Uttaradhyayan Sutra Chintanika

Author(s): Vanchyamashreeji
Publisher: Labdhi Vikramsuri Sanskruti Kendra
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/005817/1

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< baa VPPER zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra ciMtanikA E citikA pU. sAdhvI zrI vAcacamAzrIjI K

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namaskAra * carama tIrthaMkara prabhu zrI mahAvIrane anaMta labdhinidhAna prathamagaNadhara gautamasvAmIjIne..... paMcamagaNadhara sudharmAsvAmine... parama pavitra zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtrane.... A pavitra sUtranI niyukti karanAra zrI bhadrabAhu svAmIne kAlanA pravAhamAM AjasudhI ajJAta rahenAra A sUtranA bhASyakartAne... . A pavitra sUtra tathA magalamayI niyuktinA sahAna arthAnI vivecanA karanAra zrI vAdivetAla zAMtisUrIzvarajI mahArAjane.... 6 atyAra sudhI A sUtranI avicchanna paraparA calAvanAra mahApuruSAne 5 potAnI aMtima avasthAmAM A sUtranA chatrIse chatrIsa adhyayananA svAdhyAyamAM raNu karanAra amArA pU. dAdAgurudeva labdhisUrIzvarajI ma0 ne..... prastuta vivecana graMtha para hRdayanA AzIrvAda vasAvanAra vAtsalyadAtA pU. gurudeva vikramasUrIzvarajI ma0 ne....

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- jana jayati zAsana >> hI zrI zaMkhezvara pArzvanAthAya namaH A che hI zrI gautamasvAmine namaH Atma-kamala-labdhi sUrIzvara sadaguru bhai namaH jayaMta-vikrama-navIna sUrIzvara saddaguru namaH zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra ciMtinikA" . zubhASita dAtA- pU. pA. nitya bhaktAmara stotrapAThI tItha prabhAvaka gurUdeva vikramasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. saMpAdaka' . pU. pa. tIrtha prabhAvaka gurUdeva vikramasUrIzvarajI ma. nA vidvAna ziSya pU. paMnyAsa rAjayazavijayajI ma. sA.. prakAzaka - zrI labdhi-vikramasurIzvara saMskRti kendra - zrI caMdrakAMta e. dalAla T/7, A zAMtinagara AzramaroDa, amadAvAda-13

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prakAzaka:- zrI labdhi-vikramasUrIzvara saMskRti kendra zrI caMdra e daza) T/7-A, zAMtinagara, vADaja, amadAvAda-380013. AvRtti prathama -. nakala-2000 varSa - 2041 sUcanA :- "pustaka vAMcIne anya bhAI-bahenene vAMcavA ApavuM. jJAnanI AzAtanA thAya tema rakhaDatuM mUkavuM. nahI. jarUra na hoya te pAchuM mokalI ApavA vinaMtI, jethI anyane lAbha ApI zakAya. pustaka malyAnI pahoMca tathA abhiprAya lakhI jaNAvavA vinaMtI. dharaNendra eca. kApaDIyA rAjeza TreDarsa avaMtI epArTamenTasa, pAlaDI, amadAvAda-7. . Te.naM. 78879

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1000 pustakanA lAbha lenAra zrI supArzvanAtha jainasaMgha rAyaper3A pudupAkam (jayau vIr saccari ma'DaNa) sAcAra na-43 cillaI pillaI kAIla sTrITa, rAyapeThA, madrAsa-14

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1000 pustaka prakAzananA lAbhalenAra aneka jJAnapremI mahAnubhA pU. saralAzayI mAtRhRdayA sAdhvI sarvAdayAzrIma.nI preraNAthI 100 nakala zrImatI kaMcanabena bhAgIlAla jhaverI muMbai 100 nakala zrImatI kalAvatIbena Ara. DI. makerI-amadAvAda. 100 nakala harIndrabhAi maNIlAla mahetAnA smaraNArthe -madrAsa zrI naMdalAlabhAI tArAcaMda vArAnI preraNAthI 100 nakala vIravANI prakAzana kendra C/o naMdalAla tArAcaMda veArA 98 nepIyansI rADa mu Mbai 100 nakala cadrakAnta ratIlAla ekara sikandrAbAda 100 nakala jazava MtalAla maganalAla veArA vAlakezvara-muMbaI-6 100 nakala baLadevabhAi DosAbhAi paTela-nAraNapurA amadAvAda 100 nakala navanItabhAI sI. paTela-AzramarADa amadAvAda 50 nakala jazavaMtalAla zAMtIlAla zAhamukhaI-ra 50 nakala premajI hIrajI gAlA-sUya epArTamenTa mubai-6 50 nakala dhIrajalAla vrajalAla zAha-navAvADaja ama.-13 25 nakala caMpakalAla maNIlAla--mATuMgA muMbaI-19 25 nakala vajubhAI. vADIlAla zAha-navajIvana sAsAyaTI muMbaI 25 nakala zAMtIlAla maganalAla zAha-khombe nAvelTI sTAsa su khai-2 45 -

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samarpaNa uttarAdhyayanAkhyamya, sUtrasya zrI sudhAnidhe, pAnatA gAnatA cena, jIvana salIkRta' 5 svAdhyAyakatAnAya, paraguNakame dine, matkRte yAnapAtrAya, nimajjayA: bhAMbudho / labdhisUri gaNezAya, vAcacameti bAlikA, samapathati graMtha'hi, guruvAtsalya . lAlitA / / samarpaNu :-- uttarAdhyayananA zabde zabde vRddhatve paNa palake palake meLa karyAM te khUba harakhe harakhe te gurunA kara kamale kamale graMtha samapI manaDuM malake geAkha gaganathI kRpA tuM ja chalake... ApanI putrI samI ziSyA vAcacamAnI anaMta vaMdanA

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jeonI puNyanizrAmAM jeonA zubhAziSathI zrI uttarAdhyayanasUtra citanikA AlekhAyIte nitya bhaktAmara stotra samarAdhaka tIrtha prabhAvaka 'pUpA. gurudeva vikamasUrIzvarajI ma. sA.

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zubhAziSa le. pU. pA. tIrtha prabhAvaka gurudeva vikramasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. - AjanA yugajanmIone kaMI ne kaMI vAcana te joIe ja che paNa Aje evAM evAM pustako lakhAI rahyAM che jenA vAcanathI aneka AtmAo vyasanamAM vilAsamAM svachaMdatAmAM joDAI jAya che ane A leka tathA paralekane bagADI nAkhe che. AvAM pustaka te gharaghara ne jegejage bukaselarane tyAM prApta thaI zake che paNa AvAM azlIla ane AtmaghAtaka vAcanethI AjanA samAjane bacAvavAnI khUba jarUra che. sAcuM susaMskArI vAcane Thera Thera prApta thAya tevAM pustaka lakhavAnI ane chapAIne sahune sulabha thAya te pramANe karavAnI jarUra che. jeTalA jorathI svachaMdatAne piSanArAM pustaka bahAra paDe che te karatAM paNa vadhAre joradAra pustaka khUba khUba pragaTa karavAM joIe. paNa....evAM Atmasanmukha banAvanAra pustakonA lekhake paNa Aje jUja che. temAM paNa AvA Agama granthanAM rahasyane laIne pustaka lakhanAra lekhake te gaNyAgAMThayA ja che. temAM paNa ApaNA A uttarAdhyayana sUtra citaniko lakhanArA lekhikA te A eka ja che ema

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lAge che. dazavaikAlikanA artho ane bhAvArtho to ghaNAe lakhyA haze paNa enuM ciMtana maLe tevuM pustaka lakhanAra te ApaNuM A lekhikA sAdhvIvaryA ja che. emanI A dazavaikAlika ciMtanikA eTalI badhI adhyAtmapriya, Agamapriya ane guNAnurAgI AtmAone gamI gaI che ke A lekhikAne dhanyavAda ApatAM mArA upara ghaNuM patro AvyAM che ane temAM paNa sthAnakavAsI samAje te A pustakane pharI mudraNa karavA rajA lIdhI ane pharI paNa enuM mudraNa thayuM che. have e ja rIte uttarAdhyayana sUciMtanikA" lakhI che. je carama tIrthapati mahAvIrasvAmI bhagavaMtanI carama dezanA sAra che. A uttarAdhyayana sUtrane pUrNa abhyAsa bhavyAtmAo karI zake che tevuM lakhANa te ja granthanA prAnta bhAgamAM che. AvA uttarAdhyayana sUtranI ciMtanikA lakhanAra sAdhvIzrI vAcaMyamAzrI paNa mahAna bhavyAtmA hovA joIe. A uttarAdhyayana sUtra upara mRtakevalI caturdaza pUrvadhara AcArya bhagavaMta zrI bhadrabAhusvAmI mahArAjAe niryukti nAmanI TIkA lakhI che. paMcamAMga zrI bhagavatIjI sUtramAM pAMca prakAranA jina batAvyA che temAM zrutakevalIne jina kahyA che...emanI niyuMktimAM lakhyuM che ke-A uttarAdhyayana sUtra abhavya AtmA pUrNa karI zakato nathI... A niyuktine laIne vAdivetAla zrI zAMtisUri mahArAje

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pAIya TIkA racI che. jemAM aneka vAdasthaLo che jene abhyAsa karanAra keIthI jitAto nathI. A lekhikAe je 'uttarAdhyayana sUtra ciMtanikA lakhI che tene abhyAsa karI aneka bhavyAtmAo potAnI mekSa-mArganI maMjila jaladI pUrNa kare ane lekhikAnA zramane saphaLa kare. " lekhikA hajI paNa AvA aneka Agama grAnAM rahane granthastha karIne AtmAone mArgastha karavAne lAbha meLave. teone mArA aMtaHkaraNanA AzIrvAda che ke jinavANInAM rahasyane sarambhASAmAM rajU karavAnI dina-pratidina temanI zakti vadhatI jAya ane teo zAsanabhakita, gurubhakti ane zrutabhakti dvArA zAsana prabhAvanA karI parama padanI sAdhanAne paramapaMtha zIdhra pUrNa karavAmAM saphaLa bane. " AcArya vikamasUri tA. 3-2-85 vApI jaina upAzraya.

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10 sapAdakIya pU.pA. AcArya deva vikramasU. ma.nA vidvAna ziSya, vyAkhyAnakAra. pU. 5'. rAjayaza vi. ma. pUjya hemacaMdrAcAryAM ma. aAga dvAtri'zikAmAM pharamAve che. "vimukta vaira byasarvAnukha dhA, zrayanti yAM zAzvata vairiApi, parairagamyA tava cAginAtha ! nAM dezanA bhUmimupAzraye'ha prabhunI e dezanA bhUmi-samavasaraNa bhUminI kalpanAthI paNa ApaNA dezamAMca khaDA thaI jAya che. mAlakAza rAganI e madhurI dezanA bhalabhalAnAM dila DolAvI de che. AvA. dezanAnA pravAhamAM aneka madhurAM tattva jinezvara bhagavAnanA mukhethI sarI jAya che. pU. AcAya bhagavata hema drasUrIzvarajI mahArAja e dezanA bhUmine Azraya karavA jhaMkhe che. dezanA bhUmimAM jema aneka bhavanA vaiz nAza pAme che tema prabhunI Agama vANInA mahimA ja evA che ke e vANInuM zravaNa ane vAstavika rIte dhAraNa karanAranA jIvanamAM eka anerI zAMta sthitine prApta kare che. prabhunI vANInAM zravaNa-ciMtana ane manana bAda duniyA kaMI badalAI jatI nathI. vizva teA che tevu' ja rahe che. paNa, sAdhakanA prajJAlAka eka navA prakAza pAthare che. gaI kAla sudhInu vizva

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tene eka navA svarUpe ja dekhAya che. kAla sudhI jagata. sukha-duHkha, harSa-zeka, AnaMda-AkaMda, saMpatti ane vipatti, saMga ane viyegathI khaLabhaLeluM dekhAtuM hatuM. have sAdhakane dareka vAtanuM gaNita samajAya che. tenA dilamAM " ga" e harSa nathI, ' viga" e zaka nathI. te saMgane paNa karmanA gaNitane javAba samajI svIkAre che, te viyegane paNa eTalA ja sthitaprajJa bhAve avaloke che. jagatanI tamAma ghaTanAo chae dravyonuM vijJAna che. samudranAM kallolatAM mejA kinAre UbhA rahenArane mana jema svAbhAvika prakriyA che. bharatI ane eTane te sAgara mATe anivArya mAne che ane jarAya lepAyA vinA kyAre bharatI. Avaze ane kayAre oTa Avaze tenuM gaNita jANI te pramANe jIvana kAryakrama ghaDe che. tema A vItarAganI vANIne AtmasAta karanAra pitAnA samagra jIvanane jIe dravyanA paryAyenA saMdarbhamAM jue che. ane tevI ja svA- . bhAvika gati tenA jIvananI karI nAkhe che. pariNAme paramAtmAnI vANI tenAmAM evI daSTi evI samyak daSTi. pedA kare che ke jagata tene samyaka lAge che. vedAMtika kahe che ke jagata mithyA che. tyAre A samyaka dRSTi kahe che ke jagata te satya ja che. jagatanA pratyeka parivartana paNa satya che. mAtra A parivartana mArAmAM sukha-duHkha, harSa-zeka padA kare che te khyAla ja mithyA che. ane daSTine A miyA rAga jatAM A

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12 jagata sAdhakane evuM' apUrva` lAge che ke te apUrva tAnI mastIne nihALavA pratyeka cAhake sAdhaka banavuM ja paDe. AvA sAdhaka bhUmikA tarapha laI jatA dezanA pravAha prabhu mahAvIre jIvananA aMtima samaya sudhI vahAvyo. kahevAya che ke chellA be divasanI ane seALa paheAranI e dezanAmAM je vANIpravAha vahyo tenA zuknamAMthI ja "zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra"nI racanA thaI. vidvAneA ene vividha rIte vicAre che. paNa eka vAta te nivivAda lAge che ke temAM aMtima dezanAnA keTalAka bhAga avazya che, / prabhu mahAvIra svAmInI a Mtima dezanA 'rUpe pa'kAyela zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra eka khajAnA che. e sUtrane je sArI rIte jANe che, sArI rIte kAsya kare che te teA jIvananA eka apUrva lAbha meLave che. ApaNe tyAM vairAgyajanaka zAstro-prakaraNe ghaNAM che. pazu zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra A badhAM vairAgyabAdhaka prakaraNAnuM eka preraNAsthAna che ema mAnavuM paDe che. pU. AtmArAmajI mahArAja A zrI * uttarAdhyayana sUtrane vairAgyanA sAgara kahetA hatA. ane pharamAvatA hatA ke jene vividhatApUrNa evu eka ja Agama sukhapATha rAkhavu hAya tene hu niHzaMka zrI uttarA dhyayana sUtra ja sUcavu. khIjA Agama graMthA karatAM zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM vividhatA ghaNI che. vairAgyamedhaka sUkatA che. suMdara praznottara savAda che dravya ane guNAnI vyAkhyAo paNa temAM gocara thAya che, Ama kahI zakAya

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13 ke zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra eka ja jaina dharma ane. darzanane paricaya ApavA samartha che. A sUtro para ane A sUtranI vividha gAthAo para ghaNuM ghaNuM lekhana thaI cUkyuM che. paNa temAMthI ciMtanabIjonuM cayana karIne pratyekanI vyApaka vicAraNA karatAM citane ane vivecane ochAM thayA che. lekhikA sAdhIvaya vAcaMyamAzrIjIne A dizAne prayatna eka saphalA prayatna che. temane prastuta graMthamAMthI AvAM paMcAvana ciMtanabIjene pUrvamaharSionI TIkA ane vivecanane khyAla karIne paNa evI sarasa rIte ciMtanapatha para caDAvyAM che. ke vAcaka ciMtananA pravAhamAM AsAnIthI kheMcAI jAya. che. tadana belacAlanI chatAMya vaividhyapUrNa bhASA e paNa eka AkarSaNa che. te bIjI tarapha sAmAnya vAMcaka pitAnI jIvanakathAnA anubhavenuM pRthakkaraNa thatAM graMthanI sAthe. ekatA anubhave che. : "sAdhaka nA dilanI bhAvanA lekhikA sArI rIte jANI jAya che. ane tethI ja vAMcakane lekhana vAMcatA pitAnI sAthe kaI vAtsalyadAtA gurujana vAtacIta karate. hoya te anubhava thAya che. AvI rItanAM ciMtanabIne kAnubhavamAM ane lokabhASAmAM raju karavAno temane bIjo prayAsa che. prathamavAra lekhikAe "zrI dazavaikAlika satra citanikA nAmanI

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pustikAmAM AvAM pacAsa bIja para ciMtana vahAvyuM che. te pustakanI je mAMga AvI che, vAMcoe je enubhave rajU karyA che tethI te ema samajAya che ke A pustakanuM mAtra vAcana ja nathI thayuM, paNa aneka sAdhu-sAdhvIjI ma nI aMtaraArAdhanA ane sAdhanAmAM A pustake ane prakAza pAtharyo che. zuM sthAnakavAsI ke zuM mUti pUjaka dareka paMthanA sAdhu-sAdhvIjIe A pustakane rasAsvAda mANyo che. moTA moTA AcArya bhagavaMte e paNa A pustakanI AvazyakatA svIkArI che. ane tethI mane paNa evA vicAra Ave che ke "jyAM badhA cAle te ja mArga." e nyAye AvI zailIe vadhune vadhu pustake - lakhAvAM joIe. zrI dazavaikAlika sUtra citanikAnuM saMpAdana karavAnuM AvyuM hatuM. te ja vakhate meM sUcana karela che A pustakanI sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyamAMthI paNa khUba mAMga Avaze ane ema ja banyuM paNa che. eka sadaya munivare A pustikA vAMcIne mane jaNAvyuM hatuM "AvAM pustake Aje koNa lakhe che?" ane te kSaNe mArI draSTie paNuM avalokana karavA mAMDayuM. "zuM AvI kakSAnAM pustake lakhAya che kharAM? ane mAre kabUlavuM paDayuM. A eka navI chatAMya preraNAdAyI ane upayegI dizA che. - sAdhujIvanamAM AgamanuM bahumAna vadhe,. Agama mATe Adara vadhe, AgamanAM vacanane vAraMvAra pATha karavAnI lAlasA pedA thAya, AgamanI vANI sivAya badhuM jIvanamAM A vacanane kAranA artha

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15 adhUruM lAge te kharekhara icchavA ceAgya che. ane A pustaka e rIte AgamanI yazogAthAnI chaDI pAkAranAru ane cheM. hajI paNa navA navA ciMtakone khUba khUba avakAza che. zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtramAMthI lekhikAe tA peAtAnI ciMtanadhArAne anukULa Ave tevAM paMcAvana bIjA ja pustakanI maryAdA pramANe pasaMda karyAM che. AvAM ghaNAM ci'tanakhIjo hajI temAM che je vivecanA ane ciMtanane pAtra che. vAMcaka mAtra A pustikA vAMcI ane tenI praza'sA kare te pUratuM nathI. A Agama mukhapATha kayu na hAya tA mukhapATha karavA jevuM che. mukhapATha karyuM... hAya tA tene svAdhyAya bahu ja zAMta mane paNa saptAhamAM ekavAra A A sUtra pUrNa thaI jAya tevI rIte karavA jevA che. jee AvI rItanA svAdhyAya karatAM hAya ane lekhana ke vivecanA zakti hAya tene AvAM ciMtanakhIjo zeAdhIne tenA para vivecana karavA jevu che. jAhera vyAkhyAtAone mArI namra vinaMtI che ke duniyA game tevI vividhatA cAhatI hAya chatAMya tame vyAkhyAnamAM AvA bleka uccArIne suMdara chaNAvaTa karaze teA lAko AnaMda te pAmaze ja, 'jI, sAthe sAthe hRdayane kaIka spazI gayuM che tevA tamane paNa anubhava thaze. vaktA-munione mArI khAsa punaH vina'tI che ke vadhu nahI. te lagabhaga se ke

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base gAthAo subhASita rUpe, vividha viSayanI cUMTI tene vyAkhyAnamAM vyApaka upayoga karavA jevuM che. AvAM bedhaka vacane zrotAmAM dhAryA karatAM paNa vadhu vairAgya pedA karaze. ane tethI ja mane lAge che. ke amArA pUjya dAdA gurudeva zrImad vijaya labdhisUrIzvarajI ma. sA. pitAnA jIvananA aMtima samaye zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtrane ja mukhapATha karavA mAMDayuM hatuM AvA mahApuruSa je aMtima samaye karavuM ucita mAnatA hoya tene ApaNe AraMbha samayathI svIkArIe te jIvanane khUba ja saphaLa banAvI. zakIe. tethI mArA khyAla pramANe A graMtha mAtra artha darzana tathA mArgadarzana nathI, jIvana paddhati darzana paNa che. bhAgyazALI AtmAo te A mArgane anusaraze ja temAM zaMkA nathI. prabhu mahAvIranI A Agama vANI paranuM vivecana je kSaNavAra paNa ApaNAmAM vItarAgItAnI mastI gADI deze, kSaNavAra paNa ApaNane kalezathI dUra karI zakaze, kSaNavAra paNa jJAnAnaMdamAM masta banAvI apramatta sAdhutAne. AsvAda karAvI deze, jagatanuM rahasya chatuM karIne jAtamAM sthira karI deze, te lekhiko, vAcaka, saMpAdaka tema ja prakAzaka sahune parizrama sArthakatAne pAmaze. prastuta sutra ane tenI ciMtanikAmAM jAtane jagADI devAnI tAkAta che.

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basa, ApaNI jAta para siddhinI zAzvata bhAta paDe ane sahu saphaLa banIe. prastuta pustaka evI kakSAnuM che ke, jenuM vizeSa saMpAdana kArya hAya nahIM. tema chatAM meM mArI mati ane kSaye pazama pramANe yogya sudhArA vadhArA karI karAvIne mArI daSTie vadhu yogya ane vadhu prAmA Nika bane tevo khyAla rAkhe che. chatAMya daSTi deSathI ke rasa vRttithI kaI paNa vAkya, pada ke akSara zAsathI viruddha lakhAI gayA hoya te tene "micchAmi dukkaDuM" aMte, ApaNe sahu Agama zAnAM anerAM arka meLavI, jIvanane ajavALI, paramapada pAmI vizvamAM jaina jayati zAsana" no jayakAra karIe. eja abhilASA. paMnyAsa rAjyaza vi. mebhAreDa, jaina upAzraya tA. 10-3-1985.

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18 "mArI vAta 79 paramAtmA mahAvIradevanI aMtima vANI te " zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra.'' mArA sAdhu jIvananA zaizavakAla hatA. zizusulabha khAlyAvasthA hajI vItI na hatI. amArA saMsAra tAraka upakArI pU. gurudeva sumatAzrIjI ma.sA. sAthe vi. sa. 2007 nuM iDaramAM caturmAsa hatuM . jIvanamAM prathamavAra vAtsalyavAridhi, caturvidha saMghanA yAgakSema kAraka amArA dAdAgurudeva pU.AcAya bhagavata labdhisUrIzva 2jIma. sA. nuM sAMnidhya maLyuM. mahApuruSanA samAgame zAsa nanA rahasya| zravaNa karavAneA amUlya avasara tathA mahApurubanI bhAvadayAnA dana karavA maLyAM. pU. pA. dAdAguru deveze amArA sAdhvImaDaLane pharamAvyuM mArA vidvAna ziSya vikrama vijaya tamane zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtranI vAMcanA Apaze." jIvanamAM prathamavAra uttarAdhyayana sUtranuM nAma sAMbhaLyuM. pU. pA. gurudeve [vikramasUdharajI ma. sA] amArA jevA khAla sAdhvIone lakSamAM rAkhI uttarAdhyayana sUtranI vAMcanA dAnanA prAraMbha karyAM. buddhinI alpatA, vayanI paripakavatA athavA bhavaparisthiti nirmANa nahi thaI hAya tethI tyAre uttarAdhyayanasUtranI maulikatA-mahattA samajAI nA hatI. eTalu' ja samajAtuM hatuM ke vinayanI vAta Ave che. pU. gurudevanA jIvanamAM vinaya ane AjJA pradhAnatA che. eTaluM ApaNA jevAM nAnakDA sAdhvIne paNa samajamAM Ave tema pU.

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19 gurudeva keTaluM suMdara samajAve che. ApaNe teA nAna! Ala! gurudeva je samajAve te ApaNe samajavuM. A vicArathI abhyAsa aMge kaMika mAnasika abhiruci pragaTI. paNa, sUtranA abhyAsa taraphe AkaSa Nu nA hatu'. vi.saM. 2009nu pU. dAdAgurudevanuM khaMbhAtamAM caturmAMsa, pU. dAdAgurudevane metiyAnI takalIpha vadhatI jatI hatI. divALInA divasamAM pU. dAdAgurudevanI bhAvanAthI pU. gurudeve e divasamAM saMpUrNa uttarAdhyayana sUtra sabhaLAyuM. pU. gurudeva madhura vANImAM uttarAdhyayana sUtranuM vAMcana kare ane pU. dAdAgurudeva sUtra zravaNamAM eTalA nimagna banatA hatA ke jANe sAkSAt paramAtmA mahAvIranI ja dezanA zravaNa nA karI rahayA hAya ! ! ! te maneAhara dRzya Aje paNa AMkha samakSa khaDuM thatAM AMkhA azruthI sabhara ane che. te samaye te manamAM eka AchI pAtaLI bhAvanA thaI ke zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra kaThastha karavu: joI ..... paNa.... amArA mananI bhAvanA teA manamAM rahI. paNa, amArA tAraka pU. pA. gurudeveze eNeAsItteramAM varSe paNa mahAna jJAna sAdhanAnA prAraMbha karyAM. zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra meTA akSaranI prata prApta thavAthI AMkhe meAtiyAnI takalImAM paNa gAthAo kaMThastha karavA lAgyA. ame jyAre paNa vaMdana karavA jaIe--zAtA pUchIe. . . paNa, dAdAgurudevezane te pustaka hAthamAM laI nAnA bALakanI jema abhyAsa karatAM ja joIe. huM AnaMda-vismaya ane lADathI pUchI lauM....

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20 "sAhebajI! Apa zuM kare che? zrI uttarAyana sUtranI gAthA? sAhebajI! keTalI gAthA thaI?" A mAre rojane kama thaI gaye, pU. dAdAgurudeva paNa amArA jevA bALakone preraNA maLe eTale kahe. Aje mArI ATalI gAthA thaI. ATalAM adhyayane thayAM. "tamArI gAthA? zuM abhyAsa ?" mahApuruSanI preraNAthI AMtaramanamAM jJAnaprAptinI jhaMkhananA thaI. visaM. 2010mAM amArA pU. gurudeve nAdurasta tabIyatamAM pU. dAdAgurudevanI AMtarika bhAvanAthI prerAI zrI bhagavatIsUtranA goddavahana prAraMbhyA. pU. dAdAgurudevanI te samayanI nitya-noMdha meM vAMcI che. dara bIjA-trIjA divasanI dhamAM alaga alaga rIte eka ja vAta AvatI hoya. "amArA priya vidvAna ziSya vikrama vijaye nAdurasta tabIyate paNa gurunI bhAvanAthI zrI bhagavatIsUtranA joga prAraMbhyA che. dAdAzaMkhezvara pArzvaprabhunI sahAyathI jega pUrNa thAya. kAraNa, mane tenI khUba ja phikara rahe che." - pU. gurudevanA goddavahana sAthe aneka sAdhu- sAvInA gaddavahanane AraMbha thaye. amArA paNa uttarAdhyayana sUtra tathA AcArAMga sUtranA ega varasItapanI aMdara zaru thayA. cethA adhyayananI anujJAne samaya Avyo. kriyA thaI gaI. "eka kalAkamAM caithuM adhyayana kaMThastha karIne lAvo." mArA vaDIla bhaginIne tathA mane amArA pU. gurudeve sutra pATha ApyuM. a piNe kalAkamAM asaMkhayuM chaviya mA pamAyae." adhyayana kaMThastha karI pU. gurudevane sAMbhaLAvyuM. pU. gurudeve AzIrvAda ApyA

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21 jaladIthI uttarAdhyayana sUtra kaMThastha karaje. amArA pU. vaDIlabena ratnacUlAzrIjI ma. nI adhyayanamAM khUba tIvra gati. pU. gurudeve kRpA karI siddhahema saMskRta vyAkaraNa prAraMbha karAvyuM. mAruM mana to ghaNIvAra thAkI jatuM hatuM. paNa, pU. gurudevanI preraNAe abhyAsa AgaLa cAlyuM. ame baMne bhaginIo pU. dAdAgurudevano janmadivasa hoya, ke pU. gurudevane janmadivasa hoya, dIkSA tithi heya, kaMIka prasaMge hoya te uttarAdhyayananuM adhyayana zedhIe kayA adhyayanI pacAsa gAthA che? kayA adhyayanI ekasaTha gAthA che? te kaMThastha karIe. Ama karatAM kuzAgra buddhinA kAraNe mArA vaDIla bhaginInuM uttarAdhyayana sUtra kaMThastha thaI gayuM ane mAruM sUtrAdhyayana apUrNa ja rahyuM. vi.saM. 2015 mAM pU. dAdAgurudevanuM dAdara jJAnamaMdiramAM cAturmAsa. mAruM kaMIka sadbhAgya jAgyuM. eka divasa pU. dAdAgurudeva kahe "vAcaMyamA! je, tuM eka adhyayana reja kaMThastha kare te tane huM gAthA ApuM." basa...pachI te mahApuruSanI kRpAe jema "paMgu laMghayate giri " tenA jevuM thayuM. pU. dAdAgurudeva eka adhyayana Ape. mAruM eka adhyayana kaThastha thaI jAya. AkhuM adhyayana mukhapATha bolAve. saMpUrNa adhyayana barAbara cAle te bIju Ape. Ama sattara divasamAM uttarAdhyayana sUtranA sattara adhyayana kaMThastha thavAthI mAre uttarAdhyayana sUtrane abhyAsa pUrNa thaze. dAdAgurudeva tathA pU. gurudeva khUba khuza thayA. te vakhate kahyuM. "agiyAra aMga kaMThastha karavA prayatna karaje."

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22 0. AnaMdamAM hatA. uttarAdhyayananu chuM te huM tane rAkhavAnuM ....huM ' pU. dAdA gurudeva eka vakhata khUba ane mane kahyuM- vAcayamA ! jo A pustaka ke jenAthI huM gAthA kathastha karu bheTa ApIza....tArI ja mAlikI....tAre samajInA zakI....ke pU. gurudeveza A dvArA mane zuM pharamAvI rahyAM che...! ! ! bAdamAM te vi. sa. 2017nA aSADha suda pAMcamathI pU. dAdA gurudevezanI takhIyata muMbaImAM khUba agaDI. pU. dAdAgurudevezanA aMtima samAdhinA divase sevAmAM lIna pUjya AcArya bhagavaMta jayaMtasUrIzvarajI ma. pU. gurudeva vikramasUrIzvarajI prema. navakAramaMtranI dhUna.... uttarAdhyayana sUtrane maMgalapADa....mane atyAre paNa yAda che vi. saM. 2017nA zrAvaNa suda ekamanA divasa...vAcayamA tuM eTala." aNuvasi mahAsi" uttarAdhyayana sUtranuM pAMcamuM adhyayana....adhyayana khAlI paNa artha sAkSAtkAra thAya nahi. pU. pAda gurUdeve paNa punaH eja adhyayana prakAzyuM. tyAre je bhavyatA ane divyatA patharAyelI hatI te zabdAtIta che pU. dAdAgurudeva AdhyAtmika vArasadAra samA ziScAne cheADIne meAkSamAge saMcaryAM. pU. AcArya bhagavaMta jayaMtasUrIzvarajI ma. tathA pU. gurudeve mArA para kRpA karI. pU. dAdAgurudevanuM uttarAdhyayanasUtranu' pustaka mane ApyuM. keTalAMya varSo sudhI eja pustakathI uttarAdhyayanasUtranA pATha kyAM. amArA pUjya mATA ma.sA. sarvAdayAzrIjI mahArAje

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pU. dAdAguruvezanA priyasUtranuM prakAzana karAvyuM. amArA jJAna sAdhanAmAM rata vizALa sAdhvI maMDaLe uttarAdhyayana sUtrane nAda guMjita karyo. pratidina sUtrapATha-arthapAThasvAdhyAya thavAM lAgyAM. amArA pUjaya gurudevanI sadaiva preraNA rahe che-"sutra upara maulika ciMtana kare..." - pU. pAda gurudevanA dIkSA paryAyanI ardhazatAbdI prasaMge zrI dazavaikAlika sUtranuM ciMtana AlekhAyuM. pU. pA. gurudevanI preraNA-protsAhana jJAnArAdhanAmAM sadA rahyA che. vi. saM. 2036nA jeTha suda trIja nA divase amArA pU. gurudevane ardha zatAbdI mahotsava kupAka tIrthamAM ujavAyela. meM paNa te nimitte vaSItapa karela. pAraNAnA divase pU. gurudevanI AjJA lIdhI. "huM kaMIka abhigraha rAkhuM? mArA abhigraha pUrNa thAya te pAraNuM karavuM." pUjya gurudeve daza kalAkanI mudata ApI. jeThasuda trIjanA brAhmamuhUrtamAM mANijyasvAmInA darzana karyA prabhunA darzana karatAM jevA bhAve thayA te bhAve pramANe bAra abhigaha dhAryA. lakhIne kavara baMdha karyuM. eka thI be vAgyA sudhImAM nava abhigraha pUrNa thayA. traNa abhigraha bAkI hatA. eka amArA abhyAsI bAlamuni ajitayaza mahArAje nava kalAka abhyAsane abhigraha laI mAro abhigraha pUrNa karyo. amArA vaDIlabene kahyuM vAcaMyama! je, have tAre uttarAdhyayana sUtra upara lakhavAnuM che, hoM !! AthI mAre agiyArame abhigraha paNa pUrNa thaye.

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pU. gurUdeva koIpaNa niyama mArA durNa dUra karavA mATe Apo."- A mAre bArame abhigraha hato ane pU. gurUdeve paNa khudanI chAe mane abhigraha. e. Ama, mArA bAra abhigraha pUrNa thayA have zrI uttarAdhyayana sutra upara lakhavAnuM e nizcita thayuM. varSonI AMtarika bhAvanA hatI uttarAdhyayana sUtra upara ciMtana-manana karavAnI..paNa, pramAda ane aniyamitatA e mArA bhayaMkara durtha che. bhAva pramANe kArya thAya nahi. pUjya gurudevanI preraNA satata cAlu rahI. vi. saM. 2038nA madrAsamAM cAturmAsa hatuM. cAturmAsa daramyAna mAmbalamamAM javAnuM thayuM. mahApramAvika zAMtinAtha prabhunuM sAmrAjya. zAMta ane AlhAdaka vAtAvaraNamAM zrI uttarAyasUtranuM Alekhana zarU karyuM. be cepTara lakhAyA ane tapasvI sArI nayapakvAzrIjI tathA sudhAMzuyazAzrIjInI tabIyata nAdurasta thavAthI madrAsa zaheramAM javAnuM thayuM. prAraMbhela kArya pUrNanA thayuM. mAmbalama kSetra sAthe paNa koIka ajabane saMbaMdha che. "dazavaikAlikacitanikA Alekhanane paNa prAraMbha tyAM thaye. pUrNa nA thayuM. uttarAdhyayana sUtra aMge paNa ema ja thayuM. vi. saM. 2039 pU. gurudeva saparivAra madrAsathI ogaNIsase kilomITarane vihAra karI gujarAta pahoMcyA. mAre pU. gurUdevanI AjJAthI cauda sAdhvIjI sAthe haidrAbAda pIlakhAnA jinamaMdiranAM khAtamuhUrta-zilAnyAsa prasaMge javAnuM thayuM. amAre gujarAtane vihAra nizcita hate.

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25 haidrAbAda-sikadrAkhAda saMghanI vina Mti pUjya gurudeve mAnya karI ane mane AjJA karI ke cAturmAsa haidrAbAda-sikaMdrAbAda karA." vaizAkha suda khIjanA "mahAtI kulapAkamAM" AvyA. mANikayaprabhunA darzana karyA. te ja divase amArA pU. gurudevanI AjJAthI amArA pU. gurubaMdhu rAjayazavijayajI mAnA putra Aze. * "pUjya gurudeva ghaNIvAra yAda kare che . vAca yamA ! uttarAyana sUtra uparanuM lekhana kacAre pUrNa karaze ?" anI zake te tame A vakhatanI kula5Aka tIrthanI sthiratAmAM A kArya pUrNa kare. be cAra divasa vicAra karyAM. cAlI rahelA aneka kAcane sameTayAM, kalpAka tItha nA itihAsanI out line karyAM pachI uttarAdhyayana sUtranuM Alekhana karavuM hatuM. sAthe rahela sAdhI maMDaLanA sahakAranI paNa khUba jarUra hatI. badhA sAdhvIe sahakAra ApyA. kAi svAdhyAyamAM, koI jApamAM, koi adhyayanamAM, koi vAMcanamA joDAyA. vayevRddha sAghvI kulayazAzrIjI rAja lekhana ceAgya vAtAvaraNa taiyAra karI, pena-pepara-pANI vigere Avazyaka jarUriyAtanuM dhyAna rAkhavA lAgyA. vaizAkha suda AThamanA divase uttarAdhyayana sUtranA ci'tananA prAraMbha karyAM, vaizAkha vada AThamanA lekhana pUrNa thayuM. amArA pU. gurudevanuM cApanamu` varSa` prAraMbha thavAnu hatu, te nimitte uttarAdhyayana sUtranA ceApana vividha pado upara lekha lakhyA. kharekhara uttarAdhyayana sUtra upara ciMtana-manana karavA * jeTalI mArI buddhi kayAM ? paNa, eka ja zraddhA ane vizvAse

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26 lakhatI gaI....pU. gurudeva mArA para kRpA karI sAdyata vAMcaze ane pU. gurubaMdhu panyAsa rAjayazavijayajI ma sA. sapAdana karI Apaze. zrI devAdhideva vItarAga prabhu mANikayasvAmInI parama pavitra chAyA...adhiSThAyaka devAnI sahAya....eTale lekhana kAya cAlyuM. te samayanI garamI paNu asahraya....chatAMya pena hAthamAM lauM ne prasannatAnuM sAmrAjya phelAI jatuM hatu. mArA abhyAsa alpa, bauddhika pratibhA paNa nahi. paNa, gurukRpAnA sahAre Alekhana prAraMbhyuM. zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtranA subhASitA jou ane kayAreka prabhunu' a Mtima samavasaraNa dekhAya. ane lAge ke jANe tyAM ja pahoMcI gaI che. ane sAkSAt prabhu mane pharamAvI rahyA che ! ! ! kayAreka evuM lAge ke amArA pU. dAdAgurudeva mane Adha ApI rahyAM che. tA kayAreka evA bhAsa thAya ke mArA pUjaya gurudeva mane hitazikSA ApI rahyA che !! A bhAvasRSTimAM vibhera banIne lakhatI hatI. mArA AtmA sUtranA rahasyane pAme e ja hitabhAvanAthI ciMtana Alekhyu che, prabhu zAsana maMgalamaya che. prabhu zAsananA catuvidha sadha ma Mgalamaya che. dISa pAtra hoya te mArA AtmA . che. 5'cama ArA che. mArA dASAnu nivAraNa thAya eja bhAvanA.'' prabhu AjJA viruddha-mahApuruSanA zubha bhAva viruddha lakhAyu hAya te avazya mArI zuddhi karo, A ciMtanamAM kaI paNa zubha hAya teA tenuM zraya mArA tAraka pU. gurudevane che. truTi mArI che. huM teA ajJa chuM. sujJa ! ajJa evI mane sadA kSamA bakSe...

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27 A lekhanathI mArI laghu bhaginI sAdhvI zubheA dayAzrIne tathA amArA jJAnI dhyAnI sAdhvI maMDaLane AnaMda thaze. pU. gurudevanA zubhAziSe ane amArA pU. meTA mahArAjanA saMcAlane A sAdhvImaMDaLa sadA jJAna dhyAnamAM rata che. sAce A lekhana e mArA tAraka gurudevanI . kRpAnuM phaLa che. te mArA pU. vaDIla (saMsArI mAtA) upakArI sarvAdayAzrImahArAje karelI niSkAma zAsanasevA ane gurubhaktinA prabhAve che. amArA ceAgakSetramAM temaNe je zrama lIdhe che te kathya nathI paNa stutya che. dho. Yo... zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtranI ciMtanikAnuM. meTara gurudevanA saMyamanA 54 varSanA aMtima dine khaMbhAtamAM... meAkalALyuM. pU. gurudeve svIkAyu`. gurucaraNAM ziSya--ziSyAnI sadA prA'nA hAya. vAtsalya mUrti gurudeva sadA jJAnanA pradAna kare--sadA mArgoMdana kare. mArI aMtaranI bhAvanA hatI pU. gurudeva kRpA karI mane sAdyaMta sudhArI Ape. pU. gurudevanI paNa hRdayanI bhAvanA hatI. saMpUrNa` zeAdhI ApavAnI....paNa....mAru puNya... pU. gurudevane anekavidha zAsanakAyanI javAbadArI, gacchanA saMcAlananI viziSTa -- kAya vAhI, sAthe nAdurasta tabIyata....doDha varSa sudhI lekhana .. phAila ema ja rahI. chevaTe pUjya gurudeve AjJA pharamAvI, vAcayamA ! paMnyAsa rAjayazavi. saMpAdana karI Apaze. pU. gurudevanI AjJAthI ane hRdayanI zubhabhAvanAthI ja amArA pUjaya gurubaMdhu rAjayaza vi. mahArAje saMpAdana ..

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28 kArya svIkAryuM. satata pravRtti-viziSTa javAbadArI hevA ' chatAMya zAMtinagara (amadAvAdamAM saLaMga samaya ApI akSarazaH saMpAdana karavA teoe khUba ja zrama lIdhe. - temanA saMpAdane ja A ciMtanane navatara 25 maLyuM. AtmIya vyaktinA AbhAra zI? pratidina prArthanA... sadA sahAyaka banaje..." . A graMthanI prathama sAdaMta kepI sAthvI arvat padmAzrIjIe karI. bAdamAM presa kepI sAdhvI tIrthayazAzrI, -sAvI prajJaptiyazAzrI ane sAdhvI divyayazAzrIe karI. A graMthanuM prapha saMzodhana sAdhvI punitayazAzrI tathA sAdhvI - tIrthayazAzrIe karyuM. Ama amArA sAdhvI maMDaLanI zubhecchA - sahakAre A graMtha janatA samakSa AvI rahyo che. paNa, - graMthanI zobhA te amArA tAraka pU. gurudevanA zubhAziSathI ja che. punaH punaH natamastake guru caraNamAM eka ja prArthanA.... huM ApanA AzIrvAdane yogya banuM. sUtrane Adarza - mArAmAM sajIvana thAya. prabhu zAsananA caraNe sarvasva - samarpita rahe eja sadAnI namra bhAvanA. guru caraNareNu sAdhvI vAcaMcamAzrI. jaina upAzraya, devakInaMdana sosAyaTI, amadAvAda, 6 vi. saM. 2041 mA. su. 5 tA. 26-1-1985

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prakAzakIya zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra citanikA pragaTa karatAM ame anero AnaMda anubhavIe chIe. zrI dazavaikAlika sUtra ciMtanikAnI bIjI AvRtti paNa ame hamaNAM ja prasiddha karI che. labdhi prazna bhA. bIje paNa prasiddha thaI cUkaye che. A uttarAdhyayana sUtra Ama te sAdhu bhagava MtanA adhikArano graMtha che. paNa lekhikA pU. sAdhvIjI mahArAje je rItane ciMtana pravAha vahAvyo che tethI te samasta sAdhu jagatane upakArI hAvAnI sAthe zrAvaka zrAvikA vargamAM paNa adhikArane catha banyA che ane abhinava bhASAmAM A Agama arka saha sudhI pahoMcatA thayA che. amane zrI dazavaikAlika sUtranI bIjI AvRtti prakAzita karavAnA bhAvika ane khAsa karIne khUba ja madhyastha pariNAmI sthAnakavAsI jaina saMghanA bhAIo taraphathI anurAdha thatA . hatA. tevI ja rIte prastuta prakAzana aMge paNa te guNAnurAgI AtmAone khUba Agraha hatA. jo A graMthanu prakAzana ame yathAzIghra karI zakyA hAta te Aje tA. ame zrI AcArAMga ciMtanikA ne prakAzita karI zakayA hAta. 22 A uttarAdhyayana sUtranI ci'tanikA lekhikA pU. sAdhvIjI vAra yamAzrIjI e pU. gurudevanA pacAvanamAM sayamavarSa nA AMkhane Alekhita karI hatI. ane Aje vaDodarA zaheramAM pUjaya gurudevanI chappanI dIkSA tithi . .

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30 * nimitte ame A graMthanu prakAzana karI rahyA chIe. te pazu eka suMdara caiAga che. parama prabhAvika pUjya gurudeva vikrama sUrIzvarajI * ma. ne paNa parama puNyAya che ke prativaSa pUjyazrInI dIkSA tithi khUba ja suMdara rIte ujavAya che ane ame sahu bhaktajanA sahita aneka zAsana bhakta puNyAtmAne tapa-tyAga--saMyamamAM 'pragati karavAnI preraNA maLe che. - zrI rAyapeThA jainasa gha.... kavie e gAyuM che ane hajAra! gujAravAthI e nAda gujita thayeA che ke.... jinakI labdhi se vikasita hai, dakSiNakA yaha deza hamArA, - labdhi sUrIzvara gurUvara pyArA, vaMdana unake keDiTa humArA u dakSiNa bhArata pU. A. deva labdhisUrIzvarajI ma. nA labdhivaMta ziSya praziSyAthI khUba khUba vikasita thayuM che. dharmArAdhanA ane saMskAramAM AgaLa vadhyuM che. mAtra madrAsamAM ja dasa jinAlayeAnI zubha pratiSThA pU. dAdA gurU deva labdhi sU. ma. nA kRpAvaMta ziSya parama zAsana prabhAvaka nitya bhaktAmara statra samArAdhaka pU. A. deva zrImahU vijaya vikrama sUrIzvarajI ma. nA zubhahaste thayela che. A zAsana prabhAvanAnI hAramALAmAM zrI rAyapeThA zrI jaina saMgha paNu sadA joDAyela che. A bhavya madvirane pratiSThA mahAtsava paNa madrAsa zaheranI aneka zAsana .

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31 prabhAvanAmAMthI eka yAdagAra zAsana prabhAvanA hatI. A pratiSThA mahotsava pUrve AkhAya saMghamA eka dharma caitanyanuM nirmANa karavA tIrthaprabhAvaka pU. gurUdeve sAdhvI sarvodayAzrI ma. nA nizrAvata sA. vasupadhAzrIjI sA. kulayazAzrIjI ane sA divyayazAzrIjIne cAturmAsa mATe mokalyA hatA A traNeya zAMta-dAMta--ane vinayI sAdhvIjInI nizrAmAM rAyapeThA zrI saMghe khUba ja suMdara ArAdhanA karI hatI. A ArAdhanAnA harSollAsa rUpe zrI rAyapeThA saMghe rU. 10,000 nI rakama potAnA jJAnakhAtAmAMthI samapIne prastuta prakAzanamAM lAbha lIdhe che. saMsthA zrI saMgha rAyapeThA tathA AgevAna TrasTI gaNa tathA upadezaka pU. sAdhvIjI mahArAjAone khUba ja AbhAra mAne che. AvA suMdara prakAzanomAM sahAyabhUta thanAra sahunI punaHanamedanA. prastuta prakAzananI 1000 kopIone prasiddha karavAmAM jeonA dhanadAnane suMdara phaLe che teonA nAma -nIce prasiddha karavAmAM AvyA che. pU. saralAzayI mAtRhadayA sAdhvI sarvodayAzrI ma. to labdhivikema sUrIzvarajI saMskRti kendranI pAyAnI IMTa che. saMsthAne saMva rIte saddhara karavAmAM temanI preraNA pUba ja AgavI ane maulika che. prastuta pustakamAM paNa 100 nakala pU. mA ma. nI preraNAthI zrImatI kaMcanabena bhegIlAla a hazvivirati sa tata pustaka mAgIlAla

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32 jhaverI muMbaivALAnA AtmazreyArthe teonA putravadhu De. hasumatIbena cArUbena tathA sunItAbene lAbha lIdheA che. 100 nakalanA lAbha zrImatI kalAvatIbena Ara. DI. makerInA zreyArthe teonA putravadhu rhaMsAbena, kailAsabene lAbha lIdhe; che. tathA 100 nakalanA lAbha zrI harendrabhAI maNIlAla mahetAnA smaraNArthe zrImatI savitAbena harendrabhAI mahetA madrAsavALAe lIdhe che. tathA zrI naMdalAlabhAI vArAnI preraNAthI vIravANI prakAzana kendra C/. na MdalAla tArAcaMda vArA-muMbai, caMdrakAMta ratIlAla e'kara-sikandrAbAda, jazava talAla maganalAla verA -mubai, khaLava tabhAI DosAbhAI paTela--amadAvAda, jazavaMtalAla zAMtIlAla zAha muMbaI, premajI hIrajI gAlA sukhai, dhIrajalAla vrajalAla zAha--amadAvAda, caMpakalAla maNIlAla--mukha, vajubhAI vADIlAla zAha--muMkhai, zAMtIlAla maganalAla zAhu--muMbaivALAe lIdheA che paraMtu saMsthA A dAnavIro ne jeTalA abhinaMdana Ape che teTalA ja abhinaMdana parama sAhitya premI zrI naMdalAlabhAI veArAne Ape che teonI bhavya sAhitya dhagaza, jinazAsanane prema, ane satyanI nira Mtara zeAdha, vahavaye paNa eka yuvAna jevuM joma, khUba khUba khUba anumedanIya che ame sasthA taraphathI A dAtAomAMthI koinAthI paNa bhAgye ja paricita chIe; A dAtAone jJAnapipAsuone A ',

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33 mArga tarapha vALavAnuM puNyamaya kArya zrI naMdalAlabhAI e ja karyu che. khasa, tenI A sAhitya sAdhanA ane Atma sazeAdhanA sadAya yazasvI ane e ja zubha bhAvanA. zrI dazavaikAlika ciMtanikAnI kopIe mATe je bhAre sapATa paDaye hateA. ane ame bhAvikAne nakala pahoMcADI zakayA na hatA. te anubhavane khyAlamAM rAkhIne ame prastuta pustikAnI kula 2000 nakaleA chapAvI che. chatAMya amane sa Mdeha che ke ame sahune kopIe paheAMcADI zakIzuM ke nahIM. tethI jeone pustikAnI jarUra hAya teo turata ja amane jANa kare. A pustikAnuM mudraNa karavAmAM zrI dharaNendrabhAie paNa sAro sahakAra ApyA che, te badala, dhanyavAda ! punaH pUjaya gurUdevane prAthanA ke lekhikA pU. sAdhvIjI mahArAja pAse Agama graMtha taiyAra karAvI saMpAdana karAvI amane yathA zIghra prakAzana mATe pahoMcADe. ame paNa AzA rAkhIe chIe ke, Apa sahunA jIvanamAM prastuta pustikA je kaI prazasta tenI anumedanAthI ame sahu pAvana banIe. bhAva sarje. E mukhyamatrI zrI rAjendrabhAI e. dalAla (sikaMdrAkhAda ) tathA prakAzana maMtrI zrI dinezabhAI esa. zAha ( Ismatura ) 00

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saMsthA-paricaya nAma : zrI labdhivikrama sUrIzvarajI saMskRti kendra uddezya : prastaka prakAzana, zibira Ajana, temaja samya - jJAnapracAra. . sthApanA : bIjApura, Ase suda 10 vi. saM. (rajIsTrezana AzIrvAdadAtA zAMtamUti pUjya AcAryadeva zrImad vijya navInasUrIzvarajI ma. sA... preraka : vidvAna vaktA pU. paMnyAsa zrI rAjayazavijayajI ma. sA. TrasTIgaNa menejiMga TrasTI : (1) zrImAna rAjendra e. dalAla - sikaMdrAbAda (2) zrImAna mANekacaMdajI betAlA-madrAsa (3) zrImAna tArAcaMdajI cAraDIyA haidrAbAda prakAzanamaMtrI : () zrImAna dinezabhAI zAMtilAla zAha keImbatura (5) zrImAna caMdrakAnta e. dalAla, amadAvAda mAnadakAryakara : zrI mahendrakumAra tulasIdAsa kendrAkaTara, pAlaDI, amadAvAda-7 saMsthAnA peTrane H yAdI AgaLanA pRSTha para Apela che. sa : aneka vizeSa dAtAo sahita bhAratabharamAM A saMsthAnA 47pa lagabhaga dAtA che. saMparka sthaLa : zrI rAjendra e. dalAla

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gAlA dAtAonI zubhanAmAvali zrI labdhi-vikama-sUrizvarajI saMskRti kendra amadAvAda-13 saMsthAnA dAnavIra peTenonI zubhanAmAvali 1. zrI esa. kapUracaMdajI hasta H zrImAna DuMgaramalajI), beMgalera 2. zrI khImacaMdajI beMgAra 3. zrI mizramalajI navAjI [ha. lAlacaMdajI), madrAsa 4. zrImatI jayAbena kapuracaMdajI sutariyA hi ramezabhAI, madrAsa 5. zrImAna kAMtilAla je. zeTha, madrAsa 6. zrImAna durlabhajIbhAI raNachoDadAsa TaMkArAvAlA, madrAsa 7. zrImAna mANekacaMda amaracaMdajI betAlA, madrAsa 8 zrImAna DhaDDA enDa hi. mehanacaMdajI), madrAsa 9. zrImAna maMgaladAsajI caudharI hi. sUrajamalajI], kalakattA, 10. zrImAna vaccharAjajI megharAja kavarADAvAlA, madrAsa 11. zrImAna vinedakumAra bAbulAla hi. suMdarabena, madrAsa 12. zrImAna, milApacaMdajI jetalamajI jena, dilhI 13. zrImAna rUpacaMdajI maraDiyA (ha. latAbena, madrAsa 14. zrImAna lakhamazI ghelAbhAI hi. dhanajIbhAI, haidrAbAda

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36 15. zrImAna khImaca bhAI ujamazIbhAI, kalakattA, 16. zrImAna aravidabhAi ratilAla zeTha, koImbatUra saMsthAnA anya dAnavIrInI nAmAvali 1. zrI embe sTIla hAusa madrAsa 2. zrI hIrAcaMda ratanacaMda nahAra, madrAsa 3. zrI jatanacaMdajI DAgA, madrAsa 4. mAtRzrI javalabena [ha. jinadAsabhAI] sAyana~mu khai A sivAyanA A sasthAnA lagabhaga 475 sabhya che amArA A dAtAone zatazata dhanyavAda.

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37 anukramaNikA zrI uttarAdhyanasUtra na khar'padanu nAma' (1) seviNIetti vuccaI (ra) pasAyae te hu durAsa pi (3) uciTUo guru' sayA (4) ramae paDie sAsa (5) apANa... pina kevae (6) Ayariya* kuviya' naccA (7) pasannA lAbhaIsa'ti (8) nANI ne piradevae (9) tamhA bhikkh na sajale (10) maNuM pi na paesae ' (11) naDthi jIvasa nAseAtti (12) alAbheA ta na tajjae (13) na tesi pIhue muNI (14) evamassAsi apANa (15) dhammA sutkramsa ciTThaI (16) asa`khaya' viya mA-catutha mAyae (17) chaMda nirIheNa uvei meAkh (18) na tesi" bhik' maNasA pausse 'adhyayana na. gAthA pR. naM. prathama (1) 2 13 7 20 13 37 19 40 26 41 32 46 38 22 dvitIya (2) 13 44 24 49 26 54 27 59 31 65 38 71 77 82 90 27 99 "". "" "" ,, "" "" "" "" 19 tRtIya (3) (4) "" ,, 41 12 1 11 0 96 104

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38 naMbara, padanuM nAma adhyayana naM. gAthA pR., (19) vipasIejaja mahAvI. 5 muM 30 110 " (20) apUNA saccameseja 6 TUThuM 2 117 (21) Ima dehaM samudhare , 14 124 (22) kamsa heluM purA kAuM, 7 muM 24 13ra jegama na saMvide (23) bhAyAe ghAsa mesejanA 8muM 11 139 (24) ampiyaM pi ni vijajae 9 muM 15 147 (25) tasyAvi saMjame see, ,, 40 154 aditassa vi kicaNuM (26) samaya geyama mA pamAyae 10 muM 1 161 (ra7) AI si pahaMmahAlaya, , 3ra 168 gacchasi maga visehiyA (28) apiyasAvi mittalsa, 11 muM 12 176 rahe kalANu bhAI (2) samaNA bhavisAmu guNadhArI 14 muM 17 183 (30) dhammArAme care bhikhU 16 muM 15 190 (31) jhAyaI khaviyAsa 18 muM 5 196 (32) bhagavaM vAharAhi me ,, 10 204 (33) abhae paWivA turbha, , 11 210 abhayadAyA bhavAhiya, (34) jahA te dIkaI ruva, pasane te tahAmaNe 20 217

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naMbara padanuM nAma acayana naM. gAthA pR. naM. (35) kahuM dhIre aheuhiM unmatto , para 223 01 mahiM care (3) ANujANaha pavaIslAma ame 19muM 10 229 (37) jAvajajIvamavissAme , 35 236 guNANuM tu mahabbare (38) Ihaloe nizcivAsassa 19 44 244 nithi kicivi dukkara (39) na pArae hAI hu saMparAe 20 - 250 (40) puchiUNa mAe tumuM , 256 jhANuvigheya je karyo (41) sIha va saba na saMtasejapA 2114 263 (42) sannA nAo vagae mahelI ,, 23 272 (43) saMsAra sAgara dhAre, tara 22 muM 31 kane lahera lahuM (44) vijJANeNe samAgamma, dhamma 23 muM sAhaNa michiyaM (45) evaM alitto kAmehi, tuM 25 muM 27 vayaM bUma mAhaNe (46) tumbha samasyAuddhatta-paruM ,, 39 301 apAyuM meva ya (47) pucchajajA paMjalI uDe kiM 26 muM 9 306 - kAyAvaM mae IhiM .

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40 (48) sajajhAya tae kujA savvabhAva vibhAvaNa (49) samAhi* Disa dhae (50) na aNuNissa mAoA, amekSasa nathi nivvANa (51) pAya. rasA dittikarA nAraNuM 32 10. 332 21 339 15 346 (para) khuddo sAhasiai narA (53) bhiSmAvittI suhAvahA (54) vAsatjhakAe vidurejA (55) arihA AleAyaNa sAu (56) azuddha rAsa pasare 19 351 97 36 3 262 357 26 364 "" 27 31 28 30 34 mu x 35 mu 27 3 . 312 319 325

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1. se viNIe utta vuccaI Wan bhalA sAdhaka! tAre sAdhakamAMthI siddha banavuM che ? bhakatamAMthI bhagavAna manavu che? ArAdhakamAMthI ArAdhya banavu che? pUjakamAMthI pUjya banavu che? AtmAmAMthI paramAtmA banavu hAya teA eka vAta tArI hRdayapeAthImAM suvarNAkSare neAMdhI le. prathama vinIta ana. vinayInA caraNe vizvanI sarva samRddhi sarva siddhi ALeTe che. sAdhaka ! tuM kahIza...aheA... emAM zu meATIvAta che vinayI ja banavAnuM ne ! namratA zIkhI laIza. namratA ja zA mATe! namavAnI viziSTa paddhati paMcAMga praNAma zIkhI laIza. jo sAdhakamAMthI siddha banavAne A kimIe haze te jarUra ajamAvIza. sAdhaka! utAvaLA na thA. duniyAnI badhI parIkSAe saraLa che, paNa kaThIna che, AkarI che vinayanI praNAlI. kAyAne jhukAvavI, vALavI, namAvavI eja vinaya kahevAtA hAya te eka nRtyAMganA vinaya siddha banavI joie. kAryane kAmane ja vinaya kahevAte hAya teA pratyeka nAkarane sAdhaka ja kahevA jAI e. hAtha joDIne mAthuM namAvIne khelavuM. hAjI hAjI kahetA elavu tene ja vinaya kahevAtA heAta te hajurIyA ja savazreSTha guNI khanI jAta. pratikSaNa....pratipaLa jAgRta rahIne sAvadhapaNe kArya kare teja vinayI kahevAtA Ata te amAvALA sAdhaka kahevAta. nA bhAI....nA.....vinaya e tA. AtmAnA abdubhUta 1

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2 ] meAkSane adhikArI veza mAtra nahi, paNa samabhAvI Atma sadguNa che. sAdhaka jIvananA mAlama dine prathama pATha che vinaya. 1 lavinayathI jIvana dIpAva zeAbhAve ane ujjavaLa banAve te vinayI. vinayIne AjJA karavI nA paDe. " tAre pratikramaNa karavu joi e...tAre sevA zuzruSA karavI joIe." HH paNa vinayI pratikSaNa-pratipaLa jinAgamanA rahasya prApta karavA tatpara rahe. jinAgamanA rahasya samajAya te! vItarAganI AjJAnuM mUlyAMkana khyAlamAM Ave. A samajavA, zAstrane AtmasAt kare. zAstra AtmasAt ane te vinayanA guNa vikasita ane zAstra samaje eTale utsaga, apavAda samajamAM Ave, vidhi niSedha samajamAM Ave, dravya, kSetra, kALa, bhAva ane vyakita vizeSa mATe pharamAvela sUtranA-AgamapAThanI rahasya samajamAM Ave. vinayI zAstra samajI mAtra mAhitIjJAna nA vadhAre, vinayI zAstra samajI, vicArI aTapaTI vArtAnu pradarzana nA kare. vinayI zAstranu ciMtana manana karI koInI bhUla nA darzAve. paNa.... " vinayI te zAstranu nididhyAsana karI potAnA jIvanane zAnkramaya banAve." "vinacI eTale zasAjJAnA sAkSAtkAra che vinayInuM evuM, besavuM, vicAravuM, vAMcavuM, jovu, sAMbhaLavu pratyeka kriyA pAchaLa eka ja lakSya hoya mane zAstrane zu Adeza che ? dUdha pItu bALaka mAtAthI dUra nA rahe. tema vinayI zAsrANAthI dUra nA rahe. jema dUdhapAna karatuM bALaka mAthI dUra rahe teA tenA prANa jokhamamAM, mA na dekhAya te nAnu bALaka raDIne gharane gAMDu kare tema vinayI zAstrAjJA vagara eka Daga paNa nA bhare. zAstra nA samajAya teya vinayI gurudevanI chAyA banIne rahe. gurunA sAMnidhyamAM ja vinayInA

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guru pAse besavAne sAco adhikArI keNa? saraLaAtmA. 3 jIvananuM prabhAta prAraMbhAya. gurunA sAMnidhyamAM ja vinayInA jIvananI saMdhyA khIlI UThe. - vinayI barAbara samaje che vasuMdhI ghora parizrama karI vyAkaraNazAstra, kezazAstra, sAhityazAstra, nyAyazAstramAM pAraMgata banuM pachI dharmazAstrane abhyAsa karuM, tyAre mane kahyuM ke vItarAga vacananuM navanIta maLe. paNa kayAre? jyAre gurunI zItaLa chAyAmAM rahe te sadA anupama vItarAga vacananuM navanIta maLe. jIvana vitAvavA sahAya-sahAre-AlaMbana pratyeka vyatine levuM paDe che te huM zA mATe gurudevanA najadIkamAM rahI gurudevanA jJAnane vArasadAra na banuM? 1 gurudeva mane abhyAsa karAve ke nA karAve, - gurudeva mane vAMcanA Ape ke nA Ape, A gurudeva ane pRcchAne pratyuttara Ape ke nA Ape, paNa guru jJAnI che. - gurudeva jJAnanA himAlaya che. tethI temanAthI ja jJAnanI gaMgAnA mIThAM. ThaMDA pavananI tAjagIne avasara kema cUkuM? jJAnI gurunI chAyAthI dUra te rahuM nahi, jJAnagurunI dRSTi paDe tyAMja mAruM Asana rAkhuM. e divya tejodaSTi mArA tene mananA vikArene bALIne bhasmIbhUta karI deze. jJAnI gurunA tapa tyAganA divya sAmrAjya mAtrathI viSaya-kaSAya-IrSyAnuM tophAna zAMta banI jaze, mArA tana mana paNa saMyama dharmanA pAlanamAM sahAyaka banaze. 35 jJAnI gurunA bolavAmAM bhASA samitine satata upara he kayAre paNa vacanane asaMcama nahi heya jJAnIyAnA

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mm 4] kathAnuyoga e mekSane Long way. dravyAnuyoga e melane Shot way. bhejanamAM (gecarImAM) kadAca vividha prakAranA rasavaMtA AhAra haze paNa jJAnI guru bhajana karatAM paNa eka ja vAta kaheze. pudgalane-jaDane jaDanI sahAyanI jarUra che. peTa che te khorAka joIe paNa Asakita nA joIe. guru rasavaMta AhArane je rIte AgatA haze tenA karatAM anekaguNI mastIthI nirasa AhArane Aregaze. A javAnuM kene maLe? gurunA sAMnidhamAM nivAsa kare tene "gurunA sAMnidhyamAM nivAsa eTale jJAna jagatamAM nivAsa. jJAna jagatamAM nivAsa karanAra jaDa je AtmAthI paNa cetana banI jAya. paMDita jagadIza bhaTTAlaMkAra rasoIye, paNa nyAya zAstranA jhADa patra lakhate thaI gayo. tema gurunuM sAMnidhya mArA AtmA upara rahela karmanA paDadA haTAvI jJAnane prakAzita kare. gurunA sAMnidhyamAM rahevAthI gurunA jJAnanI jAgatI cokInA khuMkhArAe paNa mArA pramAda bhAvane tyAMthI pibArA gaNavA ja paDe. gurunA Adeza-udeza pravRtti-nivRtti samajavA satata mAre guru mukhanA bhAvanuM nirIkSaNa karavuM paDe. gurunA mukhanA nirIkSaNathI mArI nirIkSaNa zakti vikAsa pAme. jagatanA keI ajJAnI mane kahe ke tamArA guru gurase thayA kahuM nAnA mArA gurune huM oLakhuM chuM aneka vakhata meM teonI vividha mukha mudrAnA darzana karyA che. guru gusse nathI thayA paNa mArA durgAne jaNAvavA teoe kRpA karI zaMkaranuM rUpa dhAraNa karyuM che. e te amArA jevA anekanA avinayanA jhera pacAvanAra nIlakaMTha

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sadguNane pakSa kare ane durguNunA tiraskAra kare te jaina [ pa zaMkara che. mArA guru mArI bhUla dUra thaI eTale pAchA vAlsanidhi mArA AtmaguNanA sarjaka brahmA, mArA vikasita guNanuM rakSaNa karanAra viSNu.... " gururbrahmA gururviSNu gurUdevo mahezvara " huM jJAna meLavu, gurunA sAMnidhyamAM rahuM. gurunA bhAvane samajavA prayatna karU te guru mATe nahi. gurunI sevA mATe niha. guru nArAja nA rahe mATe nahi paNa jo huM vinayI nA anu te| mArA karmAM haTe nahi. jo huM vinaya nA karuM te; mArA jJAnAvaraNIya karma dUra jAya nahi. huM vinayI anu. mArA AtmakalyANa arthe.... vinayI anu jJAna AcaranA pAlana mATe.... vinayI anu sarva karmonA kSaya mATe.... tmAne bhale huM svAthI kahevAuM...sva eTale mAdA uddhAra. mArA peAtAnuM kAya karavuM che. kAraNakeva jAgyA vinA sarvAMne jagAvI na zakAya mATe mAre vinayI anavu che. prabhu paramAtmA mahAvIradeva ! Ape guru gautamane vinavI banAvyA. guru gautamane gaNadhara padmathI satkAryAM, amane zu Apa vineya nA banAvA ! vinaya eTale ziSya, prabhu mAre banavu che ApanA ziSya, ApanA ziSya nA anu tyAM sudhI mArA karmAM kayAMthI vinayI ane? mArAthI dUra jAya ? guru gautamanA mithyAtvane haTAvanAra, guru gautamanA abhimAnane dUra karanAra prabhu ! mArA upara kRpA nA karo ! mArA upara paNa dayA karo...mane varadAna Ape. 'huM vinayI anu''

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'' 6] du NI:pratye karUNA ane sadguNI pratye bahumAna rAkhe te jaina guru gautamanI labdhinA guru badhu nA banAvA te paNa guru gautamanA jevA sAcA ziSya manAve, sAtheA ziSya ja sAce. guru khanI zake che. prabhu mane jo e prathama vinaya, mArA dharma vRkSanuM mULa sthira karo. mULa sthira haze te hAre svaya' vikasita anaze. prabhu ! prabhu ! huM mAruMM bhikSA pAtra chalakAvI de cha zAkhA prazAmA

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2. pasAyae te hu durAsacaMpi ka - eka buddhimAna-samajadAra bhayaMkara dAvAnala bujhAvI zake che tyAre, eka mUkha bhayaMkara Aga pragaTAvIne samasta zaherane bhasmIbhUta karI zake che. zakti te baMne pAse che. ekanI pAse sarjaka zakti che te bIjAnI pAse saMhArakazakti che. sarjakane paNa eka ItihAsa hoya che. saMhArekane paNa eka itihAsa hoya che. ItihAsa baMne pAtrane yAda rAkhe che. paNa enuM nAma letAM mastaka jhUkI jAya che. ekanuM nAma letAM mastaka pherI jAya che. paMcama gaNadhara sudharmAsvAmI, saLavarSanA jaMbUsvAmIne samajAvI rahyA che "jabU! zeTha banavuM saheluM che paNa sAdhu banavuM kaThIna che. sAdhu eTale samatAmUrti.... sAdhu eTale samatAnI rasalhaNa karanAra... sAdhu eTale kSamAnI saritA.. . ' lokamAtA nadI jema malinane nirmaLa kare, gadAne svaccha kare, tema sAdhu krodhanI javALAmAM bhasma thavA jatAM mAnavane samatAnA pAna karAve. sAdhu vizvamAM samatAne maMgala Adarza baDe kare te svanA tAraka-uddhAraka-upakAraka gurune prasana: kema na karI zake ? teonA cittanI prasannatA jaLavAya te.. karI zake. . . . . - patinI prasannatA to patnInuM jIvana AnaMdamAM. zikSaka prasanna te vidyAnA dAna saraLa bane.

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8 ] AtmAnI nidA + paranI prazaMsA jJAnanA prakAza, www. zeTha prasanna teA sevakane AvikAne lAbha maLe. nAvika prasanna rahe te aneka musApharonI yAtrA nivi na ane, vimAna cAlaka prasanna rahe te aneka utArUnA prANanu rakSaNa thAya. gurudeva prasanna teA gaccha prasanna. sAdhukULa prasanna tA sAdhu samudAya prasanna. sAdhu saMmudAya prasanna tA prabhu zAsananI adbhuta prabhAvanA. prabhuzAsananI prabhAvanA te vizvamAM satra AnaMda magala. e maMgalanI zaraNAInA zuthI sajIvanuM kalyANa. = jaMbU ! maMgaLavAta sAMbhaLI, maMgala manAtha karI. paNa me tane pahelAM ja kahyuM A * kAyaM kaparuM che, chatAM te mahAna banavAne nizcaya karyAM che eTale tAre AkarA caDhANa caDavA paDaze. sAdhanAnI siddhi arthe.sAdhutAnA pAlana mATe....svaguNAnI prApti mATe, anatajJAnanA prakaTIkaraNa mATe ...tAre tArA gurune prasanna karavAM ja paDaze. tu prazna karIza gurudeva ! sAdhanA mAre karavAnI pachI prasanna mAre rahevAnuM. mArI prasannatA mATe huM prayatna karI zakuM. paNa mane ApanuM temAM huM prasannatA kevI rIte lAvI zakuM ? tArI praznanI jhaDI varasavAnI che mane khabara che. AvA eka prazna nahi eka lAkha praznanI hAramALA tu khaDI karI zake che. paNa mArA eka praznanA javAba Apa ! tu ziSya khare. ke nahi ! ziSya ane gurune sa'kha'dha kharo ke nahi ? vizvamAM aneka samadhA karyAM....anekane AtmIyajana kahI khuza karavA te je nATaka karyAM....tenuM vana karuM te tArA citro jotAM tu hasI paDIza. bhautika sabadhAne bhUlavA eka AdhyAtmika saMbaMdha gADha banAva. guru sAthe abheda samaya mAMdha

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susAdhu vairAgyayukta vacanA bele [ = ziSya e te gurunuM "bIju... rUpa che, jema jamaNI AMkha duHkhe te! DAbI AMkha tarata mIMcAi jAya. baMne AMkha khullI kyAre rahe ? eka paNa AMkhamAM dru na heAya tA. guru prasanna rahe te ja sAdhanAnI siddhi. aprasanna guru pAsethI tArA cegakSemanI apekSA tuM kevI rIte rAkhe ? aprasanna guru pAsethI rAgadveSamAM aTavAtI tArI nAvane kinArA para lAvavAnI abhilASA kevI rIte rAkhe ? gurujanane prasanna karavA tAre aneka kimIyAe zeAdhavA paDaze ! aneka upAya, ane yuktie vicAravI paDaze ! dilamAM guru prasannatAnI aMkhanA pedA karavI paDaze. cha mahinAnA dUdhamala bALaka sAthe mA keTalI vAta kare che. tene khuza karavA....tenA sukha-duHkhane samajavA, duHkha dUra karavA keTalA ujAgarA kare che. zuM te dRzyA te joyA nathI ? mAtA bALakanA cittane samajavA anusaravA prayatna kare che te ja prayatna tAre tArA gurune samajavA karavA paDaze. temanA gamAaNagamA, pasadagI-nApasaMgI, temanI Adata, jIvana jIvavAnI paddhati, vAta karavAnI-rajuAta karavAnI Dhaba, tenI ArAdhanAnI bhAvanA, teonA manAra, teenAM saMkalpa, temanA zarIranI asvasthatA, teenA AhAra, nihAra, ArAmanA samaya A badhAnA tane cAkkasa khyAla heAvA joI ze. teo kyAre zuM karaze ? kayAre zu nahi kare ? tenI nAnAmAM nAnI vigatanI paNa sUkSmanoMdha tArA mAnasapaTa para kotarAyelI rahevI khUba jarUrI che. * sAdhaka! nA kahIza mArAmAM buddhi nathI, tuM ziSya che. tAre game tevA svabhAvavALA paNa gurune prasanna karyA che

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* * 1] tapa-japa-sAdhanA e pataMga che, anumodanA e derI che. A zaratane yAda rAkhIza te guru prasannatAne amegha upAya tane maLI jaze. jagatanI mAthAkUTa karavAnI bhale tArI pAse buddhi nA hoya. sAdhu thaIne gAma-gAmanAM nagara-nagaranAM aneka bhAviko aneka vicitra vyaktionAM paricayamAM tuM AvIza. te badhAne bhalA ! bhUlavAmAM ja sAra che. tyAM tuM maMdamati nahi mahAmaMdamati banaje. paNa... tArA gurune samajavA tAre hAMziyAra banavuM paDaze. jemAM strI kazuM nA samaje paNa agni sAthe kema vyavahAra karAya tenuM tene keTaluM suMdara jJAna hoya, tema tAre tArA gurune samajavA buddhimAna banavuM paDaze. buddhizALI heza te ja guruthI tAru AtmakalyANa thaze. nahitara jagatanA cegAnamAM tArI sAdhutAnuM lIlAma thaze. huM zuM karuM? mArA guru gusse thaI gayA. huM zuM karuM? mArA guru mArI sAthe belatA nathI. huM zuM karuM? mArA guru mane bhaNAvatAM nathI. huM zuM karuM ? mArA guru nArAja thaI gayA che. jo tuM buddhimAna haIza te tuM bIjAne kahIza mArA guru aMge tame bhale game tema kahe ke tArA gurune svabhAva barAbara nathI paNa A tame mane cheTuM samajAve che. puNyazALI ! mArA gurune svabhAva kharAba nathI. mArA guru te zrIphaLa jevA che. AkhuM zrIphaLa khAvA jAya tenA dAMta tUTe, paNa kAcaluM chetarA haTAvIne khAya tene sAkara jevuM mIThuM puSTidAyaka pANI ane svAdiSTa kaparUM maLe. bhAI! tame nA samaje. mArA gurune huM ja samajuM, temanA jevA upakATjha keNuM che? mArA hitaciMtaka bIjA keNa che? tame

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paraniMdAmAM badhIra bane para guNomAM adhIra bane. [ 11 mArA gurunA zabdane jue che. huM mArA gurunA hRdayane paricita chuM. je temanAmAM mArA uddhAranI bhAvanA na heta; te mane kema dIkSA Apata? mAruM astitva ja temanA puNya baLe pAMgareluM che. A gurune prasanna karavA tAre buddhimAna banavuM ja paDaze. buddhimAna banIza eTalethI ja nahi cAle hajI eka pagathIyuM AgaLa vadha. bIje pagathIye Ava. tAre zIgha-jaldI kArya karanArA banavuM paDaze. sAdhanAnA mArgamAM vilaMba nA pioSAya. kSaNane vilaMba zuM kare tenI tane khabara che ne ! lavasattama deva pAse zuM khUTayuM? sAta lavanuM AyuSya. hA... hA....zuM kahe che, sAtalavanuM AyuSya ane chaThThane tapa. vilaMba keTale? saMsAravAsa tretrIsa . sAgarepama vadhya, aMtarAya, tho siddhigatimAM pahoMcavAne gurue cIdhyA-upadezelA kAryamAM vilaMba karIza te vilaMba thaze zuddhAtmadazAnA pragaTIkaraNamAM. gurunA vacananuM zIghapAlana eTale mokSamArgane TUMke raste.' mAre gurune prasanna karavA che. huM have vilaMba nahi karuM, jaldI karIza. ' ' nA bhAI nA. deDa nahi, deDavAthI maMjhila prApta thatI nathI. sAcA mArge doDavAthI lakSya sthaLe pahoMcAya. haju eka vAta yAda rAkhI le. gurunA dilane jANIza ane jhaDapa karIza eTalAthI nahi cAle..gurunA abhiprAyane anusarIza te ja gurune prasanna karI zakIza. khudanI IcchAne sAkAra karavA duniyA prayatna kare, khudanA saMkalpane siddha karavA dareka marajavA jIvananI heDa lagAve. paNa tAre te muktinuM gAna

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12 ] kezakuMcana e sukara che paNa vAsanAnuM laMcana duSkara che. guMjita karavuM che eTale tAre tArI IcchA, AzA, abhilASA - saMkalpane bhUlI jaI gurunA AzayanI pAchaLa ja haraNaphALa bharavI rahI. je (1) buddhimattA (2) zIvratA (3) ane guru Azaya anuvatitA keLavIza te tArA guru game tevA haze paNa tane te muktidAyaka ja banaze. premanI kaLA hiMsakane ahiMsaka banAve. tuM te samarpita ziSya che. tArA guru mekSanA sAcA rAhabara che. teonA svabhAvanI vilakSaNatA-vicitratA tuM bhUlI jA. tArA samarpaNanI eka amaragAthA vizvamAM guMjita kara. huM Apane ziSya chuM, ApanA cittane samajanAra chuM Apane paDate bela jhIlI tene kAryamAM mUkanAre chuM. ApanA abhiprAyane samajanAra chuM. prabhu ! guru! prasanna bane. sudharmA svAmI ! mane zakti Ape caMDarudrAcAryanA ziSya jevI, gurunI zikSAne sahana karatA huM kevalajJAna prApta karuM, mArA guru paNa mArI sahanazIlatAnI anumodanA karatAM kevalajJAnI bane. guru ziSya abheda bhAve zAzvata saMbaMdhe maLIe e ja prabhu mane Apo. prabhu mane nArAja nA karatAM. mAre dunyavI siddhi nathI joItI-prasiddhi nathI joItI.. mAre joIe che mArA gurunI prasannatA.

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3. uvacinhe guruM sayA kara tRSAta jalanI zodha kare ane jyAM jaLa hoya tyAM nivAsa kare. bhejanA bhejananI zodha kare ane jyAM bhajana hoya tyAM nivAsa kare. regA vidya-auSadhanI zodha kare ane jyAM vidya ane auSedha hoya tyAM nivAsa kare. jJAnAtha...saMdhamAthI mokSAthI kyAM nivAsa kare ? jJAnane cAhaka vicAre jJAnane zrota kayAM che? - pustakamAM..? abhyAsamAM ? punarAvartanamAM jJAnabhaMDAramAM...? bhalA sAdhaka! e badhA te jJAnanA sAdhana che. ghaDe e. jaLa nahi paNa jaLa saMrakSaNanuM sAdhana che tema pustaka-punarAvartana abhyAsa-jJAnabhaMDAra e jJAnaprAptinA sAdhane. to pachI jJAnane srota kayAM? kenAmAM ? gaMgAne srota kyAM ? kAzImAM....haradvAramAM...nA..nA..kUra...dUra uccahimazikharanA jharaNAmAM-gaMgetrImAM. basa sAdhaka tArI daSTi DI. vizALa kara, tAre jJAnAtanA darzana karavA che ne? jJAnotanA addabhuta sauMdaryanI mastI mANavI che ne ? te pachI bhUle. cUkeya pustakanI ALa paMpALamAM nA paData. . pustaka jJAnamAM sahAyaka che paNa..zAnane srota nathI. A satya hakIkata tArI dhapethImAM nedha, pachI tane jJAna sotanA darzana karAvuM. jJAnastrota gurutAza tAraka gurudeva ...

