Jivan Mangalya

Author(s): Chitrabhanu
Publisher: Navbharat Sahitya Mandir Ahmedabad
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/002142/1

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jIvana-mAMgalya citrabhAnu navabhArata sAhitya maMdira 134, prinsesa sTrITa, muMbaI 400 002 derAsara pAse, gAMdhI roDa, amadAvAda 380 001 202, paMlikana hAusa, naTarAja TokIjha pAse Azrama roDa, amadAvAda 380 009 E-mail : info@navbharatonline.com Visit us at : www.navbharatonline.com

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JEEVAN-MANGALYA by Chitrabhanu Published by Navbharat Sahitya Mandir Ahmedabad-1 & Mumbai-2 Visit us at : www.navbharatonline.com E-mail : info@navbharatonline.com (c) citrabhAnuM prathama AvRtti : me, 2008 kiMmata : rU. 200-00 prakAzaka : azoka dhanajIbhAI zAha navabhArata sAhitya maMdira 134, prinsesa sTrITa muMbaI 400 002 derAsara pAse, gAMdhI roDa amadAvAda 380 001 TAipa seTiMga : prinTa poiMTa, 23, 4tho mALa, ilorA kaoNma. senTara, amadAvAda - 1 mudraka : prinTa kona pa5, saradAra paTela inDasTriyala esTeTa, e-vana hoTalanI sAme, zAhavADInI bAjumAM, Isanapura, nArola, amadAvAda 382 443

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prastAvanA jIvana eka parama rahasya che. sadIothI, aMtahIna kALathI jJAnIo, vijJAnIo, tattvajJAnIo, sAdhako, upAsako ane na jANe kaMI keTalA RSio-munio jIvananA parama rahasyane pichANavA.. pAmavA... sparzavA mathe che. svAnataH sukhAya prAraMbhAyelI e zodhanI yAtrA daramyAna je meLave che... je maLe che... e badhuM 'gamatAno karIe gulAla' e abhIpsA sAthe sahujana hitAya, bahujana sukhAya... sarvajana sahAya e vaheMcatA hoya che. jJAna khIlave te jJAnI kahevAya. jJAna keLave te jJAnI kahevAya. chellI sadInA AvA zreSTha jJAnIjanonI zreNImAM eka nAma anAyAse UbharI Ave che ane e nAma che citrabhAnu ! 26-7-1922nA rUparAjendra tarIke AraMbhAyelI emanI jIvanayAtrA 6-12-1942nA divase jainadIkSAmAM caMdraprabhasAgara muni tarIke pariNamI. parivartana anivArya che, zAzvata che. pratyeka vastu badalAya che. pachI e vyakti hoya ke vastu hoya... sthiti hoya ke paristhiti hoya... paNa parivartana e pratyeka paLanI prakriyA che ! parivartanamAM ArohaNa paNa hoya ane avarohaNa paNa hoya. parivartanamAM vikAsanI kSitijo eka pachI eka kamaLanI pAMdaDIonI jema khIlatI jAya... ane UrdhArohaNanI yAtrA AraMbhAya... paNa jo dizA avaLI hoya... UMdhI hoya to avarohaNanI UMDI khINa tarapha paNa jIvana dhakelAI jAya ! vikAsanA badale Asa tarapha dorI jAya ! citrabhAnujInA pratyeka parivartane emane navo prakAza cIMdhyo che. vaicArika ane vyavahArika pAsAMonA parivartanathI emanuM AMtarajagata to vaibhavI banyuM che ja, sAthe sAthe emaNe potAnA AsapAsane paNa UrjasvI banAvyuM che. ojasvI karyuM che. (3)

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dIkSA grahaNa karyA bAda emaNe tapa-tyAga-svAdhyAya-dhyAnanI sAthe sAthe svapara kalyANanI pravRttiono yajJa mAMDyo ! pravacano, vArtAlApa, saMbodhana, mArgadarzana, dhyAnanA prayogo, dhArmika ane sAmAjika saMskArIkaraNanA prayogo, jelanA kedIone uddhodhana, zikSaNa saMsthAnomAM yuvAone saMbodhana, jaina jainetara parvonA prasaMgoe hajAro.... lAkhonI medanIne preraNA ApatAM pravacano, A uparAMta mAnavarAhatanAM kAryo.. vagere anekavidha pravRttiono emAM samAveza hato. dezanA ja nahIM... dUra dUra pradeza ane videzanA jijJAsuo paNa emanA satsaMga mATe utsuka rahetA. sAdhako sAthenI saMgoSThi ane zAsako sAthe paNa avAranavAra saMvAda sarjIne emaNe ghaNAM satkAryo karAvyAM. katalakhAnA baMdha karAvavA jevI pAyAnI jIvadayAnI Alabela paNa emaNe pokArI che. 1970mAM sahu prathama vakhata emaNe jInIvA khAte Ayojita dvitIya AdhyAtmika zikhara pariSadamAM bhAga levAno nirNaya karyo... ane e videza pravAsanI sAthe ja jabaradasta parivartana emanA jIvanamAM AvyuM... saMpradAyamAM saMgopAIne rahelA citrabhAnu have saMpradAnanI bhUmikAe pahoMcIne vizvanA khUNe khUNe prabhu mahAvIranI vANIne pahoMcADavAno bhekha AdarI le che ! AvA vakhate apratima virodha, asahakAra ane apamAnanA prasaMgo UbhA thayA... paNa sAthe sAthe ghanazyAmadAsa biralA... basaMtakumAra biralA ane evA aneka mahAnubhAvo emanA paDakhe aDIkhama UbhA rahyA. gaMgAnAM guNagAna karavAM... enuM pUjanaarcana karavuM e alaga vAta che ane e gaMgAne dharatI para lAvIne sAmAnya jana sudhI pahoMcADavI e bhagIratha kArya che ! citrabhAnujInI bahumukhI pratibhAne deza-pradezanA sImADAthI pelepAra videzanI dharatI para phelAvavAmAM aneka jJAta-ajJAta lokoe tarpaNa karyuM. 1970mAM jInIvA khAte bIjI AdhyAtmika zikhara pariSada [2nd Spirtual Summit Conference] 1971mAM hArvarDa-amerikA khAte trIjI AdhyAtmika zikhara pariSada, 1973mAM nyUyorka-amerikAnA yunAiTeDa nezansanA khaMDamAM UN ChapelmAM prathamavAra mahAvIra jayaMtInI ujavaNI. 1979mAM amerikAmAM jaina senTaranI sthApanA.. amerikAmAM rahetA.. bhaNatA... kArya karatA jaina yuvakone jagADyA.. jenadharma pratye abhimukha karyA. ane jainadharmanI pravRttio mATe 4 jaina senTaronI sthApanA karI. - 1980mAM jainA -- JAINAnI sthApanA karIne amerikAnA jainone eka tAMtaNe bAMdhyA. (4)

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2001mAM amerikAnA itihAsamAM pahelIvAra amerikAnI pratinidhi sabhA [US House of Representatives]mAM prabhu mahAvIranI janma jayaMtI prasaMge prArthanA karI.. jaina samAja, jainadharma mATe A eka gaurava ane garimAnI vAta banI. sAthe sAthe amerikA, yuropa, AphrikA, hoMgakoMga, siMgApaoNra, maleziyA, bejIyama, jApAna vagere aneka dezomAM pharIne prabhu mahAvIranA siddhAMto ahiMsA, aparigraha, anekAMtavAdano prasAra karyo. ane jainadharma sAcA arthamAM vizvadharma banyo. ahiMsaka jIvanapaddhati, zAkAhAranA pracAra mATe anavarata prayatnazIla rahyA. savA lAkha jaino uparAMta lAkho videzI loko saMpUrNapaNe zAkAhAra ane vijJAna tarapha vaLyA. 1970mAM videzanI dharatI upara citrabhAnujIe pragaTAvelI dharmapracAranI A mazAlamAM tyAra bAda bhAratanA aneka saMto, tyAgIo, jJAnIoe tela pUrIne ene prajvalita rAkhI che. jANe ke emaNe dharmapracAra mATenAM dvAra ughADyAM. A badhA AyAmo emanA prabhAvazALI vyaktitvanA, emanI antaryAtrAnI vikAsayAtrAnAM pariNAma che. jIvananA A tamAma paDAvone vaTAvatA eo zabdo ane bhASAnA saphaLa vAhaka banyA che. ghaNuMbadhuM bolyA... ghaNuMbadhuM lakhyuM... vakhatovakhata pustakarUpe, sAmayikomAM, chApAMomAM, megejhinomAM badhuM chapAtuM rahyuM. eo lokone preraNA mATe tIrthasamAna banI gayA. emanuM sAhitya preraNAnI gaMgotrI banI gayuM ! lagabhaga 1980 sudhInI sAlanuM emanuM samagra gujarAtI sAhitya have saMpuTarUpe - 4 pustako rUpe graMthastha thayuM che. navabhArata sAhitya maMdiravALA zrI dhanajIbhAI tathA emanA parivAranA atyaMta Agraha... vinaMtI ane satata prayAsonA paripAkarUpe A sAhityasaMpuTa 1400thI vadhAre pAnAMomAM patharAIne upalabdha bane che. A samagra sAhitya mAnavajAta mATenI emanI karuNA.. emano prema.. kalyANa-kAmanA... tathA jIvana pratyeno samAdara chalakAI Ave che. joke 1980 pachInAM pravacano, ciMtana Alekhana vagerenI to ApaNe hajI paNa tIkSA karavI rahI. nizcitapaNe emanA vicAro vAcakane jhakajhoraze. sAcI dizA cIMdhaze. mArganI zodhamAM nIkaLelA sAdhako mATe dIvAdAMDInI garaja sAraze. (M, A., M. Phill., D. H. E.) pro. rameza eca. bhojaka Wilson College MVM 7.

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Carex sh U.S. House of Representatives CERTIFICATE Moog This certification of recognition and Repreciation is presented to GURUDEV SHREE CHITRABHANUJI Founder, Jain Meditation International Center New York, New York who have lise uning WICY at a session of the U.S. Hause of Representatives, The Capital, Waskington, D.C., OK MAY 22, 2001. wowowowowoso

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anukramaNikA jIvana-mAMgalya 1. AjanA yugamAM 2. AtmasattAno anubhava 3. dhAraNa kare te dharma 4. mananI keLavaNI 5. AtmajAgRti 6. maitrInI mahattA 7. aSTaguNI vANI 32 48 33 0 pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! 105 1 13 8. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! 9. ahaMne oLakho 10. strInI zakti 11. sAcuM AbhUSaNa 12. abhaya keLavo 13. AjanA yuvAnone 14. prazna-tripuTI 15. AjanA yugamAM 11. jIvanasAphalyanI cAvI 17. ApaNane oLakhIe 18. dAna : eka utsava 1 rara 137 140 147 161

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19. AtmazrInI pUrNatA 20. pUrNanI pyAsa 21. prANI-maitrIdina pUrNanA pagathAre 22. parisaMvAda 23. jIvanane pUrNa kema banAvavuM ? 24. jIvananuM darzana 25. samyagdarzana 27. vikAsa 27. ApaNuM saMskA2dhana 28. prArthanA ane puruSArtha 29. strI : jvALA nahi, jyota (8) 169 181 193 199 225 230 244 259 266 279 294

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1. AjanA yugamAM na darzanamAM koI vAta ekAMte ( 10 kahevAmAM nathI AvI. Aje keTalAka $ loko jIvanane ekalakSI banAvI mAtra kriyA che ke dhyAna para ja mahattva Ape to te kema 2 cAle ? kAraNa ke syAdvAda-anekAntanI che. daSTie koI ekane ApaNuM madhyabiMdu ja banAvavA chatAM jIvana viSenI anekavidha che bAbatono paNa ApaNe sApekSa khyAla 8. rAkhavo paDaze. Ajano yuga eka rIte jJAnano yuga che. vyAvahArika zikSaNa ane dhArmika zikSaNa * e baMne vaccenA bheda tema ja jIvanamAM e che. baMnenuM zuM sthAna che, te ApaNe samajI levuM A paDaze. vyAvahArika zikSaNanI jarUriyAta che tema ja upayogitA to Aje jIvanamAM dareka kSetre jovAmAM Ave che. divase divase vadhatI jatI aneka yunivarsiTIo tema ja $ kaoNlejamAM abhyAsa karI vidyArthIo DigrI meLave che, e uparathI ja ApaNane khyAla AvI jAya che ke kayo mANasa kayA jIvana-mAMgalya * 3

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viSayamAM niSNAta che. ema. bI. bI. esa.nI DigrI dharAvanAra hoya to ApaNe samajI zakIe chIe ke te zarIrazAstrano niSNAta che. te ja rIte sI. e.nI DigrI dharAvanArane te hisAba ane nAmAkhAtAno niSNAta che ema ApaNI samajamAM AvI jAya che. dhArmika zikSaNanI bAbatamAM abhyAsanI koI AvI DigrI hotI nathI, ane tenA zikSakonI pasaMdagImAM paNa khAsa dhoraNa jevuM hotuM nathI. Ajano yuga dhArmika ane vyAvahArika zikSaNano samanvaya karavAno yuga che. thoDA vakhata pahelAM zistapAlana viSe ApaNA dezanA vidyArthIomAM vadhatI jatI bedarakArI ane vaNasatI paristhiti aMge tapAsa karavA mATe sarakAre eka mizana nImyuM hatuM ane temAM ApaNA rASTrapati ane muMbaInA mAjI gavarnara zrIprakAza jevA vidvAna sabhyo hatA. temaNe saMzodhana karI je riporTa taiyAra karyo temAM mukhya vAta e hatI ke kaoNlejanA vidyArthIone vyAvahArika zikSaNanI sAthosAtha AdhyAtmika zikSaNa paNa ApavuM jarU2nuM che. Ama thatAM vidhArthIjagatamAM Aje je avyavasthA ane zistapAlanano abhAva jovAmAM Ave che, te dUra thaze. Ama AdhyAtmika zikSaNanI agatya rASTrapatie paNa svIkArI che. pAThazALAomAM chokarAone dhArmika sUtro zikhavADavAmAM Ave che, ane tethI bALakone jarUrI dhArmika zikSaNa maLI rahe che, ema saMtoSa mAnI laIe te barobara nathI. hAIskUlonAM AgalAM dhoraNomAM abhyAsa karatA tema ja kaoNlejomAM bhaNatA vidyArthIone dhArmika zikSaNa bAbatamAM saMtoSa ApI zake tevA zikSakonI ApaNe tyAM khoTa che, ane A UNapanA kAraNe ja bALako dhArmika abhyAsamAM rasa laI zakatAM nathI, kAraNa ke evA abhyAsathI temanI bhUkha saMtoSAtI nathI. moTI uMmaranAM bALakone jyAre pAThazALAmAM javAnuM kahevAmAM Ave che tyAre teo vyAvahArika zikSaNanA bojAnI vAta rajU kare che, ane eve vakhate ApaNe bALakonI vAta sAthe saMmata thaI jaIe chIe. vAstavika paristhiti to e che ke AjanAM mAbApone temanA dhamAliyA jIvananA kAraNe, bALakone pAThazALAmAM javAnuM kema gamatuM nathI, tema ja dhArmika abhyAsamAM temane kema rasa paDato nathI, tenAM kAraNomAM UMDAM UtaravAnI phurasada ja nathI, ane tethI to paristhiti sudharavAne badale vaNasatI javAnI che. A mATe mArI pAse aneka vidyArthIo carcA arthe Ave che, ane te parathI mane lAge che ke AjanA vidyArthIomAM AdhyAtmika zikSaNanI bhUkha to che ja, paraMtu vartamAna dhArmika zikSaNanI paddhati ane avyavasthAnA kA2Ne 4 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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teonI AvI bhUkha saMtoSAtI nathI, ane tethI ja teone dhArmika abhyAsamAM rasa paDato nathI. mane yAda che ke eka vakhata eka prauDha umaranA zikSaka pAse bALako sUtronI gAthAo bolI rahyAM hatAM. tyAM eka vidyArthIe prazna karyo ke, sAheba ! surya savAre Uge che ane sAMjanA Athame che, paNa jagatamAM koI evo pradeza hoI zake kharo ke jyAM sUrya divasonA divasa sudhI Athame ja nahi ? A dhArmika zikSakane bhUgoLanuM jJAna na hovAthI pelA vidyArthIne mUrkhAI bharelo prazna pUche che ema kahI besADI dIdho. AvI paristhiti ApaNI moTA bhAganI pAThazALAomAM pravarte che. vidyArthIo potAnI jijJAsA saMtoSavA eka ThekANethI bIje ThekANe jAya che, paNa koI sthaLe emane mUrkha gaNI hasI kADhe che, to vaLI koI sthaLe emane jaDa gaNI hAMkI kADhavAmAM Ave che, to vaLI koI sthaLe ene nAstika kahI tiraskAravAmAM Ave che. AnA pariNAme vidyArthIo kaMTALI jAya che, ane dhArmika abhyAsamAMthI temanI zraddhA ja UThI jAya che. eTale prathama to Aje pAThazALAomAM evA zikSakonI jarUra che ke jemaNe dhArmika abhyAsa sAthe saMpUrNa vyAvahArika vijJAnanuM jJAna paNa lIdhuM hoya, dRSTinI vizALatA hoya. mAtra sUtronI gAthAo gokhAvyA kare evA zikSako vartamAna kALe ApaNI pAThazALAomAM nahi cAle, ane e ja rIte kaoNleja tema ja hAIskUlomAM paNa vyAvahArika sAthe AdhyAtmika zikSaNa dharAvanAra zikSako ane prophesaronI pasaMdagI karavAmAM Avaze tyAre ja vidyArthIomAM pravartatI azista nAbUda thaze. kriyA ApaNA AtmA mATe che, ApaNo AtmA kriyA mATe nathI, e ApaNe haMmezAM yAda rAkhavAnuM che. jo dareka kriyA vivekapUrvaka karavAmAM AvatI hoya to evI kriyA karanArane koI pApakarmanuM baMdhana thatuM nathI. dazavaikAlika sUtramAM kahyuM che ke je vivekathI cAle, vivekathI Ubho rahe, vivekathI sUve, vivekapUrvaka bhojana kare ane vivekapUrvaka bole to te pApakarma bAMdhato nathI. deha ane AtmA vaccenA bheda paNa ApaNe samajI levA joIe. AtmA ghInA loTA jevo che, kAyA chAzanA loTA jevI che. koI mANasa eka hAthamAM ghIno loTo ane bIjA hAthamAM chAzano loTa rAkhI mArge cAlyo jato hoya, ane sAmethI koI doDatuM AvatuM hoya to tenI aDapheTamAMthI bacavA mATe e mANasa e rIte tarI jaze ke jethI chAzanA loTAnA bhoge paNa ghInA loTAne AMca na Ave. A rIte kAyAnA bhoge AtmAnuM rakSaNa karI zakAya, paNa AtmAnA bhoge kAyAnuM rakSaNa na ja thaI zake AvI rIte sarjana ane visarjana vaccenA bheda paNa ApaNe jANI levA jIvana-mAMgalya ha 5

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rahyA. eka kaLAkArane bhavya pratimA taiyA2 karatAM varasonAM varaso lAge che, tyAre bIjo mANasa kuhADAnA ghAthI thoDI kSaNomAM ja te pratimAnuM khaMDana karI nAkhe che, e bemAMthI vadhu zakti pratimAne khaMDita karanAramAM nahi paNa sarjana karanAramAM che; kAraNa ke sarjana karavAmAM jJAnazaktinI jarUra paDe che, jyAre nAza karavAmAM to jaDatAnI jarUra paDe che. AjanA yugamAM bhautika zaktino upayoga moTA bhAge visarjana karavAmAM thAya che, paNa sarjana karavAmAM to AdhyAtmika zaktinI ja jarUra paDe. yuropanA eka suprasiddha kaLAkAre eka suMdara bALakanuM citra taiyAra karyuM. bALakanuM citra evuM to AkarSaka ane kaLAyukta hatuM ke ghaDI-be ghaDI ApaNe tenI tarapha joI ja rahIe. enA moDhA 52nA saraLa ane vinamra bhAvo, tathA hoTha paranuM mRdu hAsya evAM to alaukika hatAM ke jonAranA manamAM nirmaLatA ane nirdoSatAno saMcAra thAya. thoDAM varaso bAda bIjA eka citrakAre eka duSTa puruSanuM citra taiyAra karyuM ane te mATe eka bhayaMkara caherAvALA mANasane paNa zodhI kADhyo. enI krUra AMkho, vikarALa cahero, phUleluM nAka, UpaselA hoTha evAM to bihAmaNAM hatAM ke citra jotAM ghRNA ane tiraskAranA bhAva jAgrata thAya ! pachI eka pradarzanamAM e baMne citrone teNe sAthe bAjumAM mUkyAM. baMne citro ekabIjAthI viruddha prakAranAM citro hatAM. eka divasa eka mAnavI te pradarzana jovA Avyo, ane citro jotAM jotAM pelAM be citronI pAse AvI pahoMcyo. pelAM be citro joIne te to poke poke raDavA ja lAgyo. ene raDato joIne tenI AsapAsa mANasonuM ToLuM jAmI gayuM ane tene rovAnuM kAraNa pUchatAM teNe potAnuM moDhuM baMne hAtho vaDe DhAMkIne kahyuM ke A baMne citro bhinna bhinna vyaktinAM nathI paNa eka ja vyaktinAM che. ane te vyakti anya koI nathI, paNa huM pote ja chuM. A baMne citro joI mArA bhUtakALanA svarUpanI vartamAna svarUpa sAthe saheje sarakhAmaNI thaI gaI, ane te vicAre hRdayane AghAta thayo. huM raDuM chuM mArA patanane. Aje ApaNI jAtane ja ApaNe bhUlI gayA chIe. paNa AjanA vijJAnayugamAM sauthI moTAmAM moTI jarUra to ApaNe ApaNI jAtane ja oLakhavAnI che. AdhyAtmika zikSaNa mANasane svanAM darzana tarapha dore che, ane te ja jJAna sAcuM jJAna che. 6 : jIvana-mAMgalya

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2. AtmasattAno anubhava ga, janA yugamAM mAnavI kyAM che, mAnavInuM mUlyAMkana zuM che, teno vicAra ApaNe karavAno che. ApaNe khUba je zAMtithI vicAra karIzuM tyAre ja ApaNane khyAla Avaze ke Aje mAnavI kyAM, mAnavInuM sthAna zuM, ane mAnavInAM sAcAM " mUlya zAM hoI zake ane atyAre zAM che ? Aje vijJAna eka bAju che; jJAna bIjI bAju che. vijJAna ane jJAnanI vacce 1 mAnavI beTho che. vijJAna bhautikavAdano AviSkAra karI rahyuM che; jJAna AtmavAdano AviSkAra karI rahyuM che. e bannemAMthI mAnavIe potAne kaI bAju javuM che te A pasaMda karavAnuM che. sAmAnya rIte pravAhI padArthano eka niyama che ke e DhALa bAju ja vahI jatuM hoya che ! vijJAnanA AviSkAroe, ja vijJAnanAM pralobhanoe ane vijJAne ApelI vividha AkarSaka siddhioe oo mANasane eTalo to kheMcyo che ke jyAre jIvana-mAMgalya : 7

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enI AgaLa AtmajJAnanI vAta karavAno prasaMga Ave che tyAre tene te nirasa lAge che; lAMbA gALAnI yojanA lAge che; kAraNa ke jJAnano mArga caDhANano che, ane vijJAnano mArga upabhogano che, DhALano che. eTale thayuM zuM ? vijJAnanA padArtho, enI zodha ane enAM sAdhano ApaNane vipulatAmAM maLavA lAgyAM. AthI ApaNe ema samajavA lAgyA ke ApaNe ApaNA bApadAdA karatAM AgaLa chIe, sukhI chIe. vaLI ApaNe ApaNA vaDavAo para dayA paNa khAtA thaI gayA ke emaNe bicArAoe jagata kaMI joyuM nahi ! emanA ema cAlyA gayA ! e loko cUlo phUMkI phUMkI herAna thaI gayA. ApaNo jamAno kevo ke svica dAbIe ane rasoDuM cAlu thAya ? keTalI sarasa sagavaDa ! e loko bicArA pANI mATe kUve jaI, taLAve jaI, pANI mAthe upADI lAvatA. have to pANInI cakalI pheravo eTale pANI ja pANI ! have kUve ane taLAve to maravA ke taravA sAru ja mANasa jAya. are, e jamAno kevo hato ? vAsIdu vALI vALIne, gAra karI karIne, lIMpaNa karI karIne e DosA-DosIo thAkI jatAM. Aja to kevI cakacakATa lAdIo che ? eka jhADa pheravo ke badhuM sApha ! ane have to jhADu paNa ilekTrikanAM ! A badhAthI Aje ApaNane ema lAge che ke ApaNe AgaLa chIe. koIkavAra ema paNa thAya ke arere, e lokoe A yuga joyo hota to ! Avo sarasa reDiyo ! Teliphona ! AvI sarasa lAdI ane AvA sarasa adyatana prakAranAM sAdhano ! bicArA joyA vinA ja gayA ? keTalAkane to emanI trIjI peDhInAM vaDIlo prAcIna yuganAM lAge che ! e ajJAna yuganA mANaso bicArA kaMI na jANe. Ama Aje mANasanuM mana, mANasanI buddhi, mANasanA vicAro AvA AkAra laI rahyA che ! mANasanA cittanI AsapAsa evA prakAranI AkRti sarjAI rahI che. mANasa hRdayathI ema mAnato thayo che ke jema jema vijJAnanAM sAdhano vadhaze, AviSkAro thaze tema tema te AgaLa vadhelo gaNAze. koI paNa mANasa AvIne kahe : "vijJAna ApaNane AgaLa nathI lAvyuM ?" to "hA" ja kahevI paDaze ane emAM sUra purAvavo paDaze ke AjanAM jevAM bhavya sarjano kayA yugamAM hatAM ? jo mANase pragati karI na hota to ApaNe ATalA badhA AgaLa Avata kyAMthI ? hajAro mAIlano paMtha, Aje plena dvArA kalAkomAM kapAya che. vAta vAtamAM to kyAMnA kyAM pahoMcI javAya che ! AnA karatAM vadhu bIjI pragati duniyAmAM koI hoI zake ? ghaNI vAra A dalIlo sAme ApaNe mauna sevavuM 8 - jIvana-mAMgalya

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paDe che, kAraNa ke e vAta sAcI che. gADAmAM besI vIsa mAIla javAnuM hoya to baLadiyA thAke, vacce gADuM choDavuM paDe, baLadane ghAsa ApavuM paDe; keTakeTalo prayatna kare tyAre vIsa mAIla javAya. paNa Aje have laMDana javuM hoya ke amerikA javuM hoya topaNa bahu vicAra karavo paDato nathI. sau hasatAM hasatAM vidAya Ape che. A uparathI joI zakAya che ke ApaNI pragati, ApaNI gati, ApaNI jhaDapa khUba ja vadhI che ane hajI vadhI rahI che. ApaNuM mana e rIte taiyAra thaI rahyuM che. ApaNane sAce ja lAge che ke ApaNe AgaLa vadhelA mANasa chIe. paNa A badhAmAM mAnavInuM sthAna zuM che te zAMtithI vicAravuM paDaze. Aje yaMtra AgaLa vadhe che, paNa mANasa kyAM che ? yaMtranAM mUlyo che tenA pramANamAM, mANasanAM mUlyo ghaTyAM che ke vadhyAM che ? kharuM kahuM ? Aje mANasa sasto banyo che, mazIna moMghuM banyuM che. mazInanI mahattA jeTalI paNa mANasanI mahattA rahI nathI. eTale ja Aje mANasa, mANasone sAdhanothI mApe che. mANasanuM mApa saguNanI sAmagrIthI nathI thatuM paNa bAhya sAdhanonI sAmagrIthI thAya che. AjanI jhaDapa ane veganI asara mANasanA jJAnataMtuo para ane vicAra para akalpanIya rIte thaI rahI che. svasthatAthI mANasa Aje jIvana ane jagata aMge vicArI ja zakato nathI. mANasanuM mUlya enA cAritrathI, enI sevAthI, enI udAratAthI, enA paropakArI svabhAvathI thavuM joIe tene badale enA bAhya saMgrahathI ane sAdhanothI ja thavA lAgyuM che. eTale mANasa kevo pavitra che te nahi, paNa e keTaluM raLe che, kamAya che, te ja mAtra jovAya che. A sAdhana, ekanI pAsethI laI lyo ane bIjAne Apo, eTale pahelo mANasa gauNa banI gayo, ane jenI pAse sAdhana AvyuM te mukhya banI gayo. Ama sAdhano badalAtAM mANasa badalAya che. eTale ke jenI pAse vadhAre sAdhana te vadhAre AgaLa. A zarata-doDamAM sAdhanovALo phAvI jAya che. Ama jiMdagI ja eka zarata banI gaI che ! haveno mANasa kahe che : mANasanI sAme nahi, enA sAdhana sAme juo. mANasanuM cAritra, to kaheze, "bhale hoya. saMyama pALe che, to kaheze "ThIka che : bhalo, AdhyAtmika che. bIjuM zuM ? e badhuM hovA chatAM enI pAse bIjuM zuM che ?' bIjuM eTale samajyA ne ? paiso, ane sAdhanono Dhagalo ! e hoya jIvana-mAMgalya : 9

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to kaheze : "barAbara, eNe kharI kamANI karI che !" A sAdhano gayAM to mANasa Akho ja gayo. mANasa pote jANe kaMI ja nathI. Aje manamAM dAsatva AvyuM che. Aja sudhI mANasane AdhIna sAdhana hatAM; have mANasa sAdhanone AdhIna thayo che. ghoDA upara mANasa hato tene badale mANasa upara ghoDo hoya enA jevI Aje dazA che. jagatanI evI paristhiti che. eTale kharI rIte jozo to jaNAze ke mANasa Aje sAdhano nIce dabAyelo che; je svAmI hato te Aje anucara banyo che. A anucara kadAca bahAranI dRSTie nahi dekhAya, paNa mAnasika dRSTie anubhavI zakazo. A rIte mANasanuM mana dAsatva anubhave che, ane te cetananuM nahi paNa jaDa sAdhanonuM. dAkhalA tarIke, tame gADI vasAvI. tame gADImAM beThA. e tamAruM sAdhana thayuM. eka ThekANethI bIje ThekANe javAmAM e madada kare che. dhAro ke gADImAM besIne tame sabhAmAM pravacana sAMbhaLavA Avo cho, agara tame ja jaMgalamAM dhyAna dharavA jAo cho, ke kyAMka svAdhyAya karavA jAo cho, paNa mAno ke koI divasa tamArI gADI bagaDI gaI; to tame zuM karo cho ? kahezo ke Aje have vyAkhyAnamAM nathI javuM, kAraNa ke Aje gADI bagaDelI che. huM kahuM chuM ke bhAI, gADI bagaDI gaI che, paNa tuM ethI kema cAlato baMdha thaI gayo ? A thaI jaDa sAdhananI cetanA uparanI asara. ghaNA kahe che : "have amArAthI calAya nahi. ame to jarAya na cAlIe. gADI vinA bahAra javAvALA e ApaNe nahi." pachI e dhyAna, vyAkhyAna je kaMI karatA hoya te bAjumAM rahe. gADI jyAre pAchI Ave, tyAre pravRtti cAlu thAya; tyAM sudhI badhuM baMdha. eTale mANasa kaMI nathI, gADI mukhya che. mANasanI manobhUmikA upara, mANasanI mAnasika sthiti upara sAdhananI A kevI rIte gherI asara che ! jo mANasa ema mAnato hoya ke e svAdhIna che to te barobara nathI ? e to sAdhanano anucara che. A anucarapaNuM paNa dhIme dhIme enA lohImAM eTaluM badhuM UtaratuM jAya che ke bApa eno vAraso dIkarAne deto jAya, ne dIkaro enA dIkarAne deto jAya. ema karatAM kadAca eka divasa evo paNa Ave ke, mANasane thAya ke badhuM ja kAma sAdhano dvArA thAya che. to pachI mANasanI kismata zI ? gAya, bheMza ane bakarI dUdha Ape tyAM sudhI kAmanAM, pachI e katalakhAne jAya. mANasanI sevA karanArane chelle Ama kapAI maravuM paDe che ! A rIte 10 ka jIvana-mAMgalya

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mANasanI svArthavRttie katalakhAnAM vadhAryA che. mANasane dUdhathI kAma che, gAyathI nahi. pahelAMnA jamAnAmAM gAyane "mAtA" kahetA; dUdha e sAdhana hatuM. pazunI karuNA mukhya hatI. tyAre enA prANano vicAra hato. paNa Aje ? Aje eno vicAra koNa kare che ? mANasa kahe che : "amane dUdha maLI gayuM. pachI e gAyo gharaDI thAya, nakAmI thAya, kasAIkhAne jAya, khADAmAM paDe ke game tyAM jAya, emAM amane zuM ?" AmAMthI chello vicAra evo kema na Ave ke bApa kAma kare, raLIne Ape ane mAtA gharanAM chokarAM ramADe tyAM sudhI DosADosI kAmanAM, pachI e jAya vRddhagharomAM. vadhumAM Ajano adyatana yuvaka kahe che : "vRddho nirarthaka che. e loko kamAtA nathI. samAjane, dezane koIneya lAbha ApatA nathI. evAono saMgraha zA mATe ? emane ThekANe pADo. jagyAnI taMgI che. AvAone khaseDI jagyA karo." Aja yuropamAM "gharaDAMnAM gharo' vadhatAM jAya che. tyAMnA gharaDA-buhUDhA mANaso jyAre pravAse-TUra upara Ave che, tyAre te kahe che : "vRddhAvasthA e bhAre mUMjhavaNano prazna che. e zA mATe ? gharaDAM thayAM eTale karavuM zuM ?' - gharaDAMone jotAM ApaNane dayA Ave. dhoLo vALa dekhAya tyArathI temanAmAM ciMtA UbhI thAya. pachI bicArA davA lagADIne kALA vALa kare; karacalIo paDI gaI hoya to ene masAja karI sarakhI karAve ne haMmezA yuvAna dekhAvA prayatna kare. paNa kALano pravAha, dehano dharma ane iMdriyomAM AvatuM parivartana kema rokAya ? mANasa game eTalo sAvadhAna rahIne prayatna kare topaNa deha upara kALanI asara thavAnI ja. prakRtino dharma prakati choDI de to pachI emAM prakRtipaNuM rahetuM nathI. prakRtino dharma e che ke dareka vastumAM palaTo lAvavo. lokhaMDa jevuM lokhaMDa ane sTIla jevuM sTIla paNa ghasAI jAya che. sTIlanA yaMtrone paNa ghasAro lAge ja che ne. pacIsa varasa pachI e yaMtra paNa jUnuM banI jAya che. AvuM joradAra lokhaMDa paNa jo ghasAI jAya to mANasanA A dehane ghasAro na lAge ? AvA ghasArA lAgelA gharaDA mANasane kyAM javuM ? e have Aje kAma Apato nathI eTale ATalAM varSa kareluM enuM kAma paNa nakAmuM gayuM ? enuM mUlya kaMI ja nahi ? mAtra utpAdananuM ja mUlya ? utpAdakanuM sthAna kaMI ja nahi ? mANasa prApta kare tenuM ja sthAna; mANasanuM kaMI ja sthAna nahi ? have, prAcIna kALamAM zuM hatuM te juo : caitanya ane raghunAtha baMne mitro. maitrI evI ke jANe puSpa ane parAga. jIvana-mAMgalya + 11

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baMne samartha vidvAna. nyAyazAstranA pracaMDa jJAtA gaNAya. baMne kaMIkanuM kaMIka sarjana karatA ja hoya. maLe tyAre jJAnagoSThi kare. ekane Teke, bIjAne upara caDhavAnI taka maLe. ekamAM rahelI bhUla dUra kare ane pANInA saMge jema vastra svaccha thAya, tema mitranA saMge mitra zuddha thAya. 'mitra esA kIjIe, jo DhAla sarIkhA hoya, sukhameM piche paDa rahe, ora du:khameM Age hoya.' kSatriyo DhAlane pAchaLa khabhe bAMdhe che. e sukhanA divasomAM pAchaLa paDI rahe che, paNa saMgrAmamAM ghA jhIlavA e AgaLa Ave che. talavAranA jhATakA e jhIle che. mitro paNa evA hoya je sukhamAM pAchaLa hoya, paNa du:khamAM AgaLa thAya. vipatti sahIne paNa mitrane madada kare. mitrane adhamamArge jato bacAve. AvA mitra maLavA Aje muzkela che. ene to zodhavA paDe che jema ghara zodho cho, dhaMdho zodho cho, tema mitra paNa hajAro mANasomAMthI zodhIne, cUMTIne meLavavo paDe che. samaya thoDo che. kAma ghaNuM che. mATe samayano sadupayoga thAya evA ja mitro tamArI AsapAsa hovA joIe. khAlI vAto kare, gAmanI niMdA kare, pattAM phUTyA kare ane jyAM tyAM tamAro samaya bagADyA kare, evA mitro zA kAmanA ? - mANase A janma dvArA sAdhanA karavAnI che; abhyAsathI cittane keLavavAnuM che; yogathI mana, vacana ane kAyAne saMvAdamaya karavAnAM che; tattvajJAnathI A vizvanI pelI pAra zuM che te jANavAnuM che, evo saMketa meLavavAno che. AvuM badhuM karavAne badale, mAtra khAvA-pIvA-sUvA ane pharavAnI ja vAtomAM samaya jAya, te zuM ucita che ? ghaNAMya varSa A badhuM tame karyuM. have kaMTALoya nathI Avato ? je karyuM te pacAsa varSa karo ke so varSa karo, emAM navAI ane navInatA zI che ? jIvanamAM Aje A punarAvartana sivAya bIjuM che paNa zuM ? eka mANasa pAse hajAranI noTa hoya te vadhArIne pAMca hajAranI kare. pachI pAMca lAkhanI kare. pAMca karoDanI kare, e kAgaLanI thappIo karato jAya, goThavato jAya, malakAto jAya ane saMgrahIne rAjI rAjI thato jAya. paNa ethI enA AtmAmAM kayA guNano vadhAro thayo ? A noTanI thappIo koI bIjA pAse jAya to e pUjAya; pahelo paDyo 12 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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2he. te vaLI trIjA pAse jAya to te pUjAya, bIjAno koI bhAva paNa na pUche. Ama mANasa A yugamAM phUTabaoNlanI jema kevo grAunDa para AvI gayo che ! eka vAra tamArA svajano ane mitrone khabara paDe ke tamArI pAse kaMI rahyuM nathI, pachI juo ke keTalA tamArI khabara levA Ave che, keTalA tamArI paDakhe bese che ane keTalA tamane cA pAya che. tyAre ja tamane lAgaze ke je mUlya ane mAna hatuM te tamAruM nahi paNa tamArI pAse je pelI jaDa vastuono Dhagalo hato saMgraha hato tenuM hatuM. -- paNa AdhyAtmikatAmAM AvuM nathI. tyAM vastunI nahi, paNa AtmAnI ane AtmAnA guNonI kiMmata hoya che. tyAM vastu gauNa che, ane tethI caitanya ane raghunI maitrI jovA jevI che. caitanye eka apUrva graMthanuM sarjana karyuM. raghue paNa ati zrama laI eka mahAgraMthanuM sarjana karyuM hatuM. caitanyano graMtha, raghue joyo ane ene manamAM ne manamAM thayuM H AvA suMdara graMtha AgaLa mAro graMtha kema TakavAno? mArA pustakane to koI have sparza paNa nahi kare. mAro zrama pANImAM gayo. raghuno cahero phikko paDI gayo. caitanye ene pUchyuM : 'mitra, zuM che ? mukha upara viSAdanI chAyA kema ?' raghue kahyuM : 'mitra, tAruM sarjana joI mAruM mastaka namI jAya che, paNa mane thAya che ke mAro zrama vyartha gayo. ApaNe baMnee eka ja viSaya para lakhyuM che, paNa tArI maulikatA adbhuta che.' Ama eNe caitanyanI pUrepUrI prazaMsA karI. eka vAra pUnamanI rAtre baMne mitro naukAvihAra karI rahyA che. naukA saritAnA jaLa para ramatI 2matI jaLanI madhyamAM AvI. caitanye be hAthathI kaMI lIdhuM ane jaLamAM padharAvI dIdhuM. raghue pUchyuM : 'mitra, mitra, A zuM karyuM ?' caitanya caMdrikA jevuM smita karI kahyuM : 'e to mArA mitranA graMtharUpI candrane mAro graMtharUpI rAhu gaLI jato hato, tene meM jaLamAM padharAvyo.' raghune tammara AvI gayAM : 'mitra, teM A zuM karyuM ? AvuM apUrva sarjana teM A jaLamAM padhArAvyuM ? je pustaka tArI kIrtine amara banAvata, tene teM Ama sahajatAthI jaLazaraNa karyuM ?' caitanya kahe : 'raghu ! mANasanI kiMmata che; kIrti enI AgaLa gauNa che. mArA mitranI prasannatA AgaLa badhuM ja nahivat che. mANasanA mUlya AgaLa kIrti ne nAmanAnuM mUlya zuM che ? tAruM sarjana e mAruM sarjana che ne ? tArI bAra-bAra varSanI mahenatane mAruM mana AdarathI jue che.' jIvana-mAMgalya * 13

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vicAro, tamAreya mitra to che ne ? paNa tamAre mATe Avo koI tyAga ke bhoga ApavA taiyAra che ? tamArI muzkelInA samaye tamArI paDakhe UbhA rahenArA keTalA ? tamArA mitro to evA ke sAthe besIne tamArA guNa gAya ane pAchaLathI niMdA kare. kAraNa ke emanA manamAM tamArA vyaktitvanI chApa karatAM tamArA dhananI chApa vadhAre che eTale dhanane salAma kare ane tamArI niMdA kare. mATe evA mitrothI so jojana dUra ja rahejo. vastune ApaNe kaI rIte joIe chIe e para ghaNI vAra vastunI oLakhano AdhAra rahe che. e ja rIte vastune kayA sAdhanathI joIe chIe te para paNa vastunI kiMmata samajavAno AdhAra rahe che. kALA cazmAM caDhAvIne jozo to pILI ane dhoLI vastu paNa zyAma dekhAze kAraNa ke kAcano kALo raMga vastu upara raMganuM AropaNa kare che, eTale vastune jovAmAM yogya sAdhana joIe. vastune enA mULa rUpe oLakha Ape evuM e sAdhana hoya to vastunI viziSTatAno ApaNane khyAla Ave. e ja rIte, AtmAne oLakhavA mATe paNa A AMkha kAma lAge te karatAM divya AMkha anekagaNI vadhAre kAma lAge. zarIranI AMkha eTale bhautikatAne jonArI AMkha. e sthUla AMkha sthUla vastune jovAnI. jIvananI parama sUkSma evI cetanAnuM darzana e kema karI zake ? ane mAnavajIvana e kaMI mAtra hAlatuM cAlatuM pUtaLuM ke yaMtra nathI. e to che cetanAno dhabakAra, AtmAno ane karma-sattAno AviSkAra ! ApaNA dehanA kendramAM cetanA che, AtmA che. ene oLakhavA divya nayana joIe. e divya nayananI prApti sAthe ja vizvanuM darzana palaTAI jaze. pachI tamane dareka vastunI pAchaLa rahela zreSTha vastunuM darzana thaze. pachI strI eTale vilAsa ane vikAranuM sAdhana nahi, paNa komaLa ane bhaktibharyA samarpaNanA vicArone jIvanamAM saMkrAnta karanArI preraNAmUrti dekhAze; puruSa eTale paiso pedA karI upabhoganAM sAdhano pUrAM pADanAra ekamAtra yaMtra nahi, paNa puruSArtha, dhairya ane jIvana-saMgrAmamAM himmata ApI AgaLa vadhAranAra jIvanasAthI dekhAze, pachI saMsAra, mAtra artha ane kAmano akhADo na banatAM, jIvana-sopAna caDhavA mATe dharmamaya saMsAranA artha ane kAma e nisaraNInAM pagathiyAM jevAM lAgaze. tame sau ema to nathI mAnatA ne ke ApaNe to saMsAramAM beThA chIe. ApaNe zuM karavAnuM - A daSTi barAbara nathI. saMsArane tame ATalI nIcI kakSAe na mUko. A to karmabhUmi che; re, dharmabhUmi che. emAM tamAre prayatna 14 - jIvana-mAMgalya

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karI AgaLa AvavAnuM che. jema kIcaDamAMthI kamaLa upara Ave che tema tamAre Asakti ane rAgadveSamAMthI upara AvI, paMkajanI jema adhdhara rahevAnuM che. A saMsAramAMthI tame UMcAmAM UMcI vastu pAmavAnA cho. ahIM prApta na thaI zake evI vastu eke ya nathI, kAraNa ke mokSa jevI parama durlabha vastu paNa A jIvana dvArA ja siddha thaI zake che. tame roja pAMca miniTa paNa besIne vicAra karo cho ke ApaNe kyAMthI AvyA chIe, kyAM javAnA chIe ane jatI vakhate zuM laI javAnA chIe ? pati ane patnI, pitA ane putra, mAtA ane dIkarI, mitra ane sAthI - bhegAM thaI kadI evo vicAra kare che ke ApaNe ahIM kema bhegAM thaI gayAM ane ahIMthI chUTAM paDyA pachI kyAM bhegAM thaIzuM ? bahAragAma, AgaLa-pAchaLa javAnA ho to kyAM maLaze tenI goThavaNa karo cho ? kalakattA javAnA ho to nakkI karo cho ne ke huM keniMga sTrITamAM UtarIza; tame herisana roDa upara Utarazo, paNa ApaNe amuka ThekANe, amuka divase jarUra maLIzuM. AvI koI goThavaNa, ahIM pachInA janma mATe karI che kharI ? tame pUchazo ke te zakya che ? huM kahuM chuM ke hA, te zakya che ja. sArI karaNI karIe, samAnabhAva keLavIe to bhagavAna mahAvIra ane zrI gautamanI jema, nema ane rAjulanI jema, keTalAya bhavo sudhI ekabIjAnA saMparkamAM rahI aMte mukti pAmI zakAya. karmanA kacarAne dUra karI nirmaLa banIne zAzvata maitrImAM goThavAI javAya che. A to amaratAno mArga che. ahIM daTAI javAnuM nathI; enAthI upara javAnuM che. keTalAka dharmo ema mAne che ke kayAmatanA divasa sudhI kabaramAM daTAI rahevuM paDe che. A kevo vicAra che ! caitanya jevA caitanyane, lAkho varSa sudhI kabaramAM daTAI rahevAnI vAta kare che, ApaNe tyAM to deha paDe ane DokTara AvIne zarIra tapAse te pahelAM to caitanyano pravAsa cAlu thaI gayo hoya che. ahIM caitanya nitya navIna pravAsI che. ApaNe kahIe chIe ke AtmA marato nathI; mare che te deha che. kabaramAM zarIra daTAya. AtmAne koNa dATI zake ? dhULanI zI tAkAta che ke AtmAne dATI zake ? mATImAMthI banelo ane dhULamAM maLI javAno te AtmA nahi paNa deha che. dehane AtmA mAnI besavuM e kevI bhUla che ! deha to nIce rahenAra vastu che; jyAre AtmA to upara janAra caitanya che. ekano mArga adhogAmI che; bIjAno mArga UrdhvagAmI che. Ten Commandments e tattvajJAna nahi paNa mAtra nItisUtro che. tyAM AtmAne paramAtmA banavAnI ke caitanyanA UdhvakaraNanI koI vAta nathI. A jIvana-mAMgalya + 15

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be vaccenuM aMtara samajavA jevuM che. tattvajJAnamAM AtmA ane mokSa badhuM Ave, jyAre nItimAM mAtra A loka ane teno vyavahAra ja Ave. hA, A vyavahAra zuddha banAvavAnI jarUra che ja; paNa tyAM ApaNe aTakavAnuM nathI, AgaLa vadhavAnuM che. jIva ane jagatanA sUkSma saMbaMdhane jANavAno che ane jagatamAM rahevA chatAM, jIvanane alipta rAkhavAnuM che. naukA to tame joI che ne ? e pANI vacce ane pANInI aMdara rahevA chatAM potAnI aMdara pANIne AvavA nathI detI. saritA ane sAgarane e tarI jAya che; aMdara besanArane sAme pAra utArI jAya che. tema, jo tattvajJAnanAM divya nayana maLe to saMsAramAM rahevA chatAM tame tarI jAo ane saMsArane saMsAranA mULa svarUpe joI, emAMthI choDavA lAyaka, jANavA lAyaka ane AcaravA lAyaka A traNe vAtanuM rahasya samajIne jIvana jIvI zako. A divya nayanano prakAza maLatAM maraNa paNa bhayajanaka ke zokajanaka nahi lAge. tamane ema ja lAgaze ke A to mAtra eka pravAsa che - cirapravAsa che. mRtyu mATe ravIndranAthe eka suMdara ane madhura kalpanA ApI che. eka mA potAnA bALakane dhavarAvatI hoya che. jamaNA thAnamAM dUdha ochuM thatAM, tene e tyAMthI upADI le che ane bALaka raDavA maMDI paDe che. hAtha-paga pachADe che. tyAM to mA ene potAnA DAbA thAna para mUkI de che. dUdha maLatAM bALaka cUpa thaI jAya che, rAjI rAjI thaI jAya che, vadhAre dUdha prApta kare che. tevI ja rIte, mANasa paNa ajJAnI che. mRtyu vakhate e raDe che. jo enI pAse sukRta hoya to e tyAMthI uccagatie ja javAno. kALa kahe che ke tuM kyAM marI jAya che ! tAruM zarIra have kAma karatuM nathI eTale ene badalavAnI mAtra jarUra che. tArA kAna sAMbhaLatA nathI eTale tAre sAMbhaLavA mATe yaMtranI madada levI paDe che. tArI AMkha jotI nathI eTale jovA mATe tAre kAca caDhAvavA paDe che. dAMta paDI gayA che eTale tAre cAvavA mATe cokaThAM caDhAvIne cAvavuM paDe che. tuM Ubho thaI zakato nathI eTale tAre Teko levo paDe che. to cAla, tAruM zarIra jIrNa thayuM che, te ene badalI nAkhIe. kALanI A vAta mANasa samajato nathI ane rovA bese che. kharI rIte to mRtyu eTale nIrasa sthAnane choDI, sarasa sthAnamAM javAnuM. eka evuM gharaDuM mANasa hoya ke jenI sAme koI na jue. paNa marIne e bALaka thaI avatare eTale sau ene ramADavA doDe, upADI upADIne bacIo kare, AmAM zuM AtmA badalAyo che ? nA, mAtra zarIra badalAyuM che. eTale 16 - jIvana-mAMgalya

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to ApaNA jJAnIo mANasa maratAM e "pAcho" thayo ema kahe che. maryo nahi paNa "pAcho thayo eTale ke, pAcho thaI gayo, pAcho janmI gayo. A vAta jo samajAI jAya to pachI maraNanI bhIti rahe ? Aje maraNathI loko ATalA phaphaDe che te pachI phaphaDe ? A vicAra ane nirbhayatA, daza lAkha rUpiyA kharce toya nahi maLe. mane mAtra divya nayanathI. A vAta aMdarathI AvavI joIe - kaLI khIlIne kamaLa bane tema tamArA aMtaramAM ja A vicAra pUrNa rIte khIlavo joIe. pachI tamane tamAruM jIvana koI juduM ja, rasabharapUra banI gayeluM jaNAze. A vicArane sthAyI ane daDha banAvavA mATe mANase samaye samaye vicAratA rahevuM joIe ke, huM koNa chuM ? mAruM ahIM zuM sthAna che ? ane huM kyAM javAno chuM ? A vicAronI satata dhArAthI ApaNe A baddha vartuLathI para jaI zakIzuM - rUpa ane raMgamAM, nAma ane AkAramAM aTavAI na jatAM, tenI pele pAra jaI zakIzuM. mANasa jema bagIcAmAM jaI havAphera karI Ave tema, ApaNe paNa caitanyanA sAmrAjyamAM viharI, ApaNAM mana ane magajane havAphera karAvI zakIzuM. mANasa e mAtra A zarIra ja nahi, paNa bIjuM paNa "kaMIka' che. je A "kaMIka' che te A tanamAM chupAyeluM che. te bahAra kyAre Ave ? enA paranuM DhAMkaNa khase to ne ? zIzImAM attara bharyuM hoya paNa upara sakhata bUca hoya to aMdaranI suvAsa bahAra kema prasare ? DhAMkaNa UghaDatAM ja jema havAmAM saurabhanI mAdakatA chavAI jAya che, tema cetana paNa A AkAronI duniyAmAMthI bahAra nIkaLI nirAkAramAM vihare, to eneya ghaDIbhara apUrvanI anubhUti thAya. mANasane A apUrvanI anubhUti na thAya ane mAtra yaMtravAdanA vAtAvaraNamAM ja e jIvyA kare to te divase evuM paNa bane ke mANasa yaMtrano upayoga kare che tene badale yaMtra, mANasano upayoga karatuM .I jAya. buniyAdI vicAradhArA paNa have A ja kahe che ke sAdhanane tame AdhIna na bano paNa sAdhanane tamAre AdhIna rAkho. eTale ke, sAdhanathI kAma lo, paNa sAdhananI gerahAjarImAM tame paravaza ke nirmAlya na bano. sAdhana, mANasa mATe hoya. mANasa, sAdhana mATe na hoya. vastuo mANasanI AsapAsa cakkara lagAve tene badale mANasa vastuonI AsapAsa cakkara lagAve to vastunuM mUlya vadhI jAya ane mANasanI kiMmata kaMI ja na rahe. A rIte sAdhana ane sAdhakano viveka jIvanamAM AvatAM, sAdhana mATe jIvana-mAMgalya : 17

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Aje gharagharamAM je jhaghaDA thAya che, je manaduHkha thAya che te nahi thAya. kAraNa ke sAdhakano viveka, sAdhana mATe ene bAjhatAM aTakAvaze. A vivekabhAva gharamAM jAgaze to gharamAM kalahane badale zAnti prasaraze, dezamAM A bhAva prasaraze to dezamAM AttaradveSa ane jhaghaDAne badale prema ane zAnti phelAze, vizvamAM A vicAradhArA vahetI thaze to A vizvayuddha ane aNubaoNmbane badale, vizvamaitrI ane vizvazAnti AvIne vasaze. ahIM beThelAM bhAIbaheno A vicArane pUrA ciMtanathI samajI jIvanamAM utAraze to enI asara AkhA ghara para thaze. tamArA gharanuM vAtAvaraNa AthI sAruM thaze to AvatI kAle enuM anukaraNa tamArA paDozI karaze. paDozInI asara AkhA samAja para thaze. pachI samAjanI asara deza ane dezanI asara AkhA vizva para thaze. alabatta, Ama sArA vicArone prasaratAM samaya jarUra lAge che, paNa e vicArano prAraMbha karanAramAM zraddhA hoya to e prasaryA vinA raheto nathI. Aje jagata para je sArA vicAro che tenI zarUAta paNa ekAda vyaktithI ja thaI haze ne ? pachI e vyaktinA vicAro samaSTimAM saMkrAnta thayA ane te Aje jagatanI mUDI banIne rahyA tema ApaNe paNa, A vicArane amalamAM mUkavAno ane AtmasAt karavAno pUrNa zraddhAthI prayatna karIzuM to enuM zubha pariNAma paNa jarUra Avaze ja. A vicAro, jIvanamAM UtaryA pachI mANasa sAdhanano anucara nahi hoya paNa svAmI haze. tyAre mANasa dehane ja sarvasva nahi mAnato hoya paNa AtmasattAno anubhava karato haze. e maraNathI Darato-pharato nahi hoya paNa mRtyune ekamAtra dIrgha pravAsa mAnato haze ane e pravAsamAM kAma lAge tevA bhavanA bhAtAne sAthe levAnI taiyArI A janmamAM karato haze. AvA mAnavInuM sthAna koI paNa yugamAM apUrva ja haze. 18 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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*><+ 3. dhAraNa kare te dharma cillo che. kahe che : saMsAranA badhA jIvo pravAsI che, anaMtanA yAtrI mAnavadeha e anaMtanI yAtrAnuM eka vizrAmadhAma che. yAtrika vizrAmadhAmamAM sau sAthe premathI rahe che, paraMtu pote kyAMthI Avyo che, kyAM javAno che, kyAre javAno che e bhUlato nathI. evuM jo e bhUlI jAya to, e parezAna parezAna thaI jAya. dhArelA dhyeya para pahoMcI ja na zake. gamAramAM gamAra musAphara paNa, yAtrAnA A muddA kadIya bhUlato nathI. paraMtu duniyArUpI vizrAmasthAnamAM Avelo A anaMtano yAtrI koNa jANe kema, A badhuM bhUlI jAya che, ne potAne pravAsI mAnavAne badale nivAsI mAnavA lAgI jAya che ne potAnI yAtrAnuM lakSya cUkI jAya che. jIvana-mAMgalya * 19

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paraMtu ene khabara nathI ke, duniyArUpI A vizrAmasthAna choDavAno vAro Avaze tyAre ene cITakI rahevuM haze toya cITakI nahi zakAya ne ene vizrAmasthAna choDavuM ja paDaze. tyAre enI dazA bhaTakatA musAphara jevI thaI jaze. koNa jANe kema, ApaNe badhA jJAnanI mIThI mIThI vAto karIe chIe, paraMtu AcaraNamAM to, AvatI kAlano vicAra karyA vinA ja bhautika jIvana jIvIe chIe. jJAnanI vAto karanAranuM, prabhunuM nAma lenAranuM, potAnI jAtane dharmiSTha tarIke oLakhAvanAranuM e kartavya banI rahe che ke pote kyAMthI Avyo che, kyAM javAno che ne jyAM javAno che tyAM javA mATeno uttama mArga karyo che teno satata vicAra kare ne jAgRti seve. dharma ane adharmImAM ATaluM ja aMtara che. dharmI pUrvajanma ane punarjanmane mAne che, jyAre adharmI eka janmamAM mAne che. dharmI prAraMbhamAM ananta jue che. adharmI anaMtamAM aMta mAne che. dharmI mAne che, AtmA 52mAtmasvarUpa che. AtmA jo pa2mAtmasvarUpa hoya to AtmAmAM 5ramAtmAnAM badhAM tattva hovAM ja joIe. sAgaranAM badhAM ja tattvo jo biMdumAM hoya to, 5ramAtmAnAM badhAM tattva AtmAmAM zA mATe na hoya. eTale, ApaNe ApaNA AtmAnI prabhutAne pichANavI joIe. ApaNI 'kvaoNliTI'ne jo ApaNe nahi oLakhIe, to ApaNe ApaNane kadAca sastAmAM ja vecI mArIzuM. ApaNe to brahmamaya, AnaMdamaya, saccidAnaMdamaya chIe. dharma, jAti ke saMpradAyanA vADAbheda AtmA mATe nakAmA che. atyAranuM ApaNuM nAma paNa bhADUtI che. AtmAne na to nAma che, na to kuLa che, na to jAti che. ApaNe A tattva ane satya bhUlI gayA chIe, kAraNa ApaNe moha ane pramAdanI madirAnuM pAna karanArA chIe. madirApAna karanAro mAnavI potAne bhUlI jAya che tema, jAti, kuLa, dharma vagerenI moha-madirA pInArA ApaNe ApaNI 'kvaoNliTI'ne bhUlI gayA chIe. pItvA mohamahApramAdamadirAM unmattabhUtaM jagat / bIjI maMdirAno kepha cAra-cha kalAke UtarI jAya che, jyAre, moha ane pramAdanI madirAno kepha to janmAMtara sudhI paNa nathI Utarato. 20 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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Aje ApaNe ja ApaNane bhUlI gayA chIe. prabhunA maMdiramAM jaIe toya moha-madirA pIne jaIe. prabhue ApeluM dhana prabhunA kAmamAM vAparIe toya dAna ApyAno garva karIe. maMdiramAM to ApaNI jAtane dhovA javAnuM hoya enA badale tyAM moha ane garvanI madirA pIne ApaNe ApaNane vadhu bagADIe chIe. dharma e kaMI nAmanA ke pratiSThA pedA karavA mATenuM khulluM bajAra nathI eTaluM yAda rAkhavuM ghaTe. ApaNe jIvanamAM sAco dharma AcarI zakatA nathI. kAraNa, ApaNe badhA pramAda-madirA pIne pharIe chIe. nazAbAjane khATI chAza pAIne nazo utArI zakAya che. te rIte, ApaNI moha-madirAno nazo utAravA mATe saMto sadupadezarUpI chAza pIvaDAve che. paraMtu ApaNane to sadupadezanI chAza paNa koThe paDI gaI che. roja e pI e chIe toya, moha-madirAmAM masta banIne pharIe chIe. penisilInanAM ijekSana paNa roga maTADe che, paNa jenA lohImAM vikriyA pesI gaI hoya tene mATe penisilIna roga maTADanAra banavAne badale navA roga pedA karanAruM bane che. e rIte upadeza paNa penisilIna che. anekanA bhavaroga emAMthI maTI jAya che, paraMtu keTalAkanA svabhAvamAM evI vikriyA pesI gaI hoya che ke upadezanI asara navI vikriyA pedA kare che. eka upadezaka roja kathA kare, saMto pAse bese ne bhAvabhInI vAta kare. A badhI doDadhAmamAM potAnI gAMdhI-kariyANAnI dukAna be-traNa kalAka ja khole, paNa lokomAM sArA mANasa tarIke AbarU jamAvelI eTale gharAkI sArI jAme. eka mANasa emanI dukAne goLa levA gayo. upadezake to jUno ne kALo ja goLa padharAvyo. - pelo mANasa goLa ghera to laI gayo, paraMtu ghera patnIe Thapako Apyo eTale bIje divase pAcho lAvyo ne kahyuM, "A goLa sAro nathI, bIjo sAro Apo." upadezaka to rAtApILA thaI gayA : "are tuM to roja mArI kathAmAM Ave che, ne anAsaktinI vAta sAMbhaLe che, toya goLamAM tane Asakti lAgI rahI che ? ATaATalo upadeza sAMbhaLavA chatAM tAruM mana goLa jevA jaDa padArthamAM ja coMTI rahyuM che ?" ane ene dhamakAvIne kADhI mUkyo. jIvana-mAMgalya * 21

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pelo mANasa narama svabhAvano hato. ene thayuM, emanuM kahevuM sAcuM che, mAre evI Asakti rAkhavI na joIe. e to eno e goLa laIne patnI pAse Avyo ne badhI vAta karI. patnIne khUba Azcarya thayuM ! pUchyuM : "emaNe dhoLA goLanA paisA lIdhA hatA ke kALA goLanA ? e ApaNane goLamAMthI Asakti kADhI nAkhavAnuM kahe che. pachI e paisAmAM zA mATe Asakti rAkhe che ?'' kaho, kathAkArano AtmA UMco ke pelAM grAhaka pati-patnIno ? mAtra kathAkAra banavAthI ja mahAna banI gayAno garva na karazo. kathAkAre to jIvananI paLepaLa sAme sAvadhAna rahevAnuM che. Aje keTalAka vaktAo chAtI kADhIne phare che ne ema mAnIne garva le che ke emanA lIdhe ja dezanuM sukAna cAle che. sAcI vAta to e che ke dezanuM sukAna dharmabhAvanAne lIdhe cAle che. mAnavI jo dharmabhAvanA vinAno haze to wild ne gAMdhI ke kaeNneDI jevA mahAna puruSone paNa goLI mAraze. dharma ja mAnavIne mAnavatAmAM rAkhe che. dharma vaDe mAnavI unnata bane che. - ApaNe kharekharA mAnava chIe kharA ? chAtI para hAtha mUkIne jo sAcuM bolIzuM to, ApaNe kabUlavuM paDaze ke ApaNe mAnavadeha laIne pharIe chIe paraMtu ApaNAmAM hajIya pazutA paDelI che. ziyALanI luccAI, uMdarano lobha ne kAgaDAnI kudRSTi mANasanA lohImAM beThAM che. jaMgalI banI jaze manuSyano AkAra to laIne beThA chIe, paraMtu manuSyatva kyAM che ? mATe ja kahuM chuM ke manuSyamAM manuSyatva pragaTAvavuM ne TakAvavuM hoya to, temanAmAM dharmabhAvanA pragaTAvo. dharmanA prakAza vaDe ja nirmAlya haze te naravIra banaze, paisA ke sattA vaDe nahi. pradhAno jyAre ghera bese che, ne ilekzanamAM sthAna nathI maLatuM, tyAre jozIo pAse jaIne potAnuM pradhAnapada kyAre pAchuM maLaze e pUche che. keTalI nirmAlyatA ? dharma nirmAlyane naravIra banAve che. dharma vinA naravI2 nirmAlya bane che. mATe ja, ApaNe dharmamaya jIvana jIvavuM che. 22 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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ApaNe dharma kevaLa sAMbhaLavAno nathI, paNa sAMbhaLIne jIvanamAM utAravo vyApAramAM ke vyavahAramAM dharmanA tattvane niraMtara ghUMTyA ja karIzuM, to jIvanamAM koI avanavuM ja parivartana Avaze. bhamarI kIDAne uThAvI jAya che tyAre te peTe cAlanAra hoya che. gatinuM ke sphUrtinuM ThekANuM paNa hotuM nathI. taddana nirmAlya dazAmAM hoya che, paraMtu bhamarI ene uThAvI jAya che ne eka sthaLe baMdha karI de che, enI AsapAsa satata guMjana kare che, ne kIDAnA jIvanane guMjanamaya banAvI de che. satata guMjanamaya banI gayelo kIDo Akhare kIDo maTI bhamarI banI jAya che. che. peTe cAlanAruM nirmAlya prANI pAMkhe UDanAruM cetana prANI banI jAya che. basa AvI ja vAta mANasanI che. kIDA jevA nirmAlya jIvane bhamarI jevA saMtano sathavAro maLI jAya, ne nirmAlya jIva jo satata AtmaguMjanamaya banI jAya, to peTe cAlavAne badale pAMkhethI UDe, nirmAlya maTIne naravIra bane. roga, bImArI nirmAlyapaNuM A badhA sArA vicArone anurUpa thavAya to cAlyA ja jAya. bhItaramAM rahelA udAtta tattvane bahAra kheMcI lAvIne ApaNe saue zaktimaya banavAnuM che. Aktaro paNa have mananI mAvajata vaDe rogo maTADavAnuM vicAratA thayA che. Aje zarIranA rogomAM paNa mananA rogonuM kAraNa dekhAvA mAMDyuM che. A mananA rogone dUra karavAnuM kAma dharma kare che. manuSya banavuM che ? to, dharmamaya jIvana jIvo. dharmano prakAza AvatAM lobha auAryamAM palaTAze, vera premamaya banI jaze, ne doSadRSTi vilIna thaI guNadRSTi pedA thaze. pAMDavonI rAjasabhA maLelI. emAM zrIkRSNe dharmarAjane pAse bolAvIne kahyuM, "A sabhAmAM doSI koNa che e zodhI kADho.'' dharmarAje AkhI sabhA tarapha dRSTi karI. darekanA guNa-avaguNa jovA mAMDyA, to darekamAM kaMIka ne kaMIka bhalAI ja dIThI : saMpUNa doSI koI na dekhAyo. pachI emaNe zrIkRSNane kahyuM, AmAM to badhAya sArA dekhAya che. koI kharAba nathI. jIvana-mAMgalya * 23

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A pachI zrIkRSNa duryodhanane bolAvIne kahyuM, "A sabhAmAM sAro mANasa koNa che te zodhI Apo." duryodhane sAro mANasa zodhavA najara pheravavA mAMDI, paNa ene sAro mANasa na dekhAyo. darekamAM eNe kaMI ne kaMI avaguNa ja joyA. je divase ApaNAmAMthI doSadaSTi nAbUda thaze, te divase ja ApaNe manuSya thaI zakIzuM. duryodhana doSadRSTivALo hato tethI teNe badhAmAM doSa ja joyA. dharmarAja guNadRSTivALA hatA tethI temaNe sabhAmAM saguNo ja nihALyA. tethI ja kahevata paDI : vaidaza di: tAdaza sRSTi: dRSTi bagaDelI hoya, pachI sRSTi nirmaLa kyAMthI thAya ? dRSTi bagaDI che tethI ja audArya viramI gayuM che. dRSTi bagaDI che, tethI ja saguNo jhAMkhA paDyA. dharma ApaNI dRSTi sudhAravAnuM kahe che. dharmano upayoga duniyAne sudhAravA mATe pachI karajo, jAtane sudhAravA mATe pahelo karo . bIjAnAM gharonI sajAvaTa karanAro ArkiTekTa ke DekoreTara jo potAnuM ghara sajAvI na zake to zA kAmano ? ApaNo dharma duniyAnA zaNagAranuM sAdhana banavAne badale, ApaNI hRdayasajAvaTanuM sAdhana bane eTaluM ApaNe icchIe. e mATe, vicArapUrvakanuM hRdaya-DokiyuM karavuM paDaze, ne maMthana karIne AtmAne oLakhavo paDaze. hatuM, che ane raheze, enuM nAma sat. AtmA satuM che. e hato paNa kharo, che paNa kharo, ne rahevAno che paNa kharo. saMsAra Akho marI jAya toya AtmA to nathI ja maravAno. eka vijJAnIe mane kahyuM, "pRthvIne daza lAkha varSa thayAM haze." tyAre meM ene kahyuM, "pRthvIne bhale daza lAkha varSa thayAM hoya, Aje ame to ethIya AgaLanA chIe, kAraNa pRthvI jaDa che, ame to caitanya chIe. caitanyane koI banAvI zakatuM paNa nathI, maTADI zakatuM paNa nathI. A vicAra maraNanI bhIti dUra kare che, ne manamAM zraddhA pedA kare che ke, ApaNe kadI maravAnA nathI, paMcamahAbhUta marI jaze, ApaNe to kAyama rahevAnA chIe. 24 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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huM hato, chuM, ane rahevAno chuM evI dRDha zraddhAbharI samajaNa mRtyuno bhaya dUra kare che. bhaya bahu kharAba cIja che. eka DaoNkTara mitre kahelo eka prasaMga atyAre yAda Ave che. emaNe kahyuM, ''huM eka divasa mArA davAkhAnAmAM dardIone tapAsI rahyo hato, tyAM eka karoDapatino phona Avyo, "jaladI Avo.'' mane thayuM, cAle tema hoya to badhA daradIne patAvIne jAuM. eTale meM pUchyuM, ''be-eka kalAka pachI AvuM to ?'' javAba maLyo, "nA atyAre ja Avo. mArI moTa2 levA mATe mokaluM chuM.' mane thayuM, bahu gaMbhIra haze. agatyanA kesa meM patAvI dIdhA, bAkInA mATe kaMpAunDarane sUcanA ApI dIdhI, ne gADI AvI eTale huM zeThane tyAM gayo. mane cembaramAM bolAvAyo. zeTha gaMbhIra gamagInImAM beThA hatA. mane kahyuM, "gaI kAle baeNnkamAMthI kahevAmAM AvyuM ke mArA hAthanI lakhelI sahI te pArakhI zakatA nathI. mArA hAtha upara mane lakavAnI asara lAge che. Ama to chellAM be-traNa varSathI mAro hAtha kaMpyA karato hato, paraMtu have mane gaMbhIra sthiti dekhAI rahI che. juo ne, mane lakavA thAya ema tamane lAge che ? jo thAya ema hoya to huM mArI taiyArI karI lauM.'' meM emane tapAsyA. vAtamAM kazo mAla na dekhAyo. meM kahyuM, '"ApanA snAyuomAM naramAI che, paraMtu paMdara varSa sudhI to kazo vAMdho Ave ema nathI.'' "sAcesAca DaoNkTara, kaMI vAMdho Ave ema nathI ?'' "hA, saMpUrNa khAtarIthI kahevA taiyAra chuM. tamane lakavA thAya to mArI prekTisa choDI dauM.' DhIlADhapha thaI gayelA zeTha saphALA UbhA thaI gayA. ''are DaoNkTara, tame to mAro jAna bacAvI lIdho. baeNnkamAMthI samAcAra AvyA pachI mane eTalI bIka lAgI hatI ke lakavAnA trAsathI bacavA mATe meM rivaoNlvara taiyAra rAkhI hatI. Ape jo lakavo thaze ja evo abhiprAya Apyo hota to rivaoNlvara vaDe mAro jAna laI lIdho hota. lo, have A bharelI rivaoNlvara tame ja laI jAo jethI pharI Avo vicAra na Ave.'' jIvana-mAMgalya * 25

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bhayanI kalpanA mAnavIne kevI viparIta dazAmAM mUkI de che ! Aje paNa e rivolvara che, DaoNkTara paNa che, dardI paNa che. DaoNkTare jo hiMmata na ApI hota to dardIe bhayanA mAryA ApaghAta ja karyo hota. moTI moTI vAto karanAro mAnavI aMdarathI bahu kAyara hoya che. bIjAnA kahevAthI ja ene hiMmata AvI, bAkI roganA bhayathI e nirmAlya ja banI raheta. AtmazraddhA hoya to AvuM nirmAlyapaNuM na ja Ave. e mATe ApaNA caiitanyane TUMDhavAnuM ne DhaMDhoLavAnuM che te jANavAnuM che ke huM koNa chuM ? manamAM jyAM sudhI dharma, saMpradAya ke jAti-bhedanI vADAbaMdhI haze tyAM sudhI AtmajJAna pamAvAnuM nathI, ne AtmajJAna pAmyA vinA mRtyunI bhIti dUra thavAnI nathI. AtmAnA ajJAnathI pedA thayeluM du:kha AtmAnA jJAna vaDe ja dUra thaze. mATe ja ApaNe vicAravAnuM che ke huM koNa chuM ? huM AtmA chuM to huM sat-cit--AnaMda chuM ? huM AtmA chuM to mAruM astitva trikAlAbAdhita che ? huM AtmA chuM to huM caitanya svarUpa chuM ? huM AtmA chuM to huM AnaMda svarUpa chuM ? ApaNe koNa chIe ? ApaNo paricaya zo che ? khabara nathI. AzcaryanI vAta e che ke, ApaNane ApaNI ja khabara nathI, ApaNe ApaNane ja bhUlI gayA chIe, pachI bIjAne to kayAMthI ja oLakhIe ? anAdikALanA kusaMskAro vaDe, ApaNe ApaNane ja bhUlI gayA chIe. mohanA AvaraNa nIce, ApaNe ApaNane ja saMtADI beThA chIe. tethI ja ApaNe du:khI chIe, nirmAlya chIe. ApaNe ApaNane oLakhIe to du:kha dUra thAya, nirmAlyatA maTI jAya, ne adbhuta AnaMda anubhavAya. AnaMda cAra prakAranA : zabdAnaMda, zraddhAnaMda, anubhavAnaMda ne paramAnaMda. A zabda roja sAMbhaLIe chIe. ApaNuM bhaitika nAma roja sAMbhaLIe 26 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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chIe. roja raTIe chIe. e Asakti eTalI badhI vadhI gaI ke, ApaNe nAmasvarUpa banI gayA ane AtmasvarUpa maTI gayA. AtmasvarUpa pAchuM meLavavuM haze to nAmane bhUlavuM paDaze. nAma bhulAze to ja AtmasvarUpa samajAze. A bahu kaThaNa kAma che. duniyA AkhI nAma vadhAravAnI pAchaLa paDI che. dukAna, copaDA, bilabuko, vijhiTiMga kArDa - badhAMyamAM nAmano ja mahimA gavAya che. mAnavInA dAna-dharma pAchaLa paNa potAnA nAmano mahimA vadhAravA mATenI ja jhaMkhanA hoya che. tyAre ApaNe to nAmane bhUlatA javAnuM ane bhUsatA javAnuM zIkhavAnuM che. dhArmika kriyA nAma vadhAravA mATe nahi, paNa nAma bhUlavA mATe karavAnI che. nAma bhUlavA mATe adhyAtma mArga ja madada karaze. paramAtmAnuM nAmasmaraNa ApaNA nAmanA vismaraNa mATe karavAnuM che. nAmasmaraNamAM ApaNe masta rahIzuM to eka dhanya divasa evo Avaze ke ApaNuM bhautika nAma bhUlI gayA hoIzuM, ne ApaNe enAmaya banIne anupama AnaMda meLavI rahyA hoIzuM. mane eka popaTavALo prasaMga yAda Ave che. enI pAse eka popaTa. enA e eka hajAra rUpiyA mAge. mane thayuM, popaTanA bahu bahu to pacIsa-pacAsa rUpiyA hoya. ATalA badhA te hotA haze? pUchyuM to kahe, "enI evI vizeSatA che. mANasanI jema ja e spaSTa vAta karI zake che." vAta enI sAcI hatI. popaTa evuM suMdara bolato ke jANe ApaNane mANasa ja bolato hoya ema lAge. evuM sarasa bolatAM zI rIte zIkhavyuM haze ! meM ene sarasa bolatAM zIkhavavAno kImiyo pUchyo. eNe kahyuM, "e to mArA dhaMdhAnI khAnagI vAta che. e kImiyo mArAthI badhAne na batAvAya, paNa tame to snehI cho, tame kaMI mArA dhaMdhAnI harIphAI karavAnA nathI, eTale tamane batAvuM chuM." jIvana-mAMgalya : 27

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Ama kahI e mane enI zALAmAM laI gayo. tyAM eNe eka moTo Ayano rAkhelo. AyanAnI sAme popaTanuM pAMjaruM mUkeluM, ne pachI AyanAnI pAchaLa saMtAIne bolavA lAge. popaTa avAja sAMbhaLI AyanAmAM dekhAtA popaTa sAme jue. ene ema lAge ke sAme beThelo popaTa bole che. eTale e paNa bolavAno prayatna kare. AvA satata abhyAsa varDa, popaTa mANasanI jema spaSTa vAta karatAM zIkhI jAya. A karAmatanA vicAra mArA manamAM Akhoya divasa ghUmI rahyA. mAnavI eka popaTane tAlIma ApI zake che to pachI mAnavane tAlIma zA mATe na ApI zake ? gururUpI AyanAmAM pratibiMba joI pAchaLathI saMbhaLAtI AtmajJAnInI vANInA abhyAsathI svarUpanI pichAna karavAnI che. satata abhyAsa vaDe popaTa mANasanI jema bolI zake che. satata abhyAsa vaDe ja sarakasano khelADI dorI para karAmata karI zake che . te ja rIte satata abhyAsa vaDe mAnavI potAnuM nAma vismarIne potAnA AtmAne oLakhI zake. arjune zrIkRSNane pUchyuM : 'tophAnI manane kAbUmAM zI rIte levuM ?" zrIkRSNa kahyuM, : 'abhyAsa ane vairAgya vaDe." adhyAtma mArga jAduI lAkaDI nathI ke paLavAramAM ja badhuM palaTAI jAya. e to abhyAsanI bAbata che. saMsAranA viSayo para vairAgya Ave ane emAMthI chUTavAno prayatnano abhyAsa vadhe, to kaThinamAM kaThina bAbata paNa sulabha banI jAya. abhyAsa vaDe ja bALaka bolatAM zIkhe che. abhyAsa vaDe ja bALaka cAlatAM zIkhe che. abhyAsa vaDe ja mANasa vAhana calAvatAM zIkhe che. abhyAsa vaDe ja paga breka para jAya che, baeNlaeNnsa jaLavAya che. abhyAsa tUTI jAya to satata sAvadha rahevuM paDe, nahi to breka parano paga cUkI javAtAM ke baeNlaeNnsa khoI besatAM akasmAta thAya. mATe ja saMto kahe che : satata nAmasmaraNano abhyAsa rAkho. mananI vRttione Teva pADo. 28 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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atyAre Izvarane nAmasmaraNano abhyAsa vadhavAne badale, potAnA nAmasmaraNano abhyAsa vadhI gayo che. tIrthamAM janAro mAnava prabhunA nAmane badale potAnA nAmanI takatI lagADe che; te potAnuM ja nAma moTuM banAvavA mathe che. je nAma bhUMsAI javAnuM che, je nAmane potAnA vaMzajo paNa yAda karI zakavAnA nathI, e nAma mATeno ATalo badho moha zA mATe ? vaMzaja hovA chatAM kahe, ApaNe ApaNI dazamI peDhInA pUrvajanuM nAma jANIe chIe ? eTale ja saMto kahe che ke bhautika nAma pAchaLano moha khoTo che. saMto potAnA nAmanI to ThIka, paNa potAnA svatvanI paNa vismRti mAge che, "bhagavAna mane evI zakti Apo ke huM, huM na rahuM, tuM, tuM na rahe, ne huM temAM samAI jAuM." bALaka potAnI mA pAse jAya tyAre ene potAnuM nAma kahevAnI jarUra paDatI nathI. e to doDIne sIdhuM godamAM ja samAI jAya che. ApaNe paNa, prabhu nAmasmaraNano zabdAnaMda AsvAdatA rahIne paramAnaMda prApti mATe, bhautika nAmane bhUlatA javAnuM che. zabdAnaMdamAMthI ja zraddhAnaMdamAM javAya. prabhunuM satata nAmasmaraNa mAnavInA haiyAmAM zraddhAno suMdara dIvo peTAve che. A zraddhAno dIvo hatAzAnAM aMdhArA ulece che. mAnavIne tamAma prakAranA bhayamAMthI mukta kare che, anubhavAnaMdanI dizAmAM dorI jAya che. zraddhAnI pAyA upara ja anubhavanI imArata racI zakaze. zraddhAnI jeTalI majabUtI; anubhavanI eTalI pratIti. anubhavana bhAvanAno viSaya che, bhASAno nathI. anubhavanI vAta koIne kahI zakAtI nathI: mukha paranI anokhI AbhAthI ja anubhavanI vAta vyakta thaI jAya che. anubhavanA AnaMdathI ja saMto masta hoya che. emanI pAse kapaDAM nathI, kAle zuM khAze ane kyAM khAze, enI khabara nathI, chatAM emanI zraddhA anokhI hoya che, kAraNa emane jIvanamAM jIvananI zraddhA che. A zraddhAnI sArthakatAno emane satata anubhava che, ne tethI ja te tene anubhavAnaMdamAM palaTAve che. mArA eka mitranI vAta mane yAda Ave che. jIvana-mAMgalya : 29

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bhAvanagaranI kaoNlejanA e prophesara hatA. videza jaIne sArI DigrIo paNa meLavI hatI. emano jIva judA raMge raMgAyelo hato. uMmara thatAM e nivRtta thayA. emane thayuM, zabdajJAna to bahu thaI gayuM. have to anubhavajJAna meLavavuM che. potAno putra paNa sArI pAyarI para hato, ene bolAvIne kahyuM, "saMsAranA DhasaraDA bahu karyA, have mAre Atma-ArAma meLavavo che. zabdajJAna khUba meLavyuM, have anubhavajJAna meLavavuM che, eTale makAnanA kaMpAunDamAM thoDIka jagyA judI kADhI Apa. tyAM huM rahIza ane roja tArA ghera AvIne bhikSA mAgI jaIza, ne AtmAnA anubhavamAM ramyA karIza." A rIte bAra varSa emaNe jIvanasAdhanA karI. eka vakhata huM boTAda hato tyAre e gaMbhIra mAMdagImAM paTakAyA. emano putra mane emanI pAse bolAvI gayo. huM temanI pAse beTho. emanI AMkho baMdha hatI. mAMdagI gaMbhIra hatI, vedanA asahya hatI, chatAM emanuM mukha malakyA kare. huM to joI ja rahyo. AvI bImArI, ATalI vedanA che, chatAM mukha para Avo malakATa ! e jIvana-sAdhakanI siddhi joI meM dhanyavAda ApyA. vAta nIkaLatAM putre kahyuM, "chellAM bAra varSathI pitAjI ekalA hasatA hoya che. roja bapore mArA bAraNA AgaLa AvI mArI patnI pAse 'bhikSAM dehI'nI Tahela nAkhe che, ne pachI Akho divasa adhyayana, ciMtana ane smaraNa karyA kare che. ApaNe paNa AvA AnaMdamaya banavuM joIze. mananI bhUmikA badalo to ahIM paNa vaikuMThano AnaMda meLavI zakAya. zabdAnaMda, zraddhAnaMda ne anubhavAnaMda pachInI bhUmikA che paramAnaMda. A paramAnaMda e ja brahmAnaMda, e ja pUrNAnaMda. AtmA to jJAnano pUrNakuMbha che, ne tethI ja e AnaMdano amRtakuMbha paNa che. pUrNa AnaMdano amRtakuMbha haiyAnI bhItaramAM hovA chatAMya, juo to kharA, AnaMda zodhavA mATe mAnavI bahAra phAMphAM mAre che ! rAjyanA dhanabhaMDAranI cAvI bhaMDArIne soMpI daI pote pramAda sevanArA ane potAne joItI vastu meLavavA mATe bhaMDArInI pUMThe pUMThe pharanArA rAjakumAranA jevI ApaNA AtmAnI kathA che. 30 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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potAnA AnaMdabhaMDAranI cAvI e mana ane buddhine ApI beTho che tethI ja, AnaMda meLavavA mATe ene mana ane buddhinI pAchaLa bhaTakavuM paDe che. AtmA ajJAnI nathI, svayaM jJAnamaya che, cinmaya che. ajJAnI to buddhi che. jJAna meLavavA mATe, pustako pheMdavA javAnI paNa jarU2 nathI. AtmAnuM jJAna to AtmAnI aMdara ja paDeluM che. bhItaramAM DokiyuM karavAnI ja jarUra che. hIrAnI u52nuM AvaraNa khasI jAya eTale kiraNo prasare, te AtmA paranuM buddhinA vikalpanuM AvaraNa haTI jAya, to tarata ja prakAza vyApe. kevaLa pustako vAMcavAthI nahi, kevaLa zAstro sAMbhaLavAthI nahi, paNa eno jIvanamAM anubhava ka2vAthI ja AnaMda sAMpaDaze. yuropanA loko phoTAomAM kerI jue tethI AnaMda nahi maLe, ahIM AvIne kerIno rasano anubhava karaze tyAre ja AnaMda sAMpaDaze AnaMdanA anubhavanI tulanA karI zakAya ja nahi. ene to aMdara ne aMdara pacAvavAnI zakti hovI joIe. sajjana bAtAM premakI, paramukha kahI na jAya; mUgA ko sapano bhayo, samaja samaja malakAya. AtmAno anubhava koIne kahI zakAto ja nathI; e to bhItaramAM ja samajavAnI ane bhItaramAM ja AnaMdavAnI bAbata che. AtmAno AnaMda-anubhava karanAro satata khuza ja raheze, e du:khamAM paNa sukhano anubhava karaze; ne pratikULa paristhitimAM paNa prasannatA sevaze. pratyeka paristhitimAMthI ciMtana dvArA mananuM samAdhAna meLavI sarakho sukhAnubhava kare enuM nAma philasUpha-tattvajJAnI. AtmAnuM svarUpa satyamaya, jJAnamaya, AnaMdamaya che. e svarUpano ApaNe AtmAnubhava karavo che. e mATe ApaNe hInAnI jema ja ciMtana ghUMTavuM joIze. jema ghUTatAM jaIzuM tema phorama phelAtI jaze ne ApaNA astitvane AvarI leze. samaya khUba ocho che. AtmAnubhava ka2vAmAM hajI ApaNe khUba karavAnuM bAkI che. mATe anya pravRttio ochI karI, indriyavRttione vALI laI, svamAM sthira thaI sat-cit-AnaMdano anubhava karIe. jIvana-mAMgalya * 31

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4. mananI keLavaNI # vo hi ? viSayAnurA: ko vA virakta: ? viSaye viraktaH 8 ko vAsti ghoro narakaH svadehaH, tRSNAkSaye svarga padaM kimasti / / . subhASitamAM cAra vAto che. prazna che A ziSya pUche che ane guru eno uttara Ape che. mANasanA mananI aMdara kevA kevA vicAro ane tophAno cAlI rahyAM che. te mANasa koIne kaheto nathI. paNa bU eno artha e nathI ke enA manamAM . vicAro ane tophAno cAlatAM nathI. eka nAnakaDuM bALaka hoya che to ja enA nAnakaDA magajamAM paNa asaMkhya je vicAro cAlatA hoya che ane tene lIdhe e cheasaMkhya prazno pUchatuM hoya che. ApaNane aneka vicAro satAve che, je paNa ApaNe ApaNA vicArone DhAMkI ke ja dAbI rAkhIe chIe, ane ema mAnIe $ chIe ke rakhe e vicAro koI jANI jAya. che ApaNA manamAM AvatA vicArone, ApaNA 32 * jIvana-mAMgalyA

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mananI aMdara cAlI rahelAM tophAnone, ApaNA manamAM UbhA thatA rAga-dveSanA yuddhane, ApaNe jema bane tema chupAvavA, DhAMkavA ke saMtADavA prayatna karIe chIe. jIvanano je draSTA che, jIvananA arthano je jijJAsu che e jANe che ke, aMdaranuM aMdara dAbI rAkhIzuM to e dAbeluM game tyAre phUTI nIkaLaze. aMte to e dAbelI vastu javALAmukhI bane che ane e jyAre phATe che tyAre AsapAsanA vAtAvaraNane khedAna-medAna karI nAkhe che. ApaNI hRdayaguphAmAM dAbI rAkhelI vastuo paNa eka divasa ema ja bahAra Avaze tyAre mANasane hato-na hato karI nAkhaze. mANasanuM patana A rIte ja thAya che. koIne nahi kahevA mATe saMtADI rAkhelI vastuo, eka divasa bahAra Ave che - jvALAmukhI jema phATI nIkaLe che ane emAMthI mANasano vinAza sarjAya che. tamArA mananI aMdara ekAdo paNa azubha, amaMgaLa, ayogya ane apavitra vicAra pesI jAya to ene mATeno mArga eka ja che : tAbaDatoba enuM oparezana karavuM. jo tame oparezana nahi karo to, herAnagati bIjA koIne nahi paNa e vicArane saMtADI rAkhanAra tamane potAne ja thaze e yAda rAkhajo. eTalA mATe, ziSya potAnA mananI aMdara cAlatA je vicAro che, potAnA mananI aMdara UThatA ne tarko che, te guru samakSa vinamrabhAve rajU kare che, ane kahe che ke huM dardI chuM, tame mArA DaoNkTara cho. huM tamArI pAse nidAna arthe Avelo chuM. mArA para kRpA karI teno kaMI rasto batAvo. jarA vicAro : tananA roganI davA levA mATe ApaNe keTalA namra banIne jaIe chIe, paNa mananI davA levA mATe ApaNe eTalA namra banIe chIe kharA ? ApaNuM zarIra jarAka bagaDe to, e viSayano je niSNAta hoya tene zodhI, tarata tenI pAse doDI jaIe chIe e muMbaImAM hoya, kalakattAmAM hoya ke dUra-sudUra videzamAM hoya, topaNa tyAM doDI javAno zakya prayatna karIe chIe ane tananI auSadhi zodhI kADhIe chIe. - tanane mATe jo davAnI AvazyakatA hoya to pachI zuM manane mATe davAnI AvazyakatA ja nathI ? zuM ApaNuM mana ja ekaluM mAMduM che ane mana mAdhuM nathI ? mananI mAMdagIno ApaNane kadI vicAra Avyo che ? Akhare to tanane jo bagADanAra jIvana-mAMgalya : 33

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hoya to te mana ja che ne ! paNa ApaNe A mULa zodhatA nathI ane bahAra jaIe chIe. ApaNe mULamAM pANI reDatA nathI ane DALAM-pAdaDAM-phaLa upara pANI reDIe chIe e kyAM sudhI cAlavAnuM che ? mahApuruSo kahe che ke, jema vRkSanA mULamAM pANI reDavuM paDe che tema, mananA mULamAM paNa jJAnanuM vAri sIMcavuM paDe che. paNa A mana kevuM che eno Aje ApaNane khyAla nathI. mana zuM che eno ApaNI pAse spaSTa vicAra nathI. tyAre, je loko ciMtaka che, je loko jIvananI zodha karanArA che, e loko kahe che ke tana to ThIka, paNa bhAI, pahelAM mananA vaidyane zodho. mananuM AvuM auSadha ApanAra niSNAta pAse ApaNe javuM joIe ane emanuM dIdheluM laIne, ApaNuM je mAMdaluM mana che tene svastha banAvavuM joIe. evA niSNAta pAsethI, mananI auSadhi levAmAM Avaze to rugNa mana svastha thaze. pachI tame jozo ke jenuM mana svastha thayuM haze, te prabhAtanAM puSponI jema sadA prasanna ne khIlelo haze. koIka vAra svajanano viyoga thAya, koIka vAra vastuono viyoga thAya, koIka vAra apamAna paNa thAya, ne koIka vAra nahi dhAreluM ane na banavA jevuM banI paNa jAya. paNa e badhAya saMjogonI aMdara Avo mANasa to, prabhAtanA puSpanI jema sukumAratA, prasannatA ane vikAsane ja manamAM dhAraNa karaze, kAraNa enuM mana nIrogI che, taMdurasta che. svastha che. Avo mANasa, paisA hoya ke na hoya, sattA hoya ke na hoya, sAdhana hoya ke na hoya, svajano hoya ke na hoya chatAM e viSAdathI hatAza to nahi ja bane. e potAnA taMdurasta ane svastha mananA baLe, viSama saMyogo vacce paNa 'sama'no mArga nahi mUke. duniyAe tanane joyuM, jJAnIoe manane joyuM. tethI emaNe mananI u52 khUba dhyAna ApyuM che. maharSi pataMjalie traNa graMtho lakhyA che. vANIne vizuddha karavA mATe emaNe vyAkaraNa racyuM; zarIrane svastha ane taMdurasta rAkhavA mATe vaidakano graMtha lakhyo; paNa emaNe joyuM ke vANIne vizuddha karI, kAyAne zuddha karI, paNa sAthe sAthe mana jo parizuddha nahi hoya to, vANI ane kAyA, nirmaLa hovA chatAM paNa, mANasa nirmaLa ane prasanna nahi rahe. e vicArathI emaNe chelle yogazAstra racyuM. A yogazAstramAM temaNe prathama vAta mananA nirodhanI karI che. manane 34 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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pharatuM, rakhaDatuM, bhaTakatuM kevI rIte aTakAvavuM, asvastha manane kevI rIte ThekANe lAvavuM, e prasanna kema bane, e vAto emaNe pahelI vicArI eTale emaNe kahyuM ke tananA vaidya banavA mAtrathI ke bhASAnA vaidya banavA mAtrathI, ApaNuM zreya nathI. Akhara to jene zodhavAnuM che ane vizuddha karavAnuM che, te to mana che. jenuM mana zuddha che. taMdurasta che, enuM zarIra kadAca mAdaluM haze topaNa, e mAMdagInI asara enA mana upara nahi thAya. e vicAra karaze ke prakRtino svabhAva che ane kadAca ghaDIbhara mATe zarIrane roga AvI jAya paNa mana to salAmata che ne ? tame jojo ke ghaNA mANaso zarIranA alamasta hoya che, sukha ane sAdhanathI sabhara paNa hoya che; chatAM emane ciMtA korI khAtI hoya che. jevI rIte maDadA upara samaDIo ghUmarIo letI hoya che ema mANasanA magaja upara ciMtAo ghUmarIo letI hoya che. e mANasa game tyAM jAya, ekalo paDe, topaNa ciMtA eno keDo choDatI nathI. pachI enuM jIvana dayAjanaka banI jAya che. enAmAM je mananuM caitanya hatuM, mananI je tAjagI hatI, mananI je prasannatA rahevI joItI hatI te na rahevAne kAraNe, enA jIvananI saMvAditA, saMgItamayatA ane saMlagnatA tUTI jAya che. tenA abhAvane lIdhe e mANasa asvastha ane ciMtAothI gherAyelo phare che. AkhI gADIne kheMcanAra enjina che; paNa enjinamAM mukhya baLa hoya che varALanuM. A varALa evI pAtaLI hoya che ke havAmAM to te UDI jAya che, paraMtu e varALane jo yogya pramANamAM saMcita karavAmAM AvelI hoya to e varALamAM eTalI badhI zakti paDelI che ke te hajAro TananA bhArane paNa sahelAIthI kheMcI jAya che. TrenanI aMdara je sthAna varALanuM che te sthAna jIvananI aMdara mananuM che. varALano jema durupayoga na thAya, varALane nakAmI javA na devAya, tema ApaNA manane jyAMtyAM bhaTakavA na devAya, e jyAre bhaTakavA jAya tyAre tame tene pUcho ke tuM kyAM gayuM hatuM ? ApaNA mitro sAthe vAta karI; dosto ane judA judA mANaso sAthe vAta karI; paNa have koI divasa mana sAthe besIne vAta mAMDIe. 'mana' nAmanA tattvanI zakti ane enA mahattvano ApaNe kadI vicAra ja karyo nathI ane tethI ja ApaNe tanane sAcavIe chIe, vANIne sAcavIe chIe, paNa mana nAmanA tattvane mATe kazI kALajI rAkhatA nathI. jIvana-mAMgalya * 35

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savAranA pahoramAM UThatAMnI sAthe ja dAMta sApha karIe chIe, zarIra svaccha karIe chIe, AMkho sApha karIe chIe ane zarIra para sAbu lagADI lagADIne ene khUba cokhkhuM karIe chIe. badhAMyane zuddha banAvIe chIe pachI duniyAnuM jJAna meLavavA mATe chApAM vAMcIe chIe. pachI vaLI khorAka dvArA za2I2nuM poSaNa paNa karIe chIe. A badhuMya anivArya che ane ApaNe karIe chIe. paNa kaho; A AMkha, kAna, moDhuM, nAka, zarIra e badhAMyanI pAchaLa kAma koNa kare che ? tamArA mananI sAthe AMkhanA taMtranuM joDANa nahi hoya to AMkha jotI haze topaNa na joyA jevuM thaze. tema rastA parathI jatA ho tyAre, tamArI bAjumAMthI koI pasAra thAya, tamArI AMkho enI sAme hoya, enI AMkho tamArI sAme hoya paNa tamAruM mana kyAMka bIje hoya, to e pasAra thaI jAya toya e tame ene na juo. pachI bIjI vAra maLe tyAre e kahe, "bhalA mANasa, paDakhe thaIne gayA, sAme joyuM paNa hatuM, chatAM bolyA paNa nahi ?'" tame kahezo ke, "mAruM mana kyAMka bIje hatuM, mane khyAla na rahyo." Ama kema thayuM ? AMkho to enA upara mAMDelI hatI ne ? paNa mana ane AMkhanuM taMtra joDAyuM nahotuM. eTale AMkhe joyuM kharuM, paNa joyelo saMdezo mana pAse pahoMcyo nahi, ane manano pratyuttara na maLe tyAM sudhI kaMI kAma thAya nahi. ghaNI vAra tamAruM mana, taraMgI duniyAnI saphare UpaDyuM hoya, tame beThelA ho, vAta cAlatI hoya, ane koI pUche ke, ''sAMbhaLyuM ?'' to tame kahezo ke, "bhAI, mAruM mana jarA ThekANe nahotuM, mana kaMIka bIje gayuM hatuM; eTale sAMbhaLyuM nahi. zuM kahyuM hatuM, jarA pharIthI kaho ne ?'' kAna to Ama khullA hoya che, enA upara AvaraNa na hoya, chatAM paNa kAnanA je saMdezA manane pahoMcavA joIe e pahoMcatA nathI, eTale tamArA kAna nakAmA. ane nAka khulluM hoya, paNa tamAruM mana bIje ThekANe hoya to, game teTalAM phUla sUMghADavAmAM Ave, game tevAM attara sUMghADavAmAM Ave topaNa te tamAre mATe AhlAdaka nahi nIvaDe. e ja rIte, korTanI sunAvaNI hoya, tamAro mahattvano kesa hoya, ane Tebala upara suMdaramAM suMdara bhojana pIrasyuM hoya, tame khAdhe ja jAo, khAdhe ja jAo. paNa tamAruM mane jo pelA mahattvanA kesamAM ramatuM hoya, to tame 36 * jIvanamAMgalya

