Pati Patni No Divya Vyavahar Granth

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Mahavideh Foundation
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008866/1

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dAdA bhagavAna prarUpita pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra saMklata : DaoN. tIrubaheta amIta prakAzaka (c) All Rights Reserved - Dr. Niruben Amin : zrI ajita sI. paTela mahAvideha phAunDezana 5, mamatApArka sosAyaTI, navagujarAta koleja pAchaLa, usmAnapurA, amadAvAda-380014, gujarAta. phona : (079) 27540408, 27543979 Trimandir, Simandhar City, Ahmedabad-Kalol Highway, Adalaj, Dist : Gandhinagar-382 421, Gujarat, India. 5,000 prathama AvRti : dvitIya AvRtiH 2,000 tRtIya AvRti : 2,000 bhAva mUlya dravya mUlya mudraka 1995 1998 mArca 2007 : 'parama vinaya' ane 'huM kaMI ja jANato nathI', e bhAva ! : 60 rUpiyA (rAhata dare) lesara kaMpojha : dAdA bhagavAna phAunDezana, amadAvAda. : mahAvideha phAunDezana (prinTIMga DIvIjhana), pArzvanAtha cembarsa, navI rijharva beMka pAse, usmAnapurA, amadAvAda. phona : (079) 27542964, 27540216|

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sa ma rpaNa trimaMtra pati-patnInA vyavahAramAM khaTapaTo; bannenA ddhayamAM kema karI jaldI mITo. DAInIMga Tebala ho ke ho beDarUma; mAruM kema na mAnyuM' saMbhaLAya tyAM bUma. vana phemili chatAM mArI-tArI kaMkAsa; kleza-kaSAyo-AkSepo ne mAre DaMphAsa. ragaDA-jhadhaDA-gharSaNo-ve2 ne badalo; dhaNIpaNuM ne zaMkA-kuzaMkAnA paDaLo. samaya varte asAvadha, kyAM gayA kola ? saptapadIno zuM sAra ? pheMke gALonA bola ! apekSA-viSayAsakti karAve kakaLATa; zuddha prema te aghaTa-avadha aghATa. saMbodhe deva-devI e kabIjAne jayAre; svarga varte tyAM bALakone saMskAre. dAdAe zAna daI sudhAryA saMbaMdho; chUTAcheDAmAMthI ugArI prasArI sugaMdho. ane kone bodhatI vANInuM saMkalana; 'pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra' atre prakAzana. gharamAM ja svarga ne premamaya jIvana; sthApavA A graMtha "pati-patnI'ne samarpaNa. - DaoN. nIrubahena amIta

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(dAdA bhagavAna phAunDezananA prakAzano ) 1. bhogave tenI bhUla 38. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra 2. banyuM te nyAya 39. vANIno siddhAMta 3. eDajasTa evarIvhera 1. eDajasTa evarIvhera 4. athaDAmaNa TALo 2. TakarAva TAlie 5. ciMtA 3. huA so nyAya 6. krodha bhugate usI kI bhUla 7. sevA-paropakAra vartamAna tIrthakara zrI sImaMdhara svAmI 8. mAnavadharma 6. OM zauna haiM? 9. vartamAna tIrthaMkara zrI sImaMdhara svAmI 7. karma 1 vijJAna 10. mRtyu samaye, pahelAM ne pachI 8. sarva duHkho se mukti 11. dAna 9. Atmabodha 12. trimaMtra 10. jJAnI puruSa kI pahacAna 13. huM koNa chuM ? 11. ciMtA 14. bhAvanA sudhAre bhavobhava 12. krodha 15. dAdA bhagavAna ? 1. Adjust Everywhere 16. vANI, vyavahAramAM.... 2. The Fault of the sufferer 17. satya-asatyanA rahasyo 3. Whatever has happened is Justice 18. mA-bApa chokarAMno vyavahAra (saMkSipta) 4. Avoid Clashes 5. Anger 19. paisAno vyavahAra (saM.) 6. Worries 20. pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (saM.) 7. The Essence of All Religion 21. pratikramaNa (saM.). 8. Shree Simandhar Swami 22. samajathI prApta brahmacarya (saM.) 9. Pure Love 23. karmanuM vijJAna 10. Death : Before, During & After... 11. Gnani Purush Shri A.M.Patel 24. pApa-puNya 12. Who Aml? 25. prema 13. The Science of Karma 26. ahiMsA 14. Ahimsa (Non-violence) 27. camatkAra 15. Money 28. kleza vinAnuM jIvana 16. Celibacy : Brahmcharya 29. guru-ziSya 17. Harmony in Marriage 30. nijadoSa darzanathI, nirdoSa 18. Pratikraman 19. Flawless Vision 31. AptavANI zreNI 1 thI 14 20. Generation Gap 32. samajathI prApta brahmacarya (pUrvAdha-utarArdha) 21. Aptavani-1 34. AptasUtra (bhAga 1 thI 5). 22. Noble use of Money 35. paisAno vyavahAra 23. Trimantra 36. pratikramaNa 24. Life Without Conflicts 37. pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra 25. Spirituality In Speech 26. Aptavani-2 'dAdA bhagavAna' koNa? jUna 1958nI e samI sAMjano chaeka vAgyAno samaya, bhIDamAM dhamadhamatAM suratanAM sTezana para beThelA e.ema.paTela rUpI dehamaMdiramAM 'dAdA bhagavAna' saMpUrNapaNe pragaTa thayA ane kudarate saryuM adhyAtmanuM adbhUta Azcarya ! eka kalAkamAM vizvadarzana lAdhyuM ! 'ApaNe koNa ? bhagavAna koNa ? jagata koNa calAve che? karma zuM ? mukti zuM ? "I. jagatanAM tamAma AdhyAtmika praznonAM saMpUrNa phoDa paDyA ! emane prApti thaI te ja rIte mAtra be ja kalAkamAM, anyane paNa prApti karAvI ApatAM, emanA addabhUta jJAnaprayogathI ! ene akrama mArga kahyo. krama eTale pagathiye pagathiye, krame krame UMce caDhavAnuM ! akrama eTale krama vinAno, liphTa mArga ! zorTakaTa !! teozrI svayaM pratyekane 'dAdA bhagavAna koNa ?"no phoDa pADatA kahetAM ke, "A dekhAya che te 'dAdA bhagavAna' nhoya, ame to jJAnI puruSa chIe ane mahIM pragaTa thayelA che te dAdA bhagavAna che, je caudalokanA nAtha che, e tamArAmAMya che, badhAmAMya che. tamArAmAM avyaktarUpe rahelA che ne 'ahIM' saMpUrNapaNe vyakta thayelA che ! huM pote bhagavAna nathI. mArI aMdara pragaTa thayelA dAdA bhagavAnane huM paNa namaskAra karuM chuM." AtmajJAna prAptinI pratyakSa liMka parama pUjya dAdA bhagavAna (dAdAzrI) gAmegAma-dezavideza paribhramaNa karIne mumukSu jIvone satsaMga tathA AtmajJAnanI prApti karAvatAM hatAM. dAdAzrIe potAnI hayAtImAM ja pUjya DaoN. nIrubahena amIna (nIrumA)ne AtmajJAna prApti karAvavAnI jJAnasiddhi Apela. dAdAzrInA dehavilaya bAda nIrumA te ja rIte mumukSu jIvone satsaMga tathA AtmajJAnanI prApti nimitta bhAve karAvatA hatA. pUjya dIpakabhAI desAIne dAdAzrIe satsaMga karavA mATe siddhi Apela. nIrumAnI hAjarImAM tamanA AzIrvAdathI pUjya dIpakabhAI deza-videzomAM ghaNAM gAmo-zaheromAM jaIne AtmajJAna karAvI rahyA hatA. je nIrumAnA dehavilaya bAda cAlu ja raheze. A AtmajJAna meLavyA bAda hajAro mumukSao saMsAramAM rahIne javAbadArIo pUrI karatAM paNa mukta rahI AtmaramaNatA anubhave che.

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jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA tamAre mokSe javuM hoya to jajo ne nA javuM hoya to nA jazo, paNa ahIM tamArI gUMconA badhAM ja khulAsA karI jAo. ahIM to dareka jAtanA khulAsA thAya. A vyavahArika khulAsA thAya toya vakIlo paisA le che ! paNa A to amUlya khulAso, enuM mUlya nA hoya. A badho gUMcALo che ! ane te emane ekalAne ja che ema nathI, AkhA jagatane che. dha varlDa Ijha dha pajhala ITasepha', A varlDa ITaselpha pajhala thayeluM che. jo "kamplITa' jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA zIkhelA hoyane to lAIpha IjhI rahe. lokone vyavahAradharma paNa ekalo UMco maLavo joIe ke jethI lokone jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA AvaDe. jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA AvaDe ene ja vyavahAradharma kahyo che. kaMI tapatyAga karavAthI e kaLA AvaDe nahIM. jene jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA AvaDI, tene Akho vyavahAradharma AvaDI gayo ane nizcaya dharma to 'Devalapa' thaIne Ave to prApta thAya ane A akrama mArge to nizcaya dharma to jJAnInI kRpAthI ja prApta thaI jAya che ! 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse to anaMta jJAnakaLA hoya ne anaMta prakAranI bodhakaLA hoya ! e kaLAo evI suMdara hoya ke sarva prakAranA duHkhothI mukta kare. 'jJAnI puruSa' A saMsArajaMjALamAMthI chUTavAno rasto dekhADe ane rastA para caDhAvI de ane ApaNane lAge ke ApaNe A upAdhimAMthI chUTyA ! dAdAzrInI vyavahArika vAto ! darekanA vyavahAra jIvanane Adarza banAvavA eka suMdara pustaka prakAzita karavA pUjyazrIe varSo pahelAM saMketa karelo. pUjyazrInA ja zabdomAM atre te jovA maLe che. eka vyavahArika jJAnanI copaDI banAvo. te lokono vyavahAra sudhare toya bahu thaI gayuM. ane mArA zabdo che te enuM mana pharI jaze. zabdo mArAM ne mArAM rAkhajo. zabdo mahIM pheraphAra nA karazo, vacanabaLavALA zabdo che, mAlikI vagaranAM zabdo che. paNa ene goThavI, goThavaNI karavAnI tamAre. mAruM A je vyavahArika jJAna chene, te to ola ovara varlDamAM darekane kAma lAge, AkhI manuSyajAtine kAma lAge. amAro vyavahAra bahu UMco hato, e vyavahAra zIkhavADuM chuM ne dharmaya zIkhavADuM chuM. sthULavALAne zULa, sUkSmavALAne sUkSma paNa darekane kAma lAge. mATe evuM kaMIka karo ke lokone helpaphula thAya. meM bahu pustako vAMcyA, A lokone madada thAya evA. paNa kazuM bhalIvAra hato nahi, thoDuM ghaNuM helpa thAya. bAkI jIvana sudhAre evA hoya ja nahi ! kAraNa ke e to manano DaoNkTara hoya to ja thAya ! te AI ema dhI phula DaoNkTara opha mAInDa ! -dAdAzrI

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jAhera satsaMgamAM. vizeSa vAto to amerikAmAM nIkaLelI ke jyAM phrIlI, opanalI (khulle Ama muktatAthI) badhAM aMgata jIvana vize bolI zake ! nimittAdhIna 5. dAdAzrInI anubhavavANI vahI jenuM saMkalana dareka pati-patnIne mArgadarzaka bane tema che ! kyAreka patine ThapakAratA to kyAreka patnIne jhApaTatA, je nimittane je kahevAnI jarUra hoya te ArapAra dekhI pUjyazrI tAraNa kADhI vacanabaLathI roga kADhatA. sujJa vAcakane vinaMtI ke gerasamajathI dupayoga na karI besatA ke dAdAe to strIno ja vAMka kADhyo che ke dhaNIpaNAne ja doSita kahyA che ! dhaNIne dhaNIpaNAnA doSo kADhatI vANI ne patnIne patnInAM prakRtika doSo kADhatI vANI dAdAmukhe sarelI, tene savaLI rIte laI potAnI jAtane ja cokhkhI karavA manana, ciMtana karavA vinaMtI ! - DaoN. nIrubahena amIta prastAvanA nigodamAMthI ekendriya ane ekendriyamAMthI paMcendriya ne temAMthI mAnavInuM utkrAMtimAM pariNamyuM tyArathI yugalika strI ane puruSa sAthe ja jamyA, paraNyA ne paravAryA.... Ama pati-patnIno vyavahAra mAnavInA udayamAM AvI gayo ! satyuga-dvApara ne tretAyugamAM prAkRtika saraLatAne kAraNe pati-patnImAM problemsa jIvanamAM kyAreka ja thatAM ! Aje dararoja kleza, kakaLATa ne matabheda pati-patnI vacce mahad aMze badhe jovA maLe che, kaLikALamAM !!! AmAMthI bahAra nIkaLI pati-patnInuM jIvana Adarza zI rIte jIvAya enuM mArgadarzana A kALane anurUpa kayA zAstromAM maLe ? tyAM have zuM karavuM ? Aja lokonAM vartamAna prazno ane temanI bhASAmAM ja ukelavAnA saraLa upAyo to A kALanA pragaTa jJAnI ja ApI zake. evA pragaTa jJAnI parama pUjya dAdAzrIe emanA jJAna avasthAnA trIsa varSomAM pati-patnI vaccenA gharSaNanA samAdhAna arthe pUchAyelA hajAro praznomAMthI saMkalana karI atre prastuta graMtha prakAzita karavAmAM Ave che. pati-patnI vaccenI aneka jaTila samasyAonA ukelasama hRdayasparzI ane kAyamI samAdhAna ApatI vANI atre sujJavAcakane tenA lagnajIvanamAM deva ane jevI draSTi ekabIjA mATe utpanna acUka karI de tema che, dilathI vAMcIne samajavAthI ja! zAstromAM UMDuM tattvajJAna maLe paNa te tattvajJAna zabdomAM ja maLe. ethI AgaLa zAstra laI jaI nA zake. vyavahAra jIvanamAM paMkacarane sAMdhavAnuM to teno eksaparTa anubhavI ja zIkhavI zake ! pUjyazrI saMpUrNa AtmajJAnI patnI sAthenA Adarza vyavahArane saMpUrNa anubhavIne anubhavavANIthI ukelo Ape che je sacoTa rIte kAma kare che ! A kALanA akramajJAnInI A jagatane ajoDa bheTa che, vyavahArajJAnanI bodhakaLAnI ! saMpUjya dAdAzrI sAthe aneka patioe ke patnIe ke kapalsa duHkhI saMsAranI samasyAo rajU karelI, kyAreka khAnagImAM ke kyAreka

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upoddhAta (1) vana phemilI potAnI phemilImAM ja bhAMjagaDa thAya ? potAnI 'vana phemilI' ! eka kuTuMba karIke oLakhAvIe jagatane, temAM ja aneka matabheda zAne ? DakhoDakhala zAne ? 'mArI phemilI' kahIe ane emAM azAMti ? pachI jIvana jIvavAnuM kemanuM game ? phemilI lAIpha to evI ghaTe ke jyAM prema, prema ne naryo prema ja ubharAto hoya ! phemilImAM to eDajasTa evarIvhera hovuM ja joIe. jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA kaI zALAmAM zIkhyA ? paraNatAM pUrve patinI DIgrI koI kolejamAMthI lIdhelI ? ke ema ne ema vagara sarTiphikeTe dhaNI thaI beThAM ? patnI sAthe, bALako sAthe kaI rIte vartavuM tenuM zikSaNa lIdheluM ? vAIpha joDe kakaLATa karAya ? je ApaNane sAruM sAruM premathI jamADe tenI joDe mAthAkUTa kema karAya ? ApaNA hindustAnamAM to 'phemilI DaoNkTara' rAkhe che ! alyA, DaoNkTarane te vaLI phemilImAM ghalAto haze ? ene gharamAM ghalAya ? amastu amastu prezara vadhI gayuM ne lohI ghaTI gayuM, karIne gabharAvI mAre. e to badhuM aTakI paDyuM tyAre e nimittanI madada levAya. patnI vaDhe tyAre thoDIvAra pachI patie kahevuM, tuM game te vaDhe, toya mane tArA vagara gamatuM ja nathI. ATalo gurumaMtra zIkhI leje !! pahelAM gharano vyavahAra klIna (cokhkho) karavo, pachI bIje. cerITI biginsa phroma homa. (gharathI dharmAdAnI zarUAta hoya.) ATaluM sarasa khAvA-pIvAnuM, rahevA pharavAnuM maLyuM che chatAM du:kha kema ? tyAre kahe ke aNasamajaNathI du:kha che. mATe pahelI aNasamajaNane bhAMgo. gharamAM duHkha ApIne ApaNe sukhI na thavAya. saMyukta kuTuMbamAM mArI-tArI na karAya. bhedabuddhithI mArI-tArI thAya che. mAruM-tAruM nahIM, ApaNuM. dAdAzrI kahe che ke "ame tamane badhAne vana phemilI tarIke ja joIe. koI avaLuMsavaLuM bole toya juduM nA lAge. AkhuM varlDa vana phemilI jevuM ja lAge.' gharamAM patnIthI ke bALakothI kaMI bhUla thAya to moTuM mana karI puruSe nabhAvI levuM. dAdAzrI kahe che, 'tame badhA nakkI karo ke gharamAM vana phemilI tarIke premathI rahevuM che to huM tamane AzirvAda ApIza. tame nakkI karo to prArabdha tamane mArI kema na Ape ?" (2) gharamAM kleza ! je ghera kleza te ghera na vase prabhu. kakaLATa thavA ja na devo ne thAya to thatAMnI sAthe ja zamAvI devo. bapore kakaLATa thAya dhaNI joDe to sAMje suMdara jamaNa banAvI jamADI devuM. jJAnInA satsamAgamU-satsaMgathI, temanI ApelI samajathI gharamAMthI kleza sadaMtara nAbUta thAya. kleza ne kaMkAsa beu javA joIe. puruSa kleza kare ne strI ane pakaDI rAkhIne kaMkAsa kare. strImAM kaMkAsa vadhAre hoya, moDhuM caDAvIne phare, choDe nahi. puruSa kleza nA kare to kaMkAsa rahe ? je ghera strIne sukha maLe te ghara ghara nathI paNa maMdira kahevAya. vicArI vicArIne klezane vidAya karavo joIe kAyamane mATe ! kAcanI DIzo paDIne tUTI gaI ne dhaNIe kakaLATa zarU karyo ke dhaNIe "dhaNIpaNuM' turta ja gumAvyuM ! be koDInA thaI gayA karoDapati zeTha ! patnIthI kaDhI utAratAM DhoLAI gaI to dhaNI bUmAbUma karI mUke ! e jANIjoIne DhoLe che ? koI strI jANIbUjhIne potAnAM dhaNIchokarAMne kharAba nA khavaDAve. A koI toDatuM nathI, A tUTe che e to sahu sahuno hisAba cUkavAya che. tyAM dhaNIe pUchavuM joIe ke 'tuM dAjhI to nathI ne ?" tyAre ene kevuM sAruM lAge !

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nA thAya eTaluM ja AvaDI gayuM, te dharmano sAra zIkhI gayo. jelamAM ke mahelamAM aMdara sarakhuM ja varte te dharma pAmyo ! kleza baMdha thAya to ja dharmanA sAcA raste chIe ema jANavuM. ane to ja saMsArano niveDo Ave. parama pUjya dAdAzrI kahe che, "dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma lejo. huM ja dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma laIne badhuM kAma karuM chuMne ! dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma lezo to tarata ja tamAruM dhAryuM kAma thaI jaze." (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! pati-patnImAM jhaghaDo thAya to ja majhA Ave evuM je manAya che te khoTuM rakSaNa kare che. jo jhaghaDAmAM majA na AvatI hoya to roja Akho dahADo karyA karone ! paNa Akho dahADo koI jhaghaDo karyA kare je vastuthI gharamAM kleza thAya te vastu gharamAMthI bahAra nAkhI do, paNa kleza na thavA do. jJAna hoya teNe to be pUtaLAM jhaghaDe che te jovuM. ApaNe Arya prajA te jhaghaDA karI anADI jevuM kema vartAya ? parama pUjya dAdAzrIne soLame varSe paraNatI vakhate vicAra Avyo ke lagnanuM aMtima pariNAma zuM ? bemAMthI ekane to raDavAnuM ja ne ! paraNatI vakhate kevo utkRSTa vairAgyano vicAra !! 'samaya varte sAvadhAna' gora bole teno artha zuM ke bIbI garama thaI gaI hoya tyAre dhaNIe ThaMDA thaI javAnuM. ema anyonya rAkhavAnuM. klezanuM mULa kAraNa ajJAnatA che. saMsAramAM koI koInA svabhAva maLe nahi. jJAnathI eDajasTa evarIvhera thavAya. je ghera kleza tyAM dhaMdhAmAM barakata nA Ave. mATe nakkI karo ke ApaNA gharamAM kleza nA ja thavo joIe. kamAtI patnIno pAvara caDhyo hoya, patnI vaMThI hoya tyAre patie bhIta jevA thaI javuM. saMskArI kone kahevAya ? pahelAnA vakhatamAM loko paiThaNa (daheja) ApatA, te zenI ApatA haze ? jyAM kleza nA hoya tenI, saMskArI kuTuMba che mATe. | game teTaluM gharamAM nukasAna thAya paNa kleza karatAM koI nukasAna vadhAre nA ja hoI zake ? bhaDako thatAM pahelAM pANI nAkhI TADhuM karI devuM joIe. je gharamAM kleza thato hoya tenI asara chokarAM upara bahu kharAba paDe che. zrImad rAjacaMdra lakhyuM che, je gharamAM eka divasa paNa kleza nA hoya tene amArA namaskAra !" svarUpa jJAna thayA pachI sahaja bhAve klezano abhAva rahe ane jJAna nA hoya to buddhipUrvaka klezano abhAva hoya. sAco jaina ke sAco vaiSNava kone kahevAya ke jene tyAM kleza ja nA thAya. zuM karavAthI phleza gharamAM traNa jaNa paNa dararoja tetrIsa matabheda thAya. rAtre banne vacce jhaghaDo thAya pachI beu judI judI rUmamAM sUI jAya, te savAra sudhI ghA nA rUjhAyo hoya. savAre cAno kapa mUkatI vakhate jorathI khakhaDAvIne mUke. matabheda rahita thAya to ja jIvananI salAmatI che. ApaNA loka kahe, 'be vAsaNo hoya to khakhaDe ja ne ?" alyA, ApaNe zuM vAsaNo chIe ? manuSyapaNuM kyAM gayuM ?! dhaNI kahe, "huM tAro'. vahu kahe, 'huM tArI'. ne thoDIvAramAM pAchA jhaghaDe ne mArAmArI karI nAkhe. ApaNA dhaNIomAMthI eka evo nahi maLe ke jeNe bAyaDIne bApanuM ghara jiMdagImAM ekavAreya nA dekhADyuM hoya ! ane jeNe nA dekhADyuM hoya tene namaskAra !! matabhedanuM mukhya kAraNa dhaNI-dhaNIyANI vacce akkalanI caDasAcaDasI. beu mAne ke mArAmAM vadhAre akkala che. akkala to tene kahevAya ke matabheda nA paDe, akkala hoya tyAM nakala nA hoya. vahu bahu akkala vAparatI hoya to ApaNe ene 'joyA' karavuM ke ohoho, A kevI akkalavALI che ! kharI buddhi to tene kahevAya ke jenAthI matabheda sadaMtara baMdha thaI jAya. 14 13

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(rassI ecapaTIyuM tAra, 11 jJAnIne Ama zA mATe jhApaTavuM paDe che ? jhApaTyA vagara dhULa khaMkherAya ja nahi, to zuM karavuM ? A kAruNyamayI jhApaTIyuM to juo ! matabheda eTale Taga oNpha vaoNra (rassI kheMca) ! bahu kheMce to dorI tUTI jAya, pachI gAMTha vALIne calAvavuM paDe emAM zI majhA ? sAmo kheMca kare tyAM jJAnI dhIme rahIne choDI de tethI sAmo jIte ne paDI nA jAya. matabheda thAya te "anaphITa hasabaMDa enDa vAIpha' (lAyakAta vagaranA pati ane patnI) kahevAya ! pachI bALako aMdarakhAne badhI noMdha kare ke pappo ja kharAba che ke mammI ja kajiyALI che. gAMTha vALe ke moTo thaIza tyAre joI laIza. pachI moTAM thaye e ja sAmA thAya, Aje ApelA ekabIjAnA abhiprAyonI bAMdhelI gAMThonA phaLa svarUpe. mATe chokarAnAM dekhatAM kadi pati-patnIe jhaghaDavuM nA joIe. emanA nAjuka mana upara kumaLI vayamAM ja khUba kharAba chApa paDI jAya ! tyAM khUba jAgrata rahevAnI jarUra che. mA-bApanI emAM moTI javAbadArI che. mA-bApano jhaghaDA-kaMkAsa joIne parama pUjya dAdAzrI pAse AvanArA AjakAlanA chokarAo zuM kahe che ? 'amAre paraNavuM nathI, ane emAM zuM sukha che te gharamAM ja joI lIdhuM !' 'tAruM sAruM karI jJAnI cAlI jAya, 'mAruM sAcuM' karI ajJAnI aTavAI jAya ! rileTIva satya e TempararI satya che, ene sAcuM TharAvavA mATe kyAM sudhI besI rahevuM ? 'riyala' satya hoya to AkhI jiMdagI enA mATe besI rahevA taiyAra chIe. sAmo gALa bhAMDe te tenA bhUpoInTathI (daSTibiMduthI) je dekhAya che te bole che emAM enI kyAM bhUla ? sAmAnuM dRSTibiMdu dRSTimAM rAkhe to matabheda thAya ja kyAMthI ? - parama pUjaya dAdAzrI kahe che, "amAre pistALIsa varSathI koInI joDe matabheda thayo nathI.' pUjyazrI kahe che, 'AMtarika matabhedano koI upAya che ? te koI zAstramAM mane jaDyo nahIM. eTale pachI meM zodhakhoLa karI jAte ke Ano upAya ATalo ja che ke huM mArA matane ja kADhI nAkhuM to matabhedo nahIM paDe. mAro mata ja nahIM. tamArA mate mata. meM to bahu ropha mArelA. dhaNIpaNuM bajAveluM te amAruM gAMDapaNa.' paNa samajaNathI ne pachI jJAnathI ja pote eDajasTa thaI jatA. pachI banne ekabIjA joDe maryAdApUrvaka vAta kare. hIrAbA zuM AzayathI bole che te dAdAzrI tarata ja samajI jAya eTale matabheda paDe ja nahIM ne ! A to sAmAno Azaya, eno nyU poInTa nahIM samajavAthI matabheda paDI jAya che. rIvolyuzana para miniTa (Ara.pI.ema., vicAranI spIDa) darekanA judAM judAM hoya ! eka miniTamAM to hajAro paryAyo dekhADI de. pa. pU. dAdAzrI kahe che, "moTA moTA presiDanTonA Ara.pI.ema. bAraso hoya, jyAre amArA pAMca hajAra hoya ne bhagavAna mahAvIranA lAkha hoya !" - parama pUjya dAdAzrInAM samaja ane grAmpIMganA rIvolyuzana para miniTa, varlDanA TopamAM Topa ane sAme hIrAbAnA sAva ochAM, chatAM parama pUjya dAdAzrIe eMjIna kevuM calAvyuM haze, kevI kAunTara pullIo goThavI haze ke paTTo kyAreya tUTavA nA dIdho ! eTaluM ja nahi paNa hIrAbAnI joDe nikAla karatAM bAnI dRSTi dAdAzrI mATe patinI hatI tene badale bhagavAna che ema thaI gaI ! ane dAdAzrI pAse jJAna paNa lIdhuM ane dararoja savAra-sAMja dAdAnA aMgUThe mastaka mUkI dasa miniTa 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM' bolatAM bolatAM caraNa vidhi karatAM. A jJAnIno ajoDa itihAsa gaNAya ke patnI paNa patine ATaluM badhuM svIkAre ! parama pUjya dAdAzrIe je kaMI jagatane ApyuM te temanA jIvanamAM anubhavamAM AveluM, vartanamAM AveluM te ja ApyuM che. tethI to lAkho lokonAM jIvana pheraphAra thaI gayAM che. emanA jIvanamAM ekavAra matabheda paDelo, paNa paDatAM pahelAM ja temaNe ene vALI lIdho ne hIrAbAne khabareya nA paDI ke kyAre matabheda paDyo ne kyAre UDI gayo !!! hIrAbAe ekavAra dAdAzrIne kahyuM. 'tamArA mAmAne tyAM lagna hoya to moTA moTA cAMdInA tATa Apo cho ne mArA bhatrIjInA laganamAM gharamAM paDeluM cAMdInuM nAnuM vAsaNa ApavAnuM kaho cho ?" te pahelIvAra mArI-tArI thaI temanA lagna jIvanamAM ! te tarata ja dAdAzrI kahe ke meM palTI mArI dIdhI. huM Akhoya pharI gayo ne bolyo, "nA, nA, evuM nahIM. A gharamAM paDyuM che te 16

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cAMdInuM ne uparathI rokaDA pAMcaso rUpiyA ApI do.' tyAre bA bolyAM, 'hove, eTalA badhAM to kaMI apAtA haze ?!ne Ama hIrAbAnI korTamAMthI nirdoSa chuTI gayA ! tyAM badhAMne ahaMkAra Ave ke mAruM kema nIcuM paDe ? alyA, dhaNI to kevo nobala hoya ?! jyAM matabheda che tyAM aMzajJAna che ne jyAM matabheda ja nathI tyAM vijJAna che, sarvAzajJAna che. senTaramAM beThelAne ja matabheda nA hoya, niSpakSapAtIpaNuM hoya. (4) khAtI vakhate khaTapaTa ! badhI rasoI suMdara thaI hoya ne kaDhI jarIka khArI thaI hoya to patideva boMbADIMga zarU karI de, 'A kaThuM khAruM karI nAkhyuM. khAvAnI majhA mArI gaI." ane pachI kaoNlDa vaoNra zarU thaI jAya. e khAze tyAre ene khabara nA paDe ke kaDhI khArI che ? to pachI ApaNe zA mATe noTIsaborDa thavuM ? bhUMgaLuM thavuM ? alyA, jarIka aMtarUtapa karI lo ne ! mokSe javuM hoya to aMtarUtapa karavuM ja paDe. ekane uttara dekhAya ne bIjAne dakSiNa dekhAya pachI meLa kyAMthI paDe ? bhUla kaDhI banAvanAranI nathI ke nathI koI anyanI. koI jANI joIne bagADe ? A to "vyavasthita zakti"nI sattA che. mUMge moDhe jamI le e pati kevA deva jevA lAge ! thALImAM je kAMI Ave te khAnAranA 'vyavasthita'ne hisAbe Ave che, banAvanAranA nahi. tethI je Ave teno samabhAve nikAla karavo. AjakAlanI strIne pUchIe ke zuM bhAvanA bhAvo cho ? AnA A ja pati pharI pharI maLo, ema ? tyAre badhI zuM kahe, 'A bhave maLyA te maLyA, have pharI koI avatAramAM bhegA nA thajo !" eka ja bena dAdAne kahenArI maLelI ke 'dAdA pharI Avate bhava paNa Aja dhaNI mane maLajo.' (5) dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! paraNatAM pahelA jue eno vAMdho nathI paNa paraNyA pachI AkhI jiMdagI e evI ne evI rahevAnI che kharI ? pachI pheraphAra thAya to akaLAmaNa zarU thaI jAya. dhaNI thavAnuM che, dhaNIpaNuM nathI karavAnuM. mAlika nahi paNa pArTanara thavAnuM che. barakata nA hoya te ja vahu para ropha mAre. strI paMdara varSanI ne puruSa paccIsa varSano hoya toya bannenI AvaData sarakhI hoya. pUjaya dAdAzrIe patinI vyAkhyA ApI che ke 'hasabaMDa eTale vAIphanIya vAIpha' to ja lAIpha suMdara jAya. dhaNIne bhaya hoya ke dhaNIpaNuM nA bajAvIe to vahu caDhI besaze. alyA, game eTalI e caDhI besavA phare paNa ene kaMI mUcho AvavAnI che ? ane dhaNIne mUcho jatI rahevAnI che ? mATe bhaya rAkhavAnI jarUra nathI. amuka komavALA koI rIte gharamAM patnI joDe jhaghaDo nA thavA de. game te rIte manAvI le. chevaTe patnIne hiMcako nAkhIneya khuza karI de. eka rUmamAM rahenArA rIsAya to dhaNIne to bahAra ja sUvuM paDe ?! eTalI ja samajaNa jo dhaNIne AvI jAya to... ! jhaghaDo karavo hoya to bahAra polIsavALA joDe karane ? khIle bAMdhelI gAyane DaphaNAM marAya ? eka pacIsa varSanA yuvAnane dAdAzrIe pUchayuM, 'patnI joDe tAre jhaghaDo thAya che ?" tyAre eNe kahyuM, 'ye kyA bAta bole Apa ? vaha to mere muMha kA pAna ! usake sAtha kabhI nahIM jhaghaDA karatA. bIvI mujhe acchA acchA khAnA khIlAtI hai. usake sAtha jhaghaDA karuM, to mujhe kauna acchA khAnA khIlAyegA ?" ATalI samajaNa laI le toya jhaghaDo TaLe. (6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! sAmAnI kaMI bhUla kaDhAya ? je e samajI zakatA nA hoya, jANI zakatA nA hoya che. sAmAne khabara paDe evI bhUla kADhavAno zo artha ? ane bhUla dekhADavAnI rIta pAchI AvaDavI joIe. sAmAne duHkha thAya e rIte to bhUla nA ja kaDhAyane ? ApaNe sAmAne bhUla dekhADIe

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ne sAmAne upakArI bhAva Ubho thAya to ja e bhUla kADhelI kAmanI. nahi to kleza thAya ne karma baMdhAya ane sAmAnI bhUla kahevAnuM mana thAya to evI rIte kahevI ke jANe ApaNe koI pArakAne nA kahetA hoya ke "plIjha cAmAM nAkhavA jarA khAMDa Apazo !' phrenDazIpa TakAvavA kevI rIte vartIe ? evuM bairI joDe rAkhavuM paDe. ene godA te kaMI marAya ? vahune sAcavI kyAre kahevAya ke vahunA manamAMthI kyAreya dhaNI pratye prema tUTe nahIM. kharuM dhaNIpaNuM to tene kahevAya ke sAmethI koI paNa jAtano pratikAra nA thAya. - vahunI bhUla kADhIne ene dabAve e te vaLI zuro kahevAya ? pote mAthe bhUla oDhI le te kharo vIra kahevAya ! haMmezA pati- patnImAM pati, puruSa vadhAre moTA manano hoya. mATe eNe sAgaranI jema zamAvI levuM joIe. ane jo emAM zakti ghaTatI lAgatI hoya to aMdara beThelA 'dAdA bhagavAna' pAse zakti mAgI levI ane pratikramaNa karI levuM. (6) "gADI'no garama mUDa ! A gADI garama thaI jAya tyAre zuM karavuM paDe ? reDIyeTaramAM pANI reDI ThaMDI karavI paDene ? to ja AgaLa haMkAya ne ! tema ghaNI vakhata ophisathI AvatAM ja dhaNInuM magaja garama thaI gayuM hoya te vahue nA samajI javuM joIe ke A dhakko bosano Avyo che ne bosane dhakko enI vahuno Avyo che ! tyAre vahue zuM karavuM ? ene ThaMDuM pADavuM. garama garama cA banAvIne ApavI, nAsto Apavo eTale e ThaMDo thaI jAya. ene mUDamAM to lAvavo paDe ke nA paDe ? vahuno mUDa gayo hoya to dhaNIe sAcavI levuM. gharanAM badhAM jANe ke Aje bhAIno mUDa gayelo che. te zI AbarU rahe ? jJAnIno jyAre juo tyAre eka ja sarakho mUDa hoya. koI dahADoya mUDa badalAya nahIM. (8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM ? ghaNA paiNe tyArathI vahune sudhAravA phare ne enA mATe roja kakaLATa kare. te cheka paiDapaNamAMya enuM te ja hoya. ane vakhate aMte vahu sudharI gaI toya maryA pachI e to bIjAne ja bhAge javAnI ne ! e enA karma pramANe ja jaze ane ene khAnagImAM pUchIe to zuM kaheze, 'AvA dhaNI to koIneya nA maLe !" eTalAmAM nA samajI javAya ? eTale koIne sudhAravAnI jarUra nathI, pote ja sudharI javAnI jarUra che. pote sudharyo to AkhI duniyA sudharelI ja che ne ! - pati-patnI e rileTIva sagAI che, riyala na hoya ! rileTIva eTale TempararI. mATe sAmo phADa phADa kare to ApaNe sAMdha sAMdha karavuM, jo enI jarUra hoya to. vAIphane sudhAravA jatAM chelle Divorsa thaIne UbhA rahe ! sudhare kyAre ke vAIpha game teTalI akaLAI hoya chatAM pote ThaMDaka choDe nahIM tyAre, vItarAgatA hoya tyAre. chokarAM-patnI e dhaNInA rakSita kahevAya. emanI joDe ja jhaghaDo karAya ? strI to pacAsa TakAnI bhAgIdAra kahevAya. (9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvera ! ghaNAne mokSa nathI joIto, paNa komanasensanI to jarUra badhAne kharIne ? A athaDAmaNo thavAnuM kAraNa ja komanasensano abhAva. komanasensa eTale evarIvhera eplIkebala, thIyareTIkalI ejha vela ejhA prekTIklI (dareka jagyAe lAgu paDe, thIyarImAM temaja prekTIkalamAM). game tevuM tALuM kholI nAkhe. komanasensa matabheda thavA ja nA de. komanasensa kyAMthI lAvavI ? e to 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse bese, temane sAMbhaLa sAMbhaLa kare, tyAre komanasensa utpanna thAya. moTA moTA jajoneya komanasensa nA hoya. korTamAM moTA moTA jajamenTo Ape ne ghera vahu be-be mahinAthI bolatI nA hoya ! (ghare to vahunuM ja jajamenTa !) jaja sAhebaneya ghare kesa penDIMga ! AjakAlanA zeTheya mAtrA vagaranA zeTha (zaTha) thaI gayA che. zeTha eTale zreSThi puruSo ! jenI pacIsa-pacIsa mAIlanA vartuLamAM sugaMdhI AvatI hoya ! evA zeTha kyA che Aje ? vahu joDe eDajasTa thavAmAM vacce ahaMkAra naDe che ! vyavahAramAM, vepAramAM, bhAgIdArImAM kevuM sAcavIne cAlIe chIe ! tevuM A ahaMkAranI bhAgIdArImAM nA sAcavI levAya ? 19 20

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strI eTale puruSanuM kAunTara veTa che ! vAMkA AMTA ne vAMkI naTa ! ApaNA vAMke e vAMkI. strI jaldI nA phare, puruSe ja pharavuM paDe. strI joDe to samajAvI-manAvIne pAra utAravAnuM rahyuM. dvApara, tretA ne satyugamAM ghara khetara jevuM hatuM, gharamAM badhAM gulAba ja ke badhAM mogarA ja maLe ! Aje kaLiyugamAM ghara eka bagIco banI gayuM che. emAM jAta jAtanA phulonAM choDavAM maLe. koI gulAba (kAMTAvALA), to koI caMpo, to koI camelI, to koI dhaMtUroya maLI Ave. have dareka prakRti oLakhatAM AvaDe, tene koI duHkha ja nA thAya ne ! prakRtimAM phera nA paDe. ApaNe eDajasTa thaI javuM paDe. sUrya joDe unALAmAM bAra vAge bapore phrenDazIpa karavA jaIe to zuM thAya ? A ziyALAno sUrya, A unALAno surya ema ApaNe nA samajI javuM joIe ? eTaluM samajIe to pachI ApaNane kaMI vAMdho Ave ? 'jJAnI' darekanI prakRtine oLakhIne cAle, eTale sAmethI koI athaDAvA Ave toya pote khasI jAya. ApaNe moDA AvyA ne vAIpha bUmAbUma kare, tyAre ApaNe eDajasTa thaI javuM. ene kahevuM, 'tArI vAta kharI che. have tuM kahetI hoya to pAcho jauM, nahi to ahIM besI rahuM.' ene vaza vartIe eTale gADuM cAlyuM AgaLa... ene badale ene jo DaphaLAvI to traNa divasanA abolA sAmA ! saMjogone eDajasTa thaI jAya te mANasa ! dhaNI kahe, gulAbajAMbu banAva, to pelI kahe, nA, khIcaDI banAvIza, ne chevaTe moTo jhaghaDo thAya ne chevaTe hoTalanAM pIjhA maMgAvI khAvA paDe. enA karatAM 'tane ThIka lAge te banAvaje' kahIe to vaLI gulAbajAMbuM maLe kyAreka. vahune eDajasTa thaI javuM, ene je ThIka lAge te rasoI banAve. 'vahelA sUI jAva' kahe to vahelA sUI javuM. gharamAM karakasarathI jIvAya paNa rasoDAmAM karakasara nA ghalAya. rasoDAmAM karakasara pase to mana bagaDI jAya. 'sahaja maLyuM te dUdha, mAMgyuM te pANI ne kheMcyuM te lohI barAbara." pachI te vyavahAranA pratyeka prasaMgamAM lAgu paDe. AmAM vyavahAranuM AkhuM zAstra samAI gayuM. puruSa to tene kahevAya ke je koIneya duHkha nA de, koI du:kha Ape to pote jamA karI le ane paropakAra karyA kare. ene mokSa AgaLa upara maLI Ave. saMsAramAM bIjuM kaMI nahi to mAtra "eDajasTa evarIvara', ATaluM ja AvaDI gayuM to teno saMsAra pAra ! dhaNI-dhaNIyANI banne nizcaya kare ke mAre eDajasTa thavuM che to banneno ukela Ave. vAMdarAnI khADI gaMdhAya to tene zuM vaDhavA javAya ? mANasoya gaMdhAtA hoya to tyAM zuM karavA upAya ? 'athaDAmaNa TALo'nuM sUtra zIkhyo te taryo. je athaDAI mare te bhIMta kahevAya. sAmethI Akhalo Ave tyAre enI joDe athavA to rAtre aMdhArAmAM UThIe tyAre bhIMta joDe ApaNe athaDAI marIe chIe ? tyAM kevuM khasI jaIe chIe ?! evuM koI arthaDAvA Ave to ApaNe zAMtithI khasI javuM. manamAM samajI levuM ke A bhIMta ne AkhalA jevA ja che (moMDhe nA bolAya) ! sAmo ApaNane TaiDakAve tyAre ApaNe bhIMta jevA thaI jaIe. mahIM bhagavAna beThAM che, je zakti mAMgIe te maLe tema che. ghera vahu joDe abolA hoya ne bahAra moTA moTA upadezo Ape. jema TrAphIkanA kAyadA toDavAthI athaDAI marAya tema vyavahAramAM paNa athaDAvAthI bhayaMkara vAge. athaDAvuM nA hoya to kAyadA pramANe cAlavuM. (10) be DipArTamenTa nokhA... lagna jIvana suMdara rIte gALavuM hoya to pati-patnInA banne DipArTamenTa judAM ja pADI devAnA. patinuM phorena DipArTamenTa ne patnInuM homa DipArTamenTa ! bannee ekabIjAnA DipArTamenTamAM mAthuM nA mAravuM. 22 21

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rasoDAmAM game teTaluM nukasAna thaI jAya toya patie e bAbatamAM akSareya nA bolAya. tevI ja rIte dhaMdhAmAM, bahAranA vyavahAramAM zuM napho-khoTa thayA te bAbatamAM patnIthI akSareya nA bolAya. eka jaNa khoDa kADhaze to bIjoya zarU thaze. mATe A maryAdA, niyama jALavavo. eTale gharamAM kakaLAya ja nA thAya. parama pUjya dAdAzrI kahe che ke hIrAbAe amane dararoja pUchavAno rivAja ke "zuM zAka lAvuM ?" tyAre ame emane kahIe, 'tamane je ThIka lAge che. koI dahADo e nA pUche to ame kahIe, 'kema Aje A zAka karyuM ?" e kahe tamane roja pUchuM chuM paNa tame to 'tamane ThIka lAge te kaho cho' eTale Aje nA pUchayuM ! tyAre ame kahIe, 'tamAre pUchavAnuM rAkhavAnuM ne mAre 'tamane ThIka lAge te" e kahevAnuM rAkhavAnuM. Avo vyavahAra ApaNe rAkhavAno !" e ApaNuM mAna rAkhe, ApaNe emanuM mAna rAkhIe. 'tamane ThIka lAge te' kahIne. AmAM ahaMkAra nathI. sAmasAmI prema ne ekatA sacavAya. polisavALo pakaDIne laI jAya pachI e jema karAve tema ApaNe karIe ke nahIM ? tevuM gharamAM rahevuM. ukela lAvavo. hitAhitanI vAta kaMI zAstramAM jaDe ?! gharamAM laDAIo thAya che te strIne dhaMdhAnI vAta karIne ja ! ekabIjAnA DipArTamenTano hisAba kyAreya nA maMgAya. hA, sAmo enA DipArTamenTamAM madada mAge to te ApavAnI ApaNI pharaja. bIbI bahu bIjhI' hoya tyAre ApaNe je hoya te calAvI levuM. gharamAM puruSa potAnuM calaNa rAkhavA jAya tethI teno vakkara nA rahe. strIne ja gharanuM calaNa soMpI devuM, tethI vakkara rahe. ApaNe kahIe te karI de che. dAdAzrI kahe che, "ame ghera hIrAbAnA mahemAnanI jema rahIe. gesTane zuM kaMI karavuM paDe ? hosTa ja badhuM karI Ape. gesTane kaMI kaDhI halAvavAnI hoya ? ghara emanuM ne ame emanA mahemAna. nAcalaNIyuM nANuM ja bhagavAna pAse rahe ne calaNIyuM nANuM to kyAMya kALA bajArIonA hAthamAM pharatuM hoya, kUTAtuM hoya ! (11) zaMkA bALe sonAnI laMkA ! zaMkAzIla thavAnuM mULa kAraNa zuM ? mAlikIpaNuM, mArApaNuM mAnyuM tethI. dhaNIne strI mATe ke strIne dhaNI mATe zaMkA thaI te jiMdagIbhara jAya nahi ne jIvana kaDavuM jhera jevuM banI jAya. mana-zarIra badhAM khalAsa karI nAkhe zaMkA to. buddhi gAMDI thaI jAya ne ahaMkAra kadarUpo thaI jAya. mArApaNuM jAya zI rIte ? AtmA para mamatA bese to bIje badhethI jAya. zaMkAnuM bhUta peThuM eTale khAtrI khoLe. je khAtrI khoLe ene marI gayelo jANavo. UMDA nA utarAya. uparacoTIyuM ja jovAya. vAIpha para zaMkA, dIkarIo koleja bhaNavA jAya temanI pareya zaMkA ! koInA cAritrya upara zaMkA nA karAya. enAthI to keTalAya avatAra bhaTakavuM paDe. zaMkA kyAre paDe ? dekhe tyAre ja. te pahelA zuM e na hatuM ? A kALamAM moTA bhAge bagaDeluM ja cAritrya jovA maLe. dehathI nahi to manathI to badhe bagaDeluM ja hoya. A jagata polaMpola che. sauthI uttama e ke je viSayathI chUTyA hoya ! "vyavasthita'nuM jJAna hAjara rAkhe niHzaMka thavAya. bairInA cAritrya saMbaMdhI jene zAMti joItI hoya to teNe kALI chUMdaNAvALI vahu lAvavI ke jethI enuM koI gharAka ja nA thAya. ene koI pAsa nA kare ane jeNe pAsa karI hoya tene bahu ja e sinsIyara rahe. AjakAla loka kevAM che ? hoTala dekhe tyAM jame. patnI koInI joDe pharatI hoya to tene DahApaNa rAkhI manAvI levI, saMbhALI levI, nahi to bhAgI jaze. A badhAM RNAnubaMdha che, badhI phAIlo che. (12) dhaNIpaNAnA gunA ! strIthI kaMTALIne kaMI bhAgI javAya ? ApaNe paramAtmA chIe. eno samabhAve nikAla karavo. enAM pratikramaNa khUba karavAM. ApaNuM apamAna kare to tenuM pratikramaNa karavuM. pratikramaNa karIe to tenA para dveSabhAva nA thAya. 23

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(13) dAdAnI dRSTie, cAlo patio... dAdAI daSTie patio cAle to saMsAra pAra thaI jAya. gharanAM je kAma batAve te 'karIzuM' kahevuM. pachI nA thayuM to kahI daIe ke, bhaI, A amArAthI nathI thatuM.' eTale loka javA de. pationo sAmAnya prazna hoya che ke patnIne amArA gharaDAM mAbApa rAkhavA nathI hotA to tyAM zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI kahe che, vAIphanA mA-bApane bolAvavA, temane rAkhavA, temanI khUba sevA karavI. vaLI vAIpha joDe evo suMdara saMbaMdha karI devo ke vAIpha uparathI sAsu-sasarAnuM dhyAna rAkhavAnuM kahe. vAIphane guru kare pachI mA-bApa, kuTuMba badhAM muzkelImAM mUkAya. je mAe nava mahinA vagara bhADAe kholImAM rAkhyo, moTo karyo, mAMdagI vakhate ujAgarAo karyA, bhaNAvyo, gaNAvyo, aDhAra varSa sudhI kurakurIyAne sAcave tema sAcavyo. ane paraNyA pachI guru Ave eTale thoDAka ja vakhatamAM mAne mATe kahe ke mA ja kharAba che, evuM bole ke ? banne gharamAM rIsAya temAM zI bhalIvAra ? strIomAM hAI ane laoN kvaoNlITI hoya. hAI kvaoNlITIvALI strIo garIba svabhAvanI hoya, vicAro UMcA hoya, bahu negeTiva nA hoya ane laoN kvAlITIvALI strIo vAreghaDIe jUThuM bolatI hoya, kapaTa karatI hoya. aMdara bahAra kaiDa kaiDa ne kaiDa. bahAra maccharAM kaiDe ne gharamAM vahu kaiDe. keTalIka to sApaNanI peTha kaiDe. vahu 'thAkI gaI chuM' kahe tyAre ApaNe ene kahI devuM, Aje tuM sUI raheje, huM badhuM kAma patAvI daIza. kaLathI kAma levuM paDe. keTalIka strIo kAramAM beThAM ke varane Toka Toka karavAnuM cAluM karI de. Ama calAvo ne tema calAvo. tyAre dhaNIe ene ja gADI soMpI devI, le tuM cAlava. 25 jhaghaDo thAya to pADozIno pakSa nA levAya. ApaNe pahelethI patnInA pakSamAM ja rahIe ke jethI nirAMte sUvAya. ApaNe vAdInA vakIla thavuM, prativAdInA nahi. patino samabhAve nikAla karavo, e akaLAyA hoya tyAre emane tAMto nA rahe evuM strIoe karavuM. emane kahevuM, 'tame to mahAna puruSa cho, nobala cho. tame badhuM eksepTa karI lo, amArAthI e nA thAya.' eTale badhuM dhovAI jAya. strIone ahaM ghavAya, jyAre puruSo strInI buddhi paganI pAnIe kahe tyAre. tyAM to strIoe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI samajAve che, "evuM kahe to sAruM. jokhamadArI nahIMne ? ane je bole che te 'vyavasthita' ja che ne !'' strI dhaNIne game teTaluM samajAve, samAdhAna karAvavA chatAM e nA ja samaje ne ahita karyA kare to zuM karavuM ? enuM hita-ahita jovAnI strInI zakti keTalI ? sahu sahunA gajA pramANe joI zake. dhaNInuM hita karavA jatAM athaDAmaNa UbhI thAya evuM nA hovuM joIe. pariNAma game te Ave paNa ApaNe to samabhAve nikAla karavo ja che' ema nakkI rAkhavuM. eTale eka dahADo eno aMta Avaze, samabhAve nikAla thaze ja. cIkaNA RNAnubaMdha hoya tyAM jAgRti rAkhavI paDe. (14) 'mArI'nA AMTA ukelAya Ama ! paraNatI vakhate 'mArI vahu', 'mArI vahu' karI mamatAnA AMTA vIMTyA, te marI jAya pachI eTaluM ja enuM duHkha bhogavavAnuM Ave. tyAM e bhogavaTAmAMthI chUTavA mATe parama pUjya dAdAzrI khUba ja suMdara upAya batAve che. 'nahoya mArI', 'nahoya mArI' karI AMTA ukelI nAkha to bhogavaTo ja nahIM rahe. marI gayA pAchaLa raDa raDa karIne samaya ne zakti barabAda karavI tenA karatAM chokarAMonuM dhyAna rAkhe, to lekhe nA lAge ? (15) paramAtmapremanI pIchANa ! sAco prema to te je di vadhaghaTa nA thAya. mAro toya nA ghaTe 26

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ne hAra caDhAve toya nA vadhe. ghaDImAM ubharAya jAya ne ghaDImAM besI jAya e prema nahi paNa Asakti kahevAya. sAco prema to varlDamAM jovA ja kyAMthI maLe ? sAco prema nirbheLa hoya. prema hoya tyAM eTeka nA hoya. dhaNI karatA 'kampanIyana' (sahAcArI) kahevuM sAruM. emAM Asakti agni jevI nahIM. 'mArI vahu, mArI vahu' kahIne AMTA mAryA, te vahu maryA pachI 'nahoya mArI, nahoya mArI' teTalI ja vAra kare tyAre e rAga chUTe. dhaNI joDe je dveSa che te AsaktinuM pariNAma che. rAgamAMthI zreSa ne dveSathI chUTAM paDe te pAchuM AkarSaNa thAya, rAga thAya. sAco prema hoya tyAM jhaghaDo nA hoya, matabheda nA hoya, moDhA caDhelAM nA hoya, are uhakAroya nA hoya. A to patnIne moDhe gumaDuM thayuM hoya to joDe sinemA jovA nA laI jAya. kyAM gayo tAro prema ? - pati-patnImAM sAco prema hoya kharo ? na hoI zake. je vadhaghaTa thAya te prema nahi paNa Asakti che. athaTa-avadha prema te ja sAco prema, te ja paramAtmaprema kahevAya. ane tyAM te prema pragaTa thayo tene dehadhArI paramAtmA ja kahevAya. sAcA premamAM doSa nA dekhAya. enI bhUmsa nA kADhe ke khoDa nA kADhe. sAmo khakhaDAve to pote zAMta rahIne premathI nikAla kare. kameniyanazIpamAM Asakti ochI hoya, eTale pati-patnI karatAM tyAM jhaghaDA ochA thAya. jyAM vadhAre Asakti tyAM jhaghaDA, zaMkA-kuzaMkA bahu hoya. rAgamAMthI Sa ne dveSamAMthI rAga, e kAyado che rAga-dveSano. keTalAMka pati-patnI bahu jhaghaDe, te jonAra cakkara khAI jAya ne pelAM thoDIvAra pachI gela karatAM hoya ! ene popaTamastI kahevAya. premamAM to sAmAnA du:khe pote teTalI ja vedanA vede. jJAnIno prema kevo hoya ? saMpUrNa apekSA vinAno. e premathI ja badhA sudhare. e premathI ja badhAM emane saMpUrNapaNe vaza varte. sAco prema che ke je sUkSmamAM sUkSma paNa apekSA ja na hoya. e premamAM ekavAra DUbakI mArI to juo ! prema svarUpane juo to prema svarUpa thazo. Asakti e to lohacuMbakane TAMkaNInI jema kheMcANa jevuM che. A paramANuonuM sAyansa che. maLatAM paramANuonuM AkarSaNa, nahi to vikarSaNa ! ene loko prema che, rAga che evuM mAne che. AtmA AmAM tadana nyAro ja rahe che. premamAM apekSA nA hoya. premamAM tarachoDa nA hoya. vikRta prema e Asakti. ' lohacuMbaka lohane kheMce tema strI-puruSanuM AkarSaNanuM vijJAna che. deha kheMcAya ne lokone ema thAya ke mane kema AkarSaNa thAya che ? A paramANuonuM sAyansa che. maLatA paramANuonuM AkarSaNa ne nA maLatAnuM vikarSaNa thAya. jaDa jaDane kheMce che ne brAMtithI mAne che ke mane prema che. zuddha prema e ja paramAtmA. kAyama eka sarakho ja hoya e prema. zuddha premamAM kaSAya rahitatA hoya. e prema jotAM ja haiyuM TharI jAya. e premamAM strI strIpaNuM bhUlI jAya, puruSa puruSapaNuM bhUlI jAya. jJAnI puruSano prema, zuddha prema hoya, paramAtmaprema hoya. e prema jeNe cAkhyo te ja e jANI zake. jJAnI pote prema svarUpa thayelA hoya. e premamAM jagata vismRta ja rahe. e premamAM masta teno saMsAreya Adarza cAle. (16) paraNyA eTale "promIsa Tu pe' ! eka jaNa parama pUjaya dAdAzrIne pUche, 'tamane koI vakhata paraNavA mATe pastAvo thayelo kharo ke ?" tyAre teozrIe kahyuM, 'nA bA. huM to pastAvo karavAnuM zIkhyo ja nathI koI dahADoya ! huM kArya ja pahelethI evuM karuM re pastAvo ja nA karavo paDe.' pastAvo zene mATe thAya ? je bane che te ApaNA ja cItarelA DroIMga mujaba ! rAjI khuzIthI je sodA karelA te have pharI javAya ? patnInI sevA karavI e pharaja che. hIrAbAne 1943nI sAlamAM 27 2B

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eka AMkha jatI rahI hatI, jhAmaranA dardamAM. te vakhate loko pharI paraNAvavA pAchaLa paDyA tyAre dAdAzrIe kahyuM, 'hIrAbAne meM kahyuM che, ame to paraNatI vakhate promIsa Tu pe kareluM che. te huM koI divasa pharuM nahi, duniyA AghIpAchI thaI jAya toya !' promIsa eTale promIsa ! pati-patnI ekabIjAnI prakRtine oLakhI le to matabheda ja nA thAya. dAdAzrI kahe che, 'amane ja hIrAbAnI prakRtinI oLakhANa puNyA pachI pIstAlIsa varSa pachI paDI. teya eka phero matabheda paDI gayo paNa bIjI mInITe amArI bhUla kabUla karI ne vALI lIdhuM' ! have ekabIjAnI prakRtine kaI rIte oLakhavI ? sarakho dAva Ape tyAre. jema sogaTAnI ramatamAM dAva Ape chene tema. dAdAzrI kahe, "ame hajuya hIrAbAne nATakIya rIte kahIe ke amerikA jaIe chIe paNa tyAMya amane tamArA vagara gamatuM nathI.' dhaNI kone kahevAya ke patnIne enA vagara game ja nahi. ene deva jevo dekhAya. pati-patnI to kone kahevAya ke je saMsAra nabhAve. saMsArane pheraphAra karI nAkhe, ene pati-patnI ja kema kahevAya ? keTalAka jhaghaDo kare ne kapa-rakAbI toDI nAkhe ne pachI navA laI Ave. tyAre mUA pahelethI ja toDavA na hatAne ! dhaNI to evo hovo joIe ke vahu Akho dahADo dhaNInuM moDhuM joyA kare. (17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! ghaNI strIo kahe che ke be dholo mAro to sAruM paNa tame bolo cho te mArI chAtIe ghA vAge che.' pachI e ja ghA thaiDapaNamAM dhaNIe khAvA paDaze. bairAM-chokarAM vAta vAtamAM chAMchIe karaze. DuMgara parathI patharo paDe tyAM kone gunegAra kahIe ? Tebala vAge to kone mAravA jaIe ? evuM A lokonuM rAkhavuM. keTalAka dhaNI-dhaNIyANI jhaghaDe paNa ApaNe samajI javuM ke A popaTamastI che. ghaDI pachI pAchAM ekanA eka jovA maLe. 29 Takora karavI to evI rIte karavI ke emAM ApaNo ahaM bhaLelo nA hoya ane Takora karIne tarata ja enuM pratikramaNa hArTilI karI levuM. toja sAmAne nA vAge. karmano hisAba kevo che ke eka kalAka jo nokarane, chokarAMne ke vahune TaiDakAva TaiDakAva karyA haze to e dhaNI thaIne, sAsu thaIne ke chokaro thaIne AkhI jiMdagI kacaDa kacaDa karaze. koIne duHkha dIdhuM to ApaNane duHkha paDyA vagara rahe ja nahi. vahune jAte pasaMda karIne lAve pachI bUmo pADe ke 'vahu AvI che ne tevI che'. emAM vahuno zo doSa ? gharamAM koIne kaMI kahevuM e moTAmAM moTo ahaMkArano roga che. badhAM potapotAno hisAba laIne ja AvyA che ! badhuM 'vyavasthita' ja che. avyavasthita kyAreya thatuM ja nathI. gharamAM akSareya bola bolAya nahi, jJAnI sivAya koIthIya. 'jJAnI'nI vANI kevI hoya ? parecchAnusArI hoya. bIjAonI IcchAone AdhAre e bole che. abolA levAthI sudhare ? nA. abolA eTale mAthe dasa maNano bhAra. tyAM to pahelAM ja sAme cAlIne 'kema cho' bolI karIne nikAla karI nAkhavo. TaiDakAvAthI sAmo narama nA thAya. UlaTuM noMdha rAkhI vera rAkhe ne pAchalI uMmare vasula kare. mATe tAMto rAkhI paramANuo mahIM saMgrahI nA rAkhavA. amuka kesamAM jyAre ApaNe sAmAnA abolA toDAvA sAme cAlIne mAphI mAgIe ne pelo vadhAre cage to tyAM pachI cheTA rahevuM, pachI je hisAba thAya te kharo. paNa jeTalA saraLa hoya tyAM to ukela lAvI nAkhavo. vyavahAra kApI nAkhavAthI pUro thAya ema nathI. tyAre mauna rahI joyA karavuM. samaya ja ukelI Ape. bAbo vAIphanA hAthamAMthI paDI gayo to kazuM kahevAya nahi. ane kahevuM ja hoya to samyak rIte kahevAya ke 'ohoho ! tame A bAbAne kema pheMkyo ?" tyAre e kahe 'jANIjoIne huM kaMI phekuM ? e to hAthamAMthI chaTakI gayo.' tyAM koIne lAge ke e jUThuM bolI, to 30

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tevuM jovAya nahi. sAcuM bole-jUThuM bole te parasattA che, te nahi jovAnuM. ApaNe vANI mIThI thayA pachI tame vaDho to e UlaTA hase. kaSAyano vAMdho che, vaDhavAno nahIM. vANI madhura kyAre thAya ? potAnAM gharanAM mANaso upara prema vadhe, bhedabhAva ghaTe ane potAnAM gharanA mANaso jevo prema bIjA upareya vadhato jAya tyAre vANI madhura thatI jAya. ane tyAre ene be dholo mAro toya prema ja lAge. koIne 'tame juThA cho' kaho to tarata ja emAM eTaluM badhuM paramANuonuM vijJAna pharI vaLe ke be kalAka sudhI to enI para prema ja utpanna nA thAya. ane jo bhUlathI bolAI gayuM hoya to tenuM tarata ja pratikramaNa karI levuM. laDIne pAchA pharI bhegA thavAnuM ja che to pachI laDavAno zo artha ? pachI mUMcha nIcI karavI paDe, tenA karatAM pahelethI ja eka rAkhane ! pharI pastAvo nA karavo paDe evuM jIvana jIvavuM joIe. akrama vijJAna samajI le te 'jhaghaDAprUpha' thaI zake. ApaNane duHkha lAge che tyAM sudhI ApaNAmAM gAMDo ahaM bharelo che. parama pUjya dAdAzrI kahe che, "amane koI 'akkala vagaranA' kahe to amArAmAM gAMDo ahaMkAra Ubho nA thAya. eTale mane duHkha Ape ja nahIMne." ahaMkAra karIne klezo vadhAravA tenAM karatAM kahI devuM ke mane tamArA vagara gamatuM nathI.' eTale badhuM rAge paDI jAya. ahaM kema nathI jato ? jyAM sudhI potAnAmAM A ahaM khoTo che, evuM potAne eksepTa nA thAya tyAM sudhI e jAya nahIM. e ahaMkAra kADhavA pratikramaNa kara kara karavAM tethI eka dA'Do e jaze. ghera jhaghaDo thAya to vAIphane hoTalamAM laI jaI jamADI khuza karI daIe. manuSya thayA pachI taraphaDATa zene ? pati-patnIe savAre UThatAM ja ekabIjAnI aMdara paramAtmAnA darzana karIe to kevuM suMdara jIvana jAya ! vahumAMya 'dAdA bhagavAna' dekhAya tenuM klyANa thaI gayuM. 'dAdA bhagavAna' eTale zuddhAtmA bhagavAna ! DonTa sI laoNjha, plIjha seTala' (kAyadA jozo nahi, samAdhAna karo) A parama pUjya dAdAzrInuM sUtra che. 31 A to jAgyA tyAMthI ja Dakho zarU karI de. jenI karkaza vANI hoya eNe zuM karavuM joIe ? "huM vinaMtI karuM chuM, ATaluM karajo" eTaluM umeravuM joIe. vaNamAMgI salAha Ape e vyavahAramAM mUrkha bane. e khullo ahaMkAra gaNAya. koIne kiMcitmAtra paNa tarachoDa ApIne mokSe nA javAya. tiraskAra karatAM tarachoDanuM phaLa bahu moTuM Ave. talavArathI dehane lohI nIkaLe, tarachoDathI manane lohI nIkaLe. jene tarachoDa mArI hoya te ApaNA mATe kAyamanA daravAjA baMdha karI de. mATe tarachoDa jene mArI hoya tenI pAse kSamA mAgI le to badhuM UDI jAya. koIne tarachoDa mArIe to tene nathI vAgatI paNa tenI aMdara birAjelA bhagavAnane vAge che. vANInA ghA to so-so avatAra sudhI nA rUjhAya. vANI hita-mita-priya ne satya ema cAra guNAkAravALI hoya to ja te vANI uttama. keTalAka vera to evuM bAMdhI kADhe ke mAruM je thavAnuM haze te thaze paNa Ane to nahi ja choDuM, mokSe nahi ja javA dauM. to tenA keTalAya avatAra bagADI nAkhe. eka saMskArI bahena tenA pati ToNA mAratA hatA tyAre temane kahe, 'karmanA udaye tame ane huM bhegA thayA chIe. huM judI, tame judA. have Ama zenA mATe ToNA mAravAnA ? AvelA karmane cUkate karI nAkhone!' kevI UMcI samaja ! eka miniTeya bhAMjagaDa nA paDe, enuM nAma dhaNI. ekabIjAne sinsiyara rahe te sAcAM mitra, mATe ekabIjA joDe phrenDa tarIke rahevuM joIe. mAravAnuM nahi, duHkha devAnuM nahIM. tema kabATa jevA thavAnuMya nahi. chokarAM tophAna karatAM hoya to kahevuM paDe, paNa nATakanI jema vartavuM. bairI para zUrAtana bajAve te zUravIra kahevAya ? kSatriya svabhAva 32

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strI upara roja roja kaMTrola nA karAya. paNa jyAre viphare tyAre puruSe badho kaMTrola laI levA joIe. premathI pachI vALI laI kAma levuM. atyAre ramA ramADatA AvaDatI nathI tethI viphare che e. Aja sudhI raMjADeluM badhuM noMdha karI kALaje lakheluM, viphare tyAre eka-eka karI pAchuM Ape. jANe Aje ja ghA nA vAgyo hoya eTaluM phreza hoya badhuM ene. eTalo ja bhogavaTo paMdara varaseya tAjo ja bhogave. A strInI prakRti ! tene oLakhIne cAle to jIvanamAM vAMdho ja nA Ave. strIne eka AMkhe devI ne eka AMkhe kaDakAI rAkhI jovuM, to ja sukhI saMsAra thAya. kyAreka viphare tyAre ja kaDaka thavuM, bAkI devI tarIke jovuM. A to vAta vAtamAM kaDaka thaI jAya eTale enI kaDakAInuM koI mahattva ja rahe nahIM. kevo ? aMDarahenDane rakSaNa Ape ne uparIne TaiDakAve. vizvAsa rAkhavAnuM sAdhana eTale potAnI patnI. tyAM sAmasAmI vizvAsa tUTI jAya eTale jIvana nakAmuM thaI jAya. bairIne marAya nahi. khIle bAMdhelI tethI mArene ? samAjanuM baMdhana, piyaranuM baMdhana eTale bairI kyAM jAya ? mAra khAyaneya paDI ja rahene ? hamaNAM chuTTI hoyane mAravA jAva joIe ! je bairIne mAra mAre te pati nahi paNa kasAI kahevAya. enA jevuM bIjuM pApa nahi. paradezamAM bairIne mAre to tarata jatI rahe. paradezamAM to varkavumana ne vedharano bharoso nahIM, kyAre badalAI jAya kahevAya nahi. maunanA tApathI patnIne vaza to karI juo ! kacakaca karIne vakkarano kaccaraghANa karI nAkhe. 'nabaLo dhaNI bAyaDI para zuro" A vAkya sAMbhaLIne potAnI nabaLAInI samajaNa nA paDI javI joIe ? eka jaNe parama pUjya dAdAzrIne pUchayuM, 'hIrAbAthI rasoI bagaDI jAya to tame temane vaDho ?" tyAre teozrIe kahyuM "rasoI to zuM paNa emanAthI mArA para devatA paDI jAya toya huM nA kazuM kahuM.' to pachI e ApanAthI gabharAya che kema ?" dAdAzrI bolyA, "e huM nA vaTuM eTale ja gabharAmaNa bese. laDhavAthI vajana tUTI jAya.' 'bhAbho bhAramAM to vahu lAjamAM." ghaNAM ema mAne ke jhaghaDo thAya to ja prema vadhe. e prema nathI paNa Asakti che. sAco prema to tene kahevAya ke je kyAreya vadhe nahIM. ghaTe nahIM'. A to vAta vAtamAM 'tuM akkala vagaranI che" kahI nAkhe. sAco prema hoya tyAM ekabIjAnI bhUlo nA dekhAya, game tevuM hoya toya. ekabIjAnuM nabhAvI le premathI. prema che tyAM dveSa na hoya, dhRNA nA hoya. sAcA premathI vahu to zuM AkhuM jagata vaza varta. (18) vAIpha vALe, tola sAthe ! 'ramA ramADavI sahela che, vipharI mahAmuzkela che.' parama pUjya dAdAzrI A rIte ja jIvana jIvyA ! eka bAju hIrAbAne apAra pUjyatA ne bIjI bAju tApa paNa dAdAzrIno eTalo ja lAgato. ekavAra hIrAbAne pUchayuM 'bA, dAdA pahelAM kevA hatAM ?" tyAre bAe kahyuM "tIkhA bhamarA jevAM.' jiMdagImAM ekavAra dAdAzrIe moTuM trAguM hIrAbA sAme nATakIya bhAve karyuM ane bAnI aNasamajaNathI ne lokonI caDhavANIthI AvI paDanAranuM dharma paranuM saMkaTa TALyuM. strI e prAkRtika zakti che. e zaktino upayoga karatAM AvaDavo joIe. ene tarachoDa mArI to e zakitathI mahAna du:kho sarjAze. keTalAka evA puruSo che ke je bairIno mAra khAya. patnIne sAcavI nA zake, enuM rakSaNa nA karI zake evA kAyara ja mAra khAya strIno. tyAM 'samabhAve nikAla kare' to chUTAya. zarUmAM pati patnIne bhAIsA'ba bhAIsA'ba kahevaDAve. pachI ? pAchaLathI puruSane sukha joItuM hoya tyAre strI vasula kare, bhAIsA'ba bhAIsA'ba bolAvaDAvIne ! keTalIka strIo to UTha-besa hau karAvaDAve. enA karatAM marI javuM zuM khoTuM ? vahu mAre to pAko puruSa bArI-bAraNA baMdha karI daI mAra khAto 34

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jAya ne bolato jAya, 'le letI jA !' te AjubAjunA loko sAMbhaLIne samaje ke bhaI vahune mAre che ! eka bhAI dAdAe pUchyuM. "tAre vahu marI jAya to zuM thAya tAruM ?" tyAre e bhAI kahe, 'meM to mArI vahune kahI dIdhuM che ke huM rAMDIza paNa tuM nA rAMDIza" !(?) A hindustAnanI prakRtione temanI pahoMcI vaLAya ? poLamAM bahAravaTiyA paThAnI buma sAMbhaLatAM ja eka bhAI enI vahune kahe, 'tuM bAraNA vAsI de ne mane godaDAM oDhADI vAgha jevA dhaNIne vahu UMdaraDI banAvI de ane pote UMdaraDInA khakhaDATathI AkhI rAta bI mare. kiMmatI pANIdAra ghoDI hoya paNa dhaNIne savArI karatAM nA AvaDe to zuM thAya ? ghoDI pADI ja nAkhene ! ema vahune sAcavatAM AvaDavuM joIe, nahi to mAra paDe. AryanArI joDe kAma letAM AvaDavuM joIe. je gharamAM strI che te ghara naMdanavana dekhAya. strI nA hoya to ghara pachI raNa jevuM lAge. dhaMdhAmAM khoTa gaI hoya ne zeThane ciMtA korI khAtI hoya, UMgheya nA AvatI hoya, tyAre patnI ene dhIraja Ape, 'tame ciMtA nA karazo, badhuM thaI raheze.' Ama sahaja prakRtivALI strIo vikalpI puruSanI prakRtine belensa karI Ape. gharamAM AnaMda rahevAnuM kAraNa ja strInI sAhajIka prakRti che. badhAMne ema lAge ke dAdAzrI strIno pakSamAM vadhAre che. temanuM ja tANe che. paNa dAdAzrI aMdarakhAnethI evI goThavaNI karI Ape che ke strIo patine mAna ApatI thaI jAya che. evI cAvI mArI pheraphAra karI Ape che.. parama pUjya dAdAzrIne badhAya sarakhAM. A to sadIothI strIone paganI pAnI kahI nIcI pADI dIdhI hatI, te UMce lAvavA kahevuM paDe Ama. (19) patnInI phariyAdo. parama pUjaya dAdAzrIno vyavahArano uttama prinsIpala hato ke "tuM phariyAda karIza to tuM phariyAdI thaI jaIza. huM to je phariyAda karavA Ave tene ja gunegAra gaNuM. tAre phariyAda karavAno vakhata ja kema Avyo.ApaNe phariyAdI to sAmo AropI, ane enI dRSTimAM ApaNe AropI. mATe koInI viruddha phariyAda nA karAya. sAmo gunegAra dekhAya to ApaNe ApaNI jAtane ja gunegAra joI sAmI vyakti to sArAmAM sArI che athavA "AphaTara ola hI Ijha dhI besTa mena' (aMte to e sauthI sArA mANasa che) evuM ApaNe ApaNI jAtane kahevuM. avaLo guNAkAra thaI gayo to savaLuM karI eno bhAgAkAra karI nAkhavo. dhaNI apamAna kare tyAre zuM karavuM ? dAvo mAMDavo ? tyAre ene mArA AzirvAda che' ema karIne sUI javuM. manamAM gALo ApavAthI kaMI niveDo Ave kharo ? apamAna gaLI javA jevuM che. apamAnane saMgharI rakhAya ? sAmA pAsethI potAnuM dhAryuM karAvavA, dabaDAvavA mATe trAguM kare. strIo trAgA vizeSa kare. puruSoe kAyadA ghaDyA pachI puruSo konA pakSamAM lakhe ? sahana karavAnuM nathI, vicArIne ogALavAnuM che. sahana karavAthI eka dahADo sprIMganI jema sAmaTuM uchaLaze, bhaDako thaze gharamAM ! pati garama thAya eTale patnI samajI jAya ke have A lokhaMDa garama thayuM che, have mArAthI ghATa levAze. jeTalI garamI eTalI nabaLAI ! nabaLAIne sahAre popaTa banAvI de. gusso badhe Ave che ? aMDarahenDa para Ave. ApaNuM dhAryuM karAvavA krodha kare che. - sAmo ApaNI para gusso kare to ApaNe zuM karavuM ? ApaNe ene ThaMDA pADavuM. ThaMDA zI rIte paDAya ? A mazIna ja baMdha karI ema ne ema mUkI daIe to enI meLe ThaMDuM paDI jAya. ane ApaNe ApaNI 35 36

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jAtane ja te ghaDIe Thapako ApavAno ane mahIM pratikramaNa karavAnAM cAlu karI devAnA. jIvana zAMtimAM to javuM joIene ? potAnI kharAba Tevone kema sudhAravI ? pahelAM jAte sudharavuM paDe. enI Adato kaI rIte chUTe, tenI jJAnI pAsethI rIta jANI levI joIe. potanI TevonuM eka phero paNa uparANuM le to e TevanuM vIsa varSanuM eksaTensana maLI jAya. eTale "Teva khoTI che, e nA ja hovI joIe.' ema rAkhavuM. ApaNI samajaNanI DijhAIna pheravI nAkhavI joIe. savaLo pheraphAra karI nAkhavo to ja jIvana suMdara jaze. (20) pariNAmo chUTAcheDAnA ! vicArabhedamAMthI matabheda ane matabhedamAMthI manabheda ane manabhedamAM DAyavorsa ane tanabhedamAMthI ThAThaDI. je dhaNI maLyo ene ja nabhAvI levo. DAyavorsa karavA paDe e khoTuM. DAyavorsa pachI jo paiNavAnA nA hoya to ThIka. paNa A to bIjo khoLavAno rahene ? pharI zodhavA jatAM sAmevALo juene ke A DAyavorsavALI che ? mArI joDe eDajasTa thaze ke nahi ? ApaNe InDiyana, keTalAka dhaNI badalyA karIe ? eka strI DAyavorsa levAnI taiyArI karatI hatI, dhaNInuM bIje lapharuM cAlu hatuM tethI. parama pUjya dAdAzrIe ene samajAvI, bIjo dhaNI lAvIza te eka patnIvratano kAyado pALato haze ? bIjo ko sAro maLaze ? badhe AnuM A ja A kaLiyugamAM, mATe nabhAvI le, leTa go karI nAkha.' zAdI be rUpe pariName. eka AbAdI ne bIjuM barabAdI. bhAratIya sannArIone eka pativratanA saMskAra kyAM lupta thayA ? eMsI varSanA mAjI dhaNI pAchaLa saravaNI kare, tArA kAkAne A 37 bhAvatuM'tuM, te bhAvatuM'tuM karIne muMbaIthI maMgAvIne khATalAmAM mUke. ApaNe kahIe ke, 'mAjI kAkA to tamArI joDe AkhI jIMdagI jhaghaDatA hatA ne thoDA dA'DA para to tamane dhakko mArIne pADI nAkhyAM hatAM toya haju Ama karo cho ?' tyAre mAjI kahe, paNa toya emanA jevA bIjA dhaNI nahi maLe !!!' (dhanya che Arya sannArIne !) jIvana to evuM hovuM joIe ke loko emAthI noMdha karI upadeza le. kaLiyugamAM badhAMnA jIvana phrekcara thaI gayelAM hoya. akramajJAnIthI sudhArI naMkhAya. ghara svarga jevuM lAge ne pati-patnI devI-devatA jevAM thaI jAya ! ekabIjAnA pratikramaNa karyA kare to tenAthI ghaNuM halakuM thaI jAya. (21) paraNyAno sAra ! jIvanano dhyeya zuM ? hetu zo ? jIvana gujAre ne pachI pote gujarI ! gujAro (vATakharcI) nA joIe ? gujArA mATe zuM kamANI karI ? jIvanano hetu mojamajA mATe haze ke paropakAra mATe ? mokSanI vAta to pachI paNa jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA to AvaDavI joIene ? A to jIvanamAM badhAM ja khAtAM khoTavALAM che. chatAMya saMsAra game che, te zAthI ? raNanA tApamAM tapelAne bAvaLIyAno chAMyaDo kevA mITho lAge ? jJAnIne tapa tapavAno ja nA rahe, kAraNa dravya-kSetra-kALa bhAva ne bhAvathI saMpUrNa mukta thayA hoya e ! dhaNI badiyo ne vahu ghAMcI, te ghANImAM tela nIkaLyA ja kare, baLadiyAnuM. paraNavAnI kiMmata kyAre ? lAkhomAM ekAdane ja paraNavAnuM maLe tyAre. A to badhA ja paraNe che emAM zuM navAI ? kharekhara saMsAra e vera cUkavavAnuM sthaLa che. dhaNI, chokarAM, sAsu, vahu vera vasula karavA AvelAM che te AkhI jiMdagI cUkavyA ja karo ! jIvana to teNe jIvI jANyuM jaNAya ke jene vera nA baMdhAya ne chUTI javAya ! te e A jIvana saMgrAmamAM jItyo kahevAya. A kALamAM bhayaMkara AMdhIo AvI rahI che ! zakkarIyuM bharADamAM baphAya tema cogaradamathI loka baphAya rahyuM che ane have to saLagavA hau mAMDyuM che. cakravartIo rAjapATa, hajAro rANIo choDIne jJAnInI 38

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pAchaLa cAlyA jatAM ! Aje eka ja chUTatI nathI ! jene potAnI jAta para vizvAsa che tene A jagatamAM badhuM ja maLe evuM che. anaMta zaktino pote dhaNI chatAM juo kevI dazA thaI che ! ne bApa thatAM AvaDyuM, na dhaNI thatAM AvaDyuM ke na chokaro thatAM AvaDyuM ! A to badhAM raDI raDIne moM dhoIne bahAra nIkaLe che. dharma pachI, paNa pahelAM pitA ne pati thatAM AvaDavuM joIe. enjinane paTTo joDyA vagara calAva calAva kare te zuM kAmanuM ? saMsAra kAle sudharaze, kAle sudharaze karIne jiMdagI jIvI jAya che. pittaLa sudharI saunuM thAya kaMI ? rAta-dA'Do saMsAramAM mAra khAya che, chatAM mohanuM AvaraNa eTaluM badhuM pharI vaLeluM che ke jIvane eno vairAgeya nathI Avato. mAra khAdhelo bhUlI jAya che tethI, bairI joDe moTo jhaghaDo thaI jAya paNa patnI bAbA pAse patine kAlI kAlI bhASAmAM cA pIvA bolAve to muAno badho vairAga kSaNamAM UDI jAya ! vicArazIlane A kema poSAya ? patnI rIsAya tyAM sudhI bhagavAna sAMbhare ne pachI rAma tarI mAyA ! jALamAM phasAyelA mAchalAne zuM sukha ? gayA bhave buddhinA AzayamAM eka dhaNI mAMgelo, te A bhave maLyo paNa sAsare jaIne joyuM to sAsu, sasarA, naNaMda, diyara, mAsIsAsu, phoIsAsu, kAkIsAsu, mAmIsAsu, vaDasAsu... ema laMgara joIne thayuM ke mAMgyo hato eka dhaNI ne AvaDuM lAMbuM laMgara kyAMthI AvyuM ? dhaNI joDe A badhuM nA hoya ? dhaNI kaMI uparathI TapakavAno hato ? tane bhAna na hatuM dhaNI mAMgatI vakhate ? 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse jaI potAnAM sarva gUMcavADA khullA karI de to anaMta avatArano ukela AvI jAya kSaNavAramAM ! jJAnI sarva duHkho levA AvyA hoya. jIvana to tene kahevAya ke pote jalI anekone sugaMdha Ape, agarabattI jema ! A to pote ja gaMdhAya ne ! jene pUcho te 39 kahe, javA do ne enuM nAma ! saMsAramAM myujhiyamanI jema rahevuM. myujhiyamamAM badhI vastuo jovAnI, mANavAnI chUTa, paNa aDavAnI ke upADI javAnI chUTa nathI. tyAM koI rAga-dveSa thAya ? (22) pati-patnInAM prAkRtika paryAyo... strIdehamAM moha ane kapaTa ane puruSomAM krodha ane mAnanA paramANuMonuM pramANa vadhAre hoya. A dehanAM paramANuonuM sAyansa che. strIno mokSa nA thAya e mAnyatA kyAM sudhI sAcI ? dAdAzrI kahe che, loko badhA tema mAne che te vAta sAcI che paNa apekSAe. ekAMtika satya nathI e. strI pAchI bIjA bhave mukSa thaIne mokSe jatI rahe. dAdAzrI kahe che, "evo koI kAyado nathI ke strIo strI ja rahevAnI che. e puruSa jevI kyAre thAya ke puruSonI joDe hariphAImAM rahI hoya ane ahaMkAra vadhato jato hoya, krodha vadhato jato hoya to peluM (moha ane kapaTa) UDI jAya. pUjya dAdAzrI jagatane celenja ApatAM kahe che, "A ApaNuM akrama vijJAna evuM che ke strIono paNa mokSa thAya, kAraNa ke AtmA jagADe che A !' sADI, dAgInA dekhe ke strI mUrNita thaI jAya ! mohanAM paramANuo pharI vaLe. strI paramANuo moha ane kapaTane kAraNe sthiratAvALA hoya. khoTa jAya to puruSo rAtonI rAto ciMtAmAM gALe ne strI sAhajika eTale bhUlIne nirAMte sUI jAya ! eTale strImAM sahanazakti che ema bhAse. strIne dhAryuM karAvavAnI Adata. eTale dhAryuM karAvavA dhaNI joDe kapaTa kare. je paramANuo bharelAM hoya te ja nIkaLe ne ? bIjA kyAM nIkaLe ? strIo chevaTe raDIne dhAryuM karAvI le. AMsu dekhe eTale dhaNI mINanI jema pIgaLI jAya. A enuM kapaTa kahevAya. eka strI dAdAne kahe, 'mArA dhaNI bahu bhoLA che. tyAre dAdAzrI ene kahe, 'tArAmAM keTaluM badhuM kapaTa che ke jethI tane dhaNI bhoLA lAge che." dAdAzrI kahe, "maneya hIrAbA 'tame bahu bhoLA cho' ema kahetA." 40

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strI cAritrya bahu bhAre ! enAthI strIno ja deha maLyA kare. abhaNa strIomAM strI cAritrya vadhu hatuM. game teTaluM strI jora kare paNa rAtre be vAge ekalI rastA para jaI zake ? e nabaLAI kaI rIte jAya ? svataMtratAnI vAto kare, paNa tyAM parataMtratA nathI ? koIe svataMtra nathI thavAnuM, ekabIjAnAM pUraka thavAnuM che. dhaNIne vakIlAtanI bhASAmAM javAba Ape to zuM thAya ? saMsAra phrekcara thaI jAya. je puruSa strInAM bahu vakhANa kare tyAM strIoe cetI ja javuM joIe ke AmAM puruSano koI ghATa che. enA badale puruSa enA rUpane vakhANene te strI e sAcuM mAnavA lAge, 'huM kevI sarasa rUpALI chuM.' ane vakhANa kare enA para rAga thAya ne pachI slIpa thAya. moha ane kapaTanuM AvaraNa pachI pharI vaLe. Ama puruSo ja strIne strI banAvavAmAM javAbadAra che. strIne e ja uttejana Ape che ! strIne bIjo puruSa koI saMjogomAM vicAramAMya na khape, uparathI bhagavAna AvyA hoya toya nahi, evAM dRDha nizcayavALI strI sati kahevAya. evI to A kaLiyugamAM kyAMthI jovA maLe ? atyAre to viSaya baMgaDIonA bhAvamAM vecAya che. viSayane laIne strIdeha maLe che. puruSoe bhogavI levA ene phasavI ne ene bagADI. mokSe javuM hoya to sita thavuM paDaze. viSayanA paramANuo saMpUrNa khalAsa karavAM paDaze, satipaNAMthI enI meLe ja kapaTa javA mAMDe. "je koI AtmA jANe ane AtmajJAnInI sevAmAM paDe teno ukela AvI jAya.'' mallInAtha bhagavAna mokSe gayA ne ! e to strIno bhoga nahi, khAlI AkAra ja hato. mahAvIra bhagavAnaneya trIsa varSa sudhI bhoga hato. mallInAthane bhoga nahi. bhoga hota to tIrthaMkarapaNuM raheta nahIM. mATe strIone vagovavAnuM kAraNa nathI. strI zakti che. strI tIrthaMkaronI mAtA paNa che. parama pUjya dAdAzrIe akramavijJAna dvArA strI pudgalane kheravavA 41 pratikramaNa svarUpe 'kapaTagItA' da22oja strIone vAMcavAno niyama Apyo che. je vAMcavAthI strIpaNuM chUTe ne mokSe javAya, evI pUjyazrIe bAMhedhArI lIdhelI che. aMtemAM strI zakti vize dAdAzrI kahe che, strIono doSa nathI. strIo to devI jevI che. strIo ane puruSonAM AtmA e to AtmA ja che, phakta khokhAno phera che. 'Dipharansa opha pekiMgsa.' strI e eka jAtanI IphekTa (asara) che. te AtmA (pratiSThita AtmA) upara strInI IphekTa varte. AnI IphekTa ApaNA para nA paDe tyAre kharuM. strI e to zakti che. A dezamAM kevI rIte strIo rAjanItimAM thaI gaI ! ane 'A' 'dharmakSetre' strI paDe te to kevI hoya ?! A kSetrathI jagatanuM kalyANa ja karI nAkhe ! strImAM to jagatakalyANanI zakti bharI paDI che ! tenAmAM potAnuM kalyANa karI laIne bIjAnuM kalyANa karavAnI zakti che. (23) viSaya baMdha, tyAM prema saMbaMdha ! akrama vijJAna geranTI Ape che ke strI hoya chatAM mokSe jaI zakAya ! mAtra thoDAka niyamo jANI levA viSaya saMbaMdhI. 1) parastrI ke parapuruSa mATe vicAra paNa Avavo nA joIe. dRSTi paNa bagaDavI nA joIe. aNahakkanA viSayono khUba kaDaka rIte niSedha gaNyo che. ane ApaNI so TakA IcchA nathI chatAM dRSTi bagaDe ke viSayano vicAra Ave ke tatkSaNa ja sTroMga pratikramaNa karIe ne dhoI nAkhavuM ne cokhkhuM karI nAkhavuM. 2) davA mIThI che mATe pI-pI nA karAya. e to bannene sAthe tAva Ave tyAre ja pIvAya. ane te paNa nakkI karelAM DaoNjha ja levAya. mahinAmAM be-pAMca DaoNjha ja levAya ema nakkI karavuM. 3) cha mahinA, bAra mahinAnuM brahmacarya vrata kaTake kaTake laI pachI thoDAM varasomAM sadaMtara baMdha thaI jAya evo rasto levo. viSayamAMthI bhayaMkara vera UbhuM thAya te pUruM karye ja chUTako. 42

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jyAM sudhI viSaya che tyAM sudhI ja gharamAM jhaghaDA che. viSaya chUTe ke gharamAM jhaghaDA khalAsa thAya e kAyado che. parama pUjya dAdAzrI emanA patnI hIrAbAne kahetA. patnIne bA kyAre kahevAya ? saMpUrNa viSaya chUTe tyAre. 32 varSanI vaya pachI temane viSaya chUTI gayelo. (24) rahasya, RRNAnubaMdha taNA... pati-patnI e to RNAnubaMdha che. paMkhIDAnA mALA jevuM milana che. 50-60 varSanI yAtrA che. emAM upalaka rahIne sAcavIne nIkaLI javA jevuM che. dhaNI 'riyala'mAM ke 'rileTIva'mAM ? riyalamAM to dhaNI hotA haze ? enA para zo moha ? rileTIva ane teya pAchA amerikana DAyamanDa, riyala DAyamanDa nahIM ! sAcI sagAI nathI, rileTIva sagAI che. mATe DrAmeTikalI khela khelI aMdarakhAne riyalamAM 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM' e lakSamAM rahI nIkaLI javA jevuM che. pUrvabhavanA RNAnuMbaMdha zI rIte chUTe ? hArTilI pratikramaNa karavAthI. paraNyA pachI karelA karArane pUrA karavAM paDe. ene choDI ke toDI nA devAya. ApaNe A maMtrIne bolAvyAM pachI kaMI kADhI mUkAya ? gayA bhave potAnI DijhAIna nakkI karI te pramANe cAvI ghaDI, te A bhave tene phITa thAya tevuM tALuM maLI Ave. A che RNAnuMbaMdha. A bhavamAM je kaMI maLe che te potAnI ja pUrvabhavanI nakkI karelI DijhAIna pramANe maLe che. have navI DIjhAIna cItare eTale pAchalI nA game tethI zuM vaLe ? (25) Adarza vyavahAra, jIvanamAM ! Adarza jIvana kevI rIte jIvavuM ? sAteya divasanI savArathI sAMja sudhInI dinacaryA seTa kara levI. UThatAM ja bhagavAnanuM smaraNa (sImaMdhara svAmInuM khAsa). vaheluM UThavAno krama. aDadho-poNo kalAka ekAgratAthI prabhusmaraNa karavuM. sImaMdhara svAmIne UThatAM ja namaskAra mahAvideha kSetramAM pahoMcADavA. pachI sAta-ATha vAgyA pachI TrAphika jAma thaI 43 jAya ! pachI jAte ja braza laI karavuM. mAMdA hoya tyAre judI vAta ! cA-pANI je Ave te karI levA. kakaLATa nahIM karavAno. pachI nAhIdhoIne kAmadhaMdhe javuM. sAMje ghera zAMtithI AvavuM. magajanI eka naTa dabAvIne AvavuM, jethI enjina garama nA thaI jAya. rAtre jamI chokarAM sAthe thoDo samaya gALI samuhamAM AratI karI, jJAnInI AptavANI vAMcI zuddhAtmAnA dhyAnamAM sUI javuM. rajAnA divase bairA-chokarAMne pharavA laI javA, thoDo kharco karavo. hoTalamAMya laI javA, sagavaDa pramANe. parama pUjya dAdAzrI 'jJAnavidhi'thI zuddhAtmA padamAM besADI de. tyAra pachIno je rileTIva jIvana vyavahAra AtmAmAM rahI, pAMca AjJAmAM rahIne kaSAya vagara thAya. eTale navAM karmo baMdhAya nahIM ne jUnAno nikAla thaI jAya. zuddhAtmAnuM lakSa beThAM pachIno vyavahAra e saMpUrNa 'zuddha vyavahAra' gaNAya. jenAthI mokSa thAya. nahIM to dharma karavAthI azubhamAMthI zubha vyavahAra to thAya ja. jenAthI puNya baMdhAya ne sArI gati maLe. Adarza vyavahAra sva-parane sugaMdhita kare. saMsAranA sarva kAryo niraMtara AtmAnA lakSamAM rahIne thAya to ja saMsArano ukela Ave. enA mATe jJAnIno satsaMga, satsamAgama ja atyAvazyaka che. akrama vijJAna vyavahArane kiMcitmAtra chaMcheDyA vagara Adarza rIte pUruM karAvaDAve che, AtmalakSa sahita ! gharamAM evo vyavahAra karI nAkhavo ke patnIne ema rahyA kare ke Avo dhaNI mane pharI kyAreya pharI nahIM maLe. tema patine paNa patnI mATe evuM ja rahevuM joIe. evo hisAba AvI jAya tyAre manuSyapaNuM saphaLa thayuM. saMsAra jIvanamAM lagna e mukhya dhyeya che. paraMtu e dhyeya hAMsala karyA pachI ene sArI rIte nabhAvavuM e dhyeya jaldI koIthI nathI baMdhAto. niyama evo che ke dhyeya nakkI kare te meLavIne ja jaMpe. bhaNavuM, paraNavuM, kamAvuM vi.vi. nakkI karI meLave ja che ne ? tema svarga jevo saMsAra sarjI zake. lagnajIvanamAM paMkcara tenI gADI kemanI AgaLa dhape ? 44

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aMtamAM parama pUjya dAdAzrI pati-patnIne kahe che, "tamane ThIka lAgatuM hoya to A pramANe karajo, nahi to tamane je gamatuM hoya te karajo. mAre kaMI dabANa nathI A. pahelo vyavahAra zIkhavAno che. vyavahAranI samajaNa vagara to loka jAta jAtanA mAra khAya." keTalAya loko dAdAzrIne haMmezA kahetA, 'adhyAtmamAM to ApanI vAta mATe kaMI kahevAnuM ja nathI, paNa vyavahAramAMya ApanI vAta TopanI vAta che. tyAre dAdAzrI kahetAM, 'vyavahAramAM TopanuM samajyA sivAya koI mokSa gayelo nahIM. game teTaluM bAra lAkhanuM AtmajJAna hoya, paNa vyavahAra samajyA sivAya koI mokSe gayelo nahi. kAraNa ke vyavahAra choDanAra che ne ? e nA choDe to tame zuM karo ? tame zuddhAtmA to cho ja paNa vyavahAra choDe to ne ?" - DaoN. nIrubahena amIta

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(anukramaNikA) be vAsaNa khakhaDe ja, kahe, vAsaNa che ke mANasa tuM, are ! 84 kakaLATiyo mAla ja kacaro, rAMDavAno nA, paisthAno di' saMbhAro ! 21 (1) vana phemilI ghera ke" ApaNI vana phemilI, pachI mArI-tArI, kema taMtIlI ? mArI phemilI' karI preme jIvo evo dhaNI DhaMDhe laI dIvo ! banI sarasa majAnI rasoI, 49 'kaThuM khAruM karI 'eNe" majA khoI ! pati bhUla kADhe vAraMvAra, - 51 pachI thAya zarU kolDavaoNra ! 'kaDhI khArI karI" ema bolIe, 53 ApaNe zuM noTisa borDa chIe ? pati-patnI ke' huM tAro - huM tArI, tarata pAchA jhaghaDe, ottArI ! pati kahyA kare tuM mArI-mArI, kyAMthI matabheda ne mArA-tArI ! khoLa kAraNa tuM matabhedanuM ? banne bheje gumAna akkalanuM ! paiNatI vakhate Avyo vicAra, bemAMthI ko' rAMDaze che nirdhAra ! samaya varte sAvadhAna' sUtra, kleza same sAvadha te Aryaputra ! khoDa kADhavAnuM akkaramI kare, bhUla kADho tyAM e bhaDakI mare ! 56 jANa jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA, paivyA pelAM, bhaNyo kaI zALA ? ghAlyo DaoNkTaraneya phemilImAM, Amane' mUkuM kaI similImAM ? klezanuM mULa kaoNjha ajJAnatA, pariNAme tyAM barakata khAtA ! bheda pADe te kyAMthI buddhizALI ? dora toDI calAve gAMTha vALI ! mUMge moM badhuM jamI le evA, 60 tyAre dhaNI lAge deva jevA ! kamAtI patnI paisAno pAvara, bhIMta banI mANa premano 'zAvara' ! 26 potAnA kadI kADhe nA khoDa, tUTyA tAra kema karIne joDa ! matabheda eTale Taga oNpha vaoNra, chorAM dekhe anaphITa yu Ara ! chorAMo kahe, nA paiNavuM amAre, mA-bApanuM sukha (!) dekhyuM rAtadA'De! badhI strIo bhAve bharathAra, 65 na maLo pharI ko' avatAra ! sasaro jo rahyo bhAramAM, 67 to raheze vahu lAjamAM ! game tevuM nukasAna karatAM, klezano losa, bamaNo bharatAM ! 29 je ghera na kleza tene namaskAra, gAya jyAM dAdAnA asIma je je kAra ! 30 na rahe kleza te sAco dharma, klezita dharma bAMdhe kukarma ! 31 jyAM le 'dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma, 10 na rahe kleza zAnIthI muktidhAma ! 32 khoTa, udayakarmane AdhIna, kleza thavo ajJAna-AdhIna ! (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! na matabheda koI saMga thAya, 'tAruM sAcuM' karI jJAnI cAlI jAya ! hIrAbA joDe na ko' matabheda, trIsI sudhI ja dhaNIpaNAno bheda ! karo klIna gharano vyavahAra pachI bana jagano bharathAra ! joInTa phemilIne mAno eka, mArI-tArIno buddhi pADe bheda ! bairI-chokarAM bhale paDe kAcAM, vana phemilI jema jIve sAcAM ! (2) gharamAM kleza je gharamAM kleza ne kakaLATa tyAM na rahe prabhuno vasavATa ! puruSa zarU kare kleza ghare, strI pakaDI rAkhI kaMkAsa kare ! strIne sukha ApatAM sukha maLe, ghara maMdira, jo kadi na jhaghaDe ! vAIphathI tUTI Dizo kAcanI, "raDiyA'nI kiMmata koDI pAMcanI thALImAM kAco bhAta-khArI dALa, 69 kara sarveno samabhAve nikAla ! jJAnIno A ajoDa itihAsa, patnI aMguThe vidhi kare khAsa ! jJAnI vade vartanamAM jeTaluM, anubhave tAraNa mUkyuM saheluM ! paDyo matabheda hIrAbo saMga, turta palTI mArI rAkhyo 'meM' raMga ! jyAM matabheda nathI tyAM vijJAna, jJAnI seMTaramAMthI dekhe samAna ! kyAreka divALI ne vaLI hoLI, 15 dararoja hoLI e kevI ToLI ! hIrAbAe karI kahIM khArI, 73 pANI reDIne meM sudhArI ! | (5) dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! 75 kara tuM dhaNIpaNAno nikAla, dhaNIpaNuM bajAve to behAla ! 99 75 mAlika nahIM, paNa pArTanara ! premALa pati ke mUo jelara ? 80 patine Teva tethI mAre ropha, barakata hIna paNa mAne TaoNpa ! 101 81 pati eTale vAIphanI vAIpha, A sutra samaye suMdara lAIpha ! 103 pheMka sopho jo karAve jhaghaDo, bairI nA sAcavI to tuM laMgaDo ! 41 matabhedonuM saravaiyuM kADhyuM ? zathI jAnavara gati bAMdhyuM ! sahu sukha che chatAM du:kha zAnuM? 18 mata judo bAMdhyo ne jhAlyo tenuM ! je bhAvatA bhojana jamADe, 19 tene Tebala para ja raMjADe (!) jo koI upAye thAya nA zAMti, sAkSI ke jJAtA rahI, kADha brAMti ! ApaNe Arya bhAratIya ratana, gharamAM zobhe, anADI vartana ? 44 kyAreka kyAreka matabheda TANe, sAcavI lauM, hIrAbA nA jANe ! (4) khAtI vakhate khITapITa ! peTamAM padharAvavuM te dharma, vAMdho kArca baMdhAya karma ! 47 nA rAkho bhaya, besaze caDhI, 83 mucho kyAMthI Uge ? che bhamaraDI ! 47 104 46

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11 140 16 kyAreka vahu kare baDabaDa, dhaNI UkaLe pesatAM ja ghare, kahe vahune 'huM aNaghaDa' ! 106 kheMcI le lAkaDAM to dudha kare ! 13) paradezamAM rIto hoya khAsa, vahuno thAya mUDa jyAre opha, pharI paraNe tyAM varSe pacAsa ! 107 patie saMbhALavo gharano sTApha ! 135 avaLI samaje gALe jIvana klezamAM, (8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM? savaLI samaje hiMDoLe jhulAve TesamAM ! 108 jiMdagI patnIne sudhAravA phare, merI hAlata meM hI jAnuM." mUA tuM sudhara to jaga sudhare ! 139 manAve pote karI bahAnuM ! sAmo phADe tyAre tuM sAMdhyA kara, jhaghaDo karane polIsa joDe, nahIM to chUTA, na bana kAtara ! garIbaDIne zA mATe ragadoLe ? patnInI che rileTiva sagAI, sukha ApavA je suMdara jamADe, sAcuM mAnI lyo, tethI ThagAI ! 144 tyAM laDI dhaNI ijjata bagADe ! 113 nA kadI sIdhI thAya vAMkI pUMcha, (6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! eDajasTa thA, kara nIcI mUMcha ! 145 eka phemilI chatAM kADhI bhUla, sudhAravAmAM chake ahaMkAra, vicAra, ene bhoke che tuM zuLa ! 115 mahAvIra sudharyA, jo teno pracAra ! 146 sAmo jANe te bhUla kema kaDhAya ? pasaMda karI pachI paiNI lAvyA, bhUla kADha je upakAra manAya ! 118 kara nikAla, phAvyA ke na phAvyA ! 147 cAmAM na khAMDa, pI le cupacApa, jiMdagIbhara vahune sudhAravA phare, kAM to prema mAMga, na bane sApa ! 119 maryA pachI, sudhArelAM anyane vare ! 148 preme nahIM, mAre vahune godA, patio ja sudharo kharekhara, na tUTe prema, evA kara sodA ! 120 strIo to tIrthaMkaranI madhara ! 149 bhUla kADhI dabAve e zo vIra aMDarahenDane Apa rakSaNa, badhAnI bhUlo oDhe, aho zura ! 122 vAIpha-chokarAnuM nA kara bhakSaNa ! 150 rAkhe moTuM mana te puruSa kharo, samajIne jAte thI pAMsaro, bhUla mArI kahI, strInuM mana karo ! 124 nahIM to mAra paDaze soMsaro ! 152 kaTu Ape te pI thA mahAdeva ! (9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! jAtane ja vaDhavAnI poDa Teva ! 12 7 bhalabhalAM tALAM turta ughaDe; gharanI vAta gharamAM ja rahe, komanasensathI matabheda TaLe ! 154 nahIM to jaga jaMgalI kahe ? jaja nyAya kare jagabharanA, (3) 'gADI'no garama mUDa ! penDiMga kesa varSo gharanA ! 155 baoNsano bIbIe mAryo mUDa, pati kare bhUlono ekarAra, baoNsa vaDhe tyAre kevo tuM zura ? 130 to jJAnI tarAve bhava saMsAra ! 156 vAMkA AMTA joDe vAMkI naTa, ghera ne eDajasTa koI saMge, strI to che, tAruM kAunTara veTa ! 158 zAstro bhaNI upadezaka kaDhaMge ! 184 paTAvIne patnI, saMsAra pAra utAro, (10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM... vItarAga vATe ja Aro Aro ! 156 rAkho homa-phorena be DipArTamenTa, ghara eka bagIco, dRSTi badala, rahevAnuM che eka epArTamenTa ! 186 prAkRtika phUlomAM sugaMdhI alaga ! 160 sudharyo hIrAbA saMga vyavahAra, satayugamAM ghara hoya khetara, pharI na bhUla eka phera nirdhAra ! Aje bAga, judAM judAM necara ! 161 'zuM zAka lAvuM' pUchavAno rivAja, mAMge gulAbajAMbu, maLe khIcaDI, "ThIka lAge te' kahevAno rivAja ! 191 nahIM to 'pIjhA haTa'nA jo TakI ! 164 dukAnano hisAba ? ghera moDA kema ? vahu viphare tyAM baMdA namIe, gADI cUkyA kema ? Dakhalo strInI ema ! 194 eTeka karyuM zuM kAMdA kADhIe ? khAtAmAM na hIrAbAno hAtha, sahaja maLyuM te dudha, mAMgyuM te pANI, patnInuM paMkyara zAstramAM na vAta ! 194 kheMcyuM to rakta, bodha le A vANI !168 sahajIvananuM bAMdhyuM baMdhAraNa, 'eDajasTa evarIvhera' vAkya, bannenAM khAtAM judAM, e ja tAraNa ! 196 e dharma zIkhyo te cANakya ! 169 banne maLI nakkI karyuM dhoraNa, brahmAno 'vana De" eTaluM ja Ayu, jo mAMge hisAba, baLyuM jIvana ! 198 'eDajasTa', nahIM to vahu joDe lahAyuM ! 170 AvA prazno baMdhAraNa viruddha, rUThI jAya tamArA gharavALA ! dAdA dekhADe vyavahAra zuddha ! 199 apanAvo jJAnInI jJAnakaLA ! 171 calaNa calAvavA pati phare, sAmasAmI ghasAya mogarA tUTe, vahunI muzkelI hRda na dhare ! 201 ahaMkAra Atmavaibhava re luMTe ! 172 prabhu pAse bese nA calaNI nANuM, Ara. pI. ema.mAM moTo Dipharansa, vahu pAse nA calaNI te zANuM ! 204 tethI paTTa tuTe, taMgI thaI sensa ! 173 konA AdhAre kono mokSa ? chUTavuM hoya teNe pADavo meLa, thAya AnaMda, hetu nidoSa ! banne nizcaya kare to paDaze meLa ! 175 lagna vakhate ramADe rUpiyA, khADI gaMdhAya tene zuM vaDhAya ? cUMTI khaNIne jIte calaNiyA ! 210 mANasoya 'gaMdhAya' tyAM zuM upAya ? 176 gharamAM ame hIrAbAnA gesTa, athaDAyo te bhIMta kahevAya, gesTa tarIke jIvye kharI TesTa ! 211 bacavA samaju ja khasI jAya ! 177 (11) zaMkA bALe sonAnI laMkA TrAphikanA kAyadA toDya daMDa zaMkAthI bhaDakA gharasaMsAre, vyavahAre Atharca vAge pracaMDa ! 182 mArApaNAthI mAlikI savAre ! ra14 208 48 49

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sAmAne sukha-du:kha vede 'seIma', homI de jAta e che sAco prema ! 298 vahu nA game, paNa koNe khoLI ? 272 na vaDha sahejeya, jo copaDo kholI ! 'abolA, noMdha, vera' strInA jhera, 274 'narama, garama, mauna' choDe vera ! jJAnIno prema sudhAre sarvane, apekSA viNa vizALa vizvane ! 302 317 zaMkA eTale, lakavo buddhino, para jhaghaDe, le patnIno pakSa, kara phajeto, sukhI jIvanano ! 215 je zaraNe ApaNI tene rakSa ! 239 zaMkA jiMdagIbhara nava jAya, kara patino samabhAve nikAla, asara deha-mana para thAya ! 2017 kahe, tame nobala cho, kamAla ! 242 zaMkA daivI vahunI khAtarI khoLe, pratikramaNathI phAIla chUTI, UMDo nA Utara, rahe upara lai ! 218 nahIM to e Avaze thaI moTI ! 244 cAritryanI zaMkAno paDe mAra ! (14) *mArI'nA AMTA ukelAya Ama ! zaMkAnuM phaLa aneka avatAra ! 220 'mArI mArI' karI viMTyA AMTA, bairInA cAritryanI zAMti khape ? 'na hoya mArI' karI baMdhana chUTA ! 249 kALI chuMdaNAvALI sauthI Tape ! 222 'nahoya mArI' kahevAnI muzkelI, loka to 'haoNTala' dekhuM tyAM "jame', kyAM sudhI jIvIza jIMdagI Ama vahughelI 253 cAritra na khoLa, citta to bhame ! 223 raMDApo-maMDApo jIvane krama, patnI mauDI toya na kara zaMkA, asaMga-nirlepa jJAne ekrama ! 255 paTAvI le nahIM to jaze laMkA ! lagna pariNAma maMDApo-raMDApo, (12) dhaNIpaNAnA gunAo tattva dRSTie na mare koI bApo ! 256 gunegAra nathI te dhaNI kharI, hIrAbA gayA tyArano vyavahAra, gunAmAM Avyo to thayo maro ! 227 smazAneya "svastha dAdA' bharathAra ! 258 laDe-vaDhe chatAM jJAna hAjara, (15) paramAtma premanI pichANa AjJA samabhAve nikAla kara ! sAco prema zodhyo nA kyAMya jaDe, bairInA kevAM puNya ke tuM maLyo ! jyAM ne tyAM Asakti, tethI laDe ! 262 tArAM kevAM pApa khoDavALI raLyo ? 2 30 prema, mAre toya na ghaTe kadI, (13) dAdAI dRSTie cAlo, patio sAco te, hAratore na vadhe kadI ! 262 patinA mUMjhavatA prazno Ama, pati-patnI nahIM, 'kapeniyana, dAdA kliyara kare TrAphika jAma ! 232 to saMsAra saMgrAme "cempiyana' ! ra65 vahune guru kare tyAMthI phera, pati-patnImAM prema ke Asakti ? vahu mIThI ne mA kaDavI jhera ! 233 na dekhe doSa, premanI e zakti ! 263 banne risAya temAM zo bhalIvAra, premamAM laganI na bhUle kSaNa; paisyo paNa na vaLyo zukkaravAra ! 235 nabhAve sarva bhUlo banne jaNa ! 268 thAMbhalo athaDAya vArevAre, rAgamAMthI dveSa ne vaLI rAga, 'vajJAna' vinA na pugAya Are ! 236 popaTamastI' che, nathI e nAga | 230 vahunI apekSA, gharakAmamAM, na doSa dekhe, na caDAve moDhAM, Toka Toka kare calAvavAmAM ! 238 na UMhakAro, premathI jhIle loDhAM ! 271 Asakti eTale vikRta prema, vaDhe toya vANI lAge jyAM mIThI, lohacuMbaka lohane kheMce jema ! 275 paryAyo pahoMce, jo kahI juThI ! 304 vijJAna paramANuonuM, kheMcANa, vAta vAtamAM ghera jhadhaDA, mAne huM kheMcAyo, bhrAMti che jANa ! 276 patnInI pakSe hoya tagaDA ! 309 zuddha prema e ja paramAtmA, kalezita pera, thA jhADApUrka, kaSAyanI vidAya sadA nijAtmA ! 279 'samabhAve kara nikAla' ne chUTa ! 311 amArA premamAM DUbI to juo, jhaghaDyA pachI thavuM paDe e ka, paramAtmA UghADo ahIM juo ! 280 hai' zarUthI e ka, kyAM gayo Teka ? 313 (16) paraNyA eTale 'promisa Tu pe' duHkha Ape te badho gAMDo ahaM, 316 ame nathI jIvanamAM pastAyA, khoTo che jAye chUTe karama ! jIvatAM AvaDyuM te pAra karyA ! 282 maravA jAya toya na de maravA, paraNyA eTale promisa Tu pe, kAyadA nahIM, samAdhAna karavA ! eka zuM, be AMkha jAya, na chUTe ! 283 jAgyo tyAMthI Dakho kare ghera, kara prathama prakRtinI pIchANa, | 'vinaMtI karuM' TALa vANI jhera ! 319 mane sATha varSa paDI oLakhANa ! 285 vaNamAMgI salAha na apAya, 'tamArA vinA na game emane', aMtara yuddha so bhava baMdhAya ! 32 1 preme rajA,'vicaro jaga kalyANe ' 287 tarachoDa-tiraskAra vANInA ghA, jo uparI badhA poSAya tane, vera bhavobhava paDe bhogavavA ! 322 vahu bosa rAkha, vAMdho zuM tane ? 290 karma udaye pati-patnI thayAM, dhaNI to kone kahevAya ? zAne kaTutA meNAM ToNAM natha ? 32 5 patnIne deva jevo dekhAya ! 292 dhiyo bhasyA kare javAnImAM, (17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADe ! baMdA 'apakSa' ne mA-baccAM koMgresamAM 325 vahune pANAnA ghA lAge kUNA, patnIne mAre te pati kasAI, vANInA ghA to kALaje korANA ! 294 khIle bAMdhelI A gAya kyAM jAya ? 328 A te yuddha ke popaTa mastI, nabaLo dhaNI bairI para zUro, ghI pachI zunya, vaDhavADa sastI ! 296 maunathI patnI para tApa pUro ! 330 Takora karo, paNa ahaM rahita, premathI ja vahu vaza varate, ne tatsaNa pratikrama sahita ! 297 mitra jema jIvavAnI zarate ! 332 51

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! rAtre bhAMjagaDa, savAre tAMto, cUMTI le bAbAne, karAve vAto ! sinemA sajoDe ne bAbo khabhe, rastAmAM yuddha, lagna kema nabhe ? mArelA thA je yuvAnImAM jore, gAtra DhIlAM thatAM jokhIne lo re ! zabdonA ghA strI lakhe kALaje, pacIsa varSa tAjo, jANe maLyo Aje ! 336 vahu che to ghara naMdanavana, vahu viNa ghara veraNa-cheraNa ! noMdha karavAno strIno svabhAva, puruSo nobala dhIra prabhAva ! sAmasAmI noMdha karI bAMdhe vera, pArtha sAme kamaThe okyuM jhera ! ramA ramADavI sahela che, vipharI mahA muzkela che ! eka AMkhe prema bIjI kaDaka, to ja gharamAM zAMtinI jhalaka ! jyAre dharma para Avyo AMtaro, trAgAthI kADhyo hIrAbAno kacaro ! nArI pUjAye jyAM devI tarIke, AratI kara, na artha evo jarIke ! strI e che prAkRtika zakti, tarachoDI to 'hArTaphela' takatI ! eka AMkhe prema, bIjImAM kara5, zIkhI le cAvI pesatAM maMDapa ! strIne vaDhe e puruSa kahevAya ? pachI bairIno mAra, nakhorAM khAya ! joyA meM vahuno mAra khAnArA, samyak jJAne karmonA pobArA ! benI vaDhavADamAMthI bhavADo, 'le letI jA' vANiyAno pIchoDo ! 334 siMha jevA dhaNIne bIvaDAve, paNa UMdaraDI ene laDAve ! pANIdAra ghoDI paNa pADe dhaNI, savArI na phAvI, nathI mArakaNI ! pati kahevaDAve, bhaIsA'ba ! pachI patnI vasUle hisAba ! 33. 338 339 341 341 345 352 354 355 346 puruSa potAne suprIma mAne, strI pachI trAgAM, TaiDakAvI jANe ! strInA ja vAMka samAje dekhADyA, potAnA pakSe puruSe laoN ghaDyA ! pati jyAre thAya bahu garama, vadhu ghATa ghaDe loha narama ! dhAryA mujaba karAvavA jAya, tethI krodha ! mATe kaMI na dharAya ! patinI kuTevo kema sudhare ? 358 aNagamo, na uparANuM le re ! jagavyavahAra mAge normAliTI, 359 bIlo-ebova na thAya to byuTI ! AtmA mATe juTha te ja satya; saMsAra mATe e ja asatya ! 361 strI prakRti varane dharAve dhIra, nahIM to khoTamAM codhAra nIra ! 52 loko mAne dAdA strI pakSamAM, pakSe puruSanA aMdara lakSamAM ! (19) patnInI phariyAdo AzritanI nA karAya phariyAda, ne karI to paDaze sAmo sAda ! ghaNI apamAna kare tyAre, dilathI AzIrvAda prema sahAre ! 363 366 366 368 370 372 373 375 na maLe sADI tyAM sudhI risAya, re ! A strI mohathI kyAre chUTAya ? 376 380 382 384 387 389 395 397 darekanuM parsanala meTara, bIjAnuM kema kheDe khetara ? patnI patine sadA sinsiyara, ughADI kema karAya gaTara ? pativratA e moTuM AbhUSaNa, kaMku kema ? manamAM eka ja jaNa ! strInI pharaja, thA patine sinsiyara, dhaNI sudhAravA karatA jAte sudhara, (20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAnAM vicArabheda mata-manabheda, tanabhede UDe jIvana cheda ! matabheda pachI lo chUTAcheDA, thA chUTo, jo na bAMdho pharI cheDA ! pati-patnI vacce paDyuM paMkcara, dAdA kADhe moha, vagara lekcara ! 'pati paramezvara', vade zAstra, buddhinA AzayamAM patnI mAgI, 'rAma' bane, to bana 'sItA'nuM pAtra ! 405 sAsu, sasarA ne... laMgAra lAgI! anaMta bhavanA je guMcavADA, chUTa, 'jJAnI' kane karI UMghADA ! 'jevuM maLe tevuM' levuM nabhAvI, 'bIjuM kare' tenI khAtrI kevI ? saMsAra jyama zakkariyuM bharahADe, kyAMthI sukha emAM ? bhrAMtimAM pADe ! 436 apamAna bhUlye vairAga kyAMthI, 400 saMsAra phasAmaNa, na ko' sAthI ! he bhAratIya ! Divorsa lenAra; AryatvanA kyAM gayA saMskAra kaLiyugamAM bagaDe saMsAra, bagaDI bAjI jJAnathI sudhAra ! (21) saptapadIno sAra ? saMsAranA sarve khAtAmAM khoTa, 'jJAnI' maLye, na rahe kyAMya oTa ! paiNyAnI kiMmata kyAre hota ? lAkhomAM huM eka ja paraNata ! vera cUkavAya jyAM, te saMsAra, pramANapatra vinAnA bharathAra ! bhayaMkara AMdhIono Ave kALa, jJAnI cetave zraddhAthI kara pAra ! 398 47 408 409 413 423 427 sAcI samaja sajAve saMsAra, agaru jale maheke apAra ! 413 sADI-dAgInA dekhatAM mUrchita, moha-kapaTa paramANu gopita ! 415 dhAryA pramANe dhaNIne calAve, kapaTa karI gharane nacAve ! strIone ema nA kahevAya halakI, tIrthaMkaronI mA, jo sRSTi malakI ! 433 strI puruSa prAkRta paramANu, bharelo mAla khapAvA niyANuM ! strI sukhI jo mAthe pitA-pati-putra, akramamAM mAthe jJAna-AjJA mAtra ! strIne puruSo vakhANe, mahIM ghATa, 431 aMjAya, to kapaTano caDhe kATa ! pALe eka pativrata satIpaNe, strI-graMthi chedAya, kapaTa kSaye ! strIno paNa mokSa che dAdA kahe. 434 jJAnInI sevA, kRpA AjJA maLyu ! strI zakti kadI paDI dharmakSetre, 434 jagakalyANanuM moTuM nimitta e ! 437 saMsArane tuM myujhiyama mAne, spardhA viNa mAtra 'jo' ne 'jANa' ! 446 (22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo 53 439 441 443 447 451 452 455 456 459 46 1 464 466

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha patnI sAthe mokSa eka zarate, davA pIvI jo bene tAva varte ! viSaya mAtra dAvA kare karArI, jIvatA parigrahe, vera lAcArI ! sarja zaNagAra vIMdhavA nara; phreMca kaTa, zUTa udeza nAra ! viSaya sAthe mokSa zakya jJAne; aTake RSi eka putradAne ! Aje brahmacarya eka patnIvrata, bIje diSTa aNIzuddha e zarta ! aNahakkanA viSaye narka maLe; turta pratikramaNathI bI na phaLe | AsaktithI viSaya pachI vera, viSayanuM vera to bhAre jhera ! pratikramaNathI viSaya UDe, abhiprAya bhinna tethI dveSa jhare ! uchInuM sukha rI-pe karavuM paDe; viSaya mATe AjIjI, vera phaLe ! viSaya-bhIkha lAcAra banAve, saMyamI nara saMsAra dIpAve ! viSayo vacce hoya jyahAM lagI, vahu athaDAya ja tyahAM lagI ! pavitra tyArathI hIrAbA kahyAM, pachI kadI na matabheda thayA ! pote paramAtmA ne thayo dhaNI, re dazA kevI ! bhaTakAmaNa ghaNI ! sATha varasanI yAtrA jIvana, musAphara tyAM zAne vaLagaNa ? pati-patnI mAtra vyavahAramAM, nizcayathI AtmA, nahIM saMsAramAM ! 467 kharo dhaNI te, je duHkha ha2Na, 4 70 471 472 474 475 *78 480 482 483 roMga biliphathI khaDo saMsAra, parArthe jIvyA banyA bharathAra ! 495 (24) rahasya, RNAnubaMdha taNAM..... na sAco hIro, A to amerikana ! 500 vikalpI saMsAra rahe nATakiyo, rAjA nahi, paNa caMdu taragALo ! 503 karma potAnAM bhogave pote, poSajo paroNA prema bhAve ! bhaya tiraskAra doSathI aMdha, pratikramaNa choDAve RNabaMdha ! na paraNyA pachI na choDa saMsAra, nikAla kara karelA karAra ! pote ja chApI pAThavI kaMkotrI, bAjhe 'phAIlo' racanA kudaratI ! na maLe AnA A ja bhavobhava, rAju-nema ja maLyA bhava nava ! gatabhave lIvaranI ghaDI cAvI, e ja lIvaranuM 'tALuM' maLe AvI ! nAca AdhAre maLe nAcanArI, zAdInA AdhAre veSa saMsArI ! 486 dinacaryA sAte di'nI seTiMga, Adarza jIvana ne mokSe leMDiMga ! gRhasthI dharma uttama zAthI ? kasoTI kALamAM samatA rAkhI ! 50 jJAnInI, vyavahAranI sUkSma zodha, 496 cokhkho ne zuddhano Apyo bheda ! Atmalase Adare je vyavahAra, 497 Adarza sva-para sukha dAtAra ! jJAnI samajAve sarva poInTa, 498 kAryarata chatAM svamAM joInTa ! 54 504 506 507 509 510 (25) Adarza vyavahAra, jIvanamAM 513 515 518 522 54 525 526

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pati-patnIto divya vyavahAra (1) vata phemilI ghera ke' ApaNI vata phemilI, pachI mArI-tArI, kema taMtIlI ? dAdAzrI : banne eka phemilI tarIke jIvo chone ? ke judI judI ? praznakartA : eka phemilI ! dAdAzrI : ema ? koI dahADo bhAMjagaDa thAya che gharamAM vAIpha joDe ? praznakartA : koI vAra thAya. dAdAzrI : to pachI phemilImAM evuM ? tamArI eka phemilI na hoya ? e to tamArI phemilI kahevAya. phemilImAM hau evuM thAya ? praznakartA : hA, jarUra thAya. dAdAzrI : potAnA phemilImAM ? bIjI phemilI joDe to thAya. 2 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : potAnI phemilI sAthe paNa thAya. dAdAzrI : to phemilI jANato ja nathI, phemilI zuM che e. potAnuM phemilI eTale potAnuM. emAM kazuM Dakho nA hoya. tamane zuM lAge che, phemilImAM thAya evuM ? praznakartA : thAya, thAya. dAdAzrI : potAnA phemilImAM ? AI enDa mAya vAIpha ane mArAM chokarAM, e to tamArI phemilI kahevAya. emAM kazuM Dakho hoya nahIM. bahAranA joDe, bIjI phemilI joDe Dakho hoya. praznakartA H darekanI judI judI parsanAlITI hoya eTale phemilImAM konphalIkTa (gharSaNa) thAyane ? dAdAzrI : to pachI phemilI kahevAya nahIM. ane kaho cho tame dhIsa Ijha mAya phemilI !' ane phemilI konuM nAma kahevAya ke Dakho nA hoya. 'mArI phemilI' karI preme jIvo evo dhaNI DhaMDhe laI dIvo ! jIvana jIvavAnuM sAruM kyAre lAge ke Akho dahADo upAdhi nA lAge. zAMtimAM jAya, tyAre jIvana jIvavAnuM game. A to gharamAM DakhADakha thAya eTale jIvana jIvavAnuM zI rIte phAve te ? A to poSAya ja nahIM ne ! gharamAM DakhADakha hoya nahIM. pADozI joDe thAya vakhate, bahAranAM joDe thAya, paNa gharamAMya ? gharamAM phemilI tarIke lAIpha jIvavI joIe. phemilI lAIpha kevI hoya ? gharamAM prema, prema ne prema ja UbharAto hoya. A to phemilI lAIpha ja kyAM che ? dALa khArI thaI to kakaLATa karI mele. 'dALa khArI' pAchuM bole ! aMDaraDevalapDa (ardha vikasita) prajA ! DevalapDa kevA hoya ke dALa khArI thaI to bAjue mUkI de ane bIjuM badhuM jamI le. nA thAya evuM ? dALa bAjue mUkIne bIjuM jamAya nahIM ? dhIsa Ijha phemilI lAIpha. bahAra bhAMjagaDa karone ! mAya phemilIno artha zuM ? ke amArAmAM bhAMjagaDa nahIM zuM koI jAtanI. eDajasTamenTa levuM joIe. potAnI phemilInI aMdara eDajasTa

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pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (1) vana phemilI ! thatAM AvaDavuM joIe. eDajasTa evarIvhera. - ghera "mAya phemilI, mAya vAIpha' kahevAya. ane tyAM ApaNe jaIe tyAre to mUA vaDhatA hoya ! alyA mUA, tuM AvuM jUThuM bole che ! "mAya phemilI" konuM nAma kahevAya ke A mArI bAunDrI, AmAM to amAre jhaghaDo ja nA hoya, enuM nAma mAya phemilI ! alyA, gharamAM pAMsaro raheje 'phemilI orgenAijhezana'nuM jJAna che tamArI pAse ? ApaNA hindustAnane 'hAu Tu orgenAijhezana phemilI' e jJAna ja khUTe che. 'phorenavALA to 'phemilI' jevuM samajatA ja nathI. e to jemsa vIsa varasano thayo eTale enAM mAbApa viliyama ne merI, jemsane kaheze ke, tuM tAre judo ne ame be popaTa ane popaTI judAM ! emane 'phemilI orgenAijha' karavAnI bahu Teva ja nathIne ? ane emanI 'phemilI' to cokhuM ja bole. merI joDe viliyamsane nA phAvyuM eTale 'DAivorsa'nI ja vAta ! ane ApaNe to kyAM 'DAivorsa'nI vAta ? ApaNe to joDe ne joDe ja rahevAnuM. kakaLATa karavAno ne pAchuM suvAnuMya tyAM ja, enI e ja rUmamAM ! A jIvanano rasto nathI. A 'phemilI lAIpha' nA kahevAya. mane evuM lAge che, mArI vAta tane gamatI nathI. praznakartA : nA, nA, emAM zuM vAMdho che ? koIke to kahevuM ja joIene ? dAdAzrI : zuM kahevuM joIe ? praznakartA : A khulle khulluM tame kaho chone, evuM. dAdAzrI : to eTaluM sAruM che ! te samajAya to pachI kahe. jANa jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA, paiyA pe'lAM, bhaNyo kaI zALA ? praznakartA H ene mATe ApaNe phemilInI paribhASA zuM che e lokone samajAvavI joIe. dAdAzrI : nahIM, ejhekTa phemilI ja che, paNa Ama jIvana jIvatAM nathI AvaDatuM. jIvana jIvavuM e zIkhavADyuM nathI lokoe, phoraphAdharsIe (bApa-dAdAoe). ane potAne AvaDe evuM e cAlyA ja kare che, reDhiyALa. reDhiyALa zabda sAMbhaLelo ? bhaIe sAMbhaLelo. have reDhiyALa cAlyA ja kare che. evuM nA cAlavuM joIe. samajapUrvaka cAlavuM joIe. ghara to, potAnuM phemilI to evuM suMdara calAvavuM joIe. e to A jJAna laIne pachI badhI tamane AgaLa vAta karuM. phemilImAM to ApaNane jIvatAM nathI AvaDatuM. te Ama bhaNyA badhuM paNa pahelAM A nA bhaNavuM joIe ke vAIpha joDe kema DIliMga (vyavahAra) karavuM ? hAu Tu DIla vitha vAIpha ? hAu Tu DIla vitha cilDana ? (patnI joDe, bALako joDe vyavahAra kema karavo te) nA jANavuM joIe ? teM kaI copaDI vAMcI che, hAu Tu DIla vItha vAIpha ? praznakartA : "mereja enDa phemilI' evI kaMIka bUka vAMcI hatI. dAdAzrI : toya paNa evA ne evA rahyAne ? to e copaDIo khoTI badhI. je sAbu ghasavAthI mela nA jAya, e sAbu nahoto e nakkI thaI gayuM. atyAre loko dharma zIkhavADavA Ave ane ahIMyAMthI ApaNe kaMI ochuM nA thAya to jANavuM ke sAbu na hoya. A to badhA vagara kAmanA phare che. tarata ja, sAbu ghase eTale pachI mela javo ja joIe. mahenata karelI phaLe, pANI vApareluM nakAmuM nA jAya. keTalAka DaoNkTaro to tyAMthI hospiTalamAMthI ciDAIne Ave chene, te ghera AvIne vAIphane kahe che, tamArAmAM akkala nathI. are ! A to badhuM phemilImAM bolAya evuM ? bahAranA joDe nA phAvatuM hoya to kahI devuM ke tArAmAM akkala nathI. eTale vaDhavADa cAlu thaI jAya. paNa A gharamAM nA kahevAya gharamAM to ApaNane jalebI khavaDAve, lADavA khavaDAve, bhajiyAM khavaDAve, enI joDe, bicArI joDe kahevAya nahIM. eTale vAIpha joDe, chokarAM joDe, pahelAMmAM paheluM sudhAravA jevuM zuM che, ke potAnA kuTuMbamAM, phemilImAM zAMti ane saMtoSa rahevo joIe. paheluM potAnI phemilImAM ! ghera hIrAbA che, temanI joDe matabheda ochA thaI gayA badhA, baMdha thaI gayA. kAraNa ke mAya phemilI kahetAM zIkhyo. dhIsa Ijha mAya phemilI.

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(1) vana phemilI ! pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra tyAre meM kahyuM, "mAya phemilIno artha zuM thAya ?" tyAre kahe, 'tyAM to bhAMjagaDa hoya nahIM. vicArabheda hoya paNa bhAMjagaDa nA hoya, phleza to nA ja hoya. hA, Dakhalo potAnI phemilImAM nA hoya, bahAra jaIne Dakhala karo. jo Dakhala karavI hoya ne to bahAravALA joDe jaIne karI Avo. phemilImAM nA thAya. A vana phemilI kahevAya. eTale kAlathI baMdha karI do, eya tamArI joDe baMdha karI deze. praznakartA : bahu varSo thayAM paraNe. dAdAzrI : te kaMI A ene ripera karI karIne keTaluMka ripera karazo ? jUnuM mazIna thayuM hoya to ripera karIne keTaluMka ripera thAya ? navuM to nA ja thaI jAyane, bhalene gharaDI uMmaranA thayA che, paNa AvuM thoDuMka vicAravAnI jarUra che ke Ama kema cAle che. ATalI badhI bhUla ane bhaNIne AvelA cho tame, abhaNa mANaso nathI. tamane samajAya evI vAta che ke ApaNe kevuM hovuM joIe ? vadhAre nahIM, badho dharma vadhAre nathI karavo ApaNe, vana phemilI eTaluM ja vicAra karavAno, zokha hoya mAravAno karavAno, TeDakAvavuM hoya to bahAranA lokone TaiDakAvIne Avo, ahIM TaiDakAvavAnuM hoya, gharamAM? vana phemilImAM, na zobhe AvuM. ghAlyo DaoNkTaraneya phemilImAM, 'Amate' mUkuM kaI similImAM ? ane tyAM InDiyAmAM to phemilI DaoNkTara hau rAkhe che loka. alyA, phemilI thayuM nathI haju, tyAM tuM kyAM DaoNkTara rAkhe che ? A loko phemilI DaoNkTara rAkhe paNa ahIM vahu phemilI nahIM ! kaheze, 'amArA phemilI DaoNkTara AvyA ? to enI joDe kacakaca nahIM. DaoNkTara bila moTuM mUke toya kacakaca nahIM. kaheze, "amArA phemilI DaoNkTara che ne !" enA manamAM ema ke mAro ropha paDI gayo, phemilI DaoNkTara rAkhyA che eTale ! te meM, eka amAro bhatrIjo, phemilI DaoNkTara karIne lAvelo. meM kahyuM, A DaoNkTara to phemilI rakhAtA haze mUA, e kaMI bhUta ghAlya gharamAM ? e to nA roga hoya, toya kaheze, 'jarA mahIM prezara vadhI gayuM che' e to bhUta gharamAM ja nahIM ghAlavAnuM. jarUra hoya tyAre bolAvI lAvavAnA, ane InDiyAmAM to coMTI paDe che badhA, phemilI thaI jAya che. nahIM to svataMtratA jatI rahe ApaNI. A mArI pAse DaoNkTara Ave ne, pahelo ahIMthI bAMdhe, phaTAka phaTAka... mUA, zuM karavA jue che tuM, huM to keTalAya varSathI jANuM chuM A. e traNa dAdarA ekadama jorathI caDhyA hoya to mahIM phaTAkA bole. A kahe ke prezara vadhI gayuM. meM kahyuM, "nA, DaoNkTara, tamArA mazInamAM Avaze paNa mane nathI vadhyuM.' huM samajato houM ke traNa dAdarA caDhyo tene lIdhe A che, gabharAvAnuM nahIM. A to zaMkA pesI jAya. mane vAMdho nahIM. tame jeTalA DaoNkTara Avo ne, paNa DaoNkTarone zaMkA paDe, mane nA paDe. huM to AuTa opha DeTa (samayathI para) thayelo ne ! potAnI jAtanI zraddhA. pArakAnAM kahevAthI gabharAmaNa nA thAya. phemilI DaoNkTara to ApaNA InDiyAmAM rAkhe chene, te manamAM zuM samaje che ke ApaNo ropha vadhI gayo have. pelA DaoNkTaranA manamAM zuM thAya ke ApaNe khIle baMdhAyA A eka. ApaNA gharAko ATalA baMdhAI gayA. kAraNa ke tyAM badhA DaoNkTaro thayelA te Aje Ane tyAM jAya, Aje Ane tyAM jAya. paNa enI joDe phemilI nA rakhAya. nahIM to vAreghaDIe jatAM-AvatAM Ave ane pAchuM jue e badhuM. A zarIra dekhADavA jevuM nahIM koI dahADoya. khAsa muzkelImAM mUkAya tyAre zarIra dekhADavuM. evuM khAsa muzkelImAM Avene ? bAkI kudarata mahIM kAma karI ja rahI che. mahIM je che ne, te kAma karI rahI che. A DaoNkTaro ene helpa Ape. paNa aTakI paDyuM hoya tyAre javuM. aTakI nA paDyuM hoya te nahIM kAmanuMne ? te vAta tArI nA karI kazI. tArI vAta karane ? tAre zuM gUMcavADA che e kahe badhA. tamane vAto game che A badhI ke nakAmo TAIma jAya praznakartA : nA, nA, bahu game che.

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(1) vana phemilI ! pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : moTuM caDeluM hoya che. ghera AvIe to moTuM caDeluM hoya dAdAzrI : have kaMI pUcha, badhI harakata hoya te badhI pUcha ane eka ja phemilI hoya ne evuM jIvana jIvavuM joIe. vana phemilI tarIke to jIvo. phemilInA mANasano Ama hAtha athADe to ApaNe enI joDe laDIe ? nA. eka phemilI rIte rahevuM. banAvaTa nahIM karavAnI. A to loka banAvaTa kare che, evuM nahIM. eka phemilI... tArA vagara mane gamatuM nathI ema kahevuM. e vaDhene ApaNane, tyArapachI thoDIvAra pachI kahI devuM. 'tuM game te vaTuM, toya paNa tArA vagara mane gamatuM nathI." ema kahI devuM. ATalo guru maMtra kahI devo. evuM koI dahADo bolatA ja nathIne. tamane bolavAmAM vAMdho zuM? tArA vagara gamatuM nathIne. manamAM rAkhIne prema kharo, paNa thoDuM khulluM karavuM. karo klIta gharano vyavahAra pachI bata jagato bharathAra! phemilI ja cokhkhuM karo, bIjuM kaMI nahIM. tamArI phemilIne ja cokhkhuM karo. tamArI buddhithI samajAya evuM che ke nahIM ? ane vana phemilImAM zuM hovuM joIe, tame bIjAne zuM salAha Apo ? koI mahIM laDelaDA nA karazo. mahIM kacakaca nA karazo, evuM kahIne ? ane tame salAha ApanArA ane tamArA ghara kacaca. eTaluM ja kahuM chuM. vadhAre nahIM kaheto. vaLI mokSanI vAta javA do atyAre, ATaluM karo to mahIM kleza nA rahe gharamAM. pahelo dharma je che e gharamAMthI zarU karo. gharamAM kiMcitmAtra Dakho nA rahe ane duHkha nA thAya koIne, evI rIte phemilI membara tarIke thaI jAve. beno kazI vAtacIta karajo. eno ! du:khano aMta to Avavo joIe. Ama kyAM sudhI AvuM ne AvuM rahe, ApaNuM jIvana ! ATalA badhA DaoNlara pagAra maLe che. ATalAM badhAM makAno sarasa che, aDacaNa koI jAtanI nathI, chatAM duHkha kyAMthI AvyuM ? kyAMthI pesI gayuM ? kayA khUNAmAMthI pesI gayuM? dAdAzrI : zA mATe ? A aNasamajaNa ja che badhI. aNasamajaNo bhAMgo. bIjo dharma nahIM karo to cAlaze, bhagavAnane enA para vAMdho nathI, paNa evI aNasamajaNa kADhI nAkhone. ApaNI sepha sAIDa to karo. vadhAre nA thAya to ApaNA gharanI phemilI sephasAIDa to karo. e pahelo dharma ane pachI mokSadharma. ApaNe koNa chIe e pachI jANavuM joIe, e mokSadharma. be dharmo jANavA joIe. gharamAM duHkha ApIne ApaNe sukhI thaIe evuM bane nahIMne ! ane chokarAya kharAba thaI jAya. eTale bena kaMIka sAruM jIvana jIvo. have dhaNIne kahI devuM ke ApaNe phemilImAM chIe. phemilIne anyAya nA karazo, kahIe. joITa phemilIne mAto eka, mArI-tArIno buddhi pADe bheda ! praznakartA : ApaNe joInTa phemilImAM rahIe, to mAruM tAruM bahu thayA kare, enuM zuM kAraNa ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe to joInTa phemilImAM badhuMya mAruM che evuM jo samajavAmAM Ave, to mAruM-tAruM nA thAya. paNa A to ATaluM mAruM ane ATaluM enuM e bhedabuddhi che. buddhine lIdhe bheda paDyo. buddhi bheda pADI Ape ke nahIM ? sAmuM mANasa kahe ke A to mAruM, toya ApaNe kahIe ke, nA, A to tamAruM ne A mAruM ! nA, A badhuM ApaNuM ja che, kahIe. ema vizALa buddhi rAkhIe to ja niveDo Ave nahIM to niveDo kevI rIte Ave ? A badhI tamArI potAnI ja vAta che. mArI vAta nathI A. tamArI potAnI ja vAta che ane tamane huM judo lAguM chuM, paNa mane tame judA nathI lAgatA, kAraNa ke huM AtmasvarUpe jouM chuM badhuM ane mArA potAnA rUpe ja jou chuM, mane juduM nA lAge, tame avaLuM-savaLuM bolo toya juduM nA lAge. kAraNa ke huM vana phemilI rIte jouM chuM. ane tame tamArI phemilIne ja phemilI nathI gaNatA. huM AvaDI moTI phemilIne, eka phakta amArA vAIpha

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(1) vana phemilI ! hIrAbAne choDI ane beTho eTale A badhI AkhI phemilI mArI thaI gaI. nahIM to emanI ekalI phemilI rAkhIne besI rahyo hota, to zuM thAta ? A to AkhI duniyA mArI phemilI thaI gaI. bairI-chokarAM bhale paDe kAcAM, vata phemilI jema jIve sAcAM ! A bIjuM phemilI ane A amAruM vana (eka) phemilI. jo vana phemilI che to AmAM bIjI bhAMjagaDa nA hoya, vana eTale vana. temAM be nA hoya. A to vAIphe che te kaMI bhUla karI hoya, to tarata kakaLATa !! AvuM vana phemilIne A kakaLATa nA hovo joIe. ApaNe samajavuM ke ApaNI phemilI che A to. chokarAo mahIM phemilI kahevAya. phemilI eTale huM ja ! temAM bALaka vakhate kacAza kare, vAIpha kyAza kare, paNa bhaIe kacAza nA karavI joIe. tamane kema lAge che ? tamane jo A na banI zake evI vAta lAgatI hoya to huM AzIrvAda ApuM pachI tamArAthI thaI zakaze. ane mANasa badhuM karI zake ema che. tame kaoNlejamAM bhaNI bhaNIne ahIMyAM AgaLa amerikA sudhI AvyA cho te kaMI jevuM tevuM kArya karyuM che ? AmAM prArabdha yArI ApI che. evuM AmAMya paNa prArabdha yArI Apaze. jo tame nakkI karazo to prArabdha yArI Apaze. nakkI nA karo tyAre yArI kema karIne Ape ? ok ok ok (2) gharamAM kleza je gharamAM kleza te kakaLATa tyAM ta rahe prabhuto vasavATa ! koI dahADo gharamAM kleza thAya che ? tamane kema lAge che, gharamAM kleza thAya te game ? kakaLATa. praznakartA : kakaLATa vagara to cAle nahIM duniyA. dAdAzrI : to pachI bhagavAna to rahe ja nahIM tyAM AgaLa. jyAM kleza che tyAM bhagavAna nA rahe. praznakartA : e to paNa koI koIka vAra to thavuM joIe ne evuM, dAdAzrI : nA, e kakaLATa hovo ja nA joIe. kakaLATa kema hoya mANasane tyAM ? kakaLATa zene mATe hoya ? ane kleza hoya to phAve ? tamane keTalA mahinA phAve, kleza hoya to ? praznakartA : bilakula nahIM. dAdAzrI : mahinoya nA phAve, nahIM ? khAvAnuM sAruM sAruM, sonAnI jaNaso paheravAnI ane pAcho kakaLATa karavAno. eTale jIvana jIvatA AvaDatuM nathI, teno A kakaLATa che. jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA jANatA nathI. eno A kakaLATa che. ApaNe to kaLA zemAM

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(2) gharamAM kleza 11 12 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra jANIe chIe ke zI rIte DaoNlara maLe. emAM ja vicAra vicAra karIe, paNa jIvana jIvavAmAM vicAra nathI karyo. nA vicAravuM joIe ? praznakartA : vicAravuM joIe. paNa badhAnI rIta judI judI hoya che. dAdAzrI : nA, e badhAnI rIta judI judI nA hoya, eka ja jAtanI. Dolara, DaoNlara. ane jyAre hAthamAM Ave tyAre hajAra Dolara tyAM AgaLa sToramAM jaIne ApI Ave pAcho. pachI ghera lAvIne vasAve. pachI ahIM zuM ene kaMIe vasAvyuM ane jojo karavAnuM hoya ? pAchuM jUnuM thaI jAya, pAchuM bIjuM laI Ave. Akho dahADo gaDabhAMja, gaDabhAMja, du:kha, du:kha ne du:kha trAsa, trAsa ne trAsa. alyA baLyuM, A kema jIvana jIvAya te ! manuSyapaNuM zobhe te AvuM? kleza nA thavo joIe, kaMkAsa nA thavo joIe. kazuM thavuM nA joIe. praznakartA : paNa kleza kone kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : oho.... Ama gharanA joDe, bahAravALA joDe, vAIpha joDe TakarAya e kleza kahevAya. mana TakarAya ane pachI thoDo vakhata cheTo rahe enuM nAma phleza. be-traNa kalAka TakarAya ne tarata bhego thAya to vAMdho nahIM. paNa TakarAya ne cheTo rahe eTale kleza kahevAya. bAra kalAka cheTo rahe to AkhI rAta klezamAM jAya. karAyelo nA hoya ? praznakartA: manano kleza potAno hoya, to bahAra kyAM jovA javAnuM ? dAdAzrI : e potAno to hoya ja darekane, paNa bahAranAM TakarAyane, TakarAyA vagara rahe nahIMne ! TakarAyeluM joyeluM nahIM ? praznakartA: evuM ko'ka vAra to thAyane. dAdAzrI : Ama zokha kharo ? praznakartA : zokha nahIM. zokha to koIne nA hoyane ! dAdAzrI : are, keTalAkane to zokha hoya che. enA vagara cAle nahIM emane. emane zokha hoya. praznakartA: e to thaI jAya to pANI reDI daIe pAchA. dAdAzrI : hA, pANI reDI done. bapore dhaNIne khoTuM lAgyuM hoya, to sAMje pharsTa klAsa rasoI karI jamADe eTale khuza thaI jAya. have eka jaNa kahe che, mAre roja gharamAM kakaLATa thaI jAya. te mAro kakaLATa miTAvI Apo. meM kahyuM, tAro kakaLATa zI rIte thAya ne zemAM thato haze e mane zuM khabara paDe ! zI rIte tane maTADI ApuM ! tyAre kahe, "roja sAmasAmI kakaLATa thayA kare. vadhI jAya che. pachI matabheda bahu paDI jAya che.' gharamAM kleza nA rahevo joIe. gharamAM kleza rahene tyAM sudhI saMsAra ja kAmano nahIM. mukhya vastu ja e che. kleza jAya to dharmamAM AgaLa vadhAya ane AtmajJAna to haju badhI bahu AgaLa lAMbI vAta rahI. kleza pahelAM javo ja joIe. koIne ghera kleza gayelo nahIM. sAdhu-saMnyAsIo badhAya ne. moTAmAM moTI vastu kleza javo te. naryuM klezamAM ja jIve che bicArAM moDhAM upara divela copaDI pharatA hoya evuM lAge pachI. praznakartA : phleza vagaranuM jIvana kevI rIte thAya ? dAdAzrI : e to ame samaja pADIe, amArI pAse satsaMgamAM beso, to tamane kleza jato rahe evuM badhuM samaja pADIe. A aMdhAdhUMdhIthI kleza Ubho thayo che. aNasamajaNathI A badhAM duHkho che bAkI duHkho bilakuleya nathI amerikAmAM AvyA pachI, toya duHkho badhA invAiTa karelAM che. tamAre koI dahADo matabheda thAya che ? praznakartA : matabheda to, gharamAM rahevAnA. darekanA vicAro sarakhA na hoyane ! dAdAzrI : hA, evA matabhedano vAMdho nathI. paNa matabhedamAMthI kleza UbhA thAya teno vAMdho che. eTale ApaNe matabhedanuM nAma laIe chIe ne, evo matabheda to hoya, svabhAvika rIte. A kaheze, 'khoTuM thayuM.' tyAre

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pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (2) gharamAM kleza 13 pelA kaheze, "nA, nathI khoTuM !" paNa emAMthI kleza na thavo joIe. game te raste klezane hAMkI melajo bahAra, matabhedane pachI miTAvI devo. matabheda thaI gayo hoya vakhate, to pachI ApaNe evo kaMIka rasto karIne pAcho ko'ka vakhate maTADI devo jhaTa. praznakartA : e kaI rIte jarA kaho. jarA samajAvo ne vadhAre klIyara ke matabheda paDyo kyAre kahevAya ? pachI kaI rIte ApaNe ene TALI devo ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe jenI joDe rahIe tenI prakRti nA oLakhavI joIe ? praznakartA: e nathI oLakhAtI. dAdAzrI : are, nA zuM oLakhAya ! ApaNe prayatna karIe to nA oLakhAya ? praznakartA : dasa varSa thayAM paNa haju nathI oLakhAI. dAdAzrI : ema ! A jJAna lIdhA pachI oLakhavA mATe prayatna karajo. oLakhAze. e to jema jema dRSTi vadhaze tema oLakhAze. puruSa zarU kare kleza ghare, strI pakaDI rAkhI kaMkAsa kare ! gharamAM matabheda rahe nahIM eTaluM karI do. khAva, pIo, majA karo paNa kleza nA hovo joIe, kaMkAsa nA hovo joIe. tame kaMkAsa joyelo ? praznakartA: haM, A kaMkAsanI vAta karI te puruSamAM vadhAre che ke strImAM vadhAre che ? dAdAzrI : e to strImAM vadhAre hoya, kaMkAsa. praznakartA H enuM kAraNa zuM ? dAdAzrI : evuM chene, ko'ka phero bhAMjagaDa thaI jAya tyAre kleza thaI jAya. kleza thavo eTale zuM, jhaTa saLagIne olavAI javuM. te A puruSa ne strI vacce kleza thaI gayo. pachI puruSa che te choDI de toya pelI ene jhaTa choDe nahIM e pAchuM kaMkAsamAM thaI gayuM. e puruSo choDI de paNa A strIo choDe nahIM pAchI. ane klezano karI de kaMkAsa. ane te moTuM caDhAvIne pharyA kare. jANe ApaNe ene traNa dA'DA bhUkhI rAkhI hoya evuM karyA kare. praznakartA : eTale ja dAdA ame chene cekabuka ja ApIe ke e lokone je joIe te pote ja laI le. dAdAzrI : ethI kaMI dA'Do vaLe nahIM. e ema dA'Do vaLato haze ? ApaNe A pAMca hajAra rUpiyAno ghoDo hoya, paNa kaMI lagAma choDI devAthI sAruM thAya ? ane tame to lagAma choDI devA jevI vAta karo cho. lagAma choDI devAthI phAyado thAya, ghoDo hoya ene ? praznakartA : nA, phAyado na thAya. dAdAzrI : haM, enI lagAma to ApaNe hAthamAM rAkhavI ane enA hoTha na kheMcAya evI lagAma ApaNe pakaDI rAkhavI, ghoDAnI. praznakartA : cekabuka paNa na ApavI have ? dAdAzrI : have to eya kamAI lAve che pAchAM joDejoDene. evuM nA ApavI, ApaNAthI kema kahevAya che ! praznakartA : to pachI A kaMkAsa dUra karavA mATe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : kaMkAsa to, ApaNe kleza nA karavo eTale kaMkAsa nahIM thAya. mULa saLagAvIe chIe ApaNe ja kleza karIne, Aja khAvAnuM bhAvatuM nathI, Aja moDhuM bagaDI gayuM mAruM to, Ama tema karIne kleza Ubho karo ane pachI e kaMkAsa kare. strIne sukha ApatAM sukha maLe, ghara maMdira, jo kadi na jhaghaDe ! praznakartA : mukhya vastu e ke gharamAM zAMti rahevI joIe.

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(2) gharamAM kleza 15 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI zAMti kevI rIte rahe paNa ? zAMti to choDInuM (chokarInuM) nAma pADIe toya zAMti nA rahe. enA mATe to dharma samajavo joIe. gharamAM mANaso badhAne kahevuM joIe ke 'bhaI, ApaNe badhA gharanAM mANaso koI koInAM veravI nathI, koI koIno jhaghaDo nathI. ApaNe matabheda karavAnI kaMI jarUra nathI. vaheMcI vaheMcIne zAMtipUrvaka khaI lo. AnaMda karo, majhA karo. evI rIte ApaNe vicArIne badhuM karavuM joIe. gharanA mANaso joDe kakaLATa kyAreya nA karavo joIe. eja oraDImAM paDI rahevAnuM tyAM kakaLATa zA kAmano ? koIne pajavIne pote sukhI thAya e kyAreya nA bane, ne ApaNe to sukha ApIne sukha levuM che. ApaNe gharamAM sukha ApIe to ja sukha maLe ne cA-pANIya barobara banAvIne Ape, nahIM to paNa bagADIne Ape. A to keTalI ciMtA-ukaLATa ! kazoya matabheda jato nathI, toya manamAM mAne ke meM keTalo dharma karyo ! alyA, ghera matabheda TaLyo ? ochoya thayo che ? ciMtA ochI thaI ? kaMI zAMti AvI ? tyAre kahe, "nA, paNa meM dharma to ryo ja ne ?" alyA zAne dharma kahe che tuM ? dharma to mahIM zAMti Ape, Adhi-vyAdhi-upAdhi nA thAya, enuM nAma dharma ! svabhAva bhaNI javuM enuM nAma dharma kahevAya. A to kleza pariNAma vadhAre ne vadhAre thayA kare che. vAIphathI tUTI Dizo kAcatI, 'DiyA'nI kiMmata koDI pAMcatI ! dAdAzrI : nA paNa, AnaMda thAya te ghaDIe ke duHkha thAya ? praznakartA : sApha karavuM paDe enuM duHkha to thAya. dAdAzrI : to duHkha thAya eTale kazuM babaDyA vagara raho nahIMne, A reDiyo vagADyA vagara rahe ja nahIM. duHkha thayuM ke reDiyo bole, eTale pelIne duHkha thAya pachI. tyAra pachI pelI zuM kahe, haM.. tamArA hAthe kaMI phUTavAnuM thatuM nahIM hoya pachI. A samajavAnI vAta che ke Dizo paDI jAya chene ? ene ApaNe kahIe ke tuM phoDI nAkha to nA phoDe. phoDe kharI ? e koNa phoDatuM haze ? A varlDamAM koI mANasa eka paNa Diza phoDI zakavAnI zakti dharAvato nathI. A to badho hisAba cUkavAya che. e tUTI jAya, eTale ApaNe kahevuM ke vAgyuM nathIne tane zuM kahevAnuM ? kAca vAgyA nathIne, evuM kahevAnuM? praznakartA : tuM suI jA, huM sApha karI ApIza. dAdAzrI : hA, A to kaDhI DhaLI gaI, sANasI chaTakI ane jo ovara Tarna thaI jAya, to kaheze, 'tArAmAM akkala nathI'. A akkalano kothaLo moTo, vecavA jaIe to cAra AnA Ave nahIM ! AvuM nA kahevAya. e strI che te koI dahADo ApaNe jamavA AvIe to e kaDhI DhoLatI haze ? e kaMI kapa-rakAbIo bhAMgI nAkhe ? nokarane hau nA vaDhAya. A badhuM ajJAnatA che, ghora ajJAnatA ! kazuM bhAna ja nathI mANasa tarIke jIvavAnuM, kakaLATa karavA jevuM che ja nahIM A jagata, ane je kakaLATa che te aNasamajaNa ne ajJAnatAne laIne che. A samajavA jevI vAta che. ame kahIe che , huM ! praznakartA: hA, ApaNe jANIe chIe ke kakaLATa nA karavo joIe. vAIphanA hAthe che te paMdara-vIsa AvaDI AvaDI kAcanI Dizo hatI te ane glAsa-vera hatAM te paDI gayAM. te vakhate tamane kazI asara thAya kharI ? praznakartA : mane nA thAya. dAdAzrI : zuM thAya ! AnaMda thAya ? praznakartA : tUTI jAya to bIjAM levAya. dAdAzrI : ema mAno ke eka kabATamAM badhuM glAsavera mUkyuM che ane ekadama evuM kaMIka vAgyuM ane badhuM paDyuM. have tyAM kakaLATa karI melIe, te hanDeDa parasenTa roMga che, kakaLATa karanAro gunegAra che tyAM AgaLa. ene cha mahinAnI jela ApavI joIe. UlaTuM eNe ema kahevuM joIe ke tane

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pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (2) gharamAM kleza kAca vAgyo nathI ne ? evuM pUchavuM joIe, tene badale ApaNe enI joDe pAchuM toDI pADIe !ne vAsaNa to bIjA laI AvIzuM, jANI joIne bhAMge kharI e ? are, koke bhAMgyuM hoya to AvaDI AvaDI de ! to e bhAMge kharI ? ApaNA karatAM vadhAre kALajI ene hoya, puruSa to moTA mananA hoya. have tyAM ApaNe bhUla nahIM karatA ? praznakartA : karIe chIe. dAdAzrI : eTale A Akho dahADo je kakaLATa chene, te khoTo vikhavAda che, kaMI artha vagarano che, samajaNa vagarano che. kAraNa ke banI gayuM emAM koI upAya ja nathI ane jeno upAya nA hoya tene mATe kakaLATa kare e gunegAra kahevAya che. e kAca bhAMgI gayA pharI pAchA Ave, ApaNe kakaLATa karIe to ? ghara che te phemilI membara thaI jAya to bahu sAruM kahevAya. gharamAM kakaLATa nA thavo joIe. ApaNA karatAM strI vadhAre sArI rIte gharane sAcavavA phare che UlaTI. praznakartA : sAcI vAta che. pheMka sopho jo karAve jhaghaDo, bairI nA sAcavI to tuM laMgaDo ! dAdAzrI : jo sophAne lIdhe jhaghaDo thato hoya to sophAne nAkhI do bahAra. e sopho to baso ke traNaso rUpiyAno hoya, mUA, eno jhaghaDo thato haze ? jeNe phADyo tenI para dveSa Ave. alyA, mUA, nAkhI Ava. je vastu gharamAM vaDhavADa lAvane, e vastu bahAra nAkhI Ava. je gharamAM kleza nahIM, tyAM bhagavAna hAjara hoya. A phoTAmAM nathI bhagavAna, paNa jyAM kleza nathI tyAM hAjara hoya. tyAre A sophA hAru kleza karavo ApaNe have ? nAkhI Avo bahAra. A Dizo bhAMgI nAkhe che ? te meM vAta karI, te enI buddhi zuM kahe che, nA kahe che. manAya nahIM ? praznakartA : manAya ne ! dAdAzrI : jeTaluM manAya eTalI zraddhA bese. eTaluM e phaLa Ape, helpa kare, zraddhA nA bese te helpa nA kare. eTale samajIne cAlo to ApaNuM jIvana sukhI thAya ane enuM eya sukhI thAya. are ! kevAM kevAM bhajiyAM ne jalebI nahIM karI ApatAM ? praznakartA : karI Ape che. dAdAzrI : hA, to pachI ? eno upakAra nA mAnIe, kAraNa ke e pArTanara che, emAM eno upakAra zo ? emAM ApaNe paisA lAvIe evuM ApaNane e A karI Ape, AmAM beu pArTanarazIpa cAle che. chokarAMya pArTanarazIpamAM, kaMI enI ekalInAM ochAM che ? suvAvaDa eNe karI che mATe enI ekalInAM che ? ApaNA beunAM hoya chokarAMo. bannenAM ke ekalInAM ? praznakartA : beunAM. dAdAzrI : haM. suvAvaDa kaMI puruSa karavAnA hatA ? eTale samajavA jevuM che A jagata ! keTalIka bAbatamAM samajavA jevuM che. ane te jJAnI puruSa samajaNa pADe, emane kazuM levAdevA nA hoya, eTale e samajaNa pADe ke A bhaI ApaNA hitanuM, to ghera kakaLATa ocho thAya, toDaphoDa ochI thAya. jo koI upAye thAya to zAMti, sAkSI ke jJAtA rahI, kADha bhrAMti ! bhAna ja nathI A to, khAya che, pIve che, teya bhAna nathI. A bhAna vadhAravAnI jarUra che ApaNe. A to bhAna ahaMkAramAM ja badhuM pesI gayuM che. huM Ama chuM ne tema chuM evuM nahIM ApaNe, mAre badhuM jANavAnuM bahu bAkI che evuM samajAvuM joIe. jJAnane mATe khulluM rAkhavuM joIe. ghaDA upara DhAMkaNuM DhAMkI daIe pachI koNa pANI reDe ? tamane gamI vAta ? kaI vAta gamI tamane, kaho ?