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14 ] hRdayamAM mUrchA hoya teA phATeluM vajra paNa parigraha bane. guru e ja jJAnasrotanA himAlaya che. kadAca tane gaMgA vizALa lAgaze. ane hiMmAlayamAMthI pragaTa thatu gagAnu aradhu nAnu lAgaze paNa adhyAtmanuM gaNita juduM che. tArI vAmana ane virATanI kalpanA ahI kheATI che. " jJAnanI gaMgA ziSya... paNa jJAnagaMgAnA srota gurudeva " A sAnerI siddhAMta. AtmasAta. karIza te ja sAdhaka tane AdhyAtmika khALamaMdiramAM paNa praveza maLaze. nahitara bhaTakyA kara...rakhaDayA kara....tArI jhAkajhamALavALI bhautika jIMdagImAM. gagAnuM mUlya ane pavitratA tenA kAraNe ja che te RSiethI pavitra thayela vanya aneka auSadhionAM rAjA himAlayamAMthI pragaTa thAya che tethI ja gagA tApa hAriNI ane pApahAriNI anI. jJAnapipAsu ! huM tArI jijJAsAne samajuM chuM. tArI jJAnanI jhaMkhanAne samaju chu. tArI tapipAsAne svIkAra karu chuM. tArI tIvra tamannA ja mane prere che ane mane eka ja vAta kahevAtu mana thAya che. , ' jo tu jJAnAthI che te ucio guru sayA.... jo tu sacama abhilASI che. te vice guru saya..... jo tu meAkSanA AkAMkSI che te ucio guru sayA... huM zA mATe guru pAse haMmezA esa'? zu tyAM avAja na heya? zuM bhaktonI bharamA nahAya? zuM dezanAthI'nI bhIDa na lAgI hAya? zuM hajAre jijJAsue huMjArA jijJAsA laine ne AvyA hoya?! ', .. ! rakhe A pradhA vacce jJAnanI sAdhanA durlabha na thaI jAya. mAruM mana evu vicitra che ke hu mArI sAdhanA cheThI

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koInA doSa khelavA te khelatI ni dA, doSa jovA te sugI ni dA [15 praznAthI enI duniyAmAM khAvAi jAu. chu ane tame kahe che jo tu jJAnAthI che te guru pAse esa. kema karuM ? zuM karuM? nathI tamArA jevA hitastrInI vAtane eLagI zakatA, nathI rokI zakatA mArA vicArAne. basa...mane te thAya che ke pustaka laI ekAMtamAM besI jAuM, ane ana tanu apratimajJAna prApta karI lauM? zuM hitastrI tame ja mArA mananI mUMjhavaNa dUra nA karo ? sAdhaka............ meAkSAthI ........sayamAthI ..........sAnAthI tuM zabdanA rahasyAne AtmasAt nahI kare? ane phakata zabdanA ja artha kare? phrI ekaja ane pAchI pelIja vAta karu chuM. vica guru sayA mArAM zabda pAchaLa rahelA rahasyane vicAra...jarUra tane mArga maLaze...pU avaLu....mathAmaNu....akaLAmaNa nahi thAya. samatA zAMti maLaze. pustakathI jJAna maLaze te paNu kadAca eka viSayanuM, ane te paNa keTalI mahenatathI? chatAMya kadAca zAstranuM rahasya te meLavyuM ja nahi heAya. guruthI jJAna maLaze teA guru tane eka viSaya bhaNAvaze paNa teoe jeTalI viddhatA prApta karI haze tenA arka tane eka blekamAM samajAvaze. guru nAna Apaze te tArI nADInI parIkSA karIne Apaze jethI tArA dhruNA haTI jAya, ane sadguNeA tane maLI jAya. tuM guru pAse besIza te traMca kaMThastha teA tArI buddhi jeTalA ja karI zakIza, paNa e jJAna sAgara gurudeva pAse hajArA vyakti Avaze tenI sAthe thatI jJAnacarcA sAMbhaLIza tA paNa lAkhA pustako vAMcavAthI je jJAna tane nahiM maLe te, jJAna tArA gurunA anubhavathI tane prApta thaze. mane khakhara tane hajI samAdhAna thayuM nathI. tArI AMkhamAM AnaMdanI

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16 ] jAta pratye kaThora bano ane jagata pratye komaLa mane. dekhAtI nathI...tArA manamAM khaTake che....tu manamAM khakhaDe che kevI behudI vAta !!! guru pAse besavAthI jJAna ? guru pAse esavAthI sayama ? ane guru pAse besavAthI meAkSa ? pAchu adhuruM heAya tema kaheA che, 'uvicas guru' sayA' guru pAsethI kayAreya khasavAnuM nahi tyAMja jIMdagI vItAvavAnI ? bhalA sAdhaka ! tane eka vyavahAranI vAta pUchuM? javAba Apa te saubhAgyavatI strIne macelI joI che? tenI mRtyu zayyA joi che? mRtyubAda paNa saubhAgyavatI strInI pAthImAM si'dura hAya che. kapALamAM kuMkumanuM tilaka hAya che. hAthamAM saubhAgyanA kaMkaNu ane gaLAmAM magalasUtra ane lAlasADI hoya che. mRtyubAda A badhA ThaThArA zA mATe? anubhavI kaheze A ThaThArA nathI. strInA maMgala' saubhAgya jIvananI magalatAnA sUcaka pratIka che. patnIe deha checeA paNa patinA maMgala sAmrAjyamAM. sInA sukhI jIvananA e ja vijayadhvaja che. jema anubhavInI vANI pAchaLa anubhavanu amRta hoya che tema mArA haiyAmAM tibhAvanA che tethI kahuM vicas guru sayA' paNa...tu zabdA nA karatA. mAre tane vAravAra rAkave paDe che. gurunI pAse besavuM eTale.... gurunI AjJA laIne besavu. 5 gurunI dRSTithI pavitra thatAM pradezamAM esavu. sacamIAnA sAmrAjyamAM besavuM, - jyAM sAdhuryeAgya bhUmikA hoya tyAM besavuM. 5 navavADe zuddha brahmacarya nuM rakSaNa thAya tyAM besavuM.

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sahanazIlatA sukara che paNa svaprazaMsA pacAvavI te duSkara che. [17 ane sadguNanA sAkSI guru ane dugNa ApaNA tyAM besavuM. gurunI AjJA ApaNe jyAM beThA haiie tyAMthI sa bhaLAya tyAM esavu. gurunI sevA zuzruSAne ApaNane lAbha maLe tema besavuM. gurunI prasannatAnA sadA cAhaka banavuM kAraNa, guru jJAna gaMgAtrI che. jyAre temanA haiyAmAMthI kRpA varasaze tyAre tArI jJAnagoMgAmAM jJAnanA nIra hileALe caDhaze. vicAra vimarzImAM mUMjhAyelA sAdhaka gurune kahe che, ApanI vAta ThIka che.. samajavA jevI che....paNa.... sAdhaka ! tArA zabda! tArA haiyAnI cADI khAya che. tuM mArI vAta ne ThIka kahe che, samajavA jevI kahe che paNa AcaravA jevI che tema nathI kahete, tyAM sudhI huM samaju chuM mArI vAta tane gaLe utarI nathI. tArA manamAM hajI gheALAya che ne guruna pAse reAja besavAnuM ? hA....bhAI hA....mAkSa nA maLe tyAM sudhI. kevI rIte ane? AyuSyakama nI maryAdA kharI ke nahI ? deha upara te kALane dhama asara karavAnA ne! pudgala teA nAza pAmaze ne! zuM mAruM ane mArA gurunu AyuSya samAna ? mArA guru mArI sAthe jIMdagI sudhI raheze? tuM dehane! pUjaka kayAM sudhI rahIza ? tu puddagalanI mAyAmAM ja aTavAIza ? gurUnA dehanI sAthe sadA na rahevAya paNa guvaMjJA sAthe tA rahevAyane ? mArA kahevAnA atha ja e che kALa khaLe.... kSetranA kAraNe.... kanA kAraNe... dharmanA kAraNe

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18 ] jagatane jJAnanA dAna kare te sAdhu, ....tArA ane tArA gurunA dehanuM sAmIpsa nA rahe. sthAna sAMnidhya nA rahe. vacanathI AjJA na maLe paNa tAre rahevAnu che huMmezA guru pAse. 6 guru AjJAnA pAlanamAM.' sAdhaka! tArI sAdhaka jIMDhagInA ekaDA chuTI le, raTI le. pharI phrIne samajI le. " tu meAkSAthI che tethI sadA gurunI AjJAnA dviSya sAmrAjyamAM ja rahevAnuM." guru AjJAnA kriSNu sAmrA jyamAM rahenArane gurune viraha kayAreya thatA nathI. guru AjJAnu dvizya sAmrAjya eTaluM khadhu vizALa che ke guru siddhAcalamAM haze ane tuM bhAratanA koIpaNa prAMtamAM hAIza paNa gurvAnA tAruM sadA saMrakSaNu karaze. ane tu guru sAMnidhyane sadA anubhava karIza. 6 guijJA rahita anI guru sAthe rahevu' eTale peTanA kRmi jevu....' para guru AjJA eTale mArAstra sAme abhedya kavaca,' jyAM meha nahiM tyAM mAkSa. jyAM rAga nahi tyAM vItarAgatA. jyAM ajJAna nahi tyAM samyAna. gurudeva ! '' ApanI vAta sAcI che, meAkSAthI e "vicas guru sayA maMtra siddha karavA joie. asa.... 29 paramAtmA mahAvIra deva ! guru gAtama jevI guru bhakti ApeA. e ja ApanA tArakacaraNamAM namra vina`ti....

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4. ramae paDie sAsa. Wan dareka vyaktine peAtAnuM kartavya, pAtAnI pharaja ane potAnu kSetra hoya che. vaphAdAra, tatryapriya, pharaja samajanAra, sajjana kyAre paNa vya dharmAMthI pIche haTha karatA nathI. jema sUrya, caMdra, sAgara, saritA peAtAnA bya mArgomAM aDIkhama. rahe che tema sajjana svIkArela niyamathI pAcho haThatA nathI paNa, te badhA sajjane pAseya hRdaya che. lAgaNI che, lAgaNInA nIrathI koInI hRdaya bhUmikAne pallavita thayelI jue tyAre tene haiye paNa eka TADhaka-ThaMDakanA anubhava thAya che. 80 vaSa~nA eka vAvRddhapitA mRtyunI aMtima ghaDI' gaNI rahyA hatA. guru sukhe namaskAra mahAma MtranuM smaraNa karyuM". gurue kahyuM tamAre saMsArIone kaMI sUcana karavAM che? aMtima kaMI vAta kahevAnI che? chellA zvAsa letAM te bhAI khelyA....mArA mATo dIkaro yudhiSThiranA avatAra che. jIMdagImAM kayAtaiya kazu kahevuM ja paDayuM nathI. badhu peAtAnI meLe samajI suyeAgya bya samaya sUcaktAthI kare che. tene ghaNA samayathI mane saMsArathI nivRta karI dIdhA che. pitAnA mukha upara eka suyeAgya putrane pRthvI para cheDIne jyAM Ana Mda spaSTa taravaratA hatA. suyogya putranA pitA hevarAvatAM vRddha gaurava anubhavatAM hatAM. kyAreka zikSako dvArA vidyAthI AnA jIvana saMsmaraNA

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20 ] gurunI hitazikSA sAMbhaLe te ziSya. sAMbhaLatA thAya che. huM bhAratadeza ! tArA saputAnI A rAvaNa. kahAnI...te kayAreka Adarza vidyAthInA Adazeza sAMbhaLatA thAya che ke vidyAdAtAnA A gaurava, tamArA jevA saputAthI mAtAe dhanyamAtA banelI che. ja droNAcArya rAjaguru hatA. hajAro vidyArthInA Ada AcArya hatA. arjuna "mArA vidyAthI" kahetA rAjaguru droNAcArya khuza thayA haze paNa, ekalavyanI guru dakSiNA ane tenuM samarpaNu jotAM samasta gurue Aje paNa khuza thAya che. ekalavya keAnA ziSya ? ekalavyanAM guru kANu ? ekalavyanA guru khanavAnI kAnI kAnI jha MkhanA ? ekalavya vyavahAranI dRSTie guru droNAcAya nA ziSya, paNa hakIkatamAM je jJAninadhi hAya, ziSya prati agAdha vAtsalya yukta hoya, je gurunI mUrti paNa jJAna prAptimAM sahAyaka ane tevA mahAna gurunA ziSya ekalavya. ekalavyanA dehanA guru droNAcAya paNa ekalavyanA AtmatattvanA guru kANu ? sanAtana zAzvata gurupada pratyeka meAkSa mAnA rAhabara netA ekalavya samA suryeAgya ziSyanI jhaMkhanA karatuM ja hoya. jaLatA svAtinakSatranu' paNa chIpamAM paDe te metI. jaLatA svAtinakSatranuM paNa sApanA mukhamAM jAya te jhera. suyeAgya khIjanu vAvetara suceAgya bhUmimAM thAya te 1 mAMthI 1 lAkha. gheADesvArane gheADA para ja musApharI karavAnI hAya paNa. asavArane musApharIne AnaMda te tyAre ja Ave jyAre gheADAne cAbuka mAravAnI nA haiAya paNa dekhADavAnI ja hAya..

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jainasAdhu pAse vazIkaraNanI vidyA che samabhAva ane namratA. [ 21 gurune AnaMda kyAre ?-2mae paDie sAsa, paDitane anuzAsana karatAM gurune khuzI thAya. dila AnaMda anubhave " sAdhaka ! tArA prazna mane khakhara che tu hamaNAM kahIza anuzAsana DenA upara karavAnu hoya ? paMDita upara vaLI anuzAsana zAnu mAranA iMDAMne cItaravAnAM zA mATe ? tArI vAta...tArA tarka prathama dRSTie vicAratAM dAda mAMgI le che, tArI vicAra zaktine biradAvuM ke tArI apUrNa vicAra zaktine punaH puna: vicAra karavAnI taka ApuM ? sa'sAranI khUbI che. mAnavane gArA gAla karatAM gumaDAnI ciMtA adhika rahe che. sAdhaka! guru te tArA sadA hitaciMtaka rahevAnA. jema nisvAthI mAtA eka asahAya putraneA ja pakSa karavAnI tema meAkSamAnA rAhabara gurune eka suvinayI ziSya karatAM avinayI ziSyanI citA adhika ja rahevAnI. guru vAparavA besaze tA suvinayI ziSyanI smRti paNa nahI kare ane avinayI ziSyane yAda karaze. kaheze....pelA mahAtmA kema dekhAyA nahi ? gurunA haiyAmAM karuNA che. jo ekalA vAparaze te vAparavAmAM garabaDa karaze, mArI sAthe AhAra karaze....vAparaze te bhakSya-kalpya paNa saMyamayAtrAnA nirvAha athe vAparaze. guru jyAM esaze tyAM avinayI ziSyanI jagA pAse ja rAkhaze. mArI pAse nahIM bese te kAreka kevI bhaya kara virAdhanA karI deze. virAdhanAthI bacAvavA ane ArAdhanAmAM joDavA vinayInI jagyA najIka rAkhaze.

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22 ] AgamanuM jJAna buddhinI tIvratAthI nahi paNa vinayathI prApta thAya che guru kaI vAta karatA haze te avinayI ziSyane pahelA yAda karaze. kAraNa tene hitazikSA pasaMda nathI. ane je saMbhaLAyuM na hoya te kaheze mane khabara na hatI. tyAre karuNA mUrti guru punaH punaH karuNA vahAvIne paNe tene tAravA prayatna karaze. pratyeka kAryamAM pratyeka prasaMgamAM. pratyeka saMmaraNIya banAvamAM je ApaNane gurue yAda karavA paDe te samajI levuM ApaNe gurunA dayApAtra chIe. karuNApAtra chIe. guru ApaNe nAma le che, belAve che. paNa haiyAnA eka UMDA dardathI vicAre che ke mArI pAse AveluM eka AtmA...mArI theDI bedarakArInA kAraNe, be zabdanA abhAvanA kAraNe sAdhanA mArgathI cUkI nA jAya, hArI nA jAya, evA bhAve gurune ApaNuM nAma levuM paDe, ApaNane bolAvavA paDe tene artha he bheLa ziSya ! tuM samaja-vicAra ke gurunI sAthe te abhedabhAva siddha karyo nathI. guruthI tAruM nAma juduM AvavuM joIe, tAruM kAma juduM gaNAvavuM joIe. A vAta tArI eka guptavAtane pragaTa karI de che. je vAta bhUgarbhamAM amAvI devA jevI hatI tene jAhera karI de che. tuM tArA gurunA pada, gurunA kAryane pUraka banyuM nathI. tArA ane gurunA kArya alaga che mATe ja tArA kArya tAre alaga gaNAvavAM paDe che. gurune AnaMda te thAya che. "rama" paMDie sAsa gheDA para musApharI karavAnI hoya. paNa gheDAne cAbuka na mAravAnI hoya, herAna na karavAno hoya, cAbuka mAravI paDe te gadheDe-edI ghaDe. bhale te ghoDe paNa tenuM lehI gadheDAnuM,

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sevA kare te ja ziSya nahi paNa AjJAne svIkAre te ziSya. [ 23 musApharIne AnaMda teA tyAre ja Ave, musApharInA je sAdhana hAya te jarA paNa takalIpha nA kare. sAdhaka ! tuM tArI jAtane laghu nA samaja tu eTale tArA gurunA mekSa pravAsanA sahAyaka. tane hitazikSA ApatAM tArA gurune anubhava thavA joI e ke meM eka suceAgya A AtmAne meAkSanA TUMkA rastA khatAnyeA. je ziSyane anuzAsana karatAM gurune Ana Mda thAya te ziSya paDita, bhale te ziSyanI pAse jJAna nA haiAya. bhale te ziSyane tatvajJAnanI sUkSmacarcA na AvaDatI hoya to paNa paMDita... kAraNa je AtmA zAsanane yAgya che, AjJAne cegya che, hitazikSAne cAgya che, te ja siddhine ceAgya ane che. gurunI hitazikSA sAMbhaLatA ziSya mUka vAta kahI rahyo che. " huM teA ArIsA chuM, kalyANanI bhAvanAthI ApanA zaraNe AvyeA chuM. mAru ' hRdaya darpaNasamu nirmALa che. svaccha che. viSayakaSAyanA DAgha nathI. ApanA nirmaLa jJAnathI pavitra thayela AtmAnuM ja mAre pratiSi'ba jhIlavuM che. ApanA samAna thavA te ApanA ziSya thayA chuM !! ApanA jJAna pAse mAru' jJAna te alpa che. ApanI sAdhanA himAlayanI TocanI che. huM sAdhanAnA himAlayanI taLeTIye UbhelA chuM. ApanuM mana, vacana ane kAyA pavitra thai cUkelA che jyAre me hajI mana, vacana ane kAyA pavitra karavAne prAraMbha karyAM che. Apa mAna -apamAnane dheALI pI janArA zakara che. jagatamAM Ape koine zatru mitra mAnyA nathI paNa pratyeka vyaktimAM tejomaya AtmAnA dana karyAM che. huM ApanA bhAvaneA cAhaka chuM paNa bALaka chuM aTale mAga' bhUlI jAva chuM. Apa sadA mane tArajo....

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24 ] koInA zabdothI huse ane koinA zabdothI raDe te mUkha, uddhAro. ApanI hitazikSA ja mAru magaLa karaze. A mArI magaLa prArthInA che." " mane hartAzakSAthI kayAre paNa vegaLe kazA hui, " navajAta zizune mAtAnA stanapAnanI, mAtAnA saMrakSaNanI jeTalI jarUra che tethI adhika mane ApanI AjJAnI, ApanA zAsananI jarUra che. AvA magalabhAvA melIne ja vyakta karatA rahe te vAcALa. jIvananA AdarzamAM jIvI jANe te paDita ziSya. paMDitane anuzAsana karatAM guru khuza ja thAya. ramae zabdanA artha adhika UMDe che. masta ane. AnaMda vibhora bane, sahaja bhAvamaya bane. jema ramata AnaMdathI thAya tema je ziSyanu pAlana karatAM, hitazikSA ApatAM gurune jarA paNa gusse nA thavu' paDe tenu nAma ramae, je ziSyane hitazikSA ApatAM gurune ema na lAge me kAyadAnA eja lAdyo. tenuM nAma pa MDita ziSya. je ziSyane AjJA pharamAvatAM gurune lAge ke meM A AtmAnA Atma saMrakSaNanA kille| majabUta karyAM, tenuM nAma paMDita ziSya. jema sainika yuddhamAM jaI rahyo hoya ane koI tene avanavA Ayudha Ape ane sainika khuza thAya tema je ziSyane guru hitazikSA ApatAM hoya tyAre lAge mArA guru devA mahAn che ! mAha sAme jaga jamAvavA kevA sa Mdara AyudhA ApyA ! pramAda teA kare ja nahIM tenuM nAma paMDita ziSya. gurunA haiyAnA aramAna heAya che. mArA A ziSya ziSya nathI paNa paDita che. patine hitazikSA-anuzAsana dvArA taiyAra karu' jethI bhaviSyamAM A ziSya mane aMtima samaye AtmAmAMthI paramAtmA manavA adhyAtmanA rasAyaNa pradAna

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mAMgaNI jJAnanI nahi paNa jJAnanI prasannatAnI kare. [25 kare. khudanI sAdhanA saravALA je ziSyanI hitazikSAmAM hoya, tyAM gurune AnaMda hoya, AnaMdane udadhi uchaLato hoya !! gurudeva ! ziSya te banyo chuM. mArI upara kAmaNa kare. jAdu karo. huM paMDita banuM. jethI mane hitazikSA ApatAM ApanA haiyAmAM AnaMdane udadhi pragaTe. ApanA caraNamAM eka namra vinati che, mane hitazikSA karatAM Apane AnaMda anubhava thAya tevuM sugya suvarNa pAtra huM banuM. mArI megyatA ApanA hRdayane vikasita karanArI bane. e ja punaH nata mastake bhAvanA............... -

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appANa pi na kAvae Wan vyavasthitakAya, vyavasthita bhASA ane vyavasthita jIvana e vyaktinA vyavasthita vicAranuM dyotaka che. je vyakti tara`gI hAya che, dhunI heAya che, kalpanAzIla hAya che tenAmAM utsAhanI bharatI paNa purajozamAM Ave che ane jarA mana pramANe nA dekhAtA ATa AvatA vAra lAgatI nathI. jANe samudramAM chaThanA pANI chaTakaLyAM.. 5. sAdhaka ! eka vAtanI manamAM tuM gAMTha AMdhI le. tu sAdhaka che. eTale tArI sAdhanA apUrNa che. tAre sAdhanAnI siddhi karavA aneka mArgo svIkAravA paDaze. paNa....tArI AsapAsanI duniyAmAM tArI koI sahAyaka nathI.... sahAro. nathI....Ala Mbana nathI. tAre ekalA aTulAe ekalavIra banIne jhajhumavAnu' che. eka heAvA chatAM aneka rUpa dhAraNa karavA paDaze. aneka merace.laData ApavA taiyAra rahevu paDaze. tu eka paNa, tArA sAme eka nahi, aneka ja nahi, anaMta....anaMta.... anaMtanA ana Mta vyUha ! anaMta vAte ! ana Mta vicAra dhArA! anaMta kAryo paddhati ! A madhA vacce tAre tArI. sAdhanAnI siddhi karavAnI, gabharAtA nahi! mujhjhatA nahi! adhIza nA thatA ! tuM sAdhaka che te vijayanI varamAlA tArA kaDanI ja zAla anavAnI. jIta tArA caraNu ja cUmavAnI ! yuddhanA medAnamAM sainika praveze tyAre eka ja vicA re - mArI pAse zuM che! talavAra, barachI, bhAlA, zakti, hAthI, tha, andha, zuM A badhA vijayanA sAdhana ?zrI kSatriya kahe vIranA mATe A badhI upAdhi ! tene phakta abhedya vIrakavaca ja joie..

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kutUhala e patananI pagathAra che. [ 27 bakhtara sivAya kazuM nA joIe. bakhtara abhedya heya te . aDIkhama rahI zatrunA ghA jhIlAya. ghA karanAranAM ghA khUTe paNa vIranuM kavaca abhedya rahe! akhaMDa rahe ! temAM kayAMya kANuM nA paDe ! sAdhaka banavuM che te zramaNa bana. nA... nA...zramaNa nahi . kSamAzramaNa bana. huM tArA mananI vAta jANuM chuM. samaju chuM. te kahIza kSamAzramaNa nathI te zuM huM jhaghaDA khera chuM? zuM huM laDAyaka chuM ! huM sAmuM jouM chuM? huM koIne javAba ApatuM nathI. batrIza dAMta vacce jIbhane dabAvIne ja besI . jAuM chuM. keIne mAratuM nathI. pIDA karato nathI. muMge meMDhe . sahana karI lauM chuM. koI pAse mArA duHkhanI rajUAta karato nathI. phariyAda karato nathI. basa ApaNe te nizcaya rAkhe che tuM te kayAreya kholavuM nahi. na sahana thAya te ekAntamAM jaI ceDA unA AMsu pADI lauM chuM. bole zuM mAre kSamA aMgene A prayatna nathI? sAdhaka! sAcuM kahuM tuM nazAmAM che. kSamA-sahanazIlatA zabdane te sadAcArI rahevA dIdhuM nathI? tuM kahe che huM kaMI javAba ApuM chuM ? "muMge meM sahana karuM chuM. phariyAda karuM chuM?" A zabda ja tArA dilanI aneka gupta vAte raju karI de che. je tuM paNa jANatA nathI. bhalA sAdhaka ! tAruM mana tane chetarI rahyuM che. jenA manamAM bharAyeluM hoya ke huM sahana karuM chuM. huM sahana karuM chuM tenAthI krodhanA aNuba dhaDAke acAnaka eka divasa kayAM kayAre thaI jAya te kahevAya ja nahi ! jagatane bhasmasAna karI zake ke nahi paNa khudanI jAtane te khAkha karI

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28 ] zAsananA rathanA e cakra che samarpaNa ane tyAga, HH de. AtmahatyAnA avicArI mAnA musAphara banI jAya ? tethI ja tane pharI pharIne kahu' chuM ke have te " huM sahuM chuM, huM sahuM chuM," te junu purANuM gIta cheDa. tenI jagAe madhura dila dimAgane tarabatara karI de. tevI nAbhimAMthI vara laharI jAgRta kara-huM meLavuM chuM. huM prApta karU chuM. huM mArA AtmAne samRddha kara chu. mArI nijanI sa'patti ekatrita karu chuM. nijanI prAptimAM AnaMda hAya! vajana nA hoya ! tu jyAre khele che huM sahana karu chu tyAre lAge che ke bicArA majUre TopalA ucakayA ! paNa jyAre tuM ana Mta AkAza sAme eka divyadRSTi nAMkhI muktamane eka gIta gAIza.... huM meLavuM chuM tyAre lAgaze ke mAtAe khALakane ucakayo. vajana tA majUra paNa uDAve che. majUra vajana uThAvatAM thAke che. mAtA mALakanuM vajana uThAvatAM Ana Mda anubhave che. paNa....e mAtA che hu te.... jarA rokAI jA...." huM mArI vAta te sAMbhaLa...." hoI zake eka strI che, cAra, pAMca, daza khALakanI mA, paNa...tu sAdhaka ! vItarAganA sAdhaka...! kevalajJAnanA cAhaka ! vizvanA samasta jIvAnI mAtA tulya ! mAne bALakanu kAma karavAmAM duHkha nahiM, dardI nahi, pIDA nahi, eka mAtAnA vAtsalyamAM paNa Atmika sahanazIlatA vajranarUpe nahi paNa AnanI vRddhi mATe pedA thAya che. sAdhaka ! tAre svaguNAnI prApti karavAnI che. eTale tArA gurune....tArA AcAya bhagavaMtane, tArA gacchanAyakane, tArA pUjyane....tArA vaDIlane nArAja nA karIza. gusse karIza te nahi cAle. tAre satata dhyAna rAkhavuM ja paDaze. mArA evA bhaya kara gunhA thatA nathI ne ke mArA gurune gussA karavA paDe? mArA guru gusse thAya te.....vizvata tramAM viSamatA

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mUkhane paNa paDita banAvavA prayatna kare te mahAtmA. [ 29 sajAya ! ApaNI ghaDiyALa pAchaLa hAya, bagaDI hoya te ApaNe Treina cUkIye. ApaNe lAbha cAlye jAya. paNa jo TAvara bagaDe te! sTAnDarDa TAImamAM pharaka paDe tethI duniyAmAM sarvAMtra anyavasthA thaI jAya. tema guru gusse thAya te anekanI ArAdhanA jokhamAI jAya ! zAsananI prabhAvanA kAI jAya. hita ane magalanI khaLakhaLa vahetI saritAnA niLa jalanA pravAha rokAI jAya. aneka bhAviko jinavANInA amRta jala pAnathI atRpta rahe. pratyeka sAdhaka-ArAdhaka ziSyanuM kartavya che ke gurune gusse nA karAya. gurune gusse karAvanAra ajANapaNe samudAyanA hitanA drohI bane che. zAsananA drohI bane che. jIva mAtranAM apama`galane noMtare che. AthI ja sAdhaka satata jAgRta rahe. sAvadha rahe. vicAra, vANI ane vanathI mArI keAI evI pravRtti thatI nathI ke jenAthI guru gusse thAya ? tAruM mana A hitazikSA sAme eka aTapaTA prazna rAkhaze. " mArAthI guru gusse thAya ke temanA kaSAya mehanIyanA udayathI gusse thAya ? sAcuM kahuM chuM, tuM hajI khAlamaMdirane vidyArthI che. karmanA tatvajJAnanA Ama durupayoga na kara. pratyeka karma dravya, kSetra, kALa, bhAva, ane bhavane pAmIne udayamAM Ave che. azubha lezyAnu vAtAvaraNa sakleza janmAve che. eTale ja tane kahuM chuM ke hitazikSA pAmI tuM apama galanuM nimitta nA mana...tAre tArA gurune gusso na karAvavA jeTaluM sImita kArya karavAnuM nathI paNa pratyeka jJAnIne pIDA na thAya, duHkha na thAya te mATe khyAla rAkhavAne che. tuM guru tatvanA ArAdhaka ana! " je je jJAnI te te guru" jJAnInI AzAtanAmAM, jJAnIne pIDA ApavAmAM gurutatvanI AzAtanA thAya che! virAdhanA thAya che! gurutatvanA virahe

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30 ] mAnasika dveSathI paNa rahita ane te ja sAcA ahiM saka. tu avivekI banI jaIza. pazunI jema viveka zUnya banI jIMdagI pUrNa karIza. tethI kahu chu kema paNa jJAnIne duHkha na thAya tevI jIvanacaryAM banAva....hajI adhika kahuM! tu' jAtimAna azvaratna jevA bana. jAtimAna andhane paraNA khAveza na paDe. cAbukanA mAra sahana na karavA paDe! tuM paNa samajI vicArIne ....AgaLa vadha! tArA gurune Thapako ApavA nA paDe! upA - labha ApavA nA paDe! gurune Thapako zabdakozane zabda anAvI de. tu evA sAdhaka ana ke guru tArI sAdhanAnI sadaiva anumedanA kare. jema prabhue dhannA aNugAranI prazaMsA karI tema zu tArA guru tArI prazaMsA-tArI anumeAdanA na karI zake ? paNa AvuM zAMta suvyavasthita preraka jIvana tenu ja ane ke je sAdhu jagata para gussA nA kare ! khudanA para paNa gussA nA kare. svane kSamAnA jaLa dvArA zAMta rAkhe ! sAcu kahuM chuM sAdhaka ! tuM gaNita bhaNyA che paNa adhuru' bhaNyA che. tane saravALA bAdabAkI AvaDe che paNa guNAkAra bhAgAkAra AvaDatA nathI. jagatanA mADhe sAMbhaLatA tArA manamAM paNa eka vAta sthira thaI gai che. sAdhu jIvana eTale sahavAnu" ',, bhUla-moTI bhUla...mApha na thAya tevI bhUla akSamya bhUla-mAre sahavAnu. ? Ama vicAravAthI tA pAmaratA pedA thAya che. tethI kayAreka kayAreka mAre sahavAnu vicAra tane halakI maneAvRtti tarapha prere che. ane chevaTe tu jIvamAtrane rakSaka tArA khuddanA AtmAne bhakSaka banI jAya che. tethI tane kahuM chuM, jagata para gussA nA kara. tevI ja rIte jAta para, sva niAtmA upara paNa gusse nA kara ! eka vakhata hasatAM hasatAM kahe ke huM sahana karate nathI paNa mArA Atma vikAsa mATe kSamAguNa prApta karu chuM,

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zatrune paNu kSamA Ape te kSamAzramaNa, [ 31 kSamAguNa prApta thaze teA ana'tajJAna-kevalajJAna tane varamALA paherAvavA tatpara banaze. bhUlI gayA mahAtmA gajasukumAlane! sAmila sasarAe zirapara aMgArAnI sagaDI rAkhI. mahAtmAe vicAyuM, aMgArAnI sagaDI ke mAkSanI pAghaDI ? .....ka baMdhanA bhayaMkara nimittane sarvottama kema nija rAne upAya banAvyeA. zirapara aMgArA sahana karyAM tema nA lAgyuM paNa mArA AtmaguNe! mane ApyA, te ja karmInA yuddhamAM jayazreSa karI zakyA ! mahAtmA gajasukumAla ! mane joI e tamArA vicAranI navI paddhati. keTalI adbhuta! tame meha sAme kevA vyUha racce ! khicA sasarA saphaLa nA thaye paNa anaMta tIkarone kSamAyukta pakSa saphaLa thayA. prabhu mane dha kSamA Ape, svabhAva kSamA Ape. svabhAva kSamA ja savaguNunI jananI khanI zake che. khALakanI jema jada laIne beTho chuM. prabhu mArI hAthI kaMTALIne paNa ApeA-masa eka ja vAta svabhAva kSamA Apa mane braTThAna kare.. .... huM kyAre paNa mArA upara gusso na karuM... prabhu ! Apa nirmAMhI che. mane nirmAhI banavAnuM varadAna Ape. "apANa pi na vae" zAstra pATha dvArA eka ja ciMtana jAge che, mAhanIya kama nA kSaya joie, kazuM ja nA joIe teA gusse kAnA upara ? na jagata para, na khudanI jAta para. huM nijanA sAmrAjyane prApta karuM' e ja hArdika abhilASA...na

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6. Ayariya kuviyaM naththA. 5 prakRtinA khALa kheDUta ja dharAne samajI zake ane varasAdanA eMdhANane pArakhI zake. cAre bAju kaDAMkA--bhaDAkA thatAM hAya, AkAza vAdaLAthI chavAI gayu hoya ane vijaLIne. gaDagaDATa thatA hAya, ane kahe- varasAda Avaze ". e te koi nAgarika paNa kahI zake. paNa cAre bAju lU varasI rahI hai!ya, kayAM ya jarA jeTale chAMyaDA ya na hAya, chatAM ya AkAza joine edhANa pArakhe, ke varasAda Avaze te kharI kheDUtanA dIkarA. prakRtinI sAthe jenI dostI-mAyA-maheAkhkhata hoya te prakRtinA satyAne sahaja prApta karI zake tema jene AtmajJAnanI tamannA jAgI che-2lAgI che te AtmajJAna dAtA gurunA svabhAvane, temanA mijAjane samajI zake. guru prasanna che ke guru nArAja che? guru gussAmAM che ke samabhAvamAM ? sajjana ! guru ane vaLI gussAmAM ? amane A vyAkhyA majUra nathI. gurune te svabhAvamAM ja rahevu joie. putra kuputra thAya, paNa mAtApitA kumAtApitA thAya ? guru jo gussAmAM Ave te kahevuM paDe, dharA dhrujI UThI. hA ! sAdhaka !!! pRthvI para mAnavanA pApa vadhI jAya tyA dharA dhrujI uThe, " ziSyanA pApa vadhI jAya tyAre guru gussAmAM Ave." ziSyanI ucchaMkhalatA jue tyAre gurunA puNya prakApa jAgI UThe....pazu....sAdhaka banI te eka taraphI ja mAhitI rAkhI che.

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vivAda kare te ajJa, vAda kare te prAjJa, mauna rahe te mahAprAjJa. [ 33 "gussAmAM na Ave te guru, paNa tuM bhUlI gayegunA gussAne gaLI jAya te ziSya." sugya AtmA pratyeka kSetramAM pitAnuM rtavya zuM che? tene vicAra kare che ane pote kartavya dharme Daga bhare che ke nahi tenuM nirIkSaNa kare che. agya AtmA jyAM jAya tyAM pahele ja prazna karaze. mane zuM adhikAra maLe che? mAro kakako jaLavAya che ke nahi? mAruM gaurava, mAruM pada akhaMDita rahe che ke nahi? siddhimArganI keTalIka AgavI zarate che....tArA badhA adhikAra, hakaka, gaurava, mAna-sanmAnanuM visarjana kara. badhAe zuM karyuM? te pUchavAnuM nahi. mAre zuM karavAnuM? te pUcha ...badhAMnI bhUla zuM che...? te yAda nahi rAkhavAnI, mArI bhUla zuM thaI te dekhADo"..... jarA kaDaka zabdamAM kahuM ? jagatanA durguNa dekhavA aMdha banI javAnuM. jagatanA durguNa belavA mUMgA banI javAnuM. jagatanA durguNa sAMbhaLavA baherA banI javAnuM. ApaNI jAta sAme... apara mAtA...zakamAtAne vyavahAra zarU karI devAne. duguNa dekhavA te mArA ja, durguNa belavA to mArA ja, ane durguNa sAMbhaLavA te paNa mArA ja. vidyAthI jema koIne adhyayana nA karAvI zake, adhyApananuM kaparuM kAma te adhyApaka ja karI zake tema huM sAdhaka, sAdhanA karI zakuM paNa sAdhanA nA karAvI zakuM...mArI bhUla huM sudhArI zakuM, paNa bIjAnI bhUla jevI paNa nA joIe ane kahevI paNa nA joIe. bhUla kahevAne adhikAra tene ja che ke je bhUla sudhArI zake. siddha puruSa samA guru, ziSyanA

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34] guru kRpaNa mane paNa gurunI kRpA sadA udAra ja hAya. doSa kahI zake kAraNa ke guru ja ziSyanA doSarUpa vRkSane jaDamULathI uccheda karI tyAM ja guNavRkSane navapallavita karI zake che. sAdhakanu kA tA phakta eTaluM ja jovAnu'-tenI sAdhanAnA sukAnI guru prasanna che ke aprasanna? mArA guru mahAmA sadaMza, mArA guru siddhAtmA samAna ! teo nArAja rahe! tee gussAmAM rahe! A vicArathI sAdhakanI AMtara vyathA eTalI tIvra vadhI jAya ke have huM zuM karuM? jema kanyAnA mAMDave hasta meLApa thayAM bAda vararAjAne hRdayaroganA humalA thAya ane kanyAnA mAtApitAne je AghAta lAge tenAthI adhika ziSyane guru gusse thAya ta AdhAta lAge. mArA guru eTale sAdhanA mUrti... hajAro AtmAnI sAdhanAnA prANa, kAMDA ghaDiyALa bagaDe te kAMDA ghaDiyALa paheranAra asuro thAya. tenA samayamAM pheraphAra thAya paNa zaheranI madhyamAM rahela TAvara bagaDe tA...sAkhe zaherInAM jIvana dhAraNamAM dhamAla macI jAya. ane suraja-cAMda ADe jo vAdaLAM AvI jAya te sUrajanA taDakA nA dekhAya te....caMdranI yA nA na dekhAya te, prakRtimAM satra avyavasthA thaI jAya. jaDa-cetana badhAMnI gatine avarodha thai jAya. puSpa pAMgare nahi. puruSa puruSArtha kare nahi, vizvamAM sarvAMtra avyavasthAnu tAMDava nRtya zaru thaI jAya. " vizvanA samasta jIveAne samatA zAMti ane adhyAbhunA amRtapAna karAvanAra mArA gurudeva gusse thAya te adhyAtmanuM divya sAmrAjya chinna bhinna thaI jAya.

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zAstrAbhyAsamAM lInatA e ja apramatta bhAvane rAjamArga. [35 bhautiktAnI bhUtAvaLa cAre bAju bhayaMkara tophAna macAvI de. mArA guru gusse thAya che e joiza te AkAza pAtALa eka karIne paNa teone manAvIza....vinavIza...karagarIza... bhalA ! ! pazu ane mAnavamAM zuM taphAvata ? joyA pachI te pazu paNa pAchA haTe che. tuM yAda rAkha... tuM pazu nathI...te mAnava nathI..tuM sajajana ja nathI, tArI javAbadArI AthI paNa adhika che...tuM eka mahAna gurune ziSya che, tAruM jatana karavA gurue UMgha ane ArAma harAma karyA hatA. tane saguNI banAvavA tArA mAna-apamAnanA keTalAMya kaDavA ghUMTaDA tArA gurue gaLI khAdhAM che. tene mUrkhane jJAnI anAvavA tArA gurue zuM zuM prayatna karyA che? keTaluM sahyuM che? te viSe lakhavA besIza te mahAbhArata ane rAmAyaNa karatAM meTo graMtha lakhAI jaze. tAre gurune gusse jeIne vinavavA jeTaluM nAnuM kAma karavAnuM nathI. pharI pharI zrI uttarAdhyayanasUtranI amara paMktinuM ciMtana kara manana kara... * AyariyaM kaviya nagnA 2 padamAM "ccAzabda khUba ciMtana mAMge che. jANIne joIne nahi.hA...hajI mALAnI jema pharIvAra raTI le. gurune gusse thayelAM joIne nahi, paNa gurune gusse thayelA jANIne... vicAra zakti tArI pAse che-zabdane rahasyane ja nahi aMdaparyane meLava........... pavana AvyuM. nA...nA vAvaMToLa AvyuM. have dizA badalavI ja rahI. gurune gusse thayelA jANyA. eTale e vAta tane keIe paNa kahI, koInA upara paNa gusse thayA. koi paNa kAraNe gusse thayA...paNa mArI pharaja...sIthI mukhya pharaja temane rIjhavavAnA-manAvavAnA.....

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36 ] vicAra e AcAranI zreSTha jananI che. Aga lAgelI heAya tyAre amAvALA na pUche--Aga kema lAgI? TANe lagAvI ? yAre lAgI? khakhAvALA kahe-pahelI pharaja Aga zAMta karavAnI....praznanA javAba mATe jIMdagI AkhI che. jIvana raheze te praznanA javAba Ape!Apa maLaze. AgamAM sapaDAyelane prazna na pUchAya, tene ugArI levAne hAya... te mArA upakAraka gurunI upara krodha-AganI lapaTa.... mane ATalAM samAcAra maLyA. meM jANyuM, pachI...pachI kSaNavAra thAbhu` ? nA....nA....pavanavege paheoMcI jAu...mArA gurunA caraNa kamalamAM....mArA gurunA caraNa pazcAttApanA azrujaLa vaDe prakSAlI lau. hAtha joDI mAthu namAvI eka ja kahu, have pharI Ama nahi thAya....mApha karA...sAcA gunhegAra huM chu. mArA Adarzane vaphAdAra na rahyo. ApanI sAdhanAmAM skhalanA thAya tevuM mArAthI kaMi na thAya A bhUla mArI hAya ke mArA guruSa'nI hAya, mArI gurubhaginInI hoya ke mArAM sahavatI koIpaNa sAdhakanI hAya, paNa gunhAnA sarjaka huM chuM. mArA sahadhamI ne huM tene mA na batAvI zako. mArI guru bhaktimAM khAmI, nahitara mArI sAthe rahenAra mArA gurune gusse karI zake ? * Apa, gusse thayAM nathI. ApanA puNyaprApa che. ApanI lAgaNI kahI rahI che ke Ape amArI upekSA karI nathI. ApanA haiyAmAM amArA mA~gaLanI apekSA che. ahero jema sAMbhaLe nahi tA mATethI khelanAra tenu sAruM kare che. tema guru ! ame mehuthI pAgala thayelAM chIe. ApanI zAMta hita zikSAe amane gAMDapaNathI dUra nA karyAM...paNa....pAgala mANasa khUmathI Dare che. tema ame paNa have sAdhanA mAge` Apana gussAne samajI jarUra sIMdhA cAlIzu.

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sarvatra-sadAkALa samiti ane guptinuM pAlana kare te sAdhu. [37 guru caMDarudrAcAryanA gussAne nUtana munie jAye te gurune rIjhavyA. gurunI manAmaNu karI. kevaLajJAna meLavyuM. gurudeva! ame Apane rIjhavazuM...manAvIzuM... amane vizvAsa che ke je ame Apane gusse ane tenAM kAraNe samajIzuM te ame paNa kevaLajJAnanA atithi banIzuM. zuM ApanA lADIlA ziSya ziSyAone kevaLajJAnanA atithi nA banA! gunA gussAne je ziSya samaje te ziSyanA, Ama maMdiramAM kevalajJAnanI padharAmaNI thAya."

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7. pannA lAbhaIsmRti - rAjA bhagIratha gaMgAne kheMcI jaI zake che. tenA vaheNane badalAvI zake che. gaMgAnA tephAnane zamAvI sAgaramAM milana karAvI Ape che paNa...gaMgAne nAthavA rAjA bhagIratha nAgadevatAne ja ArAdhe che...gaMgAne nahi. jJAnacAhaka! tuM jJAna I che che? jJAnanI cAhanA rAkhe che? tane nijAtmasvarUpanA darzananI raDha lAgI che? siddhanA sukhane mANavA che ? tuM ema samaje che ke pustaka laIne besI jaIza eTale jJAna maLI jaze? mAtra puratakamAM ja lAge. rahIza eTale jJAnI banI jaIza? pustakane kIDe pustakamAM janme che ane puratakane ja nAza kare che te bhUlate nahi. vicAraNA karavA mAtrathI paNa tattvajJAnI banAtuM nathI. tattvajJAnI, AtmajJAnI, viziSTajJAnI banavA eka ane khI sAdhanA karavAnI che. svanI prasannatAthI jJAnanI prApti thAya paNa kharI ane na paNa thAya. je mehanIya karmathI...rati mehanIyanA udayathI khuzI meLavI hoya te khuzI anubhavatAM paNa karmabaMdha. gunI prasannatAthI jJAnanI adabhuta prApti 2. sUryane udaya thAya to kamalane vikAsa thAya ja. guru, prasanna thAya te ziSyane jJAnanI prApti thAya ja. prasanna guru ziSyanA kalyANamitra banI zake. kalyANamitra gurunI hitazikSA saphaLa bane. jJAna meLavAnuM mAre. mane jJAna maLe e mArA jJAnAvaraNIya karmanA kSe pazamathI, jJAnAvaraNIyakarmane udaya heya

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cAvI che. eka ja sahanazIlatA. [ 39 te jJAna prApta na thAya, jJAna nA maLe. mAre prayatna karavAne mArA jJAnAvaraNIyakarmanA nAza mATe. jJAna prApti mATe dhyAnanI jarUrata samajAya che, ekAgratAnI jarUrata samajAya che. svAdhyAyanI jarUrata samajAya che, ciMtananI jarUrata samajAya che paNa jJAna meLavavA gurune prasanna karavA joIe A vAta mane magajamAM utaratI nathI. ToLAmAM eka vyakti hAjI bele bIjA badhA samaje pahelA betye te DAhya, cale tene anusare. badhA bele hAjI huM te gADe nathI, mUrkha nathI. mane mAro AtmA jemAM DaMkhe... mArA AtmAne avAja nA saMbhaLAya temAM te huM hA na ja beluM, mAre mArA aMtaranA avAjane rudha nathI. sAdhaka! mAre nA chUTake kaDave zabda vApare paDe che. " tuM vAcALa che" zabda sahAmaNAM vApare che. paNa artha samajAte nathI. eka vAta yAda rAkhaje AtmAno avAja khUba dUra che. tArA abhimAna ne avAja...ahaMne avAja tane bhramamAM nAMkhe che. AtmAne avAja te sAce hoya, suMdara haya, tAraka hAya, uddhAraka hoya. AtmAne avAja AtmaguNathI dUra rAkhanAra ne heya. jJAna meLavavA jJAnAvaraNIyakarmane nAza joIe. pazama joIe paNa tuM jANe che jJAnAvaraNIyakarmanA nAzanA upAya? - nitya jJAnArjana jema jJAnAvaraNIyakarmanA nAzane upAya che. tema jJAnInI prasannatA paNa jJAnAvaraNayakarmane nAzane upAya che, eTale te tane kahuM chuM, "gurune prasanna kara, ke gurune prasanna karavA je je mArga hoya te vicArI le, samajI

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40 ] je jANIne jhera pI zake che te ja khIjAne amRta pAi zake che. le. pachI e mArge doDavA mAMDa....jJAnamUla guraH kRpA" A sonerI sUkti samajI le. paNa...prasannatA ane mAkhaNavRttimAM pharaka che. guru AgaLa sAruM khelavu...sAruM dekhAvuM ..guru samakSa gautama svAmI jevI ArAdhanA karavI. pAchaLa abhabhya AcAya jevI ArAdhanA karavI te mAkhaNavRtti gurunI prasannatA zAstrIya zuddhamA nA ArAdhanathI thAya che. prasannatAnA rAjamArga bhUlI gurune dekhAvathI Avita karavAnA mArge bhUle nA paDatA. dekhAva jaldI karI zakAya paNa prasanna karatAM vAra lAge. kAgaLanA jhADa para kerI eka divasamAM Ave paNa sAcA AMbAnA jhADa upara kerI AvatAM varSoM lAge..vinayaratne gurune AkRSTa karyAM hatA. guru gautamasvAmIe gurune prasanna karyA hatA. prasannatA sAdhanA che, AkarSaNa kRtrimatA che. kRtimatA jJAna na Ape, sAdhanA jJAna Ape. prasannatAno mArga jarA lAMbe che. AkaSa NanA mAga Tuka lAge che. paNa temAM mehanI aneka bhUlabhUlAmaNI che. AkaSa Nu karanArA jAdugara che. prasanna karanArA sAdhaka che. AkaSa Nu pArakA upara hAya....svanA nijanA AtmIyajanane rIjhavavAnA hAya, teonI maherabAnI kRpA-anugraha meLavavAnA hAya. jAdugara samRddhi meLave che. sAdhaka zAMti meLave che. tu eka maMtra raTI le. ajapAjApa banAvI de...mAruM gurune prasanna karavAnA che. guru prasanna raheze te ja mane vipula jJAna maLaze.

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vyavahAranI ArapAra nIkaLI jAya te nizcaya. [ 41 devaddhigaNi kSamAzramaNanA yuga pahelAM je guru prasanna thAya te jJAna maLe e hakIkata hatI paNa, have te Agama pustakArUDha thai gayA che pustake bhegA karIza....vAMcIza ane jJAnI banI jaIza. svAdhInamArga choDIne parAdhInamAge zA mATe jAuM? vaLI gurune prasanna karavA jauM tyAM gharaDA, vRddha, gaNa gaNune ApanAra, jokhIne belanAra, hajAravAra guru mArI pAtratAne vicAra kare. kadAca huM gurune prasanna karavA AkAza pAtALa eka karUM ane guru te svargadhAma tarapha musApharI karI le, te mArI badhI mahenata niSphaLa...! huM zA mATe parAdhInatAne svIkArUM? mArI AMkhamAM teja che. mArI buddhi che tyAMsudhI svaprayatnathI jJAna nA meLavI lauM? chatAM nahi samajAya te ekAda paMDitane belAvI laIzuM. zaMkA thaze te. samAdhAna meLavI laIzuM. gurune prasanna karavA jauM tyAM paNa keIka kahe, A te dekhAva karanAre che. keIka kaheze A hAle che. ame adekhA chIe A badhI mAthAkuTamAM paDI rAgadveSa karavA, avajJA-AzAtanA karavI tenA karatAM pustakathI jJAna meLavavuM keTaluM sAruM che. AjanA kALamAM to A mArga zreyakArI che tema huM mAnuM chuM. * - sAdhaka ! mAre gabhIratA rAkhavI joIe paNa tArI vAta sAMbhaLI mAruM hAsya kyuM rokAtuM nathI. tane mazkarI lAgaze. tuM kRtrimatAnA yugamAM janme che. mA nA dUdhane AsvAda karyo nathI eTale tane beTalanA dUdhanI ja yAda Ave che. beralamAM AvatuM dUdha paNa eka mAtAnuM ja vAtsalya che. pharaka eTale te pazumAtA paNa, tArI janmadAtA mAtA nahi. pazunA dathI tuM vivekazUnya banI gaye. basa.gurunA mukhathI jJAna

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42 ] tapazcaryA eTale aNAhArI Asane besavAnI sAdhanA ane pustathI prApta thatA jJAnamAM pharaka ATale ja che. hajI tane bhUlAI gayela muddAnI eka vAta yAda karAvuM. ' pustakamAM jJAna kayAMthI AvyuM? keIpaNa graMtha eka jJAnI. gurunuM sarjana che. gurunA be sarjana che. graMtha ane ziSyasaMtati. gurunA graMthane vArasadAra che saMyamI ziSya tuM pustakathI jJAna meLavIza te cera banIza. tuM sajanane svIkArIza ane sarjakanuM vismaraNa karIza? tuM vicAra kare. tane samajAze guru prasanna thaze te tAre egya tane jJAna prApta thaze. prasanagurue mAtuSa munine be pada ApyA. mAruSa mAtuSa (guse nA kara...mamatva na rAkha) bhASa0Sa munine A be pade ja kevalajJAna ApyuM. prasannagurue ja cilatiputranI dharmaprAptinI vicitra jhaMkhanA joI..eka hAthamAM talavAra che. eka hAthamAM strInuM mataka, che. mukhamAM trADa che "dharma batAve" paNa..AtmAnI yogyatA. guru samajyA ane guru mahArAje "upazama-viveka ane saMvara'nI tripadI ApI. guruvagara cilatIputrane keNa svaganI sIDI batAvI zake? bhUlI jA tArA tarka...vitarkane. jJAnI gurunI prasannatA. pedA karavI te paNa eka advitIya jJAna ArAdhanA che. prasannaguru varSanI sAdhanA bAda anubhavathI meLaveluM amRta tane Apaze. gurunI prasannatA e jJAna ane ekSaprApti ane upAya. bhalA sAdhaka!

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kaSTa veThIne jJAnane prakAza pAthare ane [ 43: karuNane pravAha vahevaDAve te mahApuruSa. pativratA strInI jema gurune prasanna karavA tatpara bana.guru prasanna thaze te gautamasvAmInA ziSya jevuM paNa thAya. guru chadmastha ane ziSya sarvajJa. samajAyuM.samajAyuM.....prabhu tamAruM tatvajJAna. gurune prasanna karavAno prayatna eTale gurutatvanI sAdhanA. eka. gurunI prasannatAne prayatna, ane anaMtagurunI kRpAnA hakkadAra.. prabhu! prathama kartavyamArge cAlavA zakti Ape. kartavya karanArane adhikAranI mAMgaNI karavI paDatI nathI. adhikAra tenA caraNamAM ALoTe che. have jJAna nahi mAMguM....jJAnanI prasannatA ja mAMgIza.. prabhu mArI vinaMti svIkAro.

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8. 'nANI nA deivae ' Wan khelavu' ane khakhaDavuM vacce zuM taphAvata ? sahaja rIte vicArIe teA khelavuM ane khakhaDavu banne vacana ceAga che. khelanArane paNa jIbhanI sahAya levI paDe che. khakhaDanArane paNa jIbhanI madada levI paDe che. bhASA va`NAnA pugale elavAmAM vaparAya che ane khakhaDavAmAM paNa vaparAya che. lavAmAM je zabdAtha vaparAya che te ja zabdakozanA upayoga khakhaDavAmAM thAya che. meAlanAra paNa a thI hu '" sudhInA akSaro vAparaze ane khakhaDanAra paNa thI huM " sudhInA akSare vAparaze. paryApta nAma karmInA uddaya anemAM sahAyaka che. paryApta nAma kama puNyadaya che. puNyAdayathI meLavelI ba Mne zakti che. pharakaze ? te samajAtuM nathI ! ! ! '' (( ,, a sAdhaka ! haju tu` dariyAnA kinArA upara UbhA che, kinAre chIpalAM Ave, meAtI nA Ave, ratna nA Ave. ratnAkaramAMsamudramAM marajIvA thaine DubakI mAre tA ja ratnanI prApti thAya. zrutasAgara paNa apAra che. agAdha che. zAstravettA banavAthI zAstranA rahasyA nA maLe. ciMtananA mahAsamudramAM DubakI mArIe te ja zAstra subhASita rUpa ratna prApta thAya ! sAdhaka ! ! zabdamAtranA pAragAmI nA khana. bhAvAnA vicAra kara. jarUra tane zAstranuM rahasya prApta thaze.... elavu e vacananI kalA che. babaDavu e vacananA durupayoga che. bolavAM pAchaLa zubha Azaya hoya che. khakhaDavA pAchaLa Akroza heAya che. elavAmAM manane saMyama hoya che. khakhaDavAmAM manane asayama hoya che. khelavAmAM zubha vicAro vyakta

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1/ 01-1000 vahetAM jharaNAnI mAphaka takalIphenI [ 45. vacce paNa mArga kADhe te mahAna. thAya che. babaDavAmAM azubha vicAre vyakta thAya che. bolavAthI sva artha (sva kArya) para arthe (para kArya para hita) siddha thAya che. kaMIka prApti thAya che. babaDavAthI svArtha ane parArtha bane bagaDe che. prApti kaMI nahi.nakAmuM nukazAna... bolavAmAM mahApuruSanuM anusaraNa thAya che. babaDavAmAM pazunuM anukaraNa thAya che. bolavAthI ApaNA zubha bhAve pragaTa thAya che. babaDavAthI durbhAva pragaTa thAya che." balavAnI AjJA sAdhune che. babaDavAnI sAdhune manAI che. " bhalA mahAtmA !!! prabhunI AjJAne tuM ArAdhaka che. tethI ka9ya aka9yane khyAla rAkhe che. bhaya abhakSya ne khyAla rAkhe che. te viveka avivekane vicAra kare che. gya agyamAM kayAMya bhUlato nathI. - AcAra ane aticAra samaje che. ArAdhanA ane virAdhanA samaje che. Adara ane anAdara samaje che. samyagU ane mithyA samaje che. ' jyAM bhUla thaI tyAM tuM tarata guru pAse AleMcanA levA doDI jAya che. te tArI ArAdhanAnI saharSa anumodanA.. AtmIyabhAve eka prazna pUchuM-tArI AlocanA pithImAM noMdha che ke te eka varSamAM keTalIvAra babaDATa karyo ? ka hitasvI! Ape zuM kahyuM? babaDATanI yAdI ? Ape mane ghaNuM samajAvyuM. paNa eka samasyA manamAM, rahe che. laDAInI, jhagaDAnI noMdha karu....kAraNa, temAM bIjane.

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46 ] saMcAgA badalAya chatAM bhAvanA sthira rahe tenuM nAma sAdhanA. duHkha pahoMce che. khakhaDATamAM te ghaNI vAra svagata saMbhASaNa hoya che. ekalAM ja khelavAnu hAya che, ajAne duHkha nahi koi vratanI virAdhanA nahi. prabhu AjJAnuM ullaMghana nahi te abaDATanI AlocanA zAnI ? sAdhaka ! A tAro prazna nathI. kaliyuganA prazna che. svacchaMda manane prazna che. pharI gAkhI le. punaH puna smaraNa karI le. khakhaDATa e laDAi-jhaghaDA maryAdA ullaMghananI prAthamika bhUmikA che. mAnasika asaMtoSa khakhaDATa karAve che. manamAM uzkerATa hAya te ja mAnava ekale ekalA svagata khakhaDe. jyAM sa MtoSa hAya, mananI zAMti hAya tyAM kyAre paNa khakhaDATa na heAya." sAdhu tu zAMtinA phirasto . sataSanu jIvaMta rUpa... tu khakhaDATa kare? ? ? sudharmA svAmI ja dhrUsvAmIne pharamAve che. "nANI ne paridevae'tuM sAdhanAmArganA pravAsI-mokSanA cAhaka- cAritradhara eTale tuM sAcA jJAnI (bIjA pustaka paDIta). " vilApa kare te strI, pralApa kare te mUrkha' " sa`lApa kare te sajjana, AlApa kare te sAdhu ' jJAnI AlApa kare--prasaMge sa'lApa kare, paNa pralApa na kare ane vilApa paNa nA kare. mahAtmA ja....tuM sAdhu che. eTale parameSThi che, parama sthAne birAje che. zreSTha sthAna zaibhAve che. jJAna vagara zreSTha sthAna maLe ? tArA eka vacanamAM vizvanA uddhAranI tAkAta pedA thavI joI e

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kAma karIne ghasAI javuM sAruM che, paNa kAma karyAM vagara kaTAI javuM nakAmuM che. [ 47 'vacanane saMmita banAvavA manane samita banAvavu ja paDe. jenuM mana saMyamI tenI konI sAme phariyAda ? zuM sAdhu bhUkhathI sIDhAya ? zuM sAdhu tarasathI AkuLa ane zuM sAdhune ThaMDI gabharAve ? zuM garamI sAdhune akaLAve! zu sAdhu macchara-mAMkaDanA DaMkhathI * trAhimAma trAhimAm ' peAkAre! zuM sAdhu vasra nA hAya tA junA purANA vajrathI kAMTALe ! zuM sAdhu pratikULa vAtAvaraNamAM aNugamA anubhave ! zu' sAdhu rUpavatI strInA ANamAM bhAna bhUle ? zu sAdhu vihAra karavAthI thAke ? sAdhu eka jagAe nivAsa karavAthI kaMTALA anubhave! zuM sAdhu anukULa upAzraya na maLavAthI khUme! mAre? zuM sAdhu koInA tiraskArathI sAdhu jIvanathI ubhagI jAya ? zu sAdhune kAI mAre te sAme pratikAra kare ? zuM sAdhu gocarI jata. lajjA anubhave? zuM sAdhu eka divasa gocarI nA maLe te! bIje divase geAcarI nA jAya ? zu sAdhu TAi da Ave vyathA anubhave ? zu' sAdhu kayAMya . zarIrane pratikULa sparzI thaka gayA tA hatAza mane? zu sAdhu zarIra paranA mela joi snAnanI cAhanA kare? zuM sAdhu sAdhupaNu.mAM cakravatI nA namaskAra joI khudanu gautra mAne ? zu sAdhu "khudanA muddhi vaibhavathI mugdha banI bIjAne tuccha sama ? zuM sAdhu prayatna karavA chatAM jJAna na maLe te puruSAtha thI kaTALe? zu sAdhu tarkazAstranA abhyAsa karatAM satya asatyanA vivekane vismare ? nA...nA... jJAnI...tu kayAre paNa pralApa nA kare, pralApa eTale samajyA ne ? sAdhanA mAthI viparIta kAya tuM kare nahi. tu jJAnI che eTale pratyeka vyakti--pratyeka padAtha

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pa khapa paN 48] bhega e vinAzaka che, tyAga e sarjaka che. ane pratyeka paristhitimAM sAdhanAnI moja mANI le. jJAnanI mastI tuM evI anubhave ke pariSahanI palaTanane palAyana thavuM ja paDe." mahAtmA ! bhUla nahi. sadA yAda rAkha. aMdhaka svAmInA ziSya ghAMcInI ghANImAM pIlAtA gayA paNa, teoe pApI pAlakanI phariyAda nA karI. mUka sAkSI banI rahela nagarajanenI niMdA na karI. paNa pariSahane samabhAve sahana karI AtmA tejanA camatkArane vizvamAM vistAryA prabhu! mane joIe - parisaha sahavAnI anupama mastI. prabhu ! - tamArA jJAnanA mahAsAgaramAM nimagna banI karmanA. dAhajavarane dUra kare che. prabhu! tamArA prabhAve jJAnI banuM. babaDATa cAlyA jAya ane ApanI jema mAruM vacana paNa sarva zreSTha vacana bane. pravacana bane, jenA sahAre sau tare. prabhu! zuM 'tijJANe tAyA"nI padavI mane nA Apo! mAre jagatanA keI pada-sanmAna-gaurava-abhinaMdana-anumodana nA joIe. mAre joIe tamArA jevI ja zreSTha padavI... prabhu! Apane tinnANuM tArayANuM" pada. te pada meLavavA kammara kasIne prayatna karIza. rAta-divasanA ujAgarA veThIne paNa cagya banIza. prabhu! khAtarI ApuM chuM. Ape mane sAdhu banAvyuM. have jarA paNa babaDATa nahi karuM paNa... tame mane khAtrI nA Apa "tinnANuM tArayANuM" pada ApavAnI ???

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9. bhi'' naM sajale Wan eka vIsathI paccIsa varSoMnA yuvAna cheka eka strIne eTale pajave che. eTalI gALa de che. eTalu mAre che. strInA hAthapagamAM kayAreka teA kaLa caDI jAya che. TuTIyu vALIne sUI jAya che. pAchI pAMca miniTa thAya che ane te kAM pAchaLa doDe che, samajAvI phAsalAvI chekarAne laI Ave che, pAchI enI eja pravRtti. nityane krama thaI gaye. nathI strI thAkatI...nathI chekarA thAkatA. paNa jonArA have A dazyathI thAkI gayA. eka maTaka elA dake hiMmata karI pUchyuM. ena, tame Ama teA khUba kaDaka svabhAvanA che. e vAta tamArI mukhAkRti kahI de che. paNa A bALaka ATaluM mAre che chatAM tame kema sahI leA che ? pharI pharI ene kema samAveA che ? ena prazna sAMbhaLI kaMIka gabhIra banI gayA. pharI haLavA thai kahevA lAgyA....bhAI...A mArA lAla che. e garbhamAM hatA ane enA pitAe vasamI vATanI vidAya lIdhI. traNa varSoMnI uMmarathI AMcakI AvavI zaru thaI gaI. ane temAMthI A taphAna zaru thaI gayuM. kaMI nahi, huM " mA chuM te khALaka " che. mane gussA ja tenA upara AvatA nathI teA zuM karuM? gusse| vyakta karavA nahi te judI vAta che, gusse Avave nahi te judI vAta che ane gussA thaI javA te judI vAta che. jenI pAse vicAranI zakti nathI te vyakti gusso karI de che. jenI ' pAse vicAranI zakti che te vyakti gussa karatI nathI.... 4

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50] khIjA karatAM hu sAro chuM evuM AzvAsana meLavavuM te pragatinA ata che, paNa....jene savicArane ane khudanA bya dharmane siddha karavA Ina vrata lIdhuM che tene te gussA pedA ja nathI thatA. jagatanA pratyeka dardI a Mge sa Mzodhana thAya che ane sa MzAdhana bAda te dardIne nAbuda karavA dareka prakAranI paddhati svIkArAya che. paNa samasta vizva sadA kALa je dardathI pIDAya che, ghara..gharamAM je dardInA dadI e che te dardInI ApaNe keTalI upekSA karI rahyA chIe. tenI nathI koI ci'tA ! nathI koi duHkha ! bahu kahIzu te javAba ekaja maLaze...zu' thAya ? kANa kone kahe !!! nadI DokaTara banI zake ke nireNI DokaTara banI zake ? nirogI DAkaTara dghanA nidAna karI zake. Ine dardInI ciMtA na thAya tene tenI bhayAnakatAnI khabara nathI. paNa DokaTarane khabara che ke A da tIvra manaze te! vizvamAM kevA bhayaMkara rogacALA phelAze .. vizvanA samasta mAnava krodhanA bhayaMkara rAgathI gherAI gayA che. paristhiti evI che koI koI ne rAgI paNa kahI nA zake, za mATe ? rAgI kahIzu te sAMbhaLavu paDaze "mahAgI." A bhayaMkara dInI ciMtA thaI bhavavaidya paramAtmA devAdhideva mahAvIra bhagavAnane, kSamAnI auSadhi lai te gAma gAma ghUmyA...nagara nagara ghUmyA...mAnava mAnavane sadeze. paheoMcADavA paramAtmA anAya dezamAM paNa vicaryA-viharyAM... paramAtmAnI dayA mAnavasudhI sImita nA rahI. jIvamAtranA hitaciMtaka krodhanA mahArogamAM phasAyela pelA caDakauzika sapanA khIla pAse paNa prabhu pahoMcI gayA. caMDakauzikane paNa paramAtmAe

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brahmacaya eTale AtmAne viharavAnu` medAna. [ 51 kSamAnI dibdha jaDIbuTTI ApI teA...peAtAnA vArasadAra putra putrI samA ziSya- ziSyAnI bhAva karuNA bhUle? paramAtmAe dIkSA ApatAM ja zikSA ApI...khAvIsa pariSahanuM jJAna ApatA pharamAvyuM ke...Akroza...tiraskAra...gusso apamAna Adi pariSahA te dIkSA laIza tyArathI ja zaru thai jaze. tAru puNya haze, kadAca tArA guru zAMta haze. tArA sahavatI sAdhako zAMta haze. uparAMta haze, kAraNa te khadhA mahAtmA che. paNa tAre jAhera jIdagI jIvavAnI che. je sau tane mArA ...mArA....amArA....amArA kahetA hatA tene tyAga karI je pUche che "tame keNu? kayAMnA ? tamAre ne amAre zu?'' evA parAyAjana sAthe samabhAva bharyAM amara sabaMdha sthApita karavAnA che. A badhAne sAdhu nahi game, sAdhutAnI vAta niha game, sAdhunA samAgama nahi game. tethI jema teonI nikaTa jaIza tema tAruM apamAna karaze, tiraskAra karaze, asatya vacana khelaze, tArI niMdA karaze, tArA paramAtmAne nirdeze, tArA tyAMga dhane nirdeze ane chevaTe tArA samabhAvane paNa nirdeze....paNa sAdhaka ! tuM have mArA aMza che. mArA AdarzaneA pUjaka che. tethI tane eka sAka pada ApuM chuM, " kSamAzramaNa...." ane haiyAnI hitazikSA Apu chuM. " " sirasA hAI bAlANa"-tamhA bhikhU na sajale" jo tuM jarA paNa kapa karIza to bALaka sarakhA banI jaIza. mATe he! bhikSu tu jarAya kopa nA kara. paramAtmAnA vacanane AdhIna banI sAdhaka keza--luMcana karAve che. ra'gaberaMgI vastranA tyAga kare che. pAMca Azravane

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para ] je bhAva patthara jevA haiyAne paNu mINa jevA banAvI de tenuM nAma samaNu. tyAga kare che. asidhArA gamana sayama mahAyAtrAno prAraMbha kare che. te paramAtmAnA prANasamIkSamAnA sadbhAgI kema na ane ? pratyeka AcAranI pAchaLa vicAranuM gupta khaLa Y preraka ane pUraka haiAya che. mAtA jIjIbAinA preraka baLe ja zivAjI hindu rAjyanA sa MrakSaka banyA. AdarzavAdI AgevAna netA kayA2e paNa prajA upara AcArane bhAra lAdatA nathI. AcAranI prakriyA niyata karatAM nathI paNa zreSTha AcAranI jananI vicAra zreNIne ja majabUta banAve che. zivAjI mahArAjA gaMmAM che ane mAtA jIjubhAI rAmAyaNanA araNya kAMDanA rAja pATha kare che. zivAjInA janmabAda ATha varSa sudhI A krama niyata rahyo che. ekavAra araNyakAMDa sAMbhaLatA zivAjI pUche che. mA ! rAvaNu kANu ? rAma koNa ? mA kahe che beTA vamAnanA rAvaNa auraMgajhekha ane vamAnanA rAma mAro dIkaro zivAjI. basa....A preraNAe zivAjIne adbhuta khaLa ApyuM ane hindu rAjyane vijaya thayA.... mAtA jIkhAI ne zivAjI mATe je Adaza che tenA karatAM anaMtagaNA sANalAM tItha kara devane sAdhaka mATe che. eTale ja ApaNane krAdhanA bhaya kara pariNAme darzAvI kahe che tane A kAya sApu chuM, "vizva vyApI gussAnA rogane nAbuda karavAnuM.".....paNa....yAda rAkhaje,-A nadI e hullaDa macAvaze. paNa tuM tArA jJAna siddha adhikAra nA gumAvatA. " rise hAI alANuM, tanhA bhikabU na sajale "

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svAdhyAya e krodharUpI jherane mATe nAgadamanI che. [ 53 jagat kodhanI AgamAM bhaDake baLI rahyuM che. kAraNa, temanI pAse jJAnanuM jaLa nathI. ajJAnane lAvArasa ja koine javALAmukhI jagAve che. ja "jJAnI te vaDIla, ajJAnI te bALaka.' : "jJAnI te netA, ajJAnI te ToLuM." ka "jJAnI te saMrakSaka, ajJAnI te rakSAyegya." * "jJAnI te mAtA, ajJAnI te bALaka." ajJAnIne jJAnI banAvavA sadA yatna kare te mahAtmA. sAdhaka tArA zira para te javAbadArI che. vizvane samajadArInI zikSA ApavAnI. jo tuM gussa kare te... sAdhanAno saravALo ke bAdabAkI ? pharI...pharI... eka ja vAta kahuM chuM. tatvajJAnathI pratyeka jIvane nihALa-pratyeka jIvane bALa samaja ane sau bALakane tArI adhyAtma dRSTinA darzana karAva... he paramAtmA !... " bhale ApanA hastakamalathI dIkSita nA bane. paNa ApanI AjJA dvArA ja dIkSita banyuM chuM. mArI te eka vinaMti ApanAM caraNakamaLamAM che. krodha mane bALaka na banAvI de. krodha mArI sAdhanAne saMharI na le, tevA mArA amegha saMrakSaNakAra bane.

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10. mapi na paesae ' "" 5 zabda avAja AvavAthI anumAna thAya ahIM koI che. vicAravAthI samajAya pazu nahi paNa mAnava che. " tema sadvyavahAra ane asadRvyavahArathI sahuja darzana thAya che, mAnavInI mAnasika paristhitinA '... manovaijJAniko kahe che mAnavInA pratyeka svapnanA sUkSma abhyAsa kare. vizleSaNa thatAM mAluma paDaze. mAnasiMka lAgaNI kayAM dubhAI che? kAM lAgaNInuM vaheNa saraLagatie kAM vahyuM che? mAnavInI AzA kathA pUrNa anI che athavA kAM apUrNa rahI che ? C dharmazAstra kahe che tAre sAcA dhamI anavuM che? tAre AMtarika dhamI banavuM ja hAya,te jIvamAtra pratyenA tArA vartanane sudhAra. tArA vacanane sudhAra...tArA vicArane zuddha kara. A AMtarika dhamI banavAnA krama che. paheluM pagathiyu hajI sahelu che. bIju ethI agharuM che. ane trIjuM pagathiyu siddha thAya te AMtarika dhamI banI javAya. vizva sAthe bhayaMkara ceDA karanAra... eTama beba nAMkhanAra paNa peAtAnA zarIranuM sa MrakSaNa vicArIne ja bIjAne herAna kare che. svanA sa MrakSaNa mATe paNa bIjAnA prANa macAvavA paDe che. tethI te sahelu che. koinA pagane IjA paheoMcADavA pratyeka vyakti tatpara che. paNa peAtAnA pagane upayoga nA kare. paganA upayoga karu ane kadAca nukazAna thAya te... A vicArathI paNa mAnava vanane kAbumAM le che.

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je gurunA jJAna khajAnAne vArasadAra che | | papa te ja gurune sAce vArasadAra che. mAnava keI sAthe vAphakalaha kare che. ghaNuM laDavuM che. sAmA mANasane beIjjata kare che. paNa gaLuM besI jAya te? bhASA na samaje te? sAme javAba na Ape te ? AvA kaMIka kAraNathI paNa vANIne kAbumAM le che. paNa... mananuM yuddha, vicArane saMgharSa-avirata paNe cAlu ja hoya che. vicAranA samarAMgaNamAM mAnavIne bahAranA keI baMdhana rekI zakatAM nathI. tethI ja AMtarika dhamI bananArane jagata gurune upadeza che, "tuM manathI vizuddha bana. mananA saMgharSathI virAma pAma. tAre eTalAM ahiM saka banavAnuM che ke jIva mAtra pratye mAnasika dveSabhAva paNa rAkhavAno nathI." tuM prazna karavAne bahArathI vartana sAru rAkhIye belavAmAM na bagADIe . paNa manathI kema pavitra rahI zakAya? asaMjJI ochAM chIe? mana che te vicAra Ave. vicAra Ave eTale badhAnAM vyavahAra vartana yAda Ave... sAcuM kahI dauM?...bahArathI prema rAkhI zakAya. paNa manamAM jenA pratyedveSa thaye tene manathI kema mAphI ApI zakAya??? sAdhaka ! huM tane eja hitazikSA ApuM chuM. tArA manamAM praSa na lAva....manamAM verajhera...IrSonI paraMparA pedA thaI te dUra karavI khUba kaThIna che. tethI ja kahuM chuM. tArA manane pavitra rAkha...manamAM zreSa-praASa tene pedA thAya che, ke je badhAnI pAse hakka dAva kare che. saunA gunhAne yAda rAkhavAnI ane tene badalo levAnI duSTa bhAvanAmAMthI manamAM dveSa pragaTa thAya che. jyAre ApaNA khudanA kartavyanuM bhAna thaze tyAre vAtsalyanI saritA vaheze. premane sAgara hileLe caDhaze.......

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pa6] je tamAre duHkhanI jarUriyAta nathI te duHkhane yAda karaze nahIM. * bALaka gaMdu thaIne Ave tyAre mAtA Thapake Apa paNa dveSa na kare. gaMdA bALakane paNa cekhuM kare. kAraNa mA samaje che. nAne che eTale samajatA nathI tethI gaMde thAya che. mane gaMdakI gamatI nathI. kAraNa, huM meTA chuM eTale gaMdakInA nukazAnane samajuM chuM. mAruM kartavya che ke mAre gaMdakI sApha karavI joIe. kartavya dharma bajAve tyAM kItinA pATIyA lagAvavAnAM hoya? basa, bALakanuM bALapaNa tenA svabhAvane kahI de che, ane mAtAnuM mAtRtva tene vAtsalyane kahe che te ja tenI siddhi. vidyAthI lekhanamAM bhUla kare. kharAba akSara kADhe te zikSaka zuM kare? Thapake Apa ne paNa tenI bhUlane ya sudhAre.... zikSakanA manamAM zuM vicAra Ave ? vidyAthI che. hajI vidyAnA mUlya samaye nathI..ajJAna che. tenA para dveSa nA karAya.... tene mArgadarzana apAya... paramAtmA sarvajJa tIrthakarane sAdhu eTale vizvanI jIvamAtranI karUNApUrNa jananI-mAtA...." jagatanA je sAdhune trAsa Ape. duHkha Ape-pIDe- kanaDe gALa de...mAre...are ! sAdhanAmArgathI bhraSTa kare te paNa sAdhu tene badale nA le tenI sAthe jhaghaDe nahi. are ! manamAM paNa e jIva pratye halake bhAva nA lAve. phakta sAdhunI mane bhUmikAmAM vicAra Ave te e vicAra Ave. "bhUla kenI sAmenA AtmAnI ke mArA karmonI ) agni bALe te sanAtana satya, pANI ThaMDaka Ape te sanAtana satya

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vaDIleAnAM AzIrvAda e ja jIvananI sAcI muDI che. [ 57 kAM avazya bhUla karAve te sanAtana satya, zaitAna sAdhune herAna kare te sanAtana satya, kadAca koI maMtra prayAga--taMtra prayoga-jAdu prayAgathI A satya-asatyamAM parAvartana pAme.... traNa kALanuM satya tA e ja sAdhu zetAnane paNa kSamA Ape zetAna mATe paNa sAdhunA hRdayamAM dveSa nA hAya-vera nA hAya, krodha nA hAya. sAdhu dveSa kare-dveSanA kAraNa rUpa rAga upara, mamatva upara, Asakti upara. AsaktinuM prathama sthAna mudghanA deha-khudanu zarIra ApaNe laDIe chIe-vaDhIe chIe-dveSa rAkhIe chIe. dehane pIDA ApanAra upara ja ne ? ApaNuM mamatva deha upara eTalu thaI gayuM che ke " deha te huM ane huM te deha. '' eTalI ajJAnadazAmAM paheoMcI jaie chIe-ane nazvara deha mATe zAzvata AtmAne paranA dveSathI durguNI banAvI daI e chIe, dveSanI mAtA mamatAnA cakkaramAM AvI anaMta janmamaraNanA apama'galane svIkArI laIe chIe. AthI ja paramAtmA mahAvIradeve sAdhakane sAdhanAnA prAraMbhakALamAM ja khAvIza parISahane vijaya karavAne kahyo. AvIza pariSaddha para te ja vijaya karI zake jene hanumamatva nA hAya. dehanuM mamatva nA rahe te dehane duHkhI karanAra pratye dveSa nA thAya. dveSa nA thAya teA khudanA kartavyanu jJAna thAya. sAdhaka ! manane pavitra karavAne kimIyA che mamatvanA sAmrAjyane phagAvI devAne dhyAnapUrvaka sAMbhaLa....

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58] puruSArtha e vartamAnane hisAba-ktiAba che. ane puNyAI e pUrvane hisAba-kitAba che. rAga jaze eTale dveSa pitAnA bistarA bAMdhI turata. ravAnA thaze. rAga-dveSa jyAM AtmAmAMthI vidAyanI taiyArI karaze tyAM kSapaka zreNInI zobhAyAtrAnA maMgalarUpa apramatta bhAva nA maMgalavAdyothI tAruM mana maMdira guMjita banI jaze. prabhu! manane praDhaSa dUra karavAnA bahAne Ape mane apramatta bhAvane rAjamArga batAvyuM. te bAla bhAve svIkAra chuM.-ApanI sAdhanAnI pagadaMDI para caDhI rahyo chuM. rakSaNa karaje. mArI sAdhanAnuM .....

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11. dghi jIvasa nAsAtti mAnava tattvajJAnanI mATI mATI vAteA karI zake che paNa . tattvajJAnane jIvaMta svarUpa banAvavAne jyAre avasara Ave. che tyAre sAce virATa dekhAtA mAnavI vAmana khanI jAya che. . ApaNane kSaNabhara lAgI jAya zuM A mAnava virATa hate! ? tattvajJAnamAM AnaMda mAnatA hatA? Wan paramAtmA mahAvIre .tattvajJAna pharamAvyuM che, paNa te ja upadeza te ja zikhAmaNa jagatane ApyA che ke je svanA jIvanamAM peAte AcaryAM hatA. ghaNI vakhata mAnava tattvajJAnanI vAte phakta buddhinI kasarata mATe kare che paNa aMdarathI AvA mAnavI bhautikavAdane bhakta hAya che. koine da` thayuM, teNe cIsa pADI, tarata ApaNe eka bhASaNa cheDayuM emAM zuM kAyaranI jema bUma mAre che? ... zarIra che teA hRda Ave! * koI vidhavA strInA ekaneA eka lADakavAyA dIkaro mUchanA dArA phUTe te pahelAM ja cira nidrAmAM peArDI jAya tyAre katavyamAge ApaNe sthira rahetA nathI ane tattvajJAnanA zikSaka hAie tevI ja adAthI kahIe chIe AMsu zA mATe ? sayega che teA viyAga thavAnA ja !" keAI madhyama paristhitivALAM sajjananA ghare cArI thaI. tenA gharamAM sahunA mAMDhA sIyAvIyA thaI gayA che tyAre zrIma'tAInA madre jhUle jhUlatAM peTa upara hAtha pheravatA TelIphezanamAM risIvara upara eka lAMbu pravacana ApI daie chIe. bhAI !.

