Shrimad Rajchandra Jivan Sadhna

Author(s): Mukul Kalarthi
Publisher: Shrimad Rajchandra Ashram
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/005398/1

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zrImad rAjacaMdra jIvana-sAdhanA. mukulabhAI kalArthI zrImad rAjacaMdra janma zatAbdI maDaLa zrI rAjacaMdra pAThazALA, paMcabhAInI pALa amadAvAda

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zrI mukulabhAIe zrImadbhunA laukika jIvananAM prasaMge ane ghaTanAe sAdI, svaccha ane madhura bhASAmAM nirUpyAM che. emanA AMtara jIvananA lAkora anubhavA emaNe TALyA nathI, paNa svasthatAthI nirUpyA che. enI pAchaLanA vastusatyanuM vivecana karavuM e koI paNa lekhakanI maryAdA bahAranI bAbata che, sivAya ke pote e lAkora mArgane vihArI hoya. eTale AvA koI gajA bahAranA UhApAhamAM paDayA vinA zrImadjInAM lakhANAnA AdhAre ane temanA samAgamamAM AvelI vyakitanAM kathanAnA AdhAre zrI mukulabhAIe yatheAcita nirUpaNa karyuM che. emanA nirUpaNamAM caritanAyaka vizenA emanA AdarabhAva spaSTa dekhAya che. e na hoya te AvA kAma vyartha lAge. peAtAne gamya na hoya evA prasaMge, ghaTanAo anubhavAne tiraskAravAnuM ke geApAvavAnuM cApala emaNe karyuM nathI. zrImadjInAM lakhANeAmAMthI kaLAtuM ane samAgamIenA kathanathI samarthita thatuM jIvanadarzana zrI mukulabhAIe karAvyuM che. rasikalAla che. parIkha For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra janma zatAbdI graMthamALA prakAzana-trIju zrImada rAjacaMdra jIvanasAdhanA mukulabhAI kalArthI deha chatAM jenI dazA, varte dehAtIta; te jJAnInA caraNamAM, ho vaMdana agaNita. zrI mad rAjacaMdra For Personal & Private Use Only

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prakAzaka: trikamalAla mahAsukharAma zAha pramukhazrImad rAjacaMdra janma zatAbdI maMDaLa, zrI rAjacaMdra pAThazALA, paMcabhAInI poLa, amadAvAda, AtmazAMti je jiMdagIne dhruva kAMTe che. te jiMdagI game te ekAkI ane nirdhana, nirvastra hoya te paNa parama samAdhinuM sthAna che. lokasaMjJA jenI jiMdagIne dhruva kAMTe che, te jiMdagI game tevI zrImaMtatA, sattA ke kuTuMba parivArAdi vegavALI hoya te paNa te duHkhane ja hetu che. zrImada rAjacaMdra kiMmata : rU. 2-00 sudhare.' kiMmata | - - - 5 saM. 2022 prata: 15,000 prathama AvRtti mudraka: mohana parIkha suruci chApazALA bAraDolI-2 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImanA zabdomAM 'sat' mahAtmAoe game te nAme ane game te AkAre eka 'sat 'te ja prakAzyuM che. tenuM ja jJAna karavA yAgya che, te ja pratIta karavA yeAgya che, te ja anubhavarUpa che, ane te ja paramapreme bhajavA ceAgya che. te 'paramasat'nI ja ameA ananya preme avicchinna bhakti icchIe chIe. te 'paramasata' ne paramajJAna kaheA, game teA paramaprema kahe, ane game teA 'sattvacit--AnaMda svarUpa' kahe, game te 'AtmA' kahe, game teA 'sarvAtmA' kahe, game te 'eka' kaheA, game te 'aneka' kaheA, game te ' ekarUpa ' kahe, game te 'savarUpa' kahA, 'sat' ja che, ane paNa 'sat' te te ja e badhA prakAre kahevA yAgya che, kahevAya che. sarva e ja che, anya nahIM. evuM te paramatattva, puruSottama, hari, siddha, Izvara, niraMjana, alakha, paramabrahma, paramAtmA, paramezvara ane bhagavata Adi anaMta nAmAe kahevAyu che. ame jyAre paramatattva kahevA icchI tevA kAI paNa zabdamAM kheAlIe te te e ja che, khIjuM nahIM. zrImad rAjacaMdra For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImadanA zabdomAM- jIvana daSTi eka para rAga ane eka para dveSa evI sthiti eka romamAM paNa tene priya nathI. adhika zuM kahevuM? paranA paramArtha sivAyane deha ja gamatuM nathI to? AbhecchA evI ja varte che ke saMsAramAM prArabdhAnusAra game tevAM zubhAzubha udaya Avo, paraMtu temAM prIti aprIti karavAne ApaNe saMkalpa paNa na kare. pitAnuM athavA pArakuM jene kaMI rahyuM nathI, evI koI dazA tenI prApti have samIpa ja che, (A dehe che), ane tene lIdhe parecchAthI vartIe chIe. pUrve je je vidyA, bodha, jJAna, kriyAnI prApti thaI gaI che te te saghaLAM A dehe vismaraNa karI nirvikalpa thayA vinA chUTake nathI; ane tene lIdhe ja Ama vartIe chIe. -zrImad rAjacaMdra For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra varSa 24 muM vi. saM. 1947 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImadanA zabdomAM jIvana nirdhAra AtmajJAna pAme che te niHsaMzaya che; graMthabheda thaye e traNe kALamAM satya vAta che; sarva jJAnIoe paNa e vAta svIkArI che. deha chatAM manuSya pUrNa vItarAga thaI zake evo amAro nizcala anubhava che. kAraNake ame paNa nizcaya te ja sthiti pAmavAnA chIe, ema amAro AtmA akhaMDapaNe kahe che; ane ema ja che, jarUra ema ja che. pUrNa vItarAganI caraNaraja niraMtara mastake he, ema rahyA kare che. atyaMta vikaTa evuM vItarAgatva atyaMta AzcaryakAraka che; tathApi te sthiti prApta thAya che, sadehe prApta thAya che, e nizcaya che, prApta karavAne pUrNa gya che, ema nizcaya che. sadehe tema thayA vinA amane udAsInatA mATe ema jaNAtuM nathI ane tema thavuM saMbhavita che, jarUra ema ja che. A jagata pratye amAro parama udAsInabhAva varte che, te sAva senAnuM thAya te paNa amane tRNavat che; ane paramAtmAnI vibhUtirUpe amAruM bhaktidhAma che. zrImad rAjacaMdra For Personal & Private Use Only

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-zrImanI samadaSTi jevI daSTi A AtmA pratye che, tevI daSTi jagatanA sarva AtmAne viSe che. jevo sneha A AtmA pratye che, te sneha sarva AtmA pratye varte che. jevI A AtmAnI sahajAnaMda sthiti IcchIe chIe, tevI ja sarva AtmA pratye IcchIe chIe. je je A AtmA mATe icchIe chIe, te te sarva AtmA mATe icchIe chIe. jevo A deha pratye bhAva rAkhIe chIe, tevo ja sarva deha pratye bhAva rAkhIe chIe. je sarva deha pratye vartavAno prakAra rAkhIe chIe, tevo ja A deha pratye prakAra varte che. A dehamAM vizeSa buddhi ane bIjA deha pratye viSama buddhi ghaNuM karIne kyAreya thaI zakatI nathI. AtmArUpa paNanAM kAryo mAtra pravartana hevAthI jagatanAM sarva padArtha pratye jema udAsInatA vate che, tema svapaNe gaNAtA strIAdi padArtho pratye varte che. sarvAtmamAM samadaSTi gho A vacanane hRdaye lakhe. zrImad rAjacaMdra For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImadanA hastAkSara- minsidi. 1535 Panauti, 50mo65 min, among te 59 . 0 20643 . 1 of nin at Tami, nitama le, (650310 n an , rat na adin.. chorA piss , gani int, mr tan tant, 3. 65. na. 3 mea nina le iv, ya, ravina v. . 65 1 185, M eceani. 23 archnite, viller R ra 2010, ne ortone, Ana rahana, Menui ou. 1 RELAni, Arun, mit Chathi, ko le Anta. . For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra janmazatAbdI maMDaLa samIpavartI sahajajJAna vairAgyamUrti zrImad rAjacaMdranI janmazatAbdI saMvata 2024nA kArataka suda 15nA dine Ave che ene anulakSI e puNyanAma puruSanA upakAranI yatkiMcita punita smRti arthe A "zrImad rAjacaMdra janmazatAbdI maMDaLa" -sthApavAmAM AvyuM che. zrImad rAjacaMdranuM jagahitakArI parama kalyANamaya sAhitya, emanA jIvananA prasaMgo Adi judIjudI bhASAomAM prakAzita karavAne, vizALa samudAyane ene lAbha maLI zake evI rIte pracAra karavAne uddeza rAkhavAmAM Avyo che. maMDaLane TrasTa ekaTa nIce rajisTara karAvavAmAM AvyuM che. baMdhAraNapUrvaka vyavasthA mATe eka agyAra sanI vyavasthApaka samiti ane prakAzananA kArya mATe pAMca sabhyanI eka prakAzana samiti hAla kAma kare che. uddezane anulakSI zarU karela prakAzana kAryanuM "rAjapada" e prathama prakAzana che. "kara vicAra te pAma" e bIju prakAzana che. ane A "jIvana-sAdhanA" e trIjuM prakAzana che. bIjA prakAzananuM kAma cAlu che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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vizeSa AnaMda tA e che ke zrImad pratye bhaktivaMta vizALa samudAya ane zrImanI smRtimAM sthapAyela aneka sasthAe A kAryamAM sArA ullAsathI ekatrapaNe sahakAra ApI rahI che ane e ja A maMDaLanI upacAgitA che. zrImad pratye premabhaktavata sau kAI ne A kAryamAM sahakAra ApavAnI vina...ti che. tA. 10-466 zrImad rAjacaMdre pAThazALA, paMcabhAInI pALa, amadAvAda. zrImad rAjacaMdra janmazatAbdI maDaLa kArAbArI samiti vatI trikamalAla mahAsukharAma zAha, pramukha. For Personal & Private Use Only

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purovacana lokottaranI jIvanacaryA lokottarANAM cetAMsi ko hi vijnyaatumrhti| zrImad rAjacaMdra jevA puruSavizeSanI caritakathA lakhavI duSkara che. indriyadarzanAvalaMbI ApaNuM buddhi khyAla karI zake, samajI zake ane svIkArI zake evI mahattA-vizeSatA emanA caritamAM nathI ema nathIH jemake emanI asAdhAraNa smRti, laghuvayamAM prajJA paripAka, vyavahAranItine Agraha, kAryakuzaLatA, zAstranipuNatA, gujarAtI gadyamAM maulika prabhutva, sadAcaraNaniSThA, satyazodhakatA, vairAgya, AtmAnAM manana, zravaNa ane nididhyAsana, tadartha nivRttiutsukatA, nirbhayatA ItyAdi. A badhA guNe vyakta karatA prasaMgo, ghaTanA, samAgamonAM paNa prAmANika varNana karavA, sahelAM nahi paNa, zakya te che ja. paNa zrImanA A badhA AvirbhAvo uparAMta bIjA keTalAka AvirbhAvone -je apekSAe bAhya kahevAya evA AvirbhAvonI mUlazakti jevA che ane jemanuM varNana temanA potAnA zabdomAM thayeluM che temane- samajavA e duSkara, atyanta duSkara che. temane svIkAravAne prazna te temane samajayA pachI Ave-athavA te buddhitarkane zAnta karI kevaLa zraddhAne viSaya bane. u. ta, ""punarjanma 10 For Personal & Private Use Only

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che--jarUra che, e mATe 'huM' anubhavathI hA kahevAmAM acaLa chu." e vAkaca pUrvabhavanA kAI joganuM smaraNa thatI vakhate siddha thayeluM lakhyu che. jene-punaHjanmAdibhAva karyA che. te padArtha ne kAI prakAre jANIne te vAkaya lakhAyuM che.'' 1' zrImadbhA A anubhavane zI rIte samajhave? maneAvijJAnanA cokaThAmAM e kaI rIte ese?-athavA radhanyare divasa A ahe, jAgI re zAMti apUrva re; daza varSere dhArA ulasI, maTaco udaya kanA gava re. ogaNIsene ekatrIse AvyA apUrva anusAra re, ogaNIsa ne khe tAlise, adbhuta vairAgya dhAra re. ogaNIsa ne suDatAlise, samakti zuddha prakAzyuM re, zruta anubhava vadhatI dazA, nija svarUpa avabhAsyuM re * * * , AvI apUrva vRtti ahe, thaze apramatta yoga re, kevaLa lagabhaga bhUmikA, sparzIne daiviyoga re. AmAM daza varSe dhArA ulasI 'ene ze! artha ane e kaI manAvastune sUcave che? apUrva anusAra ' AvyA eTale zuM AvyuM? vairAgya teA samajhIe paNa 'adbhuta ' eTale zuM?-'zuddha samakita prakAzyuM ' eTale zuM thayuM? jaDa ane cetana be bhinna che evI zraddhA ke mAnyatA te samyakatva ke samakita, paNa 'prakAsyuM ' eTale vicAra uparAMta khIjuM zuM thayu? 'nijasvarUpa avabhAsyuM' -eTale mANasane 'ahaM'nuM vedana thAya che enA karatAM khIjuM zuM avabhAsyuM ? lagabhaga kevaLa bhUmikA ne sparzavAnu eTale zene spa vAnu ? 1 zrImad rAjacaMdra, saM. 2007nI AvRtti patra 424 2 ejana. putra 960-1 (32) 11 For Personal & Private Use Only

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saMvata 1953mAM-29 varSanI vaye pitA vize A nedha zrImade karI, temAM te te ghaTanAne varSavAra nirdezI che. AvI aneka bAbate jemanA jIvanacaritamAM ghaTanAo rUpe vaNAI hoya tenI buddhigrAhya kathA zI rIte lakhAya? A vijJAnayugamAM AvI bAbatonuM hajI saMzodhana thayuM nathI. je kAMI jANIe chIe te kAM te zraddhA rUpe kahevAya che, vahema rUpe kahevAya che, ke kavikalpanA tarIke AsvAdAya che. vaLI,-"amuka sAlamAM zrImade jhaverAtane dhaMdho zarU karyo e ghaTanA saraLatAthI samajamAM Ave evI rIte je kahI zakAya tevI zrImaddane amuka sAlamAM "dhArA ulasI" ke apUrvavRtti' AvI, ke pUrvabhavanA joganuM smaraNa thayuM' e bAbatene evI rIte ghaTanAo tarIke kahI zakAya? - zrImaddanuM mAnasa temanA vyavahArajIvanathI ane temanA dArzanika jhINavaTavALAM lakhANethI je samajAya che te uparathI, taraMgamAM AvI ke koI bhramaNAnI prerI ke kaI mahimA batAvavAnI vRttithI, AvuM mAnavA ke lakhavA prerAya evI A vyakti lAgatI nathI. emanA gADha paricayamAM AvelA gAMdhIjIne A vize bahu spaSTa abhiprAya cheH "temanAM lakhANonI eka asAdhAraNatA e che ke pote je anubhavyuM te ja lakhyuM che. temAM kyAMye kRtrimatA nathI. bIjAnI upara chApa pADavA sAru eka lITI sarakhI paNa lakhI hoya ema meM nathI joyuM.3 arthAta ke emanAM mAnasanI laDhaNa buddhipradhAna tArkikanI che, pitAnA mananuM sUkSmatAthI nirIkSaNa karI zake e jAtanuM e citta che. pitAne jyAre "harirasa"nI tAlAvelI thaI che ane enI mastI" AvI che tyAre paNa e potAnI vRttionA nirIkSaka dekhAya che. arthAta ke eka pakSe lakhanAra svastha buddhine anADaMbarI 3 zrImad rAjacaMdra ane gAMdhIjI pR. 46 12 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sUma nirIkSaka che ane bIje pakSe enI che ane lakhANe evI manodazAo-mAsavastuo-mAna ghaTanAo rajU kare che je vijJAnagamya nathI, indriyajJAnAvalaMbI buddhine gamya nathI. A kAraNathI zrImadjI jevA puruSavizenI jIvanakathAmAMthI A badhe bhAga choDI devAmAM Ave ema bane; ane e cheDI dIdhAM chatAMya sadAcAranika evuM ghaNuM emAM nirUpI zakAya. ane ahIM ja jIvanacarita lakhavAnI moTI ghuMTI Ave che. je anubhava caritanAyakanA jIvananAM AdhArabhUta banyAM dekhAtAM hoya temane mUkI daIne ke gauNa karIne temanAM jIvanacarita kema nirUpI zakAya? AvA gUDhastaranA anubhavonI vAta na hoya tyAM paNa caritanAyakanI je preraNArUpa zraddhA hoya tene dhyAnamAM rAkhyA vinA tenA vicAro ke AcArone e mULazakti vinA kevI rIte barAbara samajhI zakAya? u. ta. mahAtmA gAMdhInI Izvara vizenI zraddhA-I am surer of His existence than of the fact that you and I are sitting in this room. Then I can testify that I may live without air and water but not without Him... 8 holl 24101 ane bIjI kettara zraddhA ane preraNA vinA gAMdhIjInA AcAravicArone samajhavAnA ane tene anusaravAnA prayatna keTalI viSama sthiti-hAsyanI ane duHkhanI-UbhI kare che te ApaNe Aje joIe chIe. jo vRddhaH sa va : (ma. bI. 27-3) paNa zrImadjI ke rAmakRSNa paramahaMsa, ke ramaNa maharSi ke zrI araviMda jevAnAM AMtaravizva faith-zraddhA karatAM paNa judI jAtanAM dekhAya che. emanAM AMtaravizvamAM e zraddhAne padArthonAM "anubhava", 4 My Religion p. 43 13 For Personal & Private Use Only

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darzana" ke "samApatti hoya che. ethI evAonAM jIvanacarita e "anubhava ghaTanAonAM kathana vinA niSNANa thaI jAya. te bIjI bAjue camatkAra lolupatA thaI javAne, vahemanAM dhummasamAM aTavAI javAna, buddhigrAhyane paNa atIndriya kaTimAM mUkI devAne bhaya hoya che. jIvanacarita lekhaka mATe A baMne kaTiomAMthI bacI javAne mArga taTastha bhAve etihya pramANenI barAbara cakAsaNI karI je laukika ke lakattara bhAvo-artho-ghaTanAo nIpaje temanuM nirUpaNa karavuM e che. lekhakanA pitAnA anubhavamAM na hoya athavA enA jJAnanI kakSAne saMbhavita na lAge evI bInAo paNa aitihya pramANathI nIpajatI hoya te temane choDI zakAya nahi e Adhunika aitihya parIkSakane ya mata che." zrImajInuM AvuM saMzAdhanapUrvaka nIpajeluM jIvanacarita lakhAvavuM hajI bAkI che. AvuM carita lakhyAM pahelAM zuM thavuM joIe e gAMdhIjIe sUcavyuM cheH "jIvanacaritra lakhavuM hoya, te huM temanI janmabhUmi vavANiyA baMdaramAM keTaleka vakhata gALuM, temanuM rahevAnuM makAna tapAsuM, temanAM ramavA-bhamavAnAM sthAne jouM; temanA bALamitrone maLuM; temanI nizALamAM jaI AvuM. temanA mitro, anuyAyIo, sagAMsaMbaMdhIone maLuM, temanI pAse jANavAnuM jANI lauM ne pachI ja lakhavAne AraMbha karuM." Adhunika yuganI apekSA AvAM saMzodhana Avazyaka gaNe 5 F. H. Bradley-The Presuppositions of Critical History (pp. 63 Collected Essays vol. 1) B47 G. J. Garraghan S. J. A. Guide to Historical Method pp. 298-808 6 zrImad rAjacaMdra ane gAMdhIjI pR. 41 For Personal & Private Use Only