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(2) gharamAM kleza 19 20 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA ghaDA para DhAMkaNuM na DhAMkavuM joIe ema. e vAta gamI. dAdAzrI : benoe paNa kleza nA karavo joIe ne puruSaya, beu eka dahADo saMpI levuM joIe, ke A dAdAjI kahe che e ApaNe konTrAkTa navesarathI karI lo. kyAMya bhAMjagaDa nahIM. e akaLAya to tamAre zAMta thaI javAnuM ne besI rahevAnuM. ane pachI akaLAmaNa ThaMDI thavA Ave te ghaDIe cA laIne AvavAnuM. praznakartA : paNa dAdA konTekTa karyo hoya ne besI rahevuM hoya ne bese nahIM tenuM zuM ? zAMta nA rahevAya ne jhaghaDI paDAya to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : jhaghaDI paDAya toya ApaNe emane kahevuM ke A be pUtaLAM jhaghaDe che. A tamane jJAna hoya eTale be pUtaLAM jhaghaDe che e juo ApaNe, enI philama joI lo. ApaNe Arya bhAratIya ratata, gharamAM zobhe, atADI vartata ? gharamAM kleza nA thavo joIe. koInAM gharamAM kleza thato haze ? praznakartA : phleza to thAya ja ne ? dAdAzrI : e to ApaNA Arya lokonA ghare to thAya nahIM. anAryane tyAM thAya. ApaNe to Arya loko. ApaNe tyAM kleza kyAMthI thAya ? praznakartA : paNa e hakIkata che ne kleza thAya che te. dAdAzrI : nA thavo joIe. praznakartA: nA thavo joIe e badhI vAta barAbara, paNa thAya che enuM zuM? dAdAzrI : eTalI aNasamajaNa kADhI nAkhazo to nIkaLI jAya evo che kleza. jagata ApharIna thAya evuM jIvana jIvAya ApaNuM ! ApaNe InDiyAnA, Arya prajAnA putro, enuM anADI vartana dekhAya to kevuM kharAba dekhAya ? A phorenavALAnuM anArya vartana jovAmAM Ave che paNa anADI nahIM. ApaNe to Arya prajA, paNa atyAre anADI ja thaI gaI. anADI zabda sAMbhaLelo che ? "enI vAta javA done, che anADI jevo' kahe che. ane vAIpha joDe to kakaLATa thAya nahIM. jenI joDe kAyamanuM rahevAnuM, tyAM kakaLATa kare beu, to banne sukhI thaI jAyane, pachI ? praznakartA : nA thAya. duHkhI thAya. dAdAzrI : banneya ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ane A to eka jaNa jo kakaLATa kare to e ekalo ja duHkhI. AmAM sAMbhaLanArane duHkha thayuM ke nA thayuM, duHkha thayuM te potAnI aNasamajaNa che. praznakartA: kleza na karavo hoya toya thAya to Ane koNa pahoMcI vaLe ? dAdAzrI : sonuM pahoMcI vaLe. sonuM pahoMcI nA vaLe ? sonuM paherAve eTale ThaMDA thaI jAya. joDe rahevAnuM ane pAcho kleza vagara rahevuM enuM nAma jIvana kahevAya. kleza nA thavo joIe. koIne duHkha nA thavuM joIe gharamAM. roja dhaNIne pUchavuM ke tamAre kazuM duHkha thatuM hoya to mane kaho. evI rIte taneya pUche e. praznakartA : huM to roja pUchuM chuM. dAdAzrI : tame zuM pUcho, kaMI du:kha thatuM hoya to kaho, ema ? praznakartA: kahe ja nahIM ne. paDavA nA daIe ne evuM duHkha. dAdAzrI : e to dhaNI sArA hoyane to duHkha nA de, tyAre chokarAM duHkha detAM hoya. potAnuM peTa pAke, evAM duHkha de ke kharekhara de.

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(2) gharamAM kleza 22 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kakaLATiyo mAla ja kacaro, saMDacAto tA, paiyAto di' saMbhAro ! jyAM kakaLATa che, kleza che, tyAM AgaLa e ghara sAruM nA lAge. ane kakaLATa karavAnuM kAraNa gharamAM hotuM ja nathI, ApaNA bhAratIyone to hotuM ja nathI. paNa A aNasamaju mANasa zuM kare ? meDanesa (gAMDapaNa)ne laIne kakaLATa ja karyA kare. praznakartA : jema ke amuka mANasono svabhAva ja evo hoya kakaLATa karavAno, to ? - dAdAzrI : eTale ja kahuM chuM ke du:kha nathI paNa duHkha UbhAM kare che. invAiTa (AmaMtrita kare che. koIne duHkha ja nathI koI jAtanuM. khAvApIvAnuM badhuMya che, kapaDAM-lattAM che, rahevAnuM phrI (maphata) che, badhuM sAdhana che, paNa duHkha UbhAM kare che. bahu thoDA TakA pAMsaro mAla che. bAkI rabIza maTIriyala (kacaro mAla) che. badhA, rabIza chatAM vicArazIla che. DahApaNavALo che, buddhi che te vyabhicAriNI buddhi che, thoDIka buddhi Devalapa (vikAsa) thayelI che te avyabhicAriNI thaI zake ema che. sArA TacamAM Ave to pheraphAra thaI jAya. saMskAranI jarUra che. sAva jaDa nathI A. khoTI khoTI paNa kharAba paNa buddhi UbhI thaI. pahelAM to kharAbeya nahotI. kharAba thaI hoyane to ene saMskArI karI zakAya. buddhi Devalapa thayelI hoyane tethI ! kRSNa bhagavAne kahyuM che be prakAranI buddhi, avyabhicAriNI ane vyabhicAriNI. vyabhicAriNI eTale du:kha ja Ape. ane avyabhicAriNI buddhi sukha ja Ape, duHkhamAMthI sukha khoLI kADhe. ane A to bAsamatInA cokhAmAM kAMkarA nAMkhIne khAya pachI. ahIM amerikAnuM khAvAnuM keTaluM sarasa ne cokhkhA ghI maLe, dahIM maLe, kevo sarasa khorAka. jiMdagI saraLa che. chatAMya jIvana jIvatAM nA AvaDe eTale mAra khaIe pachI. ApaNane hitakArI zuM che eTalo to vicAra karavo joIe ne ? paiNyA te dahADAno AnaMda saMbhArIe to hitakArI ke rAMDyA te dahADAno zoka saMbhArIe to hitakArI ? ApaNe paiNyA te dahADAno AnaMda saMbhArIe to e ApaNane hitakArI che. rAMDyA tenA zokane zuM karavAnuM che ? be jaNa paiNavA bese che tyAM ja be jaNamAMthI eka jaNe rAMDavAnuM to che ja. A paidhyAno sodo ja evo karyo che ane emAM kakaLATa zo pachI ? jyAM sodo ja evo hoya tyAM kakaLATa hotA haze ? bemAMthI eke nahIM rAMDavAnuM ? paiNatI vakhate Avyo vicAra, bemAMthI ko' saMDaze che tirdhAra ! amAre to paiNatI vakhate ja raMDApAno vicAra Avelone ! te paiNatI vakhate navo sApho bAMdhelo. ame kSatriyaputra kahevAIene, te dahADe pheMTo paheratA hatA ane paheraNa paherIne 15-16 varSano chokaro eya rUpALA baMba jevA dekhAya. ane kSatriyaputro eTale cogaradama bharelA hoya. ane kAMDuM to joradAra hoya. AvuM kAMDuM nA hoya. te dahADe to bahu joradAra kAMDuM, te A to badhuM sukAI gayuM, jANe dUdhiyuM sukAI jAyane. te 15 varSe paiNavA beThelo ane dhAmadhUmathI paiNelo. 1923nI sAlamAM paNelo. te dahADe bahu maMdI, jabaradasta, toya dhAmadhUmathI cAra ghoDAnI pheTIna hatI. ane pheTInane lAvIe ne badhuM vagADe. ane pelA dIvA hatA. cUno ne badhuM nAMkhIne saLagAve. pachI paiNavA beTho te mAhyarAMmAM beTho eTale pachI mAhyarAmAM hIrAbAne padharAvI gayA. emanA mAmA kanyAne padharAvI jAya tyAre e 13 varSanAM ane huM 15 varSano. te pheMTA upara moTo e mUkelo phUlono, peluM zuM kahe che ene ? khaM5. e upara mukelone, te enA bhArathI pheMTo pelo suMvALo eTale khasI gayo. te ahIM AMkha upara AvI gayo. eTale hIrAbA dekhAyA nahIM. huM jANuM ke vahune besADIne jaze. paNa peluM dekhAyuM nahIM, eTale meM khaseDI khaseDIne joyuM. tyAre mahIMthI vicAra Avyo, ke are che to rUpALAM. ane meM pahelethI joyelAM. mArI sahamatI phAdhara-madhara samajI gayelAM, te eka phero meM emane joyelAM. eTale pachI A loko vAta karene, eTale manamAM hA, nA kazuM bole nahIM. eTale pelA samajI jAya ke chokaro samaje che A. eTale emano mAleya vecAyo. emane traNa hajAra rUpiyA AvavAnA thayA. ane maneya vAMdho nA Avyo !

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(2) gharamAM kleza 23 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra varte sAvadhAna', te jevo samaya Ave, evuM sAvadha rahevAnI jarUra. to ja saMsAramAM paiNAya. e jo uchaLI gaI hoya ane ApaNe uchaLIe to asAvadhapaNuM kahevAya. e uchaLe tyAre ApaNe TADhe pADI devAnuM. sAvadha rahevAnI jarUra nahIM ? te ame sAvadha rahelA. phATa-bATa paDavA nA daIe. phATa paDavAnI thaI ke velDiMga seTa cAlu pAchuM. paNa lokone to dALamAM mIThuM vadhAre paDyuM, te badhA upara ro-kakaLATa, ema nahIM ke ApaNe eDajasTa thaIe. tyAre mukhya vAta e ja ke bhaI Aja dALamAM mIThuM vadhAre che, to ApaNe samaya Avyo eTale sAvadha thaI javAnuM ane jarA ochI khAvAnI paNa bUmAbUma nahIM karavAnI ne samaya varte sAvadhAna thavAnuM eTalA sAruM kahe che, paNa samaya pramANe vartatA ja nathIne. bolI UThe tarata. alyA mUA, nAnA chokarAneya khabara paDaze, khArI che te. nA khabara paDe ? te A pahelo bolI jAya ! pachI pelo pheMTo khasI gayA pachI mahIM vicAra Avyo ke A paiNavA to mAMDyuM, che to sArAM, maMDAyuM kharuM, paNa have bemAMthI eka to rAMDazene ? praznakartA : eTalI uMmare tamane evA vicAra AvelA ? dAdAzrI : hA, nA Ave baLyuM A? eka to bhAMgane paiDuM, baLyuM? maMDAyuM e raMDAyA vagara rahe nahIM. praznakartA: paNa paiNatI vakhate to paNa caDyuM hoya, keTalo badho moha hoya. emAM Avo vairAgya vicAra kyAMthI hoya ? dAdAzrI : paNa te vakhate vicAra Avyo ke A maMDAyuM ne pachI raMDApo to Avaze baLyo. bemAMthI ekane to raMDApo Avaze. kAM to emane Avaze kAM to mane Avaze. praznakartA : eTale pachI lagnano AnaMda jato rahyo e vicArathI ? dAdAzrI : AnaMda to hato ja nahIM, ahaMkArano ja AnaMda hato. huM kaMIka chuM, teno AnaMda hato. lokone mohano AnaMda hoya. amArAM sAsa to jo jo ja karyA kare. 15 varSe mane UMcakI lIdhelo e baIe. keDamAM ghAlelA. sAsune vahAlA lAgyA. AvA jamAI maLe nahIM. goLa goLa moTuM lADavA jevuM che, evuM hau bolelA. eTale have e enA mohamAM ne ApaNe ahaMkAranA. paNa A paiDuM bhAMgI javAnuM, AmAM raMDApo AvavAno ja. pachI zuM thAya ApaNane ? 'samaya varte sAvadhAta' sUtra, kleza same sAvadha te Aryaputra ! badhAnI hAjarImAM, sUryanArAyaNanI sAkSIe, goranI sAkSIe paiNyo tyAre gore sodA karyA ke "samaya varte sAvadhAna'. te tane sAvadha thatAMya nathI AvaDatuM ? samaya pramANe sAvadha thavuM joIe. gora bole che, 'samaya varte sAvadhAna' te gora samaje, paraNanAro zuM samaje ? sAvadhAnano artha zuM ? to kahe bIbI ugra thaI hoya tyAre tuM ThaMDo thaI jaje, sAvadha thaje. 'samaya klezanuM mULa kaoNjha ajJAnatA, pariNAme tyAM barakata khotA ! praznakartA : phleza thavAnuM mULa kAraNa zuM ? dAdAzrI : bhayaMkara ajJAnatA ! ene saMsAramAM jIvatAM nathI AvaDatuM. dIkarAno bApa thatAM nathI AvaDatuM, vahuno dhaNI thatAM nathI AvaDatuM. jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA ja AvaDatI nathI ! A to chate sukhe sukha bhogavI zakatAM nathI. praznakartA: paNa kaMkAsa Ubho thavAnuM kAraNa svabhAva nA maLe tethI? dAdAzrI : ajJAnatA che tethI. saMsAra tenuM nAma te koI koInA svabhAva maLe ja nahIM ! A 'jJAna' maLe to tene eka ja rasto che, 'eDajasTa evarIvhera !'.. jyAM kleza hoya tyAM bhagavAnano vAsa rahe nahIM. eTale ApaNe bhagavAnane kahIe, 'sAheba tame maMdiramAM rahejo, mAre ghera Avazo nahIM ! ame maMdira baMdhAvIzuM, paNa ghera Avazo nahIM !!" jyAM kleza na hoya tyAM

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(2) gharamAM kleza bhagavAnano vAsa nakkI che, enI tamane huM 'geranTI' ApuM chuM. kleza thayo ke bhagavAna jatA rahe. ane bhagavAna jAya eTale loka ApaNe zuM kaheze, dhaMdhAmAM kaMI barakata nathI AvatI. alyA, bhagavAna gayA mATe barakata nathI AvatI. bhagavAna jo hoyane tyAM sudhI dhaMdhAmAM barakata ne badhuM Ave. tamane game che kakaLATa ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : toya thaI jAya che ne ? praznakartA : ko'ka vAra. dAdAzrI : to e to divALIya ko'ka dA'Do ja Ave ne, kaMI roja Ave che e ? 25 praznakartA : pachI paMdara miniTamAM ThaMDuM paDI jAya, kakaLATa besI jAya. dAdAzrI : ApaNAmAMthI kleza kADhI nAkho. jene tyAM gharamAM kleza tyAM mANasapaNuM jatuM rahe pachI. te Ama ghaNA puNyathI mANasapaNuM Ave, teya hindustAnanuM mANasapaNuM ane te pAchA ahIM (amerikAmAM) tamane, e tyAMnA loko hindustAnamAM to cokhkhuM ghI khoLe che toya jaDatuM nathI ane tamane roja cokhkhuM ja maLe che, meluM khoLo toya jaDe nahIM, keTalA puNyazALI cho ! te puNya paNa, khoTuM durupayoga thAya pachI to. ApaNA gharamAM klezarahita jIvana jIvavuM joIe, eTalI to ApaNane AvaData AvaDavI joIe. bIjuM kaMI nahIM AvaDe to tene ApaNe samajaNa pADavI ke, 'kleza thaze to ApaNA gharamAMthI bhagavAna jatA raheze. mATe tuM nakkI kara ke amAre kleza nathI karavo !' ne ApaNe nakkI karavuM ke kleza nathI karavo. nakkI karyA pachI kleza thaI jAya to jANavuM ke AmAM ApaNI sattA bahAra thayeluM che. eTale ApaNe e kleza karato hoya toya oDhIne sUI javuM. eya thoDI vAra pachI sUI jaze. ane ApaNe paNa sAmuM bolavA lAgIe to? pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kleza nA thAya evuM nakkI karo ne ! traNa dahADA mATe to nakkI karI juo ne ! akhataro karavAmAM zuM vAMdho che ? traNa divasanA upavAsa kare chene tabiyata mATe ? tema A paNa nakkI to karI juo. ApaNe gharamAM badhA bhegAM thaIne nakkI karo ke 'dAdA vAta karatA hatA, te vAta mane gamI che. to ApaNe kleza AjathI bhAMgIe !' pachI juo. praznakartA : hindustAnamAM badhA joInTa phemilImAM rahe che ane AjubAju, ADozI-pADozI, e badhAne lIdhe dhaNI-bairImAM kakaLATa ne kleza vadhAre hoya che. jyAre amerikAmAM to bIjuM koI nahIM, dhaNI-dhaNIyANI be ja. eTale ekabIjAnI joDe vadhAre eTecamenTa rahe che ane sArI rIte rahe che, hindustAna karatAM. dAdAzrI : ghaNuM sAruM kahevAyane ! e to vakhANa karavA jevI vAta che. evuM sArI rIte rahetA hoya to ghaNuM sAruM kahevAya. praznakartA : bhAratamAM evuM zA mATe ? dAdAzrI : bhAratamAM to tyAM kakaLATa ja rahevAno che. kakaLATa javA mATe amArI joDe bahu TacamAM rahevuM paDe tyAre amuka mANaso kakaLATathI rahita thayA paNa ekadama kakaLATa nahIM jAya bhAratano to. kAraNa ke sAsu hoya, vaDasAsu hoya, kAkIsAsu hoya, pAchA ko'ka dahADo AvIne kaheze, 'A vahu to bolAvatAMya nathI, huM to mAsIsAsu thAuM tArI... mAre tAruM zuM kAma che vagara kAmanuM. huM mArA dhaNIne paiNI chuM. tuM zuM karavA ahIM AgaLa. mAre mArA dhaNInuM kAma che ke tamAruM kAma che te ? paNa tyAM pesI jAya, mAsIsAsu ne phoIsAsu, badhA keTalI jAtanAM lapharAM ! mAtI patnI paisAto pAvara, bhIMta batI mANa premato 'zAvara'! praznakartA : ahIMyAM amerikAmAM bairAMo paNa nokarI karene eTale jarAka vadhAre pAvara AvI jAya strIone, eTale hasabanDa-vAIphane vadhAre kacakaca thAya.

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(2) gharamAM kleza dAdAzrI : pAvara Ave to sAruM UlaTuM, ApaNe to ema jANavuM ke ohoho ! pAvara vagaranA hatA te pAvara Avyo te sAruM thayuM ApaNe ! gADuM sAruM cAlene ? A gADAnA baLada DhIlA hoya to sAruM ke pAvaravALA ? praznakartA : paNa khoTo pAvara kare tyAre kharAba cAlene ? pAvara sAro karatA hoya to sAruM. 23 dAdAzrI : evuM chene, pAvarane mAnanAro nA hoya, to eno pAvara bhIMtamAM vAge. Ama ropha mAratI ne tema ropha mAratI paNa ApaNA peTamAM pANI nA hAle to eno pAvara badho bhIMtamAM vAge ne pachI ene vAge pAcho. praznakartA H tamAro kahevAno matalaba evo ke amAre sAMbhaLavAnuM nahIM bairAonuM, evuM. dAdAzrI : sAMbhaLo, badhuM sArI rIte sAMbhaLo, ApaNA hitanI vAta hoya to badhI sAMbhaLo ane pAvara jo athaDAto hoya, te ghaDIe mauna rahevAnuM. te ApaNe joI lo ke keTaluM keTaluM pIdhuM che. pIdhA pramANe pAvara vApare ne ? praznakartA : barAbara che. evI ja rIte jyAre puruSo khoTo pAvara karatA hoya tyAre ? dAdAzrI : tyAre ApaNe jarA dhyAna rAkhavuM. huM... Aje vaMThyuM che evuM manamAM kahevuM, kazuM moDhe nA kahevuM. praznakartA : huM... nahIM to vadhAre vaMThe. dAdAzrI : Aja vaMThyuM che, kahe che... AvuM nA hovuM joIe. kevuM suMdara... be mitro hoya te AvuM karatA haze ? to mitrAcArI rahe kharI, AvuM kare to ? mATe A be mitro ja kahevAya, strI-puruSa eTale e mitrAcArIthI ghara calAvavAnuM che. ane AvI dazA karI nAMkhI, ATalA hAru choDIo paiNAvatA haze loko ? grIna kArDavALAne ! AvuM karavA hAru ? to pachI A zobhe ApaNane ? tamane kema lAge che ? nA zobhe ApaNane ! saMskArI pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kone kahevAya ? gharamAM kleza hoya te saMskArI kahevAya ke kleza nA hoya te ? 28 praznakartA : kleza nA hoya te ! dAdAzrI : tyAra pachI AvuM ? ApaNe saMskArI. paiNavA jaIe to paiThaNa Ape loko. konA para paiThaNa Ape che ? enA hAru ApatA haze ke gharamAM vAIphane tame bAMdhIne mAravA hAru ApatA haze ? pahelAM to paiThaNo zenI ApatA'tA, ke A gharamAM to kakaLATa ja nahIM bilakula ! gharamAM koI kakaLATa nahIM, koIne duHkha nA Ape, e sthiti ApaNane hovI joIe ne ? A to pahelethI nAnapaNamAMthI chokarAne ucheratI vakhate loko evuM kahe, ceka maLyo. eTale A gAMDA cakkara thaI jAya. A tame jANo nahIM A badhuM ? A ceko joyelA nahIM ? praznakartA : e nA samajAyuM ke, e ceka eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : bIjA nAnA gAmavALA Avaze ne e paiThaNa badhI Apaze. bhale chokarAvALA pAse milakata nathI, bhale ochI milakata che, paNa khAnadAna kuLa che, kuLa sAruM che. ane sugaMdhIya kharI emAM, khoTuM to nA kahevAya. corI-borI nA kare, luccAIo, koIne phasave ke evuM tevuM A hoya nahIM. halakAM kAma nA kare. te enA paisA Ape che. ema ne ema Ape che ? e moDhuM jovAnA paisA Ape che ? nA A to khAnadAnI hoya enI ! khAnadAna eTale zuM ? ke be bAju ghasAya enuM nAma khAnadAna. be bAju ghasAya eTale zuM ? kharIdI karavA jAya to tyAM manamAM ema thAya ke zuM A ochuM Ape che ? paNa e bicAro kamAze ne ! ochuM laI Ave. ane pote, ko'ka levA Avyo hoya tene vadhAre Ape te vakhate. vadhAre thoDuM jAya to sAruM bicArAne ! eTale beu bAju ghasAya enuM nAma khAnadAna eTale A paiThaNa tenI Ape che. eTale A nAnapaNathI AvuM pANI pAya che A pATIdAro

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30 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (2) gharamAM kleza 29 chokarAone. tame sAMbhaLeluM nahIM evuM pANI ? loko 'eka' bole evuM sAMbhaLeluM nahIM ? praznakartA: sAMbhaLeluM ne ! dAdAzrI : haM. eTale peluM mastImAM kUdayA karatuM hoya. khoTuM pANI Ape che. yujhalesa pANI ! e to mAla vecyA barAbara che. e to A mAla vecyo tyAM AgaLa. e to pachI mArA manamAM ema thayuM ke A to vecAyA kahevAya ? game tevuM nukasAna karatAM, klezato losa, bamaNo bharatAM ! eTale badhA komana prazno pUchI lo, tamArA saMsAra vyavahAramAM cAlu prazno pUchI lejo. bIjuM, 'A' jJAna ApIza tyAre badhuM nIkaLI jaze, paNa komana pUchI lo, komananI bahu bhAMjagaDa nA thAya. gharamAM kleza Ubho thAya evo hoyane, toya ene kema karIne uDADI melavo, e pUchI lo ! praznakartA : phleza nA thAya tenA mATe zuM karavAnuM ? eno rasto zuM? dAdAzrI : zenA mATe kleza thAya che, e kaho mane, to huM tamane tarata je mATe thato hoya tenI davA batAvI dauM. praznakartA: paisA mATe thAya che, chokarAo mATe thAya, badhA mATe thAya. nAnI nAnI bAbatamAM thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : paisA bAbatamAM zuM thAya ? praznakartA : bacatA nathIne, vaparAI jAya che badhA. dAdAzrI : emAM dhaNIno zo guno ? praznakartA : kazo guno nahIM. emAMthI jhaghaDo thaI jAya, koI koI dAdAzrI : eTale kleza to karavo nahIM. baso DaoNlara khoI nAkhe toya kleza nA karavo. kAraNa ke klezanI kiMmata cAraso hoya. baso DaoNlara khovAI jAya che enA karatAM Dabala kiMmatano kleza thAya che ane cAraso DaoNlarano kleza karavo tenA karatAM baso DaoNlara gayA e gayA. pachI phleza nA karavo. pachI vadhavuM ghaTavuM e to prArabdhane AdhIna che. kakaLATa karavAthI paiso vadhe nahIM. e to puNya pAke to vAreya nA lAge, paisA vadhavAne. eTale je je bAbatomAM thAya te mane kahone ke paisAnI bAbatamAM thAya. to paisA vadhAre vaparAI jatA hoya to kacakaca nahIM karavI. kAraNa ke chevaTe vaparAI gayA e to gayA, paNa kleza karIene te pacAsa rUpiyA vadhAre vaparAyA tene badale so rUpiyAno kleza thaI jAya. eTale kleza to karavo ja nA joIe. gharamAM eka to kleza nA thavo joIe ane thato hoya to vALI levo joIe. jarA thAya evuM hoya, ApaNane lAge ke hamaNAM bhaDako thaze te pahelAM jarAka pANI nAkhIne TADhuM karI devuM. pahelAMnA jevuM klezavALuM jIvana jIvIe emAM zuM phAyado ? eno artha ja zuM ? klezavALuM jIvana nA hovuM joIene? zuM vaheMcIne laI javAnuM che ? gharamAM bheguM khAvuM, pIvuM ne kakaLATa zA kAmano ? ane ko'ka dhaNInuM kazuM bole to rIsa caDhe ke mArA dhaNIne AvuM bole che ane pote dhaNIne kahe tame AvA cho ne tevA cho, evuM badhuM nA hovuM joIe. dhaNIeya AvuM nA karavuM joIe. tamAro phleza hoyane, to chokarAMnAM jIvana para asara paDe. kumaLAM chokarAM, enI para asara thAya badhI. eTale kleza javo joIe. kleza jAya tyAre gharanAM chokarAMya sArA thAya. A to chokarAM badhAM bagaDI gayAM che ! je ghera ta kleza tene namaskAra, gAya jayAM dAdAtA asIma je' je kAra! AkhI jiMdagI beu kakaLATa karatAM hoya te beu narake jAya. praznakartA : bemAMthI eka jJAna pAmeluM hoya to ? dAdAzrI : e to cetI jAya. pelo bhamaraDo pachI narama paDI jAya. vAra,

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(2) gharamAM kleza 31 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra sAmuM, 'rIekzana' nA Avene, pachI narama paDI jAya. eTale enuMya kalyANa thAya. paNa beu kakaLATa ja mAMDatAM hoya to kalyANa kyAreya nA thAya. praznakartA: tethI kRpALudeve lakhyuMne je gharamAM eka divasa paNa kleza nA hoya ene amArA namaskAra. dAdAzrI : hA, namaskAra. praznakartA: jeNe jJAna nA lIdhuM hoya ene tyAM paNa kleza nA thato hoya, e zuM kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : ene deva jevuM kahevAya, paNa e zakya nathI A kALamAM ! kAraNa ke kleza chene, te cepI roganI peTha asara kare che. cepI roga hoyane, evI rIte asara kare che. ghera ghera pesI gayo che kleza ! praznakartA : jJAna na lIdhuM hoya, to ene tyAM je klezano abhAva hoya ane ahIMyAM jJAna lIdhA pachI je klezano abhAva thAya e bemAM phera zuM ? dAdAzrI : pelo to klezano je abhAva hatone, te ApaNe buddhipUrvaka karatAM hatAM ane jJAna pachI A sahajabhAve abhAva rahe, peluM kartApaNuM chUTI jAya. praznakartA : evuM bane nahIM ke kleza vagaranuM hoya ja nahIM koI dahADo ? dAdAzrI : have mAno ke ekAda hoya, toya e rtA hoya pote. goThavaNI karyA karatAM hoya ane AkhA gharamAM cAra mANasa sArAM hoya ne eka ja jo kAbarIyuM peThuM to enA godAgodathI badhAne kleza thaI jAya pachI. jyAM kleza nathI tyAM yathArtha jaina, yathArtha vaiSNava, yathArtha zaiva dharma che. jyAM dharmanI yathArthatA che tyAM kleza nA thAya. A gheraghera kleza thAya che, to e dharma kyAM gayA ? saMsAra calAvavA mATe je dharma joIe che ke zuM karavAthI kleza nA thAya, eTaluM ja jo AvaDI jAya toya dharma pAmyA gaNAya. klezarahita jIvana jIvavuM e ja dharma che. hindustAnamAM ahIM saMsAramAM ja potAnuM ghara svarga thaze to svarganI najIkanuM to thavuM joIene ? klezarahita thavuM joIe. tethI zAstrakAroe kahyuM che ke jyAM kiMcitmAtra kleza che tyAM dharma nathI. jelanI avasthA hoya tyAM 'Diprezana' nahIM ne mahelanI avasthA hoya tyAM 'elivezana' nahIM, evuM hovuM joIe. kleza vagaranuM jIvana thayuM eTale mokSanI najIka Avyo, te A bhavamAM sukhI thAya ja. mokSa darekane joIe che. kAraNa ke baMdhana koIne gamatuM nathI. paNa klezarahita thayo to jANavuM ke have najIkamAM ApaNuM sTezana che mokSanuM. ame to jJAna thayuM, vIsa varSathI to kleza nathI ja. paNa enAM vIsa varSa pahelAMya kleza na hato, pahelAMthI klezane to ame kADhelo ja koI paNa raste kleza karavA jevuM nathI A jagata. na rahe kleza te sAco dharma, klezita dharma bAMdhe kukarma ! AvA badhA rastA che ne UMdhA rastA paNa che, paNa hAIvenI vAta judI che. badhA rastA bIjA bahu hoya hAIve karatAM. hAIvenI aMdara to gharamAM bairI-chokarAM badhAM hoya, toya kleza nA thAya, tyAre jANavuM ke ApaNe hAIve upara chIe. nahIM to ADA phAMTe ! rastA badhA bahu che. enuM levala kaMIka hovuM joIene. ane tyAM AgaLa hAIvamAM rahevuM ApaNe. tamane bena khabara paDe ke nA paDe, kleza che ke nahIM te ? praznakartA : paDe. dAdAzrI : eTaluM ja joI levAnuM. ane kleza nA thAya to jANavuM ke ApaNe A sAcA mArga upara chIe, muktino dharma judo che ane saMsArano dharma judo che. saMsArano dharma sAco kharo. paNa enA gharamAM kleza nA rahe. ane jo kleza che ne pachI kahe che ke amAro dharma sAco to e matArthIo che. matanuM ja rakSaNa kare che. potAnA AtmAnuM rakSaNa karatA nathI. eTale kleza gharamAM nA rahe tyAre jANavuM ke ApaNe kaMIka dharma pAmyA. A

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(2) gharamAM kleza to nakAmuM manamAM mAthe bojo laIne pharyA kare che. huM kaMIka karuM chuM. huM phalANA dharmano chuM, vaLI phalANA saMpradAyano chuM. alyA mUA, gharamAM to kleza bahu che. tamArAM moDhAM divela pIdhelAM jevAM dekhAya che. jyAM dharma hoya tyAM moDhAM upara divela hoya ? peluM mahIM kaiDyA kare che. te A dharma samajyA nathI eTale ! 33 kleza ne dharma be sAthe cAlatA hoya to kleza ocho thato javo joIe. jo ocho thato jAya to jANavuM ke dharmanI asara thAya che. paNa ocho ja nA thato hoya to zuM ? ane jyAM kleza thAya tyAM adharma ja che. kampalITa adharma, dharmanA nAme te adharma ja karI rahyA che. toya AvI duniyA cAle chene ! evuM che ne ke A duniyAmAM kleza ane kaMkAsa ene laIne A duniyA UbhI rahI che. e kleza ne kaMkAsa baMdha thaI jAya ApaNA gharamAM to pachI duniyAno kaMI niveDo AvI jAya. kleza-kaMkAsa, te ApaNA mahAtmA, ghaNA mahAtmAone ghera tapAsa karI, badhAne pUchI Avyo. tyAre kahe, amAre tyAM kleza-kaMkAsa have rahyo nathI. thoDo-ghaNo jarA saLagatA saLagatA pahelAM olavI nAkhIe chIe. te koIne khabara nA paDe ke thaI gayo. eka mahinAmAM be dahADA ja kleza thAya toya bahu thaI gayuM. klezakaMkAsa duniyAmAM hovo nA joIe. amadAvAdamAM pUchI joIe to keTalAMya gharo nIkaLaze, kleza-kaMkAsa vagaranAM ApaNA mahAtmAonAM ! pahelAM to heMDatA-cAlatAMya bahAra koIkanI joDe vaDhIne Avyo hoya, agara bose ene TaiDakAvyo hoya to ahIM ghera AvIne bUmo pADe. alyA, sAruM sAruM jamavAnuM che te jamI le ne pachI bola. paNa nA, A pahelAM ja paga pachADe mUo. te mUA vAMko ja che ne ! tame joyelA ke nahIM evA koI jagyAe ? praznakartA : e to joyelA, badhe joyelA meM. potAnuMya joyeluM. sahune tyAM vAsaNa khakhaDe ja ne ! pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : e mane e bahu kaMTALo Ave ke baLyuM jIvanamAM khAopIo ne A zuM ? gharanuM khAIne gharamAM cakaca karavI. 34 amArA moTAbhAI, te amArAM bhAbhI che te sTava saLagAvavA gayAM, mahemAna AvelA. te bhAIne kaMI saheja utAvaLa haze, eTale cA jaladI mukAvI. bhAbhI sTavamAM pIna nAkhe ane kaMI bhareluM haze eTale nIkaLyo nahIM kacaro. mahIM phUMkAcUMka kare, paNa te dahADe sTava barobara cAlyo nahIM. A to sAITha varSa (pahelAM)nI vAta karuM chuM. pachI amArA bhaIe zuM karyuM ? e to gusse thaIne sTava ne badhuM bahAra pheMkI dIdhuM, haDahaDATa ! saLagato sTava pheMkI dIdho ane kaparakAbIya pheMkI dIdhA. badhA mahemAna to aMdara beThelA, te meM kahyuM, 'have zuM karazo ?" tyAre kahe, "zuM karIzuM have cAnuM peluM ?" to cA pAchale bAraNethI jaIne laI Ava haoNTalamAMthI, kyAMkathI. meM kahyuM, 'haoNTalamAMthI nA lAvuM ahIM, sTava laI AvuM chuM joDevALAno. paNa A kaparakAbI phoDI nAkhI te nA phoDI nAkhata to cAlata ja ne !' AvuM badhuM karyuM. badhAM kaparakAbI nAkhI dIdhAM. zuM Amane zobhe ? ane bhAbhI, eya zuM kare te ? sTava kharAba hoya to zuM kare ? praznakartA : paNa e samaje nahIMne ! dAdAzrI : nA, paNa evA kevA mahemAna, ke bhagavAna karatAMya moTAM ? mahemAnane kahI daIe, ke bhaI sTava saLagato nathI. koI hoziyAra cho, mane jarA saLagAvI Apone ! alyA, kaMI goThavI nAkha ne ! ApaNo bhAva che ene cA pAvAno. mahemAna AgaLa AbarU jAya, te AbarU sthira karavA zuM gharamAM kleza karavo ? A nakazA ema kaMI bhUlI jauM ocho ? A nakazA kaMI bhUlI javAya ? A badhA nakazA joyelA hoyane ? praznakartA : joyelA hoya. dAdAzrI : te saLagato sTavane bahAra paDelo joyelo. ne kaparakAbIne phUTI gayelAM joyelAM !

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(2) gharamAM kleza 35 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : pheMkavAthI badho kacaro nIkaLI jAya ghaNIvAra. dAdAzrI : amArA bhaIe karyuM evuM paNa kacaro nA nIkaLyo, pachI bhAbhI kahe che, e to nA kahe che, paNa tame laIne Avo ne baLyA ! kapa to laI Avo, mahIM kaparakAbI, kapa to lAvavA paDene. sTava to samo karAvIne pachI vAparatAM'tAM. tyAreya kaMI ema ne ema maphata ApatA'tA ? sAta rUpiyA letA hatA pittaLanA sTavanA ! praznakartA : te divase sAta rUpiyA sahelA nahotA. dAdAzrI : hA. jyAM le 'dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma, na rahe kleza jJAtIthI muktidhAma ! klezathI koI mukta thAya nahIM jagatamAM. jJAnI puruSa ekalA ja mukta karAvaDAve. e tame AvaDA moTA thayA tyAre upAya khoLI kADhelo nahIM ? praznakartA : nA dAdA, huM sAcI vAta karuM chuM. dAdAzrI : mArI pAse to badhAya sAcI vAta kare. paNa kleza kADhavo paDe ne, eno nikAla karavo ja paDe ne. praznakartA : hA, kADhavo paDe. dAdAzrI : have tame vicArIne karajo ne ! agara dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma lejo. huM ja dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma laIne kAma karuM chuM ne badhuM. dAdA bhagavAnanuM nAma lezo to tarata ja tamAruM dhAryuM thaI jaze. e nA kare to tuM kleza nahIM karuM ne ? praznakartA : to huM nahIM karuM. dAdAzrI : hA, tyAre basa thayuM. basa beu jaNanuM samAdhAna thaI gayuM. ejyukeTeDa loko ja atyAre ghera jhaghaDo vadhAre kare che ! ejyukeTeDa konuM nAma kahevAya, ke savArathI sAMja sudhI enA gharamAM saheja kleza nA hoya ! praznakartA : to evuM nA thAya ke eka pArTI samajyA ja kare ane eka che te DomineTa karyA kare eTale vana ve jevuM nA thaI jAya ? dAdAzrI : nA, evuM nA thAya. beu samajI jAya. ane te ApaNe dhIme rahIne vAtacIta karIe ke jo huM samajI gayo chuM ane tame haju pUrepUruM samajI nathI lIdheluM lAgatuM, to samajI lo pUrepUruM ApaNe. pharI ApaNI bhAMjagaDa na thAya. ane dAdAjI kahetA hatA evuM kleza nA thAya. gharamAM kleza nahIM tyAM bhagavAna avazya hoya ja, bhagavAna tyAMthI khase nahIM. ko'ka phero ema karatAM slipa thaI gayuM ane kleza thaI gayo to beu jaNe besI ane bhagavAnanA nAma para pastAvo karavo ke bhaI, have nahIM karIe. amArAthI bhUlacUka thaI. mATe tame ahIMthI UThazo nahIM have, jazo nahIM, kahIe. khoTa, uyakarmane AdhIta, kleza thavo ajJAta-AdhIta ! praznakartA : udayakarmane AdhIna haze, kaMkAsa thavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : nA, ajJAnathI Ubho thAya che, kleza ! kleza Ubho thAyane, te badhA navAM karmabIja paDe che. udayakarma klezavALuM hotuM nathI. praznakartA : udayakarma klazavALuM nathI hotuM ? dAdAzrI : e hoI zake ja nahIMne. ajJAnatAthI, pote ahIM kema vartavuM e jANato nathI eTale kleza thaI jAya che. atyAre mAre ahIM khAsa phrenDa hoya, to opha thaI gayA evI khabara ahIM AvIne mane Ape, eTale tarata ja zuM thayuM, A jJAnathI ene niveDo AvI jAya, eTale pachI phleza thavAnuM kaMI kAraNa ja nahIMne. A to ajJAnathI mUMjhAya ke mAro bhAIbaMdha marI gayo ne badhuM pachI kleza thaI jAya. kleza eTale ajJAnatA.

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(2) gharamAM kleza 37 38 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra ajJAnatAthI kleza badho Ubho rahyo che. ajJAnatA jAya eTale kleza dUra thaI jAya. praznakartA : eTale kleza utpanna thAya e pahelAM ja udayakarmane ApaNe joI levA joIe ? dAdAzrI : joI levAno savAla nathI. mahIM che te A zuM che e jANI levuM joIe. A zuM che ? huM koNa ? A badhuM zuM che ? e jANI levuM joIe, sAdhAraNa rIte. ApaNe eka mATalI hoya, te mATalI hoya te chokaro phoDI nAkhe, toya ApaNane koI kleza karatuM nathI gharamAM ane kAcanuM AvaDuM vAsaNa hoya te bAbo phoDI nAkhe to ? dhaNI zuM kahe bairIne, ke tuM sAcavatI nathI A bAbAne. te mUA, mATalImAM kema na bolyo. kAraNa ke e to DIlya hatI. enI kiMmata ja nathI, kiMmata nA hoya to ApaNe kleza nathI karatA ne kiMmatavALAmAM ja kleza karIe chIene ! vastu to beya udayakarmane AdhIna che, phUTe che te. paNa jo ApaNe mATalI para kleza nathI karatAM enuM zuM kAraNa ? eTale kleza udayakarmane AdhIna nathI, e ajJAnatAne AdhIna che. praznakartA : hA, ajJAnatAne AdhIna che ! paNa kleza thavo athavA evI koI prakriyA thavI e mAnasika prakriyA nathI ? dAdAzrI : phleza e mAnasika che, paNa ajJAnane AdhIna che eTale zuM, ke eka mANasane be hajAra rUpiyA khovAI jAya te ene mAnasika ciMtA upAdhi thAya te bIjA mANasane khovAI jAya to bIjo kaheze, mArA karmanA udaya haze te pramANe thayuM have. te Ama jJAna hoya, samajaNa hoya to niveDo lAve ! nahIM to kleza pUrva janmano kaMI udayakarmano kleza nathI hoto. kleza to ajJAnatAnuM phaLa che. praznakartA : ekjhakTalI, bannenA jAya che be hajAra to paNa kaSAya ekane nathI thato. dAdAzrI : keTalAka mANasone be hajAra jatA rahe toya kazuM asara nA thAya evuM bane ke na bane ? keTalAka mANaso be hajAra jatA rahe, te khUba asara thAya, tevuM jANo ? eTale koI duHkha udayakarmane AdhIna hotuM nathI. duHkho e ApaNI ajJAnatAnuM phaLa che. keTalAka mANasane vImo nA utAryo hoya, chatAM enuM goDAuna saLage ane e zAMta rahI zake che. bahAra ane aMdara paNa zAMta rahI zake che. ane keTalAkane evuM, aMdareya duHkha ne bAhya paNa duHkha dekhADe. mULa ajJAnatA ne aNasamajaNa ! e to saLagavAnuM ja hatuM. emAM navAI che ja nahIM. mAthA phoDIne marI jAya toya emAM pheraphAra thavAno nathI. praznakartA: koI paNa vastunA pariNAmane sArI rIte levAnI e mananI bhUmikA na gaNAya ? dAdAzrI : pojhiTiva levuM te mananI bhUmikA. paNa toya jJAna hoya to ja pojhiTiva le. nahIM to negeTIva ja juone. A jagata AkhuM duHkhI che. mAchalA taraphaDe ema taraphaDI rahyuM che. A potAnI milo hovA chatAMya ! mATe samajavAnI jarUra che. jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA jANavAnI jarUra che. jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA to hoya ja ne. kaMI badhAne mokSa hoto nathI. paNa jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA to hovI joIe ne ? bhale moha karo paNa moha upara jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA to jANo. kaI rIte jIvana jIvavuM. sukhane mATe bhaTake chene, to sukha klezamAM hoya kharuM? kleza to UlaTuM sukhamAMya duHkha lAve che. bhaTake che sukha mATe ane lAve che du:kha. jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA hoya toya duHkha nA lAve, duHkha hoya ne to ene bahAra kADhe.

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pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! kyAreka divALI te vaLI hoLI, dararoja hoLI e kevI ToLI ! ApaNe to muLa krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha jAya, matabheda ochAM thAya evuM joIe. ApaNe ahIM pUrNatA karavAnI che. prakAza karavAno che. ahIM kyAM sudhI aMdhArAmAM rahevuM ? krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobhanI nirbaLatAo, matabheda joyelA tame ? praznakartA : ghaNA. dAdAzrI : kyAM korTamAM ? praznakartA : ghare, korTamAM, badhe ThekANe. dAdAzrI : gharamAM to zuM hoya ? gharamAM to tame traNa jaNa , tyAM matabheda zAnA ? nathI bebIo be-cAra ke pAMca, evuM tevuM to kazuM che nahIM. tame traNa jaNa emAM matabheda zAnA ? praznakartA : nA, paNa traNa jaNamAM ja ghaNA matabheda che. dAdAzrI : A traNamAM ja ? ema ! praznakartA: jo konphalIkTa nA thAya jiMdagImAM, to jiMdagInI majA nA Ave !! dAdAzrI : ohoho ! majA tethI Ave che ? to to pachI roja ja karavAnuM rAkho ne ! A koNe zodhakhoLa karI che ? kayA phaLadrupa bhejAe zodhakhoLa karI che ? to pachI roja matabheda karavA joIe, konphalIkTanI majA levI hoya to. praznakartA : e to nA game. dAdAzrI : A to potAnI jAtanuM rakSaNa karyuM che mANasoe ! matabheda sasto thAya ke moMgho ? thoDA pramANamAM ke vadhAre pramANamAM ? praznakartA : thoDA pramANamAM thAya ane vadhAre pramANamAM thAya. dAdAzrI : koIka phero divALI ane koI dahADo hoLI, majA Ave che emAM ? ke majA mArI jAya che ? praznakartA : majA mArI jAya che. dAdAzrI : to AvuM majA mArI jAyane ! gharamAM to dhaNI ne strI bane hoyane, paNa majA mArI jAya to e dhaNI zenA te ? dhaNI ne strI beu judA judA gAmamAM rahetA hoya to majA mArI jAya. paNa joDe rahetA hoya ne majA mArI jAya, e kevuM ? praznakartA : koIka vakhata thAya evuM. saMsArI jIvana che eTale thAya. dAdAzrI : eTale A divALIno dahADo eka ja dahADo Ave che evuMne AkhA varSamAM ? to to ujavaNI karavI joIe ! praznakartA : darekane ghera rojeya thAya ne evuM ! dAdAzrI : kone ghera nathI thatuM, koI AMgaLI UMcI karo joIe ! A bena kharuM kahe che, majA mArI jAya che. jIvana zAMta ane DahApaNavALuM jIvana joIe. bena hAtha UMco nathI karavA detI. tamAre karavo hoya toya nathI karavA detI. praznakartA : gunA bahu moTA eTale hajI kesa cAlyA kare che. dAdAzrI : tamAre to koIka dahADeya Dakho thaI jato hazene ? Dakho

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41 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! thaI jAyane, matabheda ? praznakartA : e to saMsAranuM cakra evuM che. dAdAzrI : nA, A lokone bahAnA kADhavAmAM sAruM jaDyuM che. saMsAra cakra evuM che, ema bahAnuM kADhe che. paNa ema nathI kaheto ke mArI nabaLAI praznakartA: nabaLAI to kharI ja. nabaLAI che tyAre ja to takalIpha thAya che ! dAdAzrI : hA basa, eTale loko saMsAranuM cakra kahI ane peluM DhAMkavA jAya che. eTale DhAMkyAthI e UbhuM rahyuM che. e nabaLAI zuM kahe che ke jyAM sudhI mane oLakhazo nahIM, tyAM sudhI huM javAnI nathI. saMsAra kazoya aDato nathI. saMsAra nirapekSa che. sApekSeya che ane nirapekSaya che. e ApaNe Ama karIe to Ama ne Ama nahIM kare to kazuMya nahIM, kazuM levAdevA nathI. matabheda e to keTalI badhI nabaLAI che ! praznakartA : paNa gharamAM matabheda to cAlyA kare, e to saMsAra chene ! dAdAzrI : ApaNA loko to basa, roja vaDhavADa thAya chene. toya kahe che paNa e to cAlyA kare. alyA, paNa emAM DevalapamenTa (pragati) na thAya. zAthI thAya che ? zAthI thAya che ? kema AvuM bole che, zuM thAya che ? tenI tapAsa karavI paDe. matabhedonuM saravaiyuM kADhyuM ? klezathI jAtavara gati bAMdhyuM! gharamAM matabheda koI phero paDe che tyAre zuM davA copaDo cho ? davAnI boTala rAkho cho ? praznakartA : matabhedanI koI davA nathI. dAdAzrI : heM, zuM kaho cho ? to pachI tame A rUmamAM bolo nahIM. bena pelI rUmamAM bole nahIM, ema abolA thaIne sUI rahevAnuM ? davA copaDyA vagara ? pachI e zI rIte maTI jato haze ? ghA rUjhAI jato haze. ke ? e mane kaho ke jo davA copaDI nathI to ghA rUjhAyo kevI rIte ? te savAramAMya ghA rUjhAto nathI. savAramAMya cAno kapa mUkatI vakhate Ama taNacho mAre. tameya samajI jAva ke haju rAtano ghA rUjhAyo nathI. bane ke nA bane AvuM ? A vAta Ama kaMI anubhavanI bahAra ochI che ? ApaNe badhA sarakhA ja chIe ! eTale zAthI AvuM karyuM ke hajI e matabhedano ghA paDelo che. praznakartA : bIjI to zuM davA ? zAMta rahevAnuM ! dAdAzrI : kyAM sudhI zAMta raho, e matabheda maTADe nahIM tyAM sudhI ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : e to pharI Ubho thavAno pAcho. jyAM matabheda UbhA thatA hoya ane jyAM bhayavALI jagyA hoya tyAM rahevAya ja kema karIne ? praznakartA : to zuM karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : to javuM kyAM ? eTale matabheda rahita thaI javuM tyAre sikyoriTI (salAmatI) thaI. zI bAbatamAM ghera matabheda paDe ? praznakartA : be mANasa judA hoya, eTale kaMIne kaMI to matabheda paDe dAdAzrI : nA, amAre matabheda nathI paDatA koInI sAthe. praznakartA: paNa amAre to matabheda joradAra paDe che. dAdAzrI : evuM nA rAkhavuM joIe, ApaNe samuM karavuM joIene. rIpera karI nAkhavuM joIe. praznakartA : hA, rIpera paNa dararoja thAya che, thoDuM thoDuM. dAdAzrI : paNa roja roja e ghA paDelo rahe, baLyuM. ghA jAya nahIM

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! ne, ghA paDelo to rahene ! gobA paDelA hoya. mATe gobA ja nA paDavA devA. kAraNa ke atyAre gobA pADyA hoyane, te ApaNuM vaiDapaNa Ave tyAre bairI pAchI gobA pADe ApaNane. atyAre to manamAM kahe, ke joradAra che bhaI, eTale thoDoka vakhata cAlavA deze. pachI eno vAro Ave tyAre ApaNane samajAI deze. enA karatAM vepAra evo rAkhavo ke e ApaNane prema kare, ApaNe emane prema karIe. bhUlacUka to badhAnI thAya ja ne. bhUlacUka na thAya ? bhUlacUka thAya emAM matabheda karIne zuM kAma che, matabheda pADavo hoya to jabarA joDe jaIne vaDhavuM eTale ApaNane tarata hAjara javAba maLI jAya, ahIMyAM hAjarajavAba ja na maLe koI dahADo. eTale beu jaNA samajI lejo. AvA matabheda nA pADazo. je koI matabheda pADe tene ApaNe kahevuM ke dAdAjI zuM kahetA hatA, AvuM zA hAru bagADo cho ? praznakartA : vicArono matabheda meIna hoya. AcAra-vicAramAM pharaka paDI zake ne ? 43 dAdAzrI : te matabhedathI zuM pachI phAyado nIkaLe enuM saravaiyuM ? praznakartA : benI samajaNamAM phera hoya to matabheda thAya. dAdAzrI : ema ! paNa dhIme dhIme matabheda kADhI nAkhavo chene ? matabhedo nA thAya evo karo cho prayatna ? praznakartA : samajavAnI koziza karIe. dAdAzrI : AkhI rAta vicAryA karo, samajavAnuM ? praznakartA : eTalI vAra nA lAge. dAdAzrI : tyAre keTalI vAra ? samajavAnI koziza karI hoya te pharI vAra gharamAM paDe nahIM matabheda pharI paDato nathIne pachI ? praznakartA : e vastumAM pachI pharI matabheda nA paDe. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa pharI pAchuM enA mATe paDe ja che. pharI eka vakhata nahIM, pachI to paccIsa vakhata paDe che. pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : e matabheda paDe che pachI, paNa e ja vastu mATe nahIM. dAdAzrI : tyAre ? pharI enI e ja vastu mATe thayA kare. kapa-rakAbI paDI gayAM nokaranA hAthathI, eTale bena kaheze ke enA hAthathI bicArAnA paDI gayAM, tame zuM karavA akaLAva cho ? tyAre tame kaho ke, nA ATaluM badhuM nukasAna thayuM ane pachI tame vicArIne pAchA matabhedane kADhI nAkho. pAchA pharI paDe tyAre pAchuM AvuM ja thAya. eTale AmAM kazuM vicAratAM AvaDatuM ja nathI ne. vicAra to enuM nAma kahevAya ke pharI matabheda paDe nahIM. soliDa (nakkara) kAma thAya. A to koI kAma thatuM nathIne, ahIM ja bhamyA karo cho. goLa goLa phare e keTalA mAIla cAle ? eno enDa (aMta) Ave kharo ? praznakartA H goLa goLa pharo to eno enDa (aMta) nA Ave. dAdAzrI : tyAre evuM ja che A badhuM, goLa goLa pharyA kare che, bicArA, manuSyamAtra badhAya bhaTaka, bhaTaka, bhaTaka, bhaTaka, bhaTaka karyA kare che ane pAchuM pharI manuSyapaNuM maLaze ke nahIM enuM ThekANuM nathI pAchuM. mATe manuSyamAM Ave tyAre AvuM khAvApIvA ne moja-majA hoya, pachI pelA kharAba vicAro thavAthI pAchA jAnavaramAM jAya pAchA. 44 eTale samajavuM joIe ke A zuM che, zuM nathI. A jagata kevI rIte banyuM, zI rIte cAle che, ApaNe koNa chIe, ApaNe zA mATe chIe, ApaNe zuM karavAnuM che ? e jANavAnuM che. e jANavuM joIe badhuM. sahu sukha che chatAM duHkha zAtuM ? mata judo bAMdhyo te jhAlyo tenuM ! tAre zAnuM duHkha che, paisAnuM duHkha che ke dhaNI sAro nathI ke chokarAM sArAM nathI ? praznakartA : badhuM sAruM che, matanuM ja duHkha che. dAdAzrI : matanuM du:kha che ne, e mata mane soMpI de ne ! tArA

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! 45 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra mata mane ahIM soMpI de. praznakartA : ApI dIdhA, dAdA. dAdAzrI : haM... soMpI de ne ! praznakartA H laI lo tame. eTale mata ja nahIM rAkhavo ? dAdAzrI : mata ja nahIM rAkhavo joIe. vaLI bannee zAdI karI pachI mata judo kevo ? bannee zAdI karI pachI mata judo rakhAto haze ? praznakartA : rakhAya nahIM paNa rahe. dAdAzrI : te ApaNe kADhI nAkhavAno. judo mata rakhAto haze ? nahIM to zAdI nahotI karavI, zAdI karI to eka thaI jAva. praznakartA H mata nA rAkhIe to duniyAmAM ApaNane gAMDA gaNe. buddhi ochI che evuM kahe. dAdAzrI : bhale gAMDA kahe, duniyA game te kahe, paNa ApaNe ghera to zAMti rahe. duniyAne to ema karIne jhaghaDA karAvavA che. mata 2khAvaDAvA che. gAMDA kahe, nahIM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : bIjA gAMDA haze nahIM A duniyAmAM ? AkhuM varlDa menTala hospiTala ja che. matabheda paDe eTale bahu majA Ave, nahIM ? te ghaDIe ? pachI jANe nAsto karyo hoya evuM lAge ! ke nA game ? tuM kahetI nathI, bolatI nathI kaMI ? praznakartA : matabheda koIne nA game. dAdAzrI : to pachI baMdha karI devA joIe. evuM che, emAM sarakArano adhikAra nathI ApaNI para dabANa nathI. jo sarakAranuM dabANa hoya to nA jAya, paNa A to ApaNe ApaNI potAnI meLe kADhI nAkhavAnA che. eTale baMdha karI devA ene. nA gamatA hoya to baMdha karI devAmAM vAMdho zo che ? kyAre baMdha karI dezo have ? praznakartA : emane ja pUcho. dAdAzrI : hA. praznakartA: ahIMyAM ja pahelAM matabheda thaI gayA. huM karuM ke e baMdha kare ? dAdAzrI : hA. eTale matabheda karIne zuM kAma che, ApaNe bheguM rahevuM, vaheMcavuM nathI, vaheMcavuM hoya to vaheMcI nAkho A DaoNlara ke bhaI, ATalA DaoNlara tamArA ne ATalA Dolara mArA, paNa matabheda nA karavA. praznakartA : matabheda vagara to jIvana azakya ja hoya. dAdAzrI : evuM ApaNe to azakya kema kahevAya te ? koIne matabheda nA paNa hoya. praznakartA : apavAda nathI mAnyAmAM AvatuM. dAdAzrI : tamane (mahAtmAone) matabheda che? koI jAtano nahIM ? Amane matabheda nahIM hoya ? matabheda nathI, kahe che. kharI vAta kahe che. tamane mAnyAmAM Ave ? praznakartA : nikAlI matabheda hoya, nikAlI ! dAdAzrI : paNa ene matabheda ja nA kahevAyane, nikAlI e vastu matabheda ja nA kahevAya. te matabheda joyelo. ahIM satsaMgamAM AvyA tyArathI ? praznakartA : nathI joyo. dAdAzrI : meMya nathI joyo ATalA varSomAM, koI thoDokeya matabheda paDyo hoya evuM ! matabheda paDe to kAmanuM ja zuM lAIphamAM?

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! je bhAvatAM bhojata jamADe, tene Tebala para ja raMjADe (!) 43 te pAchA matabheda kyAre kare ? eya Tebala upara jamavA bese te ghaDIe Tebala khakhaDAve. alyA mUA, jaMpIne khAdhA pachI matabheda pADa. tyAM to pyAlo pADI de. jamyA pahelAM pADI de to jamavAnI majA Ave, nahIM ? bahu sarasa majA Ave ? kema bolatA nathI ? praznakartA : sAMbhaLuM chuM, mane sAMbhaLavAmAM majA Ave che. dAdAzrI : barAbara, eTale matabheda zAne mATe pADavAnA ApaNe ? Tebala upara jamavAnuM badhuM bagaDe. enA karatAM ApaNe kahIe ke tamArI vAta karekTa che. ApaNe ekavAra pIrasI do, kahIe. karekTa kahIe to bhAveya kharuM paNa toya vAtane nA choDe. ahaMkAra chene te UMdhuM bole ! eTale moja-boja karajo. tame jeTha mahine Ave to kerIo khAIne, rasa barobara pI laIne sUI jajo. Ama peTa nA bALazo ne haiyuM nA bALazo. zenA hAru haiyAM bALo cho te ? ApaNuMya nA bALavuM ne koInuMya nA bALavuM. A to lokonAM haiyAM bALyAM ne potAnAMya bALyAM. badhuM ja taiyAra che paNa bhogavatAM AvaDatuM nathI, bhogavavAnI rIta AvaDatI nathI. muMbaInA zeThiyAo moTAM Tebala para jamavA bese che paNa jamI rahyA pachI tame Ama karyuM, tame tema karyuM, mAruM haiyuM tuM bALa bALa kare che vagara kAmanI ! are ! vagara kAmanuM to koI bALatuM haze ? kAyadesara bALe che, gerakAyadesara koI bALatuM ja nathI. A lAkaDAMne loko bALe che, paNa lAkaDAnA kabATane koI bALe che ? je bALavAnuM hoya tene ja bALe che. Ama AkSepo Ape che. A to bhAna ja nathI. manuSyapaNuM bebhAna thaI gayuM che, nahIM to gharamAM te AkSepo apAtA haze ? pahelAMnA vakhatamAM gharamAM mANaso ekabIjAne AkSepo Ape ja nahIM. are, ApavAno thAya toya nA Ape. manamAM ema jANe ke AkSepa ApIza to sAmAne duHkha thaze ane kaLiyugamAM to lAgamAM levA phare. A kaMI mANasAI kahevAtI haze ? ghara ekaluM cokhkhuM rAkhe to sAruM ne ? 48 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : bahAreya paDe che. dAdAzrI : paNa gharamAM klIyara rAkhIe to zuM khoTuM ? praznakartA : bahAreya paDe ne gharamAMya paDe, paNa bahAra to zuM kare ? dAdAzrI : bahAranA loko kaMI jalebI khavaDAvatA nathI. A gharamAM ja jalebI khavaDAve che. A cA pANI badhuM Ape, te gharamAM to kazuM matabheda nahIM karavAno. praznakartA : bahAra matabheda paDe, to bahAra kaMI thoDuM jhaghaDAya che ? A ghare AvIne to jhaghaDAya kharuM ! dAdAzrI : paNa A je ApaNI upara upakAra kare khAvAne mATe taiyAra badhuM karI Ape. tenI upara jhaghaDavAnuM ? amAre AkhI jiMdagI vAIpha joDe eka matabheda nahIM paDelo ! ekAgratA to evI hovI joIe ke UThatAM-besatAM, khAtAM-pItAM vaDhavADa karatAM ekAgratA nA tUTe. AkhA zarIramAM bIjo koI matabheda ja nA hoya. zarIranI mahIM matabheda nA hovA joIe. hindustAnanA matabhedone kADhavA phare che loko. pahelAM ApaNe mahIM matabheda nA hovo joIe. ane mahIM matabheda thayo eTale goTALo. pachI Tenzana thAya, pachI komprezana Ave. komprezana Ave ne ? praznakartA : aMdarano matabheda eTale zuM, dAkhalo ApIne samajAvo. dAdAzrI : have tame koIne bolAvatA hoya, ko'kane dekhyA eTale kaheze. Avo Avo, to mahIM kaheze A nAlAyakane zuM kAma che te ! mahIM pAchA evuM bole. e tRtiyam bole. evuM koI vakhata bane kharuM ? praznakartA : ko'ka vakhata zuM, lagabhaga badhI vakhata bane. dAdAzrI : roja ? praznakartA : bhUlamAM bolAvI dIdhA pachI thaI jAyane ke Amane kaMI

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! besADyA ! dAdAzrI : eTale A matabheda TheraThera gharamAM, mahIM aMdara jhaghaDA matabheda hoya. A to hamaNe A jJAna ApyA pachI ochA thayA. nahIM to pahelAM to Akho dahADoya jhaghaDA cAlyA karatAM mahIM tophAna. e kaheze, 'alyA, meM tAruM zuM bagADyuM che, te tame gharamAM vaDho cho badhAM.' tyAre bIjo kahe, 'tame zuM bagADyuM che tame jANatA nathI ?" eTale A jIvana jIvatAMya nA AvaDyuM ? akaLAmaNathI jIvo cho ? ekalo mUo chuM ? tyAre kahe, nA, paiNelo chuM. tyAre mUA, vAIpha che toya tArI akaLAmaNa nA maTI ? akaLAmaNa nA javI joIe ? A badhuM meM vicArI nAkheluM. lokoe nA vicAravuM joIe AvuM badhuM ? bahu moTuM vizALa jagata che, paNa A jagata potAnA rUma aMdara che eTaluM ja mAnI lIdhuM che ane tyAMya jo jagata mAnato hoya toya sAruM, paNa tyAMya 'vAIpha' joDe laThThAbAjI uDADe ! e be vAsaNa khakhaDe ja, kahe, vAsaNa che ke mANasa tuM, are ! praznakartA : be tapelAM hoya to raNakAra thAya ne pachI zamI jAya. dAdAzrI : raNakAra thAya to majA Ave kharI ? chAMToya akkala nathI evuM hau bole. praznakartA : e to pAchuM bIjuMya bolene ke tamArA sivAya mane bIjuM koI gamatuM ja nathI. dAdAzrI : hA, evuMya bole ! praznakartA : paNa vAsaNa gharamAM khakhaDe ja ne ? dAdAzrI : vAsaNa roja roja khakhaDavAnuM kemanuM phAve ? A to samajato nathI tethI phAve che. jAgRta hoya tene to eka matabheda paDyo to AkhI rAta UMgha nA Ave ! A vAsaNone to spaMdano che, te rAtre sUtAM sUtAMya spaMdano karyA kare ke 'A to AvA che, vAMkA che, UMdhA che, nAlAyaka pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra che, kADhI melavA jevA che !' ane pelAM vAsaNone kaMI spaMdana che ? ApaNA loka samajyA vagara TApasI pUre ke be vAsaNo joDe hoya to khakhaDe ! mera cakkara, ApaNe kaMI vAsaNa chIe ke ApaNane khakhaDATa hoya ? A 'dAdA'ne koIe eka dahADo khakhaDATamAM joyA nA hoya ! svapneya nA AvyuM hoya evuM !! khakhaDATa zeno ? A khakhaDATa to ApaNI potAnI jokhamadArI upara che. khakhaDATa kaMI ko'kanI jokhamadArI para che ? cA jaladI AvI nA hoya to ApaNe Tebala para traNa vAra ThokIe e jokhamadArI konI ? enA karatAM ApaNe babUcaka thaIne besI rahIe. cA maLI to ThIka, nahIM to jaIzuM ophise. zuM khoTuM ? cAnoya kaMI kALa to haze ne ? A jagata niyamanI bahAra to nahIM hoya ne ? eTale ame kahyuM che ke 'vyavasthita' ! eno TAIma thaze eTale cA maLaze. tamAre ThokavuM nahIM paDe. tame spaMdana UbhAM nahIM karo to cA AvIne UbhI raheze. ane spaMdana UbhAM karazo toya e Avaze. paNa spaMdanothI pAchA vAIphanA copaDAmAM hisAba jame thaze ke tame te dahADe Tebala ThokatA hatA ne ? pUrva matabheda karavAnI jarUra nathI, matabhedathI kaMI phAyado thayo ? matabheda kyAre karIe, ke matabheda karI rahyA pachI pharI matabheda na karavo paDe to matabheda karavo joIe. e cothA dahADe pAcho kakaLATa karavo hoya to, kakaLATa, kakaLATa, kakaLATa karyA ja kare che eTale kakaLATa karo cho ke matabheda karo cho ? matabheda to pharI nA karavo paDe. eka phero matabheda thaI gayo, paNa e sudhArI le ane ApaNeya sudhArI laIe. A to trIje dahADe pAcho hatuM tenuM te ! kaMI vicAravA jevuM nathI lAgatuM tamane ? A to A vicArone, sArA mANasa thaIne kevuM karo cho ? hajI sudhArI zakAya evuM che. haju kaMI bagaDI gayuM nathI. tadana bagaDI gayuM hota to to ApaNe kahIe ke bhaI, ukheDI nAkho have badhuM, pharI navesarathI vAvo. haju Dimolizana karavA jevuM nathI, haju to sAruM che. rIpera karavAnI jarUra che. ovarahola kahe chene ? ovarahola karavAnI jarUra che ? bIjuM kazuM nahIM. kevA sArA mANasa ane ApaNe matabheda kyAM thAya ? AvatI sAla huM AvuM tyAre matabhedanuM bhUta kADhI nAkho !

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para pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! 51 praznakartA : jhaghaDAnA matabheda nathI. dAdAzrI : matabhede nahIM ne kazuMya nahIM rAkhavAnuM ! praznakartA : AmAM sAmAnya rIte jhaghaDAnA matabhedo hotA nathI. dAdAzrI : jhaghaDA hoya to sArA, te eno niveDo AvI jAya. A to kAyama kacakaca, kacakaca ! jhaghaDAno matabheda sAro ke ekabIjAthI chUTA paDI gayA eTale nikAla thaI gayo. paNa A to kAyama kacakaca te ghara bagaDI jAya. pati-patnI ke huM tAro - huM tArI, tarata pAchA jhaghaDe, tArI ! gharamAM vAIpha joDe matabheda thAya to tenuM samAdhAna karatAM AvaDe nahIM, chokarA joDe matabheda Ubho thAya to tenuM samAdhAna karatAM nA AvaDe ane gUMcAyA kare. praznakartA : dhaNI to ema ja kahene, ke 'vAIpha' samAdhAna kare, huM nahIM karuM ! dAdAzrI : haMa, eTale 'limiTa' pUrI thaI gaI. 'vAIpha' samAdhAna kare ne ApaNe nA karIe to ApaNI 'limiTa' thaI gaI pUrI. puruSa hoyane te to AvuM bole ke 'vAIpha' rAjI thaI jAya ane ema karIne gADI AgaLa cAlu karI de ane tame to paMdara-paMdara dahADA, mahinA-mahinA sudhI gADI besADI rAkho, te nA cAle. jyAM sudhI sAmAnA mananuM samAdhAna nahIM thAya tyAM sudhI tamAre muzkelI che mATe samAdhAna karavuM. Ama gharamAM matabheda paDe te kema cAle ? baI kahe ke "huM tamArI chuM' ne dhaNI kahe ke huM tAro chuM" pachI matabheda kema ? tamArA benI aMdara 'problema' vadhe tema juduM thatuM jAya. 'problema' 'solva' thaI jAya pachI juduM nA thAya. judAIthI duHkha che. ane badhAMne 'problema' UbhA thavAnA, tamAre ekalAne thAya che evuM nathI. jeTalAMe zAdI karI tene 'problema' UbhA thayA vagara rahe nahIM. vahunI joDe matabheda paDato hoya mUA ! jenI joDe... Dabala beDa hoya che ke eka pathArI hoya che ? praznakartA: nA, mApha karajo. eka ja hoya che. dAdAzrI : to pachI enI joDe A jhaghaDA thAya to rAte lAta mAre tyAre zuM karIe ? praznakartA : nIce. dAdAzrI : to enI joDe ekatA rAkhavAnI. "vAIpha' joDe paNa matabheda thAya tyAMya ekatA nA rahe to pachI bIje kyAM rAkhavAnI ? ekatA eTale zuM ke kyAreya matabheda nA paDe. A eka jaNa joDe nakkI karavuM ke tamAre ne mAre matabheda nA paDe, eTalI ekatA karavI joIe. evI ekatA karI che tame? praznakartA : AvuM koI dahADo vicAreluM nahIM. A pahelI vAra vicAruM chuM. dAdAzrI : hA, te vicAravuM paDaze ne? bhagavAna keTalA vicAra karI karIne mokSe gayA ! vAtacIta karIne ! kaMI khulAsA thaze AmAM. A to joga beTho che te bhegA thayA, nahIM to bhegA thavAya nahIM A to ! eTale kazI vAtacIta karone ! emAM vAMdho zo ? ApaNe badhA eka ja chIe. tamane judAI lAge che A badhI, kAraNa ke bhedabuddhithI mANasane juduM lAge. bAkI badhuM che eka ja. mANasane bhedabuddhi hoyane ? vAIpha joDe to bhedabuddhi nathI hotIne ? praznakartA : hA, e ja thaI jAya che. dAdAzrI : A vAIphanI joDe bheda koNa pADe che ? buddhi ja. bairI ne eno dhaNI beu pADozI joDe laDe tyAre kevAM abheda thaIne laDe che ? beu jaNa Ama hAtha karIne ke tame AvA ne tame tevA. beu jaNa Ama hAtha kare. eTale ApaNe jANIe ke ohoho ! A bemAM

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! 53 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra ATalI badhI ekatA !! A korporezana abheda che, evuM ApaNane lAge. ane pachI gharamAM pesIne beu vaDhe tyAre zuM kaheze ? ghera pelA vaDhe ke nA vaDhe ? ko'ka dahADo to vaDhe ne ? e korporezana mAMhyomAMhI jyAre jhaghaDe ne, 'tuM AvI ne tame AvA, tuM AvI ne tame AvA.' ..pachI gharamAM jAmane, tyAre to kahe, 'tuM jatI rahe, ahIMthI ghera jatI rahe, mAre joIe ja nahIM, kaheze ! have A aNasamajaNa nahIM ? tamane kema lAge che ? te abheda hatAM te tUTI gayo ane bheda utpanna thayo. eTale vAIpha joDeya mArI tArI' thaI jAya. 'tuM AvI chuM ne tuM AvI chuM !' tyAre e kaheze, 'tame kyA pAMsarA cho ?' eTale gharamAMya huM ne tuM thaI jAya. 'ne tuM, huM ne tuM, huM ne tuM', te pahelAM. ame hatAM, ame be eka chIe, ame Ama chIe, ame tema chIe. amAruM ja che A. tenuM 'huM ne tuM thayA ! have huM ane tuM thayAM eTale huMsAtuMsI thAya. e huMsAtusI pachI kyAM pahoMce ? TheTha haladIghATInI laDAI zarU thaI jAya. sarva vinAzane notaravAnuM sAdhana e huMsAtusI ! eTale huMsAtuMsI to koInI joDe thavA nA devI.. saMsAramAM kema UbhuM rahevAya, AvAM phasAmaNavALA saMsAramAM, huM ne tuM hoya, tyAM jIvAya ja kema karIne ? huM ne tuM, huM ne temAM matabheda nA lAge, baLyo ? praznakartA: 'hoya to ja tuM hoya. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa 'huM jato rahyo che tamAre ? e to gajavuM kApe tyAre khabara paDe. praznakartA : gayo nathI paNa eTalI samaja paDe ke "huM" javo joIe. dAdAzrI : hA, 'huM' jAya to badho ukela AvI jAya. pati kahyA kare tuM mArI-mArI, kyAMthI matabheda te mArA-tArI ! roja 'mArI vAIpha, mArI vAIpha' kahIe ane eka dahADo vAIphe che te, potAnAM kapaDAM dhaNInI begamAM mUkI dIdhAM. bIje divase dhaNI zuM kahe ? mArI begamAM te sADIo mUkI ja kema ?" A AbarUdAranA chokarA ! enI sADIo Ane khaI gaI ! paNa enuM potAnuM juduM astitva chene. eTale vAIpha ane hasabanDa e to bijhanesane laIne eka thayA. konTrAkTa che e. e juduM astitva kaMI chUTI jAya ? astitva juduM ja rahe che. 'mArI peTImAM sADIo kema mUke che', evuM kahe ke nA kahe ? praznakartA : kahe, kahe. dAdAzrI : to mArI ne tArI judAM to che ja ne ughADAM ! praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : mArI-tArI khulluM nathI ? e mArI-tArI thaI jAya evuM nA rAkhavuM joIe ApaNe. evuM bolavA sudhI nA Ave. ApaNI ApaNI karyA karIe tyAra sudhI sAruM che, bA. A to ahIM mArI-tArI thaI gaI eTale ApaNe samajIe ke A to barakta vagarano che, e buddhi dekhADe, bheda pADe. buddhi nA hoya tene bhAMjagaDa nahIM ! nahIM to kaheje, mArI begamAM sADI mUkI ja kema ? te akkalano kothaLo, mUA, sADI mUkI emAM tArA bApanuM zuM gayuM ? emAM khoTuM zuM che te ? tyAM kahene, sADI ahIM mUkI sAruM thayuM, evuM bolene to ene sAruM lAgene ! bIbIne sAruM nA lAge ? praznakartA: lAge. dAdAzrI : A to kakaLATa kare ke mArI begamAM tArI sADI mUkI ja kema ? eTale baI kaheze, ko'ka dahADo enI begamAM hAtha ghAlIe to AvuM ne AvuM goTALA vALe che. baLyo, A dhaNI khoLavAmAM mane bhUlacUka thaI gaI lAge che. Avo dhaNI kyAMthI maLyo ? paNa have zuM kare ? khIle baMdhAyuM ! 'merI" hoya to jatI rahe bIje dahADe, paNa InDiyana zI rIte jatI rahe ? khIle baMdhAyelA !! jhaghaDo karavAnI jagyA ja nathI, esa ja nathI evI, tyAM jhaghaDo kare, to jhaghaDo karavAnI jagyA hoya to mArI ja

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pa6 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! papa nAkhene A loko ! are, nahIM to joDe joDe bego mUkelI hoyane toya kaheze, 'uThAvI le tuM tArI bega ahIMthI'. alyA mUA, paiNelo chuM, A zAdI karI che, eka cho ke nahIM ? ane pAcho lakhe zuM ? adhAMginI lakhe, mUA, kaI jAtanA cho te A ! hA, tyAre mUA, ardhAginI zuM karavA lakhe che ? emAM ardhA aMga nahIM A begamAM ? konI puruSonI mazkarI karIe chIe ke strIonI ApaNe ? nA, evuM kahene, adhAMginI nathI kahetA ? praznakartA : kahe ne ! dAdAzrI : ane Ama pharI jAya pAchA. strIo Dakhala nahIM kare. strIonI begamAM jo kadI ApaNA dhotiyAM mUkyAM hoyane, to Dakhala nahIM kare ane A to bahu ene ahaMkAra. Ama AMkaDo ja UMco ne UMco, vIMchInI peTha jarAka mAre to DaMkha mArI de haDahaDATa. A to mArI vItI boluM chuM huM ke, A mArI ApavItI boluM chuM. eTale tamane badhAne potAne samajaNa paDe ke Amane vItelI AvI haze. tame ema ne ema sIdhI rIte kabUla karo nahIM, e to huM kabUla karI dauM. praznakartA: Apa bolo eTale badhAne potAno pAcho khyAla AvI jAya ne kabUla kare. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa tame kabUla nA karo paNa huM to kabUla karI dauM ke mArI vItelI che, ApavItI nahIM vItelI ? are, mAre DaMkha te kevo DaMkha mAre, tuM tAre ghera jatI raheje, kahe che. alyA mUA, jatI rahe to tArI zI dazA thAya ? e to A karmathI baMdhAyelI che. kyAM jAya bicArI ! paNa boluM chuM te nakAmuM nahIM jAya, A enA hArTa upara DAgha paDaze, pachI e DAgha tArI upara paDaze, mUA. A karmo bhogavavA paDaze. e to ema jANe ke kaMI javAnI che have ? AvuM nA bolAya. ane evuM bolatA hoya to e bhUla ja kahevAyane ! thoDAghaNA to ToNA mArelA ke nahIM mArelA badhAe ? praznakartA : hA, mArelA. badhAe mArelA emAM apavAda nA hoya. ochuM-vadhatuM pramANa hoya, paNa apavAda nA hoya. dAdAzrI : eTale AvuM che badhuM. have A badhAne DAhyA banAvavAnA, bolo have, A zI rIte DAhyA thAya ? moDhAM para divela pharI vaLelAM che ! sarasa sarasa dUdhapAka ne sArI sArI rasoIo jame che toya moDhAM para divela pIdhuM hoya evA ne evAM dekhAya che. divela to moghuM thayuM che te kyAMthI lAvIne pIvuM? A to ema ne ema ja moDhAM para divela pharI vaLe che ! gharamAM vAIpha joDe 'tamAruM ne amAruM' evI vANI nA hovI joIe. vANI vibhakta nA hovI joIe, vANI avibhakta hovI joIe. ApaNe avibhakta kuTuMbanA ne ? A mAruM ane A tamAruM, te dhaNI joDeya A mAruM ghaDiyALa ne A tamAruM ghaDiyALa. praznakartA : vyavahAramAM to jarUra paDe eTaluM to rAkhavuM paDe ne, A mAruM ne A tamAruM. nahIM to baMdha paDeluM ghaDiyALa ApaNe mATe mUkI jAya. dAdAzrI : eTale vyavahAramAM badhuM rAkhavuM paDe paNa vyavahAranI limiTa kyAM sudhI che ? vyavahAranI limiTa hoya ne ? A badhAe jJAna lIdheluM che, e paNa vyavahAramAM rahe che. paNa Amano (jJAna lIdhelAvALAno) vyavahAra limiTavALo che ne tamAro vyavahAra to anUlimiTeDa eTale tamAre e vyavahAramAM 'tamAruM potAnuMya UDI gayuM. ane gharamAM leTa go karavAmAM ApaNane zuM vAMdho che ? premathI leTa go karavuM ! samajavuM to paDazene, A jagata AvuM kyAM sudhI cAlaze ? gappAM kyAM sudhI cAle ? khoLa kAraNa tuM matabhedatuM ? banne bheje gumAta alatuM ! praznakartA : gharamAM matabheda dUra karavA zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : matabheda zenA paDe che e tapAsa karavI pahelI. koI dA'Do

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! pa7 58 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra evo matabheda paDe che ke eka chokaro ne eka choDI hoya, to pachI be chokarA nathI eno matabheda paDe che ? praznakartA: nA, Ama to nAnI nAnI vAtamAM matabheda thAya. dAdAzrI : are, A nAnI vAtamAM to, e to Igoijhama che. eTale e bole ne Ama che, tyAre kahevuM, 'barobara che" ema kahIe eTale pachI kazuMya nahIM pAchuM. paNa ApaNe tyAM ApaNI akkala UbhI karIe chIe. akkale akkala laDe eTale matabheda thAya. praznakartA: 'e barAbara che' evuM moDhethI bolavA mATe zuM karavuM joIe ? e bolAtuM nathI, e aham kevI rIte dUra karavo ? dAdAzrI : e have e bolAya nahIM pAchuM. kharuM kahe che. e thoDA dA'DA prekTisa levI paDe. A kahuM chuMne e upAya karavA mATe thoDA dA'DA prekTisa lo ne, pachI e phITa thaI jaze, ekadama nahIM thAya. praznakartA : matabheda kema paDe che, enuM kAraNa zuM ? dAdAzrI : matabheda paDe eTale pelo jANe ke huM akkalavALo e pelI jANe huM akkalavALI. akkalanA kothaLA AvyA ! vecavA jaIe to cAra AnA Ave nahIM, akkalanA bAradAna kahevAya che ene. enA karatAM ApaNe DAhyA thaI jaIe, enI akkalane ApaNe joyA karIe ke ohoho... kevI akkalavALI che ! to eya TADhI paDI jAya pachI. paNa ApaNeya akkalavALA ane eya akkalavALI, akkala ja jyAM laDavA mAMDI tyAM zuM thAya che ? ane akkalavALo meM joyo nahIM koI jagyAe. e akkalavALo konuM nAma kahevAya ke je koI dA'Do koInI nakala nA karato hoya enuM nAma akkalavALo. A to badhA nakalI loko. huM joI joIne zIkhyo kaheze. A benoe nakala karIne, kaDhI karatAM AvaDI, joIne zIkhI gayAM. A sADI koInI joIne lAvyAM. ane pachI kaheze, huM akkalavALI. meM mArI jiMdagImAM kadI nakala nathI karI, asala ja. mane anukULa Ave e ja karuM chuM. bIjI koInI bhAMjagaDa nahIM, huM kyAM zIkhuM tamArI pArTInuM ? tamAruM koiga vAsI hoya ne huM pAchuM mAruM e ja cItaruM to pAchuM mAruMya vAsI thaI jAya. A mAre matabheda nathI paDato koInI joDe. kAraNa ke mArAmAM akkala nahIM ne ! akkalanA kothaLA bahu matabheda pADe. akkalavALA vadhAre hoyane e bahu matabheda pADe. tArAmAM akkala kharI ke nathI ? praznakartA : khabara nahIM. dAdAzrI : tamAre matabheda paDe che kharA ne paNa ? mATe akkalavALA cho. A to ko'ka dahADo evuMya saMbhaLAvI de, 'tArAmAM paiNyA tyArathI akkala ochI che.' kaheze. are, melane pULo ahIMthI. akkala ochI che. te jANe che, tyAre vaLI gA gA zuM karavA kare che vagara kAmano have ? zuM akkalano kothaLo ! ApaNe akkalanA kothaLA !! ApaNe to e akkalanI vAto karatI hoyane, to ApaNe hasavuM eTale e jANe ke A mArI mazkarI thavA mAMDI eTale baMdha thaI jaze pachI. ApaNe sAmasAmI bAjhavuM nahIM. Ama kharuM che, tema kharuM che e bolatI hoyane, eTale ApaNe jANyuM ke A akkala cAlI have. eTale ApaNe hasavuM jarAka. eTale enI meLe baMdha thaI jaze, TADhuM Tappa ! bAkI gharamAM matabheda nA paDAya. matabheda paDe ene mANasa ja kema kahevAya ? matabheda TALatA nA AvaDyA to buddhi ja nA kahevAya ne ! matabheda paDe evI vAta karatA hoya to ApaNe ene pheravI zakAya che. matabheda kema paDavA joIe ? matabheda to buddhi ane samajaNathI bhAMgI zake ema che. matabheda TaLe eTalI jAgRti to prakRti guNathI paNa AvI zake che, mati pahoMcatI nathI tethI matabheda thAya che. mati 'phUla' pahoMce to matabheda nA thAya. paNa A kALane laIne atyAre badhA phekyara thaI gayelA che. ne bhaTaka bhaTaka, bhaTaka kare che. kaMI hetu nathI, kaMI bhAna nathI, kazuM ja nathI. emAM gharamAM koInI joDe sukha nathI ene. ane gharavALAneya koIne sukha nathI enI joDe. ane

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! pa9 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra matabheda ghaTyA nathI. te kahe che, huM kaMIka pAmyo. alyA, matabheda ghaTavA joIe, zAMti vadhavI joIe. kaMIka to kAraNa banavuM joIe. kazuM banyuM nathI ne manamAM zuMye mAnI beThA che ! jANyuM tenuM nAma kahevAya ke koI joDa matabheda nA paDe. praznakartA : jIvanamAM matabheda to hoyane, koI mANasa saMpUrNa to che ja nahIM ne ? dAdAzrI : matabheda paDe eno artha ja zuM ? e sensalesa phelo (mUrakha mANasa) ! matabheda to ekAda-be hoya, A to Akho dahADo matabheda paDyA kare ! e to sensalesa phelo kahevAya, pachI ! Apane kema lAge che mArI vAta ? barAbara lAgatI hoya to sAMbhaLajo, nA lAge to mane nA kahI dejo ke mane ThIka nathI lAgatI to vAta baMdha karI daIza, bIjI vAta kADhIza. praznakartA : dareka mANasa saMpUrNa hoto nathI, eTaluM ja huM ApanI pAse kaheto hato. dAdAzrI : are, apUrNaya kyAM che te, baLyo ? saMpUrNa to nA hoya paNa apUrNa hoya toya bahu sAruM kahevAya. praznakartA: to ApanI pAse kaMIka jANavA mATe Avyo chuM. dAdAzrI : badhuM jANavAnuM ahIM maLaze, huM kaMI tamane ja A kaheto nathI, A to janarala (sAmAnya) rIte vAta karuM chuM. tamArA manamAM evuM nA laI jazo ke mane kahe kahe kare che. praznakartA: cokkasa. dAdAzrI : eTale janaralI temAM Apane ThIka lAge evuM svIkAra karavuM ane nA ThIka lAge e bAjue mUkavuM joIe. paNa janaralI AvuM che, emAMthI ApaNe vicAravaMta thavuM joIe, eTale A vicAravA jevuM che. mArI vAtamAM kaMIka rUpiye be AnI satya jevuM lAge che ke nahIM ? praznakartA : cokkasa lAge che. bheda pADe te kyAMthI buddhizALI ? dora toDI calAve gAMTha vALI ! dAdAzrI : te mAre bhAga vALavAno Ave che, cAra cAra phUTa UMDo pUMjo (kacaro). praznakartA : e kyAre vaLAI jaze, dAdA ? dAdAzrI : A vALavA beTho chuM, A badhA madada kare mahIM joDe vALavAmAM tyAre ! tyAre InDiyAmAM loka kahe che, 'dAdA, tame jhApaTo cho bahu, vakIla ke DaoNkTara kazuM jotA nathI, jhApaTI nAkho cho', tyAre huM samajaNa pADuM. e vakIla ke DaoNkTarane jene jhApaTuM tene, bolo, A koTa che te, vIsa varSathI, A garama koTa bahAra paDelo che ane pAcho garama, UMcI jAtanuM Una hoya, to dhULa mahIM pesI gayelI hoya. have bolo e dhULa kADhavI che, zuM thAya ? ene jhApaTavo paDe. jhApaTa jhApaTa karIe tyAre nIkaLe. meM kahyuM, 'A AvI dhULa paDI, pachI jhApaTuM chuM, mane A to sAruM lAgatuM haze ?" tyAre kahe, paNa jhApaTIne mane cokhkho karI Apajo. paNa mAruM magaja kharAba thAya te mATe pachI nA kahevuM paDe. pahelAM to evuM kahetA'tA 'huM akkalavALo chuM" meM kahyuM, 'hove, akkala che, tethIne gharamAM matabheda nahIM paDato hoya ?" e to buddhine laI paDe." meM kahyuM, 'buddhizALI nA hoya to ja paDe. buddhizALI hoya to kADhI nAkhe, vicAra vicAra karIne, A tamArI buddhi nathI tethI." 'he, mAre buddhi nathI ?" tyAre meM kahyuM, 'matabheda paDe che ne ?" saMsAra calAvatA AvaDatuM nathI. buddhizALI thaIne beThA che. Akho dahADo matabheda paDyA kare, vahu joDe. jo potAnA harIpha hoya to jANe ThIka che. je zeThane nokara joDe matabheda paDe to ApaNe jANIe ne, ke A zeThanAmAM barakta nathI ? praznakartA : haM. dAdAzrI : harIpha hoya to vAta judI che. samAna buddhi joDe matabheda paDe to samajIe. A asamAna buddhi joDe matabheda paDe che. have zuM thAya ? jhApaTI jhApaTIne paNa, jhApaTuM chuM te pAchAM samajI jAya ke A bhalA che

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! 61 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAjI ! gharamAM eka dahADo matabheda na thavo joIe. A matabheda kare che e buddhi ochI eTale. buddhithI vicAra kare, to matabheda karavAnI jarUra ja nathI. paNa buddhi ochI hoya to e matabheda kare ane potAnI jAtane buddhizALI mAnato hoya. buddhizALI enuM nAma ke gharamAM sephasAIDa kare, bahAra sephasAIDa kare, sephasAIDa vadhAre enuM nAma buddhizALI. gharamAM AnaMda karAvaDAve enuM nAma buddhizALI ke DAcuM caDheluM hoya enuM nAma buddhizALI ? praznakartA buddhizALI jo viveka karIne kAma kare ene buddhizALI kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : haM. vivekapUrvaka badhAMne sukha vadhe evuM khoLI kADhe, sukha ghaTe evuM nA khoLI kADhe. A to ghera AvIne Dakho kare mUA, AkhuM ghara bagADe. evI lAIpha kema hovI joIe ! ApaNI lAIpha pheravI zakIe chIe ApaNe ApaNA vicAro pheravI zakIe chIe. ApaNe nakkI karyuM ke, gharamAM matabheda nathI pADavo. evuM nakkI karIne bIjA joDe bhAMjagaDa karene, toya matabheda paDe nahIM. paNa ApaNe e cAvI mAryA vagara ja karIe chIe, tethI bhAMjagaDa thaI jAya che. ame pahelethI cAvI mArIne pachI karIe. matabheda eTale Taga oNpha vaoNra, cho'rAM dekhe anaphITa yu Ara ! tamAre matabheda vadhAre paDe ke emane vadhAre paDe che ? praznakartA : emane vadhAre paDe che. dAdAzrI : ohoho ! matabheda eTale zuM? matabhedano artha tamane samajAvuM. A dora kheMcavAnI ramata hoya chene, te joyelI tame ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : be-cAra jaNa A bAju kheMce, be-cAra jaNa pelI bAju kheMce. matabheda eTale dora kheMcavo. eTale ApaNe joI levuM ke A ghera bena khUba jorathI kheMce che ane ApaNe jorathI kheMcIzuM, beu jaNa kheMcIe to pachI zuM jAya ? praznakartA : tUTI jAya. dAdAzrI : ane tUTI jAya to gAMTha vALavI paDe. to gAMTha vALIne pachI calAvavuM, enA karatAM AkhI rAkhIe, e zuM khoTuM ? eTale bahu kheMcene, eTale ApaNe mUkI devuM. praznakartA : paNa bemAMthI mUke koNa ? dAdAzrI : samajaNavALo, jene akkala vadhAre hoya te mUke ane ochI akkalavALo kheMcyA vagara rahe ja nahIM ! eTale ApaNe akkalavALAe mUkI devuM. mUkI devuM te pAchuM ekadama nahIM choDI devuM. ekadama choDI dene to paDI jAya peluM. eTale dhImedhIme, dhImedhIme mUkavAnuM. eTale mArI joDe koI kheMca kare to dhImedhIme choDI dauM. nahIM to paDI jAya bicAro. have tame A choDI dezo AvuM? have choDI detA AvaDaze ? choDI dezone ? choDI do, nahIM to pachI gAMTha vALIne calAvavuM paDe doraDuM. roja roja gAMTho vALavI e sAruM dekhAya ? pAchuM gAMTha to vALavI ja paDene ? doraDuM to pAchuM calAvavuM ja paDe ne ? tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : hA, karavuM ja paDe. dAdAzrI : haM. eTale choDI devuM ane te pAchA paDI nA jAya evI rIte ! pachI emanA manamAM hiMmata Avaze ke A ATalI moTAI rAkhe che to huMya moTAI rAkhuM, evuM mana thAya emane. praznakartA : koI nathI rAkhatuM, ekeya namatuM ApatA ja nathI. dAdAzrI : e to DAhyo hoya te choDI de. nahIM to eka phero gAMTha paDyA pachI gAMTha nahIM jAya mATe dorI gharamAM evI rIte rAkho, gAMTha pADavI nA paDe. tUTe nahIM evI rAkho. to e nA samajavuM joIe ? praznakartA : samajavuM joIe.

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra samaje chokarAM ? chokarAM nyAya kare AvaDA AvaDA, kAraNa ke ene samajaNa to eTalI badhI hoya, e InDiyananuM chokaruM che ne eTale kahe che, A mammI ja khoTI che. dAdAzrI : ApyuM che, tene pAchuM zuM kAma toDe che ? toDyA pachI gAMTha vALavI paDe ke nA vALavI paDe ? 'paNa e mane khabara nahIM ke pachI A gAMTha vALavI paDaze." alyA, tUTatAM pahelAM, ApaNe choDI devuM paDe. nahIM to gAMTha paDI jAya. eTale pharI e doraDuM nakAmuM gayuMne. eTale A hisAba ApaNe samajavo joIe, nahIM to gAMTha to vALavI ja paDaze ne ? gharamAM matabheda thato haze ? eka aMzeya nA thavo joIe !! gharamAM jo matabheda thAya to yu Ara anaphITa phora, jo hasabanDa AvuM kare e anaphITa phora hasabanDa ane vAIpha AvuM kare to anaphITa phora vAIpha. praznakartA : pati-patnInA jhaghaDAthI chokarAM para zuM asara thAya ? dAdAzrI : ohoho ! bahu kharAba asara thAya. AvaDo nAno bAbo hoyane, teya ema joyA kare. A pappo bahu bola bola kare che mArI mammI joDe. pappo ja kharAba che, paNa moDhe bole nahIM. e jANe ke bolIza to mAraze mane. manamAM noMdha kare A, noTeDa iTasa kanTenTas, paNa gharamAM AvuM tophAna jue pachI manamAM rAkhI mele 'moTo thaIza eTale pappAne ApIza !' nakkI kare ApaNA hAru atyArathI. pachI e moTo thAya eTale Ape ! 'evuM mAravA hAru meM tamane moTA karyA ?" "to tamane koNe moTA karyA hatA ?' kaheze. 'alyA, tyAM sudhI mArA bApA sudhI pahoMcyo ?" tyAre kahe, 'tamArA dAdA sudhI pahoMcIza.' ApaNe skopa Apyo tyAre ne ? evI gAMTha vALavA daIe to ApaNI ja bhUla che ne ! gharamAM vaDhIe zuM karavA ? ene vaDhIe ja nahIM eTale bAbo jue ke A kahevuM paDe. pappA keTalA sArA che ! praznakartA : ahIMyAM bairAM joDe bahu kacakaca thAya. dAdAzrI : to bAbo zuM kare ? bAbo joyA kare, haM... A pappo to sAro che, paNa A mammI ja evI che ! mammI ja kharAba che, bahu ja kharAba che. manamAM pAcho abhiprAya Ape, bAbo. manamAM nakkI kare ke moTo thauM tyAre mammIne mArIza, kaheze. mArA pappAnuM kharAba kharAba kare che. e chokarAo nyAya jANe pharsTa klAsa. A bemAM konI bhUla thayelI che te nA A nyAya kare mUo. have A rIta che ApaNI ? bhavADo ApaNo na jue chokarAM evuM karavuM joIe ? dareka bAbatamAM bAraNAM vAsatA ho to AmAM bAraNAM vAsavA nA joIe ? chokarAMnI hAjarImAM karAtuM haze AvuM ! ane chokarAM skUlamAM gayA hoya te ghaDIe UDAvavI thoDI vakhata. jene Teva hoya tene, hebITa paDelI hoya tene. eTale vaDhavuM hoya to e skUlamAM gayA pachI vaDhavuM, zokha hoya to. nahIM to vaDhAya nahIM. nahIM to chokarAM thatAM pahelAM laDI levuM. chokarAM thayA pachI laDAya nahIM. e to skUla mAMDI kahevAya. skUlanuM maMDana thaI gayuM. nizALiyA para asara paDe. eTale laDAya nahIM. A to chokarAM UbhAM hoya toya mAre che hau sAmasAmI. eka jaNane enI bairIe mAryo hato, enA chokarAM UbhAM hatAM ne ! have A to koI dahADo sAruM dekhAya, zobhe ? chokarAM sArAM thaI jAya, saMskAra paDe, e ApaNo rasto. chokarAMne je nA gamatuM hoya e kArya nahIM karavAnuM. chokarAMne pUchavuM ke "ame be jhaghaDIe chIe to tamane game ?" tyAre kahe, 'nA game.' to ApaNe baMdha karI devuM. moTA guru nA maLe to chokarAo guru maLyA ! to chokarAM sArAM thAya, ApaNA saMskAra sArA paDe. chokarAM kazuM AvuM mA-bApane kazuM sArA dekhene, to bahu sArA thaI jAya. ene zIkhavADavuM nA paDe. saMskAra joIne saMskAra zIkhI jAya che. nahIM to "A mAre hitakArI che' evuM mAnIne chokarAM zIkhe ke mArA mA-bApa jhaghaDo kare che te hitakArI che. evuM jANIne chokarAMo zIkhe, paNa pADozInuM nA zIkhe, gharanuM zIkhe. evuM chokarAMne, e UMdhA saMskAra na paDavA joIe evuM jIvana jIvavuM joIe. chokarAM kaMI paNa ApaNe tyAM kharAba dekhe nahIM evuM vartana hovuM joIe. saMskArI chokarA hovA joIe. AvI lAIphane lAIpha kema kahevAya ? jIvana jIvavAnuM kaMIka joIe ke nA joIe, kaMIka kaLA-baLA

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pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! 65 joIe ke nahIM ! game che tamane A vAta badhI. praznakartA : bahu kAmanI che, dAdA. dAdAzrI : zuM bahu game ? strIo AgaLa ropha zuM raheze ApaNo ? dAdAe to ApaNo ropha ja toDI nAkhavA mAMDyo ! chorAMo kahe, tA paiNavuM amAre, mA-bApatuM sukha (!) dekhyuM rAtadA'De ! kAraNa ke AmAM zuM thAya che ke mArI pAse chokarAo badhA Ave che, InDiyAmAM, te koI DaoNkTara thayelA, koI injaniyara thayelA, badhA chokarAo Ave che. te meM kahyuM, bhaI, tane uMmara thaI, 25-25 varSanA, 28-28 varSanA thayA. tame lagna karI nAkho. lokone chokarIo baha hoya che te ThekANe paDI jAya ne ' tyAre kahe, "nA, amAre lagna nathI karavuM." meM kahyuM, 'bhAI, koIne lagna na karavAnuM kaheto nathI, to tame zA mATe lagna nathI karatA ?" tame Avo mArI pAse ahIM, satsaMga karo, badhuM karo ane lagnaya karo. mane vAMdho nathI. tamArA paiNavAmAM mane vAMdho nathI. huM kaMI brahmacArIo karavA nathI Avyo. huM to zuM kahuM chuM ke saMsArI jIvana jIvo ane jIvana evuM suMdara jIvo ke be ghaDI ApaNane gharamAM phUla-bagIcA jevuM lAge. te bahAra bagIcAmAM javuM nA paDe. A to mUo bahAra bagIcAmAM jAya che toya moDhe caDheluM hoya che. eTale AvuM na zobhe ApaNane. ApaNuM ghara bagIcA jevuM karI nAkhIe. praznakartA : pelA brahmacArIo paraNavAnI kema nA pADe che ? dAdAzrI : chokarAo, paraNavAnI kema nA pADo cho ? meM emane pUchyuM ke, zuM che tamane harakata ? te mane kahone ? ke strI tamane gamatI ja nathI ke strI joDe, tame puruSa nathI ke zuM che hakIkta, vAstavikatA ? mane kaho, tyAre kahe, "nA, amAre lagna nathI karavuM." meM kahyuM, kema ? tyAre kahe, 'lagnamAM sukha che nahIM evuM ame joI lIdhuM che.' meM kahyuM, haju uMmaranA nathI thayA, paiNyA vagara tane zI rIte khabara paDI, anubhava thayo ? tyAre kahe, "amArA mA-bApanuM sukha (!) ame jotA AvyA chIe." eTale ame jANI gayA A lokonuM sukha ! A lokone ja sukha nathI to ApaNe paiNIzuM to ApaNe vadhAre duHkhI thaIzuM. eTale evuM bane kharuM ? pachI meM kahyuM, 'zuM tArA mA-bApanuM sukha joyuM ?" tyAre kahe, 'roja kakaLATa, roja kakaLATa ame to Ama joyA ja karIe. are, baLyuM. A to jIvana che, AnA karatAM ekalA paDI rahevuM sAruM.' eTale javAbadAra to ApaNe ja ne ! pachI chokarAne pUchyuM, tArA bApA bhaNelA nahIM hoya ?" are, e to ijIniyara che, mUA toya AvuM ?" tyAre kahe, 'hA, evuM." tArI mA bhaNelI nahIM hoya ? tyAre kahe, 'e bI.esa.sI. che." have bhaNelo toya jIvana jIvatAM nA AvaDyuM. jIvana jIvavAnuM hoya e zIkhavuM joIe. chokarAo kahe che, "amArA phAdhara-madharanuM sukha ame joI lIdhuM.' eTale huM samajI gayo ke ohoho ! A to inDiyana pajhala AvuM che ? ghera ghera AvuM tophAna che ke chokarA nAkhuza thaI jAya ke paiNavuM ja nathI evuM thaI jAya ! A kalcara (saMskAra) ApaNuM nA zobhe ApaNane. ApaNe Arya kalcara, hAIesTa Topa levalanuM kalcara, (UMcAmAM UMcA saMskArI) ApaNe tyAM AvuM nA hoya. chokarAone evo purAvo na Apavo ke chokarA na paNe. kahe ke mArA phAdhara-madhara jevA koI mANasa ja nathI ! chokarAo badhA bahAra kahI de eTale AbarU rahe keTalI !! mane kahI dene ke amArA phAdhara-madharanuM sukha joyuM tyAre huM samajI gayo ke ohoho ! ATalo bhayaMkara vepAra haze ? A badhI pola kahI de ke nA kahI de, chokarA ! kevuM jIvana jIve te chokarA paiNavA e taiyAra nathI ! eTale pachI mAre lakhavuM paDyuM che. pustakamAM anukvoliphAiDa phAdharsa enDa inkvoliphAiDa madharsa AvA mA-bApa che enA ! kvoliphAiDa (lAyakAtavALA) hovuM joIe. chokarA paNa kaMTALI jAya eTale paiNavA mATe lAyakAta choDI de che. tamane kema lAge che, kaMIka hovuM joIe ke nA hovuM joIe ? A to chokarAo kahe che ke amAre nathI e sukha bhogavavuM kahe che. alyA, A to kharAba AbarU baMdhAI gaI kahevAya. phAdhara-madhare evuM jIvana jIvavuM joIe ke chokarAo khuzI thaIne paiNe. A to kahe

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pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! che emano kakaLATa joIne ame kaMTALI gayA chIe. alyA, eTalI badhI AbarU gaI ApaNI ? ApaNI phemilInI ATalI badhI AbarU gaI che ! eTale kaMIka jIvana to sudhAro, ApaNA chokarA sudhare evuM to kaMIka karo. nizcaya karo to thaI jaze. tame nizcaya karo mAre Ama karavuM che, to badhuM thAya evuM che. matabheda koI saMga thAya, 'tAruM sAcuM' karI jJAtI cAlI jAya ! mArI pAse pacAsa hajAra mANaso Ave che, paNa mAre koInI sAthe matabheda nathI. praznakartA: Apa kaho cho ke ATalA badhA pacAsa hajAra mANaso joDe mAre koI dA'Do matabheda nathI thayo. have koI khoTuM kaheto hoya ane tame che te sAcuM kaho, to pachI e matabheda paDyo nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : evuM chene, atyAre huM kahuM ke "bhaI, atyAre bahAra aMdhAruM thaI gayuM che." tyAre A bhaI kahe, "nA, ajavALuM che.' tyAre huM kahuM ke 'bhaI, huM tamane rikavesTa (vinaMtI) karuM, vinaMtI karuM chuM, tame pharI juone !" tyAre kahe, "nA, ajavALuM che.' eTale huM jANuM ke Amane jevuM dekhAya che evuM bole che. mANasanI dRSTinI bahAra AgaLa dRSTi jaI zake nahIM. eTale pachI huM ene kahI dauM ke tamArA vyupoInTathI tame barAbara ja cho. have bIjuM mAruM kAma hoya to kaho. eTaluM ja kahyuM, "yasa, yu Ara karekTa bAya yora bhUpoInTa !' (hA, tame tamArA dRSTibiMduthI sAcA cho.) ATaluM kahIne, huM AgaLa cAlavA mAMDuM. AmanI joDe AkhI rAta kyAM besI rahuM ? e to AvA ne AvA ja rahevAnA che. AvI rIte matabhedano ukela lAvI nAkhavAno. zuM kAraNathI AvuM bolyA ? e AgaLa dekhAtuM nathI, enuM kAraNa jaDatuM nathI. eTale pachI matabheda thaI jAya ane ame je jJAna ApIe chIene, te sarva samAdhAnI jJAna che, eTale kyAreya paNa matabheda nA paDe. samAdhAna thaI javuM ja joIe, game te TAIme, eTa enI sTeja, (game te dazAmAM), koI paNa jagyAe samAdhAna thaI javuM ja joIe. mAre A jagatamAM koInI joDe, koI paNa jagyAe matabheda paDe ja nahIM. mane gALa bhAMDe ke tame cora cho, toya mAre matabheda nA paDe. kAraNa ke e enI dRSTithI bole che bicAro, enI koI paNa dRSTi che. koI gaDuM mArI zake nahIM. gaDuM mAravuM teya dRSTi che. e enA manamAM ema mAne che ke huM gamyuM mAruM chuM. paNa ene koI dRSTino AdhAra che. eTale amane enI joDe matabheda nA paDe. ane matabheda paDe e to nabaLAI kahevAya, vIkanesa kahevAya, e badhI vIkanesa javI joIe. ema mAnone ke ahIMthI pAMcaso phUTa che. ApaNe eka ekadama sarasa sapheda evo ghoDo Ubho rAkhyo che ane ahIM AgaLa darekane ApaNe dekhADIe ke peluM zuM dekhAya che ? tyAre koI gAya kahe, to ApaNe ene zuM karavuM ? ApaNA ghoDAne koI 'gAya' kahe te ghaDIe ApaNe ene mAravo ke zuM karavuM? praznakartA : mAravAno nahIM. dAdAzrI : zAthI ? praznakartA : enI dRSTithI gAya dekhAI. dAdAzrI : hA... enA cazmA evA che. ApaNe samajI javAnuM ke Ane bicArAne naMbara lAgelA che. eTale eno doSa nathI. eTale ApaNe vaDhAya nahIM. ke bhaI barAbara che tamArI vAta. pachI bIjAne kahIe ke zuM dekhAya che ? tyAre kahe ke ghoDo dekhAya che, to ApaNe jANIe ke Ane naMbara nathI. pachI bIjAne kahIe ke zuM dekhAya che ? to ke "moTo baLada hoya evuM dekhAya che', to ApaNe naMbara samajI jaIe enA. nA dekhAya eTale naMbara samajI levA. tamane zuM lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : eTale matabhedanuM kAraNa zuM, ApaNe samajI javuM ke Ane naMbara vadhI gayA che. matabheda pADavA icchA ja nathI rAkhatA loko. potAne

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70 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra mAInDa phrekyara thaI gayuM che, baoNDI phekTara thaI gaI che, badhuM phrekTara thaI gayeluM che A to. mAInDa kevuM thaI gayeluM che ke DaoNlara jato rahe to jANe marI gayo pote evuM lAge. nA lAge evuM ? e mana phrekyara thaI gayuM praznakartA : paNa have bAraso DaoNlara bhADuM bharavAnuM hoya to lAge ja ne ! (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! jevuM dekhAya evuM bole bicArA, emAM eno zo guno, kaho ? dRSTi AgaLanI baMdha thaI jAya eTale pachI matabheda thAya ane matabheda thAya ane saMskAra ja nA kahevAya ne ? saMskArIne tyAM matabheda nA hoya. mAre jJAna nahotuM thayuM te vakhate be-cAra jaNanI joDe matabheda paDyo haze, paNa 'A' jJAna thayA pachI to koInI joDe matabheda ja nathI paDyo. matabheda zene mATe ? A to potAne AgaLa nA dekhAya eTale matabheda Ubho thAya, matabheda zenAthI thAya che? e dRSTi AgaLanI baMdha thaI jAya eTale. matabheda eTale athaDAmaNa che eka jAtanI, evuM Apane samajAyuM ? mAre to koInI joDe matabheda paDyo ja nathI atyAra sudhI, to pachI manabheda to hoya ja nahIMne? matabheda nA hoya to manabheda hoya ja nahIM. ame to premasvarUpa ! badhuM mAruM potAnuM ja che, e premathI ja badhuM A che. praznakartA : amAre gharamAM paNa matabheda to ghaNA che ! dAdAzrI : hA, ghaNA hoya, paNa toya vicArazIla mANasa dhIme rahIne vicAra karIne matabheda kADhI nAkhe. matabhedathI to A jagata badhuM UbhuM rahyuM che. eTale matabheda e phAyadAkAraka nathI ane dhIme dhIme e kamI karavA, jevI cIja che. Apane kema lAge che ? vicArazIla mANasa haMmezAMya matabheda na paDavA de. hIrAbA joDe ta ko' matabheda, trIsI sudhI ja dhaNIpaNAto meda ! pistALIsa varSathI varlDamAM koInI joDe mAre matabheda nathI. gharamAM to nahIM te nahIM paNa koInI joDe bahAreya nahIM. praznakartA: tamArI pAse evuM zuM sikreTa (rahasya) che ke matabheda nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : e ja sikreTa (rahasya) ApavA mAguM chuM tamane. A to dAdAzrI : A lAgavAthI e bhADuM bharI dIdhuM haze kharuM? lAgavAthI e thaI jatuM haze kharuM ? praznakartA : nA, paNa necarala ... dAdAzrI : nA, e nabaLAI che, vIkaneso badhI ! A mAInDa phrekTara thaI gayeluM che. e phrekTara nA thavuM joIe. amAre to ghera mArA vAIpha che, hIrAbA che te Aja keTalAMya varSothI amArAmAM matabheda nahIM, koI dahADo e nAkhI detA hoya rUpiyA toya huM ema nA kahuM ke.... praznakartA : jJAna pahelAM paNa hIrAbA sAthe matabheda nahotA koI divasa ? dAdAzrI : hA, pahelAM thato. chellA pistALIsa varSathI te badhA AjubAju vALAya jANe ke Amane kazo koI dahADoya matabheda nathI. roja joDe rahevAnuM toya matabheda nahIM, e lAIpha kahevAya. kazo matabheda ja nahIM evA vyavahAranI lAIpha kevI suMdara kahevAya ! Aje amArA gharamAM vAIpha haju che, jIve che. emanI joDe matabheda nathI paDyo. pADozI joDe matabheda nahIM. pADozIoneya lAge ke bhagavAna jevA che. kaMI manuSyapaNuM hovuM joIe ke nA hovuM joIe ? tamAro zo mata che ? praznakartA : e to hovuM ja joIe.

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72 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! 71 dAdAzrI : amAre paiye paMcAvana varSa thayAM. te paccIsa trIsa varSanI uMmara sudhI jarA bhUlacUka thaI haze. jJAna pahelAM, nAnI uMmaramAM ame hala amuka uMmara sudhI sANasI laIne Ama phaTa daIne pheMkatA'tA. AbarUdAra lokane ! khAnadAna ! cha gAmanA paTela ! pachI khabara paDI ke mArI A khAnadAnI nIkaLI gaI. AbarUnuM lilAma thaI gayuM. sANasI mArI tyAMthI AbarUnuM lilAma nA thayuM kahevAya ? strIne sANasI mAre ApaNA loka ? aNasamajaNano kothaLo ! te kazuM bIjuM nA jaDyuM to sANasI mArI ! A te kaMI zobhe ApaNane ? praznakartA : sANasI mArI e to eka mAryA pachI patI gayuM. paNa pelA AMtarika matabheda je hoya te bIheviyaramAM (vartanamAM) enuM pariNAma pAme. e to bahu bhayaMkara kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : AMtarika matabhedone ? e to bahu bhayaMkara ! paNa meM zodhakhoLa karelI ke A AMtarika matabhedano koI upAya che ? to koI zAstramAM jaDyo nahIM. eTale pachI meM zodhakhoLa karI, jAte ke Ano upAya ATalo ja che ke huM mArA matane ja kADhI nAkhuM to matabheda nahIM paDe. mAro mata ja nahIM, tamArA mate mata. huM to trIsa varSano hato tyArathI badhuM rIpera karI nAkheluM. gharamAM pachI bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM, matabheda ja nahIM. bAkI amAre pahelAM locA paDI gayelA, aNasamajaNanA locA. kAraNa ke dhaNIpaNuM bajAvavA gayelA. meM to bahu ropha mArelA. praznakartA : tame zuM ropha mAryA hatA, dAdA ? dAdAzrI : are ! bahu ropha, Ama kaDaka bahu. pachI samajaNa paDI gaI A to bhUla thaI rahI che badhI. eTale pachI baMdha karI dIdhuM. nAnapaNamAM to samajaNa nA paDe ke A bhUlo che, narI bhUlo ja chene badhI ! praznakartA : eTale hIrAbA kahetAM haze ke dAdA to tIkhA bhamarA jevA ! dAdAzrI : tIkhA bhamarA jevA... te dahADe kaDakAI bahu, bahu kaDakAI ! A to jJAnane laIne badhuM jatuM rahyuM, badhI kaDakAI. Aja chavvIsa varSathI jatuM rahyuM. pahelAM hatuM paNa te ochuM. paNa hIrAbAnI joDe to bahu varSathI meM baMdha karI dIdheluM. praznakartA : badhA dhaNIpaNuM bajAve ane Apa dhaNIpaNuM bajAvo emAM phera to kharo ja ne ? dAdAzrI : phera ? zAno phera ! dhaNIpaNuM bajAvyuM eTale badhuM gAMDapaNa, meDanesa kahevAya. aMdhArAnA keTalA bheda hoya ? praznakartA : toya ApanuM jarA judI jAtanuM hoyane ? ApanuM kaMIka navI ja jAtanuM hoya ne ! dAdAzrI : thoDo phera hoya. eka phero matabheda baMdha karyA pachI pharI matabheda nathI paDavA detA. ane paDyo hoya to vALI letAM amane AvaDe. matabheda to kudaratI rIte paDI jAya, kAraNa ke huM enA sArA mATe kaheto houM toya ene avaLuM paDI jAya, pachI eno upAya zo? sAruM-khoTuM gaNavA jevuM ja nathI A jagatamAM ! je rUpiyo cAlyo e sAco ane nA cAlyo e khoTo. amArA to badhAya rUpiyA cAle. tamAre to keTalIka jagyAe nahIM cAlato hoya ne ? praznakartA : ahIM dAdA pAse ja cAle. bIje kyAMya cAlatA nathI. dAdAzrI : ema ! haze tyAre ! A oNphisamAM cAle toya bahu thaI gayuM. A to duniyAnI heDa oNphisa kahevAya. mAre amArA gharamAM amArAM vAIpha jo pistAlIsa varSathI matabheda paDelo nathI. eya maryAdApUrvakanI vAta kare, to huMya maryAdApUrvakanI vAta karuM ane e ko'ka dahADo amaryAda thaI jAya to huM samajI jAuM ke e amaryAda thaI gayAM che. eTale huM kahuM ke tamArI vAta barobara che, paNa matabheda nA paDavA dauM. emane ema nA lAge ke eka miniTeya mane du:kha dIdhuM che. amaneya ema nA lAge ke emaNe duHkha dIdhuM che.

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! 73 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra e tyAM rahe che ne huM ahIM rahuM chuM. judA rahIe paNa vaDhavADa nathI koI jAtanI. roja bheguM thavAnuM. matabheda ja nahIM ne, bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM. cAlIsa-pistAlIsa varSathI matabheda paDyo hoya evuM mane khabara nathI. huMya emanA jevo houM to pachI e to matabheda paDI jAya. e zuM kahe che ne kevA AzayathI kahe che, e zuM hetuthI kahe che e tarata samajI jauM. eTale huM elAu karuM ke barAbara che. jJAtIno A ajoDa itihAsa. patnI aMgUThe vidhi kare khAsa ! eka dahADo hIrAbA mane kahe che, "kRSNanuM nAma daIza, tamAruM nahIM dauM.' e mane pahelethI pesI gayeluM ke A jaina dharma pALe che. eTale badhuM jaina che A. paNa atyAre to vidhi-bidhi kare che. Ama jJAneya lIdheluM. paNa e pAchaluM haju thoDuMka jAya nahIM. 'cAra vAge UThIne kRSNanuM nAma dauM chuM.' kahe che. emane kahyuM ke "A dAdA bhagavAna ?" to hIrAbA kahe "eya bhagavAna, paNa A amArA ne !" cho.' evAM e Ama kahe to Ama ne Ama kahe to Ama. eka jaNe mane pUchyuM ke, "atyAre tamAre vAIpha joDe tamAro vyavahAra kevo che ? lyo-lAvo kaho cho ? meM kahyuM, 'nA. e AvaDA chotera varSanAM ne huM aThThotera varSano to lyo-lAvo kahevAtuM haze ? huM hIrAbA kahuM chuM." pachI e mane kahe che, 'tamArA tarapha pUjayabhAva kharo ke ?" kahyuM, huM jyAre jauM chuMne vaDodarA, tyAre e vidhi karIne pachI besavAnAM. ahIM caraNe kapALa aDADIne vidhi karavAnAM. te rojeya vidhi karavAnAM. A badhAe joyeluM hoya, to ame kevAM sAcavyAM haze ke e vidhi kare ? koI jJAnInI strIe emanI vidhi karelI nahIM. tyAre ame kevAM sAcavyAM haze ? e parathI tamane samajAyuM badhuM? atyAre tyAM AgaLa jaIe ne, te dasa miniTa to pahelI emanI vidhi karAvaDAvAnI ahIM AgaLa (paganA aMguThe). mAthe paga mUkavAno, te dasa miniTa karAvaDAve, basa. eTale dAdAnI ATalI sevA. ame zuM sevA karIe ? amArAthI UMcakAya nahIM ane hAtha-paga che te, eka paga e thaI gayelo, hAtha e thaI gayelo ne besI rahe. UMcakIne saMDAsa laI javA paDe. have saMDAsa ahIMyAM kare nahIM evA pAchA akkalavALA. tyAM laI jAva, kaheze. te badhA bahu sArI sevA kare. amAre paNa ATalI sevA roja karavAnI. te emane nIce namavAnuM nahIM. cAra chokarA khurazI UMcakI rAkhe amArI ane amArA page ahIM mAthuM aDADavuM. Ama UMce amArI khurazI dharI rAkhI te page mAthuM aDADIne beThelAM hoya. amAre vidhi karavAnI ne emane bolAvuM, 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM, huM zuddhAtmA chuM' ema hIrAbA bole. eTale amAre vyavahAra Adarza hoya. bAkI Topa klAsa evo vyavahAra nA hoya mANasane ! atyAreya joDa rahIe chIe. e 75 varSanA ne huM 78 varSano. DosA-DosI beu nirAMte joDe rahe che, DosA ne DosI beu ! emaNeya A mokSe javAnuM jJAna lIdheluM mArI pAse. mAreya mokSe javuM che, kahe che. eTale A Adarza vyavahAra nA joIe ? te ADozI-pADozIne pUchavA jaIe tyAre zuM kahe ? emano to Adarza badho. A pradhAnone badhAne praznakartA : emane kahIe chIe ke 'bA, A jAte ja kRSNa che," to hIrAbA kahe, "nA, e nahIM. mArA to pelA ja.' dAdAzrI : emanI samajaNa para ApaNI samajaNa ThokI besADavAnI nathI. emanI che e karekTa che, A ApaNuMya enuM e ja che ne ! ane peluMya enuM e ja che. beu kAgaLiyAM ja ne ! koI suMvALo kAgaLa ke koI grApha pepara hoya ne koI pelo kAgaLa hoya, paNa chevaTe kAgaLiyAM phera ja ne ! pachI hIrAbA mane kahe che, "tame bhagavAna zAnA ?" meM kahyuM, 'hA, barAbara che. tamArI vAta sAcI che. pachI thoDA vakhata pachI meM kahyuM, 'bhagavAna e bhagavAna che, huM kaMI bhagavAna chuM ?" tyAre hIrAbA kahe, 'tame ja bhagavAna cho. nahIM to ATaluM badhuM loka AvatuM haze ? kaMI amathA Ave che badhA ? loka gAMDA che badhA ke pAchaLa phare te ? tame ja bhagavAna

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pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! 75 ahIM emane ghera pUchavA jaIe to javA done, kaheze ! enI mA ja kahene ke mUo, naThAro mANasa che. kahe ke nA kahe ? mAthI paNa evuM kema kahevAya ? Adarza vyavahAra joIe. jJAtI vade vartanamAM jeTaluM. anubhave tAraNa mUkyuM saheluM ! huM to A boluM chuM ne, e pramANe ja lAIphamAM vartelo . kAraNa ke A meM hisAba khoLI kADhelo. AmAM khoTa zuM, napho zuM, ema khoLI khoLIne AgaLa cAlelo chuM. eTale chellAM cAlIsa-pistAlIsa varSathI mArA vAIpha joDe matabheda nathI, e atyAreya che. huM kaMI A lokonI pAse... sAdhu ke evo tevo nathI, vairAgI nathI. huM to vepArI chuM paNa jJAnI puruSa chuM, eTale A dehano mAlika satyAvIsa varSathI rahyo nathI, koI milakatano mAlika rahyo nathI, koI cIjano mAlika rahyo nathI. huM to A tamane badhAne kahuM chuMne, te mArI jAta upara TrAyala lIdhA vagara kaheto nathI. badhI TrAyala laIne pachI kahuM chuM. kAraNa ke mAre vAIpha joDe. jJAna nahotuM toya matabheda nahoto. matabheda eTale bhIMtamAM mAthuM athADavuM. bhale lokone samajaNa nathI. mane potAne to samajaNa paDI ke A ughADI AMkhe bhIMtamAM athaDAyo, matabheda paDyo eTale ! paDyo matabheda hIrAbA saMga, turta palTI mArI rAkhyo "meM ! te mAre eka phero hIrAbA joDe matabheda paDI gayo. huM hala phasAmaNamAM AvI gayo. mArI vAIphane huM hIrAbA kahuM chuM. ame to jJAnI puruSa, amAre to badhAne "bA" kahevAya ane A bIjI choDIo' kahevAya. eTale vAta sAMbhaLavI hoya to kahuM. A to bahu lAMbI vAta nathI, TUMkI vAta che. praznakartA: hA, e vAta kaho ne ! dAdAzrI : eka dahADo matabheda thaI gayo hato. te mArI ja bhUla thaI gaI hatI, emanI bhUla nahotI. praznakartA : e to emanI thaI gaI haze, paNa tame kaho cho, mArI bhUla thaI gaI hatI. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa emanI bhUla thaI nathI, mArI bhUla. mAre ja matabheda nathI pADavo. emane to paDe toya vAMdho nahIM ne nA paDe toya vAMdho nathI. mAre nathI pADavo eTale mArI ja bhUla kahevAya ne ! A Ama karyuM to khurazIne vAgyuM ke mane ? praznakartA : tamane. dAdAzrI : te mAre samajavuM joIe ne ! te pachI eka dahADo matabheda paDyo. huM phasAyo. mane kahe che, "mArA bhAInI cAra choDIo paiNavAnI che temAM A pahelI choDI paiNe che, ApaNe lagnamAM zuM ApIzuM ?" te AvuM nA pUche to cAle. je Ape te huM 'nA' kahuM nahIM. mane pUchyuM eTale pachI mArI akkala pramANe cAluM. emanA jevI mArAmAM akkala kyAMthI hoya ? pUchyuM eTale meM zuM kahyuM? 'A kabATamAM mahIM cAMdInuM paDyuM chene, te Apajone navuM banAvyA karatAM ! A cAMdInA vAsaNa kabATamAM paDI rahyAM che nAnAM nAnAM te Apajone ekAda-be !' eTale emaNe mane zuM kahyuM jANo cho ? amArA gharamAM 'mArI-tArI' zabda nA nIkaLe, 'ApaNuM-ApaNAM' ja bolAya. te e evuM bolyAM ke 'tamArA mAmAnA dIkarAnI choDIo paiNe che, tyAM to AvaDA AvaDA cAMdInA tATe Apo cho ne !' have mArA ne tamArA bolyAM te dahADe, kAyama ApaNuM ja bole, mArA-tamArA bheda nA bole. pelA bolyAM. meM kahyuM, 'Aja ApaNe phasAI gayA !' huM tarata samajI gayo. eTale huM lAga khoLuM AmAMthI nIkaLavAno, have zI rIte Ane samuM karI levuM ! lohI nIkaLavA mAMDyuM eTale paTTI zI rIte coDavI ke lohI baMdha thaI jAya ! eTale mArI-tArI thaI te dahADe ! 'tamArA mAmAnA dIkarA' kahyuM, ATale sudhI A dazA thaI, mArI aNasamajaNa ATalI UMdhI ! meM kahyuM, 'A Thokara vAgavAnI thaI Aja to !" eTale huM tarata ja pharI gayo !

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78 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra (3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! pharI javAno vAMdho nathI. matabheda pADavo tenA karatAM pharI javuM sAruM. tarata ja pharI gayo Akhoya. meM kahyuM, 'evuM nathI kahevA mAMgato." huM jUThuM bolyo, meM kahyuM, 'mArI vAta judI che, je tamArI samajaNamAM jarA phera paDI gayo. evuM huM nathI kaheto ? tyAre kahe, 'to zuM kaho cho ?" tyAre meM kahyuM, "A cAMdInuM vAsaNa nAnuM Apajo ane bIjA rokaDA pAMcaso rUpiyA Apajo. e emane kAma lAgaze.' 'tame to bhoLA cho. ATaluM badhuM apAtuM haze ?" eTale huM samajI gayo ApaNe jItyA ! pachI meM kahyuM, 'to tamAre jeTalA ApavA hoya eTalA Apajo. cAreva bhatrIjI ApaNI choDIo che !' eTale khuza thaI gayAM. 'deva jevA che' kahe che !! - jo paTTI mArI dIdhIne ? huM samajuM ke ApaNe pAMcaso kahIe to Ape evA mANasa nathI A ! eTale ApaNe emane ja kabajo soMpI do ne ! huM svabhAva jANuM. huM pAMcaso ApuM to e traNaso ApI Ave. eTale bolo mAre sattA soMpavAmAM vAMdho kharo ? praznakartA : nA, kaMI vAMdho nahIM. phere amerikA gayo tyAre mUkavA AvyAM hatAM, phakta plenamAM AvyAM eTaluM ja ane pAchAM plenamAM gayAM hatAM basa. e bAkI Ama bese nahIM, ApaNe kahIe toya nA bese. prakRti nA oLakhIe ApaNe ? eTale huM to e dahADe chUTI gayelo. nahIM to te dahADe bhUlamAM sapaDAta. tamArA mAmAnA dIkarA evuM bolyA. eTale amAruM ne tamAruM evuM bolAya ? ApaNe vana phemilI, amAruM-tamAruM, AmacA-tumacA bole pachI rahyuM ja zuM tyAre ? eTale amAre matabheda nahIM paDelo koI dahADo pachI ! praznakartA : huM, have e vAta zIkhI gayo chuM. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa AvuM samajavuM nahIM paDe bhaI ! jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA to samajavI paDe ne ? eTale pachI mane kahe che, 'tame to bhoLA cho evA pAMcaso apAtA haze", kahe che. meM kahyuM, 'ApaNo hisAba patI gayo badho. jo ApaNe saMdhAI gayuM. A lohI nIkaLyuM kharuM ApaNAthI, paNa pAchuM paTTI lAgI gaI." evuM nA zIkhavuM joIe, bhaI ? praznakartA: paNa tyAM to ahaMkAra Avene, huM dhaNI, mAruM kemanuM nIcuM pADavuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : mUA, tuM dhaNI ? dhaNI to kevo nobala hoya ! AvA hotA haze ! A to mArA' bhAIne tyAM tame ochuM Apo cho. e vicAro emanA manamAM pesatA hatA. tene badale emaNe ema kahyuM ke ATalA badhA nA apAya. praznakartA : tame 'pharI gayA' ke tame DhIluM mUkyuM? dAdAzrI : meM DhIluM nathI mUkyuM. e mArI bhUla ja thaI. AvuM kema thAya ? mArI-tArI thatuM haze ? emaNe mane kahyuM ke "tamArA mAmAnA dIkarAne tyAM AvaDA moTA tATa' evuM kahyuM ke mane thayuM, huM evuM kevuM bolyo ke e mArI-tArI bolyA ? mArI bhUla mane samajAI, ke ohoho ! AvaDI moTI bhUla karI meM ? saMsAramAM nIvaDelo mANasa AvuM bole ? paNa te tarata meM dAdAzrI : eTale meM kahyuM, A pAMcaso eka ne bIjuM A Apo. 'tame bahu bhoLA, AvuM apAtuM haze, ene to cAra choDIo che.' kahyuM, have jItyA ApaNe. bhoLA kahyuM ke tarata huM jItyo. paNa jItI gayo te dA'De. nahIM to matabheda paData to kharekharo paData. mAruM ne tamAruM ane AMTI hala raheta. jANuM ke pAMcasoya apAvAnA nathI emanAthI, e Ape toya huM to khuzI houM ! sAcA dilathI icchA kharI ke Ape, paNa hAtha chUTavo muzkela che ne ! e bAra mahine be-traNa vakhata che te vaDodarAthI muMbaI Ave to eroplenamAM Ave eTalI mArI icchA kharI, paNa dasa-paMdara vakhata Ave to nA kahI dauM. paNa emane to huM Aja paMdara varSathI kahe kahe karuM chuM. tamAre jyAre jyAM eroplenamAM javuM hoya to chUTa. huM jANuMne javAnAM nathI to pachI mAre zuM kAma nA kahevuM ? tyAre kahe, "e plenamAM javAnuM tamAre, mAre plenamAM nathI javuM, tame jajo !" mane eka phero, gaye

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! 79 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra bhUla bhAMgI. amane AvaDI jAya tarata. te DhIluM mUkeluM nahIM. mArI bhUla ja hatI. praznakartA : Ape sudhArI lIdhuM ema kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : hA, sudhArI lIdhuM. Akho pharI gayo ke AvuM vAsaNa Apajo evuM kahevA gayo, tene badale A huM Akho pharI gayo. eTale meM pAMcaso kahyA ane e to mArA khyAlamAM ja hoya ke huM pAMcaso rUpiyA kahIza to e mane zuM kaheze. eTale rUpiyA bhelADavA nathI beTho. mAre to matabheda pADavo nathI ne rUpiyA bhelADavA nathI. A to aNasamajaNa UbhI thavA devI nathI. bAkI rUpiyA bhelADavA nathI beTho. praznakartA : eTale sAcavI lIdhuM. dAdAzrI : hA, A mArI bhUla thaI e khullI karI meM. huM samajI gayo ke A bhUla thaI, koI dahADo AvuM banyuM nathI ne eksiDanTa thayo Avo ! meM jANyuM ke A mArI ne tamArI thaI, mATe A gharamAM ApaNo have chUTakAro thaI gayo. te ApaNe evuM kevuM bolyA ke emane A bolavAno vakhata Avyo. paNa te breIna amAruM bahu pAvaraphUla. bahu bodhakaLA hoya amArI pAse, badhI bodhakaLA, jJAnakaLA, badhI kaLAothI sAbUta hoIe. tarata ja breIna kahe ke rUpiyA pAMcaso ApI dejo. tyAre e kaheze, 'tame bhoLA cho !' eTale A to bhUla amArI ne phasAyA tame. evuM samajI jaIe. praznakartA : je tUTavAnI taiyArImAM hatuM, e sAMdhI lIdhuM dAdAe ane rAjI karIne pAchuM. dAdAzrI : hA. ane rAjI to kevAM hoya, te mane to pahelethI kahetAM AvyAM che ke tame bhoLA cho bahu. zAthI ? ke koIka Ave che ane kahe ke 'mAre Ama thayuM, tema thayuM' eTale kabATamAMthI ApI do cho. eTaluM ja zIkhyA cho tame. eTale huM samajI gayelo ke bhoLapaNa to che. vAta sAcI che. paNa mAruM bhoLapaNa, huM jANIne Apato hato. pelA mUrakha banAvI de evuM nahIM, paNa jANIne ApuM. kAraNa ke ene duHkha ochuM thAya che. chetarato haze toya du:kha to ochuM thaze. ema jANIne Apato hato. huM kaMI bhoLo nathI. AkhI duniyAne oTImAM ghAlIne beTho chuM. eTale hIrAbAe mane bhoLo mAnI lIdhelo pahelethI ke A bahu bhoLA che. tyAre meM kahyuM ke A ekaluM avalaMbana sAruM che ApaNA mATe. e bhoLA kahezene, tyAM sudhI emanI korTamAM nirdoSa. emanI hAIkorTamAM ApaNe kAyamanA nirdoSa ! huM hoMziyAra houM to doSita thAuMne ? bhoLA ja, basa ! jyAM matabheda nathI tyAM vijJAna, jJAtI seMTaramAMthI dekhe samAta ! eTale matabheda koI jagyAe ame paDavA nA daIe. matabheda paDatA pahelAM ja ame samajI jaIe ke AmathI pheravI nAkho ne tame to DAbuM ne jamaNuM be bAjunuM ja pheravavAnuM jANo ke AmanA AMTA caDhe ke AmanA AMTA caDhe. amane to sattara lAkha jAtanA AMTA pheravatAM AvaDe ! paNa gADuM rAge pADI daIe, matabheda thavA nA daIe. ane matabheda paDyo to huM jJAnI zAnI ? tAre pADavo hoya toya nA paDavA dauM. tuM Ama pharuM tyAre huM Ama pharuM. tuM Ama pharuM to huM Ama kAraNa ke amArI jAgRti, evara jAgRti hoya. rAtre, covIse kalAka jAgRti. A UghADI AMkhe UMdhyA kare che A AkhuM jagateya. tamArA bosa, bosa badhA UghADI AMkhe UMghe che. tame kahetA ho to kahI ApuM ane pachI kahuM eksaplenezana mAMgo. pahelAM kahI ApuM, A pIrasI ApuM ane pachI kahuM. 'AI vonTa Tu eksapleIna yu." kaMI gaDuM nahIM, nahIM to ATalA badhA kapaDAM dhovAnAM kyAre pAra Ave te ? eTale A mazInamAM ghAlyA ke pAra ! jyAM matabheda che tyAM aMzajJAna che ne jyAM matabheda ja nathI tyAM vijJAna che. jyAM vijJAna che tyAM savAza jJAna che. 'senTara'mAM bese to ja matabheda nA rahe. tyAre ja mokSa thAya. paNa DigrI upara besI ne 'amAruMtamAruM rahe to eno mokSa nA thAya. niSpakSapAtIno mokSa thAya.

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(3) pati-patnImAM matabheda ! pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : hA, dAdA bhoLA mANasa che. mAre enuM ja kAma che. bhoLA kahe eTale choDI dene ? praznakartA : hA, choDI de. kyAreka kyAreka matabheda TANe, sAcavI lauM, hIrAbA tA jANe ! eka dahADo evuM baneluM, hIrAbA kahe che, 'huM to ahIM mAmAnI poLe ja rahIza. tyAM navuM baMdhAyuM che, koThI para, tyAM rahevA nahIM jauM.' meM kahyuM, 'tamane anukULa Ave tyAM rahevAnuM.' hA ame ema nA kahIe ke tyAM rahevA jAva tame, tamane anukULa Ave tyAM raho. gharadhaNI mANasanA manamAM ema thAyane, saheja khaTako thAyane ke potAnuM ghara baMdhAyuM toya A ghara khAlI karatA nathI. to enuM gharadhaNIne thoDuMka vadhAre bhADuM ApI daIzuM. meM kaheluM, gharadhaNI je mAge e bhADuM ApI devAnuM ane e gharadhaNIye evuM samaje che ke "mAre evuM kazuM karavuM nathI.' paNa chatAMya ame ene saMtoSa ApIe. emAM bicArAno zo guno ? ApaNuM ghara juduM thayuM eTale juduM rahevuM ja joIe ne ? ApaNe ghera javuM paDe ne ? praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : paNa hIrAbA to khasavAnuM nA kahe che. ame eDajasTa thaI jaIe paNa matabheda paDavA nA daIe ! hamaNAM eka dahADo matabheda paDI jAya evuM thayuM hatuM. rAtre meM kahyuM, 'bena jamavA banAvanAra che to pachI have rasoIyAnI zI jarUra che ?" tyAre kahe, "nA, emanA hAthanuM huM nahIM jamuM !' pachI bIje dahADe meM kahyuM. 'rasoIyo tamane jyAre joIto hoya tyAre bolAvI lo ekane badale be." AvuM kema bolyo huM ? emane ThIka lAge e kare. mAre zI jarUra A badhI ? hAtha ghAlIne zuM kAma che te ApaNe ? tamane zuM lAge che ? hAtha ghAlavo joIe ? praznakartA : nA, nA, e enA saMjogo upara AdhAra che. dAdAzrI : saMjogo jovA paDe. mane to atyAreya hIrAbA bhoLA jANe. hajuya hIrAbA to mane kahe che, 'tame bhoLA cho, huM bhoLI nathI.' praznakartA : huM pAkI, dAdA bhoLA evuM kahetA ? dAdAzrI : pAkA thayA to choDe nahIM. bhoLA thavAmAM choDI de. ane bhUlacUka thaI hoya to kaheze ke 'bhoLA che thaI gayuM." bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM ne ! pahelethI bhoLAnI chApa. have kharI rIte e bhoLA che. huM to bhoLo jarAya nathI. huM to jANIne javA deto hato badhuMya ane e emanuM ajANyAmAM jatuM rahe. praznakartA : ajANyAmAM jatuM rahe e to bhoLuM kahevAya. dAdAzrI : eTale ja e bhoLA kahevAyane ane mane to koI bhoLo kahene, to huM kahuM ke mane bhoLo kahenAra bhoLo che. mane oLakhato ja nathI, tuM. paNa huM jANIne javA dauM. je mAMgo e ApI dauM, kazuM rahevA nA dauM pAse, evo svabhAva hato. kAraNa ke eka lobha nahoto amane, bilakuleya lobha jarAya nahIM. kazuM joIe ja nahIMne ! ane pAse hoyane, to ApI dauM pAcho. mArI pAse kazuM rahe nahIM. eTale amArA bhAgIdAre kaheluM ke tamArI pAse rUpiyA hAthamAM rAkhavA jevA nathI. meMya kahI dIdhuM ke mane Apazo ja nahIM. kAraNa ke mArI pAse rahe nahIM. eTale hIrAbAya kahe ke 'tamane to paisA apAya ja nahIM.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'nA Apazo. Apazo ja nahIMne ?" bAkI ko'ka Avyo. te DhIlo thayelo dekhAya ke kabATa ughADIne ApI devAnuM. bAkI strI jAtine to, 'hamaNe ja huM sTenalesa sTIlanuM phalANuM e lAvI.' e sAMbhara sAMbhara karyA kare. tyAre Amane to emanI pAse hoya toye badhAne ApI de. eTale bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM ne kazI. kAlanI phikara nahIM emane. sArAM mANasa !

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84 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra khAtI vakhate khaTapITa ! peTamAM padharAvavuM te dharma, vAMdho kADhya baMdhAya karma ! 'thALImAM je AvyuM te peTa paDya dharma che, dALamAM mIThuM nathI, jo bolyo to te karma che.' - navanIta. e zuM kahevA mAge che ke thALImAM je Ave e peTamAM padharAvI devuM ane vAMdho uThAvavo nahIM. dALamAM mIThuM vadhAre paDI gayuM hoya to ApaNe ochI khAvI. A to ekaluM mIThuM ja ochuM hoyane to tenA mATe lokonA ghera zuM bane che jANo cho ? eTalA badhA torIvALA hoya che te zuM kaheze ? ke dALa bagADI nAkhI che, AmAM kaMI bhalIvAra nathI, peluM UghADuM zuM kAma paDyuM che ? eTale pelo bUmAbUma kare pAcho. alyA, A to rojanuM khAvAnuM che te bUmAbUma zenI kare che ? tyAre bairIya kaheze ke 'ko'ka dahADo bhUla thaI jAyane toya A bUmAbUma kare che." are ! ko'ka vAra nahIM, roja bhUla thatI hoya to paNa A to rojanuM khAvAnuM che to kakaLATa zene mATe ? A tAre vepAramAM bhUla nathI thatI ? te eka kakaLATa mAMDene temAM to bhayaMkara karmo bAMdhe che ane zarIramAM khAdheluMya badhuM poIjhana thaI jAya. jyAM kakaLATiyo mANasa khAyane tyAM poIjhana thaI jAya che. sAruM che AmanA dhaNI sAutha InDiyana che, nahIM to ApaNA gujarAtI hoyane to enI vAIphane kaheze, 'tArAmAM akkala nathI' evuM bolIne Ubho rahe. A sAutha InDiyana AvI rapha bhASA nA bole e. bhASA ApaNI gujarAtIonI rapha, paNa suMdara, haM ke ! batI sarasa majAnI rasoI, 'kaThuM khAruM karI 'eNe' majA khoI ! dAdAzrI : ghera vAIpha che te sAruM sAruM nA khavaDAve ? praznakartA bahu sAruM sAruM khavaDAve che. dAdAzrI : hA. to pachI emanI joDe Dakho nA karavo joIe ApaNe. paNa tamAro igoijhama chene, te gAMDAM kADhyA vagara rahe nahIMne ! Teva paDelI A. te tame zuM karo ? sarasa rasoI banAvI hoya, ratnAgirI hAphusa lAvyA hoya ane rasa kADhIe ane bene sarasa pUrIo banAvI hoya, zAka bahu sArAM banAvyAM hoya, badhuM karyuM hoya ane kaDhImAM jarAka saheja mIThuM AgaLa paDatuM vadhAre paDI gayuM hoya, te badhuM khAtA jAya ane kaDhI cAkhI eTale 'A kaThuM khAruM.' mUA, khAne, pAMsaro banane. A kaDhIne bAjue mUka, bIjuM badhuM khaI lene. te mUo pAMsaro nA karyo. te badhAnuM bagADe pAchuM ! e to na khAya te nA khAya, paNa badhAnuM moTuM UtarI jAya. bicArA chokarA badhAM bhaDakI jAya. A ApaNane zobhe kema karIne AvuM ? koIka dahADo kaDhI khArI nA thaI jAya ? te dahADe bUmAbUma karIe e sAruM kahevAya ? alyA, roja to kaDhI sArI thAya che to eka dahADo sArI nA thaI to jarA pAMsaro rahene ! eka dahADo pAMsarA nA hevuM joIe ? tamane kema lAgI ? A vAta gamIne ? paNa ApaNA loka zuM kare che ke, ko'ka dahADo kaDhI khArI thaI gaI hoya, temAM pelInI AbarU laI nAkhe. pati bhUla kADhe vAraMvAra, pachI thAya zarU kolDavaoNra ! gharamAM zuM karavA A Dakhala karuM chuM ? kaMI bhUla nA thAya mANasanI ? karanAranI bhUla thAya ke nA karanAranI ? praznakartA : karanAranI.

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(4) khAtI vakhate khITapITa ! 85 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : to 'kaThuM khAruM che' evI nA bhUla kaDhAya. e kaDhI bAjue mUkIne ApaNe bIjuM badhuM khaI levAnuM. kAraNa ke ene Teva che ke AvuM kaMIka e bhUla khoLI kADhIne ene dabaDAvavuM. e Adata che ane eTale. paNa te A baheneya kaMI kAcI nathI. A amerikA Ama kare, to raziyA Ama kare. eTale amerikA-raziyA jevuM thaI gayuM A, kuTuMbamAM, phemilImAM. eTale kolDavaoNra cAlyA ja kare niraMtara mahIM. evuM nahIM, phemilI karI nAkho. eTale huM tamane samajAvIza ke phemilI tarIke kema rahevAya. A to ghera-ghera kakaLATa che. praznakartA : ahIMyAM amerikAmAM to UMdhuM che. A bombArDiMga che te ahIMyAMthI nahIM paNa baheno taraphathI thAya. dAdAzrI : nA, e to keTalIka jagyAe Aya thAya ne keTalIka jagyAe Aya thAya. beu sAmAsAmI, paNa A raziyA ne amerikA jevI ja vastu che. kolDa vaoNra cAlyA ja kare che mahIM. kaDhI khArI thaI te ApaNe nA bolIe to nA cAle? opInIyana nA ApIe to e lokone khabara nA paDe ke ApaNe ja kahevuM paDe ? ApaNe tyAM mahemAna AvyA hoyane, mahemAnoneya khAvA nA de. te ApaNe vaLI evA zuM karavA thaIe ? e khAze, to ene khabara nahIM paDe, te vaLI ApaNe bhUMgaLuM vagADavuM? praznakartA : e cAkhaze to khabara paDaze. dAdAzrI : cAkhaze to enI meLe khabara paDe. nahIM to jene bhUMgaLuM vagADavuM hoya te vagADe. ane pAchuM e to banAvanArI, vagADe ja nahIMne ! enI potAnI AbarU jAya eTale. praznakartA : bole ja nahIM. dAdAzrI : tame che te 'kaDhI khArI thaI" evI bUma pADo. eTale pachI moDhAM badhAnAM bagaDI jAyane, nA thaI jAya ? 'kaDhI khArI thaI" evuM bolAya kharuM, eka phemilImAM ? praznakartA : kaDhI khArI hoya to khArI kahevI ja paDe ne ! dAdAzrI : pachI jIvana khAruM ja thaI jAya ne ! tame 'khArI' kahIne sAmAne che te apamAna karo cho. e phemilI nA kahevAya. kaDhI khArI karI' ema bolIe, ApaNe zuM toTisa borDa chIe? praznakartA : e aMtaratapane ? dAdAzrI : tyAre aMtaratA e ja ne, bIjuM kayuM? mokSe javuM hoya tene aMtaranuM tapa karavuM paDe. mIThuM vadhAre paDyuM eTale ApaNe aMtaratA karI ene khaI levAnuM. pachI pelA pUche. pelA khAya ne tyAre pUche ke tamane mIThuM vadhAre paDyuM hatuM te khabara nA paDI ? tyAre kahIe, khabara paDI hatI, paNa tamane khabara paDe eTalA mATe ja ame A nA kahyuM. tamane khabara paDaze, te vaLI mAre kahevAnI jarUra zuM che ? huM kaMI noTisa borDa chuM, kahIe. dALamAM mIThuM ochuM che te noTisa borDa upara AvI gayuM. pachI, ghaDIvAra zAMti nA rahe. A kALano hisAba to juo. A kevo kALa dhamadhamato kALa che, saLagato kALa che. ane emAM pAchA, 'A mIThuM kema vadhAre nAkhyuM che ?" ohoho ! A mIThA nA khAvAvALA ! satayugamAM khAvuM hatuMne nirAMte, atyAre zuM karavA khAvA Avyo chuM, mUA ! atyAre khaI le ne pAMsaro, nahIM to hamaNe thALI bahAra mUkI AvIza. mIThuM vadhAre kema nAkhyuM, enuM ahita kADhe pAchuM ! atyAre to jema tema karIne khaI le. patAvI devAnuM kAma. rAta bagaDe nahIM eTaluM hisAba cokhkho karavo. nahIM to vadhAre bhAMjagaDa thAya to rAta bagaDI jAya, te bena AmanA pharIne sUI jAya, ApaNe Ama pharIne sUI jaIe, te ApaNane uttara dekhAya ne emane dakhkhaNa dekhAyA kare. meLa ja nA paDe Ano ! eTale jema tema karIne pAMsaruM karavuM paDe. khoDa kADhavAnuM akkaramI kare, bhUla kADho tyAM e bhaDakI mare ! praznakartA : potAnA mANasa hoya to kahevAyane, bIjAne thoDuM

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(4) khAtI vakhate khITapITa ! 88 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : eTale potAnA mANasane godA mAravA ? praznakartA kahIe to bIjIvAra sAruM karene ema. dAdAzrI : e sAruM kare ke nA kare. e vAta badhI gappAM che. zA AdhAre thAya che ? e huM jANuM chuM. nathI banAvanAranA hAthamAM sattA. nathI tamArA kahenAranA hAthamAM sattA. A badhuM sattA kayA AdhAre cAle che ? mATe akSareya bolavA jevo nathI. praznakartA : evuM zA mATe ? dAdAzrI : hAthamAM sattA nathI e ! banAvanAranA hAthamAM sattA nathI. sattA judI jAtanI che. A to badhAM gappAM haM... vAto karIe ane ThokAThoka karIe emAM kazuM vaLe nahIM kazuMya. UlaTo huM koI dahADo boluM nahIM. ane sahaja rIte cAlavA dauM. e bhUla thAya ko'ka dahADo paNa e kaMI sahaja rIte bhUla thayelI hoya che. praznakartA : nA, paNa sAruM khAvAnuM nA banAve to evuM kahevuM paDe Ave che ? darekane je rasoI potAnI sAme Ave che.. dAdAzrI : te ApaNo ja hisAba, bhogavanArano hisAba. bhogavanAra puNyazALI hoyane to bahu suMdara khorAka Ave sAmo ane bhogavanAra jarA aDadho akarmI hoya, tyAra pachI avaLuM Ave che. eTale bhogavanAranI bhUla che emAM. ApaNuM puNya avaLuM hoyane to avaLuM Ave ane puNya savaLuM hoya to bahu suMdara Ave. e banAve che te enA AdhIna che? e kaMI nAkhe che e enI akkala nathI e, ApaNuM puNya jora kare che. badhA khAnAranuM puNya jora kare che. praznakartA : to dAdA, konA hAthamAM sattA che e ? dAdAzrI : e sattA judA hAthanI che. e to mArI pAse vadhu TAIma Avo tyAre khabara paDe. e sattA judA hAthamAM che. eka paramANu, eka raI khAvAnI koInAmAM sattA nathI. A varlDamAM koI evo jabhyo nathI ke raI pote khaI zake. saMDAsa javAnI zakti nahIM ne ! e to jyAre aTake tyAre khabara paDe. ahIMnA DaoNkTaro bhegA karyA phorenanA, eTale UMcA nIce thavA mAMDyA ke bhaI aTakaze tyAre khabara paDaze. tyAre kahe yasa, yasa, yasa ! - A vastu judI che. A mATe kazuM bolavAnuM nahIM. vahune to kazuM kahevuM ja nA joIe. e to vahu sArI hoya che ke ApaNo doSa kADhI batAvatI nathI. praznakartA H amuka jaNane matabheda nahIM paDe to AnaMda nA Avane ! dAdAzrI : baLyuM, kakaLATathI jo AnaMda hoya tyAre ene kakaLATa koI kaheya nahIM ne ! praznakartA : matabheda e kakaLATa nathI, matabheda eTale to basa. AnaMda Ave emAM ! dAdAzrI : nA, kazuMya AnaMda nA Ave. kaMTALI jAya che. AnaMda to sogaTAbAjI ramatA hoya te ghaDIe Ave. pachI zeno AnaMda ? dAdAzrI : e sAruM zenA AdhAre banAvyuM hatuM, pahelA AgaLa khAdheluM te ? kahevAthI sAruM banAve che ? eTale huM keTalAMya varSathI kaheto nathI, enI meLe sahaja rIte nAkhe te ja barAbara che. vaDhavAnI jarUra nahIM. strIone khAvA mATe vaDhavAnI jarUra nahIM. ghaNA phere to khAvAnuM sarasa hoya che. bIjAne khavaDAvIe ne to sarasa lAge ane tamane tamArI jIbha kharAba hoya che ghaNA pherA, potAnI jIbha che te chetaratI hoya, evuM mAre ghaNA vakhata baneluM, ApaNI jIbha kharAba hoya ne ApaNane kharAba lAge khAvAnuM. praznakartA ane je khAvAnuM ApaNI sAme Ave che, te kyA AdhAre

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(4) khAtI vakhate khITapITa ! pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra mUMge moM badhuM jamI le evA, tyAre ghaNI lAge deva jevA ! eka matabheda nahIM paDavA mATe to keTaluM badhuM vicArI nAkhavuM paDe ! kAraNa ke paDelo ja nahIM ne ! nA gamatuM lAvIneya zAka kare, toya mAre khAvAnuM. jo rahevA dauM to e manamAM ema kahe ke, nathI bhAvatuM A. eTale nA gamatuM hoya chatAM huM khauM. hA, emane AnaMda thAya eTalA mATe. emane tyAM nahIM, badheya paNa. nA gamatuM hoya te huM khauM chuM te eTalA mATe ke sAmA mANasane ema nA lAge ke A nA bhAvyuM. e kaDhI to khArI thaI jAya ko'ka dA'Do. nA thaI jAya evuM nahIM. praznakartA : thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : ApaNI bhUla nahIM thatI ? praznakartA : thAya, thAya. praznakartA : nA dekhAya. dAdAzrI : ApaNe kahIe, kaDhI khArI eTale ADA cAle. eTale eka dA'Do thaI temAM bUmAbUma karo cho, huM joI laIza have, kahe che. enA karatAM ApaNuM rItasara ja cAlavA do ne, gADuM dhIme dhIme. praznakartA : dAdA, A vAta bahu Ama nAnI lAge che paNa bahu agatyanI che. dAdAzrI : meM mAre ghera amArA vAIphanI eka dA'Do bhUla kADhIne, to be-traNa dA'DA pachI mArI bhUla emaNe khoLI kADhI tyAre choDI. meM kahyuM ke ApaNe have nAma nA levuM A lokonuM. ane mane to deva jevA kahetA hatA e, hIrAbA. A to dhaNI deva jevA che, kahe che. tyAre deva thavAnuM ApaNA hAthamAM che ne ! tamane kevuM lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. potAtA kadI kADhe tA khoDa, tUTyA tAra kema karIne joDa ! dAdAzrI : have kaDhI khArI thAya to bUmAbUma nA karatA, 'kaThuM khAruM thayuM che" karIne ! kaDhI khArI thAya, tyAre loko zuM kare ? bUmAbUma kare che ? navA ja jAnavarane ? potAnI vAIphe karyuM hoya tenI mahIM guno kADhe. te A mUA dhaNI thatAM na AvaDyuM ? potAnI vAIphe karyuM che, emAMya teM khoDa kADhI ? te kyAM pAMsaro marIza kahIe ! ane kahe "mAya vAIpha' alyA mUA, tArI vAIpha to khoDa zuM karavA kADhuM ? A eka jAtanI aMdarakhAne laDAIo cAlyA kare che pachI. ane jIvana, ... pachI yujhalesa karI nAkhyuM che jIvana ! A InDiyano, InDiyano eTalA badhA vAMkA thAya che, ke mane muMbaInA DaoNkTare kahyuM ke e to garbhamAMya vAMkA thAya che, ADA thAya che, te amAre kApIne kADhavA paDe che. eTale A vAMkA thavAthI du:kha AvyuM che badhuM ! sIdhA thavAnI jarUra che. dAdAzrI : ema emanI bhUla thAya to ApaNe meLa meLavI laIe, ochI laIne jarA patAvI daIe kAma. praznakartA : doravaNI ApavA mATe kahevuM paDe ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : ohoho ! pachI tamAre doravaNI koNa Ape tyAre ? dhaMdhAmAM roja nukasAna karIne Avo te ! tamArI doravaNI koNa Apaze ? praznakartA : amArI doravaNI amArA vaDIlo ApI gayA. dAdAzrI : e emaneya emanA mA AvI gayAM badhuMya ke AvI rIte dhaNIne cakkare caDhAvaje !! ane te ApaNe kahevAnI zI jarUra ? ApaNe kahevuM ane namAlamuDA dekhAvuM enA karatAM namAramuMDA ja nA dekhAvuM e zuM khoTuM ? kahe e namAlamuDo dekhAya, ke mUo namAramuMDo bola bola ja karyA kare che. bolanAra sAro dekhAya ?

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(4) khAtI vakhate khITapITa ! pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra bhUla koInI kADhavAnI nA hoya. vAIphanI bhUla kADhavAnI nA hoya. vAIphe dhaNInI bhUla nA kADhavAnI hoya. sAdhAraNa cetavaNI ApavI, ke bhaI Aje... teya jamI rahyA pachI. A to jamatI vakhate mUo bagaDe. eTale badhuM A ja rasa roTalI hoyane to emAM khAvAmAM majA nA Ave. tamane samajAya che mArI vAta, jAgRtimAM to levI joIe ke nA levI joIe ? gharamAM zAMti bilakula rahevI joIe, azAMti thavI ja nA joIe. azAMti karavAthI AvatA bhavane nukasAna karo cho, Avato bhava baMdhAya che, vera baMdhAya che strI joDe. koI dahADo pajave ke, dhaNI pajave ! haM ! ... zuM kahe che ? badhI strIo bhAve bharathAra, na maLo pharI ko' avatAra ! kaDhImAM ko'ka dahADo mIThuM vadhAre paDyuM hoya to, A khAruM dava karyuM che, kahe, tyAre mUA roja mIThuM barobara hoya toya bolato nathI ne atyAre eka dahADA hAru kALamukho zuM karavA thauM chuM ? kALamukho thaIne Ubho rahyo hoya ! roja sAruM thAya tyAre InAma Apato nathI. kharo kAyado zuM ? bhogavanArano vAMka hoya tyAre kaDhI khArI thaI jAya. ene to khArInI icchA nathI, kema khArI thaI gaI ? tyAre kahe, bhogavanAranA bhAgamAM vAMkuM che Aje. eTale bhogave enI bhUla che. konI bhUla che ? have A UMdhuM samajIne badhuM bApha bApha kare. ane te kacuMbara rAkhavAnuM tene bAphe ane bAphavAne kacuMbara kare, thoDuM nA samajavuM joIe ? tamane kema lAge che ? A lokonuM Apelu laukika jJAna na zIkhIe to mAra khaI khaIne marI jaIe. e to jJAnI pAse eka kalAka beThA hoyane, to keTalAya AMkaDA maLI jAya. cAvIo maLI jAya. DAhyA thaI jaIe. tuM thoDo DAhyo thayo ke nA thayo ? thoDoghaNo DAhyo thayo ke nathI thayo haju ? thaI javAzene, DAhyo ? saMpUrNa DAhyo thaI javAnuM. ghera 'vAIpha" kaheze, "are, evA dhaNI pharI pharI maLajo." mane atyAra sudhImAM eka bene kahyuM, 'dAdA, dhaNI maLe to Ano A ja maLajo.' tuM ekalI bena maLI mane. moDhe bole, paNa pAchaLathI to AvaDe copaDe. mAre tyAM noMdha che. eka kahenArI maLI ! sasaro ja rahyo bhAramAM, to raheze vahu lAjamAM ! bAkI strIne vAre ghaDIe ADacheTa ADacheTa nA karAya. 'zAka TATuM kema thaI gayuM ? dALamAM vaghAra barobara nathI karyo', ema kacakaca zuM karavA kare che ? bAra mahinAmAM ekAda dahADo ekAda zabda bolyA hoya to ThIka che. A to roja ? 'bhAbho bhAramAM to vahu lAjamAM." ApaNe bhAramAM rahevuM joIe. dALa sArI nA thaI hoya, zAka TADhuM thaI gayuM hoya to te kAyadAne AdhIna thAya che. ane bahu thAya tyAre dhIme rahIne vAta karavI hoya to karIe koI vakhata ke, 'A zAka roja garama hoya che, tyAre bahu sarasa lAge che." AvI vAta karIe to e Takora samajI jAya. eTale sahusahunAM dhyAnamAM rAkhe. bhAbho bhAramAM to vahu lAjamAM paNa bhAbhA ja amAre tyAM zuM karatA hatA ? Ama che te pahelAM amAre tyAM rivAja hato. moTA mANasonI nAnI strIo che te lAja kADhe. eTale moTuM nA dekhADe. Ama pharIne jAya. ane pelA lokoya kapaDuM dharI de, vacce jatA hoya tyAre. paNa pAchA A bhAbhA zuM kare ? Ama kapaDuM khaseDIne konI vahu gaI hatI te jue. eTale ApaNA lokoe kahevata pADelI 'bhAbho bhAramAM to vahu lAjamAM... nahIM to vahu lAjamAM nahIM rahe. vahu to zuM kahe, 'sAThe buddhi bagaDI A DosAnI. eTale vAta samaje to ukela Ave. nahIM to A badho meLa paDe nahIM. thALImAM kayo bhAta-khArI dALa, ra sarveno samabhAve nikAla ! gharamAM nA bhAvatuM thALImAM AvyuM tyAM 'samabhAve nikAla" karajo. koIne chaMcheDazo nahIM. je thALImAM Ave te khAje. je sAmuM AvyuM te saMyoga che ne bhagavAne kahyuM che ke saMyogane dhakko mArIza to e dhakko tane vAgaze ! eTale amane nA bhAvatI vastu mUkI hoya toya ame mahIMthI be cIja khAI laIe. nA khAIe to be jaNanI joDe jhaghaDo thAya. eka to je lAvyo hoya, jeNe banAvyuM hoya tenI joDe bhAMjagaDa paDe, tarachoDa vAgI jAya ane

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(4) khAtI vakhate khITapITa ! pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra bIjuM khAvAnI cIja zuM kahe che ke, "meM zo guno karyo ? huM tArI pAse AvI chuM ne tuM mAruM apamAna zuM kAma kare che ? tane ThIka lAge teTaluM le, paNa apamAna nA karIza mAruM.' have ene ApaNe mAna nA ApavuM joIe ? amane to ApI jAya toya ame tene mAna ApIe. kAraNa ke eka to bheguM thAya nahIM ne bheguM thAya to mAna ApavuM paDe. A khAvAnI cIja ApI ne tenI tame khoDa kADhI to paheluM AmAM sukha ghaTe ke vadhe ? praznakartA : ghaTe. dAdAzrI : ghaTe e vepAra to nA karone ? jenAthI sukha ghaTe evo vepAra nA ja karAya ne ! mane to ghaNA phera nA bhAvatuM zAka hoya te khaI lauM ne pAcho kahuM ke Aja zAka bahu sarasa che. praznakartA : e droha nA kahevAya ? nA bhAvatuM hoya ne ApaNe kahIe ke bhAve che, to e khoTuM manane manAvavAnuM nA thayuM ? dAdAzrI : khoTuM manane manAvavAnuM nahIM. eka to bhAve che evuM kahIe to ApaNA gaLe Utaraze. 'nathI bhAvatuM' kahyuM eTale zAkane rIsa caDhaze, banAvanArane rIsa caDhaze. amAre to gharamAMya koI jANe nahIM ke 'dAdA'ne A bhAvatuM nathI ke bhAve che. A rasoI banAvavI te zuM banAvanAranA hAthano khela che ? e to khAnAranA 'vyavasthita'nA hisAbe thALImAM Ave che, temAM Dakho nA karavo joIe. praznakartA : e barAbara, kabUla. e have amane samajaNa paDI gaI, barAbara eDajasTa thaI gayuM. dAdAzrI : vagara kAmanuM. nahIM to ApaNe e karIe emAM to kaDhI bagaDI jaze. kAraNa ke magaja emanuM ThekANe nA hoya te kaDhImAM mIThuM bIDuM vadhAre paDI jAya to e khAI levuM paDe enA karatAM kahIe, 'nA, bahu sArI che.' moDhe kahevAmAM zuM vAMdho che ? praznakartA : moDhe kahe to pachI vaTa jato rahe ne ! dAdAzrI : vaTa to kADhI nAkhavo ja paDaze, pahelethI. praznakartA: A puruSoe to vaTa kADhI ja nAkhavAno ? dAdAzrI : hA, nahIM to vaTa jaze. vaTanI jarUra hoya kaMI ? jo A kaThuM karyuM che, vAMkuM bolIe to zuM thAya ? eka to tapelo hoya ane kahyuM khAruM che, bole eTale bhaDako thAya. evuM nA kahevAya ! enI joDe samAdhAna ApaNe karI levuM joIe, ke mahIM bhagavAna beThA che, tuM vaDhavADa nA karIza ane huMya nA karuM. nahIM to chokarAM upara asara thAya khoTI, eTale e chokarAM joI le ke zuM kare che ? ApaNe vAMkuM nA bolIe to eya manamAM samajI jAya. eya kaheze, 'nathI bolavuM, mArA phAdhara ja bolatA nathI, bhUla kADhatA nathI.' ane ApaNe kahIe, 'A kaDhI bagADI' to kaDhI kaheze, 'bagADI emAM mAro zuM guno, mUA tuM mane vagove che ?" eTale kaDhI rIsAya ane bhaIne rIsa caDhe, chokarAMne rIsa caDhe. have sarasa jamavAnuM hatuM te badhuM bagADyuM ApyuM ane pachI aMdara 'kALamukho ja che, nirAMte jamavAya nA dIdhA. jamatAM pahelAM mUo bagaDyo. pachI sAlAne dajhADyo hoya to vAMdho na hato. tyAM sudhI vicAre pachI ! ane "mane bahu game che tArI rasoI,' kahIe eTale ApaNe chUTyA. praznakartA : to roja khArI banAve. dAdAzrI : haiM, cho ne banAve. ene hau khAvAnI che ne ! praznakartA: bahu vakhANIe eTale evI khArI ja, gaI kAla jevI ja banAve. dAdAzrI : evo bhaya rAkhavAno nathI A jagatamAM ! koI mANasa corI gayuM, eno e mANasa pharI corI jaze evo bhaya rAkhavA jevuM che nahIM jagata ane hisAba haze to ja pharI corI jaze, bAkI corAya nahIM. aDAya nahIM evuM A jagata che. eTale nirbhaya rahejo badhI vAtamAM. praznakartA : ane dAdA, evuM jo kIdhuM hoya ke khArI che to bIje divase moLI thaI jAya. kAraNa ke e imozanala thaI jAya pachI.

