, nahIM ? praznakartA : samajI jAya, "saccidAnaMda' to bahu iphekTiva che. dAdAzrI : hA. praznakartA : dAdA koIkanI jarAke bI ame vAta karIe ne to amArA chokarAM UbhA hoyane, to ema ja kahe ke dAdAnuM jJAna lIdhuM. tamane covIsa kalAka dAdA to dhyAnamAM rahe che, to pachI AvI vAto zuM karavA karo cho ? eTale chokarAnA dekhatAM jo kazuM bolavA jaIene, to tarata ja pakaDe ke kema bolavA mAMDyo ? - dAdAzrI : A to 'saccidAnaMda' kahene to jANavuM ke jAgRta thaI jAva. e pachI vaDhatAM aTakI jAya. praznakartA : aTakI ja jAya dAdA, cetI javAya tarata. praznakartA: bebI pUche che dAdA, ke jethI Apa A badhA moTAone AjJA Apo cho, evuM amAre nAnA chokarAone mATe zuM Apa AjJA Apo cho ? dAdAzrI : jJAna Ape tyAre to sarakhI ja AzA hoya. jene jJAna levuM hoya, tene sarakhI AjJA hoya, jene saMsAranA sukho bhogavavA che ane saMsAramAM sArI rIte dharma pALavo che tene ame bIjI AjJA ApIe. praznakartA : bALakone to jJAna (jJAnavidhi) apAya nahIM. to emane zuM ? evI rItanA pUche che ? dAdAzrI : eTale emane A saMsArano dharma ApIe ame. praznakartA : dAdA, saMsArano dharma kyo ? dAdAzrI : ApaNI A nava kalamo ane trimaMtro ne 'dAdA bhagavAnanA asIma jaya jayakAra', namaskAra vidhine e badhuM, e to badhA e dharma kare, eTalAthI bahu seTIphekazana thaI jAya. gharamAM jANo bALakato mata;

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 435 436 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra cIja hoya te ene thoDI khavaDAvIe. nA phAve evuM? amane to badhA sAthe phAve. chokarAo bahu DAhyA che. inDiyano, saMskAra to sArA che. che to sarasa ghauMno loTa, paNa zuM thAya ? veDhamI karatAM nA AvaDe to bhAkharAM kare pachI ! nahIM to lAhI banAve ! ane lokone sukha ja ApavuM. duHkha ApavuM nahIM. e vepAra sAro, cokhkho karavo. ApaNe dukAnamAM sukhano mAla rAkhavo joIe ke du:khano ? dukAna zarU karIe to sukhano mAla rAkhavo joIe ke duHkhano ? praznakartA: sukhano ja, dAdA ? dAdAzrI : hA, badhAne sukhano mAla Apavo. e vakhate du:kha AvI jAya, to ya paNa ApaNe ene sukha ApavuM. samaja paDIne ? chevaTe sukhano vijaya thaze. du:khano vijaya nahIM thAya. dukAnamAM mAla sukhano ja ApavAno rAkhavo. sukhanI dukAna kADhavI. koI salAha pUchavA Ave to sArI salAha ApavI. koI jhaghaDo karavA Ave to ApaNe ene kahIe ke bhaI mArI bhUlacUka thaI hoya to tArI mAphI mAguM, paNa zuM thayuM che, zA hAruM Ama kare che ? enI patAvaTa karI devI. nA phAve ? praznakartA : hA, phAve. sAco prema tyAM na hoya dveSa-rANa; vadhe-ghaTe e to che Asakti aturANa! veDhamIno keLavavo paDe loTa; keLavaNI na phAve, samatAnI khoTa! praznakartA : mArA sagAvhAlAM badhA premavALA che, mArA mATe lAgaNI kare che. dAdAzrI : e tuM sAcuM boluM ne tyAre khabara paDaze prema keTalo che. praznakartA : sAmuM bolIe eTale gusso kare che. dAdAzrI : to pachI ene prema zAno kahevAya ? A Asakti kahevAya. prema to enuM nAma kahevAya ke vadhe nahIM, ghaTe nahIM, tuM gALa bhAMDuM, gusso karuM, to ya nA ghaTe ane ema ne eme ya prema karuM to ya vadhe nahIM, enuM nAma prema kahevAya. Ane prema ja kema kahevAya ? ane huM to premathI mAruM. praznakartA: mane kAMI duHkha nathI thatuM. mane gusso Ave, thAya thoDuMka, paNa huM pachI vicAra karIne ene bhUlI javA prayatna karuM. dAdAzrI : nA. paNa gusso Ave tyAMthI ja duHkha kahevAya ne ! e deSa kahevAya. premamAM Sa nA hoya. Sa che tyAM prema nathI ane prema che tyAM dveSa nA hoya ! premamAM rAge ya nA hoya ane dveSa ya nA hoya. atyAre tuM mane phUlahAra caDhAvuM to mAro prema vadhI nA jAya, tuM mane be dhola mAruM to ghaTI nA jAya, enuM nAma prema kahevAya. evo prema joyelo? A to sudharelA ja chokarA che, AmAM zuM bagaDelA che ? A to ajavALelI thALIne, paNa ene pharI ajavALIe to mUrkha kahevAIe uchuM. loko kaheze, A kaI jAtanAM mANasa che, A ajavALIne hamaNe to lAvyA ? ane pharI ajavALavA jAya che. ane pote ajavALyA vagarano paDI rahyo che. bIjuM to ApaNA AtmAnuM karyA karavAnuM, A to badhuM cAlyA kare. A to sAre ghera janmelA chokarA evA to kaMI gAMDA-ghelA ochA hoya che ? veDhamI karavI hoya to ApaNe bhAkharI jevo bAMdhelo loTa hoya te cAle ? keLava keLava karyA karavuM paDe. ame veDhamI karIe chIe. te loko chokarAnI bhAkharI kare che. bhAkharI kare te ya jADI bhAkharI, enI veDhamI banAvajo have. hA, bhAkharI banAvavI tenA karatAM veDhamI hoya to Ama Ama kUTavuM paDe loTane, tyAre veDhamI thAya. chokarAne mAthe hAtha pheravavo paDe, bahAra laI javo be-cAra vakhata, phrenDazIpa karavI joIe, ApaNI sAmAtA zuddhAtmA jue to lAge nirdoSa; prakRti jue to dekhAya khUba doSa! huM ahIM A mazInane dabAvuM chuM ke nahIM dabAvato ! to gusse kare

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mA-bApa chokarAno vyavahAra 433 438 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pachI zene tuM guno jouM chuM ? praznakartA : mArI bhUla che e ! samajAyuM. skUlamAM zIkhave bhaNatara; paNa kyAM zIkhave gaNatara? che ? evI sthitimAM rahevuM joIe. A jo dabAvuM chuM to paNa kazuM kare che ? praznakartA: AvIza e sthitimAM, huM paNa evI rIte thaI jaIza ! dAdAzrI : gusse eTalA mATe tuM thauM chuM ke emanAmAM "AtmA nathI' evuM jANuM chuM eTale. e "zuddhAtmA nathI' evuM tuM jANuM chuM eTale. eTalA mATe thauM chuM ne ? - praznakartA eTale mATe nahIM. kAraNa ke zuM thAya, ghaNIvAra perenTsa eksepTa kare ne ApaNAthI eksepTa nahIM thAya ane ApaNAthI bolAya nahIM. eTale eka rIte du:kha thAya ke mArAthI e kahe evI rIte nathI karAtuM ne bIjI rIte gusso thAya. kAraNa ke e loko mArI pAse karAvavA mAMge che. eTale aMdara aTavAI javAya. dAdAzrI : barAbara. have gharanAM mANaso badhAMne tArAthI AnaMda thAya evuM rAkhavuM. tane enAthI du:kha thAya teno ApaNe 'samabhAve nikAla' karavAno ane tArAthI e badhAne AnaMda thAya evuM rAkhavuM. pachI e lokono prema joje tuM, kevo prema che ! A tuM prema brekaDAuna karI nAkhyuM chuM. e lokono prema hoya tene te uparathI paththarA nAkha nAkha karuM to badhuM tUTI jAya prema. praznakartA : mane evuM lAge che ke e loko paNa mane evuM kare che. dAdAzrI : hA, kAraNa ke e loko ne tuM judA cho, tyAM sudhI A badhuM che. praznakartA : 'poInTa opha vyu tarIke joIe eTale ne ? dAdAzrI : nahIM, 'poInTa opha vyu' nahIM, ene judAM jovuM chuM tuM, A e AtmA nathI ? praznakartA : hA, samajI. dAdAzrI : ane je karI rahyA che e emanA hAthamAM sattA nathI, mATe nirdoSa che. emanA hAthamAM koI sattA vagara karI rahyA che, eTale nirdoSa che. have zuddhAtmA to zuddha ja che ane A prakRti nirdoSa che, to praznakartA: mArA bApA ema ja mAne che ke huM bhaNyo paNa gaNyo nahI. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa zuM bhaNyo tuM ? praznakartA: 'bI.koma." ane pachI upara AgaLa beMkanI DigrIo lIdhI. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa tamArA bApujI kahe che te bhaNyo paNa gaNyo nahIM. gaNatara paheluM joIe, bhaNatara ochuM hoya to cAle. praznakartA : e to emanI draSTie ne ! dAdAzrI : nahIM, jagata AkhuM ya kahe, ke bhaI gaNatara to joIe. have game eTaluM bhaNatara bhaNo, gajavuM kApavAnuM bhaNatara bhaNe kolejamAM, badhuM vIsa varSa to ya gajavuM kApatA AvaDe kharuM ? praznakartA : enA to kalAsa judA hoya. enI skUla judI hoya. dAdAzrI : e to cha mahinAmAM pelo guMDo zIkhavADI de, haDahaDATa ! ane olarAITa zIkhavADI de gaNatara, enuM nAma gaNatara ! mazItavA maLe savAso rojanA; manuSyanuM bhADuM cAlIsa, emAM lojatA! dAdAzrI : hetu zo hato bhaNavAno ? praznakartA: jJAna meLavavA mATe. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa zA mATe jJAna meLavavuM paDyuM ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : mAre pote kAma karavuM che, nokarI e badhuM karavuM che eTalA mATe, ja. te badhuM amAruM ToLuM hoya che ne temAM ToLAmAM majhA karIe paNa mAre sAcI vAta to huM tamane jaNAvuM ke amane AMtarika zAMti nathI rahetI." tyAre meM kahyuM ke 'tamane zuM pagAra maLe che ?" tyAre kahe, "myunisipAlITImAM enjanIyara chuM ne mane aThThAvIsso maLe che." tyAre meM kahyuM, 'to rojanuM nevuM rUpiyA bhADuM thayuM.' 'bhADuM kema karIne kahevAya?" tyAre meM kahyuM, "zuM kahevAya tyAre ? moTuM mazIna ApIe chIe ke A kogresara, to savAso rUpiyA bhADuM Ape che ane tela-pANI emanuM pAchuM, sarakAranuM." tyAre meM kahyuM ke, 'tamAre tela-pANI ?" tyAre kahe, 'mArA gharanuM." pachI te mane kahe, A bhADuM kahevAya? ne A tela-pANI A gharanuM! khUba hasyA. mane kahe che, 'ATalI jAgRti rahe to huM mANasa thaI jAuM ! mane jAgRti ja nathI AvI." ATalI jAgRti, A khyAla ja nhoto ke huM bhADe. pachI emane jJAna ApyuM ne bahu suMdara rahe che. mA-bApa ta mUke chokarImAM vizvAsa; vyAjabI e, kAraNa samajatI kacAza! dAdAzrI : nokarI karavI che ? ko'kanI nokarI karavAnuM ? bhaNatara bhaNIne gulAmImAM javAnuM ? praznakartA : huM ene gulAmI nathI samajatI. dAdAzrI : gulAmane gulAmI kema khabara paDe ? je gulAma pote hoya ene gulAmI kema khabara paDe ? tuM gulAmI nathI samajatI, nahIM ? praznakartA: huM je kAma karuM chuM enAM paisA mane maLe che. ene gulAmI kevI rIte kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : ohoho ! eTale mahenatANuM levA jauM chuM tuM ? keTalA rUpiyA mahenatANuM che rojanuM, DeIlI vejI ? praznakartA : mahine, DeIlI nahIM. dAdAzrI : hA, manthalI keTalA ? praznakartA : Aso. dAdAzrI : AThaso. tyAre to sattAvIsa thayAne rojanAM ? eTaluM ja bhADuM ? renTala bejhIsa ApelI che ? eka mANase enuM mazIna ApyuM'tuM vIsa hajAranuM. tenuM bhADuM rojanAM cAlIsa rUpiyA letA'tA. te pAchI zarata zuM ? tela-pANI paNa tamAruM ane A cAleluM ApyuM che e sthitimAM pAchuM laIza, cAlelI sthitimAM to e bhADe ApeluM. eka mazIna Ape che te cAlIsa rUpiyA Ape che rojanAM. to ApaNe, tuM to jIvatI kahevAya ane khAnadAna gharanI kahevAya, tenAM keTalAM sattAvIsa rUpiyA Ave ? satyAvIsamAM tela-pANI sAthe ! pelo to cAlIsa le ane tela-pANI sarakArane kahe, tamAruM. eka bhagata mANasa hato amadAvAdamAM, te Avyo'to. 'mAre to A badhuM tamAruM jJAna jANavuM che. amane kaMI zAMti rahetI nathI bilakula. A lUgaDAM paherIne pharIe eTaluM ane mALA paherIne pharyA karIe eTaluM praznakartA : ame onesTa hoIe, juvuM nA bolIe koI dahADo, to ya paNa amArA upara vizvAsa kema nA Ave emane ? dAdAzrI : nA, tamArI upara rakhAya ja nahIM, bilakule ya nA rakhAya. huM kahI dauM ke chokarA upara vizvAsa rAkhazo nahIM. zaMkA nahIM rAkhavAnI. vizvAse nahIM rAkhavAno. praznakartA : nA, paNa zuM kAma zaMkA rAkhe, pappA mArA upara zaMkA zuM kAma kare ? - dAdAzrI : to zuM rAkhe ? ApaNe tyAM to zaMkA ekalI nahIM, paNa mAre bahAra jAya to ! strI upara zaMkA rAkhyA vagara cAle ja nahIM ne ! tuM to phorenarane Ama hAtha aDADa aDADa karuM, to tAre zuM che ? praznakartA: A ema vAta nathI, paisAnI vAtamAM huM boluM... dAdAzrI : nA, badhI bAbatamAM, paisAnI bAbatamAM ya. paisAnI bAbatamAM ya 'tuM cora chuM' evuM kaMI zaMkA nA Ave. paNa e to 'tuM bagADuM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra chuM, tuM samajaNa vagaranA kharcA kare che', evI zaMkA Ave. e tuM emanI choDI thauM, eTale evI zaMkA Ave ne ! to ya tAre samajavuM ke mArI bhUla che, emanI bhUla nathI. 441 praznakartA : hA, samajI. e kaMI meM pAchalA kALamAM kaMI karyuM haze, eTale huM bhogavuM chuM te huM have samajI, tamane maLyA pachI. dAdAzrI : hA, barAbara che. phAdhara-madhara je kaMI kahe, enI upara kaMI vicAra nA karavAnA hoya chokarAoe. kAraNa ke e eksapIrIyantDa che ane tamane haju samajaNa nathI ane tame sarakhuM mApavA jAva to zuM thAya ? tame Ama bahu saMskArI cho, paNa chatAM ya zuM mAla bharelo che e zuM khabara paDe ? e chokarAonuM hita kyAre jovAya, ApaNe avizvAsa thoDo-ghaNo hoya tyAre jovAya. vizvAsa mUkyo eTale emanuM hita tUTI jAya. vizvAsa nA mUkAya ke A amArI caiDapaNamAM cAkarI karaze ne chaiDapaNamAM mAruM e ema karaze ne ! vizvAsa karo, paNa te avizvAsuno vizvAsa. to pachI e bahAra kahe to loka emane kaheze, e sAcA che. ane tAruM bahAra pUchIe to kahe, 'chokarImAM kazI samajaNa nathI lAMbI.' evuM kahe. gALo de to sAcavIza phAdharane; dhanya tane te tArI jaNatarane! praznakartA : phAdhara sAthe ghaNIvAra nathI banatuM, e jema tema bole, gALo bhAMDe. dAdAzrI : to te ghaDIe jJAtA-draSTA rahevuM. paNa haju A gALo bhAMDe che, enuM kAraNa samajI javuM ke emane paisA amuka ApI dIdhA hoya pachI evAM nahIM rahe. e zenAM hAruM kare che ? paisA mATe hAya hAya, lobha ! eTale tAre AvuM karavuM, to peluM emanI joDe e tUTe nahIM. nahIM to UlaTI emanI jIMdagI ya bagaDe ne tArI ya bagaDe. praznakartA : samajI gayo. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : ane tuM kamAIne ApI daIza to ya tuM kamAze, puNya che ne ? bhale kazuM nA AvaDatuM hoya, paNa puNya che ne ! A to puNya kamAya che. tane dhaMdho karavo che ke nathI karavo ? e sarvIsa karavI hoya to ya vAMdho nahIM ! ApaNe sarvIsa karIne ya calAvAya. tAre je ApavuM hoya te, aradhI 2kama ApavI hoya, jeTaluM ApavuM hoya eTaluM Apaje. 442 bApa laDhe matabheda kaleza dhare; bhogave etI bhUla, karI cUkate kare! praznakartA H amuka du:kho to dUra thavAM ja joIe ne ? dAdAzrI : keTalAM duHkha dUra karyA ? praznakartA : have eka dAkhalo ApuM. have huM AvaDo moTo thayo to ya mArA bApujI mane TaiDakAya, TaiDakAya kare che, e mArA mATe duHkha nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : nA, nA. emAM ko'ka TaiDakAvato hoya to duHkhadAyI kahevAya. e game eTalA paiDA thAya ane tame game eTalA moTA thAva, paNa emanA to chokarA ja ne ! praznakartA : paNa khoTuM TaiDakAvatA hoya to ? dAdAzrI : khoTuM to tame jaja, tame vakIla ane tame che te AropI zI rIte khoTuM mApa kADho cho ? praznakartA : e huM nahIM, bIjA paNa ema mAne che ke e khoTuM thayuM A bhAI paNa mAne che, huM ekalo nathI. dAdAzrI : A bhAI sAkSI pUre che, nahIM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : e to A sAkSIvALA tamane badhA maLI Ave pachI. A duniyAno kAyado evo ke gerakAyadesara koI tamane kazuM kare tema che nahIM. tamArA phAdhara TaiDakAve che ne e kAyadesara kare che. have tamAre bIjuM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 43 44 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra jatI gADI thAya jaladI garama; chokarAM zAMta to bApa jaladI tarama! aMdara UMDuM utaravuM che ? e kAyadesara che, gerakAyadesara nathI. A to kudarata zuM kare che ? niraMtara nyAyamAM ja hoya che. eka sekanDa paNa anyAya karatI nathI, enuM nAma kudarata ! ahIM korTe game tema kare. paNa kudarata nyAyamAM ja che. ane asala nyAya ja kare che. eTale bApA vaDhe che ne te ja nyAya che. have tene uparathI tame kaho ke mane kema vaDho cho, e nyAyane tame UMdhuM bolo cho. praznakartA: A to vaDhe che ne jANI joIne duHkhI thAya che ne amane badhAne duHkhI kare che. dAdAzrI : nA, nA. e to badhuM AnuM nAma ja saMsAra ne ! UMdhI mAnyatAo enuM nAma saMsAra ! e pote duHkhI thatA nathI ke duHkhI thAya che ne e kAyadesara thAya che ane tamane du:kha kare che te ya kAyadesara kare che. ane tame vaLI pAchA ene gUMcavo cho. emane vadhAvI lo ke bahu sAruM thayuM A hisAba mAro cUkate thAya che. praznakartA : paNa AmAM to evuM thayuM ne dAdA ke ame bhUla nathI karatAM chatAM ame bhogavIe chIe, tenuM zuM ? tame kaho cho bhUla kare e bhogave, paNa ame bhUla nathI karI evI khAtarI che. chatAM ame bhogavIe chIe. dAdAzrI : emane kaMI bhUlanI sAthe bhAMjagaDa nathI. A to tamAro hisAba che te cUkate kare che. ne te cUkate nA kare to pAchuM tamAruM bAkI rahI jAta phAdhara pAse. eTale copaDA cUkavI devA paDe ne ! A to bhUlamAM to hotuM nathI koI ! ane Ama bhUlo ja che badhI jovA jAya to ! praznakartA: paNa ame to cUkavavA taiyAra chIe paNa kyAM sudhI A? badho hisAba karI do, ame jaldI hisAba karavA mAMgIe chIe. A gUMca to ukelavI ja che, paNa AvI rIte nathI ukelavI. dAdAzrI : evuM che, A hisAba che. te tamane buddhithI zuM lAge che ke AvuM e kema karyA kare che ? zuM to e cakrama che, gAMDA che ?! tamane lAge che gAMDA che. nA, A to hisAba che. praznakartA : to vaDIlo ja kema vadhAre garama thaI jatA haze ? dAdAzrI : e to ThaThAro gADI thaI gayelI hoya, gADI jUnI thaI hoya to pachI garama thaI jAya ne Akho dahADo. e to navI gADI hoya to nA thAya. eTale vaDIlone to bicArAne zuM.. ane gADI garama thaI jAya. to ene ApaNe TADhI nA pADavI paDe ! bahArathI kaMIka koIkanI joDe bhAMjagaDa thaI hoya, rastAmAM polIsavALA joDe, to moDhA upara che te thaI gayA hoya Imozansa. tame moTuM juo tyAre tame zuM kaho ? 'tamAruM moTuM ja baLyuM. A jyAM ne tyAM utareluM ne utareluM kAyamane mATe.' evuM nA bolAya. ApaNe samajI javAnuM kaMIka muzkelImAM AvyA che. eTale pachI ApaNe ema ne ema gADIne TADhI pADavA mATe UbhI nahIM rAkhatAM ?! praznakartA: haM. dAdAzrI : evuM emane TADhI pADavA mATe jarA cA-nAsto badhuM karavuM. to ThaMDuM paDI jAya emanuM. evuM sAcavavuM paDe badhuM. A to A AvatAnI sAthe, juone tamAruM moDhuM caDheluM che ! alyA bhaI, e kyA kAraNathI caDhyuM e zuM kAraNathI, e to e samaje bicArA. evuM nA bane A duniyAmAM ? praznakartA : evuM bane ja che. dAdAzrI : mATe ApaNe sAcavI levAnuM. ane gADI garama thAya to tyAM cIDhAtA nathI ne ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to A badhI gADIo ja che, garama thAya e badhI gADI ja kahevAya. kAraNa ke je mIkenikala bhAga che ne, tyAM ja garamI thAya che. konsIyasa pArTamAM thatuM nathI. mIkenikala pArTamAM garama thAya che eTale

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 445 gADI kahevAya ke nA kahevAya ? praznakartA: kahevAya. dAdAzrI : konzIyasa pArTamAM garamI nahIM thatI. kyA pArTamAM garamI thAya che e jANavI joIe. praznakartA : mArA phAdhara to bahu garama thaI jAya, khAvAnuM saheja barAbara phAvyuM nahIM to. dAdAzrI : ema nahIM, paNa sAmI sevA karavI joIe. praznakartA : hA, dAdA. dAdAzrI : A vaDIlonI sevA karavI e to moTAmAM moTo dharma che. juvAnIyAno dharma zuM ? tyAre kahe, vaDIlonI sevA karavI. junI gADIone dhakelIne laI javI ane to ja ApaNe paiDA thaIzuM to ApaNane dhakelanArA malaze. e to ApIne levAnuM che. ApaNe paiDAonI sevA karIe to ApaNI sevA karanArA maLI Ave ane ApaNe paiDAone hAMka hAMka karIe to ApaNane hAMka hAMka karanArA maLI Ave. je karavuM hoya te chUTa che. praznakartA : adbhuta. dAdAzrI : bAkI A tamane vAta AmAM kaMI game A badhI ? praznakartA : hA.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 447 (17) patnInI pasaMdagI ! paraNavuM pharajiyAta harakoIne; brahmacArI viralo, pUrvatuM laIne! praznakartA: kamplasarI kema che ? dAdAzrI : e ApaNe gayAM avatAre nakkI karyuM nhotuM ke 'lagna nathI karavuM. evuM nakkI karyuM hota to lagna na karavuM paData ! keTalAkane paiNavuM hoya ne, te AkhI jidaMgI sudhI 'A sAla thaze, AvatI sAla thaze." ema karatAM karatAM pacAsa varSano thaI gayo ! to ya hajI AzA rAkhe ke nA, haju kaMIka thaze. alyA, pacAsa varSano thayo, have zenI AzA rAkhe che ! evI rIte jema nathI maLatI, tema maLe temAMthI paNa ApaNAthI chUTI nA zakAya evo kudaratano konTrAkTa karelo che. karAra thaI gayA che badhA. teM kaMI saravaiyuM kADhyuM ke paiNavA jevuM che ke nathI paiNavA jevuM? praznakartA nathI paiNavA jevuM. dAdAzrI : ema ? kharuM che, kAraNa A indriya sukho eka taraphI che. AMkhanA, kAnanAM, nAkanA, e badhA eka taraphI indriya sukho che. paNa A viSaya e to be taraphInuM che, eTale dAvo mAMDaze ane e dAvo kyAre mAMDe e kahevAya nahIM. e kaheze ke sinemA jovA iMDone, tame kaho ke nA, Aje mAre khAsa kAma che. to e dAvo mAMDe. e kaheze, mAre joIe che ne tame nA pADo cho. eTale e dAvo mAMDe evuM bane ke nA bane ? praznakartA : evuM ja bane che. dAdAzrI : have e strI jo pahelethI samajatI hoya ke emanAM karmanA udaye nA pADI che to DahApaNapUrvaka ukela Ave. paNa emane evuM bhAna che nahIM ne ? e to kaheze ke emaNe karyuM ja nahIM. moha badho pharI vaLe ane 'kare che koNa" e potAne khabara nathI. e to ema ja jANe che ke A ja kare che. e ja nathI AvatA. emanI ja icchA nathI AvavAnI. 'na paiNavAmAM dhyeya hoya, to barobara che. A chokarAo to dhyeya vagaranI vAta kare che. A to jANe ke Ama ekalAM paDI rahIzuM. majhAmastImAM rahIzuM. e to gadhdhAmastI kahevAya. enA karatAM eka rUmamAM dAdAzrI : lagna tArI marajIthI karuM chuM ? praznakartA : badhAM karatAM hoya. ApaNe paNa karavAnuM vaLI. dAdAzrI : eTale marajIyAtane ? ke pharajiyAta karavuM paDe che, DyUTI bAunDa ? mArI ThokIne karAvaDAve lagana e DyuTI bAunDa. tane lAge DayUTI bAunDa che ?! praznakartA : hamaNAM nathI vicAra AvatA ke lagna karavA che. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa buddhithI vicAratAM kevuM lAge che ? A badhAM paiNelAM, te badhAM rAjIkhuzIthI paiNelAM ? praznakartA : lagna sukha nathI ApatuM, paNa kamplasarI ja che ne karavuM ja paDe. dAdAzrI : hA, kamplasarI che !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra beu AkhI rAta vaDhatAM hoya te sAruM. tenAthI jAgRti rahe ane gadheDAnI peThe mastAnImAM paDI rahyo hoya, eno artha zo che ? pelAmAM jhaghaDA karatAM hoya to ya savAra thAya, savAra to thayA ja karavAnI ne ? 448 ta thAya, dhAre tevuM haMmezA; tA, tA karatAM paiNI jAya badhA! praznakartA : e paNa vAta sArI che. paraNavuM nahIM. jo sevA karavI hoya to paraNavuM nahIM, e vAta sAcI che ? dAdAzrI : hA, paNa nA paiNe to cAlaze zI rIte ? rahevAze ? tyAgI tarIke rahevAze, sAdhu tarIke ? eTalI zakti che tArI ? praznakartA : hA, rahevAze. dAdAzrI : ema ! e to paiNavAnuM nA kahe che A to. e pahelethI ja evuM kahe che nahIM ! eTale lapharuM vaLage nahIM eTale bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM ne. paNa bahu majA nathI. e to pachI chevaTe paiNavuM paDe. pachI thaiDI joDe paiNavuM paDe, enAM karatAM javAna joDe paiNane. eTale paNaje moTo thaIne. be-pAMca-sAta varSa pachI paNaje ane paiNe ne vahune ya ema kahevuM ke tuM ya sevA kara ane huM ya sevA karuM. ApaNe beu sAthe sevA karavI emanI. koI mANasa ema kahe ke huM nahI paiNuM to enI tAkAta nathI ke enuM dhAreluM karI zake ! evuM thatuM hoya to to A badhAnuM dhAreluM thaI ja jAtane ! nA thaI jAya ? paDe ! praznakartA : A to paiNavAnuM nA kaheto hoya tene vaheluM paiNavuM dAdAzrI : AvuM che ! eTale mAruM kahevAnuM ke ApaNuM dhAreluM kaMI thatuM nathI, eTale A loko amathA bUmAbUma kare che ! paNa alyA, tAruM kazuM vaLaze nahi ! ema dhAraNA to badhI dhArI ke mAre Ama karavuM che, tema karavuM che. paNa kazuM ThekANuM paDatuM nathI ! eTale narasiMha mahetAe mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra gAyeluM ke 'badhI dhAraNAo mArI dhoko dharyo !' dhAraNA dharme kazuM vaLe nahIM. enA karatAM 'zuM bane che' e joyA karavuM e sArAmAM sAruM ! zuM bane che e 'vyavasthita', ene joyA karavuM ! ema dhAraNAo karavAmAM phAyado nathI ! saMDAsa javAnuM jyAM hAthamAM nathI tyAM lagna jevI bAbata ApaNA hAthamAM kyAMthI ? ApaNA hAthamAM sattA nathI tyAM AgaLa bUmAbUma karIe eno artha zo te ? je yojanA thayelI che, emAM kaMI pheraphAra thavAno nathI ! jo paiNavAnI yojanA thayelI che, to atyAre ApaNe nakkI karIe ke mAre nathI paiNavuM, to e mIniMgalesa vAta che. emAM cAle nahIM ne pAchuM paiNavuM to paDe ja ! 449 praznakartA : A bhavamAM ApaNe je bhAvanA karelI hoya te pachI AvatA bhave phaLe ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, A bhave bhAvanA kare to Avate bhave phaLe, paNa atyAre to eno chUTako ja nahIM ! atyAre emAM cAle nahIM, koInuM ya nA cAle ne ! bhagavAne ya vALavA jAya ne ke nA paiNIza, to bhagavAnanuM paNa tyAM AgaLa cAle nahIM ! gayA bhavamAM nA paiNavAnI yojanA karI ja nathI. mATe nA paiNavAnuM nahIM Ave. je yojanA karI haze te ja Avaze ! paiNIne jItAya premathI patnI; jhaghaDAthI kaleSa UMghI mati! lagna potAnuM DipenDanTapaNuM che te ja khabara nathI. DipenDanTapaNuM che. bhagavAna mahAvIra inDipenDanTa thayA hatAM. te lagna karavAnuM baMdha rAkhyuM ke karavuM che ? ke praznakartA : karavuM che. eTale konI joDe karavuM che e nakkI nathI, paNa karavuM che e nakkI. dAdAzrI : pachI eka dahADo ciDhAya ke akkala nahIM tArAmAM, geTa

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450 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 451 emane jarUra ja nathI. bAkI manuSyo to bicArA huMpha vagara jIvI zake nahIM. vIsa lAkha rUpiyAno moTo baMgalo hoya ane ekalo sUI javAnuM kahe to ? eTale ene huMpha joIe. manuSyone huMpha joIe, tethI to A lagna karavAnAM ne ! lagnano kAyado kaI khoTo kAyado nathI. e to kudaratano niyama che. eTale paiNavAmAM sahaja prayatna rAkhavo, manamAM bhAvanA rAkhavI ke lagna karavuM che, sArI jagyAe. pachI e sTezana Ave tyAre UtaravAnuM. sTezana AvatAM pahelAM doDadhAma karIe to.... tAre pahelI doDadhAma karavI AuTa kare to pachI zuM karIza ? tuM mA-bApa, mA-bApa kare (lAcArI dekhADe) emAM zuM dahADo vaLe ? e ciDhAya tyAre tuM zuM karuM? praznakartA : zuM karavAnuM ? sAMbhaLavAnuM. dAdAzrI : ghasIyA thaI javAnuM, gaLIyA baLada jevA ! lIhaTa ! praznakartA : no, dhena AI geTa eMgrI ona hara. e mArA upara gusse thAya to pachI huM enA upara thauM ema. dAdAzrI : to pachI enDamAM zuM Avaze ? mArIne jatI raheze. badhuM vicArIne paiNaje. paiNavuM saheluM nathI. cAra veda bhaNI jAya tyAre paiNavAnuM AvaDe. A (phorenanAM) loko zuM kahe che, leDIne tamAcAthI jIto. leDIne kahe che, tArA dhaNIne tuM tamAcAthI jIta ! bhagavAna mahAvIra zuM kahe che, ApaNe ahiMsAthI jIto, enI hiMsAnI upara ApaNI ahiMsA ! hiMsAno eka dahADo aMta Avaze, ahiMsAno vijaya thaze. hiMsAno to vijaya thayo ja nathI A duniyAmAM. evuM kema kahevAya ApaNAthI ke paiNavAmAM sukha nathI. ema kema kahevAya ? e loko evuM kahe paiNavAmAM du:kha che evuM ame mAnIe nahIM. anubhava karaze eTale e ya choDI deze badhAM. lakkaDano lADu che, khAdhA te paNa pastAyA, nA khAdhA te paNa pastAyA. praznakartA : khAdhA pachI pastAvuM sAruM, pachI aphasosa nA rahI jAya. dAdAzrI : hA, pachI aphasosa nA rahe. praznakartA : nA. sTezana Ave tyAre. dAdAzrI : haM.. sTezanane ApaNI garaja che ne ApaNane sTezananI garaja ! kaMI sTezananI ApaNane ekalAne ja garaja nathI. sTezanane ApaNI garaja kharI ke nahi ? praznakartA : hoya. dAdAzrI : nahi to paisA koNa Ape TikiTanA ?! nirAMte raheje. 'dAdA'e badhuM vyavasthita kaheluM che. prayatna rAkhavo. manamAM bhAva rAkhavo. paNa have 'jagatanuM kalyANa karavuM che' evo bhAva rAkhavo. mAre sAcuM sukha prApta karI ane pUrNa karI ane 'jagatanA loko kema e sukha pAme' evI bhAvanA rAkhavI.. na cAle paraNyA vinA saMsAra; jJAtI ja tirAlaMba, vitA AdhAra! yuvAvarga doDI Ave dAdA pAsa; mA-bApatAM sukha(?) joI thAya udAsa! jema saMDAsa vinA koIne na cAle tema paraNyA vinA cAle tema nathI ! tAru mana kuMvAruM hoya to vAMdho nathI. paNa jyAM mana paraNeluM hoya tyAM paraNyA vagara na cAle ane ToLAMvAda vagara manuSyo rahI nA zake. ToLAMvAda vagara rahI zake koNa ? 'jJAnI puruSa' ekalAM ja, koI nA hoya tyAM AgaLa ya. kAraNa ke pote nirAlaMba thayelA che. koI avalaMbananI praznakartA : ApanA saMghamAM bhaLanAra yuvAna-yuvatIo lagnanI nA pADe, to Apa zuM upadeza teone khAnagImAM Apo cho ? dAdAzrI : huM khAnagImAM paiNavAnuM kahuM chuM emane. huM khAnagImAM e lokone lagna karavAnuM kahI dauM chuM ke bhaI thoDI choDIo ochI thaI jAya to niveDo Ave. mAre ahIM vAMdho nathI, mAre to paiNIne Avone