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badhuMya khAI jAo, paNa te vakhate tamane koI pUche ke zAkamAM jarA mIThuM vadhAre hatuM ? tame kahezo, "mane kaMI khabara nathI... !'' bIjo koI vakhata hota to tame tarata vADako haDaselI mUkata ane kaheta ke A zAka khAvA lAyaka nathI. paNa jyAre tamAruM mana bIje ThekANe vyasta hoya, rokAyeluM hoya te samaye tamArA khorAkamAM game te vastu AvI hoya paNa e vakhate tame zuM khAo cho tenuM kaMI mahattva nathI, kAraNa ke mananuM joDANa rasendriya sAthe nathI ane tethI e vakhate tame je je 2sa khAdhA hoya, te rasano sparza manane thato nathI. eTale, pAMceya indriyonuM jo mukhya kendra hoya to te mana che. ApaNe pAMce indriyone svaccha rAkhIe chIe, paNa enuM je kAryavAhaka kendra mana che emAM to jALAM bAjhayAM che, e meluM thaI gayuM che, e gaMduM banI gayuM che; enA upara kATa caDhI gayo che; enuM iliMga ja thayuM nathI. pariNAma e che ke, ApaNI pAMcepAMca indriyoe barAbara vyavasthita rIte je kAma karavuM joIe te kAma te karatI nathI. mana mukhya sTezana che, tyAMthI ja badhI gADIo chUTe che; tyAMthI ja pravAho ane AMtara-pravAho vahe che. e mukhya mathaka che. e barAbara na hoya, to pariNAma bIjuM zuM Ave ? jJAnIo ApaNane A ja vAta pUche che. AMkhane dhovA mATe kAcanI pyAlIo laI AvIe, kAnane sApha karavA mATe saLIo laI AvIe, dAMtane sApha karavA mATe braza ane TUtha-pesTa laI AvIe, ane zarIrane svaccha karavA mATe sArAmAM sArA sAbu laI AvIe chIe; paNa manane svaccha karavA mATe zuM lAvIe chIe ? manane vizuddha karavA mATe ApaNI pAse zuM sAdhana che ? ApaNI pAse evuM eka sAdhana che : jJAnInAM vacanAmRto. paNa ApaNe e sAMbhaLIe chIe kharAM ? te jJAnI evo hovo joIe ke ApaNA vikAsamAM sahAyaka hoya, ApaNA manane vizuddha banAve, ApaNA manane prakAzathI bhare. ApaNA manamAM rahelI badIo kADhe ane kahe ke AnuM to oNparezana karyA vinA cAle ja nahi. tame kaho, "nahi bhAI, AnA para kApakUpa nahi karatA. e to mArA manano kaTako che.'' e kaheze ke, "bhale e tamArA dilano TukaDo hoya, paNa e saDI gayo che; eTale enuM oNparezana anivArya che. eNpenDisAiTisanuM AMtaraDuM e tamAruM ja eka aMga hoya che, paNa te aMga saDI jAya to oNparezana anivArya che. jIvana-mAMgalya * 37

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e ja rIte. ApaNA manamAM je je saDAno bhAga hoya, je bahArathI Avelo hoya - pachI bhale te vyasanothI Avelo hoya, saMsargathI Avelo hoya, ApameLe bagaDI gayelo hoya - tene kApIne pheMkI devo joIe. - mananA mukhya kendrane vizuddha rAkhavA mATe ApaNe jenI jarUra che-enuM nAma che satsaMga. A satsaMga eTale zuM ? satu eTale AtmA ane saMga eTale sAnidhya. AtmAnA ke AtmAnA guNanA sAnidhyamAM ramavuM ke rahevuM e satsaMga. tame jyAM jazo tyAM cA dharavAmAM Avaze, kaoNphI dharavAmAM Avaze, bIDI ke sigAreTa apAze ane vadhAre "sudharelA' haze to pelI "pyAlIo' dharaze. paraMta, AtmAnI vAta ke jJAnano bodha dharanAro tamArI pAse koNa che ? - sAcuM ane rokaDuM vacana tamane koNa saMbhaLAvaze ? nokaronI koInI tAkAta nathI ke tamane kahe, "zeTha, tame badhI bAbatamAM sArA cho, paNa tame amuka bAbatamAM ThIka nathI." kAraNa ke e ema kahevA jAya to eno roTalo tUTI jAya. eTale ene to thavAnuM ke "zeTha bhale paDe kUvAmAM, ApaNe zuM kAma che ? ApaNe to arthathI, dhanathI ane lAbhathI kAma che." eTale to Aje mananAM davAkhAnAM kholavAnI jarUra che. jagatamAM Aje tananA rogIo karatAM mananA rogIo vadhAre che. ghera ghera ne Thera Thera Aje mananA roga lAgu paDyA che. - have to DaoNkTaro paNa e ja kahe che ke mananA rogomAMthI ja ghaNAkharA tananA rogo UbhA thAya che. tAva Avavo ane mAthuM dukhavuM e peTanI kabajiyAtathI thAya. jyAM krodha hoya, vairabhAva, IrSA, ciMtA hoya tyAM pAcanazakti maMda thAya che. apaco vadhe che. bAkInA rogo mAnasika AghAtamAMthI utpanna thatA hoya che. A mATe ziSya cAra vAta pUche che : vaiddho diM va: ? mananI aMdara beThelA roga dUra karyA vinA cAle ema nathI evuM lAgyuM, eTale guru pAse AvIne ziSya hRdaya kholI nAkhyuM. kayA roganI davA ApavAnI che te to hRdaya kholavAmAM Ave to ja khabara paDe. ApaNAmAM mada (abhimAna) hoya topaNa kahIe ke mArA jevo namra koI nathI. lobhiyA hoIe topaNa be-pAMca ThekANe ApelA rUpiyA gaNAvyA karIe. mANasamAM krodha paDelo hoya, lAlacoLa thaI jato hoya toya kSamAno dekhAva kare. mAtra bahAranA dekhAvathI zuM vaLe ? DaoNkTaro pAse jaIe chIe tyAre ApaNe tanano roga chupAvatA nathI. 38 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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tyAM to vigatavAra varNana karIne davA mAgIe chIe. jyAre saMto pAse jaIne ApaNe roga chupAvIe chIe. AnuM pariNAma e AvyuM che ke, ApaNI bhASA ApaNA rogone, ApaNI badIone DhAMkavAnuM eka sAdhana banI gaI che. thoDA divasa pahelAM pravacana ApavA sAbaramatI jelamAM gayo hato. tyAM kedIone kahyuM hatuM ke, tame dIvAla pAchaLanA kedIo cho, jyAre ame samAjanA ane amArI vRttionA ema bevaDA kedIo chIe, kAraNa ke, vRttioe amane kedamAM pUryA che; ame enI bahAra nIkaLI zakatA nathI..ane, samAjanA sakaMjAmAMthI sAro ne sAco mANasa hoya topaNa naitika himatanA abhAve sAruM kAma karatAM "duniyA zuM kaheze" e vAtathI Darato hoya che. eTale duniyA para ApaNe jIvIe chIe ane duniyAnI khAtara, na karavAnuM paNa ApaNe karIe chIe. pariNAma e Ave che ke, pelA kedIonI mukti moDAmAM moDI visa varSe to pUrI thAya che; jyAre ApaNI mukti to jIvanabharamAM kadI nathI thatI. samagra jIvana sudhI vRttionAM ane sAthe sAthe samAjanAM ayogya baMdhanonA ja gulAma thaIne emAM jakaDAIne ApaNe paDyA rahIe chIe. eTale ziSya vakko hi . ? e pahelo prazna pUchyo. gurudeva uttara Apyo : co viSayAnurI - je viSayomAM rAgI - temAM baMdhAyelo che te. tamane koNe bAMdhI rAkhyA che ? - viSaye. viSayane choDo to tame mukta cho. sagavaDoe mANasane bAMdhI rAkhyo che. mANasa mAne che ke huM sagavaDane tAbe karI beTho chuM, mArI pAse vadhAre sAdhano che. paNa e bhUlI jAya che ke sAdhanoe ene parAdhIna banAvyo che. e chUTavA dhAre toya chUTI zake ema nathI. ene to sagavaDo joIe. e hoya to jIvI zakAya. pariNAma e Ave che ke savAre cha vAgye UThIne javuM hoya to BedTea (beDa-TI) ene rokI rAkhe che - cA pIdhA pachI ja pathArImAMthI bahAra nIkaLI zakAya. AvI jene Adata hoya, te savAramAM "beDa-TI' vagara jAtrAe javA, pravAsamAM javA ke anya kAma prasaMge javA vahelI savAre taiyAra thavA mAge toya kevI rIte thaI zake ? beDa-TI' vagara enA TAMTiyAmAM tAkAta nathI AvatI. keTalAya mANaso potAnI moTara vagara bahAra jaI zakatA nathI. eno mobho (Status) ene bhADAnI basamAM besatAM roke che, ane tethI potAnI gADI jIvana-mAMgalya ja 39

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bagaDI hoya agara bahAra gaI hoya to agatyanA kAme bahAra javAnuM paNa mAMDI vALe che. gADIne e sagavaDa mAnato hovA chatAM gADIne kAraNe ja e agavaDa anubhave che. bhADAnI gADImAM besatAM saMkoca anubhave che ane page cAlavAnI to zakti ja kyAM che ? A rIte vicArIe to, enAM sAdhanoe ja ene bAMdhI rAkhyo che. A viSayo e eka prakAranA nathI. duniyAnI je je vastuo mATe tamane ema thAya ke AnA vinA to mAre cAle nahi, A to mAre joIe ja, tyAre mAnI levuM ke tame enA baMdhanamAM cho. pahelAM mANasa Teva pADe che ane pachI Teva mANasane pADe che - upara caDI bese che. A baMdhana nAjuka ane suMdara che, eTale baMdhana lAgatAM nathI. kahe che ke, vajabaMdha paNa jaza baLe tUTe, snehataMtuthI te nava chUTe. je mANasa sAMkaLonAM baMdhana toDI zake che, te viSayonA kAcA sUtaranA tAMtaNA jevAM mulAyama baMdhanone choDI zakato nathI, toDI zakato nathI. zarIrane bAMdhanArAM baMdhano kadAca choDI zakAze; paraMtu manane bAMdhanArAM AvAM nAjuka baMdhanone toDavAM bahu muzkela che. A baMdhanamAMthI nIkaLavuM e ja mAnavajIvanano parama hetu che. tame ema mAnatA hazo ke A kAma ekalA sAdhuonuM ja che. paNa nA, baMdhana sarvatra che, saMsAramAM ke tyAgamAM, jyAM beThelA ho tyAMthI zarUAta karavAnI che. ochAmAM ochA sAdhanothI, ochAmAM ochI vastuothI kema na cAle, enA vinA huM kema na rahI zakuM - e vicAratA thAo ane enA svAmI bano. vastuo tamane bAMdhanArI na bane eTaluM sAcavajo. ene kaho ke huM tane upayoga mATe rAkhuM chuM; tArAthI baMdhAvA mATe nahi. AvuM svAmitva Ave tyAre samajajo ke mana have kaMIka tAjuM thayuM che, mana have TekA vinA cAlI zake tema che. chokaruM nAnakaDuM hoya tyAre ene bAbAgADI joIe; bAbAgADI vinA e paDI jAya. e moTuM ane taMdurasta thAya tyAre ja bAbAgADI vinA cAlI zake. mana paNa taMdurasta bane tyAre ja e TekA vinA calAvI zake. Teko joIe che eno artha e che ke, mana hajI mAMdaluM che, rogiSTha che, azakta che. - sAdhuone bhagavAna mahAvIre "sUyagaDAMga sUtra'mAM pahelI vAta e ja karI ke, "jojo, tame sAdhanonA gulAma na banI beso. jagata to sAdhana Apaze. 40 * jIvana-mAMgalyA

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tame tyAgane mArge nIkaLelA cho, to bhoga tamArA mArgamAM AvIne ThalavAze. paNa e bhogano jo upayoga karavA gayA to samajI lejo ke tamArA jevA gulAma, duniyAmAM bIjA koI nahi hoya. kAraNa ke pelA to potAnI vastunA gulAma haze, jyAre tame pArakI vastunA gulAma hazo. pelAne mATe te vastu svAdhIna haze, jyAre tamAre to pArakA pAsethI meLavavAnI haze. eTale pachI tamAre e sAdhanavALAonI khuzAmata karavI paDaze. emane rAjI rAkhavA hA-jI-hA karavAnI pravRtti karavI paDaze. AvI hAlata tyAre ja UbhI thaze, jyAre tame sAdhanonA gulAma banI gayA hazo. tame jo sAdhanonA gulAma banI gayA to pachI tame jagatanA eka sthaLanA eka eka zaheranA paNa gulAma ja cho. vastuo maLe chatAM choDazo to koI zahera cAturmAsa pachI choDatAM mUMjhavaNa nahi thAya. svecchApUrvaka svIkArelA niyamo kharekhara AnaMda Ape che. "upara" hovAno te anubhava karAve che. ziyALAnI savAre ThaMDA pANIthI snAna karanAranI majA judI ja hoya che, ema, sAdhano vinA jIvavuM, sAdhanone ochAM karIne jIvavuM emAM paNa eka prakAranI anokhI majA che. tame sAdhanone lhI zako ke, "tame ghaNAne gulAma banAvyA haze, paNa mane nahi banAvI zako. mana jyAre svastha ane taMdurasta haze tyAre ja A rItanI vicArazakti utpanna thaze." pUrvanA puNyane lIdhe Aje ApaNane badhuM maLI gayuM che. paNa maLyuM che e badhuM bhogavavA mATe nahi, eno tyAga karavA mATe taiyAra rahejo. gayA bhavanA puNyane lIdhe ja A badhuM tamane maLyuM che. e maLelI vastu ekalA bhogavaTAmAM ja pUrI karI nAkhIe to pUrI thAya, pachI AgaLa zuM ? eka rAjA ghoDA upara beTho beTho jaI rahyo hato. te vakhate be bahenapaNIo lAkaDAM vINavA jaI rahI hatI. A bemAM eka vidUSaka che, bIjI vicAraka che. beya baheno jaMgalamAM lAkaDAM-chANAM vINavA jaI rahI hatI. pelA rAjAne ghoDA upara besavuM phAvyuM nahi, eTale eNe ghoDAne Ubho rAkhyo ane hukama karyo. tarata ja nokara AgaLa Avyo ane hAthI rajU karyo : "sAheba, Apa hAthI upara birAjo." pachI pelo rAjA hAthI para beTho. thoDI vAra pachI eNe kahyuM, "hAthI upara mane phAvatuM nathI." jIvana-mAMgalya che 41

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eTale enA mATe pAlakhI AvI. rAjA pAlakhImAM beTho ane AgaLa gayo. AgaLa cAlatAM paDAva Avyo. taMbu bAMdhelA hatA, gAlIcA bichAvelA hatA. rAjAsAheba pAlakhImAMthI UtaryA ane sIdhA gAlIcAmAM jaIne lAMbA thaI gayA. pagacaMpI karanArA AvyA ane paga dabAvavA lAgyA. mAliza karanArA mAliza karavA lAgyA. lAkaDAM ane chANAM vINanArI pelI chokarIo A jotI jotI cAlI jAya che. emane vicAra Avyo : A badhuM zuM ? pahelAM ghoDA upara beThA, pachI hAthI upara beThA, vaLI pAchA pAlakhImAM beThA, pachI ahIM AvIne sUI gayA. ene vaLI thAka kyAMthI lAgyo ke A pagacaMpI cAle che ? eTale eke prazna uThAvyo : ghoDe se hAthI caDhe, hAthI se sukhapAla; kabakA thAkA hai sakhI, paDA dabAve pAMva ? "ene zAthI thAka lAgyo ke A sUtAM sUtAM paga dabAvarAvI rahyo che ? ene besavAno thAka to nathI lAgyo ne ? zramano abhAva paNa ghaNI vAra zrama utpanna kare che.'' pelI chokarIe uttara Apyo : bhU huA, bhUkhA rahA, ugra kriyA pravAsa tabakA zAkA he sakhI, paDA dabAve pAMva. "gayA janmamAM A mANasa jamIna 52 sUI rahyo haze; tapa karyuM haze; pagapALo pravAsa paNa karyo haze. e vakhatano je thAka lAgyo haze te Aje paga dabAvarAvIne utArI rahyo che. Ama, Aje ApaNane je maLyuM che te ApaNI buddhine lIdhe nahi, ApaNI AvaDatane lIdhe nahi, ApaNI hoziyArIne lIdhe nahi; paNa ApaNA puNyane lIdhe maLyuM che. ApaNA karatAM DigrIovALA ghaNA hoziyAra hoya che. Dabala grejyueTa ghaNA buddhivALA hoya che. e tamArI pAse skaoNlarazipa mATe Ave che ane kahe che, "huM pharsTa klAsa pharsTa Avyo chuM ane mAre iMglaeNnDa javuM che, to skaoNlarazipa mATe kaMIka goThavaNa karI Apo.'' buddhithI ja jo maLI zakatuM hoya to e loko vadhAre buddhivALA hoya 42 : jIvana-mAMgalya

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che, AvaDatathI ja maLatuM hoya to AvaData paNa ghaNI hoya che, paNa evuM kaMI nathI hotuM, ghaNI vAra bhAgyane lIdhe paNa hoya che. A bhAgya kyAM dorI jAya che enI kaMI khabara che tamane ? eka ja divase, eka ja muhUrte, eka ja kSaNe eka chokaro, lAkho rUpiyAnI milakatavALAne tyAM janme che. te ja divase te ja muhUrte ane te ja kSaNe bIjo chokaro lAkha rUpiyAnA devavALA kaMgALane tyAM janme che. moTA thayA pachI lAkha rUpiyAnA devAvALAno chokaro AkhI jiMdagI vaitaruM karIne lAkha rUpiyAnuM devuM patAve che ane uparathI vadhAre dravya meLavI samAjamAM sthAna ane mAna meLave che, jyAre bIjI bAju janmatAveMta ja sonAnA camacA sAthe majA karanAro chokaro moTo thayA pachI lAkhonI milakata veDaphI daIne devAdAra thAya che ane samAjamAM haDadhUta thAya che. eka ja muhUrta, eka ja kSaNa hovA chatAM pelo janmotrI jovAvALo zuM joze ? eka ja sekanDamAM keTakeTalA janma thAya che ? paNa kSaNa samAna hovA chatAM mArga judA sarjAya che, enuM kAraNa zuM ? eka ja kSaNe janmelAomAMthI e divase divase saMpattimAM sAdhana mAM tejasvI banato jAya ane bIjo divase divase badhI rIte kSINa banato jAya, enuM kAraNa zuM ? AnuM kAraNa puNya che. puNyano upayoga karIne karmano kSaya karavAno che ane e yAda rAkhavAnuM che ke je bhAgya maLeluM hoya tene bhUMsI nAkhavuM e sahelI vAta che; paNa bhAgyanuM nirmANa karavuM e muzkela vAta che. jayapuranA eka zeTha muMbaInI oNphise kAgaLa evA akSare lakhe ke vAMcI zakAya nahi. e zeTha jyAre jAte eka vAra AvyA tyAre jemane kAgaLo maLelA te munIma kAgaLa kADhIne ghaDIkamAM kAgaLanA akSaro sAme jue ane vicAre ke A dhanapatinA AvA akSara ? eTale zeTha kapALa para hAtha mUkI kahe, "mArA akSaro sAme zuM juo cho, amArA bhAgya sAme juo.' mane e zeThanI vAta eTalA mATe yAda AvI, ke vAta ema kahI zakAya che ke, mANasa bhAgya laIne Avelo che. - -- bhAgyanirmANa vaDe mANasa AdhyAtmika dRSTie, mahAna bane, jIvananI dRSTi badalAya, AtmAnI dRSTie vyavahArane jue. manane jo keLavI levAya, mananI jo khilavaNI thAya to ja jIvana sAcI dizAmAM jIvI zakAya. A mananI keLavaNI Aje to anivArya che. tamAruM mana jeTaluM keLavAyeluM haze teTalA pramANamAM tame tamArA bhAgyanuM nirmANa karI zakazo. mana jIvana-mAMgalya * 43

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jo keLavAyeluM nahi hoya to bhAgyano vinAza thaI jaze. kaLiyugane jyAre rAjAe pUchyuM ke, "have tuM kyAM jaIne vasIza ?" tyAre kaLiyuge kahyuM hatuM ke, "have huM lakSmI haze tyAM vasIza." AgaLa pUchyuM ke, "tAro AkAra zo haze ? tuM kayA rUpamAM AvIza ?" tyAre kahe, "huM jugAranA rUpamAM AvIza, katalakhAnAnA rUpamAM AvIza, dArUnA pyAlAnA rUpamAM AvIza ane vyabhicAranA rUpamAM AvIza -- A cAra rUpe mane tyAM joje." A rUpakane vicArazo to jaNAze ke jyAre saMpatti Ave che tyAre bhAgya hoya, puNya, hoya, guruonI kRpA hoya, ene sAce mArge doranAra hoya to ja uparanA cAramAMthI mAnavI bacI jAya che; nahi to, e cAreya dUSaNo AvIne UbhAM ja hoya. emanAthI bacavA mATe Aje sabaLa ane samartha prayatnanI jarUra che. sAmAnya prayatnathI bacI javAnuM zakya to nathI ja. eTalA mATe darekedareka kSaNe A vAtanuM punarAvartana karavAnI jarUra che. A vAta vAraMvAra magaja upara athaDAze to ja bacI zakAze. to ja mana keLavAze, A mananI keLavaNInuM pariNAma zuM ? bIjo prazna puchAyo : " yA vimu!' - mukta koNa ? javAba maLyo : "viSaye viravatta:' - viSayothI virakta te ja mukta. tamAre tyAM kerI AvI hoya, enAthI moMmAM pANI chUTatuM hoya, tame kaho ke Aje nathI khAvI, tamArA nokarane ApI do ane kaho ke tuM khAI jA... badhAya jotA ja rahe, tame kaho ke kerIne jotAM mArA moDhAmAM pANI chUTyuM che, e Asakti che, mAre emAM lapeTAvuM nathI; eTale nathI khAvI - tuM khAI jA. basa, AnuM nAma ja virakti - AnuM nAma tame manane keLavyuM kahevAya. vastuomAMthI virakta bano, ene choDIne tame ekalA jaIne besazo ane jozo to tamAruM mana AnaMda anubhavatuM haze. tamane ema thaze ke mArAmAM choDavAnI Aje ATalI zakti AvI ! jema jema mANasa choDato jAya che tema tema eka prakArano ene AhalAda maLe che. jyAre sAdhuone vastuo ApavAmAM Ave che tyAre sAcA sAdhuo enI sAme paNa jotA nathI ane kahe che ke, "bhAI uThAvo, A badhuM to baMdhana che." 44 * jIvana-mAMgalyA

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pelo kaheze, "kema ? emAM zo vAMdho ?" to sAcA sAdhu kaheze, "ame evuM badhuM jo laIzuM to ame marI javAnA chIe. tame haTAvo ahIMthI A vastu ne ! eTale mukta banavA mATeno mArga "viSaye virakta' thavAno che, viSaya paratvenI virakti ja jIvane baMdhanamAMthI choDAvanArI che. have trIjo prazna puchAya che : zo vasti dhora: na. ? - ghora narka kayuM? javAba maLe che : sva: | - potAno deha ja ghora narka che. A dehamAM jyAre rAgadveSa vagere kIDAo khadabadatA hoya tyAre deha narka che. badhAya samayamAM deha e narka nathI. kharI rIte to deha svarganuM vimAna che. To the ignorant alone this body is a source of endless pain. To the wise, it is a means of enjoying endless happiness, an instrument for attaining infinite Freedom and Bliss. jyAre ApaNA cittamAM rAgadveSanI bhaThThI saLagatI hoya, krodhanA aMgArA dhagadhagatA hoya, mAnanA parvato UbhA thayA hoya, mAyAnI jhADIne lIdhe aMdhArAnI aTavAmaNa vadhI hoya ane lobhanI khINamAM jeTaluM Ave eTaluM badhuM samAI jatuM hoya tyAre deha ja narka banI jAya che. mANasanA lobhano khADo pUro thAya ema lAge che ? kyAre pUro thaze A lobhano khADo ? kyAre ochA thaze mAnanA parvato ? kyAre kapAI jaze A mAyAnI jhADIo ? ane kyAre bujhAI jaze A krodhanA aMgArA ? ApaNo A lobhano khADo eTalo badho to moTo che ke samagra vizvanuM dhana emAM jo ThalavAI jAya topaNa e saMtoSa pAme ema nathI. eTalA mATe ja ApaNe vicAravAnuM che ke jyAre A krodha, mAna, mAyA, lobha, rAga, dveSa ja ApaNA zatru che. te jyAre aMtaramAM khadabadatA hoya, e jyAre dehamAM ramatA hoya ane emAM raMgAIne koIne bhUMDo cItarIe, ko'kane mAravAno vicAra karIe, kokanI sAme harIphAIo karIe ane ko'kanuM kATaluM kADhavuM evA vicAra karIe tyAre ApaNuM magaja kevuM hoya che ?.AbehUba narka jevuM. ghaNA loko phoTo levaDAve che. khAssI rIte bese che. pelo kahe ema hasatuM moTuM rAkhe che, paNa koI magajanA vicAranA phoTA levaDAve to ? kharo phoTo to e vakhatano levA jevo che ke jyAre tamArI AMkha lAla hoya, hoTha pUjatA hoya, viveka vagaranA zabdo phUTatA hoya. aMdarano pelo zatru bahAra Avelo hoya, e vakhatano vikarALa rAkSasa jevA dekhAvane phoTo levaDAvI laTakAvavo joIe, jethI pharIthI ApaNe e dizAmAM jatAM pahelAM jIvana-mAMgalya ke 45

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vicArIe. rAvaNane loko rAkSasa kahe che. rAkSasa eTale moTA moTA dAMtavALo nahi, paraMtu aniyaMtrita vRttivALo. jenI vRttio potAnA kAbUmAM nathI e rAkSasa che. aniyaMtrita vRtti eTale rAkSasI vRtti ane niyaMtrita vRtti eTale daivI vRtti. eTaluM yAda rAkhajo, rAvaNa marI gayo nathI; e to ApaNA manamAM beTho che. pelA kauravo paNa samApta nathI thayA, hajI jIvaMta che. vicArIzuM to samajAze ke narka A dehamAM ja che. manamAM jyAre koInuM azubha karavAnI icchA jAge, koInuM amaMgaLa karavAnI kAmanA jAge, koI bhayAnaka tRSNA jAge, ahitakArI kalpanAo cittamAM jAgI paDe tyAre A deha, je svargamAM javAnuM vimAna che te ja narka banI jAya che. pachI ziSya cotho prazna karyo : "svapama vim ? - svarga kyAM che ?" tyAre ene gurudeve cothI vAta kahI ke, "tUT parva vimerita - tRSNAno jo kSaya thaI jAya to svarga dUra nathI." tRSNAno nAza thaI jAya to ahIM beThAM ja svarga che, kyAMya javAnI jarUra nathI. ahIM ja AnaMda mANyA karo. tamane koIno bhaya nathI, koIne mATe aphasosa nathI, koIne mATe azubha ane amaMgaLa vicAra nathI. ATaluM hoya to tame svargamAM ja beThA cho. tamane ahIM sukha ane zAMti beya maLaze. svargamAM to devo laDI laDIne marI jAya che. koI vadhu tapa kare to indrane ekadama doDavuM paDe che ane urvazImenakA vagere apsarAone mokalIne tapasvInA tapabhaMgano ane patanano prayatna karavo paDe che ! e svarga mAre mana bhoganI lAlasAbhUmi che. eTale to devo to herAna herAna thaI gayelA hoya che; temanI upara to dayA lAvavA jevuM che. ApaNe kAMI evuM svarga meLavavAnuM nathI. tame A bhavanI aMdara ja svargano anubhava karI zako, masta rahI zako; paNa kyAre ? tRSNAno vinAza thaI jAya tyAre. dhIre dhIre taSNAnI dorI jo tuTI jAya, to mukta banI javAya. jenI tRSNAnI dorI tUTI jAya, te sadA prasanna banI jAya. AMkha baMdha kare ane sUvAnI icchA thAya to tarata UMgha Ave. UThavAnI icchA hoya te samayasara UThI zake. manamAM vicAra kare ke mAre bhagavAnanuM darzana karavuM che, to te bhagavAna tyAM ja dekhAya. jene tRSNA nathI enA cittamAM prabhu sivAya bIjuM hoya paNa zuM ? ane jenA hRdayamAM tRSNA paDelI hoya tenA hRdayamAM prabhu Ave paNa kyAMthI ? 46 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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ahIM aMdara ja to e beTho che. e najIka beThelAne ApaNe jo bahAra lAvavA mAgatA hoIe to tRSNAno kSaya karavo joIe. vacamAM mAtra eka paDado. che; - e paDadAne haTAvo. pachI tame jozo ke prabhu tamArI pAse che. A cAra vAto, jIvananI mahattvanI vAto che. ApaNe e samajIe. bIjI to ghaNI vAto ApaNe samajIe chIe, paraMtu A vastu jo ApaNe nahi samajIe, nahi jANIe to duniyAnI bIjI badhI samajaNa, bIjuM badhuM jJAna chevaTe nakAmuM che. mahApuruSo ApaNane vinave che ane kahe che ke bIjI badhI bAbatamAM, ghaNA lAbha paDelA haze; paNa mananI bAbatamAM je lAbha thavAno che, te to potAne thavAno che. tamArI pAse jo mananI prasannatA nahi hoya to bharyuM bharyuM ghara haze, harIbharI juvAnI haze, suMdara vastuo haze, DhagalAbaMdha bhojanasAmagrI haze, bharyo bharyo palaMga ane gAdIo haze, topaNa tamane zAMti nahi hoya, tame zAMta citte UMdhI nahi zako, tyAM paNa tame becena rahyA karazo, tana ne mana asvastha raheze. mATe keLavaNI to mananI hovI joIe. mana jo keLavAyeluM ne masta haze. to tame pATa ke lAdI para sUI jazo toya ghasaghasATa UMghI jazo. A manane taiyAra karavAnuM che. eTale ApaNe je A cAra vAtano svAdhyAya karyo tene jItIne jIvanane jItI jaIe. jIvana-mAMgalya - 47

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5. AtmajAgRti + bibheSi yadi saMsArAd mokSaprAptiM ca kAMkSasi / tadendriyajayaM kartuM sphoraya sphArapauruSam / / -jJAnasAra , sanAnI duniyAthI tuM jo gabharAto A Saa hoya ane muktinI mahAsamAdhi jo icchato hoya to tArI indriyone jItavA tArA aphATa parAkramabharyA pauruSano upayoga kara. je mANasane AtmA viSe zraddhA hoya che, tene ja Atmonnatino vicAra Ave che. teno ja AtmA jAge che, paNa 2 AtmAnI ja jene jANa nathI, AtmAne je zuM samajato nathI, agara AtmAnI jene zraddhA nathI, tene Atmonnatino vicAra kyAMthI Ave ? teno AtmA kema jAge ! je mANasa kevaLa jaDa vastuonI mohakatAmAM * magna rahe che, tene AtmA kevo baLavAna che e nahi samajAya. ane jene AtmAnI tAkAtano khyAla nathI te mRta jIvana jIve deg che. Aje evAM mRtajIvanonI saMkhyA vadhI 48 * jIvana-mAMgalya WWW.jainelibrary.org

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rahI che. mRtajIvanamAM cetanAnA prANa phUMkavA mATe ja AjanA saMbodhanano viSaya rAkhyo che - AtmajAgRti. ApaNane evA keTalAya mANaso maLe che, jemane potAnA zabdomAM vizvAsa nathI, vANImAM zraddhA nathI, jIvanamAM teja ke tAkAta nathI; e nirmAlyanI jema kahe : "mArAthI A kAma kema thaze ? A kAma to khUba agharuM che. A nirmAlya zabdo koNa bolAve che ? dehabhAva bolAve che. AtmabhAnavALA AvuM kadI na bole. cetanAvaMtanI vANImAM to tejanAM kiraNo camakatAM hoya che. tAkAtanA taNakhA jharatA hoya che. raghuvaMzamAM kAlidAse lakhyuM che : raghuvaMzanAM bALako evAM hatAM je zezare 3khyatta-vijyAna / bAlyakALamAM ja AtmavidyAnuM siMcana pAmatAM hatAM e kaI vidyA ? peTa bharavAnI nahi. paisA bhegA karavAnI nahi. e vidyA to kIDI-maMkoDAne paNa AvaDe che. e paNa gaLapaNa maLe tyAM doDI jAya. AmaMtraNanI paNa rAha na jue ! ame beThA hatA tyAM eka vAra kIDIo UbharAI. eka bhAIe tenI AsapAsa rAkha nAkhI. eTale thoDI vAramAM te cAlI gaI. kIDIone lAgyuM ke ahIM rasa nathI, rAkha che. rasavRttine poSavAmAM to kIDIo paNa pAvaradhI che. mANasanI viziSTatA peTa bharavAnI vidyA nathI. enI viziSTatA aMdhakAramAMthI prakAzamAM laI jAya, e vidyA prApta karavAmAM che. prAcInakALamAM zizune nAnapaNathI ja evA vicAromAM ucheravAmAM AvatuM, jethI eno AtmA sadA jAgrata raheto. nirAzAjanaka ke nirmAlya vAto emanI AgaLa uccAravAmAM AvatI ja nahi. rAmacandrajI yauvanane AMgaNe ramatA hatA te samaye rAkSasonuM sainya mithilA para caDhI AvyuM. janake potAnA mitra zrI dazaratha pAse sahAyatA mAgI ane kahevaDAvyuM : tamArA vIraputra zrIrAma ane lakSmaNane sainya sAthe amArI vahAre mokalo. zrI dazaratha jarA thaMbhyA, mamatAne lIdhe vicAranA vaMToLiyAmAM e aTavAI gayA. e jaMgalI ne kadAvara mANaso sAthe A bALako kevI rIte laDI zakaze ? chatAM bolyA nahi. manamAM ja vicAratA hatA, paNa rAma pitAno Azaya samajI gayA. emaNe kahyuM : "pitAjI ! zuM siMhanuM nAnuM baccuM moTA hAthInA gaMDasthaLane bhedI zakatuM nathI ?" jIvana-mAMgalya : 49

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bAkara baccAM lAkha, lAkhe bicArAM, siMhaNa baccuM eka, eke hajArAM. A vIratAbharyo uttara sAMbhaLatAM ja dazarathano bhrama TaLI gayo. banne kumAro dhanuSya-bANa laI mithilA gayA. zatruone harAvI, vijayapatAkA pharakAvI, gauravapUrvaka ghera AvyA. A khamIra kyAMthI AvyuM ? e bahArathI nathI AvyuM aMdara ja che. ene jAgrata karavAnI jarU2 che. AtmAmAM anaMta zakti che, e bhAna thatAM, e koInI nahi gabharAya, koInAthIya nahi aMjAya. Aje mAbApa bALakane vIra banAvavAne badale kAyara banAve che. bALaka raDatuM hoya ne UMghatuM na hoya to, "jo bAvo Avyo, pakaDI jaze" AvAM bhIrutAbharyAM vAkyo saMbhaLAve che. AthI bALakanI chAtI besI jAya che, pachI e moTo thAya, bahAra bahAdura dekhAya, paNa aMdarathI Da2poka hoya. AvA mANaso nAgarika tarIke nakAmA. bAyalA nAgarikothI dezanuM paNa rakSaNa na thAya, to AtmAnuM kalyANa to kyAMthI thAya ? mANasanI keTalI tAkAta che, eno pratyakSa dAkhalo lo. eNTamabaoNmba bhayaMkara che. hAIDrojana baoNmba ethI paNa bhayaMkara che. enAmAM saMhAranI anaMta zakti che. ratala-doDha ratalano baoNmba lAkho mAnavIno saMhAra karI zake che. mAIlonA vistArane ujjaDa karI zake che. eka nAnakaDA baoNmbamAM ATalI zakti che, paNa ene zodhanAra to manuSya ja ne ? to vicArI juo. mAnavInA sarjanamAM paNa ATalI apratima zakti che, to enA sarjaka evA mAnavInA AtmAmAM keTalI zakti hovI joIe ? jaDane AviSkRta karanAra cetanamAM pratibhA na hota to A amaryAda zakti AviSkRta kema pAmata ? AtmAnI apratima tAkAtanuM A jvalaMta dRSTAMta che. AtmAnI A anaMta zaktione jeNe jANI ane ene jeNe kendrita karI teNe potAnI prabhutA meLavI, te ja prabuddha thayA, bhagavAna thayA, saMsArathI te - pAra pAmyA. je mANasa prakRtinAM nirmaLa tattvothI Dare che, are, pote ekAMtamAM dhyAna dharatAM paNa Dare che, ane potAnI ja bIka potAne lAge che, te mANasa mahAtmA to ThIka, paNa mANasa tarIke paNa lAyaka kaI rIte gaNAya ? mANasa Avo bhIru thaI jAya che, kAraNa ke bAlyakALamAM ene AtmavidyA maLI nathI. AtmAnI amaratAno saMdeza maLyo nathI. mAbApe enA dehanuM bharaNapoSaNa karyuM, 50 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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paNa AtmAnuM poSaNa na karyuM. dehanuM poSaNa to kUtarAM-bilADAM paNa kare che. mAnavInuM gaurava bALakonA mAtra dehanuM poSaNa karavAmAM ja nathI. mANasanuM gaurava potAnA saMtAnane saMskArI ne tejasvI banAvavAmAM che. mArI A vAta tamane Aja kadAca kaDavI lAgaze, paNa te satya che. vicArI jojo. Aja nahi to kAle jarUra samajAze. madAlasA potAnA bALakane pAraNAmAM jhulAvatI paNa gAtI : zuddho si vRddhodasi niraMganoDasa | vatsa ! tuM siddha cho. siddhio tArAmAM che. tuM buddha cho. buddhi - prajJA tArAmAM che. tuM niraMjana cho. tane koI vAsanAne raMge raMgI zake tema nathI, tuM mukta cho. tane bAMdhanAra A vizvamAM ekeya tattva nathI. tuM svataMtra cho, mukta cho, hAlaraDAmAM ja je bALakane AvuM muktinuM gIta sAMbhaLavA maLe, te yuvAna tejasvI, tyAgI ke pratApI kema na bane ? Ajano yuvAna e AzAnI jyota nathI, paNa nirAzAno dariyo che. enAmAM jIvananI khumArI nathI, paNa vAsanAnI bImArI che. - je dezanA yuvAno vilAsI vAtAvaraNamAM Uchare che, te dezanI prajA dhIme dhIme nirvIrya thaI jAya che. prajAne mahAna banAvavA yuvAno sAme Adarza joIe. emanI sAme saMyamanAM pratIko joIe. jyAM emane ghaDavAmAM Ave che, emane keLavaNI ApavAmAM Ave che, e sthAno kevAM hovAM joIe ? tyAM vilAsa ane vikAranI havA hoya te pAlave ? paNa Aja tame jozo to vidyAmaMdiromAM paNa kaTa ane vaTa sivAya vAta nathI. ApaNe kaoNlejone vidyAmaMdiro kahIe chIe, paNa maMdirane anukULa saMyama ane pavitratAthI bhareluM vAtAvaraNa che ? ane keLavaNI zA mATe levAmAM Ave che tenuM dhyeyacitra paNa vidyArthIo samakSa kyAM che ? "jJAnastha ne viratiH" - jJAnanuM phaLa vRttiono virAma che. jJAna maLe to virAma Avavo joIe, paNa Aje evuM dekhAya che ? vidyArthIomAM zista ne sabhyatA che ? Aje mANasa vRttiothI viramavA mATe nathI bhaNato, paNa vRttionA tAMtaNA karoLiyAnI mAphaka vadhAre ne vadhAre kaI rIte kADhI zakAya e mATe bhaNe che. sIdhI bhASAmAM kahIe to ema kahI zakAya ke guno karIne chupAvavo kema, asatyane satya banAvavuM kema, e mATenuM kauTilyazAstra bhaNe che. eka bhAIne meM pUchyuM : "tamArA abhyAsanuM dhyeya zuM ?" e kahe : "sAheba, dhyeya vaLI zuM ? AjakAla kAyadA vadhI paDyA che. bhaNIe nahi to e kAyadAomAMthI bArI kyAMthI jaDe ? havenA jamAnAmAM vakIlonA AdhAre jIvana-mAMgalya * pa1

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jIvAya ema nathI, jAte ja jANavuM joIe; nahi to raLIe temAMthI aDadho bhAga to vakIlo khAI jAya. jAte zIkhyA hoIe to ja kAyadAnA phAyadA maLe '' joyuM, A keLavaNI ! mANasa bhaNe che zA mATe ? corI karavA mATe. cora banavA, potAnI ja sarakAranI AMkhamAM dhULa nAkhavA. paisA raLavA che, paNa kara (Tax) bharavo nathI. paiso potAnA mojazokhamAM kharcavo che, paNa bIjAnA hAthamAM javA devo nathI. A vidyArthI mANasa mukta bane ke baMdhAya ? je eka zreSTha nAgarika banavAne ayogya che te zreSTha jIvana mATe yogya kaI rIte gaNAya ? eka bhAI inTaranI parIkSA ApI rajAmAM ghera AvyA. e arasAmAM bahAragAmathI emane tyAM eka mahemAna AvyA. e mahAna cintaka hatA. vidyArthInA pitA potAnA putrane bapore cintakanI pAse lAvyA ane potAnA putranA abhyAsanI vAta karI. cintake pUchyuM : 'zuM bhaNo cho ?' 'sAheba, inTa2nI parIkSA ApIne AvuM chuM.' 'have zuM karazo ?' 'bI. e. thaIza.' 'pachI zuM karazo ?' 'pachI to jo pharsTa klAsa AvIza to vilAyata jaIza ane ema.e. thaIza.' 'ema.e. thaIne pachI zuM karazo ?' 'pachI koI sArI nokarI meLavIza.' pelA cintakane to AgaLa ja vadhI rahyA hatA. emaNe pUchyuM : 'pachI ?' pelo vidyArthI jarA thaMbhyo. ene thayuM, A zuM pUche che ? paNa uttara ApyA vinA cAle tema na hatuM, eTale eNe kahI nAkhyuM : 'pachI prabhutAmAM pagalAM mAMDIzuM.' cintake 'prabhutAmAM pagalAM' A zabda cAvyo. zabda to ghaNo sAro che. pazutA mATe vadhAremAM vadhAre chUTa meLavanArA paNa A ja zabda vAparatA hoya che. cintake pUchyuM : 'ThIka, pachI zuM ?' vidyArthIe kahyuM : 'pachI vaLI zuM ? gharaDA thaIzuM.' cintakane potAnA praznano dora barAbara hAthamAM Avato lAgyo, eTale dhImethI pUchyuM : 'pachI zuM ?'' pelo vidyArthI mUMjhAI gayo, thoDo akaLAyo. eNe enA pitA sAme joyuM. enA pitA paNa vicAromAM taNAtA hatA. have pachI zuM ?... enA pitAnI AMkhamAM paNa praznArtha hato. eTale vidyArthIe kahI nAkhyuM : 'pachI marI jaIzuM.' cintake kahyuM : 'barAbara, huM e ja kahevA mAgato hato. ATalA abhyAsa pachI, ATalI pravRtti pachI, ATalI sAdhanA pachI paNa maravAnuM !' maravA mATe ATaluM badhuM karavAnuM ? maravuM ja hoya to ATalo abhyAsa na 52 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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karo, dezATana na karo topaNa marI zakAya che. zuM abhaNa nathI maratA ? abhaNa paNa marI zake che. vidyAvAna to ema kahe che ke pachI amara banIza, mRtyu sAme yuddha karIza, vRttio para vijaya meLavIza. jIvanamAM prema, prakAza ane zraddhAne bharIza ane mRtyune tarI jaIza. vidyA to mRtyune jItavA mATe che. eka kavi kahe che : 'hasI mRtyumukhe dhasavAnuM ja de, dhI mRtyumukhe hasavAnuM ja de. vidyAvAnamAM jIvananI khumArI joIe. sukhamAM ke du:khamAM; saMpattimAM ke vipattimAM, saMgamAM ke viyogamAM potAnA AtmAnI ane potAnA mananI mastI na gumAve te ja abhyAsI. te ja vidyAvAna. paNa prakRtinA rahasyane jANanAra mANasa unALo AvatAM akaLAto nathI, ziyALo AvatAM phariyAda karato nathI; ke varSAkALa AvatAM babaDATa karato nathI. e jANe che ke A to Rtu-RtunA khela che. ziyALAmAM TADha paDe che, ghauM ne kapAsa emAM ja taiyAra thAya che. varSAmAM vRSTi thAya ane kIcaDa thAya paNa juvAra-bAjarI emAM ja pAke che. unALAmAM taDako paDe che ane mIThI kerIo ane rAyaNa e RtumAM ja pAke che. tema duHkha, vipatti, viyoga paNa mANasane ghaDavA Ave che. ethI mANasanI kasoTI thAya che. mANasanuM hIra AvA saMyogomAM ja pragaTe che. sAco abhyAsI du:khane paNa kudaratanI priya bheTa mAnI hasatA mukhe enuM svAgata kare che. e samajato hoya che ke AjanuM du:kha e mArI gaIkAlanI bhUlanuM ja pariNAma che. eka bhUlane sudhAravI hoya to bIjI navI bhUla na karavI, du:kha vakhate aphasosa karavo e jUnI bhUlamAM navI bhUlano umero karavA barAbara che. paNa keTalAka mANaso A vAtano vicAra karyA vinA kevaLa phariyAda ja karatA pharatA hoya che. varasAda Ave to kahe : 'Aha ! zuM varasAda che ! baMdha thato ja nathI. mArI nAkhyA.' TADha paDe tyAre kahe : 'zuM TADha paDe che ! cAmaDAM cirAI gayAM.' tApa paDe tyAre kahe : 'taDako paDe che kAMI taDako ! dharatI to bhaDake baLI rahI che !' Ama rodaNAM royA ja kare; paNa A to RtunA khela che, ema na samaje. tema keTalAka mANaso paNa jIvana aMge rodaNAM ja rotA hoya che. koI putra mATe to koI patnI mATe; koI dhana mATe to koI dhaMdhA mATe. paNa phariyAda karyA vinA ja puruSArtha ka2vo joIe, ema na vicAre. AvA saMyogomAM mANasane sAcI vidyA maLe to ja mANasa jIvananAM tattvone sparzI zake. ane du:khamAM tApane, paNa jIvananA ghauM pakavavAnuM sAdhana jIvana-mAMgalya * 53

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mAnI, ene satkArI zake. viSama prasaMgomAMthI paNa kAMIka bodha meLavI jIvanane ghaDI zake. ApaNuM koI svajana marI jAya che, tyAre ApaNane keTalo badho zoka thAya che ! ApaNuM mana duHkhanA agAdha sAgaramAM kevuM DUbI jAya che ! paNa te prasaMge ApaNe svastha citte vicArIe ke A zoka zAthI Avyo ? zA kAraNe Avyo ? gAmamAM ATalAM marI jAya che, chatAM AMkhe eka AMsu paNa nathI AvatuM ane atyAre A AMsuono sAgara kema chalakAI gayo ? mRtyu e ja jo aniSTa ane du:khanuM kAraNa hoya to gAmamAM koI mRtyu pAme che, tyAre zoka kema ApaNane gherI vaLato nathI ? mahollAmAM koI marI gayuM hovA chatAM te divase bhojanamAM miSTAnna AvyuM hoya toya bhojana karatAM zoka thato nathI ane potAnuM svajana jatAM hRdaya raDe che, enuM kAraNa zuM ? enuM kAraNa e che ke, ene je vyakti pratye rAga hato, jenA taraphathI "kAMIka' maLatuM hatuM, te have baMdha thayuM che, te have maLavAnuM nathI; eTale e raDe che. paNa e kone mATe raDe che ? janAra vyakti mATe nahi, paNa e vyakti taraphathI maLatuM hatuM, tene mATe. eTale ke potAnA artha mATe raDe che ane e artha mANasane bIjI koI vyakti taraphathI maLato hoya to te zoka zamI jAya che. dhIme dhIme zokamAM oTa Ave che, ane mANasa mULa sthitie AvI jAya che. hA, Ama chatAM sneha jevI eka pavitra ane cirasmaraNIya vastu paNa duniyAmAM che, je artha ane kAmanI nahi, cetanAnI bhUkhI che, A bhukha eka AtmajyotamAMthI janmelI che, bIjI koI vyakti pAsethI te maLatI nathI. jyAMthI e pragaTe che, tyAM ja e vilIna thAya che. AvA prasaMgomAM mANasanA haiyA upara zokanI chAyA ghaNI gherI thaI jAya che. ane AvA keTalAka prasaMgomAM to mANasa kAM jJAnI ane kAM unmatta bane; jJAnI vicAre ke mAruM priyajana eka evA pravAse UpaDyuM che ke jyAM aMte mAre paNa javAnuM ja che; e pahelAM gayela che, huM pachI jaIza ema vicArI samAdhAna meLavI le che. jyAre ajJAnIne thAya che, have zuM thaze ? khela khalAsa ! bAjI bagaDI gaI. mAre jIvanabhara jhUravAnuM. have kyAM maLavAnA chIe ? jIvana zUnya thaI gayuM. ane evA vicAromAM ajJAnatA ane unmattatA vadhatI jAya che. A baMne prasaMgomAM priyajana to baMnee gumAvela che; paNa eka samAdhAna meLave che; bIjo jhUre che. kavi jIbrAna kahe che : "When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are pa4 * jIvanamAMgalyA

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weeping for that which has been your delight." jyAre tamane zoka lAge tyAre vaLI tamArA hRdayamAM jojo. ane tamane jaNAze ke sAce ja tame jene mATe raDI rahyA cho te tamArA harSano viSaya hato, eTale je harSa Ape e zoka Ape ja. e zokane TALavAno mArga eka ja che, ane te AtmAnuM jJAna ane prakRtinuM UMDANa ! AtmajJAna thatAM zoka kevo haLavo thAya che enuM A eka jvalaMta dRSTAMta tamArI sAme mUkuM chuM. zANI sumati bhagavAna zrI mahAvIranI vANI sAMbhaLavA gaI hatI. eno pati AtmArAma bahAra gayo hato. enA baMne yuvAna putro taLAvamAM snAna karavA gayA hatA. sumatie vyAkhyAnamAM sAMbhaLyuM : "jyAM saMyoga che tyAM viyoga che. AtmA sivAya jagatanI pratyeka vastu vikhUTI paDe che. Aje ApaNe jenA mATe hasIe chIe te ja vastu AvatI kAle raDAve che. AnaMda ane zoka eka ja trAjavAnAM be pallAM che. anaMta samAdhino mArga eka ja che. mohano tyAga ! A mohano tyAga janme che, AtmAnI ekalatAnA jJAnamAMthI." sumatie A upadezane potAnA haiyAnI dAbaDImAM jhIlyo. eno vicAra karatI, ene jIvanamAM vaNavA mathatI, e ghera AvI, tyAM ekAeka samAcAra maLyA : enA nahAvA gayelA baMne dIkarA DUbI maryA che. pahelAM eka nahAvA paDyo, paNa e to kIcaDamAM khUMcato jaNAyo. ene kADhavA bIjo gayo, paNa e khUMcato chokaro bIjAne bAjhayo ane baMne DrakhyA." juvAnajodha be dIkarA jAya to kaI mAtAnuM haiyuM zokamAM na DUbe ? sumatinA haiyAnA kaTakekaTakA thavA lAgyA. e zokanA jhaMjhAvAtamAM gherAI gaI, ene murchA AvI, ane e dharatI para DhaLI paDI. thoDI vAre e mUccha UtaratAM enA haiyA para jJAnavacano AvavA lAgyAM. jyAMthI AnaMda Ave che, tyAM ja zoka che, ane e zokanA taLiyAmAM ja zAMti hoya che. zokane ulecI nAkho, zAMti tyAM ja jaDaze. samatino zoka dhIme dhIme ulecAto gayo ane e UMDI ne UMDI UtaratI gaI, jyAM jIvananI parama zAMti hatI ! eNe potAnA baMne putronA dehane pathArImAM padharAvyA; emanA para zveta vastra oDhADyuM, ane patinI pratIkSA karatI e vicAramAM DUbI gaI. AtmArAme DelImAM paga mUkyo ane eno AnaMda UDI gayo, ene jIvana-mAMgalya : papa

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vAtAvaraNamAM kAMIka zokanI havA lAgI. roja e ghera Avato tyAre enI patnI hasatA mukhe enuM svAgata karatI paNa Aja to e udAsa hatI. AtmArAme pUchyuM : "kema ? Ama udAsa kema ? zuM thayuM che ? tuM to jANe gharamAM zokano sAgara lAvI che !" kAMI nathI. e to pADozI sAthe jarA kalaha thayo che." zokanA bhArathI namelI pAMpaNone UMcI karatAM sumatie kahyuM. AtmArAmane Azcarya thayuM. sumatino svabhAva e jANato hato. AkhuM gAma garama thAya toye enI AMkhamAM zItaLatAno sAgara laherAto hoya evI e zAMta hatI, ane evI ja e zANI paNa hatI. AtmArAma gabharAIne pUchyuM : "evuM te zuM thayuM ke tAre kajiyo karavo paDyo ? kAMI nahi. visa divasa para ApaNA dinezanAM lagna hatAM, tyAre huM pADozIne tyAMthI be ratnakaMkaNa paheravA lAvI hatI. Aje e mAgavA AvyA. meM na ApyAM, eTale bolavuM thayuM, ane kalaha vadhyo." sumati ATaluM dhairyapUrvaka bolI gaI paNa enA avAjamAM jarA viSAdanI chAyA hatI. tuMye kharI che. pArakAM kaMkaNa kyAM sudhI rakhAya ? eno mAlika mAgavA Ave tyAre ApI devAM ja joIe ne tArA jevI zANI strI AvI vAta para kalaha kare to thaI rahyuM ne ? koI jANe toya hase evI A vAta che. jA, jA, jaladI ApI Ava." ene UbhI karatAM AtmArAme mITho Thapako Apyo. "jarA UbhA to raho. tame ApI AvavAnuM to kaho cho. paNa mane e keTalAM game che ! mAruM mana emAM keTaluM rame che, e tame jANo cho ? kevAM suMdara e ratnakaMkaNa che ! eno ghATa, enI jhINI jhINI kArIgarI, jenI joDa na jaDe ! ane enAM ratno paNa kevAM tejasvI che ? nAtha, mane to e pAchAM ApavAnuM ja mana nathI thatuM. manamAM thAya che, rAkhI lauM. pachI je thavAnuM haze te thaze. kajiyo to kajiyo !" ATaluM kahetAM kahetAM sumatinuM hRdaya bharAI AvyuM. enI pAse jJAna hatuM, chatAM viSAda kAMI ocho na hato ! paNa Aje tane thayuM che zuM ? tuM pAgala to nathI thaIne ! are, tuM A zuM bolI rahI che ? je vastu pArakI che te keTalA divasa rakhAya ? enA para mamatA karavI, ene potAnI mAnavI ane mArI" kahI zoka karavo e ajJAnatA nahi to bIjuM zuM che ? pArakI vastu to jema vahelI apAya tema sAruM." zikhAmaNa ApatAM AtmArAme kahyuM. sumati UbhI thaI. eNe patino hAtha jhAlyo, eno hAtha dhrUjato hato. pa6 jIvana-mAMgalya

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ene tammara AvI rahyAM hatAM. enI chAtI para bhAra hato. paNa 'zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra'nA jJAnanA bola enA AtmAne AzvAsana ApI rahyA hatA. e patine aMdara dorI gaI. phUla jevAM potAnAM be bALakonA mRtadeha para oDhADeluM zveta vastra eNe UMcakI lIdhuM. ane jJAnanA prakAzathI prabuddha banelI sumatie kahyuM : "nAtha ! ApaNAM be ratnakaMkaNa, eka soLa varSanuM, bIjuM vIsa varSanuM. Aja sudhI ApaNe emane rAkhyAM; sAcavyAM, paNa Aje emano samaya pUro thayo. ane emaNe emano mArga lIdho. ApaNe emanAM na hatAM; e ApaNA na hatA. thoDA samaya mATe ApaNane e maLyAM hatAM. have emane nisarganA khoLAmAM zAMtipUrvaka dharavAM e ApaNuM kartavya che. enI pAchaLa zoka ane rudana karavAM vyartha che, gayelI vastu AMsuthI paNa pAchI maLatI nathI. maunanI zAMtimAM ApaNe emane vidAya ApIe.'' AtmArAma to A joI tyAM Dhagalo thaI gayo. thoDI kSaNa mATe tyAM gaMbhI2 stabdhatA chavAI gaI. gharamAM, havAmAM, vAtAvaraNamAM, badhe ja stabdhatA hatI. aMte e pitAnI AMkhamAM AMsunuM pUra dhasI AvyuM. eNe AMsunA paDadAmAMthI joyuM to sumatinI AMkhamAM paNa be motI jevAM AMsu hatAM; paNa enA 52 jIvananI UMDI samajaNanAM ujjvaLa kiraNo prakAzI rahyAM hatAM. A prasaMga parathI samajI zakAya che ke, AtmAnI jAgRti zuM kAma kare che ! jeno AtmA jAgrata che te ja zoka 52, moha 52 vijaya meLave che. paNa je jIvanamAM hAre che, mUMjhAya che, tenuM kAraNa AtmajJAnano abhAva che, ane tethI ja vipatti ke aMtarAya AvatAM e thaMbhI jAya che. gabharAI jAya che ane dhyeyamAMthI vicalita thaI, bIjA mArga bhaNI vaLe che. paNa je mANasa aMtarapreraNAthI prerAIne kArya kare che, jIvanane samajIne jIve che, e game tevA viparIta saMjogomAM paNa jenA para pUrNa vizvAsa rAkhyo hoya evo sAthI sAtha choDIne cAlyo jAya, evA saMjogomAM paNa dhairyane khoyA vinA, bhaya rAkhyA vinA, AgaLa vadhye ja jAya che. AtmajJAnI, lokonA abhiprAyanA AdhAre nahi, paNa potAnA AtmAnA abhiprAyanA AdhAre AgaLa vadhe che. e to kahe che : "lokone hasavuM hoya to hasavA do, bakavuM hoya to bakavA do; paNa mAro paMtha aphara che.'' ene potAnA pratyeka pagalAmAM zraddhA hoya che. ene potAnI pratyeka kriyAmAM niSThA hoya che, ane pote svIkArela dhyeya pAchaLa samarpita thavAno enAmAM adamya utsAha hoya che. AvI vyakti mATe kahI zakAya ke , jIvana-mAMgalya * 57 -

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In the long run he shall be happy & prosperous. paNa je mANasa kArya kare che, paNa enA pariNAmanI javAbadArI letAM gabharAya che, e saphaLa kema thAya ? ene phUla joIe che, paNa kAMTA nathI khAvA. ane kAMTA vAge che tyAre ene dUra karavA mATe e jyAM tyAM prArthanA karato phare che. sahanazIlatA ane sAdhanA vinA siddhi nathI, e vAtane jANe mAnavI kSaNabhara bhUlI jAya che. saoNkreTisa to prArthanA karatAM kaheto : "bhagavAna, huM eka ja vastu mAguM chuM. ayogya vastu huM mAguM topaNa tuM ApIza nahi, ane yogya vastu huM na mAguM topaNa tuM Apaje ja." mANasa jo A rIte vicAre to ene du:khamAMya sukha lAge. ene thAya ke gUmaDuM pAkyuM che, to enuM oparezana (operation) anivArya che. vedanA vekyA vinA darda kema maTe ? vedanA vekyA vinA vipatti kema TaLe ? zreNika narakamAM paNa mAnasika zAMti anubhave che. dehane vedanA thaI rahI che, zarIramAM Aga che, paNa AtmAmAM zItaLatA che, kAraNa ke e samaje che ke jeNe karyA che te bhogave che. A dehe bIjAne duHkha dIdhAM che, to Aje ene duHkha maLe che. eNe bIjAne bALyAM che, to Aje e pote baLe che. emAM mAre zuM ? AtmA, e dehathI nyAro che. khIMTIe koTa TAMgyo hoya, e saLagI UThe, baLIne khAkha thaI jAya to enA mAlikane nukasAna thAya, paNa e dAjhe to nahi ne ? kAraNa ke deha koTathI bhinna che. tema AtmA paNa dehathI bhinna che. paNa Aje ajJAnane lIdhe AtmAno prakAza A dehathI DhaMkAI gayo che. kALanA vikarALa paMjAmAM dhvaMsa thatI vastuone joIne zeksapiyara kahe che : Ruin hath t'aught me thus to ruminate. That time will come and take my Love away. This thought is as a death which can not choose. But weep to have that which it fears to lose. vinAze mane A rIte vicAra karatAM zIkhavyuM che ke kALa Avaze ne mArI priyatamAne paNa mArAthI dUra laI jaze. A vicAra eka mRtyu samAna che, ke jene mATe rudana sivAya bIjo koI mArga nathI, kAraNa ke je vastu teNe prApta karI che tene gumAvavAno tene sadA bhaya rahe che. 58 jIvana-mAMgalya

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prakRti ane mAnavahRdayanI mahattAne gAnAro A mahAkavi paNa ahIM kevo gamagIna che ! AvI gamagInImAM zAMti koNa Ape ? araNya jevI ekalatAmAM AzvAsana koNa Ape ? mANasa samyagdarzana dvArA jIvananA AvA du:khada prasaMgone paNa eka judI ja dRSTithI, eka judA ja bhAvathI AvakArI zake. mane yAda che, AjathI lagabhaga paMdara varSa pahelAM eka vAra ame mitro nAsika paryaTana mATe gayelA, tyAM rastAmAM rogiSTha dazAmAM eka sAdhu beTho hato. tenA zarIra paranAM gUmaDAM para kIDA khadabadatA hatA. kIDA eTalA badhA hatA ke gUmaDAmAMthI gabaDIne nIce paDe. paNa pelo sAdhu bahu jabaro ! nIce gabaDelA e kIDAne UMcakIne gUmaDA para mUkatAM kahe : "are, bAhara kahAM jAtA hai ? baiTha Idhara, bAhara bhUkhA mara jAyagA.' AvI rIte gUmaDAM khadabade che, chatAM e masta che. enI mastInuM kAraNa e ja ke du:khane svecchApUrvaka svIkAravAnuM enI pAse AtmAnuM darzana che. bhagatasiMhane phAMsIe caDhAvatA pahelAM mAphI mAgavA samajAvyA. paNa eNe to dezAbhimAnanI mastImAM eka ja kahyuM : "koI paNa dezano nAgarika potAnA dezanI AjhAdI mATe je kare che te ja meM mArA deza mATe karyuM che, ane te barAbara che." ema kahI phAMsInA doraDAne paNa phUlanI mALA gaNIne e bheTI paDyA. AvI phanAgIrI ane AvI khumArI mANasamAM kyAre Ave ? koI paNa udAtta hetu mATe mANasa nirNaya kare che, tyAre ja enAmAM arpaNano Avo Ataza pragaTe che. A mastI, A Ataza rUpiyAthI, sattAthI nathI maLato, paNa AtmAnI prAmANika niSThAmAMthI pragaTe che. ane te prasaMge mRtyuno paNa eka prakArano AnaMda mANI zakAya che - mALa choDI anaMta gaganamAM UDatA paMkhI jevo. AtmapaMkhI ! tuM gaganavihArI che, anaMta AkAzamAM UDanAra tuM mukta paMkhI che. mALAmAM tuM vase che paNa mAbo e tuM nathI. mALo tArAthI bhinna che. tuM tArA mALAne svaccha ane suMdara rAkhaje. kAMTA-jhAMkharAM lAvIne tArA mALAmAM na bharato, nahi to avasare tuM ja emAM bharAI jaIza. UDavA dhArIza tyAre nahi UDI zake. ane tArA mALAnAM dvAra paNa moTAM rAkhaje ke jethI UDatI vakhate tArI pAMkhone IjA na thAya. mANaso IMTa-cUnAthI ghara bAMdhe che. paMkhIo mALo ghAsathI bAMdhe che - dehane rahevAno mALo iMTa, cUnA ne mATIthI baMdhAya. paNa re, ApaNA AtmAno mALo kyo ? A deha e AtmAno mALo che. paMkhI jema mALAne mUkIne UDe jIvanamAMgalya * 59

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che ane mANasa baMgalAne choDIne bahAra viharavA jAya che; tema AtmA A dehane choDIne paralokanA pravAse UpaDe che. paMkhI ne mALo sAthe nathI Avato. mANasa ne baMgalo sAthe nathI Avato, tema AtmA ne A deha sAthe nathI jato, chatAM paMkhIne ane mANasane kevI mamatA che ? eka bhAIne pUchyuM : "A baMgalo kono che ?" eNe potAnI chAtI para hAtha mUkatAM garvathI kahyuM : "mAro che. Apa jotA nathI ? baMgalA para mAruM ja nAma che !" ema kahI eNe takatI sAme AMgaLI cIMdhI, paNa A bhoLA jIvane vicAra paNa nathI Avato ke A kyAM tAro che ? tArA dAdA mUkIne gayA, bApAya mUkIne gayA, ane have thoDA divasamAM tuMya mUkIne javAno. tArA sagA dIkarA paNa tAro agnisaMskAra A baMgalAnA kaMpAunDamAM nahi karavA de. tane to UMcakIne smazAna bheLo karaze ! chatAM makAna joI malakAya che, ane kahe che, "A mAro baMgalo che !" AvI mamatAvALA mANaso karatAM to paMkhI sArAM ke samaya Avye, Asakti rAkhyA vinA mALo mUkIne UDI jAya. mANasa potAnA mATe keTalI musIbata uThAve che ? kakaDA jamIna mATe kevAM verajhera bAMdhe che ? mALAnI ciMtAmAM vidAya veLAe ApaNuM AtmapaMkhI ja aTavAI jAya che. mANasa jAge to ciMtA bhAge. mANasane khyAla Avavo joIe ke enA dehamAM koI mahAna vase che, Izvara vase che, paramAtmA vAsa kare che. Avo vicAra Ave to mANasa kevo nirbhaya rahe ? enA moM para abhayanuM kevuM teja camakatuM hoya ? atyAre mANasanI evI sthiti che ke eka pradhAna sAthe vAta karavI hoya toya enA hAtha dhruje, ane jIbhano loco vaLI jAya. joke Avo mANasa paNa potAnA nokara AgaLa ke potAnA Azrita AgaLa to dama mArato hoya che, paNa ethI kAMI tejasvitA AvI gaI ema na kahevAya. mANasane pichAnavAnI rIta e sabhyatA che. je sabhyatAthI eka pradhAna sAthe varto, e ja sabhyatAthI tamArA nokara sAthe paNa vartA; ane je gaurava tamArA mANaso AgaLa batAvo e ja gaurava eka pradhAna sAme paNa rAkho. valasADanA sTezane eka yuropiyana pharsTa klAsano Akho Dabbo rokIne beTho hato, je koI e DabbAmAM besavA Ave tenI sAme ghUrakI e pUche : who are you? tame koNa cho ? yuropiyanano A prazna sAMbhaLatAM ja AvanAra bhAge. evAmAM eka AtmagauravavAna yuvAna Avyo. eNe bAraNuM ughADyuM. tyAM pelo ghUrakyo ? who are you ? 60 * jIvanamAMgalya

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yuvAne zAMtithI kahyuM : I am your father - huM tAro bApa chuM. pelo yuropiyana khuza thaI gayo. eNe kahyuM : Come in. pelA yuvAnane potAnI pAse besADatAM eNe kahyuM : tamArA jevA gauravavALA ane nirbhaya mitranI mAre jarUra hatI; kAraNa ke bIkaNa, nirmAlya ane DarapokanI sAthe besavAmAM paNa pApa che. kAyaranI maitrI nakAmI, ethI saMskAra na Ave, saMyama paNa na Ave, ane pratiSThA paNa na maLe. sobata uttamanI joIe. ApaNAthI adhika guNasaMpanna mANasanI sobata karIe to enA guNa ApaNAmAM Ave ane adhamanI sobata karIe to ApaNA guNa jAya ane enI adhamatA ApaNAmAM Ave. saDelA pAna sAthe mUkelAM sArAM pAna paNa saDe che, ane e tAjA pAnane paNa DAgha lagADe che. ApaNA AtmAnI paNa e ja dazA che, viSayavAsanA ane vRttionA saMgathI e potAnuM svarUpa, potAnI zakti ane potAno prakAza bhUlI gayo che. eka siMhaNanuM bacyuM hatuM, enI mA ene janma ApI tarata maraNa pAmI. mAvihoNA A siMhabALane eka bharavADa UMcakI lAvyo. ane potAnAM gheTAMnI sAthe ene paNa vADAmAM pUryuM. dUdha para e moTuM thavA lAgyuM. gheTAM-bakarAM jaMgalamAM caravA jAya, tyAre A paNa emanI sAthe jAya. e badhAnI sAthe evuM to haLI gayuM ke potAne paNa, teomAMnuM eka mAne, ane beM beM kare. bharavADa sisakArA kare tyAre gheTAM sAthe te paNa bharavADa pAchaLa doDe. siMhaNanuM paDakhuM sevyuM hota, mukta jaMgalamAM UcharyuM hota, ane siMhaNanA dUdhane pAmyuM hota to e garjanA karI svataMtra rIte vanavihAra karI zakata, paNa A to gheTAM sAthe rameluM. AmAM zaurya ke zakti kema pragaTe ? eka vAra saritAkinAre A gheTAM pANI pI rahyAM hatAM, tyAre parvatanI guphAmAMthI koI siMha bahAra Avyo. ane parvatanI Toca para AvI eNe garjanA karI. trADa sAMbhaLI gheTAM ne bharavADa to jIva laI nAThAM. A siMhabALa paNa doDyuM; eNe doDatAM doDatAM pAchuM vALIne joyuM, tyAM baMnenI AMkho maLI. Toca para rahelA siMhane thayuM ke A to mAro jAtabhAI che. siMha gheTAMnA ToLAmAM kema ? A mArAthI kema Dare che ? eNe garjanA karI kahyuM : "vicAra kara. doDa nahi. ApaNe eka ja kuLanA chIe. tAre mArAthI DaravAnuM nA hoya. tuM paNa mArI jema garjanA karI zake, trADa nAkhI zake. pUchaDuM pachADI zake, ane mukta rIte A jaMgalamAM viharI zake; jo tuM tane oLakhe to !' paNa ema kAMI e mAne ? varSothI ghara karIne beThelI vAta eka kSaNamAM kAMI nIkaLI jAya ? e to nAThuM ane gheTAMnA ToLA bheguM thaI gayuM. paNa pelA jIvana-mAMgalya - 61

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siMhanA chellA zabdonA paDaghA enA magajamAM ramavA lAgyA : 'tuM tane oLakha. garjanA karavA prayatna karI jo.' A zabdo enA manamAMthI kemeya khase nahi. eNe avAja karavA prayatna Adaryo, paNa beM beM avAja nIkaLyo. ghaNA kALanA gheTAnA sahavAsathI e potAno avAja paNa khoI beThuM hatuM. eka sAMje saritAkinAre e siMhabALa pANI pIvA gayuM, tyAre teNe potAnuM pratibiMba pANImAM joyuM, to potAnuM zarIra A gheTAM jevuM nahi, paNa pelA siMha jevuM lAgyuM. have ene siMhanA zabdomAM vizvAsa beTho. eNe prayatna Adaryo. eka vAra-be vAra-traNa vAra. ane enA avAjamAM raNako Avyo. gheTAM bhaDakyAM, bhAgavA lAgyAM. siMhamAM AtmavizvAsa pragaTyo. eNe jarA jora karyuM. tyAM bharavADa ane gheTAMnAM kALajAM phADI nAkhe evI garjanA enA avAjamAMthI pragaTI. bharavADa ne gheTAM have UbhAM rahe ? siMhe potAnA svarUpane oLakhyuM, to te vanarAja thayo, mukta thayo. tame paNa tamArA svarUpane oLakho. jIvananA unnata zikhara para caDhI garjanA karo. siMhavRtti keLavo, tamArI AsapAsa ghero ghAlIne beThelA vAsanAnAM bakarAM bhAgavA mAMDaze, tamArI trADa sAMbhaLI lAlasA to jIva laI doDaze. Aja sudhI iMdriyonA sahavAsamAM rahIne AtmA potAnuM svarUpa, potAnI zakti, potAno zAzvata prakAza badhuM ja bhUlI gayo che, ane iMdriyonI preraNAthI vAsanA pAchaLa paravaza banIne doDe che, ene jagADo. jIvanadraSTAo ApaNane saMbodhe che. jAgo ane juo, tame koNa cho ? tamArAmAM kevI adamya zakti chupAyelI che ! tame dhAro te karI zako, je duniyAmAM mahAna thayA te tamArAmAMnA ja eka hatA. bhagavAna zrIneminAthane zrIkRSNe pUchyuM tyAre, ane bhagavAna zrI mahAvIrane magadhapati zreNike pUchyuM tyAre emaNe A ja uttara Apyo hato : tamAro AtmA paNa mArA jevo ja che, ane mArA jevuM ja sthAna tamane maLavAnuM che, paNa Aja tamAro AtmA karmone AdhIna che, eTalI ja bhinnatA che. karmanA ane vRttionA kSaye ApaNe samAna chIe siddha-buddha-mukta. tame tamArI iMdriyono, tamArA manano, tamArI yauvanavaMtI zaktiono ane tamArI buddhino e rIte upayoga karajo ke jethI tamAro AtmA Aja jyAM che, tyAMthI AvatI kAle eka kadama AgaLa hoya, ane tamArA pratyeka navaprabhAtamAM AtmajAgRtibharI pragati hoya / = 62 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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6. maitrInI mahattA A NAkharA dharmo dharmanA phaLanuM ja * va varNana kare che, paNa jainadarzananI chuM viziSTatA e che ke, dharmanA svarUpanuM darzana che karAvyA pachI ja dharmanA phaLanuM varNana kare che. dharmathI sukha maLe che, zAMti maLe che. A thayuM dharmanuM phaLa. A phaLanI bAbatamAM duniyAnA badhA ja dharmo ane darzanakArI che. ekamata che, paNa dharmanA svarUpamAM matabheda che. dharma kahevo kone ? A prazna AvatAM ja kokaDuM gUMcavAya che. eka tolA sonAnA 2400 rUpiyA* maLe e to thayuM sonAnuM phaLa, paNa sonuM A kahevuM kone ? A thayo sonAnA svarUpano bhU prazna. kasoTI para pAra Utare, agniparIkSAmAM uttIrNa thAya, tejAbamAM zyAma na paDe ane chedamAM dago na jaNAya, A tenuM nAma, sonuM. A thayuM svarUpa. tema jaina che. dharma kahe che ke, jemAM maitrIno AnaMda hoya, * * e jamAnAmAM. jIvana-mAMgalya + 13

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pramodanI prasannatA hoya, kAruNyanI mRdutA hoya ane mAdhyasthano saumya samabhAva hoya tenuM nAma dharma. eTale je dharmanAM anuSThAnamAM jIvono vadha hoya, pazuono saMhAra hoya, hiMsAnI Aga hoya, veranI jvALA hoya, te dharma svarUpamAM khoTo che, bhale e potAne dharma kahe, paNa te pittaLa che. eTale ja to dharmano saMpUrNa upasaMhAra karatAM eka sthaLe kahyuM che 'mitrasya cakSuvA pazya / ' ApaNe ApaNI cAlu AMkhothI jagatane joIe chIe enA karatAM mitranI AMkhathI joIe to jagata koI juduM ja jaNAya. Aja ApaNane kyAMka doSa dekhAya che, to kyAMka roSa dekhAya che; kyAMka ve2 dekhAya che, to kyAMka jhera dekhAya che. paNa mitranI AMkhathI jotAM doSa gauNa jaNAze ane guNanI prazaMsA vadhaze. mitranuM haiyuM mitrane doSa mATe ekAMtamAM premathI Thapako ApI guNanI suvAsa prasarAvaze. mitranuM pratyeka kAma potAnuM kAma mAnI abhinnatAthI e kAryane suMdara rIte pUrNa karavA prayatna karaze. maitrIpUrNa manane bIjo paNa eka sahaja lAbha che. koInuM paNa koI kArya karavA chatAM ene kadI garva nahi Ave. koI enI prazaMsA karaze ke, 'tame to khUba karyuM' to e namrabhAve eTaluM ja kaheze : 'AmAM meM zuM karyuM che ? A to mAruM kartavya hatuM.' maitrI vinA AvI kartavyabhAvanA jAgatI nathI. ane suMdara kArya na karyAno anutApa paNa maitrI vinA saMbhavita nathI. 're, kevA mArA saMyoga ke AvuM suMdara kArya karavAno samaya hato; chatAM huM mArA pramAda ke azaktine kAraNe A kArya na karI zakyo.' vizvanA saMvAdamaya astitvano pAyo e maitrI che. ahiMsAnAM karuNAmaya tattvone A maitrIbhAva vinA koNa jIvaMta rAkhI zake tema che ? vera e to kAMTo che. e jyAM vAgyo hoya tyAM svasthatA na hoya. verathI bharelA cittavALo dharmasAdhanA karI na zake, ane kadAca koI saMjogomAM kare to e anuSThAna, e kriyAmAM maitrI na hovAthI emAM ene svasthatA na lAdhe, samAdhino lAbha na thAya, prasannatAno anubhava na thAya. surabhi vinAnA phUlanI jema e prasannatAno pamarATa na prasarAvI zake. mATe ja kahyuM che 'maicArimAvasaMyuntardharma: rIrtyate|' maitrI aMge paMDita omakAranAthajIe pUchelo eka prazna mane yAda Ave che. omakAranAthajI eka namatI sAMje mane maLavA AvyA, sAthe emanA zAgirda 64 * jIvana-mAMgalya -- --

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hatA. meM emane kahyuM : paMDitajI ! mAlakozamAM kaMIka na saMbhaLAvo ?" ane emaNe eka bhajana lalakAryuM. e padane emaNe aDadho kalAka ghUMTyuM. khaMDanuM vAtAvaraNa mAlakozanA sUramaya banI gayuM. saMgIta thaMlyuM, paNa vAtAvaraNamAM mAlakozanI koI ajaba chAyA prasarI gaI. paMDitajI kahe : "mahArAjazrI, mArI sAthe beThelA A gavaiyAmAMthI koI A khaMDamAM durgA gAya to huM pAMca hajAra rUpiyA hArI jAuM." meM pUchyuM, "ema kema ?" emaNe kahyuM : "rAganI eka gherI asara hoya che. saMpUrNa Aroha-avaroha sAthe pUrNa bharelA sUramAM evuM eka viziSTa vAtAvaraNa jAmI gayuM hoya che ke jemAM koI bIjo rAga gAI zakAya ja nahi; ane koI gavaiyo gAvA jAya to pharI e mAlakoza para ja AvIne Ubho rahe. rAganI A eka asara che. tyAre meM kahyuM : "paMDitajI ! rAganI jema asara che, tema vairAgyanI paNa eka asara che. bhagavAna mahAvIranI vairAgyamaya maitrInI evI eka asara hoya che ke emAM janmajAta vairI Ave topaNa e veranI asarane bhUlI jAya. sApa ane noLiyo, gAya ane vAgha, uMdara ane bilADI sAmasAmAM bese paNa verabhAva saMbhArI na zake. e vAtAvaraNamAM maitrInI eka evI karuNApUrvaka madhura asara hoya che ke tyAM vera TakI ja na zake." eka dIvAmAMthI hajAra dIvA pragaTe che, tema hRdayamaitrImAMthI vizvamaitrI pragaTe che. eka dANo vAvIe to emAMthI hajAro dANA Uge, tema ApaNA haiyAmAM maitrIno eka dANo hoya to emAMthI ja vizvamaitrInA aneka bhAva prasare. maitrI vinA kSamA nathI, ane kSamA vinA mukti nathI. maitrI Adi bhAvono maMgaLamaya prakAza ApaNAM anuSThAnonA aNuaNumAMthI pragaTo. jIvana-mAMgalya : 65

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+3+>&> >>>< ratanA tejasvI saMto hajAro varSathI (bhapotAnA jIvana dvArA AvuM kahetA AvyA che : 7. aSTaguNI vANI 'vacana-ratana mukha koTaDI, cUpa karI dIje tAla; gharAka hoya to kholiye, vANI vacana rasAla.' vacana e to ratna che. rAkhavAnI tijorI che. ratna kaMI jematema ane jyAMtyAM thoDAM rakhAya ? e to baMdha tijorImAM ja zobhe. paraMtu tijorI sadAkALa kaMI baMdha ochI rakhAya ? koI kharIdanAra ke sAro pArakhu Ave to tijorI kholavI ja paDe. paNa kholyA pachI to e ratno evI rIte saccAIthI batAvavA ke jonAranuM dila DolI UThe. 66 * jIvanamAMgalya mukha ene e vacana-ratnamAM priyatAnA pAsA hoya, hitacintanano AkAra hoya, satyanAM

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prakAzita kiraNo hoya, to jonAra paNa vAha vAha pokArI jAya ! huM kahuM chuM ke satya, tathya ne pathyathI bhareluM ApaNuM vacana hoya to, enI AgaLa kohInUra hIro paNa hisAbamAM nathI ! ghaNA vakhata pahelAM vANInA ATha guNo meM vAMcyA hatA. mane thayuM ke A ATha guNothI yukta ApaNAM vacana hoya to to A saMsAramAMya zAMtinuM svarga UbhuM thAya ! te ATha guNone huM ApanI AgaLa ahIM mUkuM chuM. vANIno pahelo guNa che madhuram. ApaNuM bolavuM evuM hovuM joIe ke jemAMthI madhuratA Tapake, mIThAza jhare, vANImAMthI sauMdarya nItare. sAMbhaLanAranA kAna paNa e priya vacana pharI pharI sAMbhaLavA talase. vAta ekanI eka ja hoya, paNa eka mANasa evI mIThAzathI ane khUbIthI 2jU kare ke sAMbhaLanAra AnaMdathI DolI jAya; jyAre enI e ja vAta bIjo evA kaTu zabdamAM mUke ke sAMbhaLanAra hasato hoya toya raDI paDe. madhura zabdomAM mAtAne kahyuM hoya ke : 'kema cho mArI mA ?' to mAtA khuza thaIne kaheze ke Avane mArA bhA.' paNa ja vAta kaTu zabdamAM kahI hoya ke : 'kema cho mArA bApanI vahu ?' to uttara maLaze, 'tAruM kALajuM khauM ?' zabdomAM kevo jAdu che ? eka ja vAta rajU karavAmAM paNa keTaluM aMtara ? kavie kahyuM che : 'zabada zabada tUM kyA kare ? zabadako hAtha na pAMva; eka zabada auSadha kare, eka zabada kare thAva.' zabdane hAtha ke paga bhale nathI, paNa enAmAM evI tAkAta che ke suMdara rIte eno upayoga thayo hoya to e dAjhelA haiyAnA ghA para malamapaTTAnuM kAma kare, paNa e ja zabda aghaDa rIte vAparyo hoya to koInA dilamAM na hoya toya jakhama Ubho kare. eTalA mATe ApaNI vANI madhura hovI joIe. madhuratAnuM to samajyA, paNa madhuratAnA nAme khuzAmata AvI jAya to ? to to julama thAya. e vANI ja patananuM sAdhana bane. na bolavAne ThekANe bole, ane bolavAne ThekANe mauna thaI jAya to kevuM ayogya thAya ? eTale vANIno bIjo guNa che, nipunam. vacana jema madhura hoya tema sAthosAtha nipuNa paNa hovuM joIe. jenI jIvana-mAMgalya * 67

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vANImAM nipuNatA hoya te khoTI khuzAmata kare nahi. koInI khoTI zemAM taNAya nahi ane koI banAvavA Ave to yogya avasare ene cetavyA vinA paNa rahe nahi. eka phUlaNajI pati vAraMvAra potAnI patnI AgaLa potAnA kuLa, jAti, gaurava ane kuTuMbanAM vakhANa karato. AthI strI kaMTALI jatI. eka vAra patie pUchyuM : "mArAM sagAMo para tAro prema kevo che ?' zabdomAM nipuNa patnIe uttara vALyo : "prANanAtha ! ApanAM sagAMo para mAro prema kAM na hoya ? huM to mArI sAsa karatAMya ApanI sAsane vadhAre cAhuM chuM !' A madhura chatAM nipuNa uttara sAMbhaLyA pachI enA patine thaI gayuM ke ahIMthI khoTI baDAI ke khuzAmata sAMbhaLavA nahi maLe. A uttaramAM madhuratA ne nipuNatAnuM saMmizraNa che. - trIjo guNa che : stot stoka eTale thoDuM. bolavuM kharuM, paNa thoDuM bolavuM. jarUra pUratuM ja bolavuM. bahu bola bola karanAranA vacananI kiMmata hotI nathI. bahu bhASaNo karanAra, jyAM tyAM ne jyAre tyAre zikhAmaNa denAra vAcALamAM khapI jAya che. enA para lokone vizvAsa besato nathI. e bole to loko ene zAntithI sAMbhaLe nahi; ane sAMbhaLe to enA para zraddhA bese nahi, mATe thoDuM bolavuM. jarUra paDe tyAre jarUra jeTaluM ja bolavuM, ane thoDA zabdomAM ghaNuM kahetAM zIkhavuM. eka prasaMga mane yAda Ave che. muMbaImAM pU. AgamoddhAraka AcArya mahArAja sAgarAnandasUrIzvarajI mahArAjane vaMdana karavA eka gRhastha AvyA hatA. be mALa caDhIne pelA bhAI upara AvyA. AvanAranuM zarIra jarA bhAre hatuM. e hAMphI gayA. vaMdana karyA pachI smita karI kahyuM : "sAheba, Apa to bahu ja UMce birAjo cho !" mahArAjazrIe smita karI mArmika uttara vALyo : "hA bhAI ! ame UMce chIe eTale ja to tame vaMdanA karavA Avo cho !" 68 * jIvana-mAMgalya WWW.jainelibrary.org.