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pahelAM A sAghane A prathA rIte che. uparAMta zrImadjInAM pitAnAM lakhANa -dho, patro-graMthe vagere sAhityane paNa vivecaka daSTie tapAsavAM Avazyaka gaNAya. zrI mukulabhAIe "zrImad rAjacaMdranI jIvana sAdhanA" lakhatAM pahelAM A badhI sAdhanA karI che ke nahi te huM jANatA nathI. e mATe samaya, sAdhano vagere joIe. eTale e daSTie A graMthane huM jete nathI. paraMtuM A graMtha vAMcanArane zrImadjInA jIvananI kevI jhAMkhI thAya e daSTi meM rAkhI che. e rIte jotAM A graMthathI mane ekaMdare saMtoSa thaye che. zrI. mukulabhAIe zrImaddajInA laukika jIvananAM prasaMge ane ghaTanAo sAdI, svaccha ane madhura bhASAmAM nirUpyAM che. emanA AMtara jIvananAM lekottara anubhavo emaNe TALyA nathI paNa svasthatAthI nirUpyA che. enI pAchaLanA vastRsatyanuM vivecana karavuM e koI paNa lekhakanI maryAdA bahAranI bAbata che, sivAya ke pite e kettara mAgane vihArI hoya. eTale AvA keI gajA bahAranA uhApohamAM paDyA vinA zrImadjInAM lakhANonA AdhAre ane temanA samAgamamAM AvelI vyaktionAM kathanonA AdhAre zrI mukulabhAIe yacita nirUpaNa karyuM che. emanA nirUpaNamAM caritanAyaka vizene emane AdarabhAva spaSTa dekhAya che. e na hoya te Avo zrama vyartha lAge. pitAne gamya na hoya evA prasaMge, ghaTanAo-anubhavone tiraskAravAnuM ke gopAvavAnuM cApala emaNe karyuM nathI. zrImadjInAM lakhANomAMthI kaLAtuM ane samAgamIonA kathanathI samarthita thatuM jIvanadarzana zrI mukulabhAIe karAvyuM che. AvA lekottara puruSonA jIvana samakSa te bhavabhUtie kahI che evI namratA ja yogya cheH jovottarAja retaifsa che fha vizAtumaektiA. tA. 22-4-65 11, bhAratI nivAsa sosAyaTI elisabrija, amadAvAda-6. rasikalAla cho. parIkha 15 For Personal & Private Use Only

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aMtara-udgAra parama pUjya zrImad rAjacaMdrajInuM jIvanacarita lakhavAnI pavitra taka "zrImad rAjacaMdra zatAbdI maMDaLe" mane ApI ene huM mArA jIvanane eka dhanya avasara ja mAnuM chuM. e badala huM zrImad rAjacaMdra zatAbdI maMDaLa"ne AbhAra mAnuM chuM. zrImad rAjacaMdrajInuM jIvana yathArtha rIte AlekhavA mATe te suyogya adhikAranI AvazyakatA che. evo supAtra adhikArI ja zrImad rAjacaMdrajInA AtyaMtara jIvanamAM avagAhana karI enuM surekha ane zreyArthIne sahAyaka thAya evuM nirUpaNa karI zake. ane adhikAra-supAtratA aMgenI zrImad rAjacaMdrajInI vyAkhyA paNa lakSamAM levA jevI cheH kaSAyanI upazAMtatA, mAtra mokSa abhilASa; bhave kheda, prANadiyA, tyAM AtmArthanivAsa. dazA na evI jyAM sudhI, jIva lahe nahIM jega; mokSamArga pAme nahIM, maTe na aMtara roga. Ave jyAM evI dazA, sadgurubodha suhAya; te badhe suvicAraNuM, tyAM pragaTe sukhadAya. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jyAM pragaTe suvicAraNuM, tyAM pragaTe nijAna; je jJAne kSaya meha thaI, pAme pada nirvANa.* A daSTie mAre vicAra karuM te mAre namrapaNe kabUlavuM joIe ke evI supAtratA mArAmAM lezamAtra paNa nathI! paraMtu AvA pavitra mahAtmAnuM jIvanacarita lakhavAnA nimitta mane teozrInAM jIvana tema ja darzanane abhyAsa karavA maLe tathA e rIte zreyapaMthe javAnuM thoDuM ghaNuM paNa bhAthuM maLI rahe evI nirmaLa mati rAkhIne " viSaya matiH' hovA chatAM paNa A pavitra kArya meM namratApUrvaka hAtha dharyuM che. zreyArthIne zrImad rAjacaMdrajInI A jIvanasAdhanA vAMcI teozrInI upadeza-samRddhinuM anuzIlana karavAnI preraNA prApta thAya te mATe A namra prayAsa saphaLa thayele huM mAnIza. mu. zrI rasikalAlabhAIe A pustakanuM "purovacana lakhI ApIne enI mUlyavattA vadhArI ApI che e badala teozrIne paNa AbhAra mAnuM chuM. A jIvanasAdhanA taiyAra karavAmAM zrImad rAjacaMdrajInAM lakhANone tema ja teozrI aMge Aja lagI lakhAyelAM lakhANane meM upayoga karyo che e saune huM aMtaHkaraNapUrvaka AbhArI chuM. chevaTe, zrImad rAjacaMdrajInAM pAvanakArI caraNakamaLamAM zraddhAbhaktipUrvaka mastaka namAvI prAthuM chuM ke, teozrIe upadezelA dharmatatvane jIvanamAM utAravAnI mane zakti Ape. ane e dharmatattva eTale zuM? dharmatattva je pUchayuM mane, te saMbhaLAvuM nehe tane; je siddhAMta sakaLane sAra, sarvamAnya sahune hitakAra. * "AtmasiddhizAstra" 17 For Personal & Private Use Only

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bhAkhyuM bhASaNamAM bhagavAna, dharma na bIje dayA samAna; abhayadAna sAthe saMtoSa, gho prANune daLavA doSa. satya zIla ne saghaLAM dAna, dayA hoIne rahyAM pramANa puSpapAMkhaDI jyAM dubhAya, jinavaranI tyAM nahi AjJAya. sarva jIvanuM Icche sukha, mahAvIranI zikSA mukhya; e bhavatAraka suMdara rAha, dhariye tariye karI utsAha. dharma sakaLanuM e zubha mULa, e vaNa dharma sadA pratikULa; tattvarUpathI e oLakhe, te jana pahoMce zAzvata sukhe."1 mukula kalAthI 1 mokSamALA pATha-2 18 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA anukramaNikA prakaraNa pAna 25. 3 3 45 58 1 sevAnika mAtA pitA 2 bALapaNanA dhArmika saMskAra 3 jAtismaraNa jJAna 4 vidyAkALamAM addabhuta zaktiono AvirbhAva 5 meTerA jevI samajazakti 6 avadhAna-zakti 7 kumAra-kALanI vicArasamRddhi 8 gRhasthAzramamAM praveza 9 manomaMthana pachInI Atmasthiti 10 vyavahAramAM ArdazarU5 zrImad 11 zrImanI ekAnta caryA 12 zrImanA samAgamamAM 13 zrImaddanA preraka prasaMgo 14 zrImanI amRta prasAdI 15 zrImanI aMtima caryA 16 zrImanAM smAraka 17 pariziSTa 18 zuddhi patraka 78 98 117 153 176 199 223 2 30 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra varSa 33 muM vi. sa. 1956 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sevAniSTha mAtApitA saMta parama hitakArI, jagata mA~hI / saMta parama hitkaarii|| prabhupada pragaTa karAvata prIti, bharama miTAvata bhaarii|| ApaNA bhArata dezanI adhyAtma-sAdhanA bahu ja purANa ane suprasiddha che. hajAro varSa pahelAM e zarU thayelI. kaNe prathama zarU karI e jJAta nathI. paraMtu e sAdhanAnA puraskartA aneka mahAna puruSe jANItA che. buddha-mahAvIra pahelAMnI e trASi-paraMparA che. temanA pachI paNa atyAra lagI e sAdhanAne varelA saMta-mahAtmA puruSe dezanA judA judA bhAgamAM, judI judI paraMparAomAM ane judI judI nAta-jAtamAM thatA AvyA che. e ja adhyAtma-paraMparAmAM thaI gayelA zrImada rAjacaMdra For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra nI jIvanasAdhanA ApaNane eTalI ja preraNAdAyaka ane jIvanapreraka che. teozrInA pAvanakArI jIvanamAM avagAhana karIne AtmasiddhinA paMthe vicarIe. zrImad rAjacaMdranA dAdAjI zrI paMcANabhAI mahetA morabI pAse AvelA mANekavADAnA mULa rahIza hatA. tyAMthI pitAnA bhAIethI judA thaI teo saMvata 182mAM vavANiyA rahevA AvyA hatA. vavANiyA AvyA pachI dAdAjIe eka makAna vecAtuM lIdhuM hatuM. e ja makAnamAM zrImad rAjacaMdrajIne janma thaye hate. vavANiyAmAM paMcANadAdA vahANa baMdhAvI vahANavaTAno dhaMdho karatA. sAthesAthe vyAjavaTAvane paNa dhaMdhe sArA pramANamAM karatA hatA. paMcANadAdAnI meTI uMmara thatAM eke dIkarA jIvyA nahi, paNa pachI zrI ravajIbhAIne janma saMvata 1902nA mahA mAsamAM thaye. - zrI ravajIbhAI e zrImada rAjacaMdrajInA pitAjI thAya ane zrI devabAI e zrImanAM mAtuzrI thAya. zrI ravajIbhAI cauda varasanA thayA tyArathI vavANiyAmAM tathA camanapara vagere AjubAjunAM gAmamAM vyAjavaTAvanuM kAma karatA hatA. zrI ravajIbhAI vavANiyAnA ThAkaranA devamaMdiranA cerAmAM sarakhesarakhI uMmaranA sAthIdAre sAthe haravakhata besatA. tyAMnA bhATa loko vArtAo-kathAo kare tyAre kene For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA DAyarA jAmatA. DAyarAmAM ravajIbhAI paNa jatA. vaLI garAziyAnI DelIe paNa DAyarA jAme emAM paNa ravajIbhAI jatA. tyAM bhATacAraNa vArtAo, daMtakathAe, dhama kathAo vagere kahetA e ravajIbhAI rasapUrvaka sAMbhaLatA. 3 zrI ravajIbhAI sAdhusaMtAnI sevA bahu bhaktibhAvathI karatA. garImene anAja kapaDAM paNa ApatA. sAdhu, phakIrA, saMta, mahAtmA vagere upara temane bahu AsthA hatI. zrI ravajIbhAI ne tyAM eka vAvRddha ADatiyA AvatA hatA. eka vakhata te bahu bImAra paDI gayA. te veLAe mAtA devakhAIe temanI bahu sevAcAkarI karI hatI. e vRddha khUba azakata banI gayA hatA. paraMtu devakhAI temane jarAye mUjhAvA detAM na hatAM. emanI mAtAtulya sevAcAkarI joI ne vRddhe AbhAravaza thaI khAlI UThyA 'tame mArI cAkarI bahu kare che, prabhu! tamAre tyAM mahAbhAgyazALI dIkarAnA janma thAe. A mAreza, eTA deva ! tane AzIrvAda che.' : mAtA devakhAI peAtAnAM sAsusasarAnI paNa khUba sevA karatAM hatAM. sAsujI teA rAjI thaI kahetAM deva! tuM te amAre tyAM devI jevI chuM. tArA jevI bhalI vahu kAI ne nahi hoya. beTA, tAruM badhuM sAru thaze.' AvAM bhaktizIla ane sevAbhAvI mAtapitAne tyAM zrImad rAjacaMdrajInA janma thayA hatA. zrImad rAjacaMdrajInA janma vavANiyAmAM savata 1924nA kArataka pUrNimAne zubha dine ravivAre rAtre e For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra vAgye thaye hate. jemAM kArtikI pUrNimAne mahimA apUrva che. pUrNimA e pUrNa tAsUcaka che; AtmAnuM pUrNa svarUpa prApta karavAnA dhyeyamAM pUrNimAnuM mahattva ochuM nathI. mahAna tIrthAdhirAja zrI siddhAcaLajInI yAtrA pAlItANAmAM aneka bhAvi jene dUra dUra dezathI AvIne bhAvathI kare che. vaLI "kaLikALasarvajJa"nuM biruda dharAvanArA zrImad hemacaMdrAcAryajI mahArAjane janma paNa vi. saM. 1145 (I. sa. 1089)mAM gurjarezvara karNadevanA samayamAM kArtikI pUrNimAne pavitra divase ja thaye hate. - zrImada rAjacaMdranuM hulAmaNAnuM nAma "lakSamInaMdana" hatuM. pAchaLathI saMvata 1928mAM A hulAmaNuM nAma badalIne "rAyacaMda" pADavAmAM AvyuM. AgaLa jatAM teo "zrImada rAjacaMdra" nAme prasiddha thayA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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bALapaNanA dhArmika saMskAro zrImad rAjacaMdranA dAdAjI zrIkRSNanA bhakata hatA; jyAre zrImanAM mAtuzrI devabAI jaina saMskAre lAvyAM hatAM. vavANiyAnAM bIjA vaNika kuTuMbe paNa jaina dharmane anusaratAM hatAM. A badhA saMskAranuM mizraNa keI ajaba rIte gaMgA-yamunAnA saMgamanI peThe bALamahAtmAnA hRdayamAM relAtuM hatuM. zrImad rAjacaMdra bAvIsa varSanI vaye potAnA bALapaNanuM varNana "samuccaya vayacaryA" nAmanA lekhamAM karyuM che. emAM zrImadda lakhe cheH mArA pitAmaha kRSNanI bhakti karatA hatA. temanI pAse te vayamAM kRSNakIrtananAM pado meM sAMbhaLyAM hatAM; tema ja judA judA avatAre saMbaMdhI camatkAro sAMbhaLyA hatA; jethI mane bhaktinI sAthe te avatAramAM prIti thaI hatI ane rAmadAsajI nAmanA sAdhunI samIpe meM bALalIlAmAM kaMThI baMdhAvI hatI. nitya kRSNanAM darzana karavA jate; vakhate vakhata kathAo sAMbhaLate vAraMvAra avatAra saMbaMdhI camatkAramAM For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra huM meha pAmate ane tene paramAtmA mAnate, jethI tene rahevAnuM sthaLa jevAnI parama jijJAsA hatI. tenA saMpradAyanA mahaMta heIe, sthaLe sthaLe camatkArathI harikathA karatA hoIe ane tyAgI heIe te kevI majA paDe? e ja vikalpanA thayA karatI; tema ja kaI vaibhavI bhUmikA jete ke samartha vaibhavI thavAnI IcchA thatI. pravINa-sAgara" nAmano graMtha tevAmAM meM vAMce hate; te vadhAre samaye nahete chatAM strI saMbaMdhI nAnA prakAranAM sukhamAM lIna heIe ane nirupAdhipaNe kathAkathana zravaNa karatA hoIe, te kevI AnaMdadAyaka dazA, e mArI tRSNa hatI. "gujarAtI bhASAnI vAcanamALAmAM jagakartA saMbaMdhI keTaleka sthaLe baMdha karyo che te mane daDha thaI gaye hate; jethI jaina leke bhaNe mArI bahu jugupsA hatI; banAvyA vagara kaI padArtha bane nahi, mATe jena leke mUkha che, tene khabara nathI. tema ja te veLA pratimAnA azraddhALu lekenI kriyA mArA jevAmAM AvatI hatI, jethI te kriyAo malina lAgavAthI huM tethI bIte have, eTale ke te mane priya nahatI. janmabhUmikAmAM jeTalA vANiyAo rahe che, te badhAnI kulazraddhA bhinna bhinna chatAM, kAMIka pratimAnA azraddhALune ja lagatI hatI; ethI mane te lekono ja pAnA hate. pahelethI samartha zaktivALe ane gAmane nAmAMkita vidyArthI ke mane gaNatA. tethI mArI For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA praza'sAne lIdhe cAhIne tevA ma`DaLamAM besI mArI capaLa zakti darzAvavA huM prayatna karatA. kaMThIne mATe vAraMvAra tee mArI hAsyapUrvaka TIkA karatA, chatAM huM tethI vAda karatA ane samajaNu pADavA prayatna karatA. paNa haLave haLave mane temanAM "pratikramaNusUtra" ityAdika pustako vAMcavAM maLyAM, temAM bahu vinayapUrvaka sarva jagatjIvathI mitratA icchI che, tethI mArI prIti temAM paNa thaI; ane pelAmAM paNa rahI. haLave haLave A prasaMga vacce. chatAM svaccha rahevAnA tema ja bIjA AcAra-vicAra mane vaiSNavanA priya hatA; ane jagakartAnI zraddhA hatI. tevAmAM kaMThI tUTI gaI, eTale pharIthI me khAMdhI nahi. te veLA bAMdhavA na AMdhavAnuM kaMI kAraNa meM zeAdhyuM. nahetuM.' Ama zrImad rAjacaMdra tera varSanI vaya sudhImAM jainadharmanA raMge pUrepUrA raMgAI gayA hatA. nAnapaNathI ja vairAgyapradhAna evuM temanuM citta bhAgapradhAna vaiSNava sa'pradAya karatAM tyAgapradhAna jainadhama tarapha vadhAre ne vadhAre kheMcAtuM gayuM hatuM. zrImadda e vize lakhe cheH jyAM srIe bhAgavavAnA upadeza karyAM hoya; lakSmIlIlAnI zikSA ApI heAya; ra'garAga, gulatAna ane ezaArAma karavAnuM tattva khatALyu hoya, tyAMthI ApaNA AtmAnI sat zAMti nathI. kAraNa e dhamata gaNIe te AkhA saMsAra dha matayukta ja che. pratyeka gRhasthanuM ghara e ja yAjanAthI bharapUra hAya che....te pachI adharma sthAnaka For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImada rAjacaMdra kayuM? (keI) ema kahe ke pelAM dharmamaMdiramAM te prabhunI bhakti thaI zake che, te teone mATe khedapUrvaka ATale ja uttara devAne che ke te paramAtmatattva ane tenI vairAgyamaya bhakti jANatA nathI." For Personal & Private Use Only