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45ra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 453 to A mArga, mokSano mArga paiNelAne mATe ja che A. huM to emane kahuM chuM ke paraNo to chokarIo ochI thAya. ane ahIMyA mokSa, paiNavAthI aTake che evuM nathI ! paNa emaNe zuM zodhakhoLa karI che, ke paiNavAnI upAdhi bahu hoya che. kahe che, ame amArA mA-bApanuM sukha joyuM che. eTale e sukha amane gamatuM nathI. eTale mA-bApano purAvo Ape che. mA-bApanuM sukha (!) joyuM eTale ame kaMTALI gayA chIe ke 'paiNavAmAM sukha nathI' evo emane anubhava thaI gayo che evuM e loko bUma pADe che. huM to ghaNuM samajAvuM chuM, kAraNa ke A mArga je che ne, te paiNelA mATe ja che. brahmacArI rahevuM hoya te vAta judI che. bAkI paiNelAne bAdhaka nathI A ane bIjI jagyAe to paiNIza nahIM evuM zikhavADe ane huM to ema zikhavADuM ke paiNa. paiNe eTale kharAba vicAra AvatA baMdha thaI jAya, ne eka jagyAe sthira thAya mANasa. nA thAya ? sthira thAya. brahmacarya pALavuM sAruM che, evuM huM mAnuM ? vilAsI jIvana sAruM ke saMyamita jIvana sAruM ? praznakartA : saMyamita. dAdAzrI : hA. te e huM kahevA mAMguM chuM tane. brahmacaryano vicAra bhale nA Avyo paNa saMyamitano vicAra Ave ne ? vilAsI na hovuM joIe ne ? paiNaze nahIM to jagatanuM belensa kema raheze ? paiNane. cho ne paiNe ! 'dAdA'ne vAMdho nathI, paNa vAMdho aNasamajaNano che. ApaNe zuM kahevA mAMgIe chIe ke badhuM karo, paNa vAtane samajo ke zuM hakIkata che ! dAdAzrI : paNa e bApAe AvuM nahIM karavuM joIe. atyAranA bhaNelA chokarAo che ne, bApAoe chokarAone emanA mate cAlavA devA joIe. bApAe vacce Dakhala nahIM karavI joIe. huM to kahuM bApAne ke, 'hAtha nA ghAlIza.' chokarAne dabANa karazo nahIM. nahIM to tAre mAthe Avaze ke mArA bApAe bagADyuM. ene calAvatAM nA AvaDe tethI bagaDe ne ApaNe mAthe Ave. ghoDI to traNa hajAranI hatI. paNa paDI gayo tyAre kaheze ke mane ghoDIe pADI nAkhyo. mera gAMDIyA ! ghoDIne vagovo cho ? ghoDInI AbarU kADho cho ? ghoDI to traNa hajAra rUpiyA ApIne lAvyo che, tane besatAM nA AvaDe emAM ghoDInuM nAma dauM chuM ?! paNa A jagata to AvuM !! vahmAM akkala nathI, kaheze ane e akkalano kothaLo ?! bolAvavo ene ane kahevuM, 'amane pasaMda paDI have, tane pasaMda paDe to kahe ane nahIM to rahevA daIe ApaNe.' to e kaheze, 'mane nathI gamatI'. to ene rahevA daIe. sahI to karAvI levI chokarAM pAse, nahIM to chokaro ya sAmo thAya. praznakartA: 'vyavasthita'mAM je vahu AvavAnI che, te AvavAnI ja che ema karIne ApaNe besI rahevuM ke pachI kaMI Ama tajavIjamAM rahevuM? dAdAzrI : paNa e besI rahevAnuM thaze ja nahIM. ja vaparAya buddhi pasaMdagImAM; saMjogo, sAcI Ape jiMdagImAM! pAtranI pasaMdagImAM ta ghAlo hAtha; na phAve to Ave bApane mAtha! buddhi to be ja vastu jue, napho ne khoTa ! chokarAnI vahu khoLe to sArI ja khoLyA kare ! praznakartA : buddhi dekhADe, vahune sIlekTa karavA mATe sAruM sAruM, to te samaye zuM karavuM joIe ApaNe, buddhi na vAparavI ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe to chokarAne e dekhADI jovAnuM, bIjA saMjogo bhegA thAya eTale ApaNe 'ya' kahI devAnuM. praznakartA : paNa ghaNI jagyAe to lagna dabANa karIne bApA karAve che, pote nA kaheto hoya to ya.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : paNa bIjA saMjogo ApaNe jovA joIe ne dAdA, kuTuMba ke nAta ke Ama sAmAnya.... 454 dAdAzrI : e saMjogo ja bhegA kyAre thAya ke banavAnuM hoya te pramANe ja thAya. praznakartA : badhA ya eviDansIsa bhegA thAya to ja lagna thAya. dAdAzrI : to ja lagna thAya, nahIM to nA thAya. eTale e gabharAmaNa nahIM rAkhavAnI pachI. kuTuMba kharAba AvyuM. chUTuM thayuM, pachI je tAro hisAba te Avyo. bAkI buddhi jo khoLavA besene to A gAmamAM ekuM ya moDala sAruM jaDe nahIM. buddhinuM khoLeluM to jaDe ja kyAMthI ? praznakartA : have dhAro ke chokarAe ema kahyuM hoya mA-bApane ke tame je zodhI Apo e kharI. to pachI mA-bApanI javAbadArI AvI gaI, to mA-bApe zuM karavuM tyAre ? dAdAzrI : pachI ApaNe zodhI ApavuM. zodhI ApIne pachI ApaNe jANavuM ke A zodhI ApyuM che. to atyAre to bALaka che, nAnI uMmarano che, moTI uMmarano thAya eTale buddhi khIle. tyAre pachI kaheze, 'huM to hA kahuM paNa tamAre nahotuM samajavuM ?" to pachI ApaNe dhIme rahIne Ukela lAvavo. patnI, kuTuMba mATe ta de karavA; khAtagImAM karI, beu sAcavavo! nA gamatuM hoya ema karavuM paDe che ne ?! have paiNIza tyAra pachI vahu kahene e ya tane nA gamatuM hoya to karavuM paDe. eTale chUTako ja nahIMne !! kyAM jaIe ?! praznakartA : huM, dAdA, paNa emAM evuM che ke nAnI nAnI bAbatamAM javA hau daIe, paNa moTI bAbatamAM nahIM khasavuM joIe, huM evuM mAnuM pachI vahu hoya ke je hoya e. dAdAzrI : to eno nikAla nahIM thAya. ApaNe jo chUTuM thavuM che mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra A duniyAthI, te nA thavA de pelI. praznakartA : dhAro ke mAre koIne madada karavI che. gharanA mANasane mATe kaMIka karavuM che ane patnI nA pADe che, to mAre kaMIka karavuM ke nA karavuM ? dAdAzrI : karavuM. paNa khAnagI rIte karavuM. praznakartA H nahIM, khAnagI rIte kema karavuM ApaNe ? 455 dAdAzrI : nahIM to patnI joDe jhaghaDA thAya pachI. AnI joDe rahevAnuM ne pAchuM jhaghaDA thAya. kAraNa ke patnI zuM kahe, ke tame je madada karo cho emAM mArI pArTanarazIpa che, evuM kahene ?! praznakartA : paNa pachI temAM mAruM ne tAruM thaI gayuM kahevAyane ? dAdAzrI : e mAruM-tAruM hoya ja, pati-patnImAM. pachI mAruM-tAruM nA hota to to A duniyAmAMthI bahAra javAnI jarUrata ja nathI ! mokSe javAnI jarUrata ja zI hatI ! ane pati patnImAM ya mAruM-tAruM hoya. praznakartA : huM nathI mAnato evAmAM. dAdAzrI : tAre paNa evuM thaze. haju paiNyo nathI, paNa paiNIza eTale evo anubhava thaze. praznakartA : eTale ja huM mArI rIte kadAca bolato houM. dAdAzrI : nA, te to ene khyAla nA hoya ne ! praznakartA : hA, anubhava nahIM ne ! dAdAzrI : hA, e to anubhava karIe tyAre khabara paDe ke A kaDavuM ke mIThuM. nathI kaDavuM lAgatuM ke nathI mIThuM lAgatuM. kaMI jAtanuM A ?! kaDavuM ya nA lAge ne mIThuM ya nA lAge. tathI pApa lavamerejamAM; pApa che dagA te pharebamAM! praznakartA : A lavamereja e pApa gaNAya ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : nA. TempararI lavamereja e pApa gaNAya. paramenanTa lavamereja hoya to nahIM. eTale lAIpha lavamereja hoya to vAMdho nahIM. TempararI lavamereja eTale phora vana ya, phora Tu yara. paraNavuM hoya to ekane ja paraNavuM joIe. phrenDazIpa bahu nahIM karavI joIe. nahIM to narse javuM paDe. 456 praznakartA : A je bIjA amerIkansa kahe che ke jevI rIte bIjI chokarIo keTalAya jaNA joDe saMbaMdha rAkhe, to e lokone to kaMI vAMdho nathI Avato. e lokone kaMI pApa nathI ne ApaNane kema evuM che ? dAdAzrI : emane chokarIonI paDelI nathI hotI bahu, e to nA jato hoya to vIsa-bAvIsa varSano chUTo kare ene. ApaNe tyAM nahIM kare. e to emane emanA kapala pUratI ja paDelI hoya che ane ApaNA to TheTha sudhI, tame pacAsa varSanA thAva to ya lAgaNI rAkhe mA-bApa. tame pacAsa varSanA thAva to ya emane duHkha thayA kare ke A bicArInuM zuM thatuM haze, zuM thatuM haze ?! ane Amane nA thAya. praznakartA : e lokone kema evuM hoya ? ane ApaNane. dAdAzrI : DevalapamenTa kAcuM che. sAmAjIka DevalapamenTa nathI emanAmAM. sAmAjIka DevalapamenTa kAcuM che. purAvA bhegAM thatAM lapharuM peThuM! lapharuM jANatAM ja, paDe e chUTuM! tame nAnA hatA tyAre AvuM lapharuM vaLageluM koI jAtanuM ? te purAvA bhegA thAya, badhA eviDansa bhegA thAya e eTale lapharAM vaLagI jAya. praznakartA : lapharuM e zuM che ? dAdAzrI : hA, te kahuM chuM. eka nAgara brAhmaNa hato, te ophIsara hato. te enAM chokarAne kahe che. 'A chokarI sAthe tuM pharato hato. te meM tane dITho, te lapharA zuM karavA pherave che !' chokaro kolejamAM pharato hato, mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra koI garlaphrenDa joDe. enAM bApe dITho haze. ene lapharuM e loko nathI kahetA, paNa A junA jamAnAnAM mANaso ene lapharuM kahe che. kAraNa ke phAdharanAM manamAM ema thayuM ke 'A mUrakha mANasa samajato nathI, prema zuM che e ? ne mAra khAI khAIne marI jaze !' premane nIveDavo e sahelo nathI. prema karatAM badhAne AvaDe che, paNa ene nIveDavo sahelo nathI. tethI enAM phAdhare kahyuM ke, 'A lapharAM zuM karavA, karavA mAMDyAM ?' te pelo chokaro kahe che, 'bApujI, zuM kaho cho A tame ? e to mArI garlaphrenDa che. tame Ane lapharuM bolo cho Ama ? mArI nAkakaTTI thAya evuM bolo cho ? evuM nA bolAya.' tyAre bApa kahe che, 'nahIM boluM have.' e garlaphrenDa joDe be varSa dostI cAlI. pachI e bIjA koI joDe sinemA jovA AvI hatI ne ANe joI. eTale enA manamAM ema lAgyuM ke A to pappAjI kahetA hatA ke 'A lapharuM vaLagADyuM che' te evuM A lapharuM ja che. 457 pahelAM jyAre phAdhare kahyuM ke, 'A lapharuM zuM kAma karavA mAMDyuM che ?' tyAre A ADuMavaLuM bolyo eTale enAM phAdhare jANyuM ke "enI meLe meLe ja anubhava thavA dene ! ApaNo anubhava levA taiyAra nathI. to ene potAne anubhava thavA do.' te AvuM bIjA joDe sinemAmAM dekhene, eTale anubhava thAyane ? eTale pachI pastAya ke phAdhara kahetA hatA e sAcI vAta che. sAluM lapharuM ja che A to. eTale purAvA bhegA thAyane to lapharA vaLagI jAya. pachI chUTe nahIM ane bIjAne laIne phare eTale rAta-dahADo pelAne UMgha nA Ave. bane ke nA bane evuM ? pelA chokarAe jyAre jANyuM tyArathI e lapharuM chUTavA mAMDyuM. eTale jyAM sudhI 'garlaphrenDa' kahe ane ene lapharuM jANe nahIM tyAM sudhI zI rIte chUTe ?! A to lapharuM ja che tyArathI e chUTuM paDavA mAMDe. jyAre tyAre chUTuM thaI jAya. mahine, be mahine, cAra mahine paNa chUTuM ja thaI jAya. sAyanTiphika kAyado A. ene jJAnamAM AvavuM joIe ke A lapharuM che. bApa evuM jANe ke A lapharuM che. paNa pelAne e jJAnamAM AvyuM nathIne. ene to bApAnuM UMdhuM dekhAya paNa chokaro lapharuM kahene, pachI ApaNe enI mATe kacakaca nahIM karavAnI. ApaNe jANIe ke jJAna thayuM.

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458 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 459 je jJAna mane hatuM, e jJAna ene thayuM, have vAMdho nathI. jJAna thaI javuM joIe ke lapharuM zuM che ? e pachI niraMtara chUTuM ja paDatuM jAya. potAno bhaIbaMdha ya bahu 25 varSathI hoya, paNa jyArathI potAne dago-phaTako lAgyo, eTale samajAya ke A to sAluM lapharuM che. pachI upalaka, dekhAvathI nA kahe paNa ema karato karato chUTuM thaI jAya. lapharuM jANe tyAre lapharAnuM jJAna thavuM joIe. praznakartA : to pachI A moha ane prema enI tAravaNI karavI hoya to kaI rIte karI zakAya ? dAdAzrI : prema che ja nahIM. to premanI vAta ja zuM karavA karo cho? prema che ja nahIM. badho moha ja che A to, moha ! mUrNita thaI jAya. bebhAnapaNe, bilakula bhAna ja nathI ! dAdAzrI : ekalo ja moha ! upara moTuM rUpALuM dekhAya che eTale prema dekhAya. paNa e prema kahevAya nahIM ne ! hamaNe ahIM AgaLa gUmaDuM thAya ne, to pAse jAya nahIM pachI. A to kerI mahIMthI AkhI juene to khabara paDe. moDhuM bagaDI jAya to bagaDI jAya, paNa mahInA sudhI khAvAnuM nA bhAve. ahIM bAra mahinA sudhI AvaDuM gumaDuM thAya to moTuM nA jue, moha chUTI jAya ne jyAre kharo prema hoya to eka gumaDuM, are be gumaDAM thAya to ya nA chUTe. te Avo prema khoLI kADhajo. nahIM to zAdI ja nA karazo. nahIM to phasAI jazo. pachI e moDhuM caDhAvaze tyAre kaheze, 'AnuM moDhuM jovAnuM mane nathI gamatuM." tyAre alyA sAruM joyuM hatuM tethI tane gamyuM hatuM. ne have AvuM nathI gamatuM ?! A to mIThuM bolatA hoyane, eTale game ane kaDavuM bolatA hoya to kahe "mane tArA joDe gamatuM ja nathI ?" praznakartA : e paNa Asakti ja ne ? dAdAzrI : badhI Asakti. 'gamyuM hatuM ne nA gamyuM, gamyuM hatuM ne nA gamyuM' ema kakaLATa karyA kare, evA premane zuM karavAno ?! praznakartA : evI ja koI rIte paNa moha pAchaLa jIvana nyochAvara karavAnI zakti le to pariNAme pUrNatA Ave ? to e dhyeyanI pUrNatAne prApta kare ? dAdAzrI : mohanI pAchaLa nyochAvara kare to to pachI moha ja prApta kare. ne moha ja prApta karyo che ne lokoe ! moTuM rUpALuM pasaMda karI lAvyo paiNI; have nathI jovuM gamatuM kahe dhaNI! bahu mAra khAya tyAre je moha hato ke, te moha chUTI jAya badho. khAlI moha ja hato. teno ja mAra khA khA karyo ! praznakartA : moha ane prema e bannenI bhedarekhA zuM che ? dAdAzrI : A phUduM che ne ! phUduM dIvAnI pAchaLa paDI ane 'yA homa" thaI jAya che ne ? e potAnI jIMdagI khalAsa karI nAkhe che. e moha kahevAya. jyAre prema e Take, prema TakAu hoya, jo ke emAM ya thoDI AsaktinAM darda hoya. paNa to ya TakAu hoya e moha nA hoya. moha eTale 'yujhalesa' jIvana. e to AMdhaLA thavA barAbara che. AMdhaLo mANasa phUdAnI peThe phare ane mAra khAya enA jevuM ane prema to TakAu hoya emAM to AkhI jIMdagInuM sukha joItuM hoya. e tAtkAlIka sukha khoLe evuM nahIM ne ! praznakartA : A chokarA-chokarIo prema kare che. atyAranA jamAnAmAM, te mohathI kare che eTalA mATe pheIla thAya che ? ta karAya kadi bhAratIyathI DeTiMga; varjItane maLe varjIta kudaratI seTIMga! praznakartA : A DeTiMga cAlu thaI gayuM hoya pachI have kemanuM baMdha karavuM ene ? zuM karavuM? dAdAzrI : e baMdha karI devAnuM nakkI karo atyAre ke A baMdha karI nAkhavuM che. ApaNe kahIe ke ahIM chetarAuM , to chetarAvAnuM pachI baMdha karI daIe. navesarathI chetarAvAnuM baMdha. jyArathI jAgyA tyArathI savAra.

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460 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 461 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra phorena leDI pahoMce chUTAcheDe cheka; IMDIyata roja laDhe to ya ekatA ekA jyArathI samajaNa paDI ke A khoTuM thaI rahyuM che eTale baMdha karI devuM joIe. praznakartA : potAne baMdha karI devAnI vAta karI tame, paNa potAne pachI pAchI icchA thayA kare to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : icchA thayA kare te manane icchA thayA kare. manane kahIe ke have tAre koInI bUma pADavAnI nathI, bUma pADavI hoya to pADyA kara eka bAju, kahIe. go Tu yora rUma !! praznakartA : A saheluM che kahevAnuM paNa peluM agharuM thaI paDe che ! dAdAzrI : nA, agharuM nA thaI paDe. yu Ara kamplITa judo chuM. mAInDa ne, yu Ara kamplITa judo chuM, separeTa. praznakartA: mAInDa separeTa che. paNa mArI boDIne joIe tenuM zuM ? dAdAzrI : e boDIne joItuM hoya to boDI che te enI meLe mAMgI leze. tAre zA mATe paDavAnI jarUra ?! e to bhUkhe lAgaze tyAre boDIne to khAvAnuM maLI Avaze. vAIlDa lAIpha nahIM hovI joIe. InDiyana lAIpha hovI joIe. praznakartA : ApaNe atyAra sudhI DeTiMga karatA hatA, pachI have nakkI karyuM ke ApaNe have nathI karavuM, baMdha karI devuM che, jAgyA tyArathI savAra, ApaNe baMdha karI dIdhuM, paNa te pelI sAmI vyaktinuM zuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe zuM levAdevA ! praznakartA : kazuM levAdevA nahIM ? dAdAzrI : nA, kazuM ya levAdevA nahIM. praznakartA : have ene duHkha ApyuM nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : sAmI vyakti to, ApaNuM magaja bagaDI jAya to rahe ?! ApaNane pachI paiNe ? tame cokhkhA hazo to tamane vAIpha paNa cokhkhI maLaze ! enuM nAma ja 'vyavasthita', je ekkekTa hoya ! dAdAzrI : tAre to vaheluM paiNavuM che ke pachI moDuM ? praznakartA : moDuM. dAdAzrI : ema ne ema tArAthI rahevAze ? paiNyA vagara rahevAze? praznakartA : be varSa pachI. haju bhaNavAnuM bAkI che. dAdAzrI : hA, te pUruM karaje. paNa vivAha karavAmAM vAMdho che ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : vivAha karI rAkhe to cAle ne ! paiNavAnuM hamaNe nahIM, paNa vivAha karI rAkha. amerikana joDe paiNavuM che ke inDiyana joDe ? praznakartA : inDiyana sAthe. pappAne khuza rAkhavAnA che eTale. dAdAzrI : nahIM to tAre emane khuza nA rAkhavAnA hoya to ? to amerikana joDe paiNuM kharuM ? tArA mATe tane kaI game vadhAre ? pharsTa prepharansa zuM che tAruM ? praznakartA : game e cAle, huM kaI kalara-balaramAM nathI mAnato. je sArI chokarI hoya, amerikana hoya ke inDiyana hoya, to ya vAMdho nahIM. dAdAzrI : paNa evuM che ne, A kerIo amerikana ane ApaNI kerImAM ya phera hoya che evuM tuM nA jANuM ?! zuM phera hoya che ApaNI kerImAM ne..! praznakartA: ApaNI mIThI hoya. dAdAzrI : hA, tyAre pachI jojo. e mIThI cAkhI to jo ApaNI inDiyananI. praznakartA : haju cAkhyuM nathI. dAdAzrI : nA. paNa pesIza nahIM AmAM amerIkanamAM pesavA jevuM

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462 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 463 nathI. jo, tArI mammIne ne phAdharane teM joyAM ne ! to e bene koI dahADo matabheda paDe ke nA paDe ? praznakartA : matabheda to paDe. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa te ghaDIe tArI mammI jatI rahe che koI dahADo praznakartA : e kahe che paNa badhI ja game to ? dAdAzrI : je tane game e game, paNa tuM ene nA gamato hoya tyAre zuM thAya ? eka chokarIne eka chokaro dekhADyo enA bApe tyAre bApane kahe che, A babUcakane kyAM teDI lAvyA mArI pAse ! A chokarIo ! mahIM AjhAda hoya e bolI jAya. ya ? eka tAtatAtAM sarakhA svabhAva; paramAtamAM na bese meLa sAva! praznakartA : ApaNI nAtamAM ja lagna karavAnA phAyadA zuM ? e jarA praznakartA : nA, nA. dAdAzrI : ane pelI to 'yu" karIne Ama baMdUka dekhADe, jatI rahe ane AkhI jIMdagI rahe A. eTale ame tamane samajaNa pADIe ke bhaI, A AvuM karazo nahIM A bAju, pachI peThA pachI pastAzo. A to TheTha sudhI rahe haM ke, vaDhavaDhA karIne savAramAM pAchuM rIpera. praznakartA : vAta sAcI che. dAdAzrI : mATe have nakkI kara ke mAre inDiyana leDI joDe paiNavuM che, inDiyanamAM tuM game te, brAhmaNa, vANiyaNa, tane je phAve te vAMdho nathI. praznakartA : jo ene gamatI hoya to vivAha karI rAkhe, evuM samajAvo. dAdAzrI : hA, vivAha karI rAkhaze. A e dekhADene, te pAsa karI deje have ke A coIsa che, kahIe. eTale pachI ene seTalamenTa thAya pachI paiNaje. ATaluM karaje tuM mAruM ! samaja paDIne ? jayAre tyAre paiNyA vagara cAle evuM nathI, kaMI brahmacArI rahevAya evuM che ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : tyAra pachI ApaNe pahelethI seTalamenTa levAmAM vAMdho zo ? pachI ApaNe joItI chokarI nA maLene pachI UMdhI bIjI maLe. enAM karatAM atyAre ja tapAsa karIe to sArI maLI jAya, to ApaNuM cAlyuM. Aja ne Aja nahIM, cha mahinA-bAra mahinA sudhI jo jo karatA karatA.... ! dAdAzrI : ApaNI komyunITInI vAIpha hoyane to ApaNA svabhAvane maLatuM Ave. ApaNe kaMsAra lIdho hoya ane ghI vadhAre joItuM hoya ApaNA lokone. have koI evA nAtanIne paiNI lAvyo, to te mele nahIM Ama, nIcuM namAvatA ja enA hAthamAM duHkhe eTale enA judA judA guNo joDe TakarAmaNa thAya Akho dahADo ya ane A ApaNI jAtanI joDe kazuM nA thAya. samajaNa paDIne ? bhASA pelI bolene, te ya cIpI cIpIne bole ane ApaNo doSa kADhe ke tamane bolatA nathI AvaDatuM, evuM trAgA kare. enA karatAM ApaNI sArI ke kaMI kahe to nahIM, ApaNane vaDhe nahIM. praznakartA : Apa kaho cho ke eka jAtinI hoya tyAM jhaghaDo nA thAya, paNa eka jAtinI hoya tyAM ya jhaghaDo to thAya che, enuM zuM kAraNa? dAdAzrI : jhaghaDo thAya paNa eno nikAla thAya. paNa pelo Akho dahADo game enI joDe ane pelA joDe to game nahIM pachI, eka kalAka game ane pachI kaMTALo AvyA kare. e Ave ne kaMTALo Ave, e Ave ne tarata kaMTALo Ave. potAnI jAtanI hoya to game, nahIM to game ja nahIM. kaMTALo Ave, bhUtaDI jevI lAge. A badhA je pastAyelAne tenA dAkhalA kahuM chuM. A badhA bahu phasAyelA, A loko vadhu phasAyelA.

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464 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 465 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra rUpALI hAkusa dekhI lAvyo ghera; e cAkhe to khATI, silekazata phera! ApaNo eka hinduno chokaro pArasaNa pAchaLa paDelo ! meM kahyuM, A kerIo uparathI rUpALI dekhAya paNa kApIe ne tyAre khATI nIkaLe ! A pArasaNo badhI hAphusanI kerI jevI rUpALI dekhAya ne ! paNa khATI nIkaLe. moTuM bagaDI jaze tyAre pachI kyAM jaIza ? pachI AkhI jiMdagI baphAro ja ne ? sahana nA thAya pachI ! kerI to khATI nIkaLe to nAkhI daIe paNa strIne kyAM nAkhI daIe ? praznakartA : e matabheda hoya e sudhAravA prayatna karavAno. dAdAzrI : mAruM kahevAnuM ke matabhedano savAla nahIM. A to aMDaraDevalapa joDe lagna karavuM e tyAM badhuM khATuM ja nIkaLe ! lagna potAnA DevalapamenTamAM ja hovuM joIe ! eTale lagna kyAM karavuM enI kaI limiTa to hovI joIe ne ?! bAkI game tevI pArasaNa teDI lAvyA pachI zuM thAya ? dekhAya rUpALuM paNa DevalapamenTa badhuM bahu kAcuM ! chetarAIza mUA, jaina chokarAne nA kahyuM pachI lagna baMdha rahyuM. jaina chokarA pArasaNa joDe paiNe to te veza thaI paDe. Ane paraNAtuM haze ? e to kAmanI ja nhoya ane ApaNI nAtamAM ja paraNe e aMdara mIThI darAkha jevI ane te pAchI AkhI jIMdagI sudhI rahe. pelI to cha mahinAmAM pAchI chUTI karI nAkhe. pArasI chokarI jatI hoya to tuM enA tarapha joto houM tyAre tane yAda Ave ke A meM to AvuM nakkI karyuM che !? praznakartA : hA, to yAda Ave. dAdAzrI : to enA tarapha bilakula jovuM ja nahIM, A ApaNI lAIna ja hoya. have jyAre bIjI jagyAe joIe inDiyanamAM, te paNa ApaNane haju levAdevA nathI ane A joIe chIe e guno karIe chIe, e ApaNane rahevuM joIe. eTale huM tane dekhADIza ke joyA pachI zuM karavuM tAre ? joyA pachI enA vicAra ghera Ave. paNa pachI zuM karavuM e batADIza. eTale bhUMsI naMkhAya. DAgha paDyo to kharo, paNa pachI sAbu rAkhIe, to bhUMsI naMkhAya. eTale kapaDuM cokhuM ne cokhuM rahe. bhUMsI nAkhavAnAM sAdhana nahIM hovAthI pachI te rUpa thaI jAya bicArA. praznakartA : te rUpa thaI jAya eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : bahu ne bahu eka prakArano guno thayo eTale pachI gunegAra ja thaI jAya. je guno cheTethI hato te gunegAra thaI jAya pote. gunAhita pravRttimAM paDI jAya. pelo ApaNe batADIe ke bhaI A bhUMsI nAkhajo sAbuthI eTale paDI nA jAya pachI. vadhu kheMcANa baMdha thaI jAya ! A badhuM AvuM zIkhavADavuM paDe. kAraNa ke A UMdhuM ja mAnI beThA che. ene rUpa kahe che. are, rUpa kahevAtuM haze ? ApaNA jUnA mANaso Ane rUpa nhotA kahetA. rUpa to kevuM hoya ? emAM aMga-upAMga sarasa hoya. AMkha sArI hoya ane kALI bhammara jevI dekhAtI hoya. ane yuropiyana leDInI AMkha kevI hoya, bIlADI jevI. bIlADInI AMkha to sArI hoya ! eTale AvuM nA paiNAya. AvuM badhuM zIkhavADavuM paDeluM. e to ema ja jANe ke A upara dekhAya che evo ja mAla mahIM haze ! vartaje ahIM nakkI karyA pramANe; tAtatIte ja hA, pasaMdagI TANe! have te Aje badhuM je yojanA karI, bolyo, e yojanA pramANe vartIza ke yojanAmAM pheraphAra karIza ? praznakartA : nA, e pramANe ja vartIza. dAdAzrI : te kahyuM ke mAre amerikana ke pArasI evuM tevuM nA joIe ane inDiyana joIe. to pachI have evuM koI amerikana ke jJAta kahe paiNyo, te mujaba karma: vyavahAre vAtamAM ja kare e dharma! praznakartA H tamAro zuM abhiprAya, A inTarakAsTa lagnano ? tamAruM maMtavya ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 467 dAdAzrI : amAre maMtavya nA hoya. e to jyAM eno hisAba hoya tyAM ja paiNe che. paNa AmAM abhiprAya ApavAnI jarUra ja zI have rahI ! jene hisAba hoya tyAM ja paiNe che. eTale amane emAM kaMI duHkha nA thAya. e amane noMdha avaLI nA thAya ke A khoTuM karyuM che evuM. hisAba hoya tyAM jaIne paiNe, pachI enuM zuM karavuM ? paNa khulluM nA kahevAya. khulluM to emane kahIe ke 'bhaI, chokarAo, tamArI nAtamAM ja paiNajo.' pachI pariNAma Ave tyAre vaDhIe nahIM. bIjI nAtamAM paiNyo hoya to vaDhIe ya nahIM. hisAba vagara thatuM nathI ne ! A to ame jANIe ke zA AdhAre thAya che. e karato nathI bicAro. e kartA nathI, kartA juduM che. eTale amane enA tarapha e nA rahe, mAmA to pharI bolyA ja nahi. pachI mahIM laI gaI pAchI, ghI. 'bIjuM vadhAre meluM ?" kahe che, pharI jarA. e pAchuM pharI TIpuM pADI gaI. eTale pachI e mahIM gaIne, tyAre mane kahe che, "A mAro bhANo A brAhmaNIne kaMI paiNyo ?" A peluM Ama karIne halAve, te 70 DIgrI sudhI namAve. pATIyuM Ama 0 DIgrI sudhI namAve. eka TIpuM ya nathI paDavA detI. have kaMsAra AkhI rAta khUMcaze, kahe che. jo paDI melIe to ene kharAba lAge, hato thoDo thoDo. AvuM, pANImAM palALavAnuM ? mATe bane tyAM sudhI ApaNe nobala nAta joDe nobalamAM paiNavuM. sahu sahunI nAtano hisAba saMskAra pramANe cAle. paNa kaLiyugamAM badhuM chinna-bhinna thaI gayeluM che. pahelAM to vaiSNavane tyAM vaiSNava ja janmyA kare. atyAre evuM nathI. atyAre to vaiSNavane tyAM jaina janmyo hoya, jainane tyAM vaiSNava janmyo hoya evuM badhuM. A choDIo jema bhAgAbhAga kare che ne evuM. praznakartA : A jaina ane brAhmaNanuM joDuM ema ja thayuM ne ! dAdAzrI : hA. pahelAM to e brAhmaNane nAta bahAra mUke, atyAre nAta bahAra cAle nahIM, koInuM paNa. kAraNa ke nAta bahAra mUkanArAnI choDI jatI rahelI hoya tyAM ! eTale merI bhI cupa ne terI bhI cUpa ! ema karatuM karatuM tUTI gayuM badhuM. InTarakAsTa mereja karavAmAM vAMdho nathI have. pahelA karavAmAM jarA vAMdho hato. eka paTela amArA oLakhANavALA hatAM, sagAMvahAlAM ya thAya. te berAlIsanI sAlamAM amAruM kAma paDyuM. te ghaDIe bolAvyA amane ke 'jarA Avajo ne, amAre ATaluM kAma paDyuM che.' eTale huM ne emanA mAmA, beu tyAM gayAM. tyAre kahe, 'muMbaI javAze tamArAthI ?" meM kahyuM, 'hA, jaIzuM.' tyAre kahe, 'ghera khabara kahevaDAvo.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'kahevaDAvIe." tyAre kahe, 'paNa jamIne, ahIM jamI levuM paDaze." tyAre meM kahyuM, 'ahIM jamIzuM.' te paTela thaIne paiNelA kyAM ? nAgarabrAhmaNane tyAM. moTAM mANasanI, divAnanI choDI. te jAte kahe che, 'tamAre....' kahyuM, 'kAma zuM che e kaho.' tyAre kahe, 'hajAranI noTo kensala karI che. te ApaNI pAse hajAranI noTo che ne, tenuM game tema karIne pheMkI mArI chevaTe vecI devAnI, thoDA thoDA ochAM bhAvamAM, meM kahyuM, 'laI jaIzuM.' te ame beu jaNe keDe bAMdhyA. beeka lAkha hatAM ne te bAMdhyA. ne pachI e kahe, "nA, jamIne javAnuM.' te jamavA beThAM. tyAre kahe, 'kaMsAra to Aja khAvo paDe, zukanano." te brAhmaNIe zukana karelA. te kaMsAra ATalo ATalo mUkyo. tyAM sudhI amane harakata nA AvI. pachI khAMDa mUkI gaI. tyAre pelA enAM mAmAe kahyuM ke 'paheluM ghI lAva.' kahe che. e ghI lAvI. eka TIpuM pADyuM. alyA mUA, kaMsAramAM A palaLavuM ya nA joIe ? pANImAM palALIe ? pANI copaDIne...!! eka TIpuM pADyuM. pachI enAM paradezamAM bahu tAtanI tahi jarUra; gujarAtImAM ja kare to ya zUrA praznakartA : A dezamAM amerikAmAM nAta-jAta jevuM kazuM rahyuM nathI. to tyAM zuM karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : amerikAmAM nAta-jAtanI jarUra ja zuM che ApaNe ? have A inDiyana to kharAne ApaNe ane inDiyanamAM bhASA to ApaNI gujarAtI hoya to ApaNe badhA eka ja chIe ne. bhASA sAmasAmI

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468 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 469 bolatA hoya ane bhASA phITa thatI hoya, to nAta-jAtanI jarUra zuM che have. nAta-jAta to badhuM have ahIM enA phAunDezana kADhI nAkhavAnA che badhA. e ola bilDIMga thaI gayA have badhAM. have navI DIjhAInanuM bilDIMga hovuM joIe. eTale enI meLe ja e khodAI jAya che. nAtajAtanI jarUra nathI. e jarUra hatuM tyAM sudhI TakyuM. have e ola thaI gayuM eTale tarata mahIM UkhaDI jAya. ApaNe to chokarAo gujarAtI joDe paiNe eTaluM banatA sudhI samajaNa pADa-pADa karavI. gujarAtImAM je nAtanA hoya, to paNa gujarAtImAM paiNaje, kahIe. bIjI nAtanI Ave, orissAnI Ave to ApaNI ene bolI nA AvaDe ane enI ApaNane nA AvaDe ane jo amerikAnI paiNato hoya to enA karatAM orissAnI paiNaje, kahIe, amerikana lAvato hoya tenA karatAM ApaNI inDiyana sArI, game tevuM haze to, orissAnI haze to paNa amerikana nA pesI jAya eTaluM jojo. praznakartA : ApaNA hAthamAM kyAM che ? ApaNA hAthamAM nathI ne amerikana pese ke nahIM e ? dAdAzrI : hAthamAM nathI to ya e kaMI vahetuM mUkAya kaMI ? kahevuM to paDe ne, e ya... e amerikana chokarI joDe pharazo nahIM tame. ApaNuM kAma nahIM. evuM tevuM amathA amathA DaphaLAya DaphaLAya karIe to enI meLe asara thAya, iphekTa thAya. nahIM to e jANe ke Aya pharAya ne Aya pharAya. kahevAmAM zuM vAMdho che ane latto kharAba Ave che ne, latto kharAba inDiyAmAM hoya che, to tyAM borDa mAre che, 'bira opha thIsa." zA mATe evuM kahe che ? ke jene cetavuM hoya te cete. kAma lAge ke nA lAge zabda ? kema samajaNa nA paDI tane ? praznakartA : paDI ne, cokkasa. dAdAzrI : ApaNA A cAra varNo che ne, e ya khaMDera sthitimAM ja che atyAre. eTale kharAba lAge che lokone. 'kADhI nAkho' kahyuM, 'enAM phAunDezana sAthe kADhI nAkho, pharI ArasIsInuM phAunDezana nAkhI do.' praznakartA : e kaI rIte nIkaLaze e ? dAdAzrI : phorenamAM e to nIkaLI gayuM have. have rahyuM ja nathI. e tamArAM chokarAone pUchI juo. 'kyAM paiNavuM che tAre ?" meM kahyuM, 'amerikana leDImAM ?" pachI thoDIvAra pachI 'nA, amerikana nahi ?" "to kyAM ?" tyAre kahe, 'inDiyana.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'pelI paMjAbI Ave che te ?" "nA, nA. paMjAbI nahi. ApaNI gujarAtI hovI joIe." meM kahyuM, 'brAhmaNa-vANIyA?" to "e game te cAlaze.' kahe che. hA, eDajasTebala hoya. badhuM brAhmaNa hoya to ya eDajasTebala, vANIyo hoya to ya, paTela hoya to ya eDajasTebala. ghAMcI hoya to ya, vANIyA-ghAMcI hoya che te ya eDajasTebala. ene samajaNa pADuM, eTale pharI hAtha ghAle nahi. - dhoLI amerikana leDI game nahIM tane ! dhoLI bagalAnI pAMkha jevI ! e ApaNI leDIo to cAInA silka jevI dekhAya. praznakartA : dAdA, kyAMthI zIkhI lAvyA cAInA silka ! dAdAzrI : te cAInA silka jevI ja dekhAya che ne ! paNa sArI, pavitra, bahu pavitra, strI jAti che paNa pavitra bahu. kAraNa ke inDiyana saMskAra bahu UMcI jAtanA ne ! AkhI rAta dhaNI joDe laDhI hoya, paNa bahAra koIka dhaNInI vAta kare to ene kharAba lAge. praznakartA : bAraNuM baMdha karI de phaTaphaTa. dAdAzrI : hA. 'bAraNuM baMdha karI do, pachI laDho' kaheze. ane ahIM to merIne jo laDhavADa thayelI koI jANe bIjo bahAravALo, merI kaheze, A dhaNI.. yesa, yesa AI vIla phAyara. ne A phAyara-bAyara nA kare bicArI. dhoLAM karatAM jarA zAmaLAnI kiMmata che, eka phero ghauM levA jatA'tA. tyAre eka jaNa kahe che, "mAre tyAM A ghau che." pelo kahe che, 'mAre tyAM A.' huM nAno hato tyAre meM kahyuM, 'A ghauM to kALA che." tyAre kahe che, "A bhAliyA che, mIThA bahu hoya." alyA kALA mIThA hoya? tyAre kahe, 'hA, kALAM ja mIThAM hoya.' tyAre kyA levA ApaNe ? praznakartA : mIThAzavALA.