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(4) khAtI vakhate khITapITa ! 95 96 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : vAta kharI che, teTalA mATe to huM ahIM koI dahADo jamatI vakhate bolato nathI enuM zuM kAraNa ? ke huM kahuM ke jarA mIThuM vadhAre che to kAle bIje dahADe ochuM nAkhaze. enA karatAM bolavAnuM nahIM. eTale enI meLe regyulara raheze. koI dahADoya bolyo nathI. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, A to evI vAta kIdhI ke amArA jevA je sAMbhaLanAra che te darekanA gharanI aMdara to zAMti zAMti thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : hA, zAMti zAMti thaI jAya. praznakartA : kAraNa ke A sivAya bIjuM kaMI karyuM ja nathI. sAMjathI savAra sudhI teM Ama na karyuM, te tema na karyuM, te Ama karyuM, teM tema gAtara DhIlAM paDaze, tyAre huMya besADIza kahe enA karatAM ApaNe badalo nA mAMgIe, te zuM khoTuM ? ApaNe emane vaDhIe nahIM to e ApaNane koI dA'Do vaDhe nahIM, te ApaNuM gADuM sIdhuM-saraLa cAlI jAya, A to paraspara chene ? kaMI ochuM ApaNe lIdhe e rahe che ? ene lIdhe ApaNe chIe ne ApaNe lIdhe e che. paraspara che. A to loko kahe che, "nA, mArI bAyaDI." alyA muA, nahoya, e bAyaDI, evuM nA bolIza, mUA ! bAyaDI apamAnajanaka zabda che, "amArA patnI che,' ema bola. mUA, bAyaDI bole che ? ane A moTo dhaNI beTho ! vyavahArika kaoNlejanuM kazuM jANato nathI ne dhaNI thaI beTho ! nA DaphaLAvAnAM hoya tyAre DaphaLAve ane DaphaLAvAnAM hoya tyAre samajaNa nA paDe. tamAre tyAM dhaNI thaI bese che koI ? ApaNe zuM avalaMbana levAnuM, prAptane bhogavo, aprAptano vicAra nahIM karavAno. prApta je AvyuM, jeTaluM ThIka lAge ne eTaluM khAIne UbhuM thaI javuM. koIne kaSAya utpanna nA thAya evuM vAtAvaraNa rAkhavuM. ApaNA nimitte koIne kaSAya nA thAya, evuM ApaNuM nimitta rahevuM joIe. ane koI mANasa kaheze, bhaI, to jagata sudhare kema karIne ? e to jamI rahyA pachI dhIme rahIne kahevuM, ke Aja dALa chene, temAM jarAka saheja mIThuM vadhAre paDatuM hatuM, tamane gamyuM? tyAre kahe, nA, maneya lAgyuM che. have kAle pheraphAra saheja karajo, kahIe. paNa moLI nA thaI jAya eTaluM rAkhajo. e pAchuM cetavavuM joIe. pelo kinAro kahevo paDe. pelo kinAro nA kahIe to pAchuM e kinArAnI AuTa opha jatuM rahe. dAdAzrI : paNa evuM huM bhANA upara beThA pachI koI dahADo bolyo nathI. kAraNa ke mAruM peluM vacana evuM kharuMne, eTale pachI bIje dahADe hAtha dhrujato hoya ke ochuM paDaze ke vadhAre paDaze, ochuM paDaze ke vadhAre paDaze, te pachI ochuM paDI jAya eTale mArAthI to akSareya bolAya ja nahIM ! ane tame nA bolo to uttama. praznakartA : paNa bolavAthI to phera paDato ja nathI ! je hathoTI e hathoTI pramANe ja thAya. dAdAzrI : phera paDe nahIM karuM. te e meM joI lIdheluM pAchuM. ema eno anubhava kADhI lIdhelo, ke A badhuM nakAmuM jAya che bolavAnuM te. roja tame khoDo kADho cho, te have vera baMdhAya che te juduM ! praznakartA: huM kahuM ke A thoDA varSa jIvavAnuM, have to kaDhI saheja gaLI khavaDAya paNa nA khavaDAve. dAdAzrI : te enuM nAma ja bhrAMti ne ! phUlizaneza jene kahevAmAM Ave che. eTale kakaLATa karyA vagara khaI jAvane chAnAmAnA ? nA khAI levAya ? kakaLATa, kakaLATa ! roja kakaLATa ! pachI ApaNo vakhata Avene tyAre strI eya khoDo kADhavA mATe taiyArI thaI gayelI hoya ! e jyAre praznakartA : barAbara che dAdA paNa A Ape je dRSTAMta ApyuM te paramArthamAM jo levAya to amAruM to kalyANa thaI jAya. A kaMI laukikanI vAto ApanI pAse hotI nathI. dAdAzrI : barAbara che. eTale laukika samaja jo hoyane toya bahu thaI gayuM, gharamAM zAMti thaI jAya. vagara kAmanI to athaDAmaNa enI ja thAya che badhI !

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(4) khAtI vakhate khITapITa ! 98 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra hIrAbAe karI kaDhI khArI, pANI reDIne meM sudhArI ! eka phero kaDhI sArI hatI, paNa jarAka mIThuM vadhAre paDeluM eTale pachI mane lAgyuM ke A to mIThuM vadhAre paDyuM che, paNa jarAka khAvI to paDaze ja ne ! eTale pachI hIrAbA aMdara gayAM tyAra horuM meM pANI reDI dIdhuM jarA, te emaNe jarA joI lIdhuM. e kahe che, "A zuM karyuM ? meM kahyuM, 'tame pANI sTava upara mUkIne reDo ane huM pANI nIce re.' tyAre kahe, 'paNa upara reDIne ame ukALI ApIe." meM kahyuM, 'mAre mATe badhuM ukALeluM ja che. mAre kAma sAthe kAma che ne !' eTale kaDhI khArI thAya to Ama AghApAchA thAya eTale jarA pANI reDI dauM ! tyAre pachI koIka dahADo pharI pAchA kaheze, 'phalANuM zAka che te khAruM thaI gayuM hatuM te tame Aja bolyA ja nahIM !' te meM kahyuM, tamane khabara nA paDe !! je e khAvAnA che enuM ApaNe jaNAvIne zuM kAma che te ? eTale ame kazI vAta bolelA nahIM, koI jAtanuM kazuMya akSare bolelo nahIM, emanI AbarU nahIM bagADavAnI koI dA'Doya. e mArI nA bagADe. eTale badhuM AvI rIte eDajasTamenTa lIdhelA, pahelethI. bane eTalo kakaLATa na thAya. bIjuM to sArI rIte jIvana gayeluM. koI dahADo bolyA nathI, pacAsa varSathI bolyA nathI ke A khAruM thaI gayuM che. e to je hoya e khaI levAnuM, game tyAM hoya toya. hamaNe thoDuM A nIrubenanI joDe vAta karuM ke A jarA pheraphAra karAvo. kAraNa ke A uMmaramAM tabiyatanI pelI zarIranI anukULatA nA hoya tyAre kahyuM ke bena AnuM Ama karazo. chatAMya je thaI gayuM e to calAvI levAnuM. praznakartA: paNa dAdA, e je tame karyuM, e keTalI jAgRti ke pANI nAkhyuM. ene nathI kaheluM ke AmAM mIThuM vadhAre paDyuM che, nahIM to du:kha thAya, mATe pANI reDyuM. - dAdAzrI : hA, are ghaNI phero to khIcaDI kAcI hoyane, toya ame bolyA nathI, tyAre loka kahe che ke, "AvuM karazo ne to gharamAM badhuM bagaDI jaze.' meM kahyuM ke, 'tame kAle jojone.' te pachI bIje dahADe barobara Ave. praznakartA : paNa keTalI jAgRti rAkhavI paDe che kSaNe kSaNe ! dAdAzrI : kSaNe kSaNe, covIseya kalAka jAgRti, tyAra pachI A jJAna zarU thayuM hatuM, A jJAna ema ne ema thayuM nathI. praznakartA : evA bIjA anubhavo kahone Apa. dAdAzrI : bahu anubhavo thayelA, keTalA kahuM tamane ? praznakartA : jeTalA yAda Ave e. dAdAzrI : e to vAta ahIM nIkaLe tyAre sAcuM. A to TeparekarDa che, te nIkaLe tyAre nIkaLe, nahIM to nA nIkaLe. praznakartA : nIkaLe to nIkaLavA do. sAMbhaLIne badhAne bahu AnaMda thAya che.. dAdAzrI : hA, AnaMda to thAya ne ! paNa AmAM evuM che ne ke A badhI jAgRti AvavI joIe. Ama polaMpola kema cAle ?

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1OO pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! kara tuM dhaNIpaNAto nikAla, dhaNIpaNuM banAve to behAla ! lagna karatI vakhate jue, teno vAMdho nathI, juo. paNa tevI e rahevAnI hoya AkhI jiMdagI, to juo. evI rahe kharI ? jevI joI evI ? paNa pheraphAra thayA vagara rahe ? pachI pheraphAra thaze te sahana nahIM thAya, akaLAmaNa thaI paDe. pachI javuM kyAM ? AvI phasAyA bhAI AvI phasAyA. te paiNavAnuM zAnA hAru? ApaNe bahArathI kamAI lAvIe. e gharanuM kAma kare ne ApaNe saMsAra cAle ne dharma cAle, eTalA hAru paiNavAnuM. ane te baI kahetI hoya ke eka-be bAbAnI jarUra che. to eTalo niveDo lAvI Apo. pachI rAma tArI mAyA ! paNa A to pachI dhaNI thavA bese. muA, dhaNI zeno thavA besuM chuM te ? tArAmAM barakata nathI ne dhaNI thavA beTho ! huM to dhaNI thauM' kaheze, moTA AvyA dhaNI ! moDhAM juo AmanA dhaNInAM ! paNa loko to dhaNIpaNuM bajAve chene ? gAyano dhaNI thaI bese, bheMsano paNa, te gAyo e svIkAratI nathI tamane dhaNI tarIke. e to tame manamAM mAno cho ke A mArI gAya che ! tame to kapAsaneya mAro kaho cho, A kapAsa mAro che, kaheze. te kapAsa jANatoya nathI bicAro. tamAro hoya to tamane dekhatAM vadhe ane tame ghera jAo to nA vadhe, paNa A to rAte hau vadhe kapAsa. kapAsa rAte vadhe ke nA vadhe ? praznakartA : vadhe, vadhe. dAdAzrI : emane kaMI tamArI jarUra nathI. emane to varasAdanI jarUra che, varasAda nA hoya to sUkaI jAya bicArA... praznakartA : paNa, emaNe ApaNuM badhuM dhyAna kema nahIM rAkhavuM ? dAdAzrI : ohoho ! bairI dhyAna rAkhavA rahyA haze pelA hAru ? praznakartA : eTalA mATe ja bairI ghera lAvyA chIene ! dAdAzrI : evuM chene, zAstrakAroe kahyuM che ke dhaNIpaNuM karazo nahIM. kharekhara tame dhaNI nathI, pArTanarazIpa che. e to ahIM vyavahAramAM bolAya che ke, vahu ne vara, dhaNI ne dhaNIyANI ! bAkI kharekhara pArTanarazIpa che. dhaNI cho, eTale tamAro hakka-dAvo nathI tamAro, dAvo nA karAya. samajAvI samajAvIne badhuM kAma karIe. praznakartA : kanyAdAna karyuM. dAnamAM kanyA ApI, eTale pachI ApaNe enA dhaNI ja thaI gayA ne ? dAdAzrI : e sudharelA samAjanuM kAma nathI, e vAIlDa samAjanuM kAma che. ApaNe sudharelA samAje, strIone saheja paNa aDacaNa nA paDe e jovuM joIe. nahIM to tame sukhI nahIM thAva. strIne duHkha ApIne koI sukhI nahIM thayelo. ane je strIe patine kaMI paNa duHkha ApyuM haze, te strIoya sukhI nahIM thayelI ! A jo dhaNI thaI beThA hatA ! ohoho !! bahu moTA dhaNI ! jANe pharI potAne dhaNI nA thavuM paDe. ghaNA pherA dhaNI thayo che toya pAcho dhaNI thaI bese che. A to nikAla karavAnI vAta che. A sattA vAparavAnI nathI, A sattA bhogavavAnI che. sattA vAparavA mATe nathI. A sattA jANIne bhogavavA mATe che. ApaNA loka sattA vApare, nahIM ? 'tuM samaje nahIM, eka to akkala vagaranI. tuM tAre ghera jatI rahe', kahe che. A akkalano kothaLo mUo ! dhaNI thavAmAM vAMdho nathI, paNa dhaNIpaNuM bajAvavAmAM vAMdho che.

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(5) dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! 101 102 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dhADa nathI mAratA ane bairI Akho dahADo gharamAM bicArI kAma kara kara kara kare ane puruSo bahArathI Ave eTale ropha mAre ke huM bahAra kamAvA gayo hato. dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke tApamAM pharelo mANasa ropha nA mAre to zuM kare ? tApamAM mAthe tela paDatuM hoya ! praznakartA: paNa strI Akho dahADo gharamAM kAma karatI hoya. dAdAzrI : strIne parasevo kyAM paDavAno che te ! mahenata kare to mAlika nahIM, paNa pArTanara ! premALa pati ke mUo jelara ? praznakartA : dhaNIo dhaNIpaNuM kare chene, to have dhaNIpaNuM kare eTale mAlikIbhAva thayo ane patnInuM gulAmIpaNuM thayuM, to bane che te, ekabIjAne krosa kare evuM che. bheLaseLa thaI jAya evuM che. mAlikapaNuM ane gulAmI vAIphanI ! dAdAzrI : mAlikapaNuM ja gulAmI chene ! koIpaNa vastunA mAlika ApaNe thaIe ne eTalI ja gulAmI. je mAlika thayA e vaLI gulAmImAM ja hoya. e gulAmInA ja mAlika hoIe. A dukAnanA mAlika hoyane, te badhA upara AdhAra rAkhyo, nAma judAM judAM ApaNe rAkhIe e badhA gulAma ja kahevAya. e dhaNIpaNAne laIne to A cage che mUo. have dhaNIpaNuM e bhogavavAnuM che, bhogavaTo che A, pArTanarazIpa che. vAIpha joDe pArTanarazIpa che, mAlikIpaNuM nathI. praznakartA : bhArata dezano eka evo khyAla che, strIo vizeno ke e milakata che, mUDI che ! dAdAzrI : hA, evo khyAla che. mUDI che ane bhogya sthAna che evuM mAne che ! praznakartA : hA, e milakata Ave eTale bhogavavAnI vastu Ave. bIjAne e bhogavavAnuM na rahe. pote ja bhogave, bIjo koI nahIM. eTale e jAtano khyAla che, jayAre paradezamAM e khyAla ocho che. dAdAzrI : paradezamAM evuM nathI, tyAM to mAlikIpaNAno bhAva dekhe to leDI jatI rahe. yu, yU karIne jatI rahe. bacakAM bharIne, nahIM to baMdUka batADe ! e kaheze, ema nA jANato ke huM tAruM ramakaDuM chuM. tuM ne huM be phrenDalI premamAM chIe evuM mAne che, premathI chIe. patine Teva tethI mAre sepha, barakata hIta paNa mAte TaoNpa ! praznakartA : A puruSo kAma mATe bahAra jAya che. bahAra jaIne kaMI praznakartA : nA, laDavAnI vAta nathI, paNa ropha mAre enI vAta che. dAdAzrI : ropha to mAre ja, ropha to mAre.. paiNyA zuM karavA, kaheze ! nahIM to paiNata ja nahIM ! A to paiNe che ropha mAravA mATe. vadhAre to ropha mAravAnI Teva che. chatAM A puruSone zuM kahuM chuM ke dhaNIpaNuM nA karI besIza. tuM to dhaNI ja chuM ne ! paNa dhaNI thaI beThAM che ? alyA, dhaNI nA thaI besAya. pAchA vahune vagove. alyA mUA vahuno zo doSa ? tamArI pAsa karelI vahu. ane vahue pAsa karelo A bhAI, eNe dhaNIpaNuM nA karavuM joIe. A kaMI gAyo-bheMso che, te dhaNI thaI bese che ? - gharamAM matabheda zAnA hoya ? ApaNe mata kyAMthI lAvyA ? kaI kaoNlejamAM pAsa thayA te mata lAvyA ApaNe ? mata to jemAM eksaparTa thayelA hoya tyAM hoya ! ahIM kyAM eksaparTa cho ? zemAM eksaparTa cho ? ahIM matabheda hotA haze, gharanI bAbatamAM ? A to matabheda nathI, A to dhaNIpaNuM che !! dhaNI ! huM dhaNI thayone, te mAre sAcavavuM ja paDe ne, kaheze ! tyAM baoNsa to TeDakAvatAM hoya roja... ane ahIM dhaNIpaNuM kare, 'A tane AvaDatuM nathI, have tane AvaDe tyAre kharuM !zuM AvaDyuM tamane ? kAraNa ke strIone je AvaDe, evuM puruSane AvaDe nahIM. puruSa paMdara varSano hoya ane strI paMdara varSanI hoya, paNa strIne paccIsa varSanuM jJAna hoya. e paccIsa varSanI hoya evI badhI samajaNa hoya. e jarAya kAcuM na paDavA de. have puruSo vagara kAmanA bhoLA bicArA te, vacce mahIM mAthuM mAra mAra

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(5) dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! 103 104 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kare ! alyA, cAlavA devuM ! emane kahIe, 'tuM karuM chuM, e badhuM karekTa che. mAre bUma pADavAnI jarUra nathI.' paNa A to enuM dhaNIpaNuM banAvyA vagara rahe nahIM ne ! Dakhala karyA kare ! eksaparTa hoya tyAM matabheda hoya. AmAM kaMI matabheda hoto haze? A kaMI eksaparTanI lAIna che ? huM amAre ghera hIrAbA che, tyAre e Aje che te dALa-bhAta roTalI kare, kAle kaDhI kare, to e je kare e kharuM ! AmAM ApaNe eksaparTa nahIM ne vagara kAmanA bola bola karIe ! A to dhaNIpaNuM bajAve che. bIjuM kazuM nahIM, have e to nA ja bajAvavuM joIene ? tamane kema lAge che ? ke bajAvavuM joIe ? dhaNIpaNuM nA bajAvavuM joIe ne ? praznakartA H nahIM banAvavuM joIe. dAdAzrI : "ApaNe" A saMyogo joDe saMyoga pUrA karavAnA che. A saMyogomAM AvI phasAyA chIe. to A saMyogo jema tema karIne UMcA mUkavAnA, ApaNe kaMI dhaNI thavA mATe nathI AvyA. lAIpha eTale lAIpha che ! A to jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA nA hoya ne vahu karavA jAya ! vagara 'sarTiphikeTe' dhaNI thavA gayA, dhaNI thavA mATenI lAyakAtanuM 'sarTiphikeTa' hovuM joIe. to ja bApa thavAno adhikAra prApta thAya. A to vagara adhikAre bApa thaI gayA ne pAchA dAdAye thAya ! Ano kyAre pAra Avaze ? kaMIka samajavuM joIe. pati eTale vAIphanI vAIpha, A sUtra samaye suMdara lAIpha ! koI strIne pUchIe ke, "bena, kemanuM che dhaNI joDe ?" e to evuM ja, e to bolazo ja nahIM, pUchazo ja nahIM, kaheze. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'nahIM pUchuM, bena.' huM samajI ja jauM ne ! | 'hasabaMDa' eTale 'vAIphanIya 'vAIpha'. (pati eTale patnInI patnI !) A to loka dhaNI ja thaI bese che ! alyA, 'vAIpha' kaMI dhaNI thaI besavAnI che ? 'hasabaMDa' eTale 'vAIpha'nI 'vAIpha'. ApaNA gharamAM moTo avAja nA thavo joIe. A kaMI 'lAuDa spikara' che ? A to ahIM bUmo pADe to poLanA nAkA sudhI saMbhaLAya ! dhaNI ja cho ! to paNa ApaNA loko dhaNIpaNuM karyA vagara rahetA nathI. ne dhaNIpaNuM bajAve che ! eTale ame pustakamAM lakhyuM chene, dhaNI e potAnI strIno paNa strI che evuM kahyuM che ! jo dhaNI thaI beThA !! AvuM kyAM karyuM? tamane samaja paDI, A dhaNI thaI beThA che, evuM? eTale ApaNane evo bhAva na hovo joIe. tA rAkho bhaya, besaze caDhI, mUcho kyAMthI Uge ? che bhamaraDI ! ApaNe ApaNa pharaja bajAvavI. mATe jakke nA caDho, tarata vAtano ukela lAvI nAkho, tema chatAM sAmo mANasa bahu bAjhe to kahIe ke, "huM to pahelethI ja DaphoLa chuM, mane to AvuM AvaDatuM ja nathI. evuM kahI dIdhuM eTale pelo ApaNane choDI de. je te raste chUTI jAo ane manamAM ema nahIM mAnI besavAnuM ke 'badhAM caDhI besaze to zuM karIzuM ?" e zuM caDhI bese ? caDhI besavAnI koI zakti ja dharAvatuM nathI. A badhAM karmanA udayathI bhamaraDA nAce che.' mATe jema tema karIne Ajano zukravAra phleza vagarano kADhI nAkho, kala kI bAta kala dekha leMge. bIje dahADe kaMIka TeTo phUTavAno thayo to game te rIte tene DhAMkI devo, phira dekha leMge. Ama divaso kADhavA. praznakartA : A vAIpha che to baoNsa thaI bese che, tenuM zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : e vAMdho nahIM. e to jalebI, bhajiyAM karI Ape vAIpha. ApaNe kahIe ke ohoho ! te to bhajiyAM-jalebI karI khavaDAvyA ne ! ema karIne phUlAya, pachI kAle TADhI paDI jaze, enI meLe. enI gabharAmaNa nahIM rAkhavAnI. e caDhI bese kyAre ? ene jo mUcho Uge to caDhI bese. paNa mUcho UgavAnI che ? game eTalAM DAhyAM thAya, toya mUcho Uge ?

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106 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (5) dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! 105 praznakartA : nA Uge ! dAdAzrI : ane ApaNe mUMDI nAkhIe to jatI rahe ? klIna seva karIe, paNa jatI rahe kaMI ? nA jatI rahe, eTale A mUcho thAya to to e ApaNI para caDhI bese. paNa e tame khAtarI rAkhajo. mUcho nahIM Uge ! sarakhA thavA phare, kazuM sarakhA thavAya nahIM, e chone, sAmyavAdavALA kUdAkUda kare. sarakhuM thavAya nahIM. tame mUcho nA rAkho, tethI kaMI strI mUcho rAkhI zakavAnI che ? ApaNe marajImAM Ave evuM rAkhIe paNa strIo kaMI enI marajImAM Ave to mUcho rAkhI zake ? praznakartA : nA. nA. dAdAzrI : mATe haMmezAMya strI koI dahADo kaMI dhaNI thaI besavAnI nathI. mATe dhaNI thavAnI tamAre jarUra ja nathI. dhaNI cho ja, vaLI thAva cho zuM karavA te ? je cho emAM thavAnuM kyAM rahyuM ? strIomAM bahu zakti hoya che, paNa e puruSa thaI zake nahIM. eTale tamArI uparI thaI zake nahIM. tame ghera paiNI lAvyA, eTale e tamArI UparI nahIM thAya. mATe tamAre manamAM evuM nahIM rAkhavuM ke e uparI thaI jaze, caDhI besaze. A to AnA bhayamAM ne bhayamAM nakAmAM jhaghaDA thAya che. bAkI eka bhava to tamAro hisAba che eTaluM ja pataze. bIjo lAMbo lAMbo hisAba thavAno ja nathI. eka bhava to hisAba cokkasa ja che, to pachI ApaNe zA mATe ThaMDA peTe nA rahevuM ? eka bhAI kahe che ke mArI joDe vAIphane roja kakaLATa thAya che. have vAIphano doSa ke eno doSa ? zuM kaho cho ? praznakartA : doSa to banneno ja hoyane ! dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke vAIpha koI dahADo vaDhavA Ave ja nahIM puruSa joDe. e to jyAre puruSanAmAM chata nA dekhe tyAre vaDhavA taiyAra thAya. chata dekhe kAM to saMyamI dekhe, to bole nahIM, akSare bole nahIM. vAIpha to chata nA dekhe eTale pachI evuM ja ne ! chata to hovI joIene ! A parsanAlITI hovI joIe, enAmAM saMyama hovo joIe. hA, pachI potAnAmAM barakata nA hoya to to badhuM caDhI bese. sahu koI caDhI bese. barakta to joIene ! paiNyA pachI barakata nA hoya, to kAmanuM zuM ? caDhI bese, evuM badhuM manamAM zaMkAo nA karavI. A zaMkAone lIdhe Tasala upara caDhyA ja kare chene, niraMtara duHkhamAM ja rahyA kare che, kolDavoramAM. have kolDavaoNra karavAnI zI jarUra che tamAre ? kyAreka vahu kare baDabaDa, kahe vahune 'huM chuM aNaghaDa' ! ane caDhI bese tyAre ApaNe che te samajavAnuM, ke A bolabola kare te ghaDIe ApaNe keTaluM grahaNa karavuM ne keTaluM nahIM, eTale pachI e pote thAkIne zAMta thaI jAya ne manamAM samajI jAya ke AnA peTamAM pANI hAlatuM nathI. mAruM boleluM nakAmuM jAya che. pharI bolavAnuM baMdha karI deze. ApaNe kahevAthI baMdha nahIM karAya. peTamAM pANI nA hAle eTale AkhI duniyA kabaje thaI jAya ! praznakartA : vaza thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : polIsavALAya sajjaDa thaI jAya ! eTale baI ko'ka dahADo jarA garama thaI hoya to ApaNe ene kahIe ke, mArAmAM barakata ochI che, ema kahIe to e zAMta thaI jAya. ene manamAM thAya ke, "ohoho, dhaNIe ema kabUla karyuM ke barakata ochI praznakartA : ane evuM nA kahIe to ? dAdAzrI : eTale zuM thAya ema ? zuM e caDhI besaze ? ene game eTalI davA karIe toya mUcho Ave ene ? to zI rIte caDhI besavAnI che ? ene kahIe ke le, rejharathI dADhI kara joIe ! ane bahu ropha mAratI

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(5) dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! 107 108 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra hoyane, to eka dA'Do bannee aMdhArAmAM pharavA nIkaLavuM, te pharatAM javAnuM ne pachI ApaNe ene ekalI mUkIne doDavuM ! "o mArA bApa re ! e pharI koI dahADo nahIM vaTuM' ema kaheze !!! eTale koI strI bahu ropha mAratI hoya to ene kahIe ke rAte bAra vAge bahAra pharavA jauM chuM ? rAte jarA AghA-pAchA thAva joIe ? phaphaDI jaze, e nA jIravI zake. emanuM gajuM zuM che te ? e kazuM karI zake nahIM. ane evuM vahu caDhI bese to mArI pAse lAvajo. rIpera karI ApuM haDahaDATa ! ghaNI badhI rIpera karI ApI. paradezamAM rIto hoya khAsa, pharI paraNe tyAM varSe pacAsa ! praznakartA: ahIMyAM, amerikAmAM chene, sekanDa serImanI karatA hoya che loko. amuka varSa pachI bIjI vakhata e ja strI joDe lagna kare pAcho. pAchI pratijJA le, ahIMyAM AgaLa. dAdAzrI : eTale ? praznakartA : A to pahelAM pratijJA lIdhI hoya, aNasamajamAM strIne jANato nA hoya, strI che te puruSane jANatI nA hoya, paNa pachI pacAseka varSa pachI thAya ke have pAchAM lagna karIe jethI kaMIka pAchuM aikya vadhAre thAya, eTalA mATe pachI pratijJA le, ke "jevI che te tevI, tAruM pAchuM pANigrahaNa karuM chuM.' dAdAzrI : hA, e sArI samajaNa kahevAya. praznakartA : A bahu UMcI samajaNathI pAchAM lagna karatAM hoya che. ane jethI ke bIjAM paccIseka varSa nIkaLI jAya to... dAdAzrI : paNa emane bIjI bhAMjagaDa nathI hotI. eTale A dhaNIpaNuM e to bahu moTAmAM moTI vastu che. A ekalA ja bajAve dhaNIpaNuM, InDiyana ekalA ja. phorenavALA dhaNIpaNuM bajAvatA nathI. emane kaMI dhaNIpaNuM banAvavAnI Teva nathI. emane to mIThAza rahevI joIe. pelI "yu yu' kare tyAre Aya kaheze, AvI jA 'yu yu'. e bhase tyAre pelI bhase, bhasAbhasa-bhasAbhasa badhuM ne pachI Divorsa ! praznakartA : A badhA puruSa to bakarI thaI gayelA che (phorenarsa). dAdAzrI : bakarI nahIM, e emane bicArAne AvuM nahIM. Amane InDiyanone dhaNIpaNuM banAvavA joIe ! ane pelA phorenavALAne to bicArA emane bIjuM kazuM nahIM, Dakhela koI nahIMne ! ene to jo kadI premamAM mahIM gusse thaI gaI ke ne pachI e thaI jAya, pharI jAya. ane ApaNA to gussAneya khaI jAya. game eTalI gusso kare. savAramAM pAchA dUdha pAya, cA pAya. rAte che te dUdhamAM bezara mIThuM nAkhe ne pachI savAramAM cA thAya. A InDiyanonI vAta judI che. dUdha phATe nahIM. avaLI samaje gALe jIvata klezamAM, savaLI samaje hiMDoLe jhulAve TesamAM ! hinduo to mULathI ja klezI svabhAvanA. tethI kahe chene, hinduo gALe jIvana klezamAM ! paNa keTalIka komamAM e loko to evA pAkA ke bahAra jhaghaDI Ave, paNa ghera vAIpha joDe jhaghaDo nA kare. have to e loko bagaDI gayA che. paNa A bAbatamAM mane teo DAhyA lAgelA. are, keTalAka to vAIphane hIMcako hau nAkhe ! praznakartA : e hIMcako nAkhatA hatA, e vAta karone. dAdAzrI : hA. eka dahADo tyAM gayelA, te e bhAI enI vAIphane hIMcako nAkhavA mAMDyo ! te meM pUchyuM ke, 'tame AvuM karo cho te caDhI besatI nathI ?" tyAre e kahe ke "e zuM caDhI besavAnI hatI ? enI pAse hathiyAra nathI kazuM nathI' meM kahyuM ke, "amAre tyAM to bIka lAge ke bairI caDhI besaze to zuM thaze ? eTale ame hIMcako nathI nAkhatA." tyAre kahe ke, 'A hIMcako nAkhavAnuM kAraNa tame jANo cho ?" e to evuM baneluM ke 1943-44mAM ame konTekTa lIdhelo gavarmenTano, temAM eka kaDiyA kAmano uparI hato lebara konTekTavALo. teNe

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(5) dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! 109 110 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra peTA konTekTa laI lIdhelo. te keTalAya vakhatathI kahe ke sAheba, mere ghara Apa Avo, mere ghara, jhUMpaDImeM Avo. jhUMpaDI bole bicAro. bahu sArA DAhyA hoya bolavAmAM, vartanamAM hoya judI vAta ne na paNa hoya. paNa bolavAmAM jyAM svArtha nA hoya tyAM sAruM lAge. te eka dahADo kahe che, zeTha Aja amAre ghera ApanA pagalAM pADo. mAre tyAM padhAro to amArI patnI-bALako badhAMne AnaMda thAya. tyAre to jJAna-bAna nahIM paNa pelA vicAro bahu suMdara, lAgaNI bahu sarasa badhAne mATe. ApaNe ghera kamAto hoya to ene sAruM, kema karIne kamAya, evI paNa bhAvanA. ane e duHkhamAMthI mukta thaI sukhI thaI jAya, evI bhAvanA ! A to A joyeluM meM, e kamyuniTImAM zuM zuM enA guNa kevA hoya che te ! meM kahyuM, 'kema nA AvuM ? tAre tyAM pahelo AvuM.' tyAre kahe, 'mAre tyAM to eka ja rUma che, tamane kyAM besADuM ?" tyAre meM kahyuM, 'huM tyAM besI rahIza. mAre to eka khurazI ja joIe. nahIM to khurazI nA hoya toya mAre cAle, tAre tyAM avazya AvuM. tArI icchA che to huM AvIza." eTale huM to gayo. amAre 'konTrAkTara'no dhaMdho eTale amAre AvuM ene ghera paNa javAnuM thAya, ame tenI cA pIeya kharA ! amAre koInI joDe judAI nA hoya. have te dahADe jamAno sAro bahu, te dahADe to pAMca rUma joItA hoyane toya che te vIsa rUpiyAmAM makAna maLe. toya eNe bicArAe be rUma rAkhelI. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'A traNa chokarAne A tame be jaNa A rUmamAM zI rIte phAve che tamane ?" tyAre kahe, 'sAheba zuM karuM? pUruM thavuM joIene !' ene meDA upara trIje mALa be rUma hatA. A konTrAkTa to moTA moTA lauM chuM, to kema A be ja rUma ? tyAre kahe, 'kharcA bahu che. ghera devuM che, te vALavAnuM. madhara-phAdhara che tene kharcA mokalavAnA che, bimAra rahe che.' kahyuM, 'alyA, A ... eka ja rUma moTI che ane A bIjI to A saMDAsa jeTalI ja nAnI che.' tyAre kahe, "sAheba kyA kare ! hamAre garIba ke lIye itanA bahota hai." meM kahyuM, 'tArA vAIpha kyAM sUI jAya che ?" tyAre kahe, 'ye hI ja rUmameM. ye beDarUma kaho, ye DAIniMga rUma kaho, ye saba ye hI." meM kahyuM, 'orata ke sAtha kucha jhaghaDA-baghaDA hotA nahIM hai ke ?' 'ye kyA bolA ?" meM kahyuM, 'zuM ?" tyAre e kahe, "kabhI nahIM hotA hai. aisA mUrkha AdamI nahIM hama." "alyA matabheda ?" tyAre kahe, 'nahIM, matabheda orata ke sAtha nahIM." zuM kahe che, vAIpha joDe mAre vaDhavADa nA hoya.' meM kahyuM, 'koI dahADo vAIpha gusse thaI jAya tyAre ?" to kahe, 'mArI, A bahAra pelo sAheba herAna kare che ne tuM pAchuM herAna karIzane to mAruM zuM thaze ?" eTale cUpa thaI jAya ! meM kahyuM, 'matabheda paDato nathI, eTale bhAMjagaDa nahIMne?" tyAre kahe, nA matabheda paDe to e kyAM sUI jAya ane huM kyAM sUI jAuM ? ahIM be-traNa mALa hoya, to huM jANuM ke trIje mALa jato rahuM ! paNa A to enI e ja rUmamAM sUI javAnuM, e AmanI pharIne sUI jAya ne huM Amano pharIne suI jAuM pachI zuM majA Ave ? AkhI rAta UMgha nA Ave, paNa atyAre to zeTha huM kyAM jAuM ? eTale A vAIphane to koI dahADo huM duHkha Ape nahIM. e mane mAre toya duHkha na ApuM, kahe che. eTale huM bahAra badhAnI joDe vaDhI AvuM, paNa gharavALI joDe 'kliyara' rAkhavAnuM ! vAIphane kazuM nA karAya. caLa AvatI hoya to bahAra vaDhIne Ave, paNa ahIM gharamAM nahIM. merI hAlata meM hI jAtuM.' manAve pote karI bahAtuM ! vAIphe patine pote (mAMsa) lAvavA kahyuM hoya have eno pagAra ocho maLato hoya, te bicAro nonaveja zI rIte lAve ? pelI mahinAthI kahe kahe karatI hoya ke A chokarAMone badhAne bicArAne sAMbhaLa sAMbhaLa kare che, have to mAMsa laI Avo. pachI eka dahADo pelI manamAM bahu akaLAya tyAre pelo kahe, Aja to laIne AvIza. bhAI pAse javAba rokaDo e jANe ke javAba udhAra daIza to gALAgALI deze. te pachI kahI de ke Aja lAuMgA. ema kahIne chaTakIne Ave. jo javAba Ape nahIM to jatI vakhate pelI kacakaca kare. eTale tarata pojhiTiva javAba ApI de ke Aja le AuMgA. kidhara se bhI le AuMgA. eTale pelI jANe ke Aje

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(5) dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! 111 112 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra to laIne Ave eTale pachI rAMdhIe. paNa pelo Ave ne khAlI hAthe dekhe eTale e bUmAbUma karavA mAMDe, pelo Ama to bahu pAko hoya eTale vAIphane samajAvI de ke, "yAra merI hAlata meM jAnatA huM, tuma kyA samaje.' evA eka-be vAkya bole pachI vAIpha kaheze, "sAruM, pharI lAvajo." paNa daza-paMdara dahADe pharI pelI bumo pADe to pAcho "merI hAlata meM jAnatA huM,' evuM bole ne to pelI khuza thaI jAya. e koI dahADo jhaghaDo nA kare. ane ApaNA loka to te ghaDIe kaheze ke tuM mane dabAya dabAya karuM chuM ? alyA, AvuM strI pAse nA bolAya, eno artha ja iTaselpha bole che, tuM dabAyelo chuM. alyA paNa tane zI rIte dabAve ? jyAM paiNatI vakhate paNa tAro hAtha upara to rAkhe che, to tane e zI rIte dabAve ? hAtha upara rAkhIne paraNyo che te vakhate e Aja dabAvI jAya to ApaNe zAMta rahevAnuM. jene nirbaLatA hoya e cIDAI jAya, jenAmAM nirbaLatA hoya e cIDiyo hoya. ApaNA loka nathI kahetAM ke kAkA, tame bahu cIDiyA thaI gayA cho. tyAre pelA kaheze ke pahelAM to huM cIDiyo nahoto, A paiDapaNane lIdhe thaI gayo chuM. eTale paiDapaNamAM nirbaLatA thAya te mANasa cIDiyo thaI jAya. eTale jyAre pelI cIDAI jAya tyAre ApaNe nA samajIe ke AnAmAM nirbaLatA che. to te ghaDIe ApaNe mazInarI baMdha rAkhavI, ne gamatI hoya to rekarDa sAMbhaLavI ne nA gamatI hoya to rekarDa sAMbhaLavAnI baMdha rAkhavI. rekarDa to vAgyA ja karavAnI. have tyAM AgaLa evuM bolIe ke tuM mane dabaDAya dabaDAya kare che ? alyA, evuM bolavAnuM ja zene mATe ? bheguM khAvuM, bheguM rahevuM ane eka ja oraDImAM pAchA sUI rahevAnuM, tyAM A zI bhAMjagaDa ?! A saMsAranA loko kaMI kAcI mAyA che ? dhaNIno hAtha upara rAkhIne paiNAve chene ? eTale jagata evuM kaMI gAMDuM nathI ! eTale gharamAM jhaghaDo nA kare e uttamatA kahevAya. chatAM A ghara che te jhaghaDo thAya to kharone ! baIye cIDAtI hoya kAraNa ke babbe mahinA sudhI nonaveja nA lAvyA hoya to nA cIDAya ? saMsAra chene, badho ! ko'ka dahADo bhAIneya TesTa paDyo to eya cIDAI jAya ne 'tuM aisI hai taisI hai' kare. paNa sAme jo pelI cIDAya to e baMdha thaI jAya. e samajI jAya ke AmAMthI bhaDako thaI jaze. ane ApaNA loka to bhaDako kare, te ghaDIe dIvAsaLI cAMpe. ATalo phera. eTale kahyuM chene, hinduo gALe jIvana klezamAM. pahelethI ja AnI A ja olAda, badhuM jude juduM. pAghaDIoya judI, dakhaNI pAghaDI judI, gujarAtI pAghaDI judI, gujarAtImAM paTeliyA pAghaDI judI, suvarNakAranI pAghaDI judI, brAhmaNanI pAghaDI judI, vANiyAnI pAghaDI judI ! alyA A zuM che te ? meLo che ke zuM che ? pAcho hindustAnamAM to cUle cUle dharama judo ! badhAnAM bhUpoInTa judAM, meLa ja nA khAya. chatAM paNa ghera jhaghaDo na karatA hoya, nirAMte khAtApItA hoya tene sAruM kahIe. ene insAniyata bharI paDI che kahevAya. jhaghaDo karate polIsa joDe, garIbaDIte zA mATe gadoLe ? A keTalAka to bahAra mArIne Ave paNa gharamAM nA mAre. tamArAmAM loko bahAra mAre ke gharamAM ? praznakartA : gharamAM ja, bahAra to badhe sAruM sAruM kahe. dAdAzrI : gharamAM ja ? to to Avo ne Avo ja rivAja che? A vaMza evo che. ane keTalAka to ghera vAIpha gALo gALo detI hoya toya hIMcakA nAkhe ne kaheze, 'kyA kare, hamako inakI sAthe rahene kA hai na !" ghera to vAIpha vakhate caDhI jAya toya ene zAMta pADe, 'tuM mAgIza e tane ApIza, tuM tAre jhaghaDIza nahIM. prabhunI maherabAnI thaze ke tarata tane badhuM A karI ApIza.' paNa zAMta kare. bahAra laDIne Ave to sAruM. paNa gharamAM nA laDavuM joIe. eTale loka bAIDI joDe vaDhavADa karatA hoya toya ApaNe nA karavI. meM pUchyuM, 'nikAla kemano thAya che ?" tyAre kahe, 'vAIpha to mane sukha Ape che. e kaMI akaLAyane, to huM kahuM ke, yAra merI bhUla thaI have jAne de ne." te Ama tema karIne nIveDo lAve ! nahIM to e mAruM sukha ja jatuM rahe pachI. "merI hAlata meM hI jAnatA huM bole eTale patnI khuza thaI jAya. ane ApaNA loka to hAlata ke kazuM kahe nahIM. alyA, tArI hAlata

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(5) dhaNI khape, dhaNIpaNuM nahIM ! 113 114 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kahe to kharo ke 'sArI nathI mATe rAjI rahejo." pachI meM kahyuM, "aurata koI dahADo sAmI thaI jAya tyAre ? kaDaka thaI jAya to ?' usako meM boluM. are, hamArI kyA hAlata hai, meM jAnatA huM, aba kAyake lIe ! te manAvI laIe ane A mUA manAve che ? A to AbarUdAra laDakA. judI karI nAkhe, judI. A to dhaNI thaI bese ! Ama, tuM mAnatI nathI ke ? le ! A dhaNI te moTA dhaNI thaIne ema jANe, garabA gAya evo ! juo to kharA ! AvuM hotuM haze ? tyAre ApaNAmAM kahevata che, hinduo jIvana ja klezamAM gALe che. gharamAM kleza lAve. bahArano kleza gharamAM lAve. eTale e samajavuM joIe ne ? A ApaNe potAnI jAtane vagovatA nathI. ApaNe samajavuM joIe ke Ama na hovuM ghaTe. mahIM ko'ka AvI DahApaNanI vAta ApaNe pakaDI levI joIe ke nA pakaDavI joIe ? A to eka dAkhalo kahuM chuM. ATalo badho e, lebara konTrAkTara jevA zuM kahyuM? ke huM laDuM to rAtre mAre ne ene zAMti ja kyAM rahe ? eTale e jarA AkarI thaI jAya, to huM ThaMDo thaI jAuM ane pachI AisakrIma lAvIne ene khavaDAvI dauM, kahe che. bahAra bajAramAM kyAM AisakrIma nathI maLato ? joIe eTalo maLe che, kahyuM. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'kyAM vaDhavADa karuM ?" tyAre kahe, bahAra polIsavALAne mArIne AvuM. mArI sisTama e che ke hAtha jarAka e thatA hoya to bahAra ko'kanI joDe vaDhI AvuM. paNa ghera AvIne to hIMcakobIcako nAkhuM, gharamAM laDavAnuM nahIM. patnIne khuza rAkhuM eTale mane e bhojana-bojana badhuM sarasa Ape. sukha ApavA je suMdara jamADe, tyAM laDI dhaNI ijajata bagADe ! pachI che te eka chokaro Avyo hato, auraMgAbAdamAM. eNe jANuM haze ke A dAdA pAse kaMIka adhyAtmajJAna jANavA jevuM che. eTale e chokaro Avyo, 25 ja varSanI uMmarano, te meM to satsaMganI badhI vAta karI A jagatanI, kAraNa ke vaijJAnika rIta sArI che, ApaNe sAMbhaLavA jevI che. atyAra sudhI cAlyuM te jamAnA pramANe lakhAyeluM che. jevo jamAno hato ne tevuM varNana kareluM che. eTale jamAno jema jema pharato jAya tema varNana vadhatuM jAya. meM to gammata karI enI. meM kahyuM, 'alyA zAdI-bAdI karI che ke ema ne ema pharyA karuM chuM ?" zAdI karI che, kahe che. meM kahyuM, 'kyAre karI ? mane bolAvyo nahIM teM ?' 'dAdAjI, huM jANuM nahIM tamane, nahIM to huM te dahADe bolAvata. zAdI kyane cha mahinA ja thayA haju,' kahe che. gammata karI jarA. traNa vAge UThIne bhakti karavAnI. mArI nAnI uMmaramAMya karato Avyo . mArA phAdhare ya karatA ! have pachI meM kahyuM, 'have to vAIpha AvI, have zI rIte bhakti karavA de tane traNa vAge ?* eya mane kahe ke tamArI bhakti karI levI. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'patnI joDe jhaghaDo thato nathI ?' 'e zuM bolyA ? e zuM bolyA ?" kahyuM, 'kema ? ohoho ! e to mUMha kA pAna ! e mane vaDhe to huM calAvI lauM. sAheba, enA thakI to huM jIvuM chuM. e mane khUba sukha Ape che. khUba sAruM sAruM bhojana banAvIne jamADe che, ene du:kha kema devAya ? have ATaluM samaje toya bahu sAruM. patnI upara jora nA kare. nA samajavuM joIe ? patnIno kaMI guno che ? "muMha kA pAna' gAlI de toya vAMdho nahIM. bIjo koI gAlI de to joI lauM, le tyAre e lokone keTalI kiMmata che ? ApaNA loko Akho dA'Do khAMDa khAMDa kare che gharanA mANasone. eTalI badhI hiMsA kare che ke na pUcho vAta. Akho dA'Do bairIne gALo bhAMDa, chokarAne gALo bhAMDe. Akho dA'Do paisAnI ja lahAya, paisAnI ja lahAya, hAya-hAya, ne gharamAM jhaghaDA thAya che evuM tame joyeluM ? patnI eka phero vAMkuM bolI hoya, e game evuM bole toya calAvI levAnuM. bahAra mArI Avo paNa gharamAM koIne mAro nahIM, vaDho nahIM, kazuM nahIM. evuM hovuM joIe. ane A to gharamAM Akho dA'Do hiMsA ja kare che A loko gharamAM !

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116 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra tenI bhUla kADhIe to mitrapaNuM chUTI jAya. praznakartA : A mitra nathIne, A to bairI che. dAdAzrI : eTale khIle bAMdhelI che eTale ane pelo khIle bAMdhelo nahIM. (6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! praznakartA : ekavAra bhUla kare to mApha karI dauM, paNa bIjIvAra jyAre enI e ja bhUla kare to pachI nathI calAvI levAtuM, emAM gusso thaI jAya ApaNAthI. dAdAzrI : gusse tame thAva chone ? praznakartA : hA. eka phemilI chatAM kADhI bhUla, vicAra, ene bhoke che tuM zULa ! dAdAzrI : koI dahADo tArI bhUla e kADhe ke nA kADhe ? praznakartA: kADhe. dAdAzrI : te ghaDIe tuM emanI bhUla kADhuM ke nA kADhuM ? praznakartA : cokkasa. dAdAzrI : hA, e ja huM kahuM chuM. to phemilImAM bhUla nA kaDhAya. praznakartA : evuM kaMI samajAvone kema bhUla nA kaDhAya ? dAdAzrI : bhUla to kaDhAtI haze paNa ? bhUla kADhavAthI zuM phAyado? imozanala mANasa ja bhUla kADhe. koIne bhUla kADhavAno adhikAra nathI. bhUla kADhavAnuM keTalA vakhatathI cAle che ? A bagaDI gayuM evuM bole koI dAdAzrI : paNa bhUla e kare ane tame zuM karavA nabaLA thAva cho ? bhUla e kare ne nabaLA tame thAva cho ? praznakartA : hA, paNa enI bhUlane lIdhe ApaNe badhAe sahana karavuM dahADo ? dAdAzrI : nA, paNa nabaLA zuM karavA thAva cho tame ? ApaNe gusse nahIM bharAvuM ne joyA karavAnuM. eTale ene manamAM bhaya lAge ke A juone bolatA nathI. kevA sArA mANasa che. Avo dhaNI pharI nahIM maLe. 'he bhagavAna ! AvA A dhaNI sAta avatAra sudhI Apaje." kahe che. praznakartA : paNa bhUla kADhe emAM ene du:kha kema thAya ? dAdAzrI : paNa e kahevAnI jarUra zuM hatI. te evuM che ne ApaNA lokoe AkhuM ghara badhuM kharAba karI nAkheluM che badhuM Ama jhaghaDA karIne. praznakartA : hA, paNa du:kha e badhuM gharamAM nA thavuM joIe. koI raste jatA mANasane kahe to ene duHkha thaI jAya paNa gharamAM evuM duHkha nA thavuM joIe. bhUla kADho to dhera Ijha nathiMga roMga ina dheTa (emAM kaMI khoTuM nathI.) ! praznakartA : thoDI thoDI cAle badhI, nAnI nAnI bhUla kADhuM chuM. dAdAzrI : koI dA'Do bhUla kADho cho enI ke dararoja ? praznakartA : dararoja. dAdAzrI : nA, bhUla nA kaDhAya. bhUla kaDhAtI haze ? koI mitra hoya

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(6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! dAdAzrI : nA, bhUla kaDhAya ja nahIM. duHkha to thAya ja haMmezAM. bhUla kADhavI eTale du:kha thAya ja. e kADhavI ja nahIM. enuM apamAna karyA barAbara che e to. e to enI para tamane vera che eka jAtanuM. agara to dhaNIpaNuM bajAvo cho. huM chuM ! A moTA dhaNI AvyA ! 117 praznakartA : bhUla kADhIe to kharAba lAge ene ane nA kADhe toya kharAba lAge. dAdAzrI : nA, nA, nA, kharAba nA lAge. ApaNe bhUla nA kADhIe, to e kaheze, 'kaDhI khArI thaI toya bolyA nahIM !' tyAre kahIe, tamane khabara paDaze ne, mAre zuM karavA kahevuM. paNa A to kaDhI khArI thaI gaI hoya to moDhuM bagADe, kaDhuM khAruM thayuM che. mUA, A kaI jAtanA mANaso che ! Ane dhaNI tarIke kema rakhAya te ? kADhI melavo joIe dhaNIne to ! AvA nabaLA dhaNIo ? alyA, e baI nathI samajatI. te tuM vaLI kahyuM chuM ? mAthAphoDa karuM chuM ? e to emane chAtIe ghA nA lAge baLyuM ! manamAM ? kaheze, 'A kaMI huM na hatI samajatI ? A to mane bANa mAre che mUo. A kALamUkho roja mArI bhUlo ja kADha kADha kare che.' to ApaNA loko jANIjoIne A bhUlo kADhe che. tethI A saMsAra vadhAre bagaDato jAya che. tamane kema lAge che ? eTale thoDuM ApaNe vicAra karIe to zuM vAMdho che ? praznakartA : vicAra karatA hoya to to vAMdho ja nathIne, nathI karatA tenI ja A moMkANa che ne ! dAdAzrI : nA, paNa ema nahIM. vicAra karavAmAM eTalo ja vicAra karavAno che ke je bhUlane e jANI zake che, e samajI zake che e bhUla ApaNe kADhavAnI zI jarUra ? emane samajaNa paDe, khArI nA samajaNa paDe bena, tame khAva eTale ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : eTale pachI tamAre kahevAnI jarUra nahIM. 118 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra thAyane ? sAmo jANe te bhUla kema kaDhAya ? bhUla kADha je upakAra matAya ! praznakartA : AvI bhUla kADhIe to pachI enAthI pharIthI bhUla nA huM, te dAdAzrI : ohoho ! eTale upadezanuM kAraNa thAya eTalA mATene ! bhUla kADhavAno vAMdho nathI, huM tamane zuM kahuM chuM, bhUla kADho paNa e pote upakAra mAne to bhUla kADho, ke tame sAruM thayuM A mane bhUla dekhADI, mane to khabara ja nahIM. te upakAra mAno cho ? bena, tuM emano upakAra mAnuM chuM ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to pachI eno artha zuM kADhavAno ? je bhUla e jANatI hoya tene tamAre kADhavAno artha zuM che ? ene kALamukhA kahe che strIo, ke mUo kALamUkho jyAre tyAre bolIne Ubho rahe che. e je jANatI hoya bhUla e ApaNAthI kaDhAya nahIM. bIjuM kaMI paNa thayuM hoya ke kaDhI khArI thaI hoya pachI zAka bagaDI gayuM hoya, to e khAya to e jANe ke nA jANe ? mATe ApaNe kahevAnI jarUra nA hoya ! paNa bhUla e nA jANatI hoya, te ApaNe kahIe to e upakAra mAne. bAkI e jANatI hoya te bhUla kADhavI e to guno che. ApaNA loko inDiyano ja kADhe che. praznakartA : evuM hoya ke bhUla khabara nA hoya ane ApaNe kADhIe ane sAmo upakAra nA mAne to zuM karavuM ApaNe ? dAdAzrI : upakAra nA mAne toya vAMdho nahIM, paNa ene upadeza thaze ne ! upadezanuM kAraNa to thAya ne. peluM upadezanuM kAraNa nathI, peluM to khAlI tene che te e thayA karaze. praznakartA : enI bhUla kADhe paNa ene enuM khoTuM lAge to kADhavI ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : khoTuM lAgene badhuM. manamAM e rAha jue ke pharI emanI

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(6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! 119 120 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kyAre bhUla huM kADhyuM ! evuM nA hovuM joIe. ApaNI suMdara lAIpha hovI joIe. tamane vAta kaMI vyAjabI lAge che ? praznakartA H kharIne. dAdAzrI : have je e bhUla jANatI hoya e bhUlo nA kADhazo have. cAmAM ta khAMDa, pI le cUpacApa, kAM to prema mAMga, ta bata sApa ! huM to sAMtAkrUjhamAM trIje mALe beTho houM to cA Ave. te jarA koI dahADo khAMDa bhUlI gayA hoya to huM pI javuM ane teya dAdAnA nAmathI. mahIM dAdAne kahuM, cAnI mahIM khAMDa nAkho sAheba. te dAdA nAkhI Ape ! eTale khAMDa vagaranI cA Ave to pI jaIe basa. amAre to kazo Dakho ja nahIM ne ! ane pachI pelo khAMDa laIne doDadhAma karIne Ave. meM kahyuM, 'bhAI, kema khAMDa lAvyo ? A cAnA kaparakAbI laI jA.' tyAre kahe, 'tame cA moLI hatI te khAMDa mAMgI nahIM !" meM kahyuM, 'huM zuM karavA kahuM ? tamane samajaNa paDe evI vAta che ?" praznakartA: Ape kahyuM ke cAmAM khAMDa nA hoya, to tamAre bairIne kazuM kahevuM nahIM ane cA pI levI. paNa have koI ApaNe ghera mahemAna AvyuM hoya ane evI cA banAve ane ApaNe kazuM kahIe nahIM, to mahemAna kaheze ke AnI bairIne banAvatA nathI AvaDatuM ane A dhaNI enI bairIne kahetoya nathI ! dAdAzrI : paNa kahevuM hoya to ko'kane ghera gayA hoyane ApaNe ane emane kahIe evI rIte kahevuM joIe ke plIjha (maherabAnI karIne) jarA khAMDa lAvajo, kahIe. tyAM, tArAmAM akkala nathI ane khAMDa nAkhI nahIM ne ! evuM kahIe to zuM thAya? kahevAmAM vAMdho nathI. eTale kahevAmAM rIta hovI joIe. ane pote ekalA hoya to pI levI. kAraNa ke emane potAne khabara paDazene ! pachI ApaNane kahe, "mahIM khAMDa na hatI, bhUlI gaI hatI, toya tame bolyA nahIM !" tyAre kahe, 'tamane khabara paDaze ne, kaMI mAre ekalAne ochuM pIvAnI che ! e mAre kahevuM tenA karatAM tamane anubhava thAya e zuM khoTuM che ! enA karatAM ame zuM karIe ? ApaNe kahIe, ke cA gaLI che, cA gaLI che. eTale pIe ke tarata gaLI lAge. sAyakolojIkala iphekTa thAya. nahIM to gaLI hoya toya moLI lAge. paNa pelI khAMDa vagaranI cA gaLAmAMthI Utare nahIM to? nA, nA Utare toya utArI daIe. eTaluM tapa nA karIe to mANasa zenA ApaNe ? e tame tapa karone, ethI baIne pastAvo thAya ane pastAvo thAya eTale bIjI vAra sarasa kare ane bhUla nA kare. ane jo bhUlano godo mArazo to bhUla karaze. e kaheze, "jAva, tamAre thAya e karajo. huM karavAnI ja." evuM thaze, avaLI pharaze. evuM nA karo. A jIvana jIvatAM zIkho. Ama Ane lAIpha ja kema kahevAya te ? matabheda kema thAya ? eka bhAIne pUchyuM, "gharamAM koI divasa vAIphanI bhUla kADhuM chuM ?" tyAre kahe, "e che bhUlavALI eTale bhUla ja kADhavI paDe ne ? meM kahyuM, akkalano kothaLo Avyo A ! vecavA jaIe to cAra AnA bAradAnanA Ave nahIM ane e mAnI beTho ke A vahu bhUlavALI, le ! evuM mAnI bese che. kevuM khoTuM dekhAya ? A to khoTI khoTI bhUlo kADhIe ne kaheze, tArAmAM akkala nathI ! te roja bUmo pADe ! akkala to konuM nAma kahevAya, ke bhUla kyAre kADhe, ke kharekhara e pote samajatI nA hoya tyAre bhUla kADhe ne pelI upakAra mAne to e akkalavALo kahevAya. e ja kaheze, bahu sAruM thayuM. A mane dekhADI, nahIM to huM ADe ne ADe raste cAlI jAta. tame sAruM thayuM mane zIkhavADyuM. to e eDavAnsa thAya. mUA, A e kaDhInI bAbatamAM eDavAnsa tuM zuM karavAno chuM. tuM ja thayo nahIMne, tArAmAM barakata to che nahIM ! preme nahIM, mAre vahune godA, ta tUTe prema, evA kara sodA ! bAkI gharamAM koInI bhUla nahIM kADhavI. tamane kema lAge che vAta?

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(6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! 122 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kazuM nA hoya, evuM ghara Ama bagIcA jevuM lAge. ne gharamAM jarAya Dakhala nA thavA daIe koIne. sahejeya nAnA chokarAnI bhUla e jo jANato hoya to nA dekhADAya. nA jANato hoya te ja bhUla dekhADAya. tamane kema lAge praznakartA : sarasa. dAdAzrI : chatAM e nathI jANatA badhA loko ? praznakartA ghaNA lokone Teva paDI hoya to emAM zuM karavAnuM? dAdAzrI : Teva nahIM, A to uparIpaNuM joIe che ene. ene bhUla kADhavI che jANI joIne. have e khoTuM kahevAya. A phemilI nA kahevAya. phemilI eTale premamAM rahevuM joIe. Dakho nahIM thavo joIe, benane evuM nA thavuM joIe ke A khoTo khoTo sudhAravA phare che. praznakartA : paNa dhaNIne thatuM hoya to ? dAdAzrI : e pachI e raziyA ne amerikA jevuM thAya. A amerikA Ama kare tyAre raziyA Ama kare, eTale pachI sAmasAmI beu laDe ane phemilI lAIpha UDI jAya AmAM, zobhe nahIM ApaNane, thoDo thoDo pheraphAra thavo joIe. ApaNe InDiyana chIe. vicAryA pachI pheraphAra na karIe to ApaNe InDiyana zenA ? nA samaja paDI bena tane ? praznakartA : hA, samajI. dAdAzrI : eTale benoe tamAre samajavuM ke je bhUla dhaNI samajI zakatA hoya e bhUla ApaNe kADhavI nahIM. je bhUla beno samajI zakatI hoya te dhaNIe bhUla kADhavI nahIM. praznakartA: ghaNA potAnI bhUla samajatA hoya, chatAM sudhare nahIM to ? dAdAzrI: e kahevAthI sudhare nahIM. kahevAthI to avaLo thAya UlaTo. e to ko'ka phero jyAre vicAravA gayo hoya tyAre ApaNe kahIe ke A bhUla kevI rIte sudhare ? sAmAsAmI vAtacIta karo, Ama phrenDazIpanI peTha. vAIpha joDe phrenDazIpa rAkhavI joIe. nA rAkhavI joIe ? bIjA joDe phrenDazIpa rAkho cho. phrenDanI joDe AvuM kakaLATa karyA karo cho rojaroja ? enI bhUla DirekTa dekhADa dekhADa karAvatA hazo ? nA ! kAraNa ke phrenDazIpa TakAvavI che. ane A to paiNelI kyAM jatI rahevAnI che ? AvuM ApaNane zobhe nahIM. jIvana evuM banAvo ke bagIcA jevuM. gharamAM matabheda nA hoya, praznakartA : barAbara che, sAcI vAta che. dAdAzrI : jANI joIne bhUlo dekhADAtI haze. je e jANe che ene zA mATe dekhADavAnuM. tane dekhADe che, bahu dekhADe che ke... ? A to ene godA mArIe chIe ane ApaNuM dhaNIpaNuM bajAvIe chIe ! vahune sAcavatA AvaDI nahIM ane dhaNI AvyA ! vahune sAcavI kyAre kahevAya ke vahunA manamAM sahejeya prema khUTe nahIM. A to godo mAre eTale prema tUTe ane kaheze ko'ka dahADo mArI bhUla thAya to e bumAbUma kare che, kaheze. bhUla thAya ke nA thAya mANasanI ? paNa ApaNA lokone jANI joIne AvI dhaNIpaNAnI Teva paDelI che, dhaNI thavAnI icchA che. aMdarakhAnethI te, bhUla kema karIne kADhavI te ! have AjathI tamane samajAze e vAta ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : e to khoTuM gAMDapaNa hatuM dhaNIpaNuM thavAnuM. eTale dhaNIpaNuM nA bajAvavuM joIe. dhaNIpaNuM to enuM nAma kahevAya ke sAmo pratikAra nA thAya, tyAre jANavuM ke dhaNIpaNuM che. A to tarata pratikAra ! bhUla kADhI dabAve e zo vIra ? badhAnI bhUlo oDhe, aho zUra ! gharamAM to strIne to sahu koI kaTa kaTa kare, e vIranI nizAnI nathI. vIra to koNa kahevAya ke strIne ke gharamAM chokarAMne koIneya harakata na thAya. chokaruM jarA ADu bole paNa mA-bApa bagaDe nahIM tyAre kharuM kahevAya. chokaruM to bALaka kahevAya. tamane kema lAge che, nyAya zuM kahe che ? praznakartA : hA. barAbara che. havethI evuM karavuM paDaze.

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124 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! 123 dAdAzrI : hA, have evuM karavuM. praznakartA: huM bIjAnI bhUla kAThuM ane mArA chokarAnI ke vAIphanI kADhe emAM ghaNo Dipharansa (phera) che. kAraNa ke, huM mArA chokarAne ne vAIphane khUba prema karuM chuM. eTale mane gusso AvI jAya. je bIjA upara nA Ave, jamAI upara nA Ave. dAdAzrI : e vAta barAbara che. tethI ja zAstrakAroe kahyuM ke, mA agara bApa chokarA upara gusso kare che, to e gussAnuM phaLa puNya maLe che ! bIje badhaya gussAnuM phaLa pApa hoya. samaja paDIne ? te A gussAnuM phaLa puNya maLe che kAraNa ke e gussAno Azaya e hoya ke ene kema karIne sudhAravo ? kayA guNane mATe ApaNe Takora karavI paDe ke jenI ene samajaNa nA hoya, te ApaNe ene samajaNa ApavI joIe. ene potAnI samajaNa che, tene ApaNe kahIe eTale eno IgoIjhama ghavAya pachI. ane pachI e tamAre mATe lAga jue, ke mArA bhAgamAM AvavA done eka dahADo. lAganI rAha jue. te AvuM zA mATe karavAnI jarUra ? eTale e je jemAM samajI zake evuM che tyAM AgaLa ApaNe Takora mAravAnI jarUra nA hoya. - pelIne bhUla dekhADavA Ama godo mAre pachI pelIe taiyAra thaI gayelI hoya, ke A vakhata Ave eTale tamane evo godo mArIza, te UMcenIce kare. nahIM to pachI e strIya rAkhe manamAM ke te dahADe mane kahI gayA hatAne Aja lAgamAM AvyA che, pachI eya Thoke eTale tIra mArAmAra karIne, emAM sukhI nA thaIe. e baMdha karavA joIe. eka pArTIe baMdha karavA joIe. te kaI pArTI baMdha karI zake ke puruSa pAse e zakti che, ene baMdha karI devAnI, e pachI baMdha thaI jaze. meMya mahIM kaoNlDavora calAvyuM, huM trIsa varSano hato ne tyAM sudhI calAvyuM. tyAra pachI kaoNlDavora baMdha thaI gayuM. kAraNa ke samajI vicArIne baMdha karyuM hatuM. tyAra pachI 'A' jJAna UbhuM rAkhe moTuM mata te puruSa kharo, bhUla mArI kahI, strInuM mata haro ! praznakartA : dAdA, vyavahAramAM lU poInTanI athaDAmaNamAM, moTo nAnAnI bhUla kADhe, nAno enAthI nAnAnI bhUlo kADhe, e kema ? dAdAzrI : A to evuM che ke moTo nAnAne khaI jAya. te moTo nAnAnI bhUla kADhe enA karatAM ApaNe kahIe, mArI ja bhUla. bhUla jo mAthe laI laIe to eno ukela Ave. ame zuM karIe ? bIjo jo sahana nA karI zake to ame amAre ja mAthe laI laIe. bIjAnI bhUlo nA kADhIe. te zA hAru bIjAne ApIe ? ApaNI pAse to sAgara jevaDuM peTa che. juone, A muMbaInI badhI ja gaTaronuM pANI sAgara samAve chene ? tema ApaNeya pI levAnuM. tethI zuM thaze ke A chokarAMo upara bIjA badhA upara prabhAva paDaze. eya zIkhaze, bALakoya samajI jAya ke AmanuM sAgara jevuM peTa che ! jeTaluM Ave teTaluM jame karI lo. vyavahAramAM niyama che ke apamAna karanAra potAnI zakti ApIne jAya. tethI apamAna laI laIe hasate mukhe ! mana moTuM hovuM joIe. broDa mAInDeDa thavuM joIe. praznakartA: cAra vakhata broDa mAInDa rAkhuM, paNa pachI pAMcamI phera nA rahe evuM thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : nA rahe, evo kaMTrola (kAbu) nA hovo joIe ? kaMnTrolebala voIsa hovo joIe ApaNo. ke nA kema rahe ? ane nA rahe to pachI ApaNe pratikramaNa karavuM joIe, to rahe. dAdA bhagavAnanI sAkSIe kSamA mAMgu chuM. have pharI na thAya evI mane zakti Apo kahIe. vakhate ApaNA karatAM ochuM bhaNelI hoya, agara to strI jAti che, kaMI bhUla thAya to ApaNe moTuM mana nA rAkhavuM joIe ? puruSa moTA manavALA hoya ke strI moTA manavALI ! praznakartA : puruSa. dAdAzrI : haM, puruSe bahu moTuM mana rAkhavuM joIe. thayuM.

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126 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra vakIlo khoLe, pachI ApaNe vakIlo khoLIe. mahIM aMdaranA, bahAranA nahIM. aMdaranA e ja jhaghaDA vadhatA jAyane pachI e tethI UMgha nA Ave rAte. enA karatAM kahIe hai.... tArI vAta bahu sAcI, A tAre lIdhe to mane khabara paDI ke A sAluM bhUla thaI eTale pachI ApaNe kahIe, cA-bAnuM ThekANuM paDe che ? hA, hamaNe banAvI ApIzuM khuza thaI jAya ne ? to cA maLe, dA'Do sAro thAya, rAta sArI jAya, emAM zuM khoTa gaI ? praznakartA : barAbara che. (6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! 125 vAIpha to kahe, tame cho evA te kerIo lAvatA AvaDI nathI, tyAre kahevuM ke bhaI nA AvaDI tyAre to A khATI nIkaLI. jo AvaDI hota to mIThI nA lAvata kahIe ! ema jarA narama bolavAmAM kaMI AbarU nA jAya, zuM kahyuM ? paNa te ghaDIe dhaNIpaNuM bajAvavA phare. emAM A to rojanuM tophAna cAlyA kare che. eTale ApaNe ja mUkI daIe ke bhaI A bhUla to thaI. tame kahI te vAta sAcI che paNa bhUla ApaNI che. enI nathI, baInI nathI. baI to kahI chUTe ApaNane ke tamane lAvatA nA AvaDI, tyAre ke tamane sAruM lAvatA AvaDe che. e huM jANuM chuM paNa A phere to mane nahIM AvaDe kahIe. ema kahevAmAM vAMdho zo che ApaNane ? sAheba joDe bolIe ke nA bolIe, ApaNA sAheba joDe ? praznakartA : nA bolIe. dAdAzrI : tyAM to sAheba kharAba lAve toya sAheba tame sArI lAvyA ema kahIe. te A ahIM baI pAse zuM vAMdho che ? zuM ? ApaNA sAheba karatAMya baI gaI ? kAraNa ke sAheba daMDo uThAve. daMDa kare ke Ama kema karyuM? evo bhaya nahIM rAkhavo, sAhebano bhaya nahIM rAkhavo. bhaya potAnA gharanA mANasono rAkhavo, emane duHkha nA thAya evo bhaya rAkhavo joIe. sAhebano bhaya rAkhavAno zo artha che te ? ApaNe ApaNuM sArI rIte kAma karIe, chatAM e manamAM kahetAM hoya, huM Disamisa karavAno chuM, huM to ema karavAno chuM to ApaNe hasyA karIe ke bhamaraDo kUdayA kare che. ApaNo hisAba haze to ja ne ? ApaNe sArI rIte kAma karIe chIe pachI e zuM che te ! ane enuM DisamisanuM zuM ThekANuM ? kAla savAre eno orDara Ave ke bhaI tamane Disamisa karavAmAM Ave che. eTale koI gabharAmaNa, koI sAheba joDe koI bIjI koI gabharAmaNa nahIM. che te rAjAthI ke bhagavAnathIya e bhaDakavuM nahIM. ApaNe sArI rIte kArya kare jAva ahIM koI ApaNo uparI nathI bA. ApaNo uparI ApaNI bhUlo, ApaNe bhUlo karIe to e ApaNane pakaDe. bhUla ja nA karIe to ? have bena joDe ApaNe kahIe, 'A tane kyAM AvaDe che. tuM tyAre zAka lAvI eTale zuM thayuM." haladIghATa eTale e UlaTuM vadhu ne vadhu kesa cIkaNuM thayuM. have A dAdAzrI : ane A to tame vahu joDe haThe caDyA hoya, to savAra sudhI choDe nahIM ! vahue samajI jAya ane pAchA poteya jANe, A haTha pakaDI che paNa have choDavI nathI. evuM pote hau jANe. ApaNI AbarU jAya kaheze. mUA AbarUdAra te zuM AbarUdAra ! praznakartA : paNa evuM nIcuM to potAnuM pADe ja nahIM paNa ! dhaNI kaMI potAnI bairI AgaLa nIcuM paDavA de? dAdAzrI : paNa nIcuM paDavA de te ja DAhyo kahevAya. A ame to kahI detA hatA, hIrAbAne ke amArI bhUla thaI haM.. ke. bahu bhUlo thAya che amArI to. tyAre kahe, nA, tamArI bhUla nathI thatI. UlaTA ApaNe kahIe ke bhUla thaI to A kahe, nathI thatI ane ApaNe kahIe, nathI bhUla thatI to e kahe, tamArI bhUla thaI che. eTale jANIjoIne vAIphanI joDe che te sAcI vAta hoya to paNa ene sAcI TharAvavA pharIe to pachI enuM phaLa to maLe ke nA maLe ? ane vAIphanAmAM AtmA nathI rahelo ? praznakartA : che. dAdAzrI : eTale ApaNe nyAya-nIti badhuM jovuM paDe ane vakhate vAIpha thoDo anyAya kare to ApaNe leTa-go karavuM paDe. kAraNa ke enI jAgRti ochI hoya puruSo karatAM ! ApaNe jAgRtivALA mANasa eTale nabhAvI levuM joIe.

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(6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! kaTu Ape te pIM thA mahAdeva ! jAtane ja vaDhavAtI pADa Teva ! 127 vadhAre kaDavuM hoya to ApaNe ekalAe pI javuM, paNa strIone kema pIvA devAya ? kAraNa ke AphaTara oNla ApaNe mahAdevajI chIe. na hoya mahAdevajI ApaNe ? puruSo mahAdevajI jevA hoya. vadhAre paDatuM kaDavuM hoya to kahIe, 'tuM tArI meLe sUI jA, huM pI jaIza.' benoya mahIM saMsAramAM sahakAra nathI ApatI bicArI ? pachI enI joDe kema Dakhala thAya ? ene kaMIka duHkha apAI gayuM hoya to ApaNe pazcAtApa karavo joIe khAnagImAM ke have nahIM duHkha ApuM kahIe. mArI bhUla thaI A. gharamAM kayA prakAranAM duHkho thAya che, kayA prakAranA jhaghaDA thAya che, kayA prakAranA matabheda thAya che ? jo banne jaNa lakhI lAvatA hoyane to ene eka kalAkamAM ja badhAno nIveDo lAvI ApuM. aNasamajaNathI ja UbhAM thAya che ? bIjuM kazuM nahIM. A tane kema lAge che, ApaNe bhUlathI karIe chIene, khoTuM ja karIe chIene ? praznakartA : sAcI vAta che. dAdAzrI : to eTaluM A pheraphAra nA thAya ? A mAruM kahevAnuM che. ane tame lakhIne Apo. A strI kahe che ke AvI rIte emanI joDe mAre jhaghaDA thAya che, to e lakhIne Apo to emane kahI ApuM ke AmAM A khoTuM che, A khoTuM che. A glAsavaeNra tUTI gayAM, baInA hAthe so DaoNlaranAM ane kakaLATa kare eNe zo artha che ? miniMgalesa ! e baI toDI nAkhe kharI, eka pyAlo ? ene jarA vicAravuM joIe ke baI toDI nA nAkhe. to enI pAchaLa zuM zuM kAraNo che ? amane pUcho to ame tamane batAvI daIe. tethI A baInoya guno nathI ne tamAro guno nathI. A enuM kAraNa A pramANe che. eTale pachI tamAre gusse thavAnuM kaMI kAraNa ja nathI. evuM hareka bAbata pUcho to badhI bAbata ame tamane kahI daIe. tamArI bhUlane laIne lUMTI gayo evuM ame tamane samajAvIe. e badhuM samajavuM joIe badhuM. pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra jo Aja tamArA gharanA mANaso ahIM nA AvyA hoya to tame kahejo ke dAdA A pramANe kahe che ke mArI bhUla mane samajaNa paDatI hoya e bhUla tame kahezo nahIM ane tamArI bhUla tamane samajaNa paDatI hoya e huMya nahIM kahuM. ApaNe ATaluM samAdhAna karI nAkho kahIe ane A Dakhala joIe nahIM have, kahIe. premamaya jIvana jIvo ke chokarA badhA khuza thaI jAya, mATe AvuM na hovuM joIe. jIvana to jIvana hovuM joIe ! 128 have ghera che te bhAMjagaDa nahIM thAya ne ? ane e bhUla kADhatA hoya tamArI, tyAre kahe A to huM jANuM chuM. e bhUla nA kADhavAnI dAdAe kahI chene, kahIe. evI samajaNa pADavI. eTale ene cetavavA, A to huM jANuM chuM. e bhUla nA kADhazo ! dhaNI joDe e kazuM karatI hoya tyAre kahIe mahIMthI potAnI jAtane kahIe, 'zuM kAma Ama kare che, AkhI jiMdagI AvuM ne AvuM karyuM, kahIe. tAre tArI jAtane Thapako ApavAno che. sAmAne Thapako ApIe ne tyAre kleza thAya ane tamAre mahIMthI tamArI jAtane kahevuM, Ama zuM kAma kare che. bAkI, jUnAM karmane joyA karavAnAM. joyA karavAthI zuM thAya, sTaDI thAya, kayuM kayuM kharAba ne kevI rIte thayuM che, pharI navesarathI emAM sudhArAya. mokSanuM kaMI jJAna to hotuM ja nathI paNa jo saMsAramAM rahevuM hoya, to jUnAM karmane sudhAravAM joIe ke vAIpha joDe vagara kAmano ukALo karyo, te A ja rasa-roTalI hatI, te mane kaDhI bhAvI nahIM ane A badhuM bagaDyuM. eTale emAMthI anubhava zIkhIne ane pachI bIje dahADe nakkI karavuM joIe ke pharI AvuM karavuM nathI. bhUlo to thayA ja karavAnI, bhUla to bannenI thAya ne ? konI bhUla nA thAya ? praznakartA : bhUla to badhAnI thAya. dAdAzrI : bhUlo kADhavAnI ja nA hoya. bhUla haMmezAM gharamAM koInI bhUla nA kADhavAnI hoya. bhUla kADhavI hoya to ophisamAM bosanI kADhavI, jatAM AvatAM ahIM Ubho rahyo hoya to kahIe ke Ama kema Ubho rahyo

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'gADI'to garama mUDa ! (6) sAmAnI bhUla kADhavAnI Teva ! 129 chuM, zokha hoya to. bhUla bosanI kADhe to zuM thAya ? te ApaNA loka to tyAM sIdhA rahe. ahIM pAMsaro rahe nahIM ! gharatI vAta gharamAM ja rahe, nahIM to jaga jaMgalI kahe ? phemilI eTale zuM ? phemilImAM jarAya kleza nA hoya enuM nAma phemilI kahevAya ane ApaNA hinduo to badhA phemilImAM ja kaccaraghANa vALI de che. phemilI eTale phemilI, emAM koI mANasa koInI kazI bhUla nA kADhe. ApaNA gharanI vAta gharamAM rahe evuM phemilI tarIke jIvana jIvavuM joIe. eTaluM pheraphAra karo to bahu sAruM kahevAya. kleza to hovo ja nA joIe. ApaNe jeTalA DaoNlara Ave eTalAmAM samAveza karI levAno. ane tamAre che te paisAnI sagavaDa nA hoya to sADIo mATe utAvaLa nahIM karavI joIe. tamAreya vicAra karavo joIe ke dhaNIne aDacaNamAM, muzkelImAM nahIM mUkavo joIe. chUTa hoya to vAparavA. eTale A jhaghaDA badhA UbhA thAya che A gAMDapaNanAM, meDanesa che khAlI ! thoDuM vAIlDapaNuM kahevAya. e nA hovuM joIe. ApaNane zobhe nahIM. keTalA saMskArI mA-bApanA dIkarAo tame. saMskArI dezanA Arya pradezanA. ApaNane A zobhe nahIM. ane je bhUla nA jANatA hoya te ApaNe kahevI joIe ke A rIte A na thavuM joIe. eTale ghaNuM kharuM A jhaghaDA badhA baMdha thaI jAya. baoNsato bIbIe mAryo mUDa, baoNsa vaDhe tyAre kvo tuM zUra ? oNphisamAM koIvAra baoNsa ciDAyo hoya ApaNI para, eTale ApaNe zuM mAnIe ke meM kazo guno nathI karyo ane kharekhara na ja karyo hoya ne pelo ciDAto hoya, to ApaNe evuM nA samajavuM joIe ke A ghera laDIne Avyo haze ? gherathI kaMIka jhaghaDo karI nAkhyo, agara to rastAmAM kaMI jhaghaDo thayo, paNa kyAMka jhaghaDo karIne Avyo che, e mUDamAM nathI. eTale ApaNe ene TADho pADavAno prayatna karavo joIe. enI joDe jo ApaNe ciDAIe to zuM thAya ? baoNsane nA thAya enI vahu joDe ? praznakartA : thAya ne. dAdAzrI : haM, eTale ApaNe jarA dhIraja pakaDavI joIe ke A gADI garama thaI gaI che, jarA ThaMDI paDavA do. pachI vAtacIta dhIme rahIne karIe ane te vAteya suMvALI karIe pAchuM, ene jarA TADho karIe. samajIne kAma nA levuM joIe ? gADI joDe kAma lo cho sarasa, paNa ahIM nathI AvaDatuM. dhaNI UkaLe pesatAM ja ghare, kheMcI le lAkaDAM to dUdha Thare ! have bahArathI dhaNI ghera Avyo hoya, oNphisamAM bose TeDakAvyA hoya dhaNIne ane pachI ghera peluM moTuM bagaDI gayeluM Ave gharamAM. tyAre baI kahe, baLyuM, tamAruM moTuM joIne mane to e lAge che....... AvuM bolAtuM haze ?

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132 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (7) 'gADI'no garama mUDa ! 131 samajI levAnuM ke Aje dhaNI mUDamAM nathI. praznakartA : dhaNI UkaLe che enuM kAraNa zuM ? dAdAzrI : badhuM ADuMavaLuM kareluM hoya ne te tapI gayelo hoya ane pachI jarAka sAdhana maLyuM ke bhaDako thAya. praznakartA : dhaNIne premathI kevI rItanA vaza karAya ? dAdAzrI : dhaNI gharamAM Ave to ApaNe jANIe ke Aje kaMIka muMjhAyelo lAge che. ene sAhebe jarA dabaDAvyo hoya. te manamAM ema thAya ke A sAheba, nAlAyaka kyAMthI maLyo Avo ne ema tema. A sAhebane mArI upara vera ja che. kAyamanuM na hoya enuM vera mUA ! are, sAhebano zo doSa che ? sAhebane enI baIe TeDakAvyo che. kyAMno dhakko che e to jo ! A dhakko vAgyo te Avyo kyAMthI e to tapAsa kara ! paNa AvuM tapAsa nA kare eTale pachI moTuM moTuM caDhAvIne ghera Ave. e pachI ghera AvIne hAMke, A to akaLAyeluM hoya tene vadhAre akaLAve. ene ko'kano dhakko vAgyo tyAre pelAne dhakko mAre. AvuM bane ke nA bane ? praznakartA : bane dAdAzrI : tene lIdhe jhaghaDe che. ame samajI jaIe ke A dhakko kyAMthI Avyo. praznakartA: sAheba enA gharano dhakko ApaNane mAre, teno rasto zuM karavo ? dAdAzrI : bIjo zo rasto karavAno ? dUdhapAka karavo hoya to temAM nIce lAkaDAM saLagAvavA paDe ke nA saLagAvavA paDe ! tyAre pAchuM dUdhapAka ciDAya, e UbharAya. tyAre lAkaDAM kADhI levAM paDe. e rasto eno. dUdhapAka ciDAya nahIM, nahIM ? nahIM to pachI e UbharAya pAchuM. A AvatAnI sAthe kaheze, 'tamAruM moDhuM caDheluM che." te nA bolAya AvuM. dhaNI mUDamAM nA hoya to te ghaDIe nA bolavuM. kAraNa ke mANasano mUDa badalAI jAya che ghaNI vakhata. eTale dhaNI ApaNA gharamAM AvatAnI sAthe ja tamAre samajI javAnuM ke bhaI sAheba, mUDamAM dekhAtA nathI. ke gADI garama thaI jAya, evuM A thaI gayuM che. eno mUDa joIne nA kAma levuM joIe ? mUDa to badalAI jAyane mANasano, ajJAnI mANasano mUDa badalAtAM keTalI vAra lAge ? mUDa oLakhe ke nA oLakhe ? badhI ja strIo dhaNIno mUDa oLakhe. ke Aje AnuM ThekANe nathI. eTale ApaNe jANIe ke Ane pharsTa klAsa cAnI Teva che, pelI moMghA bhAvanI cA rAkhI melI hoya, ko'ka sArA mANasa AvyA hoya tene mATe to te cA banAvI ApavI. kazuM bolavA-karavAnuM nahIM. cAnAsto-bhAvatI mIThAI je ThIka lAge te rAkhI melavI ApaNe na ApavuM. to TADho paDI jAya ne. to prema vadhe. tane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : hA e hA karavuM e nA cAle kaMI, evA upAyo karavA paDe. tane kema lAge che ? mUDamAM nA hoya to mUDa TADho nahIM karavo paDe ? praznakartA : karavo ja joIe. dAdAzrI : toya ApaNe, e ciDAyelo eTale ApaNe pAchA ene saLI kara kara karyA karIe. pachI bhaDako thAya ke nA thAya ? praznakartA : e cA nAsto ApIe toya khuza nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : e to dhIme dhIme thAya, ekadama nA thAya. pahelAMnI ApaNI Dakhala karelI hoyane paNa dhIme dhIme bahu sarasa khuza thaI jAya. ene khAtarI thAya, bhaDakATa nIkaLI jAya. jema bhaDakeluM kUtaruM hoyane, ene paTAva paTAva karIe toya nA jAya. pachI be-cAra dahADA khAtarI thAya pachI e nA Ave. praznakartA : barAbara, dAdA. dAdAzrI : to Amane paNa mUDamAM lAva, A dhaNI eya gADIo ja che. emane mUDamAM nA lAvavI paDe ? have mUDamAM nA lAve to pachI gADIne mAra mAra kare. enA jevuM ApaNA loko ahIM AgaLa kare che, zuM tAruM moTuM laIne, A tAruM moTuM jo to kharo ! evuM nA bolAya. enuM moTuM

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134 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra tyAre reDIeTara tarata tame pheravI nAkho cho ? mahIM pANI nathI reDatA ? kema gADI UbhI rAkhI, ApaNe utAvaLa che, are bhaI, pANI nAkhavA do ne, garama thaI gaI che, gADI. A gADI garama thaI jAya che, te ene ApaNe mUDamAM nA lAvI to guno kharo ? ene mUDamAM lAvavI ke nA lAvavI joIe ? (7) 'gADI'no garama mUDa ! 133 zAthI bagaDI gayuM che e jANo. ene mUDamAM lAvIza ne ? emane zuM bhAve che e jANI rAkhavuM ApaNe ane jyAre mUDamAM nA hoya, to jhaTapaTa banAvIne mUkI devuM. e akaLAtA hoya to ApaNe choDI daIe. kahIe, tamArI vAta kharI che. Aje to mAruM mana ja sAruM nathI, ema tema karIne Ukela lAvIe. eTale e TADhA paDI jAya. e jANe ke mAro ropha paDyo eTale TADhA paDI jAya. A rophavALA, jo kharA rophavALA ! A to rAtre koI vakhata dhaNIne ghera AvatAM moDuM thaI jAya, koIka saMjogomAM, haM.. ATaluM badhuM moDuM avAtuM haze ? to e nathI jANatA. e moDuM thAya che ? emane mahIM cUna cUna thatuM hoya, bahuM moDuM thayuM, bahuM moDuM thayuM. temAM pAchA A vAIpha evuM gAya ke ATaluM badhuM moDuM avAtuM haze ? bicArA ! A miniMgalesa vAto badhI AvI karavI ? tane samajAya che evuM? eTale ApaNe e A moDA Avene te dahADe ApaNe joI levuM ke mUDa kemano che ! eTale pachI tarata ja kahevuM ke pahelI cA-bA pIne jarA emane cA-pANI karIne khuza karIe. jema polIsavALo Avyo hoya, ApaNe mUDa nA hoya toya cA pANI nathI karatA ? A to potAno eTale khuza nahIM karavAno ? potAno eTale khuza karavo paDe ! ghaNA kharA tamane khabara haze kadAca gADI mUDamAM nathI hotI evuM nathI banatuM ? garama thaI gayelI. to ApaNe ene lAkaDI mAra mAra karIe to ? ene mUDamAM lAvavA mATe ThaMDI mUkI devAnI jarA, e reDieTara pheravavAnuM, paMkho pheravavAno. nA karAya ? praznakartA: karAya. dAdAzrI : mUDamAM nA lAvavI paDe, gADIne ? praznakartA : lAvavI ja paDe. dAdAzrI : evuM A dhaNI garama thaI gayo eTale jaladI jaladI pANI reDavuM reDIeTaramAM. tyAre te ghaDIe tame kahezo, moDA kema AvyA ?.. e cAlyuM tophAna ! A to dhaNIno mUDa ThIka nathI. ane A uparathI baMdUka mAre baLI. AvuM jIvana kema hovuM joIe. jyAre gADI garama thaI jAya praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : A gADI garama thaI gaI hoya, ene kahIe zenI garama thaI jauM chuM tuM rastAmAM ! tArI vAta tuM jANe, ema karIne calAva calAva karIe to zuM thAya ? reDIeTara e khalAsa thaI jAya. thoDIvAra baMdha rAkhI, pANI-bANI reDI ane ThaMDuM nA karavuM joIe ? te A nA thaI jAya baLI. A mazInarI che. A zarIramAM be AtmA che. eka mikenikala AtmA che ane eka mULa AtmA che. te A mikenikala AtmA to garameya thaI jAya, te ene muzkelImAM Avyo hoya te ghaDIe nA thaI jAya ? praznakartA : thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : ekalI brAnDI pIvAthI garama thAya te judo ane brAnDI pIdhA vagaranuM garama thAya teya judo. brAnDI pIne garama thAya tene to ApaNe DaphaLAvavo jarA. emAMya majA nahIM, gharamAM, vana phemilImAM DaphaLAvavAmAM majA nahIM. brAnDI na pIve evo tame prema Apone to pelA brAnDIe baMdha karI de. gharamAM prema nA dekhe eTale pachI bahAra jaIne pI Ave mUo. praznakartA : brAnDI baMdha karAvavI kevI rItanA ? dAdAzrI : tamArA gharamAM dekhe eTale badhuya choDI de. premanI khAtara dareka vastu choDI devA taiyAra che. A prema nA dekhe eTale brAnDI joDe prema kare. phalANA joDe prema kare. nahIM to bIca upara pharyA kare. alyA mUA, ahIM zuM tArA bApe dADhyuM che, gharamAM jAne ? tyAre kahe, ghera to mane gamatuM ja nathI.

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(7) 'gADI'no garama mUDa ! vahuto thAya mUDa jyAre opha, patie saMbhALavo gharato sTApha ! 135 ane puruSoe paNa strInA mUDane jANI levo joIe. e manamAM akaLAyelI lAge ke Aja chokarAo joDe kakaLATa kaMI... te, parama dahADe ApaNe sinemAnI TikTi laI AvuM, kahIe. paNa jema tema mUDa TADho pADavo. A strI garama thaI gaI hoya to ThokAThoka karavAnI ? gADI garama thAya evI rIte strI garama nA thaI jAya ? ApaNe jANIe ke Ano mUDa bagaDI gayo che. mATe A mahIM che te paMkho pheravo, pANI reDo. gADInuM thoDuM moDhuM ughADuM karI nAkho. ane te ghaDIe mAra-mAra karIe ke mUDa Avo kema kare che, gusse kema thaI jAuM chuM ? to zuM thAya ? eno upAya karIe. jeno mUDa bagaDI jAya e gADIo. paNa je te raste mUDamAM lAvavuM paDe ApaNe. gADIne mUDamAM kema lAvIe chIe ? kAraNa ke ApaNe jANIe chIe ke gADI che eTale nathI ciDAtA. e Amane gADI nathI jANatA ApaNe. praznakartA : dAdA, ene lADI kahevAya. ahIMyAM lADI kahIe ApaNe. dAdAzrI : lADI kahIe paNa jeTaluM garama thAyane, e badhI gADIo ja hoya che. nA, kharekhara A to mazInarI garama thAya che. tame nathI garama thatA. je mikenikala pArTa chene, te garama thAya che. ane tame jANo ke A garama thaI ! A mikenikala pArTane to AvuM karAtuM haze ! A to pachI je ApavA mAMDe... ke tAro bApa Avo ne tuM AvI ne tuM Ama. e enA bApa sudhI laI jAya. pelI baIe kahe, mArA bApa marI gayA. zuM karavA have enuM nAma lo cho te ! evuM kahe. A to gharamAM tophAna. ene pahoMcI zI rIte vaLAya te ! AvI bhUlo kADhI nAkhavI joIe ne ? ApaNe sudharelA loko, sArA AcAra-vicAranA. meM mAre ghera bhUla kADhI nAkhI, tyAre mane, DAhyo thayo, kahe. Aja pistALIsa varSathI matabheda nathI nAmeya. huM atyAre saMsArI ja chuM. jo A kapaDAM bapaDAM gharanAM, mArA dhaMdhAnAM, bijhanesanAM. koIno eka paisoya nahIM levAno. ane ko'kano paiso khAvAmAM Ave to mAruM mana kevuM thaI jAya ? pachI to khalAsa ja thaI jAya ne mana. A to samajavuM ja paDaze ne. kyAM sudhI AvuM polaMpola calAvIzuM ! meMya bahu pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dA'DA polaMpola calAveluM, huM ke ! trIsa-batrIsa varSano thayo tyAM sudhI to heya... jo cIDhAuM, pachI bahu vicAra karyo. meM kahyuM, A zuM che AnI pAchaLa, kaoNjhijha zuM che ne A kema Ama che ? samajavuM paDe ke nA samajavuM paDe ? praznakartA : samajavuM paDe. 136 dAdAzrI : ane A ApaNI bhUlane, mUrkhAI-phUlizanesa che, A vaDhavaDhAne e badhuM to. have ATaluM badhuM bhaNyA ne khAnadAnanA chokarA. kevA kevA badhA 'zAha kahevAo paNa tame.' tamane vAta kAmamAM lAgaze ke A badhI ? praznakartA : hA, lAgaze dAdA. dAdAzrI : huM, akaLAvAnI jarUra nahIM koI jagyAe. mikenikala pArTamAM akaLAmaNa che. praznakartA : UlaTuM pANI garama vadhAre reDe. dAdAzrI : vadhAre reDe mUA, jema gADI TADhI pADIe chene, gADI joDe kAma laIe chIe evI rIte kAma levuM joIe. A to bicArIne evA zabda saMbhaLAvI de ke AkhI rAta UMgha nA Ave ene bicArIne. praznakartA : tyAM to peluM evuMne ke gADI garama thAya, ApaNeya garama thaIzuM to pachI cAlIne javuM paDaze. enI garaja che. dAdAzrI : nA, te Aya che te cha mahinA ghera jaIne rahe to zuM thAya ? nA, paNa e kAmanuM nahIM A. sAcavIne kAma laIe. Aya ApaNuM potAnuM aMga che, phemilI. bahAra zuM kahe, mAya phemilI. tyAre mAya phemilI. tyAM to barAbara Ama (matabheda) thAya che. zarama Ave che ? paNa A to kahe che, vAIpha vAta vAtamAM garama thaI jAya che. e garama thaI jAya to ene TADhI pADIe evI rIte vANI bolIe, mUDamAM Ave tyAM sudhI. nA karavuM paDe, bhaI ? praznakartA : bahu garama thaI jAya to bIjI laI AvavAnI ? dAdAzrI : nA, e bIjI nA laI avAya. e to nabaLAI che. e to je paiNelA hoyane enI joDe ja niveDo karavAno hoya. ApaNA

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(7) 'gADI'no garama mUDa ! inDiyano enI joDe ja niveDo lAve. A badalIe evA nahoya ApaNe loko. A phorenarsa jo paiNI lAvene jo kadI bhAMjagaDa UbhI rahI to chUTA karI nAkhe ane nA hoya to leDI badalI ja Ave, e ApaNe tyAM na hoya. A to saMskAra che ApaNA. game tevA olDa thaI gayelA haze, kharAba thaI gayA haze, paNa pAchalA Arya saMskAra che A. nathI saMskAra ApaNA ? bhale sonuM bahAra kAnamAM laTakAvIne phare paNa saMskAra to kharA ja ne ? A tamane ema lAge che ke A mArI vAIpha che. paNa jeno mUDa bagaDe e badhI gADIo. samajAya che. tane lAge che helpa karaze A vAkya mAruM ? praznakartA : hA. 1373 dAdAzrI : jo eno mUDa bagaDI gayo hoya, te ghaDIe ApaNe emane rAge pADavI. puruSone to mahIM AvaDe, mUDamAM lAvavAnI. Ama karIne hAtha pherave eTale e mUDamAM AvI jAya eka hAtha ja pherave to. kevI cAvI che ! mUDamAM AvI jAya. praznakartA : to bairAMone nA AvaDe puruSone mUDamAM lAvatAM ? bairAMone puruSone mUDamAM lAvatAM AvaDe ! dAdAzrI : e to ene khaIbadelo hoya. bairAMne AvaDe kharuM pachI, rasto kare. te eka bhaI mUDamAM nahoto Avato, te rAtanI bhAMjagaDa thayelI hazene te savAramAM cA pItI vakhate e pIto na hato. TAIma thayo te pIvA sAruM AvyA nahIM. eTale baI samajI ke Aje mUDamAM nathI ane mUDamAM nahIM Ave to Akho dahADo bagaDaze. eTale baIe zuM karyuM ke bAbo hato ne, te enA bAbAne kahe che, "jA pappAjIne kahe ke pappAjI, mammI cA pIvA bolAve che.' eTale pelo bAbo 'pappAjI' bolyone tarata A bhUlI gayo badhI vAta. ane tyAM jaIne pahoMcI gayo. jo cAvI pheravI enI ane ema ne ema nahato Ave evo. eTale A benoneya AvaDe badhuM. badhuM AvaDe. praznakartA : khaIbadelo eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : A tamane khaIbadelA nathI maLyA ? praznakartA : hajI badhAne nathI samajaNa paDI. pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : apa ane DAuna banne thatAM AvaDe. e jANe ke atyAre jo apa karavA jaIzuM to athaDAze. eTale DAuna karI nAkhe, khaIbadelA hoya. pAkAM hoya, ene loko pAkAM kahe ane huM khaIbadelo kahuM. hoziyAra mANasa cho badhA Ama tame. 138 eTale mANase ghaDatara thavuM joIe. AvuM nA hovuM joIe ghera jaIne, kaMI bagaDyuM to mUAnuM magaja pharI jAya. ane pachI baIne bahAra pUchIe, zuM hatI bUmAbUma ? 'mUDamAM nathI' kaheze. A ApaNo mUDa strI joI jAya ! ApaNo mUDa to kharI rIte koI joI zakavo ja nA joIe. tene badale, potAnI strI joI jAya, e ApaNI AbarU jatI rahe, zuM kahe, mUDamAM nathI, jo tamArA sAheba mUDamAM nathI hotA ne tyAre tame oNphisanI phAIlo mUkavA jatA nathI ne ? atyAre rahevA do mUDamAM nathI, TakarAze mUo ! amAro mUDa bagaDe nahIM. jyAre juo tyAre e ja mUDamAM hoIe. emano mUDa badalAya che. koI dahADo ? praznakartA : are ghaNo. dAdAzrI : A bilADI che ke popaTa che, te loka pALatA hoya, pachI A bilADI roja che te Ama hAtha pheravIe to Ama rophathI phare ane mUDa badalAya to bacakuM bharI le, to ene rAkhe koI ? bilADIno mUDa badalAto nathI ne, ApaNA mANasono mUDa badalAya kema ? popaTano mUDa badalAto nathI, popaTa cAMca nA bharI le, haiM. kUtaruMya pALeluM hoya ne te ApaNane kaiDI nA khAya. emane tyAM hatuM ja ne ? DaoNga paNa ApaNane nA kaiDI khAya. eTaluM to mAyA eya rAkhe. ane manuSyano mUDa bagaDe to kaiDI khAya che !! ApaNe tyAM to AvuM nA hovuM joIe ne ? A avicAru che. vicAreluM pagaluM nathI A. AmAM vicAra karIe to nIkaLI jAya evuM che ne ? praznakartA : hAjI. dAdAzrI : khoTuM gAMDapaNa ja che khAlI.

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140 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM? jiMdagI patIne sudhAravA phare, mUA tuM sudhara to jaga sudhare ! eTale A sagAI rileTiva che. eTale ghaNA mANaso zuM kare che ke bairIne sudhAravA mATe eTalA badhA jakke caDhe che ke te premanI dora tUTI jAya tyAM sudhI jakke caDhe che. e zuM jANe che ke A mAre sudhAravI ja joIe Ane, alyA mUA, tuM sudharane ? tuM sudhara ekavAra. ane A to riyala nathI, rileTiva che ! chUTuM thaI jaze. mATe ApaNe jUThuM to jUThuM paNa enI gADI pATA para caDhAvI de ne ! ahIMthI pATe caDhI gaI eTale sTezane pahoMcI jaze, haDahaDATa. eTale A rileTiva che. ane sAcavIne manAvIne Ama ukela lAvI devAno. tyAM AgaLa ApaNe kahIe, ene sudhAravI ja che. alyA mUA ene zuM karavA sudhAre che UlaTuM te ! ApaNe sudharIe ne eTale bIjuM sudhare ja. huM ekalo sudharelo houM to tame mArI joDe beso to tame badhA sudharo. paNa huM ja bagaDelo hauM to tame zI rIte sudharo! praznakartA : nA sudhare, barAbara che ! dAdAzrI : eTale A potAne sudharavAnI jarUra che. lokone sudhAravAnI jarUra nathI. kAraNa ke loko emane sudhAra sudhAra kare che, e evo ne evo rahe. tamane kema lAge che, bhaI, sudharavuM joIe ke nA sudharavuM joIe ? kAraNa ke A jagatamAM rileTiva (sApekSa) sagAIo che ane ola dhIsa rileTiva Ara TempararI eDajasTamenTsa ane yU Ara paramenanTa (sApekSa badhuM haMgAmI che ane tuM kAyamano che). bolo, paramenanTanI joDe TempararIno guNAkAra thAya kharo ? eka rakama paramananTa hoya ne bIjI TempararI hoya to guNAkAra thAya kharo ? ApaNe guNAkAra karavA jaIe to TempararI rakama UDI jAya haDahaDATa, te ema ema karatAM karatAM A guNAkAra ja thato nahIM koIno. eTale be rakama huM tamane paramenanTa mUkI ApuM eTale guNAkAra thaI jaze. A guNAkAra karavo che pUrepUro ? sAmo phADe tyAre tuM sAMdhyA kara, nahIM to chUTA, ta bata kAtara ! eka cArTaDa ekAunTanTa AvelA te mane kahe che ke sADAtraNa hajArano pagAra (1970mAM) maLe che. tyAre meM kahyuM, bahu anubhava eTale ? tyAre kahe, hA, anubhava ghaNo, jabarajasta. meM kahyuM ke ekAda dahADo jJAna laI jaje, te sAruM kAma cAle ! bAkI sADAtraNa hajArano pagAra eTale bIjo kazo tAre vAMdho ja nahIM ne ? meM kahyuM, sADAtraNa hajAra eTalA badhA rUpiyA karo cho zuM pachI ? tyAre kahe, atyAre to moMghavArImAM zI rIte ? tyAre meM kahyuM, paNa zuM zuM karo cho, thoDuM ghaNuM kaho mane. tyAre kahe, paMdaraso to mArI patnIne ApuM chuM tyAre meM jANyuM. rasoDA khAte ApatA haze, te meM kahyuM, rasoDAmAM to ApavA ja paDe ne, emAM vAMdho nahIM, paMdaraso Apo to. tyAre e pAcho bolI UThyo, nA, evuM nahIM, rasoDAmAM nathI Apato. paMdaraso to mArI vAIphane ApavAmAM jAya che. pola phUTyuM A ! zI enI akkala nIkaLI A ! hA, have tame sI.e. kharA !! sI.e. judo rahe ane vahu judI rahe. tame AvA sI.e. thayelA mANasane strI judI rahe, tamArI bahAra AbarU keTalI haze ? AbarU to jatI rahene pachI ke nA jatI rahe ? pachI meM pUchyuM, zAthI judI rahe che ? tyAre kahe, mane meLa nathI paDato. meM kahyuM, chokaruM che ? tyAre kahe, eka chokaruM che tenI sAthe rahe che. ene paMdaraso ApuM chuM ane bIjuM mAre khAvApIvA joIe badhuM. meM kahyuM, bahu akkalavALA sI.e. thayelA bIjAnI bhAMjagaDone to sudhArI Ape, paNa A to potAnA hisAbamAM bhUla karI, tame eka mANasanuM samAdhAna nA karI zako ? eka

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(8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM ? 141 142 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra baI, potAnI joDe jeNe zAdI karelI che te baInuM samAdhAna nA karI zako ? tuM cArTaDa ekAunTanTa kahevAuM ! tame to bhayaMkara gaNatarIbAja. huM valyo. meM kahyuM, A sI.e. koNe karyA ? zI rIte pAsa thayelA ? corIo karIne pAsa thayA'tA ? sI.e. to keTalo badho akkalavALo hoya ! bIjuM AjabAjavALAne jo kadI bhAMjagaDa paDI hoya to sAMdhI Ape evo hoya. ane tame gharamAM raeNkTara karI nAkhyuM A ! cheDo phADI nAkhyo Akho ? tyAre kahe, 'dAdAjI, tame ene oLakhatA nathI, bahu ja kharAba bairI che A.' meM kahyuM, e vAteya kharI che paNa huM hamaNe ene pUchI AvIza ke dhaNI kevA che, to zuM kaheze e ? praznakartA : eya evuM ja kahe, kharAba che. dAdAzrI : tadana nAlAyaka che, evuM kahe tyAra pachI ene vicAra Avyo ke sAluM A eya mane nAlAyaka ja kahe. pachI meM kahyuM ke hajI bIjA vizeSaNa che ? tyAre kahe, nA paNa e vAta ja karavA jevI nathI. meM kahyuM ke zarama nathI AvatI ? A tame AvaDA moTA bhaNelA gaNelA thayA ane vahu jatI rahI. meM kahyuM, tame ja nyAya karIne ? tyAre kahe, e to mane vadhAre kharAba kahe. meM kahyuM, to Ano nyAya zo ? kharAba karIne Ama zA hAru pharyA karo cho ? A strI joDe zA hAru tamAre AvuM thayuM ? to kahe, tene sudhAravA gayo hato. meM kahyuM, sudhAravAnuM nA hoya koIne, A sudhAravAmAM kyAM paDyo che tuM? tAruM kAma hoya eTaluM batAvane ene. pAchuM sudhAravAmAM kyAM paDyo ? tyAre kahe che, sudhAruM nahIM to e DAhI kyAre thAya ? meM kahyuM, jo sudhAravAmAM prakRti badalAya nahIM, tuM sudhAravA jAuM chuM ne te tuM sudharelo ho to e sudharaze. tuM ene sudhAravA jauM e kaMI tArI ziSyA thAya evI nathI, e gharAka. tyAre kahe, hA, paNa sudhAryA vagara cAle ja nahIM ne ! sudhAravAnI nahIM, mA (madhara)neya sudhAravAnI nahIM. ApaNe to eDajasTa thavAnuM. ene sudhAravAnI nahoya. ApaNe kaMI sudhAro karavA AvyA nathI Ano. sudhAravA jatA A sudharavAnI nahoya. kAraNa ke sudhArI kone zakAya ? ke kharekhara ApaNI vahu ja hoya to. A to rileTiva sagaI che. kevI sagaI che? A saMbaMdha tuM jANuM chuM ? tuM sI.e. chuM eTale tane samaja pADuM ke A madhara joDe je saMbaMdha chene e rileTiva saMbaMdha che, riyala saMbaMdha nathI. madhara joDe blaDa rilezana che ne pelo naMbara rilezana (paDozI saMbaMdha) che paNa beu rileTiva saMbaMdha che. rileTiva eTale tuM jevuM rAkhuM evuM e rAkhaze. A vAIpha joDe rileTiva saMbaMdhamAM paNa tane A sAcavatA nA AvaDyuM ? tyAre mane kahe ke huM to ema jANe ke A riyala saMbaMdha che. meM kahyuM ke strI joDe riyala saMbaMdha hoto haze ? A deha joDe ja riyala saMbaMdha nathI ne, to dehanA oLakhANavALA joDe zI rIte riyala saMbaMdha hoya ? eTale A badhA saMbaMdha rileTiva saMbaMdha. rileTivano artha zuM ke ApaNe enI jo jarUra hoya, to e phADavA beThI hoya toya ApaNe AkhI rAte sAMdha sAMdha karavuM. ApaNeya phADIe ane e phADe to savAramAM zuM thaI jAya ? praznakartA : DAyavorsa. dAdAzrI : eTale e phADa phADa kare ne, ApaNe sAMdha sAMdha karavAnuM AkhI rAta. nahIM to savAramAM koI saMbaMdha raheze nahIM. rileTivano artha zo ? ke sAMdho. eka phADe to bIjAe sAMdha sAMdha karavuM. eTale beu sAcave. tyAre kahe ke mAre zI rIte sAMdhavuM? meM kahyuM ke e jo AkhI rAta tAre mATe bahu vicAra karatI hoya ke bahu kharAba che, bahu kharAba che to tAre AkhI rAta ema kahevuM ke 'e sArI che, bahu sArI che. A to mArI bhUla thAya che, e to bahu sArI che." eTale savAramAM saMdhAI jaze. kAle pAchuM e phADavA mAMgatI hoya to tuM pharI sAMdhaje. e kahe kharAba che ne ApaNeya kharAba kahIe to phATI jAya. mATe jo tAre enI joDe meLa pADavo hoya to, tAre e phADa phADa kare, ne ApaNe sAMdha sAMdha karavuM. to savAramAM AkhuM raheze. e chone phADatI paNa aDadhuM rahe chene ? pAchuM savAramAM joI laIzuM. sudhAravAnuM kone hoya, ke je riyala sagAI hoya ene. tenA sAru sudhAravAnuM ke bhale so avatAra jAya toya bhale, paNa ene sudhAravI ja rahI mAre. A rileTiva sagAI, pahelAMno hisAba patavA mATenI sagAI, e hisAba cUkate thaI jAya eTale juduM paDI jAya, pharI bhegI thAya nahIM. ene sudhAravAnI kyAM bhAMjagaDo ! tene sudhAravA nakkI karavuM ApaNe, nA sudhare to ApaNe ApaNI maryAdAmAM rahevuM, saMsAra bagaDato aTakAvo, sudhAravA

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(8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM ? 143 144 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra mATe jaka pakaDavI, jakathI bagaDI jAya ke nA bagaDI jAya ? praznakartA : bagaDI jAyane. dAdAzrI : sudhAravA mATe nahIM A je bane te karekTa karIne AgaLa cAlavAnuM. sudhAravAnI bhAMjagaDamAM nahIM paDavAnuM. sudhAravAnI bhAvanA rAkhavI, paNa sudhAravAthI zuM thAya, vadhAre bagaDatuM hoya. ApaNe to e toDa toDa. phADa phADa kare ane ApaNe sAMdha sAMdha karIe. rileTiva sagAI che. jarUra hoya to karavuM AvuM ane jarUra nA hoya to eya phADe ne ApaNeya phADIe to chUTuM, samajAya evI vAta che ? praznakartA: haM, samajAya evI vAta che. dAdAzrI : sagAIo badhI rileTiva sagAIo che, A riyala sagAI nahIM. riyala sagAI hoya to A marI phITavuM joIe, ene sudhAre ja chUTako che, pachI jeTalA avatAra bagaDe eTalA. paNa A to riyala sagAI nathI te pelA mANase mane zuM kahyuM, sI.e.e, e samajadAra mANasane, A rileTiva huM jANuM nahIM ! have ene zI rIte sudhAravAnuM ? tyAM jaIne ene kahevAnuM, ke mAruM magaja pahelAM bahu kharAba rahetuM hatuM, have magaja jarA TATuM paDyuM che, heMDa tuM haMDa ! tAro doSa nahIM, mAro doSa, mane dekhAyA have, kahIe, pelI kaMI Tepa karavAnI che ? Tepa nA kare nahIM ane Tepa kare toya ApaNane koNa, ene vecAtA paisA ApavAnA koI e TepanA ! mArI TepanA paisA Ape, e TepanA koI paisA Ape ? paNa sudhArI dIdhI hatI ! A samajadAra mANaso mane maLe che ne emanuM jaladI kAma thaI jAya che, tarata ja pahoMcI zake ke A karekTa vAta che. tarata amalamAM laI le. tamane gamyuM ke ? bahu ? praznakartA : hA, dAdA. dAdAzrI : te samajAvIne beunuM pachI sAMdhI ApyuM hau bicArAnuM ! rAge pADI dIdhuM ! AvuM che A jagata ! aNasamajaNa A badhI khoTI ! A to rileTiva sagAIo che. Ane sudhAravAnuM nA hoya pelI bAIneya kahyuM, meM kahyuM, sudhAravA pharuM chuM A ? sudhAravAno hoya ? jevo mAla tevo mAla, ApaNe calAvI levAno. eDajasTa evarIvhera. pAMcamAM ArAmAM eDajasTa evarIvhera hoya ane DIsaeDajasTa thazo to mAra khAI khAIne marI jazo. te paNa rAge pADI dIdhuM. patnItI che rileTiva gAI, sAcuM mAnI lyo, tethI ThagAI ! A guNAkAra-bhAgAkAra zene mATe zIkhavADavAmAM Ave che ke guNAkAranI rakama jo bahu vadhI jAya to eTalI rakamathI bhAgI nAkhaje. eTale zeSa kazuM vadhe nahIM. guNAkAranI rakama vadhI jAya ane eno jo bojo lAgato hoya to tene bhAgo, eTalI ja rakamathI bhAgo to bojo ocho thaI jaze. ane saravALA-bAdabAkI to necarala che? emAM koInuM kazuM cAle evuM nathI. A jagatamAM je kaMI paNa thAya che, e khoTa jatI hoya ke napho Avato hoya to e necaranA hAthamAM che ne guNAkAra-bhAgAkAra e oDhIne pharyA kare che. sukhano guNAkAra karyA kare che ane duHkhano bhAgAkAra karyA kare che. A jagatamAM je kaMI paNa saravALA-bAdabAkI thayA che e koI mANasanA hAthamAM che nahIM. A jagata ja saravALA-bAdabAkI che ane guNAkAra-bhAgAkAra e bhrAMtinI nizAnI che. A necara bAdabAkI kare tene ApaNe kahIe ke saravALo kara to nA cAle. e bAdabAkI kare to tuM ene joyA kara ke zuM bane che ? bAkI muLa rakama to UDI javAnI nathI. to bAdabAkI karavA dene jeTalI karene eTalI, niyama ja che. A rilezanamAM to rilezananA AdhAre vartavuM joIe. bahu satya asatyanI jaka na pakaDavI. bahu kheMcavAthI tUTI jAya. sAmo saMbaMdha phADe to. ApaNe jo saMbaMdhanI jarUra hoya to sAMdhI laIe to ja saMbaMdha jaLavAya. kAraNa ke A badhAya saMbaMdho rileTiva che. bairI kahe ke Aje pUnama che. tame kaho ke caudaza che to beunI rakajhaka cAle. ne AkhI rAta bagaDe ne savAre pelI cAno kapa pachADIne Ape. tAMto rahe. enA karatAM ApaNe samajI jaIe ke ANe kheMcavA mAMDyuM che te tUTI jaze eTale dhIre rahIne paMcAMga

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(8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM ? 145 146 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra Amatema karIne pachI kahIe, hA, tAruM kharuM che. Aje pUnama che. ema jarA nATaka karIne pachI ja pelInuM kharuM karAvIe. nahIM to zuM thAya bahu dorI kheMcelI hoya ne ekadama tame choDI do to pelI paDI jAya eTale dorI dhIme dhIme sAmo paDe nahIM tema jALavIne choDavAnI, nahIM to te paDe teno doSa lAge. potAnuM kazuM A zarIra nathI, A rileTiva che. A potAnuM kaMI riyala hoya nahIM. rileTiva eTale sAmAne khuza karo to ApaNane AnaMda thAya ane sAmAne duHkha Apo to ApaNane duHkha thAya. A polIsavALo cIDAto hoya toya khuza karI nAkhIe. tyAre zuM dhaNIne khuza nahIM karavo ? e koI phera ja che nahIM A badhuM. A to rileTiva sagAIo che. jo 'riyala' sagAI hoya ne, to to ApaNe jakke caDhelA kAmanA ke tuM sudhare nahIM tyAM sudhI jakke caDhIza. paNa A to rileTiva ! 'rileTiva' eTale eka kalAka jo baIsAheba joDe jAmI jAya to beune 'DAivorsano vicAra AvI jAya, pachI e vicAra bIjanuM jhADa thAya. ApaNe jo 'vAIpha'nI jarUra hoya to e phADa phADa kare to ApaNe sAMdha sAMdha karavuM to ja A 'rileTiva' saMbaMdha Take, nahIM to tUTI jAya. bApa joDeya 'rileTiva' saMbaMdha che. loka to 'riyala' sagAI mAnIne bApa joDe caDhe jakke. e sudhare nahIM tyAM sudhI ja caDhavuM ? mera cakkara, ema karatAM, sudhAratAM to Doso marI jaze ! enA karatAM enI sevA kara ne ! bicAro vera bAMdhIne jAya enA karatAM ene nirAMte maravA de ne ! enAM ziMgaDAM ene bhAre. koIne vIsavIsa phUTa lAMbAM ziMgaDA hoya temAM ApaNane zuM bhAra ? jenAM hoya tene bhAra. tA kadI sIdhI thAya vAMkI pUMcha, eDajasTa thA, % nIcI mUMcha ! dareka vAtamAM ApaNe sAmAne "eDajasTa' thaI jaIe to keTaluM badhuM saraLa thaI jAya. ApaNe joDe zuM laI javAnuM che? mATe tamAre emane sIdhA karavA nahIM. e tamane sIdhA kare nahIM. jevuM maLyuM evuM sonAnuM. prakRti koInI koI dahADo sIdhI thAya nahIM. kUtarAnI pUMchaDI vAMkI ne vAMkI ja rahe. eTale ApaNe cetIne cAlIe. jevI ho te bhale ho, 'eDajasTa evarIvhera'. TaiDakAvavAnI jagyAe tame nA TaiDakAvI enAthI vAIpha vadhAre sIdhI rahe, je gusso nathI karato, eno tApa bahu sakhata hoya. A ame koIne koI dahADoya vaDhatA nathI, chatAM amAro tApa bahu lAge. praznakartA : to pachI e sIdhI thaI jAya ? dAdAzrI : sIdhA thavAno mArga ja pahelethI A che. te kaLiyugamAM lokone poSAtuM nathI. paNa enA vagara chUTako nathI. praznakartA : paNa e agharuM bahu che. dAdAzrI : nA, nA, e agharuM nathI. e ja saheluM che. gAyanAM ziMgaDAM gAyane bhAre.. praznakartA : ApaNane paNa e mAre ne ? dAdAzrI : ko'ka dahADo ApaNane vAgI jAya. ziMgaDuM mAravA Ave to ApaNe Ama khasI jaIe, tevuM ahIM paNa khasI javAnuM ! sudhAravuM to kyAre kahevAya ke game tevI vAIpha akaDAI jAya, paNa ApaNe ThaMDaka nA mUkIe tyAre sudhArI kahevAya. tamAre sudhAravAno adhikAra keTalo che ? jemAM caitanya che tene sudhAravAno tamane zo adhikAra ? A kapaDuM meluM thayuM hoya to ene ApaNe sApha karavAno adhikAra che. kAraNa ke tyAM sAmethI koI jAtanuM 'riekzana' nathI. ane jemAM caitanya che e to 'riekzana'vALuM che, ene tame zuM sudhAro ? A prakRti potAnI ja sudharatI nathI tyAM bIjAnI zuM sudharavAnI ? pote ja bhamaraDo che. A badhA 'Topsa' che. kAraNa ke e prakRtine AdhIna che, puruSa thayo nathI, puruSa thayA pachI ja puruSArtha utpanna thAya. A to puruSArtha joyo ja nathI. sudhAravAmAM chake ahaMkAra, mahAvIra sudharyA, jo teno pracAra ! praznakartA: 'potAnI bhUla che' evuM svIkArI laIne patnIne sudhArI

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(8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM ? 147 148 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra nA zakAya ? dAdAzrI : sudhAravA mATe pote ja sudharavAnI jarUra che. koIne sudhArI zakAto ja nathI. je sudhAravAnA prayatnavALA che te badhA ahaMkArI che. pote sudharyo eTale sAmo sudharI ja jAya. meM evAya joyelA che ke je bahAra badho sudhAro karavA nIkaLyA hoya che ne gharamAM emanI 'vAIpha' AgaLa AbarU nathI hotI, madhara AgaLa AbarU nathI hotI. A kaI jAtanA mANaso che ? pahelo tuM sudhara. 'huM sudhAruM, huM sudhAruM' e khoTo 'igoijhama' che. are, tAruM ja ThekANuM nathI, te tuM zuM sudhAravAno che ? pahelAM pote DAhyA thavAnI jarUra che. mahAvIra, mahAvIra thavA mATeno ja prayatna karatA hatA ane teno ATalo badho prabhAva paDyo che ! paccIso varSa sudhI to emano prabhAva jato nathI !!! ame koIne sudhAratA nathI. koIneya sudhAravAno prayatna karazo nahIM, paNa jAte sudharavAno prayatna karajo. koIne sudhAravAno ahaMkAra to tIrthaMkaroeya nahIM karelo. e to mokSanuM dAna ApavA AvelA. pasaMda karI pachI paiNI lAvyA, kara nikAla, phAvyA ke na phAvyA ! praznakartA: patino bhaya, bhaviSyano bhaya, 'eDajasTamenTa levA detA nathI. tyAM AgaLa 'ApaNe ene sudhAranAra koNa ?" e yAda rahetuM nathI ne sAmAne cetavaNI rUpe bolAI jAya che. dAdAzrI : e to 'vyavasthita'no upayoga kare, 'vyavasthita' phITa thaI jAya to kazo vAMdho Ave tema nathI. pachI kazuM pUchavA jevuM ja nA rahe. dhaNI Ave eTale thALI-pATalo mukIne kahIe ke, "cAlo jamavA !' emanI prakRti badalAvAnI nathI. je prakRti ApaNe joIne pasaMda karIne paiNIne AvyA te prakRti TheTha sudhI jovAnI. mATe pahele dahADe zuM nahoto jANatAM ke A prakRti AvI ja che ? te ja dahADe chUTuM thaI javuM hatuM ne ? vaTalAyA zuM karavA vadhAre ? A kacakrathI saMsAramAM kazo phAyado thato nathI, nukasAna ja thAya che. kacakaca eTale kakaLATa ! tethI bhagavAne ene kaSAya kahyA. praznakartA : prakRti nA sudhare, paNa vyavahAra to sudhAravo joIene ? dAdAzrI : vyavahAra to lokone AvaDato ja nathI. vyavahAra ko'ka dahADo AvaDyo hota, are aDadho kalAkeya AvaDyo hota toya ghaNuM thaI gayuM ! vyavahAra to samajyA ja nathI. vyavahAra eTale zuM ? upalaka ! vyavahAra eTale satya nahIM. A to vyavahArane satya ja mAnI lIdhuM che. vyavahAramAM satya eTale 'rileTiva' satya, te ahIMnI noTo sAcI hoya ke khoTI hoya, beu 'tyAM'nA sTezane kAma lAgatI nathI. mATe mela pULo Ane ane ApaNe ApaNuM' kAma kADhI lo. vyavahAra eTale dIdheluM pAchuM ApIe te. hamaNAM koI kahe ke, "bhaI, tamArAmAM akkala nathI.' to ApaNe jANIe ke A dIdheluM ja pAchuM AvyuM ? A jo samajo to tenuM nAma vyavahAra kahevAya. atyAre vyavahAra koIne che ja nahIM. jene vyavahAra vyavahAra che, eno nizcaya nizcaya che. A tamAro upAya e nukasAnakAraka che. A na hoya upAya. A to eka jAtano igoijhama' che. huM Ane Ama sudhAruM, tema sudhAruM e 'igoijhama' che, ApaNe zuM kahevA mAMgIe chIe ke pahelo tuM sudhara. tame ekalA ja bagaDelA cho, e to sudharelA ja che ! jiMdagIbhara vahune sudhAravA phare, maryA pachI, sudhArelAM anyane vare ! koI kaheze ke, "bhaI, ene sIdhI karo." are, ene sIdhI karavA jaIza to tuM vAMko thaI jaIza. mATe 'vAIphane sIdhI karavA jazo nahIM, jevI hoya tene 'karekTa' kahIe. ApaNe enI joDe kAyamanuM sATuM-sahiyAruM hoya to judI vAta che, A to eka avatAra pachI to kyAMya vikharAI paDaze ! baMnenA maraNakALa judA, baMnenAM karama judAM ! kazuM levAya nahIM ne devAya nahIM ! ahIMthI te kone tyAM jaze tenI zI khabara ? ApaNe sIdhI karIe ne AvatA janma jAya ko'kane bhAge ! praznakartA : enI joDe karma baMdhAyA hoya to bIjA avatAramAM to, bhegAM to thAyane ? dAdAzrI : bhegAM thAya, paNa bIjI rIte bhegAM thAya. ko'kanI orata

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(8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM ? thaIne ApaNe tyAM vAto karavA Ave. karmanA niyama kharAne ! eTale ApaNe ene sIdhI karIe, paNa A to ThAma nahIM ne ThekANuMya nahIM. ko'ka pUnyazALI mANasa evo hoya ke je amuka bhava joDe rahe. juone neminAtha bhagavAna, rAjula sAthe nava bhavathI joDe ja hatA ne ! evuM hoya to vAta judI che. A to bIjA bhavanuM ja ThekANuM nathI. are, A bhavamAM ja jatAM rahe che ne ! ene 'DAyavarsa' kahe che ne ? A bhavamAM ja be dhaNI kare, traNa dhaNI kare ! ApaNe ene sudhAravA mATe prayatna nA karavo. bahu sudhAravAthI to bagaDe. e khuzI hoya to prayatna karavo. nahIM to sudhAravA mATe enI nA khuzI hoya ne ApaNe sudhAravA pharIe to e AvI rIte sudhArAya nahIM. sudhAravAnuM hoya to ApaNe che te sudharelA joIe. atyAre amArI pAse badhI chokarIo DAhI thaI jAya che. strIo badhI DAhI thaI jAya che. huM pote sudharyo pachI kema nA thAya te ? mArI pAse tame DAhyA thaI jAva ke nA thaI jAva ? praznakartA : hA, thaI ja jaIe ne. patio ja sudharo kharekhara, strIo to tIrthaMkaratI madhara ! 149 praznakartA : puruSane ja sudhAravAno upAya che, bairIone sudhAravAno upAya nathI ? dAdAzrI : bairAM sudharI gayelAM ja che. A puruSo ja DaphoLa che. A strIonA peTe to moTA mahAvIra pAkelA ! tuM strIne peTe janmyo che ke puruSa peTe janmyo che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : tyAra pachI bairAMne kema khoTAM kahevAya ? praznakartA H have sudharI gaI che, bahu sudharI gaI che. pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : sudharI jAya, sudharI jAya. haju to have sudharaze, ahIM Avaze ne, dAdA pAse Ave eTale Ama... ame Ama TapalI mArI mArIne sudhArIe ene ! 150 pote sIdho thayo hoya te ja sAmAne sudhArI zake. prakRti dhAkadhamakIthI nA sudhare, ke nA vaza thAya. dhAkadhamakIthI to jagata UbhuM thayuM che. dhAkadhamakIthI to prakRti vizeSa bagaDe. sAmAne sudharAvA mATe tame dayALu ho to vaDhazo nahIM. ene sudhAravA to mAthuM toDI nAkhe evo maLI ja jaze. aMDarahenDane Apa rakSaNa, vAIpha-chokarAtuM tA kara bhakSaNa ! praznakartA : mArI patnI sAthe mAre bilakula bane nahIM. game teTalI nirdoSa vAta karuM, mAruM sAcuM hoya to paNa e UMdhuM le. bAhyanuM jIvanasaMgharSa to cAle che, paNa A vyaktisaMgharSa zuM haze ? dAdAzrI : evuM che, mANasa potAnA hAtha nIcevALA mANasane eTalo badho kacaDe che, eTalo badho kacaDe che ke kazuM bAkI ja nathI rAkhato. je ApaNA rakSaNamAM hoya tenuM bhakSaNa kyAMthI karAya ? je potAnA hAtha nIce Avyo tenuM to rakSaNa karavuM, e ja moTAmAM moTo dhyeya hovo joIe. eno guno thayo hoya toya enuM rakSaNa karavuM joIe. A pAkistAnI sainiko atyAre badhA ahIM kedI che, chatAMya temane kevuM rakSaNa Ape che ! tyAre A to gharanAM ja chene ? A to bahAranA joDe miyAuM thaI jAya, tyAM jhaghaDo nA kare ne ghera ja badhuM kare. potAnI sattA nIce hoya tene kacaDa kacaDa kare ne uparIne sAheba, sAheba' kare. hamaNAM A polIsavALo TaiDakAve to 'sAheba, sAheba' kahe ane ghera 'vAIpha' sAcI vAta kahetI hoya to ene sahana nA thAya ne tene TaiDakAve. 'mArA cAnA kapamAM kIDI kyAMthI AvI ?' ema karIne gharanAMne phaphaDAve. tenA karatAM zAMtithI kIDI kADhI le ne. gharanAMne phaphaDAve ne polIsavALA AgaLa dhrUje ! have A

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15ra pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM ? 151 ghora anyAya kahevAya. ApaNane A zobhe nahIM. strI to potAnI bhAgIdAra kahevAya. bhAgIdAra joDe kleza ? A to kleza thato hoya tyAM koI rasto kADhavo paDe, samajAvavuM paDe. gharamAM rahevuM che to kleza zAne ? kerIno rasa khAtA hoya, teno vAMdho nathI. ApaNe rasa khAva, ghI khAva, roTalI khAva, paNa ApaNane rasa reDatI vakhata benano hAtha jarAka AghopAcho thayo ne rasa thoDo bahAra paDyo. tyAre ApaNe kahIe ke, 'tuM akkala vagaranI che', to thaI rahyuM ! e tamane adhikAra ja nathI. tame akkala vagaranI che kaho to bAI bicArI zuM kare ? pachI enAthI bolAya nahIM, kAraNa ke e to dabAyelI hoya, nahIM to baI bahu cagelI hoyane, to te ema kahe ke, A tame pAchA akkalanAM kothaLA AvyA, te ghaDIe ApaNI AbarU zuM rahe ? eTale ApaNAthI koIne akkala vagaranI che evuM kazuM kahevAya nahIM. e vahune ja TeDakAve. mUA, vahu kaiDakAve che kaMI ? praznakartA e eka ja jagyA TaiDakAvAnI che. bIje to kyAM, kaMI bolI zake ? samajIne jAte thI pAMsaro, nahIM to mAra paDaze soMsaro ! rAte be vAge jyAre UMghavAno TAIma che tyAre to sUI jA. rAtre be vAge kADhIne Ubho rahe. zuM kADhe ? praznakartA : oNDiTa. dAdAzrI : rAtre be vAge. alyA, te ApaNe ene samajaNa pADIe ke, atyAre sUI jA, savAramAM vAta karaje. paNa nA, A kema Ama karyuM. kaheze, te pAMsaro nA mare. A to eka benane jJAna nahotuM maLyuM, te mane kahetAM hatAM, mane to AvA dhaNI maLyA che ne Amatema mane kahe, huM jJAna lauM to e pAMsaro thaze. tyAre meM kahyuM, e pAMsarA nahIM, tuM pAMsarI thaI jaIza. e to pAMsarA thAya kyAMthI te ? pachI kahe che, ene jJAna maLe to mArA dhaNI pAsarA thaze? meM kahyuM, tuM pAMsarI thaI jA ne ane je pAMsaruM thayuM te jItyuM. hA, mane mArI mArIne lokoe pAMsaro karyo. keTalAya avatArathI mAra khAto khAto Avyo, tyAre pAMsaro thayo. te game tyAM eDajasTa thaI zakuM chuM. evarIvhera, enI plesa para eDajasTa thaI zakuM chuM. pAMsaro to thaye chUTako che ne, tethI ja ame pustakamAM lakhyuM, "eDajasTa evarIvhera". ene mArI mArIne pAMsaro kare ! bairI mArIne pAMsaro kare. pADozI sagAMvahAlAM badhAM mArIne pAMsaro kare. pAMsarA kare ke nA kare ? tamane koIe pAMsarA nahIM karelAM ? pAMsaro to lokoe mane bahu karI nAkhyo che. pAMsaro thayo tyAre jJAnI thayo ! praznakartA : dAdA, Apa to jJAnI puruSa. amArA manamAM to pragaTa paramAtmA jevA, amane manamAM vasI gayA ane Apane moDhe ame evuM sAMbhaLIe ke anaMtakALathI mAra khaI khaIne huM pAMsaro thayo chuM. evuM Apa jyAre kaho, tyAre amAro puruSArtha keTalo badho jAgRta thAya ? dAdAzrI : hA, barAbara che. tame jo nathI thayA to haju thavuM paDaze. dAdAzrI : bIje mAre badhA. pAcho ahIMyAM vAIphane zuM kaheze ? "zuM samaje tuM tArA manamAM ! tAre ghera tane mokalI daIza ?" kaheze. pachI choDInuM tela kADhI nAkhe. e to huM vaTuM tyAre vaLI TATuM paDe, nahIM to rIMgaNuM TATuM paDe nahIM pote. pAcho evuM kahuM rIMgaNa jevo chuM ne zuM bola bola kare che te ! eTale pachI TADho thaI jAya. huM paccIsa varSano hato te sinemAmAM gayelo. pAcho AvuM, te rAte bAra vAgI gayA hoya. te kUtarAM che te poLamAM hoya, bicArA sUI gayelAM hoya ema karIne, eTale mArA manamAM ema thAya ke bicArAM bhaDakI UThaze Ama, A UbhuM thaIne joze avAja thaze eTale. eTale huM bUTa khakhaDe ne te bUTa kADhIne jauM, bUTa hAthamAM jhAlIne jauM te jarAya avAja nahIM, ene camakATa nA thavo joIe. koI jIvane duHkha nA thavuM joIe, koIne bhaya nA pAmavA do. atyAre to gharamAM vAIpha hoya... ApaNA jatAM pahelAM bhaDakatI hoya, ene bhaDakAvIne ApaNane zuM sukha paDe ?

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(8) sudhAravuM ke sudharavuM ? mAruM kahevAnuM ke jJAna ApyA pachI pAMsaruM thavuM paDaze. mATe thaI jajo. jyAM AgaLa koI avaLuM Apene, raste jatAM to upakAra mAnajo ke ApaNane pAMsarA kare che A. upakAra mAnajo. koI che te klAyanTa avaLuM bolIne pAMsaro karavA mAMDe to ApaNe jANavuM upakArI che A. 153 pachI pAMsaro nahIM kare. sIdhAne zuM sIdhuM karavAnuM ? vAMkAne sIdhuM karavAnuM hoya, garama karIne garama thayuM ke sIdhuM. have khAvA-pIvAnuM badhuM sAruM che, pahelAM jevuM kazuM kyAM che ? pahelAM to ghera bheMsa hoya toya mahAparANe capaTI ghI sAcavI sAcavIne le. atyAre khAya che, pIve che ane Tebala khurazIo joI hoya to paMdaraso-paMdaraso rUpiyAnI Tebala-khurazIo hoya che. toya mUA, bhAtamAM kAMkarA nAkhIne khAya che. te ApaNane jIvana jIvatAM ja nathI AvaDatuMne have ! A janarezana kaI jAtanI AvI ! jIvana jIvatAM ja nathI AvaDatuM. pAMsarA thavuM paDaze enA karatAM pahelethI pAMsarA thaI jAvane. zuM khoTuM che ! have ropha pADIne zuM kAma che ? vakhata A ropha pADavAno jamAno che A to ? kAraNa ke chokarAMo nAriyeLa levA jAya chene pelAM, chellAM cAra. teya pelAne kaheze, bhaI, pANI vagaranuM Apajo. koI sastAmAMnuM. A atyAre ropha pADavA jevo jamAno che ? atyAre jema tema karIne nikAla karavAno. pANI vagaranuM zA hAru mAMgatA haze, UMcakavuM paDe nahIM, vadhAre vajana paDe nahIM eTalA sAruM ! praznakartA : paisA ochA eTale. dAdAzrI : huM kahuM to nA khoTuM lAge koI divasa. koIneya nA lAge. e samajI jAya ke ApaNA aMtaranI vAta kare che A dAdAjI ane tame bhoLA-bhadrika, Apo tyAre AvaDuM moTuM Apo. pachI e Ape tyAre pAchA haTI jAva. ane e to rIsa rAkhaze. atyAre to ropha mAraze paNa gAtara narama thAya pachI ApIza kahe che. e tyAM sudhI sillaka rahevA de. pachI pemenTa karavA mAMDe, gAtara narama thayA pachI. * (9) komatasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! bhalabhalAM tALAM turta ughaDe; komatasensathI matabheda TaLe ! bhale mokSanI jarUra badhAne nA hoya, paNa 'komanasensa'nI jarUra to badhAne kharI. A to 'komanasensa' nahIM hovAthI gharanuM khAI-pIne athaDAmaNo thAya che. badhA kaMI kALAMbajAra kare che ? chatAM gharanA traNa mANasomAM sAMja paDye tetrIsa matabheda paDe che. AmAM zuM sukha paDe ? pachI naphaphaTa thaI jIve. e svamAna vagaranuM jIvana zuM kAmanuM ? huM badhAne ema nathI kaheto ke tame badhA mokSe cAlo. huM to ema kahuM chuM ke jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA zIkho. 'komanasensa' thoDI ghaNI to jANe zIkhe che lokonI pAse ! zeThiyAone meM kahyuM ke, 'komanasensa' hoya to AvuM jIvana hoya nahIM. zeThe pUchyuM, 'komanasensa' eTale zuM ?" meM kahyuM, 'komanasensa eTale evarIvhera eplIkebala thiyariTikalI ejha vela ejha prekTikalI. game tevuM tALuM hoya, kaTAyeluM hoya ke game tevuM hoya paNa kUMcI nAkhe ke tarata UghaDI jAya enuM nAma komanasensa. tamAre to tALAM UghaDatAM nathI, vaDhavADo karo cho ane tALAM toDo cho ! are, upara ghaNa moTA mAro cho !' matabheda tamane paDe che ? matabheda eTale zuM ? tALuM ughADatAM nA AvaDyuM ! te 'komanasensa' kyAMthI lAve ? mAruM kahevAnuM ke pUrepUrI traNaso sATha DigrInI saMpUrNa 'komanasensa' nA hoya, paNa cAlIsa DigrI, pacAsa DigrInuM AvaDe ne ? evuM dhyAnamAM lIdhuM hoya to ? eka zubha vicAraNA

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 155 156 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra upara caDhyo hoya to ene e vicAraNA sAMbhaLe ne e jAgrata thaI jAya. zubha vicAraNAnAM bIja paDe. pachI e vicAraNA cAlu thaI jAya. komanasensavALo gharamAM matabheda thavA ja nA de. e komanasensa kyAMthI lAve ? e to 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse bese, 'jJAnI puruSa'nA caraNonuM sevana kare tyAre 'komanasensa utpanna thAya. "komanasensa'vALo gharamAM ke bahAra kyAMya jhaghaDo ja nA thavA de. A muMbaImAM matabheda vagaranAM ghara keTalAM ? matabheda thAya tyAM 'komanasensa' kema kahevAya ? chuM ne mUA, tane zarama nathI AvatI ? bahAranA kesa patAvI ApuM chuM ne vAIpha joDe to jhaghaDo penDiMga rAkhyo che ?' paNa emAM pachI 'huM chuM, huM chuM kaheze. alyA, zene mATe paNa ? vahuno ja kesa nikAla karatAM AvaDato nathI. kaI jAtanA mANasa cho te ?' 'chuM kaho cho, to badhA kesa nikAla karI Apone ? pADozI-bADozI badhAnA kesa samAdhAna karI Apone, to pachI e "' evuM kaMIka bole to ApaNe jANIe ke bhAI A che ! paNa A to vAIpha joDeno jhaghaDo paDyo hoya to nikAla karavAne mATe to mahino-babbe mahinA le che ! jaja nyAya kare jagabharatA, penDiMga kesa varSo gharatA ! cIpha jasTisa hoya, te korTamAM tyAM AgaLa pote jajamenTa Ape. paNa ghera ? praznakartA: baI ja jajamenTa Ape ! dAdAzrI : hA, baI ke bhAI, game te jajamenTa Ape. paNa ghera to gUMcAyeluM ja hoya. baI sTroMga hoya to gUMcAyeluM ja hoya. paNa bemAMthI eka to sTroMga hoyane ? te pachI ADozI pADozI badhA jANI jAya ke A thayuM, cAlyuM have kaMIka, jajamenTa (!) ApI rahyA che !! tyAM sezansa jajo sAta varSanI jelanI sajA kare ane ahIM ghera.....!! mejIsTreTa sAheba ghera baI joDe babbe mahinAthI bolatA nA hoya ! alyA, moDhAM caDhAvIne gharamAM zuM pharo cho ? nikAla karI nAkhone ! bAisAheba joDe abolA hoya ! tyAre ApaNe sAhebane pUchIe ke, 'kema sAheba ?" tyAre sAheba kahe ke, "bai bahu kharAba che, bilakula jaMgalI che.' have bAisAhebane pUchIe ke, 'kema sAheba to bahu sArA mANasa che ne ?" tyAre bAisAheba kahe, "javA done enuM nAma, roTana (saDela) mANasa che.' have AvuM sAMbhaLIe tyAMthI nA samajI jaIe ke A badhuM polaMpola che jagata ? AmAM 'karekTanesa' jevuM kazuM ja nathI. eka mejIsTreTano gharamAM kesa penDiMga !! te meM kahyuM, "mejIsTreTa thayo eka mejisTreTa to khAsa amAro oLakhANavALo, te bAra mahinA sudhI vAIpha joDe bolyo ja nahIM. alyA, kaMI jAtano mejisTreTa chuM tuM? A badhAne jelamAM ghAlI dauM ! gharamAM nikAla nathI karatA ne bahAra zuM dhoLavAnA che te ? ane jaina to kevo hoya ? ke AjubAju paccIsa mAilanA reDiyasamAM (trijyA) sugaMdhI AvatI hoya enI ! kAraNa ke zreSThi puruSo hatA. A olAda kaMI jevI tevI nathI. zreSThi puruSonI olAda che. paNa A kaLiyugane lIdhe e olAda khalAsa thaI gaI ! tamArA manamAM ema ke huM kyAM A baInI joDe vAtacIta karavA besuM? eTale tame baIne nA gAMTho to baI tamaneya nA gAMThe, evuM bane ke nA bane ? praznakartA : bane, cokkasa vaLI. dAdAzrI : te igoijhama che badhuM. A vacce igoijhamanI phAcara naDe che. tamane kema lAge che ? kaMIka ApaNI ja bhUla haze ne? ke badhI bhUla bairI chokarAMnI ja hoya che ? pahelI potAnI ja bhUlo bhAMgavI paDe. pati kare bhUlono ekarAra, to jJAtI tarAve bhava saMsAra ! praznakartA : mArA jIvanamAM eka moTAmAM moTo prazna e che ke atyAra sudhI evuM banyuM che ke huM eDajasTamenTa laI zakyo nathI ane nAnA

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 157 158 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra nAnA evA kAraNosara meM ghaNA DakhA karyA che, mArA vAIphane meM duHkha paNa ghaNuM ApyuM che, eTaluM ja nahIM paNa e trAsI gayAM che mArAthI. ane mane e riyalAijha have thayuM che, ke A mArA kAraNe thayuM che. ane mane AmAMthI nIkaLavuM che to eno rasto batAvo. dAdAzrI : tamArA vAIphathI tame trAsyA nathI ? praznakartA : nA, ema to emane mArA mATe bahu ja lAgaNI che. mane lAgaNI nathI, ema paNa nathI, mane paNa che. dAdAzrI : lAgaNI che tyAre ja AvuM kahe ne ! kazuM sarvisa-barvisa karo cho ? praznakartA : bijhanesa karuM chuM, potAno thoDo dhaMdho karuM chuM. dAdAzrI : zeno ? praznakartA : maTIriyalsa saplAya karavAno. dAdAzrI : tyAM e loko joDe eDajasTa thavAya che ? praznakartA : e loko joDe thavAya che. e loko joDe pahelAM nahatuM thatuM, paNa have e loko sAthe huM eDajasTamenTa karatAM zIkhI gayo chuM. dAdAzrI : Aya zIkhavAnI jarUra che. emAM bIjuM kazuM nahIM. Aya zIkhI jazone eTale badhuM AvaDI javAnuM. praznakartA : have karavuM zuM mAre ? dAdAzrI : jo tamane prema che to eDajasTamenTa hoya ja. praznakartA H ahaMkAra ADo Ave che ? dAdAzrI : hA, e ja ne, ahaMkAranI ja badhI bhAMjagaDa che ne ? matabhedathI to ukela nA Ave. matabheda pasaMda nathI, chatAM matabheda paDI jAya che ne ? sAmo vadhAre kheMcAkheMca kare to ApaNe choDI daIe ne oDhIne sUI javuM, jo choDIe nahIM ne beu kheMcyA rAkhe to beune UMgha nA Ave ne AkhI rAta bagaDe. vyavahAramAM, vepAramAM, bhAgIdArImAM kevuM sAcavIe chIe ! to A saMsAranI bhAgIdArImAM ApaNe nA sAcavI levAya ? eTale eDajasTa' thavAnuM jagatamAM, kAraNa ke dareka vastuno 'enDa hoya che. ane vakhate e lAMbA kALa sudhI cAle toya tame tene 'helpa' nathI karatA, vadhAre nukasAna karo cho. tamArI jAtane nukasAna karo cho te sAmAnuM nukasAna thAya che ! ene koNa sudhArI zake ? je sudharelo hoya te ja sudhArI zake. potAnuM ja ThekANuM nA hoya te sAmAne zI rIte sudhArI zake ? praznakartA : vAIpha joDe ghaNIvAra athaDAmaNa thaI jAya che. mane kaMTALo Ave che. dAdAzrI : kaMTALo Ave eTaluM ja nahIM, paNa keTalAka to dariyAmAM paDatuM nAkhe, brAnDI pIne Ave. eka paiNelo mANasa ghera jato nahoto, tyAre meM kahyuM, kema atyAre tuM A rAtre bAra vAge bAgamAM jAya che ? tyAre kahe, hamaNe jarAka ThaMDo pavana che ne, pachI jato rahIza, paNa pachI tapAsa karI tyAre kahe che, vahu joDe jhaghaDo thayo to, te badhA UMghI jAya pachI ghera javAnuM. te rAte A badhA UMghI gayA pachI jAya. nahIM to jAgatA hoya to vaDhavADa thaI jAya. moTuM caDheluM dekhe ke vaDhavADa thaI jAya. te nirAMte chAnomAno pesI jaIne sUI jAya pAcho ! vAMkA AMTA joDe vAMkI taTa, strI to che, tAruM kAunTara veTa ! praznakartA : huM 'vAIpha' joDe bahu "eDajasTa' thavA jAuM chuM. paNa thavAtuM nathI. dAdAzrI : badhuM hisAbasara che ! vAMkA AMTA ne vAMkI naTa, tyAM sIdhI naTa pherave to zI rIte cAle ? tamane ema thAya ke A strI jAti AvI kema ? paNa strI jAti to tamAruM 'kAunTara veITa' che. jeTalo ApaNo vAMka eTalI e vAMkI eTale to ame badhuM 'vyavasthita che, evuM kahyuM che ne ?

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 159 160 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : badhA ja ApaNane sIdhA karavA AvyA hoya ema lAge dAdAzrI : te sIdhA karavA ja joIe tamane. sIdhA thayA sivAya duniyA cAle nahIM ne ? sIdho thAya nahIM to bApa zI rIte thAya ? sIdho thAya to bApa thAya, strI jANe jAti evI che ke e nA phare, eTale ApaNe pharavuM paDaze. e sahaja jAti che, e phare evI nathI. vAIpha e zuM vastu che ? praznakartA H Apa kaho ? dAdAzrI : vAIpha ijha dhI kAunTara veiTa oNpha mena. e jo kAunTara veiTa nA hoya to gabaDI paDe mANasa. praznakartA : e nA samajAyuM. dAdAzrI : A injanamAM kAunTara veITa mUkavAmAM Ave che. nahIM to ijIna cAlatuM cAlatuM gabaDI paDe. evuM A manuSyane kAunTara veiTa strI che. te strI hoya to gabaDI nA paDe. nahIM to doDadhAma karIne kAMI ThekANe hoya nahIM, A Aje ahIM hoya ne kAle kyAMno kyAMya hoya. A strI che te pAcho ghera Ave che. nahIM to A Ave che ? praznakartA : nA Ave. dAdAzrI : e kAunTara veiTa che enuM. paTAvIne patI, saMsAra pAra utA, vItarAga vATe ja Aro Aro ! 'jJAnI' to sAmo vAMko hoya toya tenI joDe 'eDajasTa thAya. 'jJAnI puruSa'ne joIne cAle to badhI jAtanAM 'eDajasTamenTa' karatAM AvaDI jAya. AnI pAchaLa "sAyansa" zuM kahe che ke vItarAga thaI jAo, rAga-dveSa nA karo. A to mahIM kaMIka Asakti rahI jAya che, tethI mAra paDe che. A vyavahAramAM ekapakSI, niHspRha thaI gayA hoya te vAMkA kahevAya. ApaNane jarUra hoya to sAmo vAMko hoya toya tene manAvI levo paDe. A sTezana para majUra joIto hoya to e AnAkAnI karato hoya toya tene cAra AnA ochAvattA karIne manAvI levo paDe ane nA manAvIe to e bega ApaNA mAthA para ja nAkhene ? ATaluM ja oLakhavAnuM che ke A 'mazInarI" kevI che, eno 'phayujha" UDI jAya to zI rIte 'phayujha' besADI Apavo. sAmAnI prakRtine 'eDajasTa' thatAM AvaDavuM joIe. amAre jo sAmAno 'phayujha' UDI jAya toya amAruM 'eDajasTamenTa' hoya. paNa sAmAnuM 'eDajasTamenTa' tUTe to zuM thAya ? 'phayujha' gayo eTale pachI to e bhIMte athaDAya, bAraNe athaDAya, paNa vAyara tUTato nathI. eTale jo koI phayujha nAkhI Ape to pAchuM rAge pADe, tyAM sudhI e gUMcAya. ghara eka bagIco, daSTi badala, prAkRtika skUlomAM sugaMdhI alaga ! eka bhAI mane kahe ke 'dAdA, gharamAM mArI bairI Ama kare che ne tema kare che. tyAre meM tene kahyuM ke benane pUcho to e zuM kahe che ? ke 'mAro dhaNI Avo nAgo che, akkala vagarano che.' have AmAM tamAro ekalAno nyAya zuM karavA khoLo cho ? tyAre e bhAI kahe ke "mAruM ghara to bagaDI gayuM che. chokarAM bagaDI gayAM che, bairI bagaDI gaI che.' meM kahyuM, 'bagaDI nathI gayuM kazuM.' tamane e jotAM AvaDatuM nathI. tamAruM ghara tamane jotAM AvaDavuM joIe. darekanI prakRti oLakhatAM AvaDavI joIe. evuM chene, gharamAM eDajasTamenTa nathI thatuM enuM kAraNa zuM ? kuTuMbamAM bahu mANasa hoya te badhAnI joDe meLa paDato nathI, dahIMno Dakho thaI jAya pachI ? te zAthI ? A manuSyono je svabhAva che, e eka jAtano nathI. jevo yuga hoya ne tevo svabhAva thaI jAya che. satayugamAM badhA eka meLa rahyA kare, so mANasa gharamAM hoya toya dAdAjI kahe te pramANe baMdhAya anusare ne A kaLiyugamAM to dAdAjI kahe to emane AvaDI AvaDI capoDe (gALo bhAMDe), bApa kazuM kahe to bApaneya AvaDI AvaDI copaDe.

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 161 162 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra have mAnava to mAnava ja che, paNa tamane oLakhatAM nathI AvaDatuM. gharamAM pacAsa mANaso hoya paNa ApaNane oLakhatAM AvaDyuM nahIM eTale Dakho thayA kare che. ene oLakhavAM to joIene ? gharamAM eka jaNa kacakaca karatuM hoya to e to eno svabhAva ja che. eTale ApaNe eka phero samajI javAnuM ke A AvuM che. tame oLakhI jAva kharA ke A AvuM ja che ? pachI emAM pharI tapAsa karavAnI jarUra kharI ? ApaNe oLakhI jaIe eTale tapAsa karavAnI nA rahe. keTalAkane rAte moDuM suI javAnI Teva hoya. ane keTalAkane vaheluM sUI javAnI Teva hoya. te bannene meLa zI rIte paDe ? ane eka kuTuMbamAM badhA bhegAM rahe. te zuM thAya ? gharamAM eka jaNa evuM bolanAro nIkaLe ke tamArAmAM to akkala ochI che. to ApaNe evuM jANavuM ke A AvuM ja bolavAno che eTale ApaNe eDajasTa thaI javuM. ene badale pachI ApaNe sAmo javAba ApIe to ApaNe thAkI jaIe. kAraNa ke e to ApaNane athaDAyo. paNa ApaNe athaDAIe to ApaNane paNa AMkho nathI ema khAtarI thaI gaIne ? huM e sAyansa kahevA mAguM chuM ke prakRtinuM sAyansa jANo. bAkI AtmA e judI vastu che. satayugamAM ghara hoya khetara, Aje bAga, judAM judAM necara ! atyAre tamAruM ghara to bagIco che. satayuga, tretA ne dvAparayugamAM ghara eTale khetarAM jevAM hatAM. koI khetaramAM naryA gulAba ja, koI khetaramAM naryA caMpA, atyAre bagIcA jevuM thaI gayuM che. te ApaNe, A mogaro che ke gulAba evI tapAsa nA karavI joIe ? satayugamAM zuM hatuM ke eka ghera gulAba hoya to badhA gulAba ane bIje ghera mogaro to gharanAM badhA mogaro, evuM hatuM. eka kuTuMbamAM badhAya gulAbanA choDa, eka khetara jevuM eTale vAMdho nA Ave. ane atyAre to bagIcA thayA che. eka gharamAM eka gulAba jevuM, eka mogarA jevo, eTale pelo gulAba bUmo pADe ke tuM kema mArA jevuM nathI ? tAro raMga jo kevo sapheda, mAro raMga kevo sarasa che ? tyAre mogaro kaheze ke tAre to naryA kAMTA che. have gulAba hoya to kAMTA haze, mogaro haze to kAMTA nahIM hoya. mogarAnuM phUla sapheda haze. gulAbanuM phUla gulAbI haze, lAla haze. atyAre kaLiyugamAM eka ja ghare judA judA choDavA hoya. eTale ghara bagIcA rUpe thayuM che, paNa A to jotAM nathI AvaDatuM, enuM zuM thAya ? tene du:kha ja thAyane ne jagatanI A jovAnI dRSTi nathI. bAkI koI kharAba hotuM ja nathI. A matabheda to potAnA ahaMkArane laIne che. jene jotAM nathI AvaDatuM teno ahaMkAra che ! mane ahaMkAra nathI to mane AkhI duniyA joDe matabheda ja nathI paDato. mane jotAM AvaDe che ke A gulAba che, A mogaro che, A dhaMtUro che, A kaDavI gIloDInuM phUla che. evuM badhuM huM oLakhuM pAcho. eTale bagIcA jevuM thaI gayuM che. e to vakhANavA jevuM thayuM ? tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : evuM che ne prakRtimAM phera nA paDe ane e to eno e ja mAla, emAM phera nA paDe. ame dareka prakRtine pAmI lIdhelI hoya. Ama oLakhI joIe, eTale ame darekanI joDe enI prakRti pramANe rahIe, A sUrya joDe ApaNe bapore bAra vAge mitrAcArI karavA jaIe to zuM thAya ? tema ApaNe samajIe ke A unALAno sUrya che. A ziyALAno sUrya che. ema badhuM samajIe to pachI vAMdho Ave ? ame prakRtine oLakhIe eTale pachI tame athaDAvA pharatA hoya toya huM athaDAvA dau nahIM, huM khasI jauM. nahIM to beuno eksiDanTa thAya ane bannenA sperapArTsa tUTI jAya. pelAnuM bampara tUTI jAya tenI sAthe to mahIM beThelAnI zI dazA thaI jAya ? besanArAnI dazA barAbara besI jAyane ! eTale prakRti oLakho. gharamAM badhAnI prakRti oLakhI levAnI. prakRti A kaLiyugamAM khetararUpe nathI, bagIcA rUpe che. eka caMpo, eka gulAba, mogaro, camelI ema badhuM che. te phUlAM badhAM laDe che. pelAM kaheze ke mAruM AvuM che ne pelo kaheze mAruM AvuM che, tyAre eka kaheze ke tArA kAMTA, jA, tArI joDe koNa UbhuM rahe ? Ama jhaghaDA cAlyA kare che. Apane samajAyuMne ? praznakartA : hAjI. eTale ja kahIe chIe ke have to jIvanamAM

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163 164 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 163 zAMtino saraLamArga joIe che. dAdAzrI : eka ja zabda jo jIvanamAM utArazo ? utArazo, barobara ejhekTa ? praznakartA : ekTa, ha. mAMge gulAbajAMbu, maLe khIcaDI, tahIM to "pIjhA haTa'tA jo phaTakI ! eDajasTa thatA nA AvaDe to zuM kare ? vAIpha joDe vaDhe kharA loko? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ema ! zuM vaheMcavA sAruM ? vAIphanI joDe zuM vaheMcavAnuM ? milakta to sahiyArI che. praznakartA : dhaNIne gulAbajAMbu khAvA hoya ane bAyaDI khIcaDI banAve, eTale pachI jhaghaDo thAya. dAdAzrI : 'eDajasTa evarIvhera' ATalo ja zabda jo tame jIvanamAM utArI nAkho, bahu thaI gayuM, tamAre zAMti enI meLe UbhI thaze. paheluM che te cha mahinA sudhI aDacaNo Avaze, pachI enI meLe ja zAMti thaI jaze. paheluM cha mahinA pAchalAM rIekzana Avaze. zarUAta moDI karI te badalanAM. mATe "eDajasTa evarIvhera' ! A kaLiyuganA AvA bhayaMkara kALamAM to eDajasTa nahIM thAva, to khalAsa thaI jazo ! praznakartA : e eDajasTa kevI rIte thavuM, e jarA samajAvo. dAdAzrI : have vAIpha sAmI thaI, ApaNe kaMIka kAraNasara moDuM thaI gayuM ane vAIpha UMdhuM-avaLuM-savaLuM bolavA mAMDI, ATalA moDA Avo cho, mane nahIM phAve ne A badhuM Ama ne tema, enuM magaja khasI gayuM. to ApaNe kahIe ke bhAI, A vAta kharI che tArI, tuM kahetI hoya to pAcho jauM, nahIM to tuM kahetI hoya to mahIM besuM. tyAre kahe, nA pAchA nA jazo, ahIM sUI jAva chAnAmAnA ! paNa pachI kahIe, tuM kahuM to khAuM, nahIM to huM to sUI jAuM. tyAre kahe, nA, khaI lo. eTale ApaNe ene vaza thaIne khaI levuM. eTale eDajasTa thaI gayA. eTale savAramAM cA pharsTa klAsa Ape ane jo DaphaLAvI uparathI, to cAno kapa chaNako mArI Ape te traNa dA'DA sudhI cAlyA ja kare. praznakartA : mAyAnI pakaDa eTalI badhI jabarajasta thaI che ke AvuM thaI zakatuM nathI ? dAdAzrI : hA. e vAteya kharI che. e karekTa vAta che. A huM kahuM chuM, paNa thaI zake nahIM A badhuM !! dAdAzrI : pachI che te zuM gulAbajAMbu Ave, jhaghaDA karyA pachI ? pachI khIcaDI ja khAvI paDe ? praznakartA : pachI bahAra hoTalamAMthI pIjhA maMgAve. dAdAzrI : ema ! eTale peluMya rahyuM ne peluMya rahyuM. pIjhA AvI jAya, nahIM ? paNa ApaNuM peluM to jatuM rahyuM. enA karatAM ApaNe bAIne kahyuM hoya ke tamane anukULa Ave te banAvo. eneya ko'ka dahADo bhAva to thaze ja ne ! e khAvAnuM nahIM khAya ? to ApaNe kahIe, tamane anukULa Ave te banAvajo. tyAre kahe, nA tamane anukULa Ave te banAvavuM che. to ApaNe kahIe ke gulAbajAMbu banAvo ane jo ApaNe pahelethI gulAbajAMbu kahIe eTale e kaheze, nA, huM khIcaDI banAvAnI. e vAMkuM bolaze. praznakartA H AvA matabheda baMdha karavAno Apa zuM rasto batADo cho ? dAdAzrI : A to huM rasto e batAvuM, ke "eDajasTa evarIvhera' kahyuM. e kahe ke, khIcaDI banAvI che to ApaNe 'eDajasTa' thaI javuM. ane tame kaho ke nA, atyAre ApaNe bahAra javuM che. satsaMgamAM javuM che, to emaNe 'eDajasTa thaI javuM joIe. je paheluM bole tene ApaNe eDajasTa thaI javuM.

