Balakona Buddhisagarsuriji

Author(s): Kumarpal Desai
Publisher: Buddhisagarsuri Jain Gyanmandir
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008535/1

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vIMdha buddhisAgarasUrijI lekhaka kumArapALa desAI prakAzaka Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir amadAvAda zrImad buddhisAgarasUrijI sAhitya-prakAzana graMthamALo For Private And Personal Use Only ..

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C. C. bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI D.C. Q.3: 51w Bud le. desAI kumArapALa bAlAbhAI 922.944 1978, prathama AvRtti lekhaka kumArapALa desAI 13/bI, rAMdranagara sosAyaTI jayabhikhu mArga amadAvAda-380 007 sarva hakka lekhakanA prakAzaka zrImad buddhisAgarasUrijI sAhitya prakAzana graMthamALA vatI zrI cImanalAla jecaMdabhAI zAha 98, kasuMbAvADa, vacale khAMco dozIvADAnI poLa, amadAvAda-380001 mudraka kimata : 8-00 zrI aMbikA prinTarI dinakararAya aMbAza kara ojhA upalI zerInA daravAjA sAme DhALanI paLa, AsToDiyA amadAvAda, AvaraNa ane ArTapleTa dIpaka prinTarI rAyapura daravAjA pAse amadAvAda. citra jaya paMcolI For Private And Personal Use Only

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lekhakanuM nivedana caritra cAritrayane ghaDe che. A eka evI vibhUtinuM caritra che ke je mAnavamAMthI mahAmAnava banavAnI vikAsayAtrAno jIvaMta purAvo Ape che, ene mArga paNa caMdhi che. abhaNa kaNabI kuTuMbamAM janmelI eka vyakita jJAnane sAgara ane dhyAnano mahAsAgara banI jAya, tenI A romAMcaka ane preraNAdAyI jIvanakathA che. A jIvanacaritranI racanA pAchaLa vAtsalya ane AzIrvAdane amIbharyo itihAsa rahelo che. AjathI naveka varSa pahelAM pU. A. bha. zrI durlabhasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanI preraNAthI mArA pUjya pitAzrI sva. jayabhikhue "bALakonA buddhisAgarajI" nAmanuM pustaka lakhavAnuM svIkAryuM hatuM. e pustakanuM hajI eka prakaraNa paNa pUruM lakhAyuM nahotuM, tyAM ja teozrInuM du:khada nidhana thayuM ! e pachI pitAnuM kArya putranA hAthe pUrNa thAya evI pU. A. bha. zrI durlabhasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanI prabaLa icchA hatI. mAre mATe A kArya ghaNuM vikaTa hatuM. eka bAju AcAryazrInuM mArA pratyenuM apAra vAtsalya mane A pustakanA sarjana mATe kheMcI rahyuM hatuM, jyAre bIjI bAju cAlu kelapsa temaja pIeca. DI nI DigrI mATenA abhyAsane kAraNe A kArya vilaMbamAM paDayuM hatuM. be-traNa vakhata to AmAMthI "makita" ApavAnI AcAryazrIne meM vinaMti paNa karI, paraMtu teoe udAra mane mane kahyuM: "tuM tAro abhyAsa pUro karI le, paNa A kAma te tAre ja karavAnuM che, eTaluM to nakkI. pariNAme A pustaka emanA vAtsalyanA preraNAbaLe ja lakhAyuM che tema kahuM te temAM saheje atizayokita nathI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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A pustakamAMnA ghaNA prasaMge te AcAryazrI buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajInA samagra jIvanane AvarI letA sva. jayabhikhue lakhelA caritramAMthI lIdhA che, jayAre keTalAka prasaMge AdaraNIya munizrI "vAtsalyadIpa"jI pAsethI temaja zrAva ane pragaTa thayelA anya sAhityamAMthI sAMpaDayA che. A aMge mArA pUjya pitAzrI sva. jayabhikhunA sAhityika RNane to jeTalo svIkAra karuM teTalo ocho che. A AkhuM ya pustaka mArA pitAzrInA moTAbhAI ane jainasAhityanA prakhara abhyAsI ane lekhaka pUjaya ratilAla dIpacaMda desAIe tapAsI ApyuM che ane keTalAMya kImatI sUcana karyA che. teonI asvastha tabiyata hovA chatAM emaNe je lAgaNIthI AkhuM ya lakhANa joI ApyuM che. tene huM mAruM sadbhAgya samajuM chuM. A kAraNe mArA lakhANane AtmavizvAsanI eka mahera maLI che. AdaraNIya munizrI "vAtasalyadIpa"jIe A pusatakanA sarjanamAM AdithI aMta sudhI utsAhabharyo rasa dAkhavyo che. e ja rIte A pustakanA prakAzanamAM Arthika sahaga ApavA mATe khImatanA zrIsaMdhano temaja je koI anya gurubhakita bhAvanAzIla taraphathI sahakAra maLyo che temane AbhArI chuM. AjanA jamAnAmAM sauthI moTI taMgI dRDha cAritrayanI che, tyAre bALakonAM jIvanane umadA mUlyo ne ucca AdarzathI ghaDe te Azaya A pustakanI racanA pAchaLa rAkhyo che. saMskArasiMcananuM A kArya eTale aMze saphaLa thaze, teTale aMze A prayatna sArthaka thayo gaNIza. -kumArapALa desAI rAMdranagara sosAyaTI amadAvAda-380007. For Private And Personal Use Only

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zrImad buddhisAgarasUrijIne aMjali e te kharekhara sAgara hate. e sAdhu saMdhane pacAsa varSoe maLe to saMghanA sadabhAgya. "e to sAco saMnyAsI hato. enA dilanI udAratA parasaMpradAyIone vazIkaraNa karatI. buddhisAgarajI mahAnubhAva virAmatAmAM khelatA, saMpradAyamAM te * e zobhatA, paNa aneka saMpadAyIonA samudAya saMghamAM paNa emanI tejasvitA achAnI nahotI. emanI bhavya mUrti emanA AtmasvarUpa jevI bhavya hatI. vizALa 6 mukhAraviMda, ucca ane puSTa dehazaMbha, yogendranA jevI dADha! emane ke jabarajasta daMDa! ApaNe sau mAnavajAta mUrtipUjaka chIe, ane e bhavya mUrti adRzya thaI che, paNa nIrakhI che temanA aMtaramAMthI te jaladI 6 bhusAze nahi ja. "AnaMdaghanajI pachI AvA avadhUta jainasaMghamAM thoDA ja thayA haze: "maLe jo jati satI re koi sAhebane darabAra dhIMgAdharI bhArekhamAM sadudharma taNA zaNagAra punya pApanA parabandA kAMi brA- AMkhalaDI anabhemAM ramatI uchaLe uranAM pura sata cita AnaMde khelAMdA dharma dhuraMdhara zUra maLe che jati satI re koi AhalekanA darabAra." -mahAkavi nAnAlAla 0 00 - 26. For Private And Personal Use Only

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(3)(=> 1 chAzane badale geArasa 2. mATA mahAtmA thaze 3 bhUtanI ceATalI brahmarAkSasa ke bhramarAkSasa ? 4 5 sAcuM khaLa 6. mahecare mIDuM jhaDapyuM akhelanI AMtaraDI 7 8 paramAtmAne pAmavAnI jhaMkhanA aMtaranI adAlatamAM 10 vIranA dharma 11 mukta paMkheru' 12 raDavuM zAne ? zAka ke ne ? 13 ekale jAne re 14 maMgalamaya parivartana 15 karuNAnA sAgara 16 17 ghaMTAkarNanI sthApanA 108 amara ziSyA 18 19 jagadIpaka AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM O v 16 27 36 50 6. 70 85 104 113 122 137 147 156 172 193 203 223

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI - * * ** * * For Private And Personal Use Only

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--||||||T zrI buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajInuM sAhitya eTale ' 100000 ene hiMdu paNu vAMcI zake, jaina paNa vAMcI zake ane muslima paNa vAMcI zake. saune sarakhuM upacAgI thai paDe evuM e kAvya sArhahatya zrI buddhisAgarasUrijIne ApaNA bhakta ane jJAnI kaviAnI hAramAM mUkI de evu che. --mI ramaNalAla va. desAi pragatinI parAkASThAsamuM e jIvana mAtra me paccIsInuM ja jIvana ! e ja jIvanavasaMta ! ekamAM mAnava banyA, khIjAmAM mahAna ! paNa keTalI tarakhatara karI mUke tevI suvAsa ! e yAgitva, e sAdhutva, e kavitva, e vakatRtva, e mAtmaprema, e mastI, e diladilAvarI aneAkhI hatI. kavi, tattvajJa, vaktA, lekhaka, vidvAna, ceAgI, avadhUta, ekalavIra, ema aneka saritAnA saMgama e buddhi-adhi mAM (buddhi-sAgaramAM) thatA jevAya che. --jayabhikhkhu'' For Private And Personal Use Only ::::::::::]:::::::

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zane badale oNsa, 1 gujarAtanuM eka gAma. vijApura anu nAma. gAmanI cAre kAra gIca jhADIvALA gheghUra AMbAnI hAranI hAra UbhI hatI. rAyaNanAM tA jhUMDanAM jhUMDa jevA maLe. For Private And Personal Use Only savAra paDe ne A seAnAnI dharatI para mera kaLA kare. bapAra thAya ne AMkhAvADiyAmAMthI kAyalanA TahukAra saMbhaLAya. sAMja paDe tyAre gAmamAM pAchI pharatI gAyeAnI DAkebAMdhelI dha TaDIenA madhura raNakAra raNajhaNe. aMdhArAM Utare tyAre te AkhuM

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2 maLakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI gAma bhajana, bhakti ane AratImAM tarakhALa khanI gayu` hAya. gAmathI eka gAunA aMtare sAbaramatI nadI vahe. nadInAM nIra ane kAMThe leAchala vahe. gAmanA kuvA pANIthI sadAya bharelA rahe. kudarate sALe kaLAe gAma para mahera karI hatI. jyAM mAnavInAM mana mIThAM heAya tyAM kudarata mana mUkIne khIle che. gAmamAM AvavAnA rastA khUba raLIyAmaNA lAge. rastAnI baMne bAju jhADanI ghaTA laLI-laLIne chAMyA Ape. UMcA--UMcA vaDalA, pIpaLA ane AMbalIAnAM vRkSeA hArabaMdha UbhAM hAya. gAmanA jamaNA hAthe kaNabIAnA nAnA ayA vAsa. cAre kAra mAnAM vRkSa ane vacce A kaNabIvAsa. A jagyA * amadAvAdI bhAgALa tarIke ALakhAya. For Private And Personal Use Only

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azane badale gesa bhAre dhIMgA e vAsanA AdamI. TUMkI jADI peAtaDI-thepADu, gheradAra AMgaDI-aMgarakhuM, mAthe meATI pAghaDI. pagamAM phUdaDIonA citarAmaNavALA pAMcazeriyA beDA. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir jevu emanu jIvana sAduM, evu` ja aMtara cokhkhuM. jADA veza, mahenatu jIvana ane sadAya aMtaramAM bhAvanAnA Adha UchaLe. mananI mAyA- mamatA tA eTalI ke mahemAna mATe marI phITe. AvA kaNakhIvAsamAM zivA paTela rahe. bhAre paragaju AdamI. emane tyAM mAge tyAre chAza maLe. badalAmAM kazuM' levAnu` nahI'. peAtAnI pAse hoya, te bIjAne premathI ApavAmAM emane khUba AnaMda Ave. zivA paTelanA ghara AgaLa eka bhAi kyUma pADatI hatI : gho ne ! 8 are akhAbhAI ! chAza levA AvI chuM. chAza kema, Aje chAzavAre nathI?' For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI pelI strI Atura nayane UbhI rahI. hamaNuM aMbAbAI Avaze ne mIThI madha jevI chAza Apaze ! evAmAM paDezanI eka chokarI ramatI ramatI AvI ane bolI : are bena, aMbAbAIne to gaI rAte dIkaro avataryo che, tethI Aja chAzavAra nathI." gAmanI strInA mukha para jANe AnaMdanI chAlaka vAgI. chAza mATenI doNI hAthamAM ja rahI gaI. enA aMtaramAMthI ApoApa vahAlapanA zabdo sarI paDayA : khammA khammA ! se varSane thAje ene dIkaro ! " chAza levA AvelI strI pAchI pharatI hatI, tyAM te zivA paTela avAja sAMbhaLIne bahAra nIkaLyA. haLave rahIne pUchayuM : "kema vahu, kema AvyAM'tAM?' A to chAzavAro jANIne chAza levA AvI For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI hatI, tyAM vadhAmaNInA samAcAra maLyA. baMne sAjAM te che ne?" zivA paTele mAnathI kahyuM: "hA, beya sAjAM che. zivarAtanA barAbara bAra vAge dIkaro Avyo." "kevAM sArAM zakana mA-bApa ! ghaNuM jIvo gharane e dIvo, ATaluM bolIne chAza levA AvelI bAI pAchI pharatI hatI. zivA paTele ene aTakAvIne kahyuM : "Aja chAza te velavI nathI, paNa khAvA mATe gorahu banAvyuM che, te letAM jAva. are UgarI, gorahuM lAvaje." zivA paTelanI dIkarI UgarI dahIM bhAMgIne banAveluM gorahuM laI AvI. e divase zivA paTelane tyAM chAzavAro hato. ghaNI bAIo chAza levA AvI. paTele ekeya bAIne pAchI vALI nahi. chAzane badale sahune gerahuM lAvIne ' ' For Private And Personal Use Only

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chAzane badale gorasa ApyuM. AkhA kaNabIvAsamAM vAta vahetI thaI gaI gorahuM lenArI bAIoe gharanA badhAne vAta karI, kahyuM ke, "be dIkarA ane be dIkarI pachI pAMcamA saMtAnarUpe dIkaro Avyo. te divase sahune chAzane badale mIThuM mIThuM gorasa mayuM. vi. saM. 1930nI mahA vadI 14nI A vAta. . '' - '' vishvr.* For Private And Personal Use Only

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( moDhe mahAmA thaP HiiiiIII) AkAzane sUraja Aga varasAve. dharatI AkhI enA tApamAM baLuM baLuM thAya. otarA-citarAnA tApa paDatA, tyAre kheDUtanuM kuTuMba khetaramAM kAma karatuM hoya, eTale zivA paTela ane emanuM kuTuMba paNa khetaramAM kAma kare. "taLAvaDI' nAmanuM khetara. paTela khetara kheDe. aMbAbAI madada kare. moTAM chokarAM sAtha Ape. eka divasanI vAta che : moTAM-nAnAM badhAM khetaramAM kAma karatAM hatAM ane sauthI nAnerAM bALane pIluDInA ghaTAdAra vRkSa nIce kapaDAnA kheyAmAM suvADayuM hatuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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To mahAtmA thaze zivA paTela hAka mAre. aMbAbAI mIThI halake koI gIta gAya. mAthe sUraja saLage chatAMya A kaNabI kaTuMba kAma kare jAya. kheDUtanuM jIvana. ene saghaLI Rtu sarakhI. vacce -vacce gheghUra jhADIene vIMdhIne vAto zItaLa vAyu emanA zarIrane ajabanI tAjagI Apato hato. reDhAne samaya thayo. kher3a kuTuMba pIluDInA chAMye jamavA beThuM. bAjarAne roTalo ane mAkhaNathI bharelI chAza. mITho-mITho sAthavo. sAthe AvelAM maracAM kADhayAM. bhegAM maLIne badhAM khAvA beThAM. aMbAbAInI najara kheyAmAM bharanIMdaramAM paDelA bALaka para hatI. "taLAvaDI" ne game te khUNe kAma kare, paNa enA para najara rAkhavAnuM e cUke nahi. vahAle bAluDe raDavA mAMDe ke ene sAda pahelo aMbAbAIne saMbhaLAya. doDIne tarata khoLAmAM le. aDadhI UMghe UThe te jaIne tarata hIMcakA nAkhe. :: 153 a' S S For Private And Personal Use Only

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10 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI aMbAbAI kUNe mAkhaNa jevo roTalo meMmAM mUkavA gaI, evAmAM enI najara pelA kheyA para paDI. najara paDatAMnI sAthe ja meMmAthI cIsa nIkaLI gAI: "oya mADI re ! mArI nAkhyA !" badhAM bAbAI tarapha joI rahyAM. aMbAbAIe pIluDInA jhADa para laTakatA nAgane batAvyuM. sahunI AMkhe phATI gaI. eka kALe bhayaMkara nAga pIluDInA jALAMmAMthI nIkaLI jhADa para caDayo hate. khayAnA doraDA para vIMTaLAI gaye ane ThaMDI havAnA jore gela karate laTakI rahyo. enuM meM Amatema pheravato hato. AMkhe cakaLavakaLa thatI hatI. nAga te kevo ! dhoLIdhoLI mUcho, pILI dhamarakha Akho. kALI caudazanI rAtanA jevo kALA DIbAMga ! nAnAM chokarAM te ene joIne DarIne jIva laIne nAThAM. hAya bApa ! A to nAgabApajI ! khAdhA ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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moTo mahAmA thaze vvvvvvvvvvvvv vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvwwww khAze ! khAyAmAM doDha varasanuM kumaLuM bALaka bharanIMdaramAM sUtuM hatuM. enI upara nAga pheNa mAMDIne beTho hato. bALakanA jIvanane have matathI jhAjhuM cheTuM na hatuM. hamaNAM nAgaDaMkha deze ane kumaLuM phUla karamAI jaze. paLa - be paLanI ja vAra hatI. zuM komaLa kaLI jevuM bALaka hajI khIle e pahelAM ja kharI paDaze ? zivA paTela sAvadha banI gayA. khenuM jIvana. sApa ke nAga - nAgaNane ene bhaya na hoya. jaMgalI jAnavaranI rageraga pArakhe. emaNe kazIya hehA karI nahi, gabharAIne rADa pADI nahi ke nAga bhaNI kazuM pheMkayuM nahi. zivA paTela jANatA ke nAgane cha cheDavo eTale motane netaruM. gabharATamAM bUmAbUma thAya teya e vipharI bese. mAtAnI dhIraja khUTatI hatI. enuM haiyuM dhamaNanI mAphaka dhabakatuM hatuM. aMtaramAM akaLAmaNa hatI. - - iiiiii. "FB - St. . para lA:: Sii Eur ::: :LIKE For Private And Personal Use Only

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12 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI AMkhamAM bhaya hato. pitAnA vahAlA bAluDAne kaMI rajA-kA te nahi thAya ne? zivA paTela nAga bhaNI tAkI rahyA enA halanacalanane nIrakhatA hatA. mAtA to AMkha baMdha karIne bhagavAnane AjIjI ane vinaMti karavA lAgI. bheLI nArIe manomana bAdhA levA mAMDI : "he mAtA bahucarA! mArA dIkarAne sAcavaje ! enA prANane jALavaje ! tArA satanA pratApe enuM rakSaNa karaje! mA! mAro dIkaro bacaze to tane pAMca - pAMca dIvA karIza !" mAtAnA aMtaranI mamatAbharI vANI saMbhaLAI hoya ke zAMta vAtAvaraNanI asara thaI hoya, e game te hoya, paNa nAga dhIre rahIne pAchA pharIne pIluDInA jALAmAM sarI gayo. zivA paTelane zvAsa heThe beTho. aMbAbAIne thayuM ke mA bahucarAe enI prArthanAne svIkAra karyo. - - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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E - - - Re :: >> - - - - 'na aect. yAmAM sUteluM bALaka, mAthe nAga ane prabhune prArthanA karatI aMbAbAI For Private And Personal Use Only

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wwwwwwwwwww bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI eNe doDIne bALakane chAtI sarase cAMpI dIdho. pharI khetarane chAMyaDe kaNabI kuTuMba mahenatane roTale khAvA beThuM. meMmAM roTalAnuM baTakuM mUke, chAzane sabaDako lagAve ane bheLA aMtarathI bhAgavAnane lAkha lAkha pADa mAne. mAtAne AnaMdanI sImA na rahI. mA bahucarAe bALakane navuM jIvana ApyuM. enA kamaLA jIvananuM rakSaNa karyuM. mAtA aMbAbAInA mukhamAMthI ApoApa zabdo sarI paDayA: "he mA bahucarA! teM mArA vahAlA bAluDAnI jiMdagInI rakSA karI. tAruM sata to hAjarAhajUra che. mA bahucarA ! dhInA pAMca dIvA karIza. ane teM mArA bALakanA prANanI rakhevALI karI mATe enuM nAma bahecara rAkhIza." sAMje maMdiramAM bhajananI dhUna jamI. bhaktinAM gIto gavAyAM. AkhA vAsamAM badhe eka ja vAta thAya : / diza | SIT For Private And Personal Use Only

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meTo mahAbhA thaze zivA paTelano dIkare Aje motanA moMmAMthI UgarI gayo ! nAge ene DaMkha na dIdho. e to enuM chatra banI rahyo. nAga jenuM chatra bane te siddha puruSa thAya. saMta banIne AkhA malakamAM paMkAya. A vAta sAMbhaLI bhajananI dhUna pachI mahAtmA IzvaradAsajIe zivA paTelane kahyuM : zivA, tAre chokaro bhAre bhAgyazALI che. jarUra mATe mahAtmA thavAne !" - - - size: S For Private And Personal Use Only

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::::::: tuM bhUtaLI coMTaGI nAma kaNabInI koma. be vAtamAM mAne : parasevAnI roTI ane paramezvaramAM AsthA ! aMbAbAI to IzvaranA lAkha-lAkha pADa mAne ! mA bahucarAe potAnI prArthanA sAMbhaLI matanA mukhamAMthI bALakane bacAvyuM. ene upakAra to zuM bhUlAya? AthI mAe dIkarAnuM nAma bahecara rAkhyuM. nAnakaDo bahecara moTo thavA lAgyA. goThiyAo sAthe ramavA lAgyo. ramatAM ramatAM vaLI vicAre caDI jAya. e vicAra kare ke gAmamAM keTakeTalA vahema bharelA For Private And Personal Use Only

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17 nakaJkha bhUtanI jeTalI che. kayAMka kaIka bhUta thAya. kayAMka kaI cUDela nAce. saMvata 194panA unALe kolerA phATaye, te loko kahe ke begaNIo khappara bharavA AvI che. koI kahe ke mA kALakA kopI che. bIjA salAha Ape ke melaDI mAtAne kUDuM paDayuM che. have te gAmane khAdhe ja chUTake karaze ! bhavA Ave. DAkalA vAge. homa havana thAya. bakarAM ane pADAnuM balidAna apAya. bahecaradAsa vicAra kare ke A mAtAya kevI ke je potAnAM saMtAnone ja bharakhI jAya ! A mAtA kevI ke dUdha pItAM baccAMnI mAne motane bichAne suvADI de. mAtA to vahAlanI mUrti gaNAya, jayAre cAre kera vilApa ane vinAza veranArI e mAtA kevI haze? - bahecaradAsanA bheLA manamAM thayuM ke game te thAya paNa A mAtAne rUbarU maLavuM joIe. maLIne vAta karavI joIe ke mAtA to bALakane metathI For Private And Personal Use Only

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18 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI bacAvanArI hAya, meAta lAvanArI nahi. savAramAM haratA-pharatA mAnavInI sAMje lAza paDI heAya e te kevu kahevAya ! smazAna ane kabrastAna bharacaka banAvI de tevA rogacALAne phelAvanArI e jogaNI mAtA kevI haze ? Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir bahecara tA Thera Thera ghUme kAI kahe ke sImamAM Avela bhuta-pIpaLe rAte e melaDI mAtA rAsaDA le che. adhArI rAte bahecara ekalA cAlI nIkaLe. bhutapIpaLe bese, paNa kazu' jevA na maLe. keAI kahe ke bhUta taLAvaDIne kAMThe begaNIA madharAte nAhavA Ave che. bahecara AzAmAM ne AzAmAM taLAvaDIne kAMThe rAta pasAra kare, paNa kAI jogaNInA meLApa thAya nahiM. keAI e bahecarane kahyuM ke AvI zeAdha rahevA de. kALI caudazanI rAte smazAnamAM esaje, eTale badhu sa najareAnajara dekhAze. For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhUtanI coTalI bahecarato goThiyAonI ToLI laIne smazAnamAM gaye. kALI caudazanI ghora aMdhArI rAta. adhUrAmAM pUro AtavAra. smazAnamAM cAre kera sUnakAra, jethI bhalabhalA kaMpI UThe ! kayAreka kUtarAnuM kapAvI nAkhe evuM rudana saMbhaLAya. ghuvaDano avAja haiyuM kaMpAvI nAkhe. ziyALavAnI lALI bhayAnakatAmAM vadhAro kare. kyAreka tAjI baLelI cehamAMthI bhaDakI UThe. kayAMka aDadhI baLelI lAzane prANIo aMdhArAmAM kheMcAkheMcI karI cUMthatA hoya. vArevAre smazAnamAM thatA bhaDakAthI ToLImAMnA keTalAkanI AMkho camake che. koIadhIrAIthI AMgaLI cIMdhIne batAve che : "are juo! paNe bhaDako thAya. bhUtanA bhaDakA kevA bhayaMkara hoya che !" ekAda geThiyAne TADha caDI jAya che. keI bhayathI tharatharavA lAge che, tyAre bahecara emane samajAve ke bhaDakA thAya e bhUtanA na samajavA. mANasanA hADa miMist/ - () ( ra ) For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI kAmAM phespharasa rahelo che, ene havA lAge eTale bhaDakA thAya. Ama bahecare ghaNuM ghaNuM mahenata karI, paNa ene bhUtane bheTe na thA. bahecaranI A bhUtiyAToLI A rIte smazAnamAM ke kabrastAnamAM pharatI hoya. kayAreka samI sAMje kaI ekalavAyA musAphara nIkaLe te A ToLI ene bIva DAvatI. koI jhADanI pAchaLa chupAIne khaDakhaDATa hasatuM to kaI "khAuM re khAu' karIne bUme. pADatuM. DaratAM DaratAM ahIMthI pasAra thatA musAphara khAdhA bApa re !' karIne doTa mUkatA mAMDa mAMDa ghera paheco . e eTalo badho DarI gayo hoya ke enA dAMta coMTI jatA, meMe phiNa vaLI jatuM. bhayane lIdhe e kaMI kaMI bakavAsa karato. pachI to bhAre khela racAto. DozIo rAI - For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhUtanI coTalI mIThAne vATako karI kevI ne keTalI najara lAgI che enI parIkSA karatI. bhUvA belAvavAmAM AvatA. bhUvA lIMbu kApI lohInI dhAra vahevaDAvatA. jevAM DAkalAM vAgatAM saMbhaLAya ke A bhUtiyA ToLI tyAM hAjara thaI gaI hoya. bhUta lADavA, pUrI mAgatuM hoya, kaMI kaMI naivedya mAgatuM hoya, ane ene rIjhavavA cAra rastAnA ceka para e utAra mukAte hoya, je utAra mukAya ke A bhUtiyA TALI tyAM pahoMcI jatI ane badhuM toDI-phoDIne naivedyane haDapa karI jatI ! A TeLIne keAI bhUta bhaDakAvavA AvatuM nahi, kaI preta DarAvavA AvatuM nahi. keI DAkaNa emane vaLagI paDatI nahi. je naivedya khAdhuM hoya te barAbara pacI jatuM ! bahecaranI bhUtiyA ToLI badhe pharI vaLI, paNa kayAMya bhUta - preta, DAkaNa ke cUDelane meLApa na thayo. bahecare eka sAruM caDuM vasAvI lIdhuM. manamAM st For Private And Personal Use Only

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22 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI vicAra karyo ke nasIbajoge je bhUtane bheTe thaI jAya te enI coTalI ja kApI nAkhuM ! eNe bhUtanI ciTalInA pacAnI vAta sAMbhaLI hatI. bhUtanI e coTalI kApo eTale enuM badhu bhera UtarI jAya, pachI je hukama kare te kAma kare. ghara sApha karavAnuM kaho te ghara sApha karI Ape, Dhagalo vAsaNa mAMjavAnuM kaho te paLavAramAM mAMjI nAkhe. bahecarane bhUtanI eTalI meLavavAnI bhAre IcchA thaI. A mATe e smazAnamAM rakhaDa. ghera jagalomAM ghUmyo. bhUta rahetuM hoya evA kUvAmAM rAtanI rAta gALI. paNa bhUta ja na maLe, tyAM enI ceTalInI to vAta ja zI karavI? vaLI bahecarane manamAM vicAra Avyo ke A AkhI ToLIne laIne nIkaLuM chuM ethI kadAca bhUta bhAgI jatuM hoya, je ekalo jAu te maLe kharuM. AthI e ekalo ghamavA lAgyA. - jaAR For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhUtanI cATalI 23 kadIka khetare rAtavAsA rahelA pitAne samI sAMje bhAta ApavA javu paDatu.rastAmAM bhayAnaka kabrastAna AvatuM. badhA kahe che ke A kastAnamAM teAphAnI jana rahe che. e je kAI ne vaLage te meTA utpAta macAvI de. eka vAra bahecara A kabrastAna najIkathI pasAra thatA hatA. sUraja DUbI gayA hatA. aMdhAruM chavAI gayu` hatu`. evAmAM bahecaranI najare kaMIka dhALu dhaLuM dekhAyuM. ene thayuM', nakkI A dheALe jana lAge che! A aNe a dhArAmAM vadhu jhINI AMkha karI joyu te e dheALuM jana hAlatuM - cAlatu hatuM. saheja AY - pAchuM thatuM hatuM. For Private And Personal Use Only bahecarane thayu ke nakkI A dheALu jana enA tarapha tAkI rahyuM che. hamaNAM dhasamasatuM Avaze ane peAtAne jhabbe karI nAkho.