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470 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 471 dAdAzrI : evuM che A badhuM jagata. "dha varlDa ijha dha pajhala iTaselpha." te loko mAnI beThA che. cIbhaDAM to game te badhAM, A pArasaNo, badhI ja pelI dhoLI dekhAya ne ? ke gorI dekhAya ? praznakartA : dhoLI dekhAya. dAdAzrI : hA, gorI nA hoya, dhoLI hoya. gorI to hindustAnanI strIo hoya. te ene gorI kahe, gaura raMga, dhoLo nahIM. dhoLo to A badhAM, badhAM ya cIbhaDAM hoya ne badhAM ? - have mokSe javuM che ne ? have khoLavuM nathI ne kazuM ? ahIM tamAre jo AvavuM hoya to ahIM phasAvAnI jagyA che ahIM, tamAre phasAvuM hoya to phasAjo. ahIM to badhAM ToLaTappAM karyA kare che. tamane game che AvuM badhuM ? juvone, ahIM to AvI badhI vAto karIe chIe. A pArasaNobArasaNo, vAto koI karatuM haze dharmamAM ?! kuLa ane jAta banne jovA silekazanamAM; saMskArI bALako janma kombInezatamAM! ghoDI jovA jaIe ne, ghoDI loko levA jAya che vecAtI. tyAre huM nAno hato, te pUchuM. meM kahyuM, zuM tame juo cho A ghoDImAM ? tyAre kahe che, jAtavAna che ke nahi te. alyA mUA jAtavAna ! ane ghoDAne ya jAtavAnano chokaro che ke nahi te jue. ghoDI jAtavAna kahevAya. ghoDo jAtavAna nA hoya. te jAtavAna ghoDI hoya che, eTale loka pAsa karIne laI jAya. evuM A kuLa ne jAti, be sAthe milcara thAya tyAre. ekaluM kuLa lAvIne zuM karavAnuM? koyalA nIkaLe. ekalI jAti joIne lAvo to ya bhalIvAra nA Ave. cIkaNA hoya mUA ! praznakartA : eTale ApaNAmAM mAnuM mosALa jotA'tA ne ? dAdAzrI : eTale e jAtanI ya jAta jotA'tAM ApaNe, e paNa eTaluM badhuM jovAnI jarUra nahi. A jAta kevI che A baInI jAta, baI je kuLamAM janmI che enI jAta kevI che, eTale enI jAta parathI tarata khabara paDI jAya ane bApa kuLamAM janme che, enuM kuLa kevuM che e joI laIe. kuLanA guNo che judA ane jAtanAM guNo judA che. be bhegAM thAya tyAre saMskArI puruSa tyAM janma. ema ne ema to hoya ja nahi ne ApaNuM ? ema ne ema to A bAjarInAM DuMDA AvaDAM moTAM AvatAM haze ?! kAM to ko'ka jAtanuM khAtara nAkhyuM hoya tethI Ave e judI vastu che, khAtaranI vastu judI che. ane ema ne ema jamInamAM enI meLe Ave, Uge kAraNa ke bAjarIno dANo ene jo ApaNe bApano pakSa gaNIe to dharatIne mA pakSa gaNIe, to e sUjha paDe ApaNane. bApa sAro hoya ane dharatI rAzI hoya to zuM karo ? dharatI sArI hoya ne bApa evo hoya to. eTale mA pakSane jAti kahI ? samajavuM joIe ne ? kuLavAna ! corI karaze. gajavAM kApI jaze mUA. bIjuM joje. nA jovuM paDe badhuM ? zuM kaho cho ? praznakartA : jovuM paDe banne. dAdAzrI : paNa chevaTe vyavasthitano hisAbe ! pAchuM pelAM TIppaNuM kADhanArAne temanI choDI rAMDe, tyAre A ya duniyA cAle ja chene ! ApaNI choDI nA rAMDe eTalA hAruM enI pAse TIkhaNuM kaDhAvIe ! tyAre jAti-kuLanuM milcara thAya tyAre saMskAra Ave. ekalI jAti hoya, ane kuLa nA hoya to ya saMskAra nA hoya. ekaluM kuLa hoya, jAti nA hoya to ya saMskAra nA hoya. jAti ane kuLa benuM milcara, ekajhekTanesa hoya tyAre saMskArI mANaso janma. praznakartA : jAti eTale A varNa ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, evuM nahi. huM samajAvuM. ekaluM kuLavAna, kuLavAna kahIe paNa jAta nA joIe to mAra paDI jAya. have phAdhara pakSane kuLa kahyuM ane mA pakSane jAti kahI. A beu pakSo sArA bhegA thayA hoya to vAta pUchavI, bIjI vAtamAM majhA nahi. jAti nA hoya to kuLa rakhaDI mare. jAti nA hoya tyAre e cora hoya, gIleTiyA hoya, badamAza hoya. pattAM rame bIjuM rame, dArU Thoke. kuLavALo to nobala hoya. ane jAti to, ApaNe jyAre bajAramAM

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472 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 473 mane loka kahe che, "choDI devuM ?" meM kahyuM, 'bhaI, choDI nA dezo. A nimitta che." praznakartA ApaNe kahIe chIe ne ke vaidanAM mare nahi ne joSInAM rAMDe nahi. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa te zabda vAparavA jevo nathI e. kAraNa ke nimitta chUTI jAya. nimitta joIe. nimittanI jarUra badhuM. DaoNkTara kaMI marI nA jAya ? juone, pezanTo mahIM badhA kahetA'tA mane, kahe che, ame ahIM AgaLa DaoNkaTaranAM pezanTa chIe ne DaoNkaTara jatA rahyA, kahyAM karyA vagara. temAM kahevAya nA UbhAM rahyA. emanAthI ya gharaDo hato mahIM eka pezanTa te kahe, huM to emanAMthI gharaDo hato, paNa mane mukIne jatAM rahyAM, kahe che ! alyA mUA, emanAM phAdharane mUkIne jatA rahyA temAM tAro hisAba zo te ? kahyuM. nA, A to AvuM. e DaoNkaTara paNa nimitta to kharAM ja ne ! nimitta mAtra !! tame jenAM nimitta hoya te nimittamAM huM nimitta nA banAvuM to mArI bhUla che. huM jemAM nimitta houM te tame gAMTho nahi, to tamArI bhUla che, nahi ? praznakartA : barobara che. dAdAzrI : eTale mA jAtavAna hovI joIe. bApa kuLavAna hovo joIe. e prajA bahu UMcI hoya. jAtimAM guNa nA hoya avaLA ane bApanA kuLavAna prajAnA guNa hoya. kuLanA ThaThArA sahita, ko'kane mATe ghasAya. lokonA mATe ghasAya. bahu UMcA kuLavAna koNa, banne bAju ghasAya. AvatAM ya vere ne jatAM ya vere ane nahIM to jagatanA loko kuLavAna kevA kahevAya ? eka bAju verAya pote. letI vakhate pUruM le paNa ApatI vakhate jarA sAruM Ape, tolo ya vadhAre Ape. pelA ya cAlIsa tolA de, paNa pote ektAlIsa tolA Ape. jyAre Dabala kuLavAna koNa kahevAya ? pote ogaNacAlIsa tolA le. eka tolo tyAM ocho le ane ahIM eka tolo vadhAre Ape e Dabala kuLavAna kahevAya. beu bAju ghasAya eTale tyAM ochuM zA mATe le ? pelo enI jAtano duHkhI che, javA do ne ! enuM du:kha kADhavA mATe ! ahIMyA ya lAgaNI ne tyAM ya lAgaNI. evA mANasane jouM tyAre zuM kaheto hato, A dvAparIyA AvyA. meM kahyuM, A chokarA dvAparIyA che. dvAparamAM AvuM hatuM. atyAre A kaLiyugamAM kyAMthI hoya, kaLiyugamAM to beu bAju, ko'ka to letA ya daMDo mAre ApaNane ane ApatAM ya daMDo mAre. have UMcuM kuLa hoya ane ahaMkAra kare kuLano, to nIcA kuLamAM janma thAya, bIjI vAra ene nIcuM kuLa hoya ane namratA keLave to UMcAmAM Ave. basa ApaNI ne ApaNI ja A keLavaNI che, khetIvADI ApaNI ne ApaNI ja. pelA guNo kaMI ApaNe prApta karavA nahIM paDatA, sahaja prApta thAya che, tyAM UMcA kuLamAM janme eTale ApaNane janmathI ja A badhA saMskAra maLe ! praznakartA H eTale A kuLa je che te UMcuM maLyuM ke nIcuM maLyuM, eno kaMI harSa ke kheda nA rAkhavo joIe ne ! dAdAzrI : hA, e barAbara che. harSa nA hovo eTale ahaMkAra nahIM. eno kepha nahIM rAkhavo joIe. nIcuM maLyuM hoya to inphirIyArITI kopleksa (laghutAgraMthi) nahIM rAkhavI, plasa-mAInasa karyA karavuM. - lokamAnya hoya e UMcuM kuLa, bIjuM zuM ! emAM kuLamAM bIjo koI phera nathI. moTA zeThano chokaro hoya, ane zeThanA pitarAI hoya, garIba hoya, eno chokaro hoya paNa zeThanuM kuLa vadhAre. e to zeThanuM kuLa UMcuM gaNAya. ane pelo che te paisA-baisA ochuM ane bIjuM badhuM ochuM, eTale evuM halakuM dekhAya. paNa jyAre guNamAM pelA zeThano chokaro vAMko pAke, eTale peluM halakuM dekhAya ane peluM pAchuM UMcuM dekhAya. ane kuLa ekaluM cAle nahIM, kuLavAnanA chokarA corIo kare che. dArU pIve che. mAMsAhAra kare che, badhuM ja kare che. te tethI amArA gheDiyAo zodhakhoLa karelI ke kuLa ekaluM jozo nahIM, jAti hau jojo. A badhI vyavahAramAM kAmanI vAto. A kaMI jJAnanI vAto nathI. paNa vyavahAramAM, vyavahAra joIe ne ! praznakartA : paNa dAdA Ape kIdhuM barAbara che, vyavahAramAM jJAnanI vAto paNa jJAnanI agAsI sudhI pahoMcatA vyavahAramAM chIe, to vyavahAranI aMdara A vAto ya kAmamAM lAge ne !

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474 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 475 dAdAzrI : hA, kAmamAM Ave ne ! vyavahArathI ya sAruM cAle. e 'jJAnI purUSanI' pAse, 'jJAnI puruSamAM vizeSatA hoya, bodhakaLA ane jJAnakaLA banne kaLA hoya. A bodhakaLA e sUjhathI utpanna thayelI che. ane jJAnakaLA jJAnathI utpanna thaI eTale tyAM ApaNo niveDo Ave. koI dahADo AvI vAtacIta karI hoya. to vAMdho zuM emAM ? ApaNane zuM nukasAna javAnuM che ? 'dAdA' yu beThAM hoya che, emanI phI hotI nathI. phI hoya to vAMdho Ave ! kabIrave maLI tevI maLe to paiNAya; nahi to kuMvArA rahI, AtmA sadhAya! ane A badhA brahmacArIo phAvI gayA ke amAre to sAruM thayuM, A brahmacarya levAnuM nakkI karyuM che. eka paraNelA joDAnA AcAra-vicAra ahIM AgaLa joyAM, ahIMyA dhIme dhIme joyA. te A badhA brahmacArIo e nakkI karyuM ke A to ApaNe A badhuM nakkI karyuM che te ja sAruM che ! juone A sukha to UghADuM dekhAya che ne ! tethI kabIra sAhebe kahyuM ne ke AvI maLe to paiNaje. praznakartA : kevI maLe to ? dAdAzrI : kabIra sAhebane strI hatI, tamane TAIma hoya to vAta karuM kabIra sAhebanI, e badhI vAto kahevAya ! praznakartA : hAjI karone. dAdAzrI : eTale kabIra sAheba pote dhoLe divase bapore kApaDa vaNatA hatA. vaNakarano dhaMdhone, te paNa jhUMpaDInI bahAra. jhuMpaDI to nAnI emAM zI rIte kApaDanI zALa karAya ? lAMbI joIe, eTale jhUMpaDInI bahAra taDakAmAM eka jhADa hatuM te thoDIvAra ThaMDaka Ave, paNa Akho dahADo taDakAmAM Ama ThakAThaka, ThakAThaka karyA kare. eka emano ziSya hato te pUchavA Avyo, vIsa varSano thayo tyAre kahe, sAheba mArA vivAha karavAnuM pUchavA AvyA che mANaso, te mAre paiNavuM ke nA paiNavuM ? e mane kaMIka kaho. e sAheba ene gAMThyA nahI. sAheba to vAto sAMbhaLIne emanI zALa ThakAThaka ThakAThaka kare, ane bIjI ja vAto kara kara kare. pelo pUche che ene uDADI karIne pachI bIjI ja vAto kare. ema karatAM karatAM covIsa varSano thayo tyAM sudhI che te AmaNe javAba nA Apyo. eTale covIsa varSano thayo tyAre loka zuM kahe che, have tuM moTo thayo te rahI jaIza pachI. mATe paiNI nAkha jhaTapaTa. eTale e kaMTALI gayo ke have jo nahIM paiNIza to rakhaDI marIza. eTale tyAM sAhebane zuM kahe che ke sAheba mane kAM to nA kahI do ne kAM to hA kahI do, bemAMthI eka kahI do. have sAheba, lAMbuM mArAthI nahIM nabhe. eTale sAheba samajI gayA ke akaLAI uThyo che A chokaro. kabIra sAheba emanI jhuMpaDInI bahAra beThAM'tAM. jhuMpaDInI bahAra zALo goThavelI hatI. zALanA mATe Ama khADo karavo paDe. te khADAmAM paga hoya ane paga pachI Ama thacATa, thacATa, thacATa, cATa upara zeDabeDa kazuM ya nahIM. jhUMpaDI ya nahIM. jhUMpaDI to ahIM pAchaLa rahI. te pelAM che te tyAM zALonuM kApaDa vaNe. tyAM AgaLa pelo ziSya AvIne beTho. kahe che, Aja to cokhkhuM kahI do. mAre to pUchavA AvanArA jatAM rahe che. pachI have chellI vAra pUchavA AvuM chuM. gharavALA badhAe kaheluM ke have chellI vAra pUchaje. have pUchavA nahIM AvuM. eTale tame je te kaho, kAM to nA kaho to nA paiNuM ane tame kaho to paiNuM, nahIM to nahIM paNuM. te kabIra sAheba to A pelo bola bola kare paNa kaMI bolatA nathI. pachI pelAe bIjI vakhata pUchayuM. thoDIvAra thaIne rAha joIne kahe, sAheba, mAruM kaMIka bolone, A tame tamAruM vaNavaNa karyA karo cho, paNa mAruM kazuM bolatA nathI.' to ya kabIra sAhebe pAchuM sAMbhaLyuM ane thoDIvAra pachI thacATa thacATa karavA mAMDyA. emane pelo ziSya akaLAyo nahIM, paNa ziSyanA manamAM ema thayuM ke AvuM kema kare che teo ? eTale trIjI vakhata UgharANI karIne, to ya kazuM bolyA nahIM. pachI eTaluM bolyA, "are bIbIsA'ba', tyAre mahIMthI bIbI bolI, 'hA, sA'ba !' are, dIvo lAvo joIe.' have savAranA sADA dasa thayelA, ajavALuM pharsTaklAsa. bIbIsAhebane kahe che, A dIvo lAvo. te bIbIsAheba to aMdarathI dIvo saLagAvavA gayAM. khaDiyo ja sto. te eka khaDiyo nahIM,

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476 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 477 be khaDIyA laIne AvyA. pachI kabIra sAheba jyAM AgaLa e kAma karatA hatA, tyAM pAchaLa bIbIsAheba AvIne UbhA rahyAM, be khaDiyA Ama jhAlIne UbhA rahyA. have sADA dasanuM ajavALuM ne enI mahIM be khaDiyA baLyA kare. pelo ziSya to ajAyaba thaI gayo ke A zuM che te ! mAruM bolatA nathI ne emanuM kara kara karyA kare che. have bIbIe bolatAM nahotAM ke huM AvI ne, A khaDiyo laIne AvI. tame bolatA kema nathI ? jANe dIvI hoya ne ema UbhA rahyA. dIvI tame joyelI ? hA. enI para dIvo hoya paNa dIvAne kazuM halAve nahIM, pADI nA nAkhe. kazuM ya nA kare. ema dIvInI peTha pAchaLa UbhA rahyAM. bolatAM ya nathI ke A tame dIvo maMgAvyo te Avyo, baherA cho ke nahIM ? evuM kazuM bolatAM nathI. pachI kabIra sAheba pAchaLa joIne kahe, "ohoho ! tame AvyA cho ? tyAre pelAM kahe, 'hamaNe AvI chuM.' tyAre kahe, 'have jarUra nathI. laI jAo.' eTale pelAM pAchA gayA. tyAra pachI pAchuM hatuM te thacATa, thacATa karavA mAMDyA. pelAne kazuM khabara nA paDI. pelo to jANe ke emanI bIbInI ja vAta karyA kare che. mArI vAta nathI karatA. eTale pachI pelo ziSya kahe che, 'sAheba mAruM kazuM kaho ne, tamane je phAve e, emAM vAMdho nahIM ! nA kaho to huM nA nakkI karI nAkhuM.' tyAre kabIra sAheba kahe, 'meM kahyuMne tane !" tyAre pelo kahe, 'kazuM bolyA nathI tame, cokkasa kahuM chuM huM.' tyAre kabIra sAheba kahe "A je che ne, evI maLe to paiNaje, nahIM to paiNIza nahIM.' te pelAne samajaNa zuM paDe, AmAM kevI A bIbI ? e jANe ke 'A jADI che', eTale ema kahe che ke "A jADI che evI tuM paiNaje (2) pAtaLI nA lAvIza.' eTale pachI kabIra sAheba hAka pADI ke "jADIpAtaLI nA joIza, kALI-gorI nA joIza, AvI hoya to paiNaje.' AvI eTale jo meM dhoLe dahADe kahyuM, dIvo lAva, to bIjI bairI hoya na to kaheze, tamArI AMkho phUTelI che te ahIM dIvo maMgAvo cho. AMdhaLA mUA cho ? bahAra ATalA ajavALAmAM zuM joIne dIvA maMgAvo cho ? zarama nathI AvatI ? evuM mahIMthI gALo ja de de karyA kare. paNa A to juo, akSare ya bolyAM nathI, ne eka dIvo maMgAvyo te be dIvA laIne AvyA ne te pAchA Ama AvIne vinayapUrvaka UbhAM rahyAM. pAchaLathI akSare ya duHkha nA dIdhuM. 'AvI maLe to paiNaje.' tyAre kahe, "sAheba, AvI to maLe ja nahIM." tyAre kabIra sAheba kahe, 'paiNyA vagara rahene mUA. kuMvAro paDI rahe ne chAnomAno. haju zI AbarU bagADavI, tenAM karatAM paDI rahe ne." zuM kabIra sAheba khoTuM kaMI kahe che AmAM ? ane koIka puNyazALI hoya to maLI jAya mahIM !! AvuM sAMbhaLe eTale pote nakkI kare ne ! anubhava eTale zuM ? vAta to sAMbhaLavI joIe ne ? paiNI gayA mATe paiNavAnI vAta nA sAMbhaLavI evuM kyAM laoN che ? jo kabIra sAhebe sAruM kahyuM che ne ? kevI maLI hatI, kabIra sAhebane ?! patine paramezvara mAnIne te AjJA pALe che, e strIno mokSa thAya ke nA thAya ? tyAre kahe che, paMdara avatAramAM to jarUra thAya. praznakartA : pati paNa paramezvara jevo hovo joIe ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, pati e DhIko mArato hoya, to zI rIte paramezvara mAne ? paramezvara DhIko mAratA haze ? ke kabIro mArato haze bIbIne ? mAre to AvI dazA hoya ? A to thappaDa mArI de. paheluM rAma thavuM paDe. to e sItA thAya. ApaNA loko to ema ne ema, 'tuM sItA thaI jA, sItA thaI jA', kaheze. tamAre ya jo meLa paDe to, 'AnA jevI maLe to paiNI javuM, nahIM to nahIM. bIjAnI joDe paiNavuM ja nahIM." evuM nakkI karI nAkhavAnuM ! A to raste caDhelA, e roDa upara caDhelA, pachI pAchA AvavAnuM to bahu thAka lAge ne baLyuM ! ane pelo to roDa upara caDhyo ja nahIMne tyAM AgaLa. A to e roDa upara caDhelA ane e ya AnA jevI maLe to paiNavuM, nahIM to paiNavA jevuM nathI. mane ya hIrAbA maLyAM che, chottera varSanAM che, te mane ya evA maLyA che. nathI mane koI dahADo herAna karyo, amAre to cAlIsa varSathI to matabheda ja nahIM paDyo. matabheda paDe tyAre bhAMjagaDa ne !

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478 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 439 - kabIra sAhebane kevI maLI ne lokone kevI maLI ? jo judI judI jAtanI maLe che ne ! kabIra sAhebe dhoLe dahADe dIvA maMgAvyA, te dIvA bahAra laIne AvyA. eka maMgAvyA to be laIne AvyA. AvI maLatI hoya to paiNavAmAM vAMdho nathI koIne. praznakartA : dahADe to zuM paNa rAte dIvo maMgAvIe, to ya kahe ke bhALatAM nathI ? betALAM AvyAM ? evuM kahe. dAdAzrI : tethI kabIra sAhebe kahyuM'tuM, AvI maLe to paiNaje, nahIM to paiNIza nahIM. paiNavA jevuM nathI jagata. praznakartA : have A to goLa hato ke cAkhIne laI laIe ? A to kaI cakhAya evuM che ? dAdAzrI : nA. e to badhAnA hisAba cUkavAya che. jene jevo joIe ne, te hisAba che A. A hisAbamAM pharI pAchI Dakhala nA thAya tyAMthI ja cokhkhuM thaI jAya. samabhAve nikAla karI nAkhe, thaI gayuM cokhkhuM. ya nA kahe che. to Ane zuM joItuM haze ?' meM kahyuM, 'chokarAne khAnagImAM kaho ne ke tArI mA AvI rIte hoto lAvyo." pachI meM emane AzvAsana ApyuM. have A chokarAone e bicArAnAM hAthamAM sattA nathI. e ya bicArA parasattAthI bole che. pachI eka dahADo chokaro ja sAmethI kahe che, mAre ATha dahADA rahyA. pappA, have jo tamAre dekhADavI hoya to dekhADI do have nahIM to pachI huM jato rahIza. tyAre enA phAdhara kahe che, 'bhaI tuM nA pADe che eTale huM zuM dekhADuM, have ?" pelo chokaro kahe che, 'to ya ekAda-be dekhADo." eTale pappAe ko'kane hA pADI. tyAre pelo zuM kahe che ? huM ko'kane ghera nahIM dekhADuM. kharAba dekhAya. huM to ANaMdanA sTezana para dekhADIza. tyAM A chokarAne teDI lAvajo. tyAre Amane garaja eTale sTezana para AvyA. ko'kane ghera jAya paNa nApAsa kare eTale lokomAM phajeta thAya ne. sArI chokarIne pelo nApAsa kare ! enI mAne nathI joto, blekIza che to ya ! te pachI e sTezana para dekhADI. te chokaro kahe che, "basa karI nAkho. A ja mAre pasaMda che. ahIM karI ja nAkhone, have !"alyA mUA A to sTezana che. pleTaphorma upara ahIM thatuM haze ?" tyAre e kahe, "nA. A ja, ahIM ja jaldI mukI do." tyAre pelAM kahe che, "nA thAya, e to muhUrta kADhavuM paDe ane AvuM te sTezana upara nA thAya.' te pAchuM ene samajAvI karIne be dahADA pachI goThavI dIdhuM ane bahAra hola hato tyAM lagna karI nAkhyuM. have A to tyAM ne tyAM sTezana upara lagna karI nAkhavAnuM kahe, e zI rIte thAya ? e thatuM haze ? paNa AvA bhAna vagaranAM bole !! eTale A badhuM zuM che ? te bahu jovAnI jarUra nathI. yuvakayuvatIo jovA jaIe ane AkarSaNa nA thAya to baMdha rAkhavuM. bIjI DIjhAIna jovAnI jarUra nathI. AkarSaNa thAya che ke nahIM eTaluM ja jovAnuM. praznakartA: kaI jAtanuM AkarSaNa ? dAdAzrI : A AMkhanuM AkarSaNa thAya nahIM eTrekzana thAya. tame koI vastu evI levAnA hoya bajAramAM, to e vastunuM eTrekzana thAya dekhatAM ja mahIMthI thAya AkarSaNa; pasaMdagInuM vaijJAtika A dhoraNa! praznakartA : yuvAna-yuvatIoe lagnajIvanamAM pravezatAM pahelAM strI agara puruSanI pasaMdagI kevI rIte karavI ? ane zuM karavuM ? zuM jovuM ? guNo kevI rIte jovA ? enI carcA karo. dAdAzrI : ahIM amerikAthI inDiyA badhA Ave che, te peparamAM paheluM chapAvaDAve che ke grInakArDavALA AvyA che. enI jAherAta Ape ke kayo mAla vecavAno che te. grInakArDavALo mAla vecavAno che. eTale pelI yuvatI jANe ke A mAla sAro Avyo che, tyAM jaIne ApaNe majhA karIzuM. te choDInA bApa dekhADavA Ave vArApharatI, poTalAM UMcakI UMcakIne, pelo chokaro to nA ne nA pADe che. aThyAvIsa dahADA mATe AvelA hoya. te pachI eka jaNanA phAdhara to kaMTALI gayA hatA. te mane kahe che ke, huM Avyo tyArathI badhe jo jo kare che lokonuM, ane mane lokomAM khoTo dekhADe che. kevI rUpALI rUpALI chokarIo dekhADI che. to

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra nahIM to tame laI zako ja nahIM. eTale eno hisAba hoya to ja eTrekzana thAya. kudaratanA hisAba vagara koI paiNI zakato nathI. eTale eTrekzana thavuM joIe. 480 chokarAMone samaja pADo ke lagna karavAnI rIta zuM hoya ? tAre jaIne choDIne jovI ne AMkhathI AkarSaNa thAya e ApaNuM lagna nakkI ja che ane AkarSaNa nA thAya to ApaNe baMdha rAkhavuM. kAraNa ke ApaNuM ne enuM lagna thavAnuM hoya to eTrekzana thAya. e kALI hoya to ya eTrekzana thAya. chokarIte pheravIte jue chokarAM; ghora apamAna, strIte mAte photarAM! paiNavA jAya che, te pelIne zuM kahe che ? Ama pharo joIe ! e zuM joto haze pheravIne !? praznakartA : e badhA sapramANa che, kema che e badhuM jue. sauMdarya jue enuM nIrakhe pAchuM. dAdAzrI : sauMdarya to moDhA upara dekhAya, paNa badhuM sapramANa che ke nahIM ? pUMTha keTalI jADI che ? e badhuM jue mUo pheravIne. A to mazkarI ja che ne, strIonI mazkarI ja kahevAya ne ? praznakartA : mazkarI kahevAya. dAdAzrI : kevaDI moTI mazkarI ! A mazkarI karavAno jamAno che, te strIonI mazkarI thaI rahI che. Ama pharo, tema pharo. atyAre to chokarAo chokarInI pasaMdagI karatA pahelAM bahu gUMthe che. 'bahu UMcI che, bahu nIcI che, bahu jADI che, bahu pAtaLI che, jarA kALI che.' mera cakkara, eka chokaro AvuM bolato hato, tene meM to khakhaDAvyo. meM kahyuM 'tArI madhara hau vahu thatI hatI. tuM kaI jAtano mANasa che te ?" strIonuM ATaluM badhuM ghora apamAna ! jo loko kahe ke tamane chUTa che jAva, A chokarAne je kahevuM hoya mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ke te kaho, e chokaro kahe ke mane kahevuM hoya te kaho, to huM kahuM ke mUA bheMsa che te AvuM jouM chuM ?! bheMsane cogaradamathI jovAnI hoya. 481 mUA, zarama nathI AvatI ? naMgoDo ! strIonuM apamAna kare che A chokarAo ! kevI chokarIo bicArI !! paNa Ama pharo, tema pharo, kaheze ! kaI jAtanA naMgoDo cho mUA ?! paNa have amArAthI kazuM bolAya nahIM ne ! ame kaMI rAjA chIe, A duniyAnAM mAlika chIe ? mAlikI vagaranAM mAlika !! ane AjakAla to chokarIo hau kahetI thaI gaI che ke 'jarA Ama pharo to ? tame jarA kevA dekhAva cho ?' juo, ApaNe Ama jovAnI 'sisTama' kADhI to A veza thayone ApaNo ? enA karatAM 'sisTama' ja nA pADIe to zuM khoTuM ? A ApaNe lapharuM ghAlyuM to ApaNane e lapharuM vaLagyuM ! ane bApAne pUchane, ke tame mAne AvI rIte teDI lAvyA hatA ?! paNa AvuM bolAya nahIMne, avinayavALuM. ene kevuM du:kha thAya. A to phAdharane kaheze, mane dekhADo kaheze. ane jue to kaheze, Ama pharo, tema pharo. mUA kaMI gAya-bheMsa che ke tuM pherava pherava kare che ! jADAI-pAtaLAI joI. alyA, tuM pAtaLuM laIza ne pachI jADuM thaI jaze to ?! vagara kAmanA pherava pherava kare che ! te huM ene samajaNa pADuM chuM ke paiDI thaze tyAre kevI dekhAze e tane kalpanAmAM Ave che ? te vakhate kevI dekhAvAnI che ? pachI cItarI caDhaze. enA karatAM je hoya e bhale, kahIe. A to jema jema enA aMga-baMga pheraphAra thatA jAyane tema ene kaMTALo Ave paNa kahevAya nahIM ne sahevAya nahIM. ane strI tarIke che ne, dhaiDapaNa che to ya strI ane juvAnImAM ya strI, evI rIte karyuM hoya to zuM khoTuM bhaI ? jANI joIne muzkelImAM mUkAya che ne loko ! vALaze badalo strIo svayaMvaramAM; vAro Avaze emato TUMka samayamAM! eTale Ano badalo kyAre Ape che strIo, e jANo cho ? A mazkarI karI teno ? eTale pachI AnuM phaLa zuM maLe che e chokarAone ?

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482 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 483 nA jAya? ane pelI kahe ke nA, mane sInemA nathI gamatuM. eTale UDI gayuM. A to phayujha ja UDI jAya. A te kaMI lAIpha che ?! eTale mahIM AkarSaNa thAya ApaNane to tyAM lagna karavuM. be-traNa vakhata tapAsa karavI. ne kheMcANa thAya nahIM, to e kensala. praznakartA : be-cAra vakhata maLavuM joIe kharuM ? dAdAzrI : maLavA javAya, evA saMjogo bane to ya vAMdho nathI. na bane to ya vAMdho nathI. paNa AkarSaNa thavuM joIe. mukhya 'laoN' ATalo ja ! A to pahelAM zuM karatA hatA? joyA vagara ja ema ne ema karI AvatA hatA. amArA vakhatamAM to gora jaIne karI Ave. gora eTale ApaNA je brAhmaNa hoyane, te jyAMthI mAguM AvyuM hoyane, tyAM gora jaI Ave ane pachI kanyAnI UMmara badhuM pUchI karI Ave. paiThaNIyA vara, A kevI sodAbAjI?! ta prema, tyAM jIvanamAM dagAbAjI! e pachI strIo ochI thAya che ane puruSo vadhI jAya che. eka phero atyAre strIo vadhI gaI che. e mAla je vadhI jAyane, teno bhAva UtarI jAya. DuMgaLI vadhI gaI hoya to DuMgaLIno bhAva ocho thaI jAya ane DuMgaLI nA hoya, ochI thaI gaI hoya, ne paravaLa vadhI gayA hoya, to paravaLano bhAva ghaTI jAya. paravaLa ja sArAM che, evo kazo niyama nathI. je ghaTI gayuM, teno bhAva vadhI jAya. A zikAgomAM herakaTIMga salunavALA badhA ghaTI gayA hoyane, badhA kaMTALIne bhAgI gayA hoyane, ne bahu ja thoDA rahyA hoya, to vALa kapAvavA vakIlanI lAIna lAge AkhI bahAra. vakIlone lAInamAM ubhA rahevuM nA paDe ? kema pelAonI kiMmata vadhI gaI ? kAraNa ke vALa kApanArA ochA che ane vakIlo vadhAre che. je vadhAre tenI kiMmata ghaTI jAya. te A strIo vadhelI che. tethI bicArInI A kiMmata ghaTI che. kudarata ja AvuM karAve che. have AnuM rIekzana kyAre Ave ? badalo kyAre maLe che ? jyAre strIo ghaTI jAya che ane puruSo vadhI jAya che, tyAre strIo zuM kahe che ? svayaMvarapaNuM karo. eTale e paiNanArI ekalI ane A ekasone vIsa. svayaMvaramAM badhA pheMTA-beMTA paherIne TAITa thaIne AvyA hoya ne muMcha Ama Ama karatA hoya ! pelInI rAha jotA hoya ke A kyAre mane varamALA paherAve. pelI jotI jotI Ave. pelo jANe ke mane paherAvaze. Ama DokuM hala AgaLa karavA jAya. paNa pelI gAMThe ja nahIMne ! pachI jayAre enuM dila mahIM ekAkAra thAya, kheMcANa thAya, tene varamALA paherAve. pachI e mUcho AmaLato hoya ke nA AmaLato hoya. e pachI mazkarI thAya. A DagalAM mukha thaIne cAlyA jAya pachI, Ama Ama karIne. te A evI mazkarI thayelI, A sAmo badalo maLe che !! eTale strIo joDe AvuM apamAna nahIM karavuM joIe. lagna sArI jagyAe karajo ane sAmAne kahI devuM ke "AI DonTa vonTa Tu insalTa yu." A to ene pUche ke sInemA jovA AvIza ke nahIM ? alyA, sInemAne topane bAre caDhAvavuM che ? sAthe rahetI hoya to sInemA jovA praznakartA : dAdA, emano prazna to bahu moTo che. puruSane jyAre chokarI ApavAmAM Ave tyAre e peluM mAMge chene, paiThaNa mAMge che ke kaMIka mAMge che. to evuM kema puruSa mAMge che ? chokarAvALAo. dAdAzrI : evuM chene ke ApaNe ahIM AgaLa che te ghaNAM vakhata amuka vastuno bhAva bahu hoya, zAkabhAjIno. dIvALI para eka rUpiye kIlo maLatuM hatuM ane unALAmAM ATha rUpiye kIlo maLe evuM hoya che, bane che. te ApaNe kahIe ke bhaI, ATha rUpiyA kema rAkhyA che, eka rUpiyAne badale ? to e zuM kahe ? praznakartA : paNa dAdA to pachI e to komoDiTI, vyApArajanya vastu thaI gaI ne e to. dAdAzrI : e vyApAra ja thaI gayo che. e vyApAra ja che badho. nathI ApatA, temAM ya vyApAra che. koI game te sonuM Ape. pAMca tolA, to pAMca tolA. badho vyApAra ja che A. lagna ya vyApAra che.

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484 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 485 praznakartA : hA, paNa dAdA atyAre ApaNA hindustAnamAM ThokI ThokIne kahe che ke lagna e eka saMskAra che. dAdAzrI : saMskArarUpe rahyuM ja nathI ne. atyAre to vyApArarUpe thayuM che ne, che saMskAra mULa. paNa te saMskArarUpe kyAM rahyuM che ! atyAre to nakkI karyuM hoya ke bhaI, pAMca tolA sonuM ApavuM eTale pAMca tolA pelo nA Ape to kacakaca cAle. enuM nAma saMskAra nA kahevAya. amAre tyAM eka jaNane paiThaNa ApIne laI gayelA, nAnA gAmavALAne. bhAre paiThaNa ApIne laI gayA. pelo mAla, sAruM lAkaDuM gaNAtuM hatuM. lAkaDA lAkaDAmAM phera nahIM ! sAganA ne pelA jaMgalI ne badhA lAkaDA hoya ne. eTale sAganuM laI Ave pachI bhAre kiMmata cUkavIne ! pachI che te pahele ANe pachI baI AvavA detA nhotA. pachI have paiThaNa le. pahele ANe baI AvIne te pAchI paiThaNano cotho bhAga mAMge, vana phortha. have dasa hajAra paiThaNa ApelI hoya e kALamAM ane pachI aDhI hajAra zI rIte Ape pelo bicAro. eTale pachI pelo teDavA Avyo te vahune nA mokalI ke rUpiyA ApIza to mokalIza, nahIM to nahIM. eTale pelo ya mAthAno bhAre hato. te pachI kahe che, "huM tamane thoDA vakhata pachI rUpiyA mokalI ApIza, paNa ene mokalo hamaNe.' te Ane laI gayA ane pharI pAchI Ane vaLAvI pAchI. pachI che te pAchuM pharI pAchuM jyAre mokalavAnuM thayuM bIjuM ApyuM. tyAre kahe che, ke 'pahelA ANAnAM aDhI hajAra ne bIjA ANAnA bAraso ApI jAva. pahelA ANAnAM ApyA nathI.' eTale pelAe AvIne zuM kahyuM, e chokarInA sasarAne, khAnagImAM ke 'tame moTA mANasa sugaMdhIvALA, AbarUdAra jANIne meM tamane mAre tyAM vevAI banAvyAM. mArI paristhiti nathI.' eTale pelA vevAI zuM kahe che, 'to ahIM paiNAvI'tI zuM karavAM? ahIM AgaLa to avAya ja nahIM ! alyA, paNa Avyo to Avyo paNa have.... yu eTale pelo ya mAthAno pharelo hato. te vevAIne kahe che, "jarA kAnamAM mAre eka vAta karavI che, sAMbhaLazo ? A choDIne mAre bIjI jagyAe paiNAvI devI paDaze have, kahe, 'huM nAtare daI daIza." te pelo bApajI, tuM have mAre tyAM Avaze ya nahIM bA. have A tArI choDI tAre ghera mokaluM ya nahIM ane mAre tAro rUpiyo joIto ya nathI." pachI choDIne duHkha nahIM dIdhuM. kAraNa ke khAnadAna kvaoNliTI Ama to ! praznakartA : paNa dAdA, e to bahu hiMmatavALo kahevAya. dAdAzrI : koNa ? praznakartA: chokarIno bApa. dAdAzrI : hiM, e hiMmatavALo nahIM, akkalavALo. hiMmatavALA to badhA bahu hoya. e to lAkaDAM dekhADe, dhArIyA dekhADe. paNa A to akkalavALo, e jANe ke khAnadAna che A badhA, zuM deze ? nAtarAnuM nAma dIdhuM ke tarata cUpa thaI gayA. e to pachI kare loko AvuM badhuM. bAkI paiThaNa Ape che, e to enuM lAkaDuM joIne Ape che, bA. ema ne ema velyuezana ApatA nathI. praznakartA : ema kahe che. ApaNA pATIdAra samAjamAM paiThaNano rivAja che te ane jo paiThaNa nA Ape athavA to kaMI ochuM-vatuM thAya to pachI choDIne duHkha Ape sAsarImAM to kahe A rivAja khoTo che. kahe che, A nA hovo joIe ! dAdAzrI : koIne duHkha ApavuM e rivAja khoTA. jyAM koIne du:kha ApavAnuM thAya e rivAja badhA ya khoTAM. praznakartA : A rivAja kADhI nAkhavA zuM karavuM joIe ! dAdAzrI : badhA ye bhegA thavuM joIe. keTalAka ema kaheze amAre game tema paiThaNa ApIne ja amAre karavo che sArAmAM. to keTalAka kaheze nA, amAre AvuM nathI karavuM. badhAM ye ekamata thavuM joIe. praznakartA : koI keTalAya varSothI koI A kabUla thatuM nathI eTale vacce koI 'jJAnI puruSa'nI jarUra che. badhA bhegA thaIne AvuM nakkI karatA nathI. dAdAzrI : e to mAra khAIne nakkI karaze. mAra khAIne sIdhA thaIne nakkI karaze badhA.