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166 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 165 praznakartA : to paheluM bolavA mATe mArAmArI thaze. dAdAzrI : hA, ema karaje. mArAmArI karaje, paNa 'eDajasTa' ene thaI javuM. kAraNa ke tArA hAthamAM sattA nathI, e sattA konA hAthamAM che te huM jANuM chuM. eTale AmAM 'eDajasTa' thaI jAya to vAMdho che bhaI ? praznakartA : nA jarAya nahIM. dAdAzrI : bena, tane vAMdho che ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to pachI eno nikAla karI nAkhone ! pelA paTela to nAya kare. paNa tame to karone ? e paTela to kaheze, ame paTela chIe, cha gAmanA !! praznakartA : paTela kahe che, amAre matabheda paDatA ja nathI. dAdAzrI : nathI paDatA, nahIM ? tyAre sAruM. baI zuM kahe ke, dADhI nA rAkhazo ane bhaI dADhI rAkhe. praznakartA : nA, evuM che ja nahIM. badhuM sagavaDiyuM che. dAdAzrI : sagavaDiyuM chene ? tyAre sAruM. 'eDajasTa evarIvhera', vAMdho kharo emAM ? praznakartA : nA, jarAya nahIM. dAdAzrI : e pahelAM bole, ke Aje DuMgaLInA bhajiyAM, lADavA, zAka badhuM banAvo eTale ApaNe eDajasTa thaI javuM. ane tame bolo ke Aje vaheluM sUI javuM che, to emaNe eDajasTa thaI javuM joIe. tamAre koI bhaIbaMdhane tyAM javAnuM hoya toya baMdha rAkhIne vahelA sUI javuM. kAraNa ke bhaIbaMdha joDe bhAMjagaDa thaze e joI levAze. paNa A pahelI ahIM nA thavA devI. A to bhaIbaMdhane tyAM sAruM rAkhavA mATe ahIM pelI bhAMjagaDa kare. eTale e pahelAM bole to ApaNe 'eDajasTa' thaI javuM. praznakartA : paNa emane ATha vAge kaMIka javAnuM hoya, mITiMgamAM ane bahena kahe ke, have sUI jAva, to pachI emaNe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : e kalpanAo nahIM karavAnI. kudaratano niyama evo che ke 'hera dhera ijha e vIla, dhera ijha e ve' (mana hoya to mALave javAya). kalpanA karazo to bagaDaze. e te dahADe e ja kahetI hatI ke, tame jAva jaladI. pote mUkavA Avaze gereja sudhI. A kalpanA karavAthI badhuM bagaDe che. eTalA sAruM eka pustakamAM lakheluM che. 'hera dhera ijha e vIla, dhara ijha e ve' ATalI mArI AjJA pALo to bahu thaI gayuM. paLAze ? ema ? praznakartA : hA, jI. dAdAzrI : le promisa Apa. kharAM ! kharAM ! AnuM nAma zUravIra kahevAya, promisa ApI ! vahu viphare tyAM baMdA namIe, eTeka zuM kAMdA kADhIe ? bairI ciDAya ne kahe, 'huM tamArI thALI laIne nathI AvavAnI, tame jAte Avo. have tamArI tabiyata sArI thaI che ne haiDatA thayA cho. Ama loko joDe vAta karo cho, haropharo cho, bIDIo pIvo cho ane uparathI TAIma thAya tyAre thALI mAgo cho. huM nathI ApavAnI !' tyAre ApaNe dhIme rahIne kahIe, 'tame nIce thALImAM kADho, huM AvuM chuM.' e kahe, 'nathI AvavAnI." te pahelAM ja ApaNe kahIe ke 'huM AvuM chuM, mArI bhUla thaI gaI, lo." AvuM karIe to kaMI rAta sArI jAya, nahIM to rAta bagaDe. pelA DacakArA mAratA sUI gayA hoya ne A baI ahIM DacakArA mAratAM hoya. beune UMgha Ave nahIM, savAre pAchAM cA-pANI thAya te cAno pyAlo khakhaDAvIne mUkI DacakAro mAre ke nA mAre ? te A bhaIe tarata samajI jAya ke DacakAro mAryo. A kakaLATanuM jIvana che. A to pachI gharamAM savAramAM bahenathI jarA cAmAM khAMDa ochI paDI hoya eTale pelo kaheze ke, 'huM tane roja kahuM chuM ke cAmAM khAMDa vadhAre nAkha, paNa tAruM magaja ThekANe nathI rahetuM. A magajanA ThekANAvALo cakkara !

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! tArA ja magajanuM ThekANuM nathI ne ! alyA, kaI jAtano che tuM ? roja jenI joDe sodAbAjI karavAnI hoya tyAM kakaLATa karavAno hoya ? tyAM eDajasTa thaI javAnuM hoya ! 167 pachI 'vAIpha' jo moMghA bhAvanuM zAka lAvI hoya to zAka joIne akkaramI taDUke, 'ATalA moMghA bhAvanuM zAka te lavAtuM haze ?" tyAre bAIsAheba kaheze, 'A tame mArI para eTeka karyo', ema kahIne bAI 'Dabala eTeka' kare. have Ano pAra kyAM Ave ? 'vAIpha' jo moMghA bhAvanuM zAka lAvI hoya to ApaNe kahIe, 'bahu sAruM karyuM, mArA dhanabhAgya ! bAkI, mArA jevA lobhiyAthI ATaluM moghuM nA lavAta.' gharamAM karakasara hovI joIe ? bahAra kharAba nA dekhAya ne karakasara hovI joIe. karakasara rasoDAmAM pesavI nA joIe, udAra karakasara hovI joIe. rasoDAmAM karakasara pese to mana bagaDI jAya ke cokhA vaparAI jaze ! koI bahu lApho hoya tene ame kahIe ke 'nobala' kasakasara karo. A vAIphe jamavAnuM banAvyuM hoya temAM bhUla kADhavI e blanDarsa, nA kaDhAya evuM. jANe pote bhUla nA karato hoya evI vAta kare che. hAu Tu eDajasTa ? eDajasTamenTa levuM joIe. jenI sAthe rahevAnuM kAyama enI sAthe eDajasTamenTa nA levuM joIe ? ApaNA thakI koIne duHkha thAya e bhagavAna mahAvIrano dharma kahevAya te ? ane gharanA mANasane to avazya duHkha nA thavuM joIe. atyAre badhI A athaDAmaNa gharamAM thAya che, e badhI aNasamajaNathI. te aNasamajaNa vINI vINIne nAkhI daIene, A to bhAtanI mahIMthI kAMkarA, e kADhI nA nAkhavA joIe, baLyA ? te aNasamajaNarUpI kAMkarA badhA kADhI nAkhe to bhAta sAro thAya. e kAMkarA rahevA daIe ne pachI bhAta karo emAM zuM majA Ave ? have tuM kAMkarA rahevA dauM ke vINI nAkhuM chuM ? praznakartA : vINuM chuM. dAdAzrI : thoDA ghaNA rahI jatA haze ? 168 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : thoDA rahe che. dAdAzrI : e to dAMta nIce Ave to kevI majA Ave ? kAraNa ke duHkha jevuM nathI, bena. A to ApaNane kAMkarA vINatA AvaDatuM nathI. e kayA kAMkarA ne kayA ghauMne badhuM.... eTale pUcha, badhuM pUcha ! heya, bhAtamAMthI kAMkarA vINI ane pachI sukha bhogavavAnuM ! sahaja maLyuM te dUdha, mAMgyuM te pANI, kheMcyuM to rakta, bodha le A vANI ! bhegA thaIne bese chene, toya mArAmArI kare che. khAtI vakhate vastu eka hoyane, to vaDhavaDhAya kare. joI lo pachI majhA (!) 'mane kema dahIM nA ApyuM ?" kaheze. dahIMnIya vaDhavADa kare. 'sahaja milA so dUdha barAbara', pANI hoya paNa jo sahajAsahaja maLyuM to e dUdha. e dUdha jevuM guNa Apaze. ane dUdhane jo mAMgIne lIdhuM 'mAMga liyA so pAnI.' je mAMgyuM mATe pANIno guNa Apaze pachI 'khIMca liyA so rakta barAbara.' te kheMcI lIdhuM to enuM lohI pIdhA barAbara che. 'gorakha bolyA vANI.' A be vAkyamAM AkhuM zAstra bolI gayo nahIM ? ApaNe jamavA beThA hoya to mAMgavAmAM vAMdho nahIM. ane mAMga liyA nathI kahetA. pelo kahe, 'bApajI atyAre nathI', toya pelo hamaku kucha do, hamaku kucha do, mAMga mAMga kare, e pANI kahevAya. ane kheMcI lIdhuM e rakta barAbara. te atyAre loka mAMgatA nathI, nahIM ? khUMcavI letAya nathI ? have A jamAnAmAM zuM sukha hoya ? sukha te hotuM haze ? sukhaiya koIkanuM laI le. bahAra oDhavAnuM rAte mUkIne sUI jAva joIe ! e kaheze, Aje kaDhI karavI che, to ApaNe kahIe ke nA, Aja kaDhI nahIM, dALa karavI che, to matabheda vadhe. e kahe, kaDhI karavI che to ApaNe elAu karavA (anumati devI). pachI eka dahADo ApaNe kahIe, dUdhapAka karo, to e kaheze, elAuDa ! koInA abhiprAya upara tarApa nahIM mAro ! rAte vAIpha joDe matabheda paDyo hoya to UMgha sArI Ave ? pote

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! ja mAlika che, pote ja A hola enDa sola risponsIbala ! eTale A badhuM zodhana karavAnI jarUra ke sukha zI rIte thAya !! eDajasTa evarIvhera' vAkya, e dharma zIkhyo te cANakya ! 169 ApaNe pUchavuM ke matabheda paDavAthI tane sAruM lAgatuM hoya to matabheda cAlu rAkhu. ane tane duHkha thatuM hoya to baMdha karI dauM, tane viTAminanI peTha kAma thatuM hoya to cAlu rAkhuM, kahIe. paNa du:kha ja thatuM hoya. eya kaheze, nA matabhedathI to duHkha thAya che. matabheda koIneya gharamAM game ja nahIM. bAkI gharanA mANasa to helpara che. vyavahAramAM rahyo enuM nAma kahevAya ke je 'eDajasTa evarIvhera' thayo ! have DevalapamenTano jamAno Avyo. matabheda nA pADavA ! eTale meM zabda Apyo che. atyAre lokone eDajasTa evarIvhera' eDajasTa, eDajasTa, eDajasTa ! kaDhI khArI thaI, to samajI javAnuM ke 'eDajasTamenTa' dAdAe kahyuM che. e kaDhI thoDI pachI khaI levI. hA, kaMI athANuM yAda rahe to pAchuM thoDuM maMgAvavuM ke athANuM laI Avo ! paNa jhaghaDo nahIM, gharamAM jhaghaDo nA hoya ! pote muzkelImAM, koI jagyAe mUkAyelo hoya tyAre te potAnuM 'eDajasTamenTa' karI le toya saMsAra rUpALo lAge. dareka vyaktinA jIvanamAM amuka prinsipala(siddhAMta) hovA ja joIe. chatAMya saMjogo pramANe vartavuM joIe. saMjogone eDajasTa thAya tenuM nAma mANasa. eDajasTamenTa jo dareka saMjogomAM karatAM AvaDe to, TheTha mokSe pahoMcI zakAya evuM gajabanuM hathiyAra che. eDajasTamenTa to, tArI joDe je je koI DieDajasTa thavA Ave tene tuM eDajasTa thaI jA. rojiMdA jIvanamAM jo sAsu-vahune ke derANI-jeThANIne DieDajasTamenTa thatuM hoya to jene A saMsAra ghaTamALamAMthI chUTavuM hoya teNe eDajasTa thaI ja javuM joIe. dhaNI-dhaNIyANImAMya jo eka phADa phADa karatuM hoya to bIjAe sAMdhI levuM. to ja saMbaMdha nabhaze ane zAMti raheze. jene eDajasTamenTa karatAM na AvaDe tene loka menTala (gAMDo) kahe che. A pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra rileTiva satyamAM Agraha, jakanI jarAya jarUra nathI. mANasa to konuM nAma ? evarIvhera eDajasTebala ! coranI sAtheya eDajasTa thaI javuM joIe. 170 eka vakhata ame nahAvA gayA ne pyAlo ja mUkavAno rahI gayelo. te ame jJAnI zenA ? eDajasTa karI laIe. hAtha nAkhyo to pANI bahu garama. naLa kholyo to TAMkI khAlI. pachI ame to dhIme dhIme hAthethI copaDI copaDI TADhuM pADIne nahAyA. badhA mahAtmAo kahe, Aje dAdAne nahAtAM bahu vAra lAgI. te zuM karIe ? pANI TADhuM thAya tyAre ne ? ame koIneya A lAvo ne te lAvo ema nA kahIe. eDajasTa thaI jaIe. eDajasTa thavuM e ja dharma che. A duniyAmAM to plasa-mAinasanuM eDajasTamenTa karavAnuM hoya che. mAinasa hoya tyAM plasa ane plasa hoya tyAM mAinasa karavAnuM. ame to amArA DahApaNaneya jo koI gAMDapaNa kahe to ame kahIe, hA barAbara che. te mAinasa turta karI nAkhIe. akkalavALo to koNa kahevAya ? koIneya duHkha nA de ane je koI duHkha Ape te jamA karI le te. badhAne oblAija (u5kA2) karyA kare Akho dahADo. savAre UThe tyArathI ja enuM lakSa lokone kema karIne helpaphula (madadarUpa) thaI paDuM evuM jene satata rahyA kare te mAnava kahevAya ane te pachI AgaLa upara mokSano rasto paNa maLI jAya. saMsAramAM bIjuM kazuM nA AvaDe teno vAMdho nathI, paNa 'eDajasTa' thatAM to AvaDavuM joIe. sAmo 'DisaeDajasTa' thayA kare ne ApaNe "eDajasTa' thayA karIe to saMsAramAM tarI pAra UtarI jazo. bIjAne anukULa thatAM AvaDe ene koI duHkha ja na hoya. 'eDajasTa evarIvhera'. dareka joDe 'eDajasTamenTa' thAya, e ja moTAmAM moTo dharma. A kALamAM to judI judI prakRtio te 'eDajasTa' thayA vagara kema cAle ? brahmAto 'vata De' eTaluM ja Ayu, 'eDajasTa', nahIM to vahu joDe lahAyuM ! moTAmAM moTuM duHkha zenuM che ? 'DieDajasTamenTa'nuM, tyAM 'eDajasTa evarIvhera' kare to zuM vAMdho che ?

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172 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 171 praznakartA : emAM to puruSArtha joIe. dAdAzrI : kazo puruSArtha nahIM. mArI AjJA pALavAnI ke 'dAdAe kahyuM che ke "eDajasTa evarIvhera' to 'eDajasTa' thayA kare. bIbI kahe ke, 'tame cora cho' to kahevuM ke 'yu Ara karekTa' ane thoDIvAra pachI e kahe ke, "nA, tame corI nathI karI' toya 'yu Ara karekTa' kahIe. strI sADI lAvavAnuM kahe doDhaso rUpiyAnI to ApaNe paccIsa vadhAre ApIe. te cha mahinA sudhI to cAle, samajavuM paDe ! evuM che brahmAno eka divasa, eTalI ApaNI AkhI jiMdagI ! brahmAno eka dahADo jIvavuM ne A zI dhAMdhala ? vakhate ApaNane brahmAnA so varSa jIvavAnuM hoya to to ApaNe jANIe ke "ThIka che, eDajasTa zA mATe thaIe ? 'dAvo mAMDa' kahIe. paNa A to jaladI patAvavuM hoya tene zuM karavuM paDe ? 'eDajasTa' thaIe ke pachI 'dAvo mAMDo' kahIe ? paNa A to eka dahADo ja che, A to jaladI patAvavAnuM che. je kAma jaladI laMbAyA kare ke nA laMbAyA kare ? bIbI joDe laDe to rAtre UMgha Ave kharI ? ane savAre nAstoya sAro nA maLe. rUThI jAya tamArA gharavALA ! apanAvo jJAtInI jJAtakaLA ! te koIka dahADe rAte vAIpha kahe, 'pelI sADI mane nahIM laI Apo ? mane pelI sADI laI ApavI paDaze.' tyAre pelo kahe ke keTalI kiMmata teM joI hatI ? tyAre kahe, bAvIsaso rUpiyAnI che, vadhAre nathI !' to A kahe "tame bAvIsasonI ja che, kaho cho. paNa mAre atyAre paisA lAvavA kaI rIte ? atyAre ahIM sAMdhA tUTe che. baso-traNasonI hoya to laI ApuM. tuM bAvIsasonI kahuM chuM.' e rIsAIne besI rahyAM. have zI dazA thAya te ! manamAM emeya thAya ke baLyo AthI nA paiNyo hoya to sAruM ! paiNyA pachI pastAya eTale zuM kAmamAM lAge ? eTale A duHkho che. praznakartA : Apa ema kahevA mAMgo cho ke bAIne sADI bAvIsaso rUpiyAnI laI ApavAnI ? dAdAzrI : laI ApavI ke nA laI ApavI e tamArI AvaData upara AdhAra rAkhe che. rIsAIne roja rAtre khAvAnuM nahIM karuM, kaheze. tyAre zuM karIe ApaNe ? kyAMthI rasoIyA laI AvIe ? eTale pachI devuM karIne paNa laI ApavI paDe ne ? evuM banAvI do ApaNe ke sADI enI meLe lAve ja nahIM. jo ApaNane mahinAnA AkSo pAunDa maLatA hoya, eTale ApaNe so pAunDa ApaNA kharca mATe rAkhI ane sAtaso emane ApI daIe pachI ApaNane kahe, sADI laI Apo ? ane UlaTI ApaNe mazkarI karavI, pelI sADI A sarasa che, kema lAvatA nathI ? eno veMta eNe karavAno hoya ! A to ApaNe vaita karavAno hoya tyAre ApaNI para jora kare. A badhI kaLA huM jJAna thatAM pahelAM zIkhelo pachI jJAnI thayo. badhI kaLAo mArI pAse AvI tyAre mane jJAna thayuM che. to bolo, A kaLA nathI tethI ja A du:kha che ! tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : hA, barAbara che. dAdAzrI : tamane samajaNa paDIne AmAM ? bhUla to ApaNI ja che ne, kaLA nathI tenI ne ? kaLA zIkhavAnI jarUra che, tame bolyA nahIM ? sAmasAmI ghasAya mogarA tUTe, ahaMkAra Atmavaibhava re lUMTe ! praznakartA : dhAro ke hasabaMDa-vAIphane ekabIjAne eDajasTa thatuM ja nA hoya, to zuM karavuM ? chUTA thaI javuM ? dAdAzrI : eDajasTa thatuM nA hoya ane thavAno prayatna karIe toya vaLe evuM nA hoya, to benuM bagaDe. enA karatAM beune juduM karI ApavuM. tArA koI mitrane che evuM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : to mArI pAse bolAvI le. enuM samuM karI ApuM. e rIpera

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! thaI jAya, rAge paDI jAya. emanuM rIpera karIe eTale joInTa thaI jAya pachI. ApaNe ema jANIe ke ahIM AgaLa Ano A bagADa che. ane ahIM A bagADa che. e rIpera karIe. evAM keTalAMya rAge paDI gayAM. ene 'TensiMga berala'mAM nAkhavAM paDe. 'TeliMga berala'mAM nAkhIne pherave, eTale badhA enA badhA mogarA hoya, e athaDAya, athaDAya ne badhA mogarA tUTI jAya. evuM pelI benanuM rAge paDI gayuM ne ? praznakartA : hA, evA to keTalAMya thayAM. 173 dAdAzrI : eno dhaNI darzana karavA Avyo hato. bena darzana karavA AvI hatI. enI sAsu ne badhAM darzana karavAM AvyAM hatAM. praznakartA : te keTalAM kUdatAM kUdatAM ! baso mAIlathI AvyAM hatAM. dAdAzrI : kUdatAM kUdatAM ! A to bhamaraDA phare che ane kahe che, huM pharyo ! alyA mUA ! bhamaraDo pharyo ane tuM zeno pharyo ? Ara. pI. ema.mAM moTo Dipharansa, tethI paTTo tUTe, taMgI thaI sensa ! ApaNe pahelAM ApaNo mata nA mUkavo. sAmAne pUchavuM ke A bAbatamAM tamAre zuM kahevuM che ? sAmo enuM pakaDI rAkhe to ame amAruM choDI daIe. ApaNe to eTaluM ja jovAnuM ke kaye raste sAmAne duHkha nA thAya. ApaNo abhiprAya sAmA upara besADavo nahIM. sAmAno abhiprAya ApaNe levo. ame to badhAno abhiprAya laIne 'jJAnI' thayA chIe. huM mAro abhiprAya koI para besADavA jAuM to huM ja kAco paDI jAuM. ApaNA abhiprAyathI koIne duHkha nA hovuM joIe. tArAM 'rivolyuzano' aDhArasonAM hoya ne sAmAnAM chaso hoya ne tuM tAro abhiprAya enA para besADe to sAmAnuM enjina tUTI jAya. enA badhAM gIyara badalavAM paDe. 174 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : 'rivolyuzana' eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : A vicAranI je spIDa che te darekane judI judI hoya. kazuM banyuM hoya to te eka miniTamAM to keTaluMya dekhADI de, enA badhA paryAyo 'eTa-e-TAIma' dekhADI de. A moTA moTA presiDanTone miniTanA bAraso 'rivolyuzana' pharatAM hoya, to amArAM pAMca hajAra hoya, bhagavAna mahAvIrane lAkha 'rivolyuzana' pharatAM ! A matabheda paDavAnuM kAraNa zuM ? tamArI 'vAIpha'ne so 'rivolyuzana' hoya ne tamArAM pAMcaso 'rivolyuzana' hoya ane tamane vacce 'kAunTarapulI' nAkhatAM AvaDe nahIM eTale taNakhA jhare, jhaghaDA thAya. are ! keTalIka vAra to 'enjina' hau tUTI jAya. 'rivolyuzana' samajyA tame ? A majUrane tame vAta karo to tamArI vAta ene pahoMce nahIM. enAM 'rivolyuzana' pacAsa hoya ne tamArAM pAMcaso hoya, koIne hajAra hoya, koIne bAraso hoya, jevuM jenuM 'DevalapamenTa' hoya te pramANe 'rivolyuzana' hoya. vacce 'kAunTarapulI' nAkho to ja ene tamArI vAta pahoMce. 'kAunTarapulI' eTale tamAre vacce paTTo nAkhI tamArAM 'rivolyuzana' ghaTADI nAkhavAM paDe. huM dareka mANasanI joDe 'kAunTarapulI' nAkhI dauM. ekalo ahaMkAra kADhI nAkhavAthI ja vaLe tema nathI. kAunTarapulI paNa darekanI joDe nAkhavI paDe. tethI to amAre koInI joDe matabheda ja nA thAya ne ! ame jANIe ke A bhAInAM ATalAM ja 'rivolyuzana' che. eTale te pramANe huM 'kAunTarapulI' goThavI dauM. amane to nAnA bALaka joDe paNa bahu phAve. kAraNa ke ame temanI joDe cAlIsa 'rivolyuzana' goThavI daIe eTale ene mArI vAta pahoMce, nahIM to e mazIna tUTI jAya. praznakartA : koI paNa, sAmAnA 'levala' upara Ave to ja vAta thAya ? dAdAzrI : hA, enAM 'rivolyuzana' para Ave to ja vAta thAya. A tamArI joDe vAtacIta karatAM amArAM 'rivolyuzana' kyAMnA kyAMya jaI Ave ! AkhA varlDamAM pharI Ave !! 'kAunTarapulI' tamane nAkhatAM nA AvaDe temAM ochAM 'rivolyuzana'vALA enjinano zo doSa ? e to

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 175 176 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra tamAro doSa ke "kAunTarapulI' nAkhatAM nA AvaDI. chUTavuM hoya teNe pADavo meLa, banne nizcaya kare to paDaze meLa ! praznakartA: vyavahAramAM rahevAnuM to 'eDajasTamenTa' ekapakSI to nA hovuM joIene ? dAdAzrI : vyavahAra to enuM nAma kahevAya ke 'eDajasTa' thaIe eTale paDozIya kahe ke, "badhA ghera jhaghaDA che, paNa A ghera jhaghaDo nathI." eno vyavahAra sArAmAM sAro gaNAya. jenI joDe nA phAve tyAM ja zakti keLavavAnI che. phAvyuM tyAM to zakti che ja. nA phAve e to nabaLAI che. mAre badhA joDe kema phAve che ? jeTalA 'eDajasTamenTa' lezo teTalI zaktio vadhaze ane azaktio tuTI jAya. sAcI samajaNa to bIjI badhI samajaNane tALAM vAgaze tyAre ja thaze. suMvALA joDe to sahu koI 'eDajasTa thAya paNa vAMkA-kaThaNa-kaDaka joDe, badhA ja joDe 'eDajasTa' thatAM AvaDyuM to kAma thaI gayuM. game teTalo nAnAmAM nAgo mANasa hoya to paNa tenI joDe eDajasTa' thatAM AvaDe, magaja khase nahIM te kAmanuM ! bhaDake to cAle nahIM. jagatanI koI vastu ApaNane 'phITa' thAya nahIM. ApaNe ene 'phITa' thaIe, to A duniyA sarasa che. ane ene 'phITa' karavA jaIe to duniyA vAMkI che. eTale "eDajasTa evarIvhera' ! ApaNe ene phiTa thaIene to vAMdho nathI. praznakartA: ghaNI vakhata ema bane ke eka samaye be jaNa sAthe 'eDajasTamenTa' eka ja vAta para levAnuM hoya to te ja vakhate badhe zI rIte pahoMcI vaLAya ? dAdAzrI : beu joDe levAya. are, sAta jaNa joDe levAnuM hoya tema laI zakAya. eka pUche, "mAruM zuM karyuM?" tyAre kahIe, 'hA bA, tArA kahyA pramANe karIzuM." bIjAneya ema kahIe, 'tame kahezo tema karIzuM.' 'vyavasthita'nI bahAra thavAnuM nathI, mATe game te rIte jhaghaDo nA Ubho karazo. mukhya vastu 'eDajasTamenTa' che. 'hA'thI mukti che. ApaNe 'hA' kahyuM to paNa 'vyavasthita'nI bahAra kaMI thavAnuM che ? paNa 'nA' kahyuM to mahA upAdhi ! gharanAM dhaNI-dhaNiyANI beu jaNa nizcaya kare ke mAre "eDajasTa' thavuM che to banneno ukela Ave. e vadhAre kheMce to ApaNe "eDajasTa' thaI javuM to ukela Ave. eka mANasano hAtha dukhato hato, paNa te bIjAne nahoto kaheto. paNa bIjA hAthe hAtha dabAvIne bIjA hAthethI 'eDajasTa' karyuM ! evuM 'eDajasTa' thaIe to ukela Ave. A 'eDajasTa evarIvhera' nahIM thAya to gAMDA thazo badhA. sAmAne chaMcheDyA karo tethI ja gAMDA thayA. A kutarAne eka phero chaMcheDIe, bIjA phera, trIjA phera chaMcheDIe tyAM sudhI e ApaNI AbarU rAkhe paNa pachI to bahu chaMcheDa chaMcheDa karIe to eya bacakuM bharI le. eya samajI jAya ke A roja chaMcheDe che te nAlAyaka che, nAgo che. A samajavA jevuM che. bhAMjagaDa kazI ja karavAnI nahIM, 'eDajasTa evarIvhera'. jene "eDajasTa thavAnI kaLA AvaDI e duniyAmAMthI mokSa tarapha vaLyo. 'eDajasTamenTa' thayuM enuM nAma jJAna. je 'eDajasTamenTa' zIkhI gayo te tarI gayo. bhogavavAnuM che te to bhogavavAnuM ja che, paNa 'eDajasTamenTa' AvaDe ene vAMdho nA Ave, hisAba cokhkho thaI jAya. A bahAravaTiyA maLI jAya tenI joDe 'DisueDajasTa' thaIe to e mAre. enA karatAM ApaNe nakkI karIe ke ene "eDajasTa' thaIne kAma levuM che, pachI ene pUchIe ke, 'bhAI, tArI zI icchA che ? jo bhaI, ame to jAtrA karavA nIkaLyA chIe.' tene eDajasTa thaI jaIe. khADI gaMdhAya tene zuM vaDhAya ? mANasoya 'gaMdhAya' tyAM zuM upAya ? A vAMdarAnI khADI gaMdhAya to ene zuM vaDhavA javAya ? tema A mANaso gaMdhAya che tene kaMI kahevA javAya ? gaMdhAya e badhI khADIo kahevAya ne sugaMdhI Ave e bAga kahevAya. je je gaMdhAya che e badhA kahe che ke, 'tame amArI joDe vItarAga raho'.

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 177 A to sAruM-khoTuM kahevAthI bhUtAM pajave che. ApaNe to baMnene sarakhAM karI nAkhavAnAM che. Ane sAruM kahyuM eTale peluM khoTuM thayuM, eTale pachI e pajave. paNa baMnenuM 'mikScara' karI nAkhIe eTale pachI asara nA rahe. 'eDajasTa evarIvhera'nI ame zodhakhoLa karI che. kharuM kaheto hoya tenI joDeya ne khoTuM kaheto hoya tenI joDeya 'eDajasTa' thA. amane koI kahe ke, 'tamArAmAM akkala nathI.' to ame tene tarata 'eDajasTa' thaI jaIe ne tene kahIe ke, 'e to pahelethI ja nahotI ! hamaNAM tuM kyAM khoLavA Avyo chuM ? tane to Aje enI khabara paDI, paNa huM to nAnapaNathI e jANuM chuM.' Ama kahIe eTale bhAMjagaDa maTIne ? pharI e ApaNI pAse akkala khoLavA ja nA Ave. Ama nA karIe to 'ApaNe ghera' kyAre pahoMcAya ? athaDAyo te bhIMta kahevAya, bacavA samaju ja khasI jAya ! bhIMtane athaDAva to matabheda bhIMta joDe paDe kharo ? bhIMtane tame athaDAI gayA koI vakhata ke bAraNAne, to te ghaDIe matabheda paDe bAraNA joDe ke bhIMta joDe ? praznakartA : e bAraNuM to nirjIva vastu che ne ? dAdAzrI : eTale jIvane mATe ja che te tame ema mAno cho ke A e athaDAyo mArI joDe, A duniyAmAM je athaDAya che e badhI ja nirjIva vastu hoya che. athaDAya che e jIvaMta nA hoya, jIvaMta athaDAya nahIM. nirjIva vastu athaDAya. eTale tamArI bhIMta jevuM ja samajI levAnuM. eTale Dakho nahIM karavAno Ama Ama karIne pachI kaMIka, heMDo cA kADho, kahIe. hamaNe eka chokaruM DhekhALo (paththa2) mAre ane lohI nIkaLe eTale chokarA upara zuM karo ? gusso karo ? gusso karo. ane tame jatA ho ane DuMgara uparathI eka patharo paDyo. te vAge ne lohI nIkaLe to pachI zuM karo, gusso karo ? 178 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : enuM zuM kAraNa ? pelo DuMgara uparathI paDelo che ! pachI A chokaro pastAto hoya ke A kyAM thaI gayuM mArAthI. A DuMgara uparathI paDyo te koNe karyuM ? eTale A duniyA jo samajo, mArI pAse Avo to ciMtA nA thAya evuM tamane karI ApuM, pachI koI dahADo ciMtA varIjha kazuM ja nA thAya. ane saMsAramAM sArI rIte raho ane vAIpha joDe pharo nirAMte ! ane chokarIo paiNAvo nirAMte. pachI vAIpha khuza thaI jaze, 'kahevuM paDe kevA DAhyA karI AlyA, mArA dhaNIne !' kaheze. have vAIphane koI baI joDe, pADozI joDe vaDhavADha thayelI hoya ane enuM magaja tapI gayeluM hoya ane ApaNe bahArathI AvyA to e tapI gayeluM bole to ApaNe zuM karavuM pAchuM ? ApaNe tapI javuM pAchuM ? evA saMjogo UbhA thAya che tyAM AgaLa eDajasTa thaIne ApaNe cAlavuM joIe. kayA saMjogamAM have tapelI che Aje, konI joDe tapI gayelI hoya, zuM khabara paDe ? eTale ApaNe puruSo thayA matabheda na paDavA daIe. e matabheda pADe toya, kAraNa ke emane eka jAtanI samaja ochI hoya che, amuka jAtanI. ane bIjI samaja bahu UMcI hoya che, ApaNA karatAM UMcI hoya che. eTale ApaNe A bAbatamAM che te matabheda paDyo hoyane to vALI levuM. matabheda eTale athaDAmaNa ! praznakartA : ApaNe kleza nA karavo hoya paNa sAme AvIne jhaghaDe to zuM karavuM ? emAM eka jAgrata hoya paNa sAmAvALo kleza kare, to tyAM to kleza thAya ja ne ? dAdAzrI : A bhIMta joDe laDe, to keTalo vakhata laDI zake ? A bhIMta joDe eka dahADo mAthuM athaDAyuM to ApaNe enI joDe zuM karavuM ? mAthuM athaDAyuM eTale ApaNe bhIMta joDe vaDhavADa thaI eTale ApaNe bhIMtane mAra mAra karavI ? ema A khUba kleza karAvatuM hoya to te badhI bhIMto che ! AmAM sAmAne zuM jovAnuM ? ApaNe ApaNI meLe samajI javAnuM ke

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 179 180 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra A bhIMta jevA che, AvuM samajavAnuM pachI koI muzkelI nathI. praznakartA : ApaNe mauna rahIe to sAmAne UMdhI asara thAya che ke Amano ja doSa che ne e vadhAre kleza kare ? dAdAzrI : A to ApaNe mAnI lIdhuM che ke huM mauna thayo tethI AvuM thayuM. rAtre mANasa UThyo ne bAtharUmamAM jatAM aMdhArAmAM bhIMta joDe athaDAyo, to tyAM ApaNe mauna rahyA tethI te athaDAI ? mauna raho ke bolo tene sparzatuM ja nathI, kaMI lAgatuM-vaLagatuM nathI. ApaNA mauna rahevAthI sAmAne asara thAya che evuM kazuM hotuM nathI ke ApaNA bolavAthI asara thAya che evuM paNa kazuM hotuM nathI. "onlI sAyanTiphika sarakamasTenziyala eviDansa' (mAtra vaijJAnika saMyogika purAvA) che. koInI ATalI sattA nathI. ATalIya sattA vagaranuM jagata, emAM koI zuM karavAnuM che? A bhIMtane jo sattA hoya to Ane sattA hoya ! A bhIMtane ApaNane vaDhavAnI sattA che? evuM sAmAne che. ane enA nimitte je athaDAmaNa che e to choDavAnI nathI. nakAmI bUmAbUma karavAno zo artha ? enA hAthamAM sattA ja nathI tyAM ! mATe tame bheMta jevA thaI jAone, tame bairIne TaiDakAva TaiDakAva karo to tenI mahIM bhagavAna beThelA che. te noMdha kare ke A mane TaiDakAve che. ne tamane e TeDakAve tyAre tame bhIMta jevA thaI jAo, to tamArI mahIM beThelA bhagavAna tamane 'helpa' kare. A bhIMta joDe matabheda pADo to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : mAthuM phUTe. dAdAzrI : mAthuM phUTI jAya, tyAre bhIMtane pachI vAMdho che ? mATe matabheda nA karavo. bhIMtane to levAdevA zuM che ? mATe bhUla ApaNI hoya to ja bhIMta athaDAya che. emAM bhIMtanI bhUla nathI. tyAre mane loko kahe che ke, "A loko badhA kaMI bhIMta che ?" tyAre huM kahuM chuM ke, 'hA, loko e paNa bhIMta ja che. e huM joIne kahuM chuM, A kaMI gamyuM nathI. koInI joDe matabheda paDavo ane bhIMta joDe athaDAvuM e be sarakhI vastu che, e bemAM phera nathI. A bhIMtanI joDe athaDAya che, e nahIM dekhAvAthI athaDAya che. ne pelo matabheda paDe che te paNa nahIM dekhAvAthI matabheda paDe che. AgaLanuM ene dekhAtuM nathI, AgaLanuM ene solyuzana jaDatuM nathI eTale matabheda paDe che. A krodha thAya che, te paNa nahIM dekhAvAthI krodha thAya che. A krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha badhuM kare che e nahIM dekhAvAthI ja badhuM kare che ! te Ama vAtane samajavI joIene ? vAge teno doSane, bhIMtano kaMI doSa kharo ? te A jagatamAM badhI bhIMto ja che. bhIMta athaDAya eTale ApaNe kharI-khoTI karavA enI joDe nathI jatAMne ? ke A mAruM kharuM che evuM laDavA mATe bhAMjagaDa nathI karatAMne ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : evuM A atyAre bhIMtanI sthitimAM ja che. AnI joDe kharuM karavAnI jarUra ja nathI. je athaDAya chene te ApaNe samajIe ke e bhIMto ja che. pachI bAraNuM kyAM che enI tapAsa karavI to aMdhArAmAMya bAraNuM jaDe. Ama hAtha halAvatAM halAvatAM jaIe to bAraNuM jaDe ke nA jaDe ? ane tyAMthI pachI chaTakI javAnuM. athaDAvuM nathI evo kAyado pALo joIe ke koInI athaDAmaNamAM AvavuM nathI. tamAre konI joDe athaDAya che ? praznakartA : e bahAra athaDAya. dAdAzrI : e to mahIM gharamAMya keTalIya vAra thAya, e to tamane lAge evuM. praznakartA: nA, nA. ame to koI divasa athaDAtA nathI. varase eka vAra. te khAlI thoDI vAra. dAdAzrI : e to ekAdavAra to divALI kahevAya. eno vAMdho nahIM. A to mahinAmAM eka-be vakhata hoya ja. praznakartA: e to koI vAra kAmavALA nahIM AvyA hoya, koI vAra kAcanuM vAsaNa tUTI gayuM hoya, kaMI Ama thayuM hoya to ja athaDAmaNa thAya.

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 181 dAdAzrI : te paNa takarAra karavAnI zI jarUra che ? praznakartA : e to thaI jAya, khAlI ArgyumenTa thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : baLyuM, ApaNe nokarI karatA hoIe to ArgyumenTa karIe ? zeTha kahe evuM karI nAkhavAnuM. ApaNe bhAMjagaDa nahIM. A to nokarI ja joIe A lokone. svataMtra jagA ja nahIM apAya evA loko, nahIM ? eTale zuM karavuM joIe ? tAre emanA nokara tarIke rahevuM. e tArA nokara tarIke rahe. evuM thAya tyAre majA Ave. 'AI ema yora sarvanTa' paNa moDhe kahevAnuM nahIM. loka sAMbhaLe to A khoTuM dekhAya, kaheze, beu gAMDA thaI gayA che. bAkI, A to jIvatAM ja nathI AvaDatuM paiNatA nahotuM AvaDyuM te mahAparANe paiNyA ! bApa thatAM nathI AvaDatuM, ema ne ema bApa thaI gayo. chokarAo khuza thaI jAya evuM have jIvana jIvavuM joIe. savAramAM badhAe nakkI karavuM joIe ke bhaI Aje koInI sAmasAme athaDAmaNa na Ave, evuM ApaNe vicAra karI lo, kahIe. athaDAmaNathI phAyado thAya che e mane dekhADo. praznakartA : nA, nathI thato. dAdAzrI : zuM phAyado thAya che ? praznakartA H du:kha thAya. dAdAzrI : nahIM, du:kha thAya eTaluM ja nahIM. A athaDAmaNathI atyAre to du:kha thayuM, paNa Akho dahADo bagaDe ane Avato bhava pAchuM manuSyapaNuM jatuM rahe. mANasapaNuM to kyAre rahe ke sajjanatA hoya to mANasapaNuM rahe. paNa pAzavatA hoya, godA mAra mAra kare, zIMgaDA mAra mAra kare, tyAre pachI tyAM AgaLa mANasapaNuM Ave pharI ? gAyo-bheMso zIMgaDA mAre ke mANasa mAre ? praznakartA : mANasa vadhAre mAre. 182 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : to mANasa mAre to pachI jAnavaramAM javuM paDe. praznakartA : e vadhAre vAge hau. dAdAzrI : vAge paNa vadhAre. eTale tyAM AgaLa be pagane badale cAra paga ne pUMchaDuM vadhArAnuM pAchuM ! tyAMnuM kaMI jevuM tevuM che ? tyAM koI duHkha nathI ? bahu che, jarA samajavuM paDe, Ama kema cAle te ? TrAphikanA kAyadA toDye daMDa vyavahAre AthaDaye vAge pracaMDa ! praznakartA : pelI copaDI kAle lIdhI hatI emAM e hatuM ke, A roDa paranAM vAhana-vyavahArano zo dharma che ke athaDAzo to tame marI jazo. athaDAvAmAM jokhama che ane tame koInI joDe athaDAzo ja nahIM. tema A vyavahAramAM dharmo eTale rileTiva dharmamAM kahe che ke koIne paNa trAsa na Apo ne tamAre sukha joItuM hoya to bIjAne sukha Apajo. dAdAzrI : jema A roDa upara ApaNe kALajIpUrvaka cAlIe chIe, pachI sAmo mANasa game tevo kharAba hoya ane ApaNane athADI jAya ane nukasAna kare e judI vAta che. paNa ApaNo nukasAna karavAno IrAdo na hovo joIe. ApaNe ene nukasAna karavA jaIe to ApaNane nukasAna thavAnuM che e eTale haMmezAM dareka athaDAmaNamAM bannene nukasAna thAya. tame sAmAne duHkha Apo ne tenI sAthe tamane duHkha ema ne ema ona dhI momenTa paDyA vagara rahe ja nahIM. e athaDAmaNo che, eTale meM A dAkhalo Apyo che ke roDa uparanA vAhanavyavahArano zo dharma che ke athaDAzo to tame marI jazo. athaDAvAmAM jokhama che mATe koInI joDe athaDAzo nahIM. e evI rIte A vyavahArika kAryomAM paNa athaDAzo nahIM. athaDAvAmAM jokhama ja che haMmezAM. ane athaDAvAnuM koIka dahADo bane che, kaMI mahinAmAM baso vakhata thAya che ? mahinAmAM keTalA vakhata Ave che evuM ? praznakartA : ko'ka vakhata, be-cAra vakhata.

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 183 184 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : haM, te eTalA sudhArI levA ApaNe. mAruM kahevAnuM, zA mATe ApaNe bagADIe, prasaMgone bagADavA e ApaNane zobhe nahIM. A che te TrAphikanA laoNjha badhA. e laoNnA AdhAre cAle che. TrAphikanA, emAM potAnI samajaNe koI nA cAlene ? A TrAphikanA laoNmAM ane AmAM potAnI samajaNe ja kAyadA nahIM ? A to koI dahADo aDacaNa nathI AvatI. e kevuM sarasa TrAphika goThavAyeluM che. have A jo kAyadA tame samajIne cAlo, to pharI aDacaNa nahIM Ave. eTale A kAyadAo samajavAmAM bhUla che. kAyadA samajAvanAra samajadAra hovo joIe. A TrAphikanA laoNjha pALavA mATe tame nizcaya karelA hoya che, to kevA sarasa paLAya che ! kema emAM ahaMkAra jAgato nathI ke bhale e kahe paNa ApaNe Ama ja karavuM che. praznakartA : pelo TikTi ApI dene, mAmo ! (polIsavALo daMDa karene !). dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke e TrAphikanA laoNjhamAM e pote ja, buddhi eTalI badhI samajI zake che, sthaLa che eTale ke hAtha kapAI jaze, tarata marI jaIza. evuM A athaDAmaNa karIne AmAM marI jaIza e khabara nathI. pelI buddhi pahoMcI zakatI nathI. A sUkSma vastu che A. AnA nukazAna badhAM sUkSma thAya che ! eTale eDajasTa thatAM nA AvaDe e mANasane mANasa kema kahevAya ? saMjogone vaza thaIne eDajasTa thaI jAya e gharamAM kazuMya bhAMjagaDa nA thAya. ameya hIrAbAne eDajasTa thatAM ja AvyA hatA ne ! emano lAbha uThAvavo hoya to eDajasTa raho. A to lAbheya koI vastuno nahIM ane vera bAMdhaze te juduM ! kAraNa ke jIva svataMtra che dareka. ane pote sukha khoLavA AvyA che. bIjAne ApavA mAM Avyo che, evuM nathI. ene zuM ? pote khoLavA Avyo che. have ene sukhane badale duHkha maLe eTale pachI vera bAMdhe, pachI bairI hoya ke chokaro hoya. praznakartA : sukha khoLavA Ave to duHkha maLe eTale pachI vera bAMdhe ? dAdAzrI : hA, e to pachI bhaI hoya ke bApA hoya paNa mahIM aMdarakhAne vera bAMdhe enuM. A duniyA AvI badhI, A vera ja bAMdhe ! svadharmamAM vera koInI joDe nA thAya. ghera na eDajasTa koI saMge, zAstro bhaNI upadezaka kaDhaMge ! praznakartA: 'eDajasTamenTanI vAta che, enI pAchaLa bhAva zuM che? pachI kyAM AvavuM ? dAdAzrI : bhAva zAMtino che, zAMtino hetu che, azAMti utpanna nahIM karavAno kImiyo che. 'dAdA'nuM 'eDajasTamenTa'nuM vijJAna che, ajAyaba 'eDajasTamenTa' che A ane jyAM 'eDajasTa' nahIM thAya tyAM teno svAda to Avato ja hazene tamane ? A 'DisUeDajasTamenTa' e ja mUrkhAI che. 'eDajasTamenTa'ne ame nyAya kahIe chIe, Agraha-durAgraha e kaMI nyAya nA kahevAya. koI paNa jAtano Agraha e nyAya nathI. ame kazAno kakko nA pakaDIe. je pANIe maga caDhe enAthI caDhAvIe, chevaTe gaTaranA pANIe paNa caDhAvIe ! ahIM ghera 'eDajasTa thatAM AvaDatuM nathI ne AtmajJAnanAM zAstro vAMcavA beThA hoya ! alyA, melane pULo ahIMthI, paheluM 'A' zIkhane. gharamAM 'eDajasTa thavAnuM to kazuM AvaDatuM nathI. AvuM che A jagata ! eTale kAma kADhI levA jevuM che. atyAra sudhI ekaya mANasa amane DisUeDajasTa thayo nathI ane A lokone gharanAM cAra mANasoya eDajasTa thatAM nathI, A eDajasTa thavAnuM AvaDe ke nA AvaDe ? evuM thaI zake ke nA thaI zake ? ApaNe jevuM joIe evuM to ApaNane AvaDe ne ? A jagatano niyama zo che ke jevuM tame jozo eTaluM to AvaDe ja emAM kaMI zIkhavApaNuM rahetuM nathI. kayuM nA

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(9) komanasensathI, eDajasTa evarIvhera ! 185 AvaDe ? ke huM tamane Ama je upadeza ApyA karuM chuM ne, te AvaDe nahIM. paNa mAruM vartana tame jozo to saheje AvaDI jAya. saMsAramAM bIjuM kazuM bhale nA AvaDe, kaMI vAMdho nathI. dhaMdho karatAM ocho AvaDe to vAMdho nathI, paNa eDajasTa thatAM AvaDavuM joIe. eTale vastusthitimAM eDajasTa thatAM zIkhavuM joIe. A kALamAM eDajasTa thatAM nA AvaDe to mAryo jaIza. (10) be DipArTamenTa tokhAM... rAkho homa-phorena be DipArTamenTa, rahevAnuM che eka epArTameTa ! puruSa strInI bAbatamAM hAtha nA ghAlavo ne strIe puruSanI bAbatamAM hAtha nA ghAlavo. dareke potapotAnAM 'DipArTamenTamAM ja rahevuM. praznakartA H strInuM DipArTamenTa karyuM ? zemAM zemAM puruSoe hAtha nA ghAlavo ? dAdAzrI : evuM che, khAvAnuM zuM karavuM ? ghara kema calAvavuM ? te badhuM strInuM DipArTamenTa che. ghauM kyAMthI lAve che, kyAMthI nathI lAvatI te ApaNe jANavAnI zI jarUra ? e jo ApaNane kahetA hoya ke ghauM lAvavAmAM aDacaNa paDe che to e vAta judI che. paNa ApaNane e kahetAM nA hoya, rezana batAvatAM nA hoya, to ApaNe 'DipArTamenTa'mAM hAtha ghAlavAnI jarUra ja zI ? "Aje dudhapAka karajo, Aje jalebI karajo', eya ApaNe kahevAnI jarUra zI ? TAIma Avaze tyAre e mukaze. emanuM 'DipArTamenTa' e emanuM svataMtra ! vakhate bahu icchA thaI hoya to kahevuM ke, 'Aje lADu banAvaje." kahevA mATe nA nathI kaheto, paNa bIjI ADI-avaLI, amathI amathI bUmAbUma kare ke "kaDhI khArI thaI, khArI thaI" te badhuM gama vagaranuM che. A relvelAIna cAle che. temAM keTalI badhI kAmagIrIo hoya che ! keTalI jagyAethI noMdha Ave, khabaro Ave, te enuM 'DipArTamenTa' ja AvuM juduM. have temAMya khAmI to Ave ja ne ? tema 'vAIphanA 'DipArTamenTa'mAM

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM... 187 188 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra ko'ka phero khAmI paNa Ave. have ApaNe jo emanI khAmI kADhavA jaIe to pachI e ApaNI khAmI kADhaze. 'tame Ama nathI karatA, tema nathI karatA. Ama kAgaLa Avyo ne tema karyuM tame." eTale vera vALe. huM tamArI khoDa kADhuM to tame paNa mArI khoDa kADhavA talapI rahyA hoya ! eTale kharo mANasa to gharanI bAbatamAM hAtha ja nA ghAle, ene puruSa kahevAya ! nahIM to strI jevo hoya. keTalAka mANaso to gharamAM jaIne masAlAnA DabbAmAM jue ke, 'A be mahinA para lAvyA hatA te eTalI vAramAM thaI rahyA." alyA, AvuM jue che te kyAre pAra Ave ? e jenuM 'DipArTamenTa' hoya tene ciMtA nA hoya ? kAraNa ke vastu to vaparAyA kare ne levAyAya kare. paNa A vagara kAmano doDha DAhyo thavA jAya ! praznakartA : e pUche to ApaNe javAba Apavo. bAkI, nahIM to enA DipArTamenTamAM ApaNe hAtha nA ghAlavo. dAdAzrI : barobara che. e sArAmAM sAruM. DipArTamenTamAM hAtha ghAlavo nahIM. emanAM rasoDA DipArTamenTamAM hAtha ghAlavo joIe nahIM. muMbaImAM eka ApaNA che te paTela hatA ane te prophesara hatA. te pachI emanA vAIphane kahyuM, A tamAre prophesara jevo dhaNI maLyo che, prophesara sIdhA mANasa, emanI joDe zuM karavA matabheda thAya che ? tyAre kahe, dAdAjI zuM kahuM, jyAre huM bahAra jauM chuM ne kaMIka zAka-bAka levA to A gharamAM pachI rasoDAmAM jaIne maracuM joI le, bIjuM joI le, A maracuM to ApaNe be mahinA pahelAM lAvyA hatA. eTalI vAramAM maracuM zI rIte khalAsa thaI gayuM ? kaheze. maracuM jue, bIjuM jue, trIjuM jue. bolo, A have pelA bena cIDAya ke nA cIDAya ? maracuM hau jovAnuM ApaNe ? te khaI gaI maracuM ? enA piyara mokalI dIdhuM? prophesara thaIne AvuM bole ! juone, AkhA DabbA joI Ave ! tyAre ene saMtoSa thAya ane pachI koI Dabbo khAlI dekhe, tyAre kaheze, A zuM thayuM ? koIne uchInAM ApyAM haze maracAM ? praznakartA: pahelAM to vahunI rIte cokhA ke dALa orAya nahIM, e to sAsu kADhI Ape Ama... eTaluM ja oravAnuM. vadhAre paDI jAya eTale kacakaca thAya ! evuM thayuM A to. dAdAzrI : pachI baIeya jANe ke bhaInI pAvalI paDI gayelI che. mAla kevo che te bena samajI jAya. niyama ane maryAdAthI ja vyavahAra zobhaze. mATe maryAdA nA oLaMgazo ! have A enI kaMIka limiTa hovI joIe ke nA hovI joIe ? eTale A navI jAtanI DijhAIno. AvuM jovAtuM haze, baLyuM ? eTale ApaNe kaMIka vicArI vicArIne nakkI karavuM dhoraNa ke AmAM hAtha nA ghAlavo. huM pahelethI hAtha nahoto ghAlato emanA DipArTamenTamAM. to ApaNA DipArTamenTamAM e hAtha nA ghAle ke bhaI A pagAra keTalo maLyo ne tame zemAM nAkhI dIdhA, evuM tevuM ! praznakartA : paNa e kahe ke nA, amAre to tamArA DipArTamenTamAM AvavuM ja che, ema hIrAbA kahe to ? dAdAzrI : nA, emanA DipArTamenTamAM huM hAtha ghAluM tyAre e khoLene? rasoDA DipArTamenTa, hAusaholDa DipArTamenTa badhuM emanuM ane bahAranuM phorena DipArTamenTa mAruM, be DipArTamenTamAM koI koIno hAtha ghAle nahIM. e DipArTamenTa vaheMcI ja dIdhelAM. hAusaholDamAM hAtha ApaNane nahIM ghAlavAno, emanA rasoDAmAM e ghI DhoLI nAkhe ke pAMca hajAranuM saLagAvI mele ke emanA hAthe kaMIka sonuM khovAI gayuM e emanuM DipArTamenTa ! ane phorena DipArTamenTa mAruM ! praznakartA : e barobara che. paNa A DipArTamenTanI je lAIna ApaNe dorI, e DipArTamenTanI lAIna rahI nathI have. dAdAzrI : e to A lokoe karI. pahelAM jUnA jamAnAmAMya DipArTamenTanI lAIno nahotI. toya jUnA amArA gheDIyA hatAne, teya mahIM jaIne rasoDAmAM jaIne joI Ave. "A hamaNe ghI lAvyA che te kyAM gayuM?" tyAre pelI kaheze, "are, tyAre huM khAI gaI ?" evA loka che. goLa joI Ave, khAMDa joI Ave. mera cakkara, e DipArTamenTa emanuM. A to mArI zodhakhoLo che, badhI A DipArTamenTanI. te dahADe homa-phorena

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM... 189 190 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra bolatA nahotuM AvaDatuM. paNa A emanuM DipArTamenTa ne A mAruM DipArTamenTa kaheze ! praznakartA : paNa Aje to A badhA DipArTamenTa ja badalAI gayAM chene ? miksa thaI gayAM. dAdAzrI : nA, miksa nahIM, chUTA pADavAM hoya to pADI zakAya. praznakartA : paNa A mAne nahIM ne ! dAdAzrI : eka phero vakkara jato rahyo pachI vakkara pharI paDe nahIM. vakkara zabda sAMbhaLelo ? sudharyo hIrAbA saMga vyavahAra, pharI ta bhUla eka phera nirdhAra ! amAre ghereya koI dahADo matabheda nathI paDyo. ame to pATIdAro, eTale khAtuM jarA jADuM amAruM. eTale Ama ghI mUkene, te pATiyo (dhIno). dhIme dhIme DigrIvALuM namAvavAno nahIM, to zI rIte namAvatA haIzuM ame ? nAInTI DigrI (sIdhe sIdhuM) ja ane A bIjA lokone tyAM jaIe to DigrIDigrIvALuM (dhIme dhIme), te A hIrAbA DigrI-DigrIvALA hatAM. eTale mane A game nahIM ke A to ApaNI AbarU jAya. paNa e prakRti oLakhI lIdhelI ke A prakati AvI che. eTale ApaNe DhoLIzuM toya vAMdho nahIM Ave, e UTheDI leze ! hIrAbAnA hAthe ghI DhoLAtuM hoyane toya joyA karIe. kAraNa ke amAruM jJAna hAjara hoya ke, e DhoLe ja nahIM. koI dahADoya huM kahuM ke DhoLo, toya e nA DhoLe, chatAM e DhoLe che, eTale ApaNane jovA jevI cIja che, evuM amAruM jJAna hoya ona dhI momenTa (tatkaNa). badhA jJAna hAjara hoya, te matabheda paDatA pahelAM mAruM jJAna hAjara thaI jAya. eTale AkhI jiMdagI matabheda ja nahIM paDelo. pahelAM nAnapaNamAM jarAka be-cAra varSa tAjetAjuM te jarAka Ama athaDAmaNa thayelI. paNa emAMthI eksipIrIyansa (anubhava laIne) thaIne samajI gayAM. praznakartA : paTelo peluM ghI Ama reDe tyAre kaI DigrI para pIrase ? dAdAzrI : sittera DigrI, Ama karIne ! pachI mAre ne hIrAbAne nAnapaNamAM vaDhavADa thayelI. mArA mitro AvelA ne peluM curamuM kareluM. e ghI to hIrAbA reDe. tyAre pahelAM ApaNAmAM rivAja to Ama pATiyAthI (ghInI tapelI) ghI reDavAnuM hatuM. camacI-bamacI nahotI ne cokhkhA ghI te dahADe to. te hIrAbAno svabhAva kevo ke Ama vyAjabI svabhAva, eTale ke normala svabhAva, eTale jene jeTaluM joItuM hoya teTaluM ApavuM joIe. tyAre eya khoTuM nA kahevAya. khAnArane kazuM nA thAya. khAnAra TevAyelA hatA ke "bhaI, ApaNane jarUriyAta pramANe mUkaze ane Ama jarUriyAta pramANe mUkatA'tA bicArAM. paNa A nobala evA moTAM, te pelo pATiyo mAre Ama DhoLavA joIe. mAro svabhAva te ghaDIe jarA ebnormala svabhAva hato. atyAre have jJAna pachI normala thaI gayo che, paNa te dahADe ebnormala svabhAva hato. te pachI hIrAbA Ama ghI reDatAM hatAM eTale mane rIsa caDhI gaI, khUba caDhI. ne pelA badhA gayA pachI khUba vaDhyo. kahyuM, 'Ama dhAra pADo cho ? A AvuM nA cAle. ekadama pATiyo vALI devAno.' tyAre emane kaMI khoTuM lAgyuM. te kahe che, huM Apata ne dhIme dhIme Apata. tame bahAra DhoLI devaDAvo eno zuM artha ? huM tamArA bhAIbaMdhane kaMI ochuM mUkavAnI hatI ? pachI mane kahevA lAgyAM ke tame to mAruM badhAnI vacce apamAna karI nAkhyuM. pachI huM samajI gayo ke A to mArI ja bhUla thaI che. kAraNa ke svabhAva baLyo evo ! mAro ebnormala svabhAva, e to gAMDapaNa ja chene, meDanesa kahevAya. Asakti che eka jAtanI ! atizaya nobala thavuM eya gAMDapaNa che. ane bahu karakasariyAvALuM e gAMDapaNa, normAliTI joIe. pachI Ama karatAM karatAM athaDAI athaDAIne ThekANe AvI gayuM. be-cAra varSamAM ja AvI gayuM. huM samajI gayo. tAraNa kADhI lIdhuM ke AmAM AmanI karekTa vAta che ane e karekTamAM pharI pachI bIjIvAra nahIM jovAnuM. ekavAra karekTanesa nakkI karI dIdhI ke A bAbatamAM e karekTa che. eTale pachI karekTa ja ! pachI bIjuM jovAnuM nahIM. bIjuM badhuM saMjogavazAt ane e bhagavAnathIya pheraphAra nA thAya.

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM.... 191 praznakartA : jJAna pahelAnI vAtane, A to ? dAdAzrI : bAvIsa-trevIsa varSanI nAnI uMmaramAM baneluM, pelA bhAIbaMdha AgaLa mArI AbarU gaI evuM mane lAge. praznakartA : mAre evuM ja thAya che. te eno upAya zuM ? dAdAzrI : ghI mUkatI vakhate ApaNe mUkavuM. pATiyo rahevA dejo, pATiyo huM mUkIza, kahIe. bIjuM che e tame mUkajo, kahIe. je huM to zodhI kADhuM AvuM. kyAM AgaLa DiphekTa (khAmI) che, te e DiphekTanuM huM pUrI karI ApuM. paNa vaDhIe nahIM. DiphekTanuM zodhana karIe ! 'zuM zAka lAvuM' pUchavAto rivAja, 'ThIka lAge te' kahevAto rivAja ! zarUAtanAM trIsa varSa sudhI jarA bhAMjagaDa thayelI. pachI vINI vINIne badhuM kADhI nAkhyuM ne Divijhana karI nAkhyA ke rasoDA khAtuM tamAruM ane kamANI khAtuM amAruM, kamAvavAnuM amAre. tamArA khAtAmAM amAre hAtha ghAlavAno nahIM. amArA khAtAmAM tamAre hAtha nahIM ghAlavAno. zAkabhAjI emaNe laI AvavAnI. paNa amArA gharano rivAja tame joyo hoya to bahu suMdara lAge. hIrAbA jyAM sudhI zarIra sAruM hatuM tyAM sudhI bahAra poLane nAke che te peluM e hoya, zAkanI dukAna, tyAM jAte zAka levA jAya. to ApaNe beThA hoya to hIrAbA mane pUche, zuM zAka lAvuM ? tyAre huM emane kahyuM, tamane ThIka lAge te. pachI e laI Ave. paNa evuM ne evuM roja cAle, eTale pachI mANasa zuM thaI jAya ? e pachI pUchavAnuM baMdha rAkhe. baLyuM ApaNane e zuM kahe che, tamane ThIka lAge te. te pAMca-sAta dahADA nA pUche, eTale pachI eka dahADo huM kahuM ke, 'kema A kArelAM lAvyA ?' tyAre e kahe che, 'huM to pUchuM chuM tyAre kaho cho, tamane ThIka lAge e ane have zuM lAvI tyAre tame bhUla kADho cho ?" tyAre meM kahyuM, 'nA, ApaNe evo rivAja rAkhavAno. tamAre mane pUchavuM, zuM zAka lAvuM ? tyAre huM tamane kahuM ke tamane ThIka lAge pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra e. e ApaNo rivAja cAlu rAkhajo.' te emaNe TheTha sudhI cAlu rAkhelo. AmAM besanAraneya zobhA lAge ke kahevuM paDe, A gharano rivAja ! eTale ApaNo vyavahAra sAro bahAra dekhAvo joIe. ekapakSI nA thavuM joIe. mahAvIra bhagavAna kevA pAkA hatA ! vyavahAra ane nizcaya banneya judA. ekapakSI nahIM. nA jue vyavahArane ? loko jueya kharA ne rojeya. 'roja e bAbata tamane pUche ?' meM kahyuM, 'hA, roja pUche.' 'to thAkI nA jAya ?' kahe che. meM kahyuM, 'alyA zAnA thAkavAnA bA ! kaMI meDA caDhavAnA ke DuMgara upara caDhavAnA hatA te ? ApaNA beno vyavahAra loko dekhe evuM karo.' 192 praznakartA : paNa pUchavuM e kaMTrola karyo nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : nahIM, vinaya rAkhIe. banneno vinaya che e to ! ame je goThaveluMne e vinaya kahevAya. pelA kaheze, huM kahuM te ja tAre zAka lAvavAnuM che, e avinaya kahevAya. ApaNe kahIe ke nA tuM ja laI Avaje ane pachI bUma pADavI te avinaya kahevAya. A banne vinayamAM rahe ne ! ko'ka dahADo ApaNane jarUra hoya ke Aja rIMgaNA khAvAM che. to bolIeya kharA ke bhaI Aja rIMgaNAM lAvajo. ema kahevAmAM zuM jAya ApaNuM ? praznakartA : ATalo ApaNo haka rahevo joIe ? dAdAzrI : haka emanoya rahevo joIe. to pachI Dakho thAya nahIM. praznakartA : e emano vinaya sAcavatA hatA. tame tamAro vinaya sAcavatA hatA. dAdAzrI : haM, jagata ema jue, saMskAra jue. kahevuM paDe ! ApaNe emanuM keTaluM mAna rAkhyuM ke tamane ThIka lAge te ! praznakartA : ane emaNe tamAruM mAna rAkhyuM pUchI ne, zuM lAvIe ? dAdAzrI : hA, e saMskAra kahevAya. nahIM to uddhatatA thaI jAya.

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM... 193 194 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra uddhata thaI zake pachI. kaheze, khAvuM hoya to khAva evuM kare. A to pachI kvaoNliTI evI ke sarakatA vAra nA lAge. praznakartA : emAM thoDoka Igo che ? dAdAzrI : nahIM, A vyavahAra che, vyavahAra ! praznakartA : paNa ema thAya ke mane pUchayuM ! dAdAzrI : nahIM. mane pUchyuM eno savAla nahIM. mane pUchyuM eno jo Igo hoyane to emane kahyuM ke tamane ThIka lAge che ? evuM nA boluM huM. A vyavahAra kahevAya. bahAranA besanArane dekhAya ke kahevuM paDe A ! A bolatA nathI ke A lAvaje ne A lAvaje ane emeya kahevuM paDe ke A bahena ATalI uMmare pUche che ! vyavahAra suMdara dekhAya. e Avo vyavahAra ApaNe nabhAvavo joIe. tame vyavahAra baMdha karo to duniyA zuM kahe ? ke baI gAMThatI ja nathI emane. eTale viveka ! A viveka jo loko jozene, to kaheze ke A viveka kevo suMdara che ! kema lAge che tamane ? praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : bAkI Igo to hoya ja. Igo to saMsAramAM badhe ja hoya, paNa je Igo sAmAne nukasAna karato nathI, phAyadAkAraka thAya A. hamaNAM tamAre ghera Avo vyavahAra cAlu rAkhyo hoya to bahu suMdara zobhA Ave AmAM, nA rahe bhaI ? e pUche ane ApaNe emane kahIe ke tamane ThIka lAge che ! praznakartA : bIjA lokone mAna ane saMpa dekhAya. dAdAzrI : haM, sAmasAmI prema sacavAya badhuM. emanA manamAMya ema thAya, ohohoho ! mArI para choDI de che, mArI para keTalo badho vizvAsa che. ane mArA manamAM ema thAya ke huM dhaNI chuM, e haju eksepTa kare che. A paddhatisara hovuM joIe. paddhatisara nA hovuM joIe ? dukAtano hisAba ? ghera moDA kema ? gADI cUkyA kema ? Dakhalo strItI ema ! praznakartA : strIe puruSanI kaI bAbatamAM hAtha nA ghAlavo ? dAdAzrI : praSanI koI bAbatamAM Dakho ja nA karavo. 'dukAnamAM keTalo mAla Avyo ? keTalo gayo ? Aje moDA kema AvyA ?" pelAne pachI kahevuM paDe ke, 'Aje navanI gADI cUkI gayo.' tyAre bena kaheze ke, 'evA kevA pharo cho ke gADI cUkI javAya ?" eTale pachI pelA ciDAI jAya. pelAne manamAM ema thAya ke AvuM bhagavAna paNa pUchanAra hota to tene mArata. paNa ahIM AgaLa zuM kare have ? eTale vagara kAmanA DakhA kare che. bAsamatInA cokhA sarasa rAMdhe ne pachI mahIM kAMkarA nAkhIne khAya ! emAM zuM svAda Ave ? strI-puruSa ekamekane "helpa' karavI joIe. dhaNIne ciMtA-'varIjha' rahetI hoya to tene kema karIne varIjha nA thAya evuM strI bolatI hoya. ane dhaNI paNa bairI muzkelImAM nA mUkAya evuM joto hoya. dhaNIe paNa samajavuM joIe ke strIne ghera chokarAM keTalA herAna karatAM haze? gharamAM tUTe phUTe to puruSe bUma nA pADavI joIe. paNa teya loko bUmo pADe ke 'gaye vakhate sarasamAM sarasa Dajhana kaparakAbI lAvyo hato, te tame e badhA kema toDI nAkhyA ? badhuM khalAsa karI nAkhyuM.' eTale pelI benane manamAM lAge ke, 'meM toDI nAkhyA ? mAre kaMI ene khaI javA hatAM ? tUTI gayAM te tUTI gayAM, temAM huM zuM karuM?" "mI kAya karuM ?" kaheze. have tyAM vaDhavADo. jyAM kazI levAya nahIM ne devAya nahIM. jyAM vaDhavAnuM koI kAraNa ja nathI tyAMya laDavAnuM? khAtAmAM ta hIrAbAno hAtha, patnItuM paMkyara zAstramAM ta vAta ! amAre ne hIrAbAne kazo matabheda ja nathI paDato. amAre emanAmAM, gharanI koI bAbatamAM hAtha ja nahIM ghAlavAno koI dahADoya. emanA hAthe paisA paDI gayA, ame dIThA hoya toya ame ema nA kahIe ke 'tamArA paisA paDI gayA, te joyuM ke nA joyuM ?" e paNa amArAmAM hAtha nA ghAle.

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM.... 195 196 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra ame keTalA vAge UThIe, keTalA vAge nahAIe, kyAre jaIe, evI amArI koI bAbatamAM kyAre paNa e emanA pUche. koka dahADo amane kahe ke, 'Aje vahelA nAhI lo' to ame tarata dhotiyuM maMgAvIne nAhI laIe. are, amArI jAte TuvAla laIne nAhI laIe. kAraNa ke ame jANIe ke A 'lAla vAvaTo' dhare che. mATe kaMIka bho haze. pANI nA AvavAnuM hoya ke evuM kaMIka hoya to ja e amane vahelA nAhI levAnuM kahe, eTale ame samajI jaIe. eTale thoDuM thoDuM vyavahAramAM tameya samajI lone, ke koI koInAmAM hAtha ghAlavA jevuM nathI. phojadAra pakaDIne ApaNane laI jAya pachI e jema kahe tema ApaNe nA karIe ? jyAM besADe tyAM ApaNe nA besIe ? ApaNe jANIe ke ahIM chIe tyAM sudhI A bhAMjagaDamAM chIe. evuM A saMsAreya phojadArI ja che. eTale emAMya saraLa thaI javuM. ghera jamavAnI thALI Ave che ke nathI AvatI ? praznakartA : Ave che. nAnapaNamAMthI ame judA thayA, toya che te meM hIrAbAne kahI dIdheluM. ane mane to ahIM AgaLa e ema kahe ke "A sAla dhaMdhAmAM tame dhyAna nA ApyuM tethI khoTa AvI che." te ApaNane poSAya nahIM. zAthI khoTa AvI enuM tamane eksaplenezana (khulAso) ApavA mATe ame taiyAra nathI. are, ame bhagavAnaneya ApavA taiyAra nathI. eTalA badhA ahaMkAranuM sevana ame rAkhatA hatA. A ekjhakTa vAta kahuM chuM, je che te. e ahaMkAra jato rahyo tyAre A DAhyA thayA. paNa hIrAbAe atyAra sudhI amArA dhaMdhAmAM hAtha nathI ghAlyo ane atyAreya hAtha ghAlavAno nahIM. e jANe nahIM ke zuM dhaMdho cAle che, kevI rIte cAle che ! kAraNa ke amArA bhAIe zIkhavADyuM hatuM . amArA bhAI gharamAM kahe, 'A sAla Ama dhaMdho cAle che ne tema dhaMdho cAle che.' te bIjI vakhatanAM vAIpha eTale emane khuza karavA mATe A badhuM bole. te pachI emaNe dhaMdhAmAM hAtha ghAlI dIdho. have emane khuza karIne zuM kAma che te ? bIjI sADI joItI hoya to sADI laI Ava tAre ! ene pUchavuM. tAre joIe che ? le, bIjI lAva heMDa ! sonAnI baMgaDIo banAvavI che ? te hIrAnA kApa karAvavA che ? bAkI ene A kahevAnuM hoya ke A sAla dhaMdhAmAM Ama che ? ne khoTa jAya tyAre e ja ApaNane bUma pADaze. tamane dhaMdho karatA nathI AvaDatuM, evuM kaheze tyAre ApaNI AbarU zI rahI ? e karAtI haze evI vAta ? A jagatamAM laDAIo thaI che te strIone vAta karavAthI ja thaI che. A jarAka DhIlA hoyane te slIpa thaI jAya. praznakartA : to ene kapaTa kahevAya, e banAvaTa karI kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : banAvaTa nahIM, A tamArA hitane mATe che. sahajIvatatuM bAMdhyuM baMdhAraNa, bajotAM khAtAM judAM, e ja tAraNa ! Divijhana to meM pahelethI, nAnapaNamAMthI pADI dIdhelAM ke bhaI, A rasoDA khAtuM emanuM ane dhaMdhAnuM khAtuM mAruM. nAnapaNamAM mane dhaMdhAmAM hisAba pUche, gharanI strI hoya to mAruM magaja pharI jAya. kAraNa ke tamArI lAIna dAdAzrI : rasoI joIe te maLe, khATalo pAtharI Ape pachI zuM? ane khATalo nA pAtharI Ape to teya ApaNe pAtharI laIe ne ukela lAvIe. zAMtithI vAta samajavI paDe. tamArA saMsAranA hitAhitanI vAta kaMI zAstramAM lakhelI hoya ? e to jAte samajavI paDazene ? eTale ame to amAro konTrAkTano dhaMdho hato. mArA bradharanA vakhatamAM, te amArAM bhAbhI bahu hoziyAra hatAM. sekanDa vAIpha hatAM, paNa hoziyAra bahu hatAM. te amArA be bhAIno hisAba mAge ke, hamaNe zuM kamANI cAle che ne e badhuM ! A sekanDa vAIpha eTale amArA moTA bhAI jarA mAna ApatA, pharsTa vAIphane to gAMThelA nahIM. te bhAbhI mane kahe, 'hisAba kaho ne ?" meM kahyuM, "A vAta kyAMthI lAvyA ApaNA gharamAM ? hisAba-bisAba strIoe nA maMgAya. huM hisAba nahIM ApuM. koI paNa strIne e pachI bhaNelI hoya ke abhaNa hoya, paNa hisAba ApavA huM taiyAra nathI. ane hisAba huM laIzeya nahIM, evI kaDakAI huM nahIM rAkhuM.' eTale

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM.... nahIM. tame vidhAuTa enI kanekzana pUcho cho, kanekzana (anusaMdhAna) sahita hovuM joIe. e pUche, "A sAla zuM kamAyA ?" meM kahyuM, 'AvuM nA pUchAya tamArAthI. A to amArI parsanala meTara thaI. tame AvuM pUcho cho ? to kAle savAre pAMcaso rUpiyA koIne ApI Avyo houM to tame mAruM tela kADhI nAkho.' ko'kane ApI AvyA to kaheze 'AvuM lokone Apo cho ne paisA jatA raheze.' evuM tame tela kADhI nAkho. eTale parsanala meTaramAM tamAre hAtha nahIM ghAlavAno. 197 eTale pachI mane koI dahADoya e pUchavA nA Ave ke tame Ane pAMcaso rUpiyA kema ApyA ? ke kema AvuM karo cho ? zuM cAle che ? evuM tevuM kazuM pUche nahIM. jo strIne ema kahIe 'hamaNe nathI cAlatuM' to e hau DhIlI thaI jAya. eTale A lAInamAM pesavA nA devuM. sahu sahunI lAIna sArI che. ane peluM ame rasoDAmAM hAtha ghAlIe nahIM ne tamArA DipArTamenTamAM amAre akSareya bolavAno nahIM. tame dUdha AkhuM tapeluM DhoLI do toya amane vAMdho nathI. tame badhA pyAlA phoDI nAkho toya amane vAMdho nathI. kaDhI khArI thAya toya amane vAMdho nathI. tame game tevA cokhA rAMdhatA hoya, paNa amane vAMdho nathI AvavAno. amAruM juduM ne tamAruM juduM. DipArTamenTa ja judAM. A vaheMcaNa karelI. konsTiTyuzana (baMdhAraNa) ja bAMdheluM Ama. kema jIvana jIvavuM enuM baMdhAraNa ja bAMdheluM. eTale chellAM pistAlIsa varSathI matabheda vagara rahI zakyA. ekeya matabheda nahIM, AkhA dahADAmAM ! bAkI ApaNA loka to kevA che ? bahu doDhaDAhyA ! kaDhIne A rAIno vaghAra kema karyo ? alyA, enI bAbatamAM tuM zuM karavA pUcha pUcha kare che ? A vagara kAmano Dakho kare. e hola enDa sola enuM DipArTamenTa che. ame AvI tevI bAbatamAM hAtha nahotA ghAlatA. ame to amArI AbarU kema rahe eTaluM jotA'tA. khAvAnuM ochuM maLaze to vAMdho nahIM, konsTiTyuzananI bahAra nA javAya. jIvana jIvavuM joIe. te jIvyA kharA TheTha sudhI. 45-45 varSathI matabheda paDyo nathI. pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : tame pagAra jeTalA rUpiyA ghare pahoMcADatA, ghara calAvavA mATe to hIrAbA bolatA nahIM ke vadhAre paisA lAvo ? 198 dAdAzrI : e to UlaTA, mahIM paDI rahe, vadhe UlaTA. kAraNa ke huM jANuM ne. mane sAdhAraNa samAjamAM jyAM AgaLa lokone grejyueTa eTale pacAsa pagAra maLato hoya, to mane so rUpiyA maLe evuM to huM jANuM ne ! te sArI sthiti badhI. ane e kaMI bole nahIM koI dahADo ane evuM khUTavA dauM nahIM ne. paisA saMbaMdhI bole nahIM. banne maLI takkI karyuM dhoraNa, jo mAMge hisAba, baLyuM jIvata ! eTale Divijhana oNpha lebarsa evuM emanuM khAtuM homa DipArTamenTa. amAruM khAtuM phorena DipArTamenTa. beu judAM ja rAkhavAnAM. pachI ApaNe basso koIne ApIe to emanAthI bolAya nahIM. have e emAM pArTanara kharAMne. eTale pAchAM, mane kema pUchyuM nahIM ? ema ne ema ApI dIdhA ? evI bUmo pADe. eTale ApaNe bahAra khAnagImAM ApI devuM. eTaluM kapaTa rAkhavuM. matabheda nA thAya baLyo ! AMkhe dIThAnuM jhera che ne. ane ApavA to paDe ja chene ! praznakartA H tamAre hIrAbA sAthe carcA thayelI ke A tamAruM ane A mAruM kAmakAja ? dAdAzrI : hA. eTaluM DisAIDa (nakkI) thaI gayeluM. paNa amane pUchavuM paDe kharuM. nahIM to vyavahAra, duniyAnA loko zuM samaje ? zuM praznakartA : e DIsAIDa tame kareluM ke hIrAbAe kareluM ? banne bhegA thaIne kareluM ? dAdAzrI : e to meM ja kahI dIdheluM ane emaNe e eksepTa (svIkAra) kareluM. praznakartA : emaNe eksepTa karyuMne ? dAdAzrI : hA.

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM. 199 200 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : paNa ahIM to eksepTa nA kare to ? dAdAzrI : paNa Divijhana pADyuM ke A tamArA kAmamAM pharI hAtha ghAlIe nahIM eTale eksepTa thaI ja jAyane. emanAmAM hAtha ghAlIe nahIM eTale pachI e ApaNAmAM hAtha ghAle to ApaNe kahIe ke ame tamArAmAM hAtha nathI ghAlatA, tame amArAmAM hAtha nA ghAlo to sAruM kahevAya. eTale pachI e samajI jAyane. haMmezAM vaheMcaNa thaI gayuM hoyane to pharI bhAMjagaDa nA thAya. AvA prazno baMdhAraNa viruddha, dAdA dekhADe vyavahAra zuddha ! praznakartA : dAdA, paNa gharamAM be jaNa hoya, vAIpha ne huM. to matabheda to paDe ja ne. be vyupoInTa thAya ne ? dAdAzrI : khurazI joDe paDe che ? praznakartA H nA, paNa kapaDuM kharIdavuM hoya to vAIpha kahe, A kharIdo ane huM kahuM, A kharIdo. A simpala (sAdo) dAkhalo Apyo e matabheda nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : ohohoho ! e to badhI ApaNI ja bhUla che. e je amuka bAbato hoyane, te ApaNe, jema A pradhAno hoya chene te badhA vaheMcI le che DipArTamenTa ke A homa DipArTamenTa, A phorena DipArTamenTa, samaja paDIne ? praznakartA : paNa e loko ja evuM kahe ke tame amArAmAM rasa nathI letA, tame chokarAmAM rasa nathI letA. dAdAzrI : nA, rasa laIe ApaNe, chokarAne mAthe hAtha pheravIe, bolAvIe, besADIe. praznakartA : hA, e sarasa kahyuM. e gamyuM mane. dAdAzrI : haM, paNa enA DipArTamenTamAM hAtha nA ghAlavo. praznakartA : ApaNe emanA DipArTamenTamAM mAthuM nahIM mAravAnuM. dAdAzrI : hA, mAthuM mAravAnuM nahIM ane pAchuM bAbAnI upara hAtha pheravavAno, vAtacIta karavAnI. vaLI AnaMdanI vAto karavAnI. paNa te bIjI bhAMjagaDo nahIM. kaMIka goThavaNI hovI joIe ApaNI. DipArTamenTa nA thAya nakkI ke ATaluM DipArTamenTa tamAruM ? praznakartA : have dhAro ke patnI che to enA DipArTamenTanuM kahe ke bhaI, ATaluM bAbAne tame karo ke bAbAne skUlamAM laI jAva to pachI te ghaDIe zuM karavAnuM ? DipArTamenTa pakaDI besI rahevAnuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe joI ApavuM te vakhate. praznakartA eTale peluM gadhe kA pUMchanI jema pakaDI nahIM rAkhavAnuM ke A mAruM DipArTamenTa nahoya, huM nahIM karuM ? dAdAzrI : nA evuM, evuM DipArTamenTa kahevAtuM haze ? e enA DipArTamenTamAM kaMI zakti nA hoya ne ApaNane kahe to e ApaNI pharaja che. are, bahArano koI kahevA Avyo toya ApaNe karIe chIe, nathI karatA ? koI ApaNane vinaMtI kare to ApaNe e karavuM ja joIe. te ghaDIe ApaNe ema nA kahIe ke A tAruM DipArTamenTa, ahIM mArI pAse kyAM lAvI ? praznakartA : eTale have gharamAM pradhAna jevuM to hovuM joIene ? emanI minisTrImAM kaMI bagaDatuM hoya, kharAba thatuM hoya, to ene kahevuM to joIene ApaNe ? tyAM pachI matabheda nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe zuM karavA kahIe ? e A pradhAna, ApaNe A pradhAna. ApaNe kaMI presiDanTa nathI e benA ! praznakartA : gharanAM vyavahAramAM kaMI bagaDatuM hoya to kahevAnI ApaNI pharaja kharI ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : e to dhIme rahIne vAta karavAnI.

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM... 201 202 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra praznakartA kaMI samajAvIne kahevuM joIene, A pramANe nahIM, A pramANe karavuM joIe. dAdAzrI : hA, samajAvIne badhuM kahevuM joIe. samajAvIne kahIe chatAM nA mAne to emanI marajI. ApaNe ene kahevAnA adhikArI. praznakartA : paNa krodha nahIM karavAno ? dAdAzrI : e krodha to ApaNI nabaLAI che, e to pelAya samajI jAya ke A ciDAyA kare che. e manamAM zuM samaje ke A cIDiyA mANasa che. bahAra lokone kahe, naryA cIDiyA che, tyAre emAM AbarU vadhI gaI ApaNI ?! praznakartA : to koIne kahevAI jAya e niMdA kahevAya kharI ? dAdAzrI : nA kahevAya. evuM bahAra ko'kane kahevAtuM haze ? ApaNA rAjanuM bahAra kahevAtuM haze koIne ? nahIM, e to sikresI hovI joIe. potAnuM homa DipArTamenTa, phorena DipArTamenTa e sikresI hovI joIe. praznakartA : Ano kaMI rasto maLe, upAya maLe eTalA mATe ApaNA phrenDasane (mitrane) AvI vAta karIe to ? phrenDane AvI vAta karIe ke bhaI, mAro dhaNI Avo cIDiyo che to zuM karavuM evI rItanA vAta karAya ? dAdAzrI : nA kahevAya. e kahevAya nahIM. e atyAra sudhI kahyuM hoya to judI vAta che paNa have pachI jo AvI rIte vartavuM hoya to kahevAnI jarUra nathI rahetI. paNa jhaghaDo ja nahIM rahe che. kleza nA thAya eTale sudhI cAlajo. calaNa calAvavA pati phare, vahunI muzkelI hade ta dhare ! praznakartA : paNa amerikAmAM to karmeniyanazIpa (sAhacarya) chene eTale badhI rIte madada karavI paDene emane ? dAdAzrI : e madadagAra kaMI emAM koI dahADo matabheda pADato nathI, e to spardhAvALo matabheda pADe. madadagAra e to helliMga (madadarUpa) che. ApaNe kahIe ke nA, zAka nahIM samAravAnuM. to rahevA de e ! ane A to kahe, samAravAnuM bola ! tuM kema ema karuM chuM? evuM chene AkhuM homa DipArTamenTa emanuM, rasoDA DipArTamenTa emanuM. ApaNe A phorena DipArTamenTa sAcavavuM ane AvIne jamavAnuM taiyAra mAMgavuM. zAka nahIM maLe tyAre kahIe ke athANuM kADho !! mane jJAna nahotuM te vakhate eka kisso banelo. tamArA jevA oLakhANavALA jema roja Ave che, evA eka bhAI roja AvatA. ane roja Ave eTale huM temane mATe kaMI paNa cA ke nAsto mUkavAnuM kahyuM ne nAsto nA hoya to cA mUkavAnuM kahyuM. tamAre ne mAre jevo satsaMgano saMbaMdha che, satsaMgano, premano saMbaMdha che bIjo. eka dahADo e bhAI (choTubhAI) AvelA tyAre te dahADe jarA utAvaLamAM hatA. te kahe, 'Aje to mAre jaladI javuM che, Apane khAlI maLIne javuM che. eTale mAre kazuM joItuM nathI.' tyAre e kaMI mane pujya gaNatA na hatA. huM emane pUjya gaNato na hato. ame beu satsaMgI tarIke besatA hatA, samAnabhAve eTale te divase mane kahe che, "Aja to mAre javuM che. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'have AvyA cho, tyAre besIne, jarAka cA pIne jAva. vAra nahIM lAge. roja cA-nAsto karo cho ne Aje cA-nAsto karyA vagara javAya nahIM.' eTale bahAranI rUmamAMthI hIrAbAne bUma mArI. bIjA rUmamAM ame vAta karIe ne rasoDAmAM, cothA rUmamAM hIrAbAne meM kahyuM, be kapa cA mUkajo. tyAre to phona nahIMne ! ahIM bUma pADIe eTale tyAM pahoMce. tyAre emaNe kahyuM, "hA mUkI lAvuM chuM." have Amane kaMI bahu utAvaLa haze, te dasa miniTamAMthI kaMI sAta miniTa thaI tyAM sudhI cA kaMI AvI nahIM. mane kahe che, "Aje cA-pANI rahevA do. mane moDuM thayuM che. enA karatA huM jauM. cA moDethI pIzuM.' tyAre meM kahyuM "nA, cA pIdhA vagara nA javAya. rojanA jevuM ja.' have e rahevA done, kahe che tyAre pAcho huM javA deto nathI. have huM ja AMtaruM chuM. zuM AbarUdAranI DaMphAsa keTalI badhI !! paNa A

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM.... 203 204 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra AbarUdAranI DaMphAsa nahotI, premanI DaMphAsa hatI ! gharamAM aMdaranA eviDansa huM jANato nahoto ke aMdara zuM eviDansa banyA che te ! ane meM to bahArathI rahIne vAtacIta karI nAkhI. have hIrAbA zuM jANe ke roja bese che tevI rIte nirAMte besaze ne huM jANuM ke hamaNAM ja javAnA che, eTale A jJAnamAM badho phera paDI gayo. A jJAna meM emane kaheluM nahIM ke A hamaNe ja javAnA che. te pachI cA nA AvI eTale huM aMdara gayo. tyAre tyAM eviDansa joyA. have tyAM aMdara to cAye mUkI nahatI. ane bahAra cAnI vAto cAle che. ahIM cAnuM ThekANuM nathI. tyAM eviDansa badalAyelA. vAtamAM to mArI ja bhUla che. ApaNe bUma pADI hota to ApaNe bhUMDA dekhAta. pachI meM kahyuM, 'kema cA mUkI nathI ?" tyAre mane kahe che, "A sTava che te pADozI laI gayA che. Aje sagaDI saLagAvuM chuM.' te dahADe sTava ne sagaDI cAlatAM hatAM ne hIrAbAnA manamAM ema ke A roja bese che ema Aje besaze. meM hIrAbAne kahyuM, 'kyAre A cA thAya te ?" tyAre e kahe che, "paNa huM zuM karuM ? tame kaho e karuM.' pachI sagaDI saLagAvIne cA mUkI dIdhI. pachI meM pelA bhAIne kahyuM, 'bIjuM kaMI nA lo. to pApaDI zekIne maMgAvuM. tamAre pApaDI khAdhA vagara javAya nahIM.' eTale hIrAbAne kahyuM, pApaDI zekIne laI Avajo. te pApaDI koI kAraNasara moDI thaI. game te kAraNa ho, ekanA upara eka e DabA mukAI gayA hoya ke bIjA koI paNa kAraNathI pApaDI paNa moDI thaI. eTale pelA kahe che, have cA pIdhI, huM jauM chuM have. pApaDInI kaMI jarUra nathI. meM kahyuM, "nA, pApaDI khAdhA vagara javAya nahIM.' toya pAcho huM Avo Dakho karuM chuM pote. pachI meM hIrAbAne kahyuM, 'pApaDI lAvatAM to keTalIvAra thaI ? A moDuM thaI jAya che.' tyAre hIrAbA kahe, 'hamaNe lAvuM chuM' tyAre pelA bhAI kahe che, 'javA done." kahyuM, 'A tamane moDuM thaI gayuM emAM kAraNa eTaluM ja che ke A gharamAM mAruM calaNa nathI have. eTale e bhAI mane kahe che, "AvuM nA bolAya, AvuM nA bolAya. AvA deva jevA mANasa ne tame AvuM bolo cho, calaNa nathI ! tyAre horAM hIrAbA aMdarathI AvyA. 'mArI AbarU zuM karavA bagADo cho ? tame je kaho te hAjara karyuM che." meM kahyuM, 'tamArI AbarU vadhAruM chuM, bagADato nathI.' prabhu pAse bese tA calaNI nANuM, vahu pAse nA calaNI te zANuM ! eTale kahI dIdhuM, amAruM kaMI calaNa ja nathI, pachI bhAMjagaDa nahIM ne ! kAraNa ke nA calaNI nANuM hoyane, tene bhagavAnanI pAse mUkavAmAM Ave che, pachI pharavAnuM nahIM emane. kALAbajArIyA badhA pAse pharavAnuM nahIM. bhagavAnanI pAse ja besI rahevAnuM. eTale ame nA calaNI nANuM thayelAM, te hIrAbAne game nahIM. e kahe ke AvuM nA bolazo, mArI AbarU jAya. eTale meM kahyuM, mArI seIpha sAIDathI kahuM chuM. tamArI AbarU kADhavA mATe nathI bolato. eTale pachI hIrAbAne meM samajAvyA ne kahyuM, A to emanA hAra huM bolyo hato. emane ghera je amArI bena hatIne, tene Ama eka chokarI ekalI te paiNAvI dIdhelI ne bIjuM chokaruM kazuM nahIM ne A bhAI zuM karatA ? vAIpha joDe Dakhalo karyA kare bhIMDA kema lAyA cho Aje ? A be jaNanA bhIMDA ! bAra Ane ratalanA bhIMDA levAya ? ATalA moMghA ? A zI Dakhalo ? e to A Amane khakhaDAvAnuM mana thAya. eTalA mATe bolyo hato. te pachI Amane bahu sAruM lAgyuM ke heM ! calaNa nahIM evuM kaho cho ? tyAre meM kahyuM, tame evuM kahI juone eka phero, e tamane zIkhavADavA kahuM chuM. bahu calaNa nA rAkhavuM. calaNanI bahu bhAMjagaDa nA rAkhavI ane nA calaNIye nA thavuM, haju hamaNe mArA jevuM nA thazo. mArI seIpha sAIDa bhagavAnanI pAse besI rahevAnuM nirAMte. A calaNavALA te badhA meM joyelA ne keTaluM calaNa che e badhuM jouM chuM badhAnuM. moTA calaNavALA AvyA ! nA calaNI thAvane ! juo amAre nA calaNI te amAre koInI para koI jAtanuM calaNa ja nahIM. calaNI sAruM ke nA calaNI sAruM ? nA calaNI deva pAse mUkene badhA. meM nA calaNI joI lIdhA. jeTalA sikkA deva pAse tyAM paDelA te nA calaNI hatA. meM kahyuM, kema Ama ?

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM... 205 206 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra tyAre pelo kahe, A nANuM have cAlatuM nathI ne che cAMdInuM ! meM kahyuM, A duniyAmAM koI evo jabhyo nathI ke je calaNavALo hoya ! badhAya nA calaNI che. paNa ropha pADIne mucho AmaLA AmaLa karyA kare che ! mera cakkara, enA karatAM bolI jAne ke nathI calaNa. meM zodhakhoLa karelI A. A to vagara kAmanA Taka Taka karyA kare ! praznakartA : paNa bairI para to calaNa karavA jAya ja ne ? dAdAzrI : te vAIphe kaMI guno karyo ? loko para calaNa karavAnuM. vAIphane kahI devAnuM ke tAre mArI para calaNa nahIM karavuM ane mAre tArI para calaNa nahIM karavuM. ApaNe mitrAcArI, sinsIyara phrenDa. tyAre mane loko kahe che, "vAIpha to pachI caDhI bese !' kahyuM, 'huM, mUcho AvatI haze ene ? game eTalI davA copaDIe to mUcho Ave kaMI ?" tyAre loko bahAra bole che, "ame calaNavALA chIe." te badhA bole che toya calaNavALA nathI ne jo potAne calaNavALo kahe che ! "huM calaNavALo chatAM huM calaNa vagarano chuM' ema kahuM chuM. kAraNa ke meM phAyado joyo che. nA calaNiyA nANAMne sthiratA maLI jAya. kyAM maLe, bhagavAnanI pAse !! calaNavALuM nANuM ApaNI pAse gajavAmAM rahe nahIM. bIjAnI pAse bhaTaka bhaTaka karavAnuM. amAre calaNa ja joItuM nathI. tame Apo toya amAre nathI joItuM. e ko'ka dahADo tame bhaMga karo temAM amAre upAdhi. ane ko'ka dahADo tame bhaMga karyA vagara rahevAnA nathI. kAraNa ke saMjogAnusArI ! ane huMya samajyo ke A saMjogone hisAbe bicArA hIrAbA cA mUkI nathI lAvyA. huM to samajune. paNa meM pelA bhAIne kahyuM ke "mAruM calaNa nathI.' hA, paNa calaNa rAkhavAnuM hitakArI nathI. calaNa rAkhavAmAM ja ahita che. naryo bhayaMkara bho(bhaya) che, enA karatAM kahI done, bhaI, mAruM have calaNa nathI. ane jo calaNa che, mATe strInA manamAM ema thAya ke eka dahADo AbarU to bagADI nAkhuM. bahu calaNa rAkhavA jAva cho te ! strIya manamAM rAkhe che ke eka dahADo bhaInI AbarU bagADI nAkhuM, bahu ropha mAre che. ane tame kaho ke nA calaNa, to badhuM olarAITa (sarasa) raheze. eTale meM kahyuM, 'paNa tame AvuM bolajo ghera. huM tamane A bolIne zIkhavADuM chuM. evuM tame ekaluM bolajo ! tyAre e kahe, "nA, mArAthI nA bolAya. mAthuM toDI nAkho toya nA bolAya.' eTalo badho bho lAge ! alyA, calaNa nA hoya to sAruM. eTale nA calaNI nANuM kahyuM ame, e zuM khoTuM che ? paNa jyArathI nA calaNI kahyuM tyArathI pelA je amArA oLakhANavALA bhAI hatA, temane jabarajasta pUjyabhAva pesI gayo. e kahe che ke AvuM koI mANasa bolI zake ja nahIM, bhagavAna sivAya.' meM emane kahyuM, 'bolI to juo. phaTAkA mAraze. alyA e polIsavALA che ? to bolane bola !' tyAre e kahe, 'tame bhagavAna cho mATe bolI zako cho. tamArA mATe mane ghaNA dahADAthI ema thatuM hatuM ! te AvuM bhagavAna sivAya koI bolI zake ja nahIM. e mane khAtarI thaI gaI.' kahyuM, 'tame AvuM bolone !" tyAre kahe, 'mArI to haju to jiMdagI jaze toya AvuM nahIM bolAya.' paNa A nA calaNI kahyuM ke tarata emaNe darzana karyA. ame kahyuM ke amArAM calaNa rahyA nathI. tyAre hIrAbA kahe che, calaNa che ne nA kema kaho cho ?" eTale jenAM nathI calaNa, jenAM koI dahADo calaNa cAlyAM nathI, e badhA kahe che, mAre calaNa che. alyA, zAnuM calaNa che te ? eTale AvA badhA khela thAya che. saMjoga badhA jAtajAtanA UbhA thAya, te pachI pelo oLakhANavALA hatAne emane kahyuM ke tamane zIkhavADavA boluM chuM A to. tame ghera calaNa calAvo cho paNa A duniyAmAM koI mANasa calaNavALo jabhyo ja nathI ke jenuM ghara calaNa hoya ? enA karatA mArA jevA khulluM karI de e zuM khoTuM ? A calaNavALuM je loka che, amAruM calaNa che evuM kahenArA ekAda jaNa mane kahe ke amAruM calaNa che, te ene tyAM ghera daza dahADA mane rAkhe, juo enuM calaNa kahI ApuM ! DhAMkI DhAMkIne calaNapaNe kyAM sudhI rAkhavAnuM ? nA-calaNI kahevAnuM huM kaheto nathI tamane. paNa calaNavALAne

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM.. 207 208 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra to meM joyelA, eka eka je calaNavALA hatAne te DhAMkI DhAMkIne calaNavALA thAya che ! khAnagImAM pachI mAphI mAMgI le che ! te bhaIbaMdhanI hAjarImAM tane TeDakAvI'tI mATe mAphI mAguM chuM ! tyAre mUA, badhuM tAruM calaNa ! moTA calaNavALA AyA ! rAjAone calaNa haze nahIM ? ApaNane calaNa rAkhavAno vicAra Avene, tyArathI enuM mana juduM rahe. evuM nA hovuM joIe. eka sTeTanA mahArAja to bahu jabarA hatA. ahIM A to sTezana jUnuM hatuM, te dahADe to nAnA patarAnuM patarAvALuM sTezana hatuM. te sekanDa klAsanA jhAMpA AgaLa mahArANIne haMTarathI mArI'tI. ughADe jhAMpA pAse. te tyAra pachI e mahArANI che te rAjamahele hoya to, A ahIM hoya. A ahIM Ave tyAre peNe jatA rahe. pachI bhegA thatA nahotA. haMTarathI mAreluM ughADe choge loko jue ! pelA mahelamAM laI gayA hotane, toya vAMdho nahIM. A to AvuM calaNa ! zAne calaNa kahuM ? paNa Ama rAjAne rANI dabaDAya dabaDAya karatI hoya. juone, rAjAne mArI nAkhyo hato ne ? evuM badhuM ! evuM badhuM A kArastAno badhAM cAlyA kare, badhA calaNa ne nAcalaNa khoLavA jatAM ! kAraNa ke e jANe ke mAruM dhaNIpaNuM huM choDuM nahIM ane mAruM ja calaNa rahevuM joIe ! to AkhI jiMdagI bhUkhe maraze ne eka dahADo 'poIjhana' paDaze thALImAM ! saheje cAle che tene cAlavA done ! A to kaLiyuga che ! vAtAvaraNa ja kevuM che ? mATe bIbI kahe che ke, 'tame nAlAyaka cho' to kahevuM 'bahu sAruM. praznakartA : ApaNane bIbI nAlAyaka kahe, e to saLI karI hoya evuM lAge. dAdAzrI : to pachI ApaNe zo upAya karavo ? 'tuM be vakhata nAlAyaka che' evuM ene kahevuM ane tethI kaMI ApaNe nAlAyakapaNuM bhUMsAI gayuM ? ApaNane sikko vAgyo eTale pAchAM ApaNe zuM be sikkA mAravA ? ane pachI Akho dahADo bagaDe. gharamAM ApaNe ApaNuM calaNa nA rAkhavuM. je mANasa calaNa rAkhe tene bhaTakavuM paDe. ameya hIrAbAne kahI dIdheluM ke ame nAcalaNI nANuM chIe. amane bhaTakavAnuM poSAya nahIM ne ! gharamAM calaNa calAvavA jAya to athaDAmaNa thAya ne ? ApaNA paga phATatA hoya ne bIbI paga dabAvatI hoya ne te vakhate koI Ave ne A joIne kahe ke, "ohoho ! tamArA to gharamAM calaNa bahu sarasa che !' tyAre ApaNe kahIe ke, 'nahIM, calaNa enuM ja cAle che.' ane jo tame ema kahyuM ke hA, amAruM ja calaNa che to pelI paga dabAvavAnA choDI deze. enA karatAM ApaNe kahIe, 'nA, enuM ja calaNa che'. praznakartA : ene mAkhaNa lagAvyuM nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : nA, ene 'sTreITa ve' (saraLa rasto) kahevAya ane pelA vAMkAcUMkA rastA kahevAya. A huM kahuM chuM te A duSamakALamAM sukhI thavAno judo rasto che. huM A kALa mATe kahuM chuM. ApaNe ApaNo nAsto zuM karavA bagADIe ? savAramAM nAsto bagaDe, bapore bagaDe ! ane ahIM koI noMdha karatuM nathI ke calaNa tAruM hatuM ke emanuM hatuM ! myunisipAliTImAM noMdha thatI nathI ne bhagavAnane tyAMya noMdha thatI nathI. ApaNe nAstA sAthe kAma che ke calaNa sAthe kAma che ? mATe kaye raste nAsto sAro maLe enI tapAsa karo. jo myunisipAliTIvALA noMdha rAkhatA hota ke konuM calaNa gharamAM che to huMya 'eDajasTa' nA thAta. A to koI bApoya noMdha karatuM nathI. konA AdhAre koto mokSa ? thAya AnaMda, hetu nirdoSa ! hajuya hIrAbA joDe badhI vAto karuM chuM. gammata karyA karavAno. eTale emane sAruM lAge pachI. AnaMda thAya evIya vAta karIe. 'haju dAdA AvaDA moTA bhagavAna thayA paNa juo, mArA AgaLa to TADhA paDI jAya che ne !' evuM emane lAge. eTale mAro ropha chene evuM mane lAge. emane AkhI rAta sArI UMgha Avene. praznakartA : badhe evuM ja karo cho.

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM.... 209 2 10 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : paNa AmAM hIrAbAne kaMI chetaravAnA che ? ane mArI AbarU to gayelI ja che. have kyAM mArI bIjI javAnI che AbarU ? che ja kyAM AbarU te ? sAmAne AnaMda zI rIte thAya e amAro dharma, bIjuM badhuM A loka vyavahAramAM zuM kaheze, e amAre kazuM jovAnuM nahIM. loka vyavahAramAM to badhuM kahetA ja AvyA chene, kyAM nathI kahetA ke AvA che tevA che, nA kahe ? sAruM kahIe toya UMdhuM kahe che loka to, evuM nathI kahetA ? eTale ApaNe sAmAne AnaMda kema thAya e joIe che. praznakartA : nirdoSa AnaMda. dAdAzrI : hA ane hIrAbA e pote nirdoSa mANasa. kharAba vicAra to koIne mATe Avelo nahIM emane. evuM che hIrAbAne vakhANe to e bahu thaI gayuM. mane nahIM vakhANo to cAle. e vakhANavA jevAM che. jhaverabA (dAdAnAM madhara) hatAM pachI e hatAM, to gharamAM sAcavyuM emaNe. bAnA jevI khurazI emaNe sAcavI. pachI have ApaNe bIjuM zuM sAcavIe ? koIne vasyA nathI, koIne du:kha dIdhuM nathI. koIne AghuMpAchuM nathI karyuM. jyAM sudhI khAvAnuM karatA hatA, badhAne sArI rIte khavaDAvyuM. pachI nA thayuM tyAre choDI dIdhuM. koI mahemAnane tarachoDe nahIM. thatuM hatuM tyAM sudhI karyuM che badhuM. pachI have thAya nahIM. tyAre have zI rIte cA-pANI thAya che ? e kaheya kharAM mane ke 'tamArA karatAM lokono mArA para vadhAre bhAva che.' meM kahyuM, 'hA. tethI to tamArA lIdhe mAro bhAva che ne.' kAraNa ke ApaNA lokoya kahene, bA, tamArI vAta to judI. eTale bA mAnI le bicArAM. sIdhA saraLane ! amArA eka bhatrIjA AvyA. te A hIrAbA emanAM kAkI thAya. 'kAkI, mArA kAkAne tame mokSe laI jazo. evAM kAkI cho !' evuM kahe eTale hIrAbA mane kahe, 'juo loko to mane evuM kahe che." meM kahyuM, 'hA, tamArA lIdhe to mAro mokSa thavAno che.' emAM mAre zuM vAMdho che ? praznakartA H tamAre lIdhe mAre mokSe javAnuM che evuM Apa bolI zako, mArAthI evuM nA bolI zakAya. dAdAzrI : e to evuM chene, AvuM nA bolIe tyAM sudhI zakti ApaNAmAM Ave nahIM ne ! pachI amArA bhatrIjAe evuM kahyuMne ke, amArAM kAkI mokSe javAnAM ne te tamane mokSe laI jaze. tyAre meM kahyuM, bahAranI duniyAmAM pUchI Avo ke AvAM kAkI maLe ? e kahe che paNa mane maLyAM chene ? tyAre A tamane maLyAM eTale tame puNyazALI kharA ? meM kahyuM, ochuM puNya nA kahevAya A ! lagna vakhate mATe rUpiyA, cUMTI khaNIne jIte calaNiyA ! strI ane puruSa lagna kare che, paNa lagna karatI vakhate ja puruSe manamAM nakkI karyuM hoya che ke ApaNe koI dahADo vahune jItavA nA devI, ene AgaLa AvavA ja nA devI. eTale A benI bhAMjagaDo paDyA kare che. ApaNe tyAM rUpiyA ramADe che te tame ramelA ke ? te koNa e rUpiyo strInA hAthamAM javA de ? are, huM ja kahyuM ke meM ja cUMTI khaNI hatIne ! vahu rUpiyo laI le to A badhAnI vacce AbarU jAyane ! paraNyAne tyAMthI ja bhAMjagaDa chene ? aMdarathI ja bhAMjagaDa chene ? eTale A jagata samajavA jevuM che. have pelo mAthA upara bhAro lezo nahIM. mAthA upara bhAra levA jevo nathI, praznakartA : koI divasa nahIM laIe. dAdAzrI : evuM chene, A jJAna jeTaluM bolIe e jene jeTaluM poSAya eTaluM lejo. nA poSAya to nA lezo. praznakartA : badhuM poSAya evuM ja che. dAdAzrI : hove, te calaNa choDI dIdhuM hazene ? meM to calaNa choDI dIdheluM, te hIrAbAya samajI gayelA ke emaNe calaNa-lagAma choDI dIdhI

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM... 211 212 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : calaNa choDI de toya upAdhi. dAdAzrI : badhAM kalpanAnAM jALAM zuM karavA vIMTo cho ? A duniyAmAM koI mANasa evo nathI ke je potAnuM bhaviSya samajI zake. amathA bhaviSyanI kalpanAo karyA kare ke "Ama thaI jaze ne Ama thaI jaze to ?" jo ne to zabda vAparazo nahIM. A be zabdo keTalAMya varSothI meM mArI DikzanarImAMthI kADhI nAkhelA che. hIrAbA mane kahe che, 'tame badhAne ApI do cho." kahyuM, lyo kUMcI tamArI pAse rAkho. eTale mAre ApI nA devAya. ApaNe to ApI daIe. ApaNA to hAthamAM rahe nahIM. kazuMya nA rahe ! ApaNane joItuMya nathI kazuM. A deheya bhUlADavAno ja che. paNa sArA kAmamAM bhelADAI jAya to bahu sAruM. praznakartA H ema ja thaI rahyuM che ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, ema ja thaI rahyuM che. nahIM to bIjA raste to bhalADAI javAno ja chene. bagIcAmAM besaze, tyAM AgaLa vAto karaze, peparo vAMcaze, gappAM mAraze. Ama ne Ama to bhelADAI javAno ja chene! sAre raste bhelADAI jAya to bahu sAruM. gharamAM ame hIrAbAtA gesTa, gesTa tarIke jIbhe kharo TesTa ! amAruM calaNeya nathIne gharamAM ! evuM cokhkhuM ja kahI dIdheluM eTale pachI koI cAya mAMge nahIMne ! ane hIrAbAne cA pAvI hoya to pAya ne jamADavA hoya to jamADe, emAM amAre zuM ? levAya nahIM ne devAya nahIM. ane hIrAbAne kahuM chuM, 'ame tamArA gesTa, anainvAiTeDa gesTa' (vaNanotarelA mahemAna) ! ghara amAruM hoya to mahemAnone mAre sAcavavA paDe ne eTale 'pachI ApaNe jarA zIro banAvajo, phalANuM banAvajo" kahevuM paDe. ane A calaNa ja nathI rahyuM eTale pachI te zIro khavaDAve ke lADu khavaDAve ke roTalA khavaDAve, ApaNe emAM bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM ne ! amane kharA dilathIya nahIM, dilathI to keTalAya kALathI vosarAvI dIdheluM. A Dakho joIe ja nahIM ! AkhuM rAja Ape toya amane kAmanuM nathI, evuM keTalAya vakhatathI besI gayeluM. amAre A mahIMlI badhI sAhebI ! kevI sarasa sAhebI ! praznakartA : paNa A kharuM, eka vakhata evuM jo samajAI jAya ke calaNa nA rAkhavuM ane nathI calaNa to bahu chuTakAro thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : chuTakAro to ja thAya, nahIM to chuTakAro thAya nahIM. A jJAnI puruSanA eka eka abhiprAya jo levAmAM Ave to chUTako ja che. ahIM saMsAramAM rahyA mukta ja che evA emanA abhiprAya hoya eka-eka ! nA-calaNI nANuM !! gharamAM 'gesTa' tarIke raho. ameya gharamAM 'gesTa' tarIke rahIe chIe. kudaratanA 'gesTa' tarIke tamane jo sukha nA Ave to pachI sAsarImAM zuM sukha AvavAnuM che ? jenA 'gesTa' hoIe tyAM AgaLa vinaya kevo hovo joIe ? huM tamAre tyAM gesTa thayo to mAre 'gesTa' tarIkeno vinaya nA rAkhavo joIe ? tame kaho ke "tamAre ahIM nathI suvAnuM, tyAM suvAnuM che' to mAre tyAM sUI javuM joIe. be vAge jamavAnuM Ave toya zAMtithI jamI levuM joIe. gharamAM Dakho karavA jAya to tamane koNa UbhuM rAkhe ? tamane bAsuMdI thALImAM mUke to te khAI leje. tyAM ema nA kaheto ke "ame gaLyuM nathI khAtA." jeTaluM pIrase eTale nirAMte khAje, khAruM pIrase to khAruM khAje. bahu nA bhAve to thoDuM khAje, paNa khAje ! 'gesTa'nA badhA kAyadA pALaje. gesTane rAga-dveSa karavAnA nA hoya, 'gesTa' rAga-dveSa karI zake ? jene tyAM 'gesTa' tarIke rahyAM hoIe, tene herAna nahIM karavAnA. amAre badhI ja cIja ghera beThAM Ave. saMbhAratAM ja Ave ane na Ave to amane vAMdho nathI. kAraNa ke tyAM "gesTa' thayA chIe. kone tyAM ? kudaratane ghera ! kudaratanI marajI nA hoya to ApaNe jANIe ke ApaNA hitamAM che ane marajI enI hoya toya ApaNA hitamAM che. ApaNe jyAM tyAMthI ukela lAvavAno che. ApaNe kudaratanA 'gesTa' chIe, nathI koInA dhaNI ke nathI koInA bhAI ke nathI koInA bApa ! "gesTa' to zuM kare ? ema nA kahe ke Aje kema veDhamI nA karI ? kema Aje baTAkAnuM zAka

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(10) be DipArTamenTa nokhAM.... 213 (11) zaMka bALe sonAnI laMkA nA karyuM ? evuM bole ? ane pelA pUche to zuM kahIe ke bahu sAruM che, bahu sAruM che. jo nATaka kare chene, ke sAcuM bolato haze ? e jANe ke ApaNe ahIM to gesTa chIe eTale ApaNe zuM ? mAthe paDelA chIe. eTale e je Ape che e ja upakAra che ne ! tevI rIte kudaratanA gesTa che. te ene kudarata badhuM saplAya kare che. A havA, pANI e badhuM kudarata saplAya kare che. kudarata jo enuM saplAya baMdha karI dene to badhuM jagata khalAsa thaI jAya. traNa kalAka ja jo havA baMdha karI dene to badhAM jIvaDAM khalAsa thaI jAya ! kaMI dukALa pADavAnIya jarUra nathI. phakta havA ja baMdha karI dene ! eTale ApaNe 'gesTa' chIe, gesTa kaDhI halAvavA nA Ave. tAre to gesTa rUmamAM ja besavAnuM hoya, toya A rasoDAmAM jAya, te gharanA mANasa samajI jAya ke A yujhalesa gesTa che. eTale gesTa rUmamAM besI rahe, jamavA bolAve to jAya ne nA bolAve to nA jAya. pachI bhukha lAgI hoya toya besI rahe, gesTa kevuM vartana kare evuM enuM vartana hoya. praznakartA : paNa amAre bairAMone evuM gesTa jevuM nA cAle ne ? amAre to rasoDAmAM badhuMya karavuM paDe. dAdAzrI : hA, karavuM paDe, paNa ApaNe to 'gesTa' chIene, karavuM paDe e to kudarata karAvaDAve che, paNa ApaNe to gesTa chIe ! kudarata saMDAsa karAvaDAve to ja saMDAsa jaIene. ane ahIMthI khase nahIM to ? to koI jAya ja nahIM. eTale e jeTaluM karAvaDAve eTale ApaNe karavAnuM. ame vaDodarA jaIe to gharamAM hIrAbAnA gesTanI peTha rahIe. gharamAM kUtaruM pesI gayuM to hIrAbAne bhAMjagaDa thAya. gesTane zI bhAMjagaDa ? kUtaruM pesI gayuM ne ghI bagADyuM to je mAlika hoya ene ciMtA thAya. gesTane zuM? gesTa to Ama joyA kare. pUche ke zuM thaI gayuM ? tyAre kaheze, ghI bagADI gayuM. tyAre gesTa kaheze, are, bahu khoTuM thayuM. evuM moDhe bole paNa nATakIya. pAchuM bolavuM to paDe ke bahu khoTuM thayuM. nahIM to ApaNe kahIe ke sAruM thayuM to ApaNane kADhI mUke. ApaNane gesTa tarIke rahevA ja nA de. zaMkAthI bhaDaka gharasaMsAre, mArApaNAthI mAlikI saMvAre ! gharamAM moTA bhAganI vaDhavADo atyAre zaMkAthI UbhI thaI jAya che. A kevuM che ke zaMkAthI paMdano UDe ne e spaMdanonA bhaDakA jAge. ane jo niHzaMka thAyane to bhaDakA enI meLe zamI jAya. dhaNI-dhaNiyANI beu zaMkAvALA thAya to pachI bhaDakA zI rIte zame ? ekane niHzaMka thaye ja chUTako. mA-bAponI vaDhavADothI bALakonA saMskAra bagaDe. mATe bALakanA saMskAra nA bagaDe eTalA mATe banne jaNAe samajIne nikAla lAvavo joIe. A zaMkA kADhe koNa ? ApaNuM A 'jJAna' to saMpUrNa niHzaMka banAve tevuM che ! praznakartA : zaMkAzIla kyAre thavAya ? evI kaI vastu che ke jene lIdhe zaMkA udbhave che ? dAdAzrI : potAnI mAnI che eTale ane potAnI nA mAne to pachI zaMkA che ja nahIM. potAnI kema mAnI, mATe zaMkA utpanna thAya ! praznakartA : e zaMkA to bIjA mATe ja thAyane, potAnA upara nA thAyane ! dAdAzrI : bIjA mATe thAya ja nahIM, paNa zaMkA karavAnuM kAraNa ja nathI. A to mAruM mAnyuM tethI zaMkA thAya che. 'mAruM' che nahIM ne mAnIe eTale zaMkA thAya.

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(11) zaMkA bALe sonAnI laMkA 215 216 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra praznakartA : badhA upara kaMI zaMkA AvatI nathI. eka ke be jaNa upara ja Ave to ke enI joDe kaMI RNAnubaMdha haze, eTale Ave che ? praznakartA: ema ne ema to kevI rIte zaMkA Ave ? kaMIka saMjoga to hovA ja joIe ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, evuM kaMI nahIM. satI upara zaMkA Ave lokone to ! satI upara zaMkA Ave che ? praznakartA : hA, Avene. dAdAzrI : to pachI emAM zuM kAraNa tyAM, thoDuM kaMI be TakAya satya dAdAzrI : nA, badhuM mArApaNuM che eTale zaMkA Ave, mArApaNuM nA hoya, to zaMkA nA Ave. hIrA tamArA che, eTale A mANasa joI gayA, e mANasa para zaMkA tamane Ave. tamArA hIrA nA hoya, to tamane zaMkA nA Ave. praznakartA: hIrA mArA hoyane huM sUI gaI ne dhAro ke mArI sAthe bIjI pAMca vyaktio sUtI che, to mane zaMkA to e pAMca para ja Ave ne ? dAdAzrI : badheya Ave. e hIrA tamArA che eTale Ave che. hIrA paheravAnuM vAMdho nathI, tamane mAlikIpaNuM che, tethI ja e zaMkA Ave. hIrA pahero, vaheMcI do, ApI do, khAvA-pIvo, majA karo paNa mAlikIpaNuM che to zaMkA Ave. hA, zaMkA jevuM lAgatuM hoya to upAya karavo badho. AvA hIrA ApaNe bIjI jagyAe mUkI devAM. ApaNane ema lAge ke A zaMkAmAM, A cAra mANasa AvyA te joI gayA che, to aMdhArAmAM UThIne bIjI jagyAe mUkI AvavAnuM. zaMkA eTale, lakavo buddhino, kara phajeto, sukhI jIvatato ! praznakartA: ApaNe zaMkA nA karavI hoya, barAbara deDha nirNaya-nizcaya che. paNa evAM kevAM AvaraNa Ave, saMjoga Ave ke zaMkA AvyA ja kare. e kayA karma evA hoya ? enuM zuM kAraNa ? dAdAzrI : mamatA karI che eTale. praznakartA : zaMkA karIe to pAMca TakA paNa vAta sAcI hoya to ja zaMkA thAya ? praznakartA: koIe AvIne kIdhuM hoya ke bhaI A satI AvI che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa jeNe kIdhuM, teneya zI rIte zaMkA paDI ene ? praznakartA: have evuM hoya ke kadAca koIe joyuM hoya to, koI kahe ApaNane, ApaNe jANIe chIe ke ApaNI vAta soe so TakA sAcI.... dAdAzrI : nA, paNa badhuM A khoTe khoTA... zaMkA karavI e khoTI hoya che. zaMkA to buddhino lakavo che. buddhine lakavo thayo hoya tyAre zaMkA thAya. tethI zaMkAnuM ame khAsa lakhyuM che ke zaMkA karazo ja nahIM, amathAM nakAmA zaMkA karIne zuM karavAnuM che ? sAcuM hoya to karane, paNa kazuM vaLavAnuM nathI. praznakartA : zaMkA karavI e DiscArja karma che, gayA bhavanA kaMI RNAnubaMdhane lIdhe ja zaMkA thAya che ? e vyakti sAthe ApaNe kaMI leNadeNa hoya eTale thAya ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe du:kha bhogavavAnuM hoya tyAre thAya. praznakartA ane e vyaktie ApaNane duHkha ApavAnuM hoya, evuM hoya ? dAdAzrI : nA, sAmI vyaktie du:kha ApatI ja nathI koIne. pote dAdAzrI : nA, kaMI paNa sAcuM nA hoya to ja zaMkA thAya.

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(11) zaMkA bALe sonAnI laMkA 217 218 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : AtmA upara mamatA bese eTale (saMsAramAM) ochI thaI jAya. potAne ja duHkha Ape che. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, sAmI vyakti zaMkAnAM kAraNamAM kAraNabhUta banatI hoya, to eNe.... pelo jema, gajavuM kApanAra gajavuM kApIne hamaNAM to jalebI khAya che paNa pachI e pakaDAze tyAre e nahIM bhogave ? dAdAzrI : pakaDAya tyAre AvuM kaMI bhogave. praznakartA: dAdA, Ape bahu sarasa kIdhuM ke jyAre duHkha bhogavavAnuM thAya tyAre zaMkA thAya ! dAdAzrI : zAMti hoya, AnaMda hoya paNa du:kha bhogavavAno vakhata Avyo ke zaMkA UbhI thAya. zaMkA jiMdagIbhara tava jAya, asara deha-mata para thAya ! eka dhaNIne enI vAIpha para zaMkA paDelI. e baMdha thAya? nA. e lAIpha TAIma zaMkA kahevAya. kAma thaI gayuMne, puNyazALI (!) puNyazALI mANasane thAya ne ! evI vAIphaneya dhaNI para zaMkA paDI, teya AkhI lAIpha TAIma nA jAya. praznakartA: na karavI hoya ne chatAM thAya, e zuM ? dAdAzrI : potApaNuM, mAlikIpaNuM. mAro dhaNI che. dhaNI bhale hoya, dhaNIno vAMdho nathI. mAro kahevAmAM vAMdho nathI, mamatA rAkhavI nahIM. mAro kahevAno, mAro dhaNI ema bolavAnuM, paNa mamatA nahIM rAkhavI. praznakartA : dhaNI parathI mamatA kevI rIte uThAvI levAya ? mAro nahoya, nahoya mAro evuM ke' ke' karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : nA, e kahevAya nahIM. mAro to che ja, dhaNI to mAro ja che. mAro mahIM kahevAnI kyAM jarUra che ? mamatA nA hovI joIe. praznakartA : to mamatA ochI kevI rIte karAya ? mArI karavA jevI cIjo che badhI paNa mamatA rAkhavA jevI nathI. mArI jarA khasI gaI to tamArI, paNa mamatA nahIM. mArI bAunDrIthI mArI khasI gaI to tamArI. zaMkA to rAte AvIne, eTale jyAM sudhI zarIra thAke nahIM tyAM sudhI tALuM vAse nahIM. zarIra thAkIne sUI jAya, tyAre tALuM vAsI de. praznakartA : zarIramAM paNa pheraphAra thaI jAya. gabharAmaNa lAge, evuM badhuM thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa thAkIne suI jAya UMghI jAya. savAramAM UThIe ke, rAte puruSArtha karyo zaMkAno tenuM zuM phaLa maLyuM tamane ? tyAre kaheze, zarIra bagaDyuM. ane mahIM mana-bana badhuM DhIluM thaI jAya. mana vIka(nabaLuM) thaI jAya. buddhi gAMDI thaI jAya. ahaMkAra kadarUpo thaI jAya. ahaMkAra rUpALo hoya che baLyo paNa kadarUpo thaI jAya. zaMkA daivI vahunI khAtarI khoLe, UMDo tA Utara, rahe upara challe ! zaMkAvALA eTale zaMkAnuM bhUta jAgyuM ke mANasa marI gayo. khAtarI khoLe ! A duniyAmAM je khAtarI khoLe e marI gayelo, meDa mANasa kahevAya. khAtarI khoLe che je ene gharathI nAsI javuM paDe. mATe koI cIjanI khAtarI nA khoLo. praznakartA : badhA bajAramAM to kaMI paNa vastu levA jAya to joIne le. dAdAzrI : hA, joIne lo. pachI UMDA nA Utaro. UMDA Utarazo to bhAgI javuM paDaze. khAtarI nA khoLo. je banyuM e karekTa. pachI kaMI navuM karekTa hotuM nathI. khAtarI khoLavA gayo ke AvI banyuM, menTala

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(11) zaMkA bALe sonAnI laMkA 219 220 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra haoNspiTalamAM javuM paDe khAtarI khoLanArane haM ke ! ane jenI khAtarI mAMgene te badhA pharI pharIne menTala haoNspiTalamAM ghAlI de, A jIvaDuM kaMIthI pAkya khAtarI khoLanAruM. ene jIvaDuM kahe loko. A duniyAmAM be vastu rAkhavI. UparacoTiyA (upalaka) khAtarI khoLavI ane UparacoTiyA zaMkA karavI. UMDA UtaravuM nahIM. ane aMte to khAtarI karanAro pachI meDa thAya, menTala haoNspiTalamAM loka ghAlI de. A vahune eka dahADo kahe, tuM cokhkhI chuM, enI khAtarI zuM ? tyAre vahu zuM kahe, jaMgalI mUo che. A choDIo bahAra jatI hoya, bhaNavA jatI hoya toya Ama zaMkA. 'vAIpha' upara zaMkA. evo badho dago ! gharamAMya dago ja chene, atyAre ! A kaLiyugamAM potAnA gharamAM ja dago hoya. kaLiyuga eTale dagAno kALa. kapaTa ne dago, kapaTa ne dago. kapaTa ne dago ! emAM zuM sukhane mATe kare che ? teya bhAna vagara, bebhAnapaNe ! nirmaLa buddhizALIne tyAM kapaTa ne dago nA hoya. A to 'phUliza' mANasane tyAM atyAre dago ne kapaTa hoya. kaLiyuga eTale 'phUliza' je bhegAM thayA che ne ? praznakartA : A dago ne kapaTa karavAmAM buddhino phALo kharo ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, sArI buddhi, e kapaTa ne dago kADhI nAkhe. buddhi sephasAIDa' rAkhe, eka to zaMkA mArI nAkhe, pachI A kapaTa ne dago to hoya ja. ane pAchA potAnA sukhamAM ja dareka rAcatA hoya. praznakartA : paNa potAnA sukhamAM rahevA mATe buddhinA upayogathI dago ne kapaTa ramI zake ne ? dAdAzrI : jyAM potAnI jAtanuM sukha khoLavuM tyAM sArI buddhi hoya ja nahIM ne ! sArI buddhi to sAmudAyika sukha khoLe ke AkhuM mAruM ghara sukhI thAya. paNa A to chokaro potAnuM sukha khoLato hoya, bairI potAnuM sukha khoLatI hoya, choDI potAnuM sukha khoLatI hoya, bApa potAnuM sukha khoLato hoya, dareka potapotAnAM sukha khoLe che. A to ughADuM karene, to gharanAM mANaso bhegAM rahe nahIM. paNa A to badhAMya bhegAM rahe che ne khAya che ne pIve che ! DhAMkeluM te ja sAruM ! bAkI zaMkA rAkhavA jevI cIja ja nathI, koI prakAre. e zaMkA ja mANasane mArI nAkhe. A badhA zaMkAne laIne ja marI ja rahyAM che ne ! eTale A duniyAmAM moTAmAM moTuM bhUta hoya to zaMkAnuM bhUta che. jagatamAM kaMIka lokone khaI gayelI, bharakhI gayelI ! mATe zaMkA UbhI ja nA thavA devI. game tevI zaMkA UbhI thAya to janmatAM ja ene mAravI, eno velo vadhavA nA devo. nahIM to jaMpIne nahIM besavA de zaMkA, zaMkAe to lokone moTA moTA rAjAone paNa zaMkAe mArI nAkhelA. cAritryanI zaMkAto paDe mAra ! zaMkAtuM phaLa aneka avatAra ! lokoe kahyuM hoya, A nAlAyaka mANasa che, toya ApaNe ene lAyaka kahevo. kAraNa ke vakhate nAlAyaka nA paNa hoya ne ene nAlAyaka kahezo to bahu doSa besaze. satI hoya ne jo vezyA kahevAI gaI to bhayaMkara guno, tenuM keTalAya avatAra sudhI bhogavyA karavuM paDaze. mATe koInAya cAritra saMbaMdhamAM bolazo nahIM. kAraNa ke e khoTuM nIkaLe to ? lokanA kahevAthI ApaNeya kahevA lAgIe to emAM ApaNI zI kiMmata rahI ? ame to evuM koI dahADoya koInuM bolIe nahIM ne koIne bolyo nathI. huM to hAtha ja nA ghAluM ne ! e javAbadArI koNa le ? koInA cAritra saMbaMdhI zaMkA nA karAya. moTuM jokhama che. zaMkA to ame kyAreya lAvIe nahIM. jokhama ApaNe zuM karavA laIe ? praznakartA : paNa, zaMkAthI jovAnI mananI graMthi paDI gaI hoya to tyAM kayuM "eDajasTamenTa' levuM ? dAdAzrI : A tamane dekhAya che ke AnuM cAritra kharAba che, te zuM tevuM pUrve nahotuM ? A to ociMtuM kaMI utpanna thaI gayeluM che ? eTale samajI levA jevuM che. A jagata. ke, A to Ama ja hoya. A kALamAM cAritra saMbaMdhI koInuM jovuM ja nahIM. A kALamAM to badhe evuM ja hoya. ughADuM nA hoya, paNa mana to bagaDe ja. emAM strI cAritrya to navuM kapaTa

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(11) zaMkA bALe sonAnI laMkA 221 222 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra ane mohanuM ja saMgrahasthAna, tethI strIno avatAra Ave. AmAM sahuthI sArAmAM sAruM che ke je viSayathI chUTyA hoya. eka jaNane enI 'vAIpha' para zaMkA AvyA kare. tene meM kahyuM ke zaMkA zene lIdhe thAya che ? te joyuM tene lIdhe zaMkA thAya che ? zuM nahotuM joyuM tyAre nahotuM banatuM AvuM? ApaNA loko to pakaDAya tene cora kahe, paNa pakaDAyo nathI te badhA mahIMthI cora ja che. paNa A to pakaDAyo tene cora kahe che. alyA, ene zuM karavA cora kahe che ? e to suMvALo hato. ochI corI karI che tethI pakaDAyo. vadhAre corI karanAra pakaDAtA haze ? praznakartA : paNa pakaDAya tyAre cora kahevAya ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, ochI corIo kare te pakaDAya ane pakaDAya eTale loka ene cora kahe. alyA, cora to A nathI pakaDAtA te che. paNa jagata to AvuM ja che. eTale e bhAI mAruM vijJAna ApyuM samajI gayo. pachI e mane kahe ke, "mArI vAIpha" upara have bIjA koIno hAtha phare toya huM bhaDakuM nahIM. hA, AvuM joIe. mokSe javuM hoya to Ama che. nahIM to laDavADa karyA karo tamArI meLe. tamArI vAIpha' A duSamakALamAM tamArI thAya nahIM. ane evI khoTI AzA rAkhavIya phogaTa che. A duSamakALa che. eTale A duSamakALamAM to jeTalA dahADA ApaNane roTalA khavaDAve che eTalA dahADA ApaNI ane nahIM to bIjAne khavaDAve to enI. eTale badhA 'mahAtmA'ne kahI dIdheluM ke zaMkA nA rAkhazo. nahIM toya mAruM kahevAnuM ke joyuM nA hoya tyAM sudhI tene satya mAno cho ja zA mATe A kaLiyugamAM ? A che ja polampola ! eTaluM badhuM polampola che, je meM joyuM che, tenuM temane varNana karuM to badhA mANasa jIvatA ja nA rahe, to have evA kALamAM ekalA paDI rahevuM mastImAM ane AvuM 'jJAna' joDe hoya enA jevuM to eya nahIM. dehAdhyAsa chUTe to jANavuM ke mokSe javAnI taiyArI thaI. dehamAM Atmabuddhi e badhuM dehAdhyAsa kahevAya. koI gALa bhAMDe, mAre, ApaNI 'vAIpha'ne ApaNI rUbarU uThAvI jAya toya mahIM rAga-dveSa nA thAya to jANavuM ke vItarAgano mArga pakaDyo che ! loka to pachI potAnI nabaLAIne laIne uThAvI javA de che ne ! pote jabaro hoya to 'vAIphane uThAvI javA de kaMI ? nA. eTale A kazu potAnuM che ja nahIM ! A badhuM ja pArakuM che. mATe vyavahAramAM rahevuM hoya to vyavahAramAM majabUta thA ne mokSe javuM hoya to mokSane lAyaka thA ! jyAM A deha paNa potAno nathI tyAM strI potAnI zI rIte thAya ? choDI potAnI zI rIte thAya ? eTale tamAre to badhI jAtanuM vicArI nAkhavuM joIe ke strI uThAvI jAya to zuM karavuM ? je banavAnuM che temAM pheraphAra thAya evuM nathI, evuM vyavasthita che. mATe bhaDakazo nahIM. eTale ema kahyuM che ke "vyavasthita' che ! nA jovAmAM Ave tyAre kaheze mArI vahu ane joyuM eTale phaphaDATa ! alyA, pahelethI hatuM ja AvuM. AmAM navuM khoLazo ja nahIM.. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, e bahu DhIluM mUkI dIdhuM. dAdAzrI : mAruM kahevAnuM ke duSamakALamAM ApaNe khoTI AzA rAkhIe eno artha ja nathI ne ! ane A sarakAre paNa 'DAyavorsano kAyado kADhI Apyo. sarakAra pahelethI jANe ke AvuM thavAnuM che. mATe kAyado pahelo nIkaLe. eTale haMmezAM davAno choDavo pahelo pAke. tyAra pachI roga utpanna thAya. evI rIta A kAyado pahelo nIkaLe, tyAra pachI ahIM lokonA evA banAva bane ! bairInA cAritryanI zAMti khape? kALI chuMdaNAvALI sauthI Tape ! mATe jene bairInA cAritrya saMbaMdhI zAMti joItI hoya to teNe raMge ekadama kALI chuMdaNAvALI bairI lAvavI ke jethI enuM koI gharAka ja nA thAya, koI ene saMghare ja nahIM. ane e ja ema kahe ke, "mane koI

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(11) zaMkA bALe sonAnI laMkA 223 224 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra saMgharanArA nathI. A eka dhaNI maLyA e ja saMghare che.' eTale e tamane 'sinsiyara' rahe, bahu 'sinsiyara' rahe. bAkI, rUpALI hoya tene to loka bhogave ja. rUpALI hoya eTale lokonI dRSTi bagaDavAnI ja ! koI rUpALI vahu lAve to amane e ja vicAra Ave ke AnI zI dazA thaze ! kALI chUMdaNAvALI hoya to ja 'seiphasAIDa' rahe. vahu bahu rUpALI hoya tyAre pelo bhagavAna bhUle ne ? ane dhaNI bahu rUpALo hoya to e baIye bhagavAna bhUle ! mATe rItasara badhuM sAruM. ApaNA daiDiyA to evuM kahetA ke "khetara rAkhavuM copATa ane bairuM rAkhavuM kobADa.' AvuM zAnA mATe kahetA ? ke jo vahu bahu rUpALI haze to koka najara lagADaze. enA karatAM A vahu jarA kadarUpI sArI, jethI koI najara bagADe nahIM ne ! A vaiDiyA bIjI rIte kahetA hatA, e dharmanI rIte nahotA kahetA. huM dharmanI rIte kahevA mAMguM chuM. vahu kadarUpI hoya to ApaNane koI bho ja nahIM ne ! gherathI bahAra nIkaLyA toya koI najara bagADe ja nahIM ne ! ApaNA daiDiyA to bahu pAkA hatA. paNa huM je kahevA mAMguM chuM te evuM nathI, e juduM che. e kadarUpI hoya, te ApaNA manane bahu herAna nA kare. bhUta thaIne vaLage nahIM, loka to "haoNTala' dekheM tyAM "jame', cAritra na khoLa, citta to bhame ! A loka to kevAM che ke jyAM 'haoNTala' dekhe tyAM 'jame'. mATe zaMkA rAkhavA jevuM jagata nathI. zaMkA ja duHkhadAyI che. have jyAM haoNTala dekhe tyAM jame, emAM puruSeya evuM kare che ne strI paNa evuM kare che. pAchuM sAmA puruSane evuM nathI ke mArI strI zuM karatI haze ? e to ema ja jANe ke mArI strI to sArI che. paNa enI strI to ene pATha bhaNAvatI hoya ! puruSo paNa strIne pATha bhaNAve ane strIo paNa puruSone pATho bhaNAve ! to paNa strIo jIte che. kema ke A puruSone kapaTa nahIM ne ! tethI puruSa strIothI chetarAI jAya. eTale jyAM sudhI 'sinsiyArITI-morAliTI' che tyAM sudhI saMsAra bhogavavA jevo hato. atyAre to bhayaMkara dagAkhorI che. A darekane enI 'vAIpha'nI vAta kahI dauM to koI potAnI 'vAIpha' pAse jAya nahIM. huM badhAnuM jANuM, paNa kazuMya kahuM-karuM nahIM. jo ke puruSeya dagAkhorImAM kaMI ocho nathI. paNa strI to naryuM kapaTanuM ja kArakhAnuM ! kapaTanuM saMgrahasthAna. bIje kyAMya nA hoya, eka strImAM ja hoya. eTale zaMkAthI ja jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. je jhADane sUkavavAnuM che, tene ja zaMkA karIne pANI chAMTe che ne tenAthI vadhAre UbhuM thAya che. eTale koI jAtanI zaMkA karavA jevuM A jagata nathI. - have tamane bIjI koI saMsAranI zaMkA paDe che ? tamArI vAIpha' bIjA koInI joDe bAMkaDe beThI hoya ane te cheTethI tamane jovAmAM Ave to tamane zuM thAya ? praznakartA: have kazuM nA thAya. thoDI Ama 'iphekTa' thAya, pachI kazuM nA thAya. pachI to 'vyavasthita' che ane e RNAnubaMdha che, ema khyAla AvI jAya. dAdAzrI : kevA pAkA che ! guNAkAra keTalo badho che ! ane zaMkA to nA thAya ne ? praznakartA : nA thAya, dAdA. dAdAzrI : nahIM to have tyAM AgaLa e vahema pesI gayo, to e vahema bahu sukha Ape, nahIM ? praznakartA : aMdara kIDA jevuM kAma kare, kotaryA kare. dAdAzrI : hA, jAgratakALa badhoya ene karaDI khAya. TI.bI.no roga, TI.bI. to sAro ke amuka kALa sudhI ja asara kare, pachI nA kare. eTale A zaMkA e to TI.bI.no roga che. e zaMkA utpanna thaI gaI ene TI.bI.nI zarUAta thaI gaI. eTale zaMkA koI rIte 'helpa' kare nahIM. zaMkA nukasAna ja kare. eTale zaMkA to mULamAMthI e Uge tyArathI ja baMdha karI devI, bArI pADI devI. nahIM to jhADa rUpe thAya e to !

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(11) zaMkA bALe sonAnI laMkA 225 226 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra nAkhe. sAmAnuM je thavAnuM hoya te thAya, paNa ApaNane to e zaMkA ja mArI nAkhe. kAraNa ke e zaMkA to mANasa marI jAya tyAM sudhI ene choDe nahIM. zaMkA paDe eTale mANasanuM vajana vadhe ke ? mANasa maDadAnI jema jIvatA hoya tenA jevuM thAya. eTale koI paNa vAtamAM zaMkA nA kare to uttama che. zaMkA to jaDamULathI kADhI nAkhavAnI. vyavahAramAMya zaMkA kADhI nAkhavAnI che. zaMkA 'helpa' nathI karatI, nukasAna ja kare che. ane A risAvuM eya phAyado nathI karatuM, nukasAna ja kare che. keTalAka zabdo ekAMte nukasAna kare che. ekAMta eTale zuM ? lAbhAlAbha hoya to ThIka che vAta. paNa A to ekAMte alAbha ja badho evA guNo (!) kADhI nAkhene to sAruM. patnI moDI toya na kara zaMkA, paTAvI le tahIM to jaze laMkA ! ane A loka to 'vAIpha' saheja moDI Ave toya zaMkA karyA kare. zaMkA karavA jevI nathI. RNAnubaMdhanI bahAra kazuM ja thavAnuM nathI. e ghera Ave eTale ene samaja pADavI, paNa zaMkA karavI nahIM. zaMkA to UlaTuM pANI vadhAre chAMTe. hA, cetavavuM paDe kharuM. paNa zaMkA kazI rAkhavI nahIM. zaMkA rAkhanAra mokSa khoI bese che. eTale ApaNe jo chUTavuM hoya, mokSe javuM hoya to ApaNe zaMkA karavI nahIM. koI bIjo mANasa tamArI 'vAIpha'nA gaLe hAtha nAkhIne pharato hoya ne e tamArA jovAmAM AvyuM, to zuM ApaNe jhera khAvuM ? praznakartA : nA, evuM zuM karavA karuM ? dAdAzrI : to pachI zuM karavuM ? praznakartA : thoDuM nATaka karavuM paDe, pachI samajAvavuM. pachI to e je kare te 'vyavasthita'. dAdAzrI : hA, barobara che. tamArI 'vAIpha' upara ne gharamAM koInI upareya tamane zaMkA have bilakula thAya nahIMne ? kAraNa ke A badhI 'phAIlo" che. emAM zaMkA karavA jevuM zuM che ? je hisAba haze, je RNAnubaMdha haze, e pramANe phAIlo bhaTakaze. ane ApaNe to mokSe javuM che ! zaMkAno artha zo ? lokone dUdhapAka jamADavo che e dUdhapAkamAM eka zera mIThuM nAkhI devuM, enuM nAma zaMkA. pachI zuM thAya ? dUdhapAka phATI jAya. eTalI javAbadArIno to lokone khyAla nathI. ame zaMkAthI to bahu cheTA rahIe. vicAra Ave amane badhI jAtanA mana che te vicAra Ave, paNa zaMkA nA paDe. huM zaMkAnI dRSTithI koIne jouM to bIje dahADe enuM mana mArAthI juduM paDI jAya, enuM mana ja juduM paDI jAya mArAthI ! eTale koI paNa vastumAM zaMkA paDe te zaMkAo nahIM rAkhavI. ApaNe jAgRta rahevuM, paNa sAmA upara zaMkAo nahIM rAkhavI. zaMkA ApaNane mArI

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(12) dhaNIpaNAtA gutAo gunegAra nathI te dhaNI kharo, gutAmAM Avyo to thayo maro ! A jJAna lIdheluM hoya pachI matabheda UbhA thAya ja nahIM evuM che. jJAna lIdhAM pachI AjJAo pALatA nathI. AjJAo nA pALe chatAM e dhaNIne helpa kare. te keTaluM helpa kare ? je karoDo avatAra thavAnA hatA, tene badale amuka aMze avatAra ochA thaI jAya. Ama to DAhyA cho ne pAchAM ghelA thAva cho ? pachI baI zuM kaheze ? tamArAmAM meM vettA nA dIThA ! tyAre ApaNe kahIe, besane bA Aja mane jaMpavA de ne, mane bhakti karavA de ne ?" paNa toya pelI kaheze, tamArAmAM vettA nA dIThA !' 'alyA, kemanA vettAM mArA jue che tuM to ?' evuM pachI kahe ke nA kahe ? ApaNe gunAmAM AvyA eTale nA kahe ? ApaNuM dhaNIpaNuM kyAM sudhI rahe ? ApaNe gunAmAM nA AvIe tyAM sudhI ane gunAmAM AvyA eTale dhaNIpaNuM UDI jAya. eTale ApaNe badhI javAbadArI samajavI paDe. eka benane to phariyAda karavA eno dhaNI teDI lAvyo, ke tuM dAdAnI pAse phariyAda kara badhI. mAro kesa Akho nIkaLI jAya. benane meM pUchyuM, zuM che bena, tAre kahene hakIkata ! enA taraphano jhaghaDo che ? tyAre kahe, dhaNIpaNuM roja bajAve che. kahe che, Ama kema karyuM ne tema kema karyuM ne Akho dahADo. have ghara huM calAvuM chuM, pAMca chokarAnuM huM calAvuM chuM, emane jagADuM chuM, karuM chuM. toya Akho dahADo dhaNIpaNuM bajAve che ! temAM mana-vacana-kAyAthI amAre koI saMbaMdha nathI daza varSathI ane pAcho dhaNIpaNuM bajAve che. eTale pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra pachI meM pelAne jhAlyo barobara. barobara dhULadhANI ja karI nAkhyo. e dhaNIpaNuM kare e nA hovuM joIe. meM dhaNIne enI bhUla dekhADI dIdhI. dhaNIpaNuM kyAre kahevAya ? mana-vacana-kAyAno pAzavatAno saMbaMdha hoya tyAre. e to ene che nahIM ? to pachI dhaNIpaNAnI to ene levAdevA ja nahIM ne ! 228 pAzavatA hoya tyAM sudhI dhaNIpaNuM. pachI AvatA bhavano hisAba AvI jAya te pachI ! praznakartA : e zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : vera baMdhAya. koI strI dabAyelI rahetI haze ghaDIvAra ? nA chUTake, samAjanI AbarUne lIdhe rahe. te AvatA bhave tela kADhI nAkhe. are, sApaNa thaIne kaiDe. dhaNI thavAno vAMdho nathI paNa dhaNIpaNuM bajAvavAmAM vAMdho che. paNa A to dhaNIpaNuM bajAve che. kaheze, zuM samaje che tuM ? alyA mUA, gunegAra che A ? gunegAraneya evuM nA bolAya. sarakArano kAyado evo karyo che ke atyAre gunegAraneya bahu AvuM karazo nahIM ke zuM samaje che tArA manamAM ? ane kevA kevA zabdo bole che ! e to huM bolato nathI, mane AvaDeya nahIM, atyAre to nahIM AvaDatA. atyAre mArI bhASA badhI badalAI gaIne. have pelA bhAre zabdo mane nA AvaDe. laDe-vaDhe chatAM jJAta hAjara, AjJA samabhAve tikAla kara ! eTale eka bhaI kahetA'tA. mane kahe che, vAIpha joDe mAre sAta kalAka sudhI che te vAyuddha cAlyuM. savArathI cAlyuM, vaDhavaDhA, te sAta kalAka sudhI cAlyuM paNa moDhe vAyuddha, pachI chellA AThamA kalAkamAM kAyAyuddha cAlu thaI gayuM. eNe mArA vALa jhAlyA ne meMya ApavA mAMDI. te eya A vALa kheMcIne tela kADhavA mAMDI. zuM kahe che ? kAyAyuddha eka kalAka badhuM ! ATha kalAka AmAM ne navamAM kalAkamAM to ame be sAthe cA pItA'tA, kahe che. kahe che akramavijJAnaneya dhanya che !

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230 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (12) dhaNIpaNAnA gunAo 229 praznakartA : ATha kalAka akramavijJAna kaMI gayuM ? navame kalAke kyAMthI AvyuM ? dAdAzrI : nA, akramavijJAna mahIM hatuM ja. paNa A pATha bhajavavAnone te e AkhI philama hatI. praznakartA : AkhI philama UtarelI. dAdAzrI : philama UtarelI bhajavAI gaI. pachI akrama vijJAna hAjara thayuM. philama bhajavAI gaI eTale akramavijJAna pAchuM taiyAra thaIne pachI navamA kalAkamAM cA-pANI sAthe pI ane kahe che, 'dAdA bhagavAnanA asIma jaya jayakAra ho' bolo, sAmAsAmI mAphI mAMgIne ! saMsAra vyavahAra calAvatAM niraMtara samAdhAnamAM rahevAya evuM A jJAna che, niraMtara samAdhimAM rahI zakAya evuM A jJAna che, eTale pachI ApaNAmAM kaluSita bhAva rahyo ja nA hoya, paNa ApaNe lIdhe bIjAne paNa kleza nA thAya. pachI e cIDAtA hoya toya ThaMDA paDI jAya. kAraNa ke A rastAmAM ApaNane Thokara vAgI, te ApaNe enI joDe cIDAIe paNa e Thokarane to ThaMDuM thaI javuM paDe ne ? ane sAmo cIDAya to ApaNe vadhAre cIDAIe ane ApaNe jo ThaMDA thaI jaIe, to pachI pelI cIDAya nahIM. Thokara jevAM, bhIta jevAM thaI javuM. A badhA Ama samabhAve nikAla kare, emane badhAneya jhaghaDA hatA. paNa atyAre jhaghaDo nathI UlaTA beu sAthe ne sAthe. praznakartA H keTalAka strIthI kaMTALIne gharathI bhAgI chUTe che, te kevuM? dAdAzrI : nA, bhAgeDu zA mATe thaIe ? ApaNe paramAtmA chIe. ApaNe bhAgeDu thavAnI zI jarUra che ? ApaNe eno 'samabhAve nikAla' karI nAkhavo. praznakartA : nikAla karavo che to kaI rIte thAya ? manamAM bhAva karavo ke A pUrvanuM AvyuM che ? dAdAzrI : eTalAthI nikAla nA thAya. nikAla eTale to sAmAnI joDe phona karavo paDe, enA AtmAne khabara ApavI paDe. te AtmAnI pAse ApaNe bhUla karI che evuM kabUla-eksepTa karavuM paDe. eTale pratikramaNa moTuM karavuM paDe. praznakartA: sAmo mANasa ApaNuM apamAna kare to paNa ApaNe tenuM pratikramaNa karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : apamAna kare to ja pratikramaNa karavAnuM, ApaNane mAna Ape tyAre nahIM karavAnuM. pratikramaNa karIe eTale sAmA para dveSabhAva to thAya ja nahIM. uparathI enI para sArI asara thAya. ApaNI joDe dveSabhAva nA thAya e to jANe paheluM sTepa, paNa pachI ene khabara paNa pahoMce che. praznakartA : enA AtmAne pahoMce kharuM ? dAdAzrI : hA, jarUra pahoMce. pachI e AtmA enA pudgalane paNa dhakele che ke "bhaI, phona Avyo tAro.' ApaNuM A pratikramaNa che te atikramaNa uparanuM che, kramaNa upara nathI. praznakartA : ghaNAM pratikramaNo karavAM paDe ? dAdAzrI : jeTaluM spIDamAM ApaNe makAna bAMdhavuM hoya eTalA kaDiyA ApaNe vadhAravAnA. evuM chene, ke A bahAranA loko joDe pratikramaNa nahIM thAya to cAlaze, paNa ApaNI AjubAjunAM ne najIkanAM gharanAM che emanAM pratikramaNa vadhAre karavAM. gharanAM mATe manamAM bhAva rAkhavA ke mArI joDe jamyA che, joDe rahe che te ko'ka dahADo A mokSamArga upara Ave. bairItA kevAM puNya ke tuM maLyo ! tArAM kevA pApa khoDavALI raLyo ? eka bhaI mArI pAse AvelA. te mane kahe, dAdA, huM paraNyo to kharo paNa mane mArI bairI gamatI nathI. meM kahyuM, kema bhAI, nA gamavAnuM zuM kAraNa ? tyAre kahe che, e jarA page laMgaDI che, laMgaDAya che. 'te tArI bairIne tuM game che ke nahIM ?" tyAre kahe ke, 'dAdA, huM to gamuM tevo ja chuM ne !

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(13) dAdAI daSTie cAlo, patio..... (12) dhaNIpaNAnA gunAo 231 rUpALo chuM, bhaNelo-gaNelo chuM, kamAuM chuM ne khoDakhApaNa vagarano chuM.' te emAM bhUla tArI ja. te evI te kevI bhUla karelI ke tane laMgaDI maLI ne eNe kevAM sarasa puNya karelAM ke tuM Avo sAro tene maLyo ? alyA, A to potAnAM karelAM ja potAnI AgaLa Ave che, temAM sAmAno zo doSa jue che ? jA, tArI bhula bhogavI le ne pharI navI bhUla nA karato. te bhaI samajI gayo. ane tenI lAIpha phrekTara thatI aTakI gaI ne sudharI gaI ! satyano svIkAra karavo paDaze ane satyanuM zodhana karavuM paDaze. bairI kaMI nukasAna karatI nathI. bairI helpaphUla che. paNa A to bairIne kaheze, 'tArA vagara mane gamatuM nathI" ohoho.... ! A to bairInuM bagADyuM ne potAnuM bagADyuM ! alyA, bairI to helpara che. tane khAvAnuM karI Ape. tAre bahArathI kamAI lAvavAnuM ane jarA haiyAM-chokarAM thAya e sAdhAraNa rIte rAkhavAnAM. jema A jAnavarone nathI thatAM haiyAM-chokarAM ? ane A to kaheze, "AnA vagara gamatuM nathI' evuM gAya-bheMsa bolyuM koI ? A manuSyo ekalAM ja bole che ke mane tArA vagara gamatuM nathI. tame AvuM sAMbhaLeluM nahIM ? to pachI AvuM kema cAle te ? nA bolAya evuM, e to eka pArTanara che, te ApaNA ghara calAvavAmAM. ane keTalAka loko ema bole ke, 'A berI-chokarAM e badhuM khoTI vAta che', A paNa sAcI vAta nathI ! paNa Ama bola bola karazo toya dahADo vaLaze nahIM ne pAchA pharI vAra ke emAM ne emAM emanI joDe ja rahevAnuM ne ! jemAM raho temAM tene vagovo nahIM. nahIM to vagovaNuM karIne duHkhadAyI thaI paDazo. tame UMDA kAdavamAM Utaro cho. vakhANazo nahIM to bhale nA vakhANo paNa vagovaNuM to nA ja karo ! keTalAka to ema bole che ke A badhAM bairI-chokarAM che eTale huM phasAyo. are, AvuM bolo cho ? tane phasAvyo che ke e phasAyA che ? nA zobhe AvuM. AvuM nA bolAya. sattAno durupayoga Avo na karAya. sattAno durupayoga e mahAna pApa che. evuM nA hovuM joIe. patitA mUMjhavatA prazno Ama, dAdA kliyara kare TrAphika jAma ! praznakartA : ApaNane gharamAM koI vastunuM dhyAna rahetuM nA hoya, gharanAM ApaNane dhyAna rAkho, dhyAna rAkho ema kahetAM hoya, chatAM nA rahe to te vakhate zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : kazuMya nahIM. gharanA kahe ke, "dhyAna rAkho, dhyAna rAkho.' tyAre ApaNe kahevuM ke, 'hA, rAkhIzuM." ApaNe dhyAna rAkhavAnuM nakkI karavuM. tema chatAM dhyAna nA rahyuM ne kUtaruM pesI gayuM tyAre kahIe ke, 'mane dhyAna nathI rahetuM.' eno ukela to lAvavo paDe ne ? amaneya koIe dhyAna rAkhavAnuM soMpyuM hoya to ame dhyAna rAkhIe, tema chatAM nA rahyuM to kahI daIe ke, 'bhaI, A rahyuM nahIM amArAthI." evuM che ke, ApaNe moTI uMmaranA chIe evo khyAla nA rahe to kAma thAya. bALaka jevI avasthA hoya to "samabhAve nikAla' sarasa thAya. ame bALaka jevA hoIe. eTale ame jevuM hoya tevuM kahI daIe, Ameya kahI daIe ne temeya kahI daIe, bahu moTAI zuM karavAnI ? kasoTI Ave e puNyazALI kahevAya ! mATe ukela lAvavo, jaka nA pakaDavI. ApaNe ApaNI meLe ApaNo doSa kahI devo. nahIM to e kahetAM hoya tyAre ApaNe khuza thavuM ke, ohohoho.... tame amAro doSa jANI gayA ! bahu sAruM karyuM ! tamArI buddhi ame jANIe nahIM.

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(13) dAdAI dRSTie cAlo, patio... 233 234 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra thaI jAya. te amAro eka bhatrIjo hatone, te chatrIsa varSano thaIne mArI pAse Avyo ane huM enA karatAM 20 varSe moTo ne mane kahe che, mArI bA anyAyI che. eTale pachI meM kahyuM, tArI mAe tane nava mahinA peTamAM rAkhyo'to. ane pachI aDhAra varSa pAchaLa kurakuriyuM pherave ema pheravyo, eTale Aja tArI mA kharAba che ne tArI patnI sArI che ema ? mUA, pheravyo haze ke nahIM aDhAra varSa ? vahunI vAta sAcI ? pachI dRSTi pharI gaI. A mAro zabda kaDaka sAMbhaLyone, dRSTi pharI gaI pachI. cAra-pAMca phere kahyuM, mArA bA evA nathI. A to ghena caDhayo'to vahuno. vahuno ghena caDhe ! ane vahunA ghenamAM che te tulanA karavA beThA. A roga kADhavA mATe kahuM . vahunA ghenamAM mAne kharAba kahe che. vahunuM ghena caDhe ke nA praznakartA : vAIpha ema kahe ke tamArA perenTasane ApaNI sAthe nathI rAkhavAnAM ke nathI bolAvavAnAM, to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : to samajAvIne kAma levuM. DemokreTIka rIte kAma levuM. enA perenTasane bolAvavAmAM khUba sevA karI ApavI. praznakartA : mA-bApa gharaDAM hoya, moTI uMmaranA vaDIla hoya, eka tarapha mA-bApa che ane bIjI tarapha vAIpha che to e banne vacce pahelI vAta konI sAMbhaLavI ? dAdAzrI : vAIphanI joDe evo sarasa saMbaMdha karI devo ke vAIpha ApaNane ema kahe ke tamArAM mA-bApanuM dhyAna rAkho ne ! Ama zuM karo cho ? e vAIpha pAse mA-bApanuM jarA avaLuM bolavuM. ApaNA loka to zuM kahe ? e mArI mA jevI koInI mA nathI. tuM bola bola nA karIza. pachI pelI avaLI phare to ApaNe kahIe, mAno svabhAva AjathI evo ja thaI gayo che. inDiyana mAinDa avaLuM pharavAnI Teva hoya, inDiyana mAinDa che. vahune guru kare tyAMthI phera, vahu mIThI te mA kaDavI jhera ! tuM jANe che ke loko vAIphane gurU kare evA che ? praznakartA : hAjI, jANuM chuM. dAdAzrI : te guru karavA jevuM nathI, nahIM to mA-bApa ne AkhuM kuTuMba muzkelImAM mUkAya. ane guru karyA eTale poteya muzkelImAM mUkAya. eneya ramakaDuM tarIke ramavuM paDene ? paNa mArI pAse AvelAM ne evuM nA bane. mArI pAse ola rAITa ! hiMsaka bhAva ja UDI jAya ne ! hiMsA karavAno vicAra ja nA thAya. kema karIne sukha ApavuM e ja vicAra thAya. praznakartA : enI asara navI AvanAra para paNa thAya ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, ene jo saMskAra lAge to badhuM sudharI jAya, pheraphAra e chokarAe pachI cAra varSe AvIne pachI mane kahe che, mArI bhUla hatI te dahADe. have mane lAgyuM ke mArI madhara evAM nathI. ghena utArI dIdhuM haDahaDATa, mArI ThokIne. 36 varSano ne bI.koma. thayelo moTo oNphisara. ane mArAM patnI UbhAM hatAM ne meM ene Ama kahyuM, te mArAM patnI kahe, nA kahevAya, AvuM nA kahevAya. zuM kahevAya tyAre ? eno roga nA kADhIe to pachI huM eno dAdA gaNAuM ? dAdo thayelo chuM. te kevo paNa zabda bolyo, AvuM ? koI Avo nAgo zabda bolyuM haze, ke nava mahinA to tArI mAe peTamAM rAkhyo e huM jANuM chuM ? evu moDhe kahyuM pAchuM. roga nIkaLI gayo ! ghena UtarI jAyane ! ghena UtAravA mATe amArA kaDaka zabdo hoya che. A kaDakAImAM bIjuM kazuM nahotuM, ghena UtaravA mATenI A davA che. navuM ghena, ghena, ghena ! A pahelethI ja che e ja boluM chuM. atyAre sApekSa boluM to loko samajatA nathI, bhAna ja nathI tyAM AgaLa. eka mANasa to enI vAIpha jatI hatI, te pAchaLathI kahe che, "are bA, ahIM pAchA Avo, bA pAchA Avo." kahyuM, 'alyA, A vahu che tArI !" kAraNa ke sADI evI dIThI ke enA manamAM jANe ke A mArI bA ja jAya che, evuM A jagata che.