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jAtismaraNa jJAna zrImada rAjacaMdra sAta varSanI uMmara bALavayanI ramatagamatamAM kADhI hatI. paraMtu te vakhate paNa emano jheka Atmanniti tarapha ja sahajapaNe raheto hato. zrImad e aMge "samuccaya vayacaryAmAM lakhe cheH eTaluM mane te veLA mATe smRtimAM che ke vicitra kalpanA- kalpanAnuM svarUpa ke hetu samajyA vagara mArA AtmAmAM thayA karatI hatI. ramatagamatamAM paNa vijaya meLavavAnI ane rAjezvara jevI UMcI padavI meLavavAnI parama jijJAsA hatI. vastra paheravAnI, svaccha rAkhavAnI, khAvApIvAnI, sUvA besavAnI, badhI videhI dazA hatI; chatAM hADa garIba* hatuM. te dazA haju sAMbhare che. atyAranuM vivekI jJAna te vayamAM hota, te mane mokSa mATe jhAjhI jijJAsA raheta nahi; evI niraparAdhI dazA hovAthI punaH punaH te sAMbhare che." * namra-karuNAdra For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra zrImadda sAta varSanI vayanA hatA, te vakhate eka atimahattvane banAva banyo hato. zrImade A prasaMga aMge "samuccaya vayacaryAmAM kaze ullekha karyo nathI tema ja e pachInAM lakhANamAM paNa e vize vizeSa vistRta carcA karI nathI. te paNa mitro sAthenA vArtAlApamAM ke sIdhe prazna pUchanArane pitAne jAtismaraNa jJAna kyAre ane kevA prasaMge pragaTa thayuM hatuM e vize temaNe kahyuM che. - zrImade kalyANajIbhAIne kahyuM hatuM: "amane ATha bhavanuM jJAna che." khImajIbhAIne zrImade pitAnA pUrva bhava saMbaMdhI savistara kaheluM. bhAI padamazI ThAkarazI kacchanA vaNika saMvata 194ra thI zrImaddanA samAgamamAM AvyA hatA. temaNe eka vakhata muMbaImAM bhUlezvara zAka mArakITa pAsenA digaMbara derAsaramAM zrImane prazna pUchayoH "Apane jAtismaraNa jJAna che ema meM sAMbhaLyuM che, te vAjabI che?" zrImad rAjacaMdra uttaramAM jaNAvyuM: "hA, che; tene AdhAre Ama kahevAyuM che.' padamazIbhAIe pharI prazna karyoH "Apane jAtismaraNa jJAna keTalI uMmare ane kevI rIte thayuM?" eTale pitAnA jIvanamAM banelA e prasaMgane zrImade kahyo hataH zrImada te vakhate sAta varSanI vayanA hatA. vavANiyAmAM amIcaMda nAmanA eka gRhastha hatA. te zrImad para khUba vahAla rAkhatA hatA. eka vakhata amIcaMdane sarpa For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 11 Daspe, tethI te tatkALa gujarI gayA. A vAta sAMbhaLatAM bALaka rAjacaMdra dAdAjI pAse deDI gayA. gujarI javuM eTale zuM ene khyAla temane nahato, eTale temaNe dAdAjIne pUchyuM: "dAdAjI, amIcaMda gujarI gayA ke?" dAdAjIe bALakane A sIdhe savAla sAMbhaLIne vicAryuM ke, e vAtanI bALakane khabara paDaze te bhaya pAmaze. e kAraNathI bALakanuM dhyAna bIje doravA sAru jamavA besavA kahyuM ane bIjI ADIavaLI vAte karavA mAMDI. paraMtu bALaka rAjacaMdra gujarI javA vize A pahelI ja vakhata sAMbhaLeluM hovAthI te samajavAnI tIvra jijJAsA temane thaI hatI, eTale pharI pharI e ja prazna teo karatA rahyA. tethI chevaTe thAkIne dAdAjIe kahyuM: "hA, e vAta sAcI che." rAjacaMdra jevA bALakane eTalAthI kAMI ocho saMtoSa thAya? temaNe pUchyuM: "dAdAjI, gujarI javuM eTale zuM?" dAdAjI kaheH "temAMthI jIva nIkaLI gaye; ane have te hAlI, cAlI ke belI zake nahi; vaLI khAvuM, pIvuM kazuM karI zake nahi. mATe tene taLAva pAsenA masANamAM bALI Avaze." pachI bALaka rAjacaMdra DI vAra gharamAM Amatema pharI chAnAmAnA taLAve gayA. tyAM pALa uparanA be zAkhAvALA bAvaLa upara caDI joyuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImada rAjacaMdra te kharekhara, citA bhaDabhaDa saLagatI hatI! ane leke AsapAsa phaMDALuM vALIne beThA hatA. Ama eka paricita ane nehALa mANasane saLagAvI mukAte joIne temane ghaNuM lAgI AvyuM ane teo ghaNuM mUMjhAI gayA. temaNe joyuM ke emane bALI mUkanAra paNa emanA ja sagAsaMbaMdhI tathA samajaNA loke hatA! bALaka rAjacaMdra A joIne vicAravA lAgyA ke, A badhuM zuM che? AvA mANasane bALI de e keTalI kUratA? AvuM zA mATe thayuM? Ama temanA cittamAM eka bhAre mUMjhavaNa UbhI thaI ane tIvra gaDamathala jAmI. te vakhate ja acAnaka temanA citta uparathI kAMIka paDade sarI gayo ane temane janmajanmAMtaranuM kAMIka darzana thayuM. pachI teo DAka zAMta thayA. A ja anubhava temane jUnAgaDhane gaDha jevA gayA hatA tyAre pharI vAra thaye hatuM ane tyArathI temane punarjanma vize daDha khAtarI thaI hatI. Ama zrImad rAjacaMdrane sAta varSanI vaye eTale ke saMvata 1931mAM jAtismaraNa jJAna thayuM ane vairAgya vadhavA lAgyA. e "apUrva anusAra ullekha temaNe saM. 1953mAM lakhelA eka kAvyamAM karyo cheH dhanya re divasa A ahe, jAgI re zAMti apUrva re; daza varSe re dhArA UlasI, macyo udaya kamane garva che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA ogaNIsaseM ne ekatrIse. Avyo apUrva anusAra re; - ogaNIsaseM ne beMtAlIse. adbhuta vairAgyadhAra re." vaLI e ja bhAva darzAvatuM bIjuM eka kAvya saM. 1945mAM lakheluM, emAM zrImad jaNAve cheH laghu vayathI addabhuta thaye, tattvajJAnane bedha, e ja sUcave ema ke, gati-Agati* kAM zodha? je saMskAra the ghaTe, ati abhyAse kAMya, vinA parizrama te thaye, bhavazaMkA zI tyAMya?" paraMtu A jAtismaraNa jJAna vize vadhu carcAmAM teo pachIthI moTI uMmare paNa UtaratA nahi. amuka vakhate kaI paricita mANasa AgaLa pitAnA e anubhavanI tevI koI vAta bolAI gaI hoya, te te uparathI ghaNA e bAbata temane pUchaparacha karatA. temanA paricayamAM AvelA bhaktonA zabdo TAMkIe to, zrImade temane jAte kaheluM ke pote mahAvIra svAmInA ziSya hatA, ane amuka prakAranuM pramAda karavAthI temane ATalA bhava-800 jeTalA bhava- karavA paDyA hatA. paraMtu e vize temanA saMbaMdhIo taraphathI bhArapUrvaka pUchavAmAM AvatAM zrImadda "e bAbatane mane anubhava che." eTaluM * jIvanuM AvavuM ane javuM eTale ke punarjanma. 1 juo prakaraNa 11muM, naDiyAdamAM zrI motIlAlabhAI sAthe prasaMga; tema ja iDaranA mahArAjA sAthe vArtAlApa. For Personal & Private Use Only

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14 zrImad rAjacaMdra kahIne cUpa thaI jatA ane te vize nakAmI kutUhalavRttine aTakAvavA prayatna karatA. ' 26mA varSamAM lakhelA eka patramAM zrImade jaNAvyuM che: ""punarjanma che, jarUra che, e mATe huM anubhavathI hA kahevAmAM acala chuM."--e vAkya pUrva bhavanA kaI joganuM smaraNa thatI vakhate siddha thayeluM lakhyuM che. jeNe punarjanmAdi bhAva karyA che. te padArthane koI prakAre jANIne te vAkya lakhyuM che." zrImada rAjacaMdra kahetA ke, zAstramAM ghaNI vAra kahevAmAM AvyuM che ke AtmA upara ajJAna ane karmonAM paDaLa pharI vaLyAM che, tethI AtmA potAnI aneka zaktio ane zuddha svarUpa gumAvI beThe che. jema jema manuSya potAnI e malinatA dUra karato jAya che tema tema tenI te zaktio pragaTa thatI jAya che. je tattva jANavAnI ane prApta karavAnI vRtti ghaNI moTI uMmareya paNa lekamAM nathI jAgatI, te tatva prApta karavAnI je dhAlAvelI zrImad rAjacaMdramAM ghaNI nAnI uMmarathI jaNAya che, te uparanA siddhAMtathI ja samajI zakAya che. bAvIsa varSanI vaya sudhImAM zrImadda kaI kaI sthitimAMthI pasAra thaI gayA enuM citraNa temaNe "samuccaya vayacaryAmAM sacoTa rIte karyuM che e ahIM vicAravA cheH bAvIsa varSanI alpa vayamAM meM aneka raMga AtmA saMbaMdhamAM, mana saMbaMdhamAM, vacana saMbaMdhamAM, tana saMbaMdhamAM For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA ne dhana saMbaMdhamAM dIThA che. nAnA prakAranI sRSTiracanA, nAno prakAranAM saMsArI mejA, anaMta duHkhanuM mULa, e badhAMne aneka prakAre mane anubhava thaye che. samartha tatvajJAnIoe ane samartha nAstikae je je vicAre karyA che, te jAtinA aneka vicAre te a5 vayamAM meM karelA che. mahAna cakavatae karelA tRSNAnA vicAra, ane eka niHspRhI mahAtmAe karelA niHspRhAnA vicAra meM karyA che. amaratvanI siddhi ane kSaNikatvanI siddhi khUba vicArI che. a5 vayamAM mahatva vicAra karI nAkhyA che; mahatuM vicitratAnI prApti thaI che." punarjanmanI pratyakSa anubhUti vinA ATalI nAnI vaye jIvananI ATalI vipula vyApakatA saMbhave nahi. taduparAMta, saM. 1946nA bhAdaravA suda chaThanA patramAM zrImade rajU karelI vicAraNA pUrvabhavanA smaraNanuM jJAna temane hatuM e vAtanuM samarthana kare che ? aMtargAnathI smaraNa karatAM e kaI kALa jaNAte nathI vA sAMbharatuM nathI ke je kALamAM je samayamAM A jIve paribhramaNa na karyuM hoya, saMkalpa-vikalpanuM raTaNa na karyuM heya; ane e vaDe "samAdhi" na bhUlya heya. niraMtara e smaraNa rahyA kare che, ane e mahA vairAgyane Ape che. "vaLI smaraNa thAya che ke, e paribhramaNa kevaLa svacchedathI karatAM jIvane udAsInatA kema na AvI? bIjA jI paratve krodha karatAM, mAyA karatAM, lebha karatAM ke For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImada rAjacaMdra anyathA karatAM te mAThuM che ema yathAyogya kAM na jANyuM? arthAt ema jANavuM joItuM hatuM chatAM na jANyuM e vaLI pharI paribhramaNa karavAne vairAgya Ape che. vaLI smaraNa thAya che ke jenA vinA eka paLa paNa huM jIvI nahi zakuM evA keTalAka padArtho (strIAdika) te anaMta vAra choDatAM, teno viga thayAM anaMta kALa paNa thaI gaye tathApi tenA vinA jivAyuM e kaMI thoDuM AzcaryakAraka nathI. arthAt je je veLA te prItibhAva karyo hato te te veLA te kalpita hate. e prItibhAva kAM thaye? e pharI pharI vairAgya Ape che. "vaLI jenuM mukha kaI kALe paNa nahi jouM, jene kaI kALe huM grahaNa nahi ja karuM, tene ghera putrapaNe, strIpaNe, dAsapaNe, dAsIpaNe, nAnA jaMtupaNe zA mATe ja ? arthAt evA zreSathI evA rUpe janmavuM paDyuM! ane tema karavAnI te icchA nahotI! kahe e maraNa thatAM A kalezita AtmA paratve jugupsA nahi AvatI hoya? arthAt Ave che. vadhAre zuM kahevuM? je je pUrvanA bhavAMtare bhrAMtipaNe bhramaNa karyuM, tenuM smaraNa thatAM have kema jIvavuM? e citanA thaI paDI che, pharI na ja janmavuM ane pharI ema na ja karavuM evuM daDhatva AtmAmAM prakAze che. paNa keTalIka nirUpAyatA che; tyAM kema karavuM? je daDhatA che te pUrNa karavI, jarUra pUrNa paDavI e ja raTaNa che. paNa je kaMI ADuM Ave che, te kere karavuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 17 paDe che, arthAt khaseDavuM paDe che ane temAM kALa jAya che. jIvana cAlyuM jAya che. ene na javA devuM. jyAM sudhI yathAgya jaya na thAya tyAM sudhI, ema daDhatA che, tenuM kema karavuM ? "kadApi kaI rIte temAMnuM kaMI karIe te tevuM sthAna kyAM che ke jyAM jaIne rahIe? arthAt tevA saMte kyAM che ke jyAM jaIne e dazAmAM besI tenuM poSaNa pAmIe? tyAre have kema karavuM?" game tema che, game teTalAM duHkha veThe, game teTalA parisaha sahana kare, game teTalA upasarga sahana kare, game teTalI vyAdhio sahana kare, game teTalI upAdhio AvI paDe, game teTalI Adhio AvI paDe, game te jIvanakALa eka samaya mAtra che, ane dunimitta he, paNa ema karavuM ja. tyAM sudhI he jIva! chUTake nathI." - 17 varSanI vaya pahelAM zrImad rAjacaMdra racelI "puSpamALA" vize mahAtmA gAMdhIjIe paMDita sukhalAlajI sAthe vAtacIta karatAM kahyuM hatuM: "are, e "puSpamALA" te punarjanmanI sAkSI che." jI - sa -2 For Personal & Private Use Only

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vidyAkALamAM adbhuta zaktiono AvirbhAva sAta varSanI vayanA thayA bAda zrImad rAjacaMdrane zALAmAM keLavaNI levA besADavAmAM AvyA. bALaka rAjacaMdranI yAdazakti eTalI tIvra hatI ke eka ja vAra pATha vAMcI javAthI temane e taddana yAda rahI jate. temaNe pote ja "samuccaya vayacaryAmAM jaNAvyuM che e pramANe te kALe niraparAdhI smRti hovAthI eka ja vAra pAThanuM avalokana karavuM paDatuM hatuM. smRti evI baLavattara hatI ke jevI smRti bahu ja theDA manuSyamAM A kALe A kSetre haze." zrImadanI e yAdazaktine kAraNe sAmAnya bALakonI peThe temane ghera pharI vAMcI javAnI koI jarUra paDatI nahotI. tethI bahArathI bIjAne zrImadda abhyAsamAM pramAdI lAgatA. paraMtu zALAmAM zikhavADatI vakhate zikSaka pATha vAMcI jAya teTalAthI ja temane cAlI jatuM, pachI ghera vAMcavAnI jarUra ja zI? ' e kAraNathI eka mAsa jeTalo samaya paNa tho For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA nahi, eTalAmAM te zrImade AMka pUrA karyA ane be varSa jeTalI mudatamAM sAte cepaDI pUrI karI! pariNAme je vaDA vidyArthIe temane pahelI cepaDInI zarUAta karAvelI tene pite sAte cepaDIo pUrI karIne pahelI copaDI pUrI karAvI! eTalI nAnI uMmarathI ja rasika vAte ane kathAo jeDI kADhI rasika rIte kahI batAvavAnI temanAmAM zakti hatI. ATha varSanI vayathI kavitA racavAnI temaNe zarUAta karI hatI, je pAchaLathI tapAsatAM samApa hatI. te vakhate temaNe sAmAnya rIte maLI zake tevA kavitAnA badhA graMtha vAMcI kADhyA hatA ane ghaNAkharA temane maDhe thaI gayA hatA. AThamA varSanI uMmara daramyAna zrImade 5,000 kaDIo racelI kahevAya che, nava varSanI uMmare temaNe rAmAyaNa ane mahAbhArata padyamAM racyAM hatAM. pahelethI ja zrImad svabhAve bahu saraLa ane premALa hatA. zrImadda "samuccaya vayacaryAmAM jaNAve che ke, "te veLA prIti -saraLa vAtsalyatA- mArAmAM bahu hatI; savathI ekava Icchate sarvamAM bhrAtRbhAva heya te ja sukha, e mane svAbhAvika AvaDyuM hatuM. lekamAM kaI paNa prakArathI judAInA aMkure jete ke mAruM aMtaHkaraNa raDI paDatuM. tyAM sudhI mArAthI svAbhAvika rIte bhadrika paNuM ja * zrIma iA svabhAva meTapaNe paNa kAyama rahyo hato. e bAbatamAM mahAtmA gAMdhIjI kahe che: teo ghaNIvAra kahetA ke, "copAsathI ke I barachIo joke te For Personal & Private Use Only