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486 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 487 praznakartA : hA, lagnanA divasathI ja UbhA thAya che. dAdAzrI : basa, basa. e ja kleza che A jagatamAM. zuM thAya te paNa ! tethI kabIra kahetAM hatAM ne ke AvaDA moTA dilhImAM amane koI mANasa ja dekhAto nathI. dilhImAM mANasa nahIM hoya ? to kahe che, mANasa khojata meM phIrA.' mANasa tapAsa karavA nIkaLyo ke "mANasa kA baDA sukAla,' sAmAsAmI athaDAtA hatA, kahe che. sukAla, duSkAla nahIM. sAmAsAmI athaDAtA eTalA badhA mANaso. paNa 'jAko dekhI dila Thare tAkA paDyA dukAla.' jene dekhIne ApaNuM dila TharI jAya, eno dukALa che. A badhuM bhaTaka bhaTaka karI eno artha ja nahIM, jAte pAsa karI lAvyA hoMze; pachI nA game e konA doSe? praznakartA : dAdA, tame paNa cha gAmanA, eTale kaMI eno ukela lAvI zako to tamArI hAjarImAM koI ukela AvI jAya to sAruM. dAdAzrI : ame to eTaluM kahIe, khoTI vastu che A. koIne duHkha devAnuM thAya. jyAM paisAnI bAbata hoya e vAta ja khoTI badhI. paNa pATIdAro kSatriyo hovAthI e levAnA paiThaNo. evuM kharuM che tame kaho cho evuM, A rIti-rivAja kADhI nAkhavA joIe A badhA ! praznakartA : nA, paNa e to cAle nahIM ane eno enDa nathI. dAdAzrI : nahIM, A tame vaNikoe rIti-rivAja kADhI nAkhyo che. ne te sarasa cAle che. gADuM cAle che tamAruM sarasa. sarasa cAle che paNa amAre to mULa ahaMkArI Tevane, mULa kSatriyane... praznakartA : paNa dAdA, ame to ene eksepTa ja nathI karatA. paiThaNa ekasepTa ja nahIM karavAnuM. dAdAzrI : bahu sArAmAM sAruM. tamAruM meM badhuM joyuM ne. meM dareka jAtanAM vANiyAonuM-jainonuM joyuM, badhAnuM sAruM che. eka phakta kharAba amAruM ja lAgyuM amane. praznakartA: ne evuM je koI kahe ne to nA ja kahI devAnI, ke bhaI e nahIM cAle, A zarata hoya to Avo. dAdAzrI : taddana sodAbAjI thaI gaI, sodAbAjI ! prema kyAM rahyo ne sodAbAjI thaI gaI ! eka bAju rUpiyA mUko ne eka bAju amAro chokaro, to ja paiNaze, kahe che. eka trAjavAmAM rUpiyA mUkavA paDe. trAjavAnI tole mApatA hatA. praznakartA : dAdA, e to tyAMthI ja jhaghaDo zarU thAya. paMcotera TakA to jhaghaDo tyAMthI ja zaru thAya che. dAdAzrI : jhaghaDA ja UbhA thAya che, basa. A jhaghaDo ja Ubho thAya vahu rIyalAIjha karIne lAvyo hoya ke Ama pharo joIe, tema pharo joIe. pachI manamAM nakkI kare ke nA, barobara che, gartha badhuM joI le, badhuM barobara che. pachI pAsa kare ane dasa dahADA pachI khaTapaTo cAlu thaI jAya. alyA, tuM joIne to lAvyo chuM ne ? eka bhAI paiNyA pachI, Ama e Dabala grejyueTa thayelo paNa vahu joDe bole nahIM, enA bApe kharco sAro karIne paiNAvI hatI. ene meM kahyuM, 'alyA meM vAta sAMbhaLI che, vahu joDe bolato nathI.' tyAre e kahe che, "mane gamatI nathI." meM kahyuM, 'huM tane kahuM ke bajAramAMthI eka tALuM lAva, ane tuM tALuM laI Ave ane pachI tuM mane kahe ke lyo A tALuM. tyAra pachI tuM ja mane kahe ke A tALuM mane gamatuM nathI. to kevuM kharAba dekhAya ? tuM ja lAvyo ane pachI kaheze, gamatuM nathI. pote lAvyo eTale kahevAnuM ja ke sAruM ja che, huM je lAvyo te sarasa che.' A bajAramAMthI ApaNe tALuM kharIdI lAvyA pachI ApaNe kahIe ke A tALuM to yujhalesa che to? 'jo tame kharIdI lAvo ane e ja tALAne tame khoTuM kaho cho, to enAM karatAM dariyAmAM paDavuM sAruM.' e nyAya kahevAya. A to tALA mATe AvuM hovuM joIe, tyAre A to strI

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488 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra che ane e vana opha dhI pArTanara che. phiphaTI parasenTa pArTanara che, tyAra pachI nAnA, nAnA zeraholDaro AvavAnAM. A to dasa dahADA thayA hoya tyAre mAe jarA zIkhavADyuM hoya ke vahu jarA lAphA svabhAvanI che, bahu zokhIna che. AvuM mAe zIkhavADyuM eTale thaI rahyuM pachI, A cakkare ya evuM kaheze. alyA, mAnuM sAMbhaLavAnuM? mA e mA che. tyAre eka kAna mA mATe rAkhIe ane eka kAna bairI mATe rAkhIe to zuM khoTuM ? kAraNa ke ApaNe pAsa karIne lAvyA chIe ne ? mAM nApAsa karAvaDAve to ya mAne kahIe ke 'mA' huM to pAsa karIne lAvyo chuM. nApAsa karavA nathI lAvyo. mArI pAsa karelI che. mATe tame paNa pAsa karo.' A to tALuM ekaluM pote pAsa karIne lAvyo hoya to ya ene mATe evuM rAkhavuM joIe ke have tALuM huM lAvyo chuM mATe emAM pheraphAra nA thAya. bagaDeluM hoya to chevaTe hathoDo mArIne, ghasaghasa karIne olarAITa karI nAkhavAnuM. kAraNa ke ApaNI bhUla thaI to samuM karI nAkhavAnuM, paNa A to baIne DheDaphajeto karAve. have vAIpha maLe te ya karmanA hisAbe ja maLe. e prArabdha badhuM. pachI kakaLATa thAya tyAre, mA-bApa kaheze, 'tuM joIne lAvyo mUA ne have bUmAbUma kare che ?" tyAre kaheze, 'have zuM kare ?!" ApaNe tALuM vecAtuM lAvyA hoya ane pachI vasAtuM nA hoya to ApaNe samajI javAnuM ke ApaNI bhUla che, mATe tALAno doSa nathI. eTale vahu jo lAvI, kakaLATavALI nIkaLI to ApaNo doSa che. ApaNe pAsa karanArA pachI ApaNe pharI nApAsa karIe e to zobhe ? (18) patinI pasaMdagI ! mAMgyo meM to dhaNI eka; AvyuM laMgara vaLagyuM chekA varlDa pajhala lAge che tane kaMI ? koI dahADo pajhala UbhuM thAya che tAre ? zuM nAma benanuM? praznakartA : caMdrikA. dAdAzrI : caMdrikAe A bagADyuM ema kahe to ? e jANatI ya na hoya ne ko'ke kahyuM ke, caMdrikAe A bagADyuM badhuM. praznakartA : mArA manamAM ema khabara hoya ke, meM bagADyuM nathI. pachI jene je bolavuM hoya te bole. pachI mane enI zI ciMtA ? dAdAzrI : tane vAMdho nahi, nahi ? eTalI sahanazIlatA che ! apamAna kare to ya vAMdho nahi tane ? praznakartA : nA, eka miniTa thAya, pachI huM bhUlI jAuM chuM. dAdAzrI : eka miniTa thAya, to paNa eka miniTa to ochuM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra kahevAya ? eka miniTamAM to mahIM saLagI jAya badhuM ! kaMI paNa nA thAya to vAMdho nahi. kaMI paNa nA thAya eTalI tuM TesTeDa thaI jauM to vAMdho nahi. e to tuM aTesTeDa che ne. 490 paravazatA, narI paravazatA ! jyAM juo tyAM paravaza ! phAdhara kAyama ghera rAkhe nahi. kaheze, enAM sAsare ja zobhe ane sAsarAmAM to badhAM sAva besI rahyAM hoya vaDhatAM. tuM ya kahyuM ke, 'mAjI, tamAruM mAre zuM karavuM ? mAre to dhaNI ja ekalo joIto'to ? tyAre kahe, 'nA, dhaNIbaNI ekalAnuM nA cAle, A to lazkara Avaze joDe. lAva-lazkara sahita.' praznakartA : vAMdho nahi. lazkara Ave to ya emAM zuM che ? dAdAzrI : kazo ya vAMdho nahi. samajIte peso, duHkhatA dariyAmAM; tarAze jo rAkhe 'jJAta' hadiyAmAM! paiNavA mATe vAMdho nathI. paiNavuM paNa samajIne paiNo ke, 'AvuM ja nIkaLavAnuM che.' ema samajIne pachI paiNo. paiNavAno to chUTako nathI ane ko'kane che te evuM bhAva karIne AvelI hoya ke mAre dikSA levI che ke mAre brahmacarya levuM che.' to vAta judI che. bAkI paiNavAnuM to chUTako ja nathI. paNa pahelethI nakkI karIne paiNIene e mAhyarAmAM ke AvuM thavAnuM che eTale pachI bhAMjagaDa nahi, pachI Azcarya nA lAge. eTale nakkI karIne pesIe ane sukha ja mAnIne pesIe, to pachI narI upAdhi ja lAge ! A to duHkhano samudra che. sAsunAM gharamAM pesavuM e to kaMI sahelI vAta che ! have dhaNI koI jagyAe ja ekalo hoya ke enAM mA-bApa marI gayAM hoya ! praznakartA : e nA game, dAdA. mAre sAsu hoya to sAruM ! mArAM chokarAM rAkhe. dAdAzrI : ohoho ! pachI bole tyAre kaDavuM lAge ya kharuM, nahi ? praznakartA : nA, vAMka hoya to kahe, emAM zuM ? mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 491 dAdAzrI : hA, sAsu hoya to kahe, nahi ? to vAMdho nahi. rIDhuM thaI jAya to vAMdho nahi. rIDhuM thaI jAya ne pachI mATaluM bhAMge nahi. rIDhuM thaI gayuM hoya ! kAyamanuM sukha joIe. sukha AvuM kema poSAya ? ghaDImAM moDhuM bagaDI jAya pAchuM. cA moLI Ave to phAve ke barobara paddhatisara gaLI hoya to ? praznakartA : barobara hoya te ja phAve ne ! moLI kema phAve ! dAdAzrI : eka e cA jevI cIja ATalI badhI herAna kare che. keTalI cIjonI pAchaLa tAre rahevAnuM, tane herAnagati koNa nahi kare AmAMthI ! mane to koI cIja herAna nahi karatI. gaLI Ave ke moLI Ave, tAre je AvavuM hoya te Ava. huM chuM gaLyo ne ! bahu gaLI Ave to huM kahuM ke huM moLo chuM ne ! kazo vAMdho nahi. Ava, kahIe. kaMIka sAdhana tArI pAse koI jAtanuM nathI ? A pataMga UDADuM chuM, A pataMga UDe che teno doro tArA hAthamAM che ne, ke enI meLe chUTo dora ne tuM tyAre kahe, 'mArI pataMga, mArI pataMga' evuM che ? doro tArA hAthamAM che? tyAre gulAMTa kema khAya che ? hAthamAM doro hoya to gulAMTa khAya ke teM khecyuM, pAchuM regyulara AvI jAya ! hAthamAM doro nahi ne kaheze "mArI pataMga ! mArI pataMga !' na hoya tArI ? tArAM pappAjIno doro hAthamAM, te have gulAMTa khAya ne tarata kheMcI le, AvI jAya nahi ? tuM pappAne kahetI'tI ne skUlo tame badala badala karo cho ! ahIM jAva cho, Ama jAva cho, tema jAva, pAchAM dAdA khoLI kADhyA ! tuM eka ya skUlamAM gaI nathI ? to bhaNI zI rIte ? praznakartA : eTale skUlamAMthI kolejamAM jatI'tI ne ! dAdAzrI : hA, paNa A navI skUlomAM gaI nathI, nahi ? jyAM paravazatA jAya, bhaya nA lAge, uparI nA hoya ! evI badhI skUlomAM ? phAITa kare e asabhya hiMsaka; eto tahi aMta koNa Ape macaka? dAdAzrI : Du yu vonTa Tu bI inDipenDanTa ?

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492 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 493 praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : to pachI mereja lAIpha nA hoya. mereja lAIpha e DipenDanTa. ko'ka dahADo pelo pIne Ave to te ghaDIe e TaiDakAve. hA, e ko'ka dahADo maLI gayuM ane ko' ke paI dIdhuM ene, zuM karuM te ghaDIe ? praznakartA : khabara nahIM. dAdAzrI : inDipenDanTa pachI pAchaLa paramenanTa hepinesa hoya. A to DipenDanTapaNuM, dhaNI TaiDakAve tyAre zuM karuM ? praznakartA : e mArI sAme phAITa kare to huM enI joDe sAme phAITa dAdAzrI : ohoho ! pachI e phAITamAM pachI AgaLa vadhatuM vadhatuM kyAM sudhI jAya ? enuM enDa zemAM Ave, eno enDa kevI rIte Ave ? koNa jIte, koNa hAre ? praznakartA : koI nA jIte. dAdAzrI : ane rAte UMgha sArI Ave nahIM te dahADe ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : Ane lAIpha ja kema kahevAya ? phAITa karavuM e sivilAIjhaDa ke anUsivilAIjhaDa che ? praznakartA : e badhA anUsivilAIjhaDa che. dAdAzrI : sivilAIjhaDa e laDhe nahI. e rAte banne sUI jAya, vaDhavaDha nahIM. je anusivilAIjhaDa lAge che ke manuSyo, te A jhaghaDA kare, kakaLATa thAya badhuM ! praznakartA : nA, eTaluM badhuM nahi. ko'ka vAra thAya, samaTAImsa. dAdAzrI : zI bAbatamAM thAya. virodha hoya to vAMdho nahIM. mane kahe ne ke zI bAbatamAM thAya. praznakartA : pArTImAM javAnuM have ochuM thaI gayuM che. pArTImAM jaIe, DAnsa karIe, tenI tame nA pADI, e pachI ochuM thaI gayuM che. - dAdAzrI : hA, e to bena, tArI saMskArItA bagADe. emAM zuM phAyado ? e to ApaNe UMdhu mAnI lIdhuM che. ApaNA loko ko'kane joI ne kare. koI sAva nekeDa thaIne doDatI hoya, e joI cAra-pAMca doDavA mAMDe eTale ApaNe ya doDavuM enI joDe ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : e badhA jAtajAtanA loko hoya. ApaNe mA-bApane pUchavuM ke "amAre zuM karavuM ? ApaNA saMskAra kevA che ? ema pUchI jovuM ! samaja paDIne ? darekanAM saMskAra judA. saMskAra eTale zuM? enuM sivilAIjhapaNuM che ane e sivilAIjharaNAne lIdhe A jJAna maLe ne badhuM maLe. ane ApaNe jyAM DAnsa karavA jatA hoya ne, emanuM sivilAIjhapaNuM kevuM hoya che ? e to merIne paiNI lAvyo hoya ne te eka dahADo matabheda thAya to zuM thAya ene ? praznakartA : chUTA thAya. dAdAzrI : tarata, vAra nahi. pelI merI kaheze, "yu, yu" tyAre pelo kahe, 'yu, yu' ane ApaNuM to eDajasTa thaI jAya pAchuM savAramAM. eTale have pelA gAMDA joDe ApaNe pharIe to pachI gAMDA thaI jaIe. hA, evuM karavuM hoya, DAnsIMga karavuM hoya to ApaNI chokarIo hoya ne, ApaNI potAnI, UMcI nAtanI, tyAM karavuM. pelA loko joDe nahi. e cepa pesI jAya, ApaNane cepa aDe to badho roga Ubho thAya. evuM che ne je DAnsIMga karavA jAva cho, temAM amerIkananA chokarAo hoya, nahIM ? pArTI te DAnsa bagADe sva saMskAra; emAM koI cora kare dila bekarArI dAdAzrI : mA-bApa joDe tAre have virodha che ?

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494 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 495 praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : tyAre ? praznakartA: badhA InDiyansa hoya ane badhA oLakhItAonAM chokarAo badhA ekabIjAne oLakhatA hoya. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa oLakhItA joDe DAnsa karavAmAM vAMdho nathI, paNa koI chokaro ApaNA dIlane coMTI nA javo joIe. e coMTI jAya to pachI ApaNe AkhI rAta ciMtA karavI paDe ane pelI keTalA dahADA sudhI ciMtA. evuM dila corI kare evAM chokarA nA hoya to jajo. AkhuM ApaNuM dila ja corI jAya, mUA. emAM vAMdho nathI, tamAre cokasAI hoya to ! nahIM to tamane AkhI rAta pachI herAna kare. AkhI jIMdagI khalAsa karI nAkhaze. citta phrekacara thaI jAya, eTale mANasa phrekacara thaI jAya. mArI vAta samajAya evI che ? eTale jokhama che, jo e citta corI nA jato hoya ApaNuM, to vAMdho nathI. A mArI joDe tuM besI rahuM ne Akho dahADo ya, koI nA hoya ne ekalI besI rahuM to huM tAruM citta coruM nahIM. eTale tAre vAMdho ja nahIMne ! evuM citta corI nA jatA hoya to vAMdho nahI. tuM samajuM ne? citta corAI jAya to pachI muzkelImAM mUkAya mANasa ! evuM lAge che ke emAM ame AmAMnuM kazuM ja vadhAre paDatuM nathI karatAM. ahIMnA 'amerikansa kare che, e hisAbe ame joIe to kaMI kazuM vadhAre karatAM nathI. paNa amuka thoDuM to amane potAne game ema, dara zanivAre DAnsa karavA nA jaIe, paNa mahinAmAM ekavAra ke be mahine ekavAra jaIe ame. to have amane prazna thAya che ke amAre zuM karavuM? jethI karIne mA-bApane paNa duHkha na thAya ane amane paNa duHkha nA thAya ane gharamAM ekabIjAne matabheda nA thAya. amane koIne du:khI karavAnuM gamatuM nathI ke mA-bApanI AjJA pALavI nathI, evuM ya nathI. paNa amane potAne je khUMce che A, tenA mATe zuM karavuM ? ke jethI karIne badhAnuM sacavAI jAya. dAdAzrI : e zemAM mA-bApane khUMce che, kapaDAM pahero cho temAM kheMce che ?! pArTI ne DAnsa mA-bApane na game; mA-bApanI AjJAmAM ja rahejo tame! praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to nhAvA-dhovAmAM khUMce che ? praznakartA : nA, evuM nahIM. dAdAzrI : to khAvAmAM khUMce che ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : zemAM khUMce che paNa ? braza karavAmAM ? praznakartA : ame badhAM eka skUlamAM nathI bhaNatAM, badhAM judI judI skUlamAM bhaNIe chIe. to kaMI pArTI hoya, emAM ame badhA jaIe ane tyAM bhegA thaIe, ane pArTImAM ame DAnsa karIe. to e emane khUMce che. rAtre moDA Ave te khUMce che. bIjo koI 'problema nathI. dAdAzrI : braza karatI vakhate vaDhatAM nathI ne ?! praznakartA : nA, evuM badhuM nahIM. dAdAzrI : to bIjAmAM vaDhe ema ?! praznakartA : bIje nathI vaDhatAM paNa ATalI vAta Ave, tyAre e praznakartA : dAdA, amAro prazna e che ke amAre jIvanamAM kaI vastuone prAyoriTi (prAdhAnya) ApavI ? have pahelI prAyoriTi to badhA egrI (sahamata) thayA ke atyAre emane bhaNavAnuM che eTale pharsTa emane bhaNavAmAM dhyAna ApavAnuM. pachI e sivAya bIjI naMbaranAM, e loko kahe che ke, have ame bIjuM zuM karIe, amane amArA potAnI je kaMIka icchA hoya, kaMIka "hobI' (zAkha) hoya, koIne 'DAnsa" game, koIne ramata-gamata game, to have emAM kaMI karIe, to amArA mAbApane evuM lAge ke ame A badhuM vadhAre paDatuM karIe chIe ane amane

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496 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 497 praznakartA : nA. kapaDAM paherIne. dAdAzrI : to pachI eno viveka hoya ne mANasane ? ApaNAM lokone kyAM majA hoya, ApaNe 'inDiyano' chIe. ApaNe 'inDiyana AphaTara ola' ! ApaNane majA kyAM hovI joIe ! praznakartA : ame amerikana chokarAo joDenI pArTImAM have nathI jatAM. kAraNa ke ame e pArTImAM jaIe to loko badhuM pIvAnuM ne badhuM hoya, khAvAnuM hoya, eTale ame e lokonI pArTImAM nathI jatAM, paNa 'inDiyana" je chokarAo hoya e loko pArTI kare te emAM jaIe chIe. dAdAzrI : haM. praznakartA : ane badhAne, ekabIjAnA mammI-pappA badhAne oLakhe loko ekadama bUma pADe. dAdAzrI : to eTaluM baMdha karI daIe ApaNe. praznakartA : paNa baMdha nathI karavuM amAre. dAdAzrI : to pachI bIjI jagyAe laDhavAnuM zarU karI do ! A eka ahIM laDhavAnuM baMdha rAkho. praznakartA: nA samajAyuM amane ? dAdAzrI : tame je karo cho, emAM laDhavAnuM baMdha rAkhe, eTale tane AnaMda thAya, paNa bIjI jagyAe laDhavAnuM rAkhe. praznakartA: ame A vadhAre paDatuM karIe chIe ? evuM kahevA mAMgo cho Apa ? dAdAzrI : nA, vadhAre paDatuM nahIM. paNa je mA-bApane gamatuM nA hoya e karAya ja nahIM. praznakartA : paNa mA-bApane koI divasa e gamatuM nathI. ekavAra paNa koI divasa gamatuM nathI. A vAta mATe. dAdAzrI : kema karIne game paNa ?! praznakartA : paNa kema ? enuM kAraNa zuM che e samajAvo ? dAdAzrI : nA, paNa A bIjI badhI bAbatamAM tamane chUTa Ape teno durupayoga karo cho ?! praznakartA: kolejamAM ame jaIe, tyAre amane bahu bhaNavAnuM hoya ane atyAre amAre 'enjoya' (AnaMda) karavuM che, amArI skUla lAIphamAM. dAdAzrI : zuM ? praznakartA : bhaNavAnuM kharuM, paNa thoDuM amane enjoya karavuM che, majA karavI che ema. dAdAzrI : kapaDAM kADhI nAkhIne majA karo cho ke kapaDAM paherIne ? dAdAzrI : paNa AmAM zuM phAyado maLe ? praznakartA : enjoyamenTa-majA Ave ! dAdAzrI : enjoyamenTa !! enjoya to khAvAmAM, bahu enjoyamenTa hoya. paNa e khAvAmAM zuM karavuM joIe, ene kaMTrola karavo joIe ke bhaI, ATaluM ja maLaze tane. pachI e dhIme dhIme enjoya karato karato khAya. A to chuTa Ape che ne eTale enjoya karatAM nathI. koI bIjI jagyAe "enjoya' khoLe che, eTale khAvAno pahelA kanTrola karavo joIe ke ATaluM ja maLaze have, vadhAre nahIM maLe. praznakartA: amAre e lokone AvI 'pArTIomAM javA devA ? AvI pArTIomAM varasamAM keTalI vAra javA devA amAre ? dAdAzrI : kone ? praznakartA : chokarAMone, chokarIone ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, chokarIoe emanA mA-bApanA kahevA pramANe cAlavuM joIe, ApaNA anubhavIonI zodhakhoLa che ke chokarIoe haMmezAM emanA mA-bApanA kahevA pramANe cAlavuM joIe.

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498 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 499 paiNyA pachI dhaNInA kahevA pramANe cAlavuM joIe. paNa potAnI marajIthI, nA karavuM joIe. AvuM ApaNA anubhavIonI kahevata che. praznakartA chokarAone AvuM karavAnuM ?! chokarA hoya, e lokoe mA-bApanA kahyA pramANe karavAnuM ke nahIM ?! dAdAzrI : chokarAone ya mA-bApanA kahyA pramANe cAlavAnuM paNa chokarAne, to DhIla, jarA dhImuM rAkho to cAle ! kAraNa ke chokarAne rAtre bAra vAge kahyuM hoya, to ekalo jAya to vAMdho nahIM ! tane to rAtre bAra vAge kahyuM hoya to ekalI jauM tuM ?!, praznakartA : nA jauM, bIka lAge. dAdAzrI : ane chokaro hoya to vAMdho nahI kAraNa ke chokarAne chUTa vadhAre hovI joIe. ane benone chUTa ochI hovI joIe. kAraNa ke tame bAra vAge jaI zako nahIM. eTale A tamArA bhaviSyanA sukhane mATe kahe che, phayucaranA sukhane mATe e, A tamane nA kahe che. atyAre tame A bhAMjagaDamAM paDazone to phayucara bagADI nAkhazo. tamane phayucaramAM sukha UDI jaze. eTale 'phayucara' (bhaviSya)ne nahIM bagADavA mATe e kahe che tamane ke bIvera, bIvera, bIvera." praznakartA : chokarAone keTalI vAra samajAvavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : samajAvI zakavAnuM eTale samajAveluM kyAre kahevAya ke enI samajamAM besavuM joIe. praznakartA : samajamAM nA bese to gusso karAya kharo ? dAdAzrI : nA. e ApaNI bhUla che. te ApaNe pharI pharI sudhArI sudhArIne pachI samajAvavuM. samajamAM besavuM joIe ne emane. tema chatAM ya nA bese to jANavuM ke ApaNI bhUla che A. praznakartA : samajamAM nA bese to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe jo samajAvIe ane ene samajamAM bese to to e eksepTa kare ja haMmezAM. ane chatAM ya eksepTa nA kare evuM bane to ApaNe jANIe ke AmAM kaMI bhalIvAra Ave evuM nathI. eTale bIjI jagyAe kaMTrola karI nAkhavuM joIe. praznakartA : bIjI kaI jagyAe kaMTrola karavo joIe ? dAdAzrI : badhI jagyAe, kapaDAM-bapaDAM, khAvA-pIvAmAM badhAmAM. nahIM to pachI inDiyAmAM mokalI devAnAM, dAdIne tyAM. praznakartA : inDiyA to sAruM. e to amane bahu game che. dAdAzrI : to bahu sAruM, to vAMdho nahIM. koI vAMdho nahIM. praznakartA : paNa tyAM to pelA dAdA dAdI hoyane, pelA "grAnDa peresa' hoyane, e amane bahu lADa laDAve eTale pachI bahu game amane. dAdAzrI : paNa bhale lADa laDAvene ! tyAM jaI ane lagna karIne pachI pAchI Avaje. pachI tane badhI chUTa ApavAmAM Avaze. A lagna karatAM sudhI ja che A. e to tuM kuvAmAM paDI nA jauM eTalA mATe cetava cetava kare che ane pachI tuM raDIza ane emane muzkelImAM mUkIza. evuM eTalA hAruM cetave che. pachI tamane ya muzkelImAM mUkene. mA-bApa gussAthI samajAve; ghavAya ahaM, kare mana phAve. praznakartA H e mArA mA-bApa che. e lokoe mane bahu sArI rIte samajAvavuM joIe, kahe che. paNa e loko gusse thaI jAya che. evI rIte kahe eTale mane e nathI barAbara lAgatuM. dAdAzrI : "dheTa Ijha rAITa, dheTa ijha rAITa !" samajAvIne kAma le. samajAvIne kAma letAM nathI AvaDatuM eTale ja mAre lakhavuM paDyuM che ke 'ansarTIphAIDa phAdhara enDa ansarTIphAIDa madhara.' ema jone pustakamAM lakhavuM paDyuM che. kAraNa ke e samajAvI zakatAM nathI ane pachI bUmo pADe che.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 501 praznakartA : hA. vaLI. dAdAzrI : are, emane AvI aDacaNa koI dahADo AvelI nahIM ne ? pachI A aDacaNa AvI che eTale e aTakAve che, tethI tamArA kaMI duzmana nathI e. praznakartA : dAdA, meM chokarAMone ema kIdhuM ke, jayAM sudhI tamArI komanasensa phUllI Devalapa nA thAya tyAM sudhI tamAre amArA kAbUmAM ja rahevAnuM. dAdAzrI : hA. basa. barAbara che. praznakartA : to hajI e magajamAM UtaratuM nathI e badhI vAta. dAdAzrI : e to evuM che ne, ke ene eTalA mATe tAre samajavAnuM, ke zuM zuM nA pADe che, zA kAraNathI ? mane pUchavuM ke zA kAraNathI nA pADe che. to huM tane khulAso karI ApIza. emAM zuM phAyado hoya che kazuM ? A to mananI mAnyatA che. eka mANasane to bagIcAmAM jAya che tyAM ja ene game che. ane eka mANasa kahe che, bagIcAmAM zuM javAnuM che ? eka mANasane krIkeTa vagara AkhuM sUjha ja nathI paDatI ane eka mANasane 'alyA, mUA, krikeTamAM zuM ramavAnuM che' ema kahe ?! mAnyatAo che, roMga bIlIpho che. praznakartA : ahIM badhA amerikAmAM janmelA ApaNA inDiyananA chokarAnI evI mAnyatA che ke, ame badhuM jANIe chIe. dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke, bApane kAnapaTTI pakaDAvatAM AvaDatI nathI. A huM kAnapaTTI pakaDAvuM chuM. enI meLe sIdho thAya che. ApaNe kAnapaTTI pakaDAvIe ne, to pachI sIdhA thAya. bApane AvaDatI nathI. agara AvaDe che to che te enuM citta emAM ne emAM, paisA kamAvA ne DaoNlaramAM ane dhaMdhAmAM che, agara to sarvIsamAM to sarvIsamAM che. AvuM nA hovuM joIe. olarAunDa' joIe ane tame jJAna lIdheluM eTale tame olarAunDa thavAnA ja ne ! 'dAdA' che ne, tamAre vAMdho zuM che ?! praznakartA: to thoDA perenTsane, dAdA TreIna karI Apo ! dAdAzrI : badhu cenja (pheraphAra) thaI ja javAnuM. nahIM to muzkelI hatI ja. nahIM to AmAM bApa jabarajasta muzkelImAM mukAta ane A beno paNa bahu muzkelImAM mukAta ! phAdhara mitranA jevI salAha Ape che ke duminanAM jevI ? praznakartA : nA. phrenDalI rIte e samajAve che paNa ko'ka vAra huM sAMbhaLuM nahIM. eTale gusse thaI jAya. mA-bApa kahe amane, to amane aMdarathI ema lAge ke A hanDeDa parasenTa sAcuM kahe che. paNa amAro ahaMkAra, te vakhate evo ghavAya ke te nA eksepTa kare. dAdAzrI : mane pUchIne karaje. je karavuM hoya te karaje. huM karavAnI chUTa ApIza. paNa mane pUchIne karaje. phAdhara-madharane nA pUche to mane pUchaje. mane vAMdho nahi. huM tane vaDhIza nahi. koIpaNa rIte vaDhIza nahi. samaja paDIne ? vagara kAmanAM phasAyA pachI koNa kADhe ?! praznakartA : dAdA kADhe. dAdAzrI : hA. paNa avaLI jagyAe phasAI gayA hoya ne to mAre muzkelImAM mUkAI javuM paDe ane tenAM karatAM nA phasAuM to bahu sAruM. mAre eTalI ochI upAdhine ! bane tyAM sudhI upAdhi ochI rAkhavI. tame phasAI gayA ho to huM tamane choDAvuM. badhuM karI ApuM chuM ! choDIoe rahevuM mA-bApatA kahyAmAM; e ja prema samajI, majA che sahAmAM! praznakartA : ApaNA hindu phemIlImAM kahe che, "chokarI pArake ghare jatI rahevAnI che ane chokaro kamAIne khavaDAvAno che ke ApaNo sahAro thavAno che." evI apekSAo che e draSTi rAkhI ane chokarIne mATe che to prema nA rAkhe e barAbara kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : prema nA rAkhe e bolanArI ja khoTI che. A vAMdho ja khoTo che. e ja aNasamajaNa che ne ! prema nA rAkhe evAM koI mA-bApa ja nA hoya. A ene samajaNa ja nathI eTale zuM thAya te ! AvuM prema

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502 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 503 ApaNe tyAM to chokarIone kahevAnuM ja nA hoya ne inDiyAmAM to ! A chokarIo yujhalesa badhI thaI gaI. mAthe paDelIo, zuM thAya praznakartA : huM cha varSanI hatIne mArA madhara hatA ne, e marI gayelA. to mArA bhaIno eTalo badho dhAka, Ape badhuM pharsTa kalAsa, chUTathI paisA Ape. bhaNavA jauM, pharsTa kalAsano Trenano pAsa, soLa varSanI uMmare. paNa koI dahADo koI chokarA sAthe jo bolyA, to Ama AMkho thaI jAya eTalA kaDaka. dAdAzrI : Ama e hoyane, bahu kaDaka, A to kaDaka nA rahyA tenI A upAdhi bicArAnI. eTalI kaDakAI hatI tyAre ja tame DAhyA rahyA ne ! praznakartA : prema ane kaDakAI. prema paNa eTalo bhAIno. dAdAzrI : joIe paNa kaDakAI. haMmezA strI jAti upara kaDakAI hoya. strIne to bahAra ja hotA nIkaLavA detA. nA rAkhe kahe to mA-bApane keTaluM du:kha lAge ke nAnapaNathI ucherI zuM karavAM, tane prema joto rAkhavAno to !? praznakartA : to pachI mane AvuM phIMlIMga kema thayuM ke mane mA-bApa prema nathI karatA ? mane AvI draSTi kyAMthI AvI ? dAdAzrI : nahIM, sahu AvA badhA prazno UbhA kare, zuM thAya te ! nAnI hoya to eDIe dAbI de, paNa moTI thaI eTale zuM karavAnuM ? have ame joI zakIe ene A akkala maLI che ne, buddhi bahAranI maLI che ne te UMdhI buddhi che. eTale e ya du:khI thAya ne bIjAne du:khI kare. praznakartA : bharelo mAla ? mAla evo bharIne lAvelA ? dAdAzrI : kacaro A, ahIMnA saMskAra badhA. amerikana saMskAra badhA. A Amane to zuM kare, je mIThuM bole, sAruM bole, e emane game. praznakartA : nA, nA, evuM sAcuM nathI. mane evuM aMdarathI phIlIMga nathI evuM. dAdAzrI : tyAre kaDavuM game che tane ? praznakartA : huM kaDavuM pI zakuM chuM ane pIza, jo mArI bhUla dekhAya to, kema nahIM ? dAdAzrI : baLyuM, tArI bhUla tane dekhAtI haze kaMI ? praznakartA : hA, mane dekhAya che, ghaNIvAra dekhAya che. dAdAzrI : e to ame maLyA pachI dekhAya che, pahelAM to dekhAya kaMI ?! praznakartA: tenAM pahelAM paNa eTale tamArI copaDI vAMcI hatI ne badhuM phITa thayuM. dAdAzrI : tyAre tArI bhUla dekhAtI hoya to bApanI bhUla nIkaLe nahIM ne ?! vahelA paraNavAmAM sephasAIDa; phasAya te kare pachI syusAIDa! praznakartA : dIkarIone kevI rIte salAha ApavAnI ? zuM zikhAmaNa ApavAnI ? dAdAzrI : lagna kara. lagna avazya karavAM ja joIe. ene jo brahmacarya paLAtuM hoya to ja lagna nahIM karavuM evuM bolavuM joIe, nahIM to lagna karavuM ja joIe. lagna nahIM karelA te Aja pastAyelI chokarI e. pachI moTI uMmare ApaghAta karavA paDe. mATe lagna karavuM joIe. koI jagyAe lagna thAya to sArI rIte DisenTa rahevuM joIe, evI badhI ApaNe zikhAmaNa ene ApavI joIe. praznakartA : kyAre lagna karavA joIe ? keTalI uMmare lagna karavuM joIe chokarIone ? dAdAzrI : paccIsanI aMdara lagna karI levuM joIe !

