Aasis

Author(s): Champalalmuni
Publisher: Adarsh Sahitya Sangh
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/003057/1

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AsIsa For Private sevAbhAvI munio kampAlAla

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prastuta pAlya kI apAraka-saMkalaka haiM zramaNa sAgara / Apa prastuta kRti ke karvAyatA ke sAtha chAyA kI pAti tIsa varSa taka rahe aura munizrI kI pUrNa caryA ke niyAmaka, saMyojaka aura saMrakSaka the| Apa svayaM kavi. itihAsakAra aura saMsmaraNa lekhaka haiN| itihAsa kI jaba Apa bAteM sunAte haiM taba sunane vAle ko pratIta hone lagatA hai ki zramaNajI saMbhavataH usa samaya vahIM the aura ghaTanA ko dekha rahe the| para yaha kevala eka AbhAsa hI hai| Apa jisa bhAva-bhASA meM sunAte haiM, vaha svayaM viziSTa hotI hai aura zrotA ko ghaTanA se ekAtma kara detI hai| prakhara buddhi ke dhanI zramaNa sAgara rAjasthAnI aura hindI meM gIta bhI likhate haiM, jinakA guMjArava dIrghakAla taka hotA rahatA hai| For Private & Personal use only

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AsIsa saMjaya ke vivAha ke upalakSa me saha prema meMTa dinAMka 25-11-1988 -zA mAMgIlAla zAMtIlAla eNDa kaM zAMtI bhavana, 64, e. ema. lena cikapeTa, baeNralora-53

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Adarza sAhitya saMgha prakAzana

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AsIsa sevAbhAvI munizrI campAlAlajI 'bhAIjI mahArAja' saMkalaka : sampAdaka ss saantaah

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(c) Adarza sAhitya saMgha, cUrU (rAjasthAna) sva0 mAtuzrI pAnIbAI evaM sva. pUjya pitAzrI bhaMvaralAlajI sakalecA, rANAvAsa (mAravAr3a) kI puNya smRti meM unake suputra bI0 gautamacanda, bI0 nirmalakumAra sakalecA, 73 sekeNDa mena roDa, baiMgalora ke artha-saujanya se prakAzita / prakAzaka : kamaleza caturvedI, prabaMdhaka-Adarza sAhitya saMgha, cUrU (rAjasthAna)/ mUlya : pacIsa rupaye | prathama saMskaraNa, 1988 | mudraka : pavana priMTarsa, dillI-110032 AASIS Poetry by Muni Sri Champalaji Rs. 25.00

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olakhANa hi anokhI vizeSatAvAM rA dhaNI, sarala sabhAvI, moTApuruSa zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ro jalama, vi0 saM0 1964 migasara vada dassyUM nai jodhapura riyAsata ra bar3e hAthIvaMdha ThikANe khyAta nAmai lADanUM nagara meM huyo / bAMro asala nAMva ho munizrI campAlAlajI svAmI / bai AcAryazrI tulasI rA saMsAra lekha moTAbhAI hA, iM vAste I sagalAi jaNAM bAMnai bhAIjI mahArAja kahyA karatA / 1 bAM ro TAbarapaNa raIsI mai rajavADI DhaMga syUM bItyo / dAdA rAjarUpajI khaTer3a rAbai lADalA potA hA / thoDIka bANikA - mahAjanI hisAba-kitAba par3ha' ra bai 14 varSA kI osathA mai baMgAla bepAra sIkhaNa gayA / bAMrA pitAjI ro nAMva jhUmaramalajI tathA mAjI ro nAMva badanakuMvarade ho / Apa chava bhAyAM maiM, cothA bhAI haa| bAra tIna hAM hI / dAdAjI rI hapar3a-hapar3a jalatI citA, rANAvajI ra kua para bharathai koThA mai DUbaNai rI ghaTaNA hai' ra cenarUpajI koThArI rI kalakate meM guMDA-badamAzA syUM huI muTabher3a, bAMraM vairAga ro kAraNa baNyo / bai 1981 bhAdave lAgatI terasa nai terApaMtha dharmasaMgha rA AThavAM AcAraja pUjI mahArAja zrI kAlUgaNI haste dIkhyA lera jaina muni baNyA / eka varasa pacha~ Apa ra sAgI choTe bhAI tulasI nai saMnyAsa leNa rI pareraNA karI / bArI saMsAra lekha bar3I bahana sAdhvIpramukhA lADAMjI tulasI muni rai sAgai saMsAra chor3a' ra sAdhu mAraga liyo / igyAraha varasAM tAMI rAta-dina eka kara' ra sAvacetI syUM tulasI muni rI sAra saMbhAla rAkhI / bhAI Rs khAtara bhAI kiyAM khapyAM kareM hai zrI bhAIjI mahArAja eka najIra dharI / bAMro kaThora AMkasa' ra AcAra-vicAra rI sAvadhAnI zAsaNa meM nAMva karyo / tulasI muni Rs AcAraja baNyAM pachai mAjI nai dIkSyA dirA'ra bai mAMra karajai syUM uraNa huyA / geU varaNo raMga, tapUM tapUM karato lilADa, moTI-moTI lAla DoradAra AMkhyAM, hAthI ko so peMso sarIra, hasato - mulakato ceharo hai' ra daDUkatI AvAja dekhaNiyAM nai Aja bhI yAda Ave hai | jada bai cAlatA, bAMrai hAtha maiM sarpa-mukhI geDiyo iso opato thAne ke batAUM ? bai AparI laya rA nyArA hI oliyA puruSa hA /

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dila rA dariyAva, pakar3a rA pakA, khecIjyAM pachai khaira rA khUTA, parAyI bhIDa meM par3aNiyA, sIdhA-sAdA-sarala, garIbAM rA belI, karuNA rA avatAra-sA, pUrA prabhAvI para milanasAra, kaThora anuzAsaka phera bhI dayAlU, svAbhimAnI sAga-sAgai vinamra, purAtanI lekina bagata rA pArakhI, aDola prANa-praNI parantu paragatIzIla, samaratha hokara bhI udAra, manamojI-masta, ANa-bANa-zAna aura pramANa ra sAthai 50 varSA tAMI sAdhapaNo pAla'ra vi0 saM0 2032 migasara suda terasa nai 'dhAM' gAMva mai (sAlAsara sAhare) zarIra choDyo / bAMro aganI-saMskAra jaina vizva bhAratI lADaNa mai 18-12-1975 rai dina bIsa hajAra logAM rI sAkha syUM hyo| __ AparI rIta-nIta' ra maryAdA mai rai'ra bai saikaDAM sAdha-satyAM rI sevA-cAkarI ra sAraNA-vAraNA karI / bAMrI bacchalatA syUM baMdhyor3A hajArAM-hajAroM loga apaNAyata jodd'ii| terApaMtha dvizatAbdI samAroha para AcAryazrI tulasI Aparai mukhArabinda s! bAMna sevAbhAvI ro khitAba inAyata kiyo| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja kAvya rA rasiyA, sAhitya rA premI, vidyA rA upAsI, hai'ra kalA rA sokhIna hA / Apa ra khanhai revaNiyAM kitAi UgatA nakhatarAM (sAdhuvAM) nai mAMjyA, sAjhyA-saMvAr2yA'ra ujAlyA / bAM mAyalo eka namUno hai yuvAcArya mhaaprjnyjii| bai mAtR-bhASA rAjasthAnI rA sArAM sire sapUta haa| bAMrI raMgIlI, rajamedAra raMgaralI bAMrA AparA likhyor3A dahA-soraThA muMDe bola-bola'ra kehavai hai| jada-jada bhI bai parasana citta yA phera lehara mai hotA, jaNAM dUhA-soraThA baNAyAlikhAyA krtaa| nyArI-nyArI TemAM, nyArA-nyArA likhAyor3A bAM chuTa-puTa padAM ne mai mhArI mana-marajI pramANa chAMTa-chAMTa'ra nyArA-nyArA nAvAM syaM aTha bhelAkarara melyA hai| terApaMtha saMgha rA opatA, dIpatA, dIkhatA'ra ralatA milatA jogIrAja zrI bhAIjI mahArAja rI vicArAM syUM olakhANa au pada karAsI / jakAM mai anubhavAM ro paripAka, alaMkArAM rI jhiNakAra'ra anuprAsA rI bharamAra hai| tukAM rI jor3ator3a, beNa sagAyAM rI bohalatA hai'ra kitAka mai hai Adi-anta eka hI akkhara / bAMge zabada bhaMDAra'ra racanA siMNagAra, kavyAM ro AkarSaNa kendra bnnsii| ___zrI bhAIjI mahArAja, bhAIjI mahArAja hA, thAMkA'ra mhAMkA, basa AhI hai svargIya sevAbhAvI munizrI campAlAlajI svAmI rI olkhaann|| mai 30 varSA tAMI bAra sAga rhyo| ghaNAM utArAM-car3hAvAM mai bAnai utaratAMcar3hatA dekhyaa| paNa bAM jisI ikatArI, sAhasa, udAratA, vizAlatA, bhAIcAro'ra saMghIta bhAvanA viralA mai hI hosI / bI joDI ro dUjo koi santa ora huvai to manaii btaayiijyo| nimaskAra bIM anokhaM alavelai santa nai| vi0 saM 2044, divAlI, rAyayura madhyapradeza --zramaNa sAgara

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zaruAda zrI bhAIjI mahArAja rai suragavAsa nai hAla pUrA tIna mahinAM hI ko huyA hai niiN| bIM dina 17 disambara ho, ara Aja ke dina 15 mArca hai| abAra-abAra gurudeva re darasaNAM ne rAjasthAna rA vittamaMtrI candanamalajI baida AvaNa vAlA hai| mai sujAnagar3ha rAmapuriyA-bhavana rai pola paralai agUNai kamarai mai baiThyo huuN| mhArai sAmai ghaNAsArA kAgaja-patara, oliyA-paracyA, cIMpA-cimaThiyA, kApyAM-copaniyAM bikhar2yA paDyA hai| ittai mai AyA sumera muni 'sudarasaNa', bai avatAMi bolyA-o ke arAro bikhera rAkhyo hai Aja ? mai bolyo-bhAI ! bhAIjI mahArAja rA dUhA-soraThA, DhUMr3ha-chAMTa'ra eka jagyAM bhelA karaNa rI soca rahyo huuN| sudarasaNajI bolyA-bhAIjI mhArAja ke mhArai syUM chAnA hA? bai kadei padya baNAtAi konI haa| mhe bAtAM kara hI rahyA haa| ittai mai lADaNUM syUM saMtoSa bahana-zrImatI rANamalajI jIrAvalA-pAramArthika zikSaNa saMsthA rI bairAgaNyAM bAyAM sAga kamarai maiM A'ra bandaNA karI / maiM jIkAro diyo-'je rANIjI ! ba bAra gayA'ra bAyAM pUchyo-Aja mhArAja rANIjI kiyAMna pharamAyo ? bAMhI pagAM bai pAchA kamarai mai A'ra bolyA-hai o ! sAgaramalajI svAmI ! Apanai ThAha hai nIM, bhAIjI mhArAja mhAro nAMva rANIjI eka dUho pharamAra diyo ho? mai kahyo-hAM, sadAI bhAIjI mhArAja rANIjI re nAMva syUM hI jIkAro dirAyAM karatA, paNa bo dUho kisyo? rANIjI kevaNa lAgyA - mhArAja ! yAda karo, haidarAbAda yAtrA mai eka dina mai AcAryazrIjI nai gocarI padhAraNa rI arja karI, vimalA bAI sAga hA / gurudeva nako pharamA diyo / mhAro mana konI maanyo| AkhyAM bharIjagI / mai bhAIjI mahArAja ne araja karI / bai dayAlU puruSa hA / pharamAyo, berAjI kyUM huvo| pAchA pdhaarvaadyo| bhAIjI mahArAja thor3A sA'ka pehalI padhAra'ra paga thaaNmyaa| jada AcAryazrI ko padharAvaNo huyo tau moTApuruSa eka dUho pharamA'ra arja karI / bo dUho manai hAla bIyAM ko bIyAM yAda hai -

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rAMNA-rAMNI raMga syUM, sAjhe sadguru seva / sAthai bimalA seThiyA, mahara karo gurudeva / / suNatAM-suNatAM bIi Tema gurudeva gocarI padhAragyA / bIpacha sadAI moTA puruSa mana rANIjI! rANIjI ! hI pharamAtA rhyaa|| mai sagalAM rai sAmaii sudarasaNa muni ne kahyo-olyojI ! eka jIMvato jAgato muMDamaMDa pramANa / abai bAlo ! bhAIjI mhArAja dUhA vaNAvatA hA'ka konI? saMsthA rI bAyAM khar3I khar3I mhArai muMhaDai kAnI dekhaNa laaggii| rANIjI rai kahyor3e bI hai nai mai bITemaI likhyo'ra bolyo--sUdarasaNajI! eka kai, iyAkalA ke ThA kitAi dahA milasI, jada o saMgraha tyAra hosI / Aja rai iM prasaMga syUM hI bIrI zaruAda karaNa rA mhArA bhAva hai| sudarasaNa muni maangyaa| hAthohAtha bolyA-paNa mhAMsyUM A bAta chAMnI kiyAM rahI? mai dUhA-soraThA bhelA kAM jA rahyo ho / rAjaladesara vAlA sohanalAlajI caMDAliyA aayaa| bAta cAlI / bai bolyA-eka kopI bhAIjI mahArAja rai dUhArI mhArai kanhaii dhAryor3I par3I hai| vi0 saM0 2015, 2016, 2017 mai jada jada manai sevA ro moko milyo, mai dUhA dhAr2yA hA / kopI aaii| dekhI to do sau dUhA-soraThA milyA / bai prAya prAya saMta vasanta rA saMkalita hA / mai bImAyalo 'zrAvaka-zataka' ho jyU ko jyU soraThA mai hI rAkhyo / dUsarai 'sAgara-zataka' rA dUhA 'paMcaka battIsI' mai aaygyaa| paMcaka battIsI-vi0 saM0 2005 syUM 14 tAMI ko saMgraha hai| Tema Tema para mana (zramaNa sAgara) pharamAyoDI 'sIkha'AzISa battIsI bnngii| - muni gulAbacandajI bhAIjI mahArAja rA apaNA vaMzaja hai| choTe bhAI ro beTo, beToha huvai hai / gulAva guNacAlIsI vi0 saM0 2022 kI hai / iM mai kula paramparAgata udAratA, vizAlatA, viveka, baDappaNa hai'ra ThImaratA bar3hANa rai sAgai-sAgai akar3a-pakar3a chAtI ro ThaDDo' ra bAdAbAdI chor3aNa rI bAvai-beTai bicai salAsUta huI sI lAge / khudarA nijI anubhava, cetanA rI cokasI, sAdhanA rI sugandha, bhItaralai nai bhedaNa rI aTakala, kakArAdi kakArAnta dUhA mai-paramAratha pAvaDyAM par3hatA jI soro huvai| jada dUjo koI nahIM lAdhato, jaNAM mai hI dhakkai cddh'to| galatI karato koI, jhAr3o lAgato mhArai / 'zramaNa bAvanI' ro pAtra mai huuN| basa iMroi nAMva kirapA hai| . sarar3akA sohalI mai muni maNilAlajI ro vizvAsa'ra paratIta bola hai| A sohalI vi0 saM0 2028 saradArazahara mai eka khAsa moke para likhiijii| zAnti sikhAvaNI vi0 saM0 2026 sujAnagar3ha mai sarU huI zAnti muni rai miSa

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A nayA sAdhA ne hidAyata hI / 'sAdhaka zataka' hisAra 'ra dilI pravAsa vicai paccIsavIM mahAvIra nirvANa zatAbdI rI deNa hai / varNamAlA re hara akkhara para tIna-tIna soraThA, mAMya- mAMya yogasAdhanA rA nijI anubhava bola hai / - zikSA sumaraNI AtamArI uvAja | vi0 saM0 2032 jaipura meM pUrI karI / nyArI nyArI vagata, Tema-Tema rA bhAva, utArAM- car3hAvAM rI dhUpa- chiyAM meM nIser3I lukatI-chipatI bAtAM, paDhyAM suNyAM ThA pdd'e| bAkI rahyor3A sagalA dUhA 'phuTakara phUla' baNa' ra khilagyA / 'yAdagArAM' kucha saMtA - zrAvakAM rai jANai para baNI / 'padyAtmaka patra' AtA-jAtA sAdha-satyAM sAgai kAgada likhaNa ro moko to par3atoi par3atI / koI kAgada dUhA soraThA mai likhaayaa| bAM maiM maiM bhelo baiThyo / saMsmaraNa padAvalI manai sAMsyUM rucatI, cokhI, caraparI, phurakatI -phaDakatI raMgadAra ra rasIlI lAgI / iM vAste mai mhAMrI jANakArI mutAbika, kIM bItyor3I, kI AMkhyA dekhyor3I, bAkI kI suNyor3I bAtAM hindI maiM likha ra pothI ra lArai de dI hai / asala bAta syUM A pothI zurU huvai hai / zrI bhAIjI mahArAja Aparai mana rI bAta kanyA sAmai melI hai / A to maiM mAna'ra cAlUM, bhAIjI mahArAja kavi konI hA ( bAMrA sabadA mai) paNa kAvya rasika hA, kavitA rA pArakhI hA / saikar3AM dUhAsoraThA - chanda kavitta bAM rai kaMThAM hA / bai kavyA ne cAhatA hA / kavirAjA nai mAna detA hA / mana rI Aha kadei-kadeI bAra dUhA- soraThAM meM bAraiM AtI hI / bIM mana rI Aha, cAha' ra mAna - tAna sAgai, A pothI (AsIsa) kavi-kulakirITa mahAmanA AcAryazrI tulasI ( bhAIjI mahArAja rA anuja) ra caraNAM mai, tathA gaNapati svarUpa jogIrAja yuvAcArya mahAprajJajI mahArAja - jakA 15 varSA tAMI lagolaga bhAIjI mahArAja ra saMrakSaNa meM rahyA, beThyA / AparaM jIvana ro dUsaro par3Ava sAgai sAga pAra karyo -- bAMrai lambA hAthAM mai nijara karUM / WHAT ekara bhAIjI mahArAja dukaDyAM, tikaDyAM aura cokar3iyAM likhaNa ro mana bhI karyo ho / thoDAka adhUrA padya hAla bhI mhArai kanai likhyor3A paDyA hai / kula milAra iM 'AsIsa' mai gaharA artha syUM bharyor3A, anuprAsAM syUM sajhyor3A, bhAvAM syUM bhIMjyor3A, lakSyabhedI tIriyA sA ( 1170 ) aMdAja dUhA- soraThA- chanda hai / khATai mIThe, khArai'ra caraparai i saMgraha maiM muni maNilAlajI ro bacana agocara sahAro sarAyAM binAM mana konI mAna / muni mohanalAlajI 'AmeTa' bAra-bAra tAnA mAra-mAra' ra preraNA karatA rahyA / muni dulaharAjajI ro ke AbhAra mAnUM / vai to bhAIjI mahArAja rA ananya vizvAsapAtra hA / ve IM pothI maiM AparA zrama-bindu joDa' ra Aparo pharaja nibhAyo hai / moDo bego kiyAMlai mAno, A pothI hAjara hai / doSa

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sagalo mhAre pallai' ra, cokhI lAge jakI cIja AparI / zuruAda sameTatAM sameTatAM bAM sAM bhAI bandhuvA syUM eka bAra khamata - khAmaNA / hi vAste iM pothI maiM karaDo kATho, kahaNa-suNaNa, likhaNa bAMcaNa maiM AsI / savA hAtha ro kAla jo kara' ra bai santa mahAtamA iM ne vinoda, mana rI TIsa yA hitakArI sIkha mAna' ra khamasI / iM Asa mai 'zramaNa sAgara' 2044 dIvAlI rAyapura, madhya pradeza

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do bola bhAIjI mahArAja AparI er3I syUM coTI tAMIM hIyo hI hIyo haa| bAM rI hRttaMtrI rA tAra ittA kasyor3A hA ke jarA-so hilako lAgatAM hI jhaNajhaNANa lAga jAtA / bai koI rI AMkhyAM meM AMsU konI dekhaNa sgtaa| je dekhatA to bAM ro hAtha bAM AMsavAM nai pUMchaNa sArU uThyAM binA ko raivaMto niiN| iMyAlaka moma jiyAlaka mulAyama citta ro minakha kavI naI ho to phera ke bai / bedaradI DhAMDhA kavI hosI jakAM rai kAlajai mai vidhAtA dila rI jagyAM eka moTo so bhATo rakha diyA kareM / bai terApaMtha rai yugapradhAna AcArya tulasI rA bar3abhAI haa| I kAraNa loga bAnnai 'bhAIjI mahArAja' kaivatA / paNa A padavI bAnnai koI bagasIsa mai ko milI hI nI / loga AparI manamarajI syUM hI bAnnai pUjatA ara bAM rai caraNAM maiM Aparo sira nNvaataa| jako AdamI jitto dukhI ara daber3o hoto bo bAM rai bitto hI ner3o ho jaaNvto| bAM rI aNamApa apaNAyata rai kAraNa loga bAMrai Age AparI nija syUM nijU bAta kahaNa meM bhI saMkoca ko karatA niiN| bAM re hAtha meM koI bhAmAzAha rI thailI ko hI nI' jakI ro mUMDo khola-khola bai garajI rI garaja sAra devaMtA / bAM khanai koI hAkamI bhI ko hI nI jakai re jora syUM Agalai ro vAro-nyAro kara devNtaa| paNa, bAM ro hIyo itto hamadaradI syUM bharer3o ho ke bI mai hareka nai Apa Apa rai daradarI davA mila jaaNvtii| ___ loga bhAIjI mahArAja rai khanai hAryA-thakyA AMvatA paNa bAMrI bacchalatA rai bar3alai rI ThaNDI chAyAM maiM baiThatAM hI bAM rai aMga-aMga mai umaMga rI navI taraMga daur3aNa lAga jaaNvtii| bai ghaNA lUMThA vidvAna ko hA nI, bar3A bhArI tapasvI bhI konI hA, bAM syUM bar3A gyAnI-dhyAnI bhI bahota dekhaNa mai Avai, paNa A kahyAM binA ko raha sakAM nI ke bAM jiyAlakAM to bai hI hA / AparI AkhI umara bai koI nai tor3aNa rI naI, jor3anai rI hI ceSTA krii| bai sadA suI rI jiyAM sINo roI kAma karyo, kataraNI rI jiyAM kATaNa-chAMTaNa rI kozIza ko karI nii| bai logAM rai bIca AeI AMtarai nai pATaNa rI khAtara pula hI baNAyA, kade I koI khAI ko khodI nii| bAM ro to o eka hI mantara ho:

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12 girator3e nai thAma ra campA, cepa TUTator3e ne, phUMka dUkhate phor3e rai de, sIMca sUkhator3e ne // Apa rai AkharI sAMsa tAI bai rovatAM nai haMsAyA, TUTeDA nai sAMdhyA, AthaDeDyA nai hAtha ro shAro deya deya UbhA kar2yA ara bichar3er3A ne pAchA milaayaa| minakha paNa rI UMcAI, dila rI garAI ara hivar3e rI kaMvalAI ro I dUsaro nAMva ho-'bhAIjI mhaaraaj'| bhAIjI mahArAja khAlI kaMvalA hI kaMvalA ko hA nii| Aparo nema-dharama nibhANa maiM bai ghnnaa| karar3A bhI hA / bai Apa rai gaNa ara gaNI rI sadA jAgarUkatA syaM ArAdhanA karI / 'galai sudI gaNa maiM gaDyo raha 'campaka' paga ropa'-o bAMko karAra ho| pUjya kAlUgaNI ro Apa para itto patiyAro ho ke bai Aparai manacItyA yuvarAja rI sAraNA-vAraNA ro kAma Apane hI sUMpyo / muni tulasI rai gyArai barasAM re khiNa khiNa rA Apa pairedAra rhaa| jada saMsAra lekhe choTo bhAI guru rI giTTI para baiTha gyo to Apa pUrI bhagatI syUM bAMrI ArAdhanA krii| bAM rai por3hAyAM pailI AparI AMkhyAM maiM kadeI nIMda konI ghulaNa dI, bAnne AhAra karAyAM binA Apa rai maM maiM anna ro dANoM ko ghAlyo nI / bai I bAta rI pUrI khyAMta rAkhI ke koI zrAvaka AcArya tulasI rai caraNAM mai Aya nai Aparai rUMrUM syUM rAjI hoyAM binA naI jAvai / saMgha meM koI sAdha rai asAtA ho jAMvatI to Apa bI rai tana-mana rI sevA sAdhaNa mai kI uThA' ra ko rAkhatA nI / bai glAna sAdhavAM rI cittasamAdhi rai khAtara bAMTA bhAI, baida' ra sevaka-so kI baNa jAMvatA / 'sevAbhAvI' virada nai sArathaka karaNiyo iyAMlako para upakArI minakha dharatI para koI biralo hI aavai|| ___'AsIsa' maiM bhAIjI mahArAja rA ghaNA marajIdAna santa 'sAgara-zramaNa' bAMrA kahyor3A dUrvA, soraThAM ara kavitAvAM ro saMgai karyo hai| bhAIjI mahArAja Apanai kavI konI mAnatA, bai kavitA likhaNa sArU kavitA likhI bhI konI / mana meM koI laira AMvatI to bA zabdAM rai sAMcai maiM r3hala-Dhala kavitA ro rUpa le leNvtii| kavitA likhaNo koI kavayAM ro kAma hI konI . ghur3adaur3a maiM to __ sagalAi ghor3A dor3e daur3e jakAM mai, kai sagalAi or3e-jor3e koI bacheDiyo sArai kara sarapaTa nIsare jada bUr3he ko bhI mana bar3ha jAva josa car3ha jaavai||

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13 to bhAI jI mahArAja dekhyo ke eka na o paMkherU paMkha phar3a-phar3A'ra uDaNo cAve paNa uDa-uDara pAcho par3a jaavai| paNa, bo ke nirAsa ho'ra uDaNo chor3a devai / to phera maiM bhI gaNamaNAUM uDaNo cAvU akkhara bhelA karUM ukalata to Apa Apa rI hai thAM jisI kavitA kaTheU lyAvU jada kadeI hIye rI haMsa syaM bhAIjI mahArAja rai mana ro moriyo nAcato to bai kavitA baNAvatA yA kavitA ApeI baNa jaaNvtii| kavi konI, paNa kaviyAM rai bica maiM Urle-baiThU, kavitA rA kharar3A'ra khalItA, kholUM aura lpettuuN| A to bAMrI naramAI hai kai bai A kevai kai maiM kavayAM rai sAgai ULU-bailUM IM kAraNa kavI vnngyo| sAcI bAta to A hai ke bArai khannai uThaNa-baiThaNa rai joga syUM hI keI kavayAM rI sraNI maiM Aparo nAMva likhA liyo / AM do olyAM maiM bhAIjI mahArAja Aparai kavI naI hoNe rI duhAI dI hai, paNa kuNa kai sake hai kai A kavitA konI? chanda na jANUM, bandha na jANUM, sandha na jANUM bhAI / tiNakho-tiNakho jor3a masAM sI, eka chAnar3I chaaii|| A bAta sahI hai ke bai kavayAM rI pAMta maiM nAMva likhANe rI khAtara kavitA ko likhI nI, bai eka-eka sabada nai aMgUThI maiM naga rI jiyAM AparI kavitA meM jar3ayo konI, ara mAtrA giNa-giNa' ra chaMda rai baMdha nai pUro ko karyo nI / phara bhI bai kavI haa| kyUM ke : kavi koI bhATo thor3oI hai jako ghar3a'ra biThAdyo, kavitA baNAI konI jAvai bA to ApeI barNa hai| __'AsIsa' rI kavitAvAM bhAIjI mahArAja rai dila ro darapaNa hai| A kavitAvAM maiM eka sAdhaka rI gairI antaradiSTI ara tatva rI UMDI olakhANa hai paNa gyAna rI gUr3ha bAtAM bhI antara rasa rI mIThI cAsaNI mai pager3I hai|

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karma-bhoga samabhAva syUM, AlI kara mata aaNkh| campA ! bAMdhyA cIkaNA, rovai kyUM baNa rAMka / / jaina dharama mai saMyama rI sAdhanA, vIrabhAva rI sAdhanA hai, I karaNa hI 'varddhamAna' ro nAMva 'mahAvIra' pddyo| saMvedanA rA dhanI 'caMpaka' muni ro hIyo dukhI'ra daradI raikhAtara phUla jiyAlako kaMvalo ho to Aparai karama rUpI vairI syUM lar3aNa nai bajara jiso kaThora bhI ho| tapa tIkhI taravAra karama kaTaka syUM judha karaNa / maraNa sukRta bhaNDAra, sagatI sAhamo zrAvakA ! bAM rai khAtara kavitA Aparai citta ne cetAvaNaira nirantara jAgato rAkhaNa ro eka hathiyAra ho / ara bai AparI saMyama sAdhanA maiM I ro ghaNo sAMtaro upayoga karyo hai aurAM ko aizvarya sukha, jhAMka rAMka mata rIka, karaNI karatA kyUM tanai, Avai 'campA' chIMka ? kaiThA kuNa sai jalama rA, zeSa bhogaNA bhoga ? 'campA' cukai udhAra, kyUM bilakho dekha vijoga ? rAjasthAnI sAhitya mai sambodhana kAvya rI eka lambI paraMparA raiI hai| kavI jo bAta kaiNI cAva, bA Aparai koI marjIdAna ro nAMva leya ne khvai| jakA dohAsoraThA ApAM rAjiyA rA kaher3A samajhA hAM, bai asala mai kRpArAma bArahaTha rA rAjiyA ro nAMva le'ra kaher3A hai / cakariyA, nAthiyA, motiyA rai dUhA-soraThAM ro bhI oI hAla hai / bhAIjI mahArAja bhI ke I santAM rai sambodhana syUM dUhA-soraThA kahya nai rAjasthAnI sambodhana kAvya rI paraMparA nai Age bar3hAI hai| bhAIjI mahArAja rI kavitAvAM mai bhAva rI hI pradhAnatA hai, paNa bhASA re nikhAra ara sabadAM rai jar3Ava rI nijara syUM dekhAM to bhI 'AsIsa' rI kavitAvAM Aparo ghaNo mola rAkhai / mukta chanda ro prayoga to bai ghaNo sAMtaro karyo hai| cAlU muhAvarAM ro prayoga Apa mokale rUpa meM karyo hai / kaTha-kaTheI to muhAvarAM raimAdhyama syUM juga rI asaMgtyAM ro jIto-jAgato citarAma khaica diyo hai-- Doko phAr3e DAMga nai, tila le cAlyo tAr3a / 'caMpaka' chipagyo chokarAM! rAI ole pahAr3a /

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'AsIsa' rI sagalI kavitAvAM eka sArIkhI konii| keI kavitAvAM maiM bhAvAM rI ramajhola hai to keyAM mai davAyAM rA nuskhA bhI batAyA gayA hai| keI kavitAvAM mai ghaTanAvAM rI sAkha bharI jI hai to keyAM mai sAdhAMra zrAvakAM rA guNa gAIjyA hai| kavI Aparai jIvaNa rI ghaTanAvAM ro lekho-jokho bhI AM kavitAvAM rai jariye peza karyo hai / keI kavitAvAM ro stara ghaNo UMco hai to keI mAmUlI darajai rI bhI hai| nyArI-nyArI bAnagI rI nyArI-nyArI kavitAvAM hai| AM nai bAMca'ra A lAge ke ApAM bhAIjI mahArAja rai caraNAM mai baiTha'ra bAM rI vANI rI parasAdI pA raiyA haaN| I pothI rai aMta mai jo 'saMsmaraNa padAvalI' hai, bI meM AyoDA sArA saMsmaraNa hindI bhASA meM lArai dIyoDA hai| baiM sArA bhAIjI mahArAja rai jIvaNa syUM juDiyoDA hai / bAMna paDhatAM-par3hatAM sArI ghaTarAvAM sAkhyAta rajarAM re sAmane nAcaNana lAga jyaavai| A hai yAM rI vishesstaa| 'zramaNa-sAgara' para bhAIjI mahArAja rI ghaNI marajI hii| bai Aparai mana rI bAta Annai kaibatA / bai 'AsIsa' rai rUpa mai bhAIjI mahArAja rI vANI ro saMgrai kara bI ThAI tharapaNA karaNe ro jasa liyo hai / mai bAM ro upakAra mAnUM ke bai manna bhI bI puNya-puruSa rI yAda mai do sabada likhaNe ro mauko diyo| -DaoN0 mUlacanda seThiyA

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puro vAk yuvAcArya mahAprajJajI ne eka bAra likhA thA - 'saMkalana ke lie saba nahIM likhA jAtA, para jo likhA jAtA hai usakA saMkalana ho jAtA hai / manuSya cirakAla se saMgraha kA premI hai / vaha bikhare ko baTora letA hai aura phUloM kI mAlA banA detA hai / ' 'mAlAkAra kI aMguliyoM meM kalA hai / vaha dhAgoM meM phUloM ko gUMtha kalAkAra bana jAtA hai / kalA taru meM nahIM hotI, usake pAsa kore phUla hote haiM / kalAkAra hotA hai mAlI / taru saMgraha karanA nahIM jAnatA / use svArthI loga bhalAM kalAkAra kaise mAneM ? mAlAkAra saMgraha karane meM paTu hotA hai aura vaha sahaja hI kalAkAra bana jAtA hai / ' campaka vRkSa vasanta meM puSpita hotA hai aura sugaMdhita phUla detA hai / usakI suvAsa se sArA vana-nikuMja surabhita ho jAtA hai / vana nikuMja meM sAre vRkSa puSpadAyI nahIM hote / jo puSpadAyI hote haiM, una sabake puSpa suvAsa dene vAle nahIM hote / surabhi bikherane vAle kucheka puSpa hI hote haiM / una puSpoM kI surabhi se vaha saba kucha mahaka uThatA hai, jo alpa surabhimaya yA asurabhimaya bhI kyoM na ho / saurabha vahI bikhera sakatA hai jo svayaM surabhita ho / asurabhita kabhI saurabha nahIM bikhera sakatA / eka saMskRta kavi ne kahA hai 'nisargAdArAme tarukulasamAropasukRtI | kRtI mAlAkAro bakulamapi kutrApi nidadhe // idaM ko jAnIte yadidamiha koNAntaragato / jagajjAlaM karttA surabhibharasaurabhrabharitam // eka kuzala mAlI vana nikuMja ke nirmANa meM lagA thA / vaha yatra-tatra bhinna-bhinna prakAra ke vRkSa lagA rahA thaa| usakI paudha-zreNI meM bakula vRkSa kA paudhA bhI thA / usane usakI upekSA kara use eka kone meM DAla diyA / vana nikuMja puSpita vRkSoM se zobhita huA / suvAsa phailane lagI / sArA vana nikuMja bakula kI sugaMdha se mahaka uThA / khoja kI / kone meM par3A bakula apanI svayaM kI pahacAna de rahA thA / usakI

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10 saurabha ke samakSa sAre saurabha phIke the| muni campaka isI bakula vRkSa kI bhAMti the| unameM svapUruSArtha se ajita aura saMcita vaha surabhi thI, jo sAre vAtAvaraNa ko surabhimaya banA detI thii| usa surabhi kA eka ghaTaka thA-sahayoga, upakRti / unakA puruSArtha dUsare ke sahayoga meM sadA prajvalita rahatA thaa| ve sahayoga dete, para jatAte nhiiN| sahayoga denA unakA sahakarma thaa| ve ise karttavya kI zreNI kA karma mAnate the aura jo bhI sahayoga kI AkAMkSA karatA, vaha use mila jAtA aura yadA-kadA anAkAMkSita vyakti ko bhI inakA sahayoga ubAra letaa| ve saMvedanazIla the| jisakA mana saMvedanA se jitanA bharA hotA hai anubhUti utanI hI tIvra hotI hai / jaba vyakti ina anubhUtiyoM ko zabdoM meM utAratA hai taba vaha kAvya bana jAtA hai aura vyakti kavi bana jAtA hai| jisameM anubhUti kI tIvratA nahIM hotI, vaha acchA kavi nahIM hotaa| kAMca jitanA svaccha hotA hai, utanA hI svaccha hotA hai pratibimba / yahI pratibimba bimba kI anubhUti karAtA hai aura vyakti ko usase ekAtma banA detA hai| bhAIjI mahArAja saMvedanazIla the| unakI isa saMvedanA ne unako mRdu, sarasa aura unmukta bnaayaa| ve bAlakoM meM bAlaka, taruNoM meM taruNa aura bUr3hoM meM bUr3he bana jAte / hRdaya nizchala aura pAradarzI thaa| pratyeka vyakti usameM apanA pratibimba dekhakara apanatva kI kArA kA baMdI bana jAtA thaa| phira 'maiM' aura 'vaha' kI dUrI samApta ho jAtI aura tAdAtmya kI anusyUti gAr3ha bana jaatii| ____ AdamI bAhya jagat meM viharaNa karatA hai / aneka paristhitiyoM aura ghaTanAoM ke bIca se vaha gujaratA hai| unameM se jo ghaTanAeM hRdaya ko khIMca letI haiM, vyakti unase tAdAtmya sthApita kara apanI anubhUtiyoM ko zabdoM kA paridhAna detA hai aura ve kAvya ke mAdhyama se bAhya jagata meM phaila jAtI haiN| jaba anyAnya vyakti una anubhUtiyoM ko zabdoM ke paridhAna meM dekhatA hai, taba use apanI jaisI hI anubhUtiyoM kA pariveza smRti-paTala para aMkita-sA najara AtA hai aura taba vaha unase abhibhUta ho jAtA hai / eka kI anubhUti lAkhoM-karor3oM kI anubhUtiyoM ko tAjA kara jAtI hai| yahI hai kAvya aura yahI hai kAvya kI saarthktaa| campaka muni ne jIvana meM aneka Aroha-avaroha dekhe haiN| isa utAra-car3hAva meM jo-jo anubhUtiyAM huIM, unako yadA-kadA unhoMne zabda-baddha kiyA aura jaba unako gunagunAyA, ve lipi kI kArA meM Abaddha ho gii| . maiM nahIM mAnatA ki munizrI janmajAta kavi the / kavitA unakA karma nahIM thaa| para ve kAvya-rasika avazya the / AcAryazrI tulasI ke paTTotsava para, AcArya bhikSu ke caramotsava tathA mAgha mahotsava Adi vizeSa utsavoM para ApakI gItikAeM

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ha prastuta hotIM / Apa svayaM unakA saMgAna karate / anyAnya munigaNa Apake svaroM kAM sAtha dete aura taba sArA vAtAvaraNa saMgAnamaya ho gAtA / usakI pratidhvani laMbe samaya taka gUMjatI rahatI aura usa pratidhvani kI pratidhvaniyAM anyatra - sarvatra zabdAyita rahatIM / yaha saba una gItikAoM kI sarasatA, sahaja-sarala zabda - paridhAna, laya kI sugamatA Adi tattva hI mukhya kAraNa banate the / saMgAna ko jAnane vAlA yA nahIM jAnane vAlA, par3hA-likhA yA anapar3ha - sabhI usako gunagunAte hue dekhe jAte / yahI unakI sArvajanikatA thI / kavi ne svayaM likhA hai 'maiM kavi konI, paNa kaviyAM rai bica UThUM baiThUM / kavitA rA kharaDA'ru khalItA kholUM aura lapeTUM // bhAvAM rI cholAM maiM phira-phira likhUM sameTU gehUM / zabdAM rI talapeTI Dhera, udher3a-udher3a paledUM / ' 'chanda na jANUM bandha na jANUM sandha na jANUM bhAI / tiNakho tikho jor3a, maMsA-sI eka chAnar3I chAI // 'campaka' tUAM jUnAM bhaviyAM kaviyAM hiye hAra-sI / Atama darasaNa karaNa baNailA A 'AsIsa' ArasI // ' jaba anubhUti kA sotA phUTatA hai, taba eka hRdaya kI anubhUti agaNita hRdayoM kI anubhUti bana jAtI hai / yaha koI vismaya kI bAta nahIM hai / vyakti-vyakti kA jIvana pRthak-pRthak hote hue bhI, jIvana kI kucheka bhUmikAeM samAna hotI haiM / unameM anubhUti kI samAnatA svAbhAvika hai / samAna anubhUti meM eka vyakti dUsare se jur3a jAtA hai / prastuta kRti 'AsIsa' aisI hI anubhUtiyoM kA khajAnA hai / deza, kAla aura vAtAvaraNa ke vyavadhAna ke sAtha-sAtha unameM abhivyakti kI bhinnatA avazya A jAtI hai, para unakI cubhana vaisI kI vaisI banI rahatI hai / vaha cubhana hI isa kRti kI vizeSatA hai / prAcIna kavi ne kahA- vaha kyA bANa kA prahAra jisake lagane para yoddhA sira na dhune aura vaha kyA kAvya jisake zabda-zravaNa se sira na hile / Apane likhA -- 'ratana ratI 'rU rabAba, ThImaratA syUM ThaharasI / khemI karai kharAba, rikaTolyAM meM mUlajI // minakha matai motI miNa, naiNa nivANAM- nIra / rupaTarI ke dUlajI, campaka laiga lakIra / /

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paNa 'kavi baNa, ..." zIrSaka ke antargata munizrI ne kaviyoM ko sAvadhAna karate hue eka rahasya ko udghATita kiyA hai| rAjasthAna meM yaha tathya pracalita hai ki kavi ko akSara - vinyAsa karate samaya pUrI sAvadhAnI baratanI caahie| yadi kahIM 'dagdhAkSara' kA prayoga ho jAe to kavi kA sarvanAza ho jAtA hai / isalie kavayitA niraMtara isase bacane kA prayatna karatA hai / para sAre kavi isa tathya ko nahIM jAnate ki kaunakauna se akSara dagdhAkSara hote haiM / eka sevaka thA nAgaura meM / vaha tukabaMdI karatA thA / eka bAra usane kavitA likhI aura anta meM usane apanA nAma likhakara 'nAgo rame' isa prakAra apane gAMva kA nAma likhA / vAstava meM usako likhanA cAhie thA - 'nAgora meM' para pramAda ke kAraNa likha DAlA - 'nAgo rame' / kucha hI varSa bIte / vaha pAgala ho gayA aura gAMva meM 'nAgA' (nagna) ghUmane lagA / 'nAgo rame' kA artha yahI hotA hai - nagna ghuumnaa| usakI vahI hAlata ho gaI / 'AsIsa' ke kavi isa tathya se paricita haiM aura ve sabhI kaviyoM ko sAvadhAna karate hue kavitA ko kauna-kauna se akSaroM se prAraMbha nahIM karanA cAhie, usakA avabodha dete haiM / unhoMne likhA hai rAkha Adi meM 'jha bha ha ra Sa' zurU na karaNo chaMda / suNa sAgara ! 'aja ma na ka' para, mata kara lekhaNa baMda || 'AsIsa' ke kavi kavi kI karAmAta se pUrNa paricita haiM / ve jAnate hai ki kavi sarvatra Ananda kI anubhUti karane meM dakSa hotA hai / vaha nirAzA aura AzA mAna aura apamAna, sukha aura duHkha -- sarvatra AnaMda khoja nikAlatA hai, prakAza pa letA hai / kavi aura dArzanika -- donoM do bhUmikAoM para kArya karate haiM / donoM kA uddezya eka hai- satya kI khoja / para donoM kI anubhUti meM rAta-dina kA antara hai isI ko samajhAne ke lie mahAprajJa kA kavi hRdaya kaha uThatA hai 'Anandastava rodane'pi sukave ! me nAsti tad vyAkRtI, dRSTirdArzanikasya saMpravadato jAtA samasyAmayI / kiM satyaM tviticintayA hRtamate ! kvAnandavArtA tava, tat satyaM mama yatra nandati mano naikA hi bhUrAvayoH // ' dArzanika kahatA hai - kavi ! tere rudana meM bhI AnaMda hai / maiM AnaMda kI abhivyakti detA hUM, para AnaMda ko bhogatA nahIM / jyoM-jyoM maiM AnaMda kI avasthAoM ke varNana meM DUbatA - utaratA hUM taba taba maiM aura adhika ulajha jAtA hUM / ulajhana meM kaisA AnaMda ! kavi kaha uThatA hai - are dArzanika ! tU niraMtara isI raTana meM rahatA

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21 hai ki satya kyA hai ? satya kyA hai ? yaha bhI satya nahIM hai| vaha bhI satya nahIM hai / para maiM usa satya kI khoja meM ulajhatA nahIM / use hI satya mAnatA hUM jahAM merA mana laga jAtA hai, praphullita aura mudita ho jAtA hai| yahI tere aura mere meM antara hai| AsIsa ke kavi kI abhivyaMjanA hai karAmAta kavi rI kitI, kahUM kalpanAtIta / sAgara jhalaka, giri galai, jada kavi gAvai gIta / / kavi rI chavi-sI kalpanA, ravi-so kavi udyot| navi pavi sAgara ! anubhavI, kavi jhagamagatI jota // kavi janmanA bhI hotA hai aura abhyAsa se bhI banatA hai / abhyAsa meM zrama, adhyavasAya, ekaniSThAaura sAtatya Avazyaka hotA hai| saba aisA karanA nahIM caahte| ve alasa vyakti kavi banane ke lie nahIM, kavi kahalAne ke lie dUsaroM kI kavitAoM ko idhara-udhara kara apanI nAmAMkita kavitA banA DAlate haiN| ve hote haiM 'kvi-cor'| AsIsa meM kitane sahaja-sarala DhaMga se isakI abhivyakti huI hai 'kavitA tor3a maror3akara, karai ora kI ora / nAMva Aparo cepadai, 'caMpaka'! vo kavi-cora // ' kavi kI anubhUti vedhaka hotI hai jaba vaha apane pariveza ke pratibimba ko AtmasAt kara Age bar3hatA hai| kavi kahatA hai--uSA bhI phUlatI hai aura sandhyA bhI phUlatI hai, kintu donoM ke phUlane meM antara hai| donoM kI niSpatti bhinna hai| usameM AkAza-pAtAla kA antara hai| uSA dina lAtI hai aura sandhyA rAta / eka ujAlA lAtI hai aura eka aNdheraa| sandhyA aura prabhAta, phUlaNa phUlaNa meM pharaka / - lyAvai dina ika rAta, 'caMpaka' cinhe cinha zramaNa ! // zAsana aura anuzAsana-ye do zabda haiM / zAsana eka paraMparA kA bodha detA hai| vaha sAdhanA se upajatA hai, taba usameM se anuzAsana nikalatA hai| vyakti bar3A nahIM hotA / zAsana bar3A hotA hai, paraMparA bar3I hotI hai| zAsana vasundharA hai / sAre ratna usI meM se nikalate haiN| terApaMtha eka dharma-zAsana hai / usake vikAsa meM sAdhanA aura tapasyA kA teja kAma karatA rahA hai| jo zAsana ke prati samarpita rahatA hai, vaha satya aura ahiMsA ke prati samarpita hai, triratna kI sAdhanA ke prati samarpita hai|

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zAsana kI vyAkhyA kara kavi ne apane zAsana-prema ko abhivyakti dI hai zAsaNa surataru sukhakaru, siddhisaudha sopAna / 'caMpaka' zAsaNa cyAnaNo, Ana-mAna-sammAna / zAsaNa zItala chAMvalI, aNAdhAra AcAra / 'caMpaka' zAsaNa cetanA, haraNa pApa haridvAra / zAsaNa durlabha devaro, zAsaNa pUjA-pATha / zAsaNa ra paratApa hI, 'caMpaka' sagalA ThATha / / mAnasarovara malayagiri, makha-mayUkha-mohAra / maMgalamaya zAsaNa mudita, 'caMpaka' caraNa pakhAra / / zAsana ko apanA sarvasva mAnane vAlA vyakti kabhI bhaTakatA nahIM / yaha usake lie rakSA-kavaca aura devAlaya hai jahAM apanA prabhu virAjamAna hai| zAsana kI pUjA apane iSTadeva kI pUjA hai aura zAsana kI cetanA kavi kI cetanA hai, pratyeka sAdhaka kA caitanya hai / kavi kA zAsana-prema ina padyoM meM spaSTa rUpa se anubhUta hotA ____ anuprAsa kavitA kA AbharaNa hai| sabhI kavi isameM niSNAta nahIM hote / kucheka kaviyoM kI zabda-saMpadA itanI hotI hai ki anuprAsa unakI kRtiyoM meM sahaja-sarala rUpa se vyavahRta hotA hai / prastuta kRti ke kavi anuprAsa premI the aura ve yadA-kadA bAtacIta meM bhI 'anuprAsa' kA prayoga sugamatA se kara lete the| unake kucheka padya dhairya binA kada dharma, Tikai dhikai thirakai sike / dharma binA kada karma, sirakai chiTakai sAdhakAM! / / DhigalA-DhigalA DhAka, aNagiNatI-sA aakdd'aa| zveta DhAka aru Aka, sAdhaka biralA sAdhakAM! // Takkara deva TAla, TUTI jor3e Tema para / TIsa rIsa pai DhAla, syANo bo hI sAdhakAM! //

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caTakai jAvai caiTa, cIMTyA cINI nai cuMTaNa / khAro kharo ru kheTa, sUMghe koI na saadhkaaN!| mana svabhAvataH caMcala nahIM hai, para vaha banA huA hai caMcala / usa caMcalatA ke ghaTaka aneka haiN| unhIM ke AdhAra para vaha nAnA-rUpa dhAraNa karatA hai, eka vidUSakasA bana jAtA hai / vaha kabhI rAma kA abhinaya karatA hai to kabhI rAvaNa bana jAtA hai| eka rUpa vaha raha nahIM sakatA, kyoMki becArA dUsaroM se saMcAlita hai| usake baharUpiyepana ko kavi ne isa prakAra abhivyakti dI hai mana galato mana gomatI, mana hI tIratha-ghATa / mana mandira mana devatA, mana hI pUjA-pATha / / mana gaMgA mana gaMdagI, mana rAvaNa mana rAma / suraka-naraka puna-pApa mana, mana ujAr3a mana grAma // mana sItA mana surpaNA, mana hi kRSNa mana kaMsa / 'caMpaka' mana yogI-yavana, mana kauo mana haMsa / / prastuta kavitta meM mana ko sarala rUpakoM se samajhAyA gayA hai| usakI vividhatA ko samajhane meM ye pratIka bahuta kAryakara haiM, kyoMki vyakti-vyakti inase paricita prastuta kRti ke kavi 'sevAbhAvI' zabda se saMbodhita hote the / sevA unakA parama dharma thA / rugNa kI sevA-suzrUSA karane meM ve sadA tatpara rahate the| ve rugNa vyakti ke nAma-rUpa ke AdhAra para sevA nahIM, usakI rugNatA aura vedanA ke AdhAra para sevA meM saMlagna ho jAte the| vahAM sva-para kI sArI sImAeM samApta ho jAtI thiiN| zeSa rahatA thA kevala ananta AkAza / rugNa vyakti kA choTe se choTA kArya karanA ve apanA karttavya samajhate the| isa sevA-dharma ne unako eka saphala cikitsaka ke rUpa meM bhI pratiSThita kara diyA thaa| ve auSadhiyoM ke jJAna se saMpanna the / pathya kI vyavasthA ve kara lete the| usI auSadhi-jJAna ko ve kitanI saralatA se prastuta karate haiN| jaba jI macalatA ho taba jIvadoro hovai jarAM, doya lUMga lai caab| 'caMpaka' antara Aga A, ruI mai mata dAba /

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imarata-dhArA adhikatara, sulabha milai saba Thor3a / cyAra bUMda le kyUM kareM 'campA' bhAgA-daur3a || dAMta ke darda meM ve kahate haiM 34 dAMta darada jyAdA kareM (to) haladI masalo bhAI / dAba kapUra kAMkarI (yA) hIMga mu-sarala davAI // tIna lUMga nIMbU rai rasa meM pIsa dAMta para masalo / darda miTai 'caMpaka' ho jyAvai, jhaTa hala masalo sagalo || khAMsI roga ke lie - cyAra pAMca kAlImiraca DalI lUMNa kI nhAMka 1 cAbo pANI mata pio, khAMsI jAya caTAka // , kAvyAtmaka patra-lekhana kI paddhati bahuta prAcIna hai / kavi apanA abhipreta kAvya ke mAdhyama se iSTajana taka pahuMcAtA hai / jo painApana gadya meM nahIM AtA vaha padya meM sahaja rUpa meM A jAtA hai / prastuta saMkalana meM svalikhita aneka patra saMkalita haiM, jinameM abhivyakti kA vaiziSTya svataH dRggocara hotA hai / AcAryazrI tulasI ke sAtha muni caMpaka dakSiNa yAtrA para the, unakI sAdhvI bahana sAdhvIpramukhA lADAMjI bIdAsara meM sthita thIM / ve bImAra huIM aura paJcatva ko prApta ho giiN| unakI smRti meM kavi kahatA hai kharI kuzala khemaMkarI, khaTI na khAmI kheha | lAMDA 'dIpAM' dUsarI, hathaNI kI-sI deha || kalA - kuzala komala kamala, pada kI raMca na pIka / 'caMpaka' rAkhaNa cokasI, lADAM tajI na lIka // / bijjala baMkI benar3I, nirmala 'caMpaka' Aja calI gaI, maiM samaruM zAsaNa - naiNa | dina- raiNa //

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25 isI prakAra mAM sAdhvI vadanAMjI ke lie kavi ke udgAra haiM mhaiM to cikamaMgalora maiM the bIdAsara ThIka / dUrI caMpaka deha para, antara ati najadIka // mana meM Avai uDa milUM, pagAM huvai jo pAMkha / ke hai ? kyUM ? kyUM nahiM miTai, jhaTa lyUM 'caMpaka' jhAMka // isa prakAra yaha kRti vividhatAoM kA sundara saMgama sthala hai| isameM 1170 dohA, soraThA aura chaMda haiN| pratyeka padya apane ApameM eka sahetuka nidarzana hai / bhAIjI mahArAja -- yaha nAma jaba adharoM para AtA hai taba sarpaphanI geDiyAdhArI caMpaka kI rAThaur3I AkRti AMkhoM ke sAmane nAcane laga jAtI hai / maiMne unakI sevA-ArAdhanA nahIM kI, para unakA pUrA vAtsalya aura sneha pAyA / yaha akAraNa hI mere para hone vAlI kRpA - vRSTi thI / maiM laghu, ve guru / apanI gurutA meM milAkara unhoMne isa laghu ko bhArI banAne kA saphala prayatna kiyA / maiM spaSTavAdI thA yA nahIM, para ve mujhe sadA satyasevI mAnate rahe / unakI caMpaka puSpa kI sI muskAna sadA mujhe nahalAtI rahI aura taba 'maiM-ve' kA naikaTya sadha gayA / kahAM ve aura kahAM maiM ! para mujhe ve sadA AtmasAt karate gae aura svararahita para sArthaka chaMda meM bAMdhate gae / unakI karuNA apAra thI, pratibaddhatAoM se rahita thI, pavitra aura gaharI thI / yahI ekamAtra kAraNa thA ki ve vyaSTi nahIM samaSTi bana gae the, vyakti nahIM vizva bana gae the / jIvana-kAla meM ve hajAroM kI smRti meM jIvanta rahe, nirantara yogakSema ke saMvAhaka ke rUpa meM avasthita rahe aura marakara bhI sabake smRtipaTala para acala bana gae / ve jIye auroM ke lie / 'para duHkha - kAtaratA' yaha unakA jIvanamaMtra thA, jo lAkhoM-lAkhoM ko unake caraNoM meM upasthita kara detA thA / eka zabda meM kahUM to ' sa eva sa:' - ve ve hI the / kitane guNoM kA saMgama ! kitanA puruSArtha ! kitanA zrama ! kitanI sevA ! Apa the AcArya tulasI ke baDa- bandhava ! Apa the anokhe santa ! 1 prastuta graMtha ke saMpAdaka- saMkalaka haiM zramaNa sAgara / Apa prastuta kRti ke kavayitA ke sAtha chAyA kI bhAMti 30 varSa taka rahe aura munizrI kI pUrNa caryA ke niyAmaka, saMyojaka aura saMrakSaka the / Apa svayaM kavi, itihAsakAra aura saMsmaraNa lekhaka haiM / itihAsa kI jaba Apa bAteM sunAteM haiM, taba sunane vAle ko pratIta hone lagatA hai ki zramaNajI saMbhavataH usa samaya vahIM the aura ghaTanA ko dekha rahe the / para yaha kevala eka AbhAsa hI hai| Apa jisa bhAva bhASA meM sunAte haiM, vaha svayaM viziSTa hotI hai aura zrotA ko ghaTanA se ekAtma kara detI hai / prakhara buddhi ke dhanI zramaNa

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26 sAgara rAjasthAnI aura hindI meM gIta bhI likhate haiM, jinakA guMjArava dIrghakAla taka hotA rahatA hai| ___ yaha eka maNi-kAMcana yoga hai ki munizrI caMpAlAlajI (bhAIjI mahArAja) ke kAvya ko prastuta karane vAle zramaNa sAgara bhI eka uccakoTi ke kavi aura sAhityakAra haiM / inakI prastuti meM svayaM eka nikhAra hai jo pAThaka ko barabasa apanI ora khIMca letA hai tathA zabda-sAgara meM gotA lagAne aura artha kI UMcAI taka ur3Ana bharane ke lie bAdhya kara detA hai| ___mujhe Aja munizrI ke mUla-samAdhi-sthala ke AsapAsa baiThe-baiThe isa bhUmikA ko pUrA karane meM parama Ananda kA anubhava ho rahA hai| ve saba ge| saba jaaeNge| ve suvAsa chor3a ge| sabhI suvAsa nahIM de paaeNge| Aja bhI unakA samAdhi-sthala unake taijasa paramANuoM se anuprANita hai, aisA vahAM anubhava hotA hai| usa parama punIta AtmA ke prati maiM avanata hUM aura unake UrdhArohaNa kI nirantara kAmanA karatA huuN| muni yugala (sAgara-maNi) ne mujhe likhane ke lie cunA, yaha unakA vAtsalya aura vizvAsa kA dyotaka hai| maiM bhAIjI mahArAja ke satata pravahamAna snehadhArA kA siMcana pAkara kRtakRtya huA huuN| astu... -muni dulaharAna sevAbhAvI samAdhi-sthala jaina vizva bhAratI lADanUM 5-2-88

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krama wr m" x 9 56 75 0 asala bAta paJcaka battIsI zrAvaka zataka saMta cetAvaNI gulAba guNacAlIsI paramAratha pAvaDyAM zramaNa bAvanI zAnti sikhAvaNI sarar3akA sohalI sAdhaka zataka zikSA sumaraNI phuTakara phUla ghAso-golI yAdagArAM padyAtmaka patra saMsmaraNa padAvalI saMsmaraNa . 105 0 116 0 131 143 153 183 193

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nicharAvala maiM kavi konI, paNa kaviyAM rai bica meM UUM baiThUM kavitA rA kharar3A 'ru khalItA, kholUM aura lapeTU bhAvAM rI cholAM maiM phira-phira likhUM, sameTU, meTU zabdAM rauM talapeTI Dhera, udher3a-udher3a paleTU chaMda na jANUM, baMdha na jANUM, sandha na jANUM bhAI ! tikho tikho jor3a, masAM-sI eka chAMnar3I chAI 'caMpaka' nUAM - jUnAM bhaviyAM kaviyAM-hiye-hAra-sI Atama darasaNa karaNa barNalA, A'AsIsa' ArasI / sevAbhAvI 'campaka' asala bAta 3

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mana ro moriyo chatarI tAMNa'ra ghUmara ghAla'ra moriyo . ghaNoi phUTaro naace| nAca nUca'ra pagAM sAhamo dekhai jaNAM? udAsa hUra apaNa Apa nai jAcai / paNa nAcaNUM ko chodd'niiN| ohI hAla mhAro hai... 4 AsIsa

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nijorI bAta bai AMkhyAMi konI? bai pAMkhyAMi konI? bhAi-bahana ghaNAMi hai, paNa bai rAkhyAMi konI ? pASANa kImatI hai, ghaDaNanai baiThyo hUM paNa ke karUM nijorI bAta hai, bai TAMkyAMi konI! bai AMkhyAMi konI! bai pAMkhyAMi konI! asala bAta 5

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ghur3a-daur3a ghur3adaur3a mai to, sagalAi ghor3A daudd'e| daur3a jakAM mai, ke sagalAi or3e-jor3e ? koi bacheriyo, sAharai kara sarapaTa nIsarai, jada, bUr3he ko bhI mana bar3ha jyAvai, josa car3ha jyAvai, bhalAi koi cAla dekha ra haMsa, tAnA kasai, muMha macakor3e, paNa bhAI! ghur3adaur3a mai to sagalAi ghor3A dodd'eN| 6 AsIsa

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hoye rI hUMsa paMkherU nao hai'ra, akAsa bohalo baDDo hai| paMkhaDA phar3aphar3A'ra uDaNI cAvai, uDa-uDara pAcho par3a jyAvai / paNa bo ke nirAsa huvai ? uDaNo chor3a de ? mai bhI guNamaNAUM uDaNo cAUM, akkhara bhelA kruuN| ukalata vo Apa AparI hai, thAM jisI kavitA kaTheU lyaauuN| toi kevaNiyAM to iyAMnai kesI Ato,khAlI chAtI ro ThaDDo hai| paMkherU nUo haira akAsa bohalo baDDo hai| asala bAta 7

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5 AsIsa kavI' ra kavitA akAsa meM indaradhanuSa tANyo konI jAvai, ta hai / rohI maiM siMha bADyo konI jAvai siMhaNI jaNa hai / kavi koi bhATo thoDoi hai jako ghaDa' ra biThAdyo, kavitA baNAI konI jAvai bA to Apei baNe hai // sUraja nai ugAvai kuNa hai ? TemoTema apaNa Apa Uge hai, paMkhI nai cugAvai kuNa hai ? bhUkha lAgyA Apei cuge hai / kavi to tilokI ko sraSTA draSTA huyAM karai hai, bIne pugAvai kuNa hai ? bo to kalpAnAvAMDaM pUge hai /

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kuNa dosI nirdosI kAca phUTagyo, rolo macagyo, dila TUTyo AvAja na AI, nA kucha-so mana-bheda paDyo basa dUra huA mAM-jAyA bhaaii| gehaNo bAMTyo, jagyAM bAMTalI, bhIMta AMgaNai mai khiMcavAI, peTha gamAI, jamIM jamAI, pIr3hayAM rI dUkAna utthaaii| hAthI nikalyo, ar3I pUMchar3I kalasyai rI raha gaI lar3AI, khudI dirANyAM-jeThANyAM mai hinda mahAsAgara-sI khaaii| sAgai palyA, ramyA sAgai hI, sAgai sIkhyA, jImyA sAgai. bAtAM karatA loga-lugAyAM, 'jor3a rAma-lichamaNa-sI laagai'| Aja huyo ke ? bhAI nai bhAI dekhyo bhI nahIM suhAvai, orAM Agai eka dUsarai rA ogaNa-giNagata nita gAvai / 'campaka' ghara mai bar3I duzmaNI, baNagyA jigarI dosta par3osI, par3agyo lohI pANI syUM bhI patalo, kuNa dosI nirdosI ? AMNa-TAMNai, iM-ghara bI-ghara, AMNa-jAMNa rI AMTa aDAI / nA kucha-so mana-bheda paDyo basa dUra huyA mAM-jAyA bhAI, kAca TUTagyo, rolo macagyo, dila TUTyo AvAja na AI / asala bAta hai

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eka kola saMgha rai ikalAsa kI zAnI kaThei hai nhiiN| sAkha terApaMtha rI chAnI kaThaii hai nhiiN| Adi mhAro saMgha hai aru anta mhAro saMgha hai| saMgha syUM badhakara nahIM koI Atha i saMsAra mai // 1 // ke karUM mai bhalA bI baikUTa ro| jaThe sukha dukha ro koI sAthI nhiiN| saMgha hai soha kyUM jale ghI rA diyaa| jIva syUM battI dakI hai saMgha mhArai vAsate / / 2 / / raMja mai bhI, khuzI mai bhI, gamI mai aNagamI mai| saMgha mhAro aura mai hUM saMgha ro|| kade kurvANI nahIM saudo krai| diyAM jA balidAna apaNa DhaMga ro||3|| saMgha rai khAtara nichAvara kaaljo| manai badalai mai nahIM kI maaNgnno|| Aga syUM muMha bhusaladyo paNa sneha dekr| sadA thAMnai diyo desI cyaannno||4|| eka dUje rI utaratI jo karai, jalai IrSyA dveSa macchara ADa mai| jaThe choTe-bar3e ro nahiM kAyado, khaDyo hai bo saMgha sAva ujAr3a mai|| hAtha khAvai hAtha nai bo ghara kisyo? AbarU ke rAkhaNI AsAna hai| loga tAlyAM bajAvai, khila-khila haMse, saMgha bo kirakeTa ro maidAna hai||5|| 10 AsIsa

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baphAdArI saMgha rI bai ke nibhaasii| do minaTa bhI baiTha sukha-dukha nahiM kahai jo nahiM sUrNa // saMgha cAdara nai bhalA bai ke bdhaasii| miyAM dhAgA prema kA jo nahiM cuNa, jo nahiM buNa // 6 // hor3a sAgara rI kadei calU bhara pANI karai? bUMda-bUMda Tapaka-Tapaka campaka sadA aMjali jhrai|| bUMda-bUMda ralI calI rasadhAra sAgara baNa gyo| uchalakara bArai paDyo astitva pANI kho diyo // 7 // ekalo to huvai Akhira ekalo hii| saMgha aparampAra laharAto samandara / / samandara mai bUMda ro bhI mola hai| kola, ApAM ravAM ekAmeka baNa zrIsaMgha rA // 8 // milyA ApAM eka ThAme saMgha rI sagatI bnnii| prema jyoti bujhyA, mehaphila mai rahai kada rozaNI // 6 // tUM karyAM jA bedhar3aka niSkAma sevaa| samarpaNa niraphala kade nahiM jaaylaa|| (bhale) nahiM suhAvai nAMva dIyai nai liyo| paNa pataMgyo prANa bheMTa caDhAyalA / / rAta bItyAM pachai sUraja uugsii| rAkha thyAvasa, bhUlajyA satkAra nai / / jIvatAM nai sadA gAlyAM hI par3e hai| maryA, dhokyAM karai jaga juMjhAra nai // 10 // asala bAta 11

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kramavAra 15 m 17 mm x WW 18 mr m 21 37 1, sIkha 2. bhUla mata 3. pelI tola, pachai bola 4. samajhadArI ro sAra 5. bhaNaNa sAgai guNa 6. saMgata rI raMgata 7. AchAM ro mela 8. mAna-manavAra 6. sukha ro saMketa 10. kRtaghna kuNa? 11. mitra DhUMDha 12. sarala baNa 13. sAhasa mata kho 14. mahAnatA ro gelo 15. sajjanatA ro rUpa 16. ghula-mila'ra dekha 17. Ayor3A ro Adara 18. jINa rI jugata 16. Aja rA aguvA 20. AM baDor3AUM dUra 21. sudhara'ra sudhAra 22. syANAM rI syANapa 23. Atma-nidarasaNa 24. sneha-rAga-paricaya 25. tukama-tAsIra 26. pANI parakha 27. paurasa bar3hA 28. AtmAlocana 26. tUM sAdhaka hai 30. kavi baNa, paNa 31. sAgara ! sAvadhAna 32. AzISa 23 40 25 41 44