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A vAkyamAM Sa hato. ame saddaguNanA siMhAsana para chIe eTale tame vaMdanA karo cho. saddaguNo na hoya to ahIM koNa Ave ? A TUMkA uttarathI paNa ApaNuM mana AnaMda pAme che; kAraNa ke, A uttaramAM madhuratA, nipuNatA ne alpatAnuM sapramANa saMmizraNa che ! patitam - cotho guNa te khAsa kaMI kArya hoya to ja bolavuM, nahi to mauna rahevuM. maunathI vANInuM mUlya vadhe che. maunathI vANImAM ciMtana Ave che. maunathI vacanamAM teja Ave che, ane mauna pachI pragaTelI vANImAM koI ajaba jusso hoya che. evI vANI sAMbhaLavA ghaNAM haiyAM talasatAM hoya che. pAzcAtya paddhatine kAraNe Aje keTalAka loko, koI ThekANe khANuM le toya bhASaNa jhIMke. raziyAmAM sTelina jarUra vagara kadI na bole. enuM pariNAma e AvyuM ke ApaNA AgevAnone sAMbhaLavA koI taiyAra nahotA thatA, tyAre sTelina kyAre zuM bolaze e mATe loko sAMbhaLavA talasI nathI rahetA ! mATe kArya vinA nakAmI vAta na karavI. vyavahAramAM paNa ApaNane ghaNA mANaso evA jovA maLe che ke, jemane bolavAnuM na maLe to Apharo che ! bole tyAre ja jIvane jaMpa vaLe ane cittane cena paDe. e bole tyAre enI vAtamAM na hoya mAthuM ke na hoya paga. jema Ave tema ADedhaDe pheMkye rAkhe ! aMte sAMbhaLanAranA manamAM thAya ke A balA ahIMthI kyAre vidAya thAya ? mATe jarUra pUratuM bolavuM. garvaditama - ApaNI vANI garvavihoNI hovI joIe. A che pAMcamo guNa. vAtavAtamAM ApabaDAI karavI, potAnI ja vAta AgaLa dharavI, pote zuM karyuM ane zuM nathI karyuM enuM laMbANathI vivecana karavuM -- A badhuM abhimAnanuM sUcaka che. jyAre mANasa ApabaDAI karato hoya che tyAre vivekI sAMbhaLanAra enA para manamAM hasato hoya che, paNa jAtaprazaMsAmAM paDelA mANasane e sAme dhyAna hotuM nathI. potAnI prazaMsAmAM paDelo mANasa vivekazakti khoI beTho hoya che, ane avivekI mANasa sAmA mANasane samajavA jeTalo zaktizALI kyAMthI thAya ? abhimAnI mANasa kevo vivekazUnya bane che teno tamane eka dAkhalo ApuM. dAdAbhAI navarojajI iMglenDamAM eka vAra tyAMnA umarAvo sAthe khANuM letA hatA. sArA sArA buddhizALI mANasoe e prasaMge hAjarI ApI hatI. vAta vAtamAM eka vAta upara jarA vadhAre paDatI carcA thaI. dAdAbhAIe emAM jIvana-mAMgalya : 69

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potAno mata darzAvyo. tyAM beThelAM eka bAjue abhimAnabharyA zabdomAM TIkA $edi sei : 'What these ugly and black Indians can understand about it ?' (kadarUpA ane kALA hindustAnIo A bAbatamAM zuM samaje ?). A sAMbhaLI dAdAbhAI navarojajIe khIsAmAMthI ArasI kADhI, e bAnanA mukha AgaLa dharI namratAthI kahyuM : "You can see your face in it' (tame tamAruM moTuM AmAM joI zako cho. kAraNa ke, A strInA mukha karatAM potAnuM ujvaLa ne pratibhAsaMpanna mukha ja enI kALAza ne kadarUpatA puravAra karavA pUratuM hatuM. AthI sau hasI paDyAM. vivekI mANase to kAma ja evuM karavuM joIe ke jethI enuM kAma ja enI prazaMsA kare. mANasane potAne to bolavAnI jarUra na paDe. abhimAna karatAM namratApUrvaka mUkavAmAM AvelI vAtane loko zAntithI sAMbhaLe che. bolanAra namra rIte bolato hoya to enA pratye lokone sahAnubhUti pragaTe che, ane bolanAranA zabdo sAmAnA haiyAmAM soMsarA UtarI jAya che. namra vANI e vAcAno alaMkAra che. chaThTho guNa che tuccham - vANI tuccha na hovI joIe. vANImAM prauDhatA, gaMbhIratA ane sahRdayatA hovI joIe. Aja ApaNAM gharomAM kevI tuccha vANI bolAI rahI che ? gALo, tochaDAI ne asabhyatAthI chalakAtAM AjanAM gharo jouM chuM tyAre hRdayane kSobha thAya che. ucca kahevAtA mANasonAM gharo paNa Aja kevAM saMskArahIna banatAM jAya che ? AryAvartanAM gharomAM patnI patine "Aryaputra", "deva', "nAtha" kahIne saMbodhatI ane pati patnIne "devI" kahIne saMbodhato. ene badale tochaDAIbharyA ayogya saMbodhanothI Aje gRho gAjI rahyAM che. bApa dIkarAne khoLAmAM besADI ramADato hoya ane bALakane ramADatAM ramADatAM lADamAM bApa kahe che : "mAro sAro bahu tophAnI." huM ene pUchuM chuM ke, "bhAI ! A chokaro tAro sALo kyAre thayo ? kaI rIte thayo ?' tyAre kaheze ke, "huM to amasto ja boluM chuM. Ama bolAya che !" paNa pote zuM bole che enuM ene bhAna nathI. chokarAnA kAnamAM grAmINatAnuM kevuM jhera reDAyA che eno ene khyAla nathI. chokarI pANInuM beDuM bharIne AvatI hoya ane Thokara vAge ne beDuM phUTI jAya to mA e dIkarIne kevA halakA ne tuccha zabdothI Thapako ApavAnI 70 : jIvana-mAMgalya

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zarUAta kare che ? huM e nahi kahuM. tame ja kaho. have tame nahi kaho toya cAlaze; manamAM sau samaje che. mULa vAta to e che ke, ApaNA zabdomAM tucchatA vadhI gaI che. Aja sudharelA mANaso paNa kevuM tuccha bole che, te A praznottara parathI samajAze. eka zeThe noka2ne tucchatAthI kahyuM : sAlA ! tArAmAM jarAya akkala nathI.' nokare namratAthI uttara vALyo : 'vAta sAcI che, zeTha ! mArAmAM akkala nathI ja. mArAmAM akkala hota to huM tamAre tyAM nokarI na karata, paNa tamane ja mAre tyAM nokarImAM na rAkhata !' bolo, AmAM bolanAre zuM sAra kADhyo ? enA karatAM tuccha-halakAM vacano na uccAryAM hota to kevuM mAna jaLavAI raheta ! tuccha vANIthI mitra hoya toya zatru thAya, jyAre atuccha ane sabhyatAbharyA priya vArtAlApathI zatru hoya toya mitra thaI jAya. - sAtamo guNa che pUrvasaMtitam - je bolavuM te saMkalanApUrvaka ne pUratuM vicArIne bolavuM. vicAranA gaLaNAthI gALIne kADheluM vacana atiramaNIya hoya che, ane bolelA vacanane phe2vavAno prasaMga Avato nathI. bolatAM pahelAM vicAra karavo ke A sthAnamAM A bolavA jevuM che ke nahi ? A bolIza to tenuM pariNAma zuM Avaze ? mArA bolavAno zo uddeza che ? ane je boluM chuM tenI keTalI asara thaze ? A rIte pahelAM vyavasthita karIne ke vicAra karIne uccArela vAkya dhArI asara karI jAya. are ! evuM vacana to ratna karatAMya vadhI jAya. 'zabada sarIkhA dhana nahi, jo koI jAne bola, hIrA to dAme mile, zabada nava maLe mola !' eka kavi kahe che ke : bolatAM AvaDe to vacananuM teja hIrAnA tejaneya jhAMkhuM pADe. paNa zarata eTalI ke vicArIne bolavuM. A rIte vicArIne bolanAranI vANImAM adharma to hoya ja kyAMthI ? eTale vANIno AThamo guNa che dharmasaMyutttat ApaNI vANImAM dharma hovo joIe. vANI e pavitra vastu che, IzvaranA jeTalI ja pAvana che. eno durupayoga kema thAya ? tamArI vANI Aje pavitra che kharI ? tame zabdane brahma jANI uccAro cho ? tamArI vANImAM niMdA, dhikkAra, tiraskAra ke pakSapAta hoya to tamArI vANI pavitra kaI rIte jIvana-mAMgalya * 71

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gaNAya ? dharmayukta kaI rIte manAya ? tamane koI sAmo maLe to enI prazaMsA karo, enAM guNagAna karo, enI vAhavAha pokAro, ane enA gayA pachI tarata enI khodaNI cAlu karo e kyAMno nyAya ? koInAya na joyelA ke na jANelA doSonuM varNana karavuM, emAM rasa levo, emAM saMmati ApavI, A badho vANIno vyabhicAra nathI ? Aja koI be mitro maLe to gAmanI niMdA kare. emAM koI trIjo bhaLe to e paNa e bemAM bhaLI nindaka-maMDaLa vadhAre. ema karatAM e traNamAMthI eka cAlyo jAya to, tarata e banne bhegA thaI, janAranI niMdA karavA maMDI paDavAnA. A te kevI vANI ? arere ! zuM vANI A mATe maLI che ? Ama jo adharmayukta vANIno vyApAra cAlaze to, pachI mANasanA vacana para vizvAsa koNa karaze ? prAjJa puruSa to Avo vANIvilAsa sAMbhaLI samajI jAya ke je mANasa bIjAnI gerahAjarImAM enI niMdA kare che, te mArI gerahAjarImAM mArI niMdA kema nahi kare ? Avo DahApaNabharyo vicAra karanAra mANasa AvAono mitra rahe kharo ? AvA mANasane koI sAro mANasa dhArI nyAya toLavA besADe to e nyAya paNa kevo Ape ? enI vANImAMthI e ja nIkaLe ke, mAruM mArA bApanuM, ne tAruM-mAruM sahiyAruM ! dharmayukta vANI kone kahevAya ane dharmayukta vANIvALo mANasa kevo niSpakSapAtI ane nIDara hoya, teno eka suMdara dAkhalo itihAsamAM che. eka rAjA dhanurvidyA zIkhato hato. rAjAnA hAthathI ajANatAM eka bANa chUTuM ane eka nirdoSa mANasane vAgatAM e ghAyala thayo. ghAyalanI mAtAe AnI phariyAda tyAMnA vaDA nyAyAdhIza pAse karI. te jamAnAmAM rAjyanuM rakSaNa jema kSatriyonA hAthamAM hatuM tema, nyAya ane prajAnI salAmatInuM khAtuM prAmANika evA dharmAdhikArInA hAthamAM hatuM. ane e dharmAdhikArI puruSa vaDA-nyAyAdhIza gaNAtA. nyAyane vaphAdAra evA nyAyAdhIze rAjAne nyAyAlayamAM hAjara thavAno AjJApatra mokalyo. rAjA Avyo tyAre ucca sthAna para besADavAne badale gunegAranA pAMjarAmAM UbhA rahevAnI sUcanA karI. A dazya sau joI ja rahyA. rAjAe potAno guno kabUla karyo. eNe amuka daMDa karI rAjAne mukta karyo, ane pachI nyAyAlayanI bahAra AvI 72 * jIvana-mAMgalyA

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nyAyAdhIze ati namratAthI rAjAne namana karyuM. AthI rAjA khUba prasanna thayA, ane pote saMtADI rAkhela nAnI talavAra batAvatAM kahyuM : 'nyAyAlayanA AjJApatrane mAna ApI huM adAlatamAM hAjara thayo, paNa mane ema lAgyuM hota ke dharma ne nyAyathI tamArI vANI vegaLI che, to ahIM ne ahIM ja A talavArathI tamAro ziraccheda karI nAkhata. paNa dharma ne nyAyamaya tamArI vANIthI mane AnaMda thAya che, ne tamArA jevA nyAyAdhIzane lIdhe huM garva lauM chuM ke mArA rAjyamAM rAjA karatAMya nyAyane prathama mAna ApanArA dharmaniSTha nyAyAdhIza che !' te ja ghaDIe pote jhabhbhAmAM saMtADI rAkhelI soTI batAvatAM nyAyAdhIze kahyuM : 'rAjana ! sAruM thayuM ke tame adAlatanA Adezane mAna ApyuM ane mAro nyAya mAnya rAkhyo, nahi to huM sogana khAIne kahuM chuM ke, tame jo nyAyane Thokara mArI hota to, huM A soTIthI ahIM ne ahIM ja tamArA baraDAnI barAbara khabara laI leta. sAruM thayuM ke ApaNane baMnene prabhukRpAthI sadbuddhi sUjhI !' vAha, A kevo nyAya ? kevI dharmamaya vANI ? A prasaMga zuM kahe che ? ApaNI vANImAM dharma, nyAya, satya ane pAvitrya joIe. koIneya ApaNI vANIthI anyAya na thaI jAya evI kALajI rAkhI vaktRtva karanArA keTalA ? AvA vicAraka vaktA hoya to prajAmAM keTalI zAMti ne kalyANakAmanA hoya ? eTale A ATha guNothI yukta vANI bole te vaktA, nahi to pachI baktA-labADa ! mAtra bhASaNa sAruM karI jAya, vANI zuddha bolI jAya, eTalAmAtrathI jJAnIo ene vaktA nathI kahetA. ema to kAzImAM evAya keTalAka vidvAno hoya che, je bolavAmAM vyAkaraNanI eka azuddhi Ave to, jIbha kApavA hAthamAM cappu laIne beThA hoya. paNa e ja paMDito gaMgAnA ghATa para jAya tyAre gAyatrIno jApa karatA jAya ne mAchaluM dekhAya to loTAmAM nAMkhatA jAya. emane pUcho ke A loTAmAM zuM che ? to kaheze : jaLaDoDI. AvA mAtra vAcALa paMDito potAnuM ke enA samAgamamAM AvanAranuM zuM kalyANa kare ? evI ja hAlata che AjanI vidyApIThonA snAtakonI ! jJAnano A vANIvilAsa janakalyANa mATe nathI vadhyo, paNa lokone chetaravA mATe ane abhaNone AMjavA mATe vadhyo che. eTale Aje mANasa vANIno upayoga jIvana-mAMgalya 73

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potAnA vicArone vyakta karavA mATe nahi, paNa potAnA vicArone chupAvavA mATe karI rahyo che. mANasanI vANImAM satya na hoya ane jUTha hoya to enI bIjI sajA to thavAnI hoya tyAre thAya, paNa pratyakSa sajA to e maLe ke -- e sAcuM bolato hoya tyAre paNa loko ene khoTuM mAne che ! e sogana khAIne kaheto hoya toya enA vacana para lokone vizvAsa na bese ! mATe vANI pavitra hovI joIe ane e vANIne pavitra rAkhavA mATe tIvra tapa joIe. jema AcArane zuddha rAkhavA mATe tapa, vicArone zuddha ne svastha rAkhavA mATe tapa, tema uccArane zuddha ne pavitra rAkhavA mATe paNa vANInuM tapa karavuM joIe. anuDhegakaraM vAkyaM satyaM priyAhitaM ca yat / svAdhyAyAbhyasanaM caiva, vAGmayaM tapa ucyte|| vANI evI hoya ke sAMbhaLanArane uga na thAya, satya chatAM madhura ne hitakara hoya, UMDA ciMtana ane abhyAsamAMthI pragaTelI hoya -- A che vANInuM tapa ! AvA tapathI mANasa sAco mANasa bane che. tapa vinAnI, ciMtana vinAnI, abhyAsa vinAnI karkaza vANI to pazuo paNa bolI zake che. emAM mANasa bolIne zuM vadhAre kare che ? A huM ekalo ja nathI kaheto ho ! gItA paNa kahe che : mANasanI vANI pAchaLa tapazcaryA hoya. tapazcaryAvihoNI vANI to pazunI hoya ! eka jUnA vakhatanI vAta che. tyAre mANaso ATalA cAlAka ne jUThAbolA nahotA, paNa bhadra ne sAcAbolA hatA. te vakhate eka gRhasthane tyAM saMta padhAryA. paNa A gharanAM mAlika-strIpuruSa-bahArathI ghaNAM suMdara ne bhalAM lAgatAM hatAM paNa aMdarathI sAva ja kadarUpAM ne beDoLa ! eka mahinAnA paricayathI saMta trAsI gayA. e gharamAM satya, ciMtana, svAdhyAya, madhuratA kaMI ja na maLe. ekalA bAhya vaibhavanA ADaMbarano kolAhala hato. saMte mahinA pachI vidAya vakhate AzIrvAda ApatAM kahyuM : "mANasa banajo !" puruSa dhamAliyo hato. eNe A vAkya para jarAya vicAra na karyo, paNa enI cAlAka strI bhAre cakora hatI. 74 : jIvana-mAMgalya

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e badhuM pAmI gaI. eNe patine pUchyuM : "zuM ApaNe mANasa nathI ? zuM Dhora chIe ? mANasa banajo" ema saMte zA mATe kahyuM ?' A sAMbhaLI puruSane paNa jarA vicAra Avyo. vAta sAcI hatI. saMte Ama kema kahyuM ? eNe manamAM gAMTha vALI ke e pharI maLaze tyAre pUchIza. koI paNa vacana para UMDANathI vicAra karIe to ja vaktAnI vANIno mahimA samajAya, nahi to zravaNa mAtra eka vyasana banI jAya. vyasananI pravRtti mANasa kare kharo, paNa emAMthI prakAza na meLave. prakAza to UMDA ciMtana pachI ja maLe. be varSa pachI pharI saMta padhAryA tyAre pelI strIe pUchayuM : mahArAja ! "mANasa thajo' eno artha zuM ? zuM ame Dhora chIe ?' saMte potAnI pAse eka kAca hato te ApatAM kahyuM : 'lo A kAca. A evo addabhuta kAca che ke enA uparanA bhAgamAM jozo to tame mANasa dekhAzo ane aMdaranA bhAgamAM jozo to tame je cho te dekhAzo." strIe kAcanA aMdaranA bhAgamAM joyuM ne camakI UThI. patie pUchayuM : "kAM ?" strIe bhaDakIne kahyuM : "o bApa re ! huM to AmAM kUtarI dekhAuM chuM, ane zerInA nAkA para UbhI rahIne bhasI rahI chuM. hAya re.... huM kUtarI ?" utAvaLiyA puruSe kahyuM : "Ama lAva; mane jovA de." potAnI jAtane jotAM ja rADa pADI : "are, A zuM ? huM gadheDo ? ukaraDA upara ubhA rahI bhUkanAra huM gadarbha ? are, mahArAja ! julama karyo ! tame amane Ama janAvara kAM banAvo ?" saMte kahyuM : "bhalA mANaso ! AmAM huM zuM karuM ? tame je rIte jIvo cho tevA AmAM dekhAo cho ! mANasa bahArano AkAra game te meLavI zake, paNa aMdara kUtarA jevo che ke mANasa jevo, te ja kharo prazna che. je manathI satyane pUjato nathI, satyane uccArato nathI, satyane Acarato nathI ane jenAM mana ne vAcAno meLa nathI te manuSya hovA chatAM paNa che. te bhASaNa karato nathI paNa bhase che; bolato nathI paNa bake che !' A lekhano viSaya che vANInA tapanI vicAraNA. jIvana gaMbhIra vicAraNA mAge che. bahAra game te ho, huM e aMge kaMI jANavA nathI mAgato. jIvana-mAMgalya * 75

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tame aMdara Avo, aMdara tame koNa cho te mane kaho. satyano jhabhbho to paheryo, paNa e jhabhbhA nIce zuM che te mane kahezo ? bolo, mArA bhAIo, bolo ! Aja nahi bolo to pachI kyAre bolazo ? mana ne vANIno sumeLa che ke kumeLa ? mana ne vANIe ApaNA jIvanane saMgItamaya banAvyuM che ke besUruM ? jIvanamAM zuM che AnaMda ke aphasosa ? - koIne gUmaDA thayAM hoya ane bhAre koTa paherIne pharato hoya to kone khabara paDe ke A kapaDAM nIce gUmaDAM khadabadI rahyAM che ? gUmaDAM bhale bahAra na dekhAya, paNa aMdara to pIDA pahoMcADe ne khaMjavALa UpaDe ne ? lohI nIkaLe ne ? tamane koI divasa asatyanuM gUmaDuM khaTake che kharuM ? enI pIDA thAya che kharI ? asatyanI pIDA jarAya nathI thatI ? kaMI nahi. Aja nahi thAya to maratI vakhate A citro najara sAme khaDAM thaze. bhUtAvaLanI jema nAcyAM ka2ze ane asatyavAdIne mUMjhavI mAraze. paNa jo ApaNA jIvanamAM satyano sUrya camakato haze to aMdhakArano jarAya bhaya nahi rahe. ApaNe koI nAnakaDI vastu khoI besIe chIe tyAre keTalo badho aphasosa thAya che ? eka rUpiyo khovAI gayo hoya to keTalo badho aphasosa thAya che ? paNa Aje ApaNo AtmA Akho ne Akho asatyamAM khovAI gayo che, eno jarAya vicAra Avato nathI. A kevuM moTuM Azcarya che ! AjakAla keTalAka bhoLA mANaso Ave che ane kahe che : kaMIka maMtra batAvo, kaMIka siddha thAya evo jApa dekhADo. Apane vacanasiddhi AvaDe che.' huM kahuM chuM ke : 'are, bhoLA jIvo ! Ama bhrAntimAM khoTAM kAM bhamo cho ? priya, pathya ane satya e vacanasiddhino maMtra che ! satyanA prakAzathI jhaLahaLatuM sumadhura hitavacana e rAmabANa che; e aphara che. jene e vAge te vidhAyA vinA na rahe. e vacana jenA dilamAM pese tyAM prakAzanA dIvaDA pragaTe !' A lekha samApta karatAM eTaluM ja kahyuM ke, satyavAdI bhavet va / sAco vaktA te che ke jenI vANImAMthI satyano prakAza jhare che ! Not only with our lips but from our lives too * ekalA hoThamAMthI nIkaLatA zabdothI nahi, paNa ApaNA jIvanamAMthI pragaTatA satyanA tejathI ApaNI vANIne raMgI sAcA vaktA banIe ! 76 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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8. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! - ratabharamAM Ajano divasa judI judI rIte UjavAI rahyo che. che tyAgI mahAtmAo sAdhanA, svAdhyAya, je ciMtana ane sevA - A cAra kAryo cAra 2 mahinA sudhI eka sthaLe pUrNa karI, bIjA gAma prati prayANa karavAnI prabhAtathI ja taiyArI karatA haze. eTale eka rIte cAra huM mahinA sudhI eka ThekANe rahelA tapa ane tyAganI mUrti jevA A saMto, Aje nadInA pravAhanI jema judA judA kSetrane - pallavita karavA nIkaLI paDaze. vaLI AjanA divase, hajAro premI che hRdayane preraNA ApatuM bhAratavarSanuM ajoDa A tIrtha zatruMjaya bhAvika AtmAone bolAvI rahyuM che. ApaNe jema ahIM pAMca mALa 1 caDyA tema tyAM AgaLa traNa mAIla UMco ApaNo je girirAja che te, utsAhathI caDatAM vRddho ane thAkelA mANasone baLa ApI rahyo che. A dazya atyAre mArI sAme AvI UbhuM che. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! 79

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bhagavAna hemacaMdrAcArya mahArAja, jemaNe bhAratavarSamAM ahiMsAnI jyoti jagAvI ane kumArapALa ane siddharAja jevA samartha rAjavIonA mArgadarzaka ane preraNAmUrti banyA, temano Aje janmadina paNa che. guru banavuM to sahela che paNa ziSyanA AtmAno uddhAra karavo, enA AtmAne uThAvI levo; UMce caDAvavo e kAma kaThina che. evA prakAranA je thoDA ghaNA gaNyAgAMThyA guru thayA temAM kalikAlasarvajJa bhagavAna hemacaMdrAcAryanuM nAma prathama che. e mahAprabhAvaka kalikAlasarvajJa bhagavAna hemacaMdrAcArya eka ThekANe lakhe che : "mANasanA jIvanano hetu zo che ? A saMsAramAM ApaNe badhA AvyA ane jIvana jIvyA, paNa eno hetu zo ?" savAre UThIe tyArathI sAMja sudhI ApaNI doDa cAle che. je lokonI pAse vadhAre vegavAna vAhana che, ane vadhAre doTa lagAvI jANe che e loko samAjamAM vadhAre bhAgyazALI dekhAya che. eka bhAIe eka zrImaMtanI oLakha ApatAM kahyuM, "A bhAI koNa che te tamane khabara che ?" meM kahyuM, "huM kyAMthI jANuM ?" "temanI pAse be to helikopTara che," ema kahIne emaNe mane emanI oLakhANa ApI. meM pUchyuM, "zA mATe ?" e kahe, "ame jema be moTara rAkhIe chIe tema A bhAI pAse be helikopTara che, ane jyAre kyAMya javuM hoya tyAre helikopTaramAM ja jAya che, kAraNa ke emane TAimanI bahu kiMmata che." meM pUchyuM, "bhAI, tame samaya bacAvo cho paNa e samaya bacAvIne zuM karo cho ?" to kahe, "keTalA udyogo calAvavA paDe che, keTalAM kArakhAnAMo . che, keTalI oNphisomAM dhyAna parovavuM paDe che ! pravRtti eTalI che ke jIvavAnI ke maravAnI phurasada nathI." vicAratAM vicAratAM meM pUchyuM, "rAtanA tamane UMgha to zAMtithI AvatI ja haze ne ?" are, UMgha kevI ? e mATe to UMghavAnI goLIo levI paDe che." tyAre mane thayuM ke suMdaramAM suMdara babbe helikopTara rAkhanAra mANasane UMgha levA mATe davAnI madada levI paDe, davAne Teke jIvavuM paDe enA jevo 80 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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parAdhIna ane duHkhI mANasa bIjo koNa hoI zake ? Aja sudhI saMsAramAM mAnavInAM mUlyo mAtra Arthika dRSTie ja karAyAM che, paNa have vicArako ane ciMtako tarapha mANaso vaLavA lAgyA che. mANasanA jIvanamAM mANasane potAne jo zAMti na maLe, mANasa ozIkA upara mAthuM mUke ane jo UMgha na Ave, to A badhAno artha zo ? mANasa samAdhimaya zAMtino sparza jo na pAmI zakato hoya to samagra jIvanano prayatna mAtra pANI valovavA jevo niSphaLa che. ghaNI vAra ema paNa dekhAya che ke retImAM ghara bAMdhIne bALako jyAre sAMja thAya che tyAre 'A mAruM ghara ne te tAruM ghara' kahIne laDatAM hoya che; moTAo paNa AvuM ja karatA hoya che. bALakonA kajiyA retInA ghara mATe che; moTAonA jhaghaDA IMTonA makAna mATe che. baMne laDe che nAzavaMta vastuo mATe. mANaso Ama laDyA ja kare to mANase A bhUmimAM thaI gayelA ATaATalA mahApuruSo pAsethI meLavyuM zuM ? ATalAM varSomAM keLavyuM zuM ? bahA2nA loko adhyAtmanI tRSA chipAvavA ahIM Ave che. e samaje che ke bhAratamAM AdhyAtmika amRta che; jeno eka pyAlo pIvAthI AtmAne amaratva prApta thAya che. A eka amerikana bhAI to tamArI sAthe ja beThA che. e vanaspatyAhArI che e jANI tamane bahu AnaMda thaze. ane vadhu AnaMdita thavA jevI vAta to e che ke e vanaspatyAhArI to che, paNa AgaLa vadhIne e dUdha ane mAkhaNa paNa letA nathI. emanI jyAre mane oLakhANa ApI tyAre meM kahyuM ke, "one step ahead eka pagaluM tame AgaLa vadhelA cho.'' e kahe che, "gAyanuM dUdha laIne enA vacherAne mAre juduM pADI, ene bhUkhyuM nathI rAkhavuM." AvI sUkSma ahiMsAthI ene jIvana jIvavuM che. je amerikA tarapha ApaNA hajAro juvAnonI AMkha che, je amerikA javAnA vIjhA meLavavA mATe ADIavaLI rIta ajamAvI, bhagavAnanA sogana khAvA hoya to te khAIne paNa, vIjhA meLavavA taiyAra che; jyAre amerikAno tyAga karIne A mANaso ahIM AvI rahyA che. zA mATe AvI rahyA che ? teo mAne che ke bhAratabhUmimAM koI evI mahAna vastu che, evI saMjIvanI che, koIka evuM amRta che ke jeno mAtra eka pyAlo pIvAmAM Ave to mAnava amara banI jAya ne janma-maraNanA pherA TaLI jAya. saMskRtinuM je ghara kahevAya, samarpaNanI saMskRtinuM je janmasthAna kahevAya, e ja bhagavaMtonI janmabhUmi parathI Aje saMskRti keTalI jhaDapathI dhovAI rahI che, bhUMsAI rahI - pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 81

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che, bhulAI rahI che ! ApaNe vicAravAnuM che ke mANasanuM jIvana parama zAMtinI zodha mATe che, mANasanI jIvanayAtrA te pUrNa prati prayANa che. mANasathI A na banI zake, ke mANasAIno pUrNa anubhava na meLavI zakAya, to huM tamane kahIza ke jIvana nirarthaka che - ekaso ne eka TakA nirarthaka che. jiMdagIno vijaya zenA upara AdhArita che ? bAhya vastu para ke aMdaranAM tattvonAM saMzodhana para ? mANasamAM rahelAM enAM niyAmaka tattvone traNa bhAgamAM vaheMcI zakAya ane te pramANe mANasano vikAsakrama vicArI zakAya. keTalAka mANaso vRttipradhAna che, keTalAka mANaso vicArapradhAna che ane keTalAka mANaso vivekapradhAna che. je vRttipradhAna mANaso che, e loko vRttinI doDamAM doDI rahyA che. vRttino Avega Avyo ane AhAra, nidrA, bhaya, maithuna karI lIdhuM. tenA mATe ene koI ja vicAra nathI. e vRttinA prerelA nazAmAM mANasa pote potAne ja bhUlI jAya che; e vRttionA pravAhamAM taNAto hoya che. A vibhAgamAM mAtra vRttio upara ja jIvanAro varga che. A vargane bIjo koI ja vicAra nathI. vRttiothI prerAIne vRttione adhIna banIne e jyAre vRttionI icchAne pUrNa kare che tyAre e mAne che ke eNe cakravartInuM sukha bhogavI lIdhuM. A vRttipradhAna jIvana te pazutA che. pazuonI vRtti evI hoya che ke bhUkha lAgI eTale khAI le, tarasa lAgI to pANI pI le, kAma jAge eTale pUrNa karI le. UMgha AvI to cAlatAM ke beThAM paNa UMdhI le. TUMkamAM Avega agara vRttionA eka jabarajasta humalA sAthe icchA pUrNa karI le. AvA vargane pazutApradhAna kahI zakAya. enA pachI bIjo varga Ave che; vicArapradhAna. vicArapradhAnamAM vRtti to che ja, paNa nirNaya karI zakato nathI ke zuM karuM. kadIka vRtti jAge che ane vicAra Ave che : "nA, mAre A nathI karavuM." kadIka vaLI ema thAya : "karI lauM." e vicAromAM che; nirNaya karI zakato nathI. enAmAM mANasanuM jarAka darzana thAya che. e bhUla kare che, paNa bhUla karavA chatAM tene lAge che ke A bhUla karavA jevI nathI. te jUThuM bole che, paNa jUThuM bolyA pachI vicAra kare che ke jUThuM bolavuM kharAba che. pote ema icche ke A vAraso mArAM saMtAnone na maLe to sAruM. e dArU pIto hovA chatAM ema mAne che ke mAro dIkaro dArU na pIe. eTale "nathI pIvo' e "vicAra" che ne "pIdhA vinA cAlatuM nathI" 82 ja jIvana-mAMgalya

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e "vRtti" che. vRtti ane vicAra vaccenuM gharSaNa e mANasanA jIvanamAM thoDIka mAnavatAnI havA lAve che, paNa pazutA ene choDatI nathI. samAjamAM AvA mANasonuM ApaNane ghaNI vAra darzana thAya che, je vRttione dabAvI pazutAnA starathI upara AvyA hoya che. chatAM temanA hRdayanA UMDANamAM satata evuM kaMIka nirbaLa vahetuM ja hoya che ke je emane cokkasa ke nirNata thavA nathI detuM. AvA mANasomAM mAnavatAnI suvAsa kadIka mahekI paNa UThe, vaLI kadIka badabo paNa UchaLI paDe. AvA mANaso prArthanA kare che, "he bhagavAna ! mane prakAza Apa. aMdhakAramAMthI bahAra kADha. asatyamAMthI satya upara uThAva. nimnamAMthI unnata prati laI jA." ahIM prArthanA che paNa prayatna nathI. jenI aMdara prArthanA che paNa prayatna nathI evI je avasthA che, te vicArapradhAna pravAhI avasthA che - anizcita vicAronI avasthA che. trIjo eka varga che, jemAM vRtti nahi, vicAra nahi, paNa viveka che. ane viveka e prabhutA che. tame kArya karo tyAre viveka dIpaka ghare to jANavuM ke A ja prabhutA che, prabhu have dUra nathI. eka AcArye ThIka ja kahyuM che, "kAttA ane kanakanA pAtaLA dorAthI AkhuMya vizva baMdhAyeluM che, paNa je mANasanuM mana vivekathI e baMnemAM virakta che, te be bhujAvALo paramezvara che." jemAM viveka che, jenuM mAthuM pralobhano sAme namatuM nathI, jenuM hRdaya lobhAtuM nathI, jenA vicAromAM cAMcalya UbhuM thatuM nathI evA prakArano mANasa dvibhuja bhagavAna che. gaganamAM pelA kalpanAnA bhagavAnane bhale cAra bhujA hoya, paNa A vivekapUrNa viraktivALo to pRthvI parano be bhujAvALo bhagavAna che. bhAratIya saMskRtinAM ApaNAM jIvanamUlyo e prabhutA tarapha javAvALAM mUlyo che. tame jozo ke pAzavatApradhAna je pravRtti che, e vRttipradhAna che; vicArapradhAna je jIvana che, e mAnavapradhAna jIvana che; ane vivekapradhAna je jIvana che e jIvanamAM ja prabhutA vaselI che. eka bhAIe mane pUcheluM ke, prabhutAnuM darzana kema thAya ? meM kahyuM, "vRtti ane vicAranA visarjanathI." to kahe, "dRSTAMta na ApI zako ?" meM kahyuM, "A kAgaLa para prabhutA zabda lakho." emaNe A zabda lakhyo. pachI emane pUchyuM, "tamArA khIsAmAM kaMI che ?" e kahe, "eka sikko che." "to ene A zabda para mUko. have prabhutA vaMcAya che ? dekhAya che ? nahi. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! ja 83

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kAraNa ke e DhaMkAyela che. enuM darzana karavuM hoya to sikkAnuM visarjana karo." bhagavAnane dabAvanAra koNa ? bhagavAna dabAyo sikkA nIce - sonA nIce. dabAyela prabhutA prArthanA kare che, paNa prayatna nathI. ekalI prArthanAthI zuM vaLe ? bhagavAnane jovA hoya, sAMbhaLavA hoya to prayatna karI A gInIne khaseDo, sonAnuM paDa khaseDo, to hRdaya khulluM thAya ane prabhutAnuM darzana thAya." dAna zuM che ? hRdaya sonAnA bhArathI dabAI gayuM che tene khulluM karavuM te dAna che. prabhutAne pAmavAno eka suMdara upAya che. tamane lAgavuM joIe ke A boja kyAre utAruM ! huM jouM chuM ke ahIM ghaNA bojavALA mANaso che. zubhecchA evI che ke sau haLavA thAya. paNa keTalAka to kahe che, "ame bhAra to nahi ja choDIe." bhArane vaLagI rahevuM ane bhagavAnane kahevuM ke tuM mane uThAvI le. to bhagavAna kahe che ke tuM eTalo vajanadAra che ke mArAthI tuM UpaDe ema nathI; tane uThAvuM to kadAca huM tArA nIce dabAI jAuM. ane A DUbato mANasa tAranArane paNa pakaDI le. bhagavAnane jo jovA hoya to ApaNA upara je bhAra che te bhArane ApaNe ocho karavo paDaze to huM tamane eTaluM ja kahuM chuM ke Akhare to mAnavajIvananI yAtrA koIka parama tattvane pAmavA mATe ja che ApaNe ahIMyAM maLyAM chIe te keTalo AnaMda che ! paNa jo prabhutAne ApaNe maLIe to kevo apUrva AnaMda prasarI jAya ! sAMbhaLelo eka prasaMga yAda Ave che. dilhInuM eka kuTuMba ghaNAM varSothI muMbaImAM rahetuM hatuM. muMbaImAM hullaDa thatAM A kuTuMbane potAnI janmabhUmi sAMbharI AvI. eNe dilhInI TikiTa kaDhAvI. e gADImAM beThuM. strIe pUchyuM, ATalAM varSe ApaNe dilhI jaIe chIe. tyAM ApaNane agavaDa nahi paDe ?" puruSe kahyuM, "agavaDa zAnI paDe ? tuM jo to kharI, UlaTI sagavaDa thaze. ApaNe muMbaI AvyAM, dhanavAna thayAM, chatAM ApaNe ApaNA mitrone bhUlyA nathI; ahIM beThAM beThAM paNa emanuM dhyAna rAkhyuM che. ApaNane jema muMbaImAM hatuM tevuM ja tyAM paNa che." A vAta emanI bAjumAM jarA udAsa beThelo eka pravAsI sAMbhaLI rahyo hato. potAnA viSAdane vAto dvArA haLavo karavA teNe kahyuM, "huM paNa dilhI ja jaI rahyo chuM, paNa mArA dilamAM tamArA jeTalI khuzI nathI, kAraNa ke dilhIthI muMbaI AvyA pachI muMbaInA raMgarAgamAM vatananA mitrone sAva ja visarI gayo. Aja Aphata AvatAM dilhI sAMbharI AvyuM. jAuM to huM paNa kyAM UtaravuM ane kone maLavuM e vicArano viSaya thaI paDyo che. tamAruM 84 ka jIvana-mAMgalya

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svAgata thaze, jyAre mAre UtaravA mATe sthAnanI zodha karavA rakhaDavuM paDaze; ane te paNa paisA vinA kema maLe ? ane Aje to khIsuM paNa khAlI che." eTalAmAM eka corane doraDAthI bAMdhI be polIsa TrenamAM dAkhala thayA ane bAjunA pATiyA para beThA. pelA bhAIe pUchyuM, "tame kyAM jAo cho ?" to kahe, "ame dilhI jaI rahyA chIe. A cora dilhIno che. eNe muMbaI AvIne ghaNAne zIzAmAM utAryA che - ghaNAne chetaryA che ane varSo sudhI ThagavidyA ajamAvI che. have e pakaDAyo che. ene dilhInI kedamAM nAkhavA jaI rahyA chIe." A vArtAmAM AvatA AvA traNe jAtanA pravAsIo ApaNane A jiMdagIrUpI TrenamAM jovA maLe che. pravAsIno prathama varga vivekapradhAna che, je A duniyArUpI muMbaImAM AvavA chatAM potAnA aMtima dhyeyarUpI dilhIne bhUlyo nathI; emAM birAjatA zuddha ane zreSTha mitrone bhUlyo nathI. eno viveka, ene dosto hovAthI, e ahIM rahevA chatAM paraloka javA mATe ane aMdara beThela caitanyadeva mATe satata kArya karyA ja kare che, ane ene javAno prasaMga Ave che tyAre khuzI thAya che ke meM pahelethI taiyArI karI rAkhI che, mAruM to tyAM paNa svAgata ja thavAnuM che, kAraNa ke meM to ahIM beThAM beThAM e zreSTha mitronI khabara rAkhI che; to have te amArI khabara rAkhavAnA ja. eTale A vivekapradhAna varganA mukha para to jatAM jatAM paNa, AnaMdanI surakhI ja hoya che, prasannatA ja hoya che. bIjo varga te vicArapradhAna che. eNe ahIM AvI vRttinA AkarSaNamAM potAmAM birAjatA prabhu mATe je dhyeyAtmaka kaMI karavuM joIe te karyuM ja nahi. vicAra ja karato rahyo, prArthanA ja karato rahyo, prayatna kaMI ja na karyo. alabatta, e vRttinI adhamatAe nathI pahoMcyo, paNa sAthe sAthe eTalo upara paNa nathI Avyo. eNe bhale bUruM nathI karyuM, to sAruM paNa kaMI ja nathI karyuM. e khAlI che, viveka ane vRttinI vacce jholAM khAto rahI gayo che. Avo varga jAya che tyAre enA mukha para viSAda che, ciMtAnI gherI chAyA che. - trIjo varga je mAtra vRttipradhAna ja che, e vRttione adhIna thaI adhama koTinuM jIvana jIve che. satya ke sadAcArano vicAra paNa na kare. e sahelAIthI jUThuM bole, corI kare, hiMsAtmaka niSphara jIvana jIve ane e rIte adhogati mATenAM adhama kAryo karI jiMdagIne pUrI kare. Avo jIva coranI jema adhogAmI jIvana pUruM karI potAnAM zaramabharelAM kAryo mATe AMsu sArato sArato jAya che. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! ka 85

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ApaNe joyuM ke traNa varga che - divyatApradhAna, mAnavatApradhAna ane pazutApradhAna. viveka, vicAra ane vRtti e emanAM preraka tattvo che. mANase e ciMtana karavAnuM cheH pote kyAM che; potAnuM dhyeya zuM che ane ahIM AvavAno hetu zo che ? prabhu mahAvIre e ja pUchyuM, "tuM koNa che e to jANa, ane tuM ahIM zA mATe Avyo che te to kahe ? A be vAtanuM ApaNe UMDANathI ciMtana karIzuM to lAgaze ke ApaNe koNa chIe te ApaNe khuda ja jANatA nathI. ApaNe ApaNane jANavA mATe prayatnazIla paNa nathI, tyAM ahIM AvavAnuM prayojana zuM ke hetu zo teno vicAra karavAno to avakAza ja kyAM ? mANasanA aMtaramAM vivekano dIpaka pragaTe to ja tenA prakAzamAM te A vastune spaSTa rIte joI zake, ane potAmAM rahelI prabhutAno anubhava karI zake. A prabhutAnuM darzana ekadama nathI thatuM. mANasa zAnta praharamAM UMDANamAM UtarI AtmanirIkSaNa karato rahe ke huM vRttipradhAna chuM, vicArapradhAna chuM ke vivekapradhAna chuM ? mArI pravRttinuM preraka baLa vRtti che, vicAra che ke viveka A rIte ciMtana vadhatAM mANasane lAgaze ke darekedareka AtmAmAM prabhutA poDhelI che, mAtra eNe prayatnazIla thaI ene jagADavAnI che. jAgRtinA prabhAtamAM ja e prabhutAnuM darzana lAdhaze. Ajano divasa pUrNimAno che. saMto cAra mahinA sudhI cittanasvAdhyAyathI puSTa banI Aje have gAmegAma A cintanapravAhane vahAvavA saritAnI jema sahaja phuraNAthI viharI rahyA che. vihAramAM emanA jJAnamAMthI vahetI prabhutAnI A divyasudhA saune prApta ho e mahecchA.* * tA. 9-11-1975nA roja muMbaInA "jyotisadanamAM ApeluM pravacana. 86 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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9. ahaMne oLakho zana e che ke AtmAmAM sukha che to * a A sukhano anubhava mANasane thato che kema nathI ? vijJAnanI aneka zodho thaI che che, sukha mATenAM zAtAdAyaka sAmagrInAM the aneka saMzodhano paNa thayAM che, chatAM evo koI AdamI ahIM jovAmAM nathI Avato ke che je hRdaya para hAtha mUkI kahI zake ke huM saMpUrNa sukhI chuM. AnuM kAraNa zuM ? mANasa zA mATe sukhanI paritRpti anubhavI zakato tha nathI ? A saMsAra duHkhothI bharelo che tethI je saMpUrNa sukhanA anubhavanI zakyatA nathI che ema kahI zakAya tevuM nathI. saMsAra ane A jagata mAtra duHkhathI ja bharapUra hota to be tIrthakaro, sarvajJo ane mahApuruSo A jagatamAM paNa je sukhanI paritRpti mANI zakyA te mANI zakyA na hota. jyAM duHkha ane kleza jovAmAM Ave che, tevA A jagatamAM paNa aneka mahAtmA puruSoe o sukhano pUrNa anubhava karyo che. duHkhanuM pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 87

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kAraNa e che ke sukha kyAM che te mANasane khabara nathI. lokazAhInI racanA bahumatI ane laghumatIne AdhAre karavAmAM AvI che. bahumatI para lokasabhA cAle che. A bahumatInI dRSTie to A duniyA dukhathI bharelI che. laghumatImAM bhagavAna mahAvIra, pArzvanAtha, nemanAtha, zrIrAma jevI thoDI mahAna vibhUtio Ave che. amRtano kuMbha to, A avani para lAMbA samaye AvatI AvI vibhUtio dvArA ja anubhavAto jovAya che. bahumatIne - moTA bhAganA lokone - sukha vize pUchazo to teo potAnA haiyAnI varALa kADhaze. A varALano pravAha evo osarI gayo che ke ghaNI vAra to lokone zaMkA paNa thAya ke kharekhara dekhAtA mahApuruSo teone prApta thayelAM sukhonI vAtamAM sAcA haze kharA ? nizcayanaye satya vAta to e che ke A jagata bhale lokothI bhareluM dekhAya, paNa aMdarathI AnaMdathI bhareluM pUrNa jagata che. Ama chatAM saMsAra duHkhathI gherAyelo ja jovA maLe che. enuM kAraNa A vAtamAM UMDA UtarIzuM to jaNAze ke duniyAmAM duHkha nathI, mAnasika zrama che, ahaMno bojo e ja duHkha che. eka kapa dUdhanI jarUra hoya tene Tebala para dUdhathI bharelI AkhI bATalI jovA maLe; bahAragAma javuM hoya to Trenane badale tene moTuM plena maLe; suMdara vastro, kImatI AbhUSaNo, rahevA mATe AlIzAna blaoNka ke baMgalo, khAvA mATe bhAtabhAtanAM svAdiSTa ane pauSTika padArtho maLe - A badhuM joI tame emane pUcho ke bhAI ! tame to badhI vAte sukhI jaNAo cho, ane jo ene lAgaze ke Ane kahevAmAM vAMdho nathI to te tarata javAba Apaze : "mArAM duHkhonI vAta karavAmAM majA nathI; e vAta ja javA do !" Ama jenI pAse sukhanAM sAdhanono saMpUrNa sabhAva hoya ane duHkhanAM sAdhanono sadaMtara abhAva hoya tyAM paNa mANasa sukhI nathI, tenuM kAraNa zuM ? mANasa zarIre taMdurasta hoya, AjJAMkita patnI hoya, sArA putro hoya, bhalA ane sArA mitro hoya, duniyAnA duHkhanuM koI kAraNa paNa na hovA chatAM e gamagIna lAge che. ene pUchIe ke A badhuM hovA chatAM praphullatA ne prasannatA kema nathI ? to e javAba Apaze ke huM MoodmAM nathI, huM svastha nathI. sukhanAM sAdhanono abhAva nathI, duHkha kyAMya dekhAtuM nathI; tema chatAM AvI paristhiti pravarte che, kAraNa ke enA kahevA pramANe e "svastha' nathI. duHkhanuM kAraNa padArthono abhAva nathI. duHkha vastunA abhAvathI nahi paNa ahaMne kAraNe thAya che. ahiM vyaktine potAnA kendramAMthI - svamAMthI khaseDI de che. 88 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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e svastha nathI eno artha e ke e potAnA kendramAM nathI; ahaMnI tRpti mATe e jyAMtyAM bahAra bhaTake che. A ahaMnI vyAkhyA ApavI kaThina che. e vyAkhyAno viSaya nathI, chatAM ema kahI zakAya ke je nathI chatAM anubhavAya che te ahaM dvArA vastu na hoya chatAM jaNAya. vastarUpe na hoya chatAM vastuno. bhAsa thAya - dekhAya, jema ke khArApATamAM koI ajANa musAphara musApharI karI rahyo hoya ane ene pANInI tarasa lAge ane jue to dUra dUra pANInuM sarovara dekhAya. dhArI dhArIne jue to pANInA relA paNa vahetA dekhAya. e potAnI gati pramANe jhaDapathI cAle paNa jema jema e AgaLa jAya tema tema e sarovara dUra ne dUra jatuM dekhAya, sarovara najIka AvavAne badale dUra jatuM jovAmAM Ave che. vastusthiti e che ke sarovara nathI; tyAM pANI paNa nathI; paNa sarovara ane pANIno mAtra AbhAsa che. pANI na hovA chatAM pANInuM darzana thAya che. e darzana mAtra jhAMjhavAnAM jaLanuM che, mRgajaLanuM che. "ahaM'nA viSayamAM paNa mANaso A sthitino ja bhoga banyA che. je aham nathI, tenuM darzana thaI rahyuM che. dhRvarUpe e vastu nathI, tema chatAM bhramarUpe te che. hakIkatarUpe nahi hovA chatAM vastu dekhAya che ! kamaLAnA rogIne zaMkha ane caMdra jevI sapheda vastuomAM paNa pILo raMga dekhAya che te mAtra AbhAsa che. sAcuM nathI chatAM dekhAya to che ja. zarIra ane prakRtine jyAre evo anubhava thAya; arthAt je vastu je rUpe nathI te vastu te rUpe dekhAya, tyAre tyAM jozo to jaNAze ke ahaM kAma karatuM hoya che. ahiM vizenI vadhu karuNatA to e che ke mAnavI tenA lIdhe paritRpta thavAne badale zudhita ane kSubdha thato jAya che. jhAMjhavAnAM jaLa pAchaLa jeTalA pramANamAM vadhu doDo teTalA pramANamAM te vadhu ne vadhu dUra thatuM jovAmAM Ave che. A saMsAre evA koI paNa mAnavIne joyo nathI je potAnA ahaMne pUrNa tRpta karI zakyo hoya. eka sAmAnya mAnavI zeThane tyAM nokarI karatAM karatAM pote ja moTo zeTha thaI jAya; tenAM svapno sAkAra bane ane zeThamAMthI milano mAlika thaI jAya. ane tame tenI A saphaLatA mATe dhanyavAda ApavA jAo to tamane kaheze : "eka milamAM te zuM ? huM kAMI moTo udyogapati haju na gaNAuM." AvA mANasa AgaLa saMtoSanI vAta paNa na thAya, kAraNa ke e to je nathI tene pakaDavA nIkaLyo che; ahaMnI ja sAdhanA karI rahyo che; ahaMnI atRptinA kAraNe tenuM mAnasika valaNa juduM che. vizvakaviomAM jenuM zreSTha nAma che evA zrI ravIndranAtha TAgoranuM nAma to Apa jANo ja cho. temaNe potAnI eka anubhavakathA lakhI che. bhAre pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 89

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majhAnI che A nAnI kathA ! e lakhe cheH zaradapUnamanI rAta hatI. gharamAM huM ekalo ja hato. eka AdhyAtmika pustaka vAMcato hato. vAMcatAM vAMcatAM thAkI gayo, eTale thoDI kSaNo mATe meM AMkho baMdha karI, paNa lAiTa cAlu hatI. AMkhane ArAma ApavA mATe meM Switch off karI paNa tyAM to mArA Azcaryano pAra na rahyo. pUnamanA caMdramAMthI prakAzanI relI vahI rahI hatI ! rUmamAM jyAM sudhI ilekTrika lAiTano prakAza hato, tyAM sudhI A suMdara cAMdanInA prakAzano anubhava ja na thayo. paNa jevo e kRtrima prakAza baMdha thayo ke naisargika prakAza mArA oraDAne, mArA tanane, mArA prANone bharI rahyo. AvI madhura ujjvala suMdara cAMdanI atyAra sudhI mane dekhAI kema nahi ? kAraNa ke ilekTrika lAiTa mArgamAM avarodha karatI hatI. banAvaTI prakAza naisargika prakAzanA anubhavane rokato hato. mANasamAM rahelo ahaM paNa te ja rIte paramAtmAnA prakAzane roke che. ApaNAmAM raheluM ahaM paNa pelI ilekTrika lAiTanA prakAza jevuM che. sohamne avarodhe che. te ApaNane paramAtmAno anubhava nathI thavA detuM. jema ilekTrika lAiTano prakAza baMdha thatAM naisargika prakAzano anubhava thayo tema ahaMno nAza thAya to ja mAnavIne pa2mAtmAnI jyotino lAbha maLI zake ! A ahaM mANasanI sAthe ja che. e yAtrAe jAya ke pUjA kare, paNa ahaM to sAthenuM sAthe ja. A ahaM to dAna ApatI vakhate paNa kAma karatuM hoya che. nAmanI takatI ane saMsthA sAthe nAma joDavAnI zaratono moha kevo tIvra hoya che ? ahaM eka jAtano mela che. e mela Utare to zarIra jema svaccha thAya ane AnaMda anubhavAya, tema ahaMnA melathI mANasa mukta thAya to ja te sukhano anubhava karI zake. dAna detAM ahaM gaLI jAya to dila premamAM ogaLI jAya ane AMkhamAMthI harSAzru vahe, zarIramAM romAMca thAya ane vicAra Ave ke, aho ! meM khAsa kaMI ApyuM nathI, paNa AtmA mATe prApta karyuM che. Aje to vyAkhyAnakAra paNa sAruM vyAkhyAna ApI ADakatarI rIte zrotAjanone pUche : "kema ? AjanuM vyAkhyAna hRdayamAM sIdhuM UtarI jAya evuM hatuM ne ?'' ane Ama pravacanakAra potAnAmAM rahelA ahaMne poSe che. vyAkhyAna vakhate paNa zrotAjano bolatA hoya che : "jI, sAheba ! vAha, prabhu !' Ama loko tenAM vakhANa kare, pAno caDhAve, ahaMne vadhAre to tene game. loko pAsethI tene appreciation prazaMsA meLavavI che ! ahaM svathI saMtuSTa nathI. parathI puSTa che. suprasiddha vijJAnazAstrI AinsTAIna satyanA saMzodhana ane prayogomAM eTalA ekacitta hatA ke eka vakhata satata doDha mahinA sudhI te dADhI karavAnuM - 90 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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ja bhUlI gayA. koIe e tarapha temanuM lakSa kheMcyuM tyAre emaNe hasIne kahyuM, "huM evI cIja joI rahyo hato ke jenA taraphathI dRSTi pheravI A dADhI tarapha jovAmAM mane kaMIka lUMTAI jatuM jaNAyuM. ane meM ene ja joyA karyuM." AnuM nAma ja visarjana. ahaMnA visarjana vinA sarjana thaI zakatuM nathI. dhArmika anuSThAno karatI vakhate niyamAnusAra to nirjarA thavI joIe. paNa ahaMnA kAraNe ghaNI vAra nirjarAne badale baMdha paDe che. dharmakriyA sauthI sUkSma che, emAM jADI buddhi kAma nahi lAge. A prasaMge mane zaizavanI eka ramata yAda Ave che. ame nAnA hatA tyAre sau bhegA maLI DAhInA ghoDAnI ramata ramatA. tame sau paNa bAlyAvasthAmAM te ramata ramyA hazo. chokarAo paikI eka DAhI thAya che, eka jaNa ghoDo thAya che. DAhI pelAnI AMkhe pATA bAMdhe ke AMkha mIMce jyAre bIjAM badhAM chokarAMo judA judA ThekANe saMtAI jAya. DAhI to tenA mULa sthAne ja besI rahe che, paNa ghoDo badhAne pakaDavA jAya che. daramiyAna je chokarAo pakaDAyAM pahelAM DAhIno sparza karI le, te mukta thayA gaNAya che. A ghoDo te kALa ne DAhI te 52mAtmA. bALako te ApaNe saMsArI jIva chIe. kALanI AMkha cUkavI DAhIne sparza karI lenArane kALa kazuM ja karI zakato nathI, kAraNa ke e mukta thaI gayelo hoya che. DAhIne prabhunI upamA ApI zakAya. ahaM jemAMthI nIkaLI jAya ane DAhIno sparza karI le te sohaM banI jAya che. paNa A kyAre zakya bane ? jyAre ahaMmAMthI nAhaMnI sthiti prApta thAya tyAre. ahaM ane sohaMnI vacce nAhaM che. nAhaM thayA vinA sohaMnI prApti thaI zakatI nathI. kALanI asara jenA 52 na thAya tevuM AtmAnuM svarUpa te sohaM che. AvA mAnavIne pachI mAnasika zrama pajavI zakato nathI; pachI bhale te anekavidha pravRtti kare, paNa ahaM gayuM eTale valaNa badalAyuM. ene pachI kAmamAM niSphaLatA maLe toya nirAzA na Ave. niSphaLatA maLavI kudaratanA hAthanI vAta che. nirAza thaI nirmAlya na thavuM te mANasanA hAthanI vAta che. ahaM e sojo che. roga che. A roga jatAM kaSTa Ave toye kAyaratA na Ave; niSphaLatA maLe to paNa nirmAlyatA na Ave; matabheda thAya topaNa manobheda na thAya. ahaM eTale je nathI chatAM anubhavAya che. ahaMthI mukta thavA daDha saMskAra dvArA nArUM = + + ahaM huM A deha nathI nI sthiti prApta karavA prayatno karavA joIe. raNamAM game teTalI jhaDapathI doTa mAro; tamane sarova2 ke pANI maLavAnuM ja nathI, pANI mATe gAma tarapha vaLavuM joIe. tyAM bhalene sarovara - pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 91

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na dekhAya; paNa pANIno loTo jarUra maLI raheze. nArUM dvArA namratA AvavA mAMDe che, ane namratA dvArA pUrNatAnA prApta thAya che; bALaka namra che eTale ja e saune priya lAge che. bALakane badhAM ja bolAve che, badhAMne ja bALako game che. ApaNe saune gamatAM nathI enuM kAraNa anya kAMI nahi paNa ApaNAmAM raheluM moTuM ahaM che. laghutAmAM prabhutA che. huM kaMIka chuM evuM abhimAna ja e khoTuM tattva che, Avo vicAra ja bhUlabharelo che, kAraNa ke e to pelA jhAMjhavAnA jaLa jevuM che. jema jema pAchaLa doDo tema tema te dUra bhAge. nAhaM e ja vikAsalakSI che ane te sthiti prApta thayA pachI ja nArUM mAMthI soDhuM (sa: eTale parama AtmA; OM eTale huM chuM)nI sthiti prApta karI zakAze. mAnavajAtano moTo bhAga duHkhamAM ribAI rahyo che. tenuM kAraNa vastuno abhAva nahi paNa bhedajJAnano abhAva che. khAvA mATe padArtho, 2hevA mATe ghara, paheravA mATe vastro A badhuM che chatAMya mANaso duHkhI che ne ? kAraNa ke sohaMmAM magna banI AtmAnI mastI mANavAne badale ahaMne poSavAnI dhamAlamAM jIvo paDyA che. ahaMne game teTalo pUravA ane poSavAno prayatna karo paNa te pUrNa thaI zake tema nathI. sukha prApta karavuM hoya to ahaMne vidAya ApavI ja rahI. ahaMnI jagyAe nAhaMnI sthiti lAvI sohaMnI vyavasthA anubhavavI ja rahI. - sohaMno bhAvasparza thatAM ja tamane lAgaze ke huM sukhamaya chuM, AnaMdamaya chuM ane zAzvata chuM; ane pachI to tamane jonArane paNa lAgaze ke A mANasanA aMgamAM ane AMkhamAM kevI prasanna praphullatA vyApI rahI che ! 92 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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-38+ di vALInA divasomAM lakSmI, kALI ane sarasvatI ema traNa zaktionuM pUjana thAya che. terasa, caudaza ane amAsa ema traNa divasa ApaNA bhAratanI saMskRtivALI mAnavajAta, A pUjA kare che. - 10. strInI zakti tame jojo ke ahIM kyAMya puruSanI pUjA thatI nathI. paNa zaktinI pUjA thAya che. A zakti pratyeka strInI aMdara vilasI rahI che. enuM pUjana mAnavI eTalA mATe kare che ke te zaktinuM darzana dareka mAnavIne thAya. A zaktinAM darzana vinA mAnava, mATIno mAnava banI jAya, nirmAlya banI jAya. AjanA yugamAM yaMtra-mAnava paNa sarajI zakAya che. e rIte banAvelo yaMtramAnava tamane 'velkama' kahe, 'guDa-maoNrniMga' kahe, 'guDa ivaniMga' kahe, 'Avajo' kahe, 'bhale padhAryA' kahe, 'Avo' kahe, 'jAo' kahe. Ama AvA ziSTAcAranA zabdo sarjavA e to yaMtravAdI duniyAmAM bahu pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 93

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sahelI vAta che. teo yaMtra pAse AvA zabdo bhale bolAvI zake, paraMtu mAnavajIvananA nirmANa mATenI zakti pedA karavAnI kaLA emanI pAse nathI. A zakti ApaNAmAM che ja. e zakti jAgatI rahe, suSupta na rahe, pramAdamAM na paDI jAya, eTalA mATe ja A traNa divasanI pUjA rAkhI che. terazane divase ApaNe "lakSmInI pUjA karIe chIe, "dhananI nahi. dhananI pUjA to kaMjUsa kare. Arya mAnavI to lakSmInI pUjA kare. lakSmImAM ane dhanamAM phera che. eka nAcanArI bAI paNa eka vakhatano nAca karIne daza hajAra rUpiyA sudhInuM mahenatANuM - dhana meLavI zake che, paNa enI pAse lakSmI hotI nathI. lakSmI jyAM hoya che tyAM saubhAgya ane zAMti hoya che, sukha ane samRddhi hoya che, prasannatA ane kalyANa hoya che. dhanavALA mANasane tame jojo. enI pAse jo sAcI lakSmI nahi hoya, to AnaMda paNa nahi hoya; e dhanavAna bhale hoya, enA moM para daridratAnI chAyA haze; koI vedanAno Ataza jANe emanA haiyAmAM saLagI rahyo hoya evA bhAvo mukha upara taravaratA haze.... tyAM dhana che, paNa lakSmI nathI. dhana to Aje ahIM amerikAmAM aDhaLaka che, paraMtu tyAM jeTalI gAMDAnI hospiTalo che eTalI duniyAmAM bIje kyAMya nathI. eTale lakSmInI pUjA lakSmI meLavavA mATe hoya che. sAcI lakSmI jyAre Ave che tyAre mAnavInuM mana sukha, zAMti ane samRddhino anubhava kare che. paiso Ave ane jo asaMtoSano haDakavA lAge to jANajo ke e lakSmI nathI, dhana che. eTale ApaNe dhana ane lakSmI vacceno bheda vivekapUrvaka pArakhavAno che. Aje jyAre dhananI pUjA vadhI rahI che, tyAre lakSmInI pUjA anivArya banI jAya che. e anivAryatAne ApaNe pichANavAnI che ane samajavAnuM che ke, lakSmI e zI cIja che. eka gharanA dvAra para be suMdara paMktio lakhelI hatI : saMtoSathI jIvana gujAre, eTaluM prabhu Apaje; gharaghara garIbI che chatAM, dila amIrI rAkhaje. eno bhAva che ke mAre paisA nahi, lakSmI joIe, jenA vaDe saMtoSathI jIvana gujare. lokoe Aje paisAne lakSmInuM nAma ane lakSmI jeTaluM mAna ApIne, ene potAnA sthAna parathI nIce utArI che. tamAre enI puna:pratiSThA karavAnI che. 94 jIvana-mAMgalya

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A kArya bahenoe karavAnuM che. A kAma tyAre ja karI zakAze jyAre lakSmI zI cIja che te batAvI zakAze. A lakSmInuM pratyakSa svarUpa nArIe levAnuM che. Aje to gheraghera garIbI che. keTalAka zrImaMto jevA garIba duniyAmAM bIjA koI nathI. paisA Ave eTale garIbI vadhe che, kAraNa ke vadhAre saMgraha ka2vAnI lAlasA jAge che. garIbI bhale Ave, dilanI amIratA tajazo nahi. bhAratamAM evI aneka nArIo hatI, je eka TaMka bhUkha veThIne, ekaTANuM karIne, ekAdazI karIne paNa saMtoSathI moDhuM hasatuM rAkhI zakatI hatI. game tevI hAlatamAM paNa enA moDhA para dInatA, daridratA ke kaMgAliyata varatAtI nahi. eTale ja e mRtavat ane hatAza puruSane paNa preraNA ApIne Ubho karI zakatI hatI. AvI lakSmI jenA gharamAM hoya enA gharamAM devatAo hAjara hoya emAM zI navAI ? terasa pachI caudaza Ave che. e caudaza to kALI, aMdhArI, bhayajanaka che. chAtI phATI jAya evI aMdhArI rAtamAM enI pUjA thAya che. e pUjA mahAkALInI pUjA che. strImAM lakSmInI saumyatA paNa che, ane mahAkALInI rudratA paNa che; strInI eka AMkhamAM lakSmInI saumyatA joIze, bIjI AMkhamAM mahAkALInI rudratA joIze. pavitratA upara e prasanna hoya, paNa aDapalAM kare ene to e bALI ja nAMkhe. jyAM mAna, sanmAna, pratiSThA, gaurava ane ziyaLa jaLavAya che tyAM strInI AMkhamAMthI lakSmI varase che; paraMtu jyAM apamAna yA kudRSTi thAya che, hIna najare jovAya che, tyAM tenI AMkhamAMthI jvALAo pragaTe che. bahenone khaMja2 ke talavAranI kazI jarU2 nathI. emanI AMkhomAM ja talavAra paDelI che. e talavA2nI dhAra jevI AMkha e jyAM batAve tyAM kuTila mANasa Ubho ja rahI zake nahi. strInI aMdara paDI rahelI A zaktine bahAra lAvavAnI che. strInI A zakti pAse to astra paNa niHzastra banI jAya che. A divasomAM mahAkALInI zaktinAM pratIko UbhAM karavAmAM AvelAM che. A mahAkALInAM caraNomAM zaMka2 jevA moTA moTA devatAo paDelA che; e zuM batAve che ? e ema batAve che ke strImAM mahAkALInI zakti UbhI thAya tyAre enI sanmukha koI UbhuM rahI zakatuM nathI. Aje A zakti pragaTAvavAnI che. tame tamA2A gauravane tamArA prANa samo, tamAruM ziyaLa e ja tamAruM jIvana che, tamAruM cAritrya e tamArA jIvanamaMdiranuM zikhara che. jIvanamAM jo pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! : 95

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A tattvo nathI to jIvana kaMI nathI. tamane khabara haze ke, bhAratanI eka ja strIe rAmAyaNa UbhuM karyuM hatuM. rAvaNa jevA samartha puruSa, jenAM caraNo AgaLa nava nava graho paDyA rahetA; jenI AgaLa indra cAmara DhALato hato; je vIra hato, rUpALo hato, samartha hato, jJAnI hato; jenI tattvonI mImAMsA paNa adbhuta hatI... AvA rAvaNe badhe ja vijayapatAkA pharakAvI hatI, paraMtu A ja rAvaNa sItAjI samakSa pAmara banyo hato. rAvaNa AvIne kahe che, "rAma eTale jaMgalamAM pharanAro, rAma eTale vanamAM bhaTakanAro, rAma eTale valkala paheranAro ane huM eTale traNa bhuvanano svAmI, tuM to mArA para prasanna thAya to huM tAro dAsa banavA mATe paNa taiyAra chuM. tane samrAjJI banAvuM." sItAjI kahe che, "je mANaso parastrInA dAsa bane evA vAmaNA mANasonI sAme to huM najara nAkhavAmAM paNa pApa samajuM chuM. je vAsanAono gulAma che, te AkhI duniyAno gulAma che." A che strInI zakti ! barnArDa zaoN eka ThekANe lakhe che, "Give me that man who is not passion's slave. and I will wear him in my heart's core - 444 evo mANasa batAvo, je vAsanAono, vRttiono gulAma nathI. AvA mANasane huM hRdayanA khaMDamAM padharAvIza." ame nAnA hatA tyAre eka vAra madrAsamAM vikToriyA gArDanamAM pharavA gayelA. eka moTo zera (siMha) sUto hato. ame badhA bhAIbaMdha tophAne caDyA hatA. pelA poDhelA zeranuM TIkhaLa karavA mATe jarAka pUMchaDuM kheMcyuM. eNe evI garjanA karI ke amAre bhAgavuM paNa bhAre paDI gayuM. hato to e pAMjarAmAM, paNa enI zakti, enI garjanA eTalI badhI jabaradasta hatI ke ame doDIne daravAjA bahAra jaIne UbhA rahyA chatAM amArA hRdayamAM pelA siMhanI garjanAnA paDaghA saMbhaLAtA hatA. siMhanI A je zakti che te tamArAmAMya poDhelI che, paraMtu e zakti Aje sUtelI che, e UMghanAM jhokAM khAya che. e zaktine jagADo ane juo ke tamArAmAM kaI jAtanuM teja Ave che. A zakti pragaTa karavA mATe ApaNe sauthI pahelI vAta lakSmInI vicArI. bIjI vAta kALI-mahAkALInI paNa vicArI. enI sAthe sAthe eka trIjI zaktinI paNa jarUra che. eka bAju prasannatA hoya, bIjI bAju rudratA hoya, paNa e prasannatA ane rudratAnI vacce koI pula to hovo joIe, setu 96 - jIvana-mAMgalya

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to hovo joIe ! e baMnene joDanAro pula - setu eTale sarasvatI. eTalA ja mATe amAsanA divase sarasvatInuM pUjana thAya che - copaDApUjana thAya che. A traNene judI judI rIte goThavavAmAM Avela che, paraMtu jo mULamAM jovA joIe to kendramAM eka zakti paDelI che. lakSmInI zakti juo, kALInI zakti juo, sarasvatInI zakti juo. eka ThekANe saumyatA che, bIje ThekANe rUdratA che ane trIje ThekANe jJAnanA tejarUpa viveka che. hIro jyAre khANamAMthI bahAra Ave che tyAre temAM koI tejakiraNa dekhAtuM nathI, mAtra eka sAmAnya cakacakato paththara ja hoya che. paraMtu kuzaLa kArIgara ene pAsA pADe pachI e evo kImatI banI jAya che ke, sAmAnya jaNAtA patharAnI kiMmata pAMca hajAra, daza hajAra, lAkha, be lAkha ema vadhatI jAya che, kAraNa ke enAM kiraNo bahAra AvatAM jAya che. e ja rIte prAraMbhamAM to badhAya sAmAnya kakSAmAM ja paDelA hoya che, paraMtu jema jema enI upara keLavaNInA, saMskAranA pAsAo paDatA jAya che, tema tema teja bahAra AvatuM jAya che. bhagavAna mahAvIra ne buddhanA jamAnAnI eka vAta che. enuM nAma hatuM vizAkhA. aDhI hajAra varSa pahelAM e thaI gaI chatAM Aje ene yAda karIe chIe. enuM lagna magadhathI sudUranA kauzala dezanA mahAmaMtrI mRgadharanA putra vere thayuM. e zvazuragRhe AvI. keLavaNI to khUba laIne AvI hatI, paraMtu koI dahADo enuM pradarzana e karatI nahi. jJAna AvaDatuM hoya to sAcavI mUkajo, avasara Ave tyAre upayogamAM lejo. aMdhAruM hoya ane svica dAbo eTale je rIte prakAza patharAI jAya che, te rIte tamAruM jJAna paNa jarUra paDye bahAra AvIne timira mAtrane TALI nAkhe evuM hovuM joIe. A vizAkhAnuM jJAna paNa evuM hatuM. eka divasanI vAta che. rAjA prasenajitanI sabhAmAM dUrano sodAgara be ghoDIne laIne Avyo, ane sabhA vacce kahyuM, "A be ghoDIomAM eka mA che, bIjI dikarI che. A sabhAmAM huM baMnene UbhI rAkhuM chuM. je koI e mAdIkarIne barAbara oLakhI zakaze ene beya ghoDI ApI daIza." badhAya loko joyA kare. mA ane dIkarI rUpamAM, raMgamAM, vAnamAM, dekhAvamAM evAM ekasarakhAM hatAM ke AkRtimAM, AMkhamAM ane UMcAImAM kyAMya pharaka na maLe. badhA joyA ja kare, paNa emAM mA koNa ane dIkarI koNa eno patto ja na dekhAya. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! A 97

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moTA moTA vidvAno beThA hatA. rAjA prasenajita UMconIco thato hato, paNa kaMI vaLatuM nahotuM. Akhare mahAmaMtrI mRgadhara sAme enI najara gaI. ene Ano uttara ApavAnuM sUcavyuM. mRgadhara Ubho thavA to gayo, paNa ene vicAra Avyo ke Ubho thaIza ne oLakhI zakIza nahi to Aja sudhInI mArI buddhinI pratibhA, je cAre bAju prasarelI che, tene baTTo lAgaze. UbhA thayA pachI ghoDIne oLakhavI kema e prazna bahu jaTila hato. kaThina praznone ukele enuM nAma ja prajJA che. enI A prajJA jhAMkhI paDatI lAgI. eTale mRgadhare kahyuM, "Aja nahi, traNa divasa pachI uttara ApIza." traNa divasa pachI uttara Apavo kyAMthI ? e haiyA-ukalatano savAla che, aMdaranI zaktino prazna che. pachI to mRgadhara ghera gayA, jamavA beThA. bhojana pIrasAya che, pIraselA bhojanamAMthI eka koLiyo lIdho, ane pAchA vicAre caDhI gayA. kyAMya sudhI basa ema ne ema ja besI rahyA. vizAkhA vicAre che ke, Aje sasarA ciMtAmAM paDI gayA che ? eNe pUchyuM, "pitAjI, Aje tame ciMtAmAM kema jaNAo cho ?'' "beTA, e rAjadvArI vAto che. emAM tamAruM kAma nathI.' "nA, bApu kahevAnuM hoya te jarUra kaho. ame strIo bhale gharamAM besI rahIe, paraMtu amArI haiyAkoTaDImAM paNa nAno evo paNa jJAnano dIpaka baLato hoya che. enA ajavALe koIka vAta ukelI zakAya tema hoya to vaLI ukelI paNa nAkhIe.'' "paNa beTA, e samasyA to evI kaThina che ke, mArA jevAthI paNa nathI UkalatI.'' "bApu, vAta to sAcI che. paNa keTalIka vAra evuM bane che ke moTAothI na UkalatI samasyA kadIka nAnakaDAo ukelI nAkhe che. keTalIka jagA evI hoya che ke temAMthI jADA-moTA mANaso nIkaLI zakatA nathI, jyAre nAnA hoya to tarata ja nIkaLI jAya che.'' mRgadhare putravadhUne badhI vAta kahI. vizAkhA kahe, "are, A to bahu sahelI vAta che." "heM !'' mahAmaMtrI Abho banyo. "kevI rIte sahelI che ? A te kaMI peMDA khAvAnI vAta che ?'' 98 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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"nA, paraMtu A strIno (ghoDIno) savAla che... ane e strI ja ukelI zakaze; puruSo ukelI nahi zake." Aje keTalAka kAryakaro strInI samasyAo ukelavA medAnamAM AvyA che. paraMtu e potAnA gharanI ja samasyA ukelI zakatA nathI tyAM bIjI samasyA kyAMthI ukelavAnA hatA ? gharamAM laDAlaDI thatI hoya, gharamAM bhAIsAhebanI kazI gaNanA na hoya, ane duniyAmAM strI-samasyA ukelavA nIkaLI paDe. meM joyuM che ke, Aje je keTalAka strI-samasyA ukelavA nIkaLI paDyA che ke moTe bhAge gharanA dAjhelA ane baLelA che. strIno prazna strI sivAya anya koI ukelI zakavAnA nathI. eTale ja strIoe prajJA keLavavAnI che. mRgadhara kahe "kevI rIte ?" - vizAkhA kahe, "juo, sIdhI ja vAta che. mA pAse vAtsalya che, mA pAse sneha che, karuNA che, kSamA che." mRgadhara kahe, "e vAta to huM jANuM chuM. paNa ahIM e vAtanI zI upayogitA che ?" - vizAkhA kahe, "e ja kahu chuM. AvatIkAle rAjasabhAnI aMdara baMnene UbhI rAkhajo, ane beyanI sAme gaMdI thALamAM bharIne mUkI dejo. mA haze te Tharela haze, dIkarI haze te utAvaLI haze. dIkarI jhapAjhapa karatI khAI jaze, mA dhIre dhIre khAze. vaLI, mA khAI raheze to paNa dIkarInA thALamAM moTuM nahi nAkhe. ene thaze ke dIkarIne khAvA do. paNa jo dIkarI pahelI khAI raheze to mAnA thALamAM moDhuM nAkhyA vinA nahIM rahe. ane jo dIkarI moTuM nAMkhaze to mA potAnuM moTuM UMcuM karI nAkhaze ane dIkarIne khAvA deze. A rIte mA ane dIkarI oLakhAI jaze." mRgadharane thayuM ke vAta to barAbara che. bahu ja saraLa samasyA che. bIje divase savAre rAjadarabAramAM beya ghoDIne UbhI rAkhavAmAM AvI. beyanI sAme caMdInA thALa mukAyA. dIkarI hatI eNe jhapAjhapa khAvA mAMDyuM. mA dhIredhIre khAtI hatI. dIkarI khAI rahI eTale mAnA thALamAM moTuM nAMkhyuM. eTale mAe moTuM uThAvI lIdhuM. mAnAM vAtsalya, prema ane karuNAnuM darzana sI koIne thaI rahyuM. eTale tarata ja mRgadhare kahyuM, "jenuM moM bahAra che te mA che ane hajI je khAya che te dIkarI che." pelo sodAgara kahe, "mRgadhara, A prazna tame nathI ukelyo lAgato. tame pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 99

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jaza khATI jAva e judI vAta che." mRgadhara kahe, "meM nathI ukelyo to pachI koNe ukelyo che ?" mA sivAya A praznano ukela bIjuM koI lAvI zake nahi. eTale A praznano uttara koNe Apyo che te mane kaho." tyAre mRgadhare kahyuM, "mAre eka putravadhU che. enuM nAma vizAkhA che. e magadhathI AvelI che. bhagavAna mahAvIra ane bhagavAna buddha jyAM thaI gayA e pavitra bhUmimAMthI eNe saMskAra meLavelA che. e mArI putravadhUe mArI A samasyA ukelI che. sittera varSanI vRddhAvasthAe Aje jyAM huM niSphaLa nIvaDavAno hato tyAM mArI putravadhUe mane saphaLa banAvyo che." AkhI sabhA prasanna banI gaI. rAjA prasenajite kahyuM, "mAre tamArI putravadhUnAM darzana karavAM che. ene hAthI para besADI mAnasahita ahIM lAvo." ane vizAkhAne mAnasahita rAjasabhAmAM lAvavAmAM AvI. ene mAna sAthe besADavAmAM AvI. ane pachI mRgadhare ene eka vAta pUchI. A vAta samajavA jevI che. mRgadhara kahe, "Aje teM mArI samasyA ukelI ApI che tyAre mane eka vAta pUchavAnuM mana thAya che. lagnaveLAe tArAM mAbApe tane zikhAmaNamAM je cAra vAto kahI hatI te Aje mane yAda Ave che, ane eTale ja mArA manamAM eka savAla Ubho thayo che." vizAkhA kahe, "pUcho bApu, Apane je pUchavuM hoya te pUcho." "jyAre tuM sAsare AvavA nIkaLI tyAre tArI AMkhamAM motI jevAM be AMsu hatAM. e AMsa sahita jyAre teM tArA pitA ane mAtAnI caraNaraja mAthe caDhAvI tyAre temaNe tane vidAya veLAe AzIrvAda ApyA hatA. AzIrvAdamAM kahyuM hatuM ke, "beTA tane moTI karI, tane kapaDAM, dAgInA ane sukhasamRddhi ApyAM, tethI amArA manane saMtoSa nathI thayo, paraMtu ame tane je saMskAra ApyA che eno amane saMtoSa che. tuM Aje have jAya che. eTale bahena, A cAra vAta tuM dhyAnamAM rAkhaje : (1) sUraja ane caMdrane pUjatI raheje. (2) agni sAthe aDapalAM karIza nahi. (3) ArasIne cokhkhI rAkhaje. (4) deje kharI paNa laIza nahi, tema leje, paNa daIza nahi. mane A cAra vAta yAda Ave che ane ema thAya che ke, tane tArAM mAbApe Apela zikhAmaNamAMthI tuM kaMI karatI to dekhAtI nathI. savAramAM UThIne nathI to tuM sUraja ane caMdrane pUjatI, nathI ArasIne mAMjatI, to pachI A badhuM zuM che ?" vizAkhA kahe, "pitAjI, huM sUraja ane caMdrane roja pUjuM ja chuM. mArA 100 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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sUraja ane caMdra eTale sAsu ane zvazura. zvazura sUraja jevA eTalA mATe ke, e gharamAM Ave ke tarata ja gharanuM vAtAvaraNa svastha thaI jAya evo emano prabhAva hoya che. sAsu caMdramA jevAM eTalA mATe ke e caMdra jevI zItaLatA ApatAM hoya che. kahetAM hoya che ke, 'vahu beTA, huM beThI chuM, pachI tAre zI ciMtA che ?' mAnA viyogamAM mA banI haiyA-TADhaka ApanArI sAsu caMdramA nathI to bIjuM zuM che ? eTalA ja mATe mArA gRha-gagananA sUraja ane caMdra bIjA koI nahi, paraMtu sAsu ne sasarA che, karyo pitAjI ! huM e sUraja ane caMdrane pUjuM che ke nahi ? savAramAM UThIne tamane ane mArAM sAsujIne dilanA AdarathI vaMdana karuM che ke nahi ? sadbhAvapUrvakano Adara ApuM chuM ke nahi ? basa, aMtarano Adara e ja mAre mana sAcI pUjA che. jenA aMtaramAM Adara na hoya, manamAM dhikkAra bharyo hoya chatAM pUjA karavI ane vaMdana karavAM e to kevaLa dekhAva che, pAkhaMDa che. pUjA to AdarathI karavAnI hoya. ApanI temaja mArAM sAsujInI pUjA mAre mATe sAcA sUraja ane sAcA caMdramAnI pUjA barAbara che.' mRgadharanA aMtaramAM Adara UmaTI Avyo. vizAkhAe AgaLa kahyuM, "vaLI, mArAM mAbApe mane bIjI zikhAmaNa e ApI hatI ke agni sAthe aDapalAM karIza nahi. A agni eTale zuM ? mAre mana pati eTale agni. e ghara calAve paNa kharA ane jalAve paNa kharA. agni vaDe rasoI paNa karI zakAya, TADha vakhate tApaNI paNa karI zakAya. paraMtu jo emAM hAtha nAkhIe to hAtha jalI jAya, ane enI sAthe aDapalAM karIe to ghara jalI jAya. strIne mATe puruSa paNa agni jevo ja che. enI sAthe strI maryAdA mUkIne bole, maryAdA mUkIne varte to tenI asara khUba kharAba paDe. pariNAme puruSa ane strI vacce je sanmAnanI lAgaNI rahevI joIe te 2he nahi eTaluM ja nahi, paNa ekabIjAnI sAme dhikkAra ane tiraskAra keLavAto jAya. gharamAM jo chokarAM hoya to temanA saMskAra paNa AvuM joIne saLagI jAya che, eTale strIe puruSanI sAthe to agninI jema jALavIne maryAdApUrvaka kAma levAnuM che. maryAdA bhUlI javAya to agninA taNakhAnI jema gharane jalAvI de. kaho, pitAjI, mArA patinI maryAdA agninI jema jALavuM che ke nahi ?'' Aje to raste game tyAM jatAM-AvatAM, game tema vartavuM, game tema pharavuM, game tema mazkarIo karavI, ane game tevA nirlajja cenacALA karavA eka phaeNzana banI gaI che; ane A phaeNzanane lIdhe ja ApaNI zista ane ApaNI saMskAritA naSTa thaI rahI che; ApaNA samAjanA cAritrano dhvaMsa thaI rahyo che. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 101

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AgaLa cAlatAM vizAkhA kahe che, "mArAM mAtApitAe ArasI cokhkhI rAkhavAnuM mAMjatAM rahevAnuM sUcavyuM hatuM. ArasI eTale gharanuM AMgaNuM ane strInuM ziyaLa. "ghara evuM svaccha hovuM joIe ke emAM jarA paNa kacaro na dekhAya. jarA paNa avyavasthA na hoya. "kapaDAM navAM hoya ke jUnAM, paNa gaDI karIne mUkavAM joIe. eka kapaDuM Ama pheMkIe ane eka kapaDuM tema pheMkIe e na cAle. khaMDanI vyavasthA evI hoya ke koI mahemAna aNadhAryA Ave to ghara ArasI jevuM svaccha ane suMdara lAge. "jema dhovAyelAM kapaDAMne gaDI karIne mUkavAnI jarUra che, tema melAM kapaDAMne paNa jyAM sudhI dhovAya nahi tyAM sudhI gaDI karIne mUkavAnI jarUra che. AvI Teva paDe to ghara ane AMgaNuM suMdara lAge. "vyavasthA suMdara lAge che, jyAre avyavasthA AMkhane akaLAvI de che. "AgaNuM to svaccha ja hovuM joIe. jyAMtyAM phUMkAya nahi, jyAM tyAM kAgaLa ke kapaDAMnA DUcA nakhAya nahi, ane jIvana paNa jema tema jivAya nahi. "jenI vyavasthA suMdara, jenuM AMgaNuM ArasI jevuM suMdara hoya, enuM haiyuM paNa evuM ja suMdara hoya; ane tethI ja ene AMgaNe AvanAro umaLakAbhera Ave. jema AMgaNuM cokhkhuM hovuM joIe tema ziyaLa paNa cokhkhuM hovuM joIe. "cAritrya to eTaluM badhuM niSkalaMka, tejasvI ane ujjvaLa hovuM joIe ke, jema agnimAMthI doSa kADhI zakAto nathI; tema ziyaLamAMthI paNa koI doSa kADhI zake nahi. pitAjI ! AMgaNuM ane ziyaLa cokhkhuM ne niSkalaMka rAkhIne meM ArasI nathI mAMjI ?' mRgadhara ane rAjasabhAne vizAkhAnI vAtamAMthI kaMIka viziSTa jIvananI vAta maLI rahI hatI. sau mugdha hatA. mRgadhare kahyuM, "beTA ! kharekhara teM ArasI barAbara mAMjI che. gharane to teM svarga banAvI dIdhuM che." vizAkhAe vAta AgaLa calAvI, 'mArAM mAbApe cothI vAta e kahI hatI ke, deje kharI paNa laIza nahi. ane vaLI, AgaLa ema kahyuM hatuM ke, leje, paNa daIza nahi. A be vAtomAM pahelI vAta dAna mATenI hatI ane bIjI vAta gALa mATenI hatI. dAna devuM kharuM paNa levuM nahi; ane gALa levI paNa devI nahi. "jIvanamAM Ama be vAta keLavavAnI che; dAna levuM nahi; koI Ape 102 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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to levA mATe hAtha laMbAvavo nahi, paraMtu jo koI levA Ave to zakti pramANe ApatAM rahevuM. dAnamAM devAnuM che, paNa levAnuM nathI. koI paNa dAna para zA mATe dIna banIne jIvavuM ? ApaNe ja ApaNA puruSArthathI UbhA rahevuM joIe. koInI paNa vastu, jo eka vAra paNa tame lIdhI, to pachI enA upakAranI chAyA tamArI pAMpaNa upara evI jAmI jaze ke dRSTi UMcI paNa nahi thaI zake. pachI tame kaMI nahi karI zako. "droNAcArya jevA vIra ane bhISma pitAmaha jevA samartha puruSo kauravonA upakAra - bhAra nIce dabAyelA hovAthI draupadInAM vastra utArAtAM hatAM tyAre nIcuM ghAlI beThA hatA. AnuM kAraNa mahAbhAratamAM temaNe jAte ja kahyuM che ke, "thanAm yAsI vacam - ame arthanA dAsa thaI gayA chIe. A kauravoe amane popyA che eTale enI zaramathI ame dabAI gayA chIe. ame gulAma chIe. gulAma zuM karI zake ? mahAbhAratuM A vAkya maMtra banAvI yAda rAkhavAnuM che : tame koInI pAsethI kaMIka dAna lIdhuM eTale khalAsa. tamAro AtmA ane tamAruM svamAna maya ja samajo. gALanI bAbatamAM AthI UlaTuM che. gALa lejo kharA, dezo nahi. bIjAMnA game tevA kaDavAM veNa Ave, game tevI kaDavI vANI Ave, kaDavA vicAra Ave, tene vivekathI vicArajo. emAM satya hoya to sudharavuM. asatya to potAnA ja jherathI mare che. tene uttara na Apazo. tame jo sAmAnA krodhano uttara krodhathI nahi Apo to sAmAne ThaMDuM thavuM ja paDaze." chevaTe vizAkhAe kahyuM, "he pitAjI ! Aja sudhI lokoe mArA mATe game tema kahyuM hoya, chatAM meM kAyama sAMbhaLyuM ja che. koI divasa sAmo uttara Apyo che kharo ?" mRgadhara kahe, "nA beTA, tane UMcethI bolatAM meM sAMbhaLela nathI." vizAkhAe AgaLa kahyuM, "A cAra vAta mArI mAtAe ane mArA pitAe lagna vakhatanI vidAya veLAe vArasAmAM ApI hatI. huM tene barAbara pALavA prayatna karuM chuM." mRgadhara kahe, "beTA, teM A vAta barAbara jALavI che." A AkhIya vAta sAMbhaLIne prasanna thayelA rAjA prasenajita bolI UThe che, "vizAkhA, tane huM eka biruda ApavA mAguM chuM." mRgadhara to rAjAnA mananI vAta samajI jAya evo TevAI gayo hato. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 103

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eTale eNe kahyuM, "rAjAjI, Apa vizAkhAne "mA"nuM biruda ApavA mAMgo cho ? Apa mananI vAta kahI do cho. beTA vizAkhA ! tuM to amArI mA che, vahumA che. AkAzamAM caMdramA che, pRthvI para dharatImA che, ne gharamAM che vahumA che. enAmAM niHsvArtha prema che, mA jevI sevA che, mA jevI vatsalatA che, mA jevuM kAruNya che, mA jevI samajaNa che - e vahamA che." te divase vizAkhAne hAthI para besADIne AkhA nagaramAM pheravavAmAM AvI. te divase rAjA prasenajita ane maMtrI mRgadhare vizAkhAne vahumAnuM biruda ApyuM. A zabda Aje hiMdI bhASAmAM khUba ja vyApaka che. gujarAtImAM paNa dhIredhIre pracAra pAmavA lAgyo che. strI kevI mahAna zakti che te tamAre A vArtA parathI vicArI jIvavAnuM che.* * dIpAvalI prasaMge ApeluM pravacana. 104 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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11. sAyuM AbhUSaNa jamAM jyAM sudhI jhaMkhanA jAgatI SP ja nathI tyAM sudhI e gharatImAMthI huM bahAra AvatuM nathI; paraMta jhaMkhanA jAgatAM che dharatIne phADIne paNa e potAno mArga karI P le che. mahApuruSo jaNAve che ke A caitanyamAM jyAM sudhI jaDamAMthI bahAra nIkaLavAnI jhaMkhanA na jAge tyAM sudhI che. bahArathI game teTalo prayatna hoya to paNa, jaDamAMthI bahAra AvI zakatuM nathI." e bhale game tevI kriyAo kare ke je lokomAM dharmiSTha hovAnI chApa pADe ke evo AbhAsa utpanna kare; paraMtu e rIte AtmA mukta thaI zakato nathI, kAraNa ke jaDamAMthI " mukta thavAno je abhilASa jAgavo joIe te haju jAgyo nathI. "huM caitanya chuM, mane vaLI bAMdhanAra # koNa ? ema mAnavA chatAM huM baMdhAyelo ja lAguM chuM. ajJAnane kAraNe utpanna thayeluM ba0 A baMdhana che. jJAnano prakAza citta para paDe + to ja e baMdhana tUTe. AtmAne mukta thavA pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 105

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mATenuM uttama nimitta, amRtakriyA che. kriyAonA pAMca bhAga pADavAmAM AvyA che. AmAM sauthI zreSTha kriyA amRtakriyA che. e kriyA eTalA mATe zreSTha che ke, AtmA tenI sAthe ekAkAra banI jAya che ne ethI mAnavI jaDamAMthI mukta bane che. A rIte samajIne je kriyA kare che enA jIvanamAM parivartana AvatuM jAya che, rAgadveSa acUkapaNe pAtaLA thaI jAya che. vastu jema jema ghasAtI jAya tema tema pAtaLI thatI jAya che, te ja rIte rAgadveSa paNa pAtaLA paDe che. ATaATalAM anuSThAno karavA chatAM, ATaATalAM saMtasAdhuo pAse javA chatAM ane ATaATalo upadeza zravaNa karavA chatAM ApaNA rAgadveSa jo pAtaLA na thAya to, zAMtithI vicAravuM joIe ke tenuM kAraNa zuM che ? AvA prakAranI jhaMkhanAvALo AtmA ekalI jaDa kriyA na kare, kriyAmAM zodha hoya. ApaNe A vicAravAnuM che. vicAra karIzuM to ja ApaNe ApaNA AtmAnA utkarSathI dharma-sAdhanA karI zakIzuM. e bhAvanA nahi hoya to na to ApaNA AtmAno utkarSa thaze; na to dharmanI ArAdhanA thaze. je loko potAno utkarSa karatA jAya che te loko ja duniyAmAM dharmanI sthApanA karavA samartha bane che. potAno utkarSa karyA vinA koI paNa mANasa bIjAnA vikAsano nimittA banI zakato nathI. "mAre mukta banavuM che, baMdhanomAMthI bahAra AvavuM che, ' AvA prakAzano abhilASa eka ziSyanA hRdayamAM jAgyo. eTale eNe AvIne pahelo ja prazna e karyo ke, "gurudeva, mAro eka prazna che, di mUpa bhUpavi usti ? he bhagavAna, loko dAgInA pahere che, zarIrane suMdara banAvavA mATe loko alaMkAra pahere che, mAre paNa zobhA vadhAravA mATe eka dAgInA paheravo che. mane eka evo sarasa dAgIno batAvo ke je dAgInA paheruM eTale zobhI UThuM. jJAnIo paNa e joI kahe ke vAha ! alaMkAra to AnuM nAma kahevAya ! mane evo dAgIno batAvo ke jene koI bhraSTa karI zake nahi, ane je paheryA pachI koI divasa ApaNane choDe nahi." dAgInAnI zarata bahu AkarI hatI. evo dAgIno kayAMthI lAvavo ? gurue joyuM ke ziSyamAM jabarI jhaMkhanA jAgI che. basa, jhaMkhanA jAgI eTale vikAsano pravAsa zarU. bIjAne jhaMkhanA thAya ke have bahAra nIkaLavuM che, eTale koI paNa bhoge e nIkaLavAnuM ja. pachI 106 jIvana-mAMgalya

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bhale A RtumAM ke AvatI RRtumAM; paNa e dharatInI bahAra nIkaLIne ja jaMpavAnuM. samyaktva eTale AtmAnI jhaMkhanA. 'mAruM svarUpa zuM ? huM koNa chuM ?' AvI jhaMkhanA jene jAgI eno beDo pAra thaI javAno. hA, samyakUdRSTi jIvane sAta-ATha bhava to bahu vadhAre thaI jAya che. gurue ziSyane kahyuM, "hA, che evo dAgIno. Avo dAgIno bharata cakravartIe paheryo hato, evo dAgIno mahAsatI sItAe paheryo hato, evo dAgIno mahAsatI madanarekhAe paheryo hato !'' gurumahArAje uttara Apyo, "zInaM-ziya. 'tame jo zIlano dAgIno paheryo hoya to tamane jJAnIo paNa jue. e mATe ApaNe tyAM kahevAya che : 'yatra nAryastu pUjyante ramante tatra devatAH je dezamAM nArI pUjAne pAtra bane che te dezamAM devatAo 2me che. paNa je dezamAM strIonuM apamAna karavAmAM Ave che, je dezanA loko nArIne 'narakanI khANa' kahIne tene niMde che, te deza ke dharma adhogati pAme che.'' nArIne narakanI khANa kahenArA vicAra kare ke, nArImAM naraka bhareluM che to zuM tamArAmAM amRta bharyuM che ? paNa je virodha karavAmAM Avelo che te nArI ke puruSano virodha nathI, kAmano virodha che. eka kAmanI vRtti tame choDI do; nArIne eka AtmA tarIke juo devI tarIke vaMdo ane ziyaLanI mUrti tarIke oLakho, to tamArI AMkhamAMthI vikAra baLI jaze. paraMtu jo tame kAmanI dRSTithI jozo to tamArI najaramAM ja naraka che ema kahevAmAM AvyuM che. nArI naraka nathI, paraMtu dRSTimAM je vikAra Avyo che te naraka che. -- - eTale ApaNe e samajavAnuM che ke nArIne jyAM mAnabharyuM sthAna ApavAmAM Ave tyAM sAttvikatA ne divyatAno nivAsa hoya che. -- sthUlibhadre kAmavAsanAne jItI. pachI rUpa ane yauvanabharI strI sAme ja hatI chatAM te kevA svastha hatA ! strI nahi, vAsanA pADe che. gRhasthAzramano artha e nathI ke jema phAve tema vartavAno 52vAno maLI gayo che. gRhasthAzramamAM maryAdA hovI joIe. svapuruSa saMtoSa ane svanArIsaMtoSa e gRhasthAzramano pahelo dharma che. tame jo AMkhamAMthI vikArane dUra karo to tamAro gRhasthAzrama dIpI UThe. eTale jJAnIo ApaNane jaNAve che ke, sau karatAM sArAmAM sAruM bhUSaNa pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! 107

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ke alaMkAra to zIla che. tame zIlano dAgIno pahero; brahmacaryano dAgIno pahero, brahma eTale AtmA. carcA eTale vicaravuM. AtmAmAM ja vicaro, bahAra nahi. ApaNe Aja sudhI khUba pharyA chIe. jaDamAM pharyA, bhautika vastuomAM pharyA, paudgalika vAsanAmAM vicaryA; paNa have AtmAmAM AvIne ane emAM joIe. pachI svadArA-saMtoSamAM ane svapuruSa saMtoSamAMthI UrdhvagAmI banI AtmAmAM kendrita bane che. bhaTakatuM maTe che. zAMta thAya che. eTale sArAmAM sAro alaMkAra to zIla che. bAkInA alaMkAro to amuka varSamAM sArA lAge che. varSo badalAya che eTale alaMkAro choDavA paDe che. chokarI nAnakaDI hoya, tyAre enA nAkamAM natha nAkhelI hoya ke kAnamAM eriMga paherelAM hoya, to e suMdara lAge. paNa DozI thaI gayA pachI paNa evA dAgInA paherIne nIkaLe to kevI lAge ? e bhale ema mAnatI hoya ke mArI pAse ghaNuM sonuM che ane huM paherIne nIkaLuM. paNa loko zuM kahe... ! e to kaheze ke, "A gharaDI ghoDIne lAla lagAma zI ? tyAre A zobhe... ?' Ama alaMkAra to samaya jaze tyAre kharatA jaze, paNa tamArA AtmAno je alaMkAra che e maraNa pachI paNa chUTaze nahi; e kadI paNa kharaze nahi. A alaMkAra game te vayamAM ekasarakhI zobhA Apaze. A ja alaMkAra mahApuruSoe paheryA che. bharata cakravartI arIsA-bhuvanamAM AvyA che. tyAgI paNa rAgI thaI jAya evuM e sthAna che. pote suMdara rUpavALA che. prabhAvazALI evuM vyaktitva che. evA prakAranA bharata cakravartI arIsA-bhuvanamAM potAnuM mukha jovA mATe AvyA che. te daramiyAna temanI potAnI AMgaLImAMthI eka vIMTI sarakI jAya che. e vicAra kare che ke vIMTI vinA AMgaLI suMdara lAgatI nathI. to huM vIMTIthI zobhuM ke vIMTI mArAthI zobhe ? koNa konAthI zobhe ? je mANasa kAyama kAMDe ghaDiyALa bAMdhato hoya che ene ghaDiyALa na bAMdhI hoya tyAre hAtha khAlI khAlI lAge che. bahAra nIkaLe tyAre ene potAne gamatuM nathI. vastuo evI vicitra rIte ApaNA upara caDhI beThelI che ke enA vinA jANe ApaNe sArA lAgatA nathI. bharata cakravartI vicAre che H A AMgaLI hIrA-pannAthI zobhatI hatI te Aje kema AvI lAge che ? AhA... vIMTI mArAthI nahotI zobhatI. huM vIMTIthI zobhato hato. emane vicAra Avyo, "mArA pitA bhagavAna RSabhadeva... emane eka 108 * jIvanamAMgalya

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paNa alaMkAra nathI. jene eke dAgIno nathI, jene eke vaibhava nathI, chatAM paNa evA zobhe che ke jagatanA devAdhideva banI rahyA che. e devAdhidevane indranA indro paNa AvIne namI rahyA che. "AhA... e kevA ane eka vIMTIthI zobhanAro huM kevo ? vaga2 vIMTIthI zobhanArA mArA e mahAna pitAno huM Avo putra ?" pachI UMDANathI vicAra karyo ke, "A deha paNa eka alaMkAra che. e paNa mane zobhAvanArI cIja che. mAro AtmA to deha vinA paNa rahI zake che.' AhA... basa e to cintananI pAMkhe ArUDha thayA. e bhAvanAmAM caDhyA ane bhAvanAmAM evA ekAkAra banyA ke enA e arIsA-bhuvanamAM rAga karavAne badale tyAga karI kevaLajJAna pAmI gayA. ApaNI dazA evI banI gaI che ke, bahAranA dekhAvamAM, bahAranAM rUparaMgamAM, bahAranAM ramakaDAMmAM ApaNe rAcyAmAcyA rahIe chIe, ane aMtaranI vAto bhUlI gayA chIe. pariNAme, Aje ApaNe tyAM je vAto thAya che te bahAranI ja vAto thAya che. aMdara paDelA caitanyane bahAra kema lAvavuM, e zaktine kema khIlavavI, AtmAno vicAra kema karavo, e aMgenI vicAraNA ke vAto paNa nathI thatI; ne thAya che to lokone gamatI paNa nathI. lokone bahAranI vAto joIe che. emane bahAranA dekhAvo joIe che. aMtaranuM hIra bahAra pragaTAvavuM nathI, paNa aMtaranuM hIra pragaTe nahi to bahArano dekhAva paNa na zobhe. naMgane mATe alaMkAra che. ene zobhAvanArI vastu che e vAta vIMTImAM naMga zobhe che to vIMTI e zobhAvanArI bahAranI vastu che. vIMTI naMgane sAcI, paNa naMgamAM potAmAM paNa prakAza to hovo ja joIe ne ? hIro ja jo ki2Na vagarano hoya, to ene tame sonAnI vIMTImAM maDho ke enAthI moMghI evI pleTinamanI vIMTImAM mUko topaNa nakAmu ja che, kAraNa ke e naMgamAM ja teja nathI. eTale mahApuruSo jaNAve che ke bahAranI badhIya vastuo kharI, paNa tamAruM aMdaranuM hIra caitanyanuM hIra haze to ja e zobhaze. ne zobhaze to evuM zobhaze ke nA pUcho vAta ! jJAnasAra kahe che, "tArI je bahAranI pUrNatA che, bahAra je dekhAya che, tArI moTaragADI, kapaDAM, pratiSThA, samAjamAM mobhAbharyuM sthAna, dhana, vaibhava, jamIna, jAgIra A badhuMya jANe tane pUrNa banAvatuM hoya ema je tane lAge -- pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 109

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che e bhrama che. tArI e pUrNatA to apUrNatA che, kAraNa ke kAM e tane choDaze, kAM tuM ene choDIza. bemAMthI eka to banaze ja. to jene tAre choDavI paDe agara to je tane choDe ene kharekhara pUrNatA kahevAya kharI ? pUrNatA to e che je tamane na choDe ane tame ene na choDo. bahArathI lAvelI pUrNatA to mAgI lAvelA dAgInA jevI che.'' AtmAnI aMdarathI je pUrNatA pragaTe che te anaMta darzanamaya, anaMta AnaMdamaya, anaMta jJAnamaya, anaMta zAMtimaya ne anaMta sukhamaya hoya che. bahA2no koI paNa padArtha AvIne tamArI e pUrNatAne kSubdha karI zakato nathI. tamArA aMtaramAMthI ja tamArI pUrNatA jo pragaTelI haze ane bahArathI koI mANasa AvIne kaheze ke tame bahu sArA cho, tame bahu guNiyala cho; to e sAMbhaLIne tamane garva nahi thAya. bIjo vaLI AvIne kadAca kaheze ke tame nAlAyaka cho, luccA cho to e vakhate roSa paNa nahi thAya. e kaheze ke mAre zuM ? huM mArAthI pUrNa chuM. e mANasanI stutithI huM pUrNa thavAno nathI, ane A mANasanI niMdAthI huM apUrNa thavAno nathI, huM to je chuM te ja huM chuM, AnI niMdA mArAmAM hInatA lAvI zakavAnI nathI ane pelAnI prazaMsA mArAmAM abhivRddhi karI zakavAnI nathI, kAraNa ke mAruM tattva to juduM ja che. e to 'bahAranA' che ane huM bahAranI vastuothI para chuM. AvI na to harSa, na to zoka, AvI dazA dhIme dhIme keLavavAnI che. ane e keLavavAnI vAta bahu AkarI che. hamaNAM huM kahuM ane mArAmAM AvI jAya ane vaLI pAchI tamArAmAM AvI jAya evI vAta mAnavA jevI nathI. enI pAchaLa ApaNe prayatna karIe, enI pAchaLa ApaNe lAgI rahIe, to sAdhanA karatAM e bAbatamAM ApaNe jarUra saphaLa thaIe. jaDa buddhinA chokarAo jo pahele varSe nApAsa thaI jAya to e kaheze ke, bIjI vAra, pachI trIjI vAra, cothI vAra, pAMcamI vAra ema eka eka (viSaya) laIzuM ane dara varSe parIkSA ApIzuM. sAta varSe sAta viSaya to thaze ne ? ThoTha vidyArthI paNa jo ATalI dhIraja rAkhe to pAsa thaI zake che. AvA, ThoTha vidyArthI karatAM paNa jaIe tevA to ApaNe nathI ja. paNa eka vAta e che ke ene mATeno satata prayatna ApaNe Adaryo nathI. bahArathI dhamAdhama to khUba karIe chIe; paNa aMtaramAM jarAye zAMtino ke sukhano anubhava thAya che kharo ? mauna laIne beThA ho ne khUNAmAM beTho beTho koI vAta karato hoya ke, "maunano dekhAva kare che, paNa pahelA naMbarano bagabhagata che !' AvA zabdo tamArA kAnamAM paDe to tame zuM karo ? 110 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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tame tarata ja enI pAse javAnA ane kahezo, "zuM che ? mArI vAta karo cho ? huM bagabhagata chuM ?".. ane basa kalahanuM pArAyaNa cAlyuM ! A ApaNI eka kasoTI che. e vakhate ApaNe ATalo vicAra karI zakatA nathI ke A tapano samaya che, ane e samaye badhuM bhUlI javuM joIe. e vakhate ene to ema kahevuM joIe ke tuM tAre phAve tema karane bhAI ! atyAre to huM mArAmAM magna chuM. jo ApaNe be ghaDIno sAco AnaMda mANavAnI Teva pADI hoya to e be ghaDInI TevamAMthI ApaNe dhIme dhIme AgaLa vadhI zakIe. paNa, vAta e che ke, eno anubhava je rIte karavo joIe te mATe ApaNe prayatna ja karatA nathI. chApAmAM laDAlaDI kare, "huM moTo ne tuM khoTo' evI je jAherAto chapAve e badhA yogIzvara nathI; e badhA sAdhu paNa nathI; e to badhA bahAranI vAto karanArA che. yogIne to kaMI lAge ja nahi.. e to kahe ke tuM tAre phAve ema kara ane huM mArA mArge dhIme dhIme jauM chuM, Avo mANasa ja sAco yogIzvara bAkI, Aje to niranirALAM vizeSaNo lAge che. evAM vizeSaNo ke te sAMbhaLIne ja ApaNe stabdha thaI jaIe. koI kahe jagadguru to koI kahe bhArata-vikhyAta; koI kahe sAhityaratna to koI kahe kavikulaziromaNi. paNa jo tame AvA ho to duniyA tamane kevI mAnatI hovI joIe ? tame jo kharekhara jagadguru ho to tamArI taraphano Adara kevo hovo joIe ? AkhA jagatanI vAta javA daIe to paNa kaho, tamAro Akho samAja paNa tamane AdarathI mAne che kharo ? tame jo kaviratna ho ke kavikulaziromaNi ho, to to duniyAnA bIjA kavio tamArI ja kavitA vAMcatA hovA joIe. kharekhara, tame jo evA ho to tamArA mukhamAMthI pANI jhare tyAre amRta nItare.... paraMtu hakIkatamAM evuM nathI. Aje to vizeSaNo bahu sahelAM thaI gayAM che. enuM pariNAma e AvI gayuM che ke vizeSaNanuM viziSTa mUlya je rahevuM joIe e Aje rahyuM nathI, zabdo Aje sastA thaI gayA che, ane teno vaparAza chUTathI karavAmAM Ave che. "AcArya' e eka ja vizeSaNa kevuM arthapUrNa che, jemAM batrIsa guNo hoya che. je pAMca indriyone kAbU kare, cAra kaSAyane jIte, paMcAcArane pALe, nava prakAranI brahmamaryAdA rAkhe - AvA prakAranA chatrIsa guNo jemanAmAM hoya te sAco AcArya. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 111

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AjanA AcArya AvA guNavAna che kharA ? thoDAka bhakto bhegA thaIne padavI Ape AcAryanI. padavI ApanAra ja AcArya kone kahevAya te na jANe ane lenAra ahaMkAramAM phulAya. baMne DUbe. alyA, paNa muni thayo eTale mauna rahevAnuM che ane emAMthI samaya maLe tyAre kaMIka bolavAnuM che. paNa A 'muni' ene samajAyuM nathI eTale ene AgaLa vizeSaNa lagADavuM paDe che. eTale kharI vAta to e che ke, jo ApaNe UMDA UtarIne vicArIzuM to khyAla Avaze ke, ApaNe bAhya vAtomAM bahu 2mIe chIe. eTalA badhA 2matA thaI gayA chIe ke gharamAM javAnuM mana thatuM nathI. peluM nAnakaDuM chokaruM dhULamAM ghara banAve, ramata ramyA kare, pharyA kare, bahAra khAya, bahAra rakhaDe, paNa ene yAda AvatuM nathI ke, mArI mA tyAM vATa jue che. mA bolAvI rahI che, eNe rasoI banAvI che. mAre nAhavAnuM che, dhovAnuM che, khAvAnuM che enI kazI khabara pelA chokarAne nathI. e to eka 2matamAMthI bIjI ramata, bIjImAMthI trIjI, trIjImAMthI cothI ane ema ne ema ramatamAM lIna banato jAya che. eTalI badhI eNe ramato mAMDI che ke, e emAM ja magna banI gayuM che. ene kazuM yAda AvatuM nathI. jJAnIo kahe che ke, prabhurUpI mAtA paNa tArI pratIkSA kare che. tane bolAve che : 'tuM aMdara Ava, ane tuM tane anubhava', paraMtu e to evo mohamAM ane bAhya jIvamAM lAgI gayelo che ke te evuM satata jhaMkhyA ja kare che : mAruM nAma Ave, mArI prasiddhi thAya, huM AkhA samAjamAM bahAra AvI jAuM. e badhAmAM tAruM zuM vaLavAnuM ? tane kaI zAMti maLavAnI ? AkhI duniyA tArAM guNagAna gAya, paNa AtmAmAM jo samatA nahi hoya to AkhI duniyAnAM guNagAnathI paNa aMdara sukha nahi maLe. pUrNatAno sAda AvI rahyo che ke, "tuM bahAra na jA. thoDIka vAra paNa tane laIne tuM aMdara Ava. samAdhimAM besIne jo ke tAruM bhUSaNa zuM ? tAro alaMkArazo ? tAro dAgIno karyo ? tuM pUrNa zAthI ?'' 112 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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12. abhaya keLavo jagRhI nagarImAM bhagavAna mahAvIra padhAryA hatA. hajAro naranArIo $ vaMdana karavA mATe taiyAra thaIne UbhAM hatAM. AjanA loko rajAne divase jema sinemA-nATakamAM jAya che, tema e ke jamAnAmAM loko sAdhusaMtone sAMbhaLavA jatA. " basa, mAnava ahIM ja palaTAyo che. huM pahelAMnA jamAnAmAM yuvAno paNa dharma che. sAMbhaLavA ne saMtanAM darzana karavA jatA; jyAre Aje to vRddho paNa nATaka-sinemAmAM jAya che, ane moha temaja raMgarAgamAM rAce che. e vakhate bhagavAna maha pIra padhAratA tyAre badhAMnAM haiyAMmAM ullAsa UchaLato, ja temane haiyAdharapata maLatI ke cAlo; have mohanuM sAmrAjya ghaTaze ne dharmanuM sAmrAjya vadhaze. saunI sAthe, magadhanA samrATa biMbisAra, jemanuM bIjuM nAma zreNika che, te paNa umaLakAbhera satkAravA taiyAra thayA. che biMbisAranI paTarANI ane gaNataMtranA * vadhaze. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 113