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 505 kAraNa TAImIMga che. TAImano meLa paDyo nathI. pelA e nakkI karyuM hoya 28 varSa vagara mAre paiNavuM ja nathI, ANe nakkI karyuM, kahe ya ke mAre 25 varSa sudhI paiNavuM nathI. e badho TAIma emanA kahyA pramANe bhego thAya ne pachI paiNe. peTrola te ati na rakhAya kadi sAthe; saLage acUka jokhama na rAkha mAthe! pa04 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : ane vahelAmAM vahelI kyAre paiNAvI joIe ? dAdAzrI : vahelAmAM vahelI to, kharo rivAja to kevo hoya jyAre kudaratI ene manthalI korsa zarUAta thAya tyAre lagna karavuM joIe. te ya che te lokoe rUDhimAM lIdhuM tyAre nAnI uMmaramAM marI javA mAMDyA mUA ! eTale bhale thoDuM bagaDe paNa moTI uMmaramAM paiNo, kahe che. jIve vadhAre ne ! peluM tera varSano paNelo, paMdara varSe bApo thaIne Ubho rahe. e keTalA varSa jIve pachI ! eTale kahyuM, thoDuM bagaDe, nukasAna thaze to paNa moTI umaramAM paiNo. pachI sAruM zarIranuM baMdhAraNa thAya ne ! praznakartA : hA. AjakAla choDIo ya vaheluM vivAha karavA taiyAra nA thAya ne ! dAdAzrI : choDIo taiyAra nA thAya. eTale uMmara to, bane tyAM sudhI lagna vaheluM thAya to sAruM. A bhaNavAnuM patI javA AvyuM hoya, bhaNavAnuM patI jAya ane A lagna pUruM thaI jAya evI rIte banI jAya to sAruM, beu sAthe thaI jAya. agara lagna thAya pachI varasa dahADA pachI bhaNavAnuM puruM thatuM hoya to ya vAMdho nahIM. paNa lagnathI baMdhAI jaIe ne to 'lAIpha' sArI jAya, nahIM to 'lAIpha' pAchalI bahu duHkhI thAya che. praznakartA : ApaNe ghaNIvAra kahIe chIe ke phAIlano samabhAve nikAla karavo che. paNa sinsiyaralI nathI rahevAtuM. paNa phrenDasa sAthe bahu moha na rAkhavo, bahu moha rAkhavAnI nA pADI che. chatAM moha thaI jAya chokaro haze janmI cUkelo; TAImato saMjoga bAkI rahelo! dAdAzrI : phrenDasarkalamAM koNa koNa che ? praznakartA : badhA paMdara-vIsa-paccIsa jaNA che e loko. dAdAzrI : ema ! badhI garla che ne ! praznakartA : nA bane che, garlsa ne boIjha. dAdAzrI : boIjha keTalA che phrenDamAM ? praznakartA : lagabhaga ATha chokarA hoya to dasa chokarIo hoya, evI rIte. dAdAzrI : phrenDazIpa rAkhavAno vAMdho nathI, paNa bilakula karekTanesamAM rahevuM joIe. peTrola paDyuM hoyane divAsaLI saLagAvI te cetIne rAkhavuM, nahIM to saLagI uThe. eTaluM strI-puruSane bhegA rahevAthI thAya che asara, IphekTIva che. te phrenDa upara moha eTale sakhInI vAta karuM chuM ke sakho ? praznakartA H nahIM, banne rIte. dAdAzrI : sakho hauM ! mUMchavALo hauM ! praznakartA : hA. banne. vahelI take dhaNI sAro maLajo. evI icchA kharI tAre ? praznakartA : vahelI take nathI joItuM. dAdAzrI : paNa "sAro maLajo' evuM to tuM kahene ! ane A jagata to evuM che ke koI bena kaheze, "he bhagavAna, kharAba haze to paNa cAlaze.' to ya paNa je ene lamaNe lakheluM che te ja Ave. kAraNa ke lamaNe lakhelI cIja maLe che A. chokarAno janma to thaI gayo. kaMI navo janmavAno nathI. thaI gayo, paNa jaDato nathI ane che e jaDavAno che. paNa jaDato nathI enuM

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa09 phrenDalI rIlezana e guno che. praznakartA : emAM zuM guno che ? dAdAzrI : peTrola ane divAsaLI. devatA be sAthe mUkAya nahIM ne ! e banne ya lAga khoLatA hoya. A mArA lAgamAM kyAre Ave ane pelo e jANe ke A mArA lAgamAM kyAre Ave ?! zikAra karavAnuM khoLatA hoya, zikArI kahevAya banne ya ! praznakartA chokarA ane chokarIoe dostI tame kIdhuM ke nahIM karavI joIe. dAdAzrI : bilakula nahIM karavI joIe. praznakartA : bilakula nahIM karavI joIe, te e lokone saMtoSa nahIM thayo. pa06 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : barAbara che. to enI joDe ApaNe samabhAve rahevAnuM, te ghaDIe tArI jAgRti rahevI joIe. te ghaDIe bhAna nA bhUlI javuM joIe. banatAM sudhI jene brahmacarya pALavAnuM che, jene mokSa joIe che, te strIoe purUSono paricaya ochAmAM ocho karavo, nA chUTake ja. jene mokSe javuM che, eNe eTalI kALajI levI joIe. evuM mane lAge che ke nahIM lAgatuM ? tane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : levI joIe. dAdAzrI : ke mokSe javuM nathI hamaNe ! cAle evuM che ! praznakartA : nA, mokSe javuM che. dAdAzrI : to pachI AmAM zuM karavAnuM, A naryo eMThavADa ! strIonI sAthe pharo-haro, khAvA-pIvo. nirAMte majA karo. praznakartA : paNa to ya evI strIo sAthe bI vadhAre moha thaI jAya che. ApaNane koI bahu game evI rIte Ama, chokarI paNa benapaNI hoya emanI sAthe ApaNe bhegA thaIe, to eTecamenTa thaI jAya che. dAdAzrI : nahIM, e eTecamenTano vAMdho nathI. e to huM tamane AzIrvAda ApIza to jatuM rahe badhuM. vAMdho pelo che. A eTecamenTa gaNAya nahIM, eTecamenTa pelAne kahevAya. eTecamenTa-DITecamenTa tyAM AgaLa badhuM sIdhA rahevuM. Ano vAMdho nahIM. praznakartA A dasa varSa pachI kare zuM, ahIM to lAIpha judI che. eTale seksa to phrI hoya che ahIMyA. - dAdAzrI : hA, phrI hoya che. A TeTo kyAre phUTI jaze e huM jANuM ne ! cogaradama devatA saLagato hoya to TeTo ema ne ema paDI raheto haze ke phUTI jAya ? praznakartA : dAdA, eka bena pUche che ke ApaNe chokarAo joDe phrenDalI rIlezana hoya, chatAM mA-bApane zaMkA kema paDatI hoya che ? dAdAzrI : nA, phrenDalI rIlezana rakhAya ja nahIM. chokarAo joDe dAdAzrI : e phrenDazIpa chevaTe poIjhanarUpa thaze, chevaTe poIjhana ja thAya. chokarIne maravAno vakhata Ave. chokarAnuM kazuM jAya nahIM. eTale chokarA joDe to UbhuM ja nA rahevuM joIe. chokarAnI phrenDazIpa koI karazo nahi, nahIM to e poIjhana che. lAkha rUpiyA Ape to ya phrenDazIpa na karavI. pachI chevaTe jhera khAIne maravuM paDe che. keTalI ya chokarIo jhera khAIne marI jAya che. lagna pahelAM paiNavAnA vicAra; AvatAM ja pratikramaNathI UDADA lagna karavA pahelA kharAba vicAra to nahIM Ave ne tane, bena ! praznakartA : zenAM beDa thoTas ? dAdAzrI : koIne paiNavAnAM vicAra evA-tevA Avaze nahIM ?! praznakartA : nA, e to khAlI phrenDasa ja. dAdAzrI : ema ! lagna pahelAM vicAra Ave, to huM tane batADI daIza te pramANe pratikramaNa karavAnuM. eTale ene dhoI nAkho. vicAra

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pa08 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 509 Ave eTale bagaDyuM, eTale ene dhoI nAkho. vicAra to Ave. koI jhUre tethI ApaNe pIghaLAya? pratikramaNa karI bIje paiNI javAya! A to nahIM sAruM. loka to dagA-phaTakAvALA hoya. koInI joDe mitrAcArI benapaNIonI karIe, bIjA lokonI puruSanI mitrAcArI nA karavI. dago karIne badhA cAlyA jAya. badhA koI sagAM nA thAya. badhA dagAkhora, eke ya sAco nA hoya. vizvAsa nA karazo. khIle baMdhAI javuM sAruM. Ama Ama phara phara karIe emAM nA bhalIvAra Ave. tArA phAdhara-madhara khIle baMdhAyA che. to che kazI bhAMjagaDa ! evuM tAre paNa khIle baMdhAI javuM, ne nA game, khIle baMdhAvAnuM tane game nahIM ? chUTuM rahevAnuM game ? nA samaja paDI ? praznakartA : samaja paDI. choDIone chokarAM lAge babUcaka; tathI paiNavuM karI, Ape ta macaka! praznakartA : koI puruSane ApaNA upara bhAva hoya ane ApaNe ene rIsponsa na ApI zakIe, to tyAM AgaLa zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : bhAva evo nA hovo joIe. bhAva phAdhara jevo, bradhara jevo, evo bhAva hovo joIe. eTecamenTavALo bhAva nA hovo joIe. praznakartA to eTecamenTavALo bhAva hoya tyAM zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : tyAMthI dUra khasI javuM joIe ! praznakartA: to ApaNe ene duHkha ApyuM nA kahevAya. dAdAzrI : nA, to to ApaNe khalAsa thaI jaIe. ApaNe ApaNI javAbadArI samajavI joIe ne ! evuM nA thAya bena, samaja paDI ne ? eTale enA karatAM ApaNe sAro chokaro khoLI kADhIne paiNI javuM sAruM. eka jagyAe khIle baMdhAI gayA eTale pachI harakata nahIM. pachI lAIpha sArI jAya. khIle to baMdhAvuM paDe ne ! nahIM baMdhAvuM paDe, bena ! eka dhaNI nakkI karI nAkhIe ApaNe, pachI bIjA loka ApaNA tarapha jue ja nahIM ne, e jANe ke A to thaI gayuM. A to dhaNI nA karyA hoya tyAM sudhI badhA jue sAmasAmI. eTale ApaNe uMmaralAyaka thaIe, eTale ApaNe kahI devuM gharamAM phAdhara-madharane ke mAruM che te joInTa karI nAkho. ane sArA mANasa joDe, pharI tUTI nA jAya evuM joInTa karI nAkho. mAruM have lagna mATe khoLI kADho. dAdA bhagavAne mane kahyuM che ke tame kahejo. evuM kahIe, zaramamAM nA rahIe tyAre e jANe ke baccAnI khuzI che, have cAlo paiNAvI daIe. pachI be varSa pachI paiNI javAnuM sAmasAmI pAsa karIne joInTa karI nAkhavuM. khIle baMdhAI gayA pachI koI jue nahIM ApaNane. kaheze enuM to nakkI thaI gayuM ! praznakartA : AjakAlanI badhI chokarIo tamane badhuM kahI jAyane ! dAdAzrI : hA, chokarIo kahI jAya che ne te Ama jatI hoya to peluM ATale sudhI pahere che. praznakartA mini skarTa. dAdAzrI : hA te chokarIone bolo have, mArI pAse chokarIo koI zaramAya nahIM. dAdAnI pAse zuM karavA zaramAya ?! eTale chokarIone pUchuM chuM bicArIone, e 15-16 varSanI. e kapaDAM evAM pahere ke paganI pIMDIo dekhAya ane huM to 'jJAnI puruSa'. huM to 10 varSanI chokarI joDe vAtacIta karuM, 12 varSanI, 18 varSanI, 20 varSanI chokarI joDe ya vAta karuM. gheDI DozI joDe ya vAtacIta huM karuM. mane chUTa badhI. chokarAo joDe ya vAta karavAnI chUTa mane. kAraNa ke ame jAtimAM nA hoIe. strI, puruSa ke nAnyatara koI paNa jAtimAM ame nA hoIe. eTale amane chUTa hoya badhI. huM kahuM ke ahIMyA Avo bena, kema ATalI moTI uMmaranI thaIne paiNatI nathI ? have A kheMcA (paganI pIMDIo) to joyA hoyane e chokarIonA, to jANe vaoNriyarsa hoya evA lAge ane jANe chokarAonA kheMcA joIe to bakarIo

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pa10 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 511 mArIne tela kADhI nAkhe. Aja to bhalA che chokarAo, bicArA suMvALA cAlI jAya evuM lAge. eTale huM tapAsa rAkhuM AvuM. chokarIone kahyuM ke kema paiNatI nathI ? tyAre kahe ke "zuM dAdA tame AvuM kaho cho, amane paiNavAnuM kaho cho !" kahyuM, "paiNyA vagara nahIM cAle A jagata. kAM to brahmacarya pALavuM che." evuM DisAIDa karo ane te cokkasa khAtarIpUrvaka karavuM joIe kAM to paiNI nAkho. paNa ema bemAMthI ekamAM AvI jAva. tyAre kahe che, "zuM paNa kaho che !" meM kahyuM, 'kema vAMdho zuM Ave che ? koI sArA chokarAM...' tyAre kahe "chokarA kyAM sArA... babUcaka mUA che ! A babUcako joDe zuM paiNavAnuM ?' eTale huM camakyo. meM kahyuM. A chokarIo kevI ? eTale atyArathI eno pAvara ATalo che, to pachI ene jIvavA zI rIte de bicArAMne ! tethI A chokarAM ghaNAM kahe, zAdI nathI karavI. ane e chokarAMone paganI pIMDIo evI nathI hotI, kaMtAI gayelI hoya che. zuM kahe che? babUcakane zuM paiNuM? meM kahyuM, "nA bolIza. tArA manamAMthI e babUcaka che e kADhI nAkha. kAraNa ke paiNyA vagara chUTako nathI.' cAle nahIM. manamAM babUcaka ghUsI gayuM ne te pachI kAyama vaDhavADo thAya. e babUcaka lAgyA kare ene ? paiNyA vagara chUTako nathI. babUcaka bolIzane to tArA manamAM vahema pesI jaze. mATe babUcaka nA bolIza. e jevA che tevA che. A ja mAla che. tAre kaMI strI joDe paiNAya nahIM. e jevA hoya evAM paNa AmAMthI pasaMda karavo paDaze. have AjanI chokarIo babUcaka bole che tyAMthI nA samajIe ke A chokarIo kaI jAtanI banelI kanelI thaI ! babUcakane paiNavAnuM, te chokarAne ke bIjA koIne paiNavAnuM che ? kaMI DosAne paiNavAnI che ? ane Doso paiNe ya kharo ? DosAnI dazA besI jAya. A kyAM vaLagADa ? tyAre kaMI, Ane paiNAvAya ? e brahmacArI che ! brahmacaryavrata lIdhuM che ! mana-vacana-kAyAthI vicAra paNa nA kare strIno. tuM laIza nahIM-brahmacarya kaMI badhAthI levAya ochuM ? e levAnI cIja che kaMI ? e to ko'kane udaya AvyuM hoya to vAta judI che. babUcaka nA kahevAya evuM ! jyAre tyAre paiNavuM paDaze, e babUcaka kahe te khoTuM dekhAya. eTale bicArA bhalA chokarAo che AjanA. te kazuM vaDhe evA nathI eTalA sArAM che. pahelA bAbAne to kahyuM hoya to mArI praznakartA : have kema AvAM thaI gayA chokarAo ? dAdAzrI : chokarAo e jANe zuM che te A janarezana ja badhI vIka janarezana che ane A strIo to jANe volanTIyarsa cAlyA Ama ! - have jo A chokarIo AvuM bole to ApaNe keTalI zarama bharelI lAge. puruSo mATe badhuM khoTuM kahevAya ne ! ene pAsa karyA pachI je thAya e kharuM, ApaNo hisAba cUkate karI levAno. e gALo bhAMDe to zAMtipUrvaka bhaI hisAba cUkate thAya che. lakhI levuM copaDAmAM, Aja gALo bhAMDavAno hisAba cUkate thaI gayo. ane benane ya gALo bhAMDe, eTale bene ya samajI levuM paDe ke A hisAba cUkate thaI gayo. badhA hisAba cUkate karI nAkho. bAkI jiMdagI to kADhavI ja paDaze ne, sArI rIte ? agara mAno ke tame ema.DI. (DaoNkaTara) thayA paNa pelo masAlo rAzI maLyo tyAre zuM thAya ? mane Avo khAnagImAM abhiprAya maLe, tamane zI rIte maLe ? praznakartA : bIjA abhiprAya nahIM ne, AvA ja abhiprAya maLyA. dAdAzrI : zuM thAya che ? praznakartA : tame chokarAone ane chokarIone kazuM kahetA nathI ? dAdAzrI : chokarAne pUchuM ja nahIM, emAM bhalIvAra ja nahIM, chokarAmAM to. praznakartA : ATalo badho strIono pakSa kyAMthI thaI gayo ? dAdAzrI : nA, pakSa nathI. chokarAne to bhalIvAra nathI. chokarIono bhalIvAra kema Ave evuM karavuM. kAraNa ke nahIM to e A babUcakone mArI nAkhaze. e lokone taiyAra karuM chuM. A to paiNatA pahelAM to babUcaka kahe che, to pachI zuM dazA thAya ? - have huM jouM chuM ne rastAmAM bAbAne UMcakI UMcakIne pharavuM paDe che, pelA bhaIne ane pelI to thoDIvAre ya jhAlatI nathI.

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512 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa13 praznakartA : dAdA, gADI dhakelAve che, bAbAnI. dAdAzrI : ema ? chokarA ne chokarIonI vAtamAM samAjamAM zuM hoya che ? aDhAra varSanI chokarI ne aDhAra varSano chokaro. aDhAra varSanI chokarIne aThyAvIsa varSano ene anubhava hoya. daza varSa AgaLa anubhava hoya eno, ane A chokarAmAM kazo anubhava hoto nathI. eTale evuM ja thAyane pachI. mATe chokaro moTo khoLI kADhavo joIe, nahIM to pelo anubhava kAco paDI jAya. sarakhe sarakhuM joDuM besADI do to ATha-dasa varSanuM jJAna, anubhava enAmAM vadhe che. evuM tamane khabara kharI ! e sArA gharamAM meM joyeluM. e sArA gharano anubhava hoya che. paheruM ?" "nA, huM paheruM nahIM.' eka chokarIne meM kahyuM, 'tAre joIe te Ape to te puruSa thavA taiyAra chuM ?" tyAre kahe, "nA, ame jema chIe te ja mubAraka che.' are, ATalI kIMmata che emanI ? ATalI badhI velyu che te huM jANuM ja nahIM. juone kahe che ne mane 'chokarI chuM' te ja game che. khIcaDI karavI hoyane, to sANasI-bANasI badhuM ya joIe. e kaMI dALa-cokhA ekalAthI thAya nahIM. mATe dhaNI to pahelo joIe. praznakartA : have joIe ja evuM kharuM, A duniyAnI aMdara ? dAdAzrI : evuM kaMI nahIM. paNa eNe bhAva evA karyA che ke ene jarUra paDaze. 'hasabaMDe' ya karyA vagara cAle tema nathI. jeTalI saMDAsanI jarUra che eTalI 'hasabaMDa'nI jarUra che. 'hasabaMDa' to be-cAra dahADA bahAragAma jAya to cAle, paNa saMDAsa vagara nA cAle, jenI jenI jarUriyAta te khoLe. rasoDuM ya khoLe, AvA jagatamAM lokoe kevA kevA artha vagaranA vikalpo karyA ! strIno moha paiNavAtAM, jaNavAto; chUTako nathI lAvyA karIne bhAvo! paraNIne kADhe tAraNa; mokSa vitA ta tivAraNa! dAdAzrI : tane dhaNIyANI thavuM game ? ke mA thavuM game ? praznakartA : mammI thavuM game. dAdAzrI : ane dhaNIyANI thavuM game ke dhaNI thavuM game ? praznakartA: vAIpha. dAdAzrI : ema ! AbarU jAya to ya nahIM vAMdho Ave, nahIM ? praznakartA: dAdA kahe che ne, kevo moha ? chokarA jaNavAno te kaMI moha karavA jevo che ? dAdAzrI : e to pachI jaNavA ja paDe ne ! praznakartA : paNa dAdA, e to have jANyA pachI ema thAya ke A avatAra strIno to joIe ja nahi, ema. dAdAzrI : e nA joItuM hoya, te A jANyA pachI. nahi to tane ya vAreghaDIe A gamatuM'tuM. 'bahu sAruM" tuM jANI gaI ne ke A to pola che sAluM. jokhamadArI che A to, evuM samajI gaI ne ! eka chokarAne meM kahyuM, 'tane eka lAkha rUpiyA Ape to tuM sADI praznakartA : atyAre che to ApaNA hindu samAjamAM badhA je lagna thAya che, e mA-bApa goThavI Ape che ane pachI e saksesaphula jatA nathI ne AkhI jIMdagI e lokone sahana karavuM paDe che. to kahe, emAM koI rasto che ? kAraNa ke e loko samAjanA prezarathI mA-bApane rAjI rAkhavA AvI rItanA lagna karatA hoya che ne AkhI jIMdagI bhogavavuM paDe che. to kahe evo koI rasto che ke A AvuM nA thAya ? - dAdAzrI : e to coIsa karIne paiNe to ya evuM thAya ne peluM karIne paNe to ya evuM thAya. kAraNa ke lagnanuM nAma ja bhAMgaphoDa. enuM nAma ja bhAMgaphoDa. A bhAMgaphoDa thayA vagara rahevAnuM nahIM.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : heM dAdA, ApaNe sarasa DIjhAIna karI ane evo taDabUcuM laI AvyA hoya... 514 dAdAzrI : taDabUcuM lAvyA pachI kApIe tyAre pachI dhoLuM nIkaLe mahIM, lAla nIkaLe. kAraNa ke lagna eTale bhAMgaphoDa ja che pote. paNa lagna kema hitakArI che ? kema pharajiyAta che ? tyAre kahe che ke e athaDAI athaDAIne Devalapa kare che mANasane. jIvamAtrane DevalapDa karavA mATenuM sAdhana che e. athaDAI athaDAIne anubhava thaIne eksapIrIyansa karIne AgaLa vadhe che. praznakartA : eTale mokSe javAnuM e paNa eka pagathiyuM kharuM ne ! dAdAzrI : e ja pagathiyuM che, A ja pagathiyuM. strI e ja pagathiyuM. strIne purUSa e ja pagathiyuM. mAre, jhUDe, ThokAThoka kare. to ja mokSe jAya. enA uparathI tAraNa kADhe ke paiNavA jevuM nathI. pachI te ghaDIe e bole. game eTalI mohavALI hoya ne nakkI kare ke 'A paiNavA jevuM nathI, baLyo A saMsAra !' eTale kahuM chuM paraNIne pachI tAraNa kADhaje. tAraNa kADhavAmAM bhAMgaphoDa che ja vaLI. have A jANe nahIM loko tAraNa kADhavAnuM. eTale zuM kare ? e klema karyA ja kare, enA karma baMdhAya. pelo blema karyA kare, enA karma baMdhAya ane pachI jAnavaromAM pharyA ja kare anaMta avatAra. tAraNa kADhavAnuM hoya ne to samajI jAya ke A kharuM, prophiTa kADhavAnuM ! zuM anubhava thayo e jovAnuM. lagna e mojazokha mATe nathI, anubhava mATe che. ame badho anubhava kADhI lIdhelo. chokarIo pUche che mAre paiNavuM ke nA paiNavuM ? meM kahyuM, jo paiNyA vagara cAle evuM nathI ane paiNIne pastAyA vagare ya cAle evuM nathI. kAraNa ke badhuM jJAna ApanAruM che ane jo cAle evuM hoya, pahelAM tuM A laIne AvelI hoya anubhava, to atyAre cAle evuM hoya to calAvI le. bAkI 'paiNavuM e kaMI guno che' evuM nathI. e jJAna ApanAruM che. upadeza-jJAna Ape che. tane jJAna nA maLyuM ? praznakartA : bahu maLyuM, dAdA. dAdAzrI : hA. ane pelo ema ne ema che te paiNyA vagara jo e mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra thaI gayA hoya.... jagatanuM kalyANa karavA mATe, to manamAM thoDuM thoDuM khUMce. thoDuM ghaNuM paiNyA hota to sAruM paData. AkhI jIMdagI khUMce. have A khUMce ja nahIM. 515 praznakartA : dAdA, huM nA paraNI hota ne, to mane A jagata ne A badhuM zuM che, kaMI samajaNa ja nA paDI hota. dAdAzrI : eTale mane vicAra Avyo hato ke bicArI nathI paiNatI, te gharanA badhA kahe che ke nathI paiNatI, nathI paiNatI. meM ene samajaNa pADI ke bena paiNavA jevuM che A jagatamAM. paiNIne pastAvuM to paDaze, paNa A paiNavA jevuM to che ja A jagatamAM. paNa mane ema thayuM... atyAre meM vicArI joyuM. meM kahyuM, A meM AvI vAta zA mATe karI hatI ? paNa atyAre mane khabara paDI ke A to lAbhakArI thayuM. nahIM to khUMcyA karata ke A paiNyA hota to sAruM paData ! have klIyara kaTa. paiNavAnI ? to kahe, 'no. have jJAna laI lIdhuM che.' 'paiNavAnuM zuM vAMdho che' e joI lIdho ke anubhava thavo joIe ne ! nahIM to manamAM khaTakyA kare. tamane badhAne anubhava thayA ne ! praznakartA : thayA, dAdA. dAdAzrI : emane vicAra Avato hato ke ApaNe brAhmaNa joDe paiNIe tethI A vAMdhA Ave che ! te have jaina joDe paiNyA te have khabara paDIne emAM ya !! e ya anubhava joI lIdho ne, nahIM ? e paNa anubhava maLe ja che ne ! praznakartA : have to paiNavAno nizcaya ja karI dIdho baMdha. dAdAzrI : ame ya hIrAbA joDe anubhava badho meLavI lIdho. pachI tAravaNI karI ke bhaI have anubhava karyo. paNa jo godAgoda karIzuM, to pharI thoDAMka chamakalAM raheze. enA karatAM ApaNe hisAba cokhkho karo ne ! eTale kalIyara kaTa eTale basa eTaluM ja. bhAva bagaDe nahIM enI upara kyAre ya paNa. e avaLuM kare to ya bhAva nA bagaDe. zA mATe ApaNuM bagADavAnuM ? eka avatAra pAnAM paDyAM, te pAnAM pUrA karavAnAM ne ! jyAM sudhI pUrA thAya tyAM sudhI ane nA thAya to e choDI devAnuM.

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516 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 517 devatA kyAM sudhI pakaDavo ? jyAM sudhI pakaDI zakavAnI zakti hoya tyAM sudhI ane dajhAya to..... badhAnI hada hoya ke nA hoya ? praznakartA : barAbara. dAdAzrI : paiNIne pastAvAnuM. paNa pastAvAthI jJAna thAya. anubhavajJAna thavuM joIe ne ? ema ne ema copaDI vAMce to kaMI anubhavajJAna thAya ? copaDI vAMcIne kaMI vairAga Ave ? vairAga to pastAvo thAya tyAre thAya. A lagna thAya che tyArathI merIDa lAIphanuM galana thAya che. te eka dahADo badhuM ja galana thaI jAya. bicArIne. kema amerikana joDe phare che ?! alyA mUA phare che paNa eNe nakkI kareluM che ke nahIM, paiNavuM evuM. zuM kahyuM ? phare che e kudaratI, necarala vyavasthA che. eTale mAre to jANe ene pUchavuM paDe, nA pUchavuM paDe ? have ame zuM karAvIe, eno ahaMkAra majabUta karI ApIe. A gujarAtIne ja paiNavuM che. majabUta thaI jAya ke nA thaI jAya ahaMkAra, be-traNa vakhata tame bolo to ! praznakartA : thaI jAya, dAdA. dAdAzrI : ane pahelAMno kaMIka vicAra Ave to tUTI jAya ke nA tUTI jAya ? praznakartA : tUTI jAya, hA. dAdAzrI : AvI rIte kAma lo ne, to kAma thAya. konI joDe paiNIza beta; inDiyana ke amerikA? ahaMkAra bAMdhe dAdA premathI; sarvasva arpe dAdA kahe temathI! dAdAzrI : zuM karavAnI che ? praznakartA : paraNavAnI. dAdAzrI : inDiyana ke amerIkana joDe ? praznakartA : InDiyana. dAdAzrI : muslIma nA phAve ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : tyAre koI gujarAtI joDe, brAhmaNa ? praznakartA : brAhmaNa ke paTela ! dAdAzrI : ema ! barAbara che. karekTa, e zuM bhaNelo joIe ? praznakartA : e paNa kazuM sAruM. enuM philDa jUduM hovuM joIe. e DaoNkaTara nA hovo joIe. dAdAzrI : ohoho ! barAbara, barAbara. hA, juo ! bApa ene halAvI halAvIne dhULadhANI karI nAkhe praznakartA : bena che to tamArI pAse AvyA hatA, tyAre eNe tamArI pAse nizcaya karyo hato ke huM digaMbara jainane ja paraNIza. paNa have ene ema thAya che ke mane digaMbara jaina chokaro evo sAro nA maLe, to zuM thAya ? to kahe ke mane A vidhi to karelI che ane jo evuM nA thAya ne huM bIjAne paraNuM to pachI mane pApa lAge ke mane zuM baMdhana Ave ? dAdAzrI : bIjAne paraNavuM hoya to ya che te ApaNo gujarAtI hovo joIe ane inDiyana hovo joIe. majUrane paiNavA taiyAra thAya tuM ? tAre tyAM majUra Ave che ? sAro goro gapa jevo hoya te lagna karavA taiyAra thayuM ? praznakartA : nA, nA. e majUranI sAthe lagna nahIM karuM. dAdAzrI : to pachI pharsTa prepharansa digaMbara jaina, sekanDa prepharansa digaMbara nA maLe to koI paNa jaina, e nA maLe to gujarAtI koI

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pa18 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 519 banIyA, e nA maLe to brAhmIna, paTela, gujarAtI basa. ke amerikana joDe paiNavuM che ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : kema ? A gorA gapa jevo hoya che ne ! praznakartA : mane nathI gamatA. dAdAzrI : A kAkaDI khAyane tyAre kaDavI lAge mahIM ! have A digaMbara jainamAM paiNavAthI enAM vicAro ne ApaNA vicAro maLatA Ave thoDA ghaNA, vicAro sarakhA hoya. tuM jaina che to jaina hoya to phITanesa sArI paDe. phITanesa, badhI sAIDathI phITa thaI jAya ane vaiSNava to sApa mAraze ne jIvaDAM mAraze ne badhuM kare e. vaMdA mAre, ne mAMkaNa mAre, badhuM mAre. tane gamaze e mAraze te ghaDIe ? dAdAzrI : svataMtratA rahe eTalA mATe ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : lagnamAM to parataMtra thAya ja UlTo. dhaNI thayo UlTo. kyAM gaI hatI ? kaMI rakhaDuM chuM ? vAMdho uThAve e to. praznakartA : rakhaDavA mATe svataMtratA nahIM joItI hatI. amuka vastu karavI hoya, to dAdA mAre evo hasabanDa cUjha karavo hato ke mane je kaMI gola (dhyaya) hoya ne, mAruM parsanala gola, to mane enI phrIDama Ape ne saporTa Ape. paNa pappA hoya to nA Ape. ne bIjuM zuM ke lagna karyA hoya to bIjA loko kheMco nahIM mAryA kare, godA nahIM mAre. dAdAzrI : hA. e barAbara che. DiphekTIva dhaNI khoLe to rahe calaNa; dArU-mAMsamAM cokho, to jhaTa paraNa! evo khoLe ke madadarUpa dhyeyamAM; tathI hAthamAM bhale icchayuM zreyamAM! tuM kahuM chuM. mAre paiNavuM che, paNa paiNavAnuM tArA hAthamAM che nahIM. mUratiyo evo maLavo joIene baLyo ! ane maLyo e tuM nApAsa karI mUkuM chuM ane have ethI vaLI bIjo mUratiyo e tane nApAsa kare. eTale pAsiMga thAya nahIM. eTale rijIonala ophIsa nA pADI de. rijIonala ophIsa hoya che ne ! e nA pADI de ke AvI rIte cAlavA devAnuM nahIM. rAge paDI jaze tAre ? pahelA tArI lAIpha hatI ane atyAranI lAIphamAM AnaMdamAM kaMI phera paDyo che ? praznakartA : hA, ghaNo. dAdAzrI : ghaNo ! tyAre thoDo bAkI haze te pUro thaI jaze. tArA AnaMdamAM phera paDyo ? ene ghaNo phera paDI gayo. tAre keTalo phera paDyo ? praznakartA : ghaNo dAdAjI. mAre je karavuM hoya tenI Ama chUTa maLe enA AdhAre, svataMtratA rahe eTalA mATe mAre lagna karavA hatA. dhaNI thoDo DiphekTIva sAro ke anaDiphekTIva ? praznakartA : nA, nA. DiphekTa joIe ja nahIM. dAdAzrI : to pachI tArA vazamAM nA rahe, kAbUmAM nA rahe. e jarA DiphekTIva hoya to ApaNe khakhaDAvIe. eya ! Ama tema ! evo khoLI kADhavo. eTale ApaNA vazamAM rahe ne. praznakartA : paNa pachI ekadama DaphoLa nahIM joIe. dAdAzrI : DaphoLa hoto haze ekadama ! A to evuM chene tuM A DiphekTIva nA khoLuM to ya DiphekTIva ja mUA hoya che. e tane pahelAM khabara nA paDe ane A to ApaNe pahelethI jANI gayA hoya ne. eTale ApaNe ene pUchI levuM pahelethI ke bhaI jarA DiphekTa che ? tyAre kahe, praznakartA: jo jANe ke DiphekTIva che, to potAnuM mana jarA avaLuM thaI jAya ne !

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pa20 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa2 1 dAdAzrI : bAkI DiphekTIva che, emAM zenuM avaLuM thAya, sAruM UchuM. ane bahAra loka kahe, AmanA dhaNI AvyA. eTale Ame ya ropha paDe, Ame ya ropha paDe ! ane DiphekTIva hoya che ja. jo jJAna hoya ne jo DIphekTa khoLo to mahIM eka-be haze, enA karatAM DiphekTIva nA khoLIe ke eka DIphekTa che ja ! praznakartA : je dAdA ahIMyA badhA che, te loko DiphekTIva che ? tamArI pAse jJAna laI gayelA che ? dAdAzrI : badhA kaMI ekkekTa che ? koIkane koIkanAmAM DiphekTa haze. praznakartA : to pachI eno matalaba ema nahIM thayo ke huM paNa DiphekTIva chuM? dAdAzrI : to zuM tuM DAhI chuM ? praznakartA : pote koI kahevA mAMge nahIM ke huM DiphekTIva chuM. dAdAzrI : nahIM, e to koI kahe nahIM, paNa oLakhuM huM badhAne. A to mAla ja badho DiphekTIva, e to amathA ApaNe manamAM samajIe, hA, bahu sArA, bahu sArA. praznakartA : DiphekTa ApaNAmAM hoya paNa enI zarama nahIM hovI joIe. dAdAzrI : tyAre zuM hovuM joIe ? praznakartA : ApaNe UchuM eno sudhAro karavo joIe. ApaNe jANIe ke DIphekTa che to sudhAro nahIM karavo joIe ? dAdAzrI : zAmAM sudhAro kare ? bagaDelo sudharato haze ? praznakartA : tamArI kRpAthI sudhare ne ! to ja mokSe javAya ne ! dAdAzrI : sudhArIne kaMI laI javAnA che, ApaNe zAka karavAnuM che ? zAka sudhAravAnuM hoya. A to pAMca-paccIsa varSa rahevAnuM. tyAM sudhI rahevAnuM. bhADAnI oraDIo. jema ApaNe to pelI moTala ! atyAre dhaNI sArAM hotA haze ! eka chokaro khoLI lAya ke sAro hoya to, jA. praznakartA: maLato nathI, paraphekTa nathI maLatuM. ne dAdA problema zuM che ? paraphekTa nahIM maLe eTale joIe ja nahIM. dAdAzrI : ApaNane paiNanAra bhego thAyane, meM tArA mATe DiphekTIvanI vAta sAMbhaLI che, paNa huM leTa go karIza, kahIe. eno vAMdho nA rAkhIza. paNa bIjI rIte kazuM che tArI pAse, bIjuM nukasAna kare evuM ? DiphekTIva ekaluM ja che ke bIjuM kazuM che ? tyAre kahe, nA, bIjuM kaMI nathI. hA, dArU-bArU pIto nathI ne ! mAMsAhAra karato nathI ne ! tyAre kahe, huM mAMsAhAra karuM chuM. eTale ApaNe choDI devo paDaze, kahIe. eTale pachI svIkArI levAnuM. paisAmAM DiphekTIva nA hovA joIe. bIjI A bAbatomAM badhI DiphekTIva hoya, e to hoya ja A kALamAM to. e to paccIsa varSe paraNyo te zuM ema ne ema ja mUo hato e. praznakartA : tamArI sAthe vAta karIe ne to tame Ama karIne laI Avo ja pAchAM. dAdAzrI : tyAre pachI zuM thAya, rasto to kADhavo paDaze ne ? tane DAhyI banAvavA mATe amArI icchA che ane 'tuM sukhI kema thauM' evI icchA che. paiNavuM hoya to paNa, nA paiNavuM hoya to nA paiNIza. teno vAMdho nathI. paNa paiNuM tyAre mane kaheje ke A bhaI mane maLyo che. huM cA pIvaDAvIza. te ghaDIe huM ene kahIza... mArI rUbarUmAM pAMsaro karI daIza. A bena ja calAvI le mUA ! tane koNa calAve ? paNa A to ame ene kahI daIe, pahelethI cetavI daIe. ekabIjAte helpa karavA che jagata; unALo kheMce varSAne kevI kudarata! praznakartA : e ema kahe che ke mane vaDhe evo ya dhaNI nA joIe ane mane dabAve evo ya nA joIe. dAdAzrI : hA, evo joIe.

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522 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra praznakartA : paNa enAthI e dabAya evo e nA joIe. dAdAzrI : to dareka vastune pachI goThavo. ekane nIce AvavuM paDe to bIjAne upara AvuM paDe, agara to ene nIce AvavuM paDe to bIjAne.... te paNa goThavavAnuM che, A jagata goThavaNI che. ekjhekTa levalamAM nA Ave. emAM kalpanAnI thIyarI nA cAle. phrenDa tarIke kAma kare evo joIe. phrenDa jANe hoya evI rIte. helpIMga ja karyA kare. ApaNe ene helpIMga karIe. praznakartA : evo ja joIe. phrenDa tarIke rahe evo joIe, paNa joDe joDe DaphoLa nA joIe pAcho. dAdAzrI : paNa e ApaNA dhAryA pramANe maLe nahIM kazuM koIne ! mATe thoDI chUTa rAkha, Tena parasenTanI. Tena parasenTa nahIM ?! praznakartA : paNa enA hanDreDa enDa Tena che to te Tena chUTa rAkhe to hanDreDa AvIne UbhuM rahe. dAdAzrI : mokSe javA mATe raste joItA AdhAra, purAvA e badhuM sAdhana che A badhA. e ya mokSa tarapha rahe, ApaNe rahIe ane e helpa karI karIne, helpIMga thAya ekabIjAne ! jagata AkhuM mokSe ja jaI rahyuM che paNa mokSamAM jatA A badhuM helpIMga thatAM nathI. vaDhavaDhA karIne UlaTAM breka mAre che. nahIM to unALAno svabhAva ja evo ke comAsAne kheMcI lAve. jyAM hoya tyAMthI kheMcI lAve. unALAno svabhAva vadhato vadhato jAya, comAsAne kheMcI lAve. bhaDakI maravA jevuM nathI. eTale A badhuM A saMsArano svabhAva evo che ke mokSa tarapha laI jAya ApaNane. mokSane kheMcI lAve che. saMsAra jema kaDaka vadhAre thAya ne, ema mokSa vahelo Ave. paNa kaDaka thAya tyAre ApaNe bagaDI nA javuM joIe, sTeja upara rahevuM joIe. sAcA upAya karavA jevuM che, khoTA upAya karavAthI pAchuM paDI jAya. duHkha paDyuM eTale ema ja mAnavuM ke mArA AtmAnuM viTAmIna maLyuM ane sukha paDyuM eTale dehanuM viTAmIna maLyuM. evI rIte cAlavAnuM. e roje ya viTAmIna maLe ApaNane. ame to evuM mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mAnIne TesTathI cAlelA nAnapaNamAMthI. tuM to eka ja jAtanAM viTAmInane viTAmIna kahuM, e buddhinuM viTAmIna che. jJAna bannene viTAmIna kahe che. e viTAmIna sAruM ke loko khUba jamavAnuM hoya to ya tapa kare che. sarasa badhuM zAka-bAka hoya to ya tapa kare che. tapa kare che eTale zuM, duHkha vede che. AtmAnuM viTAmIna maLe. e badhuM sAMbhaLavAmAM nathI AvyuM tamAre ! praznakartA : hA, AvyuM che, dAdA. 523 dAdAzrI : to A to enI meLe ghera beThAM maLe che. tane magaja pahoMce che ? tAruM magaja jarmanInuM banAveluM che, kyAMnuM banAveluM che ? je te eka khoLIte joDAya; dAdA kRpAthI, mokSasAthI karAya! ane lagna e kaMI vastu che ?! e to raste jatA helpIMga che khAlI. A lagnane lIdhe loko duHkhI che badhA. paNa lagna karyA vagara cAle evuM ja nathI. zuM kahe che, tAre karavuM che ke nahIM karavuM ? teM to karyA che ne ! praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : lagna nathI karyA ! zuM vAta karo cho ! mATe jhaTapaTa paiNI jAva. amathA rAha joIne besI rahevuM ! pAchuM bIjuM phruTa dekhe to e vaLI bIjuM phruTa laIne pharato hoya. badhA tarabUcA AvaDAM AvaDAM hoya te, sAruM dekhe ke ene laIne pharato hoya. pachI ApaNe dekhIe to ApaNA manamAM thAya ke mUA A te bIjAne laIne kyAM phare che, A mAro hato ne ! nhoya tAro mUA ! A lAIna kevI che ? badhI dagAkhora lAIna che, mATe cetI jA. tuM jene paiNIza tene huM AzIrvAda ApIza ane badhuM tAruM rAge pADI ApIza. bagaDyuM tyArathI pharI sudhArIe ApaNe. bagaDeluM to che ja, saDeluM to che ja paNa sudhArIne karavuM ApaNe. praznakartA : have e kahone ene, e paiNe ke nA paiNe ?

