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dream-visions come into being on account of my contact with sleep, the god of love renders extremely unbearable the experience of separation by ineans of disturbances, associated with prolonged plaintive cries, of my sleep caused again and again at short intervals, and brought into being by mental worries. It is not that the drops of tears, as big as pearls, of the sylvan dieties, seeing various gestures, treasured up in our bodies secretly by the god of love, displayed to have an everlasting familiarity with you, do not fall in abundance on the foliage of trees. Meditating upon you, the rescuer of my life, as 'How could the night, consisting in long watch-periods, during which my beloved husband, separated from me by fate, is far away, be reduced to a moment as it were ? I, with my heart distressed by the feelings of love, am yearning for you very much like the distressed female Cakravāka. I have been constantly having in my mind the thought
How, in all the states of my mind caused by the feelings of love, could the day have moderate heat with reference to me who a.n not able at all to bear even the diffusion of the moonlight ?', brought to effect by all the anxieties caused by the god of love, since the first embrace of my lord. During the period when the excessive force of passion excessively distresses me by causing anxieties, my mind becomes attached to and absorbed in meditating upon you, possessing beautiful eyes. My mind, thus reduced to the twofold state, praying for what is difficult to obtain, is rendered helpless by' exceedingly poignant agonies caused by the separation from you. I, having control over myself lost owing to the feelings of love and tremulous through fear, asked the breezes from the Himalayas, on having destroyed at once the folds of shoots of the Devadāru-trees, become fragrant on account of crickling drops of their milky juice, started moving in the southern direction and come into my vicinity, for fresh in. formation about you. As that, which is intimately acquainted with esteemed object endowed with excellent qualities, becomes
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