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adhyakSa ceTaka rAjAnI putrI celaNA paNa taiyAra thaI. baMne rathamAM beThAM. paNa rathano sArathi ghoDAnI lagAma hAthamAM le eTalAmAM to eka bhayaMkara garjanA saMbhaLAI. sAMbhaLatAM ja sArathinA hAthanI lagAma chUTI gaI. vIjaLI jevA tejasvI ghoDA DhIlADhapha thaI gayA. sarvatra bhaya vyApI gayo. pachI to bIjAo paNa eka pachI eka potAnA rathamAMthI nIce UtaravA lAgyA; Aje bhagavAnanAM darzana karavA nahi javAya, kAraNa ke ApaNane aMtarAyakarma naDe che. sAcI vAta to e che ke ApaNuM nirbaLa tattva ja ApaNA mArgamAM aMtarAya nAkhatuM hoya che. ApaNA pramAdane lIdhe ApaNe satkarma na karIe topaNa ApaNe manane evI rIte manAvIe chIe ke Aje ApaNA nasIbamAM satkarma lakhAyuM nahi hoya. dharmanA zabdono upayoga Aje Ama bahAnAM kADhavA mATe thaI rahyo che. ApaNe ghaNI vAra ema kahIe chIe, Aje mane aMtarAya naDyo eTale dhyAna mATe samaya na maLyo. paNa koI divasa tame ema kahyuM kharuM ke aMtarAyane lIdhe huM Aje dukAna na jaI zakyo ? e vakhate aMtarAya nahi naDavAno, kAraNa ke tyAM tamAro svArtha che. paraMtu jyAre AtmAmAM jAgRti Avaze, tyAre duniyAnuM eka paNa tattva evuM nathI ke je tamArA dharmakAryamAM ADe Ave. muMbaI jevAM zaheromAM mAnavI peTane mATe dUra dUra sudhI doDAdoDa kare che, paraMtu dharma karavA mATe ane pravacana sAMbhaLavA mATe lokone sthaLo dUra paDe che. paraMtu jyAre raMga lAgaze tyAre mAIlo najIka lAgavAnA. jenuM mana joradAra che ene dUra kAMI nathI. jenuM mana nabaLuM che ene najIka kAMI nathI. eTalA mATe kahyuM che ke dUra che e manathI karIne najIka che. eTale, mANasanuM mana nakkI thaI jAya pachI e gAunA gAu ane paMthonA paMtha kApe paNa tyAM pahoMcyA vinA rahe nahi. e vakhate eka mANase kahyuM, "bhagavAnanAM darzana karavA nIkaLanArane duniyAmAM rokanAra koNa che ? paNa bIjAoe kahyuM ke dharmanI pAchaLa bahu ghelo na thA. bhagavAna mahAvIra kAM nAsI javAnA che ?' pelo kahe, ''bIjo avAja sAMbhaLavA mArI pAse kAna nathI. mArA kAnamAM atyAre phakta mahAvIrano avAja AvI rahyo che.'' enA kAnamAM eka ja avAja hato, AMkhamAM eka ja chabI hatI, manamAM eka ja mUrti hatI. e darzana karavA nIkaLyo tyAre gAmanA daravAjA baMdha 114 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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thavAnI aNI para hatA. koIke ene kahyuM ke bahAra to bhaya che. paNa e sAMbhaLyA vinA jotajotAmAM bahAra nIkaLI gayo. ene rokavA mATe bahAra javAnI koInI hiMmata ja nahotI. ApaNA manamAM bhaya che, ane daravAjA baMdha hoya topaNa Dara lAge che. pachI naga22kSakane rAjAe pUchyuM ke badhA salAmata che ? naga22kSake javAba Apyo ke, "nA, pelo Nika bahAra nIkaLI gayo che, ene ghaNuM samajAvyo, paraMtu e to kahe ke mArA kAnamAM phakta bhagavAnano avAja saMbhaLAya che. bIjA mATe mane phurasada nathI; bhagavAnanI chabI sivAya bIjI koI chabI jovAno avakAza nathI; manamAM bhagavAnano ja bhAva 2mI rahyo che.' tyAre zreNike pUchyuM ke, A avAja zeno che ? A bhaya zeno che ? ane gAma kema ATaluM badhuM dhUjI rahyuM che ? tyAre koIke kahyuM ke, "mahArAja, mALaNanI eka rUpALI, khUba suMdara chokarI, chAbaDImAM tAjAM khIlelAM phUlone laI AvatI hatI e Apane yAda Ave che ?'' "hA, yAda Ave che. e chokarI suMdara tAjAM puSpo laIne AvatI hatI. pAchaLa eka mALIno chokaro paNa Avato hato. e baMne nAnapaNathI sAthe ja rahetAM hatAM. emanA bApe baMne vacce prema hovAthI temanAM lagna karI ApyAM hatAM. paNa tenuM zuM ?'' "teo baMne haMmezAM sAthe hoya. dUdha ane pANInA jevI maitrI hatI. phUlo cUMTavA javAnuM hoya topaNa sAthe. mALA gUMthavAnI hoya topaNa sAthe, emanuM eka ja kAma hatuM ke rAjadarabAramAM jaIne je loko prabhupremI hoya temane suMdara mALAo banAvI ApavI. "e loko evAM bhakta hatAM ke potAnA dharma uparAMta badhAya dharmone sanmAnatAM hatAM, eTale bhagavAnane caDAvavAnAM phUla cUMTelAM ke karamAyelAM na hoya, kaLIvALAM ke jUnAM na hoya, rAtre sahaja rIte kharelAM hoya enI khAsa kALajI rAkhatAM. tAjAM puSpo ja bhagavAnane caDhAvavA mATe ApatAM. "potAnA bhagavAna yakSane mATe paNa suMdara mALA banAvatAM. baMne jaNa jaIne e mALA yakSane caDhAvatAM, page lAgatAM ane pachI bahAra AvI, mALI mRdaMga bajAve ane mALaNa nRtya kare. Ama suMdara vAtAvaraNa jAmatuM. loko kahetA ke, bhakti to AnuM nAma.' pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 115

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ApaNe bhagavAna pAse jaIe ane ApaNI jAtane bhUlIe nahi to, bhagavAna pAse gayA ke na gayA barAbara che. bhagavAna pAse jAo tyAre tame tamArI jAtane bhUlI jAo ke huM koNa chuM. AvI AtmavismRti eTale ja bhagavAnanI bhakti. ApaNI jAta jo yAda AvatI hoya to huM ane tuM be judA chIe; ane tyAM majA nathI. sAkara dUdhamAM ogaLyA sivAya kadI mIThAza nahi ApI zake. jo gAMgaDo paDyo haze to gAMgaDo ane dUdha judAM raheze, evI rIte bhagavAnamAM tame ogaLo nahi, eka bano nahi, tyAM sudhI ekatAnI majA tame mANI zakazo nahi. bhakti eTale bIjuM kAMI ja nahi. tyAM tame badhAya bhAva bhUlI jAo ane "huM bhagavAnarUpa eka tAdAbhya banI gayo ane bhagavAna ane huM judA ja nahi' evo bhAva keLavavo joIe. eTalA mATe eka kavie kahyuM che ke, "he mahApUjya, tArI sAthe aikya sAdhavAmAM AbhUSaNo aMtarAyarUpa thAya che. mAre A AbhUSaNa nathI joItAM, kAraNa ke tyAM mane khyAla Ave che ke huM moTo chuM, mArAmAM kaMIka mahattA che, lokomAM mAruM kaMIka sthAna che." jema sAkara dUdhamAM bhaLI jAya che tema mANasa jyAre bhagavAnamAM ekarUpa thAya che tyAre enI mIThAza ane madhuratAnI tole bIjuM kAMI na Ave. Ama mALI ane mALaNa evI bhakti kare che ke jANe puSpa ane parAganI joDI. emanI prIta ane emanAM nRtya loko jyAre jue tyAre kahe ke kharekhara, A baMnenAM jIvananI kalA eTale suMdara nRtya ane bhAvanI kaLA ! gAmanA durjano emane jovA jAya tyAre emanA hRdayamAM sAro bhAva jAgavAne badale durbhAva jAge. temane thAya : AvuM suMdara nRtya, suMdara rUpa, AvI suMdara mALA gUMthe evI A nArI sAthe Avo A mAmUlI mALI zobhe ? enI pAse nathI baMgalo, nathI paisA, nathI kAMI paNa. je zrImaMtone paisA sivAya bIjuM kAMI sUjhe nahi ane potAnA dIkarAnuM zuM thAya che e jue nahi evA zrImaMtonA dIkarA vicAra kare che ke A mALaNane ApaNe koI paNa hisAbe hAtha karavI joIe. ne pachI to e mATenAM kAvatarAM racAvA lAgyAM. pariNAma e AvyuM ke eka divasa e baMne nRtya karavA mATe eka maMdiramAM gayAM tyAre A loko paNa pAchaLa pAchaLa gayA ne pelo mALI mRdaMga vagADato hato tyAM ene pAchaLathI pakaDIne thAMbhalA sAthe bAMdhI dIdho ane enA dekhatAM mALaNanI sAthe kuceSTA karavA lAgyA. A badhuM joI mALIno jIva baLI 116 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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gayo, AMkho lAlacoLa thaI gaI, paNa baMdhanamAM baMdhAyelo hato eTale lAcAra hato. A vakhate enuM mana vicAre caDI gayuM ke ATalAM varSo sudhI meM yakSanI bhakti karI, puSpo caDhAvyAM ane enuM phaLa A ja ke ! enA maMdiranI aMdara julama thAya ane eno javAba kaMI na maLe ? mALI yakSanI sAme joIne bolyo, "he yakSa, tuM have kharekhara yakSa nathI, kema ke meM tArI ATalAM varSo sudhI bhakti karI chatAM tenuM pariNAma kAMI na AvyuM. tArAM dekhatAM ja amArA para A atyAcAra gujarI rahyo che. mUgo mUgo tuM A badhuM joyA kare che. lAge che ke tArAmAM have devapaNuM rahyuM nathI." Ama kahetAM enAmAM jhanUna pragaTyuM. potAnI priyA para thayelA atyAcArane jotAM e krodha ane dhikkArathI bharAI gayo. yakSe mALInA zarIramAM praveza karyo. mALImAM zakti pragaTI, doraDAM chUTI gayAM, ane enuM baLa eTaluM badhuM vadhyuM ke eNe e badhAyane pachADIpachADIne mArI nAkhyA. eka vAra zarIramAM zakti pravezI pachI ene kADhavI bahu muzkela che pachI e zakti daivI hoya ke AsurI hoya. A AsurI zaktithI enA manamAM evo dRDha nizcaya pragaTyo ke AjathI mAre roja cha puruSa ane eka strIne mAravAM. atyAcAra ane anAcAra sAme jo koI avAja na uThAve to eno daMDa prajAne paNa bhogavavo paDe. ApaNe ghaNI vAra kahIe chIe ke, 'ApaNe ApaNuM saMbhALo.' paNa bIjAono guno paNa ApaNe bhogavavAno che eTale prajAmAM eka paNa kharAba tattva praveze to enI asara AkhIya prajA para thAya. tamAruM ghara tame cokhkhuM rAkho paNa tamArA gha2AMgaNe jo kacaro haze to bahAra jatAM tamArA paga kacarAvALA thavAnA che. vaLI bahArathI UDIne e aMdara AvavAno che. samAjanA doSa vyaktine paNa lAgu paDe che. eTalA mATe vyaktinI zuddhi e samAjanI zuddhi che. Ama roja cha puruSa ane eka strI ene maLe nahi tyAM sudhI e jaMpe nahi. loko kahetA hatA ke A arjuna nAmano deva e mALImAM pravezI gayo, eTale arjunamALI thayo. A arasAmAM bhagavAna mahAvIra vihAra karatAM karatAM tyAM nIkaLyA. emane khabara hatI ke roja sAta jaNane mAranAro arjunamALI A pahADomAM pharI rahyo che. chatAM bhagavAna AvyA, kAraNa ke e nirmaLa hatA. emanA hRdayamAM abhaya hato, nayanomAM karuNA hatI. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 117

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jema pANImAM game eTalo aMgAro paDe to paNa aMgAro Tharaze paNa pANI nahi baLe, ema jenI pAse karuNA ane dayAno sAgara che ene duniyAnA duSTono bhaya nathI. bhagavAna to gAmane pAdare nirbhayapaNe AvIne UtaryA. vaMdanA karavA loko pAdare AvavA nIkaLyA, tyAM to AjubAju zorabakora thavA lAgyo. saMdezavAhaka zreNika mahArAjAne samAcAra ApyA, "arjunamALI gAmane pAdare AMTA mAre che. haju sudhI eNe sAta mANasa mAryA nathI eTale e garjanA karI rahyo che." paNa zreNike pUchyuM, "pelA nagarazeThano putra to cAlyo gayo. enI pAse to talavAra, bhAlo ke evuM koI sAdhana paNa nathI. enuM zuM thaze ? zreNikanI AMkhamAM jhaLajhaLiyAM AvyAM. killAnI bArImAMthI jovA lAgyA ke e kyAM jAya che." pelo to dhUnamAM ne dhUnamAM cAlyo jAya che. jenA hRdayanI aMdara bhagavAna che, jenI AMkhomAM bhagavAnanI chabI che, jenA moDhAmAM bhagavAnanuM nAma che, ene bhaya zAno ? bhaya kyAM che ? vicAramAM. vicAramAMthI hiMsA ane vera kADhI nAkho to abhaya ja che. bhaya Ave che enA pahelAM to mANasa potAnA manamAM hiMsAthI, amaitrIthI bhaya Ubho kare che. bhaya eTalo bhayaMkara nathI; jeTalo mANasano bhayavALo vicAra. sudarzana cAlyo jato hoya che tyAM dUrathI pelo arjunamALI Ave che. enI moTI moTI AMkho lAla aMgArA jevI che; moTuM paDachaMda zarIra che. enAM pagalAM siMha jevAM moTAM che, enuM rUdra svarUpa joIne ja mANasa aDadho marI jAya che. ' lohIthI kharaDAyelAM kapaDAMne dhovA mATe sAbu ane pANI joIe. hiMsAne khALavI hoya to ahiMsAthI khALI zakAya. gharamAM koI tapeluM hoya to tame tapo nahi, paNa ThaMDA thAo. e agni hoya to tame pANI thAo. sudarzana to kAyotsarga karI Ubho rahyo. enA manamAMthI zubhecchAnAM AMdolano nIkaLavA lAgyAM, "enuM bhaluM thAo, eno krodha zamI jAo, enI dAnavatA mAnavatAmAM pheravAI jAo, maitrInI madhuratA prasarI jAo." arjunane thayuM ke A zuM thAya che ! huM bhalabhalA mANasane UMcakIne pheMkI dauM chuM, paNa A nAnakaDo mAnavI kevo vahAlo che ! enA mukha para kevI zAMti che ! AMkho kevI suramya che ! mAnavInuM mauna e koIka vAra upadeza ApavA karatAM paNa vadhAre kAma 118 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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karI jAya che. keTalIka paLo evI hoya che ke cUpa rahevuM ja yogya gaNAya ane cUpa vANI karatAM vadhAre bole che ! arjuna jema jema enI najIka Avato gayo tema tema e ogaLato gayo. ane jevo e enI najIka Avyo tevo ja tenI aMdara je yakSa hato e bhAgI gayo. aMdhAruM ajavALA AgaLa keTalI ghaDI TakI zake ? zAMta mALI enI pAse AvIne Ubho rahyo. have enuM zarIra thAka ane zramathI bhInuM bhInuM thaI gayuM. pelA jhanUnane lIdhe e Ama karato hato. jema dArUDiyo, dArUnA kephane lIdhe dhamAdhama kare, ane kepha UtarI jAya eTale maDadA jevo thaI jAya che. sudarzane ene kahyuM, "tuM cAla mArI sAthe. huM jemanI pAse jAuM chuM emanI pAse tAro mela ane glAni nIkaLI jaze." Ama bhagavAna mahAvIra pAse mALIne e laI jAya che tyAM dUrathI mIThI ghaMTaDI jevo avAja saMbhaLAya che. vANI to ghaNI sAMbhaLI paNa bhagavAnanI vANI to koI adbhuta che ! arjunamALI pUche che, "A zuM saMbhaLAya che ?" sudarzana kahe, "haju to dUrathI saMbhaLAya che. najIka cAla, emane jo ane tane samajAze ke ahiMsAno AtmasAkSAtkAra kevo hoya che." baMne bhagavAnanI nikaTa AvyA. paraMtu bhagavAna mahAvIra to AvA krUra pratye paNa karuNA rAkhe che. e to bhagavAna che. ane bhagavAna enuM nAma ke je kharAba kAmo karanAra pratye paNa samabhAva ane karuNA varasAve. bhagavAna to jANe che ke e zuM karIne Avyo che. paNa have zuM ? bhagavAna kevaLajJAnathI jANatA hatA ke A khUnI che, ghaNAM khUna karI Avyo. che. aMtaryAmI badhuM jANe che ane chatAM paNa emanI AMkhamAMthI enA para karuNAnI amIvarSA thaI rahI che. bhagavAne karuNAnI evI dhArAo varasAvI ke eno sparza thatAM ja ene potAnAM hiMsaka kRtyonuM bhAna thayuM : huM kevo pApI chuM ! hRdaya bharAI AvavAthI e haiyAphATa rUdana karavA lAgyo, "kyAM A devI mUrti ane kyAM mAruM adhamatAbharyuM jIvana ! meM keTalAya lokone mAryA, keTalAMyanAM khUna karI nAkhyAM. emaNe mAruM zuM bagADyuM hatuM ke meM emane mArI nAkhyAM ?" mALI bhagavAnanAM caraNamAM mAthuM jhukAvIne kahe che, "he bhagavAna, mAruM zuM thaze ? meM ATaATalAM khUna karyA : meM mArA tanane, manane ane vicArane lohIthI kharaDI nAkhyAM che.' pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 119

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karuNAsAgara bhagavAne kahyuM, "e kharaDAyelA jIvanane prAyazcittathI dhovAno avakAza che. he mALI ! tuM haju paNa sudharI zake che. tuM tArA manane taiyAra kara, tArA pApane haThAvI nAMkhIza, to zreya thaze ja. tAruM aMdaranuM tattva to sArAmAM sAruM che. upara kATa caDyo che.' tyAre pelAe kahyuM, "bhagavAna ! mAro uddhAra karavA mATe mane cAritrya Apo.' bhagavAne ene dIkSA ApI. loko vAto kare che ke, AvA khUnIne paNa bhagavAne dIkSA dIdhI. paNa bhagavAna to jANe che ke vadhAre caDelo mela vadhAre dhovAvAno che. eNe pratijJA karI ke bhagavAna kahe ema mAre ka2vuM. pachI bhagavAne kahyuM, gAmamAM cAra daravAjA che. e dareka daravAje jaI doDha doDha mahinA sudhI tuM kAyotsargamAM Ubho rahe. je jAtanA upasargo Ave te dareka upasargone tuM zAMtithI sahana kara ! A arjunamALI sAdhu thayo. pahelAM gAmanA pUrva daravAje jaIne Ubho rahyo. e sAdhunA vezamAM hato. tyAM eka bharavADa Avyo. bharavADane thayuM ke A e ja sAdhu che jeNe mArA chokarAne mArI nAkhyo hato, ane Aje sAdhunA vezamAM e Ubho che. enI pAse DAMga hatI e enA mAthAmAM mArI. lohInI dhArA vahevA lAgI. arjunamALI vicAra kare che ke te divase meM to enA chokarAne mAryo hato, jyAre eNe to mane DAMga mArI che, te jarA lohI vahe che. kyAM mArI nAkhyo che ? e manamAM vicAra kare che : A bharavADanuM bhaluM thajo ke mArAM karmo khapAvavA mane sahAyatA ApI rahyo che. eTalAmAM eka bIjo bhIla Avyo. eno bhatrIjo AnA hAthe marI gayo hato. kAMTAnI vADamAMthI eNe kAMTAnuM jhAMkharuM lIdhuM ane enA para jhIMkavA lAgyo. arjunanA zarIramAM kAMTA bharAI gayA. vedanA asahya che chatAM potAnI jAtane e pUche che ke, teM bIjAne mAryA haze e vakhate emane keTaluM du:kha thayuM haze ? tane kAMTAnI vedanA khaTake che, paNa bIjAnA to teM prANa lIdhA hatA; e vakhate enuM zuM thayuM haze ? doDha mahino ahIM pUro karI e pazcimamAM gayo. pachI uttaramAM ane dakSiNamAM gayo. Ama cha mahinA sudhI eNe mAra sahana karyo. paththaro khAdhA. lohInI dhArAo vahI. AkhA zarIramAM raMga ke rUpa dekhAya nahi evA prakAranA ghA paDyA paNa eNe nakkI karyuM ke mArA para koI sahAnubhUti na batAve. 120 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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eNe cha mahinA sudhI akhaMDa tapa karyuM. eNe eka paNa durbhAva na keLavyo. enI AMkha AgaLa bhagavAnanI chabI 2matI hatI. ene thayuM ke kevI suMdara karuNA emAMthI nItarI rahI che ! kevo suMdara madhura avAja enA kAnamAM AvI rahyo che ? evo e vicAra kare ane duHkhone samatAthI sahana kare che. ema karatAM karatAM cha mahinA thayA, ane arjunamALInAM badhAMya karmo khapI gayAM. eno AtmA nirmaLa thayo, kAraNa ke eNe potAnA AtmAnuM saMzodhana karyuM. AtmAne dhoI nAMkhyo ane enAM dAnava karatAMya kALAMmAM kALAM karmo hatAM ene sApha karI nAMkhyAM. eno AtmA kAMcana jevo nirmaLa banI gayo. bhagavAnanA eka ja samAgame arjunamALInuM jIvana sudharI gayuM. loko vAto karavA lAgyA ke arjunamALIne sudhAranAra koNa ? ene bhagavAna pAse laI janAra koNa ? ene bhagavAnano samAgama karAvanAra koNa ? pelo eka nAnakaDo vepArI. gAmamAM vAto thavA lAgI ke ApaNe kSatriya thaIne paNa je kAma na karI zakyA e pelo vaNika, je UgatI yuvAnImAM che, suMdara jenI kAyA che, AzA ane anaMta utsAha jenI sAme UbhAM che evo mANasa mRtyunI sAme gayo, ane arjunamALI jevAne paNa eNe ogALI nAMkhyo. loko kahevA lAgyA ke, bhagavAnanA samAgamane pAmanArA baMne mANaso tarI gayA. arjuna mALIe potAnA AtmAne dhoyo, ane A sudarzana zeThe jIvanamAM abhaya keLavyo. A be vastu samajIne ApaNe e vicAra karavAno che ke, arjunamALIe bhagavAnano samAgama sAdhIne aMtarane nirmaLa karyuM, ema ApaNe paNa bhagavAnanI vANI sAMbhaLIne ApaNA aMtarane nirmaLa karIe ane jIvanane abhaya banAvIe. ApaNA para lAgelA doSone ApaNe dUra karIe to ApaNo AtmA paNa sphaTika jevo ujjvaLa ane nirmaLa banI jaze. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 121

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13. AjanA yuvAnone * bAlyakAleSu yaH zAntaH saH zAnta iti me matiH / dhAtuSu kSIyamAneSu zamaH kasya na jAyate / / . subhASitamAM eka sarasa vAta che A kahevAmAM AvI che. bAlyavayamAM * je mANase indriyone zAnta karI che, keLavI * che, teno barAbara sadupayoga karyo che te ja A mANasa sAcI rIte zAMta che. sAtvika marda 1 bAkI, mANasa vRddha thAya, indriyo * zithila thaI jAya, kAma kare nahi tyAre ja kahe ke, have mArI indriyo tophAna karatI nathI. have huM bahu zAMta thaI gayo , to e vAtamAM zuM mAla che ? dAMta paDI gayA pachI koI gaurava le ke have huM sopArI nathI khAto to e vAta te barAbara che ? dAMta paDI gayA pachI sopArI cAvavA jAya to moDhAnI aMdara je peDhAMno che narama bhAga che te chuMdAI gayA vinA rahe ja kharo ? eTale, AvatI kAlanI rAha jovAne 122 : jIvana-mAMgalya

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badale, jyAre yuvAnI hoya, zarIramAM zakti hoya, chAtImAM tAkAta hoya tyAre ja tamArI indriyone barAbara sAce raste vALo ane juo ke tame keTaluM badhuM kAma karI zako cho. samAjano eka varga kahe che ke mANasa kaMI karI zakato nathI. e bApaDo zuM karavAno hato ? e to kudarata AgaLa eka nAcIja vastu che. jyAre bIjo pakSa kahe che ke mANasa badhuM karI zake. kudaratane potAnA caraNe namAvI zake evI zakti ane sAmarthano e svAmI che. A be vicAra-pravAhomAMthI yuvAnone bIjo pakSa pasaMda karavAno che. eTalA mATe ja aMgrejImAM kahevata che ke, "nisarge dharatI ApI ane mANase zahera temaja nagaro vasAvyAM.' kahevAno bhAvArtha ema che ke duniyA to ujjaDa hatI, paNa e ujjaDa duniyAne naMdanavanamAM pheravanAra to mANasa che. mANasa na hota to A duniyA verAna vagaDo banI jAya. ame mAMDavagaDhamAM pharavA gayA hatA. tyAMnI moTI moTI havelIo, UMcAM totiMga makAno, zilAomAM adbhuta kotaraNI - e badhuM joyuM tyAre manamAM ahobhAva jAgyo ke prAcIna bhAratano itihAsa kevAM moTAM sarjana karI zakato hato ! paNa sAthe - sAthe dilamAM eka gamagInI paNa chavAI gaI ke AvuM sarjana karanArA mAnavIonA cAlyA javAthI e sthAna evuM bhayavALuM banI gayuM ke kUtarAM ane ziyALavAM paNa tyAM jatAM gabharAya. AvuM bhayamaya vAtAvaraNa eTalA mATe ja che ke mAnavIe mAnavatAno tyAga karyo che. mAnavI jeno tyAga kare che te jo naMdanavana hoya to paNa ujjaDa banI jAya che; ane mAnavI jenA upara potAnuM hRdaya reDe che, jenI pAchaLa potAnA sAmarthya ane zaktiono upayoga kare che - e ujjaDa hoya, verAna hoya ke araNya hoya to paNa naMdanavanamAM pheravAI jAya che. ApaNe tyAM kahevAya che ke morIyAnuM mahato madIyAnuM... eka nAnakaDA vaDalAnA bIjamAM eka mahAvaDanI zakti paDelI che. Aje bhale bIja sAva nAnakaDuM dekhAtuM hoya, paraMtu e nAnakaDuM bIja dhIme dhIme moTuM thaIne mahAna vaTavRkSa bane che tyAre hajAro vaTemArguone, paMkhIone chAyA Ape che, phaLa Ape che, ArAma ane tAjagI Ape che. bIja ciMtana mAMge che. nAnakaDA bIjanI aMdara vaTavRkSanI zakti samAyelI che. AjanA yuvAno Aje to kaMI lAgatA nathI, paNa AvatI kAlanA samAjanuM ghaDatara emanA hAthamAM che. AjanI vRddha peDhI AthamI gayA pachI tenuM sthAna temaNe levAnuM che. yuvAna peDhImAMthI ja moTI vyaktio pAkavAnI che. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! ja 123

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duniyAmAM je moTA mANaso bane che te kaMI AkAzamAMthI ekadama UtarI paDatA nathI; paNa nAnakaDA mAnavIomAMthI dhIme dhIme vikAsa pAme che, vikAsamAMthI emanuM sarjana thAya che, ane temAMthI te mahAna vyakti bane che. jIvana jIvavA mATe paNa eka dIkSAnI jarUra hoya che. kalikAlasarvajJA bhagavAna hemacaMdrAcAryajI, jemaNe kumArapALane jIvana jIvavA temaja nItipUrvaka rAjya calAvavA mATenI jIvana-dIkSA ApI hatI, temaNe eka subhASitamAM kahyuM che ke, "siMhaNane eka ja putra hoya che, chatAM e nirbhaya thaIne sUI zake che; kAraNa ke, ene khabara che ke eno dIkaro jaMgalamAM ghUme che ane tethI ene koI jAtano bhaya nathI. jyAre gardabhI (gadheDI)nI AsapAsa daza-daza baccAM pharatAM hovA chatAM paNa, ene retInA thelA upADavA paDe che, ane DaphaNAM khAvAM paDe che. daza-daza dIkarA hovA chatAM enA jIvane nirAMta nathI; jyAre siMhaNane eka ja saMtAna hovA chatAM ene kALaje TADhaka che. tame AvA, siMhaNanA saMtAna jevA kema na bano ? tame evo vicAra kema na karo ke gharamAM tame ekalA hovA chatAM paNa tamAre lIdhe tamArI mAtAne, tamArA pitAne, tamArA bAMdhavone ane tamArA vaDIlone zAMti ane sukha hoya. tamArA vicAra, tamArI vANI ane tamAruM vartana joI tamArAM mAbApa, tamArAM vaDIlo ane tamArA svajano manamAM ne manamAM prasanna thAya, evA kema na thavuM ? " tamane joIne emane thAya ke kevA sarasa saguNo che, kevI sarasa ane madhura vANI che, kevuM nirdoSa ane niSkalaMka vartana che, ane kevI suMdara jIvanavyavasthA che ! AvI ahobhAvanA emanA manamAM jAge to ja jIvyuM sArthaka ! tame tamArA jIvanamAM traNa vAtanuM khAsa dhyAna rAkhajo : eka satsaMganuM, bIjuM abhayanuM ane trIjuM keLavaNInuM. bIjA zabdomAM kahuM to, sobata sArI rAkhajo, dila nIDara rAkhajo, ane manane keLavaNI Apajo. tamArA mitro evA hovA joIe ke temanI UMDAmAM UMDI ane khAnagImAM khAnagI vAtamAM paNa kyAMya kaTutA ane gaMdApaNuM na hoya. bagIcAmAM phUlo levA janAre phUlane paNa cUMTIne pasaMda karavAM paDe che. emAM cImaLAyelAM paNa na joIe, ane ardhakhIlelAM paNa na joIe. pUrNa vikasita hoya ene ja loko pasaMda kare che. ApaNe jenI pAse besIe chIe, pharIe-harIe chIe, vAtacIta karIe chIe ane ApaNA kImatI kalAko pasAra karIe chIe te mitro evA hovA joIe ke te khIlelAM suMdara phUlonI jema 124 ja jIvana-mAMgalyA

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zobhA ane suvAsa Ape. pasaMda karAyelA mitro paikI koIka mitra saDelo che, evI khabara paDe eTale saDelA phUlanI jema turata ja tene dUra karavo joIe. 'turata ja' zabda upara bhAra daIne kahevAnuM kAraNa mAtra eTaluM ja che ke, eka saDeluM phUla bIjAM daza sArAM phUlane saDo lagADe che. pAnanI TopalImAM paDelAM pAMcaso-hajAra pAna sAthe baMdhAI gayeluM ekAda saDeluM pAna bIjI savAra Uge te pahelAM pAMca-pacIsa pAnane cepa lagADe che; tema ekAda saDelo mitra ke ekAda saDelo yuvAna ghaNAne naSTa karI nAkhe che. saDelA pAnane lIdhe bIjAM pAna saDI jAya nahi te mATe to pAnavALA kAtara rAkhe che; ane je pAna saDeluM hoya, DAghavALuM hoya tene kApI nAkhe che. e kahe che : poNuM haze to cAlaze, kapAyeluM haze toya cAlaze; paNa saDeluM pAna to nahi ja cAle. e ja rIte tamArA jIvanamAM je bhAga saDelo hoya tene kADhI nAkhatAM zIkho; nahi to tamAruM suMdara ane bagIcA jevuM magaja kharAba vAtothI ukaraDA jevuM thaI jaze. eTale, pahelI vAta e che ke mitro suMdara joIe; kAraNa ke mitrothI ja tame zobhavAnA cho. tamAro mitra jo kharAba kAma karaze to tenI sAthe tame paNa vagovAzo. loko to ema kaheze ke, 'phalANAnI sAthe besato hato te Avo thayo.' vaLI, kharAba kAma tamAro mitra kare ane badanAmI tamane maLe evuM paNa bane, mATe AjathI tame nakkI karajo ke je mitro zarAba ke bIDI pItA hoya, je loko jUThuM bolatA hoya, je loko gALAgALI karatA hoya, je loko gaMdIgaMdhAtI vAto karatA hoya, tevA prakAranA sobatIothI AghA ja rahejo, temane kahejo ke amArI maitrI rAkhavI hoya to badhI barabAdIothI dUra rahevuM paDaze. jo badIo hoya to ame nahi ane ame hoIe to badIo nahi. bemAMthI game te ekano svIkA2 ka2vAnI tamane saMpUrNa chUTa che. tame jo ATaluM dhyAna rAkhazo to tamAruM mitramaMDaLa suMdara banaze. eTaluM suMda2 ke tame je kAMI karazo te suMdara haze. pachI tamArA jIvanamAM eka evuM suMdara svapna nirmAI raheze, je tamane mahAna banavAnI preraNA Apaze. ApaNA sAMskRtika itihAsanAM pAnAM uthalAvazo to jaNAze ke sItAjI, sulasA, gArgI jevI aneka strIo ApaNI saMskRtino Adarza 2jU karatuM jIvana jIvI gaI che. AjanI yuvatIo e vibhUtio jevuM jIvana jIvavAno Adarza pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 125

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nakkI kare to ApaNuM samAjajIvana svarga samuM sohAmaNuM nIvaDe. paNa AjanI ApaNI baheno to pelI eDresa kevo Dresa pahere che, ane e kevAM gIta gAya che, kevI adAthI cAle che, kevAM nRtya kare che enuM anukaraNa kare che. Adarza nArI banavAne badale eksesa banavAnAM svapna seve che. dezanuM A kevuM durbhAgya ! tame atyArathI ja ucca vicAronuM sevana karajo. tamArI pasaMdagI haMmezAM zreSTha hovI joIe. duniyAmAM je loko potAnA jIvana mATe kaniSTha ke aniSTa tattvonI pasaMdagI karI bese che te loko phUTIne ThIkarAM thaI jAya che. tame jo mahAna banavA mAMgatA ho to ucca abhilASAnuM sevana karo. jagatamAM je mahAna tarIke paMkAI gayAM che. emanAM jIvanacaritro bhaNI najara nAkho. Aje je mahApuruSa tarIke oLakhAI rahyA che temanA vartamAna jIvanamAMthI preraNA meLavo. emanI khetabharI jIvanacaryA jhINavaTathI juo, ane pachI nakkI karo ke ApaNe paNa mahAna kema na banIe ? be hAtha, be paga, be kAna, be AMkha, moTuM ane kAna temanI pAse hatAM tevAM ja ApaNI pAse paNa che. ApaNe paNa e zaktiono sadupayoga karavAno che. e zaktiono sadupayoga karo ane pachI juo ke tamArA jIvanamAM kevA prakAranuM UrdhvagAmI parivartana Ave che ! itihAsa kahe che ke duniyAmAM mahApuruSo tarIke keTalAka oLakhAyA che te cAmaDImAM bahu rUDArUpALA nahotA; paraMtu temanA AtmAnuM sauMdarya evuM adbhuta hatuM ke duniyA e sauMdarya para mugdha banI jatI. sAmAnya mAnavIo mAtra cAmaDInI suMdaratA para mugdha bane che, jJAnIo dilanI suMdaratA joI rAjI thAya che. jJAnarUpI bhamarAone tame jo kharekhara AkarSavA mAMgatA ho to tamArA AtmAnA sauMdarya samAM sadAcAra, nIti, asatya, ahiMsA, kAruNya, vAtsalya vagere sadguNone bahAra lAvo. pachI juo, jagatanA itihAsamAM tame paNa zuM karI jAva cho ! tame je pUrNa cho te tamAre pAmavAnuM che. e mATe tame tamArA svapna umadA rAkhajo. manathI saMkalpa karajo ke amAre A jiMdagImAM cokkasa pUrNa banavuM che. comAsAnAM aLasiyAMnI jema kSaNajIvI nathI banavuM. AkhI duniyAmAM kadAca mArA nAmanI hAka na vAge to kaMI nahi, paraMtu huM jyAM vasuM chuM te pradezanI AsapAsa vasatA lokonA haiye ne hoThe mArI jIvana-suvAsa ramI rahe evA mArA svarUpane vikasAvavuM che, evI UMcI saMbhAvanA sevo. 126 * jIvana-mAMgalyA

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tame jo saMkalpa karazo ane e saMkalpa pAra pADavA mATe sahana karazo to ja AvuM jIvana jIvI zakazo. sAcA yuvAnanuM rUpa vALamAM nahi, paNa enA pratyeka aNue aNumAM vilasatuM hoya che. eno saMyama, eno sadAcAra, enI svacchatA, enI svasthatA e ja enA sauMdaryane dIpAvanArAM ane enI suvAsane mahekAvanArAM tattvo hoya che. Aja to chokarAo paNa rUpALA dekhAvA mATe pAuDara lagAve che, krImasno lagADe che. A badhuM eTalA mATe ja karavuM paDe che ke aMdaranuM (AtmAnuM) sauMdarya jANyuM nathI. aMdaranuM tattva khUTI jAya che tyAre ja bahAranI TApaTIpa zarU thAya che. huM to tamane kahuM chuM ke bahAranA e lapeDAMo (kaoNmeTikasa)no moha choDIne tame kaMIka evuM sarjana karo, jIvana tane ane manathI evuM svastha ane sudaDha banAvo ke mAnavajIvana eka bheTa banI jAya. tamAre AgiyA nahi, tArA banavAnuM che. aMdhArI rAte cAlyA jatA pathikane tamAre to mArgadarzana ane AzAbharyuM AzvAsana ApavAnuM che. kharI paDavAno vakhata Ave tyAre paNa tejalisoTo mUkIne tamAre javAnuM che. yuvAnImAM rakhaDyA karazo to AkhI jiMdagI rakhaDavuM paDaze. mATe tamArI juvAnIne saMbhALI lo. ekAgra banI jIvananI keLavaNI meLavI lo. pragatipaMthanAM je traNa pagathiyAM batAvyAM che te A che : Dream, Hope and Admiration. mahAna banavAnI A cAvI che : preraNA ApatuM madhuruM svapna hoya, ujvaLa AzA hoya ane dilamAM anyanI pragati paratvenI kheladilIbharI prazaMsA hoya to tamArA jIvananI pragatine koI rUMdhI zakaze nahi. have ApaNe bIjI vAta para AvIe. jIvanamAM tame sarvathA abhaya raho. koIthI kadI Darazo nahi. jIvanamAM eka mAtra pApa sivAya bIjA kazAthI Darazo nahi. tamArI vANI, tamAruM vartana agara tamArA vicArathI jo pApa thaI jAya to jarUra Darajo. eve prasaMge aMdaranA bhagavAna pAse doDI jaIne pApa sAme rakSaNa mAMgajo. jenA hRdayamAM abhayanuM sAmrAjya sthapAyeluM hoya che ane duniyAmAM koInI bIka nathI. evAo ja duniyAne palaTo ApI zake che. duniyAne navA raMge raMgI zake che. Ama pahelI vAta ApaNe satsaMganI (sArI sobatanI) vicArI, bIjI vAta abhayanI tapAsI, have trIjI vAta vicAravAnI che. A vAta che mananI, keLavaNInI. tame dareka vAta karajo, paNa sAthe sAthe manane keLavatA jajo. mana eka pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! cheka 127

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evI vastu che ke ene keLavavuM paDe che. jema roTalI banAvavI hoya to kaNakane keLavavI paDe, ghaDo banAvavo hoya to mATIne keLavavI paDe, khamIsa banAvavuM hoya to kapaDAne kApakUpane keLavavuM paDe, te ja rIte duniyAmAM keLavyA vagaranI koI paNa vastu kAma lAgatI nathI. tamArA mAnasane paNa tamAre keLavavAnuM che. e keLavaNI mATe zikSaNa e anivArya vastu che. have prazna e Ubho thAya che ke, keLavAyela mANasanI oLakha zI ? binakeLavAyela mANasane daza zabdo kahevA paDe che, jyAre keLavAyela mANasane mATe eka zabda paNa basa thaI jAya che. "A word to a Wise, and a rod to a Fool.' DAhyA mANasane eka zabdanI jarUra che. e tarata samajI jaze. kahevata che ne ke tejIne Takoro ane mUrakhane DaphaNAM ! A rIte tamArA mAnasane jo tame keLavatA jazo to tamAruM magaja ane tamAruM mana sAruM thaI jaze. jema kemerAnI cAMpa dAbatAMveMta ja aMdara rahelI negeTivamAM sAmenuM dazya jhaDapAI jAya che tema, tamAruM mAnasa paNa evuM kAryadakSa banI jaze ke je vAta vaDIlo ke gurujano kaheze e turata ja tamArA mAnasapaTa para aMkAI jaze. tamAruM mana keLavAyeluM haze to tamArI pAse AvatI suMdara vAto tamArA haiyAnI dAbaDImAM sarasa rIte saMgharAI jaze. tamArI pAse A traNa vAto mUkI che : sArI sobata, abhaya ane mananI keLavaNI. mitronI sobata sArI haze to tame phUlanI jema mahekyA karazo. abhaya haze to tamArA dilanI aMdara prakAza chavAyelo raheze. mana keLavAyeluM haze to tamArA AtmAnuM sauMdarya vikAsa pAmatuM jaze. je rIte khetI karatA kheDUta khetaramAM eka dANo vAve che, to khetara tenA vaLataranA rUpamAM asaMkhya dANA Ape che te rIte tamArA jIvana-khetaramAM vicAra-rUpa eka dANo Aje ahIM vAvelo che. mitro ! tenA vaLataranA rUpamAM AcAranA ghaNA dANA pAchA vALazo evI zubhecchA. 128 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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++88 14. prazna-tripuTI ka ziSye gurune prazna pUchyo, "bhagavan, have mane batAvo, ke sauthI sAruM tIrtha kayuM ?" e gurudeve uttara Apyo "svamano vizuddha:" pahelAmAM paheluM tIrtha eTale mana. manane cokhkhuM karyA pachI ja tame jyAM javuM hoya tyAM jajo. tame jyAre tIrthamAM jAva tyAre manamAM jo mela nahi hoya, tamAruM mana jo zuddha haze, tamArA cittamAM rAgadveSanA vicAra nahi hoya, to ja bhagavAnanuM teja tamArA hRda upara paDaze; tamArA hRdayamAM enuM pratibiMba paDaze. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 129 : negeTiva-paoNjhiTivano niyama che ke je negeTiva hoya enA upara koI paNa jAtanI chApa paDelI na hovI joIe. vaLI e evI kaeNbinamAM hovI joIe, ke jyAM svica dabAya, DhAMkaNuM UghaDe ke tarata ja sAme je AkRti hoya te pakaDAI jAya. AnuM kAraNa e che ke negeTiva sApha

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che. jo enAmAM koI DAgha paDI gayo hoya to jyAre tame phoTo levA jAva tyAre phoTo spaSTa Avaze nahi. negeTivane sAcavIne barAbara goThavI devAmAM Ave che ne barAbara taiyArI karIne pelI philmane goThavI rAkhelI hoya che; ne pachI phoTo jyAre levAno hoya tyAre jevI cAMpa dAbo ke tarata ja citra AvI jAya che. ApaNA hRdayane paNa A ja rIte taiyAra karIne javuM paDe che. jAtrA karavA nIkaLatAM pahelAM taiyArI karavAnI hoya che. A taiyArI kaI te jANo cho ? tyAM gayA pachI dhaMdhA aMge koIne kAgaLa lakhavo nahi. koI sodAno vicAra magaja para lAvavo nahi. koI ciMtA mAthe rAkhavI nahi. tyAM gayA pachI ahaMbhAva, prazaMsA, moTAI, stuti vagere rAkhavAM nahi. tyAM jaIe eTale mINa jevA narama banI javuM joIe. Ama evI taiyArI sAthe javuM joIe ke tyAM prabhunuM je darzana karIe tenI chApa hRdaya para UpasI Ave. tame koI maMdiramAM gayA, prakSAla karyo, svaccha thayA, dhUpa karyo ne pachI caMdananI vADakI levA mATe gayA. paNa eTalAmAM pelo vATa joIne beThelo capacapa karIne pUjA karI jAya to ? tamArI AMkhamAM thoDoghaNo paNa lAla raMga to te ghaDIe AvI javAno ja. thoDoka to krodhano raMga AvavAno ja. jo tame paNa sAmAnI jevA avicArI hazo to moTethI bolI UThazo, kaMI bhAnabAna che ke nahi ?" jo tame zANA ane samajadAra hazo to manamAM kahezo ke, "meM dhUpa karyo, huM pUjA karavAnI taiyArImAM ja hato, tyAM A mUrakha mANasa TapakI paDyo." Avo bhAva manamAM jAgI Avaze. paraMtu e vakhate ApaNe to prasanna thavuM joIe ke mArA karatAM AnI bhAvanA kevI UMcI ! eNe tarata ja vinA vilaMbe lAbha laI lIdho ! tamArA manamAM Avo bhAva haze to tame sAmethI ja kahezo, "lo bhAI, pahelAM tame karI lo pUjA." Akhare to je karavAnuM che te bhAvanAthI karavAnuM che. pahelI pUjAno artha hRdayamAM paDelo ja che. tame jo bhAvanA karI to pahelI pUjA thaI gaI ema mAnajo. TUMkamAM kahIe to ApaNuM hRdaya dhIme dhIme evuM zuddha banAvavuM joIe ke vItarAganA bhAvo ApaNA jIvanamaMdiramAM bese; e ja bhAva ApaNA ghera paNa ApaNI sAthe Ave; dukAne paNa ApaNI sAthe Ave; vyavahAramAM paNa ApaNane dore. ApaNA aMtaramAM vaselI zAMti ane ApaNA svabhAvamAM vaselI komaLatA 130 jIvana-mAMgalya

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temaja saumyatAnI asara ApaNA gharanA mANaso upara dhIre dhIre evI sarasa thavI joIe ke jene lIdhe eka navuM ja vAtAvaraNa UbhuM thAya ane loko preraNA le ke, kharekhara A eka sAcA prakA2no dharmI AtmA che.' paNa A tyAre ja banI zake ke ApaNA jIvanamAM saumyatA Ave. paNa jo pUjA karIne ghera janAro mAnavI gharamAM jaIne dhamAdhama ja karI mUke, upavAsa karelo hoya ane jevo pAraNuM ka2vA bese ane kahe, "zuM maga nathI karyA ? tamane to bhAna ja kyAM che ? ame upavAsa karI marI jaIe chIe toye tamane pAraNAno khyAla ja nathI raheto !'' AvA mANasanA upavAsa zAMti kema Ape ? emane upavAsa na karavA hoya to koI parANe karAve che ? upavAsa kaMI maravA mATe nathI karavAnA, amara banavA mATe karavAnA che. kharI vAta to e che ke, jIvane vicAra Avato nathI. krodhamAM AvI jAya che tyAre e ema mAnato hoya che ke jANe meM upavAsa karyo te A badhAnA uddhAra mATe karyo che. sAcI vAta to e che ke, upavAsa e anAhArI pada prApta karavA mATe che. khAvuM e to dehano svabhAva che. na khAvuM e zuddha AtmAno svabhAva che. upavAsa eTale abhayadAnamAM vRddhi zAkadANA bIjI aneka ekendriya vanaspati jIvone paNa abhayadAna Ape che. paraMtu evo svabhAva Ave kyAre ? maga kadAca na thayA hoya to ema kahevuM joIe ke, have maga ka2vAnI jarUra nathI. have to A khAvAnI zarUAta karI che, eTale pANI hoya to cAle, ukALo hoya to cAle. je hoya te cAle. tame ciMtA zA mATe karo cho ? koI ciMtA karatuM hoya to paNa ApaNe samatA ApavI joIe. pelAne ema thAya ke huM khAuM chuM toya mAre khAkharA vinA nathI cAlatuM ane mANase upavAsa karyo toya kahe che ke, mAre kaMI nathI joItuM. Ama tapasvIne joIne je tapa nathI karato ene bhAva thAya. - paraMtu A vAta hRdayamAM sthApavA mATe manane vizuddha karavuM paDe che. vizuddhi vinA badhuM nakAmuM. jeTalI jeTalI vastuo dhovAya che teTalI ja zuddha ane suMdara thAya che. kapaDuM paNa dhovuM paDe che makAna paNa dhovuM paDe che, vastuo paNa dhovI paDe che ane e dhovAya che tyAre ja mela dUra thAya che. to pachI zuM ApaNA manane dhovAnuM ja nahi ? ApaNe badhAyane pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! x 131

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dhovaDAvIzuM. badhAyane cokhkhA karIzuM ane manane nahi dhoIe to kema cAlaze ? manane to paheluM dhovuM paDaze. A mATe ja jJAnIoe kahyuM che ke vItarAganI vANI e tamArA manane dhovA mATenuM nirmaLa ane parama pAvanakArI pANI che. enA jevuM pavitra pANI duniyAmAM eka paNa nathI. eTale e pANIthI tame manane roja dhotA raho. - to huM temane pUchuM chuM ke roja zuM karavA nAhavuM joIe ? kAle to nAhyA hatA, to pachI Aje zuM karavA pharIthI nAhavA jAva cho ? kAle snAna karyuM hovA chatAM jo tamane Aje mela caDyo, dhULa caDhI ema lAgatuM hoya to pachI, kAle sAMbhaLyuM tema Aja paNa sAMbhaLo. tamArI kAyA to vagara dhoye UjaLI thavI joIe. kAyA jyAM sudhI AvI na thAya tyAM sudhI to tamAre nAhavuM ja paDe, e ja rIte tamAruM mana evuM na thAya tyAM sudhI tamAre sadUvANI paNa sAMbhaLavI ja paDe. e sAMbhaLatA raho to tamAruM mana tAjuM rahe, khulluM rahe, zuddha bane, rAgadveSanI gAMTho jo baMdhAI gaI hoya to jarA DhIlI thAya. ATalA mATe ja kahyuM ke jemAM gAMTha ke maLa na hoya tevuM mano vizuddha mana joIe. bIjo prazna pUche che, "mitra haithuM ? duniyAmAM choDavA jevuM zuM che ? javAba maLyo, "na 2 mAmuM - kanaka ane kAma - A beya ApaNane vaLagyAM che, paNa tene choDavAM joIe." mANasa bALaka hoya che tyArathI levAnI zarUAta kare che te mANasa vRddha thAya tyAM sudhI e vRtti cAlu ja hoya che, eTale zarUAta levAthI thAya che ane aMta lUMTavAthI thAya che. lagabhaga jiMdagIbhara A kanaka ane kAmanI ja icchA ane tRSNA mAnavI sevato hoya che. paraMtu ethI tane zuM maLavAnuM che ? eno vidhipUrvaka tyAga karatAM zIkhAya to ja kalyANa thAya... kanaka ane kAma e be vastuo baMne bAjuthI vaLagI paDelI che. eno e svabhAva che ane jene e be vaLage che te mANasa enAthI chUTI zakato nathI ane Azcarya to e che ke enA baMdhanamAM paDelo mAnavI UlaTo potAne vadhAremAM vadhAre mukta mAne che ! je vadhAre paisAdAra hoya te mANasa vadhAre chAtI kADhato cAle che. ene thAya che "huM koNa ? huM moTo mANasa." 132 4 jIvana-mAMgalya

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kharI vAta to e che ke e kedI che. e evo kedI che ke bApaDo rAtanA sukhe UMghI paNa zakato nathI. rAta paDe eTale inkamaTaeNksa, selsaTaeNksa, suparaTeksa vagerenI bhUtAvaLo ene satAve che, ne mRtyuverAne lIdhe to e jhabakI jhabakIne jAge che. eka bhAI kahetA hatA : kala kare so Aja kara, Aja kare so aba; avasara bItA jAta hai phira karoge kaba ?" bIjA bhAIe ene pheravIne bIjI rIte kahyuM: kala mare to Aja mara, Aja mare so aba; mRtyuvero A gayo, phira maroga kaba ?" eTale, have to maravA mATeno paNa TaeNksa AvI gayo. paNa, A Teksa kone mATe che ? - jenI pAse khUba dhana che tene mATe che. jenI pAse ochuM dhana che tene to TaeNksa-baeNksa kaMI vaLagatuM nathI; e to khapa pUratuM raLe che ne khAya che. badhAya copaDA to zeThiyAone rAkhavA paDe che. Teksa ane DyuTI to hoya che. paNa jene bAra mahine traNa hajArathI ochI Avaka thatI hoya ene zuM ? tame lAkha meLavo cho tyAre sarakAra tamArI pAsethI pacAsa-sATha hajAra rUpiyA paDAve che. tame dila prasanna rAkhI dAna nathI karatA to sarakAra tamane raDAvIne tamArI pAsethI dAna karAve che. pahelAMnA loko dravyamAMthI dasa TakA (dazAMza) kADhatA hatA, e vicAratA ke mArA sahadharmIo du:khI na hoya, emanI sthiti sArI hovI joIe. evI emanA dilamAM bhAvanA hatI. potAnA sahadharmIo duHkhI hoya to emanA dilamAM duHkha UbharAtuM hatuM. have sthiti badalAI gaI che. "e enuM phoDI leze. mAre zuM ?' AvI svArthabuddhi vyApaka banI che. eTale ja Aje sarakAra tamArI pAsethI meLavIne garIbane pahoMcatA kare che ! eTale Akhare to sarakAra tamArI pAsethI pharajiyAta dAna karavA mATe ja TaeNksa nAkhe che. Ama, kanaka e evI vastu che ke mAnavI emAM jema vadhAre baMdhAyelo hoya che tema te potAnI jAtane vadhAre mukta mAne che ! jyAre jJAnIo sAcI rIte samaje che ke Avo mAnavI mukta nathI, paNa baMdhAyelo che. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 133

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zAntithI besIne vicAra karavAno che ke ApaNuM jIvana kevI rIte vItI rahyuM che. Aje lokonuM jIvana paNa zAntithI vItatuM nathI ane mRtyu paNa zAntithI thatuM nathI. jIvana jo bagaDI gayuM to maraNa paNa bagaDI jaze. - maraNa vakhate paNa ghaNAnuM dhyAna evI vastuo para hoya che ke sukha ke zAntithI vidAya paNa laI zakatA nathI. maraNa Ave te pahelAM kAmanI bhAvanA chuTI jAya, maraNa Ave te pahelAM kanakano moha chUTI jAya, ne tame chokarAMone kaho ke have tame badhuM saMbhALI lo. have mAruM nAma paisAnI bAbatamAM na lo. paNa dhyAna rAkhajo ke chokarAM vyasanI, lobhI ke svArthI na hoya. Ama tame evI rItanI vyavasthA goThavo ke maraNa vakhate emAM tamAro jIva aTavAI na jAya. have trIjo prazna puchAyo, "roja amAre sAMbhaLavuM zuM ?" javAba maLyo : "gurunA mukhakamalathI jharatAM suvAkyo nitya sAMbhaLo." svayaMprakAzita evA vItarAganA mArganA je pravAsI che te tamane je vAta kaheze te tamArA AtmAnA uddhAra mATenI ja haze. guruonAM vAkyo to tyAganA mArge laI janArAM haze. ghaNA evA hoya che ke tyAganI vAta kare, dharmanI vAta kare, paNa jyAM ghera Ave tyAre badhuM bhUlI kahe, "A tAruM, A mAruM." zreNika mahArAjAnI eka vAta Ave che. bhagavAna mahAvIra padhArelA che. temane sAMbhaLavAnuM rANI celaNAne mana thaI Ave che, eTale dhAraNI rANIne kahe che, "cAlo, ApaNe bhagavAnanuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA jaIe." tyAre meghakumAra kahe che, "huM AvuM ?" tyAre rANI kahe, "hA, tAre to AvavuM ja joIe." ane meghakumAra AvyA. vANI sAMbhaLI ane hRdayamAM evI UMDI UtarI gaI ke jANe korI dharatI para megha varasyo. pachI to bIjA ropAyuM ane UgI nIkaLyuM. paNa je bALajIvo hoya che temane bahu asara karI jAya che. juo ne, vidyArthIo keTalA badhA bhAvanAzALI hoya che ! emane tame eka vAta barAbara samajAvI do ke manamAM utAro to teo "yA homa karIne jhaMpalAvI de che. jyAre pelA to gaNatarI ja karyA kare ne gaNIgaNIne evuM tArave ke, "khode DuMgara ne kADhe uMdara' jevo ghATa thAya. Ama pelA meghakumAre to sAMbhaLyuM. ne saMsAra parathI jIva UThI gayo. ghera AvIne mAne kahyuM, "mA." 134 * jIvana-mAMgalya WWW.jainelibrary.org

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dhAraNI kahe, "zuM che beTA !" to kahe, "mane bhagavAnanI vANI gamI." "to to, beTA ApaNuM bhAgya khUlI gayuM." "paNa, mA ! e vANI mArA hRdayamAM UtarI gaI." "to to ApaNuM ahobhAgya." "paNa, e vANI have mAre amalamAM mUkavAnI che." eTale ?" to kahe, "mAre tyAgI thavAnuM che." are hoya ! tyAgI to bIjA thAya. tAre nahi. tuM to mAro ekano eka dIkaro che. tuM jo tyAga kare to mAruM koNa ? tane to mAre suMdara kanyA paraNAvavI che. tArI e patnIne nIrakhI-nIrakhIne svarga samuM sukha pAmavuM che, mATe beTA, ApaNAthI sAdhu na thavAya." joyuM A ? mAbApa dharmamAM joDe kharAM, paNa tyAganI vAta Ave tyAM kahe, "e tAruM kAma nahi. emAM tane samaja na paDe. e to amAre sAMbhaLavA mATe che." pravacana-zravaNa cittazuddhi mATe kare che. zravaNathI hRdaya dhovAIne ujvaLa thavuM joIe. meghakumAranI jema jIvanamAM parivartana AvavuM joIe. O pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 135

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15. AjanA yugamAM nadarzanamAM koI vAta ekAMte kahevAmAM nathI AvI. Aje keTalAka $ loko jIvanane ekalakSI banAvI mAtra kriyA para ja mahattva Ape to te kema cAle ? kAraNa ke syAdvAda-anekAMtanI daSTie koI ekane ApaNuM madhyabiMdu banAvavA chatAM ja jIvana vizenI anekavidha bAbatono paNa che. ApaNe sApekSa khyAla rAkhavo paDaze. . Ajano yuga eka rIte jJAnano yuga 7 che. vyAvahArika zikSaNa ane dhArmika zikSaNa te e baMne vaccenA bheda temaja jIvanamAM e baMnenuM zuM sthAna che, te ApaNe samajI levuM $ paDaze. vyAvahArika zikSaNanI jarUriyAta temaja upayogitA to Aje jIvanamAM dareka kSetre jovAmAM Ave che ane divase divase vadhatI jatI aneka yunivarsiTIomAM temaja kolejomAM abhyAsa karI vidyArthIo DigrI ja meLave che, e uparathI ja ApaNane khyAla ja AvI jAya che. ema.bI.bI.esa nI DigrI dharAvanAra 136 ka jIvana-mAMgalya WWW.jainelibrary.org

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hoya to ApaNe samajI zakIe chIe ke te zarIrazAstrano niSNAta che. te ja rIte sI.e.nI DigrI dharAvanArane te hisAba ane nAmAkhAtAno niSNAta che ema ApaNI samajamAM AvI jAya che. dhArmika zikSaNanI bAbatamAM abhyAsanI koI AvI DigrI hotI nathI, ane tenA zikSakonI pasaMdagImAM paNa khAsa dhoraNa jevuM hotuM nathI. Ajano yuga dhArmika ane vyAvahArika zikSaNano samanvaya ka2vAno yuga che. thoDA vakhata pahelAM zistapAlana vize ApaNA dezanA vidyArthIomAM vadhatI jatI bedarakArI ane vaNasatI paristhiti aMge tapAsa karavA mATe sarakAre eka kamizana nImyuM hatuM, ane temAM ApaNA rASTrapati ane muMbaInA mAjI gavarnara zrIprakAza jevA vidvAna sabhyo hatA. temaNe saMzodhana karI je riporTa taiyAra karyo temAM mukhya e vAta hatI ke kaoNlejanA vidyArthIone vyavahArika zikSaNanI sAthosAtha AdhyAtmika zikSaNa paNa ApavuM jarUranuM che. Ama thatAM vidyArthIjagatamAM Aje je avyavasthA ane zistapAlanano anubhava jovAmAM Ave che, te dUra thaze. Ama AdhyAtmika zikSaNanI agatyatA rASTrapatie svIkArI che. pAThazALAomAM chokarAone dhArmika sUtro zikhavADavAmAM Ave che, ane tethI bALakone jarUrI dhArmika zikSaNa maLI rahe che, ema saMtoSa mAnI laIe te barobara nathI. hAIskUlonAM AgalAM dhoraNomAM abhyAsa karatA temaja kaoNlejomAM bhaNatA vidyArthIone dhArmika zikSaNa bAbatamAM saMtoSa ApI zake tevA zikSakonI tyAM khoTa che, ane A UNapane kAraNe ja bALako dhArmika abhyAsamAM 2sa laI zakatAM nathI, kAraNa ke evA abhyAsathI temanI bhUkha saMtoSAtI nathI. moTI uMmaranAM bALakone jyAre pAThazALAmAM javAnuM kahevAmAM Ave che tyAre teo vyAvahArika zikSaNanA bojAnI vAta 2jU kare che, ane eve vakhate ApaNe bALakonI vAta sAthe saMmata thaI jaIe chIe. vAstavika paristhiti to e che ke AjanAM mAbApone temanA dhamAliyA jIvananA kAraNe, bALakone pAThazALAmAM javAnuM kema gamatuM nathI, temaja dhArmika abhyAsamAM temane kema rasa paDato nathI, tenAM kAraNomAM UMDA UtaravAnI phurasada ja nathI, ane tethI to paristhiti sudharavAne badale vaNasatI javAnI che. A mATe mArI pAse aneka vidyArthIo carcA arthe Ave che, ane te parathI mane lAge che ke AjanA vidyArthIomAM AdhyAtmika zikSaNanI bhUkha to che ja, paraMtu vartamAna dhArmika zikSaNanI paddhati ane avyavasthAnA kA2Ne teonI AvI bhUkha saMtoSAtI nathI, ane tethI ja teone dhArmika abhyAsamAM pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 137

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rasa paDato nathI. mane yAda che ke eka vakhata amArA eka prauDha uMmaranA zikSaka pAse bALako sUtronI gAthAo bolI rahyAM hatAM. tyAM eka vidyArthIe prazna karyo ke, sAheba ! sUrya savAre Uge che ane sAMjanA Athame che, paNa jagatamAM koI evo pradeza hoI zake kharo ke jyAM sUrya divasonA divaso sudhI Athame ja nahi ? A dhArmika zikSakane bhUgoLanuM jJAna na hovAthI pelA vidyArthIne mUrkhAI bharelo prazna pUche che ema kahI besADI dIdho. AvI paristhiti ApaNI moTA bhAganI pAThazALAomAM pravarte che. vidyArthIo potAnI jijJAsA saMtoSavA eka ThekANethI bIje ThekANe jAya che, paNa koI sthaLe emane mUrkha gaNI hasI kADhe che, to vaLI koI sthaLe emane jaDa gaNI hAMkI kADhavAmAM Ave che, to vaLI koI sthaLe ene nAstika kahI tiraskAravAmAM Ave che. AnA pariNAme vidyArthIo kaMTALI jAya che, ane dhArmika abhyAsamAMthI temanI zraddhA ja UThI jAya che. eTale prathama to Aje pAThazALAomAM evA zikSakanI jarUra che ke jemaNe dhArmika abhyAsa sAthe saMpUrNa vijJAnanuM jJAna paNa lIdheluM hoya, dRSTinI vizALatA hoya, mAtra sUtronI gAthAo gokhAvyA ja kare evA zikSako vartamAnakALe ApaNI pAThazALAomAM nahi cAle, ane e ja rIte kaoNleja temaja hAIskUlomAM paNa vyAvahArika sAthe AdhyAtmika zikSaNa dharAvanArA zikSako ane prophesaronI pasaMdagI karavAmAM Avaze tyAre ja vidyArthIomAM pravartatI azista nAbUda thaze. kriyA ApaNA AtmA mATe che, ApaNo AtmA kriyA mATe nathI, e ApaNe haMmezAM yAda rAkhavAnuM che. jo dareka kriyA vivekapUrvaka karavAmAM AvatI hoya, to evI kriyA karanArane koI pApakarmanuM baMdhana thatuM nathI. zrI dazavaikAlika sUtramAM kahyuM che ke je vivekathI cAle, vivekathI Ubho rahe, vivekathI sUe, vivekapUrvaka bhojana kare ane vivekapUrvaka bole to te pApakarmathI baMdhAto nathI. deha ane AtmA vaccenA bheda paNa ApaNe samajI levA joIe. koI mANasa eka hAthamAM ghIno loTo ane bIjA hAthamAM chAzano loTo rAkhI mArge cAlyo jAya, ane sAmethI koI doDatuM AvatuM hoya to tenI aDapheTamAMthI bacavA mATe e mANasa e rIte tarI jaze ke jethI chAzanA loTAnA bhoge paNa ghInA loTAne AMca na Ave. A rIte kAyAnA bhoge AtmAnuM rakSaNa karI zakAya, paNa AtmAnA bhoge kAyAnuM rakSaNa na ja thaI zake. AvI rIte sarjana ane visarjana vaccenA bheda paNa ApaNe jANI levA rahyA. eka kaLAkArane bhavya pratimA taiyAra karatAM varasonAM va2so lAge che, tyAre bIjo mANasa kuhADAnA ghAthI thoDI kSaNomAM ja te pratimAnuM khaMDana karI 138 : jIvana-mAMgalya

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nAkhe che, e bemAM vadhu zakti pratimAne khaMDita karanAramAM nahi paNa sarjana karanAramAM che; kAraNa ke sarjana karavAmAM jJAnazaktinI jarUra paDe che; jyAre nAza karavAmAM to jaDatAnI jarUra paDe che. AjanA yugamAM bhautika zaktino upayoga moTA bhAge visarjana karavAmAM thAya che, paNa sarjana ka2vAmAM to AdhyAtmika zaktinI ja jarUra paDe. yuropanA eka suprasiddha kaLAkAre eka suMdara bALakanuM citra taiyAra karyuM. bALakanuM citra evuM to AkarSaka ane kaLAyukta hatuM ke ghaDI be ghaDI ApaNe enI tarapha joI ja rahIe. enA moDhA paranA saraLa ane vinamra bhAvo, tathA hoTha paranuM mRdu hAsya evAM to alaukika hatAM ke jonAranA manamAM nirmaLatA ane nirdoSatAno saMcAra thAya. thoDAM varaso bAda e citrakAre eka duSTa puruSanuM citra taiyAra karyuM ane te mATe eka bhayaMkara caherAvALA mANasane paNa zodhI kADhyo. enI krUra AMkho, vikarALa cahero, phUleluM nAka, UpaselA hoTha evAM to bihAmaNAM hatAM ke citra jotAM ghRNA ane tiraskAranA bhAva jAgrata thAya! pachI eka pradarzanamAM e baMne citrone teNe sAthe bAjubAjumAM mUkyAM. baMne citro ekabIjAthI viruddha prakAranAM citro hatAM. eka divasa eka mAnavI te pradarzana jovA Avyo, ane citro jotAM jotAM pelAM be citronI pAse AvI pahoMcyo. pelAM be citrone joIne te to poke poke raDavA ja lAgyo. ene raDato joIne tenI AsapAsa mANasonuM ToLuM jAmI gayuM ane tene rovAnuM kAraNa pUchatAM teNe potAnuM moDhuM baMne hAtho vaDe DhAMkIne kahyuM ke A baMne citro bhinna bhinna vyaktinAM nathI paNa eka ja vyaktinAM che, ane te vyakti anya koI nathI paNa huM pote ja chuM. A baMne citro joI mArA bhUtakALanA svarUpanI vartamAna svarUpa sAthe saheje sarakhAmaNI thaI gaI, ane te vicAre hradayane AghAta thayo. huM raDuM chuM mArA patanane. ApaNe ApaNI jAtane ja bhUlI gayA chIe. paNa AjanA vijJAnayugamAM sauthI moTAmAM moTI jarUra to ApaNe ApaNI jAtane ja oLakhavAnI che. AdhyAtmika zikSaNa mANasane svanAM darzana tarapha dore che ane te ja jJAna sAcuM jJAna che. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! x 139

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+6+>&>8<+ >>? 16. jIvanasAphalyanI cAvI pra kRti-saumyatva e eka mahattvano sadguNa che. emAM evI saMkalanA che ke, eka vastu Ave to bIjI Ave ane bIjI Ave pachI trIjI Ave. eTale, eka vastu pahelAM taiyAra na thaI hoya to, bIjI vastumAM pachI muzkelI paDe che, ane bIjI taiyAra na hoya to trIjI paNa agharI paDe, mATe ja guNanI saMkalanA karavAmAM AvI che. kSudratAno tyAga kare to ja mANasa saumya bane che. jJAnIo ApaNane dekhAva ka2vAnuM nathI kahetA. e to AcaraNamAM utAravAnuM ja kahe che. Dela kArnegIe jIvanamAM AgaLa vadhavAnI samaja ApatuM pustaka lakhyuM che, e pustakanuM nAma che. 'How to win the Friends and Influence the People'. A pustakanI lAkho nakalo duniyAmAM khapI gaI che. gujarAtImAM paNa enI lAkho nakalo UpaDI che ! 140 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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mAre tamane saune ahIM pUchavuM che ke, emAM ane A mahApuruSonI vAtamAM phara zo che ? lekhaka ema kahe che ke tame saumyatA ane sabhyatAno dekhAva rAkho; jyAre mahApuruSo kahe che ke, dekhAva nahi; tame ene tamArA jIvanamAM vaNI nAkho. dekhAva to chetaravA mATe che, jyAre evA guNane jIvanamAM vaNavAnI kriyA ApaNI jAtane sudhAravA mATe che. jJAnIo kahe che ke dekhAva duniyAmAM mAna apAvaze, paNa ethI AtmAnuM kalyANa ke aMtaramAM sukha nahi thAya. AtmAnuM kalyANa karavuM hoya to aMdarathI sudharo. davAo paNa A be prakAranI hoya che. mAthuM du:khatuM hoya tyAre ApaNe bAma lagADIe chIe, TIkaDI laIe chIe, ne ema ArAma anubhavIe chIe. bIjI davA vicAranA mULamAMthI udbhavI hoya che : A mAthuM dukhyuM to kharuM, paNa e dukhyuM zenAthI ? A praznamAMthI e zodhI kADhe che ke kabajiyAta che, peTamAM khoTo bharAvo thayelo che eTale mAthuM duHkhe che. A pachI e peTano bagADa kADhavAnI davA Ape che. A AMtarika davA che. bahAra bAma bhale lagADo; paNa aMdarano maLa jaze nahi agara koI ciMtAthI mAthuM duHkhatuM hoya to ciMtA jAya nahi tyAM sudhI ArAma thAya nahi. A rIte jJAnIo paNa ApaNane aMtaranI davA batAve che. e kahe che ke bahAranI saumyatA tame ghaDIbhara rAkhazo, paNa jo te aMtaramAM UtarI nahi hoya to koIka divasa paNa eno bhaDako thayA vinA rahevAno nathI. tamArI prakRtimAM vaNAyA vagaranI koI paNa vastu lAMbo kALa TakavAnI nathI. eTale, tame je vastu karavA mAgatA ho tene tamArA lohInI aMdara ekAkAra banAvI do. ema karazo tyAre e vastu tamAruM jIvana banI jaze. pachI tame UMghatA hazo ke jAgatA hazo, paNa tamArI prakRti tamane nahi choDe. prakRtiM yatti mUtAne nirda: hi risthati ?" koInI upara tame game tevuM dabANa lAvazo, game teTalI cokI rAkhazo, game teTalI cAMpatI najara rAkhazo, paNa mAnavInI prakRtimAM je vaNAI gayuM tenI sAme bahAranuM niyaMtraNa kazAya kAmamAM nahi Ave. mANasa hoziyAra che. bahAranAM game teTalAM niyaMtraNo haze to paNa e dhAreluM karyA vinA nahi rahe - bhalene pachI AsapAsa aneka cokIdAra mukAI gayA hoya. eTale bahAranuM niyaMtraNa kadAcita thoDI vAra sudhI raheze kharuM, paNa jo e enI prakRtimAM palaTo nahi Ave to e vALelI kamAnanI jema raheze. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! cheka 141

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jyAre kamAna chUTaze tyAre Dabala jorathI UchaLaze, athavA taLAvamAM taratA TUMbaDA jevI dazA thaze. upara hAtha dabAyelo rAkhazo tyAM sudhI aMdara raheze ne hAtha uThAvI lezo ke tarata ja jozabhera upara AvI jaze. loko bahArathI niyaMtraNa mUkavAmAM mAnatA hoya che. loko samajaNane nahi, jorane mahattva ApatA thayA che. jorajulama ne dabANane lIdhe je vastu dabAIne beThelI hoya che te chUTavAnI vATa joIne beThelI hoya che. ane tethI ja chUTe che tyAre bamaNA jorathI uchALo mAre che. daDAne jo koI ThekANe mUkavo hoya to dhIrethI mUkavo paDaze; jorathI pheMkazo to to bamaNo UchaLaze, ane jemAM mUkavo haze tenAthI viruddha dizAmAM cAlyo jaze. daDo jo ApaNe UbhA hoIe tenI sAmenI dIvAle pheMkIe to divAle athaDAIne pAcho ApaNA hAthamAM Ave che, e to sau jANIe chIe ja. kriyA ane pratikriyA (Actions and Reactions) e sAyansano ane mAnasazAstrano eka niyama che. eTale jyAre tamArI pAse vicAra Ave tyAre e kyAMthI Avyo e pahelAM samajo, enI sAthe vicAraNA karo ane pachI ja AcaraNamAM mUko. je mANasa samajIne krodhane choDe che te mANasa hajAro rUpiyAnuM nukasAna thaze chatAM krodha nahi kare, kAraNa ke e saumyatA e enI prakRtinuM aMga banI gayuM che. namratAne je samaje che te vyakti game teTalAM pralobhano maLaze chatAM paNa ahaMkAramAM nahi lapaTAya, kAraNa ke namratA e enI prakRtinuM eka aMga banI gayuM hoya che. te ja rIte, je loko saMtoSamAM samaje che te lokonI sAme dhanano moTo Dhagalo karI nAkhazo to paNa e tenI sAme najara sudhdhAM nahi nAkhe. e to kaheze ke, mAre ciMtA zuM karavA levI ? AryAvartamAM je graMthonI racanA thaI che te saMtoSI saMtoe karI che ane tethI temanA jIvananI suvAsa paNa emAM rahelI che. vilAsI mANaso ane duniyAnI bhautika saMpatti pAchaLa ghelA thayelA mANasoe lakheluM lakhANa kadAcita tamane uzkerATa ApanAruM nIvaDaze, paraMtu e tamArA dilane zAnta karI zakaze nahi. Aje navalakathAo lakhAya che, paNa lekhako to enI vadhAremAM vadhAre 142 * jIvana-mAMgalya WWW.jainelibrary.org

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AvRttio bahAra pADIne vadhumAM vadhu paisA kema lUMTavA enA rastA zodhatA hoya che. eTale emanA e lakhANanI pAchaLa paNa tRSNAnI Aga paDI hoya che. ane tethI ja temanuM sAhitya vAMcanArI prajA asaMtoSanA bhaDakAmAM baLI rahI hoya che, kAraNa ke lakhanArAonA dilano Ataza emanAM lakhANomAM paDyo hoya che. jemanAM citta haryuMbharyAM che, jemanAM mana prazAMta che, jeo saMtoSanI aMdara magna che, emanAM mukhanI vANI zAMti samAdhAna ApanArI hoya che. AvuM samAdhAna ane zAMti pelA asaMtoSanI AgamAM baLanAro mAnavI kyAMthI ApI zake ? eTalA mATe ja pelA RSi-munio ane tyAgIo bhale dehamAM rahetA hatA chatAM temaNe samajaNa dvArA manane keLavyuM hatuM. sAdhu hoya ke saMsArI hoya, teNe dehanA dharmo, dehanI mAMga to poSavI ja paDaze, paraMtu e mATeno yogya vicAra karIne tenA upara maryAdA mUkavI enuM nAma "viveka', ane maryAdA na mUkavI enuM nAma "aviveka'. je maLe temAM saMtoSa mAnanAro mANasa kharekhara vivekavAna che. zrImaMtonuM e kAma che ke je loko virakta hoya temanI khabara rAkhavI. virakta jo mAgavA jAya to e bhikhArI banI jAya. tamAre ATalA rUpiyA bharavA paDaze ema samajavuM. sAdhune phaMDaphALAnI zI jarUra che ? icchA evI hoya ke koI icchA ja na janme.' 'nahi joIe' evI dazA aMtaramAMthI uddabhavavI joIe. e dazA Ave tyAre enI mastIno AnaMda kaMI judo ja hoya ! pahelAM tyAgIonuM kAma e hatuM ke te saMsAra tarapha upekSA sevatA ane saMsAranA rogIo temanI khabara rAkhatA. A rIte baMneno samanvayAtmaka dharma jaLavAto. Aje A baMne potapotAnA jIvanano paMtha cUkI gayA che. pariNAma e AvI gayuM che ke, sAdhuo ghe2-ghe2 mAgatA phare che ane tene lIdhe sAdhutAnuM darzana je pahelAM mAnavI mATe gauravanI gAthA samuM hatuM te Aje bhayarUpa banyuM che. Aje saMsArI jana ema mAnato thayo che ke sAdhune to thoDA paisAthI kharIdI zakAze. eTale moTA paisAdAro mAne che ke Akhare mahArAja javAnA kyAM che ! chevaTe to ApaNA bAraNe AMTo mAravA AvavAnA ja ! pAMca-daza hajAra rUpiyA joItA haze to TIpa laIne ApaNI ja pAse Avaze ne ! bIje kyAM pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! : 143

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jaze ? pariNAme, emanA mananI aMdara eka evI rAI AvI gaI che ke amArI pAse paisA che, ane paisA haze to ame sAdhuone paNa kharIdI zakIzuM. jyAre eka jamAnAmAM eka havA evI hatI ke sAdhuo ema samajatA ke sAdhutAne kharIdavA mATe sAdhutA ja joIe. sAdhutA e kaMI duniyAnI vastuothI kharIdI zakAya evI sastI vastu nathI. tame je kArya karavA beso temAM jyAM sudhI tamAruM Atmavilopana nahi thAya tyAM sudhI tamane e kArya AnaMda nahi Ape, bhale pachI e duniyAno vyavahAra hoya, bhagavAnanI bhakti hoya ke bALakane khAvA-pIvAnuM ApavAnuM hoya. tame je kAma karavA beThA ho temAM Atma-vilopana karazo to ja te vastu tamane AnaMdadAyaka banaze. bALakane AyA paNa dUdha pAtI hoya che ane mA paNa dUdha pAtI hoya che, chatAM baMnenI dUdha pAvAnI kriyAmAM keTalo badho phera paDe che ? rasoiyo roTalI banAvI Ape ane gharanI strI roTalI banAvI Ape e bemAM aMtara kharuM ke nahi ? strInA hAthanI banAvelI rasoI pIrasavAmAM Ave che tyAre tenI pAchaLa bhAvanA hoya che, arpaNa hoya che, prema hoya che ane sevAno saMbaMdha hoya che. bhADUtI mANasa to roTalIo banAvI banAvIne pheMke ja jAya che. tenI pAchaLa kevaLa paisAno saMbaMdha hoya che, lAgaNIno koI pravAha hoto nathI. mAM bALakane dUdha pAtI hoya tyAre dUdha sAthe heta paNa pAtI hoya che. AyAnuM dUdha pInAra bALakanuM zarIra kadAca puSTa thaze, paraMtu AtmA puSTa nahi bane. Aje moTAM gharanAM chokarAMo AyAonA hAthamAM Uchare che. e bicArAMone mAtasneha maLato nathI. pariNAme mAtRsneha, mAtRsaMskAra ane mAtRhArda meLavyA vinAnAM bALako vikRta (Abnormal) bane che. temanI A vikRti mA-bApane ghaDapaNamAM sahevI paDe che, kAraNa ke e chokarAM mAbApanA duzmana bane che. saMskAranuM siMcana pAmyA vinA Abnormal baneluM bALaka jema jema moTuM thatuM jAya che tema tema vadhAre vikRta banatuM jAya che, ane tene lIdhe AsapAsanuM vAtAvaraNa paNa jherI bane che. e jhera cAre bAju vistAra pAme che. eTalA mATe ja kahyuM che ke bhAvanA e koI judI vastu che. bhAvanApUrvaka tamArA kAmamAM Atmavisarjana ane AtmanimagnatA UbhI karazo to e kAma dIpI UThaze. mANasa jyArathI mAtra duniyAnI ja vastuo bhegI karavA mAMDe che 144 3 jIvana-mAMgalyA

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tyArathI aMtaranI duniyA khovA mAMDe che. aMtaranI duniyAne sajAvavI haze to bahAranI vastuone ochI karyA vinA Aro AvavAno nathI. ApaNe bahAranI vastuono saMgraha eTalo badho vadhAryo che ke, ApaNA aMtaranuM dIvAnakhAnuM Aje sAva khAlI thaI gayuM che. Aje mAnavInuM dhyAna bahAranI vastuonA saMgraha upara kendrita thayuM che ane aMtaranI duniyAnuM sAva devALuM nIkaLyuM che, mAnavInA jIvanamAM koI Adarza nathI, koI bhAvanAmaya svapna nathI. ane tyAre mAnavI bahAranI duniyA bhegI karyA vinA kare paNa zuM ? eTalA mATe ja mANasanA jIvanamAM zreyAtmaka koIka svapna; dhyeyAtmaka eka vicAra to hovo joIe, jenA AdhAre mAnavI jIvanamAM dhIme dhIme AgaLa vadhI zake. ApaNA jIvanamAM ApaNane thAka to tyAre ja lAge che ke jyAre ApaNA manamAM koIka kAma pAchaLano Adarza nathI hoto. jenA jIvanamAM koI dhyeya nathI hotuM tenuM jIvana vaitarA jevuM banI jAya che. ahIM koIka phUTapAthano bhikhArI che, to koIka vaLI maMdirano, mahelano bhikhArI che. Akhare mana to baMnenAM sarakhAM che. koIkane so joIe che, koIkane hajAra joIe che to koIkane lAkha ke karoDa joIe che. bhikhArIonI kakSAmAM kaMI phera nathI. mana to e ja che. hA, dekhAvamAM thoDoka phera che kharo. jyAM sudhI mananI bhUkha marI nathI, je che temAM saMtoSa pragaTyo nathI; tyAM sudhI dila bhikSuka ja che. ane A bhikhArIvRtti ApaNane dhIme dhIme hIna banAvI deze. jema eka suMdara puSpa para bhamaro AvIne temAMthI rasa cUsI le che, chatAM puSpane duHkha thatuM nathI ke ene cImaLAvI nAkhato nathI; ane chatAM potAnA AtmAne saMtRpta kare che e ja rIte A duniyAnI aMdara sAdhu koIne tyAM levA mATe jAya tyAre pelAnuM rasoDuM khAlI karIne cAlyo nathI Avato, paNa ene tyAM banAvelI vastuomAMthI thoDuMka thoDuMka le che, jethI ApanArane tyAM ochuM thAya nahi ane potAnuM kAma cAlI rahe. Ama be-cAra gherathI meLavIne potAnA AtmAne paritRpta kare che. ane Ama pharavA jatAMya na maLe to sAdhune duHkha nahi thAya. maLI jAya to saMyama paLAya che ane na paLAya to tapovRddhi thAya che. maLI jAya topaNa majA che, na maLe topaNa majA che. idhara bhI vAha vAha, udhara bhI vAha vAha. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! = 145

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AvA tyAgano raMga bahu UMDo hoya che. ApaNA AtmAne Avo ja raMga lagADavAno che. ApaNane atyAre je raMga lAgyo che te hajI kAco che. ApaNane coLamajIThano raMga nathI lAgyo. eka vAra raMgAI to jaIe chIe, paNa pharIthI prasaMganA pANImAM jhabakoLAtAM raMga gumAvIe chIe. darekamAM saMtoSa, darekamAM zAMti, darekamAM samAdhAna A raMgo ja jIvanane sArI rIte jhaLakAvanArA raMgo che. jIvanamAM saphaLatA meLavavAnI amUlya cAvI 'svabhAvanI keLavaNI' che. ApaNe ghaNA lokone kahIe chIe ke, huM to bahu saMtoSI chuM, paNa mananI aMdara kaMIka meLavavAnI Aga to satata baLatI ja hoya che. krodha, mAna, mAyA ane lobha A cAra jIvananI AsapAsa pharanArAM baMdhano che. e cArecAra baMdhano hovA chatAM ApaNe ghaNI vAra bahArathI saumya dekhAIe chIe. paNa bhagavAne to kahyuM che ke, "tAre krodhane upazAMtithI haNI nAkhavo joIe, ane prakRtine saumyatAmaya banAvI devI joIe. namratA vaDe tArA ahamne tAre haNI nAkhavo joIe, ane prakRtine namratAmaya banAvavI joIe. tAre saMtoSa vaDe lobhane haNI nAkhavo joIe jethI tArI prakRti parama saMtoSamaya banI jAya. vaLI saraLatA vaDe karIne tAre mAyAne haNavI joIe, AthI tAruM jIvana saraLatAmaya ane sukhadAyaka banI raheze. 146 * jIvana-mAMgalya -

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17. ApaNane oLakhIe Y ID nako kahe che : saMsAranA badhA 0 jIvo pravAsI che, anaMtanA yAtrI mAnavadeha e anaMtanI yAtrAnuM eka 9 vizrAmadhAma che. yAtrika vizrAmadhAmamAM sau sAthe premathI rahe che, paraMtu pote kyAMthI Avyo zuM che, kyAM javAno che, kyAre javAno che e je bhUlato nathI. che evuM jo e bhUlI jAya to, e parezAna thaI jAya. dhArelA dhyAya para pahoMcI ja na zake. gamAramAM gamAra musAphara paNa, A yAtrAnA A muddA kadIya bhUlato nathI. paraMtu duniyArUpI vizrAmasthAnamAM Avelo A anaMtanI yAtrI koNa jANe kema, A badhuM bhUlI jAya che ne, potAne pravAsI mAnavAne badale nivAsI mAnavA ja lAgI jAya che ne potAnI yAtrAnuM lakSya bU cUkI jAya che. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! ja 147

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W paraMtu ene khabara nathI ke, duniyArUpI A vizrAmasthAna choDavAno vAro Avaze tyAre ene cITakI rahevuM haze toya cITakI nahi zakAya ne ene vizrAmasthAna choDavuM paDaze... ne tyAre enI dazA bhaTakatA musAphara jevI thaI jaze. koNa jANe kema, ApaNe badhA jJAnanI mIThI mIThI vAto karIe chIe, paraMtu AcaraNamAM to, AvatI kAlano vicAra karyA vinA ja bhautika jIvana jIvIe chIe. jJAnanI vAto karanAranuM, prabhunuM nAma lenAranuM, potAnI jAtane dharmiSTha tarIke oLakhAvanAranuM e kartavya banI rahe che ke pote kyAMthI Avyo che, kyAM javAno che ne jyAM javAno che tyAM javA mATe uttama mArga kayo che teno satata vicAra kare ne jAgRti seve. dharmI ane adharmImAM ATaluM ja aMtara che. dharmI pUrvajanma ane punarjanmane mAne che, jyAre adharmI eka ja janmamAM mAne che. dharmI aMtamAM anaMta jue che. Every Exit is an entry somewhere else. adharmI anaMtamAM aMta mAne che. dharmI mAne che ke AtmA paramAtmasvarUpa che. AtmA jo paramAtmasvarUpa hoya to, AtmAmAM paramAtmAnAM badhAM tattva hovAM ja joIe. sAgaranAM badhAM ja tattvo jo biMdumAM hoya to, paramAtmAnAM badhAM tattva AtmAmAM zA mATe na hoya ? ApaNA AtmAnI prabhutAne pichANavAmAM ja ApaNI prabhutA che. ApaNI 'kvaoNliTI'ne jo ApaNe nahi oLakhIe to ApaNe ApaNane kadAca sastAmAM ja vecI mArIzuM. ApaNe to brahmamaya, AnaMdamaya, saccidAnaMdamaya chIe. dharma, jAti ke saMpradAyanA vADAbheda AtmA mATe nakAmA che. atyAranuM ApaNuM nAma paNa bhADUtI che. AtmAne na to nAma che, na to kuLa che, na to jAti che. ApaNuM A tattva ane satya bhulAI gayAM che, kAraNa ke moha ane pramAdanI madirAnuM pAna karyuM che. madirApAna karanAro mAnavI pote potAne bhUlI jAya che tema, jAti, kuLa, dharma vagerenI moha-madirA pInArA ApaNe ApaNI 'kavaoNliTI'ne bhUlI gayA chIe. pItvA mohamahApramAdamadirAM unmattabhUtaM jagat / 148 : jIvana-mAMgalya

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bIjI maMdirAno kepha cAra-cha kalAke UtarI jAya che, jyAre, moha ane pramAdanI madirAno kepha to janmAMtara sudhI paNa nathI Utarato. prabhunA maMdiramAM jaIe toya moha-madirA pIne jaIe. prabhue ApeluM dhana prabhunA kAmamAM vAparIe toya dAna ApyAno garva karIe. maMdiramAM to ApaNI jAtane dhovA javAnuM hoya enA badale tyAM moha ane garvanI madirA pIne ApaNe ApaNane vadhu bagADIe chIe. dharma e kaMI nAmanA ke pratiSThA pedA karavA mATenuM khulluM bajAra nathI. ApaNe jIvanamAM sAco dharma AcarI zakatA nathI, kAraNa ke ApaNAmAM pramAda-madirAno nazo che. nazAbAjane khATI chAza pAIne nazo utArI zakAya che. te rIte, ApaNI moha-madirAno nazo utAravA mATe saMto jJAna-dhyAnanI chAza pivaDAve che. paraMtu ghaNA mANasone to sadupadezanI chAza paNa koThe paDI gaI che. roja e pIe toya, moha-madirAmAM masta banIne phare. penisilinanA injekzananAM ghaNA roga maTADe che paNa jenA lohImAM vikriyA pesI gaI hoya tene mATe penisilina roga maTADanAra banavAne badale navA roga pedA karanAruM bane che. e rIte upadeza paNa penisilina che. anekanA bhavaroga enAthI maTI jAya che, paraMtu keTalAkanA svabhAvamAM evI vikriyA pesI gaI hoya che ke upadezanI asara navI vikriyA pedA kare che. eka upadezaka roja kathA kare, saMto pAse bese ne bhAvabhInI vAta kare. A badhI doDadhAmamAM potAnI gAMdhI-kariyANAnI dukAna be-traNa kalAka ja khole. paNa lokomAM sArA mANasa tarIkenI AbarU jamAvelI eTale gharAkI sArI jAme. eka mANasa emanI dukAne goLa lavA gayo. upadezake to jUno ne kALo goLa padharAvyo. pelo mANasa goLa ghera to laI gayo, paraMtu ghera patnIe Thapako Apyo eTale bIje divase pAcho Avyo ne kahyuM, "A goLa sAro nathI, bIjo sAro Apo.' upadezaka to rAtApILA thaI gayA, 'are, tuM to gadhdhA jevo che, roja mArI kathAmAM Ave che, ne anAsaktinI vAta sAMbhaLe che, toya goLamAM tane Asakti kema rahI che ? ATaATalo upadeza sAMbhaLavA chatAM tAruM mana goLa pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 149

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jevA jaDa padArthamAM ja coMTI rahyuM che" ne, ene dhamakAvIne kADhI mUkyo. pelo mANasa narama svabhAvano hato. ene thayuM, emanuM kahevuM sAcuM che, mAre evI Asakti rAkhavI na joIe. - e to eno e goLa laIne patnI pAse Avyo ne badhI vAta karI. patnIne khUba Azcarya thayuM ! pUchyuM, "emaNe dhoLA goLanA paisA lIdhA hatA ke kALA goLanA ?" e ApaNane goLamAMthI Asaktine kADhI nAkhavAnuM kahe che, to pachI, e paisAmAM zA mATe Asakti rAkhe che ?" kathAkArano AtmA UMco ke pelAM grAhaka pati-patnIno ? mAtra kathAkAra banavAthI ja mahAna banI gayAno garva na karazo. kathAkAre to jIvananI paLepaLa sAme sAvadhAna rahevAnuM che. Aje keTalAka vaktAo chAtI kADhIne phare che ne ema mAnIne garva le che ke emanA lIdhe ja dezanuM sukAna cAle che. sAcI vAta to e che ke dezanuM sukAna AtmAne cIMdhatI dharmabhAvanAne lIdhe cAle che. mAnavI jo dharmabhAvanA vinAno haze to wild - jaMgalI banI jaze, ne gAMdhI ke keneDI jevA mahAna puruSone paNa goLI mAraze. Atmadharma ja mAnavIne mAnavatAmAM rAkhe che, unnata banAve che. ApaNe sAcA mAnava chIe kharA ? chAtI para hAtha mUkIne jo sAcuM bolIzuM to, ApaNe kabUlavuM paDaze ke ApaNe mAnavadeha laIne pharIe chIe paraMtu ApaNAmAM janmojanmanI jUnI pazutA paDelI che. ziyALanI luccAI, uMdarano lobha ane kAgaDAnI dRSTi, nAgano krodha mANasanA lohImAM beThAM che. manuSyano AkAra mANasAIthI sAkAra karavAno che. manuSyamAM manuSyatva pragaTAvavuM ne TakAvavuM hoya to, AtmajAgRtipUrNa dharmabhAvanA pragaTAvo. nirmAlya haze te dharmanA prakAzathI naravIra banaze, paisA ke sattA vaDe nahi. pradhAno jyAre ghera bese che, ne ilekzanamAM sthAna nathI maLatuM, tyAre jozIo pAse jaIne potAnuM pradhAnapada kyAre pAchuM maLaze e pUche che. keTalI nirmAlyatA ? dharma nirmAlyane naravIra banAve che. 150 jIvanamAMgalya

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dharma vinA naravIra paNa nirmAlya bane che. ApaNe dharma kevaLa sAMbhaLavAno nathI paNa sAMbhaLIne jIvanamAM utAravAno che. vyApAramAM ke vyavahAramAM dharmanA tattvane niraMtara ghUMTyA ja karIzuM, to jIvanamAM koI avanavuM ja parivartana Avaze. bhamarI kIDAne uThAvI jAya che tyAre te peTe cAlanAra hoya che - gatinuM ke skUrtinuM ThekANuM paNa hotuM nathI. taddana nirmAlya dazAmAM hoya che. paraMta bhamarI ene uThAvI jAya che ne eka sthaLe baMdha karI de che, enI AsapAsa satata guMjana kare che, ne kIDAnA jIvanane guMjanamaya banAvI de che. satata guMjanamaya banI gayelo kIDo Akhare kIDo maTI bhamarI banI jAya che. peTe cAlanAruM nirmAlya prANI pAMkhe UDanAruM cetana prANI banI jAya che. hDA (caterpillar)mAMthI pataMgiyuM (butterfly) banI, phUlo para jaI bese che. basa, AvI ja vAta mANasanI che. kIDA jevA nirmAlya jIvane bhamarI jevA saMtano sathavAro maLI jAya, ne enA vaDe e nirmAlya jIva jo satata AtmaguMjanamaya banI jAya, to peTe cAlavAne badale pAMkhathI UDe, nirmAlya maTIne naravIra bane. roga, bImArI, nirmAlyapaNuM - A badhA sArA vicArone anurUpa thavAya to cAlyAM ja jAya. bhItaramAM raheluM udAtta tattva bahAra AvatAM mANasa zaktino phuvAro banI jAya. dAktaro paNa have mananI mAvajata vaDe rogo maTADavAnuM vicAratA thayA che. Aje zarIranA rogomAM paNa mananA rogonuM kAraNa dekhAvA mAMDyuM che. A mananA rogone dUra karavAnuM kAma dharma kare che. manuSya banavuM che ? to, dharmamaya jIvana jIvo. dharmano prakAza AvatAM lobha audAryamAM palaTAze. vera premamaya banI jaze, ne doSadRSTi vilIna thaI guNadRSTi pedA thaze. khudamAM khudA dekhAze. rAjasabhA maLelI. emAM rAjAe rAjasabhAne saMbodhIne kahyuM, "A sabhAmAM doSI koNa che e zodhI kADho." pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! << 151

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eka sajjane AkhI sabhA tarapha dRSTi karI darekanA guNa-avaguNa jovA mAMDyA, to darekamAM kaMIka ne kaMIka bhalAI dIThI; saMpUrNa doSI koI na dekhAyo. pachI emaNe rAjAne kahyuM, "A sabhAmAM sAro mANasa koNa che te zodhI Apo." eka durjana hato. eNe sAro mANasa zodhavA najara pheravavA mAMDI paNa ene koI sAro na dekhAyo. darekamAM eNe kaMI ne kaMI avaguNa ja joyA. je divase ApaNAmAMthI doSadRSTi nAbUda thaze, te divase ja ApaNe manuSya thaI zakIzuM. duryodhana doSadRSTivALo hato tethI teNe badhAmAM doSa ja joyA. dharmarAja guNadRSTivALA hatA tethI temaNe badhAmAM saddaguNo ja nihALyA. tethI ja kahevata paDI : yAzI vRdi: tAdaza di: | dRSTi bagaDelI hoya, pachI sRSTi nirmaLa kyAMthI thAya ? dRSTi bagaDI che, tethI ja audArya viramI gayuM che. daSTi bagaDI che, tethI ja saguNo jhAMkhA paDyA. dharma ApaNI dRSTi sudhAravAnuM kahe che. dharmano upayoga duniyAne sudhAravA karatAM jAtane sudhAravA mATe che. bIjAnAM gharonI sajAvaTa karanAra ArkiTekTa ke DekoreTara jo potAnuM ghara sajAvI na zake to zA kAmano ? ApaNo dharma duniyAnA zaNagAranuM sAdhana banavAne badale, ApaNI hRdayasajAvaTanuM sAdhana bane eTaluM ApaNe icchIe. e mATe, vicArapUrvakanuM hRdaya-DokiyuM karavuM paDaze, ne maMthana karIne potAne oLakhavo paDaze. hatuM, che, ane raheze - enuM nAma satu. AtmA sat che. e hato paNa kharo, che paNa kharo, ne rahevAno che paNa kharo. saMsAranI badhI ja vastuo cAlI jAya ke pharI jAya ke marI jAya toya AtmA to nathI ja maravAno. eka vijJAnIe mane kahyuM, "pRthvIne daza lAkha varSa thayAM haze." tyAre meM ene kahyuM, "pRthvIne bhale daza lAkha varSa thayAM hoya, Aje ame to ethIya AgaLanA chIe, kAraNa ke pRthvI jaDa che, ame to caitanya chIe. caitanyane koI banAvI zakatuM paNa nathI, maTADI zakatuM paNa nathI." A vicAra maraNanI bhItI dUra kare che, ne manamAM zraddhA pedA kare che 15ra jIvana-mAMgalya