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI bahecara sAvadha thayo. ene ghaNuM divasanI mahenata phaLatI lAgI. je bhUtapretanI mulAkAta mATe e keTaluMya rakhaDI cUkayo hato, keTalIya rAtonA ujAgarA karyA hatA, e jana Aje sAme UbhuM hatuM. bahecara AgaLa vadhyo. saheja khoMkhAro khAIne eNe paDakAra karyo : "alyA eya, koNa che tuM? tyAM UbhuM UbhuM zuM kare che? hiMmata hoya to mArI sAme Ava. paNa ghoLuM jana ta na hAle ke na cAle. tyAM ne tyAM ja e UbhuM rahyuM. bahecara saheja AgaLa vadhyA, to ene hAlate cAlato gheLo AkAra dekhAyo. - bahecare hAthamAM patharo lIdho. jorathI hAtha ugApe, chatAM dhoLuM jana to ema ne ema ja UbhuM rahyuM. - bahecare pathare vIMjhayo ane bolyo : "Ava, hiMmata hoya to sAme Ava." janane patharo vAgatAM ja e doDI gayuM. thoDe dUra SSIX * * For Private And Personal Use Only

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- 60 - 6 4 . 3 9 ' S'* - - - -* * * * : jo ke, ja T / pa - - , - je - Pr . s - 4 I'M * S - IBI aMdhArAmAM dekhatA bA jana para patharo pheMkate bahecara. For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI jaIne hoMcI hoMcI karIne bhUMkavA lAgyuM. bahecara bolI UThayo : "hattatArI ! dhoLA janane badale A to gadheDuM nIkaLyuM !' e divase bahecarane samajAyuM ke bhata kayAMya pharatAM hotAM nathI. e te mANasanA manamAM bhayarUpe bhamatAM hoya che. je Darapoka hoya ene bhUta dekhAya che. je hiMmatavAna hoya ene bhUta svapnamAM AvatAM nathI. s For Private And Personal Use Only

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** ukSiNakSama uMmara ** vijApurano Akho pradeza bhUta ane bhUvAthI bharAI gayo. gAme-gAma bhUtanI vAto cAle. pretane vaLagADa lAge. bhUvAonuM jora jAmI gayeluM, bALako chaLI mare. nabaLA mananA mAnavIne bhUta vaLage. bahecara potAnA gaThiyAone kahe che ke bhUtanI eNe ghaNI zodha karI, paNa kayAMya bhALyuM nathI. Darapoka mAnavIne badhe bhUta dekhAya che. nabaLA mananAM mAnavI para cUDela bhera kare che. jo tana ane mana beya barAbara hoya to bhUtanI tAkAta nathI ke tamArI AgaLa pharakI zake. kAyarane Dara eTale ja bhUta. TITWITTEmmm. For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI gAmanA sauthI dharaDA mAnavI pazAkAkA. uMmara keTalI thaIenI to emane potAneya khabara nahi, paNa ochAmAM ochA eMzI varasane ItihAsa te emanI jIbha para ramata hato. pazAkAkAnI vAtamAM gAmanA chokarAone ghaNe rasa paDe. eka divasa pazAkAkA kahe : "bahecara, tArA phaDAkA to ghaNuM sAMbhaLyA, paNa marada hoya te eka vAra madharAte devAnI AMbalIe jaje." bahecare jijJAsAthI pUchayuM : "bApA, e devAnI AMbalI kyAM AvI ?' mahuDI javAnA raste." bahecare pUchayuM : "te he bApA. tyAM thAya che zuM ? alyA, ghaNI vAra rAte hoMkArA-paDakArA saMbhaLAya che. talavAranI paTAbAjI cAle che. eka AdamI cha9) For Private And Personal Use Only

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wwwwwwww wwwwww - brahmarAkSasa ke bhramarAkSasa? nahi, paNa maTI maMDaLI beThI hoya e kolAhala cAle che. rUpiyAne raNakAra saMbhaLAya che. ghoDAnI hAvaLa saMbhaLAya che ane kyAreka te UjaLA dUdha jevA dehavALo brAhmaNa ughADA Dile tyAM AMTA mArato dekhAya che. keIka vAra koI bAI karuNa svare raDatI saMbhaLAya che. bhalabhalA hiMmatabAjanAM haiyAM devAnI AMbalIe jatAM bhAMgI gayAM che. moTA moTA zamazerakhAM emanI talavAro mUkIne nAThA che. bahecara kahe, "paNa bApA, e devAnI AMbalI kema kahevAya che?' pazAkAkAe jhINI AMkhe bhUtakALanI vAtane ukheLatAM kahyuM : te sAMbhaLa. bahecara. A deve eTale devazaMkara nAmano brAhmaNa. verAvAsaNane rahevAsI. ene bApa keLIone gora. paNa deve gorapadu karIne koLione gora to na thayo, paNa cerI karavAmAM emano liaa * For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI guru bane, talavAranI paTAbAjI to evI khele ke ekalo se se jaNane bhAre paDe. kAmaThI parathI tIra evuM choDe ke AkAzamAM UDatuM paMkhI pADI de, devAe enI tAkAta lokone du:kha devAmAM vAparI. eNe eka TALI jamAvI. e ToLI dhoLe divase dhADa pADe, mA-bahenone pajave ane mAnavIne to mAkhInI jema mArI nAkhe ! A vijApura gAma gAyakavADanA rAjanA tAbAmAM AvyuM. rAje kaDapa besADavA koI paNa bhege devAne pakaDavAnuM nakkI karyuM. devAne eka sAthI phaTI gaye. deva pakaDAyA ane e divase mAM phAMsI jAheramAM ApavAmAM AvatI hatI eTale hajAro mAnavInI hAjarImAM mahuDInA raste AvelI pelI khakhaDa dhaja AMbalI nIce phAMsI goThavavAmAM AvI." pizAkAkAe karacalIvALA kapALe hAtha mUkIne e vAtane yAda karatAM kahyuM, "e veLA huMya bAreka htt 11 *TIST = = For Private And Personal Use Only

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brahmarAkSasa ke bhramarAkSasa ? 31 varasane. gAmegAmathI loke devAne apAtI phAMsI levA UmaTayA hatA. jANe kIDiyAruM UbharAyuM hoya ema lAge. beDI paherAvIne devAne lAvavAmAM Avyo tyAre eNe kahyuM ke huM to marada chuM. mane goLIe vIMdhI nAkhe, paNa A kUtarAnA mote mane mAre nahi. "sarakAra mA-bApa AgaLa kenuM hAle? ene hukama eTale hukama. e divase devAne jAheramAM phAMsI apAI. maradanI jema metane bheTavAnI enI vAsanA adhUrI rahI. taraphaDiyAM mAratAM mAratAM marIne e devo brAhmaNa ahIM brahmarAkSasa sarjAye. Aje bhalabhalA marada paNa madharAte devAnI AMbalIe javAnI hiMmata karatA nathI. mahuDI javuM hoya te bAjunA raste phaTAIne jAya, paNa rAta pachI tyAMthI nIkaLavAnI to vAta kevI ?' bahecarane vaLI eka navI jagyA maLI. bhUta ane pretanI ghaNI zodha karI paNa e to kyAMya maLyA nahi. IFE: **** . P :* * * * * * * hatA A RE' '', jaL For Private And Personal Use Only

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32 vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI have madharAte e bArAkSasane maLavA nIkaLyo. bhUtiyA ToLI laIne bahecara mahuDInA mArge AgaLa cAlyo. enA mitro to jhADathI dUra UbhA rahyA. koI kahe : "mArA kAkA kahetA hatA ke brahmarAkSasa eTale bhUtono rAjA, tenA kAna sUpaDA jevA, hAtha hAthInI sUMDha jevA ane paga to jANe thAMbhalA ja joI lo ! e bUma pADe to se mAIla dUra saMbhaLAya!' bIjAe TApasI pUrI: "hA, meM sAMbhaLyuM che ke e divase A jhADa para rahe che, rAte kALI cAdara oDhIne pharavA nIkaLe che ane je kaMI jhADa para caDe to tenuM gaLuM ja dAbI de che." AvI AvI vAto sAMbhaLI bahecaranA bIjA gaThiyAe to DarI gayA. keTalAka te pAchA pharavAnI taiyArI karatA hatA, tyAre bahecare kahyuM : "hAza, sAruM For Private And Personal Use Only

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( 18 kAraka che ka kI R Cjha ': bApa ra ja che che. : hA nA kara Sche ? :: { il RA devAnI AMbalI para beThele bahecara For Private And Personal Use Only

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34 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI thayuM. huM brahmarAkSasane kayAranAya zeAdhatA hatA, paNa Aja sudhI enA bheTe! na thayA. Aje sArA lAga AnyA che. te mAru' gaLu dAkhe te pahelAM te huM ja tenuM gaLuM pakaDI laIza. juA teA kharA, hamaNAM ja e brahmarAkSasane pakaDIne tamArI sAme hAjara karu chu. pachI bhAre majA Avaze !' bahecara teA 'devAnI AMbalI'nA nAme ALakhAtA jhADa para caDI gayA. eka DALIe besI kAtarA tADI khAvA lAgyA. thADA kAtarA dUra UbhelA gAThiyAe bhaNI nAkhyA. khissAmAMthI mIThAM--maracAMnI paDIkI kADhI. etA nirAMte caTAkedAra kAtarA khAtA jAya, brahmarAkSasane heAkArA-paDakArA karatA jAya ane kahe, * he brahmarAkSasa ! kharA bahAdura hoya teA Ava A ahecara sAme ! ' vakhata vItavA lAgyA, bhaLa-bhAMkharuM thavA Avyu For Private And Personal Use Only

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35 brAhmarAkSasa ke bhramarAkSasa? paNa koI dekhAyuM nahi, bahecare nIce UtarIne goThiyAone kahyuM : ahIM te rAkSasa-bAkSasa jevuM kaMI che ja nahi. badhA khATA gabharAya che. A brahmarAkSasa nathI, paNa bhamarAkSasa che. ApaNe manamAM beTo bhrama rAkhIe chIe ne rAkSasa che ema mAnI beThA chIe." bahecaranI vAta sAMbhaLIne badhAmAM hiMmata AvI. enA gaThiyAo devAnI AMbalI upara caDI gayA, kAtarA teDI-toDIne khAvA lAgyA ne khissAmAM bharavA lAgyA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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IUM A sAcuM che, bahecara meTo thavA lAgyo. mAtApitA khetI kare. bahecara emane madada kare. e savAra-sAMja Dhora pAvA jAya, rAte khetare vAse rahevA jAya, bapore mA sAthe bhAta pahoMcADavA jAya. bhaNe-gaNe koNa? kaNabIno dIkaro vaLI bhaNIne zuM daLadara pheDe? gora pUjApATha kare. zAhukAra nAmuMThAmuM lakhe. sarakArI kArakuna mahesUlanI noMdha rAkhe. kaNabIne vaLI bhaNIne karavAnuM zuM? eTale lokomAM kahevata cAle, "bhaNyA kaNabI kaTaMba baLe." bahecara paNa khetare jAya, Dhora-DhAMkhara sAcave. mArI, 'koma ika RE: ? 6 . ac SNT For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAcuM maLa 37 khAkI bhaNavuM--gaNavuM mUrakhanu kAma, bhaja le khAvA sItArAma ! bheMsa dAvI, pAka laNavA, khetI karavI. emAM bhaNataranuM zuM kAma? bahecara teA sAva mastarAma. vijApuranA pAdaramAM AMbalIAnAM moTAM meTAM jhADa. enA para kAtarAenI teA lumA ane lUmA laTake. bahecara maDaLI jamAve. gajavAmAM mIThAM-maracAMnI paDIkI rAkhe. mana thAya tyAre kAtarA pADIne mIThAmadha nAstA karI le. bahecara teA bahecara ! bhAre tagaDA. khUba baLavAna. khAya paNa pUru ane kAI kAma paNa adhU' na che. e keAIthI gAMjyA jAya nahi, baLamAM kadI pAchA paDe nahi, tyAM vaLI DaravAnI teA vAta ja kevI ? eka vAra A bahu~cara pAdaramAM pharatA hatA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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38 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI sAthe enA gAThiyAA paNa kharA. badhA bhegA maLI AMkhalI-pIpaLInI ramata rame. ww evAmAM sAMjanA samaya thayA. sUrajanArAyaNu AthamaNAM DhaLe. sImamAM cAro carIne dvAra pAchAM Ave. gAmanA rastA tA sAva dhULiyA. emAM vaLI DhAra cAle. dvAra paNa evAM ke savAre nIkaLe enA karatAM sAMje bamaNI jhaDape dhara bhaNI dADe eTale cAre kAra dhULanI raja phelAI jAya. DhAramAM DAhyA DhAra paNa hoya. e dhIredhIre ghara tarapha cAlyA jAya ane emAM ahvaDa ane DhAra paNa hoya. dhI gAmatI karatA cAle, khAkhaDatAM cAle. kayAreka orathI doDa lagAve, reka sAmasAmA ziMgaDAM bherave. For Private And Personal Use Only teAphAnI - laDatAM - te kayA eka divasa tAje tAje cArA carIne bhagarI bheMsa cAlI Ave. bhesa ane vaLI bhAdaravA carelI eTale pachI pUchavuM ja zuM ! e tA jevI AvI ke taphAne

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sAcuM baLa caDI. eNe koI bheMsane dhakko mAryo. te keAIne pADI dIdhI. - talavAra sAme talavAra aphaLAya ema ziMgaDAM sAme ziMgaDAM bhaTakAyAM. bIjAM jAnavara to dUra khasI gayAM, paNa eka bheMsa enI sAme thaI. mAtelI A be bheMse yuddhe caDI. yuddha paNa kevuM khUnakhAra ! dhULa eTalI UDI ke AjubAju kaI dekhAya nahi. ziMgaDe - ziMgaDAM aphaLAyAM. jorathI pheMkavA lAgI. paga UMcA karI ekabIja para trATake. eka bheMsa thAkI eTale e bhAgavA lAgI, paNa bIjI bheMsa ene ema bhAgavA de zAnI? bhAgavuM hatuM to sAme thaI zA mATe? bIjI bheMse eno pIcho pakaDayo. ziMgaDAM ulAMLatI e cAre page doDI. rastAmAM Ave te maryo ja samaje ! lokoe bUmo pADI : "are o ! mAragamAMthI 1 * - For Private And Personal Use Only

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40 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI khasI jajo. bheMsa rumalI thaI che. dUra khasI jaje, nahi to AvI banyuM !' cAre bAju kolAhala macI gayo. kAyara mANasoe to AMkha mIMcIne ghara bhaNI doTa mUkI. thoDA hiMmatavAna hatA e khUba dUra jaIne UbhA rahyA. jhADa nIce AMbalI - pIpaLI ramatA chokarAya mUMjhAI gayA. keI jhADanI pAchaLa chupAI gayA, te keI jhADa para caDI gayA. bhagarI bheMsa te cAre paga UlALatI, ziMgaDA vIMjhatI rastA para doDavA lAgI. A rasto khAlI. enA mAragamAM maravA koNa UbhuM rahe ? A samaye eka gharaDA muni sAmethI cAlyA Ave. mukha para zAMti. hAthamAM daMDa. eka te moTI uMmara eTale pUruM saMbhaLAya nahi muni to nirAMte cAlyA Ave, dhIre dhIre Daga bhare. RJI For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAcuM baLa sAmethI bhaDakelI bheMsa oya oya karatI doDatI Ave. lokoe munine joyA. jora jorathI bUma pADIne emane rastAmAMthI khasI javA kahyuM. muni kaMI samajayA nahi. dhULa eTalI UDe ke kyAM javuM enI khabara paDe nahi. are ! A to bhAre thaI hamaNuM muni pAse bheMsa pahoMcI ja samaje. emanAM soe so varSa Aja pUrAM thayAM samaje. loke hAya - vaya karavA lAgyA. bUmAbUma macI gaI. paNa munine bacAvavA keNu AgaLa Ave? pArakA mATe maravA koNa taiyAra hoya? mANasane vahAlAmAM vahAlo potAno jIva. A jIvane khAvAnuM jokhama keNu kheDe? Aje to A bheMsanA paMjAmAM je Ave e khalAsa ja. For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI. bhaDakelI bheMsa doDatI AvatI hatI. enI jANa vinAnA muni dhIme dhIme cAlyA AvatA hatA ane have to bheMsane ane munine thoDuMka ja cheTuM rahyuM hatuM. basa, paLa- be paLane ja have khela hate. hamaNuM muni hatA na hatA thaI gayA samajo! barAbara Ave vakhate eka juvAniye kUdIne vacce Avyo. kaI laDavaiyo ghase ema e bheMsa sAme dho. bheMsanuM jhanUna vipharelI vAghaNa jevuM hatuM. bheMsanuM tephAna gAMDA hAthI jevuM hatuM. paLavAramAM A juvAna bhoMyabhego thaI gayo samaje. bhaDakelI bhagarI bheMsanA rastAmAM koI bhaDavIra na Ave, ane A to sAme cAlIne sAmane karavA doDa hato. paNa vAha re juvAna ! meM se enI sAme ziMgaDAM ulALyAM te eNe capaLatAthI bheMsanAM zigaDAM pakaDI lIdhAM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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STITUIL da in ka vAda Attity chIMkoTA nAkhatI vipharelI bhesanAM ziMgAM majabUta juvAne bahA durIthI pakaDI lIdhAM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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44 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI have tA . AvI ja banyu` ! bheMsa bhAre vIpharI. aNu nasakeArAM phulAvI chI kADhe nAkhyA. A chIkoTAthI bhalabhalAnA rAma ramI jAya, hiMmatamAjanI hAma bhAMgI jAya, kaMI nahi tA enI pakaDa DhIlI paDI jAya. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir vAha re bahAdura juvAna ! ane teA ziMgaDAM pakaDayAM e pakaDayAM. cheDavAnI te vaLI vAta kevI ! cAre bAju hAhA macI gaI. bhalabhalAnA hRdaya kapI gayAM. alyA ! A masta jAnavara pAse vaLI A cheAkarAnuM zuM gaju? enA goThiyAonI tA jANe jIbha sivAI gaI. ane emanA paga te jyAM ne tyAM cAMTI gayA ! paNa A bAju kaNabI juvAna teA paga kharAkhara TheravI be hAthe bhaDakelI bheMsanA zigaDAM pakaDI Ubhe rahI gayA hatA. bheMsa jhanUnamAM AvI gaI, eNe eka bheMsane tA For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAcuM baLa 45 w wwwwwwwwwwwwwvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv. bhagADI mUkI hatI tyAM vaLI A kaye bhaDavIra Avyo? bheMsa ziMgaDAMnI pakaDa DhIlI karavA khUba jora karavA lAgI, paga UMcA karI chUTavA mahenata karavA lAgI. paNa juvAna to loDhAnA thAMbhalAnI jema aDaga Ubho rahI gayo. bheMse ghaNI mAthAkUTa karI, khUba mahenata karI, paNa eka DagaluMya e AgaLa na vadhI zakI. ene lAgyuM ke A to zerane mAthe savAzera maLyo ! jAnavara paNa hAra - jItamAM samaje. Dhorane paNa nirbaLa-baLavAnanI khabara paDe che ! bheMsa be DagalAM pAchI haThI, bahecare vIjaLI vege lAkaDI hAthamAM lIdhI, kAyA TaTTAra karI ane bAvaDAnuM badhuMya baLa bheguM karIne jorathI lAkaDI vIjhI. - mUMjhAyelI bheMsa mahAta thaI gaI. lAkaDIne phaTako paDatAM pAchI pharI gaI. caDapa karatI AvI hatI e dizAmAM pAchI doDavA lAgI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI paMdara varasanA bahecaranI tAkAta para sahu khuza. thaI gayA. enA goThiyAoe ene khabhe UMcakI lIdho. meTAoe zAbAzI ApI. bahecara muni pAse Avyo. hAtha joDIne praNAma karyA ane kahyuM: "mahArAja,AvA vakhate na nIkaLo to sAruM. kadAca nIkaLo te keAIne sAthe laIne nIkaLo." A juvAnane to hatuM ke mahArAja enA baLanAM vakhANa karaze. enI bahAdurI mATe zAbAzI Apaze. mAtamAMthI ugAravA mATe ene upakAra mAnaze. paNa munie to AvuM kazuM kahyuM nahi. mAtra AzIrvAda ApyA ane kahyuM, "bhAIprANuM te abAla kahevAya. ene Avo phaTako na marAya. tArA phaTakAthI e alanI AMtaraDI keTalI kakaLI haze? jema ApaNane kaI phaTakA mAre ane vedanA thAya tema e jIvaneya keTalI badhI vedanA thaI haze?? juvAnane thayuM ke A to dharama karatAM dhADa paDayA 2. * * *!!! . * * * * ka ke ' a , 'nAnA ' i s ' + *r* * * ke ke * * * - Enche ? For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAcuM baLa naka jevuM thayuM ! A te kevA sAdhu ! emane metanA mukhamAMthI bacAvyA chatAM jAtanI vAta karatA nathI ane bheMsanI ciMtA kare che. A juvAne kahyuM : "mahArAja, A bheMsa to badhA anavaramAM sauthI vadhu jADI buddhivALI. je huM vacce AvyA na hota, te Aja tamArA badhAMya varasa pUrA thaI gayAM hota. A DebAnI jAta ja evI ke bUhAM vinA pAMsaLI na thAya." nA, bhAI nA. evuM kazuM nathI. e abAla prANIneya AtmA hoya che. eneya jIva dubhAtA hoya che. amAre khAtara koIneya jIva dubhAya e amane pasaMda nathI. amAre dharma ja kahe che ke jema tane tAro jIva vahAlo che, teTalo ja bIjAne ene jIva vahAla hoya che.' "te he mahArAja, A te vaLI kyo dharama? je pitAnI jAta karatAM pArakAnI vadhu phikara rAkhavAnuM ja ke ke ' IF - '' ' . :: B - ST mA . ' ; " TET - For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUriza 48 kahe che?" mahArAje kahyuM : ' bhAI, amArA dharma e jaina dharma. e khaLanI vAta kare che, paNa te khAvaDAMnA khaLanI nahiM, AtmAnA baLanI. mAranAra mATeA nathI, tAranAra meTA che. tArA baLane huM` zu` vakhANuM' ? A khaLathI kaMI tAruM kalyANa na thAya. " juvAna kahe, 'tame vaLI navI navAInI vAta kahe ! ! AvA baLanI vAta teA meM kayAMya jANI nathI. zuM mArI pAsenuM baLa e khATu che ? " muni kahe, 'hA. tArI pAse je baLa che e te bheMsa pAse paNa hatu . jo te' ane ekAeka pakaDI na heAta tA e tane harAvI jAta. sAcu` baLa teA vidyAnu khaLa, e baLathI mANasanu bhalu thAya, bIjAnuM bhalu' thAya, dezanu ya bhaluM thAya.' , bahecara kahe : ' e khaLa te kevu' ? ' muni kahe : ' tArI pAse zarIranu` baLa che. tArA For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAcuM baLa /0842808444444444444444444444444-40000000000-~-~ jevuM baLa to ghaNAmAM haze, paNa vidyAnuM baLa evuM che ke e sahune jIte che. tAre adhyAtmavidyAnuM baLa keLavavuM joIe. zarIranI zakti ane mananI zuddhi bhegI maLe to ja jIvyuM sArthaka thAya. juvAno garva gaLI gayo. have ene sAcuM baLa meLavavuM hatuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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tathA Ha IPE s li GheMgare lIDuM jhaDapyu Ama mAM dAdA | vijApuranI nizALamAM bahecara bhaNavA beTho. nizALanA eka zikSaka to gaNitamAM ekaThA gaNAya. badhA emane gherI vaLe. bahecara paNa emanI pAse zIkhavA jAya. zIkhavA sAthe gurunA gharanAM bIjAM kAmakAja paNa karato Ave. emAMya vaLI zikSakanAM patnI gujarI gayAM hatAM. AthI gharanI javAbadArI vidyArthIo hoMzabhera saMbhALI letA. kayAreka seI karavI paDe. koI vidyAthIne saMjavArI vALavI paDe. keI anAja laI Ave, te kaI ghaDe pANI bharI Ave. * rAja *bhayAnakA. I 11 R ma": : "* : ja | | For Private And Personal Use Only

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bahecare bIDuM jhaDapyuM pA ghaNAM varSo pachI A gharaDA zikSakane pharI paraNavAnA keDa jAgyA. uMmaramAM moTA evA A zikSaka navI vahune paraNI lAvyA. e jamAne e hatuM ke, "dIkarI ane gAya, dore tyAM jAya !" navI vahue gharanA uMbaramAM paga mUkyo ane e dhUNavA lAgI. hajI pIThI deha para hatI. pAnetara pahereluM ja hatuM. pahelI rAtanAM kaMku-kesaranAM chAMTaNuM hatAM ane navoDhA te UMcA - UMcA kUdakA mAre, meTI maTI cIsa pADe, kyAreka rADa pADe ane vaLI trADa pADe: "hAu! hAu ! huM cUDela ! mane aDaze mA ! AghA raheje ! aDaze ene bharakhI jaIza !' AdheDa pati hiMmata hArI gaye. bAIoraDAmAM dhUNatI beThI hatI, pati bahAra khATalAnI pAMgate besI rahyo hato. milananI rAta ema ne ema vahI gaI ! Akhe divasa juvAna bAIkAma kare, paNa rAta paDe ane jevo pati pAse Ave ke dhUNavA lAge. : :.. ma For Private And Personal Use Only

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para bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI sagAM-vahAlAM samajAvavA Ave ke bAI cIsa nAkhavA lAge : "khAu, khAu, sabako khAuM. tumako khAuM, usako khAu, sabako khAuM.' bhUvA AvyA. phakIra AvyA. jati AvyA. bAdhA, naivedya ane mAnatA cAlyAM chatAM bAIsAjI na thaI. Akhare eka phakIra AvyA. kAganuM besavuM ne DALanuM paDavuM. eNe Ilama ajamAvyA. bAI caDapa karatI DAhI thaI gaI. phakIre gavADAnA raste AvelA kabrastAnanA pIrane malIdo caDhAvI AvavA kahyuM. bicArA vRddha zikSaka to e kahe te karavA taiyAra hatA. temaNe malIdo taiyAra karyo, paNa caDhAvavA koNa jAya ? eka to kabrastAna. AjubAju gIca jhADI. hRdayanA thaDakArA baMdha thaI jAya evuM bhayaMkara ekAMta For Private And Personal Use Only

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ahecare bIDu jhaDapyu 13 ane emAMya pIrapIrANAnu' jokhamI kAma. khare bapeAre paNa tyAM javAnI koIka ja hi'mata kare. sAMje nizALa chUTI. sUrya AthamaNI dizAmAM DhaLavA lAgyA. AkAzamAMthI aMdhArAM UtaravA lAgyAM. zikSake malIdA nA taiyAra rAkhyA hatA, paNa e caDAvavA keAne meAkalavA, enI UMDI citAmAM DUbelA hatA. emaNe vidyAthI Ane khAlAvyA : kahyuM ke kamrastAnanA pIrane A malIdA caDhAvavA javAnuM che. tamArAmAMthI koI hiMmatavAna A kAma upADI le. badhA vidhAthI ekabIjA sAme jovA lAgyA. keTalAkane tA kabrastAnanuM nAma sAMbhaLatAM ja kamakamATI AvI gaI. keTalAkane thayuM ke kAma che jokhamI ane emAM je bhUla thAya te te badhAM varasa pUrAM thaI jAya ! kaNakhInA dIkarA bahecara zarIre khaDatala ane mananA majabUta hateA. e bhaya jevu kazuM jANatA naheAtA. chaThThA dhAraNamAM bhaNatA bahecare khIDu jhaDapyu, For Private And Personal Use Only

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54 mALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI eNe kahyuM : ' gurujI, emAM zu' ? lAvA, hu' jaIza. mane malIdA Ape. bahecare malIdA lIdheA. A malIdA eTale kAcA lATa ane dhI - geALanI banAvelI kulera jevu. sAthe nAnakaDI vADakImAM dIveA karavAdhI, rU ane divAsaLI lIdhAM. eNe teA cAlavA mAMDayuM kakhrastAna bhaNI. bahecara te khUba khuza hatA. ghaNA vakhatathI pIra jevA hatA. Aje pIranA rUbarU bheTa thaze eTale peAtAnu kAma saraze. vaLI bahecaranA manamAM vicAra AvyA. eNe sAMbhaLyu` hatu` ke deva-devIe ane pIra - AliyA te vAsanAnA bhUkhyA heAya. e adRzya rahIne dhUmatAM hAya; narI AMkhe te e najareya na paDe, teA have Aja beu' ke e A malIdA khAya che kaI rIte? bahecara kabrastAnamAM paheAMcyA. AjubAju gIca jhADI. cAre bAju thuveranAM jha'Da, mANusanA tyAM kAI For Private And Personal Use Only

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ja : "nanA 1; che ) :: ka S KC ' ' ! malI mUkIne pIranI rAha jote bahecara For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI aNasAra ja na maLe. bahecara kabara pAse Avyo. bAjumAM thALI mUkI. rUnI dIveTa karI. dhImAM banI. divAsaLIthI saLagAvI. zrIphaLa vadheryuM ane pachI malIdAnI thALI kabara pAse mUkI. dIve bAjue mUkI hAtha joDayA ane bolyA: he pIrasAheba! ApanA mATe A malIdo lAvyA chuM. thALImAM rUmAlathI DhAMkIne ApanI sAme mUkuM chuM. mAeka kalAka beTho chuM. Apa eTalI vAramAM jamI lejo. thALI mAre mAstara sAhebane pAchI ApavAnI che." bahecara to palAMThI lagAvIne tyAM besI gaye. ekITaze zuM thAya che te jovA lAgyA. samaya vItavA lAgyo. thoDI vAra pachI eNe malIdAnI thALI parathI rUmAla upADayo. paNa A zuM? malIdo te jevo hato evo ja lacapacato paDayo hato ! bahecarane mATe to mUMjhavaNa UbhI thaI : thALI lIdhA vinA jAya to mAstara mAre, ane thALI levA For Private And Personal Use Only

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bahecare bIDuM jhaDapyuM zikAya to rAta paDI jAya. sAMjanA vALanI veLA thavA AvI hatI. rAte e jamatA nahotA. pharI bahecare pIrasAhebane vinaMti karI ane kahyuM : "kRpA karI Apa A malIdo jaladI ArogI lyo, mAre ghera javAnuM moDuM thAya che. vaLI rAtre jamato nathI eTale moDuM thaze te bhUkhyA sUvuM paDaze. tame jayAre malIdo jamavAnA ja che, te vahelA jamI levAmAM vAMdho zuM? mATe jhaTa kare to sAruM.' bahecara thoDI vAra beThe. enI najara malIdAnI thALI para hatI. e vicArato hato : kayAre pIrasAheba Ave ane malIdo Aroge. ghaNo samaya vItI gayo. aMdhArAM DhaLavA lAgyAM hatAM. bahecare rUmAla upADIne joyuM te lacapacate malIdo hajIya ema ne ema ja paDayo hato. teNe pharIthI pIrasAhebanI hajUramAM nivedana karyuM: pIrasAheba, huM vidyArthI chuM. vaLI rAte jamato nathI - ja For Private And Personal Use Only

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18 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI aya vAta Apane kayAranIya karI che. dhera paheAMcatA cAkkasa a'dhAruM thaI jaze. AthI mane AzA che ke huM malIde khAIza teA Apa jarUra rAjI thaze.' Ama kahIne bahecara te nirAMte e malIdA ArAgI gayA ! thALI-vATakA khAlI karIne pAcheA pharyAM. mAstarasAhebane thALI-vADakA pAchA ApyAM. mAratara teA kayAranAya enI rAha joIne beThA hatA. emane teA bhAre ciMtA thatI hatI. jevA bahecarane joyA ke tarata emaNe pUchyuM : 'kema alyA bahecara ! malIdA barAbara caDAvyA ne ? ' bahecare kahyuM, * hA sAheba, malIdA te kharAkhara caDAvyA hatA.' 8 te| pachI ATalI badhI vAra kema thaI ? zikSake AturatAthI pUchyuM. 8 are sAheba, malIdA caDAvyA pachI pIrasAheba ArAge eTalI vAra teA rAhu jevI paDe ne? vaLI A For Private And Personal Use Only

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bahecare bIDuM jhaDapyuM thALIya pAchI lAvavAnI hatI. eTale malIdo mUkIne huM pIrasAhebanI rAha jovA lAgyo." "pachI... pachI thayuM zuM ?" thAya zuM ? pIrasAheba AvyA nahi eTale huM malIdo khAI gayo !" zikSakano pitto phATayo. kevo gajabano chokaro! rakhe ene kaMI thaI na jAya! paNa bahecarane te kaMI thavAne Dara na hato. ene to ema thatuM ke pote malIdo khAdhe ethI pIrasAheba kharekhara khuza thayA haze ! -- SAja tamAM - For Private And Personal Use Only

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aikaoNlat iSTra vijApuramAM kaNabIvAsamAM vAta cAlI. khemA paTela kahe : "alyA A bahecarane thayuM che zuM ? pahelAM paga vALIne eka ghaDIya besatA nahoto ane have kalAke nA kalAka sudhI UMDA vicAramAM besI rahe che!" bAjumAM beThelA revAbA bolyAM : "alyA, kheDUnA dIkarAne kheDa parathI mana UThI jAya eTale nakkI have dhanata- panota nIkaLavAnuM ja bAkI rahyuM !" emAM vaLI koI hasIne TApasI pUratuM : hA, hA, sAcI vAta. kAle mArA DhAMDhA nahotA For Private And Personal Use Only

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amelanI AMtaraDI 61 cAlatA te huM jarA ene sameADatA hatA, emAM te zikhAmaNu Ape ke A rIte bahecaranA mijAja gayA. mane Aneya tArI mAphaka jIva che. saoADe teA kevuM thAya ? mATe A tane koI kALAM kAma rahevA de." A badhAnI vAtamAM zivA paTela sUra purAvatA. gharamAM khAvA dUdha na heAya tyAre bahecara dUdha dohavAne badale peAtAnI mAtAnA dUdha mATe talasatA vAcharune cheADI mUke che. vAcharuM jyAre enI mAtAne dhAve che, tyAre UbhA UbhA joI rahe che ane khUba khuza thAya che. Avu te ze` cAle ? ' paheAzamAM rahetA kAnA paTele zivA paTelane salAha ApI : 'tyAre tameya che! kevA? ane kahI de! ke AvuM nahi cAle. gAya dohI lIdhA pachI ja vAcharu chUTuM mUkAya. kabhukhI thaIne ATaluM ya na samaje te thaI rahyuM.' zivA paTela kahe : * alyA bhAI, eka vAra ane Dri A For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI cIDe bharAIne Thapako Apyo, kahyuM ke gharamAM dUdhanI jarUra che ane vAcharune zA mATe chUTuM mUkI de che? tyAre bahecare javAba vALyo ke jeno pahelo hakaka ene pahelAM maLavuM joIe. gharanA chokarAM ghaMTI cATe ane upAdhyAyane ATo e nyAya kyAMne?' vAha, bahecara te kaNabI che ke bhagata, e ja samajAtuM nathI ! - vAteya sAcI hatI. sAdhunAM vacanee bahecarane vicAratA karI mUkyo hato. emanAM mIThAM vacane enA manamAM cakarAvA letAM hatAM. emaNe kahyuM hatuM ke je jIva ApaNe, evo ja jIva bIjAne. badhAne jIva sarakhe che ane badhAya jIva jIvavA Icche che. e divasathI bahecaranuM vartana badalAI gayuM. kheDunA chokarAne pitAnAM Dhera para khUba prema jAgyo. roja koDha sApha kare, bagAIo vINe, macchara uDADavA dhumADo kare, sUkI mATI lAvIne pAthare, taLAve - do. jI' 1 For Private And Personal Use Only