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60 AzIrvAda meLavavA mATe buddhinI nahIM, paNa aMtaHkaraNanI zuddhinI jarUra che. Ama zuM gabharAI jAya che ? sukha-duHkha teA mAnava. upara ja Ave ne ? paisA gayA che tAru bhAgya to nathI gayuM ne ? pharI puruSA kara...puruSAthathI sava` siddhi prApta thaze. koI navA navA kAryakara phariyAda laine AvyA, sAheba ! have huM teA kAma nahi karuM? leAkone mArA para vizvAsa nathI, kevI gajabanI vAtA kare che! duniyA keTalI vicitra che! mArAthI A apamAna sahana thatuM nathI. A tamArI phAila saMbhALe ! AjathI mAruM kA kSetra meM teA khalyu ! turata ApaNe kahI daIzuM .... are DhIlI dALanA ! Ama zu gabharAya che? tuM sevA karavA gayA hatA ke mevA meLavavA ? samAjamAM te! Ama ja cAle. saunI vicAra zreNI sarakhI nA hoya. gAma vacce je kUvA hoya tene koI uDA te kaMI chIcharo kahe... gabharAI nahi javAnuM niSkAma banIne sevA karavAnI, badalAnI-phaLanI AzA ja nA rAkhavI. bhaleA thA....ane tArA kAmAM AgaLa vadha. ekavakhata eka jagyAe ToLuM ekatrita thayelu joI koI bhalA sajjanane thayuM, lAva, zAMti sthApuM. ToLAMnI vacce ghUsyuM, ane jUthane samajAvavA lAgye. ToLAMvALA kahe .. amAre salAhakAra nathI joitA. amAre te amArA pakSakAra joIe chIe. mAla ! tuM amArA pakSamAM che ke nahi ! eka tAkAnIe paga kheMcyA bIjAe hAtha kheMcyA...paristhiti e sajA NI hAtha paga ane nakAmA thaI gayA. zuM karuM ? samajAtuM nathI. bhAi sAheba ! salAha Ape, rAjyAzraya. lauM ? turata ja zANA sajjana jevA ApaNe kahIe chIe.... TALu eTale pazuvRtti-jyAM phakta dhamasANa ja hAya-buddhi nA

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kAyAne vyApAra e TakelA akSara che, [ 61 jenA saMskAra jIvanamAM rahI jAya che. hoya. tuM haju puNyazALI che jIvato Ave, hAtha pagane ja nukazAna thayuM che ne? cha mahinAmAM ArAma thaI jaze. keI dezapremInI patnI AvIne karUNa kalpAMta kare che. dezanI rakSAmAM hAlAe vasamI vidAya lIdhI. have ekalI - aTulI huM zuM karIza? draupadInI vahAre deDanAra zrIkRSNanI adAthI ApaNe kahIe chIe ena! zarIrane nAza thaye, AtmAne. nAza kayAM thaye che! bIjA janmamAM tamAre pati tamane maLaze. Ama vividha paristhitimAM aneka vyaktine ja tatvajJAnanA pATha ApanAra ApaNe ApaNuM jarA mAMthuM duHkhatA gabharAI gayA. jarA tAva AvyA ne muMjhAI gayA. jarA keIe. apamAna karyuM ane karamAI gayA. keIe ekAda thappaDa mArI, tyAM te ApaNA mRtyunI AgAhI karavA besI gayA. mahAtmA jaMbU....! saMsArI ane sAdhu vacce pharaka A ja. saMsArI tattvajJAna meLave jagatane zikhAmaNa ApavA. saMyamI tatvajJAna meLave Atmasiddhi prApta karavA paramAtmAnA darzana karavA. pitAnA AtmAne tAravA. narthIi jIvasa nAsatti 25 pada lalakArI AkAzane. gajAvavAnuM nathI paNa bhautikavAdamAM muMjhAtA-aTavAtA AtmAne mArga para lAvavAnI A divya mazAla che. A mazAla. ajJAnanA aMdhakAramAM rAha bhUlelA AtmapravAsIne anaMtanA mArgamAM sthira kare che. sAdhanA mArganuM pathadarzana karAve che. tuM kSamAzramaNu che eTale kSamA mATe ja mahenata karanAra che. kSamAguNanI prApti mATe ja tAre dharakhama puruSArtha

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62] paramArtha e vahetI nirmaLa nadI che, svArtha e gaMdu khAbeciyuM che apamAna, tiraskAra, niMdAnA prasaMgane tuM eka navI daSTithI nihALaje. kSamAnA pATha te ghaNe gokhyAM, Aje mArA kSamA dharmanI parIkSAne dhanya divasa che. - zAsanadeva ! sahAya karaje kSamAnA pradAnamAM, prathama zreNimAM prathama AvuM." huM jaDane pUjArI nathI ke jaDathI uzkerATa anubhavuM, mukta mane hasatAM hasatA kahIza tame mArA guru che. tame je rIte je zabda vAparyA te huM paNa vAparIza tamArI ja paddhatie. phakta pharaka eTale duSTa vyakti upara nahi paNa mArA mananI duchavRtti upara. - mahAtmA ! tuM zramaNa ja nahi, sumana che, puSpa che. puSpa pamarATa phelAve, karamAIne paNa sugaMdhane saMdeze vizvane Ape. tuM vicAraje. huM mArA mananI vRttine sumana banAvIza ahita ciMtakanuM ahita karavuM. vADakI ApavI ane levI e te saMsArInI paddhati. mAna Ape tene mAna ApavuM, apamAna kare tenuM apamAna karavuM, belAve te belavuM na lAve te nA belavuM, ApaNI niMdA kare tenI niMdA karavI, ApaNI prazaMsA kare tenI prazaMsA karavI, ApaNuM kAma kare tenuM kAma karavuM na kare tenuM nA karavuM, - ApaNI sAthe saMbaMdha rAkhe tenI sAthe saMbaMdha rAkhave, - ApaNI sAthe saMbaMdha na rAkhe tenI sAthe nA rAkhave,

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namratA dvArA sajJatAnI prApti thAya che. [63 AvuM te eka sa MsArI kare. tuM sumana ! sArA manavALA. manaH praryAptithI saptamI narakanuM AyuSya AMdhanArA mAnava, nahi paNa manaH rsthAptithI mane yAganA sahAre apramattabhAve niSkaSAya banavAnA prayatna karanAra mahAsAdhaka jagatanA abudha annAnI jIva pratye tAruM vana yAyukta, tArI vANI karUNApUrNa, tArA vicAra hitapreraka. tArA vicAra, vANI, ane vana vizvanA mApadaMDa bane tevA Adaza joie. kayAMya koI vyakti bhUla karatI hAya ane tAruM nAma yAda Ave ane tenu jIvana badalAI jAya, parivartana pAmI jAya. tArI smRti koI zetAnane sa Mta banavA prere teAtuM sAdhu che....tuM sumana che te nakkI mAnaje prabhu pAse ApaNe mAMgIzuM... prabhu ! Aje tamArI pAse tamArA najIkanA saMbaMdhI tarIke eka vastu uchInI levA AngeA .. saMbaMdha jALavI mane ApanA e AMsunA biMdu uchInA Apene ! meM eTaluM na karyu che ke svayaMbhUmaNu samudranA jaLa sAthe mArA AMsu spardhA kare che. svaya bhUmaNu samudranA jaLa karatAM mArA AMsu adhika che. puSu te mArA svAnA che, mArA duHkhanA che, mArA mA che, mAre tA tamArA jevA e AMsunA khuda joie. prabhu ! tame sa Mgama mATe AMsu sAryAM, adhama AtmAnA uddhAra athe, zuM huM mArA AtmAnA uddhAra arthe nA paDI zakuM ? prabhu ! ApanA AMsu maLe te! ja hu' sumana-sArA manavALe... sArA vicAravALA... nahitara kumana kharAba vicAravALA, mana dvArA durgati meLavanAra. prabhu ! mane sumana khanAvaze tA ja huM' saMcamI khUnI zakIza,

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64 ] ahaMkAranA visarjana dvArA ja svasvabhAvanuM sarjana thAya che. sumana vagaranuM sayama krUDa che...sajA che.. jela che. savicArathI...jJAnagami ta vairAgyathI svIkArela saMcama ja AtmasiddhimAM sahAyaka che. saMyamI ja dAnta, indriya vijetA ane che. indriya vijetA Atmadarzana prApta karI zake che. Atma dana karyAM. hAya tene nijAtmAnI mastI caDhe, te AtmA dehanu bhAna bhUle, dehanA nAzamAM tene navAI nA lAge, kAcanuM vAsaNa phUTayuM temAM khUma nA marAya, kAcanuM vAsaNa hatu te phUTayuM. AtmAnA daza na karanArane dveSanA nAza thAya tyAre eka AnaMdanI anubhUti thAya. deha nAzavaMta hatA te nAza thaye.. AtmA teA ajara che...amara che... huM... prabhu mahAvIraneA upAsaka mArA deDhunA nAza thAya tyAre paraleAkanA pravAsa samaye tamArA saunI vidAya letA maraka maraka hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM, mukta gagananuM paMkhI chuM. dehanA piMjaramAM mAruM khaMdhana nA heAya, piMjarane nAza thayA che. mArA AtmA zAzvata che...ajara che...amara che. cAlA, mane zAzvatapathanI bhavya vidyAya ApeA. sAMbhaLI le! mArI chellI ahelaka. nasthi jIvasa nAsAtti' prabhu ! metA muninA pratikRti mane nA banAve ? mAre banavu che....patha batAvajo....upAya batAvajo...

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12. alAbheA ta na tajjae" ' sukha prApta thAya ne hase, duHkha prApta thAya ne raDe, icchita maLe ne khuza thAya, anicchita maLe ne nAkhuza thAya e saMsArI. sAruM maLe, suMdara maLe, mUlyavAna maLe.... amUlya maLe ne khuza thAya te sajana.... " samyag maLe....satya maLe.. zAzvata maLe ne khuza thAya te sata"...mahAtmA ja. !.... tuM mAtra saMta nahi, paNa saMta chatAM bhagava Mta banavA samutsuka. duniyAnA tAla mApa judA....duniyAnA tAle jAtane mApe te saMsArI....jJAnInA mAle jIvanane dhanya banAve te sacamI. tArA saMyama bhAvanI, vairAgyanI anumodanA karatAM romAMca khaDA thai jAya che. tane Aje sayama maLyuM che te eka janmanA puruSAnI siddhi nathI. chellA keTalAMya janmathI rAga virAganI saMtAkUkaDI ramyA bAda Aja tuM vairAgyanA medAnamAM saMyamanA svAMga sajI Atma subhaTa banyA che. vIrakavaca paherI kSatriya jyAre tilaka karAvI ulaTabhera yuddhanA medAnamAM Ave che tyAre raNabherI vAge che paNa raNabherIne nAda sAMbhaLatAM ja keTalAMkanI chAtI khesI jAya che, keTalAM hateAtsAhI banI jAya chetA keTalAkane raNabherInA nAdathI jhanUna caDhe che ane kesariyAM kare che. sa Myama svIkAryA bAda pariSaddhanI phoja tArA para daze dizAthI humalA karaze....trATakaze...tu garamI ThaMDI sahI laIza, macchara mAMkaDanA khane sahI laiza, paNa jyAre gAcarImAM nAnapAla haze, jyAre gRhasthanA ghare annapANI asujhatA haze, tyAre manane samAvIne, ane tanane . pa

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66 ] rAga ane dveSanI vaccenI jagA tenuM nAma sama (samatA) kaSTa ApI dharmalAbha kahIne bIjA keInA ghare Ubhe rahIza. eka ghare nahi, aneka ghare jaIza, cAlI cAlIne..pharI pharIne tArA paga bharAI jaze paNa tArA pAtra khAlI raheze tyAre mana maryAdA mUkI vicAravA lAgaze. tArA manamAM zuM vicAre Avaze kahuM? huM kahIza tyAre tuM mane kahIza, " zuM huM ATale duSTa chuM? mane AvA vicAro Ave evI tame kalpanA kare che?" nA "tuM ducha nahi, tuM sAdhu"...pariSahathI thAkeluM, anukULatA cAhatuM mana, tArI pAse AvA pApa vicAra karAve. tethI ja tane kahuM chuM, mananI vicitratA samajI le. tophAnI nadI upara baMdha bAMdhI zakAya? samudra upara pula bAMdhI zakAya? prakRtine kAbumAM rAkhI zakAya te manane kema nAthI nA zakAya !!! huM tane je kahuM chuM te hatAza karavA nahi, nirAza karavA nahi, paN bamaNI zakti meLavavA. tArA utsAhanI upAlaMbha dvArA vRddhi karavA, mAre te tene eka ja maMtra bhaNAve che, alAbhe te na tajae." alAbha sAdhune kadI pIDe nahi paNa alAbhanA samaye zuM zuM vicAra Ave che? A vicAra upara vijaya meLavavA tAre sajaja rahevuM paDaze te ja vijayI banIza. A ja mAre samajAvavuM che tuM sagya che mATe hitazikSA ApuM chuM. gaNadhara bhagavaMta huM sugya chuM ke nahi te mane khabara nathI paNa eka vAta mArA hRdayamaMdiramAM suvarNAkSare maMDita che, ketarAyelI che, AlekhAyelI che, ApanI hitazikSA mane jarUra sugya banAvaze, Ape kRpA karI ane ziSya banAvyA have suziSya banavA hitazikSA pharamAve. . sAdhaka! sAdhana prAptithI siddhi sahu kare paNa sAdhananI aprAptithI siddhi karavAnuM te vItarAganA zAsanamAM ja maLe.

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bhUlo bacAva bagADe ane bhUlane svIkAra jagADe. [ 67 nUtana muni ! sAdhu jIvanamAM bAvIsa pariSaha che. paNa badhA rejanA mahemAna nathI. keTalAMka kayAreka ja dekhA de che paNa alAbha pariSaha te reja darzana Ape che. rAga-dveSa che eTale karma che. karma che eTale janma che. janma che eTale zarIra che. zarIra che eTale tene DhAMkavA vastra ane zarIrane lIdhe vaLagI rahelA peTane zAMta karavA AhAra joIe. AhArane grahaNa karavA pAtra joIe. sAdhune pitAne potAnI nAnI zI sAdhanA karavA paNa eka nivAsa joIe. vasatinI jarUra paDe. kayAreka khapa pUratuM ana maLe te vAparavA samI vasati na maLe. kayAreka AhAra maLI zake tema hoya te lAvavA mATe pAtra na hoya. sAdhu. mAtra saMyama guNone ja utpAdaka che. kei paNa cIja e utpanna karato nathI. pakhaMDano cakavatI sAdhu paNa kAnanA mela kADhavA jevI saLInI keInI pAsethI yAcanA kare che. yAcanA pUrNa thAya ne maLe te lAbha. paNa yAcanA pUrNa thAya tevuM haMmeza na bane ane tethI alAbha pragaTe ...pragaTe ne pragaTe...paNa A alAbha tene pIDe nahi, gocarIne alAbU manamAM dInatAno lAvArasa pidA kare che. viSAdanI mAjhA- vadhI jatAM saMyamanI dharA dhrujI UThe che. bhayaMkara dharatIkaMpa thAya che. saMyamanI pRthvI upara bAMdhela dharyanA maMdiramAM taDa paDe che. kyAreka jamInadosta paNa thaI jAya che. gocarI nA maLI te dInatA zAnI? tuM gocarI levA gaye te e vAta sAcI. paNa AhAra ekaTho karavA gaye hatuM e vAta khoTI. pAtrA bharavA gayA hatA te vAta eTI. gecarI maLI ke nA maLI e mahatvanI vAta nathI. keIe AhAra vahorAvyuM ke nahIM te tAre vicAravAnuM nathI. tAre eka ja vicAravAnuM meM dharmalAbhana pradAna karyuM ke nahi?

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68 ] samarpaNa ja AtmAne jAgRta karI zake che nahIM ke sAmarthya. sAdhaka ! tuM bhUlakaNA nA ana. tAre anaMtane tAga meLavavAnA che. peTa bhare te pazu. puNya bhare te sagRhastha. saunA haiyAmAM dharma bhare te sAdhu. '' tuM muni che. muni ane meghanA vrata samAna heAya. megha varase dharatI upara ane pahADa upara, megha vase sUkI nadI upara ane bharyAM samudra upara. " tu muni ! meghathI paNa U'ce.' mahAna kavya aMge sadaiva taiyAra. : -pAtranI yeAgyatA upara tuM geAcarI gayA. prabhu AjJAnuM pAlana thayuM A ja sauthI moTo lAbha. pAtrA bharAya ke na bharAya e tArA kama upara AdhAra rAkhe che. lAbhAMtarAya karmonA kSaceApazama hAya ! AhAra prApti thAya. lAlAMtarAya kamanA udaya hoya te eka kaNa paNa nA maLe. kaNa na prApta thAya teA dInatA, hatAzA, thAka, mAMdalA pazu anubhavAvuM na joIe. AhAra na maLe teA dInatA pedA thAya tenAM karatAM teA tu vicAra ke A badhI jhaMjhaTa AhAranI jarUriyAta karAve che. aNahArI paTTu kyAre prApta karIza? aprAptathI pedA thayela dInatAne tapabhAvamAM pariNata karI de, vicAranI kaLA joIe. bhUkha kahe e rAta vacce eka divasa che zu' kAya thAya ? vicAraka kahe e divasa vacce eka ja rAta che. mAruM kArya keTaluM jhaDapathI thaze....? | vicAranI adbhuta kaLAM hatI prabhu RSabhadeva pAse...prathama rAvA...prathama yuM...prathama tI karane 165 sukhI gecI nA

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bhUlane svIkAra kare te jJAnI, [ 69 bhUlano pratikAra kare te ajJAnI. maLI. chatAM na hAryA na thAkyA...lAbhAMtarAya karma prabhune harAvI nA zakyuM. zAstra kahe che, paraMparA kahe che. prabhu rASabhadeve 1 varSa tapa karyo. mane prazna kare, gocarI gayA chatAM tapa? basa, bhAI A ja sAcA sAdhakanI kaLA. AhAranI jarUrata kharI paNa Asakti nahi. jyAM AhAranI Asakti nahi tyAM ja sAce ta5. a-lAbha rUpa pariSahane jaya karyo e ja tapa. anazana, e paNa kharekhara tapa tyAre ja bane ke jyAre pariSaha jayarUpa saMvara dharma guMjate hAya. paramAtmA paNa svakarmanA nAza mATe ATale prayatna kare te pAmara ! vicAra, tAre kevA puruSArtha yajJane prAraMbha kare joIe. aMtarAya kamanA udayamAM keI vyakti, keI sthAna ke kei zahera upara tiraskAra na karAya. hIna zabda nahi paNa hIna vicAra AvI jAya to paNa tArI sAdhutA lAjI uThe. tuM tiraskAra kare to aMtarAya karma upara! nA..AnAthI AgaLa vadha. aMtarAya karmane baMdha hetu sAthe satyAgraha zaru karI de. cAlo! haTa ! dUra jAva! mArA saMyamamaMdirathI. mArA Atmadevane bhraSTa nA karatAM... jabU! mAre tArI A vIratA ne dhIratA jevI che! nihALavI che! hajI te eka mArga samajAvyuM. bIje mAga bAkI che. AkaruM caDhANa lAkaDInA sahAre caDhI javAya paNa suMvALuM -gALa, picuM, caDhANa hoya to. temAM koI AlaMbana saphaLa na thAya paththaranA pahADa upara caDhavuM saheluM, paNa retInA pahADa upara caDhavuM khUba kaThIna, reja gecarI maLI jAya, tArA pAtra batrIsa pakavAnsathI bharAI jAya. tAre AhAra zAlibhadra je haze, tyAre sAcuM kahuM? tArI aTapaTI parIkSA zaru thaze. svaprayatnathI

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70 ] kuberanA dhanabha'DArathI paNa sAcA nispRhInI raja kharIDhI zakAtI nathI. gocarI maLe chatAM khuzI nahi mAnavAnI. khuzI mAnI te pira SahuthI jItAI gayA. gocarInA lAbhamAM paNa e ja mAnavAnuM ke mArI Atma zaktinA anupama darzana tA ana'tavIya zakti prApta karavAmAM che je mArI peAtAnI sapatti che. mArA lAMbhAtarAyaka ane dAtAnA dAnAMtarAya kamanA kSayAyAmathI mane AhAranI prApti thAya AmAM zu gaurava ? zu meTAI mAnavAnI? mahAtmA jabu ! gocarInI hakIkata dvArA mAre tane badhI ja vAta karavI che. vastra, pAtra, zayyA, ziSya, bhakta, sanmAna A badhI upAdhi che, jo tu viveka bhUlyA te! kahuM? sAdhu jIvanamAM viveka bhUlye te dIvA laine kuve paDayo. tAre karmonA baMdhana joItA na hatA...tane AsaktinI cAhanA na hatI chatAM paNa mehanI rAvaNa lIlAe tane gherI lIdhA. mAha ahurUpI che. anekarUpa karI tane Thagaze. mA vijetA banIza tA ja kamA~ vijetA banI zakIza. pharI pharI eka ja hitazikSA che, tuM karmone lAbha karanAra thA ! tuM AtmaguNane prApta karanAra thA! linedismiss gurudeva ! mAre saMsAranA pakSa nathI karavA. saMsArIonA pakSa nathI karavA. mAre kanA pakSamAM rahevu nathI. mAre tA dhama dhyAnanA sahAre zukala dhyAna prApta karI tIthaMkaranA pakSamAM ja rahevu che. hu... vItarAganA pakSakAra chuM. basa, mArA gurudeva have tA mane hitazikSA Apazene! hu ApanI hitazikSAnA cAhaka chuM, ane grAhaka paNa che ja.

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13. "na tesiM pahae muNuM" BE svarAjyanI laData ugra banI rahI hatI. ghare-ghare, gAme-gAme yuvAne sudhI svarAjyane sUra pahoMcI gaye hatA tyAre aneka zaheramAM jAhera sabhAo yejI videzI vastronI yuvAne hoLI saLagAvatA hatA. kaMIka vibhUSApremI-vastrapremI belI utA "Ama kapaDAM bALI devAthI zuM ?" gaLI chUTe te javAba maLato, videzI vastro bALavA dvArA videzanuM AkarSaNa bALIe chIe. cAre bAju svadezanuM vAtAvaraNa guMjita karIe chIe." svarAjyanI jhaMkhanA videzI vastrone sahaja bhAve tyAga karAvI zake te Atma-dharmanI bhAvanA zuM na karAvI zake ? kaMcana-kAminIne tyAga zakya che. kAraNa, bAhya cIja Aje nahi te AvatI kAle cheDavI paDe che. mana te tyAgamAM saMmata thAya che. bAhya tyAga te paristhiti paNa karAve che. lAkha rUpiyA laIne musApharI karatA mAnava prANanuM jokhama hoya te paisAne cheDe. prANane bacAve. jIvanamAM bhale eka pasAnuM dAna na karyuM hoya paNuM, prANu mATe lAkhane tyAga kare

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72 | bhUlanA svIkAra kare te jJAnI, priya patnI khAtara bhale itihAsa kahe lAkhA yuddho khelAyA. rAmAyaNa ane mahAbhArata jevAM graMthAnA sarjana thayAM paNa, patnI apriya khanI gai, teA, athavA patine zaMkA rupa rAhu vaLagI gayA te hajAro vyaktie kSaNamAM kAminInA tyAga karyAM. te dareka kALanuM satya che. paNa, jenA sakhA bAhya padArtha sAthe nathI, paNa mananI lAgaNI sAthe joDAyela che. te mAna-sanmAna, satkAra abhivAdana, namaskAra-A badhAMnA tyAga eTale mAnavane lAge ke mAnava mananA tyAga karI devAnA... satkAra-sanmAna mAMgavA nahi, satkAra-sanmAna levA javAnA nahi paNa, tene svIkAravAnA ya nahi ? sAdhaka ! ! Jie sAdhutAne majabUta pAyA-ahu'nu' visarjana.... sAdhutAnA majabUta pAyA namratAnuM sarjana..... pRrtta sAdhutAnA majabUta pAye.-nirIhatAnI prakriyAnA prArabha... pu sAdhutAnA majabUta pAyA-icchAne, AMtaka nA nAza... pu sAdhutAnA majabUta pAyA-vibhAvarUpanI vidAya... pu sAdhutAnA majabUta pAyA-Atma svabhAvanA pragaTI karaNa.... vajra...pAtra..... ala.....AhAra.....nivAsa......temAM mAnava nirIhu ane ke nA khane, svecchAe tyAga kare ke nA kare, paNa dehanA dhama ja tene tyAga karAve che. AzritavarganI

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bhUlane! pratIkAra kare te ajJAnI, [ 73 mAnava maryAdA kare ke nA kare, paNa te khadhAMnI AzAicchAo, mAMgaNIe, lAgaNIo eTalI khadhI che ke tu sa MteAthe teAya sa MtoSAya tema nathI. ane atRpta mAMgaNI ane atRpta lAgaNIvALA Azritavaga nA te tuM zu' tyAga kare? tee ja tArA tyAga karI kayAMya raphucakkara thaI javAnA. khAMdhyA baMdhAvAnAM nathI. saMsAranA samasta snehIe. tArA para sneha nathI rAkhatAM, te tane samaje che ke tu mAMgaNI purI karanAra kalpavRkSa che. kalpavRkSanI paNa lAka kayAM sudhI pUjA kare ? jyAM sudhI temanI icchAo pUrNa thAya, tyAM sudhI. jenI zItalachAyAmAM kalleAla karyAM hatA, ThaMDaka anubhavI hatI, je vRkSe manAtha pUrNa karyAM, phaLa-phUla-patra lAkaDAM ane DaeNMDaka ApI, te vRkSa paNa nakAmuM thatAM, leAkeAe tenA nAza karavA, tene khALI nAMkhavA prayatna karyA che. teA zuM tuM ema samaje che ke A patnI...putra... Azritavarga tArI AjJAnuM anusaraNa karaze ? tu tyAga zuM kare? teo svArtha mATe tane cheDIne bhAgI javAnA... tethI sAdhaka !!! bhUle cuke ya gIta nA gAtA-- stuti nA karatA meM kaMcana--kAminInA tyAga karyAM che. tArI bahAdurI, tArI yazeAgAthA tA tyAre ja mahAtmAo gAze, ke jyAre tuM mAna-sanmAnane tyAga ja nahi, paNa, tenI aMkhanA ya cheADI Iza. jhaMkhanA vidAya leze tyAre tArA tyAgamadira upara nispRhatAne vijayadhvaja lherAvA lAgaze....! ! !

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74 ] rAga ane dveSanI vaccenI jagA tenuM nAma sama (samatA) sAdhaka ! sAce tane eka vAta kAnamAM kahuM ? A tA mAha sAthenA AgaLa-pAchaLathI khelAtA aTapaTA khela che. tane lAgaze ke huM mAna para vijaya meLavuM chuM paNa, mAnanA vijaya sAthe tu' lAbhanA vijetA banI zakIza. paramAtmA karuNAnidhAna che. tee samaje che. sAdhaka sAdhanAnA prArabha kare che. paNa, tene keTa-keTalAMya sAthe yuddha karavAnuM che tenI sUci mATI thai jaze teA gabharAI jaze. tethI mAna-sanmAnanA tyAMga ja kahe che. paNa, mAna-sanmAnanA tyAga kayAre thAya ? mAna-sanmAnanI cAhanA jAge tA.... pharI karI svAdhyAya karI le--na tesi' pIhae muNI' 9 prAyaH jyAM mAna tyAM IcchA ... jyAM IcchA tyAM leAbha.... ane jyAM leAbha tyAM ja bIjA kaSAya..... ane jyAM kaSAye. tyAM ja janmamaraNu.... khela ! tane janmamaraNanA duHkha pasaMda che? sacAga viyeAganI IMdrajALamAM saMtAkukaDI ramavI game che ? leAbha kaSAya bhayaMkara che, apramatta mahAtmA jyAM kSapakazreNInu tAraNa vadhAvavA jatAM hoya tyAM ja mAharAjA kSapakazreNI karI zake tevA prathama varganA musApharane upazama . zreNI rUpa dvitIyavarganA pravAsa zaru karAvI de che ane jyAM meAkSane signala dekhAI jAya che tyAM lAbha bhaya kara akasmAta sarjI de che. ArAdhanA--sAdhanA adhu cakacUra karI. nIce pachADI de che. pAchI e ja saMsAranI ghaTamALa...

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bhUlane bacAva bagADe ane bhUlane svIkAra jagADe. [ 75. sAdhaka | ! sAdhanAmArgathI ajANa che. paNa, sAdha- - kanA guru jagadgurU-paramAtmA pUrNa jJAnI che. sAdhakanA . gakSema karavA mATe to prabhu lokanAtha banyA che. leka- 5 nAthanI javAbadArI vahana karatA paramAtmA sAdhakane kahe che, "yAda rAkha, na "tesiM pIe muNI" bAhya tyAga ! jeTalo jarUrI che. eTale aMtaratyAga paNa jarUrI che." * paramAtmAe bAvIsa pariSahamAM sudhA, tRSA, caryA, niSadyA, strI, pariSaha vigere dvArA bAhya tyAganuM mahatva samajavyuM te sanmAna pariSaha dvArA AMtara tyAganuM mahatva samajAvyuM che." sAdhaka ! sanmAna e tArI sAdhanA mATe bhayaMkara : pheTaka padArtha che. sAvadha raheje-dhyAnamAM raheje-jAgRta raheje. UF "sanmAna tArI pAse zAsana gauravanuM rUpALuM rUpa laIne Avaze tAruM sanmAna nathI. tArA paramAtmAnA zAsananuM samAna che. tArA paramAtmAnuM sanmAna che. bhalA ! te vAta sAcI che, paNa temAM ya khUba sAvadha rahevAnI jarUra che. tuM gaNu che tuM zUnya che zAsana ja mahAna che. AvI bhAvanA satata na rahe te tArI buddhi cakarAve caDhI jaze. mArI jIMdagI zA mATe ? zAsananA. gaurava mATe ja ne ! chevaTe nA...nA.. kahenAre tuM saMmata

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76 ] namratA e anaMta guNanI tijorInI cAvI che. thaI jaIza. ekavAra rAkSasanA paMjAmAM Avela chUTe paNa, prazaMsA pizAcanA hAthamAM gayele kadI ya na chUTe. aMdarathI tAre AtmArAma UMghI jaze. karmo jAgI uThaze. zAsananuM sanmAna ane zAsana prabhAvakanuM meM....meMbasa, pachI zAsana...paramAtmA.... guru samudAya..sAthI....sahavatI sau kyAMya bhUlAI jaze. ane ahaMne ajagara tAre bharaDe laI leze. tethI ja sAdhaka pratye karuNApUrNa paramAtmA pharamAve che-tArA zuddha cAritranA prabhAvathI AkarSAI tAruM sanmAna karavA A pAMca daza mAne zuM karaDe deva ane devendra paNa doDI Avaze.. paNa, tuM sanmAnanI IcchA karate nahi. "samAnanI IcchA eTale sAdhanAne satyAnAza"... basa, tArA jevA prAjJane vadhu zuM kahevAnuM hoya? svayaM tuM lAbha-nukazAnane vicAra karaje-hitamAge - saMcaraje. ahitathI tatkSaNa pAcho pharaje... paramAtmA !! bALaka chuM, kayAreka satAvI jAya che mAna-sanmAna. paNa, aMte samajAya che-ApanI vAta. "sanmAnanI IcchA - dvArA lebha rAkSasa ne vaLage tenAthI sAvadha raheje." paramAtmA paramAtmA ! basa, mane IcchAne tyAga Apa. nA...nA...pele lebha rAkSasa mane nA vaLage. te mATe nispRhatAnuM maMtra kavaca Ape.

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14 evamassAMsi apAyuM UF jagatamAM pratyeka vyakti saMbaMdha cAhe che. pratyeka vyakti keI ne kaI dvArA huMpha cAhe che, paNa, jagatamAM koNa kene huMpha Ape ? pratyeka vyakti pAse pitAnuM darda hoya che. pitAnI phariyAda hoya che, jyAre be saMbadha vaccene paDade cirAya che tyAre khabara paDe che ke jenA sahArAne huM vajane abhedya kille mAnatA hatA te pattAne mahela . che. huMpha te na ApI paNa daze Ape. bhalA ! tArI gaNatrImAM bhUla che tArI nIti bhUla bharelI che. te haMpha mATe sAthe zeAdhela paNa tArA te sAthIne paNa huMphanI jarUra hatI paraMtu tArAthI tenI jarUrata pUrI nA thaI te sAthI bIjA majabUta vyaktinI zodhamAM nIkaLyo. bhUla te vyaktinI nathI. bhUla tArA ajJAnanI che. ' UR "ajJAna samAna koI zatru nahi, jJAna samAna ke : T mitra nahi" BE vizvanI vicitra paristhiti joI jagatane je ni: te ajJAnI. vizvanI vicitratA joI sAhajika prasa-. ' natAmAM masta rahe te jJAnI." - mA huM bhUlyaThagAthe huM luMTAye temAM gunehe kene?' ajJAnane. je jJAna hAla te DabAta ? bhUla karata?'

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* 78 ] manana e special treatment che. ajJAna jevA gunhA nahi ane jJAna jevA kei guNu nahi. jJAna e teA aMtaranA anaMta a MdhakArane dUra kare....satya tattvanI sAcI samaja Ape. satya samajAya eTale asatya Ape!Apa haTI jAya. zuM sUryanA prakAzamAM aMdhakAra rahI zake ? zu jJAnanA divyatejamAM karmonA tAkAna rahI zake ? bhagava Mta ! mAre jJAna joie. huM rAja khAra kalAka prayatna karIza. sukha du:khane bhUlI jJAnanI sAdhanA karIza. mane jJAnI guru batAvA ! temanA caraNa pakaDI vinavIza'gurujI ! mane jJAna ApA, ApanA bhakta chu' paNa, ajJAnI chuM. mane jJAnI banAve!'' basa pachI te jJAnI anI jaiza ne ? huM ajJAnathI khuSa ubhagI gayA chuM, kaMTALI gayeA chuM, jJAnanI pipAsA tIvra banI che. sAdhaka ! sAdhanAnA mAga eTale aa nA paMtha, ahI' utAvaLa nA cAle. prathama badhu zuddha ane svaccha karavuM paDe. prayatna ekalA nA cAle. bhagavaMta huM khAra kalAka mahenata karu` chatAMya mane eka pada paNa yAda nathI rahetu. mArA gurubaMdhune gurudeva pATha Apene ekavAra sAMbhaLatAM ja kaMThastha thaI jAya che. AvuM jou chuM tyAre kaMTALI jAuM chu khinna thaI jAuM chu. mAru skIya -dIya vicalita thai jAya che, sAcu kahuM chuM, huM pAgala khanI jAuM chu...

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jyAM vikalpAnI dhAMdhala thAya nahIM tenuM nAma prasannatA. [ 79 jJAnecchuka ! eTale ja tane kahuM chu 8 vamaAEAttiplAna " AtmAne AzvAsana Apa tArA AtmasvabhAvane sthira kara -jagatamAM ghaNAne AzvAsana ApyuM-Aya ApyuM paNu....tArI AzvAsananI kaLAya aneAkhI che ! keTalAMyane tArA AzvAsane ja jIvavAnI zakti prApta thaI che. paNa atyAre agatyanI jarUra che tArA AtmAne tArI huMphnImAnava kharekhara muMjhAya tyAre jagatanI badhI huM. AzvAsana tenA mATe khATA thAya. tuM khuda ja khudanI nAvanA nAvika manI jA. tAre jIvana kitAbanu Aje eka navuM pRSTha vAMcavAnuM che. tuM mana sthira kara. jJAna dvArA ka`ne samaja, karmInA svabhAvane samaja, karmInI maryAdAne samaja, kamanI tAkAtane samaja, karmAMnA koMdha-deza-pradeza paramANune samaja jagatamAM keTalI vaNA ? kama jaDa ke cetana cetana upara jaDanI asara kevI rIte ? ka ane AtmAnA samanya kyAre thayA ? kanA viyAga kai rIte thAya ? gurujI ! huM thAkI gayA chuM. mane lAMkhI vAta gamatI nathI. asa, mane kaheA, ane bhaNatAM kema na AvaDe ? mahAnubhAva ! huM tane eja samajAvuM chu ke eka vidyAzrIne jJAna prApta thAya ane tane kema prApta na thAya ? tArA AtmA ane tenA AtmA vacce zuM pheka ? AtmAmAM

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80 ] gussA e zarIrane svabhAva che. pharaka na hAya, taphAvata na heAya chatAM A virodha kema kame tArA upara zuM melI vidyA ajamAvI ? kamaeN tArA AtmA upara zuM camatkAra sarjyamAMM ? karmImAM kANu kAraNa ? khAdya hetu ke abhyaMtara ? kama aMdhanA bAhya hetu kayA ? abhyaMtara hetu kayA ? bhayaMkaramAM bhayaMkara ka kha dhanA hetu kaceA ? A vicAra kara. paNa, tArA AtmAne Ata dhyAnamAM nA javA de.. prlR AtmAne Ata dhyAnamAMthI rAkavA te ja Atmika AdhAsana che, jema sukhadu:khamAM nahIM mu MjhavAnu, tema ajJAnanA udayamAM paNa nahi gabharAvAnu. pratyeka paristhitine dharmadhyAna ane zukala dhyAnanI bhUmikA banAvI de! karmAMnA udayamAM paNa dharmanA ja dalAla banavAnuM, jJAnAvaraNIya kama nA joradAra udayamAM paNa pAgala nahi anI javAnuM, dhyeya lakSya cUkI nahi javAnuM, kaOnI dhAka dhamakIthI dabAI nahi javAnuM.. AmarAjane zAnamAM sama-- jAvavAnA. "jo tu kAya rAkhIza teA karmAne gacchanti karyAM vagara chUTako nathI.'" pu. jJAnAvaraNIya karmonA bhayyakara udayamAM paNa gADha jJAnAvaraNIya kama nA khAMdhe te ja jJAnI." A AMtarika samaja, Aja sAcuM AtmAne AzvAsana. jagatane mugdha anAvavA karmanuM tattvajJAna meLavavAnuM nathI paNa, kane parAsta karavAM karmazAstramAM pAraMgata banavAnuM che.

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jyAre, kSamA AtmAne svabhAva che. [ 81 AtmAne AzvAsana eTale nijAtma svabhAvamAM sthiratA ....karmanA udayamAM dhIratA........ane karma nijerAmAM vIratA. mahAtmA bU! tane eja mArA aMtaranA AziSa. "sthiratA..dhIratA ane kvIratAnA trividha saMyoge " Adhi.....vyAdhi....upAdhinI tripuTIne parAsta kara !" prabhu! jagatane niSkAma bhAvanI sAcI huMpha te tIrthakara paramAtmA ja zAsananI sthApanA karIne ApI zake paNa, huM te Apane eka nAne sevaka, huM jagatane kevI rIte huMpha ApI zakuM? basa, mane te baLa Apa. mArA AtmAne huMpha ApavAnuM. AtmAne huMpha maLaze te ja siddhAtmadazAnA darzana thaze. ) prabhu ! siddha banavAnA mArA samaNAM siddha kare.

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15. dhamma suddhasya ciThaI pavananI laherI te gharamAM paNa Ave ane kadAca bheMyarAmAM paNa Ave. paNa, pavana sadaiva maMda maMda vahe nadI kinAre.samudra taTe... hevuM" ane "rahevuM" mAM khUba pharaka che. hovuM' zabda kayArekane dyotaka che. "rahevuM" zabda e nityane sAthI che. nitya sAthI hoya te nivAsI bane, AtmIya bane. anyathA Ava jA karanAra pravAsI bane, parAye bane. mahAnubhAva ! dharma tArA hRdaya maMdirane nivAsI ke pravAsI? dharma tArA manamaMdiramAM Ava-jA kare che ke tenA rojanA DerA che? huM e badhuM nA samajuM-nivAsI ke pravAsI? huM te mArA hRdayanA bhAve vyakta karuM. mArI aMtaraMga bhAvanA che, dharma sadaiva mArI aMdara rahe. dharma vagara mekSa nahi tethI ja mAre dharmanI jarUrata che-AvazyaktA che. dharma joIe dharma joIe." ema bolIza eTale dharma zuM tArAmAM AvI jaze? jagatane eka vicitra raMga che-pratyeka paristhitimAM, pratyeka prasaMgamAM, pratyeka vyakti pAse nAnI moTI dareka vAtamAM, khudanI baDAI karavI. nAnA mATe mATI vAta karavI. tArA jevA dharma cAhaka vyaktinI A vAta nathI. duniyAnI pApImAM pApI vyakti paNa evI

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paramAtmAnuM zAsana eTale duHkha bhegavavAnI sIjhana che. [ 83 vAta karI zake che "mAre dharma kare che, kaI kahetuM nathI "mAre adharma kare che, pApa karavuM che. kAMsAnI thALInA raNakAranI jema beTA dhama-dekhAvanA dhamI te vaLI adhika jorathI kahe che "ApaNane badhAM jevuM gamatuM nathI, DuM karavuM paNa sAruM karavuM. je karavuM te lokone dekhADavA mATe na karavuM, ApaNI Atma prasannatA mATe karavuM. zuddha karavuM, goTALA mane pasaMda nathI...." AvA puNyAtmAnI sikala jotAM kyAreka hasavuM paNa AvI jAya. vAha bhAI vAha! tArI vAte ane tArA vicAre ja kahI de che zuM tuM sAce aMtaraMga dhamI che? ke zabda jALa bichAvanAoM che ? sAco dhamI kayAreya potAnI ArAdhanAne ja zuddha gaNAvavA dA na kare, bIjAnI bhAvanAne nA ThukarAve - sAce dhamI khudanI dharma bhAvanAnA pote Dhela nA pITe khuda pote ja jAherAta nA kare... saritA, vRkSa, madha, kayAreya potAnI upayogItAne puravAra kare? kyAreya pitAnI mahattA gAya...? khuda ja khudanI mahattAnuM varNana kare, svanI gyatA sAbita kare te samajavuM joIe ke A te bheLaseLavALA mAla sAcI vyaktine pitAnI mahattA nA darzAvavAnI hoya. hatA vagara prabhutAnA darzana durlabha. ApaNe ApaNI jAtane za-vizuddha kahIe ke vizva kahe?

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84 ] dhama ArAdhanAnuM phaLa kaSAyAnA vijaya pacama ArAnI vAta kahe!, kaliyuganI phezana kaheA, athavA ApaNA jevA bhAre kamInI karuNa kathanI kaheA... paNa prAyaH sau peAtAnI ja AtmakathAnA pRSTho vAMce che. AtmakathA peAte mAnI lIdhelA peAtAnA guNanA vistAra, pracAra kare che. kayAreka koIka durguNa pakaDAi jAya teA jIbhanA jore, vANInA jAdue prazna pUchanArane mUMgA karI daie chIe..... puNyazALI ! maMdire kema AvatA nathI ? rAja prabhu dana nahi karavAnA ? ApaNe hasIne kahIza'-dana karavAnI koNa manAI kare che ? paNa zu madiramAM ja kaMi bhagavAna che ? nA....bhAI nA....tuM viziSTa sAdhaka. tane sinemA gharamAM paNa bhagavAna dekhAya, paNu, makrismAM na dekhAya. zrImata, dAna kare che; tuM dAna kema nathI karato ? bhAi sAheba ! A badhI vAta mane karaze! nahi. jAheramAM dAna te, ja kare ke je mAnanA vepArI hoya hAra tArA-mAnasanmAnane bhikhArI hAya, mane A badhuM nA game.... [tuM jenI vAta kare che teNe te chevaTe paisA ApIne nAma karyu, sanmAna meLavyu paNa, tuM teA evA jAdugara che. ke paisA vagara jIbhanA jore jANe tArI gupta dAnavRtti hAya tevA khATA ATApa kare che. ] AjakAla zuM abhyAsa karo cho ? mane pUche che? abhyAsa zu kare che ? pahelAM adhyayana aMge jijJAsA

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ukaLatA krodhane pI javAnI zakti e ja sAdhakanI siddhi. [ 85 hatI. paNa, ghaNA vidvAnane joyA....jJAnIne joyA. khelavAmAM ahu jamarA hAya....AcAramAM kaMi ThekANAM ja nA hAya.... jJAna meLavI namra banatA nathI. ahaMtu pASaNa kare che. satra khudanI vAtanI pakkaDa rAkhe che. ApaNane A na game...jhAjhu jANIe te upAdhine ? bhalA ! tuM zuM bele che, temAM ja tArA vicArAnI pakkaDa ja nathI. jJAnIne siddhAMtane ja Agraha che tane te! tArI ja vAtane Agraha che, khudanI vAtamAM arjune pAdhe che ane jJAnI upara arjune Arepa kare che? zuM A--tArA ajJAnanu'-ahu nuM pragaTIkaraNa nathI ? 2 bhalA ! bIjuM kaI na thAya teA kaI nahI, bhakti karaje....bhakti te bhavatAraNI che ne ? bhAI ! tamArI vAta sAcI paNa, Aje duniyAmAM vadhumAM DhoMgI, kapaTI jamAta che, bhagata leAkeAnI. ma MdiramAM pUjA kare ane bajAramAM ? mahArathI pagalA ane aMdarathI ? bhakta leAkA vyakti karatAM nathI, paNa kaMi ja pAse nA hoya. tyAre bhaktinA nAme prasiddhi meLavavA Ave che. nAma maLI gayuM eTale paiAbArA gaNI jAya huM. AvA DhoMgathI khUba dUra rahuM chuM. zuM A DhAMga nathI ? jIMdagInI amUlyayAtrAne vyatha vItAvavI ane koInI AMtarika bhaktinuM avamUlyana karavuM. ]

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86 ] koInA pratye tiraskAra bhAva e ja virAdhaka bhAva che. puNyazALI ! Aje te! savatsarI che upavAsa che ne ? mArI vAta pUcho che. ? mane kaheA che ? upavAsa te; karavA joie paNa mArA svabhAva alaga prakAranA che. theADu karavu pazu zuddha karavuM. upavAsa karIne paNa bheAjananI yAda Ave te doSa lAge ne ? manathI teA upavAsa bhAMgIja gaye. ne ? kAyAne kaSTa ApavAthI zuM lAbha ? eTale ja me upavAsanA dekhAva nA karyAM, badhA kaheze te kahI daIza, me' upavAsa nathI karyAM emAM zarama zAnI ? putta prazAMta banIne vicAra ! upavAsa karIza to tArI zakti azaktinA khyAla Avaze. paccakkhANu laIza te samajAze pAlana keTalu' kaThIna che. paccakUkhANa karyAM vagara tuM tArI jAtane mahAna mAnI nAhakanA abhimAna doSanI bhaya Mkara puSTi kare che. kazu karyAM vagara ArAdhaka mahAtmAonAM hRdayanI vizuddhi tu kayAMthI samaje ? kaika karIza te ja samajAze ArAdhaka AtmAnI vizuddhi ? dharmAtmA ! tame khUba ArAdhanA kare che. tA dIkSA kema nathI letA ? mArI vAta ?....dIkSA ! zuddha sAdhu jIvana durlabha che. mane geATALA game nahi, me te! nakkI rAkhyu che, azuddha karavuM nahi. gharamAM rahI mahenatanuM khAI zuddha jIvana nA thavuM ?

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tapazcaryAM e indriyAne kANumAM rAkhavAnI kaLA. [ 87 Atma vacanA na kara....kaThora tyAganA mArge javAnu sAhasa paNuM nathI teA zuddha jIvananI vAta kayAM ? khAra kalAkanI musApharI mATe teA anukuLatA aMge keTalA phAMphA mAre che ? rIjhavezana na maLe te keTalAM kALAbajAranA paisA Ape che. bhALA bhakata ! beAlavAthI dhama nA thAya ! tArI vAte! sAMbhaLatAM tArA ajJAna upara mAre hasavuM na joie. paNa.... jarA hasAI jAya che. satya ane zuddhanA nAme tArA kapaTane, mAyAne, zavRttine tu pASe che, tu je dharma karatA nathI tenA bacAvanI, kapaTanI A jALa che, asatya-jUThane-bhane tu' pASe che. ApaNA duguNA DhAMkavAthI dhama nA thAya. paNa dugu NAne svIkAravAthI dharma thAya. dhammA, suddhamsa cii' dha zuddha pavitra vyaktimAM rahe che, sthira thAya che. zuddhi kene kahevAya ? pavitratA kAne kahevAya, samajavu che ? prAkRtika dana, ApaNI vRtti, Adata, svabhAva-vANI-vana jevA hAya tevA svIkAravA, sahaja saraLatA, sIdhApaNu, ApaNAmAM je sadguNa na heAya tene jarA paNa dekhAva na karavA, ApaNAmAM je kruNa hAya, anuAdata haiAya tene svIkAravAmAM mAyA karavI nahiM tenuM nAma saraLatA, eTale sahajatA-svanA zuddha pavitra-prazna+na.... kyAMya DhAMka pIcheDA nahi.

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88 ] cahere eTale magajamAM rahelAM vicAronI anukramaNikA.. tuM kahIza, saraLatAthI zuM lAbha ! huM pUchuM chuM, kaDhanA DAghane davAnA lepavaDe DhAMkavAthI, saMtADavAthI, chupAvavAthI keDha phelAze nahi ? keDha che te raga che. rega gupta na rakhAya roganI davA karavAnI, AkaruM pathya pAlana karavAnuM, vaidya pAse satya hakIkta rajU karavAnI. bhalA ! samaja durguNa che te kaI jANI jaze? kaI adhama kaheze ? pApI. kahIne dhUtkAraze ? AvI.... AzaMkA nahi karavAnI..saddaguru samakSa ApaNuM Atmanivedana karavAnuM, guru bhagavaMta durguNa haTAvavAM ane sadguNa meLavavAM je upAya batAve mArga batAve te AcaravAne mAyA-vatA-kapaTa e te sApanA iMDAM che. eka rAtamAM lAkho-kareDe pApane pedA kare. pachI te pApanI saMtati, azubha vicAranI paraMparAnI vRddhi thavAnI-sApa ne poSAya, sApa hoya tyAM sAvadha thaI javAnuM. pApa heya-daMbha hoya tyAM jAgRta banI javAnuM, daMbha-kapaTadekhAva-chupAvavuM-saMtADavuM-chAnuM rAkhavuM gupta rAkhavuM A badhAM corInA bhAvo che. tuM dharmAtmA ! coranA kuMTuMbI sAthe bese UThe ? corInI bhAvanA tyAM dharma nahi, te kapaTa tyAM gharma kevI rIte ? uttarAdhyayana jevA mahAsUtranAM rahasya mane samajAtAM nathI tema kahIza te nahi cAle. jhaverAta kharIdavuM haze te jhaverInI vAta samajavI paDaze. tAre paramAtmA banavuM haze te paramAtmAnI vAta-paramAtmAne upadeza samaje

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dveSa e saLagatI Aga che, rAga e ThaMDI Aga che. [ 89 ja joIe ane pacava paNa joIe. cala...uttarAdhyayana jevuM zAstra nathI samajate, te kaMI nahIM stavana te samaje che ne? AnaMdadhanajI mahArAje RSabhadeva prabhunA stavanamAM zuM lalakAryuM? "kapaTarahita thaI Atama arapaNuAnaMdadhana pada reha" niSkapaTa zuddha svabhAve devAdhidevanA caraNe AtmasamarpaNa e ja kSagirinA ArehaNanI taLeTI che. saraLatA hoya te ja zuddha samyakatva pragaTa thAya. prabhu! mane saraLatA... saraLatA dvArA zuddhi ane zuddhithI bhAvenI vRddhi....samyakatva ane chevaTe mekSa.. prabhu ! mane melagiri para ArohaNanuM prathama sopAna saraLatA Apa... e ja hArdika prArthanA...

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16. "asaMkhayaM jIviya mA pamAyae" vizvane eka vicitra krama che. tAruM che, te tArI pAse rahevAnuM che. tArAthI kaI dUra karAvI zake ema nathI. ema chatAM te vastuno mAnava sadupayoga paNa kare ane durupayoga paNa kare.... mAnava meghanA mUlyAMkana kare che? cAtaka meghanA keTalAM mUlyAMkana kare che ? megha mATe keTalI tapazcaryA kare che? kAraNa, cAtaka samaje che. potAnA jIvana mATe jaLa jarUrI che. duniyAmAM jaLa te ghaNuM paNa, tene upayogI meghanuM ja jaLa, kAraNa, cAtakanA gaLA upara kANuM heya. nadI-sarovaranA pANI tenA mATe nirupayegI phakta varSanuM ja jaLa. upayogI cAtaka avirata daSTie meghane nihALe-varSA varase te pahelAM mukha pahoLuM karIne besI jAya. sAdhaka ! ! tArI ane cAtakanI paristhiti kaMIka aze samAna che. gati cAra....zarIra pAMcadeza aneka paNa, mekSamAM sahAyaka gati manuSya gati. zarIra pAMca paNa sAdhanAmAM sahAyaka zarIra audArika zarIra ! deza aneka paNa, Arya deza ja ArAdhanAne anukULa.... mAnava janma, audArika zarIra, Aryadeza, AryakuLa, paMcendriya pUrNa maLI eTale tuM harSaghela nA banI jate ke mArI mekSa sAdhanA sulabha thaI gaI.

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jaina zAsanamAM AdAna ane pradAna karavA gya che kSamA. [91- uttarAdhyayana sUtrane samasta mAnava jagatane zAzvata upadeza che "asaMkhayaM jIviya mA pamAyae". jIvana, asaMskRta che eTale saMskAra pAme tevuM nathI. jenuM rakSaNa karI zakAya tevuM nathI, jene sAMdhI zakAya tevuM nathI. tethI ja gAphela na rahe. sAdhanAnA sahAyaka aMgone upaga , karI le. tuM sAdhaka banyuM che. tethI sAdhanAnA maratha che. paNa kayAMka manamAM zithilatA AvI jAya che. na thAya che, jIMdagI lAMbI che paNa, tuM je "asaMkhayuM jIviya mA pamAyae vicArIza te tane be mArga maLaze. zA mATe pramAda nahi karavAno ? jIviya zabdanA rahasyane pakaDa, zarIra azAzvata che, vRddhatva zarIranI zaktine kSINa karaze. regane humale tArI zaktione nAza karI deze. bhayaMkara ciMtAone kAraNe zarIra para kAbu haTI jaze. zarIranA sahAre bhArate deDate chevaTe zarIrathI kaMTALIne hArI jaIza. ' AyuSya alpa che, tAruM AyuSya karma parAvartanIya. ke aparAvartanIya ? sopakamI ke nirupakramI? azAtA vedanIya karma-AyuSya karma ane mehanIya karmanA tribheTe tuM athaDAI gayA che. tribheTe UbhelAne traNa maracA sAcavavAnA. tArI sAdhanAnI bhAvanAe paNa A traNa karmanA maracA saMbhALavAnAM che. besAvadha bane ke turata azAtA vedanIya karma humale karaze.

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92 ] jagatanAM viSane hasI hasI pIve te mahAdeva. che tethI ja paramAtmA tane cetave che. jIvana asaMskRta che, nAzavaMta che. te zAna thayuM paNa, pramAda karyo teM? jIvanamAM pramAdane cheDa ja joIe.' paramAtmAe tane apramattabhAvanI Ahelaka jAgRta karavA gurunI nizrA svIkAravA zA mATe kahyuM? tArI sAme karuNA che, dayA che. tethI ja kahe che. "mA pamAyae." pramAdI-atyaMta unmatta, hiMsA-ahiMsA, Azrava-saMvara, karmabaMdha-karmanirjarA kazuM samajatA nathI. AvA pramAdInuM - zaraNa koNa bane ? zaraNa vagarane nirAdhAra punaH puna karmanA cakkaramAM aTavAyA ja kare. ' sAdhaka! have maukhika vAta nA kara. tArA hRdayane avAja pragaTa kara...tArI nAbhine svara guMjita kara....... IF "azAzvatathI zAzvatanI sAdhanA karI laIza." zuM kheDUta khAtaramAMthI dhAnya pedA nathI karato? zuM dhULadhoye dhULamAMthI sonuM nathI meLavate? zuM kalAkAra paththaramAMthI pratimAnuM sarjana nathI karate? eka bAvIsa varSanA navayuvAnanA mukhamAM nahi, hRdayamAM uttarAdhyayana sUtranA cothA adhyayananI prathama paMkti guMjI UThI...jIvana rAha badalAya..aneka kaSTo-saMkaTa sahI 23 mAM varSe dIkSA lIdhI. traNa mahinAnuM a5 cAritra jIvana pALyuM. temane deha asaMskRta thaze. sudhArAya

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kSamA eTale hRdayamAM erakaDIzananu phITIMga [ 93 tevA nahi thaye. ane AtmA ArAdhanAthI pavitra thaI paraleAkanI vATe saMcaryAM. A muni te saurASTranI pavitra chAyAnA agraNI zrAvaka, vIrANI kuTuMbanA nabIrA vineAdamuni.... prabhu ! deha ane dehInA dharmo samajAveA. ArAdhanA ane virAdhanAnA mama samajAve. mAre pramAda karavAnA nathI. pramAda bhAva mArA yathAkhyAta bhAvanA vizuddha cAritrane zake che. huM ApanI hitazikSA samajyuM chuM. pramAda na kaM.'" e kahevAnA bahAne Ape mane. yathAkhyAta cAritrane anupama mArga sUcavyeA. zu ApanA AzIrvAdathI mArA AcaraNamAM parivatana na Ave? paMcendriya hAvA chatAM pAMce iMdriya tArI kame`ndriya... banaze... paNa jJAnendriya nahi bane. AyuSyakama' kaheze tame mane doSa Ape che ne ?- alpa AyuSya hatuM, zuM karIe? basa, tAruM AyuSya lAMbu. karuM, paNa jyAM nahi jJAna, nahi saMskAra, nahi ArAdhaka bhAvanuM nAma nizAna. 50....50 varSa bichAnAmAM, rAja mRtyune yAda karI Ata dhyAna karavAnuM. AvA sthAnamAM sAdhanA kayAMthI thAya ? zarIra nirAgI....AyuSya mATuM paNuM maTa jevu..... ArAdhanA mATe taiyAra ja nahi. virAdhanA mATe tatpara....vAta. karatAM...gappA mAratAM niMda Ave nahi. svAdhyAyamAM nirde,. dhyAnamAM paNa niMda. atha vicAratAM suyuti ke sArA taka ke

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- 94 ] kaSAyane AdhIna thavuM te pramAda che. zAstrIya vAta samajAya nahi. kutarka-avaLI dalIla azAstrIya vAtamAM eka akSara parathI anumAna zakti vikasita banI jAya. mahApuruSanA caritra-saddaguNa yAda rahe nahi ane : durguNanI vAta sAMbhaLatAM durguNa kaMThastha thaI jAya. sAdhanA mArganA keTalAM avare ? sadgurunI kRpAe meha upara - vijaya meLavavA tuM zukananI gAMTha lagAva, "pramAda nahi karuM..." zarIranI kSaNabhaMguratA ane AyuSyanI alpatA - samajAya teTalA mATe pharI bela-"asaMkhayaM jIviya mA - pamAya paNa A pade mAtra belavAlAyaka che ke caritArtha - karavA lAyaka che ? idri ane buddhi hoya te pudgala dharma samajAya paNa preraka vagara sAcuM mArgadarzana nA maLe. deDe khare... paNu lakSya vagara.... , bhAratIya saMskArane pAmelI rAjarANI dhAriNI rAjA prasenajItanA mAthAne saphedavALa rAjAne batAve..samajAve. vRddhatvane data-"saMnyAsI jIvana svIkAravAnI AmaMtraNa patrikA kare have vanamAM rAja. dehanI maryAdA samajAI gaI. dehanA prasthAnanI maMgalabherI vAgI. have choDa ajayanI khaTapaTa. prasenajIta ane dhAriNI jaMgalamAM jaI saMnyAsInI jaMdagIne prAraMbha kare che. UF "tatvajJAnI dehane TakAvavA prayatna nA kare, paNa deha - sAdhana naSTa thatAM pahelAM tenA dvArA AtmasAdhanAnuM bhAthuM bAMdhI le."

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jIdagIbhara kSamA karanAra svastha rahI zake che, [ 5 bhautika bhAvanAvALAne jJAna thAya ke deha naSTa thavAne che te gabharAI jAya.akaLAI jAya. ane chevaTe hAyahAya karI akartavyapaMthe AMdhaLI doTa mUkI de che. eka nRtyAMganAne potAnA dehanuM-rUpanuM ane yauvananuM atyaMta abhimAna.te samaje mAre deha naSTa thaze nahi, mAruM rUpa, kurUpa thaze nahi, mAruM yauvana puSpa kyAreya cImaLAze nahi. eka divasa darpaNamAM nirakhI rahI che, tyAM mukha upara vRddhatvanI eka karacalI jeI, have mArA jIvananI kiMmata zuM? mane keNa belAvaze? mArI pAse koNa Avaze?

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17. 'chaMda nirAhaNa uveI mAkakha da bhArata dezamAM khAla maMdira che dAdA-dAdInA khALeA. bALakanAM jJAnanA prAraMbha thAya che dAdA-dAdInI cakA-cakI, hAthI, vAMdarA--bagalAnI vArtAthI. A vArtAe dIkarAnAM vijJAnanI kSitijo khullI karI de che. vaDIleAnuM kArya dizA sUcana karavAnuM, thALImAM bhAjana pIrasavA sudhInuM kArya mAtA kare. kdAca mukhamAM keLiyA paNa mUkI de. paNa, chevaTe cAvavA te mALakane ja paDe ne! paramAtmA ane gurujanAe ApaNI sAme adhyAtma bhAjananAM suMdara thALa dharI dIdhAM che. paNa....' adhyAtmanA thALa jevA mAtrathI, samajavA mAtrathI vAcALa manAya, paNa adhyAtma jIvananA rasAsvAda nA Ave.... adhyAtmanA rasAsvAda karavAM adhyAtmane AtmasAt karavuM paDe, ' 9 paramAtmA mahAvIra devanI a Mtima dezanA-uttarAdhyayana sUtra " e askhalita preraNA pravAha che, je A avasarpiNI kALamAM hajAro varSoM sudhI adhyAtmanA amIpAna karAvaze.... 8 adhyAtmanuM khAlama`dira-paramAtmAnI dezanAnuM zravaNuM. AtmajJAnanA prAraMbha tyAMthI ja thAya. paramAtmAe adhyAtmanI lipI ApaNane zikhavADI che. jagatanI lAyabrerImAM adhyAtmanAM pustakanuM jeTaluM saAAdhana karIe teTalI adhyAtmanI prApti thAya. '

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kAdhane tirarakAra eTale kSamAne AvakAra. [ 7 gurujano ApaNane pharamAve. che, "adhyAtmano niSNAta pachI banaje paNa, pahele adhyAtmanA mULAkSarene ghUMTatA jA. "da niraheNa uveImekaM " je IcchAone dha kare te mekSa meLave." A padamAM rahela che zabdane, niraha zabdane, ane uI membe zabdo je vicAra karIzuM to paramAtmAnI hitazikSAnI maulikatAne spaSTa khyAla Avaze. IcchAnA rodhathI mokSaprApti zeTha banI nekaranI IcchA rokI, rAjA banI prajAnI IcchA kacaDI nAMkhI, cakavatI banI cosaTha hajAra rANIonI IcchA dAkhI. are ! jyAM jyAM ne tyAM tyAM satA-saMpattimAM madamasta banI saunI upara sattA jamAvI. bhaya, trAsa, Dara, yuddha mATe mArA manathI huM hiTalara ane keNika banya jyAM nabaLAI dekhI tyAM caDI beThe. jyAM dayAjanaka pari sthiti lAgI tyAM niSpharatAnI pAzavI lIlAnuM sAmrAjya jamAvI dIdhuM, sAcuM kahuM? IcchAne re te ghaNe karyo. paNa mekSa te zuM? samatva paNa nA maLyuM. mahAnubhAva! duniyAne DAhyo gharamAM gADe heya, duniyAne kAbumAM rAkhanAra khudanA parivAranA ghaNIvAra asaphaLa thAya." tane jarUra zAbAzI ApavI paDaze ke te para) mAtmAnA vacana yAda rAkhyAM, "chaMda niheNa uveImekaM paNa zuM tuM pipaTa che? mAtra zabda e che ke arthane

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98 ] sAdhu eTale vizvanA kalyANane javAbadAra sAdhaka paNa samaje che ? nALiyera uparathI chetarAM phAtarAM ukhADavAM vagara khAya tA? dAMta tUTe...paramAtmAnA zabdanA sahAro laI bIjAnI icchAo kavAM tuM asura banyA...... tya anyA. jinazAsana bIjAnI icchiAne rokavAnI vAta kare nahIM, jina zAsana tA batAve peAtAnI IcchAneA rAdha paNa sAcuM kahuM ? mArAthI phakta sAcu' nA kahevAya. hita kAraka kahevAya. maMgalakAraka kahevAya. zrIphaLamAMthI koparu meLavavuM hAya tA kaThora kavacane tADavu paDe. paramAtmAnI hitazikSA meLavavI hAya tA zabdanA kaThora kavacanI aMdara sacavAI rahela rahasyanA pAra pAmavA joie. punaH punaH vicAra.... H 'chaMda nirAhaNu vei mAkakha 1 6 pu pAgala pahelAM bIjAne zikSA Ape. buddhimAna prathama hitazikSAnuM AcaraNa kare, tyArabAda tenA upadeza Ape.' paNu, kayAMya hukama na kare, paramAtmAnAM hitavAkayamAM paNa jabarI nathI. satya hakIkatanuM digadarzIna che. tane satya lAge te tuM anusaraNa kara..... icchAnA nirodha vaDe mekSa maLe che. paramAtmAnI hitazikSA tArI aneka zakAnu' samAdhAna kare che, icchiAnA rodha zakaya ? hA, zakaya....taddana sAcI vAta. kArnI IcchAne rAya ? gAMDA na thA. pahelAM tArI IcchAne roka...mArI IcchA?

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zravaNa e general treatment che, [ 99 hA...tArI IcchA reka...evuM te meM ghaNIvAra karyuM che ane hajI paNa reja karuM chuM ja. savAramAM UThatAM ja khUba niMda AvatI hoya che. paNa jojana karavuM che te te uThuM chuM ne ? bele. meM niMdanI IcchAne tyAga karyo ke nahi? khAvAnI khUba IcchA hoya che paNa cAlavAnuM hoya eTale keTalIkavAra bhUkhe paNa rahuM chuM, bole meM bhajananI IcchAne rekI ke nahi? balavAnuM ghaNuM mana hoya che. paNa sAMbhaLyA vinA bolAya kema? tethI mauna karu chuM. kahe. meM bolavAnI IcchA rokI ke nahi? - sAdhaka! ! "A IcchAne dha nathI. drAviDa prANAyama che. dekhAva kare che-bele che, meM IcchA rekI. paNa te IcchA rokI nathI. tArI IcchA pUti karavA tuM reka che. IcchA nirodha judI hakIkta che ane IcchA badalavI e judI hakIkta che." " IcchA nidhimAM kacchanAzanI bhAvanA rahelI - "chAnA palaTAmAM IcchA pUrNAhutinA samayanI rAha hoya che.? icchA pUrNAhuti karavA samayanI rAha te sI jue che. zuM kheDUta bIja vAvyA pachI dhArya nathI rAkhate ? gADImAM beThA pachI musAphira sTezana na Ave tyAM sudhI zAha nathI joto? vyApArI mAla ApyA pachI paisA

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100 ] paramAtmAnuM zAsana e sukha mATe hoya nathI rAkhatA ? icchA pUrNAhuti mATe mAnavanA prayatnA e jugajunI kathA che. meAhanIya karmIne e te rAja navA khela che. paNa, AtmarAjanA saphaLadAva tyAre ja kahevAya, ke icchA nAza mATe prayatna thAya. IcchA nAza mATenA rAjamAga e che ke jemaNe cchiAonA nAza karyAM che tevA pAtmAnA mArge Daga bharavA. deva gurunA caraNamAM ApaNI badhI icchAo cheDI dai tenA upadeza pramANe jIvana vyatIta karavu....svecchAe svachaMdatAne agni snAna karAvavuM.... " svecchAe deva gurunA caraNe samarpita banavu." jema gheADAne raNapAra karavu. heAya te cokaThuM bAMdhavA devuM paDe, palANa vagara gheADAnI gatimAM vega Ave nahi, palANu nakhAya pachI ja tenI gati vega pakaDe. raNanA vikaTa mAga paNa te sahelAIthI pAra karI jAya. tema bhalA ! sAdhaka ! " tane icchAnA tyAga dvArA paramAtmA samajAve che - svarachaMda manovRttinA tyAga kara " - jIdane tyAga kara" jema palANa vagaranA gheADA unmArge cAlyA jAya che tema tuM paNa deva gurunA caraNa vagaranA bhavanA jaMgalamAM rAga dveSa nA verAnamAga mAM sajajanAthI vikhUTA paDI jaIza. 1 svacchaMda vyakitanA deva guru rakSaka nA ane, paNa samarpi ta AtmAnA deva guru rakSaka ane jIddIne koNa samajAvavAM jAya? sIdhA sAdAne sau sAcI vAta * samajAve. kadAcahInI

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bhAga e rAganA paDakAra che. 101 ] sAthe mAthA phoDa karavA keAI sajajana samaya agADe ? paNa sadAgrahIne zANA mANasA zAna vadhe tevA mA atAve. pUrvAgrahIne je samajAvavAM jAya tenI upara ja te prahAra karavA jAya. jayAre jijJAsune samajAvatAM mAdakane paNa mArga maLe. sAdhaka ! tuM prazna karavAnA ? zuM mArI IcchAne jA paNa sthAna nahi ApavAnu ? manavALA darekane mana heAvAnu mana heAya eTale IcchA thAya. A te julama che. zu mAre zUnya manaska banI javAnu` ? jema pAgalane badhAM kahe tema karavAnuM .......' tema mAre paNa pAgalanI jIdagI jIvavAnI ? sAcuM kahI de. tArA manamAM paNa A vicAranu ghammara valeNa cAle che ne ? - tu 66 ghaNIvAra kahuM chuM ane Aje paNa kahu hitastrInI mAkhatamAM dhaiya kema kare che ? zAMta thA.... upazAMta thA....gabhIra yAna.... jJAnInI vAta vaidyanI bhasma jevI dAya, vaidyanI bhasma jeTalIvAra kharalamAM ghUMTAya teTalI temAM vadhu ti pedA thAya. tevI ja rIte jJAnInI vAta tArA aMtaranA kharalamAM ghUMTIza teTalI tenI mahattA tane samajAze. " kayAreya te koi koDabharI kanyAne sasurAlaya jatAM dekhI che. gAma-ghara-mAtA-pitA, bhAI-bahena, pitR gRhanI sa patti ane chevaTe pitAnA kuTuMbanI aTaka (saraneima) paNa cheDI ke che.

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102 ] sAcA mANasa jAtanA parIkSaka ane che. kanyA pitRgRha cheADe che te patinA gRhanI sAmrAjJI ane che. tyAga vinA prApti azakya. paramAtmAnA hRdayanI sapatti meLavavI haze, te mehanI sa Mpattine DavI ja paDaze. "tArI IcchA eTale jemAM krodha-mAna-mAyA irSyA -manu--masara hAya, paNa, deva gurUnI IcchA, anuzAsana eTale vizvanA prANImAtranA kalyANanI hitazikSA "" jayAM hArIne zaraNAgati svIkAravAnI hoya tyAM zUnyamanaskatA hAya--pAgalapaNuM hAya....paNa jayAM samajInevicArIne hita joine zaraNAgati svIkArI hoya tyAM samarpaNa che. zANapaNa che. sAdhaka ! ! ! pharI kahuM chuM. mArI vAta che mATe nahi mAnatA paNu, sArI vAta lAge--sAcI vAta lAge tA ja svIkAra......... . " mArI vAta-mArI IcchA-mArA mAtha tyAM mAhanIya kanA AviSkAra. mADunIyakama hAya tyAM mAkSa sAMbhavI zake ......... deva gurunI AjJA-cchiA-bhAvanA-maneAratha hAya tyAM AtmasAkSAtkArane divyamAM, eTale ja kahu chu. icchAnA rodha nahi. nirodha kara....sada'tara IcchAno tyAga kara.... i mAkSa prAptinA rAjamAga svecchAnA balidAnamAM che

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paNa vizvane parIkSaka nahIM 103 pura mekSa prAptine rAjamAga deva gurunI zikSAnA svI kAramAM che. ' tuM meAkSanA cAhaka hAya te! te mAga svIkAro.... anyathA saMsAra te sadAne! sAthI che ane raheze....sUya prakAza Ape. AMkha khAlavAnuM kAma cakSuvALAnu` che....masa, vicAraje...chaMda. nirAheNu vei meAkSma', ' C e ! ... paramAtmA ! sadA icchA-AzA-abhilASAsakalpa karavA TevAi gayele mArA AtmA ema kema karIne icchAnI dostI cheDI zake ? paramAtmA ! varadAna Ape. eka IcchA pUrNAhutinuM " deva gurunAM caraNe samarpita anu

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18. na tesiM bhikTh maNasA pausse vyaktinA vikAsamAM mahumukhI phALa hoya che tenA vaDIlane ane vAtAvaraNanA, vaDIla ane vAtAvaraNa sahaja rIte vyaktinA mAnasane ghaDe che, mAnavIne khyAlamAM paNa nathI AvatuM ke huM' paththaramAMthI pratimA anI gayA ! praNAma pharatAM samUhane joI kaI virala atItakALa tarapha siM hAvaleAkana kare che ane sahasA mukhamAMthI nIkaLI jAya che. 'keTalAMye mane sahayeAga ApyA." ! tenI nAmAvalI lakhuM te! mArA cApaDA bharAI jAya ane noMdha adhUrI rahI jAya! kayAreka thAya che, sAcuM nA chupAvavuM joie. hitastrI teA mArA upakAraka che ja. mane mitro karatAM mArA zatruye....ghaDA, sughaDa banAvyeA jeNe jIvananA bahumUlA pATha zIkhavyA te duzmana zAnA ? pragati pathanA pravAsI tA kahe pratyeka paLa, pratyeka paristhiti pratyeka vyakti mArA upakArI che mArA gurujana che. mAre tA yaze!gAthA ja gAvAnI, mArA mukhamAM marazIyA na hAya ! vAta te khUba suMdara che, tArI kalA, AvaData, vicAraNA dAda mAMgI le evI che paNa....vacana madhura manAvavAM hRdaya bhavya banAvavuM jarUrI che. tana, mana ane vacana vacce paNa kAI sUkSma saMbaMdha che. tabIba tabiyata sudhAravAnI keAziza kare.

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--kata byanuM bhAna jagADatA jAya che [ 105 bhASA zAstrI vANI zaktinA vikAsanI kalA zIkhave. mAnasazAstrI manane sudhAravAnI vAta kare, tyAre dharmazAstrI samA guru tana, mana, vacana traNeyane zuddha karavAnI vAta kare. tenA viziSTa upAya matAve. alpA bahAranAM kAraNamAM aTavAi jAya. satta bhUlanI jaDa mULa batAve tana, mana, vacana nirvikArI kayAre mane ? jIva ane jaDatuM svarUpa samajAya tyAre. cetana ane pugalanA bheda samajAya tyAre "huM zuddha jJAnI, nijAnaMdI brahmanI mastI" e ja mAruMtuM sAcu chupa. e ja mAru' lAvaNya; bAkI badhI jaDanI upAdhi ! ! ! kei paNa paristhiti ke padArtha pratye Agraha-haTha, rAga, Asakti tyAM sudhI ja rahe jyAM sudhI tenu prAkRtika svarUpa na samajAyuM hoya. kRtrimatAnA premI kAgaLanA phUlathI mugdha ane, attaranA vyApArI sAcA phUla nA juve tyAM sudhI malake kyAMthI ? kAgaLanA phUlathI koi zrImatanu divAnakhAnu kadAca zeAbhI UThe....paNa prakRtinuM prAMgaNa teA cheDa upara thayela ekAda puSpanA parimalathI ja pAMgare ! ! ! jaDanA managamatA AviSkAra! sAMsArIne Ana dvita kare. jaDanA aNugamatA AviSkAra sa'sArIne duHkhI kare paNa sa'yamIne tyAgIne te badhAM ja baMdhana lAge. zAlibhadra hAya ke, paramAtmA mahAvIra heAya, gRhastha jIvanamAM koInI paNa agni parIkSA na thAya ! sauMyama jIvananA prAraMbha kare

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106] abhimAna e[akkalane kehavATa che buddhine bagADa che. ane pariSahone upasargone duHkha darda vyAdhi, ane prati kulatAne vAvaMToLa phUMkAya. varSothI nehIjanenI vacce rahevAne TevAyelA manane saMyama lIdhA bAda prazna thAya. ahIM mAruM keNu? guru parAyA, gurubaMdhu parAyA-saMgha parAye, te mAruM koNa? mana mamatvanA baMdhana choDIne paNa mArAnI zodhamAM aTavAtuM hoya, A che mananI vicitratA. sAdhu jIvananI kaThera jIvanacaryA, nivAsa, AvAsane bahu meTo prazna! eka divasa rAjamahela je bhavya upAzraya te, eka divasa gaMdIgalInA nAke jela je upAya ! eka divasa udyAnamAM vasati, to eka divasa mazAna, ghATa, kabrastAnamAM vasati ! harahaMmezAM badalAtAM citra vicitra AvAsamAM nidrAdevI rUsaNa le ! sAdhu jIvanane zaizavakAla, jJAna adhyayananI aparipakva dazA, mana atItanA saMramANe caDe, atIta ane vartamAnanI sarakhAmaNI karavA lAge....anukuLa vAtAvaraNathI TevAyela pratikULa vAtAvaraNamAM AvI gaye. bhejanathI mAMDI zayana sudhInI dareka jIvana caryAmAM kayAMya anukULatAnA darzana ja nahi. anAdinA saMskAre jora jamAvI jaze tema lAge tyAM pratijJAbaddha AtmA vicAre, mahAvrata na bhaMgAya, mahAvata nA cUkAya. rAga ane tyAga vacce bhayaMkara mAnasika saMgharSa jAge ane daze dizAmAM aMdhakAra dekhAya tyAre mAnava mana vAmana banI jAya !

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abhimAna e [akkalane kehavAya buddhine bagADa che. [ 107 A mAnasika saMgharSa pAMcamA ArAnA bahulakamI sAdhu sAdhvI mATe ja nathI paNa, cothA ArAnA prabhunA svahaste dIkSita meghakumAre paNa A saMgharSa anubhavela ! A mahine cepI roga pratyeka kALa ane pratyeka vyaktimAM che. paNa, rAga, dveSa, utkaTa bane tyAre dekhAde. jema ghAsane ugatAM keTalIvAra ! jherI jaMtune phelAtAM keTalIvAra ! mAtra varasAda eka divasa, be divasa ane traNa divasa Avyo, cAre bAju ghAsa ugavA mAMDavAnuM ! vairAgyane dIpaka jhAMkhe thavA mAMDe eTalehanuM sAmrAjya phelAvAnuM ja. AthI ja pratyeka vairAgIe, pratyeka sAdhake-vairAgyanI lAlabattI pragaTAvelI ja rAkhavInI che. nahitara pratikULatA aNagamatA saMge aNagamatI vyaktio, aNagamatA sparza, rasa, gaMdha, rUpa ane zabdanA zilA jevA moTA meTA paththare tArA saMyama rathanA cUrA karI deze. pratyeka sarjana-visarjananI prakriyAnuM bIja mananI dharatI upara ja aMkurita thAya che. eTale ja pharI pharI kahuM chuM, aNagamatI vyakita, paristhiti ke padArtha upara manathI paNa dveSa na kara. praSa na kara. airanI javALA pedA na kara. mana ja pratikULatA sAme sthitaprajJa banaze te vacana, mananA hukama vagara kayAMthI AgaLa cAlavAnuM? bicArI jIbha te mananI mukhyamaMtrI che. mananA dareka hukamone jAhera kare che. mana ja zAMta, svastha banI jaze te zarIranuM jera kayAMthI cAlaze? zarIra te yaMtra che. mana tenuM menejara che. menejaranI svIca pramANe zarIranuM yaMtra

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108 ] kSamA ApavAmAM ja jIta che hAra nathI gati karavAnuM tananI gatine rokavA hAtha paga bAMdhavA paDatAM nathI. mana sAme eka matra japI leA. badhA joDANa Ape. Apa kapAI jaze ! eTale ja kahyuM "na tesi bhajjU maNasA pause." khIjI eka vAta paNa sAMbhaLI le. mana jItavuM kaThIna che, e te ghaNIvAra sAMbhaLyu che. paNa, eka sAdI sIdhI vAta yAda rAkhI le. mana upara paNa vAtAvaraNa, vANI ane kAyAnI khUba asara thAya che. mananA deravAyA vANI vartana dorAI jAya che e jeTalu sAcuM che tenA jeTaluM ja A sAcu` che ke vANI vartana dvArA thayela saskAranI paNa mana upara tIvra asara paDe che. tethI ja mana teja viSaye tarapha ghasaDAI jAya che. manathI thayela,pApa rAkAi jAya che paNa tana ane vacanathI thayela pApa, pApanI saMtita peDhA kare che. tethI pradveSa na kara." tene rahasyA tAre svIkAravAnA che. pratikULa paristhitithI pAchaeN. nA haTha- virodha vyakta nA kara, manamAM durbhAva pedA na kara. paNa e ja nakkI karI le, dhu upakAraka che kama nAzamAM, anukULa paristhitimAM tIvra kama aMdha thavAno adhika zakayatA....pratikULa paristhitimAM jAgRtatA rahe, Asakti na thAya eTale kama`nizanI adhika zakayatA.... pratikULa paristhiti deva guru dhanI najadIka lAve, anukULa paristhiti deva guru dharmathI dUra kare. mana rAgamAM

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kSamA e paramAtmAnI draSTi che. [ 109 gherAyeluM che eTale ja TheSa kare che. "heSa na kara", kahevA dvArA badhA saMcAge tArA Atma ghaDataranA sahAyaka che tema samajAvyuM che. sahAyaka upara Akreza karAya? sahAyaka sAthe risAmaNAM levAya ? praDheSa na kara, tene AMtarika artha e ja che ke kola-veranA pratyeka kAraNene bhagADI de. basatArA A maMdirane vitarAga bhAvathI zobhAvI de. vizva pratye dAsIjatA keLavI le. Aja haiyAnI bhikSu! tane hitazikSA che. prabhu pAse audAsInya bhAvanI bhikSA mAMgI dhanya banI jA !!