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9 sIkha sAgara ! saMyama sAMtaro, sukhe pAlaje zAnta / saMgha, saMghapati zaraNa meM, raha nizcinta nitAnta // 1 // zAsana - sAgara mai sadA, kara sAgara ! killola / ratnAgara ramaNIka hada, hIye rI hillola // 2 // zAsana umaga-jalA sukhada, khiNabhara khaTai na khoTa / AcArI nai hai aThai, akSaya sAgara ! oTa // 3 // sAgara ! bhaikSava-saMgha ro, hai UMco Adarza | aDiga rAkhaje AsatA, haradama car3hate harSa // 4 // sAgara ! sura-taru saMgha syUM, pUraNa rAkhI prema | vijJa ! vinaya-vyavahAra-nata, nimala nibhAje nema ||5|| paJcaka battIsI 15

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16 AsIsa 2 bhUla mata sAgara ! sadguru ro sadA, akathanIya upakAra / sAmprata mATI ro sughar3a, kuMbha karai kuMbhAra // 1 // ziva - dAtA, trAtA suguru, mAta-tAta, guru- bhrAta / sadguru se sAgara satata, zaraNa rAkha dina-rAta // 2 // karai sAraNA-vAraNA, nahi mAraNa dai mekha | sadguru sikha samudAya kI, sAgara ! rAkhai rekha ||3|| sumana - surabhi, guru-ziSya ro, deha-prANa sambandha | sAgara ! sadguru nAvar3I, o saMsAra samanda || 4 || AsaMgo Acho nahIM, aTala rAkha guru-Aza / baMdhana sAgara ! bAtha maiM, o asIma AkAza ||5|

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pelI tola, pache bola sAgara ! pehalI socakara, phera bolaNo bola / sAro jaga sajjana baNa, tIkho badhasI tola // 1 // bolI-bolI mai khilai mahAbhArata so khela / sAgara ! bANI syUM samajha, kito tilAM mai tela // 2 // koI syUM karaNI nahIM, binA jarUrata bAta / kAMNa-kAyado khAsa hai, sAgara ! apaNe hAtha / / 3 / / bAta, binA bhAjana binA, kahatAM huvai kadartha / sAgara ! pehalI socaje, vigraha badhai na vyartha // 4 // zabda-zabda sAgara ! sadA, bola tarAjU tola / jo cAbI tAlo jar3e, bA hI devai khola // 5 // paJcaka battIsI 17

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samajhadAro ro sAra bolI bolIje isI, pakar3ana koI pAya / sAgara ! samajhU samajhalai, lagai jagyAMsara jAya // 1 // sAgara ! sIkhI bolaNo, jANe jANaNahAra / mAkhaNa viralA nai milai, chAcha pivai saMsAra // 2 // samajhU samajha svalpa mai, sAgara ! sAcI resa / mUrakha magajapacI karai, pUrI par3e na pesa / / 3 / / aNasamajhaAveza mai, baNajyAvai bAcAla / sAgara! sumadhura zAnti rA, sundara phala saMbhAla // 4 // sAgara ! zobhai hai sadA, bagata-bagata rI bAta / binA bagata lAgai buro, zazi sUraja rai sAtha // 5 // 18 AsIsa

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bhaNaNe sAgai guNa korI vidyA syaM kade, minakha na baNe mahAna / rohIr3e rai phUla ro, sAgara ! ke sammAna ? // 1 // sAgara ! parakhIjai sadA, vidyA saha vyavahAra / Dhora kisyo Dhovai nahIM, bhArI pustaka bhAra // 2 // zikSA mai zobhai nahIM, akar3AI aviveka / sAgara ! svarNima-thAla mai, jyUM rIrI rI rekha // 3 // sAgara ! sIkhyo saikaDAM, anupama kalA udaar| jIvana rI jyoti jage, to sIkhyer3o sAra // 4 // sAgara ! iNa saMsAra mai, paDhyo-likhyo bhI phuudd'| jo nahiM jANe bolaNo (to) saba sIkhyer3o dhUr3a // 5 // paJcaka battIsI 16

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20 AsIsa 6 saMgata rI raMgata ochAM ro Acho nahIM, sAgara ! ati samparka | jyUM phUTI nAvA kareM, gahare pANI garka // 1 // ochAM rI saMgata are !, mArai mAnava mola / sAgara ! sAmprata svarNa nai, dai ciramyAM syUM tola ||2|| sAgara ! saMgata ro asara parakha dekha pratyakSa / amara-bela AsaMga syUM, balai samUco vRkSa // 3 // apachandA olhai kareM, AmI - sAmI bAta | avaguNa rai AraMbha rI, sAgara! A zuruAta ||4|| kAyara saMgata kAyarI, jozIlAM saMga joza / sAgara ! Avai saMgata syUM, aTakala, akala ru doSa ||5||

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AchAM ro mela sAgara! tUM satsaMga ro, AMka mola AgUca / mIThe rI manuhAra mai, pAtala kI bhI pUcha / / 1 / / sAgara ! samajhU sugaNa jana, paMDita syUM kara priit| tirai kATha saMga loha bhI, A uttama-jana rIta // 2 // baiThe to tUM baiTha je, paMDita-jana re pAsa / sAgara ! saMgata syUM bar3he, buddhi, vinaya, vizvAsa // 3 // bhir3aNo cAvai to bhir3I, sAgara ! paMDita soja / vijJa-vaidya re hAtha syUM, maraNa mai bhI moja // 4 // AchAM nai Acho mila, Achor3A ro mela / sAgara ! sAgara mai ralai, binA bulAyAM bela' // 5 // - 1. nadI kA prvaah| paJcaka battIsI 21

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mAna-manavAra binA mAna-manavAra kai, rahaNa mai kai sAra ? / sAgara ! hAthyAM para ladai, jana indhana ro bhAra // 1 // bhaMvarA ! Adara-bhAva bina, DAla-DAla mata Dola / sAgara ! thAro hai sahI, apaNo bhI kucha mola // 2 // Adara rI sAgara ! akatha, lagai rAbar3I svaad| binA lUMNa pakavAna bhI, baNajyAvai be-svAda // 3 // sAgara ! sUkho sogaro, svavaza ro sukhakAra / TholyA khA pakavAna bhI, hai jImaNa mai hAra // 4 // Adara aura nai diyAM, milasI sAgara ! mAna / kade minakha bhUlyAM kara?, avasara ro ahasAna // 5 // 22 AsIsa

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& sukha ro saMketa sAgara ! sukha saMsAra saba, thAkyo sagalai jo sukha cAvai DhUMr3haNo, (to) mana DhUMr3he mai saMkaTa meM saMtoSa yadi, rAkha sakeM to rAkha / sAgara ! sukha ro svAda tUM, cAkha sake to cAkha // 2 // DhUMr3ha / DhUMr3ha ||1|| sAgara ! dukha anurAga hai, sukha hai mamatA - tyAga | rAga - tyAga, vairAga bina, bujhe na jala rI Aga ||3|| dhana maiM sukha rI dhAraNA, sAgara ! dhArai loka / pudgala sukha hai pAMvalA, asalI sukha saMtoka ||4|| sukha mAtrA sApekSa hai, ati mAtra atireka / sAgara ! samatA sIkhalai, dukha tUM sukha dekha ||5|| paJcaka battIsI 23

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10 kRtaghna kuNa? sAgara ! ghRNita kRtaghna so, adhama pApa abhimAna / apaNA tUM apaNatva syUM, garar3A, dardI, glAna // 1 // amarabela so kRtaghanI, sAgara ! guNanai bhuul| pala jakai hI per3a syUM, par3e anta pratikUla // 2 // sAgara ! jo gUNa bhUlakara, jhAla jhUTho jhodd'| to ulaMTha zaTha UMTha nai, khalai UMTha rI khor3a // 3 // chidrAnveSI chibakalI, mITho mUDai mitra / sAgara ! dIsai zAnta para, Adata bar3I vicitra // 4 // sAgara ! chidrAnveSiyo, mITho phala kiMpAka / raMga rUpa ro phUTaro, toDai kaMTha tar3Aka // 5 // 24 AsIsa

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11 mitra DhUMr3ha sAgara ! sampata mai sukhada, hAjara mitra hjaar| bolaNa vigraha-vipada mai, sAthI kuNa hai tyAra // 1 // sAgara ! sukRta sAtha hai, hosI jo kucha hoNa / sukha mai sAthI sekar3A, dukha mai sAthI koNa // 2 / / vidyA-vinaya-viveka hai, thArA sAthI tIna / sAgara ! karaje sAdhanA, tUM hokara tallIna // 3 // amara-bela sAgara ! amara, sAthI nai nahiM khaira / pasarai jiNarI DAla para, viNa syUM pokhai vaira // 4 // sAgara ! sAMprata samajhala, mitra-mitra mai phera / durlabha hIro dIkhaNo, kAMkara DheramaDhera // 5 // paJcaka battIsI 25

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12 sarala baNa sAgara ! sIdhai bAMsa para, laharAvai dhvaja loka / bAMkI-cUMkI lakar3atyAM, cUlhe mai dai jhoMka // 1 // sAgara ! baNa zizu-so sarala, bAMka burAI chodd'| jaThe saralatA sAdhutA, sau ko eka nicor3a // 2 // sAgara ! zraddhA-siddhi ro, pakar3a pAdharo pantha / binA saralatA sata nahIM, nahIM satya bina santa // 3 // sAgara ! jAgRta-joga baNa, raca mata mAyA jAla / ceto rAkhI cugala kI, 'campaka' samajhaNa cAla // 4 // sAgara ! kara gati-mati sarala, sarala sUrIlI bINa / pApa prapaMcAM syU parai, kovida ! kalA-pravINa ! // 5 // 26 AsIsa

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13 sAhasa mata kho sAgara ! dukha samacita sahai, himmatavAna sogyo- saMtApyo rahe, nirbhAgyAM ro soka nAza zruta ro kareM, soka zarIra sAgara ! dhana, dhIraja, dharama, devai sAgara ! tapa-japa-vidhi kaThai, sama, zrama, samajha samAdhi / rAta divasa lAgI jaTha, soka, soka-sI vyAdhi // 2 // sAgara ! sUraja rI huvai, sadA to kyUM tUM dumaNo baNe, dukha meM hameza / bigAr3a | soka ujAr3a ||3|| sAgara ! samacita sahana kara, karar3I jhATa jheraNa rI sahyAM, nikalai jhaTa zeSa // 1 // avasthA tIna / daradI-dIna // 4 // sIkha punIta / navanIta ||5|| paJcaka battIsI 27

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14 mahAnatA ro gelo kaSTa paDyAM sAgara ! kade, mata karaje mukha mlAna / coTAM khamaNa syUM catura !, mAnava baNe mahAna // 1 // bar3o, bar3o doro baNe, bar3o baNaNa rI pIka / to gama khA, gaMbhIra baNa, lopa na sAgara ! lIka // 2 // tapaNe rI sAgara ! tanai, karaNI par3asI pela / sudha baNaNo so TaMca ro, sono hai ke shela // 3 // taNI na UMco tAr3a-so, paMkhI rahai na paas|| phala nahiM Avai hAtha mai, sAgara! soharai sAsa // 4 // sAgara ! sAgara sAriso, gaharo rahI gaMbhIra / sImA meM baratI sadA, nadiyAM ro jyUM nIra // 5 // 28 AsIsa :

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15 sajjanatA ro rUpa sAgara ! sajjana Aparo, desI hita rI sIkha / Upara syUM karar3o magara, bhItara mITho Ikha // 1 // nIko kar3avo nImar3o, sAgara ! santa sujANa / khoTa kAr3ha, vraNa nai bharai, jANa koiyaka jANa / / 2 / / sAgara ! kara yadi kara sake, tUM cokhAM rI hoDa / dholAM mIThA dUdha-sA, pakyAM narama bejor3a // 3 // tyAgai prANa pataMgiyo, paNa nahIM tor3e priit| syANA sAgara ! dai salAha, mIta ! prIta rI rIta // 4 // sAgara ! so coTAM sahai, sono, sajjana, suur|| ar3atAi araDATo karai, kutto, kAMso, krUra // 5 // paJcaka battIsI 26

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30 AsIsa shi 16 ghula-mila' ra dekha dUdha-khAMDa kI jyUM dakI ! rahije ekAmeka / ghula-mila sAgara ! saiNa syUM, calai na haMsa-viveka // 1 // sAgara ! sajjana baNa sadA, tarala dUdha tuccha nIra ne bhI turata, Apa rai tulya / apaNo mulya // 2 // aNa mitra to tUM baNI, sAgara ! salila sujANa / balai jalai pehalI svayaM, paya ne par3e na tANa // 3 // jala jalatA hI uchalakara, sAgara ! uphaNa dUdha / bhAI re dukha meM dukhI, par3e Aga mai kUda // 4 // chAMTo sAgara ! chiDakatAM, hiyo hujyAvai hema / bhAI-bhAI mai huvai, paya-pANI so prema // 5 //

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17. AyoDAM ro Avara sAgara ! pAyo sahaja hI, santa milana sNyog| Agata-svAgata atithi kI, karaNI de upayoga // 1 // paDyA kaThe hai pAvaNAM, milai bhAgya basa joga / sAgara ! bhagatI-bhAva syUM, kara uttama udyoga // 2 // AyoDAM rI khAtarI, karaNI hai kartavya / bhAvAM mai bhAlai jagata, sAgara ! sabhyAsabhya // 3 // Avo baiTho vinaya syU, AsaNa daiNo dhAma / Aye. ro Ava syUM, sAgara ! karaNo kAma // 4 // vyavahArikatA mai kade, mata baNaje tUM muuk| avasara o bhapaNatva ko, sAgara ! tUM mata cUka // 5 // paJcaka battIsI 31

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18 jINe rI jugata baNaNo cAvai to baNI, sAgara ! mIThI dAkha / bhItara-bAhira sarasa rasa, loka bharailA sAkha // 1 // sAgara ! yadi baNaNo sarasa, sIkha Ikha syaM sIkha / cUsaNiya rai kAlajai, bAMdhe rasa rI DIka / / 2 // mata baNaje tUM boriyo, Upara komala kor| sAgara ! sundara raMga para, bhItara mahA kaThora // 3 // phiraNa-phiraNa mai phera hai, sAgara ! tUM mata rUsa / reMTha phirai IkhU sarasa, carakhI levai cUsa // 4 // sAgara ! tUM rahije sadA, dholo dUdha samAna / abhiruci rai anurUpa hI, baNa vividha pakavAna / / 5 / / 32 AsIsa

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16 Aja rA aguvA aguvA sAgara ! Aja rA, kesUlA rA phUla / dIsata dIsa phUTarA, kintu mUla mai bhUla // 1 // aguvA sAgara ! Akar3A, phUla dekha mata phUla / AmbA-sA akaDoDiyA, bhItara tUla phijUla // 2 // adhika dhanI hai Akar3o, sAgara! mata lai nAma / pAna phUla phala hai ghaNA, para ke Avai kAma? // 3 // Uparale Aloka mai, akala ulajhagI Aja / sAgara ! bheda bhaviSya ro, samajha nahIM samAja // 4 // lekcara jhAr3e, ghara bharai, netA nIta bigAr3a / sAgara ! yUM kada ho saka, sahI samAja-sudhAra // 5 // paJcaka battIsI 33

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20 AM baDor3AUM dUra sAgara ! moTo ra vicai, choTAM ro be-hAla / jyUM godhAM rai jhor3a mai, bUMTA ro khogAla // 1 // apaNI-apaNI dina dazA, dekha baNANI bAta / bar3A-bar3AM rI bAta mai, sAgara ! ghAla na hAtha // 2 // sAgara ! khIMcAtANa mai, hita nahiM Avai hAtha / paDyA pisIjai bApar3A, ghuNa moThAM rai sAtha // 3 // sAgara ! mIThe rai lie, kade na khAMNI aiNtth| jhUThI pAtala cATaNe, syUM na bharIja peTa // 4 // sAgara ! sAMgara kera syUM, pAlI sUA priit| par3a sonai rai piMjarai, jINa mai ke jIta // 5 // 34 AsIsa

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21 sudhara' ra sudhAra sAgara ! sudharai sAgalA, iso sIkha vijJAna / kalAkAra karadai turata, bhATai nai bhagavAna // 1 // kala bina bala ke kAma ro, sAgara ! sAcI mAna / rasI-phasI paga baila rai, nikala na sakai ajANa // 2 // deNo bhAjana dekhakara, sAgara ! sahato ghAma / khATI kerI ro baNa, pakakara mITho Ama // 3 // ati UMDI Alocakara, sAgara ! bhAjana soja / sagatI sArU sUMpaNo, sahato-sahato bojha // 4 // sAgara ! guru lAkhAM milai, celo milai na eka / kahyo karaNiyA hai kitA, dai upadeza aneka // 2 // paJcaka battIsI 35

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22 syANAM rI syANapa sAgara ! syANapa svayaM rI, kAma paDyAM dai kAma / hai sAhajI rI sIkha ro, phalasai taka pariNAma // 1 // anta-anta syANapa karai, sAgara! kasabar3a hAya / karya-karAyai kAma nai, karadai gatarasa prAya / / 2 / / sAgara ! hoNo hI cahai, hada mahAjanI hisAba / / ati kasabar3a ke kAma rI, (jo) karadai kAma kharAba // 3 // sAgara ! saha leNo svayaM, samaya paDyAM nukasANa / paNa zatru nai bhI salAha, hita kI deNI jANa / / 4 / / sAca jhUTha ro hai nahIM, sAgara ! sahI nivedd| to tUM ke tANI karai, chuTapuTa cher3A-cher3a // 5 // 36 AsIsa

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23 Atma-nidarasaNa suNakara aNagamato sabada, lAla na karaNI AMkha / sAgara ! pehalI svayaM kI, jIvana jhAMkI jhAMka // 1 // khiNa bhara bhI sAgara ! khulo, mana mataMga mata chodd'| jada bhAga aMkuza lagA, pAcho hI bAhor3a // 2 // dekho bhale dabAva dai, jhaTakai milai na tthy| tarka tarAjU syUM tulai, sAgara! kade na satya / / 3 / / sAvadhAna sAgara ! rahI, Aja 'javAM' ko rAja / caTako deva eka hI, calai kaI dina khAja // 4 // Atma-nidarasaNa rai binA, saba darasaNa be-kAra / siddhi-dvAra sAgara ! sulabha, AtmA hI haridvAra // 5 / / paccaka battIsI 37

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24 sneha-rAga paricaya viSaya badhai viSa bela jyU, paraco moTo pApa / sAgara ! nahiM Avai sudhI!, dhUlo khAMyAM dhApa // 1 // pUlo hAkhyAM para jalai, cheDyAM UThe jhAla / raMga-rAga rI Aga ro, sAgara! jaga-jaMjAla / / 2 / / sneha-rAga sAgara ! sabala, bhaMvara bhayaMkara bhAra / bhUla-bhulaiyo bhava-bhramaNa, buddhi bigAr3a vikAra // 3 // sAgara ! paracai maiM par3ayAM, hIye rahai na hoza / caMcala cita cakarI car3he, dai orAM nai doSa // 4 // hIye phUTa nai milai, bhAga phuTa ro joga / sAgara ! thAisesa-so, (o) sneha-rAga ro roga / / 5 / / 38 AsIsa

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25 tukama-tAsIra durjana tajai na duSTatA sajjana sajana svabhAva / sAgara ! to sUkhe nahIM, taliyo deta talAva // 1 // tajai 'tukama tAsIra' kada, sobata sake na chUha' | sAgara ! zAhajAdo ramai, mahilAM maiM dhig dhUMha || 2 || sAgara ! ghara parikara asara, AyAM sarasI anta / kaha, kada kar3avI - bela para, mITho phala mulakanta // 3 // sAgara ! bar3hA na bIsare, bar3apaNa jhoMkA jhela / dara maiM bhI dekheM nahIM, gaja gaMDaka rI gela || 4 || asalI rai aulAda kI, huvai na sAgara ! hoDa / bor3AM rI gharaghoDiyA, khur3A sake~ kada khor3a ||5|| 1. tukama-e-tAsIra, sovata-e-asara / paJcaka battIsI 36

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40 AsIsa 26 pANI - parakha sAhUkArI rI sadA, resI avicala rekha / cor3e cIMdhI cora kai, zira para sAgara ! dekha // 1 // ochI pata ochI akala, avasara rA aNajANa / aNaghar3a anubhavahINa rA, a sAgara ! alANa || 2 || garamI maiM sUkhai nadI, barasyAM Avai bAr3ha | sAgara ! bandho bAMdhakara, sImita naharAM kAr3ha || 3 || siMcana ciMtana syUM sarasa, sAgara ! jIvana kheta / cAse bijalI cyAnaNo, sUkha na pAvai reta ||4|| pANI syUM sAgara ! parakha, sUrA, kUA, seNa / rada pANI uta parcha, motI, mANasa, neNa // 5 //

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27 paurasa bar3hA kaSTa paDyAM kAyama rahai, sAhasIka nirbhIka / sAgara ! sisakai siTaliyA, jhAMka rAMka dai rIka // 1 // 'campaka' himagiripara car3he, sAgara-tala lai nApa / candra-loka jA Utare, sAhasa ro bala sApha / / 2 / / sahanazIlatA rI huvai, hada jada sAgara ! hAra / nArada, name na nAgar3A, nAga binA phukAra // 3 // kaha sAgara ! pauruSa-kathA, suNatAM car3he umaMga / raMga dekha badalyAM karai, jyUM kharabUjo raMga // 4 // zabda asaMbhava koza mai, sAle sAgara ! sAla / karma-zIla kADhyAM karai, pANI phor3a patAla / / paJcaka battIsI 41

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42 AsIsa 28 AtmAlocana 1 nirakhe to khudarA nirakha do kSaNa durguNa doSa / sAgara ! tUM para - guNa parakha, Agama ro udghoSa // 1 // aurAM rI AlocanA, pAgala puruSa pralApa / sAgara ! rohI ro rudana, pApa anApa-sanApa // 2 // nija avaguNa nirakhe nahIM, Akhai para kA bheda | cAlI sAgara ! cAlaNI, kheda batAvaNa cheda // 3 // sAgara ! kAca ru kemaro, donUM parakha prabuddha / ulaTo aMkana philma maiM, zIso sudha ro zuddha // 4 // dUjAM nai dekhyAM dakI, sarai na garaja ligAra / antara kI AlocanA, sAgara! pravacana -sAra // 5 //

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26 tUM sAdhaka hai tana-bala to kAcI tarka, mana-bala raha majabUta / sAgara ! tirai samudra maiM, sAdhaka, dUta, sapUta // 1 // jala maiM jyUM naukA tirai, tyUM sAgara ! saMsAra / naukA maiM jala yadi bhareM, to DUbai majhadhAra // 2 // sAgara ! kar3avI bAta suNa, jo deM madhura javAba / ThaMDI pANI ugalatI, dai AgI nai dAba ||3|| ati-ArAmI, AlasI, abhimAnI, AjAda / laMpaTa, lolupa, lAlacI, sAgara ! bo ke sAdha ? // 4 // - kAMNa sAgara ! nahIM, khAMNa pAMNa hI dhyAna / nahIM bakhANa-bANI samajha, sAdha asAdha samAna // 5 // paJcaka battIsI 43

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kavi baNa, paNa... kavitA karatAM dadhakSara, sAgara! rAkhI yAda / caraNa dharai cetai binA, (to) vyartha huvai barabAda / / 1 / / rAkha Adi meM ja-bha-ha-ra-Sa zurU na karaNo chanda / suNa sAgara ! a-ja-ma-na-ka para, mata kara lekhaNa baMda // 2 // karAmAta kavi rI kitI, kahaM kalpanAnIta / sAgara jhalaka, giri galai, jada kavi gAvai gIta // 3 // kavi rI chavi-sI kalpanA, ravi-so kavi-udyota / navi, pavi sAgara ! anubhavI kavi jagamagatI jota // 4 // kavitA tor3a maror3a kara, karai ora kI ora / nAMva Aparo cepadai, campaka ! vo kavi cora // 5 // 44 AsIsa

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sAgara ! sAvadhAna ! apaNe mudde mai rahI, sAvaceta khuzahAla / 'campaka' sAgara ! camakasI, Aja nahIM to kAla // 1 // akaladAra ne AMkha ro, ghaNo izAro eka / avivekI nai lAkha bhI, sAgara ! kahakara dekha // 2 // Agraha maiM AyA karai, ahaMkAra, Aveza / jhUTha, AMTa, jhaMjhaTa, kapaTa, sAgara ! kaTutA, kleza // 3 // AMkha dekhakara AMkalai, jo bhItaralA bhAva / 'campaka' catura cakora tUM, sAgara ! chor3a vibhAva // 4 // anta matI vaisI gatI, jaisI gati mati hoya / mati nai badalaNa dai matI, sAgara ! sindhu viloya // 5 // paJcaka battIsI 45

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32 AzISa subaha-subaha svAdhyAya hai, sAgara ! sAco snAna / uDA UMgha, Alasa ubhaya, sthira cita baNI sujAna // 1 // nizcita hI milasI ratana, pANI mAhi majIka / dhIraja dhara, kara sAdhanA, sAgara ! siddhi najIka / / 2 / / sAgara ! bar3a ke vRkSa jyU, tUM karajye vistaar| ho-bharyo chAyAM ghaNI, sagalAM nai sukhakAra / / 3 / / sukhe-sukhe saMyama nibhA, sAgara! tUM sotsAha / zyAma khora baNa saMgha ro, 'campaka' rI cita-cAha // 4 // rAjA deva rIjha kara, bar3I-bar3I baksIsa / para sAgara ! campaka kanhai (hai) A hArdika AzISa // 5 // 46 AsIsa

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soraThA-chanda maMgalIka mahAvIra, gotama gaNadhara guNa nilA / bhikSU bhaMjana bhIra, samaro nizidina zrAvakAM ! // 1 // tulasI taraNI nAva, sAgI iNa saMsAra meM / bhakti karo bhala bhAva, sagatI sArU zrAvakAM ||2|| gaNI-gaNarA guNagrAma, gAo gaurava syUM guNI / karo iso koi kAma, sudharai narabhava zrAvakAM ! | 3 || sAmayika zubha- dhyAna, cintana aura citAraNo / baNo jJAna - galatAna, samakita dhArI zrAvakAM ! | 4 || gaharI tAtvika jJAna, milaNo muzkila hai mahA / sIkho tattva sujAna, sArAM pehalI zrAvakAM ! | 5|| mata dyo nindrA mAna, bAtAM vikathA baraja kai / baMce jada vyAkhyAna, suNo dhyAna syUM zrAvakAM ! | 6 || apachandA avanIta, TAlokar3a gaNa syUM Talai / barate jo viparIta, saMgata chor3o zrAvakAM ! // 7 // mAnavatA ro mAna, sadA badhAvo sokha syUM / baNo matI vyavadhAna, zubha kAmAM meM zrAvakAM ! | 8|| para - guNa syUM dhara prema, nirakho nija avaguNa nipuNa / nimala nibhAo nema, sukhe samAdhe zrAvakAM ! 6 // zrAvaka-zataka 46

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nirmala rAkho nIta, paramaprIta paya-jala jisii| jaga meM hosI jIta, saccAI syUM zrAvakA ! / 10 // dhyAo dharma-dhyAna, pApa-dhyAna nai prihro| milasI zAnti mahAna, sahaja bhAva syUM zrAvakA ! / 11 // baNajyo vijJa vinIta, cuNajyo cokhA guNa catura / nikalai nava navanIta, zubha cintana syUM zrAvakA ! // 12 // dUSaNa muni mai dekha, caTakai mata the cimkjyo| samajha sIkha suviveka, svAmI jI rA shraavkaaN!|13|| binA vicAr2yAM bAta, kiNa syUM hI karaNI nhiiN| hai apaNa hI hAtha, zobhA leNI zrAvakA ! / 14 // badhajyA ghaNo bigAr3a, be-matalaba rI bAta syuuN| tila baNajyAvai tAr3a, sAmprata dekho shraavkaaN!|15|| rojInAM rI rAr3a, AchAM nai opai nhiiN| bohalo karai bigAr3a, soco samajho zrAvakA ! / 16 // dila rAkho dariyAva, jhaTaka the mata jhlkjyo| par3asI pUrNa prabhAva, sagalAM Upara zrAvakA ! / 17 / / dhana syUM nAvai dhApa, sAgara nai jyUM salila syuuN| tRSNA ro AtApa, zAnta karo the shraavkaaN!|18|| sAjho zAsaNa-seva, aTala rAkhajyo aastaa| alago kara ahameva, saphala baNo the zrAvakAM ! // 19 // bAraha-vrata vara rIta, dhAro kara kara dhaarnnaaN| pUrI pAlo prIta, saMyama sAgai zrAvakAM // 20 // saMta-satyAM rai sAtha, dhAro dhArmika dhaarnnaa| binA jarUrata bAta, zobhai konI zrAvakAM ! / 21 / / 50 AsIsa

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saMta-satyAM rai saMga, barato mata vipriittaa| parihara prema prasaMga, zuddha rahIjyo zrAvakA ! / 22 // nyAtIlAM syUM neha, aNahaMto Acho nhiiN| china maiM devai cheha, svAratha chuTyAM shraavkaaN!|23|| pakar3a eka rI pakSa, nyAya nivANa nAM dhro| pUjAsyo pratyakSa, samAna samajhyA zrAvakA ! / 24 / / sAcI neka salAha, dyo mata dila dekhyAM binaa| baNa kara be-paravAha, sAkha na khoo zrAvakA ! // 25 // udyama AgevANa, jainAgama mai jina khyo| takadIrAM rai tAMNa, samaya na khoo zrAvakA ! / 26 / / antara AMkha ughADa, jovo patha jinarAja ro| bAMdho jIvana-bADa, sadA surakSita shraavkaaN!|27|| tapa tIkhI talavAra, karama kaTaka syUM judha karaNa / bharaNa sukRta bhaMDAra, sagatI sAhamo zrAvakA ! / 28 // sajho suraMgo zIla, badhasI ghaNI vishesstaa| jhUlyAM saMyama jhIla, ziva-sukha milasI zrAvakAM ! / 26 // minakhapaNe ro mAna, mAnava baNa khovo mtii| ijjata aura ImAna, svayaM bacAo shraavkaaN!|30|| bhajalyo zrI bhagavAna, bhora sAMjha bhala bhAva syuuN| geharo-geharo jJAna, sajhai nahIM jo zrAvakAM ! / 31 // nahIM cahIjai nAma, isA kitA hai aadmii| karyAM karaNa ro kAma, svataH nAma hai shraavkaaN!|32|| phAr3A-tor3I-phUTa, mana ro jo mailaapnno| levai nija guNa lUMTa, samajho syANAM shraavkaaN!|33|| zrAvaka-zataka 51

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dalabandI-dIvAra, kAma nahIM devai karaNa / pehalI cahijai pyAra, saba kAmAM mai zrAvakA ! / 34 // orAM nai upadeza, deNe mai ke dksstaa| bar3hA viveka vizeSa, sudharo the khuda shraavkaaN!|35|| are! aNUtA Ala, dUjAM para devo mtii| hovai buro havAla, sujasa na khoo zrAvakA ! // 36 // rAkho zAsaNa-rIta, parama prIta gaNa-pUjya syuuN| bAjolA suvinIta, zobhA bar3hasI shraavkaaN!|37|| the mata khoo thApa, binA vicArayAM bola ke| cokhI hai cupacApa, socyA pehalI shraavkaaN!|38|| catura aura cAlAka, antara donyAM mai adhika / chor3o mana rI chAka, sarala baNo the zrAvakA !!36 / / pUraba puNya pratApa, milI deha A minakha rii| parahA parihara pApa, zramaNa-bhUta baNa zrAvakA !!40 // Atama-jJAna ananta, tarka-tulA syUM nahiM tulai / tahamevaM hI taMta, sadA sire hai zrAvakA ! / 4 / / aNuvrata-vrata syUM opa, AchI jIvana rI aho| ADambara ATopa, sagalA chor3o zrAvakA !!42 // aNuvrata rI le oTa, khoTa kharAbI mati kro| pApAM rI A poTa, syAna bigAr3e zrAvakA !!43 // kUDa kapaTa ro koTa, khatarai syUM khAlI nhiiN| gaharA UTha goTa, suI na sUjhe zrAvakA !!44 // cAlyAM khoTI cAla, paga-paga pichatANo pdd'e| pANI pehalI pAla, soharI baMdhaNI shraavkaaN!|45|| 52 AsIsa

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hovai kAma hareka, sahaja vivekI rA sdaa| vidyA binA viveka, zobhai konI shraavkaaN!|46|| badhai sahaja bahumAna, ralamila sagalAM syUM rhyaaN| bAjai jaga balavAna, saMgaThana syUM zrAvakA ! / 47 / / vinaya sahita vyavahAra, khiNa mai jaga nai khIMca le| pragaTai sahajyAM pyAra, salila baNyAM syUM zrAvakA !!48 / / vadanIti, ati bAta, khuda ro kara dai khaatmo| hiyo rAkhajyo hAtha, sukha pAolA zrAvakA ! / 46 // zrAvakapaNa ro sAra, AcAryAM rI aastaa| vimala vinaya vyavahAra, sahanazIlatA zrAvakA !50 / / santa-satyAM rai sAtha, haMsI-masakharI hrktaa| kokatha karo na kAtha, zarama rAkhajyo shraavkaaN!|5|| sadA karo sammAna, satya zIla santoSa ro| sahajyAM bar3hasI zAna, sArai jaga mai shraavkaaN!|52|| koI syUM bhI kAma, karaDo bolyAM nahiM kddh'e| pAsyo zubha pariNAma, sAvala bolyAM zrAvakA !!53 // olakhajyo AcAra, gaNa-maryAdA gaura syuuN| vidyA ro vistAra, saMjama lArai shraavkaaN!|54|| bagata-bagata rA bola, nayA-nayA jo nIsara / tarka tarAjU sola, moco samajho zrAvakA ! / 55 / / ApasarI rI aiMTha, sulajhai samajhoto kryo| pAchI jamajyA peTha, saMvalI socyAM zrAvakA !!56 / / aNabaNatI AsAna, sahaja nahIM hai suljhnnii| 'maiM' ro mudhAbhimAna, syANapa khovai zrAvakA !!57 / / zrAvaka-zataka 53

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54 AsIsa jaMca nahIM jo bAta, AcAraja rI zraddhA bhagatI sAtha, sudRr3ha rAkho kaSTa paDyAM kamajora, pAchA deva pAMvar3A / sAhamA maMDyAM sajora, samara jItasyo zrAvakAM ! 156 // AsatAM / zrAvakAM ! | 58 // samakita rA suvizeSa, jatana jApatA jo karai / kiMcita rahai na kleza, sarasai jIvana zrAvakAM ! // 60 // caubIsI cita cAva, amala banA ArAdhanA / sahaja rahai sadbhAva, sajjhAI Rs zrAvakAM ! // 61 // UMDo de upayoga, parameSThI sahaja bar3he zubha yoga, smaraNa karyAM paMcaka pravara | syUM zrAvakAM ! 162 // barato bagata biloka, sImA meM rahakara sadA / lArai hosI loka, samaya pichANyAM zrAvakAM ||63 || AcAraja rI ANa, prANAdhika pahacANajyo / tarka pharka yuta tAMNa, zreSTha nahIM hai zrAvakAM ! | 64 || 1 navakaravAlI nitya cavadaha niyama citAraNA / karo sadA ro kRtya, zAMta bhAva syUM zrAvakAM ! | 65 // guru- bacanAM para gora, gaharA guNa badhasI ghaNAM / kAlejAM rI kora, saMgha saMghapati zrAvakAM ! | 66 // kara mana para kaMTrola, rUpa dekha rIjho matI / AchI sIkha amola, satpuruSAM rI zrAvakAM ! // 67 // avasara nai avaloka, varatai bohI vijJa hai / lekcara jhADyAM loka, sahamA maMDasI zrAvakAM ! // 68 // - matalaba bikhabAda, baDhyAM baNai visamI sthitI / AtmA mai AhlAda, sadA bar3hAvo zrAvakAM ! | 66 //

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karar3o koI kAma, aNacityo Avai agara / samaro bhikkhU syAma, saMkaTa TalasI zrAvakA ! 70 // tIkhA-tIkhA tIra, mata mAro the marama kaa| cila jyAdai cita cIra, zabdAM sATai zrAvakA ! 71 // tAraka terApantha, bhikSU gaNi khojyo bhlo| aDiga manA atyanta, sura taru sevo shraavkaaN!72|| mAtA-pitA samAna, kA bhAI bhala bhAva syUM / mitra mitra matimAna, soka baNyAM mata zrAvakA !73 / / sAlai nAnhI zUla, khiNa-khiNa mai khaTako rahai / zaMkA hai pratikUla, sudha samakita mai shraavkaaN!|74|| aTala manA Atmastha, avicala karo upAsanA / mata baNajyo madhyastha, saMta-satyAM rA zrAvakA !75 / / aNasamajhU aNajANa, bAta vicAra sake nhiiN| nAhaka hI nukasANa, saTakai karalai shraavkaaN!76|| suguNa sayANAM saMga, TAlokar3a ro ttaaljyo| raMgyA zAsaNa-raMga, sadA rahIjyo shraavkaaN!77|| nindaka syUM ati neha, apachandA syUM prIta ati / khiNa mai uDajyA kheha, zrAvakatA kI shraavkaaN!|78|| hiMsA syUM taja heta, amala ahiMsA aacro| khaDyA raho raNa kheta, samaya paDyAM the zrAvakAM ! / 76 // minakha, minakha ro mola, minakhapaNe syUM maapsii| tyAga-tarAjU tola, zAsaNa mai hai shraavkaaN!180||' zraddhA vinaya sameta, dhAro Agama dhaarnnaa| rala nahiM jyAvai reta, sarasa sudhA mai shraavkaaN!81|| zrAvaka-zataka 55

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phahama binA rI bAta, caturAM ! suNa camako mtii| hiyo rAkhajyo hAtha, samaya-samaya para shraavkaaN!|82|| Agama ro upakarma, guru gama syUM gaharo huvai| muzkila milaNo marma, svayaM paDhyAM syUM zrAvakAM !83 / / manamatte matimAna, baNaNo jANe hai bahuta / avarodha utthAna, svayaM svayaM ro shraavkaaN!84|| moTA mahimAvAna, namai sadA nala-nIra jyaM / ochAM rai abhimAna, saTakai Avai shraavkaaN!|8|| nAhaka nindaka loka, karmaThoka nindA kr| jANa baNakara joka, sAra cUsalai shraavkaaN!|86|| nimala karo nita nema, sAmAyaka sajjhAya vara / sevA TemoTema, saMta-satyAM rI zrAvakAM !187 // be-matalaba kara behama, bAta-bAta mai biicrai| bAjai bo be-phehama, zUla sarIkho zrAvakA !188 / / binA rIta rI bAta, dekho to jhaTa ttokyo| pakar3o mata pakhapAta, syANAM sotAM! zrAvakA !86 / / dekho jo koi doSa, kaho jagyAMsara kahaNa rii| mana nai vyartha masosa, sahana karo mata zrAvakA !18 // nikamA le le nAma, rolA karaNA roja raa| konI thArAM kAma, sajaga rahIjyo zrAvakA !61 // rakha-pakha jhUThI rAkha, gAlA golo guru knhai| saTakai khovai sAkha, zobhA sagalI zrAvakA 162 // bolai kar3avA, bola, jahara gholakara jIbha mai| TAMkI lagai na Tola, sneha TUTajyA zrAvakAM ! / 63 / / 56 AsIsa .

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bAjArAM mai baiTha, kUDa kapaTa karatA rhe| pala mai vikajyA peTha, so barasAM rI zrAvakA !!64 / / kaicI deve kATa, sI devai pala mai suii| par3ho prema ro pATha, sui-Dorai syUM zrAvakA !65 // sAvadhAna savidhAna, sogana mai rahijyo sdaa| mAnavatA ro mAna, sadA rAkhajyo zrAvakAM !66 / / chor3o hoDA-hoDa, jIvana nai halako kro| A hai nUMI mor3a, sAvala soco zrAvakA ! / 7 / / prAyaH mana mai koDa, AMNe-TAMNa para huvai| A hai naI mor3a, (the) saMjama sIkho zrAvakA !!18 // ADambara dyo chor3a, jalama maraNa aru byAva mai| A hai nUMI mor3a, sadA sAdagI zrAvakA !!66 // tAMtA dyo the tor3a, Arta-raudra do dhyAna syUM / sau ko eka nicor3a, sIdhA cAlo zrAvakA ! / 100 // dohA do hajAra sataraha sukhada, dvi-zatAbdI ko daura / saMgha-cAMda the zrAvakA !, 'campaka' baNo cakora ! / 101 // zrAvaka-zataka 57

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hoNo nahIM himAyatI, durgaNa bIca dalAla / 'campaka' santa svabhAva ro, santAM ! rAkho khyAla // 1 // cAlI 'campaka' cAlaNI, chadma batAvaNa cheda / santa svAtmadarzI sadA, bhedI bhAMpai bheda // 2 // dhigANiyA 'campaka' dhasa, dhIMgAmastI dhIMga / paNa santA! mUMgA par3e, ghaNA badhyoDA sIMga // 3 // ar3o na 'campaka' dyo abhaya, dayApAtra hai dIna ! santAM! samatA dharma hai, mata gUMdo gamagIna // 4 // santAM jAya svabhAva kada, 'campaka' sAdhe sUdha / ralA mIgaNyAM roja hI, bakarI devai dUdha // 5 // udyama mai 'campaka' ukata, hoNo nahIM harAna / ruta AyA santAM ! sarasa, phala devai phalavAna // 6 // moTA hI mAphI karai, namasI 'campaka' narama / santAM ! rAkhyAM sarailA, dhIrapa, dhIraja, dharama // 7 // kIr3I para 'campaka' kaTaka, kamajorAM para khaar| santAM ! maryor3AM nai abai, the ke karasyo mAra // 8 // saMta-cetAvaNI 61

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62 AsIsa kasatAM hI kicaro huvai, 'campaka' kAMsI, kAMca / santAM ! rajamo rAkhajyo, nahIM sAMca nai AMca // 6 // kahaNa meM kucha aura hI, karaNo campaka aura / rAjanIti rI rIta A, santAM ! karalyo gaura // 10 // minakha matai motI miNai naiNa-nivANAM nIra / rulapaTa rI santAM ! kisI, 'campaka' leNa - lakIra // 11 // sAthI-saMgalyA kada sahai, celA cAMTI coTa / 'campaka' ralajyA geDiyA, santAM ! moTA moTa / / 12 / / sira posI ke bo suI, dina meM dIsa na bIma / santA ! sAra na kahaNa mai, 'campaka' kar3avo nIma // 13 // kamasala tajai kubANa kada, 'campaka' kar3he na kANa / santAM ! reta ralAvaNo, zrama nai vyartha sujANa // 14 // mRdutA syUM 'campaka' minakha, karadai kAma saharSa / santAM ! rolyAM reta mai, AMdho Adarza / / 15 / / 'campaka' karalyo jApato, bagata bar3o vikarAla / santAM ! rokyo nahi ruke, pANI phUMTA pAla / / 16 / / mAM mar3hI muMjevar3I, kuNa 'campaka' santAM ! nahi chuTe, the-mhe ke tena / gUMthIjyor3A jena // 17 // santAM ! rakhapakha DasarUMgasa, ro jInAM rI rAr3a / rAjanIti ro rola o, 'campaka' paTaka pachAr3a || 18 || jhUThA jhUrai jhUraNAM, 'campaka' ciNa avarodha / santAM ! pote hI par3e, pApI khAr3o khoda // 16 // vyAja vRddhi vidyA vividha, asala rakama AcAra / santAM ! deNo phAlatU, bigaDyai tivaNa baghAra // 20 //

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caharai calakai catura ra, AcaraNAM rI Aba / santAM ! nahiM rahaNa sake, ragaDyAM krIma rabAba / / 2 / / dUjA Rs zira dyo matI, ijjata ro iljaam| santAM ! galai na ghAlaNI, balabalatI bekAma // 2 // madavo baNa maradai mulaka, Ikha cAba kara Ima / santAM ! viSa ugale visama, jIma'ra mITho jIma // 23 // ijjata syUM ijjata badhai, upakRti syUM upkaar| santAM ! raMjisa syUM raMjisa, pyAra badhAvai pyAra // 24 // santa sAdagI syUM rahai, uMDI bAta vicAra / santAM! raMgata rola dai, A phiTa-phATa abAra // 25 // dUjI tarapha dvirUpatA, ekIpaNa ika or| santAM ! rItI hI rahai, apaNAyata aMgora // 26 // rahaNo ujjala dholiyo, aiyAzI rA aina / santAM! nai zobhe nahIM, nita rI phenA-phena // 27 // eka tarapha, ojhe, dhujai, hAtha dUsarI ora / santAM ! kuNa TikasI kaho, isI berukhI Thora // 28 // apaNAM syUM rahai aNamaNo, hamajolyAM syUM het| santAM ! aNabaNa ro paDyo, sIdho so saMketa // 26 // saMyama-ruci jiNa rai jacI, racI saMgha zuci sNg| santAM ! jIvana jaMga mai, UMca rakhai ucaraMga // 30 // ghuTa-ghuTa ghoTa ghunaro, kahai na mana rI khola / santAM ! chAno nahi rahai, gaTa-paTa gaTTA gola // 3 // jANa reta rA ramatiyAM, khamasI khimatA khaann| santAM! ramakara UThatAM, TAbara deta bhisANa // 32 // saMta-cetAvaNI 63

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matidhara nahiM mArai maraka, gama khAvai gmbhiir| santAM ! rala-mila kara raho, parakha parAyI pIra // 33 // sudhAraNI salaTAvaNI, ghara mai ghara kI baat| santAM! bArai bolaNo, sadA saMgha rai sAtha // 34 // cugalI khAvai ceharo, calagata kahai calAka / santAM ! rokI kada rahai, tarakIbAM rI tAka // 35 // moTAM sAgai masakharI, choTAM sAgai chol| jada kada hada rAso karai, santAM! A rigaTola // 36 // hoNahAra rai hAtha hai, jasa apajasa ro joga / santAM ! rolo ghAla dai, lArai lAgyAM loga // 37 // kAma-kAja rai koDa mai, jhagar3o jhAle jhodd'| soca samajha santAM ! mur3o, manamuTAva rI mor3a // 38 // jANI musakila jalamabhara, TAbarapaNa rI Teva / santAM ! dAga na lAgajyA, sajaga raho svayameva // 36 // AchA nai opai nahIM, ThaTThA Thola mkhol| santAM ! bAta bigAr3a de, ochA aNaghar3a Tola // 40 // dhasaka paga nicalIdharA, DarasI bo ddrpok| santAM ! neDo nahiM rahai, sAvadhAna rai zoka // 41 // palamA kholai pArakA, DhakaNa AparI ddhiim| santAM ! roga miTA sakai ? hajarata nIma-hakIma // 42 // tAno sahai na tAjaNo, tejI tajai na tAva / santAM ! rekAro suNyAM, ubala jAya umarAva // 43 / / thAnAM laga na thIMgalA, thalavaTa ro ke thobha / santAM ! satya cubhai nahIM, cobha lobha rai khobha | // 44 // 64 AsIsa

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kuTicara syUM dasa-dasa kadama, durjana syUM do khaat| santAM ! Talajo dUra syUM, zaTha syUM sau-sau hAtha / / 4 / / ukatai nahIM, uchalai nahIM, dhIrA dhIrapa dhAra / santAM ! sono sudha huvai, tapa-tapa coTAM khA ra // 46 // DhAla jaThInai jala Dhalai, niraNo nyAya nivedd'| santAM ! rAMTo hI rahai, paMkhA bAhiro per3a // 47 // pApa palIto pIliyo, pAMva pAMvaNI dAra / santAM ! rAkhyo raha sake, dAbA'ra kitIka bAra // 48 // a parasaMsaka ahitakara, phUlo matI phijUla / santAM ! rahasa vicArajyo, bhalo batAsI bhUla // 46 // chadma chipAyo kada chipa, boyo per3a bbuul| santAM ! ughaDyAM hI sarai, dhITha dhakailai dhUla // 50 // bhUla karai bhAyalA, bhaDakA jasarI bhUkha / santAM! rasato hI rula, ceto jAvai cUka // 51 // jathA joga jAco jugata, mAna-tAna manuhAra / rIta-rIta rA zobhasI, santAM ! maiM satakAra // 52 // yajJa-yAma-yama-yAminI, yoga, yogyatA, yAda / santAM! rasa khovai vivasa, paDatAM pAMNa pramAda // 53 // ThImaratA syUM ThaharasI, ratana rattI rU rabAba / santAM ! rigaTolyAM sadA, khemo karai kharAba / / 54 // laMpaTa, lolupa, lAlacI, lopai lAja lakIra / rAMgA rUMgA sATiyA, santAM ! sahe na sIra // 55 // vAk cAturya, vadAnyatA, vidyA, vinaya, viveka / santAM ! rAkho rekha nai, arajita kara Areka // 56 // saMta-cetAvaNI 6.5

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zAnta sAdhanA sAdhaNI, zarada candra-sI zveta / santAM ! zobhA saMgha rI, hila-mila rAkhyAM heta // 57 / / bhinna bhinna naya bheda meM, SaT darzana SaT koNa / santAM ! syAdvAdI guNI, guNa nai kara na goNa // 58 / / sevA sumiraNa sAdagI, sAmya yoga svAdhyAya / santAM ! racyA-pacyA raho, saMyama svAnta sukhAya // 56 / / karayAM dalAlI kola rI, hosI kAlA haath| santAM rahaNo nahiM kade, saMjJA cUkAM sAtha // 60 // mita bolo vaktavya meM, kSamA karo kSatavya / santAM ! rIta-rivAja syUM, kArya karo karttavya // 61 // brahmacarya ro vadana mai, trATaka ko so teja / santAM ! roba rabAba hai, AMkhyAM ro Adeja // 62 / / jANo, jotA lAgagyA, (jada) jJAnI karai gumAna / santAM ! ratI badhAvaNI, vinayI baNa vidvAna // 63 // 66 AsIsa

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dohA ala-balar3a anucita adhika, khANo karai kharAba / 'campaka' udara uNodarI, guNakaraNAra gulAba ! // 1 // Avai jyUMhI Ura dai, khAU leNa khitAba | 'campaka' ceto bApara gar3abar3a huyAM gulAba ! |2|| imarata so karasI asara, lUkhI roTI rAba / 'campaka' bhUkha binA bhakhyAM, goTAi garala gulAba ! | 3 || IM Umara maiM AmalI, AmbolI mata cAba / 'campaka' kerI kAcarI, Aba gamAya gulAba ! | 6 || uparAthalI ja UraNo, be-jara binA hisAba / 'campaka' caraNa ro cakara, gehalo kAra gulAba ! |5|| UMkhala, ghaTTI, khala, thalI, chAja, buhArI, chAba / 'campaka' cUlheM baiThaNo, azubha giNe re gulAba ! | 6 || eka hAtha hai ekalo, do ro dUNo dAba / 'campaka' ekai eka mila, gyAraha huvai gulAba ! // 7 // aikAntika atyAgraha, tANyAM badhe 'campaka' samajhoto sadA, gamato lage othANA nIMbU-miraca, a AcAra 'campaka' cIjAM tAmasI guNa ke kareM ? tijAba / gulAba ! |5|| nikAba | gulAba !18 || gulAba guNacAlIsI 66

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aura nai apaNo cahai (to) sevA sAjhaM satAba / 'campaka' cAma cabai nahIM, gamasI kAma gulAba ! // 10 // aMtasa ro ojasa badhA, Apei badhasI Aba / 'campaka' cAla kucAla syUM, picake gAla gulAba ! / 11 / / karar3o nahiM kahaNo kade, jvara maiM jiyAM julAba / bhAjana vina 'campaka' bhalo, gama khA baiTha gulAba ! / 12 // khATo khAro khoparo, khoDI khAMDa khijaab'| 'campaka' choDai khaT khakhA, jJAnI saMta gulAba ! / 13 / / garama-garama galagaca, gijo, galyo, gariSTa, giraab|| 'campaka' gaphalata mai giTa, (to) galai zarIra gulAba ! // 14 // ghamar3I ghAtI ghUnaro, ghapalI ghAva ghijAba' / 'campaka' ghAla, ghaNera mata, (a) ghAtaka ghaNA gulaab!||15|| cAya cabINI cIkaNI, cUrI cATa cttaab| 'campaka' cipakyA maiM cacA, gela na chuTai gulAba ! / 16 / / chadmastI rI chola mai, chala mata, cheDa na jAba / 'campaka' caunANI cuka, (to) gUmara kisyo gulAba ! // 17 // jayaNAM 'campaka' jIva rI, jugato jugata jabAba / AM doUM bAtAM dipai, gaNa mai santa gulAba ! / 18 / / jhakkI jhUTho jhIparo, jhor3I binA hijAba" / 'campaka' Takar2yAM jo Talai, gaurava badhai gulAba ! / 16 / / 1. keza klp| 2. topa ke gole so binA cbaayo| 3. purANo ghii| 4. cATaNerI Adata / 5. shrm| 70 AsIsa

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Teccara TAbara TiMgara syU, TaNakAM syUM TakarAMva / 'campaka' zobhai nahiM catura, guNijana kahai gulAba ! // 20 // ThagA'ra Thokara khA'ra hai, ThImara ThAkara-sAba / 'campaka' nahiM cetai, gadho, gulaka', givAra, gulAba ! / 21 / / Dabakai DigalI cUka Dapha, DAlA Dole ddaab| 'campaka' jaga jUtA jar3e, galiyAM mAhiM gulAba ! / 22 / / DhabbUzAhI DhIMgalo, DhabasyUM DhaMgasyUM r3hAba / 'campaka' bucakAr2yA bahai, gUgo, balada, gulAba ! / 23 / / taNyAM-dhaNyAM hI tarka kara, khuda raha khulI kitAba / 'campaka' carcA gela syU, golA karai gulAba ! // 24 // thaMbhA ! thAM sarikhA thakai ? (to) chata thAMbhaNa kuNa thaab'| 'campaka' zAsaNa ApaNo, sAMsa na gera gulAba ! / 25 // dabbU dummI nai dakI, deva harakoi dAba / 'campaka' phukkArai phaNI, (to) roba rabAba gulAba ! // 26 // dhaNyAM kanhai dhADA par3e, dhIMgAmastI dhAva' / 'campaka' jo bole birai, par3e gadIr3a gulAba ! // 27 // mara rAkhai nIcI nijara, naNAM nhAMkha nkaab| bAyAM syUM bole jaNAM, 'campaka' ceta gulAba !!28 / / par3e nahIM par3apaMca mai, pajai na jaal-jraab| 'campaka' paga nahiM cAtarai, gahara gaMbhIra gulAba ! / 26 // 1. madavo uuNtt| 2. samartha / 3. khullai aam| 4. pdddo| 5. pagAM rA mojA / gulAba guNacAlIsI 71

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phahIr3A phaikai paDyo, nikamo baNaNa nabaoNba / 'campaka' bAdala barasaNo, garaja nahIM gulAba ! / 30 // balajyA, baTa jAvai nahIM, jar3a jevar3I jnaab| bacana cUka 'campaka' buro, gaTa gur3ajyAya gulAba ! // 31 // bhalA AdamI! bhar3aka mata, tAva khA'ra be-taab| 'campaka' au bhATA bhir3A, gumarAha karai gulAba ! // 32 // mana rAkhIje mokalo, mo. rA mehraab| mAMdA nai mahamAna nai, maraka na mAra gulAba ! / 33 / / yadyapi yUyaM-yuyaM hai, vayaM-vayaM .. mijraab| 'campaka mizrI mai milyAM, gulakaMda huvai gulAba ! // 34 // rahana sahana mai rAjasI, rIti-rivAja rkaab| 'campaka' raMjisa raMcasI, garado karai gulAba ! // 35 // lagar3a peca lallai capai, 'campaka' lakhai lkhaab| lakhaNA rA lADA leve, lugaDa lapeTa gulAba ! / 36 / / vyavahArAM mai vividizA, (to) vidyA buddhi viyaab| 'campaka' vinaya vivekavara, baNa gatizIla gulAba ! / 37 / / samakita saMyama sAtha mai saMgha Atha asbaab| 'campaka' nirmala citta syUM, granthyAM khola gulAba ! // 38 // 1. bar3o aadmii| 2. utAvala mai| 3. taaj| 4. sitAra bajANe ko chllo| 5. lenn-denn| 6. lakSaNa / 7. sphl| 8. sAmAna / 72 AsIsa .

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hasata khilate hRdaya ro, hAla, hiyAva, hisAba / 'campaka' nyAro hI huvai, ghula-mila dekha gulAba ! // 36 // kuMDalI-chanda cejo cejAro ciNe, nIMvAM nirakha gulaab| jhar3a, jhAr3o, jholo, jhir3aka, jhIla jhilai ka talAba ? / jhIla jhilaika talAba ? khoha rakha rAjarUpajI kii-sii| do hajAra bAisa, 'campaka' guNacAlIsI // pUrI, paga majabUta cAhije ThaMDo bhejo| nIMvAM nirakha gulAba ! ciNa cejAro cejo||40|| gulAba guNacAlIsI 73

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kATa cyAra ghAtika karama, pratihAryASTa pratIka / campA ! arhat-pada praNama, tIrthaMkara tahatIka' // 1 // dohA kareM siddha zreyasa sajaga, namUM santa nirbhIka / campA ! cintava cetanA, lambI khAMcI lIMka // 2 // kRpA huvai gurudeva kI, jAvai bhava- sthiti pAka / sevA santArI sajhai, 'campaka' tirai caTAka // 3 // kaThina mArga hai mokSa ro, campA ! alakha alIka' / santA binA ananta ko, anta nahIM najadIka // 4 // komala pariSad prazaMsA, mITho jahara manAka * / campA ! stuti patha phisalaNo, par3e pramatta tar3Aka // 5 // kRSNa, nIla, kApota maiM, rAga- roSa ne roka / dharmaM- zukla dhAr2yAM r3hahai, campA ! cyArUM coka // 6 // kaha rI kaha sAmane, nahi tara cupa hI ThIka / vItarAga vidhi bAMdhagyA, campA ! lopa na lIka // 7 // 1. satya / 2. jhaTa / 3. adRzya / 4. thor3A-sA / paramAratha-pAvaDyAM 77

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kehabata iNa meM hai kisI ? bAta bar3I baariik| campA! dharma-dhyAna maiM, rAkha hRdaya ramaNIka / / 8 / / kUNa jANe kada Aukho-bandha jyAvai bandAka / apramatta campA ! rahI, chor3a chadma kI chAka // 6 // kumati-kalA kuMcI kalI AsthA rAkha anaMka / zaMkA-kaMkhA sAMpa rA, campA ! samajhI DaMka // 10 // kiso jIvaNo so barasa, baiThyo kiyAM nisNk| kara karaNI cUkai aNI, campA ! pApa prayaMka / / 1 / / karma karyoDA bhogaNA, udaya pADadI hAka / campA! kyUM cala-vicala-mana, macakor3e muMha-nAka // 12 // kuzala ! jarA kauzala dikhA, jhukakara campA! jhaaNk| ghaTa-kUau kacaro ghaNo'ka, pANI ? AkAM AMka // 13 // kAcha-bAca ro sAca jo, campA ! kahai daDUka / kSaNika tanika sukhahita matI, vadhA ananto duHkha // 14 // kara gayI ko soca ke ? campA ! aba mata cUka / tana kI poTI pUragrI, (paNa) mana kI miTI na bhUkha // 15 // kumhalAvai campA ! tuM kyUM ! mAthe mAMr3I bUka / maNAMbanda misarI giTI, phIko phira bhI thUka // 16 // korI mIMDyAM mAMDa dI, eka na mAMDyo aMka / dharma-aMka lArai dharai, (to) campA! lAgai laMka // 17 // ke hai bandhana ? kyUM baMdhai ? TUTa kiyAM vipAka ? campA! thor3o soca kyUM, deve ukha paripAka // 18 // kAma-bhoga dukha roga hai, tAMtA tor3a tar3Aka / sukha ro rukha saMtoSa hai, campA ! ceta caTAka / / 16 / / 78 AsIsa

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kuTila citta caMcala-capala, par3e pApa re paMka / campA ! phUlAM rai talai, zUlAM ro AtaMka // 20 // kAmI, kapaTI, kaluSa kala, rulata mana nai roka / campA caMcalatA miTyAM, sarasI sagalA thoka // 21 // aurAM ro aizvarya sukha, jhAMka rAMka mata rauMka / karaNI karatAM kyUM tana, Avai campA! chIMka // 22 // karmabhoga samabhAva syUM, AlI mata kara AMkha / campA ! bAMdhyA cIkaNA, rovai kyUM baNa rAMka // 23 // kAma kisyo choTo bar3o, campA ! car3hagyo coka / pojIsana ro roga kyU, ghara maiM ghAlyo loka // 24 // kAma o karyo bo karyo, badalo mAMga vraak| campA! Dhovai bhAra kyUM, sIdho kAr3ha surAka // 25 // kuNa ke keva ke karai, koNa ThIka-be-ThIka / campA! citA aura kI, karaNa buddhi bArIka // 26 // kyUM kAMdai rA chUtarA, cholaNa baNagyo chaka / ADa-DoDa Agraha haTA, campA ! jagA viveka // 27 // komala mana syUM kara kSamA, nipaTa mAnanai nhAMkha / bhUlAM orAM rI bhulA, khudarI bhUlAM jhAMka // 28 // kara karuNAM, vAtsalyatA, khamA jA'ra najadIka / campA ! orAM re jhukaNa, nai tUM matI aDIka // 26 // krodha karyo gurumaraDavaNyA, caMdakauzika viSa phUMka / campA ! pAyo zAntidhara, kevala kUragaDUka // 30 // krodha kalaha kAraNa kahyo, zAnti zAnti siMdUka / kara vizAla campA ! hiyo, mata baNa kUpa-maMDUka // 31 // paramAratha-pAvaDyAM 76

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80 AsIsa kuNa AtmA paramAtamA, viSaya bar3o bArIka / sulajhyo guru sulajhA sakai, campA ! ThImara ThIka // 32 // karAmAta campA ! sikhI, ghaNI jamAI dhAka / bheda-jJAna pAyAM chuTe, jalama-maraNa rI chAka / / 33 / / arka / ke ThA kisa zubhodaye, campA ! Ugyo aNa nizalya nirmala asala, aba ke tarka-vitarka // 34 // kuguru-suguru dharmAdharama, campA ! samajhyo pharka / abakai samakita caraNa ro, milyo sahaja samparka // 35 // kitI vAra nizcaya karyo, aba mata avasara tAka / campA ! Ada anAda ro, tIna pAta ro DhAka ||36|| ko mAna campA ! na ruka, shAsa rAkha mata thAka / lambo gelo kATaNo, aThI-baThI mata tAka // 37 // kuzala- khema iNa DIla rA, lula lula pUcha~ loka / campA ! guNa cAritra rA, jagA viveka, viloka // 38 // karaNI kiriyArAdhanA (to) le AgyA Aloka / AjJA hI Agama - agama, campA ! jIvana jhoMka // 36 // krodhI kajiyo kara kareM, nara jIvana nai naraka / svarga zAnti meM hai sadA, campA ! bolai caraka ||40|| karaNI rA saba lADa hai, kRta- phala campA ! cAkha / rekha-mekha A karma rI, nIMmA phalaM na dAkha // / 41 // kada ko bahyo vibhAva meM, hAya- boya ro roga / aba abandha pariNAma syUM, campA ! samacita bhoga // 42 // ke ThA kuNase jalama rA, zeSa bhogaNA bhoga / campA ! cukai udhAra kyUM, bilakho dekha bijoga || 43 ||

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kara mata bhautika kAmanA, kRta-karaNI mata beca / pudgala sukha hai pAMvalA, campA ! lar3A na peca // 44 // ke dekhe campA ! khaDyo, khiNaM gadher3A khAja / tUM karasI to maiM karUM, baNagyo samaja' samAja // 45 // ke hogyo campA ! iyAM, mUrata so muMhatAja ? samRddhi sampanna kyUM, baNyo bhikhArI Aja ? ||46 || kadako kAdai mai kalyo, paDyo' ra campA ! ceta / aba phira boi matI, gAMva-gorava kheta // 47 // kutsita- buddhi ku-jJAna kada, miTasI re mana mIta / suNa campA ! satsaMga hai, paramAratha rI prIta // 48 // karuNA kara sadguru diyo, campA ! samakita pota / kara caritrArAdhanA, milai jota mai jota // 46 // kara mata derI, kasa kamara, uTha na jhAMka ita-utta / bhakti samarpaNa maiM bhijo, campA dholai citta // 50 // karyA AparA karma hI, campA ! sUraja cAMda nai komala mana karuNA bharyo, pAvana huvai prasasta / campA ! krUra kaThora mana, asta vyasta asvastha / / 52 / / hai sukha dukha rA hetu / grasale rAhU-ketu // 51 // kaThai jJAna jJAnyA binA, AMkha binA akhiyArtha / cInha jJAna ke cyAnaNe, campA ! Atma padArtha / / 53 / / karaNI campA ! nahiM karI, vakta karyo barabAda / bhItara lai nai bhUlagyo, rahyo bAralo yAda / / 54 / / 1. pazuoM kA samUha / paramAratha- pAvaDyAM 81

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keda prANa kyUM pIjarai ? milyo na antara bhed| cheda-bheda samajhyAM binA, campA ! kheda hI kheda // 55 // kAma iso kara, rAta nai, Aya nicintI niiNd| chor3a parAyI pIMdaNI, campA ! apaNI pIda // 56 // karar3A bandhana do kasyA, campA ! mana moha aMdha / eka sahaja svacchandatA, dUjo hai pratibaMdha // 57 / / kAma kaThina ke sarala ke? sukha-dukha eka samAna / cokhI-okhI cIja to, campA ! mana ro mAna // 5 // kAyA mAyA kAramI, jo jANe so jANa / satya sarala sIdho sugama, campA ! prakRti pichANa // 56 // kuNa jANe campA! kaNAM, kasaNo par3e pilANa / kAla kautukI kI kalA, kaho kuNa sakyo pichANa / / 60 // kATho rAkhI kAlajo, campA! kahaNo mAna / Arta-dhyAna mata AdarI, dhyAyI dharma-dhyAna // 61 // kAraNa punarAgamana ro, sUkSma zarIra sujANa / campA ! choTor3o chuTa, (to) nizcaya nirvANa // 62 / / kAlo kAjala pAr3a mata, dIpaka ! jyoti svarUpa / sarva zaktimaya kyUM paDyo, campA ! baNa vidrUpa // 63 / / kisyai jalama rA ke pato, saMcyor3A puna-pApa / kisyai jalama mai Ughar3e, campA ! raha cupacApa // 64 // kAna, AMkha, muMha, nAka nai, lai campA ! Dhaka DhUMma / sAdha khecarI surasarI, laDAlUma bana jhUma // 65 / / kiNa nai tUM apaNo kahai, campA ! kyUM lalacAya / jIva akelo jalamiyo, anta akelo jAya // 66 // 82 AsIsa