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(13) dAdAI dRSTie cAlo, patio... 235 236 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra banne risAya temAM zo bhalIvAra, paiNyo paNa ta vaLyo zukkaravAra ! ame to zuM kahyuM A jJAna lIdhA pachI ciMtA thAya to jokhamadArI amArI. paNa A AjJA pALavI joIe. AjJA agharIya nathI. tame prekTisa karavA mAMDo. praznakartA : pADavA mAMDI. dAdAzrI : tame pADavA mAMDI ne ? prekTisa atyAre pADa pADa karo. nahIM to e sahaja nathI e vastu. kAraNa ke navuM ijIna hoyane, teya ghasAro nA paDyo hoya to cAle nahIM. te ApaNe henDala mAra mAra karIne rAge pADavuM paDe ! navI vahu joDeya rAge pADavuM paDe. badhuM navuM navuM hoya to rAtre pADavuM paDe. pahele dahADe vahu risAI hoya ane ApaNeya risAIe to bhalIvAra kyAre Ave ? jo risAI hoya to ApaNe dhIme rahIne kahevAnuM, gabharAzo nahIM, ApaNe eka ja chIe. Ama tema karIne paTAvI paTAvIne kAma levuM. eya risAya ne ApaNe risAIe to rahyuM zuM pachI ? kAma letAM AvaDavuM joIe, nA AvaDavuM joIe ? jo badhA khuza thaI jAya chene ? vAta samajavI paDaze ke nahIM ? huM to svataMtra karavA Avyo chuM tamane. koI bosa nathI, no bosa. bosa tamArI vAIpha ! ene ekalIne sAcavI rAkhajo. kAraNa ke e jalebI karI Ape, bhajiyAM karI Ape, khuza rAkho to sAruM ke nAkhuza rAkho to ? praznakartA : khuzI rAkho to. dAdAzrI : haM. praznakartA : mAre to eya nathI karI ApatI. dAdAzrI : e mArI pAse teDI lAvaje. huM ene samI karI ApIza, ripera karI ApuM chuM. praznakartA: vAIpha DaoNkTara che eTale davAkhAnuM calAve che. eTale TAIma nA maLane ! dAdAzrI : toya huM rIpera karI ApIza. mane badhuM ripera karatAM AvaDe. navAM mazIno ripera karuM. jUnAMye karuM ane enTeDa mazIne ripera karuM, engalDa ! praznakartA : vahune kevI rIte rAkhavI e vAta bahu gamI. dAdAzrI : moMghI vahu ne sastI vahu ! praznakartA: hamaNAM kahyuM ne tame badhA moMghI vAIpha laI AvyA che. to moMghI ne sastImAM pharaka zuM? khabara kevI rIte paDe ke A moMdhI vahu che ne A sastI vadhu che ? dAdAzrI : A sastI vahu eTale lo kvaoNliTI hoyane, eTale sastI. A hAI kvoliTIvALI moMghI. praznakartA : lo kvaoNliTI eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : lo kvaoNliTI eTale eno svabhAva. tyAre kahe, garIba vicAra hoya, garIba svabhAva hoya, vAreghaDIe jUThuM bolatI hoya ane evuM tevuM. bhoLI hoya ! A to badhA pAkA, hAi kvaoNliTI mAla ahIM badhA AvelA. praznakartA : amerikAmAM badho hAi kvaoNliTI mAla Avelo ? dAdAzrI : hA, strI hAi kvaoNliTI lAvelAne. A kaMI jevuM tevuM che? thAMbhalo athaDAya vArevAre, svAta' vitA ta pugAya Are ! praznakartA : huM vAIphane athaDAvAnuM ochuM to karuM chuM, prayatno karuM chuM, paNa thAMbhalo ja upara paDato hoya to zuM karavuM ? caraNavidhi to roja savAre karIe ja chIe, navakAramaMtra bolIe chIe. eTale vaLI thoDuM ochuM athaDAya che. vAIpha sAthe athaDAvAnAM A karmo ja hazene, gayA janmanAM?

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(13) dAdAI dRSTie cAlo, patio... 237 238 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : bIjuM zuM ? A atyAre pratyakSa dekhAya che te ja karmo. gayo avatAranAM kamothI to A pratyakSa dekhAtAM karmo UbhAM thayAM ane e ja karmo naDe che. praznakartA : A karma kApavAno kaMI mArga kharo ? dAdAzrI : zuddhAtmA thaI jAva to, jJAtA-draSTA thaI jAva to kAma thaI jAya. hisAba pAko che, pAko lakhelo. pAchA cho nasIbadAra, paisA kaMI khUTatA nathI. dhaMdho cAlu rahe chene ? praznakartA : paNa dAdA, evA to Aja sudhImAM keTalAne duHkha dIdhA haze ? evA anyAya to ApaNAthI keTalA thaI gayA haze manuSyothI ? dAdAzrI : evI badhI gaNatarImAM nahIM paDavAnuM. thaI gayuM e gona. praznakartA: have pachI nahIM karavAnuM? dAdAzrI : have pachI cetavAnuM. te ekuya nA thAya. gayuM ene zuM karavAnuM, gayuM ene zuM raDavAnuM? praznakartA: kaMI nahIM. dAdAzrI : atyAra sudhImAM keTalA avatArathI, keTalA dhaNI karyA haze ? ene kyAM paDavA jaIe ? A mane to kaMI hIrAbA eka ja vakhata maLyA haze kaMI ! keTalAya maLyA haze evA ! Ane kyAM gaNavA jaIe ApaNe ke eka phero AvA maLyA hatA, mane eka phero AvA maLyA hatA ne...!! koI phero bacakAM bhare evAMya maLyA hoya, badhuMya maLe. gharamAM pesIe te pahelAM ja bacakAM bharavA mAMDe, 'kyAM gayA hatA atyAra sudhI ?" melane paiNavuM, te paiNyo te ja bhUla karI, evuM kahIe pachI ApaNe. jaMpIne besavA nA de. bahArathI AvyA toya jaMpIne na besavA de ! Akho dahADo keDa, keDa ne kaiDa. aMdara paNa kaiDa ne bahAra mAkaNa, macchara je hoya te kaiDe. rasoDAmAM bAi keDe. meM eka jaNane pUchyuM, 'kema kaMTALI gayA cho ?" tyAre e kahe ke, "A bai sApaNanI peTha kaiDe che !' evIya bairI keTalAka lokone maLe che ne ! Akho dahADo 'tame AvA ne tame tevA" karyA kare, te jaMpIne khAvAya nA de bicArAne ! vahunI apekSA, ghakAmamAM, Toka Toka kare calAvavAmAM ! praznakartA : A leDIjha kAma karIne thAkI bahu jAya. kAma kahIne to bahAnA batAve ke huM thAkI gaI, mAthuM duHkhe che, keDo du:khe che. dAdAzrI : evuM chene, te ApaNe ene savArathI ja kahIe, 'jo tArAthI nahIM kAma thAya, tuM thAkI gayelI chuM', tyAre ene pANI caDhaze ke nA, tame besI raho chAnAmAnA, huM karI laIza. eTale ApaNane kaLathI kAma letAM AvaDavuM joIe, A zAka samAravAmAMya kaLa nA hoya to ahIM lohI nIkaLeluM hoya. alyA mUA, zAka samAruM chuM. charI ne A zAka, beu juduM che toya A lohI kema kADhyuM ? tyAre kahe, AvaDatuM nathI, zAka samAratAM AvaDatuM nathI. lohI nIkaLe ke nA nIkaLe ? praznakartA: nIkaLe ne. dAdAzrI : tAre nIkaLeluM koI dahADo ? praznakartA : ghaNIvAra nIkaLeluM. dAdAzrI : tyAra pachI, AvuM che badhuM ! gharano dhaNI 'hApha rAunDa' cAle ja nahIM, e to "ola rAunDa' joIe. kalama-kaDachI-barachI, taravuM-tAMtaravuM ne taskaravuM. A cha e cha kaLA AvaDavI joIe mANasane. praznakartA : gADImAM besIzuM ame, tyAre e mane kahe kahe karaze ke gADI kyAM AgaLa vALavI, kyAre breka mAravI evuM gADImAM mane kahyA ja karaze. eTale Toke gADImAM, Ama calAvo, Ama calAvo ! dAdAzrI : to emane hAthamAM ApI devuM. emane gADI soMpI devI.

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(13) dAdAI dRSTie cAlo, patio..... 239 240 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra ghaDIe ! anyAyamAM ApaNI vAIpha hoya toya ApaNe enA hisAbe ja cAlavuM. tyAM nyAya karavA jevuM nahIM ke A tArAmAM ja akkala nathI tethI AkAla jamavAnuM tyAM AgaLa che, tuM tArI kaMpanImAM ja tuM vakIlAta karuM chuM ! eTale prativAdInA vakIla thaI jAya. bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM. DAhyo mANasa ! kacakaca karato hoyane to ene kahIe, alyA, tuM calAva, bA ! praznakartA: tyAre e kaheze, mAro jIva nA cAle. dAdAzrI : kema ? tyAre kahIe, tane zuM thAya pAcho vAMdho ? tyAre tyAM tane zuM UMcI bAMdhI che ke tuM Toka Toka kare che, e to ene soMpI de. A to DrAivara hoya ne tyAre khabara paDe TokavA jauM to, A to gharanA mANasa eTale Toka Toka karuM chuM. praznakartA : DrAivara jato rahe. dAdAzrI : DrAivara calAvato hoyane to Toke te pahelAM prAivara AvaDI bole, "DonTa smIka ! bolazo nahIM" kaheze. A to gharanA mANasa. gharakI muragI dALa barAbara karI nAkhI lokoe. tArI jIvana dorI to enA hAthamAM soMpI che ane pAchuM enI joDe ja laDe che. have pelAnuM magaja jatuM rahe to zuM thaI jAya ? eTale amuka jaNa joDe vaDhavADa nA thAya e loka jANatuM nathI. are, vALaMda joDe laDavADa kare ane teya hajAmata karato hoya tyAre. alyA, hamaNe astro vAgI jaze ! ghara jhaghaDe. le patnIno pakSa, je zaraNe ApaNI tene rakSa! praznakartA : patnIno pakSa nA laIe to gharamAM jhaghaDo thAya ne? dAdAzrI : patnIno ja pakSa levAno. patnIno lejone, kazo vAMdho nahIM. kAraNa ke patnIno pakSa laIe to ja rAte sUI rahevAyane nirAMte. nahIM to sUvAya zI rIte ? tyAM kAju-bAjI nA thavuM. praznakartA : pADozIno pakSa to levAya ja nahIMne ! dAdAzrI : nA, ApaNe haMmezAM vAdInA ja vakIla rahevuM, prativAdInA vakIla nA thavuM, ApaNe je gharanuM khaIe tenA ja.... ane sAmAnA gharanI vakIlAta karIe, khaIe A ghera. eTale sAmAne nyAya tolIe nahIM te evuM ghaNA pherA bane che evA akkalavALA ke pelAno nyAya tolavA jAya. mUA, e nyAya tolavAnuM hoya nahIM. e vahu kahe e pramANe hA kabUla eksepTeDa. pachI ApaNe vahune khAnagImAM kahevAnuM, AvuM tevuM karavuM nahIM. to bhAMjagaDa nahIM ApaNe. paNa tyAM AgaLa to vahunuM kaheluM ja sAcuM che, kahevuM. praznakartA: puruSano je aham che, e che to strI joDenuM athaDAmaNanuM kAraNa hoya che, eTale strI ane vAraMvAra kahe che ke tAro aham che A. tAro aham che. have A aham hato eTale to puruSa thayo. have athaDAmaNa nA thAya, enuM zuM nirAkaraNa ? dAdAzrI : mamatAne laIne athaDAmaNa thAya che. praznakartA H ahamUne laIne nahIM ? dAdAzrI : e mamatA ahamane laIne ja chene ! paNa e mamatA nA hoya to athaDAmaNa UDI jAya. praznakartA : A je mamatA che eTale athaDAmaNa thAya che. to have A mamatva, emAMthI bahAra nIkaLavuM kevI rIte ? dAdAzrI : nIkaLI ja gayA chene mamatAmAMthI ! che ja kyAM have mamatA ! tame zarIra ja potAnuM nahIM mAnatA tyAM ! mamatA to tame soMpI dIdhI dAdAne. praznakartA : barAbara che, paNa Ama khabara ke A mAruM nathI ema. chatAM athaDAmaNa rahI ne, aham ke mamatva game te kAraNe, dararojanA vyavahAramAM athaDAmaNa rahIne ?

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(13) dAdAI dRSTie cAlo, patio.... dAdAzrI : athaDAmaNa to e kahe ke tamAro A aham che, to ApaNeya jAtane kahevuM, ke caMdubhAI, A aham ja chene tamAro. ApaNe kaMI nA jANIe ? 241 praznakartA H hA, barAbara che. dAdAzrI : eya kahe ne ApaNeya kahevuM. ApaNe emanA pakSamAM besI javuM ane pelo tharDa pArTIne 'caMdubhAI'ne judo karI nAkhavo. praznakartA : eka janarala prazna che hasabanDa-vAIphamAM, ke dasa vakhata hasabanDa koI potAnuM Disijhana le, dasa vakhata karekTa hoya enuM, tyAre pelI strI kaMI vakhANe nahIM ke kaMI kahe nahIM. koI dasa kArya kare, e enA karekTa nIkaLe, to enI vAIphane kazo koI risponsa nA hoya. paNa koI agiyAramuM kArya enAthI bagaDe to pelI ekadama tarApa mAre ke tame DaphoLa cho, tame AvA cho, tame kema AvuM bagADyuM, kahe, AvuM AvuM thayA kare. dAdAzrI : emAM e thayA kare to ApaNe zuM karavAnuM ? ApaNane khabara paDene ke AvuM karyuM che, to ApaNeya mahIMthI potAnI jAtane kahevuM ke caMdubhAI tame AvuM zA hAru karyuM te koIkane kahevuM paDe, evuM tame AvuM zuM karavA karo cho ? bairIno samabhAve nikAla to karavo ja paDe ne ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ApaNe jANyuMne, ke AvI che. evI nA hoya to kahevuM ke bhaI, evI nathI, e tame jevuM mAno cho evuM nathI. tyAre kahe, samajAvo. pachI kahIe, A rIte che to eya samajI jAya. ApaNe (zuddhAtmA) tharDa puruSa tarIke che. tharDa puruSane vagara kAmanA pharsTa puruSa (caMdubhAI) thavAnI kaMI jarUra ? ApaNe bacAva hoya nahIM ! praznakartA : nA, bacAva nathI A. dAdAzrI : adhUruM kApazo to pharI pharI nIkaLaze. kAcuM kApazo to pharI bAphavuM paDaze ane eka phero dALa kAcI utArI ane pharI caDhAvA mAMDI to vAra lAgaze. are, caDhavA do ne nirAMte pUrepUruM. nahIM to ThIMgaraI jAya dALa. 242 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kara patito samabhAve tikAla, kahe, tame tobala cho, kamAla ! praznakartA H tame to emane puruSone batADyu ke tamAre nobala thaIne kahevuM ke bhaI, A mArI bhUla che. pharI aDadhA kalAka pachI pUche toya pAchuM evuM kahevuM. e lokone kevo sarasa rasto batADyo ! amane bahenone paNa batAvone puruSArtha karIe evo ? amane tAMto ja nA rahe evo rasto batADone ! dAdAzrI : ApaNe che te pachI kahI devAnuM ke... sarasa che. tame to mahAna puruSa cho, ke badhuM A tame eksepTa karo cho, amArAthI eksepTa nA thAya, eTale thaI gayuM, dhovAI gayuM. ane tame to mahAna puruSa cho, tamane mAre cA pAvI joIe. cA-bA karI ApavI. enI mahAnatA dekhADavI joIe. praznakartA : dhaMdhAmAM, bahAra ke vepArI joDe gharAka joDe kaMI thayuM hoya, to AvuM karIne vALI le. paNa ahIMyAM gharamAM evuM nathI thatuM. phAIla ! dAdAzrI : gharamAM thAya ke ? cIkaNI phAIlane ! pelI dhaMdhAmAM moLI praznakartA : tyAM to lobha kharone, A gharAka jato raheze ! paisAno lobha, potAnA dhaMdhAnA mobhAno lobha. e badhuM kharuMne ! eTale tyAM peca apa karI nAkhe. dAdAzrI : e to ahIMyAMya lobha ja che ne ! aMdarakhAne ema samaje ke ApaNI kiMmata ja zI rahI ? A kiMmata karavA mAMDe. ahIM lobha ja che badho. praznakartA : dAdA, A bena kahe che ke to pachI have amAre puruSone kaMI paNa Takora karavAnI ke kazuM kahevAnuM nahIM. amAre evo puruSArtha karavAno ne ?

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244 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : kyAre cAlavA nA de ? praznakartA : eTale strInuM sAcuM hoya, toya ene jUThuM pADe, eksepTa nA kare ene dAdAzrI : ApaNuM cAlavA nA de to sAruM. jokhamadArI nahIMne koI jAtanI ! ane te 'vyavasthita'nAM pramANe kahe chene, e to vadhAre kaMI kahevAno che ? nA cAlavA de, emAM vyavasthita chene ! e kaMI ochuM gaNuM (13) dAdAI dRSTie cAlo, patio..... 243 dAdAzrI : kahejone ? enA sivAya nikAla zI rIte thAya ? praznakartA : bena ema kahe che ke puruSa to enI nobiliTI batAvI ane chUTI gayo, paNa emAM have strI AvI TakaTaka kare, kacakaca kare, to e keTalAM karma, doSa bAMdhe ? dAdAzrI : kazuM doSa bAMdhe nahIM. ene pharI pAchI A copaDI uthAmavI paDaze. je kesa cokhkho nA karyo hoya, pharI cokhkhuM karavuM paDe ne ! praznakartA : ene karavuM nathI chatAM enA svabhAvane lIdhe kare che strI, toya ene pAchuM uthAmavuM paDavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : uthAmavuM eTale e cokhkhuM to karavuM ja paDaze ne ? praznakartA : je strI leTa go nA kare, eNe pAchuM pharI A dhovuM paDaze ja game tyAre ? dAdAzrI : chUTako ja nahIM ne ! A to jAya che, nyAya rAjAneya choDe nahIM ne rANIneya choDe nahIM, nyAyAdhIzaneya choDe nahIM ne gunegAraneya choDe nahIM. praznakartA : hA, nyAyAdhIzaneya nA choDe. dAdAzrI : hA, koIne choDe nahIM. praznakartA : ApaNAthI dhaNIne TokaI javAya ke pachI ApaNe ene TokavAnuM rokI zakIzuM ? dAdAzrI : rokI zakAya to sAruM, paNa rokAya nahIM ne ! ApaNI bhAvanA hovI joIe ke rokAya eTaluM sAruM. nahIM to pachI tIra chUTI gayuM to pachI.... praznakartA: ghaNI vakhata strInuM sAcuM hoya ane puruSanuM khoTuM hoya chatAM puruSa kahe ke nA, mAruM ja sAcuM. ane ema mAne ke strIne buddhi to paganI pAnIe, ema karIne ene uDADI mUke, ene cAlavA ja nA de. enuM zuM ? praznakartA : paNa e samajaNa te vakhate hovI joIene ? dAdAzrI : nahIM hoya to Avaze, mAra khAIne Avaze. samajaNa to mAra khAIneya Avaze ja ne ! badhuM 'vyavasthita' che. praznakartA : dhaNI potAnuM dhAreluM kare, pachI e bagaDI jAya, UMdhuM thaI jAya, strInI sAcI salAha hoya paNa e nA le ane e potAnuM dhAryuM kare, pachI bagaDI jAya badhuM. to pachI AkhA gharamAM badhAne UMcA-nIcA karI nAkhe, gusso kare ne chokarAMo para cIDAya, bairI para cIDAya, mAre, bhAMgaphoDa kare, thALIo uchALe. zuM karavuM ema ? dAdAzrI : te ghaDIe ApaNe samajI javuM ke mUDa bagaDI gayo che, cA-pANI pAI devAM. praznakartA : bemAMthI eka ThaMDo nA thAya ane vALI na le, to ukela Ave ja nahIM AmAMthI, barAbara. dAdAzrI : ukela ja na Ave ! e to ukela Ave kharo paNa vera vadhArIne, e to mArA lAgamAM Avaze ne tyAre.... e to lAgamAM levAno, tenA karatAM ukela lAvavo sAro. lAgamAM nahIM levAno ! pratikramaNathI phAIla chUTI, nahIM to e Avaze thaI moTI ! praznakartA : dAdA, ApaNe je vakhate, be prakRti hoya, hasabanDa enDa

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(13) dAdAI dRSTie cAlo, patio... 245 246 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra vAIpha hoya to jene Toka Toka karavAnI Teva paDI gaI che, to e vakhate jeNe dAdAnuM jJAna lIdheluM che, to ene khabara che ke A khoTe raste gADI cAlI rahI che, khoTA pATA para, A vaLI ja javI joIe, paNa dAdA aMdara eTaluM badhuM AvaraNa gADha hoya che, e samaje che ke tuM A bhUla kare che, chatAM e kare ja che, e AvaraNa kevuM ane karma paNa kevAM ? to eno koI rokATa kharo, e vakhate insTanTa enI pAse koI evI cAvI kharI ke.... ? dAdAzrI : e "vyavasthita' phare nahIM. phoTo paDI gayelo che. phoTo avaLo thaI gayelo che. atyAre ApaNane jarUra ema lAge ke A phoTo pADavAnI jarUra nathI paNa, alyA paDI gayelAne, tethI evuM thaI jAya ! praznakartA : paNa e vakhate je imozanala thAya, e badhuM bagADI kADhe. dAdAnuM jJAna paNa badhuM khoravI kADhe, eTaluM pAMca-dasa miniTa mATe ke eka kalAka mATe ke ekalA aDadhA divasa mATe. to ene e kevA karma pachI bAMdhe ? dAdAzrI : tyAM badhuM 'vyavasthita' che, phoTo paDI gayelo che, pachI zuM ? ApaNI icchA viruddha. praznakartA : e aTakaNa kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : nA. pelA phoTA letI vakhate kALajI na hatI rAkhI te. atyAre to A jJAnane lIdhe kALajI che, bAkI atyAreya nAkALajI hoya. praznakartA H eTale pachI enAM pratikramaNa karIne dhoI kADhavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : basa, bIjuM kazuM nahIM. praznakartA : paNa tyAre dAdA jarA bahu duHkha lAge, ke ararara... keTaluM badhuM bagADI kADhyuM ! dAdAzrI : nA, nA, kazuM bagADI nathI kADhyuM. praznakartA tyAre ame karma bAMdhIe chIe ? e karatI vakhate loko karma bAMdhe che ? Aje A badhuM DiscArja thaI rahyuM che emAM ? dAdAzrI : nA, emAM to ene karma kazuM nA baMdhAya. e kliyaransa nA thayuM hoya to pharI kliyaransa karavuM paDe. kliyaransa to ApaNe karavuM ja paDaze ! praznakartA : A je phoTo pahelA paDI gayelo che. eno AdhAra laI ane bhaviSyanI jiMdagImAM paNa Akho divasa ema ja karyA kare, ke phoTo paDI gayo che eTale pAchI bIjI gALa dIdhe ja jAva, jhaghaDA kare ja jAva. dAdAzrI : nA, e to je kare tene kahI devAnuM ke bhaI, kema AvuM karyuM ? pratikramaNa karo have. pratikramaNa karo eTale ApaNe chUTA thaI gayA. have e pratikramaNa kare to chUTA thAya, nahIM to pharI ene phAIla ukelavI paDe. .....jagata bilakula kliyara che. ApaNane kliyara rahetA nahIM AvaDatuM ene zuM thAya ? jagata zuM kare che? praznakartA: sAmAnuM samAdhAna thayuM kevI rIte kahevAya ? sAmAnuM samAdhAna thAya, paNa temAM tenuM ahita hoya to ? dAdAzrI : e tamAre jovAnuM nahIM. sAmAnuM ahita hoya te to sAmAne jovAnuM che. tamAre sAmAnuM hitAhita jovuM paNa tame hita jonArAmAM, tamArAmAM zakti zI che? tame tamAruM ja hita joI zakatA nathI. te bIjAnuM hita zuM juo cho ? sahu sahunA gajA pramANe hita jue che, eTaluM hita jovuM joIe. paNa sAmAnA hitanI khAtara athaDAmaNa UbhI thAya evuM hovuM nA joIe. praznakartA: sAmAnuM samAdhAna karavAno ApaNe prayatna karIe, paNa temAM pariNAma juduM AvavAnuM evI ApaNane khabara hoya to enuM zuM karavuM? dAdAzrI : pariNAma game te Ave, ApaNe to 'sAmAnuM samAdhAna karavuM che eTaluM nakkI rAkhavuM. 'samabhAve nikAla karavAnuM nakkI karo, pachI nikAla thAya ke nA thAya te pahelethI jovAnuM nahIM. ane nikAla thaze !

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(13) dAdAI dRSTie cAlo, patio..... 247 248 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra khAI-pIne moja karo ne ! vaLagI rahenAraneya yujhalesa kahyA ane "cAlaze" eneya yujhalesa kahyA. tamane lAge che bhagavAna e beune kensala kare ? praznakartA : mane lAge che bhagavAna e beune ignora karatA haze. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa yujhalesa kAmanA ja nahIM A. "mAre tyAM to normAliTIvALA Avo. jyAre jarUra hoya tyAre calAvI le ane jarUra nA hoya tyAre enuM e kare." jevuM 'jyAM jyAM je je yogya che tyAM samajavuM te, tyAM tyAM te te Acare AtmArthI jana e !' evuM zrImad rAjacaMdra kahe che, evuM vyavahAramAM hovuM joIe. Aje nahIM to bIje dahADe thaze, trIje dahADe thaze. cIkaNuM hoya to be varSe, traNa varSe ke pAMca varSaya thaze. 'vAIpha'nA RNAnubaMdha bahu cIkaNA hoya, chokarAMonA cIkaNA hoya, mA-bApanA cIkaNA hoya tyAM jarAka vadhu samaya lAge. A badhA ApaNI joDe ne joDe ja hoya tyAM nikAla dhIme dhIme thAya. paNa ApaNe nakkI karyuM che ke jyAre tyAre "ApaNe samabhAve nikAla karavo che" eTale eka dahADo e nikAla thaI raheze, eno aMta Avaze. jyAM cIkaNA RNAnubaMdha hoya tyAM bahu jAgRti rAkhavI paDe. AvaDo amatho sApa hoya paNa cetatA ne cetatA rahevuM paDe. ane bephAma rahIe, ajAgrata rahIe to samAdhAna thAya nahIM. sAmI vyakti bolI jAya ne ApaNe paNa bolI jaIe, bolI javAnoya vAMdho nathI, paNa bolI javAnI pAchaLa ApaNe 'samabhAve nikAla karavo che evo nizcaya rahelo che, tethI Sa raheto nathI, bolI javuM e pudgalanuM che ane dveSa rahevo, enI pAchaLa potAno Teko rahe che. mATe ApaNe to 'samabhAve nikAla karavo che ema nakkI karI kAma karyo jAva, hisAba cUkate thaI ja jaze. ne Aje mAMganArane nA apAyuM to kAle apAze. hoLI para apAze, nahIM to divALI para apAze, paNa mAMganAro laI ja jaze. praznakartA: bIjuM eka meM joyuM ke A loko jyAM tyAM bAMdhachoDa bahu karI nAkhe. 'kompromAijha', dareka vAtamAM 'have cAlaze', A nahIM hoya to kaMI vAMdho nahIM, Ama karazuM. e ja AkhI vRtti AvI gaI. pahelA je insisTansa hatuM ke 'nahIM, Ama ja thavuM joIe. Ama ja karavAnuM che." ene badale dareka vAtamAM 'have cAlaze" e je AvI manovRtti AvI gaI bAMdhachoDanI, eya vRtti bahu ja kharAba che, evuM mAruM mAnavuM che. dAdAzrI : e to evuM chene, be vastu che. eka kompromAijha kare ne bIjo zuM kare ? praznakartA : vaLagI rahe ke nahIM Ama ja karavuM paDaze. dAdAzrI : hA, te bannene bhagavAne khoTA kahyA, ke yujhalesa phelo (nakAmA mANasa). zA mATe Ama karI rahyA cho ? ghera jaIne bairInI joDe

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250 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra ame lagna karyuM ne !" tyAre meM kahyuM, huM, te dahADe oLakhANa thaI. dasa varSa pahelAM tArI nahotI. pahelAM oLakhANa to hatI nahIM. bAvIsa varSano thayo tyAre to vahu joIne Ane have tuM kahuM chuM ke A mArI vahu !! te dasa varSamAM eTalI badhI ekAtmatA thaI gaI, ke ATaluM badhuM tuM raDe (14) mArI'nA AMTA ukelAya Ama ! mArI mArI' karI viMTyA AMTA, 'ta hoya mArI' karI baMdhata chUTA ! eka mANasane enI vAIpha marI gaI, dasa varSa pahelAM paiNyo to. ene pachI vAIpha marI gaI traNa nAnAM nAnAM chokarAM mUkIne eTale khUba raDato hato. alyA, zuM karavA tuM raDe che ? 'mArI vAIpha marI gaI !" alyA, A traNa chokarAM che te enAM mosALavALA kahe che, ame laI jaIzuM, tame tamAre zAMti rAkhone, tyAre kahe, 'chokarAM laI jAya, paNa mArI vAIpha vagara mane gamatuM nathI ne !' 'alyA, ATaluM badhuM zuM che te, tAre ne ene levAdevA ?" pachI ene kahyuM, 'ATaluM badhuM raDe che ? have kaMI pAchI AvavAnI che ?" "e pAchI nA Ave paNa mane to Akho dahADo sAMbhara sAMbhara kare che. enA sivAya bIjuM kaMI sAMbharatuM ja nathI." alyA sAMbhare, paNa e jo pAchI AvavAnI hoya to le huMya bIjA lokone bolAvI lAvuM, badhA joDe raDIe !' tyAre kahe, 'nA Ave pAchI.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'melane pULo ahIMthI.' tyAre kahe, 'pULo zI rIte mUkAya ?' 'alyA, kaI jAtanuM mANasa che tuM ? zuM AmAM bhUta pesI gayuM te ?" "lagna karyA meM, paiNyo ne" kahyuM, 'paiNyo eTale zuM thaI gayuM ? ApaNe nathI paiNyA kahIe.' tyAre kahe, 'ema to kaMI cAle ke e to ?" tyAre meM kahyuM 'jo, kevI rIte paiNyo te huM tane kahI dauM.' pachI meM ene kahyuM ke keTalA varSanI tAre A bAI joDe oLakhANa ? tyAre kahe, 'kema bAvIsa varSano huM paiNelo, nahIM ? mArI vAIpha e to. praznakartA : paNa vyavahAramAM to raDavuM paDe ne ? dAdAzrI : vyavahAranuM raDavAnuM juduM che. vyavahAranuM raDatuM hoya to huM kahuM ke thoDo DAhyo che. huM khabho thAbaDuM. khAlI ahIM pANI copaDI ane pachI moDhuM dhoI AvavAnuM. e to jANe ThIka che. e to vyavahAramAM sAruM kahevAya paNa eNe to e khUba raDe. dareka e raDe ja, kAraNa ke vastu ja evI che, du:khadAyI thaI paDe. te samajaNa nahIM eTale raDe ane raDavuM Ave. paiyAnA daza dA'DA pahelAM oLakhatAM nahatAM, gADImAM bhegI thaI'tI te dhakko mAryo'to, ane te pachI ANe pAsa karI e pachI 'vAIpha' thaI lyo ! konI choDI, kono chokaro ? zuM vAta ? nahIM levAdevA ? vAIpha marI jAya te raDe che pAchA ! zAthI vAIpha marI jAya eTale raDe ? e kyAM ApaNI sagI hatI ? mAnI sagAI hatI te vAta sAcI hatI, bhAIeya sagAI kahevAya, beneya sagAI kahevAya, bApeya sagAI kahevAya, paNa vAIphanI zI sagaI kahevAya ? pArakA gharanI choDI, te ghaDIe to Ama pharo, Ama pharo kahIe, pachI vaLI marajImAM Ave, to sahI karI Ape vaLI. seMkzana kare ene ane sekzana karIne lAvyo ghera. pachI pAcho meLa nA paDe to kahe, DAivorsa. DAivorsa le kharA tamArA gAmamAM koI ? praznakartA : lenArA letA haze. dAdAzrI : ema ? eTale koI saMbaMdha enI joDe dasa varSa pahelAM hato ja nahIM ane A dasa varSamAM evuM te zuM tane bhUta pesI gayuM te AvuM A 23 2Da karyA kare che ? tyAre e kahe, e mane khabara nathI, paNa mane bhUta pesI gayuM che e vAta sAcI, tyAre meM kahyuM, tane bhUta zI rIte pesI gayuM ?

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(14) "mArI'nA AMTA ukelAya Ama ! 251 252 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kharekhara juo to eka mAnA peTe janme che eTale sagAI ene sAcI lAge che, ke AnA AdhAre kaMIka sAruM che. paNa te to pachI e ja mA marI jAya che, to joDe marato nathI. e to bALIne ghera pAcho AvIne nirAMte jame che ! mATe Aya poluM che ! chatAM Ama bhAIo ne beno hoya te to ApaNe jANIe ke mAnA peTe janmyA che mATe mArA che. eTale mamatA rahe. paNa strI joDe zI rIte mamatA rahe che ? strI to ApaNI joDe janmI nathI. aDhAra varSa, vIsa varSa sudhI ene oLakhatA na hatA. te kyAMthI mamatA pesI gaI ? paNa A sagAI zI rIte sAcI pesI gaI ? to paiNyo tyArathI tArI ? ne tethI raDavuM Ave che, mUA ! paiNatI vakhate corImAM bese ? corImAM bese eTale Ama jue. hA, A mArI vAIpha, eTale pahelo AMTo mAre. 'mArI vAIpha, mArI vAIpha, mArI vAIpha' paiNavA beTho tyAMthI ja AMTA mAra mAra kare te atyAra sudhI AMTA mAra mAra kare te kaMI keTalAya AMTA vAgI gayA hoya. have zI rIte e AMTA ukale ? mamatAnAM AMTA vAgyA ! A zuM kaheze ke "A mArI vahu, A mArI vahu ne vahu kaheze ke A mArA dhaNI, A mArA dhaNI AvyA.' e "mArI vAIpha'nuM bhUta pesI gayuM. e bhUteya bahu joradAra nahotuM. eka AMTo mAryo, mArI vAIpha eTale eno eka AMTo vAgyo, e bhUta thaI gayuM. e AMTo kholazo nahIM tyAM sudhI tene coMTeluM raheze, bhUtanI peTha. pachI e bhUta samajyo nahIM eTale pachI bIjo AMTo mAryo, trIjo.... "mArI vAIpha', 'mArI vAIpha', 'mArI vAIpha' keTalA vakhata vicAra Avyo dasa varasamAM ? praznakartA : kAyama ja. dAdAzrI : "mArI vAIpha, mArI vAIpha', te rAteya "mArI vAIpha" mAnene ? praznakartA H hA. dAdAzrI : e badhA AMTA vAgyA. bolo have, A mAnasika AMTA, sAyakolojikala iphekTa kema tUTe te ? te mane kahe, 'paNa sAyakolojikala iphekTa kharIne, te raDavuM to Avene ?" zuM thAya A mamatAnA AMTAnuM ? AMTA mArelA, pacAsa lAkha ke eka karoDa jeTalA AMTA mAryA tyAre e kahe che ke "have to A bhUla karI, have eno upAya zuM karuM ?" eTale A to 'mArI mAnI ke bhUta vaLagyuM ane e tane raDAve che. ene choDI nAkhane ahIMthI, to bhAMjagaDa maTe ! have ekuMya AMTo 'nahoya mArI' evuM bolyo nathI. eTale bhUta zI rIte chUTe have ? praznakartA : nA chUTe. dAdAzrI : raDAva raDAva kare. e jema jema raDe ne, tema tema chUTatuM jAya. e bhUta jAya tyAre e raDavAnuM enuM baMdha thAya. eTale bhUlAya ene. nahIM to tyAM sudhI bhUlAya nahIM. pachI meM ene kahyuM ke have 'na hoya mArI, na hoya mArI' evA ajapA jApa bola ! 'A strI na hoya mArI, na hoya mArI' eTale AMTA ukalI jaze. pacAsa hajAra 'mArI mArI' karIne AMTA mAryA hoya te "na hoya mArI'nA pacAsa hajAra AMTA mAre to chUTuM thaI gayuM ! A zuM bhUta che vagara kAmanuM ? te eNe zuM karyuM ? traNa dahADA sudhI 'na hoya mArI, na hoya mArI" bolyA ja karyuM ane raTaNa karyA kare. pachI pelo raDato baMdha thaI gayo ! A to badhA khAlI AMTA ja vIMTyA che ane teno A phajeto thayo che. eTale A badhuM kalpita che badhuM. tamane samajAI mArI vAta ? have Avo rasto saraLa koNa batAve ? have chokarAMnI sAcavaNI karane ! mUA, vahunuM 23 2Da karIne tuM marI jaIza, pAchAM chokarAM badhAM rakhaDI maraze. AnA karatAM roja zIro khaI ane majabUta thaI jA. loka kaheze, vahu marI gaI te zIro khAdho. tyAre kahe, hA, chokarAM tuM moTA karavAno che ? paiDuM bhAMgI jAya to AkhuM ghara bhAMgI nAkhavuM ? eka bhAMgI jAya e to. he... zIro khaIne majabUta thaIne chokarAne navaDAvIe-dhovaDAvIe ne skulamAM mokalIe. nahIM to vadhAre jora hoya to bIjI bIbI laI AvavAnI, paNa oramAyuM sAcave evI hoya to. nahIM to jokhama levuM nahIM evuM. oramAyAMnuM jokhama paheluM sAcavavuM.

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(14) 'mArI'nA AMTA ukelAya Ama ! 253 254 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra hoya mArI' to asara thAya che, to vadhu TAIma bolo to keTalI asara thaI jAya ! amAro eka bhatrIjo hato te pharI paiNavAnuM kaheto hato, meM kahyuM, alyA, jo AgaLanI chokarIone mArI nA nAkhe to paiNaje, eTale potAnI chokarIo tarIke uchere evI hoya to paiNaje, nahIM to paiNIza nahIM ! toya e to paiNyo. bAkI nIkaLyuM sAruM enuM, paNa nA nIkaLyuM hoya to zuM thAya ? AvaDI amathI choDIo nAsI jAyane bicArI, koNa sAcavI rAkhe choDIone ? chokarA bhAgI jAya teno vAMdho nahIM paNa chokarIo bhAgI jAya to muzkelI ! dAdA pAse badhI davA che, badhA roganI davA che. 'tahoya mArI' kahevAtI muzkelI, kyAM sudhI jIvIza jIMdagI Ama vahughelI ? A to ApaNe mamatA karI to baMdhAyuM. ApaNI vastu koI che nahIM. deha paNa ApaNo nathI. jo ApaNo hoya to ApaNI joDe, yArI Ape ApaNane. jatI vakhate juone, keTalI upAdhi karIne deha jAya che ane ApaNe ghara khAlI karI devuM paDe che. praznakartA : ApaNe A badhI phAIlano bahu nikAla karI nAkhIe 'na hoya mArI, na hoya mArI' karIne, to premabhAvanuM zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : oho... premabhAva 'na hoya mArI' kahe to nA UDI jAya, Asakti UDI jAya. A premabhAva hoya ja nahIM ne paNa. praznakartA : vAIpha ema uDADavA nA de. dAdAzrI : e vAIphane tuM ja uDADI melane ! sepha sAiDa ! A ATalo vagara kAmano AkhA gAmano baLApo laIne sUI gayo hoya ! pelAe baLApo laIne sUI gayA hoya tyAre A peTho kyAMthI ? paNa jo evuM te ekadama nA ukelI nAkhazo, haM, e to Aste Ate ukelavAnA. pelAne to enI vAIpha marI gaI hatI eTale eNe jhapATAbaMdha ukelI nAkhavAnA hatA. marI gaI pachI zuM karavAnuM ? enI pAchaLa raDa 2Da karyA karavAnuM ? te ene ukela lAvavA upAya batAvelo. tamAre to Aste Aste cAlavA devAnuM. tame eka ja dahADo bolo ke "A na praznakartA : paNa ame to AmAM ja rahevAnA hajI. A mAnyatA amArI pelI baMdhAI gayelIne, te haju mAnyAmAM nahIM Ave, tame vAta karo kharI paNa mAnyAmAM nahIM Ave. dAdAzrI : mAnyAmAMya Ave. loko kareya kharAM evuM. kAraNa ke ene rasto joIto hoya, te rasto dekhADyo meM, kUMcI dekhADI. e to kareya kharAM. 'na hoya mArI, na hoya mArI' karIne chUTI jAya e to. choDavuM hoya to choDI dejo AvI rIte. praznakartA : dAdA, e kahevuM saheluM che, mAnavuM agharuM che. dAdAzrI : zuM mAnavuM agharuM che ? praznakartA: 'na hoya mArI', ema. dAdAzrI : je jANe te bole ! jANe ene bolavAmAM zuM vAMdho che ? nahIM toya jhaghaDo thayAM pachI 'na hoya mArI', 'na hoya mArI' thaIne chUTAM paDI jAya. enI meLe ja 'na hoya mArI' thayA kare. to ApaNe jhaghaDo thayA vagara 'na hoya mArI' kahIe to ? agharuM kaMI che ja nahIM. agharuM to baI marI gaI pachI jyAre thAkIne e karavuM paDaze ke nahIM karavuM paDe ? A upAya to batAvyo, te e sukhI thaI gayo paNa e ! yAda Ave to 'na hoya mArI" eNe karyuM 'na hoya mArI, na hoya mArI'. praznakartA : anubhavanA AdhAre baMdhAyA hoya, e kevI rIte chUTe ? dAdAzrI : eya che te A je 'mArI'nI mAnyatA hatI e khoTI hatI. 'khoTI mAnyatA hatI', ema karIne chUTI jAya. "A mArI mAnyatA sAcI che" to vadhatI jAya. onlI roMga bilIpha (mAtra avaLI mAnyatA) che A badhI ! Akho dahADo kAma karatAM karatAM dhaNInuM pratikramaNa karyA karavAnuM.

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(14) 'mArI'nA AMTA ukelAya Ama ! 255 256 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra eka dahADAmAM cha mahinAnuM vera kapAI jAya ane arthe dahADo thAya to mAno ne traNa mahinA to kapAI jAya che. paraNyA pahelAM dhaNI joDe mamatA hatI ? nA. to mamatA kyArathI baMdhAI ? lagna vakhate corImAM sAmasAmI beThA eTale te nakkI karyuM ke A mArA dhaNI AvyA, jarA jADA che ne zAmaLA che. A pachI emaNeya nakkI karyuM ke A amArAM dhaNIyANI AvyAM." tyArathI 'mArA, mArA'nA je AMTA vAgyA te AMTA vAga vAga kare che. te paMdara varSanI philma che tene 'na hoya mArA, na hoya mArA" karIza tyAre e AMTA ukelAze ne mamatA tUTaze. A to lagna thayA tyArathI abhiprAyo UbhA thayA, 'priyuDisa' Ubho thayo ke "A AvA che, tevA che." te pahelAM kaMI hatuM ? have to ApaNe manamAM nakkI karavuM ke, "je che te A che.' ane ApaNe jAte pasaMda karIne lAvyA chIe. have kaMI dhaNI badalAya ? raMDApo-maMDApo jIvata krama, asaMga-tirlepa jJAte akrama ! amArA eka oNakhANavALA bhAInA vAIpha pAMca choDIo mUkIne marI gayAM tyAre tyAM AgaLa huM jovA gayelo. te pachI eka DaoNkTaranA manamAM ema thayuM ke A bhalo AdamI hamaNAM tUTI paDaze. tyAre e pote kahe, nA, evuM kazuM nathI. huM dAdAnA jJAnamAM rahyo ! opha thaI gayAM ke tarata 'vyavasthita' samajIne kamplITa kliyara ! pAMca nAnI nAnI choDIo mUkIne marI jAya tyAre zuM thAya ? hA, paNa zuM karavAnuM pachI ? mAthAM phoDe, to pharI kaMI AvavAnAM che ? ApaNuM 'vijJAna zuM kahe che ? 'vyavasthita thaI gayuM. e be khoTa ajJAnI khAya. eka to gayuM e gayuM ane pAchuM uparathI mAthAphoDe ne upAdhi. ApaNe to phakta gayuM eTaluM ja - lamaNe lakhelI khoTa gaI eTalI ja gaI. be nahIM ? lamaNe lakhelI khoTa e to choDe nahIM ne ! te e be khoTa nathI khAtAne ? ekuMya dahADo nahIM ? enuM nAma vijJAna kahevAya. praznakartA: ApaNe e vastu samajI zakIe chIe paNa e gharanAM mANaso e vastu samajI zakatAM nathI. emanA mATe kAyamane mATe A duHkhanI eka paraMparA rahI che. dAdAzrI : nA samajAya. kAraNa ke strI jAti bicArIne samajAya nahIM. bicArIne muzkelI paDe. eTale eka to janAra gayo ane gharanAM mANasone duHkha karato gayo. evuM eka jagyAe nahIM. AvuM mAre A pAMcamo kesa haze. tamAre eklAne tyAM banyuM evuM nathI. ane bairAMne bahu duHkha thAya. puruSo to mAMDavALeya kare ! teDI lAvajo ne ahIM AgaLa, jarA huM emane sukhiyA karI ApIza. badhuM duHkha bhUlI jaze badhuMya. dhaNI marI gayo to pachI ene mUkIne AvavAnuM, pachI ghera AvIne khAvAnuM nahIM ? praznakartA : eka dahADo to enA mAnamAM nA khAIe. dAdAzrI : enA mAnamAM nA khAIe, to zuM phAyado ? tyAM ene zuM khabara ke khAdhuM ke nA khAdhuM? A loka to nirAMte tyAM AgaLa biskiTa maMgAvIne khAya che, cA pIve che. smazAnamAM bALavA gayo hoya te ghaDIe. AvuM paheluM jagata che ! lata pariNAma maMDApo-raMDApo, tatva daSTie ta mare koI bApo ! paiNatI vakhate vicAra Avelo ke A paiNIe chIe kharA paNa bemAMthI eka jaNe rAMDavuM paDaze te kAle chatuM thayuM. kAle e banyuM, e joyuM ne ! ko'ka pUche ke dAdA ? tyAre kahe, rAMDelA ja che. kaMI mAMDelA ochA kahevAya ? hIrAbA beThA hatA tyAM sudhI mAMDelA. ane gayA eTale rAMDelA ! pachI vidhura kaheze paNa dezI bhASA e sAcI. rAMDavuM ne mAMDavuM. gAmaThI bhASA mokSe laI jAya. rAMDavA-mAMDavAnuM jJAna hoya to mokSe jAya, baLyo. e mane roja kahetAM'tAM ke mAre paheluM javAya evuM karo. huM akhaMDa saubhAgyavatI thaIne jauM. praznakartA : te evuM ja thayuM.

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(14) "mArI'nA AMTA ukelAya Ama ! 2pa7 258 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : eTale pachI ApaNAthI bolAya ja nahIMne ! praznakartA : emanI icchA pUrI thaI. dAdAzrI : badhI icchA pUrI. bIjI icchAo kazI rahI nahotI. AmAM raDavA jevI vAta ja kyAM che? A to chUTA paDyA che ahIMthI. huM amerikA jauM evI rIte A jAya che. "26mAM paiNyA'tA ne' 86mAM chUTAM paDyAM. juo saMyoga viyogI svabhAvano ne ? ane te laganamAM ja mane to mAMDavAmAM ja vicAra Avyo hato ke bemAMthI eka jaNa rAMDaze ! pote saMyogI to cAlyA gayA che. A to badhuM saMyoga saMbaMdha che ne ! koI dasa varSa rahe, koI vIsa varSa, koI pAMca miniTa rahe, koI dasa miniTa rahe. viyoga thayA ja kare enI meLe. evA saMyoga saMbaMdha keTale sudhI pahoMcyA che e khabara hatI. amArA 19me varSe phAdharanA saMyoga pUrA thaI gayA. 20me varSe bradharano saMyoga pUro thayo. pachI jhaverabAnI 48me varSe ane hIrAbAno che te 79mAM varSe 1986mAM saMyoga pUro thayo. ame vyavahAramAM Adarza. juone, smazAnamAM AvyA'tAne ! praznakartA : e joyuMne, badhAe joyuM. ghaNA pUche ke dAdA AvyA hatA? meM kahyuM, dAdA AvyA hatA, TheTha AvyA hatA. dAdAzrI : smazAnamAM na Ave to loka jANe ke pharI paiNavAnA che. ApaNe tyAM kahevata che. 30-40 varSanA hoyane pharI paiNavAno hoya to smazAnamAM jAya nahIM. evA loko samajI jAya ke smazAnamAM AvyA nathI. mATe pharI paiNaze. kharekhara ema ja che. smazAnamAM gayo eTale pharI paiNAya nahIM. A juone, ame ughADuM AvIne kahI dIdhuMne, bhaI, nathI paiNavAnA. bhagavAnane ghera koI kIMmata nathI. tame mAro ke jhUDo, bacAvo ke khUna karo, toya bhagavAnane ghera koI jAtanI kIMmata nathI, A badhI sAmAjika dRSTi che, bhrAMtadRSTithI che. A jagata rAITa dRSTithI AvuM kazuM che ja nahIM. jene rAITa dRSTi che te bhagavAna. rAITa dRSTivALA che, te Aya joyA kare, mAre teneya joyA kare ne paiNAve teneya joyA kare, raMDAve teneya joyA kare ne maMDAve teneya joyA kare. emane rAMDeluM ne mAMDeluM be sAmAjika vastu thaI paDe. A raMDApo ne A maMDApo kahevAya. maMDApA vakhate kUdAkUda ne nAcagAna karavAnA ane raMDApA vakhate raDavuM, e beu laukika. jyAre bhagavAnane ghera AnI koI jAtanI 'velyu nathI. ahIM nAgo phare ke mAre ke jhUDe, kazuMya nahIM. A badhI dRSTi che. jevI dRSTi ene hoya evuM dekhAze tyAM to kahe che ke 'dRSTi pherava' ! hIrAbA gayA tyArano vyavahAra, smazAteya "svastha dAdA' bharathAra ! loko ema jANe ke dAdAne bahu duHkha thayuM haze. dAdAno 'tAva' jue tyAre khabara paDe ke hIrAbI gayAM ke rahyAM che, e banne sthiti sarakhI ja hoya. rahyA toya sarakhI, gayA toya sarakhI, banne sthiti sarakhI hoya. haju peTamAM pANImAM hAlyuM nathI amane. paNa vyavahAramAM ame kahIe ke mahIM thAya to kharuM ja ne. vyavahAramAM kahIe. tamane badhAne nA kahIe, paNa bahAra to ame kahIe. e kaheze, 'hIrAbAnuM tamane thAya ne ?" meM kahyuM, 'hA, thAya to kharuMne ! nA thAya evuM hoya ?" nahIM to ene gaNatarI UMdhI lAge. kaheze, 'A kaI jAtanI gaNatarI ? AvuM zI rIte bane ?" tamane kahuM te sAcuM lAge ke asara ja nA hoya koI jAtanI. A varlDamAM koI evI cIja nathI ke amane asara kare, tamArA duHkha ja laI lIdhAM to mArI pAse du:kha ja kyAMthI hoya ? che du:kha koI jAtanuM tamane ? thayuM tyAre, dAdA maLyA tyArathI duHkha ja nathI ! amane jo duHkha thatuM hoya to ame jJAnI ja nA kahevAIe. amane koI rIte duHkha ja na thAya. amane duHkha aDe nahIM, koI dahADoya ! praznakartA : paNa svAbhAvika duHkha aDe nahIM ? dAdAzrI : game te rIte duHkha ja thAya nahIM, svAbhAvika ke asvAbhAvika, enuM nAma jJAnI. ame A zarIramAM ja rahetA nathI. zarIramAM rahe to du:kha thAya ne ?

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(14) 'mArI'nA AMTA ukelAya Ama ! 259 260 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : eTale amane duHkha ja nA hoya. ame raDIe toya duHkha nA hoya. A aMbAlAla raDe toya du:kha nA hoya, eTale A dazA bahu judI jAtanI dazA ! praznakartA : e hakIkta huM samajI zakuM chuM. dAdAzrI : amane ekalAne nahIM. A badhAne du:kha nA hoya. A badhAne kaheluM ke eka duHkha thAya to javAbadArI mArI che. duHkha kema thavuM joIe mANasane ? zuM guno karyo te mANasane thAya ? eTale emaneya ghera marI jAya to duHkha nA thAya, AmAM AghAta lAgavAnuM amane hoya nahIM. hIrAbA mArA vAIpha che, e ekkekTa mArI mAnyatA hoya. nizcayavyavahArathI, to mane raDavuM AvyA vagara rahe nahIMne ! paNa AmAM to huM hasya nahIM ane 2ya nahIM, lokoe TheTha sudhI hIrAbAnI pAchaLa mane joyo, sAme joyuM. kazuM dekhe nahIMne. eka kSaNavAra ame cUkIe nahIM. nahIM to amane DUsakuM bharAya. amane marelA para raDavuM nA Ave, jIvatA mANasane raDatA dekhIe tyAre manamAM DUsakuM bharAya. e joI zakAya nahIM amArAthI. eTale AmAM ame jIvatA mANasane raDatAM joIene, paNa kazuM asara nA thAya. evuM badhuM jJAnathI tALuM mArI daIe. TheTha sudhI, smazAnamAM beThA hoya nahIM. asara ja nahIM, no iphekTa. A to badhuM laukika che. emAM sAcA mANasa raDI UThe bicArAM ane te raDavuM AvavuM joIe mANasane. kAraNa ke e mamatAnuM pariNAma che. raDavuM nA Ave to mahIM gabharAmaNa thaI jAya. e paramANu nIkaLI javA joIe. eTale mArI AMkhamAMthIya pANI nIkaLe. kAraNa ke amAruM hArTa kUNuM hoya. te kone pANI nA nIkaLe ? jenuM hArTa majabUta thayeluM hoya ne buddhi para laI gayo hoya tyAre. amAruM hArTa to bahu kUNuM hoya, bALaka raDe evuM 23. paNa A jJAna hAjara rahene. jJAnane hAjara rAkhavuM paDe amAre. eka sekanDano nAnAmAM nAno bhAga jo khamyA hota to tarata pANI nIkaLI jAya. jenI AMkhamAM bahu pANI AvatuM hoya tenAthI ame cheTA besIe. ane tyAM hAsya amAre baMdha karavuM paDe. jagata vyavahAra che A to. ane kAcI buddhivALo to kaheze ke juone hRdaya patharA jevuM te hase che haju to. evuM kahe, TIkA karavAnI maLe. pachI amArA mahAtmAonI hAjarImAM ame hasIe. bIjAnI hAjarImAM nA thAya evuM. have raDavuM eTale zuM karavAnuM ke upayoga choDI devAno eTale lokone jue eTale ApaNane raDavuM Ave haDahaDATa. upayoga to niraMtara hoya. A hIrAbA vakhate to upayoga hato ! eka sekanDa paNa kaMI pANI hAlyuM nathI. jevo hato tevo. hIrAbAnI icchA nathI ke tame raDajo. A to bole nA. manamAM kaheze ke patharA jevA che eTale raDavuM paDe, paNa mane evuM koI patharA jevo kahe nahIM. ane hIrAbA 77 varSanAM hatAM. te have paiDuM pAna thayuM hatuM. eTale meM to badhAne kahyuM ke Aja to mAre tyAM choDI hota to huM vAjAM vagADAvAta !!! ke AvA bhAMgalA-tUTalA dehamAMthI AtmA sArI rIte nIkaLyo. toya ApaNA loko ene kANamokANa jevuM banAvI de. praznakartA : dIkaro marI jAya ne to paiDo vaheMco. janme tyAre to vaheMce paNa marI jAya tyAre vaheMco. e vAta te dahADe kADhelI. ane Aja A vAta nIkaLI ke benDavAjAM vagAData. dAdAzrI : meM eka-be jaNane tarata kahyuM hatuM, ke benDa hota to Aja benDa vagAData. hIrAbAne pUchyuM hota ApaNe ke ame tamArA pachI zoka rAkhIe ? tyAre kaheta ke nA, zAMtithI rahejo. A to lokone dekhADavA mATe kare che loka. ApaNe jIvatA ja chIene. maravAnA nahotA ? paNa Aja to have khabara paDIne ? pahelAM khabara nahotIne ? A jAta ema jANe ke marI gayA.

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(14) "mArI'nA AMTA ukelAya Ama ! 261 jevI dRSTi chene, evuM dekhe. je potAne marI gayo ema jANato hoya e bIjAne marI gayA ja jANe. duniyAnI dRSTie samajadAra hoya, e viSAda rahevA de ane duniyAnI dRSTie samajadAra nA hoya e viSAda kADhI nAkhe. A be dRSTio (15) paramAtma premanI pichANa koI paNa vastu duniyAmAM bane ke tarata "A zuM che ?" evuM joDe bIjuM amAruM bane. duniyAmAM bane e to vyavahAranuM banyuM paNa nizcayanuM amAre banI jAya ke "kharekhara Ama che" e enI meLe ja banI jAya, svAbhAvika rIte ja ! sAco prema zodhyo tA kyAMya jaDe, jyAM ne tyAM Asakti, tethI laDe dAdAzrI : A saMsAramAM jo koI kaheze, 'A strIno prema e prema nahoya ?" tyAre huM samajAvuM ke je prema vadhe-ghaTe e sAco prema nahoya. tame hIrAnA kApa lAvI Apo te dahADe bahu prema vadhI jAya, e pachI kApa nA lAvo to prema ghaTI jAya, enuM nAma prema nA kahevAya. praznakartA sAco prema vadhaghaTa nA hoya to tenuM svarUpa kevuM hoya ? dAdAzrI : e vadhaghaTa nA thAya. jyAre juo tyAre prema evo ne evo ja dekhAya. A to tamAruM kAma karI Ape tyAM sudhI eno tamArI joDe prema rahe ane kAma nA karI Ape to prema tUTI jAya, ene prema kahevAya ja kema? eTale jyAM svArtha nA hoya tyAM AgaLa zuddha prema hoya. svArtha kyAre nA hoya ? mArI tArI nA hoya tyAre svArtha nA hoya. "jJAna" hoya tyAre mArI tArI nA hoya. 'jJAna' vagara to mArI tArI kharI ja ne ? prema, mAre toya na ghaTe kadI, sAco te, hAratore na vadhe kadI ! praznakartA: mANasa prema vagara jIvI zake kharo ? dAdAzrI : jenI joDe prema karyo eNe lIdho DAyavorsa to pachI zI rIte jIve e ? kema bolyA nahIM ? tamAre bolavuM joIe ne ?

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa 263 264 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA: sAco prema hoya to jIvI zake. jo moha thato na hoya to jIvI zake. dAdAzrI : kharuM kahyuM A. ApaNe prema karIe tyAre e DAyavorsa le. to baLyo e prema ! ene prema kahevAya kema karIne ? prema kyAreya nA tUTe evo hovo joIe, game te thAya toya prema nA tUTe. eTale sAco prema hoya to jIvI zake. praznakartA : phakta moha hoya to na jIvI zake. dAdAzrI : mohavALo prema to nakAmone badho. tyAre AvA premamAM nA phasAzo. vyAkhyAvALo prema hovo joIe. prema vagara mANasa jIvI zake nahIM. e vAta sAcI che, paNa premanI Dephinezana sahita hovo joIe. caDheutara nA thAya enuM nAma prema. eTale vadhaghaTa thAya chene koI jagyAe te tapAsa karavI. amAro prema vadhe nahIM, ghaTe nahIM, kema ke temAM Asakti nathI, enuM nAma prema kahevAya. evo bhagavAnano prema hato. evA premathI jIvAya. evA premathI 'khAdhA" vagara rahevAya. eTale premanI vyAkhyA tamane khabara paDI ? evo prema khoLo. have Avo prema na khoLazo ke kAle savAre e 'DAyavorsa' laI le. AmanA zAM ThekANAM ? praznakartA : prema ane moha, emAM mohamAM nyocchAvara thavAmAM badalAnI AzA che ane ahIM premamAM badalAnI AzA nathI. to premamAM nyocchAvara thAya to pUrNapadane prApta kare ? dAdAzrI : A duniyAmAM koI paNa mANasa satya premanI zarUAta kare te bhagavAna thAya. satya prema nirbheLa hoya. e satya premamAM viSaya nA hoya, lobha nA hoya, mAna nA hoya, evo nirbheLa prema e bhagavAna banAve, saMpUrNa banAve. rastA to badhA sahelA che paNa evuM thavuM muzkela chene ? e to dhaNI jue ke A baInI pAse ATalI badhI sADIo che ane chatAM levA jAya che, mATe e moha che. sADI nA hoya ne letA hoya to ThIka che. eTale A badhA moha ja chene ! moha eTale ughADA dagA phaTakA. moha eTale haMDreDa parasenTa dagA nIkaLelA. praznakartA : e vyaktine sAco prema che ke A eno moha che evuM potAne khabara kaI rIte paDe ? dAdAzrI : e to TaiDakAvIe tyAre enI meLe khabara paDe. eka dahADo TaiDakAvIe ane e cIDAI jAya eTale jANIe ke A yujhalesa che. pachI dazA zuM thAya ? atyAre to naryA bhayaMkara svArtho ! svArthanA mATe hau koI prema dekhADe. praznakartA: sAco prema hoya tyAM kevuM hoya, khakhaDAve toya ? dAdAzrI : e khakhaDAve toya zAMta rahIne pote ene nukasAna nA thAya evuM kare. sAco prema hoya tyAM gaLI jAya. have sAva badamAza hoya ne to eya tyAM gaLI jAya. praznakartA : to have e khabara kevI rIte paDe ke A sAco premI che ke A badamAza che ? dAdAzrI : pachI enA mATe, e badamAzane oLakhavA mATe bIjuM hathiyAra khoLavuM paDe pAchuM. ApaNe samajI jaIe ke A naphaphaTa che. paNa banatA sudhI ATalAthI, huM A je auSadha kahuM chuMne eTalAthI badhuM AvI jAya che. khakhaDAvIe eTale ene mahIM pahoMce tarata. te 'eTeka karyA vagara rahe nahIM. ane jyAM eTeka hoya tyAM AgaLa prema ja nA hoya ne ! premamAM 'eTeka" nA hoya. zabdanI jarA le-mela hoya paNa 'eTeka" nA hoya. praznakartA : be jaNA premI hoya ne kaMI gharano sAtha nA maLe ane ApaghAta kare. AvuM ghaNI vakhata bane che to e je prema che ene kayo prema gaNAya ? dAdAzrI : rakhaDela prema ! ene prema ja kema kahevAya ? imozanala thAya ane pATA AgaLa sUI jAya ane kaheze, 'AvatA bhavamAM eTalA ja joDe hoIzuM" to te evI AzA koIe karavI nahIM. e enA karmanA hisAbe gati kare. e pharI bhegA ja nA thAya !

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa 265 266 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : bhegA thavAnI icchA hoya to paNa bhegA thAya ja nahIM ? dAdAzrI : icchA rAkhe kaMI dahADo vaLe ? Avato bhava to karmanuM phaLa che ne ? A to imozanalapaNuM che. pati-patnI tahIM, "kampaliyata, to saMsAra saMgrAme "cempiyata' ! A to badhI 'roMga bilipho' che. 'huM caMdubhAI chuM" e roMga bilipha che. pachI ghera jaIe tyAre ApaNe kahIe 'A koNa che ?" tyAre e kahe che, "nA oLakhyA ? e baIno huM dhaNI thauM." ohohoho..... ! moTA dhaNI AvyA ! jANe dhaNIno dhaNI ja nA hoya evI vAta kare che ne ? dhaNIno dhaNI hoya nahIM ? to pachI upalA dhaNInI vaLI dhaNiyANI thaI ne ApaNA dhaNiyANI A thayA, A zuM dhAMdhalamAM paDIe ? dhaNI ja zuM karavA thaIe ? amArA 'kameniyana che' kahIe pachI zuM vAMdho ? praznakartA : dAdAe bahu "moDarna' bhASA vAparI. dAdAzrI : tyAre zuM ? Tasala ochI thaI jAya ! hA, eka rUmamAM kameniyana' be rahetA hoya, te pelo eka jaNa cA banAve ne bIjo pIve tyAre bIjo ene mATe enuM kAma karI Ape. ema karIne 'karmeniyana' cAlu svabhAva !" AvuM e bolatA hatA tyAM e kAkA kharekhara raDI paDyA ! alyA, zuM A cakkaro ! sATha varSa haju vahunuM raDavuM Ave che ! A to kaI jAtanA cakkaro ! A loka to tyAM sinemAmAM hau raDe che ne ! emAM kaMI marI gayuM hoya to jonAra hau raDI UThe. praznakartA : raDe che eTale ema ke ene parama prema che ? dAdAzrI : zAno prema, baLyo? raDavuM Ave eTale prema vadhI gayo? vaLI eno phAyado zo ? 'losa" ne 'prophiTa' AmAM zuM ? praznakartA : premamAM 'losa-prophiTa' kyAMthI hoya ? dAdAzrI : are, prema to hoto ja nathI. varlDamAM prema hoto haze? A to badhI Asakti che. prema to koI mANasane nathI Avato. praznakartA : to e Asakti chUTatI kema nathI ? dAdAzrI : e to nA chUTe. "mArI, mArI' karIne karyuM ne te have nahoya mArI, nahoya mArI' enA japa karIe eTale baMdha thaI jAya. e to je je AMTA vAgelA hoya te te choDavA ja paDe che ne ! eTale A to khAlI Asakti che. cetana jevuM vastu ja nathI. A to badhAM cAvI ApelAM pUtaLAM che. juone, amane A chIMka Ave ja che ne ! A mazInarI che. emAM sTIma (varALa) vadhI paDe tyAre phaDaphaDa choDe che ne ! tema ApaNe mahIM sTIma vadhI paDe tyAre chIMka Ave. mazInarI hoya ke pharsTaklAsa rUpALuM enjina hoya to ema kahevAya ke tuM mane bahu game che, tArI vagara mane nahIM phAve ! tyAre A loko strI joDe prema kare che ! alyA, Aya mazInarI ja che ! mazInarI joDe prema thato haze ? nahIM to vaLI prema karanAro mANasa te chIMka khAto hoya to ApaNane zarama nA lAge ke A chIMka khAya che. paNa e mazInarI che ! A mazInarIoya chIMka khAya che te meM joyeluM che. A to kevuM che ke jyAM prema karavAno che tyAM prema nathI karato ane jyAM nathI karavA jevo tyAM prema kare che. rahe. praznakartA: 'kampaniyana'mAM Asakti hoya che ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : emAM Asakti hoya paNa e Asakti agni jevI nahIM. A to zabdo ja evA gADha AsaktivALA che. dhaNIpaNuM ane dhaNiyANI' e zabdomAM ja eTalI gADha Asakti che ne 'karmeniyana' kahe to Asakti ochI thaI jAya. eka mANasane emanA vAIpha 20 varSa para marI gayA hatA. te eka jaNa mane kahe ke, 'A kAkAne raDAvuM ?" meM kahyuM, 'zI rIte raDAvazo ? ATalI uMmare to nA raDe.' tyAre e kahe che, "juo, e kevA sensiTIva che." pachI pelA bolyA, 'zuM kAkA, kAkInI vAta thAya nahIM ! zuM emano

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa 267 268 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra dhaNI ane bairInA premamAM dhaNI jo kadI kamAI nA lAve to premanI khabara paDI jAya. bIbI zuM kahe ? kyA cUlemeM meM tumhArA pAMva rakhuM? dhaNI kamAto nA hoya to bIbI AvuM nA bole ? te ghaDIe eno prema kyAM gayo ? prema hoto haze A jagatamAM ? A to AsaktivALo che. jo A khAvApIvAnuM badhuMya hoya to e prema (!) dekhAya ane dhaNIya jo kyAMka bahAra lapaTAyelo hoya to e kaheze ke, 'tame AvuM karazo to huM cAlI jaIza." te vahu uparathI dhaNIne TeDakAve. te pelo bicAro gunegAra che eTale narama thaI jAya ne AmAM zuM prema karavA jevo che te ? A to jema tema karIne gADuM dhakelavAnuM che. khAvApIvAnuM bIbI karI Ape ane ApaNe paisA kamAvI lAvIe. ema jema tema karIne gADI Age cAlI miyAM-bIbIkI ! pati-patnImAM prema ke Asakti ? na dekhe doSa, premanI e zakti ! matabheda thAya che ke nahIM vahu joDe ? 'vAIpha' joDe matabheda ? praznakartA : e matabheda vagara to hasabaMDa-vAIpha kahevAya nahIM ne ! dAdAzrI : heM ema ? evuM che, evo kAyado haze ? copaDImAM evo kAyado lakhyo haze ke matabheda paDe to ja hasabaMDa enDa vAIpha kahevAya ? ocho-vadhato matabheda thAya kharo ke nahIM ? to Asaktio che badhI. premanuM svarUpa ja judI jAtanuM che. A tame mArI joDe vAta karI rahyA chone, A atyAre tame prema joI zako cho, tame mane TeDakAvo toya tamArI upara prema rAkhIza. tyAre tamane lAgaze ke ohoho ! prema svarUpa AvA hoya che. vAta sAMbhaLavAmAM phAyado kharo kazo A ? praznakartA : pUrepUro phAyado che. dAdAzrI : hA, cetI je. nahIM to mUrakha banI gayA jANavuM. ane prema hoto haze ? tamArAmAM che prema, te enAmAM hoya ? ApaNAmAM prema hoya to sAmAnAmAM hoya. ApaNAmAM prema nathI, ane sAmAno khoLIe ApaNo prema ke 'tamArAmAM prema nahIM dekhAto ?' mUA, prema khoLuM chuM ? e premI nahoya ! A to prema khoLe che ? cetI jA. atyAre prema hoto haze ? je jenA lAgamAM Ave tene uDADa, luMTabAjI kare che. praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : to pachI hasabaMDa enDa vAIpha ochuM thatuM jAya, nahIM ? praznakartA : prema vadhato jAya. dAdAzrI : prema vadhato jAya tema matabheda ochA thatA jAya nahIM ? praznakartA : jeTalA matabheda vadhatA jAya, jeTalA jhaghaDA vadhatA jAya. eTalo prema vadhato jAya. dAdAzrI : hA. e prema nathI vadhato, e Asakti vadhe che. prema to jagate joyo ja nathI. kyAreya paNa prema zabda joyo ja nathI jagate. A premamAM lagatI ta bhUle kSaNa; tabhAve sarva bhUlo banne jaNa ! gharanA joDe napho thayo kyAre kahevAya ke gharanAMne ApaNA upara prema Ave, ApaNA vagara game nahIM ne kyAre Ave, kyAre Ave evuM rahyA kare. loko paraNe che paNa prema nathI, A to mAtra viSaya Asakti che. prema hoya to game teTalo ekabIjAmAM virodhAbhAsa Ave chatAM prema nA jAya. jyAM prema nA hoya te Asakti kahevAya. Asakti eTale saMDAsa ! prema to pahelAM badho hato ke dhaNI paradeza gayo hoyane te pAcho nA Ave to AkhI jiMdagI enuM emAM ja citta rahe, bIjA koI sAMbhare ja nahIM Aje to be varasa dhaNI nA Ave to bIjo dhaNI kare ! Ane prema kema kahevAya ? A to saMDAsa che, jema saMDAsa badale che tema ! je galana che tene saMDAsa kahevAya. premamAM to arpaNatA hoya ! prema eTale laganI lAge che. ane te Akho dahADo yAda AvyA kare. zAdI be rUpe pariNAma pAme, koI vakhata AbAdImAM jAya, to koI

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa 269 27 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra vakhata barabAdImAM jAya. prema bahu UbharAya te pAcho besI jAya. je UbharAya che te Asakti che. mATe jyAM UbharAya tenAthI dUra rahevuM. laganI to AMtarika hovI joIe. bahAranuM khokhuM bagaDI jAya, kahovAI jAya toya prema eTalo ne eTalo ja rahe. A to hAtha dajhAyo hoya ne ApaNe kahIe ke "jarA dhovaDAvo' to dhaNI kaheze ke, "nA, mArAthI nathI jovAtuM'! alyA te dahADe to hAtha paMpALa paMpALa karato hato, ne Aje kema Ama ? A dhRNA kema cAle ? jyAM prema che tyAM dhRNA nathI ne jyAM dhRNA che tyAM prema nathI. saMsArI prema paNa evo hovo joIe ke je ekadama ocho nA thaI jAya ke ekadama vadhI nA jAya. normAliTImAM hovo joIe. jJAnIno prema to kyAre paNa vadhaghaTa nA thAya. e prema to judo ja hoya, ene paramAtmA prema kahevAya. prema badhe hovo joIe. AkhA gharamAM prema ja hovo joIe. ane jyAM prema che tyAM bhUla nA kADhe koI. premamAM bhUla nA dekhAya. A prema nathI, IgoIjhama che, huM dhaNI chuM evuM bhAna che. prema enuM nAma kahevAya ke bhUla nA lAge. premamAM game teTalI bhUla hoya to nabhAvI le. tamane samajAya che ? praznakartA : hA jI. dAdAzrI : eTale bhUlacUka thAya ke premanI khAtara javA devI. A chokarA para tane prema hoyane to bhUla nA dekhAya chokarAnI, bhUla haze kazo vAMdho nahIM. prema nabhAvI le badhuM, nabhAvI le ne ? bAkI A to Asakti badhI ! ghaDImAM vahu che te A gaLe hAtha vaLagADe ne coMTI paDe ane pachI ghaDImAM pAchA bolambola kare. teM AvuM karyuM tane te Ama karyuM. premamAM koI dahADo bhUla na hoya. premamAM bhUla dekhAya nahIM. A to prema ja kyAM che ? gharamAM saMtoSa nA joIe, bhaI ? tamane kema lAge che ? gharamAM saMtoSa joIe ke nA joIe ? praznakartA : joIe ja. dAdAzrI : gharamAM ADakhIlI karavAnI hoya ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : ApaNane bhUla nA dekhAya to ApaNe jANIe ke AnI joDe prema che ApaNane. kharekhara prema haze A lokone ? praznakartA : DAuTaphUla (zaMkAspada) ! dAdAzrI : eTale Ane prema kema kahevAya ? raNamAMthI dveSa ne vaLI raNa, "popaTamastI' che, tethI e Aga ! praznakartA : paNa ghaNI vakhata ApaNe dveSa nA karavo hoya toya dveSa thaI jAya che enuM zuM kAraNa ? dAdAzrI : konI joDe ? praznakartA: vakhate dhaNI joDe evuM bane to ? dAdAzrI : e vaiSa nathI kahevAto. haMmezAM je Asaktino prema che ne e riekzanarI che. eTale jo cIDAya tyAre A pAchA avaLA phare, avaLA pharyA eTale pAchA thoDoka vakhata cheTA rahyA ke pAcho prema caDhe. ane pAcho prema vAge eTale athaDAmaNa thAya ne eTale pachI pAcho prema vadhe. jyAre jyAre vadhAre paDato prema hoya tyAM Dakho thAya. te jyAM kaMI paNa Dakho cAlyA karato hoya tyAM, aMdarakhAne prema che A lokone. e prema hoya to ja Dakho thAya. pUrvabhavanA prema che to Dakho thAya. vadhAre paDato prema che. nahIM to Dakho thAya ja nahIMne ! A DakhAnuM svarUpa ja e che. ane loko zuM kahe che ? "athaDAmaNathI to amAro prema thAya che." tyAre vAta sAcI che paNa prema e Asakti ja che ane e Asakti athaDAmaNathI ja thayelI che. je gharamAM athaDAmaNa ochI thAya e gharamAM Asakti ochI che evuM mAnI levuM. samajAya evI vAta che ? praznakartA ane bahu Asakti hoya tyAM adekhAI paNa vadhAre hoya

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa dAdAzrI : e to sAmasAmI AsaktimAM ja badhI bhAMjagaDa UbhI thAya che. je gharamAM beu jaNa sAmasAmI bahu laDatA hoyane to ApaNe jANIe ke ahIM Asakti vadhAre che. eTaluM samajI javAnuM. eTale pachI ApaNe nAma zuM pADIe che ? 'vaDhe che' evuM nA kahIe. tamAcA mAre sAmasAmI, toya ene vaDhe che evuM nA kahIe. ame ene 'popaTamastI' kahIe. popaTa Ama cAMca mAre paNa chevaTe lohI nA kADhe. hA ! e popaTamastI tame nahIM joyelI, popaTa mastI ? 271 have AvI vAta (sAcI) sAMbhaLIe tyAre ApaNane ApaNI bhUlo upara ne ApaNI mUrkhAI upara hasavuM Ave. sAcI vAta sAMbhaLe tyAre mANasane vairAga Ave ke ApaNe AvI bhUlo karI ? are, bhUlo ja nahIM paNa mAre hau bahu khAdhA ! ta doSa dekhe, na caDAve moDhAM, ta UMhakAro, premathI jhIle loDhAM ! prema to jJAnI puruSa pAse hoya. bIje badhe to prema UtarI jAya ne pachI vaDhavADa thAya pAchI. vaDhavADa thAya ke nA thAya ? e prema nA kahevAya, e Asakti badhI. ene ApaNA jagatanA loko prema kahe che. UMdhuM ja bolavuM e dhaMdho ! premanuM pariNAma jhaghaDo nA thAya. premamAM doSa dekhAya ja nahIM. ane A to lokone keTalA doSa dekhAya ? 'tuM AvI ne tuM tevI.' alyA, prema kaheto hato ne ? kyAM gayo prema ? eTale nahoya prema. jagatamAM vaLI prema hoto haze ? premano eka vALa jagate nathI joyo. A to Asakti che. ane jyAM Asakti hoya tyAM AkSepo thayA vagara rahe ja nahIM. e Asaktino svabhAva che. Asakti thAya eTale AkSepo thayA ja kare ne ke, 'tame AvA cho ne tame tevA cho ? tame AvA ne tuM AvI' evuM nA bole, nahIM ? tamArA gAmamAM tyAM nA bole ke bole ? bole e Asaktine lIdhe. A chokarIo dhaNI pAsa kare che, Ama joI karIne pAsa kare che pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra pachI vaDhatI nahIM hoya ? vaDhe kharI ? to ene prema kahevAya ja nahIM ne ! prema to kAyamano ja hoya. jyAre jue tyAre e ja prema, evo ja dekhAya enuM nAma prema kahevAya ane tyAM AzvAsana levAya. A to ApaNane prema Avato hoya ane eka dahADo e risAIne beThI hoya. tyAre baLyo tAro prema ! nAkha gaTaramAM ahIMthI, moDhuM caDhAvIne pharatA hoya tevA premane zuM karavAno ? tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. 272 dAdAzrI : kyAreya paNa moDhuM nA bagADe evo prema hovo joIe. e prema amArI pAse maLe. dhaNI TaiDakAve toya prema vadhaghaTa nA thAya, evo prema joIe. hIrAnA kApa lAvI Ape te ghaDIe prema vadhI jAya teya Asakti. eTale A jagata AsaktithI cAlI rahyuM che. prema e to jJAnI puruSathI hoya te TheTha bhagavAna sudhI, e lokone premanuM lAisansa hoya. e premathI ja lokone sukhI karI de. e premathI ja bAMdhe pAchA, chUTAya nahIM te TheTha 'jJAnI puruSa'nI pAse, TheTha tIrthaMkara sudhI badhA premavALA. alaukika prema, jemAM laukika nAma nA hoya ! sAmAte sukha-duHkha vede 'seIma', homI de jAta e che sAco prema ! prema jevuM hatuM teya satayugamAM hatuM. satayugamAM sAruM hatuM. kaLiyugamAM A to badhA evA vicitra chene, Ama khoLIne sAro dhaNI laI Ave, rUpALo bam jevo ane pachI kaDavo nIkaLe te AkhI jiMdagI bagaDe bicArInI. eka ja dahADo jo khAvAnuM sAruM nA banAvyuM hoya to premavALo dhaNI hoya te kakaLATa karato haze ? paNa nA, A kakaLATa karI mUke, 'tArAmAM akkala nathI ne tuM Ama che ne tuM tema che' kaheze. roja sAruM bane tyAre InAma nathI Apato ane eka ja dahADo khAvAnuM bagaDe te dahADe AvI bane ! eTale prema jevuM nathI. prema ja nathI ne, svArtha che badho ! jyAM bahu prema Ave tyAM ja aNagamo thAya e mAnava svabhAva che. jenI joDe prema hoyane, mAMdA thaIe tyAre tenI joDe ja kaMTALo Ave. e

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa 273 274 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra game nahIM ApaNane. 'tame jAva ahIMthI, AvA beso', evuM kahevuM paDe che ane dhaNI joDe premanI AzA rAkhavI nahIM ane e ApaNI pAse premanI AzA rAkhe to e mUrakha che. A to ApaNe kAma pUratuM kAma ! hoTalavALAne tyAM ghara mAMDavA jaIe chIe ApaNe ? cA pIvA mATe jaIe to paisA ApIne pAchA ! evI rIte kAma pUratuM kAma karI levAnuM ApaNe. ane e strI joDe jo koI sArI rIte vyavahAra karelo hoya, toya huM kyAre kahuM DAhyo mANasa ene ? ke paMdara varSanI uMmarathI vyavahAra thayo che te eMsI varSe evo ne evo ja vyavahAra rahe, eTalo ja prema rahe, UtarI nA jAya to huM kahuM ke DAhyo che. A to pelAM gAtara DhIlAM dekhAya pachI cIDAyA kare. are, eka gUmaDuM thayuM hoya tyAre ? joDe pharavA teDI jAya ? sinemA jovA nA laI jAya joDe ? ahIM dajhAyuM hoya ke paruM nIkaLyuM hoya tyAre ? eTale A badhI jokhamadArI nathI samajavI ane prema karavo che. AvyA moTA pramavALA ! prema to enuM nAma kahevAya ke badhI rIte sAthe hoya. eno hAtha dajhAyo to ApaNo hAtha dAjhayA jeTaluM hoya, evuM hoya tyAre prema kahevAya. ene gUmaDuM thayuM hoya to ApaNane thayA barAbara hoya. ApaNane gUmaDuM thayuM hoya to ApaNe bahAra jaIe ke nA jaIe ? to vahune gUmaDuM thayuM hoya to joDe laI nA jaIe ? tyAre je premamAM potAnI jAta ja homI de, jAtane "sephasAIDa' rAkhe nahIM ne jAtane homI de e prema kharo. e to atyAre muzkela vAta che. praznakartA H A premane zuM kahevAya ? Ane ananya prema kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : Ane prema kahevAya saMsAramAM. A AsaktimAM nA gaNAya. ane enuM phaLeya bahu UMcuM maLe. paNa evuM potAnI jAtane homavI, e bane nahIM ne ! A to potAnI jAtane "sephasAIDa' rAkhIne kAma karyA kare che ne 'sephasAIDa' nA kare evI strIo keTalI ne evA puruSo keTalA ? A to sinemAmAM jatI vakhate AsaktinA kAnamAM ne tAnamAM ne AvatI vakhate 'akkala vagaranI che' kaheze. tyAre pelI kaheze, 'tamArAmAM kyAM vetA che ?" ema vAto karatAM karatAM ghera Ave. A akkala khoLe tyAre pelI vetA jotI hoya ! praznakartA : A to Ama A badhAne anubhava che. koI bole nahIM, paNa dareka jaNa jANe ke 'dAdA' kahe che e vAta sAcI che. dAdAzrI : hA, huM to jJAnathI joIne kahuM chuM. meM kaMI AvA anubhava nathI karyA. huM koI dahADo sinemAmAM laIne gayo ja nathI. mArI joDe hIrAbA AvatAMya nahotAM. e to "nA, huM tamArI joDe nahIM AvuM" kahetA. ane mane to 'eTa e TAIma' dekhAya. bolo, mAruM jJAna kevuM hAjara rahetuM haze ! A badhuM dekhAya mane. ane tamane dekhAtuM thAya evA amArA ArzIvAda hoya. eTalA hAru to roja vAtacIta karIe. tamane thoDuM ghaNuM dekhAtuM thayuM ke tame tamArI meLe pakaDI lo. jJAtIno prema sudhAre sarvate, apekSA viNa vizALa vizvane ! ane premathI sudhare. A badhuM sudhAravAnuM hoyane to premathI sudhare. A badhAne huM sudhAruM chuMne, e premathI sudhAruM chuM. A ame premathI ja kahIe eTale vastu bagaDe nahIM. ane saheja dveSathI kahIe ke e vastu bagaDI jAya. dUdhamAM dahIM paDyuM nA hoya ane amathI jarA havA lAgI gaI hoya e dUdhanuM dahIM thaI jAya. eTale premathI badhuM bolAya. je premavALA mANasa chene te badhuM bolI zake. eTale ame zuM kahevA mAMgIe chIe ? prema svarUpa thAva to A jagata tamAruM ja che. jyAM vera hoya tyAM veramAMthI dhIme dhIme prema svarUpa karI nAkho. verathI A jagata AvuM badhuM "rapha' dekhAya che. juone, prema svarUpa, koIne jarAya khoTuM lAgatuM nathI ne kevo AnaMda badhA kare che ! bAkI, prema jovA nahIM maLe A kALamAM. jene sAco prema kahevAmAM Ave che ne, e jovA nahIM maLe. are, eka mANasa mane kahe che, "ATalo badho mAro prema che toya te tarachoDa mAre che !" meM kahyuM, "nahoya e prema. premane tarachoDa koI mAre ja nahIM." praznakartA : Apa je premanI vAta karo cho, emAM premanI apekSAo

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa 275 276 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra hoya kharI ? dAdAzrI : apekSA ? premamAM apekSA nA hoya. dArU pIto hoya tenI pareya prema hoya ane dArU nA pIto hoya tenI pareya prema hoya. premamAM apekSA nA hoya. prema sApekSa nA hoya. mArAmAM prema haze ke nahIM hoya ? ke tame ekalA ja premavALA cho ? A tame tamAro prema saMkucita karelo che ke 'A vAIpha ne A chokarA'. jyAre mAro prema vistArapUrvaka che. praznakartA : prema eTalo saMkucita hoI zake ke eka ja pAtra pratye sImita ja rahe ? dAdAzrI : nA, prema eTale saMkucita hoya ja nahIM, enuM nAma prema. saMkucita thAya to to Asakti thaI jAya. saMkucita hoyane ke ATalA 'eriyA' (hada) pUratuM ja, to to Asakti kahevAya. te saMkucita kevuM ? cAra bhAIo hoya ane cAreyane traNa-traNa chokarAM hoya ane bhegAM rahetAM hoya, to tyAM sudhI badhA gharamAM "amAruM' bole. "amArA pyAlA phUTyA', badhA evuM bole. paNa cAra jyAre judA thAya tene bIje dahADe, Aja budhavArane dahADe chUTA thayA to guruvArane dahADe e juduM ja bole 'e tamAruM ne A amAruM'. A saMkucitatA AvI jAya. eTale AkhA gharamAM je vizALa hato prema, te have A juduM thayuM eTale saMkucita thaI gayuM. pachI AkhI poLa tarIke, yuvaka maMDaLa tarIke karavo hoya to pAcho eno prema bhego hoya. bAkI prema tyAM saMkucitatA nA hoya, vizALatA hoya. Asakti eTale vikta prema, lohacuMbaka lohate kheMce jema ! praznakartA : AmAM prema ane Asaktino bheda jarA samajAvo. dAdAzrI : je vikRta prema enuM nAma ja Asakti. A jagatamAM je prema ApaNe kahIe chIe e vikRta prema kahevAya che ane ene Asakti ja kahevAya. eTale AsaktimAM ja jagata badhuM paDeluM che. heya ! anAsakta, mahIM beThA che ne te anAsakta che. ane te akAmI che pAchA ane A badhA kAmanAvALA. Asakti tyAM kAmanA, loka kahe che ke, 'huM niSkAma thayo chuM" paNa AsaktimAM rahe che e niSkAma kahevAya nahIM. Asakti joDe kAmanA hoya ja. ghaNA loka kahe chene, 'huM niSkAma bhakti karuM chuM.' meM kahyuM, 'karaje ne, tuM ane tArI vahu beu karajo (!) paNa Asakti gaI nathI tyAM sudhI tuM zI rIte A niSkAma bhakti karIza ?" Asakti to eTale sudhI coMTe te sArA pyAlA-rakAbI hoyane, to temAMya coMTI jAya. alyA, ahIM kyAM jIvatuM che ? eka vepArIne tyAM huM gayo hato. te dahADAmAM pAMca vakhata lAkaDuM joI Ave tyAre ene saMtoSa thAya. heya ! evuM Ama suMvALuM rezama jevuM goLa !! ane Ama hAtha aDADa aDADa kare tyAre to ene saMtoSa thAya. to keTalI A lAkaDA upara Asakti che ! kaMI strI joDe ja Asakti thAya evuM kazuM nathI, vikRta prema jyAM coMTyo tyAM Asakti. vijJAna paramANuotuM. kheMcANa, mAte huM kheMcAyo, bhrAMti che jANa ! Asakti e konA jevI che ? A lohacuMbaka hoya ane A TAMkaNI ahIM paDI hoya ne lohacuMbaka Ama Ama karIe to TAMkaNI UMcInIcI thAya ke nA thAya ? thAya. lohacuMbaka najIka dharIe to TAMkaNI ene coMTI jAya e TAMkaNImAM Asakti kyAMthI AvI ? evI rIte A zarIramAM lohacuMbaka nAmano guNa che. kAraNa ke mahIM ilekTrika baoNDI che. eTale e baoNDInA AdhAre ilekTrisiTI badhI thayelI che. tethI zarIramAM lohacuMbaka nAmano guNa utpanna thAya che. ane potAnAM paramANu maLatA Ave tyAM AkarSaNa ne vikarSaNa UbhAM thAya ane bIjAnI joDe paramANuM nA maLatA Ave tyAM kazuM nahIM. e AkarSaNa ne vikarSaNane ApaNA loko rAga kahe che. kaheze, 'mAro deha kheMcAya che.' alyA, tArI icchA nathI to deha kema kheMcAya che ? mATe 'tuM koNa che tyAM AgaLa ?

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa ApaNe dehane kahIe 'tuM jaIza nahIM' toya UThIne heMDavA mAMDe. kAraNa ke paramANunuM baMdhAyeluM chene, te paramANunuM kheMcANa che A. maLatA paramANu Ave tyAM A deha kheMcAI jAya. nahIM to ApaNI icchA nA hoya toya deha kema karIne kheMcAya ? A deha kheMcAI jAya, ene A jagatanAM loko kahe, 'mane AnI para bahu rAga che' ApaNe pUchIe, 'alyA, tArI icchA kheMcavAnI che ? to e kaheze, 'nA, mArI icchA nathI, toya kheMcAI javAya che.' to pachI A rAga nathI A to AkarSaNano guNa che. paNa jJAna nA hoya tyAM sudhI AkarSaNa kahevAya nahIM. kAraNa ke enA manamAM to ema ja mAne ke meM ja A karyuM !' ane A 'jJAna' hoya to pote phakta jANe ke deha AkarSaNathI kheMcAyo ane A meM kaMI karyuM nathI. eTale A deha kheMcAya ne te deha kriyAzIla bane che. A badhuM paramANunuM ja AkarSaNa che. 277 A mana-vacana-kAyA Asakta svabhAvanA che. AtmA Asakta svabhAvano nathI ane A deha Asakta thAya che te lohacUMbaka ne TAMkaNInAM jevuM che. potAnI jAtanAM sarakhAM paramANu hoya to ja kheMcAya. kAraNa ke e game evuM lohacUMbaka hoya toya e tAMbAne nahIM kheMce. zene kheMce e ? hA, lokhaMDa ekalAne kheMce. pittaLa hoya to nA kheMce. eTale svajAtIyane kheMce. evuM AmAM je paramANu chene, ApaNA baoNDImAM te lohacuMbakavALA che. te svajAtIyane kheMce. sarakhA svabhAvavALA paramANu kheMcAya. gAMDI vahu joDe phAve ? kAraNa ke paramANu nathI pelImAM, paramANu maLatA nathI AvatA. eTale A chokarA para paNa Asakti ja che khAlI, paramANunI ! paramANu maLI AvyA ! traNa paramANu ApaNA ne traNa paramANu enA, ema paramANu maLI AvyA eTale Asakti thAya. mArA traNa ane tamArA cAra hoya to kazuM levAdevA nahIM. eTale vijJAna che A badhuM to. A to soya ane lohacUMbaka bene jevI Asakti che evI A Asakti che. emAM prema jevI vastu ja nathI. prema hoya ja nahIMne koI jagyAe. A to soya ane lohacuMbakanA kheMcANane laIne tamane ema lAge che ke mane prema che tethI mAruM kheMcAya che. paNa e prema jevI vastu ja nathI. 238 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra prema to jJAnI puruSano prema e prema kahevAya. praznakartA : to A lokone evI khabara nA paDe ke ApaNo prema che ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : prema to badhAne khabara paDe. doDha varSanA bALakaneya khabara paDe, enuM nAma prema kahevAya. Ane prema kahevAya ja kema ? A to bhrAMtino che. bhrAMti bhASAno zabda che. bhrAMti eTale zuM ? ghanacakkara. ghanacakkara bhASAno zabda che. te ghanacakkaramAM kAyama rahevuM ApaNe ? bhrAMti eTale cakkare caDhelo ghanacakkara. paNa Ane bhrAMti kahe to sAruM lAge ne ghanacakkara kahe to kaDavuM lAge ne kaheze ke 'ATaluM badhuM mAruM ghora apamAna karo cho ? tyAre bhrAMti ekaluM ja kahone ! bAkI badhuM ekanuM eka ja che. pelAe bApAnI vahu kahyuM to kaheze, 'ema kema kahyuM ?" praznakartA : paNa vyavahAramAM to je zobhatuM hoya te ja bolene ? dAdAzrI : hA, vAta kharI che ke zobhatuM hoya to ja bole. paNa A to jAgRta karavA mATe bUmo pADavI paDe. bhrAMti eTale jema che tema nahIM dekhAvuM ane UMdhuM ja dekhAvuM enuM nAma bhrAMti. A to jAgRta karavA mATe Ama bolavuM paDe ke hakIkatamAM Ama che. nahIM to mAra khAI khAI ne marI jazo. bAkI A prema jevI vastu ja nahoya. A to badhI Asakti che. Asakti eTale zuM ke jaDane jaDa kheMce che. temAM pote bhrAMtithI mAnI beThA che ke mane prema thayo che !' praznakartA : ane A premamAM bharatI paNa Ave che ne oTa paNa Ave che ne ? dAdAzrI : nA. bAkI A badhuM jagata bharatI-oTa svabhAvanuM ja che. ApaNe khAvAnuM mahIM nAkhIene, eTale saMDAsa javuM paDe. ahIM zvAsa levo paDe ne bharI AvyA, tyAM kreDiTa karI AvyA, to pachI oTa thayA kare. eTale A jagata ja bharatI-oTa svabhAvanuM che. premamAM bharatI-oTa nA hoya. TAMkaNI ne lohacuMbakanA kheMcANane jagata Azcarya samaje che ane kahe

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa 279 280 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra che ke A "mane prema che'. alyA, prema to hoto haze ? prema zabda kharo che. ene khoTo nA kahevAya. prema zabda huM jANato hato ke A duniyAmAM moTAmAM moTI cIja ja prema che. paNa pachI A ratana che te sAva khoTuM nIkaLyuM. vecavA gayo te cAra AnAya nA AvyA. vIsa lAkhamAM kharIdela ratananA cAra AnAya nA Ave tyAre thAya ke A zuM.... A to badhuM TAMkaNI ne lohacuMbaka jevAmAM vagara kAmanA phasAyA che. vastune samajatA nathI ane emAM potAnuM AtmApaNuM khoI nAkhyuM che. sAco prema bahAra khoLe paNa e jo kyAMya nA maLe to AtmA anubhava pragaTa thAya ane A premanI vyAkhyA khoLavA mATe to vIsa varSa meM kADhyAM che. eTale jagate badhuM ja joyuM hatuM, paNa prema joyo nahoto. ane loka samaje che ke premathI A jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. paNa premathI A jagata UbhuM rahyuM nathI, verathI UbhuM rahyuM che. premanuM phAunDezana ja nathI. A veranA phAunDezana para UbhuM rahyuM che, mATe vera choDo. samabhAve nikAla karavAnuM kAraNa ja e che, prema to karazone, to enI meLe ja vera thaIne UbhuM raheze. kAraNa ke e Asakti che. ane AsaktithI zuM thAya ? Asakti vera lAve. amArAmAM Asakti nA hoya. dila ThAraje ane urdhvagatimAM javuM hoya to jJAnI puruSa joDe dila ThAraje. ane e to tane mokSe laI jaze. beu jagyAe dilanI jarUra paDaze. to dilAvarI prApta thAya. eTale je premamAM krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha kazuMya nathI, strI nathI, puruSa nathI, je prema samAna ekasarakho rahe che, evo zuddha prema jue tyAre mANasanuM dila Thare. praznakartA : jyAM prema hoya che tyAM badhuM ogaLI jAya che. dAdAzrI : badhuM ogaLI jAya. A strIo che e strIpaNuMya bhUlI jAya che. 'huM strI chuM teya bhUlI jAya che, badhuM bhUlI jAya che. mane loko kahe che ke, tamAre tyAM badhA bhegA bese che. meM kahyuM, amAre tyAM vicAra ja nA Ave ne Avo. ApaNe tyAM premanuM kArakhAnuM ja ! badhuM jIvana ja premamaya ! zuddha prema e ja paramAtmA, kaSAyatI vidAya sadA tirAtmA ghATa vagarano prema eTale zuddha prema kahevAya. e zuddha prema caDhe-Utare nahIM evo hoya. praznakartA : puruSa-strIno bheda nA rAkho ane zuddha prema thAya evuM kaMI karo ! amArA premamAM DUbI to juo, paramAtmA UghADo ahIM juo ! eTale amAruM badhuM kAma ja hoya. hIrAbA 73 varSanAM toya mane kahe che, "tame vahelA Avajo." meM kahyuM, 'maneya tamArA vagara gamatuM nathI' ! e DrAmA karIe to keTalo emane AnaMda thaI jAya. 'vahelA Avajo, vahelA Avajo' kahe che. te emane bhAva che eTale e kahe che ne ? eTale ameya AvuM bolIe. bolavAnuM hitakArI hovuM joIe. bola bolelo jo sAmAne hitakArI nA thaI paDyo to ApaNe bola bolelo kAmano ja zuM che ? prema to bairI-chokarAM para ja rahe chene, atyAre to ? tyAMthI prema kyAre kADhI melazo ? meM to keTalAMya varSathI kADhI lIdho. praznakartA: mArAM patnI paNa ahIM AvyAM che. dAdAzrI : nA, gabharAzo nahIM. evuM prema kADhI levAnuM nathI kaheto. tamArA manamAM ema thAya ke A prema kADhI le to ? nA, huM saMsAra bhAMgavA dAdAzrI : hA, A duniyAmAM zuddha prema e ja paramAtmA che, e sivAya paramAtmA bIjo koI duniyAmAM thayoya nathI, thazeya nahIM. ane tyAM dila Thare ne tyAre dilAvarI kAma thAya. nahIM to dilAvarI kAma nA thAya. be prakAre dila TharavAnuM bane che. adhogatimAM javuM hoya to koI strI joDe

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(15) paramAtma premanI pichANa 281 nathI Avyo. saMsAra Adarza hovo joIe. mAruM jIvana paNa Adarza che ne ! haju mAre hIrAbA che ghera, vAIpha che, 73 varSanAM. paNa amAruM jIvana Adarza. tamAre to koIka dahADoya Dakho thaI jato haze ne ? matabheda thaI jAyane? huM premasvarUpa thaI gayelo chuM. e premamAM ja tame masta thaI jazo to jagata bhUlI ja jazo, jagata badhuM bhUlAtuM jaze. premamAM masta thAya eTale saMsAra tamAro bahu sarasa cAlaze pachI, Adarza cAlaze. (16) paraNyA eTale "promisa Tu pe' ame nathI jIvanamAM pastAyA, jIvatAM AvaDyuM te pAra karyA ! lagna karyA eTale 'promisa' karyuM ApaNe, lagnamAM, eTale promisa to badhuM pALavuM ja joIe ne? konTrAkTa karyo che A te ApaNe pALavo ja paDe ne ? huM hau pALuM ja chuM ne ! chUTako ja nahIM ne ! praznakartA : huM emanI sevA karuM chuM to e yogya kahevAya ne ? dAdAzrI : ghaNI yogyatA kahevAya. ane strI zuM du:khadAyI che ? alyA, tArI akkala duHkhadAyI, temAM strI kare che, tuM vAMko che temAM ? jIvana jIvatAM AvaDyuM hoya to pastAvo ja nA karavo paDe. mAre jiMdagImAM pastAvo ja nathI karavo paDyo. AkhI jiMdagI konTekTano dhaMdho ryo toya pastAvo nathI karyo. ane bhAgIdAra joDa cAlIsa varSathI joDe rahyA paNa matabheda nahIM paDyo, eka matabheda nahIM ! praznakartA : Apane koI vakhata paraNavA mATe pastAvo thayelo kharo, ke "nA paiNyA hota to sAruM ? dAdAzrI : nA, bA ! huM to pastAvo karavAnuM zIkhyo ja nathI koI dahADoya ! kArya ja pahelethI evuM karuM, pastAvo nA karavo paDe. kAraNa ke jagata pastAvo kare che, paisA ApIne pastAvo thAya ke "Ane meM kyAM ApyA ?" evuM nahIM. ApIne choDI devAnA. kAraNa ke mane samajaNa paDI

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(16) paraNyA eTale 'promisa Tu pe' 283 284 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra jAya ke e eno ahaMkAra ApaNane vecI gayo. ApaNe to e dastAveja mUkI devAnA aMdara. pAMcaso rUpiyA laI gayo, te vecI gayo eno ahaMkAra. laIne pachI pAchA ApI jAya, to enA dastAveja pAchA ApI devAnA. eTale badhuM phoDa paDI jAya, pachI mahIM pastAvo zAne mATe karavo paDe ? ApaNuM cItareluM DroIga (citarAmaNa) tyAre to bhegA thayA. to have zene mATe ApaNe pastAvo karIe ? DroIga have kaMI bhagavAne karI AvyuM'tuM ? A to ApaNuM ja DroIga. rAjIkhuzIthI sodo karelo che ne have pharI javAya ? ..... sodo nahIM karelo ? praznakartA : karelo ne ! dAdAzrI : te have pharI javAtuM haze ? paraNyA eTale promisa Tu re, eka zuM, be AMkha jAya, na chUTe ! hIrAbAnI eka AMkha '43nI sAlamAM jatI rahI. DaoNkTara jarA kazuM karavA gayA, emane jhAmaranuM darda hatuM, te jhAmaranuM karavA gayA te AMkhane asara thaI. tene nukasAna thayuM. te lokoe hIrAbAne samajaNa pADI ke eka lAkha rUpiyAno dAvo mAMDo, DaoNkTara para. tyAre hIrAbA kahe che, "A loko AvuM bole che. DaoNkTara sArAmAM sArA mANasa che. mAruM sAruM karavA gayo emAM eno zuM guno ? ane loko kahe che, dAvo mAMDo." meM kahyuM, e loko kahe. ene kyAM vaDhavuM ? paNa ApaNe je karavuM hoya e ApaNe karIe. eno zo guno bicArAno ? e to thavAno yoga thayo, TAIma thayo eTale AMkha gaI. eTale lokonA manamAM ema ke A 'navo' vara Ubho thayo. pharI paiNAvo. kanyAnI bahu chUTane. ane kanyAnA mA-bApanI icchA evI ke jema tema karIne paNa kUvAmAM nAkhIne paNa ukela lAvavo. te eka bhAdaraNanA paTela AvyA. te emanA sALAnI choDI haze. teTalA mATe AvyA. meM kahyuM. 'zuM che tamAre ?" tyAre e kahe, 'AvuM tamAruM thayuM ?" have te dahADe 44mAM mArI uMmara 36 varSanI. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'kema tame Ama pUchavA AvyA cho ?" tyAre e kahe, 'eka to hIrAbAnI AMkha gaI che. bIjuM prajA kazuM nathI.' meM kahyuM, prajA nathI paNa mArI pAse kazuM sTeTa nathI. baroDA sTeTa nathI ke mAre temane ApavAnuM che. sTeTa hoya to chokarAne ApeluMya kAmanuM. A kaMI ekAda chAparuM hoya ke thoDIka jamIna hoya. ane teya ApaNane pAchuM kheDUta ja banAve ne ! jo sTeTa hoya to jANe ThIka che." vaLI temane meM kahyuM, ke 'have zenA hAru tame A kaho cho ? ane A hIrAbAne to ame promisa kareluM che, paiNyo hato tyAre. eTale eka AMkha jatI rahI eTale zuM kare have ! be jatI raheze toya hAtha pakaDIne huM doravIza." e kahe, 'tamane paiThaNa (daheja) ApIe to sAruM ?" kahyuM, "kUvAmAM nAkhavI che tamArI choDIne ? A hIrAbA duHkhI thaI jAya. hIrAbA du:khI thAya ke nA thAya ? mArI AMkha gaI tyAre A thayuM ne ?" ame to promisa Tu pe (vacana) karyuM. meM emane kahyuM, 'huM koI dahADo pharuM nahIM, duniyA AghIpAchI thaI jAya toya promisa eTale promisa ! koI kaheze ke tame paiNyA cho ? tyAre kahe ke paiNyA nathI, paNa promisa ApeluM che. paiNelA to meM badhA bahu loko joyA, paNa ame to promisa ApeluM che. paiNatI vakhate promisa, hAtha nathI ApatA ? te ghaDIe promisa ApIe chIe ane te ghaDIe brAhmaNanI vAta sAMbhaLelI meM. pachI brAhmaNa samajato hoya ke nA samajato hoya paNa dhruvano tAro dekhADe. te kaI bAju che, e to ghaNA pherA pazcimamAM hau dekhADe, ke tame juo dhruvano tAro. te huM jANuM ke A brAhmaNa samajato nathI, paNa ApaNe ApaNI dRSTithI joI lo ne ! ApaNe uttara tarapha juo. e to pazcimamAM dekhADe, e to bicArAne khabara ja nathI, e to A kAma karavA Avelo che e bhADutI tarIke kAma kare che, enuM peTa raLavA mATe kare che. emAM khoTuM nathI. ApaNe ApaNI meLe uttaramAM joI lo ne ! eTale ApaNane saptarSi dekhAze ! kara prathama prakRtinI pIchANa, mate sATha varSe paDI oLakhANa ! praznakartA : mArA lagna thayAM pachI ame banne vyaktio ekabIjAne

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(16) paraNyA eTale 'promisa Tu pe' 285 286 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra oLakhIe chIe ane lAge che ke pasaMdagImAM bhUla thaI gaI, koInA svabhAvano koI meLa khAto nathI, to bannenA meLa kema ane kaI kaI rIte karavA ke jethI sukhI thavAya ? dAdAzrI : A tame je kaho chone, AmAM ekeya vAkya sAcuM nathI. paheluM vAkya to lagna thayA pachI banne vyakti ekabIjAne oLakhe, paNa e nAmeya oLakhatA nathI. jo oLakhANa thAya to A bhAMjagaDa ja nA thAya. jarAya oLakhatA nathI. meM to eka buddhinA DivijhanathI, badho matabheda baMdha karI dIdhelo. paNa hIrAbAnuM oLakhANa mane kyAre paDyuM? sATha varSa hIrAbAnuM oLakhANa paDyuM ! 15 varSano hato tyAre paiNyo, 45 varSa sudhI emane nirIkSaNa karI kara karyA tyAre meM Amane oLakhyA ke AvAM che. praznakartA : eTale jJAna thayA pachI oLakhAyAM ? dAdAzrI : hA. jJAna thayA pachI oLakhAyAM. nahIM to oLakhANa ja nA paDe, mANasa oLakhI zake ja nahIM. mANasa potAnI jAtane oLakhI zakato nathI ke huM kevo chuM, eTale A vAkya 'ekabIjAne oLakhe che." e badhI vAtamAM kazuM mAla nathI ane pasaMdagImAM bhUla thaI nathI. praznakartA : A vAta laukikamAM levAnI che. ame to laukikamAM chIene ! dAdAzrI : hA, laukikanI ja vAta karuM chuM paNa e oLakhe nahIM ne ! oLakhe to bhUla thAya ja nahIM. praznakartA: hIrAbAne kaI rIte oLakhyA tame ? evuM zuM karyuM ke jethI oLakhANa paDI ? dAdAzrI : badhI prakRti kevI che te badhuM joI lIdhuM. jovAno abhyAsa karavA mAMDyA, badhI prakRti kevI che te ane manuSya jIvamAtra prakRtinA AdhIna che, svAdhina nathI. praznakartA : hIrAbAnI oLakhANa tamane sAiThame varSe paDI ? dAdAzrI : oLakhANa sATha varSe paDI mahAparANe. toya mahIM matabheda paDI jAya nahIM, te dahADe pachI matabheda paDI gayo hato ? A jJAna thayuM'tuM toya eka dahADo matabheda paDI gayo'to. te pachI bIje dahADe jaIne kahI Avyo, meM kahyuM, 'huM bhUla thaI mArI kAle.' tyAre kahe, "nA, tamArI zAnI bhUla ? emAM bhUla zAnI ?" oLakhANa paDe to A Dakhala ja nathI. mitrane oLakhIe chIe sArI rIte. teya pUruM nahIM paNa amukano udaya oLakhIe chIe. mitranI oLakhANa paDavAno, prayatna zAthI karIe chIe ke "ApaNe baMdhana nathI ne tyAM baMdhana bAMdhavuM che." riyalI spIkiMga baMdhana nathI ane premathI bAMdhavuM chene, eTale jhINavaTathI ene oLakha oLakha oLakha karIe chIe ane A vAIphane to 'mAra UMdhuM ne kara sIdhuM', oLakhavAno prayatna nahIM. praznakartA H e samajAvo ke kaI rIte oLakhavuM? dhIme dhIme sUkSma rIte patie patnIne premathI kevI rIte oLakhavI, e samajAvo. dAdAzrI : oLakhAya kyAre ? eka to sarakhApaNAno dAva ApIe tyAre. ene spesa ApavI joIe. jema ApaNe ramavA besIne sAmAsAmI cokaThAM, te ghaDIe sarakhApaNAno dAva hoya che, to ramatamAM majhA Ave. paNa A to sarakhApaNAno dAva zuM Ape ? ame sarakhApaNAno dAva ApIe. praznakartA : kaI rIte Apo ? prekTikalI kevI rIte Apo ? dAdAzrI : manathI emane juduM jANavA nA daIe. e avaLuM-havaLuM bole toya paNa sarakhAM hoya evI rIte eTale presara nA lAvIe. eTale sAmAnI prakRti oLakhI levAnI ke A prakRti AvI che ne AvI che. pachI bIjI rIto khoLI kADhavAnI. huM bIjI rIte kAma nathI leto badhA lokonI pAse ? mAruM kaheluM kare ke nA kare badhA ? kare kAraNa ke e

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(16) paraNyA eTale 'promisa Tu pe' 287 288 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra AvaData hatI eTale nahIM, huM bIjI rIte kAma lauM chuM. jJAna nA ApeluM hoya to bIjI rIte kAma laI zake nahIM. tamane jJAna ApeluM che, mATe tame bIjI rIte kAma laI zako. te bIjI rIte kaho to bahu pheraphAra thAya. jJAna lIdhA pahelAM je rIte kahetA hatA, e jJAna lIdhA pachInAmAM pheraphAra karavAnuM kahuM chuM. bAkI bIjo, je jJAna nA lIdheluM hoya ene nA kahevAya amArAthI. ekane kADhI nA nAkhIe tyAM sudhI bIjuM jaDe nahIM. ekane khaseDo to bIjuM jaDe. evuM tamane samajAyuM ke nA samajAyuM ? tamArA vinA na game amane', preme jA, "vicaro jaga kalyANe !" gharamAM besavAnuM game nahIM toya pachI kahevuM ke tArA vagara mane gamatuM nathI. tyAre ema kahe ke tamArA vagara mane gamatuM nathI. to mokSe javAze. dAdA maLyA chene, to mokSe javAze. praznakartA : tame hIrAbAne kaho cho ? dAdAzrI : hA. hIrAbAne, huM hajuya kahuM chuM ne ? A ame hau, huM ATalI uMmare hIrAbAne kahuM chuM, tamArA vagara huM bahAragAma jauM chuM te maneya gamatuM nathI. have e manamAM zuM jANe, mane game che ne emane kema nahIM gamatuM hoya ? AvuM kahIe to saMsAra nA paDI jAya. have tuM ghI reDane baLyuM ahIMthI, nA reDIza to lukhkha Avaze ! reDa suMdara bhAva ! A beThAne, huM kahune. mane kahe che. huM have tamane sAMbhare ?" meM kahyuM, 'sArI rIte. loka sAMbhare to tame na sAMbharo ?" ane kharekhara sAMbhareya kharAM, na sAMbhare evuM nahIM ! Adarza hoya amArI lAIpha, hIrAbAe kahe, tame vahelA Avajo. praznakartA : Ape hIrAbA pAse rajA mAMgelI kharI ? ame have jaIe ? dAdAzrI : hA, e Ape. 'vahelA Avajo" evuMya kahe ane kahe, badhA lokonuM bhaluM thAya evuM karo. praznakartA : emanI eka moTAmAM moTI mahAnatA e ke A uMmare dAdAne jagatakalyANa mATe vizvabharamAM pharavA javA detAM. dAdAzrI : e pote AzIrvAda ApatAM hatAM ane jyAre hoya tyAre kaheze, badhuM karIne Avo. tame jANo ke dAdAne koI nathI. e rahyA hIrAbA amAre ghera. emanI lAgaNI mane nA thAya ? tamane tamArAM bairI-chokarAMnI thAyane ? te be dahADAthI kahevaDAva kahevaDAva kare che. 'vahelA Avajo, vahelA Avajo." gaI sAla to khaMbhAtanI janmajayaMtI upara AvyA hatA, joDe ne joDe beThA hatA bagImAM. A phere ghaNuMya kahyuM paNa nA AvyA. A dhULa UDene. ane have eka paga phITa thato nathI nIce. paga jarA lUjha thayelo che. lUjha thayelo evo vAMko thayelo che, te kasarata cAlu che. A juone, mane 75 varSa thayAM ne emane 73 varSa thayAM che. emane A vAMkA paganI upAdhio ja ne badhI ! paNa juo, Akho dahADo AnaMdamAM rahe che. Akho dahADo mastImAM, kAraNa ke bIjo vicAra ja nahIMne koI jAtano. e kharAba che ke sAruM che e bhAMjagaDa nahIM. saba acchA. paNa huM vaDodarAmAM houM tyAre mAre hAjarI ApavA javuM paDe. jema ghaNA mANasane polIsa geTa upara hAjara nathI thavuM paDatuM roja ? hAjara thavuM paDe. A to vidhi karI ApyA pachI pAchA AvavAnI chUTa. emane vidhi karI ApavAnI. e tyAM nA AvI zake eTale mAre ahIM vidhi karAvavA javuM paDene? emane mokSe laI javAno che ne ? praznakartA : tamane kapha thaI gayo. te AkhI rAta UMdhyA nathI, e jyAre vAta karatA hatA, tyAre huM emanA moDhAnA bhAva joto hato. mane kahe che, UMdhyA nathI. ATalI badhI zaradI thaI gaI che. dAdAzrI : pachI meM gammata karI. meM kahyuM, "hIrAbAne kahone. dAdAne

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(16) paraNyA eTale 'promisa Tu pe' 289 290 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra jovAya nA AvyA ? tyAre emaNe kahevaDAvyuM ke "zI rIte AvuM ? mArAthI calAtuM nathI.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'to huM AvuM chuM." te pachI huM tyAM jovA gayo. tyAre kahe, 'tame zuM karavA AvyA ?" meM kahyuM, 'mAre sAruM che.' meM kahyuM, 'tamane sAruM hoya to tame Avo.' tyAre kahe che, 'mArAthI pagathI calAtuM nathI." paNa to kahyuM, 'ahIM jovA na AvyA dAdA bhagavAnane ? AvuM badhuM jovA Ave ne tame ekalA ja nA AvyA ? jovA AvavuM paDene ?" praznakartA : AvavuM paDe paNa A badhAya bhalene jovA AvI gayA. paNa emanAmAM je bhAva rahelo... dAdAzrI : basa. eTale bhAvanI ja kiMmata che. bIjI zI kiMmata che? kiMmata ja bhAvanI che ne ! eka dahADo hIrAbA kahetAM'tAM, 'huM gabaDI paDI te mane kazuMya nA thayuM. vAgyuM paNa AvuM phrekTara kazuM nA thayuM ne tame kazuM nahotuM karyuM toya atyAre A page phrekTara thaI gayuM. tamArI puNya karatAM mArI puNya bhAre.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'puNya to bhAre ja kahevAyane amane paiNyA e tamArI jevI tevI purve che ?" huM gammata karuM ko'ka dahADo. meM kahyuM, "A mAre paiDapaNa lAvavuM nahotuM paNa paiDapaNa pesI gayuM A mane. tyAre e kahe, 'e to badhAne Ave. koIne choDe nahIM.' emane moDhe kahevAvaDAvuM. ane ApaNuM kareluM bhogavavuM paDe. ApaNe ja bhogavavuM paDe. emAM cAle nahIM, evuM kahe. traNa mahinA sAthe rahyAM hatAM. joDe ne joDe covIseya kalAka. rAte vidhi-bidhi badhuM kare. prezara hatuM pahelAM te mAthA para paga mUkIne vidhi karatA hatA te baMdha thaI gayeluM badhuM. baMdha ja hatuM. mAthA para babbe paga mUkI ane vidhi karatA. TheTha sudhI roja karatAM hatAM. chelle dahADe paNa e ja kareluM. paheluM mAthA para be paga mUkI ane ahIM (dAdAnA caraNomAM kapALa aDADIne) banne paga mUkIne karavAnI pahelI vakhata. pachI mAthA para ema karIne dasa miniTa kADhavAnI dararojanI. bIjuM zarIra to UMcakAya nahIM amArAthI. ane aDavA deya nahIM koI dahADo. ATaluM vidhi karI Apajo ne pachI 'jaya saccidAnaMda' bole. ame vidhi karIe ke tarata jaya saccidAnaMda kahe, jaya saccidAnaMda bole, jeTalo avAja nIkaLe eTalo paNa mane saMbhaLAya ja nahIM. paNa A bIjA badhA kahe ke bolyAM. nA saMbhaLAya tethI kaMI nathI bolyA evuM kema kahevAya ApaNAthI ? koI cAkarI karanAruM haze emane ? chokaro nathIne praznakartA : purve evI chene, covIse kalAka koI hoya che ja. dAdAzrI : pachI e puNya ochI kahevAya ? juone, emane nathI chokaruM ke nathI chokarAnI vahu. paNa sevA karanArA keTalA che ! khaDe page badhA sevA kare. jyAre keTalAkane to cAracAra chokarAo hoya chatAM pANI pArako mANasa AvIne pAya tyAre. chokarAM kaMI kAma lAge te vakhate ? e kyAMye paradezamAM kamAvA gayo hoya ! AvuM jagata che. jo uparI badhA poSAya tane, vahu bosa rAkha, vAMdho zuM tane ? jagata to bahu UMDuM che, rahasyavALuM che A jagata. ane Aje lokoe bhUtAM ghAlyAM che. aMdara te khoTAM bhUtAM ghAlyAM che ane bhagavAnane uparI banAvyo che tethI gUMcavADA vadhyA che. enA karatAM uparI ApaNA gharanI vAIpha sArI. ApaNo gharano bosa hoyane, te bahu sAro. bosa te mAlapUDAye karI Apene, jalebI karI Ape ane vaDheya kharI koIka dahADo. A bhagavAnane uparI karIne zuM kAma che te ? jagatamAM koI paNa uparI che e tamArI bhUlonuM pariNAma che. ane bhagavAnanA uparI thayelA badhA phAvelA ane bairInA uparI thayelA badhA mAra khAIne marI gayelA. uparI thAya to mAra khAya. paNa bhagavAna zuM kahe che ? mArA uparI thAya to ame khuza thaIe. ame to

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291 292 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (16) paraNyA eTale 'promisa Tu pe' bahu dahADA uparIpaNuM bhogavyuM, have tame amArA uparI thAo to sAruM. praznakartA : patnI rUpI bosa nakAmo che evo artha thayo ? dAdAzrI : nA, ema nahIM. nakAmA kahevAya nahIM. nakAmo kahevAya nahIM. to to bIjo bosa kAma nahIM lAge. A ja bosa kAma lAge. praznakartA: e trAsa to kharo paNa ochAmAM ocho trAsa eno, A bosano. dAdAzrI : bAkI tamAro uparI koI che ja nahIM. upara khAlI AkAza che. je che e tame ja cho. tamArA sivAya kazuM che ja nahIM ane tamAro uparI tamArI bleDarsa ane misTeksa, be uparI che. tamAro uparI koI nathI. ane vyavahAramAM tamArI strI uparI, bIjuM koNa uparI che ? praznakartA : baheno mATe vyavahAramAM koNa uparI ? dAdAzrI : A kALa evo che ke A kALamAM strI uparI jevI thaI jAya ane ApaNane vAMdhoya zuM che ? sArI sArI rasoI ApatA hoya, to ApaNane emanuM uparIpaNuM rAkhavAmAM vAMdho zo che ? 'tamAruM uparIpaNuM svIkArIe, paNa tame sAruM sAruM khAvAnuM amane jamADo' ema kahIe. keTalA badhA hase che, nahIM ? majA Ave che ne ? Ama karatuM karatuM jJAna mUkeluM hoya to jJAna pese, nahIM to.... samajayA ke ! hase to pace A jJAna. hasatA jAya, karatAM jAya. tane hasavuM bahu Ave che ne ? A bodhakaLA eya mArI nahoya, A to lokonuM puNya jAgyuM che. praznakartA : jJAna karatAM bodhakaLA UMcI che. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa A lokonuM puNya jAgyuM che. AvI bodhakaLA hoya nahIM. AvI bodhakaLA svapnamAMya hoya nahIM koI dahADo, te A lokonuM puNya jAgyuM che. A mane kyAMthI AvaDyuM ? AvuM badhuM AvaDatuM haze ? praznakartA : tame dhAro to A hukkAne loTo paNa kahevaDAvI zako. tamArI pAse kaLA evI che ke Ane eka vakhata to loTo paNa kahevaDAvo. dAdAzrI : paNa badhA joIne kahe chene ? enI kaMI AMkho huM laI lauM chuM ? dhaNI to kone kahevAya ? patIte deva jevo dekhAya ! ATaluM jo strIonuM sanmAna thatu hoya tyAM e du:khI kema hoya. strIonuM kaMIka sanmAna hovuM joIe. Ama dhaNIpaNuM thaIne bese che. ane bIjA eka mANasane tyAM sarasa baI hatI tyAre meM kahyuM, "Ine sArI rIte tuM rAkha. ene bahu kaDakAI nA karavI ema ! AvuM nA zobhe, kahyuM tyAre mane kahe che, e caDhI bese. te e koNe zIkhavADyuM tane ? to tuM zuM kAma bhaDakuM chuM, kahyuM A. e bhaDakATa khoTo che badho. khoTA bhaDakATathI loko bhaDaka bhaDaka kare emAM duHkhI thAya UlaTuM. kazuM strI evuM nA caDhI bese. paNa ene aNasamajaNa pesI gaI, goTALo ! zuM thAya have ? A badhA mANasa che te kaI jAtanA loka che te ? jarAka to dhaNI thatAM zIkho ! dhaNIpaNuM thavuM sahelI vastu nathI ane pAchA strIne zuM kahe che, huM tAro dhaNI thauM ! A moTA dhaNI AvyA ! roja bAI sAheba TaiDakAvatA hoya ne A moTA dhaNI thaI beThAM hoya ! dhaNI to konuM nAma kahevAya ? potAnI strI Ama jotAnI sAthe, ene namratA jAya nahIM koI paNa TAIme, e dhaNI kahevAya. tyAM prema hoya ! bAkI Ane dhaNI kema kahevAya ? jema kUtarI kUtarA joDe ghurakiyAM karene, ema ghurakiyAM karatI hoya. bAIno dhaNI thatAM AvaDyuM kyAre kahevAya ke bAI niraMtara pUjayatA anubhavatI hoya ! dhaNI to kevo hoya ? koI dahADo strIne, chokarAMne harakata na paDavA de evo hoya. strI kevI hoya ? koI dahADo dhaNIne harakta nA paDavA de, enA ja vicAramAM jIvatI hoya. bIbIne manamAM ema besI jAya ke ohoho ! A deva jevo mANasa che ! tyAre dhaNI thayo kahevAya. eneya mahIM nyAya hoya ke nA hoya. eneya akkala to kharI ke nahIM ?

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(16) paraNyA eTale 'promisa Tu pe' 293 praznakartA : kharI. dAdAzrI : dhaNI kone kahevAya ? saMsArane nabhAve tene. patnI kone kahevAya ? saMsArane nabhAve tene. saMsArane toDI nAkhe ene patnI ke dhaNI kema kahevAya ? eNe to enA guNadharma ja khoI nAkhyA kahevAya ? vAIpha' para rIsa caDhe to A mATalI ochI pheMkI devAya ? keTalAka kaparakAbI pheMkI de ne pachI navAM laI Ave ! alyA, navAM lAvavAM hatAM to phoDyAM zuM kAma ? krodhamAM aMdha banI jAya te hitAhitanuM bhAna paNa gumAvI (17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! dhaNI to evo hovo joIe ke baI Akho dahADo dhaNInuM moTuM joyA praznakartA : paraNyA pahelAM bahu jue che. dAdAzrI : e to jALa nAkhe che. mAchaluM ema jANe ke A bahu sArA dayALu mANasa che te mAruM kAma thaI gayuM. paNa eka vakhata khAI to jo, kAMTo pesI jaze. A to phasAmaNavALuM che badhuM ! vahune pANAtA ghA lAge kUNA, vANItA ghA to kALaje korANA ! dAdAzrI : tAruM gharamAM vartana kevuM thaI jaze ? saMgharSamAM rAkhazo ke milanasAra ? praznakartA : milanasAra. dAdAzrI : kazuM zabda sAmo boluM chuM ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : keTalA varSa thayAM sAmuM bolyA ? praznakartA : ATalI jiMdagImAM ekAda-be vakhata sAmuM bolAI gayeluM. dAdAzrI : ane tame ? praznakartA : huM ekAda-be vakhata sAmuM na bolelo. dAdAzrI : zuM mANaso bhegA thayAM che ? praznakartA : paNa badhAnI buddhi thoDI sarakhI hoya, dAdA ? vicAro sarakhA nA hoya. ApaNe sAruM karIe toya koI samaje nahIM. enuM zuM karavAnuM?

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 295 296 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : evuM kazuMya nathI. vicAra samajaNa paDe che badhAya. paNa badhA potAnI jAtane ema mAne che ke mArA sAcA che evuM. tema badhAnA khoTA che. vicAra karatAM AvaDatuM nathI. bhAna ja nathI tyAM. mANasa tarIkeya bhAna nathI, baLyAM. A to manamAM mAnI beThA che ke huM bI.e. ane grejyueTa thayo. paNa mANasa tarIke bhAna hoya to kleza ja nA thAya. pote eDajasTebala hoya badhe A bAraNAM khakhaDe toya gamatuM nathI ApaNane, bAraNuM havAmAM ThokAThoka thAya to tamane game ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to pachI mANasa vaDhavADa kare te kema game ? kUtarAM vaDhatAM hoya toya nA game ApaNane. A to karmanA udayathI jhaghaDA cAlyA kare, paNa jIbhathI avaLuM bolavAnuM baMdha karo. vAta peTamAM ne peTamAM ja rAkho. gharamAM ke bahAra bolavAnuM baMdha karo. ghaNI strIo kahe che, "be dholo mAro to sAruM. paNa A tame je bolo chone, te mArI chAtIe ghA vAge che !' have lyo, aDatuM nathI ane kevA ghA vAge che ! dAdAzrI : nA, nA, jIbha to koI bagADatuM nathI. pote vAMko mUo che. have rastAmAM jatA chAparA uparathI eka AvaDo paththarano TukaDo paDe, lohI nIkaLe tyAM kema nathI bolato ? A to jANIjoIne enI upara ropha mAravo che, ema dhaNIpaNuM batAvavuM che. pachI paiDapaNamAM tamane sAmuM Ape. pelo kazuMka mAge to, "Ama zuM kacakaca karyA karo cho, sUI paDI rahone amathA.' kaheze. eTale jANIjoIne paDI rahevuM paDe. eTale AbarU ja jAyane ! enA karatAM maryAdAmAM raho. ghera jhaghaDo-baghaDo kema karo cho ? lokone kaho, samajaNa pADajo ke gharamAM jhaghaDA nA karazo. bahAra jaIne karajo ane baheno tameya karo nahIM, hoM ! A te yuddha ke popaTa mastI, ghaDI pachI zUnya, vaDhavADa sastI ! A Tipoya vAge to ApaNe tene gunegAra nathI gaNatA. paNa bIjuM mAre to gunegAra gaNe. kUtaruM ApaNane mAre nahIM ne khAlI bhasa bhasa kare to ApaNe tene calAvI laIe chIe ne jo mANasa hAtha upADato nA hoya ne ekaluM bhasa bhasa kare to nabhAvI levuM nA joIe ? bhasa eTale 'Tu spIka, bArka" eTale bhasavuM. 'A bairI bahu bhasyA kare che.' evuM bole chene ? A vakIloya korTamAM bhasatA nathI ? pelo jaja beune bhasatA joyA kare ! A vakIlo nirlepatAthI bhase che ne ? korTamAM to sAmasAmI 'tame AvA cho, tame tevA cho, tame amArA asIla para Ama juThThA Aropa karo cho' bhase. ApaNane ema lAge A beu bahAra nIkaLIne mAramArA karaze. paNa bahAra nIkaLyA pachI joIe to beu joDe besIne TesTathI cA pItA hoya ! praznakartA: e 'DrAmeTika' laDyA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : nA, e popaTamastI kahevAya. 'DrAmeTika' to 'jJAnI puruSa' sivAya koIne AvaDe nahIM. be jaNA mastI tophAna karatAM hoya e vaDhe-kare paNa aMdara aMdara dAvo nA mAMDe. ane ApaNe vacce paDIe to e eno dhaMdho karAvI le praznakartA: laDAI karavA karatAM laDAI karavAno vicAra ghaNo kharAba kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : hA, laDAI to sArI paNa ApaNA loko to laDAI laDatA ja nathIne ! ane laDe che toya koI dahADo sAmasAmI mukI mAratA nathI ke hAtha bhAMgatA nathI. vANInA ja patharA mAra mAra kare che. pelo patharo to vAge. paNa A to vANInA patharA mAre che. tyAre loko to phUliza che, to ApaNe zuM karavA phUliza thaIe ? vANI to vAge ja nahIM ne ! e to ApaNe kahIe ke mane vAgI to vAge, nahIM to vANI to vAgatI haze ? A mArAmArI nathI karatAM khAsa, eTale zIMgaDA nahIM lagAvatA, paNa zabdanA mAra bahu mAre che, chAtIe ghA lAge. praznakartA : jIbha bagADI ?

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! ane e loka to ekanAM eka ja pAchA. bIje ghera rahevA nA jAya ene popaTamastI kahevAya. ame tarata samajI jaIe ke A be jaNe popaTamastI karavA mAMDI. popaTamastI eTale zuM ke popaTa mastI kare to ApaNane ema lAge ke ohoho, A laDelaDA kare che ! ApaNe gabharAI jaIe ke beu hamaNAM marI jaze. te ApaNe UlaTA rokIe ke tame nA laDazo, paNa e nA kahe ne pAchAM laDe ne pAchA ekanAM eka thaI jAya. e nA mare ne amathA amathA cAMco mAryA kare. koIne vAge nahIM evI cAMco mAre ne ApaNe mUrakha TharIe. ame to e je karato hoyane, te enAM mahIMnA bhAva tarata vAMcI zakIe eTale amane A badhuM samajAya. tamAre emanI joDe matabheda paDe che ? praznakartA : emane bolavAnuM ja ochuMne eTale matabheda ja kyAM rahe ? 297 dAdAzrI : hA. je ekadama ochuM bolato hoya teno sAmA mANasane tApa bahu lAge eTale sAcI vAta kahevI hoya toya kahevAya nahIM. Takora karo, paNa ahaM rahita, ne tatkSaNa pratikramaNa sahita ! praznakartA : vyavahAramAM koI khoTuM karato hoya tene Takora karavI paDe che. tenAthI tene duHkha thAya che, to kevI rIte eno nikAla karavo ? dAdAzrI : vyavahAramAM Takora karavI paDe. paNa emAM ahaMkAra sahita thAya che mATe enuM pratikramaNa karavuM. (manamAM pastAvApUrvaka mAphI mAMgavI.) praznakartA H Takora nA karIe to e mAthe caDhe. dAdAzrI : Takora to karavI paDe, paNa kahetAM AvaDavuM joIe. kahetAM nA AvaDe, vyavahAra nA AvaDe eTale ahaMkAra sahita Takora thAya. eTale pAchaLathI enuM pratikramaNa karavuM. tame sAmAne Takora karo eTale sAmAne pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra khoTuM to lAgaze, paNa enuM pratikramaNa kara kara karazo eTale cha mahine, bAra mahine vANI evI nIkaLaze ke sAmAne mIThI lAge. atyAre to 'TesTeDa' vANI joIe. 'aTesTeDa' vANI bolavAno adhikAra nathI. A rIte pratikramaNa karazo to game tevuM haze toya sIdhuM thaI jaze. 298 vahu tA game, paNa koNe khoLI ? na vaDha sahejeya, jo copaDo kholI ! eka kalAka nokarane, chokarAMne ke baIne TaiDakAva TaiDakAva karyA hoya to pachI e dhaNI thaIne ke sAsu thaIne tamane AkhI jiMdagI kacaDa kacaDa karaze ! nyAya to joIe ke nA joIe ? A ja bhogavavAnuM che. tame koIne duHkha Apazo to duHkha tamAre mATe AkhI jiMdagInuM Avaze, eka ja kalAka duHkha Apo to tenuM phaLa AkhI jiMdagI maLaze. pachI bUmo pADo ke 'vahu mane Ama kema kare che ?" vahune ema thAya ke "A dhaNI joDe mArAthI Ama kema thAya che ?" ene paNa duHkha thAya, paNa zuM thAya ? pachI meM temane pUchyuM ke 'vahu tamane khoLI lAvI hatI ke tame vahune khoLI lAvyA hatA ?" tyAre e kahe ke, 'huM khoLI lAvyo hato.' tyAre eno zo doSa bicArIno ? laI AvyA pachI avaLuM nIkaLe, emAM te zuM kare, kyAM jAya pachI ? jeTaluM bane eTaluM AtmAnuM ja kara kara karavA jevuM che. ane A saMsAranuM to kazuM AghuMpAchuM thAya evuM nathI. saMsAramAM to tamAre 'caMdubhAI'ne kahevuM 'kAma karye jAva'. pachI AghuMpAchuM thAya toya vaDhazo nahIM, koIne laDazo nahIM ne kAma karye jAva, kahIe. saMsAramAM vaDhavA-laDavAnI vAta ja nathI. e to jene roga thayo hoyane te badhuM vaDhe-laDyA kare. A gAyo-bheMso kaMI roja laDe che ke koI dahADo ? ko'ka dahADo bahu tyAre, bAkI badhAM joDe ne joDe jAya che, Ave che. sAmasAmI kacaca nahIM, bhAMjagaDa nahIM. vaDhavAnI to vAta ja nA hoya. vaDhavuM eTale ja ahaMkAra, khullo ahaMkAra. ene gAMDo ahaMkAra kahevAya. eTale vaDhavA karavAnI vAta Ave tyAM baMdha rAkhavuM. have tamAre vaDhavA jevuM kaMI rahyuM che ja kyAM te ? UlaTuM vaDhavAmAM to ApaNane bojo lAge. mAthuM pAkI jAya, nahIM ? vaDhavAnuM

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300 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 299 game kharuM koIne ? zokha hoya ? praznakartA : koIne zokha nahIM. dAdAzrI : kaMI tamane eka Akho dahADo laDavA besADe to ? praznakartA: magaja khalAsa thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : nA phAve, nahIM ? kazuM jagatamAM koI eka akSareya koIne kazo kahevuM nahIM. kahevuM e roga che eka jAtano ! kahevAnuM thAya to e roga moTAmAM moTo ! badhA potapotAno hisAba laIne AvelA che. A Dakho karavAnI jarUra zuM che ? akSareya bolavAno baMdha karI dejo. A teTalA mATe to ame 'vyavasthita'nuM jJAna ApyuM che. te vyavasthitanuM jJAna vagara, bolyA vagara mANasa besI nA rahe. kAraNa ke pyAlA bhAMgI gayA nokaranA hAthe eTale mUo bolyA vagara rahe ja nahIM ne ! 'kema bhAMgI nAkhyA ? tArA hAtha bhAMgalA che ke Amatema che ?" paNa have pyAlA phUTI gayA to phoDanAra koNa che, e 'vyavasthita'nuM jJAna ApyuM che eTale kazuM bolavAnuM ja nathI ne ! ane pAchuM 'vyavasthita' ja thayuM. praznakartA : hA, thayuM te 'vyavasthita'. dAdAzrI : hA, avyavasthita thatuM ja nathI. avyavasthita dekhAya che te paNa 'vyavasthita' che. eTale vAta ja samajavAnI jarUra che. tamAre vyavasthitanA jJAnathI cAle che ke nathI cAlatuM ? badhuM vyavasthita ja cAle ne ? praznakartA: bAkI vyavasthita cAle che paNa ko'ka vakhata Dakho thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : thaI jAya. paNa khabara paDI jAyane ke A bhUla thaI ? praznakartA : hA, bhUla thaI, khabara paDI jAya. dAdAzrI : ko'ka vakhata pataMga che te gulAMTa khAya, to bahu tyAre ApaNe doro kheMcI levAno. doro ApaNA hAthamAM che. ane jagatamAM lokonA hAthamAM dorI nathI, lokonI gulAMTo khAyA kare che. have zuM thAya te ? akSareya bolavAnuM baMdha karI devuM. ene bhagavAne bhayaMkara roga kahyo che. bole to jJAnI ekalA bole, teya emanI vANI kevI hoya ? parecchAnusArI hoya. hA, bIjAnI icchAonA AdhAre e bole che. bIjAnI icchAo pUrNa thavA mATe e bole che. bAkI emane zA hAru bolavuM paDe te ? ane emanI vANI syAdvAda vANI, bahu sAMbhaLa sAMbhaLa karavAnuM mana thAya. ane pelI to sAMbhaLe tyAMthI ja mahIM AtmA hAlI jAya, badhuM hAlI jAya, bhayaMkara pApa lAge. sahejeya bolAya nahIM A jagatamAM. sahejeya bolavuM enuM nAma kacakaca kahevAya. ApaNe bahAra pUchIe ke, 'tArA kAkA zuM kahetA'tA ?" "e kAkA kacakaca karyA kare che vagara kAmanA." tyAre zuM A badhAM janAvarAM che, mUA, kAko kacarca kare che te ? are mUrakha, zuM karavA bola bola kare che te ? cakkara nathI bolavA jevuM. hA, e bolavAnuM, te bolanArAnI to vANI kevI hoya ? ke je bolene te pelo sAMbhaLa sAMbhaLa kare, ke 'zuM kahyuM kAkA ? zuM kahyuM kAkA ?" A to bolatAM pahelAM ja che te pelo kacakaca kare. 'tame kacakaca tamArI rahevA do, vagara kAmanA Dakho karyA karo cho.' kaheze. eTale eka ja jagatamAM karavAnuM che. kazuM bolavuM nahIM koIe. nirAMte je hoya e khaI levuM ne A heMDyA bA sahusahunAM kAma para, kAma karyA karavAnuM. bolazo karazo nahIM. tuM nathI bolatI ne, chokarAM joDe, dhaNI joDe ? praznakartA bahu ochuM karI nAkhyuM. dAdAzrI : bilakula nahIM karavAnuM. dAdAnI AjJA ! vaDhavAthI to chokarAM bagaDe che, sudharatAM nathI, baLyAM ! vaLI kaI mA madhara)mAM barakata haze ke chokarAMne vaDha vaDha kare ? e mAM (madhara)mAM barakata joIe ne ?

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! vaDheluM kyAre kAmanuM ? pUrvagraha na hoya to vaDheluM kAmanuM. pUrvagraha eTale gaIkAle vaDhyo'to ne, te manamAM yAda hoya. Avo ja che, Avo ja che ane pachI pAcho vaDhe. eTale pachI AmAMthI jhera phelAya. bhagavAne Ane bhayaMkara roga kahyuM che. mUrakha banavAnI nizAnI. akSareya bolavAnuM nahIM. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, ApaNe to chokarAo ne vAIphane kaMI kahetAM hoIe ne, to peluM nATakamAM jema gusso karatAM hoyane evuM sAdhAraNa Ama. dAdAzrI : hA, nATakI bhAva rAkhe to vAMdho nahIM. 301 praznakartA : paNa vepAramAM sAmo vepArI Ave tyAre na samaje ne ApaNAthI krodhAveza thaI jAya, to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : vepArI joDe to jANe ke e to vepAra mATe che. tyAM to bolavuM paDe. tyAMya nA bolavAnI kaLA che. tyAMya nA bole badhuM kAma thAya evuM che. paNa e kaLA AvaDe evI nathI jaladI. e kaLA bahu UMcI che. mATe tyAM laDajo ne have. tyAM je phAyado (!) thAya e joI levAno. jame karI levAno. laDyA pachI je phAyado thAyane, e copaDe jame karI levAno ! paNa gharamAM bilakula laDavuM nahIM. gharanAM potAnAM mANasa kahevAya. ene koIne duHkha ApIe e bhayaMkara narke javAnI nizAnI ! praznakartA : A nA bolavAnI kaLAnI vAta karo. dAdAzrI : nA bolavAnI kaLA, e to e bIjAne nathI AvaDe evI. bahu agharI che kaLAo. e to sAmo Avyo ne, te pahelAM enA zuddhAtmA joDe vAtacIta karI levAnI ane te pahelAM badhuM ene ThaMDuM pADI devAnuM ne tyAra pachI ApaNe nA bolyA vagara rahevAnuM eTale badhuM patI jAya ApaNuM. e agharI kaLA che. eTale e TAIma tamAro Ave tyAre mane pUchajo ne, badhuM dekhADI daIza. e pagathiyuM Ave tyAre zIkhajo. paNa hamaNe to, gharamAM to baMdha karI do. tamAre gharamAM baMdha che ke nahIM ? praznakartA : ApaNe baMdha che. 302 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : bilakuleya ? nAnAMmoTAM beu sarakhAM ke moTo tamAro ? praznakartA : (bhAI) A vaDhavAnuM phAvatuM nathI bahu. praznakartA : (bahena) chokarAone na vaDhe koI divasa. dAdAzrI : paNa zuM karavA bole ? potAnuM magaja bagADavuM, mUrakha banavuM, e konA gharanI vAta che te ? pote mUrakha bane ne pAcho magaja bagADe. A bhaI bahu kacakaca karatA'tA. have te emanA vAIpha kahe che, nA, kazuM bolatA ja nathI. meM kahyuM, tamAre kahevuM ke bolo jarA kaMI, zuM kADhyuM sAramAM ? potAnuM magaja bagaDe, zuM kADhavAnuM ? sAra kazo kADhavAno nahIM ! jo moTAbhAI kacakaca karatA hoyane, to ApaNe kacakaca karavA jevI nathI. e ApaNane mUrakha jANe to mUrakha jANavuM. kaMI emanA hAthamAM kaMI ocho kAyado che, mokSe javAno ? dAdAnI pAse ApaNe sarTiphikeTa levuM, ke sarTiphikeTa kevuM che, basa. 'abolA, toMdha, vera' strItA jhera, 'tarama, garama, mauta' choDe vera ! praznakartA : abolA laI vAtane TALavAthI eno nikAla thaI zake ? dAdAzrI : nA thaI zake. ApaNe to sAmo maLe to kema cho ? kema nahIM ?" ema kahevuM. sAmo jarA bUmAbUma kare to ApaNe jarA dhIme rahIne 'samabhAve nikAla' karavo. eno nikAla to karavo ja paDazene jyAre tyAre ? abolA raho tethI kaMI nikAla thaI gayo ? e nikAla thato nathI eTale to abolA UbhA thAya che. abolA eTale bojo, jeno nikAla nA thayo eno bojo. ApaNe to tarata ene UbhA rAkhIne kahIe, 'UbhA rahone, amArI kaMI bhUla hoya to mane kaho, mArI bahu bhUlo thAya che. tame to bahu hoziyAra, bhaNelA te tamArI nA thAya paNa huM bhaNelo ocho eTale mArI bahu bhUlo thAya.' ema kahIe eTale e rAjI thaI jAya.

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304 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 303 praznakartA : evuM kahevAthI e narama nA paDe to zuM karavuM? dAdAzrI : narama nA paDe to ApaNe zuM karavAnuM ? ApaNe kahI chUTavAnuM. pachI zo upAya ? jyAre tyAre ko'ka dahADo narama thaze. TaiDakAvIne narama karo to tenAthI kazuM narama thAya nahIM. Aje narama dekhAya, paNa e manamAM noMdha rAkhI mele ne ApaNe jyAre narama thaIe te dahADe te badhuM pAchuM kADhe. eTale jagata veravALuM che. kudaratano niyama evo che ke dareka jIva mahIM vera rAkhe ja. mahIM paramANuo saMgrahI rAkhe. mATe ApaNe pUrepUro kesa UMce mUkI devo. praznakartA : ApaNe sAmAne abolA toDavA kahIe ke mArI bhUla thaI, have mAphI mAguM chuM, toya pelo vadhAre cage to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : to ApaNe kahevAnuM baMdha karavuM. eno svabhAva vAMko che ema jANIne baMdha karI devuM ApaNe. ene evuM kaMIka UMdhuM jJAna thaI gayuM hoya ke 'bahuta name nAdAna" tyAM pachI cheTA rahevuM. pachI je hisAba thAya te kharo. paNa jeTalAM saraLa hoyane tyAM to ukela lAvI nAkhavo. ApaNe gharamAM koNa koNa saraLa che ane koNa koNa vAMkuM che, e nA samajIe ? praznakartA : sAmo saraLa nA hoya to enI sAthe ApaNe vyavahAra toDI nAkhavo ? dAdAzrI : nA toDavo. vyavahAra toDavAthI tUTato nathI. vyavahAra toDavAthI tUTe evo cheya nahIM. eTale ApaNe tyAM mauna rahevuM ke ko'ka dahADo cIDAze eTale ApaNo hisAba patI jaze, ApaNe mauna rAkhIe eTale ko'ka dahADo e cIDAya ne jAte ja bole ke "tame bolatA nathI, keTalA dahADAthI muMgA pharo cho !" Ama cIDAya eTale ApaNuM patI jaze. tyAre zuM thAya te ? A to jAtajAtanuM lokhaMDa hoya che, amane badhAM oLakhAya. keTalAkane bahu garama karIe to vaLI jAya. keTalAkane bhaThThImAM mUkavuM paDe, pachI jhaTa be hathoDA mAryA ke sIdhuM thaI jAya. A to jAtajAtanAM lokhaMDa che ! AmAM AtmA e AtmA che, paramAtmA che ane lokhaMDa e lokhaMDa che, A badhI bIjI dhAtu che. vaDhe toya vANI lAge jyAM mIThI, paryAyo pahoMce, jo kahI jUThI ! praznakartA: koIe jANI joIne A vastu pheMkI dIdhI to tyAM AgaLa kayuM "eDajasTamenTa' levuM ? - dAdAzrI : A to pheMkI dIdhuM, paNa chokaro pheMkI de toya ApaNe joyA' karavAnuM. bApa chokarAne pheMkI de to ApaNe joyA karavAnuM. tyAre zuM ApaNe dhaNIne pheMkI devAno ? ekanuM to davAkhAnuM bheguM thayuM, have pAchAM be davAkhAnA UbhAM karavAM ? ane pachI jyAre ene lAga Ave tyAre e ApaNane pachADe, pachI traNa davAkhAnA UbhAM thayAM. praznakartA : to pachI kazuM kahevAnuM ja nahIM ? dAdAzrI : kahevAnuM, paNa samyak kahevuM jo bolatAM AvaDe to. nahIM to kUtarAnI peTha bhasa bhasa karavAno artha zuM ? mATe samyak kahevuM. praznakartA : samyak eTale kevI rItanuM? dAdAzrI : "ohoho ! tame A bAbAne kema pheMkyo ? zuM kAraNa enuM ?" tyAre e kaheze ke, 'jANIjoIne huM kaMI pheMkuM ? e te mArA hAthamAMthI chaTakI gayo ne pheMkAI gayo ? praznakartA : e to, e khoTuM bolyA ne ? dAdAzrI : e jUThuM bole e ApaNe jovAnuM nahIM. jUThuM bole ke sAcuM bole e enA AdhIna che, e ApaNA AdhIna nathI. e enI marajImAM Ave tevuM kare. ene jUThuM bolavuM hoya ke ApaNane khalAsa karavA hoya e enA tAbAmAM che. rAtre ApaNA mATalAmAM jhera nAkhI Ape to ApaNe to khalAsa ja thaI jaIene ! mATe ApaNA tAbAmAM je nathI te ApaNe jovAnuM nahIM. samyak kahetAM AvaDe to kAmanuM che ke, "bhaI, AmAM zuM tamane phAyado thayo ?" to enI meLe kabUla karaze. samyak kahetA nathI ane tame pAMca zeranI Apo to pelo daza zeranI Ape !

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36 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra (17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 305 praznakartA kahetAM nA AvaDe to pachI zuM karavuM ? cUpa besavuM ? dAdAzrI : mauna rahevuM ane joyA karavuM ke 'kyA hotA hai ?" sinemAmAM chokarAM pachADe che tyAre zuM karIe chIe ApaNe ? kahevAno adhikAra kharo badhAno, paNa kakaLATa vadhe nahIM evI rIte kahevAno adhikAra, bAkI je kahevAthI kakaLATa vadhe e to mUrkhanuM kAma che. praznakartA H eTale keTalAka ghare evA hoya che ke jyAM vANIthI bolAcAlI thayA kare. ghaNI vakhata vANIthI puSkaLa bolAcAlI thAya paNa mana ane hRdaya sApha hoya. dAdAzrI : have vANIthI kleza thato hoya paNa te sAmAne, hRdaya upara asara nA thAya, evuM jo upalaka rahetuM hoya to to vAMdho nathI. praznakartA : mana ne hRdaya cokhkhAM hoya. eka-be miniTa pachI juone to tamane ema lAge nahIM, koInAM mana para asara nA lAge. AmanI upareya nA lAge ne te pelAnA upara paNa nA lAge. dAdAzrI : evuM chene bena, ke bolanAra to hRdaya ane manathI cokhkha hoya, e bolI zake. paNa sAMbhaLanArane to patharo vAge evuM lAge, eTale kleza thAya ja, jyAM bola kaMI kharAba chene, vicitra bola che tyAM kleza thAya. nA thAya ? e to dekhAva kare eTaluM ja. aMdara asara badhuM kare. A mana to bahu sUkSmamAM sUkSma vastu che. praznakartA : mana ne hRdaya sApha hoya to pachI e karkaza nIkaLe ja nahIM ne ? dAdAzrI : zabda vakhate kharAba nIkaLyo, paNa e karkaza asara thayA vagara rahe nahIM. zabda haMmezAM dila upara ghA kare. dAdAzrI : e vadhAre kleza kahevAya. mana becenI anubhave te ghaDIe kleza hoya ja. ane pachI ApaNane kahe, "mane cena paDatuM nathI.' te klezanI nizAnI. halakA prakAranuM hoya ke bhAre prakAranuM hoya. bhAre prakAranA kleza to evA hoya che ke hArTa hau pheIla thaI jAya. keTalAka to evA bola bole che ne hArTa tarata khAlI thaI jAya. pelA (ahaMkAra)ne ghara khAlI ja karavuM paDe, gharadhaNI ne jatA rahevuM paDe (AtmA) pachI ! eTale A jAtajAtanA bola bole. A zabdathI ja jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. zabda jo nA hoya, to kAma thaI jAya. zabda bahu vasamo che. e zabda dhIme dhIme mITho thavo, madhuratA AvavI, e dhIme dhIme madhuratA Ave tyAre pachI zabda bIjAne vahAlA lAge. vaDhe toya vahAlA lAge. kevuM? hA. bAkI mIThI vANI thayA pachI, madhura vANI thayA pachI, tame UlaTA vaDhone, to pelo hase, UlaTo. praznakartA : hA, e mahattvanuM. dAdAzrI : kaSAya nA hoya to kazuM vaDhavAmAM vAMdho nathI, kaSAyano vAMdho che. praznakartA : paNa vANI madhura thavI joIe. dAdAzrI : madhura thavI joIe. veravI nA thAya, madhura karelI to pachI jIhAgre rahe. evI madhura karelI kAmanI nahIM. klezabhAva ocho thato jAya, prema vadhato jAya tema vANI mIThI thatI jAya. vANI mIThI kyAre thAya ? jyAre bhedabhAva ocho thato jAya tyAre, prema vadhe tyAre, potAnAM gharanAM mANaso para prema to sahu koIne hoya. paNa jyAre potAnAM gharanAM mANasa jevo bIjA upareya prema vadhato jAya tyAre che te vANI madhura thatI jAya. ane tyAre be dholo mAro toya ene prema ja lAge. bAkI eka mANasane tame kaho ke tame jUThA cho ? have jUThA kahetAMnI sAthe to eTaluM badhuM vijJAna pharI vaLe che mahI, enA paryAyo eTalA badhA UbhA thAya che ne tamane be kalAka sudhI to enI para prema ja utpanna nA praznakartA : vANIthI kazoya kleza nA hoya, paNa manamAM kleza utpanna thayo hoya, vANIthI karyuM nA hoya paNa manamAM hoya bahu to e kleza vagaranuM ghara kahevuM ?