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19. vikhya sIejaja mehAvI thI * majUrane patthara gaNavAM maLe. bharavADaNane ghI dudha mApavAM maLe ! munImane paisA gaNavAM maLe ! zeThane sahI karavAM maLe ! mAnava te badhA. paNa, kArya kema alaga ? tarata ja javAba maLaze. jeTalI bauddhiktA adhika teTaluM kArya mahAna maLe. mahenata ochI ane prApti adhika tyAM bauddhiA ... dara jyAM zrama adhika ane saMpatti nyUna tyAM murkhatA - sAdhaka tuM mane javAba Apa. tuM buddhimAna....? mane khabara che. mArA praznathI tu akaLAI javAne. hAtha havAmAM vIMjhavAne muThIo vALavAne bhavAM caDhAvavAne, AMkhanA khUNAM lAla karavAne..mukha karaDuM karavAnuM ane dAMta pIsI mane eka be vAra nahi paNa daza vAra tuM kahIza, tame mane zuM samaje che? zuM huM buddhimAna nathI? huM mUrNa chuM ? hitazikSA ApanArakaDavuM nA kahevuM joIe-paNa tAruM vacana tArI dhamAla ja kahI de che ke tuM buddhimAna nathI. mArI vAta jarA ThaMDA kaleje sAMbhaLIza te gaLe utaraze zuM tuM hospiTalamAM gaye che ? sArA DokaTarane te gusse thatAM joyA che? bajAramAM gaye che? sArA vyApArIne te gusse thatAM joyA che ? zALAmAM gaye che?

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samAjamAM parivartana thAya eTale sukhI banAya. [ 111 sArA zikSakane te gusse thatAM joyA che ? vidvAneAnI sabhAmAM gayA che? sArA vidvAnAne te gusse thatAM joyA che ? kadAca kAMsAne raNakAra tArA kAne athaDAyA haze paNa, senAne avAja kayAreya te sAbhaLyeA che ? me prazna pUchyA ane tu' gussAmAM AvI kema javAkha lAgI gayA ? zuM phakta guNavattA zabdathI siddha thAya ? zabdothI guNavattA siddha na thAya, paNa avaguNanu pradarzIna thAya. guNavattA vanathI siddha thAya. zabda e te vyavahAra che. hRdayanA sadguNa zabdathI samajAtA nathI. keTalIkavAra javAkha ApavAthI ekanA maThThale e avaguNa siddha thaI ApavA jAya. buddhimattA eTalA mahAna guNa che ke zabdanI tAkAta nathI ke tenu varNana karI zake. pezavAnA darakhAramAM eka navA jhaverI Avela. pezavA sarakAre traNa hIrA sAme mUkayA. "damAM, vajanamAM, AkAramAM tejamAM adhI rIte sarakhA." pezavAe pUchyuM mele! jhaverI ! traNamAMthI sAcA ane mUlyavAna hIrA kayA ? hIrA je thALamAM mUkayA hatAM tyAM jhaverI gayA. thALa upara eka vedhaka dRSTi nAMkhI. pezavAne tathA sabhAMjane ne paNa ekavAra dRSTithI mApI lIdhA. ane so vicAre che. A traNamAM averI kanu mUlya karaze ? paNa saunA Azcaya vacce averIe e hIrA mADhAmAM mUkayA

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112 ] sukha meLavavAmAM nahi paNa mAnavAmAM che. ane hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM-nAmadAra ! A eka hIre sAce. sabhAmAM sannATe chavAI gaye. "hIro peTamAM jAya te mRtyu thAya." zivA sarakAre puchayuM paNa A zuM karyuM? javAba maLe "mahArAja ! satya-asatyane viveka karyo. mArA meDhAmAM sAkara che have kema kaDavuM baluM? mahArAja ! hIrA traNa nahi eka che, be te sAkaranA TukaDA che." jhaverI ! tame kema samajyA ? "mahArAja ! huM jhaverIne dIkaro chuM. mATe samajuM chuM, hIrA upara mAkhI na bese...." A dazya badhAe joyuM paNa viveka badhA kema na karI zakyA ? badhA jhaverI nA hatA. eka ne ja hIrAnI pArakha hatI. drazya jevAM saunI pAse nena, hAya...paNa, vivekanI buddhi te virala vyakti pAse ja hoya... viveka heAya te buddhimAna, viveka buddhimAna khudanI cagyatA zabdanA gaja dvArA siddha nA kare...! vAraMvAra gusso Ave. ghaDI ghaDImAM meTuM caDI jAya ghaDI ghaDImAM rIsAI jAya, roja roja manAmaNAM, risAmaNA karAve, bUmAbuma kare, kaTAkSa bole, guptavAta le te mukhe ! gurudeva! have huM nahi boluM', sAme javAba nahi ApuM. Apa ja pharamAve-samajAve-kRpA kare! buddhimAna kene kahevAya? sAdhaka ! yAda rAkha. "vipasIeja mehAvI." sadA prasanna rahe te buddhimAna. aprasannatA, aNagame, arati

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jenI jarUra che te kArya lAkha loke na kare [ 113 zeka jenAM hadayanA dvAre dekhA na de te medhAvI-buddhimAna. jema dahIM ane dudha sAthe nA rahe. jema samyakatva ane mithyAtva sAthe nA rahe, jema AzravabhAva ane saMvarabhAva sAthe nA rahe tema aprasannatA ane buddhimattA sAthe nA he ! mahAtmana !. ApanI vAta sAcI hoI zake paNa, duniyAnAM gaLe utare evI nathI. buddhimattA sAthe prasannatAne zuM saMbaMdha ? buddhinuM kArya keInI AMTIghUMTI jANavI, koInA peTamAM rahela pApane jANavuM. A sivAya buddhimattAnI vaLI kaMI navI paribhASA? mane te A samajAtuM ja nathI. sAdhaka ! satyama AkaruM che. samajAze eTale tuM svIkArIza-"paramAtmAnI zikSA kevI majAnI che !" vipasIeja mahAvI."-paramAtmAnI zikSAne maNi mAthe caDhAvIza te ja paramAtmA banI zakIza. uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM prasannatA sAthe prajJAvAna, buddhimAna, maMtimAna, zabda nA vAparatAM medhAvI zabda vAparyo che, buddhi vartamAnane vicAra karAve che. medhA bhaviSyane vicAra karAve che. bhaviSyano vicAra te ja karI zake che ke jene bhUtakALa samajAI gaye hoya, vartamAnanI kSaNa jIvitA tathA upagitA khyAlamAM AvI gaI hoya ane bhAvimAM zuM thaze ? zuM prApta karavuM joIe ? A vicAre te medhAvI.

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114 ] karavA gya kArya lAkha leke na kare. medhAvI hovAthI pitAnA bhUtakALane paNa samaje che ane bIjAnA bhUtakALane paNa samajI zake che. medhAvI hevAthI pitAnA vartamAna jIvanane kema saphaLa anAvavuM. tene khyAla hoya che ane bIjAnA vartamAnane kema saphaLa banAvavuM tenI jAgRtatA rAkhe che. medhAvI hovAthI potAnA bhAvinI suMdara bhejanA tenI pAse taiyAra che. bIjAnA bhAvi jIvana mATe suMdara Ayojana che tethI ja medhAvI prasanna rahe. paramAtmAne viparIeja zabda tArI zaktione pragaTa kare che. jarA vicAra sa6 (sI) saMskRtane dhAtu, tene artha pIDAvuM, duHkhI thavuM. pra upasarga lAgatAM e artha dUra thaI jAya che ane pIenajane artha thAya che. prasanna thA. jarA paNa na pIDAya, lava mAtra paNa na pIDAya che. prasanna thavuM, AnaMdamAM rahevuM, prazAMta banavuM, vimpasIeja zabdano artha thAya che -vizeSa rIte prazAMta rahevuM, prazAMta banavuM, sadA prasanna rahevuM, sarvatra prasanna rahevuM, sarva paristhitimAM prasanna rahevuM. sarvanI sAthe prasanna rahevuM. tArI prasannatAne kALanA baMdhana nahi, padArthanA baMdhana nahi, vibhAvadazAnA baMdhana nahi, kAraNa tuM buddhisAna medhAvI... medhAvI buddhinA trAjavethI jagatane tele nahi paNa,

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jIvana e bahu mahenate maLate khela che. [ 115 paramAtmAnI hitazikSAnA trAjavA dvArA khudanI jAtane tela, khudane mApe. mahAtmA huM mUrkha banI gAmane paMcAtI banI jagat AkhAne tolavA gaye, mApavA gaye--badhAnA gunhA, badhAnI bhUla ane aparAdha zodhavA gayA eTale aparAdha, gunhA ane durguNanuM ciMtana karatAM aparAdhI, gunehagAra, ane durguNI banI gaye. pachI prasannatA rahe kayAMthI ? khudanAM udyAnanA guNa puSpane vItarAga vANInuM jala siMcana karavAnuM bhUlI ga ane karmanA kacarAne lAvI mArA Atma udyAnane ujajaDa banAvyuM. A che mahAtmA mArI kubuddhimattAnI-sAcuM kahuM te mUrkhatAnI karuNuM kathanI. prasannatAne cAhaka prasannatAne upAsaka prasannatAne prazaMsaka Aje huM aprasannatAnI sAkSAt mUti same chuM. sAdhaka ! medhAvI pahelA vizvane parIkSaka nahi paNa, khudane parIka bane. jagata, jIva ane padArthane samajI tenA guNadharmane samajI sadA Atma svabhAvamAM masta rahe. khudanA AtmaguNane vikAsa kare. medhAvIne pitAnI divya daSTi vaDe jagata jIvanAM guNanAM ja darzana thAya. vizvanA guNI sAthe ja paricaya thAya. tethI te prasanna rahe. eTale cidAnaMdanA darzana thAya. prasannatAthI mithyAtva mehanIya

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116 ] mAnavajIvana eTale kSamA ApavAnuM mATuM medAna. ka'nA nAza thAya. prabhupUjAnuM phaLa maLe ane AnaMdaghana pada prAptinA tilaka samu kSAyika samyagdarzana maLe ! prasanna vyaktine vizvamAM kayAMya aThelA nahi, aNugamA nahi, sava"nI sAthe Atmika saMbadha. prabhu ! ApanA upAsaka chuM, bhakta chuM, ApanI hitazikSa svIkAranArA manu eja namra prAthanA....

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20. apaNA saccameseja aherAmAgaLa gAna karavAthI zuM? aMdha AgaLa darpaNa dharavAthI zuM ? mUrkhane hitazikSA ApavAthI zuM? Ye vezyA pAse zIlanuM mAhAtmya batAvavAthI zuM lAbha ? tema AtmajAgRti thayA vagara satyathI zuM lAbha ? kerI jevAthI raMga samajAya paNa....svAda na anubhavAya, sAkara jovAthI tenuM kada khyAla Ave paNa tenI mIThAza na anubhavAya tema jagatamAM satya siddha karI zakAtu nathI, satya batAvI zakAtuM nathI. 9 'satya e teA svanA sa MzodhanathI siddha thAya. satyane siddha karavAnAM dareka mA apUrNa pUrNa zuddha ane samyag mA te paramAtmAe eka ja darzAvyo. .. "apaNA saccamesejA' mahattvan ! zuM tame he! che? AtmA ja ne anusare ! paramAtmAnA avAjane nahi? gurunI vANIne nahi ? khudanI vAta khude svIkAravAnI ? manamAM Ave te dha, manamAM Ave te kama, manamAM Ave te pApa, ane manamAM Ave te. puNya. basa....guru ! pachI te! jagatamAM bhayaMkara aMdhAdhu dhI....gharagharamAM hiTalara ane gharagharamAM raMgA

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118] kaMTALe jIvanathI nahi paNa dubuddhithI kare. biralA. vartamAna mAnavone pradhAna sUra ja A che. na joIe mAtApitAnA baMdhana, na joIe kuMTuMbanA baMdhana, na joIe jJAtinA baMdhana, na joIe samAjanA baMdhana, na joI e deva-guru-dharmanA baMdhana. basa...pachI ame amArA mananA rAjA mahArAjAbetAja bAdazAhamanamAM Ave te ja karIe, manamAM Ave tema ja belIe, jaga tanI paravA ja nahi karavAnI, kayAreya keIthI dabAvAnuM nahi, dabAIe te sau dabAve. paDakAra karIe te sau page lAge. prabhu ! A mArge AjanA samAja vaNathaMbhI kUca karI rahyo che. AmAM kaMI upadeza-AdezanI jarUra kharI? sAdhaka ! "apaNA samesejajA" vAkyane artha samajIza ke tAruM ja pravacana zarU karI daIza? tAruM A lAMbu pravacana "appaNa" zabdane, "sacca" zabdane ane esejajo" zabdano artha siddha karI zake tema che ? kaze vadhe nahi. te vizvanI mAnasika paristhitinuM khUba suMdara vizleSaNa karyuM. gadheDAne sAkara Apo te zuM thAya? gadheDe sAkara khAya ane marI jAya. basa. vartamAna jI have phakta sUtrathI zikhAmaNa nahi le, sUtra...niryukita.. bhAgya... cUrNi...TIkAthI nahi samajI zake eTale ja darekanI vyAkhyA karavI paDaze. pratyeka vyaktinA prazna ane paristhiti tathA bauddhikatA samajI tenI pAse zAstra jJAnanI rajUAta karavI jarUrI che. tethI ja kahuM chuM te uttarAdhyayana sUtrane sUtrapAka karyo te sAruM che paNa, ghaNuM sAruM nathI. ghaNuM sAruM che

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vairAgya e vikRta thayele rAga che. [ 119 sUtrArthane samajIza tyAre thaze. paramAtmAnA pratyeka sUtro anaMta arthacukata che. kRta sAgarane kinAre besI ApaNe te chIpalAthI ramIe chIe. artharUpa ratna te dhRtasAgaramAM DUbakI mAre-ciMtana kare te ja maLe. tethI ja tane vAraMvAra kahuM chuM, svAdhyAyane samaja. svAdhyAya eTale gAthAo pheravI javI te nahi paNa, svAdhyAya eTale AtmAmAM nimagna banI javuM. artha vagara AtmadhyAnamAM lIna banAya? ampaNa samesejajonA arthanuM ciMtana kara... satya pragaTa karavAnuM nathI. satya siddha karavAnuM nathI. satya to vizvamAM che tene zodhavAnuM che. zodhavAnuM kene heya? chevAI gayuM hoya ene, ADuM-avaLuM thaI gayuM hoya tene... eka vastu jaDatI nathI, khovAI gaI che. ghaNI mahenata karI, zrama karyo, vastu maLI paNa, pAchI jema vAdaLAnI ADe sUraja AvI jAya tema vastu guma. paramAtmAe tane satyanuM zodhana karavAnuM nathI kahyuM paNa satyanuM saMzadhana karavAnuM kahyuM che-gaveSaNa karavAnI kahI che. zAdhana , ane saMzodhanamAM bahu pharaka che, Ura zodhanamAM bIjAnI sahAya cAle. paNa saMzodhanamAM keInI paNa sahAya nA cAle. IndriyonI madadathI thatuM jJAna te zAdhana. AtmAnA saMhAre thatuM jJAna te saMzodhana. paramAtmAe saMzodhana kara e kahevA dvArA tene kevalajJAna mATe lalakAra

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120 ] sAcA vairAgI koInA para tiraskAra na kare. karyAM che, paDakAra karyAM che, ''tu... tArA AtmA vaDe ja satyane sAkSAtkAra karI zake che. kevalajJAna prApta karI zake che. jyAre tuM satyanuM sa MzeAdhana karI laiza tyAre tuM AtmA niha paramAtmA banI cUkayA hoIza" zu satyanuM sa Mzodhana karanAra AtmA mArA-tArAnA guMcavADAmAM aTavAya ? tenI maitrI, tene sa MbaMdha, tenu sagapaNuM-vizvanA samarata prANI sAthe, bhUta sAthe, jIva sAthe ane sattva sAthe, kAraNa...satya e che sarva prANI, sarva bhUta...sarva jIva...sa` sattva samAna....sa` Atma zaktimaya che, caitanyamaya che, sava` saccidAnaMda svarUpa che. koi khANamAM rahelu sAnu che te koI AbhUSaNa banelu sAnu che paNa suvarNa satra samAna che. zuM suvaNa kAra suvarNanuM avamUlyAMkana kare ? zuM AtmajJAnI....satya sa MzA dhaka AtmAnuM avamUlyAMkana kare ? AtmajJAnIe vizva sAthe maitrI karavI joI e tema kahevAya ? nA....te pachI Atma jJAnIne vizva sAthe maitrI karyA vinA nA cAle ? AtmajJAnI, satya sa Mzodhaka vizva' sAcuM tattvajJAna samaje nahi ane ene pacAve nahi te te satya zeAdhana kahevAya ? bIjAnI AMkhe joyelu eTu' paNa peAtAnI AMkhe dekhelu tA ALA paNa mAne . AtmA vaDe satyanu` sAdhana. . .AmAM tane samasta tattvajJAnanA sAra ApyA che. AtmAne samaja, ahirAtmAne samaja.... aMtarAtmAne samaja....mahAtmAne samaja.... paramAtmAne samaja.... AtmA amara, ajara, zAzrvata .

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duzmanane bhUlI karmane tiraskAre te sAco virAgI [ 121 che. te pachI mRtyu kema janma kema? AtmA niraMjana, nirAkAra te tenA upara rAgadveSa kema ? AtmA avyAbAdha sukhane mAlika che. te huM sukhI, huM dukhI, Avo anubhava kema? Atma svabhAva agurulaghu, to pachInAnA-moTAne bheda kema? basa..."satyanuM saMzodhana kara." te zuM vizvamAM satya ane asatya e che? sAcuM ane khoTuM ? samyagU ane mithyA....mane zuM samaja paDe? huM tattvajJAnI nathI. mane te keIe karyuM tenuM anukaraNa karatAM AvaDe. paramAtmAnA zAsanamAM zraddhAthI anusaraNa karAya paNa aMdhavizvAsI banI anukaraNa nathI karavAnuM. paramAtmAnA jIvanamAM je banyuM te badhuM nahi karavAnuM.... paramAtmAe je upadezya te karavAnuM. eTale ja paramAtmAe kahyuM che "satyanuM saMzodhana kara." UF Atma dvArA Atma svarUpa US satya dvArA tattvajJAna. IR saMzodhana dvArA samyaguM cAritra. SF Ama samyaga darzana, samyagU jJAna, samyagu caritra dvArA prabhue niHzeyane mArga darzAvyA che. A zAsanamAM kayAMya camatkAra nahi...devamAyA nahi, IndrajALa nahi.paramAtmAnA samavasaraNamAM cosaTha Indra heya paNa, Idro prabhune cheDI kayAMya sevA karavA jAya nahi. paramAtmA ja satyane upadeza Ape. IndrabhUti gautamasvAmI

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122 ] jyAM le tyAM svArtha sAme paNa keI Indra camatkAra na darzAvyuM. bhava paristhiti paripakava thaze eTale AtmA mekSanA sAdhanane pAmaze... durbhane-abhavyane upadeza nA hoya Asanna bhavyane ja upadeza apAya ane teone ja upadeza asara kare ! IndrabhUti paramAtmA sAme vAta karavA AvyA te paramAtmAe kahyuM, "tArA vedazAstrane punaH vicArakara. samya AlocanA kara, veda padano artha tuM to kare che. vedapada eTale jJAna. jJAna satya che. jJAnano dhAraka mithyAtvI hoya te samyagU jJAnane paNa mithyA banAve. tethI ja paramAtmAnI hitazikSA che. "ampaNa saccameseja jA" "satyanuM saMzodhana karI zake te paMDita, paMDita che te samIkSA karavAnI tAkAta che. cha kema janmamaraNamAM bhaTake che? jagata kema ajJAnamAM aTavAya che? sAdhaka kema sAdhanAthI bhraSTa thAya che? sAdhaka avasthAmAM sAdhanAne zatru-mAna kema phAvI jAya che? satyanuM saMzodhana karavA nIkaLe ane asatyanA ravADe caDhI gaye? AtmA vaDe satya jJAna karavAne badale dehane upAsaka banI gaye! gujJAnI ArAdhanA karavAne badale ahaMnI AbhaDacheTamAM amaDAI gayA ! tethI ja pharI pharI kahuM chuM, "apaNA samesejanA tuM vicAra satya apAtuM nathI. satya kaI padAtha nathI ke tenI levaDa devaDa thAya. AdAna-pradAna te padArthanA hoya ! satya meLavavAnuM heya...prApta karavAnuM hoya....satyane

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jyAM IcchA vizALa tyAM lebha vizeSa [ 123 anubhava karavAne heya. sUrya pRthvI upara prakAza phelAve, cakSu ApaNe khelavAnA ane jagatane nihALavAnuM...deva, guru sUrya jevA che. prakAza phelAvaze paNa jagatanuM jJAna te tyAre ja thAya ke jyAre AMkha kholIe-tethI ja paramAtmAnI, hitazikSA che. "appaNuM samesejA". prabhu! ApanI hitazikSA zirasAvaMgha. ApanI hitazikSA te svasvabhAvanA pragaTIkaraNanI parama prakriyA che. prabhu ! Apa te sAcA dAnavIra che. "appaNuM sameseja pada vaDe Apa mane Apa samAna padavIne pradAna karavA cAhe che! paNuM...zuM ApanI padavI svIkAravAne lAyaka banIza? ApanI kRpA mArI pAtratA siddha kare eja na* vinaMtI.

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21 "ImaM deha samuddhara", gE be strIo eka eka maNa vajananuM poTaluM laIne jAya che. baMne strIonI uMmara samAna che. dehanI majabUtAI samAna che. baMnene mArga paNa sarakhe ja che. chatAM eka hAya hAya kare che. eka hAza....hAza kare che. ekane kaMTALe lAge che te ekane AnaMda Ave che. eka kayAre paMtha pure thAya ne poTaluM UMtA-ema vicAre che. eka jyAre paMtha pure thaze tyAre piTaluM yegya sthAne saMbhALIne ja mUkIza. ema vicAre che. - kiyA baMnenI samAna che, paNa eya baMnenA alaga che. kAraNa, eka majUra strI che, jyAre eka mAlika strI che majUra ane mAlikanA dhyeya avazya alaga paDe. talavAra te sajajana-zAhakAra pAse paNa hoya ane DAku pAse paNa heya. eka talavArathI keInAM gALa kema UtAravAM-potAnA mananI melI murAda kema purI karavI, tenA vicAramAM ja hoya. tyAre eka kene kevI rIte sahAyaka thavuM-kacchamAMthI kema ugAravAM te ja vicAramAM heya. deha dhAraNa te saMcamI paNa kare are saMsArI paNa kare. "paNa deha mATe jIve te saMsArI, saMyama mATe jIve te saMcamI." dehanI ALapaMpALa kare te saMsArI, dehanI rakSA kare te saMyamI. deha dvArA AzravanuM AcaraNa kare te

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pahelAM zItaLatA meLavIne pachI ugratAthI kArya karaza. [ 125 saMsArI-deha dvArA nirA utpanna kare te sa MyamI. deha. dvArA rAga dveSa kare te saMsArI-deha dvArA rAgadveSane kSayakare te saMcamI. dehanA kAraNe narakamAM jAya te sa MsArI. " dehanA sahAre siddhi hAMsala kare te sayamI." deha mATe saMgraha kare te saMsArI...dehane bhejana ApavA dvArA sAdhanA kare te sAMcamI....dehanA saMrakSaNa mATe satata jAgRta rahe te saMsArI....dehanA sadupayeAga mATe sadA sAvadha rahe te saMyamI...dehanA mamatvathI auSadha le te saMsArI-deha dvArA sAdhanA karavA auSadha le te saMyamI, dehanA mamatvathI ArAma kare te saMsArI. . .deha dagA nA de te mATe ArAma kare te sAMcamI...dehanI zaiAbhA mATe vastra pahere te saMsArI. . .dehanA darzIna dvArA kAine pApa na a MdhAI jAya tevI sAdAIthI vastra dhAraNa kare te saMyamI... uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM paramAtmA pharamAve che, "ima OM dehuM' samuddhare " A deha eTale audArika deha, audyArika vaNAthI anela deha-zarIra. zarIra pAMca-audArika-vaikriya AhAraka-taijasa-kAma chu, paNa audyArika sivAya eka paNa zarIra ka yamAM sahAyaka nahi-saMyama sAdhanAmAM sahAyaka nahi. ,, : mahAtmA ! je paramAtmAe kamAtra cheDavAnI kahI te paramAtmA ja pharamAve che samruddha re '" audArika zarIra paNa audArika kama nu phaLa che. upAdhimAtra" ima dehuM. -

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129 1 saMteSa puNyathI maLe che je kSepazama janya che. kamAtranA virodhI devAdhideva karmanA phaLa samA audArika zarIranuM - dehanuM samarthana kare? AtmAnA purakta AtmavAdanA nirUpaka paramAtmA dehanuM samarthana kare? dehane dhAraNa karavAnI vAta kare? mane te samajAtuM nathI. zatrune te nAza kare ja joIe. "zatrunuM saMrakSaNa eTale ja mitranuM damana" dehano pakSa tyAM AtmAnI hAra. paramAtmAnA nAme dehanuM saMrakSaNa? sAdhaka !!! - tArI vAta dAda mAMgI le tevI che. tuM dUdhane dAjhele chAza paNa phUMkIne pIve che. tArI vAta sAcI che. jagatamAM paramAtmAnA nAme ghaNAM khudanI svamati sthApe che. ISR "paramAtmAnI AjJAnA rahasya samajyA sivAya sau zAstranI ja vAta kare che. zAstramAM aneka vidhi, aneka niSedha Ave-zAstramAM aneka utsarga Ave- aneka apavAda Ave. zAstranA nAme game tyAM matuM marAya nahi." pratyeka zAstranI vAtenA khulAsA gItArtha guru bhagavaMta pAse meLavavA joIe. dravya-kSetra-kALa-bhAva ane vyakti vizeSanI apekSAe thayelI vAtane apekSA cheDI upayoga karIe te, bhayaMkara nukazAna thAya. davAnI dukAnamAM davA te aneka hoya. badhI devAo jIvADavA ja heya, roga nivAravA ja heya Arogya prApti

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prAyazcita=jANe ajANe thayelI pravRttine tApa. [ 127 mATe ja hAya, paNa.. .te davA DeAkaTaranI anumati vagara saie te ? DaoNkaTara sAthe kutarka karIe ke amArI bhAvanA ghaNI ucca che. tamane takalIpha na thAya mATe pUchyA vagara davA laI lIdhI. .. Ama kare te zuM thAya ? DaoNkaTaranu kaMI na jAya. davA lenAranA prANa jAya . . . tema pratyeka zAstra Atma kalyANa mATe. paNa, 'gudaeNjJA vagara ApaNI jAte zAstra jJAnane upacAga karIe te Atmika ArAdhanA jokhamamAM, samyaga darzana rUpa AtmaprANanA nAza thai jAya" tArI zuddha zAstrAjJA samajavAnI bhAvanAnI anumedanA karuM chuM. zuddha zAstrIya cAritra pALanAra ! tane dhanyavAda ApuM chuM. tArA prazna che - mArA javAba che, paramAtmAnI hitavANI che - hitApadeza che ,, - Ima' deha' samuddhare !" pUrve khAMdhelA karmanA ya mATe A dehane dhAraNa kare. A hitazikSA dvArA paramAtmA kahe che. A mAnavadehanI eTalI suMdara tAkAta-tArA janma-janmanA bAMdhelA kama nAzamAM tane sahAya karaze-madada karaze. bibhISaNa, rAvaNane bhAi e hakIkata paNa te sAttvika vRttimAM sahAyaka. keTalAMka ciMtake kahe che, jo bibhISaNa rAmacaMdrajIne sahAyaka na anyA hAta tA rAmaca drajI rAvaNane jItI zakayA na hAta... karmIne jaMga jamAvIne beThAM chIe. pachI vicAravAnuM nahi -kANu konA pakSanuM? basa, phakata eTaluM vicAravAnuM ke

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128 ] saMta koinI jI MdagIne teDatA thanI paNa sarjana kare che. ApaNane te sAdhananA sadupayoga karatAM AvaDe che ke nahi ? zarIra dvArA khAra prakAranA tapanI sAdhanA karI levAnI. zarIra dvArA ja jApa ane dhyAna karI levAnA. zarIra dvArA ja jagatanA upakAra sAdhI levAne... je deDhunA mamatvathI janma maraNanu kekarDjha' gu McavAyu, te deha dvArA ja janma maraNanA kAkaDAne ukelI devAnu che. te deha dvArA karma AMdhyA. have tAre deha dvArA ja kanA nAza karavAnA che. " A AMtarika hakIkata che. '' dehanA mamatva mATe dehanA jatana nahi paNa, apramatta bhAvanI prApti mATe. dehanA mamatva mATe bhAjana nahi paNa, bhajanamAM sthiratA rahe mATe. dehanA mamatva mATe auSadha nahi levAnuM paNa samAdhibhAvanI prApti mATe. yAda rAkhI le...deha tArA paNa, kRta tA paramAtmAnA ja. paramAtmAnA dUta kakSaya sivAya zAnI vAta kare ?" paramAtmAnA krUta samA sAdhunA dehane eka ja saMdeza hAya....jAgRta khane. AtmAne ja vijayI banAve. vIra anAvA....mahAvIra banAve.... parigraha mATe sAdhune upadeza na hAya....Adeza nA hAya....paNa jagata jIva pratye apAra karuNA ne vAtsalya hAya. tethI ja mahAna zAsana prabhAvaka AcAya bhagavate jagaDuzAne dhanidhi batAvyA. bhayaMkara dukALanI AgAhI karI....ane sArA ya bhAratane jagaDuzAhe traNa varSa sudhI

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samabhAvanI upAsanA tenuM nAma mauna. [ 129 anna pUruM pADayuM. leka kathA kahe che - jagaDuzAhanA mRtyu samaye dilhInA bAdazAhe mAthA parathI mugaTa utAryo hate. gujarAtanA subAe traNa divasa zoka pALyo hato. sAdhunI aMtarvANa pAchaLa parigraha saMjJAnuM jora hatuM ke dAnabhAvanAnuM, preraka pITha baLa hatuM? Aje paNa sau jagaDuzAhanA parigrahane abhinaMdana Ape che ke jagaDuzAhanA dAnane !!! sAdhaka! sAdhune deha eTale paramAtmAnA zAsananI saMpatti. devadravyanuM bhakSaNa jema anaMta saMsAra paribhramaNa karAve, tema je sAdhu paNa dehane durupayoga kare che? jema jinamaMdiranI jagatimAM AzAtanAne tyAga kare joIe. tema sAdhake dehe maMdira virAdhanAthI malina na thAya, tenI takedArI rAkhavI joIe." - jema jinamaMdiramAM adhiSThAyaka deva jAgRta rahe te mATe sugaMdhI vAtAvaraNa rAkhavuM joIe tema dehane adhiSThAtA AtmA jAgRta rahe te mATe kapAkane vicAra rAkhavo joIe. peyApeyane upaga rAkha joIe. sAdhaka ! zarIra tAruM paNa adhikAra paramAtmAnegurune. tArI IcchA mujaba-bhAvanA mujaba-manoratha mujaba upayoga na karI zakAya. sAdhakane zarIra upaga mATe paramAtmAnI AjJA joIe, gurunuM anuzAsana joIe. nadI-samudramAM maLI gayA pachI potAnuM astitva alaga rAkhI zake nahi ane je pitAnuM astitva alaga rAkhe

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130 ] jIvana e bahu tapazcaryAthI maLelI upalabdhi che. te samudranI vizALatA ane akSayatAne pAmI zake nahi. sAdhu saMyama lIdhA bAda mane peTa duHkhe che-mAthuM dukhe che-phariyAda karI zake nahi. sAdhu saMyama lIdhA bAda jyAre ca zarIrane pakSa kare nahi. mAruM zarIra cAlatuM nathI. huM gecarI nahi jAuM-vihAra nahi karuM-garamImAM nahi jAuM AvI kAyaratAnI vAta kare nahi. sAdhue dikSAne divase jema badhI saMpatti-sattA saMsArI svajanene saMpI dIdhI che, tema UR "sAdhue dIkSAnA divase ja zarIra sAdhanA mATe zAsanane samarpita karI dIdhuM che." zarIranI javAbadArI gurunA caraNe seMpI te niSparigrahI ane che. dIkSAnA samaye zarIra gurune eNpyuM nahi te niSparigrahI zAne ? parigraha rAkhe te sAdhu kahevAya? jema gujJA dvArA navadIkSita vastrakabala-pAtra-rajoharaNa saMyama pAlana mATe svIkAre che tema gurvAsA dvArA A zarIrane paNa saMyama sAdhanA mATe svIkAre che. jeharaNa jema jIvadayAmAM sahAyaka tema zarIra pUrvakarmakSayanI nirjarA mATe sahAyaka ! sAdhaka ! ! Ate devAdhideva vItarAganuM zAsana anekAMtavAdamaya che. BR "dahanA samAva choDavAnA ane dehane sadupayoga karavAne, deha dhAraNa karavAne paNa, tenA samyaga

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kaDaka guru e mekSanI saDaka che. [ 131 - uddhAra mATe, pharI deha dhAraNa kara nA paDe te mATe amArA pU. dAdA gurudeva labdhisUri ma.sA. teozrIe nitya dhamAM lakhyuM che "o ! karma huM tArI pAse eka mAMgaNI karuM chuM. ekavAra evuM audArika zarIra Apa ke je kSapakazreNimAM sahAyaka hoya. mahAna AtmA hatA. svAdhyAyamAM lIna hatA eTale dehanA uddhAranI prakriyA samajelAM ane dehanA uddhAra mATe ciMtanamAM daDha citta banelAM... paramAtmA ! huM alpa satvavAna. AmA dvArA AddhiAra nA samaje te dvAra dvArA kyAMthI AtmoddhAra samajuM? paNa, je Apa kRpA kare. te "vizva kalyANamAM sahAyaka tIrthakara nAmakarma yukta dArika deha prApta karuM" sadA mane Apane upadeza rahe ane vizva kalANa mATe sadA bhAva jAgRta rahe te ja zakti Ape...

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rara. kassa hau purA kAu jogakSema na saMvide pRrtta vizvanA pratyeka mAnava AzA-icchA-abhilASA rAkhe che. AzA-IcchA-abhilASA pUrNa karavAM mathe che. AzAicchAabhilASA pUrNa na thatAM haiyAphATa rudana kare che. have zuM ? kAne kahevuM? keNu amArA rakhavALAM kare ? paNa bhalA mANasa ! te asatyanI ArAdhanA karI. khAvaLanA jhADa nIce tA kaTaka ja maLene? kaMTakanI phariyAda kema kare che ? raNamAM retI nA hAya tA zu hAya ? samudramAM khArA jaLa nA hAya tA zu hAya ? gRhakakAzamAM satyAnAza nA hAya tA zu hAya ? AzA ane abhilASAnA Ataza savanAzanA dAvAnaLa na pragaTAve te! zuM thAya ? tArA mAnava janmanA dAvAnaLa koie pragaTAvye nathI paNa, te ja pragaTAvyeA che. ThaM'DI nivAraNa mATe agninI jarUriAta, kadAca e svIkAravA jevI vAta....paNa, agni pragaTAvavA kalpavRkSane jalAvAya ? icchAo...AzAo....kAmanAo pUrNa karavA devadAnavanA aneka janma hatAM. mAnava janmanAM AyuSyane IcchAnA AtazamAM hAmI devAya ? mAnava janmanA eka *tamu ta nI tAkAta zuM tuM samaje che ? tane vimAnanI gati khabara che ? rAkeTanI gati khakhara che ? tane sUcanA

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be kalAka gusase karanAra thAkI jAya che. [ 133 prakAzanI gati khabara che? tane zabdanA majAnI zakti khabara che? tane mananA taraMgenI zakti khabara che? paNa sAcuM kahuM? tu bhUkha che ! mahAmUrkha che ! mUrkha ziremaNi kahuM te paNa mAThuM zuM? manuSyanA AyuSyanA eka aMtamuhUrtanI tAkAta tane khabara che? jo ATaluM na jANatA hoya te AtmazakitanI vAta ja tane kayAM karavI? tuM kahIza nA huM jANuM chuM. mane khabara che. paNa tane nathI lAgatuM tAruM jJAna tArA saMyamanA yugakSema karI zakaze ? tArI sAdhanAnA rapA karavAnI tArI pAse zakita che? para mAnava janmanuM eka aMtimuhUrta eTale anaMta anaMta kALacaka sudhI karela karmabaMdhane kSaNamAM nAza karI zake te bhavyakALa. mAnava janmanA sAta lavanuM AyuSya ochuM paDe. chaThThane tapa adhuro rahe te puNyanI tetrIsa sAgaropama sudhInI rAjazAhI keda AmarAjane bhegavavI paDe.... 'jagatanuM mUlya kara yA na kara te tArI marajInI vAta. vItarAganI vAtanuM mUlyAMkana karavA jeTaluM hajI tArAmAM sAmarthya nathI. sAce vItarAganI vAta samajavAne garbhastha bALaka jevI tArI dazA che paNa, mArI te tene eka ja hitazikSA che. tArA puruSArthanuM, tane maLela advitIya saMpattinuM tuM mUlyAMkana kara. game tema toye tuM vItarAga paMthane cAhaka che. upAsaka che. paNa kAmanA...vAsanA

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134 ] sAdhunu vacana eTathe kSamAnA sadeza. cAhanAnA DheLAmAM phasAI gayA che. mekSanI Ahelaka paDakAravAnI tArI zaktine te ru'dhI che. pahADAnA pahADo kudI janAra Aje tuM kIDI vege paNa cAlatA nathI. jema rUpavatI strIne keAI mArI nAMkhe nahi, paNa tenA upara vazIkaraNa vidyA kare... vazIkaraNane vaza thayelI te rUpavatI badhAne bhUlI, Aka`Na karanArane ja anusare, na peAtAnA rUpane vicAra kare, na bhayAnaka mAgane! vicAra kare, na amAsanI aMdhArI rAtanA vicAra kare. eka ja jhaMkhanA, eka ja talasATa, AkaSa~NuM karanAranI pAchaLa doTa ! suDIvALIne doTa ! AMghaLI doTa....! tuM mAkSane musAphara ! tu' ana'tane! pravAsI ! tu zAzvata AtmA...! Aje kAmanAne ravADe caDhI vAsanAnI viSama vATe bhAgI rahyo che paNa, tane khabara che? tArI mAnava janmanI sAdhanAnuM avamUlyAMkana thAya che saraLatA.... bhadrikatA, madhyasthatAnA sahAre te gatajanmamAM manuSya AyuSya ka khAMdhyuM. mAnava janma mATe haMmezA eka ja siddhAMta che ke tyAM praveza maLavA khUba kaThIna che. asa`khya deve asakhya nArakI, anaMtA tiya cA, sakhyAtA mAnavIonA arajI patrA hatAM. amane mAnava janma joie." badhA jotAM rahyA ane tArA puNye jora karyuM tuM mAnava banI gayA. paNa have zuM? tu' ja tArA puruSArthanuM, tArA puNyanuM avamUlyAMkana karIza? mahA~mUlA mAnavajanmanI paLAnA, mAnavanA AyuSyanA, nazvara ane tuccha icchAonI

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prabhunI AjJA eja zAsana che. [zAsana orDa2] [ 135 pUrNAhuti mATe upaga karIza? sau pitAnI jAta mATe svataMtra che. tuM baMdhana nahi cAhe te tArA upara koI tapa, tyAga, yamaniyamanA baMdhana nahi nAkhe paNa, javAba Apa! IcchA pUrNAhutimAM tAruM mAnavanuM AyuSya vyatIta thAya che. pachI tArA saMyama dharmanA yogakSema zAnAthI ? kaI ArAdhanA-sAdhanA dvArA tArI kuzaLatA ? tArA saMyama dharmanA pega kSema karyA vinA tuM saMyamane mAlika saMyamane svAmI, saMyamane nAtha kevI rIte rahI zake? jagatamAM koIne paNa vicAra na kara. keIna paNa mATe vicAra nA paNa....cogakSemane vicAra kara. eka bAju chAone sakha. tArI dareka IcchAomAMthI pUrNa thAya tevI keTalI IcchA? tArI pUrNa thayelI IcchA keTalI ? IcchA pUrNa karavA tAre zuM balidAna ApavuM paDayuM che tenI khabara che? pitAnA pAda prakSAlana mATe ja vaparAya paNa amRtane durupayoga karAya ? nA...nA...amRtane durupayoga na kasayabhalA ! amRtane durupayoga karAya ke nA karAya e devene pUchaje. te sAdhanA paMthane pravAsI. zubhabhAvanAne saMgAthI. mane ekalI ja paramAtmAnI hitazikSA yAda rahI che. IcchA mATe mAnava janmanI heLI nA jalAvAya. pAchuM sukha te nahi ja. IchA te apUrNane apUrNa. kuzAgra bindu jeTalI pUrNa IcchA paNu, sAgara jeTalI apUrNa IcchA.

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136] u'DANa e vairAgyane mAge che. rAga dveSanA lapharAne nahI' kSaNavAramAM duSTa meha AMkha sAme rUpanuM navuM ramakaDu' la.yeA. rAvaNanA aMtapuramAM rUpavatI ramaNI aneka hatI. badhI priya hatI paNa, sItAjInA rUpanuM varNana sAMbhaLatA mAhe turata palTo karyAM. have A badhA nA joI e. rAmacaMdrajInI patnI sItA ja joIe. IcchAnI saphaLatA, niSphaLatA e tA bhAvinA garbha mAM paNu, mAnava- janmanuM apamAna te nakkara hakIkata mAnava janmanA avamUlyAMkana dvArA sAdhanAnuM avamUlyana, sAdhanAnA avamUlyana dvArA deva gurudha nuM avamUlyana deva guru dhanu' avamUlyAMkana karanAra sayamanA ce,gakSema kevI rIte karI zake ? sAdhaka ! tArI sAdhutAnI bhAvanAnu' abhinadana karu chuM. tArI dIkSAnA sAhasane lAkhe! karADAvAra biradAvu chuM, paNa mArI pharaja che. tethI sAvadha rahevA sAyarana majAvuM chuM. sAdhu banyA che paNa, cchiAe tArA pIche choDaye nathI, dazamA guNasthAnaka sudhI tArI sAthe chAnagapatIyAM ramaze. tane eve bhUlabhUlAmaNImAM nAMkhI anAtha banAvI deze ke tArA samyak dananA nayane paNa phADI nAMkhaze. tAruM samyag jJAna, tAruM samyag cAritra kayAranAya jhuMTavAI gayA haze? tuM mekSa mA thI dUra dUra pheMkAI jaIza.... tane mithyAtvI banAvI naraka nige,danI jelamAM keda karAvI deze. A badhI mAhalIyA zrI gurumukhe * sAMbhaLI che. mAhathI mArI thayelI nArAjI anubhavI che eTale vRddha

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TakAra ja cakAra banAve che, nahi ke TakaTaka. [ 137 mAjInI jema ekanI eka vAta pharI pharI tane kahuM chuM. kassa heM purA kAu' jogakSema na sade. ' " bhalA bhAI ! tuM pratijJA karI le, huM mArA yegakSema nA mArge ja saMcarIza" sAdhaka ! tArI siddhi jovAnI hRdayanI abhilASA che. eTale ja kahu chuM tuM bela, '* tapasvI anIza ke nahi te mane khabara nathI. huM jJAnI anIza ke nahiM te mane khabara nathI, hu* dhyAnuM banIza ke niha te mane khakhara nathI, huM pravacanakAra khanIza ke nahi te mane khakhara nathI, hu* grantha sarjana karIza ke nahi te mane khakhara nathI, huM zAsana prabhAvaka manIza ke nahi te mane khakhara nathI. paNa, mArI pratijJA che huM sayamanA ceogakSema avazya karIza. dIkSA divasanA Ara bhathI je jeTalAM sadguN! Apa jevA vaDIleAnI hitazikSAthI prApta thayA che tene huM kharekhara jALavI rAkhIza. temanuM mAtA jevA vAtsalyathI kSema-kuzaLa karIza. ane te guNAnuM kSema-kuzaLa karatAM je je navA sadguNA Apa jevAnI kRpA draSTithI prApta karavA jevA samajAze te badhAnI prApti karIza. mAre teA apUrva guNAnA ceAga karavAnA che ane prApta guNAnu kSema karavAnu che, basa..khasa....mArA navalA sAdhaka....jo tuM icchAnA rodha karIza. te tuM tArI meLe ceAgakSemane sAdhI zakIza. anaMta siddhonI anupama AtmasabhAmAM tAruM

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138] bhUtakALane jANI zakAya che. vartamAnane sudhArI zakAya che. siMhAsana nizcita thaze. mokSa prAptinA tArA hakakanI jaya gheSaNa vizvamAM vistRta banI jaze. ' ', prabhu! ApanI hitazikSA zirasAvadha karuM chuM. meghakumAra muni mahAtmAnI jema Apa mArA nAtha bane. mArA saMyamanA gakSemane huM samajo....paNa...ApanA sevakanI gikSemanI javAbadArI ApanI, ApanI AjJAne anusaravAnI bAMyadharI mArI....basa svIkAre mArI samaja dArInI zubha bhAvanAkare sadAya mArA gakSema..

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23. jAyAe ghAsa mesejA BR | pravRtti dareka mAnavanI samAna hoya paNa, vRtti dareka mAnavanI alaga hoya. ekalI pravRttithI mAnavanA mUlyAMkana nA karAya ! paNa vRttithI mAnavanA kharA pArakhAM karAya! jIvana che te AhAra, nidrA, vastra ane nivAsanI sahune prAthamika jarUriyAta rahevAnI. AhAra jevI jIvanadhAraNanI agatyanI pravRtti pratyeka jIvaMta vyaktine karavI paDe. bhajananI pravRttimAM prAyaH saunI samAnatA rahe paNa, bhejanavRttimAM kakSA mujaba vividhatA rahe. je khAvA mATe ja jIvatA hoya tenAmAM kaI lakSya hetuM nathI, uddeza hete nathI. tevA mANasane hajAre prazna pUchaze, te paNa eka ja javAba maLaze, jagatamAM bhakSya che te tene bhakSaka hovo joIe. bhejana che mATe ArogavAnuM ! temAM vaLI zAne vicAra karavAne ? A bhakSya, A abhakSya, A alagna, A kalaya, A aSaNIya, A eSaNIya, A egya A ayogya, A zuddha, A azuddha, A prAsuka, A aprAka, bhejanamAM A badhI. tatvacarcA nA karavAnI heya, maLyuM te badhuM khAI javAnuM ApaNu piTane ja vicAra karavAne bhalAtArA peTane paNa vicAra te karIzane?

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140 ] ajJAna ja rAgane TakavA de che, mahAnubhAva! nA..nA.. huM peTane paNa vicAra nahi karuM, jIbhano ja vicAra karIza. mane pasaMda che. svAdiSTa lAge che te vAta karI javAnuM, peTane vicAra huM zA mATe karuM? zuM huM naiva chuM ? evI cIkAza mane pasaMda nA Ave. meLuM lAge te mIThuM nAMkhI devAnuM, kaDavuM lAge te sAkara nAkhI devAnI, ThaMDu lAge te garama karI devAnuM, garama lAge te ThaMDu karI devAnuM, je bhajana vAdiSTa lAge temAM Arogyane bahu vicAra nahi karavAno. Arogyane-kuTuMbane dharmane vicAra karIe te bhUkhe ja marI jaIe. bhUjana karyuM ane svAthya bagaDayuM to davA, chekaTara ane hospITalane kayAM teTe che? bicArA bhUkhe maratAM DekaTarane je ame bimAra thazuM to rejI reTI maLaze. sahajamAM sevAne dharma thaze. Aje te dareka riganI davA maLe che. te peTamAM hajama karavAnI davA nahi maLe ? sAcuM kahuM, amAre te khAvA mATe ) jIvana che." jagatamAM jyAre AvA khAudharAnI eka jamAta che te ekavarga evo paNa che, bhajana karavAnuM paNa peTa mATe, Arogya jaLavAya mATe, bhejana mATe ame nahi, amArA bhATe bhejana. bhejanano tyAga karAya paNa amAruM svAthya nA bagADAya svAthya mATe vicArI vicArIne paNa bhajana karanArA che.

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jJAna teA rAgane phagAvI de che. [ 141 sAdhaka ! tAre A e vanA lAkonI jema bheAjana nathI karavAnuM, paNa paramAtmAnuM vacana che 'jAyAe ghAsamesejajA'tuM sayamanA yAtrika. bhAjana joine tane bhUkha nA lAge tArI kSudhA sadA saMyamita. pANI joI ne tane pIvAnuM mana na thAya, tArI pipAsA paraMtu kANu jamAvI zake. khatrIza pakavAnnayukata, SaTsayukata, cakravatInA bhAjana tArI sAme Ave paNa tuM tArI jAtane kahe, aNAhArI padmanA upAsaka, khatrIza pakavAnna te zu ? saMsAranA samasta bhAjananA maneAhara padAtha mArI sAme kema mUkI devAmAM na Ave ? paNa mArI jAtane saMyamI rAkhI zakIza. mArA manane kahIza AtA puddagalanI mAyA che. vanaspatikAyanA kalevara che, agnikAyanA deha che. aplAyanA maDadAM che. jIva sAme jaDanI UbhI thayelI mAyAsuSTi che, pRthvI ane pANInA sacega dvArA racAyela puTTugalanI maneAhara lIlA che. jema nArInuM sahajarUpa alaga hoya che ane khajAramAM UbhI rahelI rUpajIvikA strIonu rUpa alaga hoya che tema A rasanendriyane AkaSa vAnI adbhutakalA che. paNa huM. rasalAlapI nathI ke jethI A leAjana sAme AMkha UMcI karIne paNa jouM. paramAtmAnI hitazikSA mArA hRdayamAM che. tethI ja cAra vikathAne samaju chu. tenAthI sajA tA. bhayaMkara vinA-- zanI mane khabara che. eTale ja bhaktakathAnA tyAga karyAM che. bhAjananI vAto nA karuM. bhAjananA rasane uzkeravA pAka '

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142 ] jagata ane jAtanA svabhAvane samaje te vairAgI. zAstra paNa nA vAMcu. jyAM bhAjana thatu hAya tyAM besI paNa nA rahe. OM huM bhAjana mATe jIvana vyatIta karanAra nahi! purlR hu. dehanI ALapa'pALa mATe bhejana karanAra nahi ! # huM saMyama yAtrA mATe nirdoSa AhAranu sa MzAdhana karanAra. sacama cAgya AhAra maLe teA upayAga karI lauM', anyathA leAjana sAthe pazu vyavahAra cheDI dauM. mArA sAdhu jIvanane prathama pATha mArA gurue bhaNAvyA che. jAyAe ghAsamesejA,' sAdhakanA pradhAnasUra sayamayAtrAne nirvAha, saMyamanI rakSA thAya teA bhejana levAnu. anyathA tapasvInA vamAM cAlyA javAnuM', saMyamanu' jatana thAya te! jIvavAnu anyathA mahAtmAe pAse anazana prakriyA samajI levAnI. paramAtmAe ja zramaNa dehanA, sAdhanA deDanA jhAjherAM jatana karavAnAM pharamAvyA che, eja paramAtmA kramAve che, 'jAyAe ghAsamesejjA,' bhejana jevI jIvananirvAhanI agatya pravRtti mATe paNa, vRttithI .zreyathI....lakSyathI kayAre calita cavAnuM nahi, bheAjana haze te| deha Takaze evI behudI vArtAmAM kayAreya phasAtA nahi. AyuSya kama sAtha Apaze tA DheDhu Takaze. A vAta tArA dvilanI divAla para keAtarI leje. khIje lakhela bhUlAI jaze paNa dila para lakhAyela hitazikSA sadA tArA sAdhaka jIvananI rakSA karaze.

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iMdriyAne AdhIna ane te bheAgI. [ 143 dha lAbha' khelatAM AvaDI gayuM ane pAtrA pakaDatAM AvaDayAM eTale tuM geAcarI javAnA adhikArI nahi. gocarI javAnI cAgyatA ochAmAM AchuM daza vaikAlika sUtra' pAMcamuM pi taiSaNA adhyayana artha sAthe kare tyAre maLe. paNa geAcarImAM gItA banavA Aghaniyukti piMDaniyu kita yatinicaryA, yatizikSA vageremAM niSNAta banavuM paDe, AhAra sacamInA deha eTale meAkSanu` jagama maMdira. { Mobile Temple ] ma MdiramAM pavitratA zuddhi ane zreSTha dravyane ja upayega thAya tema saMyamInA deha AhAra mAtrathI nA bharAya.. A kaMI bhagna maMdira nathI ke temAM kacarA nakhAya...zuddha, kalpya, prAsuka, eSaNIya AhAra ja levAya sAdhu AhAra lAvyA pachI gurune atAvI sIdheA peAtAnA pAtramAM na le. tenA maMtra che, * jAyAe ghAsamejA " saMyama yAtrAnA pAlaka aneka Ala...vRddha..glAna tapasvIne teA adhika jarUra,ala mahAtmA bhAvinA zAsana prabhAvaka che, vRddha sthAvira mahAtmA saMyama vaDaeN pavitra thayela puNyAtmA che, glAna sAdhu jemaneA deha rogathI jarita che paNa, jemanA manamAM saMcama sAdhanAnA aneka seANalAM che. tapasvI tA sacamAthe kamanijA mATe tapa karI rahyA che. A badhA mAkSamAga nA mahAyAtriko pravAsIo che. temanI bhakti karyAM vagara mArAthI geAcarI karAya ? jo huM' tema 'karu' teA sayamanA yAtrika kevI rIte ?

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144 ] jene jeTaluM khamatA AvaDe te teTale moTo. samAnadhamIne bhUlI peTanI pIDAne yAda karanAra pipaTa paMDita, A badhA bhaktine pAtra hajI bAkI che. mArA upakArI mahAtmAo..AcArya bhagavaMtu upAdhyAya bhagavaMta, prarvataka, gaNavachedaka, ratnAdhika mArA vidyAdAtA, Apa badhA anugraha karaze te huM lalakArIza "jaI me aNagahaM kujajA, sAhU hujAmi tArio Ape mArA upara upakAra karyo...mane tAryo..uddhA, bAdamAM saMyama yAtrA mATe anna upayogI che AsvAda mATe nahi. AhAra evI vRttithI karIza vaccenA nirarthaka dalAla dAMta ane jIbhane dalAlI maLe nahi ane peTamAM pahoMcI jAya. zuddha AhArathI mArAmAM apramattabhAvanI abhivRddhi thaze. huM bakuza-kuzIla-cAritradhara, dhIme dhIme saMyama yAtrAnA lakSyathI cAritrane upAsaka banIza. sAdhaka ! jAyAe ghAsamesejajA" no ATale saMkucita artha karavAno nathI. kahuM ane tuM hA-hA kahe to temAM zI majhA? "jAyAe ghAsameseja jAne te pUrNa vicAra karyo che ke apUrNa ? gurudeva ! mane te huM badhI vAtamAM pUrNa ja lAguM chuM. AkhI duniyAnI vAtamAM pUrNa vicAra karuM chuM paNa mArI

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zrAvaka=dhama'nA nAme chetarAI jatA AnaMda mAne. [ 145 jAta mATe te| mane. Adata banI gaI che, jANe huM pUrNa na heAuM !...sajJa na heAuM ! mane mArA eka paNa dugu Nu dekhAtA nathI, bhUla dekhAtI nathI, doSa dekhAtA nanI, paNa hamaNAM kaMika ApanI kRpAthI phera paDayA che. mArI jAtane janamAMthI jina manAvavA mATe kaIka Apa jevA hitecchu kahe te! pharI vicAruM. 8 jAyAe ghAsamesejjA nA rahasyA zu ? AhAra jevI ati agatyanI jarUriyAta mATe paNa saMyamayAtrAnu lakSya rAkhavAnuM te vastra-pAtra-upAdhi-vasati mATe keTale vicAra karavAnA ? te jeTalA vastra-pAtra-pustaka-pena vagere je je upakaraNa rAkhyAM hAya tenI tapAsa karaje, A badhAM mArI saMyamayAtrAnA nirvAha mATe ! A Arthika adhika upakaraNa dvArA tane parigrahane erU te nathI karaDI gayA ne ? mArI kakhala-mAruM pustaka kahI te ahI paNu navA saMsAra te nathI zaru karyAM ne ? tuM je je vastu rAkhe tenAthI javAba leje. mele huM upakaraNe ! tame zA mATe AvyAM ? mArA upara saMyamane upakAra karavA ? saMyamane upakAra kare teA tamAruM rakSaNa karu,mAvajata karuM, anyathA tamaneya rokaDuM parakhAvI dau', sIdhAve.... sIdhAveza tamArA mAge ....nahItara mAre tamane badhAne vAsirAvavAnI kriyA karavI paDaze....sayamAthe kevala AhAranuM ja zeAdhana nahi paNa mArI pAse rahelA dareka padArtha nu saMzeAdhana karIza....zuddha lAgaze--sahAyaka 10

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146 ] vANIyA-dharmanA nAme koine chetaryAM vagara na rahe. ww lAgaze-upakAraka lAgaze teTalAMnA svIkAra karIza nahI tara jema cha mahine kezanA leAca karI dehanA mamatva haDAvIza tema A badhI phAjane paNa haThAvIza. have tuM ka'Ika samajyuM jAyAe ghAsamesejjAne rahasyA. paramAtmA ! huM te! tamArA parama bhakta. ApanA Adeza pAchaLa ghelA anya chuM....pAgala anya chu.. jAyAe ghAsameseja padmanA ciMtanathI mArAmAM jema pedA karA. saMyamayAtrArthe pravRttinuM sa Mzodhana.... saMyamayAtrAthe vANInu pragaTIkaraNuM.... ane sayamayAtrArthe ja mananA upayAga... anyathA sa sAravArSIka mana-vacana-kAyAne vesirAvavAnI zakti Apajo.... ja eja cAhanA....abhilASA.... buddhimAna ane pAgala vacce zuM taphAvata hoya che ? te ane mauna thaI jatAM hAya che paNa, kayAreka evu ane che ke buddhimAnanI vANI aTakI jatI hoya che. paNa, mukha askhalita vApravAhathI kalAka sudhI khelyAM ja karatA hAya che. PE 'vANI pAchaLa vicAranI rAkti jenI majabUta hAya te buddhimAna vANI AgaLa ane vicAranI zakti pAchaLa tenuM nAma mu`...

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24 apiya pi navijajae Ruo buddhimAna ane pAgala vacce jema taphAvata che. tema tyAgI ane bhikSuka vacce taphAvata che. purI svecchAe-samajI vicArIne padAtha ne cheDe te yAgI. Asakita che, jha MkhanA che paNa, jenI pAse padAtha nathI te drI. Aki'canya avasthA, daridrI ane tyAgInI samAna hAya paNu, sADha mAM mahAna taphAvata heAya. ekane peAtAnI pAse kAi cIja na heAvAnu du:kha che ekane badhI cIja dUra thavAne! Anada che.. tyAgI ane sasArI vacce pharaka zuM? padAtha nA tyAga te sau kaMI kare che, bALaka hatAM tyAre je ramakaDAMthI ramatAM hatAM ne neTa thayA eTale cheDayAM ja ne ? nAnI hatI tyAre mAtAnI sADI pakaDI pharanAra khAlikA jyAre yuvatI bane che tyAre mAtAne cheDe ja ne? gaddhA paccI zImAM je mitrAnI pAchaLa pAgala anate hateA te ja mitrAne vyApArI jIMdagI zaru thatAM rAtri-divasa, ThaMDI-garamI jema cheDayA ke nahi ? che tema. prakRtine niyata krama priya apriyane cheDavuM e tA svAtha yAtrAmAM ja pragati che. paramAnI dizAnu` pagaluM nathI.

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148 ] IcchAnA tyAga thAya te aMtarAya tUTe. sAdhaka ! te mAtA-pitA-putra-bhAryA, sattA cheADI, have tuM nirvyApAra anyA che. te pravRttine tyAga karyAM che. tAre te! have Ahelaka jagAvavAnI appiya pa na vijjae" A svara tArI ArAdhanAnA pradhAna sUra rahevA joIe. jagatanA kei evA sAMsArI lAvA ke je apriya na iMADatA hAya. apriya te sau De. emAM tyAga nathI. paNa mamatuM ja pASaNa che. pAtra badalAya che. paNa rAga ghaTatA nathI. paristhiti parAvartana pAme che. paNa mananuM valaNa badalAtu nathI. ghara avazya cheADe che, paNa heATalamAM nivAsa kare che. samAja jJAtinA tyAga kare che, paNa sosAyaTI-lakhanA svIkAra kare che. Ama, apriyane tyAga ane priyane svIkAra e te!" samasta saMsAranI pravRtti che. tu niSparigrahI sAdhu ! tyAga pAchaLa lapa chUTayA jevI tuccha bhAvanA tArI nA hoya...zA mATe cheDayuM ? cheDavAnI pAchaLa zuM Adarza ? sAdhunA tyAga jagata svabhAva samajIne hAya. jagatanA svabhAvane je svIkAre te cha dravyane svIkAra kare. cha dravyanA ci MtanamAM UMDA uta ratAM e paTTAnA svIkAra kare. jIva ane jaDa. jIva tattva-ajIva tattva hAya che. jANavA lAyaka che. jIva tattva ke ajIva tattva nathI teA heya ke nathI te upAdeya. jIva tattvanA tyAga tame zuM karA ? ajIva tattvanA tyAga tame zuM karo ? jIva tattvane svIkAra tame zu kare ?

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vartamAnane jANIne bhaviSyane sudhArI zakAya che. [ 149 jJAna prApti bAda te AtmAnI eka anupama dazA prApta thAya. padArthane padArtha rUpe oLakha. pachI tenA guNadharma samajyA pachI, priya zuM ? ane apriya zuM ? vizvanA pratyeka padArthamAM aneka dharmo rahelAM che. temAM nathI te priyatA ke apriyatA, baha kahe te upagitA ane nirU pagitA che. priya ane apriya e te tArI kalpanA che. jagatamAM sAdhune kayAMya kazuM kaI priya nahi ane apriya nahi. sAce sAdhaka tAre phakta padArthane ja tyAga karavAnuM nathI, paNa padArtha pAchaLa rahela rAga-dveSa duSTabhAvane tyAga karavAnuM che. jagatane keI paNa padArtha ekale karmabaMdha karAvatuM nathI. temAM jyAre ApaNA rAga zreSa umerAya te ja karmabaMdha thAya. ekalI mATI zuM kare ? mATImAM pANI bhaLe te ja kAdava thAya. sAdhaka ! ! paramAtmA tArA kevA upakAraka che. tene tyAga karA padArthane ane choDAvyA anAdinA duzamana rAmadveSane, paramAtmAe tane tyAgI banAvI zreSTha saMpattine mAlika banAvyuM. sama !! devAdhidevanA dharmanI vizichatAne paNa khyAla rAkhaje. have te sAdhutAnA svAra samajyA che. naTa paNa nATakamAM pAtrane saphaLa abhinaya kare che. nTa paNa nATakanA pAtranA bhAvane AtmasAta karavA keTale puruSArtha kare che tyAre te saphaLa abhinetA banI zake che. * zuM tuM sAdhutAnuM sAcuM nATaka paNa nahi kare ? bhUle

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kahelI. priyAe mane priya kahelI. eTale e 150 ] bhakta samarpita thavAnuM lakSya rAkhe che. cUke tAre bolAya nahi-A mane game che A mane gamatuM nathI. tAre kahevAya nahi A mane apriya che. A mane priya che. vaka-jaDa banIne kaheto nahi ke tame mane priya apriya kahevAnI nA kahelI, priya-apriya mAnavAnI nA kahelI. eTale mAre game-aNagamo manamAM rAkhIza. bApaliyA sIdhe thA... A te abhilASA ne aNagame cheDAvavAM jatAM tuM mAyAvI banI jaIza. mane priya kaMI nathI-apriya kaMI nathI. evI zabdadhArA karI ApaNe mAyA nahi karavAnI mahAtmA ! ! ! meM kahyuM ke mane tamArI vAte samajAtI nathI. mane samajAya tevuM kahe, te sAruM thAya, nahi te mArI dazA te evI thaze ke huM mArA gurune "lakIra ne phakIra." tamArA zabdane anusarI zakIza bhAvane sAdhaka ! ! ! vartamAnakALanA kALa-devane samaju chuM karma doSane sathajuM chuM. kamathI bhAre thayela AtmAnI mane. dazA samajuM chuM. eTale tArI vAta para gusse nathI Avate. tArA upara karuNa Ave che. tArA uddhAranI jhaMkhanAthI tene spaSTa rIte samajAvuM chuM. paNa sadeva keziza karaje. paramAtmAnA parama Adarzane samajavA ane AcaravA. paramAtmAnI AjJA mujaba belavAnuM tane zA mATe kahuM chuM ? jo paramAtmAnA vacana pramANe bolIza ane AcA

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karoDAdhipati banavAnuM nahi. [ 152 ramAM aMtara haze te tane thaze mArAmAM ane naTamAM zuM pharaka? huM sAdhu jevuM vacana belate jaIza tema tema dhIme dhIme manane paNa tema mAnavAnI vicAra vAnI Adata paDI jaze. tArA manamAM saMsAra che. paNa tane kema mahAtmA saMsArI nA kahe ane sAdhu kahe-vAgI kahe? mahAtmA! zabdone sahAre paNa tArI Atmika vRttine jAgRta kare che. sAdhu thaIne paNa saMsAra manamAM rAkhyo. pUjA sAdhupadanI karAvI ane aMdarathI zetAna rahyo. saMta ane zetAna vacce eka divasa ThaMda yuddha khelAze. zetAna bhAgaze ane saMta vijayI banaze. sAdhaka ! ! ! " punaH punaH smRti kara. mane kAMI priya nahi, mane kAMI apriya nahi, mAruM keI svajana nahi, mAre kaI mAru koI parijana nahi. mAre kaI zatru nahIM, mitra nahi. zatru-mitra, svajana-parijana, priya-apriya A badhI rAga-draSamAM cakacUra banelAnI pAzavI lIlA. priya ane apriyamAMthI mAruM ane tAruM, mArA ane tArA thAya. mahAtmA prasannacaMdra ApaNAM karatAM atyaMta mahAna tyAgI hatA. tyAgI ane dhyeyavAdI hatA. eTale ja AtApanA svIkArIne ubhA rahelAM. durmukhatanA zabdo kAnamAM gayA. mArA-tArA, priya-apriyanI rAkSasIoe mahAtmAne bharakhI lIdhAM. samasta saMsAranA tyAgI sAdhunA svAMgamAM

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15ra ] kalAkAra kalAmAM vAI javAnuM lakSya rAkhe che. . eka pitA pachI rAjavI...yuddha zarA kSatriya ane chevaTe maraNIyA thaI manathI laDhavA lAgyA. mekSanA sAdhaka mahAbhAne narakanA atithi keNa banAvI rahyuM hatuM? vyakti? nA, te zabda? nA e te bahAnuM. kharekhara te priya apriyanA paDadA vacce chUpAyela rAgadveSa. je tuM priya-apriya koI paNa vyaktine ke padArthane mAnIza te tenI pAchaLa rAga-dveSanI jAsUsI che. e bhUlIza nahi. rAga-dveSa rUpa mehanA jAsUsInI karuNa kathanI tane khabara nathI. paramAtmA mahAvIrane paNa tripRSTha vAsudevanA bhavamAM priya-apriyanI bhUtAvaLa satAvI gayelI. pitA ja putrIne bhakSaka banI gayA. deSa kono? guna keno ? A tophAna konuM? meha jAsUsanuM. meha evuM varavuM rUpa laIne Avaze. samajAvaze. paNa ApaNe te hakIkata kahevI che. A priya che ane A apriya che. paNa hakIkta e mAtra hakIkata ja hAya, varNana ja heya te harSa ane zaka na hoya. ekane meLavavAnI abhilASA ane anyathI dUra javAnI utkaMThA na hoya. che tethI jyAM game-aNagamo karyo tyAM saMsAranI badhI khaTapaTo zaru thaI jAya. kyAreya jAdugaranI peTI joI che? jAdugaranI peTI nAnI amastI hoya paNa, jema emAMthI je mAge te badhuM nIkaLe. juo badhuM..joyuM nA joyuM kare teTalI vAramAM kazuM hoya nahi, tema priya apriya kare eTale mehanIya

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zrImata thavAnuM nahi. [ 153 karmAMnI aThThAvIsa prakRti hAjara. jyAM mAhanIya kama hAjara thAya; tyAM ja cAra ghAtI karyAM kahe. ame tA nikaTanA sAthI. tame amane mUkIne ekalA Ave, paNa ame te tamArA paDachAyA jevA. tamArI pAchaLa ja UbhA chIe ne....ghAtI karmo AvyAM eTale aghAtI karmo kahevAnAM ame kayAM kazuM nukazAna karIe chIe ? eka khUNAmAM cUpacApa paDayA rahIzu. Ama, priya apriyanA bahAnA pAchaLa pIche haTha karI gayela mAha sainyanuM punaH AkramaNa tArA AtmarAjanA parAjaya karAvaze. khela ! tArI hAra tane pasaMda che? tAre tArA AtmarAjane durgatinA dvAre lai javA che? priya-apriyanI mAyAjALamAM tane eka paNa pAtra prApta thaze nahi. ane A raudra dhyAnathI krutinA atithi banI jaIza. sAdhaka ! mArI hitazikSA nahi, paramAtmAnI zAzvata vANI che. "satya svIkAra ane asatya choDa...." prabhu ! maLa ApeA....priya-apriyanA yAganuM prabhu zakti Ape| rAga-dveSane dUra karavAnI, prabhu ! meAha sAme kesariyA karavAM maLa Ape. mAre mehune haNavA che. vIra anI mahAvIra banavuM che. "paramAtmA pUrNa kareA prAnA mArI."

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25. tasyAvi sAMjamo teo BE aditassa vi kiMcaNuM jagatamAM sulabhakArya karanAra aneka maLe. durlabhakArya karanAra jUja ja maLe...virala ja maLe, nadInuM vaheNa je bAju hoya te bAju taranAra aneka paNa, nadInA vaheNathI viruddha dizAmAM taranAra ke I. taiyAra raste cAlanAra aneka paNa pagadaMDI banAvanAra koI. juga jUnA kALathI banatuM AvyuM che ane banatuM raheze, sulabha mArge saMcaranAra lAkha karaDe nahi paNa ajabanI saMkhyAmAM maLaze paNa durlabha mAge Daga bharanAra phakata AMgaLInA veDhe gaNAya teTalA ja vIra puruSa maLaze. jagata svabhAva e che ke pote je mArge jAya tene zreya mAne. ane bIjA bhAgane heya mAne. mAnava svabhAva e che ke te bIjA mAnavane paNa pitAnA gajathI mApe. ane tenI paNa teTalI zakti samajI le, ane tene te ja mArga cI che, taLeTIe Ubhe rahela ke jeNe giri zikharenuM sauMdarya nihALyuM nathI tevA mAnava pathikane girizikhara ArahaNa karavA keNa preraNa kare? preraNA te dUra rahI... paNa sAhasathI paMgumAnava UrvAhaNane AkAMkSIne paNa kahe nA...bhAI nA....pahADane caDhAva khUba ja kaThina che. pahADa caDhIza te zvAsa caDhaze...tRSA lAgaze..upara kaMI

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-ziSya e jIvananI sIdhI dizA che. [ 15pa AMbA nathI...pANI che. pANI..! je nIce kevI majA che. sIdhA raste cAlavAnuM, zvAsa bharAya nahi...tarasa lAge nahi ane kevI suMdara mAnavanI avara-javara ! eka vyaktine prazna pUchIe tyAM javAba ApanAra be vyakti hAjara hoya. kayAMya bhaya nahi. akasmAta nahi, himAlayanA uttuMga giri zikhare para ArahaNa karanAra dareka yAtrikane maphata zikhAmaNa ApanAra maLI ja jAya ane zikhAmaNa sAMbhaLavA nahi ubhA rahe te hAtha pakaDIne paNa zikhAmaNa saMbhaLAvavAnA jagatanA pratyeka UrdhvarehIne A agni parIkSAmAMthI pasAra thavuM ja paDe. koI paNa mahatvAkAMkSIne prAraMbhamAM kayAreya jagate sAtha Ape che? jagatanA nirAzAvAdIhatAzAvAdI DAyare kayAreya UrdhvarihIne abhinaMde? nA.. e bane ja nahi, mAnava svabhAvanI A viruddha vAta che. jema UrvAhIne koI abhinaMde nahIM tema saMyama mAge saMcaratA dIkSArthIne ke preraNAnA pIyUSapAna karAve nahIM. koNa tene sAtha ane sahakAra Ape ? kAyara ane nirAzAvAdIone svabhAva che sAtha sahakAra na Apa... preraNA pretsAhana na ApavA....paNa bihAmaNuM-DarAmaNa vAta karavI ane binajarUrI zikhAmaNa ApavI. - saMyamIne eka saMsAra rAgI avazya kaheze. "prabhunI AjJA zuM dIkSAmAM ja paLAya che? saMsAramAM nathI paLAtI ? zAsanathI prabhAvane zuM sAdhu ja karI zake ? saMsArI zAsa

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156 ] kArya karavAnA gAphela rahevuM tenuM nAma mUkhatA. . nanI prabhAvanA nA kare ? ame saMsArI keTaluM dAna-puNya karIe chIe? amArA mukhamAM dAna karyA vagara te anna paNa jatuM nathI. dIkSAmAM tAre te yAcIne--kenI pAsethI - ja meLavavAnuM ne? tyAM tAre dAna ApavAnuM che? pauSadha .zALA baMdhAvI zake? jinamaMdira baMdhAvI zake ? mana Ave tyAre tIrthayAtrA karI zake? bhAratanA saMghane jamADI zake ? DhAnazALA, pAMjarApoLa calAvI zake ? amArA jIvanamAM to harakSaNe harapaLe dAna ame karIe chIe. adhika kahuM ? dIkSA lIdhA bAda chevaTe amane upadeza ApI zAsana prabhAvaka dharmakAryo tAre amArI pAse ja pUrA karAvavA - paDaze. ame dAna karIzuM, pAsAne sadupayoga karIzuM te ja tame jainadharmano pracAra ane prabhAva phelAvI zakaze, tuM ItihAsanA amarapRSTha vAMca...hemacaMdrAcArya jevA mahAna guru paNa zAsana prabhAvanA kayAre karI zakyA ? kumArapALa mahArAjA jevA udAra rAjavI maLyA te ne? sAcuM kahuM, hemacaMdrAcArya ma. ItihAsamAM nAmazeSa thaI gayA hota, je gurjaranA mahAna rAjavI kumArapALa dAna gaMgA na vahAvI hota te...itihAsamAM hajI AgaLa vadha. Arya mahAgiri mahArAja ane Arya suhasti mahArAja baMne sagAbhAI paNa Arya suhasti sU. ma. jaina ItihAsamAM suvarNAkSare kema lakhAI gayA ? kAraNa ke saMprati mahArAjAe temane Adarza jhIlyo. dhana karatAM dAnane mahattva ApI A dharAne jinamaMdirathI suzobhita karI ti.. tethI ja tane kahuM chuM bhAI! dharma karavAne paNa

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sukha e sAdhana nathI paNa sAdhanathI maLate anubhava che. [ 157 vadhu paDate nahi, paNa dAna-puNya thAya tevA gRharatha jIvananA sulabha mAge saMcara. tane haiyAnI hita bhAvanAthI kahuM chuM te mane zAMtithI sAMbhaLe che eTale tuM jarUra mArI vAta upara vicAra karIza..bela barAbara che ne! vaDIla..! mArA haiyAmAM te vItarAga paramAtmAnuM TaMkazALI vacana asara karI gayuM che. "tasA vi saMme see aditasa vi kiMcaNa." tame je vAta kahI te sAMbhaLI che paNa, kharekhara A badhI vAta sAMbhaLatAM mane pahelAM. eTaluM badhuM hasavuM AvatuM hatuM ane chevaTe tamArI vAta sAMbhaLatA thayuM, tame dAna-puNya avazya kare che, derAsaraupAzraye niyamita jAya che. gurujana hitepadeza avazya sAMbhaLe che paNa jinezvara prabhunI AjJA ane tamAre te uttara-dakSiNanuM aMtara che. sAcuM kahI dauM, jema keI adhyAmAM nivAsa kare ane rAmanuM khAya ane guNa. gAya rAvaNanA" sajajana! tevI tamArI paristhiti che. - tamArI bahu lAMbI vAta sAme mAre eka nAnakaDo ja prazna che. dAna mahAna ke paramAtmAnI AjJA mahAna? zuM paramAtmAe eka dAnane ja dharma kahyo che? dAnamAM ja paramAtmAnI AjJA samAI jAya che? paramAtmAe be prakAranA dharma pharamAvyA. sAdhudharma ane gRhastha dharma. zreSThAtizreSTha paramAtmAnI saMpUrNa AjJA pALI zakAya te sAdhu dharma. paramAtmAnI saMpUrNa AzA pALavAne Adarza rahe te gRhastha dharma. paramAtmAnA nAme ja vAta karavI che.

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158 ] sukha e sAdhana nathI paNa anubhUti pedA thatI cIja che. te dAna-zIla-tapa ane bhAva A cAra dharmanI kema vAta karatA nathI? dAna e sauthI sahelAmAM sahele ane sAmAnyajana paNa AcarI zake e dharma che. tame jene dAna kahe che tenI ja vAta karuM chuM. annadAna-dhanadAna vastradAna, pAtradAna ke vasatidAnamAM tamane kazuM kaSTa paDavAnuM nathI paNa thoDuM mamatva avazya cheDavuM paDe. tame je vAta hemacaMdrAcArya mahArAja ane kumArapALa mahArAjAnI karI te vAta sAcI ! tame kahelAM pAtro sAcA che. paNa phakta tamArI bhUla eTalI ja che ke rAmAnI TopI premAne paherAvI che. kumArapALa mahArAjAnA kAraNe hemacaMdrAcArya mahArAjanuM nAma nahi, paNa hemacaMdrAcArya mahArAjanA mahAprabhAve kumArapALa mahArAjA itihAsamAM amara banyA. ItihAsa kahe che-rAjavIe aneka thayAM ane thaze paNa jene guru na maLyA te sattA ane saMpattinA madamAM nAmazeSa thaI gayA. tyAgI sAme saMsArIne mUkavuM ja paDe che. teonA upadeze dhananI mamatA utare che. keNika ane dhananaMdanuM nAma kema ItihAsanA suvarNa vRSTa upara na AvyuM? kahevuM ja paDaze kALamIMDha paththarane kalAkRtimaya banAvanAra kaI zilpI heya te ja mUrtinA sarjana thAya. keNika ane dhananaMdane guru nA maLyA eTale teo mahAkALanA khapparamAM hemAIgayA.Arya suhastisUri mahArAjanA upadezanI tAkAta hatI je tAkAta alpajIvI.

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je sahana kare te pAme che. pratikAra kare te gumAve che. [159 saMprati mahArAjAne bhAratanI dharA para aneka rUpe zAzvata karyA, zuM sapratimahArAjanI zakti hatI pRthvIne jinamaMdirathI maMDita karI zake? nA...nA. Arya suhasti sUri mahArAja pAse amara saMjIvanI hatI nazvara saMpatti dvArA anazvara kAryo karAvI saMprati mahArAjAne ItihAsanuM amarapAtra banAvavAnI! tame kAryane mahatva Ape che. ame kAryanI dizA sUcavatA mArgadarzaka guruone mahatva ApIe chIe. kArya te kaI paNa karI zake paNa prabhu AjJAnuM pAlana te zuravIra ja karI zake. hajI kahuM chuM tamArI gaNatrI, tamArI samaja khoTI che. sAdhujIvanamAM jarApaNa dAna nathI karavAnuM chatAM saMyama ja zreyaskara che. bhalA! parigrahanuM pApa rAkhyuM hoya te pApa dhovA mATe dAna kare. paNa jeNe paga ja na bagADyo hoya teNe dhovAnuM kevuM ? jenI pAse potAnuM kaMika che te cheDe, dAna Ape paNa, je dhanyAtmAo vItarAgane dharma samajAtAM vizva uparathI mAlikI-hakaka uThAvI lIdho che tene ApavAnuM bAkI rahe che zuM? je dAna Ape che te keTalA aMzamAM dharma kare che? ane je niparigrahI bane che te keTalA aMzamAM dharma kare che. te mane kahe. vItarAganI AjJAnuM saMpUrNa pAlana te saMyamamAM ja thAya. saMyamI bane teja vitarAganA sAmrAjyane mAlika

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160 ] kaSAye=AtmAnI vizuddhine rokanAra banI zake. bAkI dAna-puNyanA kArya kare te vItarAganA ane temanA sAdhuonA sevaka ja banI zake.. vItarAga paramAtmAnA uttarAdhikArI banavA niSparigraha vRtti ja maMgalakAraka che. niSparigrahavRtti vagara vItarAganI AjJAnI ArAdhanA azakaya, jyAM parigraha Ave tyAM dhIme dhIme pApasthAnakenI pheja dhUsI ja jAya. jyAM parigraha Ave tyAM A dhyAna-raudradhyAnanA aDDA jAmI ja jAya. lAkha karoDe gAyanuM mahine mahine dAna kare tenA karatAM paNa "tasyAvi saMjame seo aditasa vi kiMcaNa" A ja mAre siMhanAda raheze. . niSparigrahavrata eTale sAdhutA. jayAM padArthane saMgraha te che ja nahi paNa padArthasaMgrahanI bhAvanA-Asakti-jhaMkhanA paNa nathI. eTale ja kahuM chuM kazuM ja nahi ApavAnuM chatAM saMyama ja zreyaskara che, jayAM prabhunI AjJAmayatA che. prabhu ! prabhu ! * tamArI AjJA samajIne tamArA sAmrAjayamAM AvyuM chuM tethI kyAreya dAnanAM bahAnAnI ethe paNa parigrahaduzamananA gIta gAvAnuM zaru nahi karI dauM. basa huM te niHspRhavRtti...niSparigrahavRttithI ja maMgala biradAvalI gAnAre ApanA sAmrAjayane maMgalapAThaka banuM tevA AziSa Ape.......!