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kalI-kalI campA ! khilai dina lekhe maiM Aya / zAnti, sneha, santoSa, sukha, samatA maiM dina jAya // 67 // karaNI karaNaM vAsate, Acho dina koi ora / muzkila milaNo Aja syUM, kara campA ! kucha gora // 68 // kAla - kAla mai kAlao, bIta gayo be-kAra / paramAratha pAyo nahIM, campA ! surata saMbhAra // 66 // komala dhAgAM meM kiyAM, ulajhjhayo ArdrakumAra ? anubandha anurAga ro, campA ! jarA vicAra // 70 // kara puruSAratha parAkrama, lai bala bhUla jagata ra bhaMvara mai, campA ! kanaka kAmaNI doya hai, vigraha mUlaka bakra / aMtahIna tRSNA amita, campA ! moTo cakra // 72 // vIryaM baTora / pajI na aura // 71 // kupita kulAMchA mAratA, bhaMvara vivara aNapUra / AraMbha aura parigraha, campA ! kokATA karatI hai, jalama-maraNa rI dhAra / utpAdI vyaya dhrauvya maya, campA ! o saMsAra // 74 // kara viveka, vairAgya syUM, adhika na rama nirmala nirveda mai, campA ! rahije dUra // 73 // karaNa vAlo nahiM kiyo, diyo jamAro kho / campA ! tUM ro kina ? jiNanai roNo ro // 75 // Ananda aura / catura cakora // 76 // kAMTai syUM kAMTo kar3he, viSa dai viSa ne mAra / mana syUM hI mana nai manA, campA ! coja lagA'ra // 77 // kiyAM huvai kacaro saphA ? syANA soca vicAra / campA ! Azrava rA paDyA, khulA aThAraha dvAra ||78 || paramAratha-pAvaDyAM 83

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kAr3ha-kAr3ha kacaro thakyo, campA ! kitoi buhAra / (a) bhuMDA doya bhatUliyA, ahaMkAra-mamakAra / / 7 / / kisyai bharosai tUM kara, campA ! o ahaMkAra / kaThe bIrabala sikaMdara, hiTalara khoja nikAra // 8 // kAla ananto bItagyo, rar3abaDatAM rNgrol| minakha-jamAro o milyo, campA ! AMkhyAM khola // 1 // kama rAsana rasto ghaNo, jagar3a vAla jaMjAla / jAnaka thor3I jindagI, campA ! jhaTapaTa cAla // 2 // kara AtmA ro kAma tUM, jhUTha jaga mata jhUla / mhArApaNa nai dai miTA, campA ! bheda na bhUla // 3 // kasara lAralI kADha lai, milyo ratnatraya mela / campA ! pagamata cAMtarI, cillAM cAlai rela // 4 // karI hiphAjata deha rI, gayo cetanA bhUla / campA ! aba bhI cetajyA, hAla-hAla anukUla // 8 // kahyo mAna campA ! karai, kyUM tUM tAva khiMcAva / jIva svabhAvika zuddha hai, o vibhAva bhaTakAva // 86 // kamara bAMdha kara Aja ke, dina mai karI praveza / mAthai maraNo mar3a rahyo, campA ! agata aNeza // 87 // kitI kitAbAM par3ha bhale, karalai Diga- pAsa / mukti kriyA abhyAsa bina, (ke) campA! sohare sAsa / / 88 // kriyA-bATa nai kara uMcI, campA ! divalo caas| Acho maNa bhara jJAna syU, rattI bhara abhyAsa // 86 // kyUM ulajhyo zabdAM madAM, antara jJAnyAM paas| prazna paDUttara kara parakha, campA! bujhasI pyAsa // 10 // 84 AsIsa

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krodha kaluSatA lyA matI, campA ! mana na masosa / karyA AparA bhugataNAM, dUjAM nai ke doSa // 61 // karama kamer3I rA karyA, campA ! hara sI haMsa | hoDa havelyAM rI kareM, nahIM chAna para phUsa // 62 // kevala mana hI baMdha ro, kAraNa mana hI mokSa | campA ! mana jItyAM vijaya, hai pratyakSa parokSa ||3|| paramAratha-pAvaDyAM 85

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soraThA OM arihanta akarma, siddha santa guNavanta zubha / kevali-bhASita dharma, 'campaka' lai zaraNo zramaNa ! / 1 // avasara ro ahasAna, bhUlyo nahiM jAvai bhlo| jo cAvai sammAna,(to)'campaka' sajjana baNa zramaNa ! // 2 // ahaMkAra Aveza, 'campaka' dAnI-deza meN| tesa-mesa avazeSa, karai sujasa-rasa ro zramaNa ? / 3 // A mata Apa bAra, tUM vinoda kI bAta maiN| 'campaka' taja takarAra, tarka chor3a sugaNAM zramaNa ! / 4 // AMkhyAM ugalai Aga, agala-Dagala bolai vikala / tejI 'campaka' tyAga, zAnti rAkha supAlai zramaNa ! / 5 / / ilA imArata ilma, 'campaka' maukaisara milai / phera na utarai philma, samaya nIsaryAM syUM zramaNa ! / 6 // ikatarapho ikarAra, nibhai na duniyA ro niyama / tejI taja takarAra, 'campaka' saTa salaTA zramaNa !7 // ikatArI ikasAra, AkhI aNyAM arAdhale / 'campaka' nai saradAra, zobhai zrIsaMgha mai zramaNa ! / / ikkai ro ijalAsa, 'campaka' vilakho bAdazAha / teja batAvai tAsa, saMgha saMgaThana ro zramaNa ! / 6 / / __ zramaNa-bAvanI 86

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udaya bhAva upabhoga, cokhA lAgai citta nai / kSAyaka upazama yoga, 'campaka' aNaseMhadA zramaNa ! // 10 // utara jaNAM utAra, dhokho devaNiyA ghaNAM / breka baNyAM bekAra, 'campaka' kuNa sAharo zramaNa ! / 11 / / upakArI syUM UrNa, hoNo ke AsAna hai ? kara pAlar3o pUrNa, 'campaka' dharma suNA zramaNa ! / 12 / / upadeSTA upadeza, deva siMha jyUM dhaadd'taa| syAla sarIkhA zeSa, 'campaka' nivaDailA zramaNa ! / 13 / / uNihArai unmeSa, upakArI re nahiM utthe| nikalaNa mata dai nesa, 'campaka' samajhAvai zramaNa ! / 14 // ullU nai aphazoSa, campaka' dina maiM nahiM dikhai / doSI nai nija doSa, nahiM dIsa zIsai zramaNa ! // 15 // ulajhana mai upahAsa, aura ubhAre ugrtaa| 'campaka' lyA ThaMDAsa, mIThA zabdAM syUM zramaNa ! / 16 // ulaTo karai ujAr3a, lallai-cappai jo lage / khiNe hAtha syUM khADa, 'campaka' khuda khAtara zramaNa ! // 17 // UphaNate UphANa, sirakAje mata silgtii| pANI paDatAM pANa, 'campaka' zAnta svataH zramaNa ! / 18 / / eraMDa ro ikabAla', detAM lacako dhaha pdd'e| 'campaka' jholo, jAla, sAla, supArI sahai zramaNa ! // 16 // ekAcAra vicAra, 'campaka' eka prarUpaNA / saMgaThana ro sAra, svAmIjI sodhyo zramaNa ! // 20 // 1. pedd'| 60 AsIsa

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ekaTha ro ekanta, 'campaka' sikko raha sire / bhinna-bhinna bhAkanta, siTa bhI nahiM sIjhai zramaNa ! // 21 // ekala syUM ekanta, bAta-vigata 'campaka' varaja / anaratha karai ananta, sarpa-daMza sarikho zramaNa ! / 22 / / eDI mAhe aiMTha, 'campaka' aurata rI akala / calagata cenhA caMTha, sAvadhAna parakhai zramaNa ! / 23 / / khatama karai saba khela, 'campaka' khAro bolaNo / raca jyAvai raMga rela, sAvala bolyAM syUM zramaNa ! / 24 // kharo gaNIje kheMTa, 'campaka' khaTako TeMTa mai| ulaTo cAlyAM reTha, sUkai sai kyAr2yA zramaNa ! / 25 / / khAvai catura caravAra, aMga caMga 'campaka' lge| minakha mAna manavAra, kiyAM bhUlajyAvai zramaNa ! / 26 / / khuda manacAyo khAra, hAtha peTa para pherale / 'campaka' bhAI bhAra, svArthI jana samajhai zramaNa ! // 27 // garbha jJAna rai gela, meha mai bijalI mekha hai| 'campaka' dhuMoM dhakela, dIyo kada zobhai zramaNa ! // 28 // ghaNa ro ghaNoja ghera, gaNa-gaurava 'campaka' gajaba / guNakara abhimata gera, sagalAM rai sAgai zramaNa ! / 26 // chipa-chipa dekhai chindra, 'campaka' ekala khordd'o| ghaTa kadra he bhadra !, ochI saMgata syUM zramaNa ! / 30 // chANa-bINa rI chTa, 'campaka' chaule chtkaa| Tukar3A jyAvai TUTa, sAra nIsarai ke ? zramaNa ! / 31 / / jIbha jharai re! jIbha, 'campaka' bola bigAr3a mata / tor3a bagAvai tIba, sAgai ke cAlai ? zramaNa ! // 32 // zramaNa-bAvanI 81

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dukha mata mana mai veda, 'campaka' karai jako bhrai| pakkI rAkha umeda, agha ughaDyAM sarasI zramaNa ! / 45 / / dorI galaNI dAla, 'campaka' anta dukhI dvimukha / calai duta raphI cAla, bhATA bhir3ANiyAM zramaNa ! / 46 // pAi bhara ro phera, taila bAla kara baanniyo| 'campaka' kA? hera, sAhUkAra sadA zramaNa ! / 47 / / nAnhA sAgai neha, bar3A-bur3hAM Agai vinaya / 'campaka' madharo meha, sAthyAM mai zobhai zramaNa !!48 / / mukalAI mai mola, taMgI mai tejI huvai| 'campaka' gaTTA-gola, sahayogI ghAlai zramaNa ! / 46 // miTa na 'campaka' maila, samatA rahai na samaya para / (to) khyAlA vAlA khela, sAdhaka jana khelai zramaNa ! / 50 / / satpuruSAM rI sIkha, suNa 'campaka' sukha syUM suvai| tila bhara rakhai na tIkha, zAnta sarovara so zramaNa ! / 51 // saMdhyA aura prabhAta, phUlaNa-phUlaNa mai pharaka / lyAvai dina ika rAta, 'campaka' cInhe cihna zramaNa ! / 52 / / zramaNa-bAvanI 63

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dukha mata mana maiM veda, 'campaka' kareM jako bharai / pakkI rAkha umeda, agha ughaDyAM sarasI zramaNa ! | 45 // dorI galaNI dAla, 'campaka' anta dukhI dvimukha / cala dutaraphI cAla, bhATA bhir3ANiyAM zramaNa ! | 46 || pAi bhara se phera, taila bAla kara bANiyo / 'campaka' kAr3he hera, sAhUkAra zramaNa ! | 47 || sadA nAnhA sAgai neha, bar3AM - bur3hAM Age 'campaka' madharo meha, sAthyAM maiM mukalAI mai mola, taMgI maiM 'campaka' gaTTA-gola, sahayogI vinaya / zobhai zramaNa ! |48 || tejI huvaM / ghAlai zramaNa ! // 46 // miTai na 'campaka' maila, samatA rahai na samaya para / (to) khyAlA vAlA khela, sAdhaka jana khelai zramaNa ! 50 // satpuruSAM rI sIkha, suNa 'campaka' sukha syUM suvai / tila bhara rakhe na tIkha, zAnta sarovara so zramaNa ! // 51 // saMdhyA aura prabhAta, phUlaNa phUlaNa maiM pharaka / tyAvai dina ika rAta, 'campaka' cInhe cihna zramaNa ! // 52 // zramaNa - bAvanI 63

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'guru rAkhai rahaNo baThe, mana nai sadA milAra, 'campaka' jI na curAvaNo, zrama syUM zAntikumAra ! // 1 // ralamila jyANo raha jaThe, 'campaka' citra jamAra, khAra durAva khicAva meM, sAra na zAntikumAra ! // 2 // kAma-kAja mai kamakasI, karai tarka takarAra, 'campaka' ghasai na kAma syUM, suNAle zAntikumAra ! / 3 // vairAgI baNa bIsare, sukhahita saMjama-bhAra, 'campaka' bArAM kada sarai, kAraja zAntikumAra !!4 // viSaya-vAsanA nahiM bujhI, parihara ghara-parivAra, 'campaka' bo khoTI huyo, sAMprata zAntikumAra ! / 5 / / 'campaka' isI-bisI jisI, milajyA jagyAM vicAra, 'kimega rAI karissai', sojyA zAntikumAra ! // 6 // sogyo-saMtApyo rahai, 'campaka' muMDo car3hAra, racyAM-pacyAM bina nahiM rame, saMyama zAntikumAra ! / 7 / / luka-chipa kara nahiM baiThaNo, UMco nIco jAra, 'campaka' coDe-cyAnaNe, sIkho zAntikumAra !18 / / pApAtmA nai vasa kara, tarai santa saMsAra mAra moha-mada-mAna nai saMcara zAntikumAra !!6 // zAnti-sikhAvaNI 67

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roja sikhyor3o rAta nai, cete sahita citAra, 'campaka' svAdhyAyI surve, sImita zAntikumAra ! / 10 // 'campaka' vikathA mai bagata, gamA matI bekAra, cAMka kimmata samaya rI, sudhijana zAntikumAra // 11 // haMsI TAbarAM syUM na kara, 'campaka' hAtha lagAe, barAbarI kA syUM varata, satkRta zAntikumAra ! // 1 // bAyAM syUM bAtAM nahIM, karaNI nijara uThAra, 'campaka' rAkhI AMkha ro, saMvara zAntikumAra ! / 13 / / cAlAkI guruvAM kanhai, 'campaka' mAyAcAra, bila mai bar3atAM sAMpa hai, sIdho zAntikumAra ! / 14 / / sevA mAMga sujJatA, caturAi AcAra, 'campaka' vinaya-viveka saha, sthiratA zAntikumAra ! / 15 / / sevA syUM phUla-phalai, ghulai prema-vyavahAra, 'campaka' Ananda rai jhula, jhUle zAntikumAra ! / 16 // catura nAma cAvai nahIM, kAma na samajhai bhAra, 'campaka' bAhI cAkarI, sAcI zAntikumAra ! / 17 / / sevA 'campaka' sAdhanA, Atma-dharma avadhAra, vyAvaca terApaMtha rI, zobhA zAntikumAra ! / 18 // paramparA rI dhAraNA, pehalI vidhisara dhAra, 'campaka' cIlhA para calai, sAdhaka zAntikumAra ! // 19 // bhUlAM bhUlai lAralI, karma nirjarA dhAra, 'campaka' bA nisvArthI, sevA zAntikumAra ! // 20 // taMga tor3akara daur3akara, vyAvaca vinaya badhAra, 'campaka' kAmU kI sadA, sudharai zAntikumAra ! / 21 / / 18 AsIsa

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bahuzrutI, kara 'campaka' satkAra, bar3A bar3e sthavirAM rI AsIsa hI, surataru zAntikumAra ! | 22|| campaka moTo jagata mai, mAM baNa mAtR-RNa syUM uRNa, jhaTa mAM Avai yAda, jada 'campaka' 'mAtR devo saMgha-saMgha saMgha - zakti ughar3e saMgha - zakti para, 'campaka' nicharAvala guru ANa kAma paDyAM kAyama rahe, bo sikha zAntikumAra ! | 25 || prANa uMvAra, 'campaka' caur3e cauka maiM, kahai zAsaNa hI sukha-duHkha ro, sAthI ro hI upakAra, sapUta zAntikumAra ! | 23 // bhava, ' saravaNa AyAM karai DakAra, hai, samupAsanA, saMgha rI, zakti tapa-tejasvitA, siMhavAhinI, zAntikumAra ! // 24 // kara tara bakAra-bakAra, zAntikumAra ! |26|| aparampAra, zAntikumAra ! | 27 // 'campaka' cakrAkAra, sAdhI zAntikumAra ! |28|| zAnti - sikhAvaNI 66

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dohA sekai roTI svayaM kI, pelI bAMdhai pAla / (bo) ke sar3akAsI sarar3akA, pANI marai patAla / / karai na koI kI gaI, par3e na muMhar3e lAla / suNA sakai bo sarar3akA, mokai para maNilAla / mudde mai majabUta jo, hiradai meM hamadarda / suNA sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, masta-mor3a, mana-marda // 1 // paja nahIM parapaMca mai, panapaNa dai nahiM pola / suNA sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, kharo kheTa, jI khola / / 2 / / agalai nai nahiM AMgalI, TekaNa ro dai ttem| suNA sakai maNi ! saraDakA, nIti-nipuNa, dRr3ha-nema // 3 // lalla-cappai nahiM lagai, par3e na Ala-paMpAla / suNA sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, hiyo hAtha, khuzahAla / / 4 / / aratha garatha ulajhai nahIM, jagaDavAla jaMjAla / suNAM sakai bo sarar3akA (jo) cAlai apaNI cAla // 5 // khAMpaNa rAkhai khAkha mai, nirmohI nirbhIka / suNAM sakai maNi ! saraDakA, DAMTa DapaTa DADhIka // 6 // sAgara mai rahaNo sadA, bAMdha magara syUM vaira / suNAM sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, dardI dukhI dilera / / 7 / / sarar3akA sohalI 103

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cattara cogo cokasI, sAco sulajhyo sUta / suNAM sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, rAMgar3a raNa-rajapUta // 8 // hAra jyAya to hara nahIM, jItyAM nahiM mana-joma / suNAM sakai maNi ! sarar3akA jo vanavAsI vyoma // 6 // hita kI socai hara vagata, hiye hemajala heja / suNAM sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, parace ro nahiM peja // 10 // pIser3I pIsai nahIM, TraeNka mai do TUka / suNAM sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, duvidhA binA daDUka / / 11 // pIca kAr3ha dai pIpa ne, phera paMpole piidd'| suNAM sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, bhItara baNakara bhIr3a // 12 // pacha uThAvai pAchalo, para Agalo ttek| suNAM sake maNi ! sarar3akA, haTaka na sake hareka // 13 // tAba karai tarakIba syU, phaikai nahIM phhiidd'| suNAM sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, cheka dekhakara chIr3a / / 14 / / binA bagata bole nahIM, mokai cukai na mola / suNAM sakai maNi ! sarar3akA, Digai na jiNarI Dola // 15 // kasaNI para hIro kasa, kAca kAMkarA jAca / suNAMsakai maNi ! sarar3akA-sohalI 'campaka' sAca // 16 // 104 AsIsa

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soraThA-chanda OM kAra avikAra, praNava-bIja sAM syaM sirai| nirAkAra sAkAra, saba maMtrAM mai sAdhakAM // 1 // 'a-si-A-u-sA' mantra, mahAprabhAvika mAMgalika / teja taruNatama tantra, sAdho sudhamana saadhkaaN!|2|| 'a-bhI-rA-zi-ko' jApa, jayAcArya ro jaagto| zamana karaNa saMtApa, japo jatana syUM saadhkaaN!|3|| arham aham eka, agara lInatA laagjyaa| vikasita huvai viveka, saba kucha sadhajyA saadhkaaN!|4|| aham hai Adarza, antara aham aham mai / resa repha utkarSa, sudharai bigar3e sAdhakAM // 5 // akaladAra ahaMkAra, phaTakaNadai na paDosa mai| bhArI vidyA-bhAra, sahaNo doro sAdhakA ! // 6 // iSTa deva arahanta, hai ApAM rai ekhii| dUjAM nai dhokanta, saradhA Dolai saadhkaaN!7|| ijjata aura imAna, donaM dorA raakhnnaa| sahaja mAna-mammAna, soharo konI saadhkaaN!8|| Isa seruo sAra, mAMce ro maMDANA hai| bhArI bharakhama bhAra, sAla sahelA sAdhakAM !! sAdhaka-zataka 107

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UMco ucca-vicAra, ucita sujhAva udAra mana / Uparalo upacAra, sadA rAkhasI sAdhakAM ! // 10 // upayogI upavAsa, dravye bhAve douM trph| bar3he Atma-vizvAsa, svAsthya sudhArai saadhkaaN!|11|| ulajhana meM ulajhAr3a, ghAlaNiyA milasI ghnnaaN| hIye ro hubasAr3a, suNa, sulajhAo saadhkaaN!|12|| eka-eka syUM eka, jJAnI-dhyAnI gph-gunnii| gorakha gudaDI keka, zAsaNa-sAgara sAdhakAM ! // 13 // eka tarapha kI aiba, karaNa sakai bigAr3a kada ? TAMko lAgai na Teba, binA sIvaNI saadhkaaN!||14|| eko lArai eka (to) mIMDyAM mAMDo moklii| ekai binA aneka, zunya-zunya hai saadhkaaN!|15|| kamajorAM nai kosa, karar3o kATho ko mtii| maratAM galo masosa, the mata mAro saadhkaaN!|16|| kamajorI ro kAma, koI mai kyAMnai pdd'e| paDatAM rA pariNAma, sadA car3hAjyo saadhkaaN!|17|| koI nai kamajora, jANa jalIla karo mtii| gale lagA, kara gaura, sAharo dIjyo saadhkaaN!|18|| khaTA sake kada khAla, nIra nivANAM hI nirbh| uMcA uThe uchAla, sAgara mai hI saadhkaaN!|16|| khamatakhAmaNA khema, kuzala kara kAlo ktt| hiyo huvai jhaTa hema, sarala bhAva syUM saadhkaaN!||20|| khyAtI karai khuvAra, mUr3ha baNAvai minakha nai| indriya viSaya-vikAra, syAna bigAr3e sAdhakAM // 21 // 108 AsIsa

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gaNa-gaNI meM jo garka, ghulo milo bAM mai rlo| saMkIlo samparka, samakita khovai sAdhakAM ! // 22 // guNa giravA gambhIra, gAje paNa garaja nhiiN| tIkhA tAnA-tIra, zobhai konI sAdhakAM ! // 23 // galatI, gar3abar3a, gesa, gamagInI, gapa, gndgii| par3e na dAbI pesa, sAhamI AsI sAdhakAM // 24 // ghaNo karai ghamasANa, ghara mai ghusa ghuspetthiyaa| jANa baNa aNajANa, sUdA dIsai sAdhakAM ! / 25 / / ghasapasa ghAla ghaNera, ochAM syUM Acho nhiiN| koro dIsai kera, sIdo phATai saadhkaaN!||26|| ghara mai ghara rI bAta, Dhaka kara rAkho DhaMga syuuN| syANapa rI zuruAta, sIkhyAM sarasI saadhkaaN!|27|| cAla cugala rI cAMka, chAMnI rahai na chibklii| IrSyAlU rI AMkha, saTakai samajho saadhkaaN!|28|| camacA jAvai cATa, mAla masAlo minaTa mai| sUkho sapaTama pATa, siddhAMtI rahai sAdhakAM ! / 26 // caTakai jAvai ceMTa, cIMTyAM cINI nai cuTaNa / khAro, kharo ru kheMTa, sUMghe koi na saadhkaaN!|30|| chor3a sudhA ro svAda, cheka ahI-viSa jo cha / akkala ro unmAda, sadA sidAsI saadhkaaN!||31|| chadmasthA rI chola, chaTha guNaThANe chlai| paNa, gaNa-gAlAgola, sahaNe sake na saadhkaaN!|32|| sAdhaka-zataka 106

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chalI, churI, chada, cheda, gayI' na koI rI karai / Aphata binA umeda, sAvaceta raho saadhkaaN!|33|| jIva-dayA rA jANa, jayaNA rAkho jugata syuuN| nibalAM ro nukasANa, zAstra na mAnai saadhkaaN!|34|| jagar3avAla jaMjAla, duniyAMdArI ro dro| samakita-ratana sambhAla, seMTho rAkhyA saadhkaaN!|35|| jANapaNe ro joma, karaNa sakasI kevlii| alpa-jJAna mati oma, zikSArthI hai sAdhakAM ! / 36 // jhUTho jhoDa jhapAr3a, jhaTapaTa galai na ghaalnno| rAla rAr3a bica bAr3a, siraka jyAvaNo saadhkaaN!|37|| jholai nai la jhAla, viralA virakha' isA minakha / cAMtara jyAvai cAla, sar3aka cAlatAM sAdhakAM ! / 38 // jhela jhoMkA jhola, jhar3I par3IsI jhupdd'ii| DUMgara jyAvai Dola, sahai sahaNiyAM saadhkaaN!|3|| Takkara deva TAla, TUTI jor3e Tema pr| TIsa, rIsa dai DhAla, syANo bohI sAdhakAM ! / 40 / / TIMToDI jyaM TAMga, UMcI rakha AkAza meN| syAMgyAM vAlA sAMga, zobhai konI sAdhakAM ! / 41 // Takkai TAMga uThAra, TeDo cAlai TeMTa mai| bhItAM jhela bhAra, sirakI sahai na sAdhakAM! 42 // 1. aavrnn| 2. lihaaj| 3. vRkss| 4. cuuk| 5. sarakaMDoM kI bnii| 110 AsIsa

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Thokara vAlI Thora, Thahara-Thahara kara ThIkasara / cAlai catura cakora, saMyama-sAdhaka sAdhakAM ! / 43 // ThImara, ThaTThA-Thola, ThAkara jo ThaNakyA krai| DUmAM vAlA Dola, sAMpar3ataii saadhkaaN!|44|| TholyA khAvai ThAMva', ThaMDo jala ThAra, tthrai| nIlama pAvai nAMva, sANa caDhyAM syUM sAdhakAM! 45 / / DAbara-DAbara' Dola, haMsa ! haMsAI kyUM kare ? kiyo nibhAo kola, sthiratA sAdho saadhkaaN!||46|| DaTakara ekaNa Thor3a, karaNo-maraNo maaNdddyo| nizcaya, baDo nicor3a, saMyama-ruci ro saadhkaaN!!47|| Dagamaga DAMvAMDola, nAva pAra kada nIsara? AsthA hI anamola, sAdhya siddhi mai saadhkaaN!|48|| DhIla diyAM be-DhAla, gocAM khA gur3aka kino'| sAharyA zikharAM nhAla, sAdho mananai saadhkaaN!|46|| r3hako na apaNA doSa, par3o na par3apaMca paark| sUkho syAhI cosa, sadA sikhAvai saadhkaaN!|50|| DhigalAM-r3higalAM DhAka, aNa giNatI rA aakdd'aa| zveta DhAka aru Aka, sAdhaka, viralA saadhkaaN!||51|| teja taruNimA tola, AkarSaNa cAvo agara / (to) mUla-baMdha ro mola, samajho, sAdho saadhkaaN!||52|| 1. miTTI kA baratana / 2. choTI tlaaii| 3. ptNg| 4. gudA cakra ko Upara khIMcane vAlI yogkriyaa| sAdhaka-zataka 111

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tarka - tarka ra sthAna, jijJAsU baNa jJAna, tana nai kara tajabIja, jogI rAkhe jugata syUM / car3hI amolaka cIja, siraDyAM' hAthAM sAdhakAM ! / 54 / / zraddhA zraddhA rI jagyAM / saMcita karajyo sAdhakAM ! 153|| thaMbhAM chata lI thAMma, bhItAM jhelyo bhAra soha / nahi nAma, (o) sahI samarpaNa sAdhakAM ! | 55 // .2 thar3a' thAM sthita prajJa, pAna phUla phala saba milai / pakar3a pAnar3o ajJa, soha kyUM cAvai sAdhakAM ! // 56 // thapathapiyo' de thApa, karade lodheM ne kalaza / gurugama binA kalApa, zAstra, zastra, zruti sAdhakAM ! 157 // dayA na dAna na dharma, jora jabaradastI jaThai / mana parivartana marma, sudha zraddhA ro sAdhakAM ! | 58 // doya jaNA bina dhAr3a, doya jaNA bina dosatI / doya jaNA bina rAr3a, suNI na dekhI sAdhakAM ! 56 // doya milyA dukha hoya, jar3a-cetana prakRti-puruSa / bhAva-vibhAva bhijoya, saMskArAM nai sAdhakAM ! | 60 | dhairya binA kada dharma, Tikai, dhikai, thirake sikai / dharma binA kada karma, sirakai, chiTakai sAdhakAM ! // 61 // dhyAna-yoga dhImAna, guru syUM dhArai dhirapa syUM / Ana-pAna ro sthAna, sirai parakhajyo sAdhakAM ! | 62 // 1. sirar3I - sanaka | 2. per3a kA skandha / 3. kuMbhAra / 4. gIlI miTTI / 112 AsIsa

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dhyAtA dhyeya ru dhyAna, eka baNe jada sthira paNa / pAcUM-pavana samAna, milai 'zakti-ziva' sAdhakAM ! / 63 // narama nIti syUM nema, nahIM nibhalA nirmlaa| anuzAsana rI Tema, zakti baratajyo saadhkaaN!|64|| nirNaya jo niSkarSa, nipuNa-buddhi ra nyAya ro| svIkRta karo saharSa, sarala citta syUM saadhkaaN!|65|| niraticAra nirdvada, saMyama samakita saadhnaa| karo chanda nai baMda, samatA-sAdhaka saadhkaaN!166|| puNya pramANa pravINa, prabhutA priyatA puujytaa| karo na pUMjI kSINa, sambodhI-dhara saadhkaaN!|67|| pAlai chapa-chapa pApa, pachatANo par3asI prch| chadmasthI rI chApa, lAgyA sarasI saadhkaaN!68|| parama prabhAvI preya, parameSThI pNcaaNgulii| eka duSTa hai zreya, spaSTa-niSTha raho saadhkaaN!||66|| phiratala rI phariyAda, kuNa svIkAra, kuNa suNa / sthiratA rokucha svAda, sthira baNa cAkho saadhkaaN!70|| phaTakAre hI phAva', bolai pANa, baNa be-rukho| dyo AyAM nai Ava, Adara-sAdara saadhkaaN!|71|| phaiko matI phahIr3a, bako matI bephema the| bhAgyoDAM rI bhIr3a, shAmo sAhasI saadhkaaN!|72|| bAta-bAta mai bara, bAMdho mata baitthaa-sutaaN| o jabAna ro jaira, sAgI zaMkhiyo sAdhakAM ! / 73 / / 1. mupht-bekaar| sAdhaka-zataka 113

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badhato jAya bigAr3a, draSTA dekhai hai khddyaa| kuNa jhole mai jhAr3a, sAhama sakailA saadhkaaN!|74|| bAtAM rI baMbhera, ghor3A daur3e kaagjii| (maiM) lAgU khAro jera, sIdho bolyA saadhkaaN!75|| bhItara-bhItara bheda, badhai bela viSa rI burii| UMDI jaThai umeda, zila sapATa hai saadhkaaN!|76|| bhAvAM mai lyo bhAMpa, susta dekha muni sampadA / jAya kAlajo kAMpa, sUtA-sUtAM saadhkaaN!|77|| bhabhakI jasarI bhUkha, cUMca bAhirI cidd'klyaaN| cUMcUM kara acUka, siTa nahIM sIjhai sAdhakAM // 78 / / mahAmanA ! manuhAra, mAno mana moTo kro| meTa khAra, mana mAra, saba mai ralajyo saadhkaaN!76|| mananazIla ! mahAmAnya ! marama maraka mAro mtii| abhimata huyAM amAnya, sala mata ghAlo saadhkaaN1180|| minakha, meha, mata, mota, motI mAMgyA kada milai ? jagai jota syUM jota, jadi saMyojaka saadhkaaN!|1|| yAda karo AyAta, ke niryAta karyo ? kuzala ! rIto hI dinarAta, rahyo ka? soco saadhkaaN!!82|| yAMtrika-yuga meM yoga, prANAyAma prayoga hai| vyAyAmaja vyapayoga, zubhopayogI saadhkaaN!|3|| yAtrA ALU yAma, yAyAvara hai yti-vrtii| pAlAM saMyama-sthAma, sukhasAtA syUM saadhkaaN!84|| rAkho draSTA-bhAva, eka dRSTi iNa sRSTi meN| lAgaNadyo na lagAva, zIsa kI jyUM sAdhakA ! / 85 // 114 AsIsa

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rAga-rIsa hai dAga, tyAga virAga-parAga mai| antara dhukatI Aga, zAnta karo sata saadhkaaN!|86|| rAga-rasika, ramaNIka, rUpa-rasika, rasanA-rasika / lopa lAja-laya-lIka, sadA sidAvai saadhkaaN!87|| lakkhaNa lakSya ru lekha, lAkha lukAyAM nahiM lukai| keka bhekha mai cheka, sasaMketa kahuM saadhkaaN!188|| laya, lata, lIka, lilAr3a, lArai lagyA lttrriyaa| daivai bAta bigAr3a, sApAdatI saadhkaaN!|8|| lAkhAM-lAkhAM loka, lula-lulakara laTakA krai| saMyama zloka viloka, sadguru kRpayA saadhkaaN!|60|| varata jo viparIta, TAlokar3a gaNa syaM Talai / apachandA avanIta, saMgata chor3o saadhkaaN!61|| viTTala ro vizvAsa, koika viTTala hI kreN| zAsaNa ro itihAsa, sAkhI sAhamai sAdhakAM / 2 / / vijJa vaNika vyavasAya, kraya-vikraya viNaje vividha / AMkAM AMkai Aya, sAmAyaka-dhara sAdhakAM ! / 63 // zama-dama mai khama-Thoka-jama, namakara rama vigama tama / jo dyo prAkrama jhoMka, (to) sugama susaMyama sAdhakAM ! / 64 // zAnta manA zubha soca, viSa pIkara zaMkara bnno| zivaM svAtma saMkoca, zreyaskara hai saadhkaaN!|6|| zAsana zAstA zAna, zodhita zuddha sushaasnaa| sagalA eka samAna, sva-para na samajha saadhkaaN!|66|| sAdhaka-zataka 115

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SaT - dravyAtmaka' loka, sRSTi sajIva ajIva rI / saMtati saMkrama sodho sono sAdhakAM ! // 67 // roka, SaT pramAda' parihAra, SaT palimandhu' na SaT pratikramaNAcAra, sadA sAcavo 4 SaT sadguNa sampanna huvai zramaNa gaNa staMbha so / pratibhA prabhA prapanna, saMgha sampadA sAdhakAM ! | 66 // sAmya-yoga lyo sAdha, saba samAna sukha-dukha svagata | svAnubhUti ro svAda, sudhAzrAva hai sAdhakAM ! | 100 // santa samAgama sAra, sAmelo sAjho savidhi | svAgata yuta satkAra, zAsaNa zobhA sAdhakAM ! | 101 // Acaro / sAdhakAM ! |8|| sadguru zIkha sacoTa, svIkAro sammAna syUM / savinaya caraNAM loTa, satya sujhAo sAdhakAM ! | 102 // hai apane hI hAtha, apaNI ijjata AbarU / rAkha yAda dina rAta, salAha, saMcaro sAdhakAM ! // 103 // huvai na kade hatAza, lAkha-lAkha zAbAsa, haMsa- vRtti hiya-heja, haMsamukha haryo bhaya rahai / ( vo) atizAyI Adeja, sheja teja lahai sAdhakAM ! 105 // 116 AsIsa Apo nahi de Aparo / bIM sAdhaka nai sAdhakAM ! | 104 // 1. dharmAstikAya, adharmAstikAya, AkAzAstikAya, pudgalAstikAya, jIvAstikAya, kAla / 2. mada, viSaya, kaSAya, nidrA, Alasya aura pratilekhanA / 3. capalatA, vAcAlatA, cakSu-kuzIla, cir3acir3Apana, ati lobha aura nidAnasaMkalpI | 4. sAmAyaka, caubIsastava, vandanA, pratikramaNa, kAyotsarga aura paccakkhANa / 5. zraddhAlu, satyavAdI, medhAvI, bahuzruta, zakti sampanna aura prazAnta-cita /

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rAmAyaNa chandai mahAvIra nirvANa-mahotsava, do hajAra ikatIsa sukhena / dehalI relI bar3I navelI, eka maMca para sArA jain| dI zraddhAMjaliyAM raMgaraliyAM, bhakti bhAva bhRta vrnnaaNmai| sevAbhAvI 'campaka' 'sAdhaka-zataka' dharai zrIcaraNAM mai // 106 / / sAdhaka-zataka 117

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dohA sadA samarpita sura-sarI, sAgara syUM sambandha / 'campaka' zrIsaMgha caraNa meM, praNamai chanda-prabandha // 1 // namai khamai bohI gama, gaMja garaja rI gandha / vinaya-bidhA 'campaka' biNe, vigata chanda kara bandha // 2 // sahaja samarpaNa sumana-vana, zobhai 'campaka' saMgha / sudhA saMgha-pati sAraNA, sone mAMha sugaMdha // 3 // imarata AMkhyAM meM jhara, tapai deha para teja / 'campaka' ceharai somyatA, santa hiye mai heja // 4 // viSaya-vAsanA bujha gaI, Aza pAza ko ant| saMyama samatA maiM ramai, 'campaka' sAco santa // 5 // santa bahai satpaMtha mai, grantha chor3a nirgrantha / 'campaka' taMta udanta mai, lai ananta ko anta // 6 // tyAga-virAga-tar3Aga mai, atizAyI anuraag| caMcarIka 'campaka' cusa, muni-pada-padma-parAga // 7 // zAsaNa sura-taru sukha kara, siddhi-saudha-sopAna / 'campaka' zAsaNa cyAnaNo, Ana-pAna sammAna / / 8 / / zAsaNa zItala chAMvalI, aNAdhAra AdhAra / 'campaka' zAsaNa cetanA, haraNa pApa haridvAra // 6 // zikSA-sumaraNI 121

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zAsaNa durlabha devaro, zAsaNa pUjA-pATha | zAsaNa Rs paratApa hI, 'campaka' sagalA ThATha // 10 // 2 Asa zaMkha dakSiNAvarta hai, saMgha zveta- mandAra | cintAmaNi 'campaka' cahaka, vAMchita phala dAtAra // / 11 // mAnasarovara, malayagiri, makha - mayUkha - mohAra' / maMgalamaya, zAsaNa mudita, 'campaka' caraNa pakhAra // 12 // vidyA syUM besI badhai, vikaTa anAsthA Aja / 'campaka' caur3e coka mai, soco sujJa samAja // 13 // binA hilAyAM ojhajyA, lokokti prakhyAta / sUtI rA pADA jaNai, 'campaka' cor3e bAta // / 14 / / gur3a- lipaTeDI bAta syUM, rAjI 'campaka' lAgai cabar3ako, sAca sApA -dUtI syUM sarai, bhale para 'campaka' caur3e paDyo, buro saMgharaSaNa syUM saMgha maiM, 'campaka' par3e darAra / bhItara hI bhItara dhukai, aNabolI takarAra // 17 // rahe samAja / suNAyAM Aja / / 15 / / netA niravAlo rahai, (to) badhai na vAda-vivAda | 'campaka' kama - besI namaka, karai khAdya besvAda ||18|| syANAM 'campaka' soca tUM thArai DAvI- jIvaNI, yajJa kA prakAza-dvAra / kitoi kAma | anta pariNAma // 16 // sAMya-sAya sulaga satata, dina bhara dila ru dimAga / 'campaka' bAtAM syUM kade, bujhe na antara- Aga / / 16 / / mata ikataraphI tAMNa / donyUM eka samAna // 20 //

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campaka cir3a-bhir3a syUM huvai, ghara mai ghaNo bigaadd'| bhuna nhAkha sadbhAvanA, manobheda kI bhAr3a // 21 // dardI nai dIsa jiyAM, apaNo darda amApa / tyUM doSI yadi dekhale, (to) 'campaka' palai na pApa // 22 // pakSa-pAta ro pAdaro, par3asI kyaM na prbhaav| thothI tarkA syUM taNa, 'campaka' aura taNAva / / 23 / / 'campaka' cor3e bAtAM-bAtAM mai sUgalI, sApA-dUtI sAva / baDhe, dikkata aura durAva // 24 // hAtha-hAtha syUM yadi ghasa, (to) garamI baDhe vizeSa / bAta-bAta rI gharSaNA, 'campaka' karadai kleza // 25 // baMdhI muTThI rahaNa dai, 'campaka' catura vicAra / bharyo bharama hI hai bhalo, hAtha pasAryo hAra // 26 // santAM ! zAsaNa ro sadA, hita Aparai hAtha / campaka cAlo ceta kara, sagalA nai le sAtha // 27 // netA nitaraNa lAgagyA, calai dutaraphI caal| 'campaka' kiNa nai doSa dai, kudarata karai kamAla // 28 // aThI-baThI rI bAta syUM, TUTai hArdika het| 'campaka' avasara hAla hai, ceta sake to ceta // 26 // kittI mehanata syUM ghar3o, tyAra karai kuNbhaar| caTakai phaTakai phUTatAM, 'campaka' lage na bAra // 30 // saDyA-galyA jUnA paDyA, muradA matI ukhedd'| chuTa-puTa cher3A cher3a syUM, 'campaka' kaThai niver3a ? // 31 // dvaMdva dimAgAM mai bharyo, dila meM khar3I divaar| bhItaralo bhedyAM binA, 'campaka' nahiM pratikAra / / 32 / / zikSA-sumaraNI 123

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prema hRdaya rI deNa hai, hai vyavahAra dimAga / phUla binA phUla kaThe, 'campaka' prema-parAga // 33 // karasI so bharasI dakI ! dhakkai dhika na pola / to kAMdAM rA chUtakA, 'campaka' tUM mata chola // 34 // 'campaka' hokara hI rahai, hoNI apaNa aap| netA rI niSpakSatA, choDai dila para chApa // 35 // baira miTai nahiM baira syU, bujhai na ghI syUM aag| kAdai syUM 'campaka' dhupai, kada kAdai ro dAga ? // 36 // durvyasanI dekhyA dukhI, sadA sukhI guNavAna / halako jIvana hara samaya, rAkhai 'campaka' mAna // 37 // sAca, sAca 'campaka' sadA, jhUTha anta hai jhuutth| china mai jAvai jhUTha syUM, prema-prIta, mana TUTa // 38 // jhUTha ro 'campaka' jamai, eka bAra vishvaas| dhag-dhag antara dhar3akato, rahasI anta udAsa / / 3 / / ati-paricita syUM artha ro, baNai jitai vyavahAra / karo matI 'campaka' kahai, svArathiyo saMsAra / / 40 // 'campaka' vinaya viveka bina, vyartha bAhya vyavahAra / bagata dekhakara barataNo, sAco ziSTAcAra // 41 / / DigU-picaM Diga-miga karai, ghar3a-ghar3a oghaTa ghATa / 'campaka' samakita caraNa mai, ulaTo kara ucATa // 42 / / Doko phAr3e DAMga nai, tila le cAlyo taadd'| 'campaka' chipagyo chokarAM! rAI ole pahAr3a // 43 // DigalI cUka Daphola syUM, rAkha na 'caMpaka' raadd'| ochai mutalaba nai adhama, bolo karai bigAr3a // 44 // 124 AsIsa

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Dora hAtha maijo huvai, (to) lyAvai pataMga maror3a / 'caMpaka' kUMcI hAtha, maiM (to) sagalA AsI daur3a // 45 // DUba murakha Daphola kyUM, khoda hAtha syUM khADa / 'caMpaka' rukhavAlo luTai, kheta khAyagI bAr3a // 46 // choTAM ne chiTakA matI, cAr3ha 'caMpaka' choTo so ciNo, kaNAM 'caMpaka' ceto kara catura ! cita mata vakarI cAr3ha / aMtasakai Aveza nai, muMhaDai syUM mata kAr3ha // 48 // ciNArai jhAr3a / bhAMjadai bhAr3a // 47 // ekeka to kacaro baNai, bahu mila baNai buhArI / tiNa syUM ghaNa nahiM tyAgaNo, 'campaka' rakha ikatArI // 46 // ghaNa ro mata gaharo ghaNo, par3e matI pratikUla / jIte ghaNa hI jagata mai, 'campaka' baNa anukUla // 50 // jana-mata saba kucha jagata mai, 'campaka' dekho jAya / janamata syUM viparIta jana, ghara-ghara dhakkA khAya // 51 // galai sudI gaNa mai gaDyo, raha 'campaka' paga ropa / zAnta svataH hI samaya syUM huvai kopa - Aropa // 52 // zAnta citta 'campaka' sadA, kArya vyasta vizvasta / rahaNo apaNa hAla mai masta svastha Atmastha // 53 // sAvadhAna rahaNo sughar3a, saMyama meM prati sAsa / hita khovai jo hAtha syUM, 'campaka vyartha vikAsa // 54 // cita mai cAsI cyAnaNo, hita rakha karai matI nAhaka atI, anta 'campaka' hAtha | aMdherI rAta // 55 // Akara jhaTa Aveza meM, baka jyAvai be- phema | syANaparI 'campaka' khabara, paDyAM kareM bI Tema // 56 // zikSA - sumaraNI 125

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lekho agalo lAralo, lakha kara 'campaka' bol| mate miNIja minakha ro, eka minaTa mai mola // 57 / / 'campaka' jIvana-jItaNo, khulo khilANo nAga / kAjala rI A koTharI, lAga na jyAdai dAga / / 5 / / bahu-beTyAM para beakala, phAr3e AMkha phijUla / 'campaka' bI badakAra rai, dhobAM-dhobAM dhUla // 56 // binA phema bolyAM badhai, bematalaba ro bair| orAM para Aropa syUM, 'campaka' huvai na khaira // 60 // bigaDAyala badanIta to, bole Ala paMpAla / 'campaka' ceto rAkha tUM, apaNo Apa saMbhAla // 61 // koI syaM karaNI nahIM, binA jarUrata baat| bahu bolai rI bIgar3e, 'campaka' jaga prakhyAta // 62 // cAlo cokhI cAla mai, karajyo cokhA kAma / 'campaka' saMzaya mata karo, rekha rAkhasI rAma // 63 / / orAM ro avaguNa karaNa, ghar3a mata oghaTa ghATa / 'campaka' melai minakha ro, miTai nahIM ocATa // 64 // Tema TuTaNa ro TAla dai, 'campaka' catura sujANa / ApasarI rI bAta mai, khaTai na khecAM tANa // 65 / / suNI suNAI bAta para, dhara mata campaka dhyAna / antara kahaNa-suNaNa mai, huvai jamI-asamAna // 66 // maMDe-maMDa karANa ro, khoTo DhAlo chodd'| 'campaka' cumbaka mai catura !, nikala nyAya nicor3a // 67 // jo cAvai jaga jItaNo, uttama eka upAya / / 'campaka' kara ahasAna tUM, duzmaNa bhI daba jAya // 6 // 126 AsIsa

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apaNI akar3AI ajar3a, khatama karai saba khela / nija rI 'campaka' namratA, mitra milAvai mela // 66 // bhAI ne 'campaka' bhale, tUM bakalai kara bhema / bhAI hI AsI bhalo, ADo ohaMDI Tema // 7 // vhAyala cArai bhAyalo, lai bhAyAM syUM tor3a / 'campaka' cugaNI ThIkarI, bharyo ghar3o mata phor3a // 71 // 'campaka' bhAI bUkiyA, bhAI AMkhyAM goddaa| bhAI ko kamajora ke ? TUTyA tohI ToDA // 72 // opai bhAI rI jagyAM, bhAI ro hI mela / 'campaka' lukhI cIkaNI, phUTI to hi baMDela // 73 // buro baira bikhabAda ro, bhAyAM mai mata ghAla / 'campaka' tUM cAlai matI, rAjanIti rI cAla // 74 / / bhAI bhUkho bhAva ro, roTI bhUkho rAMka / sahaja mAna sammAna mai, 'campaka' curA na AMkha / / 75 / / 'baDo bicAralA baDI, ocho ochI caal| 'campaka' poTI pAva kI, savAsera mata ghAla // 76 // zoSaNahIna-samAja rI, racanA bar3o vicAra / 'campaka' thothI kalpanA, karyAM kara sarakAra // 77 / / citar3o cakaDolyAM caDhyo, rAkhaNa roba rabAba / 'campaka' cAMdI ro cakara, khelo karai kharAba // 78 // kuNa lyAyo kuNa leyagyo, kiNa saMga cAlI Atha / jANa-bUjha 'campaka' jagata, jabarana ghAlai bAtha / / 7 / / 'campaka' aMta na cAha ko, mAMDI mAthai bUka / bhasma-vyAdhi, bhojana bhakhai, bhAMja sakai kada bhUkha ? // 8 // zikSA-sumaraNI 125

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'campaka' lichamI cacalA, iNa ro ke itabAra / kuNa lyAyo kuNa leyagyo, to ke rI tkraar?||8|| 'campaka' caur3e AyalA, Aja nahIM to kAla / dhana-dharatI donUM dakI !, hai sarakArI mAla / / 82 // 'campaka' dhana bhelo karai, cUsa-cUsa kaMjUsa / kor3AM pakar3IjyAM par3e, deNI lAkhAM ghUsa / / 83 / / dIpaka bujhagyA dIpatA, 'campaka' cabyA suparva / rAja gayA, rAjA gayA, gehalA ! kyAM para garva ? ||84 // dharaNI ro dhana dharaNa mai, dharayo rahelA laar| khoTA tUM kyAM nai ghaDai ?, 'campaka' jarA vicAra / / 5 / / 'campaka' kiNa-kiNaro calyo, gehalA! gartha gumaan| milasI aMta masANa mai, sagalA eka samAna / / 86 // kuNa kiNa rai takadIra ro, jor3a-kora dhara jaay| rakhavAlI 'campaka' rakhai, kuNa kharaca kuNa khAya / / 87 / / saMcai mo-mokhI zahada, adhikI 'campaka' Aza / ati saMcaya ro sAmanai, pratiphala paDyo khulAsa / / 88 // khataro sono hai kharo, jANai saba saMsAra / 'campaka' soha kyUM cUMTakara, (A) le jyAsI sarakAra // 86 // sono sarakArI hasI, ghaNI nahIM hai der| 'campaka' cUkailA jako, pichatAvailA phera / / 60 // jokho moTo jIva nai, 'campaka' aba bhI cet| sonai ro syANA minakha !, haTA hRdaya syUM heta // 6 // detAM jI doro havai, kharacai nahIM chadAma / 'caMpaka' saMga cAle nahIM, (o)dhana AsI ke kAma ? // 12 // 128 AsIsa

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'campaka' caDhyo samAja ro, zira para moTI karja / deNo leNo ApasI, (hai) sAdhAraNa so pharja // 13 // ghaNA husI khAkara khuzI, hAtha peTa para pher| khuvA dUsarai nai khuzI, 'campaka' koika dilera // 14 // eka dAliyo bhI dakI!, dUjo sake na caakh| 'campaka' mata becaina baNa, bhAga bharosA rAkha / / 65 // Ayo ho jada ekalo, jAsI ekAeka / jhAmala jholo bIca mai, Teko 'campaka' Teka // 16 // dIna aura duniyAM douM, sajhai na ekaNa sAtha / 'campaka' dina Rs cyAnaNa, rahaNa sake na rAta // 17 // nIyata sArU nIsara, anta natIjo nema / 'campaka' cIMdhI cora kai, pIpala caDhe na pema // 98|| jhUTha chipAyo kada chipe, 'campaka' coDai aay|| phala do dina pehalI pachai, anta gatAM syUM jAya / / 6 / / sAca rahelA sAca hI, jhUTha AkharI jhUTha / sAcI 'campaka' sAmane, jhUTha calai parapUTha // 100 / / AMkha kAna mai Antaro, 'campaka' AMgala cyaar| dUrI dekhaNa suNaNa rI, kahatAM par3e na pAra // 10 // kAna rAga-rasiyA khuzI, raMga rUpa mai naina / cATa baTor3I jIbhar3I, 'campaka' par3e na caina // 102 // sotAM mota sirAvate, jAgyAM sAhamI jANa / 'caMpaka' cokasa cAlaNo, suNa mana-mIta ! sujANa / / 103 / / milI jakI mai hI minakha !, sAvala karale sana / jANo 'campaka' ika jagyA, kA masANa kA kabra // 104 // zikSA-sumaraNI 126

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maraNa jINa ro mAmalo, hai hoNI re hAtha / 'campaka' koi pelI pacha, sagalA nibhai na sAtha // 10 // dharma-dhyAna meM madada de, sAco bohI saiNa / 'campaka' bAdhaka baNaNiyAM, duzmaNa gotA deNa // 106 / / antara-mukha abhyAsa ro, muzkila hai mNddaann| 'campaka' cetana rI caTaka (tUM) jogyAMsyUM hI jANa // 107 / / kaviyAM maiM baiThU urle, mur3atI dekhU modd'| koDa-koDa mai hoDa mai, 'campaka' dor3I-dor3a // 10 // battIsa sI0skIma mai, zarada cyAnaNI raat| campaka ! zikSA-sumaraNI, sumara sumeru sAtha // 106 / / 130 AsIsa

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dohA 'campaka' pAvana pAvaNAM, paramesara ro rUpa / motyAM mUMghA movanyAM! giNa mata chAyA dhUpa // 1 // 'campaka' bhAvI joga bhala, moko milyo mahAna / mAMgyA mile na movanyA ! meha, mota, mehamAna // 2 // palaka bichAdai pAvaDAM, bhUla mUla tisa-bhUkha / suvaraNa-moko movanyA ! 'campaka' tUM mata cUka / / 3 / / sAgara ! samatA rI sarasa, pariNati huvai pravINa / 'campaka' cetana cupa rahai, kSamatA mata kara kSINa // 4 // barAbarIkai syUM bhir3aNa, 'campaka' cahijai coja / marayai huyai nai mAraNau, mai maradAM ke moja // 5 // AhamI-sAhamI utaratI, aurAM rI kara aap| car3hatI 'campaka' jo cahe, (to) svayaM sUMphar3A sApha // 6 // udyama ro adhikAra hai, TalaNa sakai kada ttem|| hosI jo hogI husI, 'campaka' khema akhema // 7 // cugalI khA DUba cugala, bAMdha pApa kI poTa / 'campaka' uThA na goTa tUM , sAgara ! hilA na hoTha // 8 // 'campA' cakamo dai matI, bhItaralo TaTola / sAgara ! apaNo doSa tUM, orAM para mata Dhola // 6 // phuTakara phUla 133

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'campaka' sAgara ! tUM sughar3a, mata kara gola-maTola / Thosa bAta ThImara karai, chorA ThaTThA-Thola // 10 // aThI baThI rA aNaghaDyA, tUM phahIr3a mata pheMka / ThImarapaNa rI ThIkasara, 'campaka' lAgai neka // 11 // buddhihINa bihvala bikala, akala binA rA uuNtth| 'campaka' bigar3I cAsaNI, TUTai nameM na ThUTha / / 12 / / Thabako lAgyAM ThIkarI, kalazo kAca kathIra / 'campaka' khamasI coTa nai, hIro-hema-hamIra / / 13 / / bacana-bacana mai Antaro, pIDhyAM ro par3a jyAya / eka bacana mai milaNa ro, 'campaka' upaje cAva // 14 // eka bacana ghAdhAM bharai, ghAva ghAladai ek| amRta-jahara jabAna mai, 'campaka' jagA viveka / / 15 / lAgyoDI para laMNa so, eka bacana dukha deha / eka bacana dai sAMtvanA, 'campaka' umar3e neha // 16 // Aga Upar3e bacana syUM, bacana baNe rs-dhaar| zatru-mitra bANI sugaNa ! campaka' jarA vicAra / / 17 / / niravada bolyAM nirjarA, sAvada bandha viSAda / eka bacana svAdhyAya hai, 'campaka' ika bakabAda // 18 // arthazUnya aviveka vaca, anaratha kara ayathArtha / nirjarArtha niravada badai 'campaka' bacana yathArtha / / 16 / / 'campaka' jhukakara jugata sara, jaDiyo jar3e jar3Ava / jamai jagyAsara khaTokhaTa (to) bANI baNa baNAva / / 20 // sAgara ! catura calAka mai, antara 'campaka' eka / cAla kucAla calAka kI, vikasita catura viveka // 21 // 134 AsIsa

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'campaka' coTI para car3he, puruSAM ro puruSArtha / huvai parAyI kRpA para, cintana kada caritArtha // 22 // anubhava-dIpaka syUM disai, 'campaka' cyArUM kUTa / guNyAM binA duniyAM giNe, bhaNyo paDhyor3o UMTha // 23 // gaNita ru gururI alakha gati, 'campaka' car3ha aakaash| gagana-dIpa dariyA guru, para-hita kara prakAza // 24 // Dora suguru ke hAtha mai, gocAM khAya ptNg| TUTa to lUTa jagata, vidhi ko 'campaka' vyaMga / / 2 / / guruvara gura-jJAtA gajaba, parakhai 'campaka' piidd'| jIvana jhoMkai jada-kade, par3e bhagata para bhIr3a // 26 // 'campaka' maMdira rI murata, mAthai cAr3he loka / AcArjA rI AMNa hI, sAdhai sagalA thoka // 27 // jada guru devai olamo, jhukajyA caraNAM aage| kada 'campaka' patajhar3a binA, per3AM rai phala lAgai // 28 // gaNa gele gUMja gaNI, gaNa pUje gnni-gop| gaNa jUjhai gaNi AMNa para, 'campaka' gaNi gaNa-opa // 26 // Upara ujjala dholiyo, mana minakhAM rai mela / jepura rI upamA jace, 'campaka' galyAM ru hela // 30 // mana galato, mana gomatI, mana hI tIratha-ghATa / mana maMdira, mana devatA, mana hI pUjA-pATha // 31 // mana gaMgA, mana gaMdagI, mana rAvaNa, mana rAma / / suraga-naraka puna-pApa mana, mana ujAr3a, mana grAma // 32 // mana sItA, mana surpaNAM, mana hi kRSNa, mana kaMsa / 'campaka' mana yogI-yavana, mana kauo, mana haMsa / / 33 / / phuTakara phUla 135

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nijara nirmalI nirakhaNo, kirataba khulI kitAba / 'caMpaka' roba-rabAba rakha, kho mata khoha gulAla // 34 // UTha savArI oja ko, dina mai dekhai khvAba / 'campaka' par3a para-peja mai, galatI karai gulAba // 35 // Aja balai kyUM kAlajo, jacai na jugato jAba / sAgara ! bahama par3e manai, gumazuma kiyAM gulAba / / 36 / / giratoDa nai thAma'ra, caMpA ! cepa TUTatoDai nai| phUMka dUkhatai pho. rai dai, sIMca sUkhatoDai nai // 37 / / sajjana kama saMsAra mai, durjana ghaNA dimAga / haMsU cAdara para hataka, lAga na jyAvai dAga // 38 // thArI mhArI utaratI, kara dai prIta tuDAya / uDajyA kubadhI kAkalo, rAjahaMsa phasajyAya / / 3 / / kaNa nai tUM maNa mAnalai, sAhasa rAkha saMbhAla / haMsU kAr3he himmatI, pANI phor3a patAla / / / 40 // kaccai pakkai Aparai, ghara rI huvai na hoDa / orAM rI mahalAyatAM, phiraNUM haMsU joDa / / 4 / / vIsA barasA ro baNyo, bar3alo jAvai TUTa / aMkUrai rI Aza kada, 'caMpaka' rahe akhUTa // 42 / / hAkama detAM hakama tUM jarAM bhAMpalai bhAva / 'caMpaka' bohI cimakasI, jiNarai gaharo ghAva // 43 // 'caMpaka' cintana ciMtakAM, karo samaya samajhAya / nuAM makAna baNe nahIM, jUnAM DhahatA jAya / / 44 / / sahaNa rI sagatI huvai, to kara haMsI majAka / caMpaka' jo suNa nahiM sakai, to jabAna basa rAkha / / 45 / / 136 AsIsa

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mana dekhe jada hI karai, 'caMpaka' hasI vinoda / suNa virodha-pratizodha ro, tUM khADo mata khoda / / 46 / / kahaNI kade na kAma kI, khANa-pANa asuhANa / 'caMpaka' nikale citta nai, cIra bacana ko bANa // 47 // phuTakara phUla 137

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solaha satiyAM (kramazaH) rAmAyaNa chanda brAhmI' aura sundarI' kauzalyAjI' sItA' rAjamatI / kuntI' drupada-sutA candanabAlA mahArAnI mRgAvatI / catura-celanA prabhAvatI' dIpatI-subhadrA'2 dmyntii"| sulasA" zivA5 solavIM padmAvatI" satI zubha jayavantI // 1 // catuvaziti-stava (logassa) ke AdhAra para paiMsaThiyo yantra dohA zrI nemI saMbhava' suvidhi, dharma5 zAnti svayameva / ananta" muni suvrata namI", ajita' candraprabha deva // 1 // RSabha' supArasa vimala" mali", puSpa5 aMka paccIsa / araha vIra sumati padama', vAsupujya jagadIza // 2 // zrI zItala' zreyAMsa" jina, kunthu" pAma bhava-setu / abhinandana vandana kara, 'caMpaka' maMgala hetu // 3 // 138 AsIsa

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sAta bAta se eka javAba manohara- chanda ekarasyAM mohana pe, gopyAM mila AI sAta / eka sAtha bolI, mAMgeM pUrI karavAiye / kavitA suNAo nAtha ! kuztI dikhAo' dvAra banda kara Ao', byAha mero racAiye / kaho jI ! gujariyoM ko go-rasa kyUM lUTyo Apa' / ghUmana kI icchA, eka ratha to maMgAiye / ubarANe phirate kyoM ? 'caMpaka' cakora hoke / 'jorI nAM' kahe kRSNa, karUM kyA batAiye // 1 // 1. kavitA - jor3I nahIM / 2. kuztI kaise lar3a ? -- pahalavAna jor3I kA nahIM / 3. dvAra baMda to karUM - para kivAr3oM kI jor3I nahIM / 4. vivAha ke lie jor3IdAra -barAbara kA vara kahAM hai ? 5. jorI dAve thor3A hI lUTA thA ? 6. ratha ke lie bailoM kI jor3I cAhie, vaha nahIM hai / 7. jUtoM kI jor3I nahIM hai kyA karUM ? naMge pAMva phiranA par3atA hai / phuTakara - phUla 136

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pacakkhANa-nirNaya-vidhi rAmAyaNa-chanda eka koTi ika bhAMgo rokai, doya koTi syUM tIna rukai, tIna koTi mai sAta rukailA, cAra koTi mai nau Thabakai / pAMca koTi mai teraha giNajyo, chava mai rukai bhaMga ikavIsa, sAta koTi mai rukai pacIsI, ATha koTi roke tetIsa / nava koTi pacakhANa karai to, sagalA bhAMgA ruka jyAvai, karaNa-joga ro lekho bhina bhina, 'campaka' syANAM samajhAvai // 1 // karaNa-joga-koTi bhAMgA ruke AMka 11-12-13 21-22-23 31-32-33 141=1 1 x x x x x x x x 142-2 2 1 x x x x x x x 143=3 3 - 3 -1 XXX XXX 241=4 4. 3. 1 1 x 1 x 5 - 4 - 1 2- 1. x x x x 243=6 6-6 - 2 3- 3-1 XXX 3417 7 - 6 - 2 5- 3-1 1xx 342-8 6-7 - 2 7- 5-1 2- 1-X 343=8 6-6-3 6-6-3 3-3- 1 2x2=5 140 AsIsa .