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abAlanI AMtaraDI 63 laI jaI Dhorane vahAlathI dhamAre. emAMya bahecarane eka vAchaDe to khUba vahAlo. vAchaDe evo ke bahecarane jue eTale doDIne enI pAse pahoMcI jAya. anA zarIra sAthe nAnI nAnI ziMgaDIo ghase. kyAreka lADamAM pharavA lAge. eka divasa e vAcharaDAne gAma bahAra derI javAmAM Avyo. ene khUba kasIne jhADa sAthe bAMdhyo. saheje hAle-cAle nahi te rIte ene doraDAM vIMTALyAM. bahecara nizALethI ghera Avyo, AvIne gamAgumAM joyuM te vAcharaDe na maLe. potAno khyAre vAcharaDo kayAM gaye ? bahecare gharanAne pUchyuM to javAba maLyo ke ene godhalo banAvavA laI gayA che. bahecare godhalA to ghaNuM joyA hatA, paNa godhalA kema nIpajatA haze enI ene kazI khabara nahotI. bahecare to doTa mUkI. gAmanI sIma vaTAvI. *== BEILINE For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI ene kAne potAnA pyArA vAcharaDAnI cIsa paDI. gAya game teTalI dUra hoya to paNa potAnA vAcharunA bhAMbharaDAne oLakhI jAya che, e ja rIte bahecare potAnA vAcharaDAnI cIse sAMbhaLI. atyaMta vedanAbharI e cIso hatI. vAcharaDAnA abela aMtaramAM keTalI badhI vedanA thatI haze ! bahecara muThThI vALIne tyAM doDyo. AvIne joyuM te bahecarane kamakamAM AvI gayAM. ekabAju prANInI vedanA tarapha karuNA jAgI, to bIjI bAju mAnavInAM kALAM kAma mATe napharata jAgI. vAgharI kAma pUruM karI charI luchato hato. jamIna para lehI paDyuM hatuM. vAcharaDe vedanAmAM taraphaDato hato. bahecara to stabdha banIne Ubho rahI gayo. pelA sAdhumahArAjanAM vacane enA manamAM gUMjavA lAgyAM. abela prANIneya ApaNu jevo AtmA hoya che. enoya jIva ApaNI peThe dubhAto hoya che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI bahecara potAnA pyArA vAcharaDA pAse gayo. eNe enI rUpALI nAnakaDI ziMgaDIo para hAtha pheravyo. Aje e vAcharaDe vahAlane javAba vALI zake tema nahotuM. kAramI vedanAthI hajI e taraphaDato hato. vAcharaDA nI AvI dazA joI bahecarathI cIsa paDAI gaI, "are ! tame badhAe bhegA maLIne A zuM karyuM? jAnavara bele nahi, mATe ene kaMI mAra na marAya." bahecaranA eka sAthIe kahyuM : "alyA, ame A vAcharaDAne mAra mAryo nathI, paNa upakAra karyo che. ene geghalo banAvyo to keDInI kiMmatane vAchaDe have lAkhanA mUla banyo. sAMDha rahyo hota to ene koNa ghera rAkhata? DAma daIne tagaDI mUkata ! Thera Thera bhaTakata ane mAra khAto khAte marI jAta. have A godhalo to AkhI jiMdagI kAmano raheze. - - - - - - - -- --- --- - - - ka : - na s ka ', R All ---- For Private And Personal Use Only

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abelanI AMtaraDI bahecarathI A veNa sAMbhaLIne rahevAyuM nahi. eka te jAnavarane IjA karavI ane pAcho upakAranI vAta karavI ! eNe kahyuM, "bhAI lavajI, ene godhalo banAvI AkhI jiMdagI kAmane rAkhe e kharuM paNa enI jiMdagI nakAmI karIne ja ne! ApaNe ApaNA svArthI ne vicAra karyo. pachI pArakAnuM to je thavAnuM hoya te thAya. ApaNI najare e kAmane rahyo, pachI bhale enuM jIvana ApaNe barabAda karyuM hoya. bahecaranI A vAta sAMbhaLIne badhA hasavA lAgyA. alyA, kaNabIne dIkaro te Avo hotA haze? AvI nakAmI mAthAkuTa karato haze ? A uMmare to kheDano aDadho bhAra ocho kare, paNa A to bhaNa taranA paratApa ! sAva vediye banI gaya lAge che ! bahecara ghare pAcho pharyo. enI vAta sAMbhaLanAra : * Insiness - mAM ka ravA - kare For Private And Personal Use Only

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68 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI tyAM koI nahotuM. e manamAM ne manamAM mUMjhAto hato. enuM nAnakaDuM haiyuM du:khathI taraphaDatuM hatuM. ghera gayA to gamANamAMthI pelA vAcharaDAne pokAra saMbhaLAya. gAma bahAra khetare jAya te ene e vAcharaDe taraphaDato lAge. bahecaranI najara sAme AkhA saMsAra svAthI dekhAvA lAgyA. gAnI pUjA karavAmAM Ave che, paNa e to mAtra vAtathI ke thoDAghaNA AcArathI. gAyane pUjA nahi, sArI rakhavALI maLe toya ghaNuM hatuM. ahIM to gAya dUjhatI hoya tyAre enI pUjA thAya, ane vasUkI gayelI gAya bhUkhe mare. svArthI saMsAranI krUratAne koI pAra nathI. sAMDha para kArame julama gujAravAmAM Avato hato. kAMdha para paDelA baLadane kALI yAtanA bhogavavI paDatI hatI. gharaDA Dhorane te kaI belI ja nahoto. kayAM te e mahAjananI pAMjarApoLamAM jAya athavA to Key thao For Private And Personal Use Only

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abelanI AMtaraDI chAne -chapane kasAIvADe pahoMce! bahecaranA romaromamAMthI roSanI javALA UThavA lAgI. A te kevI duniyA ? jyAM lagI svArtha hoya tyAM sudhIno ja saMbaMdha! svArtha maTo eTale duzmana ! bahecaranI AMkhamAMthI AMsu saravA mAMDyAM. Thera Thera ene A khArA vAcharaDAno pokAra saMbhaLAvA lAgyo. abelanI AMtaraDI dUbhavavAnI na hoya. enA te AzIrvAda levAya ! eNe manomana nakkI karyuM ke alanI AMtaraDI dubhAya evuM kazuM kadI nahi karuM. jevo jIva Apo , evo jIva sahuno ! * " For Private And Personal Use Only

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paramAtmAne pAmavAnI jhamanA juvAna bahecaranI akaLAmaNanA pAra nahI karavu zuM e kaMI sUjhe nahI. pitA vicAre ke bahecara juvAna thayA, have teA ane khetInA aDadhA bhAra upADavA beI a. mAtAne teA evA keADa hatA ke kayAre bahucaranAM lagna thAya ane aneA sukhI saMsAra jotI jAuM. pArakAnI ci'tAmAM sukAtA paDezIo vicAratA ke nakkI keAI bAvAe bahecara para bhabhUta nAkhI che. Ama na hAya te| kaNabInA dIkarA kaMI kAyara jevI vAteA na kare. pelA vAcharaDAne geAdhaleA banAvyA tyAre For Private And Personal Use Only

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paramAtmAne pAmavAnI jhaMkhanA e kevI gAMDA jevI vAto karato hato ! bahecara vicArato ke have karavuM zuM ? khetImAM jIva lAgato nathI. pazuo para to bhAre vahAla thAya che ane aMtaramAM dayA Upaje che. have javuM kyAM ? evAmAM enuM mana camakI UThayuM. pelA sAdhu mahArAja yAda AvyA. kevI mIThI - madhurI emanI vANI ! kevI sArI - samajavA jevI emanI vAto ! bahecara munirAjane maLavA upAzraye gaye. upAzrayanI pATa para siMha jevI nIDara mukhamudrAvALA munirAja vyAkhyAna ApatA hatA. emanAM nayanamAMthI amRta varasatuM hatuM. emanAM vacanamAM sAkarazeraDInI mIThAza hatI. bahecara te sASTAMga daMDavatuM praNAma karIne sabhAmAM besI gayo. munirAjanI vANI vahetI hatI. teoe kahyuM : Aje bhagavAna mahAvIre rAjagRhanA mAsAmAM kaheluM eka daSTAMta kahuM. bhagavAne emanI "jJAtAzailI che ja:'". - For Private And Personal Use Only

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72 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI eTale dRSTAMta dvArA vAta samajAvavAnI zailImAM kahyuM, "keTalAka loke atithi mATe gheTAne pALe che, ene khUba lADa laDAve che. sAro sAro ghAsa - cAro khavarAve che. ene cALA ne java khavarAvI hRSTapuSTa banAve che. gheTo khAya che ne moja kare che. "e gheTe moTI kAyAvALo ne moTA peTavALA thAya che. gheTo mAne che ke mArA jIvanamAM AnaMda che, meja che, masta thaIne khAvA-pIvAnuM che. juone, bIjAM gheTAM kevAM rakhaDe che ! kevAM bhUkhe mare che ! evAmAM eka divasa gharadhaNI mahemAnane jamADavA rAtA-mAtA gheTAne pakaDIne bAMdhe che ne ene vadha kare che. enA nAnA kakaDA karI enI svAdiSTa vAnagI banAve che. gheTAne maratI vakhate atithi AvyAne zeka thAya che! paNa jarA UMDA UtarIne vicAra karo ke ghaDapaNarUpI atithi kone nathI Avato ? ne mRtyarUpI For Private And Personal Use Only

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73 paramAtmAne pAmavAnI jhaMkhanA charI kene halAla nathI karatI? e atithi ane charI AvyA pahelAM je cete te khare cetyo kahevAya !" ATalI kathA kahI munirAje aMtamAM kahyuM ke, "mAnavIe dharma pALavAmAM paLane paNa pramAda kare joIe nahi. mAnavIne AtmA ja ene sAco mitra che. e ja mAnavInA jIvanamAM sukha ane du:kha sarjanAro ane eno nAza karanAra che. sArA mArge janArane AtmA mitra che. khoTA mArge janArano AtmA eno zatru che. e AtmAne je jANe che te sarvane jANe che. AthI ja prabhu mahAvIre eka sthaLe kahyuM che ke je rIte kerInA hRdayamAM rahelI eka goTalImAM eka vizALa AMbAnuM vRkSa chupAyeluM che, evI ja rIte mAnavInI kAyAmAM ja paramAtmA chupAyelo che." AkhI sabhA ravisAgarajI mahArAjanI vANI ekacitte sAMbhaLI rahI hatI. emanI najara bahecarane oLakhI gaI hatI. emaNe sabhAne A juvAnanI bahAdurInI vAta, vakhANa sAthe kahI saMbhaLAvI. : - SS che B & For Private And Personal Use Only

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74. bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI enAM manobaLa ane zarIrabaLanAM vakhANa karyA. aMte ema paNa kahyuM ke, AvA juvAne dhAre te karI zake che. bahecara to manomana mUMjhAte hato. ene have zuM karavuM te samajAtuM nahotuM ane mahArAjazrI to kahe che A yuvAna dhAre te karI zake eve che! ene thayuM ke kevI namratA ! mArA rAI jevaDA kAmane kevuM parvatasamuM moTuM karI batAve che ! vyAkhyAna pUruM thayuM. zrAvako vIkharAyA. bahecara gurunI pAse gayo. emanA paganI raja mAthe caDAvIne eNe kahyuM : "guru mahArAja ! A saMsArathI to have, huM thAkyo chuM. paNa zuM karavuM enI mane kazI sUjha paDatI nathI. sAco mArga meLavavA mAre zuM karavuM joIe?' guru karavA joIe.' to Apa ja mArA guru. huM vaLI guru zodhavA. bIje kayAM jAuM? ApanI vANI sAMbhaLI. mAre For Private And Personal Use Only

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paramAtmAne pAmavAnI jhaMkhanA 7pa ghaDapaNarUpI atithi ane mRtyarUpI charI Ave te pahelAM cetavuM che. Apa ja mane paramAtmAno mArga batAvo." ravisAgarajI mahArAje bahecarane hetathI kahyuM : bhAI! paramAtmAne khALavA javAnI jarUra nathI; e. te ApaNu AtmAmAM ja beThA che. AtmAnA rAgavaiSa sAthe ApaNe yuddha karavAnuM che. ahiMsA, saMyama ane tapa e A yuddhanAM zastro che. bAkI to pelA bhajanavALA kahe che tema "ghaTaghaTamAM rAma' rahelo che. tAre tArA aMtaramAM chupAyelA e paramAtmAnI pichAna meLavavAnI che. "paraMtu e pichAna thAya kevI rIte?" e pichAnanI paDelI zarata che pavitra mana ane pavitra AcaraNa. jema bagalI iMDAmAMthI janme che ane IMDuM bagalImAMthI janme che, ema tRSNAmAMthI meha janme che ane mehamAMthI tRSNA thAya che. je : : ke : : : For Private And Personal Use Only

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76 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI mANasa dara mahine lAkhe gAyanuM dAna kare che enA karatAM kaMI na ApI zakanAro, paraMtu saMyamanuM AcaraNa karanAra zreSTha che." AvuM pavitra mana thAya kevI rIte? bahecare jijJAsAthI prazna karyo. "sAdhuonA satsaMgathI ane zAstronA svAdhyAyathI." ethI prabhu maLaze kharA? jarUra maLaze. ahiMsA, saMyama ane tapanuM AcaraNa karavAthI jarUra prabhu maLaze. tArA dilamAM ja prabhu che. AtmA e ja paramAtmA. "huM pote prabhu thaI zakuM? zuM kaho che ? AtmA e ja paramAtmA?" baDecaranA aMtaranI sUkAtI vela jANe pharI pAMgaravA lAgI. enA hRdayamAM nirAzAne sthAne AzAne prakAra jhaLahaLI UThyo. ene thayuM ke nakakI For Private And Personal Use Only

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pUrmAtmAne pAmavAnI jhaMkhanA enA jIvanamAM navatama navara Mgo phUlaDAM khIlaze. saMvata 1945nA AsA mAsanI zubha tithie bahecara vidyAzALAmAM zAstranA adhyayana mATe dAkhala thayA. yy vidyAzALAnA guru pAse A kaNabI juvAna jaina dharmanA marUpa navakAramaMtranu pahelu caraNu zIkhyA : ' tame ariha tANum ' For Private And Personal Use Only aMtaranA duzmAne jItanAra arihaMtane huM namana karuM chuM. mAnavIe jagatane jItavAnu` nathI. duniyAne jItanArA sika Mdara ane nepeAliyana Akhare hAryA che. jItavAnu che mAnavInI aMdara satata cAlI raheluM mahAbhArata.premarUpI pAMDavA ane kalezarUpI kauravA vacce jene kAraNe yuddha che, te mada, meAha, mAna, matsara ane krodhanI AMtaravRttiAne jItavAnI che. jItavAnA che jagatanA rAgadveSA. ane jItavAnA je prayatna kare te jaina.

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vvvvv/www/WWWvvvvvvvvvvvvvv bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI saMsArane saMgrAma bahAranAM baLA sAtheno hoya che. jainane saMgrAma aMdaranAM baLo sAthe hoya che. AthI janane kAI vADA nathI, sImA nathI. baMdhana ke dIvAlo nathI. cAre varNa ane grevIse jAtiare, Akhe saMsAra A bhAvanAone aMtaramAM utArIne jana kahevaDAvI zake che. AcAramAM ahiMsA, vicAramAM anekAnta, vANImAM syAdavAda ane samA jamAM aparigraha dhAraNa karIne jIvavAnuM hoya che. je veranI sAme prema, dezanI sAme kSamA ane hiMsAnI sAme ahiMsA keLave ane e rIte jitendrIya bane te arihaMta kahevAya. tene sau prathama praNAma. bahecara manamAM vicAra kare che, kevI suMdara che A bhAvanA, jyAM koI vyaktine nahi, paNa Adarzane namana che ! bahecarano abhyAsa barAbara cAlavA lAgyo. ziSya utsAhI hatA. guru sadAyI hatA. che - s: jAmA nA - :::::* 5:/ For Private And Personal Use Only

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paramAtmAne pAmavAnI jhaMkhanA eka vAra zikSake bahecarane kahyuM : "mAtra ekale. vicAra kAma nathI. vicAramAM AcAranI suvAsa bhaLavI ghaTe. jevo vicAra, tevo AcAra joIe. A abhyAsathI tAruM aMtara nirmaLa banyuM che. tArI bhAvanAo Urdhva banI che. tArA Adarzo satyazodhakanA banyA che, paraMtu A vicAranI Athe AcAra paNa bhaLavo joIe." bahecare AturatAthI pUchayuM, "gurujI! ApanI vAta sAva sAcI. vicAranI khilAvaTa AcAramAM thAya te ja e vicAranI sArthakatA. paNa Apa A badhuM mane zA mATe kahe che, te samajAtuM nathI." gurue kahyuM, "tArAmAM suvicAra jarUra che, paNa enI sAthe suAcAra hovA joIe. suAcAra eTale zuM? sadAcAranI vAta sAMbhaLI che. sadAcAra AcaravAne yatana paNa karuM chuM, paNa A suAcAranI mane khabara nathI." For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI zikSake potAnI vAta samajAvatAM kahyuM: "juo, tame jaina dharmazAstranuM adhyayana kare che, paNa mAtra adhyayana karavAthI te vidyA pothImAMnAM rIMgaNa jevI rahe. ene AcAramAM utAravI joIe. A mATe ochAmAM ochuM tamAre rAtribhojana tajavuM joIe. bhejanamAM lasaNa-DuMgaLI khAva cho teno paNa tyAga karavo ghaTe.' bahecare gurunI vAta para vicAra karavA mAMDaze. jana bALakane mATe A saraLa hatuM, paNa kaNabInA putrane mATe te A baMne niyamo aneka Aphato khaDI karI de tevA hatA. zivA paTelane tyAM koI moTI samRddhi nahotI. roja kaMI pAMca-sAta vAnagI thatI nahi. jamavA mATe be ke traNa cIja ja hoya. bhejanamAM moTe bhAge roTalo ane DuMgaLInuM zAka hoya. kayAreka roTale ane lasaNanI caTaNI hoya. zAka game te hoya paNa emAM A che ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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8; paramAtmAne pAmavAnI jhaMkhanA lasaNano vaghAra te khare ja. bahecara mATe moTI muzkelI UbhI thaI. e vicAre che : je A niyama pALe to bhUkhyA ja rahevuM paDe. ane niyamane na pALe to bhaNatarane kazo artha nahi. A be vAtane meLa zI rIte maLe? vaLI kheDUnA dIkarAne divase to khetI karavAnI hoya. nirAMte jamavAnuM te sAMje khetaramAMthI AvyA pachI rAtre hoya. rAta sivAya bhejana mATe bIje kaI samaya paNa na maLe. to have karavuM zuM? eka bAju gurune upadeza hatA, te bIjI bAju enA pAlanamAM pArAvAra muzkelIo hatI. eka bAju sAcI vidyA meLavavAnI dhagaza hatI, to bIjI bAju bhUkhyA rahIne divasenA divasa kADhavA paDe tevuM thAya tema hatuM. zikSaka bahecaranI gaDamathala pArakhI gayA. e paNa ziSyanI kasoTI karatA hatA, enI jJAna mATenI For Private And Personal Use Only

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82 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI tAlAvelInuM mApa kADhatA hatA. paramAtmA mATenI laganInI agniparIkSA karatA hatA. bIje divase bahecara bhaNavA AvyA. gurue pUchyuM : "kema bahecara, zuM nirNaya karyo? tame to Ajanma DuMgaLI-lasaNanA khAnArA ane rAte jamanArA. AthI je kaMI nirNaya kare te pahelAM pUruM vicArI leje. niyama na levo sAre, paNa niyama laIne toDavo e ghaNuM khATuM." bahecare javAba Apyo : "gurujI, ApanI vAta sAcI che. eka vAra niyama lIdho pachI kaI paNa bhoge ene pALavo ja joIe. mAro sauthI maTe niyama te paramAtmAno mArga pAmavAne che. enI pichAna mATe je koI nAnA-moTA niyama pALavA joIe te badhA jarUrI pALIza. DuMgaLI-lasaNa jevA kaMdamULa ane rAtribhojanane AjathI tyAga karuM chuM.' bahecarane A niyamane lIdhe ghaNI muzkelI paDatI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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paramAtmAne pAmavAnI jhaMkhanA 83 -01-244444444444444444444444444444444444444444www kaI vAra chAza ane roTalAthI ja patAvI levuM paDatuM. savArano roTalo rAkhI mUke ane sAMje nizALethI AvIne roTalo ane maracuM khAIne bhojana patAve. kaMI na maLe te e kAcA ghauM, kAcI bAjarI ke becAra muThThI maTha kAcA ne kAcA cAvIne pANI pI lete. vAra bhojanamAM bAphelI pApaDI hAtha caDI jatI, keI vAra peka AvI maLate tyAre te basabasa thaI jatuM ! kasAyelA deha ane mahenatu jIvanamAM peTamAM patharA paDe toya pacI jatA. kayAreka kAmamAM sAMja paDI jatI to bhUkhyA peTe sUI javuM paDatuM, paNa bahecarane ene saheje aphasosa thAya nahi. AvI musIbatane jIvananI meja mAnIne hasate mukhe jhIlavA lAgyo. tamannAnAM A tapa hatAM. e tapa kadI nirarthaka thatAM nathI. sArthakatA ene zodhatI Ave che. bahecarane te ghaDapaNarUpI atithi ane mRtyurUpI charI Ave va * kA ja najara For Private And Personal Use Only

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84 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI hatA. te pahelAM sArA guNAthI jIvana jIvI jANavAnA keDa A samaye Ape!Apa emanA aMtaramAMthI peAtAnI vanabhAvanAne batAvatI eka kavitA sarI paDI-- jatA mATA thatA, jana pakAtA, sArA karIne kAja; duHkhane veThI vidyA bhaNe je, haiDe rAkhI hAma. khatIlA, utsAhI, TekI, udyamI rAkhe nAma re...jate. satya, yA dilamAMhI rAkhe karA para upakAra; mAbApa, zikSakanI bhalI duvA, latA na pAme hAra hai. .jA. sAcI zIkha pramANe varte, ALasa ne taje ga; utsAhI thaI kAryo kare sahu, TALe vahemanA bharyuM re...jA. kAyara thAya nahI abhyAse, TALe sava kuTeva; brahmacaryane premathI dhAre, kare gurunI seva ph...jano. jagamAM azakaya nahI koI kAja che, dhAre dRDha vizvAsa; sadguru, sanathI meTAM, naranArI ane khAsa re...jA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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s viaCiT EXCICHY RN IN kevI ajaba jevI vAta ! pitA zivA paTela zivapUjaka, mAtA vaiSNava dharma pALe ane bahecara eka citte jana dharmano abhyAsa kare. e jana yatio ane sAdhuo sAthe samAgama kare, derAsara ane upAzrayamAM niyamita jAya, devadarzanamAM khUba cIvaTa rAkhe. bahecarane paramAtmAne pAmavAnI laganI lAgI hatI. e eka sAcA sAdhakanI mAphaka jIvana jIvavA lAgyo. ekeeka dhamasUtra para khUba khUba vicAra kare; ekeeka tava para UMDuM manomaMthana kare. sa _ke che For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI aMtaranI tAlAvelInA tAra satata raNajhaNavA lAgyA. ravisAgarajI mahArAjanA upadeze emAM sUra mUkayA. vijApuranA zeTha nathubhAI maMchAcaMdanI madadathI bhAvanAnuM saMgIta vahevA lAgyuM. zeTha nathubhAIne bahecaranI vANI, namratA ane nikhAlasatA gamI gayAM. nathubhAI hIrApArakhu jhaverI hatA. A chokarAmAM emaNe hIra joyuM. emaNe pitAnI mAphaka bahecaranA abhyAsa ane enI anya jarUriyAtanI saMbhALa rAkhavA mAMDI. nathubhAInAM patnI jaDAvakAkI bahecara para peTanA jaNyA jevo bhAva rAkhe. thoDA vakhatamAM to bahecara zeTha nathubhAInA gharane eka kuTuMbIjana banI gayo. A samaye badhAM bALakonI dhArmika parIkSA levAmAM AvatI hatI. bahecara sauthI vadhu guNa meLavI prathama Avyo. eka rUmAla InAmamAM maLyo. InAma maLatAM enA AnaMdane pAra na rahyo. nA ja * * mA - Y:a, 8. To ke , kAkA : * * * P : daka II: * : - + , , , vi , , najara For Private And Personal Use Only

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ka aMtaranI adAlatamAM bhAdaravA suda bIjane divase vaLI eka navI harIphAI yojAI mahAvIra svAmInuM paMcakalyANakanuM traNa DhALavALuM stavana eka divasamAM mukhapATha karanArane InAma maLavAnuM hatuM. bahecara jina bALakanI hAra ApIne inAma jItI gayo. bahecaranuM mana utsAhita thatuM rahyuM. ene aMtarAtmA A vAtAvaraNamAM pulakita banatA jatA hatA. zeTha nathubhAIe bahecarane mAthe eka navI pharaja nAkhI: sArA sArA gratho temane vAMcI saMbhaLAvavAnI. Ane kAraNe bahecaranuM potAnuM vAcana paNa vadhyuM. e ItihAsano abhyAsI banyo, bhUgoLano jANakAra tharyo. pachI saMskRta zIkhavAnI IcchA thaI. zeTha naSNubhAIe IzvaralAla desAI nAmanA zikSakanI vyavasthA karI ApI. vicAranI sAthe AcArane e bhUlyo nahoto. e samajato hato ke vAtonA vaDAthI peTa na bharAya. For Private And Personal Use Only

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88 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI eka divasa zrAvake sAthe besIne sAMjanuM pratikramaNa karyuM. sUkSmamAM sUkSma pApanI kSamA mAgI. keTalI badhI jAgRti ! khuda emaNe A prasaMgane yAda karIne lAgyuM che ke, "mugdha mananA e veLAnA AnaMdanI tela-buddhizALI ane janAcArya thayA pachI paNa- Avo AnaMda mane Avyo nathI.' AvI ja rIte zrIkuMthunAtha bhagavAnanA darzana samaye aMtaramAM anokhe AnaMda thayo. oLI mATe AyaMbila karyA. ghI, dUdha, dahIM, tela, maracAM vinAnuM bhojana karavAnuM. A tapa ghaNuM aghara. ekAda mitranI to tabiyata lathaDI ane eNe tapa adhUruM mUkI dIdhuM. bahecara para paNa AvI Aphata AvI. acAnaka eka divasa UlaTIo thavA lAgI. hADamAM tAva bharAye. zarIranA sAMdhe sAdhA jANe chUTA thavA mAgatA hoya ema aMga kaLavA lAgyuM. mitrae to aDadhethI tapa mUkI dIdhuM, to zuM - ''' ka For Private And Personal Use Only

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ataranI adAlatamAM peAte paNa ema karavuM ? AvA vicAra sAme bahecaranA AtmA cha cheDAI gayA. ATalI nAnI AphatathI akaLAya e teA kAyara kahevAya ! deha kAle paDatA hoya teA bhale Aje paDatA, Aje paDavAnA hoya te abadhaDI paDe paNa kAI paNa sogAmAM Ayu adhuru te nahiM ja rahe ! For Private And Personal Use Only 9 manane makkama teA karyuM", paNa A mana kadAca dagA de tA ? evuM na bane eTalA mATe bahecare badhAne bAlAvyA. sahunI AgaLa peAtAnA nizcaya jAhera karyo. vAta chAnI rAkhI hoya teA kadAca mana chIDu zeAdhI le, paNa jAhera karIne peAtAnA aTala nizcaya batAvyA, manane vadhu makkama karyuM. kuratInA dAvapecamAM na hAranArA ka sAthenI kustImAM hAravAnuM pasaMda karate! nahotA. bahecarane mAtra mananI muzkelIonA sAmane karavAnA nahotA. keTalAkane thayuM ke A

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI kaNabIne dIkaro zrAvaka thavA nIkaLe che ! pitAnA kuladharmane bhUlI beTho che ! jaina sAdhue ene bheLavI rahyA che. A samAcAre vAtAvaraNamAM uzkerATa lAvI dIdho. bahecare jene janama dharIne joyA nahotA evA ghaNA leke heta ane prIta batAvI salAha ApavA doDI AvyA. enA jIvana tarapha saheje rasa nahi dAkhavanArA enA vaDIlo murabbI banIne samajAvavA AvyA. cArekora AkSepo thavA lAgyA. bahecarane pAchA vALavA jana dharmanI ane janasAdhuonI niMdA karavAmAM AvI. eka vAra nizALanA zikSake jana sAdhuonI rItabhAta mATe ghaNuM niMdAjanaka kahyuM ane chelle samajAvyuM? A jaina dharma e to Izvarano virodhI che. yajJano kaTTara duzmana che, nAstikatAno bIjo namUno che. mATe bhAI, t jI ka ) - - - - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtaranI adAlatamAM satvare A badhuM choDI de. zIrA mATe zrAvakana thavAya !" atyAra sudhI bahecara badhu zAMtithI sahana karatA. hato. Avo AkSepa sAMbhaLI enAthI rahevAyuM nahi, jaina dharmo ane vyavahAranI mAphaka vacana-vANImAMya ahiMsA rAkhavAnuM zIkhavyuM hatuM. emaNe potAnA zikSakane namratAthI javAba vALyo : "sAheba, huM zIrA mATe zrAvaka thaye chuM e vAta sAcI che. paNa phera eTalo che ke Apa dhAro cho te ane huM mAnuM chuM te zIrA vacce phera che. e ghI, goLa ane ghauMne banelo nathI, paNa zraddhA, jJAna ane bhaktino banelo che." zikSake kahyuM : "paNa teM jaina sAdhuonA malina AcAra vize kazoya vicAra karyo kharo?' bahecare hasatAM-hasatAM kahyuM : "gurujI, AkSepa karanArA ekAda kalAka paNa e sAdhuonI sAthe nahi rahyA hoya. meM to covIsa-AvIsa kalAka emano niratara sahavAsa sevyA che. emanA pratyakSa paricaya 5 vaD. +: 1 , " , baha che e For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI e mane vadhu paramAtmAlakSI lAgyA che. kaI rIte?" gurue ziSyane mUMjhavavA ja prazna karyo. bahecare kahyuM: "e sAdhujano kadI vAhanane upayoga karatA nathI. nagara hoya ke jaMgala hoya, kaDakaDatI ThaMDI hoya ke baLabaLato unALo hoya. paNa badhe page cAlIne vihAra kare che. strIothI sadA dUra rahe che. paisAne aDatA nathI. vyasananuM te nAma-nizAna ja na maLe." "paNa ethI kaMI nAstika Astika na banI jAya.' gurujIe dalIla karI. bahecara kahe : "gurujI, sAce Astika koNa? A sAdhuo puNyamAM mAne che ane nAnakaDI pApathIya khUba Dare che. emanA jIvanamAM dhyAna, tapa ane bhakti vaNAyelAM che. emane nAstika kaI rIte kaho cho ? juo, mArI to satyanI zodha che. jyAM satya maLe tyAM * * For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtaranI adAlatamAM zira namAvIza.' bahecaranI A vAta sAme zikSaka kazI dalIla karI zakayA nahi. jema jema bAhya avarAdhe! vadhatA gayA tema tema bahecarano paramAtmAnI prApti mATeno aMtarano talasATa vadhatA gayA. soMpradAyanAM jALAM emanI satyanI zodhane ruMdhI zakayAM nahi. hRdayanI saccAI para keAI lAbhAmaNI vastu lapeTAI zakI nahi. saMsAranA dhammara valANAmAM emano dhruvatAraka aDAla rahyo. For Private And Personal Use Only 93 vijApuramAM pAMcamA dheAraNano abhyAsa pUrA karyAM. mAtra khANuM divasanI hAjarI hovA chatAM paNa chaThThA dhAraNanI parIkSA pahele na bare pasAra karI. AgaLa abhyAsa mATe vijApuramAM sagavaDa nahotI, teA eNe khAnagImAM abhyAsa cAlu rAkhyA. urdU ane marAThI zIkhyA, saskRta ane aMgrejI zIkhyA. jaina tattva ane jainazAstranA abhyAsamAM te kayAMya AgaLa