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26. samaya goyama mA pamAyae gi svachaMda mijAjane mAnavI mana phAve tyAre UThe che. mana thAya tyAre khAya che, game tevuM bele che. game te vicAre che. cogya agyanA vicAra vagara manapasaMda vyakti sAthe mitratA kare che. lAbha nukazAnanA vicAra vinA manamAM je tako Ave te vepAra zaru karI de che. jene balavAnA, vicAravAnA baMdhana nahi tene suvAnAM baMdhana zAnA? rAtanA bAra vAge ghare Ave, be vAge suve cAra vAge siMda kare. keI kaMI kahe te kahe, have huM bALaka nathI. huM mUrkha nathI ! mArI jIMdagInuM mUlya huM samaju chuM, mane mArI rIte jIvavA de. huM mArI jIMdagI mATe svataMtra nahi? badhI bAbatamAM parataMtra? badhI bAbatamAM kacakaca? tamArI vacce nahi AvuM tame mArI vacce nA Ave. svataMtratA e mAro janma siddha hakaka che. mAnava ! svataMtratA zabda khUba sahAmaNo, lebhA. maNe, AkarSaka che. keInI svataMtratA vacce avAya ja nahi paNa eka javAba Apa. tuM svataMtratA cAhe che ke svachaMdatA? tuM zabdakozane vidyAthI che, zabdanA rahasyane pAraMgAmI paMDita nathI. - sva eTale AtmA, taMtra eTale rAjya. Atma rAjya. AtmAnI khumArI AtmAnI mastI-Atmazuddhine upAya. bela tuM svataMtra che ke svachaMda? svataMtra te ja banI zake 11

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162 ] tyAgane prathama prAraMbha dAkSiNyatAthI ja thAya che. che ke je svachaMda na hoya. sva eTale pitAnI, chaMda eTale IcchA. IcchAne gulAma, IcchAne dAsa te svataMtra banI zake? svataMtra banavA IcchAne hemavI paDe. svataMtra banavA sarvaksanI IcchAne jANavI paDe. svataMtra banavA mahAtmAnI IcchAne anusaravuM paDe. tAruM jIvana tuM tArI rIte jIve to tene koI rakInA zake ! paNa samajAvI te zake ne? gharamAM je karIye te zALAmAM na karAya. zALAmAM je karIe te sAmAjika saMrathAmAM na karAya. sAmAjika saMsthAmAM karAya te reDa upara na karAya svataMtra vyaktine paNa vizvanA anivArya niyama svIkAravA ja paDe. bhale tuM tArI jIMdagI mATe svataMtra che paNa tuM jagatamAM jIve che. jagatanA cogAnamAM kaMI paNa duSTa AcaraNa karAya nahi. jAhera milakatano durupayoga na karAya. jIvana e paNa jAhera milakata che. tene ApaNe eka durupayoga karIye te badhA durupayoga kare. eka vyaktinI bhUla varSo jatAM hajAra bhUla bane, hajAra gunhagArane utpanna kare ! mahAtmA mane batAve. huM zuM jIvanane durupayoga karuM chuM? huM kapaDAM vagarane pharuM chuM? huM Atma hatyA karuM chuM? duniyAthI viparIta huM zuM karuM chuM ? badhA kare tema karuM pachI jIvanane durupayoga nahIM ne!

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bhagavAna para zraddhA eTale pudgala para azraddhA. [ 163 - jIvananA durupayoganI vyAkhyA sAmAnya nathI paNa pratyeka vyakti aMge alaga alaga vyAkhyA che. jenI samaja vadhAre, jenA vicAramAM prabhutva adhika, jenA vacananuM mUlya anupama, jenA AcAranuM advitIya AkarSaNa hoya tene jIvananuM mUlya keTaluM? mAnava tArA jIvananuM mUlya zuM ? tArI pAse ja sAta rajaju UMce uqlekamAM gamana karavAnI tAkAta che paNa jIvanane sadupayoga kare che, durupayoga kare to...? mAruM vacana sAMbhaLI le. gAMTha bAMdhI le ! jIvanane duru yoga karyo te tArI gADIne akasmAta thazo. ane sAtamI nArakanA khADAmAM pahoMcI jaIza! 33 gare panI sudI sajA ! mahAtmA ! ahIM "samaye geyamA mA pAyae" kahyuM che. A te gautama svAmIjInI agata hitazikSA che. mane kahyuM hatuM ke tuM pramAdana karate, te huM vicAra karata. - sAdhaka ! te prazna che te javAba paNa sAMbhaLI le! ane gya lAge te nehI le. A hitazikSa. gAdhara bhagavaMta gautama svAmIne nathI, teo te ramata mahAtmA hatA. sadA utkaTAsane birAjatA. emAM ApaNA je pramatabhAva kayAre ya nahi. lekasthitinA kAraNe pramata guNasthAnakanA Aroha avaroha thayA kare. . prabhue gautama nAma vAparI chaghI ne hitazikSA ApI che.

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164 ] sukhanI sAthe destI nahi paNuM, je tuM sarvajJa, te tArI vAta nahi. je tuM chadmastha, karmanA AvaraNathI DhaMkAyela te tane cokakasa A hitazikSA. AjJA be prakAranI hoya che. eka vidhi AjJA, eka niSedha AjJA. vidhi AjJAnuM pAlana zakaya hoya te avazya karavAnuM paNa niSedha AjJAnuM AcaraNa te maraNAMta samaye paNa nA kAya. gurudeva ! prabhunI hitazikSA mArA mATe che. jarUra huM prabhunI AjJA zirodhArya karIza. huM pramAda nahi karuM basa, saMthArAnA samaye ja niMda laIza. divase adhyayana karatAM siMda Avaze te UbhA UbhA adhyayana karIza. skUti rAkhIza, nidrAne paNa nahi, taMdrAne paNa nahi, AvavA dauM .. sAcuM kahuM chuM tuM lakIrane phakIra nA bana. prasAda eTale nidrA, UMgha. A apUrNa artha kayAMthI zIkhI Avyo? ApaNe pratyeka vAtane upalaka samajI viruddha AcaraNa karI laIe chIe. pramAdane arthe khUba vizALa che. pra upasarga madumAdu dhAtu parathI prasAda zabda banyo che. mad bhAdu=bhUlavuM cUkavuM, gAMDA thavuM, muMjhAvuM. pra-eTale atizaya, adhika pramANamAM pramAda, pAgalapaNuM. pAgala be prakAranA. eka mAnasika kAraNathI pAgala, eka mehanA udaye pAgala.

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duHkhanI sAthe dastI jamAvavAnI jarUra che. [ 165 mehanIya karmanA udaye koI paNa bhUla karavI te pramAda, OF aMtmabhAvane vismarI, sAdhubhAvane bhUlI, jinAjJA vismarI, zAstrAjJAne vismarI, je kaMI paNa pravRtti thAya te pramAda, UG IcchAthI, jadathI, ahaMthI, zaThatAthI, lebhathI, gamAthI, aNagamAthI, bhayathI, zekathI, jAgusAthI, vijAtIyanA AkarSaNathI, jinAjJAnA anAdarathI je kaMI paNa thAya te pramAda, pramAda eja mahAzatru. aDhAra pApasthAnakane AmaMtraNa ApanAra gora mahArAja. saMyamanA pratispadhI - Atma guNane virodhI A pramAdane have hAla karavAnI che, ha, bhAge, dUra jAva. mArA jIvananA gharamAM tArA jevA guNa virodhI tatavane praveza nahi maLe. tuM eka kSaNa paNa rahe te paNa huM jinane drohI kahevAuM! prabhue pharamAvyuM, "pramAda bhAva e ja ajJAna. jyAM mihane udaya tyAM jJAnane sthAna nahi, huM ajJAnInI ToLIne guMDe nathI, huM to garavA jJAnI tIrthakara paramAtmAnA kuTuMbane sadasya chuM. pramAda sAthe mArI mitratA te nahi paNa haMmezAM lAla Akha, pramAda mane DarAvI nA zake, huM pramAdane DarAvI zakuM. huM zaraNAgata chuM vItarAgane, vItarAganA

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166] vizuddha AtmA vizuddha samaye vizuddha sAmrAjyamAM pramAdano bhaya zAne? vItarAganA viziSTa rAjyamAM apramata bhAvanA Di hiMma gAje. prabhu ! huM ApanI hitazikSAne anusarIza. eka samayane paNa pramAda nahi karuM, puNyAnubaMdhI puNyanA udaye maLela mAnava janma, nigI zarIra, paMcendriyanI pUrNatA, sadgurunA premano sadupayoga karIza. huM eka kSaNa paNa pramAda nahIM karuM. ati durlabha jIvanane dupayoga karuM te mAre kAraNe aneka loke ahitanA mArge prerAya. zakti Apaje. sAmarthya Apaje. prApta sAmagrInA durupayogathI pIche haTha karuM. - sAce tAraka! Aja dila khelI mArI karuNa kathanI paNa kahI devA de. Apane upadeza "kSaNane paNa pramAda nA karuM. duniyAe mane DAhyo kahyo; samajadAra, buddhimAna kahyo. paNa Aje sAcuM samajAyuM-huM anaMta anaMta kALathI pAgala hato. mohanA nazAmAM cakacUra hate. pAgalapaNAmAM paNa dekhAva DAhyA karatA hatA paNa prabhu sAme huM gAMDe hate. duniyAnI dRSTie te gAMDe jenuM magaja asthira heya. adhyAtmanI dRSTie te gAMDo jenuM hRdaya mehathI bharela hoya. prabhu mane kuMbhakarNanI nidrA karatA adhika mehanI bhayaMkara nidrA AvelI. Ape , jagADayo. have

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gurunA caraNamAM jIvana samarpita kare tenuM nAmA dIkSA [ 167 AzIrvAda Ape. sadA jAgRta rahuM, Atma sAmrAjyanA vikAsa karuM, vistAra karuM. prabhu ! Ape hitazikSA ApI. samayanA paNa pramAda nA kara. ' A kevuM majAnuM seAnerI sUtra che ! kSaNanA sadupayoga ane durupayogamAM mArI jIMdagIno nakazA badalAvavAnI tAkAta...sadA jalatI raheA Ape jagAvelI divya jyoti...

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27. "AIgNA si paheM. mahAlaya" 'gacchasi maga viseAhiyA' da mA sama paNa hAya ane viSama paNa hoya, mAga saraLa paNa hoya ane mAga kaThina paNa hoya. mAga sIdhe paNa hAya, ADA-avaLA paNa hAya, mAga kAMTA kAMkarAvALa paNa heAya ane cAre bAju vRkSeAthI AcchAdita vacchamAga paNa hAya. mAga raNanA paNa hAya ane nadI kinArAne paNa hAya.... yAtrika ane rakhaDumAM pharaka zuM ? sArAM mAge nizcita mAge dhyeya pUrNAMvruti mATe cAle te yAtrika....game tevA mAge kazA paNa lakSya vagara cAlyA kare te rakhaDu... zanI ! pathika ! mahAna puNya tArA. mithyAtvanA mAge rakhaDatA-rajhaLatA athaDAtA - kUTAtA yathApravRtti karaNanA sahAre tuM kA~graMthI sudhI AvyeA. advitIya-pUrve nahi karelA evA zuddha vizuddha-mahAna yuddha adhyavasAya dvArA te kama graMthI bhedI nAMkhI. tArA itihAsa badalAi gaye. gai kAle tArA upara je kamanI mahAja jIrA hatI lekhaDI akhtarA hatA. tene teM tADI nAMkhyA. sittera kADAkoDI sAgaropama pramANa mAhanIya karmInI aMdha sthitine te bhagADI

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kRpA mAMgA tA eka deva, gurunI ja mAMgeA [ 169 nAMkhI, tArA vijayanI jayaghASaNA zarU thai. A apUrvakaraNa avasthAmAMthI kramika vikAsa karI mAbhimukha banyA. samyaktva prApta karI tuM aTakyeA nahi, meAkSanI rAjadhAnI rUpa saMyamamAM praveza karyAM. Aje tuM dhama dhyAna ane zukaladhyAna rUpa vRkSaghaDAthI zeAbhatAM....sthaLe sthaLe svAdhyAya rUpa kuMvArAvALA mArga nI mahattA samajAvatAM, saMrakSaka samA gurunAnI preraNA maLatAM mahAna cAritranA pathane pravAsI anyeA che.....abhinadana tArA sayamamAga ne abhinaMdana tArI saMyamayAtrAne....have aMtaranI eka ja vAta karavI che. dhyAnathI sAMbhaLa....tArA Atma~kalyANanI vAta sAthe te vizva kalyANanA magarla AlekhAyelA che. tuM mahApanA pravAsI banyA che. mahAna rAjamArga para AvI gaye che. have ja tArI AkarI parIkSAM zarU thaze. lAMkhe purapATa cAlyA jatA rAjamArga kyAreka tane AkarA lAgaze. khera rUDAM che--mIThAM che rUpALAM che. paNa tuccha ane dAMta tADe tevA che. nALiyera bahArathI kaThora che-kaThina che. sau rahita che. paNa aMdarathI svaccha che. komaLa che. sumadhura che. Arogyaprada ane zaktiprada che. tema saMsAra ahArathI suvALA che. sAhAmaNA che--lAbhAmA che. paNa tenA saMga karyAM tyAM ja tenuM raudrarUpa, duga ti--kaSAya-- viSayAnI viDa'anA-kAnA kera zarU thaI jaze. sayamanA mAga kaThina che. AkarA che bihAmaNA che. paNa jyAM te

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170 ] zrAvaka e che ke saMpatti vadhe mAge saMcaryA eTale saddagati. zubhabhAvanA-saMdhyAna-AtmavikAsa nizcita che. - sAdhaka ! !! tArA puNya eTalAM mahAna che-asaMkhya devenI tArA upara mITa che. samyapha dRSTi deve te tArA, jevA puNyanI jhaMkhanA kare che. tArA saMyamanA rAjamArga para praveza meLavavA pelA sarvArtha siddhanA devo te haraNuM. phALa mAravA taiyAra che. eka eka sAdhune juve che ane teo bhAvavibhora banI UThe che. mahAtmA ! tamArA sAdhujIvananuM eka varSanuM AyuSya keTaluM majAnuM bhavya. je amane tamAruM (saMyamInuM) eka varSa paNa maLe te ame zaratamAM amArA tetrIza sAgaropamanA devanA AyuSyane mUkI daIe. mahAtmA! tamAre mArca mahAna che. ame samasta deve maLIne paNa tamArI sAme hAra ja meLavIe. amAre ja parAjya nizcita che. ApanI viratAnI biradAvalI gAvA sivAya ame zuM karI zakIe. saMyamI! tuM hajI mUDha che. ema kahuM nA kahevAya tane zuM kahuM? kharAba zabda kahevAya nahi. ane sArA zabdane durupayeAga thAya nahi. basa, mArA haiyAnI vAta huM te kahIza ja. tuM mahAna banavAne sarjAyela che. tAre janma kAMkarA ane retInA DhagalAM karavA mATe nathI. e te majUra kare. tuM kyAM te mahAmArgane musAphara bane, athavA mahAmArganuM sarjana kare.

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an sAthe mananI nizciMtA paNa vadhe. [ 171 'saMyamanA zreSThamAnA Ijanera tIkara paramAtmA, sArA Ijanere banAvela ImArata surakSita hAya. tIthaMkara prarUpita saMyamanA mAga aMge zu vAta karavI ?" mArga te surakSita che. sukhakara che. have tu keTaluM cAlye! teTaluM ja mAruM pUchavuM che. mahAtmA !!! sayamanA mArga para AkarSita thaI gayA . chuM, mugdha banI gayA chuM. aprApya prApta karI haOvibhAra banI gayA chuM. harSAvezamAM mArI gati jarA dhImI paDI gai che. paNa tame vRddha, mArI ciMtA nA karatAM, hajI te bALaka chuM, haju tA yuvAna chuM. are! hamaNAM ja dIkSA lIdhI che. mRtyu ghaNuM dUra che. mRtyu AvatAM pahelAM khadhI taiyArI karI laIza....gADImAM besI ja gayA chuM ne....? sTezana Avaze ja ne ? hamaNAM TikITa tapAsIne sUI jAuM, sTezana Avaze-vIsala vAgaze. jAgRta banI jaIza. masa, pachI kaMi ciMtA karavA jevuM che ? caleA, tyAre sama salAmata. sAvaka !! tu yuvAna che. tArAmAM sAhasa hAya-- sAhasikane saba salAmata lAge. paNa pratyeka anubhavI vRddha kahevAya. vRddha gaNI gaNIne DagalAM bhare. ane saune samajAve. gaNIne DagalAM bharavAM joie. bhAI ! mahAvratarUpa TikITa lIdhI che, saMyama rUpa gADI che. paNa hajI tAre ja kazane

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172 ] prayAjana vinAnAM pApe ja ha gADI badalavAnI che. jakazana khyAla na rahe te! A * janmamAM tAre sapUrNa sAvadha rahevu' paDaze. jarAka pramAdamAM -hIza teA gADI pATA parathI utarI jaze. jIvanamAM badhAM karyAM anekavAra badhAya paNa bhava ' vipAkI AyuSya kama teA eka ja vAra baMdhAya. AyuSyakarmInI tAkAta che jIbhane azubhamAM ane azubhane zubhamAM dharAvata na karI zake. ela ! vaikriya zarIra puNya prakRti ke pApa ? tuM kahIza vaikriya zarIra puNya prakRti paNa vaikriya zarIra sAthe nArakanu AyuSya hoya te! ? audyArika zarIra sAthe niMgAda rUpa tiya canu AyuSya hAya teA ? paMcendriya jAti mekSa mATe sahAyaka paNa sAthe devanu AyuSya maLyu. tA sahAyaka ke ke bAdhaka ? AMkhA te khUba suMdara maLI. tIvra ane vedhaka. jyAM dRSTi paDI tyAM khaMdhuM ja samajAya tevI. paNa, sAthe kubuddhi maLI te ? sayamanA rAjamArga para cAlanAre keTalI sAvadhatA rAkhavAnI hAya ? vaDIla !! ciMtA nA karo. pazcimaNu karI laiza. paDilehaNa karI laIza. vihAra karI laIza. geAcarI jaI AvIza. leAca karAvI laIza. ane chevaTe nikAcita karmIkSaya karavA ekAda mAsakSamaNa jevA tapamAM paNa jhUkAvI * dRIza. eTaleA, have mane kaMI kahevA jevu che. mArA aMge nizcita anI jAva, jarA paNa ciMtA nA karatAM. mane mArA mananI khabara paDe che.

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A saMsArane kAra banAvyuM che. [ 173. sAdhaka !! "sAdhanA mArganI pahelI zarata che. DuM mIna zIkha, javAba ApavAmAM utAvaLa nA kara bApalIyA thaDe dhIre paDakhammA karazuM tuM ema samaje che ke paDikkamaNAM-paDilehaNa-gocarI-leca-vihAra ane tapa karavA mAtrathI tane mekSa nagaramAM praveza maLI jaze? huM nahi kahuM tuM ja tArA AtmAne pUcha te pratikamaNa kayuM? paNa zuM tuM pApathI pAche ho ? durbhAva dUra thayA ane zubha bhAva pragaTa thayA.? pratikramaNa e te prabhunI AjJAnuM parama aMga che. te akALe nA karAya tenA samaye ja karAya. mudrArahita nA karAya. mudrApUrvaka ja karAya. beThAM beThAM nA karAya? UbhAMUbhAM ja karAya? bedarakArIthI karAya? bedarakArIthI nA karAya. upayoga pUrvaka ja karAya. upekSApUrvakakarAya pratikramaNa vidhinA pUrvaka karAya. Adara ane bahumAnathI karAya. tArA pratikramaNane zuM kahuM? sAcuM kahI dauM. sUtra pAThanuM punarAvartana-zuka pATha-zAstrajJAnuM samAcaraNa na kahevAya. eTale ja kahuM -"cchasi magna vihiyA." tuM doDa nahi tane anAdithI AMdhaLIyA doDa mUkavAnI Adata che. ' paramAtmA kahe che-gacchasi tuM jA saMcaratuM cAla-hAMphI nA javAya, tema thAkI nA javAya. tema pAchApharavuM na paDe tema cAla. tArI vartamAnanI paDilehaNanI kriyAthI tane zuM lAbha thAya che? samaya vyatItara

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174 ] niyama sadA jAgatI smRti. UThabesa ke AthI adhika? be vAra vastra-pAtra-vasatinuM pratilekhana karanAra tuM, tArA AtmAnuM be vAra pratilekhana kare che? ochAmAM ochA be vAra te tArA AtmAne rAga-dveSathI khaMkherI nAMkhatArA AtmA upara lAgela rAga-dveSanI paDilehaNa kara. tuM ghare ghare jaIne gocarI lAve che. prabhu AjJA mujabanI prakiyA badala tane dhanyavAda.. paNa, tane tAre AtmA sAkSI Ape che. A tArI gocarI mukha sAhUNa helsi, sahu devasya dhAraNA mATe che. kayAMka anukULavRtti, kayAMka svAdavRtti te nathI pichAtI ? gocarI jAya tyAre eTale te vicAra karaje. paramAtmA trASabhadevanI jema eka varSa gocarI nahi maLe te ghare ghare dharmalAbha ApavA pharIza. DhaMDhaNa RSinI jema zuddha gocarI mATe, valabdhithI gocarI meLavavA ghare ghare che mahinA pharIza. azuddha gocarIthI peTa nahi bharyuM. A vicAra rahe te tuM prabhunA mArge zuddhipUrvaka gamana kare che anyathA bhaTake che. vihAra te tuM khUba ugra kare che. nA, khUba dIrgha ane deDate kare che. paNa, prabhu ! AjJA mujaba vihAra kare che? Iyasimiti pUrvaka vihAra kare che? vihAra karatAM jinAjJAnI mejamAM mahAle che ke vihAra karatAM pariSaha ane upasargathI kaMTALI jAya che? vihAra karatAM te svabhAvadazAmAM vicAre che ke vibhAvadazAmAM?

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eTale hadayamAM erakaMDIzana pedA thAya. [ 175 SUR "vihAra karatAM tAre saMsAra ghaTe ane mokSamArga najadIka Ave te vihAra". nahitara paribhramaNa* rakhaDapaTTI. pUcha,-tArA manane "gacchasi magna visehiyA. tuM leca karAve che-kaSTa sahyuM tema kahuM? na kahevAya. vALa vagaranuM mastaka thayuM. mastaka para eka kALe keza nA rahyo. paNa aMtaramAMthI kalezane leca thaye? hRdaya AlecanA ane prAyazcittathI zuddha banyuM ? "eka cA te kAyakaleze paNa prabhu AjJAnA rahasyapUrvakane leca prAyazcittanuM pavitra jharaNuM. javAba le tArA AtmA pAsethI mAre tArA javAbanI jarUra nathI...tArI zuddhinI jarUra che." tuM tapasvI che. mAsakSamaNa je tapa karI-jananI Asakti dUra karavAnI prakiyA AcaranAra tane lAkhavAra nahi, kareDavAra vaMdana....paNa eka javAba Aya? dahenA zoSa sAthe guNane piSa thaye ? ( sAdhaka! mAre tane eTaluM ja kahevuM che. mahApuNe prabhunA cAritrane pAmyA che. have mArganuM saMzodhana karI, zuddha banIne jA...AgaLa vadha....basa, A sivAya mArA haiyAmAM zuM hoya te tuM kahe ? - mahAtmA! mApha kare. badhuM karyuM -paNa meM mAruM saMzodhana nathI karyuM. have vacana ApuM chuM-saMyamanA rAjapatha para mArI jAtane saMbhALIne cAlIza....

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28. ampiyamsAvi mittasa rahe chaE kalANa bhAI - je vyakti priya na hoya tenI ekatamAM nidA karavI te durjanatA. je vyakti apriya hoya te paNa tenI ekAMtamAM prazaMsA karavI te sAdhutA. sAdhutA gyatA dvArA pragaTa thAya che. egya hoya tene jJAna prApta thAya. agyane traNa kALamAM jJAna prApta na thAya. paththaramAM kamaLa pedA na thAya tema agyane jJAna na thAya. kALI mATImAM pAka sahaja thAya. egya AtmAne svAbhAvika rIte vinAzrame jJAna pedA thAya. zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtranA agIyAramAM bahuta pUjA adhyayanamAM jJAna prApti mATe AtmAnI aMdara prakAranI gyatA batAvI che. kayAMya pustaka, vAtAvaraNa, adhyApakane jJAna prAptine egya batAvyA nathI, pustaka, pATI, pena, kAgaLo sAce jJAnane egya banAve ke ApaNI mUrkhatAnA dyotaka? jene grantha kaMThastha na thayA hoya tene pustaka rAkhavuM paDe, jene artha yAda na rahyA hoya tene punaH smaraNa karavA muddA AlekhavA paDe. putaka adhyApaka vagere jJAnanA sAdhane jJAna prAptimAM sahAyaka banI zake paNa jJAna prApti mATe AtmAnI gratA

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sAdhanathI sukhanI prApti thAya te duniyAnI zeAdha che. [ 177 na pragaTAvI zake. jJAna prApti mATe cAgyatA pragaTAve sadguNa....utarAdhyayana sUtra namratA, acapalatA, saraLatA, akutUhalatA, saujanya, samatA, mitra prati kRtajJatA, zrata meLavyA bAda paNa nirabhimAnatAM, pApI pratye paNa karuNA, mitra pratye prema, apriya mitranI paNa ekAntamAM praza'sA, kalahu-laDAI rahita, kulInatA, lajjA, i Mdriyasa'camitA vagere guNavALA, suvinIta bane che, temAM ekadama dhyAna dore tevu pada che. " ayisAvi mittalsa rahe kalAjI bhAsai, ',, zuM sAdhune mitra hAya ! jene koI duzmana hoya tene koI mitra haiAya. paNa jene duzmana ja nahi tene mitra kaI rIte ? mitra ja nathI tyAM priya mitra ane apriya mitranA bheda kevI rIte ? samudra kinAre UbhA rahela vyakita samudranI gabhIratA nA samajI zake. marajIvA khanI samudramAM DubakI mAre tene ja samudranI gahanatAnA khyAla Ave....... nAnAthI vidyAthI ne ja samajAya tevI A vAta che, nItinuM eka vAkaya che. dhyAna mATe eka vyakita, jJAna mATe be vyakti joIe. vivAda mATe traNa vyakti, musApharI mATe cAra vyakita, nyAya mATe pAMca vyakita joie. sAdhanA mArga ane jJAna mArga kaMIka bhinna che. prAthamika bhUmikA jJAna mAnI che, dvitIya bhUmikA sAdhanA mArganI che. 12

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178 ] rAga ane dveSa jIvananI viparIta dazA che. pratyeka jJAnayeAgI sAdhanAyeAgI hAya paNa mare ane na paNa heAya. paNa, pratyeka sAdhanAyeAgI jJAnayeAgI te hoya ja, ucca bhUmikAe pahoMcyA pachI samasattumite, sama le--kaMcaNe, sama suha dukhenI yAgyatA pedA thAya paNa, jJAnayeAgamAM AtmAnI ceAgyatA pedA karavAnI che. tyAM sava zreSTha cAgyatA, vicAraNAnI A eka bAju che, te vicAraNAnI khIju e che ke adhyayana adhyApana mATe hu MmezA eka samudAya joie, vaga joie. adhyayana karanAro varga vizALa hAya tA sUtrArtha samajanAra ane samajAvanAra ba Mnene eka navya prApti thAya. jinazAsanamAM vAcanA praNAlikAnuM mahatva che. sAta mAMDalImAM vAcanA mAMDalI paNa eka mahatvanI mAMDalI che. bhadrabAhusvAmI vAcanAcAya eka ane sthUlabhadrajI vigere vAcanA lenAra pAMcaso sAdhu mahAtmAe........ vAcanA mAMDalImAM jJAnadAtA eka, jJAna grahaNa karanAra aneka, darekanI buddhinI taratamatA....darekanA prayatnanI taratamatA, darekanA kSacepazamanI taratamatA darekanA zAtA azAtA vedanIya karmInI taratamatA ane dareka AtmAnI cAgyatAnI taratamatA alaga, Ama aneka vividhatA vacce ekatA sarjavAnI. - sahAdhyAyIo sAthe prema ane sahakAra rahe te! ja jJAna prAptimAM sAnukULatA thAya. sahAdhyAyIo sAthe zatrutA, vaimanasya, asahakAra rahe tA jJAna prAptimAM pratikULatA....... AtmA jayAM prema karavA jAya tyAM gheADI duzmanAvaTa karI Aveja, AtmA jayAM koInA sahakAra levA jayAM tyAM

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dRSTi badale jIvana badalAze. [ 179 pakSapAta karI Ave ja. A AtmAnA svAbhAvika hu chu kAraNe AtmAmAM peTThA thayela chadmasthatAnA nahi paNa dR NA che. abhyAsamAM e vidyAthI buddhizALI hAya paNa parapara sahakAra Ape teA mitra banI jAya, nahitara duzmana anI jAya. e tejasvI vidyAthI vacce ja pahelAM khIjA naMbaranI spardhA AyeAjAya. e tejasvI vidyAthI vacce ja sahuka!ra ane asahakAra thAya. e samAna zaktivALAmAM cakamaka jhare. e tejasvI vidyArthI nA durbhAva, sabya jJAna prAptine tyAM ja sthagita karI de. jJAnanA kSetramAM hajAre prazna Ave, jJAnadAtA gurune paNa hRdayane IrSyAbhAva kalAkti karI de! gurujIne A ziSya priya che ane A ziSya apriya che. Ama karI vidyAnA vizuddha kSetrane paNa kurukSetra anAvanAra kauravAnI kacAreya duniyAmAM khAi nathI ! ! ! e vyakti maLe eTale kaIka UMcA nIcI thAya. e samajadAra vyaktinu" milana sa na kare. e asamajadAra vyaktinuM milana visata kare vidyAthInI prAraMbhika dazAnA prazno, samasyAe traNa jagatanA guru vItarAga paramAtmA pAse rajU karavA paDe tema nathI. paramAtmA ja vidyAthI onI samasyAonu samAdhAna kare che.

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180 ] kalAkAre dorela citra e sarjana che. vidyArthI tAre jJAna prApti karavI che te tAre sAthIe joIze. sAthI tane anukULa maLaze te mitratA thavI e svAbhAvika che. sAthI pratikULa maLaze te brahmacarya jevuM kaThina vrata jarUrI che tema jJAna prApti mATe apriya mitranuM paNa ekAntamAM hita bolavuM, apriya mitranI paNa ekAtamAM prazaMsA karavI. A zarata khUba ja jarUrI che. apriya mitranuM jAheramAM kharAba na bolavuM, ghasAtuM na belavuM, maDhA sAme prazaMsA karavI e vyApArI paddhati che. gurue je ziSyane haiyAnA hIra nicovI jJAna pradAna karyA hoya te ziSyanI vicAraNA maulika hoya. tenI AcAra praNAlikA ane khI hoya! vidyArthI ekAntamAM apriya mitranI prazaMsA kevI rIte karI zake? tenI manebhUmikA kevI hoya? sAdhaka ! vidyAthI vidyArthI vacce matabheda zAnA hoya? jJAna prAptinI paddhatinA, sahAyakatAnA. ekAntamAM te vAta gauNa banI pitAne IrSyALu svabhAva sanmukha Ave che. jyAM A svabhAva Ave tyAM svanI prazaMsA. ane paranI niMdA hoya ja. be DekaTara eka ja darda aMge keTalI jalada dalIla ane TIkA karatAM hoya paNa jyAre kaI dardI AMkhanA DokaTarane kahe mane gaLAmAM darda che te te DokaTara tarata kaheze, pelA mArA mitra DokaTara pAse jAva. ghaDI pahelAMnA duzmana mitra kema banI gayA? bhAI ! ame

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phaTAgrAphare kheMcele phoTo e utpAdana che. [ 181 duzmana hatAM ja nahi. amArA daSTibiMdune ame vadhu sUkSmatAthI spaSTa karatA hatA. eka mahAtmAne joyela. pitAnA pratispadhIsamA eka sAdhakanI ekadama kaDaka samIkSA tenI rUbarUmAM karatA hatA. paNa tenI gerahAjarImAM temanA zAstrIya jJAnanI anamedanA karatA hatA, ane kahetA hatA, mane carcA vicAraNA karatA majhA te pelA mArA Alecaka mahAtmA sAthe Ave. mArI vAtane teo jeTalo virodha kare, teTaluM huM UMDuM vicAruM, sAcuM kahuM te temanA praznoe virelve mArA jJAnane spaSTa karyuM. jAheramAM matabhedanA kAraNe ame mitra nA hoI zakIye paNa ekAntamAM mAre temanI sAthe matabheda nathI temanI prazaMsA kema nA karuM ? apriya mitranI ekAntamAM prazaMsA te ja karI zake ke kaleza, vera, vamanasyanA mULa jenI hRdayanI dharatI upara jAmI na gayA hoya! vaira, vamanasyavALa AtmA brAMta bane che. vicAra ane viveka vinA jJAna prAptinI gyatA pragaTa thatI nathI. bhalA sAdhaka! guru tane haMmezA jJAna ApavA Atura che. paNa vicAra ane vivekanA locana jAgRta rAkhe che ! vicAra vivekanA locana tyAre ja jAgRta rahe ke jyAre mana saMbrAnta na hoya. mana tenuM ja asaMbhrAnta rahe ke jene AtmA

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182 ] kRpaNa eTale TATa dAnavIra. samatA sarovaramAM snAna karatA hAya, khasa, A maulika caiAgyatAne samaja ane maulikatA prApta kara. mahAtmA ! vidyArthI avasthAnI viSamatA samajye.. jJAna prAptinI avasthA samaye. khasa mane joie ayisAvi mittasa rahe kalyANa bhAsai"nI anupama zakti. jenAthI hu` samudAyanA pratyeka jJAnInA anumedaka khanuM, cAhaka anu ane hita-sAdhaka anu eja namra vinati.....

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28, samaNA vissAmu guNAhadhArI rAjA aneka thayA paNa....saMprati mahArAjAe siddha karyuM' ke peAtAnA janma, dharAne jinama MdirathI maMDita karavA thaye: che. nagarazeTha aneka thayAM paNa....bhAmAzAe siddha karI Apyu ke mArI saMpatti 'mA' bhAmanI rakSA kAje che. AcAya bhagava Mta aneka thayA paNa....hemacaMdrAcAya mahArAje siddha karyu ke mAre janma gra Mtha sarjana ane rAjavI pratioSa mATe che. pratyeka vyaktine, peAtAnuM dhyeya spaSTa thavu joie, dhyeya spaSTa thayA bAda dhyeyanI pAchaLa phanA thavAnI aDaba nema joi e....jagatamAM mahAna dhyeya pAchaLa marI mITanAra dhyeyavAdI keTalA ? dareka strI jhAMsInI rANI nA khanI zake, jhAMsInI rANI te teja khanI zake je svataMtratAnI krAMti mATe sAcu balidAna karI de, sAdhaka ! je vyaktine peAtAnuM dhyeya yAda karavuM paDatuM hAya te dhyeya prApta na karI zake. paNa jenI jANatAM ke ajANatAM paNa thaI jatI pravRtti tenA karatI. hAya te ja dhyeya prApta karI zake ! tuM zramaNa thaye paNa prema karanAra majUra nahi. dhyeyane ja vyakta samatA mATe....kSamA mATe....zrama karanAra kSamA zramaNa

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184] mahAna heya teja mahAnatAnA bhAva samajI zake che. mekSa prApti mATe prayatna karanAra nircaya. tArI udaghoSaNAthI tArA bulaMdanAdathI vizvane gujita karI de. huM jJAnI banavA ja sAdhu banyuM nathIhuM tapasvI . banavA ja sAdhu banyo nathI, huM guru banavA ja ziSya banyuM nathI paNa mArI merusama aDaga pratijJA che. "samaNA vissAmu guNehadhArI mane eka guNathI nA cAle be cAra guNathI saMtoSa nA maLe. dasa-paMdara guNothI mane tRpti nA thAya. mArA seNalAM-mArA maratha anaMtaguNa prAptinA che. aneka-anupama guNa prApta karavA ja sAdhu thaIza. A jenuM vrata hoya tevA sAdhakane dikSAnA prathama divasathI ke puruSArtha hoya? kevI tAlAvelI heya? kevI jhaMkhanA hoya? ' jeTalI musApharI-pravAsa dIrgha hoya teTalI ekasAI adhika joIe. dIrgha pravAsI samayane durupaga kare te samaya vyatIta thaI jAya ane zubha ghaDI pramAdamAM cAlI jAya. kare abajone vepArI paNa cokasAI bhUlI jAya te karoDonA naphAnA badale karoDonuM nukazAna nizcita...! jeTalI javAbadArI mahatvanI heya teTalI gaNatrI paNa pAkI hevI joIe." eka mahAnubhAvane pitAnuM ghara vIjaLInA prakAzathI maMDita karavuM hatuM. teNe prayatna karI khUba dUrathI kanekazana lIdhuM. mArganA dareka sthaLe vAyara surakSita rahe tenuM dhyAna

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bhoganI spardhAmAM saphaLatA na maLe pUrNatA na maLe. [ 185 rAkhyuM. te mATe agAdha parizrama karyo badhuM taiyAra karI cAMpa dAbI paNa prakAza na thayuM. gaNatrImAM be Icane ja pharaka hatA, be Ica vAyara ocho paDe. Akheya Ayejita prasaMga aMdhakAramaya gaye mAtra be IcanI gaNatrInA pharakathI. pelA mahAnubhAva vicAra kare che, jarA gaNatrI karatAM khyAla rAkhyuM hota te... kaI paNa vAtamAM ceka sAI-jAgRti khUba jarUrI che. eka divasa eka bhAI sAthe vAta thatI hatI. eka kimiTara cAlatAM tamane keTalI minITa thAya? teoe kahyuM, "amane 10 minITa thAya. ame kahyuM "amane tamArA karatAM phakta be minITa vadhAre khAsa pharaka nahi be minITamAM zuM vaheluM-thaI jAya? calegatimAM khAsa pharaka nathI. pelA bhAI gayA paNa manamAM vicAra mUkatA gayA. eka kamiTara cAlatAM tamane dasa minITa, amane bAra minITa, be minITa pharaka. pAMca kIlemiTare keTale pharaka vadhe? ame eka kalAkanA pAMca kImiTara cAlI zakIe. teo eka kalAkamAM cha kamiTara cAlI zake. musApharIne prAraMbha sAthe karyo paNa nakkI sthaLe pahoMcatA teo eka kImiTara amArA karatAM AgaLa. dasa minITa vahelA. vihAranI dhAraNA hatI 24 kalemiTaranI. amAre ane temane pharaka vicAryo. be minITanI dhImI gati ane be minITanI jhaDapI gatie kahyuM tame 288 miniTe vIsa kImiTarano pravAsa pUrNa kare ane pelA bhAI 240

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186] je utsAhI che te ja jIvaMta che. miniTamAM covIsa kIlomITara pahoMcI jAya. be miniTanA pharake 48 miniTano pharaka siddha thaye. be miniTanI zIvratA ane maMdatAmAM ATale moTo taphAvata paDI jAya te ekAda guNanuM lakSya ane aneka guNanA lakSya vacce keTale meTA taphAvata paDI jAya? lAMbI musApharImAM dhImAza nA cAle. moTI kaMpanImAM pAIne goTALe nA cAle. tyAM badhuM AyojanapUrvakanuM, vyavasthApUrvakanuM, paddhatipUrvakanuM joIe. sAdhaka ! aneka guNa meLavavA tuM zramaNa thaye che tArA zA satkAra karuM ? je yugamAM chIcharAza, tucchatA ane sastI kItine sulabha mAga jaldI pasaMda karAya che tyAM te padavI para pasaMdagI nA utArI, paNa gyatAne abhinaMdI. dhanyavAda tane ! pada-sattAnA sehAmaNuM svarUpa pAchaLa kaMIka mAyA kapaTanA kaMIka kALA kalaMka dekhAze. keTalAMya dIkSAthI ane keTalAya nUtana dIkSitane maLavAnuM thAya che. svabhAva mujaba prazna thaI jAya che, dIkSA zA mATe lIdhI? pahelAM te mArA praznathI ghaNI hase che keTalAka cIDAya che te keTalAkane vicitratA lAge che. A te kaMI prazna che; te keTalAka anya mahAtmAo pAsethI meLavela udhAra javAba Ape che "mekSa javA karmakSaya karavA A praznottara mArA gurudeva ane mArI vacce paNa

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prAyazcita=bhaviSyakALane sudhAravAnI kaLA. [ 187* thayela. dIkSA lIdhI hoya ke levAnI heya, ogha saMjJA mukhya banI hoya ane dharmasaMjJA gauNa hoya te AvA TALAvALA ja javAba maLavAnA. javAbamAM jyAM goTALA - tyAM prApti zuM ? mane barAbara yAda che mArA caudamA varSe ekAvana. AyaMbila thayAM tyAre tAraka pU. gurudeve prazna karela, AyaMbilathI meLavyuM zuM? bAlabuddhi ane javAba ApavAnI utAvaLa, Ape zuM ApyuM ? Ape na ApyuM te mane maLe zuM? hAsyamAM te vAta samApta thaI. paNa mane Ajeya. te prazna ane te prasaMga AMkha sAme khaDe thAya che tyAre prazna thAya che meLavyuM zuM ? ane khUNAmAM besI nisAso nAMkhI kahevuM paDe, AyaMbila karavAnA, emAM meLavavAnuM zuM? te samajyA na hatA. tema sAdhaka sAme paNa vizvanA aneka mAnavanA prazna AvavAnA. dIkSA kema lIdhI? uttarAdhyayanasUtranA gekhelA zabdo belI daIza "samaNa bhavisAmu guNotadhArI " javAba ApavAmAM utAvaLa te khUba karI paNa jyAre ulaTa parIkSA zarU thaze tyAre kayAM te AkAza sAme jevuM paDaze ke kayAM te dharatI pedavI paDaze. chevaTe mAthuM khaMjavALatA IzArAthI kahI daIzuM tamAro prazna samajavAnI buddhi nathI. basa, eTaluM samajIe ke aneka guNe levA dIkSA lIdhI che. je guNane cAhaka hoya tenI guNIjana sAthe kevI. maitrI hoya? guNanA keTalA sanmAna heya? guNane keTale

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188 ] puNyAie kamanA udaya che. pakSapAta heAya ? guNanI keTalI prazaMsA haiAya ? guNanA keTalA ahumAna DeAya ? guNIjanonA kevA namrasevaka hoya ? guNanA caraNakamalamAM zira jhukAvI hAtha joDI pUche, 'huM paNa tamArA mAga nA pravAsI chuM, mAre guNI khanavu che, tame mane batAvA tame kevI rIte guNA meLavyA ? ApanA mAnA sahAyaka pIThabaLa kayA ? vighAtaka paribaLA kayA ? eka ja guNanI prAptimAM keTalAM varSo lAgyA ? je sAdhakanI pAse khudanA sAdhu jIvananI cAjanA na heAya te sadguNI khanI zake ? tenI pAse saMpUrNa samayapatraka heAya. eka paNa kSaNa eka paNa tenI niraaeka na jAya dIkSA lIdhA eka varSI thayu. sAdhakanI noMdhamAM lakhAI gayuM hAya gurukRpAe eka sadguNa anya. eka durguNa gayA. bIjA varSoMnI mArI bhAvanA che A durguNa haTAvavAnI, A saguNa prApta karavAnI. guNI manavA jeNe dIkSA lIdhI hAya te kadAca saMpUrNa guNI khanI nA zake, kadAca tenA parAjaya paNa thAya chatAM tenA parAjyamAM paNa tenA parAkramanI yoAgAthA chUpAyelI hAya ! A janmamAM guNavRkSanuM khIja bhAvanAthI pAze. AvatA janmamAM guNanuM vaTavRkSa phaLyu.phAlyuM thaze. jayAM hujArA kaSAya satasaAtmA zAMtithI zILI chAyA, meLavI dhanya banaze !

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[ 189 puNyanI samaja e kamanA kSaceApakSama che. prabhu ! A mahApratijJA siMha~samA zUravIra muninI che. jemanA vairAgyanI tAkAta che brAhmaNa, pati, mAtA-pitA tathA kSatriya rAjAne paNa vairAgyavAsita karI pravajayAnA . punita mAge laI gayA. satIne jayAre sattu caDhe tyAre tenI dibyaprabhAmAM vAMrAganA paNa kulavadhu banI jAya te... vairAgIne vairAgyanA ghena caDhayA hAya; jeNe vairAgyanA kesariyA karyA hAya tyAre - aneka lagnAthI nA paNa meAhuM hArI jAya....bhAgI jAya. prabhu ! pratijJA ApanA caraNamAM karuM chu. guNI anIza ! have guNI manavA puruSAthanI yAtrA zarU karIza. basa, mArI yAtrA saphaLa thAya tevA dvivya varadAna Ape eja abhyarthanA.....

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29. dhammArAme care bhik'' Y je deza upara rAhune prabhAva heAya tyAMnA leAke sahaja kALA hAya che, je deza para zukranA prabhAva hAya tyAMnA lAko sapheda hoya che. je vyaktinA janma lagnamAM zani rAhu jevAM graha hAya te vyakti kALI heAya. je vyaktinA janmalagnamAM zuka jevA graha hoya te vyakita hamezA geArI hAya !! # jema vyaktinI mukhAkRti tenuM janmalagna kahI de che. tema janmalagna jANanAra ajANu vyaktinI mukhAkRti paNa kahI de che. kAya thI kAraNanu anumAna thAya. ane kAraNathI kArya nu' anumAna thAya. pUjAnI sAmagrI che te pUjaka che. pUjaya che teA pUjAnI sAmagrI hAvI joIe. che sAdhaka ! kema Atma ravabhAvamAM lIna hoya ? vizvanA koI paNa rUpa, rasa, gaMdha, sparze ane zabdanA AkaSa Na sAdhune kema na thAya ? vizvanI koI paNa rUpavatI yauvanA sAme sAdhunI AMkha kema UMcI nA thAya ? vizvanI koI paNa paristhiti sAdhune kema svabhAvamAMthI vicalita nA kare ? naMdanavanamAM TahelatAM vyakitanI dRSTi khAvaLanA jhADa para jAya ? kAzmIranA sau ne je nihALI rahela hAya tene rAjasthAnanA raNanI smRti thAya ? himagirinA uttuMga

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sAdhujIvana eTale pratikULatAnA svIkAra [191 zikhara upara UbhelAne nAnI nAnI TekarI para caDhavAnu mana thAya ? mAnavamana evuM che peAtAnI pAse rahela padAtha UNapabharyAM lAge, peAtAne te vastuthI saMtASa na hoya... peAtAnI vastu amUlya nA lAgatI hoya te ja duniyAmAM game tyAM DAphoLiyA mAre, pachI bhale prApti kai na hoya paNa caMcaLa mananI rajhaLapATa apAra hAya. eka jAdugara eka mahAtmA pAse gayA. jenA jAdune jovA ane je jAdune jovA, lAkhAnI saMkhyAmAM mAnava medyanI ekatra thatI. te jAdugara muninA caraNamAM AvyA. mahAtmA ! mArI jAtuvidyA jIve. khUba Azcaya kAraka che, khUba AkarSaka che tamane majA Avaze. sAcuM kahuM chuM. tame mArI jAttuvidyA joI ApharIna thaI jaze!. mahAtmA kahe che," bhAI ! mArI pAse te tane javAba ApavAnI ya samaya nathI. paNa tArA jevA bhalA mANasane javAba ApavA joie. ekavAra huM paNa mUkha` hatA. gamAra hatA. bhAgIne, doDIne, paisA khacI ne koinA cALA jevA jatA. kAMya AzcaryakAraka ane adbhUta kahe tyAM turata doDI jatA." bhAratamAM kanyAkumArIthI kAzmIra sudhI ghUmyA. mane satASa nA thayA. vizvanA pravAsa karyAM paNa kacAMya zAMti ane AnaMda nA malyA. hRdaya atRpta hatuM eTale AMkhe atRpta banI hatI. atRpta AMkhe dekhela duniyAnA dilamAM STD

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- 192 ] sevA namratA bhAvane pedA karanAra che. AkarSaNa jAgyA. jAti kula, vayanI maryAdA bhUlI patananI UMDI gartAmAM dhakelAvAne hatuM. tyAM paramAtmA mahAvIranuM padArtha vijJAna samajAyuM. jaDa ane jIvanA AviSkAra samajAyA...pudgalanuM baMdhAraNa samajAyuM. pudgalanA sthira dharma ane asthira dharma samajAyA pAMca varNa, pAMca rasa, be gaMdha, ATha sparza A visathI vibhinna Idriyane Aka"nAre kaI pudgalane dharma na hoya, koI paNa pudUgalamAM ochAmAM ocho eka varNa, eka rasa, eka gaMdha ane sparza hoya eTale jyAre duniyAne jouM chuM tyAre vicAravA lAgI jAuM chuM. kayA kayA karmanI mukhyatAe A mAnava dhoLe, A mAnava kALe, A AkarSaka A anAkarSaka, A priya, A apriya, A susvaravALo, A. dusvaravALe, A UMce, A nIce. mAza tatvajJAnanA abhyAsa mATe A badhI eTalI sAmagrI Ave che. ke tenAM ja ciMtanamAM lAgI jAuM chuM. A ciMtanamAM mane eTalA jAdu dekhAya che ke sarjana tamArA jAdu jevAne mane samaya ja nathI. mApha karaje..." A kaI vyaktinI vAta nathI. paNa sAdhutAmAM masta samasta saMta mahaMtanI kahAnI che. keTalIyavAra ame amArA tAraka gurudevane joyA che. bhaktonA ToLAmAM kaMTALI jAya. che. suMjhAI jAya che. thAkI jAya che. chevaTe zarIra para paNa A aNagamAnI asara thaI jAya che. ane te ja samaye prabhubhakti ke zAsacarcA Ave te, skUtithI, zAMtithI,

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sevA=sava prakAranI zaktine kheMcI lAvanAra kaLA. [ 193 AnaMdathI, ane khI adAnA darzana thAya che. kayAreka ajJAna vaza pUchI daIe chIe ''sAhebajI ! ghaDI pahelAnI pari sthiti sAcI ke A vartamAnanI paristhiti ?" gurudeva kahe ! ane paristhiti sAcI. mane te! duniyAthI ane duniyAnA leAkathI kaMTALe Ave che. mane thAya che, ke A badhAthI Agama vAMcanamAM aMtarAya thAya che. jinabhaktimAM vighna thAya che. jyAM Ana Ave tyAM smRti anubhavAya. jyAM kaMTALA Ave tyAM thAka lAge, asa, calA karavA do vAMcana....pAchA zAstra vAMcanamAM lIna anI jAya che. zAstrAmRtanA pAna karyAM che te munine vizvanA Aka `Nu na heAya. AtmAnA saumAM mugdha banela mahAtmA pudgalanI lIlAthI khuza thAya ? nA-nA etA UMcI AMkha karIne paNa nA juve. .. varSARtu che, meghalI rAta che, citrazALAnu' unmatta vAtAvaraNa che, ekAnta che. pUva piricata rUpakAzAnu' nRtya che. tyAM mahAtmA sthalibhadrae brahmacarya-samAdhimAM lIna anIne rUpakazAne eka ja javAba ApyA. "dhammArAme care bhik"-mArA deha tArI sAme che paNa mAro AtmA te dharmanA nIMdanavanamAM sahelagAha kare che, jema zamane tArI 13

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194 ] bhavAbhavanA aMdhApAne dUra kare te guru. kaI asara na thAya tema mArA zarIrane tArI asara ka ja nahi thAya. ! sAdhune vizvanA AkaSa Na jyAre dharmanA naMdanavanathI dUra jAya tyAre ja thAya. dharmanA naMdanavanamAM vicaratA munine vizvanA AkaSa Na cheDavA paDatAM nathI paNa chUTI jAya che. sAdhunA dharmAM ArAma ( bagIcA ) kaye ? jyAM sAdhunA AtmAne ArAma maLe ane me!hune virAma male te sAdhune dhama ArAma....sAdhunuM naMdanavana naMdanavanamAM jema vividha suga MdhI puSpa cheDa hAya, zItaLa chAyAdAyaka vaTavRkSa hAya, mukta svaira vihAra karatAM pa`khI gaNu hAya, vRkSa ane cheDane navapallavita karatI jalanI nIka hAya....sthaLe sthaLe AnaMda pramoda karavAnA phrIDAgRhA hAya tema A dhAmamAM paNa vividha zAstragraMthanA abhyAsa rUpaka aneka puSpa cheDe che. A dharmAMrAmamAM khAra prakAranA tapa rUpa zItaLa chAyAdAyaka meTA vRkSa che. vRkSa cheDAne navapallavita karatI khAra bhAvanA rUpa jaLa nIkA che. svara vihAra karatAM pa MkhI samA AlasAdhue che. unmukta bhAve ceSTA karatAM yuvAna jevA A dharmAMrAmamAM utsa mAge AgekUca karatAM jinakalpI tulya sAdhu mahAtmAo che. zarIra svAsthya mATe dhIme dhIme pharatAM ArAgya cAhaka sahelagADI jevA ahI' glAna mahAtmAe che. jeA apavAdamAga ne sahAro laIne paNa dharmAMnA naMdanavanamAM killAla kare che.

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zraddhA e aneka anubhavonI jananI che. [ 15 UF naMdanavanane mahimA gAtA jema kinAre ane yakSa che. tema dharmanA naMdana vanamAM dharmane mahimA varNavatA pravacana labdhivALA mahAtmAo che. jema naMdanavanamAM kIDA gRhe che. dharmanA bagIcAmAM tIrtho che. jyAM bhaktinuM rasasAdhurya lUMTAya che. A naMdanavananA svairavihArIne viSayanA AkarSaNa thatAM nathI. viSayanA AkarSaNa janaka badhA sAthIo pasaMda AvatA nathI. basa, A AbhamastI eTalI sahaja thaI gaI hoya che ke tene jJAnanI carcAmAM ane AtmAnaMdamAM parama zAMtinA darzana thAya. eTale ja kahyuM che. dharmanA ArAmamAM vicare tene brahmacarya samAdhi maLe. prabhu ! mane Ape apramattabhAvanA dharma udyAnamAM praveza. jyAM huM paNa Atmika sauMdaryanA amapAna karI brahmacarya samAdhi prApta karyuM. eja abhyarthanA...

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30, ""jhAyaI khaviyA lAsave UR vyakti pAse jIvanane hetu hoya che. mUlyAMkana heya che, eya hoya che. paNa svanuM jeTaluM mUlyAMkana UMcu teTaluM divyeya mahAna, jyAM svanuM mUlya na samajAya tyAM svanA jIvana dvArA prApti zuM ? e kayAMthI samajAya? bALaka jeTalI svabhAviktAthI kAgaLanA TukaDAne phADe che. teTalI ja svabhAvikatAthI hajAra rUA. nI neTane phADe che. keI vaDIla tenA para ciDAya che tyAre bALaka muMjhAya che zA mATe A leke mArA para ciDAya che? teone eka nahi daza kAgaLanA TukaDA huM lAvI daIza. ! vaDila bALakane kevI rIte samajAve? kAgaLanA be TukaDA, jene tuM samAna kahe che. te be vacce khUba taphAvata che. eka kAgaLathI tane be mahinA sukhe jIvI zakAya, teTalI A jIvananI badhI sAmagrI maLe. bIjAthI kazuM nA maLe. tArI samAnatAnI mAnyatA bhale sAcI hoya paNa A be vacce ATalI badhI viSamatA che, ATalo badho pharaka che. paNa-jyAre bAlakamAMthI bAlyabhAva cAlyA jAya ane dareka vastunI jijJAsA pedA thAya tyAre, avazya samajAvI zakAya. tema jJAnI bAlaka jevA ApaNane kevI rIte AtmAnA mUlya samajAve ? mAnava janmanA mUlya samajAve? dArika

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sAdhu jIvana eTale anukuLatAne tilAMjali [ 197 zarIranI kiMmata samajAve ane pacendriyanA mahimA samajAve ? viSaya ane kaSAyamAM Asakta mAnava kayAreya pAMca indriyanA mahimA samajI zake ? tenI sAcI ki'mata AMkI zake! jhaverI sivAya kANu kAcanA TukaDAmAMthI hIrA pArazrIne alaga karI zake ? niSNAta sivAya kANu taphAnI gheADAmAMthI jAtimAna gheADAne alaga karI zake ? guru sivAya koNa pApImAMthI pavitra AtmAne zodhI zake ? tI kara paramAtmA sivAya tAphAnI iMdriyA dvArA jAphAna zAMta karAvavAnuM kAma keNu karAvI zake ? TALu temAM anADI jaMgalI ToLA para prabhutva meLavavuM hAya te zuM karavu? kayAreka nAnA gAmaDAomAMthI AdivAsInA jhU paDAmAMthI pasAra thAva. eka eka vyaktine tame samajAvavA jAva, joI le! tamArI majA ! pahelAM te tamane koi sAMbhaLavA ja taiyAra thAya nahi. koika sAMbhaLe te paNa tamArI mazkarI kare. kutarka kare. paNa jo tame TALAnA AgevAnane pakaDA. tene samajAve. TeLAneA nAyaka zaraNe AvI jAya te TALu tamAruM AjJAMkti ziSya maMDaLa thaI Aya. koI paNa tamArA viruddha eka vacana teA nA bele paNa UMcu mAthuM karIne ya nA juve !! 4 jagatamAM sauthI moTAmAM moTA pakSa kane! manane tenI TALIe keTalI? aDhAra. aDhAranA vibhAga, peTA vibhAga, tenA sabhye! keTalA lAkhA kareDA-amajo nahu....asabhya nahi

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198 ] mAlika banavAnA zorTa kaTa che tyAga ana ta anaMta tenA sabhyA. A badhAne kevI rIte kAbumAM levAya ? eka ja raste-manane kAbumAM le! paNa 'mana evu mAtelA sAMDha jevu che je tene pakaDavA jAya tene ziMga mAre, jyAM mUke tyAM teAphAna kare. chatAM tIrthaMkara paramAtmAe mananI zaraNAgatinA rAjamArga dekhADaye che....dhyAna dhyAnamAM tAkAta che. mana kAjImAM AvI jAya che. indriye! kahyAgarI-AjJAMkita khanI jAya che. samata Azrave savamAM parAvita thaI jaze. kema madhanI zakita karmInirAmAM sahAyaka banI jaze. bhavabhramaNa karanAra AtmA mukita mahAlayamAM nivAsa karaze. A che dhyAna prakriyAnI adbhuta zita. vizvamAM jyAre ArAdhanA sAdhanAnA maDhe dhyAnane durupayoga, sulabha prIti ane aihika AkAMkSA mATe thaI rahyo che tyAre uttarAdhyayana sUtranu " jhAyaka aviyAsave ' padma dhyAna sAdhakane eka aneAkhI krizA tarapha AMgaLI cIdhe che! dhyAna keANa nathI karatuM ? jaina zAstra kahe che, dhya!na aneka prakAranA haiAya che. A dhyAna, raudradhyAnanuM sAmrAjya sa'sArI jIvamAtra upara phelAyelu che. sAdhu mahAtmAo, dhama dhyAna ane zukaladhyAnamAM magna heAya. paNa, dhyAna sane hAya. pANI svaccha paNa heAya ane gaMdu paNa heya. gaMdA pANI mATe koine preraNA karavAnI nA

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sattA calAvavAne suMvALo mArga che namratA. [ 199 heya. gaMdu pANI te Ape Apa pedA thaI jAya. svaccha pANI mATe mahenata karavI paDe. preraNA karavI paDe. anAdi kALathI AtmA AtadhyAna ane raudradhyAnamAM lIna bane che ane tenA ja kAraNe janma maraNa rAga dveSanuM caka avirata gatie cAlyuM che. mahAtmAnI preraNA phakta dhyAna mATe nathI. Atma dhyAna mATe che kAraNa jyAM svArtha bhAvanA che tyAM pratyeka mANasa sAvadha ane dhyAnegI che ja ! vizva vidyAlayamAM mahAt saMzodhana karatAM mahAna vidvAnonI tIkSaNa buddhi je hoya che tenA karatAM kaMI guNa taNa buddhi, vAtane samajavAnI zakti caMbalanA DAkuonI hoya che. dANacenI hoya che. keTalAMya sAdhakanuM mokSa prati mahAtmAonuM jevuM lakSya hoya che tenA karatAM samaDInuM bhakSya padArtha tarapha anekagaNuM lakSya hoya che. kAusagga karatAM ApaNI je mananI, vacananI, kAyAnI sthiratA hoya che tenA karatAM khIssA kAtarUMne upaga adhika tIvra hoya che. kulanArInA haiyAmAM lajajA heya. tenI AMkha kayAMya bhUkhI na hoya atRpta najare te vizva sAme nA jue..paNa lajAne mUrtimaMta batAvavI hoya te kulanArI karatAM vArAMganA ja tene saphaLa abhinaya karI zake !! * uttarAdhyayana sUtrakAra paramAtmA ApaNI avaLI deTe jANe che. avaLacaMDI jAta jANe che. tethI ja "jhAI" na

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200 svanI bhUle bIjAne doSita karavA te kahetAM "viyA save jhAyaI" kahyu. A pada ja kahe che ke sAdhaka ! dhyAna te! te ghaNu karyu che. tArA dhyAnanA itihAsa, tAruM dhyAnanuM' caritra khUSa jUnu' che. eka e, cAra varSathI tane dhyAnanI Adata nathI--sudIrgha kALathI tane dhyAnanI Adata che. 5 masuve pharaka lakSya badalavAnA karavAnA che. lakSya adalAze eTale dhyAna badalAze. dhyAnanI praNAlikA badalAze ane dhyAtA- AtmA badalAze ane jyAre dhyAna, dhyAtA ane dhyeya eka thaze tyAre tu paNa zuddha, mu nira Mjana, nizakAra, paramAtmA banIza!! vizvamAM dhyAnanI aneka prakriyA che, praNAlI che. koie cAga dvArA dhyAnanI prApti kahI che. keIe prANAyAma dvArA dhyAnanI prApti batAvI che. keAIe zvAse vAsAnA nirIkSaNa dvArA dhyAnanI prApti para bhAra mUkayA che. koI e Sacakra bhedana dvArA dhyAnanI prAptinI vAta karI che. koie zakti pAta dvArA dhyAnanI prAptinA mAga kahyo che. keie tAMtrika sAdhana dvArA dhyAnanI prAptinI vAtA vahAvI che. koI e mAMtrika ArAdhanA dvArA dhyAnanI prApti thaze tema jaNAvyuM che. keie nRtya dvArA dhyAnanI prApti thaI zake che tema varNana karyu. che. keI e sa gIta dvArA dhyAnanI prApti DAMsala karavA kahyuM che. ane vartamAnanI keTalIka vicitra vyaktioe sabhAga dvArA dhyAnanI prAptinI bhrAmaka vAte paNa vahAvI che.

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mamaravane aMdhakAra che. [ 201 keI priyatamane khuza karavA dhyAna kare che. keI priya banavA dhyAna kare che. koI corI karavA dhyAna kare che. te koI corane pakaDavA dhyAna kare che. keI svArtha mATe dhyAna kare che. te koI paramArtha mATe dhyAna kare che keI sadgati mATe dhyAna kare che. te kaI durgati mATe dhyAna kare che. te kaI saddaguNa mATe dhyAna kare che. te kaI durguNa mATe dhyAna kare che. Ama vizvamAM dhyAnanA lakSya paNa aneka hoya che. - A badhI vividhatA vacce devAdhideve pharamAvelA dhyAnanI viziSTatA che ane dhyAna praNAlikAnI paNa viziSTatA che. BR dhAnanuM lakSya keI camatkAra nahi, kaI bhautika siddhi nahi, keI bhaktanI parvadA nahi, kaI prasiddhi nahi basa Azravane khapAvavA, karmabaMdhanA hetune dUra karavA, aDhAra pApathAnakarUpa karma baMdhanA bAhya hetu dUra karavA, mithyAtva, avirati, kaSAya, garUpa karmabaMdhanA atyaMtara hetu dUra karavA, zravane dUra karavA, AzravanA hetuone dUra karavA, AzravanA hetubhUta rAgadveSane mUlamAMthI nAza karavo te ja jainazAsananA dhyAnanuM lakSya che. pApa dUra thavA sahelA che. pApanA kAraNa dUra thavA ghaNA kaThina che. pApanA kAraNa dUra thavA sahelA che tenAthI paNa adhika kaThina che pApanA kAraNe pedA karanAra rAgazreSanA adhyavasAya dUra karavA te. sulabha siddhi sau prApta

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202 ] bAhya kiyA e gharanI divAla che. kare, durlabhasiddhi lakSya vedhIne ja prApta thAya. dhanuSya te bhIlanA chokarA ya dhAraNa kare paNa rAdhAvedha siddha tA droNAcAya nA priya ziSya arjuna ja karI zake. tema meAkSanu lakSya tA vItarAganA upAsaka ja pAmI zake, jaina zAsanamAM dhyAnanI praNAlI nirALI che. sthaLasamaya ane pravRtti ahIM. gauNa che. rAgadveSanA kSaya thAya tema rahevu eja mahatvanu che. pachI e prakriyA aNusaNanI he athavA hastamelApanI hA....pachI e prakriyA paDilehaNanI hai! athavA zAka samAravAnI hA....pachI e prakriyA mAsa kSamaNanI hA athavA sa MvatsarInA divase navakArazInI hA. pachI e kriyA jinezvaranA dananI hA athavA nRtyAMganAnA darzananI hA. ethI jainazAsanamAM kahevAya che. pu'DarIkaravAmi caitrI pUnamanA divase pAMca karoDa munivara sAthe eka mAsanA aNasaNathI meAkSa padhAryA ane pRthvIca'dra guNusAgara lagna maDapamAM kaivalya pAmyA. mahAtmA vakkalacirine pratilekhanA karatAM jJAna ane zrAvikAne zAka sudhAratA jJAna. mAsakSamaNu dvArA mokSa meLavanAra aneka te! kugaDu munine sa MvatsarInA divase AhAra karatAM karatAM kevalajJAna....siddhAcalanA zikhara para methe janAra aneka te....ilAyacI kumArane nRtyAMganA sAme nRtya karatAM karatAM kevalajJAnuM... purlR bhalA....joje A badhI vAtA vAMcI ane anatha nA karatA. jinezvara bhagavate upadezela ArAdhanAnA

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AMtara zuddhi e gharanuM Dekorezana che, [ 203 rAjamArga cheDI virAdhanAnI galIkhuMcImAM na pesI jate. mAre. te! tane eTalu ja samajAvu' che ke tArA AtmA je anuSThAna sahajatAthI AcarI zake te tArA mATe dhyAnanA mA` pachI te dAnazIla-tapa-bhAva koI paNa hAya, gocarI, pratikramaNa, paDilehaNa koi paNa hAya, paramAtmAe batAvela mAtru paraDavAthI prAraMbhI aNusaNa sudhInI dareka prakriyA e dhyAnane mArga che. koipaNa mAge jA....tArA ka kha dhanA hetubhUta Azravane nAza karavAnA siddha kara. lakSya prabhu ! samajyA ApanA dhyAna mAne...dhyAnanA lakSyane. mane Ape! smaraNa zakti ane kA zakti. smaraNa zakti lakSyaprati jAgRta rAkhe. kA zakti ArAdhanAmAM udyata . banAve. ApanA prabhAve huM paNa avazya rAgadveSa dUra.. karIza. khasa, prabhu mArAmAM vizvAsa rAkhA. kAraNa me ApanAmAM vizvAsa rAkhyA che.... 3

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31. bhagava! vAharAhi me Ge jIbha jene hAya te dareka ele, paNa dareka vyakitanA AlanA tAla thAya nahi. jenA khelanA tAla nA thAya tene sahu kahe "tame mauna kare" ane jenuM vacana mahattvapUrNa hoya tene sahu kahe "Apa le." ApaNane kAI kahe che 'tame leA.' jo kaI paNa vyakita ApaNane kahe "tame le" tA samajavu' chevaTe te vyaktinI apekSAe paNa ApaNuM vacana mahattvanuM che. bAkI AjanA yugamAM keTalIvAra ApaNe sAMbhaLIe chIe "tamAruM bhASaNa have pUrNa karI tA sAruM." vacanacega eindriya jIvathI prAraMbhI saune hAya. paNu, koyalanu saMgIta sAMbhaLavA puruSa prakRtinA prAMgaNamAM doDayA jAya che. ane gharanA AMgaNe kAgaDA kA........... karatA hAya tA kAMkarA mArIne kAgaDAne uDADI daie chIe. priyavacana svAnI bhAvanAthI sabhaLAya che ane khelAya che, hitavacana ma'galanI bhAvanAthI khelAya che ane saMbhaLAya che. vacanayoga saphaLa tyAre ja ane jyAre tenI pAchaLa pramaLa jJAnayeAga ane haiyAnA zubhabhAvathI puSTa * anelA hAya. dha lAbha" zabdanI nakala koipaNa karI zake, paNa zva lAbha tA dha maya jIvana khanyu hoya te ja mahAtmA ApI zake.

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ane sAdhanAne AdhAra vizuddha kriyA che. [ 20 paramAtmA mahAvIrasvAmI ca'kauzika sane je zabda pharamAve bujsa bujsa' te zabdanu kadAca ApaNe anukaraNa karI zakIe paNa hiMsaka krUra prANI pratye hRdayanI hArdi ka karuNA tA paramAtmA pAsethI kevI rIte udhAra laI zakIe ? paramAtmAnA zabdane caDakauzika sarpa paNu samajI zake ane ApaNA zabdone ApaNA najadIkanA - vartulanA paricita pAtro paNa samajI nA zake, te temAM kAraNa zuM ? paramAtmAe paNa kakkAnA akSaranA upayega karyAM ane ApaNe paNa teja a thI ha sudhInA akSaranA anele keka zabda vAparyAM che ne ? pharaka kayAM ? kahevu ja nahi, mAnavuM ja paDaze. zabdanI pAchaLa bhAvanAnuM ja khaLa che teNe ja zabdamAM camatkAra sarjyoE. jenI pAse cAritranI zuddhi che....tapanI pavitratA che... jJAnanI garimA che....te mahAtmAnA sahaja rupe nIka- LelA vacana ja varadAna ane zrApa banI jatA haiAya che. AthI ja uttarAdhyayana sUtranA aDhAramAM adhyayananI paMkti bhagava` ! vAharAhi me' mAM bhaktanI AjIjI che, guru bhagavaMt ! ! mane khelAvA! mArI sAthe ameAlA nA le....hu bhUlane pAtra chuM. Apa kSamAnA nidhAna che. huM gunhegAra.".

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206] pApa pravRttinuM pRthakkaraNa na kare paNa, tene joI ja nAMkho. chuM. Apa gunhAne guNe banAvanAra kalAkAra che. huM deSita chuM. Apa mane nirdoSa banAvavAnA rasAyaNa jANe che. huM adhama chuM. Apa amane uttama banAvanAra mahaMta che. huM mUrkha chuM. Apa mArI mUrkhatAne sudhAranAra saMta che. Apa A sevakane badhI zikSA kare paNa eka zikSA kayAreya na karatAM, Apa mArI sAthe abalAnA letA. ApanA belA mane muMjhavI nAMkhe che, mArI hiMmata teDI nAMkhe che. Apa nA bolo eTale mArI gabharAmaNa vadhI jAya che. ApanA caraNa pakaDI AjIjI karuM chuM. "guru bhagavaMta mArI sAthe bele' mane khabara che tame mane bolAvavAne paNa agya kayAre samaje ? jyAre huM karUNAnuM nahi paNa upekSAnuM pAtra banI jAuM. pApI pratyeka gunhegAra pratye ApanA haiyAmAM dayA heya, AMsu haiiya, karUNA hAya paNaniSphara adhama AtmA pratye ja ApanI upekSA hoya ApanuM mauna heya. mane khabara che. Apa bele ane guru kare te paNa gurune gusso ziSyanA gauravane vadhAranAra che. ApanuM vacana bhASA samiti yukta hoya eTale bolIne gusso kare te gusse na rahetAM AzIrvAda banI jAya paNa Apa je mArA jevA abujha sAthe abolA le te mane mArA azubhanI AgAhI thAya che. gurunI upekSA te ja zrApa. ane zrama ne zrApa "kuLe tee aNagAre Daheja narakeDio ayanA teja vaDe [ApanI dubhAyelI lAgaNI vaDe] kare

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padmA nuM apAkaSa Na e dveSa darzIna che. [ 207 mAnavA bhasmIbhUta thaI jAya. Apa kayAreya paNa vacanathI apama galanI vAta nA kare. Apa mArA jevA AtmA pratye kayAreya teolezyA nA cheDA. ApanA sava caiAge! saya- mita che paNa ApanI avakRpA thAya te mArI badhI puNyanI saMpatti ghaDIvAramAM pApamAM parivartita thaI jAya. ArAdhanA cegya sava anukULatA vAdhanAmAM pheravAI jAya. Apa mane ayeAgya jANI du:kha thAya tema na karA paNa ApanI hitazikSA baMdha thaI jAya. ApanI hitazikSA adha thaI jAya eTale mArI pragatinI dizA rUMdhAI jAya. urdhvagamana karanAra mAruM adha:patana thaI jAya. prabhu ! ApanA caraNamAM eka ja vinaMti-eka ja prAtha nA...prabhu ! 'mArI sAthe kheleA,' guru bhagavaMta ! guru gautama prabhunI sAthe vAgyuddha karavA ja AvelAne ! paNa jo prabhu belyA te! prabhunA caraNanA manI zAsananI dhurAne vahana karI ne ? gurubhagava ta huM ApanI sAthe laDavA te nathI Avyo ne? karyAMreka phariyAda lai Anya hAIza. kayAreka vinati laI AvyeA hoIza, kyAreka unA AMsu dvArA ApanA caraNa prakSAlana karyAM haze. paNa....sAcuM kahe! bhagavaMta ! zuM huM tamArI sAthe laye; chuM ? samitI AtmA devanA caraNe raDe paNa laDe nahi. raDanAranA AMsu lUMchAya, laDanAra dhakko khAya. Apa mArI sAthe akhelA lezeA tA mAruM samyak dana pazu

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208 ] padmA nuM AkaSa Nu e rAga dana che. rIsAi jaze. guru akhelA le teA jJAna na maLe. jJAna na maLe te viSaya kaSAya para kAbu nA Ave. viSaya kaSAyanuM jora vadhI jAya te! samakita cAlyu' jAya, samasta saMsAramAM sau mane pahelAM sArA kahetAM. mAre mArA kahetAM. pahelAM huM samajatA nahi, sArA ane mArAnI mAyAjALamAM mUMjhAI jatA. sArA kahI mArAnu lekhala lagAvatAM ane pachI jo huM kadAca bIjA tarapha jote, te badhA kahetA mArA.. mArA... sAce...me mArAnA khUba mAra khAdhA. have mane 'mArA'nI suga caDhI gaI che. jyAM huM, tuM, ame, tame ane mAruM tAruM tyAM mane svArthInI bhayaMkara gadha Ave che. A svArthInI zerImAM rakhaDIne khUba thAkayA chuM eTale kahu chu. he gurUdeva ! ( mArI sAthe 'eleTa' mane khelatA nathI AvaDatuM. mahApuruSanI sAthene ucca vyavahAra vANI zIkhyA nathI. sAcuM kahuM chuM" zabda mArA game tevA che paNa ApanA caraNamAM eka ja vinaMtI che have mane tAro.... mArA uddhAranI prakriyA batAve.... na DAkaTarane ` kahevAya paNa sAravAranI paddhati kaI apanAvavI te nA kahevAya. DokaTarane ceAgya lAge te davA Ape Injekazana Ape....Aparezana kare....hATa ceinja kare....tema me' paNa ApanA caraNamAM AvI Apane mAruM

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padArthanuM vAstavika darzana ne samyam darzana che. [ 209 ajJAnanuM darda kahyuM che, have Apane je sAravAranI paddhati gya lAge te darzAvavA kRpA kare. Apa mArI je yogyatA samaje tene anurUpa mArA jatana kare. huM mUrkha chuM eTale ema kahuM chuM "mArI sAthe bele paNa sAce te mAre kahevuM che ApanA jJAnanA teja dvArA mArA hRdayanA ajJAnanA aMdhakAra dUra kare. Apa samA jJAnI mArA zabdane uvekhI bhAvane jovA kRpAvaMta thaze. jJAnI zabdane nA jue bhAvane jue vacana zakita maLI hoya ane manana karanAra keTalA heAya ? vacanazaktine sadupayeAga karanAra keTalA ? he gurudeva ! Apane vinavuM chuM--"mArI sAthe bole." eTale pratijJA lau chuM vacanane durupayoga karanara sAthe belIza nahi ane huM paNa vacanane durupayoga karIza nahi. A che sAdhaka AtmAnI saddagurUnA caraNe prArthanA. * bhale A zabdo rAjA saMyati e muni bhagavaMtane prArthanA rUpe kahyA paNa vastutaH te hitazikSA cAhaka pratyeka vya ziSyanI pitAnA aparAdhanI kSamA mATe AvI ja prArthanA hoya che. 14 .

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3ra abhae patyivA tumbha abhayadAyA bhavahi ya BE jyAM bhaya tyAM bhagavAna nahi, jayAM nirbhayatA tyAM bhagavAna...bhaya kone lAge ? jenAmAM rAga hAya, jenAmAM cheSa heya, jenAmAM IrSA ya, jeNe hiMsA karI hoya, je juTha belyA hoya, jeNe corI karI hoya, jeNe parigraha za hoya. ' jyAM bhaya tyAM pApajyAM pApa tyAM durguNenI bhUtAvaLa ane sadgaNonuM devALuM, prabhunI sevAnI jene tamannA hoya tene traNa guNe pragaTAvavA joIe. tema ega mAM mahAtmAe pharamAve che temAM sauthI prathama guNa abhaya" prabhune bhakta abhaya hoya, nirbhaya hoya, prabhunA bhakatamAM duHkhane sahavAnI tAkAta hoya eTale vIra hoya. jyAM bhaya tyAM cittanI sthiratA na hoya, cittanI sthiratA nahi tyAM sAdhanAnuM teja kayAMthI pragaTe ? eTale ja sAdhaka vizvane tripadI Ape che. BR huM prabhune bhakata chuM eTale abhaya chuM. BR huM abhaya chuM eTale vizvane abhayanA dAna karuM chuM BR huM abhayadAtA chuM eTale vizvane abhayanuM varadAna ApuM chuM. huM vizva mATe AzA rAkhuM chuM tame paNa

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saMgharSamAM parAbhava che, saMyamamAM chata che. [ 211 abhayadAtA bane. uttarAdhyayana sUtranA aDhAramAM adhyayananI dhruvapaMkti che. "abhAo paWivA tumbha -abhayadAyA bhavAhi ya." eka mahAtmA rAjA saMya tine kahI rahyAM che. rAjA tane amArA taraphathI abhayanA dAna che ane zubhAziSa che ke tuM paNa abhaya dAtA bana. A vAta bhale sAdhu ane saMyatirAjAnI hoya. paNa sanAtana satya sahunA mATe sarakhuM ja hoya che. samasta sAdhu mahAtmAnuM vizvane moTAmAM moTuM dAna abhayadAna che. nispRha mahAtmA vizva pAse kaI AzA apekSA rAkhatAM nathI paNa sadA vizva para zubhAziSanI vRddhi kare che tethI kahe che tame paNa abhayadAtA bane. vizvanA dareka dAna dekhAvamAM madhurA che paNa hakIkatamAM adhurA che, eka abhayadAna cheDIne abhayadAna e ja sAcuM dAna ane zreSThadAna che. - jeNe mAtra jIvanamAM annadAna, vastra dAna ane kItidAna ja karyA che tene kayAMthI abhayadAnanuM mahatva samajAya ! ! - mahAtmA ! abhayadAnanA ATalAM kema sanmAna ! zuM annadAnathI duniyA khuza thatI nathI? bhUkhyAne anna Apo tenA haiyAmAM keTalo AnaMda thaI jAya che. ane tenA - sukhamAMthI nIkaLI jAya che bhagavAna tamAruM bhaluM kare. bhikhArI. jene lAja DhAMkavA be kapaDAM nathI tenuM zarIra

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212 ] sukhaduHkha vairAgya DhaMkAya tevA be vastra Ape, keTalI AnaMdanI anubhUti thAya che. mane te annadAna vasadAna vigere khUba priya lAge che. jyAM dAnane pratyakSa mahimA dekhAya che. - sAdhaka ! mane khabara che tuM sAdhanAnA kSetramAM pravezya che paNa hajI tuM puNyane bhikhArI che, nAmane lAlacuM che, kItine kAmuka che, tArI buddhi pUla che, sUphamavAta samajI zakatA nathI paNa reja zAstrIya vAtanuM manana, ciMtana karIza te zAstranA rahIyane meLavIza. tane eka cetavaNI ApI dauM, zAstranI vAta samajyA vagara, zAstranA nAme sArI pravRtti choDIne nahiannadAna, vastradAna paNa jarUrI che. tenuM paNa phaLa che. tenuM paNa tene kSetramAM mahatva che. huM tane samajAvuM chuM sarvazreSTha dAna karyuM ? mahAtmAe kahyuM dAna Ape ? tIrthakara kayuM dAna Ape? namasthaNe yAda che ne ? logapajajaagarANuM pachI zuM pATha Ave ? "abhayadayANe barAbarane ?' . vizvanA badhAM dAnamAM svanA dAna nathI. alaga rsIjanA dAna che. badhA dAna pAMca, daza miniTa, pAMca daza divasa ane chevaTe eka varSe paNa tenI maryAdA pUrNa thAya. badhA dAna bIjAne hAthe paNa karAvI zakAya tyAre abhayadAna eTaluM saheluM nathI, sastu nathI. abhayadAna tyAre thAya jyAre svasamAna vizva manAya. abhayanA dAna karavAnI daSTi ane bhAvanA eTalI vizALa

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sukha eTale khADo, duHkha eTale Tekare, [ 213 banI jAya che ke tenI daSTimAM kIDI-kuMjaranA bheda nA hoya tenI daSTimAM deva-nArakanA bheda na hoya, tenI daSTimAM ekendriya paMcendriyanA bheda nA hoya. pApa ane puNyazALInA bheda nA heya-tenI daSTimAM garIba ane zrImaMtanA bheda nA hoya, vizvanA pratyeka prANImAM AtmAnA ja nahi paramAtmAnA paNa darzana kare te abhayadAnanI ArAdhanA karI zake. abhaya ApavuM eTale zuM ? UR ayanuM dAna sukhanA tyAga vagara thaI na zake ! IT abhayanuM dAna svArthanA visarjana vagara thaI nA zake ! ge abhayanuM dAna samyam daSTinI prApti vagara thaI ne zake ! abhayanuM dAna samyagu jJAna vagara thaI nA zake ! BE abhayanuM dAna sabhya caritra vagara thaI zake ! abhayanuM dAna apramata bhAva vagara thaI nA zake ! abhayanuM dAna ayogI avasthAnI prApti vinA paripUrNatA na pAme. abhayadAnanA ArAdhanA mATe koI padArtha nA joIe paNa abhayadAnanI ArAdhanA mATe AtmAnI gyatA avazya joIe. abhayadAnanI ArAdhanA mATe bahAranI kaI taiyArI nA joIe, abhayadAnanI ArAdhanA mATe aMtaramAM siddhi padanI AkAMkSA joIe.