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20 zrImada rAjacaMdra sevAyuM hatuM; huM mANasa jAtane bahu vizvAsu hatA. svAbhAvika sRSTiracanA para mane bahu prIti hatI." potAnA zALA bahAranA abhyAsanI bAbatamAM zrImad jaNAve cheH "tyAre keTalAka kAvyagraMthe meM vAMcyA hatA, tema ja aneka prakAranA bedhagraMtha -nAnA-ADAavaLAmeM joyA hatA; je prAye haju smRtimAM rahyA che." A prakhara buddhizALI ane premALa vidyArthI zikSake tema ja sahAdhyAyIone priya thaI paDyA vinA na ja rahe. vargamAM zikSaka te besI ja rahetA ane zrImada sATheya vidyArthIonuM lesana letA. - vidyArthIone zrImadda upara keTale badhe prema hatuM enuM eka udAharaNa jANItuM che. eka vakhata kAMI kAraNasara eka zikSake zrImad rAjacaMdrane Thapako Ape. eTale bIje divase zrImad nizALe na AvyA. A bAju vidyArthIe zALAmAM zrImane na jotAM temane ghera badhA gayA ane temanI sAthe dUra khetaramAM cAlyA gayA. zikSaka jyAre zALAmAM AvyA tyAre tyAM ekapaNa vidyArthI na maLe! enuM kAraNa vicAratAM zikSakane lAgyuM sahI zakuM, paNa jagatamAM je jUTha, pAkhaMDa, atyAcAra cAlI rahyAM che, dharmane nAme je adharma vatI rahyo che, tenI barachI sahana thaI zakatI nathI!" atyAcArothI UkaLI rahelA temane meM ghaNIvAra joyA che. temane AkhuM jagata potAnA sagA jevuM hatuM. ApaNA bhAI ke bahenane maratAM joIne je kaleza ApaNane thAya che, teTale kaleza temane jagatamAM du:khane, maraNane joIne thatuM." For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 21 ke, rAyacaMdabhAIne gaI kAle Thapako Apyo hato tethI badhA temanI pAse haze. tapAsa karatAM badhA vidyArthIo khetaramAM gayA che ema jANI zikSaka tyAM gayA ane zrImad rAjacaMdrane samajAvI nizALamAM pAchA laI AvyA. nAnapaNathI ja zrImamAM navuM jANavAnI, navuM sAMbhaLavAnI ane navuM zIkhavAnI tathA tenA upara manana-ciMtana karavAnI bhAre Teva hatI. dazame varSe te teo ghaNA viSaye upara chaTAdAra rasika bhASaNe ApatA. agiyAra varSanI vayathI temaNe ropAniyAMmAM lekha lakhavA mAMDyA hatA ane InAmI nibaMdha lakhI gya InAma paNa meLavyAM hatAM. te ja varSe strIkeLavaNInI upayogitA vize paNa eka nibaMdha temaNe lakhyuM hatuM. bAra varSanI vaye traNa divasamAM temaNe ghaDiyALa upara traNase kaDIo lakhI kADhI hatI. | tera varSanI uMmare zrImadda aMgrejIne abhyAsa karavA rAjakoTa gayA. aMgrejI abhyAsa temaNe keTalA vakhata sudhI tathA kyAM sudhI karyo tenI koI mAhitI maLI zakatI nathI. paraMtu 22mA varSamAM lakhelA eka patramAM temaNe jaNAvyuM cheH "zizuvayamAMthI ja e* vRtti UgavAthI koI prakArano "viveka vairAgya For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra parabhASAbhyAsa na thaI zakyo.......ane te na thaI zakyo tene mATe kaMI bIjI vicAraNA nathI. ethI AtmA adhika vikalpI thAta. ane vikalpAdika kalezane te nAza ja kara Iracha hatuM. eTale je thayuM te kalyANakAraka ja A samaya daramyAna eka vakhate kacchanA divAna maNibhAI jazabhAIe zrImane kaccha tarapha AvavA vinaMtI karI hatI. eTale teo kaccha gayA hatA. tyAM dharma saMbaMdhI sAruM bhASaNa karyuM hatuM. e sAMbhaLIne kacchanA loke prazaMsA karatA kahevA lAgyA ke, A cheka mahApratApI yazavALe thaze. zrImad rAjacaMdranA akSara eTalA chaTAdAra hatA ke kacchanA darabArane utAre temane lakhavA belAvavAmAM AvatA ane teo tyAM jatA paNa kharA. zrImad daza varSanA hatA tyAre banela eka prasaMga temanI bhAre sahanazaktine purAvo Ape che. zrImanA dAdAjI 98 varSanI vaye gujarI gayA. paMcANadAdA gujarI gayA tyAre zrImadda daza varasanA hatA. smazAne jatAM zrImade nanAmInA meDhA AgaLa cAlIne deNI (agni) upADI hatI. pagamAM temaNe kAMI paheryuM na hatuM. te vakhate pagamAM paheravAno rivAja na hato. raste cAlatAM zrImadane pagamAM lAMbI zULa bheMkAI gaI paNa temaNe e vedanA tarapha lakSa ja na ApyuM. agnisaMskAra pUruM thayA pachI badhA mANase ghera For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA pAchA pharyA. mAtA devabAIe joyuM ke, zrImad lacakAtA lacakAtA AvI rahyA che eTale mAtAjIe pUchyuM: "bhAI, pagamAM zuM vAgyuM che? kema Ama paga lacakAya che?" mAtAjIe paganI pAnI jeI te pAnImAM bAvaLane lAMbA kAMTe bheMkAI gayela hatuM! e joIne mAtAjIe pUchyuM: "bhAI, kyAMthI zULa lAgI?" zrImade kahyuM: "mA, ahIMthI smazAne jatAM rastAmAM vAgI." mAtAjI belI UDyAMH "bhAI, tyAM koIne kema vAta karI nahi ne zULa kaDhAvI nahi? ahIM sudhI A pIDA kema khamANI?" zrImada mAna ja rahyA. tera varSanI vayathI zrImade niyamathI khAnagImAM navA navA viSane abhyAsa karavA mAMDyo hato ane paMdara varSanI vaya sudhImAM ghaNuM viSaya saMbaMdhI vicakSaNa jJAna emaNe prApta karyuM hatuM. - tera varSa pUrAM thayA bAda zrImad rAjacaMdra pitAnI dukAne besavAnuM zarU karyuM. tyAM paNa temaNe game tema ramatamAM ke bIjA prapaMcamAM vakhata gALavAne badale pitAnuM vAcana-manana cAlu ja rAkhyuM. zrImad piote ja e vize lakhe che: dukAne meM nAnA prakAranI lIlAlahera karI che; aneka pustako vAMcyAM che, rAma ityAdinAM caritra upara kavitAo For Personal & Private Use Only

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24 zrImad rAjacaMdra racI che. chatAM koIne meM e cha adhike bhAva kahyo nathI ke koIne meM ochuM adhikuM taLI dIdhuM nathI, e mane cokkasa sAMbhare che." Ama ATalI nAnI uMmare paNa vyavahAramAM nItidharma upara bhAra mUkavAnI svAbhAvika vRtti temanAmAM hatI te dhyAnamAM rAkhavA jevuM che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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moTerA jevI samajazakti zrImad daza varSanI vayanA hatA te veLAe eka vAra teo morabI gayA hatA. tyAMthI potAnA mosALamAM rAjakeTa javAno vicAra hato. tethI morabInA bhAIoe keI sArA sAthanI tapAsa karavA mAMDI. te vakhate morabInA nyAyAdhIza dhArasIbhAI rAjakeTa javAnA che evI mAhitI maLI. eTale temane pUchavAmAM AvyuM ke, "tame A rAyacaMdabhAIne rAjakeTa saMgAthe teDI jaze? rAjakeTa temanA mesALe te javAnA che." dhArasIbhAI e hA pADI ane te emane pitAnI sAthe rAjakoTa teDI gayA. rAjakoTa jatAM raste dhArasIbhAIe zrImadda sAthe vAtacIta karI. zrImannI mananIya vAta sAMbhaLIne temane khUba Azcarya thayuM ke, ATalI lagabhaga daza varSanI vayamAM A chokaro ke hoziyAra che! moTI uMmaranA mANase paNa je vAta na karI zake tevI buddhinI vAta sAMbhaLIne dhArasIbhAIne thayuM ke, zI A nAnakaDA chokarAnI buddhi For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra che! temanA guNathI AkarSAIne dhArasIbhAI belyAH rAyacaMdabhAI, rAjakoTamAM amArI sAthe ja tame raheje." zrImad kaheH "nA, mArA sAthe rahIza." dhArasIbhAI e ghaNe ghaNe Agraha karyo, tyAre zrImade kahyuM: "tamAre tyAM Avate jaIza, paNa rahevAnuM te sALamAM ja thaze." zrImada rAjakeTa pahoMcyA eTale sALamAM gayA. tyAM mAmAe pUchayuM: "tame konI sAthe AvyA?" zrImada kaheH "dhArasIbhAI sAthe Avyo chuM." baMne mAmAe jANyuM ke dhArasIbhAI atre AvyA che. eTale e baMne jaNA maLIne temane ThekANe pADI devA mATenI prapaMcanI vAta mAMhomAMhe karavA lAgyA. jamatAM jamatAM zrImad rAjacaMdra A sAMbhaLyuM, tethI temaNe anumAna karyuM ke, "A baMne bhAIone dhArasIbhAI sAthe aNabanAva have joIe ane tethI teo baMne emane mArI nAkhavAne prapaMca goThave che, to mAre temane tyAM jaI A meTo upakAra karavAno avasara cUkave nahi. temane cetAvI devA joIe. A vicAra karIne jamyA pachI zrImada dhArasIbhAIne tyAM jhaDapathI gayA. zrImade dhArasIbhAIne pUchayuM: "dhArasIbhAI, tamAre mArA mAmAo sAthe kaMI saMbaMdha che?" dhArasIbhAIe sAme pUchayuM: "kema?" zrImad kaheH "huM pUchuM chuM.' tyAre dhArasIbhAIe kahyuM: "sagapaNa-saMbaMdha nathI, For Personal & Private Use Only

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27 jIvana-sAdhanA paNa rAja saMbaMdhI khaTapaTa cAle che." | zrImad belyAH "tema che, to tamAre sAvacetImAM rahevuM. kema ke tamAre mATe teo upAya zodhatA hatA. lAga phAve te ThekANe karI devAnI vAta karatA hatA. mATe te vize pramAdI na thavuM." dhArasIbhAIe navAI pAmIne pUchayuM: "paNa tame e kema jANyuM ke mAre mATe teo Ama karavA dhAre che?" zrImade uttara ApeH "huM jamato hato tyAre bahAra huM sAMbhaLuM teTalA meTA sAthe teo vAto karatA hatA ane huM tenI sAthe AvyA te temaNe mane pUchayuM tyAre meM tamAruM nAma ApyuM hatuM. te uparathI temaNe te prasaMge vAta upADI hatI." dhArasIbhAIe pUchayuM: "paNa tamArA dekhatAM tevI vAte te kema kare?" zrImad kaheH "A nAne bALa che; Ane e bAbatanI zI samajaNa paDavAnI che? ema jANI te vAte karatA hatA. eTale tamane kahevA-cetavavA mATe Avyo chuM." dhArasabhAInA manamAM thayuM ke, ahe! A bALakamAM keTalI upakArabuddhi! moTA mANasane paNa na sUjhe te mahAupakAra A bALaka kare che! sAruM thayuM ke huM emane teDI lAvyuM. dhanya che A bALa mahAtmAne! dhanya mArAM bhAgya ke emane mane saMga thaya! ema vicArI te ghaNe AnaMda pAmyA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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28 zrImad rAjacaMdra e ja arasAmAM evuM banyuM ke, kaccha-koDAyanA rahIza zA. hemarAjabhAI tathA naliyAnA rahIza zA. mAlasIbhAI zrImad rAjacaMdrane maLavA vavANiyA javA nIkaLyA. teoe sAMbhaLyuM hatuM ke vavANiyA nivAsI kavirAja rAyacaMdabhAI mahA buddhizALI che. emanI khyAtithI AkarSAI A baMne bhAIe sAMDhaNI upara savAra thaI vavANiyA tarapha ravAnA thayA. vavANiyAmAM tapAsa karatAM jaNAyuM ke teo te morabI gayA che. eTale e baMne bhAIo merabI tarapha ravAnA thayA. tyAM evA samAcAra maLyA ke, rAyacaMdabhAI emane mosALa rAjakoTa gayA che. eTale teo morabIthI rAjakoTa tarapha UpaDyA. A tarapha zrImad rAjacaMdranuM jJAna nirmaLa hevAthI temane jJAnamAM jaNAyuM ke be kacchI bhAIo sAMDhaNI upara besI temane maLavA AvI rahyA che. eTale zrImad dhArasIbhAI pAse gayA ane bolyAH "be jaNa kacchathI AvanAra che. temane utAre tamAre tyAM rAkhaze?" dhArasIbhAIe kahyuM: "hA, khuzIthI mAre tyAM temane utAre rAkhaje. huM temane mATe badhe baMdobasta karIza." eTale e bAbatamAM nizcita thaI zrImadda e bhAIonA AvavAnA mArga tarapha sAmA gayA. e baMne bhAI o najIka AvyA, eTale zrImad rAjacaMdra temane nAma daIne belAvyAH "kema hemarAjabhAI kema mAlasIbhAI?" A sAMbhaLIne e baMne jaNA vicAramAM paDI gayA For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 29 ke, ApaNAM nAma teo kyAMthI jANe che? keIne ApaNe AgaLathI khabara te ApI nathI! A te bhAre adabhuta kahevAya! Ama baMnee navAI pAmIne pUchayuM : "tame kema jANyuM ke ame atyAre A ja mArge AvIe chIe? - zrImad kaheH "AtmAnI anaMta zaktio che, te vaDe ame jANIe chIe." e bhAIe A sAMbhaLIne manamAM samajI gayA ke, ApaNe emane maLIne emanI sAthe vAtacIta karIne emane vadhu abhyAsArthe kAzIe mokalavAnI icchA karIne AvyA chIe kharA, paNa AvI ajaba zaktivALA nirmaLa AtmAne zuM bhaNavAnuM bAkI haze? teye emane vinaMtI karI jevI to kharI. jamI rahyA pachI kacchanA e bhAIoe dhArasIbhAIne kahyuM: "amAre rAyacaMdabhAI sAthe khAnagI vAta karavI che, te evuM ekAMta sthaLa amane ahIM maLaze?" dhArasIbhAIe evuM sthAna batAvyuM. tyAM ekAMtamAM teo zrImanI sAthe beThA ane vAtacIta karavA lAgyA. zrImannI vAtacIta sAMbhaLIne emanAmAM rahelI adabhuta zaktione teone paricaya thaye. eTale bhAIone pAchuM manamAM thayuM ke, emane kAzIe zuM laI javA? chatAM je mATe AvyA chIe te mATe prayatna te karI je. pachI je thavAnuM haze te thaze. ApaNe te spaSTa hetu kahI batAva. ema vicArIne e bhAIoe potAnA manano vicAra For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra zrImad AgaLa rajU karyoH "Apane bhaNAvavA mATe kAzI laI javA mATenI vinaMtI karavA ame khAsa AvyA chIe. mATe Apa kAzI cAle. Apane mATe khAvApIvAnI, rahevA karavAnI badhI sagavaDa ame karI ApIzuM. mATe Apa amArI sAthe cAle te meTo upakAra thAya." Ama aneka lAla vagere ApavA mATe e leke e prayatna karI je. paraMtu zrImade nA pADI ane jaNAvyuM ke, "amArAthI AvavAnuM nahi bane." eTale e bhAI e samajI gayA ke, prathamathI ja anumAna kareluM ke ApaNI dhAraNuM pAra paDe tema nathI ane ema ja banyuM. teo te bhaNelA ja che; kAzI jaI temane kaMI vizeSa zIkhavuM paDe ema nathI. - pachI dhArasIbhAI pAse e baMne bhAIo gayA. eTale dhArasIbhAI e kahyuM: "rAyacaMdabhAI sAthe thayelI vAtacIta mane kahevA lAyaka heya te kaho." hemarAjabhAI belyAH "chupAvavA jevI keI paNa vAta nathI. paNa amArI je dhAraNA hatI te pAra na paDI!" dhArasIbhAIe pUchayuM : "kema pAra na paDI?" tenA uttaramAM A prasaMge temaNe kahI saMbhaLAvyuM ane jaNAvyuM: "ame pahelAMthI jANa karI nahatI te paNa pitAnI meLe teo sAmA AvyA, amane amArAM nAmathI bolAvyA, ahIM badhI taiyArI karAvI. A te kaI AzcaryakArI mahApuruSa che!" e sAMbhaLIne dhArasIbhAIne AnaMda sahita Azcarya For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 31 thayuM. temane paNa prathama te evuM lAgyuM hatuM ke rAyacaMdabhAI bhUla kare che. ATalI badhI sagavaDa karI ApavA A leke sAmethI taiyAra thayA che chatAM hA kema kahetA nathI? temaNe kAzI bhaNavA javuM joIe. paNa pAchaLanI hakIkata jANIne samajAyuM ke je vyakti ATalI nAnI uMmaramAM AvI ajaba zakti dharAve che tene bhaNavuM paNa zuM hoya? vaLI emanI gaMbhIratA paNa keTalI che ke sAgaranI peThe badhuM samAvI zake che, lagAra mAtra paNa chalakAtA nathI. Ama dhArasabhAI jevA moTA nyAyAdhIzane zrImanA jJAnAdi guNanI mahattA yathArtha bhAsI, tethI ": phUgAthA Lipu, na ja ujaDa va ' e nyAye prathama dhArasIbhAI zrImane pitAnI jeDe gAdI para besADatA ene badale jyArathI teo mahApuruSa che ema lAgyuM tyArathI zrImane gAdItakiye te besADatA ane pite emanI sAme nIce besatA. Ama pUjyabhAva dhAraNa karI te vinaya sAcavatA. ane AgaLa jatAM jema jema zrImadda sAthe satsamAgama vadhate gaye, tema tema emanuM vizeSa mAhAmya temane samajAvA lAgyuM ane temaNe zrImad rAjacaMdrane paramakRpALu sadguru tarIke mAnI temanuM zaraNa svIkAryuM. pachI zrImane vavANiyA pAchA javA vicAra thaye, tyAre temane sAru mesALamAMthI mIThAIno eka Daba bhAtA mATe bharI ApyuM hatuM. te laIne tathA badhAnI rajA laIne zrImad vavANiyA javA nIkaLyA. dhArasIbhAIne paNa maLIne temanI rajA lIdhI hatI. For Personal & Private Use Only

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3ra zrImad rAjacaMdra paraMtu te vakhate zrImad pAse gADIbhADAnA paisA nahatA. tethI temaNe e bhAtuM eka kaMdoIne tyAM vecIne bhADA jeTalA paisA meLavyA. paNa dhArasIbhAI sAthe ATaluM badhuM oLakhANa thayuM hatuM chatAM koI paNa mAgaNI na karI ke uchInA paisA paNa na mAgyA. ATalI nAnI vaya havA chatAM samaju gRhasthanI mAphaka emanAmAM samajazakti hatI ke: mara jAuM mAguM nahi, apane tanake kAja; - paramArathake kAraNa mAguM, nA meM samaju lAja." kacchanA bhAIonI sagavaDa yathAgya thAya te mATe dhArasabhAIne zrImade vinaMtI karI ane te lokonI AgatAsvAgatA sAcavI, paraMtu pitAne cheDA bhADAnA paisA jeItA hatA te paNa e mATe hAtha lAMbo karI temaNe dInatA dAkhavI nahi. For Personal & Private Use Only