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mahAvratAM rA 225 bhAMgA karaNa joga syUM kara guNAM thAvara pAMcAM sNg| paMcendriya vikalendriyAM prathama ikyAsI bhaMga // 1 // krodha, lobha, bhaya, hAsya syUM navaguNa kara natazIsa / dUje mahAvrata rA baNai au bhAMgA chattIsa // 2 // appaM bahuvaM aNuthulaM citta acittmtaant| tIjai mahAvrata rA baNe bhAMgA copana zAnta / / 3 / / sapta vIsa cothe guNo deva minakha tiryaMca / mizra acitta sacitta syUM karo pAMcaveM saMca // 4 // 54 27-27 ikyAsI chattIsa milAlyo copana do satavIsa / 25 'campaka' bhAMgA mahAvratAM rA maiM do sau paccIsa / / 5 / / caubIsa tIrthakarAM rI pahacANa gItaka vRSabha' hAthI' azva' bandara kroca' kamala' ru svastika', zazi magara' zrIvatsa geMDo" mahiSa zUkara" shyenk"| vajra" mRga aja" aura naMdyAvarta kalaza" ru kUrma" syUM, nIla-utpala" zaMkha phaNadhara siMha" cInhoM marma syUM // 1 // phuTakara phUla 141

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svastha agara rahaNo huvai, 'campaka' kahaNo mAna / hita-mita pathyAhAra ro, santAM rAkho dhyAna // 1 // TAlI - TAlI mata karo, saba rasa mAMge deha | santAM ! udara uNodarI, rAkho niHsandeha || 2 || 'campaka' niyamita ghUmaNo, AsaNa prANAyAma / eka havA sau davA ro, santAM ! karasI kAma || 3 || roga, baira viSa bela hai, kahaNaM maiM ke lAja ? ghAsai - golI ro karo, santAM ! prathama ilAja // 4 // ajIraNa hu to agara ajIraNa ro bahama, pIo niraNo pANI / uttama auSadha apaca ro, saMtAM ! RSi-jana bANI // 5 // lai ghAso ghasa sUMTha mai, kAlI namaka DalI / 'campA' ! saTa kara nahIM tara, khaTakai alI salI // 6 // jIva doro huvai to jIva doro hovai jarAM, doya lUMga le cAva / 'campaka' antara Aga A rUI mai mata dAba ||7|| imarata-dhArA adhikatara, sulabha milai saba Thor3a 1 cyAra bUMda le kyUM karai, 'campA' ! bhAjA-dor3a // 8 // ghAso- golI 1.4.5

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kabajI huvai to isaba gola haraDai namaka, lyo jo ho anukUla / kabja roga ro mUla hai santAM ! karo na bhUla // 6 // peTa-darda peTa-darda asahya to, sAMbhara ghI mai saaNdh| dyo samAdhi jhaTapaTa huvai, santAM ! dhIraja bAMdha // 10 // Adho haladI-gAMThiyo, ragar3a chAcha mai caattai| asara turata 'campaka' kara peTa-darda nai daattai||11|| AdhaNa sarikho garama jala, kapa bhara lyo munirAya / ghola camaca cINI pio, peTa Apharo jAya // 12 // chava mAsA bhara suMTha mai, mAso kAlo luunn| udara zUla meM phAkatAM, injeksana so sUMNa / / 13 / / saMTha miraca ika ika pipala, sAjI jarA milAya / ghasa tAtai jala syUM pi, peTa-zUla miTa jyAya // 14 // bAdI-gesa suMTha reta mai sikI huve, kAlo namaka milaay| do do rattI bhAtarA, gesa peTa ro jAya // 15 // dhaNiyai rI gUlI duNI misarI jImyAM vaad| phAkI lelai gesa hara 'campA' ! chor3a pramAda / / 16 / / pIpala 1 laMga 1 soDo miTho, camaThI pIparamenTa / lai bhojana ke bAda mai, gesa miTai arajenTa // 17 // AMva meM sauMpha jhUTha chIpA haraDa, misarI tiNI milAya / phAkI AThAnA bharI, AMva purANI jAya // 18 // 146 AsIsa

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bhUner3I joharar3a aru, cINI tina-tina maasaa| phAkai nita donyU vagata, jAvai AMva akAzAM // 16 // lassI kacce dUdha rI, taja mAsA bhara levai| 'campA' ! ajamA AMva mai, khUna banda kara devai // 20 // tina-tina mAsA ciNI mai amacara phAka pI paannii| haphte bhara dinagai-siMjyA, vicai sUpha nahiM khANI // 21 // paisa bhara choTI dudhI, pAva dahI meM levai| tIna dinAM taka roja to, AMva nAMva nahiM revai // 22 // khUnI ulaTI-dasta mai pAMca nIma rA pAnar3A, gola miraca lyo doya / ghAso ulaTI dasta mai, khUna bandha jhaTa hoya // 23 // 'campA' ! kapa bhara cAya mai, cammaca bhara ghI ghAla / pAyAM khUnI dasta ro, sarala ilAja kamAla // 24 // dAMta-darda mai dAMta surakSita rAkhaNAM, to aMgulI syUM khUba / ragar3a masUr3A dasa minaTa, nita 'campA' ! mata Uba / / 25 / / dAMta darada jyAdA kara (to) haladI masalo bhAI / dAbo kapUra kAMkarI (yA) hIMga susarala duvAI // 26 // tIna lUMga nImbU rai rasa maiM, pIsa dAMta para mslo| darda miTai 'campaka' ho jvAvai, jhaTa hala masalo sagalo // 27 // 'campA' ! dAMtAM para masala roja tilI ro tela / muMha baMdakara, jhAryo chuTai pAyariyA syUM gela // 28 // dAMta kar3hAyAM nahiM have, kadAca lohI banda / phUo kaDavai taila ro, dAbo kai Ananda // 26 // ghAso-golI 147

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AMkha kI duvAI kAnAM rI kiTTI tathA, uThatAM vAsI thUka / santAM ! ghAlo AMkha mai, aMjana ajaba acUka / / 30 // campA par3ajyA pitaraDo, guDanai jarA tpaa'r'| eka AMgalI AMja kara, bAkI bAMdho vAra // 31 // nAka rI phuNasI para phuNasI nikalai nAka para, TIkI dyo ghisa luuNg| athavA kAlI miraca kI, bhUla taila mata sUMgha / / 32 // ho jyAvai rUM-toDiyo phuNasI uThe visselii| ragar3a aphIma lagAya dyo, saMtA ! sArAM pelI // 33 // tAva-bukhAra, zaradI-jukhAma jvara nai bhUkhI rAkhaNI jukhAma pathyAhAra / mAMgai santAM ! mAnalyo, neka salAha sukhakAra // 34 // tAtI misarI cAbakara, garama udaga pI tyAga / karo sAMjha kA santa jana, zaradI jAsI bhAga / / 3 / / laMga suMTha ajavANa lyo, pIpala tulasI patra / ghAla lUMNa paMca mela ko, ghAso bar3o vicitra // 36 / / dIpana pAcana jvara-haraNa, doSa-zamana hita doya / golIdyo saMjIvanI, kAyA kaMcana hoya // 37 / / bIsa pIsa kAlI miraca, kAr3he vidhi uparAnta / chAMNa, ThAra, pIvai kaTa, maleriyA rI rAnta / / 38 // 1. eka bUMda nIMbU rasa milAkara / 148 AsIsa

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dUkhe chAtI pAsalyAM, do munakA kara sApha / hIMga do ratI ghAladyo, sAvala apaNai Apa || 36 || rAkha purANa borai rI, do rattI zahada milAya / cATai maleriyA ekAntara, cotha tejaro jAya // 40 // khAsI khAMDa phiTakar3I ro phUlyo dyo jalasyUM auSadhi sehalI / do-do ghaMTA syUM do pur3iyAM bukhAra car3hiyAM pehalI // 41 // galai ro ilAja zaradI syUM dUkhai galo, unhe jala rai sAtha / karo girArA lUMNa kA, santAM ! mAno bAta // 42 // garamI syUM sUkai galo, cipajyAvai jo kaMTha / ThaMDe pANI syUM karo, kuralA taja aMTa-saMTa ||43|| karo garArA hIMga rA, jo hovai svara-bhaMga / miTai kharakharI galai rI, kavoSNa jala ra saMga || 44 || kapha ro huvai prakopa to, jarA phiTakar3I ghola / karo gAragala kapha jhar3ai, jaya- bhikSu kI bola ||45 || taila guNaguNo tilI ro jako kAna maiM ghAlai / camatkAra bo galai rA Tonsala, sujana miTAle // 46 // tyo arahara kI dAla ro thor3o ubalyo pANI / karo garArA munijanAM ! jo Tonsala sujana miTANI // 47 // cyAra-pAMca kAlI miraca DalI lUMga kI nhAMka / cAbo pANI mata pio, khAsI jAya caTAka ||48 || ragar3a vyAra pistA miyAM, cATai zahata milAya / sUkho kapha khalakai turata, 'campaka' tyo ajamAya // 46 // ghAso - golI 146

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sira-darda choTI sIsI mai bharo, pIsa hIMga bArIka / sUMghAo sira-darda jhaTa, hosI santAM ! ThIka / / 5 / / sUkhA tulasI-patra lyA, pIsa chAMNa dyo nAsa / pAMca minaTa maiM sira-darada, miTai karo vizvAsa // 51 / / be-hisAba mAtho dukhai (to) pIpala jala meM pIsa / chAMNa nAka maiM bUMda do sUMgho, UTha cIsa // 52 // jhalajhalATa lAgai ghaNo (paNa) pIr3A karasI kUca / campA ajamAiza sudA, maNi-muni nai lyo pUcha / / 53 / / sAta vidAmA ekamira, ika ilAyacI ghoTa / sitA milA cATyAM miTa, sira kI zUla sacoTa // 54 // madhu-meha rasa giloya cammaca bharyo, camacyo zahata milAya / cATai rojInAM subaha, (to) saba prameha miTa jyAya // 55 // zahada AMvalA-rasa halada, kara samabhAga prayoga / cammaca bhara donyUM vagata, miTai prameyaja-roga // 56 // sata giloya, AMvalA, halada sama cammaca bhara phAka / jala syUM giTa, bhojana karai zUgara miTai saTAka // 57 / / 'campA' ! coAnI bharI lai bUMTI guddmaar|| svarasa karelai ro milA (to) zugara samudrAM-pAra // 58 / / sAMdhAM ro darada (gaThiyA-vAta) cIr3a bheDa ro bIsa grAma le subaha bIsa hI siMjyA / sAta dinAM se sAMdhA khulajyA 'campaka' dhIja patIjyA // 5 // 150 AsIsa

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lakabai rI zanyatA para dasa pandraha kAlI miraca, ghI mai ghisa bArIka / lakabai para mAlisa karai (to) sAta dinAM mai ThIka // 60 // dhAso-golI 151

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muni rAjamalajI (AtmA) nai sIkha ajI! rAjamala jI kiyAM? cAlyA iyAM abola ? 'campaka' minaTAM mai kar2yAM, the to bistara gola / / 1 / / jAtA-jAtAM sIkha lyo, aNasaNa-rolI ghol| 'campaka' tilaka karai catura ! jamagyo raMga jasola // 2 // 2021 ceta vadI 5 jasola yadigari 155

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gaNezamalajI svAmI (jasola) kI smRti meM soraThA gaharo guNI gaNeza, galai sudI gaNa mai gaDyo / bala balavAna vizeSa, 'campaka' caturAM cita caDhyo // 1 // DAya~ hAtha meM hAtha, pakaDyA donyUM mhAralA / jora lagA ika sAtha, 'campaka' kasyo chur3ANa nai ||2|| pUMcA jAtA TUTa, jora jAya jaMbUrI chUTa, syAt 'campaka' Avai yAda, bo dina bIyAM ko biyaaN| guNa gaNeza sAlhAda, gaNi gaNa ro bhArI bhagata // 4 // lagAto aura jo / sikaMjo sirakajyA // 3 // pUrI hI paratIta, rIta - nIta ro rAMgar3I | barateso viparIta, nahIM suhAto saMgha syUM // 5 // muni jIvaNa-mulatAna sevA sAjhI sAMtarI / bhala bhAvI balavAna, TAlI 'campaka' nahiM Talai // 6 // car3he sirADai kAma, jo rAkha~ zAsaNa - zaraNa / nita gaNeza ro nAma, 'campaka' cita ceta kare ||7|| 156 AsIsa

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rAvatamalajI svAmI kI smRti meM soraThA sAtAkArI santa, samajhadAra sthANo sughar3a | munirAvata matimanta, sAco sevaka saMgha ro // 1 // gaNa-gaNapati rA gIta, gaurava syUM gAto guNI / nizchala nirmala nIta, niraticAra nirbhaya nipuNa || 2 || saMyama mai sAnanda sAvadhAna 'campaka' sajaga | (aba) rAkhIje jayacanda !, rAvata muni rI rIna tUM // 3 // yAdagArAM 157

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sohana muni (cUrU) kI smRti meM 158 AsIsa dohA ar3I-khaMbha khUMTo kharo, gaNa ro khairakhavAha / Teka nibhAyI eka-sI, vAha ! sohana muni vAha // 1 // sevA muni nagarAja rI, aura chatra ro tyAga / ari hAthAM gayA, (o) sohana ro sobhAga || 2 || thAM sarikho zAsaNa bhagata viralo, kavi be-jor3a / palaka izAre parakhato, maMtrI-muni rI mor3a || 3 || vAha re vAha thAMro vinaya, bhakti mAna-manuhAra / sohana muni-sA samarpita lAkhAM meM do cAra // 4 // 'campaka' citta citArasI, jadakada lhasaNa - pyAja / sohana ! samvata sAta hai, AMkhyAM sAmai Aja || 5 ||

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sahiSNutA kI pratimUrti, sAdhvIpramukhA, mahAsatI lADAMjI kI puNya smRti meM dohA kharI kuzala khemaMkarI, khaTI na khAmI lADAM 'dIpAM' dUsarI, hathaNI kI dIpaka lADAM dIpatI, dIdAru campa ! caruDo cyAnaNo, paTutA prIta sI kheha / bijjala baMkI benar3I, nirmala 'campaka' Aja calI gayI, maiM samarUM deha // 1 // dAThIka | kalA - kuzala komala kamala, pada kI raMca na pIka / 'campaka' ! rAkhaNa cokasI, lADAM tajI na lIka // 3 // pratIka // 2 // dhIrI dharaNIdhara jisI, sarala svabhAvI zAnta / zubha cintana 'campaka' satata, baNI na lADAM bhrAnta // 4 // zAsaNa nai sugaNI satI, dInho apaNo bhoga / 'campaka' aba ceta kareM, lADAM nai saba loga // 5 // zikSA - priya, sevA sajaga, sahiSNutA saMskAra / mAtR-hRdaya syANI sadaya, satI sire saradAra // 6 // zAsaNa - naiNa | dina - raiNaM // 7 // yAdagArAM 156

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sAdhvI ratanAjI (rAjaladesara) kI smRti mai (2025, bhAdrapada, kRSNA 13, cUrU) soraThA vAha ! ratanAjI ! vAha !, karI phataha raNa-kheta meN| 'campaka' rI cita cAha, lAkha-lAkha zAbAsa lyo||1|| ratanAM ratana amola, zAsaNa mai syANI stii| gamyo na gAlA-gola, sApha kahyo khullo suNyo // 2 // daSTi dhaNyAM rI dekha, pehalAM, paga dharatI prch| rAkhI ratanAM rekha, AkhI aNiyAM eka-sI // 3 // hita rI haka rI bAta, kahatAM ratanAM kada cukii| sustAtI nahiM syAt, karI na koI rI gaI / / 4 / / sevAkaraNa saceSTa, giNyo na chAyAM dhUpa nai / sAgI mAM-sI zreSTha, ratanAM rogI-glAna rii||5|| catara hAtha rI Ama, ratanAM raMga-rogAna mai| isyo-visyo koI kAma, dAya na Ato dekhatAM // 6 // 'campaka' nita avivAda, patha-tyAvaNa ghAso ghsnn| AsI ratanAM yAda, sAMdhaNa TUTI pAtarI // 7 // 160 AsIsa

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Azukavi sohanalAla seThiyA (saradArazahara) ke prati syANo sohana seThiyo, samajhadAra smyjny| zAsaNa ra itihAsa ro, saMgrAhaka marmajJa // 1 // mAlacanda jI rA milyA, zubha sAtvika sNskaar| vimala vivekI vijJa vara, gahara gaMbhIra vicAra / / 2 / / antaraMga-pArSada asala, vidhi-vettA vizvasta / TAbara hokara Thimara-sA, likhato patra prazasta // 3 // AMkha izAre olakhato, Azaya iNgiyaagaar| ati upayogI Azu-kavi, udyamazIla udAra // 4 // binaya mar3hI, bolI baDI, ghar3I buddhi bajarATa / jur3I-kar3I sohana zramaNa-sAgara kI gadhATa // 5 // AsthA gaNi-gaNa rI sudRr3ha zraddhAvAna subhASa / smaraNa-zakti adbhuta upaja, ahaM na Ayo pAsa // 6 // vartana cintana kathana ho, anuzIlana anurUpa / 'campaka' sohana camakagyo, zrAvakatA ro stUpa // 7 // yAdagAra 161

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pracaliyA suganU bAbU kI yAda meM dohA bhadra - puruSa, bhAvika bhalo bhAtR-bhakti bharapUra / bhItara bhIru, bhuja-balI, chala-bala-dala syUM dUra // 1 // zAsaNa ro sevaka sughar3a, sabhya, zIla-saMgIna / zAnta svabhAvI, santa-so, suganacanda zAlIna ||2|| paga-paga rasto nApato, yAtrAvAM ro rUpa / sAtAkArI sAMtarI, giNI na chAyAM dhUpa // 3 // baMgAlI - bAbU jiso, baNyo baNAyo veza / kAlI kAMbala ikapakhI, vinayI vijJa vizeSa || 4 || napharata jhaMjhaTa-jhUTha syUM, gamyo na vAda-vivAda | AMcaliyai rI AsathA, 'campaka' AsI yAda ||5|| 162 AsIsa

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seTha bhaMvaralAla dUgar3a kI yAda meM dohA vijJa, vivekI, vaidya bo, dhIra, vIra, gaMbhIra / mAkhaNa jyUM pighalata hiyo, parakha parAI pIra // 1 // daradyAM para dila rI dayA, rogyAM ro ho raam| dukhiyAM rI 'bhaMvarU' davA, thAkyAM ro vizrAma // 2 // jANakAra jasa hAtha mai, niradhaniyAM syUM neha / giNI na AdhI-pAchalI, 'bhaMvarU' AMdhI-meha // 3 // seThAM rai ghara ro rahyo, rajavAr3I smmaan| (para) 'bhaMvarU' mai dekhyo nahiM, dara mai mAna-gumAna // 4 // sIdho-sAdo saMjamI, santa-satyAM ro dAsa / sono 'campaka' solavU, 'bhaMvarU' ro vizvAsa // 5 // phular3AM para bhaMvarA phirai, phiryA bhaMvara para phUla / vidhanA o ke be-bagata, karagI Ula-paMcUla / / 6 / / seThAM ! aba seMThA rayo, sagalA kahai smjhaay| (para) 'campaka' caturAM cita caDhyo, 'bhaMvara' na bhUlyo jAya // 7 // yAdagArAM 163

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mohanalAlajI khaTer3a (lADaNU) kI yAda meM bohA bhAI mohanalAlajI, zrAvaka kara anazana-ArAdhanA, kInho ubhaya pakSa nirmala karyo, pAyo janma pramANa / jJAna-dhyAna svAdhyAya maiM rahatA AgevANa // 2 // sughar3a sujANa / svarga - prayANa // 1 // 7 kahatA kama, suNatA ghaNI karatA jugatI jANa / thoDe meM salaTAvatA, taja mana khIMcA tANa // 3 // hamadardI hRda himmatI, suvivekI dAThIka | lalle-cappe syUM para, vara nispRha nirbhIka // 4 // kahaNaM rI muMha kahI, baNa kara be-paravAha / hi kaharI anta taka, kaho kuNa pAyo thAha // 5 // salAha levatA saikaDAM, detA hita-mita sIkha / bhArI cir3a hI jhUTha syUM, giNyo na dUra najIka || 6 || nita nirmala karaNI karI, svAbhimAna yuta neka / 'campaka' bhAI saikar3oM (para) mohana-sA koi eka // 7 // 164 AsIsa

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haNUtama lajI surANA (cUrU) ke prati dohA hAjara seTha haNUtamala, haradama zAsaNa het| saba syUM Upara samajhato, sadA suguru saMketa // 1 // saMgha-drohI syUM svapna mai, bhI nahiM milatI ruuh| gaNa-gaNi rI gamatI nahIM, campaka Uha-pacUha // 2 // 'campaka' bo jalamyo nahIM, rukaNa jhukaNa rI raat| TAlI kade na Tema para, seThANI rI bAta // 3 // Adara' ge phAdara avala, saMta-satyAM ro bhakta / 'campaka' kade na cUkato, vakta vyakta avyakta // 4 // jI-sA suNatAM jhijhakato, 'ammApiu' samANa / dRr3ha-dharmI campaka' kharo, (vo) diyA ThikANe prANa // 5 // 1. Adarza sAhitya-saMgha / yAdagArI 165

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daphtarI jayacandalAlajI kI yAda meM dohA syANo zAsaNa bhakta, hada ho hAthI himmtii| hamadardI hara vakta, duHkhadardI ko daphtarI / / 1 / / nissaMkiya nirbhIka, kAma karAvaNa kalakuzala / dhIra-dhunI dAThIka, 'campaka' tejasvI catura // 2 // 166 asIsa

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patra saMkhyA 3 bhInAsara vi0 saM0 2000 migasara sudI 11 dohA hRdaya-kamala vikasAvasI, dekhyAM tujha mukha bhAna / Ananda anupama je husI, te jANa bhagavAna // 1 // parama pUjya mahArAja rai, zrI caraNAM anurakta / sukhasAtA pUcha sukhada, bar3abaMdhava vidhiyukta // 2 // deva sumaMgala dRSTi syUM, bahuta-bahuta aannd| varatai, cAhUM Apa rI, karuNA vadanA-nanda ! // 3 // vatsalatA ciraMkAla taka, cAvai hai zrI-saMgha / pAvo jaga mai jaya-vijaya, paga-paga para rasa-raMga // 4 // bhrAta ! bATa Agamana kI, dekhU mai dina-raina / sukha-saMvAda suNyAM huvai, cita maiM 'campaka' caina // 5 // bhakti-patra ke rUpa mai, bhejUM dUhA pAMca / AMkha pAMkha 'campaka' tuMhI, tuMhi cUgo tuMhi cAMca // 6 // padyAtmaka patra 166

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patra saMkhyA 5 bambaI 2011 mAgha sudI 15 dohA bhavya ! mAtRdevo bhava, Apta vAkya anusAra / mAta-caraNa 'campaka' karai, vandana sau-sau-bAra // 1 // svastI zrI gurudeva ke, paga-paga jaya-jayakAra / jana-manahArI svAma ke, jaga-jasa aparampAra // 2 // bar3abhAgI gurudeva ke, ciMhu dizi relampela / dina dUNI nizi cauguNI, badhai saMgha rI bela // 3 // mana prasanna gurudeva ko, sundara svAsthya vizeSa / cita cintA karajyo matI, yadyapi bAsa videza / / 4 / / soraThA saba zaharAM ziramor3a, mumbaI sAgI mohmyii| sundaratA be-jor3a, nivasai loga susabhya-sA // 5 // prakRti dehI dhAra, mAno bhU-para uutrii| ita jala jalAkAra, ita pahAr3a UMcA hA // 6 // dariyo karai kilola, caDhe uchAlA khaavto| karato ghola-mathola, TolAM syUM ttkraavto||7|| 170 AsIsa

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bambaI rai anurUpa, hoyo pujya pdhaarnno| lokAM paNa dhara cUMpa, lAho sevA ro liyo // 8 // baNyA ghaNAM progrAma, dekhyAM jI-soro hvai| mAha-mocchava ro kAma, sArAM mai hada leyagyo // 6 // hI sagalI tajabIja (paNa) kamI AparI khttktii| maMjula mUrti ghaNIja, raha-raha cetai AMvatI // 10 // anubhava hI anumAna, prakhyAtI mai ke khuuN?| lArai phirai nidhAna, hoNahAra puNyavAna kai // 11 // zrI gururAja pratApa, sukhasAtA varata atth| mAjI ! ghaNIja Apa, citta-samAdhI rAkhajyo // 12 // karajyo para-upakAra, vicara-vicara gAMvAM nagara / bhagara sakhara sukhakAra, sadA svAsthya rI sAdhanA // 13 // vRddhAvasthA pekha, sevA ro lAho liyo| oruM avasara dekha, dhaNI ghaNI karasI kRpA // 14 // karo satata svAdhyAya, AM thAMrai anurUpa hai| jIvana saphala giNAya (jada) mai bhI karasyUM anukaraNa // 15 // iNa Umara rai mAha, o sAhasa, saMyama-nimala / rAkho mana utsAha, dhanya-dhanya hai Apanai / / 16 // viraha asahya avazya, (paNa) acho vIramAtA tumhe| samajho sakala rahasya, gAr3ha ghaNero rAkhajyo / / 17 / / le mhAro abhidhAna, the sukhasAtA puuchjyo| satiyAM sahu gaNavAna, saba nai soharA raakhjyo||18|| samAcAra sukhakAra, suNAM ghaNAM logAM kanai / huvai harSa aNapAra, (paNa) mhAMnai cetai raakhjyo||16|| padyAtmaka patra 171

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sakala kuzala saMvAda, thArai hI paratApa syuuN| phira-phira Avai yAda, sAda suvatsalatA maryA // 20 // mAjI! kRpA vizeSa, baNI savAI nita rhai| bAtAM se avazeSa, milyAM kahaNa rA bhAva hai // 21 // mAtR-bhakta ananya, 'campaka' cita caraNAM vasai / vo dina Ugai dhanya, jada milaNo hosI sukhada // 22 // dohA tatrasthita satiyAM bhaNI, vaMce campaka resa / sukhasAtA saba rAkhajyo, hilamila heta vizeSa // 23 // samajhadAra nai hai sadA, ghaNo izAro eka / jAjhI sevA sAjhajyo, jAgRta rAkha viveka // 24 // satyAM ! jyAdA ke likhU, so bAtAM ika baat| mAjI mana rAjI rahai, jyUM karajyo sahu sAtha / / 25 / / soraThA zramaNa ru haMsa gulAba, hIro maNI vasanta yuta / savinaya Adara-bhAva, pUcha sukhasAtA pragaTa // 26 // svIkRta karo praNAma, antara AzirvAda dyo| AvAM gaNa-gaNi kAma, campaka' mhe cita cAva syUM // 27 / / 173 AsIsa

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patra-saMkhyA 6 saradArazahara 2016 phAgaNa vadI 8 dohA svasti zrI mAtezvarI !, sukhapRcchA sAlhAda / khiNa-khiNa Avai AparI, mhAM sagalAM nai yAda // 1 // mhe sagalA sakuzala aTha, zrI gurudeva prasAda / zighra milelA Apanai, guru-darzaNa ro svAda // 2 // saphala suphala yAtrA karI, jAvAM mAjI pAsa / mhAM sagalAM rai citta mai, hai adhiko ullAsa / / 3 // car3hayo zikhara gaNa ApaNo, bhArI baDhyo vikaas| juga-juga jAvelA paDhyo, (o) yAtrA ro itihaas||4|| vijaya havai jAvai jaTha, badhai ghaNo sammAna / puNyavAna gurudeva rai, paga-paga pragaTa nidhAna / / 5 / / saMyama saphalo Aparo, varate hai shubh-yog| AhI mhArI kAmanA, rahijyo sadA niroga // 6 // sevA mai jo sAdhavyAM, sukha-pRcchA savidhAna / mAjI jyUM rAjI rahai, sagalA rAkhyA dhyAna // 7 // puNyAI dina-dina badho, mAjI! vaya rai saath| 'campaka' aba milasyA jaNAM, karasyA sArI bAta / / 8 / / padyAtmaka patra 173

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saba santA rI tarapha syUM, sukhasAtA saha harSa 1 tulasI - zAsaNa mai tapo, mAtAjI sau varSa // 6 // jasa, milApa, mohana, pithU, sampata, maNI, maheza / sAgara rUpa vasanta kI, sukha-pRcchA suvizeSa // 10 // mAjI ! gurukulavAsa o, sevA se saMyoga / bagasAvo guru mahara kara, yAtrA ro zubha yoga // 11 // mAtAjI ! mhAM para dhaNyAM, karI ghaNI dhaNiyApa / mhe sagalA sakuzala aTha, thAMrai hI paratApa // 12 // 174 AsIsa

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dohA mhe to cikamaMgalora meM the vIdAsara ThIka / dUrI 'campaka' deha para, antara ati najadIka // 1 // patra saMkhyA 30 2025 prathama ASAr3ha vadI 2 2 jUna 1966 mana meM Ave uDa milUM, pagAM huvai jo pAMkha / hai ? kyUM ? kyUM nahi miTai, jhaTa lyUM 'campaka' jhAMka || 2 || rAjarUpa jI rI rahI, raMga rajavAr3I cAla / 'campaka' jhUmara kula kalA, lADa ! lADalI - lAla ||3|| vadanA - mAM rI bahumukhI, DhalI ju chava bhAyAM rI chavi mayI ( tUM ) lADa ! dhIraja DhAla / lADalI - lAla // 4 // siMha puruSa 'campaka' catura, mAhavata mohanalAla / bIM bhAI rI baina tUM, lADa ! lADalI - lAla // 5 // koThArI karar3ai matai, nItimAna nanihAla / baida sunahalI kula - badhU ( tUM ) lADa ! lADalI lAla // 6 // saMyama lInho siMha jyU, TheTa nibhAyI Teka | 'campaka' cetai rAkhajye, raNa - rajapUtI rekha // 7 // adhikArI pada maiM akhI, sArI zAsaNa - seva / niraticAra 'campaka' nimala, alago rakha ahameva // 8 // padyAtmaka patra 175

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zAsaNa bhikSu svAma ro, miliyo moTa bhaag| tulasI-so nAyaka taruNa, 'campaka' caina cirAga // 6 // kahai 'campaka' suNa bahana ! kada, Talai AkhirI ttem| prApta karI paMDita-maraNa, kuzala-khema baNa hema // 10 // roga asAdhya zarIra mai, samatA yuta khuzahAla / 'campaka' zatamukha jana kahai, (A) lADAM karai kamAla // 11 // sahanazIlatA sajagatA, rata svAdhyAya punIta / A aMtima ArAdhanA (the) rahyA jamAro jIta // 12 // para mAjI ro bAMdhajyo, sudRr3ha dhIraja bAMdha / lAkhINI lADAM baNai, camakai 'campaka' cAMda // 13 // AjJA anuzAsana-kuzala, vara vAtsalya agAdha / sugaNI syANI sati karai, aba lADAM nai yAda // 14 // Asa-pAsa hoto agara, (to) dikhalAto do hAtha / 'campaka' sevA sAjha to, baNA anokhI bAta // 15 // aba lADAM! moko nirakha, khAMpa dikhAje khNg| 'campaka' tUM mata cUkaje, rAjapUtaNa ! raNa-raMga // 16 // 176 AsIsa

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patra saMkhyA 33 baiMgalUra 2026 bhAdavAsudI 11/12 dohA tana-bala jyUM-jyUM tanu huve, mana-bala kai majabUta / kAcI nahiM tAkai kade, sUrA siMha sapUta // 1 // rAMgaDa-raNa. mai rata rahai, rar3hiyAlo rajapUta / juga-juga rehasI jIMvatI, lADAM! sabala sapUta // 2 // sAhasa lADAM ro suNaM, to pauruSa cadai pracUra / milaNa rI mana mai ghaNI, paNa paiMDo ati dUra // 3 // padyAtmaka patra 177

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patra-saMkhyA 35 vaigalUra 23-10-1966 2026 AsojasudI 13 dohA jayavanto zAsana jabara, ati unnata itihAsa / ApAM baDabhAgI iso, pAyo parama prakAza // 1 // eka-eka syUM hI adhika, tyAgI tapasI santa / para lADAMjI leyagyA, bAjI taMto taMta // 2 / / sahanazIlatA vedanAM, donyAM vijayI baNai sahiSNutA, lADoM ro ro saMgharSa / utkarSa // 3 // gAMva-gAMva rA jAtarI, Ava darzaNa heta / mukha-mukha syUM AvAja ika, lADAM bar3I saceta // 4 // vIdAsara vAsI sughar3a, khUba nibhAvai pharja / suNa zrI cita parasana huyo, (jada) karI coraDyo arja // 5 // pasarai saMgha prabhAvanA, hai sagalAM ro kAma / 'campaka' jI soro huvai, jada suNUM pUrNa ArAma // 6 // svAsthya lAbha lADAM varo, karo saMgha rI seva / (to) 'campaka' darzaNa zIghra hI, desI zrI gurudeva // 7 // 178 AsIsa

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patra-saMkhyA 36 dohA deva guru paratApa syaM, anAnda varatai atra / zubha bhaginI bhaginI suNo, lADAM! campaka patra // 1 // sakala siddhi dAtA suguru, samarUM bArambAra / jananI ro iNa jagata mai, hai ananta upakAra // 2 // saMskArI samyaktva zubha, sudha saMyama sahayoga / Atma-sAdhanA meM atula, pAvana milyo prayoga // 3 // o bhaikSava-zAsana amala, lahaka lIlA lhr| kaho bakhANUM mai kitI, mAtAjI kI mahara // 4 // lAtA bhAI-bahana rA, ApAM karyA apAra / paNa saMyama bina jIva rI, sarI na garaja ligAra // 5 // moko abakai o milyo, sar2yA manoratha saar| samakita cArita pula saphala, tar2yA siMdhu-saMsAra // 6 // jIva vibhAvI bhAva mai, rulyo ananto kAla / sahaja Atma-darzaNa binA, sagalo Ala jaMjAla // 7 // karma-vargaNA ro karyo, saMcaya Ada anAda / ujjvalatA tapa-nirjarA, baNai svarNa nirkhAda / / 8 / / padyAtmaka patra 176.

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100 AsIsa apramatta lADAM raho, khiNa khiNa catura sujANa / varo Atma-ArogyatA, karo sva-para- kalyANa // 6 // Atma-bhAvanA mai magana, lagana eka avaloya / zarIra AtmA alaga hai, doya milyAM dukha hoya // 10 // samatAyuta svAdhyAya meM, baNo hRdaya tallIna / karo upakrama jugata syUM, baNai virUpa vilIna // 11 // Atma svarUpodaya huvai, nikharai antara-nAda / bhAvai 'campaka' bhAvanA, AtmAnanda agAdha / / 12 / / guru-darzaNa rI cAvanA, huyAM kareM haravakta 1 ( para) bhAvAM maiM bhagavAna rA, darzaNa dekheM bhakta // 13 // vIdAsara ro kSetra o, mAM-beTyAM ro joga / sthANA zrAvaka zrAvikA, nadI- nAva saMyoga // 14 // sevA meM satiyAM satata, sAvadhAna sotsAha / bhaikSava zAsaNa rI huvai, jaga maiM yUM vAha ! vAha / / 15 / / pharja sirpha puruSArtha ro, hosI hovaNa hAra / Atma-bhAvanA paraka au, 'campaka' khulA vicAra // 16 // jyU- jyUM paiMDo kATasyAM, hosyAM tyUM najadIka / 'campaka' deva guru kRpA, jo hosI so ThIka // 17 // vIdAsara rA loga mila, mAMgIlAla bhI kahaNa meM karI arja saviveka / kamI na rAkhI eka / / 18 / / samAcAra vidhi-vidhi suNyA, para darzaNa ro joga / AsI jada milaNo husI, lADAM ! baNo niroga // 16 //

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patra saMkhyA 37 nAgapura 2027 migasara kRSNAha dohA mAjI ! mhe mahArASTra mai, pAyo sukhe praveza / sarakArI sammAna syUM, svAgata vidhi suvizeSa // 1 // gaNa-gaurava garimA gahana, atizaya dhara aacaary| sAvaceta zrAvaka sughar3a, karyo kaThinatara kArya // 2 // roja rAyapura mai rahyo, rolo siitaa-raam| guMDAM re hAthAM garaka, tapagyo zahara tamAma // 3 // royA ghaNAja rovaNAM, dhekhyAM pokhaNa dhekh| kRta nahiM karaNai rA karyA, daMga rahyA saba dekha // 4 // nAca moriyo paga nirakha, nIra jharai bhara naiNa / pichatAvai pApI pacha, kaviyAM rI A kaiNa // 5 // paratakha parakhyo pArakhU, zAsaNa ro saubhAga / tulasI phaulAdI puruSa, 'campaka' caina-cirAga / / 6 / / mAjI ! thArI mahara syUM, lAgI lIlA lhr| jaya gUMja jAvAM jaThe, Ananda A pahara // 7 // saMgInA saha saMtarI, pulisa javAna sasena / aphasara phaTaphaTiyA liyAM, Age-lArai bhena // 8 // padyAtmaka patra 181

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sAgai yAtrI sAta sau, lor2yA gADyA leNa / bAvana kArAM moTarAM, volenTara ati seNa // 6 // dhara kuMcA dhara maMjalAM, doDAM donUM Tema / mana mai mAjI milaNa rI, kSaNa-kSaNa kuzalai khema // 10 // sadA samAdhI mai sukhe, rahai niruja tanuratna / 'campaka' catura cakora cita, pratipala karo prayatna // 11 // 182 AsIsa

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( iNa aThahattara dUhAM meM aThahattara saMsmaraNa AyoDA hai / ve anta meM kramavAra hindI bhASA meM dIyoDA hai / ) ApasarI mai bAMTakara, khANo sadA hAla kAma Avai saMntAM ! (bai) mAjI rA paDUM parAyI bhIr3a maiM, 'campaka' haladI - dUdharI, jada (bA) kada huvai pramAda | ghaTanA Avai yAda // 2 // kahyo na sadato, reMvato, ( mhAro ) toro caDhyo akAsa / par3I prakRti jAvai kiyAM, santAM ! soharai sAsa || 3 || khuvAra | saMskAra // 1 // socUM Aja haMsI Avai, bo bhI ho kucha TAbarapaNa / royo dAdojI Rs sAgai baikUMThI maiM baiThaNa | hapa-hapa kara citA jalI jada, paDyo eka palako so / 'campaka' camakyo cita cetanA ko anubhava halako so // 4 // mheM lar3a par3atA zAna maiM, patthara pheMka ajANa / akhI pramANa lilAr3a maiM (o) 'campaka' paDyo nisANa ||5|| pakar3a pUMchar3I uMdarar3I, mai lyAto mana-moda | Dara lADAMjI bhAjatA, bar3atA mAM kI goda // 6 // kiracA roja curAvato, luka-chipa bhara-bhara muTThI / lhApAM maiM canapaTa par3I, 'campaka' corI chUTI // 7 // maiM rANAvajI ra kunai, Dubyo jada ugI kiraNa vairAga rI, mota koThA maiM / dIsagI sAmaiM ||8|| saMsmaraNa padAvalI 185

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bI kUaM paDatAM nai rAkhyo, hAtha jhAla premAlU / abe pakar3a kAr3ho to jANUM, roja kahai o bAlU // 6 // bAlU ! hAla ke bIgaDyo, kara himmata avikhinna / mitratA ko amiTa, 'campaka' mAMDai cihna // 10 // asala bAbU aba pAsa hogyA, mAmAjI AI zarama, choDa dI bIr3I, campo apaNo-so para dukha huvai, cilacaTTai syUM chUTagI, kaho karaNiyoM ke kareM, eka rupaiye meM TalI, mAryo tIra / khAMca lakIra // 11 // jANyo lAr3AMjI arrUpajI rI ghaTI, ghaTanA ghar3agI itihAsa / iM anitya saMsAra syUM, 'campaka' bagyo udAsa || 14 || santAM ! garaja dUdha rI pAle, lADaNUM ro pANI / hara mosama maiM sAtAkArI, helyAM bar3I suhANI // iryA samiti dekha'ra cAlo, cetAvai a kAMTA / Asa-pAsa rA gAMva basAve, lADaNUM rA bhATA / / 15 / / / sIdhI paTTyAM sAMtarI, aura dUdha so santAM ! mhAro lADaNUM, landana rI 186 AsIsa jada bAr3a kheta ne khAya / 'campaka' kusaMga samera pUnU - sAgara jassU - raNajIto peharyA oDhyA deva kuMvara-sA, a baiMgANI parivAra anokho dekho ! dagaga- dagaga rasto behava hai, jANa pehalAM - pela / gela // 12 // rI - jhADyAM / dhorA tapa-Tharai, kaTa jyAvai - olA- bojhA bAraha hI pUnyUM sukhadAI, (aM) lADaNUM rI bADyAM // 17 // - hanumAna | TAbara punavAna // mana ro koDa / harisana - roDa // 18 // jada rAma caritra maMDAsI, gaNivara r3hAlAM pharamAsI / balAya / / 13 / / pANI / sahanANI // 16 // -

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campo bhI kaMTha milAsI, madharI tAna- tAna-tAna / sohana ! muni ! mata karo masakharI, saMta sujAna jAna jAna // 16 // tAra nahIM, Tema nahi, to hI cAla malakatI cAlai, daraba ghaNAM, dAtA ghaNAM, (para) antarAya agavANI / DhUMr3haNa riSi nai rAjagrahI maiM, milyo na bhojana - pANI // 21 // nahIM diye mai tela / (mhArai ) lADaNaM rI rela // 20 // karuNA-dhAma / kitI kahUM kAlU kRpA, kRta-mukha campA ! tU ulajhyo kaThai ? (o) nahIM ApaNo kAma ||22|| guru kI gurutA eka zabda maiM hI anapAra / gajaba kI, vatsalatA diyo, mhAro jahara utAra // 23 // santAM ! zAsaNa maiM sadA, sevA dharmaM zrI kAlU karuNA karI, kyo sumirana zakti acintya hai, parakhyo dhara anurAga / nikalyo nibiye IDabe, (jada) pairAM para syUM nAga // 25 // atulya / sevA - mulya ||24|| santAM ! kaThina- kaThina sevA ko avasara jada- kada Avai / saba syUM Age raha sevArthI, 'caMpaka' bhAgya sarAve // 26 // gIlI gAra divAra the, car3hagyA laDadA cyAra / r3hahaNa rA 'caMpaka' r3hacaka, a sAhamA AsAra ||27|| chaggU - bA ! A ke lyAyA, pANI lArai lahatANa / rahyA tisAyA, caDhyo tAvar3o, vAhare ! vAha ! 'dhamatANa' // 28 // pusta purANA rI pakI, mucai na minakha makAna | asthira 'caMpaka' Aja rA nuAM makAna juvAna // 26 // sakai 'caMpaka' cehakai ko cakara, saha nahi TahaNyAM to nIcai TikI, Upara jaDyA hareka / uvekha ||30|| saMsmaraNa padAvalI 187

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kazA mAra, kheMcai kuzA, o be-akala ajANa / karamA nai rosI, kuzI! prothI tajasI prANa // 31 // bar3o kumANasa sAgariyo, gorAMjI! thAro bhaaii| bAI! iMnai samajhAo to, manai huvai sukhdaaii| dekho phor3I nuI pAtarI, thADo-so cimtthaao| bhalai AdamI maiM kada AsI, akkala manai batAo // 32 // mAMDIkher3A ! tUM baDo, bahamI bhI be-DaMga / (paNa) dikhA diyo paratApajI, rajapUtI ro raMga // 33 // hAthI ke hAMkyAM karai, UThAM jyUM TicakAra / (A)jANai eka givAra bhii(the)kiyaaNclaaosrkaar||34|| chAMnai sirahANe chipA, ciTa kada syUM kyUM melii| tulasI ! 'caMpaka' cimaThiyo, baNI abUjha pahelI // 3 // vinaya mAna-sammAna meM, mai snehArda akhtt| ke ThA? bhAI baiThaNo ka nahIM, kaha calyo UTha // 36 // burA na mAneM, pUcha rahA hUM, jhijhaka hai ki, kucha ulajhana ? kavi baiThe kamare ke bhItara,(aura)bAhara kavi-sammelana // 37 // mhArai kahaNe syUM huve, kada vinIta-avinIta / (iM) majalisa ne pUcho jarA, tuma kitaneka vinIta // 38 / / kRpA gurAMrI hai jaTha, baThai madhura madhu-mAsa / saMgha guNI, caMpaka riNI, kRpA-kRpA sahavAsa / / 36 / akaladAra pehalI batA! AjJA hai ki AhAra? khAUM yA sevA karUM? sAgara ! soca vicAra / / 40 / / aNahoNI hosI nahIM, hosI jo hoNI / mana mAnI tAMNo matI, guru-dRSTi joNI // dharma-vihIna-samAja ke? Thapa samAja bin-dhrm| svara-vyaMjana-sI ekatA, caMpaka samajhyo marma // 41 / / 188 AsIsa.

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bA maTakI paTakI baThe, aTakI aTha ajes| 'caMpaka' caTakI paNa dakI, bhaTakI matI munesa // 42 // Acho socyo ApapaNa, mhAre jacI na hAla / (a) tInUM TAbara eka-sA, 'caMpaka' lAgai cAla / / kamI na rAkhI Aphto, kRpA karAyI dhApa / 'caMpaka' Agai AgalAM rA apaNA puna-pApa // 43 // karai saMgha-hita karaNiyAM, prANArpaNa prakhyAta / gama khAleNa maiM jIvaNa ! gajaba jisI ke bAta // 44 // kavitA kudarata kI kalA, sAgara ! milyo suyoga / (paNa) AindA apazabda ro, phera na karI prayoga / / 45 / / Agesara karaNI nahIM, sAgara ! isI mjaak| dhasakai syUM phATai hiyo, huve anartha hakanAka // 46 / / ghRNA na karaNI ghAva syUM, rogI syUM anurAga / sAgara ! sevA santa rI, milai purabala bhAga // 47 // sAgara ! mata kara sUmar3A, kara kATho kNjuus| diyAM nahIM khUTai daraba, mata baNa makkhIcUsa // 48 // sAgara ! soha kyUM sulabha hai durlabha sevA-dharma / o tapa 'caMpaka' gahanatama, mAnavatA ro marma // 46 // chaggU-bA gametI bAbo, Avai aaddo-aaddo| 'caMpaka' varasa corAsIAyA, tohI gur3akAvai gaaddo||50|| mAlI sIMcyo, taru phalyo, caDhyo bhagata-jana hAtha / caMpai rI A pujyatA, sadA saphedI sAtha // 51 // sivA Aparai kuNa sake, mhArA rastA roka / AjJA lichamaNa-rekha A, 'caMpaka' cor3e cauka // 52 // saMsmaraNa padAvalI 186

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aTakala-paTakala kucha nahIM, kala bAbai ro nAMva / jasa jada milaNe ro huvai, (to) 'caMpaka' lAgai dAMva / / 53 // mAMgI mAMga karI ghaNI, para nahiM mAnI eka / paDyo gurAM nai pighalaNo, rahI bhagata rI ttek|| bhagata bar3o saMsAra maiM, saba lI ika mati ThAna / bhagatAM rai lArai jhuka, dekho yUM bhagavAna / / bhagatI mai sagatI vividha-jugatI karai vinIta / rIta prIta rI dekhalyo, huI bhagata rI jIta // 54 // gaphalata syUM gotA par3e, kheda khinna ho jyAya / 'caMpaka' jo patha cUkajyA(bo)paga-paga para pichatAya // 5 // mAMgIlAla mataMga jyUM cAla, pUsarAsa rA pUta / bina matalaba hI khAMdhA tor3e, A kuNasI AkUta // 56 // gaMgApura syUM gaMgApura taka, divasa igyAraha lAgyA / pura'ra pahano milA, bhAga aTThAraha gAMvAM rA jaagyaa|| amAvasI padharAvaNo, ekama huvai vihAra / do saMvata gaMgApura pharasyA, caMpaka jaya-jayakAra / / 57 / / o kAMTo kada syUM ugyo, are ! phUTarA phUla / 'caMpaka' hokara catura kyUM, gaI vidhAtA bhUla / / 5 / / kAMTo paga ro kAr3ha de, caMpaka catura cakora / (para) mana ro kAMTo mAMyalo, kaho kuNa kAr3he kora // 56 // eka jagyAM daraDo par3e (jada) Dhigalo dUjI Thora / caMpaka dhana corI binA, bhelo huvai na bhora / / 6 / / ThIka nahIM hai ThAkarAM! bejAM o visavAsa / aMta jinAvara jAta ro, 'caMpaka' ke ikalAsa / / caMpaka ke ikalAsa, ka Acho nahiM aasNgo| binA aratha koi bagata, acAnaka badhai aDaMgo / / khataranAka khuMkhAra nai, rakhaNo ghaNo najadIka / nIpItAM rI prIta A, nahIM ThAkarAM! ThIka // 61 // 160 AsIsa

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lAgyo 'caMpaka' lobha meM, kukkara binA bicaar| kaI dinAM taka khaTakasI, o kaMgaNa kedAra // 62 // are ! bApa ro moha o, Acho nahiM hai anta / 'caMpaka' phor3A par3elA, suNale santa vasanta // mAlava rI kAcI rahI, TheTa jeTa kI jeTa / gA, galAvaDo le gayI, khelo miTiyAmeTa // 63 / / choTI-sI galatI baNa, 'campaka' bhArI bhUla / sArahINa sigareTa meM, mAno anaratha mUla // 64 // gaI akala gAvantarai, sAgariyA! kI soca / nAbhI jar3a nara-deha rI, kahade nissaMkoca // 65 // kIDyAMbhI konI kara, niHkaramA syUM neha / pakar3a TAMgar3I phaiMka dai, paralI kAnI peha // 66 // matalabasyUM 'caMpaka' mila jyANo, batA bar3I ke bAta? eka sAtha nibhAvai bIro, sadA nibhANo sAtha // 67 / / saMyama sudha-budha bisara kara, bhAjar3a bhAjI jAya / 'caMpaka' ceto bApa re, (jada) phala pramAda rA pAya // 6 // jo deNe jogo havai, uNana hI batalAvai / 'caMpaka' mAMgaNa nai bhalAM! kuNa kiNara ghara jAvai // 66 // kAlai syUM kyAMna karai ? mUrakha ! mAthA kUTa / kuo kabUtara nai disa, jhUThe nai so jhUTha / / 70 // 'caMpaka' kAma bar3helA canaNaM! jaga mai jatA na jaat| lavai abai kyUM lAgagI, kharacI thArai hAtha // 71 / / bhAI bhAI rai gharai, Avai moTai bhAga / 'caMpaka' bhagatI bhAva syUM, badhai dharma anurAga // 72 // caMpaka jaina samAja ro, gUMjai gaurava gaan| paDyo sAmane prema ro, phala cor3e caugAna // 73 / / saMsmaraNa padAvalI 191

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tAkata rAkhI kAla taka, thAMbhaNa nabha bhuj-thNbh| paDUM-paDUM caMpaka paDyo, (o) dukhe deha ro daMbha // 74 / / pakha ro 'caMpaka' pAdaro, uphaNe iyAM uphANa / (thAM) moToDArai jhor3a maiM, (A)nAnhAM ro nukasANa // 7 // tapI tapasyA tIvratama, mahAmanA mahAvIra / tapagyo 'caMpaka' tAvar3o, o mana baNyo adhIra / / 76 / / pothI sAgara ! ke paDhU, samajha liyo maiM sAra / prema bhAva rA pAdharA, 'caMpaka' akkhara cyAra // 77 // 'caMpaka' cavadasa cyAnaNI, yAda rahelA roja / sAlAsara rIsAkha syUM, jA sAgara ! kara moja // 78 / / 192 AsIsa

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bar3A vaha, jo khilAkara khAye udAratA sahaja nahIM ubharatI, jaba taka Atma-sammAna na jge| Adhipatya kI surakSA kA bodha hI dUsaroM ke duHkha meM sahayogI banAtA hai| mAtA-pitA kA saMskAra aura vyavahAra, udAra banane meM zata-pratizata kAma karatA hai| Atma-pratiSThA aura svAbhimAna jage, isalie bacce ke hara ucita kArya kI prazaMsA Avazyaka hai-ye zabda the sva0 bhAIjI mahArAja ke / bacapana se hI campUbhAI dayAlu the| unheM mAM bAra-bAra samajhAyA karatI, beTA! acche lar3ake hara cIja ko mila-bAMTa kara khAyA karate haiN| apane se kamajora ko kabhI satAyA nahIM krte| yahI kAraNa thA svargIya bhAIjI mahArAja sadA kamajoroM kI sahAyatA krte| ve jo cIja khuda khAte, bAMTa-bAMTakara khAnA pasaMda krte| ___ apane anubhava sunAte hue unhoMne batAyA-eka bAra maiM Ama khA rahA thaa| pAsa khar3A musalamAnI-molArI kA lar3akA Tugara-Tugara dekhatA rahA / usakA mana bhI Ama khAne ko lalacA rahA thA / vaha apanI mAM ke pAsa jA, rone lgaa| mAM baratana mala rahI thii| usa garIba mAM ke pAsa Ama kahAM thA? usane lar3ake ko DAMTA / jaba vaha nahIM mAnA to usane eka thappar3a jar3a diyaa| mujhase dekhA nahIM gyaa| maiM ghara meM jA, chIMke para se eka Ama utAra laayaa| usako diyaa| aba vaha khuza thaa| una dinoM hamAre marusthala-pradeza meM Ama the kahAM? ine-gine logoM taka Ama pahuMca pAte the| koI-koI raIza hI Ama kA upayoga karatA thaa| ___ mAM ke pAsa merI zikAyata phuNcii| mujhe bulAkara pUchA gyaa| mAM ne AMkha dikhaayii| maiMne bAla-sulabha saralatA se kahA-mAM ! tumane hI to kahA thA-hara cIja bAMTa-bAMTakara khAnI caahie| saMsmaraNa 165

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mAM haMsa par3I / merI pITha thapathapAte hue mAM ne kahA-- bahuta acchA kiyA beTA ! khilAkara khAne vAlA hI bar3A hotA hai / bhAjI mahArAja ne eka padya kahakara usa smRti ko tAjA kiyA - 'ApasarI meM bAMTa kara khANo sadA khuvA'ra / hAla kAma Avai santA ! (ba) mAjI rA saMskAra // ' 166 AsIsa

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2 haldI-dUdha kyA kabhI svArtha kA tyAga diye binA parArtha sadhatA hai ? usakI pIr3A apanI pIr3A hai, yaha Atma-bhAva hI to saMghIyatA hai / tyAga parAga hai / auroM kA sahayoga kara jatAo mata / prazaMsA kI bhUkha puNya - nirjarA kA nAza kara detI hai / hama-darda banate sira-darda ho to ho / kAma karane ke bAda takhtI ko dho ddaalo| kucha karake ginAne vAlA apane Apako girAne vAlA hotA hai / bhAjI mahArAja ne batAyA - bacapana meM maiM eka bAra dulechI ke dAse para calatecalate galI meM gira gyaa| mAM ne mujhe haldI DAlakara garama dUdha pilAyA / maiM ThIka ho gayA / kucha dinoM ke bAda mere sAtha eka lar3ake kI kuztI huI / maiMne use dhara paTakA / vaha cit ho gayA / usake paira meM coTa aaii| usase uThA nahIM gayA / maiM daur3A | ghara se eka gilAsa garama dUdha aura haldI lAyA / use pilA diyA / - mAM vyAkhyAna sunakara AyI / dekhA, dUdha kama hai- -kyA bAta hai ? pUchatAcha kii| maiM bolA- maiM le gyaa| mAM ne kahA- kyoM ? maiMne batAyA- - lar3akA gira gayA thA, usake coTa AI thI / dUdha-haldI pIne se vaha ThIka ho jAegA / usake ghara dUdha-haldI kahAM hai mAM ? mAM ne kahA- para tuma binA pUche kaise le gaye ? dUdha kama hone kA bahama kitanoM para jAtA ? maiM gambhIra ho gayA / galatI kA ahasAsa huaa| mujhe anabola dekha mAM ne kahAkala tumheM dUdha nahIM milegA / bAta khatama huI / dUsare dina manuhAreM karane para bhI maiMne dUdha nahIM piyA | dAdAjI ko patA claa| unhoMne mujhase kAraNa pUchA / maiMne ApabItI btaayii| zAbAsI bhI milI aura hidAyata bhI milii| dAdAjI ne apane kaTore meM se mujhe dUdha pilAyA aura kahA - 'kAma pUchakara karo, kara liyA ho to bAda meM kaha do / ' saMsmaraNa 167

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prAraMbha se hI mujhe parAye duHkha meM par3ane kI Adata thI aura Aja bhI hai / para maryAdA-vidhi kA ullaMghana hote hI yAda A jAtA hai 'paDUM parAyI bhIr3a maiM, jadakada huvai prmaad| 'campaka' haladI-dUdharI, (bA) ghaTanA Avai yaad||' 198 AsIsa

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majha meM kitanA Agraha thA ati Agraha mano-kleza kA kAraNa hai| jaba ahaM phuphakAratA hai, AdamI kartavyAkartavya bhUla jAtA hai| vyakti meM AkAMkSAbhIpsita jidda hotA hai| manovAMchita na ho taba taka caina nahIM pdd'taa| yaha hai, to sahI, para Agraha ke pIche satya kA bala caahie| satya-bala kA prayoga kisI ko anucita dabAne, vivaza karane ke lie nahIM, punacintana ke lie ho / anuzAsana satyAgraha bhI khataranAka hai| apane adhikAroM kI mAMga vyakti kI janma-siddha svataMtratA hai| para usameM vinaya-viveka aura aucitya kA khyAla avazya honA caahie| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja pharamAyA karate-bacapana meM mujhe koI olaMbhA nahIM de sakatA thaa| ghara yA bAhara koI kucha kaha detA to dAdAjI ke pAsa zikAyata jAtI aura use aisI DAMTa par3atI, vaha bhI yAda rkhtaa| __ maiM bhI kama nahIM thaa| saba kahate, dAdAjI ne ise bigAr3a diyA hai| itanA sira car3hA baccA, kyA kAma kA? para merI to vahAM saba kucha phabatI thii| chaha aura bhAiyo meM maiMne jitanI mauja kI/jidda calAI/manamAnI kI, kyA koI karegA? eka dina maiM bhojana karane baitthaa| mAtAjI ne mujhe thor3A-sA kar3A DAMTA / maiM usa dina jidda para thA 'chIMke paidA Ama de' (choMke para rakhe Ama do)| hotA yoM, bAjAra se jaba bhI sabjI-phala Ate, chAMTakara kucha Upara dhara detii| maiM caTokar3A thA, dAdAjI kA muMhalagA laaddlaa| aisI-vaisI cIja, jo sabake lie ho, maiM kyoM khAUM? chAMTakara rakhI gayI, acchI bar3hiyA cIja khaauuNgaa| mAM prAyaH to mujhe Upara rakhI cIjeM de detii| para usa dina sabhI bacce ghara para the| merI jidda pUrA karanA mAM ke lie bhI bhArI thaa| maiM jaba kisI taraha mAnA hI nahIM, to mAtAjI ne taMga Akara thappar3a mAra diyaa| basa, phira kyA thA, merA mUDa bigar3a gyaa| maiM khAnA chor3a, rotA huA bAhara calA gyaa| dAdAjI dulechI (baiThaka) meM baiThe the| saMsmaraNa 166

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unhoMne mujhe bulAyA / manAyA / kusalAyA/ samajhAyA / apane pAsa biThAkara khAnA khilAyA / Aja bhI yAda hai, dAdAjI ne usa dina mAtAjI ko kitanA kar3A ulAhanA diyA thA - zAyada jarUrata se jyAdA / kahate-kahate unhoMne yahAM taka kaha diyA'khabaradAra ! mere campUM ko AindA kucha kahane kI jarUrata nahIM hai / yaha jo kare karane do / ' mAtAjI jaisI vinIta mahilA bhI biralI hI hogI / unheM anuzAsana kA itanA khyAla thA, usa dina ke bAda mujhe kabhI kucha kahA ho, yAda nahIM par3atA / baccA samajha - anasamajha meM kauna-sA tUphAna nahIM karatA ? para mAMjI merI sabhI harakateM cAhe - anacAhe smita hAsya meM kSamya kara detI thIM / maiM Aja socatA hUM, mujhameM kitanA Agraha thA / kucha-kucha aba bhI hai / bahuta DhalA hU~, para phira bhI kahyo na sadato, reMvato ( mhAro ) toro caDhyo akAsa | par3I prakRti jAvai kiyAM ? santAM ! soharai sAMsa // ' 200 AsIsa.