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214 ] vairAgya eTale samabhUmi. zu tuM ema mamaje che. kAI pAsethI eka gAya cheDAvI dIdhI te abhayadAna ! nA bhAI....nA. A teA abhayadAnane eka namUnA. abhayadAna eTale vizvanA badhA pApa sthAnakethI jAtane mukta karavI. je vyakti pApanI pravRtti ane vRttithI mukta thaI zake te abhayadAna karI zake che, abhayanA ArAdhana karI zake, jenu mana duvicArI dUSita che, jenA vacanamAM bhASA samiti nathI, jenI geAcarI lAvavAnI pravRtti ane spAhAra karavAnI paddhatimAM eSaNA samiti nathI, jenI visarjananI kriyAmAM pAriSThApanikA samiti nathI, jenI gamanAgamana kriyAmAM irSyA samiti nathI te kayAreya abhacaMdAnanI ArAdhanA nA karI zake. vastra, pAtra, vasati AbhUSaNa ane mamatvanA parigRha rAkhanAra paNa abhayadAnanu' ArAdhana nA karI zake. abhayadAnanA ArAdhana mATe, pAMca mahAvratanuM pAlana jarUrI, abhayadAnanA ArAdhana mATe dvavidha sAdhu samAcArInu... pAlana jarUrI, abhayadAnanuM ArAdhana AkarI sAdhanA ane kaThora tapazcaryAM mAMge che. AvA mahAsAdhako ja vANI vahAvI zake abhae pathivA takhma" patthivA-pArthiva eTale rAjA ja nahi, pRthvIne mAlika nahi paNa pratyeka dehadhArI pArthi va...dehane bhASAmAM mATI kahevAya che. adhyAtmamAM pudgala mAtrane mATI-pRthvI kahevAya che, ane tethI deha pArthiva che.

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AleTanA samaye tAne mAna na kare te zrI [ 201 = abhayadAna mAtra ekAda vyaktine ja ApIne aTakavAnuM na heAya, abhayadAna vizvanA prANI mAtrane ApavAnu` heAya; abhayadAna vItarAga paramAtmAnI hitazikSA pramANe ja ApI zakAya, abhayadAna vItarAgane! sAdhu ja karI zake ane abhayadAna karatAra sAdhu ja abhayadAnanA AzIrvAda Apa vAne ceAgya banI zake. vizva pAse jemane koI AzA nathI, spRhA nathI, jhaMkhanA nathI tevA mahAtmA kahe che. abhayadAyA bhavAhi ya" jene jagata pAse AzA apekSA rAkhI hoya, tene nirAzA prApta thavAnA bhaya hoya, paNa apekSA ja na hoya tene bhaya zAnA ? prAptinI apekSA vagaranu' dAna abhayadAna, ane abhayadAnanA dAtAnA vizvane AziSa-'abhayadAyA bhavAhi ya." ' divasanI vijaLI, rAtrine gaDagaDATa ane sAdhunu vacana kayAre ya niSphaLa na thAya; sAdhunuM vacana ame hoya saphaLa hAya. sAdhunAM AzIrvAda meLavavA koNa bhAgyazALI banI zake ? je mahAtmAnA caraNanI sevA kare te, mahAmAnA saMga kare te. mahAtmAnA mukhathI apAcela AzIrvAda paNa saphaLa ane teA a MtaranA AziSa jene maLe te saphaLa kema na mane ? ghaDI pahelAMnA hi'saka zikArI rAjA sayati-mahAtmAnA AzIrvAde vizvane abhayanuM dAna karanAra dAnavIra

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216 ] jJAnanA vistAra karatAM jJAnanI uMDAInI vadhArejarUra che, banyA, vItarAga mAnA upAsaka banyA, ravAnI ane sevaka tulya anyA ! bhaya hAryAM, bhagavAnanI hitazikSA dvArA bhakta abhaya, abhayadAtA banyA. prabhu ! huM paNa ApanA bhakata chuM. * ApathI abhayadAna pAmyA che. jagatanA jIvAne abhayadAna ApavAnA ApanA AziSa pAmyA chuM. te ApanI kRpAe sakala jIvAne abhayadAna devAmAM siddha anu.... e ja abhyarthanA.... 3.

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33. jahA te IsaI vaDa pasanna te tahA mA Pin jyAM dharatI lIlIchama che; jayAM cArebAju vanarAjI vikasita che tyAM jarUra pAtALamAM pANI che. jala vinA vanaspati sabhavI nA zake, jema vanaspatinI hAjarI jalanI AgAhI kare che tema mANasanu mukha dilanI AgAhI kare che. mukha ane ArIsAnA svabhAva samAna che. ArIse kahe mArA vAMka-gunho jarAya nahi mAro te svabhAva tamArA pratiSiJa jhIlavAnA. dazya kharAba hoya teA pratibiMba bharAya Ave dazya suMdara hoya te pratibiMba suMdara Ave. muLa kahe che "tame mane sAruM kharAba nA kaho." mAru kArya tA tamArA a MtaranA darzana karAvavAnuM, tamArA haiyAmAM jo gussAnA bhAva haze teA mukhanI rekhAe khe'cAi jaze.... tamAre haiyAmAM karUNAnAM bhAva haze te AMkha Adra khanIjaze, sukha kAmaLa manI jaze. tamArA haiyAmAM vAsanA haze te mukhavikRta thai jaze. AMkha-bhramara ane hoTha cADI khAI jaze. tamArA haiyAmAM vAtsalya haze teA mukha para amI ubharAvA lAgaze. vANI ane vanane ApaNe chupAvI zakIe paNa mananI cADI sukha khAI le che.

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218 ] jJAnI eTale vyavahAranI duniyAne mUrkha | zabdothI Apela paricaya sAce paNa hoya ane beTo paNa hoya. paNa mukhAkRti e Apela paricaya ghaNekhare sAce hoya che. haidrAbAdathI kupAkajInA vihAramAM ame hatA. umpala kasturabA AzramamAM amAre eka divasane mukAma hate. AzramanA adhiSThAtA oma prakAza guptA sAthe mahApuruSa viSe vAta cAlatI hatI. tyAM meM kahyuM, "eka miniTa jarA bhe"....pachI mArA daphataramAMthI amArA pU. dAdA gurudeva labdhi sUrIzvarajI mahArAja sAhebane eka phaTa kADhaye, meM pUchyuM, bele! A pheTa zuM kahe che? teoe bhAvavibhora banIne kahyuM, ke A mahAtmAnI mukhAkRti temanA samagra AdhyAtmika jIvananA darzana karAve che. kRpA karI tame A pheTA nIce nAma oLakha kazuM nA lakhaze. A pheTAnI eTalI suMdara mukhAkRti che ke jANe lAge ke mahAtmAnA aMtara AtmAnuM ane darzana. ekalA zabdothI vyaktine paricaya karAvIe te te ja kahe che tame jaDa paricaya Apo che. zuM emanuM mukha darzana amane kazuM nathI kahetuM ? mukhadarzana sAce aMtara darzana che. tethI ja uttarAyana sUtramAM saMyati rAjA mahAtmAnI stuti karatAM kahe che. jahA te dasaI ruvaM pasane te tahAmaNe uttarAdhyayana sUtranI A paMkita amArA jevA sAdhune eka preraNAne saMdeza Ape che. tArA Atmika sauMdaryanI

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karmanA udaya sAme rADa pADavI te mahadarzana. [ 219 abhivRddhi kara, tArA mukha upara camatkAra sajAze. dehanA lAlitya mATe, dehanA sauMdarya mATe tAre prayatna karavAne nathI. tArA AtmAne svastha banAva...prasanna banAva sahanazIla banAva. krodha, mAna, niSpharatAnI duchavRtti tArA hRdayane kabaje leze te tuM akAle vRddha banI jaIza. yuvAnI akALe karamAI jaze, ane zarIranI zakti kSINa thaI jaze. tAruM mana saMyamathI prasanna banela haze, udAra vicAra haze te vRddhAvamAM paNa tArA mukha upara phUla gulAbI saudarya nikharaze. AvuM mukha paranuM sadAnuM hAsya, tArA zAMta-prazAMta mahA upazAMta dilanuM dyotaka banaze. vizvamAM kayAreya banyuM nathI ane banavAnuM nathI ke AsurI, rAjasI ane tAmasI bhAvo nA hoya. sajajanatA ane durjanatAnA kaddha na haya, pApa ane puNya na hoya, samya) ane mithyA zraddhAnA hoya. vizvanA A bhAva samajanAra pitAnA AtmAne TANA rUpe jue che. bhraSTA rUpe nahi. duniyA jevI che tevA darzana karavA te samyaggadarzana. duniyAne ApaNI IcchA mujaba cAlatI jovI te mithyASTi, pAzavIdaSTi-pAzavIvRtti pazu svabhAvanI dyotaka che. ciMtana-mananI vRtti mAnava svabhAvanI dyotaka che. pratyeka vyakitanI pravRttinA kAraNonuM ApaNe manana

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220 ]ka bhAgavatA karmInA udayane vicAravA te sa. darzIna, karIe te hiMsA--mAna IrSyAnA-kreAdhanA bhAvA manamAM peDhA na thAya paNa manamAM samatA snehanI saravANI phUTe ! aprasanna mana e atRpta mAnasika vRttinuM dyotaka che. aprasanna rahenAra jANe ajANe khudanA mamatvane puSTa kare che. ane jyAM mamatva Ave tyAM lAbha kaSAyanA aDDA jAmI gayelA ja hAya che. jyAM lAbha tyAM sarvanAza, leAbhI vizvane sAcuM' mAga daCna na' ApI zake, e tA peAtAnI IcchAnI tRptine ja jhaMkhe ! kurtIka karavA TevAyeluM amAruM mana prazna kare che tame te nAnI nAnI vAtane moTI karI de che, dASa joyA tA aNagamA thaye. aNagamA thayA eTale mukha aprasanna anyuM. sAthe A leAbha che ke amArA haiyAnI zubhabhAvanA che ? kayAMya amArI bhAvanAnA sanmAna nahIM? game tema karI amArA doSa kaheA che ? ane amane kakha dha-kamaudaya samajAve che ? sAcuM kahuM chuM. duniyAmAM kharAkha joIe eTale duHkha thAya che. tethI mehu caDhI jAya. ko' kharAkha kare te aNagame! nA thAya? amArA dilamAM keTalI khIjAnI ciMtA che. tame kayAreka te amArA pApakArI svabhAvanI prazaMsA karo ! ?? sAdhaka ' paramArtha rasika vyakti alaga hoya ane paramAtha tu pradarzana karanAra vyakti alaga haiAya. tArA kuMkanA ghaTa

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kIkaranI TAkI kare te mahAtmA. [ 221 sphoTa karavA mATe paNa have tevA ja javAba ApavA paDaze. bhAI....tu tA eTalo mATe jAnnugara che....durgANa kaiInAmAM. bhUla koInI, gunhA kAI nA, paNa tenA kAraNe karmInA ba`dha tuM kare che. 1 bhalA kAI kharAba kare te! dayA AvavI joie; karUNA AvavI joI e, tenA badale sAme! gusse tiraskAra.... sAce A to evu' thayu, Aga jovA gayA ane khissA mAM sphoTaka padAtha hatA te bhUlI gayA. Ama jonArane paNa Aga bharakhI gaI....tema duniyAnA doSa jonAra mahAna sajjana AtmA tu' bhUlI na jA....tArA haiyAmAM krAdha-mAnanA bIja DelAM ja hatAM, khasa koInA doSa jotAM dveSanI Aga bhaDabhaDI uDI. tArA aMtaranI samatA zAMti khalAsa thaI gayA ane tAru mukha caDhI gayuM. A satya hakIkata svIkAra. ...tuM javAba Apu. mahAtmA-jJAnI AtmAne, vizvanI badhI vyaktinI vRtti ane pravRtti samajAya ne ? badhAnI bhUla ane gunhAne samaje ne ? tema chatAMya temane kema kAinA pratye aNagamo pedA thatA nathI ? kema temanu' mehu caDhatuM nathI ? jemanAM zira para samudAyanI javAbadArI che. zAsa nanA aneka prazno che tevA gacchanAyaka mahAna AcAya bhagava MtAnA te. dana karyAM che? zuM temanI prasannatAe temanA mukhanI zAMtie, tArA dilane mugdha nathI karI dIdhu ? -

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222 ] namratA pUrvakanA vyavahAra e sAttviktA che, javAbadArInI saphaLatA samajadArIthI thAya, aNugamAthI nahi, tiraskArathI nahI.. vizvanI vicitratA vacce paNa sAdhunuM mana prasanna rahevuM joI e ane hRdayanI prasannatA sukhanA geAkha dvArA Dokiyu kare tevI joie. sAdhu tArA darzana thAya ane koi khAlI uThe....jevuM tamAruM rUpa che tevu tamAruM mana prasanna che, tyAre sama. tuM have bhAva sAdhu banyA. prasannatA ane hAsya vacce khUkha taphAvata che. hAsya majAka-mazkarIe te ajJAnIonI pravRtti che, hAsya meAhanIya karmAMne uttejanA che, chIcharAzapatru che. zAkaaNagame, mAhanIya kama ne uttejanA che, prasannatAnI jananI kaSAyanI upazAMtatA che. . . kAya meAhanIyanA kSaye pAma che. prasanna mahAtmA vizva pratye udAsIna hAya, vizvanI koi paNa paristhiti tene dhyeyathI calita nA kare, ane dhyeyanI pUrNAhuti thAya eTale AtmA prasannatAnA sarovaramAM jala krIDA kare....jalakrIDA, mastI Ape tema prasannatA sadA zarIrane kALa ane pratikriyAthI dUra rAkhe, prabhu ! zAMta nathI te| prazAMta kathAMthI hAuM? mAruM hRdaya tA mArA hRdayanI tuccha vRttinu' dyotaka che, khasa, vIta- rAganA pratininA darzana mArA dvila upara kAmaNa kare.. vazIkaraNa kare....vazIkaraNa jenA upara je kare tenu anu sarajI thAya. asa....mane Apa vazIkaraNathI vaza kare....

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34. kahuM dhIro ahehi ummattAbva mahi* care Bi prANa ane annane! dekhAva sarakhA hoya, mAhya -vyavahAra sarakhA hoya, paNa vicAramAM taphAvata hoya eTale pariNAmane prakRtimAM pharaka avasya thAya.... buddhimAna pratyeka pravRtti hetu samajIne kare. lAbha ane nukazAna vicArIne kare. duHkha ane sukha samajIne kare. prAjJanA jIvanamAM pastAvavAnA prasaga bhAgye ja Ave che. jeNe pahelAM pUrNa vicAra na karyAM hoya tene pastAvA karavA paDe che, puniva cAra kahe che ke pahelAM apUNa vicAra karyAM eTale have pastAveza karavA paDe che, vicAra pheravavA paDe che. paramAtmAnA zAsanamAM anekAMta dRSTi che. pratyeka padAne anaMta jJAnInI dRSTie ana ta rIte vicArave joi e ApaNI sImita zakita che, maryAdita che eTale sa'kucita dRSTie vicArIe chIe, padAne aneka dRSTie vicAravAnA viveka jAgyA. tyAM ahu ane kAgrahe vidAya lIdhI." jyAM ahu' ane dAgraha hoya tyAM bIjAnI vAta, vicAra-apekSAnA khyAla ja na hoya. anekAMta dRSThi samajI, zAsananA mArge saMca

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224] manane keLavanAra bhayaMkara duHkhamAM paNa sukha meLavI zake che. rela muni hajAre pralebhane vacce lalacAto nathI. satya mArgathI vicalita thatuM nathI. sAdhaka! caraNa sittarI ane karaNa sittarInuM jJAna AcAra pradhAna che. temAM te vidhi ane niSedha ja mukhyapaNe Avaze. utsarga ane apavAda Avaze. tene A jJAnamAM samudAya tathA sahavatI munionI AcaraNa paNa sahAyaka thaze. ane kadAca kaI bhayaMkara pApodaye je sAdhaka AcAramAM zithila banyuM hoya che te pitAne ja DubADe che, piote ja Dube che paNa je sAdhaka vicArathI paribhraSTa thaye, tattvajJAnanI galI khuMcImAM bhUle paDe, nityA-nityanA kiyAvAda-akriyAvAdanA, sAta naya ane pramANanA bheda nA samaye temAM mUMjhAI gayo che. aneka AtmAne dharmazraddhAthI bhraSTa kare che. svapane nAza kare che. darzanazAstra eTaluM gahanazAstra che temAM pUrvapakSanI bAdamAM uttarapakSanI dalIla Ave. pahelAM dalIle cAle. dareka darzanavAdI kahevAnuM mAruM darzanazreSTha. zreSTha darzana batAvavA yukti-dalIle daSTAMte rajU karavAnA. A bhUlabhUlAmaNImAM bhUla paDe to basa khalAsa! pustakathI je sAdhake e darzanazAstranA adhyayana karyA tenI avadazA te jojo. jJAnanI mAyAjALamAM zraddhAne divyamaNi guma thaI gayuM pachI vAgajAla dvArA duniyAne

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cuvAzaktinA be sAthI che, rhi Mmata ane vizvAsa. [ 225 phasAvavAnuM zIkhI gayA. chevaTe ekapaNa zAstra hAthamAM na rahyuM. svamati mukhya banI. bhavatAraka bhagavAna bhUlI gaye ane khuda bhagavAna khanI beThe.. bhatAthI pUjAvA lAgyA. zAstramAM vistAraruci samyaktva mATe darzInazAstranA abhyAsa khUba jarUrI kahyo che. paramAtmA mahAvIra svAmInA samayamAM paNa aneka mata matAMtara, vAda vivAda hatA. tenA mukhya cAra bheda che. kriyAvAda, akriyAvAda, ajJAnavAda ane vinayavAda. A badhA ekAMtavAdanA peASakavAdo che. kriyAvAda AtmAnA astitvane mAne che. paNa AtmA vyApaka-- vyApaka, kartA-akartA, kriyAvAn akriyAvAna, mU-amUrta, mAnavAmAM vicAraNA bhinna che. tenA ekase pesI bheda che. . akriyAvAda AtmAnA astitvane svIkAra karatA nathI. bIjA zabdomAM tene nAstika paNa kahI zakAya. keTalAka akriyAvAdI AtmAnA astitvane svIkAra kare che paNa AtmAnA zarIra sAthe abheda sadha che ke bheda saMkhadha che te kahI zakAtu nathI tema,mAne che. keTalAMka akriyAvAdI AtmAnI utpattikhAda turata ja AtmAne nAza mAne che. Ama akriyAvAdanA ceArAsI bheda che. ajJAnavAda ajJAnathI AtmAnI siddhi mAne che. jJAna zuM? jJAnathI kai lAbha nathI. mAnA aDasaTha bheda che. vinayavAda vinayathI ja mukita mAne che. 15

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226 ] mAranArane paNa tAranAra ane te ja sAdhu, sajjana. badhAnA ja vinaya kare. tenA 32 bheda che. Ama ekAntASTinA 363 bheda che. A badhAnuM sUkSma ane vistRta varNana sUyaoNMgasUtramAM che. prabhuna siddhAMta anekAntavAdgamaya che. ekAntaHzanInI yuktiLa bhedavA sammatita, dvAdazAra-nayacakra, nayavAda, pramANamImAMsA, pramANanaya tavAlAkAla'kAra, ratnAkarAvatArikA, syAdvAdaratnAkara siddhasena khatrIzI, SaTTharzana samuccaya, jainata bhASA, dravyaguNaparyAyanA rAsanA abhyAsa khUba jarUrI--atyaMta Avazyaka che, A zAstranA adhyayana, satata ciMtana ane nididhyAsana vagara jainadarzananI maulikatA-adbhutatA samajAya nahi. dareka buddhizALI sAdhaka A abhyAsa kare te! ja ekAntasRSTi ane anekAntadRSTi nA bheduM samajAya, pachI te syAdvAdI banI zake. syAAdInu lakSya duniyAnA kei camatkAra, prabhAva. phAI vAda-prativAdathI calita thatu nathI. eka ja lakSya rahe che AzravathI dUra rahevuM ane nizanA mArge kadama bharavA. duHkhanA Dara nahi, sukhanI AkAMkSA nahi, kItinI cAhanA nahi, ToLAMnI IcchA nahi, padanA praleAbhana nahi, mAtra AtmAnI siddhinI ja abhilASA.....AvA dhIra sAka cAreya kudana vaDe unmatta thAya nahi paNa...pratyeka sAdhaka

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sahanazIlatA e lAkhA du:khAnI cAvI che. [ 227 jIvanamAM sadA dhyAna rAkhe ke darzanazAstranA abhyAsa gurugama vagara nA karavA joie. gurunI nizrA vagara dena zAstrane abhyAsa karanArane kAka divasa yuktinA vAvA vaTALa evA mUjhavI de che ke veza prabhune rahe che ane vicAra svanA rahe che. Ama sAdhaka sAce meAkSamAga nA Adhaka banI Aya che, prabhunA vezamAM svavicAranA pracAraka anI jAya che. H uttarAdhyayanasUtranA 18mAM adhyayananI paMkita kahu dhIre, ahehi ummatto va mahi` care ? ' che. temAM 4 dhIra" zabda kahyo, te khUba ciMtana mAMge che. ahetuo varDa 'jJAnI bhUle nA paDe' tema nA kahyuM. ane dhIra kahyuM, A padma ja kahe che ke jenI buddhi svadaza nanA abhyAsa vaDe paripatra thai che ane pachI jene SaTThananA abhyAsa kaye che te pAgalanI jema unmAMge gamana karatA nathI. dhIra vyakti sadguru pAse peAtAnI vicAraNA rajU kare. dhIra vyakita peAtAne samajAyela yukita, dalIla para vicAra kare che. hItamAM te. paramAtmAe dhIra' zabda vAparIne kahI dIdhu. dhairya vAna vyakti ja darzanazAstranuM adhyayana karavA ceAgya che. nyAyAdhIza anavu hoya ane ane pakSanI dalIla sAMbhaLava. jeTalu dhyeya nA rAkhe te zuM nyAya thAya ? niSpakSa nyAya thAya? nA. eka ja pakSane sAMbhaLavAthI eka

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228] ciMtA ne ciMtanamAM pheravavAnI kalA te sa. darzana, pakSanA vakIla banI javAya. eka pakSane sAMbhaLIne nyAya kare te apUrNa nyAyAdhIza baMne pakSane sAMbhaLI, vicArI koIpaNa pakSanI tarapheNa ke virodha vagara nyAya kare, tyAre ja te nyAya ane buddhinI mAyAjALamAM athaDAI jAya, suyakti ane kuyuktine samaje nahi te nyAyane abhyAsI ke anyAyane abhyAsI ! bhalA ! SaDradarzana samajI vicArI tAre anekAMtanA upAsaka banavAnuM che. "mAruM te sAruM AvA bhATacAraNanA jevA gIte tAre gAvAnA nathI. "sAcuM te mArUM" A udgheSaNa karI tenI pAchaLa sarvasvanA balidAna devAnA che. zrI uttarAdhyayanasUtramAM A gAthAmAM "dhIra zabda khUba ja suyogya rIte vaparAyela che. vicAra karaje, darzanazAstranA abhyAsa mATe tAkika, bauddhika pratibhA joIze. te satyathI sthiratA mATe adabhUta dIrya joIze. dhIratAmAM evI zakti. che ke vyakti samajI vicArIne svIkArela satya mATe balidAna. ApI zake che. sAdhake ! - tuM tArI zraddhAne nirmaLa karavA darzanazAstrane abhyAsI bana. kiyAvAda-akiyAvAda-nihanavavAda badhA vAdavivAdane samaja. chevaTe vAdAdhirAja syAdvAdamAM sthira bana...dhIra banI syAdvAdanA mArge saMcara. tuM sanmArgane sAdhaka bana....anekane sanmArganA sAdhaka banAva. - tamArA caraNane sevaka banIza...tamAre paDachAye. banIne rahIza.pachI ekAntavAdamAM nahi phasAuM ne ?

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35. aNujANuhu pavvaIsAme ammA ! trasajIva mAtra duHkha dUra karavA mATe gamanAgamana kare che. sukhanI prApti mATe gamanAgamana kare che. paNa bhavyAtmA ja zAzrvata sukhanA mATe prasthAna kare che. sthAna (ghara) tA sau kare paNa sthAna karanAra darekane mahAprasthAna (mRtyu) karavu ja paDe che. paNa je prasthAna (ghara) ja nahi mahAprasthAna (dIkSA) grahaNa kare che tene kyAre ya sthAna karavuM paDatuM nathI, manAvavu' paDatuM nathI. tenA AtmA dehanA aMdhanathI mukta bane che. deha hAya tA sthAnanI ciMtA paNa deha na hoya te na bhAjananI ciMtA na vastranI ciMtA, na AvAsana nivAsanI ciMtA kazI paNa ci'tA nahi. 5 jene ciMtA hAya te ciMtAtura bane. ci MtAtura vyakti vivekathI bhraSTa ane, vivekathI bhraSTa ane eTale gati bhUle, pragati bhUle, bhramaNa kare, paribhramaNa kare, rakhaDatA ja rahe. maiM saMsAranAM paribhramaNathI je thAke, kaTALe te 'prabhunuM' zaraNa svIkAre.... cAra paNa ghara cheDe che ane cAra paNa gharamAM rahe nahi, ane vIra paNa ghara chADe che vIra paNa gharamAM rahe

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230 gurunA varadAna ja ziSyanA aramAnane saphaLa kare che. nahi. era ghara cheDatAM AjJA mAMgI zake nahi, kAraNa tene bhAgI chUTavAnuM hoya. vIra prAyaH AjJA mAMgyA vagara ghara cheDe nahi. pratyeka virAgI mahAprasthAna karatAM kahe che. "aNujahu pavaIsAme ame. AjJA Ape, anujJA Apo, rajA Apo. A badhA zabda sadbhAvanAnA ghotaka che. pUjayabhAvane pragaTa karanAra che. tamAre tyAM janma lIdhe che. tamArI dayAthI meTo thayo chuM. tamArA saMskAre samajaNe the chuM, tamArA puNya devagurunA saMparkamAM Ave chuM. meM rAga ane virAga baMnene samajavAnI koziSa karI che. saMsAranI suMvALI jIMdagInI mane jANa che. saMyamanI kora aMdagInI mane samaja che. rAganI bahAranI mana mohatA mane AkarSatI nathI. virAganI bahAranI virasatA mane pIchehaTha karAvatI nathI. samajIne rAga cheDuM chuM. samajIne virAga ravIkAruM chuM. have te eka ja vinaMti che Apa AjJA Ape..." eka vairAgI jyAre rAgI pAse AjJA mAMge, tyAre zuM vAgI eTaluM nA samaje ke jelamAM purAyela kedI bIjA kedIne chUTo thavA de khare? je vyakti prasthAnanI mahattA samajatI na hoya tenI pAse paNa anujJA mAMgavAnI? rAgI kayAreya virAgIne pakSakAra bane? eka saMsArI saMyamIne AjJA Ape ? avarodha kare. chatAMya kema saMyamI AjJA mAMge che?

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bhAjanane mAnada te sasAra [ 231 prabhuno saMcI dIkSAnA prathama divase " vinaya " banavAnA che. ziSya banavAnA che. dIkSAnA pahelAM tene ahu'nA uThamaNAM karavAnAM che. tenA Atma sAmrAjaya upara vinayanuM vazIkaraNa karavAnA che. AjJAdhanI ArAdhanA karavAnI che. IcchA dharmane vesirAvavAnA che. namratAthI prabhutA prApta karavAnI che paNa namratA pragaTa kayAre thAya ? kRtajJatA Ave te..... dIkSAthI sa`sArI pAse saMyamanI rajA mAMge che. te phakata kRtajJabhAvathI....mAtA.....patA...samasta saMsArI sneha, sabaMdhIne kahe che, mane dIkSAnI anujJA Ape. mukata gaganamAM svairavihAra karavA icchatA pAMkhIne kAi pAMjarAmAM purI zake? tyAga gaganamAM uDDayana karavA icchatA saMyamIne Toi sa`sArI rokI zake ? nA rokI zake...mArA vairAgya majabUta che. te! mArA mahAprasthAnamAM koi muzkelI vighna mane nathI AvavAnA paNa sAce huM saMcamanA sAdA gara chu". mane thAya ke jemane tyAM meM janma lIdho, mArA upara jemanA aneka upakAra che, te mAtApitAne ghara DatAM pahelAM mArA saMyama dharmInA anumeAdaka zA mATe nA banAvuM? temane saMyama dharmonA bhAgIdAra zA mATe nA manAvuM ? rajA eTalA mATe lau chu ke dIkSA huM laIza paNa jo tame tyAga mAnI AjJA Apaze...rajA Apaze te tame paNa anumaiAdanA dvArA tyAga mAnA prazaMsaka-grAhaka banaze.. pravrajayAnI AjJA ApanAra vaDIla tame bhale

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232 ] sAdhanathI sukhanI prApti thAya te dharmanI zodha che. saMyama jIvananA sakriya bhAgIdAra nahi bane. paNa mAnasika bhAvanA rUpa saMpattithI tame jarUra bhAgIdAra banaze... saMyama huM pALIza ane tame ane huM baMne nirjarAnA naphAmAM sAthe rahIzuM. Ama saMyama jIvananI anumodanAthI tamane paNa nirjarA ane mane paNa nirjarA...bIjA janmamAM ApaNe ekabIjAnA uddhAramAM sahAyaka banIzuM. ApanA upakAronI smRti thAya che tethI kRtajJa bhAve punaH punaH vinaMti karuM chuM.' ' rAga tamane AzravanI khAImAM DubADI deze. tethI tame virAganI dostI karI le, virAga tamane saMvara dharmanI sAdhanA dvArA karma nirjarA mahAlAbha Apaze. rAga tamArA mAnava janmanI nAlezI karI rahyo che. tyAre vizaganI AjJA dvArA Apa mAnava janmanA mUlya AMkI le. haiyAmAM eka ja bhAva rahe che ke jemanA A deha upara aneka upakAra che, jemanuM pavitra lehI mArI vizuddha saMcama sAdhanAmAM sahAyaka thavAnuM che. temane zA mATe AjJA ApavA dvArA saMyama dharmanA anumodakanA banAvuM ?! - dIkSAthI mAtA pitA pAse AjJA mAMgavA dvArA kahe che ke have meM IrachA dharmane tyAga karyo che, AjJA dharmane svIkAra karyo che. IcchA dharmamAM mehanIya kamane udaya hoya che. AjJAdharmamAM Atma bhAvanuM pragaTIkaraNa thAya che. have huM svachaMda, uddhata, abhimAnI nahi rahuM.

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rASa ane teASathI para rahe te mahApuruSa. [ 233 have huM gurvAjJAne anusaranAra vinayI- namra anIza je tame mane A guNamAnI rajA Apaze te tame sa guNanA sama`ka khanaze.....tame mane bAlya uMmarathI sa guNI manAvavA jha MkhatA hatA. have mane sadguNI banavAne manAtha jAgyo che. tamArI jha MkhanA-mArA manoratha ane devagurunI kRpAnA triveNI saMgame huM ArAdhaka banIza. huM mokSamArganA pravAsI anIza. prabhunA mArge saMcaranAra adhA ana taNI khane tA tamArA putra kema nA bane? mArA prayatna eTale ja tamArA svapnanI siddhi pratyeka mAtApitAnI bhAvanA hAya, . pAtAnA putranI pragati thAya ! unnati thAya ! paNa keTalIkavAra kharAkhara nA samajAya teA gATALA thAya. eTalA mATe ja he pUjaya ! huM Apane kahuM' chu. AnAM ApeA pratrajayAnI" ! saMsAramAM dareka dedhArInA janma che. janmanA varadAna pAchaLa mRtyunA abhizrApa che. janma = AvavuM mRtyu = javuM. gamana, Agamana e samasta sa`sArIe mATe nizcita che--gamana-AgamanathI kaTALela, janmamaraNathI udvigna thayela mAre have saMsArathI nIkaLavu' che. niSkramaNa karavuM che. nA....nA....mahAbhiniSkramaNa karavu che, eTale ja kahuM chu. mAre. pratrajayA levI che. jyAM rAga che jyAM cAhanA che tyAM saMsAra mane cheDe nahi....saMsArI mane choDe nahi, sa*sArInA pratinidhi samA bAhya-abhyatara saMcAgo mane

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234] bhUla para hase te durjana, bhUlane sudhAre te sajajana. cheDe nahi, pratikULa saMga choDI anukULa saMganI bhikhArIvRtti rAgamAM che. pravajyA eTale padArthane ekale ja tyAga nahi paNa padArthamAM rahela rAgadveSanI bhAvanAne tyAga-rAgadveSanI bhAvanAnA tyAgathI je padArtha choDayA hoya tenA upara mamatva na jAge-tenA AkarSaNa punaH pedA na thAya... vaDIle! bALaka retImAM ghara banAve ane teo tema meM paNa keTalIvAra vrata lIdhA ane teDayA. have te mATe tIrthakara paramAtmAnI jema mahAbhiniSkramaNa karI pravajyA levI che. je saMsArane huM ekavAra heya-DavA lAyaka samaje te preya nA bane, tevI zakti ane-sAmarthya Apa. nehIjane ! mAre pravajyA levI che. jagatanA badhA baMdhana e te kAcA sutaranA tAMtaNA che. tene tUTatAM keTalI vAra? eka jhATake lAgene badhA baMdhana tUTI jAya. paNa vajI samAna kaThIna bakhtara te Asakti bhAvanuM che. basa have sadAne mATe mArI Asakti dUra rahe ane viraktinI mastI maLe mATe mAre pravajyA levI che. - A gAthAmAM vaparAyele "ammA" zabda te najIkanA nehIne kahenAra che. paNa mAre te samasta saMsAra ane

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vahAla ane vAtsalyanA be zabdo pApakaratAM aTakAve che. ra3pa saMsArIone have kahI devuM che-mArA mihanuM Aje uTha maNuM che. mArA tyAgI jIvanane Aje sanmAna samAraMbha che. basamAre tamArI sAthe saMbaMdha nathI paNa tamAre mArI sAthe saMbaMdha che te tyAga mAge saMcaravA, tyAgIne zubhabhAvanAnI bheTa ApavA jarUra padhAra, A che AMtara tyAgInA adbhuta vairAgInI pravrajayA pahelAMnI madazA.

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36. jAvajajIva avisAme, guNuNuM tu mahambharo. . AjanuM jagata vizrAma cAhe che. zrama keIne pasaMda nathI. anAyAse upalabdha thAya te meLavavuM che. paNa jyAM prAptinI pAchaLa prayatnazramanI vAta Ave tyAMthI sau dUra viSe pragati karI che. aneka siddhio hAMsala karI che, paNa te badhI bhautika siddhio zrama vagara A yugamAM siddha che. paNa vizvanA koI paNa yugamAM AdhyAtmika siddhio-guNanI upalabdhio vinA prayatna maLatI nathI. guNa prApti eka divasanA prayatnathI thatI nathI. eka mahine - nAnA prayatnathI thatI nathI. ekAda varSanA prayatnathI thatI - nathI. guNa meLavavA bIjA keIna zrama kAma lAgatuM nathI. guNanI saMpatti vArasAmAM ya meLavI zakAtI nathI. paNa, - svanA satata dharakhama avirata prayatna dvArA ja guNasaMpatti prApta thAya che. guNa malyA bAda te guNa jALavavAnI cIvaTa jaze. guNanA lAbha, avaguNanA nukazAna barAbara. khyAlamAM rAkhavA paDaze. guNIjanene paricaya keLave paDaze. avaguNI, durgaNI, dujanethI sadA sAvavuM rahevuM -paDaze. chaMdagIbharanI satata sAvadhAnI vagara guNa AvatAM

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sAme javAba ApavAmAM zaktinA nAza che. [237 nathI. guNu TakatAM nathI. tethI ja uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM "jAvajIva mavissAmeA guNANuM tu mahukhmara" eka guNanI paNa jALavaNI satata jAgRti vinA thatI nathI. sayama e te aneka guNane samudAya-anekAneka guNeAnA pAlananI temAM jarUra paDe, eTale kAmaLa AtmAne tenA ghaNA bhAra lAge. zuM guNAnuM vajana hoya ? vajana te sthUla cIjanu hAya....bAhya cIjanu` hAya. tArI A vAta sAcI che. guNa bAhya cIja nathI eTale tenuM vajana nA hAya paNa guNAne pura jALavavA jIdagInI badhI moja, majA, svA, sneha hAmavA paDe che. guNAnA mahAbhAra eTale guNeAnI sAtatyatA eka zramabharI sAdhanA mAMgI le che, kALajI mAMgI le chaeN. purlR jyAM dehane vajana nahi paNa manane satata jAgatAM rahevu paDe te guNanA bhAra kayAreka koI guNI mahAtmAnI carNa upAsanA karavA pahoMcI jaje....temane rIjhavaje....pachI pUchaje. "tamArA jIvananA ekAda guNanI caritra kathA kaho." jIvanamAM saMpattithI, svAsthyathI, kItithI thADIvAra caDhatI paDatI AvI haze. paNa ekAda guNa meLavavA keTalI tIvra veDhanA anubhavI che te jANIza teA ja samajAze, sAhasa-kAya vagara ekAda guNa paNa TakatA nathI. zramaNajIvana-sAdhu jIvana eTale guNeAnA samUha. ra sAdhu eTale dehadhArI nahi paNa guNadhArI sAkSAt guNamUrti

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238 ] savAla ane tiraskAranA saMgrahamAM zakitane saMgraha che. - sAdhunA paga kayAreya papakAranA kArya karatAM thAke nahi. sAdhunA paga kyAreya vihAra karatAM vikhavAda Ubhe nA kare. sAdhunA paga kyAreya Avazyaka kriyA karatAM vizrAma mAMge nahi. sAdhunA hAtha sadA apramattabhAve ArAdhanAmAM upayogI thAya. kiyA karatAM mudrA upaga sAdhunA hAtha rAkhe ja. sevA mATe kArya karavA sAdhunA hAtha sadA taiyAra hiya. sAdhunI jIbha niMdAnA pApathI gaMdI nA bane. ! sAdhunI AMkha saddaguNanA darzana mATe sAdhunA kAna zAstra zravaNa mATe sAdhunA aMga aMga kahetA hoya, A mAMsanA lAcA nathI. paNa guNa prAptinA sAdhane che. A pAMca indriya tathA A aMge e mArA AtmAne guNamaya banAvavA khUba madada karI che. sAce A mArA aMga nathI paNa mArA AtmAne guNanI mUti banAvanAra zilpIgaNe che. keInI madadathI pare pakArane guNa maLe. keInI madadathI zAstra zravaNa malyuM. keInA sahAre guNa stuti maLI. keIna sahAre devagurudarzana malyA. A badhAe mane joItI sAmagrI ApI tyAre guNIjane saMparka thaye. aneka guNIjanA paricaye, teonA guNee mArA para cuMbaka jevuM AkarSaNa karyuM. ane Aje tame mane guNa kahe che. paNa mAre te kahevuM che....bhAI.! A mULa prati

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pratikULatA eTale ja dharma karavAnI sAcI meAsama. [ 239 nathI. A tA pratikApI che. sAce tamArI guNenI jhaMkhanA hAya te! mane guNI banAvanAra guNunA niSNAta mahAtmAnI sevAmAM paheAMcI jAva. ! doDI jAya. ! bagIcAmAM jaI e....drAkSanA latA mA~DapamAM jhUmakAmAM ze|bhatI AkaSa ka drAkSa saune sAhAmaNI lAge. svAdiSTa lAge. paNa tenA mAlikane pUchIe. drAkSa zu mahenata mAMge che ? pachI te leAko drAkSanI pAchaLa je mahenata kathanI kahe che te sAMbhaLavA jevI che. ame uMgha ane ArAma harAma karIye chIe. rAta divasanA ujAgarA veThIce chIe. enA AjherAM jatana karIe chIe. vele saDI na jAya mATe tenI davA karIe, Injekazana apAvIe, sAcu kahIe, amArA nAnA bALakanI jeTalI kALajI nathI rAkhatAM tethI adhika drAkSanI kALajI rAkhIye chIe. AmArA vRddha mAtA-pitAnI je sevA nathI karatAM tethI adhika sevA zuzruSA A drAkSanI karIe chIe. mIThI drAkSa meLavatA amArA mIThA leAhI sukAIne khAkha thaI jAya che, ane temAM paNa kudarata rUThI te pAchA UnA AMsu ane hAtha ghasavAnA. bIjA varasa mATe A varasa karatAM adhika mahenata, kayAreka zrama saphaLa ane kayAreka zrama niSphaLa ane paNa ame janatAne teA sIDI drAkSa ja pahoMcADIe. drAkSa pAchaLa ATalI mahenata karavI paDe te guNa pAchaLa keTalI mahenata karavI paDe, te je ApaNe vicArIe

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240 ] mana eTale aneka samasyAnI phekaTarI. tA lAge duniyAnA badhA prANI, badhI vyaktie vizrAma kare teA cAle paNa, jene guNI khanavu che. mahAguNInI haroLamAM besavu' che, tene jIvanamAM kayAreya vizrAma nahi karavAnA. satat niraMtara apramattabhAve udyamI rahevu joie. guNI kahevarAvuM sahelu che paNa....guNI kahevarAvavA mATeya guNanA Azraya levA paDe che. eka zrImaMtane prasiddhine mAha lAgyA. prItie ApyAM tA chevaTe kIti mATe dAna karavuM paDaze ane dAna karaze te dAnavIra kahevAze te guNI anavA zu' karavu' paDe te tu vicAra ! guNI banavA zu' mahenata karvI, tenuM varNana karI nA zakAya. kAraNa dareka vyaktine peAtAnI cAgyatA mujaba mahenata karavI joie. mahAtmAe tA ApaNane eTaluja kramAve guNI anavu khUba kaThIna che, te mATe aneka dRSTAMtA Ape, upamA Ape guNathI pIche haTha karavA nahi.... paNa guNanA mUlya samajAvavA. . dAna ApavuM te judI cIja ane dAnanA guNa hovA e alaga hakIkata. tapa karI levA te judI vAta, ane tapanA guNa pragaTa thavA te alaga hakIkata. sahana karavuM' te judI vAta ane sahana-zIlatAne guNa hovA e judI vAta. kAya karavuM e judI vAta ane pApakAranA guNa hovA te judI vAta, indriyone kAbumAM rAkhavI paDe te judI vAta ane saMyamanA guNa pragaTa thavA te judI hakIkata, jJAna 18.

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mahAtmAonuM anukaraNa nahi paNa anusaraNa karAya. [241 hovuM te judI vAta ane pacavuM te judI hakIkta. DokaTara pAse potAnuM darda saue jevuM hoya tevuM kahevuM paDe te satyane sadaguNa nahi paNa vyaktinI nabaLAI. gF "satya sadguNa tyAre kahevAya ke duniyAnA dekhItA badhAM lAbhane Thekara mArI AtmasvabhAvathI saddaguNanI jALavaNI thAya te... LE "satya e kaMI harizcaMdrane janmasiddha hakaka na hate. pAga harizca satya mATe jIvananA sarvasvanuM balidAna ApyuM te satyavAdI harizcaMdra kahevAyA." dAna ApavAne svabhAva jagaDuzAha mAtAnA garbhamAMthI laIne janmyA na hatA. paNa, gurunI preraNAe dAnadharmane siddha karavA 12 varSa satata prayatna karyo ane prasaMga Ave, ApIne AnaMda pAmyA tyAre dAnavIra jagaDuzA kahevAya... - prabhunA zAsanamAM tapAvI te aneka thayA ane thaze. paNa vItarAga paramAtmA mahAvIre ravamukhe cauda hajAra sAdhumAM dhanya dhanya te "dhannA aNagArane ja kahyAM, kAraNa, mahAtapasvI dhannA muni mahArAje paNa AtmasAt karela. kSamA te duniyAmAM keNa nathI rAkhatuM ? vAgha-siMha jevA hiMsaka prANI paNa potAnA baccA ene kSamA kare che. paNa, te kSamAvIra nahi. paramAtmA mahAvIra ja kema kSamA mUti ? prabhu vIra hatA. mahAvIra

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24ra ] pramAdabhAvanI sAthe laDe te sAdhu. hatA, chatAM saune pratye teonA haiyAmAM karaNI janmI. vizvanA samasta jIvene haiyAnI zubhabhAvanAthI navAjyAM eTale ja paramAtmA kSamAmUrti kahevAyA-badhAM nahi!! duniyAnA keIpaNa bhAgamAM dhArmika-sAmAjika-rAjakIya kSetre kyAMya paNa pharI Ave, koI paNa vyakti sAthe kaI paNa guNanuM nAma joDAyuM hoya te tenI UMDI tapAsa kare. zA mATe te guNathI vyakti prasiddhi pAmI che? "varSo sudhI sasthaNanI sAdhanA bhUgarbhamAM rahe che, pachI jagatanA medAnamAM parIkSA thAya che. temAM je vyakti vijyI bane te pachI saddaguNa sAthe tenuM nAma joDAya che. nahitara vyakti ane guNa bhinna rahe che jAvAjIva avisAme eTale guNanI sAdhanA, bheda sAdhanAthI nahi, abheda sAdhanAthI siddha karavAnI. gF "AyuSya na hoya te cAle, paNa guNa nA hoya te nA cAle. guNa e ja zramaNanuM jIvana guNa e ja zramanuM AyuSya ane guNa e ja zramaNanA prANa" prANane vicaga thAya te prANIne nAza-guNa viyoga thAya te svabhAvane nAza...guNa prAptinI satata prakriyA tenuM nAma zramaNa jIvana...basa "guNI bana. sadgraNI bana.mahAguNI bana." ane kahuM chuM--"anaMtaguNI arihaMta bana."

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jIvanane mukhya siddhAMta, "jarUrIyAta ghaTADe." [ 243 prabhu ! . ApanA AzIrvAda ane mAre satata avirata parizrama. A baMnenuM milana thAya. ApanA AziSa mane anaMtaguNI banAve e ja ApanA caraNa kamaLamAM nata mastake sadAnI mArI abhyarthanA...

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37. 'iha leAe nipivAsamsa nathiM kicivi duSkara tRpta vyaktine bhojananI zuM kiMmata ? maherAne saMgItanI zu ki Mmata ? aMdhane darpaNanI zuM tema jagatanI jene pRhA nathI, jha MkhanA jagatanA sarva padArthanI zuM ki Mmata ? " ki Mmata ? nathI tene tyAga tenA mATe ja duSkara che. jenAmAM AzA icchA-cAhanA--akhanA che. jene koI AzA nathI IcchA nathI--cAhanA nathI--jhaMkhanA nathI-pRhA nathI, tenI pAse vizvanA kAi paNa bhautika padyAnuM mUlya tRNa jeTalu paNa nathI ! ! duniyAnA DAhyA kahevAtAM dareka sajjane sa'sAra tyAgane cAhatAM mumukSune ekavAra tA zANI zikhAmaNa ApavAnA, saMsArane tane anubhava nathI, te saMsAranA sukhA joyA nathI. ekavAra samasta sasArI jIvanane anubhava karI le. pachI tyAga mAge jaje. paNa, jarA vicArIe. tA samajAya ke sajjana tyAgI jIvananu keTaluM avamUlyAMkana kare che ? ane bhAgI jIvananu keTaluM mUlyAMkana kare che ? jema zrImata loko jamavA bese tA pahelAM potAnu" peTa bharI le, kuTuMbIo jamI le nekara " jamI le ane

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bhUla kahenAra zala jevA lAge te mithyAtva. [ 245 pachI garIbane athavA bhikhArIne vadhe ghaTe TukaDA Ape che. Bra "saMsArIo kahe che saMsAra mATe yuvAnI ApI de. pachI je jIvate rahyo te dIkSA leje. yauvanamAM vrata nahi. vRddhatvamAM vrata. eTale tyAgI chavanane eTho-jUTha -va-ghaTo TukaDe roTale ApI devAne...AnAthI adhika tyAganA avamUlyAMkana zuM hoya?" jIvanamAM jene prathama sthAna apAya...te ja agatyanI sAdhanA saMsArI pAse tyAgI kaI divasa tyAganA mUlyAMkana karAve ja nahi. tyAgI samaje che-chIpalA vINanAra vyakti khetInI kiMmata nA karI zake. tema sArI tyAganuM mahatva nA samajI zake. "saMsArIne maMtra saMgraha -parigraha aMte vigraha sAdhune maMtra niSpagriDatAnibhatA aMte avigraha jyAM parigrahanI bhAvanA tyAM saMgrahasaMgrahamAMthI Agraha. AgrahamAMthI kadAgraha ane kadAhamAMthI vigraha jhaMjhAvAta-laDhAI." - vyAM nispRhavRtti chetyAM dunyavI padArthanI jhaMkhanA nathI, tethI tyAga durlabha nathI paNa tyAga sahaja sulabha banI jAya che. parigrahavRtti jene bhayaMkara lAgI tene ca. vartInA sAmrAjya ke IMdranA siMhAsananI paNa koI lAlaca Ape-te spaSTa kahI de. mane mATInA DhephAMthI ramavuM gamatuM nathI.

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246 ] sAdhuneA AMtarika vaibhava che gurukRpA ane guru tu... vAtsalya. purlR iMdranuM siMhAsana ke cakravatI nuM sAmrAjya badhAM pudgalanA khela che. mane AtmAnA AkaSa Na thayAM che. caitanyanI mastI caDhI che. guNanA vazIkaraNa thayAM che. guNI mahAtmAnuM sAMnidhya lAdhyuM che. tIrthaMkaradevanA anekAMta siddhAMta rUpa kasoTI maLI che. have huM asA mAgamAM *sAu" nahi. sadbhA mAthI kayAre paNa pIdehaTha nA karu. mArI pAse duniyAnI kai vAta nA karaze. mAre duniyAnuM kazu joItu nathI. tethI ja mane tyAga kaDIna nathI lAgata.... 9 ajJAnapUrvaka--asamajapUrvaka tyAga svIkArAya. tA paristhiti, pAtro ane sAdhanA badalAya, paNa mAha te huM nahi, leAbha tyAM paNa Dakhala kare. tyAgIne paNa pi gRha sajJA huM phAvI jAya. harAvI jAya. paNa, samaja jAge te ratnAkara paccIzI" jevI AtmaniMdA pragaTa thAya. samajapU ka tyAga mAge sacaranArane koi saMsArI rokI nA zake. saMsAranI koI sattA theAbhAvI nA zake. saMsAranA koIpaNa rUpa tene leAbhAvI nA zake. are ! khudanA zarIranI suMvALAzane paNa vidAya levI paDe. ER. " tyAgane! avAja nAbhimAMthI tyAre pragaTa thAya ke jyAre hRdayamAM sa MtoSanu sAmrAjya pragaTayu. hAya..." jIvanamAM jIvanadhAraNa karavA sivAya koI jarUrata nA hAya. jyAre spRhAvRttithI bheAjananA tyAga karanAra,

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je sahana kare che te ja pasa'nAlITInuM sarjana kare che. [ 247 bhAvatA bhAjana maLatAM bhUkhaDI khArasanI jema bheAjana upara tRTI paDe ane akALe maraNanA atithi bane che. iMdriya saMyamanA sadgurjune samajayA vagara iMdriya puSTa karavA tyAga karate! mANasa svarUpavatI nArIne juve che ane vAnaravRtti AcarI de che. vAnara jema erane juve ane pholI phAlIne khAvA lAge tema jayAM mana gayuM tyAM bhAna bhUlAya', viveka naSTa bhraSTa thaI gaye.. putra tyAga mAge kadama bharatAM-pratyeka sAdhake peAtAnI Rtane prazna pUchavAnA che ane peAtAnI pAsethI ja javAba meLavavAno che. pApAya tane sAdhu mArge javA preraNA te! karatA nathI ne ? rAga tane tapanA mArge kadama bharA vanA nathI ne ? tu' apriya sayAgathI kaTALIne sacamanA mAge saMcaratA nathI ne ? duHkhanuM nimitta hoya ane tu dIkSA le emAM kaze vAMdhA nathI. paNa duHkha dvArA duHkhanA joDIyA bhAi sukhane paNa samajI leje ane nirNaya karI leje, jJAna dvArA sukha du:kha baMne samajIne have kahu chu"- mane sukha bharyAM sasAra pazu nA jAIe ane duHkha bharyA saMsAra paNa nA joIe. saMsAra ja nA joIe. teA saMsAranA sukha-duHkhanI lapana jauM zA mATe ? jenu peTa bharAyelu che, te svAdriSTa managamatA ke aNagamatA bheAjana sAme STi paNa chapanamAM

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248 ] krAdha-gusso eTale samatA dhanane lUMTanAra DAku, nAMkhe nahi, are ! bhejananI vAta paNa tene kaMTALe upajAve. bhAjananI kathA paNa, tene sAMbhaLavI nA game. asa, tema sAcA tyAgIne saMsAra nA AkaSI zake. saMsAranI kathA paNa tene vyathA lAge. ane tenI ja jALathI dUra rahevAmAM ja svanI salAmatI lAge. svanA AtmAnA maMgala mATe saMsArane tyAga kare, te kahe uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM pharamAvyu che-"hu leAe nipivAsarsa nathi ki civi duSkara'" saMsAranA tyAga mAre mana sahaja che AsAna che kAraNa jagatanI mane pRhA nathI. spRhA siddhinA sukhanI che eTale tyAgamAga kaThIna lAgatA nathI. mArA dhyeyanI-pUrNAhuti mATe hu' hasatAM hasatAM asatno tyAga karu chu satna svIkAra karu chu. heya cheDu chu. upAdeya svIkAra chuM. guru kRpAe mane jJeya maLyuM che. tethI bhALavAI lakSa thAI hA=jIdamAM tyAga apanAvatA nathI. paNa, Atmasiddhi prApta karavAnI bhAvanAthI mArA tyAgI jIvananA prAraMbha kare' chuM', tame tyAganI taLeTIe UbhA rahelA mArA sva jane ! mArA tyAganA zikhara sara karavAnA manerathA saphaLa thAya, tevA zubhAziSa Ape.. ( tame mane vidAya nahi Ape... paNa tu' tamane sadA vidAya Apu chuM. cAle!....tyAre jaldI padhArajo.... siddhonI duniyAmAM. huM tamArA satkAra-sanmAnanI taiyArI karI rAkhIza. vidyAya. . . vidyAya... saMsArane vizvAyu....mene vidAya. . .durbhAvane vidAya ...dugu Nune vidAya. . . AjathI mArI

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bhula kahenAra zUla jevA lAge te mithyAva [ 249 vijayayAtrAne prAraMbha.... A che dIkSAthInA aMtaranuM abola Atma nivedana." AvA aMtaranA zubha bhAvathI je prajita bane tene jIvanamAM dIkSA lIdhA bAda paNa kaI saMgharSa pedA thatuM nathI. bAkI mAna-sanmAnanI spRhAthI dIkSA le te dakSAmAM paNa kurukSetranI taiyArI karI de che. mArUM mAne-tamAruM mAna-mArI gaNatrI-tamArI gaNatrI, mAruM nAma, tamAruM nAma-mArA guru, tamArA gurU-mArA ziSya, tamArA ziSya-ziSyA, mArI padavI, tamArI padavI-A badhI kaSAyanI ja heLI che. | BE "tyAgI thaye chuM, kaSAyanI haLImAM zekavA nahikaSAyanI hoLI karavA. basa, sAdhakane eka aMtaranAda joIe-mAre kaMI na joIe. mAre kazuM nathI karavuM.... paNuM kartavyayasa pUrNa karyA vagara kameM haTe nahi, tethI huM mArA kartavyadharmane anusarIza... basa, sAdhaka ! A manavRttithI tyAga mAge Age. aDha. tuM, preraNA strota banI jaIza... prabhu ! huM sarva pRha tyAga karIza. paNa sAcuM kahuM chuM, mArI "eka spRhAne tyAga nahi karuM. spRhAnA tyAganI spRhA.". - zuM ApanA adanA sevakanI ATalI arajI nA svIkAro ?

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38 na pArae hAI hu saparAe pA nItizAstranu' eka subhASita che. adhama AtmAe vighnanA bhayathI satkAryanA prArama karatAM nathI. madhyama AtmAe satkArya nA prAraMbha kare che paNa vighna AvatAM adhavacce ja kA ne choDI de che. tyAre uttama AtmAe vAra vAra vighna AvavA chatAM prAra'bhela satkArya ne pUrNa karIne ja rahe che. pratyeka vrata niyama svIkAravA sulabha che. tenI kAyika kyiA bIjAnI zaramathI samAjanA kAraNe paNa jaLavAI jAya che. paNa vrata niyama ArAdhanA mAnasika rIte ArAdhavA khUba kaThIna che. mAnasika akhaMDatA jALavavA jakhara- jasta manAyeAga joIe, hArdika samajadArI joI e. ghAMcInA baLadane AMkhe pATA bAMdhelA hoya che paNa tenI gatinI prakriyA savArathI sAMja sudhI akhaMDa cAlyA kare che. tene lAge che have tA huM duniyAnA cheDe pahoMcyA hAiza. paNa jyAre tenI AMkhanA pATA kholavAmAM Ave che tyAre khakhara paDe che ke bhalA ! tuM ghAMcInA baLada ! tArI pradakSiNA pRthvIne na hatI ghANIne ja hatI. tuM dUra jaI nA zake tArA gaLe bAMdhele! doraDAnA eka cheDe ghANIe ja bAMdhela che, pRthvImAM pheravu hAya tA gaLe bAMdhela doraDAne teDa ! tane e badhana nathI lAgatuM ? gaLAnA hAra lAge

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adhyAtmajJAna e DhAla che. tattvajJAna e talavAra che. [ 251 tyAM sudhI e baMdhana tUTe nahi, ane jyAM sudhI tUTe nahi tyAM sudhI tuM ghANIthI mukta thAya nahi. aMdhana vartamAnakALanI viSama paristhiti kahe ke amArA jevA jIvAnI bhAraikamItA kaheA. kadAca amArA gurujana karatAM ame vihAranA kaSTa vadhAre sahyAM haze. paNa koI pUche vihArathI tame kaniza prApta karI ? javAkha jo aMtarathI ApavAnA che te mauna ja amAruM' rakSaNa karaze. nahitara agaDa -bagaDa vAtAnA koI tATA nathI ! ApaNane zuM Atmika lAbha thaye. te zu' zabdomAM kahevAya ? hA..... juene amArA bhASAkIya anubhava vadhI gayA. duniyAnA vividha leAkeAnI rItabhAtanuM bhAna thayuM. zuM prabhunI AjJA mujabanA sAdhunA vihAranuM Avu. tuccha...phaLa! ! ! vihAra thayeA ke ekalu` kAyA kaSTa ! kadAca pAMca paccIsa varSoMnA bhUtakALamAM na thaI heAya tevI tapazcaryA karI lIdhI. paNa koI pUche, tamArA taparupa maMdiranuM zikhara "pAraNu" kevuM thayuM ? uddhatAIthI bharapura javAba ApIM daIzuM --ma dira paththaranuM hAya ane zuM zikhara sAnAnu hAya ! tamane sArA prazno sarje che hAM ! tapanI zeAbhA te pAraNamAM tyAga bhAvanA kevI rahe tenA upara ja AdhArita che.

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2para ] sArane grahaNa karI asArane pheMkI de te sAdhu Hi pAraNAmAM Asakita AvI te tapanuM maMdira suMdara zikharathI suzobhita na bane ! ' Ama vartamAnakALamAM ArAdhanA, jJAna, sAdhanA ame khUba meLavyAM che paNa sAcuM kahuM te ame mATInI ImA rato caNe che. dharmAnanA vAvaMToLa pheMkAya che ne amArA mATInA ghara jamInadosta thaI jAya che. chevaTe e - vinAza pAse ubhA rahI amAre amArA marasIyA gAvA paDe che "na pArae heI ha saMparAe. tapa, niyama, vratanuM kaSTa khUba sahyuM che. nAnI uMmaramAM aneka dIrgha tapazcaryA saMbhaLAya che. bAlya uMmaramAM tyAganA - svIkAra sahaja thAya che. jIMdagInI pahelI vIzImAM ja buddhinA aneka camatkAra dekhAya che. jJAnaprAptinA aneka bhavya prayatna dekhAya che. Aje te evA jJAnI maLavAnA so gAthA ramatAM ramatAM pUrI karanArA svAdhyAya ja keTale kare che? teone pUchIe rajane cha hajArane svAdhyAya te sAca. be hajAranA svAdhyAya vagara mukhamAM pANI nA nAMkhu boja keTalA kalAka abhyAsa kare che?" "ochAmAM ochA bAra kalAka." keTalI bhASA jANe che?" khAsa nahi. sAta bhASAmAM vAte karI zakuM chuM, pAMca bhASA vAMcI zakuM chuM. cAra bhASAmAM - vAMcanalekhana-ane sarjana karI zakuM chuM. sarasvatIne ATalI badhI kema khuza karI zakyA? "juone, tyAga ane sAdAI vaDe je hoya te cAle, jevuM hoya te cAle, mArI - jarUriyAta ja khUba ochI che tame jANe che ne ?

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duHkhanuM mULa che kAmanA, icchA ane abhilASA [ 253 sAdhaka ! . tamArA jJAnanI anumedanA....paNa eka mArA praznane javAba ApavAnI tasdI leA. A jJAna tamane sahanazIlatA ApavAmAM madada kare che? mahAtmA ! tame zuM khelyA ? sahanazIlatA" zu' hu bhaNya e gunhA thaye. ? jJAna tA meM' jJAnI kahevarAvavA meLaLyu che. tamArA jevAne javAba ApavA meLaLyuM che. jJAna mane sahanazIlatAmAM madada kare. . . sAcuM kahuM bhAIsAba ! "huM tA mane eka sabhaLAve ane kahI dauM chuM jo huM bhaNelA gaNele! chu. mauna rahu chuM tyAM sudhI majA che. mAruM mAthuM pustakamAM che tyAM sudhI tamane kai takalIpha nahi karuM, paNa jo tamArI sAthe jIbhAjoDI ane lakhApaTTImAM utarIza tA mane nahi tamane bhAre paDI jaze, sAcuM kahu chuM sahana zIlatA mArAmAM nathI. khasa, badhu karI zakuM chuM paNa sahana zIlatA AvatI nathI. mane mApha karajo." paramAtmAnA zAztrA ApaNA jevA vakra ane jaDa AtmAnA uddhAra mATe aneka rIte prayatna kare che. mA je vAsalyathI samajAve tenA karatAM ana'taguNA vAsalyathI tAraka tItha kara paramAtmA ApaNA upara bhAvadayA karIne pharamAve che. khUba lAMbAkALathI dIkSita banyA. tapa niyamonA pAlana karyAM paNa sAce mana-vacana-kAyAnI zuddhithI karaNa -

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254] tyAga karyA chatAM paNa zAtAnI jhaMkhanA che te saMsArI karAvaNuM anudanA dvArA navaTi zuddhi sahita saMyama pAlananI tane kALajI rahI nahi. eTale hakIkatamAM tArA vrata-niyama asthira banyA che. tuM bhraSTa thayuM che, tArI kAyAne avazya kalezane lAbha maLe che. veza badalyA paNa sAce tuM kaSAyanA saMsArathI mukta thaI zake nathI. kaSAyane pAra pAmI zakyA nathI. saMsAra cheDe te have saMsAranI - jaDa samA rAgadveSa upara vijaya meLava. pAMdaDA ane zAkhA -tUTavAthI jhADa tUTaze nahi. jhADa teDavAmAM mULane nAza - ja sahAyaka thaze. bahAranA putra, mitra, patnI, dhana, ghara e saMsAravRkSanI zAkhA-prazAkhA che. mULa te rAgadveSa che. PUR "bAhA padArthane tyAga aMtaranA rAgadveSanA vijayamAM madadagAra che, paNa AMtara vijyanuM lakSya hoya te ja ! uttarAdhyayana sUtranI hitazikSA hatAza banAvavA nathI, nirAza banAvavA nathI paNa tane jAgRta banAvavA che. tuM - adhavacce athaDAI na jAya te mATe che. paramAtmA sAdhakane kahe che te saMsArane tyAga karyo che. paNa saMsArathI tuM pAra pAmyo nathI. tuM tyAganA samarAMgaNamAM AvyuM che, maMjhIla dUra che. vijaya dUra che. basa, dareka sAdhaka AtmAne paramAtmAnI hitazikSA che ke, "dIkSA lIdhA bAda laDAI karajo paNa bIjA koInI sAthe nahi. pitAnA AtmAnI sAthe, pitAnA rAga-dveSa sAthe." teM saMsAranA bAhya saMyoga cheDayA eTale ja tArI Atmika abhiruci samajAI. tuM saMsAranA tyAgane jhaMkhe che

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svAsvaprazaMsAnA vAvamAMthI ja paraniMdApragaTa thArtha che 255 mekSaprAptine cAhe che. tAre A tyAga nirarthaka nathI. teNe paNa ghaNuM ghaNuM kArya karyuM che. vinayIne kaI hitazikSA Apaze paNa avinayIne koI mahAtmA hitazikSA ApavA nahi jAya. tuM tyAganI parIkSAmAM beTho chuM. tuM nApAsa thAya te tyAgI kulanI bhA nA vadhe..tArI zebhA nA vadhe eTale ja vAraMvAra tane cetavaNInI lAlabattI dharIe chIe. tyAganA rAjamArga para AvyuM. paNa vacce rAgadveSanI bhayaMkara khINa oLaMgavAnI che. A rAgadveSanI khINa nA eLage tyAM sudhI tAre vijaya dUra che, pratyeka paristhitimAM tArA manane pUchaje, bhaIlA ! tAre vijaya ke parAjya ? basa, Aja hitabhAvanA tane samajaNa ApavA pAchaLa che. saMsArane tyAga karanAra bhaDa vIra tuM rAgadveSane tyAga karI zUravIra thA! ApanA tAraka caraNamAM natamaratake eka ja vinaMti che. mArA aMtaranA agiNane haTAvavAnI zakti maLe, mArA manamAM rahela saMsAranA tyAganI zakita Ape... ApanA AzIrvAda rahe... nityAraga pAraga haha."

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39. "pucchimae tui jhAvidhA u jo ka 5 keTalIkavAra koinI sAthe vAta karavA jaie chIe tyAre thAya che A vyakti paNa vAta karanAranI rAha joine ja beThelI, tame maLI gayA tA sAru* thayu.. nahitara khicArA sajjanane! divasa mauna dvArA kema vyatIta thAta ? te... keTalIvAra kAMInI sAthe vAta karatA anubhava thAya che ke vAta teone priya nathI, paNa sajjanasvabhAvanA kAraNe ApaNane pUchavAne! javAba ApI ApaNA upara anugraha karyo che. tyAre keTalIkavAra koI evI vyaktinA paricayamAM AvIe chIe ke je ApaNA praznanA javAba Ape che, ApaNI zaMkAnuM sa'pUrNa samAdhAna kare che paNa, tenA jJAnanA teje, tenA cAritranA teje tenI Atma pratibhAthI aMjAI ApaNA mukhamAMthI nIkaLI jAya che, "me Apane Dakhala karI khalela pahoMcADI, ApanA mahAna kArya mAM aMtarAya karyAM. mane mApha karajo....' uttarAdhyayana sUtranA vIsamAM adhyayanamAM AvI ja eka hakIkata che. magadhanA mahAna samrATa zreNIke eka tyAgIne AvegamAM AvIne eka prazna pUchI lIdheA. paNa tyAgIe tene ja zAMtithI, dhIratAthI ane AMtarika vairAgyathI tathA zubhabhAvathI javAba ApyA. tenAthI samrATa zaramAi gayA. magadhanA samrATane lAgyuM....mArI A bhaya

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ziSya aTale jIva'ta bhaktiyAga. [ 257 kara bhUla che. A mahAtmA che. tethI mArA praznanA javAba Ape che. mArI kaI gyatA-kai pAtratA ke huM temane prazna pUchI zakuM? A mahAtmAnI jIMdagI ja amUlya che. temanI jIMdagInA kSaNe kSaNanA mUlya che. A mahAtmAnI pratyeka kSaNa dhyAna mATe che. mArA praznanA javAkha mane kayAMyathI ca maLata-mArA praznanA javAba mATe meM mahAtmAnA droha karyo che !!! tenA dhyAnamAM meM vighna karyu. mahAtmA kayAre ya nahi kahe paNa, temanI pratibhAe mane sugdha karyA che. temanA jJAnanA prakAzathI huM. a MjAI gayA ....have khUba prazcAttApa thAya che. mahAtmA ! meM ApanA dhyAnamAM vighna karyu" che. mane mApha karo, kSamA karo A akSamya aparAdha ne !!!" muni anAthI ane samrATa zreNikane vArtAlApa prasiddha che. mahAtmA anAthInA AMtarika vaizagye ja samrATa zreNikane AtmAbhimukha banAvyA che. paNa vArtAlApa khAda zreNikanA hRdayamAM zuM maneAvedanA thaI hatI tenA kayAre ya ApaNe vicAra karyAM nathI.... * sAdhaka ! mahAtmA anAthI sAdhaka, mahAtmA anAthI sAthe karavA AvyA, tArI sAme tArA svajano ane snehI Avaze. vArtAlApa thaze. vicAra vinimaya thaze. paNa, mAre teA tane eka sAmAnya, sAva 17 paNa sAdhaka ane tu ya samrATa zreNika vArtAlApa yuganA samrATa Avaze.

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258] AdhyAtmika duniyAnA ekaDA gurUkRpAthI prAraMbha thAya sAmAnya prazna pUchave che, badhA tArI sAthe vAta karaze ke tu' badhAnI sAthe vAta karIza ?" mahAtmA ! AmAM zuM pUchavA jevu che ? arasaparasa te mArI sAthe vAta karaze. huM tenI sAthe vAta karIza. vAta karavAmAM kaMI pApa e che ? vAta karyAM vagara vicAronI Apa le kevI rIte thAya ? Apa ja kaheAne ? sAdhaka ! mAre je jANavuM hatuM te jANI lIdhuM. tArI manebhUmikA tArA javAbamAM pratibiM'khita thaI jAya che. badhA tArI sAthe vAta kare te te mane samajAya evI vAta che. paNa, maiM tuM mahAtmA che--tu tyAgI che--tu jJAnI che tu jJAnI gurunA ziSya che. badhA tArI sAthe vAta kare. emAM tArA AtmajJAnanuM gaurava che. paNa, tu badhAMnI sAthe vAta kare, te mane behUdu lAge che. saMsArI sAthe tuM zA mATe vAta kare ? tAre emanAthI zu meLavavAnuM ? sasArInA praznanA javAba ApavA e tArI sAdhutAne AbhArI che. namratAyukata tArA jIvana vyavahAranu' pratIka che. paNa, tu` kevalajJAnanA vidyArthI !! tArA abhyAsa adhUrA hAya, tArI sAdhanA sa'pUrNa nA thaI hoya, kanA devA cUkavAyA nA hAya, sevA-zuzraSAnA tArA dharmAM pUrA thayA nA hAya ane adhavacce tuM sasArI sAthe vAta kare? saMsArI sAthe vAta kare teA tArI sAjanA sudhare ke

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jJAnInI kRpA prApta karavAnuM zastra che paryuMpAsanA [ 259, agaDe? sAMsArI sAthe vAta kare teA jJAna Ave ke ajJAna Ave ? bhalA....sAdhaka !! tuM kayAM sudhI bheLe-mukhya rahIza. tArI eka eka ghaDI keTalI kiMmatI che. pur'tArI sAthe vAta karatAM mAnavAne te sa'kAca joie. paNa, devAne ya Dara lAgavA joIe." mekSAthI ! mahAtmAnA samayano durupayoga karIe, teA ame ca DumI jaI e. tu kayAre ya koIne nA kahe mane samaya nathI. mArI sAthe vAta karavA na AvatAM." paNa...tArA aMtara AtmAnu pratibiMbu ja rAkhtanA sahAre pragati thAya. putra dUdhathI teA devAdhidevanA caraNa prakSAlana thAya, mAnavanA nahi.'' Apa mahAtmAne! samaya teA jJAnArjana mATe hAya, mahAtmAenI sevA suzraSA mATe hAya. mArA jevA saMsArI sAthe ApanI vAta nA hAya. hAthI te rAjakuLamAM zebhe, DeMsa mAnasarovaramAM zeLe. ApanI vAta ApanA gurudeva sAthe hAya, mArI sAthe ApanI vAta cAhuM te ApanA jJAnanuM bhayaMkara meM apamAna karyu" kahevAya. pura patna, samaya dharma dhyAna dvArA zukaladhyAna siddha karavA che. mahamA ! Apane prazna pUchI me Apane dhyAnamAM vighna karyuM evuM sAdhaka ! tane koI kahenAra che ?

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260] sAdhunuM vacana eTale jinAjJAthI pavitra vacana heAH sAdhaka! mane tArI apUrNa ArAdhanAthI du:kha thatuM' 'nathI.. tArI chadmasthatAthI udvignatA nathI AvatI. paNa, jyAre tArAmAM sAdhanAnI mastI nA jo" tyAre mAruM dila dravI jAya che. kayAreka tArI ciMtA mane bharakhI jAya che. ekalA aMdhArA khUNAnA oraDAmAM besIne ceAdhAra AMsue raDuM chuM. mArI AMkheAmAMthI zrAvaNa-bhAdaravA vahe che. tane mArA A aMtaranA AMsu kAM dekhAya ? mArI vedanA tane zAnI vyagra manAve ? khasa, tuM teA eTaluM ja juve che ke mArA guru khele che ne ? hase che ne? paNa, sAcuM kahuM? mArI A vAta nathI. mArI A AjJA nathI. paNa, sAce tArA AtmAne bhavarAga nA lAgu paDI jAya tenI bhAva cikitsA che. mArI manokAmanA che,. mArA karatAM paNa tane savAyA jovAnI.... pu jaina itihAsa tuM jANatA nathI. tyAgI-nisvAthI gurunA vAtsalyane tu' samayai nathI. jagadguru hIrasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. nI bhAvanA hatI te ja sena sUrIzvarajI ma. sA. savAI hIra banyAM ane bhavya itihAsa AlekhAya." dhR pratyeka ziSyanA sarjana pAchaLa gurunI mahAna sAdha-nAnuM gupta rahasya hAya che. sAdhaka ! pharI pharI tane kahuM" chuM. tArA gurune saphaLa banAvavA tArAmAM jJAna-dhyAnanI

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[ 261 dAdhanI jvAlAmAM na zekAya te AtmAthI mastI jagAva. tArA vizuddhinA teje vizvane pavitra karI ke tArI sAthe vAta karavA AvelA zaramAI jAya." je, tu Ala sAdhaka hoIza tA tArI sAthe vAta karavA AvelA, tArI abhyAsanI mastI joI tArA gurune vinati karaze. gurudeva ! A khAla sAdhuone abhyAsa karAvA. pustakanA-paDitane sevAnA lAbha mane Ape. zAsana prabhAvaka mahAtmA thaze. mArA parivAra teonA thama padezathI dhanya manaze.... jo, tu yuvAna sAdhaka hAIza ane tArAmAM indriyadamananI utkaMThA ane AjJA pAlananI taparatA gRhastha joze teA turata te bhAvika gurudevane kaheze-mahAtmA ! yuvAna putro te amAre tyAM paNa che, para kayAM A pavitratAnA avatAra--AjJA pAlanamAM utsuka ApanA ziSye!... sAce Apa dhanya ! ApanA ziSya dhanya! ! vasudhA paNa Ava! mahAtmAnA teje dhanya banaze." jo, tu' vRddha sAdhaka hAIza....dAMDAnA Teke Take paNa eka eka raMga bharatA vihAra karatA hAiza, tA tArA darzanAthI vaga kaheze.mahAtmA tamArI jIvana kitAkhanu chellu pRSTha ATaluM. madhuru che te Apanu` jIvana keTagru pavitra haze." koI kahe che, mahAna tapasvI pUjya siddhi surIzvarajI ma. sA. (bApajI ma.) 92 varSanI uMmare amadAvAdathI

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222 ] paramAtmAnA sAdhu aTale jagatane digdarzaka giranAranI yAtrA vihAra karIne karelI, tapathI kAyA kRza thayela. vRddhatvathI dehayaSTi sUkI gayela paNa....jenA mukha para tapanA anerAM teja patharAyela evA bApajI ma. ne UMcA gaDha giranAra para pA... pA...pagalIe cAlatAM yA haze, te dakAnA dilamAM zuM bhAva pedA thaye haze ? ? ?...zabda rIsAI gayA haze ? AMsu vATe haiyAnA bhAvuM zuM tyAM mUta nahi anyAM hoya ? ?? sAdhaka ! mArI teA tane pahelI ane chellI eka vAta che. tArI sAthe vAta karavA AvanAra tArAthI zaramAve joIe. tane prazna pUchanAra tArA jJAnanAM divya tejathI aMjAvA bleka e. mahAtmAnI sAdhanAmAM mArAthI a MtarAya thavA na joie-evu' te samaje. ane evI bhAvanAthI pAche jAya tyAre mArA haiyAmAM harSInA mahAsAgara hileLA leze.... gurudeva ! bALaka hatA eTale ApanA haiyAnA bhAvane sama jyuM nahi...pahelAM tA mAphI mAMguM. ApanA maneAthanI avagaNanA karI. te pachI kahu chu. AziSa Ape.....dhyAnamArgImAM nivina pragati karu. ApanA AziSa mane avazya saphaLa banAvaze."