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avadhAna-zakti saMvata 1940nA arasAmAM zrImad rAjacaMdramAM mIjI eka adbhuta zaktinu dana thAya che. vavANiyA gAma nAnuM heAvAthI emanuM mana pravAsa tarapha rahyA karatuM hatuM. vaLI vavANiyAmAM sujJa, vidvAna manuSyAna sahavAsa paNa theADA maLatA heAvAthI khIje kayAMka bahAra javA tarapha emanI vRtti rahyA karatI hatI. sa'. 1940nA arasAmAM zrImadda mAramI gayA hatA. mArImAM te vakhate zAstrI zaMkaralAla mAhezvara bhaTTa aSTAvadhAnanA prayAgeA jAheramAM karI batAvatA. aSTAvadhAna eTale ATha judI judI khAkhatA tarapha ekIvakhate lakSa rAkhI bhUla vagara ATha kriyAe karI khatAvavI. e ja arasAmAM muMbaImAM gaTulAlajI mahArAja paNa aSTAvadhAnanA pratyeAgeA karatA hatA. A vakhate jANavA pramANe hiMdustAnamAM e ja puruSA AvI camatkArI zaktivALA gaNAtA hatA. mArakhImAM AvyA hatA te arasAmAM zrImad jha - sA - 3 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra jenA upAzrayamAM zAstrI zaMkaralAlanAM aSTAvadhAna thayAM. vaNikabhUSaNa kavirAja tarIke khyAti pAmelA zrImane paNa aSTAvadhAnenuM nirIkSaNa karavA AmaMtraNa ApavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. zrImanI smaraNazakti abhuta te hatI ja. eTale temaNe aSTAvadhAna joyAM ke tarata zIkhI lIdhAM. bIje divase vasaMtabAgamAM prathama khAnagImAM mitramaMDaLa samakSa navA navA viSaye laI avadhAna karI batAvyAM. tyAra pachI be hajAra prekSake samakSa bAra avadhAna karI batAvyAM! e samaya daramyAna muMbaInA zeTha lakSamIdAsa khImajIbhAI merabImAM AvyA hatA. temane hAIskUlamAM mATI sabhA bharIne zrImade bAra avadhAna karI batAvyAM. temanI AvI adbhuta zakti joIne zeTha lakSmIdAse kahyuM: "A vakhate hiMda khAte te A eka ja puruSa ATalI zaktivALA che. te prasaMge zrImadane sAruM evuM InAma paNa ApavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. - tyAra bAda zrImad pitAnA aMgata kAma aMge jAmanagara gayA hatA. tyAM temaNe vidvAnanI be sabhAomAM anukrame bAra ane seLa avadhAne karI batAvyAM. badhA prekSake mugdha banI gayA. ahIM temane 'hiMdanA hIrA" tarIkenuM biruda arpaNa karavAmAM AvyuM. te vakhate jAmanagaramAM be vidvAne ATha daza varSathI avadhAna karavA mATe tanatoDa mathAmaNa karatA hatA, For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 35 paNa saphaLa thatA nahatA. tethI tyAMnA vidvAnone saLa avadhAna karanArA zrImadda pratye bahumAna ane Azcarya utpanna thayAM hatAM. - tyAra bAda vaDhavANanA pradarzanamAM zrImade karnala eca. ela. naTa sAheba ane bIjA rAjA rajavADA tathA mitramaMDaLa vagere maLI Azare be hajAra prekSakonI samakSa seLa avadhAne karI batAvyAM hatAM. e joIne AkhI sabhA AnaMda AnaMdamaya thaI gaI hatI. saghaLA sabhAjananA mukhamAMthI zrImaddanI abhuta zaktinI muktaka ke prazaMsA vyakta thatI hatI. uparAuparI prazaMsAnAM vyAkhyAne thatAM jatAM hatAM. "gujarAtI", "muMbaI samAcAra, lekamitra", "nyAyadarzaka vagere chApAMomAM paNa zrImadanAM yazagAna thavA lAgyAM. pachI eka vAra zrImad boTAda gayA hatA. tyAM temaNe bAvana avadhAna kAMI paNa khAsa parizrama ke pUrvataiyArI vinA ja karI batAvyAM! Ama seLa avadhAna uparathI ekadama bAvana avadhAna sahajapaNe zrImade karI batAvyAM e parathI temanI atyaMta adabhuta zaktine keIne paNa khyAla AvyA vinA rahetuM nathI. e bAvana avadhAnene thoDeghaNe khyAla nIcenI hakIkata parathI Avaze. 1. traNa jaNa sAthe pATe ramyA javuM. 2. traNa jaNa sAthe gaMjIphe ramyA javuM. 3. eka jaNa sAthe zetaraMja ramyA javuM. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjaca dra 4. jhAlaranA paDatA TakorA gaNatA javuM. 5. saravALA, bAdabAkI, guNAkAra, bhAgAkAra, manamAM gaNyA javuM. 6. mALAnA pArAmAM lakSa ApI gaNatarI karavI. 1 7. ATheka navI samasyAo pUrNa karavI. 8. seLa navA sUcavelA viSaya upara madhyAe mAgelA vRttamAM kavitA racatA javuM. 16 9. grIka, aMgrejI, saMskRta, arabI, laiTina, urdu, gujarAtI, marAThI, baMgALI, maru, jADejI Adi kaI paNa seLa bhASAonA cArase anukrama vihIna zabda pAchA kartA, karmanA anukrama sahita kahI ApavA ane vacce bIjAM kAma paNa karyo javAM. 10. vidyArthIne samajAve. 11. keTalAka alaMkAranA vicAra. ka " | re ema bAvana kAmanI zarUAta eka sAthe karavI, eka kAmane kaMIka bhAga karI, bIjA kAmane kaMIka bhAga kare, pachI trIjAne, pachI cethAne..vaLI pAchA pahelA kAma upara AvavuM...ema saghaLAM bAvana kAma pUrNa thatAM sudhI karyA karavAM; lakhavuM nahi ke pharI pUchavuM nahi. bhASAnA anukramavihIna zabdone anukrama sahita zI rIte darzAvavAmAM AvatA enAM beeka udAharaNa For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA joIe? saMskRtanuM anukramavihIna svarUpa tti se jA rara vitta jatta: 1 = 1 hi vi yo vi vA ko Sa nu ra ro ko 5, = na to re zrImade anukramasahita kahela zloka baddho hi ko yo viSayAnurAgI jo vA vimuvato viSaye viravata: | ko vAsti ghoro narakaH svadehaH / tRSNAkSayaH svargapadaM kimasti / / gujarAtInuM anukramavihIna svarUpa 2 | zo je | 5 | do e je thI che | ha | va | che te zrImade gujarAtI vAkya kahI batAvyuM hatuM teH ApanA jevAM ratnathI haju sRSTi suzobhita che, e joIne AnaMda thAya che." For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra pachI sa'. 1943 mAM zrImad rAjacaMdranI muMkhaImAM sthiti hatI. tyAM temaNe zatAvadhAna -se| avadhAna- karavAnI peAtAnI atiadbhuta zaktinA paricaya pharAmajI insTiTayUTa tema ja anya sthaLAe karAvyeA hatA. zrImadanI se avadhAnA karavAnI zaktithI badhA leAke mugdha banI gayA hatA. temane suvarNa caMdraka arpaNa karavAmAM AvyeA hateA ane 'sAkSAt sarasvatI'nuM mAnavaMtuM biruda ApavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. TheraThera emanI muktaka The prazaMsA thavA lAgI. * TAimsa oNpha inDiyA', 'pAceAniyara' vagere agragaNya chApAMoe zrImanAM bhArAbhAra guNagAna gAyAM. 38 egaNIsa varSanI vayanA eka tejasvI cuvAnanI AvI adbhuta mAnasika zakti joIne DaoN. piTarasana Adi pAzcAtya vidvAne Azcaryacakita thaI gayA. muMbaInI hAI korTanA mukhya nyAyamUrti sara cArlsa sArajanTe tA zrImane yuropamAM jaIne temanI A ajAyabIbharI zaktinA prayAgA batAvavAnuM AgrahabharyuM" sUcana paNa karyuM". paraMtu zrImad ema karavA tatpara thayA nahi, kAraNa ke temaNe vicAyuM ke yureApamAM peAte jainadharmAnusAra rahI zake nahi. avadhAna uparAMta zrImad alaukika spondriyazakti paNa dharAvatA hatA. temane eka Dajhana jeTalAM judAM judAM kadanAM pustake prathama batAvavAmAM AvatAM tathA temanAM nAma vAMcavA devAmAM AvatAM. tyAra bAda temanI AMkheAe pATA bAMdhI devAmAM AvatA; ane eka pachI eka For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 39 judA judA kAmamAM e pustake temanA hAthamAM mUkavAmAM AvatAM, zrImad rAjacaMdra pustakane sparza karI tene kada uparathI dareka pustakanuM nAma ApI zakatA. evI ja bIjI zaktine emanAmAM AvirbhAva thayela jovA maLe che. mAtra raseI jeIne ja, cAkhyA vinA ke hAtha lagADyA vinA kaI vAnagImAM mIThuM ochuM che ke vadhAre athavA nathI e zrImad kahI zakatA hatA. vaLI zrImad kaI mANasa kayA hAthe pAghaDI bAMdhe che e paNa tenA mAthAnI AkRti joIne pArakhI zakatA hatA. zrImad pite aMdara gharamAM beThA hoya ane pAghaDI bAMdhanAra mANasa bahAra jaIne pAghaDI bAMdhate heya. e mANasa je vaLanI pAghaDI bAMdhate heya e zrImad gharamAM beThA beThA kahI detA hatA. enuM kAraNa pUchatAM zrImad kahetA ke, "aMtaHkaraNanI zuddhi sivAya thaI zake nahi. zIkhavADayuM AvaDe tema nathI." - vIsa varSanI vaya pachI zrImad rAjacaMdra A avadhAna karavAnuM ekadama baMdha karI dIdhuM. kAraNa ke smaraNazaktinA pratAparUpa A avadhAna pravRttine vadhata jate camatkAra Amannatirakta ane aMtarmukha vRttivALA zrImane priya na lAgyuM. tethI Atmonnati ane A camatkAra baMne bhinna bhAsavAthI -sanmArgaredhaka pratIta thavAthI- zrImad rAjacaMdranI aMtaraMga vairAgyamaya, udAsIna tema ja sasukhadhaka bhAvane A pravRttine For Personal & Private Use Only

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40 zrImada rAjacaMdra vistaravA na detAM virAma pamADI de che. AmAM zrImad rAjacaMdranI mahattAnuM ApaNane pratyakSa darzana thayA vinA rahetuM nathI. ATalI adabhuta ane Azcaryajanaka avadhAnazakti, ke jenA dvArA hajAre ane lAkha lekene kSaNamAtramAM AMjI daI anuyAyI banAvI zakAya, asAdhAraNa pratiSThA ane artha lAbha sAdhI zakAya, te havA chatAM zrImad rAjacaMdra ene prayoga gavibhUtionI peThe tyAjya gaNI, tene upayoga aMtamukha kArya bharNa karyo. A pramANe bIjA keI sAdhAraNa mANasathI thavuM zakya nathI. zrImanI A ajaba avadhAnazakti e emanI asAdhAraNa smRtine purAve che. emAMya temanI keTalIka vizeSatA rahelI che. eka te e ke, bIjA keTalAka avadhAnIonI peThe emanAM avadhAnanI saMkhyA kevaLa saMkhyA vRddhi khAtara yathAkathaMcit vadhelI na hatI. vaLI bIjA avadhAnIone e zakti prApta karavA ane vikasAvavA sabhAna ane tanatoDa prayatna karavA paDe che, jyAre zrImamAM A zaktine vikAsa sahaja ane svayaMrtapaNe thayelo jovA maLe che. khAsa mahatvanI vizeSatA te e che ke, zrImadanI avadhAnazakti buddhivyabhicArane lIdhe jarAya vaMdhya banI na hatI, UlaTuM emAMthI viziSTa sajanabaLa pragaTayuM hatuM, je anya avadhAnIomAM bhAgye ja dekhAya che. enuM mukhya kAraNa e kahI zakAya ke, zrImaddamAM rahelA prajJAguNanuM ja e For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA eka vyakti svarUpa hatuM. sAthe sAthe ahIM ApaNe nirmaLa aMtaHkaraNanA phaLarUpa je zakti zrImadamAM udaya pAmI hatI ene paNa vicAra karI laIe. e zakti eTale bhaviSyamAM bananAra prasaMganuM ke sAmenI vyaktinA cittamAM udabhavatA vicAranuM pUrvajJAna. e eka prasaMga ApaNe AgaLa zA. hemarAjabhAI ane zA. mAlazIbhAInI bAbatamAM joI gayA chIe. e ja bIjo prasaMga zrI bhAgyabhAInI bAbatamAM ApaNe have pachI joIzu.* ahIM ApaNe bIjA keTalAka prasaMgo joIe. vavANiyAmAM desAI vIrajI rAmajI rahetA hatA. eka vakhata vIrajI desAI ane zrImadda sAthe pharavA gayA. rastAmAM zrImade vIrajIbhAIne pUchayuM: "vIrajIkAkA, mArI kAkIne kAMI thAya te tame bIjIvAra paraNe kharA?" vIrajIbhAIe kAMI javAba na ApyuM. thoDA divasa pachI virajIbhAInAM patnI gujarI gayAM. pachI pAchA bIjI vakhata zrImane vIrajIbhAI sAthe pharavA javAne jega maLe. zrImade pUchyuM: vIrajIkAkA, tame have paraNaze?" vIrajIbhAIe uparathI nA kahI paNa meM jarA marakyuMeTale ke UMDe UMDe temanI IcchA pharI paraNavAnI hatI kharI. * juo prakaraNa 12 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra zrImad kaheH "tamAre cha mahinA pachI paraNavuM." cha mahinA vItI gayA. zrAvaNa vada chaTha-rAMdhaNachaThanA divase vIrajIbhAI bahArathI ghera AvyA, tyAre khALamAM sarpa Daspe. sApa utAravAnI khUba mahenata karI. paraMtu virajIbhAI kaheH "mAre covihAra bhaMgAvaze mA. mane kahenAre kahI dIdhuM che.' - eka vakhata ravajIbhAI camanapara jatA hatA, tyAre zrImade kahyuM: "bApA, tame Aje camanapara na jAva te?" chatAM ravajIbhAI gayA. sAMje davATANe zrImadnA nAnA bhAI manasukhabhAIne rasoDAmAM jatAM dIvAnI jhALa lAgI ane paheraNa baLavA mAMDyuM. jhabakabahena tyAM hAjara hatAM, temaNe ekadama chAzanuM deNuM manasukhabhAInA zarIra upara reDI dIdhuM. manasukhabhAInI chAtI dAjhI gaI. pachI ravajIbhAIne camanapara teDavA mANasa mokalavAmAM Ave. vavANiyAmAM eka garAziyAbApu eka vakhata ghaDI upara savAra thaIne pharavA nIkaLyA. zrImade tene kahyuM: "bApu, tame Aje ghaDI laIne pharavA jAva mA. zrImade ghaNuM kahyuM chatAM teNe mAnyuM nahi ne ghaDI laIne te gAma bahAra gayA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA tyAM ghaDIe tophAna karyuM. garAziyAbApune bhaya para pachADyA. pachI ene cAra jaNa jaIne phALamAM suvADI ghera laI AvyA. pachI turata ja garAziyAbApu gujarI gayA. eka vakhata zrImadunA bhakta, kAviThAvALA zA. jhaverabhAI saM. 1953nA piSamAM sagAM kuTuMbI tathA bIjA mumukSuo sAthe zrImanAM darzane vavANiyA javA nIkaLyA. tyAM to morabI sTezane eka mANasa e lokone sAme maLavA AvyuM. teNe zrImadane saMdeza ApatAM kahyuM : sAhebajI atre che. tamane teDavA mekalela che." zA. jhaverabhAIe navAI pAmIne pUchayuM: "kRpALadeve zAthI jANyuM?" te bhAI kaheH "te huM kaMI jANatuM nathI. phakta tamane badhAne vavANiye jatAM rokI ahIM lAve ema kahela che." kAviThAmAM uttara bAju vAgaDiyA taLAva nAmanI jagyA che tyAM eka vakhate zrImad mumukSuo samakSa jJAnavArtA karatA hatA. evAmAM tyAMnA eka pATIdAra zAmaLabhAIe najIkamAM pitAnuM khetara hatuM emAMthI megarAnAM thoDAMka phUla lAvI zrImaddanI beThaka upara bhaktibhAve mUkyAM. e joIne zrImadda bolyAH saheja kAraNamAM ATalAM badhAM phUla na teDIe." "pachI thoDI vAra thobhIne zrImade kahyuMH "tamArI dIkarI hIrAne kAle ArAma thaI jaze." For Personal & Private Use Only

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R zrImad rAjacaMdra kAviThAthI traNa gAu dUra sihela gAmamAM zAmaLabhAInI dIkarI ene sAsare ghaNA divasa thayAM mAMdI hatI. tyAM ene jevA zAmaLabhAI gayA te ArAma thaI gaye hate. - zrImada zAmaLabhAI paTelane ke tenI dIkarIne oLakhatA na hatA. zrImamAM AvI badhI adbhuta vibhUtione sAkSAtkAra thayela joIne AtmAnI anaMta zaktinI ApaNane saheje pratIti thAya che. "AtmasiddhizAstramAM zrImade yathArtha ja kahyuM che: "zuddha buddha caitanyaghana, svayaMti sukhadhAma; bIjuM kahIe keTaluM? kara vicAra te pAmI For Personal & Private Use Only

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kumAra-kALanI vicArasamRddhi zrImad rAjacaMdra vIsa varSanI vaye gRhasthAzramamAM praveza karyo e pahelAMnI emanI vicArabhUmikA samajavI jarUrI che. kumAra avasthA daramyAna temanA vicAre kevI ucca ane Atmonnatikara kakSAe pahoMcyA hatA enuM avakana karIe te ATalI nAnI vaye paNa zrImade kevI vicArasamRddhi prApta karI hatI ene khyAla AvI zake. ApaNe jeI gayA chIe ke nAnapaNathI ja zrImad rAjacaMdramAM viveka, vairAgya ane dharmabhAvanAnI sAthe sAthe saMsAramAM vijaya pamADI zake evI adbhuta zaktio tema ja mahecchAo hatI. ene kAraNe zrImane zarUAtathI ja eka prakAranA AMtarayuddhamAM UtaravuM paDyuM hatuM. ane tethI temanI vicArazakti vadhu tIvra, vadhu karela ane gaMbhIra banI hatI. dhIme dhIme temanA vicAre daDha ane paripakva thatAM temanAmAM e vicArone pragaTa rUpa ApavAnI ane For Personal & Private Use Only

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46 zrImad rAjacaMdra bIjAone e vicArenA bhAgIdAra banAvavAnI vRtti pragaTa thaI. pariNAme nAnI vayathI ja zrImad pustaka lakhavA ane prasiddha karavA prerAyA. enuM eka bIjuM kAraNa paNa hatuM. zarUAtathI ja temanAmAM jJAnaprApti ane zAstra-adhyayananI jijJAsA bahu prabaLa hatI. sattaramAM varSa pahelAMnI temanI neMdhamAM paNa nIcenAM vAkyo ApaNane jovA maLe che te uparathI ene saheje khyAla AvazeH vIranAM kahelAM zAstromAM senerI vacane chUTaka chUTaka ane gupta che. "uttarAdhyayana" nAmanuM jaina sUtra tattvadaSTie punaH punaH avalokejJAnIoe ekatra karelA adbhuta nidhinA upabhegI thAo. zravaNa karIne kalyANane jANavuM joIe pApane jANavuM joIe.. pachI je zreya hAya te samAcaravuM joIe. je jIva eTale caitanyanuM svarUpa jANatuM nathI; ajIva eTale jaDanuM svarUpa jANatA nathI, te sAdhu saMyamanI vAta kyAMthI jANe?" vaLI zrImad rAjacaMdranI smaraNazakti prathamathI ja bahu tIvra hatI. eTale bhASAjJAna meLavatAM temane ghaNo vakhata lAgate ja nahi. tethI eTalI nAnI uMmare paNa zrImade vicAra ane siddhAMtathI bharelA agharA dArzanika graMthe vAMcyA hatA. e rIte potAnuM dharmajJAna sIdhuM mULa graMthamAMthI ja meLavavA teo zaktimAna thayA hatA. e uMmara sudhImAM zrImade kyA kyA graMthane abhyAsa karyo hato te cokkasa kahI zakAya ema nathI. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 47 e vize temanAM lakhANamAM kamabaddha ullekha maLatuM nathI. paraMtu mukhyatve jaina AgamAMthI ghaNAMno zrImade paricaya karI lIdhuM hatuM. ane tethI jenadharmanuM mULa lakSa tathA mULa zAstromAM varNavelA sAcA gRhastha ane sAcA muninA AcAre jANavA tathA samajavA teo zaktimAna thayA. paraMtu potAnA samayanA jaina AcAra-vicAra sAthe sarakhAmaNI karatAM zrImad rAjacaMdrane mULa siddhAMtamAM ane pracalita AcAramAM AkAzajamInane pharaka dekhAye. temaNe spaSTa joyuM ke, leke mULa zAstro vAMcatA-vicAratA nathI, tethI ja game tevA vicArahIna AcAre paraMparAthI ke ajJAnathI svIkArI jIvana gALyA kare che. jaina munionI dazA paNa tevI ja hatI. je Adarza zAstromAM kahyo hoya te pitAthI pALI zakAya te na lAgatAM tene maLe karavAnI ke DhAMkavAnI vRttithI, paraspara AcAryonA vAdavivAdathI, kadAgrahathI, matinI nyUnatAthI ane mULa zAstronuM adhyayana tathA vicAra ghaTI javAthI, e lokamAM je matabhede ane vahemanuM sAmrAjya pravartatuM hatuM e joIne temane puruSArtha ane premALa AmA dubhA. tIrthaMkara jevA pUrNa puruSane dharma pAmyA pachI paNa leke jaDatA ane pramAdane lIdhe tathA sadaguru ane sazAstranA paricayanA abhAve je aMdha jIvana gALI rahyA hatA tethI zrImad ghaNuM khinna thayA. ane tyArathI, kema karIne For Personal & Private Use Only