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ke, ApaNe kadI maravAnA nathI, paMcamahAbhUta marI jaze, ApaNe to kAyama rahevAnA chIe. huM hato, chuM ane rahevAno chuM evI dRDha zraddhAbharI samajaNa mRtyuno bhaya dUra kare che. bhaya mANasane nabaLo ane bIkaNa banAve. keTalIka vAra bhaya mANasane mArI paNa nAkhe. eka DaoNkTara mitre kahelo prasaMga atyAre yAda Ave che. emaNe kahyuM, "huM eka divasa mArA davAkhAnAmAM dardIone tapAsI rahyo hato, tyAM eka karoDapatino phona Avyo... 'jaladI Avo.' mane thayuM, cAle tema hoya to badhA daradIne patAvIne jauM. eTale meM pUchyuM, 'be kalAka pachI AvuM to ?' javAba maLyo, 'nA, atyAre ja Avo. mArI moTara levA mATe mokaluM chuM.' mane thayuM, bahu gaMbhIratA haze. agatyanA kesa meM patAvI dIdhA, bAkInA mATe kaMpAunDarane sUcanA ApI dIdhI, ne gADI AvI eTale, huM zeThane tyAM gayo. mane cembaramAM bolAvAyo. zeTha gaMbhI2 gamagInImAM beThA hatA, mane kahyuM, 'gaIkAle baeNnkamAMthI kahevAmAM AvyuM mArA hAthanI lakhelI sahI baeNnkavALA pArakhI zakatA nathI. mArA hAtha upara mane lakavAnI asara lAge che. Ama to chellAM be-traNa varSathI mAro hAtha kaMpyA karato hato, paraMtu have mane gaMbhIratA dekhAI rahI che. juone, mane lakavA thAya ema tamane lAge che ? jo thAya ema hoya to huM mArI taiyArI karI lauM.' meM emane tapAsyA. vAtamAM kazo mAla na dekhAyo. meM kahyuM, 'ApanA snAyuomAM naramAI che, paraMtu paMdara varSa sudhI to kazo vAMdho Ave ema nathI.' sAcesAca DaoNkTara ! kaMI vAMdho Ave ema nathI ?' 'hA, saMpUrNa khAtarIthI kahevA taiyAra chuM.' ne, DhIlADhapha thaI gayelA zeTha saphALA UbhA thaI gayA ane bolyA : 'are DaoNkTara, tame mAro jAna bacAvI lIdho. baeNnkamAMthI samAcAra AvyA pachI mane eTalI bIka lAgI hatI ke lakavAnA trAsathI bacavA mATe meM rivaoNlvara taiyAra rAkhI hatI. Ape jo lakavA thaze ja evo abhiprAya Apyo hota to A rivaoNlvara vaDe mAro jAna paNa laI lIdho hota. lo have, A bharelI rivaoNlvara tame ja laI jAo jethI pharI Avo vicAra na Ave." pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! meM 153

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bhayanI kalpanA mAnavIne kevI viparIta dazAmAM mUkI de che ? Aje paNa e rivaoNlvara che, DaoNkTara che, dardI paNa che. DaoNkTare jo hiMmata na ApI hota to dardIe kadAca bhayanA mAryA ApaghAta paNa karyo hota. moTI moTI vAta karanAro mAnavI aMdarathI bahu kAyara hoya che. hiMmata bahArathI AvI, aMdara to e polo-khAlI hato. roganA bhayathI e nirmAlya hato. AtmazraddhA hoya to AvuM nirmAlyapaNuM na ja Ave. e mATe ApaNA caitanyane DhUMDhavAnuM ke DhaMDhoLavAnuM ne jANavAnuM che ke huM koNa chuM ? manamAM jyAM sudhI dharma, saMpradAya ke jAtibhedanI vADAbaMdhI haze tyAM sudhI AtmajJAna pamAvAnuM nathI, ne AtmajJAna pAmyA vinA mRtyunI bhIti dUra thavAnI nathI. AtmAnA ajJAnathI pedA thayeluM du:kha AtmAnA jJAna vaDe ja dUra thaze. mATe ja ApaNe dhyAnamAM jANavAnuM che ke huM koNa chuM ? huM sat-cit-AnaMda chuM ! huM AtmA chuM huM AtmA chuM huM AtmA chuM huM AtmA chuM AtmA chuM mAruM astitva trikAlAbAdhita che ! huM caitanya svarUpa chuM ! huM AnaMda svarUpa chuM ! huM amRta svarUpa chuM ! - - -- *** eka doDatA mANasane koIke pUchyuM, "kyAMthI Avo cho ?'' pelA hAMphatA mANase utAvaLamAM kahyuM, "khabara nathI." "to utAvaLA cho ? kyAM jAo cho ?'' mane khabara nathI, paNa moDuM thAya che. vAto karavAno samaya nathI." ema kahI e doDavA lAgyo. dhyeya vinA doDatA pravAsIno javAba ApaNane vicAra karavA nathI prerato ? ApaNe paNa janmathI vidAya sudhI doDAdoDa, AraMbha-samAraMbha vagere karIe chIe. kyAM laI javA mATe ? A dhamAlamAM ApaNe koNa chIe e ja bhUlI gayA chIe. mohanA AvaraNa nIce, ApaNe ApaNane ja saMtADI beThA chIe. tethI ja ApaNe du:khI chIe, mUMjhAyelA chIe. 154 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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ApaNe ApaNane oLakhIe to ja duHkha dUra thAya, ajavALuM thAya, AnaMda anubhavAya. AnaMda cAra prakAranA che : zabdAnaMda, zraddhAnaMda, anubhavAnaMda ne paramAnaMda. A zabda roja sAMbhaLIe chIe. ApaNuM bhautika nAma roja sAMbhaLIe chIe. roja raTIe chIe. e Asakti eTalI badhI vadhI gaI ke, ApaNe nAmasvarUpa banI gayA ane AtmasvarUpa maTI gayA. AtmasvarUpa pAchuM meLavavuM haze to nAmane bhUlavuM paDaze. nAma bhulAze to ja AtmasvarUpa samajAze. A bahu kaThaNa kAma che, nahi ? duniyA AkhI nAma vadhAravAnI pAchaLa paDI che. dukAna, copaDA, bilabuko, vijhiTiMga kArDa badhAMyamAMnA nAmano ja mahimA gavAya che. mAnavInA dAnadharma pAchaLa paNa potAnA nAmano mahimA vadhAravA mATenI ja jhaMkhanA hoya che. tyAre ApaNe to nAmane bhUlatA javAnuM ane bhUsatA javAnuM zIkhavAnuM che. dhArmika kriyA nAma vadhAravA mATe nahi, paNa nAma bhUlavA mATe karavAnI che. nAma bhUlavA mATe adhyAtma mArga ja madada karaze. paramAtmAnuM nAmasmaraNa ApaNA nAmanA vismaraNa mATe karavAnuM che. nAmasmaraNamAM ApaNe masta rahIzuM to eka dhanya divasa evo Avaze ke ApaNuM bhautika nAma bhUlI gayA hoIzuM, ne ApaNe svasvarUpa banIne anupama AnaMda meLavI rahyA hoIzuM. mane eka popaTavALAno prasaMga yAda Ave che. enI pAse eka popaTa. enA e hajAra rUpiyA mAge. pUchyuM to kahe, "enI evI vizeSatA che. mANasanI jema ja e spaSTa vAta karI zake che." vAta enI sAcI hatI. popaTa evuM suMdara bolato hato ke ApaNane jANe mANasa ja bolato hoya ema lAge. evuM sarasa bolatAM zI rIte zIkhavyuM haze ? meM ene sarasa bolatAM zIkhavavAno kImiyo pULyo. eNe kahyuM, "e to mArA dhaMdhAnI khAnagI vAta che. e kImiyo mArAthI badhAne na batAvAya, paNa pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 1papa

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tame to sAdhu cho, tame kaMI mArA dhaMdhAnI harIphAI karavAnA nathI, eTale tamane batAvuM chuM." Ama kahI e mane enI zALAmAM laI gayo. tyAM eNe eka moTo Ayano rAkhelo. AyanA sAme popaTanuM pAMjaruM mUkeluM, ne pachI, pote AyanAnI pAchaLa saMtAIne bolavA lAge. popaTa avAja sAMbhaLI AyanAmAM dekhAtA popaTa sAme jue. ene ema lAge ke sAme beThelo popaTa bole che. eTale e paNa bolavAno prayatna kare. AvA satata abhyAsa vaDe, popaTa mANasanI jema spaSTa vAta karatAM zIkhI jAya. A keLavaNInA vicAra mArA manamAM Akhoya divasa ghUmI rahyA. mAnavI eka popaTane tAlIma ApI zake che to pachI mAnavane tAlIma zA mATe na ApI zake ? dhyAnanA AyanAmAM pratibiMba joI pAchaLathI saMbhaLAtI AtmajJAnInI vANInA abhyAsathI svarUpanI pichAna karavAnI che. satata abhyAsa vaDe popaTa mANasanI jema bolI zake che. satata abhyAsa vaDe ja sarakasano khelADI dorI para doDI zake che. satata abhyAsa vaDe ja mAnavI mahinAo sudhInA upavAsa AdarI zake che. te ja rIte satata abhyAsa vaDe mAnavI potAnuM nAma vismarIne potAnA AtmAne oLakhI zake. bhagavAna mahAvIrane guru gautamasvAmIe pUchyuM, "tophAnI manane kAbUmAM zI rIte levuM ?" bhagavAna mahAvIre kahyuM, "abhyAsa ane vairAgya vaDe." adhyAtmamArga jAduI lAkaDI nathI ke paLavAramAM ja badhuM palaTAI jAya. e to abhyAsanI bAbata che. saMsAranA viSayo para vairAgya Ave ane emAMthI chUTavAnA prayatnano abhyAsa vadhe, to kaThinamAM kaThina bAbata paNa sulabha banI jAya. abhyAsa vaDe ja bALaka bolatAM zIkhe che. abhyAsa vaDe ja bALaka cAlatAM zIkhe che. abhyAsa vaDe ja mANasa vAhana calAvatAM zIkhe che. abhyAsa vaDe ja paga breka upara jAya che, belensa jaLavAya che. abhyAsa tUTI jAya to satata sAvadha rahevuM paDe, nahi to breka parano 156 jIvana-mAMgalyA

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paga cUkI javAtAM ke baeNlensa khoI besatAM akasmAta pedA thAya. mATe ja saMto kahe che, "satata abhyAsa karo. upayoga rAkho. mananI vRttione saMkelavAnI Teva pADo." atyAre AtmasmaraNano abhyAsa vadhavAne badale, potAnA nAmasmaraNano abhyAsa vadhI gayo che. tIrthamAM janAro mAnava prabhunA nAmane badale potAnA nAmanI takatI lagADe che; te potAnuM ja nAma moTuM banAvavA mathe che. je nAma bhUMsAI javAnuM che, je nAmane potAnA vaMzajo paNa yAda karI zakavAnA nathI, e nAma mATeno ATalo badho moha zA mATe ? vaMzaja hovA chatAM kaho, ApaNe ApaNA dazamI peDhInA pUrvajanuM nAma jANIe chIe ? eTale ja saMto kahe che ke bhautika nAma pAchaLano moha khoTo che. saMto potAnA nAmanI to ThIka, paNa potAnA svatvanI paNa vismRti mAge che. e kahe che : jAya.'' tuma tuma na raho, hama hama na rahe; kucha aisA milanA ho jAye / " "huM, huM na rahuM; tuM, tuM na rahe; koIka evuM avibhAjya milana thaI bALaka potAnI mA pAse jAya tyAre tene potAnuM nAma kahevAnI jarU2 paDatI nathI. e to doDIne sIdhuM godamAM ja samAI jAya che. zabdAnaMdamAMthI zraddhAnaMdamAM javAya. prabhunuM satata nAmasmaraNa mAnavInA haiyAmAM zraddhAno suMdara dIvo pragaTAve che. A zraddhAno dIvo hatAzAnAM aMdhArAM ulece che. mAnavIne tamAma prakAranA bhayamAMthI mukta kare che, anubhavAnaMdanI dizAmAM dorI jAya che. zraddhAnA pAyA upara ja anubhavanI imArata racI zakAze. zraddhAnI jeTalI majabUtI; anubhavanI eTalI pratIti. anubhava bhAvanAno viSaya che, bhASAno nathI. anubhavanI vAta koIne kahI zakAtI nathI; mukha paranI anokhI AlAthI ja anubhavanI vAta vyakta thaI jAya che. anubhavanA AnaMdathI ja saMto masta hoya che. kAle zuM khAze ane kyAM khAze, enI emane khabara nathI. chatAM emanI zraddhA anokhI hoya che, kAraNa ke emane jIvanamAM jIvananI zraddhA che. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 157

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A zraddhAnI sArthakatAno emane satata anubhava che, ne tethI ja te anubhavAnaMdamAM masta che. pArasano sparza loDhAne sonAmAM palaTAve che; tema zraddhAno sparza jIvananA dardane paNa anubhavAnaMdamAM palaTAve che. mArA eka mitranI vAta mane yAda Ave che. bhAvanagaranI kaoNlejanA e prophesara hatA. videza jaIne sArI DigrIo paNa meLavI lAvelA. emano jIva judA raMge raMgAyelo hato. uMmara thatAM e nivRtta thayA. emane thayuM. zabdajJAna to have bahu thaI gayuM. have to anubhavajJAna meLavavuM che. potAno putra paNa sArI pAyarI paNa hato, ene bolAvIne kahyuM, 'saMsAranA DhasaraDA bahu karyA, have mAre Atma-ArAma meLavavo che, zabdajJAna khUba meLavyuM, have anubhavajJAna meLavavuM che, eTale makAnanA kaMpAunDamAM thoDIka jagA judI kADhI Apa. tyAM huM rahIza ane roja tAre ghera AvIne bhikSA mAgI jaIza, ne AtmAnA anubhavamAM ramyA karIza.' A rIte bAra varSa emaNe jIvanasAdhanA karI. eka cAturmAsamAM huM boTAda hato. A prophesara mULa boTAdanA hatA. e gaMbhIra mAMdagImAM paTakAyA. emano putra mane emanI pAse bolAvI gayo. huM temanI pAse beTho. emanI AMkho baMdha hatI. mAMdagI gaMbhIra hatI, vedanA asahya hatI, chatAM emanuM mukha malakyA kare. huM to joI ja rahyo. AvI bImArI, ATalI vedanA che, chatAM mukha para Avo malakATa ! e jIvanasAdhakanI siddhi joI meM dhanyavAda ApyA. vAta nIkaLatAM putre kahyuM, "chellAM bAra varSathI pitAjI ekalA hasatA hoya che. roja bapore mArA bAraNA AgaLa AvI mArI patnI pAse 'bhikSAM dehI'nI Tahela nAkhe che, ne pachI Akho divasa adhyayana, ciMtana ane smaraNa karyA kare che.' ApaNe paNa AvA AnaMdamaya banavuM joIze. mananI bhUmikA badalo to ahIM paNa vaikuMThano AnaMda meLavI zakAya. zabdAnaMda, zraddhAnaMda ane anubhavAnaMda pachInI bhUmikA che paramAnaMda. A paramAnaMda e ja brahmAnaMda, e ja pUrNAnaMda. kuMbha che, ne tethI ja e AnaMdano amRtakuMbha AtmA jJAnano pUrNa paNa che. 158 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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pUrNa AnaMdano amRtakuMbha haiyAnI bhItaramAM hovA chatAMya, juo to kharA, AnaMda zodhavA mATe mAnavI bahAra phAMphAM mAre che ! rAjyanA dhanabhaMDAranI cAvI bhaMDArIne soMpI daI pote pramAda sevanArA ane potAne joItI vastu meLavavA mATe bhaMDArInI pUMThe pUMThe pharanArA rAjakumAranA jevI ApaNA AtmAnI kathA che. potAnA AnaMdabhaMDAranI cAvI e mana ane buddhine ApI beTho che tethI ja, AnaMda meLavavA mATe ene mana ane buddhinI pAchaLa bhaTakavuM paDe che. AtmA ajJAnI nathI, svayaM jJAnamaya che, cinmaya che. ajJAnI to buddhi che. jJAna meLavavA mATe, pustako pheMdavA javAnI paNa jarUra nathI. AtmAnuM jJAna to AtmAnI aMdara ja paDeluM che. bhIta2mAM DokiyuM karavAnI ja jarUra che. hIrAnI uparanuM AvaraNa khasI jAya eTale kiraNo prasare, tema AtmA paranuM buddhinA vikalpanuM AvaraNa haTI jAya, to turata ja AtmAno prakAza vyApe. kevaLa pustako vAMcavAthI nahi, kevaLa zAstro sAMbhaLavAthI nahi, paNa eno jIvanamAM anubhava karavAthI ja AnaMda sAMpaDaze. loko phoTAmAM kerI jue tethI AnaMda nahi maLe, kerInA rasano anubhava ka2ze tyAre ja AnaMda sAMpaDaze. AnaMdanA anubhavanI tulanA karI zakAya ja nahi. ene to aMdara ne aMdara pacAvavAnI zakti hovI joIe. sajjana bAtAM prema kI, para-mukha kahI na jAya; mUMgA ko sapano bharyo, samaja samaja malakAya. AtmAno anubhava koIne kahI zakAto ja nathI; e to bhItaramAM ja samajavAnI ane bhItaramAM ja AnaMdavAnI bAbata che. AtmAno AnaMda-anubhava karanAro satata khuza ja rahe, kAraNa ke e jANe che ke paristhiti na badalAya toya mArI manaHsthiti badalI zakuM chuM. du:khamAM paNa sukhano anubhava kare; e pratikULa paristhitimAM paNa prasannatA seve. pratyeka paristhitimAMthI ciMtana dvArA mananuM samAdhAna meLavI sarakho sukhAnubhava kare enuM nAma philasUpha tattvajJAnI, AtmAnuM svarUpa satyamaya, jJAnamaya, AnaMdamaya che. pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 159

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e mATe ApaNe maheMdI-hInAnI jema ja ciMtana ghUMTavuM joIze. jema ghUMTatA jaIzuM tema phorama phelAtI jaze ne ApaNA astitvane AvarI leze. samaya khUba ocho che. AtmAnubhava karavAmAM hajI ApaNe khUba karavAnuM bAkI che. mATe anya pravRttio ochI karI, indriyavRttione vALI laI, svamAM sthira thaI sat-cit-AnaMdano anubhava karIe. 160 * jIvanamAMgalya

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+++ 18. dAna : eka utsava bibheSi yadi saMsArAt mokSaprAptiM ca kAMkSasi / tadindriyajayaM kartuM sphoraya sphAra pauruSam / / nasAranA A zlokamAM kahyuM che ke, // je tane tArI AtmasAdhanA mATe tAlAvelI hoya ane saMsAramAMthI mukta thaI mokSa meLavavo che ema tane dilathI lAgatuM hoya, to ja huM tane eka vAta kahuM, kAraNa ke jyAM sudhI jijJAsA jAgI nathI tyAM sudhI badhI vAto karavI nakAmI che. jijJAsAnuM bIja vavAyeluM hoya to ja upadezanuM jaLa kAma lAge che. jenA hRdayaDAM jijJAsAnuM bIja nathI evA AtmAne ApaNe jo upadeza devA jaIe chIe to ApaNI dazA sugarInA mALA jevI thAya che. sugarI vAMdarAne upadeza ApavA gaI to vAMdarAe upadeza to na lIdho, paNa enA mALAne AkheAkho vIMkhI nAMkhyo. A rIte je loko saMsAranA bhogamAM racyApacyA rahe che evA jIvo mATe jJAnIonAM vacana lagabhaga niSphaLa nIvaDe pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 161

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che. sauthI pahelAM artha-pAtra' banavAnuM jJAnIo kahe che. jijJAsA haze to ja upadeza kAma lAgavAno che. upadeza zravaNa karyA pachI manana karI, potAnI prajJA vaDe ene pacAvavAnI zakti ApaNAmAM nathI enuM kAraNa e ja che ke ApaNAmAM jijJAsAvRtti jAgI nathI. A jijJAsA kaI ? bibheSi yadi saMsArAt / jo tuM saMsAranI rUMdhAmaNathI gabharAto ho, jo tAre janmamaraNanA cakramAMthI chUTavuM hoya, ane je duniyAmAM janmyo che te duniyAthI upara AvavuM hoya to ja te sAco jijJAsu che. jema eka taLAva hoya, enI aMdara deDakAM, kAcabA, mAchalAM, ziMgoDAM vagere hoya, chatAM mANaso to kamaLane ja vakhANe che, kAraNa mAtra eTaluM ja che ke e badhAMyanI sAthe janmavA ne UcharavA chatAM, kamaLa dinapratidina upara AvavAno prayatna kare che ane upara AvIne potAnI jAtane e vikasAve che. kamaLanI najara sUryanAM kiraNo sAme hoya che. sUryanAM kiraNo je bAjue hoya te bAjue potAnuM hRdaya kholI nAMkhe che. jijJAsu AtmA paNa Avo ja hoya che. e paNa saMsAramAM ja janmelo hoya che. saMsAramAM anya mAnavIo sAthe janmelo hovA chatAM jijJAsu AtmA upara Ave che. kamaLanI jema jijJAsunuM hRdaya jJAnInAM vacano AgaLa khulluM hoya che. ahIM kavie ThIka ja kahyuM che. "ajJAnInI saMge re ramiyo rAtalaDI." mahApuruSo kevuM kahe che ! e kahe che ke je AtmA jijJAsu nathI te jJAnI AgaLa hRdaya nahi khole, paraMtu jyAM kAma che tyAM AgaLa e gAMDo ne ghelo thaI javAno. mithyAtattvanI rAto ene mIThI lAge che. kAma ane dhananA mohamAM jIva jeTalo pAmara ne paravaza banIne nAcyo che, eno zatAMza paNa e dhyAnanA prakAzamAM ramyo hota to ! eTale to kahyuM che ke, "mohe naDiyA jJAnathI paDiyA." sAdAIthI zAMtimAM sAdhanA karavA nIkaLelA sAdhu ane AcAryo paNa anIti ane dANacorI; hiMsA ane kALAMbajAra karI dhanavAna banelAnI pAchaLa pAchaLa kevA moTAM zaheromAM pahoMcI gayA che ! dhanano moha kevo mohaka che ! dhana kaDhAvavA A dhanikone tyAM jAya eTale emane paNa pratiSThA maLe. anyAyathI AvelA AhArathI nirmaLa buddhi rahe ? evA sAdhuo dharmanI vAta kare paNa emAM dharma hoya kharo ? 162 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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jJAnanA zikhare caDhelAne paNa mohanA vaMToLiyA uparathI gabaDAvI nAkhe che. kamaLa jema sUryanAM ki2No sAme hRdaya khole che tema sAco jijJAsu sAdAIthI nisargamAM AtmaramaNa karatA jJAnInI AgaLa potAnuM hRdaya khole che. kahe che, "mArAmAM AvI chAnIchAnI vRttio paDelI che. mArA hRdayamAM chavAyela timirane, prabhu ! tame dUra karo." sAco upadeza teno kahevAya, jenA dilamAM saMsAranAM baMdhanomAMthI chUTavAnI tAlAvelI lAgI hoya che. saMsAra eka vikarALa moDhuM che. roja anaMta jIvo emAM bharakhAtA jAya che. saMsAra pratyeka paLe jIvone bharakhato ja jAya che. saMsArathI gabharAI janArA to ghaNA hoya che, paraMtu eTalA mAtrathI temane jijJAsu na kahevAya, temaNe nIca kAma karelAM hoya tethI te Dare che. saMsAranI bIka hoya e pahelI zarata ane mokSanI bhUkha hoya e bIjI zarata. Aje to mokSa zuM che enI koIne kalpanA paNa nathI. loko Aje sAme pagale doDIne vadhAremAM vadhAre baMdhAvA ane bAMdhavA mAMge che ! khUbInI vAta to e che ke mANasa vRddha thAya to paNa ene vadhAre milo, vadhAre kArakhAnAM, vadhAre makAno, vepAra ane paMcAta game che. are AtmA, tuM thoDoka to vicAra kara. tAre ahIM keTalA divasa rahevAnuM che ? A bAbatano tane vicAra nathI. tuM divase divase vividha upAdhimAM vadhAre ne vadhAre phasAto jAya che. je mANasa jANIbUjhIne vadhAre ne vadhAre phasAto jAya ene mATe mokSanI vAta zI karavI ? enI AgaLa to mokSanI vAta upahAsa jevI ja lAge ne ! ghaNAMne to jJAnIonAM vacano TADhA pahoranAM gappAM lAge che. sinemA mATe Aje keTalI badhI AturatA che ! chApuM hajI kema nathI AvyuM eno talasATa keTalo badho hoya che, paraMtu prabhAtamAM UThIne kadI jJAnIonAM pravacano vAMcyAM che ? enA mATeno talasATa ke nAda tamArA hRdayamAMthI kadI jAgyo che kharo ? nA, evuM to kadI nathI thatuM. ThIka che, koIka sAdhu-mahAtmA AvI jAya, koIka vaLI kathAvArtA kahenAra maLI jAya, ane jo phurasada hoya to vaLI ghaDI beghaDI sAMbhaLI laIe chIe. AvI phurasadiyA paddhatinuM pariNAma e Ave che ke jJAnIonAM vacanAmRtanuM zravaNa karatAM karatAM hRdayamAM eka jAtano je Adara ane AhlAda pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 163

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thavo joIe te pragaTato nathI. sAMbhaLyA pachI je romAMca thavo joIe te paNa anubhavAto nathI. jyAM sudhI e tAlAvelI nahi jAge tyAM sudhI jJAnIo jaNAve che ke, e upadeza tamArA hRdayanA UMDANa sudhI nahi pahoMce. e to tyAre ja bane ke jyAre tamArA dilamAM saMsAra pratye udAsInatA jAge, mokSaprAptinI tIvra icchA pragaTe. gAMDo bhikhArI jema DabalAM bhegAM kare tema Aje tame duniyAnI vastuo bhegI karo cho ane tenAthI tamane potAne samRddha mAno cho. jenI pAse vadhAre DabalAM hoya, jenI pAse vadhAre saMgraha hoya, e Aje duniyAmAM bhAgyazALI kahevAya che. jenI pAse duniyAnAM sAdhana ochAM haze ene loko "abhAgiyo" kahevAnA. khUbanI vAta to e che ke, jema pelAM ramakaDAM bALakane rokI rAkhe che tema duniyAnI vastuoe sArAmAM sArA mANasone rokI rAkhyA che. ApaNA AtmAne je paramadhAma tarapha javAnuM che, jene mATenI ApaNI A jIvanayAtrA che; jyAM pahoMcavA mATe ApaNe nIkaLelA chIe e mULa vAta to Aje bhulAI ja gaI che. A duniyAnA raMgamAM ApaNe eTalA badhA raMgAI gayA chIe ke ApaNo asala raMga kayo hato tenI ApaNane potAne ja kaMI khabara nathI. ApaNe jagatanA ja doSo joIe chIe; jagatanI ja vAto karIe chIe ane jagatano ja vicAra karyA karIe chIe. "phalANA bhAI Ama kare che, ne DhIMkaNA bhAI tema kare che' - evI vAto ja karIe chIe, paraMtu bhAI, ApaNe zuM karIe chIe te to jarA vicAro ! evI badhI bAbatomAMthI ApaNe mukta chIe kharA ? AvI vAtonuM pariNAma bahu viparIta AvyuM che. mANasa bahirmukha dazAmAM eTalo badho paDI gayo che ke aMtarmukha dazA samajAtI ja nathI. jJAnIo kahe che, jyAM sudhI AtmA bahirmukha che tyAM sudhI enuM saMsAranuM cakkara-bhramaNa cAlu ja rahevAnuM che. mANasa potAnA tarapha vaLe to ja saMsAranuM cakkara aTake. mANasa jo potAnA aMtaramAM DokiyuM kare; mana-sAgaramAM DUbakI mAre ane vicAre ke bahAranI paMcAta karavAmAM mArA anaMta janmo gayA che, meM mArA tarapha kyAre joyuM ? - A badhAyamAM mAruM zuM vaLyuM ? jyAM sudhI taraMgo che tyAM sudhI taLiyuM dekhAvAnuM nathI. taraMgo osare to ja "huM koNa ? e vAta samajAya. 164 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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'huM koNa'no prazna ApaNane kyAreka sUjhe che. ghaDIbhara arIsAmAM moDhuM joIe tyAre ApaNane ema lAge che ke huM jarAka sAro lAguM chuM. paNa e to dehanI vAta thaI. ApaNe to aMtaranA arIsAmAM joIne AtmAno vicAra karavAno che ke, 'huM koNa ?' mANasa pApa kare, jUThuM bole, khoTuM kare, potAne vecI nAkhe, paNa zene mATe ? A badhAne mUkIne javA mATe ? A badhAMnuM saravaiyuM zuM A ja che ? je ahIM mUkIne javAnuM che tene mATe AtmA jevA AtmAne phaTakArI mAravo emAM DahApaNa kyAM che ? jJAnIo pUche che ke, jenA mATe tuM tArA jIvanane vecI nAkhe che temAM evI to kaI vastu che je tArI sAthe AvavAnI che ? jo kazuMya sAthe AvavAnuM na hoya to tene mATe A AtmAnuM vismaraNa zA mATe ? tenA mATe AvI kALI majUrI zA mATe ? tamArI A mUDI je tamArI sAthe nathI AvavAnI, e tamArI sAcI milakata nathI. tamArI milakata to tame je dAna sahajabhAvathI ane hRdayanI UrmithI ApyuM che te ja che. AkAzamAMthI jema vAdaLAM varasI jAya che tema tamArA hRdayamAM paNa varasI javAnI bhAvanA jAgavI joIe. Aje nAmanA meLavavA mATe ane mobho jALavavA mATe dAna devAya che. samAjamAM tamAruM nAma sAruM hoya, tamAro mobho UMco hoya, ane savAranA pahoramAM pAMca mANaso Tipa laIne tamAre tyAM AvyA hoya, to pahelAM to tamane phALa ja paDe ke, "A loko atyAre kyAMthI AvyA ?' tame vicAra karo ke ApanI sthiti sArI che, eTale A loko baso rUpiyA bharAvyA vinA pAchA nathI javAnA. eTale tame sothI zarUAta karavAnA ! eTale pelA AvanAra kaheze, "zeTha, tamArA mATe so na zobhe !' eTale tame kahevAnA ke, "bhAI, AjakAla vepAradhaMdhA khoravAI gayA che, sthiti bagaDI che, paraMtu tame AvyA cho, eTale nA pADI zakAtI nathI." eka bAju AvAM rodaNAM rovAnI vAto karAya che, tyAre bIjI bAju rephrijareTara, adyatana maoNDelanI eNrakaMDizana moTo vagere mojazokhanAM sAdhano to vadhatAM ja jAya che. kharekhara, jo Avaka ochI thaI gaI hoya to pachI A badhA bhapakA kyAMthI vadhye jAya che ! pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! * 165

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sAcI vAta to e che ke mAtra dAnamAM devA mATe ja mANasa pAse mUDI nathI. bAkI, mojazokha ane ezaArAma mATe puSkaLa saMpatti che. dAna levA AvanAra pAse nirAzAjanaka vAto thAya eTale pelA loko kaheze, "bhale, have doDhaso rAkho zeTha." tame to ThAvakuM moDhuM rAkhIne kahevAnA, "lakho bhAI tyAre, tame AvyA cho to kAMI nA paDAze ?" tame manamAM vicAra karo cho ke pacAsa to bacyA. Ane dAna kahevAya kharuM ? jJAnIo kahe che, "bhAI, teM tArA doDhaso rUpiyA gumAvI dIdhA, kAraNa ke te dAna to dIdhuM paNa sAcI bhAvanAthI nathI dIdhuM. dAna to AtmAno guNa che, AtmAne praphullita banAvavAno utsava che. lenAra ane denAranAM hRdaya hasI UThe, evI e kriyA che." jyAM sudhI tamArA saMjogo ne sthiti sArAM che tyAM sudhI tame dAna Apo. dAna daIne prasanna thavAya, AMkhamAMthI AnaMdanAM azru cAlyAM jAya. A rIte tame dAna do, to ja te sAcuM dAna che, bAkI to badho sodo che. dAnanI sodAgIrImAM mAnanAro kahe che, "bhAI, huM rUpiyA to dauM chuM paNa mArI takatI kayA ThekANe mukAze e to kaho !" ApaNe Avo sodo nathI karavAno. ApaNe to dAnanI vAvaNI karavAnI che. kheDUtane pUchI juo ke, "anAja kema vavAya che ?" te kaheze, "UMDuM vAvavuM paDe, haLa jeTaluM jamInamAM UMDuM jAya, ane bIja jeTaluM UMDuM vavAya teTaluM anAja sAruM pAke." tamAruM dAna paNa eTaluM ja UMDuM ho ke jIvananA khetaramAM e AnaMdano mola banI mAnavane tRptithI bharI de. Ane mATe to ApaNo AtmA ja sAkSI hoya. duniyAne sAkSI rAkhavAnI koI jarUra nathI. dAna koIne mATe nahi, paNa AtmAnA AtmA sAthenA saMmelanamAM vacce AvatI vastanA tyAgarUpa hoya. vastu parathI mUccha Utare che tyAre dAna sahaja thAya che. mUccha kyAre Utare ? vastuo ane A saMsAra eka baMdhana lAge to ene baMdhanamAMthI mukta thaI mokSa meLavavo hoya to dAna tamane eka uttama sAdhana lAgyA vinA nahi rahe. vastu ane vAsanA jema jema chUTatA jaze tema tema AtmA karmothI mukta thaI upara ane upara Avato jaze. 116 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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--? **** 19. AtmazrInI pUrNatA aindrazrIsukhamagnena lIlAlagnamivAkhilam / saccidAnandapUrNena pUrNaM jagadavekSyate // G pAdhyAyajI mahArAja jJAnasAranA maMgaLAcaraNamAM AtmAnI sahaja avasthAnA svarUpanuM Alekhana kare che, AtmAnI sahaja AdhyAtmika lakSmInuM emAM varNana kare che. A AtmAnI AdhyAtmika lakSmInI sabharatAno AtmazrIno jene anubhava thAya te na varNavI zakAya evA sahaja sukhano anubhava karI zake. pachI to A jagatamAM 2hevA chatAM ane A dehamAM vasavA chatAM e koIka anokhuM ane AnaMdamaya jIvana jIvI zake. paNa duHkhanI vAta e che ke A AtmA vibhAvanA pramAdamAM paDIne potAnA sAcA svarUpane ane AtmazrIne bhUlI gayo che. zreSTha dhanavAnano putra paNa jyAM sudhI pote dhanavAna che ema samajato nathI tyAM sudhI e rastAmAM koI vaTemArgu pAse paNa caoNkaleTa levA mATe cAra AnA mAgavA pUrNanA pagathAre * 169

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Ubho rahI jAya che, kAraNa ke ene khabara nathI ke e keTalA dhanano vArasadAra che ! eno korcAdhipati pitA rastA paranA AvA hajAro mANasone nabhAvI zake tema che teno ene khyAla nathI. bALaka ajJAna che. enuM A ajJAna bhIkha maMgAve che. ane jyAre jJAna Ave che, moTo thAya che, samaja Ave che tyAre vicAre che, "zuM e huM ja hato je basa-sTenDa AgaLa Ubho rahIne cokaleTa mATe cAra AnA mAgato hato ! huM dhanapatino putra bhikhArI ?" e ajJAnamAM paDelo hato tyAre cAra AnA mATe bhikSA mAgato paNa jyAre ene khabara paDe che ke huM ke to moTI saMpattino svAmI chuM, zrIno mAlika chuM, tyAre e mAgato to nathI paraMtu je mAgyuM hoya enA upara ene hasavuM Ave che, A ja rIte A AtmA jyAM sudhI AtmazrIne oLakhato nathI tyAM sudhI viSayo mATe yAcanA kare che, kAmanA mATe bhIkha mAge che, eka sAmAnya sattA mATe - pAMca varSa sudhI sattAnA koIka paNa Asane besI zake eTalA khAtara cUMTAvA mATe - voTanI bhIkha mAge che ne e mATe pAmara thaIne ahIMthI tahIM pharyA kare che, kAraNa ke AtmazrImAM zuM sukha che ane jIvana jIvIne aMdarathI zuM meLavavAnuM che enI ene khabara nathI. eTale jIvana - AkhuM jIvana A mAgavAmAM ane te mAgavAmAM veDaphI nAkhe che. AtmasukhanA jJAnathI to vArdhakya (vRddhAvasthA) paNa madhura bane. mANasa pacAsa jIve, sATha jIve ke sittera jIve, paNa anubhavanuM amRta laIne jIve emAM sArthakatA che. jema jema e jIvana jIvato jAya tema tema enI pAse anubhavanI mIThAza AvatI jAya che. eNe duniyA joI che, mANaso joyA - che, anubhavomAMthI ghaNuM ghaNuM meLavavAnuM meLavyuM che, jevI rIte pAkI kerI mIThI hoya ema vRddha puruSa ane vRddha strI mIThAzathI bharelAM hoya, emanI vANImAM mIThAza hoya, emanA vartanamAM mIThAza hoya, emanA moDhA upara AvelI rekhAomAM mIThAza hoya ane jonArane ema thAya ke emanI pAse jaIe to kevuM sAruM ! paNa hakIkatamAM AvuM kema thatuM nathI ? enuM kAraNa e ja che ke jiMdagI zA mATe che ane jiMdagIno hetu zo che e pahelethI jANyuM nathI. eTale chokarAM jema pelAM DabalAM-DabalIo bhegAM karatAM hoya che ema mANaso mAtra thoDAka paisA, thoDIka sattA, thoDIka padavI A badhuM bheguM karavAmAM AyuSya pUruM karI nAkhe che, duniyAnuM A palaTAtuM dazya to juo ! jyAM sudhI tamArI pAse paiso hoya, sattA hoya, pratiSThA hoya tyAM sudhI duniyA tamane pUchyA kare, paNa jevI e sattA gaI, jevo e paiso gayo, jevI e pratiSThA gaI eTale duniyA kahe -- - - -- - - - - 170 * jIvanamAMgalya

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ke ene bAjumAM pheMko, duniyA ane je mAnatI hatI te enA vyaktitvanA vikAsane lIdhe nahi, enI AdhyAtmika cetanAnA ArohaNane lIdhe nahi, paNa enI pAse je dasa lAkha rUpiyA hatA ene lIdhe e ene pUjatI hatI. have e dasa lAkha rUpiyA enA hAthamAM nathI, enA dIkarAnA hAthamAM che. duniyA kahe ke have Doso ApaNe zuM kAmano che ? mUko ane bAjumAM. Ama mANasanA hAthamAM sattA hatI tyAM sudhI pUjAto hato, puchAto hato paNa sattA uparathI UtarI gayo eTale e paNa bhulAI gayo. bhulAI ja jAya ne ! kAraNa ke have e koIne sukhI karI zake, koIne lAbha karAvI zake evuM kAMI enI pAse rahyuM nathI. bUTa paoNliza karanAra pAse karoDapati Ubhelo hoya ke baeNnkano janarala menejara Ubho hoya tyAre e garva kare ke baeNnkano janarala menejara mAre tyAM Ubho rahyo, to e khoTo garva che. benkanA janarala menejara potAnA bUTa paoNliza karAvavA che eTale Ubho che. bUTa paoNliza karanAro ghaNo sAro mANasa che ema samajIne Ubho nathI. bUTa poliza cAlu hoya tyAM sudhI e bUTa paoNlizavALo kahe te DAbo ane jamaNo paga mUke, e vakhate e ema kahe : juo, huM kevo ke A menejarane lephTa-rAITa karAvuM chuM to keTalI badhI aNasamaja che ! "tuM DAbo ane jamaNo paga mukAve che temAM kAMI tArI hoziyArI nathI, emAM garva karavAno nathI, kAraNa ke tuM enA bUTa paoNliza kare che. ene enA bUTa cakacakita karavAnA che eTalA mATe e Ubho rahe che, evI ja rIte moTAmAM moTo karoDAdhipati paNa gADImAMthI UtarIne Ave che. zA mATe Ave che ? paoNliza karAvavA Ave che. ema koI sattAdhIzanI pAse ghaNA mANaso AvatA hoya to eNe ema mAnavAnuM nathI ke enI pAse ghaNA AvI gayA. e to eTalA mATe AvatA hatA ke emane e kaMIka upayogI thaI zake evI sattA enI pAse hatI. koI dhanavAnanI pAchaLa ghaNA loko AvatA hoya to eNe ema nahi mAnavAnuM ke mArI pAchaLa doDe che, enI pAse dhana che eTale emAMthI thoDuMka kAMIka maLaze e AzAe e ghaDe che. A badhuM zuM sUcave che ? bahAranI vastu jyAM sudhI ApaNI pAse che tyAM sudhI e loko ApaNI pAse Ave che. jyAM e vastumAMthI ApaNe khasIe, kAM vastu khase eTale duniyA khasI jAya che. tyAre ApaNI pAse saravaiyAmAM zuM rahe che ? kAMI ja nahi. A AtmA deha choDIne jAya che tyAre enI sAthe zuM laI jAya che pUrNanA pagathAre * 171

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e to vicAra karo ! AkhI jiMdagI sudhI ApaNe ATalA AvyA, ATalA maLyA, emAM ne emAM jIvana pUruM karyuM. jo AdhyAtmika oLakha na thaI, svazrInI pahecAna na thaI, huM koNa chuM e mATenuM jJAna na maLyuM to A badhuM tame je saMgraha kareluM che e badhuM ja bIjAne mATe che. tame saMcaya karo cho, goThavo cho, bIjAne ApIne cAlyA jAo cho. potAne mATe zuM che e vicAra karavAno che. ane e vicAra karavAne mATe ApaNe ahIM maLyA chIe. tuM koNa che ? tAruM svarUpa zuM che ? thoDuM to pichAna. AtmAnI zrImAM magna banelo ane sat, cit ane AnaMdathI pUrNa evo AtmA to A jagatane paNa pUrNa ja jue che ane mAne che ke karmane vaza banI AkhuM jagata lIlAmAM lAgeluM che. temane jagatanA mANaso kevA dekhAya ? jema bALako sAgaranA kinAre jAya, nAnakaDAM retInAM ghara banAve ane vaheMcI le ke A ghara mAruM, A ghara tAruM. emAM bALako AkhI bapore kADhI nAkhe. khAvAnuM paNa bhUlI jAya. retInA gharanA mALa gaNyA kare. eka kahe : bIjo mALa meM bAMdhyo. bIjo kahe : trIjo mALa meM bAMdhyo. ema karatAM hoya tyAM emanI mAM zodhatI zodhatI Ave. "are ! tame jamyAM paNa nathI ? bALako kahe, "nahi. ame amAruM ghara bAMdhIe chIe, mALa bAMdhIe chIe." "have bAMdhyA makAna, cAlo." mAM kheMcIne laI jAya che. A retInA ghara mUkatAM paNa pelAM bALakone duHkha thAya che. emane thAya ke mA kyAM vacamAM AvI ! paNa mA to jamavA bolAvavA AvI che. paNa emane gamatuM nathI. emane to pelAM retInAM gharomAM, pahelo mALa bAMdhavAmAM, bIjo mALa bAMdhavAmAM, A ghara mAruM ane A ghara tAruM ema karavAmAM je eka lahejata paDe che, e jamavAmAM emane nathI paDatI. A dazAmAM jagatanA loko paNa evA ja dekhAya, "A ghara mAruM ane A ghara tAruM.' loko e mATe ja laDI rahyA che. bALakomAM ane tamArAmAM jo phera hoya to eTalo ja ke bALako choDI zake che. hasatAM hasatAM choDI zake che - ane AgaLa vadhIne jarUra paDe to ekAdI lAta mArIne pote bAMdhelA retInA gharane pote uDADI paNa mAre che. paNa tame bAMdhelAM ghara choDo cho to kharA, paNa raDatAM raDatAM choDo cho. tamArAM ja bAMdhelA gharamAMthI jyAre tamAre nIkaLavAno vAro Ave tyAre kevI dazA thAya che ? ApaNe pravAsI ja chIe. ahIMthI AgaLa vadhavAnuM ja che, paMtha jo kApavAno che, to zA mATe AsaktinI aMdara lapaTAI javuM ? 172 * jIvana-mAMgalyA

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prabhu mahAvIre jIvo cAra prakAranA kahyA che. pahelo prakAra sAkaranI upara beThelI mAkhI jevo hoya che, bIjo prakAra paththara para beThelI mAkhI jevo hoya che. trIjo prakAra madhanA biMdu 52 beThelI mAkhI jevo hoya che ane cotho prakAra lIMTamAM paDelI mAkhI jevo hoya che. pahelo prakAra e UMco prakAra che. sAkaranI lAdI paDelI hoya tenA para mAkhI AvIne bese to e khUba mIThAza mANe. jyAM sudhI e lAdI upara beThelI che tyAM sudhI tene cUsyA ja kare, paNa enAmAM UDavAnI svataMtratA che. jyAre ene thAya ke have UDIe, tyAre pAMkho phaphaDAvIne UDI jAya che. sAkaranI mAkhIne koI baMdhana nathI. svAda che, svataMtratA paNa che; madhuratA ane mastI baMne che. eNe svataMtratAne vecIne madhuratA mANI nathI. A jIvana tame evI ja rIte jIvo. tamane makAna maLe, vaibhava maLe, samRddhi maLe, sattA vagere ghaNuM ghaNuM maLe. e puNyanA pariNAme maLelI A badhI vastuomAM paNa tame sAkaranI mAkhI jevA alipta raho. tame tamArA AtmAnI svataMtratAne AsaktinI mIThAzamAM nAkhI na do, baMdhAI jAo. sAkaranI mAkhI A svAda mANe che paNa potAnI pAMkhone sadA saceta rAkhe che. dhAre tyAre e UDI jAya che. bIjI mAkhI paththara upara beThelI che. emAM bhale mIThAza kAMI na hoya, svAda kAMI na hoya paNa ene mATe sahuthI moTI vAta svataMtratA che. e jyAre dhAre tyAre UDIne jaI zake, dhAre tyAre nIkaLI zake, ene bAMdhanAra koI nathI. paththara upara AsvAda nathI paNa svataMtratA che. trIjA prakAramAM madhanAM biMduo para beThelI mAkhI Ave che. e mAkhIne madha maLe che, mIThAza maLe che. jyAM sudhI madha cUse tyAM sudhI mastAnI banI rahe che. paNa jevI UDavA jAya tyAM baMdhana. e UDI zake nahi. madhanI cIkAze enI pAMkhone paravaza banAvI dIdhI che, e paMgu banI gayelI che. UDavA jAya cha tyAre ene khyAla Ave che UDI zakAtuM nathI. jyAM Asakti che tyAM maraNa che. e UDI nathI zakatI, taraphaDe che ane je madhamAM mIThAza mANatI hatI te madhamAM ja e marI jAya che. cothI mAkhI lIMTamAM (mucus) paDelI hoya che. ene AsvAdamAM paNa kAMI nahi ane UDavA dhAre to UDI paNa na zake, kAraNa ke enI pAMkho ja coMTI gayelI che. Ama, prabhue batAvyuM ke jIvo cAra prakAranA che. pahelo prakAra kayo to ke pendrazrIsumatena. AtmAnI lakSmInI pUrNanA pagathAre 173

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AtmAnI vibhUtine jANanAro jIva oLakhavALo jIva sadA sat, cit ane AnaMdathI sabhara che, ApaNAmAM A badhuM bhareluM che. jJAna paNa aMdara bhareluM che, AnaMda paNa aMdara bharelo che, ane zAzvatatA eTale anaMtatA paNa aMdara bharelI che. koI pUche ke tuM koNa ? tArI oLakhANa to Apa ! to ema na kahezo ke mArI oLakhANa A deha, phalANuM nAma, phalANuM gAma, phalANuM raheThANa. koI ema kahe ke phalANA gAmanA ame jUnAmAM jUnA rahevAsI, amArA bApadAdA tyAM rahetA hatA. paNa tuM e gAmamAM raheto ja nathI. tuM to cAlyo ja Avyo che. tAruM vaLI gAma kyAM che ? A to eka visAmo che. visAmo gAma nathI banI zakato. ArAmanuM sthAna e kadI dhyeya nathI banI zakatuM ane mukAma, jyAM rahevuM paDe e maMjila nathI. mANasanI maMjila to AgaLa che. mANasa e maMjilane bhUlI gayo che. koI pravAsI thAkIne UMghI jAya che. e ardhanidrA ke taMdrAmAM hoya tyAre pUcho ke kyAM cho ? to kahe ke ahIM ja rahuM chuM. kyAM javAnuM che e bhUlI jAya che. ApaNane koI pUche ke tuM koNa ? to ApaNe ema ja kahIe ke sadA pravAsI gAma ane ThAma vagarano. ThAma ane gAmamAM aTavAI gayo to bhagavAna kahe che ke 'saccidAnaMda pUrNana'nI pUrNa avasthA visarAI jaze. A zlokamAM kahyuM ke tuM sat che. tane koNa mArI zake ema ? tuM maravAno ja nathI. tame gujarAtImAM kaho cho : 'pAcho thayo.' pAcho thayo eTale marI nathI gayo, jIvato che. A janma lIdho enA pahelAM paNa hato ane marI gayo to paNa che. to marI koNa gayo ? A deha marI gayo. gharaDuM koNa thayuM ? deha thayo. janma kono thayo ? dehano thayo. yuvAna koNa thayuM ? deha thayo. ane baLI koNa gayuM ? deha baLI gayo. janma, zaizava, vArdhakya ane A badhuM zuM che ? avasthA che. A cAra dehanI avasthAo che. cetananI avasthA che ja nahi. cetana to avasthA vagarano che, svastha che. eTale ja mIrAMe gAyuM : "haMsalo nAno ne devaLa jUnuM to thayuM." maraNa - - huM kyAM gharaDo thayo chuM ? huM kyAM thAkI gayo chuM ? huM to AtmA chuM. huM to AyunA baMdhana vinAno chuM. jene uMmara ja nathI; avasthA ja nathI, koI varSo nathI e haMsa che, AtmA uMmara vagarano che. uMmara kone lAge che ? dehane. udheI jo lAgatI hoya to lAkaDAne lAge che, kATa jo lAgato hoya to lokhaMDane lAge che paNa agnine udheI na lAge, sonAne kATa na lAge, evI 174 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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ja rIte AtmAne kaMI ja na thAya. A dehane badhuM ja lAge. e janme paNa kharo ane mare paNa kharo. nAnakaDo hoya tyAre rUpALo rUpALo hoya; yauvanamAM Ave tyAre AkarSaNanuM eka kendra banI jAya; gharaDo thAya tyAre ene bIjAnI madada levI paDe; vRddha thAya ane rogathI gherAya tyAre mANasane paravazatAno anubhava thAya ane mRtyu thAya eTale A deha baLI jAya. A badhI avasthAo konI thaI ? dehanI thaI. paNa je AtmA che e avasthAhIna che. ene koI uMmara naDatI nathI. ene zaizava nathI, ghaDapaNa nathI, maraNa nathI ane janma paNa nathI. AtmA amara che, zAzvata che, ane je zAzvata che e ja sat che. sanA astitvanA anubhavamAM sattA kendra bane; pachI bhale zarIra upara thaIne ghaDapaNa pasAra thatuM, deha bhale jIrNa thato; paNa e (AtmA) aMdara beTho beTho malakAya che; ke huM to evo ne evo ja chuM. A badhuMya bahAra thaI rahyuM che. AtmA jyAre svasattAmAM kendrita bane che tyAre ene lAge che ke huM to A badhAnI vacce kendramAM beThelo chuM. A badhuMya AsapAsa banI raheluM che. dehanuM ja eka nATaka cAlI rahyuM che. A eTale ja upAdhyAyajIe kahyuM ke 'nATam prati pAm'. jJAnadazAmAM ene dareka zerImAM nATaka lAge che; nATakane ja jue ane nATakane jovA chatAM pote prekSaka tarIkeno adhikAra gumAve nahi. mAre e ja kahevAnuM che ke tame prekSaka raho; prekSaka tarIkeno tamAro adhikAra che. tame naTa na banI jAo. prekSaka jeTalo sukhI che eTalo duniyAmAM koI sukhI nathI. e raMgazALAmAM Ave che, bese che, jue che ane samaya pUro thAya tyAre cAlato thAya che, ene paDadA saMkelavAnA nahi ke goThavavAnA nahi; sAmAna uThAvavAno nahi ke mukAvavAno nahi. e to prekSaka che. taTasthatAthI jue che. A anubhava jo karI zakAya to laDAlaDI, jhaghaDAjhaghaDIno aMta Ave. Aje vRddhone eTalI badhI Asakti che ke loko herAna thaI gayA che, tene badale tame evA banI jAo ke tamane pUchavA Ave tyAre ja tame salAha Apo. ane kaho ke tamane tamArI javAbadArIno khyAla ApI dIdho che. tamArI javAbadArIne dhyAnamAM rAkhIne jIvo. javAbadArIne dhyAnamAM rAkhIne nahi jIvo to akALe herAna thaI jazo. A to dorI upara cAlavAnuM che. AtmAne paNa eTalI samajaNa ApIne sva tarapha vALI levo joIe. ema thAya to mANasa A jagatamAM bahu majhAthI jIvI zake. ane e mATe pUrNanA pagathAre * 175

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pahelo prakAra batAvyo ke tuM koNa che ? SvivAnaMva pUOna. tu sat vat ane AnaMdrathI pUrNa che. tuM sat che. tArI zAzvata sattAmAM tuM 2hevAno che. maravAno ja nathI. A juo. jaina dharmamAMthI maravAnI vAta ja nIkaLI gaI. sAco jaina koNa ? je maravAmAM mAnato nathI. jyAre gharamAM eka mANasano viyoga thAya to kahe : 'pAchA thayA.' eTale amAruM ghara mUkIne bIje ThekANe gayA. eTale jainakuLamAM maraNa nahi, zoka nahi, kALAM kapaDAM nahi, pravacana sAMbhaLavAnuM baMdha nahi, ane khUNA pALavAnA paNa nahi, jevI rIte Avyo che tevI rIte gayo che. 'kIdhA vinA AvyA hatA ane kIdhA vinA gayA', A vAta jeTalI samajAya eTalo mAnavI zokarahita thAya. ajJAnI roja mAthAM phUTe, kakaLATa kare paNa Ama karavAthI je gayeluM che e thoDuM ja pAchuM AvavAnuM che ? mamatAnI jaDo UMDI zA mATe nAkhavI ke jethI jIvana eka yAtrAne badale saMtApa bane ? meM evAM kuTuMbo paNa joyAM che ke jemAM maratI vakhate kahe, "juo, huM jAuM chuM. mArI pAchaLa AMsu pADazo nahi, bane to prArthanA karajo; mArI pAchaLa raDazo nahi, bane to dharma karajo; mArI pAchaLa khUNAmAM bharAIne besazo nahi, ne bane to yAtrAe jajo." Ama vidAyane yAtrA mAnI janArA mANaso paNa che. tame dIkarAne bahAragAma mokalo cho. koI pUche to kaho cho ke pAMca varSe Avaze. ghare AvIne zuM karo cho ? ema mAno cho na ke bahAragAma beTho che, bhaNe che. AmAM paNa e ja samaja keLavavAnI che. bahAragAma gayo che, vizvamAMthI bIje kyAMya gayo nathI. jevI rIte svajana paradeza gayA che e samaja che, paNa deha choDIne e paradeza gayA che evI samaja AvavAnI nathI. jJAnIne A samaja hoya che. loko samaje che enA karatAM jJAnIo jarAka ATaluM vadhAre samaje che. A jarAka vadhAre samajaNa e ja jAgRti che. A vAta samajAya to maraNano zoka ke kakaLATa rahe ja kema ? A sat che, AtmA rahevAno che. Aje ahIM hato. ahIMthI nIkaLIne bIje javAno che. ApaNe ahIM rahevA mATe AvyA e pahelAM ApaNe kyAMka rahetA hatA ja. kadAca eka sthaLa ke phlaeNTa na phAve to bIje jaIe. evI ja rIte A dehamAMthI AtmA nIkaLI jAya che ane bIje nivAsa kare che. koI pUche, 'kyAM 176 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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gayo ?' kahe : 'khabara nathI. amane saranAmuM khabara nathI paNa kyAMka gayo to che.' janAra mATe tyAM badhI goThavaNa thaI gaI che. kaI goThavaNa ? karmanI, puNyanI ane pApanI, karmanI goThavaNane lIdhe A doDAdoDa che. meM evA mANasa joyA che ke temane koI kahe ke mAro chokaro mAMdo che, davAnI jarUra che. so rUpiyA Apazo ? to kahe, 'mArI zakti nathI.' paNa eno e ja mANasa gadhdhAvaitaruM karI karIne hajAro rUpiyA enA dIkarAne ApIne cAlyo jAya. jatI vakhate saMtoSa mAne ke mArA dIkarAne mATe ATalA rUpiyA pAchaLa mUkyA che. AnI pAchaLa zAnuM joDANa che ? leNadeNanuM. e gayA janmanuM levA mATe Avyo che. eTale tame satkarma mATe na vAparo, AtmA mATe na vAparo, potAne mATe na vAparo, najara sAme taraphaDato mANasa hoya ene mATe na vAparo paNa dIkarA mATe mUkIne jAo. A mamatvanI mAyAe mANasane kevo banAvI mUkyo che ! e mAyAno mAryo potAnA zramanA rUpiyA mUkIne jAya ane rAjI thAya, ke hAza ! mAro dIkaro have sukhI thavAno. paNa ene khabara nakhI ke sukhI thaze ke du:khI thaze. mANasa jo UMDANathI vicAra kare to lAge ke A karma rAjAnI vicitra gUMthaNI che. ane A gUMthaNIne lIdhe ja Akho saMsAra vaNasUcavyo, vaNanirdezyo ane vaNaAlekhyo cAlyo jAya che. A gUMthaNIne je loko samaje che e loko koI dahADo gUMthAtA nathI; baMdhAtA nathI. e to ema kahe che ke mAre to mAruM A eka karma hatuM je pUruM thayuM. have pharI huM zuM karavA A badhAnI aMdara gUMthAI jAuM ? A jagatanA badhA ja saMbaMdhonI pAchaLa karmonAM baMdhano paDelAM che. dAnAttarAyano udaya kevo che ? tamane ema nahi thAya ke bihAramAM anAja vinA TaLavaLatA mANaso marI jAya che. lAva, huM hajAra rUpiyA ApI dauM; paNa dIkarAne duniyAnI musApharI upara javuM hoya to trIsa hajAra rUpiyA ApI do ! jJAnI to jANe ja che ke huM to eka pravAsI chuM. sat chuM. A to eka avasthA che. A avasthAnuM bhAna thaI gayuM pachI tame du:khI nahi thAo, svastha rahezo. koI vidAya thaI jAya to ema nahi mAno ke marI gayo, kahezo ke judo paDyo, pAcho thaI gayo. ahIMthI gayo paNa kyAMka thaI gayo. bIjI vAta, tuM citta che. tuM jJAnamAMya che. tArI aMdara khajAno bharyo pUrNanA pagathAre * 177

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che. jema jema AvaraNo UghaDatAM jAya che, tema tema aMdarano prakAza Avato jAya che. hIro khANamAM paDelo hoya tyAre melo hoya. upara jema jema paoNliza thatuM jAya tema tema pAsA paDatA jAya, aMdarathI kiraNo bahAra AvatAM jAya, prakAza Avato jAya ane hIro cakacakita banato jAya che. paNa jyAM sudhI eno kaTa (cut) na thAya, paoNliza na thAya, enA pAsA na paDe, aMdarano bhAga bahAra na Ave tyAM sudhI hIrAnuM teja kema pragaTe ? ApaNo AtmA paNa tejathI jhagamagato che, prakAzathI bharelo che, paNa koI pAsA pADanAro maLyo. nathI, koI siyo maLyo nathI. ene ghasI ghasIne enA uparanAM AvaraNone khaseDyAM nathI, eTalA ja mATe bhagavAne kahyuM ke jJAna lAvavuM paDatuM nathI, paNa ughADavuM paDe che. e bahArathI kAMI AvatuM nathI, aMdara ja che. upara DhAMkaNa che, e UghaDI jAya to prakAza aMdara ja che. AnaMda paNa tamArI aMdara che. tame jo nirupAdhi avasthAmAM ho, tamArA upara koI upAdhino bhAra na hoya, tamArI upara ciMtAnI samaDIo cakkara lagAvatI na hoya ane tame dariyAnA kinAre beThA ho to pANInA taraMgomAMthI paNa tamane AnaMdanA taraMgo dekhAya, vananI zrImAM tame beThelA ho to e vanazrI AkhI AnaMdathI bharelI lAge, koI parvatanI Toca upara beThA ho to tyAM paNa paramAtmAnAM darzana thAya, kAraNa ke ciMtAnI samaDIoe cakkara lagAvavAnAM baMdha karyAM che. paNa jyAM sudhI e cakkara lagAve che tyAM sudhI aMdarano AnaMda prApta nahi thAya. mANasa maMdiramAM jAya, paNa enA magajamAM bIjuM ja kAMI cAlatuM hoya to ene bhagavAnamAM paNa kAMI dekhAtuM nathI. kyAMthI dekhAya ? tane tArAmAM dekhAtuM nathI to bhagavAnamAM kyAMthI dekhAya ? tane tArAmAM kAMI dekhAya to ja bhagavAnamAM dekhAya. potAnAmAM pote dekhAvuM joIe. jo e pote ja joI zakato nathI to bhagavAnane kevI rIte joI zake ? kAThiyAvADano eka prasaMga yAda Ave che. eka bApu oTalA upara beThelA, aphINano kasuMbo pIdhelo. gulAMTa khAdhI ne bApu oTalA parathI paDI gayA. bAjumAM beThelA khuzAmatiyAo bApune UbhA karavA gayA. tyAM bApue pUchyuM : 'koNa paDI gayuM ?' pelA khuzAmatiyAo vicAre ke have zuM kahevuM ? eke hiMmata karIne bApune kahyuM : 'Apa paDI gayA.' bApu garjya : 'tame... tame zuM karatA hatA tyAre ?' ema A jIvane potAne ja khabara nathI ke kyAM cAlyo jAya che ane 178 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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kahe che ke bhagavAna mane jaDato nathI ! jJAnIo kahe che ke tuM tane jaDI jA, tuM tane oLakhI le, pachI bhagavAnane maLatAM vAra nahi lAge. eTale ja AcArAMga sUtramAM kahyuM : me AyA, aaN nALe savva nALe. jo tuM ekane jANIza to sahune jANIza. tuM tane nahi jANe to tuM koIne nahi jANe. potAne jANavAthI ja paramAtmAne jANI zakAya che. AnaMdano anubhava kyAre thAya ? ciMtAnI samaDIothI jIva mukta hoya tyAre; pachI tame jyAM jazo tyAM AnaMda AnaMda dekhAze. 'saccidAnaMda pUrNena' A sat cit ane AnaMdathI sabhara che, amRtathI chalakAto A kuMbha che. 'ghULa naveMcare' je mANasa Avo pUrNa che e ja AkhA jagatane pUrNa jue che. e jagatamAM rahe che paNa enI pAMkho mukta che. e rasa cUse che, UDI jAya che, muktatA paNa mANe che. madhuratA paNa mANe che. paththaranI mAkhIne mIThAza na hoya to paNa svataMtratA to che ja. dhAre tyAre UDI paNa zake che. madhanI mAkhIne mIThAza che paNa svataMtratA nathI. e dhAre tyAre UDI zakatI nathI. paNa je jIvo lIMTa jevA che emanA mATe saMsAranA sukha paNa nathI ane svataMtratA paNa nathI. AsaktimAM paDyA che, coMTyA che. emane pUcho ke zuM sukha che ? to kahe : 'jIvana pUruM karIe chIe.' ne ema pUruM karavAmAM ja jIvana pUruM thaI jAya che. A cAra kakSAo batAvI. A cAra bhUmikAomAM mAkhInI to mAtra eka upamA ApI che. paNa jIvanA svabhAvanuM AmAM darzana samAyeluM che. A jIvanuM darzana enA svabhAvanuM darzana ApaNane thavuM joIe. A thAya pachI tame game tyAM raho, game tyAM beso, game te anubhava karo, paNa tamane ema thAya ke mArAmAM eka AtmA beThelo che je avasthA vagarano che. jene uMmara nathI, jene gAma nathI, koI ThekANuM nathI. e anaMtakALathI cAlato Avyo che ane eno pravAsa aMte mokSamAM pUro thavAno che. - pUrNanA pagathAre * 179

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jyAM sudhI e mokSamAM birAjamAna na thAya tyAM sudhI jyAM jyAM janma levo paDe, jyAM jyAM zarIra dhAraNa karavuM paDe tyAM e karmane lIdhe ema kare che ema jANavuM. ApaNAmAM A svarUpanI jAgRti jema jema vadhatI jAya, tema tema ApaNo AtmA sukhamAM, AnaMdamAM ane zAMtimAM samRddha banato jAya che. pachI ene saMsAranAM duHkho naDatAM nathI. ene AghAto Ave che paNa jevI rIte pANImAM paththara paDe, ghA dekhAya ane thoDIka kSaNamAM pAcho maTI jAya che, evI enI avasthA hoya. e samaje che, je je karma bAMdhyAM che pachI te pUrvajanmanAM hoya ke A janmanAM hoya e karmane AdhIna A badhA banAvo banavAnA ja. tame paNa jo A svabhAvadazAno, AtmadazAno, AtmazrIno anubhava karI zako to saMsAranA badhA ja banAvomAM jema pANImAM paththara paDe, khADo paDe ane tarata purAI jAya, evI sahaja avasthAnA bhAvane mANI zako. - 180 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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20. pUrNanI pyAsa * pUrNatA yA paropAdheH sA yAcitakamaMDanam / X yA tu svAbhAvikI saiva jAtyaratnavibhAnibhA // che A subhASitamAM tenA racayitA che" mahApuruSe eka suMdara vAtane A batAvI ke bahAranA sAdhanathI, bahAranI padavIthI ane bahAranA bhavya evA e bhapakAothI tame je pUrNatA meLavI che, ane loko tamane je pUrNa mAnI beThA che, ja ane tame pote paNa A bAhya pUrNatAmAM 2 magna banIne je sAcI pUrNatAne bhUlI gayA : cho te A pUrNatA to mAgI lAvelAM ghareNAM ra jevI che. koI zubha prasaMgamAM ke koI che lagnanA TANe koI dhanavAna vyakti pAsethI je tame alaMkAro, AbhUSaNo, vastro ane sAmagrIne mAgI lAvo ane enAthI tame sArA dekhAvAno prayatna karo, paNa e A dAgInA tamArA nathI, alaMkAra tamArA huM nathI, vastro tamArAM nathI, e badhI bhADUtI vastuo che. ane jemaNe alaMkAra ane 2 AbhUSaNa ApyAM hoya e loko manamAM pUrNanA pagathAre 181

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hasatA hoya che. "amArA alaMkArothI A mANasa pUrNa banavAno prayatna kare che. ane je mANasa mAgIne lAvyo hoya e mANasa hRdayathI, manathI ane vyaktitvathI dIna banI jAya che. vaLI je mANasanAM alaMkAra ane vastro mAgIne lAvyo hoya ene sAcavavA mATe e mANasa vilovIlo thaI jAya che kAraNa ke jenA alaMkAra che eno enA upara upakAra che. e alaMkArathI kadAca bAhya zobhA vadhatI haze, paNa aMdara to dInatA vadhI jAya che; bahArathI loko kadAca vAhavAhanA zabdo kahI detA haze, paNa mANasa aMdarathI pAmara banI jAya che. aMdaranuM teja che, je svatva che, e dhIme dhIme naSTa thaI jAya che. eTale bIjAno upakAra levo e baMdhana che, emAM khumArI nathI. paropAdhinuM duHkha e che ke enAthI mANasa bahArathI dekhAya sAro paNa aMdarathI nabaLo banI jAya che. AthI enI sarakhAmaNI sojAnI sAthe karavAmAM Ave che. bImAra AdamIne sojA AvyA hoya tyAre e ghaNo sarasa ane jADo lAge, moDhuM phUleluM lAge, enI AMkhanAM popacAM bharAyelAM lAge ane ApaNane lAge ke A vyakti keTalI taMdurasta ane masta banI gaI che ! paNa e to sojA che, e kama tAkAtanI nizAnI che, aMdaranI nirbaLatAnI nizAnI che. sojAvALo mANasa sarasa dekhAya paNa svastha nahi. ane sarasamAM ane svasthamAM ATalo phera che. paropAdhi che e sarasa che. paNa svastha nathI, mahApuruSo kahe che. : "tuM svastha banI jA, te svastha hoIza to sarasatA AvI ja jaze.' svAthya vagarano koI bImAra mANasa suMdara vastra paridhAna kare, sArA alaMkAra dhAraNa kare, suvAsita padArthono upayoga kare, paNa e jyAM sudhI aMdarathI bImAra che tyAM sudhI enA mukha para skUrti, manamAM utsAha ane aMgaaMgamAM zakti pragaTavAM joIe te nahi pragaTe. tame jANo ja cho ke TrenanA enjinamAM varALa hoya che, je hajAro Tana bojAne tANI jAya che. e varALa emanI ema nIkaLI jAya che to gADI vacce ja aTakI jAya che. pharI pANI bharavuM paDe che, sTIma taiyAra karavI paDe che ane jyAre sTImathI enjina taiyAra thAya che pachI e hajAro TananA bojAne tANI zake che. svastha mANasanuM mana e sTIma jevuM che, varALa jevuM che. e saMsAranA game evA bojAne, game evA bhArane, game evA duHkhane, game evI vipattine, game evAM kaSTone, ane game evAM AkramaNone paNa e hasatAM hasatAM sahana karI zake che, kAraNa ke enA mananI zakti pAmaratAne kAraNe paDI nathI gaI, paNa ene eNe potAnI svasthatAne kAraNe sabaLa rAkhI che. 182 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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saMsAramAM tamane eka paNa saMta nahi jaDe ke jenA para duHkhano bhAra, vipattinAM vAdaLa ane AkramaNonA Ataza na AvyAM hoya. AvyA ja che. e badhuM emaNe sahana karyuM eTale ja e saMta banyA. emaNe jo sahana karyuM na hota to e saMta banI zakata ja nahi. e batAvI Ape che ke jema jema tamArAmAM sahana karavAnI zakti Ave che tema tema tamArAmAM saMtapaNuM AvatuM jAya che. ghaNA bhakto -- khAsa karIne dharmakriyA karanArA mANaso - phariyAda karatA hoya che : "ame roja maMdiramAM jaIe chIe, roja kathA sAMbhaLIe chIe chatAM bhagavAna amAre tyAM duHkha zuM karavA mokale che ?" huM kahuM chuM ke tame sArA banyA cho, bhakta thayA cho ema kahe cho to tame polA to nathI ne e tapAsavA duHkha Ave che. khoTA mANaso aMdara ghUsI na jAya te mATe du:khanI kasoTI para tamArI parIkSA thAya che. ane koI vAra pittaLa paNa potAne sonuM gaNAvIne aMdara ghUsI jAya to sonInuM kAma che ke e ene tejAbamAM nAkhI kasoTI para paNa caDhAve. emAM paNa ene jo zaMkA lAge to aMdarathI toDIne paNa e kyAMya khoTuM to nathI ne enI cakAsaNI ane tapAsaNI kare, kAraNa ke e potAnI jAtane sonuM kahevaDAve che. jo e ema kahI de ke huM pittaLa chuM, to koI evo mUrkha sonI nahi maLe, je ene kasoTI para caDhAve, ane tenA upara tejAba kharce. e ja kaheze ke, "bhAI, A to pittaLano kaTako che, enA upara koNa mahenata kare ? paNa jo ema kahe ke huM suvarNa chuM, to koI paNa cokasI AvIne kaheze ke "jarA mane tapAsavA do." jIvananI A eka dRSTi che. saMta banavuM che, sajjana banavuM che ane saMta ane sajjana banavA chatAM kaSTa sahana karavAno vAro Ave tyAre bhagavAnanI AgaLa phariyAda karavI che ke "he bhagavAna, tuM du:kha kema mokale che ?" huM to ema kahuM chuM ke tame ema kaho ke have ame tAruM zaraNuM lIdhuM che, have ame tArI madada lIdhI che, have tuM amAre paDakhe che. eTalA mATe jo kaSTa Ave toya mane vAMdho nathI. sahana karavAnI zakti maLe, bIjuM kAMI nahi joIe. kavivara TAgore prArthanAmAM ema kahyuM che ke, "huM ema nathI kaheto ke duHkha na Ave, prabhu ! huM ema nathI kaheto ke musIbata na Ave, huM ema paNa nathI kaheto ke mane duHkhamAMthI mukta karI do. huM to eTaluM kahuM chuM ke pUrNanA pagathAre * 183

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duHkha Ave, musIbata Ave, kaSTa Ave to te samayamAM huM bhAMgI na paDuM ane nabaLo banIne dIna na banI jAuM; e duHkhone sahana karavAnI je zakti che e mane maLe, duHkhane sahana karavAnI zakti, sarakI javAnI yukti nahi." A prArthanA e ja batAvI Ape che ke je bhakta che e duHkhone sahana karavA mATe tatpara che ane e duHkhone sahana karavA mATe ene eka jAtanI zakti prApta thaI jAya che. kaI zakti ? svasthatAnI zakti. tame jojo ke jyAre tamArI tabiyata sArI hoya, tamArA zarIramAM koI jAtanI vyAdhi na hoya tyAre sahaja sphUrti ane sahaja svasthatAno tamane anubhava thavAno. tame pagathiyAM caDhatA ho to jANe kUdatA kUdatA caDhatA ho, tame cAlatA ho to jANe tamArA pagamAM vIjaLIo 2matI hoya ane tame bolatA ho to jANe tamArA zabdomAM caitanyanuM sAmarthya pragaTatuM hoya. e batAvI Ape che ke aMdara taMdurastI che. paNa jyAre taMdurastI cAlI jAya che tyAre bolavAmAM paNa zithilatA Ave che, caDhatI vakhate paNa keDe hAtha devo paDe che. koI maLavA Ave to paNa bagAsAM Ave che. A badhuM batAve che ke tame rogI cho, mAMdA cho. asvastha cho. bIjA pAsethI tame je pUrNatA lAvyA cho e eka jAtanI mAMdagI che. pachI e pUrNatA sattAnI hoya ke dhananI hoya, e pUrNatA koIe ApelI padavInI hoya ke e pUrNatA koIka mANase ApelA mobhAnI hoya e badhuM bhADUtI che, bIjAe ApeluM che. tyAre aMdara zuM che ? aMdara to tuM gavarnarano gavarnara cho, rAjAdhirAja cho, sarva sattAdhIza cho. paNa tuM tArI sattAno anubhava cUkI gayo. have pharI e aMdara paDelI sattAno anubhava karavo, enuM darzana karavuM, enuM svasaMvedana karavuM e ja A mahApuruSone sAMbhaLavAno 52ma hetu che. e hetu jo tamArI pAse na hoya to kathA sAMbhaLI ane UtarI gayA. zuM laI AvyA ? to kahe : "kAMI nahi, kathA sAMbhaLIne AvyA.'' tame kathA sAMbhaLI hoya to e kathA tamArA jIvananI vyathA dUra karI de. je vyathA dUra na kare tene kathA kema kahevAya ? A zlokamAM upAdhyAyajIe kahyuM ke pArakI padavIthI (upAdhithI) tuM pUrNa banIne DolI rahyo che, paNa bhAI ! tArI pUrNatA to pAMca varSanI, daza varSanI, paMdara varSanI, vIsa varSanI mAgI lAvelI pUrNatA che. cUMTaNImAM cUMTAIne Avelo hoya e pAMca varSa mATe pradhAna bane. jyAre e mudata pUrI thAya tyAre tame 184 * jIvanamAMgalya

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enI dInatA juo. TikiTa levA mATe e pagacaMpI karato hoya che ane TikiTa meLavyA pachI mata meLavavA mATe lokonI khuzAmata karato hoya, rAta ane divasa eka karIne te duHkhI thato hoya. A dInatA joIe tyAre ApaNane thAya ke A AtmA keTalo badho nIco UtarI gayo che ! ene sattAe pAMca varSa mATe pradhAna banAvyo hato paNa e sattA uparathI UtarI gayo, to rastAno bhikhArI thaI gayo. bhikhArI je dInatAthI paisA mAge e dInatA karatAM paNa vadhAre dInatAthI eka mata mATe, eka TikiTa mATe pharato hoya che. to je vastuthI ApaNA AtmAnI zakti cAlI jAya, je vastu meLavavAthI ApaNe samRddha banavAne badale AvA dIna banI jaIe e vastu paropAdhi che, bhADUtI mAgI lAvelI cintA che. A vAta mANasane barAbara anubhava ane abhyAsathI samajAya to Aje sattA mATenuM je AkarSaNa che, paisA mATenuM je pralobhana che ane mAna ane sthAna mATenI je satata tRSNA che te jarUra nIkaLI jAya. huM to icche ke mANasanuM jIvana darpaNa jevuM hoya. darpaNanI viziSTatA zuM che te tame jANo cho ne ? e svAgata saunuM kare, svIkAra koInoya nahi. enI sAme Ubhela vastunuM e anAsaktipUrvaka pratibimba jhIle che, e vastu khasI jatAM kAca evo ja svastha ane svaccha rahe che. svAgata sahunuM karo paNa svIkAra koIno nahi. sattA Ave to AvavA do, mAna Ave to paNa AvavA do, apamAna AvI jAya to tene paNa AvavA do, duHkha AvI jAya to paNa te bhale Ave, Ave che to svAgata che; cAlI jAya che to svacchatA che. arIso ApaNane jIvananuM A eka dRSTibiMdu Ape che. eka Adarza Ape che je mANasa svAgata nathI karato ane emAM baMdhAI jAya che e duHkhI duHkhI banI jAya che. saMtoe, bhAratanA saMtoe ane duniyAbharanA saMtoe A jIvanaAdarza ApaNane Apyo che. e lokone sukha maLyuM to enuM svAgata karatA rahyA. emane tyAM jo duHkha AvyuM to enuM paNa svAgata karatA rahyA. sukha gayuM to paNa aphasosa nahi, du:kha AvI gayuM to paNa aphasosa nahi. bhagavAna mahAvIrano eka prasaMga mane yAda Ave che. bhagavAna mahAvIranI upara sADA bAra varSa sudhI ApattinI jhaDIo varasavAnI hatI te pahelAM iMdra AvIne kahyuM : "prabho ! tamArA mArgamAM have sADA bAra varSa sudhI duHkha Avaze. e duHkhanAM kALAM vAdaLo gherAya tyAre huM ApanI paDakhe Ubho pUrNanA pagathAre * 185

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rahuM ane ApanI sevA karuM evI mane AjJA Apo." tyAre bhagavAne zuM kahyuM? bhagavAne kahyuM : "indra, saMsAramAM koI paNa mANasa bIjAnI madadathI mukti meLavI zakato nathI; ane bIjAnI madadathI meLavelI mukti e mukti nathI hotI, te bIjI game te vastu hoI zake. mukti maLaze to ApabaLathI ja maLaze. jo potAnI sAdhanAthI te nahi maLe to duniyAnI koI paNa vyaktinI madadathI nathI maLavAnI; eTalA ja mATe mArA upara je duHkho AvI rahyAM che. enuM svAgata karavA mATe mane ja rahevA de, vacce tuM na AvIza." arIso paNa tamane e ja kahe che ke tame saMsAranI vastuo pratye mArI jema varte to pachI tamArA hRdayanA arIsA upara koI jAtano DAgha nahi paDe. du:khano ke sukhano paDachAyo cAlyo jAya che. paNa hRdayano arIso je che e to e ja rahe che. kuMbhArane pUchI jojo. agnimAM tapAvyA vinA e koI paNa ghaDAne bajAramAM mUke che ? te jANe che ke kAco ghaDo mArI ijjata leze. pote ja sarjelA potAnA priya ghaDAne barAbara agnimAM tapAve che ane je ghaDo pAko thayelo hoya ene mATe chAtI kADhIne kahe che ke "A ghaDo laI zako cho, ene TakorA mArI tapAsI zako cho." ema je bhakta che e du:khanA tapamAM tapI tapIne potAnI jAtane majabUta kare che ane e saMsArane paDakAra kare che ke koI paNa Takore A tUTe tema nathI. kuMbhAra ghaDAne paripakva karavA jema agnino upayoga kare che tema sAdhake AtmAne nirmaLa karavA ane karmanA melane dUra karavA duHkhano paNa upayoga karavAno che. maraNa zuM che ? kapaDAM badalI nAkhavAM te. ane emAM paNa jUnAM kapaDAM badalavAM e to bahu AnaMdano viSaya che. vaparAI gayelAM, phATI gayelAM, jIrNa thayelAM zarIra paDI jAya to aphasosa zo ? lagnanI jema maraNane paNa utsava mAnavo joIe. A to vidAyano utsava che. "kyAM jAo cho ?" to kaho : prabhunA dhAmamAM jaIe chIe." mRtyu e to jIvananI ja eka avasthA che. ane eTalA ja mATe siddho mRtyune tyAM thaIne pUrNatAmAM pahoMcI gayA. mRtyu e mRtyu ja hota to e pUrNatAne kema pAmata ? paNa tamArI nirbaLatAe, tamArI Asaktioe ane tamArI bhoganI tRSNAe mRtyune bhayaMkara banAvI dIdhuM che. ati tRSNA jIvana pratye jAgI che ane tethI mRtyu e jIvananI eka avasthA che e vAta bhulAI gaI che. 186 ke jIvana-mAMgalya

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eTalA ja mATe e samajavAnuM che ke jevI rIte yuvAnI eka avasthA che, ghaDapaNa eka avasthA che, tevI rIte mRtyu paNa eka avasthA ja che. vastu TakI rahe ane AkAra badalAI jAya, enuM nAma avasthA kahevAya. mRtyunI pahelAM paNa jIvana hatuM ane mRtyunI pachI paNa jIvana rahevAnuM che, ane pUrNa satya e che ke mRtyu jIvanane mArI zakatuM nathI. jIvana e akSaya che, akhaMDa che, zAzvata che. yauvana ane vArdhakyanI jema mRtyu mAtra eka paristhiti che. A zaizava, A yauvana, A ghaDapaNa ane A mRtyu, A AkAro badalAya paNa jIvana je nirAkAra che te zAzvata rahe. A bhAvanA sarvatra phelAvavI joIe. Aja maraNanI bhIrutA AvI che. enuM kAraNa dharmanA nAme dIvAlo UbhI karI che. dIvAlone lIdhe ApaNe vaheMcAI gayA chIe. ane jyAM dIvAlo che tyAM pachInuM darzana jatuM rahe che. cakSuno aMdhApo AvI jAya to vAMdho nathI, paNa vicArono aMdhApo na Avavo joIe. cakSunA aMdhApAmAM sthaLU vastuo nathI dekhAtI paNa dhAro to sUkSmano anubhava karI zako. paNa vicAronA aMdhApAmAM to sUkSma vastuo ja nathI dekhAtI ane cakSu kadAca na hoya to prajJA vaDe karIne paNa AMtaracakSuthI vastuo joI zakAya che, paNa jo AMtaracakSu cAlI gayAM, dIvAlomAM mana aTavAI gayuM, to parama satyanuM darzana tame nathI karI zakavAnA. eTale vicArono aMdhApo to bahu kharAba che, satyadarzananI lagana lAge to ja A aMdhApo jAya. A dIvAlo tUTI jAya to mANasa ekabIjAnI najIka Ave ane jema jema najIka Avato jAya tema tema mANasamAM vasela caitanyanuM darzana thatuM jAya. ApaNI AMkhanI ADe jeTalA aMtarAyo che, jeTalAM AvaraNo che, e vastune oLakhavAmAM muzkelI UbhI kare che. AtmasattAne oLakhavAmAM jo aMtarAya karanAra koI hoya to te saMpradAyanAM AvaraNo che, bIjuM kAMI nathI. eTale mahApuruSoe kahyuM ke tAre banavuM nathI paDatuM, jANavuM paDe che; lAvavuM nathI paDatuM oLakhavuM paDe che; ane bahArathI meLavavuM nathI paDatuM paNa aMdarathI uMghADavuM paDe che. eka pAMca varSano rAjakumAra hato. e rAjakumArane koI coro AvIne uThAvI gayA; ene potAne tyAM rAkhIne taiyAra karyo. e rAjakumAra corono rAjA banyo ane pahelA naMbarano zikArI banyo. e vAtane paMdara varSa vItI gayAM. eka divasa rAjA zikAre nIkaLe che. tyAM pelo corono rAjA paNa zikAra pUrNanA pagathAre * 187

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karavA nIkaLyo che. baMne jaNA maLI jAya che. rAjAe coranI sAme joyuM, ane enA hRdayamAM premano srota vahevA lAgyo. rAjA vicAre che : Ama kema ? mAruM hRdaya kema taNAya che ? ane hRdaya taNAya che e uparathI lAge che ke A corane ane mAre kaMI saMbaMdha hovo joIe. eTalAmAM eNe dhArIne joyuM to enA kapALamAM eka suMdara lAbuM hatuM. ane ene yAda AvyuM ke mArA rAjakumArane paNa AvuM lAbuM hatuM. chokarAne gumAvyAne paMdara varSa thayAM. e vakhate chokaro pAMca varSano hato. Aje e vIsa varSano hoya. joyuM to zikArI paNa vIsa varSano hato, eTale rAjA enI pAse gayo ane pUchyuM : "tuM koNa che ?" to kahe, "huM corono pallIpati." "tArA pitA kyAM che ?' to kahe : bImAra che ane atyAre pallImAM che." rAjA kahe : "mane pallImAM laI jA." corono rAjA tene tyAM laI jAya che. rAjA pallIpatine pUche che : "A kono chokaro che ?" pelo pallIpati kahe che ke, e mAro che." "tamAro che paNa mane manamAM evI anubhUti thAya che ke A chokaro mAro che." "tame koNa ?' to kahe : "vaizAlIno huM rAjA chuM." pelA pallIpatinI AMkho bhInI bhInI thaI. eNe kahyuM, "vAta sAcI che. AjathI paMdara varSa upara huM jyAre lUMTa calAvavA Avyo hato tyAre e lUMTamAM A suMdara dekhAvaDA rAjakumArane paNa uThAvI Avyo hato, kAraNa ke mane saMtAna nahotuM. meM ene moTo karyo, ene mArA putranI bhAvanAthI raMgyo. mAre mATe e putra che, ene mATe huM pitA chuM. paNa Aja sAcA pitA ane putranuM milana thayuM che. to rAjAe namratAthI kahyuM ke, mArI gAdI khAlI che ane mAre paNa A ekano eka ja putra che, ene have huM laI jAuM chuM." pelo pallIpati kahe che ke "bahu sArI vAta che, kAraNa ke mAro putra ane tamAro putra eka ja che. ane have e corane badale rAjA thAya e ja zreSTha che." rAjA ene laI jAya che. gAdI upara besADe che, e divase e rAjA bane che, hukama kare che. ahIM rAjakumArane banavuM nathI paDyuM, rAjakumAra to hato ja. paNa ene jANa na hatI. have jANa thaI ke huM rAja kumAra chuM. ATalA divasa sudhI e ajANa hato. jANa thatAM have e gAmanA lokonI corI nathI karato. gAmanA lokonA gharamAM aMdhArAmAM ghUsI nathI jato. have e kahe che ke AkhI nagarI ane samRddhino svAmI huM ja chuM, kAraNa ke ene jANapaNuM thayuM. ene jJAna thayuM, ene avabodha thayo. ema kaho ke "sva" svarUpanuM bhAna thayuM ! je ghaDIe bhAna thayuM te ghaDIthI ja e svAmitva bhogave che. nagarInA lokone e AjJA karI 188 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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zake che. have e rAjAdhirAjanuM gaurava anubhave che. je aMdhArAmAM coranI jema Avato hato te have prakAzamAM svAmI thaIne hukama karI zake che.' ahIM tame paNa ATaluM jANI lo ke huM brahma chuM, tame jANI lo ke huM bhagavat svarUpa chuM, tame jANI lo ke huM paramAtma svarUpa chuM. pachI viSayonA aMdhArAmAM tamAre doDavuM nahi paDe. tame tamane pApI ja mAnyA karo to tame pApInI jema ja jIvavAnA ne ? je potAne cora jANe e to corI ja kare ne ? bIjuM zuM kare ? svarUpa vismaraNa thayuM che, bIjuM kAMI thayuM nathI. ane A svarUpa vismaraNe mANasane ghaNo nIco nAkhI dIdho che - eTalo nIco nAkhyo che ke e coranI jema Aje vartana kare che, je kharI rIte samrATa che. A vAta para tame khAsa vicAra karazo. madAlasAe to ghoDiyAmAM poDhelA bALakane hIMcako nAkhatAM zikhavADyuM. sisa yuri' - tuM siddha che, tuM buddha che, tuM niraMjana che. A saMsAranI mAyAmAM tu lapaTAIza nahi." ghoDiyAnA dhAvaNA bALakane AdhyAtmika dhAvaNa pAnAra mAtAo hatI. bALakane e pairyavAna banAvatI. Aje to mAtAo chokarAne bivaDAve ke jo bilADI AvI, bAvo Avyo. sAdhu Avyo. AvA nirbaLa saMskAro na sIMcavA joIe. hAlaraDAnA saMskArathI AtmasvarUpanuM jJAna thavuM joIe ene badale Aje bALaka bhayathI AvRtta bane che, e vIra kema bane ? bhayathI tame keTalA AvRtta cho ? eka jamAdAra AvI jAya ane tame dhUjI jAo cho. mANaso jyAre sarasa koTa paherIne moTI gADImAM nIkaLatA hoya tyAre dayA Ave ke AvI moTI gADI che paNa jyAre ene inkamaTeksano oNphisara pUche che tyAre tenA jIbhanA locA vaLI jAya che. bahArathI zeThanuM svarUpa che, aMdara to cora che. mana bhAMgI gayuM che, manathI bIkaNa che. cora kadAca samRddha banI jAya to paNa Akhare to e cora che. ema jyAM sudhI Atmadarzana nahi thAya tyAM sudhI tame game te karo, game teTalI pravRtti karo, game teTaluM AcaraNa karo, chatAM e uparanuM che, bAhya che, paropAdi che, mAgI lAvelA alaMkAro che, eka jAtano sojo che; ane e sojo tadurastI to nathI ja. tame aMdaranI zaktine pedA karo. dUbaLA thAo to vAMdho nahi paNa taMdurasta thAo. pAtaLA ho eno vAMdho nathI. eka bhAI mAtra aThThANuM ratalanA hatA paNa mane kahe : "ApanuM kAma pUrNanA pagathAre ja 189

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huM aDhAra kalAka karavA taiyAra chuM. mAruM vajana aThThANuM ratala che paNa mAruM zarIra to rUno loco nahi paNa vaNelI vATa che." rUno loco hoya to phaMdAI jAya paNa varNaLI vATa kevI majabUta hoya ! bahAranA sojAthI mAMdagIno saMcaya karo enA karatAM pAtaLAM thaIne taMdurastI prApta karo evo zubha divasa, evuM suprabhAta kyAre Ave ? ane e prabhAta cokkasa mAnajo ke tyAre ja AvavAnuM che ke jyAre tame mAno ke huM to IzvarasvarUpa chuM; ane je bhagavAnane priya che te mane paNa priya hovuM joIe. bhagavAnane je priya che te mane priya kema na hoya ? bhagavAnane je priya nathI e mane priya che e batAvI Ape che ke mArAmAM kazIka mAMdagI che. pure aMgrejImAM eka kahevata che ke You are always sure when you are jyAre tame nirmaLa hazo tyAre ja tame ni:saMzaya hazo kAraNa tamArI tabiyata ane tamArI hakIkata tame jANatA ho cho, to jyAre tame pure hazo tyAre ja sure banI zako. paNa mANasa jo cokhkho na hoya, zuddha na hoya to e kevI rIte cokkasa banI zake ? ApaNe kAMI banavAnuM nathI. ApaNe janmathI, pahelethI, brahmasvarUpa chIe. AtmA paramAtmA-svarUpa chIe. sAmAnya loko paNa koIka vAra A satya uccAratA hoya che ke jIva te ziva che, AtmA te paramAtmA che, khuda te khudA che, biMdu te siMdhu che. A bhASAnI kahevato e svazaktinuM darzana karAve che. ane jyAre A zaktinuM tamane darzana thaI jAya che tyAre tame ja rAjakumAra cho. mAtra tame jANI lo. je ghaDIe jANI lo te ghaDIthI hukama karavA mAMDo cho. pachI tamArI coravRttio nIkaLI jAya che. -- mitro, atyAre tamArI je pUrNatA che e to mAgI lAvelAM ghareNAM jevI che. paNa aMdaranI pUrNatA, sahaja AtmasvarUpanuM jJAna, e jAtivaMta ratna samAna che. jAtivaMta ratnamAM rahelI vibhA, enAM kiraNo, eno prakAza, enuM teja e uchInI lAvela bhADUtI vastu nathI. ratnanA kaTakA karo paNa enA aMzeaMzamAM tejathI camakatAM kiraNo purAyamAna thaI rahyAM che. ema ApaNA AtmAnA pradezepradezamAM pUrNa AnaMdanI e ja zakti bharelI che je 5ramAtmAmAM che. A zaktinuM darzana karavuM e ja jIvanano hetu che. to A mATe manane taiyAra karavuM paDaze. A mana jo nirbaLa banI gayuM to gADIne tANavAne badale gADI adhavacce ja UbhI rahI jaze ane A 190 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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enjinane kheMcavA mATe bIjuM enjina lAvavuM paDaze. je enjina bhAra kheMcI zake che e varALathI samRddha che, je enjina ThaMDuM paDyuM che enI varALa nIkaLI gaI che. bAvIsa varSa pahelAMnI A vAta che. amAruM cAturmAsa tyAre ghATakoparamAM hatuM. eka DaoNkTara mArI pAse svAdhyAya mATe AvatA. e gAMDAnI hospiTalamAM kAma karatA hatA. mane kahe : "eka vakhata tame gAMDAnI haoNspiTala jovA Avo.' meM kahyuM : "ahIM ApaNI AsapAsa duniyAmAM badhuM e ja che ne ?' to kahe, nA, AnA karatAM e judI jAtanA che. ahIM je loko manamAM Ave tema sAcesAcuM nathI karI zakatAM te tyAM karI zake che. ahIM je kaMI karavAnuM mana thAya tyAre te nahi karI zake ane na karavAnA samaye abhinaya kare che. ATalo phera che. cAlo." ame tyAM gayA. tyAM DaoNkTaro e lokone tAlIma ApatA hatA. gAMDAonAM mana bhaTakyAM kare eTale emanAM mana ThekANe lAvavA mATe kUvAmAMthI pANI kaDhAvatA hatA. moTI Dola ane khAsso UMDo kUvo. DaoNkTara gAMDAne kahe ke aMdarathI Dola bharIne pANI lAva ane vRkSanA A choDane pA. eTale e pANI kADhe. e pANI kADhe tyAre enAM bAvaDAM duHkhavA Ave paNa jyAre Dola upara Ave ane reDavA jAya to e Dola khAlI hoya, kAraNa ke DolanI vacce pAMca kANAM karelAM eTale jyAre DUbe tyAre pANI bharAI jAya paNa upara kheMcatAM pelAM pAMca kANAMmAMthI badhuM ja pANI nIkaLI jAya. Dola khAlI Ave eTale pelA DaoNkTaro ene barAbara dabaDAve, ke pANI kema AvyuM nahi ? eTale gAMDAone vicAra karavo paDe. zikSA thAya eTale pachI gAMDAo vicAra kare ke pANI kema AvyuM nahi ? bhaTakatuM mana, pharatuM mana vicAra kare ke A kANAM che. pANI AmAMthI ja nIkaLI jAya che. bAjumAM DUcA, kapaDAM evI vastuo rAkhelI hoya je lagADIne e kANAM pUre. gAMDAomAM vicAranI ekAgratA lAvavA e A rIta ajamAve. mane ghaNI vAra AdhyAtmika kSetramAM A vAta yAda Ave che. loko ghaNI vAra kriyArUpa pANInI Dolo bharI bharIne bahAra kADhavAno prayatna kare che, paNa mANasonAM manamAM kANAM bahu paDI gayAM che. sAdhanA khUba thatI dekhAya che, paNa mananAM kANAMmAMthI badhuM ja nIkaLI jAya che. ahIMthI jAo tyAre khAlI khAlI. to tame evuM na karo ke pelA loko jematema karI pahelAM kANAM pUrI detA ane Dola bharIne pachI bahAra kADhatA. evuM na thAya ke manamAM je ghaNAM kANAM paDI gayA che e tame pUrI nAkho ? ane pachI juo ke tamArI dareka Dola kevI pUrNanA pagathAre * 191

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pUrNa Ave che pachI tamane khAlIpaNuM nahi lAge. paNa jyAM sudhI kANAM che tyAM sudhI upadeza, kriyAo badhuMya varasI rahyuM che paNa e badhuMya vahI jAya che. A chidrone pUravA mATe A anubhava karavAno che ke huM paramasvarUpa chuM, huM jyoti svarUpa chuM, huM AtmA chuM ane huM paramAtmAsvarU5 chuM. A AtmA paramAtmAsvarUpano anubhava kare. bindu vicAre ke sinthanI badhI viziSTatA enAmAM che. A svarUpanAM darzana vinAnI pUrNatA e lagna prasaMge lAvelA alaMkAro jevI che, jemAM ciMtA ane dInatA che, paNa je AtmasvarUpanA jJAnathI pUrNatA prApta thAya che e jAtivaMta ratna jevI che. enuM teja bhADUtI nathI. sadAkALa emAM hatuM, che ane emAM raheze. 1992 jIvana-mAMgalya