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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 94. bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI nIkaLI gayo. vatsarAja AjI nAmanA eka bAroTa mitra maLyA. emanA meLApe kavitAnI racanA zarU thaI abhyAsI bahecara ciMtaka banavA lAgyo. ogaNIsa varSanI vaye saMvata 1949mAM lakhAyelA emanA dezanI dazA aMgenA eka nibaMdhamAM eka abhyAsInI vizALatA ane vicArakanI tejasvitA jovA maLe che. Ama vidyAnI yAtrA pUrI thaI. mA-bApa mAnatA ke vidyA meLavIne dIkaro daLadara pheDI nAkhaze. joke, kahetA ke bahecara eka divasa meTe mANasa thaze. mAtA bALapaNano prasaMga kahetI. pitA mahAtmA IzvaradAsajI nI bhaviSyavANIne saMbhAratA. AzAo moTI bAMdhI hatI. AkAMkSAono koI pAra nahoto. vidyA to meLavI lIdhI, paNa have zuM karavuM? mAtA-pitA to gharanA dhaMdhAmAM joDAvAne Agraha karatA hatA. gharanI sthiti emane vivaza karatI hatI. khetInA 2sa-kasa ochA thayA hatA. karajane s - - - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtaranI adAlatamAM bhAra paDato hato. zikSake kahetA ke "bahecara, hajI saMskRta ane aMgrejIne vadhu abhyAsa kara. tane ghaNI moTI nokarI maLaze." mAtA jevuM vAtsalya DhALatA jaDAvakAkI te bahecara rUpALuM ghara mAMDe e mATe zikhAmaNa ApatAM hatAM. patine paNa bhalAmaNa karI ke have bahecara paraNavA lAyaka thayA che te ene sArI kanyA joIne paraNAvI do. bahecara potAnA mitra DAhyAbhAIne maLyo. emaNe salAha ApI : ATalI buddhi che, to parIkSA ApI avala kArakuna banI jA ! sarakArI nokarImAM bhAre lIlAlahera che. kadAca A pasaMda na paDe te vakIlAtanuM bhaNuM le. vakIla thaze to koka dA'De kuTuMbane uddhAra karazo." bahecara vakIla rIkhavadAsa amUlakhanI peDhImAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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ha6 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI kAma zIkhavA lAgyo. tIkSNa buddhi, suMdara rajUAta ane maroDadAra akSarone kAraNe emane vegathI saphaLatA maLI. vakIlAtanAM pustakonuM vAcana zarU karyuM. asIla, muddo, dAvo, apIla, vAdI-prativAdInI vamaLabharI duniyAmAM e aTavAI gayo. eka vAra enA AtmAe asIlanA rUpamAM dAvo. dAkhala karyo ane bahecarane pUchayuM ke tArA jJAnano sAcAne khoTuM ane khATAne sAcuM TheravavAmAM upayoga karavA mAge che? paramAtmAnI prAptinuM tAruM sAdhya. A duniyAdArImAM sAva bhUlI ja gayo ke zuM? tyAM vaLI aMtaramAMthI prativAdIno avAja Avyo ke mAre pahelAM kuTuMbanuM kalyANa karavuM joIe, AtmAnuM kalyANa e pachI Ave che. pharI vAdInA rUpamAM AtmAe pUchayuM ke pelI satya ane dharmaniSThA jaLavAya che kharI? jUThabharyuM tarakaTI jIvana tane zuM game che? je GS. For Private And Personal Use Only

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. ane mamarI: i. che. * koka * :: ** che ; 11 ! ft;" ! ! :::: vakIla thavuM ke sAdhu thavuM enuM maMthana anubhavatA bahecaradAsa" For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI bahecara vyAkuLa thaI gaye. prativAdI pAse Ane javAba nahoto. AMkhamAMthI UMgha gaI, zarIramAMthI zAMti gaI, manamAMthI cena gayuM! bahecara zaheranI kacerImAM kesa laDe, enI sAthosAtha enA aMtaranI adAlatamAM paNa kesa cAle. sAmasAmI dalIla thAya, AkSepa thAya. aMte bahecarane thayuM ke vepAramAM chaLakapaTa che, vakIlAtamAM kALAM- ghaLAM karavAnAM che. duniyAdArI prapacamaya che, tyAre pite pitAnA AtmA sAthe paNa dago nahi rame tenI zI khAtarI ? akaLAyelA bahecarane zIla ane samatAnA dhAraka sAdhuo pAse zAMti maLatI. emanI sevAmAM AnaMda maLate. emanI svasthatAmAMthI sAce mArge jIvana jIvavAnI keDI maLatI. vaLI manamAM evo vicAra Avyo ke zeTha naththabhAIe janasAdhu banAvavA mATe ja mArA para upakAra For Private And Personal Use Only

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-vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvy aMtaranI adAlatamAM karyo che ane e divasathI zeTha nathubhAIne tyAM jamatA bahecarane bhejanamAMthI rasa UDI gayo. kayAreka badhuM pIrasAI javA chatAM e vicAramAM emane ema besI rahetA. kayAreka ciMtAmAM eka TaMkanuM bhejana bhUlI jatA. khorAka paNa roja rAja ghaTato jato hato. bahecarano hasamukha cahero ciMtAothI gherAI jatAM du:khI du:khI lAgato hato. mananI ciMtAe tanane nabaLuM pADayuM. Aja sudhI je tanane aDavAnI hiMmata tAva karI zakato nahote te pahADa jevI kAyAmAM tAva cothIA tAvanA rUpe dara cAra divase dekhA devA lAgyo. evAmAM tana ane mananA tApane zamAvanArA oLI ArAdhanAnA divase AvyA. bahecara AyaMbila karIne vicAravamaLamAM aTavAto pharavA nIkaLI paDaze. ane potAnA pitAe vAvelA "khADiyA nAmanA khetaramAM pahoMcI gayo. najIkamAM kAjumiyAMnuM For Private And Personal Use Only

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' bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI khetara hatuM. e AMbAnA vRkSa nIce ArAma levA beTho. maMda maMda havA cAlI rahI hatI. rAyaNanI UMcI DALe koyalanA TahukAra saMbhALatA hatA. nIla AkAza svaccha arIsA jevuM camakatuM hatuM. bahecarano hRdayamAM cAlatuM tophAna zamI jatuM lAgyuM. vamaLamAM Amatema aTavAtI hRdayanaukA vamaLane pAra karIne pANImAM saDasaDATa mArga kApavA lAgI. AMbAnI e ghaTA nIce jIvanano mArga maLI gayo ane mana parano meTo beja paLavAramAM haTI gayo. aMtarane e niradhAra kavitAnA rUpamAM pragaTa thayo. zubha kArya karUM nija jevuM gajuM, sahI saMkaTa duHkhane dharma saju, nija Atama sarakhuM gaNuM jagane, kadi hiMsA viSe na bharUM Dagane; zubha dhairya bharUM ja rageragane, tanu mana vacathI na karUM aghane, nija AtamanI paramAtamatA, karavA taju meha ane mamatA; prabhu premamAM leka karUM ramatA, tajI rAga ne roSa, dharUM samatA, prabhu jIvana evuM karUM ja karuM, prabhu prApti viSe ja marUM ja maruM; Atama prabhu preraNA citta dharuM, muja janma viSe A kArya kharUM, For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtaranI adAlatamAM 10 muja jIvavuM nizcaya mukata thavA, prabhu sahAya karo tuja paMthe javA; mana deSanI prabhu japa che ja davA, pragaTAvo prabhu tuja mArga javA, tuja akaLa gati, nahIM pahoMce mati, prabhu zraddhA premanI bhAre gati; prabhu Apo sadA mujane sumati, prabhu vaNa dila bIjuM na IcchuM rati. AnaMdamAM Dolato bahecara ghera AvyA. pitA samAna nathubhAI zeTha ane mAtA samAna jaDAvakAkI samakSa eNe potAno nirNaya karyo : "parAzrayI na rahevuM. dhanopArjana avazya karavuM, paNa keLavaNInA kaI aMganI sevA-cAkarI meLavIne. A mATe zikSakano dhaMdho levo, jemAM bhaNAvavA sAthe bhaNavAne paNa moTo vega rahe ane e rIte vidvAna thavuM. sadUguNa jIvana jIvavuM." jaDAvakAkIe to A sAMbhaLIne lAMbe nisAso nAkhe. emane to bahecarane paraNAvavAnA keDa hatA. pitA samAna naththubhAI zeThe najIkanA Ajela gAmamAM zikSaka tarIke bahecaranI goThavaNa karI ApI. bahecaranuM mana vijApura choDatAM AMcakA anu 'kana che YE For Private And Personal Use Only

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10re. bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI bhavavA lAgyuM. janamabhemano viraha satAvavA lAgyo. A vADI, A jhADI, A bhUtiyA TALInA sAthIo, pitA samAna naththubhAI ane mAtA samAna jaDAvakAkI ! mamatAnA A mahAsAgarone choDavA mana AnAkAnI karatuM hatuM. mAtAthIya adhika jaDAvakAkInI keTakeTalI icchAo Aje khAkha thatI hatI! emanAM svapna to kaI judAM ja hatAM. chokaro paraNe, ghara mAMDe ane vepAra kare ! Aje e badhuM mUkIne dhArmika mAstara banIne paragAma jatA hatA. hAtherAMdhaze, hAthe kapaDAM ghoze. ene mAthuM dukhaze to koNa khabara pUchaze? bahecarane mATe jAnI maganalAla lakSmIzaMkare muhUrta kADhI ApyuM. javAne be divasa bAkI rahyA eTale bahecara sebatIone maLavA mAMDyo, pALelAM pazuo sAthe gela karavA lAgyo, gharanAM baLada ane bheMsa sAthe vahAla karI lIdhuM. pote ropelAM vRkSonI S For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMtaranI adAlatamAM 103 wwwwwwww vpaVWvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv chAyAmAM jaIne besI Avyo. vidAya veLAe mAtApitAnAM caraNomAM namaskAra karyA. e bheLA mAnavIonI AMkhe AMsuthI chalakAI gaI pitA samAna zeTha nathubhAI ane mAtA samAna jaDAvakAkIne caraNe paDayA. be hAtha joDI janamabhemane prArthanA karI : mAtA ! tAro upakAra kadI nahIM bhUluM. mane tArA AziSa Apa !' manamAM navakAra maMtranuM smaraNa karIne bahecare paga upADayA DamaNiyAmAM besIne sahunI vidAya lIdhI. ja AS) For Private And Personal Use Only

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", ' ' 12 A vIroM dharma phalanI maheka kadI chAnI rahetI nathI. mAnavInI suvAsa kadI chupAI zakatI nathI. Ajela gAmamAM bahecaradAsa zikSaka tarIke AvyA. emanI mIThI vANIe sahu keInAM mana harI lIdhAM. bedhadAyaka rAsAe kahe, jJAnabharI vArtAe kahe, dharmanI parabanAM mIThAM jaLa chUTathI vahecAvA lAgyAM. moTA moTA mANaso A sAMbhaLavA Ave. hoMze hoMze bahecaradAsanI vANInuM zravaNa kare. bahecaradAsa to sahu koIne sAruM jIvana jIva Bell ma kama - 1 For Private And Personal Use Only

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vIranA dhama 105 vAnI zikhAmaNa Ape. ghaNI mahenate mahAmUlA manuSyanA avatAra maLyA che, ane sArthaka karavAnI salAha Ape. eka vAra bahecaradAsa chaTAdAra vyAkhyAna ApatA hatA. emanI vANInA nAde sahu kAI ekarasa banIne DeAlI rahyA hatA. vAtanI jamAvaTa evI hatI ke AjubAjunI keAI ne kazI khabara nahetI. evAmAM ekAeka gAmane sImADethI bhUMgiyA saMbhaLAyA. gAma para keAI Aphata Ave, eTale A mUgiyA vAge. bhUMgiyA sAMbhaLatA dukAneA TapeATapa baMdha thaI jAya. gharaDAM dhare paheAMcI jAya. juvAna hathiyAra laI ne bahAra nIkaLe. strIA ane bALakAne gharanA khUNe saMtADI devAmAM Ave. bhUgiyA saMbhaLAya eTale rajapUtA te talavAra, bhAlA ane dhAriyA laI ne dADI nIkaLe, vANiyA- brAhmaNa khaDakI baMdha karI aMdara bharAI jAya. AC For Private And Personal Use Only

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106 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI *_*_* *_ bhUgiyA sAMbhaLatA ja zAMtinuM vAtAvaraNu kAlAhalamAM palaTAI gayuM.. dhaDAdhaDa khaDakI baMdha thavAnA avAje saMbhaLAvA lAgyA. rajapUtAnA hAkArA-paDakArAthI vAtAvaraNu gAjI UThayu .strIA ane bALakAnI ciciyArI sabhaLAvA lAgI. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir evAmAM khabara paDI ke aneADiyA gAmanA ThAkaraDAA jUnuM vera vALavA AvyA che. adAvatane kAraNe Ajola gAmanI bheMsA ane gAyAne vALI jAya che. vAta evI banI hatI ke AbelagAmanA cokIdAre thADA vakhata pahelAM gAmamAM cArI karavA peThelA sAta ThAkaraDAAne bhAlAthI vIMdhI nAkhyA hatA. Aja enA sAthIe anuvera vALavA gAma para trATakayA hatA. vyAkhyAna ApatA bahecaradAsa mAstarane kAne A vAta paDI. emaneA majabUta deha TaTTAra thaI gayA. AMkhAmAM eka camaka AvI. tarata ja emaNe kacheTe For Private And Personal Use Only

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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~ vIrane dharma 107 bhIDyo. moTI chalAMga lagAvI hAthamAM lAMbI lAkaDI laIne bahAra nIkaLyA. kayAM zAMta ane svastha bahecaradAsa mAstara ane kayAM anyAyane sAmane karavA nIkaLelA bahecaradAsa mAstara ! emanI moTI moTI AMkhe bhalabhalAne DAratI hatI. sAganA soTA je nakkara ane paDachaMda deha paDakAra jhIlavA thanaganatA hatA. vaLI hAthamAM lAkaDI ghamatI hatI. re ! kayAM AtmAnI vAta karatA bahecaradAsa ane kayAM hAthamAM lAkaDI ghumAvatA bahecaradAsa ! AjelanA lokone vahelAsara khabara paDI gaI. pakaDAI javAnI bIke gAya ane bheMsane choDIne ThAkaraDAe nAsI gayA. emanA hAthamAMthI pAchA vALelAM gAya ane bheMsanA dhaNa sAthe bahecaradAsa paNa pAchA pharatA hatA. ThAkaraDAo bhAgI gayAnA samAcAre gAmamAM zAMti phelAvI dIdhI. khaDakIe C 1 2 '' S ' ( IT For Private And Personal Use Only

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108 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI khUlavA lAgI. gharamAM bharAI gayelA loko bahAra AvIne hakArA-paDakArAbharI vAto karavA lAgyA. khare vakhate khoTA evA sahu koI moTI moTI baDAza hAMkavA lAgyA. evAmAM dUrathI bahecaradAsa mAstara AvatA dekhAyA. emanI paDachaMda kAyA badhAmAM judI tarI AvatI hatI. emanA mukha para brahmacaryanA tejane jhaLahaLATa hatA. khabhA para lAkaDI jhulatI hatI. Aphatane vakhate bAraNAM baMdha karIne gharamAM pesI janArAone eka majAka sUjhI. eka jaNe kahyuM : "are mAstara, tame? tamArA jevA zAstra bhaNAvanArathI te zastra kema upADAya ?' bahecaradAsa mAstaranI kAyA TaTTAra thaI cahero saheja sakhata banyo. AMkhamAM DArI nAkhe tevuM teja pedA thayuM. teo bolyA, "kema bhAI! A tamAro l) bI/ A : = = = = For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra AL gAya ane bheMsanA dhaNa sAthe pAchA pharatAM bahecaradAsa For Private And Personal Use Only

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110 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI mAstara e mANasa nathI ? pahelA huM mANasa chuM, pachI mAstara chuM.' keAI e vaLI bahecaradAsa mAstarane salAha ApI: * are . mAstara, Ama bhUgiyA sAMbhaLIne ApaNAthI nIkaLI na paDAya. e te je dhIgANu karI zake e ja bahAra nIkaLe. bAkInAe teA bAraNAM vAsIne besI rahevAnuM hAya.' : bahecaradAsa mAstara kahe : 'zu kahyuM ? gAma para Aphata Ave ane bAraNAM vAsIne besI rahevAnuM ? AvuM karanAra mANasa marada nathI, paNa kAyara che! mAnavInA khapamAM manakhA na Ave te A avatAra eLe jAya.' eka TIkhaLIe kahyuM : ( are, AkharamAM tA mAstara kaNabI ne? jaina dharma kayAMthI pUrepUrA pAmyA hAya ? H A sAMbhaLatAM ja bahecaradAsa mAstaranI AMkhA For Private And Personal Use Only

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vIrane dharma aMgArA varasAvavA lAgI. emaNe saNasaNato javAba vALyo ane kahyuM : "jana dharma e to vIrone dharma che. kAyaranake lAcArane nahIM. jene potAnI jAtanI rakSA mATe pArakA para AdhAra rAkhavo paDe e lAcAra kahevAya. ene jana kema kahevAya ? pArakAnA eziyALA banIne jIvavA karatAM to marI javuM bahetara che." medanImAMthI eka jene pUchayuM: "mAstara sAheba, jaina dharma e to ahiMsAno dharma. tame A hiMsaka zastra sAthe bahAra paDyA, tene amane aphasosa che." "aphasesa to mane thAya che. jIvadayAnA bahAnA heThaLa ane ahiMsAnA oThAM heThaLa tame tamArI kAyaratAne DhAMkavAnI koziza kare che e joIne ! tamArI lAcArI ane bhIrutAne AvI cheTI rIte paMpALaze mA ! A ghara, A dukAne, A upAzraya ane A derAsaranI zI rIte rakSA karaze ? kayAreya ItihAsa vAMcyo che kharo ? aDhAra aDhAra mahAna For Private And Personal Use Only

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11 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI jaina bhUpAlAe, jarUra paDe, talavAra uThAvI che. ane vakhata Ave talavAranI dhAra para cAlavA jeTalu kaparu saMyamanuM vrata paNa laI joyu che. jaina dharma etA vIranA dharma che. je vIra nathI, te mahAvIranA upAsaka kema kahevAya ? ' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir bahecaradAsanI TIkA karanArAAne peAtAnI bhula samajAI. bahecaradAsa tA thoDI vAra pachI pAchA e ja adhyAtmanI carcAmAM DUbI gayA. emanA TIkAkAre peAtAnI bhUla badala mAphI mAgavA AvyA. bahecaradAse amane meAkaLe mane Adara ApyA. O For Private And Personal Use Only

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mukta poNa 11 kathIramAMthI kuMdana kare te guru. jJAnanA mArga batAve te guru. bALapaNamAM ja bahecaradAsane sAcuM khaLu batAvanArA guru zrI visAgarajI mahArAja maLI gayA. bahecaradAse keTalAya vidvAnane Adara ApyA, sAdhuAne sanmAna ApyuM, paNa emanA hRdayanA sihAsana para gurupade te| visAgarajI mahArAjanI mUrti ja birAjamAna hatI. teA kahetA ke ' muni teA lAkha hoya, paNa guru teA eka ja hoya.' gurUnAM darzana pachI emanA nitya For Private And Personal Use Only

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wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI sahavAsa, nitya paricaya ane nitya sevAbhaktinI bahecaradAsane senerI taka maLI. gurudeva bahecaradAsane zikhAmaNa ApatA, dharma vizenI zaMkAonuM samAdhAna karatA. karma, AtmA ane paramAtmAnI samajaNa ApatA. lAMbI mAMdagI ane vRddhAvasthAne kAraNe zrI ravisAgarajI mahArAja chellAM cha varSathI mahesANa gAmane ja pAvana karI rahyA hatA. emanA A sthira vAse mahesANu saMdhanI zAsanabhaktimAM navA prANa pUryo. pU. zrI ravisAgarajI mahArAja jANatA hatA ke pite A bimArImAMthI nahi UThe. pitAnI hayAtImAM bahecaradAsa dIkSA le to potAnA saMdhADAne eka samartha sAdhu sAMpaDe. pote na hoya tyAre te koNa jANe enuM zuMnuM zuM bane ? teoe bahecaradAsane maMtra saMbaMdhI traNa AjJA ApI hatI. eka yA bIjI rIte Ane artha sAdhutAnA Ijana same hato. saMsAra For Private And Personal Use Only

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mukta paMkheruM 115 mAMthI potAnA prayANanI ghaDIo najIka AvatAM eka vAra ravisAgarajI mahArAje potAnA parama ziSyane pUchayuM : "bahecara, have mArI vidAyanI veLA najIka AvI che. zuM tuM sAdhu thavA Icache che?" guru ane ziSya vacce gADha snehabhAva hato. mIThA dilane nikhAlasa saMbaMdha hato. bahecaradAse kahyuM : "gurudeva, hamaNAM to mArI IcchA nathI. emAM paNa mArAM mAtApitA jIve che, tyAM sudhI te huM dIkSA levA mAgato nathI.' vRddha gurue koI bhaviSyavANI bhAkhatA hoya tema kahyuM : "bahecara, mAruM hRdaya kahe che ke tuM jarUra dIkSA laIza. mArI pAchaLa tuM pAkIza. gurudeva, bhaviSyamAM je bane te kharuM.' vAta ATalethI ja aTakI gaI. zrI ravisAgarajI mahArAja bahecaranI IcchA hoya to ja ene dIkSA ApavA mAgatA hatA. = = == ===== ===== == ka For Private And Personal Use Only

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116 bALakonA muddhisAgarasUrijI evAmAM vi. sa. 1954nA jeTha suda caudaro visAgarajI mahArAjanA sadhADAnA sAdhvI samudAyamAM zreSTha gaNAtAM sAdhvI zrIdevazrIjI kALadharma pAmyA. emanI pAlakhI upAzraya pAsethI nIkaLI tyAre ApeApa zrI ravisAgarajI mahArAjanA AMtaramAMthI vacana nIkaLI gayu` : AjathI sattAvIsame divase mAre paNa javAnu thaze.' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir bAjumAM UbhelA bahecaradAsa camakI gayA. peAtAnA kAna para emane vizvAsa na beThe. emaNe pharI peAtAnA gurudevane pUchyuM : 'Ape zu kahyuM, mahA rAja?H * basa, e ja. ane tu-bahecaradAsa--mArA sadhADAmAM mArI pAchaLa mArA sAdhu thaIza.' bhAvinA kheAla sAcA paDavAnA jANe paDadhA paDatA hatA : gurudevane dIkSita baneleA bahecara dekhAtA hatA. e sabhAo gajavatA hatA, dharmAMtra thAnuM For Private And Personal Use Only

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mukta paMkheruM 117 sarjana karato hato ane Atmadharmane Ahaleka pokArato hato. roga ugra thato cAlyo. bahecaradAsa rAta-divasa bhUlIne gurusevAmAM rata rahevA lAgyA. eka divasa baporanA samaye gurujIe potAnI navakAravALI bahecarane ApatAM kahyuM : "le, A mArI navakAravALI. tuM ene gaNyA karaje, jethI tArA AtmAmAM anubhavajJAna pragaTaze. sUrya upara vAdaLAM AvIne jema vIkharAI jAya tema tArA uparanAM saMkaTanA vAdaLA vIkharAI jaze." janma-maraNanA pherA TALanArI A aNumela bheTa hatI. bhavanI bhAvaTha bhAMganArI A auSadhi hatI. bahecaradAse natamastake ene svIkAra karyo. kALanI zIzImAMthI samayanI retI sarI rahI hatI. mahArAje bhAkhelA sattAvIsa divasemAMthI ghaNuMkharA divase pasAra thaI gayA hatA. S. For Private And Personal Use Only

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118 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI bahecaradAsa temanI pAse ne pAse rahetA hatA. savAramAM ja navasmaraNa saMbhaLAve, rAte vairAgya ane AdhyAtmajJAnathI bharelI sajhAyo saMbhaLAve. mAMdagI vadhatI cAlI, ema ravisAgarajI mahArAjane AtmAnaMda vadhato cAlyo. emaNe bhakta bahecaradAsane jarA pAse belAvIne kahyuM : "bahecara, tArI kaMI IcchA che? mokaLe mane mAMgI le." bahecaradAse hAtha joDIne kahyuM : "gurudeva ! mArA aMtaranI IcchAne Apa ja jagAvanArA che. paramAtmAnI pichAna thAya e ja mArA jIvananI mukhya jhaMkhanA che." - gurudevanA caherA para prasannatA chavAI gaI. emaNe kahyuM : "bahecara, tane jarUra AtmadazA prApta thaze. tAruM kalyANa thAo !" bahecaradAsa gurukRpAne anubhava karavA lAgyA. paNa e ja saM. 1954nA jeTha vada agiyArazanI - drad 9 * its: For Private And Personal Use Only

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mukta paMkheru vahelI savAre gurudeve kSaNabhaMgura dehano tyAga karyo. - bahecaradAsane mAthe Akaro AghAta thayo. je gurue jIvatarane ujALavAno mArga batAvyo, e gurunI vidAya vasamI lAgI ! jemaNe sAcuM baLa ApyuM e ja guru ziSyane choDIne cAlyA gayA ! saMsAramAM motI to Thera Thera verAyelAM che, paNa ene mUlavanAra ravisAgarajI mahArAja jevA bIjA adhyAtmI jhaverI kayAMthI maLaze? bahecaradAsane AtmA jANe anAthatA anubhavI rahyo. cAturmAsa pUrA thayA. eka divasa "sanmitrajInA nAme suprasiddha zrI kapuravijayajI mahArAja sAthe bahecaradAsa DAbhalA gAmamAMthI nIkaLelI eka pratimAjInAM darzana karavA gayA. gAmamAM pesatAMnI sAthe ja bahecaradAsa kaIka vicAramAM paDI gayA. bALaka potAnI khAvAI gayelI cIjane zodhavA lAge tema teo jANe pitAnuM kazuMka : : = is is akasa : rAja . ' , , , , For Private And Personal Use Only

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120 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI rodhI rahyA hatA. cahere mU jhavaNamAM DUbI gayA hatA. paNa gADha aMdhakAramAM ekAeka prakAza lAdhI jAya tema thADI vAramAM bahecaradAsanA mukha para AnaMdanI laharI pharakI UThI. emaNe ' sanmitra 'jIne sAme rAkhIne niyama letA kahyuM : - he pUjyava, devanI sAme Avana brahmacaryanI khAdhA Ape.' ' sayama pALavA e keAI sahela khAkhata nahotI. unmata hAthIne bAMdhavA sahelA che, paNa brahmacaryanI khAdhA duSkara che. 8 sanmitra 'jI A badhu barAbara jANatA hatA, paNa bahecaradAsanA caherA para nizcayanI aDaga rekhAA joine emaNe amane A vrata Apyu. aMgaupAMgathI gaLI gayelA kAI gharaDA AdamI A vrata letA nahotA; paraMtu tasatasatI juvAnI jenA deha para rUpa ane jobananI cheALA uchALatI hatI, evA juvAna A For Private And Personal Use Only

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d Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir mukta paMkheru' vrata letA hatA. bahecaradAsanA mana parathI meATA meAja UtarI gayA. saMsAranI eka vAtathI tA emane kAyamanI nivRtti maLI gaI. have lagnanuM baMdhana emane naDavAnuM na hatu. emane AtmA mukta pa MkheruM banIne adhyAtmadazAnA AkAzamAM UDavA thanaganI rahyo. For Private And Personal Use Only 11

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SvuM zAoN? zAka Stlo 12 kastUrInI dAbaDIne game tyAM sa MtADIe, paNa tenI suvAsa tene kayAM saMtAvA de che? kAlasAnI khANamAM game teTalA kAlasA hoya, kiMtu hIrAnA jhaLahaLATa judA ja hoya che. mAnavI game tevI sthitimAM Uchare, paNa enu hIra chUpuM rahetu nathI. bALapaNathI ja bahecaradAsanA vicAre, emanI niyatA ane emanu vivekI vana badhAthI juduM ja hatuM. duniyA jene meATI vAta mAnatI, ene bahecara COCONUT ONE For Private And Personal Use Only

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raDavu zAne ? roAka kone ? 13 dAsa saheje gaNanAmAM letA nahi. duniyA jenI upekSA karatI, aneA bahecaradAsa Adara karatA. duniyAnI nAnI-mATI vAtAmAMthI e kaIka jude ja sAra tAravI letA. emanI vAta sahumAM vegaLI. emanI vANI sahuthI judI. emanuM vana sahuthI nirALuM, e rahetA hatA teA peAtAnA vatana vijApuranA kaNabI vAsamAM. paNa kaNabIomAM A phAI judI mATInA mAnavI lAgatA hatA. khenA dIkarA rAta-dI khetI kare, jyAre bahecaradAsa rAta-divasa joyA vinA zAstranA UMDA abhyAsa kare. kaNabInA chekarA eka ghAne be TukaDA karavAmAM mAne. bahecaradAsa eka dhA ane be TukaDAne joDavAnu kAma kare. kaNabIne teADanArI talavAra game, jyAre bahecaradAsa sAMdhanArI sAya jevA vicAra kare. e vAra vAra ekAMtamAM jaI ci tana kare, kayAreka maunamAM DUbI jAya. emanA aMtaramAM vArevAre Atma For Private And Personal Use Only

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124. bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI kalyANanI jhaMkhanA jAge. saMsAra jame ne pote bhUkhyA rahe, saMsAra phUla para cAle ne pote kAMTA para cAle, evuM ajaba jevuM jIvana jIvavAnA emanA keDa hatA. - bApa zivA paTela ane dIkarA bahecara beyanA rastA judA, dizAo sAva vegaLI, chatAM bApane dIkarAnI phikara. dIkarAne bApanI ciMtA. baMnenI dizA judI hatI, paNa aMtaranAM vahAla to eTalAM ja hatAM. zivA paTelanI duniyA khetaranI vADa sudhI hatI, jyAre bahecaranI IcchA te AtamanAM UMDANa vIMdhIne agocara duniyAmAM viharavAnI hatI. ekanI najara duniyAnI dolata para hatI, bIjAnI najara aMtaranI amIrAta bhaNI hatI. bahecaradAsane A duniyAdArI saheje pasaMda na hatI. kayAreka zivA paTela sAthe thoDo vivAda paNa thato, chatAM A sAkSara putre pitAnA manane rAjI E For Private And Personal Use Only

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raDavuM zAne? zeka kono? 15 rAkhavA bane teTale prayatna karyo. A mATe nekarInA baMdhanamAM baMdhAyA: kamANInI pAIe pAI emaNe pitAne mokalI ApI. saMsAranA sadUguNI putranI mAphaka e vatya. bAkI saMsAramAM to bahecaradAse kayAMya sAcuM sukha joyuM nahotuM. sAdhu samAgamamAM DUbelA bahecaradAsane eka divasa eka patra maLe. vijApuramAM vasatA ane potAnA para vAtsalya dharAvanAra zeTha nathubhAIe lakhelo e eka melo hato. emAM bahecaradAsane saMbodhIne zeThe lakhyuM hatuM ke, emanAM mAtA-pitA A mAsamAM cArapAMca divasanA aMtare, svargastha thayAM ! bahecaradAsanA citta para viSAdanAM vAdaLAM chavAI gayAM. hRdaya zokamAM DUbI gayuM. potAnAM mA-bApanA avasAnathI pote koI chatra gumAvyuM hoya ema emane lAgyuM. bahecaradAsa amadAvAdathI vijApura AvyA. nathubhAIe AzvAsana ApyuM. jaDAvakAkIe gAma ) :: ma ii with his ' ' - G + +aa , '. i - 8t * [ ; For Private And Personal Use Only