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48 zrImad rAjacaMdra kemAM satyasiddhAMtanA jJAnane pracAra karI saune jagADuM ane prayatnazIla karuM evI temane pAlAvelI lAgI. sattaramA varSamAM zrImadda lakhe cheH jaina prajA (AkhA hiMdustAnamAM thaIne) 20 lAkha che. temAMthI nava tattvane paThanarUpe be hajAra puruSe paNa mAMDa jANatA haze, manana ane vicArapUrvaka te AMgaLIne Terave gaNI zakIe teTalA puruSe paNa nahi haze. jyAre AvI patita sthiti tattvajJAna saMbaMdhI thaI gaI che tyAre ja matamatAMtara vadhI paDyA che." te vakhate "aMgrejI zAsanamAM je keLavaNI apAtI hatI te evA prakAranI hatI ke jANyuM ke ajANye bhaNelAemAMthI te dharmavRttine mULathI ja lepa karI detI hatI. zrImad rAjacaMdra ekavIsamA varSamAM lakhe cheH "je loke vidyAne bedha laI zakyA che temane dharmatattva upara mULathI zraddhA jaNAtI nathI. jene kaMIka saralatAne lIdhe hoya che tene te viSayanI kaMI gatAgama jaNAtI nathI. ane gatAgamavALo kaI nIkaLe te tene te vastunI vRddhimAM vidma karanArA nIkaLe. paNa sahAyaka na thAya....ema keLavaNI pAmelAne dharmanI durlabhatA thaI paDI che." AthI, "UcharatA bALayuvAne avivekI vidyA pAmI AtmasiddhithI bhraSTa thAya che te aTakAvavA" tathA "keTalAMka ajJAna manuSya nahi vAMcavAne cagya pustaka vAMcIne pitAne vakhata khAI de che tene badale "AtmAnuM hita thAya; jJAna, zAMti ane AnaMda maLe" tathA "teo For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanansAdhanA paropakArI, dayALu, kSamAvAna, vivekI ane buddhizALI" thAya te arthe zrImad rAjacaMdra sahelAM, saraLa pustake lakhavA mAMDyAM. sattaramA varSamAM temaNe lakhelI "mokSamALAmAM to zrImadda eTale sudhI kahe cheH AMglaumio saMsAra saMbaMdhI aneka kaLA kauzalyamAM zAthI vijaya pAmyA che? e vicAra karatAM ApaNane tatkALa jaNAze ke teone bahu utsAha ane e utsAhamAM anekanuM maLavuM" eka samAjamAM bhegA maLavuM. ...e enuM kAraNa che. "sarvajJa bhagavAnanuM kaheluM gupta tattva pramAdasthitimAM AvI paDyuM che, tene prakAzita karavA tathA pUrvAcAryoe gUMthelA mahAna zAstro ekatra karavA, paDelA gacchanA matamatAMtara TALavA tema ja dharma vidyAne prakulita karavA eka mahAna samAja sadAcaraNa zrImaMta ane dhImaMta baMnee maLIne sthApana karavAnI avazya che.... pavitra syAdvAdamatanu* DhaMkAyeluM tatva prasiddhamAM ANavA jyAM sudhI prajana nathI, tyAM sudhI zAsananI unnati paNa nathI." vaLI zrImad rAjacaMdra A kALamAM strInIti bedhaka (garabAvalI) paNa racI hatI. AmAM strIone sadguNa, sadAcArI thavAne bedha ApavAmAM Avyo che tema ja mAbApane bALakane zI rIte saMskArasaMpanna ane nItizIla * jainadharmanuM jI - sA -4 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImada rAjacaMdra banAvavI ene upadeza Ape che. keIne e garabAvalI joIne thAya ke Atmatattva aMge vicAra karanArA zrImad rAjacaMdra nItino bodha zA mATe ApavAnuM vicAryuM haze? paraMtu e pAchaLa paNa zrImannI spaSTa daSTi hatI. saMvata 150 mAM lakhelA eka patramAM zrImade e daSTi samajAvI cheH je mumukSu jIva gRhastha vyavahAramAM vartatA hoya, teNe te akhaMDa nItinuM mULa prathama AtmAmAM sthApavuM joIe; nahi te upadezAdinuM niSphaLapaNuM thAya che. dravyAdi utpanna karavA AdimAM sAMgopAMga nyAyasaMpanna rahevuM tenuM nAma nIti che. e nIti mUkatAM prANa jAya evI dazA AvyuM tyAga, vairAgya kharA svarUpamAM pragaTe che, ane te ja jIvane puruSanAM vacananuM tathA AjJAdharmanuM adra bhuta sAmarthya, mAhAsya ane rahasya samajAya che ane sarva vRttio nijapaNe vartavAne mArga spaSTa siddha thAya che." zrImadda ogaNIsa varSanI vaya pachI je mahAmaMthana kALamAMthI pasAra thanAra che e pahelAM potAnA jIvanane gya dizAmAM vALavA mATe zrImade kevI vicAraNA karI hatI e lakSamAM levA yogya che. e vicArone ahIM tAravIne rajU karyA che. zreyArthIne te mArgadarzaka rUpa che. 1. AhAra, vihAra, nihAranI niyamitatA (sAcavuM); arthanI siddhi (karuM), Arya jIvana uttama puruSee AcaraNa karyuM che, parahita e ja nijahita samajavuM ane paraduHkha For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA e pitAnuM duHkha samajavuM; nItinA bAMdhA upara paga na mUka; jitendriya thavuM; vivekabuddhithI saghaLuM AcaraNa karavuM; jJAnacarcA ane vidyAvilAsamAM tathA zAstrAdhyayanamAM gUMthAvuM; saMsAramAM rahyA chatAM ne te nItithI bhegavatAM chatAM, videhI dazA rAkhavI; AtmajJAna ane sajajanasaMgata rAkhavAM; jJAnIoe ekatra karelA adbhUta nidhinA upabhegI thAo. 2. duHkha lAgaze ja, ane duHkhanAM kAraNe paNa tane daSTigocara thaze...te TALavA mATe je upAya che te eTale ja ke tethI bAhyAbhyatararahita thavuM. rahita thavAya che, era dazA anubhavAya che e pratijJA pUrvaka kahuM chuM... nigraMtha sadgurunA caraNamAM jaIne paDavuM egya che. jIvana bahu TUMkuM che; upAdhi bahu che, ane tyAga thaI zake tema nathI. te jijJAsA te vastunI rAkhavI. saMsArane baMdhana mAnavuM. pUrva karma baLavAna che, mATe A badhe prasaMga maLI AvyuM evuM ekAMtika grahaNa karIza nahi. 3. A duHkha kyAM kahevuM? ane zAthI TALavuM? pite pitAne dharI, te A kevI kharI vAta che..... jude jude sthaLe te sukhanI kalpanA karI che. he mUDha! ema na kara. e tane teM hita kahyuM. aMtaramAM sukha che. satya kahuM chuM. strInA svarUpa para thate maha aTakAvavAne vagara tvacAnuM tenuM rUpa vAraMvAra ciMtavavA gya che. he jIva! have bhegathI zAMta thA, zAMta. vicAra te khare ke emAM kayuM sukha che? For Personal & Private Use Only

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para zrImad rAjacaMdra . 4. je mahAkAma mATe janme che te mahAkAmanuM anuprekSaNa kara. dhyAna dharI jA. samAdhistha thA. kaI paNa alpa bhUla tArI smRtimAMthI jatI nathI, e mahAkalyANa che. jene pramAda thaye che, te mATe have pramAda na thAya tema kara. - A utArA te seLa varSa pahelAMnI vayanA che. te uparathI e uMmara sudhInI zrImanI manobhUmikAno zeDa ghaNe paricaya maLI zake. saMpUrNa khyAla mATe te zrImaddanAM badhAM lakhANonuM anuzIlana karavuM Avazyaka che. paraMtu ogaNIsamA varSa pachI te zrImad gRhasthajIvana svIkAre che. mATe seLathI ogaNIsa varSanI vaya daramyAna zrImade gRhastha jIvana kema gALavuM, kaI rIte suvyavasthita karavuM e aMge paNa emanI aMgata nedhamAM utAryuM che emAMthI e vastu samajavA thaDAka utArA joIe: 1. gRhasthAzrama vivekI kare. lekaahita praNIta karuM nahi. dharma vaDe artha pedA karuM. tAre siddhAMta tUTe tema saMsAra-vyavahAra na calAvuM. svArtho keInI AjIvikA teDuM nahi. jIvahiMsaka vepAra karuM nahi. svastrImAM samabhAvathI vatuM. abrahmacarya sevuM nahi. nIti vinA saMsAra bhegavuM nahi. dazAMza ke dharmamAM kADhuM. strI vidyAzALI zeThuM, karuM. putrIne bhaNAvyA vinA rahuM * bhagavAnano. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 53 nahi. teone dharma pATha zikhavADuM. kuTuMbane svarga banAvuM. sRSTine svarga banAvuM te kuTuMbane mekSa banAvuM. 2. pramAda kaI kRtyamAM karuM nahi. mane vIratvanI vRddhi karuM. agya vidyA sAdhuM nahi. nirmAlya adhyayana karuM nahi. vicArazaktine khIlavuM. ALasane uttejana ApuM nahi. dinacaryAne geraupayoga karuM nahi. uttama zaktine sAdhya karuM. cAritryane adabhuta karavuM. vijaya, kIrti, yaza sarvapakSI prApta karavAM. zaktine geraupayoga karuM nahi. pratyeka vastune niyama karuM. niyama vagara vihAra karuM nahi. cheTe udyama karuM nahi. anudyamI paNa rahuM nahi. 3. keI darzanane niMduM nahi. ekapakSI matabheda bAMdhuM nahi. ajJAnapakSane ArAdhuM nahi. paramAtmAnI bhakti karuM. tattva ArAdhatAM lekaniMdAthI DaruM nahi. tatvajJAnano abhyAsa karuM. .. Adarza gRhasthajIvananI preraNuM AmAMthI dareka gRhasthane maLyA vinA rahe ema nathI. sAthe sAthe zrImad rAjacaMdramAM bALapaNathI pravartelI dharNoddhAranI udAtta kalpanA paNa vadhAre ne vadhAre daDha thatI jatI hatI. e mATe nIcene eka utAre ahIM pUrato thazeH jJAnane uddhAra kare. judA judA dharmopadezanA graMthe vaheMcavA. judA judA dharmagraMtha javA. matamatAMtaranuM svarUpa samajAvavuM. "je manuSya dharma, artha, kAma ane mekSa e cAra puruSArthanI prApti karI zakavA IcchatA For Personal & Private Use Only

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54 zrImad rAjacaMdra hoya temanA vicArane sahAyaka thavuM. koI kALe tattva vaDe karI duniyAmAMthI duHkha jaze ema mAnuM. asatyane upadeza ApuM nahi. AjIvikA mATe dharma badhuM nahi. guNa vagaranuM vakatRtva sevuM nahi." . chevaTe e nAnI vayamAM paNa eka Adarza gRhastha ke hoya enuM preraNAdAyI citra zrImade AlekhyuM che e emanI te kALanI paripakava vicAradhArAno sAro paricaya karAve che. "mokSamALA"mAM "sukha vize vicAra" e mathALA nIce eka mananIya vArtA nirUpI che. emAM dvArikAnA mahAdhanADhya dharmamUrti zrAvaka gRhasthanuM citra temaNe AlekhyuM che. emAM zeTha dharmamUrti pitAnI carcA varNave che. e varNana parathI e vayamAM paNa zrImad Adarza gRhastha kene kahetA ane surekha khyAla ApaNane AvyA vinA rahetuM nathI. emAMthI TUMkAvIne ahIM rajU karyuM che. dareka gRhasthane e citra kharekhara preraNAdAyI thaI paDe evuM cheH "je ke huM bIjA karatAM sukhI chuM te paNa e zAtA vedanIya che, sat-sukha nathI; jagatamAM bahudhA karIne azAtA vedanIya che. meM dharmamAM mAro kALa gALavAne niyama rAkhe che. sa@AstronuM vAcana, manana, puruSane samAgama, yama-niyama, eka mahinAmAM bAra divasa brahmacarya, banatuM guptadAna, e Adi dharmarUpe mAre kALa gALuM chuM. sarva vyavahAra saMbaMdhInI upAdhimAMthI keTalAka For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA bhAga khahu aMze me' tyAgyA che. putrane vyavahAramAM yathAyeAgya karIne huM nigraMtha thavAnI icchA rAkhu chu. hamaNAM nigraMtha thaI zakuM tema nathI. emAM sa'sAramAhinI ke evuM kAraNa nathI. paraMtu te paNa dharma sadhI kAraNu che. gRhastha dharmanAM AcaraNu bahu kaniSTha thaI gayAM che; ane munie te sudhArI zakatA nathI. gRhastha gRhasthane vizeSa edha karI zake, AcaraNathI paNa asara karI zake, eTalA mATe thaIne dharma sabadhe gRhastha vane hu' ghaNe bhAge kheAdhI yama-niyamamAM ANuM chuM. dara saptAhe ApaNe tyAM pAMcase. jeTalA sadgRhasthAnI sabhA bharAya che, ATha divasanA navA anubhava ane khAkInA AgaLanA dharmAnubhava emane e traNa murhuta edhuM chuM. mArI strI dharmazAstraneA keTalAka Adha pAmelI hAvAthI te paNa strIvargane uttama yamaniyamanA khAdha karI sAptAhika sabhA bhare che. putro paNa zAstrane anatA paricaya rAkhe che. 6 vidvAneAnuM sanmAna, atithinuM sanmAna, vinaya, ane sAmAnya satyatA, eka ja bhAva evA niyame bahudhA mArA anucare paNa seve che. ee badhA ethI zAtA bhAgavI zake che. 55 lakSmInI sAthe mArI nIti dharma, sadguNa, janasamudAyane ahu sArI asara karI che. mArI nItivAta aMgIkAra kare tevuM thayuM che. rAjA sahita paNa * For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra "A saghaLuM AtmaprazaMsA mATe huM kahete nathI, e Ape smRtimAM rAkhavuM, mAtra ApanA pUchelA khulAsA dAkhala A saghaLuM saMkSepamAM kahete jAuM chuM. A saghaLAM uparathI huM sukhI chuM ema Apane lAgI zakaze. ane sAmAnya vicAre mane bahu sukhI mAne te mAnI zakAya tema che. dharma, zIla ane nItithI tema ja zAstrAvadhAnathI mane je AnaMda Upaje che te avarNanIya che. paNa tattvadaSTithI huM sukhI na manAuM. jyAM sudhI sarva prakAre bAhya ane atyaMtara parigraha meM tyAgyA nathI, tyAM sudhI rAgadeSane bhAva che. jo ke te bahu aMze nathI, paNa che; te tyAM upAdhi paNa che. sarvasaMgaparityAga karavAnI mArI saMpUrNa AkAMkSA che; paNa jyAM sudhI tema thayuM nathI, tyAM sudhI haju kaI gaNAtAM priya janane viyega, vyavahAramAM hAni, kuTuMbanuM duHkha e theDe aMze paNa upAdhi ApI zake. mATe kevaLa nircatha, bAhyAbhyantara parigrahane tyAga, apAraMbhane tyAga e saghaLuM nathI thayuM, tyAM sudhI huM mane kevaLa sukhI mAnato nathI. have Apane tattvanI daSTie vicAratAM mAluma paDaze ke lakSmI, strI, putra ke kuTuMba e vaDe sukha nathI. ane ene sukha gaNuM te jyAre mArI sthiti patita thaI hatI tyAre e sukha kyAM gayuM hatuM? jene viyega che, je kSaNabhaMgura che, ane jyAM ekatva ke avyA For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA pa7 bAdhapaNuM nathI te sukha saMpUrNa nathI." Ama, kumAravayamAM ja zrImaddanA vicAra sunizcita ane Tharela, sunItiSaka ane AtmaniSTha, saMyamazIla ane zreyasAdhaka svarUpa pAmyA hatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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gRhasthAzramamAM praveza saMvata 1944mAM zrImada rAjacaMdranuM jIvana gRhasthAzrama bhaNuM vaLe che. zrImadda jevA mULathI vicAravAna, prakhara buddhizALI, AtmaniSTha puruSe, pukhta vaye pahoMcI lagnajIvanamAM praveza karyo e kaI madazAmAM, zA hetuthI, e je emanI jIvana-sAdhanAnI daSTie jANavA maLe, to sau jIne e hakIkata khUba upayegI thaI paDe, paraMtu e mATe saMpUrNa sAmagrI ApaNu pAse upalabdha nathI. e bAbata viSe zrImad rAjacaMdra je thoDuM ghaNuM lakhyuM che e uparathI pUrepUruM tAraNa kADhavuM zakya te nathI. paraMtu eTalAthI paNa ApaNane zrImanI manedazAne thoDeghaNe paNa khyAla AvI zake che khare. lagna pachI saM. 1946mAM zrImade lakhyuM cheH kuTuMbarUpI kAjaLanI keTaDInA vAsathI saMsAra vadhe che. game teTalI tenI sudhAraNA karaze te paNa ekAMtathI jeTale saMsAra kSaya thavAne che, tene seme hise paNa For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 59 te kAjaLagRhamAM rahevAthI thavAnuM nathI. kaSAyanuM te nimitta che, mehane rahevAne anAdikALane parvata che." jANe ke A satyanI ja pratyakSa anubhUti meLavavA zrImadda lagnajIvana aMgIkAra karavA kaTIbaddha thatA hoya e rIte vIsamA varSanA prAraMbhamAM eka snehI upara muMbaIthI 1944 poSa vada 10nA reja patra lakhI teo jaNAve cheH lagna saMbaMdhI teoe je miti nizcita rAkhI che, te vize teone Agraha che, te bhale te miti nizcayarUpa rahI. lakSmI upara prIti nahi chatAM kaI paNa parArthika kAmamAM te bahu upayogI thaI paData ema lAgavAthI, mauna grahI ahIM te saMbaMdhI satsagavaDamAM hatuM. je sagavaDanuM dhAreluM pariNAma AvavAne bahu vakhata nahe. paNa eo bhaNInuM eka mamatvapaNuM tvarA karAve che, jethI te saghaLuM paDatuM mUkI vada 13 ke 14 (paSanI)ne reja ahIMthI ravAnA thauM chuM. parArtha karatAM vakhate lakSamI aMdhApa, baherApaNuM ane mUgApaNuM ApI de che. jethI tenI darakAra nathI. "ApaNe anya saMbaMdha che te kaMI sagapaNane nathI, paraMtu hRdaya-sagapaNane che. paraspara lohacuMbakano guNa prApta thayela che. ema darzita che, chatAM huM vaLI ethI * rAgadveSa vRttionuM. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra paNa bhinna rUpe Apane hRdayarUpa karavA mAguM chuM. je vicAre saghaLI sagapaNatA dUra karI, saMsArAjanA dara karI tattvavijJAna rUpe mAre darzAvavAnA che, ane Ape jAte anukaraNa karavAnA che. ATalI pallavI bahu sukhaprada chatAM mArmika rUpe AtmasvarUpa vicArathI ahIM AgaLa lakhI jauM chuM. teo* zubha prasaMgamAM savivekI nIvaDI, rUDhithI pratikULa rahI, paraspara kuTuMbarUpe sneha baMdhAya evI suMdara pejanA teonA hRdayamAM che ke? Apa utAraze ke? keI utAraze ke? e khyAla punaH punaH hRdayamAM paryaTana kare che." lagnavidhimAM paNa jUnI rUDhione choDI, savivekapUrvaka vyavahAra karavAnI sUcanA zrImadda zA mATe ApI rahyA che tenuM kAraNa paNa samajavA jevuM cheH - "nidAna sAdhAraNa vivekI je vicArane AkAzI gaNe tevA vicAre, je vastu ane je pada Aja rAjyazrI cakravartinI vikaToriyAne durlabha-kevaLa asaMbhavita che - te vicAre, te vastu, ane te pada bhaNI kevaLa IcchA hovAthI upara jaNAvyuM, tethI kaMI paNa leza pratikULa bane, to te padAbhilASI puruSanA cAritrane parama jhAMkhapa lAge ema che.' ja kanyA pakSIo. + lagnavidhimAM viveka vAparavA vize. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA ane pachI te saMvata 1944nA mahA suda bArazane reja zrImad rAjacaMdranAM lagna jhabakabAI sAthe thAya che. jhabakabAI jhaverI revAzaMkarabhAI jagajIvanadAsa mahetAnA meTAbhAI paTalAlabhAInAM suputrI hatAM. te Ama te zrImad gRhasthAzramamAM pravezyA, paraMtu sAthe sAthe teo tIvra AtmamaMthanamAMthI paNa pasAra thatA hatA. tyAga, vairAgya, nirlepatA ane tattvajijJAsA temanAmAM prabaLapaNe jAgrata thatAM jatAM hatAM. lagna pachI ekAda varSe lakhelA eka lekha "strInA saMbaMdhamAM mArA vicAramAM zrImadda jaNAve cheH ati ati svastha vicAraNAthI ema siddha thayuM ke zuddha jJAnane Azraye nirAbAdha sukha rahyuM che; tathA tyAM ja parama samAdhi rahI che. "strI e saMsAranuM sarvottama sukha mAtra AvaraNika daSTithI kalpAyuM che, paNa te tema nathI ja. strIthI je saMgasukha bhegavavAnuM cihna te vivekathI daSTigocara karatAM vamana karavAne gya bhUmikAne paNa gya rahetuM nathI. je je padArtho para jugupsA rahI che te te padArtho te tenA zarIramAM rahyA che, ane tenI te janmabhUmikA che. vaLI e sukha kSaNika, beda ane khasanA daradarUpa ja che. te veLAne dekhAva hRdayamAM cItarAI rahI hasAve che ke zI A bhulavaNI? TUMkAmAM kahevAnuM ke temAM kaMI paNa sukha nathI. ane sukha heya te tene apariccheda rUpe varNavI jue, eTale mAtra mehadazAne lIdhe tema For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra mAnyatA thaI che, ema ja jaNAze. - "ahIM huM strIne avayavAdi bhAgane viveka karavA beThe nathI, paNa tyAM pharI AtmA na ja kheMcAya e viveka thaye che, tenuM sahaja sUcavana karyuM. - "strImAM doSa nathI, paNa AtmAmAM doSa che; ane e deSa javAthI, AtmA je jue che te adabhuta AnaMdamaya ja che; mATe e doSathI rahita thavuM e ja parama jijJAsA che. zuddha upaganI je prApti thaI te pachI te samaye samaye pUrvopArjita mehanIyane bhasmIbhUta karI zakaze. A anubhavagamya pravacana che. paNa pUrvopArjita haju sudhI mane pravarte che, tyAM sudhI mArI zI dazAthI zAMti thAya? e vicAratAM mane nIce pramANe samAdhAna thayuM. "strInA saMbaMdhamAM kaI paNa prakAre rAga dveSa rAkhavA mArI aMza mAtra IcchA nathI, paNa pUrvopArjanathI IcchAnA pravartanamAM aTakyo chuM. bIjA eka lekhamAM zrImad jaNAve che keH "strInA saMbaMdhamAM jijJAsA era che ane vartanA era che. eka pakSe tenuM keTalAka kALa sudhI sevana karavuM sammata karyuM che, tathApi tyAM sAmAnya prIti-aprIti che, paNa dukha e che ke jijJAsA nathI chatAM pUrvaka kAM ghere che? eTalethI patatuM nathI, paNa tene lIdhe nahi gamatA padArthone jevA, suMghavA, sparzavA paDe che, ane e ja kAraNathI prAye upAdhimAM besavuM paDe che." For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA pitAnA gRhAzrama saMbaMdhI zrImadda eka bhAIne saM. 1946mAM lakhI jaNAve cheH ApanA pahelAM, A janmamAM huM lagabhaga be varSathI kaMIka vadhAre kALathI gRhAzramI thaye chuM e ApanA jANavAmAM che. gRhAzramI jene laIne kahI zakAya che, te vastu* ane mane te vakhatamAM kaMI ghaNe paricaya paDyo nathI; te paNa tenuM banatuM kAyika, vAcika ane mAnasika valaNa mane tethI ghaNuM kharuM samajAyuM che, ane te parathI tene ane mAre saMbaMdha asaMtoSa pAtra tha nathI; ema jaNAvavAno hetu e che ke grahAzramanuM vyAkhyAna sahaja mAtra paNa ApatAM te saMbaMdhI vadhAre anubhava upayogI thAya che. mane kaMIka sAMskArika anubhava UgI nIkaLavAthI ema kahI zakuM chuM ke mAre gRhAzrama atyAra sudhI jema asaMtoSapAtra nathI, tema ucita saMteSa pAtra paNa nathI; te mAtra madhyama che; ane te madhyama hevAmAM paNa mArI keTalIka udAsIna vRttinI sahAyatA che. "tattvajJAnanI gupta guphAnAM darzana letAM gRhAzramathI virakta thavAnuM adhikatara sUjhe che, ane khacIta te tattvajJAnane viveka paNa Ane Ugya hate; kALanA baLavattara aniSTapaNane lIdhe, tene yathAyogya samAdhisaMganI aprAptine lIdhe te vivekane mahAkhedanI sAthe * strI. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImada rAjacaMdra gauNa kare paDyo; ane khare! je tema na thaI zakyuM hata te tene (A patralekhakanA) jIvanane aMta Avata. "je vivekane mahAkhedanI sAthe gauNa kare paDyo che, te vivekamAM ja cittavRtti prasanna rahI jAya che; bAhya tenI prAdhAnyatA nathI rAkhI zakAtI, e mATe akathya kheda thAya che, tathApi jyAM nirUpAyatA che tyAM sahanatA sukhadAyaka che, ema mAnyatA hovAthI maunatA che. kaI kaI vAra saMgIo ane prasaMgIo tuccha nimitta thaI paDe che, te veLA te viveka para kaI jAtinuM AvaraNa Ave che, tyAre AtmA bahu mUMjhAya che; jIvanarahita thavAnI-dehatyAga karavAnI-duHkhasthiti karatAM te veLA bhayaMkara sthiti thaI paDe che. paNa evuM jhAjhe vakhata rahetuM nathI, ane ema jyAre raheze tyAre khacIta dehatyAga karIza. paNa asamAdhithI nahIM pravatuM, evI atyAra sudhInI pratijJA kAyama cAlI Ave che." pitAnA cittamAM cAlI raheluM maMthana--be virodhI vRttio vaccenI A athaDAmaNa-ane tene kAraNe "jIvanarahita thavAnI duHkhada sthiti karatAM paNa bhayaMkara" sthitinuM varNana saMvata 194pamAM lakhelA eka marmavedhI patramAM zrImad rAjacaMdra kayuM che? "dukhiyAM manuSyanuM pradarzana karavAmAM AvyuM hoya te khacIta tenA zirobhAgamAM huM AvI zakuM. A mArAM vacane vAMcIne kaI vicAramAM paDI For Personal & Private Use Only