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21. prANI-maitrIdina natvahaM kAmaye rAjyaM, nA svargaM nApunarbhavam / kAmaye duHkhataptAnAM prANinAmArtinAzanam // huM jyAre nAno hato tyAre eka sAdhu pAse jato. e sAdhu pravacanakAra to nahotA paNa jIvanane dRSTAMto ane AdarzothI batAvanAra ochAbolA sAdhu hatA. eka divasanI vAta che. eka divasa teo mane sAthe laI nIkaLyA ane kahyuM ke eka rUpiyo laI Ava. huM dukAnethI mArA pitAjI pAsethI eka rUpiyo laI Avyo. sAdhune rastAmAM cAlatAM kahyuM ke eka rUpiyA pIparamiTa laI le. mane thayuM ke A sAdhune pIparamiTa khAvAnuM mana kyAMthI thayuM ? nAnAM bALakone to thAya, paNa sAdhune kyAMthI mana thayuM ? paNa huM eno premI hato. huM e rUpiyAnI pIparamiTa laI Avyo ane emane ApI. ame sAthe nIkaLyA. eka bagIcAmAM nAnAM nAnAM bALako sAthe mAtAo AvatI hatI. pelA sAdhu dareka bALakane bolAvIne pUrNanA pagathAre * 193

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pIparamiTa ApatA ane pyAra karatA. A joI enI mAtAo khuza thaI jatI ane sAdhune praNAma karIne AgaLa vadhatI. ema karatAM rUpiyAnI pIparamiTa pUrI thaI gaI. tyAMthI UThatAM sAdhue mane kahyuM : 'joyuM ?' meM kahyuM, 'zuM ?' 'tuM samajyo nahi ?' 'nA, huM nathI samajyo. tame zuM kahevA mAgo cho ?' 'jo eka rUpiyAnI pIparamiTathI keTalAM bALako khuza thaI gayAM ane sAthe emanI mAtAo paNa khuza thaI gaI ne ? zA mATe khuza thaI gaI ? bALakone pyAra karIe chIe to emanI mA paNa khuza thaI jAya che.' : Ama kahI mane batAvyuM ke bhagavAnanAM bALakone prema karazo to bhagavAna khuza thaze ja. loko bhagavAnane prasanna karavA icche che; loko bole che he bhagavAna, tAro ja A saMsAra che;' paNa bhagavAnanAM bALakone prema karatA nathI. bhagavAnane prema kayA prakArathI karIzuM ane ApaNe bhagavAnane kevI rIte prasanna karIzuM ? jo pa2mAtmAne prasanna karavA hoya to AtmAone prasanna karavA ja paDaze. AtmAne prasanna nahi karIe to paramAtmA prasanna kema thaze ? hamaNAM zrI jayaprakAzajIe AjanI krUratAnI, mAnavanA hRdayamAM chupAyelA daMbhanI, dhanalAlasAnI, vartamAnanA vaibhava ane vilAsanA pradarzananI vAta karI. A vAtonA kendramAM jozo to jaNAze ke Ajano mAnava AtmadRSTi gumAvI beTho che. sAcI vAta to e che ke ApaNe ApaNAmAM ane ApaNI AsapAsa je AtmAo che temane prasanna karyA vinA sIdhA ja paramAtmAne prasanna karavA icchIe chIe. paNa je AtmAne prasanna nathI karato e paramAtmAne kadI paNa prasanna nathI karI zakavAno. eTale ja ApaNA ciMtaka maharSioe eka sarasa vAta batAvI ane te vAta A subhASitamAM che. A subhASitano vicAra karIe to ApaNane khyAla Avaze ke sarva jIvonA kalyANanI bhAvanA keTalI tIvra hoI zake. ' na tvahaM kAmaye rAjyam' he prabhu ! mAre rAjya nahi joIe. jene pAMca varSa mATe electionmAM - cUMTaNImAM jitAIne AvavuM che emanI vAta choDI do. paNa je bhakta che, je sAdhaka che, je jIvanane dhanya banAvavA mAge che, ane jene khabara che ke jIvanano hetu zo che tenI A prArthanA che. 194 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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ra ' - mane svarga paNa nathI joItuM. ApaNA baMdhuo jyAre duHkhI che tyAre ApaNe svargamAM jaIne karIzuM paNa zuM ? AsapAsa AMsu hoya che to khAvAnuM paNa bagaDI jAya che. paNa huM joI rahyo chuM ke Aje AMsu vahI rahyAM che, loko cAre bAju parezAna thaI rahyA che, chatAM ghaNA mANaso AnaMda ane mahephilo mANImaNAvI rahyA che. vaLI A subhASitamAM kahyuM ke "nApunarbhavam' - mane mokSa paNa nathI joIto. to mane zuM joIe che ? "rAma duHcatatAnAM prAganAM lartinAzanam' eka ja kAmanA ane mahecchA che ke je du:khathI tapta che, je duHkhothI pIDita che ane je vedanAnAM AMsu vahAve che te sau sarva prakAranAM duHkhomAMthI mukta thAo. ApaNe gaI kAle prabhu mahAvIrasvAmInuM janmakalyANaka to UjavyuM. paNa ApaNe prathama emanAM mukhya siddhAMtone jIvanamAM utAravA mATe pUrNa prayatna karavo paDaze. bhagavAne batAvyuM ke ahiMsA e ja dharmanuM ane jIvananuM mULa che. ahiMsA zuM che ? te jIvavA icche che tema saMsAranAM badhAM ja prANIo jIvavA mAge che. A ahiMsA be prakAranI che : vidheyAtmaka ane niSedhAtmaka. niSedhAtmaka eTale ke A nahi khAvuM, A nahi karavuM. Aje caturdazI che eTale A nahi khavAya paNa je vidheyAtmaka che eTale ke "zuM karavuM" e vAta paNa vicAravI joIe. loko "zuM nahi karavuM" e vAta jANe che, paNa zuM karavuM' e vAta bhUlI gayA che. mahApuruSoe kahyuM ke mAnavI niSedha khUba kare che paNa je vidheyAtmaka che e nathI karato. ApaNe e jANIe chIe ke zuM na karavuM paNa ApaNe e nathI jANatA ke zuM karavuM. mAruM kartavya zuM, mAre zuM karavuM joIe eno viveka eTale vidheya. je divasathI mAnavanA jIvanamAM vidheyano aruNodaya thAya che e divasathI mAnavanA hRdayamAM kartavyano prakAza pragaTe che. e divasathI e pUrNatA prati prayANa kare che. to Aje ApaNe "karavAnI vAta karavAnI che. "nahi karavAnI vAta to bahu varSothI karI ane "karavAnI vAta bhUlI gayA. eTale ja hiMdustAnamAM pUrNanA pagathAre * 15

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ATalA loko hovA chatAM Aje garIbI che, nirdhanatA che, parezAnI che ane duSkALano sAmano nahi karavAnI nirbaLatA che ApaNane khabara hota ke ApaNe zuM karavAnuM che to cAlIsa karoDa mAnavI AvI kharAba hAlatamAM na hota. Aje vicA2 ka2vAno che ke ApaNe zuM karavAnuM che. vidheya mATe traNa vAta che. pahelI vAta aparigraha che. jyAM sudhI parigraha che tyAM sudhI ahiMsA nathI AvatI. parigraha ane ahiMsA sAthe nathI rahI zakatAM. parigraha eTale saMcaya, parigraha eTale bheguM karavuM, parigraha eTale bIjA je vastu mATe TaLavaLatA hoya te potAnI pAse hovA chatAM emAMthI ApavuM nahi ane saMgrahavRtti rAkhavI. AvI vyakti ahiMsaka kevI rIte banI zake ? dhanano saMcaya kyAre thAya ? zoSaNa vinA saMcaya nahi ane zoSaNa hoya tyAM ahiMsA na hoya. 'rmA, manasA, vApA' kAM to karmathI, kAM to manathI ke pachI vAcAthI hiMsA to thAya ja. ahiMsaka banavuM hoya to aparigrahI banavuM paDaze. jeTalA aMze aparigrahI banazuM eTalA aMze ApaNe sAcA ahiMsaka banIzuM. eTale ja bhagavAne sAdhune kahyuM : "he sAdhu, jo tAre ahiMsaka banavuM hoya to pahelAM aparigrahI banI jA.'' ane je vadhAre parigrahI che e kadI paNa ahiMsaka nathI banI zakato ane jo ahiMsaka banI zakato hoya to amAre kahevuM paDaze ke amRta ane viSa sarakhAM nathI. tevI ja rIte parigraha ane ahiMsA judAM che. to ahiMsA lAvavA mATe ApaNe aparigrahanI bhAvanAne vistAravI paDaze. bhaya ane hiMsA parigrahamAMthI janma le che. ApaNe jo abhaya thavuM hoya ke ahiMsaka thavuM hoya to ApaNe aparigrahI banavA mATe pahelo prayatna karavo paDaze. bihAranA mAnavIo ane pazudhana mATe tame 'kAMIka' karo cho e vicAre tamArI bhAvanA puti thaze. tamane dAna karavAnI A taka maLI che enI pAchaLa bhAvanA kAma kare che. mAnavatA prabuddha thAya to dezamAM dAritrya rahe kharuM ? prabuddha thayelI mAnavatA eka ke bIjI rIte ghaNAM kAma karI zake. eka rIte nahi paNa hajAra 2Ite madada karI zakAya. koI kapaDAMthI karI zake, koI anAja ApIne karI zake, koI paisA ApIne karI zake, koI bihAra jaIne karI zake ane koI bihAranI e suSupta prajAne jAgrata karIne paNa sevA karI zake. 196 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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huM jyAre paMcamahAla jillAmAM vihAra karato hato tyAre mArgamAM mane eka bahAravaTiyo maLyo, je ghaNAnAM khUna karI cUkyo hato, ghaNAne mArI cUkyo hato. amAre tyAMnA pahADomAMthI thaIne nIkaLavAnuM thayuM. tyAM e bahAravaTiyAnI jhUMpaDI AgaLa ja amAre mukAma karavAno vAro Avyo. sAMje pharato pharato e mArI pAse AvI caDyo. e Avyo, thoDI bhAMgI tUTI vAto thaI. vAto karatAM karatAM enI sAthe eka kUtaro hato tene e premathI ramADato hato, enA para hAtha pheravato hato. A dazyamAM mane jIvananuM eka navuM darzana sAMpaDyuM : krUramAM krUra AdamImAM paNa prema ! mANasone mAranAra, goLIo calAvanAra ane nirdaya rIte talavAra vIMjhanAra AdamI paNa kUtarA pratye prema batAvI rahyo hato. eTale mane lAgyuM ke mAnavInA eka khUNAmAM UMDe UMDe paNa kyAMka premanuM darda che, ane tene lIdhe e ema mAne che ke koIka ThekANe karuNAmaya, premamaya banavuM joIe. mANasa jyAre mANasa pratye karuNAmaya nathI banI zakato tyAre eka jAtanuM premanuM chUpuM avyakta saMvedana che ane tethI ja kutarAne paMpALatA aMdaranA e tattvane saMtoSIne evuM consolation (samAdhAna) meLave che ke duniyAmAM bhale huM badhe krUra chuM paNa kUtarAne mATe huM karUNAvALo chuM, huM prema karI zakuM chuM. A vAtanuM UMDANathI ciMtana karazo to Apane paNa lAgaze ke dareka mAnavInA hRdayanA eka khUNAmAM A eka evuM tattva paDyuM ja che, je harahaMmeza karuNAne prere che ane mAnavatAne pUje che. A tattva jema jema vikasatuM jAya tema tema mAnava pUrNa banato jAya che; jema jema A tattva DhaMkAtuM jAya che, tema tema mAnava pazu banato jAya che. ApaNe A pakSIone uDADIe enI pAchaLa paNa A ja tattva che ke baMdhanamAMthI paMkhIne mukta karIe. e sAthe ApaNI mAnavatA je Aje baMdhAyelI che, pUrAyelI che, DhaMkAyelI che e khIlI UThe ane ApaNAmAM raheluM dayAnuM jharaNuM ekadama vahI jAya. paMkhI uDADanArane sahaja rIte eka prazna to AvI javAno ke A kabUtarane mukti ApanAra huM prANIsRSTi pratye karuNALu chuM kharo ? A vicAra punaH puna: Ave to mAnavamAM rahelI divya zakti pragaTa thAya, prajvalita thAya ane prabuddha thAya. "prANI-maitrIdina' eTale prANImAtrane mitra kalpo ane prANIsRSTine mitranI dRSTithI juo. "mitrI vasusI ghara" - sRSTine mitranI AMkhathI juo. basa, tamArI najara badalAI jAya to duniyAne mATe tamAre zuM karavuM e tamane upadeza devA ane kahevA nahi AvavuM paDe. Aja sudhI tame sahune parAyA gaNo pUrNanA pagathAre ja 197

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cho ane prAMta prAMta vacce bheda mAno cho paNa ApaNe have vasudhaiva kuTum - AkhI pRthvI ApaNuM kuTuMba che, e bhAvanA keLavavI joIe. ghaNAM varSo pahelAMnI vAta che. vihAra karatAM karatAM huM eka gAmaDAmAM gayo tyAM bhikSA (gaucarI) mATe huM eka gharamAM gayo to gharamAM be bALaka ane tenI mA hatAM. eNe moTo roTalo banAvyo hato. eNe vinaMtIpUrvaka kahyuM ke mahArAja, tame laI jAo. mane thayuM ke eka ja roTalo che temAM huM zuM lauM? eTale meM kahyuM ke bAI, mAre to ghaNAM ghara che, huM tAruM nahi lauM, kAraNa ke tAre be bALakone jamADavAnAM che. tyAM to e bAInI AMkhamAM AMsu dhasI AvyAM ane kahevA lAgI : "A eka moTo roTalo che, eno aDadho karuM chuM. mArAM be bALako pA pA roTalAmAM peTa bharIne jamI leze paNa mArA bhAgano ardho roTalo tame laI ja jAo." enI bhAvanA ane prema joI huM dravI gayo. mane thayuM ke A bahenanI bhAvanAne nahi satkAruM to e bhukko thaI jaze. eTale meM kahyuM, "tAro je aDadho roTalo che emAMthI pA mane Apa ane pA tuM tArA mATe rAkha." mitranI AMkhathI jotAM duniyA koI judI ja lAge. mitranI AMkhathI juo to tamArI duniyA, dila ane dAna traNeya badalAI jAya ! eTaluM ja kahevAnuM che ke bihAranI ke gujarAtanI vaNaselI paristhitimAM ApanAthI je kAMI bane e tame karo. e bAbatamAM harIphAI na hoya. koI paNa rIte madada pahoMcADI zakatA ho te rIte madada pahoMcADo. huM to kahuM chuM ke bAra mahinAmAM eka mahine havA khAvA jAo cho to zA mATe tame paMdara divasa bihAra na jAo ? je zarIrane bALI nAkhavAnuM che, e zarIra vaDe jo paMdara divasa prajAnI sevA karelI haze to A baLatA zarIrane paNa eka consolation - saMtoSa maLaze, zAMti ane samAdhAna maLaze ke hA, A kAyA koIkanI sevAmAM kAma lAgI gaI hatI ! karuNAnI A bhAvanA sparzI ane ApaNI divyatA pragaTo evI zubhecchA sAthe ApaNe vidAya laIe. 198 * jIvana-mAMgalyA

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22. parisaMvAda dharmasya phalamicchanti dharmaM necchanti mAnavAH / phalaM pApasya necchanti, pApaM kurvanti sAdarAH // che ja ApaNA svAdhyAyanuM kendra parisaMvAda che. vAda, vivAda, ' saMvAda ane parisaMvAda - A cAramAMthI pahelA traNa to tamArA jANItA ja che. vAda, vivAda ane saMvAdamAM jIvo potAnA $ jIvanane vitAve che, paNa parisaMvAda karavA ja mATe avasara maLato nathI. svArtha mATe je kAMI jagatamAM thAya che te vAda che; kalaha 4 mATe thAya te vivAda che; sneha mATe thAya che te saMvAda che; paNa zarIra, indriyo ane AsapAsanA vAtAvaraNane bhUlIne potAnA je AtmA mATe vicAraNA karavI e parisaMvAda che. duniyAmAM dRSTi be jAtanI che : deg svArthanI ane paramArthanI. svArthanI dRSTimAM chuM vAda, vivAda ane saMvAdano saMbhava che paNa je parisaMvAda to cittamAM paramArtha daSTi jAge { to ja pragaTe. pUrNanA pagathAre ke 199

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parisaMvAda e adhyAtmanI ucca bhUmikAe pahoMcavA mATenI nisaraNI che. ciMtana e enAM pagathiyAM che. jema jema pagathiyAM caDhIe tema tema prakAza ane svastha avasthAno anubhava thAya che. AtmAnI duniyAmAM bhayamAtrano abhAva che. tyAM abhayanA prakAzano ja anubhava che. A jIve gAmanA loko sAthe khUba vAta karI. mitro sAthe khUba vAta karI, patnI sAthe vAta karI, snehIo sAthe paNa vAta karI. Ama duniyAmAM vAda ane saMvAda to cAle che, paNa parisaMvAda kyAre thAya ke jyAre AtmA potAnI sAthe vAta karato thAya, potAnI sAthe besIne mImAMsA kare; vicAraNA kare, prazna kare huM koNa chuM ? mAruM svarUpa zuM che ? huM zuM karavA Avyo chuM ? mAre ahIM AvIne zuM pAmavAnuM che ? mArI sAthe zuM AvavAnuM che ? huM je jIvana jIvuM chuM, saMsAramAM doTa lAgAvI rahyo chuM eno hetu zo che ? mArA jIvanamAM cAre bAju A je covIse kalAka dhAMdhala, dhamAla, azAMti mRtyu dekhAI rahyAM che e badhuM zuM che ? jema pANImAMthI parapoTA utpanna thAya tema A vicAromAMthI prazno utpanna thAya che. A praznonI paNa eka bhUmikA che. moTA bhAganA mANasone A prazno upasthita ja thatA nathI. parisaMvAdamAM bIjAnI jarUra ja nathI. saMvAdamAM sAmI vyakti pAsethI uttaranI apekSA rakhAya che, paNa parisaMvAdamAM AtmA potAnI pAsethI ja uttara meLave che. aMdarathI javAba meLavavA mATe abhyAsa karavo paDe che. mananI sthiratAthI caMcaLatAno abhAva utpanna thAya che, pachI citta eka evI bhUmikAe pahoMce che jyAM ene sahaja uttara maLe. koI ene Inner voice AtmAno avAja kahe che paNa jJAnI ene parisaMvAdamAMthI maLelo pratyuttara kahe che. citta svastha bane che tyAre aMdarathI uttara maLe che. keLanA thaMbha parathI eka paDa kADho to aMdarathI komaLa paDa nIkaLe che tema parisaMvAdamAM aMdarathI sUkSma uttara maLe che. mAnavI potAnA svarUpano vicAra kare to ja ene jJAna ane bhAna thAya. jene jJAna ane bhAna nathI te sAmAnya jIvana jIve che, je arthahIna jIvana che. vaktRtvakalAnA varga AgaLa eka prasiddha vaktAe asarakAraka vaktRtva kema karavuM tenA niyamo samajAvatAM kahyuM, "tame je viSaya para pravacana karatA ho tene anurUpa abhinaya ane bhAva e bahu mahattvanI vastu che. dAkhalA tarIke tame svarganA sukhanuM varNana karatAM ho tyAre tamAro cahero dedIpyamAna hovo joIe ane te svargIya sukhanI surakhIthI camakavo joIa. tamArAM 200 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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nayanamAM prasannatAnI jyota hovI joIe, paNa tamAre jyAre narakanuM varNana karavAno samaya Ave tyAre to rojanA A cAlu caherAthIya kAma cAlI zakze !'' A vAkya sAmAnya che, paNa emAM kevo kaTAkSa che ! loko evuM jIvana jIvI rahyA che ke e lokone narakanuM varNana karavA navo bhAva lAvavAnI jarUra nathI, mANasanA jIvanane vartamAnakALa nirAzAmaya che. saMpattivALo paNa AnaMdanI surakhI laIne nathI Avato. mANasa vAta karato hoya ke vAcana karato hoya, paNa aMdarathI je sahaja AnaMdanI surakhI, je sahaja prasannatA AvavI joIe te kema nathI AvatI ? zuM sAdhanono abhAva che ? sAdhanovALA paNa cittanI sahaja avasthAno anubhava nathI karI zakatA, kAraNa ke mANasanA jIvanamAM AtmajJAnano abhAva che, ane tethI jANe e mRta jIvana jIve che; jIvanamAM ja mRtyuno anubhava thaI rahyo che. jIvanamAM amRtano anubhava kyAre karI zakAya ? parisaMvAda pragaTe tyAre ! mahemAnanI jema paiso Ave to kaho ke 'satkAra karIzuM' ane jAya to kaho ke 'Avajo' ! Ave to sadupayoga ane jAya to samatA ! Ama jIvana samajavAnI kaLA AtmAne jANyA vinA prApta thatI nathI. mANasa badhI rIte taiyAra thAya che, paNa AtmArUpI mIThAzano anubhava nathI eTale enuM jIvanarUpI bhojana phikkuM banI jAya che. jIvanane mIThuM banAvavAnI kaLA AvaDe pachI abhAvamAM paNa AnaMda meLavI zakAya. aMdaranuM mazIna ja bagaDeluM hoya tyAM dial (DAyala) game teTaluM suMdara dekhAtuM hoya toya zuM kAmanuM ? zarIra e to DAyala che, kharuM aMdaranuM yaMtra te caitanya che. jiMdagI pUrI thAya che vAda ane vivAdamAM ! paNa jyAre parisaMvAda thAya che tyAre jiMdagI pUrI thatI nathI paNa pUrNatA prApta kare che. Aje eka hajAramAMthI 999 mANaso jiMdagI pUrI kare che ane e pUrI na kare to emano kALa emane pUrA kare che. savAranAM UThe tyAre ciMtAno mugaTa paherIne nIkaLe, vALamAM goThavIne nIkaLe. rAtanA sUe tyAre vALa vIkharAya, paNa ciMtA na vIkharAya. mAthAmAM oLelI ciMtA rAtanA UMghamAM Ave, svapnAmAM Ave, becenI UbhI kare, ciMtAbharyA divasa ane rAta mANasanI jiMdagI pUrI kare che. ene to khyAleya nathI ke enI jiMdagI pUrI thAya che. pUrI thatI jiMdagImAM paNa keTalAka to mAne che ke jiMdagI saphaLa karIe chIe ! kaI rIte ? thoDA paisA kamAyA, kArakhAnAM UbhAM karyAM, chApAmAM nAma camakyAM A emano AnaMda ! ane A emanI saphaLatA ! jeTalI bahAranI vastu vadhAre eTaluM ja emAM mana rokAya che, pachI pUrNanA pagathAre meM 201 -

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prabhumAM e ochuM ja rahe ne ! A badhI vastuo prabhuthI mANasane chUTo pADe che. bhagavAna pAse beThA hoya tyAre zuM zuM yAda Ave che ? zarI2 bhagavAna pAse che ane mana UDIne kyAMya jAya che. kAraNa ke duniyAnI vastuo eTalI badhI vadhArI che ane e vastuoe mANasanA mana upara eTalo badho kabajo meLavyo che ke e bhagavAna pAse javA ja na de ne ! jJAnI kahe che ke vastuthI ke sAdhanathI tame tamane sukhI mAno cho, paNa A vastuo evI caDhI beThI che ke mana kAbUmAM nathI. zarIra pravRtti kare che paNa mana vastumAM rokAyeluM che. mananA be kaTakA na thAya, mana jo bhautika vastumAM rokAyeluM hoya to paramAtmatattvamAM lAge nahi, eTale ja jJAnIo kahe che ke kriyA karavI sahelI che paNa aMdara javuM muzkela che, ane aMdara javA mATe ekalA paDavAnI jarUra che. paNa e ekalo ja paDato nathI. thoDI vAra gharamAM e beThelo hoya ane thAya ke bahAra jaI AvuM, ekalo paDyo chuM te gamatuM nathI, becenI thAya ke ekalo paDI gayo ! have zuM karuM ? lAva koIka saMbaMdhIne tyAM jaI AvuM ! kharI vAta e che ke ekalA paDo to ja cintana mATe samaya maLe, ane samaya maLe to ja UMDANamAM avalokana thAya. sAmAyika, dhyAna, svAdhyAya ekalA paDavA mATe ja che. 48 miniTanuM sAmAyika laIe eTale badhAthI judA paDIe. sAmAyika eTale samatAmAM AvavuM, zAMtimAM sthira thavuM. zAMtino anubhava thAya pachI majA kaMI ra ja Ave. paNa eno anubhava thavo joIe. ghaNA kALathI bola-bola karavAnI ane lokone maLavAnI jIvane Teva paDI gaI che. eka philaoNsophare jiMdagInI vyAkhyA ApI : "Save the words" zabdo bacAvo. ochA zabda bolIe to ochA phasAIe. jiMdagIne bolI bolIne vadhAre gUMcavaNamAM nAkhIe chIe. janmyo tyAre ekalo hato, to baMdhAyo kema ? bolIbolIne ja ne ? emAMthI pAchA kema vaLavuM ! e mATe to mauna che. Akho divasa na thAya to paNa thoDI to Teva pADavI. emAMthI zodha karavAno, satyane kholavAno suavasara prApta thAya che. parisaMvAda zuM che ? saMsAranI badhI vastuone taTasthatAthI jovI ane ekalatAmAM anaMtatA anubhavavI. 'Peace is ever beautiful'' zAMti sarvadA suMdara ane sukhakara che. paNa te mATe Teva pADavI paDe. A anubhava karavA roja ekAda sAmAyika karo. dhIme dhIme svabhAva paDI jAya to sAmAyika sukhada banI jAya. 202 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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jIvanamAM koI vastu kaThaNa lAge to tenA upara satata prayatna karyA karo. ekAMtamAM besazote gamaze nahi paNa Teva pADavAnI jarUra che. kharAba Tevo sAme sArI Tevo mUkavAnI che. jema pANI paMpathI upara caDhe tema sAdhananA zramathI jIvana unnata bane che. loko ema mAnIne beThA che ke amAre je karavAnuM che te bhagavAna ka2ze, mahArAja karaze, avatArI puruSa karaze. paNa, potAnA puruSArtha vagara kaMI thavAnuM nathI. kahe che ke tukArAmane levA svargamAMthI vimAna AvyuM hatuM. e Symbolic (pratIkAtmaka) che. zreSTha jIvananuM varNana karavAnI A eka paurANika rIta che. mANasanuM jIvana eTaluM sarasa bane ke ene satkAravA mATe pRthvInA ratha nahi paNa devalokanAM vimAna Ave ! eTalI ucca ka2NI karo ke svargane sparze. eno artha e nathI ke prayatna na karo chatAyaM tame tarI jAo ! mahenata to karavI ja paDe. sAcAne madada maLe che, khoTAne nahi. hRdayathI sAcA banavAnuM che. bahArathI kharAba dekhAo eno vAMdho nathI, paNa sukhanA sauMdaryanI anubhUti karavA aMdarathI to sArA ja thavAnuM che. bhagavAne kahyuM ke upavAsa ka2vo sahelo che paNa dhyAna dharavuM kaThaNa che. zarIrane takalIpha ApavI sahelI che paNa manane kendrita karavuM kaparuM che. svAdhyAya, ciMtana, dhyAna zenAthI thAya ? mana palAMThI vALIne bese tyAre thAya ApaNe khAlI zarIrathI palAMThI vALIne besIe chIe. koIe kahyuM ke jaina dharmamAM tapa upara bhAra Ape che paNa e ardhasatya che. kharuM tapa to dhyAnathI zarU thAya che. tapanA keTalA prakAra che ? svAdhyAya ane dhyAna e tapa che. A tapanI parAkASThA e che ke emAM zarIra paNa bhulAI jAya, ekAgratA sahaja banI jAya ! bhagavAna mahAvIranI sAdhanAmAM bAhya tapa e to svAdhyAya ane dhyAna rUpI atyaMtara tapanuM pagathiyuM che. svAdhyAya ane dhyAna mATe ja to sAmAyika che. sAmAyikamAM beso eTale mana jarA zAMta thAya. je vastune taraMgoe chupAvI che e nistaraMga avasthAmAM dekhAya. sAmAyikamAM beso cho tyAre thAya ke A sAmAyika koNa kare che ? zarIra beTheluM che paNa mana to kyAMya bhame che ! eka bhAIe prazna karyo ke sAmAyika karavAthI, mALA pheravavAthI zo phAyado ? kAraNa ke citta to bhamyA ja kare che. meM kahyuM ke Aja sudhI citta bhame che eno khyAla nahoto. have sAmAyika karavA beThA eTale khabara paDI ke citta bhame che. pUrNanA pagathAre * 203

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atyAra sudhI roga hato e khabara nahotI. have khabara paDI ke roga che. roganI jANa thaI e moTAmAM moTo phAyado che. je loko mALA gaNatA nathI, dhyAna dharatA nathI, emane mATe mAruM mana bhame che", e vicAra karavAno avakAza paNa kyAM che ? paNa je kare tene have khabara paDI ke mana bhame che. Something is wrong - kAMIka khoTuM che; kAMIka mAMdagI che, mananI A mAMdagInuM jJAna thayuM e ja sAmAyikanuM phaLa che. jeTalA dhaMdhA vadhAre eTalI ja ciMtA vadhAre. jeTalA magajanAM khAnAM eTalI taraMganI cAvIo. cAvIo bahu to mUMjhavaNa bahu. e mUMjhavaNa ochI karavA khAnAM ochAM karavAnAM che. mana kyAM doDe che ? khAnAM hoya tyAM doDe, vastu vinA vicAra na Ave. tamane evo vicAra kadI Ave ke sasalAnAM ziMgaDAM kevAM che ? nahi ja Ave, kAraNa ke je duniyA upara astitva dharAve che ane jenI sAthe mana joDAyeluM che e ja dhyAna avasthAmAM paNa AvyA karatuM hoya che. aMdaranA paramatattvane DhAMkanAra A taraMgo che ane ughADanAra nistaraMga avasthA che. dhyAnathI e jovAnuM che ke aMdara taraMgo kema UbhA thayA ? e taraMgo ApaNA mULa svarUpane kema AvRta kare che ? dharmakriyA karatI vakhate nakAmo vicAra Ave to dharmakriyA na choDo, paNa je kAraNathI e vicAra Avyo te kAraNane dUra karo. jaDanuM AvaraNa ghaNuM ja sthaLa che. e AtmAnI sUkSma samajane AvarI le che. sArAmAM sArA dharmAcAryo paNa huM koNa' te bhUlI gayA che. huM koNa ? A nAma daIne bolAve che te ? tame raho cho e makAnanA mAlika te ? DigrIothI oLakhAve che te ? e to badho bhAra che, upAdhi che. je DAhyo che te AtmA upara A badho bhAra nahi vadhAre. nAmane ochuM karavAnuM che. Aje badhAM nAma vadhAravA beThAM che. eka bhAIne nAma daIne na bolAvyo to ene ochuM lAgyuM. te pachI DigrI, ilkAba ane padavI joIe. ApaNI badhI ramaNatA dehapradhAna che, bhautika che. bhautikatA to anaMtakALathI che paNa ethI AtmAno zo uddhAra thayo ? AdhyAtmikatA pragaTe to ja udaya thAya. prabhunuM zaraNuM laIne kaho ke dareka jIva karmane lIdhe mArI sAthe joDAyelo che, karma laIne Avyo che. emanuM sAruM thAya ke kharAba thAya emAM huM to mAtra nimitta ja chuM. takadIra nahi hoya to ApeluM cAlyuM jaze ane takadIra hoya to na ApyuM hoya chatAM maLI jaze. nimitta mAtra raho, upAdhiono bhAra na lo. 204 * jIvana-mAMgalyA

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gADAmAM beThelo poTaluM mAthe mUke ane mAne ke meM baLadano bhAra ocho karyo che ! A ja rIte gAmano AdhAra banIne koI kahe ke tAro uddhAra huM karIza. eka bAju kahe ke huM azaraNa chuM ane bIjI bAju lokono AdhAra banavA mAge che. tane tAro ja AdhAra nathI to bIjAno AdhAra kema banIza ? lAkaDuM pote saDI gayuM hoya to bIjAno Teko kema banI zake ? gADAmAM besIne bhAra nIce mUkavAne badale mAthA upara mUke to tuM haLavo thavAne badale bhAre thaIza. loko ahamune bhAra laIne beThA che. je ghaDIe A bhAra pheMkI de te ja kSaNe nizcita. koI tamane kahe ke tame mArA AdhAra cho to kaho ke sahuno AdhAra bhagavAna che, huM to phakta nimitta chuM. tArI tarasa pANIthI chIpavAnI che. huM to mAtra pyAlo dharIza. tarasa pyAlo nathI chipAvato, tarasa to pANIthI chipAvAya che, tame sarasa nimitta banI zako. pachI mAthA upara koI bojo nahi. A rIte ahaMnA bhArathI haLavA thAo. tame tamArI jAtane pUcho ke mane jagyAne keTalAM varSa thayAM ? meM zuM karyuM ? duniyAmAM prema ane maitrInI havA keTalI phelAvI ? bhalAInAM kAma keTalAM karyA ? mAruM jIvana graMthi vagaranuM che kharuM ? manamAM gAMTha haze to nahi cAle. gAMThavALA dorAnI gAMTha bhale dUrathI na dekhAya paNa mRtyarUpI soyamAM dorAne pasAra thatI vakhate gAMTho haze to aTakavuM paDaze. vera ane bUrAI kadAca jagatamAM camakatAM paNa dekhAya paNa muktirUpI soyanA dvAre to ene aTakavuM ja paDaze. AtmA chuM eno anubhava thavo joIe. arIsAmAM zarIra dekhAya che paNa tenI pAchaLa AtmA dekhAya to samajavuM ke paheluM pagathiyuM caDhacA. arIsAmAM AMkha, nAka, kAna vagere dekhAya, varNa kALo che ke dhoLo che e badhuM dekhAya, paNa bIjuM kaMI dekhAya che ? zarIrano varNa dekhAya che, paNa AtmAno raMga dekhAya che ? AtmA niraMjana che. raMgarahita che. kALo, dhoLo, pILo e badhA raMga dehanA che. e raMganI pAchaLa niraMjana beThelo che. raMganI mahattA niraMjanane lIdhe che. e niraMjana nIkaLI gayo pachI game tevI sauMdaryavatI AkRti hoya paNa tenI kazI kiMmata nathI. raMga vagaranAno A raMga che ! je loko A zarIrane salAma bharatA hoya, A zarIrane sUvA mATenI pathArInI paNa kALajI karatA hoya, e ja svajano A niraMjana nIkaLI jatAM A zarIrane lAkaDAmAM mUkatAM vAra nahi lagADe. pUrNanA pagathAre 4 205

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A vAta arIsAmAM moTuM jotAM vicArI zako to dharmanuM paheluM pagathiyuM cahyA cho ema samajajo. dharma zuM che ? maMdira gayA, sAmAyika karyuM e ja zuM dharma che ? e badhuM che. paNa kone mATe che ? mULa vararAjA koNa ? loko jAnane jamADe che paNa vararAjAnA sagapaNe jamADe che. ApaNI badhI pravRttio, saMbaMdho, nAma, sthAna kone lIdhe che ? ApaNane dekhAya che te dekhAya che paNa dekhavuM joIe te nathI dekhAtuM. zarIra dekhAya che paNa arUpI AtmA dekhAto nathI. je dekhAto nathI te dekhAya tyAre tenuM nAma samyaktva. je dekhAtuM nathI tenA upara A badhuM dekhAtuM UbhuM che. makAnano pAyo dekhAya nahi paNa A makAna pAyA upara UbhuM che. saMsAramAM pAyo koNa che ? AtmA che. ApaNane AtmAno vicAra nathI Avato. covIse kalAka je zarIra dekhAya che tenA vicAra Ave che, paNa je nathI dekhAtuM teno vicAra kalAka mATe paNa nathI Avato. svAdhyAya eTale zuM ? svano abhyAsa karavo te svAdhyAya. A vicAra nahi karyo hoya to A badhA vicAra dhULa barAbara che. ahIM sahu bhale vAhavAha kare, paNa AtmA mATe thoDuM paNa nahi karyuM hoya to ahIMthI gayo eTale pattAno mahela besI jaze. vaibhava, saMpatti - e badhuM potAnA pudgalamAMthI UbhI karelI bAjI che. nIcenuM pAnuM khasI gayuM, AtmA gayo - eTale Akho mahela nIce AvavAno. eTale ja ciMtako kahe che ke tuM thoDIka vAra besIne tAro vicAra kara. teM je mahela Ubho karyo emAM tArI avasthA zI che ? A jAgRti bharata cakravartIne AvI. snAna karIne mahelanA darpaNakhaMDamAM AvyA. darpaNanI sAme UbhA UbhA vicAre che. emane thayuM ke huM koNa chuM ? A badhuM kone mATe ? huM kyAM chuM ? vicAra karatAM karatAM potAnAmAM DUbakI mArI to niraMjana avasthAmAM AvyA. parisaMvAdamAM A vicAraNA utpanna thAya che. jyAre vicAraNA utpanna thAya tyAre ja rasto jaDe che. jyAM sudhI valoNuM thAya nahi tyAM sudhI mAkhaNa maLe nahi. valoNAmAM valovAvuM paDe, hAtha cIkaNA paNa thAya tyAra pachI ja mAkhaNa maLe. jema jema vicAratA jAo, jema jema maMthana karatA jAo, tema tema tamArA svarUpanuM tamane darzana thaze. zAstro kahe che ke tuM AnaMdamaya cho. paNa mANasane lAge che ke huM Aje duHkhamaya chuM. A virodhanuM mULa zodho, kAraNa ke AtmAne jaDanI sAthe bhAgIdArI thaI che ane bhAgIdArInuM duHkha enuM duHkha thaI gayuM che. 206 ka jIvana-mAMgalyA

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-- bhAgIdArInuM devuM sukhIne devuM paDe che, tema AtmAne jaDanA kAraNe - bhAgIdArIne kAraNe potAnA AnaMdane vecI kADhavo paDe che. mare che koNa ? zarIra mare che, AtmA nathI marato, jIva marato nathI paNa nabaLo bhAgIdAra mare to sabaLA upara asara thAya, AtmAe dehano, karmano samAgama karyo. A karmanA samAgamane kAraNe A jIva ghaDIe ghaDIe du:khI thAya che, saMsAramAM paribhramaNa kare che. A bhAgIdArI karavAthI AtmA mukta hovA chatAM mare che, zoka kare che. e paribhramaNa maTADavuM hoya to e bhAgIdArI dhIme dhIme ochI karavI joIe. e kema thAya ? e to ja thAya jo tame cAritryano mArga, tapano mArga svIkAro. A badhA mArga dehanI bhAgIdArI ochI karavA mATe che. dehanA kAraNe jIva nIce UtarI jAya che. jaDanI mughalonA chellAmAM chellA bAdazAha ahamadazAhanI paDatI thaI. paudgalika jAhojalAlI ekasarakhI rahetI nathI. jJAnIoe kahyuM ke emana mAnIza ke tane rAkhatAM AvaDe che eTale rahyuM che ane rahevAnuM. puNya paravArI jaze to paisA paga karaze ane pachI tene rokI nahi zake. buddhizALI mANaso sAta peDhI sudhI cAle eTalo saMgraha ane evI vyavasthA karI jAya, chatAM paNa bIjI peDhI sudhI paNa na pahoMce. ahamadazAhanI evI ja avasthA thaI. sainikonuM, nokaronuM devuM vadhI gayuM. cUkavI na zakyo ane madharAte jema cora bhAge tema dilhI choDIne e bhAgyo. paNa enA sainiko ene choDe ema nahotA. ahamadazAhane pakaDyo ane piMjarAmAM pUryo. jelamAM pheMkAI gayo, khUba herAna thayo. pudgala zuM herAna kare che ! pUruM khAvAnuM ke pIvAnuM maLe nahi. unALAno divasa che, jelamAM beTho che, khUba tarasa lAgI che, pANI pANI kare che. eka sainika pAse pANI mAgyuM, kahyuM ke allAhanI khAtara pANI Apa. je bhIMtoe bhIkha mAgato A avAja sAMbhaLyo haze tene paNa AMsu kema nahi AvyAM hoya ? hIrA-pannA paheranAro pANI vagara taraphaDe ! sainikane dayA AvI. ThIkarAmAM pANI ApyuM. kahe ke vAsaNamAM koNa Ape ! tuM musalamAna che. dilhIno bAdazAha pANI pIe che. pharIthI nahi maLe ema mAnIne pharI pharIne pIe che. mANasa keTalo badho nIce pheMkAI jAya che ! tyAre to pelA kohinUra hIrAne paNa thayuM haze ke pAcho kolaso thaI jAuM ! mugaTa paheranAro ThIkarAmAM pANI pIe ! mANasanI, samrATanI AvI adhama avahelanA ! samRddhino paDachAyo mANasane ja badalI nAkhe. pudgalanI A avasthA batAvI ciMtakoe kahyuM ke AtmA pudgalanA saMge pUrNanA pagathAre 207

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koI vAra dhanavAna bane, koI vAra nirdhana bane, koI vAra sukhI bane, koI vAra duHkhI bane. vicArakane thAya ke A pudgala mane game tyAre ane game tema nacAve che to tenAthI have nathI nAcavuM. je vastu mane nacAve tene huM nacAvuM. AtmAne maravAnuM nathI, janma-maraNa nathI, duHkha nathI paNa pudgalanI bhAgIdArIne lIdhe AtmA hIna ane dIna banI jAya che. badhA AtmA sarakhA hovA chatAM eka moTo ane bIjo nAno ema bheda paDe che te zAne lIdhe ? pugalane lIdhe ja ne ! koIkanI pAsethI meLavavAnuM che, jarUriyAta che, eTalA mATe ApaNe mana e moTo che. mAnA eka vacane zAlibhadrane jagADyo. rAjA zreNika maLavA gayA tyAre gobhadramAtAe upara jaI zAlibhadrane kahyuM, "ApaNo dhaNI Avyo che." zAlibhadre pUchyuM, "dhaNI koNa ?" to mAe kahyuM, "zreNika gAmadhaNI che. dhAre to ApaNane nyAya kare ane dhAre to ApaNane lUMTI le." zAlibhadrane thayuM ke A deha che to dhaNI che. mATe A deha ja na joIe. mAre dAsa nathI banavuM. mane dhaNIpaNuM nahi joIe. mAne eNe pUchyuM : "mA, jema e ApaNo dhaNI che tema bhagavAna mahAvIrane dhaNI kharo ?" mAe kahyuM, "bhagavAnane dhaNI kevo !" zAlibhadrane thayuM ke bhagavAna manuSya ane ApaNeya manaSya. bhagavAnanI pAse kAMI ja nahi ane mArI pAse ATaluM badhuM saMpattinuM sukha hovA chatAM mAre mAthe dhaNI ! je bhagavAnanA mArge jAya tene koI dhaNI nahi. to huMya te mArge zAne na jAuM ? vaibhava choDI e dIkSA levA nIkaLyA ! je lokoe AvuM khamIra batAvI tyAga karyo e amIra banI gayA. kapaDAMthI karelo tyAga lAMbo nathI cAlato. cha mahine raMga UtarI jAya che. tyAgano raMga kyAre Take ? aMdarathI Ave tyAre. haLadaramAM raMgelAM pILAM kapaDAM pANI ke taDako na lAge tyAM sudhI raMga rahe; paNa jevA pANI ke taDakAnA saMparkamAM Ave ke raMga UtarI jAya. ghare kajiyA thAya, anukULatA na hoya ane pratikULatAne lIdhe dIkSA laI nIkaLI paDe e haLadariyo raMga kahevAya. manamAM vairAgya nathI Avyo, jIvanamAM musIbata AvI che. - tyAga vairAgyathI Ave che. vairAgya kyAre Ave ? jJAnathI. pudgalanI AtmA para thatI asara samajAya, pudgalane lIdhe mAre bhaTakavuM paDe che to e have ochuM kema thAya e vicAraNA jAge tyAre vairAgya Ave. pudgaLanA saMganA pariNAme badhI avadazAo UbhI thAya che, aMdaranuM svAmitva dabAI jAya che ane dAsapaNuM upara Ave che. karmabaMdhana vastumAM nathI, paNa AsaktimAM che. varSonI sAdhanA pachI, varSonA cAritrya pachI, varSonA dhI raMga e phadaramAM raMgelAM pILA che. 208 = jIvana-mAMgalyA

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abhyAsa pachI e taTasthatA Ave che. anukULa ho ke pratikULa ho, paNa dareka prasaMge cittamAM samatA rAkhavI e kaMI bhASaNothI ke vAtothI na thAya. zaThatA pratye zaThatA karavI e saMsAranuM kAma che, zaThatA pratye praNa saujanya dAkhavavuM e sAdhutAnuM kAma che. A samatA eTale sAdhutA. AtmA amara hovA chatAM vAraMvAra motanA vicAra Ave che. mANasane thAya che ke aNadhAryuM mota AvI jAya to zuM thAya ? ciMtA thAya che ne ? je vastu banavAnI che chatAM nathI banavAnI ema bhramamAM rahIe chIe. AnuM nAma mAyA. mRtyu e deha mATe eka hakIkata che. deha ma2vAno che, huM maravAno nathI. huM to kyAMka jaIne rahevAno chuM. ApaNA svAdhyAyamAM AvatA eka bhAIe hamaNAM pitAnuM chatra gumAvyuM. e bhAI mane maLavA AvyA tyAre emaNe eka prazna karyo, "mane samajAtuM nathI ke mANasa maravAno che ema jANavA chatAM huM maravAno ja nathI ema samajIne covIse kalAka pravRttio zA mATe kare che ? meM pitAne gumAvyA, thoDA vakhata pahelAM mAne gumAvyAM, tema chatAM paNa A zokano AMcako mAtra ghaDIbhara lAgI gayo. jema ghoDo caNA khAto hoya ane vacamAM kAMkaro Ave to khAtA khAtAM ekadama moTuM UMcuM kare, jarA ghaDIbhara aTakI jAya, paNa pAcho e kAMkaro peTamAM UtarI jAya eTale e caNAne tabiyatathI cAvato ja hoya che. evI A saMsArIonI avasthA che. jyAre koIka banAva bane, koIkanuM matyu Ave tyAre ghaDIbhara vairAgyano raMga lAgI jAya che, jema caNAmAM pelo kAMkaro Ave tema. paNa pAcho e kAMkaro AgaLa dhakelAI jatAM mANasa hato evo ne evo kema thaI jAya che ? AvuM kema bane che ? pitA gayA che eTale mRtyunA vicAra paNa Ave che paNa paMdara divasa vItI gayA to dhIme dhIme e mRtyuno zoka ocho thato gayo. je divase pitAjI marI gayA tyAre ema thaI gayuM ke amAre paNa javAnuM che; Ama zA mATe ? e divase eTalo vairAgya Avyo paNa paMdara divasamAM e vairAgya ocho kema thaI gayo ? ane mane lAge che ke becAra mahinAmAM to mRtyuno vicAra paNa bhulAI javAze. to mAre jANavuM che ke mANasa mare che; maratAMne jue che; marelAMne vaLAve che; bALe che; dATe che; daphanAve che ane enuM zrAddha paNa kare che ane tema chatAM paNa pote ema kema nathI mAnato ke huM maravAno chuM. ane maravAno chuM ema jo mAnato hoya to enuM jIvana keTaluM sAruM banI jAya.'' meM e bhAIne kahyuM ke bhAI ! A AtmAne maravAno vicAra AvavAno ja nathI. A vicAra nathI Avato emAM eka parama satya raheluM che. enuM pUrNanA pagathAre * 209

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kAraNa e che ke je mare che ane je nathI marato evA be jaNA A zarIramAM bhegA thAya che. mare che evo eka che ane nathI marato evo bIjo che. ane e baMnenI partnership bhAgIdArI - cAlI rahI che. maranAro koNa ? A deha. ane na maranAro koNa ? A AtmA. eTale AtmA AchuM AchuM paNa, apratyakSa rIte paNa, jANe che ke huM maravAno nathI. je mare che e koNa mare che ? A deha mare che ane A dehanA mRtyunI sAthe AtmAnuM amaratva to raheluM che; paNa enuM spaSTa jJAna karmane lIdhe, vAsanAone lIdhe, vRttione lIdhe ApaNane nathI thatuM. eTale ghaDIbhara mATe ApaNe phaphaDI jaIe chIe ane mRtyuno bhaya lAgI jAya che. paNa jo kharekharuM jJAna thaI jAya, jo sAcosAca anubhava thaI jAya to koI mANasa marI jAya, judo thAya te vakhate paNa tamane ema ja thAya ke maranAra mare che, nathI maranAra nathI marato. A deha che, AtmA marato nathI. eTale tamane je mRtyuno vicAra Avyo e mRtyuno vicAra AtmA mATe na Avavo joIe. je mRtyuno vicAra Ave che e dehane mATe Ave che. A anubhava AnaMdaghanajIna thayo ane emaNe gAyuM : "deha vinAzI, hama avinAzI, apanI gati pakaDeMge.' jyAre amArI partnership bhAgIdArI judI thaze tyAre ame baMne judA paDI javAnA. 'dehavinAzI' A zarIra ahIM rahevAnuM. sagAMvahAlAM zarIra laI javAnAM, goThavavAnAM, bALavAnA. 'hama avinAzI' - huM maravAno nathI. A ja AtmAnuM avinAzIpaNuM che enuM jo bhAna thAya, enu jo jJAna thAya to covIse kalAka A jIva zarIranI mamatAmAM, dhananI ciMtAmAM, pratiSThAnA mohamAM ane mArApaNAnA ajJAnamAM mUMjhAIne je sahana karI rahyo che e sahana karavAmAMthI mukta thaI jAya che. dakSiNa amerikAmAM cilI nAmano pradeza che. emAM ghaNI vAra dharatIkaMpa thAya che, AthI tyAMnA lokoe nakkI karyuM ke ApaNe UMcAM makAno bAMdhavAM nahi, jo makAno moTAM bAMdhIzuM to e ja ApaNA mRtyunuM kAraNa banavAnAM. eTale cilI pradezanA mANaso pAyA UMDA ochA nAkhe ane makAna ochAM UMcAM bAMdhe ke jethI enA bhArathI mANaso dabAIne marI na jAya. e jANe che ke game te ghaDIe dharatIkaMpa thAya, game te ghaDIe AMcako Ave ane ApaNe bahAra nIkaLavuM paDe. AtmAnA amaratvano aparokSa anubhava jene thAya che te saMsAramAM rAgadveSanAM UMDA pAyA na nAkhe. e to cilI pradezamAM vasatA mANasonI jema A dehamAM apramattapaNe vase. 210 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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tame juo cho ne A badhuM keTaluM caMcaLa che ! cilImAM to amuka samaye dharatIkaMpa thAya paNa A mAnavajIvanamAM to kaI ghaDIe kaMpa thavAno che enI potAne paNa khabara nathI. sAMje sUtelo mANasa savAre UThyo ja nahi evuM ApaNe chApAmAM kyAM nathI vAMcatA ? amuka ThekANe gayelAM mANasa pAchAM AvyA ja nahi evuM paNa ApaNe sAMbhaLIe chIe. eTale A saMsAra cilI pradeza jevo che. kaI ghaDIe karyo banAva banI jAya enI khabara nathI. to A AtmArUpI rahevAsIe zuM karavuM ? cilInA mANaso be kAma kare che : pAyo UMDo nahi ane dIvAla totiMga nahi. ema A saMsAramAM ApaNe A rAgadveSanA pAyA UMDA nAkhavA nahi ane mohanI dIvAlo UMcI caNavI nahi. A be vastu bahu sAvadhAnIthI karavAnI che. lokoe pAyA bahu UMDA nAkhyA che, mArA-tArAnA jhaghaDA UbhA karyA. pahelAM to jhaghaDA jara, jamIna ane joru mATe karatA. have to bhASAne mATe, paMthane mATe, saMpradAyane mATe, ema jyAM jovA jAo tyAM jhaghaDA thavA lAgyA che. je taravAnuM sAdhana che, jenAmAMthI kalyANa thavAnuM che. je karavAthI ApaNA AtmAnA rAgadveSa ochA thavAnA che enA nAme ja jhaghaDo ! amRtane ja jhera banAvavuM che ! A jANIne mAnavIe eTaluM to sAvadhAna rahevuM ja joIe ke potAnAM rAga-dveSanA pAyA UMDA na nakhAya, koInI sAthe tIvra manaduHkha na thAya. ghaDIbhara kadI manadu:kha thaI gayuM to sAMja thAya te pahelAM to enA copaDA cokhkhA. zI khabara AvatI kAlanuM prabhAta jovAno vAro Avaze ke nahi Ave ? kadAca tamAre jovAno vAro Ave ane mAre jovAno vAro na Ave. ApaNA bemAMthI eka jo duniyAmAMthI cAlyo jAya ane ApaNo copaDo cokhkho karyA vinA ema ne ema cAlyA jAIe to bIjA janmamAM ApaNe devuM cUkavavA javuM paDe. A jJAnadazA Ave, A aparokSAnubhava thAya to A kAyA, A zarIra, A dhana, je bIjAne mATe jagatamAM UMDA pAyA nAkhavAnuM kAraNa bane che e uDDayananuM kAraNa banI jAya che. A jagatamAM jeTalA divaso rahevuM, jeTalA mahinAo rahevuM, jeTalAM varSo rahevuM emAM ApaNo pAyo ajANatAM paNa UMDo na naMkhAI jAya te mATe jAgrata rahevuM. bhUlathI paNa pAyo UMDo nakhAI gayo to samajI lejo ke tamAre ja sahana karavAnuM che. totiMga dIvAlanuM nukasAna bIjA koIne thavAnuM nathI, tamane ja thaze. dharatIkaMpa thAya che tyAre totiMga dIvAlo bAMdhanAranI chAtI upara ja dhasI paDe che. mANasa khUba lobha kare. khUba ahaMkAra kare, A duniyAnI ghaNIbadhI upAdhio UbhI kare to jIva e ja upAdhio nIce dabAI jAya che. pUrNanA pagathAre * 211

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jene AtmAnA amRtatattvano anubhava nathI thayo te 'maruM maruM'no ja vicAra kare che. anubhava thayA pachI thAya ke mare che koNa ? jeno svabhAva maravAno che e mare che. maravAno svabhAva zarIrano che to bhale e mare. huM kema maruM ? jyAM sudhI karma che tyAM sudhI A maraNa cAlyA ka2vAnAM. karmanI AsaktithI bhava cAlu rahe che. evo koI ja AnaMda ke tahevArano divasa nathI ke smazAnamAM koIne agnidAha devAto na hoya, badhAne rajA hoya paNa smazAna to cAlu ja hoya che. e batAvI Ape che ke dehane mATe mRtyu anivArya che. AtmA mATe to A maraNa e mAtra dehano palaTo che, pachI gabharAmaNa zI ? aphsosa zo ? dorI saLagavA mAMDe tyAre dorIno bIjo cheDo paNa saLagavAno ja, kAraNa ke e paNa dorIno eka bhAga ja che. Aga bIje cheDe AvavAnI ja che. je divase janmyA te divase maraNa lAgu paDyuM ja che. ma2Na janmathI juduM nathI. A samajaNa jAge pachI game te ghaDIe mRtyu Ave; vAMdho nathI. kAraNa ke sleTa cokhkhI che. parisaMvAdathI evI A asIma zraddhA utpanna thAya ke huM AtmA chuM ane AtmA vAsanAthI gherAyelo che. eTale saMsAramAM sukha ane du:kha che. jo AtmA vAsanAthI gherAyelo na hoya to duHkha che ja nahi. bIjo duHkha daI zake che kAraNa ke ApaNI vAsanAe ApaNane nabaLA banAvyA che eTale eno e lAbha le che. zarIramAM prANapoSaka tattvo ochAM thAya tyAre ja roganI asa2 thAya. paNa koSo (cells) sabaLa hoya to cepa na lAge. TI.bI.nI haoNspiTalamAM bALakone nathI laI javAtAM kAraNa ke TI.bI.nA jaMtuono sAmano ka2vA emanAM zarIra taiyAra nathI. tevI ja rIte gharaDAMone rogano jhapATo jaladI lAge kAraNa ke temanAM zarIra nabaLAM thayAM hoya che. bIjA tane duHkha devAmAM nimitta bane che kAraNa ke tAruM puNya ochuM che. puNyanA paramANuo (cells) baLavAna hoya to enI zuM tAkAta che ke tane te kAMI karI zake ! ApaNuM puNya paravAryuM hoya tyAre to eka sAmAnya mANasa paNa ApaNane herAna karI zake che. mANasa zuM, DhephuM paNa nimitta bane. DhekuM vAge, lohI vahe ane mANasa marI jAya. A eka nimitta che. paNa mULa to jIvavAnuM puNya pUruM thayuM, AyuSya samApta thayuM. gharamAM dIvo baLato hoya, tela khUTyuM hoya tyAM bAraNuM khUle, havA Ave ane dIvo olavAI jAya. koI kahe : bAraNuM kholyuM eTale olavAyo; ema 212 2 jIvana-mAMgalya

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nathI. divela khUTyuM hatuM eTale e to baLI baLIne Ameya khalAsa thaI ja javAno hato. - ApaNe aMdarathI sabaLa banavAnuM che. aMdarathI sabaLa kema banavuM ? jJAna ane cAritrya e aMdaranI tAkAta che. karma khape che jJAnanI ArAdhanAthI ane zuddha cAritryathI. nabaLAM banelAM tattvone sabaLAM karavA mATe jema pAsaporTa letA pahelAM iMjekzana Ape che jethI roga Ave tyAre sAmano karI zake tema jJAna ane cAritryanA iMjekazananI jarUra che. duHkha Ave te pahelAM duHkhane jANI lo. pachI duHkha Ave to ajANyuM nahi lAge. duHkha to beThuM ja che. jyAM ghara che tyAM duHkha che; medAnamAM duHkha nathI. mATe ja bhagavAna mahAvIre kahyuM che ke mahela nathI joIto, medAnamAM javuM che. mahelamAM jela che, medAnamAM mastI che. sarasamAM sarasa mahela hoya paNa, tene khUNo to haze ja. jyAM khUNo hoya tyAM duHkha jarUra hoya. medAnamAM khUNo nathI to duHkha paNa nathI. . zAMti, samatA ane jJAnadazAthI vicAra karIe tyAre thAya che ke je loko sarva mamatAno tyAga karI jaMgalamAM beThA e jeTalA sukhI hatA enA karoDamAM aMze paNa ahIMno karoDapati sukhI nathI. je badhuM choDI karIne beThA ene ciMtA nathI. duHkha kyAM che ? duHkha mamatAmAM che. mamatA nathI tyAM duHkha paNa nathI. samatAmAM sukha ane mamatAmAM du:kha. jyAM vyakti pratye mamatA thaI tyAM duHkha UbhuM thayuM. enI vicAraNA thAya, enAmAM mana ramyA kare. pachI AdhyAtmika pragati kyAMthI thAya ? jema pataMga dorAthI baMdhAyelo che ema A jIva mamatAthI baMdhAyelo che. game tyAM jAya paNa mamatAno doro ene pAcho nIce laI Ave. duHkha mamatAnA khUNAmAM che. cakravartIoe jyAre rAjya choDI cAritra lIdhuM haze tyAre cAritryamAM emane kevI mIThAza dekhAI haze ? choDavAmAM mardAnagI che. bheguM karavAnuM kAma to bhikhArIo paNa kare che. potAnA zramathI meLaveluM choDavAmAM cakravartInuM dila joIe. je choDI zake che enI mahattA moTI che. cakravartIone lAgyuM ke du:kha mamatAmAM che. jeTalI mamatA eTalAM duHkha. koI duHkhI hoya ke sukhI - tenA pratye bane eTalI zubha bhAvanA rAkhavI, mamatA nahi. zubha bhAvanAmAM sarvanuM bhaluM thAo evI bhAvanA hoya. mamatAmAM ciMtA UbhI thAya che, duHkha bIjAnuM pUrNanA pagathAre ja 213

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ane upAdhi tamArI. upAdhi kema AvI ? mamatva paDeluM che eTale. cakravartI choDe tyAre bhogone taNakhaluM jANI choDe. je duHkha Ape, magajamAM upAdhi UbhI kare e nakAmuM che ema jANI choDI de che. je vastu choDavA beThA tenI kiMmata magajamAM hoya to na choDAya. je choDo tenI kiMmata ochI lAge ane jene mATe choDo tenI kiMmata vadhAre lAge to ja choDI zako; nahitara jIva chUTe nahi, chUTI jAya to pAchaLathI baLatarA thAya. cha khaMDanuM rAjya taNakhalA jevuM gaNI choDyuM ane samatAnuM siMhAsana meLavyuM. cAritryanI majA e che ke tamArAmAM aMdarathI khumArI Ave, mastI AvI jAya, tyAga sahaja lAge. pachI vastu sAme Ave paNa icchA na jAge. nispRhInAM jeTalAM kAma thAya eTalAM spRhAvALAnAM na thAya. choDo tyAre kaho ke tucchane choDavuM ane paramane meLavyuM. akSayasukhanuM kAraNa, paramasukhanuM kAraNa tyAgadharma che, cAritryadharma che. cAritrya ane jJAnathI AtmAmAM evI zakti utpanna thAya ke pApa ene aDI paNa na zake. vizvanI koI tAkAta enAthI baLavAna nathI ! huM AtmA chuM. huM jemAM vasuM chuM e dehane du:kha Ave che temAM kAraNa duHkha ApanArAM nathI, paNa karma che. A karmane khalAsa karavAmAM che. jema kAMTo vAge to na nIkaLe tyAM sudhI vedanA thAya tema karma lAgyAM hoya tyAM sudhI eka athavA bIjI rIte du:kha AvyA kare che. huM AtmA chuM evI pratIti thAya pachI pUrNatA mATe badhI ja kriyAo karatAM AnaMda thAya che. eka bAI borDiMganA doDhaso chokarAo mATe rasoI banAve ane ghera jaIne potAnA dIkarA mATe banAve. pelA borDiMganA chokarA sArA che, dekhAvaDA che. bhaNelA che paNa emAM mArApaNAnI ruci nathI. eTale emane jamADatAM manamAM prIti nahi jAge ane game tema karIne kAma pUruM karaze. paNa potAno putra sAva sAmAnya hoya to paNa tene joIne tene prIti thAya che, ullAsa jAge che kAraNa ke 'e eno putra' che e jAtanI enI samajaNa che. tyAM dekhAva ke bhaNatara nahi, paNa saMbaMdhane sthAna che. e zramita hoya to paNa dIkarA mATe kAma karatAM tene thAka nahi lAge. AtmAnI mahattA samajAya pachI dharmakriyA karavAmAM je ruci jAge te samyagdarzananuM pariNAma che. samyag dRSTi AtmA kriyA, nizcaya ane vyavahAranuM samanvayAtmaka dRSTithI eTale ke samyag dRSTithI kare. badhI kriyA kare paNa dhAvamAtAnI jema kare. dehane navaDAve, khavaDAve tyAre kahe : "AtmA, tuM 214 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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A dehamAM che eTale Ane navaDAvavo paDe che, khavaDAvavo paDe che. tuM na hoya to tene bALavo ja rahe." ajJAnIne dehane mATe mamatA che. mamatA tyAM bhaya, bhaya asaMbhavita vastune saMbhavita banAve che. AtmabhAva ane dehAbhAvamAM zo pharaka che ? dehabhAvamAM aMdarathI bIkaNapaNuM pragaTe che. huM marI jaIza, mAruM lUMTAI jaze, mAruM zuM thaze ? - Ama e kalpanAthI asaMbhavitane saMbhavita karI de che. je kAle banavAnuM nathI te banavAnuM che ema mAnI Aje ja upAdhi UbhI kare. je vastu nathI tene bhayathI bolAvI le che. je mANasa bIkaNa hoya, aMdhArAthI bIto hoya te aMdhArAmAM beTho hoya to vicAra kare ke aMdara koI che to nahi ne ! aMdara kaMI nathI paNa "kadAca hoya' evo vicAra karI tene saMbhavita banAve che. jarAka pataruM hAle ke lAkaDI para prakAza paDe eTale ene e "kaMIka' samajI bhayabhIta bane che. moTAbhAganA loko dehabhAvane lIdhe bhayanA vicAra dvArA asaMbhavitane saMbhavita kare che. AtmadazA AvI pachI koI jAtano bhaya nahi. saMbhavitane e asaMbhavita kare. kahe ke mArA AtmAne zuM nukasAna thavAnuM che ? thAya to dehane thavAnuM che. pachI e koIthI na Dare. AtmAnI zakti abhaya che, anaMta che. bhaya hoya te smazAnamAM dhyAna lagAvI kema bese ? bhaya hoya tene to rAte gharamAM jatAM paNa bIka lAge, dehabhAva bIkaNa che. eka rAjAe eka vAra saMnyAsI banavAnuM jAhera karyuM. e gurunI zodhamAM UpaDyA, ghaNA saMnyAsIoe vicAra karyo ke ApaNe enAM guru banIe. A AzAmAM ghaNA saMnyAsIo AvyA ane kahevA lAgyA : "ame moTA AzramavALA chIe. tamane badhI jAtanI sagavaDa ame ApI zakIzuM." rAjAne hasavuM AvyuM. eNe kahyuM, "huM ene guru banAvuM jenA AzramanuM AMgaNuM lAMbAmAM lAvyuM hoya." pachI rAjA jovA nIkaLyo. darekanuM AMgaNuM pahelAMnA saMnyAsInA AMgaNA karatAM moTuM hatuM. eka saMnyAsI je cUpa hatA tenI pAse gayA to tyAM AMgaNuM ja nahi. pUchyuM to kahe, "jotA nathI ! A kSitija e ja to mArA AzramanuM AMgaNuM che. "dharatI ko cheDo Abha kI pichoDI." Abhane oDhuM chuM ane dharatIne bichAvuM chuM. kSitija prati jyAM sudhI jaI zakAya e badhuM AzramanuM AMgaNuM ja gaNuM chuM." koI paNa vastune maryAdita karIe eTale emAM purAI jaIe chIe. muktino anubhava anaMtamAM ja thAya. pUrNanA pagathAre ja 215

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mANasa vicAra karato thAya ke A dekhAya che enI pAchaLa je nathI dekhAtuM e mahattvanuM che. adekhatAne dekhatA thavA mATe divya aMjana joIe, * divya dRSTi joIe. te dekhatAne sahu dekhe paNa na dekhatAne dekhe enuM nAma samyaga dRSTi. badhuM kare paNa AtmAne bhUle nahi. have bIjo vicAra. parisaMvAdanuM bIjuM sopAna : jo huM amara rahevAno chuM, marato nathI to ahIMthI kyAM javAno ? ane jyAM jaIza tyAM sAthe zuM AvavAnuM ? ahIM je huM karaNI karavAno te sAthe AvavAnI. ahIM badhuM goThavAyeluM che, kAMI karavuM paDatuM nathI. jyAM A jIva janme che tyAM badhAM sagAM thaIne Ave che. jIva Ave che tyAre ekalo A 1 che. koIkane moTuM kuTuMba hoya che, koIkane koI ja nahi. to A ekapaNuM ane A anekapaNuM e konI goThavaNI ? pUrvajanmamAM je puNya ane pApa karyuM te pramANe A janmamAM goThavaNI thAya che. A evI sUkSma gUMthaNI che ke emAM buddhi paNa kAma nathI karatI. AtmA eka bhavathI bIjA bhavamAM jAya che tyAre jatI vakhate sAthe koNa Ave che ? AtmA sAthe karma nAmanI sattA Ave che. karma eka che paNa karmathI be vastu bane che : puNya ane pApa. jIva eka gatimAMthI nIkaLI bIjI gatimAM jAya che tyAre puNya ane pApa enA paralokanA bhomiyA bane che, sAthI bane che. mitra paNa sAthe nathI AvavAno ane duzmana paNa sAthe nathI AvavAno. baMne ahIM ja rahI javAnA che. paNa e nimitte karelAM puNya-pApa sAthe Avaze. saMsAranI A haLavI bAju to juo. je bApa mahenata karI, paisA bhegA karI dIkarA mATe mUkIne jAya e dIkarAnI bApane prema karavAnI rIta kevI ? bApane agnisaMskAra dIkaro ja kare. bApane bALavAno haka dIkarAne ja maLe ! saMsArano prema Aga lagADavAno ja ne ! jeTalAM sagAM Aga lagADe eTalAM dUranAM nathI lagADatAM. zo ane saMtApa najIkanAthI Ubho thAya che. loko jene sneha kahe che emAMthI ja A badhAM duHkhono dAvAnaLa Ubho thayo che. A jagatamAM je kAMI bane che te puNya ane pApanA kAraNe bane che, tene lIdhe sukha ane duHkhano saMyoga thAya che, kapyuM paNa na hoya tenI prApti thAya che ane prApta thayeluM hoya teno viyoga thAya che. 216 ja jIvana-mAMgalyA

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puNyane lIdhe anukULa maLe tyAre namra bano ane pApane lIdhe pratikULa maLe tyAre samabhAva rAkho. pratikULa Ave tyAre anukULa banI jAo. pratikULane anukULa thAo to pratikULane pratikULa banyA vinA cAlyA ja javuM paDe. lokone sukha bhogavavuM game che paNa duHkha bhogavavuM nathI gamatuM. sukha ane duHkha e be potAnI karaNIthI ja prApta thAya che, baMne bhogavI laIe to ja mukti thAya. kavivara lakhe che : pagamAM dorInI gUMca paDI hoya tyAre kUdAkUda karavAthI to vadhAre gUMca paDe. e vakhate to besIne zAMtithI gUMca kholavAthI ja e Ukale. ema ApaNAM karmanA lIdhe gUMca paDI jAya te vakhate zAMti ane samAdhAna rAkhavAne badale, dhyAna, mauna ane svAdhyAya karavAne badale dhAMdhala-dhamAla karIe to eno ukela kema thAya ? bhale badhuMya pratikULa thAya paNa te anukULa banI zake to badhuM ja saraLa banI jAya. eka RSinI cAmaDI utAravA jallAda Avyo to RSi kahe ke, "tuM kahe tema huM Ubho rahuM jethI cAmaDI utAratAM tane kyAMya vAgI jAya nahi." AnuM nAma ja pratikULane anukULa. pratikULatA vakhate duHkhamAM duHkha vaDe vadhAro karo, ArtadhyAnamAM divasa pUro karo enA karatAM kaho ke A divasa paNa pUro thaI jaze. vAdaLa khasatAM prakAza pAcho AvavAno ja che. A vicAra kone Ave ? je parisaMvAda kare che tene Ave. e potAne ja pUche ke zuM A nimittomAM eTalI tAkAta che ke tane duHkha ApI zake ? duHkha tane koNa de che ? nimitto nahi, tArA pUrvajanmanuM devuM duHkha de che. sAdhune sahu vaMdana kare paNa rastAmAM gAMDo maLe to gALa de, tyAre sAdhu zuM vicAre ? eNe gALa kema dIdhI, tuMkAro kema dIdho ? ema nahi vicAre paNa vicAraze ke gAMDo che, ene karmano udaya che. mAre enA nimitte AvuM sAMbhaLavAno udaya che. to jIva, tuM sAMbhaLI le. eka karma bAMdhe che, bIjo samatA rAkhe che. bhagavAna pArzvanAthane dharaNendra pUje che ane sAmAnya deva herAna kare che. eka upAsanA kare che, bIjo upadrava ane upahAsa kare che. e benI vacce samatA rAkhavI, tulya manovRtti rAkhavI e ja to vicAraNAnI majhA che. A samajaNa jeTalI jeTalI jIvanamAM AvatI jAya, teTalA teTalA janma sudharatA jAya. devuM pUruM thaI jatAM leNiyAta nahi Ave. pUrNanA pagathAre 9 217

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jIve besIne zAMtithI vicAra karavAno che ke karmo bAMdhyAM che enuM pariNAma puNya ane pApa che. emAM samatulA rAkhavA mATe sadA jAgrata rahevuM joIe. vItarAga pAse cakravartI pAse na hoya evI riddhisiddhi hoya che ane yogI pAse na hoya evI tyAgavRtti che. A benuM saMmizraNa vItarAgamAM jovA maLe che . Aje tamArI zrImaMtAI tamane deva, guru ane dharmanI najIka lAvavAne badale AghA to laI nathI jatI ne ? kharI zrImaMtAI kaI ? jema jema dhana Ave, jema jema sagavaDatA maLe tema tema deva, guru ane dharmanI najIka laI jAya te ja sAcI zrImaMtAI. e vaibhava zuM kAmano ke je vaibhava ApaNane AtmAthI dUra laI jAya ? puNya ane pApano udaya e pUrvajanmamAM ke A janmamAM karelAM zubha ke azubha kRtyonA pariNAme maLe che. paNa bhogavaTA vakhate aMdaranI svasthatA kema rAkhavI, vicAro kevA udAtta rAkhavA e viziSTa jIvananI viziSTatA che. ghaNI vAra puNyane lIdhe thAkI jAo eTale sukha maLe ane pApane lIdhe trAsI jAo eTale du:kha maLe. baMne karmasattAnAM pariNAmo che. puNya ane pApanA udayamAM svastha rahIe to nirjarA thAya. ApaNane sukha ane duHkha koI nathI ApatuM. nahitara karma sattAne koI mAnatuM na hota. duHkhamAM hasavuM e tattvajJAnanuM kAma che. je avasthAmAM karma baMdhAya emAM ja jJAnadazAthI karma choDI zakAya. e mATe ja tattvajJAna che. tattvajJAna zuM kare che ? jagatanA je padArtho ajJAnIne raDAve te jJAnIne hasAve che. AtmAne tyAM puNya ane pApa nAmanA padArtho AvyA che. ene lIdhe koI vAra anukULa maLe; koI vAra pratikULa maLe; sukha maLe, du:kha maLe, paNa e badhAMyamAM cittanI svasthatA rAkhavI. A badhAMya e RtuRtunAM phaLa che SeasonnAM Fruits che. ziyALAmAM ThaMDI paDe. unALAmAM garamI paDe ane varSARtumAM varasAda varase paNa te badhAMmAM kALa eka ja che; tema puNya ane pApanI RtuomAM AvatA sukha-duHkhanA palaTAomAM AtmA eka che. bhinna havAmAna UbhuM thAya te vakhate mananI zAMti jALavI zako to ghaNuM ghaNuM meLavI zako. jemAM jIva bALo temAM karma baMdhAya. mATe jIva bALavo nahi. zoka, saMtApa, ciMtA, udvega UbhAM thAya to UbhA thaI jAo, AMTo mArI Avo, 218 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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svAdhyAyamAM snAna karI Avo. saMsAra kAryathI nathI vadhato, paNa zokathI vadhe che. jIva zokamAM DUbI jAya te vakhate abhyAsa, svAdhyAya, ciMtana vaDe jIvane adhdhara rAkho. je jIva adhdhara rahI zake te jIvananI badhI RtuomAM svastha rahI zake che. AtmAne saMsAramAM bAMdhanAra zoka ane Asakti che. ApaNo dharma e nathI ke kabaramAM gayA eTale pUruM thayuM. ApaNo dharma e che ke ahIM kareluM kAma je haju adhUruM hoya te AvatI kAle karavAnuM che ane ahIM kareluM devuM AvatI kAle devAnuM che. ahIM vAveluM dAna tyAM jaIne laNavAnuM che. tame kadI vicAra karyo ke mane ATalI badhI sagavaDa kema ? mane kema ATalAM badhAM sAdhano maLyAM ? huM jyAM hAtha nAkhuM chuM tyAM joIe eTalI vastuo meLavI zakuM chuM ane bIjA loko TaLavaLe che, karagare che, vinave che chatAM anna ane vastra jevI prAthamika vastuo paNa pUratI meLavI zakatA nathI. - bihAramAM chokarAMo gharamAM jAya eTale temanI mAtAo cUMTalA bhare, bacakAM bhare ke tame gharamAM Avazo nahi. khAvAnuM ja nathI tyAM rotAM-kakaLatAM evAM tamane ApIe zuM ? jAo, jyAM javuM hoya tyAM jAo, khAvA maLe tyAM jaIne khAo. eTale chokarAMo ATha-ATha divasa sudhI gharamAM Ave nahi. kyAM jhADanI nIce paDyAM rahe, kyAM mahuDA khAya, kyAM ApaNA taraphathI cAlatA annakSetra para jaI peTano khADo bhare. mA jevI mA je premanI mUrti kahevAya e bALaka gharamAM Ave tyAre cUMTalo bharIne kADhI mUke - AvuM kyAre bane ? e jANe ke e darda have enAthI joI zakAya tema nathI. enA karatAM e du:khiyAM chokarAM dUra cAlyAM jAya to sAruM. tyAre bIjI bAju sAhebI eTalI badhI hoya che ke dIkaro kahe ke pappA ! mAre world tour para javuM che. to kahe, "jaI Ava beTA." pAMtrIsa hajArano kharco thaze." to kahe, "kAMI vAMdho nathI." e world tour upara jaI Ave ane pacAsa hajAra kharacI paNa Ave ! vicAra karo. tyAM tame kAMI karI zakatA nathI. mANasanI nirAdhAratA keTalI che ! chokarAM tamArAM paNa che, chokarAM enAM paNa che. eka chokarAne khavaDAvI zakavA samartha nathI eTale cUMTalA bharIne dUra kADhe che. bIjAno chokaro gharamAM khAIkhAIne thAkI gayo che eTale have bahAra jaIne game teTalA hoTalonA kharacA karIne Ave toya hasIne vadhAve ! pUrNanA pagathAre ja 219

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A badhI vastuonI pAchaLa koNa kAma karI rahyuM che eno jo tame vicAra nahi karo, e vAtane gaMbhIratAthI nahi juo to nukasAna jagatane nahi, tamane che; nukasAna jaDane nahi, jIvane thAya che. kAraNa ke pote je karaNI karIne Avyo e ahIM ja pUrI karI nAkhe to AgaLa zuM ? parisaMvAda karo to ja vicAra Ave ke meM evI koIka puNyanI karaNI karI che ke jethI Aja mArI AsapAsa huM icchA karuM chuM ane vastu hAjara thAya che. to have AvatA bhavamAM AgaLa vadhI zakAya e mATe huM zubha karaNIno, suMdara karaNIno pravAha cAlu rAkhuM. tamArA gharanI jyota tamAre jo baLatI rAkhavI hoya, tophAnanI aMdhArI rAtamAM bhayathI bacavuM hoya to eTaluM to dhyAna rAkhavuM ja ke UMghI javA karatAM tamArA dIvAmAM thoDuM tela bharatA raho. trIjuM pagathiyuM : A AtmA konAthI baMdhAya che ? AsravathI. jyAM sudhI jIvanarUpI sarova2mAM Asavano pravAha cAlu che tyAM sudhI eka prakAranuM du:kha baMdha thaze to bIjA prakAranuM duHkha AvavAnuM. duHkhanuM kAraNa Asava che, pApa che. mithyAtva, avirati, kaSAya, yoga ane pramAda jyAM sudhI che tyAM sudhI Asrava baMdha kema thAya ? A pAMce AsavanAM mukhya kAraNa che. A pApathI, AsravathI mukta thavA mATe saMvara che. saMvara eTale sArI rIte baMdha karavuM. je jIva saMvara karIne upara jaNAvelAM pApanAM dvAra baMdha karIne jIvana jIve che enA AtmAmAM pAparUpI cora ghUsI ja kema zake ? saMvara mATe samyaktva, saMyama, dezavirati, sarvavirati, vrata vagere che. jIvo vrata kare che te koIne mATe nahi paNa potAnA AtmAne pApamAMthI bacAvavA mATe, saMvara karavAthI nakAmAM pApo baMdhAtAM nathI. eka bhAI kahe ke je vastu ame nathI vAparatA e vastuthI pApa amane kevI rIte lAge ? meM kahyuM ke tame tyAga nathI karyo e pApanuM kAraNa che. tame vAparatA nathI paNa vAparavA mATe pApanAM bAraNAM khullAM che. niyama karo tyAre ja eno saMbaMdha tUTe che. pratijJA lIdhI hoya to jAgRti rahe che. paNa pratijJA na lIdhI hoya to bAra mahinA na khAdhuM paNa eka vAra khavAI jAya to tamane kaMI aphasosa na thAya. vrata kevAM che ? dhAro ke koInA zarIramAM eka ThekANe rasoLI hoya. bhojana karatAM icche ke sAruM khAuM to zarIra sAruM rahe. e ema icchato nathI ke huM jADo thAuM enI joDe mArI rasoLI paNa moTI thAya ! paNa zarIra 220 x jIvana-mAMgalya

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vadhavAnuM tenI sAthe rasoLI paNa vadhavAnI. rasoLI vadhatI aTakAvavA operation karavuM paDe che. nahitara zarIra vadhatAMnI sAthe khorAkano amuka bhAga rasoLInI vRddhimAM vaparAvAno. tame icchavuM na hoya paNa banyA vagara rahe nahi. tema A vizvarUpI dehamAM beThelA jIve vratarUpI operation na karyuM hoya to AsavamAM vadhAro kare ja che. mATe ja vrata anivArya che. rogapratibaMdhaka rasI (Vaccination) astitvamAM kema AvI ? je loko bahAranuM khAya, Cleanliness (svacchatA) na jaLavAya, game te khAya enA zarIramAM Gems jAya ane mAMdagI UbhI kare. VaccinationthI te bahArathI AvelAM jaMtuo sAthe laDI zake. paNa je taMdurasta, svastha jIvana jIve ene VaccinationnI jarUra nathI. A vizvamAM mahApuruSoe je niyama karyA temAM saMvarano mArga batAvyo. yogImAM Germsno praveza jaladI thato nathI, paNa bhogImAM jaladI thAya che. saMyamI pAse saMvaranI zakti che. saMyama AtmAne to ujvaLa kare paNa tana ane manane paNa taMdurasta rAkhe. samaya sAmAyikamAM vIte ane samaya sAmAyika jevo vIte emAM pharaka che. eka bhAI savAre maLyA. kahe ke koI marI gayuM che eTale gayA vinA chUTako nathI. paNa sAmAyikamAM jIvana jIve tene Ama khabhe khesa nAkhIne savAramAM ja javAno vAro nahi Ave. 48 miniTa mATe sAmAyikanuM vrata lIdhuM eTale anivArya saMjogomAM paNa bahAra na jaI zake. - tyAgI jIvananI ghaNI mahattA che. saMsAranA vyApArano icchAe ke anicchAe tyAga thaI jAya che. saMyamI jIvanamAM icchA sUkAM pAMdaDAnI jema kharI jAya che. - je lokone puNya ane pApanI sAMkaLamAMthI chUTavuM hoya teNe A bhUmikAe pahoMcavuM rahyuM ane tene mATe prAraMbhamAM to nAnA niyamo paNa sahAyaka bane che. saMvara vinA nirjarAno mArga sahelo thato nathI. puNya ane pApa saMsAranA jIvone lAgelAM che. emAMthI mukta thavA mAMgIe chIe paNa te mATenI bhUmikA kyAM che ? samyagadarzana pahelAM virati kare e mAtra ajJAna kaSTa che. ethI devalokanAM sukha maLe. samyagudarzana che, AtmAne jANavo e jJAna ane AtmAne karmathI judo pADavo enuM nAma cAritrya. pUrNanA pagathAre 221

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mArA AtmAne lapeTIne baMdhAyeluM tattva karma che. e karmanI nirjarA e ja AtmAnI nirmaLatA. A ja anubhava apUrva che. kapaDuM gaMduM hoya ane ene istrI karo to sAruM na lAge, paNa mela kADhI, svaccha karI istrI karo to kevo raMga Ave ? tema nirjarA pachI thatI nirmaLatA paNa eka sauMdarya banI jAya che. kaNAda nAmanA eka sAdhu hatA. potAnA dehane nabhAvavA kaNakaNane e vINI khAtA eTale emane loko kaNAda kahetA. e sadA potAnA svAdhyAya ane sAdhanAmAM magna ane masta rahetA. loko vAta karatA ke emanI pAse suvarNasiddhi che. A vAta UDatI UDatI rAjAnA kAna sudhI pahoMcI. rAjAne thayuM A siddhino lAbha uThAvuM. e phaLaphUla, uttama bhojana laI tyAM pahoMcyA ane emanA caraNe dharyA. paNa kaNAda potAnA kAryamAM evA magna hatA ke e vastuonI sAme paNa emaNe na joyuM. eTale rAjA ciDAI gayA. jatAM jatAM manamAM kahe : "che to bhikhArI paNa magarUbI keTalI che !" maMtrIe sAcI salAha ApI : "rAjana ! magarUbI kema na hoya ? e siddhinA svAmI che ! emanI upekSA karavA karatAM emane bhaktithI prasanna karo ane bhakti dhanathI nahi, tanathI thAya; paisAthI nahi, premathI thAya. e prasanna thAya ane haiyAnI dAbaDI khole to tamAruM kAma thaI jAya." rAtrinA zAMta samayamAM rAjA bhistInA chUpA veze tyAM jAya che. unALAno divasa hovAthI enA jhUMpaDA AgaLa pANI chAMTe che. pachI kaNAdanA e paga dAbe che. lAkaDA jevA paga dAbI rahyA che. aDadhA kalAka pachI rAjAe paga dAbatA dAbatAM pUchyuM : "prabho ! Apane duHkha to nathI thatuM ne ?" tyAre sAdhue smita karI kahyuM, "bhAI, A lAkaDAMone zuM thavAnuM hatuM ! enA upara to raMdhAo pharyA ja kare che, paNa rAjAnA A komaLa pAMkhaDI jevA hAthane du:kha nathI thatuM ne ?' rAjAne thayuM ke A jANI gayA. rAjAe AzcaryapUrvaka pUchyuM : "Apa jANI gayA ?" to sAdhu kahe : "emAM jANavA jevuM zuM che? paNa huM tamane eka vAta pUchuM ? huM akiMcana hovA chatAM tamAre tyAM divase paNa nathI Avyo ane tame rAjA hovA chatAM mahela mUkIne A jhUMpaDImAM rAtre kema AvyA ?" rAjAe kahyuM : "meM jANyuM che ke Apa lokhaMDamAMthI sonuM banAvo cho. Apa ja kaho zuM A sAcuM che ?" sAdhue mAthuM dhuNAvyuM : "hA, huM jANuM chuM. huM lokhaMDamAMthI sonuM banAvuM chuM. game tyAre ane game teTaluM sonuM banAvI zakuM ane e sonuM evuM ke banyA pachI mUkIne na javuM paDe evuM sonuM banAvuM 222 jIvana-mAMgalya

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chuM." rAjAe kahyuM, "evuM ? mane batAvo." kaNAde kahyuM, "tamane eka prazna pUchuM ? "phUla thAya che e zenAmAMthI thAya che ?' to kahe : "mATImAM rahelA bIjamAMthI thAya che." "anAja thAya che e zenAmAMthI thAya che ?' to kahe : "khAtaramAM bhaLelAM bIjamAMthI thAya che.' khAtarane koI bhANAmAM Ape ane khAvAnuM kahe to nahi khavAya, UlaTI thAya paNa e ja khAtaramAMthI anAja pedA thAya che jene mANasa AnaMdapUrvaka khAya che ane mATI bhojanamAM ApI hoya to koI paNa khAya ? nahi khAya paNa e ja mATImAMthI khIlelA surabhivALAM phUlo thAya che jene loko potAnA gharamAM mukhya khaMDamAM zobhA mATe phUladAnImAM goThave che. jema mATImAMthI phUla thAya ane khAtaramAMthI anAja thAya che tevI ja rIte A dehamAM rahelA AtmAmAMthI paramAtmA thAya teno upayoga karatAM AvaDavo joIe. emanuM ema khAtara mUkI do to kAMI paNa na thAya; emanI ema mATI mUkI do to paNa kAMI na thAya. ene taiyAra karIne enAmAM bIjA vAvavAmAM Ave to emAMthI phUla paNa thAya, anAja paNa thAya. ema, he rAjana ! mANasanA vikAro, mANasanI vRttio, mANasanA Avezo e khAtara jevA che. enuM UrdhIkaraNa thAya to e vikAsamAM pariNamI jAya, enAthI paramAtmasvarUpanI prApti thAya." ane e vAta to mAnavI ja paDe che ke tamArAmAM rahelA vikAro, tamArAmAM rahelI vRttio, tamArAmAM rahelA Avezo UrdhvIkaraNa mAge che. ema bane to e ja tamArI sAdhanAnuM sAdhana banI jAya che. je tamane sAmAnya bhUmikAmAM rAkhe che ane pazunI sAmAnyatAmAM mUkI de che enuM ja tame Sublimation karo. nirmAlya mANaso koI ThekANe kAMI ja karI zakatA nathI. tAkAta to joIe ja, paNa eTalo phera ke je tAkAta ane Avega duniyAnI vAtamAM kAma lAgavAnAM hatAM ane tame have adhyAtmamAM pheravI nAMkho cho. je vRttionuM khAtara kohavAIne gaMdha mAravAnuM hatuM e ja khAtaramAMthI suMdara sugaMdhI phUlo pedA karo cho ane dhULamAMthI phUla ane pAka utAro cho. eTale bhAI, lokhaMDanuM sonuM banAvavuM eTale zuM ? A zarIra sAdhanA mATe vAparavuM ane AtmAne paramAtmA banAvI devo." e konAthI bane ? jema pelA pArasamaNinA saMparkathI lokhaMDa sonuM bane ema parisaMvAdanA saMparkathI A AtmA paramAtmA bane. je loko lokhaMDamAMthI sonuM banAvatA hatA e vidyA eTale zuM ? A dehane paramArtha mATe vAparavo ane AtmAne paramAtmasvarUpa banAvI devo enuM pUrNanA pagathAre ja 223

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nAma ja e lokhaMDamAMthI sonuM banAvavuM, e A vidyAnuM rahasya che. A vastu jo tamane samajAya to parisaMvAda dvArA tame upara ane upara jaI zako. A maMthanamAM tame tamArI sAthe vAto karatA thAo. A svAdhyAyathI mANasa dhIre dhIre karmathI, maLathI ane vRttiothI mukta thato jAya che ane mukta thayelo AtmA paramAtmasvarUpa bane che. jevI rIte UMce javuM hoya to koI nisaraNI joIe ema paramAtmatattva pahoMcavuM hoya to A parisaMvAda eka nisaraNI che. to parisaMvAdamAM zuM Ave che ? AtmAne mukta karavo e ja A manuSya jIvanano eka hetu che. ane A hetu parisaMvAdathI ja siddha thAya che. to jevI rIte mATImAM rahela bIjamAMthI phUla bane, khAtaramAM bhaLelA biyAraNamAMthI suMdaramAM suMdara anAja bane evI ja rIte A karmamAM bhaLelA AtmAmAMthI paramAtmA bane. A parisaMvAda dvArA e paramAtmatattvanA prakAzane pAmI pUrNanI pUrNatAmAM pUrNa banI jIvIe. 224 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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23. jIvanane pUrNa kema banAvavuM ? * OM pUrNamadaH pUrNamidaM pUrNAt pUrNamudacyate / ra pUrNasya pUrNamAdAya pUrNamevAvaziSyate // dhIjInI prArthanAmAM A subhASitano che pApa samAveza thayelo che. A subhASita * pratyeka prabhAtanI prArthanAnA vAtAvaraNane ' arpaNanA maMgaLamaya bhAvathI bharI de che. emAM samarpaNanI ullAsamaya abhilASA che. pravRttinuM kendra nivRtti che. paNa ja nivRtti meLavavA pravRtti Avazyaka che. manuSyajIvana e eka prayANa che, A yAtrA che, kyAMka javAnuM che, AgaLa dizA che, paNa dhyeya nizcita ane acala che. ApaNe pUrNatAe pahoMcavAnuM che. pahoMcanAra pUrNa che paNa kAmalobhanI apUrNatAmAM e pUrNane bhUlI gayo che. te pUrNane lakSamAM rAkhI prayANa kare to ja pUrNamAM maLI pUrNa bane. $ manuSya pUrNano pyAsI che. tame jozo che ke saMsAramAM badhAM prANIonI garadana ane dRSTi nIce che jyAre manuSyanI daSTi pUrNanA pagathAre ja 22pa

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AkAza prati che. enuM mastaka unnata che. AthI manuSyane kahevuM paDe ke nIce joIne cAla. kAraNa ke e UMce joIne cAle che. ene upara javuM che. prANIomAM zreSThatA manuSyanI che kAraNa ke manuSyanI dRSTi pUrNa pratye che. je manuSya pAse pUrNanI dRSTi nathI, pUrNatAnI abhIpsA nathI e manuSya pazu samAna che. eka kavie kahyuM che ke AhAra, nidrA, bhaya ane maithuna manuSyamAM ane pazumAM sarakhAM che. paNa manuSya mATe gauravapada ane zreSTha vAta to enA dilamAM jalato dharmano dIpaka che, je gADha aMdhakAramAM prakAza Ape che. keTalAka kahe che ke amAro dharma sAro che. huM kahuM chuM, "dharma e dIpaka che ane je dIpaka prakAza pAthare che ane pathadarzaka bane che te sAro che. e amAro ke tamAro nathI, Acare teno che. dIpaka prakAza mATe che. jhaghaDavA mATe nahi. ghaNA to dIpakanA prakAzano upayoga karavAne badale mArA-tArAnA jhaghaDAmAM ja ene pUro karI nAkhe che." manuSya pAse A dIpaka che. A dIpaka manuSyane khoTA raste jatAM roke che. manuSya jyAre sArA rastA upara jAya che tyAre e dIpaka enA mukha upara prasannatAno prakAza camakAve che, hRdayamAM AnaMda ane abhayanI ujvaLatA pAthare che ane pravRttimAM AphlAda ANe che. paNa jevo manuSya kharAba rastA upara caDhe ke tarata hRdayamAM bhaya Ubho kare che, mukha upara ciMtAnuM AvaraNa lAve che ane AnaMdane uDADI de che. pachI e manuSya mukta hAsya paNa karI zakato nathI. ApaNe svArthanuM ja kAma karyuM jaIe to thAka lAge paNa sevAnuM kAma karIe to AnaMda ane prasannatA prApta thAya. tamAro potAno anubhava tamane nathI kaheto ke ghaNI vAra svArthanuM kAma karatAM karatAM mANasa jIvanathI paNa kaMTALI jAya che ? jyAre paramArthanuM kAma mANasane eka prakArano saMtoSabharyo AnaMda Ape che. dhanapatio thAkI jAya che. emanI pAse sonuM, cAMdI, hIrA khUba hoya chatAM paNa thAkI jAya che kAraNa ke emanI pravRttinA mULamAM mAtra svArtha ja che. AnaMda to paramArthathI ja maLe. paramArthamAM eka prakArano ArAma - recreation che. prArthanA e paramArtha che. e karIe chIe tyAre dehabhAva bhUlIne divyatA prati prayANa karIe chIe. pUrNatA prApta karavI e ja jIvananuM parama dhyeya che. eka nAnA zA bIjamAM kevuM moTuM vRkSa saMtAyeluM che ! kerI khAtAM khAtAM 226 * jIvana-mAMgalya WWW.jainelibrary.org

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A vicAra karyo che kadI ? A kerInI goTalInA hRdayamAM poDheluM vRkSa hajAro kerIo ApI zake ema che e vicAryuM che kadI ? e rIte A dehamAM vasatA AtmAmAM asaMkhya zaktiothI paripUrNa paramAtmA che. ApaNo svArtha, ApaNA kaSAyo, ApaNA vikAro A che. prArthanA A divyatAne pragaTa kare che. prArthanAnI pAchaLa gItAmAM kahyuM che : ddaret AtmanAtmAnaM | AtmAe ja potAno uddhAra karavAno che. tuM tAro nAza na kara. tuM ja tAro mitra che ane tuM ja tAro zatru che. mitra ! tAro uddhAra karavA bhagavAna nahi Ave. loko pratIkSA karatA beThA che e bhrama che. bhagavAna AvavAnA hota to seMkaDo varSa pahelAM AvyA hota ! He is not a Creator, but, Indicator. bhagavAna banAvavA nahi paNa batalAvavA AvyA che. zuM bhagavAna ahIM AvI zakatA hota to A badhAM yuddha ka2vA deta kharA ? kUtarAnI jema satata laDatA mANasone e aTakAvata nahi ? zuM ApaNAM duHkhone dUra beThA beThA joyA kare evA e niSThura che ? paramAtmAne ApaNe samajI zakatA nathI. ApaNe ApaNI kalpanA pramANe ja temane AkAra ApIe chIe. bhUlo ApaNe karIe ane eno doSa bhagavAna upara nAkhIe ! AjathI ATha varSa pahelAM sAbaramatI jelamAM kedIo AgaLa pravacana ApavAno mAre prasaMga Avyo hato. meM kahyuM hatuM ke tamane jelamAM nAkhanAra polIsa suparinTenDanTa ke sarakAra nathI. tamane jelamAM lAvanAra tamArA vicAro ane durAcAro che. divyatAne AvRta kare A ja bhAvanA che. tame rastAmAM jatA ho ane eka sarasa vastu juo; manamAM pralobhana thAya. thAya ke A vastu laI lauM, paNa jo ApaNo AtmA ApaNo mitra hoya to kaheze : "A eka pralobhana che, A mAruM nathI, te mArAthI na levAya." Ama vivekavaMta AtmA pote ja potAne kAbUmAM rAkhe. paNa vivekavAna na hoya ane pralobhanathI prerAI jAya to polIsa dvArA pakaDAya. emAM polIsa gunegAra nathI, tame ja tamArA zatru banI tamArI jAtane polIsanA hAthamAM soMpI dIdhI che. tame tamane ja pakaDI na zako to tamane polIsa pakaDe. jo tame tamArA vicArane pakaDo to tamane polIsa kema pakaDI zake ? jUThAne polIsa DarAvI zake, pakaDI zake, sAcAne nahi. eTale jelamAM mokalanAra vyaktinI vRttio ja che. pUrNanA pagathAre * 227