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126 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI mAtApitAnI mRtyuveLAnI vAta karI. je je AvyA te kharakharo karIne bahecaradAsane zoka choDI devA samajAvavA lAgyA. bahecaradAsa UMDA vicAramAM paDI gayA. are mana ! zoka choDavAne kAne hato? vaLI bahecaradAse joyuM ke ghaNuM to zAkane khAlI ADaMbara karavA AvatA hatA ane AgalI-pAchalI vAto saMbhArI AMkhamAM lukhAM AMsu lAvatA. bahecaradAsa sAcA bhAvanA jANakAra hatA. emane AvI banAvaTa saheje gamatI nahi. maranAra pratye jIvatAM prema rAkhanAra prema batAve te samajAya. paNa jIvatAM saheje darakAra na karanAra emane saMbhArI saMbhArIne khobe khebA AMsu sAre te kevuM? maraNane keTalI mithyA bAbatothI vIMTALI dIdhuM che ! oha ! A te ke samAja! je jIvanamAM ADabara, e metamAM paNa! dhIre dhIre parasALamAM najIkanAM sagAM AvyAM. 'kadiya For Private And Personal Use Only

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wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww raDavuM zAne? zAka kene? 127 pachI kuTuMbIjane ekaThAM thavA lAgyAM. gAmanA mevaDIe AvyA. keTalAka nAtavALA AvyA. samAja te kahetA hatA ke bApanI pAchaLa bahecaradAse haiyAphATa rUdana karavuM joIe ! mAthe lUgaDuM nAkhIne moTI pika mUkavI joIe. bIjAne lAge ke bApane mATe keTalI lAgaNI che! raDyA pachI kaI chAnuM rAkhavA Ave, te ya raDavAnuM cAlu rAkhavuM joIe ! bIjA vadhu mANase UbhA thAya. chAnA rAkhavA Ave tyAre zAMta paDAya ! bahecaradAsa kaMI AvuM mAne kharA ? jIvananI paLapaLa jAgRta banIne jIvanAra koI paNa kAma vicAryA vagara kare kharA ! e to zAMta besI rahyA. na mAthe lUgaDuM DhAMkyuM ke na pAka mUkI ! rivAja to ema kahe ke bahecaradAse mAthe lugaDuM nAkhI poka mUkavI joIe ane lokoe manAvIne emane zAMta pADavA joIe. paNa ahIM to For Private And Personal Use Only

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128 mALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI bahecaradAsa pAte ja zAMta hatA; e ja sahune kuzaLa- vamAna pUchatA hatA. pachI tA emaNe vairAgyanA upadeza ApavA mAMDayo : 8 are bhAI ! saMsAramAM kANu amarapA laI ne AvyuM che, ne kANu maratuM nathI ? jyAre AkhA saMsAra maraNudhI hAya, tyAM kANe keAnA mATe raDavu? raDavAthI maranAranA AtmAne kaMI maLatu nathI. dharma karavAthI ja ApaNu ane maranAranu banenu' kalyANa thAya che.' pAka mUkavAne badale bahecara bInane A rIte sAMtvana ane upadeza ApavA lAgyA. ghaNAnAM dila dubhAyAM. keTalAkane enA A upadeza vyavahArathI viruddhu lAgyA. gheADAka A juvAnanI paDitAI beI khuza thayA. keAIkane enA hRdayanI saccAI gamI gaI. paNa kAkA kacarA paTelathI A sahana thayuM nahi. emaNe kahyuM : ' le, have rAkha tArI heAziyArI tArI Dri AQ For Private And Personal Use Only

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' S 1 :) : * * : ' zeka karavAne badale upadeza ApatA bahecaradAsa For Private And Personal Use Only

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130 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI pAse. sagAM mA ane bApa dhyeya maraNa pAme ane zaika na thAya e te kevu' kahevAya ? tAre te haiyu che ke paththara ?' ( bahecaradAse namratAthI javAba ApyA : 8 Apa sanA karatAM mane mAtA-pitA tarapha vizeSa lAgaNI che. tamArA badhAM karatAM huM aMtaramAM vadhu zoka anubhavu chuM ane haiyAmAM chAtIphATa rudana karuM chuM.' bahecaradAsanI vAtathI ghaNAne Azcarya thayuM : 8 are, rudana kare che keANu ? na AMkhamAM AMsu che, na gaLAmAM sakAM che. na mukhamAM hAya-veAya che, na caherA para duHkhanI rekhA che ane bahecaradAsa kahe che ke hu tamArA badhA karatAM vadhu zoka ane rudana karuM chuM.' " zoka karavA AvelA eka svajane kahyu' : ' are, amArA bhAIe prANa choDayA tyAre meM evI dhaDadhaDAvIne peAka mUkelI ke pANa` vijapura jANI gayuM ke jarUra kaMIka thayuM che. bhAI jevA bhAI jAya, pachI For Private And Personal Use Only

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raDavuM zAne? zoka kono? 13 chAtI phATI na paDe to thAya zuM? lAgaNI to Ane kahevAya." bIjAe vaLI potAnI vAta karatAM kahyuM, "mArA bApA gujarI gayA pachI meM evI to poka mUkI hatI ke raste cAlanAranI AMkhamAM AMsu AvI gayAM hatAM. eka gAmaDA gAmamAM ane teya kaNabIvAsamAM matanuM mAtama na paLAya te kema cAle? paNa bahecaradAsanI dazA sAva judI hatI. e te sAdhutAnI bhUmikAe pahoMcI gayA hatA. kSaNika saMsAranA saMbaMdho tAjIne paramAtmA sAthe sanAtana saMbaMdha bAMdhavAnA emanA bhAva hatA. emaNe sAcA jIvanane joyuM hatuM. mRtyune oLakhyuM hatuM. vaLI A saMbaMdhIone aMtaranA rudananI oLakha nahotI ane temanA jevuM khAlI rudana karavAnuM bahecaradAsane AvaDatuM nahotuM. s - 1 ::: For Private And Personal Use Only

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13ra bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI pazA paTele to kaDavI vANImAM kahyuM: "A bahu bho te mA-bApa mATe raDatAMya ene lAja Ave che !' kAkA, kene jaNAvavA ke vyavahAra sAcavavA raDavuM e rudana nathI, paNa DhAMga che. mA-bApanA upakArathI AkhuM aMtara bharAI jAya ane AMkhamAMthI ApameLe AMsunI dhArA vahI jAya e ja kharuM raDavuM. vaLI saMsAramAM sadAkALa keNu rahyuM che? janmelAne maraNa te che ja. bahecaradAsanA manamAM kavitA kurI rahI- janma je je avanitAlamAM, sarva te te mare che, mAthe mRtyu sakaLa janane, karmathI nA bace che; che pRthvImAM sakaLa jIvaDA karmathI paMthIo re, vairAgIne sakala ghaTanA, pUrNa vairAgya hetu." bahecaradAsanI vAtoe samAja para bhAre asara karI. vaLI bIjI vAta AvI. mAtA-pitA pAchaLa For Private And Personal Use Only

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raDavuM zAne? zAka konA ? 133 nAta teA karavI joI e ! bahecaradAsanA e meTAbhAI jIvAbhAI ane ugarAbhAI e ja nAta karavAnA prastAva mUko. badhAne ema hatu ke bahecaradAsa emanA bhAInI vAta teA mAnaze ja paNa bahecaradAsanA manamAM teA judA ja vicAra! ramatA hatA. prabhu mahAvIranA upadeza emaNe pacAvyA hatA. A kaparI veLAe emanA manamAM prabhu mahAvIranI vANI guMjavA lAgI : ' sadA apramatta ane sAvadhAna rahIne, asatyane tyAgI, hitakArI satya vacana ja melavuoI e. satyanI AjJA upara UbheleA buddhizALI mAnavI mRtyune tarI jAya che. satyamAM dRDha raho. satyarata medhAvI vyakti badhAM pApAno nAza kare che.' bahecaradAsa satyane paramezvara mAne; ane bhUlIne kAIpaNa kriyA karavA saheje taiyAra na thAya. emaNe nAta karavAnI vAtano namratAthI vireAdha karatAM kahyuM, For Private And Personal Use Only

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134 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI * nyAta karavAno rivAja ApaNA samAjane kerI khAtA kurivAja che. je rivAja mAtra rUDhi banI gaye hoya ene tajavA joIe. vyAje rUpiyA lAvIne AvI nyAta karavAthI vijApuranA ghaNA kaNabIe devAdAra thayA che. AnAthI mRta mAtA-pitAne kaMI lAbha thatA nathI, eTaluM ja nahi, Ane kAraNe jIvatA rahelAAne geralAbha thAya che. teA vyAjamAM evA daTAI jAya che ke emanuM jIvatara mAtathIya badatara thaI jAya che. keAInA avasAnanA zAkamAM zIre--pUrI khAvAM--khavaDAvavAM e rivAja kharAba che. ApaNA dherathI A rivAja baMdha thaze teA bIjA dhaNAAnu bhalu thaze.' bahecaradAsanI vAtathI ghaNA nAtIlAAne AMcakA lAgyA. jUnA rivAjathI TevAyelAM navuM vicArI zake kema ? mAnyatAmAM DUbelA satyane nihALI zake kayAMthI ? Akhare dhIre dhIre badhA vIkharAvA lAgyA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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2havuM zAne ? zeka kone ? 135 bahecaradAsa rAtre vidyAzALAmAM jaIne sUI rahyA. madharAte emanI AMkha UghaDI gaI. emane mAtApitA yAda AvyAM. rAtanA aMdhakAramAM jANe potAnI sAme mAtA-pitA UbhAM hoya tevuM lAgyuM. bahecaradAsathI ApoApa hAtha joDAI gayA ane kahyuM : "he pitA, hai mAtA, tamArI pAse rahIne huM tamArA ghaDapaNanI lAkaDI banI zakayo nahi. tamane saMtoSa ApavA meM nokarI svIkArI. mArI pragatinI ADe tame kadI AvyA nahi. he mAtA-pitA ! mArAthI koI avinaya thayo hoya to mane kSamA Apazo." rAta vadhatI gaI. bahecaradAsanA aMtaramAM eka pachI eka smaraNo UbharAvA lAgyAM. emaNe kavitAmAM pitAnuM haiyuM ThAlavIne mAtA-pitAne aMjali ApI. nAtanA narasI gera savAre bahecaradAsa pAse AvyA. emaNe mRta mAtA-pitAnI pAchaLa keTalIka vidhio karavAnI vAta cheDI, gAyanuM pUcha pUjavAnI, viAba te For Private And Personal Use Only

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136 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI kAyaTuM sarAvavAnI ane zayyAdAnanI vAta karI. A vidhio na karAve te maranAranI avagati thAya. pUrvajanI avagati jevuM bIjuM eka pApa nathI. bahecaradAse gora mahArAjane cekhA zabdomAM kahI dIdhuM-jIvatAM karelI mA-bApanAM hADakAMnI sevA e ja kharI sevA che. emAM ja sAcuM AtmakalyANa che. maraNa pAmelA jIvanI pAchaLa gAya ane zavyAdAna ApavAmAM Ave che, te maraNa pAmelAne maLatuM nathI. je jIva jevAM zubha-azubha karma kare che, tevAM bhegavavA paDe che. mRtyu pachI ApeluM dAna maranArane pahoMcatuM nathI temaja maraNa bAda bAraNAmAM marelo jIva besI raheto nathI.' bahecaradAsanI vAtano narasI gora pAse kaI javAba nahote. emaNe mUMge mee vidAya lIdhI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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che. eloG! 13 bahecaradAsa jyAM najara nAkhe tyAM emane mAtApitA ja dekhAya. AkhuM bALapaNa emanI najara sAme taravaravA lAgyuM. mAtA-pitAnA zokathI haiyuM UbharAvA lAgyuM. aMtaramAM akaLAmaNa thavA lAgI. citta vihvaLa banyuM. bahecaradAsa pathArImAMthI UThayA. bahAra AvyA. hajI bhara-bhAMkhaLuM thayuM hatuM. gAma AkhuM vahelI savAranI mIThI nIMdamAM sUtuM hatuM, tyAre bahecaradAsa ekalA smazAnane mArge jatA hatA. ekAMtamAM AvelI smazAnabhUmi para nIrava zAMti F ril For Private And Personal Use Only

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138 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI chavAyelI hatI. mAtra kayAreka ziyALavAnI lALIthI zAMtino bhaMga thatA, paNu a bhaMga zAMtinI bhayAnakatAmAM Ara vadhAro karatA. paNa bahecaradAse teA jIvanamAM bhayane jANyA ja nahotA. pitAne je ThekANe dAha devAmAM AvyA hatA tyAM jaIne e beThA. manamAM vicAranuM dhammaravaleANu cAlatuM hatuM. mAtAnuM vahAla ane pitAno prema vArevAre yAda AvatAM hatAM. vananA banAvA citranI mAka manamAMthI pasAra thatA hatA. ( bahecaradAse thADI rAkha mastaka para caDAvI ane kapALe tilaka karatAM kahyuM : he pUjanIya pitA ane vaMdanIya mAtA, tamArA zarIranI rAkha paNa mAre mana pUjya che. tamArA upakAranA badalA te huM nahi vALI zakuM paNu A rAkha mastake caDAvIne pratijJA karuM chu ke AjathI leAkeAne AtmazAMtinA sAcA mA batAvIza, mArA hRdayamAMthI meha, mAyA ane dugu NanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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ekalo jAne re 139 done temaja e badhAMnA mULakarmane bALI nAkhIza. tame jyAM ho tyAM tamane zAzvata zAMti maLe ! he mAtA-pitA, tamArA zarIranI pavitra bhasma atyAre mAre mAthe caDAvuM chuM ane pratijJA karuM chuM ke have vAraMvAra mAtApitA na karavA paDe e mATe paramAtmAnI sevAbhakti karIza." bahecaradAsane A koI mazAna vairAgya ke zokanA AghAtathI jAgelo keI vAMjhiye vicAra nahotA. AmAM to emanI vairAgyavRttine avAja raNakatA hato. e avAjane amala karavAno nizcaya to emaNe kayAranoya karI nAkhyA hatA. amadAvAdathI vijApura AvatI vakhate bahecaradAsa prAMtija thaIne AvyA hatA. zeTha nathubhAInA putrI vIjIbahena prAMtijamAM paraNAvelAM hatAM. vIjIbahena bahecaradAsa para bhAI jeTale bhAva dharAve. A vahAlasoyI bahene pUchayuM : "bhAI, tamArAM SSSSS = ill 1 For Private And Personal Use Only

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140 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI mAtA-pitA cAra-pAMca divasanA aMtare svargastha thayAM. eno AghAta ghaNe vasame hoya che, paNa tamArA jevA bhaNelAne huM vadhu zuM kahuM? have tame zuM karazo? "bahena, have kadI na mare tevAM mA-bApa karIzuM.' vIjIbahena bahecaradAsanI vAta samajI zakayAM nahi. emaNe tarata pUchI nAkhyuM, "are, kadI na mare evAM mA-bApa te vaLI hotAM haze?" hA bahena, evAM mA-bApa hoya ane te che zuddha pariNatIrUpa mAtA ane zuddha upagarUpa pitA." bahecaradAsa koI judI mATInA mAnavI hatA, koInokhA malakamAM vasanArA hatA. dhyeyanI pAchaLa dIvAnA banyA vinA divyatAnI prApti kayAMthI thAya ? vIjIbahena bhAInA javAbathI camakI gayAM. emaNe kahyuM : "to zuM tamArI IcchA cAritra levAnI s For Private And Personal Use Only

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ekalA jAne re 143 ' hA bahena, sa MsAra samudra che. sarIra nAva che. AtmA nAvika che. mAre AtmAnI sahAyathI saMsArane taraveA che. mRtyunA mAraNanA mArga che dharmanA. mAre e mArge saMcaravuM che. mAtApitAnu mRtyu thatAM gRhastha rahevAnI mArI pratijJA pUrI thaI. have cAritra levAnuM bAkI rahe che.' vahAlasoyI vIhene bahecaradAsa uparanA peAtAnI mAtAnA vAtsalyanI vAtathI emanA nizcayane nANI jevA prayatna karyA. emaNe kahyuM : 8 are ! jaDAvakAkI tamane dIkSA levA deze nahi. tamane paraNAvavAnA emane ghaNA phADa che.' bahecaradAsane AvI keAI vAta caLAvI zake tema nahotI. DAbhalAnA jaina derAsaramAM saMsAranI vRddhine rAkI de evI brahmacaryapAlananI pratijJAtA pAte kayAranAya laI cUkayA hatA. emaNe kahyuM : - bahena! mAre| rAha te nakkI thaI cUkayo che. sAMsArika bhAganA For Private And Personal Use Only

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142 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI sukhamAM mane zraddhA rahI nathI. brahmacaryanuM vrata to meM kyAranuMya laI lIdhuM che." te saMsAramAM brahmacArI banIne rahejo ne ! zrAvakanAM bAra vrata dhAraNa kare che?" bahene eka ajaba dalIla karI. saMsAramAM rahI brahmacaryanuM pAlana karavuM, zrAvakanAM bAra vrata dhAraNa karIne rahevuM, enA karatAM to tyAgI thaIne, AtmAnI zuddhi karIne janma-maraNanA pherAmAMthI AtmAne mukta karavAno dharmapuruSArtha zA mATe na karuM ? bahena, mane to enI ja laganI lAgI che. are paNa sAdhu thavAmAM te bhAre du:kha che." vIjIbahenanA pati lallubhAIe kahyuM. "sAcI vAta. saMsAra je du:khathI bhAge che e du:khane sAme pagale vadhAvIzuM. saMsArane mahelamALiyAM khape che, ame jaMgalane jagADIzuM. jagatamAM khAvAne jhaghaDA thAya che. mAre bhUkhanA vaibhavane mANavA For Private And Personal Use Only

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143 - ~ ekale jAne re che. saMsAranA bhAgamAM sukha mAnanAra aMte bhegano rogI bane che. mAre te tapa-tyAganA tejane apanAvavuM che." bahecaradAsa manomana saMsAranAM baMdhano chedI rahyAM hatAM. vijApura AvyA pachI emaNe prakAzane paMthe javAno potAno nirNaya zeTha nathubhAIne jaNAvyuMane e mATe sauprathama potAnA A dharmapitAnI rajA mAgI. emaNe bahecaradAsanI yogyatA joI hatI, mATe maMjUrI ApI. pachI bahecaradAsa jaDAvakAkInI rajA mAgavA gayA. emanA dIkarI vIjIbahene te kayAranIya baheradAsanA nirNayanI jANa potAnI mAtAne karI dIdhI hatI. mAtAe mUMge meM e aMtaranI AziSa ApI. ne te pachI bahecaradAsa kaNabInA mADhamAM gayA. tyAM emaNe bhAI - bahenane bhegAM karyA, ne sagAM - For Private And Personal Use Only

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144 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI saMbadhIAne meAlAvyAM. kadIya kAI ne kaTu vacana kahevAyu hoya teA saunI mAphI mAgI. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir sa'sAranA saMbadhe Aje aLagA thatA hatA, chatAM na kayAMya rudana ke na kayAMya hAyakAra. badhA gabhIra banIne beThA hatA. chelle sAMsArika sa Mbadhe chellI vidAya letAM bahecaradAse kahyuM : -- * eka divasa mArAM pUjya mAtA - pitA gayA tema sahune javAnu che. huM jarA vahelA jAuM chuM. je Akhare cheADavAnu che tene vahelu cheADu chuM. tenu leza mAtra duHkha na dharazeA. leNA - deNAmAMme banatI madada karI che. dhara ke khetImAM have mArA kAI bhAga nathI. sonAmAM ke strImAM mAru mana nathI. svamAtranA tyAga kare te sAdhu. have mAruM ghara upAya banaze. mArI khetI e paramAtmApadanI prAptineA prayatna banaze. paramezvaranI bhaktimAM have huM mAruM jIvana vitAvIza.' jema varasAdathI bharelI vAdaLI jaLanA chaMTakAva For Private And Personal Use Only

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' ; ja 1 ] ko - - } I - - *'''' - ' ka jI, Niti 1 I ] - = = - - - |-- - - - sahunI vidAya letA bahecaradAsa 10 For Private And Personal Use Only

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146 karatI karatI, AkAzamAM A jAya tema bahecaradAsa eka pachI letAM AgaLa vadhavA lAgyA. bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI pArathI pele pAra sarI eka sahunI vidAya Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir tevo kAI upAya have amane aTakAvI zake nahotA. badhAe lAgaNIbhInA hRdaye rajA ApI. 5 For Private And Personal Use Only

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() maMgalamaya pariva gAya pitAnuM dUdha pate pItI nathI. vRkSo potAnAM phaLa pote khAtAM nathI. nadI pote potAnuM jaLa pItI nathI. mAtra manuSya ja e che ke je sApaNanI mAphaka pitAnuM pote ja khAdhA kare che, bhagavyA kare che ! paNa nyAyanI rIte to lenAra karatAM denAra moTo gaNAya che. je kaMI sAruM hoya e te saMsArane ja devAnuM hoya. bahecaradAsa vicAramAM UtarI paDayA. emanA hRdayamAM koI mahAsAgara UchaLato hato ane enA ST For Private And Personal Use Only

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ja 148 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI aMtaramAM paDaghA paDatA hatA. "tane manuSyadeha maLyo, sAro deza maLe, sAruM kuLa maLyuM, sAruM zarIra maLyuM. have mahAmahenate prApta karelA manuSya jIvanane dharmathI zobhAvI jANu. dharma AcaravAmAM ghaDInIya gaphalata na cAle. paLane paNa pramAda na pAlave. bhagavAna mahAvIre potAnA ziSya gautamane kahelAM e vacanonI bharatI bahecaradAsanA haiyAmAM UbharAtI hatI. emanuM aMtara pokAratuM hatuM, "are have ghaDIneya vilaMba na karIza. sAgara bharatIe hoya tyAre ja nAva choDI mUkavAmAM majA che. UThA de laMgara, choDa de naiyA ! ' teo tarata pAlanapura pahoMcyA. emaNe vinaMtI karI : "mahArAja, mane dIkSA Apa." kema ekadama?" pAlanapuramAM birAjatA gurU J62 For Private And Personal Use Only

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maMgalamaya parivartana 149 deva ravisAgarajI mahArAjanA ziSya sukhasAgarajI mahArAje pUchyuM. ekadama nathI. varSonA vicArane Aje AcAramAM mUkavAnI veLA AvI che. nirNaya karI cUkyo chuM. pahelA muhUrta ne pahelI paLe bhagavatI dIkSA aMgIkAra karavI che." koInI rajA, koInI maMjUrI nathI levAnI?" rajA ane maMjUrI sahunI laIne Avyo chuM, gurUdeva !" sukhasAgarajI mahArAja bahecaradAsane varSothI oLakhatA hatA. emane emanA agAdha jJAnano paricaya hatA, emanI sAdhanAnI paNa jANakArI hatI. emaNe tarata ja maMjUrI ApI. pAlanapura zaheramAM dIkSAnA utsavane raMga vadhato jato hato. kumakumanA chAMTaNavALI kaMkotrI gAmegAma pahoMcI gaI hatI. bhAvikajane AnaMdanA = = === For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI 150 umaMge AvI rahyA hatA. seAnerasI abADIthI ApatA gajarAja lAvavAmAM AvyA. varagheADA AbhAvavA mATe gajarAja dvAra para jhulI rahyo hatA. pAlakhIA ane gheADAgADIzaNagArAI cUkI hatI. vAjiMtronA nAda AkhA nagaramAM gUMjI rahyA hatA. indradhvaja patAkAo pharakAvatA mAkhare zAbhatA hatA. pAchaLa mahAjananI dhAmadhUma hatI. dIkSAnA bhAvikane chelle chelle zaNagAra sajelA jevA mATe kaI kaI sAmagrIo AvatI hatI. keAI navaserA hAra, kAI hIrejaDI vITI tA kAI nIlamapannA jaDayo zirapeca te kAI rezamI kAranA dheAtiyAM lAvyAM hatAM. ghera gherathI bahecaradAsane jamavAnA bhAvabharyA notarAM AvavA lAgyAM. bhAvika vaga tA hAMzathI vidhavidha miSTAnna taiyAra karI rAkhatA, paNa bahecaradAsa A For Private And Personal Use Only

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maMgalamaya parivartana 151 aneka cIjomAMthI eka ja cIja letA. koI vaLI vahAlathI kahetuM ke Aje to A miSTAnna Arogo. kAle dIkSA leze, pachI AvuM kayAM maLavAnuM che ? bahecaradAsa sAvadha hatA. naLarAjAnA paganIkArI pAnImAMthI kali pesI gayo hato. e kathA emane jAgatA rAkhatI hatI. cAra kaMI daravAjethI Avato nathI, paNa nAnakaDA jALiyA vATe gharamAM ghUsI jAya che. sAvadha bahecaradAse eTaluM ja kahyuM, "lAMbA vakhatathI je bhega-upabhegano saMyama jALavyA e dIkSA levAnA avasare zA mATe choDuM? evI ja IcchA hota to dIkSA levAno vicAra zA mATe karata ?" vAha ! kevo vicAra! kevI vANI! kevo saMyama! keTalAka zrAvako AvIne emane amUlakha javAhara paheravA vinaMti karatA, paNa bahecaradAsane mATe te zIla e ja sAce zaNagAra hatuM. vidyA e emanuM ja ; ; mina ' Trir InitpAka LI'lbii kai saMbaLI: :::: , SH : :: : - jAma Helli *** . . mailiApA.' ' - HE ij*qi :: . 'Hindutvij *** mai ' ke ' paNaws For Private And Personal Use Only

Page #161
bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI dhana hatuM. guNa e ja emanI zobhA hatI. keTalIka strIe bahecaradAsane pIThI coLavA AvI hatI. bahecaradAse emane namaskAra karIne kahyuM, mArI mAtAo ane baheno, A deha para pIThI cALavAnI keAI jarUra nathI. AtmA para to Aje ApoApa pIThIne pILo raMga caDI rahyo che. dasa varSathI strI-sparzanI mAre bAdhA che. have thoDA vakhata mATe ene bhaMga kara ucita nathI." pIThI ceALavA AvelI zrAvikAo natamastake cAlI gaI vi. saM. 1957nA mAgasara suda chaThThane e divasa hatA. e divase dIkSA mahotsavanAM vAjAM vAgyAM. varaghoDo caDayo. bahecaradAsa hAthInI aMbADImAM beThA. sarakhesarakhI sAhelIoe kaMTha-jhaMkAra karyo. jayajayakAranA dhvani sAthe yAtrA cAlu thaIpaNa bahecaradAsa hAthInA hode mAtra beThA hatA eTaluM ja, emanuM For Private And Personal Use Only

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maMgalamaya parivartana 153 mana to kaI UMDA ciMtanamAM DUbI gayuM hatuM ane AtmavicAraNAnI pATe beThuM hatuM. manomana e eka pachI eka niradhAra kare jatA hatA : stuti ane niMdAthI dUra rahIza- harSa ane zoka dhAraNa karIza nahi, rAgadveSane sevIza nahi, niMdA karanAra para paNa vera nahi rAkhuM. bahecaradAsa AvA AvA vicAramAM mazagUla hatA. 27 varSanA juvAna ane tejasvI bahecaradAsane joIne nagarajane ApoApa be hAtha joDI namaskAra karatA hatA. bahecaradAsa sAme be hAtha joDatA hatA. paNu aMtaramAM to pilI dharmavicAraNu ja cAlu hatI. cAre kora emanI vAha vAha thaI rahI hatI paNa bahecaradAsanuM mana to, jaLamAM kamaLanI jema, e badhAthI alipta ja rahetuM. e vicAratA hatA : A vAha vAha kaMI mArI potAnI nathI, paNa e te mahAvIre batAvela, ahiMsA, saMyama, tapamaya dharmanuM For Private And Personal Use Only

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154 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI - 4 - : mAM ' k, ,*:- . ' WINLa pAlanapuramAM yojAyele dIkSA mahotsava jl[ it : - kAkA ,], 2 Linayli . For Private And Personal Use Only

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maMgalamaya parivartana 155 bahumAna che. A mArA jayajayakAra thatA nathI, paNa sarvamaMgaLakArI dharmamArganA jayajayakAra thAya che. koI mane vaMdana karatuM nathI, paNa mahAvIranA Adezane vaMdana kare che. - dIkSAno vidhi samApta thayo ane emane mATe eka navuM jIvana zarU thayuM. sAva halakuM phUla jevuM jIvana ! nispRhI sAdhune te kaIspRhA hoya? bahecaradAsamAMthI banelA buddhisAgaranI AtmasAdhanAnI yAtrA zarU thaI. merA Atama AnaMda nUra, amirasa chAya rahA. hama lAlana masta phakIra, amirasa pAna lahA. brahmacidAnaMdamaya prabhu re, nirakhI huA mastAnA, buddhisAgara" Atama meM 2, huA parama gutAnA. ami." * zaS IT R kahaoche. ir For Private And Personal Use Only

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guNAno 15 pAnI teA bahatA bhalA ! sAdhu teA calatA bhalA ! Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir sAgara juvAna muni buddhisAgarajI Thera Thera vihAra kare che. manamAM satata paramAtmAnuM ciMtana cAlyA kare che. te ekAMta meLavIne graMthalekhana kare che; taka sAMpaDatA vidvAnono sa`ga kare che. A badhu ya kare che, chatAM dhyAna aa meAkSa para ja rAkhe che. dhyAnanI upAsanA satata cAlatI rahe che. For Private And Personal Use Only muni buddhisAgaranA kapALamAM zubha cinha sameA caMdra zAbhe che. emanA bAhu DhIMcaNa sudhI pahoMcatA

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karuNAne sAgara 1pa7 hovAthI teo AjAna bAhu mahApuruSa lekhAya che. ATalA lAMbA hAtha e sAcI moTAInuM lakSaNa lekhAya che. emanA hAtha-paganA aDhAre AMgaLA para caMdra che. e saMtanA pahADI avAjamAM vIratAne dhabakAra che, to komaLa hRdayamAM karuNu ane kavitAnI bhInI-bhInI saravANI vahe che. kasAyelA majabUta deha para AtmAnI kAMti vilase che. teo sadA masta sAdhakanI mastImAM DUbelA rahe che. emanA vartanamAM sAcA yogInI jagata taraphanI beparavAhI dekhAya che. teo vyAkhyAna kare che, upadeza Ape che, sAmAjika sudhAraNA mATe jhajhUme che, ciMtanathI bharapUra graMtho lakhe che, dhyAna karIne AtmAne paMthe satata prayANa cAle che, chatAM A jAgRta sAdhu potAnuM dhyeya kayAreya cUkatA nathI. satata sAvadhAna rahIne AtmanirIkSaNa kare che. DAyarImAM enI noMdha kare che, bhUtakALamAMthI bodhapATha le che ane bhaviSyane ghaDe che. For Private And Personal Use Only

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158 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI vi. saM. 1968nA mAgazara suda chaThanA divase A munirAja pitAnI DAyarImAM sAdhujIvananuM saravaiyuM kADhatAM lakhe che-- Aja dIkSAnAM agiyAra varSa pUrNa thayAM ane bAramA varSamAM praveza thAya che. agiyAra varSamAM ekaMdara cAritramArganI ArAdhanA sArI thaI che. gAmaDAomAM samAdhimAM vizeSa prakAre rahevAtuM hatuM, ne zaheramAM upadezamArganI vizeSataH pravRtti karAtI hatI. trIza upara pustako lakhAyAM, temaja pAThazALA AdinI sthApanA karI. koInI sAthe dhamAdhama thaI nathI." bAramA varSamAM pravezatAM nIce pramANe saMkalpo karuM chuM- aupadezika kAryamAM tatpara rahevuM. "cAritra samAdhinuM avalaMbana karavuM. W pI For Private And Personal Use Only