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65 jIvana-sAdhanA jaI bhinna bhinna kalpanAo karaze ane kAM te bhrama gaNuM vALaze, paNa tenuM samAdhAna ahIM ja TapakAvI dauM chuM. 'tame mane strI saMbaMdhI kaMI duHkha lekhaze nahi; lakSmI saMbaMdhI duHkha lekhaze nahi; putra saMbaMdhI lekhaze nahi; kIrti saMbaMdhI lekhaze nahi; bhaya saMbaMdhI lekhaze nahi; kAyA saMbaMdhI lekhaze nahi; athavA sarvathI lekhaze nahi. mane duHkha bIjI rItanuM che. te darada vAtanuM nathI, kaphanuM nathI ke pittanuM nathI; te zarIranuM nathI, vacananuM nathI, ke mananuM nathI; gaNe te badhAMyanuM che ane na gaNe te ekenuM nathI, paraMtu mArI vijJApanA te nahi gaNavA mATe che, kAraNa emAM kaI ora marma rahyo che. - "tame jarUra mAnaje ke, huM vinA dIvAnApaNe A kalama calAvuM chuM. rAjacaMdra nAmathI oLakhAte vavANiyA nAmanA nAnA gAmano, lakSmImAM sAdhAraNa e, paNa Arya tarIke oLakhAtA dazAzrImALI- vaizyane putra gaNAuM chuM. A dehamAM mukhya be bhava karyA che, amukhya hisAba nathI. nAnapaNanI nAnI samajaNamAM keNa jANe kyAMthI meTI kalpanAo AvatI. sukhanI jijJAsA paNa ochI nahotI. ane sukhamAM paNa mahAlaya, bAgabagIcA, lADIvADInAM kaMIka mAnyAM hatAM, mATI kalpanA te A badhuM zuM che tenI hatI. te kalpanAnuM ekavAra evuM rUpa dIThuM , punarjaname cha - sA - 5 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra nathI, pApe nathI, puNya nathI, sukhe rahevuM ane saMsAra bhagave e ja kRtakRtyatA che. emAMthI bIjI paMcAtamAM nahi paDatAM, dharmanI vAsanAo kADhI nAkhI, koI dharma mATe nyUnAdhika ke zraddhAbhAvapaNuM rahyuM nahi. "thoDo vakhata gayA pachI emAMthI era ja thayuM. je thavAnuM meM kayuM nahatuM, tema te mATe mArA khyAlamAM hoya evuM kaMI mAruM prayatna paNa nahotuM, chatAM acAnaka pheraphAra thaye; keI era anubhava thayo, ane je anubhava prAye zAstramAM lekhita na hoya, jaDavAdIenI kalpanAmAM paNa nathI, te hate. te keme karIne vadhe; vadhIne atyAre eka "tuM hi', "tuM hine jApa kare che. have ahIM samAdhAna thaI jaze. AgaLa je maLyAM nahi hoya athavA bhayAdika haze tethI duHkha haze tevuM kAMI nathI ema khacIta samajAze. kiM bahunA! jijJAsue te samayanA zrImanA badhA patra, lekhe vAMcavA jarUrI che. paraMtu e badhuM lakhANa vAMcatAM ApaNe eTale viveka rAkha ghaTe ke, sujJa, AtmAthIM puruSe pitAnA rAI jevA dekhAtA nAnAmAM nAnA dene moTA pahADa jevA jue che ane pitAnAmAM rahelA ucca guNonuM varNana karatA nathI; eTale svAbhAvika rIte AvA pitAne lagatA varNanamAM ghaNIvAra de upara ja vadhAre bhAra mUkAyeluM jovA maLe che. zrImaddanA A badhAM lakhANa jotAM eTaluM te ApaNe For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 67 joI zakIe chIe ke lagna karIne zrImad rAjacaMdra pitA para kAramuM mArayuddha notaryuM hatuM ane temAM teo hAthamAM prANa laIne ghUmyA hatA. potAnI hAthanedha "AtyaMtara pariNAma avakanamAM paNa zrImadda lakhe cheH tyAM AvyA re udaya kArame, parigraha kArya prapaMca re; jema jema te haDaselIo, tema vadhe na ghaTe raMca re." Ama te udayakarma bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmIne paNa bhegavavAM paDyAM tema sarvane vedavAM paDe ja che. ajJAnIe mohabhAve, baMdhabhAve vece che tyAM jJAnIo nijerAbhAve vede che. A sthitimAM zrImatuM AtmamaMthana parAkASThAe pahoMce che. paraMtu thoDA vakhatamAM ja teo e ghara saMgrAmamAMthI vijayI ane vadhu tejasvI thaIne bahAra nIkaLe che. tevIsamA varSamAM te raNasaMgrAmanI dhULane badale eka zAMta, samAhita ane AtmalakSI puruSanuM emanAmAM darzana thAya che. emanI AMtaradazA eka viziSTa prakAranI tIvratA pakaDatI jAya che. A varSamAM temanI samAdhidazA vadhatI jAya che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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manomaMthana pachInI Atmaristhati lagna pachInA tIvra manomaMthanamAMthI vadhu tejasvI ane AtmaniSTha banIne zrImadda prakAzI UThe che. tevIsamAM varSamAM te zrImadda abhuta Atmasthitie pahoMce che. e varSamAM bhAgabhAIne lakhelA patramAM zrImad jaNAve che: "rAtri ane divasa eka paramArtha viSayanuM ja manana rahe che; AhAra paNa e ja che, nidrA paNa e ja che, zayana paNa e ja che, svapna paNa e ja che, bhaya paNa e ja che, bhega paNa e ja che, parigraha paNa e ja che, calana paNa e ja che, Asana paNa e ja che. adhika zuM kahevuM? hADa, mAMsa ane tenI majajAne eka ja e ja raMganuM raMgana che. eka rema paNa ene ja jANe vicAra kare che. ane tene lIdhe nathI kaMI jovuM gamatuM, nathI kaMI saMghavuM gamatuM, nathI kaMI sAMbhaLavuM gamatuM, nathI kaMI cAkhavuM gamatuM, ke nathI kaMI sparzavuM gamatuM nathI bolavuM gamatuM ke nathI mauna For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 69 rahevuM gamatuM; nathI besavuM gamatuM ke nathI UDavu gamatuM; nathI sUvuM gamatuM ke nathI jAgavu' gamatuM nathI khAvuM gamatuM ke nathI bhUkhyuM rahevuM gamatuM; nathI asa`ga gamata ke nathI sa`ga gamatA, nathI lakSmI gamatI ke nathI alakSmI gamatI; ema che. tathApi te pratye AzA nirAzA kaI ja jaNAtuM nathI. te he! te paNa bhale ane na paNa bhale. e kaI duHkhanAM kAraNu nathI. kAraNa mAtra vaSamAtmA che; ane te jo sama che, tA sarva sukha ja che; e vRttine lIdhe samAdhi rahe che. duHkhanu * tathApi bahArathI gRhasthapaNAnI pravRtti nathI thaI zakatI, dehabhAva dekhADavA pAlavatA nathI. AtmabhAvathI pravRtti bAhyathI karavAne keTalAka aMtarAya che. tyAre have kema karavuM? kayA parvatanI guphAmAM javuM, ane alepa thaI javuM ?--e ja raTAya che. tathApi bahArathI amuka sa'sArI pravRtti karavI paDe che. te mATe zeka tA nathI. tathApi sahana karavA jIva icchatA nathI. paramAnaMDha tyAgI ene icche paNa kema ? ane e ja kAraNathI jyAtiSAdika tarapha hAla citta nathI. game tevAM * zrImad jayotiSa-vidyAmAM paNa pravINa hatA. A mAkhatamAM evuM banyuM hatuM ke, saM. 1943nA bhAdaravAmAM muMbaI jatAM pahelAM zrImad jetapara (mArakhI tAbe) peAtAnA banevI rA. catrabhuja khecarane tyAM gayA hatA. te vakhate zrImadnI Arthika sthiti sAMkaDI hatI. jetaparamAM zakara cALI nAmanA eka vidvAna jezI hatA. te bhAI gaNita UgatuM heA te For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImada rAjacaMdra bhaviSyajJAna athavA siddhionI IcchA nathI. tema teone upaga karavAmAM udAsInatA rahe che. temAM paNa hAla te adhika ja rahe che...." vaLI anya sthaLe paNa teo pitAne thayelI divya anubhUti varNave cheH prabhAtamAM vahele UDyo tyArathI keI apUrva AnaMda varyA ja karate hato(e) ekAkAra vRttinuM varNana zabda kema karI zakAya? divasanA bAra bajyA sudhI rahyuM. phalAdeza sAruM jANatA hatA. temane catrabhujabhAI e zrI manA muMbaI prayANa tathA artha-prApti saMbaMdhamAM pUchayuM. tethI zaMkara paMcoLIe praznakuMDaLI cItarIne muMbaI prayANa pachI amuka mudatamAM dravyalAbha vagere phaLa varyuM. temAMnuM amuka phaLyuM ane amuka barAbara na phaLyuM. tethI zrI mane barAbara jotiSa jANI levAnI jijJAsA udbhavI. muMbaImAM zatAvadhAna karI zrImade uttama khyAti meLavI. te vakhate muMbaInA agragaNya vidvAno, paMDita, zrImAna vagere hAjara hatA. temAM sArA jotiSIo paNa hatA. te jyotiSIone nAnI vayanA prabaLa pratibhAsaMpanna zrImad pratye AkarSaNa thayuM. e rIte zrImane jyotiSa jANavAnI icchA pUrI karavAnAM sAdhananI prApti thaI. vidvAna jayotiSIonuM nimitta pAmI zrI mad te vidvAne karatAM paNa AgaLa vadhI te vidyAmAM pAraMgata thayA hatA. A bAbatamAM eka prasaMga jANIto che. jhaverI revAzaMkarabhAI vakIlAta karatA hatA ane temane vepAramAM paDavA svapna paNa vRtti na hatI; ane te vakhate saheja karajavAna paNa teo hatA. temanI kuMDaLI joIne zrImade jaNAvyuM hatuM ke, temane vepAramAM atyaMta lAbha che, balake lakSAdhipati thavAne yoga che; ema jaNAvI vakIlAta choDIne muMbaI javA zrImade temane preraNA karI. zrI revAzaMkarabhAIe te pramANe karyuM ane zrI mada bhAkheluM sAcuM TharyuM. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA - 71. apUrva AnaMda te te ne te ja che; paraMtu bIjI jJAnanI vArtA karavAmAM tyAra pachIne kALakSepa karyo...." pitAne thayelA eka adbhuta anubhava bAbata zrImad saM. 1944nA ASADha vada trIjane divase lakhelA patramAM jaNAve che: A eka adbhuta vAta che ke DAbI AMkhamAMthI cArapAMca divasa thayAM eka nAnA caka je vIjaLI samAna jhabakAre thayA kare che, je AMkhathI jarA dUra jaI elavAya che. lagabhaga pAMca miniTa thAya che ke dekhAva de che. mArI draSTimAM vAraMvAra te jovAmAM Ave che. e khAte kaI prakAranI bhramaNuM nathI. nimitta kAraNa kaMI jaNAtuM nathI. bahu Azcarya upajAve che. AMkhe bIjI koI paNa prakAranI asara nathI. prakAza ane divyatA vizeSa rahe che. cAreka divasa pahelAM baporanA 2-20 miniTe eka AzcaryabhUta svapna prApta thaI gayA pachI A thayuM hoya ema jaNAya che. aMtaHkaraNamAM bahu prakAza rahe che, zakti bahu teja mAre che. dhyAna samAdhistha rahe che ." teo kArataka, 1946nA patramAM darzAve cheH te pavitra darzana thayA pachI game te vartana he, paraMtu tene tIvra baMdhana nathI. anaMta saMsAra nathI, seLa bhava nathI, atyaMtara dukha nathI, zaMkAnuM nimitta nathI, aMtaraMga mehinI nathI, sat sat nirupama, sarvottama, zukla, zItaLa, amRtamaya darzanazAna; samyak jyotirmaya, For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra cirakALe AnaMdanI prApti, adbhuta sasvarUpadarzitAnI balihArI che! jyAM matabheda nathI, jyAM zaMkA, kaMkhA, vitigicchA,* mUDhadaSTi, emAMnuM kAMI nathI. che te kalama lakhI zakatI nathI, kathana kahI zakatuM nathI, mana jene manana karI zakatuM nathI.." jeTha vada bAraza, 1946ne reja zrImad eka patramAM lakhe cheH ' ' "gaI kAla rAtre eka adbhuta svapna AvyuM hatuM. jemAM beeka puruSanI samIpe A jagatanI racanAnuM svarUpa varNavyuM hatuM, prathama sarva bhulAvI pachI jagatanuM darzana karAvyuM hatuM. svapnamAM mahAvIradevanI zikSA sapramANa thaI hatI. e svapnanuM varNana ghaNuM suMdara ane camatkArika hovAthI paramAnaMda thaye hate." vaLI zrImadda zrI sobhAgabhAIne mAgazara vada amAsa, 1947nA roja lakhelA patramAM pitAnI manaHsthiti varNave che: "prApta thayelI svarUpane abhedabhAve apUrva samAdhimAM smaruM chuM. "chevaTanuM svarUpa samajAyAmAM, anubhavAyAmAM alpa paNa nyUnatA rahI nathI. jema che tema sarva prakAre samajAyuM che. sarva prakArane eka deza bAda karatAM bAkI sarva anubhavAyuM che. eka deza samajAyA vinA rahe ' * jugupsA; sUga. ' For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA nathI; paraMtu cega ( mana, vacana, kAyA )thI asaMga thavA vanavAsanI AvazyakatA che; ane ema thaye e deza anubhavAze, arthAt temAM ja rahevAze; paripUrNa leAkAleAkajJAna utpanna thaze, ane e utpanna karavAnI. (tema ) AkAMkSA rahI nathI, chatAM utpanna kema thaze? e vaLI AzcaryakAraka che! paripUrNa svarUpajJAna te utpanna thayuM ja che; ane e samAdhimAMthI nIkaLI leAkAleAkadarzana pratye javuM kema khanaze? ....have ame amArI dazA koI paNa prakAre kahI zakavAnA nathI; te lakhI kAMthI zakIzuM? ApanA darzana thaye je kaI vANI kahI zakaze te kaheze, bAkI nirupAyatA che. (kaI ) muktiye nathI joItI, ane jainanuM kevaLajJAnaye je puruSane nathI joitu, te puruSane paramezvara have kahyuM: pada Apaze? e kaI ApanA vicAramAM Ave che? Ave te Azcaya pAmajo; nahi tA ahIMthI te| kAI rIte kaIce bahAra kADhI zakAya tema ane tevuM lAgatuM nathI. Apa je kaI vyavahAra dharma praznA khIDA che te upara lakSa apAtuM nathI. tenA akSara paNa pUrA vAMcavA lakSa jatu nathI, teA pachI tene uttara na lakhI zakAyA hoya te Apa zA mATe rAha jue che ? arthAt te have kayAre banaze, te kaMI kalpI zakAtuM nathI. 6 vAraMvAra jaNAveA che, AturatA dana mATe bahu che; paraMtu pa McamakALa mahAvIradeve kahyo che, kaLiyuga byAsabhagavAne kahyo che; te kyAMthI sAthe rahevA de ane 6 For Personal & Private Use Only 73