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ApaNI vRtti ApaNI duzmana bane to AkhuM vizva duzmana bane; ane jo ApaNI vRtti ApaNo mitra bane to pachI saMsAramAM ApaNane nukasAna karanAra koI nathI. satyanA paMtha upara cAlanAra sadA svataMtra che. duHkha denArA pArakA nathI, ApaNe ja chIe. Aje ApaNA dezamAM paNa pArakA loko karatAM ApaNA loko vadhAre nukasAna karI rahyA che ne ? AjanI paristhiti vikaTa che. dezamAM asthiratA che. sarakAra ja nahi paNa mAnava asthira che. manuSyanI vikalatAnuM kAraNa mananI asthiratA che. vikalatAmAM ane asthiratAmAM ja jIvana vitAvyuM kema cAle ? ApaNuM dhyeya to pUrNatAne prApta karavAnuM che. jIvana vikalatAmAM pUruM thAya to kAma adhUruM rahI jaze. A pUrNatAnuM kAma manuSya nahi kare to koNa karaze ? ahiMsaka vastuono vyApAra e attarano vyApAra che. attara veco ke na veco to paNa sugaMdha jema maLe, tema satya, sadAcAra ane nItino vyApAra kare tene Arthika lAbha sAthe pAramArthika lAbha maLe che. ane tame dhAro to A pAramArthika lAbha pravRtti karatAM karatAM tame ahIM ja meLavI zako cho. badhAM loko pavitratAnI bhAvanAthI praveza kare to A sthAna ane pravRtti banne pavitra banI jAya. pravRtti karatAM karatAM ahaMkAranuM visarjana karavAnuM che e satata lakSyamAM rahevuM joIe nahi to patana thAya. mane eka rUpaka yAda Ave che. eka zilpI hato. ene garva hato ke enA jevAM pUtaLAM koI ja na karI zake. pUtaLuM evuM sarasa banAve ke mANasa ane pUtaLuM pAse pAse rAkhyAM hoya to jonAra bhUlI jAya ke AmAM mANasa koNa ane pUtaLuM koNa ? evAmAM zilpInuM mRtyu najIka AvyuM. zilpIne thayuM ke mRtyune mArI kalA batAvavI joIe. eNe bAra pUtaLAM banAvyAM. bAre potAnA jevA. AkRti, raMga, AMkhanI pAMpaNa ane nAka badhuM ja nakhazikha enA jevuM ja. pachI e bAra pUtaLAMnI vacce pote sUI gayo. tyAM mRtyuno dUta Avyo. ene thayuM ke A te2 vyaktiomAMthI kone uThADuM ? jene sparza karIza te marI jaze, khoTAne pakaDIza to yamarAjA gusse thaze. dUta pAcho gayo. yamarAjane kahyuM ke kayA zilpIne lAvuM ? tyAM eka nahi paNa ekasarakhA tera zilpI che. pachI mRtyudeva AvyA. joyuM to vAta sAcI hatI, oLakhI ja na zakAya. zilpIe prANAyAmathI zarIrane pUtaLA jevuM sthira banAvyuM hatuM, eTale kaMI khabara ja na paDe. mRtyudeva manuSyanI nirbaLatA jANatA hatA. manuSyano ahaMkAra e ja 228 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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enI nirbaLatA che. mRtyudeve mANasanI A nirbaLatAnuM zaraNa lIdhuM. eNe kahyuM : "sarasa ! khUba sarasa ryuM che ! mAnavajAtanA itihAsamAM Avo zilpI Aja sudhI koI pAkyo nathI. zuM adbhuta kAma che ! paNa nAnI zI bhUla rahI gaI che !'' A sAMbhaLatAM tarata zilpI Ubho ja thaI gayo. bolyo : "mArA zilpamAM bhUla ? kyAM bhUla che ?" mRtyudeve tene sparzatAM kahyuM : "A ja bhUla che. A tAro ahaMkAra e ja tArI nirbaLatA bhUla. ane e ja tAruM mRtyu ! ahaMkAra na karyo hota to mRtyu paNa tane sparzI na zakata. mArAmAM bhUla koNa kADhI zake ? A ahaM mANasane pADI de che." A saMsthA che. saMsthA eTale aneka vyaktionuM zubha hetu mATenuM eka sthAne milana. emAM kadIka manaduHkha paNa thAya. kAryakara khoTo nathI, kAryakaranI bhAvanA khoTI nathI paNa kArya karatAM A ahaM AvI jAya. 'huM' e bahu vAMko che. eno AkAra ja vakra che. sevA ane ciMtananA amRtamAM A ahaMnuM viSabindu na paDI jAya te mATe satata jAgrata rahevAnuM che. AjathI trIsa varSa pahelAM mAre ahIMthI nIkaLavAnuM thayuM hatuM tyAre A jagyA videzI mAlathI bharelI hatI. Aje e ja jagyA dezI mAlathI ane bhAratIya bhAvathI bharelI che. A jotAM ApaNane sahaja vicAra Ave che ke sevAnI bhAvanA sthaLanuM kevuM rUpAntara karI nAkhe che ? jema A sthaLanuM thayuM tema A dehamAM vasatA AtmAnuM pUrNa rUpAntara pUrNa paramAtmAmAM thaI jAya evI zubhecchA. pUrNanA pagathAre 229

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saMsAramAM aneka darzana che. dareka A darzana ema ja mAne che ke mAnavIne huM ja sukhI karI zakuM ema chuM. pahelAM naMbaramAM arthadarzana-arthazAstra Ave che. ane te ema kahe che ke jenI pAse paiso hoya, e ja A duniyAmAM sukhI. paisAthI saMsAranI koI paNa managamatI vastu tame meLavI zako. sattA paNa zrImaMtAIthI kharIdI zakAya. eTale sukhanuM sAdhana artha che. bIjA naMbaramAM cikitsAdarzana agara vaidaka zAstra Ave che, je kahe che ke taMdurastImAM ja sukha che. bImArane vaLI sukha zuM ? khAdheluM ja jyAM pacatuM na hoya tyAM sukha zuM ? duniyAmAM jo taMdurastI hoya to badhuM ja sAruM che. eTale vaidakazAstra paNa A rIte darzana banI jAya che. e paNa kahe che ke tamArI takalIphone huM ja dUra karuM chuM. 24. jIvananuM darzana tyAra bAda, Aja jene rAjanIti kahevAmAM Ave che e rAjazAstra paNa ema 230 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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kahe che ke lokone sattAno barobara upayoga karatAM nathI AvaDato eTale duniyAmAM arthanI ane bIjI badhIya upAdhio UbhI thaI che. paNa jo barAbara zAsana karatAM AvaDe, barAbara rAjya calAvatAM AvaDe ane lokone ApavAnI vastuonI barAbara vaheMcaNI karatAM AvaDe to badhAM ja duHkho dUra thaI jAya ane zAMti prasarI jAya. eTale rAjyanIti ApaNane ema batAvavA prayatna kare che ke jagatamAM jo koI darzana banI zake ema hoya to bIjuM koI nahi, paNa huM ja banI zakuM ema chuM. tevI ja rIte kAmazAstra ema kahe che ke duniyAmAM jeTalA vadhAre bhoga bhogavI zakAya teTalo mANasa sukhI ! artha, zarIra, ane rAjya A badhAM paNa aMte to bhoganAM suMdara prasAdhano pUrAM pADavAM mATe mAtra sAdhana ja che ne ? sukha to upabhogamAM che. eTale kAma paNa A rIte eka darzana banI beThuM che. artha, vaidaka, rAjya ane kAma A badhA saMpradAyo potAnI jAtane darzana banAvavA mATe taiyAra banyA che. eTale jJAnIo ApaNane batAve che ke saMsAramAM A badhAMya darzano mAnavajAtanAM duHkhono ukela karavA mATe nIkaLI to paDyA che paNa e badhAMya evAM paMgu che ke eka vastu maLatAMnI sAthe bIjI vastunI tarata UNapa thAya che. te vastune koNa pUrI zake enI emane samajaNa ja nathI. mANasane paiso maLI jAya ane enAthI ja jo jIvana sukha ane zAMtimaya thaI jatuM hoya, to duniyAmAM moTA moTA udyogapatio maMdiramAM jaI jaIne lAMbA thaI namaskAra kare che ane navAM navAM maMdiro bAMdhe che, e maMdiro bAMdhata ja nahi, kAraNa ke e loko to Aje karoDapatio che ja. dhanathI pUrNa samRddha che. ene maMdira baMdhAvavAnI zI jarUra che ? e maMdira baMdhAve che, prArthanA kare che e ja batAvI Ape che ke enA jIvanamAM hajI koIka evI vastunI UNapa che je khaTake che, khUTe che. eTale arthazAstra paNa pUrNa sukhazAMti ApavA samartha nathI. -- evI ja rIte rAjya calAvanAra mANaso, emane pAMca-pAMca varSa sudhI sattAno saMpUrNa dora ApavAmAM Ave ane ema kahevAmAM Ave ke kAyadAothI ke hukamathI tame ja kAMI karavA mAgo te karIne paNa sukha lAvo. paNa e badhuMya karavAM chatAM prajAnI upa2 niSphaLatAno Aropa mUkIne jyAre e nIkaLI jAya che tyAre ApaNane ema lAge che ke kharekhara rAjyazAstra e paNa darzana banavA mATe yogya ane ucita nathI. bhogazAstra, jemAM kahevAmAM Ave che ke indriyo vaDe tRpti karo, bhoga pUrNanA pagathAre * 231 -

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bhogavo, paNa enIya maryAdA che. tamane cA bahu bhAvatI hoya eTale tamane eka kapa cA maLe to tamane jarA majhA Ave. pachI be kapa cA Ave, pachI pAMca kapa Ave. pachI daza kapa Ave, koI kahe ke tame pIe ja jAo. pachI tame hAtha joDo. tyAM pelo kahe ke jeTalA kapa pIo eTalI tamane huM gInI Apato jAuM chuM. tamArAmAM bahu jora hoya to tame paMdara kapa ane vIsa kapa pI jAo. pachI eka maryAdA AvIne UbhI rahe che. pachI kahe ke have huM be gInI ApuM. kadAca gInInA mAryA eka kapa vadhAre pI jAo. pachI pelo kahe ke have eka kapanI traNa gInI ApuM, tame keTalIka pIvAnA ? jo e mANasa tyAM maryAdA na mUke to UlaTI thAya, mAMdo paDe, bImAra thAya ane smazAna bhego thaI jAya, gInIo emanI ema rahI jAya ! to, duniyAnI A badhI vastuo ApaNane batAve che ke saMsAranAM A vaidakazAstra kaho, arthazAstra kaho ke pachI rAjazAstra kaho e game evAM zaktizALI hoya, to paNa e maryAdita sukha ApI zake, pUrNa ane zAzvata sukha nahi ja. amaryAdita sukha ApanAra, zAzvata sukha ApanAra, je sukha AvyA pachI duHkhano saMbhava ja na hoya evuM sukha ApanAra jagatamAM koI hoya to e Atmadarzana che. Atmadarzana koI dAvo nathI karatuM ane e koI dahADo bajAramAM AvIne ema paNa nathI kahetuM ke mArA vinA tamane nahi cAle. paNa tame jo zodha karazo to tamane aMte khabara paDaze ke enA vinA ApaNane cAle ema nathI. e bolatuM nathI; ane eTalA ja mATe dharmanI bhASA e maunanI bhASA che; e maunamAM ja badhuM kahe che ane maunamAM ja eno anubhava thAya che. eTalA mATe dharmanI badhI ja kriyAo zAMtipradhAna, yogapradhAna, saMyamapradhAna, samAdhipradhAna ane maunapradhAna che. dharmakriyAomAM A pAMca vastuo jeTalI AvatI jAya eTaluM tamArAmAM UMDANa Ave ane Atmadarzanano tamane anubhava thato jAya. Atmadarzana-AtmazAstra e zAMtipradhAna che. ApaNe jevA e mArge cAlIe tyAM aMdarathI saMbhaLAya : TharI jAo. tame Tharazo tyAre ja tamAruM je che te tamane dekhAze. Tha2vAnuM jo koI kahetuM hoya to eka ja darzana kahe che, ane te Atmadarzana kahe che. kAraNa ke jyAM sudhI Thare nahi tyAM sudhI potAnI vastu potAne maLe nahi. jyAM sudhI caMcaLatA che, jyAM sudhI asthiratA che, tyAM sudhI koI paNa vastu dekhAya nahi. Thare te ja vare. - 232 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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tame nadImAM nahAvA gayA ho ane nahAtAM nahAtAM tamArI hIrAnI vIMTI hAthamAMthI sarakIne pANImAM paDI jAya. pANIno pravAha jo vaheto hoya, to e pravAhamAM taLiye paDelI vastu tamane dekhAya nahi. paNa e pANI jo zAMta hoya, taraMga vagaranuM hoya, sthira hoya, to taLiye paDelI vastu tarata dekhAI jAya. jJAnIoe ApaNane kahyuM ke aMdara sukha che. paNa A jIva samajato nathI, Tharato nathI, ane bahAra bhamyA ja kare che ane bhamavAmAM to AkhuM jIvana ja pUruM thaI jAya che. evo koI mANasa tame ahIM batAvazo ke je mANasa ghaNI oLakhANavALo hoya, ghaNI pichANavALo hoya, jene ghaNA dosto hoya, ghaNA mANasonI nAmAvali jenI pAse hoya ane AkhI jiMdagI sudhI lokone rAjI rAjI karato gayo hoya ane chelle e potAnA jIvananuM kAma pUruM karIne gayo hoya ? jJAnIoe kahyuM ke bhautika vastuomAM koInAya jIvananuM kAma pUruM thavAnuM ja nathI. temane ema lAgaze ke A varSe huM nivRtta thAuM chuM. je vakhate nivRtta thavAno tame vicAra karo e ja vakhate pravRttino AraMbha thAya che. paNa loko ajJAna che ane A dIvAlanI pAchaLa zuM che eno emane khyAla nathI. ahIM e lokoe amuka jAtanI kalpanAo bAMdhI che ke amane amuka rUpiyA maLI jAya to sukha thAya, paraNI jAu to sukha thAya, eka chokaro hoya to sukha thaI jAya, agara to amuka kArya A rIte thAya to sukha thAya. paNa pUrNa sukha ema maLavAnuM nathI. A atRpti mANasane doratI doratI jhAMjhavAnAM jaLanI jema kheMcatI jAya che. tame paNa Ama vicAra karatAM karatAM ATalAM varSa kADhyAM che ne ? - ke hamaNAM sukha Ave che. A varSa jaze eTale AvatuM varSa, AvatuM varSa jaze eTale... jagatamAMthI meM traNa vyAkhyA bAMdhI che. samajIne sarakavuM enuM nAma saMsAra; jANIne jIvavuM enuM nAma jIvana ane mUkIne mukta thaI javuM enuM nAma mokSa. A saMsAramAM DAhyo mANasa koNa ? je saMsAramAM rahe kharo, paNa dhIme dhIme sarakato jAya. ko'ka vAra cAra-pAMca guMDAo tamane gherI vaLyA hoya ane tame ekadama bhAgavA jAo to tamane charo mArI de evI paristhiti hoya tyAre dhIme dhIme pUrNanA pagathAre * 233

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vAto karatAM karatAM enI pakaDamAMthI tame sarakavAno kevo kuzaLatAbharyo upAya zodho cho ? ema A saMsAramAM paNa e ja kAma karavAnuM che. ApaNe saMsAranA eka sakaMjAmAM AvI gayA chIe. tame ekadama bhAgavA jAo to badhAya loko tamArAM kapaDAM phADI nAkhe tyAM sudhI tamane vaLagaze : "nahi, tame nahi jAo. tamAruM amAre kAma che." kAraNa ke raLIvaLIne badhAyanAM peTa bharato hoya ane ciMtA karato hoya evo vagara pagArano nokara kyAMthI maLe ? huM ghaNA vRddha mANasone jouM chuM. chellI ghaDI Ave tyAM sudhI e dukAne bese, chokarAonAM chokarAMne ramADatA ramADatAM rAjI thAya ane manamAM mAne : "A chokarAMonuM mArA vagara koNa karaze ?" paNa e gamArane khabara nathI ke tuM jo ciMtAmAM UpaDIza to tAruM koNa karaze? e gharanAM loko paNa jANe che ke AjanA jamAnAmAM baso rUpiyA ApatAM paNa prAmANika nokara maLato nathI; ane A mANasa vagara pagAre khAlI be TaMka roTI khAIne Akho dahADo ApaNe mATe mahenata karato hoya to emAM zuM khoTuM che ! eTale e loka tamane rAjI rAkhavA jarUra prayatna kare. paNa jIve pote to samajavuM joIe ke "bhAI, have mAruM zuM ? huM A badhuM sAcavyA karIza, lokone maLyA karIza, vevANo ane vevAIone manAvyA karIza, sagAMvahAlAMone bolAvyA karIza, gAmamAM jeTalAM lagana hoya temAM hAjarI ApyA karIza, jeTalI mokANa hoya emAM royA karIza, to jIvana Ama ne Ama pUruM thaI jaze." hA, ema karanAra mANasane duniyA bahu DAhyo mANasa gaNaze, vyavahArakuzaLa mAnaze ane kaheze ke Ane ghaNI oLakhANa hatI. paNa AtmAnI oLakha vinA A badhI ja oLakha nakAmI che. AtmAnI oLakha karavA mATe A manuSyajanma ja zreSTha che, devono janma paNa nahi. devo manuSya karatAM ghaNAM samRddha che : hIrAthI, pannAthI e zobhatA hoya che chatAMya devono bhava mAnavanA bhava karatAM UMco nathI. AcAryazrI svayaMbhavasUrIzvare dazavaikAlikanA prAraMbhamAM je zloka banAvyo e zloka nathI, paNa jIvanamaMtra che. "dhaSNa maMnivaDyuM. 3hiM rasaMgamo tavo; devA vi taM namasaMti, jassa dhamme sayA maNo / " ahiMsA, saMyama ane tapa - A traNa tattvayukta evo dharma e sarva 234 - jIvana-mAMgalyA

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maMgalomAM utkRSTa maMgaLa che. A dharma jenA haiyAmAM vase che ene devo paNa namana kare che. emaNe kahyuM ke badhA ja maMgaLamAM paNa jo uttama maMgaLa koI hoya to te dharma che. A ahiMsA, A saMyama ane A tapa jenA hRdayamAM UtarI jAya che ene mANaso to name, paNa devatAoya name che. karoDapatio AvIne munine name emAM munie kAMI phulAI javAnI jarUra nathI. jo phulAya to e muni gamAra che. eNe to vicAravAnuM che. je tyAgane e name che te enI pAse che ? loko mANasane nathI namatA; eNe je tyAga karyo che e tyAgane namana kare che. e tyAga jenI pAse che ene badhAya namana kare che. ane devatAo namana kare che e kayA bhAvathI name che ? A mANasa ghaNI oLakhANavALo che, moTo sattAdhIza che, Ane ghaNI DigrIo lAgelI che agara to ene ghaNI padavIo maLelI che eTale nahi. e je namana kare che enI pAchaLa sadbhAva che; ahiMsA, saMyama, tapa che. tene e name che. je mANasa ahiMsaka che enI pravRtti kevI hoya ? enA jIvanathI, enI karaNIthI koIneya duHkha na thAya, kyAMya e hiMsAnuM nimitta na bane. tevI ja rIte e manamAMya ema vicAre ke mAre koInuM kharAba zA mATe karavuM joIe ? ane vANIne vAparatAM vAparatAM paNa e aneka vAra vicAra kare ke mArI vANI kaDavI to nathI ne ? loko kArelAMnuM zAka banAvatAM hoya to paNa emAM thoDo goLa nAkhe che - kaDavAM na lAge eTalA mATe. to vicAra karo : mANasanI vANImAM kaTutA hoya to sAMbhaLanArane keTaluM duHkha thAya ! eTale ja sAco ahiMsaka manasA vasA zarmA nirdoSa hoya che. bIjA naMbaramAM saMyama. ApaNI pAMcepAMca aniyaMtrita indriyo resanA ghoDAo jevI che. e niyaMtrita hoya to ja kAbUmAM rahI zake che. indriyono suMdaramAM suMdara upayoga karavo joIe. mANasa nakkI kare ke mAre mArI indriyono sAro upayoga karavo che to e keTaluM sAruM karI zake ! AMkhathI naisargika saundaryanI sRSTi manamAM bharI zake, zreSTha ane uttama kakSAnuM vAMcana karI zake, ane tattvajJAnanA umadA bhAvo manamAM vasAvI zake. kAnathI koInIya gaMdI vAta sAMbhaLIe to enA pratye durbhAva keLavAya. koInuMya kharAba sAMbhaLIe eTale e vyakti pratye ApaNA manamAM abhAva pUrNanA pagathAre ka 235

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utpanna thaI jAya che, enA pratye je sadbhAva hoya te nIkaLI jAya che. mATe koInIya malina vAta sAMbhaLavI nahi. enA karatAM koI pravacana sAMbhaLyAM hoya, jIvane preraNA ApatI koI kathA sAMbhaLI hoya, koI mahApuruSanA jIvanamAM banI gayelA sAcA banAvo sAMbhaLyA hoya to mane kevuM suvikasita banI jAya ! kharAba vAto ghaNI vAra ApaNA divaso ane rAtone bagADI nAkhe che, jyAre sUvA jatAM pahelAM sAMbhaLelI ke vicArelI eka sArI vAta rAtane suMdara bhAvothI bharI de che. niyamita prArthanA karatA hoIe, prabhunuM smaraNa karI, koI mahApuruSanuM jIvanacaritra vAMcI, e suMdara smaraNomAM ane smaraNomAM UMghI jatA hoIe to kadAca svapna Ave to emAM paNa bhagavAnanI mUrtio, tIrtha-sthaLo, saMtono samAgama, prakRtinuM paryaTana evuM badhuM ja AvavAnuM. keTalAkane suMdara svapna Ave tyAre navAI lAge ke Aje bhagavAna mane svapnAmAM dekhAyA ! eka ja dahADo svapnAmAM bhagavAna dekhAya evuM kema bane ? roja zayatAno dekhAya ane eka dahADo bhagavAna dekhAya eTale Azcarya na thAya to zuM thAya ? paNa roja bhagavAna dekhAya evuM thavA mATe sUtAM pahelAM pUrI zAMti joIe. kAnamAM sArA zabdo guMjatA hoya, AMkhamAM suMdara chabIonuM darzana hoya ane prANomAM prabhutAno parAga hoya tenuM nAma saMyamI jIvana. ahiMsA, saMyama pachI Ave che tapa. mANasane koI paNa kSetramAM AgaLa vadhavuM hoya to tapazcaryA anivArya che. tapazcaryA eTale mAtra ekAsaNuM ke upavAsa ja nahi; be kalAka palAMThI vALIne besavuM e paNa tapa che. "A kAma huM karIne ja UThIza." evA saMkalpathI tame je karyuM enuM nAma atyaMtara tapa kahevAya. tamArI kAyAno utsarga karI saMkalpabaLathI eTalI vAra tame eka Asana para beThA e AMtarika tapa che. dekhanArane khyAla na Ave ke A tapa kare che paNa karanAra sAdhanAmAM che eTale atyaMtara tapa cAlu che. jIvanamAM jeTalAM zreSTha kAma karavAnAM che emAM tapazcaryAnI jarUra che. koI paNa moTuM kAma tapazcaryA vinA siddha thatuM nathI. sahelAM kAmo, khAvApIvAnAM kAmo vagara tapazcaryAe thaI javAnAM. paNa duniyAnAM moTAM kAmo tapazcaryA vinA thayAM jANyAM nathI. ahiMsA, saMyama ane tapa A traNa vAta jenA hRdayamAM hoya tene to devatAo paNa namana kare che. duniyAmAM devo bahu uttama ane moTA kahevAya che. paNa devone mana manuSya vadhAre uttama che, enuM kAraNa e ke Atmadarzana jo koI karI zake, == 236 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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AtmAno vikAsa jo koI karI zake ane A deha dvArA mokSa jo koI meLavI zake to te eka mAtra manuSya ja che. A zarIra e sAmAnya vastu nathI. A zarIrathI mokSa maLe che. A duniyAmAM A zarIra jevuM uttama sAdhana eka paNa nathI. zarIrane tame jarUra jALavajo paNa te eka mAtra sAdhanA mATe. "paheluM sukha te jAte naryA" ema vRddhoe kahyuM che te zA mATe ? kAraNa ke e mokSanuM sAdhana che; mokSanuM sAdhana banavA mATe samartha che. e tyAre bane ke jyAre tamArA manamAM tamAruM dhyeya nizcita hoya. mUkIne mukta thavuM eTale mokSa. e mokSa meLavavA mATe mAre A saMsAramAMthI samajIne sarakatA rahevuM joIe. jIva ajJAnathI AvRta che eTale e samajIne sarakato nathI. chellI ghaDI sudhI vastuomAM enI mamatA rahe che. mane eka prasaMga yAda Ave che. jabalapura pAse dhuMvAdhAra karIne eka pANIno dhodha che. e dhodhamAM pANI khUba uparathI paDe che ane nIce paththaranI moTI moTI je zilAo che enA upara pachaDAya che. tyAre pANInI eTalI badhI jhINI kaNa thAya ke jANe dhumADo hoya evuM dUrathI lAge. e dazya bahu ja manohara che. e jovA mATe loko dUradUrathI Ave che. eka vAra yuropathI traNa mitro moTAM dUrabIna sAthe A jovA AvyA hatA. eka TekarI upara caDhIne dUrathI AvatA A pANInA pravAhane e joI rahyA hatA. e pANIno pravAha Ave ane Avato Avato pelI kinAra upara Ave, tyAMthI pachaDAya ane cUrecUrA thaI vikharAya. emaNe dUrabInathI joyuM to mANasanuM eka maDaduM pANInA pravAha upara taratuM taratuM AvI rahyuM hatuM. e maDaduM pANI para hovAthI phUlI gayuM hatuM, ane enA upara eka samaDI tAkI rahI hatI. samaDIne pralobhana thayuM. lAva, huM AmAMthI thoDuM khAI lauM. eTale anaMta AkAzamAM svataMtra rIte UDatI samaDI e maDadAne khAvA mATe ekadama nIce UtarI ane e maDadA upara besI gaI. maDaduM pANInA pravAha upara che. pravAha jorathI vahI rahyo che. to maDadu paNa sthira nathI. e paNa pravAhanI sAthe taNAI rahyuM che. paNa maDadA para beThelI samaDIne badhuM sthira lAge che, kAraNa ke enuM citta khAvAmAM magna che. eNe to maDadAmAM cAMca mArI ane enuM mAMsa khAvA maMDI paDI. maDadAnI gati cAla che tyAM samaDIne jarA bhAna AvyuM agara to ema kaho ke thoDo vicAra Avyo; re, A kinAra to naI : " che. jo huM nahi UDuM to A maDadA bhegI pANImAM huM paNa sapaDAI marI javAnI. eNe potAnI pAMkho taiyAra pUrNanA pagathAre ja 237

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karI ane AsapAsa joyuM. haju kinAra dUra che. hamaNAM huM UDI jAuM chuM. paNa UDavAnI bhAvanA karatAM khAvAnI lAlasA bahu jabarI hatI. svataMtratAnA AnaMda karatAM vastuonI mamatA bahu tIvra hoya che. te samaDI samaje ke UDyA vinA chUTako nathI. jo nahi UDuM to maDadAnI bhegI huM hamaNAM ja pachaDAI javAnI. jyAM pANInI kaNa thaI jAya ane dhumADAnI jema thaIne UDe tyAM A samaDInuM zuM gajuM ke jIvI zake ? paNa peluM AkarSaNa ? kevuM AkarSaNa ? peluM mAMsa khAvAnuM AkarSaNa, mamatAnuM AkarSaNa, e eTaluM tIvra hatuM, evuM AsaktivALuM hatuM ke ene satya spaSTa dekhAtuM nahotuM. jarAka khAI lauM ema vicArI pharIthI emAM moTuM nAkhyuM tyAM kinAre AvI gaI ane pANIno pravAha, peluM maDaduM ane samaDI - saunA cUrecUrA ! pelA traNa mitroe dUrabInathI A dazya joyuM. A dRzyanI chApa emanA citta para eTalI UMDI paDI ke eke to potAnI AtmakathAmAM A prasaMga lakhyo. prANIne svataMtratA karatAM mamatAnuM AkarSaNa kevuM tIvra hoya che ane te kevo bhrama khaDo kare che ! mANasa paNa evo ja che. kALarUpI pravAha upara A deharUpI maDadAmAM samaDI jevo svataMtra AtmA beTho che. kALano pravAha to vahe ja jAya che, kelenDaro badalAtAM jAya che, loko varSagAMTha Ujave che, paNa kharI rIte to dhUMvAdhAranI najIka AvatA jAya che. dhIme dhIme pote taNAtA jAya che paNa upAya nathI. mANasa bIjAone maratAM jue che paNa potAno vicAra nathI karato. A ja rIte mANaso samaDInI jema A mamatAnA maDadAmAM coMTI rahyAM che. ema na mAnazo ke loko jANatA nathI. bIjAne zikhAmaNa devA bese to ema ja kahe ke have tame chUTI jAo. paNa potAno vAro Ave che tyAre e ema kahe ke bhAI, mArI sthiti to huM samajuM, kAraNa ke mArAM chokarAMo, mAruM kuTuMba, mArA bhAIo ane meM je vaLagADa Ubho karyo che e badhuM evuM vikaTa che ke emAMthI ekadama chUTavuM muzkela che. mANasa jAgRtinA prabhAtamAM pote potAnI rIte vicAra nahi kare to enI sthiti e thavAnI je samaDInI chellI ghaDIe thaI. kALanA pravAhamAM mANasa taNAI javAno. kALano pravAha vATa joIne Ubho raheto nathI. ene e vicAra nathI Avato ke A mANasane thoDuM kAma bAkI rahI gayuM che to pUruM kare tyAM sudhI rokAI jAuM. kALa to jhaDapathI vahI ja rahyo che. huM ko'ka vAra saMsmaraNonI yAtrAmAM jUnAM saMbhAraNAMne yAda karuM chuM tyAre mane thAya che ke e divasomAM je janmyA hatA e Aje yuvAna thaI gayA che, 238 jIvana-mAMgalya

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je yuvAna hatA te vRddha thaI gayA che ane je vRddha hatA e svarge sidhAvI gayA che. kALa mANasane kevI rIte mApI rahyo che; kALa vahI rahyo che chatAM mANasanA manamAM mamatAnuM eka kheMcANa evuM paDyuM che ke ene kAraNe e pUrNa rIte jAgato ja nathI. hA, kadIka e jAgI jAya che, kadIka kadIka e sArA vicAro paNa karI nAkhe che paNa pharIthI peluM AvaraNa AvIne enA upara evuM besI jAya che ke pAcho e rAgadveSanA kIcaDamAM khUMcI jAya che. mANasanA mana u52 mamatA evuM AvaraNa lAvIne nAkhe ke eka vAra jAgrata banela AtmA paNa pAcho bhulabhulAmaNImAM pheMkAI jAya che. evo bhulabhulAmaNImAM pheMkAya ke eka vakhata nivRtta thayelA AtmAne paNa pAchuM pravRttinuM jotaruM vaLagI jAya che ane e pravRttinA jotarAmAM kheMcAto jAya che. ane pachI to emAM evo aTavAya che ke potAne mATe eka kalAka kADhavo hoya to paNa e kADhI na zake. jJAnIo pUche che "A mAnavadeha jene devatAo namana kare che, evA mAnavadehane tuM mAtra AhAra, nidrA, bhaya ane maithunamAM pUro karI nAkhIza ? A mAnavadeha je devadurlabha che, evA A mAnavadehane mAtra tuM thoDuM dhana bheguM karavAmAM, thoDAM makAnono saMgraha karavAmAM, thoDI padavIo levAmAM ane thoDIka vAhavAha kahevaDAvavAmAM samApta karIza to jIvananA samagra du:khano nAza karanAra ane paramasukhanI prAptirUpa mokSa (karmarahita avasthA)ne kyAre meLavIza ?" Atmadarzana A mULavastunI mahattA samajAve che; rAjyazAstra, arthazAstra, vaidakazAstra ane nItizAstra bhautika vastuo tarapha dRSTi rAkhe che; jyAre AtmazAstra pAramArthika satyane lakSyamAM rAkhe che. ahIM ja A bhedarekhA dekhAya che. AtmAzAstranA parizIlanathI cittamAM zAMtino, buddhimAM vivekano ane hRdayamAM saMtoSano udaya thAya che. cittane zAMtinI jarUra che. "prazAntasya ta: sudram'' azAntane sukha kyAMthI ? e khAvA bese to khAvAmAMya ene AnaMda nahi. azAntithI khAnAranA moDhA upara je AnaMda na hoya te ghaNI vAra zAnta tapasvInA moDhA upara hoya che. enuM kAraNa e ke ene khAvAnuM nathI paNa cittamAM zAMti to che ja. cittamAM zAMti na hoya evA koI tAjamahAlanI pArTImAM jaI AvelAne pUcho ke tame zuM khAIne AvyA ? to kaheze bhUlI gayo, kAraNa ke e dhamAlamAM paDelo hato, evI paristhitimAM vastuno AsvAda e kyAMthI mANI zake ? paNa Avo azAMta, dhamAliyo AsvAdane mANI nathI zakyo eTalA mAtrathI ene pUrNanA pagathAre * 239 --

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anAsakta na kahevAya. Asakti to che, paNa avakAza nathI. sukha vastumAM nathI, tamArA cittamAM che. e cittamAM jo zAMti na hoya to duniyAnI samagra vastuo ApI devAmAM Ave to paNa sukhI banI zakato nathI. eTale thoDI vastuo bhale maLe paNa tame prArthanA e karo ke zAMti maLe. keTalAka mANasonI evI mAnyatA hoya che ke huM nahi houM to A badhAnuM zuM thaze. ane Ama mAnI dhamAla ane dhAMdhala karatA hoya che. paNa lakhI rAkhajo ke tame nahi ho to jagata vidhura nathI banI javAnuM. jagata to ema ja cAlyA karavAnuM che. koI ema mAnato hoya ke huM nahi houM to zuM thaze ! are bhAI ! tuM nahoto to paNa jagata cAlatuM hatuM ane tuM nahi hoya to paNa jagata cAlavAnuM che. moTA moTA rAjAdhirAja cAlyA jAya to paNa rAjyanA kArabhAra baMdha thatA nathI, to gharano eka mANasa cAlyo jAya to zuM thavAnuM che ? eTale koI paNa bAbatamAM bahu dhamAla karavAnI jarUra nathI. eka ja nirNaya karavAno ke mAre je kAMI pravRtti karavAnI che e bahu zAMtithI karavAnI che. koI tensionnI jarUra nathI. ane e zAMtinuM jIvana jeTalI kSaNo jIvAya, jeTalA kalAko jIvAya ane jeTalAM varSo jIvAya e ja tamAruM jIvana che; bAkI badhuM to mAtra jIvana pUruM karavAnuM. yogIrAja zrI AnaMdaghane to gAyuM : "ATha pahora kI cosaTha ghaDiyAM, do ghaDiyAM terI sAcI; prabhu ! bhaja le mero dila rAjI." rAta-divasa maLI ATha prahara che emAM jo sAcI ghaDIo hoya, zAMtinI ghaDIo hoya to te be che : jemAM prabhune bhajato bhajato huM tane rAjI kare che, aMdaravALAne rAjI kare che; deha nahi, mana nahi, magaja nahi paNa aMdaranAne rAjI karavAno che. meM evA mANasone paNa joyA che je bajAramAMthI paiso khUba kamAIne AvyA hoya chatAM rAjI na hoya. aMdara beThelo kahe ke, tuM kyAM kamAya che? teM to lUMTa karI che, bIjAne chetarI nAkhyo che. khIsAM tara hoya paNa jIva aMdara baLyA karato hoya. aMdara ema thAya ke meM A zuM karI nAkhyuM ? ene rAjI karavo e judI vAta che. eka garIba mANasa hato. bahu ja vRddha hovAthI kaMI kAma nahoto karI zakato. jarUra paDe tyAre koInI pAse mAgI leto. eka divasa savAranA e cAlyo jato hato. ene kakaDIne bhUkha lAgI. 240 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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sAmethI eka mANasa Avato hato. enuM khIruM bahu moTuM hatuM. emAM caNA bharelA hatA. ANe enI pAse mAgaNI karI. pelAe kahyuM ke mArI pAse bIjuM to kaMI nathI. mAtra khIsAmAM caNA che." eNe hasIne kahyuM, "bhAI ! bhUkhyAne bIjuM zuM joIe ?" eTale eNe mUThI bharIne caNA ApyA. e caNA laIne enI jhUMpaDImAM gayo ane khAvA beTho. joyuM to enI aMdara eka gInI AvI gaI hatI ! ApanAranA khIsAmAM gInI haze te bhUlathI caNA bhegI AvI gaI. eNe caNA khAdhA ane gInI kapaDAnA cheDAmAM bAMdhI rAkhI mUkI. ene rAtanA sUtAM sUtAM vicAra Avyo : pelA sajjane caNA ApelA, gInI jANIne to nathI ja ApI. bhUlathI gInI AvI gaI che. A gInI rAkhI lauM to mahinAo sudhI mAre caNA nahi mAgavA paDe. paNa aMdarathI AtmA kahe che ke A to eka jAtanI corI che, anyAya che. eNe tane ApyuM nathI chatAM tAre rAkhI levuM che ? bhalamanasAIno Avo durupayoga ! AkhI rAta e azAMtimAM sUto sUto vicAra karato rahyo : mana kahe ke rAkhI le, AtmA kahe ke pAchI ApI de; mane kahe ke tAro mahino sAro jaze, AtmA kahe che ke mahino tAro bagaDI jaze. mane kahe ke ATalo paiso vAraMvAra tane kyAM maLavAno che ? paNa AtmA kahe che ke AvA anyAyanA paisAthI tuM sukhI kyAM thavAno che ? Ama rAtabhara gharSaNa cAlyA ja karyuM ! Avo viveka kone jAge ? jAgrata hoya tene. jeno AtmA buddo banI gayo che agara to AvaraNa vaDe potAnI jAtane gumAvI nAkhI che tene to A prazno UThatA ja nathI. je jAgrata che, jene AvuM gharSaNa UbhuM thAya che ene ja e zuddhi dvArA pUrNatA tarapha laI jAya che. A vRddha sArI rAta cintanamAM vitAvI, prabhAte e nirNaya sAthe UThyo ane pelA sajjananI zodhamAM nIkaLI paDyo. je ThekANe e savAre pharavA Avato ane je bAMkaDA upara besato tyAM gayo. joyuM to pelA sajjana beTho hato. "lo bhAI, A tamArI gInI." pelo Azcarya pAmI gayo. "gInI ! kyAMthI lAvyA ?" kahyuM, "tame mane kAle caNA ApyA enI bhegI A gInI AvI che." putranA sagapaNa prasaMge AvelI gInI enA khIsAmAM ja rahI gayelI. eNe AzcaryathI pUchyuM : AvI garIbI che chatAM tamane gInI pAchI ApavAnuM mana kema thayuM ?" eNe kahyuM : "mArA gharamAM kajiyo thayo. eka kahe, "rAkho' bIjo kahe, ApI do'. pelA bhAIe pUchyuM : "tame to kAle kahetA hatA ke huM ekalo ja chuM ane mArI khabara kADhanAra koI nathI. ane hamaNAM kaho cho ke gharamAM pUrNanA pagathAre * 241

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kajiyo thayo, to kajiyo konI sAthe thayo ?" vRddhanA gAla upara prasannatAnI surakhI AvI. "ghara eTale zarIra. ane kajiyo mana ane AtmA vacce. e bene kajiyo thayo. mana rAkhavAnuM kahetuM hatuM, ane AtmA ApavAnuM kaheto hato. AkhI rAta kajiyo cAlyo. emAM AtmAno vijaya thayo, manane harAvI dIdhuM eTale A gInI ApavA huM Avyo pelA mANasane thayuM : AvA mANasano saMga mane kAmano che. bolyo : "have tamAre koI ThekANe javAnI jarUra nathI. be TaMka AvIne mArI sAthe jamo, kalAka be kalAka AvI jJAnagoSThi karo. tamArI vANIno, tamArA satsaMgano mane saMga karavA do. mAro atithisatkAra saphaLa thaI jaze." - evA mANaso ApaNI paDakhe joIe, jemanAmAM mana ane AtmA vacceno viveka hoya, gharSaNamAM AtmAno ja vijaya hoya, AMtarika vijayano AnaMda hoya. tamane paNa e anubhava nathI thayo ke je divase sAruM kAma karIne AtmA hasI jAya che te divasano AnaMda e jiMdagIno moTAmAM moTo AnaMda hoya che ? e AnaMda meLavavA mATe ja samagra jIvanano prayatna che. ghaNI vAra dhana-vaibhava maLI jAya chatAM mAyalo rAjI nathI thato. mAyalAne rAjI karavo e sahuthI kaThina vAta che. bIjA badhAyane samajAvI zakIe paNa e nathI samajato, kAraNa ke e sauthI vadhAre samaje che - bIjA badhA je samaje che enA karatAM e vadhAre samaje che. sarvajJa koTino hoya to te AtmA che. tamArI dalIlo, tamArA tarka, tamArI samajaNa, ene samajAvI zakatAM nathI. aMdara che ene samajAvavA mATe to pote potAnI mULa avasthAmAM Avo to ja e samajIne rAjI thAya che. eTale AnaMdaghanajIe lalakAryuM : "prabhu bhaja le mero dila rAjI !" prabhu ! huM jyAre tamArI sAthe ekAkAra banuM chuM te ja sAcI ane saphaLa ghaDIo che. to ApaNuM jIvana kelenDarathI nathI mapAtuM, AvI ghaDIothI mapAya che. ane jIvana varSothI nahi, paNa AvI sukhada ane AnaMdamaya paLothI dhanya bane che. * evI noMdhapothI hoya to kevuM sAruM ke jemAM saMtonA samAgamanI mIThI yAda hoya, pravacananI TUMkI noMdha hoya, dAna daIne tame audAryano utsava mANyo hoya enuM zubha smaraNa hoya. kaMIka DhaLatI sAMje agara UghaDatA prabhAte tame e noMdhapothI laIne beso ane vAMcatA vAMcatAM anubhavo ke mArA jIvananI 242 jIvana-mAMgalya

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kitAbamAM kevA suMdara prasaMgo pratiSThA pAmI gayA ! e suMdara prasaMgo e ja sAcuM jIvana che. enI yAda paNa abhuta AnaMda che; jemAM jIvana yAdagAra bane che. jIvanamAM yAda karavA jevuM zuM che e ApaNe samajavAnuM che. yAda karavA jevuM - A zAMti, A saMtoSa ane A tRpti - e ja jIvananAM mahattvavALAM sArthaka uttama tattvo che. AtmAnuM darzana thAya pachI arthazAstra, bhogazAstra, vaidakazAstra, nItizAstra ane rAjyazAstra - e badhAMya zAstro AtmazAstra AgaLa sAmAnya zAstra lAge che. badhAM ja darzano ane zAstromAM samrATanuM sthAna bhogavatuM hoya to A Atmadarzana che, A AtmazAstra che. A Atmadarzana karavA mATe A traNa bhUmikA che. je saMsAramAM tame cho emAMthI samajIne sarakavuM enuM nAma saMsAra. dhIre dhIre sarakatA jAo, samaya Ave eTale kaho "A nIkaLyo ! cAlo !" Ane samajIne sarakavAnuM kahevAya. bhale tame ekadama na sarakI zako paNa sarakavAnuM che e bhUlazo nahi. gADI jyAre rivarsamAM levAnI hoya tyAre DrAivara kevo sAvadhAna hoya che ! kAraNa ke ene gADI galImAMthI bahAra kADhavI che. emAM A saMsArarUpI sAMkaDI galImAM jo tame bharAI gayA ho to samajIne sarakatA javuM. bIjo vicAra te jANIne jIvavuM. jeTaluM jIvana jIvo e jANIne jIvo. jANIne jAgRtithI jIvavuM enuM nAma ja jIvana; ane trIjo vicAra te mamatAne mUkI jIvanamukta thavuM enuM nAma ja mokSa che. jIvanadarzana karavuM hoya to A traNeya vastune vicAravI paDaze. samajIne sarakanAra, jANIne jIvanAra ane mamatAne mUkI mukta bananAra ja paramasukhane pAmI zAMtimAM pratiSThita thAya che. * pUrNanA pagathAre 243

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5. samyagadarzana magadarzana ane mithyAdarzana e koI saMpradAyanAM nAma nathI ane evo e koI paMtha nathI ke amuka vyaktine huM mAnI lo eTale samyagudarzana ane amukane nahi mAno eTale mithyAdarzana. mithyAdarzana e zabda ja batAvI Ape che ke e khoTuM darzana che, e bhramavALuM darzana che, e mithyAdarzana che. mithyAtva maTI jAya ane sAcuM darzana prApta thAya enuM nAma 1 samyagudarzana. samyagudarzana eTale zuM ? A zarIramAM eka evuM prakAzamaya tattva paDyuM che je tattva - jo sAdhanA kare to - UMcAmAM UMcI bhUmikA prApta karI zake ane paramAtmA banI zake. duniyAmAM je mahAtmAo banyA, pragatizIla saMto banyA ane vizvanA kalyANamAM jemaNe kAMIka phALo Apyo evA prakAzavaMtA zaktizALI mANaso AmAMthI ja banyA. paNa banyA che kyAre ? AtmAno vikAsa karatA gayA 244 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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tyAre. e mahAtmA banI gayA to huM mArA AtmAne evo zA mATe na banAvuM? jevo AtmA bIjAmAM che evo ja AtmA mArAmAM paDelo che e jAtanuM jyArathI jJAna thAya, jyArathI evI dRSTi UghaDe, jyArathI A AtmatattvanuM jJAna anubhavamaya thAya tyArathI samyagdarzanano prAraMbha thAya che. e samyagadarzana pULa rIte duniyAmAM kevI rIte Utare che e juo. potAnuM darzana thayA pachI devanuM, gurunuM ane dharmanuM darzana thAya che. loko kahe che deva, guru ane dharma upara zraddhA rAkho. paNa pahelAM potAne potAnAmAM zraddhA utpanna thavI joIe. ema thAya to pachI deva, guru ane dharma upara zraddhA thAya. jene potAnA upara ja zraddhA nathI e deva, guru ane dharma upara zraddhA paNa kevI rIte mUkavAno ? eTale pahelAM to tAruM darzana tane thavuM joIe : "huM AtmA chuM, huM caitanya chuM, huM marI janAro nathI, huM jaDa nathI. mArA tattvanuM astitva jaDathI bhinna che. duniyAnAM sAdhanonA vikAsamAM nahi paNa duniyAnAM sAdhanonA vikAsamAM mAro vikAsa rahelo che." A uparathI tamane lAgaze ke vyaktigata bhautika sAdhanono jeTalo jeTalo vikAsa thato jAya teTalo teTalo AtmAno hrAsa thato jAya che. bhautika dRSTi ane AdhyAtmika dRSTi vacce aMtara che. bhautika dRSTi ema batAve che ke sAdhanonI vRddhi e kharekharI pragati che. jyAre AdhyAtmika dRSTi sUcave che ke bhautika sAdhano maLatAM jAya tema AtmA sAdhanomAM aTavAto jAya che. samRddhi vadhatI jAya ema eka rIte juo to AtmAno to hrAsa thato jAya che, kAraNa ke jeTalAM paranA sAdhana vadhAre thavAnAM eTalI svanI sAdhanA ochI thavAnI. koI ema kahe ke A mANasa pAse khUba paiso che, enI sattA vizALa che, DigrIo aneka che, moTI padavIo che eTale eNe AdhyAtmika sAdhanA karI hovI joIe - to enI sAthe huM saMmata nahi thAuM, bhAI ! A badhAM lakSaNo e AdhyAtmika sAdhanAnAM nahi, bhautika sAdhanAnAM che. AdhyAtmika sAdhanA zuM che ? e Ave eTale bhautikatA chUTI ja jAya. naMdIvardhane mahAvIrane kahyuM ke AvuM rAjya jevuM rAjya choDIne tame kyAM cAlyA ? ane Avo vaibhava choDIne tame jaMgalamAM zAne jAo cho ? bhagavAna mahAvIre kahyuM : "he naMdIvardhana ! je duniyAnuM rAjya sAcavavA besI jAya che e AtmA upara kadI rAjya karI zakato nathI. ane huM AtmAnuM rAjya meLavavA mATe Avyo chuM, duniyAnuM rAjya meLavavA nahi. A rAjya sAme pITha pheravIza pUrNanA pagathAre ja 24pa

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to ja peluM rAjya meLavI zakIza. A rAjya ane te rAjya, baMne sAthe rAkhI koIpaNa mANasa mokSa meLavI zakato nathI." koI ema kahetuM hoya ke mANasanI pAse paiso hoya, sattA hoya, pratiSThA hoya enAthI kalyANa thAya che, to e bhUla che. A sAdhano mAtra puNyanA eka camakArarUpe Ave che. ene tame dhyeya gaNI nAkho, sAdhyarUpe gaNI nAkho to jIvanano eka bhrama banI jAya. jIvananI A bhramaNA e ja mithyAtva che. sAcI daSTi prApta thatAM tamane navuM ja jJAna prApta thAya che. mAno ke tame dharma karatA ho ane tamArI pAsethI paiso cAlyo jAya; tame koI sattAdhIza ho ane dharma karatAM kadAca tame sattA uparathI UtarI paNa jAo; tame dharma karatA ho ane tamArI pratiSThAne loko ekadama jhUMTavI le ane tamArA upara kIcaDa UDe, tema chatAM paNa tamane ema thAya ke A badhuM je thayuM ene ane mArA AtmAne kAMI lAgatuMvaLagatuM nathI. pratiSThA, kIrti, dhana, prasiddhi, vAhavAha e badhAMya bhautika duniyAnA padArtho che. ane A badhuM javA chatAM AtmAnuM sattva talamAtra ochuM thatuM nathI. sAdhake sAdhanAkALamAM koI kAraNe kalaMkita banavuM paDe to kalaMkita paNa bane, paNa kalaMkita na bane eTalA khAtara dharmane choDI devo, AtmAnI vAta choDI devI evo vicAra sAco sAdhaka na ja kare. jhAMjhariyA muni asatyanI sAme jo namI gayA hota, duniyAnI vAhavAhamAM AvI gayA hota to zuM thAta ? paNa teo asatya sAme namyA nahi. emaNe to kahyuM ke loko joDA mAre to paNa zuM thaI gayuM ? mAro AtmA sattvanI upAsanAmAM acala che. jene AtmadRSTinuM bhAna thAya che ane eTalo ja khyAla Ave ke A deha to mAtra eka kavara che, emAM rahelo kAgaLa judo ja che. kavara ane kAgaLa e judAM che e samajavuM bahu muzkela che. moTA bhAganA mANasone to A deha eka kavara che ane aMdara eka kAgaLa che evo koI khyAla ja nathI. 15 paisAnA kavaramAM lAkha rUpiyAno ceka paDyo hoya, tethI kAMI pelA 15 paisAnA kavaranI kiMmata lAkha rUpiyA thatI nathI; kiMmata to pelA lAkha rUpiyAnA cekanI che. evI rIte jJAnIoe kahyuM ke A deha che e to eka 15 paisAnuM parabIDiyuM che. emAM je ceka paDyo che enI ja kiMmata che. cekane oLakhavAnI je dRSTi che enuM nAma samyagadarzana. jene A khyAla AvI jAya e kavarane evI rIte phADe ke kavara bhale 246 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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phATe, paNa ceka na phATe. kuzaLa vyApArI kavarane game te bAjuthI phADI nAkhe. ene lAge ke ceka phATI jAya ema che to bIjI bAjuthI phADe, vaccethI phADe, jarUra paDe to AkhuM kavara phADI nAkhe; ene ceka sAcavavo che, kavaranI sAthe koI ja saMbaMdha nathI. A dRSTi maLatAM tamane thaze ke mArA AtmAne jALavIne huM A zarIranI pAsethI kAma lauM. zarIra eka kavara tarIke jarUra kAmanuM che. A kavaranI mahattA hoya to eTalA pUratI ja ke e pelA cekane eka gAmathI bIje gAma pahoMcADavAnuM kAma kare che. A zarIranI mahattA paNa eTalI ja che. A AtmAne mokSa sudhI pahoMcADavAnuM e sAdhananuM kAma kare che. A dRSTi AvyA pachI tamAruM zarIra game tyAM hoya; maMdiramAM hoya ke masANamAM, paNa tame jAgatA cho. tame jANo cho ke A to uparanuM eka kavara che. aMdarano ceka huM koI judo ja chuM. dharmI AtmA kone kahevAya ? jenA aMtaranI A dRSTi khUlI hoya. mane ghaNA kahe ke deva upara, guru upara ane dharma upara mane khUba zraddhA che. huM emane pUchuM : "evI ja jo zraddhA hoya to musalamAnane paNa enA ImAmamAM zraddhA hoya che, ene paNa enI masjidamAM zraddhA hoya che ane ene paNa enI namAjamAM zraddhA hoya che. emAM ane samyag dRSTimAM phera zuM ?" paNa nA. tyAM AtmAnI zraddhA nathI, ahIM AtmAnI zraddhAthI zarUAta thAya che. AcArAMga sUtramAM pahelI vAta e batAvI ke, "ene yA" - tuM pahelAM AtmAne, ekane jANa. ene jANI lIdhA pachI, ene samajyA pachI, enuM jJAna thAya pachI prANImAtramAM tArA jevA AtmAnuM darzana thaze : enA nAnA zA duHkhanuM paNa tane saMvedanAmAM sparzana thaze. pachI hiMsA to saMbhave ja kema ? eTale deva, guru ane dharma zuM thayAM ? sAdhya nahi, sAdhana thayAM, nimitta thayAM, sAdhya koNa ? AtmA pote. koI mANasane nisaraNI upara caDhavuM paDe che, zA mATe ? upara AvavA mATe. eTale nisaraNI zuM thaI ? eka sAdhana thayuM. e sAdhana jo na hoya to upara na AvI zake. sAdhana mahattvanuM che - inevitable che. e anivArya - indispensable kharuM, paNa tame upara AvI gayA pachI enuM kArya pUruM thayuM. ema deva, guru ane dharma mokSa pAmavAmAM eka mahattvanuM sAdhana che, nisaraNI che. paNa pahoMcavAnuM kone ? sAdhakane potAne. eTale kahyuM ke AtmAnI oLakhathI samya darzanano prAraMbha thAya che. pUrNanA pagathAre 247

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ghaNe ThekANe ema kahevAmAM Ave ke devamAM zraddhA rAkho, gurumAM zraddhA rAkho. dharmamAM zraddhA rAkho. paNa bhAI ! zraddhA rAkhanAro koNa ? ene to oLakho. zraddhA zA mATe rAkhavI e ApaNe jANavuM paDaze. zraddhA rAkhIne meLavavAnuM zuM e ApaNe samajavuM paDaze. A vastuo jo ApaNane samajAya nahi to mULa vAta e che ke zraddhA rAkhe ane e zraddhAnA nAme jhaghaDA kare; zraddhA rAkhe ane e zraddhAnA nAme rAgadveSa vadhAre. eTale zraddhA to che paNa zraddhA zA mATe rAkhavI e vAta bhulAI gaI. nAnapaNamAM tame A vAta sAMbhaLI haze. koI eka bhoLo AdamI mAla laIne jato hato tyAM rastAmAM ene cora maLyA, ene lUMTyo. mAla badho ja lUMTAI gayo. jyAre e ghera Avyo tyAre lokoe ene pUchyuM ke tAro badho mAla corAI gayo chatAM tuM hase che kema ? to kahe ke coro kevA murkha ! mAla lUMTaTyo che paNa bharatiyuM to mArI pAse paDyuM che. e vecaze kema ? emane bhAvanI khabara paDaze kema ? A vAta sAMbhaLIne tame koIka vAra hasyA hazo. paNa kharekhara, jIva ema ja mAne che ke mArI pAse zraddhArUpI bharatiyuM che. pelo bhoLo mANasa jema bharatiyAne pakaDIne beTho che ema A mANaso zraddhAne pakaDIne beThA che. paNa ekalI zraddhA zuM kAma lAgavAnI ? zraddhA zA mATe rAkhavI e eka prazna che. jyAM sudhI eno nirNaya na karo, e mATeno tamane anubhava na thAya, enI anubhUtino sparza na thAya tyAM sudhI e zraddhA mAtra bharatiyAne vaLagI rahevA barAbara ja che. evI zraddhAne nAme mAtra ajJAna ane mithyAtva poSAI jAya che. saMpradAyo ane vyaktionI zraddhAthI mAnavI dharmathI vaMcita thAya che. tIrthathI vaMcita thAya che ane sAcA sAdhuothI vaMcita thAya che. kahe che ke mane to amuka deva, guru ane dharma para zraddhA thaI gaI. jevI rIte sunI ziyA pAse na jAya ane ziyA sunnI pAse na jAya ema A zraddhAne nAme eka saMpradAya, eka paMtha ane eka vyaktine vaLagI rahe pachI mANasanI jIvanadRSTimAM vizALa abhAva AvI jAya che. jIvananuM e satyAnAza vALI nAkhe che. sAdhanA karavAno A eka ja bhava che. emAM vikAsahIna ane vizALatAhIna jIvana kema pAlave ? saMpradAyanI tucchatAmAM jIvana pUruM thayuM to na pUrI zakAya tevuM nukasAna potAnA AtmAne ja thavAnuM che. cakravartInAM sukha bhogavavA mATe bIjo bhava maLe paNa kharo, devalokamAM to tiryaMcamAMthI paNa javAya che paNa mukti pAmavA to sAdhana-sAmagrIpUrNa A ja eka uttama manuSyajanma che. bIjuM evuM koI sthAna nathI ke jyAMthI mokSa 248 * jIvanamAMgalyA

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javAtuM hoya. anuttara vimAnamAM gayelA ke jene mokSa bahu najIka che tevAone paNa sAdhanA karavA mATe A mAnavajanmamAM AvavuM paDe che ! A mAnavajanmamAM ApaNA vikAsano vicAra karavAne badale AvI AvI ajJAna zraddhAmAM jIvana pUruM thaI jAya to ApaNe je meLavavuM che, dRSTi je rIte khIlavavI che ane Atmaavabodha karI sAdhanA dvArA A eka janmamAM ApaNe je kAma karI levAnuM che te rahI jaze. sAMje lagna hoya ane tamAre badhI ja taiyArI karavAnI hoya to tame e divasano upayoga kevI rIte karo cho ? e vakhate mitra AvIne kahe ke cAlo, hoTalamAM jaIne becAra kalAka besIe, gappAM mArIe ! to tame zuM kaho ? tame kaho ke "bhalA mANasa, sAMje to lagna che, A kAMI gappAM mAravAno samaya che ?" pelo kahe ke mArA kharace huM tamane cA pAIza, to tame tarata kahezo : "tuM samajato kema nathI ? mArI pAse samaya bahu thoDo che, tene huM kevI rIte nakAmo vAparI zakuM ? sAMje lagna che ane badhI taiyArIo karavAnI che." jJAnIo kahe che ke paraNavA beThelo mANasa paNa AvI bhUla nathI karato, chatAM kare toya ene eTaluM nukasAna na thAya jeTaluM A AtmA pramAda kare to thAya. chatAM manuSya to potAnA kImatI samayane veDaphI ja rahyo che. game tyAM be kalAka gappAM mAravA hoya to kahe, cAla. paNa e samayane ApaNe svAdhyAyathI, ciMtanathI, abhyAsathI, dhyAnathI ke yogathI na bharI daIe ! dhana ane dhAMdhalamAM paDelA manuSyane na koI sAdhanano khyAla che, na koI tattvajJAnano khyAla che, na tattvArthano abhyAsa che, na koI Atmabodha che. jIvanuM svarUpa samajavA mATe dRSTino vikAsa thavo joIe paNa tema thatuM nathI. pariNAma e Ave ke AkhuM A jIvana A moMghAmAM moMghu jIvana, emanuM ema khalAsa thaI jAya che. mANasa kAMI paNa karyA vinA cAlyo jAya che tyAre enI pAchaLa raDavAnuM thAya che. raDavAnuM konI pAchaLa che ? zA mATe raDavAnuM che ? kAMI karyuM nahi eTalA mATe. loko kahe ke bApaDo gayo. na amAruM karyuM, ne potAnuM karyuM. mANasane ema lAge che ke huM ghaNuM jIvavAno chuM. AthI jIvananI tRSNAmAM pAchaLa rahelAnuM paNa kAMI karato nathI. mahinA pahelAMnI vAta che. huM eka vyaktine tyAM gayo hato. e maraNapathArIe hatA. meM kahyuM ke have tame dharmadhyAna karo, je kAMI dAna karavuM hoya te karI lo ane thoDIka taiyArI karo. to kahe "mahArAja, zuM Apa ema pUrNanA pagathAre ja 249

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mAno cho ke huM marI javAno chuM ? eTalA mATe meM tamane bolAvyA che ?' meM kahyuM, "huM eTalA mATe nathI Avyo, huM to tamane e kahevA Avyo chuM ke AtmAnI sAdhanA karavI hoya to nivRtti anivArya che." pelA bhAI kahe, "huM to pAcho Ubho thaI javAno chuM. mahArAja ! tame AvI kevI vAta karo cho ? hajI to mane pAMsaTha thAya che. nivRtti atyAre ?" AvAne kahevuM paNa zuM ? meM kahyuM, "tame to hajI so varSa jIvo evA sazakta cho, paNa jAgrata raho eTaluM ja mAruM sUcana che. cAlo, huM tamane dharma saMbhaLAvuM." cAra divasa pachI meM sAMbhaLyuM ke e bhAI to UpaDI gayA ! mANasa ajJAnamAM na potAnuM kare che. na pAchaLa rahelAM svajanonuM kare che. paNa mANasa jo dRSTivALo hoya to svanuM paNa kare ane pa2nuM paNa kare. mane lAge che ke AjanI je deharUpI kaMpanI Company che e kyAre phaDacAmAM liquidationmAM jAya che ane tenAM sagAMrUpI zaeNraholDaro rotAM thaI jAya e khabara paDe ema nathI, jo kharekhara vicAra karavA jAo to A sagAM badhAM ja zaeNraholDaro che. koIkane nava TakA to koIkane bAra TakA maLyA ja kare ane A kAyArUpI kaMpanI raLyA kare. jevI A kAyArUpI kaMpanI gaI eTale sau rovAnAM. emAM jenA vadhAre zaeNra che e vadhAre rove che. raDavuM kone mATe che ? kaMpanI mATe nahi, kaMpanIno napho profit baMdha thaI gayo . ene mATe. 60 ke 80 varSano mANasa marato tyAre pahelAMnA jamAnAmAM lADavAnuM jamaNa thatuM, kAraNa ke kaMpanI raLatI ja nahotI. emAM zaeNraholDarone nAhavA-nicovavAnuM kAMI ja nahi. paNa yuvA kaMpanI hoya, raLatI hoya, zarIra sAruM hoya, be-pAMca hajArano pagA2 hoya ane e jo ekadama jAya to enI AsapAsanA zaeNraholDarone thAya ke have ApaNuM zuM ? eTale kharI rIte AtmA mATe koI raDatuM nathI. vRddha jAya tyAre tame zuM kaho cho ? gharaDo mANasa hato, sukhI thayo. chUTyo. pUcho : koNa ? tuM ke te ? - kharI rIte jovA jAo to maraNa e bIjuM kAMI nathI, ArAma che. mANasa bAra kalAka kAma kare ane UMgha na Ave to UMgha lAvavA goLIo levI paDe. mANasa 60 ke 70 varSa kAma kare ane jo mRtyu na Ave to thAya paNa zuM ? A paNa eka UMgha che, ciranidrA che. UMdha pachI paNa UThavAnuM che ane mRtyu pachI paNa janma levAno che. UMgha kharAba nathI, mRtyu paNa kharAba nathI. paNa e be vacceno je bheda dekhAvo joIe e bheda jJAnadRSTithI ja dekhAya. 250 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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je loko kAMI paNa karyA vinA jAya che emanI pAchaLa rUdana cAle che. AMsuo vahe che ane hAhAkAra karavAmAM Ave che. - sAdhu kALadharma pAme tyAre emanI pAchaLa zuM thAya che ? devavaMdana thAya. koI dhanavAna gRhastha mRtyu pAme ane enA svajano lakhe, "amArA pitA, amuka divase svargavAsa pAmyA !" eno javAba tame jhINavaTathI vAMcyo che ? diIkaro bhale lakhe ke amArA bApA svargavAsa pAmyA che, javAbamAM to loko lakhe che : "tamArA bApA svargavAsa pAmyA che e bahu ja khoTuM thayuM !" kAraNa ke svargavAsa pAme evuM koI kAma eNe karyuM ja nathI e teo jANatA ja hoya che. to e lAgavaga lagADIne svargamAM kevI rIte gayo ? bApaDo dIkaro lAgavaga lagADIne mokalI de ke mArA bApA svargamAM gayA che, paNa loko zenA mAne ? eTale ja cokhkha-cokhuM lakhe che, "A bahu khoTuM thayuM !" - jema kaoNrTamAMthI khoTo mANasa chUTI jAya ane tame kaho ke bahu khoTuM thayuM, nyAya jevI koI vastu rahI nathI, lAgavagathI kAma thAya che. kAgaLanA javAbamAM paNa A ja artha rahelo che. mANasa jo sAruM jIvana jIve to Avo koI prazna Avato ja nathI. samAdhimaraNa pAmavA mATe jIvananI A eka yAtrA che. e yAtrAmAM manuSya potAno vicAra karavAno che. pahelo vicAra e ke huM eka AtmA chuM ane mArA AtmAnA vikAsa mATe A dehane meM eka sAdhanarUpe svIkAryo che. huM game tyAM jAuM paNa mAro AtmA svaccha rahevo joIe. A bahAranA kavaranI khAtara mAro aMdarano ceka kyAMya guma na thaI jAya e mAre jovAnuM che. kavarane tame khUba sArI rIte sAcavajo, kAraNa ke temAM ja mAro A ceka rahevAno che. paNa jyAre evo prazna upasthita thAya ke bemAMthI kayuM phATI jAya to e vakhate tamAre nirNaya levAno ke bhale kavara phATI jAya, ceka phATavo na joIe. - ema AtmA ane deha - jyAre ekAMtamAM beThA ho ane tamane thAya ke mArA AtmAno nAza thAya che to game tevA lAbhane paNa jatA karo. AtmAne bacAvavAnI dRSTi AvI gayA pachI tame ToLAmAM ho ke ekAMtamAM ho, pralobhanamAM ho ke pravRttimAM, paNa tame aDaga rahI zakazo. je loko pralobhana sAme aDola rahI zakyA ane jemanAmAM aDola rahI zakavAnI tAkAta AvI te A dRSTithI ja. sthUlibhadra cAra mahinA vezyAne (kozAne) tyAM rahyA. rUpa, raMga ane zRMgArathI bharelI nAra sAme che. SaDUrasanAM bhojana che, uttejaka nRtyonAM citrothI pUrNanA pagathAre ja rapa1

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bharelI raMgazALA che. mANasanI vRttio pradIpta thaI jAya evA vAtAvaraNa vacce paNa sthUlibhadra zAMta ane svastha che. zAMta ane svastha rAkhanAra tattva karyuM ? A AtmAnuM jJAna. e jJAna na hoya pachI ghaDapaNa hoya ke vaDapaNa hoya; tIrtha hoya ke tarApo hoya, lapasatAne koI nahi bacAve. AtmajJAnanA abhAve vyAsa jevA vyAsa tarApo calAvatI matsyagaMdhAmAM mohI paDyA. tame ema mAno cho ke tIrthamAM jAo eTale tarI jAo ? duniyAmAM evuM koI sthaLa nathI ke jyAM ajJAnI mANasane vikAra jAgato na hoya ! ane evuM koI sthAna ke vyakti nathI ke je jAgrata AtmAne pADI zake. bacAva mATe pahelAM potAne jJAna thavuM joIe. paraNavA mATe mA-bApe dabANa karI AgrahapUrvaka pRthvIcaMdrane lagnanA maMDapamAM besADyo, kahyuM : "paraNavuM ja paDaze. paNa emaNe lagnanA maMDapane ja vairAgyano maMDapa banAvyo. enA aMtaramAM, romaromamAM vairAgya bharyo che. e strIne kaI dRSTithI jue che ? A zarIramAM eka jyota jhagI rahI che. A tananA koDiyAmAM caitanyano prakAza tagatage che. nArI narakanI khANa ema koI bolI de e uparathI emanAmAM vairAgya che e bhramamAM kadI paDazo nahi. e narakanI khANa nathI, potAnI vRttio narakanI khANa che. potAnAmAM ja adhama vRttio paDelI hoya to sAmI vyakti zuM kare ? jeo ema mAne ke strIone vadhAremAM vadhAre bhAMDIe, utArI pADIe, niMdA karIe to ApaNe nirvikArI gaNAIe, to te bhUla che. eka rIte juo to potAnI vRttionuM pradarzana che. sAcI samajaNamAM strI ke puruSa kharAba nathI paNa enA pratye je kAmavRtti jAgavI e kharAba che; ane kAmavRtti je dehamAM jAge e deha naraka che. jo kAmavRtti na hoya to A deha eka maMdira che. je dehamAM kAmavRtti jAgI e dehamAM naraka AvyuM. tyAM sAmI vyakti naraka kyAMthI thaI ? . be vRddha mitro vAto karatA hatA, "aDhI naMbaranA cazmAM lIdhA hoya to sArI rIte vAMcI zakAya." tyAM eka gAmaDiyo beTho hato ene kAne A vAta paDI. e UThyo ane sIdho gayo cazmAMvALAne tyAM. "eya ! aDhI naMbaranA cazmA lAva." e cazamAM caDhAvI AgaLathI jue pAchaLathI jue paNa vAMcI zake nahi. cazamAMvALAe kahyuM ke tamAro naMbara barAbara nahi hoya, eTale traNa naMbaranA ApyA. enAthI paNa na vaMcAyuM. kalAkanI mahenatane aMte dukAnadArane jarA zaMkA AvI eTale pUchyuM : "bhAI, tame A badhuM karo cho paNa tamane 2para jIvana-mAMgalya

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vAMcatAM to barAbara AvaDe che ne ?" gAmaDiyAe kahyuM, "mane jo vAMcatAM AvaDatuM hoya to huM cazmAM levA zuM karavA Avata ?" cazmAMthI vAMcatAM nathI AvaDatuM paNa vAMcatA AvaDatuM hoya to vAMcavAmAM e madada kare che, e vAMcatA zikhavADatA nathI. jema pelA gamAra mANase cazmAM uthalAvI uthalAvIne pelAne herAna karI mUkyo ema A jIva potAnuM ajJAna tapAsyA vinA saMsAramAM gALo deto cAlyo jAya che : A kharAba, te kharAba. paNa vastu kharAba che ke vRtti kharAba che enuM saMzodhana eNe kadI karyuM nathI. jyAM sudhI sAme tamArI dRSTi na jAya, vRttinuM vizleSaNa na karo tyAM sudhI jagatanA padArthomAM samabhAva ane taTasthatA AvavAM bahu duSkara che. meM evA ghaNA mANasone joyA che. e dharmamAM joDAya, maMdiramAM jAya tyAre ghelA ghelA thaI jAya ane maMdira bahAra jAya eTale jANe dharma sAthe kAMI lAgevaLage ja nahi. jJAna aMdaranuM hoya to ekasarakho samAbhAva TakI zake. tame je karo temAM saMvAda lAvo. tamane khyAla rahe ke pratyeka pravRttimAM mAro AtmA che, je samAdhAna cAhe che. evuM to na ja bane ke tame Akhoya divasa upAzrayamAM ke derAsaramAM raho. divasanA 22 kalAka tamAre duniyAmAM kADhavAnA che. tame duniyAmAM upayogavaMta - jAgrata na raho ane ahIM mAtra be kalAka mATe ja upayogavaMta raho to 22 kalAka zuM ? ethI to be kalAka paNa dhovAI jAya. jamA karatAM udhAra vadhI jAya. upayoganI sAvadhAnI tamane maLI jAya, to dareka prasaMge tame vRttionuM saMzodhana, avalokana, nirIkSaNa karI zako. nAnaka ekatAmAM bahu mAnatA. nAnakane lakhanaunA navAba avAranavAra jJAnagoSThi karavA maLatA. navAbane kAjIe kahyuM : "nAnaka moTI vAto kare che paNa namAja paDhavA kadI Ave che ?" eTale navAbe nAnakane pUchyuM, "tame mAre tyAM AvIne namAja paDhazo ?" nAnake kahyuM, "huM AvIza, jarUra AvIza. emAM mane zo vaMdho che ?" nAnaka to gayA. namAja paDhavAnI to zarUAta thaI. nAnaka teM ekadhyAna, ekatAna hatA. pelA bannee namAja to zarU karI. tyAM navAbane thayuM : "namAja jaladI pUrI thavI joIe. Aje arabastAnathI ghoDAvALo AvavAno che. sArAmAM sArA ghoDA levAnA che. meM vaLI nAnakane Aje kyAMthI bolAvyo !" kAjI garvamAM cakacUra hato - huM kevo ke A nAnakane jhukAvIne laI Avyo ! ene masjidamAM mAthuM ghasato karI nAkhyo ! meM ene vaTalAvI nAkhyo ! pUrNanA pagathAre ka 253

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svArthanI dhUnamAM ja namAja pUrI thaI. kAjIe kahyuM : "are ! tame to UbhA ja cho. amArI jema vaLI vaLIne namAja to patyA ja nahi." nAnake kahyuM : "namAja to kharI rIte huM paDhayo chuM, tame namAjamAM hatA ja kyAM ? eka jaNa ghoDA kharIdavA gayo hato ane bIjo nAnakane vaTalAvI nAkhyo tenI magarUrInA garvamAM cakacUra hato." bannene Azcarya thayuM. aMdaranI vAta e kema jANI gayA ! vaTalAvavAthI kaMI kalyANa thatAM nathI. potAne sudhAravAne badale bIjAne sudhAravAno jANe ijAro lIdho ! ApaNe koIne sudhAravAno ijAro lIdho nathI. pahelAM to ApaNe pote ja sudharI svano vikAsa karIe. pUrNa vikasita ane zuddha AtmAnA saMparka mAtrathI je sudhAro ane nirmaLatA AvI zake te aNavikasela ane azuddha mANasanAM bhASaNothI paNa nahi Ave. mArA abhyAsakALamAM mArA guru kahetA ke tuM pravacana Ape tyAre evo khyAla paNa na Avavo joIe ke huM lokono uddhAra karu chuM. tuM ema vicAraje ke huM svAdhyAya karavA beTho chuM, ane e svAdhyAyamAM A badhA mArA sAkSI che. svAdhyAyamAM kyAMya pramAda thAya to zrotAo sudhAre ke tame A viSaya upara bolatA hatA ane kyAM UpaDI gayA ? Ama tamArA svAdhyAyano upayoga akhaMDa rahe. zrotAjano to tamArA parIkSako che. tame ekalA copaDI vAMcatA ho ane tamAre thoDIka vAra ArAma karavo hoya to karAya, copaDI mUkI paNa devAya, paNa eka kalAka pravacana cAlatuM hoya emAM e na cAle. svAdhyAya cAlato hoya ane emAMno koI vicAra ko'kane gamI jAya, jacI jAya, aMtaramAM UtarI jAya, kyAMka lAgu paDI jAya ane zuddhi AvI jAya to te sahaja che. paNa uddhAra karyAno ahaMkAra na Avavo joIe. nadI vahe che, vahevAno eno svabhAva che. eno evo hetu nathI ke lAva, gAmanAM lokonAM kapaDAM dhotI jAuM, lokone pANI pAtI jAuM. ene to vahevuM che; sAgaramAM maLI javuM che; vacce AvatAM gAmaDAMonA lokone pravAhano lAbha maLato hoya to e emanuM sadbhAgya che. evI rIte sAdhu sAdhanAnA pravAsamAM prayANa karI rahyo hoya che. emAM loko AvIne lAbha letA hoya to bahu sArI vAta che. AmAM sAdhune garva nahi Ave. ghaNAne to amuka dezanA uddhAraka hovAno garva AvI gayo che. potAnA nAmanI AgaLa vizeSaNa tarIke eno upayoga kare ! koI koIno uddhAra karI 254 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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zakatuM nathI. A eka ajJAna che ane A ajJAna ja mANasane bhulAmaNImAM nAkhe che. je ghaDIe A dRSTi AvI ke meM Ano uddhAra karyo, ene tAryo, e ja ghaDIe patana. A garve upara laI javAne badale nIce nAkhI dIdho. mANase sahaja dazAmAM rahevAnuM che. jema dIvo baLato hoya enA prakAzamAM koI paNa vAMcI zake, tema jJAnadazAmAM ke svAdhyAyamAMye koI paNa sahabhAgI bane. ahaMkAra AvatAM asmitAnuM kendra sthULa banI jAya che. tyAM sUkSmatA saMbhave ja kema ? AMtaradhvani sUkSma che. A dhvanino sparza e ja prArthanA che. samAdhi kaho ke dhyAna kaho, A badhAM to nAma che. mULa vastu zuM che e ApaNe jovAnuM che. loko laDI kyAM rahyAM che ? nAmanA nAme laDhI rahyA che. Atma-rAmanA kAmanA nAme jhUratA hota to to kalyANa thaI gayuM hota. paNa rAmanuM kAma zuM che e khabara nathI ane nAma yuddhanuM dhAma banyuM che. A vizvamAM eka UrdhvagAmI paramatattva che. e paramatattva sAthe ekatA sAdhavI enuM nAma prArthanA, enuM nAma dhyAna, enuM nAma sAmAyika, enuM nAma zuddhi ane enuM nAma samAdhi. bhagavAna AgaLa stavanamAM zuM kahIe chIe ? "huM to krodha kaSAyanA bhariyo, tuM to upazamano dariyo.' A aMtarano khyAla Ape che ? huM krAMdhathI bharelo chuM, tuM upazamathI sabhara che, to have tArA ane mArA vacce meLa kema jAme ? A vastuno vicAra karavA mATe ApaNe tIrthe, maMdire jaIe chIe. A ekatA na Ave; paramAtmatattvanI sAthe maLavAnuM na thAya; to ApaNe je levuM joIe, je meLavavuM joIe, te ja rahI jAya. koIka vAra to paramatattvane maLo ! maLavAnI e ghaDI kevI paramazAMtinI hoya ! enu milana varSamAM eka vAra prApta thAya to paNa bhale. e bhale eka kalAka mATe hoya paNa e eka kalAka jIvananA hajAro kalAkane TapI jAya evo kalAka che. jiMdagI varSothI nathI mapAtI, AvA kalAkothI mapAya che. jiMdagI jo varSothI mapAtI hoya to to vRkSo ane janAvaro hajAro varSa AmanAM Ama jIvatAM hoya che. jIvavuM zuM che ? anubhavavuM che. saMvedana karavAnuM che. ane saMvedana konI sAthe ? paramatattvanI sAthe ekatAnuM saMvedana karavAnuM che. jeTalI ekatA mANasa pUrNanA pagathAre * 255

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karI zake eTalo e sAcA arthamAM jIve che. rAvaNa bIjI badhI bAbatamAM pUro hato paNa eka vAra thoDA samaya mATe e ekatAra banI gayo. ekarUpa banI gayo, svamAM ogaLI gayo. sAraMgIno tAra tUTe to enI ekatA tUTe. enI khAtara e nasa toDIne paNa ekatA TakAvavA mAge che. eNe zuM karyuM ? gajaba karI nAkhyuM. tIrthaMkara gotra bAMdhI nAkhyuM. keTalI vAramAM tIrthaMkara gotra bAMdhyuM ? varSe nahi, kalAkomAM. A to sodo che. lAgI jAya to thoDIka vAramAM. Akho janmAro sudharI jAya. keTalAka haMmeza bajAramAM jAya ane kAMI na meLave; ane keTalAka bajAramAM jAya. bese, ekAdo sodo evo kare ke pachI bAra mahinA emane UMcuM paNa jovuM na paDe. - dharmamAM paNa ema ja che. koI eka kahe ke huM roja upAzrayamAM bese chuM, sUI rahuM chuM. e uparathI ema mAnavA jevuM nathI ke A bahu kamANIvALo lAge che. hA, e beTho beTho bIjuM paNa karato hoya. koNa zuM kare che enI ja gaNatarI karato hoya, ema to pUjArI paNa bhagavAna pAse ja rahe che. zuM e tarI jAya che ? ? taravAnI rIta kAMI judI ja che. AdhyAtmika kamANI sahelI nathI. laya vAgavo e bahu muzkela che. zikhara upara gayelA taLeTIe AvI pachaDAyAnA hajAro dAkhalAo che. zikhara upara gayelAone paNa koIka vAra pAchuM nIce taLeTImAM javAnuM mana thaI jAya che. dharmamAM paNa evuM ja che. mANasa dharma karato hoya, e badhAne choDI beTho hoya. krodhane choDyo, mAnane choDyuM, mAyAne choDI, lobhane choDyo paNa koIka vAra ene pAchI evI vRtti jAge ane e bIjA ja prakAranA lobhamAM UtarI jAya. dhanano lobha na hoya paNa bIjo ja koI lobha jAgI jAya. A badhuM choDIne e zikhara upara gayo hato, paNa bIjA lobhe pAcho ene tyAMthI taLeTIe ANyo. nAnake pelA kAjIne e ja kahyuM, "prArthanA, namAja to meM karI, tuM to mane jhukAvavAnI dhUnamAM hato. tame baMnee namAja paDhI che ja kyAM ? tame to khAlI UMcAnIcA thatA hatA. vRtti to svacchaMda thaI bhaTakatI hatI." navAbe ane ImAme pUchyuM : "amArA mananI aMdara rahelI vAta tame kema jANI ?' dila ane dila vacce saMdezo cAlyA ja kare che. mananA paDaghA chAnA nathI rahetA. mANasa na bole to paNa ghaNI vAra jaNAI Ave che. 256 jIvana-mAMgalya

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eka DozI potAnI dIkarIne laIne jAya che. rastAmAM UMTavALAne joIne kahe che ke mArI dIkarIne tuM UMTa upara besADa, e thAkI gaI che. pelAe kahyuM ke A UMTa havA khAvA ane pharavA mATe che, bhADAM mATe nahi. AgaLa jatAM UMTavALAno vicAra badalAyo. yuvAna chokarI hatI, dAgInA paherelA hatA. AvI taka meM jatI karI ! Ubho rahyo. DozI AvI eTale UMTavALAe kahyuM, ke tArI chokarIne besADI de, eTale mane sevAno lahAvo maLe. DozIe kahyuM : "e samaya to gayo." "kema ?" "tane je kahI gayo e ja mane paNa kahI gayo." "zuM kahyuM ?" "tane je vicAra Avyo e vicAra mane paNa AvI gayo." AvuM reflection sAmAnya bhUmikA para rahelA mANasone paNa thAya. tame vyApAra karatA ho ane koIka vAra muzkelImAM Avo te pahelAM ja tamane intuition nathI AvatuM ? bahAragAma koI bImAra che ane tamane enA patrathI jANa thAya e pahelAM kAgaLa lakhavAnuM mana thaI jAya che ne ? koIka mANasa Avato hoya ne tamane sAMbhare ke phalANAbhAI kema AvyA nathI ? ane e ja samaye e bAraNe TakorA mAre. tame kaho ke tame so varSanA thavAnA, hamaNAM ja tamane yAda karyA. vAta e che ke vicAronI keTalI jabaradasta zakti che eno lokone khyAla nathI. mahApuruSone eno khyAla che, eTale ekeeka vicArane e sAro rAkhe che. dareka vicArane e dhoIne svaccha rAkhe che. amuka dezanA samAcAra lokonA reDiyo upara na AvavA devA hoya to reDiyo senTaravALA centremAMthI e tAra jarA pheravI nAkhe pachI e senTara upara tame game eTalI vAra svica pheravo paNa tyAMnA news tamArA sTezana upara nahi Ave. evI ja rIte ApaNuM A caitanya eka evuM centre che jemAM vizvanA badhA ja pravAho tame pakaDI zako. paNa aMdarano tAra khasI gayo to sAmAno pravAha nahi jhilAya. eTale jeTalA vicAro sArA banatA jAya, zuddha banatA jAya, ucca banatA jAya, eno phAyado kone che ? tamane che. pachI tame badhA vicAro wavesnI jema receive karI zako. A zakti badhAmAM paDI che. khAsa karIne e mAtAomAM dekhAze. mAtRhRdaya eTaluM taiyAra hoya che ke, potAnA saMtAnanA azubhamAM ane zubhamAM enA tAro jhaNajhaNI UThe che. eka wire hoya, e khAlI paDelo hoya tyAre emAM koI ja uMmAM na hoya. paNa e ja wirene laI tame socketnI sAthe joDI do pachI e pUrNanA pagathAre ja 257

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electrified thaI jAya che. emAM have vidyutapravAha vahe che, electricity che. A zuM thayuM ? enuM joDANa mULa sAthe thayuM. enI badhI zakti pelA wiremAM AvI gaI. pachI ene je je bulb aDe te prakAzathI jhaLahaLI UThe. AvI ja rIte A caitanya mahAcaitanyanI zaktinAM saoNpheTamAM goThavAI jAya che ane enI badhI zaktio A nAnakaDA vAyaramAM, caitanyamAM avataraNa pAme che. ApaNe ekAgratA dvArA, dhyAna dvArA, prArthanA dvArA, A zaktino potAnAmAM saMcAra karAvavo e ja ApaNI badhIya kriyAonI pAchaLa rahelo eka mukhya uddeza ane Azaya che. paNa e pahelAM ApaNane khyAla Avavo joIe ke huM eka jyoti chuM, prakAza chuM ane A deha e to mAtra eka koDiyuM che. A koDiyAmAM je jyoti che enI ja kiMmata che. koDiyuM phUTe to phUTavA do paNa jyotane jALavI rAkhavAnI che. samyagdarzananI prathama bhUmikA deva, guru ane dharma upara zraddhA rAkhavI e che. AtmAmAM zraddhA zarU karavI e sUkSma bhUmikAnI vAta che. A bhUmikAno pradhAna vicAra huM AtmA chuM, amara chuM. marI jAya che te deha che. jyAM sudhI huM A deha ane vRttionA saMge chuM tyAM sudhI huM maraNadharmI banI paribhramaNa karuM chuM. A maraNadharmI na banavA mATe deva, guru ane dharmano Teko che. enA sahArAthI huM zuddha banuM chuM. deva, guru ane dharma mArAM sAdhana che, sahAyaka che, upakArI che ane TheTha mokSa sudhI pahoMcADavAmAM pUrNa madadagAra che. madadagAra che paNa madada lenAro huM pote chuM. madada lenArAmAM jora nahi hoya to madadagAra tamane zuM kare bhAI ? -- pagathiyuM che paNa caDhanAro ja jo taiyAra na hoya to pagathiyuM koIne upara dhakelAtuM nathI. A caDhanArane ghaNA bhUlI gayA ane pagathiyAM emane yAda rahI gayAM. A goTALo nathI ? Aje moTA bhAganA mANaso pagathiyAMne ja yAda kare che, caDhanAra prati lakSa ja nahi. mAre kahevAnuM e ja che, ke samyag darzanano prAraMbha eTale 'caDhanAra koNa'nI samaja; caitanyanuM lakSya. A lakSyane satata lakSamAM rAkhI deva, guru ane dharmanI ArAdhanA karo ane svarUpano pUrNa anubhava karo. 258 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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26. vikAsa kAsa e tamArI saMsthAnA mAsikanuM nAma che. huM icchuM ke e ja tamArA che sauno jIvana-Adarza hoya. vikAsa ! hA, vikAsa eTale khIlavuM. hRdayane kholavuM, aMdhakArane bahAra pheMkavo che ane prakAzano satkAra karavo. vikAsa e vRtti nahi, pravRtti che. che gati nahi, pragati che. che kaLI e vikAsa-abhimukha bane che. e khIlatI jAya che ane sUryano prakAza hRdayamAM bharatI jAya che. prakAzanA sparza kaLI-kaLImAMthI sauMdarya vikase che. mANasanuM jIvana paNa biDAyelI kaLI jevuM che. e vikAsa to bhakti, prema ane bUDa prabhutAno prakAza jhIlI, potAnA jIvanane sauMdaryamaya banAvI de. loko gharanA madhya bhAgamAM phUladAnImAM puSpone goThave che, kAraNa ke e A khIlI jANe che, prakAzane jhIlI jANe che, potAnA jIvanano vikAsa karI jANe che. jo pUrNanA pagathAre ja 259

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puSpa khIlI jANe to mANasanuM hRdaya zA mATe khIlI na zake ? phUlano vikAsa mANasanA manane AkarSI zakato hoya to vyaktino vikAsa kema na AkarSe ! jemaNe potAnA vikAsamaya jIvananI suvAsa phelAvI emanA nAmano, emanA smaraNano, emanI kIrtino DaMko Aje paNa sarvatra vAgI rahyo che. e kAI dhana-saMpatti ApI nathI gayA paNa e vikasI gayA. emanA samayamAM e vikAsanI pUrNatA pAmI zakyA. jema jema kALa vaheto jAya che tema tema mahApuruSonA nAmanI suvAsa vadhAre ane vadhAre phelAtI rahe che, lokone preraNAnAM pAna karAvI temanA mArgane ajavALI rahe che. je dehamAM jIvIe chIe e deha paDI javAno, je duniyAmAM rahIe chIe e duniyA vIkharAI javAnI ane svajano ApaNI pAse che e chUTA paDavAnA. TUMkamAM kazuM ja zAzvata nathI, chatAM ApaNe jANe amaratva prApta karIne AvyA hoIe ema vartIe chIe. mANasa pUtaLAM mukAvavAthI ke phoTAthI amara nathI banato. e enAM sukAryothI amara bane che. jema jema kALa vaheto jAya tema tema sukAryonuM teja vadhatuM jAya che. jema aMdhArAmAM dIvo camake che ema kALa vyatIta thatAM emanAM nAma camake che. ApaNae vicArI ke ApaNe saMsAramAM zuM karI zakIe ? saMsArane zuM ApI zakIe ? saMsAramAMthI zuM laI jaI zakIe ? thoDuMka letA jaIe ne thoDuMka detA jaIe. A levaDadevaDa che. paNa tamane ema thaze ke zuM levuM ane zuM devuM ? A saMsA2mAM levA jevuM hoya to lokonI zubhecchA che. roja ekAdI paNa zubhecchA jIvananA khAtAmAM jame thavI joIe. sAMje sUvA jatI vakhate . tamArA mane pUcho ke Aje meM zuM sAruM kAma karyuM ? ekAda nAnakaDuM paNa kAma yAda karo. AMdhaLAne doravAnuM, kUtarAne roTalI ApavAnuM, taraphaDatA jIvajaMtune chAMye mUkavAnuM, pADozIne sArI vAta kahI du:khamAM AzvAsana ApavAnuM, e nAnI nAnI vAtomAM paNa zubhecchAono saMgraha che. bIjAnA hRdayamAMthI pragaTela AzIrvAdano pravAha to tamArA jIvanane navapallavita karI de evo hoya che. loko ekabIjAnI niMdA kare, pAchaLathI kharAba vAto kare. paNa A kuTevathI phAyado zo ? jIbha apavitra thAya, mana kharAba thAya ane jenI vAta 260 A jIvanamAMgalya

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karI ene to enI khabara paNa nathI. A vAtano UMDANathI vicAra karazo to thaze ke zA mATe huM bIjAnI vAta karavA jAuM chuM ? bIjAnA praznono vicAra karavAno mane zo adhikAra ? adhikAra hoya to mArI ke mArI joDe beThelA hoya tenI vAta karavAno che. mANasanI moTA bhAganI zaktio bIjAnI TIkA karavAmAM, bIjAnA doSa jovAmAM khalAsa thaI jAya che. AvI niMdAkhorIne kAraNe samAjamAM ghaNuM nukasAna thayuM che. je sArA ane sAcA che emane mATe paNa hRdayamAM bhAva na jAge, thAya ke duniyA AvI ja che to ApaNe paNa evA kema na banIe ? bIjAnA doSa jovA, durguNo jovA ane bIjAnI paMcAtamAM jIvananA kImatI samayane veDaphavo enA karatAM jene mATe tamane kharekhara lAgatuM hoya tene ja kaho : "tamArAmAM ghaNI sArI Tevo che e joI mAruM mana tamArA pratye Adara seve che, paNa tamArI A eka Teva mArA manamAM khUMce che, ene dUra karo to suvarNamAM sugaMdha bhaLyA jevuM thAya." paNa enI gerahAjarImAM vAta karavI e saMskArI vyaktine ane emAM paNa dharmIne to zobhatI ja nathI. dharmane mAtra dharmasthAnomAM ja pUrI na rAkho, ene saMsAramAM vALo, dharma e jIvanane pAradarzaka, zubhra banAvavAno kImiyo che. zabdone niMdA karavAmAM vAparo enA karatAM AzvAsananA hUMphALA be zabdo bIjAne zAMti ApavAmAM vAparo to kevuM sAruM ? tamArI pAse paiso hoya; sAdhano hoya to je duniyAmAM tame rahetA ho tyAM pADozIne juo, mANasa mANasane kAma nahi Ave to koNa kAma Avaze ? takatI mATe dhana ApavA karatAM takalIphamAM DUbelAM kuTuMbone khAnagI rIte madada karavAmAM ja sAcI mAnavatA che. AvI madada karanAra pratye to Adara paNa jAge ane AzIrvAda paNa pragaTe. eka bahena pahelAM garIbone sArI madada karatAM hatAM paNa thoDA samayathI emaNe e baMdha ka2I hatI. emane pUchyuM to kahe, "huM have garIbone madada nathI karatI kAraNa ke eka vAra emanAM chokarAMne mIThAI lAvIne khAtAM meM joyAM. mane thayuM A madadane pAtra nathI." t meM kahyuM, "tamArI jema e mA nathI ? mAno jIva che, peTe pATA bAMdhI, duHkha veThIne paNa koI sArA divase peMDA laI enAM bhUlakAMne Ape. A joIne to tamArI AMkhamAM amI varasavAM joIe. tamane ema thavuM joIe ke ame pUrNanA pagathAre * 261

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to roja khAIe chIe, cAlo, garIba paNa khAya che. e paNa jIva che, manuSya che. A dRSTi keLavavAnI jarUra che. ghaNI vAra AvA prasaMgo joI dAna denArA A bahAne dAna ApavAnuM baMdha kare che. samAjamAM vyakti vyakti vaccenA khoTA khyAla nIkaLI jAya to samAja bahu najIka Ave, ekabIjAne samaje ane ekabIjAno Teko bane. Aje sukhano divasa che. zI khabara ke kAle sukhano divasa nahi badalAya? kaMcana, kAyA ane kuTuMba azAzvata che. e hoya tyAre eno sAro upayoga karI lo to jIvana dhanya thAya. vastu hoya tyAM sudhI upayoga karI levo. eka rAjA pAse eka vicAraka gayo. vicArake pUchyuM : "tame ATalA badhA sukhI kema cho ?" rAjAe kahyuM "Aje uttara nahi ApuM. paNa A vaDalAnA jhADa nIce besa, tyAM cha mahinA rahevuM paDaze. A vaDalo sukAI jaze tyAre kahIza." pelA vicArakane eka ja vicAra rAta-divasa Ave. A vaDalo jaladI sukAto kema nathI ! kyAre sukAze ? roja jue. dhIme dhIme pAMdaDAM pILAM paDavA lAgyAM ane traNa mahinAmAM vaDalo sukAI gayo. vicAraka rAjA pAse gayo to rAjAe kahyuM. "vaDalo navapallavita bane, phaLaphUlathI lacI paDe tyAre uttara ApIza ane navapallavita thatAM pahelAM jo jato rahIza to tane sajA karIza." pelo vicAraka roja beTho beTho kahe, "he vaDalA ! tuM navapallavita bana to uttara maLe. uttara nahi maLe to kAMI nahi paNa huM jIvato gharabhego to thAuM." traNa mahinA pachI kuMpaLo phUTI. e doDI gayo rAjadarabAramAM. "rAjana ! vaDalo navapallavita thayo che." rAjAe kahyuM, "uttara maLI gayo ne ? vaDalA nIce besI roja niHsAsA nAMkhato hato to tArA niHsAsAthI vaDalo sukAI gayo. bIjA traNa mahinAmAM AzIrvAda ApavA mAMDyo, zubhecchAo varasAvavA lAgyo to sUko vaDalo lIlo thayo." saMsAramAM lokonI zubhecchA lo to vaDalAnI jema navapallavita raho, sakhI bano. ane niHsAsA lo to sukAI jAo, duHkhI bano. mAtra mAruM kalyANa thAya ema nahi paNa sahanuM bhaluM thAo ema iccho. sahunA bhalAmAM mAruM bhaluM che ema vicAro. keTalAka kahe ke, bIjA gayA khADAmAM... paNa bIjA khADAmAM jaze to tame TekarA upara kema rahI zakazo ? bIjA sukhI to tame sukhI. 26ra * jIvana-mAMgalya

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nA ? savAre prANa reDIne prArthanA karo : zivamastu sarva jagata: parahitaniratA bhavaMtu bhUtagaNAH / doSAH prayAntu nAzaM, sarvatra sukhI bhavaMtu lokAH // badhAnuM kalyANa ho; badhA sukhanI chAyAmAM raho; A zabdo sAthe ekarasa bano; A che prArthanAno sAra. pachI juo ke sukha tamAre AMgaNe doDatuM doDatuM Ave che ke nahi. reDiyomAMthI taraMgo dvArA saMgIta chUTe tema vizvamAMthI saMgItanAM mojAM chUTe. e gupta che, pracchanna che paNa e eka hakIkata ane baLa che. je badhAnuM sAruM icche enuM bUruM karanAra koNa? suvAsa dekhAtI nathI paNa sUMghI zakAya che, ema AzIrvAda dekhAya nahi paNa anubhavAya kharA. sukhano anubhava thAya che ne ? e kyAMthI AvyuM ? kema AvyuM ? AzIrvAdanA bIjamAMthI sukhano choDa pragaTyo che. sukhanI lAlI jIvanamAM lAvavI hoya to zubhecchAo vadhAravI paDaze. duniyAbharamAMthI zubhecchAo bhegI karo; jyAM jAo tyAM namo. namyo te saune gamyo. sukhanA dahADAmAM mAMthuM UMcuM karazo nahi. namatA raho. duniyAne zIkhavA do ke A AtmA ATalo sukhI chatAM kevo vinathI ! koI bUrA vicAra mokale to AzIrvAdanA jaLapravAhamAM e bUrA vicAra tarata ja aMgArAnI jema bujhAI jAya che. vipula pANImAM baLato kolaso bujhAI jAya ema zubhecchAnA sarovaramAM kuvicArono kolaso bujhAI javAno ja. duniyAmAM zuM levAnuM che ? zubhecchA. duniyAne devAnuM zuM che ? prema. badhAM prema cAhe che. kUtaruM mANasane game che kAraNa ke e premI che. mAlikane jue ane nAcavA mAMDe. e bIjI bhASA nathI jANatuM. enI AMkhamAM prema che. mAlikane sAcA dilathI cAhe che. eTale ja mANasa dIkarAne na cAhe eTalo kUtarAne cAhe ane sAcave. eka mALAmAM rahetuM kuTuMba bIje rahevA gayuM. enA gayA pachI mALAmAM rahenArAo kahe ke e kevuM sAruM kuTuMba hatuM ! enAthI Akho mALo suvAsita hato. teo gayA ane mALAnI ronaka cAlI gaI. mALo khAlI khAlI lAge che. Ama zA mATe ? eTalA mATe ke e kuTuMba jIvana jIvI jANatuM hatuM, prema ane maitrInI havA phelAvI jANatuM hatuM. zubhecchA levAnI che ane nirmaLa prema ApavAno che. pUrNanA pagathAre ja 263