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karuNAne sAgara 159 upAdhithI dUra rahevA yatna karavo. "prArabdha karmayoge thatI vedanIya-upasarga Adine sahana karavA samatAbhAva rAkhavo. abhinava jJAna khIle evAM dhArmika pustakanuM vAcana karavuM. vi. saM. 1970mAM pethApurane zrIsaMgha zrI buddhisAgarajIne AcAryanI padavI Ape che. mAgazara suda pUrNimAnA zubha dine caturvidha saMghe teone AcArya tarIke jAhera karyo. sAdhujIvanamAM AcArya padavI e ghaNo moTo banAva kahevAya. paraMtu A niHspRhI sAdhue potAnI DAyarImAM A aMgenI vAta mAtra eka ja lITImAM lakhI che ! teo noMdhe che- saMvata 1970mAM mAgazara suda pUrNimA, zanivAra, tA. 13-12-'13 caturvidha saMgha samakSa aneka gAma-zaheranA zrAvake ane zrAvikAonI saMmati ane AgrahathI AcAryapada, vyavahAre, For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI aneka saMjogomAM, apekSAe, pethApuramAM grahaNa karyuM." ATalI noMdha lakhIne teo pethApura ane sAbaramatInA sRSTisauMdaryanuM varNana kare che ane pote kayAM kayAM dhyAnasamAdhi lagAvI tenI noMdha kare che. kevI anekhI che emanI namratA ane anAsakti! na keAI padavInI lAlasA, na padaprAptine harakha. jIvanane samatAbhAve jIvavA cAhatA sAdhune mATe to samatA e ja zaNagAra. sukha ke du:khamAM cittanI. ekasarakhI svasthatA e ja sadAne AnaMda. suratamAM eka dhanika sajajananA ghara-derAsaramAM pUjA bhaNAvAtI hatI. eNe moMgherA hIrAnI manorama AMgI racI hatI. AcAryazrI buddhisAgarajI prabhu sAme bhAvathI pUjA bhaNAvI rahyA hatA. evAmAM eka munirAje AMgInA vakhANa karatAM AcAryazrIne kahyuM : F For Private And Personal Use Only

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bahecaradAsamAMthI zrImadbhuddhisAgarasunIzvarajI For Private And Personal Use Only

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karuNAno sAgara oha ! keTalI badhI kImatI AMgI racI che !" AcAryazrI buddhisAgarajIe munirAjanA ahobhAva tarapha lakSa ApyuM nahi. munirAje pharI AMgInI tArIpha karatAM AcAryazrIne kahyuM : "are, Apane khabara che? Aje te pAMca lAkhanA hIrAnI AMgI thaI che. prabhunI pUjAmAM tallIna thayelA AcAryazrIe munirAjanI vAta sAMbhaLI na sAMbhaLI karI. munirAje mAnyuM ke emanI AvI mahatvanI vAta AcAryazrIe sAMbhaLI nathI. pariNAme trIjI vAra emaNe AMgInI prazaMsA karatAM kahyuM : "AvI pAMca lAkhanA hIrAnI AMgI Ape A agAu kayAMya joI hatI kharI?" Akhare AcAryazrI buddhisAgarajIe kahyuM : prabhunI AMgI jotI vakhate tamArI najara AgI para aTakavI na joIe, paNa prabhu para TharavI joIe. : : .! For Private And Personal Use Only

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162 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI AMgInu' huM anumAdana karuM chuM, paraMtu AvI AMgI jotI vakhate ApaNe e vicAra karavAnA hoya ke AthI paNa vadhu kImatI jara-jhaverAtane prabhue tuccha gaNIne svecchAe chAMDI dIdhA hatA. kevA emanA aparigraha ! vaLI aMtaramAM evuM bhAvIe ke AnAthIya mUlyavAna AbhUSaNAnA prabhue paLavAramAM tyAga karyAM hatA ane huM kevA pAmara chuM' ke AvA padArtho paranI mArI Asakti jatI nathI ? Ama AcArya zrI satya kahetAM kadI acakAtA nahi. nikaTanA sAdhu jana heAya ke ajANI saMsArI vyakti hAya, chatAM e satyanA yAhnA satya aMge kAI AMdhacheADa karatA nahi. sAdhujIvananA keTalAMka bhayasthAnAne teo kharAkhara jANatA hatA. sAdhu tarIkenuM emanuM jIvana anukaraNIya hatuM. te strIonA paricayathI dUra rahetA. vaLI strIone ekalA vaMdana karavA AvavAnI, For Private And Personal Use Only

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163 ~~~~~~~~~ ~ ~~~~~~~~~~ ~ ~ ~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ karuNAno sAgara ekAMtamAM vArtAlApa karavAnI temaja vyAkhyAna sivAya emanA sthAnakamAM AvavAnI manAI hatI. Ama chatAM emanAM vyAkhyAmAM strI-samAja taraphane emano UMDe Adara dekhAI Avate. jIbhanA svAdane te emaNe pahelethI vaza karyo hato. kaNabInA A saMtAne bALapaNathI ja rAtribhajanano tyAga karyo hato. lasaNa ane DuMgaLI tajavAne pariNAme ghaNIvAra bhUkhyA rahIne divase kADhayA hatA. kayAreka kAcA ghau ke kAcI bAjarI cAvIne pANI pI laI peTanI Aga bujhAvI hatI. sAdhu thayA pachI to je AhAra maLe te badhA eka ja pAtramAM bheguM karIne khAI letA. teo savAramAM cA, bapore bhojana ane sAMje vALu ema traNa vakhata bhajana letA nahi. covIsa kalAkamAM basa eka ja vAra khAvAnuM ! pachI jamavAnI keI paLojaNa nahi. vi. saM. 1956mAM sUrijI mANasAmAM AvyA For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI hatA. A samaye bhejana karatI vakhate svAdiSTa osAmaNu khUba bhAvI gayuM, paNa e ja paLe vicAra AvyuM ke A te huM jIbhanA svAdane gulAma thaI rahyo chuM. tarata ja A jAgRta AtmAe osAmaNumAM pANI nAkhI dIdhuM ane ene phikakuM banAvI khAdhuM. oLI para to emane adUbhuta zraddhA hatI. mRtyunA meMmAM sapaDAyA chatAM eka vAra ene choDI nahotI. bALapaNamAM abola jIvonI AMtaraDIne avAja sAMbhaLanArA zrI buddhisAgarasUri potAnA pyArA vAcharaDAnI vedanAbharI rasIse jIvanabhara bhUlyA. nahotA. eka vAra teo potAnI DAyarImAM kabUtara para kavitA lakhatA hatA. kavitA lakhe tyAre emAM ekarUpa banI jatA. emanA aMtaranA bhAva ane kudaratanAM heta eTalAM badhAM ekarUpa banI gayAM ke kavitAnI bIjI paMkti lakhAya te pahelAM to eka kabUtara AvIne emanI DAyarI para beThuM ! For Private And Personal Use Only

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karUNAne sAgara 165 eka vAra sUrijI pAdarA gAmanA vakIla zrI mohanalAla hemacaMda sAthe mANasAnA kotaromAM ghUmatA hatA. acAnaka eka vAMdaro kUdavA jatA Theka S jas STA For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI cUkyo ane UMDA kataramAM gabaDI paDayo. sUrijIe enI pAchaLa che kUtarAone doDatA joyA. A jotAM ja karuNAbhInA avAje sUrijIe bUma pADIne kahyuM : "vakIlajI, jaladI doDe. jaladI doDo. pelA DAghiyA kUtarAM bicArA vAMdarAne phADI khAze." ATaluM bolIne sUrijI pote jabarajasta daMDa upADIne vAMdarAne bacAvavA doDyA. kotarone caDhANa ane DhoLAvavALo rasto hato. sUrijI ThekatA ane kUdatA doDavA lAgyA. AvI pAMceka nAnI TekarIo vaTAvIne UMDA ketaramAM UtarI paDI cheka vAMdarA pAse pahoMcI gayA, paNa te pahelA te kUtarAoe kAma tamAma karI nAkhyuM hatuM. yogInI AMkhamAM AMsu UbharAI AvyAM. teoe kUtarAoe pIMkhI nAkhelA vAMdarA pAse jaI kAnamAM puNyamaMtra saMbhaLAvyo, aMte gagada kaMThe belyA : "he jIva ! tArI zubha gati thAo !" -- - - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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karuNAno sAgara te vakhate emanI sAthe doDelA sahue jJAnI gurunA karuNAbhInA aMtarano anubhava karyo. sUrijI jyAM jyAM jatA, tyAM pAMjarApoLamAM jaIne jAte tapAsa karatA. pazuo te temane prANanI mAphaka pyArAM hatAM. gAyane mAtArUpe jotA. ghaNI vAra kahetA paNa kharA ke pazuoe manuSya para kevA kevA upakAra karyA che ane svAthI manuSya garaja saryA pachI kevI apakArI rIte varte che. jagatamAM mAnavI badhuM tajI zake che ane badhuM meLavI zake che, paNa jananI ane janmabhUmine kadI tajI zakato nathI ane tajelI kadI meLavI zakato nathI. ekavAra sUrijI potAnA vatananI AsapAsanA vistAromAM ghUmatA hatA. mahuDInAM A kAtaromAM nirdoSa bALapaNanI keTalIya moja mANI hatI. enI havAmAM eka judI ja tAjagIno anubhava thato. For Private And Personal Use Only

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(vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI sUrijInI sAthe lallubhAI nAmanA emanA eka bhakta paNa hatA. A baMnee A kotaromAM eka jhADa para eka vAMdaro beThelo joyo. bhayathI e phaphaDate vAMdaro tharathara dhrujato hato. me tane sAme joIne enI mati mUMjhAI gaI hatI. sUrijIe joyuM te jhADanI nIce eka varu beThuM hatuM. varu rAha jotuM hatuM ke Darane mAryo A vAMdaro kayAre jhADa parathI nIce paDe ane huM ene khAI jAuM ! jhADa para rahelo vAMdaro paNa ziyAviyAM thato hato. hamaNuM paDaze ke paDaze ! ' sUrijIe IMTano eka TukaDo laIne jorathI vAMdarAnI najIka ghA karyo. iMTane TukaDo vAgavAnA DarathI vAMdaro jhADa parathI kUdyo. eka AMbA parathI bIjA AMbA para ane bIjA AMbA parathI trIjI AMbA para. e pachI che ja For Private And Personal Use Only

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karuNAnA sAgara tA e vAMdarA kAtarAmAM gAyaba thaI gayA. sUrijInI sAthe cAlatA lallubhAIe sUrijIne pUchyuM : ' Aha ! sAdhu thaIne ApanAthI prANI para IMTanA dhA thAya kharA?' 169 sUrijIe hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM : ' bhAI, kAnA AdhAra mana para che. meM vAMdarAnI najIka IMTanA dhA karIne enI zaktine jAgRta karI. mAre vicAra tene patharA mAravAnA naheAte, paraMtu ane varunA pAmAMthI khacAvavAnA hatA ane thayuM paNa evuM ja ke vAMdarAnI zakti jAgatAM e jAte ja varunA pajAmAMthI chaTakI gayA.' For Private And Personal Use Only karuNA ane ahiMsA e eka ja sikkAnI e bAju che. sUrijI karuNAnA sAgara hatA, te e ja rIte ahi'sAnA bhekhadhArI hatA. jenAmAM tA ahiMsAnI bhAvanA jevA maLatI paNa jainetarAmAM enI kaMIka upekSA thatI. sUrijI AvA jainetarAne

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170 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI ahiMsAnuM mahattva samajAvatA ane hiMsAnA pApa mAMthI ugAratA. eka vAra dharamapura rAjanA rAjavI sUrijInI suvAsa sAMbhaLIne emanuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA AvyA. sUrijIe sAta vyasana vize evA suMdara Adha ApyA ke rAjavIe tarata ja emanI pAse zikAra na karavAnuM vrata lIdhuM. gujarAtanA dariyAkinAre Dummasa gAma Avelu che. caitrI ALI UjavavA sUrijI ahI' AvyA hatA. rAja dariyAkinArA pAsethI sUrijI pasAra thAya ane mAchImArIne jALa bichAvIne beThelA jue. sUrijIe A mAnavIAne pAmara jANIne emanA tiraskAra na karyA; mAMe kapaDuM dAbI, mukha ADuM karIne emanI najIkathI pasAra na thaI gayA. emanI najara teA mAnavanA AtmAnA sadguNu para hatI. teo abhaNu mAchImAre| pAse gayA. sIdhI sAdI vANImAM emanI For Private And Personal Use Only

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karUNane sAgara 171 sAthe vAto karI, hiMsAnI bhayAnakatA samajavI, dArUnuM dUSaNa samajAvyuM. hiMsA ane vyasanamAM belA mAchImAronA hRdayamAM chupAyelI dayAnI lAgaNIne DhaDhaLI, pariNAma e AvyuM ke DummasanA keTalAya mAchImAroe emanI pAse dArU ane mAMsAhAra choDI devAnI pratijJA lIdhI. Ama rAjA hoya ke raMka, sAdhu hoya ke zrAvaka, jaina hoya ke ajaina, e darekane sUrijIe upadeza AkhyA-kayAreka te sAme pagale jaIne paNa. sAcA dharmanI ADe pitAnuM mAna-apamAna kadI na lAvatA. AthI ja teo aDhAre AlamanA avadhUta kahevAyA. * lAyA, 00: has: For Private And Personal Use Only

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AtmabaLanA ajavALAM 16 cAre kAra sUnakAra che. U'DAM kAtarA bheMkAra lAge che. zrI buddhisAgarasUrijI tA sAbaramatInA tIre ekalA cAlyA jAya che. ekala-dokala mAnavI jyAM kadIya pharakavAnI hiMmata na kare tevAM vAMdhAmAM sUrijI nirbhayapaNe Daga bharatA jAya che ane koI guphA jevI jagyAmAM jApa japavA besI jAya che. kacAMka padmAsana lagAvI dhyAnamAM DUbI jAya che. traNa--traNa cAra-cAra divasa sudhI akhaMDa samAdhi lagAvI besI jAya che. nirbhayane vaLI bhaya ze ? abhayane ALakhanArane bIka hAya kharI? For Private And Personal Use Only

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AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM 173 sUvaranA meTA eka vAra sUrijI A rIte dhyAna lagAvIne beThA hatA. aMtaranI duniyAmAM sarI gayelAne bahAranI duniyAnI paravA karyAMthI hAya? sUrijI jyAM dhyAna lagAvIne beThA hatA tyAM bAjumAM ja sUvaranI kheDa hatI. beDamAMthI be sUra acAnaka bahAra AvyA. enI nAnI-nAnI datALIe mAnavIne iMdavA mATe pUratI hatI. teAe peAtAnI meDa pAse yAgIne dhyAna dharIne beThelA oyA. svabhAvathI ja hiMsaka prANIe A yAgIne joIne ahiMsaka banI gayA. aDadhe kalAka pasAra thaI gayA. eka bAju dhyAna lagAvIne beThelA yAgI ane sAme jhanUnI sUvara ! dhyAna pUruM thatAM sUrijI UbhA thayA. emanA aMtaramAM Ana 6 jAgyA. e divase emaNe AtmAnI ni yatAnA anubhava karyAM. emane lAgyu ke abhaya sAme bhaya ni La che. je pote khItA nathI ane bIjAne bivaDA

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bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI 174 vatA nathI, e ja sAcA ahiMsaka che. sApa zAMta thaI gayA eka vakhata sUrijI pethApuranA eka medAnamAM zrAvakanA pAMca saMtAnAne yAga zIkhavatA hatA. teA pote samAdhi lagAvIne beThA hatA. evAmAM AtarAdi dizAnA vAMdhAmAMthI eka sApa phuMphADA mAratA bahAra AvyA ane dhyAna lagAvIne beThelA sUrijInI sAva najIka pahoMcyA. pAMce bALake bhayathI cIsa pADI UThayA, paNa sUrijI jarAya DagyA nahi. emanA ataranA vAtsalya AgaLa sApa zAMta banI gayA. sAcA premanI bhASA mAnava tA zuM sApa paNa samaje che. sUrijIe hasatAM hasatAM chaLI gayelAM bALakAne kahyuM : * A sApa ApaNane upadrava karavA AvyA nathI.' sAce ja sApa theADIvAramAM zAMtithI sarakIne dUra cAlyA gayeA. AvI ja rIte eka vAra sUrijIne mahuDInAM viirNd For Private And Personal Use Only

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AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM 175 kotaromAM mUchALA sApano bheTo thayo hato. emanI sAthenA keTalAka to nAsavAnI taiyArImAM hatA. sApa sarijInI najIka AvyA. badhAnAM haiyAM bhayathI phaphaDI UThayAM, tyAre sarijIe kahyuM: "e to saMtenI pAse AnaMda kare che. Darazo mA !" thoDI vAramAM sApa sarijhanI bilakula najIkathI sarI gaye. teo saheje hAlyAcAlyA nahi. emanA aMtaramAM jIvamAtra para vahAla varasatuM hatuM. emanuM vAtsalyabharyuM haiyuM jaMgalI prANIone emane svabhAva bhulAvI detuM. jhanUnI ke jherIlA sApa potAnI hiMsaka prakRtine bhUlI jatA. dIpaDAne bheTo jIvananAM chellAM varSomAM teoe jaMgalomAM vAsa karyo ane te paNa sAva nirjana jaMgalomAM! zaheramAM mANasathI mANasa bhaTakAya ema jaMgalamAM jAnavare jAnavara athaDAya. eka vAra dIpaDAne bheTo thayo hato. - - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww 176 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI dIpaDe vAMdarAnA zikAre nIkaLyo hato. sUrijI najIk pahoMcatA ja dIpaDo zikAra choDIne jaMgalamAM alopa thaI gayA hatA. zrI buddhisAgarasUrinI nirbhaya AtmadazAthI evA banAvo banyA ke jene jagata camatkAra tarIke khapAve. jagata to svArthanI pUjA kare che. jagatanA loko potAne kaMIne kaMI svArtha siddha karavA sarijI pAsa AMTA mAravA lAgyA. aneka rAgiyA-dAgiyAya AvavA lAgyA. sUrijI te sadAya hRdayamAM sahunA kalyANanA maMtro raTatA hatA. emane siddhiomAM rasa nahoto, camatkArathI nAmanA jamAvavI nahotI. e te yogI AnaMdaghananI mAphaka potAnI dhyAnanI mastImAM DUbelA hatA. mAganArane kyAreka mAgyuM maLatuM paNa kharuM. eTale jene phaLe e mahimAne vistAra kare. koIkanI peTanI pIDA maTI, to koIkanI sUrijInA AzIrvAde saMsAranI upAdhi ghaTI. ma For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra AcArya zrImad buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajIne vaMdana karatA mahArAjA sayAjIrAva gAyakavADa

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coganiSTha AcArya zrImad buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajI For Private And Personal Use Only

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AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM 177 vyAdhi TaLI gaI ! vi. saM. 1975nI vAta che. mANasAnA zeTha vIracaMda kRSNane peTanI bhAre pIDA UpaDatI pIDA evI thAya ke jANe hamaNuM maraNa Avaze. aneka upacAro karavA chatAM koI auSadha kAragata nIvaDyuM nahi. eka vAra pratikramaNa vakhate ja sakhata pIDA UpaDI. mRtyu sAme AvIne UbhuM hoya ema lAgyuM. sUrijIe Agho pheravyo ane teo sArA thaI gayA. janmane roga gayo. pethApuranA eka zrAvakane vyAkhyAnamAM ja tANa AvI gaI. varSothI A vyAdhi emane vaLagelI hatI. sUrijIe vyAkhyAna pUruM thayA pachI emanA zarIra para pheravyo ane tANa AvatI haMmezane mATe baMdha thaI gaI vi. saM. 159nA moharamanA divase eka juvAna mahesANAthI muMbaI jatA amadAvAda TO / ", as s ka For Private And Personal Use Only

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178 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI UtarIne sUrijInAM darzana karavA AvyA. A juvAna muMbaImAM dhaMdhAnI zodha mATe jato hato. sUrijIe keTalIka zikhAmaNa ApI. sAthosAtha muMbaImAM plega cAlato hovAthI eka maMtra Apyo. A maMtra bhaNavAthI plegane bhaya TaLaze ane unnati thaze ema kahyuM. e vyaktine te maMtrabaLe plegana thayA, paNa emaNe muMbaImAM pleganA keTalAya dardIonI sAravAra karI ane chatAM pote jIvaleNa rogathI bacI gayA. eka sAdhvIjIne rAtre sarpa karaDayo. sUrijIe maMtreluM pANI mekalAvyuM ane dezanI asara UtarI gaI. pethApura gAmamAM eka jaina sajajanane sarpa karaDayo. sagAM-vahAlAM bhegAM thayAM. ene marI gayelo jANI nanAmI taiyAra karI ane maDadAne upADIne smazAne javA nIkaLyA. rastAmAM sUrijIne bheTa thayA. emaNe lokone pUchyuM : "bhAIo, zuM thayuM che?" k, s DOW: For Private And Personal Use Only

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vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM 179 lokoe javAba Apyo : "rAtre A zrAvakane sarpa karaDyo hato ane te mRtyu pAmyo che." ' sUrijIe svAbhAvikatAthI kahyuM : "nA hoya, hajI te e jIvate che." Ama kahIne emaNe nanAmI cheDavA kahyuM. keTalAke zraddhAthI ane keTalAke kacavAte mane nanAmI DI. enA zarIra para sUrijIe traNa vakhata Aghe pheravyA. pelo mAnavI ALasa maraDIne beTho thayo ! vacanasiddha vANuM sUrijI cAturmAsa karavA mATe surata AvyA hatA. eka vAra teo tApI nadIne kAMThethI pasAra thatA hatA. tApInA UMDA jaLamAM eka mAchImAra jALa nAkhIne beTho hato. mAchalAM phasAya enI rAha joto hato. sUrijI tenI samIpa gayA ane ene kahyuM : bhAI, tArI A jaLa bahAra kADhI le. tuM mArA For Private And Personal Use Only

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180 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI dekhatAM pharI jALa nAkhIza nahi." mAchImAra para sUrijInI vAtanI koI asara na thaI. emane hukama mAnavAnI ene zI jarUra ? mAchImArane avaLacaMDAI sUjhI. eNe potAnI jALa vadhu pahoLI karI. sUrijIe eka kAMkarI laIne pANI tarapha pheMkI ane bolyA : "khera, tAre jALa nAkhavI hoya to nAkha. pahoLI karavI hoya eTalI pahoLI kara, paraMtu emAM ekeya mAchalI Avaze nahi." mAchImAra hasI paDyo. sUrijI to kAMThe kalAka sudhI najara TheravIne UbhA rahyA. mAchImAre mAchaluM sapaDAvavA ghaNI mAthAkUTa karI, jALane khUba pheravI paNa kharI. paNa lAMbI mahenatane aMte jALa kADhIne jue che to jALamAM eka nAnuM mAchaluM paNa ene jovA na maLe. mAchImArane thayuM ke nakakI DAI yegI lAge che. doDIne emane page paDyo ane kahyuM: al 's For Private And Personal Use Only

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181 AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM bAvAjI, keI hukama Ape.' sUrijIe javAba Apyo : "Ajano divasa A pApanI kamANI baMdha kara ! jALa uThAvI le ane ghera jato rahe." mAchImAre sUrijIne page lAgIne potAnI jALa uThAvI lIdhI. e ghara tarapha cAlavA lAgyo. bhAvinA bheda ukelyA sUrijI jema jema badhAne saMga choDatA cAlyA, ema ema emanA saMgI vadhavA lAgyA. amadAvAdanA zeTha jagAbhAI jevA zreSThIe AvIne eka vAra kahyuM: "bApajI, malabAra TIMbara nAmanI kaMpanI kADhI che." hajI e pUruM kahe te pahelAM ja sAdhurAja Tapa daIne bole che : "kheTuM karyuM. lIlAM jhADa vADhavAno dhaMdhe? baMdha kara...' paNa kaMpanI lAkhanI thApaNuthI zarU thaI hatI eTale ene baMdha karavI eka mANasanA hAthanI vAta For Private And Personal Use Only

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182 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI na hatI. Akhare sUrijInA zabdo sAcA paDayA. kaMpanI zarU thatAM pahelAM tUTI gaI. kesa cAlyA. dIvAnI ne pheAjadArI cAlI. sA thavAno ghATa AvyA. jagAbhAI zeTha sUrijI pAse AvyA. bahu bahu vinatie karI. Akhare eka mALA ApI : ' gaNo, karyAM karma chUTatAM nathI, chatAM dharma sAthe sAru thaze.' jagAbhAI ne daMDa teA bharavA paDayo, paNa jelanI sAmAMthI chUTI gayA. vijApuranA vatanI cunIlAla cunIlAla durlabhadAsa ela.ela. bI.no abhyAsa kare.parIkSA agAu bImArImAM sapaDAyA. pUratI taiyArI thaI nahi. parIkSA ApavAnuM mAMDI vALyu. sUrijIne khabara paDatAM emane mAthe hAtha mUkI AzIrvAda ApatAM kahyuM : < parIkSAmAM jaje. jarUra pAsa thaIza.' sUrijInI AjJA mAnI te parIkSAmAM beThA ane pAsa thayA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM 183 - sUrijIno zrI mohanalAla bhAkharIyAne ghaniSTha paricaya hato. eka vAra mohanabhAI TAI phaDamAM sapaDAyA. tAva haThe ja nahi. DokaTarone paNa ciMtA thavA lAgI. e vakhate sUrijI emanA ghera AvyA. AvIne kahyuM : "kayAM che tAva ? e to haThI rahyo che. ane joyuM to tAva nIcI DigrIe jatuM hatuM. savAre te mohanalAlabhAIne sAruM thaI gayuM. cAturmAsa prasaMge koIka vAra zrAvakene bolAvIne sUrijI kahe : "Aje sTezane jaje. koI AvanAra che. jamavAnI paNa jogavAI rAkhaje." "paNa keIna kAgaLa to nathI.' chatAM jaje." ne e divase mahemAno Ave ja. vi. saM. 1974mAM sUrijI potAnA vatana vijApuramAM AvyA. tyAM plega phATI nIkaLyo hovAthI 35 A7i : - : na For Private And Personal Use Only

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184 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI gAma khAlI thaI gayuM hatuM. sUrijI kAjumiyAM nAmanA eka bhakta muslimanA khetaramAM AMbA nIce rAvaThImAM rahyA. jaMgalamAM maMgala thayuM. A AMbA para chellAM cAlIsa varSathI phaLa nahotAM AvyAM. te AMbA sUrijInA pavitra pagale, e ja varSe phaLe. e pachI varSovarSa enA para phaLa AvavA lAgyAM. Aje paNa e A "gurU AMbA tarIke prasiddha che. varSothI baMdha kamADa UghaDyAM rikola gAmanA derAsaramAM eka bhUgarbha gRha hatuM. ghaNuM lokoe e kholavA mATe prayatna karyo, paraMtu ene koI khelI zakyuM nahi. eka vakhata sUrijI A gAmamAM AvyA. gAmanA jenoe varSothI baMdha rahelA bhUgarbhagRhanI vAta karI. sUrijI UMDI samAdhimAM UtarI gayA. dhyAna karIne joyuM to emane aMdara prabhunuM biMba dekhAyuM. bAjumAM ramatA eka nirdoSa bALakane belAvIne A dvAra khelavAnuM kahyuM. nAnA ra ja Ae jI hAM re, - - - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM 185 bALake saheja orathI dhakko mAratAM ja varSothI baMdha rahelAM kamADa khUlI gayAM. jInane jhUkAvyeA zrI meAhanavijayajI nAmanA eka suratI sAdhunA zarIramAM ekAeka jana (chana)no praveza thayo. jana emanA zarIramAM pravezIne khUba tAphAna macAvato. pahelAM tA keAI rAga dhArIne ghaNI sAravAra karI, paNa da tA vadhatu' ja cAlyuM. zrI buddhisAgarajIthI A muninI vedanA jeI na zakAI. emaNe ekAMtamAM zrI meAhanavijayajInA dehamAM ghara karI rahelA janane paDakAra karyA. sUrijI te| matrasAdhaka naiSThika brahmacArI hatA. brahmacarya e eka prakAranu` meATu baLa che. emAM emanuM maMtrabaLa bhaLI gayuM. emaNe janane pakaDAra karatAM kahyuM, ' te' eka tyAgI muni para kabajo jamAvIne dhaNu' khATu karyuM che. tArI tAkAta batAva. huM sAmano karavA taiyAra chu. havethI A munirAja teA zuM, paraMtu ho /_/ Quake

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186 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI koIpaNa tyAgI mani para paMjo mAryo, to pariNAma sAruM nahi Ave." jane khUba dhamapachADA karyo. bhalabhalAnA chakkA chUTI jAya tevA e dhamapachADA hatA, paraMtu zrI buddhisAgarajInI prabaLa tAkAta pAse janane namavuM paDayuM. sAdhurAja sadAne mATe e jananI parezAnImAMthI mukta thayA. bhaviSya bhAkhI dIdhuM sAcA yogIne mATe bhaviSya e khullI kitAba jevuM hoya che. bhAvine bhedatI emanI najara koIne AgAhIrUpa lAge kharI, paNa emane bhaviSyane khALavA javuM paDatuM nathI. bhaviSyanI ghaTanAe emanI sAme sApha-sApha UbhI hoya che. mANasAnA eka sajajanano putra risAIne gherathI cAlyo gayo. emane zrI buddhisAgarasUri para bhAre AsthA. AvIne sUrijIne potAnI vItakakathA kahI, tyAre sUrijIe javAba :: = = = = For Private And Personal Use Only

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AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM Apyo ke, "bahu ciMtA karaze nahi. thoDA divasamAM ja tamArA putrano patra Avaze." thayuM paNa evuM ja. ATha divasa bAda kalakattAthI emanA putrane kAgaLa maLyo ane teo tyAM jaIne ene pAcho laI AvyA. * eka bhAIne pethApuramAM ujavaNuM karavuM hatuM. sarijhane te aMge maLavA javAno vicAra karyo, paNa te divase jaI zakyA nahi. trIje divase gayA tyAre sUrijIe kahyuM : "kema, parama divase AvavAnA hatA ne ?' badhAne Azcarya thayuM ke sUrijIne A khabara kevI rIte paDI gaI? eka vAra sUrijInA paDI gayelA dAMtane keTalAka zrAvakee eka DabbImAM mUkI, vAsakSepathI maMtrI, tene upAzrayanA najIkanA khADAmAM dATo. sarijIe kahyuM ke tenA para pArasa-pIpaLA-nuM vRkSa thaze ane bhaviSyamAM te dhyAna dharavAne mATe upayegI thaI paDaze. Aje tenA para eka suMdara pArasa-pIpaLA mojuda che. MISTRI a ), tional ItIiE thi) For Private And Personal Use Only

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188 --- - - - - - - v bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI virala zaktathI dUra darzana pethApuramAM sAgaragaccha ane vimaLagaccha baMnenuM jera cAle. sUrijI te gacchanA bhedamAM mAnanArA nahotA. emanuM jJAnI ane dhyAnI citta te AvI saMkucitatAone kayAranuMya bhedI cUkayuM hatuM. baMne gacchanAM bALako sAthe zrI buddhisAgarasUri thaMDala, (zauca) jaI rahyA hatA. evAmAM rastAnI vacce eka sApa paDelo joyo. bALako gabharAI gayA. sUrijIe emane hiMmata rAkhavA kahyuM. emaNe rastAnI vacce rahelA sApane pakaDIne bAjue mUkI dIdho. sUrijI jIMDIla gayA. sAgaragacchavALA eka bALake kahyuM, joyune, amArA sUri kevA samartha che! sApa jevA sApane pakaDIne bAjue mUkI dIdho." vimaLagacchane bALaka A sAMbhaLIne ekAeka belI UThayo, "oha! emAM vaLI kaI moTI vAta che? rAApane te madArI paNa pakaDe che, paNa tamArA AIRT) ai -. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM 189 sUrijImAM zakti hoya teA perisamAM rahelA mArA pitA zu kare che te mane batAve teA huM emane kharA kahyuM.' thoDIvAramAM zrI buddhisAgarasUri pAchA AvyA. bALakee caDasAcaDasInI vAta karI, sUrijIe vimaLagacchanA bALakane kahyuM : ' bhAI, tArI AMkhA badha kara eTale tane badhu ja dekhAze.' bALake thADIvAra AMkha baMdha karI ane pachI khAlI. surijIe mRyuM : ' zuM joyuM ? ' bALake javAba ApyA : ' are, AMkha baMdha karI tyAre phrAMsa dezanI rAjadhAnI perisamAM rahelA mArA pitAjI dekhAyA. teone paDI javAthI phrekacara thayuM hoya ema lAgyu.' e rijIe kahyu, ' have ghera jaI netapAsa karaje. tAre ghera AnI khabara ApatA tAra AvyA haze.' bALaka dhara bhaNI gayA ane eyu tA dhera tAra AvIne paDayo hate ! For Private And Personal Use Only