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mujhe bhI usa dina eka apUrva anubhava huA janma aura mRtyu ke ina jhUlate do tAroM ke bIca laTakatI jindagI bhI eka bar3A Azcarya hai / AdamI jaba taka jItA hai, kitanoM se apanatva jor3atA hai| Age-pIche kI socatA hai| kina-kina tamannAoM ke saMgraha karatA hai| para jaba jAtA hai khAlI hAtha/anabola/asahAya / saba kucha yahIM dharA rahatA hai / apane kahe jAne vAle, dodasa dina ro lete haiN| zeSa rahatI haiM vyakti kI smRtiyAM / ve bhI kitane dina ? samaya bItatA hai, smRtiyAM ananta meM vilIna ho jAtI haiN| saca pUcho to jAne vAle ko koI nahIM rotA / rote haiM hama apane sukha ko/svArtha ko| bacapana kitanA bholA hotA hai| vaha yaha to nahIM jAnatA, kyA huA? para jaba mRtaka kI citA jalatI hai, usa lapaTa meM prakAza ke bhItara bhI kucha dikhatA hai| mere apane snehI/pyAre ko kyoM jalA diyA? vaha aba kahAM gayA? kyA sabhI yoM hI jAeMge? zrI bhAIjI mahArAja sunAyA karate the--mujhe bhI usa dina eka avyakta anubhava milaa| dAdA rAjarUpajI kA dehAnta vi0 saM0 1673 phAlguna kRSNA caturdazI ko huaa| taba taka mujhe yaha patA hI nahIM thA, mRtyu kyA hotI hai / hama dAdApotoM ke koI janma-jAta saMskAra hI aise the, mere binA unheM aura unake binA mujhe caina nahIM pdd'taa| merA khAnA-pInA/nahAnA-dhonA/sonA-uThanA saba kucha dAdAjI ke sAtha hotA / merI hara pharamAiza ve pUrI karate / karate bhI khUba cAva-ucchAva se| __dAdAjI ke takalIpha thI / maiM bhI pAsa baiThA thaa| sAMsa niklaa| eka bAra saba roye / maiM bhI royaa| aura-aura roye the kucha dUsare kAraNa se, maiM royA thA dAdAjI kI takalIpha meM sahabhAgI bnne| kucha dera ke bAda saba zAnta, maiM bhI zAMta / zAyada isalie ki kapar3A uThA diyA gayA hai, dAdAjI ko nIMda AyI hai| lambI nIMda A gayI hai, yaha mujhe kyA patA ? saMsmaraNa 201

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thor3I dera bAda eka khaMbhe se unheM bAMdha diyA gyaa| maiM royA, dAdAjI ko kholane gayA / kyA kahUM usa bholepana kI bAta? baikuMThI taiyAra huii| pUchane para batAyA gayA-dAdAjI ko isameM bitthaaeNge| khuzI huii| dAdAjI ko naye kapar3e pahanAye / maiM bhI naye kapar3e pahanane ko add'aa| badale meM eka caddara mere sira para lapeTa dI gayI, 'potiyA' kahA gayA / maiM potA thA, potiyA bAMdha liyaa| dAdAjI ko baikuMThI meM biThAyA gyaa| maiM aba isalie royA-maiM bhI dAdAjI ke sAtha baikuMThI meM bailUMgA / mujhe samajhAyA gyaa| pAsa le jAkara dikhAyA gyaa| isameM baiThane ko aura jagaha nahIM hai, apana Age-Age daMDota karate caleMge, dAdAjI rAjI hoMge, cIjeM dilaaeNge| 'socUM Aja haMsI Avai, vo bhI ho kucha ttaabrpnn| royo, dAdAjI rai sAga, baikuMThI meM baiThaNa // ' aMtataH antyeSTi yAtrA-julUsa sjhaa| Age-Age bAje baja rahe the / hama choTebar3e bahuta sAre loga, baikuMThI ke sAmane sASTAMga daMDavata karate jogIdar3e (zmazAna) taka phuNce| mana meM eka khuzI thI, dAdAjI kI baranolI nikala rahI hai| logoM ke kaMdhoM para dAdAjI car3he hue haiN| jhAlara baja rahI hai| loga pIche-'arihaMta nAma sata hai-sata bolyAM gata hai', bola rahe haiM / paise uchAle jA rahe haiN| hama zmazAna ghATa meM ruke| lakar3iyAM jaMcAyI gyiiN| usa para baikuMThI dharI aura jyoMhI Aga lagAyI ki mere hoza-havAza ur3a gye| maiM jora-jora se cillAyAare ! mere dAdAjI ko mata jalAo re ! para merA vahAM kyA basa calatA ! maiM rorokara thaka gyaa| mUthosA (sadAsukhajI vaida) ne mere sira para hAtha pherakara kahA-'campU ! lAr3I! dAdojI clgyaa| iM mare. zarIra rI to AhI gati hai' sunakara mere mana meM eka kSaNika, avyakta/ajJAta/apUrva anubhava huaa| hapar3a-hapar3a kara citA jalI jada, paDyo eka plko-so| 'campaka' camakyo citta, cetanA ko anubhava hlko-so|| 202 AsIsa

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lalATa para nizAna zArIrika aura mAnasika vikAsa ke lie khela bhI Avazyaka hote haiN| khela-khela meM baccoM ke vyAyAma ke sAtha-sAtha sahaja prANAyAma bhI sadhatA hai / dIrghazvAsa kA abhyAsa aura sama svAMsa prayoga kheloM meM anAyAsa hI ho jAtA hai / baccA giratA hai / uThatA hai / dauDatA hai / zvAsa roka kara khar3A rahatA hai / prekSA karatA hai / khela kA khela, yoga kA yoga / hamAre yuga meM pramukha svAsthyaprada khela the - kabaDDI, lukamIMcaNI, mAladar3I, gullI - daMDA, lUMNA-ghATI, ghor3IsavAra, siliyobhATo, cora-cora, dar3abar3I, ster-r3I aura bola merI macchI kittA pAnI / bhAIjI mahArAja pharamAyA karate - hamArA mohallA vizeSa anuzAsita thA / hama saba eka the / hamArA ekA gAMva bhara meM nAmI thA / hamArI dUsarI paTTI ke lar3ake tagar3e aura lar3AkU the / bIca ke tIna sAla taka maiM apane saMgaThana ( bacAr3I -pAlaTI) kA pramukha rahA / hamAre bIca hone vAle khela - vivAda ko pramukha sulaTAyA karatA / hama loga rAta ko eka mohalle se dUsare mohalle ko cIrate hue nikalate aura bolate - 'bA0 cI0 - bA0 cI 0 ' hama tumhAre bAsa ko cIra kara nikala rahe haiM, tAkata ho to roka lo / na rokane para bAsa-saMgaThana kI hAra mAnI jAtI / hamArI dUsarI paTTI ko cIrakara jAne kI kisI kI himmata nahIM thI / ko cIrakara hama A jAte aura nukkar3a para khar3e rahakara nAre hurre' 'hipi hipa hurre / ' muhallA cIrate samaya kabhI-kabhI bhir3aMta ho jAtI / pahale hAthA-pAI aura phira takarAra bar3ha jAne para patthara bhI cala par3ate / coTeM bhI lagatIM, para una dinoM ginatA kauna thA sAmAnya coTa ko / patthara lagatA, khUna nikala AtA, aura hama galI kI miTTI uThAkara use lagA dete / bArIka-bArIka miTTI ghAva bhara detI / aisI hI eka bhir3anta meM mere sira para patthara lgaa| usakA nizAna Aja bhI mere lalATa para saMsmaraNa 203 dUsarI - dUsarI paTTiyoM lagAte - 'hipi - hipi

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hamAre sAthI lar3ake ko koI dUsare mohalle vAlA pITa detA to phira usakA badalA bhI pUrA majA cakhAkara lete| hama apane saMgaThana ke lie pUre ImAnadAra aura vaphAdAra the| 'mhe lar3a-par3atA zAna maiM, patthara pheMka ajANa / akhI pramANa lilADa maiM (au) 'campaka' paDyo nizANa // 204 AsIsa

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6 merI zarArata, lADAMjI kI musIbata bacce zarAratI to hote hI haiM / vaha umara bhI vaisI hI huA karatI hai / phira lADale bacce kA to kahanA hI kyA ? zrI bhAIjI mahArAja, bacapana meM sabake muMhalage the / ataH zaitAna honA sahaja thA / dAdA rAjarUpajI ke hote unheM koI hoMTha kA phaTakArA bhI nahIM de sakatA thA | dAdAjI ke dehAnta ke bAda bhI vaha purAnA rIti-rivAja vaisA hI rahA / tUphAnI AdateM umara ke sAtha-sAtha bar3he jA rahI thiiN| eka bAra apanI zarAratoM kA vivaraNa karate hue zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne svayaM pharamAyA / bahana lADakuMvara bAI cuhiyA se bahuta DaratI thiiN| koI cUhA rasoI ghara meM dikha jAtA to vaha aise cillAkara bhAgatI mAno koI kAlA sAMpa nikala AyA ho / unakI cillAhaTa sunakara ghara ke saba loga ikTThe ho jaate| mujhe anAyAsa hI eka kautuka hAtha laga gyaa| maiM jhUTha-mUTha hI kaha diyA karatA 'bAI ! bAI ! uMdarI, uMdarI' aura bAisA ghughAkara galI meM jA bolatI / cuhiyA hamAre lie tamAzA bana gayA / maiM kaI bAra aure (koThe) meM se cuhiyA kI pUMcha pakar3akara le AtA aura phira dekho nATaka / tamAzA to hamAre hotA, lADAMjI ko to jI kI bana jaatii| ve hI jAnatIM jo unameM bItA karatI / ve Age-Age daur3atIM aura maiM pUMcha pakar3I cuhiyA liye, pIche ho jAtA / khUba chakAtA / aMta ve mAM kI zaraNa meM jA pahuMcatIM aura jaba mAMjI kI dAkala - DAMTa par3atI taba maiM mAnatA / * 'pakar3a pUMchaDI uMdarar3I, maiM lyAto mana-moda | Dara lADAMjI bhAjatA, bar3atA mAM kI goda || saMsmaraNa 20

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eka canapaTa meM corI chUTI bAlaka sahaja-svabhAvI hotA hai / usameM acche-bure saMskAra ar3osa-par3osa se Ate haiM / bacce ko bhale-bure kA pariNAmI jJAna nahIM hotA / vaha dUsare ke kahe kahe kara DAlatA hai / socane kI apanI zakti nahIM hotI / pariNAma usake samajha se bAhara hotI hai / sikhAye-sikhAye vaha burI Adata meM par3a jAtA hai aura vaha nA samajha, bure jIvana kA rAstA pakar3a letA hai / yoM to hara baccA jAnatA hai, acchA kyA hotA hai, burA kyA hotA hai ? tabhI to vaha burA kAma chupakara karatA hai / chupakara karane kA artha hai burA kAma / pApa aura kyA hotA hai ? jo corI-chipe kiyA jAe vahI to hai pApa / kisI kI sikhAvaTa, phusalAhaTa, prabhAva yA pralobhana se baccA ghara kA sAmAna curAne lagatA hai| AMkha bacAkara vaha corI karatA bhI hai aura apane Apako hoziyAra bhI mAnatA hai / usakA komala mAnasa anabhijJa hotA hai / yadi samaya rahate mAM-bAMpa saMbhAla sakeM to usakI Adata badala bhI sakatI hai, anyathA eka burAI hajAra burAI paidA karatI hai| lAparavAha abhibhAvaka isake jummedAra hote haiN| baccoM kA jIvana banAnA bhI eka kalA hai / tuccha svArtha-poSaNa ke lie apane kahalAne vAle loga baccoM ko kaise bigAr3ate haiM | apanA eka saMsmaraNa sunAte hue zrI bhAIjI mahArAja pharamAyA karate the una dinoM mere meM eka nayI Adata zurU ho rahI thI / mere eka nikaTatama sambandhI mujhe protsAhita kara rahe the / hamAre ghara meM mAtAjI kI ora se sabhI khAdya padArtha khule rahA karate the / hama bacce jaba bhI jI cAhatA, unakA svataMtra upayoga karate, kisI ko koI roka-Toka nahIM thI / hamArI zAla ke ToDiyAle meM eka bhAMDa meM supAriyAM bharI rahA karatIM / aba vaha khAlI hone lagI / maiM kabhI muTThI bhara kabhI kama - besI supAriyAM curAne lagA / 206 AsIsa

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cupake se idhara-udhara dekha, supArI le jAtA aura unheM de AtA, jinhoMne mujhe yaha saba karanA sikhAyA thA / ve zAbAsI dete aura maiM phUla jAtA / 1 kaI dinoM taka mAtAjI socatI rahIM, bhAMDa khAlI ho rahA hai, itanI supArI to kharca nahIM hotI, kyA bAta hai ? para bahama bhI kare to kisa para ? 'cora kI dAr3hI meM tinakA' - eka dina maiM pakar3A gayA / supAriyAM lekara daur3a rahA thA / mAtAjI rasoI ghara se bAhara nikliiN| maiM ghabarAyA / eka supArI kA Tukar3A merI muTThI meM se nIce girA / basa, phira kyA thA, raMge hAthoM cora pakar3A gyaa| eka canapaTa pdd'ii| hAtha pakar3akara mAM mujhe ore meM le gyiiN| maiMne saca-saca batA diyA / saba kucha sApha-sApha patA lagane ke bAda bhI mAMjI kI gaMbhIratA ne unheM (jinakA nAma cor3e huA thA) darasAyA taka nahIM / hAM, usa dina ke bAda mAMjI hama baccoM para AMkha avazya rakhane lagIM, bacce kahAM jAte haiM, kahAM baiThate haiM / basa eka canapaTa ke mUlya meM merI corI kI Adata chUTa gayI / "kiracA roja curAvato, luka-chipa bhara-bhara muTThI / lhApAM maiM canapaTa par3I 'campaka' corI chUTI // " sasmaraNa 207

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vairAgya kI pahalI kiraNa Aja jahAM ucchRkhalatA kI eka udaMDa lahara cAroM ora daur3a rahI hai, vahAM usa yuga meM bar3oM ke prati Adara-sammAna aura sahaja zraddhAbhAva thaa| una dinoM gRhapatiabhibhAvaka kA hI bahumAna / saMkoca-zarma paryApta nahIM thA, ar3osa-par3osa ke bujurgoM kA bhI roba-ravAba aura lAja-lihAja thaa| ___ apane lar3ake aura par3osI ke lar3ake meM usa samaya bheda jaisA nahIM thaa| usa apanatva bhare mAhaula meM eka Ama dhAraNA thI- baccA-baccA hai / jitane hama apane bacce ke lie jimmedAra haiM, usase kahIM adhika par3osI ke bacce kI bhI hama para jimmedArI hai| __ zrI bhAIjI mahArAja pharamAyA karate-jaba hama khelate, cAlIsa-cAlIsa, pacAsa-pacAsa bacce milakara galI meM godhama / dhUma macAyA krte| mujhe yAda hai seTha motIlAla jI baramecA jaba bhI galI kI mor3a mur3ate, khAMsate (khAMsanA unakA sahaja svabhAva thaa)| khaMkhArA sunate hI hama sabako jAne kyA ho jAtA, cir3iyoM ke jhuMDa meM patthara kI taraha hama saba bhAga-bhAgakara ar3osa-par3osa ke gharoM meM chupa jAyA krte| myAUM-myAUM ho jAte / unakA itanA Dara kyoM lagatA, patA nahIM, para unakA muhalle bhara meM sAmUhika prabhAva thaa| eka bAra hama kucha sAthI cale / jeTha kI madhya dupaharI / rANAvajI ke kueM pahuMce (vartamAna meM jo jaina vizvabhAratI meM hai) / kueM kA koThA (TAMkA) pAnI se bharA thaa| hamane kapar3e utAre / maiM nahAne koThe ke chajjoM para utarA / tairanA jAnatA nahIM thaa| kisI mitra ne kahA-isa chajje se usa chajje taka Upara kI kaMgAra (dAsA) pakar3e-pakar3e pahuMcI to jAnUM / maiM binA soce cala par3A / merA sIne taka zarIra pAnI meM thaa| donoM hAthoM se dIvAra kI kaMgAra pakar3e-pakar3e maiM cala rahA thaa| AdhI dUra gayA ki Upara se hAtha chUTa gyaa| 208 AsIsa

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merA rAma pAnI meM DubakiyAM khAne lgaa| Aja bhI usa dina kI yAda Ane hI sArA zarIra sihara uThatA hai / maiM mauta ke muMha meM thaa| sAMsa ghuTane lgii| eka bAra Upara AyA, phira pAnI meM / guTara-guTara dhuMghATa hone lgaa| sAre sAthI hakke-bakke the| dUsarI bAra phira Upara Ane kA prayatna kiyA, para viphala / tIsarI bAra jora mArakara hAtha Upara kI ora nikAle ki kisI sAthI ne hAtha thAma liyA / basa, aba kyA thA, kSaNa bhara meM pAnI se bAhara / DUbate ko tinake kA sahArA yoM hotA hai| aba nahAnA-dhonA kise sUjhe / para, Dara thA kisI ko patA laga gayA to? hama sabane kapar3e pahane aura ghara kI rAha lii| hama kueM se utare hI the ki pUnamacaMda jI golachA A gaye / hameM kATo to khUna nhiiN| unhoMne dUra se jutA nikAlA aura dhmkaayaa| 'chorAM ! kumANasAM ! kaThaiI kAlo muMDo karAo / koI DUba'ra maragyo to? cAlo ghre|' eka-do ke jUte kI par3I bhI, para kisI kI kyA majAla, jo unake sAmane cUM bhI kre| hama sabake pAMva cipaka gaye / bhaviSya meM be-vakta kueM para nahIM Ane kA vacana lekara, hameM chor3a diyaa| - rAste meM hama sabane taya kiyA, isa ghaTanA kA kisI ko patA nahIM cale / bAta hama saba pI gye| usa dina maiMne nayA janma paayaa| pAnI se itanA Dara baiTha gayA jo Aja taka bhI nahIM nikala pA rahA hai| Aja bhI jaba usa dina kI yAda karatA hUM, mana bhayabhIta ho uThatA hai| mere vairAgya kA mUla dina vaha thaa| maiMne usa rAta bahuta cintana kiyA, mujhe jIvana kI nazvaratA pAnI meM tairatI-DUbatI dikhane lgii| maiM rANAvajI re kuvai, Dubyo jada koThA mai| ugI kiraNa vairAgya rI, mauta dIsagI sAmai // " saMsmaraNa 206

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kaAM DAkane kI zarta umara kA bhI eka alaga raMga hai| bacce se kizora hote hI usakI gatividhi mor3a lene lagatI hai / vaha guNa-doSa ko itanA mahattva nahIM detA, jitanA manacAhI kara lene ko detA hai| jyoM-jyoM vaha bar3A hotA hai, usake zArIrika vikAsa ke sAtha-sAtha mAnasika aura bauddhika vikAsa bhI bar3hatA hai / khAna-pAna, rahana-sahana aura khela-kUda ke sAtha bolacAla kI bhASA meM vistAra AtA hai| ____ abhibhAvaka use thor3I-sI chUTa de deM to vaha nizcita bhAva se abhivRddhi karatA hai, chUTa ke sAtha thor3A-sA sneha pyAra bhI milatA rahe to usakI vikAsa-granthiyAM aura adhika tejI se rasa-srAva karane lagatI haiN| kuMThita vAtAvaraNa graMthi-vikAsa meM avarodha paidA karatA hai, graMthi-srAva kabhI-kabhI ruka bhI jAtA hai| usa umara meM kizora kitanA dussAhasI ho jAtA hai, eka anubhava sunAte hue zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne batAyA dAdA rAjarUpajI kA hAtha bahuta udAra thaa| raIsI rahana-sahana, lADa-bAI kA vivAha, aura Ale-dole ghara-kharca se Arthika sthiti DagamagA gii| dAdAjI ke dehAnta ke bAda unake osara ne karjadArI bar3hA dii| pitA jhUmaramala jI zaramAlU the| ijjata ke prazna ne unako cintAgrasta banA diyaa| aba kyA hogA? isI soca meM ve bImAra hae aura vi0 saM0 1976 jeTha zuklA 12 ko unhoMne prANa de die / gharakharca kI cintA, bar3A parivAra, karjadArI aura kAma-dhandhA caupaTa / bhAI mohanalAlajI akele kmaauu| __maiM una dinoM 12 varSa kA ho rahA thA / mujhe bhI ghara kI cintA satAne lgii| maiM vi0 saM0 1977 meM disAvara gayA / 'khuzAlacanda lichamaNadAsa' ke yahAM sirAjagaMja (vartamAta baMgalAdeza) meM kAma sIkhane lgaa| vaha bhI eka lagana thI, chahasAta mahInoM meM hI maiM eka dukAnadAra ke rUpa meM ubharA / prArambha se hI hisAba-kitAba 210 AsIsa

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aura kAma kA mujhe zauka thaa| __lADanaM nivAsI boraDa DAlamacandajI 'kamalapura' rahA karate the| ve dharma-dhyAna aura tattva-carcA ke rasika the| khuzadila, sajjana-svabhAvI, sAhasI, kuzala vyavasAyI aura vinodapriya / ve sirAjagaMja aaye| merI grAhaka paTAne kI kalA ne unheM AkarSita kiyaa| ve mujhe mAMga kara kamalapura le gye| DAlamacanda jI kA bar3A putra bAlacanda una dinoM kamalapura meM hI thaa| hama donoM barAbarI kI-sI umara ke the| gharelU vyavahAra meM bAlacanda aura campAlAla meM koI bheda nahIM thA kAma-kAja pUrA kara lene ke bAda hama donoM sAtha-sAtha khelte|| hama donoM eka dina khela rahe the| lagane-par3ane kA Dara thA hI nhiiN| kabhI darakhatoM para car3hate, kabhI dIvAra phAMdate / Aja na jAne hameM kyoM sUjhI, vahIM pichavAr3e eka kuAM thaa| hamane zarta lagAyI-bhAgate-bhAgate Ao aura chalAMga lagAkara kueM ko ddaako| pahala maiMne kI / maiM chalAMga mArakara kuAM DAka gayA / bAlacanda kuAM DAka rahA thA, paira sahI nahIM jamA / vaha phisala gyaa| kueM meM gira hI rahA thA ki maiMne daur3akara thAma liyaa| vaha girate-girate bacA / thor3I-sI ragar3a aayii| donoM ke muMha sapheda par3a gaye / hamane kisI ko patA nahIM lagane diyaa| bAlacanda Ajakala nayI-purAnI dhAraNA meM ulajhA huA hai| acchA samajhadAra, tattva-jJAtA, bola-thokar3oM kA mAhira aura samajhane,-samajhAne kI haTautI (abhyAsazakti) vAlA hokara bhI nahIM samajha rahA hai| maiMne kaI bAra prayatna bhI kiyA hai| mitratA ke nAte kar3A bhI kahA hai, para abhI usake gale bAta utara nahIM rahI hai| hara bAra vaha kahatA hai-munizrI ! Apane usa kueM se to hAtha pakar3akara ubAra liyA, para isa kueM se bacAnA muzkila hai| kyoMki merI dhAraNA abhI ise kuAM mAnane ko bhI taiyAra nahIM hai / aura maiM use kahatA hUM-yaha bhayaMkara kuAM hai bAlU / ananta janmamaraNa bar3hAne vAlA kuAM, aura vaha yaha kahakara TAla detA hai 'bI kueM par3atAM nai rAkhyo, hAtha jhAla premAla / aba pakar3a kAr3hau to jANUM, roja kahai au bAlU / / ' saMsmaraNa 211

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10 dostI kA cinha bacapana bacapana hI to hotA hai / usameM gambhIratA kahAM se AyegI ? anubhava chuTapana se pare kI bAta hai / bar3appana aura ziSTatA, yoM to vaMzagata saMskAroM kI dena haiM, para unakA vikAsa aura hAsa abhibhAvakoM para nirbhara karatA hai / yadi abhiniyantA bAra-bAra baccoM ko sabhyatA kI ora saMketa detA rahatA hai, to sahaja hI baccoM ke samajha meM Ane lagatA hai ki mujhe aisA vyavahAra karanA cAhie jisase maiM bhI acchA, pyArA lar3akA bana sakatA huuN| kisI bhI galatI ke bAda bacce ko bhUla kA ahasAsa karAnA bhI eka yogya zikSaka kI kalA hai / zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne eka anubhava sunAte hue isa ora iMgita kiyA kamalapura meM maiM aura bAlacanda borar3a eka dina pichavAr3e bAr3e meM khela rahe the / Aja hamameM rAjapUtI jAgI thii| donoM ke hAthoM meM bAMsa kI lambI-lambI khApaTiyAM thiiN| hama bahAdura yoddhA banakara paTTA khelane cale the| bAMsa kI khApaTiyAM hamArI banAvaTI talavAreM thI / hama uchala uchalakara eka-dUsare para vAra kara rahe the / sAmane vAle kA ghAtaka vAra bacAkara apanA kauzala dikhAte dikhAte acAnaka merI talavAra (khApaTI) asAvadhAnI se bAlacanda ke hAtha meM jA cubhI / basa, aba kyA thA khUna hI khUna / kueM para jAkara hamane pAnI se hAtha dhoyA para khUna nahIM rukaa| paTTI bAMdhI to khUna adhika camakane lagA / hama ghabarAye / doSI yoM to donoM hI the, para merI galatI bar3I thI / maiM DAlacandajI ke pAsa gayA aura saccI-saccI bAta kaha dI / ve satya ko bahuta pasaMda karate the / upAlaMbha ke badale unhoMne mujhe thapathapAyA aura kahA- koI bAta nahIM, laga gaI to laga gyii| bahAdura yoddhA kyA khUna dekhakara ghabarAte haiM / campU para Age dhyAna rakhanA, aisA khela kabhI nahIM khelanA caahie| nahIM to AMkha meM laga to ? dekha ! bAlU ke lagI koI cintA nahIM, para abhI tere laga jAtI to bhAI 212 AsIsa

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mohanalAla kA olaMbhA mujhe AtA na ? maiM zaramAyA-zaramAyA, sakuMcAyA-sA bolA 'khUna baMda nahIM ho rahA hai, aba kyA hogA?' ve bole, 'calo, abhI use bhI baMda karate haiN| ve aaye| pAnI TapakAyA para khUna nahIM rukaa| lagatA hai kisI raktavAhinI nasa para coTa lagI hai| DAlacandajI anubhavI vyakti the| unhoMne rAmU (naukara)ko AvAja dI / sarasoM kA tela maMgAyA, eka ruI kA phohA banAkara hAtha para bAMdhA / bahatA huA lohU thor3I dera meM baMda ho gyaa| aba mere jI meM jI aayaa| ghAva bharate to kaI dina lage / Aja bhI DAlacaMdajI kA bar3appana mujhe abhibhUta karatA hai| bAlacanda kI bAMha para abhI bhI vaha nizAna hai| merI dIkSA ke bAda jaba bhI vaha AtA hai, vaha apane hAtha kA nizAna dikhAyA karatA hai aura kahA karatA haiyaha hai mitratA kI amiTa nishaanii| para munizrI ! yaha nizAna to zarIra ke sAtha miTa jaaegaa| koI aisA dostI kA nizAna banAo jo sadA-sadA ke lie amiTa ho jAe / Apa to tara gaye aura maiM saMsAra meM phaMsa gayA / maiM use kahA karata-- 'bAlU ! hAla ke bIgaDyo, kara himmata avikhinn| asala mitratA ko amiTa, 'campaka' mAMDe cinha // " saMsmaraNa 213

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sudhAra kA nayA tarIkA lADanUM kI bAta hai| mAmA nemIcanda koThArI una dinoM palAsabAr3I (baMgAla) meM rahA karate the| unakI dukAna (pharma) kA nAma sukhalAla nemIcaMda par3atA thaa| ve apanI bahana (mAM vadanA jI) se milane aaye| bAlaka campAlAla se bAtacIta huii| unakA mana bhara aayaa| ve cAhate the, aise yogya lar3ake ko maiM apane pAsa rakhU / unhoMne apanA abhiprAya bahana ko jtaayaa| mAMjI ne kahA- bhAI ! muNU (mohanalAla) jANa / mAmAjI ne bhAneja mohanalAla jI ko patra diyA / svIkRti AI / koThArIjI lADanUM se bhAneja campAlAla ko palAsabAr3I le gye| palAsabAr3I kAma-dhaMdhe ke lie acchA sthAna thA / bhAIjI mahArAja kA vahAM khUba mana lgaa| khulI chUTa-khAopIo aura kAma ke samaya mana lagAkara kAma kro| vahIM eka nayI Adata zurU huii| bhAIjI mahArAja pharamAyA karate merA una dinoM bAbUgirI kA nayA daura prArambha huaa| phiTa-phATa kapar3e pahananA aura dhuAM nikAlanA / maiM nayA bAbU thA / mujhe sabhI baMgAlI, 'khokhA bAbU' kahate / khokhA vahAM choTe ko kahate haiN| maiM aba 'khokhA bAbU' jo bana gayA thA, ataH bAbUgirI ke sabhI lakSaNa Avazyaka the / maiM bIr3I pIne lgaa| para pItA thA chipechipe / kabhI-kabhI bIr3I pIkara dhuAM pheMkatA aura zIze meM dekhatA, dekheM, kaisA lagatA huuN| aba mujhe bIr3I kA rasa laga gayA thaa| mAmAjI kA Dara bhI lagatA thaa| eka dina koThe kI khir3akI meM baiThA mastI se bIr3I pI rahA thaa| koI AyegA, yaha bahama hI nahIM thaa| nizcita dhuAM pheMka rahA thaa| bAbUgirI kA ahaM dhueM ke sAtha goTe banA rahA thaa| maiM basa khIMcakara jyoMhI dhuAM pheMkane lagA ki acAnaka mAmAjI koThe meM A gye| unheM dekhate hI maiMne sulagatI bIr3I phurtI se pAMva tale dabA lI, para dhuAM kahAM dabatA ? bahuta mAvadhAnI baratI / jhaTa se, khir3akI baMda kara aMdherA karane kI nAkAma koziza kii| 214 AsIsa

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mAmAjI bar3e gambhIra the| unhoMne dekhA, anadekhA kara diyaa| mAno unheM patA hI na calA ho / mujhe pAnI kA gilAsa lAne ko kahA / maiM pAnI laayaa| ve pAnI pIkara dukAna ke kAma meM laga gaye / maiM bhI dukAna meM AyA to sahI, para dila dhar3aka rahA thaa| mana ke bhItara cora jo baiThA thaa| hara kSaNa vahI sandeha thA-mAmAjI kyA kaheMge? unakI prakRti se maiM khUba vAkipha thaa| jaba ve kahane lagate, chIMTa nahIM chor3ate / maiM mana hI mana soca rahA thA-caMpalA ! Aja khairiyata nahIM hai / jaba bhI ve bolate, mujhe ve hI svara phUTate najara aate| Aja kyA hogA? he bhagavAna ! Aja baca jAUM tolAkhoM paaye| dina bhara koI carcA nahIM clii| mere meM vizvAsa ho gayA-sacamuca mAmAjI ko patA hI nahIM claa| __sadA kI bhAMti sAyaMkAla majalisa jur3I / maiM bhI vahIM baitthaa,thaa| ar3osI-par3osI sabhI loga jamA the| bAteM cala rahI thIM-deza kI, dizAvara kI, bAjAra kI, samAja kii| aba maiM to be-phikara thaa| itane meM mAmA nemIcanda jI ne merI ora dekha cuTakI bharate hue kahA-'abai bAbU pAsa ho gayA hai|' ve Age kucha nahIM bole, kevala jamIna para eka sAMketika lakIra khiiNcii| dUsare loga to kucha nahIM samajhe, para merA ceharA phaka / kATo to khUna nahIM / maiM avAk, jaisA thA vaisA hI raha gyaa| phaTI-phaTI AMkheM / pasInA-pasInA / jAUM to jAUM kahAM? zarma se sira jhuka gyaa| Upara AkAza, nIce dharatI, bIca meM adhara jhUlatA merA mana / lagA vaha lakIra mujhe kucha kaha rahI thii| maiMne bhItara hI bhItara dRr3ha saMkalpa kiyA Aja se bIr3I piU to tyAga / maiMne bhI jamIna kuredakara eka lakIra khiiNcii| mAmAjI samajha gye| bAta kA rukha badala gyaa| dUsarI carcA chir3I aura maiM nizcinta huA / mAmAjI kI vaha yukti Aja bhI maiM socatA hUM, hama sabhI loga apanA leM to sudhAra kA eka nayA AyAma na khula jAe? basa, usa dina se sadA-sadA ke lie merI bIr3I chUTa gayI 'bAbU abe pAsa hogyA, mAmAjI mAryo tiir| AI zarama, chor3a dI bIr3I, campo khAMca lakIra // ' saMsmaraNa 215

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.. 12 tilacaTA : eka udbodhana vi0saM0 2006 kI bAta hai| hama dillI nayA bAjAra vRddhicanda jaina smRti bhavana meM baiThe the| vahAM eka tilacaTA nikala aayaa| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja AsaNa chor3a uTha khar3e hue| maiMne aisA pahale-pahala dekhaa| pAsa hI baiThe the koThArI sAgaramalajI rAkhecA (laaddnuuN)| unheM eka purAnI bacapana kI smRti yAda A gaI / ve bole- kyoM bhAIjI mahArAja, yAda hai tilacaTA ? bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-hAM, yAda hai| isI tilacaTe ne hI to lADAMjI kA cahiyA se pIchA chur3AyA thaa| hamane jaba jAnanA cAhA, yaha tilacaTA phira kyA balA hai ? bhAIjI mahArAja ne smRtiyoM ke baMDala meM se eka gaThar3I kholI vi0 saM0 1980 kI bAta hai| maiM una dinoM kalakattA meM thaa| mAmAjI hamIramalajI koThArI apane samaya ke sammAnya vyakti the| bAraha nambara pocAgalI meM nivAsa aura gaNeza bhagata kaTale meM dukAna (gaddI) thii| aba ve nivAsa sthAna kA parivartana kara klAiva sTrITa vilAyatI koThI meM cale gae the| pUjA kI bikrI sAmane thii| unheM eka AdamI kI aura apekSA thI, ataH unhoMne mujhe palAsabAr3I se kalakattA bulA liyaa| maiM kalakattA pahuMcakara bahuta khuza isalie thA-zaharI vAtAvaraNa, mauja, zauka, aura manoraMjana kA vahAM raMga hI nyArA thaa| vahAM maiMne pahale-pahala tilacaTA dekhA / deza meM tilacaTA hotA nahIM / maiM ghbraayaa| usakA AkAra hI aisA thaa| maiM cillAkara bhaagaa| bhAI sAgaramala koThArI ke hAtha eka masAlA laga gyaa| hama donoM eka hI umara ke the| mujhe chakAne kA dUsarA upAya nahIM dIkhatA to sAgara tilacaThA pakar3a lAtA aura maiM donoM hAtha Upara kara hAra mAna liyA krtaa| gaNapata mahArAja rasoI kiyA karate / merI Adata zurU se hI isa mAne meM kharAba thii| maiM rasoI meM kamiyAM nikAlatA / khAnA khAte samaya kaI nakhare krtaa| 216 AsIsa

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jaba jyAdA taMga karatA to gaNapata mahArAja sAgara ko AvAja dete aura vaha bhalA AdamI tilacaTA uThA lAtA / tilacaTA dekhate hI maiM maidAna chor3a bhAga khar3A hotaa| kaI bAra sAgara mujhe sukha se khAnA bhI nahIM khAne detaa| jyoMhI yaha AvAja detA 'campU bhAIjI ! tilacaTo' aura merA rAma thAlI pheMka daur3a pdd'taa| __ bhaya hI to AdamI ko mAratA hai| kaI bAra maiM tilacaTe ke bahama meM rAta ko nIMda meM hI dhudhA pdd'taa| mAmAjI bahuta samajhAte, para bhaya nahIM nikalA so Aja taka nahIM niklaa| vahAM maiM raha-rahakara yAda karatA bahana lADAMjI ko / jaba maiM cuhiyA pakar3akara unheM DarAtA thA taba unameM kyA bItatI hogI? jo DarAtA hai, vaha DaratA hai| jo mAratA hai, vaha maratA hai / campA ! vaha auroM ke lie bhI mata kara, jo apane ko nahIM suhAtA / jaba maiM kalakattA se deza AyA, merI cuhiyA vAlI Adata chUTa gayI thii| merI AtmA raha-rahakara kahatI 'apaNo-so para-dukha huvai, jANyo pahalAM-pela / tilacaTe syUM chUTagI, lADAMjI kI gela // ' saMsmaraNa 21

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maiMne akla sIkhI eka rupaye meM phisalana bhare zaharI vAtAvaraNa kA ullekha karate hue zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne apanA eka nijI anubhava sunaayaa| unhoMne kahA-'zaharoM meM paga-paga para patana kI khAiyAM khudI par3I haiM / aise logoM kI Aja koI kamI nahIM hai, jo apanA kahalAkara apanoM kA hI jIvana barabAda karane meM tule hue haiM / jaba bar3A bhAI hI choTe bhAI ko galata rAste le jAe, auroM se kyA AzA kI jA sakatI hai| maiM bhI eka dina phaMsa gayA thA jaMjAla meM / kalakatte kI bAta hai| __ binA kisI nAmollekha ke zrI bhAIjI mahArAja batA rahe the-maiM takAdA lekara A rahA thA / mere atyanta nikaTa ke bhAI sAhaba mila gaye / ve saba bAtoM meM pAsa the / sarvaguNa sampanna / maiM jAnatA thA unakI gatividhi / para nayA-nayA thA, lihAjana maiM unake sAtha ho gyaa| bAta-bAta meM unhoMne kahA-campA ! cala idhara se caleM / maiM saMkocavaza inakAra nahIM kara skaa| Age jAkara ve kahane lage-'Ava ! Ava, eka gAnA sunakara cleNge| yahAM gAyaka maMDalI zAnadAra hai / ' maiMne AnA-kAnI kI, para phaMsa gayA thA, nikala nahIM sakA / yaha merI apanI durbalatA thii| sAtha-sAtha maiM rAstoM se anajAna thA, karatA bhI to kyA ? hama gAyana meM baiTha ge| maiM vahAM na ruka sakatA thA, na vahAM se uTha hI sakatA thaa| mana meM bhaya thaa| mAmAjI kyA kaheMge ? dera jo ho rahI hai| vahAM ve intajAra kara rahe hoNge| mujhe taba taka yaha patA nahIM thA, yaha deha-vyApAra kendra hai / ghaMTA bhara ke bAda jaba hama uThakara calane lge| savAla AyA paisoM kA / bhAI sAhaba to bhUkhe phakIra the| unhoMne mujhe Adeza kI bhASA meM kahA-'campA ! eka rupayA de do|' hukuma karate unheM kyA jora AyA? maiMne pUchA-'rupayA kaisA?' ve tar3akakara bole-'kaisA? kaisA? gAne-bajAne kaa|' unhoMne roba gAMThA / para maiM detA kahAM se? 218 AsIsa

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rupaye to takAde ke the, pUre AnA-pAI sahita gine-ginAye / dUM to kahAM se? na dUM to khatarA thA / binA kucha bole maiMne rupayA nikAlakara de diyA / savAla to aba thA eka rupaye kA hisAba kyA dUMgA ? unhoMne rAste bhara mujhe tarakIbeM samajhAyIM / maiM gaddI (dukAna) AyA / ceharA ur3A huA thA / mana meM rupaye ghaTane kI cintA thI / use to ghaTanA hI thA / itanI hathapherI jAnatA nahIM thA / nayA nayA zikArI jo thA / takAde kI thailI rokar3iye ko pakar3A dii| rupayA ghaTA / maiMne usakI kamI ko pUrA batAne dubArA gine / thailI ko ulaTAkara jhaTakAyA / idhara-udhara dekhane kA nATaka rcaa| para rupayA thailI meM to thA nahIM jo jhaTakAne se nikala Aye / apanI anabhijJatA btaayii| jhUTha kA Azraya liyA, ginatI meM pharka raha gayA hogA ? para bhItara se AtmA raha-rahakara bola rahI thI - campA ! aba ? maiM udAsa - hatAza, khoyA-khoyA-sA, mAmAjI ke pAsa AyA / 1 mAmAjI hamIramalajI koThArI dekhate hI samajha gae, merI parezAnI / unhoMne apane pAsa biThAyA aura puuchaa| maiMne saca - saca saba kucha batA diyA / ve bar3e vijJa the / unhoMne mujhe AzvAsana diyA, 'ghabarAo mata, yaha kalakattA hai, yahAM jAne aisa kitane hI loga mileMge / baca-bacakara calanA siikho| sAvadhAna rho| kucha bhI nahIM bigar3A, eka rupaye meM hI nipaTa gyaa| yahAM to takAde kI thailI bhI chInI jAtI hai aura jAna bhI khatare meM hotI hai / jo huA, bhUla jAo / para Age saceta rahanA / kisI kI bAtoM meM mata AnA / merA mana bhItara hI bhItara kasamasA rahA thaa| rAta ko nIMda nahIM AI / maiMne dRr3ha nizcaya kiyA, eka nirNaya liyA / phira jaba kabhI bhAI sAhaba sAmane Ate dikha jAte, to maiM apanA rAstA hI badala letA / maiMne eka rupaye meM akla yoM sIkhI kaho ! karaNiyo ke karai, jada bADa kheta naiM khAya / eka rupaiye meM TalI, 'campaka' kusaMga balAya // saMsmaraNa 216

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AtmAbhimukha taba eka sAmAnya-sI ghaTanA bhI vyakti ke lie vizeSa bodhaka bana jAtI hai jaba janmAMtara ke saMskAra paripAka lekara ubharate haiM / mana badala jAtA hai / eka ghaTanAprasaMga para bhAIjI mahArAja ke sAtha bhI aisA hI huaa| saMsAra kA pratyeka padArtha unheM hilatA-sA najara Ane lgaa| isI cintana ne unheM AtmadarzI banA diyA / __ koThArI cainarUpa jI takAde gaye the| unake sAtha bAradAnevAlA jamAdAra thaa| sAmane eka guNDA milaa| par3osa se nikalate hue usane cainarUpajI ke kandhe para Takkara maarii| canarUpajI zarIra se majabUta kAThI vAle the| the bhI sAhasI, bahAdura / guMDA punaH lauTA / usane takAde ke paisoM vAlI lAla thailI chInanI cAhI / jhapaTa maarii| cainarUpa ke bagala meM dabI thailI jaba usake hAtha na lagI to usane unake dAhine kandhe para churA maaraa| sAvadhAna cainarUpajI usake vAra ko nAkAma kara gae / ve bAla-bAla bace / usane sIne para hAtha mArA / cainarUpa ne dUsare hAtha se use roka diyaa| vaha bhAga chuuttaa| bhIr3a ikaTThI ho gyii| isa hAthApAyI meM cainarUpI ke koTa kA ginnI vAlA botAma (baTana) TUTakara kahIM gira par3A / jamAdAra ne DhUMDhA vaha bhI mila gayA / ghara aaye| kisI se kucha nahIM kahA / so ge| prAtaH munnA sanAvata (guMDoM kA saradAra) aayaa| caukIdAra bahAdura siMha se bolA-bAbU kA kyA hAla hai ? ThIka-ThAka to hai caitU bAbU ? bahAdura siMha Upara AyA / saba kucha sAmAnya thA / munnA calA gyaa| __ cainarUpajI uThe, nahAe / kandhe para caramarAhaTa lagA / vizeSa dhyAna nahIM diyA, kapar3e pahanane lge| jAkeTa phaTI huI thii| koTa bhI phaTA thaa| kamIja saMbhAlA, baniyAna dekhA / aba gayA dhyAna kandhe para, chure kI noka kA jarA-sA nizAna kandhe para thaa| koThArI hamIramala jI ko patA calA / rAta kI sArI ghaTanA sunii| dupaharI 220 AsIsa

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meM munnA punaH AyA / koThArI jI ke pAMva chUkara kahane lagA- bAbAjI ! namaste / hamIramalajI bole- 'munnA ! maravA detA na tere rahate yaha hAla ?' munne ne mAphI mAMgate hue kahA - 'bAbAjI ! ApakA dinamAna sikandara thA / varanA Aja hama nImatalAghATa (kalakattA kA zmazAna) hI milte| bAbAjI ! jo kucha huA bhUla jAiye / ' vaha sAyaMkAla apane sAthI ko lekara AyA / mAphI maMgavAkara hama sabhI baccoM kI pahacAna karavAyI / bhAIjI mahArAja pharamAyA karate the / usa dina ke bAda merA mana badala gayA / jIvana kI nazvaratA kA eka bodha huA / maiM khoyA-khoyA-sA udAsa udAsa rahane lagA / merI AtmA kisI acitya ke cintana kI gaharAI meM mana hI mana kucha nayA nirNaya kara cukI thI / cainarUpajI rI ghaTI, ghaTanA ghar3agI itihAsa | iM anitya saMsAra syUM ' campaka' baNyo udAsa // saMsmaraNa 221

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lADanaM meM kAMTA-bhATA lADanUM kA mIThA aura gaharA svAsthyaprada pAnI, khulI Abo-havA, UMcAI para basI bastI, AtmamukhI dRSTi vAle loga, kula milAkara alabhya vizeSatAoM kA dhanI lADanUM nagara apane ApameM anaupamya kahA jA sakatA hai| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ko bacapana se hI apanI mAtRbhUmi para sAtvika abhimAna thaa| ve sadA lADanUM kI gauravagAthA muktakaMTha se gAyA krte| vi0 saM0 16.2 kA cAturmAsa bIdAsara sampanna kara zrI kAlUgaNIrAja lADanUM padhAra rahe the| 'khAnapura' ke pAsa kI kaMkarIlI dharatI, naMge pAMva calane vAloM ko aksara parezAna karatI hI hai| usa dina cAMdamalajI svAmI adhika parezAna hue hoNge| unakA kavi hRdaya ukatA gyaa| saradI ke dina / kaMkaroM para calanA kaThina par3a rahA thaa| idhara-udhara bAr3a ke kAMTe the| itane meM pIche se Ae campaka muni (zrI bhAIjI mhaaraaj)| cAMdamalajI svAmI aura campaka muni abhayarAjajI svAmI ke sAjha-maMDala meM sAtha-sAtha rahate the| campaka muni ko dekha cAMdamalajI svAmI bole-'campA ! yaha kyA terA lADanUM hai ? kAMToM aura kAMkaroM se paga phUTa 'lADana meM kAMTA-bhATA, sujAnagar3ha meM sI, bIdAsara meM dUdha misarI, pola-ghola pii| campaka muni se nahIM rahA gyaa| unhoMne bhI lADanUM kI prazasti meM eka padya banAyA aura jaba-jaba saMta kahate--'lADanUM meM kAMTA-bhATA' to bhAIjI mahArAja javAba meM kahate-saMto ! yaha lADanUM hai, isakI hoDa koI kara sakatA hai ? yaha ho na, auroM kA kAma cale ! isa dharatI kA kyA kahanA ! 222 AsIsa

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saMtA! garaja dUdharI pAla, lADanUM ro pANI, hara mausama maiM sAtAkArI, helyAM bar3I suhaannii|| iryA samiti dekha'ra cAlo, cetAvai maiM kAMTA, AsapAsa rA gAMva basAva, lADanUM rA bhaattaa| saMsmaraNa 223

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lADanU-laMdana 1986 lADanaM cAturmAsa meM eka bAra kavivara munizrI cAMdamala jI svAmI ke paira meM purAnI bAr3a kA kAMTA cubha gyaa| koziza kI, para vaha nahIM niklaa| usa yuga ke kAMTA-vizeSajJa cautha muni, sohana muni (cUrU) Adi kaI saMtoM ne khUba mehanata kI, para kAMTA bhuratA (TUTatA) gayA, Akhira purAnI bAr3a kA jo thaa| sabhI ne parAmarza diyA-'aba ise chor3a do, phAbe (paMje) meM beDhaba cubhA kAMTA ar3a gayA hai, khodatekhodate pAMva bIMdha gayA hai, aba yaha abhI nahIM niklegaa| cAMdamalajI svAmI kI pIr3A dekha campaka muni se nahIM rahA gyaa| ve bole, eka bAra mujhe do| ve baiThe / sabane manA kiyA, para dekhate-dekhate gaharA zUla kA sAMtA diyA ki kAMTA noka sahita eka hI sapAke meM Upara A gyaa| pAsa khar3e sohana muni (cUrU) ne kahA-'vAha re ! lADanUM kA pAnI' sunate hI vedanA-vyathA bharA cAMda muni kA kavitva jAga uThA, unhoMne kahA kAMTA bhATA kAMkarA, aura lauha kA paat| campA ! thAMrI caMderI rI, cyArUM bAtAM khyAta // bhalA, lADanUM kI halkI bAta campaka muniko kaba suhaatii| unhoMne bhI prativAdI padya banAyA aura uttara diyA sIdhI paTyAM sAMtarI, aura dUdha so pANI, santAM ! mhArolADanUM, landana rI shnaannii| sunate hI sArA vAtAvaraNa smita hAsya se mukharita ho utthaa| 224 AsIsa.

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lADanaM kI bADyAM cAMdamalajI svAmI (jayapura) eka alhar3a kavi saMta the| unakI kavitAoM kI zAnI terApaMtha ke itihAsa meM nahIM miltii| prakRti meM avazya uphAna thA, para the bar3e sarasa aura vinodI / campaka muni se ve bahudhA vinoda kiyA karate-campA ! tumhAre lAina meM kyA par3A hai ? usa dina cAMdamalajI svAmI derI se aae| zAyada usa samaya bhI paMcamI samiti ke sthAna kI duvidhA hI thii| cAturmAsa meM aura bhI saMkaDAI ho jAtI ho| lADanaM yoM hI UMcAI para basA hai| vahAM dhore-reta ke TIle nahIM ke barAbara haiN| cAMdamalajI svAmI ko sthAna sulabha nahIM huA hogaa| derI se Ane para saMtoM ne derI kA kAraNa puuchaa| ve to bhare hue Aye the| Ate hI unhoMne kahA-lADanUM meM sthAna hai kahAM jo jhaTa se A jAtA ? nahiM koI dhorA, nahIM koI olA, nahIM koI bojhA-jhADa yaaN| lADanUM meM kAma nikAlaNa, AgeM pAchai bADayAM / / yaha to sIdhA lADanUM para vyaMgya thaa| bhAIjI mahArAja ise nahIM suna sake, ve gunagunAe aura bole-'mahArAja ! lADanUM jaisA sAtAkArI kSetra hai kahAM ? Apa dekho to sahI dhorA tapai-Tharai kaTa, jyAvai, olA-bojhA-jhADyAM / bAraha hI pUnyUM sukhadAyI, (a~) lADanUM rI baaddyaaN|| aba cAMdamuni ke pAsa isakA koI jabAva nahIM thaa| saMsmaraNa 225

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18 kAdApaTTI ? nahiM, nahiM, harisana-roDa yoM to lADanaM kA bhaugolika DhAMcA hI aisA hai-vahAM pAnI rukatA nhiiN| DhalAU jamIna ke kAraNa barasAtI pAnI bahakara nikala jAtA hai, para cAlU bArisa meM jidhara se pAnI kA bahAva hotA hai vahAM kIcar3a honA svAbhAvika hai / aksara baiMgAniyoM ke rAste se gAMva ke UparI bhAga kA sArA pAnI nikalatA hai| vahAM rAstA muzkila se mile, yaha sahaja bAta hai| Aja cAMdamalajI svAmI kA udhara jAnA thaa| kIcar3a jyAdA thA / ve ukatA gae / jyoMhI ThikAne Aye, Ate hI unhoMne campaka muni se kahA--'campA! sundara helyAM raMga raMgIlyAM, aura gocarI ktttthii| (para) baiMgANyAM ro rasto ke hai ? sAgI kaadaapttttii| bhAIjI mahArAja prAraMbha se hI baigAniyoM ke mahArAja kahalAte rahe haiN| kucha janmagata saMskAra hI kheN| seTha jIvaNamalajI baiMgAnI to bhAIjI mahArAja ko dekhate hI jhUma uThate the / kabhI-kabhI to ve bhAvAveza meM campaka muni ko bAMhoM meM bharakara uThA lete / sAre baiMgAnI parivAra ke bacce bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa hI baiThate / unhIM se sIkhate-namokAra-tikkhuto, sAmAyika-pATha, paccIsa bola, crcaa| bhalA, bhAIjI mahArAja usa parivAra ke mohalle ke saMbaMdha meM aura phira lADanUM ke eka pratiSThA prApta ghara-gharAne ke lie aisI bAta kaise sunate ? unhoMne javAbI padya meM kahA 'puna-sAgara -sumera- jassU- raNajIto- hanumAna, peharyA oDhyA devakuMvara-sA, au TAbara punavAna / baiMgANI parivAra anokho, dekho! mana ro kodd| dagaga-dagaga rasto behavai hai, jANai harisana roDa / 226 AsIsa

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16 rAma-cAratra, eka rahasya, eka hetu vi0 saM0 1986 lADanUM cAturmAsa meM zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne rAmacaritra kaMThastha karanA prArambha kiyaa| ve rAmAyaNa sIkhate to the para santoM se chupe-chupe / una dinoM sohana muni (cUrU) aura campaka muni meM acchA khAsA vinoda calA krtaa| donoM maganalAlajI svAmI (dIvAna jI) ke sAjha-maMDala meM pAtrI-jor3I karane ke kAma meM niyukta the / sohana muni ko rAma-rAsa sIkhane kI bhanaka lgii| pAtrI jor3I karate-karate sohana lAla jI svAmI ne rahasyodghATana karate hue kahA-santo! suno| suno| eka nayI bAta / tumheM patA hai, campaka muni rAma-caritra kyoM sIkha rahe haiM ? unhoMne eka padya racA aura gAte hue kahane lage 'rAmAyaNa muhar3e karasyUM maiM AgevANa . vicarasyUM khAMdhe para ogho dharasyUM kara abhimAna, mAna-mAna chAMna , campaka muni rAmAyaNa sIkhe jaann-jaann-jaann'| yaha vyaMgya, campaka-muni ko acchA nahIM lgaa| na unake mana meM agragaNya vicarane kI hUMsa thI, na abhimAna kA bhAva hI thA, para usa yuga meM rAmacaritra sIkhane kA sIdhA koNa yahI mAnA jAtA rahA / santoM meM nayI carcA chir3I, kyoMki eka nayA rahasya saMtoM ke hAtha laga gayA thaa| bhAIjI mahArAja ne bhI eka uttara padya banAyA aura dUsare dina jaba sohana muni ne vahI padya phira saMta-maMDalI meM uthalA, to campaka muni bola par3e-- saMsmaraNa 227

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saMtAM ! maiM rAmAyaNa isalie sIkha rahA hUM jada rAma caritra maMDAsI, gaNivara DhAlAM phrmaasii| campo bhI kaMTha milAsI, madharI tAna, tAna, taan| sohana muni ! mata karo masakarI, saMta sujAna jAna jAna / yaha sunate hI pUrA vAtAvaraNa mukharita ho utthaa| 228 AsIsa

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lADanaM kI rela una dinoM lADanUM rela kI mukhya lAina se jur3A huA nahIM thaa| kevala sujAnagar3ha se lADanUM taka eka Tukar3A-addhA calA karatA / vaha bhI Tema-beTema / na sTezana thA, na siganala thaa| eka bAra sujAnagar3ha-laDanUM ke bIca kavivara cAMdamala jI svAmI ne rela dekhI, vaha dhIre-dhIre cala rahI thii| unhoMne campaka muni se kahA-campA ! dekha ! dekha ! TUTyA bhAMgyA tIna DabaliyA, iMjana bar3ho baila ! dekha, sisakatI cAle campA ! lADanUM rI rela / saca, vaha calatI to aise hI thI, jaisA cAMda-muni ne kahA, para lADanUM kI hara bAta sadA campaka muni ko suhAvanI hI lagatI / mAtRbhUmi kA gaurava unakI nasanasa meM ramA huA thaa| ___ bhAIjI mahArAja ne kahA-mahArAja ! ApakA kahanA to sahI hai, para yaha lADanaM kI rela hai| dekhiye ! kaisI mastI se calatI hai| mastI se calanA bhI kisIkisI ko AtA hai| jarA dRSTikoNa badalakara dekho-sisakatI nahIM, malakatI kaho mahArAja ! mlktii| sAdhana sAmagrI ke abhAva meM bhI jo saMtuSTa aura masta rahatA hai, yahI to sAdhanA kA sAra hai, dekhiye . 'tAra nahIM, Taima nahIM, nahiM diyai meM tel| to hI cAla malakatI cAla, mhArai lADanUM rI rela / hai na isa rela kI bhI vizeSatA / kyoMki yaha lADanUM kI hai, lADanUM kii| saMsmaraNa 226

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tIrthabhUmi lADanUM AcAryazrI tulasI ne apane jyeSTha bandhu svargIya bhAIjI mahArAja ko aMtima zraddhAMjali car3hAte hue kahA thA zahara lADanUM ro to bo ho sArAM sire sapUta, janma-bhUmi ro gaurava gAto de de bar3I sbuut| iNane iNa khAtara mata cher3o, zrI kAla pharamAyoH Ayo, campaka munivara cAMdajyUM, ho cAMda jyuuN|' yadA-kadA santa lADanUM ke bahAne campaka-muni se cuTakI lete aura unheM prativAda meM lADanUM kI gaurava-gAthAeM sunane ko miltiiN| kabhI-kabhI vinoda, vivAda kA rUpa le letA to zraddheya kAlagaNI jI pharamAte-campA ! terA kyA letA hai, kaha lene de ina saMto ko, tU kyoM bolatA hai ? aura bhAIjI mahArAja arja karate--gurudeva ! Apa hI pharamAyeM, lADanUM hai na vizeSa sAnI rakhane vAlA kSetra ? isakI jor3I kA hai koI dUsarA gAMva ? ___kAlUgaNI pharamAte-hAM, hAM, tere lADanUM kI hor3a kauna kara sakatA hai / lADanUM to lADanUM hai / sunate hI campaka muni kA sera khUna bar3ha jAtA aura ve kahate-dekho, santoM! pUjI mahArAja ne kyA pharamAyA-lADanUM kI barAbarI koI nahIM kara sakatA / yaha tIrtha-bhUmi hai, tIrtha-bhUmi / puNya bhUmi, siddha-bhUmi / tapobhUmi, saadhnaabhuumi| vivAda ko vinoda meM badalate hue zrImad kAlUgaNI pharamAte--saMtoM! campAlAla ko lADanUM ke lie mata cher3A kro| isake mana meM mAtR-bhUmi ke lie agAdha sneha hai| 230 AsIsa

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eka bAra oghar3a kavi cAMdamalajI svAmI ne kisI aise hI prasaMga para kaheM diyA 'dUdha-dahI to rahyo kaThe hI, mile na pUrI rottii| cATAM ke canderI rI au, helyA mottii-mottii|' aura campaka muni ne kahA, batAte haiM dravya ghaNA, dAtA ghaNA, (para) aMtarAya agavANI, DhaMDhaNa riSi ne rAjagrahI meM, milyo na bhojn-paannii||' yaha doSa rAjagrahI yA lADanUM kA nahIM, karamoM kA hai-mahArAja ! cAMdamala jI svAmI ko DhaMr3haNa muni kI upamA burI lgii| ve nArAja hue aura kaI dinoM taka anabola rhe| saMsmaraNa 26

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sAvadhAnI kA saMketa sarva sampanna osavAla samAja meM zrIsaMgha aura vilAyatI kA eka vivAda baMgAla se uThA / indra bAbU dudhor3iyA vilAyata jAkara Aye / samAja ne unheM jAti- bahiSkRta kiyaa| sabase pahalI paMcAyata vi0 saM0 1946 migasara zuklA 10 dinAMka 2-12-1886 kalakattA meM baiThI / vivAda ne tUla pkdd'aa| bhAI-bhAI baMTa gaye / kitane sagapana ttuutte| kitanI beTiyAM mAM-bApa ke sneha se vaMcita huiiN| gAMva-gAMva aura ghara-ghara meM do pakSa khar3e ho gaye / ApasI khAna-pAna, lena-dena aura beTI - vyavahAra baMda ho gayA / zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ke dAdA rAjarUpajI khaTer3a ne usI prasaMga para naukarI chor3I / ve nemacanda harakhacanda dudhor3iyA - sirAjagaMja ke karatama-dharatA munIma the / rAjarUpajI zrIsaMghI the aura mAlika dudhor3iyA jI vilAyatI jAti - bahiSkRta | vahI jhagar3A thalI meM dezI - vilAyatI ke nAma se uThA / cUrU usakA mukha - kendra banA / surANA zubhakaraNa jI (tejapAla vRddhIcaMda ) kI bArAta ajamera lor3hoM ke yahAM gayI / vahAM rAjA vijayasiMhajI ( vilAyatI ) pahuMce / eka ora cUrU ke koThArI dUsarI ora surANA, donoM hI diggaja / dezI - vilAyatI ke nAma para paracebAjI calI / kitane vivAha maMDapa ujdd'e| kitane birAdarI ke bhoja bigar3e / bar3hate-bar3hate usa vivAda ne dharma-saMgha para bhI hAtha DAlane kA asaphala prayatna kiyA / zrAvaka samAja ke do guTa dhIre-dhIre sAdhu-samAja ko bhI gherane lage / bhItara hI bhItara kucha sAdhu dezI aura kucha vilAyatI mAne jA rahe the / unakA ApasI vArtAlApa bhI ekadUsare pakSa ko hIna zreSTha kahate nahIM cUka rahA thA / yadyapi AcArya kAlUgaNI jI bahuta sajaga aura niSpakSa nIti se mAdhyastha bhAva baratate rahe / sthiti para unakI acchI najara thii| vi0 saM0 1986 pUjya pravara rAjaladesara padhAre / vyAkhyAna ke bAda 232 AsIsa

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vIMjarAjajI vaida gurudeva kI sevA meM phuNce| unhoMne bar3e vinaya se nivedana kiyAkhamA ghaNI ! kyA santoM ko bhI dezI-vilAyatI ke jhaMjhaTa meM par3anA cAhie? maiM zikAyata nahIM, saMghIyatA ke nAte dhyAna khIMcanA cAhatA huuN| amuka amuka sAdhu amuka-amuka pArTI kA pakSa le rahe haiN| kucha munijanoM ke pAsa paraspara virodhI chApe-pampaleTa bhI haiN| kahIM yaha viSa-bela kA aMkura ahita na kara de| saMta gocarI gaye hue the| muni zivarAja jI svAmI (koTavAla) ko Adeza milaa| saMto ke puDhe maMgavAye gye| nirIkSaNa huaa| bAta sahI niklii| pUjya kAlUgaNI kA raMga badalA / jyoM-jyoM saMta gocarI se Ate gaye, eka-eka kara peziyAM pdd'iiN| upAlaMbha to milanA hI thA / paimpaleTa rakhane kA prAyazcitta diyA gyaa| mukhyarUpa se muni sakatamala jI, kAnamala jI svAmI, sohanalAla jI svAmI (cUrU) Adi santa usa meM pAtra the| usI lapeTa meM zrI bhAIjI mahArAja bhI Aye / pUThe se eka chApA niklaa| sabake bAda zrI kAlUgaNI ne pharamAyA-campA ! tU kahAM ulajhA? bhAI ! yaha kAma hamArA nahIM hai / Age se sAvadhAna rahanA ! jaao| __ isa sArI ghaTanA ko zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne eka padya ke mAdhyama se hameM batAyA 'kitI kahUM kAlU kapA, kRta-mukha krunnaa-dhaam| campA ! tUM ulajhyo kaThe ?, (o) nahIM ApaNoM kaam|' saMsmaraNa 233

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eka zabda meM pAnI-pAnI guru guru hote haiN| ve apanI garimA ke dhanI hote hI haiM, sAtha-sAtha vatsalatA ke sAgara bhI hote haiN| unakI udAratA unhIM meM hotI hai| ziSya kI choTI-bar3I galatI kI ora ve nahIM dekhte| ve dekhate haiM jIvana-pariSkAra kI mauliktaa| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne apane anubhavoM ke bIca pharamAyA chApara kI bAta hai / nAhaTA revatamala jI kI mahaphila meM pUjya gurudeva kAlUgaNI kA virAjanA thaa| maMtrI-muni maganalAla jI svAmI ke sAtha maiM gocarI jAyA krtaa| unakI gocarI-kalA, dravyoM kI parakha, khapata kA anumAna, dAtA kA abhiprAya aura samayajJatA sIkhane-dhArane jaisI thI / dUsarI bAra kisI chor3e hue dravya ko lAnA una dinoM merA kAma thA / mujhe bhejA gayA / maiM cane kI dAla adhika le aayaa| le kyA AyA, dAtA ne bhAvAveza meM adhika DAla dii| kAlUgaNI ne muskarAkara pharamAyA-itanI kaise lAyA ? maiMne nivedana kiyA, lAyA nahIM gurudeva ! baharAte samaya jyAdA DAla dii| maganamuni bole-'thArai to gobara hI nhAkha deI ? hai bhabheka ? mUrakha kaThaI ko, jA lejA, ApAM rai rIta hai--'battI lyAvai bIna sUpa dennii|' upAlaMbha ke teja-svaroM meM kahI gaI bAta mujhe cubha gayI / kucha unmane bhAva se maiM dAla kI pAtrI le sAjha-maMDala meM aayaa| kisI ko binA kucha kahe dAla pIne baiTha gyaa| saMtoM ne pUchA- kyA bAta hai ? maiM kucha nahIM bolA / sohana muni cUrU, tapasvI sukhalAla jI svAmI aura muni jasakaraNa jI ne Tokate hue kahA--karate kyA ho ? koI kharAbI ho gaI to? para maiM kaba sunane vAlA thA / dAla pItA gyaa| jaba saMtoM ne pAtrI pakar3I to maiMne apanI laya meM kahA-nahIM-nahIM, kucha nahIM hogA, maganalAla jI svAmI ne bakhzAi hai| maMtrI-muni AhAra-maMDalI meM pdhaare| saMtoM ne zikAyata kii| magana muni ne 'vajra mUrkha hai' kahakara bAta TAla dii| 234 AsIsa

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kAlUgaNI ko patA calA-mujhe najadIka bulAkara vAtsalya uMDelate hue pharamAyA-campAlAla ! aisA nahIM karate, vaha tujhe akele ko thor3e hI sauMpI thii| maganalAla jI svAmI to tumhArI gaMbhIratA parakhate the| jAo, AindA dhyAna rkhnaa| basa, eka zabda meM merA jahara utara gyaa| maiMne maMtrI muni se savinaya kSamA maaNgii| 'guru kI gurutA gajaba kI, vatsalatA anapAra / eka zabda meM hI diyo, mhAro jahara utAra // ' saMsmaraNa 235

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24 jIvana kA eka saubhAgya : sevA sevA sevA hai| usameM vinimaya nahIM hotaa| tuma karo to maiM karUM, yaha to gadhA khAja hai / eka gadhA dUsare gadhe kI khAja taba taka karatA hai, jaba taka vaha kare, eka chor3atA hai dUsarA bhI chor3a detA hai / hama sevAvratI haiM / saMgha hamArA hai, hama saMgha ke haiN| saMgha kA hara sadasya apanA hai| choTA-bar3A. kAmala-bekAma, apanA-parAyA-yaha bheda saMghIyatA meM khaTatA hai| hamArA kalejA savA hAtha kA ho| vicAra udAra rahe / sevA meM na Adeza kA iMtajAra hotA hai aura na vinaya kI pratIkSA / jo kucha bhI hama kareM nirjarA ke lie kreN| prazaMsA lokaSaNA-se pare hamArA hara sevA-kArya saMghIya gaurava ke lie ho / isI kA nAma terApaMtha hai, jahAM sabake lie hama aura hamAre lie saba vi0 saM0 1986 kA maryAdA-mahotsava zrI DUMgaragar3ha meM huaa| holI bIdAsara kI pharamAyI gyii| zraddheya kAlUgaNI jI mahArAja kA sasaMgha rIDIgAMva se vihAra huaa| rIr3I aura dharmAsa ke bIca pAMca kosa kA lambA rAstA thaa| rAstA bhI registAnI dhoroM kaa| muni sampatamala (DUMgaragar3ha) naye-naye dIkSita the| umara bhI kyA thI ? kula nau varSa / pahalA-pahalA vihaar| sardI kA mausama / naye muni ThiThurA gaye / zarIra kAMpane lgaa| becAre cale bhI kaba the ? jaba unase calA nahIM gayA, ve baiTha gaye / maiM (zrI bhAIjI mahArAja) pIche se aayaa| dekhA, bAla muni parezAna haiN| pAMva Thara gaye haiN| merA kartavya-bodha mujhe kucha sahayoga karane ko kaha rahA thaa| aura maiM kyA yogya thA jo kucha kara skuu| maiMne sampata muni ko apane kaMdhe para uThAyA aura lagabhaga tIna kosa sakuzala dharmAsa phuNcaayaa| bIca meM milane vAle saMtoM ne merA sahayoga kiyaa| usa dina mere mana meM eka acintya khuzI thii| lagatA thA Aja maiMne kucha kiyA hai| 236 AsIsa

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pUjya gurudeva kAlUgaNIjI ne saba saMtoM ke bIca saMghIya bhAvanA kI zikSA dete hue mujhe ikkIsa kalyANa se puraskRta kiyaa| saMghapati sadA sevA ko protsAhana dete - samaya para saMghasevA kA aisA avasara mile yaha jIvana kA saubhAgya hotA hai| saMtoM! avasara mata cUko / utsAhapUrvaka kI gaI sevA nirjarA-mahAkalyANa kA hetu hai| saMgha kA kAma saMgha se calatA hai, saMgha se bar3A aura koI nhiiN| 'saMtAM ! zAsana meM sadA, sevAdharma atulya / zrIkAla karuNA karI, AMkyo sevA-mulya // ' saMsmaraNa 23 //

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25 sumirana acintya zakti hai bhaya AdamI ke mana kI saMjJA hI hai| use Dara lagatA hai, para Dara kucha hai to nhiiN| sAmAnyatayA koI kisI kA kucha bigAr3atA nahIM jaba taka sAmane vAlA hamase Ahata nahIM hotA / hama bhI Darate haiM aura vaha bhI DaratA hai / kaSTa sabako apriya hai / jAnavara bhI prema cAhatA hai, prema karatA hai, yadi hama use abhaya kara bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-maiM prArambha se hI niDara thA / Aja bhI AmanesAmane mujhe Dara kama hI lagatA hai / hAM, bahama se to kaI bAra rAta-rAta bhara mujhe bhI nIMda nahIM aatii| kisI bhI viSale jAnavara ko dekha lene ke bAda maiM prAyaH nahIM ddrtaa| sAMpa, bicchU aura kAMsalAva ko maiM binA jhijhaka ke kapar3e se hI pakar3a letA hUM / kSudra jaMtuoM se glAni-sI hotI hai| glAni, kevala yaha ki becArA cigadA na jAye, mara na jAye / vi0 saM0 1960 kI bAta hai| AcArya kAlUgaNIjI mahArAja IDavA pdhaare| purAne upAzraya kI cabUtarI para abhayarAja jI coraDiyA aura maiM thokar3e citAra rahe the| bAla-muniyoM kA adhyayanazIla-dala bhItara sIkhane-citAraNe meM vyasta thaa| mere pAMva pair3iyoM para laTake hue the| rAta kA samaya thA, aMdhera guppa / vaha bhI eka yuga thaa| mere paira para kucha gIlA-gIlA nikalatA-sA pratIta huaa| bhikkhU svaam| bhikkhU svAma, karatA maiM kSaNa bhara sthira rahA / jhaTakA dekara uThA ki corar3iyA jI ne puuchaa-kyoN| kyA bAta hai ? mahArAja ! maiMne kahA-koI jAnavara-sA hai| unhoMne prakAza lAkara dekhA to do-ar3hAI hAtha lambA kAlA moTA sAMpa thaa| jaba taka mere roM para se vaha pUrA nahIM nikala gayA, maiM nahIM hilA / Aja socatA hUM, gurudeva kI kRpA hI thI, maiM niDara hokara sthira raha skaa| yadi hilA hotA to zAyada vaha bhI DaratA aura chir3a jAne ke bAda mujhe kATatA bhii| 238 AsIsa

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satoM ! jaba kabhI aisA avasara Aye, svAmAjI kA smaraNa karA / vaha nAma acintyamahAmaMtra hai / sumirana zakti acintya hai, parakho dhara anurAga / nikalyo nibiyai IDaveM (jada) pairAM para syUM nAga // saMsmaraNa 236

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sevArthI kI pahacAna pUjya-pAda zraddheya kAlagaNI pharamAyA karate the-kaThina zramavAlI sevA auroM para mata DAlo / akele svayaM se vaha pAra na par3e to kisI sahayogI ko cuno,para jImata curAo, muMha mata lukAo / 'ahaM prathamaH' kA utsAha hI sevArthI kI asala pahacAna hai / __ zrIbhAI jI mahArAja ne apanA eka udAharaNa dete hue batAyA, musAliyA (mAravAr3a) kI bAta hai| bhayaMkara garamI ke dina / madhya dupaharI meM bAla-muni sampata, paMcamI samiti ke lie bAhara gye| saradAra nAharasiMha sAtha meM thaa| anajAna saMpata muni nadI meM cale to gaye / vaha garama-garama tapI huI bAlU / aba lage paira jalane / ve vApasa nahIM A sake / pairoM meM phaphole par3a ge| rone lge| saradAra nAharasiMha ne daur3a-daur3e ThikAne Akara gurudevase nivedana kiyaa| usa samaya kAlUgaNI mahArAja kI sevA meM maiM baiThA thaa| AcArya deva ne pharamAyA-campA ! sukhalAla ko bulA to| maiMne nivedana kiyA-kyoM gurudeva ? AcAryavara ne kahA-nAnakyA ne lyANoM hai re? maiMne nivedana kiyA-sukhalAla jI svAmI kyA kareMge? maiM hI le AtA hai| zrI jI ne pharamAyA-para bahuta jalate haiM, tere se pAra nahIM pdd'egaa| usI ko bulaa| maiMne gurudeva ke caraNa pakar3a liye--'yaha avasara to mujhe hI bakhzAiye, vizvAsa kIjie, ApakI dayA se saba pAra par3a jaaegaa|' gurudeva ne kaMbala sAtha lekara jAne kA Adeza phrmaayaa| guru guru hote haiM / unakI mahAnatA unhIM meM hotI hai| AcArya hara samasyA kA samAdhAna bhI jAnate haiN| yadi usa dina kaMbala lekara nahIM gayA hotA, to nadI kI reta pAra kara AnA muzkila thaa| saMpata ko uThAkara lAnA pdd'aa| usake pairoM meM chAle par3a gaye the, usake kyA mere pairoM meM bhI chAle pdd'e| ceharA lAla-lAla ho gyaa| jyoM hI saMpata ko 240 AsIsa

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lekara maiM AyA, gurudeva ne mujhe zAbAsI ke sAtha 31 kalyANaka se puraskRta kiyaa| santoM ne merI himmata sarAI / magana-muni ne dAda dI aura muni jIvarAja jI (saMpata ke saMsAra pakSIya pitA) ne kRtajJatA vyakta kii| AcArya pravara ne pharamAyA-sevA bhAvanA kA patA aise mauke para lagatA hai / 'sevA rI zokha iMro nAMva' / 'saMtAM! kaThina-kaThina sevA ko, avasara jada kada aav| saba syUM Age raha sevArthI, 'campaka' bhAgya sarAvai // ' saMsmaraNa 241

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27 vIramatI bIkAnera lAla koTharI se nikalate hI unakA pahalA makAna hai / vaise to ve jaina haiM, una para dinoM sAmpradAyika vaimanasya ke kAraNa Apasa meM khUba tanAva rahA karatA thA / vahAM bhI vahI hAla thaa| par3osI aura virodha meM rasa lene vAlA phira to kyA pUchanA ? usa ghara kI mAjIkA asala nAma kyA thA, maiM nahIM jAnatA para sAdhAraNatayA saba loga unheM 'vIramatI mAM' kahA karate the| vIramatI AbhAnagarI ke mahArAjA canda kI sautelI mAM thii| vaha bar3I kautukakarmI, jAdU-TonoM meM mAhira aura kar3aka svabhAvI thii| usake caMDa-svabhAva se sabhI kAMpate the| caMDa-caritra kI vaha vIramatI kathA-prANa thI / vahI hAla hamArI isa mAMjI kA bhI thaa| sArA parivAra kAMpe, isameM koI bar3I bAta nahIM, para pUrA mohallA mAMjI kI dhAka se dhUjatA thaa| koI bhI paricita mAMjI kI prakRti se aparicita nahIM thaa| mAMjI jaba rAjI hotI, sAta hAtha kI sor3a meM sovo, para nArAja hone ke bAda vaha chIMTa nahIM chodd'tii| para, na jAne kyoM aise logoM se bhAIjI mahArAja kI khUba paTatI thii| vi0 saM0 2002 ke jeTha kI bAta hai| una dinoM vIramatI mAMjI ke ghara kamaThA (cunAI kA kAma cala rahA thaa| pirola daravAje ke Upara mAliyA bana to gayA thA, para abhI lipAI ho rahI thii| bAharI lipAI ke lie Upara se eka khATa lttkaaii| khATa ke usa maMcAna para car3he kArIgara lipAI kara rahe the| tIna AdamI maMcI para baiThe kAma kara rahe the| Upara se eka vyakti aura utarane lgaa| saMyogavaza bhAI jI mahArAja usI samaya udhara se nikle| munizrI ne mistarI ko AvAja dete hue kahA-are bhAI ! dekhanA jarA, hameM to nikala jAne do| kahIM Upara se dIvAra na khisaka jAye? 242 AsIsa