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 307 38 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra thAya. eTalA badhA paryAya ! mATe zabda bolatAM pahelAM, bolAya nahIM to uttama che ane bolAya to pratikramaNa karo. bolAya nahIM evuM to ApaNe kahI zakAya nahIM. kAraNa ke vyavasthita chene ! paNa bolAya to pratikramaNa karo e ApaNI pAse sAdhana che. tamane kema lAge che ? pratikramaNa karekTa sAdhana che ke nahIM ? praznakartA: dhaNI-dhaNIyANIomAM je jhaghaDA thAya che, e uparavALA karAve che ke buddhithI thAya che ? dAdAzrI : uparavALo to AvuM karAve ja nahIMne ! A to tamArI aNasamajaNathI thAya che. samajaNavALo nA kare ane samajaNa vagarano kare. praznakartA : paNa buddhi to bhagavAna Ape che ne ? dAdAzrI : bhagavAna zuM karavA buddhi Ape, e kaMI gAMDo che bhagavAna ! enuM magaja khasI gayuM che ? A buddhi e tamArA karmanuM phaLa che. eTale sArAM karma karo to buddhi sArI utpanna thAya. kharAba karma karo to buddhi kharAba thAya. eTale bhagavAna AmAM hAtha ghAlatA nathI. bhagavAna to bhagavAna tarIke ja rahe che, bhagavAna badalAtA nathI koI dahADoya. badhuM tamAruM ja projekzana che. tamArI javAbadArI para tamAre ja karavAnuM che badhuM. javAbadArI eya tamArI che, je karo tenI. eTale A aNasamajaNa kare che. jema A chokarAo laDatA hoya to tame samajI jAvane ke A aNasamaju laDavADa thAya che. have beu jaNa jhaghaDe to to paDozI jovA Ave ke nA Ave ? pachI tamAzo thAya ke nA thAya ? ane pAchuM bheguM nA thavAnuM hoya to laDo, khUba laDo. are, vaheMcI ja nAkho ! tyAre kahe, "nA, kyAM javAnuM ?" jo pharI bheguM thavAnuM che to pachI zuM karavA laDe che ! ApaNe evuM cetavuM nA joIe ? bIbI joDe to sAro rahe ! jenI joDe rAta-dahADo rahevAnuM, enI joDe Dakhala thatI haze ? ApaNe samAdhAna karI nAkhavuM eka jaNe ke bhaI, mAre tArI joDe, tAre mArI joDe zA mATe ApaNe A badhuM hovuM joIe ? duniyA kahe ke A dhaNI ne dhaNIyANI che, paNa ApaNe to phrenDa, pachI kaMI vAMdho kharo ? praznakartA : nahIM. dAdAzrI : tame phrenDazIpa karazo ke nahIM ? TaiDakAvo cho ne vaLI pAchA ropha mAro cho ? ghera to bIbIne TaiDakAvo cho kharA ? praznakartA : kahevuM paDe ! dAdAzrI : hA, kahevuM paDe ane tamane koI kahenAra nahIM. bhagavAna thaI beThA ! maryAdApUrvaka jIvo, jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA zIkho. te e ja zIkhavADuM chuM ne ! amerikAmAM badhAne e ja zIkhavADuM chuM ne inDiyAmAM zIkhavADuM. zuM karuM te ? pharI pastAvo nA karavo paDe, AvuM kaMI jIvana jIvo ! kahevuM paDe ! A moTA kahenArA AvyA ane oNphisamAM bosa TeDakAvene to. nA sAheba, yu Ara rAITa, yu Ara rAITa, yu Ara rAITa ! A ahIMyAM e kahevAnuM, yu Ara rAITa, kahIe. kaDhI khArI thaI to bolavAnuM-karavAnuM nahIM, cUpa rahevAnuM. ko'ka dADo bhUla nA thAya, koI jANIjoIne bhUla kare ? A to lAga joIne besI rahyo hoya, kyAre kaMIka thAya ! alyA, kaI jAtano che ? potAne eka rUmamAM sUI javAnuM tyAM AgaLa jhaghaDA ? bahArathI jhaghaDo karIne Avo ne ghera ropha mAro beu jaNa cA pIne ! bIbI-chokarAM e to ApaNA Azraye AvelAM che. je ApaNA Azraye AveluM hoya, tene du:kha kema karIne devAya ? sAmAno vAMka hoya to paNa Azritane ApaNAthI praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ane samajadAra nA laDe ne ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : evI rIte A aNasamajaNathI laDe che. ane samajaNa hoya to nA laDe. eTale huM evI samajaNa pADuM eTale tamArI nIkaLI jAya aNasamajaNa. pachI laDavADa nahIM thAya. ame gayA pachI nahIM thAya. jyAM laDavADa che e 'aMDaraDevalarDa' prajA che. saravaiyuM kADhatAM AvaDatuM nathI eTale

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 39 310 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra duHkha nA devAya. vAta vAtamAM ghera jhaghaDA, patnItI pakSe hoya tagaDA ! dAdAzrI : gharamAM jhaghaDA thAya che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : 'mAilDa' thAya che ke kharekharA thAya che ? praznakartA : kharekharA paNa thAya, paNa bIje divase bhUlI jaIe. dAdAzrI : bhUlI nA jAva to karo zuM ? badhuM bhUlI jAya to ja pharI jhaghaDo kare ne ? eka jhaghaDo bhUlyA nA hoya to pharI koNa kare ? praznakartA H ema kahevAya che ne ke ekadhAryuM jIvana jAya to e jIvana nA kahevAya. dAdAzrI : to marelo kahevAya ? praznakartA: majA nA Ave. dAdAzrI : zAstrakAroe kahyuM ke bhasa bhasa kare to mANasa kema kahevAya ? jAnavara ja kahevAya ne ! bahAra jeTalo viveka rAkhe chene lokonI joDe, evo viveka gharamAM rAkhavo joIe. bahAra plIjha plIjha karyA kare ! tyAre evuM gharamAM paNa evuM plIjha plIjha karavAnuM. bena, jIvana to sAruM joIene, kema cAle AvA jIvana ? bahAranA lattAvALA Ave tyAre badhA bhegAM maLIne laDe che ! A loko vivekazUnya thaI gayA che ! mahinAmAM keTalI vakhata jhaghaDA thAya che ? praznakartA: e to hAlatAM ne cAlatAM, svabhAva garama hoya to koI zuM kare ? dAdAzrI : e jhaghaDA karIe eTale ekadama ThaMDo thaI jAya ? praznakartA : e bole rAkhe ne ApaNe sAMbhaLe rAkhavAnuM. dAdAzrI : sAMbhaLavAmAM vAMdho nathI paNa bIjuM tame bolo nahIMne ? praznakartA : nA, pAchA ApaNe bolIe to lAMbuM thAya ne ! dAdAzrI : A to koI ekano jhaghaDo thAya ja nahIM, eka pArTI jhaghaDo karI zake nahIM koI dahADoya. be pArTI cAlu thAya to ja jhaghaDo thAya. e tamArA pakSanI pArTI kaMIka to kare, ToNo mAre, kaMInuM kaMI kare kharuM ? praznakartA : moTuM caDhI jAya evuM kaMIka to thAya. dAdAzrI : hA ! eTale eka pArTI koI dahADo jhaghaDo nA hoya, vana pArTI thaI gaI, ApaNe kazuM ja nA bolIe ne ApaNe manamAM nA rAkhIe to kazuM nA thAya. praznakartA: moDhuM caDhI jAya, ApaNe khasIne jatA rahIe. peluM moDhA para asara thaI jAya paNa bIjA kAmamAM vaLagI jaIe. dAdAzrI : moDhAM para asara zenI thAya mAryA vagara ? mAryA hoya to asara thAya, vagara mAryAne zuM? jo dharmaya rahyo hotane to gharamAM jhaghaDA nA thAta. thAya to te mahinAmAM ekAda vAra thAya. amAsa mahinAmAM eka dA'Do ja Ave ne ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : A to trIseya dahADA amAsa. jhaghaDAmAM zuM maLatuM haze ? praznakartA : jhaghaDAmAM AnaMda Avato haze ? dAdAzrI : A duSamakALa che eTale zAMti rahetI nathI. te baLelo bIjAne bALI mele tyAre ene zAMti thAya. koI AnaMdamAM hoya te ene game nahIM eTale palIto cAMpI jAya tyAre ene zAMti thAya. Avo jagatano svabhAva che. bAkI, jAnavaroya vivekavALAM hoya che, e jhaghaDatAM nathI. kUtarAMya che potAnA lattAvALAM hoya temanI sAthe aMdaroaMdara nA laDe,

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 311 312 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : nukasAna maLe. dAdAzrI : khoTano vepAra to koI kare ja nahIM ne ? koI kahetuM nathI ke khoTano vepAra kare ! kaMIka napho kamAtA to haze ne ? saMsAra e jhaghaDAnuM saMgrahasthAna che, koIne tyAM be AnI, koIne tyAM cAra AnI ne koIne tyAM savA rUpiyA sudhI pahoMcI jAya che ! moTA moTA baMgalAmAM rahe ne pAMca jaNa hoya, chatAM jhaghaDA kare che ! kudarate khAvApIvAnuM Ape che tyAre loka jhaghaDA kare che ! A loko jhaghaDA, kleza-kaMkAza karavAmAM ja zUrA khUba karavAM paDe. ApaNuM kazuM koI letuM nathI. khAvAnuM be TAIma maLe, kapaDAM maLe, pachI zuM joIe ? oraDIne tALuM mArIne jAya, paNa ApaNane be TAIma khAvAnuM maLe che ke nathI maLatuM eTaluM ja jovuM. ApaNane pUrIne jAya toya kaMI nahIM, ApaNe sUI jaIe. pUrvabhavanAM vera evAM baMdhAyelAM hoya ke ApaNane tALAmAM baMdha karIne jAya ! vera ane pAchuM aNasamajaNathI baMdhAyeluM ! samajaNavALuM hoya to ApaNe samajI jaIe ke A samajaNavALuM che, toya ukela AvI jAya. have aNasamajaNanuM hoya tyAM zI rIte ukela Ave ? eTale tyAM vAtane choDI devI. have vera badhAM choDI nAkhavAnAM mATe ko'ka phero amArI pAsethI 'svarUpa jJAna meLavI lejo eTale badhAM vera chUTI jAya. A bhavamAM ne A bhavamAM ja badhAM vera choDI devAnAM, ame tamane rasto dekhADIzuM. mAkaNa kaiDe che, e to bicArA bahu sArA che paNa huM... A dhaNI bairIne kaiDe che. bairI dhaNIne kaiDe che e bahu vasamuM hoya che. keDe ke nA klezita ghera, thA jhaghaDaprUpha, samabhAve kara nikAla' te chUTa ! praznakartA : ApaNe jhaghaDo nA karavo hoya, ApaNe koI dahADo jhaghaDo ja nA karatAM hoIe chatAM gharamAM badhAM jhaghaDA sAmethI roja karyA kare to tyAM zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe 'jhaghaDApUpha thaI javuM. 'jhaghaDApUpha' thaIe to ja A saMsAramAM rahevAze. ame tamane 'jhaghaDAkUpha karI ApIzuM. jhaghaDo karanAroya kaMTALI jAya evuM ApaNuM svarUpa hovuM joIe. koI 'varlDa'mAMya ApaNane 'Dipresa' nA karI zake evuM hovuM joIe. ApaNe 'jhaghaDAprUpha' thaI gayA pachI bhAMjagaDa ja nahIMne ? lokone jhaghaDA karavA hoya, gALo ApavI hoya toya vAMdho nahIM ane chatAMya naphaphaTa kahevAya nahIM, UlaTI jAgRti khUba vadhaze. pUrve je jhaghaDA karelA tenAM vera baMdhAya che ane te Aje jhaghaDA rUpe cUkavAya che. jhaghaDo thAya te ja ghaDIe veranuM bIja paDI jAya, te Avate bhave Ugaze. praznakartA H to e bIja kevI rIte dUra thAya ? dAdAzrI : dhIme dhIme 'samabhAve nikAla' karyA karo to dUra thAya. bahu bhAre bIja paDyuM hoya to vAra lAge, zAMti rAkhavI paDe. pratikramaNa praznakartA : kaiDe. dAdAzrI : to e kaiDavAnuM baMdha karavAnuM che. mAkaNa keDe che e to keDIne jatA rahe. bicArA e mahIM dharAI gayo eTale jato rahe, paNa bairI to kAyama keDatI ja hoya. eka jaNa to mane kahe che, mArI vAIpha mane sApaNanI peTha kaiDe che ! tyAre mUA paiNyo to zuM karavA te sApaNanI joDe ? te e sApa nahIM hoya, mUA ? ema ne ema sApaNa AvatI haze ? sApa hoya tyAre sApaNa Ave ne ? praznakartA H enA karmamAM lakhyuM haze eTale ene bhogavavuM ja rahyuM, eTale e karaDe che, emAM vAIphano vAMka nathI. dAdAzrI : basa. eTale A karmanA bhogavaTA che badhA. tethI evI vAIpha maLI Ave, evo dhaNI maLI Ave. sAsu evA maLI Ave nahIM to A duniyAmAM kevI kevI sAsuo hoya che ! ne ApaNane ja AvA

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314 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 313 kema bhegA thayA ? A to bairI joDe laDavADa karyA kare. alyA, tArA karmano doSa. eTale ApaNA loko nimittane bacakAM bhare, bairI to nimitta che, nimittane zuM karavA bacakAM bhare che, nimittane bacakAM bhare temAM bhalIvAra Ave koI dahADo ? avaLI gatio thAya. badhI A to lokone zuM gati thavAnI che, e kahetAM nathI. eTale bhaDakatAM nathI. jo kahI de ne ke cAra paga ne pUMchaDuM vadhArAnuM, to hamaNe DAhyA thaI jAya. praznakartA : emAM konuM karma kharAba samajavuM ? banne dhaNI-dhaNIyANI laDatAM hoya temAM ? dAdAzrI : bemAMthI je kaMTALe enuM. praznakartA : e laDavAmAM to koI kaMTALe ja nahIM, e to laDyA ja kare ? dAdAzrI : to bannenuM bheguM. aNasamajaNathI badhuM thAya che. jhaghaDyA pachI thavuM paDe eka, re' zarUthI eka, kyAM gayo Teka? ame to eTaluM jANIe ke A jhaghaDyA pachI 'vAIpha'nI joDe vahevAra ja nA mAMDavAno hoya to judI vAta che. paNa pharI bolavAnuM che to pachI vaccenI badhI ja bhASA khoTI che. amAre A lakSamAM ja hoya ke be kalAka pachI pharI bolavAnuM che, eTale enI kacakaca nA karIe. A to tamAre abhiprAya pharI badalavAno nA hoya to judI vAta che. abhiprAya ApaNo badalAya nahIM to ApaNuM kareluM kharuM che. pharI jo 'vAIpha' joDe besavAnA ja nA ho to jhaghaDyA e kharuM che. paNa A to AvatI kAle pharI joDe besIne jamavAnA che. to pachI kAle nATaka karyuM tenuM zuM ? e vicAra karavo paDe ne ? A loko tala zekI zekIne vAve che tethI badhI mahenata nakAmI jAya che. jhaghaDA thatA hoya tyAre lakSamAM hovuM joIe ke A karmo nAca nacAve che. pachI e nAcano jJAnapUrvaka ukela lAvavo joIe. praznakartA : jhaghaDA karanAra banne jaNAe A samajavuM joIe ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, A to 'saba sabakI samAlo'. ApaNe sudharIe to sAmevALo sudhare. A to vicAraNA che, ke ghaDI pachI joDe besavAnuM che to pachI kakaLATa zAne ? zAdI karI che to kakaLATa zAne ? tamAre gaI kAlanuM bhUlAI gayuM hoya ne amane to badhI ja vastu 'jJAna'mAM hAjara hoya. jo ke A to savicAraNA che te "jJAna" nA hoya tene paNa kAma Ave. A to ajJAnathI mAne che ke e caDhI vAgaze. koI amane pUche to ame kahIe ke, 'tuMya bhamaraDo ne eya bhamaraDo. te zI rIte caDhI vAgaze ? e kaMI enA tAbAmAM che ?" te e 'vyavasthita' (saMjogo)nA tAbAmAM che. ane vAIpha caDhIne kyAM upara besavAnI che ? tame jarA namatuM Apo eTale e bicArInA manamAMya oriyo (orato) pUro thAya ke have dhaNI mArA kAbUmAM che ! eTale saMtoSa thAya ene. musalamAnamAM, e lokomAM 'lAkaDAnI bhArI tAre lAvavI paDaze ane pANInI maTakI tAre lAvavI paDaze. huM to burakhAmAM rahIza.' zAdI thAya tyAre bIbI A be kabula karAvI le ! 'lakaDe kI bhArI kabUla ?" tyAre kahe, kabUla. 'pANI kI maTakI kabUla ?" tyAre dhaNI kahe, kabUla. jo atyAre kaMI lakaDe kI bhArI nathI lAvavAnI. pANInI maTakI nathI lAvavAnI, kazo trAsa nathI, tyAre loka pramAdamAM paDyA che. pahelAnAM kALanA loko to khAvAnuM-pIvAnuM na hoya, lUgaDAM-lattAM na hoya toya calAvI letA. ane atyAre kazAnI tANa nahIM toya ATalo badho kakaLATa, kakaLATa, kakaLATa ! temAMya dhaNIne 'inkamaTeksaselsaTeksa'nA lapharAM hoya, eTale tyAMnA sAhebathI e bhaDakatA hoya. ane ghera baIsAhebane pUchIe ke tame zenA bhaDako cho ? tyAre e kahe ke, "mArA dhaNI vasamA che.' AvA saMsAramAM game che tamane A badhuM? praznakartA : atyAre to A saMsAra sAro lAge che. dAdAzrI : kaDavo nathI lAgato ? praznakartA : UMDANamAM jaIe to kaDavo lAge.

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 315 316 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : ATalI badhI kaDavAza lAge che toya kevo A jIvano svabhAva che ? te pAcho kerI kApIne khAIne sUI jAya ! alyA, hamaNe to bIbI joDe laDyo hato ne pAcho zuM joIne kerI khAya che ? laDavADa thAya e bIbI kerI kApIne Ape te zA kAmanI ? paNa tame calAvI lo cho ke nathI calAvI letA ? pachI tame laDo to eya calAvI le. pachI zuM kare te ? beu "mejisTreTa' ! are, rasoIyo gALo bhAMDato hoya ne khavaDAvato hoya to ApaNe chAnAmAnA khaI levuM te cUlo to nA phUkavo paDe, baLyo. sasthI pahelAM dhaNIe mAphI mAgavI, dhaNI moTA manano hoya. baI pahelI nA mAMge. praznakartA : dhaNI moTA manano kahyuM eTale e khuza thaI gayA. dAdAzrI : nA, e moTA manano ja hoya. enuM vizALa mana hoya ane strIo sAhajika hoya. sAhajika hoya eTale mahIMthI udaya Avyo to mAphI mAMge, nAya mAMge. paNa jo tame mAMgo, to tarata mAMgI leze. ane tame udaya karmanA AdhIna nahIM rahevAnA. tame jAgRtinA AdhIna rahevAnA. ane A udayakarmanA AdhIna rahe. e sahaja kahevAya ne ! strI sahaja kahevAya. tamArAmAM sahajatA nA Ave. sahaja thAya to bahu sukhI duHkha Ape te badho gAMDo ahaM, khoTo che jAye chUTe karama ! jeTaluM duHkha Ape e badho aham gAMDo kahevAya. praznakartA : paNa A gAMDo aham che e kevI rIte khabara paDe ? dAdAzrI : mane koI kahe, 'dAdAjI, tame akkala vagaranA cho ! eTale huM samajuM ke A have mAro gAMDo ahaMkAra Ubho nA thAya eTale mane du:kha Ape ja nahIMne. eno ahaMkAra ene game te du:kha Ape. te mane zuM du:ApavAno che ? ane klezo vadhAravA tenA karatAM ahaMkArIne kahI devuM ke mane tamArA vagara gamatuM nathI. to DAhyuM thaI jAya badhuM. bairIne beu jaNa bAjhayA hoyane, te nAnAM chokarAM ene 'jaya saccidAnaMda' kahe eTale cUpa thaI jAya. praznakartA: A aham khoTo che, evuM ApaNe kahevAmAM Ave che ane badhuM sAMbhaLIe che ne saMta puruSo kahe che, chatAM e aham jato kema nathI ? dAdAzrI : aham jAya kyAre, ene khoTo che evuM ApaNe eksepTa karIe tyAre jAya. vAIphanI joDe kakaLATa thato hoya, to ApaNe samajI javuM ke A ApaNo aham khoTo che. eTale ApaNe roja e ahamUthI ja pachI enI mAphI mAMga mAMga karavI aMdara, eTale e aham jato rahe. kaMI upAya to karavo joIene ? kaMI Ama dhotiyuM meluM thayuM hoya to sAbu ghasIye toya mela jato rahe che, evuM Ano kaMI sAbu to jANavo joIe ke nA jANavo joIe ? sAbu nA jANIe ne ema ne ema dho dho karIe to zuM, kyAre patto paDe ? tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : sAcI vAta che. dAdAzrI : eTale tame jeTalI paNa vAra ema kaho ke A aham kharAba che, to e ocho thAya. je bAju aham bagaDelo hoya te mane kaho. to huM tamane badhAya upAya batAvuM. e aham sApha thaI jAya evuM che ane hoya. narasiMha mahetA e bhakta hatA paNa bhaktANI joDe phAvatuM na hatuM. phAve ja nahIM, A to A kaLiyugamAM koIne phAvavA de ke ? ane AjubAjunA loko, kuTuMbIoya badhA mazkarIo karatA hatA. praznakartA : moTA rAjAnI rANIoya rIsAI jatI hatI. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa rIsAI ja jAyane, bahu kaDakAI kare eTale pachI ! gharamAM kleza nA thavo joIe basa. kaMI paNa thAya, UMdhuM catuM thAya, paNa kleza na thavo joIe. gharamAM jhaghaDA nA thavA joIe e dharma hovo joIe base.

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! tadana ahaMkAra ja kADhavo hoya toya paNa e kaho to huM tamane ahaMkAreya kADhI ApuM Akho. tamArI je icchA hoya te kahone. 317 ame A saraLa ne sIdho rasto batADI daIe chIe ane A athaDAmaNa kaMI roja roja thAya che ? e to jyAre ApaNAM karmanA udaya hoya tyAre thAya, teTalA pUratuM ApaNe 'eDajsaTa' thavAnuM. gharamAM vAIpha joDe jhaghaDo thayo hoya to jhaghaDo thayA pachI vAIphane haoNTalamAM laI jaIne, jamADIne khuza karIe. have tAMto nA rahevo joIe. saMsAramAM loka kaMTALIne mota zAthI khoLe che ? A upAdhio game nahIM tethI. vAta to samajavI paDazene ? kyAM sudhI muzkelImAM paDI rahezo ? A to jIvaDAM jevuM jIvana thaI gayuM che ! naryo taraphaDATa taraphaDATa ne taraphaDATa ! manuSyamAM AvyA pachI taraphaDATa kema hoya ? je brahmAMDano mAlika kahevAya tenI A dazA ! AkhuM jagata taraphaDATamAM chene ! taraphaDATa nA hoya to mUrchAmAM hoya. A be sivAya bahAra jagata nathI. A jagatathI chUTakAro meLavavA jevuM che. eTale 'A' jJAna hoya to pachI e bhAMjagaDa nA rahe. jJAna hoya to to ApaNe savAranA pahoramAM darzana ja karIe ne ? vAIphanI mahIMya bhagavAnanAM darzana karavAM ja paDe ne ? vahumAMya dAdA dekhAya to kalyANa thaI gayuM. vahune jouM to A 'dAdA' dekhAyane, enI mahIM zuddhAtmA dekhAyane, eTale kalyANa thaI gayuM ! maravA jAya toya ta de maravA, kAyadA tahIM, samAdhAta karavA ! jeno rasto nathI ene zuM kahevAya ? jeno rasto nA hoya tenI kANamokANa nA karAya. A pharajiyAta jagata che ! gharamAM vahuno klezavALo svabhAva nA gamato hoya, moTA bhAIno svabhAva nA gamato hoya, A bAju bApujIno svabhAva nA gamato hoya, tevA ToLAmAM mANasa phasAI jAya toya rahevuM paDe. kyAM jAya te ? A phasAmaNano kaMTALo Ave, paNa javuM kyAM ? cogaradamathI vADo che. samAjanI vADo hoya. 'samAja mane zuM kaheze ?" sarakAranIya vADo hoya. jo kaMTALIne jaLasamAdhi levA juhunA kinAre jAya pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra to polIsavALA pakaDe. 'alyA bhaI, mane ApaghAta karavA dene, maravA dene nirAMte !' tyAre e kahe, 'nA, maravAya nA devAya. ahIM AgaLa te ApaghAta karavAnA prayAsano guno karyo mATe tane jelamAM ghAlIe chIe !' maravAye nathI detA ne jIvavAye nathI detA, AnuM nAma saMsAra ! mATe rahone nirAMte ! AvuM che pharajiyAta jagata ! 318 mATe jema tema karIne 'eDajasTa' thaIne TAIma pasAra karI nAkhavo eTale devuM vaLI jAya. koInuM paccIsa varSanuM, koInuM paMdara varSanuM, koInuM trIsa varSanuM, nA chUTakeya ApaNe devuM pUruM karavuM paDe. nA game toya enI e ja oraDImAM joDe rahevuM paDe. ahIM pathArI bAIsAhebanI ne ahIM pathArI bhAIsAhebanI ! moDhAM vAMkAM pheravIne sUI jAya toya vicAramAM to bAIsAhebane bhAIsAheba ja Avene ! chUTako nathI. A jagata ja AvuM che. emAMya ApaNane e ekalAM nathI gamatAM evuM nathI. emaneya pAchA ApaNe nA gamatA hoIe ! eTale AmAM majhA kADhavA jevuM nathI. 'DaoNnTa sI laoNjha, plIjha seTala.' (kAyadA nA jozo, samAdhAna karo.) sAmAne 'seTalamenTa' levA kahevAnuM. 'tame Ama karo, tema karo' evuM kahevA mATe TAIma ja kyAM hoya ? sAmAnI so bhUla hoya toya ApaNe to potAnI ja bhUla kahIne AgaLa nIkaLI javAnuM. A kALamAM 'laoN' (kAyadAo) to jovAtA haze ? A to chelle pATale AvI gayeluM che ! jyAM juo tyAM doDAdoDa ne bhAgAbhAga ! loka gUMcAI gayelAM che !! ghera jAya to vAIpha bUmo pADe, chokarAM bUmo pADe, nokarIe jAya to zeTha bUmo pADe, gADImAM jAya to bhIDamAM dhakkA khAya ! kyAMya nirAMta nahIM. nirAMta to joIene ? koI laDI paDe to ApaNe tenI dayA khAvI ke ohoho ! Ane keTalo badho akaLATa haze te laDI paDe che ! akaLAya te badhA nabaLA che. nAnA chokarAneya mahIM baLatarA baMdha thaI jAyane, to gamene ? eTale moTo thayo eTale 'huM kaMIka chuM' kahe che. alyA, 'kaMIka chuM' kahIne vAIpha joDe jhaghaDo thayo te nikAla karatAM nathI AvaDatuM ne kahe che 'huM kaMIka chuM'. vAIphanI joDe jhaghaDo kare ne teya kesa penDiMga che lokonA !

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 319 320 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra jAgyo tyAMthI Dakho kare ghera, vinaMtI karuM TALa vANI jhera ! manuSya thaIne prApta saMsAramAM Dakho nA kare, to saMsAra evo saraLa ne sIdho cAlyA kare. paNa A prApta saMsAramAM Dakhala ja karyA kare che. jAgyo tyArathI ja Dakhala. prApta saMyogomAM saheja paNa Dakhala nA hoya, to bhagavAnanI sattA rahe. tene badale Dakho kare ane potAnI sattA UbhI kare che. 'huM pachI A Ama kema karyuM A Ama.." alyA mUA, pAMsaro marane. cA pIne chAnomAno moDhuM dhoIne. ane bIbIye jAgyA tyArathI Dakhala karyA kare, ke "jarA A bAbAne hIMcako nAkhatA paNa nathI, jo A kyArano raDyA kare che !' tyAre pAcho dhaNI kaheze, 'tArA peTamAM hato tyAM sudhI huM kaMI hIMcako nAkhavA Avyo hato ! tArA peTamAMthI bahAra nIkaLyo to tAre rAkhavAno.' A pAMsarI nA hoya tyAre zuM kare che ? praznakartA : tame Dakho nahIM karo kahyuMne, e badhuM jema che tema paDI rahevA devuM joIe. gharamAM bahu mANaso hoya ? dAdAzrI : paDI rAkhavuM nA joIe ane Dakhoya nA karavo joIe. praznakartA : evuM kevI rIte thAya ? dAdAzrI : vaLI Dakho hoto haze ? Dakho to ahaMkAranuM gAMDapaNa kahevAya ! praznakartA : kaMIka kArya hoya to kahevAya kharuM gharamAM, ke ATaluM karajo ema ? dAdAzrI : paNa kahevA kahevAmAM phera hoya. praznakartA : imozana vagara kahevAnuM. imozanala nahIM thaI javAnuM ne kahevAnuM ema ? dAdAzrI : Ama vANI, kevI mIThI bole che ke kahetAM pahelAM ja e samajI jAya ! praznakartA : A kaDaka vANI, karkaza vANI hoya ene zuM karIe ? dAdAzrI : karkaza vANI, tyAre e ja Dakho hoyane ! karkaza vANI emAM zabda umeravo paDe, ke 'huM vinaMtI karuM chuM ATaluM karajo.' 'huM vinaMtI..." eTalo zabda umerIne kare.. praznakartA H have ApaNe moTethI ema kahIe ke, 'eya thALI uMcaka ahIMthI' ane ApaNe dhIme kahIe, 'tuM thALI uMcaka ahIMthI' eTale e je bolavAnuM je presara che.... dAdAzrI : e Dakho nA kahevAya. have pelA upara ropha mAro to Dakho kahevAya. praznakartA : eTale dhImethI bolavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : nA, e to dhImethI bolo to cAle. ane e to dhImethI bole toya Dakho karI nAkhe. eTale tamAre kahevAnuM 'huM vinaMtI karuM chuM. te ATaluM karajone' mahIM zabda umeravo paDe. Amane TempararI zAMti nathI joItI. A badhAM paramenanTa zAMti mATe bhegAM thayAM che. tamAre zAMti TempararI joIe che ke paramenanTa ? praznakartA : paramenanTa. dAdAzrI : tamAre hau paramenanTa zAMti joIe che ? zuM karavI che ? vahu che, chokarA traNa che, pachI..... praznakartA : vahu to badhAyane haze ja ne ! vaDhavADa nA thatI hoya evuM to mane posIbala (zakyo ja nathI lAgatuM. ane koI kahetuM hoya to e khoTuM che. dAdAzrI : ema ? praznakartA : mANasa potAnAM gharanAM joDe ja vaDhavADa karene ! potAnAM

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 32 1 322 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra nIkaLatuM hoya to sAruM. paTTI mArIe eTale besI jAya. A mAnasika ghA para to paTTIya nA lAge koI ! tarachoDa-tiraskAra vANItA ghA, vera bhavobhava paDe bhogavavA ! gharanAM badhAne patnIne, nAnI bebIne, koI paNa jIvane tarachoDI mArIne mokSe nA javAya. saheja paNa tarachoDa vAge e mokSano mArga na hoya. praznakartA : tiraskAra ane tarachoDa e bemAM zuM phera ? mANasa joDe. dAdAzrI : bahAranAM joDe karene, to mArI mArIne choDAM kADhI nAkhe ! bahAranAM joDe kare zI rIte ? A gharanAM che te sAMbhaLI le badhA. ane bahAra hoya to sAMdhA toDI nAkhene enA. eTale gharanAMne ja badhA mArAmArI kare ane puruSeya jarA evuM, Thoke badhuM. bahAra vaDhI jo joIe? tame bahAra vaDho cho ? TrAyala karI juo cho ? praznakartA: karyo ja nathIne koInI joDe. dAdAzrI : haju karyo nathI ? karI juone ekuya... vaNamAMgI salAha na apAya, aMtara yuddha so bhava baMdhAya ! praznakartA: ghaNIvAra moTI laDavADa gharamAM thaI jAya che to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : DAhyo mANasa hoyane to lAkha rUpiyA Ape toya vaDhavADa nA kare ! ne A to vagara paise laDavADa kare, to e anADI nahIM to zuM? bhagavAna mahAvIrane karmo khapAvavA sATha mAIla cAlIne anADI kSetramAM javuM paDeluM ne AjanA loka puNyazALI te ghera beThAM anADIkSetra che ! kevAM dhanya bhAgya ! A to atyaMta lAbhadAyI che. karmo khapAvavA mATe, jo pAMsaro rahe to. gharamAM sAmo pUche, salAha mAge to ja javAba Apavo. vagara pUchyuM salAha ApavA besI jAya ene bhagavAne ahaMkAra kahyo che. dhaNI pUche ke, 'A pyAlA kyAM mUkavAnA che?' to baI javAba Ape ke, "phalANI jagyAe mUko.' te ApaNe tyAM mUkI devA. tene badale e kahe ke, 'tane akkala nathI, ahIM pAchuM kyAM mUkavAnuM tuM kahe che ?" eTale baI kahe ke, "akkala nathI tyAre to meM tamane AvuM kahyuM, have tamArI akkalathI mUko." Ano kyAre pAra Ave ? A saMyogonI athaDAmaNa che khAlI ! te bhamaraDA khAtI vakhate, UThatI vakhate athaDAyA ja kare. pachI bhamaraDA TIcAya che ne cholAya che ne lohI nIkaLe che. A to mAnasika lohI nIkaLavAnuM ne ! peluM lohI dAdAzrI : tarachoDa ane tiraskAramAM, tiraskAra to vakhate khabara nAye paDe. tarachoDa AgaLa tiraskAra e bilakula mAilDa vastu che, jyAre tarachoDanuM to bahu ja ugra svarUpa che, tarachoDathI to tarata ja lohI nIkaLe evuM che. A dehanuM lohI nA nIkaLe, paNa mananuM lohI nIkaLe evI tarachoDo bhAre vastu che. praznakartA : tiraskAranuM ane tarachoDanuM, beunAM phaLa kevAM kevAM prakAranAM hoya ? dAdAzrI : tiraskAranuM phaLa eTaluM badhuM bahu moTuM nA Ave. jyAre tarachoDanuM phaLa to bahu moTuM Ave. tiraskAra to manuSyone svabhAvika rIte rahe ja. jene rAga hoya ene dveSa hoya ja. ane dveSa eTale tiraskAra. e baTAkA nA khAto hoya, eTale ene baTAkA upara tiraskAra rahyA ja kare. dekhe tyAMthI ene tiraskAra thAya. jyAM tyAga karyo hoya tyAM tiraskAra varte. jyAre tarachoDa to bahu moTI kharAba vastu che. A talavArathI to dehane lohI nIkaLe paNa tarachoDathI to manane lohI nIkaLe ! tarachoDa sAmAnA badhAya daravAjA baMdha karI de. jene ApaNe tarachoDa mArI hoyane, e eno daravAjo kAyama ughADe nahIM. e zuM kaheze ke badhAne javA dauM paNa tane nahIM javA dau. ApaNI tarachoDanI enI pAse kSamA mAgI lene to e badhuM UDI jAya.

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324 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 323 ApaNA madhara hoya ene ApaNe kahIe ke tuM akkala vagaranI che, Ama che, tema che, tane kazuM khAvAnuM karatAM AvaDatuM nathI. e badho tiraskAra kahevAya. paNa ene ema kahIe ke tuM mArA bApanI vahu thauM to ? to pachI ene tarachoDa vAge. A tarachoDa to evI vAge ke enA manane mahIM lohI nIkaLyA kare. have emAM ApaNe zuM khoTuM kahyuM che ? e bApanI vahu na hoya ? vAta tadana sAcI che paNa vyavahArika vastu nathI e. satya che. paNa nagna satya che, evuM nA cAle. tyAM vyavahArika satya joIe. vyavahArika satya kevuM hoya ? ke satyanI joDe sAmAne priya lAge tevuM hoya, sAmAne hitakArI hoya. sAmAne ahitakArI satya e satya nathI. ane mita hoya, thoDA zabdomAM hoya. reDiyAnI peTha gA gA nA karyA kare. eTale je satya-hita-priya-mita hoya enuM nAma satya, bAkI bIjuM badhuM asatya che. eTale keTalAka "mArA bApanI vahu' jevuM bole ne badho dukALa pADI de. pachI madhara zuM kaheze ? raDyA, moTuM nA dekhADIza. tuM jA ahIMthI, te pachI pANI paNa nA pAya. paNa A badhI aNasamajaNanI tarachoDa kahevAya. jyAre pelI to samajaNavALI tarachoDa, enAthI to AkhuM mana kapAI jAya. samajaNapUrvaka tarachoDa mAre ne to mananA be TukaDA thaI jAya. aNasamajaNanI tarachoDathI to lohI nIkaLe paNa pAchuM maTI jAya, rujhAI jAya, jyAre samajaNapUrvakanI tarachoDathI to pelAnAM mananA be TukaDA ja thaI jAya. evI jAta jAtanI tarachoDa mAre che ane pachI jagatamAM sukhI thavAnI icchA rAkhe che. paNa kevI rIte sukhI thAya ? e tarachoDI kone mAre che ? pelA sAmA mANasane nathI mArato, bhagavAnane mAre che. eTale tame ahIM je je karo, je je gALo dezo, to e bhagavAnane ja pahoMce che. e mANasane pahoMcatI nathI. ahIMnA badhA ja, saMsAranAM badhAM ja pariNAma e bhagavAna svIkAre che. mATe e pariNAma evAM karajo ke bhagavAna svIkAre to tyAM ApaNuM kharAba nA dekhAya. praznakartA : keTalAka loko potAnI bairIne choDI de che, to ene tarachoDa nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : jagata ene tarachoDa kahe, bAkI bhagavAna ene tarachoDa nA kahe, eTale ene tarachoDanI kalama nA lAge. jo bairI joDe mIThI mIThI vANI vAparato hoya, bairI kahe ke 'huM have zuM karuM ? huM to duHkhI thaI jaIza." to te pelo mIThuM mIThuM bolato hoya ke, 'mArA to nasIba ja phUTalAM che. mAre bhAga to AvuM haze e Ama tema karIne chUTI jato hoya to bairIne choDatAMya bairIne tarachoDa nA vAge. praznakartA : paNa koI bairIne kADhI ja mUke to tarachoDa gaNAya ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : e bairIne kADhI mUke toya tarachoDa nA vAge. jene vANI mIThI, sArI bolatAM AvaDe che, tenI koI jagyAe koIneya tarachoDa nA vAge. ' are, vANInA ghA to eka avatAra nahIM, so-so avatAra sudhI paNa rUjhAtA nathI. tethI ame kahIe chIene, A tarachoDa vAge evuM bolIza to bhavobhavanuM vera bAMdhIne zuM thaze tAruM ? eka ja jIva evo nIkaLene te nakkI kare ke mAruM je thavAnuM haze te thaze paNa Ane to mokSa nA ja javA dauM. potAne hoDamAM mUkI de Akho ja, to mokSe javA nA de. kAraNa ke verano svabhAva evo che, hoDa muke, sattAmAM ja ghAlI de ane mokSe javA nA de. ane pote jAya nahIM. jIvana jIvatAM ja nA AvaDe tyAre zuM thAya ? jIvana jIvavuM e to bahu moTI kaLA che. te ApaNe ekalA ja zIkhavADIe chIe. bIje koI jagyAe jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA nathI hotI. juone, A jIvana che ne laDe-kare......... sAmasAmI laDe ja. Ama dekhItI vaDhavADa nA kare, e mahIM vaDhavADa karanArA, bahAra vaDhavADa nahIM. e mahIMlI vaDhavADa karanArA. bahAranI vaDhavADa to ekAvatArI hoya. eka avatAramAM e zUnyatAne pAme ane aMdaranI vaDhavADa to so-so avatAra sudhI cAlyA kare !

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326 325 (17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra karma udaye pati-patnI thayAM, zAte TutA meNAM ToNAM taryA ? eka bena che te mane kahe che, tame mArA phAdhara hoya evuM lAge che gayA avatAranA. bena bahu sarasa, bahu saMskArI. pachI benane kahyuM ke A dhaNI joDe zI rIte meLa paDe che ? tyAre kahe, e koI dahADo bole nahIM. kazuM bole nahIM. tyAre meM kahyuM, koIka dahADo kazuMka to thatuM hazene ? tyAre kahe, nA, koIka dahADo ToNo mAre. hA, eTale samajI gayo. tyAre meM pUchyuM ke e ToNo mAre tyAre tame zuM karo ? tame te ghaDIe lAkaDI laI Avo ke nahIM ? tyAre e kahe ke "nA, huM emane kahyuM ke karmanA udaye tame ane huM bhegAM thayA chIe. huM judI, tame judA. have Ama zuM karavA karo cho ? zenA mATe ToNA mAravAnA ane A badhuM zuM che ? AmAM koInoya doSa nathI. e badhuM karmanA udayano doSa che. mATe ToNA mAro enA karatAM karmane ApaNe cUkate karI nAkhone ! e vaDhavADa sArI kahevAyane ! atyAra sudhI to badhI bahu baIo joI, paNa AvI UMcI samajavALI to A baI ekalI ja joI. have AvI vAta kare ke karmanA hisAbe ApaNe bhegAM thayAM chIe, tyArathI nA samajIe, keTalA UMcA saMskAra ! e saMskAra bolavAnA AvaDe kyAMthI ? ane A to saMskAranI vAta chene ! bahu UMcA saMskAra ne ! ane bIjI baI hoya to kaheze, tame AvA cho ne tevA cho ne... keTalA vizeSaNa Ape ? DiksanarImAM nA hoya eTalA huM ke... DiksanarImAM khoLavA jaIe pachI ApaNe, ke A vizeSaNa che ke nahIM, DiksanarImAM to nA hoya e. atyAre to gharamAM badhAe bhegAM besavuM, khAvuM, pIvuM ane pAchuM laDavuM. e ja dhaMdho mAMDyo chene ! temAM ApaNA loko to lAkaDI laIne mAratA nathI, paNa moDhAnA zabdo mAre ! zabdo bahu moTA baoNmba jevA mAre ! DAdhiyo bhasyA kare javAtImAM, baMdA 'apakSa' te mA-bacyAM koMgresamAM ! koI dahADo gharamAM boksiMga-boksiMga thAya che ke ? boksiMga nahIM ? ke nAnapaNamAM thatuM hatuM ? praznakartA : boksiMga to nathI karI. dAdAzrI : boksiMga nahIM ? kasarata karavAnI Teva nahIM ? hAtha upaDI jAyane ? pachI e to ! ekano hAtha upaDe tyAre bIjo kaMI choDe ke ? amArA eka oLakhANavALA bhAIbaMdha hatA. jarA mijAjanA tara, te Akho dahADo bairInI khoDo kADha kADhe karyA kare. amathI amathI najIvI bAbatomAM khoDo kADha kADhe karyA kare. ene sAta to chokarAMo hatAM, cAra chokarA ne traNa choDIo. te badhAMya bApAne Ama tIrachI najare jue ke A mArAM bAne vaDha vaDhe ja karyA kare che. have chokarAM nAnAM, te ghaDIe adhikAra vagara zuM kare ? paNa manamAM zuM rAkhe ke A bApA mArI mAne vaDha vaDha kare che. te pachI bhaIbaMdhane meM kahyuM ke, A chokarAM moTAM thaze tyAre A kurakuriyAM dekhAya chene e badhAM kurakuriyAM ane pelI kUtarI, badhAM sAmA thaze, tyAre DAghiyAnuM tela kADhI nAkhaze. kUtarI ane badhAM kurakuriyAM bhegA thaIne bhasavA lAge to DAghiyAnI zI dazA thAya ? meM ene kahyuM, A baIne kahevAnuM choDI de chAnomAno, nahIM to ghara AkhuM baInI tarapha thaI jazene tuM eka tarapha rahI jaIza ! ahIM bacakAM bhare, ahIM bacakAM bhare, pelA kurakuriyAM to mAnA pakSamAM ja bese. bApanA pakSamAM koI nA bese. pachI e loko tAruM tela kADhI nAkhaze. mATe cetIne cAlaje. te pachI e bicArA samajI gayA. nahIM to AkhI jiMdagI mAra khAta ! eTale strInI joDe ADuM teDuM nA karazo ! evuM nA karAya !! praznakartA : jo ApaNe bairIne kazuM kahIe nahIM to ene avaLuM protsAhana maLene ? dAdAzrI : kahevAnuM badhuMya, paNa ene duHkha nahIM ApavAnuM. trAsa nahIM ApavAno ! eka baeNnkanA menejara AvelA. e mane kahe ke dAdAjI, koI dahADo gharamAM huM bairIne kazuM kaheto ja nathI, chokarAMne kazuM kaheto ja nathI. chokarAM game teTaluM bagADa kare toya kazuM bolato ja nathI. tyAre meM kahyuM ke pelo

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADe ! 327 328 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra bairIne mAre che e sAro, tuM to enA karatAMya vadhAre nAlAyaka kahevAya. tyAre kahe ke kema ? kema ? evuM kaho cho ? meM kahyuM ke bAbo ahIM tophAna karato hoya to ApaNe kahevuM paDe ke AvI rIte ahIM tophAna nA karazo. ene samajaNa pADIne kahevuM paDe. tuM to kazuM bolato ja nathI. tenA karatAM to A kabATa sAruM. tuM to kabATa jevo thaI gayo. loka jANe ke A bApa thayo. bAkI to tuM eka kabATa jevo chuM. kaI jAtano mANasa chuM te ? eTale mAravAnuM nahIM, du:kha devAnuM nahIM. tema kabATa jevA thavAnuMya nahIM. kevI rIte rahevAnuM samajaNa paDIne ? e baI ne chokarAMne samajAvI paTAvIne vAtacIta karavI. nahIM to pachI ApaNe kabATa thaI gayA. koI bole, gALo bhAMDe to kabATa kazuM bole ? sAmo aNasamajaNathI duHkhI thAya tenA ApaNe gunegAra nathI. ApaNe to nyAyathI samajAvavuM joIe ke A bhUla ahIM AgaLa che, mATe Ane duHkha thAya che. gharanA mANasane to sahejeya duHkha devAya ja nahIM. jenAmAM samaja nA hoya te gharanAMne du:kha de. ane dhaNIe nakkI karavuM joIe ke mArI vAIphane saheja paNa duHkha na thavuM joIe. evuM nakkI nA karavuM paDe ? bhale sukha nA apAya, paNa ene duHkha nA paDavA daIe. e ApaNane duHkhI kare to vAMdho nahIM, calAvI levAnuM. koIne duHkha daIne ApaNe mokSe jaIe e bane kharuM ? ane kaLiyuganAM manuSyo to eTalAM badhAM akkalavALAM ne te gharanAM mANasone duHkha Ape. A bahAdura kahevAya ? A zUravIra kahevAya ? bairI upara dhaNI thAya e zUravIra kahevAtA haze ? zuM zUravIranA laDakA ? mAro svabhAva mULa kSatriya svabhAva, te kSatriya blaDa amAruM, te uparIne TeDakAvAnI Teva, anDarahenDane sAcavavAnI Teva. A kSatriyapaNuM mULa guNa, te anDarahenDane rakSaNa karavAnI Teva. eTale vAIpha ne e badhAM to anDarahenDa eTale emanuM rakSaNa karavAnI Teva. e avaLuM-savaLuM kare toya paNa rakSaNa karavAnI Teva. nokaro hoyane te badhAnuM rakSaNa karavAnuM. enI bhUla thaI hoyane, toya ene bicArAne nahIM kahuM ane uparI hoya to mAthA toDI nAkhyuM. ane jagata AkhuM aMDarahenDanI joDe kacakaca kare, alyA mUA, bairI jevo che tuM. bairI AvuM kare, aMDarahenDane, A tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che, sAcI vAta che. dAdAzrI : kaMI nyAya nA hovo joIe ? ane strIonI joDe to AvuM nA thAya. gharanI aMdara sephasAIDa (salAmatI) rAkhavI sArI ke nahIM sArI ? dhola mArIne AvavI hoya to Ave, chUTa che paNa gharamAM nahIM. strInI joDe nahIM. gharamAM potAnI strI, vizvAsa rAkhavAnuM sAdhana. tyAM vizvAsa sAmasAmI tUTI jAya eTale jIvanayujhalesa (nakAmuM) thaI jAya. patnIne mAre te pati kasAI, khIle bAMdhelI A gAya kyAM jAya ? praznakartA : ApaNe paNa emanI jarUriyAta poSIe ja chIene ? dAdAzrI : vaLI eTalo badho ropha mAravAnI zI jarUra che te ? tyAM oNphisamAM laDone ? ahIM zuM karavA bAInI joDe laDo cho ? praznakartA : paNa dAdAjI bahAra mAravA jaIe to to e to sAme mAreya khAvo paDe. dAdAzrI : te A hamaNe mAra nahIM khAvo paDe, hamaNe tarata nahIM Ape, e to gAtara DhIlAM thAya pachI Apaze ! praznakartA : dhaNI bairIne mAre to bairIe zuM karavA Ama TakIne rahevuM joIe mAra khAIne ? dAdAzrI : paNa e to chUTako ja nahIMne TakIne rahe... samAja evo chene ke bairIne kahIe tuM jatI rahe toya nA jatI rahe. kAraNa ke mane mArA mAbApa zuM kaheze, mArA mAbApanuM zuM thaze, phalANAnuM zuM thaze, samAjanuM evuM dabANa che jabarajasta ke samAjamAM rahelI te kyAM nAsI jAya ? ApaNe gharamAM paiNI lAvyA ane bairIne vaDhavaDha karyA karIe, te zenA jevuM che ? ke gAyane khIle bAMdhIne pachI mAra mAra karIe. khIle bAMdhIe ne mAra mAra karIe to? AmathI mArIe to pelI bAju jAya bicArI ! A eka khIle

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 329 330 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra bAMdhelI kyAM javAnI che ? A samAjano khIlo evo jabaro che ke bhAgIya nA zake. khIle bAMdhelIne mArIe to bahu pApa lAge. khIle nA bAMdhI hoya to hAthamAM ja nA Avene ? A to samAjane laIne dabAyelI rahI che. nahIM to kyAranIya bhAgIne jatI raheta. Divorsa lIdhA pachI mAra joIe ? to zuM thAya ? A to khIle bAMdhelI, tevI A strI paiNelI che, kyAM jAya bicArI ? praznakartA : eTalA mATe TakI rahyuM che ! dAdAzrI : nahIM to zuM thAya ? ApaNA loko to baMdhanavALA. TakI kemanuM rahe ? jAya kyAM che ? A phorenaro jevuM nahoya A, ke jatuM rahe. manamAM vicAra kare ke mAruM duniyAmAM zuM dekhAze, khoTuM dekhAze ! Ama karIne rahe, Take, nA nAsI jAya. ahIM e baI bicArI sahana karaze bAkI ene kudarata A sahana nahIM kare. A lokone to bhAna ja nathI ke AnuM mane zuM du:kha paDaze ? mArI javAbadArI zuM che ? gharanA mANaso khIle bAMdhelAM jevA che, tene mArIe to ApaNe nagoDa kahevAIe. ene choDI de ne pachI mAra, to te tane mAraze athavA to nAsI jaze. bAMdhelAne mAravuM e zUravIranuM kAma kema kahevAya ? e to bAyalAnAM kAma kahevAya. eTale vAta ema che ke dhaNIe na mAravuM joIe. chatAM mAre che e ja guno che. te nabaLAIo kADhavAnI ApaNe kahIe chIe. marAya kema strIne ? ema strIthI puruSaneya kema hAtha aDADAya ? hindustAnamAM badhA puruSaneya hau hAtha aDADe che. A to bairAM, chokarAM, choDIo badhuM bAMdhelA che bicArAM. phemilIne nA marAya. ene kazuM kahevAya nahIM. e ApaNane kahI jAya, paNa ApaNAthI nA kahevAya. tame heDa opha dha phemilI kahevAo. phorenavALI khIle bAMdhelI kema nathI ane A kema khIle bAMdhelI e tuM mane kahe ? praznakartA : kema khIle bAMdhelI nathI, kaho cho ? dAdAzrI : bairI carcamAM jaIne paiNelI hoya, to paiNelI to kahevAya ne A che te corImAM paiNelI hoya, paiNelI to beu che. paNa pelI khIle bAMdhelI nA kahevAya. khUba TeDakAvone to jatI rahe 'yu Dema' karIne ane A nA jatI rahe. enuM zuM kAraNa ? khIle bAMdhelI eTale samAjano Dara, samAjamAM mane zuM kaheze e Dara. ame amerikA gayA tyAre eka jaNa kahe che, dAdAjI, A dezamAM traNa W (Dabalyu), kayA kahetA hatA ke ? praznakartA : varka (kAma), vumana (strI) ane vedhara (havAmAna). dAdAzrI : enuM ThekANuM nahIM kahe che. varka (kAma) kyAre jatuM rahe kahevAya nahIM, strI kyAre bhAgI jAya kahevAya nahIM ane havA kyAre badalAya e kahevAya nahIM, kahe che. paNa meM kahyuM, ApaNA InDiyanone evuM che ? tyAre kahe, nA, InDiyanone mATe nahIM, phorenavALA mATe. ApaNA lokone to samAjanuM baMdhana che. ApaNA saMskAra nA jAya ! praznakartA : have ApaNuMya evuM thatuM jAya che. dAdAzrI : ema ? eTale te pahelAM ApaNe vicAravaMta, DAhyA thaI javuM joIe. phorenavALA DAhyA thaI zake ema nathI ane ApaNe DAhyA thaI zakIe ema che haju. praznakartA : A to amerikAmAM have evuM thaI gayuM che, mAre che tyAMya ! dAdAzrI : saMskAra ApanArA rahyA nahIM eTale pachI kusaMskArI thayA loko. sArI vAta zIkhavADanAra koI rahe nahIM to pachI mANasa Ama UMdhe ja raste cAle ne ! tabaLo dhaNI bairI para zUro, mautathI patnI para tApa pUro ! praznakartA : e to InDiyAno dharma kahevAya. puruSo bairAMone game tema bole ne !

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! dAdAzrI : e vAta kevI che, 'nabaLo dhaNI bAyaDI upara zUro', ApaNe tyAM eka kahevata che. te khoTI haze ke sAcI haze ? praznakartA : sAcI. 331 dAdAzrI : haM. keTalAMka lokono kAyado kevo ? bahArathI mArIne Ave. gharamAM bairIne hIMcakA hau nAkhe. ane keTalAkano kAyado kevo ? bahAra mAra khaIne mIAuM thaIne Ave ane aMdara gharamAM laDavADa kare. eTale pachI ApaNA lokoe kahevata kADhI, 'nabaLo dhaNI, bairI para zUro'. keTalAka mANaso gharamAM zUrA hoya che te bAIDIne AvaDA AvaDA zabda bole, A kaMI jAtano mANasa chuM te ? bIbI gALo nA detI hoya toya e bIbIne de de karyA kare ! bAyaDI para zUro eno artha zuM ? ke baI upara, chokarAM upara, choDIone Akho dahADo TaiDakAva TaiDakAva kare. eTale gharamAM AvuM nA hovuM joIe. A vAkya sAMbhaLyuM jyArathI nAnI uMmaramAM ke nabaLo dhaNI bAyaDI upara zUro, meM kahyuM, bhalA huM nabaLo ! A AmanI joDe zUravIratA karI meM ! potAnI jAtane tapAsI jovuM joIe ke nahIM ? pote nabaLo nahIM. pahelAM nabaLAI thaI gayelI. amatho amatho matabheda paDI jAya vAtavAtamAM, paNa pacAsa varSathI to nahIM ja. koI dahADo vaDhavAnuM nahIM. hIrAbAthI UMdhuM chatuM thAya toya vaDhavAnuM nahIM, vahuM to huM nAlAyaka kahevAuM. strIone vaDhAya nahIM, e guno che. praznakartA : hIrAbAthI rasoI barAbara nA thaI hoya toya nA laDo ? dAdAzrI : rasoI barAbara nA thaI ema nahIM, e Ama devatA laIne jatA hoya ne mArI para paDe toya nA laDuM. praznakartA : to pachI ApanAthI gabharAya kema ? dAdAzrI : e ja, huM nA laDuM eTale ja gabharAmaNa bese. laDavAthI mANasanuM vajana tUTI jAya. eka phero kUtaro bhasyo, eTale pelAM samajI jAya ke AnAmAM barakata nathI, barakata vagarano che. e nahIM bolavAthI ja vajana paDe ane 'bhAbho bhAramAM, to vahu lAjamAM', e samajAya evI vAta che. 332 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : barAbara samajAyuM. dAdAzrI : eTale hIrAbAne niraMtara phaphaDATa, kazuM boluM nahIM, vaDhIe nahIM toya ! premathI ja vahu vaza varate, mitra jema jIvavAtI zarate ! atyAre koI bairI dhaNIne duHkha detI hoya to pUrvabhavanuM vera hoya to vALe. A badhuM verathI badhuM baMdhAyeluM che, premathI nathI. prema to matabheda ja nA paDavA de ! enuM nAma lAIpha (jIvana) kahevAya ! mATe ene prema dekhADa. avaLI havaLI hoyane toya tuM prema dekhADa. to eka dahADo e premane vaza thAya evI vastu che. strI jAti premane vaza thAya evI che. bAkI bIjI rIte vaza nathI thAya evI. ene kazuM ja joItuM nathI bicArIne, phakta prema mAMge che. tyAre nA mAMge e prema ? mA-bApa choDIne ahIMyAM Ave to prema nA mAge ? eTale phrenDa tarIke rahevuM joIe. jema phrenDa hoyane evI rIte jIvana jIvavuM joIe. premathI ! dhaNI to nA thaI javuM joIene ? 'miniTe'ya bhAMjagaDa nA paDe enuM nAma dhaNI. mitra joDe jema bagaDavA nathI detA tema sAcavavuM. mitra joDe nA sAcave to mitratA tUTI jAya. mitrAcArI eTale mitrAcArI. emane zarta kahI devAnI 'tuM mitrAcArImAM, jo AuTa oNpha mitrAcArI thaI jAuM to guno lAgI jaze. saMpIne mitrAcArI rAkha !' paiNyA, te samAjanA Dara mATe paiNyA ke ApaNane Dara rahe ke nAsI nahIM javAya have. Aja vaDhavADa thaIne, nAsI jAya to loko zuM kahe ? eTalA hAru paiNavAnuM. pachI mitrAcArI karavI. mitrAcArImAM kevo sAro saMbaMdha rAkhe ? phrenDa joDe sinsiyara rahe che, ema ke phrenDa tyAM rahyo rahyo kahe ke mAro phrenDa Avo. mArA mATe kharAba vicAra kare ja nahIM. tema AnA mATe kharAba vicAra nA thAya. phrenDa karatAM vadhAre nA kahevAya ? praznakartA H kahevAya, kharI vAta che.

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(17) vAIpha joDe vaDhavADa ! 333 dAdAzrI : ApaNe to have "samabhAve nikAla karavAno. gharamAM 'vAIpha' joDe 'phrenDa' tarIke rahevAnuM. e tamArA phrenDa' ne tame emanA 'phrenDa' ! be mitro badhA sAcavI sAcavIne rahe che, to A mitro karatAMya vadhAre kahevAya, A to dhaNI, be mitro kAyadesara rahe che, sAcavI sAcavIne mitrAcArI nabhAve che ane mitromAM jo evo kakaLATa thAya to mitro chUTI jAya. paNa A to strI chUTe nahIM, e to chUTe zI rIte ? sAmAjika baMdhana che, kyAM jAya ? eTale mAra khAya pachI, gALo khAya, sAMbhaLe ane strIo pachI sAmI thAya. (18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! rAtre bhAMjagaDa, savAre tAMto, cUMTI le bAbAte, karAve vAto ! have rAte che te bena joDe bhAMjagaDa thaI hoya tamAre, to e tAMto ene rahe, te savAramAM cA mUke to TacakAro mAre Ama. heya... e tame samajI jAva ke haM... tAMto haju to che, TADhA paDyA nathI. samaja paDIne ? praznakartA : hA, hA. dAdAzrI : Ama TacakAro mAre, enuM nAma toto. eTale eka jaNane tyAM gayo hato huM, te baIe jarA khakhaDAvyuM nahIM. eTale huM samajI gayo ke baInI joDe A bhAMjagaDa thayelI haze. eTale meM kahyuM, bena, jo huM be dA'DA rahevAno chuM, tuM bhUlI jaje haM. tuM jANe tArA dhaNIne chetaruM, paNa mane nahIM chetarI zakuM. te mArI hAjarImAM taNacho mAryo, kahyuM. eTale pachI enA dhaNIne rUbarUmAM meM kahyuM, 'A e zuM kare che, zAthI A kare che ? e tamane dabAvA phare che. ane te gusse thaI jauM eTale e jANe ke hA, cAlo ThaMDo narama thaI gayo. paNa gusse nA thauM, to e vadhAre kare pachI...' AvuM kakaLATa chatAM gusse nA thAya pelo, to pachI aMdara jaI ane be-cAra vAsaNone Ama karIne pADee khaNaNaNa.... avAja thAya eTale pAcho pelo ciDAya. jo toya nA ciDAyo to bAbAne cUMTI khaNI le eTale raDAve. pachI pelo ciDAya, pappo. 'tuM bAbAnI pAchaLa paDI chuM. bAbAne zuM karavA vacce lAve che ?" Ama tema, eTale pelI

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335 336 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra sinemA sajoDe te bAbo khabhe, rastAmAM yuddha, lagna kema tame ? eka bhAI hatA te bahAra pharavA nIkaLyA, sinemA jovA gayA. te baI chokarA mATe kahe che ke lyo, have tame bAbAne khabhe melo ! te baI thAke ne bicArI ! chokarAne bhAIe nAkhyo Ama loco pAcho ! Ama khabhe nAkhIne ThaMDavuM to paDene chokarAne ! bApa thayelo Ama khabhe nAkhavuM nA paDe ? pachI rastAmAM kacakaca kare te cAle ke huM nathI aDavAno ? praznakartA : nA cAle. (18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! jANe ke haM, A TADho paDI gayo. praznakartA : have mAthuM garama thayuM. dAdAzrI : have mAthuM garama thayuM. te garama karavA phare. eTale DhIlo thAya. A lokhaMDano svabhAva kevo che, ke ATalo jADo saLiyo hoya to ThaMDo vaLe nahIM. eTale garama karIne pachI eka mAre phaTako, to e vaLe. te ApaNe paNa garama thaIe ke bairI vALe pachI, joIe tevuM molDa karI le. ene joIto hoya evo moDa banAvI le. tamane A badhI vAta gamI ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ane majhAya emAM ja Ave che ne ? heya, rAtre laDyA hoya te, ane pelA bhAI rophamAM beThA hoya bahAra, cA pIvA nA AvatA hoya, savAramAM risAyelA hoya tethI ! te A baMneya zuM kare ? cA taiyAra thaIne, eTale pelo bAbo hoyane nAno, ene kaheze, 'jA tArA pappAjIne kahe, pappAjI, cA pIvA cAlo." eTale bAbo ahIMthI jAya, "pappAjI, mammI cA pIvA bolAve che.' tyAre kahe, alyA, tArA mammI ke mArA mammI ? eTale pappAjI to khuza thaI jAya ke ohoho ! zAthI khuza thaI jAya che ? mIThAza lAge che ene, "pappAjI' bole ke tarata A pAchuM bhUlI jAya. rIsa badhI bhUlI jaIne tyAM pAcho cA pIvA besI jAya. A 'pappAjI' e maMtra che. e pIpUDI vagADene ke pappo khuza ! pappo khuza thaI jAya eTale AvI rIte gharameLe kare. 'pappAjI, mammI cA pIvA bolAve che." sAMbhaLyuM eTale gAMDo thaI jAya ! 'pappAjI' kIdhuM ke gAMDo ! ene pappo thavuM bahu game che ane pelI paNa cAvI samaje ! bAkI pappAjIne evuM nA AvaDe. vAIpha garama thAya to A 'pappAjI' zuM kare ? bahu tyAre DaphaLAve. bIjuM zuM kare ? DaphaLAveluM jIvana kyAreya zAMtipUrNa nA rahe. buddhithI niveDo lAve. paNa niveDo lAvatAM AvaDe nahIMne ! potAne buddhino kothaLo mAne. bhAMjagaDa kare nahIM, vAIpha joDe athaDAmaNa nA kare ene buddhi kahevAya. buddhithI game tevI athaDAmaNa TaLI jAya. dAdAzrI : pachI gayA sinemA jovA. ane keTalAka dhaNI evA hoya che khabhe mele nahIM e kahe ke tAre levo hoya to le nahIM to nAkhI dauM chuM, evuM kahe, eTale pelI laI le pAchI. nAkhI de evAya hoya ne ? zabdonA ghA strI lakhe kALaje, paccIsa varSeya tAjo, jANe maLyo Aje ! A to pAcho vAIphane dabaDAve, 'jo tuM Ama nahIM karuM to nahIM cAle'. ohoho ! moTo dhaNI Avyo ! eTale pachI pelI noMdha kare, ke jarA TAITa che, te ApaNane phaphaDAve che. jarAM narama thaze eTale pachI huM phaphaDAvIza. eTale telamAM taLe pachI. haMmezAM karyuM hoya to phaLa Ape ne ? ApaNe UMdhuM karIe to phaLa Ape ne ? karIe ja nahIMne UMdhuM to ! puruSo prasaMgo bhUlI jAya ane strIonI noMdha AkhI jiMdagI rahe. puruSo bhoLA hoya, moTA mananA hoya, bhadrika hoya, te bhUlI jAya bicArA. strIo to bolI jAya hau, ke 'te dahADe tame AvuM bolyA hatA te mAre kALaje vAgeluM che." alyA, vIsa varSa thayAM toya noMdha tAjI ! bAbo vIsa varasano moTo thayo, paiNavA jevo thayo toya hajI pelI vAta rAkhI melI ? badhI cIja saDI jAya, paNa AmanI cIja nA saDe ! strIne ApaNe ApyuM hoya to te asala jagyAe rAkhI mele kALajAnI mahIM, mATe Apazo-karazo nahIM. nathI ApavA jevI cIja A, cetatA rahevA jevuM che.

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 337 338 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : paNa mananI icchA nA hoya, chatAMya hAtha upaDI jAya evo pratibhAva Ave. dAdAzrI : Ave, Ave. e emAM bane evuM, nA bane evuM nahIM. keTalAka to strIne sANasI phaTakAre. sANasI laIne Ama phaTakArIne vyavahAra kare ! AbarUdAra lokane, khAnadAna, cha gAmanA paTela !! A to khAnadAnI vecAI gaI. AbarUnuM lIlAma thaI gayuM. strIne sANasI mArI, tenuM AbarUnuM lIlAma nA thayuM kahevAya ? eTale strI jAti kALaje lakhI rAkhe. mATe kazuM koI dahADoya bolazo nahIM. e bhUla kare toya tyAM AgaLa AbarU rAkhajo. bAkI dareka strIo evI hoya che evuM nahIM, A to sAmAnya bhAve kahuM chuM. tame ropha karo eTale e kALaje lakhyA vagara rahe nahIMne ! amAre eka bhaIbaMdha hato. tene huM roja kaheto hato ke alyA, bairI AgaLa zAno ropha mAre che ? baInI kaMI amathI bhUla thAya to ekAda tamAco ApI de, alyA, zenA tamAcA mAra mAra kare che ? tuM mUrakha chuM ! Ama hAtha ApIne teDI lAvyA. hAtha Apyo eTale promisa karyuM kahevAya. AI promisa Tu pe, evuM nathI bolatA ? have promisa karyuM te ene dhola marAya ? have ahIM pelo dhola mAre che te zuM thAya ? paiDapaNamAM enI e ja baInA hAthano mAra khAvo paDaze ! mANasa che, te rIsa to Avene. rIsa to haMmezAMya koI paNa mANasane AvyA vagara rahe nahIM. kAraNa ke judaI chene badhI ! keTalIka strIone huM pUchuM ke hasabaMDa kevA che? tyAre mane kahe, 'nathI pAMsarA'. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'A jJAna lIdhA pachI sudharyA nathI ?" tyAre kahe, 'thoDAka sudharyA haze paNa emaNe pahelAM je mane ghA mArelA chene, vacananA, vANInA ghA, e mAre kALaje lakhelA che haju !' ottArI, kALaje lakhelA che ! are, have kADhI nAkhane, sudharyA chIe. e vANInA ghA to kALaje lakhelA hoya. kALajuM toDI nAkhe evA hoya. pelA ghA rujhAya davAthI, rujhAya ke nA rujhAya ? rujhAya, paNa A ghA nA rujhAya ! kAraNa ke patharo mArelo to aDe, zabdo kaMI aDatA nathI. e to ApaNI icchA hoya to mahIM evA hRdayamAM vAge, ApaNI icchA hoyane, to kALaje ghA vAge. te pacAsa pacAsa varSa sudhI mahIM paDI rahe. ghaNAM bairAMne pUchuM, 'hajuya mAro ghA jato nathI, pacAsa varSa pahelAM bolyAM, te haju nathI gayo,' kaheze. kALaje ghA vAgelo te have, zabdanA ghA paDe. eTale zabdonA ghA karavA nahIM ane koI kare, to zabda kaMI ochuM lohI kADhe che ? lohI kADhe kharuM ? kema bolatA nathI ? ane zabda e che ke, pAcho e nathI bolato bicAro, rekarDa bolI rahI che. have rekarDa ema bole ke caMdubhAImAM akkala ochI che, caMdubhAImAM akkala ochI che, to ApaNane rIsa nA caDhe. kAraNa ke ApaNe jANIe ke rekarDa bole che. ane ahIM ApaNe ema jANIe ke A bhAI ja bole che, eTale rIsa caDhe pachI. e pote bolato nathI, A badhAM mANaso bole chene, bheMsa bole che e badhI rekorDa bole che. A vAta samajavI paDazene ? vAta samajyA vagara to ukela nahIM Ave. mArelA ghA je yuvAnImAM jore, gATa DhIlAM thatAM jokhIne lo re ! pachI, pelI zuM kare jANo cho ? e sAMbhaLI le chene ? tamArA tApane laIne nathI sAmuM bolatI pachI vakhata Ave tyAre pachI pAchuM Ape. ApaNe kahIe ke A zuM ApavA mAMDyuM? tyAre kaheze ke mAre kALaje lakhyuM hatuM te ApuM chuM. ane puruSo kALaje nA lakhe. haMmezAM strIne jeTaluM tame kaho, enI javAbadArI Ave. kAraNa ke e ApaNe jyAM sudhI zarIra sAruM majabUta hoyane, tyAM sudhI ja sahana karyA kare ane manamAM zuM kahe ? e gAtara (sAMdhA) DhIlAM paDaze eTale rAge pADI daIza. A badhAMnAM gAtara DhIlA paDyAMne tene badhAne rAge pADI dIdhelAM, meM joyelAMya kharA. eTale huM lokone salAha ApuM, nA karIza mUA, bairI joDe to vaDhavADa nA karIza. bairI joDe vera nA bAMdhIza, nahIM to mUA veSa thaI paDaze. mATe bIje bahAra vera bAMdhI Avaje. Ane hIMcako nAkhIne rAjI rAkhaje. ahIM vera bAMdhavA karatAM bahAra jaIne bUmo pADa. paNa A ApaNI A hindu kvaoNliTI, tyAM ja vera rAkhe. eka bhUla kADhone enI eTale e haMmezAM, strI jAtino svabhAva, A beno beThI chene kahuM chuM ke e noMdhamAM le ane A bhoLA kazuM noMdhamAM nA le bhUlI jAya, bicArA.

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 339 praznakartA : hA, have khyAla Avyo. dAdAzrI : e noMdhamAM le. noMdhamAM le ke te dADe mIThuM ochuM paDyuM hatuMne, te dADe che te ropha mArI gayA che paNa jyAre vakhata Avaze tyAre kahIza, kahe che. pachI caMpala ApaNA ko'ka laI jAya maMdiramAM ane pachI ghera jaIe. Aja to mArA caMpala jatAM rahyAM. tyAre kahe che, tame te dADe mIThAnuM kahetA hatA ne paNa tamArAmAM kyAM barakata che e te dA'DAnI vAta atyAre AvI. AnuM rieNkzana hamaNe AvyuM ! ApaNA rieNkzana to tarata ja hoya, emanuM rieNkzana to ! vIsa varSa pachI paNa rieNkzano Ave. enA e ja zabdo, meM joyeluM che, anubhaveluM che. ApaNe koI zabda Apyo hoyane te vIsa varSa pachI rieNkzana Ape e. tyAre kyAM rAkhI melyuM hatuM, kaI guphAmAM rAkhI melyuM. zabda eno e ja zabda ! ane A bhoLA bicArA, pATalI upara beThA hoyane, A relavenI pATalI para to cAra jaNA Ama hAtha jhAlIne bese. ane e traNa ja jaNI Ama bese ke cothuM nA mAya, samAya ja nahIMne ! strI jue ke gAtara DhIlAM paDyAM che, gAtara DhIlAM samajyA tame ? praznakartA : gharaDA thAya tyAre. dAdAzrI : jyAre mAMdA thAyane mahIM DhIlA thaI gayAne, pachI ApaNe kahIe, jarA haiM... A zaradI thaI che, jarA sUMTha ghasI Apane. akkala vagaranA barakata ja nahIM tamArAmAM to.' sAMbhaLavuM paDe pachI. ane pahelethI sAruM rAkhyuM hoya to atyAre sAMbhaLavuM nA paDe. gAtara to DhIlAM thavAnAM ke nahIM thavAnAM ? noMdha karavAno strIno svabhAva, puruSo tobala dhIra prabhAva ! eTale vahu TaiDakAve tenI to bahu manamAM noMdha nahIM karavI joIe. kaMIka hoya to manamAM e ApaNe gupta bhAve rAkhI samAvI levuM. praznakartA : paNa vahune ApaNe TaiDakAvIe to vahu dhyAnamAM rAkhe pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra chene, enuM zuM ? vahune ApaNe TaiDakAvIene to vahu badhuM noMdha rAkhe. dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke ApaNI nabaLAI chene ! ame TaiDakAveluM nAnapaNamAM, tenuM phaLa jarA cAkhavuM paDeluM. pachI meM kahyuM, ApaNe A baMdha karI do, ApaNuM kAma nahIM. pachI e kare to karavA deto hato. kAraNa ke emane potAne kADhatAM nA AvaDe, temAM huM zuM karuM ? paNa huM to pachI sapaDAuM nahIM. matabhedeya pADavA nA dauM. 340 ApaNe zA hAru enI joDe duHkha thAya evuM karIe ? ane e ApaNane duHkha kare to ApaNe jame karI levuM, paNa ApaNe ene duHkha nA ApavuM. nobiliTI guNa ApaNAmAM hovo joIene ? enI joDe sarakhAmaNI karIe to strImAM ne ApaNAmAM phera zo rahyo ? ene mane Ama karyuM eTale meM ene Ama karyuM. mUA, tuM strI che ? e to strI che. praznakartA : e strI kahI zake ? dAdAzrI : nabaLI cIja to kahI zake, jabaro kema kahI zake ? praznakartA : te zuM strI nabaLI che ? dAdAzrI : nabaLI, dasa gaNI nabaLI. praznakartA : paNa ene nabaLI kema kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : nabaLI eTalA mATe ja kahevAya ke ene Diskareja karIne ApaNe sukhI thaIe nahIM. kAraNa ke e che te noMdha rAkhe che. te noMdha rAkhe che ke A amuka TAIme mAruM apamAna karyuM hatuM, amuka TAIme mane gALa bhAMDI hatI, amuka TAIme mane paisA nahatA ApyA. khare TAIme mane Ama karyuM hatuM, te badhuM enI pAse noMdha vigatavAra hoya che. praznakartA : badhI noMdha karI che e lokoe. dAdAzrI : hA, ane tamArI pAse eya noMdha nA hoya. strI e jANe ke A barakata vagaranA che. praznakartA : A noMdha badhI rAkhe e to sabaLI kahevAya, e nabaLI

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 341 342 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kema kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : nabaLInI dRSTi, bIjI vAta che. nabaLI che eTale zuM ke bebhAnapaNAne laIne e strI tarIke rahI che, nahIM to rahe ja nahIM. sAmasAmI noMdha karI bAMdhe vera, pArtha sAme kamaThe okyuM jhera ! ane pachI che te sAmasAmI, vAre ghaDIe godA mAramAra thAya eTale manamAM nakkI kare ke huMya mArIza ene, vakhata Ave tyAre godo. jhaghaDA vadhI jAya. vera vastu ja nA rAkhavI. e mArI jAya be-cAra vakhata, to ApaNe hAryA. hAryA pachIya jItavAno vakhata che, paNa jItIne phAyado nathI. Ama gharamAM konI joDe jItavAnuM ? bahAra jItIne Avo. gharamAM potAnAM mANaso, roja bheguM thavAnuM pAchuM. bheguM thavAnuM ke nahIM thavAnuM? ane strIo mAnabhaMga thAya te AkhI jiMdagI nA bhUle. TheTha nanAmI kADhatAM sudhI e rIsa sAbUta hoya ! e rIsa jo bhUlAtI hoya to jagata badhuM kyAranuMya pUruM thaI gayuM hota ! nathI bhUlAya evuM mATe cetatA rahejo. badhuM cetIne kAma karavA jevuM che ! AmAM majA ja zuM che ! majA khoLI kADho ke kaI rIte ApaNane sukha, zAMti rahe ane mokSe javAya. nahIM to ATaluM ja jarA vera baMdhAyeluM haze, to kaheze, tame mokSe zuM jAva, huM joI lauM chuM ! tamane to goLIbAra kare ja. pArzvanAtha bhagavAnanI pAchaLa kamaTha paDyA hatA, dasa avatAra sudhI. dama kADhI nAkhyo. paNa bhagavAna hatA, pArzvanAtha hatA eTale phAvyA..... ramA ramADavI sahela che, vipharI mahA muzkela che ! ApaNI strI jAti mULa saMskAramAM Ave, to e to devI che. paNa A to bahAranA saMskAra aDyA chene, eTale vipharI che have. viphare !! tethI zAstrakAroe kahyuM, strI che sarasa paNa ramA ramADavI sahela che, vipharI to mahA muzkela thaI jAya ane viphare evuM kare che ApaNA loko. saLI karIne vipharAvaDAve. ane viphare to pachI vAghaNa jevI kahevAya. tyAM sudhI na javuM joIe ApaNe. maryAdA jovI joIe. ane tyAM ApaNe strIne cheDa cheDa karIe to kyAM jAya e bicArI ? eTale pachI vakare ! pahelAM vakare ane pachI viphare ane vipharI ke pachI thaI rahyuM ! mATe ene chaMcheDazo nahIM. leTa go karavuM. vipharelAne oLakhAya ke nA oLakhAya vipharyuM ? "ramA ramADavI sahela che, vipharI mahA muzkela che.' praznakartA : e barAbara besI gayuM, dAdA. dAdAzrI : inDiyAmAM badhA mahAtmAone kahI dauM, uM. kahyuM, viphare tyAre mane kahI dejo. samI karI ApIza, mahAtmA bicAro kacaDAI jAya ne, viphare tyAre ? pelI khalAsa karI nAkhe, paNa pachI rAge pADI ApuM. pharI mAphI mAMgIne rAge pADI dauM. eno ropha rAkhIne, dhaNIpaNuM karAvaDAvIne ropha rAkhIne. paNa viphare tyAM sudhI koIne nA chaMcheDavA. chokaro paNa viphare evuM nA karavuM joIe. mATe viphare nahIM, evo prayatna rAkhajo. viphare eTale vAghaNa jevI thAya ! ATalI jIbha bahAra kADhe ne pachI trizuLa laIne pharI vaLe. te vipharyA pachI to dhaNI ne 'hato na hato' karI nAkhe. ene e vicAra nA Ave. e pariNAmavAdI nA hoya strI ane puruSa to pariNAmavAdI hoya. eTale samajIne karajo badhuM. cokaThAM ramo te ghaDIe. cokaThAM ramavA sahelAM nathI A. praznakartA : loDhAnA caNA cAvavA jevuM che. dAdAzrI : hA, ame zI rIte kADhyA haze te ame jANIene ! ropha rAkhIne ame koI dahADo vipharavA nahotAM dIdhAM. praznakartA : viphare to zuM karavuM e jarA batAvo. dAdAzrI : viphare to dhaNI traNa dahADAmAM hato na hato thaI jAya. tyAM sudhI strI pahoMce. mATe cetatA rahejo. AjanI strIone to vipharatAM AvaDyuMya nathI. praznakartA : A lokone zIkhavatA nahIM vipharavAnuM. nahIM to dhaNInuM

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 343 344 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra AvI banaze. dAdAzrI : nA, zIkhavuM nahIM, e dorI avaLI vIMTaze, e to vipharatI hoya to ene baMdha karAvI devaDAvuM. emAM sukha nathI. UMdho rasto che, mArA khAvAno rasto. A to AgaLanA anubhavIoe zodhakhoLa karelI ke ramA ramADavI sahela che, vipharI mahAmuzkela che ! lAvone, lAkha ramAo hoya to juo mArI joDe jarAya che emane kazuMya ! eTale bahu UMcI jAti, sarasamAM sarasa jAti che. paNa tamane AvaDe nahIM, temAM zuM kare ? A viphare to ame rAge pADI daIe, je vipharelI hoyane, ene ame rAge pADI daIe. pachI eneya sukha paDe ne gharavALAoneya sukha paDe. vipharelI hoya ke nA hoya ? viphare ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hA, vipharene ! dAdAzrI : puruSa to bhoLA bicArA ! praznakartA: strIo viphare enuM kAraNa e ke have e kamAI le che, paisA lAve che, eTale e viphare che ? A enuM kAraNa che ? dAdAzrI : hA, tethI vipharI che ne ! paisA, DaoNlara lAve. ane bhaIne che te 'joba' jatI rahelI hoya, pachI viphare ja ne ? praznakartA : A strIone AjanI havA lAgI eTale vipharI, evuM puruSoneya havA to lAgI hazene ? emanuMya kaMIka thayuM hazene ? dAdAzrI : bahu lAgI che, A kaMI ochA nathI ! e kaMI jevA tevA nathI. koI paNa mANasa viphare nahIM tyAM sudhI calAvIe. paNa jo viphare to huM adhikAra laI lauM. viphare nahIM tyAM sudhI adhikAra eno. vipharo tyAre adhikAra laI lauM e to sattA mArI pAse rahelI hoya. e kahe ke nA hamaNe ne hamaNe UTho tame ? viphare ke haDahaDATa laI lauM sattA eka miniTamAM ! vipharavuM nahIM joIe. moTAmAM moTo guno hoya to vipharavuM. bIjA badhA gunA eksepTa karIe. viphareluM e guno nahIM calAvIe. viphare zabda samajyAre tame ? te vipharI zabdamAM huM bahu jhINavaTathI UMDo utarelo. kone vipharI kahevA mAge che A loka ? mahAmuzkelI kone kahe che ? tyAre kahe, vipharI zabdano ja evo artha che ! vipharI mahAmuzkela ! eTale ghaNA mitrone kahI dIdheluM ke A vAIpha viphare nahIM eTaluM jo jo, haM. nahIM to AbarU laI le ! praznakartA : acchA, emAM evuMne viphare eTale zuMnuM zuM karI nAkhe ? dAdAzrI : viphare eTale zuM kare ? tame ahIMthI pANI pIvA jAva, emAM jhera hau ghAlI de. tethI ame kahIe chIene, viphare eTale ame kaMTrola badho laI laIe. te game te javAbadArInuM kAma hoya paNa teno kaMTrola badho amArA hAthamAM ja laI laIe. lagAma ame hAthamAM laI laIe. vipharavAnuM nA hoya ahIM AgaLa. huM tamArA tAbAmAM chuM, paNa vinaya ! parama vinaya e ApaNo dharma che. ame to tamArAye tAbAmAM. tame kaho ke dAdA ahIM besI raho to kahIe nahIM. cAlo kAle jaIzuM. amAre evuM nathI ke amAro tAbo joIe che. paNa parama vinayano ghAta karyo, e vipharyo kahevAya. eno ghAta to na ja thavo joIe. parama vinayano ghAta karavo ane AtmAno ghAta karavo e be sarakhuM che. e AtmaghAta upAya che. juone kevuM bolelA ! 'ramA ramADavI sahela che." te atyAranA lokone AvaDatI nathI te mara mUA ramA ramADatAM zIkha. ramA ramADatAM AvaDatuM nathI ! praznakartA : nA, paNa e je vipharI zabda che, enuM jo pizcara barAbara kliyara thaI jAya.. dAdAzrI : e huM bahu UMDo utaryo ke A zabda ATalo badho bhAre ke vipharI mahA muzkela !! mahA muzkela eTale muzkela zabdano artha ja muzkela ! mahA muzkela eTale to AkhuM jagata nAza karI nAkhe evuM ! te A vipharI zabda mane bahu gamelo. bhale ApaNe lekhaka nathI paNa A samajIe kharA ke A zuM che ? lekhakaneya AvI samajaNa nA hoya kaMI. vAkya racanA nA phAve. praznakartA : sAmAnya rIte evuM tyAM saurASTramAM je vAgha ne siMhane

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 345 346 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra hoyane, enI sAthe je vAghaNa hoya te vAghaNa viphare. viphare eTale sAmAne mArI ja nAkhe. nahIM, badhI strIo mane dekhe te AMkhamAM kaDakaI dekhe ane eka AMkhamAM pUjyatA dekhe, to badhI strIo mAthe oDhIne bese ane Ama tema TAITa thaI jAya badhI. ane hIrAbA to mahIM, gharamAM pesatAM pahelAM bhaDake. bUTa khakhaDyo ke bhaDakATa pesI jAya. eka AMkhamAM kaDaka, ekamAM narama. enA vagara strI rahe ja nahIM. tethI hirAbA kahene, heya, dAdA kevA che ? praznakartA : tIkhA bhamarA jevA. dAdAzrI : mArI ja nAkhe ! hA, viphare eTale khalAsa karI nAkhe. nahIM ? viphare eTale to bahu kharAba, vipharavA nA devAya. ane eka bAju saraseya lakhyuM che, ke 'ramAM ramADavI sahela che." paNa samajatAM ja nA AvaDe tene zuM kare bicAro ? mane keTalAka kahe che, A to jarA huM phaphaDAvuM nahIMne, to pachI mArI upara caDI bese ! meM kahyuM, alyA, Ano purAvo zuM caDhI besavAno ? 'eka dahADo sAmuM bolI gaI.' e to cho ne bolI gaI. ApaNe nirAMte sUI jaIe. savAramAM cA pIne pachI vAta kADhIe enI pAse ! eTale zakti, devI jevI che, ramADavI sahelI che. ramADavImAM ramaNatA paNa Ave che ane badhuM Ave. ghaNo bhAga AvI jAya che ramADavAmAM, ane jo vipharI mahA muzkela ! eka AMkhe prema, bIjI kaDaka, to ja gharamAM zAMtinI jhalaka ! ane strI to vipharaze, te tArI buddhi nahIM cAle, tArI buddhi ane bAMdhI zakaze nahIM. mATe viphare nahIM evI rIte tuM vAto karaje. AMkhamAM prema jabarajasta rAkhaje. vakhate e avaLuMhavaLuM bolene to e to strI jAti che. mATe leTa go karaje, eTale eka AMkhamAM saMpUrNa prema rAkhavAno, bIjI AMkhamAM jarAka kaDakAI rAkhavAnI, evI rIte rahevuM joIe. je vakhate je jarUra hoya tevuM, bilakula kaDakAI roja karAya nahIM. e to eka AMkhamAM kaDakAI ane eka AMkhamAM devI tarIke mAnavuM, devI tarIke samaja paDIne ? praznakartA : eka AMkhamAM kaDakAI ane eka AMkhamAM devI, e be eTa e TAIma kaI rItanA rahe ? dAdAzrI : e to mANasane, puruSane badhuM AvaDe ! ame ghera AvatA hatA, huM trIsa-pAMtrIsa varSano hatone, to ghera AvuMne, te hIrAbA ekalA dAdAzrI tIkhA bhamarA jevA che, evuM kAyama rAkhIe. ema, saheje thatharAvAnuM nahIM. gharamAM pesIe ke cUpa, badhuM ThaMDuMgAra jevuM thaI jAya, bUTa khakhaDe ke tarata ! jyAre dharma para Avyo AMtaro, traNAthI kADhayo hIrAbAto kacaro ! kaDakAI zAthI ke e Thokara nA khaI jAya eTalA mATe kaDakAI rAkhaje. eTalA mATe eka AMkhamAM kaDakAI ane eka AMkhamAM prema rAkhavo. praznakartA : e nATakanI khabara paDI jAyane ene ? dAdAzrI : eTalI jo samajaNa hota to bairI ja nA thAta. eTalI samajaNa nA hoya. e to ema ja jANe ke svabhAva Akaro che. ame ja eka dahADo trAguM karyuM hatuMne ? e vAsaNo badhA, khAMDanA, cAnA DabbA, ghAsatelanA DabbA ne telanA DabbA badhuM pheMkApheMka kareluM. badho ragaDo karelo, oraDAmAM ragaDo ragaDo thaI gayo badho. praznakartA : dhAryuM karAvavA ? dAdAzrI : hA. AkhI jiMdagImAM eTaluM ja trAguM kareluM, ene trAguM kahevAya. dabAvI mAravA, teya pArakA hAru, dharmane mATe karavuM paDeluM. mArA potAnA mATe kazuM kareluM nahIM. kAraNa ke hIrAbAne ame kahyuM ke AvuM tamArAthI vartana nA karAya. vAta evI hatI, amane jJAna thayA pachI mAmAnI poLamAM bicArI

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! choDIo vidhio karavA Ave. te hIrAbAne to bicArAne kazo roga nahIM, bicArAM sarasa mANasa. paNa sAmA bAraNe bese ne, te pelAM bairA badhAMe emane caDhAvelAM ke 'hAya hAya bApa, A badhI nAnI nAnI choDIo dAdAne Ama page paDIne 'Taca' kare che. bahAra badhuM khoTuM dekhAya. A to sAruM dekhAya ? dAdAjI sArA mANasa che, paNa A khoTuM dekhAya che. AmAM dAdAnI zI AbarU ?" loka jAta jAtanA Aropa kare ane te AvuM ghAlI dIdhuM ! te A hIrAbA gabharAI gayelAM ke A to ApaNI AbarU jAya che. Ama pote sArAM mANasa te lokoe nAkhyuM mahIM mIThuM ! dUdhamAM mIThuM nAkhe to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : phATI jAya. dAdAzrI : te huM jANato hato ke A lokoe mIThuM nAkhavA mAMDyuM che, te phATaze jyAre tyAre ! paNa meM rAha joyelI. paNa eka dahADo eka bena vidhi karatI hatI. te hIrAbAe pUMjo vALatAM vALatAM bAraNuM Ama khakhaDAvyuM. koI dahADo evuM kare nahIM. amAre tyAM gharamAM rivAja ja nahIM Avo. pelI choDI bhaDakIne jatI rahe eTalA hAru ja kareluM, mane bhaDakAvavA mATe nahIM. choDIo jANe ke hamaNAM hIrAbA vaDhaze. te choDI Ama vidhi 347 karatI karatI dhrUjI gaI. huM samajI gayo ke AnI pAchaLa cALA che. A cALA nA samajaNa paDe, baLyA ? atyAranA jevo bhoLo hoIza te dahADe ? pachI meM kahyuM, 'have tamAre ne ApaNe, bene juduM karI nAkhIe. A to nA poSAya. eTale have tame bhAdaraNa raho. ane tyAM tamAre rUpiyA pAMcasosAtaso jeTalA joItA hoya eTalA mahine mokalI Apaze. have ApaNe bene bheguM rahevAnuM nahIM. tyAM caMdrakAntabhAI, bhANAbhAI ema pAMca-cha jaNa beThA hatA. temaneya zIkhavAnuM maLene, ko'ka dahADo upadeza maLene !' hIrAbA pharI pAchAM cA mUkavA mAMDyA. te sTava khakhaDAvyo haDahaDATa, te 'sTava' 2DI UThe evo ! meM kahyuM, Aja khakhaDAmaNa cAlI che, ApaNe 'skru' pheravo. nahIM to UMdhu cAlyuM gADuM. te meM to mahIM jaI cAnA, khAMDanA, telanA, ghAsatelanA DabbA badhA uparathI nIce pheMkyA. badhuM pheMkApheMka karyuM, badhuM haDahaDATa. jANe 400 vaoNlTa pAvaranuM aDyuM ! badhAno ragaDo karyo. sAmethI pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra pelA caDhAvavALAM bena AvyAM. AjubAjuthIya badhA AvyA. temane meM kahyuM, A hIrAbA AvAM devI jevAM baI, emanAmAM 'poijhana' koNe nAkhyuM ?" paDozavALA kahe, 'bhaI, tamArAthI Avo krodha nA thAya. jJAnI puruSa cho tame. meM kahyuM, 'jJAnI puruSano krodha jovA jevo che, juo to kharAM.' pachI meM kahyuM, 'A mahIM nAkhyuM tyAre ja A dazA thaIne ! zuM karavA AvuM nAkhyuM ? zuM bagADyuM che tamAruM ?' tyAre e kahe, 'bhaI, ame kazuM nAkhyuM nathI. ame vAta karI hatI eTalI ja.' 'A zA hAru ? emanI jiMdagI kharAba karI che tame lokoe ?' tyAre kahe, 'zuM jiMdagI kharAba karI ?' meM kahyuM, 'have chUTuM rahevAnuM thayuM emane. have bhAdaraNa ApaNuM navuM makAna bAMdhyuM che, tenI mahIM hIrAbAe rahevAnuM. mahine kharca badho ApIzuM.' tyAre e kahe, 'bhAI evuM nA thAya, nA thAya evuM. thaiDe laiDapaNa thatuM haze ?" meM kahyuM, 'je mATalAne tirADa paDI e mATaluM kAmamAM zuM lAge ? e to pANI jhame. pANI game eTaluM bharIe toya bahAra nIkaLI jAya. mATalAne tirADa paDI hoya tene rakhAya ?" Ama kahyuM eTale paDozIo gabharAI gayA. 'AvuM bolo cho ? mATalAne tirADa paDI gaI ?' loka samajI gayAM ke have hIrAbAne juduM thavAnuM. hA, dharma upara Aphata nA AvavI joIe. 348 te dahADe khAMDa-bAMDa, cA-badhuM bheguM karI dIdhuM, paNa vItarAga bhAvamAM ! saheje peTamAM pANI hAlyA vagara ! caMdrakAMtabhAI, bhANAbhAI badhA beThA hatA. badhAne kahyuM, 'zIkhajo ghera.' pachI bIje dahADe enuM phaLa zuM AvyuM ? pelA pADozIo hIrAbAne UlaTA samajaNa pADa pADa kare ke 'bhaIne upAdhi thAya evuM nA karazo. koI Ave to cho Ave. ApaNe mAthAkUTamAM nA paDavuM.' UlaTA have savaLuM zikhavADavA mAMDyA. kAraNa ke emanA manamAM bhaDaka pesI gaI ke have je kaMI thaze te ApaNA mAthe ja AvavAnuM che, mATe ApaNe have cetatA rahevuM. meM karyuM hatuM ja evuM ke pharI A loko karatA hoya to kho bhUlI jAya. pachI pharI evuM karavuM paDyuM nathI. pachI koI dahADo nahIM. eTalI davA karelI. haju yAda haze emane. e to emaneya cagyuMya hatuM. koI dahADo cage nahIM. A pelA lokoe zikhavADI rAkheluM badhuM ke jarAka vadhAre karazo to choDIo jatI raheze, pachI pesaze nahIM. ko'ka vakhata A jJAnIno avatAra hoya ne bicArI choDIo darzana karavA Avene ?

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 349 350 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra bahu kaDaka che. Avo kaDaka svabhAva, te mahAdevajI joI lo ne !" eTalI badhI chApa pADI dIdhI ne hIrAbA jANe, te hajIye tIkhA bhamarA jevA kahe ene azAMti rahe che tethI AvI che ne ! jaMpIne darzana to karavA do lokone. te eTale sudhI zikhavADeluM ke dAdA paiNaze A choDIo joDe ! evuMya zikhavADyuM hatuM ke A dAdAne laI jaze ! are, evuM hotuM haze ? keTalA varSano huM Doso thayelo mANasa, te kaI jAtanuM AvuM zikhavADeluM ! paNa emano zo doSa bicArAMno ? hIrAbAne ema paNa samajAya ke A mArI bhUla che. A chokarIo satsaMgamAM AvatI hatIne, paNa emane potAne so TakA khAtarI hatI ke A to morala ne sinsiyara che. paNa A to lokomAM khoTuM dekhAya, eTalA mATe 'tame choDI do A' kaheluM tyAre kaMI choDyuM chUTe evuM che ? A to 'vyavasthita' ane e to aNasamajaNamAM bole. e to kaMI dahADo vaLato haze ? ane A relavelAIna UkheDI nakhAya ? tyAre ApaNe rasto to karavo paDe. eTale pachI pelA bUcathI nA cAle. e to AMTAvALo bUca mAravo paDe. AMTAvALo bUca mArIe eTale pachI UkhaDI nA jAyane ! praznakartA : peluM je nATaka karyuM hatuM e kapaTa nahIM ? dAdAzrI : nA, AmAM kapaTa nahIM. e to dUdha UbharAtuM hoya ne lAkaDAM kADhI laIe e kaMI kapaTa nA kahevAya. dUdhapAka UbharAto hoya to lAkaDAM kADhI laIe, e kapaTa kahevAya ? praznakartA : paNa Azaya to kaMI sAruM karavAno kharo ? dAdAzrI : emane cokhkhA karavAno. te ghaDIe badhA beThA hatA. te sajjaDa thaI gayelA ! badhA beThA hoya tyAre ja AbarU lauM, nahIM to ema ne ema AbarU lauM nahIM. nahIM to e gaLI jAya. kaheze, "ohoho ! koI hatuM ja nahIMne !' te gaLI jAya ne ApaNI mahenata nakAmI jAya. hIrAbAne anubhava, te amane jANe ke sinsiyara ne morala che ja. e to pelA ekalA kesamAM ja che te emanA manamAM jarA pesI gayuM. te peluM kADhavuM muzkela paDyuM ane te syAdvAda rIte nA nIkaLyuM. eTale A bIjI rIte kADhavuM paDyuM, paNa davA evI karI ke pharI hIrAbA kazuM karavA jAya tyAre kahe, 'e nA karazo ApaNe bhAInAmAM paDavuM ja nahIM. bhAIno svabhAva e to 'jJAnI" thaIne besavuM saheluM nathI. koIne AvA phaNagA phUTe to badhA mULamAMthI kADhI nAkhe. nahIM to e phaNagA to moTA jhADa thaI jAya. juone, pachI e kazuM bolavuM nahIM.' tamAre kazuM bolavuM nahIM, ema hIrAbAne kahetAM. meM kahyuM, 'huM kazuM karavAno nathI. dAdAne koNa kazuM karavAnuM che ? A to choDIo to zuM karavAnI hatI ?" pachI e loko kahe che, ApaNe nakAmo jhaghaDo vahorI lIdho. have ApaNe mAthe Avaze.' to emane moDhe ja ThAlavyuM ke tame ja badhAe bagADyuM. mATalAne tirADa paDI, have zuM karavAnuM ? A ATalo vakhata mATalAne lAkha karIzuM. bAkI pharI vAra ke lAkheya karavAnA nathI. pachI mukI AvIzuM. tirADane lAkha karI dIdhI ke eka vakhata sAMdho ApaNe ! praznakartA: emaNe peluM bAraNuM pachADyuM, sTava pachADyo eTale e paNa ADAI kahevAya ? - dAdAzrI : tyAre ADAI nahIM to bIjuM zuM? paNa e trAguM kahevAya. e nAnA prakAranuM trAguM kareluM, meM moTA prakAranuM trAguM karyuM ! praznakartA H eTale e nAnA prakAranA trAgAMne kADhI nAkhavA mATe sAme evo phorsa mUkavo paDe ? dAdAzrI : hA, meM jANI joIne trAguM kareluM. ne emaNe emanA karmanA niyamathI trAguM kareluM. A to jANI bUjhIne kare ne huM to mArA jJAnamAM rahIne badhuM karuM ? badhA mahAtmAo pAMca-sAta-dasa jaNa beThelA. te eka kahe, 'AvuM karAtuM haze ?" tyAre meM kahyuM, 'zIkha tane zIkhavADuM chuM. cUpa besa. A zIkhavADuM tane. ghera bIbI herAna karaze tyAre zI rIte rIpera karIza tuM ?" praznakartA: Ape kahyuM ke huM jJAnamAM rahIne karuM, kaI rIte jJAnamAM? e tame kaho.

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 351 352 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : jJAna ja 'A' karyA kare. 'aMbAlAlabhAI ryA kare. jJAna kaMI ochuM hIrAbAne paiNeluM che ? juone, vagara matabhede varSo kADhyAM ne !" atyAreya matabheda paDatAM pahelAM uDADI daIe chIe. pharI 'jJAna' hau lIdhuM hIrAbAe ! pachI emane dAdA svapnAmAM AvyA. praznakartA : bA to bahu bhoLAM che, bhadrika che. dAdAzrI : A bhadrika, paNa loko zIkhavADe e pAchA zIkhI jAyane. e to kahe, huM to koInuM zIkhuM evI nathI. e manamAM pAvara rAkhe che, paNa loka nAkhI jAyane. bAkI pote zIkhe evAM nathI. paNa bahu dahADA nAkha nAkha karene, te pesI jAya pachI. Ama zIkhe evAM mANasa nathI, sArAM mANasa che. eka bhAIe hIrAbAne pUchyuM, 'dAdAno svabhAva bahu sAro ! pahelethI Avo ?" tyAre emaNe kahyuM ke, "pahelAM to tIkhA bhamarA jevA hatA. hamaNe AvA thayA.' e emaNe joyeluM jAya nahIMne ! ame philama badalyA karIe ne pAchalI philama kADhIe nahIM. e to pAchalI philama hale dekhADe. ame to A cAlu philama hoya e dekhADIe. chatAM emane duHkha thAya evuM nahIM karavAnuM. kAraNa ke saheja e thAya toya du:kha thaI jAya che emane, kAraNa ke pyoriTIne badhI. sahaja bhAve je Ave e bolavAnuM ne ! DakhoDakhala nahIM ke koInI zarama-garama rAkhe nahIM. pelo DokTara bicAro hIrAbAnuM onararI kAma karato hato. toya ene kaheze ke, "A to tIkho lahAya jevo che.' meM kahyuM, AvuM nA bolAya ApaNAthI.' sahaja bhAve bolyA'tA, eTale pelo hase, Ama sahajatAthI bole. eTale khoTuM nA lAge. mahIM kazuM pApa nahIM, pyoriTI badhI. hIrAbA cokhkhuM bole. mAre ne tAre nahIM phAve evuM kahI de. svArthanI bhAMjagaDa nahIM ke A mArI sevA kare che, evuM tevuM kazuM nahIM. mArI joDeya cokhuM bole. amane zuM kahe ? tIkhA bhamarA jevA cho. have e ema koI dahADo nA jANe ke A tIkhApaNuM nathI AmanAmAM (dAdAmAM). praznakartA: bahu karapa rAkhelo ? dAdAzrI : karapa to rAkhelone. karapa rAkhyA vagara to evuM chene, A to strI jAti kahevAya. karapa to rAkhavo paDene ne lAgaNIoya rAkhavI paDe, beu sAthe rAkhavuM paDe. chatAM amane to e, bahu vahamA, tIkhA bhamarA jevA cho, kaheze. e ema ne ema ja banAvaTa rAkhelI. dAbedAba poTalI UghADIne dekhADIe tyArene. thoDuM vajana joIe. bAkI huM bahu kaDaka. pelo tApa lAgyA kare. garama nA thauM. ema ne ema tApa lAgyA kare. te kaDaka nA hoya to cAle zI rIte ? kAraNa ke amAre pratApa ane saumyatA banne hoya. bAkI koInI joDe UMcA zvAse ame cALIsa varSathI nahIM rahelA. koInI joDe UMco avAja nahIM karelo. e to loko badhAya jANe. kaheya kharAM ke e to bhagavAna jevA che. eTale eka AMkhamAM dhamaka rAkhavAnI ane eka AMkhamAM phrenDazIpa rAkhavAnI. praznakartA : dAdA, beu AMkhamAM dhamaka rAkhe enuM zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : e khoTuM kahevAya. eka AMkhamAM dhamaka ane eka AMkhamAM prema. prema to joIe ja ne, prema vagara to mANasa jIve zA AdhAre ? bahu kaMTALe tyAre ApaghAtanA vicAra Ave pachI. ane pachI ApaNe raDIe. tyAre mUA cetavuM hatuMne pahelethI ! tArI pUjAye jyAM devI tarIke, AratI kara, ta artha evo jarIke ! strIne to eka AMkhe devI tarIke juo ne bIjI AMkhe enuM strIcAritra juo. eka AMkhamAM prema ne bIjI AMkhamAM kaDakAI rAkho to ja 'belensa jaLavAze. praznakartA: satInI vyAkhyA eka kavie ApI che 'bhoyeSu mAtA,

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 353 354 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra zayaneSu raMbhA, karaNeSu dAsI, kAryapu maMtrI' ema cAra mUkyA che. dAdAzrI : bahu suMdara ApyuM che. praznakartA: eTale enuM nAma satI. dAdAzrI : e AvuM hovuM joIe. huM AvuM kahevA jAuM chuM, strI AvI hovI joIe. kevI suMdara vAta karI che ! praznakartA eTale saMskRtamAM mUkyuM, yatra nAryastu pUjayaMte ramate tatra devatAH ! dAdAzrI : hA, basa ! eTale huM jyAre AvuM boluM chuMne, tyAre badhA mane loko kahe che ke dAdA, tame strIonA taraphI cho, pakSapAtI cho ? have huM zuM kahyuM ke, strIone pUjo, eno artha evo nahIM ke savAramAM jaIne AratI utArajo, evuM karIza to e tAruM tela kADhI nAkhaze. enAM arthamAM zuM che ? eka AMkhamAM prema ane eka AMkhamAM kaDakAI rAkhaje. pahelAM strIne to zuM gaNatA hatA ? pUjA karavA jevI che. paNa teno artha ApaNe kahIe, tyAre ApaNA loko pUjAmAM AratI utAre. alyA mUA, nA utArIza, nahIM to caDhI besaze. kAraNa ke kvaoNliTI UMcI, paNa A caDhI besatA vAra nA lAge. eTale pUjA nA karIza. evI lAyakAta nathI. eTale manathI pUjA karaje. praznakartA : nArI tuM nArAyaNI ! dAdAzrI : hA, nArAyaNI ! ane chaMcheDavI nA joIe. A to strIo badhI tamane helpa kare che. paNa e helpa bahu nA karatI hoya, toya paNa e strI nIti che, e zakti che, devI che. tame jANIjoIne bagADo to pachI bagaDI ja jAya ! sahaja prakRti che. tethI to ApaNA lokoe kahyuM, "yatra nAryastu pUjyate, ramaMte tatra devatAH' eTale strIo jyAM pUjaya che, tyAM devaloko hAjara rahe che. eTale pachI badhA ApaNA mahAtmAonA vicAromAM to badho pheraphAra thaI jAya che. strIne pachI ADacheDa nathI karatA ane sarakhA bhAve rAkhe che. je enA mATe kharAba vicAro che te khaseDI nAkhIne A vicAra mUkI de eTale plasa-mAinasa thaI jAya. eTale ApaNe enI joDe sArI rIte jIvI zakIe. samAdhAnathI jIvAya evuM rAkhavuM joIe. phrenDalI hovuM joIe, phrenDa ! strI e che prAkRtika zakti, tarachoDI to "hArTaphela' takatI ! ApaNe eka dA'Do to kahIne juo, "he devI, Aja to tame bahu sarasa rasoI jamADo,' eTaluM ja jo bolI to juo. praznakartA : khuza, khuza ! dAdAzrI : khuza khuza thaI jAya, paNa A to bolatAya nathI, vANImAMya. jANe ke vANI maphatanI vecAtI lAvavI paDatI hoyane ! vANI vecAtI lAvavI paDe che ? praznakartA : nA, dhaNIpaNuM tyAM jatuM rahene ! dAdAzrI : dhaNIpaNuM jatuM rahe che, dhaNIpaNuM !! ohoho ! moTo dhaNI thaI beTho !! ane anUsarTiphAIDa dhaNI pAcho. jo sarTiphikeTa laIne Avyo hota to ThIka che ! strI e to moTI zakti che, e daivI zakti che. A jeTalI devIo che, e badhI strIzakti che ane e prAkRtika zakti che. ane puruSa e puruSa zakti che. have baMne zakti hoya to saMsAra cAle, nahIM to cAle nahIM. ane prakRtine jo saLI karavA jazo to mahAna duHkho Avaze. eTale ApaNA hindu zAstroe strIne devI tarIke mAnya karI che. A AtmA e cetana che, e puruSa che ane A prakRti e strI che. A prakRti e Adyazakti che. eTale jo AdyazaktinuM pUjana hoya to prakRti sArI rahe. AvA hATakela-bArTaphela nA thAya. paNa Adyazaktine tarachoDe che eTale hArTaphela thAya che. have Adyazaktino artha zuM ? eka bAju mAtAjInA pUjana kare aMbAjInA, kALikAmAne, sarasvatInA e badhAMnA

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! pUjana kare, bIjI bAju bairI joDe laDe, te Adyazakti nA kahevAya. bairI ja Adyazakti che pote. eTale tyAM to laDavuM to nA joIe. ene duHkha, trAsa nA thavAM joIe. eTale mANase mAtAjInI bhakti to karavI joIe. 355 praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : prakRtine mATe, mokSane mATe nahIM. prakRti sArI hoya to ja kAma thAya. eka AMkhe prema, bIjImAM karapa, zIkhI le cAvI pesatAM maMDapa ! praznakartA : Ape vAta karI ke puruSoe strIone kaMTrolamAM rAkhavI tenA aMge thoDI carcA thaI ema. have mAro savAla e che ke puruSa jo strIone kaMTrolamAM rAkhe eno artha evo thAya ke puruSo potAnuM dhAryuM strIo pAse karAvavA mAMge che. to e taMta nathI thato ? dAdAzrI : to pachI devI mAnatA nathI. eka AMkhamAM devI mAnavAmAM zuM che ? plasa-mAInasa karI nAkhe che. devI mAnIne tame kaMTrola rAkho. praznakartA H ane jo ApaNe 'samabhAve phAIlano nikAla' AjJAno amala karIe to emAM kaMTrola rAkhavAno savAla ja kevI rIte Ubho thAya ? have mane samajAvo ke to kaMTrolano savAla kevI rIte Ubho thAya, samabhAve nikAla thAya to ? dAdAzrI : e badhuM to 'A' jJAna maLyA pachInI vAta che. jJAna maLyA pahelAMnI vAta huM karuM chuM. jJAna maLyA pachI kahIe chIe, samabhAve nikAla karI nAkho. A to strInI A je vAta chene, e saMsAra vyavahAranA lokone mATe ane ApaNe to samabhAve nikAla karavA jevuM hoya, e ukela lAvI nAkhavAno. praznakartA : jo ApaNe evI rIte kahIe ke puruSe eka AMkhamAM devI ne eka AMkhamAM kaDakAI rAkhe to pachI e ja vastu strIo mATe 356 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kharI ke nahIM ? A strIe paNa AvuM ja rAkhavuM joIene ? dAdAzrI : e strIe premathI rAkhavuM joIe. eNe dhaNI sAme kaDakAIthI nA jovuM ane puruSe eka AMkhamAM devI tarIke ane eka AMkhamAM kaDakAza rAkhavI e kudaratI niyama che. nahIM to strIomAM jokhama UbhuM thavAnuM. praznakartA : eTale kaMTrolanuM sAdhana rAkhyuM che. dAdAzrI : hA, ane e eno durupayoga na thAya eTale devI zakti tarIke paNa juo ! praznakartA : strIone jo jokhamano savAla che, to puruSone bIjI jAtanAM paNa jokhamano savAla to che ja ne ? dAdAzrI : kharo, kaLiyuganA puruSa eTale zuM nA thAya ? kaLiyugamAM to evuM ja hoyane ! ane evuM chene lagna thayuM eTale jokhamI avasthA ! lagna thavuM tyArathI jokhamI hotAM nathI. jokhama pachI, athaDAathaDIthI jokhamI thaI jAya che. nathI jokhamI hotA toya jokhamI thaI jAya che. jokhamI kadAca na hoya eno dhaNI toya paNa athaDAathaDIthI jokhamadAra thaI jAya che. kAraNa ke ahaMkAra chene ! tyAM sudhI saheja vera rAkhI mele. A badhuM jJAna nA lIdhuM hoya tene mATe vAta che. bAkI A emaNe to jJAna lIdhuM che. A to khAlI pUche che eno javAba ApuM chuM. praznakartA : ane huM A vyavahAranI ja vAta karuM chuM ke duniyAmAM jema evuM bane che ke strIne kaMTrolanI jarUra che evI rIte jeNe jJAna nathI lIdhuM evAM kuTuMbomAM strIne paNa puruSa upara kaMTrolanI jarUra to UbhI thAya ja ne, amuka saMjogomAM ? have te vakhate jo ene ema ApaNe nA kahIe ke tAre kaMTrola nahIM rAkhavAno, to pachI e strI jAya kyAM pachI ? A janarala satya che. dAdAzrI : A kaLiyugamAM e vAta sacavAtI nathI. eTale ame rasto pachI sIdho khoLI kADhelo ke hIrAbAnuM ja calaNa che evuM kahI daIe.

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 357 358 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra ApaNe presiDanTa ane pelAM prAIma minisTara ! praznakartA: dAdA, eTalA mATe kIdhuM che ke 'kiMga kena Du no roMga" eTale ke rAjA pote kaMI khoTuM karato ja nathI. dAdAzrI : nA, e roMga kare to pUchanAra koNa ? ene pUchAya nahIM eTale pachI AvuM lakhe ! 'kena Du no roMga" eTale zuM artha che, eTale e roMgane kADhanAra, bhUla kADhanAra koNa ? evuM A badhI kahevata che, paNa A huM je kahevA mAguM chuM, presiDanTa sahI karavAnI, eTale zuM ke nA-calaNI ! eTale calaNa amAruM nahIM. A to rUTina rUpe sahI amArI, kAraNa ame mUchovALA eTale sahI amArI joIe rUTinanI. emane mUcho nahIM, te sahI koNa kare ?(!!) to pachI Dakho thAya nahIM. hIrAbAne pUchIene to e eTaluM kahe bahu tyAre ko'ka dahADo, dAdA bahu kaDaka svabhAvanA che, tIkhA bhamarA che. kAraNa ke kaMIka badhuM vadhAre paDatuM bagADene eTale jarA kaDaka thavAnuM. te thayelo kaDaka, kaDaka thaI gayelA. nahIM thayelA kaDaka ? e emane sthira pakaDe. emanI DirelamenTa nA thAya pachI. DirelamenTa jovuM to paDene ? eTale emanA manamAM ATalo abhiprAya rahI javAno, ke tIkhA bhamarA jevA che, emanuM nAma devAya nahIM ApaNe. ane ame cAlavA daIe. eTale A kAma karyA kare. tethI ApaNA lokoe pahelAM kaheluM, kaDakAI jarA rAkhajo. to chakI nA jAya. tame devI kaho to chakI jaze, vAra nahIM lAge. ane kaLiyuganuM pANI maLyuM pachI zuM joIe ? kaLiyuganuM pANI eTale eka AMkhamAM jarAka saheja kaDakAI rAkhavAnI, eka AMkhamAM devI jevI. paNa e pachI nA AvaDyuM lokone. eTale eka mANasa mane kahe che ke mArI vAIpha mane bilakula gAMThatI ja nathI. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'tArA chokarAnuM gAMThe che ke nahIM gAMThatI ?" tyAre kahe, 'enuM to gAMThe che, enA ja chokarAne.' tyAre tAre eno chokaro thavuM hatuM, zuM khoTuM ? "mane gAMThatI nathI." mUA, zarama nathI AvatI. AvuM nA bolIza. mane kahuM chuM, te bIjA koIne kahIza nahIM. A te kahevAtuM haze AvuM ? tyAre kahe, "nA dAdA, tamane ja kahuM, bIjA koIne nA kahuM." tyAra pachI meM ene samajaNa pADI ke lakhI le tArI copaDImAM, ramA ramADavI sahela che, vipharI mahAmuzkela. have viphare evuM karIza nahIM, mUA. vipharavAnuM thAya ke tyAMthI baMdha. ene kaMIka A sogaThAbAjIneya ramADatAM AvaDavAM joIe. nA AvaDavuM joIe ? praznakartA : AvaDavuM joIe. dAdAzrI : A kaMI jevA tevA pAkyA che? A nizALe sAruM bhaNelA. emAM bahu sarasa ekkA hoya. Aya sUjha che ne badhAnI ! strIte vaTe e puruSa kahevAya ? pachI bairIto mAra, takhorAM khAya! strIne vaDhavuM paDatuM haze ? kharo dhaNI te enuM nAma kahevAya ke strIne vaDhavuM ja nA paDe ne strI A AMkhathI ja kAbUmAM rahe. vaDhavuM paDe, e dhaNI kahevAto haze ? garabA gAya evA dhaNI ! puruSa to kevo hoya ? evA tejasvI puruSo hoya ke jenAthI hajAro strIo thathare ! Ama jotAMnI sAthe ja pUjI jAya !! Aja to dhaNI evA thaI gayA che ke saliyo potAnI bairIno hAtha jhAle to tene vinaMtI kare, are saliyA choDI de, merI bIbI hai, merI bIbI hai." mera cakkara, AmAM saliyAne tuM vinaMtI kare che? kaI jAtano cakkara pAkyo che tuM ? e to ene mAra, enuM gaLacuM pakaDa ne bacakuM bhara. Ama enA page lAgyo e kaMI choDI de evI jAta nathI. tyAre e "polIsa polIsa, bacAvo bacAvo' kare. alyA, tuM dhaNI thaIne 'polIsa polIsa' zuM kare che ? polIsane zuM topane bAre caDhAvavo che ? tuM jIvato che ke marelo che ? polIsanI madada levAnI hoya to tuM dhaNI nA thaIza. te pachI keTalAka mANaso to AvIne kahe che, ke juo A. alyA, zuM thayuM? tyAre kahe, 'nahorAM bharI lIdhA bairIe ane be dhola mArI hatI Aja' mane AvIne kahe che eTalA sArA che, DAhyA che !

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 359 praznakartA : e to sAruM kahevAya, tamane to kahevuM ja joIe. dAdAzrI : te keTalAka mahIM mAra khAya che pAchA. mane kahI jAya bicArA ane bairIne mAre che te mane kahetA nathI, mUA. ApaNA 'mahAtmAo'mAMthI koIka ja mahAtmA khulluM karI de ke, "dAdA, Aje to bairIe mane mAryo !' ATalI badhI saraLatA zene lIdhe AvI ? ApaNA jJAnane lIdhe AvI. 'dAdA'ne to badhI ja vAta kahevAya. AvI saraLatA AvI tyArathI ja mokSe javAnI nizAnI thaI. AvI saraLatA hoya nahIMne ! mokSe javA mATe saraLa ja thavAnuM che. A bahAra to dhaNI chiTa chiTa karyA kare. bairIno mAra pote khAto hoya toya bahAra kahe ke, "nA nA, e to mArI dIkarIne mAratI hatI. alyA, meM jAte tane mAra khAtAM joyuM hatuMne ? Ano zo artha ? miniMgalesa. enA karatAM sAce sAcuM kahI dene ! AtmAne kyAM mAravAnuM che ? ApaNe AtmA chIe, mAraze to dehane mAraze. ApaNA AtmAnuM to koI apamAneya karI nA zake. kAraNa ke 'ApaNane' e dekhe to apamAna karene ? dekhyA vagara zI rIte apamAna kare ? dehane to A bheMsa nathI mArI jatI ? tyAM nathI kahetA ke A bheMse mane mArI ? A bheMsa karatAM gharanAM baI moTAM nahIM ? emAM zuM ? zenI AbarU javAnI che ? AbarU che ja kyAM te ? joyA meM vahuto mAra khAtArA, samyak jJAte karyotA pobArA ! loko ahIM AvyA pachI gharamAM trAsa-bAsa ApatA nathI. mahIM keTalAkane to vahu mAre chene, te AvIne mane kahe, juo, A nakhoriyA badhA. huM samajuM ke Ane DIliMga karatAM nathI AvaDatuM. emAM vahuno zo doSa bicArIno. huM samajuM, eTale meM ene kaheluM tuM mane AvIne kahI jaje ke zuM hatuM ? te ene kazuM karyuM nathI ne ?! nA, nathI karyuM. tyAre meM kahyuM, basa, tyAM sudhI ApaNuM noMdhaze, nahIM to tUTI jaze A. nahIM to DIvaoNrsa thatAM vAra nahIM lAge. ApaNe je te raste nabhAvIne kAma kADhI levAnuM. kaMI pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra bIjI lAvIe, te kaMI sArI AvavAnI che ? evo ne evo ja mAlane ! A mAla manuSyapaNAno ne. eTale enAthI ja kAma kADhI levuM. pachI meM ene kahyuM, 'pachI sAMje eNe tane jamavAnuM ApyuM ke', eNe kahyuM, 'jamavAnuM sAruM Ape che, emAM kazI muzkelI nathI.' tyAre meM kahyuM, "jamI lene chAnomAno, A melane pULo ahIMthI, jAte karavuM paDaze to veza thaze.' jAte khAvAnuM karavuM to veza nA thAya, baLyo ? praznakartA : thAya, thAya, pUrepUro veza thAya ! 360 dAdAzrI : pachI meM kahyuM, kema tAro zuM guno ? tyAre kahe, kazoya guno nahIM, baLyo. huM pahelAM mArato hato ene. te eNe A vera vALyuM, kahe che. tyAre meM kahyuM, have baMdha karI daIzane ! tyAre kahe, hA. have A jJAna maLyuMne tyArathI have zAMta. tyAre meM kahyuM, samabhAve nikAla karI nAkhane. te anaMta avatArathI laDato laDato ja Avyo chuM. have samabhAve nikAla karuM chuM. 'hA, tame kahyuM e pramANe karuM chuM' kahe che. 'to sAruM karyuM teM. A udaya jatA raheze', ne pachI vahu enA kahyAmAM ja rahe. A udayakarma che, mUA. tuM sIdhI karavA jauM, kyAM jaze A udayakarma te ? udaya to bhogavye ja chUTako, te atyAre vahu ropha mAre che ! A to samabhAve nikAla karIne atyAre sarasa dahADA kADhe che. e ne A beunuM sarasa cAle che ! nahIM to chokarAM-choDIo badhuM bagaDI jAta. have e tyAM e vahue je ene mAryo, te A jJAna ene samatAmAM rAkhe che. jo jJAna nA ApyuM hota to UMdhe raste jAta. enI UMdhI dRSTi hatIne, te chatI karI ApI mArI-ThokIne. have jaina DevalapamenTa hatuM toya paNa jone UMdhI hatIne dRSTi ! koI vahune mAre evA kharA ke nahIM ? praznakartA : hoya, hoya. mANasa zuM nA kare ? ahaMkAra zuM nA kare ? dAdAzrI : ahaMkAra zuM nA kare ane jaina dRSTivALA ! bIjA-trIjAnI jANe jADI dRSTi hoya to kare, paNa DevalapDa mANasone tyAM AvuM mAravAnuM hoya nahIM. sArA je DevalapDa hoyane, UMcI komamAM to mAravAnuM zuM, zabdeya avaLA nA bole. A to halakA loko mahIM ahIM AgaLa je A pesI

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 361 362 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra gayelA hoyane, tyAM mAravAnuM hoya. A kaMI halakI koma che ? zabdaya halakA nA bolAya. pachI halakI nAtanA loko ne AmAM phera zo rahyo ? praznakartA : je jJAna ene bheguM thayuM, e jJAna ja ene dorI jAya che evuM thayuMne ? - dAdAzrI : hA, basa e ja, bIjuM zuM che ? jJAna jevuM hoya evuM ene dorI jAya. e jJAna evuM jo jANI lAvyo ke mAMsAhArathI zarIrane majabUtI maLaze, to tevuM cAlyuM jAya. jo jJAna evuM jANI lAvyo ke mAMsAhArIthI mAruM ahita thaI rahyuM che to evuM. eTale vahune kahejo ke, 'tAre jeTaluM laDavuM hoya eTaluM laDaje. mane to dAdAe laDavAnI nA pADI che, dAdAe mane AjJA karI che. huM A beTho chuM, tAre je kaMI bolavuM hoya te bola have' evuM ene kahI devuM. praznakartA : paNa e bole ja nahIM ne pachI. dAdAzrI : dAdAnuM nAma Ave ke cUpa ja thaI jAya. bIjAM koI hathiyAra nA vAparIza. A ja hathiyAra vAparaje. pati kahevaDAve, bhaIsA'ba ! pachI pastI vasUle hisAba ! eka bahene to mane kahyuM hatuM, 'paNI tyAre e bahu loMTha (jabarA) hatA.' kahyuM, 'have ?" tyAre kahe, 'dAdA, tame badhuM strI-cAritra badhuM samajo cho, mArI pAse zuM kahevaDAvo cho ?" mArI pAse koI sukha joItuM hoya emane, tyAre huM ene kahyuM, bhaIsA'ba kaho, eTale bhaIsA'ba kahevaDAvuM tyAre ! emAM mAro zuM vAMka ? pahelAM e mane bhaIsA'ba kahevaDAvatA hatA ane have huM bhaIsA'ba kahevaDAvuM chuM. samajAya che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : e muMbaInAM lokone pUchyuM, ghera AvI bhAMjagaDa nathIne ? nA dAdA, evuM nathI. hoya to mane kaheje, haM. pAMsarI karI nAkhIe. eka mahinAmAM to pAMsarI karI nAkhuM. keTalIka strI to patine mAre ha3. pativratA strIne to AvuM sAMbhaLatAM ja pApa lAge ke AvuM bairI dhaNIne mAre ? praznakartA : jo puruSa mAra khAya to te bAyalo kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : evuM che, mAra khAvo e kaMI puruSanI nabaLAI nathI. paNa enA A RNAnubaMdha evA hoya che, bairI duHkha devA mATe ja AvelI hoya che, te hisAba cUkave ja. praznakartA : pachI dhAro ke patnI dhola mAre to zuM karavuM te samaye ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe dhIme rahIne davA-bavA copaDIe Ama. praznakartA : bIjI vAra mAre to ? dAdAzrI : patnI koI dahADo mAre nahIM ane mAre to kyAre mAre, ke ghaNA dahADAnA ApaNA gunA bhegA thayA hoyane tyAre eka phero sAmI thAya. eTale ApaNe nirAMte davA-bavA copaDI devI. praznakartA : ApaNe mAravI nahIM joIe ? dAdAzrI : zarUAta ja nahIM karavI. praznakartA : dhAro ke patnI zarUAta kare to ? dAdAzrI : zarUAta kare pachI patnIne kahI devuM ke A dhaMdho cAlu rAkhavo che ke baMdha karavo che ? cAlu rAkhavo hoya to kAyamano cAlu rAkhIe, to chokarAne bIjI rUmamAM mUkI AvyA pachI cAlu karaje A. chokarAne nA bagADIza. kahIe ane baMdha karavuM hoya to baMdha karIe, paNa karAra karI nAkha, have karAra, egrImenTa (karAra) karI nAkha. praznakartA : e cAlu ja rAkhatI hoya to ApaNe ene chUTI ja karI daIe paramenanTa(kAyama)nI to zuM ? dAdAzrI : kone ?

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 363 praznakartA : patnIne. to e pApa nahIM kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : zAnuM pApa hoya che ? dago karIe e pApa. paNa patnI ja kahetI hoya ke, mAre chUTuM thavuM che, tamArI joDe rahevuM nathI, to pachI zuM thAya ? patnI kaMTALene ? dhola mAravAnI bahu caLa Avene to bhIMta joDe mAravI, patnIne kahIe, le, le, karIne bhIMtane mAravuM ane ene kahevuM nahIM. ane ko'ka bahAravALA jANe ke patnIne mAre che A. praznakartA H tyAre ApaNane vAgene, ApaNe bhIMtane mArIe to ? dAdAzrI : e tyAre ja khabara paDene, e bhIMtane mAre tyAre khabara paDe ke mAravuM e zuM che ? betI vaDhavADamAMthI bhavADo, 'le letI jA' vANiyAto pIchoDo ! ApaNA loko mahIM laDe kharA ko'ka dahADo ? bAraNuM vAsIne ke ughADuM rAkhIne ? ApaNA loko to paTela loko, bhoLA mANasa, ko'ka bahAranuM pese toya kazuM nahIM ane eka vANiyo mArI uMmarano hatone, tene meM pUchyuM, 'alyA, tamAre tyAM laDavADa thAya ke ?' tyAre kahe, dAdAjI, laDavADa to roje thAya, badheya thAya.' meM kahyuM, 'tame zuM upAya karo, thAya che tyAre ?' tyAre e kahe, 'pahelAM bAraNuM vAsI AvuM. te bahArathI AvatA baMdha thaI jAya.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'sinemAvALA to khulluM rAkhe che.' tyAre kahe, 'emane to gharAkI joItI hoya, amAre gharAkI nathI joItI.' hA, loka pesI jAya te UlaTI vaDhavADa vadhAre. pAchA mahIM saMkoranArA Ave. saMkore pAchuM. mahIM saLagatuM hoya tene saMkorI Ape. e bhavADo thaI jAya evuM samajI jAya. e to bAraNuM pahelAM vAsI Ave. 'bAraNuM vAsI AvuM ne pachI gharamAM laDIe pachI enI meLe TADhuM paDe.' AnI buddhi sAcI che. mane gamyuM A. ATalIya akkalavALI vAta hoya to tene ApaNe ekasepTa karavI joIe. ane amAre to rAjazrI loko, bAraNuM vAseluM hoya to ughADI nAkhe. dekho hamArA khela, hamArA khela 364 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dekho, kaheze. praznakartA : kSatriyamAM to ema kahI de ke cAlatI thA, A bAraNA ughADA che, bAraNA vAsavA nA bese. dAdAzrI : hA, evuM kahe e ! kahe uparathI e lokone bhaya nahIM evuM. paNa A bhavADo to thAyane, baLyo ! praznakartA : hA, thAya. dAdAzrI : eTale A vANiyA DAhyA mANasa. bahAra bhavADo thaze, nAma bagaDaze, enA karatAM laDavuM hoya to mahIM laDone, laDyA vagara cAle evuM nathI. pharajiyAta che ne marajiyAta hoya to koI laDeya nahIM ! ame eka gAmamAM gayelA, tyAM AgaLa badhA loko eka ghara AgaLa bhegA thayA hatA rAtre agiyAra sADA agiyAra vAge. tyAre meM kahyuM, zuM che bhaI, ahIM AgaLa. tyAre kahe, nATaka jovuM hoya to Avo, jovA jevuM che. A zeTha mahIM baIne mAre che, mane kahe che, Avo juo, sAMbhaLo. te zeTha zuM bole, le letI jA. tyAM ghara AgaLa be-cAra jaNA UbhA rahIne Ama sAMbhaLyA karatA hatA. gharane bAraNuM vAseluM hatuM. eTale A bahAravALA samaje ke A zeTha pelI baI (zeThANI)ne mAre che, le letI jA. have temAMthI eka mANasa khAnagI hazene, pADozamAM rahenAro, te kahe che, kharI rIte baI zeThane mAre che roja. baI caDhI bese te baI Ane mAre che. paNa vANiyo pAko eTale pachI manamAM ema kahe, AbarU jAya bahAra, eTale evuM kaMI tAyapho karuM ke bahAra AbarU nA jAya. meM kahyuM, A akkalano kothaLo kharo, bhaI A to ! amane AvaDe nahIM AvuM tevuM... pelI mArene, vAge ke tarata, le letI jA, bole phakta. eno ukela khoLI kADhelo A. eTale meM kahyuM, A kharI akkala, ApaNe joyelI nahIM ne AvI tevI badhI ! e to bahAra jema pharIe tema khabara paDe. A breIna tuMDe tuMDe matirbhinnA, judI judI mati. meM kahyuM, A kharo zabda khoLI kADhyo. have bahAra loka kahe, nA, nA, vANiyo pelIne mAre che. juone, A bolyone ! le letI jA, bole chene ! te pADozI hato, te mane kahevA mAMDyo, AvuM che kahIe, A to

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366 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 365 Avo saMsAra che. praznakartA ane asala paTela hoyane to tageDI melIza tAre bApane ghera, ema kahe. dAdAzrI : badhuM bole, bhaI. A to amAre to kSatriya loko phAve evuM bolI nAkhe. bhoLA badhA, mahIM kapaTa-bapaTa nA AvaDe. banAvaTa karatAM AvaDe nahIM. ane A 'le letI jA' kevaDI moTI banAvaTa karI ? bhagavAnane chetare evI banAvaTa. bhagavAna jo bahAra sAMbhaLavA Ave teya samajI jAya ke mUA A 'le letI jA" bole che, eTale ene mArato haze ! vaNikabhAI to evA zUravIra hatA te poLane nAke corIo thatI hatI ne tyAM bUmAbUma thaI rahI hatI. emane khabara paDI ke coro poLamAM AvyA che. eTale emaNe to potAnI bairIne kahyuM ke 'tuM mane godaDAM oDhADI de !" AvA zUravIra loko che (!) eka vaNikabhAI mArI joDe roja besanArA. emane meM pUchyuM, 'kema tamAre kemanuM cAle che vahu joDe ? jo vahu marI jAya to zuM thAya tamAruM ?" tyAre emaNe kahyuM, 'meM to mArI bairIne kahI dIdhuM che ke huM rAMDIza paNa tane rAMDavA nahIM dauM.' ottArInI ! A vaNika to bahu pAkA. AnAthI to bairIne sAruM lAge ne bhAI vadhAre jIve ! strIne kahe ke, tuM saubhAgyavaMtI thaIne jaje paNa huM to rAMDIza ! A to puruSoe kADhelA kAyadA ane tethI pakSapAtavALA kAyadA hoya. strIono ane puruSono je necarala bheda che e ja bheda. bAkI to eya 'zuddhAtmA' ja chene ! hindustAnamAM prakRti mapAya nahIM, ahIM to bhagavAna paNa gothAM khAI jAya ! "phorena'mAM to eka dahADo enI 'vAIpha" joDe sAco rahyo to AkhI jiMdagI sAco nIkaLe. ane ahIM to Akho dahADo prakRtine jo jo kare chatAMya prakRti mapAya nahIM. A to karmanA udaya khoTa khavaDAve che, nahIM to A loko khoTa khAya ? are, mare toya khoTa nA khAya, AtmAne bAjue thoDIvAra besADIne pachI mare. siMha jevA dhaNIne bIvaDAve, paNa UMdaraDI ete phaphaDAve ! A amaladAroya oNphisethI akaLAIne ghera Ave, tyAre baI sAheba zuM kaheze ke "doDha kalAka leTa thayA ? kyAM gayA hatA ?" le !! enI baI che te eka phero emane DaphaLAvatI'tI, tyAre Avo siMha jevo mANasa jenAthI AkhuM gujarAta bhaDake, eneya bhaDakAve che, juone ! AkhuM gujarAtamAM koI nAma nA de, paNa enI baI gAMThatI ja nathI ane ene hau TeDakAvI nAkhatI hatI. pachI meM ene eka dahADo kahyuM "bena, A dhaNI che te tane ekalI mUkIne dasa-bAra-paMdara dahADA bahAragAma jAya to ?" tyAre kahe, "mane to bIka lAge.' have zenI bIka lAge ? tyAre kahe che, mahIM bIjA rUmamAM pyAlo khakhaDene toya mArA manamAM ema lAge ke bhUta AvyuM haze ! eka UMdaraDI pyAlo khakhaDAve toya bIka lAge. ane A dhaNI ATalo ! dhaNIne lIdhe tane bIka nahIM lAgatI. e dhaNIne pAcho tuM TaiDakAva TeDakAva karuM chuM, vAgha jevA dhaNInuM tela kADhI nAkhe ! praznakartA : evI Teva paDI gaI hoya, mANasane. dAdAzrI : nA, nA, paNa UMdaraDIthI bhaDake e dhaNIthI bhaDakatI nathI, e ajAyabI ja chene ? maryAdA rAkhavI joIe badhI. ane dhaNIneya kahevuM joIe ke maryAdAmAM tame raho ane huM rahuM. ApaNe beu saMdhi karo maryAdAnI. tamAre strIoe dhaNIne pI nA javA joIe. keTalIka strIo to dhaNIne vATI karIne phAko karI nAkhe. evuM nA hovuM joIe. dhaNI sAro hoya to bicAro dabAI jAya ane tethI durupayoga na karavo joIe. dhaNI eTale dhaNI. paNa ApaNe sAcavIne heMDIe to DAhyA thaI jAya evo che. nahIM toya enI joDe AkhI jiMdagI kADhavI ja paDazene ? pANIdAra ghoDI paNa pADe dhaNI, savArI na phAvI, nathI mAskaNI ! eka mANasa traNa hajAra rUpiyAnI ghoDI lAvyo hato. roja to Ama ghoDI upara bApa besato hato. ene chokaro covIsa varSano hato. eka dahADo

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 367 368 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra chokaro ghoDI upara beTho ane taLAva upara laI gayo. pelI ghoDIne jarAka saLI karI ! have ghoDI traNa hajAra rUpiyAnI, ene saLI karavA lAyaka hoya ? ene saLI karAya nahIM, enI cAlamAM ja cAlavA devI paDe. te pelAe to saLI karI, te ghoDI haDahaDATa UbhI thaI gaI. ghoDI UbhI thaI ke pelo paDI gayo ! poTaluM nIce paDyuM ! e poTaluM ghera AvIne zuM bolavA mAMDyuM ke 'A ghoDI vecI do, ghoDI kharAba che.' ene besatAM nathI AvaDatuM ne ghoDInuM nAma de che ? enuM nAma dhaNI ! A badhA dhaNI !! pachI meM kahyuM, 'hove, e ghoDI kharAba hatI (traNa) hajAranI ghoDI ! alyA, tane besatA nathI AvaDatuM, emAM ghoDIne zuM karavA vagove che ?" besatA nA AvaDavuM joIe ? ghoDIne vagove che ? maneya eka phero amArI ghoDIe pADI nAkhelo. pachI meM ghera AvIne amArA moTA bhAIne kahyuM, 'A ghoDIe mane pADI nAkhyo. mane lAgyuM che." tyAre e kahe, "ghoDI ATalI badhI kiMmatI te pADI nAkhatI haze ? tane besatA AvaDyuM nahIM hoya.' huM samajI gayo. meM kAnapaTTI pakaDI. ApaNane besatA nA AvaDyuM, bA. akkaramI paDI jAya ! pAcho lokone kahe zuM ke, ghoDIe mane pADI nAkhyo." ane A ghoDI eno nyAya kone kahevA jAya ? ghoDI para besatAM tane nathI AvaDatuM emAM tAro vAMka ke ghoDIno ? ane ghoDIya besatAMnI sAthe ja samajI jAya ke A to jaMgalI janAvara beThuM, Ane besatAM AvaDatuM nathI ! tema A hindustAnanI strIo eTale AryanArI, tenI joDe kAma letAM nA AvaDe to pachI e paDe ja ne ! eka phera dhaNI jo strInI sAme thAya to teno vakkara ja nA rahe. ApaNuM ghara sArI rIte cAlatuM hoya, chokarAM bhaNatAM hoya sArI rIte, kazI bhAMjagaDa nA hoya ane ApaNane temAM avaLuM dekhAyuM ane vagara kAmanA sAmA thaIe eTale ApaNI akkalano kImiyo strI samajI jAya ke AnAmAM barakata nathI. jo ApaNAmAM vakkara nA hoya to ghoDIne paMpALa paMpALa karIe toye eno prema ApaNane maLe. pahelo vakkara paDavo joIe. 'vAIpha'nI keTalIka bhUlo ApaNe sahana karIe to tenA para prabhAva paDe. A to vagara bhUle bhUla kADhIe to zuM thAya ? keTalAka puruSo strInA saMbaMdhamAM bUmAbUma kare che, te badhI khoTI bUmo hoya che. AvuM kaMI strI puruSa paiNyA karyA pachI AvuM ? paNa ene AvaDe nahIM tyAM sudhI dhaNI thayo e ja muzkelI che. ghoDIno doSa hoto ja nathI, besanArano doSa hoya che. tAre besavAnI AvaData nathI ane pachI kaheze, ghoDIe pADI nAkhyo. AvuM bolAya ? praznakartA : nA bolAya. dAdAzrI : tArAmAM akkala nathI eTale pachI zuM thAya ? ane bahAravALA kaheya kharA, ghoDIe mane pADI nAkhyo. eTale huM pachI vAta kahuM, ghoDI pADe nahIM, A vAta tame kyAMthI lAvyA ? ghoDI pADanArI hota to ghoDI kahevAya nahIM. pAMca hajAramAM nA Ave ghera, e laDakaNI ghoDI hoya che, te sastI maLI jAya. keTalAka sAheba evA hoya che ke 'oNphisa'mAM kArakuna joDe DakhADakha karyA kare. badhA kArakuna paNa samaje ke sAhebanAmAM barakata nathI. paNa kare zuM, purvee ene bosa tarIke besADyo tyAM ? ghera to bIbI joDe paMdara-paMdara divasathI kesa 'penDiMga' paDelo hoya ! sAhebane pUchIe, kema ? to kahe ke, "enAmAM akkala nathI." ne e akkalano kothaLo ! vece to cAra AnAya nA Ave !!! sAhebanI 'vAIphane pUchIe to e kaheze ke, 'javA done emanI vAta, kazI barakata ja nathI emanAmAM !' tamane strIo joDe 'DIliMga' karatAM nathI AvaDatuM. tamane vepArIone gharAka joDe DIliMga karatAM nA AvaDe to e tamArI pAse nA Ave. eTale ApaNA loka nathI kahetA ke "selsamena' sAro rAkho. sAro, dekhAvaDo, hoziyAra 'selsamena' hoya to loka thoDo bhAva paNa vadhAre ApI de. evI rIte ApaNane strI joDe 'DIliMga' karatAM AvaDavuM joIe. vahu che to ghara naMdanavata, vahu viNa ghara veraNa-cheraNa ! A to strI jAti che to badhuM jagatanuM nUra che, nahIM to gharamAM bAvA karatAMya bhUMDAM raho. savAramAM paMjo ja nA vALyo hoya ! cAnuM ThekANuM nA

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! paDatuM hoya !! e to vAIpha che to kaheze, eTale tarata vahelo vahelo nAhI le. ene lIdhe zobhA che badhI. ane emanI zobhA Amane lIdhe che. 369 A strIo nA hoyane to A ekalA puruSo jo saMsAra mAMDene, A phaleTamAM rahe, to e phaleTamAM gadheDAneya pesavAnuM nA game, cA kyAM pIdhelI hoya, pyAlo rakAbI kyAM paDI rahyAM hoya, godaDuM kyAM raheluM hoya, naryo eMThavADo, gaMdavADo ne badhuM kacaro ja paDyo hoya. khamIza kADhIne ahIM nAkhyuM hoya. No (no) vyavasthA, vyavasthA kazuM ja nA hoya. khurazI kyAMya paDI hoya, badhuM veraNacheraNa hoya. vyavasthita jIvatA nA hoya. ane puruSa kapaDAMye pAMsarA nA pahere. istrI vagaranuM khamIsa paherIne pharyA karato hoya ! eTale A strIne lIdhe dhaNIno saMsAra dIpe che. saMsAramAM puruSone strI helpa kare che. e to A strInA thakI gRhastha, nahIM to gRhastha zAno ?! bharavADa jevo lAge pachI. strInAmAM vyavahAra zakti che, orgenAijhiMga pAvara che enAmAM. ane strI Ave tyAre kaheze, 'baLyuM, tamArAmAM vetA nahIMne, A badhuM AvuM ja karyuMne !' 'vetA nahIM' hau kahe. have 'vetA' zabda zuM haze ? e to huM jANuM ane e jANatI haze ! e strI che to tamAre saMsAra dIpyo, nahIM to tamAro saMsAra kharAba thaI jAya. A to tamAruM makAna emane lIdhe zobhe che. praznakartA : e evuM ja kahe che. dAdAzrI : vAta sAcI che paNa, eno upakAra mAnavo joIe. praznakartA : paNa ApaNe ekalA hoIe to ApaNane joIe evI cA bane. dAdAzrI : hA... e kharuM. ekalA hoIe to joIe evI cA bane, kaho cho, e tamAre TrAya karavI hoya to cha mahinA ekalA rahI juo. praznakartA : evuM sadbhAgya mane kyAMthI maLe ? dAdAzrI : nA, ekalA rahI juo. tamArA traNa dahADAnAM kapa-rakAbI pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra paDyAM haze, A dhotiyuM ahIM paDyuM haze, te Ama puruSa jIvI zake nahIM. puruSane ja jIvatA nathI AvaDatuM. A strIo thakI A ropha che tamAro badho. emanuM menejamenTa che. e to strIne lIdhe ghara dIpe che. strIne lIdhe dIpene ? nahIM to tamAre to vyavasthita nA hoya kazuM. kazuM AvaDe ja nahIM puruSone to ! bahAranuM badhuM AvaDe paNa A nA AvaDe. 370 strI prakRti varate dharAve dhIra, tahIM to khoTamAM codhAra tIra ! strImAM bahu zakti hoya gama khAvAnI ! jabarajasta du:kha hoyane, toya dhaNIne kaheze, 'gabharAzo nahIM, sUI jAva, zuM karavA duHkhI thAva cho ?' ene zAMti Ape. strI eTale sahaja prakRti. eTale dhaNIne pAMca karoDanI khoTa gayelI hoyane, to dhaNI Akho dahADo ciMtA karyA karato hoya, dukAna khoTamAM jatI hoya to ghera khAtA-pItA nA hoya paNa strI to ghera AvIne kaheze, lyo, UTho. have bahu hAya-hAya nA karazo, tame cA pIo ne khAva nirAMte. to aDadhI pArTanarazIpa hoya paNa ene kema ciMtA nathI ? tyAre kahe, sAhajika che. eTale A sahajanI joDe rahIe to jIvAya, nahIM to jIvAya nahIM. ane beu che te puruSo rahetA hoya to marI jAya sAmAsAmI. eTale strI to sahaja che, tethI to A gharamAM AnaMda rahe che thoDo ghaNo. praznakartA : eTale e prakRti anivArya che, jarUrI che ? dAdAzrI : jarUrI che, khAsa jarUrI che. tethI to A jIve che loko. toya tyAM ghera jaIne vaDhavaDhA kare che. mUA, samajato nathI ! have tenI joDe kyAM nakAmI Dakhalo karuM chuM ? paNa ene Dakhala kara kara karyA kare Akho dahADo. bhasa, bhasa, bhasa, bhasa kare. AvuM nA karAya. eTale strIonI joDe bahu mRdutAthI vartavuM joIe. tyAM akaDAIthI varte che loko. jema phUla joDe rahIe chIe evI rIta rahevuM joIe. ene to akaLAI Ama kacarI nAkhe che. keTaluM duHkhamAM Avyo hoyane toya enI bairIne jue ne bairI joDe zAMti thaI jAya pAchI ene. bahArathI akaLAyelo mANasa Ave, to erakaMDizana

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(18) vAIpha vALe tola sAthe ! 371 372 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra rahetI hoyane to ghara suMdara dekhAya. strI sajAvaTa bahu sarasa kare. loko mAte dAdA strI pakSamAM, pakSe puruSatA aMdara lakSamAM ! praznakartA : tame strIonuM ja ekalInuM nA kheMca kheMca karazo. dAdAzrI : strIonuM kheMcato nathI. A puruSonuM kheMcuM chuM, paNa Ama strIone ema lAge ke amAruM kheMce che paNa kheMcuM chuM puruSanuM. kAraNa ke phemilInA mAlika tame cho. zI Ijha noTa dha onara opha phemilI. yu Ara onara. loko muMbaImAM kahene, kema tame puruSono pakSa nahIM letA ne strIono pakSa lo cho ? meM kahyuM, emane peTe mahAvIra pAkyA che, tamArA peTe koNa pAke che ? vagara kAmanA tame laI beThA cho ? praznakartA chatAM tame strIonuM bahu kheMco cho, evuM amAruM mAnavuM rUmamAM pese to kevuM ene sAruM lAge che nahIM, ghaDIvAra ? evuM A erakaMDizana rUma che A to. dukAna nAdArImAM jatI hoyane, toya e hIMcakA upara beThI beThI.. hIMDoLA nAkhyA kare. strI to daivI zakti che paNa jo puruSane samajaNa paDatI hoya to kAma nIkaLI jAya. strIno doSa nathI, ApaNI UMdhI samajaNano doSa che. strIo to devIo che paNa devIthI nIce nahIM utAravAnI, devI che, kahIe. ane uttara pradezamAM keTalIka jagyAe to 'Avo devI' kahe che. hajIya kahe che, 'zAradAdevI AyA, phalANA, maNIdevI AyA !' amuka amuka dezomAM nathI kahetA ? praznakartA : kahe che ne ! dAdAzrI : devI che e to. strIonA AdhAre to ApaNe mokSe jaI zakIe. ApaNe emanA AdhAre ne ApaNA AdhAre e jAya ! praznakartA : e hoya eTale pachI mokSanI vAta khyAlamAM Ave ne ! dAdAzrI : eTale sAmasAmI badhuM jarUriyAta che A badhI, Aya kADhI nA nakhAya. kADhI nakhAtuM haze ? A Amane lIdhe e ane emane lIdhe A, paraspara che ! praznakartA : paNa dAdA, saMsAra ja na maMDAya, pachI kyAM vAta rahI ? strI vagara saMsAra ja zeno hato ? dAdAzrI : mATe e rUDA pratApa ke A saMsAra dIpyo ! sAmasAmI beunI madadathI, ApaNe ekaluM nahIM. emaNe ema nA mAnavuM joIe ke mArA lIdhe ja cAle che. beunI madadathI A cAle che. ane puruSa to puruSa kahevAya. strIoe kharI rIte puruSane vizeSa gaNavo joIe ane puruSoe ene potAne nirvizeSa rAkhavuM joIe. eTale be joDe hoya to A ghara sAruM cAle, nahIM to cAle nahIM. ane puruSo cAra jaNa rahetA hoyane sAmAsAmI. eka jaNa khAvAnuM kare, eka jaNa.... e gharamAM bhalIvAra nA hoya. eka puruSa ne eka strI dAdAzrI : hA, e jarAka mArI para AkSepa che, badhaya thaI jAya che. e AkSepa mane lokoe besADelo che, paNa joDe joDe puruSone eTaluM badhuM ApuM chuM ke strIo mAna Ape che pachI. evuM goThavI ApuM chuM. Ama dekhAva dekhAvamAM che te strIonuM khecuM chuM, paNa aMdarakhAne puruSonuM hoya che. eTale A badhuM, A kema goThavaNI karavI enA rastA hovA joIe. bannene saMtoSa thavo joIe. mAre to strIo joDeya bahu phAve, puruSo joDeya bahu phAve. bAkI ame to strIonA pakSamAM nA hoIe ne puruSonA pakSamAM nA hoIe. beu sarakhuM calAvo gADuM. pahelAMnA lokoe strIone heThe pADI dIdhI. strIo to heliMga che. e nA hoya ne tAruM ghara kevuM cAle ?

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374 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (19) patInI phariyAdo AzritanI nA karAya phariyAda, te karI to paDaze sAmo sAda ! beno, tamAre kazuM pUchavAnuM nathI ? kaMI vAtacIta karavAnI hoya to karo. emanI (dhaNInI) phariyAda hoya to karo. paNa A DiphikalTI kADhI nAkho. gharamAM, phemilImAM DiphikalTI kADhI nAkho. praznakartA : jevI rIte bhaIo bahenonI kaplena kare, tevI rIte baheno bhAIonI kaplena kare kharA ? dAdAzrI : hA, e to beunI hoyane, kapleIna to eka bAjunI nA hoya, eka taraphI nA hoya, banne hoya. paNa kapleIna nA thAya evA mANasanI jarUra che mAre, evA mANasa thAva, evuM kahuM chuM huM ! ApaNA Azrita mANasa joDe kapleIna hotI haze ? praznakartA : huM sAcI vAta karuM chuM tyAre gharamAM mane koI samajI nathI zakatuM ane koI nathI samajI zakatuM tethI pachI e loko UMdhI rIte samaje pAchA. dAdAzrI : te vakhate ApaNe vAtathI vegaLuM rahevuM paDe ne mauna rAkhavuM paDe. emAMya pAcho doSa to koIno hoto ja nathI. doSa to ApaNo ja hoya che. evA evA mANaso che ke je pADozamAM ApaNI joDe kuTuMba tarIke hoyane, to te ApaNA bolatAM pahelAM ApaNI vAta badhA samajI jAya. paNa evA ApaNane kema bhegA nA thayA ane A loko ja kema bhegA thayAM ? AmAM silekzana konuM ? eTale badhI ja cIja che A jagatamAM, paNa ApaNane bhegI nathI thatI emAM bhUla konI ? eTale gharanAM nA samaje to ApaNe tyAM mauna rahevuM, bIjo upAya nathI. praznakartA : paNa dAdA, mArI phariyAda koNa sAMbhaLe ? dAdAzrI : tuM phariyAda karIza to tuM phariyAdI thaI jaIza. huM to je phariyAda karavA Ave tene ja gunegAra gaNuM. tAre phariyAda karavAno vakhata ja kema Avyo ? phariyAdI ghaNAkharA gunegAra ja hoya che. pote gunegAra hoya to phariyAda karavA Ave. tuM phariyAda karIza to tuM phariyAdI thaI jaIza ane sAmo AropI thaze. eTale enI dRSTimAM AropI tuM TharIza, mATe koInI viruddha phariyAda nA karavI. praznakartA H to mAre zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : 'e' avaLA dekhAya to kahevuM ke, 'e to sArAmAM sArA mANasa che, tuM ja khoTI che.' ema guNAkAra thaI gayo hoya to bhAgAkAra karI nAkhavo ne bhAgAkAra thaI gayo hoya to guNAkAra karI nAkhavo. A guNAkAra-bhAgAkAra zAthI zIkhave che ? saMsAramAM niveDo lAvavA mATe, pelo bhAgAkAra karato hoya to ApaNe guNAkAra karavA eTale rakama UDI jAya. sAmA mANasa mATe vicAra karavo ke eNe mane Ama kahyuM, tema kahyuM, e ja guno che. A rastAmAM jatI vakhate bhIMta athaDAya to tene kema vaDhatA nathI ? jhADane jaDa kema kahevAya ? je vAge e badhAM lIlAM jhADa ja che ? gAyano paga ApaNA upara paDe to ApaNe kaMI kahIe chIe ? evuM A badhA lokonuM che, 'jJAnI puruSa" badhAne zI rIte mAphI Ape ? e samaje A bicArAM samajatAM nathI, jhADa jevA che ne samajaNavALAne to kahevuM ja nA paDe, e to mahIM tarata pratikramaNa karI nAkhe. praznakartA : dAdA have A badhI phariyAdo pachI kyAM jaIne karavI ? dAdAzrI : phariyAda hoya nahIMne ! phariyAda karavAnI ja nA hoya. koIne phariyAda karavA gayone, e to pachI vakIla hau gharamAM pesI jAya.

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 375 376 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra pAchAM jajanAM lapharAM pesI jAya badhuM, polIsa.... badhuM pesI jAya. alyA mUA, rahevA dene ahIMthI, mukane UMco ahIMthI kesa ! atyAre jematema karIne kesa UMco mUkavAno. UMcuM mUke e DAhyo. tamane UMcuM mUkavAnuM game ? praznakartA : phAIlo ghaNI hoya to kyAre UMcI mUkI kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : UMcuM to ApaNe eno zuddhAtmA joIene eTale enI meLe ja UMcuM mUkAI jAya. nahIM to A to mArA diyarano bAbo ane mArI derANIno bAbo ne ema karavA jaIe to pAchuM UlaTuM coMTe badhuM. chAtIe vaLage badhA. sAcavI sAcavIne, enuM sAruM thAva, kahIe. paNa chAtIe kaMI vaLagADavA jevuM che A jagatamAM ? potAnA chokarAM chAtIe nA vaLagADAya. ene eka jaNe Ama bahu dabAvyuM ne to bacakuM bharI lIdhuM. e ene bhAna nA hoya ke meM dabAvI dIdhuM. dhaNI joDe koIvAra, bhAMjagaDa paDI jAya che ? praznakartA : jiMdagImAM lojika che mATe tarka to thaze ja ne ? Aje mane vastu gamatI na hoya ne bIjAne gamatI hoya ne ! dAdAzrI : evuM chene, tarka to darekane Ave, e keTalA 'yujhaphUla' (kAmanA) ne keTalA 'yujhaphUla' nahIM e ApaNe jANavuM joIene ? eka phero mahIM tarka cAlyo dhaNI mATe, ke nAlAyaka che. eTale evuM kahevAya ja nahIMne ApaNAthI. pachI ene pheravIne bolavuM joIene. tame sArA cho paNa AvuM nA karavuM joIe. paNa nAlAyaka bolI javAya, eTale ApaNe baMduka phoDIe to e baoNmbagoLo phoDe. e laDAI pAchI raziyA ane amerikA jevuM thaI jAya pachI. khedAna ne medAna ! rItasara tarka karavA joIe. dhaNI apamAna kare tyAre, dilathI AzIrvAda prema sahAre ! dhaNI apamAna kare to zuM karo cho pachI ? dAvo mAMDo ? praznakartA : evuM kaMI karAya ? e to thatuM haze ? dAdAzrI : tyAre zuM karo ? mArA AzIrvAda che, karIne sUI javAnuM ! tuM bena sUI rahevAnIne ? ke manamAM gALo bhAMDa bhAMDa karo ? manamAM ja bhAMDa bhAMDa kare. A badhuM te ghaDIe zuM karavuM evuM jANe to AmAMthI niveDo Ape. nahIM to niveDo nA Ave. A badhI bhUlo thAya che. manamAM ne manamAM bole hau "yujhalesa phelo' (nakAmA mANasa) che. ane rIsa caDhe, tyAre zuM nA bole ? rIsa caDhatI nathI koI dahADoya ? praznakartA : caDhe, paNa eno artha evo to nahIM ja ke ApaNe evuM bolavuM ke vicAravuM joIe. dAdAzrI : A to kaheze, 'ANe mAruM apamAna karyuM'. melane chAla, apamAna to gaLI javA jevuM che. dhaNI apamAna kare, tyAre yAda AvavuM joIe ke A to mArA karmanA udaya phare, tyAre dhaNI 'Avo, Avo' kare che. mATe ApaNe manamAM samatA rAkhIne ukela lAvI nAkhavo. jo manamAM thAya ke mAro doSa nathI chatAM mane Ama kema kahyuM, eTale pachI rAte traNa kalAka jAge ne pachI thAkIne sUI jAya. ta maLe sADI tyAM sudhI siAya, re ! A strI mohathI kyAre chUTAya ? jo dhaNIno guno hoya paNa jo sADI sArI laI Ape to khuza thaI jAya. pachI emane mApha karatAMya keTalI vAra ? kAnamAM laviMgiyAM ghAle che te potAne dekhAya kharAM ? A to loka hIrA dekhe eTalA mATe pahere che. AvI jaMjALamAM phasAyA che to hIrA dekhADavA phare che ! alyA, jaMjALamAM phasAyelA mANasane zokha hoya ? jhaTapaTa ukela lAvo ne ! dhaNI kahe to dhaNIne sAruM dekhADavA mATe paherIe. zeTha be hajAranA hIrAnA kApa lAvyA hoya te pAMtrIsa hajAranuM bila lAve to zeThANI khuza ! kApa potAne to dekhAya nahIM. zeThANIne meM pUchyuM ke rAtre UMghI jAo cho tyAre kAnanA laviMgiyAM UMghamAMya dekhAya che ke nahIM ? A to mAneluM sukha che, "rIMga' mAnyatAo che, tethI aMtarazAMti thAya nahIM. bhAratIya nArI kone kahevAya ? gharamAM be hajAranI sADI AvIne paDelI

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo hoya te pahere. A to dhaNI-dhaNiyANI bajAramAM pharavA gayAM hoya ne dukAne hajAranI sADI laTakAvelI hoya. te sADI strIne kheMce ne ghera Ave toya moM caDheluM hoya ne kakaLATa mAMDe. tene bhAratIya nArI kema kahevAya ? 377 A to pAchI sADI laTakAvelI hoya vepArIoe, te zA hAru bahAra laTakAvatA haze ? e zo karavA hAru ? zA hAru laTakAve ? A khudA bharamAya. A khudA mahIM coMTI paDe, eTalA hAru laTakAve. khudA phasAI jAya ke nA phasAya ? praznakartA H phasAI jAya. dAdAzrI : ane pachI traNa hajAranI sADI joI te ghera AvIne moDhuM bagaDI jAya. e dekhAya to ApaNe kahIe, kema Ama thaI gayuM ? e sADImAM khovAI gayA hoya. jo lAvI Ape tyAre choDe. nahIM to tyAM sudhI kakaLATa nA choDe. AvuM nA hovuM joIe. are, keTalIka beno to pachI dhaNIne mArI-vaDhIne sADI maMgAve che, paisA nA hoya toya. A to jANe paisA che ne pahere che paNa nA hoya teya AnI mahIM pAchuM paheravA jAya ane dhaNInuM tela kADhI nAMkhe bicArAnuM ! tane khabara che evuM ? praznakartA : e meM nathI kADhyuM, mane zuM khabara paDe. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa bIjI to tela kADhI nAkhe evI hoya. kAraNa ke moha evI cIja chene, te strI paisA hoya, nA hoya toya bUma pADyA vagara rahe nahIM ! joyuM eTale huM... khovAI jAya. khovAI jAya eTale pelA dhaNIne lAvavI paDe, baLI. be citta thaI jAyane, eTale pachI lAvavI paDe. sADI paheravAmAM vAMdho nathI, paNa A to cAritra moha ja chene ! paNa jo aMdaranuM sudhare, to kazuM kapaDuM paheravA jevuMya nahIM ! sAduM hoya to cAle. moha have utare e vAta judI che, paNa atyAre to moha Toca upara jaIne beTho che. te zI dazA thAya mANasonI ! moha vadhAre vyApyo che. ane pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra jema jema moha vadhAre vyApyo che, tema tema khADAmAM UMDo utarato ja gayo. A to samAjanA baMdhAraNanA pratApe moha jarA ocho vyApyo che, nahIM to moha pUrepUro vyApI jAya, cogaradamathI pesI jAya ! A to evuM chene, ke kaMIka baMdhAraNamAM AvyA ane jene baMdhAraNa nA hoya te ? ene zuM thAya ? 378 vahu kaheze ke, 'A ApaNA sophAnI DijhAIna sArI nathI. A tamArA bhAIbaMdhane tyAM gayA hatAne tyAM kevI sarasa DijhAIna hatI ?" alyA, A sophA che temAM tane sukha paDatuM nathI ? tyAre kahe ke, 'nA, meM peluM joyuM temAM sukha paDe che.' te dhaNIne pAchA pelA jevo sopho lAvavo paDe ! have pelo navo lAve tyAre ko'ka phera chokaro bleDa mUke ne kaMI kApI nAkhe ke pAcho mahIM jANe AtmA kapAI jAya ! chokarAM sophAne kApe kharAM ke nahIM ? ane enI upara kUde kharAM ke ? ane kUde te ghaDIye jANe enI chAtI upara kUdato hoya evuM lAge ! eTale A moha che. te moha ja tamane kaiDI kaiDIne tela kADhI nAkhaze ! jIvana kevuM Ama sAmasAmI sukha Ape tevuM hovuM joIe. sADIo pahero, paNa te AvuM kakaLATa karAya nahIM. eTale duHkha to dhaNIne na ja devAya. vicAravuM paDe ke nA vicAravuM paDe ? ke ekalA DaoNlara ja kamAva kamAva karavAnA che ? A mahino thayone, te traNa-cAra hajAra lAvIne mUkyA mahIM. pelI baI sToramAM jamA kare ane tame kamANI lAvyA karo. praznakartA : ahIM A vAtAvaraNa ja evuM che eTale zuM kare ? dAdAzrI : nA, paNa teno vAMdho nathI. A nahIM karavuM joIe ? joDe joDe DaoNlara ekaluM kamAyA to A nA karavuM joIe ? praznakartA : jarUra karavuM joIe. dAdAzrI : A amatho bhava bagaDI jAya AmAM to ane bIjuM benone kahuM chuM ke, zopiMga karazo nahIM. zopiMga baMdha karI do, A to DaoNlara AvyA eTale... alyA, nA levAnuM hoya to zuM karavA lauM chuM, yujhalesa. koI sAre

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 379 380 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra mArge paiso javo joIe ke nA javo joIe ? koInI phemilImAM aDacaNa hoya ane e bicArAne nA hoya to, pacAsa-so DaoNlara ApIe to kevuM sarasa lAgaze ! ane zopiMgamAM khoTA nAkhI Avo cho ane ghera dhamAladhamAla paDeluM rahe che badhuM bheguM. eka bena to zopiMgamAM bAra mahine dasa hajAra DaoNlara nAkhatI. ApaNI InDiyAnI che. pachI mane kahe che, "dAdAjI, zopIMgamAM mArA paisA jAya che ane te huM lokone kaMIka vastuo lAvIne ApavA mATe ja lAvuM chuM.' meM kahyuM, "bena, baMdha karI de bA. lokone nathI joItI AvI vAta. tuM eka vAra dasa hajAra DaoNlara kharca karavAnA baMdha karI de !" te baMdha thaI gayuM enuM. vagara kAmanuM zopiMga. khoTo moha eka jAtano. jarUriyAta, nesesiTI che ke annesesarI che, eTaluM joI levuM. nesesarI hoya ne lo. paNa annesesarI lo cho ? tamAre tyAMya zopiMga kare che loko ? ema ! ane tame hau jAo joDe ! zopiMgamAMya joDe taiyAra ane vaDhavAmAMya taiyAra. Ama na zobhe. tyAre loko zuM karavA sTora khole che? mahIM peTho hoya to mUMjhAvA? kevuM sarasa Tebala hatuM ! alyA, kevuM sarasa, te mUA zuM tane sarasa nahIM lAgatuM AmAMthI ? te DaoNlara che eTale ? hamaNe DaoNlara hoya to badhuM sAruM lAge. kharIdI karI ane pachI have vicAra kare. have A zAmAM laI jaIzuM ? A gADImAM zI rIte mUkIzuM? alyA, tyAre lIdhuM zuM karavA, te A ? badhI bego hAthamAM jhAle ! pachI bairI kaheze, huM tamane nA ja kahetI hatI. tame vagara kAmanA le le karyuM. eTale pelo bicAro bhoLo hoyane, te mAthe laI le. pachI kaheze, teM kahyuM tyAre to meM laI lIdhuM. e pAchI vaDhavaDhA. praznakartA : cAlyuM tophAna ! dAdAzrI : paiNa evuM ke pharI vaDhavAnA nA hoya to paNa. A vaDhavA sAruM paiNavAnuM che ? jo tAre paiNavuM hoya to vaDhIza nahIM. ane vaDhavuM hoya to paiNIza nahIM. evuM kaMI kAyado joIe ke nA joIe, baLyo ? praznakartA : dAdA, ame badhA paiNyA te pahelAM tamAre maLavAnI jarUra hatI amane. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa tame bAdhA rAkhI nahotI ne ! bAdhA rAkhI hota to huM Avata vahelo. have kaMIka pheraphAra karavA mAMgo cho? tame kaho tema ApaNe pheraphAra karIe eno kaMIka, tame kaho ema. paNa vadhAre nahIM, vadhAre hAI-levalamAM na javAya to vAMdho nathI, paNa eka phemilImAM e nA hoya to basa thaI gayuM. rAta-dahADo kakaLATa, kakaLATa, gharamAM ja kakaLATa kare che, mUA. sAmAnI saheja bhUla thaI hoya to bUmAbUma karI mele. jANe enI potAnI bhUla koI dahADo nA thatI hoya, evI rIte ! puruSa potAne suprIma mATe, strI pachI trAgAM, TaiDakAvI jANe ! praznakartA : puruSa potAne suprIma samaje che tyAM sudhI vaDhavADa kevI rIte baMdha thAya ? dAdAzrI : to Arya zI rIte kahevAya ? praznakartA H hA, pelI bairIya ghaNI vakhata TaiDakAvene ? banne TaiDakAve. A to puruSa e to TeDakAve, barobara che paNa AjakAla to bairI vadhAre TaiDakAve che. dAdAzrI : nA. eTale A puruSo TaiDakAve che tethI. evuM chene, ke ene godA mArIne, moDhAmAM ghAlIne bolAvaDAve che loko. moDhAmAM AMgaLA nAkhIne bolAve. huMya strIcAritra samaju. eTale strIo joDe mAre meLa paDI jAya, sAruM ! mane chetare nahIM. badhAne chetare, mane nA chetare. praznakartA : paNa e lokone khabara hoya ke ahIMyAM cAlaze nahIM ? dAdAzrI : nahIM cAle, mArA vakhatanA puruSo, je strIo upara je kara5 rAkhatAM'tA, e hisAbe huM A vAta karuM chuM. atyAranA chokarAo bicArAne karapa ja nathI, strIo karapa rAkhe che.