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19o bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI yoganuM carama zikhara bhAvanagara samAcAra" nAmanA bhAvanagarathI nIkaLatA aThavADikanA taMtrI zrI jayaMtIlAla morArajI mahetAne to surijInA yoga-prabhAvane sAkSAt anubhava thayo hato, emaNe arijIne yogavidyAnI tAkAta batAvavA kahyuM tyAre sarijIe potAnI prANazakti brahmaradramAM kendrita karIne batAvI. temanuM zarIra taMga thaI gayuM. paganAM AMgaLAM sAva sIdhA thaI gayAM. jayaMtIbhAIe joyuM to nADI baMdha hatI. hRdayanA dhabakArA saMbhaLAtA nahotA. zvAsecachavAsanI kriyA paNa bilakula thaMbhI gaI hatI. dhIre dhIre e sapATa ane niSTa lAgatuM zarIra cAreka AgaLa UMce AvyuM. A dRzya joIne to jayaMtIbhAI stabdha ja ja thaI gayA. Aga bUjhAvI eka vAra zrI buddhisAgarasUri emanA ziSyone vijApurane upAzrayamAM koI sUtra samajAvatA hatA. For Private And Personal Use Only

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vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv wwwwwwwwwww AtmabaLanAM ajavALAM 191 ekAeka teo bolatA baMdha thaI gayA. hatheLIo ghasavA lAgyA. pAMca miniTa sudhI teo Ama hatheLIne ekabIjA sAthe ghasatA rahyA. teone A rIte hatheLI dhasatA joI eka ziSya jijJAsAthI pUchayuM : "ApanI hatheLIeAmAM khaMjavALa AvatI lAge che. khasa ke kharajavuM Apane pajavI rahyuM che ke zuM ?' ' sUrijIe hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM, "nA re nA. mane kazuM thayuM nathI. A to zatrujyamAM bhagavAnanA derAsarane caMdaravo ekAeka saLagI UThyo hato. pavananA susavATAne kAraNe paLavAramAM moTI Aga lAge tevuM hatuM. AthI baMne hAthanI hatheLIo masaLIne e saLagato caMdarave bujhAvI dIdho hato.' ziSyo te gurunI vAta sAMbhaLIne AzcaryamAM habI gayA. vijApuranA upAzrayamAM beThA beThA kaI rIte base mAIla jeTalA dUra AvelA zatrajayanA derAsarano caMdara be hatheLI cALIne elavI nAkhyo haze ? keTalAka ziSyoe AnI saccAInI khAtarI karavA TS ka For Private And Personal Use Only

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192 bALakonA (ddhasAgarasUrijI mATe jhINavaTabharI tapAsa karI. emane jANavA maLyu ke kharAbara je samaye gurujIe hatheLIA masaLI hatI, te ja samaye zatruMjayanA derAsarano caMdaravA saLagyA hatA. te uparAMta ema paNa jANavA maLyuM ke e Aga ekAeka gebI rIte AlavAI paNa gaI hatI. zrI buddhisAgarasUri pAse brahmacaryano mahAna pratApa hatA. hRdayanA vAtsalyanu` akhUTa jharaNuM vahetu hatu`. AtmAnuM divya sAmarthya emanI pAse hatuM. A badhuM jyAM bhegu N maLe tyAM je kAya thAya te Aje kadAca camatkAra lAge. hakIkatamAM A camatkAra e te AtmAnI prabaLa tAkAtamAMthI ApeAApa sarjAtI sahaja prakriyA hatI. sUrijIne mATe e mAna khATavAnu ke dAma pAmavAnu sAdhana nahetu . AtmAmAM ApeAApa satyanI je anubhUti thatI te pragaTa thatAM sAmAnya mANasane camatkAra samI lAgatI. sAcI pratibhA e svaya camatkAra che ! t For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghaMTAkaNo sthApa 17 ajJAna aMdhakAra saje che. aNusamaja Apatti lAve che. ajANu ane ajJAna mAnavI A Apattine vahemamAM pheravI nAkhe che. 13 Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir muni buddhisAgarajI vintapura, pIlavAI, vaseADA ane mANasAnI bhUmimAM ghUmI rahyA hatA. je bhUmimAM bALapaNa pasAra karyuM hatuM, e bhUmi mAtAnA kheALA jevI lAgatI hatI. emanA hRdayamAMthI ApoApa vatana mATe vahAla For Private And Personal Use Only

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194 bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI chUTatu', paNa vatananI dazA joI emanI vedanAnA pAra na rahetA. gAmegAma bhUtapretanI vAteA cAle. Thera Thera DAkaNu ane cUDelanA vaLagADathI dhUNatA leAkA jovA maLe. bhUvAA dhAre te kare. bheALI prajA vahemamAM DUbI jAya. prajAnA zarIramAM tAkAta teA ghaNI hatI, paNa anu haiyuM sAva nabaLu paDI gayuM hatuM. saMsArI kALathI AvA vahema tarapha buddhisAgarajI mahArAjane bhAre napharata hatI. emane enI pe!kaLatAnI khabara hatI. bhutanA bheMTA karavA e Thera Thera pharelA paNa kayAMya bhUta maLyuM naheAtu. bhayane leAkeA bhUtanA veza paherAvatA hatA. potAnA vatananI avadazA joIne emanu kALajuM kaiArI khAvA lAgyuM. keAI mAMmAM khAsaDu laI kabare jAya; keAI pIranA thAnake jaI pAchAtIe le, garaje game tenA game tevA prasAda cAkhe ! For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra ghaMTAkaNanI sthApanA www.kobatirth.org 195 mAnavatAnI A behAlI mahAsAdhunA karuNA bhInA aMtarane becena banAvI rahI. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir emaNe AtmAnI vAtA karI, soe ekAdane gaLe e mAMDa UtarI. emaNe camatkAranI vAteA karI; somAMthI navvANu ne gaLe e UtarI. emaNe pokAra karyo : ' aMtaramAM AtmajgyAti pragaTAvA, addabhuta AtmAnaMda maLaze.' para tu jagatanA rasa anerAha jANe judA hatA. e teA ema ja mAne ke sAdhanAnA paMtha teA sAdhunA potAne te camatkAra beI e. jyAM camatkAra, tyAM namaskAra ! potAnA vicAra pragaTa karatA e sAghurAja kahe che : ' niSkalaMka vajAMga brahmacarya Aje kAI e beyuM nathI. AtmAnI nirbhayatA adRzya thaI che. dharma sagavaDiyA banyA che. mAnyA mATe mAthu' ApavAnI tamannA nathI. sevAmAMya svAnI meTAI che.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakenA buddhisAgarasUrijI AvA samAjane dora kaI rIte? pote yuganA abhyAsI hatA. aMtaramAM jIvonA kalyANa mATe kaMIka karI chUTavAne e vicAra karI rahyA. mANasa manathI gulAma banyuM hatuM. vahemane zikAra banyA hato. durdazAne joI teo manemana vicAre che- "kalyANa ane premane jhare mAnavInA hRdayamAMthI zoSAI gayela che. citA, asaMtoSa ane IrSA Aje mAnavajIvananAM khAsa aMga banyAM che. dehanuM ja pUruM bhAna na hoya, tyAM AtmAnI pichAna kone hoya? mANasa jANe jIvatuM bhUta banyo che. bhUtane bhUta ja maLe. bIju zuM maLe?" sAdhunI karuNA ajaba hatI. e to mahuDInA derAsaranA haiyAmAM A vadI terasanI vahelI savAranA cAra vAgatAMthI padmAsana lagAvIne besI gayA. chellA traNa divasathI na khAvuM, na pIvuM, na hAjata-pANI. aMgane saheje halAvyA vinA A sAdhanA karavAnI hatI. rAjane For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghaMTAkarNanI sthApanA 197 maMtrasiddhinAM traNa divyadarzane. AmAMthI ekanuMya darzana thAya to maMtrasiddhi maLe. A sAdhune to amAsanI pAchalI rAtre traNe divya darzana thayAM, chatAM teo to e ja dhyAnamagna dazAmAM DUbI rahyA. emane saMkalpa te zrI ghaMTAkarNa vIranAM sAkSAta darzana karavAne hatA. vedikAmAMthI eka pracaMDa mahApuruSa pragaTayA. hAthamAM dhanuSa ane bANa sAthe e dhIre dhIre UMce AvyA. kAnamAM jhaLakatA kuMDaLa, mAthe caLakatA mukuTa ane hAthamAM ajeya vIratAne batAvatAM dhanuSa-bANa, keDe kaccha sahita pragaTa thayela A vIra puruSanuM darzana sAdhunA manamAM ramI rahyuM. emaNe dharAI-dharAI enAM darzana karyA. thoDA samayamAM e AkRti adazya thaI traNa divasa bAda A sAdhu bahAra AvyA. emanA mukha para divya prakAza prasarI rahyo hato. sAdhue upAzrayamAM jaIne je ghaMTAkaraNa vIranI +, : ke* * : - - - rAja For Private And Personal Use Only

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198 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI mUrtinAM darzana thayA hatA tenI mUrti dIvAla para cAkathI dorI. pachI teoe zilpIone bolAvyA ane kahyuM : meM svapnamAM nIrakhelI mUrtine tame paththaramAM bhaktibhAvapUrvaka sAkAra karo. juo, enA hAthamAM saMkalpanuM tIra ane siddhinuM bANa che. enuM eka kadama AgaLa baDhAveluM che. keDa para yogInA jevo laMgoTa che. mastake rAjAne mugaTa che. enI mUcha mRtyuMjaya che. enI AMkhamAM abhaya che." sAdhue kareluM vIranuM varNana aneruM hatuM. enI mUrti ghaDavI mukela hatI, paNa jamAne sahakArane hato. zilpIo rAta-divasa madhyA. Akhare mUrti taiyAra thaI vaLI manamAM prazna thayo ke saMsAramAM mUrtio kayAM ochI che? pUjA-alaMkAranA ADaMbara kayAM ochA cAle che ke navA vadhAravA ? & . For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghaMTAkarNanI sthApanA jogIrAje madhupUrImAM (mahuDI gAmamAM) A mUrti pratiSThita karI. paNa sAthosAtha eka niyama paNa nakkI karyo ke mUrtinI rojerojanI pUjA baMdha. bAra mahine mAtra eka ja vAra, kALI caudazanI rAtre, homahavana sAthe, enI kesarathI pUjA thAya. e mATe yogIrAje maMtro banAvyA. e maMtro homa vakhate bAlavAnA. A samakatI devane nivedamAM mAtra sukhaDI caDe. game teTalI sukhaDI caDe, paNa e maMdiranI dIvAlanI bahAra laI javAya nahi, ane rAta vAsI rakhAya nahi. tyAM khavAya teTalI khAva, bAkI vahe -nAtajAtanA bheda vagara saune vahece ! gAmanI aDhAre kema e sukhaDI pAme. jANe sukhaDInuM sadAvrata bAMdhyuM. buddhisAgarajI to aDhAre AlamanA avadhUta hatA. sAMpradAyikatA ke saMkucitatA e muninA haiyAmAM nahotI. e sahunA hatA, sahu emanA hatA. : ".JS ti Lili :: Kii : invi ,' , " For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra 200 www.kobatirth.org bALakAnA buddhisAgarasUrijI vi. sa. 1980 nA mAgazara sudI bIjanA divase A devanI pratiSThA karI. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir devanuM nAma ghaMTAkaNuM. jANItA vIrAmAMnA e eka. UMcA thaMbha para eka meTA ghaMTa paNa matrita karIne mUkayo. je ghaTA Aje paNa e devanA mahimA gAvI rahI che. yogIrAjanA saMbhaLAya che. ' deva UbhA che, paNa sahuthI meATI AsthA che. manane cAkhyu rAkhA, tamArI nAvane zraddhAnA sukAnathI hAMkeA. kheDA pAra thaI jaze.' A divya saMdeza Aje paNa sAdhurAjane A vIranA pUjanane virodha karanArA paNa maLyA. emaNe ' jaina dhArmika zaMkA samAdhAna' nAmanA graMthamAM ghaMTAkaraNa matranI pUrvAcAryAe karelI mahattA darzAvI ane sukhaDI dharAvavAnI vidhinI para parA batAvI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghaMTAkarNanI sthApanA 2 91 AsapAsanA pradezanA lokonA vahemanAM jALAMo bhedAI gayAM. bhraSTa thatI prajAnAM sattvanuM dharma, AsthA ane AcAranI triveNIthI rakSaNa karyuM. hajAro bhAvikone navI AsthA maLI, sAcI zraddhA maLI. bhUta-preta ane pIranA vahemamAM DUbelI prajAne navuM baLa maLyuM. enA haiyAnI vIratA jAgI UThI. aMtaranI zraddhA pragaTI nIkaLI. hArelA ane thAkelA mananI kANI nAvane jANe tAraNarUpa daivI sahAro maLyo. A daivI sahAre AtmAnI tAkAta khIlavanAro bane e ja sAdhurAjane hetu hato. Aje to mahuDI hAjarAhajUra devazrI ghaMTAkarNa vIranuM camatkArika tIrtha banyuM che. aDhAre AlamanA yAtrALuo AvIne devane caraNe potAno bhAvabhIno artha dhare che. Aje varSe daseka lAkha yAtrALuo A tIrthanI yAtrAe Ave che. emAM paNa kALIcaudaze havana thAya For Private And Personal Use Only

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bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI che, tyAre deza ane videzamAMthI trIsathI pAMtrIsa hajAra yAtrALuo Ave che. savA rUpiyAthI mAMDIne savA lAkha rUpiyA sudhInI sukhaDI caDAvAya che. mahine sarerAza paNe lAkha rUpiyAnI sukhaDI ahIMnA sukhaDIgharamAthI vecAya che. sukhaDIne A prasAda maMdiranI bahAra laI javAto nathI. Azare paMdara ekarane vistAramAM vistarelA A dharmasthAnamAM yAtrALuonA dhasArAne pahoMcI vaLavA tera lAkhanA kharce navI dharmazALA taiyAra karAI che. ahIMnI bhejanazALAmAM mAtra pratIkarUpe be rUpiyA laIne zuddha dhInI rasoI jamADavAmAM Ave che. kALIcaudazanA divase dazathI paMdara hajAra leke A rasoDe jame che. saMsAranI bhautika lAlasAthI Avelo yAtrALa ahIMthI AdhyAtmika bhAvanAnuM bhAtuM laIne jAya che. IIIIIII che Turitius For Private And Personal Use Only

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makara 108 imare zirU 18 nAnakaDo bALaka. ene bhaNavAnI laganI lAgI. manamAM thayuM ke mAre khUba khUba bhaNavuM che, ghaNuM ghaNuM jANavuM che ane vidvAna tarIke paMkAvuM che. mAtA sarasvatInI eka chabI maLI. chabI laIne gharanA gokhamAM mUkI. savAramAM UThIne e mAtA sarasvatInuM nAma le, nAhI-gheI chabIne praNAma kare, nizALe jAya, nizALamAM gurujane A chokarA para khUba bhAva rAkhe. - sAMje nizALethI chUTIne ghera Ave. kakaDIne bhUkha lAgI hoya, khUba thAka lAgyo hoya, teya A chokaro For Private And Personal Use Only

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204 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI te ghera AvI daphatara TIMgADe. hAthapaga dhUe. mAtA sarasvatIne dI kare, pachI peTane bhADuM Ape. kayAreka nizALamAM kaI dAkhala na AvaDe tyAre bALakanuM mana mUMjhAI jAya. ghera AvI sarasvatInI chabI sAme hAtha joDI e AjIjI kare: "mA! mArA para prasanna thAva. mA ! tame kaho te tamArI sevA karuM. Aje nIma lauM chuM ke jyAM sudhI tame prasanna nahi thAva tyAM lagI pAna, sopArI aDadanI dALa ane TIMDoLAnuM zAka khAIza nahi." evAmAM ene eka maMtra maLI gayo. kaI jUnA pAnAM para e maMtra lakhela hato. mAtA sarasvatIne prasanna karavAno maMtra. khovAyelA bALakane ghara maLatAM jeTalo AnaMda thAya teTalo AnaMda A bALakane sarasvatIno maMtra maLatA thaye. e roja roja maMtra jApa jape. lakhelA kAgaLa para kadI paga na mUke. koI gaThiye ema karato SURITIUI thai che For Private And Personal Use Only

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4444444444444444444444444444444444 108 amara ziSya 205 te A bALakanuM aMtara kakaLI UThe. e baghAnA gaMda khAya, paNa mAtA sarasvatInA sogana to kadI na khAya. bApa khetI karavAnuM kahe. mana vidyA meLavavAnuM kahe. haLa kheDavA karatAM ene pustako vAMcavAM vadhu priya banyAM. pAkanI laNaNIne badale jJAnanI laNaNIne ene raMga lAgyo. A kheDUtanA dIkarAnI jJAnanI khetI sadA cAlu rahI. bahecaradAsamAMthI buddhisAgara banyA. AcArya banyA, yoganiSTha kahevAyA. saMto, mahaMto, rAjAo, tavaMgare ane bhaktonI emanI AsapAsa ThaTha jAmavA lAgI, paNa sarasvatInI upAsanAne kadI AMca AvavA dIdhI nahi. abhyAsa mAtra cha copaDI sudhI thaI zako, paNa sarasvatInA sAdhakanI sAdhanA to jIvanabhara cAlu rahI. " s For Private And Personal Use Only

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206 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI bALapaNamAM DAhyAbhAI nAmanA mitranA meTA sAtha maLyA. A DAhyAbhAI pAse pustakAnA bhaMDAra hatA. sarasvatInA cAhaka e bhaMDAramAM ekalIna banI gayA. vatsarAja chajI nAmanA bAroTanA emane meLApa thayA. bAroTane gaLathUthImAM kavitAdevI varI heAya che. vAtavAtamAM kavitA racI nAkhe. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir A bALaka manamAM vicAra kare : kavi dalapatarAma kevA haze? jI khArATa teA paLamAM kAvya racI de che! AvAM kAvyA huM na racI zakuM? tarata doDayA mAtA sarasvatInA gokha bhaNI. khe hAtha joDI prAthanA karI : '* he mA, mane zakti Apa. mAre kavitA racavI che. mA ! tArA AziSa Apa.' bALakanA hRdayamAM kavitAnI jyAta jAgI UThI. aMtaramAM sUtelI kAvyavINAnA tAra raNajhaNI UThayA. manamAM kaMI kaMI bhAveA gUjavA lAgyA. ajabagajabanI Urmi A UbharAvA lAgI. ApeApa eka kAvyanI racanA thaI : For Private And Personal Use Only

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108 amara ziSyo ra4444444vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv/www/WWWWWWWWWWWWWW... o Izvara mAbApa tuM, tuM che tAraNahAra; sAro kara mujane prabhu, te mArI saMbhALa sArI vidyA Apa tuM, duguNa dare TALa; kRpA karI mujane prabhu, gaNaje tAre bALa. jagamAM moTo tuM dhaNI, tuM moTo rakhavALa; satya mArgamAM doraje, karaje muja para vhAlA mArA sahu aparAdhane, karaje preme mAphaka bhUla cUka sudhArIne, manane karaje sApha akSabuddhi che mAharI, Ape mujane jJAna; namana karuM vaMdu sadA, Ape mujane sAna. kavitAnuM jharaNuM kevI suMdara rIte phUTI nIkaLyuM! sAhityanuM sarjana ane AtmAnI sAdhanA e emanAM jIvananAM mukhya dhyeya. A baMne dhyeyane sumeLa A kAvyathI thaye. kavitAnI kalA aMtaranI bhAvanAmAM ekarUpa banI gaI AraMbhanI kavitAmAM bhAvanA hatI, to dhIme dhIme emAM UMDANa sadhAvA lAgyuM. mAtrAmeLa ane chaMdameLathI emanI kavitA vadhAre gauravavaMtI ane manamehaka banI. - E - - - T - = = - = For Private And Personal Use Only

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208 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI sAdhu banyA. sAdhanA cAlu rahI. sAthe sAthe sAhityasarjananu ane kavitvanuM e jharaNuMya vahetu Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir rahyuM. e jamAnAmAM sAdhusamudAya ziSyAnI saMkhyA vadhAravAnI pravRttimAM paDayo hateA. jema vadhAre ziSyA ema mahattA vadhAre. zrAvakA amanA saMkhyAbaLane joI emane vadhu pUjanIya ane prabhAvazALI mAne. je sAdhune AchA ziSyA enI AchI bhakti thAya. ziSya banAvavAnA meAha vadhatA cAlyA. saMkhyA vadhAravA para najara rahetI tethI pAtratA bahu echI jevAtI. eka vakhata te evA AvyA ke jaina bALakAnI sthiti bekhamamAM AvI gaI. bALaka kalAka-be kalAka na dekhAya teA mA-bApanA haiye phALa paDatI. enI zeAdha enA gAThiyAne ghera nahi, paNa apAsare thatI ! bALakAne bhALavIne, sa MtADIne ane bhagADIne sAdhuno veza paherAvI devAmAM AvatA. A For Private And Personal Use Only

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vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv 108 amara ziSyo 209 buddhisAgarajI mahArAja vicAra kare che ke karavuM zuM ? lekamAM vAto thatI hatI ke eka sAdhurAje to ekaso ne ATha ziSyo karavAnI pratijJA karI hatI. - buddhisAgarajI mahArAjane AvI vAtothI bhAre du:kha thatuM. teo vicAra karatA ke AvA vagara vicAre thayelA aneka sAdhue zAsananuM kazuM ya kalyANa nahi karI zake. samajIne sAdhutA svIkAranAra eka sAdhu anekane tAraka banaze. pate evA ziSyo cAhatA hatA je sadA amara hAya, kadI paNa veza choDIne bhAgI na jAya. kayAreya zAsananI avahelanA na kare. emaNe manomana niradhAra karyo ke pelA pUjanIya sAdhunI mAphaka huM paNa ekaso ne ATha ziSya banAvIza, paraMtu e graMtharUpe. mArI pAchaLa je sadA camakyA kare. mArA vicArone hamezAM mUrta karyA kare. mArI bhAvanAone samAjanA khUNekhUNe pahoMcADe ane - - ga ma * :: bApaMcuM For Private And Personal Use Only

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10 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI jyAM jAya tyAM sahunuM kalyANa kare-AvA eka ATha graMthaziSyo taiyAra karIza. jJAnanI sAdhanA hatI, kavinI kalpanA hatI, ciMtakanuM ciMtana hatuM, ane paMDitoe vidvattAnuM dAna karyuM hatuM. vaLI gurudevanA AzIrvAdanuM baLa paNa hatuM. te pachI have vAra zenI? evAmAM e sAdhurAjanI kalamane vahetI mUkanArI eka ghaTanA banI. dIkSA jIvananuM paheluM cAturmAsa suratamAM karyuM. A samaye emanA hAthamAM eka pustaka AvyuM. pustakanuM nAma hatuM, "jainadharma ane khristI dharmane mukAbalo. eno hetu jainadharmane utArI pADavAno ane khristI dharmane mahimA batAvavAno hato. je emAM kevaLa khristI dharmanI mahattA batAvI hota to mahArAjazrIne enI sAme harakata nahotI. emAM sarvadharma samabhAvanI vAta hota to paNa teo enAM sArAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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108 amara zi 11 wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww tone Adara karata. dalIlapUrvaka koI tAtvika vicAraNu ApI hota to ethI paNa emane khUba AnaMda thAta. paNa A pustaka te koI judA ja hetusara lakhAyuM hatuM. ene IrAdo svadharmanI pratiSThA mATe anya dharmanI niMdA karavAno hato. jaina dharmane hINe cItaravA mATe lakhanAre pokaLa dalIlo ane juThThA AkSepo karyA hatAM zarama Upaje evI TIkAo paNa karI hatI. vaLI A pustakano lekhaka koI khristI ke khristI dharmano pAdarI nahoto. paNa eka jina hato ane te paNa vaTalela jana sAdhu hatA. emanuM mULa nAma jitamuni hatuM, paraMtu mizanarIonI mehajALamAM phasAIne eNe jaina dIkSA choDI dIdhI hatI ane jayamala padamIMga evuM navuM nAma dhAraNa karyuM hatuM. AvAM pustakothI khristI dharmane vijaya vAvaTA pharakAvavA e nIkaLyo hatA. = = = = = = = = KAR For Private And Personal Use Only

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212 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI sahunAM dila ghavAyAM hatAM. samagra saMghamAM khaLabhaLATa macI gayo hate. badhAne kArI ghA lAgyA hatA kAraNa ke eNe khristI dharmano pracAra karavAmAM jaina dharma para sAva khoTA AkSepa karyA hatA. peTa bharIne viSavamana karyuM hatuM. A samaye koNa jANe kema, paNa koInI jabAna khUlI nahIM. aMtara sahunuM saLage, paNa jIbha para uoMkAro ya na Ave ! satyanA cAhaka munirAja buddhisAgarajIthI A badhuM joyuM jatuM nahIM. emanuM haiyuM kakaLI UThayuM. jAheramAM carcA karavA AhUvAna ApyuM. kahyuM ke huM tamArA pustakanA khoTA AkSepo aMge javAba ApavA cAhu chuM, Apa kaho te samaye ane sthaLe hAjara thaIza. niMdAbAranuM hRdaya bIkaNa hoya che. potAnI bIka chUpAvavA ja bIjAnI niMdA karato hoya che. munirAjanI vidvattA te jANItI hatI. emanI vAdavivAdanI zaktithI to bhalabhalA aMjAI jatA. muni. A ja ka ka ka " mAM che ka :: Lyo ke - FI ! !! ! '' liaaN Lon ke :: For Private And Personal Use Only

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108 amara ziSyA 213 rAjanA paDakArano kAI e svIkAra karyA nahIM. siMha' cAmaDuM oDhIne pharatuM luccuM ziyALa kadI garjanA karI zake kharuM ? muni buddhisAgarajInA paDakArano kaze! javAkha na maLyA. munirAja jANatA hatA ke AvAM pustakA e tA cepI rAga jevAM kahevAya. ane teA UgatA ja DAmI devA joI e. zrI buddhisAgarajI teA palAMThI lagAvIne besI gayA. ghUMTaNane AdhAre noTabukane TekavIne lakhavA mAMDayA. barUnI kalamathI lakhavAnu N zarU karyuM. rAjameLa jevI DAyarImAM e pustakanI ekeeka dalIlano saceTa javAba ApavA mAMDayA. kAma mAthe lIdhuM eTale pUru pADavu ja e tA emano svabhAva hatA. dasa divasamAM teA emaNe e lakhANa pUru karyu. hRdayamAM saMtApa eTalA badhe ke kalama vaNathaMbhI ja vahI rahI hatI ane aDhIsA pAnAMno eka umadA graMtha jotajotAmAM lakhAI gayA. kayAMya ApavaDAI ke parina dA nahIM', kAMya AkarI For Private And Personal Use Only

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214 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI tIkhAza ke aghaTita AkSepa nahIM. lakhANanA pAne pAne emanA saujanyanI suvAsa mahe che. emAM emaNe virodhInI ekeeka dalIlane javAba Apyo hato, enuM ajJAna khulluM pADayuM hatuM, enI melI murAdane chatI karI dIdhI hatI. A graMthanuM nAma rAkhyuM-jana dharma ane khristI dharmano mukAbalo -temAM jana-khristI saMvAda." graMtha lakhIne zrI buddhisAgarajIe zrI mehanalAlajI mahArAjane batAvyo. mahArAjazrIe vyAkhyAnamAM enI mukta ane prazaMsA karI. suratanA zrIsaMghe ja pustaka chapAvavAnuM hoMzabhera mAthe lIdhuM. e graMtha chapAyo. enI nakale Thera Thera vahecavAmAM AvI. eka nakala jayamala paddamIMgane pahoMcADavAmAM AvI. e vAMcatAM ja jayamalano jIva UDI gayo. enI ekeeka vAtanuM AmAM saceTa khaMDana karavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. jainadharmanI badaI karavAnI enI . 5 AN 4. ::::: : For Private And Personal Use Only

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108 amara ziSyA mahenata ane peAtAne ja bhAre paDI. Akhare mAMthI ane bhAgI nIkaLavu paDayu. A agAu zrI buddhisAgarae dhaNAM kAvyA racyAM hatAM paNa emano A paheleA graMtha teA gadyamAM ja lakhAyA. For Private And Personal Use Only 15 surata * ekaso ne ATha graMthaziSyA racavAnA emanA bhekha hatA. evAmAM vi. sa. 1980 mAM kSINa thatA dehane joI ne DokaTare jAhera karyu ke madhupramehanA rega eTalA vadhelA che ke AvA rogI cha mAsathI vadhu na bhALe. mRtyune tarI gayelA sUrirAja buddhisAgarajI hasyA ane kahyuM, ' hajI teA mAre ghaNA ziSyA banAvavAnA khAkI che, ghaNuM kAma khAkI che.' ' A veLAe upasthita eka zrAvake sUrijIne kahyuM : 8 are ! Apa A kevI vAta karI che ? Ape zAsana para ghaNA upakAra karyA che. Apane vaLI ziSyAnA kayAM taTe che?'