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'golI gAra divAra the, car3hagyA lar3adA cyaar| DhahaNa rA 'campaka' Dhacaka, e sAhamA AsAra // ' nayI cunI huI gIlI dIvAra hai / tuma tIna to isa maMcI para baiThe hI ho, cauthA aura utara rahA hai| ____ unameM se eka ne bIkAnerI bolI meM kahA-'bhIto DhahyA karai hai kyA? thoM DhUMDhiyA kyA jANo' ? __ bhAI jI mahArAja zIghra gati se lAla koThar3I ke cauka meM pahuMce / adddddddd...| eka AvAja AI, maMcAna para baiThe loga cillAe / ghUmakara dekhA, eka ora kI dIvAra khisaka gayI thii| maMcAna kA eka bhAga jhuka gyaa| eka AdamI laTaka gyaa| do jana kUdakara khir3akiyoM ke rAste se bhItara pahuMca gaye / eka vyakti becArA rassI ke bala aba bhI adhabica meM jhUla rahA thaa| para coTa kisI ke nahIM aaii| sabhI bAlabAla bace / ___ AvAja sunate hI mAMjI vIramatI daur3akara bAhara aaii| cAroM AdamiyoM ko nIce bulaayaa| do-pAMca gAliyAM ddaaNttii| unheM lekara lAla koThar3I ke cauka meM AI aura bhAIjI mahArAja ke caraNasparza karavAkara bolI-roMr3arA ! thoM kyA jANIsa mahArAsA ne?' mAMjI unheM samajhA rahI thI-santoM kA pratApa thA, Aja tuma baca gaye / santoM ko anubhava hotA hai| dekhA ! bhAIjI mahArAsA kI bAta kitanI saca niklii| saMsmaraNa 243

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28 pANI lArai lahatANa zrI bhAIjI mahArAja kI 2006 kI dillI yAtrA meM hariyANA aayaa| saikar3oMsaikar3oM loga paidala yAtrA meM sAtha the| hariyANA kA agravAla samAja bhakti-pradhAna aura saMghIya bhAvanA se ota-prota hai| bhAIjI mahArAja kA apanA nirNaya thAyathAsaMbhava hara gAMva ko parasA jAe, jahAM taka ho koI kher3A bhI na chUTe / tIna rAta TauhAnA birAjakara 'launa' ke lie vihAra huaa| 2005 caitra-kRSNA trayodazI kA dina thA / vaha hariyANA kA kaccA miTTIdAra rAstA / dhUpa itanI teja nikalI ki santoM ko pyAsa laga gii| rAste meM 'dhamatANa' gAMva aayaa| jamIMdAroM kI bstii| chaggu-bA bole--maiM pAnI le AtA hUM, Apa ruko| ve pAnI kI gaveSaNA meM ge| eka jamIMdAra ke ghara garma ubalA pAnI milaa| chogAlAla jI svAmI AdhA pAnI lAe, AdhA chor3a aae| yaha santoM kI vidhi hai| hameM AvazyakatA hai para gRhastha ko bhI AvazyakatA ho sakatI hai| santoM ko dene ke bAda pAnI aura banAe, yaha pazcAt karmadoSa hai / usa garma pAnI ko ThaMDA karane hamane garaNA (kapar3A) lagAyA, pAnI Thara rahA thA ki eka bUr3hA jamIMdAra hAtha meM lAThI liye bakatA-bakatA AyA--'kahAM hai vaha susarI kA sAdhu jo abhI-abhI pAnI lAyA hai ? kahatekahate usane chaggu-bA kA hAtha pakar3A aura bolA-pAnI tU lAyA? batA! vaha pAnI kahAM hai? muMha bAMdhakara logoM ko ThagatA phiratA hai ? bahuta dekhe haiM tere jaise muMhapaTiye ThagoM ko| chaTAMka pAnI se, terA ghoMTavA gIlA hovai thA / maiM jAnatA hUM tU merI bahU para kAmaNa (jAdU-TonA) karake AyA hai ? batA-batA! vaha pAnI kahAM hai ? kahate-kahate usane lakar3I se pAnI kA pAtra ulaTA kara diyaa| vaha uchalauchalakara laTTha tAna rahA thaa| Aja maiM nahIM chodd'taa| bahuta dina hue haiM tere ko ttohte| bhAI lAjapatarAya (TuhAnA) aura dulIcaMda (bhivAnI) garma ho gaye, bUr3he se bhir3a 244 AsIsa

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pdd'e| gAMva ke saikar3oM aura sAtha ke loga bIca-bacAva kara rahe the| vaha bUr3hA vega meM thaa| aMTa-saMTa grAmINa bhASA meM gAliyAM de rahA thaa| Aja maiM dekha lUMgA, ina mor3oM ko| yaha AdhA pAnI lAyA aura AdhA kyoM chor3a AyA ? isane ToNA kiyA hai ToNA / mere meM bItI hai, maiM jAnatA huuN| maiM roU tere usa bahanoiye ko, jisane merI gRhasthI barabAda kara dii| usake hAtha-pAMva pUrA zarIra gusse meM thara-thara kAMpa rahe the| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja kamare se bAhara pdhaare| sabako zAMta kiyA aura usase pUchA-bhAI paTela ! kyA bAta hai ? pahale tumheM yaha btaauuN| hama ve DhoMgI nahIM haiN| terApaMthI sAdhu haiM / tyAgI haiM / idhara gAMva ke kucha mukhiyA aaye| eka sAdhu ke sAtha abhadra vyavahAra para sabako kheda thaa| munizrI ne kahA--pahale ise apane mana kI bAta kahane do| hAM, bhAI bAbA ! batA, kyA huA ? hama nArAja nahIM haiM ? saMta kA lAyA pAnI Dhola denA aparAdha hai, para maiM tumheM mApha karatA huuN| para tere huvA kyA, yaha to batA? vaha aba thor3A ThaMDA par3A / bolA-baiTha lene do to batAUM / bhAIjI mahArAja bAhara cabUtare para birAje / vaha bhI baiThA / logoM kA majamA suna rahA thaa| usane kahA- tere jaisA hI eka muMhapaTiyA AyA thA, do sAla phle| vaha bhI isI taraha pAnI lAyA thA jaise yaha bUr3haliyA laayaa| maiM nahIM jAnatA yahI thA ki aura koii| AdhA pAnI lAyA, AdhA pIche chor3a aayaa| usane lAe hue pAnI meM kucha pddh'aa| merI bahU para kAmaNa-TUmaNa kiyaa| maiMne na karane jitane ilAja karAe, para vaha ThIka nahIM huii| maiM paisoM se barabAda huA / vaha bhI nahIM bcii| merI AtmA rau rahI hai ! bola ! aba maiM ke karUM? vaisA hI isane bhI kiyA ? mannai batA to sahI eka cUMTa pAnI se isakA ke ghIMTavA (galA) gIlA hovai thA? bhAIjI mahArAja ne kahA-le bAbA ! aba merI bhI suna / aba to terA bahama nikalA na, taine pAnI Dhola diyaa| aba to isa pAnI para koI kucha nahIM par3ha sakegA? dekha ! hama ve kAmaNa par3hane vAle saMta nahIM haiN| tU TohAne ke lAlA raNajItasiMha caudharI ko jAnatA hai ? . bUr3hA bolA-hAM-hAM khUba, bar3A mAtavara AdamI hai caudharI, ke pUchanA uskaa| bhAI jI mahArAja ne kahA--aura bhagata mAnasiMha ko ? bUr3hA bolA- are vAha ! vo to dharmAtmA hai, mahArAja ! sAkSAt bhagata, sAMcA bhgt| tuma usatI kaise jANa de ho? ___ bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-bAbA! hama caudharI raNajItasiMha aura bhagata mAnasiMha ke guru haiM / unhIM se pUcha lenA, hama kaise haiM ? yaha dekha, ye rahA lAjapatarAya, caudharI raNajIta kA beTA hai, beTA / bUr3he ne paira pakar3a liye| mahArAja mApha karanA, maiM to terI ijjata bigAr3ane saMsmaraNa 245

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AyA thaa| para saMta, terI zAMti ne merA gussA khA liyA / mApha karie merA kasUra / cala Iba pAnI garama karavA dUM ? bUr3he ne Agraha kiyA / aura mere jaise loga soca rahe the -- ho gayA pAnI garama ? garama kyA hokara ThaMDA bhI ho gayA / lagabhaga eka ghaMTe se Upara samaya isI jhaka-jhor3a meM bItA / dhUpa teja ho gaI thI / saMtoM ko pyAsa satA rahI thI / hameM abhI 'lona' pahuMcanA thaa| logoM ne jaya bolI / vihAra huA / para chaggU - bA abhI taka kahe jA rahe the-- Asare haiM ka nIM ? o mUrakho ! mhAraiUM UM kareM, lakar3IUM DarAvai manai, orI mhUM-pANI / chaggU bA ko dekha zrI bhAIjI mahArAja haMse aura bole chaggU - bA ! A ke lyAyA, pANI lArai lahatANa / rahyA tisAyA, caDhyo tAvar3o, vAha re ! vAha ! dhamatANa // 246 AsIsa garama

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26 naye makAna aura Aja ke javAna vi0 saM0 2006 meM zrI bhAIjI mahArAja sarvaprathama dillI yAtrA ko pdhaare| hariyANA (paMjAba-pepasU) kA sparza karate hue hama nAMgaloI pahuMce / nAMgaloI dillI se koI 10 mIla idhara hai| sar3aka ke kinAre banI eka purAnI sarAya meM hama ruke / sarAya barAye-nAma hai / kisI yuga meM Ane-jAne vAle yAtrI-vAhana yahAM vizrAma karate hoNge| vahAM eka vizAla baragada (bar3a) kA purAnA per3a hai / usake nIce eka tibArI aura sAtha hI eka choTI-sI koTharI / pAsa hI eka kuaaN| hama usI sarAya meM tthhre| sahavartI yAtrI bhI vahIM the| AkAza bAdaloM se ghirA thaa| sAyaMkAla sthAnAbhAva dekha yAtrI loga Age dillI cale ge| hameM to vahIM rahanA thA / hamAre pAsa ratana kahAra (dillI) aura pUsArAma sevaga (rAjaladesara)-do vyakti rahe / koI ghaMTA bhara dina rahA hogA, bArisa prAraMbha huii| acAnaka tIvra vega se tUphAna (bAtUla) AyA / eka sAtha bijalI kar3akI aura jora-se eka dhamAkA huaa| hama saba jisa koTharI meM baiThe the, usI kI chata para bar3a kI eka vizAla zAkhA TUTakara girii| pUrA makAna hila uThA, mAno koI bhUkampa AyA ho| dhamAke ke sAtha hI koTharI kI chata aura dIvAra meM eka moTI tarer3a-darAra A gyii| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja donoM konoM meM aMguliyAM dabAe, AMkheM mUMde-'bhikkhU svAma, bhikkhU svAma' 'zAMtinAtha prabho, zAMtinAtha prabho' raTe jA rahe the| munizrI ko kar3akane aura garjane kA atizaya bhaya lagatA thA / jyoM hI makAna phaTA ki AMkheM khulIM / hama sabhI saMta bhayabhIta the| bAhara nikalane kA rAstA TUTI zAkhA ne roka liyA thaa| ratana aura pUsArAma tibArI meM se cillA-cillAkara kaha rahe the-kyA huA? mahArAja ! kyA huA? zrI bhAI jI mahArAja ne pharamAyA kucha nahIM huA, Daro mata, jo honA thA ho gyaa| aba koI bhaya nahIM hai / jo makAna purAnA hai, usakI nIMva saMsmaraNa 247

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majabUta hai / giratA to aba taka gira gayA hotaa| yahI to hAla hai, purAne makAnoM aura purAne AdamiyoM kI nIMveM majabUta hotI haiN| Aja kA nayA makAna itane meM kaba kA gira gayA hotA / na to Aja ke makAnoM kI gaharI sthiti hai aura na Aja ke javAnoM kii| thor3I hI dera meM vaha cahakA (tuphAna) nikala gyaa| bAriza banda huii| hama bar3I kaThinatA se bAhara nikale / dekhA, cAroM ora vRkSoM ke Dhera ho gae haiN| hamAre Upara jo bar3a kI zAkhA girI thI, vaha koI bAtha meM bhare itanI moTI aura kama-sekama 40-45 phITa laMbI thii| chata para car3hakara jaba dekhA abhI vaha koTharI kI chata para adhara jhUla rahI thii| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-Aja kA hamArA sahI-salAmata rahanA svAmIjI kA pratApa hai, AcAryapravara kI kRpA kA phala hai, saMgha kA prabhAva hai aura baDeroM kI puNyAI hai| bhalA, itanA bojhA girane ke bAda bhI makAna khar3A rahe, bar3A AjubA aura anokhI bAta hai| purAnI sabhI cIjoM kI pusteM majabUta hotI haiMkahate-kahate munizrI ne eka padya kahA 'pusta purAMNA rI pakI, mucai na minakha mkaan| asthira 'campaka' AjarA (ai) nuvAM makAna javAna / ' 248 AsIsa

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30 cahake kA cakkara prAtaHkAla jyoM hI hama dillI kI ora bar3he, dekhA sar3aka avaruddha hai| saikar3oM-saikar3oM vRkSa isa taraha chinna-bhinna hue par3e haiM mAno koI pralaya kA jhoMkA AyA ho| pAMca mIla taka kA rAstA vRkSoM kI TUTI DAliyoM ne roka rakhA hai| jidhara dekho udhara vRkSoM kA behAla hai| kaI-kaI vRkSa to ekadama ulaTe ho gaye haiM, jar3eM Upara haiM aura TahaniyAM niice| rAta bhara se dillI rohataka roDa Thappa hai| na koI kAra A-jA sakatI hai aura na koI Traka / sunasAna vIrAna-sI sar3aka para hama kabhI car3hate haiM, kabhI utarate eka pIpala ke per3a ko ulaTA par3A dekha zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAMva barabasa thama gye| cintana kI mudrA meM kucha kSaNa rukakara munizrI ne pharamAyA jaba cahakA AtA hai aisA hI hotA hai| kauna uthala jAe, kauna khar3A rahe, yaha nirNaya karanA kaThina hai| usI kA khar3A rahanA, khar3A rahanA hai, jo tUphAnI jhoMke meM aDiga rahatA hai| kitane aise AdamI haiM jo jhole meM na Dole / bhAI ! yaha to cakkara hI aisA hai-dekho ! itanA bar3A devavRkSa, jisameM koI kAMTA nahIM, bAMka nahIM, burAI nahIM, kar3avAhaTa nahIM, zAMta, komala, suhAvanA, sarvapriya aura itanA vistRta / koI cAhe kitanA bhI bar3A ho, kitanA bhI vistRta ho, vidvAna ho, kitanA hI lokapriya ho, jisane jar3eM chor3a do, vaha uthala jaaegaa| saMgha dharatI hai| saMgha meM jo jitanA gaharA aura majabUtI se gar3A huA hai| vahI khar3A rhegaa| vAtAvaraNa ke cahake meM jisake pAMva ukhar3a gae, vaha gayA smjho| bAtUla kA sahanA koI ke vaza kI bAta nahIM hai jo ukhar3a jAtA hai, usakI yahI gati hotI hai| 'campaka cahakai ro cakara, saha nahi sake hareka / - TahaNyAM to nIce TikI Upara jaDyAM uvekha // ' saMsmaraNa 246

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marakha kocavAna bhAIjI mahArAja kA 2006 kA varSAvAsa purAnI dillI nayA bAjAra meM thaa| usa varSa AcAryapravara jayapura virAja rahe the / munizrI kA yaha AcAryapravara se alaga dUsarA cAturmAsa thaa| eka dina sAyaMkAla tIsa hajArI pula utarakara hama ajItagar3ha jAne vAle rAjapura mArga kI mor3a para mudd'e| eka tAMgevAlA hamAre pAsa-pAsa nikala rahA thaa| hama dekha rahe the usakA ghor3A bAra-bAra rukatA thaa| kocavAna cAbuka mAramArakara use Age bar3hane ko bAdhya kie jA rahA thaa| bhAIjI mahArAja ne eka bAra, do bAra, tIna bAra dekhA / ghor3A hamase ATha-dasa kadama Age nikalatA hai phira ruka jAtA hai / usakA yoM bAra-bAra mArga meM Ar3e A-Akara rukanA munizrI ko sarvathA asuhAvanA laga rahA thaa| bhAIjI mahArAja ke cehare para karuNArdratA ke bhAva jhalaka utthe| jyoM hI cauthI bAra ghor3A rukA, kocavAna ne cAbuka sar3akAyA ki ghor3e ne dulattI calAI / 'par3Aka' tAMgA bolaa| bhAIjI mahArAja se na rahA gyaa| mAthA Thokate hue munizrI ne kahA-Daphola ! mere sira para hI Akara royegA kyA? phira royegA to pahale hI soca le| maiMne pUchA-'kyoM? bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-kyoM kyA? 'kazA mAra, kheMce kuzA, o be-akala ajaann| karamA nai rosI kuzI! prothI tajasI prANa // ' lagatA hai, ghor3e kA pizAba ruka gayA hai| yaha bAra-bAra pizAba karane kI ceSTA karatA hai| kocavAna anabhijJa hai| pahacAnatA nhiiN| ghor3A hAMpha gayA hai| saMbhava hai yaha mUrakha kocavAna ghor3e se hAtha dho baiThegA, phira roegA karma para hAtha 250 AsIsa

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dhara kara / koI dasa hI kadama Age carca kI nukkar3a para haTAt ghor3A gira pdd'aa| logoM kI bhIr3a jamA ho gayI / jaba hama zauca nivRtti kara punaH lauTe to dekhA, haTTA-kaTTA majabUta javAna ghor3A marA par3A hai aura eka ora tAMge ke pAsa khar3A kocavAna ro rahA hai| saMsmaraNa 251

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maiM 'zramaNa-sAgara' jaisA Aja dikhatA hUM, pahale nahIM thA / prakRti meM UphAna itanA thA -kSaNa-bhara meM Ape se bAhara / mujhe sudhArane meM bhAIjI mahArAja ko bar3I khevaTa khAnI pdd'ii| ve, ve hI the, jinhoMne merA ucita, anucita saba kucha sahA / maiM mahInoMmahInoM bhAIjI mahArAja se anabola raha jaataa| hAM, guNa mere meM eka thA maiMne kabhI apanA sthAna nahIM chodd'aa| unakI prakRti bhI bar3I kar3I thI / yoM svabhAva sarala aura snehArdra bhI hada se pAra thA, para kar3AI jaba karate, vahAM bhI behada / 32 yaha kaisA hai, batAUM ? , / dillI kI bAta hai / eka dina merA mUDa bigar3A huA thA / paTaka-jhaTaka usa samaya sahaja thI / jAna-bUjhakara nahIM kintu asAvadhAnI se sapheda - pAtrI sUkhI karate hAtha se girI aura TUTa gayI / koI lohe kA bartana to thA nahIM thI to Akhira lakar3I kI pAtrI hI / aba hoza AyA / bhAIjI mahArAja ne dekha to liyA para kucha nahIM bole / maiM gayA aura asAvadhAnIvaza hue pramAda kI mAphI mAMgane lagA / unakI udAratA bhI unhIM meM thI / muskarAkara pharamAne lage - kumANasa ! aba to huA gussA ThaMDA ? 'patalI pAr3a patalI', aba tU baccA nahIM hai, syANA ho gayA hai / tor3anA thA to pAtrI kyA, isa ahaM ko tor3atA na ? itane meM A gaI sAdhvI gaurAMjI / unhoMne Ate hI kahA, bhAIjI mahArAja ! sAgaramalajI svAmI Apake bar3e vinItasAtAkArI saMta haiM / inheM dekhatI hUM to merA jI sorA ho jAtA hai / ye mujhe apane choTe bhAI-se lagate haiM / sunate hI bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA- hAM-hAM, tumheM to aisA hI lagatA hai, para mujhe lage taba na / yaha akkala kA sAgara kaisA hai, batAUM ? 'bar3o kumANasa sAgariyo, gaurAMjI ! thAro bhAI, bAI ! I naM samajhAo to, manai huvai sukhadAI 252 AsIsa

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dekho, phor3I nuI pAtarI, thor3o so cimaThAo bhale AdamI maiM kada AsI, akkala manai batAo?' sAdhvI gaurAMjI ne merI ora se naramAI karate hue kahA-bhAIjI mahArAja ! ye TAbara hai, TAbara to galatI kiyA hI karate haiM / Apa mahAna haiM, kRpA kara yaha pAtrI mujhe diraavo| maiM sAMdha laauuNgii| __sAdhvI gaurAMjI kI vinamratA aura mere prati sahAnubhUti tathA zrI bhAIjI mahArAja kI vatsalatA aura udAratA mujhe abhibhUta kara gyii| usa dina se mere meM eka parivartana prArambha huaa| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja usI dina se mujhe gaurAMjI kA bhAI aura sAdhvI gaurAMjI ko merI bahana pharamAne lge| saMsmaraNa 253.

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33 rajapUtI kA raMga vi0 saM0 2006 kA dillI cAturmAsa sampanna kara bhAIjI mahArAja jayapura padhAra rahe the| migasara kRSNA 6 ko hama pandraha mIla kA vihAra kara mAMDIkher3A phuNce| mAMDIkher3A sar3aka ke eka ora 50-60 gharoM kI bastI hai, cAroM ora jaMgala, sunasAna / hama gAMva ke bAhara choTe-se skUla meM ruke / rAta ko koI 6 baje hoMge / gAMva ke 8-10 mukhiyA Aye aura bole- munizrI Apake sAtha bahaneM-bacce haiN| yaha sthAna jarA aisA hI hai| corI-DakaitI kA bhaya rahatA hai / pIche bhI do-tIna bAra gAMva lUTA gayA hai, ataH nivedana hai-mahilAoM ko gAMva meM bheja deM, hamArI jimmedArI hai, ThIka rhegaa| unheM yaha kahakara samajhA diyA gayA hameM kyA Dara hai, kauna-sI jokhima hai hamAre pAsa ? ThIka hai, hama sAvadhAna rheNge| sunate hI bahaneM to ghabarA gyiiN| para bhAIjI mahArAja ko gAMva meM bahanoM kA jAnA nahIM jNcaa| kamare meM bahanoM kI apanI vyavasthA thii| bhAIjI mahArAja ne bAhara barAmade meM apanA bistara lgvaayaa| sardI to thI para maiM aura bhAIjI mahArAja bAhara meM soye / saMtoM ne dUsarI koTharI meM bistara jamAye / zeSa loga dUsare kamare meM the, para ThAkura pratApasiMhajI ne apanA bistara bAhara lagAyA aura bandUka sirahAne rakhakara so gye| rAta ko eka baje / acAnaka bandUka kA bhar3AkA huaa| eka ke bAda dUsarA, tiisraa| gAMva meM ho-hallA maca gyaa| 'DAkU-DAkU' AvAjeM suna hama sabho sAvadhAna ho gaye / loga bhAge A rahe the| sar3aka hamase koI 2-3 phAga dUra hai / vahAM kucha jalatA-sA dIkha rahA hai / bhar3Ake para bhar3Ake ho rahe haiM / pratApajI bandUka tAne rAste para khar3e haiN| ve kaha rahe haiM-Daro mata, ArAma se apane-apane gharoM meM jAkara soo| yaha rAjapUta jaba taka jindA hai aura isake hAtha meM jaba taka bandUka hai, koI 254 AsIsa

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DAkU nahIM A sktaa| para, logoM kA jI kahAM TikatA? aurateM-bacce bilabilA rahe haiM, itane meM tIna-cAra AdamI Ate dIkhe / ThAkura pratApajI ne bandUka tAne hue lalakArA--'ruka jAo, hAtha khar3e kara do|' pratApasiMhajI eka phaujI AdamI haiN| rAjapUtI unake raga-raga meM cU rahI hai| Ane vAle ruke aura bole, hama yAtrI haiM, hamAre Traka meM Aga laga gayI hai, Azraya cAhate haiM, sone kA sthAna de deM to bar3I kRpA hogii| bahama niklaa| loga gharoM ko gaye / pratApajI ne Traka vAloM ko apane pAsa sulaayaa| subaha bihAra karate samaya hamane dekhA, Traka jalA par3A hai / usake pahiye eka-eka kara jyoM phaTe, golI kI-sI AvAjeM AyIM, logoM ko DAkuoM ke Ane kA bahama ho gyaa| dUdha kA jalA chAcha ko bhI phUMkakara pItA hai / bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA---- 'mAMDIkher3A ! tU bar3o, bahamI bhI beddhNg| (para) dikhA diyo paratApajI, rajapUtI ro raMga / / saMsmaraNa 255

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hAthI TicakArI se hAMkate haiM ? vanasthalI vidyA-pITha, rAjasthAna kA prasiddha zikSA-saMsthAna hai / 2006 ke jayapura cAturmAsa ke bAda AcAryapravara DhUMDA yAtrA para pdhaare| bhAIjI mahArAja ne dillI cAturmAsa sampanna kara jayapura meM AcAryavara ke darzana kiye| bhAIjI mahArAja ko savAI mAdhopura yAtrA meM sAtha rakhA gyaa| pichalI bAra Der3ha varSa pahale bhAIjI mahArAja ne DhUMDhAr3a-yAtrA kI thii| hara zraddhA ke kSetra ko saMbhAlA thaa| gAMvagAMva ke jamIMdAroM meM khUba kAma kiyA thaa| isa ilAke meM koI pAMca sau se adhika nayI gurudhAraNAeM karavAyI thiiN| Aja yAtrA ke bIca AcAryapravara vanasthalI padhAre / vanasthalI vidyApITha ke priMsipala zrI pravINacaMda jaina ne AcAryapravara kA hArdika svAgata kiyaa| zAMti niketana meM gurudeva kA pravacana huaa| dina-bhara sthAnIya zaikSaNika kAryakramoM kA avalokana claa| dUsare dina prAtaH vihAra se pUrva rAjasthAna ke mukhyamaMtrI zrI hIrAlAlajI zAstrI tathA gRhamaMtrI premanArAyaNajI mAthura pahuMce / AdhA ghaMTA AcAryapravara se vArtAlApa huA / vihAra meM lagabhaga AdhA-mIla donoM maMtrI sAtha-sAtha paidala cle| jaba ve lauTa rahe the, zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA 'zAstrIjI ! abakI bAra Apane yaha kyA kiyA? AcAryazrI jayapura padhAre aura Apa binA soce virodhI-svara meM mila gye| zAstrIjI jobanerI bolI maiM bole-ajI! bAbAjI! Apane kAMI kehavAM mhe to jobanera kI rohI meM UMTha carAyA chA UMTha / (mahArAja ! Apase kyA kahUM hamane to jobanare ke jaMgaloM meM UMTa carAye haiM) aura bhAIjI mahArAja ne tapAka se kahAzAstrIjI! 'hAthI ke hAMkyAM karai, UMTAM jyUM TicakAra / (A) jANa eka givAra bhI (\) kiyAM calAo sarakAra ?' 256 AsIsa

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yaha to eka gAMvar3iye kA givAra bhI jAnatA hai ki kyA hAthI ko UMToM kI taraha TicakArI mArakara hAMkA karate haiM ? Apa sarakAra aise hI calAte haiM ? hama saba loga dekhate hI raha gaye / zAstrIjI ThahAkA mArakara haMse aura bolejo huA so huA mahArAja ! hamane AcAryazrI jI se mAphI mAMga lI hai| zAstrIjI kSaNa bhara ruke aura kahane lage-bhAIjI mahArAja ! cAturmAsa meM Apa jaise phakkar3a, sApha kahane vAle saMta yadi jayapura meM hote to kitanA acchA rhtaa| chUTate hI bhAIjI mahArAja bole-nahIM thA, yahI acchA rahA, zAstrIjI ! varanA Apase to merA jarUra-jarUra jhagar3A hotA hI hotA / saMsmaraNa 257

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35 eka abUjha pahelI vi0 saM0 2007 bhivAnI cAturmAsa meM eka AnuprAsaMgika saMsmaraNa sunAte hue zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA, vaha - pahalA pahalA dina thA, jisa dina zraddheya pUjyapAda AcArya kAlUgaNIjI ne muni tulasI ko apanA uttarAdhikArI ghoSita kiyA / nayA-nayA mAhaula, nayA pariveza, sArA saMgha pramudita thA / merI khuzI kA kyA ThikAnA ? saikar3oM saikar3oM gRhastha aura sAdhu-satiyoM ne mujhe badhAiyAM diiN| mana karatA thA maiM bhI inheM kucha dUM, para mere pAsa dene ko thA kyA ? mere paira dharatI para nahIM Tika rahe the / eka alaukika AnaMda kI anubhUti meM maiM jI rahA thaa| kala ke muni tulasI Aja yuvAcArya zrI tulasI ho gaye the / unake sAre vastra - pAtra badala diye gaye / purAne upakaraNoM ko kitane hI saMtoM ne smRti svarUpa mAMga-mAMgakara bar3e cAva se liyA / jaba muni tulasI kA sirahAnA ( takiyA) kholA gayA, usameM eka kAgaja kI slipa (paracI) niklii| usa para likhA thA- 'mAM vadanA / ' maiM nahIM jAnatA thA -- -yaha kyA hai ? kyoM hai ? kaI santoM ne mujhase usakA rahasya pUchA, para maiM batAUM bhI to kyA ? mujhe sabase bar3I hairAnI to yaha thI - 'muni tulasI ke pAsa aura merI jAnakArI ke binA yaha ciTa / ' aba taka maiM unakA saMrakSaka rhaa| mujhe pUche binA, na unhoMne kucha khAyA-piyA, na pahanA or3hA, na kabhI Aja taka kahIM baiThe-soye, na kisI se kucha liyA- diyA, anuzAsana kA paryAya merA choTA bhAI, AMkha kI palaka ke izAre calane vAlA, usake pAsa yaha ciTa aura usameM 'mAM vadanA kA nAma / ' jAna to lUM mere se pracchanna yaha kaba se ? para aba ve saMgha- pati ke dAyitva para the / merA saMrakSaNatva dabakara raha gayA / 258 AsIsa

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maiM usa rahasyamayI ciTa ke bAre meM Aja taka nahIM pUcha sakA aura zAyada jindagI bhara na pUcha skuu| kabhI-kabhI mana karatA hai pUche to sahI 'chAnai sirahANe chipA, ciTa kada syaM kyaM melI ? tulasI ! 'campaka' cimaThiyo, baNI abUjha phelii||' saMsmaraNa 256

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zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne apanI ApabItI batAte hue kahA- -kala taka sAMyakAlIna pratikramaNa ke pazcAt muni tulasI mujhe nitya vandanA karane Ate / hama bhAI-bhAI do-cAra minaTa bAta bhI karate / ve itanA saMkoca rakhate, kabhI AMkha uThAkara bole bhI hoM, yAda nahIM AtA / mere jaisA kaThora anuzAsana karane vAlA nahIM milegA, to tulasI-muni jaisA vinIta AjJApAlaka bhI iralA - biralA hI hogA / Aja ve yuvAcArya the| raMgabhavana (gaMgApura) ke hAla kI bhItarI koTharI meM yuvAcAryazrI kA Asana lagA / santoM kI bhIr3a unako ghere hue thI / maiM dUra khar3A iMtajAra kara rahA thA, apane priya anuja, nayanAbhirAma yuvAcAryazrI se milane kii| bhIr3a chaMTI, maiM pahuMcA / yuvAcArya tulasI ke sAmane samasyA thI, aba ve kyA kreN| itane dina mujhe dekhate hI ve Asana chor3a uTha khar3e hote the / jitanA sammAna ve nikAla meM mujhe diyA karate, kyA degA koI anuja agraja ko ? lAja - lihAja, saMkoca-zarma, Adara sammAna aura kAMNa-kAyadA unakI viveka-buddhi kA namUnA thA / kAma-kAja unase maiM kama hI karavAtA / unakA pUrA samaya jJAnArjana ke lie thA / Aja sArI sthitiyAM badala gayI thIM / unakI avasarajJatA aura tatkAla samasyA kA 36 ise kahate haiM bhrAtRtva nikAla lene kI kSamatA usa samaya dekhI, tatkAla yuvAcArya tulasI thor3e se pIche ht ora khisake aura apanA AdhA Asana khAlI kara, mujhe saMketa karate hue bolepadhAro, campAlAlajI svAmI ! birAjo | maiM abhibhUta kintu kiMkartavyavimUDha thA / nirNaya nahIM le sakA, aba mujhe kyA karanA caahie| maiMne ghuTane Teka, paMcAga mudrA meMguNAnuvAda kiye | navIna yuvAcAryazrI ne vaMdanA ke sAtha mere paira chUne kA yatna karate hue punaH baiThane kA Agraha kiyA / para maiM I vinaya mAna-sammAna meM, maiM snehArdra akhUTa / keThA bhAI ! baiThaNI' ka nahIM, kaha calyo UTha // 260 AsIsa

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pahalA-pahalA kavisammelana 2008 kArtika zuklA chaTha ko dillI sabjImaMDI ghaMTA-ghara, caMdrAvala roDa meM kaThotiyA mohanalAlajI kI koThI para eka kavi-sammelana rakhA gyaa| AcAryapravara pariSada meM virAje the| rAjadhAnI ke AmaMtrita kavijana kaThotiyAjI ke kamare meM A-Akara baiThate gaye / ve jhijhaka rahe the, kahAM A gaye / samaya ho gayA para koI bhI kavi bAhara maMca para nahIM aayaa| kahane para bhI kavi loga bAhara Ate TAla-maTola kara rahe the| bhAIjI mahArAja ke nivedana para AcAryapravara ne prAg vaktavya phrmaayaa| saMtoM kI kavitAeM prArambha huii| janakavi phira bhI bAhara nahIM phuNce| saMyojaka devendrajI karaNAvaTa bhI hairAna the| bhAIjI mahArAja se nahIM rahA gyaa| ve bhItara padhAre aura kaviyoM se bole 'burA na mAneM, pUcha rahA hUM, jhijhaka hai ki, kucha ulajhana ? kavi baiThe kamare ke bhItara, (aura) bAhara kavi-sammelana ?' kyA yaha bhI koI tarIkA hai ? kavi bhI DaratA hai, veza-bhUSA dekhakara ? ye saMta sAhityakAra haiM, kavi haiN| sunA hai kavi-birAdarI abheda hotI hai, phira yaha bheda kaisA? eka phakkar3a saMta kI lalakAra para kaviyoM kI hicaka ttuuttii| zaramAte-sakucAte kucheka kavi uThe, bAhara aaye| saMta-kAvya kA rasa bhI kucha bhinna thaa| dhIre-dhIre eka-eka kara kavi pariSad meM Ate gye| usa dina lagabhaga bIsa dillI ke maMje hue kaviyoM ne terApaMtha sAhitya sRjana ko prkhaa| kucha kavi bole, kucha na bole / aba jamA kavisammelana / mana kA saMzaya httaa| kavi loga khule / vAha ! vAha ! kI kavi-dAda meM terApaMtha saMta kaviyoM kI kavitAoM ne eka chApa jmaayii| terApaMtha saMgha kA yaha zAyada sabase pahalA kavisammelana thaa| bhAI devendrajI ne bhAIjI mahArAja kI yukti kA lohA maanaa| saMsmaraNa 261

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mujhase nahIM, pariSad se pUcho 2008 pauSa zuklA navamI sarasA, paMjAba kI bAta hai| saMta-sAhitya pariSada kI sAMyakAlIna goSThI meM zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ko vaktavya dene ke lie kucha saMtoM ne milakara nivedana kiyaa| munizrI ne yaha kahate hue TAla diyA-bhAI ! maiM kyA boluuNgaa| suno kisI sAhityakAra ko| santoM ne AcArya pravara se svIkRti lI aura vijJapti prakAzita kara dI-'Aja sAMyakAla sAr3he sAta baje vicAra goSThI meM zraddheya bhAIjI mahArAja kA zikSA aura vinaya para vizeSa ullekhanIya vaktavya hogaa|' ___ sAhitya pariSad ke saMyojaka muni sukhalAlajI ne vicAra goSThI ke viSaya ko chUte hue bhAIjI mahArAja kA paricaya dekara bhASaNa prAraMbha karane kI prArthanA kii| ___ bhAIjI mahArAja ne mAtR-bhASA rAjasthAnI meM apane paiMtAlIsa minaTa ke bhASaNa meM zikSA aura vinaya kA bejor3a saMbaMdha batAte hue kucha aitihAsika udAharaNoM se vinaya-avinaya kI lAbha-hAni batAkara Aja kI zikSA meM avinaya ke praveza kI ora saMketa kiyA tathA samaya para AcArya ke nArAja hone para unheM rijhAne kI kalA, bar3oM ke prati Adara aura choToM ke prati vAtsalya para jora diyaa| praznottara kAla meM anekoM prazna Aye-kyA vinaya cApalUsI nahIM hai ? svArthayukta vinaya se kyA avinaya acchA nahIM? eka muMha para kaha detA hai aura eka jIhajarI karatA hai, donoM meM kauna-sA ThIka hai ? Aja avinIta kahe jAne vAle vidyArthI bhI uttIrNa ho jAte haiM, to phira vinaya se lAbha ? aisA vinaya kyA kAma kA jahAM pAtrI hI phUTa jAe ? eka bacapana meM kasUra kara letA hai to kyA bar3e ko bhI AMkheM garama karake bAta karanI cAhie ? vinaya Akhira kahate kise haiM ? kyA pratidAna meM vinaya mAMgane vAlA vidyA guru, apane ApameM vinIta hai ? yaha vinaya-saMhitA choToM ke lie hI hai yA bar3oM ke lie bhI ? zikSA zikSA hai, use vinaya-avinaya ke sAtha kyoM jor3A jAtA hai ? kramaza: bhAIjI mahArAja sabakA uttara saMkSipta kintu gAmbhIryayukta 262 AsIsa

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pharamAte rhe| aMtima eka prazna vyaktigata AkSepa karane vAlA bhI aayaa| praznakartA ne pUchA-kyA Apane bhI kabhI kisI ko vinIta kahA hai ? bhAIjI mahArAja ne vinoda meM bAta TAlate hue kahA- mere kahane se hI yadi koI vinIta bana jAtA ho, to lo maiM tumheM 'parama-vinIta' kA tukamA de dUM, para mere kahane se koI vinIta yA avinIta nahIM hotaa| vaha to hotA hai apane vyavahAroM se, AcaraNoM se, Atma-saMvedanAoM se / vinIta avinIta kI kasauTI to hai jntaa| tuma kitane vinIta ho ,yaha pUcho isa majalisa se, abhI patA cala jAegA hai| 'mhArai kahaNe syUM huvai, kada vinIta avinIta / (iM) majalisa ne pUcho jarA, tuma kitaneka vinIta // ' sasmaraNa 263

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36 icchA to hamArI bhI hotI hai nauhara saMtoSa-nivAsa meM pichalI rAtri ko vihAra kI maMjiloM para cintana cala rahA thA / AcAryapravara ne bIca meM hI pharamAyAbhejeM to kitanI maMjiloM meM pahuMca sakate haiM ? bhAjI mahArAja ne arja kI - saMta to ApakI kRpA se pAMca hI maMjila meM pahuMca jAyeMge / - agara saradArazahara saMtoM ko pahale AcAryapravara ne pharamAyA- to Apa hI cale jAo na, maMtri muni Apako bulA rahe haiM / bhAjI mahArAja ne kahA - tahata ! yaha to maMtrI muni kI kRpA hai / jaisI ApakI marajI ho maiM hAjira hUM / AcAryazrI ne nirNaya kI bhASA meM pharamAyA - hIrAlAla ko chor3akara Apa sabhI saMta taiyAra ho jAo, Aja hI vihAra karanA hai / vayovRddha muni cauthamalajI svAmI khar3e hokara nivedana karane lage - hujUra ! eka arja hai| bhAIjI mahArAja ke sAtha mujhe bhI kRpA karAyeM, Aja taka kabhI moTe puruSoM ke sAtha jAne kA kAma hI nahIM par3A, bar3I icchA hotI hai, kabhI sAtha rahane kA avasara Aye, Apa meharabAnI pharamAyeM / AcAryavara ne vinoda meM muskAna bikherate hue pharamAyA - ajI ! ApakI hI kyA icchA hotI hai / icchA to kabhI-kabhI hamArI bhI hotI hai campAlAlajI svAmI ke madhura sahavAsa kA Ananda lene ko / para kyA kreN| pighalate - pighalate se zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne nivedana kiyA - mahArAja ! 'kRpA gurAMrI hai jaThai, vaThai madhura madhumAsa / saMgha guNI, 'campaka' riNI, kRpA-kRpA sahavAsa // 264 AsIsa

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mere pAsa koI uttara nahIM thA nohara 2008 mAgha kRSNA 4 / bhAIjI mahArAja AhAra-maMDala meM virAje hI the| AhAra prArambha kiyA ki eka santa ne Akara kahA-AcArya pravara yAda pharamA rahe haiM / munizrI ne bhojana ke bIca hAtha dhoye aura AcAryazrI kI sevA meM padhAra gaye / kucha Avazyaka parAmarza ke bAda jyoM hI vApasa padhAra rahe the, mArga meM eka santa ne nivedana kiyA-bhAIjI mahArAja ! aujAra taiyAra haiM, merA daaNt...| bhAIjI mahArAja ne 'hAM bhAI !' kahA aura dAMta nikAlane padhAra gye| pAMca sAta dinoM se unheM dAMta kI bar3I takalIpha thii| bhAIjI mahArAja kA hAtha bahuta sApha aura anubhava DaoNkTaroM jame the| sevA ke aise avasaroM para unakI AtmA bahuta prasanna hotI / mujhe to vahAM pahuMcanA hI thaa| dAMta nikAla, hAtha dho, aba padhAre bhojana maMDala para / maiMne kahA-parosA bhojana saba ThaMDA ho gyaa| bhAIjI mahArAja ne jarA AMkheM garma kI aura pharamAyA-kyA kahA ? hai tumhAre meM akala ? pahale gurudeva kI AjJA hai ki bhojana ? pagale ! ArAma bImAra kI sevA meM jo rasa hai vaha khAne meM nahIM hai| khAnA to khAnA hai zarIra ko nibhaane| ThaMDA garama kucha nahIM'utarA ghATI huvA mATI' / bhItara kI jaTharAgni garama cAhie / batA / 'akaladAra ! pahalI batA, AjJA hai ki AhAra? khAnA prathama ki sevA prathama, sAgara! jarA vicAra / / aba mere pAsa tahata ke sivAya koI uttara nahIM thaa| saMsmaraNa 265

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41 kavitA kaba se ? 2008 mAgha zuklA aSTamI ko saradArazahara kI vizAla janasabhA meM 'dharma aura samAja' viSaya para vaktAoM ke bhASaNa hue| maryAdA - mahotsava kI vaha bhArI bhIr3a / dUra-dUra se Ane vAle hajAroM-hajAroM yAtrI / AcAryapravara ke upasaMhArAtmaka pravacana ke turaMta bAda bhAIjI mahArAja khar3e hue aura bole eka bAta maiM bhI kaha dUM / ina maMje hue vicArakoM ke cintana ke bAda merA bolanA hai to aTapaTA-sA, para jahAM saMgha milatA hai, vicAra karatA hai, vahAM hara sadasya ko adhikAra hotA hai apanI bAta kahane kA / maiM jyAdA kucha nahIM jAnatA / maiMne to itanA hI samajhA hai-- dharma ke binA samAja kevala bhIr3a hai aura samAja ke binA dharma kevala pulindA hai / samAja zarIra hai, to dharma prANa hai / prANa ke binA zarIra sar3a jAtA hai aura zarIra ke binA prANa Tikate nahIM / jaba dharma aura samAja donoM milate haiM taba banatA hai dharma-samAja | dharma-samAja meM kyA hotA hai, kyA honA hai, yaha cintana kA viSaya hai AcAryoM kA, dharma-samAja ke netAoM kaa| merI to salAha hai sabhI vaktAoM aura zrotAoM se, ulajho mata 'aNahoNI hosI nahIM, hosI jo hoNI, manamAnI tANoM matI, suguru dRSTi joNI // dharma-vihIna samAja ke, Thapa samAja binadharma svara - vyaMjana-sI ekatA, 'campaka' samajhyo marma // tatkAla chandoM meM bAMdhe hue ye do tukke tIra kA sA kAma kara ge| AcArya pravara ne pharamAyA sAre siddhAntoM kA sAra batA diyA campAlAlajI svAmI ne / acchA, Azu kavitA bhI karate haiM Apa ? yaha kaba se ? 266 AsIsa

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maTakI paTakI vi0 saM0 2010 bhAdrava kRSNA amAvasyA, jodhapura kA bAta hai| muni hIrAlAlajI (bIdAsara) AcAryazrI aura navadIkSita bAla muniyoM ke lie pAnI kI vyavasthA karate the| unhoMne sAyaMkAla pAnI chAnakara, khAlI maTakI Upara rakhane ke lie bAla muni maNilAlajI ko dii| ve siMdhI bhavana kI sIr3hiyAM car3ha rahe the| na jAne kyoM acAnaka eka dhamAkA huaa| hamane dekhA maNilAla jI jIne meM behoza par3e haiN| maTakI kI ThIkariyAM bikhara gyiiN| hama do-tIna saMtoM ne milakara unheM Upara phuNcaayaa| dina thor3A raha gayA thaa| bAla muni behoza the| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja unheM saceta karane meM vyasta the| aneka upAya kie / AvAjeM dI / nAMka baMda kiyA / pAnI chir3akA / para saba kucha nAkAma / birAje-birAje bhAIjI mahArAja ko na jAne kyA jaMcI, maNI-muni ke donoM kAna pakar3akara Upara kI ora khIMce ki unhoMne AMkha kholI / cetanA Ate hI muni maNilAla jI ne adhahozI meM khaa--mttkii| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja mana hI mana muskarAe aura bole-bhole ! 'bA maTakI paTakI baThe, aTakI aTha ajes| 'campaka' caTakI paNa dakI! bhaTakI matI maneza!' bhAIjI mahArAja muni maNilAla jI ko parokSa meM muneza hI pharamAyA krte| yaha pyAra kA nAma thaa| saMsmaraNa 267

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43 andAjA sahI utarA svabhAvagata bhAIjI mahArAja ke kucha aMdAje alaga hI the / AdamI kI pahacAna meM unhoMne zAyada hI kabhI galatI khAyI ho / akasara cAla ke AdhAra para ve vyakti kI prakRti pahacAnA karate the| isa artha meM unake alaga hI anubhava the| isalie kaI logoM se to unakI kabhI paTI hI nhiiN| vaise sabhI taraha ke loga unake irda-girda Ate baiThate / kisase kitanI bAta karanA, yaha bhI unakA apanA eka DhaMga thA / ve melajola sabhI se rakhate the| gAMva ke una nAmI-nAmI nambarI AdamiyoM se unakA apanatva gharela-jaisA hotaa| ve pharamAyA karate-'samAja meM saba zaktiyoM kI AvazyakatA hai / jahAM nAgAI kAma AtI hai, vahAM ye hI kAma ke haiM / zarIphI vahAM kyA karegI ? anAdara kisI kA bhI mata kro| duzmana ko bhI Adara se jIto / rabAba se bhI lihAja jyAdA kAma karatA hai| ye kucha Adarza-sUtra the bhAIjI mahArAja kI lokapriyatA ke| vi0 saM0 2010 sojata roDa kI bAta hai| AcAryapravara kI bhojana-vyavasthA sampanna kara bhAIjI mahArAja uThane lge| AcAryazrI ne pharamAyA-campAlAla jI svAmI ! mohanalAla (lADanUM) ko thalI bhejane kA socA hai| bhAIjI mahArAja hAtha jor3akara bole-bar3I kRpA kI / sAtha...? AcAryazrI-sAtha to bhai rudAna aura candrakAMta / bhAIjI mahArAja kSaNa bhara rukakara bole-hogA to vahI jo ApakI marajI hogI, para mere nahIM jNcii| __ AcAryazrI-kyoM ? mohanalAla ThIka hai / sayAnA bhI hai / vaha kahatA hai inheM sAtha bheja diyA jAe to merA mana laga jaaegaa| ataH yaha socA gayA hai / Apa to bahamI ho jii| vizvAsa bhI karanA cAhie AdamI kA / bhAIjI mahArAja kucha kSaNa cintana kI mudrA meM rahe aura jaba AcAryazrI ne 268 AsIsa

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kahA, bolo, to mauna tor3ate hue bole 'Acho socyo Apa paNa, mhArai jacI na haal| (a) tIna TAbara eka-sA, 'campaka' lAge cAla // itanA spaSTa koI biralA hI kaha skegaa| yaha kaTu satya AcAryazrI ko bhI apriya lgaa| bAta samApta huii| sasaMgha gurudeva bambaI pdhaare| cAturmAsa sAnanda pUrA huaa| carca geTa AcAryazrI birAja rahe the| ratanagar3ha se samAcAra milA / AcAryazrI svayaM stabdha raha gye| antara goSThI bulAyI gyii| rahasyodghATana kiyaa| AcAryazrI kA Aja jaisA khinna ceharA hamane pahale nahIM dekhA / eka antara AghAta ke sAtha niHzvAsa pheMkate hue AcAryazrI ne pharamAyA'aba batAo! yuvApIr3hI kA vizvAsa kaise ho ? ratanagar3ha se mohanalAla, bhairudAna aura candrakAMta tInoM rAta ko lApatA ho gaye haiM / campAlAlajI svAmI kI pahacAna ThIka nikalI / mere sAtha aisA vizvAsaghAta pahalI bAra huA hai|' hamane sunA-bhAIjI mahArAja ne nivedana kiyaa| Apa itanA kyA vicAra karavAte haiM-unakI gati, unakA karma / karegA so bharegA / mahArAja! 'kamI na rAkhI Apato, kRpA karAyI dhApa / 'campaka' Age AgalAM rA apaNA puna-pApa' / saMsmaraNa 266 ___

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44 gajaba-jaisA kyA hai vikrama saM0 2012 kA maryAdA mahotsava bhIlavAr3A (mevAr3a) meM huaa| vaha terApaMtha dharma-saMgha kI parIkSA kA samaya thaa| terApaMtha kA anuzAsana kasauTI para kasA jA rahA thaa| kauna saMgha meM gar3A huA hai aura kauna DiggU-piccUM, loga parakha rahe the / nayI aura purAnI vicAradhArA kI Takkara meM kaI sphuliMga uchale / eka antaradvaMdva sabhI ko jhakajhora gayA / jidhara dekho mana ko klAnta karane vAle saMvAda ubhAra le-lekara Ate / gRha-saMgharSa kI-sI sthiti / saMgha meM vighaTana karane lgii| mAnasika durAva, asaMtoSa aura pakar3a ne do pAle banA die / eka pAMNA dUsare pAMNe ko tor3ane ke cakkara calA rahA thaa| kucha bIca-bacAva vAle isa kArya meM dalAla the| loga anumAna lagA rahe the, abakI bAra terApaMtha AdhA-AdhA baMTa jaaegaa| aphavAhoM kA jora thaa| kabhI hallA AtA sAdhu gae, to kabhI AtA pAMca taiyAra haiN| koI kahatA AcAryazrI ne cAra santoM ko nikAla diyA hai, to koI kahatA, dasa muniyoM ne milakara AcAryajI ko karArI cunautI de dii| kaba kyA ho jAe, sabhI saMdigdha the| kucha zAsana-bhakta zrAvaka to yahAM taka kahane lage-ina mor3oM kA koI vizvAsa nahIM, liyA jholakA aura ye gae / kaisA jamAnA AyA hai ? bhIlavAr3A maryAdA-pAMDAla ke sAmane hI dharmazAlA thI, jahAM AcAryapravara kA pravAsa thaa| dharmazAlA ke barAmade meM vyAkhyAna ke turanta bAda kucha vipakSI samarthaka bhAIjI mahArAja se bAteM kara rahe the / khar3e-khar3e carcA chir3a gyii| kisI ne kahA-ziSTatA to donoM ora se rakhane para hI rhegii| eka bhAI ne kahA to TAlokara zabda aisA kyA ghaTiyA hai ? isI bIca bhAI jIvaNamala jI surANA (cUrU) joza khA ge| unhoMne kahA-kauna kahatA hai, ve sAdhu TAlokara haiM ? asAdhutva kA unhoMne kauna-sA kAma kiyA ? ve TAlokara kaise hue? bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-kauna kyA kahatA hai, maiM kahatA huuN| jIvaNamala 270 AsIsa

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jI bole, Apako TAlokara kahanA nahIM kalpatA / kaise kahate haiM Apa ? unhoMne terApaMtha kI koI maryAdA bhaMga nahIM kI / bhAIjI mahArAja ne kahA- svAmIjI ne pharamAyA hai jo AcArya kI AjJA kA ullaMghana kare, vaha TAlokara / bolo, ve kisa kI AjJA meM haiM ? I bhAjI mahArAja kA kahanA huA - 'svAmIjI pharamAte haiM ki itane meM eka (maiM unakA nAma maujUdagI meM likhanA nahIM cAhatA ) / sAdhujI apanA ApA kho baitthe| bar3I uttejanApUrvaka bole- cupa, cupa, cupa, Apako bolane kA phahama hI nahIM hai ? kaise bola rahe haiM binA / bhAIjI mahArAja ne unheM bIca meM hI Tokate hue, bar3e zAMta bhAva se kahAdekho ! tuma abhI mata bolo| thor3e ThaMDe par3a jAo / garamI meM garamI bar3hatI hai / jAo, jarA sustA lo, phira hama bAta kareMge / sunane vAle soca rahe the, Aja ina munijI ne apane hAthoM apane pairoM para kulhAr3I mAra lI hai / aba to kAma kaThina hai / bhAIjI mahArAja AcAryazrI ko kaheMge / AcAryazrI ise bardAsta nahIM kara sakate, kyA jAne kyA hogA ? 1 unakA bhI ceharA utara gayA / kaha to gaye, usa samaya Aveza thA, jvAra utarA pazcAttApa bhI huA / Dara bhI thA / ahaM bhI thA / santoM ne unheM bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa jAkara mAphI mAMga lene ko kahA / para unakA sAhasa nahIM par3A / ve AcAryazrI ke pAsa jA sakate the, para bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa AnA Ter3hI khIra thI / ve iMtajAra meM the / AcAryazrI ke darabAra meM pezI par3e aura vahIM mAmalA salaTe / sAyaM pratikramaNa ke pazcAt eka santa bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa Aye aura bole -- yaha to sarAsara uddaNDatA hai| koI bhI saMgha kA sAdhu, kisI viziSTa sammAnya muni kI yoM avahelanA kare, akSamya aparAdha hai, saMghIya zAlInatA ke viruddha hai / Apako yaha ghaTanA AcAryazrI se nivedana karanI caahie| ApakI marajI ho to maiM pahuMcA dUM / 1 bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA - tumhAre kahe binA hI maiM to svayaM tAtI kA asavAra / para isa mauke para gama khAne meM majA hai / usakA kyA bigar3egA ? usameM yadi itanA hI viveka hotA to vaha bolatA hI nahIM / maiM cAhUM to acchI zikSA de sakatA hUM, para usane nirvivekatA kI, kyA maiM bhI usI ke barAbara ho jAUM ? phira kyA pharka rahegA usameM aura mere meM / AcAryazrI ko to aura bhI bahuta saMkleza hai / jhaMjhaTa meM eka aura jhaMjhaTa unake gale DAlUM ? merA kyA bigar3a gayA ? usane kaha diyA - 'be phahama' kaha lene do| maiMne to nirNaya liyA hai, na to AcAryazrI taka jAUMgA aura agara kahIM se AcAryazrI taka bAta gayI bhI, to maiM sArA doSa apane para le lUMgA / AcAryazrI ko isa mauke ciMtA mukta rakhanA hamArA dharma hai / bhAI ! ye choTe-choTe bolacAla ke jhagar3e una taka mata phuNcaao| rAta ko jIvaNamalajI surANA Aye / unhoMne bar3I namratApUrvaka khamatakhAmaNA sasmaraNa 271

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karate hue kahA-bhAI jI mahArAja! Aja mere kAraNa ApakI asAtA huI, Apa bar3e haiM, bar3e hI bar3I vicArate haiN| unakI bhayaMkara bhUla thii| aise zabda-vyavahAra to hama gRhastha bhI nahIM karate, para Apa mahAn haiN| Apane jo gama khAI, kisI ko AzA nahIM thii| bar3hane ko to kAma bar3hA hI par3A thaa| mahArAja ! isI kA nAma bar3appana hai / mere jaisA vyakti Apake prati isIlie zraddhAnata hai / maiM jaisA hUM Apa jAnate haiM / ApakI saralatA se to maiM paricita thA, para samaya para Apa gama bhI khA sakate haiM, yaha Aja dekhaa| yoM jahara kA cUMTa nigala jAnA AsAna bAta nahIM hai, bhAIjI mahArAja! Apane to gajaba kara diyA, gajaba / - bhAIjI mahArAja ne gaMbhIra hokara kahA-jIvaNa ! tumane ise jarUrata se adhika AMkA hai, aisI gajaba jaisI kucha bhI bAta nahIM hai| virodhI to isase bhI kaTu aura abhadra vyavahAra kara letA hai| kyA hama usase lar3ate haiM ? usa dina ke bAda jaba bhI jIvanamala jI surANA (cUrU vAle) milate 'gajaba' kahakara ghaTanA kI yAda dilAte aura sAtha hI sAtha yaha dohA bhI sunAte 'kare saMgha-hita karaNiyAM, prANArpaNa prakhyAta ! gama khAleNe meM jivaNa ! gajaba jisI ke bAta?' 272 AsIsa

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.. 45 kavitA meM dagdhAkSara AcAryazrI tulasI ne vi0 saM0 2012 kA cAturmAsa ujjaina meM kiyaa| vahAM kArtika pUrNimA ko maiMne eka kavitA likhI / kavitA mana lagatI bnii| mujhe bahuta pasanda aayii| kavitA ko dUsarI-tIsarI bAra par3hakara maiM mana-hI-mana jhUma utthaa| zAyada merI aba taka kI kavitAoM meM vaha sabase pahalI sTeja kI kavitA thii| anuprAsoM kI jhar3I dekhate hI banatI thii| akharoTa sahaja Aye the / zabdoM kI dRSTi se, bhAvoM kI dRSTi se aura laya-chanda-bandha kI dRSTi se bhI use merI sarvottama kavitA kahUM, to meM atyukti nahIM hogii| ___ maiMne bhAI sohanalAla seThiyA (saradArazahara) ke sAmane vaha apanI kRti rkhii| sohana kI kAvya-chaTA nirAlI thii| vaha svayaM prAMjala kavi thA aura hinda kA Azu kavi bhI / tatkAla diye gaye viSaya para vaha mArmika bhASA meM bhAvapUrNa chanda bolA krtaa| merI aura usakI paTar3I bhI khUba jamatI thii| maiMne jyoMhI aparna kavitA kavi sohana ke sAmane rakhI, usane eka bAra khilakhilAkara dAda dI / kAza Aja vaha kavitA hotii| mujhe usI dina sAyaMkAla bukhAra ho gyaa| tabiyata dhIre-dhIre bIgar3atI gayI jvara kabhI kama, kabhI adhika, bar3hatA-ghaTatA gyaa| hama pravAsI eka gAMva se dUsare gAMva paryaTana karate hue bar3anagara phuNce| mujhe kamajorI kA ahasAsa hone lagA bar3anagara se hamArA par3Ava jAvarA huaa| jAvarA pahuMcate-pahuMcate mujhe bukhAra 106 DigrI pahuMca gyaa| behozI A gyii| ghaNToM upacAra ke bAda cetanA lauttii| ___ bhAIjI mahArAja ke sAmane bar3I samasyA thii| eka ora bukhAra, dUsarI o vihAra / munizrI mujhe pIche chor3anA bhI nahIM cAhate the aura bukhAra meM yoM sAtha le jAnA bhI ucita nahIM thaa| duhare vicAra le, bhAIjI mahArAja AcAryazrI ke pAra phuNce| vicAra-vimarza huaa| mujhe jAvarA hI chor3a dene kA nirNaya aayaa| bhAIja saMsmaraNa 273

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mahArAja kA jI bahuta TUTA / ve nahIM cAhate the, mujhe akele pIche chor3anA aura na hI cAhate the AcAryapravara se svayaM pIche rhnaa| mere prati unakA agAdha vAtsalya thaa| vivaza sevAbhAvI munizrI mere pAsa padhAre, viraaje| merI nabja dekhI aura pUchA, 'aba kaise ho?' ___maiM kucha bolatA isase pahale hI munizrI ne bhUmikA bAMdhanI prArambha kara dii| maiM samajha gayA, yaha saba mujhe pIche chor3ane ke upakrama haiN| maiM bhI svayaM apane mana meM nirNaya kiye baiThA thA-aba vihAra karane kI paristhiti nahIM hai / merA apanA manobala TUTa cukA thaa| zarIra kA sAmarthya javAba de rahA thaa| maiMne bhAIjI mahArAja se arja kI-'Apa to sukhe-sukhe gurudeva kI sevA meM pdhaaro| maiM yahAM do-pAMca dina rukakara, ThIka ho jAne para A jaauuNgaa|' __ bhAIjI mahArAja ne mere sira para hAtha pherate hue kahA-'bhAI do-pAMca dina se kucha nahIM hogaa| sApha-sApha bAta hai| DaoNkTara, vaidyajI aura jatIjI ne AMtra-jvara batAyA hai| kama-se-kama 21 dina to TAiphAyaDa liyA hI karatA hai / tere motIjharA ulTA hai| dAne peTa para najara A rahe haiN| ulaTA bhAva sadA samaya liyA karatA hai| tuma koI vicAra mata karanA / tumhAre pAsa rahane ke lie sohanalAlajI (rAjagar3ha) aura rAjamalajI (AtmA) ko to gurudeva ne Adeza pharamA diyA hai / merI icchA hai vasanta yA maNilAla meM se kisI eka ko tumhAre pAsa aura rakha duuN| ve donoM hI rahanA cAhate haiN| jabase sunA hai donoM hI Agraha kara rahe haiN| vaha kahatA hai, mujhe rakha do aura vaha kahatA hai nahIM, maiM rhuuNgaa| tumheM asuvidhA na ho to tuma muni maNilAla ko yahAM rakha lo| vaha mana choTA-choTA karatA hai / tumhAre bhI ThIka rhegaa|' azakti adhika thI / maiM kucha bolanA cAhatA thaa| itane meM bhAIjI mahArAja ne mujhe rokate hue kahA--'tuma bolo mata / bolane se jora par3egA / maiM jAnatA hUM tumhArI bhaavnaa| merA kAma to akele vasanta se hI cala jaaegaa| tuma merI phikara chodd'o|' mujhe khUba-khUba AzvAsana de, jatIjI ko davA-pAnI kI vyavasthA sauMpa, bhAIjI mahArAja ne vihAra kiyaa| hama cAra santa jAvarA ruke / jAvarA jainoM kA gar3ha hai, para terApaMtha kA koI eka baccA bhI nahIM hai / jainoM kI bastI jo hai, lagabhaga virodhapradhAna hai| una dinoM muni suzIlakumArajI bhI vahIM the| vaha bhI eka yuga thaa| paraspara meM jahAM AMkha bhI nahIM milatI thii| hameM rahane ke lie jainoM ke yahAM koI sthAna upalabdha nahIM huaa| kaI sthAna khAlI par3e the, para ve to kabUtaroM ke lie the| bhalA vahAM eka paradezI bImAra jaina-muni ke lie sthAna kahAM thA? vaiSNava dharmazAlA meM jahAM hama ruke the, una para bhI bahuta davAba aaye| sthAna khAlI karA lene ko kahA gyaa| para unase to hamArA kalakattA se sambandha thaa| vaha dharmazAlA kalakatiyA dharmazAlA kahalAtI hai / hama vahAM ruke / ruke kyA, rukanA par3A / bar3A aTapaTA lagA, para karate bhI to kyA? 274 AsIsa

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bakhAra meM nitya naye utAra-car3hAva Ate / mAnasika asta-vyastatA aura parezAnI bddh'tii| santa merA mana lagAne kA yatna karate / bhAIjI mahArAja kA jI to thA jAvarA aura zarIra thA AcAryazrI ke sAtha yAtrA meN| bAra-bAra AzvAsana ke zabda milate, para mana nahIM lagA so nahIM hI lagA / udvignatA dina-prati-dina bar3hatI gyii| jaina yuvaka samarathamalajI Adi-jo sarvodayI vicAradhArA ke the-ghaNToM hamAre pAsa baiThate / vayovRddha zrAvaka jaDAvacandajI pagAriyA bAra-bAra khabara lete, pUchatAcha krte| muni maNilAlajI eka to choTe the, dUsare zarIra-sampadA-sampanna, ataH logoM ko unase bolane kA cAva rahatA / bhAI phakIracandajI to maNi-muni ke pIche laTTa ho gaye / gocarI le jAte / pAnI ko jAte to ve sAtha rhte| eka dina maiMne jAne kI taiyArI kara lii| rAta kA samaya thA, acAnaka bukhAra 105 se girA aura 65 A gyaa| hoza-havAzaguma / hAtha-pAMva ThaNDe barapha-se / muni maNilAlajI dilagIra ho gaye / sattaraha varSa ke bacce to the hI / usa rAta ve zAyada minaTa-bhara ke lie bhI mujhe chor3akara nahIM htte| unheM bahama thA ki maiM chor3akara gayA ki ye gaye / rAta ko dasa baje ke bAda vahAM kahAM DaoNkTara ? kahAM vaidya ? kauna saMbhAle? kAsIda khyAlIlAla gyaa| dharmazAlA ke bAhara eka dAMtoM ke DaoNkTara the, sindhI bhaaii| ve pAnI bharane bhItara AyA-jAyA karate the| santoM ne unase paricaya banAyA thaa| becAre sajjana the| kabhI kadAca dina meM A jAyA karate the| sUcanA milate hI ve Ae / dekhA, kAma to samApti para thA / Akhira DaoNkTara to the hii| unhoMne kahA-'jaina-muni rAta ko kucha lete nahIM, aba upacAra karUM bhI to kyA? eka kAma karo santo! kambala ke Tukar3e se inake hAtha-pairoM meM garamI paidA kro|' vaisA hI kiyaa| koI do ghaMTe bAda mujhe hoza aayaa| usa rAta maNilAlajI ne lagabhaga jAgaraNa kiyA / santoM ne bahuta smjhaayaa| jaba maiM bolane lAyaka huA, maiMne bhI kahA-'maiM aba ThIka hUM, tuma so jaao| bAta maNimuni ke gale nahIM utrii| pUrI rAta unhoMne mere bichaune ke pAsa baiThakara kaattii| __maiM marate-marate bacA / aThAraha dina rukakara jaba calane-phirane lAyaka huA, vihAra kiyaa| jyoM-tyoM bhIlavAr3A-mAgha-mahotsava meM hama sammilita ho ske| svAsthya Diga-miga Diga-miga karatA calA / santoM ke sahayoga se maiM AcAryapravara ke sAtha-sAtha chApara phuNcaa| sahasA rAta ko eka vaoNmiTa (kai) huI / becainI kI paravAha na kara dUsare dina ATha mIla 'raNadhIsara' phuNce| dina-bhara jI ghabarAtA rahA / lauMga-golI ke sahAre kAma claayaa| sAyaMkAla cAra-pAMca baje ke bIca acAnaka behozI A gyii| santoM ne socA, nIMda AyI hogI / bhAIjI mahArAja AhAra karane pdhaare| mujhe AvAja dii| javAba detA kauna? santa sohanalAlajI svAmI (saravAloM) ko bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-'jAojI! use uThA laao|' 'kumANasa avAra to misa saMsmaraNa 275