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trIjI vAta, choDavAnuM zuM ? krodhane choDavAno che. bahenonAM magaja jaladI garama thaI jAya che. to zuM karavA saMsAramAM paDyAM ? icchIne saMsAra svIkAryo che, have krodha kare zuM vaLe ? javAbadArI lIdhI che to pUrI karo. saMsAramAM paDyAM cho to zAMti rAkho. ghaNI baheno krodhamAM Ave tyAre bALakane mAre, patine kaTu vacano saMbhaLAve. krodha eka evo tophAnI vAyaro che je vivekanA dIpakane bujhAvI de, pachI sAme koNa che te dekhAya ja nahi. krodha traNa vastuno nAza kare che : prIti, viveka ane vinaya. krodha Avyo ane prIti gaI. be miniTamAM badhuM khAkha. are, krodhI to potAnI jAtane paNa nukasAna kare. strIo krodhamAM AvI jaIne ApaghAta paNa kare che ne ? puruSone ApaghAta karatA joyA che ? strIjAtamAM ApaghAtanA banAvo ghaNA bane che, kAraNa ke e eTalI nirbaLa banI jAya che ke potAnI jAtane paNa jALavI na zake. pati ke patnI krodha kare emAM bicAruM nirdoSa bALaka TicAI jAya. premanuM amRta varasAvatI mA krodhane kAraNe kALI banI jAya. nirbaLane krodha jaladI Ave. vIra ja kSamAvAna hoya. AzIrvAdano saMcaya karo, nirmaLa premanuM dAna karo. krodhano tyAga karo. pUjA karavA jatAM phUlavALI aDI jAya to snAna karI zuddha thAo, paNa krodharUpI agni zarIramAM Ave tenuM prAyazcitta zuM ? pelAmAM to pUjA bagaDI gaI paNa AmAM to bhava bagaDI jaze. ghaNI baheno nAnakaDI vAta upara eTalo badho krodha kare, jhaghaDo kare ke AkhuM jIvana ane vAtAvaraNa kaTutApUrNa banI jAya. krodhanuM prAyazcitta lo. tame ja tamArA guru bano. Ama jAgRtipUrvaka prayatna karatAM A jUnI Teva nIkaLI jaze. krodha Ave to kaho ke mAre bhagavAna AgaLa 100 khamAsaNAM devAM, 20 bAMdhI navakAravALI gaNavI. jenI pAse krodha nathI e to premanI dIvaDI che. enA prakAzamAM sukha ane zAMti vase che. cothI vAta, AtmaciMtana karavuM. huM zA mATe A duniyAmAM AvI ? mArA jIvanano hetu zo ? mAre zuM karavuM joIe ? 264 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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Ama DUbakI mArazo to jIvananA upayogano khyAla Avaze. aMtaramAM DUbakI mAravI, potAnuM avalokana karavuM e moTI vAta che. purANanI A vArtA che : hiraNyakazyapu bhagavAnane mAravA nIkaLyo. enI pAse eka varadAna hatuM, e game tene mArI zake. hiraNyakazyapu traNe loka pharI Avyo paNa bhagavAna ene na maLyA, thAkIne eNe mAravAnuM mAMDI vALyuM. ghaNAM varSo pachI nArada bhagavAnane pUchayuM : "tame tyAre kyAM saMtAI gayA hatA ?" bhagavAne kahyuM : huM enI pAse ja hato, enA hRdayamAM ja chupAyo hato. hiraNyakazyapu badhe gayo paNa potAnA hRdaya tarapha najara na nAkhI. e kyAre nAkhe ? vAMko vaLe to ! paNa e abhimAnI hato. namIne najara aMdara nAkhe to ene bhagavAna dekhAya ne ?" namra bano. thoDI thoDI vAre aMtaramAM avalokana karo. nirIkSaNa karo, to tamane ja tamArAmAM raheluM paramatattva dekhAze. levAno AzIrvAda, devAno prema. tyAga karavAno krodhano ane jANavAnuM svatattva. e nahi thAya to pravAsa niSphaLa jaze. pUrNanA pagathAre ja 25

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27. ApaNuM saMskAradhana 2. jano svAdhyAya "ApaNuM saMskAradhana' Lche je dhana vaDe bhArata samRddha hatuM, zuM samRddha che ane samRddha thaze. joke oTa AvI che chatAM enI gauravagAthAo evI ja 2 gavAI rahI che. je saMskRtinA nAma upara, je AdhyAtmika prakAza upara pazcimanA loko Aje paNa vArI jAya che ane dara varSe tyAMthI pravAsIo AvatA ja jAya che e saMskAradhana zuM che te vicArIe. dhana konuM nAma ? je mANasane samRddha banAve, sukhI banAve, jIvanane jIvavA jevuM banAve ane mRtyune maMgaLamaya banAve. je dhana manuSyane ciMtA karAve, je dhana mANasane kaMgAla banAve che dhana vaDe karIne mANasa manathI ane tanathI ahaMkArI 1 ane ajJAnI bane e dhana nathI, ene paiso je kahI zako. paiso ane dhana e be vacce moTuM A aMtara che. paiso jugArInI pAse paNa hoI zake, naTa ane nartakI pAse paNa hoI zake 266 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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paNa dhana to saMskArasaMpanna karanArI pAse ja hoya. eTalA ja mATe paisA maLavyA pachI paNa dhana meLavavAnuM bAkI rahI jAya che. jyAM sudhI A dhana na Ave tyAM sudhI e paisAdAra kahevAya paNa zrIpati na kahevAya, dhanapati na kahevAya, lakSmIpati na kahevAya. lakSmI, dhana, zrI e badhAMya jIvananI zobhAnAM upanAma che. AvA dhanathI bhArata samRddha hatuM, paisAthI nahi. paisAthI to amerikA ApaNA karatAM ghaNuM samRddha che; paNa bhAratavarSanI samRddhi judI che. je dhana vaDe karIne mANasa sukhI hoya, prasanna hoya, hRdayano udAtta hoya, jJAnano upAsaka hoya, jIvanane dhanya banAvato hoya ane mRtyune maMgaLamaya banAvato hoya e dhana ApaNA dezanuM dhana, jene huM ApaNo vAraso kahuM chuM. ApaNI mUDI kahuM chuM. paiso cAlyo jAya to paNa A mUDI na jAya. mANasa paisAthI nAdAra thaI jAya to cAle paNa A AdhyAtmika saMskRtithI kaMgAla thaI jAya te nahi cAle. saMskRtithI nirdhana ane kaMgAla na banI jAya e mATe mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayanA suvarNa mahotsavanA zubha prasaMge A svAdhyAyamAM enuM smaraNa tAjuM karavA mAguM chuM. mahAvIra jaina vidyAlaya" Akhara to eka vidyA pradAna karanArI saMsthA che. e laoNjiMga ane borDiMga nathI ke khavaDAvyuM, rAkhyuM ane ravAnA karyA ! A saMsthA sAthe mahAvIranuM pavitra nAma joDAyuM che. aDhI hajAra varSa pahelAMnI bhavyatAnuM smaraNa A eka nAnakaDuM nAma karAve che. aDhI hajAra varSa pahelAMno e jamAno hato, jemAM buddha ane mahAvIra vicaratA hatA, jemAM ahiMsA ane premano prasAra hato, jemAM adhyAtmanA prakAza mATe rAjAo rAjya choDIne, maMtrIo maMtrIpada choDIne, zreSThIo havelIo choDIne saMtonA caraNomAM ja besatA. emane ema lAgatuM hatuM ke A ja amAruM sAcuM dhana che. vicAra karavAno che ke e dhana zuM hatuM ke je dhanane meLavavA mATe paisAdAro paNa mAnatA ke A dhana maLe to ja ame sAcA dhanapati. mane eka prasaMga yAda Ave che, aDhI hajAra varSa pahelAMno A prasaMga che. bhagavAna buddha rAjanagarImAM AvyA che; emane vaMdana karavA, emanA jJAnanuM sudhApAna karavA keTalAMye naranArIo utsAhabhera jaI rahyAM che. e vakhate gAmano nagarazeTha paNa jaI rahyo che. eNe vicAra karyo : "huM bhagavAna buddhanA darzane jAuM chuM. emanA caraNe huM zuM dharIza? emanI pAsethI laIne AvIza, paNa ApIza zuM ? ApyA vinA kaMI meLavI zakAtuM nathI, khAlI karyA vinA pUrNanA pagathAre * 267

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kAMI bharI zakAtuM nathI." aMdara jo jUnuM bhareluM hoya to navuM tame kema bharI zako ? aMdara bhareluM hoya ene kADhI nAkho to ja tame navuM umerI zako cho. ziziraRta hovAthI badhAM kamaLa baLI gayAM che, sukAI gayAM che; mAtra eka ja kamaLa rahI gayuM che. A kamaLane sudAsa mALI vecavA nIkaLyo che. nagarazeTha levAnI vAta kare che : "keTalA paisA ?" sudAsa eka sonAmahora mAge che, eTalAmAM to rAjaputra Ave che. e kahe : "huM tane pAMca ApuM." bane vacce harIphAI cAle che. sonAmahoranI harIphAImAM banne ghaNA AgaLa vadhI jAya che. sudAsa AzcaryathI pUche che : "Apa A kamaLanuM zuM karavA mAgo cho ?" banne kahe che : "bhagavAna buddhanA caraNomAM A kamaLa amAre dharavuM che." sudAsane vicAra Avyo "jenA caraNomAM kamaLa dharavA mATe A nagarazeTha ane rAjaputra harIphAI kare che e caraNo keTalA pAvana hovA joIe ! to A kamaLane vecuM enA karatAM huM ja jaIne e caraNomAM Ane samarpita zAne na karuM ?" ane e doDI Avyo, AvIne buddhanAM caraNomAM kamaLa dharI DhaLI paDyo. bhagavAna buddhe kahyuM : "vatsa ! tAre zuM joIe che ?" sudAse namra bhAve kahyuM : "mAtra tamArI kRpA-najaranuM eka kiraNa maLe ane mArA aMtaranuM timira TaLI jAya !" je vastu rAkhIe ane corone mATe ujAgaro karavo paDe; je vastune mATe bhAIone laDavuM paDe; pitA-putrane mana duHkha thAya e dhana nathI. bhagavAna buddha zuM kahyuM ? "AjanI sabhAmAM sAco saMskArI ane dhanapati hoya to A sudAsa che. A vArtA bhagavAna buddhanI jAtakakathAmAM Ave che. kavivara ravIndranAtha TAgore ene sarasa vicAronI kalagI ApI che. aMdaranA aMdhakArane dUra karavAmAM madadagAra thAya enuM nAma te dhana che, bAkI badhuMya paiso che. ApaNe je dharatImAM jIvIe chIe, e dharatInA aNuaNumAM A bhAvanA bharelI hatI paNa dezakALane lIdhe keTalIka vastuo badalAI jAya che, badalAI javA chatAM dharatImAM je vastu paDelI che e dharatIne sAva mUkIne jatI nathI rahetI. ApaNuM A saMskAradhana zuM hatuM ? ApaNI saMskAragAthAne kavi kAlidAse "raghuvaMza'mAM noMdhI che : 268 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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zaizave abhyastavidyAnAM, yauvane viSayaiSiNAm / vArdhakye munivRttinAM, yogenAnte tanutyajAm // mAnavajIvananA cAra tabakkAonI cAra vAto AmAM mUkI che. paheluM zaizava, bIjuM yauvana, trIjuM praDhatva ane cothuM mRtyu. jIvananA A cAra prasaMgone ApaNe kaI kaI vastuthI dhanya ane ciraMjIva banAvI zakIe enA upAyo ApaNane batAvyA che. "zaizave abhyastavidyAnAm" zaizava zenAthI alaMkRta ane ciraMjIva bane ? to kahe, zaizava vidyAthI bharyuM hovuM joIe. jema koI pAtra amRtathI bhareluM hoya to pAtramAMthI ApaNe enuM pAna karI zakIe paNa pAtra khAlI hoya to ? khAlI pAtra game eTaluM suMdara hoya paNa enAthI ApaNI tRSA chIpatI nathI. pAtra pleTinamanuM hoya to paNa zuM? pyAsa to emAM rahelI vastu ja miTAve che. ema zaizava e pAtra che. emAM vidyA e amRta che. vidyAnuM amRta emAM bhareluM hoya to ja e jIvananI pyAsane miTAve che. zaizava e vidyAne mATe ja hovuM joIe. murabbIoe dhyAna rAkhavuM joIe ke bALakonA vidyAbhyAsanA suvarNakALamAM emanA taraphathI jANatAM ke ajANatAM emAM koI pittaLa na maLI jAya ke emanuM suvarNa, jIvananA kharA samayamAM khoTuM na paDI jAya ! A vAta rAjadvArI mANaso, netAo ane mAtApitAo dhyAnamAM rAkhe to bALakanA jIvanamAM sadA vidyAno ja prakAza rahe ane enuM zaizava suMdara ane saMskRta banI jAya. paNa Aje vidyAno ane vidyArthIono upayoga ghaNAkharA potAnA svArtha mATe karI rahyA che. rAjadvArI mANaso emanI pAse patharA pheMkAvIne, kaoNlejo ane yunivarsiTIo saLagAvaDAvIne, zikSakonI sAme bolatA karIne, copaDIo ane pastakAlayo bALatA karIne emanA zaizavane bagADI rahyA che. je bIjAnuM zaizava bagADe che eno buDhApo zA mATe na bagaDe ? enAM mULa koNa che ? sattAnA ucca Asana upara beThelA, jemanuM tame hAratorA laIne svAgata karo cho ane gayA pachI niMdA zarU karo cho ! vidyArthIo ke jemanuM mana nirmaLa che emanA jIvanamAM tame bagIco sarjavAne badale ene verAna kema karo cho ? Blotting papernuM (zAhIcUsanuM) pUrNanA pagathAre e 269

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kAma, sAme je hoya tene cUsI levAnuM che, pachI e kALI zAhI hoya ke vAdaLI hoya. evuM ja kAma vidyArthIonA mAnasanuM che. emanuM mAnasa zAhIcUsa jevuM zIghagrAhaka che, je Apo te grahaNa kare. AvA bALamAnasane je bIjA mArge vApare che, eka rIte kahuM to, e bhAratIya saMskRtinuM murder - khUna kare che, e moTAmAM moTo guno kare che. suMdara zaizavane vadhAre suMdara banAvavAmAM ApaNe sAtha ApavA prayatna karavAno che. ApaNA vicArothI, ApaNI vANIthI ane ApaNA vartanathI emanA mAnasa para koI asaMskRta chApa na paDI jAya te mATe sadA sAvadhAna rahevuM paDaze. - vidyAnI upAsanA karato karato vidyArthI jIvananuM eka darzana meLave che. vidyArthI bhaNIne Avyo enI pratIti zuM che? jIvanadarzana zuM che ? enA mApadaMDanAM A be pAsAM che : eka to jIvananI zAzvata ane azAzvata vastuonAM mUlyono viveka. bIjuM potAnAmAM jevo AtmA che evA ja AtmAnuM darzana vizvanA prANImAtramAM karI potAnI paratve je jAtanuM AcaraNa jAheramAM ane ekAMtamAM Acarato hoya evuM ja AcaraNa jAheramAM ane ekAMtamAM sarva AtmA pratye AcaravAnI abhiruci. vidyAnuM A darzana che. jenI pAse vidyA Ave enI pAse A be vastunI apekSA rAkhIe. zAzvata ane azAzvata e bene vivekathI judA pADe. e jue ke eka deha che, bIjo AtmA che; eka mUkI javAnuM che, bIjuM laI javAnuM che. A beno viveka thatAM zAzvatane bhoge azAzvatane na sAcave. jarUra paDe to e azAzvatane bhoge zAzvatane TakAvI rAkhe. AvI prajJA, Avo viveka jenAmAM jAge che enI pAse vidyA che. A benuM vizleSaNa karatAM AvaDI jAya pachI ene kahevuM paDatuM nathI ke tuM AtmA mATe svAdhyAya kara, paraloka mATe prayatna kara, kAraNa ke e jANato hoya che ke A mAro AtmA zAzvata che, enA bhoge huM duniyAnI koI paNa azAzvata vastuno saMcaya nahi karuM; zAzvata tattvane huM hAni nahi pahoMcADuM. Aje vidyAvAna ghaNA che paNa AvI jAgRta vicAraNAvALA keTalA ? vidyAthI A dRSTi na Ave to mAnavuM ke mAtra pustakiyuM jJAna che, bIjI rIte kahuM to mAtra zabdono saMgraha che. e pustakAlaya banI zake paNa prAjJa puruSa nathI banI zakato. tevI ja rIte mANasa mAtra pustako ja raTI jAya, bhaNI jAya, yAda rAkhI 270 8 jIvana-mAMgalya

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jAya paNa jarUra paDe tyAre AcarI na zake to e gadheDA para lAdelA caMdana jevuM gaNAya ne ? eka vidvAne sarasa vyAkhyA bAMdhI ke Man of words and not of deeds is like a garden full of weeds. mAtra zabdono saMgraha kare ane e saMgrahane AcAramAM mUkavA mATenI abhiruci na dAkhave ene eka bagIcA sAthe sarakhAvyo che; jemAM puSpo ane phaLo kAMI nathI mAtra kAMTA ane jhAMkharAM UbhA che. bhaNatarathI mAtra smaraNazakti vadhe, zabdazakti vadhe, vAkyAturya vadhe ane AcAraNa na vadhe to ApaNA jIvanamAM tyAganuM teja kema Ave ? vastune choDavA mATenI abhiruci kema jAge ? zAzvata ane azAzvatano viveka karavo e ja to vidyAnuM prathama lakSaNa che. bIjuM darzana e ke mArAmAM je che e ja tattva vizvanA badhA ja AtmAomAM nivAsa karI rahyuM che; to ekAMta ane jAheramAM huM mArA pratye jevuM AcaraNa karuM chuM evuM ja AcaraNa huM jagatanA jIvo pratye karuM. A dRSTithI enA vicAramAM, enA uccAramAM ane enA AcAramAM eka jAtanI uccatA Ave che. A uccatA lokone rAjI karavA bahArathI lAvelI nathI paNa aMdarathI UgelI che. vizvamAtranI prANIsRSTimAM caitanyanA nivAsanuM eNe darzana karyuM che. AvI dRSTivALA mANaso ApaNane dareka dezamAM maLI Ave che. abrAhama liMkana eka vAra vhAITa hAusa jatAM kIcaDamAM Dukkarane taraphaDatuM jue che. pote kIcaDamAMthI jaI ene kIcaDamAMthI kADhe che, pachI ja vhAiTa hAusa jAya che. tyAM koIe DrAivarane pUchyuM ke liMkananAM kapaDAMne kIcaDanA DAghA kema ? DrAivare kahyuM ke Dukkarane kIcaDamAMthI bahAra kADhatAM DAghA lAgyA che. A sAMbhaLIne eka mitre AvI liMkanane dhanyavAda ApyA. liMkane kahyuM : "rahevA do. meM A kAma dhanyavAda mATe ke bIjAne mATe nathI karyuM paNa Dukkarane kAdavamAM taraphaDatuM joIne mArA manamAM eka vyathA jAgI ane e vyAthAno kAMTo kADhavA Dukkarane kADhyA vinA chUTako nahoto." ATaluM kahIne liMkana cAlatA thayA. bIjAne duHkhI joIne pote duHkhI thavuM. A eka samabhAva avasthA; prANImaitrInI bhAvanA; vizvamAM rahelA caitanyamAM potAnA jevA ja eka caitanyanuM darzana, potAnA du:khane dUra karavA mATe jevo prayatna karIe evo ja prayatna jagatanA jIvo pratye ApaNe karatA rahIe. darda dUra karavA mATenI ApaNI satata abhilASA hoya tyAre jANavuM ke ApaNAmAM vidyAno prakAza Avato jAya pUrNanA pagathAre ma 271

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che, e vidyA vaDe karIne ApaNe dhanavAna banatA jaIe chIe. rAjasthAnanA gAmaDAno A prasaMga che. be bhAIo che, moTA bhAIno vastAra vadhAre che, nAnA bhAIno vastAra thoDo che. bannenAM khetaro che, vacce eka vADa che. kApaNI pachI hUMDAMno Dhagalo thayo che. rAtre moTA bhAI vicAre che ke A mAro bhAI nAno che, meM saMsAramAM mANavAnuM badhuM mANI lIdhuM che, mArI jarUriyAta paNa ochI che, nAnA bhAIne vadhAre jIvavAnuM che, jarUriyAta paNa vadhAre che. A vicAre potAnA khetaramAMthI pULA laIne nAnA bhAInA khetaramAM nAkhI Ave che. e ja rAtrinA bIjA praharamAM nAnA bhAIne vicAra Ave che ke moTA bhAIno vastAra vadhAre che, e kevI rIte calAvatA haze ? huM to juvAna ane sazakta chuM, raLI zakuM ema chuM. eTale e potAnA khetaranA pULAone moTA bhAInA khetaramAM nAkhI Ave che. AvI rIte betraNa divasa cAlyuM. cothI rAtrie baMne bhAIo bhegA thaI gayA. eke pUchyuM. "tuM kyAM jAya che ?' bIjAe pUchyuM, "tuM kyAM jAya che ?' bannenA hAthamAM pULA, pelo Ane tyAM nAkhavA jAya ane A pelAne tyAM nAkhavA jAya ! A vidyA che, A keLavaNI che. nAnA moTAno vicAra kare, moTo nAnAno vicAra kare. A ekabIjAne samajavAnI zakti che. AvI vidyAthI samAjanuM darzana prApta thAya che. AvI vidyA vinA kaho, samAja UMco kema Ave ? samAja sukhI ane samRddha paNa kema thAya ? samAjanA darzana vinA ekalI AtmAnI ane paralokanI ja vAta karIzuM ane vyavahAramAM prANImAtra pratye samabhAvanI vicAraNA nahi Ave to mane lAge che ke ApaNe havAmAM UDyA karIzuM. jamIna upara paga paNa nahi mUkI zakIe. je mANasa jamIna upara paga mUkI zakato nathI e kadAca havAmAM UDI zakato haze paraMtu sthira nahi hoya. havAmAM UDavAnI paNa eka maryAdya che. Akhare mANasane dharatI upara cAlavAnuM che. adhyAtmanI, dharmanI jAgRti jo vyavahAra zuddhithI zarU na thAya, bIjA jIvomAM rahelA AtmAnuM darzana karIne enA pratye samabhAvAtmaka buddhithI jAgrata na thAya to je dhyeya tarapha pahoMcavAnuM che tyAM e kadI pahoMcI nahi zake. mAtra ApaNA zabdomAM mokSa, vicAromAM nirvANa ane kalpanAmAM mukti rahI jaze; enI prApti to AvA samAjadarzanathI ja thaze. zAzvata ane azAzvatanAM mUlyono viveka ane sarva bhUtomAM potAnA jevA ja caitanyanuM darzana. A anubhUti thAya, samasaMvedana thAya e ja sAcI vidyA. 272 jIvana-mAMgalya

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Avo vidyAvAna puruSa manamAM vicAre che tyAre e vicAronI aMdara paNa eka mRdu ane nirmaLa tattva hoya che, enA AcAramAM komaLatA ne saMvedanA hoya che. enA AcaraNamAM saunA sukha ane zAMtino parimala hoya che. enuM darzana AtmasparzI hovAthI samAjane mATe eka AzIrvAdarUpa banI jAya che "zIvane puruSArthInAmuM" jenA zaizavanuM pAtra vidyAnA amRtathI chalakAI rahyuM che evA zaizavamAMthI nIkaLIne yauvanamAM Avo cho. tamArI pAse zaktio che, buddhi che, thanaganATa che ane manamAM kAMIka karI javAnI svapnasRSTi che. yauvanamAM jo svapna ane sarjanAtmaka zaktinA vicAro na hoya to e zakti ene ja khalAsa karI nAkhe che. mAre A saMsAranA bagIcAmAM ekAdo ropo ropIne javuM che; bane to saMsArano bagIco samRddha bane evuM suMdara kArya karuM, paNa eka ropAne ukheDIne saMsAranA bagIcAne daridra banAvavAmAM nimitta to na ja banuM. eka rAjamArganI bAjumAM eka ekyAsI varSanA vRddha khADo khodIne nAnakaDo choDa ropI rahyo che. eTalAmAM be yuvAno ThekaDI karatA pUchavA lAgyA : "dAdA, zuM karo cho ?" "AMbAnuM jhADa vAvuM chuM." "huM ! A umare AMbAnuM jhADa vAvo cho ? ene kerIo Avaze kyAre ? ane dAdA, tame khAzo kyAre ? ghaDapaNamAM tRSNA ane moha jAgyAM che !" vRddha namratAthI kahyuM : "tArI vAta sAcI che bhAI, tRSNA to hoya. huM ema kaheto nathI ke mArAmAM tRSNA na hoya. na hovAno dAvo karavo e vastu hovAne siddha karavA barAbara che. paNa A je AMbo huM vAvuM chuM e mAre mATe nahi. A rastAnI banne bAju je jhADa UgelAM che enI chAMyAno, enAM phaLano meM ghaNAM varSo sudhI lAbha uThAvyo che. to have huM jAuM chuM te pahelAM AvatI kAlanI peDhIne kaMIka to ApatA javuM joIe ne ? eTale huM vAvato jAuM . gaI kAla pAsethI kaMIka lIdhuM che to AvatI kAlane kaMIka ApavAnuM che, ane ApyA vinA cAlyA jaIe to ApaNe kudaratanA cora kahevAIe ! huM cora na banI jAuM eTalA mATe A mAro prayatna che." pelA be yuvAno A sAMbhaLIne namI paDyA, "dAdA, tamane samajavAmAM amArI bhUla thaI gaI che." mANasa mANasane samajavAmAM bhUla kare che tyAM ja jIvanayAtrAnI niSphaLatA che, mANasa sAmAne samajI zakato hoya to enI yAtrA kevI saLa thaI jAya ? yauvana zobhe che puruSArthathI. ghaNI vAto karanArane huM mahattva nathI pUrNanA pagathAre ka 273

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Apato, ene mAtra vAtano rAjA gaNuM chuM. tamArA hAthathI kaMIka dayAnuM, karuNAnuM, sevAnuM, kAMIka to kAma thavuM joIe. gayA varSanI vAta che. bihAramAM duSkALa paDyo tyAre cAra-pAMca lAkha bhegA karI tyAM bhojanagRha zarU karyo. tyAM kahevAtA evA eka AdhyAtmika bhAI AvyA. kahe : "mahArAjazrI ! AtmakalyANa mUkIne A zuM upADyuM che ? AtmAnI vAta karo. bihAramAM loko to janme che ane mare che, e to svabhAva che. koNa janyuM te nathI karyuM ? emAM tame pAMca lAkha mANasone anAja pahoMcADyuM toya zuM ane na pahoMcADyuM toya zuM ? A mUkIne eka AtmajJAnanI zibira yojo ne ! ApaNAmAM jAgRti jo na hoya to ghaDIbhara enA vicAranA AcchAdananI nIce ApaNI prajJAno dIpaka DhaMkAI jAya. meM kahyuM : "AtmAnI vAta karanAra mANasa AtmAone duHkhI joIne drave nahi, eno hAtha laMbAya nahi to ene AtmAno anubhava thayo che ema mAnavuM e paNa ajJAnajanya bhrama che." je je mahApuruSoe Atma-anubhUti karI che temanA jIvanamAMthI sevAnAM pratyakSa dRSTAMta jaDyAM che. paMDharapuramAM devanA abhiSeka mATe nAmadeva gaMgAjaLa kAvaDamAM laI jaI rahyA hatA. paNa rastAmAM gadheDAne tRSAthI taraphaDatuM joyuM to emaNe ene e pahelAM pAyuM. koIe pUchyuM "are, gaMgAjaLa A gadheDAne pAyuM ?" uttara maLyo "gadheDAmAM AtmA che bhAI !" A Atmadarzana che. A AtmadarzanathI tamArAmAM sarjanAtmaka, hakArAtmaka, sevAnI eka sahaja bhAvanA jAgI jAya che. yuvAnImAM puruSArtha A rIte AkAra le che ane ApaNI zaktione e samRddha banAve che. "vArdhakya munivRttanA" zaizava ane yuvAnImAM je taiyAra thaIne Avelo che e have vArdhakyamAM praveza kare che. vArdhakya eTale ghaDapaNa ja nahi. jyArathI dhoLA vALano prAraMbha thAya, jyArathI tamane ema lAge ke tamAruM aMgopAMgamAM kAMIka phera jaNAya che, dAMta halavA mAMDe, AMkhamAM motiyo Ave ke zarIra upara karacalIo dekhAya to vicAra karavo ke have huM tyAM jAuM chuM, A jIvananuM trIjuM sthAna che. zaizava ane yauvanamAM je bheguM kareluM che eno upayoga have vArdhakyamAM karavAno che. zaizavamAM vidyA prApta karI, yuvAnImAM puruSArthanI kAryazakti dvArA svapnasRSTi siddha karI, have vArdhakyamAM munivrata Ave che. muni eTale koNa ? je manamAM AtmAnA saMgItano anubhava kare, saMsAranA visaMvAdamAM vidyA ane puruSArthanI be zaktione lIdhe pote cittanI 274 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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eka samAdhAnAtmaka avasthAmAM rahI zake enuM nAma muni. aMdara je jhINuM jhINuM guMjana cAle che. e guMjanano anubhava mauna pALyA vinA, UMDA UtaryA vinA thato nathI. eka anubhavI bApe potAnA ALasu dIkarAone kaheluM ke huM jAuM chuM paNa meM khetaranA UMDA bhAgamAM eka caru dATelo che e kADhI lejo. ane bApa marI gayo. pelA dIkarAo to maMDI paDyA khodavA. ALasu hatA paNa caru joItA hatA eTale khodI khodIne AkhuM khetara uthalAvI nAkhyuM. kyAMye caru na maLyo. eTalAmAM varSA thaI, khetaramAM ghAsa sAthe bIjI vastuo UgI ane khetara molathI lacI gayuM. tyAre pelA vRddhanA mitre AvIne kahyuM : "tamArA bApe kahyuM hatuM ke khetaranAM UMDA bhAgamAM dATeluM che eTale jema jema khodo tema khetara pocuM thAya. emAM je Uge e ja tamAro caru ane e ja tamArI samRddhi che." vRddha pitAe dIkarAne je kahyuM hatuM e ja vAta huM tamane kahuM chuM. tame aMdara jAo, UMDA Utaro. jema jema tame tamArAmAM UMDA UtaratA jazo tema tema tamane navI ja anubhUti thaze. AgaLa vadhatAM eka evI anubhUtinI avasthA Ave che, je bhUmikAmAM anubhavAya ke je tattva mahAvIramAM hatuM, buddhamAM hatuM, zrIrAmamAM hatuM ane AdinAthamAM hatuM e ja paramatattva mArAmAM che. A parama tattvanI samRddhino anubhava thayA pachI huM kaMgAla chuM ema lAge ja nahi. ema lAge ke huM mahAvIra chuM, huM buddha chuM, huM rAma chuM, huM AdinAtha chuM. paNa ema kahevA pahelAM ane ema karatAM pahelAM anubhava thavo joIe. ane anubhava thAya pachI kahevAnuM rahetuM nathI, anubhavavAnuM ja rahe che. ghaNA loko kahetA pharatA hoya che "huM A chuM." jyAM Ama kahIe tyAM anubhavavAnI vAta cAlI jAya che. anubhava mauna che. tyAM bolavAnuM baMdha thaI jAya che. bhramara madhurasanuM pAna kare che tyAre guMjana baMdha ja hoya che; guMjana cAlatuM hoya che tyAre madhupAna baMdha hoya che. evI ja rIte anubhava thAya che tyAre bIjI badhI vAto baMdha thaI jAya che. tyAM mAtra anubhUti ja hoya che. A anubhavarasanuM jeNe pAna karyuM tenI khumArI kadI UtaratI nathI, ene saMsAranI mAnasika bImArI sparzatI nathI; e sadA anubhavamAM masta ane magna rahe che, pUrNanA pagathAre * 275

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A anubhava karatAM pahelAM pahelI be bhUmikAomAMthI pasAra thavuM paDe che. vidyArthI jema pahelAmAM, pachI bIjAmAM, pachI trIjAmAM ema kramaza: AgaLa vadhato jAya che ane ema na karanAra mANasa uparanI kakSAmAM, yunivarsiTImAM, vidyApIThamAM pahoMcI zakato nathI. ekadama yunivarsiTImAM jAya to e peon ke sipAI tarIke jAya athavA klArka tarIke jAya paNa e prophesara tarIke to nathI ja jaI zakato. eTale tamAre paNa jIvananI A trIjI bhUmikAmAM jatAM pahelAM zaizavanI ane yauvananI bhUmikAone dhIme dhIme sarasa banAvavI joIe. mANasa sudharato sudharato ja upara jAya che. joke emAM paNa apavAda (exception) hoya che. emAM sAvadhAna na rahyA hoya tema chatAM trIjI avasthAmAM sudharI gayA hoya evuM paNa banI zake che, paNa e apavAdo sAmAnya niyama (General rule) na banI zake. A trIjI avasthA eTale aMdaranA saMgItane anubhavavAno samaya. AvA mANaso ja saMsAramAM ane saMsthAo mATe AzIrvAdarUpa bane ane vidyArthIonA bhomiyA bane che. to ema icchuM ke zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayamAM thoDAka AvA TharelA, anubhavI, cAritryavAna ane vicArothI samRddha puruSo vidyArthIonA vAlI bane. vAlI vinA vidyArthIone mAtra borDiMga (ane laoNjiMga) maLe paNa prema, vAtsalya ane sneha kyAMthI maLe ? vidyArthIone jaIne premathI pUche ke tamAre zuM du:kha che ? tamArI zI vAta che ? to vidyArthIo vAtsalyathI vaMcita na rahe, ane je vAtsalyathI vaMcita nahi rahe e saMskArane paNa jIvanabhara vAtsalya ApyA karaze. paNa jemane vAtsalya nathI maLyuM e aMdarathI evA dagdha ane zuSka banI jAya che ke jIvananAM vividha kSetromAM e bhayaMkara vikRtio lAve che. borDiMga (ane laoNjiMga)mAM bhaNatA chokarAo mATe eka psychological problem che. jemane mAbApanuM vAtsalya na maLe, bahenono prema na maLe, bhAIno sneha na maLe, emanAM hRdaya ATha-dasa varSamAM dhIre dhIre zuSka banI jAya che. pachI jyAre e jIvanakSetramAM Ave che tyAre potAnI zuSkatAne paritRpta karavA jIvanamAM je maLyuM te apanAvIne AgaLa doDe che. e vakhate viveka adazya banI jAya che. eTale jemaNe munivrata keLavyuM hoya, mana ane tanamAM maunanuM saMgIta hoya te bahu upayogI nIvaDe. "yogenAnta tanu jJA" - cauthI vAta bahu maMgaLamaya che. jenuM zaizava 276 jIvana-mAMgalya

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vidyAthI bhareluM che, jenuM yovana svapna ane kAryathI sabhara baneluM che, jenuM vArdhakya maunanA saMgItathI magna baneluM che te A dehane choDavAno divasa Ave te kevI rIte choDe ? yogamAM dehane choDe. yoganI samAdhimAM deha choDe, paNa yoga eTale zuM che ? jemAM ApaNuM tana, mana ane caitanya e traNe eka bhUmikAmAM AvIne vase te yoga. hA, tanano svabhAva che eTale e bImAra paNa paDe. evuM nathI ke yogI puruSone tananI zAMti ja hoya. kadAca azAMti paNa hoya, paNa azAMtimAM paNa zAMtino anubhava kare te yogInI viziSTa zakti che. yogIrAja AnaMdaghanajIno eka jIvanaprasaMga yAda Ave che. teo mAMdA che. khUba tAva Avelo che. emano eka bhakta emane vaMdana karavA jAya che. AnaMdaghanajI to gAI rahyA che, saMgItamAM masta che. bhakta paga dAbe che, zarIra garama garama che, bhakta kahyuM : "gurudeva ! ApanA zarIramAM to vara che." AnaMdaghanajIe kahyuM : "vara to A zarIrane che. AtmA to svastha che." "aba hama amara bhaye na mareMge" e gIta tyAre ja pragaTyuM. deha vinAzI che ane huM to avinAzI chuM. chellI avasthAnI A bhUmikA che. maratI vakhate sIla ane vIla e be vAto dUra rahevI joIe. eka chokaro AvIne kahe ke bApujI, vIla karavAnuM bAkI che, ahIM sahI karo. bIjo kahe ke sIla mAro. AmAMthI bacavAnuM che. pahelethI ja yogya vyavasthA karI nAkhavI. jiMdagIno marma koIe eka kavine pUchaDyo tyAre emaNe hasIne kahyuM, koNa kema marI gayo e tame mane kaho eTale huM tamane kahuM ke e kema jIvI gayo." jIvananuM saravaiyuM e to mRtyu che. mANasa keTalI kUdAkUda kare che e moTI vAta nathI, enI chellI ghaDI kevI jAya che e moTI vAta che. A yoganI AnaMdamaya bhUmikA pratyekane maLe ane mRtyu mATe vidAya letAM kahe; huM jAuM chuM. ApaNe jIvyA, sAthe rahyA, have raDazo nahi, AMsu pADazo nahi, kALAM kapaDAM paherazo nahi, kAraNa ke huM to musAphara chuM. nimna bhUmikAmAMthI UrdhvamAM jAuM chuM." yoganI AvI bhUmikAmAM vidAya levI, chUTA paDavuM ane saMsArane AtmAno eka saMdezo ApIne javuM e samagra jIvanano hetu che, uddeza che. AryAvartanuM dhana eTaluM badhuM samRddha che ke eno ApaNe vicAra karIe chIe tyAre ApaNuM mastiSka AdarabhAvathI namI jAya che. ApaNo vAraso kevo pUrNanA pagathAre ja 277

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moTo che ! e vArasAne AvI koI paLomAM zAMtithI besIne vAgoLIe ke e vArasAnA vArasadAroe vArasAno keTalo jALavyo che ! ApaNuM dhana - saMskAradhana - ApaNane maLaze to ApaNe samRddha banIzuM. jIvananI samRddhi A ja che. prAraMbhamAM ja meM Apane kahyuM ke jIvanane pasAthI ke makAnathI nathI mApavAnuM. jIvanane mApavA mATe hRdaya bhAvothI keTaluM samRddha che, mana ane mastiSka vicArothI keTalAM sabhara che ane buddhi pavitratAthI keTalI zuddha che e jovAnuM che. A vicAraNA mATe Ajano A maMgaLamaya divasa ApaNA sahune mATe eka yAdagAra divasa banI raho e zubhecchA. (noMdha : mahAvIra jaina vidyAlaya suvarNa mahotsavanA prasaMge yojAyela pravacanamALAmAM tArIkha 23-1-18ne maMgaLavAre biralA krIDA kendramAM pU. munizrI caMdraprabhasAgarajI (citrabhAnu) mahArAjazrIe Apela mananIya pravacana.) 278 - jIvana-mAMgalya

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28. prArthanA ane puruSArtha 5 vAta sadA smRtimAM rahe ke puNyano udaya eTale saMpatti nahi paNa zuM subuddhi, ane pApano udaya eTale garIbI che. nahi, paNa durbuddhi. mANaso puNyanA udayane jagatamAM te meLavelI saMpatti uparathI mApI rahyA che. konI pAse keTalI saMpatti che eno e hisAba kADhe che, ane jenI pAse vadhAre saMpatti hoya ene saMsAramAM puNyazALI gaNavAmAM Ave che. ane sadbuddhi hoya paNa saMpatti na hoya to loko ema kahe ke bhaNelo kharo, magaja sAruM paNa sAva kaDako che, takadIra nathI, khAlI che. Ama ene bUDa puNyazALI gaNavAmAM nathI Avato. jeTalA jeTalA tamane saMpattivAna puruSo dekhAze e badhA ja tamane bhAgyavAna che ane puNyavAna lAgaze. alabatta, paiso che. puNyathI maLe che paNa paiso e ja puNya che che ema nathI. be vacce aMtara che. paiso maLe pUrNanA pagathAre * 279

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che e puNyathI maLe che e sAcuM paNa paisAmAM ja badhuM puNya AvI gayuM evuM nathI. e paiso keTalIka vAra to kalpanA paNa na karI zako evAM pApone laI Ave che. paiso na karavAnA kajiyA paisA tamArI pAse karAvI zake; paiso AtmAnI namratAnA rAjamArgane badale bhayaMkara evA ahaMkAranA DuMgarAomAM aTavAvI zake che, ane paiso tamane saMtapuruSonA samAgamamAM laI jaIne upadezAmRtanuM pAna karAvavAne badale madirA, mAMsa ana maithunanA viSabharyA khADAmAM pheMkI zake che. tAtparya ke puNyathI paiso maLyo paNa puNya e paiso nathI. ahIM paiso ja pApanuM kAraNa thaI gayo. gaNitazAstranI jema ja A jIvanazAstra che. loko bhamramAM paDyA che ane A bhamra TheTha dharmasthAna sudhI AvI gayo che. jyAM jarAka paiso dekhAze eTale dharmopadezaka paNa kaheze ke tamArA jevA bhAgyavAna koNa ? jagata to bhramamAM che, mAyAe to mAnavane bhramamAM nAkhyo hato. have e bhramane uDADaze koNa ? mANasanI A eka pragADha nidrA che. emAMthI mANasane prabuddha ka2ze koNa ? jagADanAra ja UMghI jAya to ! eTale ja dhIme dhIme e mUrchA vadhatI jAya che; paisA taraphanI doDa vadhatI jAya che; saMpattinI mamatA vadhatI jAya che ane subuddhi tarapha durlakSa thatuM jAya che. saMpatti AvI, ThIka che, khoTuM nathI; enI sAma virodha nathI ane ene vakhoDavA jevI paNa nathI. paNa saMpattinI sAthe subuddhi AvI ke nahi e moTI vAta che. = jyAre saMpatti subuddhi sAthe Ave che tyAre ja e lakSmI bane che, jIvanane ajavALe che, tamArAmAM eka jAtanI rAjazrI Ave che. e rAjazrI zuM che ? mANasane jIvanamAM 2sanuM darzana thAya. ene lAge ke huM jIvana jIvI rahyo chuM. enA zabdomAM madhuratA hoya, magajamAM namratA hoya, vicAromAM dharma hoya ane AcaraNamAM sadAcAra hoya. A badhIya vastuo kone lIdhe Ave che ? saMpattinI sAthe subuddhi Ave to ja e badhIya vastu Ave. mahAbhAratano eka prasaMga che. pAMDavo ane kauravo zrIkRSNanI sahAya mAge che tyAre zrIkRSNe kahyuM : "juo, eka bAju mArI A badhI senA ane 280 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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vibhUtimattA che ane bIjI bAju huM ekalo chuM. ekalo AvuM paNa laDuM nahi. A bemAM je pasaMda karavuM hoya te karI lo, kAraNa ke mAre mana to tame baMne sarakhA cho; tame badhAya eka ja bIjanAM phUla cho; mAre mana tame samAna cho." kauravoe vicAra karyo : "ohoho ! keTalo moTo vaibhava che, keTalI moTI zrIkRSNanI saMpatti ane senA che ! A badhuM ApaNane maLatuM hoya to A eka khAlI kRSNanuM ApaNe zuM kAma che.' kauravoe kahyuM, "amane tamArI badhI vastuo hAthI, ghoDA, sainya Apajo.' kRSNa kahe : "kabUla che." jyAre bIjI bAju dharmarAjAe kahyuM, "amAre kAMI na joIe. amAre tame joIe, bIjuM kAMI nahi joIe. eka jo tame hazo to zUnyamAMthI sarjana thaze ane jo tame nahi ho to AkhuM sarjana zUnya thaI jaze.' A mAgaNImAM jIvananuM darzana che. A rUpaka che. bhASA samajavI paDaze. kRSNa eTale zuM ? enuM sainya eTale zuM ? enuM rAjya na sainya eTale saMpatti, ane kRSNa eTale subuddhi. -- jIvananA 2thane doranAro sArathi jo subuddhi nahi hoya to A jIvanaratha kyAMya athaDAI paDavAno. samarAMgaNamAM arjuna jo saphaLatA meLavI zakyo hoya to enI bANAvaLI tarIkenI kuzaLatAne lIdhe ke enA gAMDIvanA parAkramane lIdhe nahi, paNa eka sukuzaLa sArathine lIdhe. jenI pAse sadbuddhi che ene koI ja mArI nahi zake. tame araNyamAM jAo, ajANyA pradezamAM jAo, koInAya sathavArA vinA ekalA jAo, paNa tamArI sAthe jo subuddhi hoya to tamane saphaLatA maLyA vinA rahevAnI ja nathI. paNa jenI pAse subuddhi nathI, paNa mAtra saMpatti ja che enI saMpatti loko jhUMTavI zake che, rAjAo ene daMDa daI zake che ane sarakAra enI upara tapAsa karI zake che. zA mATe ? saMpatti che paNa subuddhi nathI mATe. jIvanasaMgrAmamAM jenA jIvanarathano sArathi subuddhirUpa zrIkRSNa che e AtmArUpa arjunane vijaya maLyA vinA rahe kharo ? A subuddhi jenI pAse hoya e ja mANasa puNyavAna che, bhAgyavAna che ane subuddhinA jore saMsAranI saMpattine potAnI pAse e bolAvI zake che ane na bolAve to jagatanI saMpattinA svAmIone potAne caraNe jhukAvI zake che. pUrNanA pagathAre * 281

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e sAthe ? mArA jana ipanA nahi, jo tamArI eka subuddhimAna rAjA hato. ene tyAM saMpattivAna rAjA mahemAna thayo. A dhanADhaca rAjAno vaibhava ane vistAra bahu moTo hato. dhanADhaca rAjAe A rAjAne tyAM khUba mahemAnagati mANI. A rAjAno mahela sAdo hato; ane sAdI enI jIvanacaryA hatI. pelA saMpattivAna rAjAe A subuddhivAna rAjAne eka prazna pUchyo : "tame rAjya calAvo cho ke sadAvratakhAtuM ?" rAjAe pUchyuM, "kema ? huM rAjya ja calAvuM chuM." pelo kahe : "mane to lAge che ke tame sadAvratakhAtuM calAvo cho ! loko pAse mahesUla lo nahi, kara vasUla karo nahi ane uparathI je che emAMthI paNa lokone ApI do, garIbone vaheMcI nAkho ane tamArA rAjyabhaMDArane khAlI rAkho to rAjya kema cAlaze ? tamArI pAse hIrA nahi, jhaverAta nahi, nIlama nahi, pannA nahi, kAMI ja nahi. tamAro bhaMDAra paNa kevo sAdo ? mArA bhaMDAranI vAta javA do, mArA zarIra uparanuM jhaverAta paNa eka karoDa rUpiyAnuM thAya. mArA rAjyabhaMDArane tamArA bhaMDAra sAthe sarakhAvuM chuM tyAre mane lAge che ke mAruM rAjya che, jyAre tamAruM sadAvratakhAtuM che. meM tamAre tyAM anna khAdhuM eTale mane thAya che ke rAjya kema calAvavuM enI rIta zIkhavato jAuM." subuddhimAna rAjAe kahyuM, "kevI rIte ?' eTale emaNe prajAne kevI rIte nicovavI, prajA pAsethI vadhAremAM vadhAre kema levuM, chatAM prajA pratye kema durlakSa karavuM ane rAjyabhaMDArane kema samRddha banAvavo e badhIya vartamAna rIto eNe batAvI dIdhI. enuM A kahevuM sAMbhaLI subuddhivAna rAjAe kahyuM, "tame tamArI rIta batAvI. tame kaho to huM mArI rIta batAvuM." hA batAvo." "huM tamane pUchuM ke tamArA rAjyanI saMpatti keTalI che e kaho." e rAjAe potAne je Acho Acho khyAla hato te Apyo. ATalA hIrA, ATalA pannA - ema karIne jeTalA abaja rUpiyA thatA hatA e badhAya gaNAvIne kahyuM ke, "mArI rAjya-saMpatti ATalA abaja rUpiyAnI thAya che." subuddhivAna rAjA kahe, "tamArI pAse ATalA abaja rUpiyA che, have mArI pAse zuM che te batAvuM." eNe tarata gAmamAM DhaMDhero piTAvyo : "huM muzkelImAM chuM, mAre bIjA rAjAne ATalA abaja rUpiyA ApavAnA che, rAjAnA rakSaNano A prazna che. 282 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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mATe potAnI zakti hoya e pramANe prajA premathI potAno phALo rAjyabhaMDAramAM noMdhAvI jAya." traNa divasamAM to prajAe dhana, ratno, hIrA, pannA badhuMya lAvI rAjyabhaMDAramAM moTo Dhagalo karyo. subuddhivAna rAjAe saMpattivAna rAjAne kahyuM, "have jarA gaNI juo, tamArI saMpattine mArI A saMpatti sAthe sarakhAvI juo." A saMpattinA DhagalA AgaLa pelAnI saMpatti vAmaNI lAgatI hatI. "rAjya calAvatAM tamane AvaDe che ke mane ? tame bheguM karIne enI rakSA mATe cokiyAta rAkho cho, polIsa rAkho cho, bIjA rAjAone zatru banAvo cho ane aMte saMgraha karIne bIjA rAjAonA manamAM tamArA pratye IrSyA jagADo cho. ahIM eTalA cokiyAta paNa nahi ane IrSyA paNa nahi. uparathI tamArA jevA paNa ema kahe che ke sadAvratakhAtuM calAve che. mAro bhaMDAra mAre tyAM nahi, prajAne tyAM che. mAro rAjyabhaMDAra saMpatti nahi, subuddhi che." A be vaccenuM aMtara tamane khyAlamAM AvyuM ? subuddhi ane saMpatti. ekanI pAse subuddhi hatI eTale e prasanna ane saMtoSI hato; bIjAnI pAse saMpatti hatI eTale e sadA prajAne lUMTavAnA vicAramAM baLyA karato hato. tamAre tyAM koI gharAka Ave tyAre tamane ema vicAra Ave ne ke Aje Ane barAbara "zIzAmAM utAruM." A bahu sAro zabda che ! ane pachI gharAkane barAbara "zIzAmAM utArIne tame rAjI thatAM kahezo : gharAkane kevo banAvyo, kevI rIte lUMTyo. zIzAmAM utAranAra pote paNa kyAMka UtarI rahyo che e bhUlI javAya che. tuM koIkane utAre che, tane ko'ka utAre che. dubuddhi e sahuthI kharAbamAM kharAba vastu che. gharAkanI sAthe vyApAra karavo hoya to ema nahi iccho ke Aja A barAbara hAthamAM Avyo che, huM lUMTI lauM, mAruM ghara bharI dauM. e tamArI kubuddhi tamane sukhe nahi jIvavA de. jo banI zake to sarasa vicAra karo : "jema huM peTa laIne beTho chuM ema ene paNa peTa che. huM jema sukhI thavA mAguM chuM ema grAhaka paNa sukhI thavA ahIM Avyo che. huM AnI sAthe evo vyApAra karuM ke jemAMthI mane paNa be paisA maLe ane A laI janAra mANasa paNa sukhI thAya." gharAkanuM sAruM nahi iccho tyAM sudhI vyApArInuM sAruM nahi thAya. vyApAra e trAjavuM che. eka pUrNanA pagathAre ja 283

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bAjunuM palluM gharAka che, bIjI bAjunuM palluM vecanAra che. vecanAra ane lenAra baMnenAM pallAM sarakhAM 2he to ja e trAjavuM prAmANika gaNAya. dharatIkaMpa e bIju kAMI nathI, mANasanA jIvananA paDaghAo che. mANasane AghAta Ape che, dhaDakAve che, gabharAve che, sarbuddhinA astitvano khyAla Ape che. kahe che ke tuM ema mAnIza nahi ke badhuM vijJAna upara ja cAle che. aniyaMtritane niyaMtrita karanAruM tattva vizvamAM pracchanna chatAM jIvaMta che, je anuzAsana karI zake che. tame jozo ke vijJAna badhe pahoMcI zakyuM, paNa dharatIkaMpa kyAre thavAno che e kahevAnI vijJAnanIya zakti nathI. A bicArA joSIonI to vAta ja javA do. e to gorakhadhaMdhA ja karatA hoya che. e badhA takasAdhuo che. banAva banI gayA pachI baoNmbagoLA choDanArA ane kahenArA game teTalA hoya, paNa dharatIkaMpa pahelAM koIe AvIne koI chApAnA taMtrIne ke khabarapatrIne nahotuM kahyuM ke tame cAra vAge badhAne cetavI dejo. A prakRtino niyama che. eno artha e nathI ke prakRti ApaNAthI viruddhamAM che, ApaNe prakRtithI viruddhamAM chIe. prakRti to ApaNA saMvAdamAM che. mANaso prakRtine paDakAra kare che eTale prakRti potAnI zaktino AviSkAra evA koI banAvo dvArA kare che. mANase mAtra saMpatti mATe nahi, paNa subuddhi mATe sAdhanA karavAnI che. kadI e vicAra Ave che ke mArI pAse saMpatti to AvI, paNa subuddhi che ? subuddhi na hoya to saMpatti AzIrvAda banavAne badale abhizApa banI jAya che; sukha banavAne badale eka ciMtA banI jAya che, prabhutA banavAne badale pazutA thaI jAya che; mANasa zeThiyAne badale veThiyo banI jAya che. paiso tamane ArAmathI dharma na karavA de, sadguruonAM vacanAmRta sAMbhaLavA na de, prArthanA mATe samaya na kADhavA de ane sukhazAMtithI besavA na de tyAre tamAre vicAravuM joIe ke paisAe tamane svAmI banAvyA ke dAsa ? dhanathI jo dAsapaNuM AvatuM hoya to e lakSmIpati nahi, paNa lakSmIdAsa che ! eka lakSmIpati che; bIjo lakSmIdAsa che. lakSmIpati koNa ? je saMpattine dAsa banAve. konA dvArA ? subuddhi dvArA. paNa je lakSmIdAsa che e buddhi gumAvI de che ane jIvanabhara lakSmIno nokara thaIne mAtra AratI ja utAryA 284 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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kare che enI AkhI jiMdagI saMcayamAM pUrI thAya che. tema chatAM lakSmIne javuM hoya tyAre e AratI utAranArane pUchatI paNa nathI ke huM jAuM ? puNyano udaya e saMpatti nahi paNa subuddhi che. jenI pAse subuddhi che enI saMpatti dhanya che. dharma saMpattino virodhI nathI. saMpatti puNyano eka aMkura jarUra che, paNa e pUrNa nathI. saMpattine lokoe satkArI che paNa saMpatti alaMkRta konAthI bane che ? subuddhithI. subuddhi hoya to ja saMpatti alaMkRta bane che. saMpattithI prasiddhi ke samRddhi Ave, paNa zAMti to subuddhi hoya to ja Ave. ApaNane eka bahu moTuM biruda maLela che, 'mAnava.' mAnava thavuM e kAMI sAmAnya vAta nathI. badhAM ja vizeSaNo enI AgaLa vAmaNAM che. mAnava banavA mATe subuddhi anivArya che. A hoya to ja vicAra Ave ke huM koNa chuM ane kyAM chuM. mitra hoya ke zatru, paNa enA mATe mAnavanA vicAra to maMgaLamaya ja hoya. amaMgaLa vicAro ApaNA maMgaLa vicArone dhUMdhaLA karI nAkhe che. bIjA mATenA amaMgaLa vicAro ApaNA ja vicArone dhUMdhaLA kare che. amaMgaLa vicAra kyAM Ave che ? ApaNA magajamAM Ave che. ApaNA magajanA suvarNapAtramAM A gaMdI amaMgaLa vastu zA mATe AvavA devI ? tamArI pAse mATInuM koI pAtra hoya ane tamArA hAthamAMthI sa2Ine e gaTaramAM cAlyuM jAya to emAM gaTaranI gaMdakI AvyA vinA rahe ? kadAca gaMdakIne tame kADhI nAkho paNa enA aMzo to rahI ja jAya che. ene sAbuthI garama pANIthI dhuo, paNa eka vAra gaTaramAM gayeluM pAtra jaladI zuddha kema thAya ? evI ja rIte ApaNA magajamAM gaMdA vicAro AvI gayA pachI eTalI vAra to magajanuM pAtra kharAba ane gaMduM thaI ja jAya ne ? eTale mATe sArI vastu e che ke suMdara vicAro. je koI tamArI sAme Ave tyAre eka ja vicAra karo : 'AnuM bhaluM thAo, mArAthI jo joI zakAya ema hoya to enAmAM huM sAruM jouM ane na joI zakAya to kharAba jovAnI mAre jarU2 nathI.' pUrNanA pagathAre * 285

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subuddhivAna mANasa vicAra karato karato dhIre dhIre potAnI aMdaranI duniyAne pote samRddha banAvato jAya che, paNa jo e kharAba vicAra karato thAya to dhIre dhIre enuM aMtara evuM malina thAya ke pachI badhe ene amaMgaLanuM ja darzana thAya che. jagatamAM Aja saMpatti vadhatI jAya che. subuddhi ghaTatI jAya che. subuddhine vadhAravI hoya to zuM karavuM joIe ? prArthanA. bhagavAnane kAgaLa lakhavo hoya to zAhI ke kAgaLathI nahi; eka prArthanA pUratI che. tamAro avAja tyAM pahoMcI jAya che. prArthanA e zabda nathI paNa hRdayano pokAra che. tamAruM hRdaya pokAre che : "tArA ane mArA vacce kevuM aMtara paDI gayuM che ! tuM subuddhino bhaMDAra che ane ahIM kubuddhi sivAya bIjuM kAMI che ja nahi." bALaka jema mAne pokAre che ema hRdaya pokAre che : kAM to tuM mane najIka bolAvI le agara to dUra rahuM tyAM sudhI tuM mane tArI hUMpha Apa." prArthanA e mANasane mATe eka anivArya aMga che. mANasa jyAre prArthanAmAM bese che tyAre aMtaranuM avalokana kare che : "mArI pAse saMpatti che ke subuddhi ? saMpatti vadhI ke subuddhi ?" eka jamAnAmAM lAkha rUpiyAvALo lakhezarI kahevAto. enuM mAna paNa keTaluM ! Aje lAkha to ThIka, karoDAdhipatine paNa eTalI pratiSThA nathI maLatI. samRddhi vadhI che, kalpanA na karIe eTalo paiso vadhyo che paNa e saMpatti vadhavAnI sAthe subuddhi vadhI che ke nahi eno mApadaMDa e ApaNI prArthanAo che. bhagavAna ane ApaNI vacce ekatAnuM darzana thAya che tyAre ApaNe bhagavAnanI pAse ne pAse AvatA jaIe chIe; ane jema jema enI pAse AvIe tema tema kubuddhi ghaTatI jAya che ane subuddhi vadhatI jAya che. bhagavAnanI kRpA e zuM che ? ApaNAmAM buddhi Ave tyAre samajI levuM ke have bhagavAnanI kRpAnuM avataraNa ApaNAmAMthI rahyuM che. paNa subuddhi na Ave ane ekalI saMpatti ja Ave to ema kahevuM nahi ke mArA upara bhagavAnanA cAra hAtha che. bhagavAnanA cAra hAtha hota to subuddhi eTalI ja hota, jeTalI saMpatti. subuddhi vinAnI saMpattithI mANasane keTaluM nukasAna thAya che tenI mImAMsA eka vidyAne sarasa rIte karI che. saMpatti ekalI kadI nathI rahetI, kAM to e 286 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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subuddhi sAthe rahe, ane e na maLe to kubuddhine bolavI le che. kubuddhinAM saMtAna cAra che : kAma, madirA, jugAra ane julama, kAmathI 52dA2AmAM rata rahe, madirAthI vivekahIna bane, jugArathI aneka anartho seve ane julamI paisAne jore aneka naranArIone trAsa Ape. A cAre durguNone kAraNe AvelI kuTevo naranArIone trAsa Ape. A cAre durguNone kAraNe AvelI kuTevo jIvanamAM ghara karI jAya che. Akhare saMpatti to cAlI jAya che paNa AvA mANasanA jIvanamAM aMte durguNo ja zeSa rUpe rahe che. kadAca A janmamAM saMpatti na paNa jAya to paraloka to bagaDI ja jAya che, jenuM pariNAma mANasane potAne ja bhogavavuM paDe che. saMpatti vadhAremAM vadhAre Ave to smazAna sudhI Ave, jyAre mANase enAthI meLavelA susaMskAra agara kusaMskAra jIva jyAM jyAM jAya, tyAM tyAM A loka ke paralokamAM, sAthe ja cAlyA AvatA hoya che. eka saMskArI vyaktie prArthanA karatAM kahyuM : "bhagavAna ! mane dhana Ape to Apaje, na Ape to kAMI nahi, paNa mane subuddhithI vaMcita na rAkhIza." jenI pAse subuddhi hoya ane chatAM e duHkhI hoya evo eka mANasa tame mane batAvo. ghaNI vAra ghaNA kahe che ke dharmI mANaso bahu du:khI hoya che. huM tamane khAtarIthI kahuM chuM ke dharmI koI divasa du:khI hoI zake ja nahI ! dharmI jo du:khI hoya to dharma duniyAmAM jIvato nathI ema mAnajo. dharma e bahArano dekhAva ke bAhya cihno nathI, paNa aMdaranI abhIpsA che. aMtaranI pyAsa e dharma che. jema paththaramAMthI pratimA banAvavAnI abhIpsA zilpIne hoya che ema AtmAmAMthI paramAtmA banAvavAnI abhIpsA dharmI mANasamAM hoya che. zilpI rAtadivasa kharabacaDA paththarane ghaDIghaDIne, TAMkaNAM mArImArIne, emAMthI AkAra kotarato kotarato ene suMdara pratimAmAM pheravI nAkhe che; jenAM suDoLa AMkha, moDhuM ane samagra AkRtinuM darzana karatAM ApaNuM hRdaya AhlAdathI chalakAI jAya che ! hato paththara paNa banI pratimA; kAraNa ke emAM zilpInI abhIpsA pragaTI. pUrNanA pagathAre * 287

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ema ja koI dharma mANasane thAya ke huM AtmAne paramAtmA banAvuM, jIvane ziva banAvuM, kaMkarane zaMkara banAvuM, to e jaMpe ? enI A abhIpsA ene vilAsa ane vastuonI bhUkhamAMthI mukta karAvI virATa tarapha laI jAya tyAre ja e jaMpe. dharmImAM cAra lakSaNonuM darzana thAya che. e pramAdI hoya nahi, e prArthanA kadI choDe nahi, puruSArtha enA prANa hoya ane prAmANikatAne e vaLagI rahe che. A cAra lakSaNovALo mANasa duniyAmAM duHkhI banyo hoya evuM kadI banyuM nathI. huM hamaNAM ja amerikAnA presiDanDa harbarTa huvaranuM jIvana vAMcato hato. temAM tenA jIvanano eka prasaMga Ave che. yunivarsiTImAMthI bhaNIne koI tarata presiDanTa thato nathI. harbarTa ijanera thaIne Avyo ane eka chApAmAM vAMcyuM ke amuka kaMpanImAM ijaneranI jagyA khAlI che. e tarata tyAM pahoMcI gayo, maeNnejarane maLyo. namana karIne kahyuM ke, hamaNAM ja yunivarsiTImAMthI uttIrNa thayo chuM, mAre nokarInI jarUra che. maeNnejare kahyuM ke, jagyA khAlI che paNa te ijaneranI nahi, TAipisTanI. harbarTe vicAra karyo : "jagyA khAlI hoya to bharavI." TAipisTa ane ijaneranA sthAnamAM keTaluM aMtara che ? paNa eNe vicAryuM ke khAlI besI rahevuM, udyama vagaranA thaI jIvavuM, enA karatAM kAMIka kAma karavuM joIe. eNe kahyuM, "sAheba ! TAipisTa tarIke paNa kAma karavA huM taiyAra chuM." maeNnejare kahyuM, "traNa divasa pachI Avajo.'' trIje divase oNphisamAM e hAja2 thayo ane kAma para caDhI gayo. " eka divasa maeNnejara AMTo mArato mArato A bAju Avyo, joyuM to harbarTa barAbara kAma karI rahyo hato. enI AMgaLIo jANe ramI rahI hatI. maeNneja2 eka miniTa Ubho rahyo ane pelA yuvakane pUchyuM, "tame ijanera cho ke TAipisTa ? tamArI AMgaLIo to kevI sarasa cAle che, jANe varSothI tame A kAma karatA ho.'' harbarTe kahyuM, "sAheba, je divase huM Apane maLyo tyAre guruvAra hato. ApanI pAsethI jaIne bhADAnuM TAiparAiTara laIne meM cAra divasa, rAta-divasa enA 52 ja mahenata karI. prArthanA karato gayo ane puruSArtha cAlu rAkhyo.' 288 : jIvana-mAMgalya

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mANasa puruSArtha kare nahi ane ekalI prArthanA ja kare, to ethI kaMI siddhi na maLe. koI gAMTha paDI hoya ane ene eka AMgaLIthI kholavA jAo to khUle ? rezamanI majabUta gAMTha kholavA mATe be AMgaLI joIe ja. ema jIvananI gAMThone ukelavA mATe puruSArtha paNa joIe ane prArthanA paNa joIe. ekalI prArthanAnI AMgaLI kAma nahi lAge. puruSArtha vinAnI prArthanA vaMdhya che. jyAM jyAM tame prArthanAnuM phaLa joyuM haze tyAM tyAM enA pahelAM puruSArthanuM baLa hovuM ja joIe. hA, keTalAka prasaMgomAM jovA maLe che ke khUba puruSArtha karavA chatAM saphaLatA na maLe tyAre prArthanAno ArtanAda emano sahAyaka banyo che. paNa e sahAya maLatA pahelAM puruSArtha to hovo ja joIe. Aje jIvanamAM A be aMga sAva chUTAM paDI gayAM che. eka varga evo che ke je prArthanAmAM mAnato nathI. covIse kalAka gadhdhAvaitaruM karyA kare. e puruSArthI che. - bIjo varga evo che ke mahenata jarAya na kare ane kahe ke, mArI prArthanA cAlu che ne ! huM to jouM chuM ke A badhA lakavAnA dardIo che. ko'kane DAbo che to ko'kane jamaNo, paNa A che lakavo. jyAM sudhI mANasa A baMne aMgomAM - puruSArtha ane prArthanAmAM - samartha nahi bane tyAM sudhI ene jIvanamAM saphaLatA nahi ja maLe. jIvananuM A eka sUtra che. jeNe jeNe jIvanamAM saphaLatA meLavI che emaNe baMne aMgone barAbara vAparyA che. e vIro prArthanA karatA rahyA ane puruSArthamAM maMDI paDyA. enA ja pariNAme e icchita sthAne pahoMcI gayA. - harbarTe saMpUrNa zraddhA sAthe eTalI mahenata karI ke cAra ja divasamAM pelA maeNnejaranA manamAM e vasI gayo. ene thAbaDIne eNe kahyuM, "duniyAmAM evuM kayuM sthAna che je tArA jevo tejasvI vidyArthI na meLavI zake ?" paNa ene e vakhate khabara nahi ke A mANasa amerikAno pramukha thavAno che. kAma game te karo, paNa e kAmanI aMdara saccAI che ke nahi e ja tAranArI vAta che." saccAI e bahu moTI vAta che. bhagavAnanI pUjA karato hoya paNa saccAI na ho to pUjA jevuM uttama kAma paNa nakAmuM banI jAya che. divALI pUrNanA pagathAre ja 289

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kalpamAM sAMbhaLyuM to haze ne ? keTalA sAdhuo, keTalA AcAryo narake javAnA? AMkaDAo sAMbhaLatA paNa tharatharATa thAya. - AcAryo narakamAM kema jAya e prazna che ! kAraNa ke, je vyavasAya e kare che e vyavasAyanI sAthe vaphAdArI na hoya to e AcAryane paNa narakamAM javuM paDe. tame game te dhaMdho karatA ho, paNa enI sAme tamArI niSThA e bahu moTI vAta che. bhale tame dukAne beThA ho ane kApaDa phADatA ho emAM paNa tamArI nIti hoya ! "huM prAmANikatAthI ApIza, grAhakanI sAthe sAro vyavahAra karIza." vyApArIno dharma prAmANikatA che. eka bharavADaNa bAI zeThane ghI ApI gaI. zeThe ghI to laI lIdhuM paNa zeThane jarA zaMkA paDI. eNe sAMje ghI toLyuM to poNo zera ja nIkaLyuM. bIje divase pelI bAI jyAre ghI vecavA nIkaLI tyAre zeThe kahyuM, "tuM kevI aprAmANika che ! tArA upara meM vizvAsa rAkhyo. meM mAnyuM ke gAmaDAnA loko juThuM nahi bole, anIti nahi kare; ane tuM to zera ghIne badale poNo zera ApIne gaI." pelI bAI AzcaryapUrvaka pUchavA lAgI : "huM aprAmANika ? mArA mAthe Izvara che. e zera ja ghI che ane huM koI divasa juThuM nathI bolatI." zeTha kahe, "lAva tyAre toLIe. kayA zerathI teM A ghI toLyuM, hatuM te tuM mane kahe." bAIe kahyuM, "mArI pAse zera kyAMthI hoya ? gaI kAle tamAre tyAMthI ja eka zera sAkara laI gayelI ane e vakhate mAre A ghI toLavAnuM hatuM eTale eka bAju ghI mUkyuM ane bIjI bAju tamArI sAkara mUkI. tame ApelI zera sAkarathI meM A ghI toLyuM che. huM bIjuM kAMI jANatI nathI ! mArI pAse zera ane kATalAM che ja nahi. kATaluM tamArI sAkara." zeThane khyAla AvI gayo ke, "oha ! mArI sAkaranA badalAmAM ja A ghI AveluM che." A jagatamAM aprAmANikatA kema phelAya che ane bheLaseLa thaIne tamAre tyAM kevI rIte Ave che te A vAtamAM jovAnuM che. A aprAmANikatA kokane dUdhanA rUpamAM AvatI hoya, ko'kane khAMDanA rUpamAM AvatI hoya, to ko'kane loTanA rUpamAM AvatI hoya. jIvananAM vividha kSetromAM e judI judI rIte Ave che. paNa dhyAnamAM rAkhavAnuM che ke khAMDamAM gayelI aprAmANikatA ghInA rUpamAM 290 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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pharIne pAchI AvI jAya che. enA forms - AkAra judA che, pravAha eka che. e pravAhane pichAnavo e ja jIvananuM rahasya che. loko A rahasyane jotA nathI. tame game te vyavasAya karo; pachI e pUjAno hoya ke paTAvALAno hoya, paNa tamArA vyavasAya pratye tamArI niSThA e bahu mahattvanI vAta che. vaNakarano dhaMdho karavA chatAM kabIrane ema nathI lAgyuM ke huM vaNakara chuM eTale halako chuM. e to tANA ane vANAnI sAthe jIvanane sarakhAvatA ja gayA, vaNatA ja gayA ane bhagavAnanuM bhajana karatA ja gayA. potAnA vyavasAyane halako nahi gaNatAM vyavasAyamAM AvatI vaMcanAne halakI gaNo. A tattva dhyAnamAM rAkhIne mANasa jIvananI carcA kare to enAM puruSArtha ane prArthanA e baMnemAM saMvAditA AvI jAya. savAranA UThIne prArthanA karavAnI. kaI prArthanA ? prArthanAmAM e ke buddhi subuddhi bano. je je vastu mArI sAme Ave enA upara huM subuddhino prakAza dharuM ane subuddhinA prakAzamAM ja vastune grahaNa karuM. prArthanA e savArano nAsto che, ane rAtanA sUtAM pahelAM levA lAyaka dUdhano pyAlo che. ghaNAM moTAM gharomAM chokarAne uThADIne kahevAtuM hoya che ke, bAbA, dUdha pI le beTA. rAtanA dasa vAgyA hoya to paNa sUvA jatAM pahelAM pUche : "teM dUdha pIdhuM ke ?" prArthanA Avo ja koIka pyAlo che. mANasa savAranA suMdara vicAro ane daDha saMkalpo sAthe UThe ane rAtanA sUvA jAya tyAre AkhA divasamAM jene jene maLyo e badhAnI sAthe kevo vyavahAra hato, kone mATe kharAba bolyo, kone mATe atizayokti karI, enI AlocanA karI, pharI evuM na karavAnA vicAra sAthe poDhe. Aje samAjamAM khoTI aphavAo ane nakAmI nidAo, na banelI vAtamAM ane banatA banAvomAM sAcI-khoTI saMmati ane gaMdI vAto A badhuM kema bane che ? kAraNa ke prArthanAmAM AlocanAno abhAva che. mane lAge che ke loko pAse prArthanAnA zabdo ghaNA che, bhAva thoDo che. pUrNanA pagathAre * 291

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zabda vadhe ane bhAva ghaTe to emAMthI maLe kAMI nahi. bahu zabdo nahi, bahu lAMbAM lAMbAM soto nahi; thoDuM, paNa samajavAnuM hovuM joIe. eka bhAI mane kahetA hatA ke huM savAre UThIne gItAnA pAMca adhyAya vAMcI jAuM chuM. mane thayuM, "bhalA mANasa, ATalA badhA adhyAya vAMcyA chatAM zAMti nahi !" e adhyAya vAMce, yaMtranI jema eTalI jhaDapathI e doDyo jAya ke arthanI vicAraNA karavA to ThIka, paNa zvAsa levA paNa Ubho na rahe. prArthanA e mAtra zabdo nathI, bhAva che. jema jema tame UMDANamAM jAo tema tema tamAruM citta ekarUpa bane che. hRdaya ane prArthanA eka bane to duniyAnuM evuM zuM che je na bane? je je zabdo bolo enA upara vicAra karo. huM je boluM chuM e mArA jIvanamAM che ? kaMI navuM Ave che ? pachI tamane ja vicAra Avaze : "A prArthanA huM karuM chuM chatAM mArA jIvanamAM saMvAda kema nathI ?" prArthanAnI sAthe ciMtana hovuM joIe. zabdonI vipulatA nahi, paNa bhAvanuM UMDANa vadhavuM joIe. subuddhimAna sAMje zayana karavA jAya tyAre jema joDA joDAne ThekANe mUke, koTa koTane ThekANe mUke, khamIsa khamIsane ThekANe mUke ema cittane paramAtmAnA ciMtanamAM mUke, pachI kahe, "have huM tArI sAthe chuM, ekarUpa chuM." paramAtmAnA mahAcaitanyanA prakAzanI sAthe tamArA cittane joDI do. jema gharanA Tebala-lempanA plagane saoNkeTamAM goThavatAM ja lAiTa thAya che ema tame tamArA cittane paramAtmAnI sAthe joDI sUI jAo, e prakAzabhara thaI jaze pachI koI bhaya nahi, koIno Dara nahi ane koI azubha ane amaMgaLa svapna nahi. badhuM ja zubha. rAtanA sUtI vakhate paramAtmA sivAya badhuM ja bhUlI jAo. vyApAra paNa bhUlI jAo, sagAM paNa bhUlI jAo, jhaMjhaTa paNa bhUlI jAo. A thoDI zI rAta tamArA ArAma ane virAma mATe ja nakkI thaI che. e ArAmamAM pragADha zAMti ja hoya. e ArAma kadAca lAMbo paNa nIvaDI jAya to zI khabara ? ApaNI yAtrA e maMgaLamaya vicAronI vaNajhAra che. prArthanAno hetu paramAtmA sAthenI ekatA che. savAranI prArthanAmAM subuddhinI mAgaNI che ane rAtanI prArthanAmAM AhAra, upakaraNa - 292 % jIvana-mAMgalya

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belongings ane A dehanI upAdhi, A badhAMnI mamatAno tyAga che. re pravAsI ! tuM sAthe zuM laIne jaIza ? to traNa vAta kahI : pravAsI traNane choDe che : AhAra, upakaraNa ane deha; ane A traNane sAthe levAnA che : arihaMta e deva che, susAdhu e guru che ane jinezvare kahelo ahiMsAmaya mArga e sAdAInAM sauMdaryabharyA jIvanane jIvato dharma che. A traNane pravAsamAM sAthe laI AgaLa vadhavAnuM che. maMgaLa vicArothI ApaNe jIvanane samRddha ane suMdara banAvI zakIe. pahelo vicAra e ke puNyano udaya e saMpatti nahi paNa subuddhi : pApano ya e kaThinAI nahi paNa kubuddhi. kaThinAI Ave, garIbI Ave to kaho zA vAMdho che ? duniyAmAM garIba koNa nahotuM ? puNiyo garIba nahoto ? jUnA jamAnAmAM paNa ghaNAya evA garIbo hatA jeo A lokamAM satkAra ane paralokamAM mokSa pAmI gayA che. garIbI e pApano udaya nathI, kubuddhi e pApano udaya che. saMpatti e puNyano udaya nathI, paNa subuddhi e puNyano udaya che. pUrNanA pagathAre * 293

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29. strI : jvALA nahi, jyota - mAnuM ke strI eka kavitA che. 3 kavitAmAM chaMda hoya che, zabdonuM zuM lAlitya hoya che, jIvanane saparze evo eka sthAyI bhAva hoya che. kAvyazAstranA niyamothI subaddha kavitA ja, uttama kavitAmAM lekhAya che. te ja pramANe strInA ja jIvanamAM paNa saMyama ane satyabhAva vagere huM hoya to tenuM jIvana paNa kavitA bane che, che nahi to bane che kekArava - je kalaha, bhULa kaMkAsa ane kaTutAthI kaluSita hoya che. zANI strI jIvanane kavitAmaya, ja kalyANamaya ane saMvAdamaya kema banAvI zake ja che te ja ApaNe vicAravAnuM che. strInI zaktine jayota ane vALA che evI be upamA ApI zakAya. jyota prakAza Ape che, aMdhakArane dUra karI sarvane ujjavaLa kare che, jyAre vALA bhasma kare ja che, lAMbA kALanA sarjanano nAza karI # vAtAvaraNane ujjaDa kare che. jagatano che itihAsa A baMne vAtanAM udAharaNa pUrAM pADe che. 294 : jIvana-mAMgalya

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jyotanI zaktine dIpti che; vALAnI zaktine kAlimAM che. eka ja prakAranAM kevAM be judAM svarUpa ! strInA jIvanavikAsamAM ke navanirmANamAM A bhAvanA mukhya bhAga bhajave che. strIoe vicAravAnuM che : "ene zuM banavuM che ? jyota ke jvALA ?" yogya dIkSA ane zikSA maLe to jyota, nahi to jvALA. supAtre jyota, kupAtre javALA ! jyota evuM jIvana jIvI jAya che ke jethI saMsAra ujjavaLa ane suMdara bane, ramya ane rasavaMta bane; mahApuruSo paNa tenI sAme mastaka jhukAve, atyAre tamAro evo samaya che ke jyAM nirNaya thavAno che. AvatI kAlanAM dvAra kholavAnI cAvI tamAre hAthamAM levAnI che. tamAruM atyAranuM jIvana AzAthI sabhara che, svapnothI suMdara che, lAgaNIothI chalochala che. paNa lAgaNInA khoTA pUramAM tame kyAMka taNAI na jAo te mATe atyArathI ja tamAre sAvadha rahevAnuM che ane sajAga banavAnuM che. mANasa pAse traNa sAdhana che : vicAra, uccAra ane AcAra. vyakti potAno vikAsa ke vinAza A ja sAdhanAthI kare che. pahelAM vicArano udaya thAya che, pachI uccAra Ave che ane aMte AcAranuM darzana thAya che. sarakAranA bhayathI ke daMDanA dabANathI AcAra sAro rAkhI zakAya, sattA ke samAjanI bIke uccAra paNa sAro rAkhI zakAya, paNa vicAra mATe kaI sattA ke kayo bhaya ? mANasa AcAramAM ke uccAramAM daMbha karI zake paNa potAnA vicArothI pote daMbha kema karI zake ? koI mANasa jo AcAramAM khare ja sAro hoya to te mULa svarUpe vicAramAM sAro hovo ja joIe. vicAra AtmasAtu che; AcArane uchIno lAvI zako cho, kAraNa ke te para che. paNa vicAra to lohImAM vaNAyela che. jIvanane kavitAmaya banAvavA vicAramAM AvA sauMdaryanI AvazyakatA che. ekalatAnI ghaDImAM paNa vicAra kaI dizAmAM kAma kare che tenuM avalokana karatA raho. mahAna puruSo potAnA vicAranI cokI kare che. ekAda zubha vicAra ekAntamAM paNa AvI gayo hota to tenuM prAyazcitta kare che. gAMdhIjI upavAsa pachI vadhu prasanna dekhAtA. e upavAsathI kadI thAkatA nahotA tenuM kAraNa emaNe lakhela mIrAMbahena uparanA patramAthI tAravI zakAya che : "phUla rAtanA jhAkaLamAM dhovAIne zubhra ane tAjuM bane che, tema mArA sAthIothI thayelA aparAdhone dhoIne upavAsa pachI huM bahAra Avyo chuM." azubha vicAra dhovAI javAthI mana haLavuM thatAM je prasannatA Ave che te ora che. pUrNanA pagathAre * 25

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Aje je baheno ane bhAIomAM viSAda che, Depression anubhavAya che, hisTIriyA Ave che, te batAve che ke temanA vicAromAM kaMIka avyavasthita tattva raheluM che, jene lIdhe emanuM samatvabharyuM vyaktitva naSTa thayuM che. duniyAmAM to Aje je potAnA vicArone saMtADI jANe che, te loko mutsaddI gaNAya che. je hoya te bole nahi; je bole te hoya nahi - AvI havA pAmI che. eka bhAIe mane pustaka ApyuM. enuM nAma hatuM : "How to win Friends and Influence People." meM emane kahyuM : "A pustaka AtmAnA vyaktitvane pragaTa karavAnuM nathI zIkhavatuM paNa mAtra polished kema banavuM te batAve che. emAM sAcA banavA karatAM sArA dekhAvA para vadhu vivecana che. sabhyatA rAkho e sArI vAta che, paNa e sabhyatA sahaja rIte aMdarathI AvavI joIe. sabhyatA rAkhavA khAtara rAkhavI, eno artha daMbha paNa thAya. Aje yuropanA "verI phAina', "nAisa', "thenka yu' jevA zabdo keTalA pracura rIte vaparAya che ! paNa te phakata bAhya viveka khAtara ja vaparAya che. A zabdo jo sahRdayatAthI bolAya to zreSTha, paNa AcAranA daMbharUpe vaparAya to ? huM mAnuM chuM ke viveka mATe bolAtA zabdomAM viveka to joIe ja." mANasanA vicArane satya AkAra ApavA mATe, uccAra ane AcAra e be sAdhano che. A be mAdhyama dvArA mANasamAM raheluM zubha tattva bahAra Ave che. enA bhAvamAM raheluM sauMdarya uccAra dvArA AkAra le te ja uddeza che. paNa huM to jou chuM ke keTalAka loko saDI gayelA zAkanA bhAgane samAratI vakhate kApIne pheMkI de che, paNa saDelA vicArone saMgrahI, mananI aMdara rAkhI mUke che. keTalAka loko ekAnta maLe ane ekalA hoya tyAre evuM vAcana vAMce ke sabhya vyakti to e jotAM paNa kSobha pAme. A ekAnta zAne mATe che ? zubha vicArone azubha karavA mATe ? vicAra e to vyaktino pAyo che. pAyo azubha hoya to imArata zubha kema banI zake ? pleTaphorma para juo. eka Trena amadAvAda tarapha janArI hoya che to bIjI paMjAba tarapha. loko eka ja pleTaphorma dvArA aMdara Ave che. te vakhate paMjAbI ane gujarAtI pravAsI sAthe hoya che. baMne gADIo paNa pAse pAse UbhI hoya che. paNa cAlu thayA pachI baMne vacce dhIre dhIre aMtara vadhatuM jAya che. eka amadAvAda pahoMce che, bIjI paMjAba. te pramANe vicAronuM aMtara paNa prAraMbhamAM nahi dekhAya, paNa jIvananuM aMtara kapAtAM te aMtara vadhatuM jAya che. saMta paNa vicArathI thavAya che ane zetAna paNa vicArathI ja thavAya che. sauMdarya 296 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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ke sitamabharyA saMgrAma vicAranuM ja pariNAma che ! je vyakti vicAra sAthe jAgrata che te ja jIvanamAM saMvAda sarjI zake che. e mATe jIvananA UMDANamAM jAo. kyAMya sauthI vadhu UMDANa hoya to te jIvananuM che. je uparanI sapATI para che te to mAtra AsapAsa parakammA ja kare che. tene khabara nathI ke jIvana e sapATI upara nahi paNa UMDuM che, gahana che. tame atyAre bhaNo cho. tamAro A samaya abhyAsa mATe che. tame tamArA mArksa ane klAsa lAvavA mATe jAgrata raho te sahaja che; paNa mULa jIvanadRSTine cUko nahi. jIvanadRSTi vinAnuM, mAtra pustakiyuM jJAna tamane UbhA nahi karI zake. vipattimAM paNa unnata mastake ane svasthatAthI jIvana jIvavAnuM baLa A dRSTithI ja maLI zake che. jIvananA avalokanathI aMdaranI vyakti virATa rUpa le che, vicAra suvicAra bane che, vicAra-vicAra vacce saMvAda utpanna thAya che ane saphaLatA prApta thAya che. atyAre mane saurASTramAM banelI eka ghaTanA yAda Ave che. e gulAbabAInA jIvanamAMthI tamaneya preraNA maLaze. mohananuM lagna eka zyAma paNa saMskArI kanyA gulAba sAthe thayuM hatuM. thoDAM varSa pachI mohanane eka dhanavAnanI maitrI thaI. mohanane te muMbaI lAvyo. tyAM te nokarIe rahyo. hoziyArIthI AgaLa ane AgaLa vadhato ja gayo. zeThe joyuM ke mohananI pakaDa grAhako para ane dhaMdhA para sArI che. eTale ene cAra AnI bhAga Apyo. divasa jatAM eno ATha AnI bhAga thayo. duHkhanA enA divasomAM enI patnI ene preraNA ApatI rahI hatI, sevA karatI ane e duHkhanA divasone hasIne pAra karavAmAM chAyAnI jema sahAyaka banatI. paNa have jotajotAmAM sukha ane saMpattinA divaso AvI maLyA. paiso vadhato ja gayo. have e mohana nahi, mohanalAla thayo. artha keTalIka vAra anarthane teDI lAve che ne ! dhana paNa pramANamAM maLe to sAruM, paNa vadhu prApti keTalIka vAra musIbatanuM kAraNa bane che. Aje nakha vadhAravAnI phaeNzana thaI gaI che eTale zuM kahuM ? paNa te pramANasara hoya to sArA; vadhu hoya to temAM mela bharAya. dhana paNa vadhu hoya to temAM kacaro bharAya ane koka vAra mULamAMthI UkhaDI jAya. mohanalAla pAse dhana AvyuM. eTale enI sAthe kahevAtA mitro paNa AvyA. eka sAMje mitronI A maMDaLI koI moTI hoTalamAM bhojana-samAraMbha pUrNanA pagathAre * 297

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mANI rahI hatI. temAM eka varaNAgI dosta TapakuM mukyuM, "bhalA mANasa ! ATalo paiso che, A navI gADI che chatAM UtarI gayelA maoNDalanI A strI laIne pharatAM tane zarama nathI AvatI ?" gulAbanI suvAsa phelAvanArA mitro Aje kyAM che ? have gharomAM ane blokomAM paNa moTAM moTAM kuMDAomAM gulAbane badale videzI thoriyAM vadhatAM jAya che ! mitro paNa e thoriyA jevA ja maLe ne ! pelA mohananA manamAM vAta evI rIte mUkI ke e kAMTAnI jema sIdhI enA ja dilamAM UtarI gaI. eNe patnIne dezamAM ravAnA karI dIdhI. mitrone rakhaDavAnuM medAna maLI gayuM. breka hatI te nIkaLI gaI. gADI anAcArane mArge pUrapATa doDavA lAgI. paiso AvyA pachI muMbaImAM pUchavuM zuM ? mohananI mA kajiyALI ane kaDaka hatI. eNe to vahunA guNa jovAne badale enA zyAma raMgane ja AgaLa karyo. trAsa ApavA lAgI. enA para kAmano Dhagalo nAkhyo. gulAbane cAra varSano kizora nAmano putra hato. gulAba mAnatI hatI ke bhale ene sAsunuM ke patinuM sukha nathI paNa potAno putra potA pAse che, e ochuM sukha che ? jIvana vilAsa mATe nahi, vikAsa mATe che. duniyAne phaLa ane phUla ApavA mATe koIke to mULiyuM banI jamInamAM daTAvuM ja rahyuM. AvI bhAvanA gulAbanA vicAromAM hatI. e bolatI thoDuM, paNa samajatI ghaNuM; eTale e potAnA bALakamAM saMskArasiMcananA kAmamAM lAgI rahetI. kizora ATha varSano thayo. tenuM ghaDatara suMdara thayuM hatuM. - sauthI moTo zikSaka mA che. nepoliyane kahyuM che, "mA so zikSakanI barAbara che." AvuM kahenArane mAtAe preraNAnAM kevA pIyUSa pAyAM haze ? bALakane pahelAM mA ghaDe che, pachI pitA sabhyatA zikhavADe che, pachI zikSaka zikSaNa Ape che ane aMte samAja ene ghaDe che. mohana kizorane muMbaI teDI gayo. ene konvenTamAM mUkyo. ahIM e bhaNavAmAM pahelo Ave che. eka vAra eNe kahyuM, "pappA ! mArI mammIne ahIM bolAvo ne !" mohane moM bagADI kahyuM, "tArI mammI kevI kALI che ! tuM kevI skUlamAM jAya che ! tyAM AvatAM bALakonAM mammI kevAM hoya che ! tArI kALI mAne mammI kahetAM tane zarama nahi Ave ?" daza varSanA nirdoSa magajamAM eNe jherI vicAra dhIme rahIne mUkI dIdho. bALako to zAhIcUsa kAgaLa jevA hoya che. kizoranA kumaLA magajamAM A 298 * jIvana-mAMgalyA

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vicAra have AkAra leto gayo : "mArI mA sArI che, mIThI che, paNa sAcI vAta che ke e kALI che. hA, jarA kadarUpI che." sAsune thayuM ke A zyAmAe mArI dikarAnI jiMdagI bagADI. ene ema na thayuM ke paisAnA jore eno putra rakhaDuM thayo. paiso na hota to devI jema pUjata, paNa paiso thatAM ene e jUnI maoNDela lAgI ! vahu vicAratI : "mArI cAmaDI zyAma che, dila to zyAma nathI ne ? mArA vicAro UjaLA che, paNa tene mohana dhananA madamAM Aja have nathI joI zakato; paNa bhagavAna to jue che ne ? kaMI nahi, kolaso paNa AgamAM baLI jAya che tyAre tenI rAkha to dhoLI ja thAya che ne ! kadAca mArA jIvanamAM paNa ema ja kAM na bane ? mArA samarpaNamAMthI ujvaLatA kAM na pragaTe ?" kizora vIza varSano thayo. enAM lagna levAyAM. muMbaInI kaoNlejanA sudharelA mitronI maMDaLI sAthe kizora potAnI moTI kAramAM AvI pahoMcyo. jAna bAjunA gAmamAM javAnI hatI tenI taiyArIo thaI. kizorane joI mAnuM haiyuM harSathI phUluM phUluM thAya che. ene tyAre khabara nahi ke kizoranA haiyAmAM paNa jhera prasarI gayuM che. ene to bicArIne manamAM saMtoSa che ke badhAM parAyAM thaI gayAM che paNa eno putra to eno ja che ne ? A lohInI sagAI che. AvA vicAromAM paraNavA jatA kizora pAse e jAya che. vAtsalyathI UbharAtA haiye dIkarAnA kapALamAM cAMllo karavA hAtha laMbAve che. paNa kizoranA magajamAM to pUrvagraha che. ene mAtAnA mamatA bharelA vAtsalyathI UbharAtA hRdayanuM darzana nathI thatuM paNa kadarUpI ane abhaNa - sAmAnya strI jevI strI dekhAya che. eNe mA sAme hasIne joyuM paNa nahi, te bahAra nIkaLI gayo. dhAmadhUmathI jAna gaI. kizoranI mA ane tenI dAdI ghera rahyAM. mA mATe A ghA kAramo hato. eNe AvA prasaMganI to kalpanAya nahotI karI. "sau parAyA thayA paNa potAno putra parAyo thAya ! bIjA to cAmaDIno raMga jue paNa eno putra paNa e haroLamAM bese ! jagata to dila na samaje paNa pu paNa na samaje ! to pachI jIvavAno artha zo ? kAMI nahi, meM to mArI pharaja bajAvI. svakartavya karatAM karatAM khapI javAmAM ja jIvanano sAra che." " e ja rAte kajiyALAM dAdI aMdaranA oraDAmAM sUtAM che. kizoranI bA bahAranA oraDAmAM che. tyAM enA gharamAM pAchaLanA bhAgamAM Aga lAgI. dhumADo ane AganA goTA aMdaranA oraDAmAMthI AvatA dekhAyA. eka kSaNano pUrNanA pagathAre ja 299

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paNa vicAra karyA vinA gulAba doDI. lAta mArI kamADa toDyuM ane dhumADAnI aMdara mUMjhAIne rADArADa karatAM sAsane eNe potAnA khabhA para nAkhI bahAra kADhyAM. A badhuM karatAM enA hAtha dAjhI gayA, moDhAne jhALa lAgI ane paga paNa dAjhayA. paNa enAM sAsu saMpUrNa rIte bacI gayAM. A jIvanadAnanA mahAna samarpaNathI sAsunuM hRdaya have palaTAyuM. enA mana para lAgelo kacaro jANe ke A AgamAM baLI gayo. eNe potAnI A gulAbavahumAM rahelA ujvaLa AtmAnuM darzana karyuM. enI AMkhamAMthI AMsunI dhArA vahevA lAgI. enA pagamAM paDI e mAphI mAgavA lAgI : "tArI to meM Aja sudhI niMdA ja karI che. tArA para duHkhano bhAra nAkhavAmAM meM bAkI rAkhI nathI, chatAM teM mane jIvanadAna dIdhuM ! jIvanA jokhame teM mane bacAvI." ane e bhagavAnane prArthanA karavA lAgI, "mArI vahune bacAvo." kizora paraNIne ghera Avyo. AganA samAcArathI saunI lagnanI majhA UDI gaI hatI. mohana, kizora, navavadhU sau DozImAne paDe paDavA gayAM tyAM eNe AMsu luchIne kahyuM, "mane page paDo cho ? dayAnI devI, mANasAIno avatAra to tArI mA che, ene page paDa, dIkarA ! meM Akho janmAro enI niMdA karI paNa badalAmAM eNe to pote baLIne paNa mane jivADI ! mArAmAM je kharAbI hatI te meM enAmAM joI. kharAba mANasa sAruM jue paNa zuM ? paNa Aje have mArI AMkha UghaDI gaI che. he bhagavAna ! mArI vahune bacAva." kizora saune sAthe laI mA pAse gayo. A vAta sAMbhaLyA pachI enA manamAM mA pratyeno prema pUra banIne UchaLI rahyo. eNe joyuM ke samarpaNanI jvALAmAM enI mAnA mukhane jhALa lAgI che. paNa A dAjhela mukhamAMya te kevI prasanna ane zAMta hatI ! e mAne page paDI bheTI paDyo. mAnI chAtI para moM mUkIne kahyuM, "mA !" enAthI vadhAre na bolAyuM. mAnI AMkhamAMthI paNa AMsunI dhArA vahevA lAgI. eNe kahyuM, "mane vizvAsa hato ke meM mArA putramAM reDelA saMskAra niSphaLa nahi jAya. Aje mAro vizvAsa phaLyo che, eTale vaza varSa sudhI meM vahelo bhAra Aje AMsu vATe vahI jAya che. e mane haLavo kare che. meM to manamAM paNa e ja prArthanA karI hatI ke mArA patine paNa prakAza dore. e khINane taLiye pahoMce te pahelAM tuM tAro prakAzamaya hAtha emanI tarapha laMbAva." mohane eno hAtha jhAlI kahyuM, "gulAba ! tAro AtmA kharekhara gulAba jevo ja che. meM tAro mAtra bahArano raMga ja joyo. tAro ujvaLa AtmAnI 300 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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jhAMkhI mane tyAre na thaI. paNa AjathI huM pratijJA karuM chuM... have ADe mArge nahi jAuM.'' meM kahelI A eka satya ghaTanA che. e bAI bhaNela na hatI paNa saMskArI hatI. enA vicAromAM saMvAda hato, svacchatA hatI. eNe jIvanabhara vicArone svaccha rAkhavAno ja prayatna karyo hato. joke ene duHkha sahevuM paDyuM, paNa aMte enA vicAra, uccAra ane AcArano vijaya thayo. AkhAya kuTuMbane eNe bacAvI lIdhuM. adhaHpatananI khINamAM jatA mohanane aMte teNe tAryo. jherI vAtAmaraNamAM paNa e aMdaranA baLathI TakI zakI ane jvALA nahi paNa jyota banIne jIvanane ajavALyuM. vicAra e bIja che, AcAra e vRkSa che; bIja dharatImAM gupta hoya che, enA pariNAmarUpa vRkSa bahAra dekhAya che. A ja rIte mANasanuM sAcuM cAritrya ane sArI bhASA e gupta evA sArA vicAronuM ja pariNAma che. bahArathI tame TApaTIpa karo, paNa aMdaranA vicArone sArI rIte alaMkRta na karo to kema cAle ? bahAranI zobhA to amuka varSo jatAM nisteja banavAnI che. jIvananA aMta sudhI gulAbanI jema suvAsa phelAvanAra to aMdaranA suvicAro ja che; e ja tamArI sAcI zobhA che. tamArI parIkSA cAlatI hoya; pAse tamArI hoziyAra bahenapaNI pepara lakhatI hoya, tyAM taka maLe to nakala karavAnuM jatuM karo kharA ? tamane vicAra Ave kharo ke huM corI karuM chuM ? AvA pralobhana sAme koNa TakI zake ? je vicAraka hoya, vicArano cokIdAra hoya te. nAnI corI moTI corIne lAve che, paNa nAnI corIne ja UgatAM DAmo to moTI corIne pAMgaravAno samaya ja kyAMthI maLe ? corIno vicAra Ave tyAM ja tame sAvadha bano. e kema Avyo te vicAro. vicArano vicAra e ja 'jIvananI kharI jAgRti' che. kavitAmAM zabda karatAM vicAra-bhAva mukhya hoya che. vicAra nirmAlya hoya ane zabdothI tame lAdo to e kaMI uttama kavitA na bane. tema, jIvanane tame suvicAra vinA bIjI hajA2o vastuthI zaNagArazo to paNa tamAruM jIvana uttama kavitArUpa nahi bane. e bahA2no camakArabharyo AkAra mAtra haze, aMdaranA AtmAno satkAra nahi hoya. AkhAya rAmAyaNamAM mane koI vadhAre AkarSaka pAtra lAgyuM hoya to te sItAnuM. sItAe potAnA vicArone evA zuddha banAvyA che ke enI AgaLa baLavAna rAvaNa paNa nirbaLa lAge, ane e abaLA hovA chatAM sabaLA lAMge. pUrNanA pagathAre * 301

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rAvaNanA sthAnamAM ja rAvaNane e paDakAre che, rAvaNano e tiraskAra kare che. vicAro ke enAmAM kevI nirbhayatA haze ? e kevI zuddha haze ? e mAnatI haze ne ke enA zuddha jayota jevA jIvanane koI aDavA jaze to e baLIne khAkha thaI jaze ! A baLa zarIranuM nahi paNa sattvanuM. zakti zarIramAM nahi paNa vicAronI zuddhimAM che. suvicAranA sUkSma bIjamAMthI zuddha uccAra ane zuddha AcAranAM phaLaphUla thavAnAM che, to suvicAra dvArA tame jyota bano ane vAtAvaraNane prakAzathI bharo. AjanA aMdhAragheryA jagatamAM AvI jyotanI keTalI anivArya jarUra che ? tamArAmAM rahelI zakti vALA nahi paNa jyota, kalaha nahi paNa kavitA bano evI zubhecchA. 302 * jIvana-mAMgalya

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lekhakanA pustako dharmaratnanAM ajavALAM cAra sAdhana sAdhanonuM sauMdarya jIvana-mAMgalya pUrNimA pAchI UgI ! pUrNanA pagathAre mAnavatAnAM mUlya have to jAgo ! jaDa-cetananuM bhedajJAna pUrNASTaka bhAratanI eka virala vibhUti ratnatrayI baMdhana ane mukti AvatI kAlanA nAgarikone jIvana saurabha 30 divasanI 30 vAto madhusaMcaya pratibiMba preraNAnI paraba haMsano cAro sudhA-syandinI pUrNanA pagathAre ja 303

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