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pa24 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : nahIM, ene paiNavAnI icchA hoya to paiNavAmAM vAMdho nathI. haju kaMI bahu moTI uMmara thaI nathI. praznakartA : paccIsa varSanI che. dAdAzrI : paNa. eka khoLI kADhavAno. eka taMbUro khoLI kADhavAno vagADa vagADa karyA karavAno pachI. pachI tArI lAIna goThavI ApIza, tuM nakkI karI lAvuM ke A mAre Ane dhaNI tarIke svIkAravo, pachI bagaDI jAya ke sudharI jAya, paNa have enI joDe ja jIvana kADhavuM che, tyAra pachI huM tane goThavI ApuM, bahu sarasa. tArI lAIpha kema sudhAravI te amArA hAthamAM che ! praznakartA : moTAmAM moTI bIka mane e che ke huM jo lagna karuM to pachI mArA mokSanuM bhUlAI nA javuM joIe. - dAdAzrI : nA bhUlAI jAya. tuM lagna karIne mArI pAse teDI lAvuMne, to ene raphu mArI dauM cogaradama. tArA tAbAmAM rahe evuM karI ApuM, tArA tAbAmAM rahe ne e hau mokSamAM Ave. huM mArI ApuM. ghaNI chokarIone mArI ApuM chuM AvuM. rAge paDavuM joIe ne, dAdA rAge nA pADe to bIjuM koNa pADI Ape ! mATe nakkI karI nAkhe have. evuM bhaya nA pAmIza ke Ama thaI jAya ke tema thaI jAya ! je thavAnuM hoya te thAya. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa25 ne ke mA-bApe goThavI ApyuM hoya kAM to ame pote goThavyuM hoya ! banne thaI zake ne ?! dAdAzrI : goThavIne mA-bApane pasaMda paDe, evI rIte kAma levAnuM. evuM che ne ke A lava merejamAM zuM thAya che, ke pachI AnI joDe, AnI joDe lava, AnI joDe lava. te pachI be-traNa varasamAM pAchuM phrekacara thaI jAya ane pachI rakhaDI maravAnuM. - lava mereja ekaluM pasaMda karavA jevI cIja nathI. kAle Ano mijAja kevo nIkaLe te zI khabara paDe ?! mA-bApa khoLI Ape te jovuM, ke DaphoLa chokaro che ke DiphekTavALo che ? DaphoLa nA hovo joIe ! DaphoLa hoya kharAM ke ?! ApaNane kaMI game evuM joIe. kaMIka ApaNA manane game evuM joIe. buddhinI limiTamAM AvI javo joIe. ahaMkAra eksepTa kare evo joIe ane citta coMTe evo joIe. citta coMTe evo joIe ne. eTale e kare to vAMdho nathI. paNa ene ApaNe joI levo joIe. praznakartA: ko'ka vAra mA-bApa paNa chokaro zodhavAmAM bhUla karI zake ? dAdAzrI : emano IrAdo nathI, emano IrAdo to sAruM ja karavAno che. pachI bhUla thaI e ApaNA prArabdhanA khela che. zuM karavuM ! ane A tame svataMtra khoLo emAM bhUla thavAno saMbhava che. ghaNA dAkhalA pheIla gayelA. lava mereja, paNa mA-bApa maMjUra; uttama erenjaDa, saksesa jarUrI ghaNAM meLave janmAkSara; nahi to rahe mana para asara! praznakartA : eTale kevAM mereja beTara, lAIka erenja mereja ke lava mereja ? lava mereja karIe ke mA-bApa goThavI Ape e pramANe karIe ? dAdAzrI : kudaratI rIte nirmANa lagna thAyane, nirmANa lagna ApaNI rIte pharajiyAta baMdhAyeluM ja hoya. praznakartA: hA, to ame zodhI lAvyA hoya evuM paNa hoI zake. to e je tame kahyuM ne kudaratI goThavAyeluM hoya, eTale eno artha evo praznakartA: ghaNAM mA-bApa janmAkSaramAM mAne che, to e barAbara che sAcI vAta che ? dAdAzrI : e badhuM ThIka vAta che. janmAkSara to Aje jotAM ja AvaDatA nathI lokone ! e eka jAtanuM dabANa che. enAM karatAM ApaNe

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para6 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 127 samajIne kAma karavuM e zuM khoTuM che ! ApaNe badhuM cetIne karavuM ane tema chatAM muzkelI Ave to pachI prArabdhanA khela. bAkI cetIne karavuM badhI rIte ane e lagna karo tyAre huM tamane samajaNa pADIza ke tamArI ATalI pharajo che. e chokarAne huM samajaNa pADuM ke ATalI pharajo che e. beu pharajo AkhI jIMdagI Take. tAdAta choDI chetarAya letAM zAkabhAjI; dhoLo vara khoLe mahIM nIkaLe pAjI! pachI lagna karavAnuM game che kharuM ? kevAM chokarA joDe lagna karavAM joIe ? praznakartA : ejyukeTeDa, kalcarDa phemIlIno chokaro hovo joIe. dAdAzrI : zI rIte kalcarDa che evuM samajAya ? praznakartA : e to 'gembala' che. 'lAIpha gembala" ja che ne ! e ja jugAra che ! dAdAzrI : nA. paNa A ApaNe sakaraTeTI ke papaiyo hoya, to sakkaraTeTIvALo to, 'sAheba mIThI che." tyAre kahe, 'bhaI mane zI rIte khAtarI thAya ?" to kaheze, "huM kApIne jarA DagaLI kADhIne batAvuM.' to AmAM koI DagaLI kADhIne batADe kharo ?! DagaLI nA batAve, to zI rIte mAnI lauM ke mahIM mIThI che ! praznakartA : haM.. to pachI kevI rIte tapAsavuM ? dAdAzrI : tArA 'madhara' upara tane vizvAsa che ke "phAdhara' upara ? praznakartA : banne para. dAdAzrI : to pachI emane soMpI de ne A kesa. pelo eka bhaI hato. te enA phAdhare kahyuM ke, "A chokarI tuM joIne hA ke nA kahI de.' tyAre kahe, "nA mAre zAdI karavI nathI.' ene chokarIo badhI batADI. to kahe, "mane nathI karavuM.' eTale pachI enA phAdhara, e mane kahe che, A chokaro gAMThato nathI. chokarI ja pAsa nathI karato.' to meM ene kahyuM, "to sArI badhI rIte hovI joIe.' 'tuM chetarAI jaIza bA. enA karatAM anubhavIne soMpane ! tuM nAnI uMmarano kazuM mAla letAM chetarAI jAuM. enA karatAM anubhavI tArA phAdhara che ene soMpane !" 'dAdA tame kaho cho to sopuM ?" kahyuM, 'amArI gerenTI, le tAre mAthe hAtha mUka." ane enA phAdharane tyAM jaIne kahe che, 'tame tapAsa karIne lAvo e chokarI mAre paiNavI che." enA phAdhara, e mane kahe che, "zuM karyuM, tame dAdA ? e AvI rIte bole che !' alyA, paiNyo ! ane sukhI thaIne mane kahe che Aja, 'dAdA mArA phAdharane tamArA ja kahevAthI meM hA pADI, to huM sukhI thaI gayo. te mArI vAIpha vagara mane gamatuM nathI'. ame tArA ahitamAM hoya kharAM? koInA ahitamAM na hoIe. mArI vAta tane game AmAM ? ApaNA eka mahAtmA hatAM. eno ekano eka chokaro, meM kahyuM, alyA, tAre paiNavuM che ke nahIM paNavuM ?" tyAre kahe, "paiNIza dAdAjI. kevI pAsa karI lAvIza ?" to kahe, 'tame kaho ema karuM." enI meLe ja pAchuM kahevA mAMDyo. mArI mammI to pAsa karavAmAM hoziyAra che. e lokoe mahIM DIsAIDa karI lIdheluM, mammI je pAsa kare che, to AvI rIte hoya. A chokarIo bicArI bhoLI uparathI goruM cAmaDuM dekhAtuM hoya, 'sinemA jovAno tamane zokha che ?" tyAre pelo kaheze. 'hA' ane banI gayuM. A to mane ema kahe atyAre tAre tapAsa karavI hoya to zuM prazna pUchuM ? tuM kahe. praznakartA : tame zaramAvo cho ene. dAdAzrI : nA. emAM zaramAvA jevuM zuM che ? inDiyAnI leDI zaramAya kema karIne ! AryaputrI kahevAya. AryaputrI zaramAya nahIM. zaramAvAnuM nA hoya. te kevuM sarasa mane lakhIne ApyuM hatuM. eTale tArA mATe mAthAkUTa karuM chuM ne mArI mahenata nakAmI jaze, ema karIne mAthAkUTa nA karuM ! e to mArI mahenata Uge. zuM pUchuM kahene ? e zAkabajAramAM

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pa28 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa29 tuM zAka laI AvI chuM koI dahADo ? tane bhIMDA levA mokale to tuM laI AvuM kharI ? pachI mahIM haiDA nA nIkaLe ? praznakartA : vINIne lAvuM ne. dAdAzrI : AvaDe che tane A paiDA kahevAya ne A kUNAM ema. tyAre tArI madhara hoziyAra che ema ! nahIM to mArI pAse zIkhavA rahyo hato eka. e to 'Dabala grejyueTa' hato. to meM ene zAka levA mokalyo. mane kahe che, "zAka mArI pAse maMgAvo cho ?" meM kahyuM, 'eTaluM AvaDe, tyAra pachI bIjuM tane zIkhavADuM." tyAre kahe, 'zAkamAM zuM zIkhavAnuM !" 'tuM laI Ava to kharo paNa ! Aja bhIMDA laI Ava.' te mahIM A pAMca to A Ama toDIe to tUTe nahIM. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'jo tArI bhUla che ?" hA. bhUla to kharI.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'A jo tuM kahuM chuM. paNa zAkamAM zIkhavA jevuM che ke nahIM ?" "zIkhavA jevuM che." meM kahyuM, 'bIje dahADe tuM dUdhI lAvaje." A dUdhI sArI che ne, kahe che pelA dukAnadArane, pAchA vaDhaze tyAM AgaLa dAdAjI, pelo vepArI zuM kahe ? praznakartA : bahu sArI che. dAdAzrI : te lAvyo, te paiDI dUdhI Ama nakha mArI ene, to mahIM pese nahIM. eTale meM kahyuM ke, "alyA, Aja AvI dUdhI lAvyo ?" eNe kahyuM'tuM ne, "bahu sarasa che." e to kahe ja ne, vecavA beTho che. te mUA tuM Avo kevo bhaNelo ?!' Ane bhaNatara zI rIte kahevAya te ?! have Take nahIM mArI pAse ! loko Ave. zIkhavA Ave, paNa Take nahIM. eTale mAre thoDuM narama parIkSA mUkavI paDe, nahIM to jato rahe pAcho. enuM solyuzana zuM A chokarAo mATe ? dAdAzrI : badhA joIne ja paiNe che ne pachI mAramAra ne vaDhavaDhA. joyAM vagaranA paiNelA te bahu sArA cAle che. kAraNa ke kudarate ApeluM che, ane peluM pote DahApaNa karyuM che. eka chokarAe kahyuM enA phAdharane kaheto hato, hamaNe ja. paisAvALo, sArA kuTuMbano. te chokaro enA phAdharane kahe che, "mAre paiNavuM nathI." e to pachI enA phAdhara dekhADe, chatAM A nApAsa kare. pachI enA phAdhara kahevA lAgyA ke, "A chokaro AvuM kare che. ene kaMI rasto karI Apone.' chokarAne kahyuM, 'vyavasthita nathI ? tane vahu laI Ape e vyavasthita nahIM hoya ?" tyAre ke, 'hA, mane vyavasthita upara bahu khAtarI che.' kahyuM, 'khAtarI hoya to paiNane ApaNe pAsa karyA vagara. je jJAna upara khAtarI che, e jJAnathI ja cAlane ! ApaNane ahIMthI jaIe chIe te kayA AdhAre cAlIe chIe ! gADI athaDAze nahIM e AdhAre cAlIe chIe ne ! ko'ka dahADo athaDAye kharI paNa kaMI roja athaDAya ? mATe Azare cAlane tArI meLe.' pachI meM kahyuM, 'phAdharane tuM kahI de ke tame pAsa karI lAvo e mAre paiNavAnI.' pelA phAdhara pAsa karIne lAvyA. ne eNe tarata kahI dIdhuM ke, 'tame je pAsa karI lAvo e mAre paiNavAnuM.' te paiNyA pachI e mane kahe che ke, "saheja kalara Avo che." kahyuM, 'e kyAM joyuM pAchuM te ! kerI mIThI che ke nahIM e tapAsane !' kalara to koInI kerIno jarAka lIlo dekhAya saheja, bahu pILA nA dekhAtA hoya to, te e pachI kerI cAkhI cAkhIne to, 'kerI bahu sArI nIkaLI' kahe che. tyAre meM kahyuM "hA." enA phAdhare ya khuza thaI gayA, ke, "ohoho ! A chokarAne tame ATaluM badhuM ApyuM !' vastu che te joyA pachI sArI nIkaLe, gerenTI lakhelI hoya upara. vastu upara gerenTI lakhelI hoya, varSa dahADo cAlaze ke pAMca varSa cAlaze. bIjI vastu hoya to ApaNe jANIe ke A vastu AvI ja haze ane A vastunuM zuM khabara paDe nahIM kholIe tyAre ? praznakartA : kazI khabara nA paDe. dAdAzrI : eTale upara rUpALuM dekhAtuM hoya te mahIM kharAba ja pAsanI pasaMdagImAM gharamAM te pUcha; anubhavIto le lAbha, ta gaNa ene tuccha! praznakartA: A mArI nAnI dIkarI pUche che, ema ne ema kevI rIte paraNAya, pachI ApaNI AkhI lAIpha ja bagaDe ne ! to pahelAM chokarAne barAbara joIe-karIe ema. pachI kahe che khabara paDe ne ke chokaro sAro che ke nahIM. pachI lagna thAya. evuM A mane prazna pUchayA kare. to dAdA

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pa30 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra nIkaLe. kacaro ja nIkaLe. koI gAma javuM che, te ApaNe jatA hoIe ne traNa rastA Ave, to kayA rastA upara javuM ? ApaNe zuM karavuM ? praznakartA : sIdhA javAnuM. dAdAzrI : sIdhuM ! nA, nA. traNa rastA che, emAM kayo rasto sAco ApaNA gAma javuM che te ? praznakartA : nA, khabara nA paDe to. dAdAzrI : to pachI tuM dekhADuM e pramANe A be calAve ke emanA dekhADyA pramANe tuM cAluM ? praznakartA : e loko kahe e pramANe. dAdAzrI : haM, mATe AmAM koIne pUchIe ApaNe. lagnanI bAbatamAM tAre jovAno adhikAra che paNa emane paNa pUchIe ke A jAtanI kerIo tame pahelAM khAdhelI, te tamane pahelAM koI vakhata kharAba nIkaLelI ? tyAre e jANe ke A to khATI nIkaLe. tuM nA khaIza to sAruM ne pahelethI ! kerIo badhAe pahelAM khAdhelI. A lokoe ne tAre ja navI khAvAnI che. rAtano eka vAgyo hoya ane sagovahAlo Avyo hoya te kahe, mAre amuka jagyAe jovA jevuM che. to ene ekalAne javA de. paNa tane ekalIne javA de ? praznakartA : mane ekalI na javA de, koI sAthe. dAdAzrI : e sArI vAta che ne, na javA de te sAruM ke khoTuM ? praznakartA : sAruM. dAdAzrI : haM.... evuM badhuM samajavuM paDe badhuM. rIMgaNAnuM ya zAka banAvatA AvaDavuM joIe. badhuM AvaDavuM joIe ke nA AvaDavuM joIe ? samajavAnI bAbata hoya che. eTale vicAraje, A kaMI tArA hitamAM haze ke ahitamAM haze ? tArA mATe pUrepUrA hitamAM ke thoDA ahitamAM kharAM ? praznakartA : pUrepUrAM. dAdAzrI : A to tAruM mana pUrepUruM tArA hitamAM nathI hotuM. A badhAM to hitamAM pUrepUrAM hoya che. tAruM mana ghaNA pherA jUThuM paNa kare che ? koI dahADo kaniMganesa kare che ? praznakartA : hA, dAdAzrI : hA, e mananA kaniMganesa karatAM A badhA loko kaniMganesa nahIM kare. eTale badhuM pUchavuM ApaNe, pUchyA vagara kema thAya te ? chokaro to ema jANe ke bApa zuM jANe emAM. mAre jo paiNavAnuM temAM ! alyA mUA bApe khAdhelI hoya badhI jAtanI kerIo, ratnAgirI bIjI badhI. e khATAM nIkaLelA hoyane, pArasaNo paiNI lAve che mUA. mane kahe che gorI gaya che. mUA kApIza te khATI nIkaLaze. pahele dahADe ja nahIM khavAya tArAthI, pachI enI joDe zI rIte varSa dahADo kADhIza tuM? ApaNI khoLI lAvelI...! kALo kahI kensala kare; pachI pastAya khoyo are! ApaNA eka mahAtmAnI chokarI zuM kare ? enAM phAdharane kahe che ke "mane A chokaro nathI gamato.' have chokaro bhaNelo-karelo. have phAdharanuM, madharanuM dIla Thare evo, badhAnuM dIla Thare evo. eTale pelA phAdharane akaLAmaNa thaI gaI ke mahAparANe Avo sAro chokaro jaDyo tyAre pAchI choDI nA pADe che. thAkelo mANasa pachI bAvaLIyAnA nIce bese. thAkelo mANasa te kyAM bese ? bAvaLIyA nIce ! tyAre zuM thAya te ?! pachI emaNe mane kahyuM. eTale meM kahyuM, 'e choDIne mArI pAse bolAvo.' kahyuM, 'bena zuM vAMdho Avyo mane kahene. zuM vAMdho che ? UMco paDe che ? jADo paDe che ? pAtaLo paDe che ?" tyAre kahe, 'nA. jarA blekIza che.' meM kahyuM, e to huM UjaLo karI nAkhIza, bIjuM kazuM tane naDe che ? tyAre kahe, "nA, bIjuM

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532 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa33 kazuM ya nahIM." tyAre meM kahyuM, 'to hA pADI dene. pachI UjaLo huM karI ApIza." pachI e choDI enA pappAjIne kahe che, 'tame dAdAjI sudhI mArI pharIyAda karo ?" to zuM kare tyAre ?! paiNyA pachI meM kahyuM, 'bena UjaLo karavA sAbu maMgAvuM ke ?" tyAre bena kahe che, 'nA dAdAjI, UjaLo ja che.' vagara kAmanuM blekIza, blekIza ! e to bleka kaMI copaDe to kALo dekhAya jarA ane yalo copaDe to yallo dekhAya ! bAkI chokaro sAro hato. mane sAro lAgyo. ene javA kema devAya ? pelI zuM jANe ? moLo che jarAM. karI nAkhaje pachI, paNa AvuM pharI nahIM maLe !! dAdAtA jJAna sAthe lagata; eDajasTa thA kara AbharamaNa! praznakartA : huM dAdAnA jJAnamAM rahuM ane dAdAnA jJAnathI 'huM ne boDI judAM che' evI rIte rahuM. pachI dhAro ke mAruM lagna thAya, mane paiNAve mA-bApa ane e je lokone tyAM jauM, e chokaro ke koI mAnatuM nA hoya dAdAnI vAtane, to pachI huM kevI rItanAM eDajasTa thauM, kevI rItanA lAIpha pasAra karuM ? dAdAzrI : dAdAnI vAta mAne ke nA mAne, ApaNe zuM levAdevA ! e jarathostane mAnato hoya to ya ApaNe zuM ? praznakartA : e lokonA vicAro judAM nA paDI jAya ? dAdAzrI : bilIpha to separeTa ja hoya, ko'ka ja jagyAe bilIpha maLatI Ave. nahIM to eka brAhmaNa ne eka jaina cAlyA kare ! praznakartA : to ya eka thaI gayA che. dAdAzrI : hA, dAdAnI pAse eka thaI gayA juone ! chokarIo chokarAo sAthe jAya bahAra ane chokarAo chokarIo sAthe bahAra jAya, to e pApa che ? emAM kaMI vAMdho che ? dAdAzrI : hA. chokarAo sAthe pharavAnI icchA thAya to lagna karI levuM. pachI eka ja chokaro nakkI karavo. eka nakkI thayelo hovo joIe. nahIM to evo guno nahIM karavo joIe, jyAM sudhI lagna nA thAya tyAM sudhI ApaNe chokarAo joDe pharavuM nahIM joIe. praznakartA : ahIMyA to evuM che ke chokarA-chokarIo cauda varSanA thAya eTale pachI bahAra jAya pharavA. pachI che to meLa paDe. emAMthI AgaLa paNa vadhe. emAM pachI koIne kaMIka bagaDI jAya, ekabIjAne meLa nA paDe to pAchA bIjA chokarA joDe phare. pachI enI joDe nA paDe to trIjA, ema karatuM cakkara cAle ane eka sAthe be-be, cAra-cAra jaNAM joDe ya phare. dAdAzrI : dheTa Ijha a vAIlDanesa, vAIlDa lAIpha ! praznakartA: to zuM karavuM e loko e ? dAdAzrI : eka chokarAne sinsiyara rahevuM joIe ane chokaro ApaNane sinsiyara rahe, evI lAIpha hovI joIe. anUsinsiyaralI lAIpha e roMga lAIpha che. praznakartA : have emAM thAya evuM ke sinsiyara kemano rahe ? eka chokarA joDe pharatA hoya, pachI pAchuM emAMthI asinsiyara chokaro thaI jAya ke chokarI thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : to pharavAnuM ja baMdha karI devuM joIe ne ! lagna ja karavuM joIe. AphaTara ola vI Ara inDIyana. noTa vAIlDa lAIpha. ApaNe lagna karyA pachI AkhI jIMdagI sAthe sinsiyaralI rahIe chIe beu sAthe. eTale jo sinsiyaralI rahevuM hoya to pahelethI bIjA mANasanI phrenDazIpa nahIM hovI joIe. bahu kaDaka rahevuM joIe. emAM koI chokarA sAthe pharavuM nahIM joIe ane pharavuM hoya to eka chokaro nakkI karo ke bhaI AnI sAthe lagna karIza. mA-bApane kahI devuM ke huM DeTIMga bhAratIyothI karAya? jaMgalI jIvata phrenDa badalAya! praznakartA : ijha DeTIMga e sIna ? DeTIMga eTale A loko,

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra lagna karIza to AnI joDe ja karIza, mAre bIjAnI joDe karavuM nathI. anasinsiyara lAIpha Ijha vAIlDa lAIpha. 534 mitra paNa sinsiyara ghaTe! rUpALA paNa dagAbAjate zuM kare? praznakartA : ApaNe koI chokarAnI joDe atyAre DeTIMga karavAnuM baMdha karI daIe, paNa pAchuM pAMca varSa pachI paNa enI joDe ja paraNavuM hoya to zuM ? dAdAzrI : e to sAmo hA pADe to thAya ne ! sAmI pArTI hA pADe to thAya. pahelAM seTala karavuM joIe ApaNe. huM paraNIza pAMca varSa pachI evuM nakkI karyA pachI ! karyuM hoya to ? praznakartA : eTale evuM nakkI nA dAdAzrI : nakkI nA karyuM hoya to, ApaNe paiNI javuM, bIje game tyAM AgaLa, game te joDe. dagA-phaTakAmAM paDavuM, tenAM karatAM game tyAM paiNavuM sAruM. dagA-phaTakAmAM to, AkhI jIMdagI dago-phaTako ja rahyA karavAno. ApaNe ene bahAra khoLavA javuM paDe dhaNIne, e kyAMya gayo hoya mUo ! praznakartA : mITa nA khaIe, dArU nA pIe e sAruM ? ApaNe bemAM kyuM kharAba ? dArU pIvuM, mITa khAvuM e kharAba ke pachI DeTIMga kharAba ? dAdAzrI : beu, beu kharAba. praznakartA : DeTIMga kharAba ke A kharAba ? dAdAzrI : DeTIMga to bahu ja kharAba. DeTIMgane lIdhe to narka gati. e badhI eka ja lAIna, badhI kharAba vaLI. emAM DeTIMgathI narka gati. praznakartA : huM have che to DeTIMga choDI dauM chuM. to have huM pAcho svargamAM jaI zakIza. narkamAMthI huM bacI jaIza ? dAdAzrI : hA, mane khAtarI thaI jaze to !! huM badhI pachI enI mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra vidhi karI ApIza. mane khAtarI thAya ke tyAra pachI, pelAnI vidhi mArI pAse hoya che. be-cAra upavAsa karAvaDAvIe, bIjuM karAvaDAvIe, badhuM karAvaDAvIe ane pachI vidhi karI ApIe. e devane bolAvA paDe. deva pAchA samuM karI Ape. badhuM karI Ape. e badhuM karI ApIe. paNa mane khAtarI thavI joIe. 535 praznakartA : tamane khAtarI ApavAmAM mane keTalo vakhata joIze !? dAdAzrI : nA. e to badhuM mane potAne khabara paDI jaze. huM badhuM tapAsa karuM ne badhuM !!! praznakartA : dhAro ke koInI joDe ApaNe egrImenTa karyuM che, ke ApaNe pAMca varSa pachI paiNIzuM evuM nakkI karyuM, tyAra pachI enI joDe pharAya kharuM !? dAdAzrI : e sAco hoya to pharAya. nahIM to dagAkhora hoya to nahIM pharavuM. bIjA lokone dagA dIdhA hoya, e mANasane dagAkhora kahevAya. te dagAkhora enI joDe pharavuM nahIM. ochI AvaDatavALA hoya to vAMdho nahIM. rUpALo ocho hoya to vAMdho nahIM. paNa sinsIyara joIe. sinsIyara hoya to cAle, ApaNA kahyA pramANe cAle. rUpa karatAM cAritra UMcuM; sukhI thavA A samaja sAcuM! praznakartA : AMkha karatA cAritra moTI vastu nathI ? dAdAzrI : cAritra bahu UMcI vastu, cAritra kyAM juve che loko ? atyAranAM loko to bAhya ja pradarzana jue, AMkhanuM e badhuM rUpa jue che, cAritra jevI koI vastu ja nathI samajatA ! praznakartA : mAro poInTa tyAM ja AvIne aTakI jAya che ! dAdAzrI : kharuM kahe che. cAritra khoLe tyAre to bahu sAruM che. paNa pahelA badhA kADhI melyAM temanuM 'cAritra nathI' evuM kema mAnI lauM ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra geTaAuTa karyA badhAne, e keTalA jaNane geTaAuTa karI nAkhyA ? praznakartA : e to eno ya mane pastAvo thAya che. atyAre e vastu judI ja thaI gaI. 536 dAdAzrI : e UMcuM mUkI do ApaNe, paNa te dA'De cAritra jotI'tI ke bIjuM kaMI jotI'tI ? praznakartA : tyAre to evuM ja hatuM ke lagna nathI ja karavuM. atyAre problema vartamAnano che. tyAranuM have 'leTa go' ja karI nAkhavAnuM e mArI bhUla thaI ne eno pastAvo karuM chuM. dAdAzrI : have pastAvo thayo, paNa have jevuM cAritra khoLIe evuM nA thAya ne have ! ane thaI ya jAya enI puNya hoya to mATe rAha jovI ApaNe. AMkhanuM nA gamatuM hoya paNa cAritranuM hoya to cAle kharuM ? praznakartA : AMkhanuM ekadama ja kharAba hoya evuM nahIM, sAdhAraNa hoya. paNa e bhaNelo-gaNelo hoya, kamAto, nokarI-dhaMdhAvALo hoya evo cAle. dAdAzrI : hA, sAdhAraNa, sAdhAraNa ! cAritra to bahu moTI vastu che. cAritra khoLe e bahu moTI vastu che. sArI vastu kahevAya. cAritra kharAba hoya, vyasanI hoya. badhI jAtanI upAdhio hoya. vyasanI game ke nA game ? praznakartA : bilakula nahIM. dAdAzrI : ane cAritra sAruM hoya ne vyasanI hoya to ? praznakartA : sigareTa sudhI calAvI levAya. dAdAzrI : kharuM kahe che, tyAM sudhI nabhAvI levAya, pachI AgaLanuM zI rIte, peluM brAMDInA kapa bharIne pIve, zI rIte poSAya ? sIgareTa sudhI calAvI levAya, barobara che ! kharI vAta che ! enuM hada hoya, sIgareTa sudhI calAvI levAnuM ! ane cAritra to bahu moTI vastu che. tuM mAnuM chuM bena, cAritramAM ? cAritrane pasaMda karuM chuM tuM ? mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 537 praznakartA : enA vagara jIvAya ja kema ? dAdAzrI : hA, juo, ATaluM hindustAnanI strIo, chokarIo samaje ne to kAma kADhI nAkhe. cAritrane jo samaje to kAma kADhI nAkhe. praznakartA : amArA ATalA ucca vicAro sArA vAMcanathI thayA che. dAdAzrI : game tenA vAMcanathI, ATalA saMskAra paDyA ne ! sArA vicAronA ! lagna jIvata hoya sinsiyara; hatI sivAya ta UThe bIje tajara! merIDa lAIpha sinsiyara hovI joIe. koI bIjA puruSane jue nahIM ke bIjI strIne jue nahIM evI hovI joIe. nahIM to pachI lAIpha ja nathIne ! pachI to gAyo-bheMso jevuM ja thaI gayuM. praznakartA : ApaNane 'chokaro pavitra che ke nahIM" e kevI rIte khabara paDe ? dAdAzrI : hoya ja nahIM, kyAMthI hoya te ! evI AzA zuM karavA rAkhIe ! ApaNe jANIe ke A nAnI uMmarano che eTale bahu bagaDelo nahIM hoya, be-cAra vakhata bagaDelo haze, be-cAra jagyAe, AkhalA jevo nahIM hoya ! evuM jANe ke bahu moTI uMmarano hoya to AkhalA jevo hoya, so jagyAo pharelo hoya. eTale nAnapaNamAM paiNI javuM ApaNe, nahIM to pachI kuMvArA rahevuM sAruM ! nahIM to dagA che pachI A to badhA ! dagA !!! strI Ama dago de. puruSa Ama dago de. badhA dagAkhora jIvana jIve. emAM jIvana jIvavAnuM enA karatAM.... bhaI zuM kahe che ? praznakartA : have dAdA, evuM thayuM che ke A chokarIo bhaNavA mAMDI che eTale kerIyara banAvavuM che. eTale trIsa-pAMtrIsa varSa pachI paraNavAnI vAta kare che pachI chokarA thAya to ThIka che, na thAya to kaMI nahIM. have A sUjhyuM che ahIMyA. dAdAzrI : paNa kevI kharAba recaDa lAIpha (wretched), tyAM sudhI

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pa38 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra badhA aDhAra to dhaNI karyA hoya ! eka benane meM pUchyuM hatuM, to kahe che ke meM paccIsa dhaNI to karI nAkhyA che. mAre moMDhe kahI de badhuM sAcesAcuM ! lAIpha zA kAmanI ?! e be-cAra dhaNI karyA hoya ne paiNI jaIe to nikAla thaI gayo. pharI ApaNe zarata karIe ke bhaI have jo koI dhaNI nahIM karavAno navo. zaratathI baMdhAIe, egrImenTa hovuM joIe. nahIM to jAnavaramAM ne AmAM phera zuM ?!! enImala lAIphamAM zuM majA Ave ! enImala lAIpha sArI kahevAya ?! bena, zuM tuM kahuM chuM ? enImala lAIpha sArI kahevAya ?! lAIpha manuSyanI hovI joIe. praznakartA : A javAnIyAone to navI ja sUjhI che, have paraNavAnI jarUra nathI, kahe che. sAthe rahevAnuM, paraNavAnI zI jarUra che, kahe che ! evAM konTrAkTa nIkaLyA che, dAdA. dAdAzrI : e paNa paNe nahIM, to pelo chokaro bIjI chokarI joDe pharato hoya. pachI A jue tyAre kaheze, A to sAlu AvuM to breka DAuna thaI gayuM. A naryuM breka DAuna che. paNa to ya breka DAuna. mATe paNI ane egrImenTa karI lo barAbara. jyAMthI saDI gayuM, tyAMthI aTakAvo. saDatuM aTakAvo. A to badhuM breka DAuna che. have to paiNavAnI ja majA kyAM che ? badhA dagA-phaTakA ! breka DAuna ! eTale tAre paiNavuM hoya to, tuM mane kahe ke meM chokaro khoLI kADhyo che. huM tane paiNAvI ApuM. pachI enI atyAra sudhI be-cAra bhUla thaI gaI hoya, te ene kabUla karAvIe tuM tArI bhUlla thaI hoya te kabUla kare ane pachI mApha kare ane pachI navesarathI egrImenTa ! huM AvuM karAvaDAvuM mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa39 zodhavAnuM agharuM paDe, takalIpha paDe. dAdAzrI : takalIpha paDe. mATe UMco mUkI de kesa ja ? kaMI paiNavAthI ja sukhI thaI jAya che evuM kaMI nakkI che ! A badhA paiNelA ja che ne to ya jo moDhA upara divela badhA pharI vaLyA che ne ke nahIM pharI vaLyA ? paiNavAnuM e to vastu badhI helpIMga che, bIjuM kazuM nahIM ke bhaI huM bahArathI kamAI lAvuM ane tuM che te A karaje. bIjuM paiNavAnuM e kaMI emAM sukha che ! e to nA chUTake ! be-traNa kurakuriyA pAchA joDe pheravo. jone ko'ka pagane bacakAM bhare baLyAM ! are, A to kaMI lAIpha che ! pahelAM paMdara varSe paiNatA hatA ne, to strIe bIjA puruSanuM moTuM nA joyuM hoya, puruSe bIjI strInuM moTuM nA joyuM hoya, e lAIpha kahevAya. e amArA vakhatamAM lAIpha, bilakula sinsiyara lAIpha ! praznakartA : dAdA. mArA bAne paiNe sATha varSa thayA. meM savAla pUchayo emane, te vakhate mane lAge che, e cumotera varSanA hatA. meM kahyuM, tamane koIvAra bIjo dhaNI pasaMda karavAnI icchA thaI gaI hatI ?! nA, bIjo vicAra ja nathI Avyo, kahe che ! dAdAzrI : joyo ja nA hoya, vicAra ja nA Ave. kAraNa ke paMdara varSe ja paiNI jAya. praznakartA : paMdara varSe ja paiNI gayA hatA rAITa. dAdAzrI : A moTI uMmara lokoe nakkI karyuM eTale ! praznakartA : paNa evA vicAra paNa kyAMthI utpanna thayA ? dAdAzrI : nA, pelAmAM zuM thayuM hatuM, lAIpha TUMkI thaI gaI hatI. lAIpha zorTa thaI gaI hatI. te lAIpha loMga karavA mATe karyo A rasto lokoe ! A to moTI uMmara thaIne paMdara varSanI upara, eTale bagaDe ja haMmezA, e niyama che evo. paNa zarIranuM baMdhAraNa sAruM rahe, baMdhAraNa sAruM thAya. A to atyAre kaMI lAIpha che ! keTalIka beno to mane kahe che, amAre brahmacArI rahevuM che. A praznakartA : sarakhI uMmare paiNI javuM joIe. kAraNa ke pachI jema jema laMbAtuM jAya ema chokarAo nA maLe. dAdAzrI : hA. pachI rakhaDI maravAnuM badhuM. praznakartA : moTI uMmaranA chokarAo zodhavAnA paNa agharA che Aje. e uMmaranAM pachI chokarA bAkI rahe nahIM ne, paiNyA vagaravALA !