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karyAM paDyo hai, rAtyUM marato marasI nii|' sohana 'sara' aaye| mujhe hAtha pakar3akara biThA diyaa| jyoM hI hAtha chor3A ki maiM lur3haka gyaa| aba sabako patA claa| seTha sumeramalajI dUgar3a Aye / nabja dekhii| sthiti nAjuka thii| bhAI ko bhejakara patA lagAyA para davA kA baksA gAr3I meM car3hA diyA thaa| asUjatI davA kAma nahIM AtI, aba kyA kiyA jAe / santa gaye kahIM se satya-jIvana aura kucha arka lAye / lauMgasauMTha kA arka aura satya-jIvana dugunI mAtrA meM diyA gyaa| sUryAsta ke AsapAsa mujhe ceta aayaa| sAmane rAta / vaha jeTha kI bhayaMkara grmii| sohanalAlajI svAmI (cUrU) Adi santoM ne rAtri-jAgaraNa kiyaa| subaha taka maiM uThane lAyaka huaa| kAla-rAtri ko pAra kara dUsare dina vihAra huA / vihAra kevala kahane mAtra kA thaa| maiM do santoM ke kandhoM para apanA pUrA zarIra kA vajana DAle, ghasITate pairoM se vaha rAstA taya kara rahA thaa| bAra-bAra satya-jIvana aura arka dete gaye / AdhI hozIbehozI meM par3ihArA le liyaa| seTha sumeramalajI dUgar3a apane nukze AjamA rahe the| sabakI saba dI jAne vAlI oSadhiyAM bekAra / phira eka ulTI huii| maiM behoza ho gyaa| santoM ne uThAkara mujhe bistara para liTAyA / makaradhvaja kI mAtrA dI gayI, para koI asara nhiiN| upacAra karate dina biitaa| rAta AyI / aba badalA daura / sannipAta prArambha huaa| hAthapAMvoM meM vAMiTe (aiMThana) zurU hue| AcAryapravara darzana dene pdhaare| choTe santoM ko bhaktAmara kA pATha sunAne kA Adeza huaa| kucha muni pATha sunAne lge| zrAvakoM ne apanI taiyArI prArambha kii| vicAra-vimarza claa| manokAmanA antyeSTi-kriyA kA khAkhA jmaayaa| seThajI nAr3I hAtha meM liye baiThe the| eka ThabakA AyA hai, agalA dekheM kitanI dera bAda AtA hai, dekha rahe the| bIsoM logoM ne rAta jagAI / para prakRti ko jo maMjUra hotA hai, vahI hotA hai| rAta bItI / prAtaH huA, upacAra phira cAlU hue| seTha sumeramalajI anubhavI the| unhoMne makaradhvaja kI caugunI mAtrA eka sAtha dilvaaii| mAno bujhate dIpaka meM tela ur3ela diyA ho, jyoti jala uThI / mujhe lagabhaga bAraha ghaNTe bAda hoza aayaa| dhIre-dhIre maiM ThIka hone lgaa| gurudeva ke sAtha-sAtha hama ratanagar3ha phuNce| vaidya bhagavatIprasAda ko dikhaayaa| nidAna unakA yathArtha huA karatA thA / navodita vaidya gosvAmI dhanAdhIzajI kI davA prArambha huii| na cAhate hue bhI bhAIjI mahArAja ne mujhe ratanagar3ha rkhaa| AcAryapravara saradArazahara padhAre / eka mahIne ke lambe upacAra ke bAda calane-phirane lAyaka huaa| hama tInoM saMta-maiM, vasaMta aura maNimuni,saradAra zahara phuNce| vi0 saM0 2013 kA cAturmAsa prArambha hone ke dina se phira asvastha huaa| lagabhaga tIna mahIne maiM parezAna rhaa| paricAraka sAthI aura vaidya-DaoNkTara prayatna kara-karake thaka gaye / seTha 276 AsIsa

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bhaMvaralAlajI dUgar3a ne lagabhaga saradArazahara ke sabhI mAnya vaidyoM se parAmarza kiyA para upacAra nahIM baiThA / bigar3ate-bigar3ate sthiti nAjuka daura para calI gyii| eka rAta maiM phira pAMca ghaNTA behoza rhaa| sabhI ne AzA chor3a dii| usa rAta seTha bhaMvaralAlajI, vaidya prabhudayAlajI, paMca nemIcandajI borar3a Adi dasoM zrAvaka, bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa rAta bhara baiThe rhe| bhinna-bhinna ciMtana cle| sabase khUbI kI bAta to yaha thI, abhI bhAIjI mahArAja ne AzA nahIM chor3I thii| unakA vizvAsa thA, yaha bhI eka jhoMkA hai, nikala jaaegaa| mujhe hoza aayaa| aba uThI peTa meM zUla / vaha sthiti bhI vahI thii| maiM dharatI para Tika nahIM pA rahA thaa| uchala-uchalakara darda hairAna karatA rahA / sabhI sAthI santa aura darzaka zrAvaka dravita the| bhAIjI mahArAja-bhikSu svAma, bhikSu svAma kA jApa japa rahe the| AcAryapravara darzana dene pdhaare| vayovRddha maMtrImuni maganalAlajI svAmI 'kurasI' meM pdhaare| rAta bItI, anubhavI upacAra cle| mAjI mahArAja, mahAsatiyAMjI lADAMjI tathA sAdhviyAM AyIM, sabane apane-apane upacAra btaae| ___Azukavi sohanalAla seThiyA aayaa| usane bhAIjI mahArAja ke kAna meM kucha arja kii| munizrI ne santa vasanta ko AvAja dI aura vaha kavitA jise maiMne ujjaina meM banAyA thA, nikAlakara lAne ko khaa| muni vasanta mere pAsa Aye aura saMketa kiyaa| maiMne AMkha kholii| pUchA / kavitA kahAM hai ? maiM jheMpa gyaa| apanI pUrI zakti lagAkara bhI maiM bola nahIM paayaa| bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-use kyA pUchatA hai ? le A usakI kaapiyaaNddaayriyaaN| ve kApiyAM le gaye / sohana-seThiyA ne DhUMDhakara vaha kavitA nikaalii| bhAIjI mahArAja ne par3hA-usakI pahalI paMkti thI 'jIne se maiM Uba gayA hUM, mujhe mRtyu se mila lene do|' munizrI ko jhuMjhalAhaTa AyI binA Age kI paMktiyAM par3he eka hI jhaTake meM kavitA phAr3a pheNkii| maiM abhI bhI apane bihone para par3A-par3A kaha rahA thA-merI kavitA mata phaaddie| mere marane ke bAda bhI yaha kavitA merA paricaya degii| merA jI bahuta tilmilaayaa| mere dekhate-dekhate kAgaja ke una Tukar3oM ko pAnI se galAkara munizrI ne apane hAtha se kuTTA banAyA aura gAMva bAhara jAkara dhoroM meM unheM gAr3a dene (paraThane) kA Adeza de, bhAIjI mahArAja mere pAsa padhAre / kavi sohanalAla sAtha thaa| munizrI jI ne Ate hI pharamAyA-basa, aba,roga kaTa gyaa| mujhe kyA patA saMsmaraNa 277

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tumane roga ko to bhItara baNDala meM bAMdhakara rakha chor3A hai| pagale ! eka bAta kahaM ? sAgara bhAI ! aisI kavitA bhaviSya meM kabhI mata bnaanaa| kavitA kudarata kI kalA, sAgara! milyo sUyoga, (para) AindA apazabda ro, phera na karI pryog| aura vaha kavitA phAr3a dene ke bAda maiM kramazaH ThIka hotA gyaa| saradArazahara cAturmAsa utarate hI AcAryapravara ke sAtha dasa dina meM 200 mIla kI padayAtrA kara dillI-yUnesko sammelana meM sammilita ho gyaa| 278 AsIsa

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ve bhAIjI mahArAja the vi0 saM0 2013 kA maryAdA mahotsava ! terApaMtha dvizatAbdI samAroha kI yojanAeM bana rahI thiiN| eka antara goSThI meM kalAtmaka-pakSa ujAgara karane terApaMtha-saMgha ke kalApriya sAdhu-sAdhviyoM ko bulAyA gyaa| do sau sAla ke terApaMtha itihAsa ko citrAMkita karanA nizcita huaa| muni dulIcaMda jI (pacapadarA) aura mujhe (zramaNasAgara) kArya sauNpaa| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja saharSa mujhe kArya-mukta karane ko rAjI he| protsAhana diyaa| maiM 2014 kA cAturmAsa cUrU karane munizrI campAlAlajI (mIThiyA) ke sAtha gayA / hamane rAta-dina eka kara citrakAra khemarAja raghunAtha zarmA (nAthadvArA) ke sahayoga meM bhikSu-citrAvalI bnaayii| maMgalacandajI seThiyA (cUrU) ne isa kArya meM pUrI dilacaspI lii| kucha kAraNoM se kAryAvarodha aayaa| maiM phira AcAryapravara kI baMgAla-yAtrA meM sAtha calA gyaa| hamArA apanA lakSya cAlU thA / gati bhale hI maMda rahI ho, para nayI-nayI kalpanAeM uTha rahI thiiN| terApaMtha saMgha kA 'kalA darzana' prANavAn bane hamArA dhyeya thaa| sujAnagar3ha kI bAta hai| maiM zaucArtha gyaa| vahAM eka vizAla kAle sAMpa kI sAbata kAMcalI dekhii| mana ihitAsa ke jhUle meM jhUma uThA / mevAr3a kelave kI aMdherI orI ke maMdira meM tatkAlika muni bhArImAlajI svAmI ke pairoM meM sAMpa ne AMTe lagAye the / svAmIjI ne maMgala-maMtra sunAyA, sAMpa orI chor3a calA gyaa| kyA usa dRzya ko citrAMkita karate isa sAMpa kI kAMcalI ko bhArImAlajI svAmI ke pairoM meM sAMpa ke AMToM kI jagaha upayoga meM liyA jA sakatA hai ? aisA ho sake to eka jIvanta dRzya bana jaayegaa| isI parikalpanA meM maiM vaha kAMcalI le aayaa| chupe-chupe yojanA kI kriyAnviti meM usa sarpa-keMculI meM maiMne dhIre-dhIre sAvadhAnIpUrvaka sUkhA narama-narama ghAsa bhraa| phaNa meM ruI jcaayii| aba vaha ThIka moTe asalI sAMpa kIsI zakla meM dikhane lgaa| maiMne kutUhala-kalAvaza use eka kASTha-pAtra meM kuMDalI kI saMsmaraNa 276

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mudrA meM jcaayaa| sAMpa kA phaNa jarA uThA-uThA-sA rakhA aura Upara eka pAtra ulaToM ddhNkaa| AcAryapravara bhojana-nivRtta ho Tahala rahe the| dasoM saMta irda-girda paryupAsanA meM khar3e the / maiM vaha DhaMkA pAtra hAtha meM liye phuNcaa| najadIka gyaa| zrI ne yoMhI socA hogA, gocarI meM AyA huA dravya dikhAne AyA hai / gurudeva ne paira roke / maiMne ekTiga karate hue pAtra kA Dhakana haTAyA aura thor3A-sA hAtha hilaayaa| hAtha ke kaMpana se sAMpa hilatA-sA pratIta huA, sacamuca jaise asalI sAMpa ho / zrI sameta sabhI darzaka sahama gaye / maiMne apanI kalA ko mana hI mana dAda dii| gurudeva se kalA-darzana para zAbAsI le, maiM bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa phuNcaa| usa samaya chaggU-bA bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa baiThe AhAra kara rahe the| unakI pITha merI ora thI / maiM gayA aura pIche se vaha asalI jaisA sAMpa chaggU-bA ke gale meM DAla diyaa| sunA to yoM thA chaggU-bA majabUta chAtI ke haiM para merI isa harakata ne unheM dahalA diyaa| ve dhuMghAe / thara-thara kAMpane lge| maiMne apanI galatI ko DhAMkane meM khUba phuratI kii| sAMpa gale se nikAla liyA / chaggU-bA, sAMpa nahIM hai, yaha usakI utarI huI nirjIva kAMcalI hai| unheM thAmA, para unakA kalejA hila gayA thaa| chAtI dhag-dhag kara rahI thii| usake hoza-havAza ur3a gye| ve pasInA-pasInA ho ge| mujhe apanI jAdUgirI para malAla thaa| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne sthiti saMbhAlI, apane hAthoM se unheM pAnI pilaayaa| chAtI masalI, bAtoM meM lgaayaa| bhaya bhulAne kA prayatna kiyaa| ___ chaggU-bA kA to kucha nahIM bigar3A lekina merA bigar3anA sAmane thA / maiM soca rahA thA Aja khairiyata nahIM hai / muMha sapheda par3a gyaa| AMkheM ruMAI-sI ho gyiiN| ve bhAIjI mahArAja the| munizrI ne pharamAyA-pagale ! tUM kyoM DaratA hai ? ho gayA so ho gyaa| maiM tujhe DAlUMgA thor3A hI, para dekha ! 'Agesara karaNI nahIM, sAgara ! isI mjaak| dhasake syUM phATai hiyo, huvai anartha hakanAka / / 260 AsIsa

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47 ghAva se ghRNA vi0 saM0 2017 mAgha kRSNA 6 lAvA saradAragar3ha (mevAr3a) meM bhAIjI mahArAja AhAra karane virAje the| hama kucha muni AsapAsa baiThe the / munizrI ko akele bhojana karanA pasanda nahIM thA / jaba taka unake agala-bagala meM do-cAra santa nahIM hote, unheM khAnA aTapaTA-sA lagatA / ve auroM ko khilAkara bahuta rAjI rahate / apane bhojana meM se jaba taka ve do-pAMca kavala (grAsa) auroM ko nahIM de dete taba taka unheM caina nahIM par3atA, bhojana nahIM bhaataa| AvAjeM de dekara muniyoM ko bulAte / bulAvA bheja-bheja kara AmaMtrita karate / jo koI mere jaisA saMkocI yA Adatana 'no' kaha detA to use avyAvahArikatA kA tukamA miltaa| muni bAlacaMdajI (gaMgAzahara) yA muni hIrAlAlajI (bIdAsara) jaise kabhI-kadhI upavAsa pacakha kara bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa Ate to aksara munizrI pharamAte-'kumANasAM! mhArai kanai iM Tema upavAsa pacakha'ra AyA mata karo, manne ko suhAvai nii|' kabhI-kabhI muni dulaharAjajI vinoda karate Ate aura kahate-'Aja maiM pratijJA karake AyA hUM, Apake yahAM se koI cIja nahIM khaauuNgaa| unheM bhI do-cAra kar3avImIThI sunanI pdd'tii| para unakI pratijJA to vinodI hotii| do-cAra minaTa bhAIjI mahArAja manuhAreM karate aura unakI pratijJA pUrI ho jAtI / sevAbhAvI munizrI bar3e sarasajIvI vyakti the| isIlie to Aja bhI santoM ko AhAra ke samaya bhAIjI mahArAja kI yAda khaTakatI hai| usa dina santoM kI maNDalI se ghire bhAIjI mahArAja AhAra kara rahe the ki itane meM muni tArAcaMdajI (cUrU) phuNce| unake dAyeM hAtha kI tarjanI ke nakha kI jar3a meM phor3A thA / phor3A phUTa to gayA, para phUTakara bhI vistAra khA gyaa| uphanakara mAMsa bAhara A gyaa| aMgulI dugunI ho gayI / unhoMne bhAIjI mahArAja ko vandanA kara hAtha dikhAte hue kahA-moTA puruSAM ! aMgulI kI jar3a meM eka ora phUNasI saMsmaraNa 281

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uThI hai, aba ke karasyUM ? hAtha ke usa vikRta ghAva ko dekhate hI mujhe ghRNA-sI huI / glAni-bharI sikur3ana ke sAtha maiMne kahA-'bhAI ! jarA thor3I dera ke lie tuma isa ghAva ko Dhaka do, ArAma se baiTho, abhI AhAra ho jAtA hai, bAda meM dikhaanaa| bhale AdamI ! yaha bhI koI ghAva dikhAne kA samaya hai ? yadyapi maiMne ziSTatA se kahA thA, para merA yaha kahanA bhAIjI mahArAja ko burA lgaa| unhoMne turanta khAnA banda kara diyaa| pAsa par3I dUsarI pAtrI meM cullU kara uTha khar3e hue| pAsa baiThe sabhI santa sanna the, yaha kyA ? para maiM to jAnatA thA, munizrI ke svabhAva ko| maiM binA kucha bole zUla, ruI, malahama aura paTTI le aayaa| muni maNilAla ko garama pAnI aura DiTola lene bhejaa| AhAra bIca meM hI dharA rhaa| pahale unakA ghAva dhoyA, sApha-saphAI kii| thor3A-sA zUla kA sahArA de ghAva ko kholA ki saghana pIba baha pdd'ii| koI AdhA chaTAMka mavAda nikalI hogI / malahamapaTTI kara hamane hAtha dhoye / aba taka munizrI mana hI mana gunagunAte rahe / jyoM hI punaH AhAra kI maMDalI jur3I ki bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA ghRNA na karaNI ghAva syUM, rogI syUM anurAga / sAgara ! sevA saMta rI, mile purabale bhAga / / 212 AsIsa

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48 bImAra ko pahale pauSa kA mahInA thaa| bahira-vihArI santoM kA eka melA / sahaja samAgama / hama saba eka-dUsare ko dekhakara praphullita the| saikar3oM ThANoM kI bhIr3a meM svastha-asvastha, rogI-glAnI, bAla-vRddha sabhI taraha ke hote haiM / bhAIjI mahArAja sabake kendra the| asvastha unase svAsthya kA parAmarza lete, rogI davA-pAnI, pathya-paraheja pUchate, glAna azakta svayaM ke nirvAha kI yAcanA karate, bAla muni sneha lene Ate to vRddha sthavira Adara bhAvanA se khice phuNcte| yahI thA bhAIjI mahArAja kI jana-priyatA kA sUtrave sabake the| saba unake the| sevA ke avasara para unakI dRSTi meM apane-parAye kA bheda nahIM rahatA / bahuta bAra to nikaTavartI-apane sAtha rahane vAloM se bhI auroM para vizeSa dhyAna diyA jaataa| ___ muni agaracaMdajI svAmI una dinoM rakta-vikAra kI vyAdhi se pIr3ita the| unake lie pathya-dUdha aura roTI ke atirikta saba kucha baMda thA / bahuta sAre ThANoM (santa-satiyoM) kA sahavAsa, gAMva kI sImita gocarI, unheM dUdha upalabdha nahIM huaa| unake sahavartI muni cauthamalajI svAmI (sarAdAra zahara) khAlI pAtrI lekara aaye| pITha pIche chupAI pAtrI dekha bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-'cothU ! kiyAM Ayo bhAyA ! ke cAhijai hai ? bola / ' usa samaya bhAIjI mahArAja AhAra karane virAje hI the| cauthamalajI svAmI jarA skucaaye| unhoMne dabI AvAja meM kahA--nahIM-nahIM, dekhatA thA, mahArAja ! dUdha AyA ho to unheM AhAra karA detA / Aja hamAre yahAM dUdha nahIM aayaa| sevAbhAvI munizrI ne santa pRthvIrAjajI se pUchA-pI) / paya Ayo hai ke ? unhoMne sira hilAte hue uttara diyA-mattheNa vandAmi ! dUdha to Aja kahIM gocarI meM nahIM dhaamaa| itane meM AhAra lekara maiM aayaa| bhAIjI mahArAja ke lie maiM AcAryapravara ke saMsmaraNa 263

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yahAM se (samuccaya kI gocarI meM se) bhojana lAyA karatA thaa| gurudeva ko AhAra karavA kara phira bhAIjI mahArAja AhAra lete / munizrI ke zabdoM meM-'ThAkurajI ke bhoga lAgyAM pachai hI pujArAM ne mile|' maiM jyoM hI AyA bhAIjI mahArAja ne pUchA-dUdha lyAyo hai ? maiMne khaa-haaN| 'to cothU ne dUdha ghAla de' munizrI ne Adeza diyaa| maiMne jyoM hI dUdha kI pAtrI kholI munizrI bole, 'ittoI lyAyo ke ?' maiM bolA-samuccaya meM itanA hI thaa| maiM cautha muni ke pAtra meM dUdha DAla rahA thaa| mere sAmane samasyA thii| dUdha thor3A thA aura aba lene vAle muni tIna the| maiM anupAta se tIsarA hissA ruka-ruka kara unake pAtra meM DAla rahA thaa| mere dene kI prakriyA dekha, bhAIjI mahArAja ne tatkAla eka dohA kahA sAgara ! mata kara sUmar3A, kara kATho kNjuus| diyAM nahIM khUTe daraba, mata baNa makkhIcUsa // maiM dhIme se bolA-kaMjUsa nhiiN| maiM socatA hUM thor3A Apake upayoga meM A jAye, thor3Asanta basanta ke bukhAra hai, unheM de dU aura thor3e se agaracaMdajI svAmI kA kAma bhI cala jaaye| ____ bhAIjI mahArAja ne mere hAtha se pAtrI lI aura sArA dUdha unakI pAtrI meM ur3elate hue kahA--'lejA cothuu| merA kyA hai maiM to roTI khAkara bhI peTa bhara luuNgaa| ve bImAra haiM unheM to aura kucha khAnA hI nahIM hai / jA-jA, le jA, bhAI ! bImAra ko phle|' pAsa baiThe eka santa ne kahA-aura basantIlAlajI ko? munizrI ne haMsakara kahA- vAha ! vaha to javAna hai aura use bukhAra bhI hai| bukhAra ko to bhUkhA hI rakhanA cAhie / acchA sAgara ! eka kAma karanA, bansatIlAla ko dupahare cAya maMgAkara pilA denaa| yaha thI bhAIjI mahArAja kI sevA-bhAvanA, AtmIyatA, apanA banAne kI kalA aura saMghIya aartgvessinnaa| 284 AsIsa

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46 sevA tapa hai una dinoM muni kundanamalajI ke hAtha meM phor3A nikala AyA thaa| vedanA bhayaMkara rUpa le calI / ve rAta-rAta bhara jAga-jAgakara nikaalte| hAtha sUja gyaa| phor3e ke bhItara mavAda (rassI) kulatI / ve karAha-karAha kara sAMseM lete| kSamatA se adhika becainI thii| lUparI, seka aura davA nAnA taraha se upAya ho rahe the, para vaha bhI viSa-kaMTA thaa| ugra rUpa letA hI gyaa| jalana bar3ha gyii| ve to parezAna the hI para dekhane vAle ko bhI siharana hotI / phor3A Upara se gala gayA thaa| usameM chalanI kI taraha anekoM choTe-choTe cheda ho gaye the| bhItara kI mavAda nikala sake, aisA koI upAya nahIM thA / vaha bhItara hI bhItara vistAra khA rahA thaa| zrIbhAIjI mahArAja AhAra (bhojana) karane virAje hI the| pahalA grAsa muMha meM thA aura dUsarA hAtha meM / itane meM Aye muni kundanamalajI hAtha se hAtha ko pkdd'e| cehare para khinntaa| AMkhoM meM trltaa| o bhAIjI mahArAja ! koI upAya karAvo / aba pIr3a sahana konI huvai| munizrI ne garadana uThAkara unakI ora dekhA / dayArdra hRdaya pighala gayA / muMha kA kavala gale utaranA bhArI ho gyaa| hAtha kA grAsa punaH pAtra meM chor3a diyaa| pAnI kA pyAlA uThAyA, hAtha dhoye, pUre hAtha poMche ki na poMche, hamane dekhA-bhAIjI mahArAja kA vAtsatya bharA hAtha unakI pITha para thA / dUsare hAtha se unakA sira sahalAte hue sevAbhAvIjI ne kahA---'kunaNUM / ghabarA mata bhAyA / maiM pehalI thAroM kAma karasyUM / dekha, abAra ThIka karUM' kahate-kahate unakA hAtha pakar3e, kacce cauka meM jA phuNce| bhAIjI mahArAja kA hAtha lagate hI phor3A phUTa gyaa| eka cipakArI calI, kapar3e rassI ke chIToM se bhara gaye / thor3A-sA dabAyA ki dUsarI cipakArI chUTI aura sIdhI cehare para Akara girI / muni kundanamalajI ghabarA gaye / sakapakAte hue bole saMsmaraNa 285

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-'mahArAja ! Aparai chAMTA laaggyaa|' aura bhAIjI mahArAja binA chIToM ko paravAha kie pharamA rahe the-'tU soca mata kr| kapar3A ko 'ra zarIra ko? ai to dhoyA' ra saaph| paNa thArai ThIka hoNo caahije|' mujhe (sAgara) AvAja lgaaii| maiM ruI, kapar3A, paTTI, pAnI aura DiTola lekara jaba taka pahuMcA, itane meM to na jAne kitane hI tukameM mujhe mila cuke the| maiM pahuMcA, maiMne dekhA-unake phor3e meM se acchI-khAsI mavAda, bhAIjI mahArAja pAMca-pIMcakara nikAla rahe the aura pharamA rahe the--kunaNaM / thor3I-sI himmata rAkha bhAyA ! Aja tanne AchItariyAM nIMda A jyaasii|' dhIre-dhIre sArA bhItara kA kacarA dabA-dabA kara nikaalaa| ghAva dhoyA, malahama lagAI, paTTI bAMdhI aura unheM yathAsthAna sulaayaa| bhAIjI mahArAja ne hAthoM kI saphAI kI / 'salaphara' DAijIna kI eka TikiyA maMgAkara unheM khilAI aura phira kapar3e badale / maiMne kahA-sArA AhAra ThaMDA ho gayA hai, kyA hI acchA hotA hama pandraha minaTa meM yahAM kA kAma sameTakara phira usa kAma meM nizcitatA se lagate? bhAIjI mahArAja ne jarA-sI AMkha lAla kI? kyA kahA ? pahale khAnA khAUM? khabaradAra! Aja ke bAda aisA kabhI mata kahanA / pahale sevA hai, bAda meM khAnA / vaha becArA bImAra sAdhu to karAhe aura maiM ArAma se giDhUM? tumheM mAlUma honA cAhie 'sevAdharmaH paramagahano yoginAmapyagamyaH' sevA parama gahana dharma hai, use yogI bhI muzkila se pA sakate haiM / yaha sevA bAra-bAra nahIM miltii| rogI kA kAma to mAnavatA kA takAjA hai| terApaMtha dharmazAsana sevA-pradhAna hai| hamAre yahAM kI sevA-cAkarI kI eka advitIya mizAla hai| suna - 'sAgara ! sohakyUM sulabha hai, durlabha sevA-dharma / o tapa 'campaka' gahanatama, mAnavatA ro marma / / 286 AsIsa

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chaggU-bA muni chogAlAlajI svAmI-borANA vAle sIdhe-sAde pavitra sAdhu the, purANe yuga kI cAla-DhAla / yoM kahanA cAhie vaha malIna-vastroM meM ujjvala AtmA thii| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ko aise bhale, bhole, snehila aura sarala logoM se bar3A prema thaa| unheM chaggU-bA ke nAma se hama saMta loga pukArA karate the| gAMvar3iyoM ke niHsvajanoM se unheM lagAva thaa| ve sAde itane the--gAMva ke garIba loga ke yahAM kI roTI khAkara bahuta prasanna rhte| svataMtratA meM unakI tulanA kisake sAtha karUM, samajha meM nahIM AtA / apanA kAma auroM se karavAnA unheM nahIM suhAtA thaa| auroM kA kAma ve bar3e cAva-bhAva se kiyA krte| kisI ko bhI kAma ke lie nATanA unheM AtA hI nahIM thaa| vairAgya unakI vRtti meM utarA huA thaa| hamane barasoM se unheM dUdha pIte nahIM dekhaa| unakA manojJa khAdya thA-miraca, caTanI, lUkhI-sUkhI roTI, chAcha, raabdd'ii| gocarI kI zaukha itanI, ve tIsare gAMva jaate| ve to aise AdamI the-bAdAma kI baraphI dekara badale meM lUkhI roTI lenA pasanda krte| bhAIjI mahArAja ke sAjha-maMDala meM Ae binA unheM raMgata nahIM hotii| ve sacamuca oliye phakIra the, Ate aura yoM hI jamIna para pasara jaate| hama kaMbala dete para ve nahIM lete| kapar3e gaMde to hone hI the| itane para bhI ve sabako pyAre-pyAre lagate / unakI bolI bhI apane Apa meM nirAlI thii| santajana jAna-jAnakara unheM bulavAte / unakI bolI ke lahaje kI priyatA-Asarai 'yUM hai ka nI' aurI 'UM kare matI', 'mUrakho' Adi zabda hara kisI ko AkarSita kara lete / unakI isa nizchalatA para AcAryazrI bhI mugdha the / tanAva, durAva aura khicAva se dUra unakA jIvana ramajhamatA, mana-gamatA-sA thaa| vi0 saM0 2016 mAgha kRSNA dUsarI pAMcama, dinAMka 15 janavarI 1663 kI bAta hai| hama mevAr3a-gajapura ghATA se AtmA A rahe the| madhyAhna kA samaya thaa| vaha mevAr3I-pahAr3I patharIlA rAstA ! bhAIjI mahArAja ke pairoM meM darda / chaggU-bA usa saMsmaraNa 287

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kaMkarIle mArga para hameM do-tIna bAra mila ge| kabhI pIche se Age nikalate to kabhI Age se pIche raha jAte / bAra-bAra yoM Ar3e-Ar3e Ate dekha bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA ---- hameM to abhI sATha bhI nahIM Aye haiM, jisameM yaha hAla hai aura bAbA caurAsI meM bhI gADA gur3akA rahA hai 'chagga-bA gametI bAvo, Avai Ar3o- Ar3o / 'campaka' barasa caurAsI AyA, tohi gur3akAva gAr3o / ' dinAMka 17 janavarI ko AtmA gAMva meM AcAryapravara kI sannidhi meM eka ciMtana goSThI huI / zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne vizeSa taura se nivedana prastuta kiyA- 'jo saMghIya sadasya 80 varSa prApta ho gae haiM unheM saMghIya kAma-kAja se mukta kiyA jAnA cAhie / assI varSa ke bAda kI umara kAma karane kI nahIM hotii| saMgha ke una vayovRddhoM kA itanA sammAna to honA hI cAhie / eka umara ke bAda hara kSetra meM kAryaM - mukti (riTAyarameMTa) milatI hI hai / chaggU bA kA udAharaNa peza karate hue bhAIjI mahArAja ne jora diyaa| AcAryapravara bhAIjI mahArAja kI isa dayAlutA para pighale aura chaggU - bA ko AjIvana sAmUhika kArya bhAra se mukta kiyaa| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja AdaraNIya vRddhoM ke prati udAra, dayAlu to the hI, para samaya para zAstA ko ucita nivedana karane se bhI nahIM cUkate the / 288 AsIsa

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pUjyatA taka pahucAne vAle to guru haiM udayapura se bihAra kara zrI bhAIjI mahArAja rAjanagara padhAre / maryAdA-mahotsava kI vyavasthAoM kA jAyajA le 2019 pauSa zuklA aSTamI ko boraja hote hue kelavA phuNce| _kelavA se terApaMtha kA itihAsa jur3A par3A hai| yahAM kA andherI orI vAlA maMdira terApaMtha kA udgama-sthala hai| AcArya bhikSu kI kaThora, satya-parIkSA aura kelavA ThAkura mokhamasiMhajI kA prabhAvita honA jana-vizruta hai| kelavA-ThikAne kI khyAta-bahI ke anusAra AcArya bhikSu kA terApaMtha bhAva-dIkSA ke bAda pahalA bhojana grahaNa (gocarI), tIna dina ke upavAsa kA pAraNA bhI rAvale ke anna se huA thA / jayAcAryazrI dvArA aMkita lakar3I kI eka kAmI (phuTa) jisa para likhA hai'bhikSu chatArI chai' kelave ThikAne se lI gayI lakar3I kI hai, jo Aja bhI lADanaM pustaka bhaMDAra meM surakSita hai / kelavA taba se aba taka terApaMtha-saMgha ke lie zraddhAnata hai| isakA jItA-jAgatA pramANa terApaMtha dvizatAbdI samAroha meM hamane apanI AMkhoM se dekhA hai| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja kA padhAranA kelavA ke lie amita ullAsa lekara huaa| saikar3oM-saikar3oM chAtroM aura mahilAoM ke sAtha jana-samUha ne svAgata kiyaa| rAvale ke cauka meM pradhAnAdhyApaka zrI purI, kelavA ThAkura zrI daulatasiMhajI evaM cAcA ThAkura rAmasiMhajI ke bAda kavi seMsamalajI koThArI ne kucha prazasti padyoM ke bIca kahA ika campA hari sira car3he, ika mana harata vikaar| manahara campAlAla ko, bandUM bArambAra // kavi kI yuktiyukta bAta se janatA mukhAtiba ho utthii| saMsmaraNa 286

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zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne pratyuttara meM kelave nagara kI vizeSatAeM, ThikAne ke apane saMghIya-saMbaMdha batAte hue pharamAyA bezaka campA maMdiroM meM car3hatA hai, bhaktoM kI bhakti kA mAdhyama banatA hai| manohara hotA hai| usakI bandanIyatA bhI sahI hai| para yaha saba campA kI vizeSatAeM nahIM haiN| mahAnata to hai mAlI kI, kRti hai vRkSa kI, kIrtanA hai bhaktoM kI aura AdaraNIyatA hai sugandhita saphedI kii| - pUjyatA taka pahuMcAne vAle guru hote haiM / mahAnatA hai pUjya gurudeva kAlUgaNI kI, jinhoMne isa campe ko sIMcA-rukhArA / pradhAnatA hai saMgha-vRkSa kI terApaMtha jaise kalpataru kI jisane Azraya diyaa| pramukhatA hai bhaktoM kI, jinhoMne nA-kucha vyakti ko itanA Adara diyA, mAna diyA aura sabase adhika pUjanIyatA hai sugandha-guNayukta sapheda AcAra kii| isalie kavirAjajI yoM kahiye 'mAlI sIMcyo, taru philyo, caDhayo bhaktajana haath| campe rI A pUjyatA, sadA saphedI sAtha / 260 AsIsa

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52 hamArI lakSmaNa-rekhA vi0 saM0 2016 udayapura cAturmAsa ke bAda bhI zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ko vahIM rukanA pdd'aa| para mana nahIM lgaa| thor3A-sA svAsthya sudharA ki vihAra kiyaa| rAjanagarakelavA hote hue hama dinAMka 7-2-63 rIcher3a pahuMce / samagra sAdhu saMgha ko sAtha le AcAryazrI jyeSTha bandhu kI agavAnI meM padhAre / koI Der3ha mIla dUra cArabhujA sar3aka para milana huaa| samavasaraNa meM pahuMcakara punaH svAgata vandanA huI / sAdhviyoM ne maMgala gIta gAye | AcArya deva ne yAtrA saMsmaraNoM ke sAtha bhAIjI mahArAja ke lie anekoM zabda pharamAye / milana ke avasara para AcAryapravara ne eka chappaya - chanda ke mAdhyama se pharamAyA udayApura se Apa hama, cale mile rIcher3a sarala sar3aka lI Apane, hamane lI bhaTabher3a hamane lI bhaTabher3a, moja-mANI magarAMrI, paga-paga dRzya nibhAla cAla dhImI DagarAMrI / kSetra-kSetra saMbhAla maiM, lAgI lambI ger3a, udayApura se Apa hama, cale mile rIcher3a // usa dina vi0 saM0 2016 pauSa zuklA trayodazI thI / saikar3oM saikar3oM bahirabihArI sAdhu-sAdhviyAM ekatrita the / madhyAhna meM AcAryapravara ke sAnnidhya meM eka sAdhvI samAja kI saMgoSThI huI / AcAryazrI saikar3oM sAdhviyoM se ghire hue virAja rahe the| cAroM ora sAdhviyAM hI sAdhviyAM / kahIM rAstA nahIM / bhAIjI mahArAja AcAryazrI ke pAsa jAnA cAhate the / dekhA, sabhI rAste ruke hue haiN| idhara padhAre rAstA banda, udhara padhAre rAstA banda / munizrI ne jora se kahA - 'sagalA hI rAstA banda haiM, ke mhe bhI A sakA hAM ?" saMsmaraNa 261

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sabakA dhyAna ttuuttaa| AcAryapravara ne jarA muskarAkara pharamAyA-'Avo ! Avo ! saba rAste khule haiN| bhalA ! Apake rAste kauna banda kara sakatA hai ?' bhAIjI mahArAja se nahIM rahA gyaa| ve bole-'Apake sivA aura kauna banda kara sakatA hai ?' AcAryapravara ke izAre kI dera thii| sAdhviyoM ne idhara-udhara khisakakara rAstA banA diyaa| munizrI AcAryapravara taka phuNce| pahuMcate-pahuMcate Apane eka padya banAyA aura tatkAla sabhA ke samakSa sunAte hue kahA-khamAghaNI ! sivA Apare kuNa sake, rastA mhArA roka, AjJA lichamaNa-rekha A, 'caMpaka' caur3e cok|' AcArya sahita pUrA sAdhvI samAja haMsa pdd'aa| avasara kI vaha sacoTa bAta aura sAtha-sAtha zAstA kI AjJA kA mahattva, samaya kI eka sUjha thii| __bhAIjI mahArAja ne anAyojita hI eka laghu vaktavya dete hue pharamAyA-'maiM to kucha par3hA-likhA nahIM hUM, para itanA avazya jAnatA hUM ki AjJA hamArA paramadharma hai| 'jina mAraga meM AjJA bar3I' svAmIjI kA amogha vAkya hai| AjJA hI sAdhaka kA jIvana hai| AjJA prANa hai| AjJA rakSA hai| AjJA trANa hai| AjJA hI hamAre lie lakSmaNa-rekhA hai| jaba taka sItA ne lakSmaNa-rekhA kA ullaMghana nahIM kiyA, use koI khatarA nahIM thaa| vaha duSTa rAvaNa kI bAtoM meM A gyii| saMnyAsI ke dhokhe meM jyoMhI usane rekhA ko lAMghA ki rAvaNa kA dAMva laga gyaa| sItA ko kitane kaSTa jhelane par3e ? hamAre lie yaha AjJA DhAla hai| surakSA kI isa sImA-rekhA meM rahakara hama parama-Ananda kA anubhava karate haiN| sAta hAtha kI sor3a meM sote haiN| koI har3akA hai na dhdd'kaa| khullama-khullA bAta hai-hama to AjJA ke pujArI haiM / AcArya kI AjJA hI hamAre lie lakSmaNa-rekhA hai| Apake dvArA nikAlI gayI niSedha-lakIra hamAre lie dIvAra hai, samudra kI-sI khAI hai / hama usa niSedha,rekhA kA laMghana nahIM kara skte| ataH gurudeva ! maiMne kahane kA sAhasa kiyA hai| sivA Apare kuNa sake, rastA mhArA rok| AjJA lichamaNa-rekha A 'campaka' caur3e coka' 262 AsIsa

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53 yaza bhI bhAgya se milatA hai 2016 mAgha kRSNA caturdazI kI bAta hai| AcAryapravara kelavA rAja-mahaloM meM virAje the| muni khUbacandajI kI AMta utara gayI / gosA utara jAne ke bAda paTTA lagA lenA bhI to galatI thI, para ho gyii| kaTibandha ke dabAva se rAstA sikur3a gyaa| bharasaka prayatna kiye, para AMta Upara nahIM cddh'ii| becainI bar3ha gyii| vaha to bar3hanI hI thii| khUba muni jaisA rAMgar3a, praur3ha, sAhasI aura chAtI ke ThaDDe vAlA AdamI bhI hatAza ho gyaa| hAya-hAya kI usa sthiti meM aneka jAnakAra logoM kI sabhI karAmAteM asaphala rhiiN| koI cAra ghaMTe ke bAda rAjanagara ke sarakArI DaoNkTara reu sAhaba phuNce| unhoMne dekhA, prayatna kiyA, jyoM-tyoM AMta car3ha jAe, anta meM ve bole-'aba oNparezana ke atirikta aura koI ilAja nahIM hai| inheM rAjanagara bhejo / maiM zalya-kriyA kruuNgaa| bacane kA ekamAtra yahI upAya hai|| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja AcAryazrI jI kI sevA meM padhAre / sthiti nivedana kI. vicAra-vimarza huA, vApasa lauTe aura muni khUbacanda jI se pharamAne lage-'dekho, khUbacanda jI! maranA to sAmane dIkha rahA hai| isakA koI vicAra bhI nahIM hai| aba do rAste haiM--eka gRhasthoM kA Azraya lenA, yaha zAyada tumheM bhI pasaMda nahIM, mujhe bhI pasanda nhiiN| dUsarA samabhAva se kaSTa sahana krnaa| maiM bhI isa vedanA kI asahyatA ko pahacAnatA huuN| ilAja vidhi ke anusAra hogA, para tumheM rAjanagara jAnA par3egA, tuma paidala jA sako saMbhava nahIM hai| santa uThAkara pahuMcAeMge / bolo kyA icchA __ ve bole-'maiM kahUM bhI to kyA ? Apa jaisI vyavasthA kareM, mujhe maMjUra hai / gurudeva kI jo marajI ho / maranA to hai hI para yoM tar3apa-tar3apakara maranA par3egA yaha nahIM jAnA thaa| jo kucha karanA ho Apa hI kareM, maiM saMgha kI zaraNa meM huuN|' saMsmaraNa 263

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zrI bhAIjI mahArAja AcArya pravara se vyavasthA dene kA nivedana karane padhAre / koI daseka kadama gaye hoMge, svara dekhA, vApasa mudd'e| DaoNkTara bole-'kyoM sAhaba ! kyA socA?' bhAIjI mahArAja ne kahA-'DaoNkTara ! mere mana meM AyA, ina sabane prayatna kara liyA, maiM bhI dekhU to sahI yaha AMta kyoM nahIM car3hatI ?' munizrI virAje / svAmIjI kA smaraNa kiyA aura AMta para hAtha kA dabAva diyaa| sahArA lagA ki AMta khaTa, Upara car3ha gyii| muni khUbacanda jI bole'jilA diyaa|' ___ DaoNkTara reu acaMbhita the| unhoMne kahA-~bhAIjI mahArAja ! Apa meM tapa kA bala hai| santoM ne kahA-punyavAna ke hAtha meM hI karAmAta hotI hai| bhAIjI mahArAja ! Apane kyA aTakala lagAyI? aura bhAIjI mahArAja kaha rahe the 'aTakala-paTakala kucha nahIM, kala bAbaiM ko nAMva / jasa jada milaNe ro hue, (to) 'campaka' lAgeM dAMva' sanate hI AcAryapravara svayaM padhAre aura pharamAyA-campAlAlajI svAmI! 'yazaH punyairavApyate'-'yaza bhI bhAgya se milatA hai|' 264 AsIsa

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54 bhagata jIta gayA mevAr3a meM pahuMnA ke najadIka hI UMcA eka choTA-sA gAMva hai| ve loga prArthanA kara rahe haiM padhArane kI / para zrI kA mana kama-kama hai / prAtaH paMcamI -samiti ( zauca - nivRtti) padhArate samaya rAste meM zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne nivedana kiyA - mahAmahima ! jarA gaura pharamAo na, becAre UMcA vAloM kA itanA mana hai, phira kaba-kaba padhAranA hogA, karavA do na kRpA, Apa to tarana tArana haiM / AcAryazrI ne muskarAkara pharamAyA- unakA mana kyA dekheM, mana to dekhanA par3atA hai ApakA | itane meM UMcA kuMvara sAhaba pahuMca ge| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne kahA, kuMvara - sA ! khUba mauke para aae| unhoMne paira pakar3a liye / bhAIjI mahArAja ne sahArA diyA / gurudeva UMcA padhAre / UMcA se pahuMnA, marolI, jAr3ANA hokara bhImagar3ha praveza huA / yahIM se lAMgaca gAMva kA rAstA hai| bhAI mAMgIlAla bahuta dinoM se prayatna meM haiM - AcAryazrI kA lAMgaca padArpaNa ho, para gurudeva abhI TAlane meM haiM / Aja mAMgIlAla rAstA roka, paira pakar3akara baiTha gayA / lagabhaga sabhI saMtajana bhI nA meM haiM / zAstA ke nAte khIjabIja - bhIja saba kucha kiyA, para vaha baMdA Tasa se masa nahIM huA / aMta pasIjakara AcAryavara rIjhe aura pharamAyA - campAlAlajI svAmI ! bolo, aba kyA kareM ? zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne cuTakI lete hue kahA - mahArAja ! yaha bhagata aura bhagavAna kA jhagar3A hai, hama kauna hote haiM bIca meM bolane vAle, hama to khar3e-khar3e dekha rahe haiM, dekheM ! Aja kauna jItatA hai-bhagata yA bhagavAn ? AcAryazrI ne lAMgaca padhArane kI ghoSaNA kI aura bhAIjI mahArAja ne kahA -- vAha ! vAha ! vAha ! Aja to bhagata jIta gayA, bhagata jIta gayA / vi0 saM0 saMsmaraNa 265

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2016 caitra kRSNA teraha ko lAMgaca kI grAmINa sabhA meM bolate hue bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA mAMgI, mAMga karI ghaNI, para nahIM mAnI eka paDyo gurAM maiM pighalaNI, rahI bhagata kI Teka. 1 bhagata bar3o saMsAra maiM, saba lI ikamati ThAna, (para) bhagatA rai lArai jhukai, dekho yUM bhagavAna 2 bhagatI maiM sagatI vividha-jugatI kareM vinIta, rIta prIta rI dekhalyo, huI bhagata rI jIta...3 296 AsIsa

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55 pagaDaMDI kA rAstA hamane eka gAMva se vihAra / gAMva kA nAma to maiM bhUla gayA para mevAr3a kI ghaTanA hai / kiyA / sar3aka sar3aka cala rahe the| sar3aka bhI kaccI thI rAstA magarI ( pahAr3iyoM) kA thaa| thor3I dUra cale ki eka ghumAva para hamane apane Age calane vAlI munimaMDalI ko dekhA / aisA lagA ki bahuta ghumAva hai / idhara-udhara dekhane para eka pagaDaMDI dikha par3I / vaha bahuta sApha to nahIM thI, para thI cAlU / santoM ne bhAIjI mahArAja se kahA - moTA puruSAM ! sar3aka to bahuta ghUma rahI hai / yaha pagaDaMDI kA rAstA sIdhA nikalegA / do kSaNa rukakara munizrI ne pharamAyA - nA bhAI ! nA, zakuna roka rahe haiM, yaha rAstA galata honA caahie| hama sar3aka sar3aka Age bddh'e| koI dasa kadama bhI nahIM cale hoMge, munizrI ne pharamAyA- lagatA hai pIche vAle santa kahIM bhaTaka jAeMge, ataH pagaDaMDI para niSedha cihna (krosa) to kara do| Apane apane ger3iye se krosa kA cihna kara diyA / ghumAva ke usa chora para jAkara hamane dekhA to pichale santa hamArI usI pagaDaMDI ko dekha rahe haiM / jo hamAre mana meM AI unake bhI AI hogI / unhoMne niSedha -cihna kI paravAha na kara, pagaDaMDI le lI / munizrI ne dUra se bahuta saMketa kie para ve unheM ulaTA hI lete gaye / unake kadama zIghra gati se mArga taya kara rahe the| do minaTa ke bAda to ve hameM dIkhane se hI rahe / ve cAhate the, hama bhAIjI mahArAja ko pIche chor3a, Age pahuMca jaaeN| unhoMne gati ko aura bar3hA diyA / javAnI ke dina the, pairoM meM tAkata thI / binA idhara-udhara dekhe, ve apanI dhuna meM calate hI gaye / mIloM kA rAstA taya kara liyA para abhI mUla sar3aka nahIM AyI / AtI kaise ? sar3aka usa pahAr3I se pUrva kI ora mur3a gaI / ve bhale AdamI apanI mastI meM pagaDaMDI para calate hI cale / pagaDaMDI pazcima kI ora ghUmatI gii| agalI TekarI pAra karane para unake sAmane eka sUkhI saMsmaraNa 267

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barasAtI nadI A gyii| basa, vahAM jAkara pagaDaMDI samApta / aba jAeM bhI to kidhara ? pUche bhI to kise ? vIrAna jaMgala / himmata bahAdura ve donoM santa ujjar3a jaMgala meM raDabhar3ate dupaharI meM jAte eka choTe se AdivAsI gAMva meM phuNce| do ghaMTA vizrAma kiyaa| DhalatI dupaharI meM ve agale gAMva kA rAstA pUchate-pUchate sAyaMkAla hamase Akara mile| ve khuda khinna ho gaye the| bhAI jI mahArAja to dasa baje se unakI cintA meM the| na jAne kitane logoM se puuchaa| kitanoM ne hI khoja-khabara ke prayatna kie, para kahIM atA-patA nahIM lgaa| jaba santa sahI-salAmata pahuMce taba jAkara munizrI ko caina par3A / jyoM hI santa Ae, unheM Azvasta kiyaa| kucha vizrAma karAkara, pAsa meM baiTha AhAra krvaayaa| dina thor3A thaa| AhAra-pAnI kara cukane ke bAda unheM sArA hAla puuchaa| ve pazcAttApa ke svaroM meM apanI Apa-bItI batA rahe the| isI bIca bhAIjI mahArAja ne madhura hAsya bikherate hue kahA gaphalata syUM gotA paDe, kheda khinna ho jyaay| 'campaka' jo patha cUkajyA, (vo) paga-paga para pichatAya // ' 298 AsIsa

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56 yaha kaisI buddhimAnI 2016 caitra kRSNA caturdazI ko AcAryapravara razamI se vihAra kara mAnyAsa padhAra rahe the / / muni mAMgIlAla jI saradArazahara vAle Age-Age cala rahe the| unakI cAla yoM hI DhIlI-DhAlI thii| tapata aura mevAr3I rAstA, bhaMDopakaraNoM kA atyadhika bojha aura zarIra bhArI, ve parezAna ho, eka sthAna para baiTha ge| bhAIjI mahArAja dayAlu haiN| kisI saMta para ve yoM hI dayAlu ho jAyA krte| phira asahAya aura kamajora para to ve prAya: pighala uThate the| muni mAMgIlAla jI zarIra se bhArI, apasa, uTThANA kriyA meM zithila, AlasI para the bahuzruta / buddhi tIvra aura yAdadAsta bajarATa hai / sAta Agama unheM kaMThastha haiN| hAM, yadi thor3AsA pramAda nahIM hotA to kyA kahanA? ve apane Apako 'madhura' kahate the| donoM bApa-beToM ne sAtha dIkSA lI thii| unake pitAjI kA nAma phUsarAja jI svAmI thaa| ve bhI Agama-jJAtA, tattvadarzI santa the| kisI sAdhu ko baiThA dekha dUra se bhAIjI mahArAja ne pUchA--yaha kauna baiThA hai ? santoM ne kahA-Alasa-nikAya madhura muni / ve kAma karane meM DhIle the| pratilekhana, pratikramaNa bhI sabake bAda pUrA hotA thA / mana ke sarala the para Alasa ke kAraNa santa unheM Alasa-nikAya kaha dete| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja usa santa kI ora mur3akara bole-nA bhAI ! aisA nahIM kahA krte| yaha to bahuzruta hai| 'bahuzruta kI AzAtana mata kro|' bhAIjI mahArAja ko najadIka Ate dekha muni mAMgIlAla jI svAmI utthe| munizrI ne hamadardI dikhaayii| unase bojha maaNgaa| thaka gayA kyA mAMgU? lA! vajana de de, ArAma se calA jaaegaa| unakA jholakA bahuta bhArI thA, hAtha meM uThAyA to patthara jaisA lgaa| ThikAne Akara muni hIrAlAla jI se bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyAhIrA ! isakA bojhA kama kara do bhAI ! hama kucha santa baitthe| unakI nezrAya kA saMsmaraNa 266

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apanA vajana 18 sera lagabhaga niklaa| hamane dina meM do ghaMTA lagAkara AvazyakaanAvazyaka pustaka panne aura kapar3oM-lattoM ko chAMTA / para unakA mana nahIM mAnA, eka-eka kara sAMjha taka sabhI upakaraNa aura panne vApasa le gye| jaba bhAIjI mahArAja ke Tokane para bhI ve nahIM samajhe, to munizrI ne pharamAyA 'mAMgIlAla mataMga jyUM cAla, phUsarAja rA puut| bina matalaba hI khAMdhA taur3eM, A kuNAsI AkRta / / ' 300 AsIsa

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57 gaMgApura meM do saMvat vi0 saM0 2016 kA rAjanagara maryAdA- mahotsava sampanna kara gurudeva bhANA, jatapurA hote hue phAlguna zuklA 12 ko gaMgApura pdhaare| holI ke bAda gaMgApura vAloM kA Agraha thA ki lambA virAjanA ho / AcAryapravara ne pharamAyA - campAlAla jI svAmI ( bhAIjI mahArAja) ko rAjI karo / inhoMne pahUne vAloM ko lagA diyA hai / gaNeza kUkar3e kA samarthana bhAIjI kara rahe haiM / gaMgApura vAloM ne bhAIjI mahArAja se kahA / munizrI ne pharamAyA - maiM tumhAre aMtarAya nahIM detA, para ye tumhAre, ar3osa-par3osa meM basane vAle bhI to tumhAre hI choTe bhAI haiM, bar3A bhAI, bhAI ko na dekhe, kyA yaha ThIka hai ? kucha saMtoSa karo, bAMTa-bAMTakara khAnA sIkho / gaNeza kUkar3e kI AMkheM bhara AIM / AcAryazrI jI pasIje / pura pahune padhArane kA Adeza dete hue pharamAyA-'campAlAlajI svAmI jisake pakSa meM khar3e ho jAte haiM, vaha mukadamA jIta jAtA hai| gaNeza ne bar3A vakIla khar3A kara liyA / merA mana bilakula nahIM thA, para vivazatA bhI eka honahAra hai aura sabakI bAta TAla sakatA hUM para bhAIjI mahArAja kA Agraha to maiM bhI nahIM TAla sakatA / ' 1 caita badI paMcamI ko vihAra huA / nAMdasA, syoratI, mahendragar3ha, kAroI, pura, gADaramAlA hokara pahunA padhAre / gaNezajI kUkar3A ne abhinandana patra meM par3hA'isa avasara para hama jyeSTha bhrAtA sevAbhAvI munizrI campAlAla jI svAmI kA hArdika AbhAra mAnate haiM jinake apUrva sahayoga ne ApazrI ke zrI caraNoM ko isa dharatI kI ora Ane ke lie bAdhya kiyA / ' UMcA, marolI, jADANA, bhImagar3ha, lAMgaca, car3Avar3I, rAsmI, mAnyAsa, revAr3A, syonANA, lAkholA 'hokara caita kRSNA amAvasyA ko punaH gaMgApura padhAranA huA / bhAjI mahArAja ne Ate hI pharamAyA saMsmaraNa 301

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'gaMgApUra syaM gaMgApura taka, divasa gyAraha lAgyA, pura 'pahUMno milA, bhAga aTThAraha gAMvA rA jaagyaa|' AcAryapravara ne prasannatApUrvaka pharamAyA-campAlAla jI svAmI ! ApakA sujhAva ThIka rahA / thor3e samaya meM bahuta sAre gAMva pharase gye| Aja caitra zuklA pratipadA hai| nayA samvat 2020 prArambha hote hI bhAIjI mahArAja ne gurudeva ko naye varSa kI zubhakAmanAeM eka Agama vAkya ke sAtha nivedita kI 'nANeNaM dasaNeNaM ca, caritteNa taheva ya / khaMtIe muttIe, vaDaDhmANo bhavAhi ya // ' Arya ! Apake lie yaha nayA varSa jJAna se, darzana se, caritra se, kSamA se, mukti se pravardhamAna ho| ___ gaMgApura ke logoM ne kahA-bhAIjI mahArAja ne hamAre dina kaTavA die| munizrI ne pharamAyA-aisA nahIM, yoM kaho amAvasI padharAvaNo, . ekama huvai vihAra / dosamvat gaMgApurapharasyA, 'campaka' jaya-jayakAra // ' bhAI ! tumheM to do varSa mile haiM 2016 aura 2020 / kama kahAM hai ? kama mata kaho, yoM kaho-jaya-jayakAra kara diyaa| do varSa pharase ge| 302 AsIsa

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58. ImAnadArI kI bAta koI mAnegA? 26 mArca 1963, caitra zuklA 4-5, vi0 saM0 2016 kA dina thaa| madhyAhnottara 3-30 saradAragar3halAvA se vihAra kara hama AgariyA phuNce| sAyaMkAlIna guruvandanA ke bAda bhAIjI mahArAja pratikramaNa kara rahe the / eka bhAI AyA aura kAna meM kucha kaha gyaa| koI khAsa bAta hai / cehare kI khinna rekhAeM batA rahI thiiN| eka ke bAda dUsarA, tIsarA, cauthA yoM pratikramaNa ke bIca kucha logoM kA AnA-jAnA, ghusa-pusa karanA, spaSTa kisI shasya kA saMketa thaa| sabhI loga manomana aTakaleM lagA rahe the / koI apanA anumAna batA rahA thA to koI kisI ko pUchane ke prayatna meM thaa| pratikramaNa pUrA hote hI bhAIjI mahArAja ne do kSaNa AcAryazrI ke kAna meM kucha kahA aura binA kisI vicAra-vimarza ke punaH apane Asana para virAja gye| idhara-udhara dekhakara mujhe najadIka Ane kA saMketa kiyA / maiM jyoM hI munizrI ke nikaTa pahuMcA ki binA koI bhUmikA bAMdhe, kar3e rukha se Apane pUchA-sApha-sApha btaao| vaha kahAM hai ? ghasa-pasa kI jarUrata nahIM hai| ___maiM bhauMcakkA raha gyaa| dhak-dhaka kalejA dhar3akane lgaa| hAthoM-pAMvoM meM kampana zurU ho gyaa| cehare kI havA ur3a gyii| maiM dig-mUr3ha thA / yaha kaisA prazna ? yaha kaisI kar3AI ? bhAIjI mahArAja ne Age pharamAyA-ghabarAo mata ? Darane kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai, jo honA thA ho gayA / yathArtha ko binA chupAe yaha batAo vaha hai kahAM? jahAM santoM ne sone kA sthAna nirNaya kiyA thA, vaha vahAM nahIM hai| yahAM bhI nahIM hai ? vahAM bhI nahIM hai / kevala usakI netrAya kA oghA usa ThikAne ke daravAjepolI meM par3A hai| tuma donoM ghaniSTha sAthI ho / tumhAre bIca AMtarika salAha-sUta bhI hotI hai| jo kucha bhI hai| sApha-sApha batA do, tAki DhUMr3hane vAloM ko nAhaka saMsmaraNa 303

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parezAnI na ho| __ maiM aba taka mauna, nIcA sira jhukAe, jamIna kureda rahA thA / mujhe anabola dekha, bhAIjI mahArAja ne merI pITha para hAtha rkhaa| prema se sahalAte hue pharamAyA--yaha koI tumhAre para Aropa thor3A hI hai / tuma Dara kyoM gae? jo honA hotA hai use koI roka nahIM sktaa| tumheM jo patA ho vaha batA do / lagatA hai, usake paira ukhar3a gae haiN| vaha saMgha chor3akara bhAga gayA hai, kAyara' kahIM kaa| maiM isa ghaTanA se sarvathA anabhijJa thaa| rAta-dina sAtha rahane vAle sAthI ke viSaya meM yaha kalpanA bhI nahIM kI jA sktii| maiMne kAMpate svaroM meM kahA-saca-saca to yaha hai ki mujhe koI patA nahIM hai, para merI isa ImAnadArI kI bAta ko koI mAnegA ? maiM bolakara kyA karUM?' / bhAIjI mahArAja ne mujhe Azvasta karate hue pharamAyA--dekha, auroM ko vizvAsa ho na ho, para mujhe to pratIta hai| mere sAmane tUne kabhI galata bAta nahIM kii| maiM mAnatA hUM terI calatI bAta kA lahajA hI kucha aura hotA hai / para, yaha huAkaise ? akalpanIya, acintya'' 'kahate-kahate munizrI gaMbhIra ho ge| dIkSita hokara prArambha se hI puSparAja jI bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa hI rahe the| unakA sArA saMskAra-nirmANa munizrI ke hAthoM se huA thaa| apane hAtha se pAle-pose paudhoM ko yoM apratyAzita jar3eM chor3ate dekha, mana meM AnA svAbhAvika thA / usameM bhI bhAIjI mahArAja jaise vAtsalya pradhAna, dayArdra-hRdayI ke lie aura bhI dusahya thaa| bIsa sAla kA hamArA apanA sAnnidhya, antaraMga ekatva, Aja anabole hI TUTa gayA thA / TUTa gayA thA yA jAna-bUjhakara tor3a diyA gayA thA / para kheda to isa bAta kA ho rahA thA ki binA kisI pUrva sUcanA, sandeha ke eka tUphAna AyA aura sahasA saba kucha ur3Akara le gyaa| prAtaH se sAyaMkAla taka eka sAtha rahane, baiThane, bolane aura kArya karane vAloM ko itanA-sA bhI surAkha na lage, yaha avazya sandehAspada thA, para jo yathArtha thA, vaha sahI thaa| mujhe kisI bhI taraha kA na to patA hI thA aura na sandeha / bhAIjI mahArAja ke mana kI pratikriyA eka dohe ke mAdhyama se yoM nikalI-.. 'o kAMTo kadasyUM ugyo, are! phUTarA phUla ! 'campaka' hokara catura kyaM, gaI vidhAtA bhUla ?' mana ko khaTakatI huI tIvra vedanA zabdAvalI meM phUla ke misa ubharI / aksara bhAIjI mahArAja puSparAja ke sthAna para phUla kA sambodhana karate the| puSpa aura phUla ekArthaka jo haiN| 304 AsIsa

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56 mana kA kAMTA vi0 saM0 2016 vaizAkha kRSNA 4, 13 apraila, 1663, kI bAta hai / rAmasiMhajI ke gur3e se vihAra kara hama rANAvAsa jA rahe the / mArga meM eka babUla kA kAMTA bhAIjI mahArAja ke paira ke talave meM cubha gyaa| kAMTA usI sthAna para cubhA jahAM pahale se AiThANa (aiThaNa) thA / eka pAMva bhI Age calanA kaThina ho gyaa| kAMTA nikAlane ke lie bharasaka prayatna kie para vaha nahIM nikalA so nahIM hI nikalA / yaha pradeza kAMThA hai / yahAM ke kAMTe bhI nAmI haiM / parasoM hI eka kAMTA lagA thA / - pUrI zUla pagathalI meM ghusa gayI thii| bar3I kaThinatA se use pUrI tAkata ke sAtha khIMcakara nikAlA thA / eka jhaTake meM zUla to nikala gayI para sAtha hI khUna kI dhAra bhI baha nikaalii| paira meM acchA-khAsA darda ho gayA / seka Adi karane para vaha kucha halakA par3a hI rahA thA ki Aja usI ke pAsa dUsarA kAMTA aura laga gayA / laMgar3Ate nITha-nITha rANAvAsa liyA / kaI santoM ne jo kAMTA mAsTara the. kozizeM kIM para vaha bhI to pUrA jiddI ThaharA, nikAlane vAle sAre hAra gae / anta meM jhuMjhalAkara bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-' chor3o aba mujhe do' aura dekhatehI dekhate zUla kA eka gaharA sAntA diyA aura kAMTe ko Upara uThA liyA / aba kyA thA koI eka iMca lambA kAMTA sapAka bAhara nikala AyA / kAMTe ko dekhakara munizrI bole 'kAMTo paga se kAr3ha deM, 'campaka' catura cakora / (para) mana ro kAMTo mAyalo, kaho kuNa kADhai kora ? || ' sabhI ne santoM ko -- jo vahAM upasthita the - bhAIjI mahArAja kI isa mArmika paMkti ne gaMbhIra banA diyaa| hama sabhI bAhya pariveza ko chor3a bhItara ko jhAMkane lage / saMsmaraNa 305

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majadUra peTa bhara sakatA hai, dhana nahIM jor3a sakatA 10 apraila, 1963 jojAvara (mAravAr3a) ke bAhara eka nayI bastI basI hai| usameM sAMsI loga rahate haiM / vahAM unheM kaMjara kahate haiM / pakke makAna / acche kapar3e, thor3AsA tthaatthiyaa| bhAIjI mahArAjha ne paira thAmakara dekhA aura pUchA yaha bastI kisakI hai? itane meM eka lar3akI AtI dikhAI dii| hama do minaTa ruke / munizrIne usase pUchA--- bAI ! tuma kauna loga ho? vaha hindI bola sakatI thii| usane hAtha jor3akara uttara diyA-mahArAja ! hama to kaMjara loga haiN| usakI sabhyatA, pahanAva, bolI-cAlI aura namratA kaMjaroM jaisI nahIM thii| usane batAyA-hama loga bhI aba zaharI sabhyatA sIkha rahe haiN| jaisA deza vaisA vesh| hamArI jAti ke kucha nayI pIr3hI ke bacce par3hane bhI lage haiN| jaba usase kAmakAja ke viSaya meM pUchA to vaha jarA ThiThaka gyii| usane sasaMkoca sIdhA-sAdA uttara diyA---gAMva meM idhara-udhara kA kAma hI karate haiM, mahArAja! hama Age bddh'e| hamAre sAtha kucha gvAloM ke bacce ho gae the / ve bher3a-bakarI carAne jA rahe the| unhoMne hamArI bAteM sunI thiiN| vaha lar3akI kAphI dUra nikala gyii| hama bhI kaMjara bastI pAra kara gaye / gar3ariye bhI hamAre sAtha-sAtha the| ve phUla-phUlakara gubbArA hue jA rahe the / kucha kahanA cAhate the| para kahane kI himmata nahIM ho rahI thii| eka kahatA thA-'tU kaha' aura dUsarA kahatA thA 'itanI balata hai to kaha de tU hii|' bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA- kyoM bhAI ! kyA kahanA cAhate ho ? lo maiM pUchatA hUM, tuma donoM hI batA do| __unameM se eka ne kahA-santo! Apa jisase bAta kara rahe the--vaha kaMjaroM kI chorI thii| ye kaMjara bar3e chAkaTe hote haiN| Apane jaba usase pUchA-tuma kyA kAma karate ho, to vaha bolI kyoM nahIM ? bolatI kaise mahArAja ! pAnI maratA hai, paanii| ye loga cora haiM, corI karate haiN| binA corI ke kabhI paise ikaTThe hote haiM ? ye 306 AsIsa