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 381 382 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA: pahelAM to zuM hatuM ke Ama AMkhanI najara Avene ane pelI dhruje. dAdAzrI : ane bhaNatara ochuM ne ? atyAre to bhaNatara vadhI gayuMne choDIonuM, te choDIo to pagAra lAve ne pelAne babUcakane pagAreya lAvatA nA AvaDyo, baLyo. pachI babUcaka mUMjhAyA kare ne bicAro ! praznakartA H Aje thoDA paisAthI cAlatuM nathI. eTale bannene nokarI karavA javuM paDe che. dAdAzrI : eTale banneya moha, mohano jabarajasta jaththo thayo hoya eTale pachI paisA joIe ja ne A lokone ! A mokSamArgathI virUddha cAlyuM. mokSamArga eTale ochAmAM ochA parigrahathI cAle ane saMskAra pUrA sacavAI rahe. saMskAramAM kamI nA thAya. atyAre saMskAra pUrA che nahIM ne parigraho DhagalebaMdha che. praznakartA : pachI trAgAM kare. strIo trAgAM kare ! dAdAzrI : trAgAM to strIo nahIM, puruSo mUA kare che. atyAre to trAgAM bahu nathI karatAM. trAgAM eTale zuM? potAne kazuM bhogavI levuM hoya to sAmAne dabaDAvIne bhogavI le. dhAryuM karAve ! praznakartA : Ama hoziyAra hoyane bahu pAvaravALo, ene kaMTrola kare evo dhaNI lAvavo sAro ke vAIpha dhaNIne kaMTrolamAM rAkhe evo lAvavo sAro ? dAdAzrI : e to hoziyAra hoya, eTaluM ApaNuM tela kADhI nAkhe. e to aNasamajaNavALo hoya e ApaNI AjJAmAM rahe. praznakartA : sAcuM dAdA, evuM kharuM ? dAdAzrI : hA. praznakartA : samajaNavALo dhaNI hoya to ApaNane vadhAre samaje ne ApaNI joDe vadhAre eDajasTa thAya evuM nahIM ? dAdAzrI : evuM kharuM ! have samajaNavALo che. paNa e potAnA dhyeyathI cAlato nathI. ene karma nacAve che, e rIte nAce che. eTale samajaNavALo hoya to jarA saMyogo vAMkA thAya tyAre UMdhuM ja bolyA kare. potAnA hAthamAM sattA nahIM ne ! ane ochI samajaNavALo hoya nabaLo, e ApaNA kahyAmAM ja rahyA kare eTale nabaLo lIdhelo sAro paDe ! tane emanI joDe sAruM phAve che ? praznakartA: mane to e godA bahu mAre che. dAdAzrI : tane mokSamAM dhakelavA che. eka ATaluM sAMsArika sukha bhogavavA hAru keTalA lokonI (dareka avatAramAM) vahu thAya che ! ATalA sukha hAru keTalAM duHkha bhogave ! juone, vahu thaI che. dhaNI thavuM sAruM ke vahu thavuM sAruM ? strInA ja vAMka samAje dekhADyA, potAnA pakSe puruSe laoN ghaDyA ! praznakartA : badhe kema bairAMono ja vAMka Ave che ane puruSone nahIM Avato ? dAdAzrI : strIone to evuM chene, puruSanA hAthamAM kAyado hato eTale strIone ja nukasAna karyuM che. A to pustako dhaNIoe lakhelAMne eTale dhaNIne ja emAM te AgaLa ghAlyo che. strIone UDADI melI che. temAM te enI velyu UDADI dIdhI che e lokoe. have mAreya evo khAdho che. narkaya A ja jAya che. ahIMthI ja jAya che . strIone evuM nA hoya. bhale strInI, enI prakRti judI che, bhale paNa enI prakRti pramANe eya phaLa Ape che ane Aya phaLa Ape che. enI ajAgRta prakRti che. ajAgRta eTale sahaja prakRti. praznakartA : keTalA vakhata Ama ApaNe sahana karavuM joIe ?

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 383 384 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : sahana karavAthI to zakti bahu vadhe. praznakartA : eTale sahana ja karyA karavuM ema ? dAdAzrI : sahana karavA karatAM enI upara vicAravuM sAruM che. vicArathI enuM solyuzana lAvo. bAkI sahana karavuM e guno che. bahu sahanazIlatA thAya te sprIMganI peTha UchaLe pachI te AkhuM ghara badhuM khedAnamedAna karI nAkhe. sahanazIlatA to sprIMga che. strIMga upara loDa nahIM mUkavo koI dahADoya. e to ThIka che thoDA pUratuM have rastAmAM ko'kanI joDe jatAMAvatAM e thayuM hoya, tyAM jarAka e sprIMga vAparavAnI che. ahIM gharanA mANaso upara loDa mUkAya nahIM. gharanA mANasonuM sahana karuM to zuM thAya ? sprIMga kUde e to. praznakartA : sahanazIlatAnI limiTa keTalI rAkhavAnI ? dAdAzrI : ene amuka hada sudhI sahana karavuM. pachI vicArIne eNe tapAsa karavI ke zuM che A hakIkatamAM. vicArazo eTale khabara paDaze ke AnI pAchaLa zuM raheluM che ! ekaluM sahana kara kara karazo to prIMga kUdaze. vicAravAnI jarUra che. avicAra karIne sahana karavuM paDe che. vicAro to samajAze ke AmAM bhUla kyAM thAya che. e badhuM enuM samAdhAna karI Apaze. mahIM aMdara anaMtazakti che, anaMtazakti. tame mAMgo e zakti maLe evI che. A to aMdara zakti khoLato nathI ne bahAra zakti khoLe che. bahAra zuM zakti che ? ghera-ghera bhaDakA sahana karavAthI ja thAya che. huM keTaluM sahana karuM, manamAM ema ja mAne che. bAkI vicArIne rasto kADhavo joIe. je saMjogo bAjhayA che, jo saMjogo kudaratanuM nirmANa che ane tuM have zI rIte chaTakI nAsIza ? navA vera baMdhAya nahIM ane jUnAM vera choDI devAM hoya to, eno rasto kADhavo joIe. A avatAra vera choDavA mATe che. ane vera choDavA mATeno rasto che, dareka joDe samabhAve nikAla ! pachI tamArA chokarAo kevAM sArA saMskArI thAya ! eTale huM zuM kahuM chuM, sahana na karatAM, samajo. samajo to badhuM ukela AvI jAya. A pajhala solva thAya evuM che. A huM solva karIne beTho to tamane solva karavAnuM badhuM dekhADI daIza. pati jyAre thAya bahu gama, vahu ghATa ghaDe dhye loha tarama praznakartA : mArI benapaNIe prazna pUchAvyo che ! tenA pati haMmezAM tenA upara gusse thAya che to enuM zuM kAraNa haze ? dAdAzrI : te sAruM, loko gusse thAya, tenA karatAM pati thAya e sAruM. gharanAM mANasa che ne ? evuM che, A luhAra loko jADuM lokhaMDa hoya ane ene vALavuM hoya to garama kare. zuM kAma kare ? Ama ThaMDuM nA vaLe evuM hoya, to lokhaMDane garama karIne pachI vALe. te pachI be hathoDIo mAre eTalAmAM vaLI jAya. ApaNe jevuM banAvavuM hoya ne evuM banI jAya. dareka vastu garama thAya eTale vaLe ja haMmezAM. jeTalI garamI eTalo nabaLo ane nabaLo eTale eka-be hathoDI mArI ke ApaNe e dhaNInI jevI DijhAIna ApaNe joItI hoya, evI DijhAIna karI nAkhavI joIe. praznakartA: paNa sAme evI A paNa gusse thaI jAya to DijhAIna nA thAya ne ! dAdAzrI : ApaNe gusse thavAnI zI jarUra che ? nahIM to DijhAIna ApaNI karI nAkhe, enA karatAM ApaNe.... praznakartA: kevI DijhAIna karavI joIe, dAdA ? hAthamAM AvyA pachI zuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe jevI banAvI hoya evI bane DijhAIna. enA dhaNIne popaTa jevo banAvI de, "AyArAma" baI kaheze tyAre eya kaheze. 'AyArAma'. 'gayArAma', tyAre kahe, 'gayArAma.' evo popaTa jevo banI jaze, paNa loko hathoDI mAravAnuM jANato nathI ne ! e badhuM nabaLAI che. gusso thaI javo e badhI nabaLAIo che.

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 385 praznakartA : have rasto khullo karI nAkhyo. dAdAzrI : have rasto sarasa batADI dIdho. hA, A to pachI e jANIjoIne garama thato hoya to vagara kAmanAM tyAM zuM karavAM ApaNe kakaLATa karavo ? pelA luhArane garama karyA vagara saLiyo garama thato hoya, to luhAranuM sAruM thayuM. garama karyA vagara pachI Thoke be hathoDI eTale Ama vAMko te vaLI gayo, DijhAInamAM thAya ! pAchuM kahevuMya kharuM ApaNe ke AvuM A dAdAjI kAyado kahetA hatA. mATe garama thaze to tamAre vaLavuM paDaze. enA karatAM pAMsarA rahone, kahIe. praznakartA : jo evuM kahIene to ema kahe ke, 'huM tAro gulAma chuM ?' evuM sAMbhaLavAnuM Ave. dAdAzrI : nahIM, gulAma nahIM, tame mArA bosa cho kahIe. paNa huM DijhAIna tamArI karI nAkhIza, kahIe. loDhAne garama kare to pachI ekAda hathoDI mAre. te mAre basa. bIjuM zuM joIe te ? garama thayeluM vaLe, mane vALI nA zake. je garama thAya ne e narama thAya ane narama thAya eTale vaLe. praznakartA : e ema kahe che ke mAruM koI najIkanuM hoya tenA para huM gusse thaI jAuM. e kadAca enI dRSTie sAco paNa hoya paNa huM mArI dRSTie gusse thAuM, to zA kAraNe gusse thaI jAuM chuM ? dAdAzrI : tame AvatA hoya ane A makAna uparathI eka paththara paDyo mAthA para, ne te lohI nIkaLyuM, to te ghaDIe gusso bahu karo ? praznakartA : nahIM e to 'hepana' (banI gayuM) che. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa gusso kema karatA nathI tyAM AgaLa ? eTale pote koIne dekho nahIM, eTale gusso kevI rIte thAya ? praznakartA : koIe jANIjoIne mAryo nathI. dAdAzrI : eTale ApaNI pAse kaMTrola che krodhano. to ApaNe ema pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra jANIe chIe ke jANIjoIne koIe mAryo nathI, eTale tyAM kaMTrola rAkhI zakIe chIe. kaMTrola to che ja. pachI kahe che, "mane gusso AvI jAya che.' mUA, nathI AvI jato tyAM kema nathI Avato ? polIsavALA joDe, polIsavALA TaiDakAve te ghaDIe kema gusso nathI Avato ? ene vahu joDe gusso Ave, chokarAM para gusso Ave, paDozI para, 'anDarahenDa' (hAtha nIcenA) joDe gusso Ave ne 'bosa' (sAheba) joDe kema nathI Avato ? gusso mANasane AvI zakato nathI. A to e enuM dhAryuM karavuM che. praznakartA : kevI rIte kaMTrola karavo ? 386 dAdAzrI : kaMTrola ja che enI meLe. A je tamArI sAme Ave che e tamAruM nimitta che ane tamAruM ja phaLa Ape che. e nimitta banI gayo che, koI khoTe raste Avato hoya to nA vaDhene ? gusso nA kare ne ? kema ? praznakartA : potAnI bhUla che ema khabara paDe che ne ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe athADIne toDI pADo ene ? to tyAM kema nathI karato ? tyAM DAhyo thaI jAya che ke huM marI jaIza. tyAre mUA, tenAM karatAM vadhAre marI jauM chuM AmAM to, paNa AnuM citrapaTa dekhAtuM nathI, ne peluM dekhAya che UghADuM, eTaluM ja ! enA karatAM ahIM vadhAre marI jauM chuM. tyAM roDa upara sAmuM nA kare ? gusso nA kare, sAmAnI bhUla hoya toya ? praznakartA H nahIM. : dAdAzrI : pelo 'roMga' (khoTe) raste Avyo toya ? zuM vAta karo cho ? sAmo 'roMga' (khoTe) raste Avyo to gADI athADI mAre ? praznakartA H koIka vAra. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa e roMga raste Avyo, to tuM jANIjoIne athADuM ? nA. te ghaDIe gusso kema nathI Avato ? tyAM to pAMsaro thaI jAya che. ene jJAna che ke, 'huM marI jaIza AmAMthI to ?" tyAre peluM AnuM zuM pariNAma Ave che, enuM bhAna nathI. tethI A kare che. meM kevo ene

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo TaiDakAvIne sIdho karI nAkhyo ! moTo sIdho karI nAkhanAro Avyo ? gADI sIdhI karI nAkha sAmAnI ! sAmAnI gADI sIdhI nA karavI joIe ? bhUla kare che ne ? pharI bhUla ja nA kare evuM karavuM joIene ? A to vahu che eTale gusso karIe. polIsavALA joDe kema nathI karato ? tyAra pachI tyAMthI nA samajIe ke ApaNe bAyalA mUA chIe !! ApaNAmAM kahevata che, 'nabaLo dhaNI bAyaDI para zUro hoya.' konI para zUro hoya ? polIsavALA para zUro thaI jAne ! eka ja dahADo thaI jA, heMDa. A to badhuM ja kaMTrolamAM che, A badhAM khoTuM bole che. mAro svabhAva gusse thaI jAya evo che, Ama tema ! badhuM tArAmAM svabhAvano kaMTrola che ! badhuM kaMTrola che, bhagavAnanuM nAma che ne tyAre kahe, mAruM mana ThekANe nathI rahetuM. meM kahyuM, hamaNe benkamAM DaoNlara gaNavA ApIe. te ghaDIe mana ThekANe kema rahe che te mUA ? tAruM mana ? to sAruM che. lapaTuM nathI paDyuM. tuM lapaTo paDI gayo che mUA, ke tane A DaoNlara game che, bhagavAna gamatA nathI. tamane nathI lAgatuM evuM ? praznakartA : kharuM, dAdA. 387 dAdAzrI : mane DaoNlara gaNavA de, te mAruM citta ThekANe ja nA rahe. kAraNa ke mane velyu (kiMmata) nathI enI. samajavA jevI vAta che ke nahIM ? dhAryA mujaba karAvavA jAya, tethI krodha ! mATe kaMI ta dharAya ! praznakartA : gharamAM ke bahAra phrenDamAM badhe darekanA mata judA judA hoya ane emAM ApaNA dhAryA pramANe nA thAya, to pachI ApaNane gusso kema Ave ? tyAre zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : badhA mANasa potAnA dhAryA pramANe karavA jAya, to zuM thAya ? Avo vicAra ja kema Ave te ? tarata ja vicAra Avavo joIe ke badhAya jo enA dhAryA pramANe karavA jaze to ahIM AgaLa vAsaNo toDI nAkhaze sAmasAmI ane khAvAnuM nahIM rahe. mATe dhAryA pramANe koI dA'Do karavuM nahIM. dhAravuM ja nahIM, eTale khoTuM paDe ja nahIM. jene garaja hoya te dhAraze, evuM rAkhavuM. pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : ApaNe game eTalA zAMta rahIe, paNa puruSo gusse thaI jAya to ApaNe zuM karavuM ? 388 dAdAzrI : e gusse thaI jAya ne vaDhavaDhA karavI hoya to ApaNeya gusso karavo, nahIM to baMdha karavuM. philma baMdha karavI hoya to ThaMDuM paDI javuM. philma baMdha nA karavI hoya to AkhI rAta cAlavA devI, koNa nA pADe che? philma game che kharI ? praznakartA : nA, philma nathI gamatI. dAdAzrI : gusse thaIne zuM karavAnuM ? e mANasa pote gusse thato nathI, A to mikenikala eDajasTamenTa gusse thAya che. pote gusse thatA nathI. potAne pachI manamAM pastAvo thAya ke A gusso nA thayo hota to sAro. praznakartA : ene ThaMDA pADavAno upAya zuM ? dAdAzrI : e vaLI mazIna garama thayuM hoya ene ThaMDuM pADavuM hoya to enI meLe thoDI vAra rahevA de, eTale mazIna TADhuM paDI jAya ane hAtha aDADIe ane godA mArIe to dajhAI marIe ApaNe. praznakartA H mane ne mArA hasabaMDane, gusso ne caDasAcaDasI thaI jAya che. jIbhAjoDI ne e badhuM, to mAre zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : te gusso tuM karuM chuM ke e ? gusso koNa kare che ? praznakartA : e pachI mArAthI paNa thaI jAya che. dAdAzrI : to ApaNe mahIM ja potAne Thapako ApavAno, 'kema tuM AvuM karuM chuM ?" karelA te bhogavavA ja paDe ne ! paNa A pratikramaNa (pastAvo) kare to badhAM doSa khalAsa thAya. nahIM to ApaNA ja godA mArelA te ApaNe pAchA bhogavavA paDe. paNa pratikramaNa karavAthI jarA TADhuM paDI jAya. A to Akho dahADo krodha kare. gAyo-bheMso sArI, krodha nathI karatI.

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo kaMI zAMtimAM jIvana to hovu joIe ne ! nabaLAIvALuM nA hovuM joIe. A gusse vAreghaDIe thaI jaIe ! tame gADImAM AvyA ne ? te gADI Akhe raste gusse thAya to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : to avAya ja nahIM ahIyAM. dAdAzrI : tyAre A tame gusse thAva to zI rIte enI gADI cAlatI haze ? tuM gusse to nahIM thatI ? praznakartA : ko'ka vAra thauM. ne ? 389 dAdAzrI : ane jo beunuM thAya to pachI rahyuM ja zuM ? praznakartA : paNa pati-patnI vacce thoDuM gusse to thavuM ja joIe dAdAzrI : nA, evo kaMI kAyado nathI. pati-patnImAM to bahu zAMti rahevI joIe. A duHkha thAya e pati-patnI ja na hoya. sAcI phrenDazIpamAM thatuM nathI, to A to moTAmAM moTI phrenDazIpa kahevAya ! ahIM nA thAya, A to lokoe ThokI besADeluM. potAne thAya eTale ThokI besADeluM, kAyado Avo ja che, kaheze ! pati-patnImAM to bilakula nA thavuM joIe, bIje badhe thAya. patitI kuTevo kema sudhare ? aNagamo, ta uparANuM le re ! praznakartA : patidevanI kharAba Adata sudhAravAno rasto batAvazo. dAdAzrI : patidevanI kharAba Adata sudhAravA mATe, to paheluM ApaNe sudharavuM paDe. huM sudharIne beTho chuM. e pachI ahIM Ave che e badhAne kharAba Adato dhIme dhIme ochI thatI jAya che. eTale tame sudharIne besazo, te ghaDIe chokarAnI ke patidevanI, badhAnI Adato ochI thatI jaze. praznakartA : ame sudharelA ja hoIe to ? ame to sudharelA ja chIe, eTale to amane enI kharAba Adata kharAba lAge che. pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : hA, paNa tamArI amuka kharAba Adata to emaneya lAgatI haze ne ! 390 praznakartA : patideva sigareTa pIve e gamatuM nathI. e kharAba Adata mATe pUchuM chuM. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa pachI emane potAne sigareTa pIvI pasaMda che kharI ? praznakartA : Adata cAlu che, eTale pasaMda to haze ja ne ! pIdhe rAkhe che eTale gamatuM ja hazene ! dAdAzrI : nahIM, pIdhe rAkhe che eTale evuM nahIM, pasaMda nA paNa hoya ne pIvI paDatI hoya. praznakartA : evuM kaMI du:kha mane nathI dekhAtuM. dAdAzrI : nA, e to pUcho tyAre khabara paDe ke tamane pasaMda che ne pIvo cho ke pasaMda nathI ne pIvo cho ? evuM pUcho, to enuM AyuSya mAlUma paDe. pasaMda hoya ne pIyA kare enuM (sIgareTanuM) AyuSya ochuM thAya ja nahIM. jo potAne pasaMda nA hoya ane pIyA kare enuM AyuSya ochuM thAya. praznakartA : pasaMda nathI toya pIe che. dAdAzrI : to enuM AyuSya ochuM thaI jAya. hA, enuM AyuSya khalAsa thaI javAnuM have thoDA vakhata pachI. praznakartA : dAdA, tame A cA pItA hatA, te tamArI kaI rIte gaI e badhAne kaho eTale khyAla Ave. dAdAzrI : hA, mane A jJAna thayuM toya huM cI pIuM ne evI dazA hatI. jJAna thayeluM toya have ene ahaMkAre karIne choDavuM hoya to choDI zakAya, paNa ahaMkAra rahelo nahIM. choDavAnoya ahaMkAra je joIe, te ahaMkAra ja nA hoya to pachI kArya zI rIte karavuM ? eTale pachI amAre

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392 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra (19) patnInI phariyAdo 391 zuM karavuM paDe, jJAna thayA pachI vastu ema ne ema rahevA devI paDe. e pachI enI meLe kharI paDe. kAraNa ke amArA jJAnamAM e hoya ke A vastu kAmanI nathI chatAM ApaNane vaLagaNa che. eTale jJAnamAM to AvuM vartatuM ja hoya. have tene loko AyuSya vadhAre pAchA ke AmAM zuM khoTuM che ? uparANuM le to enuM AyuSya vadhe. A badhuM je je kare chene, te potAnuM ja projekzana che. A hasabanDa lAvI te tArA ja projekTa karelA che. e kaMI navI upAdhi nathI. praznakartA : mArA ja vicArovALA ? dAdAzrI : badhuM te ja bhAvanA karelI ke hasabanDa AvA joIe, tevA joIe. zarIre sAdhAraNa pheTI (jADA) paNa joIe. e badhuM hisAba te kareluM te ja A che. praznakartA : eNe e bIDInI hau DijhAIna karelI ? sigareTa pIve e paNa DijhAIna karelI ? - dAdAzrI : hA, DijhAIna e to calAvI laIza huM, kaheze. ane have kahe che ke, nahIM calAvI lauM evuM ! praznakartA : e huM nathI calAvI letI. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa have calAvatI nathI ne, paiNyA pachI ! paiNatAM pahelAM calAvI laIzuM, evI DijhAIna hatI. praznakartA : paraNatAM pahelAM kahyuM nahotuM, chAnuM rAkhyuM hatuM. dAdAzrI : tyAre chAnuM nA rAkhe to tuM paiNI ja nA zake ane tane bIjo maLyo hoya to majA nA AvatA ! praznakartA : evuM huM to nA kahI zakuM. dAdAzrI : nA, tuM kaDaka hoya ne e kaDaka hoya, to akaLAmaNa thaI jAya ne ! e narama ne ApaNe garama thaIe to cAle. keTalA sArA mANasa che. A tuM ATaluM badhuM bolI paNa e akSara bolyA ? praznakartA : be kAna khullA ja rAkhavAnA. ekamAMthI sAMbhaLIne bIjI bAjuthI bahAra. dAdAzrI : ema ! nA. paNa vAIphanI thoDIka vAta to sAMbhaLavA jevI. pAchuM badhuMya nA kADhI nakhAya. kAmanIya hoya che thoDIka vAta. eTale tamAre eka kAna to ekadama to baMdha nA karavo, paNa mahIM kAmanI nA hoya to tarata choDI devAnuM, paNa kAmanI hoya to rahevA devI paDe. keTaluMka kAmanuM hoya che. praznakartA : pelI emane bIDInI vAta kAmanI nathI lAgatI. dAdAzrI : e to mahIM emanI icchA nA hoya ne ! atyAre tamArI icchAthI pIvo cho ke gamatuM nathI chatAMya pIvo cho ? praznakartA : game che. dAdAzrI : nahIM, pItI vakhate game, paNa pAchaLathI manamAM ema thAya ke A na hoya to sAruM evuM ? praznakartA : evuM thAya. dAdAzrI : haM. eTale e na hoya te sAruM e ApaNane jJAna hAjara rahevuM joIe. pItI vakhate TesTa Ave paNa pachI to ema lAge ke mane AnaMda Ave che te khoTuM che. A nA hovuM joIe. paNa A na gamatuM thayuM. ApaNo abhiprAya pharyo, eTale enuM AyuSyano aMta AvI rahyAnI taiyArI thaI. abhiprAyathI A jIvatuM rahyuM che. tuM kazuM pAna-bAna khAtI nathI mahIM ? tamAku nAkhIne ! praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : tuM kyAM sudhI bhaNelI ? praznakartA : mAsTarsa kareluM che. 'ema.esasI.' thayelI. dAdAzrI : jo "ema.esasI.' nA bhaNelI hota to zI rIte pAsa karata, e karata ?

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 393 394 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra praznakartA : nA karata. dAdAzrI : nA karata. paNa bIjuM kazuM emanA taraphathI duHkha nathI ne ? koIne paNa nathI, nahIM ? to ATalA hAruM phajeta zuM karavA kare che ? praznakartA: enA svAstha mATe ja sAruM che ne ! mArI lAgaNInAlAgaNInuM nathI kAMI ! dAdAzrI : svAthya mATe sAruM che, ema ? praznakartA H haM. dAdAzrI : svAthya mATe sAruM che, evuM tuM kahI zakuM nahIM. praznakartA: sAyansa kahe che. dAdAzrI : nA, evuM tuM kahI zakuM nahIM. svAthyane anukULa AvatuM hoya. evuM ApaNe kahI zakIe nahIM, paNa tane phakta emanuM moTuM soDe e nA game eTale tuM kahuM chuM. tuM DuMgaLI khAtI nahIM hoya koI dahADo ? to tAruMya moTuM soDe paNa e bolatA nathI, sArA mANasa che te ! praznakartA : tame eno kema pakSa laI rahyA cho ? dAdAzrI : huM to strIono ja pakSa lauM chuM kAyamane mATe. paNa Aje AmanA pakSamAM paDyo. tamAre lIdhe Aja puruSono pakSa levo paDyo. A ATaluM badhuM tuM ropha mAruM chuM puruSo upara ? praznakartA : nA. rophano savAla nathI, jJAnano savAla che A to. dAdAzrI : e puruSo ropha mAre tyAre emane uDADI dauM chuM. ropha nahIM mAravo joIe. ApaNe sAmasAmI chIe. potAno saMsAra calAvo, nabhAvo, nabhAvavAmAM harakata nA karo, harakata ochI thAya evuM karo. kAraNa ke "dhIsa Ijha dha pArTanarazIpa' (bhAgIdArI). beu pArTanara (bhAgIdAra, AvI rIte varte to dukAna chUTI jAya ane chokarAM joyA kare ke A mammI pappAne pajave che. AvaDAM AvaDAM nAnAM hoyane toya manamAM nyAyAdhIza hoya. nahIM to manamAM ema samaje, A pappo bahu kharAba che. huM moTo thaIzane eTale mArIza, kaheze. evuM niyANuM hau kare. mATe A DijhAIna na dekhAya to sAruM. pappAnI DijhAIna bilakula karekTa rAkhavI joIe ane laDavuM hoya to bAbA-bebI bahAra gayA pachI, kaoNlejamAM gayA pachI laDI levuM kalAka, be kalAka. nA, mastInI Teva paDI hoya to mastI karavI. praznakartA : vAIphe kIdhuM cAlo ghera javuM che, eTale patideva UbhA thayA.... dAdAzrI : thoDIvAra besavA de ne ! sArA mANasa che. narama haze, jo bahu kaDaka hoyane to vAMdho nathI, TAITa karavuM ApaNe. paNa sArA che ne emane e kahIe to ApaNane doSa bese. tane nyAya thoDo nahIM lAgato ke A sArA mANasa che ? praznakartA : cokkasa. dAdAzrI : haM, pachI jarA TAITa ochuM rAkhaje. nA, beya sArI che, cokhkhA svabhAvanI che. paNa have A baMdha karI de A 'DiphekTa' (khAmI). praznakartA : e tame 'DiphekTa' kaho cho ? dAdAzrI : hA, tAre ene ema kahevuM ke A khoTuM che evuM niraMtara jJAnamAM rAkhajo. tame AnuM uparANuM nA lezo kahIe. tame je karI rahyA cho e khoTuM che e jJAna tamane rahevuM joIe. bAkI Akho dahADo kacakaca karyA karIe. te emAM emaNe zuM kahyuM pachI ? A kAnamAM hola pADI daIne TheTha ArapAra pADI dIdhI, ke A TeparekarDa baMdha thatI nathI. ane A ghAMTA pADa pADa kare che. te pachI kaMI pheraphAra thavo joIe tArAmAM. eTale AjathI A DijhAIna pheravI nAkha, bena DijhAIna pheravI nAkhe, eTale AjathI zarUAta thAya. kAraNa ke, eksesIvane (vadhu paDatuM) laIne A badhuM nukasAna che badhuM. 'phITanesa' (baMdhabesatuM) hovI joIe. phiTanesamAM eksesIva anaphITa karAve, mATe tuM che bahu sArI paNa te A pAro jarAka nIce utArI nAkhane ! lAITa ochuM hoya tene vadhAre karavuM muzkela che, paNa bahu lAITa hoya to kapaDuM bAMdhIe to ochuM thaI

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 395 jAya ke nahIM ? DImalAITa thaI jAya ke nahIM ? tevuM DImalAITa karI nAkha ne ! karavuM joIe ke nahIM karavuM joIe. tame zuM kaho cho ? praznakartA: kaI bAbatamAM lAITa ochuM karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : A je svabhAva che khoDa kADhavAno, te ochuM karavuM nA joIe ? praznakartA : e tamArI sAme vAta kIdhI. bIjA sAme to huM nathI kahetIne? dAdAzrI : bIjAne kahevAnuM nathI. paNa emane paNa nA kahevAya. kAraNa ke eTalo vakhata emano ahaMkAra bhagna thAya. bahu moTI khoDa hoya to ThIka che. A evaDI moTI khoDa nathI. praznakartA : tamArA kahevA pramANe sAcI vastune sAcI nahIM kahevAnI ? - dAdAzrI : nA kahevAya. ekAda-be vakhata kahevAya, roja kacakaca karAtuM haze ? praznakartA : nA, paNa eno artha ke e pachI vadhI jAya to enI geraMTI zuM ? nA kahIe to tamAku vadhAre khAya. dAdAzrI : nA. evI rIte ApaNe Takora karavI ke "mAre lIdhe jarA ochI karo" evuM kahevuM. bIjuM brAnDI-bAMDI nahIM ne? ke kharuM thoDuM thoDuM ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to pachI puNyazALI chuM tuM. bIjA to ATalI brAnDI ThokIne Ave che. jagavyavahAra mATe hormAliTI, bIlo-elova ta thAya to byuTI ! praznakartA : mAre moha-mAyA ochA eTale loko mane ema kahe che 396 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra ke, A tuM to lAgaNI vagaranI che. eTale pachI mane dilamAM duHkha thAya. dAdAzrI : du:kha thAya che te e ja moha ne ! praznakartA : eTale A loko ApaNane AvuM kema kahetA haze evuM ApaNane thAya. dAdAzrI : loka to badhuMya kahe, loka to jevuM dekhe evuM kahe. jo koIne chokaro marI gayo hoya ne e bahu raDato hoya, tyAre loka zuM kahe, kema koInA marI jatA nahIM hoya, te tame AvuM raDyA karo cho ? ane nA raDato hoya tyAre loka kahe, 'tamAruM hRdaya patharA jevuM che, kaI jAtanA mANaso cho te ?" eTale kaI bAjunuM nA hAMke ? loka to enuM nAma ke A bAjuthIya mAre ne badhIya bAjuethI mAre ! eTale "kama Tu dhI normala'. eTale loko tamane zuM kahe ke, normAliTI upara AvI jAva. ebova normala, bIlo normala rahezo nahIM. A jagatano niyama ja normAliTI che. normAliTIthI ja mokSa thAya che. have normAliTImAM AvavuM kevI rIte ? 'ebova normala thayo ke "ebova normala' thayA ja kare. ane "bIlo normala thayo ke "bIlo normala thayA ja kare. enA hAthamAM koI jAtanI sattA ja nahIM ne ! prakRti jema nacAve tema nAce. eTale to ame kahyuM ke, 'Tosa (bhamaraDo) che ne ! ane pote jANe ke "nA, huM kaMIka chuM" ! ene 'igoijhama' (ahaMkAra) kahevAya. praznakartA : vyavahAramAM 'normAliTI'nI oLakhANa zuM? dAdAzrI : badhA kahetA hoya ke "tuM moDI UThe che.' 'moDI UThe che" to ApaNe nA samajI jaIe ke A normAliTI khovAI gaI che ? rAtre aDhI vAge UThIne tuM phara phara kare to badhA nA kahe ke, ATalA badhA vahelA zuM UTho cho ? ApaNe "normAliTI" khoI nAkhI kahevAya. "normAliTI' to badhAne "eDajasTa' thaI jAya evI che. khAvAmAM paNa "normAliTI' joIe. jo peTamAM vadhAre nAkhyuM hoya to UMgha AvyA kare. amArI khAvA-pIvAnI badhI ja 'normAliTI' jojo. sUvAnI-UThavAnI badhI ja amArI "normAliTI'

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 397 398 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra hoya. jamavA besIe ne thALImAM pAchaLathI mIThAI mUkI jAya to huM have AmAMthI thoDuMka lauM, huM pramANaphera thavA nA dauM. huM jANuM ke A bIjuM AvyuM mATe zAka kADhI nAkho. tamAre ATaluM badhuM karavAnI jarUra nahIM. tamAre to moDuM UThAtuM hoya to bolabola karavuM ke, "A 'normAliTI'mAM nathI rahevAtuM. eTale ApaNe to mahIM potAne ja Takora mAravI ke 'vaheluM UThavuM joIe. te Takora phAyado karaze. Ane ja puruSArtha kahyo che. rAtre gokha gokha kare ke, "vaheluM UThavuM che, vaheluM UThavuM che' mArI-macakoDIne vahelA UThavAno prayatna kare, enAthI to magaja bagaDaze. AtmA mATe jUTha te ja satya; saMsAra mATe e ja asatya ! praznakartA : gharanI pratikULatA satsaMgamAM AvavA mATe hoya to zuM jUThuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : gharamAMthI kahe ke, sinemA jovA javAnuM nahIM, toya tuM jAya che. tyAre tuM zuM kahe che ? 'huM kaoNleja jauM chuM' ema kahe chene ? zAthI evuM kahetAM haze ? te tyAM ApaNane kapaTa karatAM AvaDe che ne AmAM nA AvaDe ? badhuMya AvaDe. A badhuM jUThuM ja che. A jagata ja jUThuM che. phakta AtmA mATe jUThuM bolavuM paDe. emAM ApaNe Atmahetu che. eTale Atmahetu mATe ko'ka dahADo kaMI jUThuM bolavuM paDe, to e sAruM. kAraNa ke enI joDe pratyakSa jhaghaDo karavo, tenA karatAM A jUThuM bolavuM sAruM. jhaghaDo karIe to to enuM mana tUTI jAya. pachI dasa-paMdara dahADA gayA pachI ApaNe kahevuM ke huM to AvuM jUThuM bolIne satsaMgamAM jatI hatI. Ama pAchuM dhoI nAkhavuM. nahIM to tane je nA kahetuM hoya tene mArI pAse teDI lAva eka dA'Do. pachI huM ene rAge pADI ApuM. praznakartA : e nimitta ja kaThaNa hoya, te tamArI pAse Ave kevI toDI nAkhIe, nahIM to kahIe ke eka dahADo to iMDone Ama paTAvIne, lalacAvIne teDI lAvo to huM davA karI nAkhuM. praznakartA: AtmA mATe bIjAne kharAba lAge to vAMdho kharo ? dAdAzrI : kazo vAMdho nahIM. AtmAnuM kAma karIe ne sAmAne kharAba lAgatuM hoya to pachI eka dahADo sArI rasoI karI Apone. ane pachI kahevuM ke, te dahADAnI mArI bhUlo mApha karI nAkhajo. to e mApha karI nAkhe. A puruSo to oliyA loka che ! sArI birayAnI karIne ApIe eTale khuza ! hindu birayAnI hoya che ke ? praznakartA : hoya chene, ApaNe bIraMja kahIe chIe. dAdAzrI : hA. e to strIone bahu sarasa AvaDe. e pachI khuza thaI jAya. ApaNe to jema tema karIne, aTAvI-paTAvIne kAma kADhI levuM. darekatuM parsanala meTara, bIjAtuM kema kheDe khetara ? praznakartA : huM mArI AjubAju evI bhIMta bAMdhIne beTho chuM ke, mArA manamAM zuM vicArI cAle che e emane 'vAIpha'ne khabara ja nA paDe. eTale emane che to problema thAya. dAdAzrI : hA. paNa dhaNI tArI zI bhUla kADhe che e kahene ? praznakartA : eTale emanA (dhaNInAM) manamAM zuM hoya dhaNIvAra kahe ja nahIM eTale khabara ja nA paDe ke e zuM vicAre che ! dAdAzrI : hA, e paNa tArI bhUla zuM kADhe che ? A jamatI vakhate koI dahADo bhUla tArI kADhelI ? praznakartA : nA, nA. dAdAzrI : koI dahADo nahIM ? praznakartA : nA, koI divasa nahIM. rIte ? dAdAzrI : e to tuM paTAvIne teDI lAve tyArene ? emane kaMI muzkelI hoya to ApaNe kahIe ke tamArI muzkelI hoya to lAvo, tene

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo dAdAzrI : acchA to bIjuM kaMI phUTI jAya che ke khovAI jAya che tyAre bhUlo kADhe che ? 399 praznakartA : bIjuM badhuM to khAsa evuM kaMI nathI hotuM. e emane bahu nathI lAgatuM paNa vadhAre emane emanA manamAM je kaMI hoya e koI divasa khulAsApUrvaka bole nahIM ke mane Ama lAge che, kharAba lAge che ke AvuM che evI vAta nA kare. eTale mane ema lAge ke emane gUMcavADo thAya che. dAdAzrI : te paNa tAre pUchIne zuM kAma che te emane ? emanuM khAnagI emanI pAse rahevA de. tAruM khAnagI tArI pAse rahevA devAnuM. khAnagI UghADuM karIne zuM kAma che te ? evuM prAIvasI (khAnagI) UghADI karavAnI hotI haze ? e tAre gabharAvAnuM nahIM, bIjI paiNIne nahIM lAvavAnA have e cokkasa. prAIvasI e rahevA devAnI. enI hAya hAya nahIM karavAnI. bIjuM vaDhe, tArI bhUla kADhe che jANIjoIne ? praznakartA : nA, evuM kazuM nathI. dAdAzrI : tyAre sToramAM kema gaI hatI ? have so DaoNlaranuM kema lAvIne evuM tevuM ? praznakartA : nA, dAdA. dAdAzrI : to pachI ApaNe emanAmAM Dakhala nahIM karavAnI. praznakartA : A pati-patnIe ekabIjAnAM 'DipArTamenTa'mAM hAtha nA ghAlavo. to jo pati corI karIne paisA lAvato hoya, to patnIe Dakhala nA karavI ? dAdAzrI : chUTuM thaI javuM hoya to Dakhala karavI. praznakartA : emanuM kahevuM ema che ke, pati jo corI karIne paisA lAvato hoya ane patnI che to ene kahetI hoya, ke tame A rIte nA lAvazo, to e kamplesarI (pharajiyAta) Dakhala thaI gaI ne ? pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : hA, paNa e kahevAthI jo sudharatA hoya, to kahevuM ane nA sudharatA hoya to kahevAno artha ja zuM che ? roja roja kahe eno zuM artha che ? paMdara dahADo mahino kahI jue, pachI emAM pheraphAra nA thAya, to ApaNe jANIe, ke ApaNuM bolavAnuM nakAmuM jAya che UlaTuM. mUrkhAI che, 'phUlIzaneza' che. eTale pachI bolavAnuM ja nahIM ApaNe. 400 praznakartA : jo ApaNA kahevAthI paNa jo e nA sudharato hoya to ApaNe evuM nA samajavuM ke ApaNAmAM ja kaMI UNapa che, jethI karIne e nathI sudharato ? dAdAzrI : hA, ApaNA ja gunAthI nahIM sudharato. guno ApaNo ja hoya, paNa e jaDe nahIM. ApaNo potAno guno koI divasa jaDene to bhagavAna thAya. potAno guno jene jaDe, moTo guno, e bhagavAna thAya. praznakartA : to enA mATe zuM karavuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : ene paNa e jaDe ja nahIMne ? e guno to zI rIte jaDe ? e to jJAnI pAse badhA pApa dhoI nakhAvaDAve. tyAre e guno dekhAya ! nahIM to pArakAnA doSa badhA dekhAya jhapATAbaMdha ! pati-patnI vacce paDyuM paMkcara, dAdA kADhe moha, vagara lekcara ! praznakartA : A paisAnI kiMmata nathI paNa huM kaMI dAgInA mAguM, to mArA patinuM evuM kahevuM che ke A ApaNA kuTuMbamAM, phemilInA vaDIlo Ape tyAre e tArAthI levAya. huM sIdhuM ApuM e che to ApaNA vaDIlono je rivAja che e toDyo kahevAya ne e barAbara nA kahevAya. paNa huM ema kahuM chuM ke bIjI badhI vahuo e badhuM chAnuM-mAnuM kare che. mane ekalIne ja nahIM, e kema ukela lAvavo ? dAdAzrI : A phAIla UbhI rahe tyAM sudhI tamAre (patine) ekabe avatAra vadhAre thAya. enA karatAM samAdhAna karIne phAIlano nikAla karavo. A to phAIla naM. 2 (patnI) che paNa phAIla naM. 100 hoya toya

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 401 402 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra enuM samAdhAna karazo to ja, nahIM to nikAla karyA vagara e phAIla ApaNane mokSe nA javA de. hisAba cUkavo evI A duniyA che. nA mAMgatI hoya toya ApIne chUTTo karavo. pharI nahIM to pachI kleima mAMDe pAchuM. mAMge che enuM kAraNa che ke enI pAchaLa kaoNjhijha (kAraNo) che. have vagara kaoNjhijhe koI paNa vastu bane nahIM. mATe kaoNjha che. mATe enuM sepha karI lo. ane kaoNjha vagara to koI nAma ja nA le. A varlDamAM koI paNa nAma na le. AjubAju vAgha rahetA hoya ane vacce sUI jaIe toya koI nAma na le. kaoNjha nA hoya to ane kaoNjha che to A badhuM UbhuM thAya che vAta. eTale eno samabhAve nikAla karI nAkho, have. praznakartA : A barAbara che, nikAla karavAno. have huM pUchuM ke patnInI mAMgaNIno kevI rIte nikAla karuM ? dAdAzrI : e to A rakama tamane jyAM ThIka lAge ema upayoga karajo, huM hAtha nahIM ghAluM, kahIe. emane patnIne saMtoSa thaI gayo e samAdhAna. have bIjI koI bAbatamAM kaMI kleima che ? keTalI bAbatamAM vAta so TakA sAcI che, paNa te saMsAramAM rahevuM hoya tene mATe sArI che. mokSe javuM hoya tene to ukela lAvavo ja paDe. rastAmAM amatho amatho UbhA rahIne ApaNane kahe, 'eya khaDA raho. so DaoNlara ApIne jAva, to e ApaNane nA javA de. to e so DaoNlara ene ApIne javAnuM. mokSe javuM che tene ! ane kAM to laDavuM hoya to laDo, kahe che. have enA kuTuMbanI je mAnyatA cAlI AvI che emAM prema Dakhala karI zake nahIM. prema premanI jagyAe, mAnyatA mAnyatAnI jagyAe. tethI karIne prema nathI evuM kahevAya nahIM. e mAnyatA che enI. paNa emane mokSe javuM hoya to A nikAla karI nAkhavo joIe. mokSe nA javuM hoya to ahIM AgaLa beu jaNa laTTabAjI UDADo. praznakartA : ene mArA mATe eTalo prema hovo joIe ke e mAnyatA badale to prema prema kahevAya. dAdAzrI : A to loko mAne che, prema che. A kaLiyugamAM prema che nahIM. hamaNe dasa-paMdara gALa bhAMDe, to prema khabara paDI jAya. ane mArI nAkhe toya nA khase e prema kahevAya. gALo dasa-paMdara nahIM, so-baso gALo de ane mAra mAre, dholo mAre toya paNa prema eTale kazo vAMdho nA Ave. paNa A to bIje dahADe chUTuM. eTale AmAM prema nathI, A to Asakti che badhI. praznakartA : prema to evI vastu che, jemAM koI rileTiva vastunI jarUra ja nA hoya. dAdAzrI : nA, che ja nahIM, rileTivamAM prema jevI vastu ja nathI, Asakti che. Asaktine loko prema kahe che. prema to amAro kahevAya ke tame amane vaDhI jAva toya amAro prema ghaTe nahIM. A tame avaLuM-savaLuM karo to vadhI nA jAya. ame to bolIe kharA, A mANasa bahu sArA che, Ama che, tema che paNa kazuM prema vadhaghaTa nA thAya. zabda ja rileTivamAM ane prema to vAstavika bhagavAnano prema. praznakartA : mAre mokSe javuM che. mane AvuM badhuM mAMgavAnuM mana nA che ? praznakartA : dAdA, kaMI dAgInA pUratuM ja che, bIjuM kazuM nathI. dAdAzrI : to pachI e to ukela lAvI devAno. jyAre tyAre samabhAve nikAla vagara chUTako ja nathI, to have A nikAla karI nAkho. jo chUTako nathI to pahelethI kema nA karavo ? - pragnakartA H huM ema pUchuM chuM ke e (pati) jANe che ke A mAMge che. e ApI zako ema hoya paNa chatAMya nA Apo. e zuM eno ahaMkAra che ? athavA emane mArI mATe prema nathI ? dAdAzrI : nA, e ahaMkAra nahIM. mAMgyuM mATe nA ApavuM te badhuMya aMtarAya che, bhogavanAranA aMtarAya che ane A khoTA dekhAya che. A Amane khoTA dekhAvAnuM ane aMtarAya enA. emane khoTA dekhAvAnuM eTale zuM ? sAmAnI DigrImAM to khoTA ja lAge ne ?

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 43 44 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra thAya evuM karI Apo. dAdAzrI : nA, chone thAya. tane thAya to Aje nikAla thaI gayo ne, have bIjuM zuM rahyuM ? haju kaMI emanI joDe bhAMjagaDa bAkI che ? nathI rahIne ? sAro mANasa che, tuMya sArI chuM ane eya sArA che. keTaluMka khAnagImAM nikAla karI nAkhavuM ApaNe. ane Aya khAnagI kahevAya. ApaNA mahAtmAne je badhuM kahIene, te cAle, ApaNA ja kahevAya. ahIM vAMdho nahIM. mahAtmAo pAse badhuM thAya. paNa A to 'nA' kahyuM eTale ? te A jagatane tethI meM kaheluM ke jo mokSe javuM hoya to badhuM jyAM ne tyAM 'hA' kahIne cAlyA jAva. nA kahIzuM to UbhA raho, kaheze. cheDo jhAlaze Ama. e 'yasa, yasa mena thaI jAva have. e kaheze, 'bAsuMdI karo, pUrI karo, phalANuM karo, phalANAnAM bhajiyAM karo.' e badhAne 'hA' pADIene, to bIje dahADe pAchA bhUlI jAya. pachI kazuM nahIM ! ane nA pADIe, tene yAda rahyA kare, paMciMga thayA kare. praznakartA H hI, basa, evuM ja che, dAdA. dAdAzrI : evuM ja, nahIM to enA manamAM evuM hoya nahIM ne ! praznakartA : paNa enuM kADhI Apone dAdA, eTale patI gayuM. solva ja thaI jAya ne ! pachI koIne halAvAnI jarUra nahIM. dAdAzrI : e to have ukela lAvI nAkhaze e. praznakartA : nA, paNa ene levAnuM mana ja nA thAya. dhaNI Ape kaMI evuM mana ja nA thAya to pachI zuM ? dAdAzrI : hA. ApaNe have to mokSathI ja kAma che ne kaMI dAgInA ochI ciMtA baMdha karAvatA hatA ? praznakartA: nA. dAdAzrI : dAgInA badhuM joIe eTale ciMtA to hoya ja ne ! praznakartA : dAgInA to bahu ja che. dAdAzrI : dAgInA haze, puSkaLa haze. praznakartA : e to atyAreya, Ajeya vyavahArika jIvanamAM je che, to bAnA gharathI je vastu maLI hoya e AgavI ja kahevAya. piyarathI lAvyA hoya e AgavI ja kahevAya. dAdAzrI : atyAre to AgavI gaNe che, piyarathI lAvyA hoya tene AgavI ja gaNe. praznakartA : emAM e paccIsa vAra saMbhaLAve. te ApaNuM je hoya te sahiyAruM kahevAya. puruSanuM hoya te sahiyAruM kahevAya. dAdAzrI : te sahiyAruM kahevAya ane peluM AgavuM gaNe, evuM gaNe chene? praznakartA: e to have satya hakIkata banI gaI. badhA ja evuM kahe che ke piyaranuM AgavuM ane tAruM-mAruM sahiyAruM. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa jyAre vaDhavADa thAya che ne tuM tArI peTI laIne jatI rahe ahIMthI. eTale tuM tArI milakata che, je tuM potAnI gaNuM chuM e laI jA ahIMthI, e meM sAMbhaLeluM badhI jagyAe. jayAre laDe che tyAre evuM kahe kharAM ? praznakartA : hA, kahe. meM kaheluM ke eka vakhata. dAdAzrI : peTI laIne jatI rahe ahIMthI. jo pAcho bhAga pADe to enA e ja che ne ! A tArI ne A mArI milakata. ApaNe so ApIe teno hisAba nahIM emane, paNa paMdara rUpiyAnI vastu enA piyarathI lAvelAne, te A mArI. e kAyama A. e nero mAInDa (TUMkuM mana) che emanuM. eTale ApaNe leTago karavuM joIe ke A sAruM che UlaTuM !

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 45 406 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra 'pati paramezvara', vade zAstra, sama' bane, to bata 'sItA'tuM pAtra ! praznakartA : ApaNAM zAstromAM lakhyuM che, ke strIe patine ja paramezvara tarIke mAnavuM ane enI AjJAmAM rahIne cAlavuM. to atyAre A kALamAM kevI rItanA e pALavuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : e to pati jo rAma jevA hoya to ApaNe sItA thavuM joIe. pati vAMko thayo to ApaNe vAMkA nA thaIe to zI rIte cAle ? sIdhuM rahevAya to uttama, paNa sIdhuM rahevAya nahIM ne ! mANasa zI rIte sIdho rahI zake, godA mAra-mAra kare pachI ! pachI patnI te zuM kare bicArI ? e to patie patidharma pALavo joIe ane patnIe patnIdharma pALavo joIe. agara patinI thoDI bhUlo hoya to nabhAvI le e strI kahevAya. paNa ATaluM badhuM AvIne gALo bhAMDavA mAMDe, to A patnI zuM kare bicArI ? praznakartA : pati e ja paramAtmA che, e zuM khoTuM che ? dAdAzrI : AjanA patione paramAtmA mAne to e gAMDA thaIne phare evA che ! eka dhaNI enI bairIne kahe, tArA mAthA upara devatA mUka ne tenA para roTalI zeka ! mULa to baMdara chApa ne uparathI dArU pIvaDAve to enI zI dazA thAya ? eka bena AvyAM hatAM. te kahe che, dhaNIne paramezvara tarIke pUjavo joIe ke nA joIe ? meM kahyuM, e kyAM pAchA gAMDA kADhuM chuM, tAro dhaNI to mUo gAMDo che ane pAcho paramezvara tarIke pUjIza to...!! AvA paramezvara te hotA haze ? tAre to phrenDanI jema rahevuM. paramezvarano jamAno gayo badho. e to satayugamAM hatuM badhuM. praznakartA : e kharI pativratA kahevAyane, dAdA ? dAdAzrI : hA, kharI pativratA. atyAre to A badhuM nA rahyuM. jema tema karIne zAMtithI rahevuM. kleza nA thAyane eTaluM basa ! praznakartA : A pati paramezvara kahevAya ? enA roja darzana karAya ? enuM caraNAmRta pIvAya ? dAdAzrI : e emane paramezvara kahe, paNa e marI nA jAya to to paramezvara. marI javAnA te zenA paramezvara ? pati zenA paramezvara che ? atyAranA pati paramezvara hotA haze ? praznakartA : huM to patine roja page lAguM chuM. dAdAzrI : e to chetaratI haze ema karIne. patine chetare Ama karIne, page lAgIne. pati eTale pati ane paramezvara eTale paramezvara. e pati ja kyAM kahe che, huM paramezvara, huM to dhaNI chuM evuM ja kahe che ne ? praznakartA : hA, dhaNI chuM. dAdAzrI : haM, e to gAyanoya dhaNI hoya, badhAnA dhaNI hoya. AtmA ekalo ja paramezvara che, zuddhAtmA. praznakartA : caraNAmRta pIvAya ? dAdAzrI : AjanA gaMdhAtA mANasonA caraNa kema pIvAya te ! A mANasa gaMdhAya, Ama beTho hoya toya gaMdhAya. e to pelA sugaMdhIvALA mANasa hatA tyAranI vAta judI hatI. Aja to badhA mANasa gaMdhAya che. ApaNuM mAthuM hau caDhI jAya. jema tema karIne dekhAva karavAno ke ame patipatnI chIe. praznakartA : darekanAmAM paramezvara beThelA hoya ne emanAmAMya che mATe to pati paramezvara ne ? dAdAzrI : ohoho ! bUTa paheratAM AvaDatAM nathI ne pote paramezvara thaI beTho che ! patio kharA laIne beThelA ? e to pahelAM copaDIomAM lakhI nAkheluMne, te strIo bicArI abhaNa, ke lakhyA pachI chekyuM nahIM. pahelAMthI ja strIoe ja chekI nAkhyuM hota to ? praznakartA : have badhAe chekI nAkhyuM che, dAdA. have badhI bhaNIne

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo eTale badhAe cokaDI mUkI dIdhI. dAdAzrI : pati paramezvara thaI beThA. juone, emanA hAthamAM copaDI lakhavAnI eTale koNa kahevAnuM, eka tarapha karI nAkhyuM ne ? AvuM nA hovuM joIe. 407 tuM pUjatI hoya toya nA kahuM UlaTAnuM ke nA pUjIza. ene zuM pUjavA jevuM ? hA, emanuM apamAna nahIM karavAnuM. patideva thAya. praznakartA : AjakAlanA bairAM potAnA dhaNIne pahelAMnAM bairAM jevuM mAna nathI ApatA. dAdAzrI : hA, pahelAMnA dhaNI rAma hatA ane atyAre marA che. praznakartA : A kahe che jamarA. dAdAzrI : kaMIka to samajavuM paDene ? Ama ne Ama kaMI khAlI mUcho para tAla devAno zuM phAyado ? ane benone samajavuM joIe ke dhaNIne bahu sArI rIte rAkhavo joIe. tyAre dhaNIo zuM kaheze ? sItA jevI thatI nathI. meM kahyuM, tuM pahelAM rAma thAuM to e sItA thAya. eTale beno jIvana kaMI sudhAro. kaMI AvuM nA hoya ApaNane zobhe nahIM. patnI patine sadA sinsiyara, ughADI kema karAya gaTara ? praznakartA : patinI pratye strInI pharaja zuM e samajAvo. dAdAzrI : strIe haMmezAM patine sinsiyara rahevuM joIe. patie patnIne kahevuM joIe ke, 'tame sinsiyara nahIM raho to mAruM magaja bagaDI jaze.' ene to cetavaNI ApavI joIe. 'bIvera' (cetavavAnA) karavAnA, paNa dabANa nA karAya ke tame sinsiyara raho. paNa 'bIvera' kahevAya. sinsiyara rahevuM joIe AkhI jiMdagI. rAta-divasa sinsiyara, emanI ja ciMtA hovI joIe. tAre enI ciMtA rAkhavI joIe. to ja saMsAra sAro cAle. praznakartA : patideva sinsiyara nA rahe, pachI patnInuM magaja bagaDe. 408 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra to pApa nA lAge ne ? dAdAzrI : magaja bagaDe to svAda cAkhe ne ! pAcho dhaNIe cAkhe ne pachI ! 'ejha phAra ejha posibala' (banatAM sudhI) evuM nA karavuM joIe. ane patinI icchA nA hoya ne bhUlacUka thaI jatI hoya to enI patie mAphI mAMgI levI joIe ke huM mAphI mAguM chuM. pharI nahIM thAya AvuM. mANase sinsiyara to rahevuM joIene ? sinsiyara nA rahe e kemanuM cAle ? praznakartA : pati mAphI mAMgI le, vAtavAtamAM mAphI mAMgI le, paNa pAchA evuM ja karatA hoya to ? dAdAzrI : dhaNI mAphI mAMge to nA samajIe, ke keTalo bicAro lAcArI bhogave che ! eTale leTa go karavAnuM. e kaMI ene 'hebITa' (Teva) nahIM paDelI. 'hebicyuTeDa' (TevAI) nahIM thaI gayelo. eneya nA game paNa zuM kare ? parANe AvuM thaI jAya. bhUlacUka tyAre thAya ne ! praznakartA : patine hebITa thaI gaI hoya to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : zuM karavAnuM ? kADhI melAya kaMI ene ? kADhI mele to phajeto thAya bahAra. UlaTuM DhAMkI rAkhavAnuM, bIjuM zuM thAya te ? gaTarane DhAMkIe chIe ke UghADI karIe chIe ? A gaTarone DhAMkaNuM mUkI devAnuM hoya ke UghADuM rAkhavAnuM hoya ? praznakartA : baMdha rAkhavAnuM. dAdAzrI : nahIM to ughADIe to mAthuM gaMdhAya, ApaNuM mAthuM caDhI jAya. tane mArI vAta gamI ? praznakartA : bahu gamI. pativratA e moTuM AbhUSaNa, kaMku kema ? matamAM eka ja jaNa ! praznakartA : A cAMdalo karavAnuM zA mATe, amerikAnI ghaNI strIo amane pUche ke tame loko ahIyAM cAMdalo kema karo cho ?

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410 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra (19) patnInI phariyAdo 409 dAdAzrI : hA. ApaNe kahevuM, "cAMdalo eTale mATe ke ame che te AryastrIo chIe. ame anArya nathI. Arya strIo cAMdalAvALI hoya. eTale dhaNI joDe game eTalo jhaghaDo thAya, toya e jatI nA rahe ane pachI cAMdalA vagaranI to bIje ja dahADe jatI rahe. ane A to sTeDI rahe, cAMdalAvALI. ahIMyAM (kapALamAM) mananuM sthAna che, te eka patimAM mana ekAgra rahe eTale. strInI pharaja, cA patine sinsiyara, ghaNI sudhAravA karatA jAte sudhara. praznakartA strIoe zuM karavuM joIe ? puruSanuM to tame kahyuM, paNa strIoe be AMkhamAM zuM rAkhavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : strIoe to, ene game tevo pati maLyo hoyane, pati je maLyA e ApaNA hisAbano che, pati maLavo e kaMI gamyuM nathI. mATe je pati maLyo enA tarapha eka pativratA thavAno prayatna karajo. ane evuM jo nA thAya to enI pAchA kSamApanA lo. paNa tArI dRSTi AvI hovI joIe. ane pati joDe pArTanarazIpamAM kema AgaLa vadhAya, Urdhvagati thAya, kema mokSe javAya, evA vicAro kara. meM eka vakhata kahyuM, kema utAvaLa karo cho ? tyAre kahe, mokSa mATe to utAvaLa hovI ja joIe. mokSamAM nA jaIe tyAre zuM vAreghaDIe A bhavobhava kaMI dhaNI ja karavA, kahe che. nA, keTalAka avatAra sudhI dhaNI kara kara karIe ? have to mokSe ja javuM. dhaNI-baNI karavA nathI ? karI beThA e karI beThA. dhaNI nathI karavA have, nahIM ? tuMya thAkI hoIza ne karyA pachI ? praznakartA : sAva, dAdA. dAdAzrI : ema ? praznakartA : paNa dAdA, emane laIne ja mokSe javAnuM. dAdAzrI : hA, emane laIne mokSe javAnuM. A to gammata karI thoDI vakhata. e A gammata karavAnI hoyane ! thoDo vakhata vicAravA jevuM kharuM ke nahIM ? thoDuM ghaNuM tuM pheraphAra karI nAkhIza have AjathI ? e AkarA thAya tyAre ApaNe kazuM bolavuM nahIM. praznakartA: pote sAcA hoya ane emanI vAta barAbara nA hoya to bolavuM paDe ne ? dAdAzrI : tuM sAcI che enI khAtarI zuM ? tuM ja nyAyAdhIza ane tuM ja vakIla ane tuM ja AropI. eTale nyAya 'huM sAcI chuM" kare. pote ja vakIla, pote AropI ane pote ja jaja. pelo vakIla kahe che, badhA kare che te ApaNeya Ama ja karavuM paDe. vakIla UMdhuM zIkhavADe. tuM sAcI chuM evI khAtarI zuM ? ane pati sAco che enI khAtarI zuM? A to potAno nyAya e ejhekTa nyAya hoya che ke potAnI samajaNa pramANe haze ? praznakartA : potAnI samajaNa pramANe, eTale pachI athaDAmaNa thAya. eTale vAta judI che e nakkI mAnI levuM? dara vakhate jUThI nA hoya ? dAdAzrI : dara vakhate jUThuM, athaDAmaNa kema thaI ? praznakartA vicAro judA paDe eTale. dAdAzrI : vicAro judA kema thayA ? aNasamajaNa che, akkala nathI tethI emane dUdha pIvuM hoya ne tuM kahe, "nA, dUdha nA pIzo. A dahIM lo." A emanI prakRtimAM dUdha phAvatuM hoya to ene kahe, 'lyo, dUdha ApuM chuM." tane prakRtimAM dahIM phAvatuM hoya to dahIM khA. prakRti judI, badhAnI vAta judI. paNa tuM kahe, "nA, tamAre dahIM khAvuM paDaze, pharajIyAta." tamane kema lAge che ? 'tame vALa kapAvazo nahIM, mArA jevaDA lAMbA vALa rAkho.' to cAle ? eTale kayuM kharuM ? emane ApaNe emeya nA kahevAya ke huM kapAvuM chuM ne tame kapAo. saune rIte, nyAya rItasarano hovo joIe. samajapUrvakano hovo joIe. gharamAM matabheda ne bhAMjagaDa nA thAya, ochI thAya evo rasto khoLI kADho. tArI joDe dhaNI kacakaca kare che haju ?

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(19) patnInI phariyAdo 411 412 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : nahIM, khAsa nahIM. dAdAzrI : e to jJAnane lIdhe kacakaca nathI karatA. tuM karuM chuM emanI joDe kacakaca ? tuM nathI karatI ? praznakartA : tame mAno evuM ke huM kacakaca karuM chuM ? dAdAzrI : nA, mane nahIM lAgatuM, paNa karatI hoya to have nA karIza. tuM mane promisa Apa, le promisa Apa, have nahIM karuM. praznakartA: kacakaca nahIM karuM, promisa ApuM chuM. khoTe raste jAya to ene sAre raste doravuMne ! e mArI pharaja chene, e karuMne ! dAdAzrI : evuM chene, kyAM sudhI te sArA raste doravIza ? keTalAM varSa sudhI doravIza ? e khoTe raste nahIM jAya, e huM tane kahuM chuM. khoTe raste jatA haze te e nahIM jAya e badhuM tAre jovAnI jarUra nathI. huM joIza badhuM. mane soMpI de. kharuM ke khoTuM ? e tuM kaMI jJAnI nathI, tuM to paiNelI enI vAIpha chuM. huM jJAnI chuM. eTale mAre jovAnuM ke tAre jovAnuM? praznakartA: tamAre jovAnuM. dAdAzrI : haM.... te huM joIza badhuM have. praznakartA: to mane eTaluM ochuM kAma. dAdAzrI : hA, eTaluM kAma tAre ochuM ne ! vagara kAmanI pIDA laIne pharavI ! javAbadArI thaIne badhI. kharuM kahe che e, javAbadArI che. koI kahenAra nA hoya to javAbadArI vadhe. have huM kahIza emane. huM mArI meLe bolAvIne kahI daIza ke Ama nA hoya. have bIjuM kaMI solyuzana joItuM hoya to kaMI pUcho. A UMgha AvyA pachI AgavuM hoya che ke sahiyAruM hoya che ? praznakartA : AgavuM ja hoya che, dAdA. dAdAzrI : te jAgatAM evI ja rIte ja vartavuM. hA ! UMghI gayAne sahiyAruM nathI karatAM, AgavuM rAkhIe chIe, toya savAramAM bagaDatuM nathI kaMI. UlaTuM, A sahiyAruM karavAthI bagaDe che. mATe jAgatAMya AgavuM rAkhavuM. e giyaramAM nAkhIene, to Akho dahADo AgavuM rahe, savArathI ja giyaramAM nAkhuM pachI Akho dahADo AgavuM rahe.. praznakartA : giyara eTale gADIno giyara ? dAdAzrI : nA, aMdaranuM giyara. gADInuM giyara to juduM ! aMdara giyara nAkhyuM che ne ? te AgavuM. 'A mArA bAbAno bAbo" peluM giyara nathI tethI AvuM karyA kare che. te bAbo ema nahIM kaheto ke mAruM A Ama karo, sanmAna karo. A to kevA kevAM lapakA kare ! lapakA sAMbhaLavAnA game kharA ? temAM kAkI sAsuya lapakA kare, mAsI sAsuya lapakA kare. mAsI sAsune kahIe, 'tame zuM karavA lapakA kara kara karo cho ? hu mArI bAIDIne paiNyo temAM ? tyAre kahe, mArI to bhANI thAyane ! eTale A sahu koI lapakA kare. e kema poSAya ? ahIMthI bhAgI chUTIe, ApaNe ApaNA gAma jatAM rahIe. homa DipArTamenTamAM jatA rahIe. A phorena DipArTamenTamAM homa mAnIne beThA che. zuM thayuM che ? alyA, A nahoya homa, A to phorena DipArTamenTa che. homa DipArTamenTa che, tyAM kazuM du:kha nathI. atyAre du:kha ghaTI gayAM, tyAMthI nA samajo ke have duHkha ghaTavA mAMDyAM. eTale zuM gaNAya ? du:khanI pUrNAhuti thaI javAnI. hA, du:kha ja jatAM rahyAM, khalAsa thayuM. du:kha ghaTavA mAMDyA ke nahIM ghaTavA mAMDyA ? praznakartA : ghaTavA mAMDyA. dAdAzrI : kyArathI ghaTavA mAMDyA ? praznakartA : dAdA maLyA tyArathI ghaTavA mAMDyA. dAdAzrI : eka bena kahetI hatI, tamAruM eka eka vAkya sonAno bola che !

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(20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAtAM vicArabheda mata-matabheda, tatabhede UDe jIvata cheda ! matabheda game che ? matabheda thAya tyAre jhaghaDA thAya, ciMtA thAya. to manabhedamAM zuM thAya ? manabheda thAya to, 'Divorsa' le ane tanabheda thAya tyAre nanAmI nIkaLe ! praznakartA : vyavahArika bAbatamAM matabheda hoya e vicArabheda kahevAya ke matabheda kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : e matabheda kahevAya. A jJAna lIdhuM hoya tene vicArabheda kahevAya. nahIM to matabheda kahevAya. matabhedathI to jhATako vAge ! praznakartA : matabheda ocho rahe to e sAruM ne ? dAdAzrI : mANasane matabheda to hovA ja na joIe. jo matabheda che to e mANasAI ja nA kahevAya. kAraNa ke matabhedathI to koI phero manabheda thaI jAya. matabhedamAM manabheda thaI jAya eTale 'tuM Ama che ne tuM tAre ghera jatI rahe' ema cAle. AmAM pachI majA nA rahe. jema tema nabhAvI levuM. matabheda pachI lo chUTAcheDA, thA chUTo, jo ta bAMdho pharI cheDA ! pahelAM svayaMvara karatA hatA, strIo ochI hatI tethI ! nahIM to pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra paiNavA mATe harAjI karavAnI ! rAmacaMdrajI ekalA paiNe ne bIjA badhA rakhaDI mare ! paNa e jamAno sAco eTale Divorsa karavA nA paDe. A kaLiyuga eTale Divorsa karavA paDe. kAraNa ene jIvatAM ja nathI AvaDatuM mANasa tarIke. 414 gADImAMya joDe beThA hoya ne vicitra svabhAvano hoya to utaratA sudhI nabhAvavuM paDe. tema bairI jarA vicitra svabhAvanI hoya to nabhAvavuM paDe. to ? praznakartA : roja manaduHkha thAya, jhaghaDe tenA karatAM Divorsa laI le dAdAzrI : Divorsa le paNa pharI paiNavAnA nA hoya to. lagna potAne anukULa thayuM hoya, paNa pachI matabheda paDe tyAre mahIM zuM thAya pachI ? te ghaDIe sukha (!) varte bahu ? matabheda paDe tyAre benane zuM thAya ? be jaNane matabheda paDe tyAre ? kema bolatA nathI, bena bolane, tuM bolane tuM bhaNelI che. tane samajaNa paDe chene ? praznakartA : AjakAlanA matabhedo eTale chUTAcheDA. dAdAzrI : Divorsa hau laI le ne ? hA, matabheda to rahevAnA ja. matabheda to rahyA vagara hoya ja nahIM ne ? tamArA gharamAM matabheda nahIM joelA tame ? praznakartA : sAmasAmI bAMdhachoDa paNa thayA karatI hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, bAMdhachoDa paNa thayA karatI hoya paNa matabheda to hoya che ne ? praznakartA : hoya ja. dAdAzrI : bAMdhachoDa karavI paDe. bAMdhachoDa nA kare to tUTI jAya, chUTA thavuM paDe. praznakartA : atyAre to TheTha matabheda sudhI pahoMcI gayuM che.

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(20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAnAM 415 416 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : te ja kahuM chuMne ? e badhuM sAruM nahIM. bahAra zobhe nahIM. Ano kaMI artha nahIM. haju sudhArI zakAya che. ApaNe manuSyamAM chIene te sudhArI zakAya. A zA mATe AvuM hovuM joIe ? muA, phajeto karyA kare che te ? thoDuM samajavuM to paDe ne ? tame samajyA ? A badhAmAM suparaphaluasa (upalaka) rahevAnuM che, tyAre A vahunA dhaNI thaI beThA, keTalAka mANaso to. alyA mUA, dhaNIpaNuM zuM karavA bajAve che ? A to ahIM jIvyo tyAM sudhI dhaNI ane e kAle DAIvarsa nA le tyAM sudhI dhaNI. kAle DAIvorsa le tuM zAno dhaNI ? manuSya sivAya bIjA koI dhaNIpaNuM nathI bajAvatA. are, AjakAla to "DAyavorsa' le che ne ? vakIlane kahe ke, 'tane hajAra-be hajAra rUpiyA ApIza. mane 'DAyavorsa' apAvI de, te vakIleya kaheze ke 'hA, apAvI daIza." alyA, tuM laI lene 'DAyavorsa', bIjAne zuM apAvavA nIkaLyA cho ? praznakartA : dAdA, eka hasabanDa ane vAIpha banne jaNAne cakamaka thaI jAya che to emAM je chuTA paDI javAya (DAyavorsa) to doSa kone lAge? emAM karmano udaya gaNAya, zuM gaNAya ? kharekhara kono doSa kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : te badhuM karmanA udaya. kaMI paNa hakIkta, vAstaviktA bane e karmano udaya. pachI udaya game te hoya, khoTA udaya ke kharAba udaya. paNa karmano udaya ja karAve che eTale emAM bIjA koInuM cAle nahIM. bIjA nimitta bane vakhate ke ANe phAcara mArI paNa chevaTa e karmano udaya. phAcara mArI evo nimitta maLI Ave ke Amane phAcara mArI tethI A be chUTA paDI gayA. praznakartA dAdA, doSa kone lAge ? e chUTA paDI jAya emAM doSa kone lAge ? dAdAzrI : jeNe phAcara mArI hoya tene. "jevuM maLe tevuM' levuM tabhAvI, "bIjuM kare' tenI khAtrI kevI ? praznakartA : AjakAla badhA DAyavorsa le che, chUTAcheDA le che. te nAnAM nAnAM chokarAo mUkIne chUTAcheDA le che, to eno nisAso nA lAge ? dAdAzrI : lAge ne badhuMya, paNa zuM kare che ? kharI rIte nA levA joIe. kharI rIte to AkhuM nabhAvI levuM joIe. chokarAM thatAM pahelAM lIdhA hota to vAMdho nahoto, paNa A chokarAo thayA pachI le, to chokarAMno nisAso lAgene ! praznakartA : evuM bane ke mA-bApa sukhI nA hoya, duHkhI hoya, to chokarAo paNa duHkhI thAya ? dAdAzrI : paNa A chUTAcheDA. chokaruM hoya to nA levAya to sAruM. kAraNa ke chokarAne bicArAne rakhaDI maravAnuMne ke bApa pAse rahevuM ke mA pAse rahevuM ? praznakartA : chokarAnA bApanuM jarAya magaja cAlatuM nA hoya, kazuM kAmakAja karatA nA hoya, moTala calAvatA nA AvaDatI hoya ane cAra divAlanI vacce gharamAM besI raheto hoya, to zuM karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : zuM karavuM paNa te ? bIjo pAMsaro maLaze ke nahIM enI khAtarI zuM ? praznakartA: e to nahIM ja vaLI... dAdAzrI : bIjo vaLI ethI enA moDhAmAM thUke evo maLe tyAre zuM karavuM ? ghaNAM lokone maLeluM evuM, pahelo hato, te sAro hato. mecakkara pAchuM tyAM paDI rahevuM hatuM ne ! mahIMthI e samajavuM paDe ke nA samajavuM paDe ? praznakartA : dAdAne soMpI daIe to pachI bIjo pAMsaro maLe ne ? dAdAzrI : sAro maLyo ane traNa varSa pachI ene eTeka Avyo, to zuM karazo ? A naryuM bhayavALA jagatamAM zA hAru A... ? 'je banyuM e karekTa' kahIne calAvI lo to sAruM. traNa varSa pachI eTeka Ave. eTale ApaNane pelo jUno hato te sAMbhare. mUA, pelo hato te choDIne A pAchA eTekavALAne tyAM AvyA ! eTale A badhuM phajeto che badho, bena !

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(20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAnAM 417 418 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra A to tamAre jo AvuM thayeluM hoya bhAMgaphoDa to, huM tamane samajaNa pADI dauM ke AvI rIte tame calAvI lejo, e rIte dekhADI dauMne eTale bojArUpa tamane nA lAge ne eneya nA lAge. beunuM rAge pADI ApuM. bAkI, chokarAno to nisAso bahu lAge. nA bApano rahyo ke nA mAno rahyo bicAro ! have jo dhaNI bIjo karo, to ethIya buro nIkaLe to zuM kahevAya ? uparathI Ama koTa-pATalUnavALo Ama rUpALo bama jevo dekhAto hoya ane mahIM che te khATI kerI nIkaLe to zuM khabara paDe ? uparathI kerI pharsTa klAsa dekhAtI hatI, paNa mahIM kApIe ne khATI nIkaLe ! nIkaLe kharI mahIM khATI ? praznakartA : nIkaLe. dAdAzrI : ema ! khAtrI nahIM, nahIM ? eTale enuM kazuM ThekANuM nahIM. mATe je cAkhyo che ne e sAro che, kahevuM. bahu lAMbI AzA rAkhavA jevuM nathI A jagata. eTale bena, huM tamane samajaNa pADI dauM ke A rIte tame calAvI lejo. bahu AnaMda Avaze pachI. A to kazuM ja ThekANuM nathI. eka vAra to paiNavA jevuM jagata ja nathI. paNa paiNyA vagara cAle evuMya nathI pAchuM. kevI phasAmaNa che ? paiNavA jevuM jagata nathI ne paiNyA vagara cAle evuM nathI. A muzkelIomAMthI rasto kADhavAno che. praznakartA : zuM rasto karavo ? dAdAzrI : e to mane e khAnagImAM badho rasto pUchone to huM tamane badhuM batADI dauM. hAu Tu DIla vItha hasabanDa, e badhuM batADI dauM. pachI bAkI navo karavAmAM majA nathI. navo karIe ne traNa varSa pachI hArTahela thaI jAya tyAre zuM karIe ? nahIM to dArUDiyo thaI gayelo hoya tyAre zuM karavAnuM ? pahelo dhaNI sAro nIkaLe haMmezAM, paNa bIjo to mUA rakhaDela ja hoya. kAraNa ke eya AvuM khoLato hoya, rakhaDato khoLato hoya ane eya rakhaDela hoya, tyAre be bheguM thAya ne ! rakhaDela Dhoro be bhegAM thaI jAya. enA karatAM pahelo hoya te sAro eka, saDI gayelo hoya, e thaI gayelo, paNa ApaNo jANelo to kharone ! mUo, Avo to nathI ja ! e rAte gaLuM to nahIM dabAvI de, evI tamane khAtarI hoya ne ? ane pelo to gaLuM hau dabAvI de ! praznakartA : eTale ke ApaNe ApaNI jAte aMdara evI samaja ja UbhI karI devAnI ke A jagatamAM koI paraphekTa che nahIM. dAdAzrI : nA, e to huM samajaNa pADuM. evuM tame jAte karo to e to Take nahIM. ane huM to sAcI samaja ApuM. Take evI, kAyama Take evI ! tamArI samajaNe karelI goThavaNI, e to kAle savAre UDI jAya pachI. goThavelI nA cAle, e to huM tamane sAcI samaja ApuM. enA plasamAinasa karI ApuM ! baccAMonI khAtareya potAne samajavuM joIe. eka ke be hoya, paNa e bicArA noMdhArA ja thaI jAyane ! noMdhArA nA gaNAya ? praznakartA: noMdhArA ja gaNAya. dAdAzrI : mA kyAM gaI ? pappA kyAM gayA ? eka vAra potAne eka A paga kapAI gayo hoya, to eka avatAra nabhAvI nahIM letA ke ApaghAta karavo ? praznakartA : nabhAvI levAnuM. dAdAzrI : ApaghAta karavo ke paga nabhAvI levAno ? haM... evI rIte Aya paga kapAI gayelA jevuM ja. ame to tamane samajaNa pADIe, bAkI A je tame jAte Utarazo to vadhu phasAzo. ame tamane ochI phasAmaNamAM Ave evuM karI ApIe rasto. kAraNa ke amAre levAdevA nathI ane tamArA hitamAM hoIe ame ke tamane duHkha na thAya, ochuM duHkha thAya. paga bhAMgI jAya toya nahIM ApaghAta karuM, kaheze. Ama ne Ama jIvuM chuM ne nirAMte ! to A badhuM nabhAve che, to A emAM dhaNImAM zuM mahIM kADhavAno che te !

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420 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAnAM 419 bahArathI Avyo hoyane, to pasIno soDI to jojo ! jo sugaMdhI, jo senTa ! bahArathI Avyo hoya, khUba tApamAMthI pharato pharato Avyo hoya, pachI pasIno soDI juo to senTa jevuM lAge, nahIM ? A to mAnI lIdheluM che. A AmAM sukha hotuM haze ? chUTako nathI paiNyA vagara. kAraNa ke paiyA vagara jIvana che te duniyAmAM potAnuM e ja nA rahe, velyu ja nA rahe. loko zuM kahe ke A... A cAlI pelI ! eTale ApaNane kaMIka jIvana to hovuM joIe ne lokomAMya ! nA hovuM joIe ? dhaNI kharAba lAgato nathI ? e lAgaze tyAre zuM karIza ? pachI dhaNInuM jarA magaja ADuM-avaLuM hoya, paNa Ama paiNyA eTale ApaNo dhaNI, eTale ApaNo sArAmAM sAro besTa, ema kahevuM. eTale kharAba evuM duniyAmAM kazuM hotuM nathI. praznakartA : besTa evuM kahIe to dhaNI cagI jAya. dAdAzrI : nA, cage ja nahIM. e Akho dahADo bicArA bahAra kAma karyA kare e zuM cage ? dhaNI to ApaNane je maLyA hoyane e ja nabhAvI levAnA, kaMI bIjA levA javAya ? vecAtA maLe kaMI ? ane peluM UMdhuMcatuM karo, Divorsa karavuM paDe e to khoTuM dekhAya UlaTuM. pelAya pUche ke DAyavorsavALI che ? tyAre bIje kyAM jaIe ? enA karatAM eka karI paDyA e nikAla karI nAkhavAno tyAM AgaLa. eTale badhe evuM hoya ane ApaNAthI nA phAvatuM hoya, paNa zuM kare ? jAya kyAM have ? mATe A ja nikAla karI nAkhavAno. ApaNe inDiyano, keTalA dhaNI badalIe ? A eka ja karyo che... je maLyo e sAco. te kesa UMcuM mUkI devAno ! ane puruSone strI jevI maLI hoya, kakaLATa karatI hoya to paNa enI joDe nikAla karI nAkhavo sAro. e kaMI peTamAM bacakAM bharavAnI che ? e to bahArathI bUmAbUma kare ke moDhe gALo de, peTamAM pesIne bacakAM bhare tyAre ApaNe zuM karIe, enA jevuM che. A badhuM. reDiyo ja che. paNa A tamane Ama khabara nA paDe ke A kharekhara... tamane to ema ja lAge ke A kharekhara e ja kare che A. pachI eneya pastAvo thAya che, ke sAluM, mAre nahotuM kahevA jevuM ne kahevAI gayuM. to to e kare che ke reDiyo kare che ? hamaNe DuMgara uparathI AvaDo patharo paDe to konI joDe cIDAvuM ? ane A eka kAMkarI mAre to ? ApaNe sAruM kahevuM. ThIkeya nA bolavuM. koI kaheze, 'kemano che tamAro saMsAra ?" bahu sAruM che. badheya ghera mATInA cUlA hoya. pachI tyAM AgaLa moTuM bagaDI gayuM hoya. A to vadhatuM-ochuM jarA hoya badhuM. tane kema lAge ? praznakartA : barAbara che, vAta sAcI che. dAdAzrI : jo bIjI lAve to evuM ne evuM ja ne paNa. praznakartA : hAsto. dAdAzrI : dhaNI bIjo karo to evuM ne evuM ja thAya, baLyuM. enA karatAM hoya tene nabhAvIne kAma kADhI levuM. tane gamI e vAta ? A zuM du:kha ! A phorenarsone (paradezIo) badhuM badalAyA kare. ApaNe kaMI phorenarsa chIe ? ApaNe to AryaprajA kahevAIe. zuM kahevAIe ? praznakartA : AryaprajA che ! hA, cokkasa. dAdAzrI : eka phero jevo maLyo ane AMdhaLo dhaNI maLyo to calAvI letI'tI, AryaprajA ! agara paiNyA pachI AMdhaLo thaI jAya tyAre zuM karIe ? nA calAvI levo paDe ? paNa A phorenavALA nA calAve, ApaNe to calAvavuM paDe. AphaTara ola hI Ijha e guDa mena ! (aMte to e sArA mANasa che.) huM bolyo hato te epropriyeTa (yogya) jagyAe epropriyeTa bolAtuM hatuM. te eka bhAIe vAta pakaDI lIdhI. AphaTara ola (aMte to) emane bahu gamyuM. eka jaNIno saMsAra muMbaImAM phekyara thaI jato hato. pelAe khAnagI bIjo saMbaMdha rAkhyo haze. ane A baI, e to jANI gaI eTale jhaghaDA utpanna jabarajasta thavA mAMDyA. pachI mane baIe kahI dIdhuM, "A AvA che, mAre zuM karavuM ? mane nAsI chUTavuM che.' meM kahyuM, 'eka patnIvratano kAyado pALato hoya evo maLe to nAsI chUTaje. nahIM to bIjo kyo sAro maLaze? Ama to eka ja rAkhI chene ?" tyAre kahe, 'hA, eka ja.' tyAre

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(20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAnAM 421 422 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra meM kahyuM, 'bahu sAruM. leTa go kara (calAvI le). moTuM mana karI nAkha. tane bIjo AthI sAro nA maLe.' eka bena kahetI hatI ke mane dhaNI sAro maLyo nathI eTale mArI jiMdagI bagaDI. meM kahyuM, 'sAro maLyo hota to jiMdagI sudharI jAta ?' kahyuM, 'A tuM jANatI nahotI ke A kaLiyuga che ? kaLiyugamAM to dhaNIe sAro nA maLe. ane vahue sArI nA maLe. A badho mAla ja kacaro hoyane ! mAla pasaMda karavA jevo hoya ja nahIM. mATe A pasaMda karavAno nathI, A tAre to ukela lAvavAno che. A karmono hisAba cUkate karavAno che te ukela lAvavAno che. tyAre loka laherathI jANe dhaNI-dhaNiyANI thavA phare che. alyA mUA, ukela lAvane ahIMthI. je te raste kleza ocho thAya evI rIte ukela lAvavAno. praznakartA : dAdA, ene evo saMyoga thayo haze, te hisAbano ja thayo haze ne ? dAdAzrI : hisAba vagara to A bheguM ja nA thAyane ! pAMjarAmAM DhebaruM mUke, te pachI jeTalAM pakaDAyAM eTalAM sAcAM. te lAlacu phasAya A duniyAmAM. lAlaca ja rAkhavI nahIMne ! ApaNane je maLyuM enI para ThIka che, ApaNe ropha mAravo ! A badhA sukhane hAru paiNe che, paNa mahIM duHkhI thAya che bicArA. kAraNa ke sukhI thavuM, duHkhI thavuM e potAnA hAthanI vAta nathI. e pUrve karelAM karmanAM AdhIna ja che. emAM chUTako nathI. e bhogavavAM ja paDaze. saMsAra che eTale ghA to paDavAnA ja ne ? ne baIsAheba paNa kaheze kharAM ke have ghA rUjhAze nahIM. paNa saMsAramAM paDe eTale pAchA ghA rUjhAI jAya. mUchitapaNuM kharuM ne ? mohane laIne mUchitapaNuM che. mohane laIne ghA rUjhAI jAya. jo ghA nA rUjhAya to to vairAgya ja AvI jAya ne ! moha zenuM nAma kahevAya ? badhA anubhava bahu thayA hoya paNa bhUlI jAya. 'Divorsa' letI vakhate nakkI kare ke have koI strIne paraNavuM nathI, toya pharI pAcho jhaMpalAve ! zAdI (lagna) be rUpe pariNAma pAme : koI vakhata AbAdImAM jAya, to koI vakhata barabAdImAM jAya. zAdI karI, zAdIphaLa cAkhyAM, have 'vItarAga' rahevAnuM che. A to AMbAnA phaLa cAkhyAM ke khATAM che to pachI kAyama nIce besI rahevuM ke Avate varSe AMbo mITho thaze ? nA, e to kAyama khATo ja raheze. ema A saMsAra e khATo ja che. paNa mohane lIdhe bhUlI jAya che. mAra khAdhA pachI pharI moha caDhI jAya che. e ja bhulabhulAmaNI che. jo svarUpanuM ajJAna gayuM ne 'svarUpajJAna' maLI jAya to e bhulabhulAmaNI pajave nahIM. 'jJAnI puruSa' AtmajJAna ApI de eTale bhulabhulAmaNImAMthI chUTe ne mokSano sikko vAgI jAya ! eTale dhaNIe pAchA sArI vahu khoLe che. alyA mUA, A vakhatamAM atyAre jema-tema nikAla lAvI nAkhavAno. ahIM gADImAM besIe ne, te joDe besanAroya pAMsaro sAro nA hoya. e jarAka tame saLI karo tyAre khabara paDe. mATe atyAre jema tema karIne A gADI pasAra karavAnI. atyAre kaMI A pharsTa klAsa che ? sekanDa klAsa che A badhA ! je pharsTa klAsa pesejanTa dhaNI hatA ne te judA hatA. tyAre strIo che te sItA jevI hatI. dhaNI rAmanA jevA hatA tyAre to, atyAre A kaMI badhA pharsTa klAsano mAla che ? zuM kaho cho ? huM, atyAre to kaLiyugano mAla te jema tema karIne kleza na vadhe evI rIte nikAla karI nAkhavAno. kleza to thavAno ja che paNa na vadhe evI rIte nikAla karI nAkhavAno. praznakartA : huM emane bolato hato ke ApaNA pariNita jIvanamAM navvANuM TakA kajoDAM che. dAdAzrI : haMmezAM jene kajoDuM kahevAmAM Ave chene, kaLiyugamAM jo kajoDuM thayeluM hoya to e kajoDuM che to UMce laI jAya ke kAM to sAva adhogatimAM laI jAya. bemAMthI eka kAryakArI hoya ane sajoDuM kAryakArI nA hoya. kajoDuM thayuM eTale UMcI gatimAM laI jAya. ane sajoDuM Ama rajhaLapATa to karAvaDAve, joDe joDe. praznakartA: A duSamakALanI aMdara eno prabhAva ja evo ne kajoDuM hoya to e UMce javAnI zakyatAo keTalI ?

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(20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAnAM 423 424 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : ochI. A kALamAM nIce vadhAre javAnA. eTale A to badhuM AvuM ja che. A kALa ja evo che. ame kaI rIte jItyA chIe e ame ja jANIe chIe. praznakartA : e ja badhAne jaNAvo ne, e ja badhAne jANavuM che. dAdAzrI : atyAreya hIrAbA ahIM AgaLa namaskAra karI, darzana karene roja savAramAM, roja rAtre darzana karI, mAthe paga-baga melAvaDAvI ane pachI che te vidhi kare che. amAro atyAreya vyavahAra AvI che. amAro vyavahAra bagADelo nahIM ne ! kajoDAne zuM hovuM joIe ke e bagaDe to ApaNe zAMta rahevuM joIe, jo ApaNe bhAre chIe to. paNa e bagaDe ne ApaNe bagaDIe emAM rahyuM zuM? praznakartA : paNa dAdA, e jAtanI sthiratA kyAMthI lAvavI ? evI samaja kyAre Ave ? dAdAzrI : hA, barAbara che, e sthiratA to nA Ave. samajaNa nA Ave tethI to A badhuM adhogatimAM janAro mAla che ! tethI ame jJAna ApI daIene jhaTapaTa. he bhAratIya ! Divorsa lenAra; AryatvatA kyAM gayA saMskAra? praznakartA : Divorsa evA kayA saMjogomAM thAya ke Divorsa levAya ? dAdAzrI : A Divorsa to hamaNAM nIkaLyuM, baLyuM. pahelAM Divorsa hatA ja kyAM che ? praznakartA: atyAranA to thAya che ne ? eTale kayA saMjogomAM e badhuM karavuM? dAdAzrI : kaMI meLa paDato nA hoya to chUTuM thaI javuM sAruM. eDajasTebala ja nA hoya to chUTuM thaI javuM sAruM. ane nahIM to ame to eka ja vastu kahIe, 'eDajasTa evarIvhera'. kAraNa ke guNAkAra gaNavA nA jazo ke be jaNane 'Avo che ne tevo che. praznakartA H A amerikAmAM je Divorsa le che e kharAba kahevAya? banatuM nA hoyane e loko Divorsa le che te ? dAdAzrI : Divorsa levAno artha ja zuM che te ? A kaMI kaparakAbIo che ? kapa-rakAbIo vaheMcAya nahIM, ene Divorsa nA karAya, to A mANasono strIono to Divorsa karAto haze ? e lokone, amerikanone mATe cAle, paNa tame to inDiyana kahevAo. jyAM eka patnIvrata ne eka pativratanA niyamo hatA. eka patnI sivAya bIjI strIne joIza nahIM evuM kahe, evA vicAro hatA, tyAM DivorsanA vicAro zobhe ? Divorsa (pachI bIjA joDe paraNyA) eTale A eThAM vAsaNo badalavAM. khAdhelAM eThAM vAsaNa hoya to bIjAne ApavAM pAchAM, pachI trIjAne ApavAM, naryA eThAM vAsaNo badalyA karavAM, enuM nAma Divorsa. game che tane Divorsa ? kUtarAM-jAnavaro badhAMya DivorsavALA che ane A pAchA mANaso emAM peThA eTale pachI phera zo rahyo ? mANasa bIsTa (jAnavara) tarIke rahyo. ApaNA hindustAnamAM to eka lagna karyA pachI bIjuM lagna nahotA karatA. e jo patnI marI jAya to lagna paNa nA kare evA mANaso hatA. kevA pavitra mANaso janmelA ! praznakartA H ahIMyAM amerikAmAM badhA jarAka kaMIka thAya ne tarata chUTAcheDA laI le che, to emanI gayA bhavanI bhaDaka pesI gayelI haze eTale le che e ? - dAdAzrI : nA, bebhAnapaNAmAM, bhAna ja nathI ne ! are, chUTAcheDA lenArAne huM kalAkamAM samo karI ApuM pAcho ! chUTAcheDA levAnA hoya ne, tene mArI pAse lAve to huM eka ja kalAkamAM samAM karI ApuM. eTale pAchA e beu jaNA coMTI ja rahe. khAlI aNasamajaNanI bhaDaka. ghaNA chUTA paDI gayelA AmAM rAge paDI gayA.

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426 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAnAM 425 ghaNA loka to ema kahe, ame (chUTA paDavAnI) taiyArImAM ja hatA ane tame bhegA karI ApyA. te have be vagara amane gamatuM nathI, kahe che. khAlI samajavAmAM bhUla che. samajatAM ja nathI AvaDatuM, bolatAM ja nathI AvaDatuM. hindustAnamAM kaI phemilImAM jhaghaDA nathI, gharamAM ? to mAre keTalAka vakhata to beune samajaNa pADI pADIne rAge pADI devuM paDe. chUTAcheDA levAnI taiyArIo ja cAlatI hoya. keTalAya mANasone AvuM ! zuM thAya te paNa ? chUTako ja nahIM ne ! aNasamajaNathI badhuM chUTuM thaI jAya ane potAnuM jhAleluM choDe nahIM ane badhI vAta aNasamajaNanI hoya. emAM pachI huM samajaNa pADuM tyAre kaheze, nA. tyAre to evuM nathI, evuM nathI. praznakartA : Ameya bhegA hoya paNa chUTA jevA ja rahetA hoya. dAdAzrI : evuM chUTAcheDA jevuM ja. praznakartA : tame badhAne bhegA karI ApyA. dAdAzrI : eka avatAra nabhe ke nA nabhe ? ukela lAvone jyAM tyAMthI. eka avatAra mAthe paDyA to mAthe paDelAnI joDe ukela nA lAvavo joIe ? ApaNA saMskAra che A to. laDatA laDatA eMsI varSa thAya beune, toya paNa marI gayA pachI teramAne dA'De saravaNI kare. saravaNImAM kAkAne A bhAvatuM hatuM, te bhAvatuM hatuM, badhuM muMbaIthI maMgAvIne mUke. tyAre eka chokaro hatone, te kAkIne kahe che, eMsI varSanA kAkIne, 'mAjI, A kAkAe to tamane cha mahinA upara pADI nAkhyA hatA. to tame te ghaDIe avaLuM bolatA hatA kAkAnuM.' toya paNa AvA dhaNI pharI nahIM maLe', evuM kahe e DosImA. AkhI jiMdagInA anubhavamAM khoLI kADhe ke paNa aMdarakhAne bahu sArA hatA. A prakRti vAMkI hatI paNa aMdarakhAne.... praznakartA : sArA hatA. dAdAzrI : eTale AvA dhaNI pharI nahIM maLe evI zodhakhoLa karatAM AvaDe. tyAre keTalI zodhakhoLa badhI haze? khabara nA paDe bhaI, aMdarakhAne kevA hatA te ! A to badhI prakRti A. cIDAya che e badhuM. paNa A ApaNA hindustAnanA saMskAra ! ke mAjI zuM kahe che ? pADI nAkhyA e vAta judI hatI, paNa mane evA dhaNI nahIM maLe ! A hindustAnanuM Arya nArItva ! ane phorenamAM to viliyama merI joDe paiNIne Avyo ane pAMcasAta dahADA pachI Tebala upara matabheda paDe eTale pelo kaheze, yu, yu, yu (8) pelo Ama ghoMghATe. tyAre pelInoya pachI mijAja jAya. yu, yu, yu e bacakAM bhare pAchI. tyAra horo pelo baMduka laI Ave mUo ! eTale tyAMthI ja 'Divorsa thaI jAya. e kyAM ne ApaNe Aryo kyAM ? anArya prajA e anADI nathI. e anArya che, ApaNe Aryo ane AryomAM je atyAre bagaDI gayelo mAla che e badhA anADI thaI gayA che. tyAre ApaNAM loka kahe che, anADI jevo che. tyAre meM kahyuM, e ja anADI. anArya mANasane alaMkArika bhASAmAM na bolavuM hoya to anADI mUo che kahevAya. loka ApaNI noMdha kare evuM ApaNuM jIvana hovuM joIe. ApaNe InDiyana chIe, ApaNe phorenarsa nathI. ApaNe strIne nabhAvIe. strI ApaNane nabhAve, ema karatAM karatAM eMsI varSa sudhI cAle. ane pelI (phorenarsa) to eka kalAka nA nabhAve ane peloya kalAka nA nabhAve. ApaNe saMskArI puraSo chIe. ApaNe Arya prajA chIe. anADIpaNuM dekhAya te bahu khoTuM dekhAya. emanA AcAra-vicAra, khorAka-borAka badhAmAM pheraphAra, anArya jevo ane ApaNo khorAka Aryano. paNa e anArya to anADI thayA nathI paNa ApaNA loko anADI thaI gayA. te A badhuM nA zobhe ApaNane. je zobhe nahIM e kArya karIe to ApaNI je DijhAIna (citra) hatI e badalAI jAya. Arya pramANe DijhAIna hatI e paNa badalAI jAya. eTale jIvana pheravavuM joIe ke nA pheravavuM joIe, bena ? praznakartA : pheravavuM joIe.

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(20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAnAM 427 428 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : e ja huM pheravavAvALo chuM. jIvana jIvatAM zIkho, sukhI thAva badhAM, chokarA sArA thAya, chokarAone saMskAra sArA paDe. praznakartA H amAruM kaMIka tame joI kAcuM lAge che. dAdAzrI : amane jJAnIone badhuM mahIM dekhAya, aMdara dekhAya badhuM, A badhuM zuM cAlI rahyuM che te. eTale pachI ame kahI daIe badhuM ane pachI pheraphAra karI ApIe ! kaLiyugamAM bagaDe saMsAra, bagaDI bAjI jJAtathI sudhAra ! sahu sahunI prakRtinA phaTAkaDA phUTe che. A phaTAkaDA kyAMthI AvyA ? praznakartA: sahu sahunI prakRtinA che. dAdAzrI : ane ApaNe jANIe ke 'A ja phUTaze tyAre surasuriyuM ja thaI gayuM hoya ! surasura surasuriyuM thaI jAya. te mUo surasuriyo thaI jAya che ? praznakartA : thAya, dAdA. dAdAzrI : hA. eTale Ane eDajasTa karI lo. jJAna nA hoya tyAM sudhI nA cAle e pAchuM, mAre samajaNa pADa pADa karavI paDe roja, vyavahArikatA, paNa have ApaNuM jJAna maLyA pachI vyavahArika jJAna nA hoya tene mAre bahu mAthAkUTa karavI paDe. AzIrvAda ApavA paDe, paNa tame kaMTrolebala thaI gayA have. eTale have huM AvatI sAla AvuM te pahelAM tamAre kahI devAnuM ke 'ame be eka ja chIe, dAdA joI lo.' AvatI sAla A bhavADA nA thavA joIe. badhe jyAM ne tyAM bhavADA thAya. keTalA dahADA DhAMka DhAMka karIe, badhe bhavADI tyAM ? have e nA hovA joIe. dAdAnuM vijJAna ApaNI pAse AvyuM. zAMtino upAya Apyo, AnaMdano upAya ! ane mana bUma pADe ke "keTaluM badhuM bolI gayA, keTaluM badhuM e thaI gayuM.' tyAre 'sUI jAne, e hamaNe rUjhAI jaze' kahIe. rUjhAI jAya tarata... te khabho thAbaDIe eTale sUI jAya. tAre rUjhAI gayuM ne badhuM, nahIM ? ghA paDelA che ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : baIe ghA pADyA, dhaNIe ghA pADyA, badhAe ghA pADa pADa karyA ! te ghA pADelA badhA rUjhAI gayA, e evA hase che badhA dAMta dekhAya ! kevA ghA pADatA'tA, nahIM ? are, ToNA mAre !! ToNA A pAchA meNA judA. A amerikano ne meNA-ToNA nA AvaDe. A akkalanA kothaLAone bahu meNA-ToNA AvaDe. tame meNAM-ToNAM sAMbhaLelA ? potAne zuM du:kho paDyA, e badhuM potAnI pAse noMdha hoyane ? e ghA jaladI rUjhAya nahIMne ? ane jJAnI puruSa pAse to ahIM duHkha hoya ja nahIMne ! duHkha hoya toya jatuM rahe ! ghA badhA rUjhAI jAya ! praznakartA : jhaghaDo thAya to paNa bharelo mAla nIkaLe ? dAdAzrI : jhaghaDo thAya tyAre mahIM navo mAla pese. paNa te A ApaNuM jJAna ApyA pachI bharelo mAla nIkaLI jAya. praznakartA : Ama to mANasa jhaghaDo karato hoyane to huM pratikramaNa karatI hou to ? dAdAzrI : vAMdho nahIM. praznakartA: to bharelo mAla nIkaLI jAyane badho ? dAdAzrI : to to badho nIkaLI jAya. pratikramaNa jyAM hoya tyAM mAla nIkaLI jAya. pratikramaNa ekalo ja upAya che A jagatamAM. praznakartA : pheraphAra thAya eTale samajAya, dAdA sAcA ja che, to ja pheraphAra thAya. dAdAzrI : tArAmAM thayone ! praznakartA : hA, emanuM tela kADhI nAkhatI. meM kahyuM, dAdA nA maLyA

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(20) pariNAmo, chUTAcheDAnAM 429 43 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra hota to Divorsa karate kadAca. dAdAzrI : ema ? darekanA gharamAM zAMti thaI gaI ! zAMti nahotI te thaI gaI ! dhaNI vaDhe to zuM karuM tuM have ? praznakartA : samabhAve nikAla karI devAno. dAdAzrI : ema ! jatI nA rahuM have ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to eTalI sArI kahevAya ne ? praznakartA : eTalA enA mA-bApanA saMskAra. dAdAzrI : nahIM, tamAruM puNya sAruM jora kare che. pahelI sadI nahIM, paNa bIjI sadI ne ! praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : e jatA rahe tyAre zuM karuM tuM have ? mane tArI joDe nahIM phAve to ? praznakartA : bolAvI lAvavAnA. mAphI mAMgIne, page lAgIne bolAvI lAvavAnuM. dAdAzrI : hA, bolAvI lAvavAnA. aTAvI-paTAvIne mAthe hAtha mUkI, mAthe hAtha pheravI. Ama Ameya karavuM ke cUpa pAchuM. akkalathI ja kAma thatuM hoya to akkala vAparavI. pachI bIje dahADe ApaNane kahe, "jo mArA pagane aDI hatIne ?" to e vAta judI hatI, kahIe. tame kema bhAgI jatA'tA, gAMDAM kADhatA hatA, tethI aDI. e jANe ke A kAyamane mATe aDI. e to tatparatI, ona dhI momenTa (tantraNa) hatI !! praznakartA : dAdA, mAre to pahelI vAIpha hatI enI joDe dasa varSa sudhI korTa cAlI. dAdAzrI : pachI ? praznakartA : pachI sahu sahune ghera. dAdAzrI : pachI A vAIphanI korTa nathI thaIne ?

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432 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (21) saptapadIno sAra ? saMsAranA sarve khAtAmAM khoTa, jJAtI' maLe, ta rahe kyAMya oTa ! A jIvanano hetu zuM haze, e samajAya che ? kaMIka hetu to haze ne ? nAnA hatA, pachI paiDA thAya che ne pachI nanAmI kADhe che. nanAmI kADhe che tyAre ApeluM nAma laI le che. ahIM Ave ke tarata nAma ApavAmAM Ave che, vyavahAra calAvavA ! jema DrAmAmAM bhartuhari nAma Ape che ne ? 'DAmA' pUro eTale nAma pUruM. ema A vyavahAra calAvavA nAma Ape che ane e nAma upara baMgalA, moTara, paiso rAkhe che ane nanAmI kADhe che tyAre enI japtI thaI jAya che. loko jIvana gujAre che ne pachI gujarI jAya che ! A zabdo ja 'iTaselpha' kahe che ke A badhI avasthAo che, gujAro eTale vATakharcA ! have A jIvanano hetu mojazokha haze ke pachI paropakAra mATe haze ? ke pachI zAdI karIne ghara calAvavuM e hetu che? A zAdI to pharajiyAta hoya che. koIne pharajiyAta zAdI na hoya to zAdI nA thAya. paNa nA chUTake zAdI thAya che ne ? A badhuM zuM nAma kADhavAno hetu che ? AgaLa sItA ne evI satIo thaI gayelI, te nAma kADhI gayelI. paNa nAma to ahIMnuM ahIM ja rahevAnuM che ne joDe zuM laI javAnuM che ? tamArI gUMco ! jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA A kALamAM nA hoya. mokSano mArga to javA do, paNa jIvana jIvatAM to AvaDavuM joIene ? vAto ja samajavAnI che. ke A raste AvuM che ne A raste AvuM che. pachI nakkI karavAnuM che ke kaye raste javuM? nA samajAya to 'dAdA'ne pUchavuM, to 'dAdA' tamane batAvaze ke A traNa rastA jokhamavALA che ne A rasto binajokhamI che te raste amArA AzIrvAda laIne cAlavAnuM che. paiNelA jANe ke ApaNe to A phasAyA, UlaTA ! nA paiNelA jANe ke A loko to phAvI gayA ! A banne vacceno gALo koNa kADhI Ape ? ane paiNyA vagara cAle evuMya nathI A jagata ! to zA mATe paiNIne duHkhI thavAnuM ? tyAre kahe, duHkhI nathI thatA, espIrIyansa (anubhava) le che. saMsAra sAco che ke khoTo che, sukha che ke nathI, e hisAba kADhavA mATe saMsAra che. tame thoDoka hisAba kADhyo ? praznakartA : meM hisAba nathI kADhayo. dAdAzrI : e hisAba kADhavAno. ame AkhI jiMdagI hisAba ja kADha-kADha karyo. mane samajAI gayuM ke A badhA khAtAM khoTanAM che. vepAra avaLo pakaDyo che ApaNe ! tyAra pachI inDipenDanTa (svataMtra) thavAyuM. AkhuM jagata ghANI svarUpa che. puruSo baLadanI jagyAe che ne strIo ghAMcInI jagyAe che. pelAmAM ghAMcI gAya ne ahIM strI gAya ne baLadiyo AMkhe dAbaDA ghAlIne tAnamAM ne tAnamAM cAle ! goLa goLa pharyA kare. tevuM Akho dahADo A bahAra kAma kare. te jANe ke, kAzIe pahoMcI gayA hoIzuM !! te dAbaDA kholIne jue to bhAI TheranA Thera !! pachI e baLadane zuM kare pelI ghAMcI ! pachI khoLanuM DhekuM baLadiyAne khavaDAve eTale baLadiyo khuza thaIne pharI cAlu thaI jAya pAcho. tema AmAM A bairI hAMDavAnuM DheDuM ApI de eTale bhAI nirAMte khaIne cAlu ! bAkI A dahADA zI rIte kADhavA eya muzkela thaI paDyuM che. dhaNI Ave ne kaheze ke, "mArA hArTamAM duHkhe che.' chokarAM Ave ne kaheze ke, " nApAsa thayo." dhaNIne hArTamAM dukhe che tyAre ene vicAra Ave ke "hArTa pheIla" thaI jaze to zuM thaze, badhA ja vicAro pharI vaLe. jaMpavA nA de. 'jJAnI puruSa' A saMsArajALamAMthI chUTavAno rasto dekhADe. mokSano mArga dekhADe ane rastA upara caDhAvI de ane ApaNane lAge ke ApaNe

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433 434 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (21) saptapadIno sAra ? A upAdhimAMthI chUTyA ! paiyAnI kiMmata kyAre hota ? lAkhomAM huM eka ja paraNata ! paiNavAnI kiMmata kyAre hota ? lAkho mANasomAM ekAda jaNane paiNavAnuM maLyuM hoya to. A to badhA ja paiNe emAM zuM ? strI-puruSano (paraNyA pachIno) vyavahAra kema karavo, enI to bahu moTI kaoNleja che, A to bhaNyA vagara paiNI jAya che. tamAre mokSe javuM hoya to jajo ne nA javuM hoya to nA jazo, paNa ahIM tamArI gUMconA badhA ja khUlAsA karI jAo. ahIM to dareka jAtanA khulAsA thAya. A vyavahArika khulAsA thAya che toya vakIlo paisA le che ! paNa A to amUlya khUlAso, enuM mUlya nA hoya. A badho gUMcALo che ! ane te tamane ekalAne ja che ema nathI, AkhA jagatane che. "dha varlDa Ijha dha pajhala iTaselpha'. A 'varlDa' 'iTaselpha pajhala' thayeluM che. praznakartA : eka lekhake kahyuM che ke A lagna eka evo killo che ke je bahAra che e aMdara javA icche che ane aMdara je che e bahAra nIkaLavA icche che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa zuM kare che ? evuM chene ke. eka dAkhalo ApuM. ahIM eka gokhalAmAM nAno vIMchI besI rahelo. have ahIM AgaLa eka mANasane kaMI vaoNmiTa ke evuM tevuM kazuM thaI gayuM ke jene mATe bhamarInA daranI jarUra paDI. kazuMka darda evuM thaI gayuM ke bhamarInuM dara jo kadI ene Ama dara ghasIne Apene, to besI jAya che. te pachI pelA bhAInI tabiyata bagaDelI. te ene kahyuM ke bhaI, ahIM bhamarInuM dara khoLI kADho. pachI gokhalAmAM bhamarInuM dara dekhAyuM eTale UMcA paga karIne Ama hAtha ghAlyo, te bhamarI to enA daramAM hatI nahIM. paNa tyAM vIMchI besI rahelo. teNe DaMkha mAryo. have DaMkha mAryo eTale pelo pAcho Avyo ke baLyuM. mArAthI UkhaDI nahIM, kahe che. bIjo kahe che, mUrkha eTaluM nA UkhaDyuM ? le UkhADI ApuM, kahe che. te pelAe hAtha ghAlyo ane vIMchIe DaMkha mAryo to eNe kahyuM ke mane kema kahyuM nahIM ? tyAre kahe, nA, e tuM to akkalavALo chuM, A tArI akkala tane dekhADI ApuM. evuM A jagata che ! vera cUkavAya jyAM, te saMsAra, pramANapatra vitAtA bharathAra ! A saMsAra badho hisAba cUkavavAnuM kArakhAnuM che. vera to sAsu thaIne, vahu thaIne, chokaro thaIne, chevaTe baLada thaIne paNa cUkavavuM paDe. baLada lIdhA pachI rUpiyA bAraso cUkavyA pachI bIje divase e marI jAya ! evuM che A jagata !! anaMta avatAra veramAM ne veramAM gayA che ! A jagata verathI khaDuM rahyuM che ! to gharamAMya vera bAMdhe ane amuka loko e gharamAM vera nA bAMdhe, bahAra jhaghaDo karI Ave. e jANe ke ApaNe to AnI A ja oraDImAM AnI ja joDe rAte paDI rahevAnuM che, tyAM jhaghaDo karyo kema pAlave ? jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA zuM che ke saMsAramAM vera nA baMdhAya ne chuTI javAya. te nAsI to A bAvA-bAvalIo jAya che ja ne ? bAkI, nAsI nA javAya. A to jIvanasaMgrAma che, janmathI ja saMgrAma cAlu ! tyAM loka mojamajhAmAM paDI gayuM che. bhayaMkara AMdhIoto Ave kALa, jJAtI cetave zraddhAthI kara pAra ! kALa vicitra AvI rahyo che. AMdhIo upara AMdhIo thavAnI che ! mATe cetatA rahejo. A jema pavananI AMdhIo Ave che ne tevI kudaratanI AMdhI AvI rahI che. manuSyone mAthe mahAmuzkelIo che. zenA AdhAre jIvI rahyA che, tenI potAne samajaNa nathI. potAnI jAtanI zraddhA paNa jatI rahI che ! have zuM thAya ? jene potAnI jAta upara vizvAsa che tene A jagatamAM badhuM ja maLe evuM che, paNa A vizvAsa ja nathI Avato ne keTalAkane to eya vizvAsa UDI gayo hoya che ke 'A vAIpha mArI joDe raheze ke nahIM rahe ? pAMca varasa nabhaze ke nahIM nabhe ?" alyA, A paNa vizvAsa nahIM ? vizvAsa tUTyo eTale khalAsa. vizvAsamAM to anaMta zakti che. bhalene ajJAnatAmAM

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(21) saptapadIno sAra ? 435 436 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra vizvAsa hoya. 'mAruM zuM thaze' thayuM ke khalAsa ! A kALamAM loka bagavAI gayelA hoya che. doDato doDato Avato hoya tene pUchIe ke 'tAruM nAma zuM che ?" to e bagavAI jAya ! A rIte kema poSAya te ? anaMta zaktino dhaNI mahIM beTho che ane A dazA AvI hotI haze ? paNa AvaDyuM nahIM tenuM A thayuM, vahu thatAM nA AvaDyuM, bApa thatAM nA AvaDyuM, chokaro thatAM nA AvaDyuM, kazI bAbatamAM AvavuM nahIM. tenI ja A Dakhala che. dharma vastu to pachI karavAnI che paNa pahelI jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA jANo ne zAdI karatAM pahelAM bApa thavAnuM lAyakAtapatra meLavo. eka 'injina' lAvIe, emAM peTrola nAkhIe ane calAva-calAva karIe, paNa e 'miniMga-lesa' jIvana zuM kAmanuM ? jIvana to hetusara hovuM joIe. A to 'injina' cAlyA kare, cAlyA ja kare, e nirarthaka nA hovuM joIe. ene paTTo joDI Ape toya kaMIka daLAya. paNa A to AkhI jiMdagI pUrI thAya chatAM kazuM daLAtuM nathI ane uparathI AvatA bhavanA vAMka UbhA kare che. A to badhuM banAvaTI jagata che ! ne gharamAM kakaLATa karI, raDI ane pachI moDhuM dhoIne bahAra nIkaLe !! ApaNe pUchIe, 'kema nagInadAsa ?" tyAre e kahe, 'bahu sAruM che." alyA, tArI AMkhamAM to pANI che. moTuM dhoIne Avyo hoya, paNa AMkha to lAla dekhAya ne ? enA karatAM kahI nAkhane ke mAre tyAM A du:kha che. A to badhA ema jANe ke bIjAne tyAM duHkha nathI, mAre tyAM ja che. nA, alyA badhA ja raDyA che. ekeeka gherathI raDIne moDhA dhoIne bahAra nIkaLyA che. Aya eka ajAyabI che ! moDhA dhoIne zuM kAma nIkaLo cho ? dhoyA vagara nIkaLe to lokone khabara paDe ke A saMsAramAM keTaluM sukha che ? huM raDato bahAra nIkaLuM, tuM raDato bahAra nIkaLe, badhA raDatA bahAra nIkaLe eTale khabara paDI jAya ke A jagata poluM ja che. nAnI uMmaramAM bApa marI gayA te smazAnamAM raDatA raDatA gayA ! pAchA AvIne nahAyA eTale kazuM ja nahIM ! nahAvAnuM A lokoe zIkhavADeluM, navaDAvI-dhovaDAvIne cokhkho karI Ape ! evuM A jagata che !! badhA moDhAM dhoIne bahAra nIkaLelA, badhA pAkA Thaga. enA karatAM khulluM karyuM hoya to sAruM. saMsAra jyama zakkariyuM bharADe, kyAMthI sukha emAM ? bhrAMtimAM pADe ! A saMsAramAM to mahIM ja dhabaDako paDe. ghaDIvAra zAMti nahIM ne pAcho raheto babbe lAkhanA phaleTamAM. mUA zI rIte jIve che teya ajAyabI chene ? paNa kare zuM ? dariyAmAM paDe ? te ya sarakArI guno che. bhogavye ja chUTako thAya ne ! zakkariyuM bharavADamAM baphAya tema loka cogaradamathI rAtadA'Do baphAyA kare che. te A bharahADamAMthI kyAM nAse ? 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse beTho eTale agni zAMta thAya ne kAma nIkaLe. saMsAra to pratyakSa agni che. koIne lahAya baLe to koIne jhALa lAge ! AmAM te sukha hotuM haze ? AmAM jo sukha hota to cakravartI rAjAo 1300 rANIo choDIne nAsI nA gayA hota ! eno ja to bhAre trAsa emane ! tethI to choDIne nAsI gayA. rAjapATa ne vaibhava choDIne 'jJAnI"nI pAchaLa doDelA ! ne Aje eka ja rANI choDato nathI ! ne AvA kaLiyuganA kALamAM rANI to kevI hoya ke savAranA pahoramAM AvaDI moTI copaDe ! kahe ke "savAramAM zAne cA DhIMco cho ?" saMsAranI vikarALatA jo samajAI jAya to mokSanI icchA tIvra thAya. saMsAranI vikarALatA e to mokSa mATenuM kAunTara-veiTa (samakakSIya tola) che. Aje vikarALatA lAge che, chatAMya pAcho mUrchAthI mUDha mAra khAya che. pAchuM lAge ke haze bhAI, AvatI kAle sudharaze. pittaLa sudharIne sonuM thaze kharuM ? nA, e to kyAreya paNa sonuM nA thAya. tethI AvA saMsAranI vikarALatA samajI levAnI che. A to ema ja samaje che ke AmAMthI huM kaMI sukha laI AvuM chuM. Ama karIza eTale kaMIka sukha maLaze. paNa tyAMya mAra khAya che. A vikalpI sukho mATe bhaTaka bhaTaka kare che, paNa bairI sAmI thAya tyAre e sukhanI khabara paDe ke A saMsAra bhogavavA jevo nathI. paNa A to tarata ja mUchita thaI jAya ! mohano ATalo mAra khAya che, tenuM bhAna paNa rahetuM nathI.

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(21) saptapadIno sAra ? 437 438 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra apamAna bhUlya vairaNa kyAMthI, saMsAra phasAmaNa, na ko' sAthI ! A saMsAramAM badhAe evo mAra khAdhelo che, toya paNa vairAga nathI Avato eya eka ajAyabI che ne ? evo ne evo mAra, koI bIjI jAtano, trIjI jAtano, badho saMsAra mAra ja khAya che. mAra eTale lapakA kare, tuMkArA kare, matabheda paDe, eya mAra kahevAya. chatAMya vairAga nathI Avato. vairAga eTale pote je mAra khAdhelo te yAda Ave che. yAda Ave to vairAga thAya. yAda ja nA Ave to pachI vairAga zI rIte thAya ? samajAyuM tamane ke nA samajAyuM ? praznakartA: 'yAda Ave te vairAga' e mArA magajamAM besatuM na hatuM. dAdAzrI : yAda ja nA Ave tene pachI vairAga zAno Ave ? roja gALo bhAMDe ne sAMje yAda nA Ave to vairAga zAno Ave ? mane to jJAna thatAM pahelAM eTaluM badhuM yAda rahetuM hatuM ke badhI bAbatamAM niraMtara vairAga ja raheto hato. praznakartA : eTale jeTalI yAdazakti eTalo vairAga. dAdAzrI : hA, barAbara che. A loko roja saMDAsa jAya che, paNa koI dahADo vairAga koIne joyo tame ? yAdazakti ja nahIM tethI. bahAra nIkaLe ke pachI badhuM bhUlI gayo pAchuM ! bebhAna lokone zuM pUchavAnuM? ane bhAnavALo to bhale ja nahIM ke AvuM sAluM eMThavADo ne A jAtanuM jIvana ! ane temAM te pachI hAtha ghAle ja nahIM ne ! praznakartA : paNa yAdazakti e to rAga-dveSathI UbhI thAya che ne? dAdAzrI : e vAta judI che. A to A dazAnI vAta karIe. mane hIrAbAe eka phero apamAna karyuM hoya vakhate ema mAnIne, to AkhI jiMdagI huM cUkuM nahIM. ane 'vairAge'ya laI lauM, vAreya nahIM kaMI. apamAna gaLavA mATe saMsAra che ? ATalI badhI kaDakAI joIe. Ama kema polaMpola cAle e ? apamAna kare te ghaDIe kaDavATa lAge ane pachI bhUlI javAnuM ? kaDavATa lAge ne bhUle, e mANasa te mANasa ja kema kahevAya ? eka phero kaDavATa lAgyo ne pachI bhUlI kema javAya ? zenA AdhAre bhUlI jAya che ? ke pelI bena che te pAchI potAnA bAbAne zIkhavADe ke jA, A pappAjIne kahe ke mammI cA pIvA bolAve che. eTale pelo bAbo AvIne kahe, pappAjI, eTale A cagyo ! eTale kaDavATavALuM kaheluM te bhUlI gayo. AvuM A meNo (dhUna) thAya che. ane A cageya che pAcho. ene jAgRti ja nahIM ne ! bhAna ja nahIMne ! ane pappAjI bole tyAre tanmayAkAra thaI jAya che !! eTale pelo bAbo be vacce sAMdhI ApanAra, AvuM jagata che ! eka phero apamAna thAya te have apamAna sahana karavAno vAMdho nathI, paNa apamAna lakSamAM rAkhavAnI jarUra che ke zuM A apamAnane mATe jIvana che ? apamAnano vAMdho nathI, mAnanIya jarUra nathI ne apamAnanIya jarUra nathI paNa ApaNuM jIvana zuM apamAnane mATe che ? evuM lakSa to hovuM joIene ? praznakartA : e tAMto nA kahevAya ? ApaNe lakSamAM rAkhIe ne bhUlI nA jaIe to e tAMto nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : tAMto nA hoya to vairAga rahe ja nahIMne ! tAMto hovo ja joIe. A to evuM che ke ApaNA mokSamArganI vAtamAM aMdara totAnI jarUra nathI, paNa A to saMsArane mATe vAta karIe chIe, saMsAranA loko mATe A vAta karIe chIe. A vyavahArika vastu che chatAM AmAM Akhoya vyavahAra dharma che. tAMto to vera rAkhe te tAMto kahevAya. ApaNe vera rAkhavAnI jarUra nathI. yAda rAkhavAnI jarUra che, vera nahIM. vItarAga bhAve yAda rAkhavAnuM che. A saMsAranI jhaMjhaTamAM vicArazIlane poSAya nahIM. je vicArazIla

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44) pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (2 1) saptapadIno sAra ? 439 nathI tene to A jhaMjhaTa che enI khabara paDatI nathI, e jADuM khAtuM kahevAya. jema kAne bahero mANasa hoya tenI AgaLa tenI game teTalI khAnagI vAto karIe eno zuM vAMdho ? evuM aMdareya baheruM hoya che badhuM, eTale ene A jaMjALa poSAya. bAkI A jagatamAM majhA khoLavA mAge, te AmAM to vaLI kaMI majhA hotI haze ? patnI rIsAyelI hoya tyAM sudhI "he bhagavAna ! he bhagavAna ! kare ane patnI bolavA AvI eTale pote taiyAra ! pachI bhagavAnane bIjuM badhuM bAjue rahe ! keTalI mUMjhavaNa ! ema kaMI du:kha maTI javAnAM che ? ghaDIvAra tuM bhagavAna pAse jAya to kaMI du:kha maTI jAya ? jeTalo vakhata tyAM rahuM eTalo vakhata mahIM saLagatuM baMdha thaI jAya jarA, paNa pachI pAchI kAyamanI sagaDI saLagyA ja karavAnI. niraMtara pragaTa agni kahevAya, ghaDIvAra paNa zAtA nA hoya ! jayAM sudhI zuddhAtmA svarUpa prApta nA thAya, potAnI dRSTimAM 'huM zuddha svarUpa chuM" evuM bhAna nA thAya tyAM sudhI sagaDI saLagyA ja karavAnI. lagnamAM paNa dIkarI paraNAvatA hoya toya mahIM saLagyA karatuM hoya ! niraMtara baLApo rahe ! saMsAra eTale zuM ? jaMjALa. A deha vaLagyo che teya jaMjALa che ! jaMjALano te vaLI zokha hoto haze ? Ano zokha lAge che eya ajAyabI che ne ! mAchalAMnI jALa judI ne A jALa judI ! mAchalAMnI jALamAMthI kApI karIne nIkaLAya paNa kharuM, paNa AmAMthI nIkaLAya ja nahIM. TheTha nanAmI nIkaLe tyAre nIkaLAya ! sALo, sALAvelI, mAsIsAsu, kAkIsAsu, phoIsAsu, mAmIsAsu keTalAM lapharAM ! ApaNe jANIe ATalI badhI phasAmaNa karaze, nahIM to A mAMgaNI ja nA karata, baLI. ane pachI sAsu eka dA'Do gALo bhAMDene to kaDavuM lAge. gharanAM sagAM sAmAM thAya kharAM, koI dA'Doya ? eya sAmAM thAya kharAM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : tyAre evuM A jagata che badhuM. tethI kRpALudeve ene kAjaLanI koTaDI kahI, pachI emAM koNa rahe ? e to bIjI jagyA che nahIM, eTale emAM paDI rahevuM paDe che ! eTale kaMIka vicAravuM paDaze, Ama kyAM sudhI cAlaze ApaNe ? ane ApaNe inDiyana, A ApaNA to paga dhoIne pIvA joIe evA inDiyana kahevAya. paNa ApaNe tyAM A saMskAra badhA UDI gayA ane mULa jJAna UDI gayuM. eTale A phajeto thayo che ApaNo. are, ApaNI DosIone jIvana jIvavAno rasto pUkyo hota to kaheta ke, 'nirAMte khAo-pIo, utAvaLa zuM kAma karo cho ?" mANasane zenI 'nesesiTI' che, tenI pahelAM tapAsa karavI paDe. bIjI badhI annesesiTI'. e "annesesaTiI"nI vastuo mANasane guMcave, pachI UMghanI goLIo ane phorenavALo to eka jaNa evuM kaheto'to ke inDiyano to A DaoNlara che te, nathI strI bhogavatA, nathI mAMsAhAra karatA. A inDiyanone sukha ja nahIM letAM AvaDatuM, kahe che. ane du:khI pAra vagaranA che. evuM kaheto'to mane. pelo mANasa mAMsAhAra kare ane traNa hajAra pagAra maLato hoyane, te chelle dahADe enI pAse khUTatA hoya ane tame to bAraso rUpiyA bacAvyA hoya e sAruM che, khoTuM nathI. paNa gharamAM prema vadhAro. chokarAM paNa khuza thaI jAya ne bahAra je doDadhAma karatA hoya te ghera AvatA rahe ! vAIpha ane hasabanDa vAto karatAM hoyane to chokarAone game nahIM. Ane to kahe, 'te dahADe mane AvuM kahI gayA hatAne, paNa mArA lAgamAM to AvavA do, 'alyA muA, paiNelA cho, mahIM bhegA paDyA cho, pArTanarazIpa che, phemilI che, chatAM A zuM karavA mAMDyuM che tame lokoe ? pahelAM to adhIMganA kahetA'tA. adhuM aMga che mAruM. ane AvI seipha sAIDa karI che ? buddhinA AzayamAM patnI mAgI, sAsu, sasarA ne... laMgAra lagI! karoLiyo jALuM vIMTIne ane pachI pote mahIM pUrAya. evI rIte A saMsAranuM jALuM. pAchI pote gayA avatAre mAgaNI karI'tI, ApaNe TenDara bharyuM'tuM buddhinA AzayamAM, ke eka vAIpha, chokaro ne chokarI ane be-traNa rUmo ane jarAka nokarI ekAda. ATalI ja vAta buddhinA AzayamAM hatI. tene badale to vAIpha ApI to ApI paNa sAsu, sasaro,

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(2 1) saptapadIno sAra ? 441 442 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra ataMta bhavatA je gUMcavADA, chUTa, 'jJAtI' te karI UghADA ! A to lAIpha badhI 'phrekTara' thaI che. zenA hAru jIve che te bhAreya nathI rahyuM ke A manuSyasAra kADhavA mATe huM jIvuM chuM ! manuSyasAra zuM che ? to ke je gatimAM javuM hoya te gati maLe agara to mokSe javuM hoya to mokSe javAya ! AvA manuSyasAranuM koIne bhAna ja nathI. tethI bhaTaka bhaTaka karyA kare che. have tamArA prazno pUcho, je tamArA gUMcavADA hoyane te badhA pUcho. huM tamane badhA khUlAsA ApuM. huM tamAma prakAranA khUlAsA ApavA Avyo chuM tamane. tame tamArA duHkho mane ApI dezo to huM laI levA taiyAra chuM. sukho tamArI pAse rahevA dejo. jo duHkho ApI do to tame yAda nA karo pharI, mArI AjJA pramANe, to tamArI pAse du:kha nahIM Ave, e vAta nakkI che, enI geranTI ApuM chuM. kAraNa ke badhAM jagatanAM du:kho levA Avyo chuM. kAraNa ke mAre ekalAne tyAM duHkha nathI. mane satyAvIsa varSathI Tenzana rahyuM nathI. eTale tamAre je du:kha hoya te Apo, pachI tame yAda nA karo to, nahIM to pAchuM Avaze eTalI badhI khAtarI hovI joIe tamane ke A dAdAjIe lIdhuM eTale have mAre vAMdho nahIM. pachI tamAruM nAmeya nahIM le. huM nathI kIrti levA Avyo, huM koI cIja levA nathI Avyo, koI jAtanI mane bhIkha nathI, mATe huM AvuM kahuM chuM. tamAre je aDacaNa hoya te mane kaho, tame jAhera karo ane e aDacaNone dUra karo. phakta samajaNanA pherathI ja A gUMcavADA thayA che. dAdAzrI : dasamAMthI nava nahIM, hajAramAM be jaNa sukhI haze, kaMIka zAMtimAM haze. bAkI badhuM rAtadahADo baLyA ja kare che. A zakkariyuM bharavADamAM mUke to keTalI bAjuthI baphAya ? cogaradamathI, tema A AkhuM jagata baphAI rahyuM che. are ! peTrolanI agnithI baLatuM amane amArA jJAnamAM dekhAya che. mATe mUchita thavA jevuM A jagata nathI. mUrchAne lIdhe AvuM jagata dekhAya che ane mAra khaI khaIne marI javAnuM ! bharata rAjAne teraso rANIo hatI. te tenI zI dazA haze ? A ghera eka rANI hoya toya te phajeto karAva karAva kare che, to teraso rANIomAM kyAre pAra Ave ? are, eka rANI jItavI hoya te mahAmuzkela thaI paDe che ! jItAya ja nahIM. kAraNa ke matabheda paDe ke pAcho loco paDI jAya ! bharata rAjAne to teraso rANIo joDe nabhAvavAnuM. rANIvAsamAMthI pasAra thAya to pacAsa rANIonAM moDhAM caDhelAM ! are, keTalIka to rAjAnuM kATaluM ja karI nAkhavA pharatI hoya. manamAM vicAre ke 'phalANI rANIo emanI potAnI ne A parabhArIo ! eTale rasto kaMIka karo.' kaMIka kare te rAjAne mAravA mATe. paNa te pelI rANIone buTTI karavA sAruM ! rAjA upara dveSa nathI, pelI rANIo upara dveSa che. paNa emAM rAjAnuM gayuM ne tuM to rAMDIzane ? tyAre kahe ke, "huM rAMDIza paNa Ane raMDAvuM tyAre kharI ? A amane to badhuM tAdRza dekhAyA kare. A bharata rAjAnI rANInuM tAdeza amane dekhAyA kare. te dahADe kevuM moDhuM caDheluM haze, rAjAnI kevI phasAmaNa haze, rAjAnA manamAM kevI ciMtAo haze, te badhuMya dekhAya ! eka rANI jo teraso rAjAo joDe paiNI hoya to rAjAonAM moDhAM nA caDhe ! puruSane moDhuM caDhAvatAM AvaDe ja nahIM. bharata rAjAe teraso rANIo sAthe AkhI jiMdagI kADhI ane te ja bhave mokSa thayo ! mATe vAtane samajavAnI che. samajIne saMsAramAM raho, bAvA thavAnI jarUra nathI. jo A nA samajAyuM to bAvo thaIne eka khUNAmAM paDI rahe. bAvo to, jene strI joDe saMsAramAM phAvatuM nA hoya te thAya. ane nakAmAM vahunA lapakA khAvA paDe che. bhAgIdAranA lapakA khAvAnA, inkamaTeksa ophisaranA lapakA khAvAnA. jyAM ne tyAM lapakA khA khA kare. zarameya nathI AvatI ke baLyuM, ATalA lapakA khaIne jIvIza, zA AdhAre jIvIza ! paNa te kyAM jAya che ? pachI naThAro thaI jAya ! praznakartA: A badhuM barAbara che, paNa atyAre saMsAramAM joIe to dasamAMthI nava jaNAne du:kha che.

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(2 1) saptapadIno sAra ? 443 444 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra strIthI dUra rahevAya che ke nahIM, evI zakti meLavavA mATenI eka kasarata che. saMsAramAM to 'TesTa ekjhAminezana' che. tyAM 'TesTeDa' thavAnuM che. lokhaMDa paNa 'TesTeDa' thayA vagaranuM cAlatuM nathI, to mokSamAM 'aTesTeDa' cAlatuM haze ? bhAMjagaDa cAlyA ja kare, enuM nAma saMsAra. saMsAra eTale rAgadraSavALo kakaLATa. ghaDImAM rAga ane ghaDImAM dveSa. lokone eka bIbI ja bhAre paDe che, to bIjI karavAnI kaMIthI. meM kahyuM'tuM ke bIjI paiNavI hoya to mane kahIne karajo. chatAM A vijJAna game tene, paiNelAneya mokSe laI jaze, paNa jJAnInI AjJA pramANe cAlavuM joIe. ko'ka magajanI khumArIvALo hoya te kaheze, "sAheba, huM bIjI paiNavA mAguM chuM." jo tAre paiNavuM hoya to mArI AjJA laIne paiNaje ane pachI A pramANe vartaje ! tAruM jora joIe. pahelAM zuM nahotA paiNatA ? bharata rAjAne teraso rANIo hatI toya mokSe gayA ! jo rANIo naDatI hoya to mokSe jAya kharA ? to zuM naDe che ? ajJAna naDe che. ATalA badhA mANaso che, temane kahyuM hota strIo choDI do to e badhA strIo kyAre choData ? ane kyAre emano pAra Avata ? eTale kahyuM, strIo cho rahI ane bIjI paiNavI hoya to mane pUchIne paiNaje, nahIM to pUchyA vagara nA paiNazo. jo chUTa ApI chene badhI ? sAcI samaja sajAve saMsAra, agaru jale maheke apAra ! Ane jIvana kema kahevAya ? jIvana keTaluM suzobhita hoya ! ekaeka mANasanI sugaMdha AvavI joIe. AjubAju kIrti prasarelI hoya ke kahevuM paDe, A zeTha rahe chene, e kevA suMdara ! emanI vAto kevI suMdara !! emanuM vartana kevuM suMdara !!! evI kIrti badhe dekhAya che ? evI sugaMdha Ave che lokonI ? praznakartA : koI koIvAra koI koI lokonI sugaMdha Ave. dAdAzrI : koI koI mANasanI, paNa teya keTalI ? te pAchA ene ghera pUchone, to gaMdhAto hoya, bahAra sugaMdha Ave paNa ene ghera pUcho tyAre kaheze ke, "enuM nAma ja javA do." enI to vAta ja nA karazo. eTale A sugaMdha nA kahevAya. jIvana to helDiMga mATe ja javuM joIe. A agarabattI saLage che, emAM potAnI sugaMdha le che e ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : AkhI jiMdagI saLage tyAM sudhI badhAne sugaMdhI ja Ape chene ! e enA jevuM che. ApaNuM jIvana. badhAne sugaMdhI ApavI joIe. loko vagove eno artha ? loko kaMI paisA levA pharatA nathI ane teya evA mahIM hoya to eneya helpa karavI paDe. A eka gulAbanuM phUla dekhIe chIe toya sarasa gulAba che. ane A manuSya dekhAya to mUA game nahIM ! eka agarabattI ahIM saLagatI hoya to AkhA rUmane sugaMdhI Ape ane A manuSyo gaMdhAya mUA ! kaI jAtanA loka cho tame inDiyano ? gaMdhAya, bahAra koInI sugaMdha ja nathI AvatI, nahIM to paccIsa-paccIsa mAIlanA eriyA sudhI sugaMdha phelAya. nA phelAya sugaMdha ? A agarabattInI phelAya che, to mANasanI phelAya ke nA phelAya ? te vaDodarA zaheramAM tuM rahuM chuM te konI phelAyelI dekhAI ? mUo AvyA ne marI gayA, AvyA ne marI gayA. vakhate kUtarAMya khAyapIne marI jAya che, emAM te zuM karyuM te? manuSyapaNuM khoyuM ! manakho nakAmo gayo. manakho eTale bahu kiMmatI. aciMtya ciMtAmaNI deha, manuSya kahevAya. te A mUA AmAM ja kADhyo ? khANI-pINImAM ja ? ane orata. e orateya pALatA nA AvaDI hoya. enI joDeya rAta-dahADo DakhADakhA, vaDhavADa-vaDhavADe. A saMsAra du:khadAyI nathI, aNasamajaNa ja duHkhadAyI che. te ame tamArI aNasamajaNa kADhI nAkhIe ane tamane samajaNa dekhADI daIe. eTale tamAro saMsAra duHkhadAyI thaI paDe nahIM. eTale ArtadhyAna-raudradhyAna

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(21) saptapadIno sAra ? nA thAya, pachI niraMtara dharmadhyAna rahyA kare. A saMsAra choDavAthI chUTe evo nathI, e jJAnathI chUTe evo che. keTalA vakhatathI jaMjALathI chUTavAnI icchA thAya che ? javAnImAM to chUTavAnI icchA thAya nahIM, javAnImAM to jaMjALa vadhAravAnI icchA thAya ne ? 445 praznakartA : e to buDhApAmAMya chUTavAnI icchA nathI thatI. paNa have ApanA taraphathI kaMI prayatna thAya to chUTAya. dAdAzrI : hA, barAbara che. buDhApAmAMya jaMjALamAMthI chUTavAnI icchA nA thAya evuM che. praznakartA H AmAMthI chUTavAno kaMI rasto ? dAdAzrI : A jaMjALamAMthI chUTavAno rasto e ja ke "ApaNe koNa chIe' e jJAna prApta thaI jAya jJAnI puruSa pAsethI, to chUTI javAya evuM che. jaMjALa koIneya game nahIM. tamane pasaMda paDe che ke A jaMjALa ? praznakartA : nahIM. dAdAzrI : bilakula nahIM ? koI phUlahAra caDhAve to ? praznakartA : e jokhama lAge che. dAdAzrI : jokhama to evuM chene, ke A badhuM jokhama ja che paNa pasaMda to paDe che ne ? mIThuM lAge che ne ? kharI rIte badhI jaMjALo pasaMda nathI, paNa ahIM AgaLa rahevA pUratuM ene thoDI ghaNI pasaMdagI joIe che ke ahIM besuM ke tyAM besuM ? eTale jyAM pasaMda paDe tyAM bese che, enA jevuM che ! A jaMjALamAMthI koIka vakhata chUTavAnI icchA thAya che ke ? jaMjALa game ja nahIM ne ? A to jaMjALamAM peThelA che ! jyAM sudhI nA chUTAya tyAM sudhI A badhuM khAvApIvAnuM, badhA loka karyA kare tevuM karyA karavAnuM. paNa jo chUTavAnuM maLyuM, jJAnI puruSa maLyA to chUTI jAya. A jaMjALamAMthI chUTI jAya eTale paramAnaMda ! mukti !! 446 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra saMsArane tuM myujhiyama mAta, spardhA viNa mAtra 'jo' te 'jANa' ! ane A saMsAra je che e badhuM myujhiyama che, te myujhiyamamAM zarata zuM che ? pesatAM ja lakhelI che ke bhaI, tamAre je khAvuM-pIvuM hoya, bhoga kaMI bhogavavA hoya to aMdara bhogavajo. kazuM bahAra laIne nIkaLavAnuM nahIM. ane vaDhavAnuM nahIM. koInI joDe rAga-dveSa nahIM karavAnA. khAjopIjo badhuM paNa rAga-dveSa nahIM. tyAre A to aMdara jaIne paiNe che. alyA mUA, kyAM paiNyA ? A to bahAra jatI vakhate veSa thaI paDaze ! te A pachI kaheze, huM baMdhAyo. te kAyadA pramANe mahIM jaIe ne khaIe-pIe, strI karIe toya vAMdho nathI. strIne kahI devAnuM jo saMgrahasthAna che, emAM rAga-dveSa nahIM karavAnA. jyAM sudhI anukULa AvyuM tyAM sudhI pharavuM, paNa chevaTe ApaNe rAga-dveSa vagara nIkaLI javAnuM. enI para dveSa nahIM. kAle savAre bIjA joDe pharatI hoya toya ene dveSa nahIM. A saMgrahasthAna AvuM huM che. pachI ApaNe jeTalA jeTalA kImiyA karavA hoya eTalA karo. have saMgrahasthAna nA kADhI naMkhAya. je banI gayuM e kharuM have to. ApaNe saMskArI dezamAM janmyAM ne ! eTale mereja-bereja badhuM paddhatisaranuM. ok ok ok

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448 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (2) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo strI puruSa prAkta paramANu, bharelo mAla khapAvA tiyANuM ! praznakartA : strIone AtmajJAna thAya ke nahIM ? samakita thaI zake ? dAdAzrI : na thAya e kharI rIte, paNa A ame karAvaDAvIe chIe. kAraNa ke e prakRtinuM dhoraNe ja evuM che ke AtmajJAna pahoMce ja nahIM. kAraNa ke strIomAM e kapaTanI graMthi evaDI moTI hoya che, moha ane kapaTanI, e be graMthio AtmajJAnane nA eDavA de. praznakartA : eTale e to vyavasthitano anyAya thayone ? hiMdustAnamAM keTalI ne amerikAmAM keTalIya strIo haze ke dAdA covIsa kalAka yAda ! praznakartA : eTale AtmAne to koI jAti ja nathI ne ? dAdAzrI : AtmAne jAti hoya ja nahIM ne ! prakRtine jAti hoya. UjaLo mAla bharyo hoya to UjaLo nIkaLe. kALo bharyo hoya to kALo nIkaLe. prakRtie paNa bharelo mAla. je mAla bharyo enuM nAma prakRti ne Ama pudgala kahevAya. eTale puraNa karyuM e galana thayA kare. jamavAnuM puraNa karyuM eTale saMDAsamAM galana thAya. pANI pIdhuM eTale pezAbamAM, zvAsozvAsa badhuM A pudgala paramANu. praznakartA: koIvAra kapaTanI vAto karIe ame. Ama kAramAM jatAM hoIe, to huM ema kahuM ke dAdAjIe strI ane puruSa bannene AtmA Apyo, purUSa to banAvI ja dIdhA che. have je A strIno deha che, to dAdAjI ema kahe che, eka kapaTa ne mohanuM bIja hatuM. temAMthI moTI gAMTha thaI gaI to e gAMThane have bhAMgavAnI che ne tenI pAchaLa tamAre paDavAnuM che, e gAMTha bhaMgAya, to tame puruSa cho ja. dAdAzrI : puruSa to cho ja tame. e pelI gAMTha thoDI vadhI gaI che. eTale strIno deha maLyA kare. meM kahyuM ke e gAMTha jarA, kapaTa gItA vAMcIne, tema tema chUTe. e puruSa to cho ja ane puruSa thayA pachI mULa puruSa thayA. praznakartA : hA, dAdA. mULa puruSa. dAdAzrI : purANa puruSa, bhagavAna. strImAMthI puruSa thaI jAya. strIpuruSonI benI joDI hoya chene, te strImAMthI puruSa thaI jAya, bIje pagathiye ane puruSane eka ja pagathiyuM hoya che. tamArA be pagathiyAM. kema bolatA nathI ? praznakartA : barAbara che, dAdA. dAdAzrI : buddhi vadhAre vAparavI paDe evI che? tyAre ochI vApare dAdAzrI : nA, e che te bIje avatAre puruSa thaIne pachI mokSe jAya. A badhA kahe che, strIo mokSe nA jAya. eTale ekAMtika vAta nathI e. puruSa thaIne pachI jAya. evo koI kAyado nathI ke strIo strI ja rahevAnI che evuM. e puruSa jevI kyAre thAya ke puruSanI joDe harIphAImAM rahI hoya ane ahaMkAra vadhato jato hoya ane krodha vadhato ja hoya to peluM UDI jAya. ahaMkAra ne krodhanI prakRti puruSanI ane mAyA ane lobhanI prakRti strInI, ema karIne A cAlyuM gADuM. paNa A ApaNuM akrama vijJAna evuM kahe che ke strIono paNa mokSa thAya. kAraNa ke AtmA jagADe che A. AtmajJAna na thAya toya vAMdho nahIM paNa AtmAne jagADe che ke keTalI strIo evI hoya che ke dAdA niraMtara covIseya kalAka yAda !

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450 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo 449 evI che ? buddhi ja vAparavAnI cIja nahoya. samajaNa paDe to samaja kAma kare. zenAthI samajAze ? praznakartA : samajaNathI. dAdAzrI : hA, buddhi to napho-nukasAna be ja dekhADe. samajaNa ja kAma kare. praznakartA : paNa e dAdA, je moha ane kapaTanA paramANuthI je strInI gAMTha moTI thatI jAya che, to e bIjA avatAramAM paNa e nArI jAtimAM ja jAya che ke pAchI puruSamAM AvI jAya ? dAdAzrI : e to A puruSamAM AvI jAya. kapaTa khalAsa thaI gayuM hoya. puruSapaNuM AvI gayuM hoya thoDuM ghaNuM, to puruSamAM Ave. praznakartA : paNa pAchI mULa jAya, nArI jAtimAM ja jAya ? dAdAzrI : puruSa jAtimAM Ave. praznakartA : hA, paNa pAchI eka-be avatAre pAchI temAM nArI jAtimAM ja jAya ke eka avatAra pUratuM ja hoya ? dAdAzrI : ahIMthI puruSa thayA pachI pharI jo kapaTa ne moha thaI jAya, to emAMya jAya pAchI. praznakartA : AtmA puruSa deha dhAraNa kare ane strI deheya dhAraNa kare tyAra pachI tenA vartana-niyamomAM zo taphAvata ? dAdAzrI : niyama to badhA, strI prakRti hoya to strI prakRtinA AdhIna hoya ane puruSaprakRti hoya to puruSaprakRtinA AdhIna hoya ane napuMsaka prakRti hoya to napuMsakaprakRtinA AdhIna hoya. e badhI traNeva prakRtinA AdhIna hoya che. kevA hoya che ? praznakartA : prakRtinA AdhIna. dAdAzrI : enA niyamane mATe bIjuM kaMI ghaDavAnuM nathI ke nathI koI kAyadA. jevI prakRti hoya ne tevuM ja A badhuM nIkaLyA kare. strInI prakRti hoya eTale badhI vANI, vartana badhA strInA ja hoya che. enAmAM puruSanI hiMmata hoya ? nA hiMmata-biMmata badhuMya phera paDI jAya ne ! have puruSa raghavATiyo hoya ane strI raghavATiyaNa nA hoya. puruSa to jarAka koIe kahyuM, heMDo, gADIno TAIma thaI gayo che.' to cAmAM raghavATa, ThaMDavAmAM, kapaDAM paheravAmAM raghavATa, badhe raghavATa, raghavATa, raghavATa ane strI to nirAMte vALa-bALa oLI, sADI paherIne Ave ! ApaNane cIDa carcA kare ke A... alyA mUA, eneya gADI maLavAnI che ane tane maLavAnI che. tuM raghavATiyo chuM. tame jANo A badhA raghavATiyA hoya ? raghavATiyA hoya ke nA hoya ? praznakartA : hA, hoya. huMya evo chuM. dAdAzrI : nA, badhAya evA. tame ekalA zuM, badhAya evA. ane A bena che te cAMdalo kare ne badhuM kare. ane ApaNA loko to cAMdalo karavAno hoya ne to utpAte haiDIne bhAge. eTale e vartana-niyamamAM kazo phera nA rahe. e prakRtinA AdhIna ja rahyA kare. kAraNa ke e strImAM eTalA moha ane kapaTa rahelA hoya che ane teneya sthiratA che ne ! e Ama oDhe-kare che te sthiratA ene che ane Amane Ama kapaTa-moha nahIM eTale mUA Ama thaI jaze ane tema.. thoDuM samajAya che tamane ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : ApaNI inDiyAnI gADImAM bAra jaNA UbhA rahyA hoya ne ane strIo eka baeNnca para cAra jaNa beThI hoya. sAmI baeNnca para puruSo beThA hoya te sAta beThA hoya. A bAju A cAra beThI hoya to bAra jaNA UbhA rahelAne, enA manamAM evo vicAra nA Ave ke 'lAya, ekAda jaNane besADIe !" ane puruSo cAra beThA hoya ne, "cAra beThA che" "ahIM Ava bhAI, ahIM Ava." Dakho nahIM. vicAra ja Ave nahIM. pachI zuM vAMdho che ? pachI koI jAtano vAMdho ja nA hoya ne !

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(22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo 451 452 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra sADI-dANItA dekhatAM mUrNita, moha-kapaTa paramANu gopita ! praznakartA : A bena kahe che, AvatA janmamAM mane pharIthI strIno avatAra maLe ? dAdAzrI : strI thavAnI icchA che kaho cho e strIpaNuM paramenanTa haze ke nahIM ? navI zodhakhoLa e navuM bolyA ne ! koI AvuM bole ja nahIMne ! praznakartA : eTale A bena pelI rIte vyaMgamAM bole che ke ahIMyAM amerikAmAM strIone kazuM kAmadhaMdho hoto nathI, ArAmathI khAvAnuM eka TAIma banAve ane majA kare. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa enA hRdayamAM zuM du:kha haze e tamane zuM khabara paDe ? e to strIo mane kahe che, tamane nA kahe. strIo mane badhuM kahe, puruSo kahe ne badhA kahe. praznakartA : emane zuM duHkha che kaho to amane khabara paDe. dAdAzrI : are, ghaNuM duHkha hoya emane to. e to evuM che ke A puruSane AkhI jiMdagImAM eka ja vakhata meTaraniTI vorDamAM javAnuM thAya to zuM thAya ? to ene keTalA vakhata meTaraniTI vorDamAM javuM paDaze enuM to. praznakartA : ahIMyAM to strIo eka-be vakhata, vadhAre vakhata nA jAya... dAdAzrI : nA, paNa eka-be vakhata puruSane hoyane to bahu muzkelI paDe. ApaNAthI sahana nA thAya. e to e ja sahana kare. mATe emAM zuM sukha che bicArIne ? te ene herAna karo cho vagara kAmanA. are, evuM thavAnI AzA zuM karavA rAkho cho ? ko'ka phero puruSapaNuM maLe. UlaTuM strIoe evI AzA rAkhavI joIe ke ame kyAre puruSa thaIe. praznakartA : mane evuM bahu thatuM hatuM. dAdAzrI : e puruSa thavuM hoyane to A be guNa chUTe to thAya, moha ane kapaTa. moha ane kapaTa be jAtanA paramANu bhegA thAya eTale strI thAya ane krodha ne mAna be bhegA thAya to puruSa thAya. eTale paramANunA AdhAre A badhuM thaI rahyuM che. emane (strIne) to kapaTa ne moha badhuM, sADI dekhI hoyane to ApaNe kahIe ke Aja joDe joDe AvyA paNa tame kema khovAI gayelA lAgo cho ? tyAre tyAM rahI gayA hoya e, sADImAM. ahIM dhokaDuM AvyuM hoya. e khovAI gayelA hoya. e moha badho ane ApaNA puruSo khovAI nA jAya. puruSa khovAI jAya ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : nA khovAI jAya. ene to sADI dekhI to tyAM khovAI jAya ane jo jaNasa (dAgInA) dekhI hoyane toya khovAI jAya. dhAryA pramANe dhaNIne calAve, kapaTa karI gharate nacAve ! eka phero mane bahenoe kahyuM ke amArAmAM khAsa amuka amuka doSo hoya che, temAM khAsa vadhu doSa nukasAnakta kayo ? tyAre meM kahyuM, dhAryA pramANe karAvavA phare che te. badhI benonI icchA evI hoya, potAnA dhAryA pramANe karAvaDAve. dhaNIne hau avaLo pheravIne pachI enI pAse dhAryuM karAvaDAve. eTale A khoTuM, UMdho rasto che. meM emane lakhAvyuM che ke A rasto na hovo joIe. dhAryA pramANe karAvavAno artha zuM che ? bahu nukasAnakAraka ! praznakartA: kuTuMbanuM bhaluM thatuM hoya, evuM ApaNe karAvIe to emAM zuM khoTuM ? dAdAzrI : nahIM, e bhaluM karI zake ja nahIMne ! je dhAryA pramANe karatA hoyane, te kuTuMbanuM bhaluM nA kare koI dA'Doya. kuTuMbanuM bhaluM koNa kare

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454 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo 453 ke badhAnuM dhAryuM thAya evI rIte thAya to sAruM. e kuTuMbanuM bhaluM kare. badhAnuM, ekeyanuM mana nA dubhAya evI rIte thAya to. dhAryA pramANe karAvavA phare, e to kuTuMbanuM bahu nukasAna kare che. ane e vaDhavaDhAne jhaghaDA karAvavAnuM sAdhana badhuM. potAnuM dhAryuM nA thAya ne eTale khAya nahIM pAchI. aDadhuM Damo camaIne besI rahe pAchI. kone mAravA jAya, camaIne besI rahe pAchI. pachI bIje dA'De kapaTa kare pAchuM. e kaMI jAta ne ! dhAryA pramANe karavA jAya paNa nA thAya to zuM thAya ? evuM badhuM A nA rAkhavuM joIe. beno have moTA mananAM thAva. have vizALa mAInDanA thAva. zA mATe A badhuM? ane pApa bAMdhIne pharI pAchuM jAnavaramAM javuM, tenA karatAM ahIM AgaLa puNya bAMdhIne pharI ahIM AvavuM zuM khoTuM ? mAnava dharma to pALavo joIene, A to mAnava dharmeya nathI. eTale strIone koI jAtanI harakata nathI. strIo thakI ApaNane nukasAna zuM che e ApaNe joI levuM joIe ane strIone ApaNA thakI zuM nukasAna che e joI lIdhA pachI banneno vepAra bahu sAro cAle che. samajI levAnuM ke zenAthI A nukasAna thAya che. praznakartA: strIo thakI puruSane zuM nukasAna che ane puruSo thakI strIone zuM nukasAna che ? dAdAzrI : kazuM nukasAna che nahIM, jo jIvatA AvaDe to ! A to A jIvatAM nathI AvaDatuM eTale strIne pote ramavAnuM ramakaDuM mAnI beTho che. bhogya vastu mAnI le che, te khoTuM che. e to bhAgIdAra che. jema ApaNAM pArTanara hoya enA jevuM che, herliMga che. praznakartA : strIo potAnAM AMsu dvArA puruSone pIgaLAvI de che ane potAnuM khoTuM che e sAcuM TharAvI de che, e bAbatamAM ApanuM zuM kahevAnuM che ? dAdAzrI : vAta sAcI che. eno guno ene lAgu thAya che ane AvuM kheMca karene, eTale vizvAsa jato rahe. cAMdIno kaladAra rUpiyo hoya ane rastAmAM ApaNe kahIe, 'e kaladAra che ke nahIM haju mAre baeNnkamAM tapAsa karAvavI che', to e to gAMDuM kahevAya. satyane satya ja rahevA devuM. kheMcAkheMca karI ke bagADyuM. ane strIo je AvuM kare che e to strIpaNuM chUTe nahIM. UlaTuM strIpaNuM vadhAre baMdhAya. ane puruSa to bhoLA bicArA. puruSo haMmezAMya bhoLA hoya. strIonAM ramADyA ja ramyA kare ane e ema jANe ke mArI ramADI A rame che ane puruSone strIo ramADatI ja hoya. koInA dhaNI bhoLA hoya te AMgaLI UMcI karo joIe. A AMgaLI UMcI karI ne, e khAnagImAM kahI de, 'amAre bhoLA che, badhA ja bhoLA che'. e iTaselpha sucave che ke A to strIo ramakaDAM ramADe che. A to pachI UghADuM karatAM khoTuM dekhAya. khoTuM nA dekhAya ? badhuM bahu nA kahevAya. khAnagImAM strIone pUchIene, 'bena, tamArA dhaNI bhoLA ?" 'bahu bhoLA.' mAla kapaTano tethI, paNa e bolAya nahIM, khoTuM dekhAya. bIjA guNo bahu suMdara che. mane hau hIrAbA kahe ne, tame to bhoLA ne bhoLA. meM kahyuM, 'hA, e huM bhoLo chuM'. e pAcho paDado haze te ghaDIe ! have e bhalA mANasa che. te pAcho paDado nA hoya evA mANasa che. toya paNa emanAmAMya, meM eka dahADo hIrAbAne kahyuM, 'tamAre jUThuM zuM karavA bolavuM paDe ?" tyAre kahe, "ame hau bolIe. nahIM to tame kaMIka vaDho, teTalA sAruM ame hau bolIe." meM kahyuM, "ohohoho ! huM vaDhavAne navaro ja nathI." praznakartA emeya kaheluM ke thoDuM kapaTa rAkhuM chuM, huMya kapaTa rAkhuM chuM. dAdAzrI : mane hIrAbA kahetAM hatAM, 'tame nA rAkhatA ho paNa huM to kapaTa rAkhuM chuM.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'amane to kapaTa-bapaTa hoya nahIM.' tyAre kahe, 'paNa huM to kapaTa rAkhuM chuM'. - strI eTale zuM ? kapaTa ane moha. have koI strI che te mAnI thavA mAMDI dahADe dahADe ane pachI krodhI thavA mAMDI, ene kapaTa ne moha jato

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456 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo 455 rahe to Avate avatAra puruSa thAya. praznakartA: je strIo che e potAnI jAte libareTa thaI zake che ane bIjAne karavA madadarUpa thaI zake che. dAdAzrI : haM, barAbara che, te ? praznakartA H to e samajAvo. dAdAzrI : strIo to bahu helpaphUla che. praznakartA: have Ama kalyANa kare che paNa pAchuM bIjI bAju ApaNe kahIe ke strIomAM kapaTa che. to e kevI rIte e thAya che ? dAdAzrI : e to eno kapaTano svabhAva che. e to haMmezAM svabhAva hoya, paNa bIjA guNo hoyane, pAchA strInA ! strInuM phormezana, puruSanuM phormezana be judAM hoya che. strIone ema nA kahevAya halakI, tIrthakaronI mA, jo sRSTi malakI ! praznakartA : strIne eka bAju lakSmI kahe che ne bIjI bAjuM kapaTavALI, mohavALI... dAdAzrI : lakSmI kahe tyAre kaMI e jevI tevI che ? dhaNI nArAyaNa kahevAya to e zuM kahevAya ? eTale e joDIne lakSmInArAyaNa kahe che. tyAre e strI te kaMI halakI che ? e tIrthaMkaranI mA che. jeTalA tIrthakaro thayAne, covIsa, emanI mA koNa ? strI sukhI jo mAthe pitA-pati-patra, akramamAM mAthe jJAta-AjJA mAtra ! praznakartA : paNa AjakAla to juduM che ahIMyAMnI duniyAmAM ane hindustAnamAMya. kAraNa ke strIo kamAtI thaI eTale e paNa kahe che ke mane calAvatA AvaDe che, mane dhaMdho calAvatA AvaDe che. dAdAzrI : atyAre to kahene badhuM kamAya che eTale. koI strI evuM kahe ke mArAmAM ne puruSamAM zuM phera rahyo che ? huM ATalo pagAra lAvuM chuM, huM ATaluM bhaNI chuM, to ApaNe kahIe, 'rAte sADA bAra vAgyA pachI ekalA A roDa para jajo joIe, to huM kahuM puruSa chuM tuM. tane bAthamAM uThAvI jaze." e jANe pachI jAya nahIM, nIkaLe nahIM. e puruSane koI nA uThAve. puruSa pAse ghaDiyALa laI le bahu tyAre, ene uThAvI nA jAya. tame nA samajyA ? praznakartA : samajyA. dAdAzrI : eTale pelI baI TADhI paDI gaI pachI. dhaNIne javAba detA nA AvaDe, to pachI e to caDhI besene ane javAba de toya e to vakIlAtanA javAba Ape. e vakIlAtanAM javAbamAM to khaI jAya evI hoya che. vakIlAtanAM javAba nA joIe, ejhekTa javAba hovo joIe. ughADuM pADI de evuM. ApaNe ema vakIlAta karIe to e Ama kare, ApaNe Ama karIe to e Ama kare. eno A jajamenTa ApanAro koI jaja hovo joIe. praznakartA: to e kaI svataMtratAnI vAta karatI hoya che ? strIo jyAre svataMtratAnI vAta karatI hoya che, te kaI svataMtratAnI vAta kare che ? dAdAzrI : e to kahe che, tamAruM ane amAruM badhuM levala sarakhuM. to ApaNe kahevuM ke mane eno vAMdho nathI, paNa mUcho AvavA ne, pachI karIza. levala to sarakhuM dekhAvuM joIene ? praznakartA : dAdA, A strIo pATalUna pahere che, TAI pahere che. praznakartA : strIo. dAdAzrI : tyAre emane kema halakI kahevAya ? moha to hoya ja haMmezAM strI thaI eTale. paNa janma kone Apyo. moTA moTA tIrthakarone badhA... moTA lokone to e ja janma Ape che, ene kema ApaNathI vagovAya ? te ApaNA loka vagove che.