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4. "sIhA va saheNu na saMtasejajA, vaya jogA succA na asabhbhamAhu" si'huM vanarAja zA mATe ? achAnA kAraNe, nA....nA... khaLa te! hAthI pAse ya hoya. vAgha pAse paNa haiAya. chatAM te vanakesarI nahi ane sa`hu kema vanarAja ? vanarAja paNuM, te banI zake je sAttvika hAya, parAkamazIla hoya, Darapeka nA hoya. siMha sAttvika, parAkramI tathA sAhasika prANI che. jajaMgalamAM jIvavAnuM-jaMgalI pazu vacce jIvavAnuM jagalI pazu eTale jene elatAM na AvaDe, paNa kharADatAM varDa, ghAMTA pADatAM AvaDe, rADa pADatAM AvaDe, cIsA nAkhatAM AvaDe, trADa pADatAM AvaDe. kharADA-ghAMTA-roDacIse. ane trADa vacce gabharAya nahi, Dare nahi, trAsa pAme nahi te siha....te vanarAja....siMha saunA avAjo sAMbhaLe paNa kacAreya tenuM anukaraNa nA kare. siMha te siMhanAda kare. siMhanAda koInuM anukaraNa nahi, koInu anusaraNa nahi, paNa svanA nAda. svanI nAbhimAMthI pragadelA dizAone gajavate svara.... sAdhaka ! tuM sAdhu thayeA che. jJAnanA mahAvanamAM te' praveza karyAM che. cAre bAju ajJAnIe che. ajJAnIo jema manamAM Ave tema khelaze. A badhAnA zabdo tArA kAnamAM

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264 ] sva svAthane kacaDI nAMkhe te RjudazI. Avaze. paNa tAre kayAreya teonu anukaraNa karavAnu` nathI. tAre tA zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtranI hitazikSAnuM punaH punaH smaraNa karavAnuM che-"sIhe. vasaddeNu na sa MtasejA-vaya joga succA na asambhamAhu." duniyAnA badhA prANI tArA jevA jJAnI nathI. vicAraka nathI. tArA jevA samajadAra nathI. temanI pAse tArA jevA vrata ane niyama nathI. teonu jIvana tuccha. tenuM jJAna alpa. tAru jIvana mahAna. tArA vrata mahAna; tuM badhA jevu ele ? nA.... nA kadAca samudra maryAdA mUke merU ka MpAyamAna thAya ? te paNa tAraka tIrthaMkara paramAtmAnA zramaNa asatya nA khele. aceAgya nA khAle. duniyAnA ajJAnIe sAdhu sAthe, asadvyavahAra kare, tucchatA kare, upekSA kare, tiraskAra kare, gALa Ape teA paNa paramAtmAno nigraMtha sAdhu asabhya AlApa, salApa nA kare. siMhanI jema sAttvika rahe, nirbhIya rahe. ajJAnI rUpa pazunA avAjathI trAsa nA pAme. E "sAdhu trAsa na pAme eTale kayAre paNa sAdhu caiAgya bhASAthI hIna bhASA na mele. hIna bhASA bole te hIna thAya. nIca thAya." bhASAnuM mahattva nA samaje te bhASAnA durupayoga kare, je bhASAnu' mahattva samaje te bhASAnA sattupayAga kare. rabArI pAse ratna Ave te kaoNMgaDAne uDADa

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saMyamanI sAdhanA dvArA siddhinA darzana ne Rjudana [265 vAmAM ja tene! upayoga kare. kAraNa ratnanI mahattA tene khabara nathI. sAdhake ! tu zramaNa....zrama karanAra....zramanA mahattvane sama janAra. rasanendriya keTalAMne maLe ? rasanendriya khAda vacana ceAganI prApti keTalAMne thAya ? manAyAgapUrvaka vacanayeAganI prApti keTalAMne thAya ? spaSTa tuM samajI zake tevI bhASA keTalAMnI hAya ? bhASAnA bheDha jANanAra keTalAM ? bhASAnu mahattva samajyA pachI priya khelanAra keTalAM? priya bhASAmAMthI hitakArI bhASA khelanAra keTalAM ? A badhA vicAra ajJAnIoe nahi, tAre jJAnIe karavAno che. jIvA anaMta paNa, vacanaye.gavALA jIvA asaMkhya, manAyeAga yukta vacana cAgavALA jIve. tenAthI alpa. jIvAmAM keTalAM hitakArI AlanArA ? keTalAM ahitakArI bhASA bolanAra ? A bheda tAre ja karave rahyo. tu jJAnI che eTale puSpa pApane mAne che. tArI sAthe kAi paNa* khole. asabhya vyavahAra kare, tyAre ekavAra te tuM muktapaNe hasIne kaheje dhanyAtmA ! tItha kara paramAtmA same vacana ceAga tamane maLyA che. paNa, tItha kara samAna vacanAtizaya nahi maLe tyAM sudhI ApaNI bhASA tAraka ane uddhAraka nA khanI zake...." * ApaNe) tathA vizvanA uddhAra bhAvanAthI thai zake pazu uddhAra mATe bhASA keTalI sahAyaka che te ApaNe sau

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26 ] sukhane AsvAda eTale durgatine AmaMtraNa e samajavu. ane vicAravu joI e. jyAre A vAta dilathI samajAya tyAre vacananA kevA upayAga karavA te ApaNane jarUra khyAlamAM Avaze. je vyakti vacananA mUlya samajatI nathI. tevA ajJAnIthI gherAI jaI ApaNe tIrthaMkaraputra samA zremaNe kayAreya asabhya nA kholIe. maiM sAdhune jagatamAM I jIvane sAmeA javAba ApavAnA nathI. tene saMbhaLAvavAnu` nathI. tene badale levAne nathI. tene meNAToNAM saMbhaLAvavAnA nathI. AgaLa pAchaLanuM kai yAda rAkhavAnuM nathI. A paNa, pelA ajJAnI jIvanA upakAra mATe niha. paNa, khudanA AtmAnA upakAra mATe je hRdayamAM jinavANInuM smaraNa rAkhavAnu che, je hRdayamAM devAdhidevane birAjamAMna karavAnA che, je hRdayamAM upakArIonI smRti rAkhavAnI che te hRdayama MdiranA garbhagRhamAM je ajJAnI AnA vacana-vAta-vyavahAra-pratiSThita thaI jAya teA sAdhune AtmA abhaDAI jAya. sAdhu mahAtmAne badhuM cAle. paNa AtmAnI apavitratA thaI jAya tevu traNa kALamAMya na cAle. Ea "jagatanI koIpaNa vyaktine sAdhu ayeAgya javAma Ape te tenuM jJAna lAje, tenA guru lAje. tenA sAvAcAra lAje." sAdhu kahe--"vizvanA prANIe ajJAnI che. vrata vagaranA che. AcAranI mahattA samajanAra nathI,-eTale sukhamAM

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jenA mAha sutelA hAya ne AtmA jAgRta hoya te apramata[ 267 je zabda Age. te kholI nAMkhe...paNa huM paramAtmA mahAvIra devanA sAdhu. koie mane kaI kahyuM -- paNa, pahelAM huM mArI jAtanI sAthe vAta karI lau vicAra karI lauM huM kANu ? kSamAzramaNa.... huM koNa ? sarvathA mRSAvAda viramaNa mahAvratadhArI ! huM koNa ? bhASA simita pUrvaka vAta karanAra ! huM koNa ? vacana gupti pAlanAra ! huM koNa ? dazavaikAlika sUtranA sAtamA adhyayanane samajanAra ! huM koNa ? pravacana labdhi zAnAthI pedA thAya te jANanAra ! huM kANu ? tItha kara nAmaka thI nirjarA kevI rIte thAya te samajanAra ! ATalI mArA AtmA sAthe vAta karI javAba ApatAM bhAvinA vicAra karuM chuM mArI pharaja zuM ? mArA javAkhathI koinuM... mADhuM baMdha karavAnuM? mArA javAkhathI kAIna vera vadhAravAnuM ? nA... * 9 "mAruM cAle tA mArA javAmathI kAInA saMtapta hRdayamAM zAMti ane amIrasanu siMcana karavAnuM " kheDUta mATImAM khIja vAve ne khetI dhAnyathI lacake....hujArA bhUkhyA jIvAne anAja vaDe zAMti Ape.

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268] guNasAmrAjyamAM praveza eTale zAsanamAM praveza zuM mAruM vacana kheDUtathI halakuM thAya. nAnA mArA haiyAmAM hitabhAvanA che. vizva kalyANanI vicAraNA che. mArI pratijJA prANane jALavI rAkhIza. "keInI paNa agya vAta sAMbhaLI tene sAme asabhya rite duHkha thAya tema, vera vadhe tema, sAma mANasa pApa bAMdhe tema, javAba nahi ApuM. mArA javAbathI sAme mANasa gussAmAM AvesAmuM bele te mAre punaH vicAravuM joIe. ThaMDuM pANI pIo, mIThuM pANI pIe te tarasa chIpe...mAnava zAMti anubhave. khAruM pANI pIe te heTha sukAtAM ja rahe-tarasa maTe nahi, ane jhADA thaMDala) thaI jAya. BR "zuM mArI vANI khArA pANI jevI? sAmI vyaktine sAmuM bolavuM paDayuM? gusso kare paDe? gunha tene nahi. mAreje, mArI vArNa mIThA pANI jevI hataThaMDA pANI jevI heta te, jarUra huM je vyaktine kahuM tene kartavyamArgane bedha thAya te vyakti samatA-zAMti ane sAdhanAmAM lIna bane"... jagatane samajAvavAmAM saune javAba ApavAmAM mArA sAdhutvanA hIna mUlya zA mATe karuM? mane te mArA devAdhideva paramAtmA mahAvIradeve samajAvyuM che. juo...mArA ziSya gautamasvAmI eka AtmAne uddhAra kema karI zakyA? kAraNe

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gurukRpAthI mAtrasRti ja nahI paNa savAdhyAya zakti vadhe che. [ 269 mAre tripRSTha vAsudevane bhava hate. gaNadhara gautama mArA sArathI hatA. meM eka siMhane mAryo. siMha maratAM maratAM eTalA lathaDIyA khAI rahyo hate. vedanA anubhavI rahyo hate. tyAre mArA sArathIe siMhane AzvAsana ApyuM vanakesarI zAne lebha anubhave che? tAruM mRtyu narakesarInA hAthe thayuM che. tArA mRtyunI paNa zebhA che. A zabdoe sAMtvana ApyuM. mArA sArathI pratye siMhanA haiyAmAM premanI lAgaNI baMdhANI ane mArA pratye dveSanI. "tripRSTha te huM mahAvIra"_"sArathI te gautama. "siMha te kheDUta" gautamathI kheDUta pratibaMdha pAmI dIkSA le che. mane joIne dIkSA cheDe che. mahAtmAe? mIThAM vacananI A zakti te kalyANakAraka-mahAvratadhAraka sAdhunA vacananI kaI tAkAta hoI zake? - sAdhu koInuM kharAba vacana sAMbhaLI kharAba bole te kahevuM paDe sUrya pUrvamAM nahi pazcimamAM ugye-samudrae maryAdA mUkI mahAtmA !! tame Ama zuM kare che? A amastI nAnI vAta. kAnamAM kharAba zabda gaye ane mukhamAMthI. kharAba zabda nIkaLI gayA. AmAM vaLI kaI moTI bhUla A te mAnavIya nabaLAI che. mAnava che te bhUla thAya jIbhamAM hADakuM nathI eTale jarA ADI avaLI vaLI gaI vadhu kahe te eTaluM kahe AgaLa pAchaLa zabda belAI

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2270 1 AcAra eTale niravagha pravRtinuM pAlana cA paNa, mATI bhUla nA kahevAya hoM ! mane te have eTale Dara lAge che, jo nAnI vAta mATe tame Ama kIdhAM karazeA te moTI vAta, meATI bhUla mATe zuM karaze! ? tamArI sAthe mArI jIMdagI....mane mauna rahevA do.... sAdhaka ! tArI vAta mane svIkAya che. kabUla che. nAnI vAtane mATI nA karavI joie. A tArI vAta sAcI che. khasa, tArI vAta nAnI, kazA durbhAva vagaranI. " tArI vAta a Mge je je tuM dalIla kare che te khIjAnI vAta mATe, bIjAnA vacana mATe dalIla kare teA lAbha tane jarUra thaze. jo khIjAnI vAta mATe tu ema mAnIza ke elI gayA temAM thayuM zu' ? mAnavIya nakhaLAi che. teA sAce tArI sAdhanAnI vADI lIlIchama raheze." ajJAnInI vAta pUrvApara saMbaMdha vagaranI pAgala jevI hAya. pAgalanI vAtane! javAkha na apAya, paNa DAhyA mANase tenI pAse je karAvavuM heAya te ja vAta ekavAra nahi ekavIsa vAra kahevI joI e, sAdhaka ! zAMta thaIne vicAra....tuM tItha kara paramAtmAnA pratinidhi, tuM siddha bhagavaMtanA sa MdezavAhaka, tuM mahAvidehanA munivaranA dbhuta.... tu kayAre paNa vizvanA lokonI kharAma vAta sAMbhaLI kharAma vacanA nA uccAre....kharAba nA vicAre. siDanI

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pramAda e virAdhanAnuM bIja che. [ ra71 jema nirbhaya thA. sAtvika bana.....A ja mArI aMtaranI cAhanA che. prabhu ! ApanI kRpAe kAyA jarA sIdhI thavA lAgI che. mArA upara ApanI vANuM AkarSaNa jamAve che. huM Apane pratinidhi banI vizvakalyANakAraka vANI vahAvuM e AzI vada Ape. jethI mAro vacanaga zubha ane zuddha bane. svanI-sarvanI-sAdhanAne samarthaka bane....eja prArthanA...

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41. sanmANa nANe vagae mahesI w tala pIlIe te tela nIkaLe, zeraDIne pIle te madhura rasa bahAra Ave, paNa. retIne pIlIe te traNe kALamAM tela na nIkaLe. lAkaDAne game teTalA pIle paNa temAMthI madhurAza-mIThAza nA Ave. hitazikSA kene apAya ? jJAna kene apAya ? samaja kene apAya? DAhyA samajadAra buddhimAnane...mUkha, asamajadAra bevakuphane samaja ApIele samaja ApanAranuM paNu apamaMgala. zrI uttaradhyayana sUtramAM pharamAve che "sanmANa nANe vagae mahesI sajJAna vaDe-samyajJAnane prApta kare. A pada dareka hitaciMtake vicAravA jevuM che. ApaNe hita bhAvanAthI kahIe, sAmAnA kalyANa mATe kahIe eTale svIkArI le evuM nA bane. khudanI paNa cagyatA joIe. paththaramAM pupa nA pAMgare... pupa te kALI mATI heya tyAM ja pedA thAya. BF tema hitazikSAthI lAbha tyAM ja thAya jyAM hitazikSAne cAhaka hAya, hita samajavA jevI saddabuddhi hoya, hitavI pratye kRtajJabhAva heya. je vyakitane kaMI paNa kahe, tyAM thAya kacakaca kare mane ja kahyA kare che, mArA ja deSa joyA kare che, mane

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bhulanuM darzana karAvavuM te karUNA bhAva che [ ra73 halako pADe che, mAruM kharAba kare che, AvI bhAvanA hoya tyAM kaMIpaNa samaja ApavI, hitazikSA ApavI, samajavuM te agnimAM ghI homavA jevuM che. agnimAM ghI nAMkhIe eTale agni-zAMta na thAya paNa bhaDake baLe. tema pitta jyAM sudhI sAdhaka AtmAnI hita bhAvanA jAgRta nA thaI hoya tyAM sudhI hitazikSA ApIe te egya AtmAna kaSAyanI heLI vadhu prajavalita bane. dveSabhAva vadhu tIvra bane. jyAre koI paNa AtmA hitazikSA mAMgavA Ave ane hitazikSA ApIe te lAbha thAya. tRSAtura pANIne sadupaga kare "hitacAhaka hitazikSAthI tare. samajadArane zikhAmaNa lAbhadAyaka thAya. jJAnIne jJAna tAraka bane. - zayyabhavabhaTTane sAdhumahArAjanA be zabdoe ja kema asara karI dIdhI? zayyabhava ! yajJa ajJAnakiyA... anANuM khalu kaTTa" zayyabhavabhaTTamAMthI AcArya zaryAbhava kema banI zakyA? zuM zikhAmaNathI sudharelA? nA.... zaabhava samajadAra hatA. eTale zikhAmaNa upara vicAra karyo. saddabuddhi hatI te samyajJAna pAmyA. "sanANa nANe vagae mahesI" saddabuddhi vagara samyajJAna maLe ja nahi ane phaLe ya nahi. paramAtmA mahAvIradevanuM vacana "gautama! veda padane punaH vicAra kara." A zabdo gautamasvAmIne kema asara karI gayA. teonA manamAM zaMkA hatI teoe nirNaya 18

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274 ] bhula pratye upahAsa karavA krUratA che. karela jo mArI zaMkA nivAraNa kare teA huM gurunI vAta svIkAru....guru gautamanA hRdayamAM zakA nivAraNa karavAnI abhilASA jAgI na heAta tA paramAtmAnA vacana kAmiyAba nIvaData ? saphaLa thAta ? ApaNane saune khyAlamAM ja che, traNaseAge saTha pAkhaDI matavAdI rAja bhagavAnanI dezanA sAMbhaLe paNa samavasaraNanI bahAra jaine zuM kahe ? paramAtmA mahAvIra gappAM mAre che. Ama zA mATe kahe? samajadArI nathI pUrvAgraha che. paramAtmA tAraka nathI lAgyA. jAdugara lAgyA che. paramAtmAnI vANI paNa jenA haiyAmAM samyajJAna nathI tene samyagajJAnamAM sahAyaka banatI nathI. vartamAnamAM mArA jevAM kaika jIve che jene samaja AvavAnI Adata paDI heAya che paNa sAce e eka gAMDapaNa che, duniyAmAM kUtarAne prema karanAra keTalAMye pazupremI maLI Ave paNa haDakAyA kUtarAne prema karanArA koi nA maLe, tema AjanuM vizva zikhAmaNa ApanArane kadAca cAhatuM haze. paNa pratipaLa zikhAmaNa ApanArathI tA dUra bhAge ja che. jayAM zikhAmaNa ApavAthI lAbhanA badale nukazAna thAya tyAM paNa jo ApaNe mauna nA rahI zakIe te muni karyAMthI ? ApaNe zikhAmaNa ApI eTale sau sudharI gayA. Avu mAnavAnI paNa mUkhatA kayAreya nA karavI.. te AtmAnI

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bahathata AtmA eTale jIvaMta zAsabhaMDAra [ ra7pa gyatA hatI eTale te hitavacane tene sahAyaka banyA. urvAhiNanI abhilASA hatI eTale sopAnazreNie madada karI. paNa jeNe jamIna uparathI haTavuM nathI tene sIDI te zuM liphaTa paNa UMce laI jaI na zake. kAraNa ? tene UMce caDhavuM nathI. jamIna upara ja ubhuM rahevuM che mATe koIe hitazikSA sAMbhaLI nahi. jJAna meLavyuM nahi te evuM vicAravAnuM nahi ke mAruM koNa mAne? "mAre pApodaya' Ama dIna paNa banavAnuM nahi. tAraka paramAtmA paNa bhavyAtmAne uddhAra karI zake. abhavya AmAne nahi. zilapakAra game teTale kaMlA niSNAta hoya paNa khArA paththaranI mUti nA banAvI zake. je mINIyA ArasanI zilA hoya te ja bhavyAtibhavya mUrtinuM sarjana thaI zake. sAdhaka ! A vAta koI gurujanane hitazikSA mATe nathI paNa tane tArI gyatA samajAvavA che. pratikSaNa...pratipala... pratikSetramAM ApaNe AtmA bahAnA zodhe che zuM karIe? pAMcame Are kharAba che. nahitara mokSe jAta. amArA guru jJAnI nathI nahitara ame kevalajJAnI banata. zuM karIe? gubhAI-gurubhaginI sahAyaka nathI nahitara khUba sevA zubhUSA karata. zuM karIe? sahavartIo sArA nathI nahitara mekSanA sAthe banata. zuM karIe? pustaka nathI

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asa bhrAntadazA eTale satata gRtAvasthA zuM karIe ? soMgha sArI 206 ] nahitara paccIza gAthA karata. nathI nahitara zAsanaprabhAvanA thAta. "AkhI duniyA kharAba che mATe kAMi nA thayuM ke tuM kharAba che mATe kaI nA thayu` ? tArA haiyA upara hAtha rAkhIne javAba Apa." jo ApaNe sArA hAI e te vizvanI pharIyAda kayAreya nA karIe. ApaNI sArAzamAM tAkAta che ke vizvanI kharAbI nAza pAmI jAya, jo mahAtmA ! tu sArA banI jaIza teA vizva tane sAru ja lAgaze. tArA DahApaNavaDe, zANapaNavaDe tuM sabhyajJAna prApta karIza. duniyAmAM jJAnIne sau svIkAre ja...sanmAne ja.... tema jyAre tArAmAM samajadArI pragaTa thaze jJAnanI abhilASA jAgaze tyAre tArA jJAnaprAptinA dareka mA khullAM thaze. adbhuta jJAna prApti mATe hemacaMdrAcArya mahArAja sarasvatI prasanna karavA tatpara banyA paNa teoe phariyAda nA karI ke mArA guru ajJAnI che, mane bhaNAvI zakatA nathI te zuM karuM? guru hemacaMdrAcArya. samajadAra vinayI ziSya hatA eTale vicAra kare te mArA guru keTalA mahAna che mane ATaluM adhyayana ane adhyApana karAvyuM che hajI navuM jJAna ApavA mArA gurudevanI keTalI bhAvanA che! teezrI tA mane sarasvatI siddha karavA preraNA kare che. mArA gurunI kRpA rahe tA mAtA sarasvatI siddha thAya nahitara ajJAnanI sADasatI zarU thAya.

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samatAnI saurabha prasarAve te zramaNa. [ 277 guru hemacaMdrAcArya. samajadAra hatA eTale ja guru vacane sarasvatI siddha karI zakayA. vartamAnamAM ApaNA jevA jIva! kahI de je matrathI tamane sarasvatI siddha na thai te maMtrI zuM amane sarasvatI siddha thaze ? AmnAya vagaranA maMtra ApI kheTu kaSTa nA karAvo. samajadAra ziSyane guru vacanathI sarasvatI devI siddha thAya. e samajadAra ziSyane guru vacanathI ajJAna devI siddha thAya. sAdhake ! zAMta citte tAre ja vicAra karavAnA che ke tAre ArAdhanA devInI ArAdhanA karavI che ke virAdhanA devInAM ? sAnAnu` pAtra haze teA si'haNanuM dUdha raheze. mATInu pAtra haze te pAtrano nAza ane dUdhanA paNa vinAza. ApaNA AtmA samajadAra haze te! guru vacana dvArA samyag jJAnanI prApti thaze, ane asamajadAra haze te! guru para droha ane khudanA AtmAnuM. apakalyANu Ama sava nAza. sAdhaka ! tu hatAza nA mana.....nirAza nA ana....tArI pAtratAne vikasita kara. pAtratA eTale AtmAne sahanazIla svabhAva, sahanazIla svabhAvanI tu vRddhi kara. pAtratA eTale jJAnanA AcAranuM samyagra pAlana. AcArapAlanamAM tapura khana, A caiAgyatA e ja saMjJA...sad buddhi...sadda samaja ...ane zAstrIya paribhASAmAM kahIe te! jJarijJArUpa saMjJA

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278 ] leAca eTale bheda vijJAnanI parIkSA. vaDe samyag jJAna meLava. samyag jJAnI sulabhatAthI cAri tranu pAlana karI zake. samyagajJAnI svakalyANa ane para- kalyANa karavAmAM saphaLa bane ! sAdhaka ! mArA haiyAmAM tArA pratye karUNA che, sneha che, tArA hitanI bhAvanA che. eTale ja kahu chu samuddhinI vRddhi kara. samyajJAna Apa meLe Avaze. saddabuddhi dvArA samyag jJAna ane te dvArA sa'pUrNa jJAna-kevalajJAna meLava e ja hita kAmanA che. tuM samajadAra eTale koinI paNa phariyAda karanAra nahi. tuM samajadAra eTale koinI paNa bhUlane mATe tArI jAtane sudhAranAra AvI tArI eLakhANa..... mArA hRdaya madiramAM tArI yAda rAkhuM chuM game tyAre maLaje..... game tyAM maLaje....tane eLakhI jaiza.... prabhu ! hitazikSA ApanI....AgyatA mArI....siddha thAva ApanuM ane mAruM svapna, siddhonI duniyAmAM vicaraNa karavAnu svIkAra, Atma utthAnanI mArI vinatI....

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kara. saMsAra sAgara ghera tara kane! lahuM lakhuM chu AzIrvAda mAMgavA eka vyavahArika uttama prakyiA che. paNa mAMgavAthI maLe te AziSa hoI zake? AziSa... AdAna pradAnanI prakriyA nathI, aupacArika vidhi nathI. "AziSa e te hRdayanA AnaMda dvArA sahaja apAI janAra abhuta dAna che. addabhuta dAna mATe sAdhanA paNa addabhuta ja joIe. Arya sthUlabhadrajI vezyAnA gRhaguNe cAturmAsa pUrNa karIne AvyA. gurujIe ziSyane sanmukha nihALe ane sahasA mukhamAMthI AziSa varSa thaI gaI "dukakara karyA. dukkare kaya" ziSyane pitAnA kAryanI prazasti karavI nA paDI. "jyAM kArya aMge vAta karavI paDe, rajUAta karavI paDe te kArya kadAca AziSa egya hoI zake paNa tyAM aMtaranI AziSa maLI zakatI nathI. aMtara AziSa yogya kArya Arya sthUlabhadra svAmInuM hatuM. gurunA mukhamAMthI zabdanA udagAra pragaTa thayA na hatA paNa gurunA sADAtraNa kareDa remarAjImAMthI eka nAda have "dukakara karyA." " gurunA AziSarUpa nAdane jhaMkhate ziSya risAya nahi....raDe nahi...paNa sadA pitAnI sAdhanAne AziSa

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kaDavA zabdone sahana karI le te dhamI 280 ] ceAgya banAvavA prayatna kare. putrane mAtApitA AziSa Ape, vizvamAM sarvatra anyuM che, ane ane che, paNa, uttarAdhyayana sUtranuM' AvI. zamuM adhyayana ane ekatrIsamI gAthA eka anAkhA itihAsa rajU kare che. prabhunemanAtha lagna maMDapamAMthI gaDha giranAranA sahasAmravanamAM saMcarI gayA che. kuMvArI kanyA rAjule ni ya karyAM. lagnamaMDapamAM nemanAtha nA maLyAM. caleA navA dAva....navI billI. hAravAnu zu' ? thAkavAnuM zuM? nemanAthe mArA tyAga karyAM che. me kaI nemanAthanA tyAga nathI karyAM ne ! bhale temane kSatriyaputrI rAjImatI pasaMda nA hoya te| e vAta javA do....paNa temane siddha putrI samI rAjImatI te pasada Avaze ne ! mane nemanAtha game che te mAre nemanAthanA mArgane svIkAravA joi e. jenA mastaka upara kALA bhramara jevA, dIrgha nAgamaNI jevA, keza zAbhI rahyA hatAM te rAjImatI svayaM muTThanA hAthe mastaka parathI vALanA lagna karI gaDha giranAranA caDhANa zarU kare che. tyAre samarata dvArikA nagarInA nagarajanA visphArita nayane e mahAsatIne nihALI rahyA che. daza dazANu rAjavIo....zrI kRSNa....baLabhadra jyAre rAjImatIne nihALe che tyAre vaDIlonA mukhamAMthI sahasA subhAziSa sarI paDe che 'saMsAra sAgara dhera tara kanheM ! laDuM' lahu.' A kanyA ! he putrI ! bhayaMkara sasAra sAgarane zIprAtizIdhra tarI jA.'

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duniyAnI tapAsa karanAre gumAve che. [ 281. prAyaH karIne vRddho, vaDIlo koI paNa prasaMga hoya tyAre utAvaLe abhiprAya ApI detAM nathI. dareka vAtane vicAre che. pachI khUba ja telI telIne...gaNI gaNIne jANe zabdanA paNa paisA paDatAM hoya tema paricita khUba ja alpa zabda bole che. A vaDIla svabhAva hovA chatAM Aje samudravijaya vigere dazadazANa rAjavIonAM sukhamAMthI kema ATalo umaLako vyakata thaI gaye ? vizvanA dareka baMdhana dareka kAyadA tyAM sudhI ja rahe che, jyAM sudhI kArya mahAna nA banyuM hoya ! jyAM mahAna kArya hoya tyAM svaparanA bheda rahetA nathI. pUchayA na pUchayAnA bheda rahetA nathI, AzIvAda meLavavA javuM paDatuM nathI, AziSa maLI jAya che !!! sAdhaka ! - zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra tArA puruSArthane AhUvAhana kare che. UTha ! jA ! tArI pAse paNa zakita che! vizvanI - samasta vaDIla zAha pAsethI zubhAziSa meLavavAnI tArI pAse tAkAta paNa che, tArI pAse adbhuta sAmarthya paNa che ( tArA vaDIla khuza thAya tevA satkArya karavAnuM ! kadI te aMtaranA oraDAmAM DahApaNane dIvA pragaTAvI tArI Atma zaktine nihALI che? pIchANI che? tane paNa samyagadarzana thaze. Atmazakitane jANIza te rAjula jevuM tuM paNa parAkrama karI zakIza, sAdhanA mArge Urdhvagamana karI zakIza.

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282 ] jAtanI tapAsa karanAra meLavIne ja rahe che.. paNa kyAreya tArA gurunuM, tArAvaDIlanuM avamUlyana na karato. pacIsa-trIsa gAthA karI laIzuM eTale teo khuza thaI jaze, pAMca-cha jaNanI gocarI laI AvIzuM, cAra-cha hajArane svAdhyAya karI laizuM eTale rIjhI jaze, gurujIne pANI ApI daIzuM, paDilehaNa karI daIzuM, gurujInI hAjarImAM "tahatti tahatti" "hAjI sAheba zuM pharamAve che?" tevI tahatti samAcArInuM samA caraNa karI laIzuM. be cAra bhakto banAvI gurujInI zilA lekhamAM prazasti lakhAvI daIzuM basa, pachI te gurujI rAjInA reDa thaI jaze. A mavRtti hoya te kaDaka zabdamAM AlecanA karavI paDe. ' bhATa cAraNanI prazaMsA bhATa guru prasanna thAya paNa jina zAsananA mahAna guru kyAreya prazaMsAthI prasana nA thAya !" jinazAsananA tAraka guru te ziSyanI pratyeka pravRtti pAchaLa rahelI tenI mane vRttine nihALe che. dila ane dekhAvanI rekhAne teo zIdhra bhedI de che. jinazAsananA guruonI daSTi katakarRNa jevI hoya che. phaTakaDIne nirmaLa bhUkko gaMdA pANImAM nAkho eTale pANI ane kacaro judA paDI jAya ! kacare nIce rahe ane nirmaLa jala upara Ave! tema gurujI turata samajI jAya che te keTaluM kArya AtmazuddhithI karyuM ? ane keTaluM kArya

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paramAtmAnuM zAsana eTale jIvamAtra pratye samabhAva. [ 283 buddhithI karyu ? buddhi e jJAnAvaraNIya kSaye pazamane AbhArI che. zuddhi e mAhanIya karmanA kSayApazamane AdhIna che. bhUla karyAM pachI mauna rahyo, temAM mahattA zAnI ? khIjAnI bhUla tArA nAme caDe ane mauna rahe. te aneAkhI mahattA...tapa karyAM ne annane! tyAga karyAM temAM zAnI mahattA ? tapa nathI karyAM ane bhukha lAgI che. paNa te' khAla-glAna vRddha tapasvInI bhakti karI tA aneAkhI . mahattA. - dareka vyaktinI bhUla kahevI te vALu caturAi paNa peAtAnI bhUla zAMdhavI ane svIkAravI te Atmika zuddhi. jinazAsananA gurudeve guNI che. guNAnurAgI che. eTale tArI vAMc caturAinI paNa AleAcanA nahi kare... paNa gurudeva khuza te tyAre ja thaze jyAre tArA AtmAnI zuddhi joze...tArA AtmaguNAnI abhivRddhi nihALaze.... tuM tArA nAmanuM visarjana karI jinazAsananu gorava vadhArIza te ! sAdhaka ! tArA guru jJAnI che. jJAnI che eTale ga MbhIra che.. mabhIra hovAthI sAmAnya rItathI temanA aMtarane tuM jANI nahi zake. haiye dhruva maLe mukhe hAsya skure. A mahA.

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284 ] paramAtmAnuM zAsana eTale dhamAtra pratye sadbhAva. * puruSanu lakSaNa hAya che, haiyAmAM bhayaMkara ciMtA * lAgI hAya, bhAvinA bhekAra emanA dilane khAI jatA hAya tyAre teo hAsyamAM khAvAi jaze..tuM khUba nAnA bALaka che ! sAva abudha bALaka che! tArA nAnA mApa-ane tArI gaNatrI dvArA jJAnanA himAlaya ane zAsananA merU samA tArA gurunA AziSane mApavAnI bhUla nA karo.... sAcuM kahuM tuM... mApavA jaIza tArA gurune ane khullA paDI jaze. tArA AtmasvabhAva! tArA manamAM rahelA bhAvAthI tArI ladhutAnA pradarzana thai jaze. gurunI AziSanI mahattA samajavA keoziza kara. tuM paNa mahAna gurukuLamAM ucharyA che. sIttotaramI peDhIe paNa tu viyasmRti" prabhu mahAvIranA vArasadAra che. prabhu mahAvIranA vArasadArane vinayanI jAgIra nA maLe e ane kharuM ? guru gautamane jema prabhu sAthe laDavA jatAM gaNadhara pada maLyuM, prabhu para rAga rAkhatAM guru bhakti maLI ane prabhu pAchaLa rudana karatAM vIramAMthI vItarAttvapada maLyu tema tuM paNa sAdhaka tArA gurunA aMtarane ukela...tArA gurunA aMtaramAM tArA Atma kalyANanA anaMta ana ta manAya AlekhAyela che. eka maneArtha siddha karIza teA paNa aMtaranA zubhAziSa meLava dhanya puNya banI jaIza. ' sAce gurujanA te ceAgya ziSyanI zeAdhamAM ja hAya che.

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sattAnA sthAnane zaiAbhAvanAra namratA che. [ 285 yogya ziSyane jJAnadAna karI khudanA guruRNamAMthI mukta thavAnI pratyeka gurunI AkAMkSA heAya che. A vAta tune nahi samaya . kAraNa...gurune upakAra ane tenA RNathI mukta thavAnI prakriyA tuM samajIza paNa hajI threDo abAlabhAva pragaTaze pachI ja. paNa eka javAba Ape. dareka gurunA haiyAmAM prabhu zAsana jayavaMta rahe tevI bhAvatA hoya che. A vAta tu svIkAre che ne ? hA, jarUra dareka gurudeva petAnA AyuSyanI alpatA samajatAM heAya che te pachI teo koI zAsana prabhAvaka vyaktinI zeAdhamAM na heAya ? jyAM sudhI sAdhaka avasthA che tyAM sudhI 'mAre| ziSya, 'mArA samudAya' A bhAva raheze. pachI teA ucca kakSAe gurune eka ja bhAva raheze--suyAgya ziSya, prabhunuM zAsana, jyAM suyeAgyatA dekhaze. tyAM guru aMtaranA hetathI ovArI jaze.' asa ! mAre te eTaluM ja kahevu che, rakhe A take tuM nA gumAvatA. gurunA aMtara AziSa meLavavA sadA sAvadhAna raheje, prabhu..prabhu....! AziSa cAgya anu` ke zikSAne cAgya anu? Ape tA mane dvidhAmAM mUkI dIdhA. mArI dvidhA dUra karI. mane sucAMgya ziSya banAvA ane zubhAziSa paNa varasAvA ! zu

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286 ] saSA + zANapaNa - jIvananI saphaLatA. A bAlakanI vAta Apa nahi svIkAre? huM te tamArA caraNe ziSyabhAvanA satyAgraha karI besI ja rahevAno chuM. svIkArIne mArA jevA ziSyane ! ! ! ' svIkAravuM ja paDazesugya banAvavuM ja paDaze. mAre adhikAra "Apane araja" Apane adhikAra "mArI pharaja."

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43. '"vinnANeNu samAgamme dhamma sAhaNa miyi ' 5 kalAkanuM nAma ? kacarAmAMthI paNa sabhyatA pragaTa thAya te... kalAkAra konuM nAma? je nikane paNa sAthe ka kare te....ArasanA eka TukaDA mArane paNa maLe ane eka zilpakArane ya maLe....majUra ArasanA TukaDAnA upacega pagathiyA mATe kare. zilpakAra ArasanA TukaDAne TAMkaNA vaDe ghaDI navatara svarUpa Ape. gaI kAlanI zilA Aje eka addabhuta darzanIya zilpa banI jAya. nakAme ArasanA TukaDA mAje lAkhAnA mUlyA vaTAvI gayo. karoDonI kiMmata thavA lAgI. kAnA kAraNe ? zilpInI mAvajatanA kAraNe.... paramAtmA mahAvIra paNa AvA ja eka zilpI che, saMsArI je parigrahanA sAdhanothI pApa bAMdhe che, hajAro laDAI vaheArI le che ane jenA kAraNe duniyAmAM lohInI nadIo vahe che, te parigrahanA bhAva pedA karAvI jAya tevA sAdhanane jJAnanI kalA vaDe dhame'pakaraNanuM bhavya zilpa banAvI 4 che.'' kAMTAne kADhavA kAMTA joie, vRkSane teDavA jema kuhADI joie, tema dehanA baMdhana dehanA sahAre tUTe.....

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288 ] saddaguNonI dalAlI kare te sAdhu. dhamarAdhanAne AdhAra zuM? deha...prabhue pharamAvyuM tAre mAnava deha tane mokSa prAptimAM madada karaze. paNa bhalA! dehane sAcavavA jatAM dehanA mamatvane puSTa nA karate. dharmArAdhanAnuM sAdhana deha. deha dvArA ArAdhanA thAya ane virAdhanA na thAya eTalA mATe upakaraNanI jarUra paDe. upakaraNa ArAdhanAmAM sahAya kare. upakAra kare te upakaraNa. virAdhanAmAM nimitta bane, kAraNa bane, AtmA upara apakAra kare te adhikaraNa. pratyeka mumukSune darzana-jJAna-caritranI ArAdhanA karavA paramAtmAe pharamAvyuM. paNa mekSanI IcchA mATe pahelAM ja pagathiyAmAM aNasaNa pharamAvyuM nathI. eTale pratyeka sAdhake karmanA senApati mana-vacana-kAyAnA kAryamAM have parivartana karavAnuM. je manavacana-kAyA karmanA ronyanI netAgiri karatA hatA tene dharmanA saMrakSaNa sevAnA.sainya. badalAya paNa senApatine dilanuM parivartana na thAya te sainya-zastra hovA chatAM hArasenApati zaraNAgati svIkArI le te pachI racanI kaMI jarUra nahi. senApatinI tAkAta che. sainya ekaThuM karI leze... sAdhake jIvana vyatIta karavAnuM paNa sukha Ave chava. nanI abhilASA nahi, duHkha Ave maraNanI prArthanA nahi hAtha-pagane sadA sasata rAkhavAnA, paNa svArtha sAdhavA devAne nahi. paramArthamAM pIche haTha kare te avazya preraNA karavAnI. sAdhake mAnasika zaktine khUba vikAsa karavAne

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saMyama eTale svArthanuM visarjana. [ 289 paNa manane dhyAnamAM kendrita karavAnuM, sAdhake vA zakita vadhAravAnI paNa vANIne jinezvarene saMdeza vaheDAvavAnuM mAdhyama banAvavAnuM. sAdhue dehanA jatana karavAnA paNa dharmArAdhanAmAM deha madada kare mATe sAdhue dehanuM patana nahi karavAnuM paNa deha bhAvavAnuM patana karavAnuM. sAdhue deha sAcavavAne. dehane jALavavA anna-pAtra-vastra ane vasati joIe. dehane TakAvavA ane joIe te anna lAvavA pAtra, joIe. pAtrA joIe te pAvAne jALavavA joie. ane pAvAne jALavavA vastra joIe. Ama vikalpI munine cAritranI ArAdhanA mATe upakaraNa khUba jarUrI sAdhu kene kahevAya? tenA mATe Ave ane muhapatti jarUrI. lokone paNa nizAnI vagara sAdhu-asAdhunA bheda nA samajAya. khuda sAdhune paNa rajoharaNa-muhapatithI vAraMvAra sAdhutAnI smRti thAya. sAdhune rajoharaNa dekhAya ke parza thAya eTale tarata manamAM eka tIvra AMcake. lAge, dhULa dUra karavA A e dhULa te pavana Ave te paNa dUra thAya. dhULa dUra karavA prabhune A dharmadhvaja nahi. prabhune dharmadhvaja e te mane vAraMvAra preraNA Ape. karmanI raja haraNa hara"karmabaMdhanA hetune haTAva karmabaMdhananA adhyavasAyane dUra kara ! are! bhalA! tArA kAchapAtra kevA manehara? bhejanamAM sahAyaka kayAMya cIkAza ceTe nahi, kapaDAMthI luche ane svaccha thaI jAya. pAtramAM bhejana karanAra tane kaSAyanI cIkAza aDake nahi, - 19

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290 ] sayama eTale pAtha nuM sarjana. kanI cIkAza nahi te tane sthitimadha thAya nahi...pAtrA kapaDAMthI lUchAya ane svaccha thaI jAya. tema tArA AtmA paNa Ale canAthI-prAyazcittathI nirmAMLa thai jAya. sAdhune vasra kamA~ nirAmAM sahAyaka thAya, vasranA kAraNe ThaMDI garamIthI sIkrAya nahi. gla.nanI sevA zuzruSA cAya. sAdhu tArA zveta vastranA sadeza che. sapheda jhaMDI e zAMtinuM pratIka che. tu zveta vastra dhArI sAdhu...sadA samatAnI lhANa karAvanA-zayyA, vastra, pAtra, vati A cAramAM sAdhu muMjhAya nahi, paNa, cAreyanI madadathI karmIne sukhavanAra tuM mahAtmA !! paramAtmAe sApekA yuti dharmo ane nirapekSa ti dharma bannene menA ga kahyA che. paramAtmAe sthavira 95 ane jina kalpa ba Mnene mokSamArgonA sahAyaka kahyA che. cAgyatA vagara jinakalpa svIkAra kare te adhaHpatana ane zAsananI apabhrAjanAnu bhayaMkara pApa lAge, sthavira kalpa svIkArI vastra-pAtra vigerenuM mamatva rAkhe teA AtmA DubI jAya. " sthavira kalpI sAdhu eTale adbhuta kalAkAra. upakaraNane ArAdhanAmAM sahAyaka banAve. upakaraNathI virAdhanA dUra kare. jema kalAkAra hAthamAM agnine rAkhe paNa eTalI jaldIthI pheravatA rahe ke agnithI hAtha na khaLe tema sAdhu upakaraNane pratikSaNa pUche "jo, tame sacamamAM madada karavA

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- - pApathI pIchehaTha karAve te sa. jJAna. [ 291 Ave che te tamArA nehabharyA satkAra...tamAre mane saMyamamAM madada nathI karavI te zIdhra sIdhA tamArI amAre jarUra nathI. mArA nitya dharma samA zarIrane paNa lAlabattI dharI dIdhI che. je, tuM saMyamamAM sahAyaka thaIza te tane AhAraArAma ane davA badhuM maLaze. paNa jarA UM ke cUM karyuM te AMkhanI DekAbArI dvArA vijAtIya upara daSTi gaI te AvatI kAlathI ghI dUdhane tyAga svIkArI laIza...ane kahIza..tamane mAru AtmA maMdira khAlI karavAnI noTIsa ApI dIdhI che. jIbha paNa je saguNa stutimAM sahAyaka nahi bane te mauna svIkArI laIza...nityanA mitra manavacana-kAyAne paNa kahuM chuM, "muphakha sAheba heussa sAha dehasa pAraNA" nahitara araNika munivaranI jema deha sAtha nahi Ape te aNusaNa AdarI daIzamRtyuthI mahe sava prAraMbha....paNa, mahAvrata uzcaryA bAda mana-vacanakAyAne kyAre ya vaza nahi banuM. je sAdhu jIvanamAM deha sAdhanA mATe paNa mamatva nathI rAkhavAnA, tyAM upakaraNanA mamatva heI zake? paramAtmAe upakaraNa pharamAvyA te kevala dharmanuM sAdhanA mATe jema zarIra jarUrI tema dharma sAdhano paNa jarUrI prabhu zAsanamAM ekAMta kayAMya nahi. kAyabaLa, karmabaLa-zarIrabaLa-jJAnabaLa, vairyabaLa A badhuM vicArIne prabhue upakaraNanI AjJA ApI...

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292 ] karelI ArAdhanAne cheda kare tenuM nAma kheda upakaraNane parigraha kahe te paramAtmAne virodhI kahevAya. upakaraNanuM mamatva te parigraha. mamava sauthI adhika zarIra upara. jagatanI keIpaNa vyakti zarIra vagara jIvI zake nahi ane jIvana vagara sAdhanA thAya nahi. mATe jema sAdhanA mATe jIvana jarUrI jIvana mATe zarIra jarUrI... zarIra mATe upakaraNa jarUrI paramAtmAe sAdhakane upakaraNa pharamAvyA paNa te kevA joIe? keTalAM jaIe? zA mATe joIe? vidhipUrvaka prApta thayela upakaraNathI zuM lAbha? avidhipUrvaka meLavela upakaraNathI zuM nukazAna? A badhAnuM vizada vivecana Agama graMthamAM che. temAM paNa AcArAMga sUtramAM khAsa A viSayanI sUkSamatAthI carcA karela che. te pratyeka sAdhake prabhue kahela upakaraNano upayoga karavuM joIe. prabhue kahela pramANathI jUnAdhika upakaraNa na vaparAya. nahitara AjJAbhaMgane doSa lAge. AzA rAddha virAddha ca, zivAya ca bhavAya ca" sthavira kalpI muni upakaraNa na rAkhe te deva, sthavira kalpI muni upakaraNa cUnAdhika rAkhe te doSa sthavira kalpI muni upakaraNa na sAcave te deSa, sthavira kalpI upakaraNane durUpayoga kare te deSa, vastra-pAtra rAkhavAnA, paNa phUTe tUTe te virAdhanA...

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kAma pUrNa kare te nokara. [ ra3 vasa-pAtrane durupayega kare te sAdhu jinAjJAne cAra... gRhasthanI bhAvanAne vizvAsaghAtI. khudanA AtmasvabhAvane paNa zatru!" sAdhaka ! tane kahuM chuM ke te dIkSA lIdhI, eTale tArI kalAnI zikSA prAraMbhAI. zilpIne zilA para chINI calAvavAnI-haDe nahi, tema tAre upakaraNa rAkhavAnA, paNa mamatvanI vRdhdhi kayAMya nahi karavAnI. tArA nirmama bhAvanA manorathane sidhdha karavA saphaLa kalAkAra banI prabhu ! huM te ApanA caraNamAM eka ja vinaMtI karuM, bhale mane pAtra labdhi maLe. vastra labdhi maLe-AhAra labdhi maLe. tethI hajAro munionI bhakti karavAnA mArA manoratha pUrNa karIza paNa mArI AhAra saMjJA-bhaya saMjJA -maithuna saMjJA-parigraha saMjJAne kadI vRddhi karIza nahIM, basa, upakaraNa dvArA sva-paranI saMyama sAdhanA mATe upakAraka banavAbavAvavAnI zakti prApta thAya; ATalI ApanA caraNamAM mArI arajI che.

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44, evaM alittA kAmehiM vaya * bUma mAhaNuM chu retI, mATI ane kAdava traNe pRthvInI jAti paNa traNa vacce keTalo badho pharaka! eka kapaDAne aDe paNa khaMcero eTale dUra thaI jAya...eka pANI vaDe dhUo eTale haTe ane eka keTalI badhI mahenata kare tyAre dUra thAya....! mATInI jAti samAna paNa khudanI prakRti viSama. jenI prakRti viSama tenI pratye sadA sAvadha rahevuM paDe, jenI prakRti sama hoya, saraLa hoya tenuM kazuM dhyAna na rAkhIe te cAle. A vizvamAM saMsArI paNa jIve che ane A saMsAramAM sAdhu paNa jIve che. jIvana TakAvavA jIvananI jarUriyAta saune pUrI pADavI paDe che. paNa ekanuM jIvana saMsArane bejha bane che, ekanuM jIvana saMsArane sugaMdhita ane sauMdaryathI mugdha kare che. sarovaranA kinAre kaIvAra pahoMcI jaIe chIe. sarovaranI zobhA nihALatAM vAyu dvArA nRtya karatAM kamala tarapha mAnavInI AMkha kheMcAya che, pANI ane kAdavathI pedA thayela pANI ane kAdava vacce jIvana vItAvanAra kamala tarapha daSTi sthira thAya tyAre lAge, keI nilepa mahAtmAnI jema kamaLa samAdhimAM masta che. jala taraMga

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anukULatAnA Icchuka ne kaSAyane vaLagADa vaLage che. [ 295 dvArA kamalapatra upara caDhI jAya che. paNa turata ja haTI jAya che. kamaLa te pANI upara taratuM rahe che, paNa kamaLanA pAMdaDA ya pANInI dostI nathI karatAM! niHsaMga banela kamala vikasita hoya che tenI zobhA nyArI che. kamalane vizvane saMdeza che... "kaSAya ane vAsanAnA kIcaDathI pedA thayA tenA vaDe vadhyA paNa kaSAyamAM jIvAya nahi. A badhA saMga cheDIe te prasannatA pragaTa thAya ! ! ! sAdhu mahA mAnuM jIvana eTale kaSAya ane vAsanAthI alipta. - tethI ja sAdhu rAjakathA, bhakata (jana) kathA, strI kathA ane dezakathAthI dUra. keI paNa rAjyamAM kaI paNa dezamAM jIvavAnuM paNa te rAjyane droha karavA nahi. rAjya viruddha karavAnuM nahi, dezane droha karavA nahi. dezanI viruddhamAM kazuM karavAnuM nahi. rAjyanA kAvAdAvAmAM javAnuM nahi, khurazI mAtra kapaTa-khana-masakApolisIthI nabhe. jyAM besavAnuM mIThuM hAyaparapakAranI te vAta ja karavAnI hoya ane svA- rthamAM ja tatpara rahevAnuM hoya tenuM nAma rAjakIya khaTapaTo. AvI khaTapaTamAM sagAvAda...paricayavAda.bhATavAda badhuMya cAle ane chevaTe jyAM svanA saMrakSaNa mATe mAtA-pitA- putra keInA saMbaMdha rahe nahi AvI gaMdI rAjaramatathI, tenI vAtothI sAdhu kyAreya lepAya nahi.

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296 ] jJAna eTale saMyama jIvananAM prANa. rAjakIya khaTapaTamAM je sAdhu paDayA te sAdhutAnA mA`thI pati thayA....sAcA sAdhu rAjaramatanA bhAga nA ane....paNa pAtAnI sAdhanA dvArA rAjyamAM, vizvamAM zAMti phelAya tevI ma MgaLa prArthanA kare." sAdhu keAI eka dezanA pratinidhi nahi...te kahe mArI janmabhUmi nige. . paNa mArI nivAsa siddhipura mAkSa....A badhA te vaccenA sTezana...tenA mATe laDAya nahi, jhaghaDAya nahi. rASTravAda, dezavAda, prAMtavAda, jAtivAdanA nAme kAI jhaghaDA karavA nahi. A badhI bhayaMkara badIothI dUra rahI jIvamAtranA kalyANa mATe kaTha kArya kare te sAdhu mahAtmA. dezakathA ane rAjakathA mAnava-mAnava vacce aAgya aNachAjatA vyavahAra karAve che. tyAre bhAjananI kathA ane strIkathA haiyAmAM vAsanAnI hALI saLagAve che. tethI ja mahAtmA cAra vikathAthI dUra rahI AtmakathAmAM masta ane che. jIvana nibhAvavA sa`sAra ane saMsArI sAthe sabaMdha rAkhavAnA paNa kAMya tene saMga sthira thaI na jAya tenuM satata dhyAna rAkhavAnuM, vRkSa teADavA pAMdaDA tADavAnA na hAya, mULane ja jamIna dosta karavAnuM hAya. saMga teDavA sAdhana tADaMvAnA nahi....sAdhana mALavAnA nahi...sAdhana bALavAnA na hAya

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anukaraNa eTale buddhi vagaranI nakala. [ 297 paNa sAtvika pravRtti karavAnI hAya, sAtvika pravRtti. sAtvika vRttithI pedA thAya che.... bhAMgatADanI pravRtti AsurI vRttithI pedA thAya che.... sAttvika vRttithI dRSTi AtmAbhimukha bane che........ bhAMgatADanI pravRttithI dRSTi AtmAvimukha ane che.... tane saga kema gamyA ? sAdhana kema gamyA ? jhaMkhanA kema thaI ? icchA che eTale....A icchAnAzanA upAya che. mehanIya karmInI vidAya. sAdhu mAhunA vijetA ane... mAhanA vijetA banavA keAI eka nakkI sthaLa. . .nakkI samaya nathI. AtmA jAgRta banyA tA mAhane parAbhava kayAMya ane kayAre paNa karI zake, kha'dhakajInA ziSyae ghANImAM pIlAtAM pIlAtAM meAha para vijaya meLavyeA.... marUdevA mAtAe hAthInA hAddA upara beThA beThA mAhune ogALI dIdhA....bharata mahArAjAe mAhunA paTAMgaNu samA ArIsA bhuvanamAM mAhanI senA cakacUra karI te pRthvI caMdra guNa sAgare mAhanA avicchinna eka chatrIya cakravatInA rAjyasabhA jevA lagnamaMDapamAM mAne peAkhArA gaNAvyA. 'jyAM mAhu tyAM brAhmaNatva nahi, jyAM brAhmaNatva tyAM mAha nahi.' brAhmaNatva hoya tyAM jJAnanA vijaya, jyAM meha hoya tyAM ajJAnanA vijaya.' sAcA brAhmaNu asaMga hAya....anidgha hAya....nirIha hAya... niHspRha hAya.

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298 ] anusaraNa eTale sama`Nu ane zaraNAgati. nirIhavRtti nibhAvavA kaThora dinacarcAne svIkAre te brAhmaNa !' sAdhaka ! tu brAhmaNa-brahmaneA-jJAnano divyanAda vizvamAM tAre gujita karavAnA ! jJAnane divyanAda icchAnA edA kA dvArA phelAya nahi ! jJAnanA dvivyanAda nirIhatAnA nizAna DaMkA dvArA cauda rAjaleAkamAM gujita ane, nirIhatAnA nizAna dekhAya ane cArAsI lAkha jIvayeAninA venA kSemakuzaLanI AgAhI thAya ! brAhmaNa AziSa Ape....svasti vAMcana kare. sAdhu ! tu brAhmaNa, dIkSAnA krine tu AziSa Ape. 'savabhUpa bhUassa.' sAdhu tuM dIkSAnA krine svasti vAMcana kare, sabhya sAvajja joga paccakkhAmi.' A magaLa udyeSaNAthI vizvamAM abhayanA gItagu'jita ane. AvA kavya kare te brAhmaNa....bAkI teA TIlA TapakArthI athavA AMkArathI ja thaI jAya te! koi raMgArA pIjArAya brAhmaNa banI jAya. mAthuM muMDAvAthI mahArAja nI javAtu hAya tA jagatanA adhA eDIyA mahArAja banI gayA haiAta. sAdhaka tuM zramaNa paNa khare! ane brAhmaNu paNa khare.. zramaNa saMskRti ane brAhmaNa saMskRtinuM milana eTale. AtmAnuM UdhvI karaNa. zramaNu saMskRti AcAra pradhAna manAve.'.

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vANIno sadupayoga kare tenuM nAma mauna. [ 29 brAhmaNa saMskRti jJAna pradhAna banAve * "jJAna ane kriyAnA subhaga samAgama dvArA sarva karmakSaya." tAre brAhmaNa nAmathI DaravAnuM nathI. zramaNa nAmathI harakhAvAnuM nathI. tAre te saune jAhera vinaMti karavAnI che. Apa zabda premI che. keIpaNa zabda vAparo. amAro virodha kaI zabda sAthe nathI. "zabda tamArA bhAva amArA tamArA zabdane amArA haiyAnA zubhabhAvathI vicArI jaina, siddhAMtanI AcAra praNAlikA mujaba ame jIvana jIvIzuM. ame sAmAnya nayavAdI nathI ane vizeSa nayavAdI nathI, dvAdazAniyacakamAM pharamAvyuM che "jAvaIyA vayaNa pavAha. tAvaIyA ceva nayavAyA" te vAtane svIkAranArA chIe. ane -kAMtavAdIne keInI gALa asara karI jatI nathI te kaI padavI tenA AmA para abhimAna upajAvI zakatI nathI. zabda e te vyavahAranA ghAtaka che. duniyAne koI paNa zabda-kaI paNa padArtha AtmAe rAgadveSanA jevA bIbA taiyAra karyA hoya tevI chApa pedA kare. sAdhaka ! tuM IcchAthI alipta! mehanIyakarma tArA AtmA. para lAgeluM paNa tuM mohanIya karmane sainika nahi. tuM jJAnane ArAdhaka eTale ja tuM brAhmaNatArA brahmanA teja pragaTAva...tArA AtmAnA ojasa vizvamAM pAthara....

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300 ] guru ziSyanI prathA eTale AdhyAtmikatAnI Apa le divya teja dvArA duniyAne rAhabara bana. sAdhaka, tane prAraMbhamAM ja brAhmaNa banavAnA maMgala AziSa ApuM chuM. brAhmaNe zramaNa banavAnuM ane zamaNe brAhmaNa banavAnuM eTale kevalajJAna ane siddhAvasthA prApta karavAnI tane AnAthI kayA adhika AziSa heya!!! vizvanA samasta AziSa jJAnanA maMgalamAM AvI jAya che. jaina zAsana te jJAnane ja maMgala mAne che. eTale jinazAsanamAM nadInuM mahatva che. nadI sUtra eTale pAMca jJAnanuM svarUpa. pAMca jJAnanuM svarUpa vicAratAM kSAyikabhAvanuM jJAna prApta kare ane sAce brAhmaNa bana. prabhu! AziSa ApanA puruSArtha mAro... SR kSamAnA zrama karI zramaNa banuM... jJAnanA arjana karI brAhmaNa banuM. - ST aMte siddhonI duniyAmAM ramaNa karuM Aja ApanA caraNamAM namra prArthanA che

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45, "tumbhe matthA uddhattu, para apANameva ya" 5 jIvavu alaga che ane jIvanamAM mahAlavu alaga che. jIvana sAtha`ka karavuM alaga che ane jIvana sArthaka karA-vavu alaga che. vananA phUlamAM paNa suga MdhI heAya che, paNa tenI suga dhI sahaja bhAve phelAya che tyAre dhUpasaLInI koI mahattA anerI che. agni dvArA svayaM jalI saune suga dhInuM dAna kare che. vizvanA itihAsamAM samasta atihAsika pAtra vAMcI jAva. paNa tenuM vargIkaraNa e ja pa ktimAM thaze. sajjana ane durjana." duniyAnI khAsiyata che. te uttama ane adhama ene ja yAda rAkhe che. madhyamane bhUlI jAya che. uttama vyaktinuM cAritra UdhvagamananI preraNA Ape che. adhama vyakitanA cAritrathI-patanathI pIche haTha zIkhI. zakAya che. ApaNI jIMdagImAM paNa ApaNane e ja pAtre mukhyatve yAda raheze. zreSTha upakArI ane bhayaMkara apakArI. ApaNI jIMdagInA paNa e ja prasa`ge ApaNane yAda raheze. jIMdagInA sarvazreSTha dina ane jI MdagInA bhayaMkara dina." koIkanA samAgame jIvana vana banI jAya che tA. koikanA samAgame jIvana naMdanavana khanI jAya che. jemanA

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302 ] sAtvikatA e pradazana nathI paNa Atmadarzana che. samAgame jIvana noMdanavana bane che tenI prazasti zilAlekha upara nirjIva akSarathI lakhAtI nathI. paNa mukha dvArA * harakSaNe hara vakhate rastuti thAya che-"bhe samathA uddhattu, para apANa meva ya." sabhAmAM jAhera karanAra ghaNAM maLe che ane ghaNA kahe che, "tame mArA tAraka che. paNa, jyAM sudhI namrutyuM sUtramAM stuti karI che, tevA tinnANa tArayANa' na banIe, teA samajI levu'. ratuti karanAra bhATa cAraNa ane tArI stuti sAMbhaLanAra tu naTa. AmAM aza mAtra paNa pharaka nahi.'* sAdhaka ! tu dIkSA le eTale tane badhA mahAtmA kaheze. tAraka kaheze. uddhAraka kaheze...paNa, tu bhUle cUke ya goTALA nahi karI deto. tane badhA pradAma karI rahyA che-tane so sau preraNA daI rahyA che--tamArAmAM tAraka banavAnI zakti che, sAmarthya che. tamArA nijanA ravAbhAvika sauMdaya ne vikasita karI ! saMyuktAkSara rahita, joDAkSara vagaranA, tAraka zabda uccAraNamAM jeTale sahele che, teTaleA ja AcaravAmAM adhika kaThiMna che. taravA mATe mAnave halakAM banavuM paDe che. je cIja halakI hAya te ja pANImAM tare che, vajanadAra nIce DubI jAya. tema " je AtmA jJAna vaDe haLavA ane te tarI zake ane tArI zake, " sAdhaka tArI Dabala javAkhadArI che, khudanA kalyANanI ane vizvanA kalyANanI.

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mAhu eTale mAruM karavAnI vRtti [ 303 --je va kalyANa siddha nA karI zake te paranuM kalyANa traNa kALamAM ya na karI zake. cAritra che. A siddhAMta phakta mukhapATha na rahevA "joie. paNa tArA jIvanamAM tene mUrta Adaza hovA joI e. tane jIe ne lAgavuM joie, cAstri mUrtinA sAMnidhyamAM beTho chuM, " tArA paricayamAM AvanAra patitane paNa punaruddhAra thavA joie. '' tArI vANInA jAdu evA joIe, ke tane sAMbhaLanAra pApanA pazcAttApathI AMsu vahAvA lAge. tArA jJAnanA teje mithyAmati kumati dUra dUra bhAgI jAya. tArA pazciyamAM Ave te sanmati thavA joI e. vArANasI nagarImAM brAhmaNanA vADAmAM jyAM vijayaghASa pati yajJa karI rahyA che tyAM mahAtmA jayaghASa gecarI mATe padhArelAM che. brAhmaNa ane zramaNanI carcA vicAraNA cAle che. chelle kSamA zramaNanA jJAnanI pratibhAmAM vijayadheASa lIna bane che. mahAtmAnA caraNamAM paDIne eka '' ja kahe che. " tumse samathA uddhatta, para appANa meva ca" A hakIkata bhale uttarAdhyayana sUtranI rahe.. paNa dareka sAdhake vicAravA jevI che. sAdhunI ane saritAnI gati samAna che. keI ajANyA giri gaCvaramAMthI prAraMbha pAmatI nadI keTalAMya gAma ane nagarane pAvana karatI samudrane ja maLe che; tema " sAdhunI saMyama yAtrA paNa koI ajJAta sthaLethI

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304 ] prabhAvanA = prabhunI bhAvanAnA nAda. prArabhAya che ane grAma-nagara-araNyane pAvana karatI sAdhunI saMyamayAtrA saMsAra samudranA kinAre pUrNa thAya che.' nadInI pAse gayA tene ThaMDaka maLI, jeNe ` nadInA pANI pIdhAM tenI tRSA sa MtASa pAmI-tyAre " sAdhunI sayamayAtrA eTalI mahAna che ke tenA paricayamAM AvanAra dhanyAtmA banI jAya. : sAdhaka ! prabhu mahAvIradevanAM sAdhu jIvana jevA janatAne paricaya saheja khIjA koinA paNa jIvanamAM nathI... hujArA nahi lAkhA-kADA vyakti tArA paricayamAM Avaze. tArI pAsethI te zu laI ne jaze ! tArI pAse je sahaja bhAve rahela haze te...gALAnu pANI gaMdu hAya tA, eka gharanuM Agya bagaDe, paNa nadInu pANI khagaDe te pRthvI para pralaya thAya. '' sAdhunuM jIvana ucca nA hoya te ?............vizALa leAka saMpaka mAM rahela tArI keTalI javAbadArI che, tene khyAla kara. zu tArA sapa'mAM Avela AtmAe prabhuzAsananA anurAgI ane che ? zu' tAra! paricayamAM AvelA AtmAe sadgurunA upAsaka ane che ? zuM tArA cAhaka sajjana mArgAnusArI ane che ? zuM tArA guNanI suvAsa kAInA durguNa harAvanArI ane che ? tArA paricayamAM AvanAra, kahe che tane "tumse samathA uddhattu, para' apANu seva ya. ?" parakalyANamAM svakalyANa bhUlavAnuM nathI. svakalyANane zreyamAM jeNe AcarcA nathI, te parakalyANano mAga bhale

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muni eTale saraLatAnA pratinidhi, [ 305 svIkAre. pazu eka divasa samajAze A aa pAyA vagaranI imArata che. pAyA vinAnI imArata eka divasa jamIna dosta thAya. " tema sva-kalyANanI vAha-vAha bharI vAtA paNa, havA havA thaI jAya che." prabhunA sAdhaka svakalyANu sAdhe che eTale pahelAM pote AcAramAM niSNAta ane che. pachI upadeza Ape che. tethI tenA upadeza khIjAnuM paNa kalyANa karavAmAM saphaLa bane che. sAdhaka ! tArI sAdhanA siddhidAyaka che. sva-para tAraka ane tArI khirudAvalI sAMbhaLavA Atura chu. mane zAzvata saMgIta game che. mArI cAhanA che. tArA paricayamAM AvanAra tArA maMgaLa gIta gAya... (( '', ... tumbe samathA ". prabhu ! ! ! mane a MtaranA AziSa Ape....akhaMDa vizuddha mahA vratanuM pAlana karuM...prabhunA siddhAMtanI sevA karavAnI zakti Ape... " jaina' jayati zAsana'' nA nAda vizvamAM gujita karu.. e ja abhyarthanA... Dai

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46. puSTijanA paMjaliuDa kiM kAyaa mae Iha gi ronikane adhikAra zastra calAvavAne paNa, pitAnI IcchA mujaba zastra calAve te saunika nahi. senApatinI AjJA mujaba zistra calAve te sainika. manamAM Ave ne zastra calAve te guMDerI mAM sainika aneka hoya. darekanI zakti ane sAmarthya alaga ane vividha heya. zastravidyA zIkhavAnI kharI paNa, tene upayoga keI paNa raunika svecchAe nA karI zake. senApatinI ja AjJA hoya te pramANe kArya rata rahevAnuM-te sainikane dharma. sainika senApatinI AjJA mAnya nA kare ane ravecchAe zastra calAve te sarvanAza. ronika ane sAdhunA dharma kaMIka aMze samAna che. nAgarika vate tema raunike na vartAya. saMsArI che tema sAdhue nA javAya. sAdhunI javAbadArI alaga. saMsArInI javAbadArI alaga. "sthAna jeTaluM mahatvanuM teTalI sAvadhAnatA ane AjJApAlananI tatparatA jaIe. baLadagADuM hAMkanAra-kheDu gADuM hAMktA nirAMte UMgha kheMcI zake. paNa, moTara DrAIvara DrAIvIMga karatAM UMghe te gADIne DrAIvara DrAIvIMga karatAM vAta karI zake paNa vimAna calAvanAra pAIleTa vAta kare che? "javAbadArI jeTalI meTI teTalI sukha sAhibI gauNa karavI ja rahI. sAdhune kaMI

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sadguru eTale bhayaMkara pApa sAme lAlacaMDI. [ 307 paNa IcchA karavAnI nahi. IcchA karavAnI phakta gurvAzAmAM dattacitta banavAnI." mahAtmA ! tame IcchA karavAnI nA pADe. ane dazavidha samAcAramAM te prathama icchAkAra sAmAcArI pharamAve che. pachI tadhAkAra-tahati sAmAcArI samaja che...Ama thAya che tyAre mArA mananI mUMjhavaNa khUba vadhI jAya che. sAdhaka ! eka khyAla rAkha tAre mokSamArganA ArAdhaka banavAnuM che? ke mokSamArganA bAdhaka banavAnuM che? meha tArA upara baLavo karI na jAya eTalA mATe pahelA IchAkAra sAmAcArI batAvI che. guru ! huM tamArA caraNe koInA dabANathI AvatuM nathI. koInA kahevAthI AvatuM nathI. keInI lAlacathI AvatuM nathI. paNa, mArI khudanI bhAvanAthI-svecchAe ApanA zaraNe samarpita banuM chuMmAruM sarvasva tamArA zaraNe chAvara karuM chuM. have mArI pAse kazuM nathI rahyuM. basa, ApanA caraNe aMjaliaddha praNAma karI eka ja vAta kahuM chuM. - "purichajaja paMjaliDe ki kAyavuM e Iha" sAdhaka ! tAre IcchA karavAnI paNa gurunI IcchA pramANe IcchA karavAnI eTale sAdhu kahe che. "gurudeva! mane samajAyuM che. ApanI IcchA mujaba-ApanI AjJA mujaba, ApanI bhAvanA mujaba cAlavAmAM mane lAbha che. Apa

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308 ] namratA e jaina zAsananu bIja che, mane AjJA pharamAvatAM hyeAbha nA rAkhe. eTale ja vAra vAra kahu chu...-icchiAmi....icchiAmi....huM icchuM chuM-hu IchuM chuM. mane pasaMda che, mAruM ma galakara che. mAru kalyANakAra che." tArI A bhAvanA nivedana karavA prathama IcchAkAra sAmAcArI, tArI IcchA ane bhAvanAthI prerita thai guru tane je pharamAve--AjJA kare tyAre "tadghatti" tema hA.... guru AjJA zirasAvadya karavI te tadghatti-tathAkAra sAmAcarI.... vItarAga sarvAMganA zAsanamAM kayAMya dvidhA nathI. vikalpa nathI. hukama nathI. paNa hRdaya parivartana che. tane huMmezA yAda rahe. gurue mArA upara upakAra karI hRdaya parivana karyu che. mAru jIvana bhautikavAda tarapha dhasamasI rahela tene adhyAtmavAdanI dizA cIMdhI mArA jIvana pravAhane badalela che. eTale hu zaraNe Avyo chu. zaraNAgatanI vinati che--icchAmi....sAdhaka ! pravRtti tAre karavAnI. paNa AjJA svIkAravAnI gurudevanI. tu gurudevane hAtha joDI vinati kare-bhagavata ! Apane ceAgya lAge tA mane vaiyAvaccamAM niyukata kare....Apane cAgya lAge te mane svAdhyAyamAM joDA. ApanI je AjJA haze te kAryoMmAM huM niyukata manIza, te kA` mane lAbhadAyaka thaze....mane mArI zaktinu' jJAna nathI. mane mArI bhakitanuM jJAna che. bhakita mArI, zita tamArI. saphaLa thAya ArAdhanAnuM lakSya.... mArI teA namra vinaMti che,namra nivedana che. Aja sudhI mArI IcchA mujaba ja meM karyuM. temAM ArAdhanAne

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vicAra e tI che ane AcAra e metI che. [309 avAja gauNa anela. ane mehane avAja mukhya banela. ane huM samajela. mArI IcchA pUrI thaI-mAro bhAva pUrNa thaye. paNa have samaye chuM. "mArI IcchAmAM huM bhUle paDuM chuM ane karma jIte che. jyAre ApanI AjJAmAM meha hAre che ane mAre AtmA jIte che." AtmAnA vijya mATe meM ApanI zaraNAgati svIkArI che. Apa mane upavAsa karAve ke navakArazI.... Apa mane sevA sepe yA svAdhyAya. Apa, mane vihAra pharamAve ke sthiratA...Apa, mane mauna pharamAve yA vyAkhyAna karavAnuM... Apa mane lekhana pharamAvo yA dhyAna...je Apane cagya lAge te pharamAve. Apa mArA hitaciMtaka cho. Apa mArA bhava vaidya che. Apa mArA sAdhanAmArganA adhinetA che. ApanI AjJA huM mAnuM yA na mAnuM. temAM Apane kazo lAbha ke nukazAna nathI. ApanI AjJA mujaba karIza eTale Apane takalIpha paDavAnI. ghaDI ghaDI Apane pUchavA AvIza. nahi samajAya te pAMca-daza vAra pUchIza..Apane samaya bagADavAne. sAcuM kahuM? ApanA kahyA pramANe karavA jaIza to mane lAbha thaze. paNa, Apane takalIpha vadhI jaze..paNa gurudeva huM te vakra jaDa che ne? zuM Apa mArA gakSema karo temAM ApanA

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310 ] niyama = Atmazaktine jagAvavAnuM amedha sAdhana paropakAranA dAnanu vrata pUrNa thatuM nathI ? mArA jeve amrudha ApanA jevA divyajJAnIne pUchavAne lAyaka nathI. te huM jANu chu -paNa zuM karU nI pAse jAuM ? Apane mArA mATe kadAca sa Mdeha haze. A pUchaze paNa karaze kharA ? nA....nA....gurUdeva huM anyAya karuM chu Apa jevA mahAtmAne Apa.parA vyasanI che....ApanA haiyAmAM mArA jevA AtmAnI karUNA che. tethI ja huM hi~'mata karI zakuM chuM ane pUchuM chuM. mAre cAgya zu che ? mAru mana te maTa che. ghaDImAM mane jJAna yAgamAM lAbha dekhAya che. ghaDImAM mane sevAdhama nA sAlAM Ave che. chevaTe nathI banI zakate! jJAnI ke nathI banI zakatA sevAbhAvI. adhavacce UbhA rahI jAu chuM. eTale have meM nirNaya karyo che. ApanA caraNamAM nivedana karuM chuM.. ApanI AMjJA muja vavAnI mArI IcchA che. sAdhaka ! mIThI vAte karavAthI mahAna kAya thatAM nathI. samajI leje. AjJA pAlana e te retInA DuMgarAnu caDhANa che. tuM paga mUkatA jaIza, tema paga nIcenI retI khasatI jaze. nAnA pahADa, suvALA pahADa paNa bihAmaNA ane vikaTa pahu'Da khanI jaze. jJAnInI rIta-rasamA, temanA sneha, prema, audAya nA gaNita alaga heAya. AjJApAlana e te AI

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. saMsAra = phuTabolanI gema. [ 311 sI. esa.nI parIkSA che. jyAM puratakane eka paNa pAThayakrama nahi, pustakanA eka paNa prazna nahi. vidyArthI sAme UbhuM rahe ane zikSaka manamAM je Ave te prazna pUche ane tenA javAba ApavAnA. zikSakanA bhejA sAthe vidyArthIe pitAnA bhejAne meLavavAnuM zuM kIdhuM ? pachI kema kIdhuM? A kazuM nahi bolavAnuM. svastha-samatala rahI javAba ApavAnA. AvI ja AkarI kasoTI che AjJA pAlanamAM zakti nA hoya, sAmarthya nA hoya, te Dhaga nA kare. dekhAva nA karate gautamasvAmI banavAne ke mRgAvatI banavAne. tArI zakita vicArIne Daga bharaje. paNa makSane rAjamArga te AjJApAlana ja che. zUra banI saMcara....mahAvIra tane zakti pradAna kare. prabhu ! ApanA caraNa ane zaraNamAM A chuM. je mArI IcchA jItI jaze te mAruM samarpaNa zaramAI jaze. ApanI AjJAne ArAdhaka banIza te mAre maha bhAgI jaze. basa...mane tarakIba zikhavADe.mehane birA gaNAvI dauM. punaH punaH vinati vItarAganA caraNamAM

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47. sajjhAya tae kujA savvabhAvavabhAvaNa pAyAnI majabUtAI para imArata nirRra rahe che. je ImAratanA pAyA majabUta hAya te ImArata bhayaMkara vAvaTALa vacce paNa aDIkhama rahe che. gRha bAMdhakAmanA niSNAta imAratanA rUpa raMga phanIcara, ane DIjhAinathI AkarSAya nahi. teone prathama prazna hoya. pAcA keTale UDA nAMkhyA che ? keTaleA majabUta che ? > * sAdhunA jIvanazilpanA niSNAta tIrthaMkara paramAtmAe paNa eka ja pharamAvyuM che, jIvanamAM svAdhyAyathI keTale dhanya banyA te kahe " prabhu tapa mATe ekAMta nathI pharamAvatA. vihAra mATe dIvihAranI AjJA pharamAvatAM nathI. paNa adhika-sarvAdhika preraNA ravAdhyAyanI kare che. sAdhunA bhAvaprANa svAdhyAya che. jyAM svAdhyAya nahi tyAM sAdhutA nahi. jyAM sAdhutA tyAM svAdhyAyanA raNakAra.... sAdhu svAdhyAyane prAra Mbha kare, ane tene AtmAnuM darzana thavA lAge....sAdhu khudanA pratibiMba svAdhyAyanA da NamAM nihALe..duniyAnA dareka daNamAM gATALA thAya paNa svAdhyAya evu niLa dRNu che jemAM AtmA

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pramAda = karelI ArAdhanAnA nAzanuM khIja. [ 313 jevA hAya tevA darzana thAya. khasa, A dana sAdhunA AtmAne spazI jAya. sadguNa prAptinA puruSArtha thAya ane duONu dUra karavAnI bhAvanA jAge.... purI svAdhyAya vinAnA sAdhu nAka vagaranI suMdarI jevA lAge ! svAdhyAya ja sAdhune paramAtmAnI nikaTa rAkhe. paramAtmAne saparka karI Ape. 5 svAdhyAya vagaranI kSaNa eTale sAdhunA bhAvaprANane bhaya ! sAmAcArInA jANakAra kahe, paramAtmAe mane eka divasa rAtrimAM utsaga aDhAra kalAkanA svAdhyAya karavAnuM pharamAvyuM paNa rAjanA aDhAra kalAka svAdhyAya nA karuM tyAM sudhI * mane sASanI nida nA Ave. cAvIsa kalAkamAM traNa kalAka nidrA. traNa kalAka jIvana nirvAha caigya pravRtti. khasa, dehanA nirvAha mATe cha kalAka ApavAnA bAkIne badhA samaya jJAnArjana karavAne. pachI bhale te jJAnasAdhanA sUtra rUpe cAle, atha rUpe cAle ke ci MtanarUpe cAle. paNa aDhAra kalAka svAdhyAyamAM ja vitAvavAnA. utsa`thI devAdhidevanI AjJA, sAdhu samAcArInu pAlana karavAnI jene bhAvanA hAya tene divasa ke rAtrinA traNabhAga AtmaciMtanamAM upayukata karavA * joI e. divasa ke rAtrine eka eka bhAga ja tArA saMyamayAtrAnA nirvAha athaeN AhAra ane ArAmamAM vitAvavAnA. che.

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314 ] zuru = Atma para lAgelA DAghane dekhADanAra 6Nu.. mahAtmA ! A tA jinakalpInA AcAra ne ? sthavikalpInA AcAra tA bhinna ne ? ame thoDu ghaNu karIe te doSa nahi ne ? bhagavAne ja sthavira kalpInI AcAra praNAlikA alaga pharamAvI che. prabhu dayA kare ane Apa amane zikSA kare ? Apa paNa dayA karo ne ! sAdhaka ! paramAtmAne tArA para vAtsalya hAya ane mane paNa heAya. sthavirakalpI ane jinakalpInA AcArane vidvAna. tuM aticAra bhUlI na jAya ne ? tu paNa aticAramAM Ale che ne cAravAra sajjhAya nA karI ! zuM tu sajjhAya kare che ? mahAtmA ! huM sajhAya cAravAra niha paNa pAMcavAra karuM chuM. sAdhaka ! prabhu AjJAnI mazkarI nA kara. pAMca gAthAnI sajjhAya. karI lIdhI eTale eka praharanA svAdhyAya thaI gayA ? bAra kalAka te divasa rAtamAM tAre paNa utsaga mAge svAdhyAya karavA ja joie. svAdhyAya vagaranI sAdhutAnA svAda kevA ? svAdhyAyamAM lIna sAdhu nalinI gulma adhyayananuM punarA vana kare ane avaMtI, sukumAla sAdhu mahAtmA pAse doDI Ave. sAdhune svAdhyAya sAMbhaLe tene jAtismaraNa jJAna

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parva = dhamIjanone AnaMda ApanAra vasaMtaRtu. [ 315 thAya, te je svAdhyAya kare tene zuM lAbha thAya? svAdhyAyamAM azubhakarmanA hAsanI zakti che. svAdhyAyamAM zubha karmone baMdhAvavAnI zakti che. svAdhyAyamAM karmanirjarAnI zakti che. pUrvanA svAdhyAyathI kRtajJAnI paNa kevalajJAnI samAna gaNAya. svAdhyAya dvArA zukala lesthA sthira bane. dharmadhyAnathI zukaladhyAnamAM pahoMcavAnI svAdhyAya sopAnazreNuM che. vAdhayAyamAM svazikSaNa che. khuda manana kare ane khuda ja pitAne sudhAre kare.. mahAtmA ! huM kyAreya "hA" mAM "hA milAvI zaka nathI. jevuM hoya tevuM kahI dauM. mane bAra kalAka gAthAnuM puna-- vartana nA game. gAthA gekhatAM kaMTALI jAuM chuM. kaMIka rasa paDe tevuM hoya te ThIka. bAkI Ama eka hajAra svAthAya pachI te e kaMTALe Ave ke niMda ja AvI jAya. tame kaho cho svAdhyAyathI apramattabhAva pragaTa thAya. paNa mane te svAdhyAya karatA ja evI ALasa caDhe che ke paDI hAthamAM rahe ne niMda AvI jAya. sAdhaka ! " tuM svAdhyAyano artha punarAvartana sudhI sImita nA kara. paramAtmAe vAcanA-pRcchanA-parAvartanA-anuprekSA ane dharmakathA sudhI ja svAdhyAya nathI kahyo. paNa cAra prakAranA svAdhyAyamAM dhyAnane paNa AvarI lIdhuM che. gAthAnuM puna--

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316 ] jJAna = ajJAna aMdhakArane ulecanAra dIpaka rAva na karavu te ja zAstrIya rIte pUrNa svAdhyAya nA kahevAya. sUtranA atha eTalAM ja AtmasAt karavA joie. paNa sUtra khelatAM atha samajAI javA joIe, sUtrapATha ekadama zAMtithI ane bhAvavAhitAthI karavA joie sUtrapATha karatAM anubhava thavA joie ke paramAtmA gurugautamanI jema mane pratimASa karI rahyA che. zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtrane pATha cAlatA hAya tyAre tArI manobhUmikAmAM pAvApurInuM prabhunuM aMtima samavasaraNa tAdaza khaDu thavu joie, aSTa mahAprAtihAya ane bIjA cAra atizayathI zAbhatAM paramAtmA mAlakoza rAgamAM dezanA daI rahyA che. bhAgyayeAge hu paNa tyAM pahoMcI gayeA. cAtaka ane mayUra jema meghane joI ne nRtya karI le, tema paramAtmAnA darzana karIne huM bhAvavibhAra banI gayeA. prabhunI dezanA zravaNa karatAM rAma rAma vikasita banI gayA....huM thanI aMjali thaI gaI....mastaka jhUkI gayuM. zrI uttarAdhyayanasUtranI gAthA khelatAM A bhAva pedA thAya te sAce kahuM chuM, pramattabhAvathI apramattabhAvamAM tuM sthira banI jAya,' svAdhyAyanI tArI A magnatA tArAmAM dhyAnaceganI siddhi kare ane te dvArA tuM nikAcitakanA paNu kSaya karI zake. bhalA ! tuM kayAMthI evI vAta laI Avyo ke svAdhyAya eTale khAreya kalAka gAthA geAkhI javAnI. bAra kalAka tu jJAnA

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khAmImAMthI khUbInuM saMzodhana kare te mahAmAnava [ 317 jana kara e mukhya vAta che. bAra kalAka tuM tArAmAM. khavAI jA bAra kalAka tArA AtmAnI mAvajata kara, bAra kalAka vairAgya rasAyaNanA pAna kara. tArI ruci sUtrapAThanI heya te te kara, arthanI hoya te te kara, citananI heya. te te kara, tane tAtvika praznottarImAM rasa hoya te te kara, tane dharmakathA karavAnI bhAvanA hoya te te kara. paNa .....mArI te tane hitazikSA che, "tuM bAra kalAka prabhunI AgamavANImAM lIna banI jA. prabhunI vANuM tane avazya anaMtaguNa banAvaze. paNa uttarAdhyayanasUtranI paMkitanuM samaraNa karaje...."sajhAyaM teo kujajA savabhAvavibhAvaNuM sarvabhAvane pragaTa karanAra svAdhyAyane kara. savabhAvane pragaTa karanAra svAdhyAya tArA kartavyadharmanuM udhana nahi kare? tArA AtmasvabhAvane vikasita nahi kare ? svAdhyAya te sAdhune mATe saMjIvanI auSadha tulya che. svAdhyAya tane AtmAmAMthI paramAtmA nA banAve? jarUra banAve sAdhaka tuM svAdhyAyamAM lIna banyo nathI tyAM sudhI tane gurunI preraNAnI jarUra che. "svAdhyAyamAM tuM lIna banI jaIza pachI tane keIe preraNA nahi karavI paDe, tAruM jIvana ja saune preraka-uddhAraka banI jaze. cakSurahita aMdha vyaktine pratipaLa kahevuM paDe. saMbhA , khADe che, Tekare che, UMcuM che, nIcuM che, lAkaDI ' rAkhe, divAle hAtha rAkhe, paNa jene AMkhe dekhAtuM hoya tene kazuM kahevAnuM nahi. nayanavALe prANa barAbara ja

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318 ] bhulanA svIkAra te sunna. cAle. tema sAdhaka ! tuM svAdhyAyamAM lIna anIza eTale ka dharmanuM jJAna tane svayaM thaze. vadhu zuM kahuM ? tArA AcAramAM bhavyAtmAne paramAtmAnA AcAranA dana thaze. kAraNa svAdhyAyathI pavitra thayela tArA AtmA paramAtmAnA pratinidhi banI gayA haiAya pachI tArA AcAra aMge zuM preraNA karavAnI hAya ? tArA jIvanamAMthI keTalAMya pAmara preraNA laI dhanya banatAM hAya! basa, sAdhaka ! punaH punaH eka ja hitazikSA ApavAnu mana thAya che. svAdhyAyamAM dattacitta ana prabhu ! bhakta ApanA, bhakti karavAnI bhAvanA mArI, zakti Ape| svAdhyAyanI. AtmasvabhAvamAM lIna banI ApanI najadIka rahe. A ja che sadAnI ApanA caraNakamalamAM namra prAthanA....