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540 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 541 praznakartA : manamAM evuM hatuM ke nathI ja karavuM ema. dAdAzrI : zuM kAraNathI nathI karavuM ? praznakartA : kaMI ja kAraNa nathI. dAdAzrI : tane evuM lAgatuM'tuM, A chokarAo badhA taDabUca jevA che. evuM lAgatuM'tuM? nA, eka choDIne evuM lAgatuM'tuM. choDI mane maLIne te kahe che, AmAM bhalIvAra nathI lAgato. te posAya ja nahIMne, kahe che. AvA dagAkhora bhaIbaMdho, bhAgIdAra badhA. ApaNe rophathI dharmadhyAna karatA hoya to te dagAkhora enI phrenDane teDIne Ave, le ! eTale pachI mahIM zuM baLatarA UbhI thAya. mATe nakkI karI nAkha jhaTapaTa, ame AvatI sAla AvIe te ghaDIe tame beu sAthe mArI joDe Avajo. jevo maLe evo calAvI levAno have. nakkI karI nAkha. e dhAre, nakkI kare tyAre paiNI jAya. rAha joIzuM to majA nahIM Ave ! nahIM to nakkI kara ke have nathI paiNavuM, evuM nakkI karI nAkha. bAkI A to dagA-phaTakA che. tamane badhAMne nA dekhAya. mane to dekhAya badhuM. naryA dagA-phaTakA badhA che ane dago hoya, tyAM sukha nA hoya koI dahADo ya ! sinsIyara rahevuM joIe. ApaNI paiyA pahelAM bhUlo thaI hoya. e beu jaNanI eksepTa karI devaDAvIe ame ane pachI emane egrImenTa karI ApIe e pharI sinsIyara. jovAnuM nahIM bIjI jagyAe. game ke nA game paNa pachI sinsIyara rahevAnuM. ApaNI madhara nA gamatI hoya. to paNa ene sinsIyara rahIe chIe ne ! eno svabhAva kharAba hoya madharano, to ya sinsIyara rahIe chIene ! paraNatAM pahelAM, pachI jA dAdAne; sukhI thaze, jo pasaMdagI sAdAte! sArAte nA kahI, mArI tarachoDa; bhogava phaLa, mare paiNavAnA koDa! pahelAM kaMI sAruM AvyuM hoya ne uDADI melyuM evuM banyuM nathI ? praznakartA : evuM banyuM che. dAdAzrI : tenuM A phaLa che. tane samaja paDIne ? praznakartA : meM bahu nA pADI che, eTale mane have pastAvo thAya che. dAdAzrI : eka-be kesamAM AvuM ene tarachoDa vAgelIne, tenuM A badhuM phaLa AveluM che. have e to phaLa to bhogavye ja chUTako che ne ?! te dA'De zA mATe evuM karatI'tI ? ke manamAM evI khumArI rahetI'tI ? nA, ema nahIM, khulluM karane, emAM vAMdho zo che ? evuM ApaNe muzkelI Ave to mArI pAse AvavuM. ne kahI javuM ke A muzkelI AvI che. praznakartA: huM tamane AvIne mAruM du:kha kahuM to tamane ciMtA thAya ne ke mArI choDIne AvuM du:kha paDyuM ! dAdAzrI : mane ciMtA thatI haze ? amane ciMtA-biMtA nA thAya. hA ene DAhyoDamaro karI ApIe. praznakartA: pachI tame pappAne kaho eTale pachI pappAne ciMtA thAya. dAdAzrI : nA. huM pappAne kahuM ja nahIMne, huM to A prAIveTa rAkhuM. praznakartA H to huM tamane badhI vAta karIza. dAdAzrI : tuM mane prAIveTa kahe. mane je koI paNa mANasa prAIveTa kahI jAya, e huM koIne ya nathI kaheto. kazuM ja koI jANe nahIM. nahIM to e mANasa to ApaghAta kare. potAnI AbarU gaI te badala. eTale evuM kahevAya nahIM koIne ya. ame badhuM AkhI duniyAnuM khAnagI bharI rAkhyuM che, mahIM badhAM ya sIllaka ! Ama jouM eTale khabara paDI jAya ke A pelo Avyo hato. eTale ame pappAne koIne kahIe nahIM. mammIne ya nA kahIe

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542 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra ne pappAne ya nA kahIe. UlaTuM ema kahIe ke Ano dhaNI, chokaro bahu sAro che. ghaDabhAMja-bhAMjaghaDa e amAruM kAma ja nahIM. tane ema lAgyuM A 'dAdA' bhAMjaghaDIyA che, ema ? choDI goThave bRha paiNatAM pahelAM; tUTe cAstribaLa, ne tallAka maLelAM praznakartA : saMsAra vyavahAramAM pUrvanA karmodaye je thayAM hoya te mujabanuM cAlatuM hoya badhuM emAM koI prapaMca mAlama paDyo ke ApaNI sAme A prapaMca thaI rahyo che to enI sAme kaI bhUmikAthI UbhA rahevAya ? "samabhAve nikAla' karavA mATe ? dAdAzrI : vAMko dhaNI maLyo che to ene kema karIne jItavo ? kAraNa prArabdha lakhelo te choDe nahIM ne ! ne ApaNuM dhAryuM thAya nahIM evuM A jagata. to mane kahI de che ke, 'dAdA dhaNI Avo maLyo che.' to tane tarata ja huM badhuM rIpera karI ApIza ane tane cAvI ApI daIza. auraMgAbAdamAM eka musalamAnanI chokarI AvI, meM pUchayuM, 'zuM nAma ?" tyAre kahe che, 'dAdAjI, mAruM nAma mazarUra.' kahyuM, 'Ava. ahIM besa pAse, kema AvI tuM ?" tyAre kahe, 'mAro bhAI dAdAjInAM bahu ja vakhANa kare che, dAdAjI, dAdAjI, dAdAjI, dAdAjI. tyAre mArA manamAM ema thayuM ke dAdAjI te kevAM haze ?" tyAre meM kahyuM, 'A che evA, jo ne A dAdAjI che !' e jANe ke dAdAjI kevA paTIyAM pADatA haze." ne kevA thobhiyAM rAkhyAM haze ne kevA ahIM AgaLa ! eno bhAI zAthI vakhANa kare ? enA bhAIne jJAna ApyuM hatuM. te pachI jJAna laIne ahIMthI sIdho IrAka gayo. IrAka daseka hajAra rUpiyAno pagAra maLato haze. te enI bena paiNavAnI thaI tyAre pAcho Avyo. have ahIMthI jJAna laIne gayo. pachI mane maLelo ja nahIM paNa pAcho Avyo tyAre ghera AvIne dAdAjInAM vakhANa karavA mAMDyo ke, 'dAdAjI che ne mAre dAdAjInAM darzana karavAnA che." mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 543 praznakartA : e kahe che, irAkanuM yuddha cAlatuM hatuM. te vakhate AjubAju badhe baoNmbArDIMga thayA, te vakhate badhe saLage. paNa mane kazI asara nahotI thaI. dAdAjInuM jJAna hAjara rahyuM ke 'vyavasthita che, huM zuddhAtmA chuM.' dAdAzrI : hA. tyAM dAdAjI hAjara rahetA hatA. te pachI enI bena to bhaDakI ke evA dAdAjI tyAM rakSaNa kare che ? eTale bena AvI darzana karavA ke tArA guru kevA che, te mAre jovA AvavuM che. e 'jJAnI puruSa' kevA che ! te AvI. pachI AvIne enAM manamAM ThIka lAgyuM, jarA jotAMnI sAthe ja ThIka lAgyuM, aMtara karyuM enuM ke khudAnAM AsisTanTa jevAM to lAge ja che e. ene lAgyuM eTale pachI beThI. pachI bIjI vAto nIkaLI. pachI meM kahyuM, 'zuM karuM chuM tuM ?" tyAre kahe, 'huM lekacarara chuM. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'zAdI-bAdI karI ke nathI karI ?" tyAre kahe, "nA. zAdI karI nathI, paNa vivAha thayelA che.' kahyuM, 'kyAM thayelAM che, muMbaImAM ?" tyAre kahe nA, pAkistAnamAM.' 'paNa have kyAre paiNavAnI chuM ?" tyAre kahe, 'have cha mahinAmAM ja.' meM kahyuM, 'konI joDe ? dhaNI kevo khoLI kADhyo che ?" tyAre kahe, 'laoNyara che.' pachI meM kahyuM ke, 'e dhaNI karIne pachI tane kaMI duHkha nahIM Ape ? atyAre tane kazuM du:kha che nahIM ane dhaNI karavA jaIza ne dhaNI du:kha Apaze to ?" meM kahyuM, 'enI joDe zAdI karyA pachI tAro projekTa zo che ? enI joDe zAdI thaI pahelAM tuM projekTa to karI rAkhe ne ? ke enI joDe AvI rIte vartavuM ? ke nA karI rAkhe ? tyAM paiNyA pachI kaMI te taiyArI rAkhI melI che kazI ? paiNyA pachI e layara joDe meLa kema paDaze ke nahIM tenI ?" tyAre e kahe che, "meM badhI taiyArI karI rAkhI che, e jarAka Ama bolaze to huM sAmo Avo javAba ApIza, e Ama kaheze to huM Ama kahIza, e Ama kaheze to eka-eka badhA javAbo mArI pAse taiyAra che." A jeTalI A raziyAe taiyArI karI nAkhI che ne, eTalI ja taiyArIo karI rAkhI che. phUla taiyArIo banne jaNAe. te A matabheda

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pADavAnI ja taiyArIo karI rAkhI hatI. pelo jhaghaDo kare te pahelAM ja phoDe ! jema A amerikAnI sAme raziyAe badhI taiyArI rAkhI melI che ne, evI eNe taiyArI rAkhelI ke e peluM Ama saLagAve to ApaNe Ama saLagAvavAnuM. eTale jatAM pahelAM ja hullaDane ! e Ama tIra choDe. tyAre ApaNe A bAju choDavAnuM raDAra. e AmanuM choDe tyAre ApaNe A bAju choDavAnuM. meM kahyuM, A to kolDa vaoNra teM UbhI karI. kyAre zame e ? kolDa vaoNra baMdha thAya kharI ? A juone thatI nathIne moTA sAmrAjyavALAne raziyA-amerikAne ?! 544 A chokarIo badhuM evuM kare, e goThavI rAkhe badhuM. A chokarAo to bicArA bhoLA ! chokarAo e goThave kare nahIM ane te ghaDIe che te avasthAno mAra khAI jAya, bhoLA kharAMne ! A tame je kaho cho ne prapaMca sAme taiyArI zuM karI rAkhavAnI ? paNa pelI bAIe to taiyArI badhI karI rAkhelI, baoNmbArkIMga badhuM ja. e Ama bole to eTeka, Ama bole to eTeka. badhI ja taiyArI rAkhI melI che, kahe che ! pachI vacce ene meM kahyuM, 'A koNe zIkhavADyuM che tane ? kADhI melaze ne DAyavorsa laI leze ane pelo ApI deze tallAka !' tallAka ApI de ke nA de ? meM kahI dIdhuM ke A rItathI to cha mahinAmAM tallAka maLaze. tAre tallAka levA che ? A rIta khoTI che. pachI meM ene kahyuM, tallAka tane nA Ape, eTalA mATe tane zIkhavADuM. tyAre kahe che, 'dAdAjI e nA karuM to zuM karuM ? nahIM to e to dabAvI de.' meM kahyuM, 'e zuM dabAvavAno hato ? laoNyara bhamaraDo e tane zuM dabAvavAno hato ?!' pachI meM kahyuM, "bena mAruM kaheluM mAnIza ? tAre sukhI thavuM che ke du:khI thavuM che ? bAkI je baIo badhI taiyArI karIne to enA dhaNI pAse gayelI, paNa chevaTe du:khI thayelI. huM mArA kahyAthI jAne, bilakule ya kazI taiyArI karyA vagara jA.' pachI ene samajAvyuM. gharamAM roja kakaLATa thAya tyAre vakIla kaheze, 'mUI baLI enA mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra karatA bIjI lAvuM.' emAM pAchA TITa phora TeTa (jevA sAthe tevA) che A ? premanA sodA karavAnA che tyAM AvuM ? sodA zAnA karavAnA che ? praznakartA : premanA. 545 dAdAzrI : premanA. bhale AsaktimAM hoya paNa kaMIka prema jevuM che ne kaMIka. enI upara dveSa to nathI Avato ne ! meM kahyuM, AvuM nA karAya. tuM to ema bhaNelI eTale AvI taiyArIo karI rAkhuM chuM ? A vaoNra che ? hindustAna ne pAkistAnanI vaoNra che A kaMI ? ane jagatamAM e ja karI rahyA che badhA. A choDIo-boDIo, chokarAo badhAM e ja, pachI e bannenuM jIvana bagaDe. pachI ene samajaNa pADI badhI. dhaNI joDe AvI rIte vartana karavuM joIe. AvI rIte eTale e vAMkAM thAya to tuM sIdhI cAlaje. enuM samAdhAna karavuM joIe, ukela lAvavo joIe. enI bAjhavAnI taiyArImAM ApaNe ekatA rAkhavI joIe. e juduM pADe to ya ApaNe ekatA rAkhavI joIe. e juduM pADa pADa kare to ya kahevuM ApaNe eka chIe. kAraNa ke A badhI rIleTIva sagAIo che, e phADI nAkhe to ApaNe phADI nAkhIe to chUTI jAya kAle savAre. eTale tallAka ApI deze. tyAre kahe, 'mAre zuM karavAnuM ?" meM ene samajaNa pADI, eno mUDa joIne cAlavAnuM, kahyuM. eno mUDa joje ane atyAre mUDamAM nA hoya, to ApaNe aMdara 'allAha'nuM nAma lIdhA karavuM ane mUDa phare, eTale ApaNe enI joDe vAtacIta cAlu karavI. e mUDamAM nA hoya ane tuM saLI karuM, eTale bhaDako thaze kaMI. ene nirdoSa tAre jovA. e tane avaLuM bole to ya tAre zAMti rAkhavI, prema sAco hovo joIe. AsaktimAM to cha-bAra mahinAmAM pachI pAchuM tUTI ja javAnuM. prema sahanazIlatAvALo hovo joIe, eDajasTebala hovo joIe. te mazarUrane meM to bhaNAvI dIdhI, evI bhaNAvI dIdhI. meM kahyuM, kazuM ya nahIM, e AmanuM tIra Thoke to ApaNe sthiratA pakaDIne 'dAdA, dAdA' karyA karaje. pharI AmanuM Thoke to sthiratA pakaDIne 'dAdA, dAdA' karaje. tuM nA ekuM ya pheMkIza, kahyuM ! meM vaLI vidhi karI ApI.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa47 pachI pUchayuM ke, 'tAre gharamAM koNa koNa che ?" tyAre kahe, 'mAre sAsu che.' 'sAsu joDe tuM kemanuM eDajasTamenTa laIza ?" to kahe, 'e enI joDe ya huM pahoMcI vaLIza, sAsune." paNa pachI meM ene samajaNa pADIne. pachI kahe che, 'hA, dAdAjI mane gamyuM A badhI vAta.' 'tyAre tuM A pramANe karaje to tallAka nA Ape, ne sAsu joDe rAge paDe." ane pachI eka sukhaDanI mALA lAvI hatI. te mALA mane paherAvI. meM kahyuM, 'A mALA tuM laI jaje ane tyAM AgaLa mUkI rAkhaje ane mALAnA darzana karIne pachI A tAro vyavahAra calAvaje. dhaNI joDe tAro vyavahAra che te karaje to bahu suMdara cAlaze." te mALA atyAre ya mUkI rAkhI che. ene cAritrabaLanI vAta karelI. e dhaNI game te bole, game evuM tane kare, to ya te ghaDIe tuM mauna pakaDuM ane zAMta bhAve joyA karuM, to tArAmAM cAritrabaLa utpanna thaze ane eno prabhAva paDaze enA upara. laoNyara hoya to ya. e game tevuM vaDhe, to tuM dAdAnuM nAma leje ane sthira raheje ! manamAM ema thaze ke A kevI ! A to hAratI ja nathI. pachI e hAre. eTale paNa karyuM evuM, chokarI evI hatI. dAdA jevA zIkhavADanAra maLe to pachI zuM rahyuM have ! nahIM to eDajasTamenTa AvuM hatuM paheluM, raziyA ne amerikA jevuM. tarata tyAM baTana dAbatAMnI sAthe saLage badhuM, haDahaDATa. A to kaMI mANasAI che ?! zene mATe Daro cho ? zene mATe jIvana hoya ? saMjogo ja evA che ke, have A zuM kare che ! saMjogo evA che pAchAM ! ene A jItavAnI taiyArI kare che ne, te cAritrabaLa 'lUjha thaI jAya. ame koI jAtanI taiyArI nA karIe. bAkI cAritrane vAparavuM, ene tame taiyArI kaho cho, paNa enAMthI tamArAmAM je cAritrabaLa che e "lUjha' thaI jAya che ane jo cAritrabaLa khalAsa thaI jaze to tyAM tArA dhaNI AgaLa tArI kiMmata ja nahIM rahe. eTale e bAIne sArI samaja paDI gaI. eTale mane kahe che ke 'have dAdAjI, huM koI dahADo ya hArIza nahIM. AvI gerenTI ApuM chuM.' ApaNI sAme koI prapaMca karatuM hoya ne emAM sAmuM taiyArI karIe ne to ApaNuM cAritrabaLa tUTI jAya. game eTalAM prapaMca kare to potAnAM prapaMcathI pote ja phasAya che. paNa jo tame che te taiyArI karavA jazo to tame ja enA prapaMcamAM phasAzo. amArA sAmuM to badhA bahu lokoe prapaMca karelAM. paNa e prapaMcIo phasAyelA. kAraNa ke amane kazuM ya eka ghaDIvAra vicAra nA Ave. nahIM to taiyArI karavAnA vicAra Ave ne to ya ApaNuM cAritrabaLa tUTI jAya. zIlavAnapaNuM tUTI jAya. zIlavAna eTale zuM ? ke e gALo devA Avyo hoya ne te ahI Ave ne besI rahe. ApaNe kahIe ke kaMIka bolo. bolone, paNa enAthI akSare ya bolAya nahIM. e zIlano prabhAva ! eTale ApaNe taiyArI karIe ne to zIla tuTI jAya. eTale taiyArI nahIM karavAnI. jene je karavuM hoya te karo. badhe huM ja chuM, kahIe. praznakartA : paNa e ApaNane kheMcI javAnA prayatno thatA hoya to? dAdAzrI : e game te kheMcI javAnuM paNa ApaNe nathI kheMcAvuM, to e game te karene enuM kazuM cAlavAnuM nathI ! praznakartA : paNa e nathI kheMcAvuM eTalA saMkalpamAM to rahevuM ja paDe dAdAzrI : nahIM. e nathI kheMcAvuM e ApaNe ApaNA svAdhina ja rahevuM. praznakartA : eTale ApaNI sahajasthitimAM ja rahevuM. dAdAzrI : hA, sahajasthitimAM ja ane saMjogavazAt javuM paDe, AvuM kaMI kheMcAvuM paDe, to pharI e bAbatamAM ApaNe e lappana-chappana nahIM rAkhavAnI. praznakartA: tanmayAkAra na thavuM ? dAdAzrI : emAM bilakule ya tanmayAkAra nahIM thavAnuM. paheluM zIlavAnapaNuM utpanna thavA do. A 'jJAna' ApyA pachI mANasa dahADe dahADe zIlavAna thato jAya. jene A bahAra prabhAvazALI kahe che e to bahu nAnI vastu che. e to A bahAranA mANasone ya hoya che. paNa

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548 mA-bApa chokarAno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 549 zIlavAnapaNuM to bhagavAna AgaLe ya potAnI inphirIyAriTI kopleksa nA lAge ane jene bhagavAna AgaLa inphirIyAriTI komleksa nA lAge to pachI A manuSyo AgaLa to nA ja lAge ne ? zIlavAna !! zIla to badhI rIte rakSA kare. devalokathI rakSA kare, A sApa, jIvaDAM ne badhAM jAnavarothI rakSA kare, badhAthI rakSA kare, mATe zIlanI ja jarUra che. ane zIla kyAre utpanna thAya ? "jJAnI puruSe' jJAna ApyA pachI, pachI potAno navarAzano upayoga zIlamAM kare. zIla eTale sAmo che te laDhAInI taiyArI karato hoya tenI sAme ApaNe laDhAInI taiyArI nahIM. je taiyArIo karyA kare che enuM badhuM lIkeja che, zIlanuM AkhuM lIkeja. pachI zIla khalAsa thaI jAya che. praznakartA : paNa ApaNe A zIlane jALavavA mATe vADa karavI joIe ke jethI bakarAM-gheTAM carI nA jAya ? dAdAzrI : nA. e to A zIla e to vastu evI che ne ke, ene bakarAM-gheTAM to care ja nahIM, koI kazuM ene aDe nahIM, enuM nAma zIla kahevAya. eTale A zIlane tamAre sAcavavuM nA paDe. koI kaheze ke rAte koI carI jAya to ? eTale pAchuM jAgavuM paDe ? alyA, jAgavAnuM nahIM. suI jAva nIrAMte. tame ArAmathI suI jAva. - evuM che ke koI saMjogomAM chokaro sAmo thAya, vAIpha koI saMjogomAM sAmI thAya, te ghaDIe tame lapakA karo to tamAruM zIla khalAsa thaI jAya. enAM karatAM ApaNe joyA karavAnuM ke A mazIna kaMI bagADeluM lAge che. te kaI bAjuthI mazIna bagADyuM che te joyAM karavuM. nahIM to A loka to zuM kare ke 'tuM AvI chuM, tuM tevI chuM' kahe eTale thaI rahyuM, zIla enuM khalAsa thaI gayuM. amane to koI lAkha gALo bhAMDe to ya ame kahIe ke Ava bA, tyAre koI kaheze ke chokaro sAmo thAya che to atyArathI DarAvIe nahIM to to pachI e vadhAre sAmo thaze. nA, e DarAvavAthI to tamAruM zIlavAnapaNuM tUTatuM jaze ne tamAre nirbaLatAo vadhatI jaze, ane chokaro caDhI besaze ! eTale tame jo ene DarAvazo nahIM ane tame e sahana karIne sAMbhaLI lezo to dhIme dhIme e 'Tarna AuTa thaI jaze. e A zIlanA prabhAvane lIdhe ! bAkI A nahIM jANavAthI to loko bicArAM mAra khAya che ! prapaMcanI sAmuM taiyArI karavA mATe ApaNe navA prapaMca ubhA karavA paDe ane pachI ApaNe slipa thaI jaIe ! ApaNI pAse e hathiyAra ja nathI ne ! have e hathiyAra ApaNI pAse nathI. enI pAse to e hathiyAra che to e bhale kare ne ! chatAM e 'vyavasthita' che ne, paNa to ya enuM hathiyAra ene vAge, evuM 'vyavasthita che !! ene samajaNa badhI mahIM phITa thaI gaI. dAdAjIe DroiMga karIne ApyuM. mane kahe che, "AvuM DroIga kahevA mAMgo cho ?" meM kahyuM, "hA. evuM DroIga.' kahevuM paDe ! pachI choDIe enA bApAne, mAne vAta karI. te bApA DaoNkaTarane, te darzana karavA AvyA. jo Ama to dAdAjIne kaMI vAra lAge che ? mazarUra AvavI joIe ahIM AgaLa. AvI gaI to oparezana thaI gayuM haDahaDATa. jo kAyama tyAM AgaLa 'dAdAjI, dAdAjI' roja saMbhAre che ne ! mokSe pugADe eDajasTa evarIvhera; A sUtra pakaDI le to, badhe lIlA lahera! te atyAre ya darzana karI, saMsAra sarasa calAve che. ene kahI dIdhuM ke dAdAe mAro Akho saMsAra sudhAryo, kahe che. e have laTTAmAM Utare nahIM. nahIM to laoNyarane zuM vAra lAge ? varasa dA'Do thayo ne gharaDI jevI jarA dekhe ke tallAka ! emane tallAka ApI devAmAM vAra zI lAge ? A tamAre tallAka ApavI hoya to apAya ? praznakartA : nA apAya. dAdAzrI : nA apAya, nahIM ? te e to tallAka ApI de. ApaNe to A mokSamArgamAM madada kare che ne ke herAna kare che ? tame emane mokSamArgamAM madada karo cho ke herAna karo cho ? praznakartA: madada kare che, dAdA.

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550 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra (19) saMsAramAM sukha sadhAya sevAthI ! dAdAzrI : saLI karatA hazo ? praznakartA : nA, have saLI baMdha karI dIdhI. dAdAzrI : tyAre sAruM. mokSe javAne mATe madada karavAnI jarUra che, be jaNa hoya to ! ane be nA hoya to ekalo hoya to ekalo, paNa pachI be hoya to uttama ne ! joDIyuM hoya to to sAruM ne ? be paiDA vagara gADuM zI rIte nabhe te ? bhalene "cakura cakura" bolatuM hoya paiDuM, be che ne ? eTale mazarUranuM jIvana sudharI gayuM. koI pAMsaro nA thAya to huM to kahI dauM ke tAro AtmA kabUla kare, paNa tAre pAMsaruM thavuM nathI, to nirAMte ame hAryA chIe te tuM jItyo. ghera rezamI cAdara lAvIne sUI jA nirAMte jaIne. kAraNa ke ene harAvIne mokalIe to UMgha nA Ave mUAne AkhI rAta. te ApaNane doSa lAge. ApaNA nimitte emane UMgha nA Ave to ApaNane doSa lAge ne ? enA karatA ApaNe hArIe, zuM khoTuM ? praznakartA : dAdA, A 'eDajasTa evarIvhera' e je Ape kahyuM ene lIdhe to badhA bhalabhalAno nikAla AvI jAya ! dAdAzrI : badhA nikAla AvI jAya. amAro eka eka zabda che te badhA nikAla jaldI lAvanArA, e mokSe laI jAya TheTha. 'eDajasTa evarIvhera !' praznakartA : atyAra sudhI jyAM gamatuM'tuM tyAM badhA eDajasTa thatA'tA ane ApanAmAM to evuM lAgyuM ke jyAM nA gamatuM hoya tyAM tuM vahelo eDajasTa thA. dAdAzrI : 'evarIvhera eDajasTa' thavAnuM che. brahmacArI paNa ghaTe vijaya; sevA karI rAkho sahune nirbhaya! tuM tArI rIte phoDavAra vAtacIta karane, vAMdho zo che? praznakartA : eNe samajAvAno prayatna karyo, paNa enA mammIne kaMI besatuM nathI, phITa thatuM nathI. emane to potAno je aMdara che bhAva. e ja che. to ema kahevAnuM che ke dIkarAnI pharaja kharI ke nahIM, ke madharanuM mAnavuM joIe, madhara AnaMdamAM rahe evo vyavahAra rAkhavA mATe. dAdAzrI : pharaja kharI. paNa udaya je hoya te choDe nahIM ne ! praznakartA : paNa je udaya hoya tene tarachoDa to na marAya ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, eTale meM bahu kahI joyuM. paNa e kahe che, game e thaze, huM paiNavAno nathI ! haMDreDa parasenTa nA ja kahI de che mane. praznakartA H nahIM, e nahIM. lagnanI vAta javA do. lagnanI vAta bAjumAM rAkhIe ApaNe. paNa sevA karavI ja joIe ne !

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papara mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 553 dAdAzrI : vartana ? kaI bAbatamAM kharAba che ? praznakartA : e vinaya-viveka nathI rAkhato. dAdAzrI : e khoTuM kahevAya. praznakartA mA-bApa sAthe je vinaya-viveka joIene te nathI jarA dAdAzrI : sevA to karavI ja joIe. sevA to, hA karavI joIe. praznakartA: emanI sevA karavI joIe ne nirmaLa premathI, premathI, vinayathI, parama vinayathI. dAdAzrI : e badhuM so TakA. praznakartA : emano prema saMpAdana karavo ja joIe. dAdAzrI : hA, te vAMdho nathI. praznakartA : lagna bAjumAM choDI daIe ApaNe, lagnanI vAta nahIM. dAdAzrI : nA, e lagna bAjue hoya to kazo vAMdho nathI. e zuM kahe che, "huM nathI paiNavAno' e vAta nakkI che. bAkI badhI pharajo pUrI karavAnI. praznakartA : paNa bAkInI pharajo to bajAvavI ja joIe ne ! dAdAzrI : ane evo kharAba nathI e. pachI have tema chatAM ya jo AMTI nA ukalatI hoya, to bannenA karmanA doSa. je hoya te bhogavavAnuM. udaya karma koIne choDe nahIM ne ! mA-bApane samajAvI levI sahI: tene ja sAcI dIkSA mahAvIre kahIM! dAdAzrI : nA, e nA hovuM joIe, khoTuM kahevAya. so TakA roMga che, cAle nahIM. vinayI vartana UMcuM hovuM joIe. mA-bApano upakAra kema bhUlAya ? upakAra bhUlAya nahIM. praznakartA : ghaNI vakhata e to evA zabda bole che ne te mane bahu AghAta lAge che. eTale Ama Akho divasa mane pachI gabharAmaNa thAya ne evuM badhuM thayA kare. dAdAzrI : A noMdha rAkhato nathI, madhara je bole che te rekarDa bole che te ! jJAnapUrvaka noMdha-boMdha karavI joIe. evuM ahIM cAle nahIM. mArI nAkhe to marI javuM joIe, paNa te mA-bApano vinaya-viveka nA toDAya. praznakartA : huM ekasepTa karuM chuM, dIkarA tarIke mArA vinayaviveka nathI barAbara. paNa evA saMyogo AvI jAya che ke bolAI javAya che, mArI icchA nathI hotI, paNa bolAI javAya che. enuM pratikramaNa paNa karuM chuM, paNa bolAI javAya che koI vakhata. - dAdAzrI: e to mApha karI devuM tarata bolAI javAya, paNa ApaNe jJAna" je che te hAjara thaI jAya, kyAMka bhUla thaI ke tarata mAphI mAMgI levI joIe ke A bolAI gayuM e bhUla thaI. mammIne kahevuM ke pharI AvI bhUla nahIM karuM. A to mane kharAba lAge. amArI keLavaNI AvI haze ? amane evuM thAya. bahAranAMne trAsa nathI ApavAnuM tyAre A to gharanAM badhA... praznakartA : dAdAnA je AjJAMkita hoya, e to gharamAM to ekadama vAtAvaraNa praphullita ja hovuM joIe. paNa A to kahe, enA magaja upara kAyama bojo ja rahyA kare che. A cokhavaTa karI levuM sAruM, je je prayoga kare e samajAvIbujAvIne ! ame to evuM kahI chUTIe ke tamane du:kha nA ho. praznakartA H AmanI je phariyAda che, e barAbara che ? e kabUla kare che ke mArI bhUlo che. dAdAzrI : have bane eTaluM samajAvIne kAma levuM, kazuM mArI-ThokIne besAya evuM nathI. chokarAne mArI-ThokIne thAya nahIM. e mArI-ThokIne thAya ? pahelAM sAta-ATha varSanA hatA, to mArI-ThokIne thAya. praznakartA : dAdA, enuM vartana sudhare ne to mane zAMti lAge.

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 555 nA kahevI, chokarIo kahevI. mA-bApatA kahyAmAM je rahe. svAdhInatAnuM sukha aMte lahe! 554 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : e to atyAre vinaya dharmanI vAta kare che. vinaya dharma tAre kevo rAkhavAno ? tuM zuM kahuM chuM ? praznakartA : barAbara che, vinaya hovo ja joIe. dAdAzrI : bahAra paNa hovo joIe, to gharamAM kevo hovo joIe ? praznakartA : Adarza hovo joIe. dAdAzrI : eTale have tArAthI nIkaLI jAya che, zabdo nIkaLI jAya che e vAta uparathI kahIe chIe. paNa enI pAchaLa jAgRti, ApaNuM jJAna hoya eTale tarata mAphI mAMgI laIe. eTale ene ghA nA lAge. praznakartA : hA. dAdAnI hAjarImAM kSamA mAMguM chuM. dAdAzrI : basa, tAruM kAma thaI gayuM. basa. praznakartA : A badhAMyanA mA-bApo bhegA che ne chokarAo che, to A sAmAjIka jIvana emane jIvavuM kevI rIte ? mA-bApe kevI rIte jIvavAnuM, chokarAe kevI rIte jIvavAnuM, A eka moTo koyaDo thaI gayo che, to A evo kaMI rasto nIkaLavo joIe ke emane samajAya ke sAmAjIka jIvana kevI rIte jIve ? dAdAzrI : paraspara badhAne sukha ApavAno prayatna kare. ne duHkha to ApavuM ja nahIM. sukha ja ApavAno prayatna kare. praznakartA : sukhanI vyAkhyA ? kevI rIte ApavuM ? dAdAzrI : e mA-bApane game e rIte pote varte, pote emanA AdhIna ja rahevuM paDe, A jJAna hoyane, to AtmA chUTo paDato jAya eno. chokarAo bApanA AdhIna varyA kare, bApanA kahyA pramANe, nA game to ya bApanA AdhIna varyA kare, pachI vicAra kare, to ene zAMti vaLe, sukha thAya mahIM, avaLo jo nA cAle to. e sukha kyAMthI AvyuM ? tyAre kahe, A parAdhIna hatuM. te du:kha ja hatuM. svAdhInapaNAnuM pachI sukha utpanna thAya bApato "dI' ajavALe e dIkaro; jhaMjhaTa choDAve badhI e kharo! mahIM. tamAre chokarAM che ke nathI ? keTalAM che ? praznakartA : traNa dIkarIo ane be dIkarA. dAdAzrI : dIkarA nA kahezo. dIkarA A vakhatamAM kahevAya nahIM banatAM sudhI. chokarA kahIe eTale pachI bhAMjagaDa to nahIM ! praznakartA: kema ? dAdAzrI : dIkarA kone kahevAya ? je dIvo kare, 'dI' ajavALe ApaNo . ApaNo dI' ajavALe agara dIvo kare. e dIkarA ane chokarA eTale choya vALe. praznakartA : dAdAnuM bhASAMtara judI jAtanuM che. dAdAnI bhASAnuM jJAna tanna jUduM che. dAdAzrI : eTale enAM karatAM chokarA kahevA sAruM. satyugamAM dIkarA kahevAtA hatA. atyAre kaLiyugamAM dIkarA kahIe to ApaNe mUrkha banIe ko'ka dA'Do. eTale chokarA kahevA bahAra ke be chokarA che ane dIkarIoe praznakartA : e svAdhInapaNAnuM sukha kevI rIte utpanna thAya ? dAdAzrI : bApanA kahyA pramANe cAle. to paravazatA to potAne lAge ke A paravazatA che, paNa pachI sukha lAge emAM. praznakartA : eTale mA-bApanA kahyA pramANe cAlavuM joIe. e nakkI vAta thaI. dAdAzrI : cAlavuM ja joIe ne ! saMsAra enuM nAma ja kahevAya. praznakartA : eTale mA-bApano rAjIpo meLavavo joIe ? dAdAzrI : tyAM to mA-bApano rAjIpo meLavavo joIe, badhuM ya

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556 mA-bApa chokarAno vyavahAra karavuM paDe. praznakartA : saMsAramAM pahelI pharaja to A ja kahevAyane, mA-bApane kiMcit mAtra duHkha na thAya, mana-vacana-kAyAthI koIpaNa rIte, e pahelI vAta. dAdAzrI : darekanI, mA-bApa ekalAnI nahIM. kAko, mAmo, phUvo badhAnI, darekanI. ane bApe chokarAMnI, chokarAnI vahunI, chokarAM-vahunI joDe 'kevI rIte pharaja rAkhavI' e bApe samajavuM joIe. badhAM joDe pharaja bajAvavAnI che. chokarAnuM kerIyara karma pramANe; chokarAMtuM ta cAle mA-bApanA dabANe! praznakartA : have koI vicAra kare ke nahIM, mAre to A jagatakalyANa mATe ja javuM che, jagatakalyANa karavuM che, to mA-bApanuM mAre kyAM jovA jarUra che ? ja hatI. dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, mAre DaoNkaTara thavuM che ema kahene to bApa zuM kahe ? 'nA, ApaNI dukAne ja besavAnuM tAre.' tyAre pelo kahe, 'mAre DaoNkaTara thavuM che.' have enA karma udaya DaoNkaTara thavAnA che ane bApa che to dukAne besADavA phare, anAja-karIyANAnI. e tyAM AgaLa ApaNe ene chokarAMne joyA karavuM joIe ke AnAmAM zuM zuM icchAo che AnI, je icchAo thaze ne te karmanA udaya bole che. 'kamIMga ivenTas kAsTa dhera zeDojha bIphora.' te ApaNe samajI levuM joIe. te eNe nA samajavuM joIe ? ene nA samaje to UlaTuM pajhala UbhAM thaze badhAM ! karmanA udaya AgaLa to koInuM cAle nahIM, dazaratha rAjAnI icchA nhotI evI ke rAmacaMdrajI vanamAM jAya. A vanavAsa javAno prazna Ubho thayo. paNa chUTako ja nathI ne ! praznakartA : rAmano mA-bApa pratyeno parama vinaya ne bhakti te judI mA-bApa chokarAno vyavahAra ne ! 553 dAdAzrI : hA, paNa judI hatI to ya paNa emAM to cAle ja nahIM praznakartA : chatAM emAM mA-bApane du:kha ApavAno jarA ya bhAva nahoto. dAdAzrI : ane bApanI icchA nhotI evuM duHkha karavAnI ! badhuM karmanA udayane ApaNe 'eksepTa' karavuM paDaze, 'kamIMga ivenTas kAsTa dhera zeDojha bIphora.' eTale e grejyueTa thavAno hoya, tene vicAra AvyA karato hoya, ApaNe pUchIe vAre ghaDIe. e ja vicAra tane AyA kare, bIjA koI nahIM ? alyA, vakIla thavuM nathI ? tyAre kahe, nA, mAre DaoNkaTara thavuM che. eTale ApaNe jANI jaIe ke A kaoNjha che, ivenTasa che A badhuM. eTale ApaNe ene karIyANAnI dukAne besavAnuM kahevAnuM baMdha karavuM joIe. praznakartA : eTale mA-bApe chokarAMne mATe samajavuM joIe ke chokarAMone kaI lAIna joIe che ? DaoNkaTaranI levI che, enjInIyarIMga levI che. ene samajavAnI koziSa karavI joIe. dAdAzrI : nA, enAmAM zuM che te, "kamIMga ivenTasa kayA che' e jovuM joIe ane ahIM to karIyANAnI dukAne besADI de, to emAM bhalIvAra nA Ave, nA AmAM bhalIvAra Ave !' tamArAmAM, jainomAM kahe che ne, chokarI 18 varSanI thAya che, bahu zrImaMta hoya te kahe che, mane A saMsAra gamato nathI. eTale enA mAbApa kaheze ke bena, emAM to bahu du:kha paDe. emAM to mahAna upAdhio, A to badhuM, bApa kahevAnuM badhuM kahI cUke. paNa dveSapUrvaka nahIM ane chokarIne zI rIte sukha thAya ane enA karmanA udaya che, chUTavAnA nathI. ApaNAM pelA bhAI che, temanI chokarI mArI pAse be-traNa vakhata teDI lAvyA, dIkSA nA le eTale mATe. paNa chatAM ya e chokarI kahe che, 'mAre dIkSA ja levI che, meM dAdAnuM jJAna lIdhuM kharuM, paNa mane to dIkSA ja levI che.' eTale emanA karmanA udaya evA che eTale e pramANe karyuM ane karmanA udayanI bahAra thavAnuM ja nathI, evuM che.