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458 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo 457 dAdAzrI : A pATalUna paherIne rAte bAra vAge jA joIe, ekalI ThaMDatI ThaMDatI jA joIe ane puruSa to game tyAre jAya. kudarate ja, necare ja ene AvI sthitimAM mUkelI che. mATe bhayavALI che eTale ! zuM bhayasthAna che ? eno uparI hovo ja joIe. ane strIne dhaNInI hUMpha joIe ja. 'hUMpha', te dhaNI nA hoya tyAre khabara paDe ke dhaNI vagara keTalI muzkelI Ave che ! haMmezAM strI jAti mATe ApaNo kAyado kahe ke strI ene mA-bApane vaza rahevI joIe, bhaNe tyAM sudhI. jyAM sudhI nAnI che tyAM sudhI ane pachI paiNAvyA pachI enA dhaNIne vaza rahevI joIe. dhaNI nA hoya to chokarAne vaza rahevI joIe evo kAyado. ene mukta nA karAya. mukta karo, to saMsAra badho phrekTara thaI jaze. A kAyadA ApaNA ! strIo pote svataMtra rIte kyAre paNa na rahevuM joIe.. praznakartA : Ano, A je mAnyatAno pAyo kayo ? kAraNa atyAre to loko nathI mAnatA. dAdAzrI : paNa jANatA nathI eTale zuM thAya ? jANatA nathI eTale. sukhI thavAno mArga A ane A mArgathI viruddha cAlyA te pachI khovAI gayelA mANaso rahe. ane ye gAma pahoMce ? amArAM madhara hatAM, meM kahyuM, tame eMsI varSanA, huM aDatAlIsa varSano, tamAre je phAve e karavAnuM. to kahe, 'phAve evuM nA karAya eMsI varSanI huM paNa pAMca varSano chokaro gharadhaNI hoya toya mAre to gharadhaNIne pUchavuM paDe." have AvuM samaje to sukhI che. nAtha choDAya nahIM. tethI ja emane nAtha ApelA. e nAthanA kAbUmAM rahejo. praznakartA : enuM kAraNa zuM ? dAdAzrI : chUTuM nA mUkAya. mUkAya nahIM eTale nAtha rAkhelA emanI upara. ApaNA loka kahe chene, bhaI, nAtha che ? A badhA bhagavAna e cauda lokano nAtha, paNa A to strIno nAtha ! e bena zI rIte svIkAra kare evuM ? amAruM samajo to DahApaNavALuM che A ! kAyadesara AvuM ja hoya. ApaNe tyAM to vAMdho nahIM, ApaNe tyAM to badhuM TharIThAma, zuddhAtmA jovAnuM rahyuM. to pachI rahyuM ja zuM che ? ane samabhAve nikAla karavAnuM rahyuM. ApaNe tyAM evuM tevuM nathI. A to bahArane mATe vAta karIe chIe. ApaNe ghera to kazo vAMdho che nahIM ? praznakartA: AryanArI je che, tene to A puruSa je che te baMdhanamAM rAkhe, paNa mA-bApa che te paNa baMdhanamAM rAkhe ! dAdAzrI : mA-bApa paNa baMdhanamAM rAkhe. badhe jyAM hoya tyAM baMdhanamAM rAkhe. kAraNa ke baMdhananI jarUra che, AryanArI chuM. AryanArI tarIke tane jIvavuM hoya to baMdhananI jarUra che. nahIM to game tevuM svacchaMdI jIvana jIvavuM hoya to baMdhananI jarUra nathI. praznakartA : nahIM, paNa strIne maryAdA hoya che ane puruSane kema maryAdA nahIM ? dAdAzrI : puruSane maryAdA hoya che ja. paNa e pote maryAdA jAte toDe ene koNa vaDhe ? praznakartA: haMmezAM ApaNe strIne ja kahIe chIe ke tAre maryAdA rAkhavI joIe, ApaNe puruSane nathI kahetA. dAdAzrI : e to potAnA manuSyapaNAno khoTo durupayoga karyo che, sattAno durupayoga karyo che. sattAnA be upayoga thaI zake. eka saupayoga thaI zake ane bIjo durupayoga. saupayoga kare to sukha varte paNa haju durupayoga karo cho, to du:khI thAya. je sattAno durupayoga karIe, to e sattA hAthamAMthI jAya ane jo e sattA rAkhavI hoya kAyamane mATe, puruSa ja jo tamAre rahevuM hoya kAyamane mATe, to sattAno durupayoga na karazo, nahIM to sattAdhIzone Avate bhava strI thavuM paDaze ! sattAno durupayoga kare eTale sattA jAya. vaDApradhAna thAya ne tyAM AgaLa durupayoga karyo e pakSano, eTale sattA jatI rahI. koI paNa sattAno durupayoga nahIM karavo joIe.

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460 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo 459 ane ghera strI joDe to prema rAkhavo joIe. premanuM jIvana hovuM joIe, AvuM kAyadAnuM jIvana jIvAtuM haze ? premanuM jIvana jIvavuM joIe. ApaNe tyAM kaMI paNa kAyado che ? kazuM kAyado nathI ne ? no laoN, kevuM sarasa premathI cAle che ! strIte paraSo vakhANe, mahIM ghATa, aMjAya, to kapaTato caDhe kATa ! praznakartA: vacamAM je pelI vAta thayelI. puruSe uttejana ApyuM che, kapaTa karavA mATe, to emAM puruSa mukhya kAraNarUpa che. amAro je jIvanavyavahAra ane emanuM je kapaTa, emanI je gAMTha, emAM jo huM kaMI javAbadAra houM to e mATe vidhi karI Apajo ke huM emane choDI zakuM. dAdAzrI : hA, vidhi karI ApIzuM. emane kapaTa vadhyuM te ene mATe puruSo risponsibala che. e ghaNA puruSone A javAbadArInuM bhAna bahu ochuM hoya che. e jo badhI rIte mArI AjJA pALato hoya to paNa strIne bhogavavA mATe puruSa ene zuM samajAve ? strIne kaheze ke have AmAM kazo vAMdho nathI. eTale strI bicArI bhUla-thApa khaI jAya. ene davA nA pIvI hoya... ane nA ja pIvAnI hoya. chatAM prakRti pIvAvALI kharI ne ! prakRti te ghaDIe khuza thaI jAya. paNa e uttejana koNe ApyuM ? to puruSa eno javAbadAra. jema ajJAnI mANasa hoya ne te sIdho raheto nA hoya koInI joDe. koI strIo hoziyAra thayelI hoya bicArI, ene pelo mANasa zuM kahe ? tuM to bahu ja akkalavALI chuM. enA khUba vakhANa kare ne, eTale enI icchA nA hoya toya e puruSa joInTa thaI jAya. have mANaso strIne potAne gamatuM bole to e strI ene vaza thaI jAya. potAne gamatuM koI puruSa bole, badhI bAbatamAM kahene, 'karekTa, bahu sAruM.' ane eno dhaNI jarA vAMko hoya. ane bIjo puruSa che to pachI AvuM mIThuM bole, to avaLuM thAya kharuM? praznakartA : thAya, dAdA. dAdAzrI : A badhI strIo enA lIdhe ja slIpa thayelI. koI mIThuM lagADe ke tyAM slIpa thaI jAya. A bahu jhINI vAta che, samajAya evuM nathI. praznakartA : samajAya, dAdA. dAdAzrI : have puruSa to peluM svArtha kADhavA mATe kare che ane pelIne roga pesI jAya, kAyamano. ane puruSa, to svArthI nIkaLe, eTale cAlyuM. e tAMbAno loTo nIkaLyo A, dhoI nAkhyo eTale sApha paNa pelIne caDhyo kATa. eno kapaTano svabhAva baMdhAI jAya. ene inTaresTa Ave eTale pachI strIno svabhAva baMdhAI jAya. tamane bIjo eka dAkhalo ApuM. ApaNe ghera chokaro hoya, te avaLuM kare tyAre vaDhIe-mArIe, e risAIne jato raheto hoya. evuM pAMca-sAtadasa vakhata thayuM hoya, to thoDuM kaMTALe to kharo ne ? praznakartA : kaMTALe, hA. dAdAzrI : mA-bApane kAma letAM nA AvaDe eTale. AjanA badhA chokarA pAse mA-bApane kAma letAMya nathI AvaDatuM. e chokaro kaMTALI jAya ne ! have paDozI zuM kahe ? eya bAbA, ahIM Aya. te Ave. 'alyA, mahIMthI jarA pelo nAsto lAvo.' eTale pachI bhaIne je kahe e karI Ape ke nahIM ? praznakartA : karI Ape ane mA-bApo mATe dhRNA utpanna thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : ane AnA upara ? praznakartA: enA mATe prema utpanna thAya. e kahe e badhuM karavA taiyAra thAya. dAdAzrI : evI rIte strIne potAnA dhaNIthI dhRNA utpanna thAya eTale pachI. kAraNa ke ene viSaya game che ane pelo puruSa che te sAruM bolavA mAMDyo. eTale e rUpALo dekhAto jAya. ene enakareja kare. enuM kAma kADhI levA mATe ekareja kare Ane ane e jANe ke ohoho.... mAre akkala nathI, chatAM ATalI badhI akkala thaI gaI A, ema kahe

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(22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo che. eTale lapaTAyA kare. koIne samajAya evI vAta che A ? praznakartA : samajAya che, dAdA. pALe eka pativrata satIpaNe, strI-graMthi chedAya, kapaTa kSaye ! 461 dAdAzrI : game tevuM bane, dhaNI nA hoya, dhaNI jato rahelo hoya, toya paNa bIjA pAse jAya nahIM. e jo game tevo hoya, khuda bhagavAna puruSa thaIne Avyo hoya, paNa nA. 'mane mAro dhaNI che, dhaNIvALI chuM' e satI kahevAya. atyAre satIpaNuM kahevAya evuM che A lokonuM ? kAyama nathI evuM, nahIM ? jamAno judI jAtano che ne ! satayugamAM evo TAIma ko'ka phero Ave che, satIone mATe ja. tethI satIonuM nAma le chene ApaNA loka ! praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : e satI thavAnI icchAthI. enuM nAma lIdhuM hoya to ko'ka dahADo satI thAya ane viSaya to baMgaDIonA bhAvathI vecAya che, evuM tame jANo ? e mAruM kahevAnuM samajyA nahIM ? praznakartA : hA, baMgaDIonA bhAvathI vecAya che. dAdAzrI : kayA bajAramAM ? kaoNlejomAM ! kyA bhAvathI vecAya che ? sonAnA bhAve baMgaDIo vecAya. pelI hIrAnA bhAve baMgaDIo vecAya ! badhe evo maLI Ave nahIM. badhe evuM nathI. keTalIka to sonuM Ape toya nA le. game tevuM Apo toya nA le ! paNa bIjI to vecAya kharI, AjanI strIo. sonAnA bhAve nA hoya to bIjAnA bhAve paNa vecAya ! ane mAMsAhAra kyAreya nA karato hoya, paNa be-traNa dahADAno bhUkhyo hoya, to marI javA taiyAra thAya ke mAMsAhAra kare ? mAMsAhAra kare ja nahIM, game tevuM thAya. ane boleya kharo, marI jaIza paNa karuM nahIM, koI dahADo nA karuM. bhUkhe marI javAya to bhale. paNa ene be-traNa dahADA thAya ne bhUkhamAM marI javAya evuM lAge to ? koI dekhADe to ? 462 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA H to karI nAkhe kadAca, jIvavA mATe. dAdAzrI : karI ja nAkhe. ane tyAM nA kare e satI kahevAya. moDhe bolyo to evuM ja hoya ene, marI javAya toya nA karuM. eTale A viSayane laIne strI thayo che, phakta ekalA ja viSayathI ja ane puruSe bhogavI levA mATe 'ene' enakareja karI ane bicArIne bagADI. barakata nA hoya toya enAmAM barakata hoyane evuM manamAM mAnI le. tyAre kaheze, mAnI zAthI lIdhuM ? zI rIte mAne ? puruSoe kahe kahe karyuM ja. eTale e jANe ke A kahe che emAM khoTuM zuM che ? enA meLe mAnI lIdheluM nA hoya. tame kahyuM hoya, tuM bahu sarasa che, tArA jevI to strI hotI ja nathI. ene kahIe ke tuM rUpALI chuM, to e rUpALI mAnI le. A puruSoe strIone strI tarIke rAkhI. ane strI manamAM jANe ke huM puruSone banAvuM chuM, mUrkha banAvuM chuM. Ama karIne puruSo bhogavIne chUTA thaI jAya che. enI joDe bhogavI le jANe ke A raste bhaTakatuM hoya... bahu samajAtuM nahIM ne ? thoDuM thoDuM ? praznakartA : samajAya che kamplITa. pahelAM puruSono kaMI vAMka nathI evI rIte satsaMgo cAlatA hatA. paNa Aje vAta nIkaLI tyAre lAgyuM ke puruSa paNa A rIte bahu moTo javAbadAra banI jAya che. dAdAzrI : strIne strI tarIke rAkhavAmAM puruSa ja javAbadAra che. praznakartA : hA, dAdA. eTale evuM nathI ke strI je che e lAMbA janama sudhI strInA avatAramAM raheze evuM nakkI nathI. paNa e lokone khabara paDatI nathI eTale eno upAya thato nathI. dAdAzrI : upAya thAya to strI, puruSa ja che. e gAMThane jANatI ja nathI bicArI. ane tyAM AgaLa inTaresTa Ave che. tyAM majA Ave che eTale paDI rahe che ane koI rasto AvuM jANe nahIM. eTale dekhADe nahIM. e phakta satI strIo ekalI jANe, satIone enA eka dhaNI sivAya bIjA koIno vicAra ja nA kare ane e kyAreya paNa nahIM, eno dhaNI tarata opha thaI jAya, jato rahe toya nahIM. e ja dhaNIne dhaNI jANe.

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464 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra (22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo 463 have e strIonuM badhuM kapaTa ogaLI jAya. konuM kapaTa ogaLI jAya ? praznakartA : satIonuM, satI strIonuM. dAdAzrI : je strI bilakula satI tarIke kAma kare che. tenA badhA roga maTI jAya. praznakartA : dAdA, atyAre ame tamArA jJAnathI ane amArA doSo Apane batAvIne, amArAthI paNa satI thavAyane ? dAdAzrI : satI to pahelethI thayA nA hoya ane bagaDI gayA pachI e paNa satI thavAya. jyArathI nizcaya karyo tyArathI satI thaI zake. praznakartA : ane jema e satIpaNuM sAcavIe tema tema kapaTa ogaLatuM jaze? dAdAzrI : satIpaNuM to karyuM eTale kapaTa to javA ja mAMDe enI meLe ja. tamAre kazuM kahevuM nA paDe. to pelI mULa satIe janmathI satI hoya. eTale ene kazuM pahelAno DAgha hoya nahIM. ane tamAre pahelAMnAM DAgha rahI jAya ane pharI pAchA puruSa thAva. paNa puruSamAM puruSa che te thayA pachI, badhA puruSa sarakhA nA hoya. keTalAka strI jevA paNa puruSa hoya. e thoDA strInA lakSaNa rahI jAya ane pachI kapaTa jo ogaLI gayuM. pachI vakhate satIpaNuM jo Ave, to to khalAsa thaI jAya. puruSa hoya to satI jevuM kliyara thatuM jAya, to khalAsa thaI jAya. satIpaNAthI badhuM khalAsa thaI jAya. jeTalI satIo thayelI, enuM badhuM khalAsa thaI jAya ane e mokSe jAya. thoDuM samajAya che ? mokSe jatAM satI thavuM paDaze. hA, jeTalI satIo thaI e mokSe gaI, nahIM to puruSa thavuM paDe. puruSa bhoLA hoya bicArA. jema nacAve tema nAce bicArA. badhA puruSone strIoe nacAvelA. strIomAM eka satI ekalI nA nacAve. satI to paramezvara (bhagavAna) mAne patine ! praznakartA: AvuM jIvana bahu ochAnuM jovA maLe. dAdAzrI : A kaLiyugamAM kyAMthI hoya ? satayugamAMya koIka ja satIo hoya, atyAre kaLiyugamAM kyAMthI hoya ? strIno paNa mokSa che dAdA kahe, jJAtInI sevA, kRpA AjJA maLe ! loka kahe, mokSa puruSano ja thAya. strIono mokSa thAya nahIM. e huM emane kahuM chuM ke A strIono paNa mokSa thAya. strIono jaladI mokSa nA thAya. kema na thAya ? tyAre kahe, emanI kapaTanI ne mohanI graMthi bahu moTI che. puruSone AvaDI nAnI gAMTha hoya, to emanI AvaDI moTI suraNa jevaDI hoya. strI paNa mokSe jaze. bhale badhA nA kahetA hoya paNa strI paNa mokSane mATe lAyaka che. kAraNa ke e AtmA che ane puruSonI joDe TacamAM Ave che, te eno paNa ukela Avaze, paNa strI prakRtine moha baLavAna hovAthI vadhu TAIma lAgaze ! eTale ame emane rasto dekhADIe. eTale emane meM kapaTagItA lakhAvaDAvI che. kapaTagItA lakhI ApI che, roja kapaTagItA vAMce. zAstrokAroya lakhe che ke strIno mokSa nahIM. alyA mUA, zA mATe tame AvuM lakho cho vagara kAmanuM ? puruSano avatAra Avaze ane mokSa thavAno. strIno mokSa eTale e liMganI bhAMjagaDa che. praznakartA : eTale A liMge mokSa nA thAya, puruSa liMge ja mokSa thAya. dAdAzrI : eTale jo puruSArtha kare to liMga badalAI jAya, paNa e jo AvuM kahe ke strI liMge mokSa nA thAya, to AvuM bolavAthI to puruSArtha maMda paDI jAya che strIone. praznakartA : hA, e puruSArtha maMda paDI jAya. dAdAzrI : ane puruSa strI thAya che ne ane strI puruSo thAya che, e badhuM mohane AdhIna che. je koI AtmA jANe ne AtmajJAnInI sevAmAM paDe eno ukela

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466 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (22) pati-patnInA prAkRtika paryAyo 465 AvI jAya. strIne be avatAra vadhAre thAya. e kAThuM kaThora che, majabUta ! praznakartA : paNa strInA avatAramAMthI sIdhI mokSe nA jAya, paNa strInA avatAramAMthI puruSanA avatAramAM AvIne pachI mokSe jAya ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, pachI jAya. ema ne ema na jAya. mallinAtha bhagavAna gayelAne e to strIno bhoga nahIM, e to khAlI AkAra ja hato. bhoga hoya nahIM ne ! ane mahAvIra bhagavAnane bhoga hato trIsa varSa sudhI. A mallinAtha bhagavAnane bhoga nahIM, bhoga hota to A tIrthaMkarapaNuM raheta nahIM, khAlI AkAra ja hato. eTale AmAM strIne vagovavAnuM nathI. A puruSo ne A (strIo) badhuM, sarakhuM ja che. strIne vagovavAnI nahIM, strI zakti che. eya mokSane mATe taiyAra thaI zake ema che. mokSe nA jAya, e to sApekSa vAta lakhelI che, nirapekSa nathI lakheluM. strI mokSe nA jAya to neminAtha bhagavAnanI rAjula jAya ne A bIjAnI nA jAya, ema tyAM kaMI khaTapaTo che ? praznakartA : strIvede ghaNA mokSa pAmelA che. dAdAzrI : nA, e pahelA puruSa thaIne... strIvede koIno mokSa nA thAya. e to je thayelAne, te enAmAM veda hato nahIM enAmAM. veda vagarano AkAra hato ! strIno AkArano vAMdho nathI paNa veda nA hovo joIe. eTale strIo mokSe nA jAya evuM keTalAMka zAstro kahe, paNa ApaNe ahIM to jAya. paNa ApaNe ahIM pachI eka pratikramaNa karavuM paDe che moTuM, jabarajasta. tyAre e prakRti nAza thAya. pratikramaNanI lAvo jo copaDI meLe maMtra karyA karavA. paNa emeya bahAra nA kahevuM ke strIo kare to vAMdho nahIM. nahIM to jhaghaDA UbhA thAya, eTale jhaghaDA thAya nahIM ane ApaNuM kAma kADhI levuM. vAtamAM kazo mAla nathI, vAto kare che temAM. dharmane mATe kazo bheda nathI. trI zakti kadI paDI dharmakSetre, jagalyANatuM moTuM nimitta e ! eTale strIono doSa nathI, strIo to devI jevI che. strIo ane puruSomAM AtmA e to AtmA ja che, phakta khokhAMno phera che. 'Dipharansa opha pekiMga ' strI e eka jAtanI 'iphekTa' che, te AtmA para strInI iphekTa' varte. AnI 'iphekTa' ApaNA upara nA paDe tyAre kharuM. strI e to zakti che. A dezamAM kevI kevI strIo rAjanItimAM thaI gaI ! ane A dharmakSetre strI paDI te to kevI hoya ? A kSetrathI jagatanuM kalyANa ja karI nAkhe ! strImAM to jagatalyANanI zakti bharI paDI che. tenAmAM potAnuM kalyANa karI laIne bIjAnuM kalyANa karavAnI zakti che. pelI... praznakartA: keTalAka ema kahe che ke strIothI amuka dhArmika kArya nA thAya, puruSothI ja thAya. dAkhalA tarIke amuka maMtra che, to ke e strIothI nA bolAya, prayothI ja thAya. te AvA che to badhA je taphAvato che niyamomAM e zuM ? jarA eno khulAso karI Apo. dAdAzrI : e taphAvatomAM bahu dhyAna rAkhavuM nahIM. ApaNe ApaNI

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468 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (3) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha patnI sAthe mokSa eka zarate, davA pIvI jo bene tAva varte ! praznakartA : zuddhAtmAsvarUpa thAya pachI saMsAramAM patnI joDeno saMsAra vyavahAra karavo ke nahIM ? ane te kevA bhAve ? ahIM samabhAve nikAla kevI rIte karavo ? dAdAzrI : A vyavahAra to tamAre patnI joDe baMnene samAdhAnapUrvaka vyavahAra rAkhajo. tamAruM samAdhAna ne emanuM samAdhAna thatuM hoya, evo vyavahAra rAkhajo. emane asamAdhAna thatuM hoya ne tamAruM samAdhAna thatuM hoya e vyavahAra baMdha karajo. ane chokarAM tamane kahe, 'pappAjI" to kahevuM, 'hA, bAbA cAla tAruM...' 'pappAjI' kahe to ene 'nA' nA kahI dezo. ApaNe khuzI thaIne, rAjIkhuzIthI kahevuM, "cAla, huM AvuM chuM." "pappAjI' kahevAno eno dharma che ne e ApaNe 'pappAjIe ene enakareja (protsAhana) karavuM joIe. vyavahAra che ne ? ane ApaNAthI strIne kaMI duHkha na thavuM joIe. tamane kema lAge che ? kevo vyavahAra karavAno ? ene duHkha na thAya tevo. banI zake ke nA banI zake ? hA, strI paiNelAM che te saMsAra vyavahAra mATe che, nahIM ke bAvA thavA mATe. ane strI pAchI mane gALo na de ke, "A dAdAe mAro saMsAra bagADyo !" huM evuM nathI kahevA mAMgato. huM tamane kahuM chuM ke, A je 'davA" (viSayasaMbaMdha) che e gaLapaNavALI davA che mATe pramANathI lejo. gaLI che mATe vadhu paDatI pI pI nA karazo. davA haMmezAM jema pramANathI laIe chIe evI rIte pramANathI lejo. gaLI lAge eTale pI pI karavI evuM kaMI karAya ? jarA to vicAra karo. zuM nukasAna thAya che ? tyAre kahe che ke, je khorAka badho khAya che enuM blaDa thAya che, bIjuM badhuM thatAM thatAM chevaTe enuM raja ane vIryarUpe thaI khalAsa thaI jAya che. lagnajIvana dIpe kyAre ke tAva bannene caDhe ane e davA pIve tyAre. tAva vagara davA pIve ke nahIM ? ekane tAva vagara davA pIve e lagnajIvana dIpe nahIM. bannene tAva caDhe tyAre ja davA pIve. dhIsa Ijha dha onlI meDisina (A mAtra davA ja che). meDisina gaLI hoya tethI kaMI roja pIvA jevI nA hoya. lagnajIvana dIpAvavuM hoya, eTale saMyamI puruSanI jarUra che. A badhA jAnavaro asaMyamI kahevAya. ApaNuM to saMyamI joIe. A badhA je AgaLa rAma bhagavAna ne e badhA thaI gayA, te badhA puruSo saMyamavALA. strI sAthe saMyamI ! tyAre A asaMyama e kaMI daivI guNa che ? nA. e pAzavI guNa che. manuSyamAM AvA nA hoya. manuSya asaMyamI nA hovo joIe. jagatane samaja ja nathI ke viSaya zuM che ! eka viSayamAM karoDo jIvo marI jAya che, vana TAImamAM, te samajaNa nahIM hovAthI ahIMyA majA mANe che. samajatAM nathI ne ? na chUTake jIva mare evuM hovuM joIe. paNa samajaNa nA hoya tyAre zuM thAya ? eTale ame kahyuM ke strIno vAMdho nathI, paNa evI zarate beune saMpa ane samajapUrvaka UbhuM karo. gaLI davA hoya eTale roja pIvAnI ke DaoNkTare kahI eTalI ja ? DaoNkTare kahyuM ke bhaI, halAvIne pIjo, to e eNe pIdhI hoya. e kahI hoya eTalA vakhata pIvAnI. e to roja be-be traNa vakhata davA pIe, enA jevuM A lokoe karI nAkhyuM che ne ! ane kharekhara davA e gaLI nathI. praznakartA : A paNa ATalI ja davA pIvI e kaMI ApaNA kAbumAM che ? e Dojha kAbUmAM raheto nA hoya to zuM karavuM? dAdAzrI : kAbUmAM kazuM rahevAnuM nahIM. nA kAbUmAM hoya evI vastu ja nathI hotI A duniyAmAM. paNa davA mIThI che mATe pI pI karIe eno zo artha ? eTale AmAM strImAM doSa nathI, tAvamAM doSa nathI, tAva nA caDhyo hoya ne davA pIe teno doSa che. eTale A badhI jokhamadArI

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 469 470 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra samajajo. ApaNI vAta bAMyadharIpUrvakanI che ane tarata anubhavamAM Ave evI vAta che ! ane AvuM saheluM hoya to pALavuM joIe ne ke emAM kazo vAMdho Ave che ? praznakartA : amAre UMce caDhavuM che mATe pALavuM ja che. dAdAzrI : tAva caDhe to pIjI. e to DAhyA mANasanuM ja kAma hoya ne ? eTale A amAruM tharmomiTara maLyuM che. eTale ame kahIe chIene, ke strI sAthe mokSa Apyo che ! AvI saraLatA koIe nathI ApI. bahu saraLa ane sIdho mArga mUkelo che. have tamAre jevo sadupayoga karavo hoya e karajo. atizaya saraLa ! AvuM banyuM nathI ! A nirmaLa mArga che. bhagavAna paNa eksepTa kare evo mArga che ! tamane samajAyuM ne, A bhUla kyAM che, kevI thayelI che ? ane bhUla to bhAMgavI paDaze ne ? prArabdhamAM hoya te bhogavavAnuM, paNa bhUla to bhAMgavI ja paDe ne. bhUla bhAMgavI nA paDe ? praznakartA : bhAMgavI paDe, dAdA. dAdAzrI : jo kevI DAhI che tyAra pachI ! praznakartA: hA, dAdA. e to bahu sArA hatA, meM kacakaca karIne bagADI nAkhelA. have badhuM pAchuM sIdhuM thAya che. tamArI kRpA thaIne eTale. A to badhAnI hAjarImAM kahI dauM. dAdAzrI : barobara ! eTale A badhuM samajavuM paDe, ema ne ema gaNuM cAlatuM haze ? kevo bAbo ne bebI che, have zuM kAma ApaNe.... sArA saMpIne phrenDazIpa jema rahIe ! prArabdhamAM udaya hoya to, beu jaNane tAva caDhyo hoya to davA pIvo, evuM kahuM chuM huM. huM khoTuM kahuM chuM ke tamAro virodhI chuM huM kaMI ? badhuM vicArIne lakheluM che ne meM. praznakartA: barAbara che, sAcI vAta che. dAdAzrI : A amAruM jJAna kevuM sarasa che ? eTale meM tamane strI sAthe rahevA dIdhA, nahIM to bIjo hoya to kaheze, 'haMDo cAlo, bAvA thaI jAva.' viSaya mAtra dAvA kare karArI, jIvatA parigrahe, vera lAcArI ! A jhaghaDAnA lIdhe badhA dAvo mAMDe. pelAno pUro thAya tyAM sudhImAM pelI dAvo mAMDe, pAcho pelo dAvo mAMDe. pAMca DaoNlaranI ATalI jalebI vecAtI lAvyA ne emAMthI pAMca-dasa kakaDA khAIne pachI nA khAdhI, to e jalebI tamArA para dAvo mAMDe kharI ? mane lAvyA ne kema nA khAdhI, evuM kahe ? praznakartA : nA kahe. dAdAzrI : peluM jIbhanuM hatuM te jIbhano kleima mAMDe nahIM. sAruM sinemA jovA gayA ane adhavaccethI ApaNe UThI jaIe to e kaMI kleima mAMDe ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : nA mAMDe, nahIM ? to ApaNe kaMI sAMbhaLavA gayA pravacana ane tyAM adhavacce UThI jaIe to koI kleima mAMDe ? paNa A eka viSaya evo che ke je strIno ane puruSano je viSaya che, emAM ApaNe kahIe ke nA bhaI, have mAre nathI icchA. tyAre kahe, nA cAle. tyAM to dAvo mAMDaze. A eka ja evuM che ke sAmo dAvo mAMDe evuM che. mATe ahIM sAcavIne kAma kADhI levuM. dAvo mAMDe evuM tamane samajAyuM ? eno ja badho guMcavADo Ubho thayo che. mATe e ekalo ja bhoga evo che ke bahu du:khadAyI che. A jIvato parigraha che. eTale AmAM dAvo mAMDe, vera hau bAMdhe. ghaNA paraSoe strIone saLagAvI melI che. strIo ghaNA puruSone kaMIka jhera ApI de che. A badhuM vera bAMdhe tyAre ne ! ane jalebI evuM nA kare

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 471 472 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra bicArI. AiskrIma kazuM nA kare. eTale huM badhAne kahuM chuM AiskrImajalebI khAjo paNa ahIM jarA ochuM dhyAna rAkhajo. bahu sapaDAzo nahIM. strIone puruSo che te vAMdhAjanaka che ane puruSone strI, beune vAMdhAjanaka che A ! jIvato parigraha ! praznakartA H te jalebI to ekalI khavAya ja, paNa strI to badhuM kAma karI Ape. ekalI sinemA thoDI laI jAya. badhuM bIjuM paNa kare ne ! moTela calAve ne ! dAdAzrI : e to bIjo mANasa rAkhIe to e calAve ne A viSaya du:khadAyI che ! jJAnI puruSane badhI ja jAgRti eTa e TAIma rahe. eTale viSaya upara vicAra ja nA Ave. chatAM ATaluM badhuM jANyA chatAMya viSaya thAya che. te pUrva prerita thAya che, pUrvano udaya che. pUrvanA AdhAre che. samajIne karavuM. bIjuM jANI-bujhIne karavAnuM nA game toya zuM karIe paNa, kyAM jaIe have ! saMsAra pote ja jela che ne ! viSayasukha to AkhuM jagata, jIvamAtra mAnI rahyA che. eka phakta ahIM AgaLa tyAgIo che ane tyAM devomAM samakita devo che, A be ja loko che te viSayasukhamAM mAnatA nathI. jAnavaroya viSayane sukha mAne che. paNa e jAnavaro te bicArAM karmanA AdhIna bhogave che. emane evuM kaMI e nathI ke amAre kAyamane mATe AvuM joIe ja. ane manuSyo to kAyamane mATe ja. dhaNI paradeza gayo hoya to vahune nA game. vahu che te piyaramAM gaI hoya cha-bAra mahinA to veSa thaI paDe. kAraNa ke eNe emAM sukha mAnyuM che. zemAM mAnyuM che ? A tyAgIone zAthI emAM duHkha lAgyuM haze ? zuM emAM sukha nathI ? phalANuM kaTa ne badhuM kara kara karyuM che. ane A sADIo pahere che te pelA bIbAnA udeza rAkhIne kare che. basa, A ja vyApAra mAMDyo che. praznakartA : Ape to A nagna satya kahI dIdhuM ? dAdAzrI : hA, te nagna satya to bolavuM ja paDazene eka dahADo ! kyAM sudhI DhAMka DhAMka karavuM ? ane emAM dahADo kyAre vaLaze ? kaMIka sAcuM to kahevuM paDaze ne ? bhagavAne kahyuM che ke jo nagna satya bolatAM AvaDatuM hoya ane emAMthI koIneya duHkha nA thatuM hoya to bolajo. nahIM to vyavahAramAM nagna satya bolAya nahIM kAraNa ke lokone duHkha thaze. amArI vANIthI koIneya duHkha nA thAya. amArI vANI premALa hoya. nagna satyane bahAra pADe ane koIneya duHkha nA kare evI premavALI vANI hoya. AvuM ame kahIe to e bahenone duHkha nA thAya. A bIbI ane A bIbA anAdithI A ja vyavahAramAM Dakho che ne ! ane tethI potAnuM bhagavAnapaNuM khoyuM che. potAnuM paramAtmapaNuM khoyuM che. aMdara pAra vagaranI anaMta zaktio che, paNa badhI khalAsa thaI gaI che. bAkI ApaNuM to paramAtma svarUpa che ! viSaya sAthe mokSa zakya jJAne; aTake RSi eka putradAte ! badhA dharmoe gUMcavADo Ubho karyo ke strIone choDI do. tyAre kaheze, alyA, strIne choDI dauM to huM kyAM jAuM ? mane khAvAnuM koNa karI Ape ? huM A mAro vepAra karuM ke ghera cUlo karuM ? praznakartA : eTale ekabIjAne pUraka che. dAdAzrI : hA, pUraka che badhuM ! 'paraspara devo bhava' eTale bAyaDI choDI do to mokSa maLaze, evuM kahe to bAIDIe zuM guno karyo che ? praznakartA : ane bAIDIoya ema kahe ne, ke amAreya mokSa joIe, amAre tame nathI joItA. dAdAzrI : hA, evuM ja bole ne ! ApaNo ne A baIno beuno saje zahAra vIMdhavA tarapha phreMca Ta, zUTa uddeza tAra ! A jagatamAM bIbIne udezamAM rAkhIne ja A badhuM phrenca kaTa ne

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 43 474 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra sahiyAro vepAra. lagnajIvanane vakhANyuM che e lokoe. zAstrakAroe lagnajIvanane kaMI vagovyuM nathI. lagna sivAya bIjuM Itara je bhraSTAcAra che tene vagovyo che. bhraSTAcArane vagovyo che. ane lagnajIvaneya che te kyAM sudhI kAmanuM ke jyAM sudhI bannenuM mAna sacavAya tyAM sudhI, prema sacavAya, mana sacavAya. dharmane mATe AgaLa vadhavA mATe strI karavAnI che, beu sAthe rahe, AgaLa vadhe. paNa e viSayarUpa thaI gayuM. te AgaLa vadhavAnuM to kyAM gayuM paNa vaDhavaDhA kare che. strI hoya ane viSaya na hoya to vAMdho ja nathI. hA, ApaNA RSi-munio paiNatAne ! te eka-be, eka bAbo ne eka bebI eTale basa. bIjuM kaMI nahIM. pachI phrenDazIpa. AvuM jIvana jIvavAnuM che. praznakartA : viSaya chokarAnI utpatti pUrato ja hovo joIe ke pachI bartha kaMTrola karIne viSaya bhogavAya ? dAdAzrI : nA, nA. e to RSi-munionA vakhatamAM, pahelAM to pati-patnIno vyavahAra Avo na hato, RSi-munio to paiNatA hatA, te lagna ja karavAnI nA pADatA hatA. eTale A RSipatnIe kahyuM, ke tame ekalA, tamAre saMsAra sArI rIte cAlaze nahIM, prakRti sArI rIte thaze nahIM, mATe amArI pArTanarazIpa rAkho strInI, to tamArI bhaktiya thaze ane saMsAreya cAlaze. eTale e lokoe ekasepTa karyuM, paNa kahe che ane saMsAra tArI joDe mAMDIzuM nahIM. tyAre e lokoe kahyuM, ke nA, amane eka putradAna ane eka putrIdAna, be dAna Apajo phakta. te e dAna pUrato ja saMga, bIjo koI saMga nahIM. pachI amAre tamArI joDe saMsAramAM pachI phrenDazIpa. eTale e lokoe eksepTa karyuM ane pachI che te phrenDazIpanI peTha ja rahetA hatA. pachI patnI tarIke nahIM. e badhuM gharanuM kAma nabhAvI le, A bahAranuM kAma nabhAvI le, pachI banne bhakti karavA bese sAthe. paNa atyAre to badhuM, dhaMdho ja badho Akho e thaI gayo. eTale bagaDI gayuM badhuM. RSimunio to niyamavALA hatA. atyAre eka putra ke putrI mATe lagna hoya, to vAMdho nathI. pachI mitrAcArIthI rahe. pachI du:khadAyI nahIM. A to sukha khoLe pachI to evuM ja ne ! dAvA ja mAMDe ne ! RSi-munio bahu judI jAtanA hatA. Aje brahmacarya eka patnIvrata, bIje daSTi aNIzuddha e zarta ! praznakartA: ApaNA dharmamAM eka ja patnIno phAyado che, paNa ApaNe tyAM keTalAka rAjAne traNa patnIo kema hatI ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, keTalAka to traNa patnI rAkhatA ane RSabhadeva bhagavAnanA putra bharata cakravartI hatA, emane teraso rANIo hatI. eTale ApaNuM dharmazAstra zuM kahe che ke lagna karajo, paNa dRSTi nA bagADazo. ane eka lagnathI tamane saMtoSa na raheto hoya ane bIjI koI strI para dRSTi jatI hoya to bIjI paiNajo. trIjI para dRSTi jatI hoya to trIjI paiNajo. paNa dRSTi nA bagaDelI rAkhajo. A dRSTi bagaDavAthI bhayaMkara rogo UbhA thayA che. praznakartA : ApaNAmAM to eka ja kahyuM che ane pahelAM to traNatraNa hatI, evuM kema ? dAdAzrI : tamaneya kahuM ke, tamArI zakti joIe. ekanI joDe to vaDhavaDhA karo cho. eka jaNa hato, te pachI bIjI paiNI lAvyo. te meM ene pUchyuM ke, bhaI, have zuM karo cho tAre be vAIpha ane tuM zuM karuM chuM ? A to cAlIsa varSa pahelAMnI vAta karuM chuM huM, AjanI nahIM. tyAre e kahe, 'navI kare roTalA ane jUnI kare dALa, baMdA beThA beThA kaDhI halAve. traNeva hAsaMhAra ! zakti hoya to karone. niveDavAnI zakti joIe. ekane na pahoMcI vaLe ne Ama bUmo pADe pachI ! eka patnIvrata pALazo ne ? tyAre kahe 'pALIza', to tamAro mokSa che ne bIjI strIno saheja vicAra Avyo tyAMthI mokSa gayo. kAraNa ke e aNahakkanuM che. hakkanuM tyAM mokSa ane aNahakkanuM tyAM jAnavarapaNuM. pAchuM viSayanI limiTa hovI joIe. strI-puruSanA viSaya kyAM sudhI

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 475 476 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra hovo joIe ? parastrI nA hovI joIe ane parapuruSa nA hovo joIe. ane vakhate eno vicAra Ave to ene pratikramaNathI dhoI nAkhavA joIe. moTAmAM moTuM jokhama hoya to ATaluM ja, parastrI ane parapuruSa ! potAnI strI e jokhama nathI. have amArI AmAM kazI kyAM bhUla che ? ame vaDhIe chIe koI rIte ? emAM kazuM guno che ? A amArI sAyanTiphika zodhakhoLa che ! nahIM to sAdhuone eTale sudhI kahyuM che ke strInI lAkaDAnI pUtaLI hoya tene paNa jozo nahIM. strI beThI hoya e jagyAe besazo nahIM. paNa meM evo tevo Dakho nathI karyo ne ? A kALamAM eka patnIvratane ame brahmacarya kahIe chIe ane tIrthakara bhagavAnanA vakhatamAM je brahmacaryanuM phaLa maLatuM hatuM te ja phaLa pAmaze, enI ame gerenTI ApIe chIe ! praznakartA: eka patnIvrata kahyuM te sUkSmathI paNa ke ekaluM sthaLa ? mana to jAya evuM che ne ? dAdAzrI : sUkSmathI paNa hovuM joIe ane vakhate mana jAya to manathI chuTuM rahevuM joIe. ane enA pratikramaNa kara kara karavA paDe. mokSa javAnI limiTa kaI ? eka patnIvrata ane eka pativrata. have AkhI jiMdagI bIje mana nA bagaDyuM, to tAruM gADuM sAruM jaze. jema potAnI strI hoya, evI darekane potAnI strI hoya. dareka chokarIo ko'kanI strI thavA mATe ja janmelI hoya che. e pArako mAla kahevAya. koInI strIne bIjI rIte joI zakAya nahIM, pAchalA saMskArane lIdhe bhUlathI jovAI jAya to pratikramaNa karavuM joIe. ATaluM ja sAcavavAnI jarUra che. aNahaktA viSaye tarka maLe; turta pratikramaNathI bI ta phaLe ! jo tuM saMsArI houM to tArA hakkano viSaya bhogavaje, paNa aNahakkano viSaya to nA ja bhogavIza. kAraNa ke AnuM phaLa bhayaMkara che ane tuM tyAgI houM to tArI viSaya tarapha dRSTi ja nA javI joIe ! aNahakkanuM laI levuM, aNahakkanI IcchA karavI, aNahakkanA viSaya bhogavavAnI bhAvanA karavI, e badhI pAzavatA kahevAya. hakka ane aNahakka e be vacce lAIna opha DimArkazana (bhedarekhA) to hovI joIe ne ? ane e DimArkezana lAInanI bahAra nIkaLAya ja nahIM. toya paNa loka DimArkazana lAInanI bahAra nIkaLyA che ne ? ene ja pAzavatA kahevAya. hakkanuM bhogavavAno vAMdho nathI. praznakartA : paNa hakkanuM kone kahevuM ane aNahakkanuM kone kahevuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNA potAnA hakkanI cIja to dareka mANasa samaje. A mAruM ne A pArakuM, e tarata badhA samajI jAya. mArI pathArI kaI, mAruM ozIkuM karyuM, e badhuM nAnuM chokaruMya samajI jAya. mArI jamavAnI thALI Ave to, huM mArI meLe mahIM je mUkyuM hoya te badhuM khAuM, te hakkanuM kahevAya. to koI bUma nA pADe, koI vAMdho nA kare, koI dAvo nA kare. ApaNAmAM lagna karAve che, te lagna karAve eTale A tamArA beunuM hakkanuM che. eno bhagavAnane vAMdho nathI, paNa aNahakkanuM haze to vAMdho che. kAraNa ke aNahakkanuM eTale bIjAnA hakkanuM eNe lUMTI lIdhuM. cora to sArA ke lakSmI ja lUMTI jAya, paNa A to bIjI ja vastuo lUMTI jAya. pachI kaheze, mAre mokSe javuM che. alyo, mokSe javAno A mArga ja nahoya, A UMdho ja rasto lIdhelo che. aNahakkanuM bhogavI le che ke nathI bhogavatA ? bhogave che. ane pAchA corIchUpIthI nahIM, rophathI bhogave che. praznakartA : jANe che chatAMya aNahakkanuM bhogavavAno prayatna kare che. dAdAzrI : tethI ja A du:kha che ne ! tethI ja A saMsAra Ubho rahyo che. saMsAramAM sukha joItuM hoya to aNahakkanuM bhogavazo nahIM. aNahakkanuM bhogave emAM huM sukhI chuM ema manathI mAne eTaluM ja che. bAkI, emAM 'sepha sAIDa' nathI. ane huM je vAta karuM chuM e to kAyamane mATenI 'sepha sAIDa' che. ghera hakkanI strI hoya to paNa bahAra bIje dRSTi bagADe che pAchI !

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha hakkanuM bhogave ! bIje aNahakka para dRSTi ja kema jAya ? potAne je paraNelI che te sivAya bIje badhe AkhI jiMdagI dRSTi bagaDavI ja nA joIe. hakkanuM choDIne bIjI jagyAe 'prasaMga' thAya, to e strI jyAM jAya tyAM ApaNe avatAra levo paDe, e adhogatimAM jAya to ApaNe tyAM javuM paDe. AjakAla bahAra to badhe evuM ja thAya che. kyAM avatAra thaze tenuM ThekANuM ja nathI. aNahakkanA viSaya jeNe bhogavyA tene to bhayaMkara yAtanAo bhogavavI paDe. tenI choDI paNa ekAda avatAramAM cAritrahIna thAya. niyama kevo che ke jenI joDe aNahakkanAM viSaya bhogavyA hoya te ja pachI mA thAya ke choDI thAya. aNahakkanuM lIdhuM tyArathI ja manuSyapaNuM jAya. aNahakkano viSaya e to bhayaMkara doSa kahevAya. pote bIjAnuM bhogave to potAnI choDIo loko bhogave. ApaNe ko'kanuM bhogavI laIe eTale potAnI choDIo ko'ka bhogave, tenI ciMtA ja nathI ne ! eno artha e ja thayo ne ! ane evuM ja thAya che ne ? potAnI choDIo loko bhogave ja che ne ! A bahu nAlAyakI kahevAya, 'TopamosTa' nAlAyakI kahevAya. potAne ghera choDIo hoya to paNa bIjAnI choDIo jue che ? zarama nathI AvatI ? mAre ghera paNa choDIo che evuM bhAna rahevuM joIe ke nA rahevuM joIe ? ApaNe corI karIe to koI bIjo corI karyA vagara rahe ja nahIM ne ! jyAM aNahakkanA viSaya hoya tyAM te koI raste sukhI nA thAya. pArakuM ApaNAthI levAya ja kema karIne ? 473 lokoe viSayanI lUMTabAjI karI che. ApaNe badhAne nathI kahetA, kAraNa ke 'eksepzana kesa' badhAmAM hoya ja. paNa ghaNo kharo evo mAla thaI gayo che ke viSayomAM lUMTabAjI ane aNahakkanA viSayo bhogave che. hakkanA viSayanI to bhagavAneya nA nathI pADI. bhagavAna nA pADe to bhagavAna gunegAra gaNAya. aNahakkanuM to nA pADe. jo pastAvo kare to paNa chUTe. paNa A to aNahakkanuM AnaMdathI bhogave che, tethI ghoDAgAMTha mAre, te keTalAya avatAra bagADe. paNa pastAvo kare to ghoDAgAMTha DhIlI thAya ne chUTavA mATe avasara maLe. praznakartA : Ape evuM kahyuM che ne, aNahakkanA viSayo narke laI 478 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra jAya, e zAthI ? dAdAzrI : aNahakkanA viSayamAM haMmezAM kaSAyo hoya ne kaSAyo hoya eTale narkamAM javuM paDe. paNa A khabara paDe nahI lokone ! eTale pachI bItA nathI, bhaDakeya nathI lAgatI koI jAtanI. atyAre A manuSya bhava to, gayA avatAre sAruM kareluM tenuM phaLa che. praznakartA : svarga ne narka be ahIM ja che ? e ahIM ja bhogavavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : nA, ahIM nathI. ahIM to narka jevI vastu ja nathI. narkanuM to huM varNana karuMne e mANasa sAMbhaLe, to sAMbhaLatAM ja marI jAya eTalAM duHkho che ! tyAM to jeNe bhayaMkara gunA karyA hoya tene pesavA de ! ahIM to ochAM puNyavALAne ochuM sukha ane vadhu puNyavALAne vadhAre sukha, koIne pApa hoya tyAre ene duHkha hoya. aNahakkamAM to pAMce pAMca mahAvratono doSa AvI jAya che. emAM hiMsA thaI jAya che, jUThuM thaI jAya che, corI to A aNahakkanuM eTale ughADI corI kahevAya. pachI abrahmacarya to che ja ane pAMcamuM parigraha, te A moTAmAM moTo parigraha che. hakkanA viSayavALAne mokSa che paNa aNahakkanA viSayavALAne mokSa nathI, ema bhagavAne kahyuM che. AsaktithI viSaya pachI vera, viSayatuM vera to bhAre jhera ! jyAM sudhI svarUpanuM jJAna nA hoya tyAM to polIsavALo pakaDIne laI jAya, tevo viSaya hoya toya guno coMTe che. ene je karma nA game, tyAM ene 'nA game' enA karma baMdhAya ane ane je karma game tyAM to 'gamyA'nAM karma baMdhAya. nA gamyAmAM dveSanA karma baMdhAya, dveSanA pariNAma thAya. A 'jJAna' nA hoya to tene zuM thAya ? praznakartA : dveSanAM pariNAma thatAM karma UlaTAM vadhAre baMdhAya ne ? dAdAzrI : naryuM vera ja bAMdhe, eTale jJAna nA hoya tene nA gamatuM

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 479 480 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra hoya toya karma baMdhAya ane gamatuM hoya toya karma baMdhAya ane "jJAna" hoya to tene koI jAtanuM karma baMdhAya nahIM. praznakartA eTale evuM ja thayuM ne ke viSayathI ja A badho saMsAra Ubho thaI jAya che ? dAdAzrI : viSayo e AsaktithI utpanna thAya che ne pachI emAMthI vikarSaNa thAya che. vikarSaNa thAya eTale vera baMdhAya che ane veranA 'phAunDezana' para A jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. kerIo joDe vera nathI ne baTAkA joDe vera nathI. e baTAkAnA jIvo che, badhA bahu jIvo che, paNa vera rAkhatA nathI. e phakta nukasAna zuM kare ke tamane magajanuM jarA dekhAtuM ochuM thaI jAya. AvaraNa vadhAre. bIjuM vera rAkhe nahIM. vera to A manuSyamAM Avelo jIva rAkhe. A manuSyajAtimAM ja vera baMdhAyeluM hoya che. ahIMthI tyAM sApa thAya ne pachI karaDe. vIMchI thaIne keDe. vera baMdhAyA sivAya koI dahADo kazuM bane nahIM. praznakartA H atyAre dekhIto viSaya saMbaMdha nA hoya, paNa koI eka bIjAne vera UbhuM thatuM hoya, to e pUrve kaMIka viSaya thayelo hovo joIe ? dAdAzrI : ramAtra pUrvabhavanA udayathI ja hoya. praznakartA : paNa e viSayane lIdhe ke viSaya vagara paNa hoya ? dAdAzrI : hA, viSaya vagara paNa hoya. bIjAM badhAM aneka kAraNo hoya che. lakSmI uparathI vera baMdhAya che, ahaMkAra uparathI vera baMdhAya che, paNa A viSayanuM vera bahu jherI hoya che. bahu jherImAM jherI A viSayanuM vera che. paisAnuM, lakSmInuM, ahaMkAranuM vera baMdhAyeluM hoya teya jherI hoya che, baLyuM ! praznakartA : keTalA bhava sudhI cAle ? dAdAzrI : anaMta avatArathI bhaTakyA kare. bIjamAMthI bIja paDe, bIjamAMthI bIja paDe, bIjamAMthI bIja paDe ane e zekavAnuM jANe nahIM ne ! zenAthI zekAya evuM jANe nahIM ne ? praznakartA : jyAM sudhI zekavAnuM jANe nahIM, tyAM sudhI cAlyA ja karavAnuM? dAdAzrI : hA, basa bIja paDyA ja kare.. praznakartA : evuM paNa Ape kaheluM ke cAritramoha keTalAka evA prakAranA hoya che ke jJAnane paNa uDADI mele. to te kayA prakArano cAritramoha ? dAdAzrI : e viSayamAMthI Ubho thayelo cAritramoha. e pachI jJAnane ne badhAne uDADI mele. eTale atyAra sudhI viSayathI ja A badhuM aTakyuM che. mULa viSaya che ane temAMthI A lakSmI upara rAga beTho ane teno ahaMkAra che. eTale mULa viSaya jo jato rahe, to badhuM jatuM rahe. pratikramaNathI viSaya UDe, abhiprAya bhinna tethI dveSa kare ! praznakartA to bIjAne zekI nAkhatAM AvaDavuM joIe, paNa te kevI rIte zekavAnuM? dAdAzrI : e to ApaNuM A pratikramaNathI, AlocanA-pratikramaNapratyAkhyAnathI. praznakartA : e ja, bIjo upAya nahIM ? dAdAzrI : bIjo koI upAya nathI. tapa karavAthI to puNya baMdhAya. ane bIjane zevAthI ukela Ave. A samabhAve nikAla karavAno kAyado zuM kahe che, tuM game te raste enI joDe vera nA baMdhAya evI rIte karI nAkha. verathI mukta thaI jA. ApaNe ahIM to eka ja karavA jevuM che ke vera nA vadhe ane vera vadhAravAnuM mukhya kArakhAnuM kayuM che ? A strIviSaya ane puruSaviSaya ! praznakartA : emAM vera kevI rIte baMdhAya ? anaMtakALanuM vera bIja paDe che e kevI rIte ?

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482 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra (23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 481 dAdAzrI : evuM chene ke A marelA puruSa ke marelI strI hoya to ema mAnone ke emAM koI davAo bharI ane puruSa puruSa jevo ja raheto hoya ne strI strI jevI ja rahetI hoya to vAMdho nahIM, enI joDe vera nahIM baMdhAya. kAraNa ke e jIvatuM nathI. ane A to jIvatuM che. tyAM vera baMdhAya praznakartA : te zAthI baMdhAya che ? dAdAzrI : abhiprAya 'Dipharansa che tethI tame kaho ke, 'mAre atyAre sinemA jovA javuM che.' tyAre e kaheze ke, "nA, Aja to mAre nATaka jovA javuM che." eTalA TAImiMga nahIM maLI rahe. jo ekkekTa TAImiMge TAImiMga maLI rahe to ja paiNaje. praznakartA chatAM ko'ka evo hoya ke e kahe evuM thAya paNa kharuM. dAdAzrI : e to koI gajabanA puNyazALI hoya to enI strI niraMtara ene AdhIna rahe. e strIne pachI bIjuM kazuM potAnuM nA hoya, potAno abhiprAya ja nA hoya, e niraMtara AdhIna ja rahe. evuM che, A saMsArIone jJAna ApyuM che. kaMI bAvA thavAnuM meM nathI kahyuM, paNa je phAIlo hoya eno samabhAve nikAla karo, kahyuM che. ane pratikramaNa karo. A be upAya batAvyA che. A be karazo to tamArI dazAne koI gUMcavanAra che nahIM. upAya nA batAvyA hoya to kinArA para UbhuM rahevAya ja nahIM ne ? kinArA para jokhama che. tamAre vAIpha joDe matabheda paDato hato te ghaDIe rAga thato ke dveSa? praznakartA : e to banne vArApharatI thAya, ApaNane 'syuTebala' hoya to rAga thAya ne 'oNpojhiTa' hoya to haiSa thAya. dAdAzrI : eTale e badhuM rAga-dveSane AdhIna che. abhiprAya ekAkAra thAya nahIM ne ! ko'ka ja evo puNyazALI hoya ke jenI strI kaheze, 'huM tamAre AdhIna rahIza. game tyAM jazo, citAmAM jazo toya AdhIna rahIza.' e to dhanya bhAgya ja kahevAya ne ! paNa evuM ko'kane hoya. eTale AmAM majhA nathI. ApaNe kaMI navo saMsAra Ubho nathI karavo. have mokSa ja javuM che jema tema karIne. khoTa-naphAnAM badhA khAtAM nikAla karIne, mAMDavALa karIne ukela lAvI nAkhavAno che. uchInuM sukha rI-pe karavuM paDe; viSaya mATe AjIjI, vera phaLe ! evuM che ne, A avalaMbananuM jeTaluM sukha ApaNe lIdhuM e badhuM uchInuM lIdheluM sukha che, lona upara. ane lona eTale "rI-pe' (cukavaNI) karavI paDe che. jyAre lona rI-pe thaI jAya pachI tamAre kazI bhAMjagaDa hotI nathI. tamane vastuo bhegI thAya che te vastumAMthI sukha nathI AvatuM. tame e sukha lo eTale e lona lIdhA barAbara che. e lona tamAre rI-pe karavI paDaze. AtmA pAse sukha nathI bhogavatA ane pudgala pAse tame sukha mAMgyuM. AtmAnuM sukha hoya to vAMdho ja nathI, paNa pudgala pAse bhIkha mAMgelI te ApavuM paDaze. e lona che. jeTalI mIThAza paDe che, eTalI ja emAMthI kaDavAza bhogavavI paDaze. kAraNa pudgala pAse lona lIdhelI che. te ene "rI-pe' karatI vakhate eTalI ja kaDavAza Avaze. pudgala pAsethI lIdheluM hoya eTale pudgalane ja rI-pe karavAnuM. praznakartA : paNa loko premathI pAchI nahIM ApatA hoya ? dAdAzrI : je vastu jeNe lIdhI che e choDavAnI to ene potAne game ja nahIM. eTale dareka vastu rI-pe karavAmAM bhayaMkara duHkha hoya. praznakartA H AmAM sukha lIdhuM enuM pariNAme pelA jhaghaDA ne kleza ? dAdAzrI : AmAMthI ja UbhuM thayuM cheA badhuM. ane sukha kazuMya nahIM. pAchuM savAranA pahoramAM divela pIdhA jevuM moTuM hoya ! e to vicAratAMya cItarI caDhe ! praznakartA ane nahIM toya lokonAM du:khonAM pariNAmo eTalAM badhAM vicitra che te e kyAre chUTe ! ATalAM badhAM duHkho sahana kare che, A loko

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 483 484 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra joIe ? have ATaluM badhuM asaMyamapaNe kema poSAya te ? tame nA samajyA meM vAta karI te ? praznakartA : hA, samajI gayo. ATalA sukhane mATe ! dAdAzrI : e ja lAlaca AnI ne keTalAM duHkho bhogavavAnAM ! praznakartA: AkhI lAIpha khalAsa karI nAkhe che emAM. AkhuM jIvana roja enuM e ja hemariMga, enI e ja athaDAmaNa ? dAdAzrI : atyAre to mane keTalAya kahI jAya che, ApaNA mahAtmAo, ke, "mane kAlAvAlA karAvaDAve." tyAre meM kahyuM, 'mUA, tAro vakkara jato rahyo, tyAre zuM karAvaDAve ? haju samajane yogI thaI jA ne !' have Ane kyAMthI pahoMcI vaLAya? A duniyAne kaMI pahoMcI vaLAya ? viSaya-bhIkha lAcAra banAve, saMyamI tara saMsAra dIpAve ! eka strI enA dhaNIne cAra vakhata sASTAMga karAvaDAve che, tyAre eka vakhata eDavA de che. tyAre mUo, enA karatAM A samAdhi leto hoya to zuM khoTuM ? dariyAmAM samAdhi le, to dariyo sIdho to kharo, bhAMjagaDa to nahIM ! A hAruM, cAra vakhata sASTAMga ! muMbaImAM eka mANasa mane phariyAda karavA Avyo ane kahe che ke pAMca vakhata phAIla naM. rane page lAgyo tyAre mAro saMtoSa thayelo. mUA, enA karatAM... A kaI jAtano mANasa, jAnavara chuM ke zuM muA ? zuM joIne mane kahevA Avyo tuM ? viSayanI bhIkha maMgAtI haze ? tamane kema lAge che ? alyA mUA, pAMca vakhata ! have mane sIdhuM DirekTa kahevA Avyo to mAre vaDhavuM paDyuM, pachI mane kahe che, have rasto dekhADo. tyAre meM kahyuM, have A chUTI jAya te pachI rasto dekhADAya ! dhIme dhIme e sIdhuM thaI gayuM. UMdhuM cAle tyAra pachI zuM thAya ? mane evuM kahI gayo ke mAre viSayanI bhIkha mAMgavI paDe che. alyA muA, viSayonI bhIkha mAgo cho ! kaMI jAtanA cho, jAnavara karatAMya bhUMDA cho ! viSayanI bhIkha maMgAtI haze ? khAvAnI bhIkha nA maMgAya, bhUkhyA thayA ho to kaI bhIkha maMgAtI haze ? kaMI zUravIrapaNuM joIe ke nA dAdAzrI : Ama je' je' hau kare mAMgatI vakhate. baLyuM tArI mAMga ! pAcho dhaNI kahe che, huM dhaNI thauM ! alyA mUA, Avo dhaNI hoto haze ? ayukta lAgatuM nathI tamane ? praznakartA : lAge che, dAdA. dAdAzrI : A yukta vastu che ? mANasane zobhe ? eTale thoDo ghaNo saMyama hovo joIe. badhuM hovuM joIe. saMyamI mANase rahevuM ja joIe. saMyamathI to mANasanI zobhA che. saMyamanA mATe zAstrakAroe nAnAmAM nAno saMyama e kahyo, ke mahinAmAM dasa dahADA sudhI ene leTa go kare. ane moTo saMyama e kahyo ke mahinAmAM cAra ja vakhata jAya. eno kaMIka niyama to hovo joIe ke nA hovo joIe ? A mahinAmAM keTalA dahADA rajA mele che ? praznakartA : ATha divasa. dAdAzrI : hA, te evuM kaMIka niyama hoya ke nahIM ? praznakartA : paNa saMyama kevI rIte rAkhavo ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe ko'kane ghera gayA hoya ane bahu bhUkhyA hoya paNa e kaheze, ahIM tamane jamavAnuM nahIM maLe to tame kaho ke "bhAI sAheba, Apo jamavAnuM." e je thavAnuM haze e thaze paNa atyAre cAlyA jAva. vaTavALA hoyane ! sAva vaTa vagaranA kUtarA jevA cho kaMI ? pachI jamavA mATe Ubho hoya pachI ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : hai, te evuM A badhuM kaMI vaTa hoya ke nA hoya, baLyo ! svamAna phrekTara thavA devuM ke viSaya phrekTara thavA devuM? kayuM phrekTara thavA

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha devuM joIe ? game tevo viSaya hoya te paNa svamAnane phrekcara kare te kAmano zuM te ? badhe evuM thaI gayuM che, tamArA upara nahIM, badhe AnuM Aja thaI gayuM che. mANasane sArI rIte UMgha Ave, pote potAnuM svataMtra jIvana hoya, jIvana potAnA kaMTrolamAM hoya. je saMyamI puruSo chene, temanI slIpIMga rUma judI hoya. haM. judI, pahelethI judI rAkhatA nathI te pachI manobaLa lapaTuM paDI jAya. pachI pelAne apamAna svamAnanuM ThekANuM rahe nahIM. 485 zAstrakAroe to eTale sudhI kahyuM ke jo tamAre saMyama sAcavavo hoya to A puruSa beTho hoya te jagyAe strIe besavuM paNa nahIM ane strI beThI hoya tyAre puruSe besavuM nahIM. kaMIka niyama to khoLI kADhavo paDaze ne ? jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA to joIe ke nA joIe ? praznakartA : joIe, dAdA. dAdAzrI : keTalI sarasa nokarI karo cho, keTaluM sarasa bhaNyA cho, zuM bAkI rahI jAya che ? nathI corI karatA, nathI luccAI karatA, nathI kALo bajAra karatA toya paNa zAMti mahIM nahIMne, jIvana jIvana nahIM ne ? praznakartA : zAMti nathI, rAITa ! dAdAzrI : e jIvana jIvavA mATe nathI. e tamane ahIM badhuM batADI daIzuM. A vakhate tamAruM pUrepUruM so TakA pUruM karavuM chene ? praznakartA : hA, so TakA pUruM karavuM che. dAdAzrI : svamAna rAkhavuM joIe ke nA rAkhavuM joIe ? praznakartA : rAkhavuM joIe. dAdAzrI : sasarAne tyAM kApaDanI mila hoya ane ApaNane joba chUTI gayo hoya, tyAre zuM sasarAne tyAM jaIne Ama Ama karIne besI rahevuM ? praznakartA : nA, nA besI rahevAya. dAdAzrI : zuM karo tyAM AgaLa ? 486 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA H tyAM javAno artha nahIM ne ! dAdAzrI : e kazuM bole nahIM ne tame mAMgaNI karo kharA ke mane joba Apo ? praznakartA H nA. dAdAzrI : jANe che toya bolato nathI sasaro, tyAre mela tuM ne tArI vahu, paDI rahejo ahIM AgaLa tamAre ghera, huM to mAre ghera jauM chuM. kaMIka to svamAna hoya ke nA hoya, baLyuM ? kyAM sudhI Ama jAnavaranuM jIvana jIvavuM ? eka phero tamane ghasI nAkhe eTale thaI rahyuM, khalAsa thaI gayuM. ghasI nAkhe to tyAM sudhI nahIM javuM. e zenAthI ghasI nAkhe che ? viSayonI lAlacane laIne. tyAre e to bahu yogI jevuM rahevuM joIe. viSayo vacce hoya jyahAM lagI, vahu athaDAya ja tyahAM lagI ! praznakartA : badhI phAIlo to jANe ke dALamAM nAkhIne vaghAra karIne khaI zakIe evA che, paNa be naMbaranI phAIlane kaMI dALamAM vaghAra karavo ? che. dAdAzrI : be naMbaranI phAIlane nA cAle. be naMbaranI phAIla to jJAna lIdheluM mANasa hoya ane te jyAre athaDAmaNa thAya tyAre 'vyavasthita' samaje, koNa athaDAya te jANe, tyAre chUTo thAya. praznakartA : dAdA, e to e samajIe chIe ke A karma athaDAya dAdAzrI : hA, to ? praznakartA : gayA janamamAM enI sAthe ame athaDAyA hatA. A janmamAM amArI sAthe e athaDAya. paNa eno rasto to kADhavo paDe ne ? solyuzana to zodhavuM paDe ne ?

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha dAdAzrI : enuM solyuzana to hoya che, paNa lokonAM manobaLa kAcAM hoya chene ! manobaLa kAcAM hoya eTale zuM thAya, bicArAnuM ? solyuzana, ene to tame amuka bhAga che te baMdha karI do ke tarata che te cUpa thaI jAya badhuM. paNa manobaLa kAcAM hoya to zuM kare ? praznakartA : e batADone dAdA, kayo bhAga baMdha karI devo ? dAdAzrI : vikArI bhAga baMdha karI devAno. to enI meLe ja badhuM baMdha thaI jAya. ene laIne A kakaLATa kAyama cAlyA kare. 487 praznakartA : pahelAM to ame ema samajatA'tA ke A gharanAM kAmakAja bAbatamAM athaDAmaNa thatI haze, te gharanAM kAmamAM helpa karavA besIe, toya athaDAmaNa. dAdAzrI : e badhI athaDAmaNo thavAnI ja. A jyAM sudhI vikArI bAbata che, saMbaMdha che tyAM sudhI athaDAmaNa thavAnI. athaDAmaNanuM mULa ja A che. jeNe viSaya jItyo tene koI harAvI zake nahIM, koI enuM nAmeya nA de. eno prabhAva paDe. karavuM ? AvyA. praznakartA : have kaI rIte A karavuM ? ema. A baMdha kaI rIte dAdAzrI : viSaya jItavAno. praznakartA : viSaya nathI jItAto eTale to ame tamArA zaraNe dAdAzrI : keTalA varSathI viSaya.... gharaDA thavA AvyA toya viSaya ? jyAre juo tyAre viSaya, viSaya ne viSaya ! praznakartA : A viSayo baMdha karavA chatAM athaDAmaNa nA TaLatI hoya eTale to ame tamArA caraNe AvyA. dAdAzrI : to to thAya ja nahIM. viSaya jyAM baMdha che te meM joyuM, jeTalA jeTalA puruSo majabUta mananA che tene to strI to bilakula Ama 488 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra kahyAmAM rahe che. eka jaNa che te bicAro, dAdAnAM jJAnathI khuza thaI gayelo. te roja darzana karavA Ave. Akho dahADo ahIM paDI rahevAnuM mana thAya. vahune koI dahADo teDI lAve nahIM. vahu Ave nahIM. vahu kahe che, 'kema dAdAne tyAM gayA ?' roja DaphaLAya DaphaLAya kare. have pelo kahe che, mAre zuM karavuM, AvavA ja nathI detI A. zI rIte vaza thAya ?' meM kahyuM 'be-traNa mahinA sudhI viSayano vicAra nA AvavA daIza. ane jJAna to teM lIdheluM che. to bane ke nA bane ?" 'hA, bane.' meM kahyuM, 'karI joje.' te pelI kahe che, 'tamAre jyAre javuM hoya tyAre jajo, paNa mane AvuM nA karazo.' e dAkhalo banelone, kahyo tamane ! praznakartA : hA, evI be-cAra bIjI davA batAvI do ne ! dAdAzrI : nA, nA, paNa dAkhalo je banyo e kahyuM meM tamane. mAre kaMI navo banAvavAno che ? mane to A pahelethI AvaDato'to. praznakartA H kharekhara dAdA, bIjA kaMI AvaDatA hoya, be-cAra batAvI jAva. tame zuM zuM karatA'tA, dAdA ? dAdAzrI : bahu yAda rahe che kaMI ? mane to yAda rahe nahIM ne badhuM. A to dekhAya tyAre mahIM bolI jauM. pelo mANasa Avato thaI gayo, rAjIkhuzIthI. meM kahyuM, jo mArI A vidyA, davA ko'ka dahADo pakaDI leje pAcho huM pharI, zodhakhoLa karelI, dAdAnI AgaLanuM A zIkheluM pustakamAM nA lakheluM hoya. pustakamAM lakhanAra loka to bAvA hatA, emane vahu hatI ja nahIM tyAM. A to mAre jAte TesTa karavuM paDyuM. praznakartA : bIjuM zuM zodhakhoLa karI, te batAvI do jarA ? dAdAzrI : e to vakhata Ave tema batAvatA ja jaIe chIe. jema jema dahADo, badhuM kaMI maMgaLavAre nA nIkaLI jAya. tamAre gharamAM rojanI DakhADakha nA pasaMda hoya to pachI enI joDe vikArI saMbaMdha ja baMdha karI devo. pAzavatA baMdha karI devI. viSaya to haDahaDatI

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 489 490 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra pAzavatA che. mATe A pAzavatA baMdha karI devI. buddhizALI samajaNavALo hoya tene vicAra nA Ave ? phoTo le to kevo dekhAya ? kUtarAM jevo dekhAya ne ? toya zarama nA Ave ? meM AvuM kahyuM tyAre vicAra Ave, nahIM to Avo vicAra kyAMthI Ave ? ane jyAM sudhI tamAre vikAra saMbaMdha che tyAM sudhI A DakhADakha rahevAnI ja. eTale ame tamArI DakhADakhamAM vacce paDIe ja nahIM. ame jANIe ke vikAra baMdha thaze, tyAre enI joDe Dakho baMdha thaI ja jAya. eka phero enI joDe vikAra baMdha karI dIdhone, pachI to A ene mAre toya e kazuM nA bole. kAraNa ke e jANe ke have mArI dazA besI jaze ! mATe ApaNI bhUlathI A badhuM UbhuM che. ApaNI bhUle ja A badhAM duHkho che. vItarAgo kevA DAhyA ! bhagavAna mahAvIra to trIsa varSe chUTA thaIne heya mastImAM pharatA hatA ! enI joDe viSaya baMdha karyA sivAya bIjo upAya jaDyo ja nathI. kAraNa ke A jagatamAM rAga-dveSanuM mULa kAraNa ja A che, maulika kAraNa ja A che. ahIMthI ja badho rAga-dveSa Ubho thayo. saMsAra badho ahIMthI ja Ubho thayo che. eTale saMsAra baMdha karavo hoya to ahIMthI ja baMdha karI devo paDe. pachI kerIo khAva, phAve e khAvane ! baso rUpiye DajhanavALI kerIo khAvane, koI pUchanAra nathI. kAraNa ke kerIo sAmo dAvo nahIM mAMDe. tame ene nA khAvane to e kaMI kakaLATa nahIM kare ane A saMbaMdhamAM to tame kahezo ke "mAre nathI joItuM. tyAre e kaheze ke, "nA, mAre to joIe ja che.' e kaheze ke, "mAre sinemA jovA javuM che. tyAre tame na jAva to kakaLATa ! AvI ja banyuM jANe ! kAraNa ke sAmo mizracetana che ane karArI che, eTale dAvo mAMDe. jene kleza karavo nathI, je klezano pakSa kheMcato nathI, ene kleza thAya paNa dhIme dhIme bahu ocho thato jAya. A to kleza karavo ja joIe ema mAne che tyAM sudhI kleza vadhAre thAya. klezanA pakSakAra ApaNe nA banavuM joIe. kleza nathI ja karavo evo jeno nizcaya che tene kleza ochAmAM ocho AvIne paDe che. ane jyAM kleza che tyAM bhagavAna to UbhA ja nA rahe. A saMsAramAM jo viSaya nA hota to kleza ja nA hota. viSaya che tethI kleza che. nahIM to kleza ja hota nahIM ! viSayane ekjhakTa nyAya buddhithI juene to pharI viSaya karavAnuM mANasane mana ja nA thAya. praznakartA: paNa viSaya cIja ja evI che ke te nyAya buddhi jovA na de. dAdAzrI : A viSaya evI vastu che ke eka phero baMdha thayo pachI nA jovA de. sauthI bhAremAM bhAre aMdha eTale lobhAMdha ane enAthI sekanDa naMbara hoya to viSayAMdha. praznakartA : lobhAdhane vadhAre kyAre kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : are, lobhAMdhanI to duniyAmAM vAta ja judI che ne ! lobhAMdha eTale duniyAno eka navI ja jAtano rAjA. viSayavALA to mokSa javAne mATe prayatna kare. kAraNa ke viSayavALAne to kleza thAya ne ! eTale pachI kaMTALe. jyAre lobhAMdhane to kleza paNa nA thAya. e to enI lakSmInI ja pAchaLa paDelo hoya, lakSmI kaMI bagaDatI nathI ne e ja joyA kare ane emAM ja e khuza. chokarAne ghera chokarA hoya toya ene lakSmInI ja paDelI hoya. ane lakSmIne sAcavavA Avato bhava tyAM sApa thaIne bagADe. e strIono saMga jo paMdara dahADA puruSa choDene, paMdara dahADA cheTo rahe, to bhagavAna jevo thaI jAya. praznakartA : paMdara dahADA bairAMthI dUra jatA rahIe to bairAo pachI vahema khAya amArA upara. dAdAzrI : e game te kaho, e badhI vakIlAta kahevAya. e game eTalI vakIlAta karo to cAle vakIlAtamAM, jIto kharA, paNa ekkekTa purAvA nathI e. paMdara ja dahADA ! praznakartA : viSaya bhogavatA nA hoIe, paNa sAthe beDamAM sUI jaIe to vAMdho kharo ?

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha dAdAzrI : eka varasa dahADo chUTA sUI jaI ane pachI sUI javAmAM vAMdho nahIM. varasa dahADo che te ema ne ema ekalA sUI rahevuM joIe. pachI vAMdho nahIM, zuM phAyado thAya, ekalA sUI javAthI ? praznakartA : eka to thAya ke emanA vagara cAlaze ema. dAdAzrI : nA, e to bhAva nA hoya to cAle evuM lAge ja ne ? A to ekalA ja sUI javAnuM judA judA rUmamAM zuM sAyansa haze emAM ? ame kahIe chIe enI pAchaLa zuM sAyansa haze ? praznakartA : vairAga Ave, enAthI vairAga utpanna thAya ? dAdAzrI : vairAga-bairAganI jarUra ja kyAM che ApaNe ? praznakartA : paramANu ekabIjAnA kheMcAya nahIM, judA sUI rahe to. dAdAzrI : nA, paramANuno savAla nathI. bhegAM rahevuM hoya to paNa bhAva nakkI karyo che pachI paramANu zenA kheMcAya ? paramANu kheMcAya to paNa bhAva nakkI karyo che ane vALa vALa kare. AnI pAchaLa sAyanTiphika kAraNa che. 491 varasa dahADo chUTA rahIne pachI tame eka pathArImAM sUI jAvane to je dahADe e bahArathI bahu ja Akho dahADo tapIne Avyo hoyane, te pasIno soDhaze tamane. ane A baIneya pasIno soDhaze. gaMdha utpanna thaze. pelI gaMdha nA khabara paDe. nAka, A indriya khovAI jAya. roja DuMgaLI khAnArAne, DuMgaLI che te AkhA gharamAM bharelI hoya toya ene gaMdha nA Ave. ane DuMgaLI nA khAto hoya, tene ahIMthI baso phUTa che te DuMgaLI hoya to ene gaMdha Ave. eTale nAka indriya badhI khalAsa thaI jAya. eTale A sUI jAya, nahIM to joDe sUvAtuM haze ? A DuMgaLInI vAta tamane samajaNa paDI ? praznakartA H paDI gaI, barAbara. dAdAzrI : AvuM zAneya mAre ApavAnuM. tamAre badhAe jANavuM pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra joIe AvuM jJAna to ! A to mAre kaMI jaNAvI ApavuM paDe ? praznakartA : jyAM sudhI tame bolo nahIM tyAM sudhI e AvaraNa khase nahIM, game eTaluM jANo toya. badhAne vacanabaLathI ja khase. 492 praznakartA : huM to mArI vAta karuM chuM ke jJAna lIdhA pachI, satata kevaLa A bhAva karatI houM ane chatAM nathI chUTatuM. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa e to pahelAMno hisAba chene, eTale chUTako ja nA thAya. praznakartA : viSaya nathI, paNa hUMphane mATe. ema thAya ke nA sAthe sUvuM ja che. dAdAzrI : nA, ema nahIM paNa e to e je A hisAba che ne, te hisAba badho cUkate thAya che. hA, e hisAba cUkate thayo kyAre kahevAya, sAthe sUI jatA hoya ane nA gamatuM hoya e badhuM, aMdara gamatuM nA hoya ane sUI javuM paDatuM hoya tyAre hisAba cUkate thAya. paNa game che ke nahIM eTaluM to pUchI levuM. praznakartA : potAne game, paNa mahIMthI prajJAzakti athavA samaja cetave che. dAdAzrI : manane to bhale game paNa ApaNane game ? praznakartA : e cetavene ke A khoTe raste tuM jaI rahI che. dAdAzrI : to vAMdho nahIM. Dabala beDanI sisTama baMdha karo ne siMgala beDanI sisTama rAkho. A to badhA kaheze, Dabala beDa banAvo, Dabala beDa... pahelAM hindustAnamAM koI mANasa AvI rIte sUto nathI. koI paNa kSatriya nahIM. kSatriya to bahu kaDaka hoya paNa vaizyeya nahIM. brAhmaNoya AvI rIte sUve nahIM, eka paNa mANasa nahIM ! jo kALa kevo vicitra Avyo ? ApaNe tyAM to gharamAM judI rUma nahotA ApatA pahelAM.

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 493 494 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra praznakartA : hA, have to Dabala beDa Ape che. dAdAzrI : pahelAM to ko'ka ko'ka dahADo vahu bhegI thaI te thaI, nahIM to rAma tArI mAyA ! kuTuMba moTA hoya eTale saMyukta kuTuMba te ane atyAre to rUma judI te judI paNa beDa paNa svataMtra Dabala beDa ane pAchuM tame chokarAne kaho ke bhaI. pelI bAja tAro beDa che lIdhelo, tyAM jA eTale uparathI dekhADIe ApaNe. eTale e jANe ke pahelethI Adi-anAdithI sukha AmAM ja che. e pelI bhrAmaka mAnyatA pesI jAya ene. A to bahu jhINI vAta nIkaLe che. praznakartA : zrImad rAjacaMdra ATalI UMcI kakSAnA hatA, chatAM paNa emane A saMsAra bhogavavo paDyo, enuM zuM kAraNa ? dAdAzrI : chUTako ja nahIM, koIne paNa. jeTalo lamaNe lakhelo chene e saMsAra koIne bhogavyA vagara chUTako ja nahIM, DiscArja che. emaNe ghaNuM tapa karyuM paNa tapa-bapa kazuM vaLe nahIM. e cAle nahIM tyAM AgaLa. paNa tyAM AgaLa DiscArja kahevAya nahIM. kAraNa ke kramika mArga ne ! eTale mahAmuzkelI. game nahIM ne thAya nahIM, mahAmuzkelI. mahAvIra bhagavAnane trIsa varSa sudhI saMsAra hato. saMsAra kaMI naDato nathI, tamArI aNasamajaNa naDe che. jJAnI pAsethI jJAna lIdhA pachI rahyuM zuM, tyAre kahe aNasamajaNa tamArI. praznakartA : e ja kADhavAnI muzkela che. dAdAzrI : nahIM, eka ja vakhata samajavAthI aNasamajaNa kAyama mATe ukelAI jAya. duniyAmAM muzkelI jevI vastu ja kazI hotI nathI ne ! koI vastu muzkela nathI hotI. praznakartA : e muzkela che evo khyAla pAcho Ave. ene lIdhe muzkelI vadhI jAya ne ? dAdAzrI : vadhI ja jAya ne ! pachI muzkelInI paraMparA thAya che. jevuM bole evo, ciMtave evo tarata thaI jAya. A je eno svabhAva che ane A jJAna ApyA pachI to rahyuM zuM, kazuM ja rahetuM nathI. A jagatamAM laDavADa kyAM hoya ? jyAM Asakti hoya tyAM ja. pachI je joDI tyAM AgaLa judI thaIne, judI thaIne eka rahevAya pAchuM ne jhaghaDA maTI gayA. jhaghaDA kyAM sudhI hoya ? viSayamAM che tyAM sudhI. pachI "mArItArI' karavA mAMDe, 'A tArI bega uThAvI le ahIMthI. mArI begamAM sADIo kema mUkI ?" e jhaghaDA zuM? viSayamAM eka che tyAM sudhI. ane chUTAM thayA pachI ApaNI begamAM mUke toya vAMdho nathI. e jhaghaDA nA thAyane pachI ! pachI koI jhaghaDo nahIM ne ! keTalAM varSathI brahmacarya vrata lIdhuM ? praznakartA H Ama nava varSa thayAM. dAdAzrI : eTale tyAra pachI jhaghaDA-baghaDA nahIM, kazI bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM ane saMsAra cAlyA kare ! praznakartA : cAle ja chene, dAdA. dAdAzrI : choDIo paiNI, chokarA paiNAvyA, badhuM paiNe... praznakartA : dAdA, gharamAMya nathI thatuM have kazuMya.... dAdAzrI : ema ? saMsAramAM sarasa rahe evuM A vijJAna ! hA, choDIo-chokarA paiNAve. mahIM aDe nahIM, nirlepa rahe. ane du:kha to joyuM ja nathI. ciMtA-biMtA joyelI nahIM, nahIM ? bilakula nahIM, nava varSa ! ATha varSathI ciMtA nahIM joyelI ? zuM vAta karo cho ? praznakartA : hA, Ave to ghaNuM paNa aDe nahIM. dAdAzrI : Ave kharI, e to barobara, saMsAramAM che eTale Ave to kharuM. aDe nahIM, eTaluM ja pAchuM naDeya nahIM kaMI paNa. sephasAIDa, kAyama sephasAIDa. ahIM beThA ja mokSa thaI gayo, pachI have rahyuM zuM? praznakartA dAdA, huM to kahuM chuM ke ahIM ja mokSanAM sukha vartAvA joIe. to ja enI majhA ! dAdAzrI : to ja, sAco mokSa ahIM vartAvo joIe.

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(23) viSaya baMdha tyAM prema saMbaMdha 495 (24) rahasya, RNAnubaMdha taNAM... praznakartA : ane ahIMyAM vartAya che eTale ja kahe chene ! have devaloka nahIM joIe, A saMsAra nahIM joIe, sukha vartAyuM pachI bIjI bhAMjagaDamAM kyAM paDe ? dAdAzrI : hA, ane gADI tyAM ja jaI rahI che. bhale surata sTezane thoDIvAra UbhI rahe vakhate, paNa amadAvAda ja jaI rahI che. cAlo, bahu sAruM ! AvuM huM pUchuM ane pachI e emanAM taraphanuM kahe mane. to mane jarA lAge ke nA, ApaNI mahenata phaLI ! mahenata phaLI enI to AzA rAkhe ne ? pavitra tyArathI hIrAbA kahyAM, pachI kadI na matabheda thayA ! jyAre hIrAbAnI sAthe viSaya mAro baMdha thayelo haze tyArathI huM hIrAbA kahuM emane. tyAra pachI amAre kaMI khAsa aDacaNa AvI nathI. ane pahelAM je hatI te viSayanI sAthamAM, sobatamAM to popaTamastI thAya thoDI ghaNI. paNa e popaTamastI hoya. loka jANe ke A popaTe e popaTIne mAravA mAMDyuM ! paNa hoya popaTamastI. paNa jyAM sudhI viSayano DaMkha che, tyAM sudhI e jAya nahIM. e DaMkha chUTo thAya tyAre jAya. amArI jAta anubhava kahIe chIe. A to ApaNuM jJAna che. tene laIne ThIka che. nahIM to jJAna nA hoya to to DaMkha mAryA ja kare. tyAre to ahaMkArane. emAM ahaMkArano eka bhoga bhAga hoya ke emaNe mane bhogavI lIdho. ane A kaheze, 'eNe mane bhogavI lIdhI.' ane ahIM AgaLa (A jJAna pachI) nikAla kare che e, toya paNa pelI DiscArja kacakaca to kharI ja. paNa teya amAre nahotI, evo matabheda nahoto, koI jAtano. vijJAna to juo ! jagata joDe jhaghaDA ja baMdha thaI jAya. bairI joDe to jhaghaDA nahIM, paNa AkhA jagata joDe jhaghaDA baMdha thaI jAya. A vijJAna ja evuM ane jhaghaDA baMdha thAya eTale chUTayo. pote paramAtmA ne thayo dhaNI, re dazA kevI ! bhaTakAmaNa ghaNI ! A roTalA ne zAka mATe zAdI karavAnI. dhaNI joDe ke huM kamAI lAvuM, paNa A khAvAnuM karI koNa Ape ? bAI jANe ke huM roTalA banAvuM kharI, paNa kamAvI koNa Ape ? ema karIne beu paraNyAM ne sahakArI maMDaLI kADhI. pachI chokarAMya thavAnAM. eka dUdhInuM bI vAvyuM, pachI dUdhiyAM besyA kare ke nA besyA kare ? velAne pAMdaDe dUdhiyAM bese, evuM A mANaso paNa dUdhiyAMnI peTha besyA kare che. dUdhI ema nathI bolatI ke mArAM dUdhiyAM che. A manuSyo ekalA ja bole ke A mArAM dUdhiyAM che. juone A jaDa ne cetana be bhegAM thaIne kevo saMsAra Ubho thaI gayo ! pachI zAdI kare, lagna kare, vevAI thAya, koI vevAI thatuM haze ? tame haju vevAI thayA nahIM hoya, ne ? loka vevAI thAya, vevANo thAya, jamAI thAya, kAkA sasarA thAya, mAmA sasarA thAya, keTalI jAtanI Dakhalo UbhI karI che ! eTale A lagna e to kharekharuM baMdhana che. bheMsane DabbAmAM pure che evI dazA thAya che. e phasAmaNamAM nA pesAya e uttama. peThA hoya toya nIkaLI javAya to vadhu uttama. ane nahIM to chevaTe phaLa cAkhyA pachI nIkaLI javuM joIe. bAkI AtmA koIno dhaNI ke strI, puruSa ke koIno chokaro thaI zakato nathI, phakta A karmo badhAM thaI rahyAM che. AtmAmAM to kazuM AmAM pheraphAra thato nathI. AtmA to AtmA ja che, paramAtmA ja che. te ApaNe mAnI beThA ke A amArI strI !

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM... sATha varasatI yAtrA jIvana, musAphara tyAM zAte vaLagaNa ? 497 A cakalAM suMdara mALo gUMthe che te temane koNa zikhavADavA gayeluM ? A saMsAra calAvavAnuM to Apa meLe ja AvaDe evuM che. hA, 'svarUpajJAna' meLavavA puruSArtha karavAnI jarUra che. saMsArane calAvavA kazuM ja karavAnI jarUra nathI. A manuSyo ekalAM ja bahu doDhaDAhyAM che. A pazu-pakSIone zuM bairI-chokarAM nathI ? temane paraNAvavA paDe che ? A to manuSyone ja bairI-chokarAM thayAM che, manuSyo ja paraNAvavAmAM paDyA che, paisA bhegA karavAmAM paDyA che. alyA, AtmA jANavA pAchaLa mahenata karane ! bIjA kazA mATe mahenata-majUrI karavA jevI che ja nahIM. atyAra sudhI je kaMI karyuM che te poka mUkavA jevuM karyuM che. A chokarAne corI karatAM koNa zikhavADe che ? badhuM bIjamAM ja raheluM che. A lImaDo pAne pAne kaDavo zAthI che ? enA bIjamAM ja kaDavAza rahelI che. A manuSyo ekalAM ja du:khI-duHkhI che paNa emano doSa nathI. kAraNa ke cothA ArA sudhI sukha hatuM ane A to pAMcamo Aro, A ArAnuM nAma ja duSamakALa ! eTale mahAdu:khe karIne samatA utpanna nA thAya. kALanuM nAma ja duSama ! pachI suSama khoLavuM e bhUla chene ? A gAyo-bheMsomAMya paiNe che, chokarAM badhuMya hoya che. paNa che tyAM dhaNI ? eya sasarA thayA hoya che, sAsu thaI hoya che paNa e kaMI buddhizALInI peTha goThavI de che kazuMye ? koI evuM kahe che ke huM Ano sasaro thauM ? chatAM ApaNA jevo ja badho vyavahAra chene ! eya dhavaDAve, vAcharaDAne cATatI hoya chene ! ApaNA akkalavALA cATe nahIM. tyAre e hAtha pherava pherava kare. pelI gAya bicArI hAtha kyAMthI lAve ? paga pherave to paga vAgI bese ne ? eTale cATe pachI. eTale Aya Ano A ja mAla che. vagara kAmano phasAyo che ane eno badho mAra khAya che. tobA tobA pokAre eTalo badho mAra khAya che. eka jhADa upara badhAM paMkhIo AvIne besene rAtre, e sagAM dekhAyAM. e paMkhIone pelI buddhi nathI eTale sagAI nathI karatAM ne A ahIM paiNe pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra che. paheluM ANuM jAya, bIjuM ANuM jAya. basa tophAna tophAna. A badhA copaDAnA hisAbathI bhegA thayA che ne pachI paMkhI badhA savAre UDI jAya, tevuM che. Ane to pULo ja mUkavAnone jyAre tyAre ! 498 jema A ApaNe cAra dhAmanI jAtrAe gayA hoyane, tyAre kaMI bahu evuM rAkhatA nathI. A jiMdagI 50-60 varSanI jAtrA che. ane vagara kAmanA ahIM AgaLa, A mArA mAsIsAsu AvyAM, are melane pULo ! mAsI AvyA, pAchAM mAsIsAsu ? keTalI jAtanI sAsuo ? chatAM ApaNe vyavahArathI kahIe, paNa upalaka badhuM. tamArAM mAsIsAsu hatAM ke nahIM ? praznakartA H chene ! dAdAzrI : hA, juone, ane vaLage mAsIsAsu, 'huM tamArI mAsIsAsu thauM !' AvuM bole, are mUI choDane, mane zuM karavA Ama kare che ? saMsAra bahu agharo. sAsu Ave, vaDasAsu Ave, mAsIsAsu Ave, kAkIsAsu Ave, phoIsAsu Ave. keTalI sAsuo thaze ? dhaNI eka ne sAsuo bahu ! huM tamArI kAkIsAsu thauM. merane, ahIM zuM kAma che tamArI badhInuM, kahIe. eka dhaNI hAruM ATalI badhI vaLagaNa kyAM vaLagADIe ? pati-patnI mAtra vyavahAramAM, tizcayathI AtmA, tahIM saMsAramAM ! A to tame kharekhara dhaNI-dhaNiyANI cho ? vAIpha ane hasabanDa cho ? e te vyavahArathI cho, kharekhara e ekjhekTalI tame nathI evuM. A to vyavahArathI che ApaNe. nAma nAmane paiNyuM che ane tame pote anAmI cho. ane dhaNI kaMI ApaNA mAlika nathI hotA. tAro mAlika dhaNI nathI. te 'maMgaLAbena'nA mAlika dhaNI che, 'tame' judA cho. tamane eka dahADo huM jJAna ApIza tyAre tamane samajAze. pachI kazI asara nahIM thAya. praznakartA : ApanA kahevA pramANe vyavahArathI patnI, bAkI nahIM ? dAdAzrI : bAkI patnI nahIM, vyavahArathI patnI. bAkI kharekhara patnI hoya to thaI ja rahyuM ne ? pachI ApaNI pAse rahyuM zuM te ?

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM... 499 500 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra nA mUkAyuM. paNa pelAne gALa khAvAnI lakhelI te gALoya khAdhIne ! AvaDI AvaDI copaDe. vaLI pAchAM loka paNa AvIne pUche ke tamArA dhaNI kazuM mUkI gayA nathI ? tyAre pAchuM evuM bole ke nA, nA, badhuMya mUkI gayA che. ema to khAvA-pIvAnuM badhuM ja che. have badhA AgaLa bahAra AvuM bole ne manamAM peluM bole ! eTale zuM che, hakIkata AnI pAchaLa ? roMga biliphathI khaDo saMsAra, parArthe jIvyA banyA bharathAra ! ApaNe zuddhAtmA judA ane A maMgaLAnA dhaNI ! manamAM eTaluM samajI javAnuM. moDhe bolavuM nahIM. manamAM samajI levAnuM ke ApaNe judAM ne maMgaLA judI, evuM dAdAe mane kaheluM che. eTaluM tamAre rAkhavAnuM. samaja paDIne ! A eDajasTamenTa to badhA TempararI che. A deha ja TempararI eDajasTamenTa che, e kaMI paramenanTa eDajasTamenTa nathI. eka dahADo eka mANase mane, dekhADyA ke A mArA sasarA che, pelA AvyA te cha mahinA pachI, pelA enA sasarA bhegA thayA, tyAre meM kahyuM, tame phalANA bhAInA sasarA thAone ? to kahe, "huM zeno emano sasaro ?" tyAre huM vicAramAM paDyo ke A mArI bhUla thaI, samajavAmAM bhUla thaI. tyAre meM kahyuM, "kema ?" to kahe, "mArI choDIe DAyavorsa lIdhA, have huM zAno sasaro ?" have AvAM TempararI eDajasTamenTamAM DAyavorsa kema thAya, bhAI ? kAraNa ke vana phemilI rahetAM nathI eTale. tame koI jAtrAe gayA hoya to tyAM koIka vAMko hoya to sAcavI sAcavIne vaDhavaDhA nA thAya eTalA hAru sAcavIe ke nathI sAcavatA ? kema lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : evuM A pacAsa-sATha varSa sAcavavAnuM che. bAkI A jagata badhuM polaMpola che. chatAM vyavahArathI nA bole to pelAnA manamAM duHkha thAya. smazAnamAM joDe jaIne tyAM citAmAM koI paDyuM nahIM. gharanA badhAya pAchA Ave, badhA DAhyA DemarA jevA che. enI mA hoya to eya raDatI raDatI pAchI Ave. praznakartA : pAchuM enA nAmanuM kUTe ke kazuM mUkI to nA gayA. ane be lAkha rUpiyA mUkI gayA hoya to kazuM bole nahIM. dAdAzrI : hA, evuM. A to nathI mUkI gayo tenuM raDe che, ke 'marato gayo ane mArato gayo' evuM hau aMdara bole. kazuM maLyuM nahIM ne amane mArato gayo. have pelAe nA mUkyuM emAM pelI baInuM nasIba kAcuM eTale jema che tema samajaNa nahIM paDavAthI, A duniyAmAM jhaghaDA che. jema che ema jANe, tyAre pachI jhaghaDo hoto ja nathI. tethI bhrAMti kahIne ke mUA, vagara kAmano mAra khAva cho ! vAstaviktAmAM evuM che ja nahIM. ane strIpuruSa che ane bairI-chokarAM che, e badhuM nahIM jANavAthI ja mAnI beThA cho. loko kahe ke tame AnA dhaNiyANI thAva. ne e to badhuM vAMdho nahIM, paNa evuM mAnI nahIM levAnuM. loka to kahe ja. dekhe evuM nA kahe ke A dhaNIdhaNiyANI ! paNa ApaNe mAnI laIe to UMdhuM thAya ne ? mAnI laIe to mAnyAnuM bhUta ApaNane vaLage. khAlI bilipha ja besI gaI che. jagatamAM saMyogo tAraNa kADhavA mATe che, espIrIyansa karavA mATe che paNa loko khAMcAmAM pesI gayA che. zAdI karIne khoLa ke sukha zemAM che ? bairImAM che ? bAbAmAM che ? sasarAmAM che ? sAsumAM che ? zemAM sukha che ? enuM tAraNa kADhane ! lokone dveSa thAya, tiraskAra thAya paNa tAraNa nA kADhe. A jagatanI sagAIo e rileTiva saMbaMdho che, riyala nathI. mAtra tAraNa kADhavA mATe sagAIo che. tAraNa kADhanArA mANasone rAga-dveSa ochA thAya che ane mokSanA mArgano zodhaka thAya. kharo dhaNI che, je du:kha haraNa, ta sAco hIro, A to amerikA ! A saMsAra ja evo che ke khare TAIme koI saguM nA thAya. A vahu sAsunA roja paga dabAva dabAva karatI hoyane, eka dahADo vahunA peTamAM dukhe, to sAsu kaheze ke, ajamo phAkI lo. AvuM to badhA kaheze, paNa kaMI

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pa02 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra dAdAzrI : nA, nA, bahAreya koI pArako nathI. mane to bahAreya koI pArakuM lAgatuM nathI. mane to pArakuM kazuM ja lAgatuM nathI. pArakuM che ja nahIM. badhuM je che te huM ja chuM. tame badhA 'huM ja cho. phakta tamArA 'kapaDAM" mAre jovAnI jarUra nathI, kapaDAM game te pahero. (24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM.. 501 sAsu vahunuM duHkha laI leze? are ! dhaNI ke chokarAMya koI laI leze ? A jagata kevuM che ke baLada laMgaDo thAya tyAM sudhI kAma karAve. paNa jyAre e cAlato baMdha thAya eTale katalakhAne mUkI Ave ! A bApA kamAI lAvatA hoya ke kAma karatA hoya to, bApA vahAlA lAge. paNa pachI jo kAma karatA baMdha thAya, eTale gharanA badhA zuM kaheze ke tame have Ama A bAjue beso. tamArAmAM akkala nathI ! evuM che A jagata ! Akho saMsAra dago che. jo thoDo sago hota to A 'dAdA' tamane nA kaheta ke ATalI sagAI sAcI che. paNa A to saMpUrNa dago ja che. kyAreya sago nathI. jIvato bhamaraDo jaMpavA de nahIM. are, ahIM satsaMgamAM AvavuM hoya, khAlI darzana karavA AvavuM hoya toya nA AvavA de. A AvavA de che e to bahu sAruM kahevAya. A moha konI upara ? juThA sonA upara ? sAcuM hoya to moha rakhAya. A to gharAka-vepArI jevo saMbaMdha. mAla sAro maLe to gharAka paisA Ape. evo A saMbaMdha che. jo eka ja kalAka vara joDe bhAMjagaDa kare to saMbaMdha tUTI jAya. evA saMbaMdhamAM moha zo rAkhavo ? A saMsAra gharanA ja mANasone lIdhe Ubho rahyo che, bIjA kazAthI nahIM. gharano lAbha letAM AvaDatuM nathI. A to pAMca-cha jaNAnuM esosiyezana che. kharI rIte duniyA jItavAnI nathI, ghara jItavAnuM che. mATe ApaNe nA cetIe ? saba sabakI samAlo. ane chevaTe kaMI ApaNuM che nahIM, chatAM koI pArakuMya nathI pAchuM. praznakartA : ApaNuM koI che nahIM ne pArakuMya nathI, banne bAju kema kahe che dAdA ? dAdAzrI : pArakuM kone kahIza ? koI pArako mANasa dekhAto nathI mane. praznakartA: 'huM chuM" te tame cho, ema nahIM, paNa e mArA che ke nahIM, e kaho ? dAdAzrI : mArA ja chene ! hA, paNa jagatamAM saba sabakI samAlo ane pArakuM koI che nahIM. pArakuM karavA jazo toya tamAro mokSa jato raheze ane saba sabakI nahIM samAlo toya mokSa jato raheze. bAya rileTiva bhUpoInTa (vyavahAra) ane bAya riyala vyupoInTa (nizcaya) joDe ja rAkho. amArA strI kharAM paNa bAya rileTiva vyupoInTa, noTa bAya riyala vyupoInTa. ane jene Avo bheda nathI, te strIne zuM kahe ? basa 'huM ne tuM eka ja' kahe che. 'mane tArA vagara gamatuM ja nathI. ane tuM nA houM to huM marI jauM', kahe. are ATaluM badhuM ! te ja pAcho trIje dahADe vahyA kare. 'pote nathI' e thayo, mATe vaDhavADa peThI. eTale e rileTiva vyupoInTathI strI che, mATe vaDhavADa nA pese. e rileTiva che ane ApaNe riyala chIe. to e badhuM cAlyA kare gADuM. pahelAM jevI vaDhavADa thAya have ? praznakartA : nA, pahelAM jevI vaDhavADa nA thAya. dAdAzrI : rileTiva bhUpoInTa jema che tema ApaNe kahyuM. jeTalI che te eTalI ja sagAI rAkho. ekano eka chokaro hoya. tene vAre ghaDIe ema jhAlyo, ke tarata chokaruM pachI kaMTALe ne bacakuM bharI le. rileTivamAM rileTiva rItathI kahone, rileTiva-riyalano tuM sAMdho to samaja ! A jagata e sAMdho samajatuM nathI ane tyAM vaDhavADa karI mUke che. A hakIkatamAM zuM che ke A rileTiva bhUpoInTathI badhA ApaNA che. ane riyala bhUpoInTathI ApaNA nathI. A deha paNa rileTiva praznakartA : eka bAju ApaNe kahIe, 'badhA ApaNA che', bIjI bAju kahIe 'ApaNA nathI" e banne vastu ?

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM... 503 paC4 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra bhUpoInTa che. ene roja sAbu ghasa ghasa karIne, traNa kalAka ghasa ghasa karIe to e ApaNo koI dahADo thAya ? A ApaNe nahAtI vakhate gaMdha nA Ave zarIranI, te thoDIvAra nAhI-dhoIne, sApha karIne, pAMca miniTamAM nAhI levAnuM. ane A to jANe ke riyala hoyane, ema traNa-traNa kalAka nAya ! vilpI saMsAra rahe nATakyio, rAjA nahi, paNa caMdu tamALo ! vikalpa karyA che paNa teno vAMdho nahIM. ApaNe DrAmeTika rahevuM joIe. jAnavaro karatAM ApaNA saMskAra, ApaNI buddhi vizeSa hovAthI, ApaNe A goThavaNI karI che, te goThavaNI karavAmAMya vAMdho nathI paNa DrAmeTika raho. A kharekhara DrAmA ja che. tame ekuya dahADo DrAmeTika rahelA ? praznakartA : Apa kaho cho, e pramANe prAmA ja karIe chIe. dAdAzrI : nA, prAmA karyo to kyAre kahevAya ke inkamaTeksavALAno riphanDa orDara Ave toya mahIM peTamAM pANI nA hAle ane daMDa Ave toya peTamAM pANI nA hAle. kAraNa ke DrAmAmAM to kone khoTa javAnI ? DrAmA pUro thaI rahe eTale khalAsa thaI gayuM. DrAmAmAM to pelo bhartuharI kaheze ke bhikSA dene maiyA pIMgaLA, e badhuM bole. jAtajAtanA abhinaya kare ane e nATakanA jonArA hatA ne amArA baroDAmAM A bhaharIno khela thayelo. te nATaka jonArA be-cAra jaNa nAsI gayAM che te hajIya pAchA nathI AvyA. emane vairAgya AvI gayo ke baIo AvI rIte ja dago-phaTako kare, to saMsAra kema karIne cAle ? alyA, eNe dago-phaTako nathI karyo, A to nATaka che. A nATakano dago-phaTako sAco mAnIne pelAM bicArA jatAM rahyA. evuM che, A lokonuM to ! eNe te ghaDIe e pATha pUro thaI rahe eTale pUchyuM hotane, e bhartuharIne, ke bhaI, tamane bahu du:kha thatuM hatuM ? tyAre e kaheze ke nA, nA, mAre zAnuM du:kha, mAre to pATha barAbara nA bhajavuMne to mAro pagAra kApI le. bAkI huM to lakSmIcaMda chuM. huM kharekhara bhartuharI nathI. huM to bhAnamAM ne bhAnamAM ja rahuM chuM ane sAMje mAre ghera jaIne khIcaDI khAvAnI che. teya ene yAda hoya. ahIM sinemAmAM jAya che ne tyAM mAramAra karatA hoya, dhAMdhala karatA hoyane to jonAranI mahIM keTalAka loka evAM hoya che ke raDI paDe che. have, kharekhara raDavA jevI cIja che ? koI koI suMvALA mANasa hoya te raDI paDe ne ? evuM A jagata che. eTale DrAmA che A, vAIpha che e DrAmAnI, bhAI che e DrAmAno. paNa DrAmA bhajavAze kyAre ? eka phero amArI pAse Avazo ane tamane selphanuM riyalAijha karI ApIzuM, pachI tamAre DrAmA jevuM raheze. pachI tamane saMsAramAM koI cIja duHkhadAyI thaI nahIM paDe ane tamAruM sukha jatuM nA rahe. A to koIka dahADo sukha jatuM rahe chene ? A to iTaselpha DrAmA thayeluM che. jagata tamane DrAmA jevuM lAgatuM nathI ? praznakartA : lAge chene ! dAdAzrI : tame pote zuddhAtmA ne badhA vyavahAro uparachallA eTale ke 'suparaphaluasa' karavAnA che. pote 'homa DipArTamenTamAM rahevuM ane 'phorena'mAM 'suparaphaluasa' rahevuM. 'suparaphaluasa' eTale tanmayAkAra vRtti nahIM te, 'DrAmeTika'. te khAlI A DrAmA ja bhajavavAno che. 'DrAmA'mAM khoTa gaI to paNa hasavAnuM ne napho Ave to paNa hasavAnuM. 'DrAmA'mAM dekhAva paNa karavo paDe, khoTa gaI hoya to tevo dekhAva karavo paDe, moMDhe bolIe kharA ke bahu nukasAna thayuM, paNa mahIM tanmayAkAra nA thaIe. ApaNe 'laTakatI salAma' rAkhavAnI. ghaNA nathI kahetA ke bhaI, mAre to AnI joDe 'laTatI salAma' jevo saMbaMdha che. evI ja rIte AkhA jagata joDe rahevAnuM. jene 'laTakatI salAma' AkhA jagata joDe AvaDI e jJAnI thaI gayo. A deha joDe paNa 'laTakatI salAma', ame niraMtara badhA joDe 'laTatI salAma' rAkhIe chIe toya badhA kahe ke, 'tame amArA para bahu sAro bhAva rAkho cho.' huM vyavahAra badhAya karuM chuM paNa AtmAmAM rahIne. karma potAnAM bhogave pote, poSo paroNA prema bhAve ! praznakartA : strI ane puruSa banne pati-patnI lagabhaga Akho

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM.... 505 506 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra vakhata sAthe ne sAthe hoya che. emano vyavahAra, emanA bannenA karmo paNa joInTa (joDe) baMdhAya che. to enAM phaLa emane kevI rIte bhogavavAnAM hoya dAdAzrI : phaLa to tamAro bhAva jevo hoya evAM tame phaLa bhogavo ane emane bhAva hoya evuM emane bhAvanuM phaLa bhogavavAnuM che. praznakartA: evuM bane kharuM ke patnInA puNyathI puruSanuM cAlatuM hoya ? kahe che ne bairInA puNyathI A lakSmI che ke badhuM sAruM che, evuM bane kharuM? dAdAzrI : e to ApaNA lokoe eka koIka mANasa bairIne bahu mArato hoya, tene samajaNa pADI ke mUA A tArI bairInuM nasIba to jo, zuM karavA bUmo pADuM chuM ? enuM puNya che to tuM khAuM chuM. ema karIne cAlu thaI gayuM. badhA jIvamAtra potAnA puNyanuM ja khAya che. e to badhuM AvuM karavuM paDe to ja rAge paDe. sahusahunA potAnAM puNyanuM ja badhuM bhogave che ane potAnuM pApeya pote ja bhogave che. koIne kazuM levAdevA nathI pachI. eka kiMcit vALa pUratI eya bhAMjagaDa nathI. praznakartA : koI zubha karma kare, dAkhalA tarIke puruSa dAna kare, paNa strIno emAM sahakAra hoya, to bannene phaLa maLe ? dAdAzrI : hAstone, karanAra ane sahakAra eTale karAvanAra, agara to kartA pratye anumodanAra, A badhAne puNya maLe. traNeyane-karanAra, karAvanAra ane kartA pratye anumodanAra. tame jene kahyuM hoya ke A karajo, karavA jevuM che, e karAvanAra kahevAya, tame karanAra kahevAo ane strI vAMdho nA uThAve e anumodanAra. badhAne puNya maLe. paNa karanArane bhAge pacAsa TakA ane pelA pacAsa TakA be jaNane vaheMcAI jAya. praznakartA : amane pacIsa TakA Apo e nA cAle ? dAdAzrI : to jAte karo. hindustAnamAM ghaNA loko, gharanA mANaso to dhaNIne kahe, ke tame A badhuM UMdhA-chatAM karIne paisA lAvo, te tamAruM pApa A tamane lAge. amAre kaMI bhogavavAnuM nathI. amAre joItuM nathI AvuM. je kare e bhogave. have pelo kahe ke amAre nahIM joItuM eTale e anumodanA nA karI eTale enAthI mukta thaI gayA. pArTanarazIpa (bhAgIdArI) karavI hoya te ApaNI marajInI vAta che. emAM kaMI 'DIDa' (karAra) karavAnuM nathI ke sTempa lAvavo paDato nathI. vagara sTempa cAle che. praznakartA : amAre tyAM mahinAmAM paccIsa dahADA raste jatAneya bolAvIne huM jamavA lAvuM. to have huM to khAlI bolAvI lAvuM paNa mahenata badhI to emaNe karIne jamADavuM paDe. to AmAM puNya kone vadhAre maLe ? ApaNe to kariyANA, bIjuM sAmAna laI AvIe, bAkI mahenata to emaNe karIne ? dAdAzrI : eTale tame AmAM karAvanAra kahevAo, e karanAra kahevAya. enI mahIM sAsu hoya te kahe, 'hAru bA, badhAne jamADajo !" to e anumodanAra kahevAya. AvI rIte karanAra, karAvanAra ane anumodanArathI cAle che. have te vakhate emanA manamAM ema thAya ke AvA lapharAM teDI lAvyA A zI bhAMjagaDa ? eTale karanArane bhAMjagaDa lAge to ene bhAge gayuM badhuMya pApa. tamAre bhAge to puNya AvyuM. A (vAIpha) bahAra zuM bole, AvanArAne ema kahe ke tame AvyA cho te bahu sAruM thayuM, A mane gamyuM ane manamAM zuM bole ke A kaMIthI teDI lAvyA vagara kAmanAM A lapharAM ! AnuM nAma badhuM ja kinDara gArTana. bhaya tiraskAra doSathI aMdha, pratikramaNa choDAve RNabaMdha ! praznakartA : pUrvajanmanA RNAnubaMdhamAMthI chUTavA mATe zuM karavuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe jenI joDe pUrvanuM RNAnubaMdha hoya ane te ApaNane gamatuM ja na hoya, enI joDe sahavAsa na ja gamato hoya ane sahavAsamAM rahevuM ja paDatuM hoya pharajiyAta, to zuM karavuM joIe ke bahArano vyavahAra enI joDe rAkhavo joIe kharo paNa aMdara enA nAmanA pratikramaNa karavA joIe. kAraNa ke ApaNe AgalA avatAramAM atikramaNa

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM... kareluM hatuM tenuM A pariNAma che. kaoNjhijha zuM karyA hatA ? to kahe, atikramaNa karyuM hatuM enI joDe pUrvabhavamAM, tenuM A bhavamAM phaLa AvyuM. eTale enuM pratikramaNa karIe to e plasa-mAinasa thaI jAya. eTale aMdara enI tame mAphI mAMgI lo, mAMga mAMga karyA karo ke meM je doSa karyA hoya tenI mAphI mAMguM chuM. koI paNa bhagavAnanI sAkSIe, to badhuM khalAsa thaI jaze. nahIM to pachI zuM thAya che, enA tarapha bahu doSita jovAthI, koI puruSane strI doSita bahu jo jo kare eTale tiraskAra vadhe ane tiraskAra chUTe eTale bhaya lAge. jeno ApaNane tiraskAra hoyane teno bhaya lAgaze tamane. e dekho ke tamane gabharAmaNa thAya, eTale jANIe ke A tiraskAra che. eTale tiraskAra choDavA mATe ApaNe aMdara mAphI mAMga mAMga karo. be ja dahADAmAM e tiraskAra baMdha thaI jaze. e nA jANe, tame aMdara mAphI mAMga mAMga karo enA nAmanI, enA tarapha je je doSo karyA hoya, bhagavAna huM kSamA mAguM chuM. A doSanuM pariNAma che mane. koI paNa mANasa joDe je je doSa karyA hoya, ke aMdara tame bhagavAna pAsethI mAphI mAMga mAMga karo to badhuM dhovAI jaze. paraNyA pachI ta choDa saMsAra, nikAla kara karelA karAra ! 507 praznakartA : ApaNe dharmanA mArge javuM hoya to, gharasaMsAra choDavo paDe. e dharmanA kAma mATe sAruM kahevAya paNa gharanA lokone duHkha thAya paNa potAne mATe gharasaMsAra choDe e sAruM kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : nA. gharavALAno hisAba cUkavavo ja paDe. emano hisAba cUkavyA pachI e badhA khuza thaIne kahe ke 'tame jAva' to vAMdho nathI. paNa emane duHkha thAya evuM karavAnuM nahIM. kAraNa ke e egrImenTa (karAra)no bhaMga karI zakAya nahIM. bAkI dhAryuM kazuM thAya nahIM. puNya karyuM hoya to dhAryuM thAya ane pApa kareluM hoya to dhAryuM koI dahADo thAya ja nahIM, to pachI tame bIjuM zuM karavAnA hatA ? amathA saMDAsa javAnI zakti nahIM ne zuM kUdAkUda karo pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra cho ? ApaNane ema che ke A ApaNuM ghara che ne kuTuMba che. nA, karmo khapAvavAnI dukAna che. gharAka-vepArI jevo saMbaMdha che. 508 praznakartA : bhautika saMsAra choDI devAnuM mana thAya che, to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : bhautika saMsAramAM pesavAnuM mana thatuM hatuMne ? eka dahADo ? praznakartA : e to tyAre jJAna nahotuM. have to jJAna AvyuM che eTale emAM pharaka paDe che. dAdAzrI : hA, emAM pharaka paDe paNa jo e peThA eTale have nIkaLavAno rasto khoLavo paDe. ema ne ema bhAgI nA javAya. lagnano keTalAM varSano konTrAkTa (karAra) karelo che ? praznakartA : khabara nathI ? dAdAzrI : evuM chene, koI karAra lakhI Apyo hoya to karAra pramANe cAlavuM paDene ? praznakartA : evo karAra to koNa lakhI Ape ! dAdAzrI : nA, e to janma vakhate karAra lakhAI ja jAya. ApaNe samajavuM hoya to sahI nahIM karavI. eTale nIce moDhe sahana karye ja chUTako ! praznakartA : paNa keTalA janmo sudhI karavuM paDaze evuM ? dAdAzrI : e to pharI pAchA karAra karavAnI bhAvanA thAya, to nakkI karI rAkhavuM ke have pharI karAra karavo ja nathI, to nahIM thAya. praznakartA : hA dAdA, gAMTha vALI dIdhI che, nakkI ja karI dIdhuM che. dAdAzrI : karI ja nAkhavA jevuM e gAMTha karAravALI che. A chokarAMo joDeya karAra che ane dhaNI joDeya karAra, badhA karAro che. A saMsAra karAra che eno vAMdho nahIM, ApaNe chUTA ane Aya chUTA, evI rIte cAle evuM che.

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM... pote ja chApI pAThavI kaMkotrI, bAjhe 'phAIlo' racatA kudaratI ! 509 praznakartA : jIvanamAM je kaMI bane che e karmodayane lIdhe che to pachI karmanI ke koI saMbaMdhanI pasaMdagI e ApaNI hoI ja nA zakene ? dAdAzrI : eTale tamAre AmanI joDe samabhAve nikAla, ukela lAvavo joIe. hA, A vAIpha kudarate nathI ApyA. tame pote ja lAvyA cho. jenI joDe vyavahAra maMDAyo tenI joDeno ja vyavahAra che A. jo vyavahAra nA maMDAyo hota to nA bhegA thAta. praznakartA : e paNa pUrvano maMDAyelone, dAdA ? dAdAzrI : hA, pUrveno maMDAyelo te A bhavamAM bhegA thayA. have bhaviSyamAM pAchuM AgaLa na baMdhAya, eTalA mATe tame have zuddhAtmA tarIke jJAtA-draSTA raho. eTale cArja na thAya ane jUnuM che te DiscArja thayA kare. praznakartA : eTale A saMsAra vyavahAramAM keTalAka loko mAtA-pitA potAnA dIkarAnI patnI pasaMda karavA jatAM hoya che, dIkarIno jamAI pasaMda karavA jatAM hoya che, pote potAnI pasaMda karavA. emAM kayuM dhoraNa AvatuM haze A saMbaMdhomAM ? dAdAzrI : badhA ja karmanA udaya che A. karmanA udayanI bahAra kazuMya nathI. e to enA manamAM khAMDa khAya che ke meM pasaMda karI ne huM lAvyo chuM eTale have mAre vAMdho nathI. paNa be varSa pachI pAchuM eya phrekcara thaI jAya. tame be bhegA kevI rIte thayA, zuM kAraNathI thayA, koNe bhegA karI ApyA ? praznakartA : gayA janmamAM ame banne mitra hatA eTale bhegA thayA. dAdAzrI : nA. phrenDa (mitra) hoya toya nA thAya. phrenDa eka avatAramAM strI nA thaI jAya, phrenDane cAra-pAMca avatAra joIe tyAre strI pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra thAya. eTale A badho hisAba che. badho pAchalA hisAba che te cUkate karavAnA che. 510 A jagata cUkate karyA pachI nanAmImAM jAya che. A bhavanA to cUkate karI nAkhe che ja game te raste, pachI navA bAMdhyA te judA. have ApaNe navA bAMdhIe nahIM ne jUnA A bhavamAM cUkate thaI ja javAnA. badho hisAba cUkate thayo eTale bhaI-baI cAlyA nanAmI laIne ! jyAM kaMI paNa copaDAmAM bAkI rahyuM hoya tyAM thoDA dahADA vadhAre rahevuM paDe. A bhavanuM A dehanA AdhAre badhuM cUkate ja thaI jAya. pachI ahIM jeTalI gUMco paDI hoya te joDe laI jAya ne pharI pAcho navo hisAba zarU thAya. ta maLe AtA A ja bhavobhava, rAju-tema ja maLyA bhava tava ! praznakartA : ApaNo hisAba hoya ane pUro thaI jAya eTale pachI pelI vyakti deha choDIne jatI rahe. pachI eno kaMI hisAba navo baMdhAya to pachI ApaNI joDe bhegI thAya kharI ? eno hisAba pAcho bIjo hoya to e vyakti pachI bIjA bhavamAM ke game tyAM bhegI thAya kharI ? dAdAzrI : enI joDe hisAba bAMdhyo hoya to bhego thAya. koIne dekhIne jagata bhUlI javAtuM hoya to hisAba baMdhAI cUkyo che. 'mAro ekano eka bAbo, mane gamatuM nathI enA vagara.' tyAre smazAnamAM jaIza tyAre zuM karIza ? 'evuM nA bolazo, nA bolazo. mAro ekano eka bAbo che.' kahe che. to nA bolIe to kaMI A gayA vagara rahevAnA che kaMI ? dhaMdho ja smazAnano che ne, A duniyAno. e smazAnamAM javA hAru A loko janme che. praznakartA H dareka divasa ocho thato jAya che. dAdAzrI : mAruM kahIne maravAnuM. mAruM che nahIM pAchuM. e vahelI jAya to ApaNe ekalA besI rahevAnuM. sAcuM hoya to be sAthe ja javuM joIene ? ane vakhate dhaNInI pAchaLa satI thAya toya e kaye mArge gaI ane A

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM... 511 512 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra dhaNI kaye mArge gayo hoya ? sahu sahunA karmanA hisAbe gati thavAnI. koI jAnavaramAM jAya ne koI manuSyamAM jAya, koI devagatimAM jAya. emAM satI kaheze ke huM tamArI joDe marI jAuM to tamArI joDe mAro janma thAya. paNa evuM kazuM bane nahIM. A to badhI ghelachA che. A dhaNI-bairI evuM kazuM che nahIM. A to buddhizALI lokoe goThavaNI karI che. praznakartA: pachI A bhavamAM e ja patnI joDe AkhI jiMdagI rahyA hoya ne bhAva karyA hoya ne 'A ja bhavobhava maLo' to enuM e ja maLe kharuM ? dAdAzrI : nA, bA. praznakartA : dAdA, sAme evo ja bhAva hoya to? sAme evo bhAva vAIphano hoya to ? dAdAzrI : to maLe. praznakartA H to maLe ? dAdAzrI : bannenuM egrImenTa barobara maLe to maLI Ave. paNa teya pAchuM bannenuM egrImenTa barobara hoya to. paNa pApa to judI judI jAtanA karelAM ne, eTale tame mANasamAM AvyA hoya tyAre e che te cAra pagavALI thaI hoya. bolo have, te A meLa paDavo bahu vasamo che. praznakartA: to A nemInAtha bhagavAna paNa sAta janma sudhI sAthe hatAne ? dAdAzrI : nava-nava avatAra sudhI. praznakartA : emaNe dAdA banne jaNe evA bhAva karyA haze ? dAdAzrI : hA, banne jaNe bhAva karelA. paNa e to pAchuM eka patnIvrata kevuM ? eka patnIvrata ane eka pativrata hoya. bIjAno to vicAra ja nA kare. bIjo dhaNI game nahIM ane eka ja pati. ane eka ja patnI. ane A to bIjI jagyAe hau nAcI Ave. nAcI Ave ke nA nAcI Ave ? nahIM ? koI hAthamAM AvavI joIe nAcavA. praznakartA: jo koI jAtanI takarAra nA thAya, to AvatA janma pAchuM sAthe rahevAya kharuM ? dAdAzrI : A janmamAM ja rahevAnuM nahIM, A janmamAM ja DAyavorsa (chUTAcheDA) thaI jAya che, te vaLI AvatA bhavanI zI vAta karo cho ? evo prema ja nA hoya ne ! AvatA janmanA premavALAmAM to kakaLATa ja nA hoya. e to ijhI lAIpha (saraLa jiMdagI) hoya. bahu premanI jiMdagI hoya. bhUla ja nA dekhAya. bhUla kare toya nA dekhAya, evo prema hoya. praznakartA: to e premavALI jiMdagI hoya to pachI AvatA bhavamAM pAchA enA e bhegA thAya ke nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : hA thAyane, koI evI jiMdagI hoya to thAya. AkhI jiMdagI kakaLATa na thayo hoya to thAya. praznakartA : ane kakaLATa thAya to bhegA nA thAya evuM ? dAdAzrI : nA. praznakartA H jema ke thoDA jhaghaDA, thoDAka prema, evuM badhuM vArApharatI hoya to jiMdagI jIvavAnI majA rahe. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa e to lokone pachI chUTako nA thAya ne AvuM pote thaI jAya, bole tyAre to AvuM to thaI jAya che. praznakartA to dhaNI, vAIpha, mA-bApa, chokarAM, bhAI-bahena vagerenA je sagAM-saMbaMdhI maLe che e kyA AdhAre maLe che ? dAdAzrI : e to A badho ApaNo hisAba. rAga-dveSa RNAnubaMdhanA kAraNe. rAga-dveSa thayelA hoyane ? bahu rAga hoya tyAre che te mA thAya, bApa thAya, vAIpha thAya, ocho rAga hoya to kAkA thAya, mAmA thAya, phUA thAya. A badhuM rAgathI ja badhuM UbhuM thayuM che. rAga ne dveSa. dveSa hoya toya mA thAya. te bene mA-dIkarAne meLa ja paDe nahIMne ! AkhI jiMdagI meLa

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM... 513 pa14 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra paDe nahIM bilakula. praznakartA : ame have pAchA hasabanDa ane vAIpha tarIke ja bhegAM thavAnA ? dAdAzrI : nA. eno kaMI niyama nahIM paNa bhegAM thaze. koI paNa rasta hisAba che te bhegAM thaze. tyAM sudhI cAle nahIM, A to badhuM hisAbI khAtuM che. manamAM mAnI beTho che ke huM dhaNI, muA zeno dhaNI tuM ? jyAM sudhI DAivorsa nahIM lIdhA tyAM sudhI dhaNI. A to ko'kane kahIe ke A mArA sasarA. to kyAM sudhI ? pelI baIe DAivorsa nahIM lIdhI tyAM sudhI. praznakartA: dAdA, ApaNAmAM to evuM nA bole, ema kahe janama janama kA sAtha hai. dAdAzrI : hA, evuM bole. lokone ema karIne gAMTho vALI levI che, emAM kazuM vaLe nahIMne ! kudaratane ghera cAle nahIMne ! kudarata to bahu cokkasa. kazI sagAI nathI, kazuM che ja nahIM, badhuM mAneluM che, paNa mAneluM kaMI chUTe nahIM. mAneluM to kAyadesara, to kAyadesara rIte chUTe. gatabhave lIvaranI ghaDI cAvI, e ja lIvaratuM "tALuM maLe AvI ! praznakartA : dAdA, atyAre A vAIpha ja maLI, to gayA bhavamAM AnI joDe ja bhAva karelA eTale A ja maLI ? dAdAzrI : nA, nA. praznakartA : to kayA AdhAre maLI ? dAdAzrI : evuM hotuM haze ? cAvIo keTalA lIvaranI Ave che ? tALA keTalAM lIvaranAM hoya che ? praznakartA: keTalAM lIvara ? cAra lIvara, ATha lIvara... hoya evA. - dAdAzrI : te ApaNe kahIe, jo bhaI, cha lIvaranuM tALuM lAvaje, haM, be-traNa lIvaranuM nA lAvIza. te ApaNe gayA avatAre bhAvanA karI hoyane ke "AvA lIvaravALuM tALuM joIe' eTale maLI Ave. ApaNane A ja hatI' hisAba evo nahIM. thoDuM game chene badhuM A ? badhuM pUchI lo. A varlDa okjharaveTarI che. ane tame je tALuM kharIdyuM te ja A tALuM. have bIjAnuM tALuM joIne, tamane A tALuM gamatuM nathI, evuM kaho to e tamArI bhUla che. pachI A tame je lIdhI hatI te ja DijhAIna pAsa karIne lIdhelI, uparathI sahIsikkA hI che. have tame bIjAnuM tALuM juo eTale kaho "AvuM joIe, mAre bhAga A kyAMthI AvyuM ?" te pachI e cAlatuM haze ? pachI e ja tALuM Akho avatAra calAvI levuM paDe. tamane kema lAge che ? praznakartA : barAbara che. dAdAzrI : paNa e pUrvabhavanuM kaoNjhijha hoya tyAre ja bhegA thAyane, ahIM AgaLa sagA tarIke ? vahu kaMI ema ne ema thatI nathI. aDasaTTo nathI A, gapyuM nathI. e to pahelAnI DijhAIna ApaNI cItarelI, enA guNa-badhuM cItareluM, te ja AvIne maLyuM che A. eTale A janma e badhuM che te gamyuM nathI. potAnI icchAthI pragati che. A kaMI koInA dabANathI nathI, potAnI icchAmAM Ave tevI jagyAe janma-banma badhuM ja A thAya che. dhaNIya potAnI icchAmAM Ave te lAvyA hoya paNa pachI che te sAmAnuM jue ane mApe eTale A to Ano sAro che ne mAro kharAba. e tyAM pachI bagaDI jAya. bAkI laIne Ave che te potAnI icchApUrvakanuM TenDara bharyuM hatuM e. DijhAIna-bijhAIna badhuM e laIne Ave che. paNa ahIM AvyA pachI buddhithI pharI jAya che. eTale huM kahuM chuM, calAvI le ne ? mUA, te ja kareluM che. teM sahI karelI mATe konTekTa pUro karI nAkha ne ! ApaNe sahI karI ApI pachI..... ! praznakartA : hA, hA. dAdAzrI : eka mANasa mane pharavA teDI gayelo, te injiniyara hato,

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM... trIsa varSano hato. meM kahyuM 'zuM che ? vahu joDe phAve che ke nahIM ?" 'nathI bolato enI joDe' kahe che. meM kahyuM, 'alyA, atyArathI nahIM bolato te AkhI jiMdagI zI rIte kADhIza tuM ?" tyAre kahe, 'nA, eno svabhAva barAbara nathI ne milanasAra nathI ne Ama nathI ne tema nathI.' meM kahyuM, tyAre jovA zuM gayo hato tyAM ?" tyAre kahe, "aMdaranuM koNe joyuM che ? meM to bahAra joI.' tyAra pachI meM ene samajaNa pADI. hamaNe cAra-pAMca jaNa beThA hoya ne tane eka tALuM levA mokalIe ane tuM badhAM tALAM joI ane pachI tALuM laIne Avyo pachI ene pAchuM ApavA javAnuM thAya to zarama Ave ke nA Ave tane ? tyAre kahe, 'nA, e to pachI nA apAya.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'A laIne Avyo mUA tALuM, have AkhI jiMdagI calAvI le !' te cAlyuM paNa, enuM gADuM cAle che, atyAreya cAle che. 515 ATalI meM cAvI vAsI ApI ke tALuM khulluM thaI gayuM. aNasamajaNa badhI, gappAM ! tALuM laIne Avyo hoya to eTalo ropha mArIe chIe ke mAruM lAveluM pAchuM kema ApavuM paDe have ! huM joIne lAvyo ne.. nahIM to potAno ropha zuM rahyo emAM te ? ane A te kaMI... A kaMI bhoTavA (mATalI) che te badalAya ? mATInA bhoTavA hoya to badalI levAya. nahoya bhoTavA A to. AvuM nA thAya. eTale keTalA rUma joIze, badhuM e pote lakhIne lAvyo che. te eTaluM ja ene maLeluM hoya che. have bIjAnuM joIne ene lobha jAge che ane te tenuM nAma ja invAiTeDa (bolAvelAM) duHkha. ko'kanuM joIne duHkha A. te koIno dhaNIya ApaNe zuM karavA joIe sAro, te ApaNo kharAba dekhAya ? badhAMya taDabUcAM e koI AvaDuM taDabUcuM, koI AvaDuM hoya. gayA avatAranuM egrImenTa pachI ja A badhuM tamane maLe che ane ahIM AvIne ko'kanuM joIne caMpe caDhe te pachI zuM thAya te ! huM to koI dahADo koInuM joIne nakala karuM ja nahIM ne ! huM jANuM ke ApaNe karAra karIne AvyA chIe. je hoya e karekTa (barAbara). A karAra karIne AvelA che. eTale Ama samaje nahIM. to karAra pramANe tuM tArI meLe Ano niveDo lAvI nAkha A bAbatamAM. bIjo navo sAro karAra kara, navo karuM ne to sAro kara paNa A pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra jUno karAra che te egrImenTa para sahI thayA pachI bUmAbUma pADIe e guno che. A vAIphane pAsa karIne lAvyA. ane have ahIMyAM AgaLa bUmo pADe to zuM thAya ? vAIpha jAya nahIM ne navuM vaLe nahIM dahADo ! A ja vAIpha maLavI e gaNyuM nathI ke ko'ke ghAlI dIdhI ! ApaNA karAra pramANe che. phalANA gAmanI ne phalANA bhAInI dIkarIne, badhuM karAra ! mArI vAta samajaNa paDe to kAma nIkaLI jAya. praznakartA H barAbara samaja paDI. dAdAzrI : e to karAra che A. praznakartA : have A samajyA pachI muktinI icchA thAya che. dAdAzrI : tyAre bIjuM zuM icchA thAya te ? taDabUcAMnuM joIne zuM kADhavAnuM ? keTalo sAro eno dhaNI ! vaLI dhaNI kaheze ke keTalI dekhAvaDI che ? eTale ene pUchyuM pachI, dhaNI ahIMyA Ava. tane dekhAvaDI bahu dekhAya chene ? have eka phero dAjhI gaI ahIM AgaLa. AkhuM zarIra ATaluM pagahAtha dAjhI gayo, cAmaDI utarI jAya, pachI paruM nIkaLe, te ghaDIe kaheze, hAtha dhovaDAvo to tuM zuM karuM ? nA dhovaDAvuM, nA dhovaDAvuM. tyAre meracakkara ! ghanacakkara chuM ke zuM ? kevI sarasa hatI ! te have hAtha pheravane ? pelI bahu mohI hoyane to pelI kahe, 'lyo, have cATo ahIM AgaLa', to TADho paDI jAya. e AmAM zuM kADhavAnuM che ? A to rezamI cAdare bAMdheluM mAMsa che, hADakAM che ! 516 tAca AdhAre maLe tAcatArI, zAdInA AdhAre veSa saMsArI ! nAca karAvavo che evuM joIe ke nAcanArI lAvavI che evuM joIe che, e nakkI karavuM paDe. nAca karAvavo che evuM hoya eTale nAcanArI to Ave ja. enAM tabalAM, DholakAM, vAjAM badhuM lazkara laIne Ave. nAcanArInA AdhAre nAca che ke nAcanA AdhAre nAcanArI che ? ghInA AdhAre pAtra che ke pAtranA AdhAre ghI che ? ghI ane pAtramAM to samajAya ke pAtranA

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(24) rahasya RNAnubaMdha taNAM... 517 (25) Adarza vyavahAra, jIvanamAM AdhAre ghI che. ghI DhaLI gayuM tethI samajAya. praznakartA : ekabIjAnA AdhAre chene ? dAdAzrI : hA, paNa e saMsArI vAkya kahevAya. ane ApaNane asaMsArI javAba joIe che. ApaNe AhAra karavA AvyA ne khAvAnI badhI vastuo paDI hoya to AhArIne lIdhe AhAra ke AhArane lIdhe AhArI ? AhArane lIdhe AhArI che evuM nAcanA lIdhe nAcanArI che. hamaNe ko'kane jeTha hoya to jeTha konA AdhAre ? zAdI karI to jeTha thayA, zAdI nA thaI hota to jeTha ke diyara hoya ? eTale zAdInA AdhAre A badhuM che. eTale ApaNe je yojanA karI ke nAca jovo che to e yojanA phaLe tyAre nAcanArI bhegI thaI jAya. eTale A bhavamAM jo strI nA ja gamatI hoya to A bhavamAM bhAvathI nakkI karo, ke have lagnaya karavuM nathI ne paiNavuMya nathI. e bhAva karo to pachI enuM pariNAma AvatA bhavamAM Ave. A bhavamAM to gayA avatAranAM pariNAma bhogavye ja chUTako. dinacaryA sAte di'nI seTiMga, Adarza jIvana ne mokSe leMDiMga dAdAzrI : jiMdagIne zI rIte sudhAravAnI ? praznakartA sAcA mArge javAthI. dAdAzrI : keTalA varSa sudhI sudhAravAnI ? AkhI jiMdagI keTalA varSa, keTalA divasa, keTalA kalAka, zI rIte sudhare e badhuM ? praznakartA : khabara nathI mane. dAdAzrI : haM, tethI sudharatuM nathI ne ! ane kharI rIte be ja divasa sudhAravAnA che. eka varkiMga De (kAma para javAno divasa) ane eka che te rajAno divasa, holI De (rajAno divasa), be ja divasa sudhAravAnA savArathI sAMja sudhI. be pheraphAra kare eTale badhAya pheraphAra thaI jAya. benI goThavaNI karI dIdhI ke badhA e pramANe cAle pachI. ane e pramANe cAlIe eTale A badhuM rAge paDI jAya. lAMbo pheraphAra karavAno ja nathI. A kaMI badhAeya rojanA pheraphAra nathI karatA. A benI goThavaNI ja karI devAnI che. be divasanI goThavaNI kare eTale badhA divasa AvI gayA. praznakartA : e goThavaNI kevI rIte karavAnI ? dAdAzrI : kema ? savAramAM UThIe, eTale UThyA eTale pahelAM che te bhagavAnanuM smaraNa je karavuM hoya te karI levuM. eka to savAramAM vaheluM

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(25) Adarza vyavahAra, jIvanamAM 519 para pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra UThavAno rivAja rAkhavo joIe. kAraNa ke mANase lagabhaga pAMca vAgethI UThavuM joIe. te aDadho kalAka che te potAnI ekAgratAnuM sevana karavuM joIe. koI iSTadeva ke game te hoya enI paNa bhakti kaMI ekAda aDadho kalAka evI goThavaNI karavAnI. evuM roja cAlyA kare pachI. pachI che te UThIne pachI braza ne e badhuM karI levAnuM. brazamAMya sisTama goThavI devAnI. ApaNe jAte ja braza levuM. e badhuM jAte karavuM. koIneya nahIM kahevuM joIe. pachI mAMdA-sAjA hoya tyAre judI vastu che. pachI cA-pANI Ave. to kakaLATa nahIM mAMDavAno ne je kaMI Ave e pI levAnuM. khAMDa jarA kAlathI vadhAre nAkhajo, kahIe, cetavaNI ApavI ApaNe. kakaLATa nA mAMDavo. cA pIdhA pachI nAsto-bAsto je karavAno hoya te kaMI karI lIdho ane pachI jamIne joba para javAnuM thAya te joba para ApaNe tyAMnI pharaja bajAvavAnI. jobathI ghera kakaLATa ryA vagara nIkaLavAnuM ane jobamAM che te bosa joDe bhAMjagaDa thaI hoya te pachI rastAmAM zAMta karI devI. A breInane (magajanI) ceka naTa dabAvI devI, e reIjha thaI gaI hoya to. ane zAMta thaIne gharamAM pesI javuM. eTale gharamAM kazo kakaLATa nahIM karavAno. bosa joDe laDe che temAM bairIno zo doSa bicArIno ? tAre bosa joDe jhaghaDo thAya ke nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : rajAnA divase ApaNe nakkI karavuM ke Aja rajAno divasa che eTale sAruM sAruM jamavAnuM banAvavuM joIe, pachI jamIne chokarAM, vAIphane, badhAMne kaMI pharavAnuM nA maLatuM hoya to ApaNe pharavA teDI javAM joIe. pharIne pachI bahu limiTa rAkhavAnI ke holIDene divase ATalo ja kharca ! koI vakhate eksTrA (vadhAre) karavo paDe to ApaNe bajeTa karIzuM kahIe paNa bAkI nahIM to ATalo ja kharca. e badhuM ApaNe nakkI karavuM joIe. ApaNe vAIpha pAse ja nakkI karAvavuM. praznakartA : e kahe che ghara veDhamI khAvI joIe. pIjhA khAvA bahAra nahIM javAnuM? dAdAzrI : khuzI khuzIthI veDhamI khAva, badhuM khAva, DhokaLAM khAva, jalebI khAva, je phAve e khAva. praznakartA : paNa haoNTalamAM pIjhA khAvA nahIM javAnuM? dAdAzrI : pIjhA khAvA ? te ApaNAthI khavAya kema karIne? ApaNe to Arya prajA. chatAM zokha hoya to be-cAra vakhata khavaDAvIne pachI dhIme dhIme choDAvI devA. dhIme dhIme choDAvI daIe. ekadama ApaNe baMdha karI daIe e khoTuM kahevAya. ApaNe joDe khAvA lAgIne pachI dhIme dhIme choDAvI devuM. praznakartA : vAIphane banAvavAno zokha nA hoya to ApaNe zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe bIjo zokha badalI nAkhavo. bIjI bahu cIjo che ApaNe tyAM. bIjo zokha badalI nAkhavAno. ane raI-methInA vaghAranuM nA bhAvatuM hoya to pachI taja ne mariyAno vaghAra karI devaDAvavo. eTale sAruM lAge. pIjhAmAM to zuM khAvAnuM hoya ? eTale goThavaNI kare to badhuM jIvana sAruM jAya ane savAramAM kaMIka aDadhA kalAka bhagavAnanI bhakti kare to kAma rAge paDe. tane to jJAna maLI gayuM eTale tuM to have DAhyo thaI gayo. paNa bIjAne jJAna nA maLyuM hoya praznakartA : thAya ne. dAdAzrI : to strIno zo doSa? tyAM laDIne Avyo hoya to strI samajI jAya ke Aja mUDamAM nathI mUo. mUDamAM nA hoya ne ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : eTale AvI goThavaNI eka divasanI A karI hoya, varkiMga De nI ane eka holIDanI. ja jAtanA divasa Ave che. trIjo dahADo koI Avato nathIne ? eTale be divasa goThavaNI karI, e pramANe cAlyA kare pachI. praznakartA : have rajAnA dahADe zuM karavAnuM?

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(25) Adarza vyavahAra, jIvanamAM tene kaMI bhakti karavI joIe ne ? tAruM to rAge paDI gayuM ne ? praznakartA : hA, dAdA. dAdAzrI : bIjo kaMI prazna hoya to pUcho, jiMdagInA je je prazno hoya, jAta jAtanA prazno, muMjhAmaNa thAya evA prazno badhA jAtajAtanA, nakAmA muMjhAvAnI jarUrata zuM che ? 521 tamAre bahu sudhAravAnuM hotuM nathI. kAraNa ke bahu jaNa sAthe tamAre saMyogo hotA nathI. tamArA gharanA mANaso, oNphisanA mANaso ane ko'ka dA'Do rajA hoya tyAre bIjA bahAranA thoDAka mANasa hoya. e badhA saMyogo sudhArI levAnA che. eTalA saMyogo sudhArI lIdhA eTale tame jItI gayA. jo AkhI duniyA joDe hoyane to tamArAthI sudhArI nA zakAya. paNa ATalA joDe sudhArI levAmAM tamane zuM nukasAna che ! have A DaoNkTara kahe che, mAre be hajAra-pAMca hajAra mANaso hoya, to ApaNe badhA joDe bhAMjagaDa che evuM nathI. emAM ko'ka garIba mANasa hoyane teTalA ja pUratuM sAcavavAnuM hoya. bIjA zrImaMtone joDe sAcavavAnuM hotuM nathI. garIbane bicArAne calAvI levAnuM, nabhAvI levAnuM ane baso DaoNlara ochA Ape to ? toya davA ApavI, pharI cAlu rAkhavI, davAnuM hau thaI raheze, kahIe. kaMI khoTa AvavAnI nathI. ApaNe kyAM laIne AvyA hatA ? ahIM laIne AvyA hatA ? have kazuMya nahIM, mahIM kudarata badhuM aMdara nyAya che ja badho. kudarata tamArA hAthe ja apAvaDAve che, kudarata jAte ApavA AvatI nathI. mATe jaza kema nA levo ? koIne to bahu prasaMgo hoyane, to zI rIte sudhArI zake ? toya sudhAre che, huM ene samaja pADuM chuM ne sudhAre che. tamAre to tyAM AgaLa oNphisamAM jaIne graja koInI joDe nahIM karavAno. e ApaNI joDe graja karato hoya to ApaNe jANIe ke enuM mAInDa halakuM che. chatAM ene halakAya kahevo nahIM, manamAM halakuM nahIM mAnavAnuM. halako mAnavo e eka jAtano dveSa che. e eno svabhAva che, e kADhI nAkhavuM. paNa ApaNane enA mATe kharAba vicAra Ave to pachI pheravI nAkhavA. kharAba vicAra AvavA e 522 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra prakRtinA guNa che ane pheravavA e puruSArtha che. kaMI to puruSArtha joIe ke nA joIe, puruSa thAya pachI ? ane tamAre bahu saMjogo nathI. oNphisamAM che te koInI upara ApaNane dveSa na thAya evI rIte jovuM. e ApaNI upara karato hoya teno vAMdho nahIM. loka ApaNane nathI kahetAM ke broDa mAInDeDa che ! loko moTA manano mANasa nathI kahetAM ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : e moTA mananA thavAmAM zuM khoTa javAnI che ? ane A gharamAM zA mATe ? gharamAM koIne duHkha hovuM ja na joIe. A badhA vyavahAra sAcavavA eka mahinAmAM zIkhI le ne pachI bahu thaI gayuM ! mahinAmAM mAre zuM karavuM e badhuM zIkhI le eTale AkhI jiMdagI enuM e ja cAlyA kare ! praznakartA : e ja ripiTezana che ? dAdAzrI : hA, pachI e ja ripiTezana (punarAvartana) thayA kare che ! emAM manuSyomAM bIjuM zuM zIkhavAnuM che ? ane UMcAmAM UMcA manuSya kone kahevAya ke koInuM apamAna karatAM pahelAM tarata ja potAne jAgRti AvavI joIe ke 'mane koI apamAna kare to mArI zuM sthiti thAya ?" ATalI jAgRti hoya tene ati mAnavatA kahI ! e mAnavatA to bahu TopamosTa (UMcAmAM UMcI) mAnavatA kahevAya. paNa A to ApI devAmAM zUrA ane levAmAM raDavAnuM, mane Ama karyuM, tema karyuM ! are, paNa tuM ApatI vakhate bahu nobala rahuM chuM ane ahIM letI vakhate kema ATalI badhI ikonomI (karakasa2) karuM chuM ? evuM nahIM bolavAnuM, evuM nahIM kahevAnuM ke je vyartha jAya. gRhasthI dharma uttama zAthI ? kasoTI kALamAM samatA rAkhI ! praznakartA H gRhasthIdharma uttama zAthI kahevAya che ? gRhasthI bhogavatA

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(25) Adarza vyavahAra, jIvanamAM bhakti sAcI ke gRhasthamAM pravezyA pachI tene tyAgIne bhakti sAcI che ? dAdAzrI : tyAga karavAmAM gharamAM koI paNa mANasane, koIne duHkha na thayuM hoya, badhA khuzI khuzI thaIne kahetA hoya to e bhakti sArI kahevAya. paNa tyAgamAM lokone du:kha thayuM hoya enA karatA to gRhasthamAM rahIne bhakti karavI sArI. badhAMne poSaNa to karavuM joIene ? jenI joDe ApaNA lagna thayAM, chokarAM hoya te badhAM Azraya bhAvanA rAkhe nahIM ? Azraya rAkhe. te Azaro tamAre Apavo paDene. nirAzrita na karAya ene. ahIM gharanAM badhAM mANasa rAjIkhuzI thaIne kahetAM hoya, 'nA, nA. tame tyAga lo to amAre vAMdho nathI. ahIM du:kha nathI.' to vAMdho nahIM. ane nahIM to ApaNe gharamAM rahIne bhakti karIe e sAcI. to bahu sArAmAM sAruM. enA jevuM ekeya nahIM. paNa sAcI bhakti, dharma kyAre thayo kahevAya ke gharanAM koI mANasane ApaNA thakI duHkha nA hoya. gharanAM mANasa thakI ApaNane duHkha thAya paNa ApaNAthI ene duHkha nA hoya, e sAcI bhakti. 523 gRhasthadharma to uttama zAthI gaNAya che ke kasoTI dharma che A. tyAgIne to kasoTI ja nahIM ne ! inkamaTeksa nahIM, selaTeksa nahIM, bhADuM nahIM, nADuM nahIM, kazuM ja nahIM ! ane ApaNe to badhAnI vacce rahIne samatA rAkhavAnI eTale uttama gaNAya. kasoTI enI hoya. e to TesTeDa hovuM joIe. A tyAgI hoya ne, tene kahIe mahino tame paiNI juo joIe. paiNyA pachI mahinoya rahe nahIM. pAcho jato rahe. kAraNa pelI kahe, Aja dALa laI Avo, Aja jarA khAMDa laI Avo. pelAne samajaNa nA paDe ke e kyAMthI lAvavuM, eTale e nAsI jAya. Arthika pIDA hoya eya game nahIM, tarata bhAgI jAya ! eTale gRhasthadharma to uttama ja kahevAya. A satsaMga thayo nahIM ne A to gammata thaI badhI. praznakartA : Ama vyavahArika jJAna jANavA maLyuM ne, dAdA. dAdAzrI : vyavahAra bahu jANavAno che. nizcaya to che ja potAno. emAM jANavAnuM kazuM nahIM, vyavahAra jo cokkasa rahyo to nizcaya cokkasa thAya. vyavahAra Adarza thayo to nizcaya Adarza. vyavahAra Dakho rahI gayo 524 pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra to nizcaya Dakho rahI gayuM. nizcaya to vyavahArano phoTo che. tyAre e lokoe zuM kahyuM, 'nizcaya' para ja bhAra devAno, A paNe bhAra ocho thaI jaze, eTale paheluM ArAdhavAnuM. ApaNe zuM kahyuM ? jenAthI baMdhAyA cho, tenI joDe choDavAnI ciMtA karavAnI. A 'nizcaye' to choDelo ja chene ! e to ApaNuM potAnuM ja svarUpa che, ahIM maskA mAravAnI jarUra nathI, tyAM maskA mAravAnI jarUra. jenAthI baMdhAyA cho tene jANone. AtmAne maskA mAravAnI jarUra che ? jJAtItI, vyavahAratI sUkSma zodha, cokhkho te zuddhato Apyo bheda ! ame A saMsAranI bahu sUkSma zodhakhoLa karelI. chellA prakAranI zodhakhoLa karIne ame A badhI vAto karIe chIe. vyavahAramAM kema karIne rahevuM teya ApIe chIe ane mokSamAM kevI rIte javAya teya ApIe chIe. tamane aDacaNo kema karIne ochI thAya e amAro hetu che. kramika mArga eTale zuddha vyavahAravALA thaI zuddhAtmA thAo ane akrama mArga eTale pahelAM zuddhAtmA thaIne pachI zuddha vyavahAra karo. zuddha vyavahAramAM vyavahAra badhoya hoya, paNa temAM vItarAgatA hoya. eka-be avatAramAM mokSe javAnA hoya tyAMthI zuddha vyavahAranI zarUAta thAya. zuddha vyavahAra sparze nahIM tenuM nAma 'nizcaya' ! vyavahAra evI rIte pUro karavAno ke nizcayane sparze nahIM. pachI vyavahAra game te prakArano hoya. cokhkho vyavahAra ne zuddha vyavahAramAM phera che. vyavahAra cokhkho rAkhe te mAnavadharma kahevAya ane zuddha vyavahAra to mokSe laI jAya. bahAra ke gharamAM vaDhavADa nA kare te cokhkho vyavahAra kahevAya ane Adarza vyavahAra kone kahevAya ? potAnI sugaMdhI phelAve te. praznakartA : vyavahAra kone kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : je badhuM rileTiva e badho vyavahAra kahevAya. vyavahAra badho vinAzI cIjono che. ola dhIsa rileTivsa Ara TempararI eDajasTamenTasa

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(25) Adarza vyavahAra, jIvanamAM pa25 526 pati-patnInA divya vyavahAra (sApekSa badhuM vinAzI che), e badho vyavahAra che ane riyala ijha dhI paramenanTa (nirapekSa kAyamanuM che). paramenanTano vyavahAra karavAno nathI. A TempararI eDajasTamenTano vyavahAra karavAno che. tamane A vAta gamI ke ke thoDuMka kAcuM che ? praznakartA : amAruM kAcuM to kharuM ne ! dAdAzrI : e to svAbhAvika hoya. atyAre chokarAo mAstarane zuM kahe ke sAheba amane AvaDatuM nathI. eTale AmAM kAcuM hoya e to svAbhAvika vastu che. AvuM tame bolo cho eTaluM ja sAruM che ne ? nahIM to loka to kaheze ke tamArA karatAM mAruM pAkuM che ! tyAre huM kahuMya kharo ke bhaI, tArI vAta sAcI che. huM jANuM ke AnAmAM kaMIka roga che. kayo roga che e nA kahuM paNa huM samajI jauM. ane nirogI mANasa to jevuM hoya tevuM bole ke sAheba, huM hajI kAco chuM. have zuddha vyavahAra kyAre kahevAya ? jyAre ADozIpADozI badhA ema kahe ke caMdubhAI bahu sArA mANasa che. gharanAne pUchIe, paiDA DozImAne pUchIe ke kema che caMdubhAI ? to eya kaheze ke eno to bahu sAro svabhAva che. amAro vyavahAra suMdara che. AjubAju pUchavA jAva, vAIphane pUchavA jAva to kahe ke e to bhagavAna ja che ! toya eka phero koIne vyavahAramAM mArI kaMI bhUla dekhAI. te mane kahe che ke 'tamAre Ama karavuM joIene ? A tamArI bhUla kahevAya." meM kahyuM ke "bhaI, te to Aje jANyuM, paNa huM to nAnapaNathI jANuM chuM ke A bhUlavALo che.' tyAre kahe ke "nA, nAnapaNamAM evA nahotA. hamaNe thayA cho." eTale A badhuM potapotAnI samajaNathI che. eTale ame amAruM paheluM ja dekhADI daIe ke ame pahelethI ja kAcA chIe. eTale athaDAmaNa thAya ja nahIMne ! pelAneya TAIma bagADavAno rahyo ja nahIMne ! ne ene duHkheya thavAnuM rahyuM nahIM. AtmalakSe Adare je vyavahAra, Adarza sva-para sukha dAtAra ! vyavahAra suMdara hovo joIe eTale Adarza hovo joIe. praznakartA: jeno vyavahAra Adarza hoya tene pachI AtmAnA jJAna sAthe zuM levAdevA ? eTale zuM karavA prayatna ja karavo joIe ? dAdAzrI : e jJAnane laIne ja vyavahAra Adarza thayo che. vyavahAra Adarza e pariNAma che. AtmAnuM jJAna kaoNjhijha che, AtmAnuM sevana karavAthI e vyavahAra Adarza utpanna thayo che. krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha khasI gayA, ahaMkAra khasI gayo eTale jagatane phAvatuM AvyuM. bhaI, barobara che, sAro mANasa che. Adarza vyavahAra thaI gayo. AjubAju tamArA paDozIo tamAro Adarza vyavahAra che kahe ? praznakartA : pUchyuM nathI. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa tamane kema lAge, emano prema joIne to khabara paDe ne ? enA prema uparathI ApaNane khabara paDe, pUchavAnI jarUra nahIM. nahIM to khoTuM to nA bole, nAlAyaka cho ne evuM tevuM nA bole. jJAtI samajAve sarva poInTa, kAryarata chatAM svamAM joITa ! bhagavAna eTaluM ja kahe che ke vyavahAramAM koIne bAdhArUpa nA thaI paDIe. eTalo vyavahAra sAcavajo. ko'ka kaheze, UbhA raho, to ApaNe zUnyavat rahIe to zuM thAya ? A bIjI badhI vAto samajI levAnI che. A ilekTrikanA poInTa badhA goThavelA hoya te eka-eka poInTa ApaNe samajIe to pachI vAMdho nA Ave. nahIM to paMkhAne badale lAITa thAya ne lAITane badale paMkho thAya evuM thayA kare. 'jJAnI puruSa' je samajaNa Ape te samajaNathI chUTakAro thAya. samajaNa vagara zuM thAya ? vItarAga dharma ja sarva duHkhothI mukti Ape. A vyavahAranI vAto koIe kahI nathI. vyavahAra sudhare ja nahIM koI dahADo, AvI vAta samajaNa paDyA vagara. A to vyavahAra sudhare to tame mukta thazo, nahIM to muktaya zI rIte thavAya te ? azAMti nA rahevI joIe,

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(25) Adarza vyavahAra, jIvanamAM ciMtA nA thavI joIe. 527 lagnanA vyavahAranA prasaMgo patAvavAnA che te tameya patAvo cho ne huMya patAvuM chuM. huMya patAvuM chuM te vyavahArathI, tameya patAvo cho paNa tame tanmayAkAra thaIne patAvo cho ne huM ene judo rahIne patAvuM chuM. eTale bhUmikA pheravavAnI jarUra che, bIjuM kazuM pheravavAnI jarUra nathI. bhagavAna mahAvIreya thoDoka kALa sudhI vyavahAramAM rahyA hatA. janmathI ja jJAnI hatA e chatAMya vyavahAramAM bhAI joDe, mA-bApa joDe rahyA, strI joDe paNa rahyA, dIkarI paNa thaI. vyavahAramAM rahyA chatAM tIrthaMkara gotra pUruM karyuM. ane eTalI zakti tamArAmAMya che paNa e zakti AvaraNa mukta thaI nathI, e AvarAyelI paDI che. eTale lagnamAM jaIe paNa e ema nathI kahetA ke tame tanmayAkAra raho. tamAro moha tamane tanmayAkAra kare che. nahIM to tame tanmayAkAra nA raho tethI karIne koI vaDhe nahIM ke tame kema tanmayAkAra nathI rahetA. ame paNa lagnamAM jaIe chIe paNa mane koI vaDhe nahIM. e to jANe ema kahe ke tame mAruM kalyANa karI nAkhyuM. ane tanmayAkAra raho to kaMIka bhUla thaI jAya. to loka tamArI joDe bUmAbUma kare. eTale vadhu upakArI koNa che ? tanmayAkAra nathI rahetA te saMsArane vadhu upakArI che. potAne upakArI che ane parane paNa upakArI che, badhI rIte upakArI che. tamane paNa ame tanmayAkAra na rahevAya evo rasto karI Apyo che. potAnI bhUmikAmAM rahevAya, pArakI bhUmikAmAM nA javAya evuM ApaNuM jJAna che. pArakI bhUmikA eTale caMdubhAI. A 'akramavijJAna'vyavahArane chaMcheDatuM nathI. dareka 'jJAna' vyavahArane tarachoDe che. A vijJAna vyavahArane kiMcitmAtra tarachoDatuM nathI. ane potAnI 'riyAliTI'mAM saMpUrNa rahIne vyavahArane tarachoDatuM nathI. vyavahArane tarachoDe nahIM te ja saiddhAMtika vastu hoya. saiddhAMtika vastu kone kahevAya ke je kyAreya paNa asiddhAMtapaNAne nA pAme tenuM nAma siddhAMta kahevAya, koI evo khUNo nathI ke asiddhAMtapaNAne pAme. eTale A 'riyala pati-patnIno divya vyavahAra sAyansa' che, 'kamplITa sAyansa' che. vyavahArane kiMcitmAtra nA tarachoDAve. juone, ame maMca para beThA hatAne ! amAre dveSa hoya nahIM. AvA vyavahAramAM to amAre AvavAnuM nA hoya banatA sudhI, paNa hoya tene ame tarachoDIe nahIM. badhuM tyAMya evuM nATaka bhajavIe. amAre Ama karavuM ne tema karavuM evuM nahIM. ApaNe vyavahArane tarachoDavo nahIM. je vyavahAra banyo emAM 'aMbAlAla mULajIbhAI' e vyavahAra sattAne AdhIna che, ame nizcaya sattAne AdhIna chIe, ame to nizcaya sattAmAM ja chIe, svasattAdhArI chIe. ane 'aMbAlAla mULajIbhAI' e vyavahAra sattAne AdhIna che. eTale vyavahArane kiMcitmAtra tarachoDa nA vAgavI joIe. 58 koIne saheja paNa duHkha nA thAya, e chellI 'lAITa' kahevAya. virodhIne paNa zAMti thAya. ApaNo virodhI hoyane e ema to kahe ke bhAI, Amane ane mAre matabheda che, paNa emanA tarapha mane bhAva che, mAna che' evuM kahe chevaTe ! virodha to hoya ja. haMmezAM virodha to rahevAno. 360 DigrIno ne 356 DigrIno paNa virodha hoya che ja. evI rIte A badhe virodha to hoya. eka ja DigrI para badhA mANasa nA AvI zake. eka ja vicAra zreNI para mANasa AvI zake nahIM. kAraNa ke manuSyonI vicAra zreNInI cauda lAkha yonio che. bolo, keTalA 'eDajasTa' thaI zake ApaNane ? amuka ja yoni 'eDajasTa' thaI zake, badhI nA thaI zake. gharamAM to suMdara vyavahAra karI nAkhavo joIe. 'vAIpha'nA manamAM ema thAya ke Avo dhaNI nahIM maLe koI dahADo ane dhaNInA manamAM ema thAya ke AvI 'vAIpha' paNa kyAreya nA maLe ! evo hisAba lAvI nAkhIe tyAre ApaNe kharA ! vyavahAra Adarza hovo joIe. jo vyavahAramAM cIkaNA thayA to kaSAyI thaI javAya. A saMsAra to machavo che, te machavAmAM cA-nAsto badhuM karavAnuM paNa jANavAnuM che ke AnAthI kinAre javAnuM che. tamane ThIka lAgatuM hoya to A pramANe karajo, nahIM to tamane je gamatuM e karajo. mAre kaMI tamane dabANa nathI A. huM to tamane samajaNa pADuM ke A rIte karazo to

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