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48. samAhi* paDisa dhae ma jalanI vRSTi thAya, ThaMDI paDe, garamI paDe, joranA pavana phUMkAya. prakRti prakRtinuM dAna karI zake, paNa AtmasvabhAvanuM jagatamAM koI dAna karI zake ? AtmasvabhAva khudde siddha karavA joie. je jagatamAM sulabha prApya che te sau Ape, paNa duObha hAya te kayAMthI Ape ?. durlabha che eTale jagatanA jIvAne maLe nahi. maLyuM nathI te ApavAnuM kayAMthI banI zake ? saMta ane mA vizva pAse kayAreya AzA rAkhatA nathI. sa Mto kahe che. "vizva Ape che te amAre mana mUlyavAna nathI ane amane jenA mUlya che te ApavAnI tAkAta vidhanA prANIe pAse nathI." saMta-mahaMta bIjA para AzA rAkhI kayAreya paNa prayatnazUnya anatAM nathI. saMta mahaMtanA prayatna hoya te eka ja hAya che 'samAhi paDisa dhae'samAdhinuM anusa MdhAna karavu. vizvanI dhI rIta che. 'dunane te vaza thAya ane sajjanane pratikULa cAle. paNa sajjana te tenuM ja nAma ke je koinIce pharIyAda nA kare, peAtAnuM kartavya zuM che te vicArI kavyanA paMthe Agekdama bhare.....!' paramAtmAnA kalyANaka samaye tathA mahAtmAenA dAna prasage ratna-vasa-rUpya-suvaNu -sugadhIjaLa vigerenI vRddhi

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320 ] bhula kahenAra phUla jevA lAge teA samyaktva. thAya che paNa....zAMtinI vRSTi thAya che ? tIrthaMkara paramAtmAnA sAMnidhyamAM paNa zAMtinI vRSTi nahi. paNa....zAMtinI sAdhanA jarUrI che. pratyeka sAdhake, pratyeka ArAdhake khUbaja zAMta ane svastha citte vicAravA jevI vAta che. jagata bAhya badhI anukULatA karI Apaze. paNa zAMti ane samAdhi paNa tane kAI karI Apaze evI apekSA jo tu rAkhe teA kahevuM paDe ke zAMti-samAdhine tu' samajyuM ja nathI. samAdhi ke zAMti koi evI cIja nathI ke koi sthaLe jaine lai avAya. samAdhi-zAMti AtmAe prApta karavAnI che. samAdhi-zAMti apAtI nathI paNa meLavAya che. zrI uttarAdhyayanasUtranuM padma khUba mA`ika che, 'samAhi... paDisa'dhae' samAdhinuM pratisa dhAna kara. samAdhinI pAchaLa lAgIe te ApaNA AtmAmAM rahela samAdhi prAdurbhAva thAya. samAdhi koinA kama kSayathI nA maLe. paNa ApaNI peAtAnA kama kSayathI maLe. tema asamAdhi paNa koInA kAraNe nA maLe paNa ApaNe AtmA kaSAyane AdhIna ane te asamAdhi prApta thAya. pratyeka vyaktine zArIrika kaSTanI maryAdA hAya ja. paNa pratyeka vyaktine mAnasika kaSTa amamAMMdita ja hAya !' mahApuruSanA hRdayanI bhUmikA eTalI UMcI uThelI hAya che ke temane svanA duHkhanA vismaraNa haiAya che. temane paranA

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thayelI bhUlane sudhAre te mahAtmA [ 321 duHkhanAM sadA saMbhAraNAM hoya, duniyA kadAca mahApuruSa sAthe bhadra vyavahAra kare paNa samAna sAthe te abhadra vyavahAra karavA ja TevAyela che. mahAtmAnA zi mahAtmAnI pavitratAne vaza thaI athavA temanAM teja sahana nahi karI zakavAthI temanI sAme te vinaya, viveka, namratA Acare paNa badhAnI sAthe te kaSAyanuM bhayaMkara tAMDava. zuM jJAnInI dRSTi bahAra A svabhAva pradarzana rahe? jJAnIne samAdhinuM sAnukULa vAtAvaraNa maLe? mahAtmAe je jJAnAbhyAsathI AcAra vyavahAranI ucca praNAli nizcita karI hoya te mahAtmAnA sahavatamAM hoya ? bhalA! ghaNIvAra evuM ja bane che. badhAne pavitra banAvanAra, svaccha banAvanAra jala paNa te jalanI nikaTa rahenAra apavitra gaMdA. mAchImArane te je che? je dI. duniyAne prakAza Ape te dIvA nIce aMdhAruMtema keTalIkavAra evuM bane che mahApuruSanA nikaTavatI upara mahApuruSanI asara thatI nathI. zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra kahe che gagaSi mahAtmAnA ziSya gaLiyA baLada jevA, sAraNAvAraNa-ceyaNa-paDiyaNa dvArA paNa te AtmAo ArAdhanAne sAnukULa na banyA. yuga pravartaka kAlikAcA ziSya - 21

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322 ] bhakti dvArA prasannatA meLave te ziya samudAyathI uddavigna banI ekAkI banI pArasadvIpamAM vihAra prAraMbhI lIdhe. A keI eka mahAtmAnI paristhiti nathI. pratyeka mahAtmAnI paristhiti che. mahAtmAmAM jeTalI kakSAnI zAMtatA hoya teTalI zAMtatA temanA ziSyomAM kyAMthI hoya? ajJAnI sahavartIe mahAtmAnA dilanI karUNAne kyAMthI mApI zake? . ThaMDA pANImAM sau hAtha nAMkhe, tema ThaMDA gurune joI kavAyI AtmAonA kaSAyenA tephAna mAjhA mUke. pratikSaNapratipaLa asamAdhi-azAMtinuM vAtAvaraNa dekhAya. paNa mahA tmA pitAnA AtmAne prazna pUche, zuM A AmAM doSita ? nAkame doSita ! nirdoSa upara guse karAya nahi. karmo deSita che paNa te jaDa che. gura karIe te tene asara thAya nahi. have gusso karavAne rahyo tenI upara ? khudanI saMganI Adata upara." AtmA tAre guNa che-asaMga. tAre svabhAva kamala same nilepa che. saMganA kAraNe zAMti jokhamAya-te tArI maulikatA nahi. saMgathI para rahI tArI zAMtinI sAdhanA akhaMDa rahe te tArA sAdhusvabhAvane vijaya! asaMga guNanI ArAdhanA! - samAdhi Amika sAdhanA che. Atmika sAdhanA AtmasvabhAva pragaTAvyA vagara maLe? mahAtmAne jyAre bAhya

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Avn/vv * zraddhAthI sAdhanA saphaLa bane che [ 323 vAtAvaraNa spazI jAya, kene kAraNe guse-roSa pragaTa thAya tyAre pAMcadaza miniTamAM pazcAttApanAM bora bora jevAM AMsu vahevA lAge. saMga e vibhAvadazA. asaMga guNa e AtmAnI maulika svabhAvadazA" pharI puruSArtha kara pharI prayatna kara. tArI svabhAva dazAnuM pragaTIkaraNa kara...! pratyeka sUtra vyavahArI sAdhu mahAtmAe samudAyamAM jIvavAnuM che. gacchanA AlaMbana dvArA taravAnuM che. paramAtmAe kahyuM, "gacha samudAya ArAdhanAmAM sahAyaka gaccha haiya, samudAya hoya, tyAM alaga alaga uMmaranA bAla, vRddha, yuvAna sAdhu hoya. alaga alaga dezanA hoya, alaga alaga svabhAvanA ane alaga alaga karmavALA hoya, saMyama paryAya jema vadhaze tema keTalAka nirmaLa banaze. sahanuM sahIne ghaDAI jaze te keTalAka kANiyA vastra jevA thaI jaze. keTalAka be zabda sAMbhaLIne cAra zabda saMbha- lAvavAnI AdatavALA banI gayA haze. nAnI bAbatamAM mahuM tephAna karanArA haze. A badhA vacce paNa jo tAre AbhA gacchathI uddavigna bane te devane bhAgI koNa? gacha ke tuM ? "ApaNuM haiyAmAM te saunA prati karuNA janmavI ja joIe. "pavana-pANI zAMtinAM dAna karI zake

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324 ] jagatano upekSaka te ja saMta-mahaMta ane huM badhA AtmAne zAMta kema nA karI zakuM? mAre puNyAya nahI ke tItha kara na banyA. tItha kara hAya to jAti veravALAM sApa-nALiyA, si'ha-bakarI sau eka sAthe dezanA sAMbhaLI zake, tema mAro AtmA puNyazALI ane teA gacchamAM samAdhi-zAMti sthapAya. sAce samAdhinI sAdhanA siddha thAya teA kalikAlamAM paNa AtmAnA anerA Ajasa pragaTa thAya. sAdhaka ! vadhu zu' kahe... ? vartImAna paristhati jotAM dila drave che. aMtaranI vedanA AMsu dvArA paNa AlekhAya tevI nathI. AAdhanA ane sAdhanA dvArA ja paristhiti parAvartana pAme tevI che. basa....sAdhaka samAdhine siddha kara.... prabhu ! samAdhinA sAdhaka thA, ApanA AzIrvAda mane phaLe. hu' samAdhimaya anu eja varadAna Ape.....

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49. aNuNissa nasthimukhA, narthiamukhassuM nivvANu" na Jie jagata sauOnI pUjA pAchaLa pAgala che. tyAre sAdhaka mahAtmA guNa upAsanA pAchaLa masta che. saunI pUjA karanAranA eka divasa evA Ave che ke jyAre upA- saka rahe che ane upAsyasauMdaya naSTa banI jAya che. sayama vinAnu` sauMdarya dAhaka ane khAdhaka bane che. sauMdaya nI javALAmAM bhasmIbhUta thanAra aneka pata`giyAM pratyeka yugamAM hAya che, paNa.. .guNanI sAdhanA evI majAnI che....guNanA....guNInA upAsaka jema vadhe tema sAdhakane zAMti-AnaMdanI anubhUti thAya... "na aNuNisa nathisukSmA, amukhassuM nivvANu." 'uttarAdhyayana sUtranuM pada preraNAne srota che, jainazAsananI dRSTie guNu kAne kahevAya ? guNa vagara mekSa nahi.' uttarAdhyayana sUtranuM A pada ci'tana mAgI le che. Atma svabhAvane pragaTa kare te guNu.... cAritranI kriyA paNa cAritranI kriyA tyAre ja kahevAya ke jyAre te AtmAnA cAritra paryAyane cAritra guNane pragaTa kare. * Azravane nirAya kare te cAtri. sAmAyika che dApasthApanIya, parihAra vizuddhi, A cAritramAM kriyAne

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regane sahe te sAdhu saMparAya ane yathAkhyAta pradhAnatA che. jyAM kaSAya 1 326 ] ? pradhAna karI zakAya. paNa sUkSma cAritramAM teA guNanI ja dahananI mukhya ArAdhanA che, jyAM svabhAvanA pragaTIkaraNu che. sAtamA guNa sthAnaka khAdgha cAritra kriyAtmaka ke bhAvanAtmaka ? pravRttimUlaka ke vRttimUlaka ? apramatta guNasthAnaka sudhI cAritranI kriyAtmaka ArAdhanA karavAnI, pratikramaNapaDilehaNa-gerI--vihAra-leca vigere ekapaNa pravRtti apUrNa nahi karavAnI. avidhithI nahiM karavAnI. akAle nahiM karavAnI, gurunizrA vagara nahi karavAnI. guru AjJA vagara nahi karavAnI. zAstranA vidhi niSedha-utsaga, apavAda, dravya-kSetra-kALa-bhAva vicArIne karavAnI. koI pramatta sAdhu kahe, "pratikramaNa karuM chuM." paNa, AtmA pApathI pIdehaTha karatA nathI. te pratikramaNanA khATA DhoMga na karu tA cAle ne? pratikramaNa Atmi NAma pedA na kare, teA karavAthI zuM lAbha ?' sAdhaka ! davA karI, paNa ArAma na thayeA. rAga nA maLyuM. eTale davA barAbara nahi ? davA cheDI devAya ? nA....davAnuM pramANa vadhAravAnuM. davAnI muddata vadhAravAnI. ahu ja hAya tA davA adalavAnI, paNa ArogyapremIthI davA levAnuM na cheDAya.

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ciMtAne ci'tanamAM pheravavAnA eka nAjuka ghaDI te sadana [327 pratikramaNanI pravRtti ja tArAmAM pratikramaNanI vRtti peDhA karaze. pratikramaNa kALa veLAe kara, mudrApUrvaka kara, arthanI vicAraNApUrNAMka kara, tanmayatApUva ka kara, uccAraNa. pUrvaka kara. paNa jyAM sudhI pApanI vRtti che tyAM sudhI pratikramaNanI pravRtti cAlu rAkha." kriyAtmaka cAritranI ArAdhanA dvArA, guNAtmaka svabhAva siddha karavAnA, apramatta guNa sthAnakathI AgaLa kriyAtmaka cAritra nahi. akaSAya bhAvAtmaka cAritra ane siddha bhagava temAM vabhAvamAM sthiratvarUpa cAritra,cAritra e AtmAnA mahAna bhautika guNa che. cAritrathI sa kama kSaya rUpa mokSa. sava karma kSaya rUpa mekSa vagara nirvANu nahi. jyAM kaSAya tyAM cAritra nahi te pachI yathAkhyAta cAritra vagara bIjA cAritrane zu kahevAya ? cAritrAbhAMsa-guNAbhAsa....nA....evuM nA paNa kahevAya. sAmAyika chedApasthApanIya, parihAra vizuddhi-sUkSma sa parAya ane yathAkhyAta paNa cAritranA bheda che tema paramAtmAe kahyuM che. paramAtmAnA vacanamAM rahasya che bhale pUrvanA cAritramAM saMpUrNa kyAyanA nAza na thaye hAya paNa amuka kaSAye! te nAza pAme ja che. kaSAya ma thAya, kaSAya alpa thAya tethI AgaLanA cAritramAM kaSAyanA abhAva jevI avasthA prApta thAya. chevaTe kaSAyanA nAza thAya. cAritradharanI hArdika vRtti kaSAya nAzanI ja che.' hAspITala

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328 ] saMyama eTale kSamAne ghadhe. Arogya mATe. hepITalamAM praveza Arogya mATe tema prabhunuM cAritra kaSAyanA nAza mATe....cAritrane svIkAra kaSAya nAza mATe, te pachI cAritrane pAlana kaSAyanA kSaya mATe ja hoya. bhavyAtmA! "prabhunA cAritranI jaDIbuTTI maLI che te have Atmika guNanI prAptimAM lAgI jA." jema jema tArAM cAritra paryAyanAM divasamAsa ane varSa vadhatAM jAya tema tema tArAmAM saddaguNanI vRddhi thavI joIe. tethI ja mALA gaNavAnI "aguNirasa nathi muphakho.' guNa vinA mikSa nahi, mekSa na maLe tyAM sudhI mane cena nahi, jaMpa nahi. mekSanuM lakSya siddha kaTvA te grAmanagara-gotra-mAtA-pitA nAma ane veza badalyAM. mekSanuM lakSya siddha karavA mahAvrata svIkAryA. A janmamAM sAdhyanI siddhi nahi karuM te kayAre karIza? jiMdagIne je dAva lagADe paDe te lagAvIne paNa saMyamanI bAjI jItI javI che. have hAra khAvI piSAya tema nathI. samaja na hatI tyAM sudhI retInA gharane bhavya ImArata samaye paNa samaja AvyA bAda te pharaka paDe ja. gurukRpA na hatI. tyAM sudhI eTaluM ja vicAra-mane dIkSA lIdhe keTalAM varasa thayAM? mArAthI nAnuM koNa? huM keTalAMthI meTo? AMkaDA dvArA ja sAdhanAne mApatuM hatuM. guNavattAne lakSyAMka ja na hatuM. have samajAya che. "merU parvata jeTalA ghA muhapatti kyAM paNa kema taye nahi? veza badalyuM hatuM, paNa dila badalyuM na hatuM. prabhu! have tamArA pAse

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padArtha pratyenA mamatvane cheDe te tyAgI karagarIne vinavuM chuM. hRdaya parivartana mATe cAritra Ape, - hRdaya zuddhi mATe cAritra Apa, zukala leyAnI ativRddhi mATe cAritra Ape. mahAtmA kaMDarike eka hajAra varSa cAritrya pALyuM. paNa manamAM saMsAra AvyuM. tethI eka hajAra varSanI sAdhanA niSphaLa gaI ane eka ja divasanA saMsAranA bhege temane narake laI gayA. bahArathI rAganI pravRtti eka divasanI, paNa manamAM te rAgabhaga vilAsanI ja vRtti - janmI. eTale hajAra varSanI ArAdhanAne parAjaya ane eka divasanA bheganA kAraNe sAtamI nArakInA atithi banyA. prabhu ! mane mahAtmA puMDarikanA cAritrapAlananA abhilASanA zubhabhAva Apa. nA bhAI dIkSA le. moTA" bhAI puMDarikane rAjya saMbhALavuM paDe. manamAM saMyamanI - bhAvanA. hajAra varSa rAjya karyuM. phakata eka divasane saMyama pALe. mahAtmA eka divasa ja saMyamanA medAnamAM UbhA rahyA ane moha pobArA gaNa gayA. mahAtmA ArAdhanAmAM saphala banyA. kAraNa zuM ? "saMsAramAM "zarIra hAjara hatuM.' paNuM, mana na hatuM. paryAya saMsArane paNa mana mokSanuM." eTale temane eka divasane cAritraparyAya paNa guNamaya banyuM. zuM mane mahAtmAne zubhabhAva udhAra paNa nA maLe? - sAdhaka ! mahAtmAnA bhAva udhAramAM nA maLe, paNa uddhAra mATe maLe. A badhI preraNA zA mATe? tArA

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330 ] krAdhane niSphaLa kare te yoddho AtmAmAM kaMika navya-bhavya-divya ciMtana jAge e mATe ja che. tuM paNa bhavyAtmA che. prabhunA cAritra dhane pAmyA. tArA sAhasane namana ane vaMdana. paNa have adhavacce Ubhe nA rahetA, thAkIne vizrAma nA karatA. jema mANasa lekhanakArya karatA jAya tema tenA akSara sudara thatA jAya tenAvicAra prauDha thatA jAya. vicAranuM suMdara pRthakkaraNa karI zake. tema have tAre paNa mane thoDA javAba ApavA paDaze. tArI ArAdhanA ane sAdhanAnA cApaDAnAM lekhAMjokhAM karavAM che. naphA, jamA, udhAranAM pAsAM tapAsavAM che. dIkSA lIdhI tyAranI traNa varSoMnI tArI manobhUmikA spaSTa kara.' pachI have khAra varSe khAda tArI manebhUmikA spaSTa kara. pahelAM koI laDe te, duHkha thatuM hatuM. have koI ThapakA Ape te duHkha thAya che. tA tArA saMyamanA saravALe sAcA. pahelAM upavAsa, AyakhilanI gaNatarI rAkhatA hatA have kama kSayanI gaNatarI rAkhe che? teA tArI sayamanI sAdhanA guNAMkavALI. pahelAM badhAnI phariyAda karatA hatA have tArA avaguNuMAnI phariyAda kare che? te tAruM te saMyamaguNaprAptinuM kAraNa banyuM. pahelAM svaprazaMsAnuM besUru saMgIta vahAvatA hatA. have guNIjananI prazaMsAnA madhurA surAthI vizvane sabhara kare che? te tArA cAritra rUpa maMdira upara suvarNa kaLaza caDhe che. zuddha cAritranA ArAdhana mATe AMkaDAnI kiMmata

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keAInI bhUla para upahAsa karavA te karatA che. [ 331 nathI.' pAMca-daza-pacAsa-seAnA AMkaDAmAM zuddha cAritra prApta thAya nahi. zuddha cAritra kaSAyanA kSaya dvArA prApta thAya. niSkaSAya . bhAvanuM -vItarAgabhAvanuM yathAkhyAta cAritra guNa ane A cAritra guNavALA mekSa pAme, sarvAM karma kSaya kare te ja nirvANu pAme. samasta dhanathI rahita mane. sAdhaka ! a'taranA AziSa. nirvANa, zikhara sara kara che. prabhu ! Apa samA yathAkhyAta cAritradharanI chAyA mArA AtmAne zu pavitra nA anAve? prabhu mane ApanI chAyAmAM rAkhe.....huM ApanI praticchAyA khatu e ja AziSa Ape..'

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50. pAye rasA dignikarA nANuM , auSadhanuM kArya rAgane zAMta karavAnuM, jalanuM kArya - tRSA chipAvavAnuM, saMta mahaMtanuM kArya vizvane zAMti Apa vAnuM. jenA zire vizvanI javAbadArI heya tene khUba sajAga rahevuM paDe. jeTalI moTI sattA teTalI jIvanamAM sAvadhAnI khUba jarUrI. phakta lekhana ja jeNe karavAnuM che te pustakanAM pustaka lakhI zake. paNa jeNe phakta sahI karavAnI che, teNe anekavAra vAMcI vicArIne ja sahI karAya. bhikhArIne dIkare tephAna kare te tene kaI laDe nahi. zrImaMtane chokaro tephAna kare te munIma turata kahe nAnA zeTha tephAnA cheDe, zAMta bane, je tephAnI raheze te tamAre lAkhAne dhadha khoravAI jaze. rAjaputra taphAna kare, te maMtrI turata kahe, "taphAnI rAjakumAra rAjya nA saMbhALI zake; tephAnI ja banavuM hoya te bhikhArIne tyAM jaI rahevA lAge. zramaNaputra tephAna kare te vizvamAM sarvatra avyavasthA phelAI jAya. zramaNaputra sAdhu kyAreya tephAna nA kare. zramaNane kAyaprapti hoya ane kAyadaMDathI virati hoya. zramaNa kArya vinA hAthapaga paNa UMcA nA kare ane zramaNa kArya mATe jarA amaste pramAda paNa na kare ! zramaNa eTale saMyamI, sadA egone kAbUmAM rAkhanAra. zramaNa eTale

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zubhanuM sarjana kare te saMyamI [ 333 sadA vegonuM mekSamArge pravartana karanAra zramaNanA yogo. saMyamI. zramaNanI indriye sadA dAnta. jagatamAM badhAnI IndriyenA azvo taphAnI hoya paNa vizvatAraka corAsI lAkha jIvananA rakSaka zramaNanI. Indriye tephAnI bane te? paramAtmA phakta eTaluM ja kahe. che ke tAraka zabdamAMthI pahela "tA" akSara nIkaLI jAya ane tane badale "mA" akSara joDAI jAya te traNa akSaranI padavImAM pharaka nA paDe. bola, sAdhu thaIne tane A padavI pasaMda. Avaze. zramaNa ! - vizvakalyANanI maMgala javAbadArI tArI te pachI tArI eka bhUla paNa mApha karAya? tArI jIvanacaryA ja devAdhideve eTalI mahAna darzAvI che ke jo tuM e cayane anude, te kyAMya bhUla thAya ja nahi, tArI karmendriya jJAnendriya banI jAya. * pAMca IndriyamAM cAra IndriyenuM eka kAmarasendriyanAM e kAma...tethI te khAvAmAM ane bolavAmAM udhamAta macAve mahArathIo paNa cAra AMgaLanI jihUvA AgaLa pANI pANI thaI jAya, jIbha khAvuM ane besavuM be ema khUba moTAM kAma kare che. khAvAmAM je saMyama tUTyo te pAMce Indriya bephAma bane, zarIrane puSTikAraka kherAka maLe te manavacana-kAyAnAM baMdhana teDI akArya tarapha AMdhaLI.

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334 ] maMdira eTale sa. darzananuM pAvarahAusa , doTa mUkI de. eTale ja zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM khAsa pharamAvyuM che : ' 2sApagAma hu seviyavvA pAya. rasA ditti karA narANu jainazAsanamAM gecarI bhejana aMge sUkSmamAM sUkSma cIvaTa rAkhI che. tevI prAyaHkhIjanta' zAstrAmAM nathI. bhAjana niSpAdana ( gocarI grahaNa) adhika vidhi niSedha. te! gAcarI vAparavA mATe tenAthI paNa adhika vidhi niSedha che. zuddha sAdhupaNAnA pAlana aMge khAsa niyama che--zuddha, sAdo, arasa nIrasa AhAra paNa alpa pramANamAM levAnA...te mAdaka, pauSTika ADAra teA kAraNa vagara levAnA ja kacAMthI hAya ? temAM paNa dUdha vagere cha vigaIvALA AhAra tA levAnA heAya ja kayAMthI ? dUdha, ghI adhika pramANamAM bhAjanamAM levAya tA indriya puSTa ane ane zarIramAM sAta dhAtuonI abhivRddhi thAya. vRddhi pAmela sAta dhAtu zAMta rahetI nathI paNa zAMta thayelI vAsanAne uddIpta kare che. niMda harAma khane che. " akALe jAgavAthI duni`cAranuM sAmrAjya mana upara savAra thaI jAya che. '' ekAnta, rAtri, uddIpta thayelI vAsanA ane teAkAnI doDatA gheADA jevI indrio zramaNanI varSAnI sAdhanAne kSaNamAM bharamIbhUta karI nAkhe che, jema khAudharA enDru', jUThThuM vAsI, arasa, nIrasa, gaMduM, gokharuM, khUlluM, badhAye pheMkI dIdheluM game te khAya, tema vAsanAnA bhayaMkara vAvAjhoDA -vacce sapaDAyelA kAine paNa pakaDavA doDe. koI bhAna - nahi, koI jJAna nahi. saLagatA lADhAnA thAMbhalAne paNa

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upAzraya eTale sa. jJAna ane cAritranA saMgama [ 335 AliMgana kare [khasa Ama karIza teA mArA tema vAsanAne AdhIna cAre khAju phAMphAM mAre che. ane vicAre che ke huM] haiyAmAM janmelI Aga zAMta thaze. bhalA ! AgamAM ghI nAkhIe tA Aga zAMta thAya ? agni saLagyeA hAya ane pavana phukAya tA agni zAMta thAya ke agni mAjhA mUke ? tema vAsanAne zAMta karavAnA raste bhAga nahi paNa tyAga. vAsanAnI Aga bujhAvavA bhAganuM ghI nA joI e paNa tyAganuM jala joIe. sAmAnya vyaktine bhayaMkara heAnArata sarjAyA bAda khyAlamAM Ave che ke hAnArata kayA kAraNe sajAI ? jJAnIne khabara che ke viSayasevananI bhayaMkara haiAnArata mAika AhAranA kAraNe sarjAya che tethI sAdhakane parabrahmanA AsvAda karavA -nava vADa pharamAvI temAM AhArane tyAga khUba jarUrI kahyo. 1 * sAdhanA ane adhyayanamAM sAttvika, pauSTika, AhAra sahAyaka banI zake paNa te ja AhAra pramANathI adhika levA ane pace nahIM teA ane prApta thayelI indriya ane mananI zaktine jJAna-dhyAnamAM lagADavA khyAla na rAkhyuM te taphAna-ramakhANa thayA vinA rahe nahIM. jitendriya ja abhyAsI banI zake. AhAra ane nidrA niyamita haiAya tenAmAM smRti rahe, udyama rahe... ghama rahe te abhyAsa thAya.

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336 ] puNyathI cIja vinAzI che. zramaNe vAta-pitta-kapha adhika pramANamAM upanna thAya tevA AhAra vajana karavA joie. samatala AhAra ` dehadhAraNamAM sahAyaka che, samatAla AhArathI zarIramAM ejasa pedA thAya. AjasvI zramaNa tejasvI banI zake. chatAM zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM ' pAyaM rasA dittikarA narANa'. padamAM rahela prAyaH zabda khUkha sUcaka che. badhAne ja ekAnte ghI, dUdha unmatta banAvanAra che tema mAnavu nahi. zAstramAM pharamAvyu` che ke dravyAnuyoganA abhyAsIne aneSaNIya, azuddhi, akalpya pracUra pramANamAM ghI dUdhavALa AhAra paNa kampya che. grahaNa karI zakAya che. dravyAnuyAganA abhyAsI deDa mATe jIve nahi; AtmA mATe jIve ! dehamAM rahyo haiya eTale dehane khArAka ApI de. paNa natA bhAjananI vastunA nAma tene khyAla hoya, na tA AhAranA svAda tene khyAla hAya, naisagika pravRttithI hAtha mukha tarapha jAya ane bhUkha AhArane peTa tarapha khe'cI le. paNa dravyAnuyoganA ci MtanamAM sthira banelA mahAtmAne AhAra aMge kaMipaNa khyAla nA hoya. AvA mahAtmAAne ati pauSTika AhAra. paNa indriyA mATe uttejanAjanaka banatA nathI. dhAtuone calAyamAna karI zakatA nathI. tethI prAya: zabda mUkela che. dukha`likA puSpamitra pratidina eka ghaDo ghI vAparI jatAM paNa zarIra juo teA eka eka hADakuM gaNAya tevu . mahAtmA zAsrAbhyAsamAM evA lAgelA ke temane divasanA cAvIsa kalAka AchA paDatA hatA. temanI sAme je paDhAya

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karmanA kSayathI maLelI cIja avinAzI che. [ 337 Ave te dvArA dravya, guNa, paryAyanA vizleSaNamAM lAgI jatA. abhyAsanI satata dhUnathI teone jaTharAgni eTale badhA "uddIpta thaI gayele ke eka ghaDA ghI vinA temane nirvAha thata na hate. sAdhaka! eka vAta tuM gekhI nAkha...mahAtmA kare te badhuM na karAya. mahAtmA kahe te karAya. AcArya bhagavaMta bappabhaTTa sU. ma. Akho divasa navyagraMtha nirmANa karI AmarAjAnI sabhAmAM dharmopadeza ApavA padhAre. zAstravAcana-lekhanathI temanI AMkhane eTale zrama paDyo hoya che have AMkhane ArAma maLavo joIe. AMkhanI davA thavI joIe. varNana vijJAnanA niSNAta AcArya bhagavaMtanI daSTi nRtya karatI vArAMganAnA lIlA kaMcuka para paDI tyAM temanI AMkhanI davAnI auSadhi maLI gaI. dasa-paMdara miniTamAM AMkhane ArAma thaI gaye. paNa badhA sAdhaka tema karavA jAya te? sApane madArI ramADI zake. gAruDIvidyAne jANakAra ja sApa sAthe khelI zake. zAstradvArA viSayane nAthavAnI jenAmAM zakti pedA thaI che tevA mahApuruSanA anukaraNa ajJAnathI paNa nA karate nahitara bhayaMkara gulAMTa khAI jaIza. ApaNe te zAstrajJA che tene anusaravAnuM. - prAyaH karIne mAdaka AhAra unmAda kare, to te unmAdajanaka rasanI dastI cheDI devAnI. svastha, samabhAvastha ane

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338] vinayanuM daLa mAnano nAza svabhAvastha banI ArAdhanAmAM AgaLa vadha. ArAdhakamAMthI ArAdhya bana e ja AziSa. prabhu! mane AhAranI jhaMjhaTa nA joIe. mArA haiyAmAM aNAhArI padanI abhilASA che. ApanI hitazikSA mArA moratha pUrNa kare. AhAra ane mitranI jema sAdhanAmAM sahAyaka banezatrunI jema ArAdhanAmAM vighAtaka na bane e ja ApanA caraNamAM vinati...

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51. khuddo sAhastio nare sadguNa ane durguNathI A jIvana te saphaLa niSphaLa bane che, sAthe paraleAka paNa niSphaLa bane che. mAnava Rsi'sA kare te pApa karyu ema anubhave. cArI kare temAM pApa karyuM ema dila dubhAya. parastrI sAme vikAradRSTie joyuM teA mAnavane lAge ke meM kharAba karyuM paNa kSudratA kare tyAre mAnavane manamAM raja paNa pedA thatA nathI. ET zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra pharamAve che : "khuddo sAhassi nara... kalDalesa tu pariName" kSudratAnI vRttithI kRSNalezyAnA pariNAma peDhA thAya. ane kRSNalezyAmAM AyuSyanA madha thAya teA jIva nIcatimAM gamana kare. mAnavInuM mana kabUla karavA taiyAra thatuM nathI ke kSudratA e bhayakara pApa che. mAnavI kaheze paNa emAM zuM thaI gayuM ? joyuM hatuM tevuM sAcuM ja khelyA chIe ne! bhalA bhAI ! adhuM sAcuM elAya nahi; vANInA upayoga lAbha mATe karAya, hita mATe karAya. (6 kSudratA-tucchatA durguNamAM koInA doSa kahevAnI bhAvanA sAthe mAnavInA mananuM ahIM pragaTa thAya che. ' mArA adhikAra che jevA joye tevA durguNa kahevAnA- kSudra mAnavI kAre ya jagatamAM sudhArA karI zake nahi. kSudra mAnavInA khelavAthI pApa thAya che. pApa eTaluM ja

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340 ] koIne bhUla batAvavI te karuNA che nahi, paNa bhayaMkara pApa, veranI vRddhi thAya. zudra mAnavIne bola haiyA para e bhayaMkara AghAta kare che. jyAM te mAnavInuM mRtyu....kAM te naphaphaTonI utpatti thAya che. moTI vAte te dUra rahevA de. jIvananA rejiMdA vyavahAranI ja vAta che. eka nAnuM bALaka tephAna kare che, tame daza vyakti vacce jAheramAM kahyuM ke A chokaro khUba tephanI che. pachI jeI le. e bALakanAM parAkrama. tephAna mAjhA mUkaze. bALakanA ajJAna manamAM saMgharSa thAya che ke badhAne khabara ja paDI gaI che ke huM tephAna karuM chuM. kuTuMbIo e jAhera karI dIdhuM che tethI have mArI vAta keNa mAnaze ? have zA mATe zAMta banuM ? badhA mArI sArI vAtane pracAra ocho karavAnA che? nAma badanAma thayuM te have sAruM zA mATe karavAnuM ? basa, have te reja kaMIka ne kaMIka navAM parAkrama karavAnAM ja ! ! ! zudra bananAra vyaktine A pragaTa thanArI bhayaMkara hALane khyAla hotuM nathI. paNa je vyaktine badanAma karAya che tenA haiyAmAM vairanI heLI saLagI UThe che. ke mAjhA mUke che. cUlAne agni ghara nA bALe, paNa ISyanI Aga kuTuMbane nAza kare. ane veranI javALA AkhA gAmane bALe. tema jenI nAlezI karavAmAM AvI te vyaktinI gyatA marI paravArI. vaDIlanAM-samAjanAM keinAM baMdhana rAkhe nahi. tenI daSTimAM tenA paricita badhA duzmana. sava paricita sAthe

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rAga Ave ane raDavu te gRhasthapaNu asatya vyavahAra zarU thaI jaze. badhA tenA asatya vyavahArathI udvigna raheze, te vyakti asa MtASathI bhaDakI UThaze. a Mte nAnI bhUla karanAra samAjanA bhayaMkara drohI banI jAya che kSudratAnA kAraNe ! sajjana ane U'cakuLamAM pedA thayela mahAnubhAvA patra vAMcatA hoya te lekhananI azuddhi mApha karI patra sudhArIne vAMce. koInI bAjumAM beThA hAIe ane tenAM vajra UcAMnIcAM hoya te sakhkhAM karavAnA mUka izArA karIe. koInA gharanA bAtharUma-saDAsano daravAjo khulle hAya tA baMdha kare che. koI gAmanI gaTara khuDDI hAya tA myunisipAlaTInuM dhyAna kheMcIne gaTaranu DhAMkaNa karAve. kAraNa ke nAgarikonA jIvananI surakSAnA savAla che. kAInA AvA sajjana svabhAvavALA mahAnubhAve daNanI jAherAta kare ? bhUla gunA koI kare paNa tenI bhUla-gunAnI jAherAta teA kSudra ja kare, tuccha kare. khanIe, te! attaranA dalAla banIe. paNa dudhanA dalAla nA manAya. je dudhanA dalAla ane tenu adhuM bagaDe. tema je avaguNa khele tenuM paNa samagra jIvana bagaDe. sAdhaka ! ela.....niMdA...pApa che ke nahi ? tu kahIza....ni'dA, pApa ane kSudratAmAM zu pharaka! ane sagI baheno che, eka ja mAnI e dIkarI che. niMdA teA nAnI che. ' " kSudratA--lakeTa vRttinI preraNA vagara nidA [ 341 ET zaya nathI. " *

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34ra 1 dharma eTale AtamahaM sane nirmaLa banAvanAra kSudratA rUpe pavanathI pApanA retInA DuMgare halabele che. eka jagyAethI bIjI jagyAe sthAnAMtara kare che paNa. pApa nAza pAmatAM nathI. SF "kSudratA karanArane kaze lAbha thatuM nathI. jenI sAme kSudratA karAya che tene kaze. lAbha nathI ane je kSudratA halakAI sAMbhaLe che tene paNa kaze lAbha thata nathI. zudratA je hRdayamAM uddabhave che te hRdaya dharmaratna prAptine agya bane che. jyAM mAnavasamudAya rahevAne tyAM mAnavInI nabaLAI ajJAnanA kAraNe, sahavAsanA kAraNe, pUrvakarmanA kAraNe, rahevAnI ja. koInAthI akSamya, aparAdha thaI javAnA. suyogya javAbadAra vyakti gaMbhIra heya. gune jene karyo hoya tenuM hRdaya gune kabUla karavA taiyAra na thAya tyAM sudhI mauna rAkhe, dhairya rAkhe. pAkelI kerImAMthI madhura rasa nIkaLe. pAka vagaranI kerI sudhArIyA te mATe -tUro ane te paNa alpa ja rasa maLe. tema samaja vagaranA, paripakava dazA vagaranA AtmAne. kaI paNa durguNa kasamaye belI nAkhe te joI le kevuM bhayaMkara ramakhANa macI jAya. jANe lAge kemI hullaDa phATayuM ! ! ! bhUla karanAra kaMika aMze suyogya AtmA haze te mauna raheze. paNa suyogya AtmAmAM kSudratA. jeze te,

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vinaya eTale gurunA jJAnarUpa pAvarahAusa sAthenu kanekazana [343 dharmazraddhA hacamacI jaze. jagatanI bhalamanasAI parathI * vizvAsa UThI jaze. bhUla karanAra mA zaramiMdA svabhAvanA haze ane tenI bhula jAhera thaI jaze tA AtmahatyAnA avaLe mArga svIkArI leze. bhUta karanAra AtmA abhimAnI ane gussAnA svabhAvavALA haze. te te vyakti jagatanA dvrAhI khanI lUTAro banaze. keTalAyanA jAna leze. tA paNa haiyAmAM vavAyela bIja nirmULa nahi bane. javAkhadAra vyakti tibhAvanAthI mele. maMgalanI bhAvanAthI mele. khinajavAmAMra vyakti tucchatA, halakaTAIthI prerAI ne kATa ne ughADA pADavA mele. jyAM haiyAmAM hitabhAvanA na heAya tyAM maMgala kevI rIte thAya ? kALa ane jIvanA DhoSa evA vadhI gayA che ke haiyAnI bhAvanAthI kahevAyela hitakArI hitazikSA paNa kAmiyAba nIvaDatI nathI te! ahi~tabhAvanAthI-tucchatAthI khelAyela vAtathI lAbha na thAya. balke bhayakara nukazAna thAya ! ! ! tu%0kSudra vyaktimAM aha' eTale jora karI jAya che ke tene kaI samajAve, bhAI ! pApIe pApa karyuM. te tenI jAherAta karI eTale tu paNa pApI banI gayA. te vAta.tuM koi paNa saMcAge!mAM mAnavA taiyAra thatA nathI. jema samajAve tema vadhAre dalIla kare che. ane potAnI jAtane vItarAga jevI nirdoSa mAne che!

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344] mAnavanuM dAna e mahAnatAnI kalA che. * uttarAdhyayana sUtranI TIkAmAM sudrane artha karyo chesarvane ahitaSI. avaguNane phelAvo karanAra sarvanuM ahita kare. sarvanuM apamaMgala kare. kSudratAthI sAtamI nArakanI paNa bhayaMkara ghera khodAya che. tethI sAdhaka ! tuM sAdhanAnA mArge saMcaryo. hiMsA thAya te AlecanA le che. jUTha belAya te AlocanA le che, tema kSudratAnI paNa Alecana laI zuddha bana, kSudratA paNa tArA AtmAne aneka prakAranA mahAna lAbhothI dUra rAkhaze. tArI Atmika yogyatAne vadhAravA akSudra bana. sAthe bIjI vAta paNe uttarAdhyayana sUtranI yAda rAkhI leje. sahasAvRtti karanAramAM paNa kRSNalezyAne pariNAma pedA thAya che. zuM karuM ? mAre utAvaLiye svabhAva che. utAvaLamAM kaIka karI nAkhuM chuM. paNa pachI mArA manamAM kaMI hetuM nathI. bhalA sajajana ! zAstramAM kahyuM che. vicAryA vagara pravRtti kare te sAhasika. A svabhAva paNa aneka pApane pedA kare che. koI game te pramANapatra Ape tenAthI khuza na thA. tAruM mana tAro AtmA tane zuM kahe che? kArya karatAM pahelAM pariNAmane vicAra kare che? kA pariNAmane vicAra karyA vagaranI pravRtti pariNAme AtmAmAM kRSNalezyA pedA kare che."

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sukha duHkhanAM anubhavanA sAra vairAgya che. [ 345 zAstranu kAya tane mA darzAvavAnu, mekSe javAnI abhiASA hAya te| kSudratA-sAhasikatA jevA durguNane dUra haTAva. vadhu zuM kahuM ? tuM samajadAra che. tArA jevA buddhimAna samakSa mAre zAstranA pATha mUkI devAnA ? tArA jevA bhavabhIru AtmA meAkSanA mArge gamana kare. A mArA vizvAsa che. prabhu ! mane kSudratA ane sAhasikatA Ape. paNa mArA peAtAnA mATe, eka paNa kSaNanA kaMIpaNa vicAmAM vagara mArI badhI vRttie ane pravRttionu guru -caraNe nivedana karI lauM. akSudratA guNa tathA vicArIne pravRtti karavA mATe ! sAdhanA karavI joI e sAdhanA Ara.bhyA vagara kevI rIte guNa mATe AzIrvAda mAgI zakAya ? khasa, "mArA durguNa jAhera karavA pUratI kSudratA ane sAhasikatA avazya Ape. "" Pian

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para, bhika khAvittI suhAvahA dA kaI paNa vyakita sadguNI ane durguNa kahevarAvatAM pahelAM te vyaktinI avasthA upara khUba AdhAra rAkhe che. nAne. bALaka pUchayAne turata javAba Ape te hoziyAra kahevAya. ane moTI uMmaranA turata bele te uddhata kahevAya, kula- vaMtI nArIne guNa lajajA kahevAya. lajA vinAnI vyakti strI nahi, paNa puruSa puruSa dareka bAbatamAM kSebha anubhave. te bAyele kahevAya. sAdhune mATe bhikSA e sadguNa, gRhastha mATe bhikSA, durguNa! zrI uttarAyayana sUtramAM kahyuM che ke sAdhutAnA. zuddha pAlana mATe " bhikhAvittI suhAvahA." bhikSA vagara zuddha sAdhutAnuM pAlana svapnamAM paNa durlabha.! yAcanAno adhikAra kene? yAcanAne anadhikAra kene? khUba vicAravA jevuM che... bena bhAInA gharanI saMpattinI svAminI kema nA banI zake ? ane patnI kema saMpattinI ravAminI banI zake? sarva sthaLethI saMbaMdhe tyAgI eka sthaLe je saMbaMdha sthApe che jenA caraNe jIvana samarpaNa kare te tenI saMpattine mAlika banI zake. patnI patinA caraNe. sarva sva samarpaNa kare te patinI saMpattinI svAminI banI. jAya.

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dAna--bhAva mAkSa mATenuM jhAnAkhata 347 sAdhu bananAre mAtra ekAda be vyaktinI sAthe ja saMbaMdha tADI nathI nAkhyA paNa....vizvatAraka tIrthaM karanA caraNe saIsva sama`Na karyu che. jeNe vizvanI kAi paNa cIja pratye. mAlikIbhAva rAkhyuM; nathI, jeNe vizva parathI peAtAnA sava" sva adhikAra uThAvI lIdhA. kazuM ja jenI pAse nathI ene bhikSAnI yAcanAnA adhikAra che. bhikSu kahe che dehu TakAvavA . mATe Aje ane atyAre uttaranirvAha pUratu, jarUrata jeTalu kalpa maLaze te. laIza. tevA sa Mta mATe bhikSA jevu koI AbhUSa nathI.. ! paMcamaha!vratanAM akhaMDa navakoTi zuddhipUrvaka pAlana karavA zikSAvRtti anivAya che. dharmAMlAbha kahI ghare....ghare. gocarI karatAM sAdhune eka divya AnaMdanI anubhUti thavI joI e dhanya prabhu ! tamArI geAcarIcaryAM, jyAM peTane ArAma paNa pApane virAma...sArI duniyA kahe peTa pAchaLa upAdhi che. je peTanA hAta te kaMi pApa karavAM na paData. sAdhu kahe, peTa mATe pApa nA hAya. AhAra hAya....AhAra pApathI ja maLe evuM nahi. dha lAbhathI ya maLe....sAdhunu lakSya peTa bharavAnuM nahi paNa saMyamayAtrA nirvAhanuM... ghare ghare prabhunA mUka saMdeze pahoMcADavAnu', dha lAbha dvArA sAdhunu pAtra anathI bharAya che. ane gRhasthanu pAtra puNyathI bharAya che. pApa nahi karavAnuM ane jIvana jIvavuM hAya 'tenA mATe yAcakavRtti suhAvahA che. gRhasthane mATe ayAcakavRtti ze.bhAspada che. sAdhu thaI ne bhikSAvRtti vahana .

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348 ] dAna-dharma saskAra jamAvavAnI kalA na kare te parigraha mahAvratanu khaMDana, cha kAyanA vadha.... cha kAyanAM rakSaNa karavAM hAya; paMca mahAvratanAM saMpUrNa pAlana karavAM hoya tene bhikSAvRtti sukhAvahA che, jyAM parapIDA nahi, pApanI pravRtti nahi, parigrahanI bharamALa nahi, cArInI ciMtA nahi. A badhA sadguNa sAcavavA bhikSAvRtti sAdhujIvanamAM khUba ja jarUrI che. rAjA, mahArAjA, samrATa, cakravatI ane tItha kara paNa dIkSA le te temanA mATe eka ja kAyadA.... sava svanA tyAga" ane "AjIvikA mATe dhama lAlanA Adara." sAdhunAM aneka nAma-upanAma tathA aneka paryAyavAcI nAma hAvA chatAM paNa Agama graMthAmAM sthaLe sthaLe mukhyatve eka ja zabda vaparAyA che. se bhikNlR vA-bhikUTTaNI va!." bhikSAvRtti vagara sAdhu jIvanamAM geTALA thAya ! bhUtakALamAM ane vartamAnakALamAM paNa je sayamajIvanamAM AgaLa vadhyA che te zuddha bhikSAvRttithI, je bhikSAvRttithI kaTALyA te pAchaLa paDaDyA che. prabhunA zAsanamAM prathama tIthakara RSabhadevaprabhu paNa bAra mahinA sudhI AhAra athe pRthvI para vicaryA ane zreyAMsakumAra dvArA dAna maLyuM teA bhikSA grahaNa karI. paramAtmA mahAvIradeva paNa abhigraha dhAraNa karI kauzAmbImAM pAMca mahinA ane paccIsa divasa bhikSA arthe vicaryAM. ane abhigraha pUrNa thayA tA bhikSA svIkArI....tItha kara prabhue paNa bhikSArthe viharaNa karI phaeNmAvyuM. svAdiSTa

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tyAga ane vairAgya mATe manuSyajIvana akhADA che. [349 AhAra mATe kayAMya nA pharatA... nA rakhaDatA....paNa zuddha bhikSA mATe cha mahinA paribhramaNa karavu paDe tA paNa thAkatA nahi, kaMTALatA nahi ! AhAranI asara tanamana upara sIdhI thAya che.. azuddha AhAra zarIramAM khaLabhaLATa kare. kSubdha zarIra mana sAme merace! mAMDe. pariNAme krodha ane samatAne nAhaka jaMga jAmI jAya. bhikSA e sAdhune sAcA purIkSAkALa che. adhyayana karela Agama graMthAnA mauna javAba bhikSA levAnI pravRttithI samajAi jAya che. padminI jevI strI mehaka vaherAvI rahI che. muni nIcI najare nA kahI rahyA che. A adbhuta kalAnA darzInathI ja vAMsanA maMca upara nRtya karatA IlAcIkumArane kevalajJAna utpanna thayuM. je sAdhu sa'yamayAtrAnA nirvAha mATe bhAjana jevI cIjanA sa Mgraha ane parigraha nA rAkhe tene vajra, pAtra, dhana ane gharanA saMgraha ane parigraha teA kayAMthI ja hAya ? A vAta sahelAIthI AkhAla gepAla samajI zake ! ! ! sAdhune anubhava thAya che ke AhAra pacAvavA jeTale samaya paNa bhAjana peTamAM rahe che teA bhajanamAM vikSepa thAya eTale bheAjanathI paNa upAdhi ja vadhe. teA pachI bhejana taiyAra karavAnI upAdhi hAya tA jema khIjamAMthI vRkSa pedA thaI jAya, tema sa MsAranAM samasta pApA tyAM pAMgarI jAya !

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350 samaya ane sa Mjoga-samaja-saphaLatA . bhalA sAdhaka ! rAja anumAdanA karaje, vAra vAra vaMdanA karaje, devAdhidevanA sana siddhAMtane....ke jyAM bhikSAvRtti dvArA sava` pApAne palAyana karavAmAM AvyAM che, khasa, tuM zuddha bhikSuka khana. tu zuddha bhikSA svIkAra. zuddha bhikSA dvArA tu siddhAtmA ane ! prabhu ! prabhu ! mArI dInavRtti nAbUda karo. adInavRtti pragaTAve. adInane AhAra maLe te sayamavRddhi AhAra na maLe te tapAvRddhi, adainya Ape. kSudhAvedanIya kama kApe.....! vedanIya karmo nivAra...! eja bhikSA mAguM chu

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53. "vosaThakAe vihare jajA" BE pratyeka vastu cheDavI sahelI che, paNa pratyeka vastu pratyenA mamatvane tyAga kare khUba kaThIna che. jagatamAM keIpaNa vyakti vastra, AbhUSaNa athavA priya vyaktine Akho divasa sAthe laIne pharate nathI. paNa tenA mamatvane dinarAta sadAya hRdayamAM rAkhe che. paramAtmAe parigrahanA tyAganI hitazikSA pharamAvyA pachI zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtranA aNagAra mArgagati nAmanA nAnakaDA adhyayanamAM eka khUba ja mArmika ane vedhaka vAta phikta nava akSaramAM kahI che. sikkAe vihare jajo" sAdhaka!. sahakAe viharajajo kAjaLanI koTaDImAM rahevAnuM paNa kAjalane DAgha nahi lAgavA devAne, jalamAM rahevAnuM paNa jala pIvAnuM nahi, raseIgharamAM rahevAnuM paNa bhojana nahi karavAnuM jema kaThina che tema dehamAM rahevAnuM paNa dehane sirAvIne rahevAnuM. dehane AhAra ApavAne, dehane ArAma ApavAne, dehane nIrogI rAkhavA auSadha ApavAnAM, paNa dehanAM mamatva kyAMya puSTa karavAnAM nahi. "sakAe vihareA padanuM uccAraNuM khUba saheluM che paNa

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35ra ] samatA ja AtmAnI AjJA mAtA che. tenA rahasyane jIvanamAM saphaLa rIte jIvI jANavuM khUba kaThina che. | musApharImAM cAra kalAka maLela mANasanI paNa vAha kyAreka manane satAvI jAya che. are....are svapnanA dazyathI paNa mANasa vihavaLa banI jAya che, te deha sAthe rahevAnuM ane dehanAM mamatva nahi karavAnAM? A zakaya hakIkta ke azakya hakIkata...? bhalA sajajana! ' pratyeka sAdhanA kaThina hoya che. sAdhya hoya che paNa azakya nathI hotI. dehamAM rahevAnuM, dehanAM jatana karavAmAM paNa dehanA mamatvamAM AvavAnuM nahi. dehAdhyAsa para kaDaka cokIpahere karavAnedehane spaSTa cetavaNI ApI devAnI...mAruM A zarIra have zAsananI saMpatti che. dharmalAbhanA TrasTamAMthI tene annapANI, vastra ane nivAsa maLe che. have tAre kArya paNa zAsananuM ja karavuM paDaze. pratikSaNa dharmadhyAna ane zukala dhyAnanI abhivRddhi karavAmAM sahAyaka banavuM paDaze. jo dharmadhyAna, zukaladhyAnanI laganI lAgI jaze te dunane pobArA gaNavA ja paDaze. sikkAe eTale deha dvArA mekSanAM kArya karAva-- vAnAM. zarIra maLyuM karmathI paNa tene kahI devAnuM tuM sAdhunuM zarIra' sAdhu zAsanane samarpita. te sAdhunA zarIrane harve zAsananI zaraNAgati svIkAravI ja rahI.

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mAMgavA ca cIja che...mAtra prasannatA [ 353 . "dehanA sAkSIrUpe AtmAe dehamAM nivAsa karavAne paNa dehanA mAlika rUpe nahi." dehanuM nirIkSaNa karavAnuM ke te mokSamArgamAM sahAyaka bane che ke vighAtaka bane che? je deha kSamArgamAM vighAtaka bane te kahevAnuM cale kAlathI tamArI sAthe kaDaka hAthe kAma laIzuM. svAdhyAya-jJAnArjanamAM zarIra sAtha ApatuM hatuM te dUdha pIvA maLatuM hatuM. Aje svAdhyAya nathI karyo. gAthA nathI karI te kAlathI dUdhatyAga. tIvra tapa mATe deha sAthe Ate hatuM tethI, IndriyanI zakti kSINa na banI jAya te mATe Aja sudhI thI ApatA hatA. have je deha ugra tapanI nA pADe che te AvatI kAlathI nekara je vyavahAra! roTalI ApIza paNa ghI te nahi ja maLe. zramaNa saMghanI sevA mATe, vaiyAvacce mATe zarIra sAtha ApatuM hatuM eTale dehane ArAma ApatuM hatuM, cha kalAka nidrA levA dete hate. have zarIra je sevA mATe tatpara nathI te, tene kahI dauM chuM rAtre ArAma nahi maLe. vagara mahenate sUvAnuM? cala, have te svAdhyAya ane kAussagnamAM sthira rahevuM paDaze. zarIra samAdhimAM sahAyaka hatuM te tene davA auSadha anupAna apAtAM hatAM samAdhimAM paNa sAthe nathI te, mAre na chUTake kahevuM paDe che, "cale tamAruM kAma pUruM thayuM thAva ravAnA. "seya te maraNuM bhave." paNa pratyeka paristhitimAM tArI pAsethI zAsananI ArAdhanA karAvIza. mArA prabhue hajAra hitazikSAne samAvI le tevuM eka vacana kahyuM che 23

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354 ] AcAra zAstrAnu jIvaMta rUpa vAsadghakAe viharenA' dehanu' mamatva vidAya thAya te lAkhA durguNa jAya. dehanuM mamatva Ave te lAkhe| avaguNanI abhivRddhi thAya. E 'dehanuM mamatva e duONurUpa zu'DAToLInA netA, netA palAyana nahi thAya teA tenI TALakI vadhavAnI ja.' duniyAnA pratyeka pApanAM mULa tapAsIe te mAlUma paDe che, dehanA mamatvanAM bIja upara ja pApanuM vRkSa pAMgare che." jyAM mamatva tyAM leAbha; jyAM lAbha tyAM patana, agiyAramAM upazAntamAha guNasthAnakethI patana kema ? sUkSmAtisUkSma leAbhane udaya, dIvAsaLInI eka kAMDI jema lAkheDa maNu rUne kSaNamAM hatu nA hatu, karI de tema lAbhanA uddaya rUpa bhayaMkara vAvaTALa thavAthI ArAdhanAnI ImArata kakkaDa bhUsa thaI jAya che. mamatva hAya tA savanAzanI bhaya Mkara AMdhI AvavAnI ja. tethI mamatva ja nA joi e. rAjanA pratikSaNanA sAthI deha upara mamatva nahIM rAkhavAnu te pachI vizvanI kaI vastu upara mamatva rAkhavAnuM ? chatAM jainazAsananI saiddhAMtika vAta khUba samajavA jevI che. 'vAsakUkAe' eTalu nathI kahyu paNa vAsakAe viharejajA kahyuM che, kAyAnuM mamatva choDI mAtra anazana nathI karavAnuM paNa viharaNa karavAnu che. Ama, svabhAvamAM ramaNa

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vArthanI sAdhanA paNa paramArtha mATe kare. [ 355 karavAnuM che. Atmika ArAdhanAmAM tatpara banavAnuM che. dehanuM mamatva tyAgI deha dvArA Amika ArAdhanAnuM maMgalakArya siddha karavAnuM che. dehanuM mamatva chUTe eTale apramattabhAva vadhe. dehanuM mamatva chUTe eTale zuddha AhAra grahaNa thAya. dehanuM mamatva chUTe eTale ugra vihAranI ArAdhanA thAya, dehanuM mamatva chUTe eTale jinAjJAnI tatparatA pragaTe. Ama dehAdhyAsa tyAga thavAthI guNanI jaDIbuTTI sahaja maLe. je mahAtmA alpakALamAM ArAdhanA- sAdhanA karI siddhinA paMthe saMcaryA temane dehanAM mamatva cheDyAM hatAM. zreNika mahArAjAnA kheALAmAM karamAI janAra bhadrA mAtAnA kamaLa phUla samA zAlibhadrajI vaibhAragirinI taptazilA para anazana kevI rIte AdarI zake? zuM girinI lU temanA dehane bharakhI nA jAya ? kemaLa zAlibhadra kaI rIte anazana karI zakayAM? kahevuM ja paDaze, prabhunI vANanAM amRtarasAyaNa ghoLIne temaNe pIdhAM. dehanuM mamatva cheDI ugra cAritranuM pAlana karyuM. aMte anazana dvArA vaibhAragirine dhanya banAve. kamaLatA...zAtAnI jhaMkhanA suMvALA sparzanI bhAvana... ArAmapramattatA badhuM dehAdhyAsa jAya te dUra haTe. bhalA sAdhaka!. "eka guNanI evI sAdhanA karI jethI tArA hajAre dANa haTe."

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356 ] adhikAranI jhaMkhanA karanArane trikakAraja maLe kAyAnA tyAga karI vicara. A hitazikSA pAchaLa tA hArdika bhAvanA e chUpAyelI che ke adehI banIne jIva, tArA AtmAne zAzvata banAva. tArA dehathI dUra thA. dehanA mamatvanA kAraNe pedA thayelI tamAma karyuM prakRtine, aMdha udayane sattAmAMthI nimU La kara. dehanuM mamatva tyAgI Ama svabhAvamAM viraNa kara. prabhu ! dehanA mamatva tyAganI bhikSA mAMgu` ke jijJAnApAlananI zikSA svIkAruM ? asa, mane manAve Apane caNAzrita, mAre bIju kAMI nA joI e eja ApanA caraNe natamastake bhAvabharI ArajI...

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54, arihA AlAyaNa sAu 1 sUMThanA gAMgaDe gAMdhI nA banAya..... ekAda zAstranA abhyAse jJAnI nA banAya.... vAta-pitta-kaphanuM nAma jANI levAthI vaidya nA thaI javAya... krodha, mAna, mAyA, leAbhanA nAma khelavAthI gItAtha nA banI javAya ! aSTa pravacana 'mAtAnA jANakAra sAdhujIvananuM pAlana karI zake, paNa....sAdhujIvananu pravatana nA karAvI zake ! sAdhujIvananuM pravartI na karAvanAra pAse vizALa jJAna hovu joIe. sAdhakanI maneAdazAnA abhyAsa heAvA joI e, prAthamika avasthA keTalI sukAmaLa ane saMbhALavA lAyaka hAya tenuM jJAna jarUra hAvu joi e. utsAha-AnaMda ane bhAvanI abhivRddhimAM sAdhaka mahAvrata agIkAra kare che. svIkAra vakhate sulabha lAgatAM mahAvrata jIvanamA mAM AgaLa vadhatAM kayAreka kani lAge che. sAdhakane utsAha kayAreka esarI jAya che, teA kayAreka mananI vRttie para kAmU dharAvI zakatA nathI. kayAreka thAkI jAya che te kAreka mAgathI skhalanA pAmI jAya che, teA kayAreka mAga thI bhraSTa paNa khanI jAya che. AvA samaye sAdhakanI sAdhanAnAM

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358 ] rAga eTale navAM navAM pAtrA badalanAra abhinetA sukAna koNa sa MbhALI zake ? manamAM jAgelA tumula yuddhane kANa zAMta karI zake ? mATImAMthI navA ghaDA kuMbhAra banAvI zake paNa ghaDA tUTelA yu rahevA na joIe ane sAMdheleA ya dekhAve! nA joie. A kalAmAM pAra Mgata hAya te kalAkAra. sAdhakanI sAdhanA khaMDita na rahevI joI e ane akhaMDita thavI joie. AvA sAdhanAnA niSNAta gurudeva ja sAdhanA-- mA tuM pravartI na karAvI zake prabhu zAsana pharamAve che....AdhyAtmika Urdhvagamana eTale UMca!-sIdhA pahADanuM caDhANa, jyAM paga TekavavAnI jagA ja nahi. tyAMthI paDavA te sIdhA nIce. te samaye sAdhakanu sukAna saMbhALanAra guru ja bhAvaguru khanI zake. zAstramAM ziSya mATe je ceAgyatA kahI che tenAM karatAM koDagaNI cenyatA guruM khanavA jarUrI che tema kahyuM che. dardI bUma mAre paNa DokaTara brUma nA mAre! DokaTara dInI bUma sAMbhaLI tenA IlAja kare....ziSya bhUla kare paNa guru bhUla nA kare. ziSyanI bhUla sudhAre te guru, mahAvrata svIkAryAM ziSya, paNa mahAvrata pAlana karAvavAnI javAbadArI gurunI. gAMDA che eTale tAkAna karavAnA....tema sAdhaka navA che....haju abhimAnane eru UtaryAM nathI eTale nAnI vAtamAM paNa mada karavAne hu hu'nAM gIta gaNagaNavAnA !

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[35 rAganuM khAtuM badalAi jAya tenu nAma vairAgya vAtavAtamAM mADhuM caDhAvavAnA ! sakriyA ane zAstrAdhyayanathI thAkavAnA ! gurunI pharaja che ajJAnIne paNu anaMta jJAnInI vANInuM auSadha ApI devAnuM'.' guru anyA pachI sArA dekhAvAnA meha cheADI devAnA, sAcA banavAnA prayatna karavAnA. mArAM ziSya- ziSyA che eTale bhUla nabhAvI levAnI nahi paNa prabhu zAsananA pratinidhi che, bhAvinI peDhInA netA che, jo temanAM zikSaNa adhUrAM rahe, temanI keLavaNI kAcI rahe te! mAruM' uttaradAyitva lAje ! sAdhakanAM mAtApitAe mArA upara keTaleA vizvAsa rAkhyA haze ! A guru mArA putrane meAkSe laI jaze....jo hu sAdhakane vacce athaDAvI dauM te| mAruM gurupaNuM lAje. gurunA manamAMthI "mArA A ziSya" evA mamatva bhAva sadA vidAya levA joie. paNa....dilamAM thavuM joIe mArA zubhabhAvAne vahana karanAra mArA pratinidhine..ziSyane sudhAravA mArI zuddhi vadhAru paNa tenI buddhine ni... mAre ziSya mArAthI viruddha cAle ane hu je kaphoDI sthitimAM mukA, tenAthI vamAnane bhUlI atItanAM saMsmaraNa huM karuM, mArA paNu tAraka guru hatA temanA paNa mArA aMge maneratha hatA, me tAraka gurunA maneAratha pUrNa na karyAM....tenI zikSA mArA gurue nA karI....paNa mArA ziSyanuM vana yAda karAve che ke bhUtakALane bhUlatA nahi. tArA zubhabhAvAnuM jatana karavA

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360] Adarza -zuddha jIvananuM pratibiMba tArA gurue je vAtsalya vahAvyuM che tevuM athavA tethI adhika vAtsalya A mokSamArganA sAdhaka para tuM vahAvaje. paththaramAM ja pArasa chupAyela hoya che. vartamAnanA sAdhusamudAyamAM ja bhAvine keI zAsanaprabhAvaka chupAyela che. tene AzA-aramAna pUrA karavAnI tArI javAbadArI che. ekAda be ziSyanA gurunI mAnasika dazA ATalI vizuddha joIe te gacchanAyaka, guruvaranI manobhUmikA keTalI UMcI hevI joIe! ?? gacchanAyaka pAse ArAdhaka Ave...virAdhaka Ave zAsanaprabhAvaka Ave.zAsanadrohI paNa Ave...badhAnAM pApane samajI-vicArI vizuddha banAvavAnI javAbadArI gacchanAyakanI. keTalAka AtmA AcanA levA Ave te keTalAka AtmA AcanAne dekhAva karavA Ave. keTalAka bhavabhIrutAthI Ave. dareka AtmAnA zabdo samAna raheze. mukhAkRti samAna raheze paNa zabdanI pAchaLanI aMtaraMvedanA saunI alaga haze. sInI mukhAkRti aMdara AMkhanI Arajhu alaga haze. mAnasazAstrIya jJAnathI AtmAnI cikitsA thAya nahi eTalA mATe zrI uttarAdhyayanasUtramAM pharamAvyuM che-arihA AleyaNe se Alecana sAMbhaLavA gya AtmAe AcanA sAMbhaLavI. : - koInI paNa AlecanA sAMbhaLIne thAya ane ke pApI !" te AlecanA sAMbhaLavAne agya. karmanA udaya

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dharmazravaNa-zretAnI samasyAne ukela [ 361 pApa thaI gayuM paNa ke laghukamI AtmA che! keTalI saraLatAthI AlecanA laI rahyo che! A vicAra jene Ave te AlecanA sAMbhaLavAne yogya. chedasUtro-vyavahArasUtro-nizIthagraMthamAM AlecanA ApavA gya gurunI anekavidha gyatA pharamAvI che. te badhAnA sArAMzarUpa zrI uttarAdhyayasUtramAM pharamAve che AlecanA ApanAra AcArya bhagavaMta mAtra sUtranA abhyAsI hoya te nA cAle paNa AgamanA abhyAsI joI e. Agamane abhyAsa eTale ekAda Agama AvaDI gayuM te nA cAle. aneka AgamamAM pAraMgata hevA joIe. AgamanA sUtra-artha ane rahayanA niSNAta hovA joIe. vAraMvAra AgamanA parAmarza karanAra hovA joIe. teonI vANI, vicAradhArA Agamamaya thayelI joIe. te mahApuruSa je bele tenA Agama pATha prAyaH maLe ja ! AgamaniSNAta thAya eTalethI ja AcArya bhagavaMta Alecanagya nA bane paNa je ziSya AcanA levA Ave tene samAdhi utpanna karanAra joIe. puNyAtmA ! tAruM mahAbhAgya che. prabhuAgama pratye tArA haiyAmAM zraddhA che. khAnadAna kuTuMbane nabIre che. Thesa vAgI che paNuM bacI gayela che. Ama je AlecanA levA Ave tene madhura vacana vaDe AzvAsana Ape. "tArA AtmAnuM

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362 ] viveka sadguNane vAparavAnI kaLA - UrdhvIkaraNa thaze." tema pretsAhana Ape te AlocanA ApavAne gya guru. A guNathI paNa eka adhika mahatvane guNa che "guNagrAhIpaNuM AlecanA levA AvanAra, ziSyanI anumodanA karetsAhana Ape, dharmabhAvanAmAM utsAha vadhAre. ane tema chatAMya pApa pratye ane deze. pratye jugupsA vadhatI ja jAya te saMvega-vairAgya pedA kare. sAdhaka ! prabhunuM zAsana ekavIsa hajAra varSa sudhI akhaMDa rahevAnuM. zAsanaprabhAvaka sugra guruvAre gacchanAyaka AcArya bhagavaMtanA vAtsalyanA prabhAve temanA divyajJAnanA tejamAM, tArA AtmAnA ajJAnanAM aMdhArA ulecavAnAM. teonI hitazikSA svIkArI tArA AtmAne zuddha buddha banAvaje. mahApuruSanuM sAMnidhya tArAM bhavabhavanAM karmane haraze. mahApurUnuM sAMnidhya tArA jIvanamArgamAM jJAnanAM ajavALAM karaze. prabhu ! sI gyA che te ja ApanA zAsana vaDe dhanya banyA che. gacchanAyaka te zAsanamaya banI gayA che. mArA guru temanA gurunA AziSathI dhanyatama banI gayA che. mAre te eka ja sAdhanA karavAnI che. mArA AtmAne ArAdhanAyegya banAvavAnI....mahAna samudAyanA sugya bAraNane anukULa

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duHkha karatAM du:khanA bhaya kharAba che. [ 363 anavAnI...mAkSanA mahAmAnA pathika banavAnI aneka suyeAgya AtmA vacce 'huM ceAgya banIza' evu` saunA tathA ApanI zubhAziSe hiMmata karIne kahu chuM. bAkI teA meranI vacce kAgaDA meranAM pIchAM lagAvIne beTho heAya tevI mArI dazA che. paNa bhAvanA mera jevA manavAnI che. eTale mAranAM pIchAM lagADayAM che. atyAre ArAdhaka hAu evA ja dekhAva che paNa Apa kRpAe ArAdhaka khanavAnA mArI maneratha saphaLa ane eja.

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55. "aNumadbhAsapasA mAnava pAse mana evI zakita che.ke jo tenI samakSa suryeAgya paristhiti sarjana na karIe teA bhUtakALane vAgoLI duSTa vicAra dvArA durbhAvanAmAM lIna manI jAya. A durbhAvanAthI nivAravA khAra bhAvanA ane cAra bhAvanAnuM zAstramAM khUba varNana karyu che. paNa zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra e te parama pitA paramAtmAnI sAdhaka mahAtmAne atima hitazikSA che. temAM kaI paNa vAta zAnI rahI jAya ? zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtranA chatrIsamAM adhyayanamAM cAra bhAvanA darzAvI che. kAMpikI, AbhiyogIkI, kalmiSIkI ane AsurI. A cAra bhAvanAmAM rahevAthI sAdhakane paNa deva duga`ti prApta thAya che. sAdhupaNAnu pAlana devanuM AyuSya baMdhAve che. paNa uttama cAgyatA na keLavavAthI, sucAgya-zubha bhAvanI abhivRddhi na thavAthI, duvicAranI adhikatAnA kAraNe devagatimAM paNa halako deva ane che. cAra bhAvanA eTalu badhu ciM'tana mAge che ke tenu' vivecana eka graMtha jeTalu thaI jAya paNa zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtranA svAdhyAya karatAM-pratidina "aNuddha rAsa pasaro." pada yAda Ave ane punarAvata nanI gati khaMdha thaI jAya. mana tenA UMDANamAM, UtarI jAya. zu gussA rahe te AsurI bhAvanA ! ! gussA tA mAhanIya kama vALA dareka jIvane En

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duHkhane sahana kare paNa duHkhanI pharIyAda na kare. [365 Ave paNa gussAnI tatamatAmAM pharaka paDavo joIe keTalAka gussa karI turata bhUlI jAya. te keTalAkane divase vityA. pachI gusso zamate nathI. eja karatA, eja veravRtti, pahelAnuM ja citra jANe AMkha sAme hoya ane pote paNa eja paristhiti vacce hoya tevI ja vRtti te...aNubaddha resa pare. ApaNI bhASAmAM kahevuM hoya te gussAnuM kAraNa dUra thaI gayuM hoya, paNa gussAnI vRtti vyaktinI pAchaLanuM pAchaLa pharatI heya, aMtaramAM rahela gusse na zame hAya, haMmezA laDavA joIe, laDyA vagara cena na paDe-nAnAmeTA kAraNathI dararoja laDAI karavAne TevAI gayela te "aNubaddha rasa pasare.gusso karyA bAda paNa pazcAttApa na thAya. paNa kahe ke je meM gusse karyo te ja badhA sIdhA cAlyAmArA gussAthI kevA dabAI gayA ! gussAne sAre mAnI tene ja TakAvI rAkhe te "aNubaddha rasa pasara." - laDAIne mULamAM khuda ane bIjA baMneya doSita che. sAmI. vyakti kSamA mAge che. chatAM paNa pote prasanna thatuM nathI. ane manamAM gussAne bhAva rahe te "aNubaddha resa pasare. jhaghaDAnA nAnA prasaMgane meTo banAve, keIne paNa nimitta banAvI laDAI cAlu karI devI, jhaghaDAnA ja kAraNa zedhavA, khuda gunegAra hoya ane sAmI vyakti kSamA. mAge te paNa prasanna ne banavuM ane svabhAva te akhaMDa.

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1366 ] jagatane jItavuM che te jAtane jIte gussAnI vRtti. jema dIvAsaLImAM agni rahela che tene lAkaDuM maLavuM joIe, tarata ja baLavAnI kriyA cAlu thaI jAya ! je sAdhupaNAnA pAlanathI aMtamuhUrtamAM kevalajJAna maLe tevI avasthA prApta thAya tenA badale A zurasAnI sAtatyatAnA kAraNe devalekamAM asaMkhya varSanI sajA ! rAjA bane paNa hALInA, "deva bane paNa nekara jevA"... prabhunI dezanAmAM javAne adhikAra nahi, iMdrasabhAmAM javAne adhikAra nahi. jinacaityamAM javAne adhikAra nahi. jema gadheDI mAtA te kahevAya paNa bhAravahana karavA, tema deva kharo paNa anya devane aspRzya ! sAdhaka ! saune svabhAva saune bhAre-AsapAsavALA sahavatIomAM sahanazIlatA haze te tArI sAthe rahI teo nirjarA karaze. paNa jo tuM niraMtara gusa karIza te Asurika bhAvanAmAM AvI asura banIza. saune zAMti pahoMcADe te sura. saune duHkha pahoMcADe te asura saune duHkha pahoMcADayuM te tArA sukhanA dahADA dUra. dekhavAnuM ane dAjhavAnuM tevI tArI avasthA." vana, upavana, parvata, girizaMge para mahAlatAM puNyazALI de kayAM ? ane devamAM paNa tArA jevo zApita deva kayAM? saune mApha na karavAne svabhAva tAre hate. have asaMkhya varSa sudhI A durgatimAMthI tane kaI mApha nahi kare. "reja jhaghaDA karatuM hatuM. have palyopama ane sAgare pama sudhI devendranA hukama sAMbhaLyA kara. tArI devI haro

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duna--sajjananI sAtvikatAne zuddha karanAra [ 367 paNa, tenI sAthe ya sukhacenathI rahI zakIza nahi. vana-- vATikA badhu kharu.. paNa tane kayAMya be ghaDI ArAma nahi ! tAphAna karIza teA devendranA vajAnA AkarA prahAra sahanakaravA paDaze ! rudana karI tuM naMdanavanane zekavana anAvI druza paNa tArI sajAmAM koi pheraphAra nahi thAya ! " kAraNa te sAdhujIvanamAM gusse karela che. sahuvatI sAdhune satAvela che ! sAdhaka ! tArA upara bhAva dayA Ave che. tethI tane kahuM chuM. tArA samatAnA svabhAvanuM tuM pragaTIkaraNa kara ! dustara saMsArasAgara taryAM. snehanAM baMdhana tADyAM. sukAmalatA ane suMvALAza cheDIne kAyika kaSTa sahana kare che. agnine aDakatA nathI te manamAM gussAnI Aga zA mATe sadA prajavalita rAkhe che? gRhasthanA gharamAM paNa ra.ta paDe ane cUlA zAMta thAya. Aga olavAI jAya. tu' sAdhu ane pratikramaNa kare te Aga zAMta na thAya ? svAdhyAya rUpa nAgakramanI ratnathI paNa gussA rUpa sarpa' jhera tAruM' nA UtaryuM ...? ! sacArA pArisI bhaNAvI ane kaSAyanA kALAtarA sApanuM jhera nA UtaryuM? sadgRhastha vAsI anna na khAya ane tuM sAdhu thaI ne gaikAlanI vAta Aje yAda karIne laDe ? nA...ane...prabhunA sAdhu samatAnA sAdhaka ! maitrIbhAvamAM mahAlatA. maitrI, pramAda, kAruNya ane mAdhyastha bhAvanAnI prabaLa asaramAM nahi rahe te, AvI bhayakara bhAvanA tArI sAdhutAne bharakhI jaze ! zAstra adhyayanamAM nirata khana. prajJAnInI sevAmAM masta ana !

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368] A samaja Ape te saddagurU mahApuruSanA sAMnidhye duSTabhAvanA dUra jaze, tAruM samatA. sAmrAjya vikasita banaze. tAruM bhagIratha kartavya che kaSAyasaMtapta AtmAne zAMtinAM jaLa pivarAvavAnuM ! tArA kartavyathI bhraSTa thaI che tuM azAMta banIza te vizvane keNa zAMtinAM amIpAna karAvaze? tane thaze mane badhA kema ATaluM badhuM kahe che? mAre ja badhAnuM sAMbhaLavAnuM? tane kahenArA tArA snehI che! hitavI che! tArA maMgalavA chuka che. tArA maMgala mATe tene sUcana kare che. mane AzA che, tuM hitakAmI che eTale hitasvInI vAta avazya mAnIza ! bhAvanA tAre bhavanAza kare eja tane hitasvInA AzIrvAda che. prabhu ! bhAvane bhUkhe huM bhAvanA kema na bhAvuM ? paNa huM bALaka svasvabhAva prApta karI zakato nathI, vibhAva choDI zakatuM nathI. Ape batAvelI zubhabhAvanAnI sopAnazreNI para caDhavA avazya prayatna karIza-mAre paNa samatAnI vizAla samabhUminA sauMdaryamAM mukta viharaNa karavuM che! Apo AziSa mArAM soNalAM saphaLa bane !

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prAMti... devendronA sukhane paNa vAmana karI denAra, mokSanA anata sukhane sAce nakaze samajAvanAra saMsAranA Adhi -vyAdhi ane upAdhinA vividha tApanI vacce kamaLanI mAphaka nilepa rAkhanAra je koI parama sukha hoya te te sukha che svAdhyAyanuM. AvA svAdhyAyanuM kaMIka "sukha prApta thAya che tyAre AtmA AnaMda vibhera banI jAya che. anuttara devanA tetrIza sAgaropama paNa kSaNavAramAM kema pasAra thaI jatAM haze te AvA graMthanA manamAM ne lekhana vakhate samajAya che. mane te mArA jIvananI e kSaNe dhanya kSaNe lAgI che ke jyAre A graMthanA ciMtana vakhate mAruM mana ekAgra thatuM hatuM. ghaNIvAra te ema lAgyuM che ke koI sucogya vAMcaka AtmAnuM nirmala puNya mArI pAse lakhAvI rahyuM che. mArA zubhecchako kahe che ke "A lakhANa zreSTha che." paNa, mane lAge che ke, zreSThatA teonI dRSTimAM che, meM te mArA manane prasanna karavA, mArA manane A kaSAyemAMthI kUdako marAvavA, bahAra pharatI indriyane anaMta zaktizALI AtmAnI joDe sAMkaLI rAkhavA eka nAne prayatna - karyo che.

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basa, mArA A ciMtananA prayatnathI jyAM sudhI mAru jIvana rahe tyAM sudhI mArA AtmAne paramAtmA banatA roke te eka paNa vicAra spaze nahIM. paramAtmA banAve tevA ja vicAramAM huM sadA rata rahuM e ja bhAvanA. sau vivecakanI guNamaya daSTi, vAMcakanI sAragrAhItA, pU. gurU devanI kRpA, gurU baMdhuonI sahAya ane mArI ArAdhyA, sAkSAt kamaLa jevI pavitra mAtA padmAvatInI ArAdhanA ane upAsanAnI aciMtya sahAya. jIva ne ziva banAve. ane jaina jayaMti zAsanam jagAve.... , eja abhyarthanA....

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zrI zAsanadevI zrImatI bhagavatI padmAvatImAtAnI stuti bhaktAnAM dehi sidhaM, mama sakalamaghaM devi ! dUrIkuru tvam, sarveSAM dhArmikANAma. "" * satataniyamitaM vAMchitaM pUrayasva / saMsArAbdhau nimagnaM praguNagaNayutam, jIvarAzi ca trAhi, zrImajU jaineMdra dharma prakaTaya vimalaM, devi ! padmAvati ! tvaM // 1 // " Wan

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