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558 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra papa9 baLavAkhora banAvavo e guno che. bAkI bApA to evI chokarI khoLI lAve ke ene dekhADatAnI sAthe pelo paiNavAnuM nA kaheto hoya to ya paiNI jAya. A bhagavA paherI paherIne ja saMsArI thAya che pAchAM. eka-be-cAra avatAra bhagavAM, ne pAchuM A saMsAramAM pese ! eTale Amane badhAne abhyAsa ja che ane A chokarAM emano abhyAsa ja bolI rahyA che eno ane A sAheba chene te hala bhagavAM paherI le evo che !! potAnuM' sudharyuM te ja anyatuM sudhAre; kaSAyothI mUMjhAyelo atyatuM zuM dhoLe? praznakartA: nahIM paNa, sAmAjIka jIvananI vAta jyAre Ave ne tyAre vartana to evuM hovuM joIe ne ApaNuM ! bhale e dhyeya, alabatta je jagatakalyANano dhyeya hoya ke je UMcAmAM UMco dhyeya hoya, dAdAnuM dhyeya badhAM karatAM UMcuM che, paNa chatAM ya vartana koI kahI zake nahIM ke dAdAnA vartanamAM jyAM kiciMtu mAtra paNa koI bhUla hoya. koI jIvane paNa kiciMtmAtra duHkha ApI zake e dAdA nahIM. dAdAzrI : vartana UMcuM joIe, UMcAmAM UMcuM joIe. tethI lakhyuM ne pelA vANI, vartana ne vinaya manohara hoya ! praznakartA: hA, premathI jItIne je kaMI karavuM hoya te karI zakAya. dAdAzrI : ho premathI jItIne, premathI jItIne. praznakartA : ene vizvAsamAM levA paDe. e nakkI vAta che ke mAre kaMI nathI A. mAre bhAva nathI A, mane saMsArano bhAva nathI, mane A pramANe nathI rahevuM, mane premathI rajA Apo ne mane A pramANe karavuM che, ema to karavuM ja joIe ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, e laDhIne kare eno artha ja nahIM, jenAthI mAbApanA manamAM duHkha thayuM. evuM chene, AMkaDo toDI nAkhavo ane AMkaDo choDI nAkhavo, e bemAM phera bahu che. e AMkaDo nA toDAya. koI paNa saMjogomAM AMkaDo toDAya nahIM. praznakartA : jo ke A badhAno dhyeya bahu UMcAmAM UMco, bahu UMco bhoga ApI devAno che. kurabAnI ApI devAnI hoya, eTalo UMco dhyeya che. chatAM ya A eka pharaja kartavya AvI jAya che. dAdAzrI : hA, AMkaDo Ama kheMcIne toDI nAkhIe, e kaMI rIta nathI, sAmAne asara thaI jAya. eTale duHkha nA thAya, eTaluM jovuM joIe ane mA-bApa to chokarAMne du:kha karavAno prayatna kare ja nahIM, koI dahADo ya ! e emanA hitamAM ja hoya. ane mA-bApe joDe joDe jovuM joIe ke kamIMga ivenTas kayA prakAranA che, e paNa nA jovuM joIe ? ApaNe jhUDajhUDa karIe, emAM zuM svAda kADhavAno? gUDajhUDa kare to chokaro baLavAkhora thaI jAya. chokarAne praznakartA : koI yuvAna DaoNkaTara ke enjanIyara hoya ene ghaNo kharco ne ghaNo bhoga ApIne, sAmAjIka paNa, badhA enAthI e DaoNkaTaraejInIyara thayo pachI ahIM satsaMgamAM Avyo. samajo ke e bIjuM choDIne AmAM lAgI jAya, e jasTIphAIDa thaI zake, e vyAjabI kharuM? - dAdAzrI : e ja vyAjabI che thaI zake te ja vyAjabI. na thAya te geravyAjabI. ahIM ekaluM ja, A ekaluM ja che. bAkI bIje badhe geravyAjabI. bIje badhe to avatAra bagADyo, vakhate bagADayo, ne kALe ya bagADyo. praznakartA : paNa, A to guno nA kahevAya. dAdAzrI : nahIM. A 'jJAnI puruSa' maLyA pachI bahAra javuM enuM nAma guno. praznakartA : samAjano ? dAdAzrI : samAjanA gunegAra koNa ? samAjanA gunegAra je samAjane helpara dekhAya che ne te gunegAra che ! helpara to A loko che. praznakartA : AvuM thAya, tenAM karatAM kanjakaTIva sAmAjIka kAma kare. ahIM AvI jagyAe besI rahe enAM karatAM amuka jagyAe... dAdAzrI : nA. e pachI jAnavaramAM javuM, enAM karatAM A to

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pa60 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa61 lokonuM kalyANa karaze. praznakartA : AvuM potAnuM karyuM jAya to svArthIpaNuM kahevAya ! dAdAzrI : A svArthI khAsa thavAnuM che. ApaNe Ane mATe svArthI khAsa thavAnuM che ane A jagata to parArthI eTale pArakAMne mATe bephAmapaNe jIve che ! moTA mazInamAM bahu badhuM kAma kare che bolTa-naTa, eTaluM A DaoNkaTaro karI zakatA nathI, vakIlo karI zakatA nathI. bolTa, naTa je sarvIsa Ape che moTA mazInamAM jabaradasta, enA vagara phare nahIM. eTale Ane zuM tame samajo cho ? mazInarI che A to badhI, mikenIkala eDajasTamenTa ane pachI potAnuM ThekANuM nahIM. koI DaoNkaTara, sevA karanAro DaoNkaTara khoLI lAvo. thoDAka haze be-cAra-pAMca jaNA haze, hindustAnamAM. bAkI badhAM paisA kamAvA mATe. praznakartA : mizanarIo hoya che (krizciyanamAM), temAM Ama badhuM racanAtmaka badhuM kare che evuM karavuM joIene. dAdAzrI : hA. hA. krizciyanone mATe barobara che. e rIte barobara che. ApaNe ahIM A mizano badhA barobara che. ApaNe ahIMne mATe ja A vAta che. bahArane mATe ahIM vAta nathI. ahIM jo grejyueTa thayelo hoya ane bIjuM game te bhaNelo hoya paNa ahIM AvIne paDI rahe to kalyANa che ane bIje badhe bahAra to emane kAma ja karavuM joIe. DaoNkaTara hoya e DaoNkaTaranI lAIna karavI joIe. DaoNkaTara ane hajAmata karanAra emAM DIpharansa kazuM koI jAtano hoto nathI. DaoNkaTaranI achata che ane pelAnI chata che. eTalo ja pheraphAra che eka kalAkanA traNa Dolara Ape che ane sevIMga karanArane phorenamAM cha Dolara aDadhA kalAkanA Ape che, achata che. vakIla hoya, DokaTara hoya, moTA mANasa kahevAyane ? emAM zakti hoya kharI ? A to nirbaLa thato jAya che. pachI bairI TeDakAve che. DaoNkaTarane, vakIlone, jajone, badhAne bairIo TeDakAve che. mane hau !! jaya saccidAnaMda ! bahu thaI gayuM ! ApaNI zakti hovI joIe. praznakartA : mAro sosAyaTIne lAbha nahIM kaMI, ATalo huM bhaNyo, to sosAyaTIne nakAmuM jaze kharuM. huM ahIMyA AvI jauM. dAdA pAse ja rahuM. paNa meM je ATaluM e karyuM. emAM sosAyaTIne zuM maLyuM ? dAdAzrI : sosAyaTIne lAbha to, tame zuM ApanArAM ? praznakartA : nA. e janarala pUche che. dAdAzrI : eTale koI mANasa ApI zakelo nahIM. huM A lokone zuM kahuM chuM, bahAra kahezo nahIM, AkhA varlDane. pustakamAM lakhyuM che ke AkhuM varlDa Topsa che. TI.o.pI.esa. praznakartA : bhamaraDo. dAdAzrI : to zuM sevA karavAnAM cho te ? kema Topa che ? zAthI? prakRti nacAve che tema nAce che ane potAne A sattA nathI. A 'jJAna' lIdhelA to sattA potAnI dharAve che ! 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM', te zuddhAtmAne AdhAre A kahe che. eTale A 'Topa" zuM sevA kare ? paNa chatAM ya e ApaNe ahIM Ane mATe ja che A vAta ? A bAunDrI mATe che. bahAra to ame kahIe ke tamAre sevA ja karavI. bahAra to ame zuM kahIe ke sArI sevA karajo, mAnava sevA. eTaluM kahIe. e moTAmAM moTI pharaja che. A to ahIMne mATe che. daza-daza hajAra mANasone sudhArI zakyA. praznakartA amAruM badhuM citta ne mAInDa ahIMyA hoya, ane bahAra rahIne koIne kAmamAM lAgI zake ne ? dAdAzrI : kAmamAM ? potAnI bairIne kAma lAgato nathI, to bIjAne zuM kAma lAgavAno che te ? praznakartA : amerIDa che. dAdAzrI : paiNyA pachI mane kaheje tuM. tArI vAIphane ja tuM kAma lAge evo nathI. A atyAre A kaLiyugamAM zuM kAma lAgaze ? koka sevAbhAvI hoya tyAre vahu pajavatI hoya ghera ! eviDansa evA ne badhA ! A mane atyAre A hirAbAe mokalyo tyAre chUTA thayA. praznakartA : eka evo vakhata AvI jAya ke badhA ja AmAM lAgI jAya to badhA kAma karanAra koNa raheze ?

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mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra dAdAzrI : hA... kAma karavAnI jarUra ja nathI. e jyAM AtmA che tyAM hareka cIja che. AtmA jo thaI gayo to anaMta zakti che ! A to ajJAna che, ane ajJAna che eTale mahenata karavI paDe che. koI DaoNkaTarane ApaNe apamAna karIe. to DaoNkaTarane UMgha Avaze ? 562 praznakartA : nahIM Ave. dAdAzrI : nirbaLatA ! nirbaLa mANasa zuM karavAno che ? zuM sevA karavAnA che ? A sabaLa mANasone tame ghola mAro to ya UMghI jAya. inkamaTekSano kAgaLa Avyo hoya ajJAnIne to AkhI rAta rahe ane tamane (mahAtmAone) Avyo hoya to 'vyavasthita' kahIne sUI jAva ! phera paDI jAya ke nA paDI jAya ?! jene kaMI jJAna che enuM eDajasTamenTa laI zake ne. eTale A potAnI nabaLAI jatI rahe badhI. paNa nabaLo mANasa zuM sevA karI zake A jagatanI ? mA-bApatI karavI sevA khUba; e avaLuM bole to ya rahe cUpa! praznakartA : A je beno che, emane atyAre Apa evuM kaMIka kaho ke jethI karIne emane potAne lAbha thAya ane samAjane paNa lAbha thAya. dAdAzrI : A benonA badhAM pratikramaNa vAMcyA, bahu bhAMjagaDo hotI nathI emane. bahu tyAre mA-bApanI joDe ke bhAI joDe bhAMjagaDa thayA kare che, mA-bApa bole ne eTale A gusse thayA kare. ne A AvaDuM bole eTale mA-bApa pachI pAchuM bIje dA'De TADhAM paDI jAya. te rAga-dveSathI UbhuM rahyuM che. te mA-bApano jo guNa mAne A loko ke mA-bApe ApaNane avatAra Apyo che ne e avatAra mokSane mATe lAyaka che. to Avo upakAra bhUle nahIM. mA-bApano upakAra jo bhUle to AvuM emanA sAmuM thAya. nahIM to e game te kahe, paNa e upakArI che. upakArI bole tenuM 'leTa go' karavuM paDe. evuM jo samajavAmAM Ave to ukela Ave, nahIM to Ano ukela ja nathI Ave evo. jo mAruM astitva huM jAhera karyA karuM, eno artha ja nathI. mA-bApa pote moTAM kare che e kaMI game te pharajIyAta haze, bhale mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 563 pharajIyAta haze, tamArA puNyanA AdhAre che e paNa vyavahAramAM dekhAya che. paNa chatAM upakArI che e. eTale upakArIno upakAra oLaMgavo nA joIe. emanA taraphe kaMI paNa bhAva nA bagaDe ane bagaDe to pazcAtApa karyA ja karavo paDe. je mANasa mA-bApano doSa jue, emanAmAM koI dA'Do bhalIvAra ja nA Ave. paisAvALo thAya vakhate, paNa enI AdhyAtmika unnati kyAre paNa nA thAya. mA-bApano doSa jovAya nahIM. upakAra to bhUlAya ja zI rIte ? koIe cA pAI hoya to upakAra bhUlAya nahIM. ApaNe to mAbApano upakAra to bhUlAya ja zI rIte ? tuM samajI gayo ? huM... eTale bahu upakAra mAnavo joIe. sevA bahu karavI. phAdhara-madharanI bahu sevA karavI joIe. e avaLuM bole to ApaNe ene zuM karavAnuM ? ignora karavAnuM e avaLuM bole to, kAraNa ke moTA che ne ! ke tAre avaLuM bolavuM joIe ? praznakartA : nA bolavuM joIe. paNa bolI javAya tenuM zuM ? misTeka thaI jAya to zuM ? dAdAzrI : hA, kema lapasI nahIM paDAtuM ? tyAM pAko rahuM chuM ane evuM lapasI paDayuM to te phAdhare ya samajI jaze ke A lapasI paDayo bicAro. A to jANI joIne tuM e karavA jauM, to 'tuM ahIM kema lapasI paDayo ?' te huM javAba mAMguM. kharuM-khoTuM ? eTale ejha phAra ejha posIbala ApaNane hovuM nA ghaTe ane tema chatAM ya tArAthI, tArI zakti bahAra thaI gayuM haze to to e badhAM samajI jaze, ke AvuM kare nahIM A. emane khuza rAkhavA. e tane khuza rAkhavA phare ke nahIM ? tane sukhI rAkhavAnI icchA kharI ke nahIM emane ! praznakartA : hA. praznakartA : dAdA ghaNIvAra evuM thAya ke mArI kaMI bhUla ja nathI. ko'ka vAra bhUla mArI mane khabara paNa paDe ane ghaNIvAra mArI kaMI bhUla thatI ja nathI, emano ja vAMka che evuM lAge.

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pa64 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa65 maLI e sArI. evI bIjI badalI levAya ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : bajAramAM maLe nahIM mA bIjI, nahIM ? ane maLe to kAmanI ya nahIM. gorI gamatI hoya to ya ApaNane zuM kAmanI ? hamaNAM che e sArI. bIjAnI gorI joIne 'ApaNe kharAba che' evuM nA bolavuM joIe. 'mArI mA to bahu sarasa che' evuM kahevuM joIe. praznakartA : bhaI pUche che ke pappAnuM zuM mAnavAnuM? dAdAzrI : pappAnuM? e zemAM rAjI rahe evuM rAkhajene emane. rAjI rAkhatA nA AvaDe ? e rAjI rahe evuM karaje. praznakartA : hA, karIza. dAdAzrI : evuM lAge tane paNa pachI pratikramaNa karavuM tyAre ! praznakartA : hiM. pachI emane paNa jarA kaDhApo-ajaMpo vadhAre thaI jAya tyAre thAya ke have ApaNA nimitte AvuM nA thavuM joIe. evuM thAya pachI. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa evuM nahIM. "mArI bhUla thaI" ema karIne pratikramaNa karavuM paDe, tuM avaLuM bolI tenAM. praznakartA : mane amuka vAra bhUla lAgatI nathI mArI potAnI, temanI ja bhUla che. - dAdAzrI : bhUla thayA vagara koIne du:kha apAya ja nahIM ne ApaNI bhUla thAya to ko'kane du:kha thAya. praznakartA: mane to evuM lAge ke emanI prakRti ja evI che evuM lAgyA kare. dAdAzrI : A badhA loka sArI prakRti kahe che ne tuM ekalI kahuM, eTale RNAnubaMdha che, hisAba che. praznakartA : eTale dAdA ema thAya ke emane kacakaca karavAnI Teva ja paDI gaI che. dAdAzrI : hA, to ethI karIne e tArI bhUla che emAM, bhUla tArI che. eTale mA-bApane kema duHkha thayuM enuM pratikramaNa karavuM joIe. du:kha thavuM to nA joIe, have 'sukha ApavA AvI chuM" evuM manamAM hovuM joIe. "mArI evI zI bhUla thaI' ke mA-bApane duHkha thayuM. mAM game teTalI hoya kALI; chokarAMne lAge sadA rUpALI! paga, mAthuM dabAvI de te sevA; paiNyA pachI choDI de te kevA? mA-bApa eTale mA-bApa. A duniyAmAM pahelAmAM vahelI sevA karavA jevuM sAdhana hoya to mA-bApa. sevA karIza emanI ? praznakartA : hA, cAlu ja che sevA. gharakAmamAM madada karuM chuM. dAdAzrI : lyo, e to badhuM nokara rAkhyo hota to te ya kare. praznakartA : emAM paisA jAya ne ! dAdAzrI : te tArI pAchaLa nathI ApatA paisA. kapaDAM paherAvAnuM karavAnuM, jamADe ne e badhuM. temAM te zuM karyuM ? sevA to kyAre kahevAya? emane du:kha thatuM hoya, paga phATatA hoya ane ApaNe paNa emane dabAvI ApIe evuM tevuM badhuM.... praznakartA : hA, e huM karuM chuM ne ! dAdAzrI : karuM chuM ?! ema ! moTo thaIza tyAre pappA-mammIne zuM karIza ? bApA kharAba lAgatA nathI ?! e lAgaze tyAre zuM karIza ? eTale kharAba evuM duniyAmAM kazuM hotuM nathI, ApaNane bheguM thayuM e badhuM sArI cIja hoya che. kAraNa ke ApaNA prArabdhanuM che. mA maLI te ya sArI. game tevI kALI hoya, to ya ApaNI mA e sArI. kAraNa ke ApaNane prArabdhamAM

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pa66 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa67 vaDIlonI sevA karavAthI ApaNuM vijJAna khIle che. kaMI mUrtionI sevA thAya che ? mUrtionAM kaMI paga du:khe che ! sevA to vAlI, vaDIlo ke guru hoya temanI karavAnI hoya. praznakartA : sevA karIza. dAdAzrI : lAkaDI laIne ! zI rIte sevA karIza ? tuM to nokarI karIza ke sevA karIza ? jo bahAra karIza nokarI ane ghera AvuM to vahunI bhAMjagaDamAM paDavuM paDaze, to emanI kyAre sevA karIza tuM ? bahAranuM DipArTamenTa racAI gayuM, aMdara gharanuM DipArTamenTa racAI gayuM. emanuM DipArTamenTa karyuM Avaze? tane kema lAge che? ke paiNyA vagara rahevAno mA-bApanI sevAthI sukhasaMpatti; maLe gurusevAthI kAyamI mukti! vaDIlonI sevAthI khIle vijJAta; zAMti acUka male jIvanamAM pradhAta! praznakartA: gurunI sevA sAthe mA-bApanI sevA karavI joIe A yuvA peDhIe. to jo mA-bApanI sevA na kare to kaI gati thAya ? dAdAzrI : pahelI mA-bApanI sevA, jeNe janma Apyo te. pachI gurunI sevA. gurunI sevA ne mA-bApanI sevA to cokkasa rahevI joIe. vakhate guru sArAM nA hoya to sevA choDI devI joIe. praznakartA : atyAre mA-bApanI sevA karatAM nathI ne, tenuM zuM ? to kaI gati thAya ? dAdAzrI : mA-bApanI sevA nA kare e A bhavamAM sukhI thAya nahIM. mA-bApanI sevA karavAno pratyakSa dAkhalo zuM ? tyAre kahe che ke AkhI jiMdagI sudhI duHkha nA Ave. aDacaNo ya nA Ave, mA-bApanI sevAthI zuM karazo zAMtinuM ? lAvavI che ke nathI lAvavI ? praznakartA : lAvavI che. dAdAzrI : lAvI ApIe paNa mA-bApanI sevA karI che koI dahADo ? mA-bApanI sevA kare to zAMti nA jatI rahe. paNa Aja sAcA dilathI mA-bApanI sevA nathI karatA. trIsa varSano thayo ne 'guru"(patnI) AvyA. to kahe che, mane nave ghera laI jAva. guru joyelA tame ? pacIsa-trIsa varSe "guru" maLI Ave ane 'guru' maLyA eTale badalAI jAya. guru kahe ke, bAne tame oLakhatA ja nathI. e eka phero nA gAMThe. pahelI vakhata to nA gAMThe paNa be-traNa vakhata kahe, to pachI pATo vALI le. bAkI mA-bApanI zuddha sevA kare ne, ene azAMti thAya nahIM evuM A jagata che. A kaMI jagata kADhI nAkhavA jevuM nathI. tyAre loka pUche ne, chokarAno ja doSa ne.... chokarA sevA nathI karatAM mA-bApanI, emAM mA-bApano zo doSa ? meM kahyuM ke emaNe mA-bApanI sevA nahIM karelI, eTale emane prApta thatI nathI. eTale A vAraso ja khoTo che. have navesarathI vArasAnI jagyAe cAle to sarasa thAya. eTale e banAvaDAvuM chuM. ekeeka ghera, chokarA badhA olarAITa thaI gayA che. mA-bApe olarAITa ne chokarAe olarAITa ! ApaNA hindustAnanuM vijJAna to bahu suMdara hatuM. tethI to zAstrakAroe goThavI dIdheluM ne ke mA-bApanI sevA karajo, jethI karIne tamane jiMdagImAM ya dhananuM du:kha nahIM paDe. have e kAyadesara haze ke nahIM hoya e vAta judI che, paNa mA-bApanI sevA avazya karavA jevI che. kAraNa ke jo tame sevA nahIM karo to tame konI sevA pAmazo ? tamArI pAchaLanI prajA zI rIte zIkhaze ke tame sevA karavA lAyaka cho. chokarAMo badhuM jotA hoya che. e jae ke ApaNA phAdhare ja koI dahADo emanA bApanI sevA karI nathI ne ! pachI saMskAra to nA ja paDe ne ! praznakartA: mAruM kahevAnuM ema hatuM ke putranI pitA pratye pharaja zuM dAdAzrI : chokarAoe pitA pratye pharaja bajAvavI joIe ane

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pa68 mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra pa69 praznakartA : hA, mokalyA che dAdA. dAdAzrI : ApaNe jo jAte nA javAya, jAte javAya nahIM to paisA mokalIne paNa helpa karavI. ApaNe helpa to karavI ja joIe, evuM choDI nA devAya enA karma upara. chokarAM jo pharaja bajAve ne to chokarAne phAyado zuM maLe ? mA-bApanI je chokarAo sevA kare, tene koI dahADo ya paisAnI khoTa Ave nahIM, enI jarUriyAta badhI maLI Ave ane gurunI sevA kare e mokSe jAya. paNa AjanA loko mA-bApanI ke gurunI sevA ja karatAM nathI ne ? te badhA loko duHkhI thavAnA. chatAM mA-bApathI ema nA kahevAya ke meM tane devuM karIne bhaNAvyo. kAraNa ke A bhaNAvavuM e pharajiyAta hatuM. pharaja bajAvavAnI hatI, emAM chUTako ja nahoto. jeTalI pharajo che ne e badhI pharajiyAta che. marajiyAta AmAM eke ya nathI. kazuM ya marajiyAta nathI. bhagavAna dekhAya kyAM? thAya mA-bApanI sevA jyAM! karmo para na choDAya kadi; karI chuTavI madada banatI! praznakartA : badhA potapotAnAM karmo bhogave che, to ApaNAM mA-bApa bimAra thayA hoya to ApaNe emane emanAM karmo bhogavavA devAnAM, kaI karavAnuM nahIM ? dAdAzrI : nA, nahIM. ApaNe kAM to tyAM javuM, cAkarI karavI. cAkarI nA karavI hoya to vagara kAmanAM bolabola karavAno artha nahIM, cheTe rahIne tAlIo pADavAnI jarUra nathI. tame jo lAgaNIvALA hoya to pahoMcI jAva. lAgaNIvALAe mA-bApanI sevA karavI joIe ane lAgaNI nathI to amathA amathA bumo pADavI, eno artha nathI. praznakartA : dAdA, pahoMcI javAthI thoDA kaMI e lokonA karmo ne pIDAmAM phera thavAno che ? dAdAzrI : e gapyuM kahevAya. tyAM pahoMcI jAva eTale kaMI tyAM helpa thayA vagara rahe nahIM. e to gaNuM mAryuM kahevAya ! e to guno kahevAya. lAgaNI thatI hoya to tyAM pahoMcI javuM joIe. lAgaNI thAya ne karavuM nahI, ahIMthI bumAbuma karavI eno artha nahIM ane lAgaNIvALA koIe paisA mokalyA ? e lokonA helpa mATe ghaNAM loko gayA che tyAM AgaLa. emanA mATe paisA kharce. te mokalyA che paisA ? mA-bApanI sevA karavI e dharma che. e to game tevo hisAba hoya paNa A sevA karavI e ApaNo dharma che. ane jeTalo ApaNo dharma pALIe eTaluM sukha ApaNane utpanna thAya. vaDIlonI sevA to thAya e thAya, joDe joDe sukha utpanna thAya. mA-bApane sukha ApIe to ApaNane sukha utpanna thAya. mA-bApane sukhI kare e mANaso kAyama koI dahADo du:khI hotA ja nathI. eka bhAI mane eka moTA AzramamAM bhegA thayA. meM temane pUchyuM ke, 'ahIM kyAMthI tame ?" tyAre temaNe kahyuM ke, "huM A AzramamAM chellA dasa varSathI rahuM chuM.' tyAre meM temane kahyuM ke 'tamArAM mA-bApa gAmamAM bahu ja garIbImAM chellI avasthAmAM duHkhI thAya che.' tyAre temaNe kahyuM ke, emAM huM zuM karuM ? huM emanuM karavA jAuM to mAro dharma karavAno rahI jAya.' Ane dharma kema kahevAya ? dharma to tenuM nAma ke mA-bApane bolAve, bhAIne bolAve. badhAne bolAve. vyavahAra Adarza hovo joIe. je vyavahAra potAnA dharmane tarachoDe, mA-bApanA saMbaMdhane paNa tarachoDe, tene dharma kema kahevAya ? tamAre mA-bApa che ke nathI ? praznakartA : mA che. dAdAzrI : have sevA karajo, barAbara. pharI pharI lAbha nahIM maLe ane koI mANasa kaheze, 'huM duHkhI chuM.' to huM kahuM ke tArA mA-bApanI sevA karane, sArI rIte. to saMsAranA du:kha tane na paDe. bhale paisAvALo na thAya, paNa duHkha to na paDe. pachI dharma hovo joIe. AnuM nAma dharma ja kema

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500 mA-bApa chokarAno vyavahAra kahevAya ? meM ya bAnI sevA karelI. vIsa varSanI uMmara hatI, eTale juvAnajodha uMmara hatI. eTale mAjInI sevA thaI. bApujIne khabhe caDhAvIne laI gayelA, eTalI sevA thayelI. pachI hisAba jaDayo, mUA AvA to keTalAya bApujI thayA. have zuM karIzuM ? tyAre kahe, je che emanI sevA kara. pachI gayA e gona. paNa atyAre tuM emanI sevA kara hoya to, nA hoya to ciMtA nA karIza. badhA bahu thaI gayA. bhUlyA tyAMthI pharI gaNo. mA-bApanI sevA, e pratyakSa rokaDuM che. bhagavAna dekhAto nathI, A to dekhAya che. bhagavAna kyAM dekhAya che ? ane A mA-bApa to dekhAya che. Adarza gharaDAM gharatI jarUrIyAta; jJAta sAthe bAkItuM rahe zAMta! atyAre to vadhumAM vadhu du:khI hoyane to eka to 65 varSanI UMmaranA mANaso bahu duHkhI che atyAre. paNa kone kahe e ? chokarAMo gAMThatA nathI. sAMdhA bahu paDI gayelAM, jUno jamAno ne navo jamAno. Doso jUno jamAno choDato nathI. mAra khAya to ya nA choDe. praznakartA : dareka pAMsaThe enI e ja hAlata rahene. dAdAzrI : hA. evI ne evI ja hAlata. AnI A ja hAlata. eTale kharI rIte karavA jevuM zuM che A jamAnAmAM ? ke koI jagyAe AvA vaDIla lokone mATe jo rahevAnuM sthAna rAkhyuM hoya ne to bahu sAruM. eTale ame vicAra karyo hato. meM kahyuM, evuM kaMIka karyuM hoya ne to paheluM A jJAna ApI devuM. pachI emane jamavA-karavAnI vyavasthA to ApaNe ahIM pablikane bIjA sAmAjIkatAmAM soMpI daIe to cAle. paNa jJAna ApyuM hoya to darzana karyA kare to ya kAma to cAle. ne A 'jJAna' ApyuM hoya to zAMti rahe bicArAne, nahIM to zA AdhAre zAMti rahe ? tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : hA, barAbara che. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 531 dAdAzrI : game evI vAta che ke nahIM ? gharaDApaNuM ane pAMsaTha varSanI UMmarano mANasa hoya ne, gharamAM raheto hoya ne, te ene koI gaNakAre nahIM eTale zuM thAya ? moDhe bolAya nahIM ne mahIM UMdhAM karma bAMdhe. eTale A lokoe je gharaDAMgharanI vyavasthA karI che te e vyavasthA khoTI nathI. helpIMga kare che. paNa ene gharaDAMghara tarIke nahIM, paNa bahu mAnabhera evo zabda mUkavo joIe ke mAnabhera lAge. praznakartA : phorenamAM paNa gharaDAM je hoya che ne e premanA bhUkhyA hoya che eTale muzkelI che. dAdAzrI : tyAM to 18 varSathI chokarAM judAM rahevAnAM. eTale 18 varSano chokaro judo thaI jAya. pachI maLavA ja nA Avene. phona upara vAta kare. emane prema ja nathI hoto. ApaNe ahIM to TheTha sudhI. praznakartA : eTale ahIMyA to sAruM che. dAdAzrI : ahIMyA to bahu sAruM che. paNa ahIMyA ya have bagaDayuM che. badhA mANasone nathI bagaDayuM paNa amuka evA parasenTa che ke je pAchaluM haju choDatAM ja nathI. tethI mAre bolavuM paDe che ne 'eDajasTa evarIvhera'. hA, eDajasTamenTa nahIM lo to mAra khAIne marI jazo. A jamAno bahu judI jAtano Ave che. jUnuM to eka jAtanI ghareDa evI besI jAya che e chUTatI ja nathI pachI. A bhaI che emanI jAtamAM e baLavAkhora ja gaNAya che. jUnA rIvAjo badhA phagAvI dIdhA che navA vicAro dharAve che. emanuM kahevuM che ke navAnuM dhyAna karo. te lokoe emane baLavAkhora kahyA. praznakartA : emanI jJAtimAM haju saMkucitatA choDatA nathI. dAdAzrI : have badhe A saMkucitatA choDatA nathI. hA, mULa ApaNI kvaoNliTI ja che ne, mULa kvaoNliTI upara jatuM rahevAnuM ne !

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para mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 533 jamAtA pramANe paiDAMe cAlavuM; to thavAya sukhI nahi to dAjhavuM! tame roja daMDavat karo mA-bApane; chokarAM zIkhIte UThAvaze lAbhane! praznakartA : chokarAMonuM bIjI badhI rIte sAruM che, paNa je nAnAmoTAno vinaya hoya te barAbara nathI. nAnA-moTAno vivekamAM Ave evuM kaMIka karo. dAdAzrI : mA-bApa moDarna thAya to to vAMdho nA Ave. paNa morDana thatA nathI ne ? agara chokarAMo jUnuM svIkAra kare to vAMdho nA Ave. e svIkAra karavA taiyAra nathI. kharo kAyado zuM kahe che, ke jevo kALa Ave tevuM lokoe thavuM joIe. eTale phAdhare pharavuM joIe. hA, ame to pharI gayAM chIe, tadna. game tevI hoTalamAM muMbaI tame gayAM ho, paNa ame ema nA kahIe tamane ke AvuM nA hoya ApaNe. evo vakhata Avyo tyAre badalyuM. e kyAM matabheda karuM huM roja ? vakhata badalAyo te pramANe cAlo. je bhASA hoya te pramANe bolAya. atyAre A nANuM che, te ApaNe kahIe ke A nANuM ame levA AvyA nathI. kaladAra hoya to Apa, nahIM to nahIM. to te ApaNane kaheze, A gAMDo che, A mUrakha che. je nANuM je vakhate cAlatuM hoya te nANAMne ekasepTa karavuM joIe. atyAre kaladAra mAMgavA jaIe to zuM thAya ? gAMDo kahe ke nA kahe ? ane tyAre ame kahIe ke nA, be ratala ja Apo, to gAMDo kahe, eTale ApaNe che te junavANImAMthI nIkaLI ane morDanamAM AvI javuM joIe. praznakartA : dAdA, morDanamAM to AvIe chIe, paNa nAnA-moTAMno je viveka ne vinaya joIe, te nathI. Ama to huM ya chokarAM jevaDo ja thaI jAuM chuM. dAdAzrI : e vinaya-viveka to jainanAM chokarAMo sAcavyA vagara rahe ja nahIM. tamane jainane kaMI sAmo nA thAya eke ya chokaro ! praznakartA : nA, sAmA nA thAya. tamAre ghera chokarAMone kevA saMskAra paDe have ? tame tamArA phAdharamadharane namaskAra karo. ATalAM varSe, dhoLAM AvyAM to ya, to chokarAMnA manamAM vicAra nA Ave ke bApA to lAbha uThAve che, to huM kema na lAbha uThAvuM ? to tamane page lAge ke nA lAge ? praznakartA : lAge che. dAdAzrI : ane peluM to ApaNe ja ApaNA phAdhara-madharane page nhotAM lAgatAM ane joDe joDe ApaNe ApaNI AbarU khotAM hatAM ke jotAM khotAM ? praznakartA : ApaNuM ja khotAM hatAM. dAdAzrI : eTale kayuM sAruM ? tamArA mA-bApanI tame sevA nA karo to pachI ene saravALe tame zuM jozo ? eTale pachI potAnI ja ghora khodI che ne ? praznakartA: paNa A to gharanI vAta che ke gharamAM ekabIjAne page paDatAM hoya, koI moTA ApaNA vaDIla Ave ne ApaNe ene page paDIe to eno lAbha thAya ke nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : bahu sAruM, bahu lAbha thAya. eTale vinaya moTAmAM moTo. 'akramajJAna' lIdhA pachI badhe ghaNAMkharAM gharamAM AvuM thaI gayuM. eka bhaI te vadhAre bhaNatara to bhaNelo, paNa joDe joDe pustaka badhAM khUba vAMcelAM ane lekhaka pAcho. enA phAdhare ya grejyueTa thayelA ! paNa e bhaI enA phAdhara mATe zuM jANe ke AmanAmAM akkala nathI. te bene roja kacakaca TakaTaka thAya. ahaMkAra laDe beuno ya. pelo phAdhara ahaMkAra choDe nahIM ane A ahaMkAra jAmI gayelo. te khUba jAmI gayelo badho ahaMkAra. pachI A bhAIe eNe jJAna lIdhuM ApaNI pAsethI. ApaNe bolAvIe 'namo arihaMtANuM, namo siddhANaM' to badhA bole, paNa e bole

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pa34 mA-bApa bekarAMno vyavahAra mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra parUpa nahIM. pachI meM emane kahyuM, badhAMnI rUbarU, 'tame nathI bolatAM, te tame jAte bolatAM nathI ke koI bolavA detuM nathI ?' to kahe, 'bolavAmAM zuM phAyado ? tyAre meM kahyuM, 'huM zuM karavA boluM, mAre bolavAnI jarUra nathI. huM to badhuM laIne beTho chuM. A bolo e zIkhavADuM chuM. A vijJAna che, A sAyansa che.' eke eka zabda sAyansa rUpa che. pachI je ene sAruM evuM samajAvyuM ne samajI gayo. bolavA mAMDayo. have ene phAdhara-madhara joDe zuM thatuM, phAdhara joDe Takkara roja cAlyA kare, to phAdhare eka phero mane kahyuM ke "ANe jJAna lIdhuM paNa ghera laDhavADa pAra vagaranI kare che." eTale meM bhaIne zuM kahyuM ke, 'tame eka amArI AjJA pALo.' te kahe, 'hA dAdAjI Apa je kaho te.' AjathI tamArA phAdharane roja sASTAMga daMDavat praNAma karI ane uThavuM. pachI AkhA divasanuM kAma tyAra pachI kArya karavAM. eNe cAlu karyuM. pachI enA phAdhara AvIne kahe che, "mAruM ghara svarga thaI gayuM have to. narka jevuM thaI gayuM'tuM, to svarga thaI gayuM.' have pelA bhaIne zuM phAyado thayo e jANo cho tame ? enA chokarAM hatA paMdara-paMdara varSanAM, bAra-bAra varSanAM e badhA ene page lAgavA mAMDyAM. tyAre Ane kahyuM, 'kema page lAgo cho ?" tyAre kahe, 'tame tamArA phAdharane kema lAgo cho ? tame lAbha uThAvo ane ame nA lAbha uThAvIe ?!' tyAM ghaNAM kharAM ghare cAlu che. aMdara aMdara badhA saMkelavAmAM bahu lAbha thAya. bahAranA mANasone nA karavA joIe. te TAITa thAya. ahIM to vaDIla kharAMne, vaDIla to upakArI kahevAya A to! enA AzIrvAda hoya ja ! have e pacAsa varSanAM mANasa darzana kare savArathI, daMDa zarU karyA. AjJA pALavAmAM bahu zuro paNa. eTale barAbara dAdAjI Apa je kaho e mAre karavAnuM. ene phAdharanI zarame ya nA AvI ne tyAM sIdho jaIne pelo phAdharane page lAgyo. eno phAdhara UMconIco thaI gayo ke A zuM ? duniyAmAM nA bane evuM banyuM !! chokarAM nathI lAgatAM mA-bApane page; ta bhUla RNa mA-bApa puratuM jaze! dAdAzrI : evuM che, mA-bApane page lAgatAM nathI. mA-bApanA dUSaNa joI le che chokarAo. eTale page lAgavA jevAM nathI evuM emanA manamAM mAne che, eTale nathI lAgatAM. jo emanAmAM kaMIka enAM potAnAM AcAravicAro UMcA besTa lAge to haMmezAM page lAge ja. paNa AjanA mA-bApa to beu chokarA UbhAM hoya ne mA-bApa laDhatAM hoya, mA-bApa laDhe ke nA laDhe ? praznakartA: laDhe. dAdAzrI : have e chokarAnA manamAM kaMI rahe emanA mATe je mAna hoya te ? praznakartA : saMta-mahAtmAone paNa hAtha joDI uparathI mAthuM nAmanuM namAve che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa saMta-mahAtmAmAM bhalIvAra nA hoya to nAmanuM ja namAve pachI. chokarA khoTAM nathI, mA-bApanI bhUla che. saMta-mahAtmAnI bhUla che. praznakartA : ApanI pAse caraNamAM paDatAM ApanA caraNa choDavAnI icchA paNa karatAM nathI. dAdAzrI : e ahIM sAcuM che eTale chokaro zuM, nAnuM chokaruM pAMca varSanuM khase nahi, sAcuM che eTale ! potAne tarata sukha utpanna thAya che. mA-bApane zI rIte page lAge ? mA-bApane to lagna kare te dahADe jarA Ama Ama karyA kare, paiNAvyo te badala ! bAkI kazuM nA lAge. enA mATe cAritrabaLa joIe. cAritrabaLa hoya to sAmo mANasa page lAge, nahi to page lAge nahi. A duniyAmAM traNano mahAna upakAra che. e upakAra choDavAno ja nathI. phAdhara, madhara ane guruno ! ApaNane jemaNe raste caDhAvyA hoya, te A traNano upakAra bhUlAya evo nathI. - jaya saccidAnaMda praznakartA: AjanA chokarAo mA-bApane page lAgatAM nathI. saMkoca anubhave che.