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216 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI sUrijIe javAba vALyo, "bhAI, A to mArA ekaso ne ATha ziSya racanA manasUbAnI vAta che. mAre ekaso ne ATha amara graMthaziSyo racavA che. have kAma vege upADavuM paDaze." emaNe A mATe "adhyAtma jJAna prasAraka maMDaLa nAmanI saMsthA sthApI. A saMsthA dvArA pitAnA graMthaziSyane pragaTa karavAno niradhAra karavAmAM AvyA. A baDabhAgI saMsthAe graMthaziSyo pragaTa karavAnuM kAma barAbara karI jANyuM. vi. saM. 1980 mAM emaNe pethApuramAM cAturmAsa karyuM. pustaka prakAzananuM kAma khUba jhaDapI gatie cAlavA lAgyuM. aneka nakala karanArA ekaThAM karyo. mupha sudhAranArane satata kAme lagADI dIdhA. - prapha sudhAranAra thoDA divasathI Avato nahoto. sUrijIne ciMtA thaI. ene bolAvyo tyAre kupharIDare kahyuM : "mArI mA khUba bimAra che, AthI AvI zakatA nathI." For Private And Personal Use Only

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108 amara ziSyA 217 kAmamAM paLepaLanI ki Mmata hatI, saheje vila kha karyAM pAlave tema naheAtA. sUrijI thADA samaya dhyAnamAM UtarI gayA ane pachI beAlyA : ' are, jarA A mArAM e paDakhAM para hAtha mUka teA.' prupharIDare hAtha mUkayo ane jANe agnithI dAjhayo heAya tema mAlyA, ' Aha, A te khUba garama lAge che.' 6 sUrirAje kahyuM : 8 basa, te| have AjathI tArI mAtAnA tAva gayA jANaje! have bhAI, jhaDapa karaje. ApaNe samayasara kAma pAra pADavu che.' bALapaNamAM sarasvatIne prasanna karavAnuM nIma lenAra sUrirAje e ja kAje anyanI bimArI paNa peAtAnA dehamAM laI lIdhI. sUrirAje lakhatI veLA kadI dekhala teA zuM, paNa dvALiyAnAya upayoga karyAM naheAtA. palAMThI lagAvI ese. sarasvatInI emanI sAdhanA zarU thAya. ghUMTaNanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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218 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI AdhAra para emanI kalama vahevA lAge. lakhatI vakhate kadIya AThI gaNu daI ne bese nahIM. lakhavAnu mATe bhAge ekAMtamAM rAkhatA. vizvapuramAM bheAMyarAmAM besIne lakhatA. mahuDImAM paNa sAbaramatInA kAMThe AvelA jUnA keTa kanA maMdiramAM AvelA bhAMyarAmAM dhyAna dharatA ke pustaka lakhatA. A bhoMyarAnA praveza eka kUvA jevA che. temAM utaravA mATe kUvAnI na mAtra TekA ja geAThavelA che, emAM pagathiyAM mUkelAM nathI. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir upalaka najare teA A nAnA pANI vagaranA kUvA ja lAge, paraMtu e samayeArasa jagA pUrI thatAM ja lagabhaga beeka phuTanA vaLAMka bAMdhelA che. e vaLAMka pUrA thatAM ja eka khaMDa dekhAya. khaMDamAM eka ja jALiyuM, ane e naLiyAmAMthI sIdhA prakAza khaMDanI dIvAlA para athaDAya ane cAre bAju phelAI jAya. A jagA vasatithI dUra UMcI TekarI para AvelI gAMdhIdhAmama For Private And Personal Use Only

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108 amara ziSyA 219 temaja cAre bAju baMdha dIvAleAthI gherAyelI rahetI hAvAthI A bheAMyarAmAM khUba ja zAMti rahetI. AvA zAMta ekAMta sthaLe teA graMtha lakhatA hatA. AvA graMthA lakhavA mATe emaNe inDIpenanA kadI upayAga karyAM naheAtA. mAtra kharUnI kalama kre pensIlathI ja te lakhatA. divasamAM lagabhaga bAreka pensIla vAparI nAkhatA. barUnI kalameA teA hamezAM cheAlIne taiyAra ja rakhAtI. peAtAnA graMthanAM puphA paNa teA jAte ja tapAsatA. jevA graMtha taraphanA anurAga eTalI ja e mATenI cIvaTa. jevI AtmasAdhanA evI ja jJAnasAdhanA. zrImadde tyAgI avasthAmAM 108 graMthAnuM sarjana karyuM.... mAtra cAvIsa varSanA sAdhukALamAM sAdhujIvananA vyavahArA ane dhyAnapradhAna AtmasAdhanAne akhaMDita rAkhI ATaluM samRddha sAhityasarjana koIe karyu nathI. A graMthA saMskRta, hindI ane gujarAtI ema For Private And Personal Use Only .

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- ~-~~-~~~-~~-~~~-~~~-~~-~ 220 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI traNe bhASAmAM lakhAyA che. pacIsa graMtho to tattvajJAna ane AdhyAtma jJAnathI bharapUra che. covIsa graMthomAM emanuM kAvyasarjana vahe che. anya bAvIsa graMthomAM dharma ane nItino bodha sacavAya che. A sivAya saMskRta bhASAmAM paNa bAvIsa graMtho lakhyA che. "zrImad devacaMdrajI" nAmanuM be bhAgamAM lakheluM caritra e emano sauthI moTo graMtha che. baMne bhAgane sAthe gaNatAM kula pacIsa pAnAM thAya ! emaNe eka cosaTha pAnAno patra lakhyo. e patra "tIrthayAtrAnuM vimAna" nAme pustakarUpe pragaTa thayo. emanA dareka graMthanI prastAvanA e jANe graMthanA hArda jevI ja lAge. "AgamasAra ' nAmano graMtha emaNe eka vAra vAMcyA hatA. potAnA jIvana daramyAna zrImaddajIe pacIsa hajAra jeTalA graMthone abhyAsa karyo hato. karmayoga" nAmano emano graMtha joIne lokamAnya tilaka khUba khuza thayA hatA ane emaNe kahyuM hatuM ke je zrImad A graMtha lakhI rahyA che evo mane For Private And Personal Use Only

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vvvvvvvvvvvy 108 amara zi 221 khyAla hota to huM A viSaya para graMtha lakhata nahi. jaina yoganA viSayane zrImadUnA sarjanamAM pahelIvAra gauravabharyuM sthAna maLyuM. jana sAdhuomAM DAyarI lakhanAra teo sau prathama hatA ! A DAyarImAM emanA dayamAM cAlatA vicAronA ghammaravelaNathI nIkaLeluM ciMtananuM navanIta maLe che. bALapaNamAM sarasvatI mAtAnI chabI AgaLa hAtha joDIne prArthanA karanAra khuda jJAnanI jyota samA banI gayA. roja dharmacarcA cAle, vyAkhyAna Ape. divasamAM be vakhata pratikramaNa kare. keTalAya mUMjhAyelA mAnavIone mArgadarzana Ape. dhArmika anuSThAna cAle. sAmAjika pravRttio thAya. paNa A badhAmAM zrImanI sAhitya-pravRtti to satata ane ekadhArI cAlyA kare. mAMdagInA bichAne hAya toya kAma vaNathaMbhe cAlyA kare. emanI tabiyata ghaNI asvastha banI hatI, tyAre koI e emane sAhityasAdhanA pUrNa karavA kahyuM. A samaye zrImade For Private And Personal Use Only

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wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww vvvvvvvvvvwM bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI. javAba Ape : mAruM lekhanakArya te mArI jiMdagInA aMta sudhI lagabhaga cAlu ja raheze." sarasvatInI kevI sAcA dilanI upAsanA ! temanA samayanA vikhyAta sAhityakAree zrImadUnA sAhityanI mukta ane prazaMsA karI hatI. lokalADIlA navalakathAkAra zrI ramaNalAla vasaMtalAla desAIe kahyuM : "zrI buddhisAgarajInuM sAhitya eTale? ene hiMdu paNa vAMcI zake, jena paNa vAMcI zake ane muslima paNa vAMcI zake. saune sarakhuM upayogI thaI paDe tevuM e kAvyasAhitya buddhisAgarasUrijIne ApaNu bhakta ane jJAnI kavionI hAramAM mUkI de evuM che." Ajeya emanA ekase ATha graMtha zrImad buddhisAgarasUrinA amITa kIrtistaMbha ane amara ziSyorUpe janasamudAyamAM bodha, ciMtana ane AtmakalyANanI suvAsa vahAvI rahyA che. na For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaga-dIpaDa 19 vasaMtane! samaya hatA. caitrane! mahinA hatA. zukala catuthI ne divase vaDAdarAnA rAjamahaeNlamAM zrI buddhisAgarasUrinI vANI vahetI hatI. vaDAdarAnA rAjavI sayAjIrAva gAyakavADa sUrijInI khyAtinI sugaMdhathI AkarSAyA hatA. peAtAnA rAjamahelamAM vyAkhyAna ApavA mATe emaNe sUrijIne bahumAnapUrvaka kheAlAvyA. mahArAjAe sAme AvIne mahArAjanuM sanmAna karyuM. For Private And Personal Use Only

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224 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI e puruSAthI vibhUtiAnA e meLApa hatA. vidhAtAnI khUbI paNa kevI che? bannee puruSA karyA. peAtAnA dhyeya mATe kaThina sAdhanA karI. AsapAsanA kAdavabharyA vAtAvaraNamAMthI kamaLanI jema khIlI UThayA. eke rAjanuM pada prApta karyuM hatuM. bIjAe saMta tarIke satra nAmanA meLavI hatI. o. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir vaDAdarAnA nareza sUrijIne vaMdana karIne lakSmIvilAsa rAjamahAlayamAM eka UcI pATa para birAjavA vinati kare che. aneka vidvAnA, zAstrIA, darabArIA ane Akhuya rAjakuTuMba tyAM hAjara hatuM. lagabhaga doDheka hajAranI mAnavamedanI UmaTI hatI. zrI buddhisAgarasUrie ' AtmAnnati 'nA viSaya para vyAkhyAna ApyuM. pahelAM samajAvyuM ke AtmA zu che. pachI AtmAnI unnati vize rasabharI carcA karI. sUrijInI pravacanadhArA be kalAka sudhI cAlI. mahArAjA sayAjIrAve te dezivadezanA aneka prasiddha For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaga-dIpaka 225 vaktAone sAMbhaLyA hatA. bhAratanA vidvAno to emane gADha paricaya hato, paraMtu A vaktA emane kaI abhuta lAge. emanI sAdI, madhura chatAM saceTa vANI jANe aMtaramAM vasI jatI hatI. bhASaNa pUruM thatAM mahArAja AnaMdavibhera thaIne belI UThayA : "oha ! je AvA thoDA vadhu saMte bhAratamAM hoya te dezadvAra ghaNe najIka Ave." mahArAjAe sUrijIne vidAya ApI. pharI padhAravAnI vinaMti karI. emanI vANIe mahArAjAnA aMtarane khaLabhaLAvI mUkayuM hatuM. teo bIjI vAra zrI buddhisAgarasUrijIne lAvI AdarapUrvaka emanuM pravacana sAMbhaLe che ane temane khAtarI thAya che ke chellA hajAra varSamAM gujarAte pragaTAvelAM nararatnomAM zrI buddhisAgarasUrijInuM sthAna ghaNuM UMcuM che. zrI buddhisAgarasUri jaina dharmane vIrano dharma mAnatA. ahiMsAne vIranI ahiMsA mAnatA. AthI GE: For Private And Personal Use Only

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226 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI jayAre jyAre emanI sAme paDakAra khaDo thato, tyAre teo ene hiMmatabhera sAmano karatA rahyA. ekavAra suratamAM emanuM cAturmAsa hatuM. A samaye teo ane munizrI vinayavijayajI sthaDila (zauca) javA nadIne pele pAra jatA hatA. zrI vinayavijayajI AgaLa hatA. temanI pAse pulane nAke beThelA sipAIe nAkAvero mA. muni pAse hoya zuM ? munizrI vinayavijayajIe potAnI sthiti samajAvI, paNa jaDa sipAIe te emanI kazI vAta sAMbhaLI nahi. eNe munirAjane tyAM ja besADayA. evAmAM zrI buddhisAgarasUrijI AvI pahoMcyA. emaNe sipAInI beadabI joI eNe Apelo tumAkhIbharyo javAba sAMbhaLe. tarata ja buddhisAgarajIe pracaMDa avAje kahyuM : "zuM sAdhu-saMnyAsI pAsethI tAre vero levo che? jarA samaja to kharo, sAdhu pAse hoya zuM ? tane vero Ape kaI rIte? sipAIthayo eTale mANasamAMthIye gayo?? Sche For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaga-dIpaka sipAI to zrI buddhisAgarajIne pracaMDa dehane joIne ane bulaMda avAjane sAMbhaLIne cUpa thaI gayo. eNe bhaktibhAvathI praNAma karyA. buddhisAgarajIe kahyuM, bhAI, jIvanamAM hamezAM sAdhu-saMnyAsInuM sanmAna karaje. sanmAna na thAya to kaMI nahi, paNa apamAna to na ja karato. sipAIgaLagaLo banI gayo. eka vAra sUrijI pAlanapuranI najIka AvelA haNodrA gAmathI AgaLa vihAra karI rahyA hatA. rarastAmAM emane cArano bheTo thayo. enI dAnata evI ke sAdhu pAse je kaMI hoya te lUMTI levuM. cAre paDakAro karyo. sUrijI AgaLa dhasI AvyA. cerane evo jhaDapyo ke bicArAne bhAgatAM meM bhAre paDI. sUrijIe ene kahyuM : "tuM amane luMTavA AvyA hato, paNa have ame tane luMTIzuM. bela, huM mAruM te tAre ApavuM paDaze, nahi to jIvane jaIza." * nara na :: ', : kaka jara kA kA ka - + :::: , " 91 - - - ] *S - :: - - :: ::: For Private And Personal Use Only

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228 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI cera mUMjhAye. levA jatAM devAnI dazA AvI paDI ! sUrijInI pracaMDa dehamUrti ane hAthamAM rahelA daMDane joIne e DhIlo paDI gayo hato. eNe sUrijInI zarata kabUla rAkhI. eNe potAnA ISTadevanI zAkhe dArU nahi pIvAnI bAdhA lIdhI. eka vAra bharabapere vijApura gAmamAM bUma paDI ke mIrakhAM nAmane bahAravaTiye AvyA che. bhalabhalA ghara mUkIne bhAgI gayA. bhaDabhaDa bAraNuM devAI gayAM. A samaye sUrijI daMDo laIne bahAra AvyA ane emaNe lokone hiMmata rAkhavA kahyuM. badhA zAMta thayA. pachI tapAsa karatAM jaNAyuM ke e bUma ja kheATI hatI! eka vAra janetaro mahesANA upAzraya bALavA AvyA. sUrijIne puNyaprakopa pragaTayo. sabaLa zuM nirbaLane dabAve ! hAthamAM daMDa laIne upAzrayanA eTale AvIne UbhA rahyA. konI tAkAta hatI ke emanI sAme Ave ! jainonI kAyaratA sUrijIne = = 3 - - - - = For Private And Personal Use Only

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vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv jaga-dIpaka rara9. hamezAM katI hatI. teo jana bALakanAM namAlAM nAma pADavAne virodha karatA. sUrijI kahetAH "jene tribhaMgI che. emanI pAse brAhmaNa (sAdhu) che. vaizya (vepArI) che ne zuka che, paNa kSatriyanuM aMga nathI. e aMgane khIlavavAnI jarUra che." anya dharmo tarapha teo eTalo ja udAra bhAva ane AdarabhAva rAkhatA. vi. saM. 1976mAM musalamAnanA eka moTA mANasanuM vijApuramAM mRtyu thayuM. teo gAmamAM pAkhI paLAvavA sarijI pAse AvyA ane kahyuM ke jainenuM mahAjana kahe te lAge ApIe paNa Apa pAkhI paLAve. sUrijIe gAmanA mahAjanane bheguM karyuM. eka paNa pAI lIdhA vinA pAkhI paLAvarAvI. sUrijIe vi. saM. 1977nuM cAturmAsa sANaMdamAM karyuM. koI kAraNasara sANaMdanA jana ane muslima vacce lAMbA vakhatathI aNabanAva cAlato hato. surijIne 1]" * % For Private And Personal Use Only

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230 bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI khabara paDatAM teo jAte masjidamAM gayA ane baMne pakSa vacce samAdhAna karAvyuM. eka vAra teo UMjhAmAM bharAyelI kaDavA kaNabIenI meTI sabhAmAM gayA. kaNabIoe saMtane AMgaNe AvelA joI bhAre Adara Ape. sUrijIe emanuM jIvana sArU thAya ane teo rUDhio pAchaLa khuvAra thatAM aTake te mATe keTalAka TharAva karAvyA. suratamAM emaNe dubaLA kemanA lokone upadeza Ape. dubaLAonI dazA gulAma jevI hatI, emanI sAthe pazu jevo vartAva thato. sUrijIe be vakhata vyAkhyAna ApIne emane badIomAMthI bahAra nIkaLavA samajAvyA. e ja rIte bheInAmanI pachAta jAtinA lokone upadeza Ape ane keTalAke sarijI pAse dArU ane mAMsa choDavAnAM vrata lIdhAM. vijApura ane tijamAM bhaMgI bALako mATe emaNe zALA khelAvI. ' ke mA mAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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jagadIpaka 231 vi. saM. 1975 mAM pAdarAmAM mahatsava thavAne hato. agiyAra agiyAra navakArazI thavAnI hatI tyAre sUrijIe kahyuM ke, dezamAM tamArA ghaNA bhAIone eka TaMkanuM ya khAvA maLatuM nathI, tyAre tame agiyAra agiyAra divasa sudhI miSTAnna uDAve te vAjabI kahevAya? lokone sUrijInI vAta sAcI lAgI. pariNAme varaghoDAnA divase ane zAMti-snAtranA divase be navakArazIo rAkhIne bAkInA jamaNavAra baMdha karyA. teo khAsa bhAra daIne kurivAjo ane khATA khacoethI dUra rahevAnuM kahetA. eka vAra mahesANAmAM sUrijI rastAmAM AvatA rAmAnaMdI saMpradAyanA samartharAmajI nAmanA mahaMtanA mukAme gayA. teoe sUrijIne Adara satkAra karyo. baMne saMta vacce gharma carcA ane jJAnagoSTi thaI. bIje divase savAre sUrijI haMmezanA niyama mujaba lakhatA hatA tyAre mahesANAnA vRddha zrAvaka emanI pAse v6 For Private And Personal Use Only

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wwwwwwwwww 232 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI AvyA ane emaNe pUchayuM : "mahArAjajI, kAle tame samartharAmanA mukAme gayA hatA?" "hA, gayo hato." vRddha zrAvake kahyuM : "tamArAthI tyAM javAya nahi. tyAM javAthI gAmamAM amArI ghaNI niMdA thAya che." ' sUrijIe TUMko javAba vALyo: "A bAbatamAM tame na paDe to sAruM." vRddha zrAvaka akaLAyA ane gussAmAM ne gussAmAM ThapakAnA ghaNA zabdo bolI gayA. surijIe temane zAMta pADI vidAya karyA. e ja divase bapore samartharAmajI potAnA ziSya samudAya sAthe saMbUrAnA sAja sahita sarijInA nAmane jayaghoSa karatA upAzrayamAM AvyA. sarijIe temane potAnI pAse besavAnuM kahyuM. paNa samarthana rAmajI nIce beThA ane bolyA : "Apa to baDe yogI ho. meM to Apake Age kucha nahi huM.' For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaga-dIpaka 233 samartharAmajIe pote banAvelAM AdhyAtmika bhajane saMgItanA sAja sAthe gAI saMbhaLAvyA. sUrijIe paNa svaracita bhajana gAyA. mahesANAne AkhAya upAzraya cikkAra bharAI gayo. pelA vRdhdha zrAvaka paNa e vakhate tyAM hAjara hatA. bhajananI dhUna pUrI thayA pachI samartharAmajIe tyAM bhegA maLelA samudAyane uddezIne kahyuM: "huM hiMdustAnanA ghaNe bhAgamAM pharyo chuM, paNa AvA tyAgI ane tyAgI puruSameM kyAMya joyA nathI. tamArAthI emane jeTalo lAbha levAya teTalo le. cUkaze te pastAzo. pAMceka vAge samartharAmajI potAnA ziSyasamudAya sAthe vidAya thayA. badhA loko paNa vIkharAI gayA. pelA vRdhdha zrAvaka sUrijI pAse nIcA mukhe AvyA ane emanA paga AgaLa pAghaDI mUkI, be hAtha joDIne kahevA lAgyA : "mahArAja, mane kSamA karo! For Private And Personal Use Only

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wwwwwwww vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv ra34. bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI mArAthI savAre gussAmAM gametema bolAI gayuM. Apane huM oLakhI zakyo nahi. sUrijIe vRdhdha sajajanane zAMta pADatAM kahyuM : tame savAre je kAMI bolyA ho te paNa mArA manamAM emAMnuM kazuM nathI." ' sUrijI sAcA dezabhakta hatA. khAdI to emaNe ghaNA vakhatathI svIkArI hatI. emanAM lakhANomAM emanI dezabhakita, satyabhakita ane dUradarzitA pragaTa thatAM hatAM. potAnI deza vizenI bhAvanA patra, pustaka, kavitA ane bhASaNa dvArA haMmezA pragaTa karatA rahetA. kayAreka koI sAdhu rAjakAraNathI dUra rahe che, kAraNa ke ene rAjaroSane bhaya hoya che, paraMtu Avo bhaya nirbhaya sUrijIne kyAMthI DarAvI zake? emaNe svarAjyanI vAta karI, paNa sAthosAtha Atmika rAjyanI mahattA paNa batAvI. vi. saM. 1980mAM De. kUpare surijIne tapAsyA. - :: : ke sts For Private And Personal Use Only

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jagadIpaka 235 chellA cAra varSathI emanA dehamAM DAyAbiTIsa-madhupramehano roga ghara karI gayo hato. dAkatare evuM nidAna karyuM ke roga eTalo badho vadhI gayo che ke teo cha mahinAthI vadhu nahi bhALe. sUrijI hasyA. emaNe kahyuM: "hajI ghaNuM kAma bAkI che. pUrAM na thAya tyAM sudhI mRtyunI phikara zuM karavI? jo ke have kAma jhaDapathI ukelavA paDaze, e sAcuM. ' sUrijIe AtmAnuM svarUpa jANyuM hatuM. mRtyune teo oLakhatA hatA, ethI ja dAkataranA nidAne emane saheje ciMtAtura karyA nahi. emaNe to emanAM kAryo jhaDapathI pUrA karavA mAMDayAM. graMthazikhe jhaDapathI pragaTa karavA mAMDyA. bIjI bAju patrathI sahune upadeza ApavA lAgyA. potAnA vicAro sAthe saMmata na thanArA ziSyAnI emaNe vAraMvAra kSamAyAcanA karI. mAna" + UUE For Private And Personal Use Only

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236 vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv bALakonA buddhisAgarasUrijI vi. saM. 1981nA phAgaNa mAsamAM teo vijApura AvyA. vijApuramAM jyAM gurupAdukA hatI, e jamInano uttara bhAga temaNe zrAvake pAse kharIdAvI lIdho. zrAvakoe pUchayuM : "mahArAja, AvuM zA mATe ?? "are bhAI jamIna hoya to sArI, kayAreka kAma Ave." e samaye paNa sUrijInA zabdano marma koIe pArakhyo nahi. paNa sUrijI te bhAvinA bhedane sAmI bhIMta para nIrakhI rahyA hatA. vi. saM. 1981nuM cAturmAsa karavA mATe sUrijIne Thera TherathI AmaMtraNa apAvyA. sUrijI sahune eka ja javAba vALe : "bhAI, have koNa cAturmAsa karavAnuM che? jJAnayoganI A vAta koInA gaLe utarI nahi. mahesANAmAM gurumaMdira para chatrI ane maMDapanI racanA thaI emAM zrI ravisAgarajI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jaga-dIpaka 237 mahArAja tathA sukhasAgarajI mahArAjanAM pagalAM hatAM. mahesANAnA gurumaMdira paranI chatrI ane maMDapa jevA mATe AvatuM jemAsuM mahesANuM karavAnI vinaMti sAthe zrAvake AvyA. mahArAje spaSTa kahyuM ke have AvatuM comAsuM karavuM che ja kone ? yogIrAja zrI buddhisAgarajIne pahelethI ja pitAnI aMtima yAtrAnI jANa thaI cUkI hatI. te vakhate teo potAnA priya sthAna mahuDImAM birAjatA hatA. vijApurane saMgha emane mahuDIthI vijApura laI javA mAgato hato. puMdharAnA jyotiSIe vihAranuM murhata kADhI ApatAM kahyuM ke, "jeTha vada trIje ATha vAgyA pachI mahuDIthI vihAra thAya. ' sUrijIe kahyuM ke, "mAre te cha vAge vijApura pahoMcavuM che." saMghe kabUla rAkhyuM. mahuDImAM e rAte emanI nADI maMda paDI. dAkataro gabharAyA. vahelI savAre For Private And Personal Use Only

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238 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI mahuDIthI vijApura bhaNI vihAra karyo. yogIrAje vijApuramAM praveza karyo. emane eka varada hAtha saheja hAlyo ne paM. mahendrasAgarajIne samIpa belAvavAno saMketa thayo, ane dhImA rAkhyA gUjayA : "bhAI, zAMti ! zAMti ! zAMti !' zAMta mudrA sAthe jeTha vadI trIjanA divase sADA ATha vAge yogIrAjanAM nayane mIMcAI gayAM. teo unnata sthAnane yAtrika banI gayA. saMsArasarovaranuM eka ramaNIya kamaLa anaMtamAM vilIna thaI gayuM. e kamaLa to gayuM, paNa dizAe jANe enAthI mahekI rahI. mRtyune pAra karI janArA yogIne mATe mRtyu e to vastrapalaTA jevI sAva sahaja kriyA hatI. eka ghoraNamAMthI pAsa thaI upalA dhoraNamAM javA jevuM hatuM. mRtyu e aMta nahi, paNa AtmAnI unnatinuM sapAna hatuM. AcArya zrI budhdhisAgarasUrijIe anaE. jAma ja For Private And Personal Use Only

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ga-dIpaka 239 ja A vize "dharmasnehAMjali"nA pustakamAM yuM che: musAphara sau prANIo che, dehavo cheDatA; e avara tanunA vAsI thaIne, veSa letA navA navA; jaga raDavuM kone, zoka kono, kSaNikatA sahu dehanI; e nicetana ta mare nahIM, kamathI deha vare" sUrijIe kahyuM ke, AtmA amara che ane mutyu dhikkAranI vastu nahi, paNa AnaMdathI bheTavAnI ja che. Aje vana vana vIMdhIne emano AtmaprakAza jagatane ajavALI rahyo che. keIemane aDhAre AlamanA avadhUta tarIke kare che. jana ane brAhmaNa, piMjArA ane pATI2, musalamAna ane ThAkaraDA-sahu koI eka saMta ke sUrijIne AdarabhAva ApatA hatA. keIemaNe samAjamAM karelA sudhArA joIne jasudhAraka tarIke yAda kare che, to keAI emanA , ' *,* For Private And Personal Use Only

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240 bALakanA buddhisAgarasUrijI rAjakIya vicAro joIne dIrdhadaSThA tarIke emane gaNave che. jaina samAjamAM, jana paraMparAmAM dhyAnasAdhanA bhulAtI jatI hatI. e sAdhanAne sajIvana karavAno samartha prayatna karanAra sAdhaka tarIke sUrijIne adhyAtma mArganA pravAsIo oLakhe che, saMbhAre che. jyAre emanA 108 amara graMthaziSyo hajI Ajeya emanA amara kIrtisthaMbha samA jhaLahaLI rahyA che. AvA pratibhAzALI AtmAne mutyu kadIya spazI zakyuM che kharuM? karmayogI, dhyAnayogI ane jJAnayogI AcArya zrI buddhisAgarasurijI mahArAjanA pavitra AtmAna ApaNAM lAkha lAkha vaMdana. S For Private And Personal Use Only

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zrImad buddhisAgarasUrizvarajI mahArAjazrInI lakhAyelI bhaviSyavANI eka dina evo Avaze, eka dina evo Avaze, A mahAvIranA zabdo vaDe, svAtaMtrya jagamAM thAvaze, - svAtaMtrya jagamAM thAvaze. eka. (1) sahu dezamAM svAtaMtryana, zubha divya vAdyo vAgaze, bahu jJAnavIra-karmavIra jAgI anya jagAvaze. eka. (2) avatArI vIre avatarI, kartavya nija bajAvaze, aNu luhI se jIvana, zAti bhalI prasarAvaze. eka (3) sahu dezamAM sai varNamAM jJAnIjane bahu phAvaze, uddhAra karaze du:khIne, karuNA ghaNI mana lAvaze. eka. (4) sAyansanI vidyA vaDe, zodhe ghaNuM ja calAvaze, je gupta te jAheramAM, adbhuta vAta jaNAvaze. eka (5) rAjA sakala mAnava thaze, rAjA na anya kahAvaze, hunnara kaLA sAmrAjyanuM, bahu jora loka dharAvaze. eka (6) eka khaMDa bIjA khaMDanI, khabare ghaDImAM Avaze, gharamAM rahyA vAte thaze, parakhaMDa dhara sama thAvaze. eka (7) eka nyAya sarve khaMDamAM, svataMtratAmAM thAvaze, buddhabdhi ' prabhu mahAvIranAM, na to jagamAM vyApaze. eka (8) E (saMvata 1967 mAM lakhAyuM.) For Private And Personal Use Only

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zrImad buddhisAgarasUrizvarajI viracita 108thI adhika amara graMtha-ziSyo 1 adhyAtma vyAkhyAnamALA 22 gahulI saMgraha bhAga-2 2 adhyAtma gItA, AtmasamAdhi- 23 gungIta saMgraha zataka, jIvanaprabodha, Ama 24 gukhedha svarUpa, paramAtmadarzana Adi 25 ciMtAmaNi graMtha pano samAveza. 26 jainadharmanI prAcIna-arvAcIna 3 adhyAmazAMti sthiti 4 anubhavapaccIzI 27 jenaga7mataprabaMdha, jainasaMgha 5 AnaMdadhana pada bhAvArthasaMgraha pragati gItA 6 AtmaprakAza 28 jainadhArmika pratimAlekha saMgraha 7 AtmapradIpa 29 jenepaniSada 8 Atmatatvadarzana 30 jaina dhArmika pratimAlekha 9 AgamasAhAra saMgraha bhAga-2 10 AtmazaktiprakAza 31 jaina-khristI dharmane mukAbalo 11 Atmadarzana 3ra jainasUtramAM mUrti pUjA 12 AtmazikSA bhAvanA prakAza 33 jene aitihAsika rAsamALA 13 adhyAtma bhajanasaMgraha bhAga-1 14 izAvAsyopaniSada (jenadaSTie) 34 tattvabiMdu 15 kakkAvalI subodha 35 tattvavicAra 16 karmayoga 36 tatvajJAnadIpikA 17 karma prakRti 37 tIrthayAtrAnuM vimAna 18 kanyAvikrayaniSedha 38 devavaMdana stuti stavana saMgraha 19 gujarAta bRhada vijApura vRttAMta 39 zrImad devacaMdrajI bhAga-1 20 guNAnurAga kulaka 40 zrImadda devacaMdrajI bhAga-2 21 gaphulI saMgraha bhAga-1 41 devavilAsa-devacaMdrajI jIvana For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra 42 devacaMdrajInuM gurjara sAhityanibaMdha 43 dhArmiCka gadyasa graha patra sudupadeza bhAga-1 44 dhArmika zAMkAsamAdhAna 45 dhyAnavicAra 46 pratijJAnuM pAlana 47 paramAtmajyoti www.kobatirth.org 48 paramAtmadarzana 49 patra sadupadeza bhAga-ra 50 patra sadupadeza bhAga-3 51 pUjAsa Mgraha bhAga-1 para pUnnasa graha bhAga-1-2 53 premagItA 54 bhajanasaMgraha bhAga-1 55 bhajanasaMgraha bhAga-2 56 bhajanasaMgraha bhAga-3 57 bhajanasaMgrahuM bhAga-4 58 bhajanasaMgrahuM bhAga-5 tathA jJAnadIpikA 59 bhajanasaMgraha bhAga-6 kavAlIsaMgrahu 60 bhajanasaMgraha bhAga-7 61 bhajanasaMgraha bhAga }ra bhajanasa'grahuM bhAga-9 63 bhajanasa'graha bhAga-10 64 bhajanasaMgraha bhAga-11 65 bhArata sahakArazikSaNa kAvya Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 66 mitra-maitrI 67 mudrita che. . graMthagAIDa (preraka) 68 yogadIpaka yeAgasamAdhi 69 yazovijayajI nibaMdha 70 lAlA lajapatarAya ne jainadhama 71 vijApura vRttAMta chara vacanAmRta (bRhata ) 73 stavanasaMgraha 74 samAdhizataka 75 satyasvarUpa 76 saMdha vya 77 prajAsamAja ke vya 78 zAkavinAzaka graMtha 79 ceTaka prodha 80 sudanA sukhAdha 81 sAbaramatI guNazikSaNa kAvya 82 sukhasAgara gurugItA 83 snAtrapUjA 84 SadUdravyavicAra 85 ziSyApaniSad 86 zAkavinAzaka graMtha 87 sAMvatsarika kSamApanA 88 zrAvaka dharmasvarUpa, bhAga-1 89 zrAvaka dharmAMsvarUpa, bhAga-ra 90 zuddhopayoga 91 kyA graMtha For Private And Personal Use Only

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92 zreNika subedha 93 kRSNagItA 94 zrI ravisAgarajI caritra 5 vacanAmRta nAnuM 96 Atmadarzana gItA 97 jJAnadIpikA 98 pUjAsaMgraha-vAstu pUjA 99 cetanazakti graMtha 100 vartamAna sudhAro 101 parabrahma nirAkaraNa 102 zrImaMta sayAjIrAva gAyakavADa pAse ApeluM vyAkhyAna 103 jaina syAdavAda uktAvali 104 adhyAtmagItA 105 tattvaparIkSA vicAra 106 guru mahAmya 107 kAlpanika adhyAtma mahAvIra bhAga-1 108 kAlpanika adhyAtama mahAvIra bhAga-2 109 kAlpanika adhyAtma mahAvIra bhAga-3 110 mahAvIragItA For Private And Personal Use Only

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