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pakke makAna, bar3hiyA-bar3hiyA kapar3e aura rahIsI ThATha-bATa, sabhI majadUrI se thor3A hI hotA hai ? majadUra peTa to bhara sakatA hai, para dhana nahIM jor3a sakatA / dhana kA Dhera to corI se hI hotA hai, santoM! ___anapar3ha bher3a-bakarI carAne cAle, baccoM kI bAta bhAIjI mahArAja ke khaTokhaTa jaMca gyii| bAta solaha AnA sahI thI aura thI binA kisI namaka-miraca ke| sIdhesAde zabdoM meM mana kI khulI bAta bhAIjI mahArAja ko khUba pasanda thii| Aja dina meM bahuta bAra munizrI ne usI bAta ko duharAyA-'mAThA ! chorA bhArI jJAna kI bAta kahI / ' prAtaHkAlIna vyAkhyAna meM bhAIjI mahArAja ne vahI prasaMga cher3A aura kahA 'eka jagyAM darar3oM par3e, (jada) Dhigalo dUjo tthor| 'campaka' dhana corI binA, bhelo havai na bhora // ' saMsmaraNa 307

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jAnavara kA kyA ? 10 apraila, 1963 ko vaisAkha kRSNA dUsarI pratipadA thii| hama jojAvara ke gar3ha meM Thahare the / jojAvara ThAkura sAhaba bar3e sAhasI aura sevA-parAyaNa haiN| unhoMne bhAIjI mahArAja se nivedana kiyA--jarA Apa pichabAr3e padhAro to Apako eka zera kA baccA dikhaauuN| bhAIjI mahArAja ne zleSAlaMkAra meM pharamAyA-ThAkarAM ! zera kA baccA kyA, hama to zera ko hI dekha rahe haiN| sevAbhAvI munizrI jI ke sAtha jojAvara ThikAne kA ghaniSTha sambandha hai| ThAkaroM kA bhakti-bhAva aura munizrI kA vAtsalya dono hI bejor3a haiN| bhAIjI mahArAja ne haMsakara kahA-ThAkarAM! khullA zera dekhane kI to manasA rahatI hai, para Apake zera kA baccA to piMjar3e meM hogA? banda zera ko kyA dekheM ? ThAkura bole, hakma ! vahI dikhAUMgA jo ApakI manasA hai, jarA padhAro to shii| munizrI bAr3e meM padhAre / ThAkura-sA daur3akara Age cale ge| hamane dekhA ThAkaroM ke sAtha kutte kI taraha jaMjIra se baMdhA eka zera kA baccA A rahA hai / unhoMne use saMketoM ke AdhAra para liTAyA, uThAyA aura muMha meM aMgulI dii| vaha zera hokara bhI pAlatU jAnavara bana gayA thaa| bhAIjI mahArAja bar3e nirbhIka aura sAhasI the| unakA rAjapUtI mAnasa anokhA thaa| munizrI jarA Age bar3he aura zera ko jyoM hI hAtha se chuA ki vaha gurraayaa| ThAkara ne batAyA-bhAIjI mahArAja! abhI taka isake muMha para khUna nahIM lagA hai| yaha nahIM jAnatA khUna kA svAda kaisA hotA hai ? maiM ise pAsa meM biThAkara sotA huuN| yaha palyaMka ke cAroM ora cakkara lagAtA ghUmatA rahatA hai| bhAIjI mahArAja jarA gambhIra ho gae-ThAkarAM ! o AsaMgo Acho konI? 308 AsIsa

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o jinAvara hai, Aja to minakhAM roi vizvAsa konI rahyo, iMjinAvara ko ke ?' ThIka nahIM hai ThAkarAM!, bejAM o vizvAsa / anta jinAvara jAta ro, campaka ke ikalAsa // campaka ke ikalAsa, ka Acho nahi aasNgo| binA aratha koI vagata, acAnaka badhai addNgo|| khataranAka khuMkhAra nai, rakhaNo ghaNo najIka / nIpItAM rI prIta A, nahIM ThAkarAM! ThIka // saMsmaraNa .. 309

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62 muMha kaise nikalegA? bIkAnera, hamAloM kI bArI ke bAhara, gaMgAzahara-mArga kI bAta hai / nAhaToM kI bagIcI ke pAsa hama AcAryapravara ke Agamana kI rAha dekha rahe the| bhAIjI mahArAja kA dhyAna eka ora par3e ghaDe (maMgala) para gyaa| eka kuttA bAra-bAra usameM muMha DAlane kA yatna kara rahA thaa| apanA-apanA andAjA hai| prAyaH dekhA gayA hai bhAIjI mahArAja kA andAjA zatapratizata sahI utaratA hai| kutte ko dekha munizrI ne pharamAyA-lagatA hai, isa ghar3e meM koI na koI khAne kI cIja hai| kuttA khAne ke lobha meM prayatna to kara rahA hai-kisI taraha muMha bhItara taka pahuMca jAe |aur jora lagAne para muMha bhItara calA bhI jAegA para yaha ajJAnI itanA nahIM samajhatA, phaMsA huA muMha phira nikalegA kaise ? hama bAta kara hI rahe the ki vahI huA, jo bhAIjI mahArAja kA andAjA thaa| kutte ne jora lagAyA aura muMha ghar3e meM phaMsa gyaa| aba to lene ke dene par3a gaye / kuttA ghabarA gayA / vaha aMdhere meM bhaTake prANI kI bhAMti digmUr3ha ho gyaa| use kucha dIkha nahIM rahA thA / vaha par3osa ke Dhisse kI ora Upara car3hane lagA / vaha car3hatA hai phira lur3hakatA hai, nIce taka A giratA hai| phira car3hatA hai phira giratA hai| itane meM AcAryazrI padhAra gae / bhAIjI mahArAja ne saMketa karate hue pharamAyA, "khamA ! andAtA ! dikhAo ! ajJAnI kutte kI dshaa| o lobha hI marAvai hai iM minakha nai|" AcAryapravara ne kadama roke aura pUchA-aba yaha kaise nikalegA ? pAsa khar3e eka gRhastha ne kahA--nikala jAegA yoM hii| bhAIjI mahArAja ne arja kI-nahIM-nahIM, andAtA ! yoM nikalane vAlA nahIM hai| yaha galavA isa kadara isake gale meM phaMsA hai ki ghar3A phUTa jAne ke bAda bhI yaha galAvar3A to saMbhavataH isake gale meM kaI dina rhegaa| 310 AsIsa

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dekhate-dekhate vaha kuttA eka bAra phira caDhAI meM kAphI Upara taka car3hA aura phira lur3haka gayA / jaba taka caiM caiM karatA nIce AyA, AcAryazrI ke sAtha rahane vAle kAsI haNUtArAma jATa ne ghar3e para eka lakar3I maarii| phaTAka ghar3A phUTA ghar3A to phUTa gayA, para usakA galA kutte ke gale meM hI raha gayA / kuttA mukta hote hI isa kadara bhAgA mAno piMjare se paMchI chUTA ho / hamane kaI dinoM taka dekhA vaha kuttA usa galave ko apane gale meM liye phiratA rahA / jaba bhI vaha hameM dikhatA bhAIjI mahArAja pharamAte vaha rahA 'kedAra kaMgaNa / ' " lAgyo 'campaka' ' lobha maiM, kukkara binA vicAra / kaI dinoM taka khaTakasI, o kaMgaNa kedAra / / " saMsmaraNa 311

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jeTa kI jeTa kaccI muni vasantalAlajI (peTalAvada) zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa 17 varSoM se the| vaise unakA svabhAva bholA thaa| sevA kA guNa aura prakRti milanasAra thii| ve bAlotarA maryAdA mahotsava zatAbdI para munizrI ke pAsa Aye aura rone lge| bhAIjI mahArAja ne pUchA-kyA bAta hai ? ve kucha bola nahIM paaye| itane meM unake saMsAra pakSIya pitA muni jar3Avacanda jI pahuMce / ve kahane lage-bhAIjI mahArAja ! ApakI baDI kRpA rahI hai| Apa bar3e haiM / Apake hAtha lambe haiM / merA nibhAva kisI taraha ho jAe, Apako kRpA karAnI pdd'egii| bur3hApe meM sahayoga ke binA kaise pAra par3e ? __ bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-jar3AvajI ! nizcita rho| saMgha meM saba kA nibhAva hogaa| tumhAre nibhAva ke lie hI to gurudeva ne dayA kara tumhArA siMghAr3A kiyA hai| jabaki hama saba jAnate haiM, siMghAr3e kI yogyatA tumhAre aura mere meM kitanI hai ? nibhAva santoM ke sahayoga se hogA / saMta nibhAo / prakRti ko basa meM kro| ve bole-nibhAva ke lie hI to Apase arja karatA huuN|| bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-nibhAva to guru deva krvaayeNge| rAste-rAste calo, nibhAva sabakA ho rahA hai, hogaa| ve bole-vasantIlAla jI svAmI ko mere sAtha bhejane kI kRpA karAo / inake binA merA nibhAva nahIM hotaa| gurudeva ne pharamAyA hai-pahale campAlAla jI svAmI se puucho| __bhAIjI mahArAja ne kahA-yaha to AcArya deva kI kRpA hai / vasantalAla merA nahIM hai, gurudeva kA hai| unhoMne mujhe diyA, mere pAsa hai / tumheM dilAye, tumhAre sAtha ho jaaegaa| para isase pUchA hai ? isakA kyA mana hai ? ___ vasantalAlajI bole--merA mana jAne kA hai / Akhira mere pitA haiN| ye kahate haiM-sAtha calo, varanA merA nibhAva nahIM hogA / inakA mana kamajora ho gayA hai / 312 AsIsa

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mahArAja ! merI galatI mApha kareM, maiMne Apase pUche binA hI gurudeva ko arja kara dI munizrI ne pharamAyA-pUche binA arja to kara dI, para yaha salAha kisane dI tere ko| dekha, burA to tere ko bhI lagegA aura inako bhI lagegA, para ye lakSaNa bApa ke nahIM pApa ke haiN| kahIM tujhe na Dubo de, dhyAna rkhnaa| are ! bApa ro moha o, Acho nahiM hai anta / 'campaka' phor3A par3elA, suNAle santa vasanta / / ve jar3AvacandajI ke sAtha gae aura vahI huA jo munizrI kI dhAraNA thI / bApa to gayA so gayA, beTe ko bhI le gayA / jaba ye samAcAra sune to aphasosa ke sAtha bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA 'mAlava rI kAcI rahI, TheTa jeTa kI jeTa / gA, galAvar3o le gayI, khelo maTiyAmeTa / / saMsmaraNa 316

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64 peTrola bhabhaka jAya to dillI phaMvArA roDa kI paralI nukkar3a para eka peTrola pampa thA / gAr3I meM tela bhara dene ke bAda DrAivara eka kanastara meM tela bhara rahA thaa| hamane dekhA eka sajjana vahIM pAsa khar3e sigareTa pI rahe the| bhAIjI mahArAja kA dhyAna gyaa| munizrI ne pharamAyA, AdamI to par3hA-likhA sabhya-sA lagatA hai para saMyama kI kamI hai| sigareTa kahAM pInA, kahAM na pInA ise itanA hI dhyAna nahIM hai / peTrola bhabhaka jAe to? hama abhI kampanI bAga kA phATaka pAra hI nahIM kara pAye the ki acAnaka Aga bhabhaka gyii| ve sajjana, jo sigareTa pI rahe the, capeTa meM A gye| unake pAMva meM tathA hAtha meM do cAra phaphole phUTe / Aga zIghra hI zAnta ho gii| khAsa nukasAna nahIM huaa| bhAIjI mahArAja svayaM punaH vahAM padhAre / usa bhAI ko darzana die aura pUchAkyoM ghabarAhaTa to nahIM hai ? tumhArA bhAgya teja thA, dekho, thor3e meM hI sara gyaa| bhAI ! zUlI kI sajA kAMTe meM hI Tala gyii| abhI-abhI mere mana meM AyA hI thAAdamI to sabhya aura sajjana lagate haiM, par3he-likhe hokara bhI saMyama kI kamI hai| sigareTa kahAM pInA, kahAM na pInA, jAnate hue bhI pramAda kara rahe haiM / bhAI ! sigareTa kAma kI nahIM hai / dekho, abhI kitanA anartha ho jAtA? 'choTI-sI galatI baNa, 'campaka' bhArI bhUla / sArahIna sigareTa ne, mAno anaratha mUla // ' bhAIjI mahArAja ke sApha hRdaya kI saccI bAta coTa kara gyii| usa bhAI ke mana meM glAni huI aura usane munizrI ke caraNa chUkara sadA-sadA ke lie sigareTa chor3a dii| bhAIjI mahArAja ne AzIrvAda ke rUpa meM mAMgalika pharamAyI aura use pratijJA para dRr3ha rahane kA upadeza diyaa| 314 AsIsa

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65 nAbhi hamArI jar3a hai Care kIbAta hai | daDIve kA eka grAmINa AyA / kuMbhAra - prajApati / bUr3hA AdamI / para thA rasIlA raMgIlA / pahuMcA huaa| bAta hI bAta meM usane pUchA - santo ! per3apaudhe, ghAsa-phUsa sabake jar3a hotI hai| jar3a ke binA koI nahIM panapatA / batAo dekheM, isa zarIra kI jar3a kyA hai, kahAM hai ? bar3A vicitra prazna thA / maiM hairAna thA / zarIra kI jar3a kahAM batAUM ? paira ? nahIM-nahIM - peTa ? bUr3he ne ulajhA diyA / vaha gAMva kA anapar3ha | UMcI dhotI, phaTA aMgarakhA, purAnI-sI pgdd'ii| maiMne sahaja uttara diyA- bAbA, samajha meM nahIM AyA, bhalA zarIra ke bhI koI jar3a hotI hai ? hAM, zarIra svayaM jar3a hai, yaha to ThIka hai ? merA uttara suna bhAIjI mahArAja ko jhuMjhalAhaTa AyI / unhoMne pharamAyA gaI akala gAvantare, sAgariyA ! kIM soca, nAbhi jar3a nara-deha rI kahadai niHsaMkoca // " kahAM ulajha gayA ! kyA nAbhi hamAre zarIra kI jar3a nahIM hai ? jaba hamAre zarIra ke avayava bhI nahIM phUTe the, kyA hama nAbhi se zakti nahIM pA rahe the ? mAM ke peTa meM nAla hI hamAre poSaka tattvoM kA srota thA / unakA sahaja sAtvika uttara mere lie prakAza bana gayA / saMsmaraNa 315

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bhAjI mahArAja sahaja yogI the / ve hara vastu ko draSTAbhAva se dekhA krte| kabhI kabhI sahajatA meM nikalI bAta sUtra bana jAtI hai / usakA bhASya phira bauddhika loga karate haiM / eka dina bhAIjI mahArAja virAje the / maiM pAsa hI baiThA thA / vahIM eka cIMTiyoM kA bila thA / rAjasthAnI bhASA meM use kIr3I nagarA kahate haiM / nagara aura nagarA meM kevala eka A kI mAtrA kA hI to antara haiM / thA Akhira nagara kA nagara / hamane dekhA cIMTiyAM bhAgI jA rahI thIM / saikar3oM kI saMkhyA meM anavarata AvAgamana cAlU thA | cIMTiyAM miTTI kI DhulAI kara rahI thiiN| kucha A rahI thIM, kucha jA rahI thIM / eka tAMtA - sA lagA huA thA / itane meM maiMne dekhA eka cIMTI ko dasa-bAraha cIMTiyAM ghasITakara lA rahI thiiN| cAroM ora gherA banA huA thA / maiMne pUchA- bhAIjI mahArAja ! aura-aura cIMTiyAM to miTTI Dho rahI haiM aura ye becArI isa jindA cIMTI TAMgeM khIMce lA rahI haiN| kyA bAta hai ? , 66 kAmacora / bhAjI mahArAja muskarAye aura bole--tuma nahIM samajhe ? cIMTiyoM ke nagara meM bhI eka vyavasthA hotI hai / sabako barAbara zrama denA hotA hai / ye loga saMjJA pradhAna jIva haiM, inheM bhI apane karttavyoM aura dAyitvoM kA bodha hai / lagatA hai-- isa cIMTI ne zrama se jI curAkara kAma karanA baMda kara diyA hogaa| inake yahAM kAmacora, AlasI ko sthAna nahIM hai / ye saba isIlie TAMgeM pakar3akara ise bAhara chor3ane AI haiM / inhoMne ise apane saMgha se bahiSkRta kara diyA hai / bahiSkRta ko -- jo saMghIya niyamoM kA ullaMghana karatA hai- yoM hI haTAyA jAtA hai / jo barAbara sama-vibhAgIya zrama nahIM karatA, use maMDala meM kauna rakhegA ? jo samUha meM rahakara mila-julakara kAma nahIM karatA, sukha-dukha meM sahayogI nahIM banatA, use kauna baradAsta karegA ? 'kaDyAM bhI konI kareM, niHkaramA syUM neha / pakar3a TAMgar3I pheMka deM, paralI kAnI peha // " 316 AsIsa

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taba kA hamArA sAtha hai sujAnagar3ha meM bhAIjI mahArAja ke takalIpha huI / DAkTara vyAsajI kA ilAja claa| DaoNkTaroM ko hArTa para dabAva kA bahama thA / i0 sI0 jI0 bhI isI bahama kI puSTi karatA thaa| haMsa mahala meM vizrAma kiyA gyaa| saradAra zahara ke loga darzana karane aaye| unhoMne bhAijI mahArAja ko saradAra zahara padhArane kI prArthanA kii| vizeSakara vANidA-vAsa vAloM kA jora isalie thA kyoMki unake vahAM eka saMthArA cala rahA thaa| sUrajamala jI dugar3a kI bahU dharma-parAyaNa mahilA thIM / unakA jIvana hI dharma-dhyAna, sAmAyika saMvara sAdhu-santoM kI sevA aura svAdhyAya-ciMtana meM saphala huaa| unakI vaMdanA karane kI vidhi bhI nirAlI thii| lAkhoM-lAkhoM zrAvakoM meM unakI vandanA nahIM miltii| ve jame-jamAye muMha lage pATha / kRtajJatA aura lomaharSaka ullAsa / bhAIjI mahArAja unheM 'mad kA bar3iyAjI' kahakara jIkArA dete| unhoMne AcAryapravara ke zrImukha se anazana pckhaa| unakI AkhirI abhilASA thI-bhAIjI mahArAja ke caraNoM meM merA anazana pUrA ho (saMthArA-sIjhe) hanumAnamala jI dugar3a Aye, arja kI aura bhAIjI mahArAja ne saradArazahara padhArane kI svIkRti de dii| DaoNkTara abhI vizrAma denA cAhate the / icchA kama-kama hote hue bhI DaoNkTara vyAsajI ne vihAra kI hAM bhrii| DaoNkTara vyAsajI bhAIjI mahArAja ke parama bhakta haiN| samarpita DaoNkTara munizrI kA vacana TAla nahIM sakate the| anacAhe hAM bharanI pdd'ii| sujAnagar3ha se vihAra huaa| saradArazahara kI sahala-samiti ne donoM ora kI (lAne aura pahuMcAne kI) sevA kii| idhara ve bhara garamI ke dina, udhara sahala-samiti ke amIra sadasya / kisI taraha mela nahIM thaa| aise dinoM meM koI bhI ghara se bAhara nikalanA nahIM cAhatA, vahAM ve amIrajAde choTe-choTe gAvar3iyoM ke jhUpoM meM dina kATate, bhAIjI mahArAja ke lie| sahala-samiti kA nAmakaraNa bhI bhAIjI mahArAja kA apanA kiyA huA thA / yoM to saMsmaraNa 317

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pratidina saikar3oM loga Ate-jAte para sahala-pamiti ne sthAyI DerA jmaayaa| choTe bar3e sabhI samiti ke sadasya eka sarIkhe, haMsate-khilate, ralate-milate aura raMgIle-rasIle the / ghaMToM-ghaMToM bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa baiThate / kabhI jJAna-carcA karate to kabhI anubhavoM kA AdAna-pradAna / jijJAsAeM cltii| kabhI-kabhI bIca mIThA-mIThA vinoda bhI hotA / eka-sI umra ke sNgii-saathii| bhAIjI mahArAja kA mana bar3hatA gyaa| sahala-samiti thor3e hI dinoM meM bhAIjI mahArAja ke muMhalagI samiti bana gyii| bIca-bIca meM kucha loga yaha bhI kahane lage-bhAIjI mahArAja ne isa sabako itAra diyA hai| kula milAkara una samiti ke yuvakoM ne bhAIjI mahArAja kA mana lagA diyaa| bhaMvaralAla jI baraDiyA jarA komala prakRti ke haiN| kaSTa meM kamajora aura jaldI hI ghabarA jAne vAle / sAtha-sAtha zarIra bhI zrama ko kama bardAsta karatA hai| Aja ve vihAra meM paidala sAtha ho gaye / rAratA jyAdA laMbA to nahIM thA, para garamI se ve Ate (AtaMkita) ho gye| unakA lAla surakha muMha dekha, bhAIjI mahArAja ne cAla dhImI kI / bAra-bAra pUchate cale-'kyUM bhaMvarU / ke sallA? aura dhIre cAlU ?' maiMne pUchA-'mahArAja / Apake bhaMvarU se itanA kyA hai ?' bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-riztA to kucha nahIM hai para bhaMvarU ke pitA jayacandalAlajI mere sAthI haiN| olaMbhe ke bhI aura zAbAsI ke bhii| mAlavA yAtrA meM indaura-ujjaina ke bIca eka 'tirANA' nAma kA gAMva aayaa| una dinoM vahAM ATha ghara the| sAta gusAiyoM ke aura eka rAjapUtoM kaa| AcArya kAlUgaNI mahArAja rAjapUtoM kI koTar3I meM virAje / hama kucha santoM ne gusAiyoM kI tibArI meM jagaha dhArI / yAtrI loga agale gAMva cale gye| seTha gaNezadAsajI gadhaiyA yAtrA meM sAtha the| jayacandalAlajI (varaDiyA) ne gadhayAjI se pUchA-Apa kahe to Aja rAta ko yahIM sevA karane kI manasyA hai| ve raha gaye / hamane dina meM hI salAhasUta kara lI thI-yadi Aja raho to rAta meM rAge (deziyAM) citAreMge / pratikramaNa ke bAda hamArI goSThI jamI / hama soca rahe the Aja ekAnta hai| gurudeva se bahuta dUra haiN| khulakara gaayeNge| niHsaMkoca bhAva se hama gAne meM tallIna ho gye| vaha ThaMDI rAta / vaha umara, gale meM jora, mana meM joza, choTA gAMva, bhinna-bhinna rAgarAganiyoM kA pratyAvartana, prahara rAta gaye taka hamArI goSThI clii| gAne vAloM meM cAra-pAMca muni the aura zrAvaka jayacandalAla baraDiyA the / gAMva ke dasa-pAMca loga A gye| hamArA majamA khUba jamA / usa rAta hamane-'canda-caritra' tathA rAjasthAnI lokagItoM kI dhuneM duhraaii|| ____ prAtaHkAla vihAra kara 'sAmera' pahuMce / gurudeva eka bar3e hAla meM virAje / usI meM lakar3I kI paiDiyAM car3hakara Upara kamare meM hama saMta baiThe the| tulasI muni ne jayacandalAla jI ko sevA karane ko kahA / ve vahAM baiThe the| akasmAt gurudeva ne 318 AsIsa

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pUchA-rAta ko kauna-kauna santa gA rahe the / bulAo unheM / pUchane kA DhaMga jarA kar3A thaa| tapasvI sukhalAlajI svAmI patA lagAne aaye| hama saMta sahama gye| muni sukhalAlajI ne saMtoM ke sAtha-sAtha jayacandalAla jI se bhI kahA-jayacanda ! iya kiyAM sunoM-sunoM baiThyoM hai ? gurudeva yAda pharamAvai hai nI ? hama saba gurudeva ke zrIcaraNe meM upasthita hue / AcAryadeva ne jarA AMkha teja kara pharamAyA-rAta ko vaha kauna-kauna the? ___ aba bole kauna ? hama sabake kaleje hAtha meM A rahe the / gadhayA gaNezadAsajI ne bAta sAharI, 'gurudeva ! Apa kRpA kraao| Apa binA TAMbarAM rI galatyAM kuNa nikAle / " hama sabako to pasInA chUTa rahA thaa| kAlUgaNIrAja jaba kar3AI karavAte unakA vaha siMha rUpa dekhate hI thara kAMpane lagate / jayacandalAla jI ne himmata kara kahA- campAlAla jI svAmI the, aba maiM kahAM chupatA ? maiMne sAhama baTorA aura kahA- hama the gurudeva ! amuka-amuka-amuka / kRpAlu kAlUgaNIjI jarA muskarAye aura pharamAyA-aise gAyA karate haiM ? basa, aba kyA thA / hama sabake jI ke jI A gayA / punaH amRta jharatI gurudeva kI AMkhoM ne hameM abhaya de diyaa| sabake ceharoM para khuzahAlI daur3a aayii| pAsA palaTa gayA / vAtAvaraNa meM nayA raMga aayaa| aba lage gurudeva eka-eka kara rAta ko gAyI gayI rAgoM ko pUchane / kaI rAgoM meM antara thA, vaha pharka nikaalaa| kahIM tor3a ThIka nahIM the, unheM sudhArane ko pharamAyA / saba gAyakoM meM merI dezI pAsa rahI / AcArya deva ne mujhase-jallo, karavo, karelo, kurajyAM aura kIyA sunii| ye rAgeM eka to kar3I bahuta haiM, dUsare gurudeva ke sAmane acche-acche gAyaka bhI ghabarA jAte haiM, unakA atizaya hI aisA hotA hai| jayacandalAlajI ne jaise upAlambha meM sahayoga diyA, vaise hI zAbAzI meM bhI sAtha nibhaayaa| jaba-jaba gAte-gAte merA galA bhara jAtA, yA maiM Age kI paMkti bhUla jAtA to jayacaMdalAlajI ne usa jor3a-tor3a meM Teriye kI bhUmikA nibhaaii| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne apanA saMsmaraNa sameTate hue kahA-bhAI taba se jayacandalAlajI kA hamArA sAtha hai / bhalA, bhaMvarU kI rakhU isameM kyA bar3I bAta hai ? ye phUla se TAbara, isa garamI meM sevA jo kara rahe haiM, kauna nikale isa lAya meM ? sone kA TakkA dene para bhI ye Ane vAle nahIM haiN| ina sahala-samiti ke yuvakoM kI lagana aura bhakti-bhAva hai, ataH mere lie inhoMne itanA kaSTa uThAyA hai / maiM to usa siddhAnta kA AdamI huuN| 'matalaba syUM 'campaka' mila jyANo, batA ! bar3o ke bAta? ekara sAtha nibhAvai bI ro, sadA nibhANo saath|' saMsmaraNa 316

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itane meM hI Tala gayA aNavata-vihAra (dillI) ke phATaka para bhAIjI mahArAja khar3e mere Ane kA intajAra kara rahe the| pAsa meM kucha loga the| mannAlAlajI baraDiyA (saradAra-zahara) bhI vahIM the / eka avasthA prApta sajjana skUTara para nikle| pIche baiThI thI unakI shriimtiijii| skUTara jarUrata se adhika teja thaa| unheM dekha, bhAIjI mahArAja ne kahA-'minnU ! dekha, bur3hApo bhar3akAva hai| au kaTheI bhuvAlI khAyalA bhlo|' dhar3Ama AvAja aaii| dekhA agalI mor3a para mur3ate hue vRddha dampati kA skUTara phisala gayA / zrImatIjI do-tIna guleTI khA, eka ora jA girauM / skUTara eka ora thA aura zrImAnajI eka ora / loga bhAga kara gye| unheM utthaayaa| bahuta thor3e meM sara gayA thaa| - hamane bahuta bAra dekhA aise avasara para bhAIjI mahArAja cakate nahIM the| munizrI ghaTanA sthala para pdhaare| unase pUchA-coTa jyAdA to nahIM lagI? bhAI sAhaba ! skUTara calAne meM bhI saMyama kI apekSA hai| do minaTa ke lobha kA pariNAma jIvana ko khatarA hotA hai / para, kise kaheM ? kisI ko bhI phurasata nahIM hai| samaya kI jitanI taMgI Aja ke logoM ko hai, zAyada pahale vAloM ko nahIM thii| 'saMyama sudha-budha visara kara, bhAjar3a-bhAjI jaay| 'campaka' ceto bApare, (jada) phala pramAda rA pAya // ' aura ve sajjana hAtha jor3e kaha rahe the-'satya vacana' santoM ke darzana bhale hae, itane meM hI Tala gyaa| 320 AsIsa

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prema kI eka kar3I parAye kA anAdara saha lenA AsAna hai, para apane vAle kA jarA-sA bhI anucita vyavahAra pahAr3a bana jAtA hai / 25vIM bhagavAna mahAvIra-nirvANa-zatAbdI kA avasara thaa| AcAryapravara dillI padhAre / vyavasthA samiti ke sadasya vyavasthA meM juTe / eka dina artha-saMgraha karate kucha variSTha sadasya eka dukAna para phuNce| vaha bhAI pahale hI uphaNA huA thaa| samAja ke sadasyoM ko dekha bhar3aka utthaa| Adara-satkAra to gayA kahIM / vaha ulaTA-pulaTA bola pdd'aa| cale jAo yahAM se, bhikhaarii| jo zabda nahIM bolane cAhie the, bola gayA / bolA hI nahIM unheM dukAna se utAra diyaa| khinna hokara Aye sadasyoM ne jaba bhAIjI mahArAja ke darzana kie to unheM udAsa-udAsa dekha munizrI ne pUchA-Aja aise kaise? eka bhAI ne bItI bAta batAte hue kahA-mata pUcho munizrI ! aisA apamAna to zAyada eka virodhI-zatru bhI apane ghara Ae kA na kare, vaisA kiyA Apake bhagata ne| unhoMne sArI ghaTanA btaayii| sunakara bhAIjI mahArAja ke mana para pratikriyA huI / sAmane vAlA AdamI samajhadAra thaa| kaTTara terApaMthI, Aja kA nahIM pIr3hiyoM kA / vaha bhI mukhiyA parivAra kA / roja Ane vAlA, laganazIla / itanA hI nahIM, kahanA to yoM cAhie, khuda vyavasthA karane vaalaa| phira bhI yaha saba kyoM huA? bAta jacI nhiiN| vaha bhAI AyA / munizrI ko to pUchanA hI pUchanA thaa| vahAM to nagada vyApAra thA, udhAra kA kyA kAma ? becArA bole bhI to kyA ? bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-bhole! samAja ke bhAI kA tiraskAra ? anAdara ? apazabda ? kala kauna AegA tere ghara ? samAja ke binA sAmAjika prANI kA kAma calatA hai ? bhUla kA prAyazcitta kevala anutApa se nahIM hotaa| vyavahAra pariSkAra mAMgatA hai| tumane yaha galatI kI to kaise kI? suna ! saMsmaraNa 321

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jo deNe jogo havai, uNanai hI batalAvai / 'campaka' mAMgaNa nai bhalAM ! kuNa kiNarai ghara jAvai // ' samaya kI coTa lgii| sunate hI usakI AMkheM nama ho gyiiN| vaha nIce gyaa| kAryAlaya meM jA mAphI ke sAtha punaH tazarIpha lAne kA AmaMtraNa diyA / loga jAnA nahIM cAhate the| bhAIjI mahArAja ne dveSa-rosa ko prema meM badalane kA sujhAva diyaa| loga ge| usane jo Atithya kiyA, jAne vAle kala kI bAta bhUla ge| ceka-buka sAmane dhara diyA-jo marajI ho likha lo| jo prema ubhraa| bAta lene-dene kI nahIM hotI / prema ke sAmane lena-dena choTA par3atA hai| punaH bhAI-bhAI jur3a ge| tor3anA AsAna hai para jor3ane meM tapa cAhie, prabhAva cAhie / zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ko TUTate hue diloM ko jor3anA AtA thaa| ve samAja meM prema kI eka sazakta kar3I the| 322 AsIsa

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70 markha se mauna AcAryapravara kA vi0 saM0 2031 meM bahuta lambA dillI-pravAsa huaa| eka dina aNuvrata-vihAra kI dUsarI maMjila para maiM eka bhAI se bAteM kara rahA thaa| vaha nAmadhArI terApaMthI hamAre saMgha aura saMghapati ke viparIta kucha aMTa-saMTa zikAyateM lAyA thaa| ___ maiM use vastusthiti samajhA rahA thaa| hamArI carcA laMbI hotI gayI / hama donoM DaTakara tarke prastuta karate rhe| calate-calate vaha gaMdI, bhaddI aura azlIla bAtoM para utara aayaa| maiM use kisI bhI eka bAta ko sapramANa siddha karane ko kaha rahA thaa| maiM bhI ar3a gayA, vaha bhI ar3a gyaa| vaha kaha rahA thA-Apa mujhe ghumAphirA kara bhUla-bhulaiyA meM DAlanA cAhate haiM aura maiM kaha rahA thA--tumhArI ina gaMvArU aura bAjArU bAtoM kA janatA para koI asara hone vAlA nahIM hai / yadi inameM se eka bhI satya hai to pramANita kro| vaha uttejita hokara kisI eka bAta ko siddha karane ke badale dasoM aura-aura aMTa-saMTa bAteM uchAlane lgaa| yaha saba zrIbhAIjI mahArAja ko kaba pasanda par3ane vAlA thaa| unhoMne mujhe eka bAra khaMkhArakara saMketa kiyA, para maiM nahIM samajhA / samajhA to kyA nahIM, para yoM hI kahanA cAhie dhyAna nahIM diyaa| hamArI carcA bAdA-bAdI calatI rhii| dUsarI bAra phira pAsa par3e lakar3I ke takhte ko hilAne ke bahAne saMketa aayaa| phira bhI maiM nahIM utthaa| itane meM vaha hisAra cAturmAsa kA havAlA dete hue eka adhamatama ghaTanA kaha gayA, jo sarvathA azrAvya thii| zrIbhAIjI mahArAja kA jI tilamilA utthaa| unhoMne mujhe Tokate hue pharamAyA-sAgariyA / saMsmaraNa 323

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kAlai' syaM kayAnai karai, marakha ! mAthAkUTa kuo kabUtara nai disai, jhUTha nai so jhUTha' vaha becArA dekhatA hI raha gayA / hamAre donoM ke hoMTha cipaka gye| vaha binA kucha Age bole sapAka calatA bnaa| maiM soca rahA thA-Aja bhar3Ake udd'eNge| para munizrI ne mujhe eka bAta ke atirikta aura kucha bhI nahIM kahA / kevala eka prazna pUchA-sAgara ! mUrakha se kAma par3e to kyA karanA cAhie? maiMne nIcI najara TikAye kahA-- mauna / zrIbhAIjI mahArAja prasannacitta se jarA muskarAe aura maiM nizcinta bhAva se apane kAma meM laga gyaa| 1. be-samajha, kaluSita, mana ke maile yA kumANasa ko rAjasthAnI bhASA meM 'kAlA' kahate haiN| 324 AsIsa

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bolo mata, kAma bar3hegA zrI DUMgaragar3ha maryAdA-mahotsava para zrI bhAIjI mahArAja dIpacaMdajI seThiyA ke makAna meM virAja rahe the| dhanarAjajI pugaliyA aae| unhoMne bIDIo kaiseTa dikhAne kI yojanA bnaayii| AcAryapravara ke kucha kAryakrama tathA landana kI kucha smRtiyAM-jahAM ve rahate haiM-dikhAnA cAhate the| kucha bhAI-bahanoM ke sAtha hama bhI vahAM the| hamArA vaise baiThane kA sthAna bhI vahI hAla thaa| dhanarAjajI kaiseTa-citra darzana ke sAtha-sAtha landana ke sthAna vizeSa ke paricaya batA rahe the| bIca meM kucha rAjasthAnI vaivAhika rIti-rivAja ke citra bhI aae| kisI kAraNavaza koI bhAI bAhara gyaa| rAstA khulA ki dhakkA mArakara candanamala caMDAliyA (saradArazahara) bhItara ghusa aayaa| binA ijAjata bhItara AnA sabako akharA / vaha pUchakara bhI A sakatA thaa| vaha niravadya AgrahI saMgha kA sadasya hai| AgrahI bhI nAma ke anurUpa hI hai / vaha AyA, isameM na hamane etarAja kiyA, na kisI bhAI ne| thor3I dera bAda vaha aMTa-saMTa bolane lagA-'kyA yahI hai sAdhu kI saMyama-sAdhanA? kalpatA hai sinemA dekhanA? caumAsika prAyazcitta AtA hai| terApaMtha aura AcArya bhikSu ke nAma para baTTA lagA diyA Apa logoM ne / ye zrAvaka sAdhuoM ko Dubone vAle haiM ! mahApApa ! mahApApa / ' kucha loga ubala pdd'e| vaha cillAkara kahe jA rahA thA- 'abhI kAlUgaNI hote to?' dutaraphI uttejanA bar3hatI dekha bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-cana" ! uttejanA to pApa hai hI / aba jyAdA bolane se kAma bddh'egaa| jAta jatAne se phAyadA ? (usakI jAta caMDAliyA hai| caMDAla-krodha) masAlA pracAra karane ko tere hAtha laga gayA hai, aba kyoM bolatA hai ? saMsmaraNa 325

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'campaka' kAma bar3helA canaNaM, jaga maiM jatA na jAta / lavai abai kyUM lAgagI, kharacI thArai hAtha // ' usakI bolatI baMda ho gyii| hama saba haMsa pdd'e| 326 AsIsa

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72 sAmAjika ekatA kA rUpa sAlAsara -- jayapura mUla sar3aka se tIna kilomITara bhItara jUTavAr3A kolDa sToreja hai / sujAnagar3ha kA seThiyA parivAra, sarva-sampannatA ke sAtha zAlIna, sAmAjika bhAvanAoM se ota-prota, AsthAzIla aura dharmAnurAgI rahA hai / seThiyA rUpacaMdajI to apanI koTi ke eka hI zrAvaka the / unakA tyAga, vairAgya, vinaya, viveka aura vyavahAra jIvita Adarza thA / unake parivAra meM dhArmika lagana koI Azcarya jaisA nahIM hai / vimalajI kI mAM (dharmapatnI tanasukhalAlajI seThiyA), koThArI jugarAjajI cUrU tathA zrI sAyara koThArI kA atyanta Agraha thA / AcAryapravara kA eka divasIya pravAsa unake yahAM ho / zrI bhAIjI mahArAja unakI ora se vakAlata kara rahe the / bhalA, jisa kAma ko bhAIjI mahArAja hAtha meM le leM use to pUrA honA hI thA / sasaMgha AcAryapravara jhUThavAr3A pdhaare| saMgha ke Agamana para harSa-vibhora seThiyA parivAra phUlA nahIM samA rahA thA / AcAryazrI ke darzanArtha Ae birAdarI ke bhAIyoM kI Ava-bhagata cita cAva se huI / bhojana-vyavasthA ke sAtha-sAtha tInoM samaya nAztA - cAya aura yatheccha ThaMDA peya bhI diyA / to jhUThabAr3A jayapura kA hI eka upanagara hai / para jahAM hama kolDa sToreja meM Thahare haiM yaha bastI ke aMtima chora para hai / sthAna bahuta suramya hai / yahAM se Age kevala khulA maidAna hai / kala phira hameM sAlAsara sar3aka caurAhe taka punaH jAnA par3egA / sar3aka bahuta kharAba hai / kahanA to yoM cAhie sar3aka kevala nAma mAtra ke lie hai / kevala kaMkarITa, vaha bhI Ubar3a-khAbar3a / Ane vAle jayapura ke nAgarikoM tathA Aguntaka yAtriyoM ke manoM meM Aja kI Avabhagata kA bar3A asara rhaa| aba taka jo saMghIya bhAIcAre kA abhAva akharatA rahA / darzanArthI bhAI-bahanoM ne bAra-bAra yahI carcA calAyI, bhAtRtva bhAva kA saMsmaraNa 327

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vikAsa apekSita hai| Aja hameM eka dizA-darzana milA hai| munizrI / pharamAyA 'bhAI bhAI rai gharai, Avai moTe bhAga / 'campaka' bhagatI-bhAva syUM, badhai dhrm-anuraag||' 328 AsIsa

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jaina ekatA kA eka namUnA motI DUMgarI para zaucAdi kArya se nivRtta ho hama puna: rAjasthAna hoTala phuNce| bihAra kI taiyAriyAM haiN| Aja nagara-praveza hai| zobhAyAtrA aura nAgarika abhinandana meM loga bar3e cAva se lage hue haiN| sthAna-sthAna para toraNa-dvAra saje haiN| vyaktigata dvAroM para vyaktizaH abhinandana paTTa lage haiN| saMsthAgata toraNoM para saMsthAoM ke paTTa akita haiN| aneka sthAnoM para pratiSThAnoM ke dvArA abhinandana likhita paTTa haiN| zobhA-yAtrA meM bhajana maMDaliyAM bar3I tanmayatA se svAgata gIta gA rahI haiN| chAtra-chAtrAeM, kanyA-maMDala, kizora-maMDala, mahilA-maMDala aura yuvaka-maMDala apaneapane gaNaveza meM paMktibaddha cala rahe haiN| tripoliyA hokara jyoM hI hama bar3I copar3a para phuNce| dekhA, joharI bAjAra kA bhavya dRzya sAmane thaa| aisA lagatA thA jana-janArdana umar3a par3A hai| bhIr3a meM kevala AdamI hI AdamI najara A rahe the| jauharI bAjAra ke chajje, chattoM aura gokhe. jharokhe darzanotsuka mahilAeM aura baccoM se jhuke jA rahe haiN| jIyA baiMDa apanI chata para pUrI maMDalI ke sAtha svAgata-dhuna prastuta kara rahA hai / pUrA bAjAra julUsamaya bana gayA hai| hajAroM-hajAroM jaina bandhu Aja sAmpradAyika bhedabhAva bhUlakara eka jainAcArya kA abhinandana karane ekarasa ho rahe haiN| bApU-bAjAra to hada le gyaa| ve lAla-surakha svAgata paTTa (bainarsa) bAjAra bhara meM laharA rahe haiN| sabhI kA milA-julA utsAha jayapura ke pUre vAtAvaraNa ko prabhAvita kara rahA hai| zobhA-yAtrA rAmalIlA maidAna ke paMDAla meM janasabhA bana gyii| maMca para AcAryapravara AsIna hue| eka ora zramaNa-zramaNI parivAra virAjamAna hai| jananetAoM aura rAjanetAoM ke sAtha-sAtha jayapura nagara kI ora se bhUtapUrva nareza karanala savAI bhavAnIsiMha svayaM upasthita haiM / saMsmaraNa 326

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zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ko ina sAmUhika kAryakramoM meM bar3A rasa hai / ve jaina samAja ko yoM eka maMca para khar3A dekha phUle nahIM smaae| unhoMne eka padya ke mAdhyama se apane samarthana ko vyakta kiyA 'campaka' jaina samAja ko, gaMje gaurava gaan| paDyo sAmane prema ro, phala caur3e caugAna // ' 330 AsIsa

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74 kyA duHkhatA hai ? AcAryapravara kA pravAsa saurASTra-galIce vAloM kI havelI (motI siMha bhomiye kA rAstA) meM huA hai / golachA parivAra jayapura kA mAnya gharAnA hai| hamAre saMgha ke sAtha isa parivAra kA acchA-khAsA sambandha hai| avazya ye terApaMthI nahIM haiM, para bahanoM, beTiyoM aura sage-saMbaMdhiyoM ke samparka ne eka-dUsare ko itanA najadIka lA diyA hai, patA nahIM cltaa| kucha saMta havelI ke UparI kakSoM meM baiThe haiN| hama daravAje ke dAhine hAla meM aura AcAryapravara bAMye hAtha ke kamaroM meM virAjate haiM / paMDAla daravAje kI Upara vAlI chata para hai| AcAryapravara kA rAtrikAlIna vizrAma bhI paMDAla meM Upara hI rahA / mausama ekadama badala gayA hai, yoM to abhI caitra kA mahInA hai para garamI jeTha jaisI hai| kala kA avaziSTa svAgata kAryakrama Aja punaH vahIM rAmalIlA maidAna meM rakha diyA hai| bhAIjI mahArAja vahAM nahIM padhAra sake / motIDUMgarI taka ghUmakara Ane ke bAda thakAna A gayI hai| zarIra meM darda kAphI hai / kucha dera udAsa-se kisI cintana kI gaharAI meM virAje rhe| sone kI icchA huii| mujhe (zramaNa sAgara ko) AvAja dii| maiM takiyA lekara gyaa| bichaunA lagAkara maiMne sahajabhAva se pUchA-kyoM bhAIjI mahArAja ! kyA duHkhatA hai ? ___ mujhe kyA patA duHkhana kahAM se kahAM pahuMca jaayegii| zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-'duHkhatA kyA hai ? kyA batAUM? yaha dila duHkhatA hai / yaha dina duHkhatA hai| aphasosa hai, saikar3oM mIla sAtha-sAtha calakara AyA aura paMDAla taka bhI nahIM jA skaa| basa, yahI kamajorI duHkhatI hai|' 'tAkata rAkhI kAla taka, thAMbhaNa nabha bhuj-thNbh| paDUM paDU campaka paDyo (o) dukhe deharo dNbh| saMsmaraNa 331

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57 pakSIya uphANa mahAvIra jayantI samAroha meM sammilita hone vAle yAtriyoM kA Agamana prArambha ho gayA hai / nivAsa Adi ke lie sthAna jayapura zahara dekhate hue to ThIka hI hai para macchara aura gaMdagI se bhI adhika parezAnI hai saMkIrNatA kii| abhI se yAtrIgaNa ukatA gaye haiN| yahAM kI AvAsa vyavasthA samiti ne prati vyakti eka rupayA roja kirAyA lagAyA hai| eka-eka kamare meM pacAsa-pacAsa AdamI Thahare haiM / Akhira zahara hai / sthAna kI dikkateM to haiM hii| zaharoM meM sthAna khAlI milate kahAM hai ? Ane vAlA hara yAtrI bhAIjI mahArAja ke pAsa pahuMcatA hai| sukha-duHkha kI zikAyata kA mahakamA bhI to yahI hai / hama suna rahe haiM, zrI bhAIjI mahArAja yAtriyoM ko AzvAsana dete haiM / zaharI kaThinAiyAM batAte haiM / saMyama se kAma lene ko kahate haiM, aura samajhAte haiM-bhAI ! hamArA to mArga hI saMkaDAI kA hai / Aja kucha loga sabare - sabare Aye aura kahane lage - garIbanavAja ! Apake rAja meM jayapura vAloM ne lUTa macA rakhI hai / vyavasthA ke nAma para vyApAra khola liyA hai / ve kamare, jahAM hameM utArA gayA hai, tIna-tIna rupayA roja para kirAye lie gaye haiM aura hamase pacAsa-pacAsa, cAlIsa-cAlIsa aura kisI-kisI se tIsatIsa liye jA rahe haiM / yaha to sarAsara anyAya hai / yadi itanI hI kSamatA nahIM thI to ye kyoM lAye AcArya zrI ko ? bhAIjI mahArAja ! Upara se ye loga hameM zaharI dhauMsa aura dikhAte haiM aura kahate haiM-- kyoM Aye Apa ? kisane pIle cAvala diye the / duHkha bhare zabdoM meM, jo AyA, ve bolate gaye / zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA- bhAI ! yAtrA kI khinnatA ke bAda yahAM Ate hI parezAnI ho to mana meM Aye binA nahIM rahatI / ve bhI tumhAre hI bhAI haiM / vyavasthA karane vAle vicAra kara rahe haiN| jarA tuma bhI dhIraja se kAma lo / dhIredhIre jamate - jamate saba vyavasthAeM jamA karatI haiM / 332 AsIsa

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eka vyavasthA kAryakartA se bAta kara munizrI ne unheM dhIraja tathA sahAnubhUti se kAma lene ko khaa| usane use ulaTA mAnA / ve mahAzaya ubala pdd'e| bolate-bolate yahAM taka kaha gaye---Apa logoM kA hastakSepa hI to sArA kAma bigAr3atA hai| yAtriyoM ko Apa sira car3hA rahe ho / maiM jAnatA hUM, Apa amuka-amuka vyaktiyoM kA pakSa le rahe haiN| ve hamArI sArI vyavasthA bigAr3ane para tule hue haiN| yAtrIgaNa kaha rahe the-bhAIjI mahArAja ! Apa padhArakara mulAyajA phrmaao| 8-10 phITa ke kamare meM hama 50 AdamiyoM kA sAmAna bhI nahIM rakhA jaataa| hama sAre bAhara par3e haiN| nApasanda sthAna, itanA bhArI kirAyA aura Upara se itanI hukUmata / saMtoSa kara to leM, para ho kaise ? kahIM hada bhI to hotI hai| ye jaba Apase yoM bolate haiM, hamArI to cikArI hI kyA hai ? mevAr3I bhAI kI AMkheM gIlI ho gyiiN| ___ bhAIjI mahArAja ke mana para thor3A-sA asara AyA / asara AnA sahaja thA / vaha kAryakartA aviveka se bole hI jA rahA thaa| munizrI ne kahA-maiM to tumhArI badanAmI na ho, isalie kahatA hUM, tuma bhale mujhe surANAjI kA mAno yA dUgar3ajI kA, maiM to sabakA huuN| ye Ane vAle yAtrI gAMva-gAMva meM tumhArI vyavasthA bhAMDeMge / tuma apanI dhAraNA badala do| maiM kisI pakSa se nahIM, hita kI dRSTi se tumheM kaha rahA huuN| yadi tumhArI yahI icchA hai ki maiM na bolUM to koI bAta nahIM, AindA nahIM kahUMgA, para Ane vAle loga bAta batAte kaise rukege / ye apanA duHkha-darda santoM se nahIM kaheMge to aura kahAM kaheMge ? sunane vAle to tumhAre jaise hoMge? para eka bAta kaha dUMtumhArA kucha nahIM bigar3egA isa pAraraparika manamuTAva meM, becAre yAtriyoM kA khavaM gAla hai 'pakha ro 'caMpaka' pAdaro, uphaNe iyAM uphAMNa / (thAM) moToDAM re jhor3a meM,(AM) nAnhA ro nukasANa // 22 apraila 1975 jayapura saMsmaraNa 333

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kahAM ve ? kahAM hama? jayapura nagara meM Aja mahAvIra jayantI kI dhUma-dhAma hai| prabhAta jAgarikA galIgalI meM ghUma-ghUmakara jayantI kA udghoSa kara rahI hai| bhagavAna mahAvIra kA sandeza sthAna-sthAna para duharAyA jA rahA hai / sAmUhika kAryakrama rAmalIlA maidAna meM hai| jaina samAja ne jayantI-yAtrA kA Ayojana kiyA hai / vividha vAdyoM, sAjoMhAyI-ghor3oM-rathoM ke sAtha-sAtha nAnAM jhAkiyAM sajAI gayI haiM jinameM bhagavAna mahAvIra ke jIvana-vRtta pradarzita kiye haiM / isa mIla bhara lambe bhavya jayantI-julUsa meM hajAroM-hajAroM jaina zrAvaka sammilita hue haiM / sabhI sAmpradAyika matabhedoM ko bhulAkara loga kaMdhe se kaMdhA milAkara eka juTa ho gaye haiN| sthAna-sthAna para svAgata ke vibhinna Ayojana haiN| ThaMDe peya padArthoM se Avabhagata kara bhAI-cAre ko mUrtarUpa diyA jA rahA hai| AcAryazrI ThIka samaya para paMDAla meM padhAre / abhI jayantI-julUsa javerI bAjAra meM hai| pUre bApU bAjAra ko bhagavAna mahAvIra ke saMdeza-paTToM se chA diyA hai| ghara-ghara dukAna-dukAna para paMcaraMge jaina-dhvaja laharA rahe haiN| kAryakrama paMDAla meM prArambha ho gayA hai| abhI zobhA-yAtrA kA pichalA chora javerI bAjAra meM hai / paMDAla khacA-khaca bhara gayA hai| baiThane ko sthAna nahIM hai| cAroM ora kI kanAteM khola dI giiN| phira bhI janatA dhUpa meM khar3I hai / zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra ko sabhIbhAvabhInI zraddhA arpita karane ke lie utsuka haiN| rAjasthAna prAMtIya mahAvIra 25vIM nirvANa zatAbdI samiti kI ora se Aja kA Ayojana hai| saMyojana saMpatajI gadhaiyA ne kiyaa| kAryakrama khUba lambA ho gayA hai| 12 bajane ko haiM / jaba hama paMDAla se bAhara Aye taba jamIna pairoM ko sekane lgii| santa dhUpa se baca-bacakara cala rahe the aura bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA-kahAM ve? kahAM hama? 334 AsIsa

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tapI tapasyA tIvratama, mahAmanA mahAvIra / tapagyo 'campaka' tAvar3o, o mana baNyoM adhiir| saMsmaraNa 335

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77 pothI kyA par3ha 10-11 baja gaye haiN| kamarA naM0 110 hameM sApha saphAI ke bAda mila gayA hai| dharmacanda surANA (cUrU) subaha se hamAre yahAM baiThe haiM / ve pUrI vyavasthAeM biThAkara hI jAnA cAhate haiM / bhAIjI mahArAja kA bistara lagA diyA hai| DaoNkTaroM ne punaH zArIrika jAMca kii| raktacApa, nAr3I kA dabAva, garamI aura phephar3oM kA parIkSaNa kiyaa| zalyakriyA pasaliyoM para pasavAr3e meM honI hai, ataH sIne aura bagala ke bAla nikAla kara saphAI karane ko kahA hai| dharmacanda surANA kI upasthiti meM hamane sArA kAma kiyA / aba mujhe (zramaNa) AhAra karane mArbala-bhavana jAnA hai| bhAIjI mahArAja akele hI yahAM biraajeNge| maiMne eka pustaka aura cazmA nivedana kiyA aura kahA-Apa pustaka par3heM itane meM maiM vahAM jAkara A rahA huuN| maiM calA gyaa| lauTakara AyA to dekhA, bhAIjI mahArAja gumasuma kisI cintana meM baiThe haiM / maiMne socA mana nahIM lagA hogaa| kyoMki sadA calaha-pahala meM rahane vAle ko ekAnta aTapaTA-sA lagatA hai| maiMne pUchA-kyoM, pustaka nahIM par3hI Apane? bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA pothI sAgara ! ke pddhuuN| samajha liyo maiM sAra / / prema bhAva rA pAdharA, 'campaka' akkhara cyAra // 28 apraila, 1975 336 AsIsa

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78 arthaM apane-apane jayapura kA cAturmAsa sampanna kara pUjya gurudeva phatahapura padhAre / bhAIjI mahArAja ke janmadina para AcAryapravara ne sabase pahalI bAra badhAI dI / kauna jAnatA thA ki yaha bhAIjI se milane vAlI aMtima badhAI hogI / na jAne kyoM AcAryavara ne pharamA diyA 'yazovilAza kA punarAvalokana pUrA ho gayA hai, aba 'lADAMjI' kA jIvana caritra likhakara 'mAjI' kA vyAkhyAna banAnA hai / phira ApakI bhI to taiyArI karanI ho hogI / ' yaha kauna jAnatA thA, sahaja nikalA zabda yoM caritArtha ho jAegA / zrI bhAIjI mahArAja ne kRtajJatA jJApana ke bAda kahA--Aja vihAra to karanA hai para zanivAra hai, karUM ki na karUM ? duvidhA hai / AcAryapravara ne pharamAyA- - Apa bhI bahamI ho gaye / sukhe sukhe vihAra karo, hama bhI A rahe haiM pIche ke pIche ! jyoMhI hamane vihAra kiyA, zakuna ThIka nahIM hue / bhAIjI mahArAja punaH AjAda bhavana meM padhAra gaye / dubArA prasthAna kiyA para zakuna inakAra kara rahe the / itane meM gurudeva padhAre / calo, hama bhI Apako pahuMcAne cala rahe haiM / hama ravAnA hue| bahuta sAre saMta aura saMsthA kI bahaneM to koI do kilomITara taka sAtha AIM / rAmapurA ke pAsa saMtoM ko sIkha dI / usa dina vIramapura rukakara hama dUsare dina sAyaMkala dhAnaNI pahuMce / rAta ko lADanUM ke kAryakartA Ae / vyavasthA sambandhI carcA bhAIjI mahArAja ne bAhara barAmade meM baiThakara kI / zayana se pahale muni mohana lAlajI (AmeTa) ne TippaNI kii| bhAIjI mahArAja ko vaha asuhAvanI lagI / subaha pratilekhana ke samaya mohana muni Aye aura khamata - khAmaNA karate hue mAphI mAMgI / lADanUM - vyavasthA para tIkhI anAyAsa hI bhAIjI mahArAja ne pharamAyA - sAgara ! Aja kA merA sapanA saMsmaraNa 337

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satya hai| usakA eka prAmANika phalita hai, mohana ke khamata khaamnnaa| hama sAlAsara ke lie cle| rAste meM hara mIla ke patthara para baiTha-baiThakara vizrAma liyaa| eka Adha jagaha ujale dhore para bhI baitthe| hara bAra Aja kucha na kucha nayA nirdeza AtA rahA / kucha purAne saMsmaraNa aura kucha karaNIya kAryoM kI hidAyateM diiN| eka bAra mujhe vacanabaddha kara zikSA phrmaaii| ___ isa avadhi meM maiMne svapna ko jAnane kA prayatna kiyaa| para eka hI jamAjamAyA uttara rahA, tumheM nahIM, AcAryazrI se milane para arja kruuNgaa| mRgasara zuklA dvAdazI somavAra ko hama sAlAsara rhe| bhAIjI mahArAja ne dAr3hI kA luMcana karavAyA / dAr3hI para hAtha pherate hue kahA-'sAlAsara ke bAbA ! terI saMkalAI sahI, aba loca nahIM aayegaa|' una dinoM nAka para eka phusI thIbhAIjI mahArAja ne mUMcha kA bAla khIMcate hue kahA- lagatA hai yaha pha~sI mujhe lekara hI jAyegI ! hama sabako loca karA lene kA Adeza huaa| sabake luMcana hue, kevala zAnti muni bAkI rhe| maiMne kahA-hAtha duHkhane laga gaye haiM, inakA loca bhI bar3A hai, kala kara leM to kaisA rahe ? munizrI ne pharamAyA-thor3A samajho ! kala tumheM phursata nahIM milegii| para hama nahIM samajhe yaha saba kyoM cetAyA jA rahA thaa| zAnti muni kA luMcana huA, vandanA kii| bhAIjI mahArAja jarA mulaka kara bole-acchA kiyA, dekho! tumheM mehanata to par3I para kala samaya nahIM milegA, maiM ThIka kahatA huuN| rAta ko raktacApa bar3hA / tabIyata kharAba huI / santoM ne sAlAsara hI rukane kA nivedana kiyaa| bhAIjI mahArAja bole- nahIM, mujhe AcAryazrI se pahale lADanUM pahuMcanA hai| calanA hI hogaa| lADanUM ke svayaMsevaka Aye / pUrI dharmazAlA kA sthAna nirIkSaNa kiyaa| vyavasthA samajhAI / santa yahAM ruka skeNge| AcAryapravara kA virAjanA yahAM ThIka jamegA / janatA ke baiThane kA sthAna yahAM upayukta baitthegaa| svayaMsevakoM se bAta karate-karate bhAIjI mahArAja dharmazAlA ke daravAje ke bAhara padhAra gaye aura AvAja dI--santoM ! maiM to calatA huuN| tuma upakaraNa lekara A jaanaa| hamane vihAra kiyaa| abhI sAlAsara pAnI kI TaMkI taka hI nahIM pahuMce the ki sAMsa phUla gayA / dukAna kI beMca para baiThe, phira cale / para calA nahIM jA rahA thaa| samudra ke kinAre taka dharatI nApane vAle pAMva Aja pAMca mIla kA rAstA kATate javAba de gaye / kalakattA se bambaI aura paMjAba se madrAsa taka calane vAle kadama Aja kyoM thake, patA nhiiN| jo sAhasa daMDakAraNya aura vidhya kI ghATiyAM pAra karate nahIM TUTA, vaha Aja vizvAsa chor3ane lagA / UTI jaise ATha hajAra phITa kI UMcAI car3hate to dama nahIM phUlA, vaha Aja apanI janmabhUmi kI kAMkaDa meM Akara phUlane lgaa| bhAIjI mahArAja dasa-bIsa kadama calate-baiThate phira calate phira baiThate / bAra 338 AsIsa

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bAra sar3aka para calate, rukate, sote, baiThate, rAstA kATa rahe the| maMgalavAra hanumAna bAbe kA dina / AcAryapravara kA sAlAsara pdhaarnaa| saikar3o-saikar3oM logoM kA AvAgamana / kAroM, basoM aura moTaroM ke yAtrI utara-utara kara darzana karate / sthiti pUchate / parAmarza dete / sAlAsara jAte aura AcAryazrI se nivedana krte| hamane pAMca mIla kA rAstA pAMca ghaNTe meM pAra kara pyAU meM vizrAma liyaa| vahIM rukane kA Adeza aayaa| AcAryazrI ne milane kA nirNaya liyaa| bhAIjI mahArAja ne punaH nivedana karavAyA-Apa apanA kAryakrama yathAvat hI rkhaayeN| maiM yahAM se DeDhe kilo mITara dhAM gAMva sAyaMkAla jAnA cAhatA hUM, kala lADanUM pahuMcanA AsAna rhegaa| - Aja dina meM saikar3oM Ate-jAte yAtriyoM ne darzana kiye / sevA kraaii| bAtacIta kii| vizrAma lekara uThate hI mujhase kahA gayA--eka kAgaja-kalama denA to| maiMne kahA-kyoM bhAIjI mahArAja ? unhoMne pharamAyA-tU de to shii| maiMne eka kAgaja kI slIpa aura DaoNTa pena nivedana kiyaa| unhoMne kucha likhA, kAgaja sameTa, mor3akara apane cAdara ke palle bAMdha liyaa| vihAra kiyaa| vaha eka mIla kA rAstA so kosa bana gyaa| eka ora maNi muni aura dUsarI ora maiM donoM ke kaMdhoM kA sahArA liye 'dhAM' phuNce| cabUtare para virAje / aba kucha nahIM thaa| sarva sAmAnya / rojamarrA kI taraha bAteM ho rahI thiiN| thAnamalajI bAphaNA (sujAnagar3ha) pAsa baiThe carcA kara rahe the / DaoN0 vyAsa ne jaba sunA, bhAIjI mahArAja ke Aja asAtA hai, ve sujAnagar3ha se aaye| pUrI cekiMga kI saba kucha sAmAnya thaa| ___ bhAIjI mahArAja ne DaoN0 vyAsa kA hAtha pakar3a kara kahA-DaoNkTara ! jaise-taise mujhe lADanUM pahuMcA do| ___DaoNkTara vyAsajI hairAna the / Aja yaha vajra-sA manobala DhIlA kyoM par3A? unhoMne kahA-bhAIjI mahArAja ! Aja yaha kamajorI kI bAta Apake muMha se kaise ? vizvAsa kIjiye, maiM lADanUM pahuMcA duuNgaa| para eka injekzana le liijiye| bhAIjI mahArAja ne kahA-DaoNkTara ! abhI to sUryAsta kA samaya ho gayA hai, maiM injekzana nahIM le sktaa| ___ bAta kala subaha para rahI / rAta ko sAr3he ATha baje DaoNkTara guhirAlA lADanUM se aaye| saba kucha ThIka-ThIka thA / kevala kaleje para jalana mahasUsa ho rahI thii| zAyada esiDiTI bar3hI ho| zayana ke samaya phatahapura vAle sohana lAlajI rAyajAdA acAnaka jhuMjhalAkara bar3abar3Ate hue uThe-'he devI-devatAo ! Aja ke ho gayo thAra? Ake sUjhe hai?' hamane pUchA kyA bAta hai? ve yaha kahate hue bAhara cale gaye-nahIM, nahIM, mahArAja ! saMsmaraNa 336

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Apa to sukhe sukhe por3ho / aura subaha 6-10 bajate-bajate zrI bhAIjI mahArAja kA hArTa banda ho gayA / pau phaTa gii| subaha hote-hote aMdherA chA gyaa| jisane bhI sunA, vizvAsa nahIM huA | rAjasthAna reDiyo ne bAra-bAra prasAraNa kiyaa| dillI oNla iMDiyA reDiyo ne samAcAroM ke bIca sUcanA dI -- 'bhAIjI mahArAja nahIM rahe / ' dAha-saMskAra unakI janmabhUmi lADanUM meM karanA taya huaa| jisane bhI sunA, jise jo sAdhana milA, rAta bhara meM hajAroM loga kalakattA, bambaI, ahamadAbAda, paMjAba aura madrAsa va baiMgalora dUra-dUra se pahuMce / lADanUM kI bhIr3a bharI hara galI aura hara jabAna sUnI-sUnI thI / pratyeka milane vAlA bhIgI AMkhoM se bAta karatA thA / bAjAra banda ho gaye / saMsthAoM ne smRti sabhA ke bAda avakAza ghoSita kiyaa| jhaMDe jhukA diye gaye / Thele vAloM ne Thele nahIM lagAye / sabjI vAloM ne sabjI nahIM becii| yahAM taka usa dina musalamAna bhAiyoM ne ( silAvaToM ne) patthara para chenI hathor3I nahIM calAI / zrI bhAIjI mahArAja kA pArthiva zarIra lADanUM phuNcaa| pUjya gurudeva sujAnagar3ha rukakara dUsare dina madhyAhna lADanUM pdhaare| saikar3oM saikar3oM bahira-vihArI sAdhuH sAdhviyoM ke parivAra meM smRti sabhA ke bAda jaina vizva bhAratI ke prAMgaNa meM dAhasaMskAra sampanna huA / unake vastroM ko badalate samaya zrI sAgara malajI koThArI (bhAIjI mahArAja ke mAmA ke lar3ake-bhAI) ko vaha ciTTa caddara ke palle baMdhI milI / usameM likhA thA- 'campaka' cavadasa cyAnaNI, yAda rahelA roja / sAlAsara kI sAkhasyUM, jA sAgara ! kara moja // ' artha apane-apane haiM / yaha usa sAgara se kahA gayA yA isa sAgara se ? hama donoM eka hI parivAra se jo haiM /

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