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74 zrImada rAjacaMdra de te Apane upAdhiyukta zA mATe na rAkhe? A bhUmikA upAdhinI zebhAnuM saMgrahasthAna che." poSa suda 5, 1947nA roja zrImadda lakhe cheH "alakhanAma dhunI lagI gaganameM, magana bhayA mana merAjI; Asana mArI surata daDha dhArI, diyA agama ghara DerAjI; darazyA alakha dedArAjI." mAha vada 3, 1947nA rejane anubhava zrImad eka patramAM TAMke cheH AjanA prabhAtathI niraMjanadevanI kaI adbhuta anugrahatA prakAzI che; Aje ghaNA divasa thayAM IzkelI parAbhakti kaI anupama rUpamAM udaya pAmI che." Ama zrImane dhIrAdAtta jIvanapravAha saMpUrNa vizuddha Atma sthiti tarapha aviratapaNe vahevA mAMDe che. covIsamA varSamAM eTale ke 1947mAM zrImad rAjacaMdranI paramAnaMdanI mastI vadhatI jAya che. aSADha suda 13, 1947ne patra ja juoH sukhanA siMdhu zrI sahajAnaMdajI, jagajIvana ke jagavaMdajI; zaraNAgatanA sadA sukhakaMdajI, paramanehI che paramAnaMdajI. harikRpAthI ame parama prasanna padamAM chIe. amArI dazA hAlamAM kevI vate che te jANavAnI ApanI IcchA rahe che; paNa jevI vigatathI joIe, tevI vigatathI lakhI zakAya nahi; eTale vAraMvAra lakhI nathI. atre TUMkamAM lakhIe chIe. eka purANapuruSa ane purANapuruSanI premasaMpatti For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 75 vinA amane kaMI gamatuM nathI amane kaI padArthamAM ruci mAtra rahI nathI, kaMI prApta karavAnI IcchA thatI nathI; vyavahAra kema cAle che enuM bhAna nathI; jagata zuM sthitimAM che tenI smRti rahetI nathI; keI zatru-mitramAM bhedabhAva rahyo nathI; koNa zatru che ane kaNa mitra che, enI khabara rakhAtI nathI; ame dehadhArI chIe ke kema te saMbhArIe tyAre mAMDa jANIe chIe, amAre zuM karavAnuM che te keIthI kaLAya tevuM nathI. - "ame badhAya padArthathI udAsa thaI javAthI game tema vartIe chIe; vrata, niyamane kaMI niyama rAkhe nathI; jAtabhAtane kaMI prasaMga nathI amArAthI vimukha jagatamAM kaI mAnyuM nathI; amArAthI sanmukha evA satsaMgI nahi maLatAM kheda rahe che, saMpatti pUrNa che eTale saMpattinI IcchA nathI; zabdAdika viSaya anubhavyA smRtimAM AvavAthI--athavA IzvarecchAthI tenI IcchA rahI nathI; pitAnI IcchAe thoDI ja pravRtti karavAmAM Ave che. jema harie Irache kema dere tema derAIe chIe; hRdaya prAye zUnya jevuM thaI gayuM che; pAMca iMdri zUnyapaNe pravartAvArUpa ja rahe che; naya, pramANa vagere zAstrabheda sAMbharatAM nathI, kaMI vAMcatAM citta sthira rahetuM nathI; khAvAnI, pIvAnI, besavAnI sUvAnI, cAlavAnI ane bolavAnI vRttio pitAnI IcchA pramANe varte che, mana pitAne svAdhIna che ke kema enuM yathAyegya bhAna rahyuM nathI. For Personal & Private Use Only

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76 zrImad rAjacaMdra " "Ama sarva prakAre vicitra evI udAsInatA AvavAthI game tema vartAya che. eka prakAre pUrNa ghelachA che; eka prakAre te ghelachA kaMIka chUpI rAkhIe chIe; ane jeTalI chUpI rakhAya che, teTalI hAnI che. yegya vartIe chIe ke agya ene kaMI hisAba rAkhe nathI. AdipuruSane vize akhaMDa prema sivAya bIjA mekSAdika padArthomAMnI AkAMkSAne bhaMga thaI gayuM che. ATaluM badhuM chatAM manamAnatI udAsInatA nathI, ema mAnIe chIe; akhaMDa prema-khumArI jevI pravahavI joIe tevI pravahatI nathI, ema jANIe chIe; Ama karavAthI te akhaMDa khumArI pravahe ema nizcaLapaNe jANIe chIe; paNa te karavAmAM kALa kAraNabhUta thaI paDyo che; ane e sarvane doSa amane che ke harine che, e cakkasa nizcaya karI zakAtuM nathI. eTalI badhI udAsInatA chatAM vepAra karIe chIe; laIe chIe, daIe chIe, lakhIe chIe, vAMcIe chIe, jALavIe chIe, ane kheda pAmIe chIe. vaLI hasIe chIe-jenuM ThekANuM nathI evI amArI dazA che; ane tenuM kAraNa mAtra harinI sukhada IcchA jyAM sudhI mAnI nathI tyAM sudhI kheda maTatuM nathI. prabhunI parama kRpA che. amane keIthI bhinna bhAva rahyuM nathI; keI vize deSabuddhi AvatI nathI..... siddhAMtajJAna" amArA hRdayane vize AvaritarUpe paDayuM che. hari IcchA je pragaTa thavA devAnI haze to thaze. For Personal & Private Use Only

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vana-sAdhanA. amAre deza hari che, jAta hari che, kALa hari che, deha hari che, rUpa hari che, nAma hari che, dizA hari che, sarva hari che, ane tema chatAM Ama vahIvaTamAM chIe, e enI IcchAnuM kAraNa che." vaLI e ja mAsamAM zrImade lakheluM AtmAnubhUtipUrNa pada juo: binA nayana pAve nahi, binA nayanakI bAta; seve sadguruke carana, se pAve sAkSAta. 1 bUjhI cahata je pyAsa ko, hai bUjhanakI rIta; pAve nahi gurUgama binA, ehI anAdi sthita. 2 ehi nahi hai kalpanA, ehi nahi vibhaMga; kaI nara paMcamakAlameM, dekhI vastu abhaMga. 3 nahi de tuM upadezakuM, prathama lehi upadeza; sabase nyArA agama hai, ve jJAnIkA deza 4 japa, tapa, aura gratAdi saba, tahAM lagI bhramarUpa; jahAM lagI nahi saMtakI, pAI kRpA anUpa. 5 pAyAkI e bAta hai, nija chaMdana ke cheDa, pi che lAga sapuruSake, te saba baMdhana toDa. 6 Ama zrImad rAjacaMdra AgaLa vadhatAM vadhatAM evI sthitine pAme che jene mATe teo tIvrapaNe jhaMkhatA hatA. ane e gADha svarUpasthitinI dizAmAM teo pitAnA patromAM potAne mATe "yathArtha bedhasvarUpa", zrI bedhasvarUpa", "bedhabIja", "samasthitabhAva""svarUpa", "niSkAma AtmasvarUpa", "sahajasvarUpa", * For Personal & Private Use Only

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u8 zrImad rAjacaMdra apratibaddha", "abhinna bedhamaya", "samAdhirUpa", "aciMtyadazAsvarUpa', vagere upanAme vApare che. ane eka sthaLe te zrImad pote potAne ja praNAma kare cheH "aviSamapaNe jyAM AtmadhyAna vate che, evA je "zrI rAyacaMda" te pratye pharI pharI namaskAra..." ane e parama sthiti pAmyAne AnaMdadgAra zrImade eka padamAM gAyuM cheH dhanya re divasa A ahe, jAgI re zAMti apUrva re; daza varSe re dhArA UlasI, maTo udayakarmane garva re. - ogaNIse suDatALIse, samakti zuddha prakANyuM re, zruta anubhava vadhatI dazA, nija svarUpa avabhAsyuM re, Ama saMvata 1947 mAM zrImad rAjacaMdra Atmadarzanane, samyagdarzanane sAkSAtkAra pAmyA ane pachI zAMta, sthita thaI teo pitAnA uttama padamAM gAyelA nigraMtha padane pAmavA tarapha vaLe cheH "apUrva avasara e kyAre Avaze? kyAre thaIzuM bAhyAntara nigraMtha che? sarva saMbaMdhanuM baMdhana tINa chedIne, vicarazuM kava mahapuruSane paMtha che?" For Personal & Private Use Only

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vyavahAramAM AdarzarUpa zrImad zrImadda jyAre prabaLa AtmaciMtana ane gADha AtmasthitinI dizAmAMthI pasAra thatA hatA e samaya daramyAna ja temanI vyAvahArika upAdhi paNa eTalI ja sajajaDa banatI jatI hatI. paraMtu pitAnI AMtaradazA ane bAhya upAdhi e baMne vacce paNa zrImad rAjacaMdra ke sumeLa sAthe hato te A varSa daramyAna temaNe lakhelA patramAM ghaNuM karIne jovA maLe che. piSa suda 7, 1948nA roja lakhelA patramAM zrImad jaNAve che: keI evA prakArane udaya che ke, apUrva vItarAgatA chatAM vepAra saMbaMdhI kaMIka pravartana karI zakIe chIe, tema ja bIjA paNa khAvApIvA vagerenAM pravartana mAMDa mAMDa karI zakIe chIe. mana kyAMya virAma pAmatuM nathI, ghaNuM karIne atre keIne samAgama IcchatuM nathI." mAha vada 4, 1948ne patra juo: "cotarapha upAdhinI javAlA prajavalatI hoya te For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra prasaMgamAM samAdhi rahevI e parama duSkara che, ane e vAta te parama jJAnI vinA thavI vikaTa che. amane paNa Azcarya thaI Ave che, tathApi ema prAye varyA ja kare che, e anubhava che. AtmabhAva yathArtha jene samajAya che, nizcala rahe che, tene e samAdhi prApta heya che. samyakrazananuM mukhya lakSaNa vItarAgatA jANIe chIe; ane tevo anubhava che." - A vAtanA samarthanamAM zrImanA jIvanane eka prasaMga joIe. khaMbhAta saMghADAnA mukhya AcArya harakhacaMdajI mahArAjanA sAdhuomAM zrI lallujI mahArAja karIne eka sAdhu hatA. temane zrImad sAthe gADha paricaya hato. zrI lallujI mahArAjanA eka ziSya zrI devakaraNajI nAmanA sAdhu kuzaLa vyAkhyAtA hatA. teo ekavAra zrImane maLavA AvyA hatA. vAtacIta karatAM zrImada rAjacaMdra devakaraNajIne pUchyuM: vyAkhyAnamAM keTalAM mANase Ave che? devakaraNajIH "hajAreka mANase bharAya che." zrImadda strIone vyAkhyAnamAM dekhI vikAra thAya che? ' devakaraNajIH "kAyAthI nathI thatuM, manathI thAya che." zrImad kaheH "munie te mana, vacana ane kAyA e traNe vegathI sAcavavuM joIe." eTale devakaraNajIe AkSepa karatAM kahyuM: "tame For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA gAdItakiye bese che ane hIrAmANeka tamArI pAse paDelAM hoya che, tyAre tamArI vRtti DahoLAtI nahi hoya?" zrImad kaheH "muni, ame te kALakUTa viSa dekhIe chIe." pachI temaNe pUchayuM : tame keNa che?" zrI devakaraNajIH "jeTale vakhata vRtti sthira rahe che, teTale vakhata sAdhu chIe." zrImad kaheH "tevI rIte saMsArIne paNa sAdhu kahevAya ke nahi?" zrI devakaraNajI mauna rahyA. pachI zrImadda bolyAH "nALiyerane gaLe jema jude rahe che, tema ame rahIe chIe." eka bIjuM udAharaNa paNa mananIya che. eka vakhata zrImad pharavA gayA hatA. smazAnanI jagA AvI, tyAre zrImade temanI sAthe AvelA bhAIne pUchyuM: "A zuM che?" te bhAIe javAba ApeH "smazAna." zrImad rAjacaMke kahyuM: "ame te AkhI muMbaIne smazAna samAna joIe chIe." mahA vada, 1948nA reje lakhelA patra juoH "avikalpa samAdhinuM dhyAna kSaNavAra paNa maTatuM nathI. tathApi aneka varSo thayAM vikalparUpa upAdhine ArAdhyA jaIe chIe. jyAM sudhI saMsAra che tyAM sudhI koI jAtanI jI - sA - 6 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra upAdhi hevI te saMbhave che; tathApi avikalpasamAdhimAM sthita evA jJAnIne te te upAdhi paNa abAdha che, arthAt samAdhi ja che. A deha dhAraNa karIne je ke koI mahAna zrImaMtapaNuM bhegavyuM nathI, zabdAdi viSane pUre vaibhava prApta thaye nathI, koI vizeSa evA rAjyAdhikAra sahita divasa gALyA nathI, pitAnAM gaNAya che evAM kaI dhAma, ArAma sevyAM nathI, ane haju yuvAvasthAne pahele bhAga vate che, tathApi e keInI AtmabhAve amane kaMI IcchA utpanna thatI nathI, e eka meTuM Azcarya jANI vartIe chIe; ane e padArthonI prApti-aprApti baMne samAna thayAM jANI ghaNA prakAre avikalpa samAdhine ja anubhavIe chIe. ema chatAM vAraMvAra vanavAsa sAMbhare che, kaI prakArane leka paricaya rucikara thato nathI, satsaMgamAM suratI pravahyA kare che, ane avyavasthita dazAe upAdhi gamAM rahIe chIe. eka avikalpa samAdhi sivAya bIjuM kharI rIte smaraNa rahetuM nathI, ciMtana rahetuM nathI, ruci rahetI nathI, athavA kaMI kAma karAtuM nathI." zrAvaNa vada 14, 1948mAM zrImadda lakhe cheH citta baMdhanavALuM thaI zakatuM nahi hovAthI je jIve saMsAra saMbadhe strI AdirUpe prApta thayA che, te jInI irachA paNa dUbhavavAnI icchA thatI nathI, arthAt te paNa anukaMpAthI ane mAbApAdinA upakArAdi kAraNe For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA thI upAdhiogane baLavAna rIte vedIe chIe; ane jenI jenI je kAmanA che te te prArabdhanA udayamAM je prakAre prApta thavI sarjita che, te prakAre thAya tyAM sudhI nivRtti grahaNa karatAM paNa jIva "udAsIna rahe che; emAM keI prakAranuM amAruM sakAmapaNuM nathI, ame e sarvamAM niSkAma ja chIe ema che. tathApi prArabdha tevA prakAranuM baMdhana rAkhavArUpa udaye vate che; e paNa bIjA mumukSunI paramArthavRtti utpanna karavAne vize re dharUpa jANIe chIe." Ase, 1948mAM lakhelA patramAM zrImadda jaNAve cheH kaI paNa jAtanA amArA Atmika baMdhanane laIne ame saMsAramAM rahyA nathI; strI je che tenAthI pUrve baMdhAyeluM bhegakarma nivRtta karavuM che; kuTuMba che tenuM pUrvenuM kareluM karaja ApI nivRtta thavA arthe rahyA chIe. revAzaMkara che tenuM amArA pratye je kaMI mAgaNe che te ApavAne rahyA chIe. te sivAyanA je je kaMI prasaMga che te tenI aMdara samAI jAya che. tanane arthe, dhanane artho, bhegane arthe, sukhane arthe, svArthane arthe ke kaI jAtanA Atmika baMdhanathI ame saMsAramAM rahyA nathI. duHkhanA bhayathI paNa saMsAramAM rahevuM rAkhyuM che ema nathI. mAna-apamAnane te kaMI bheda che, te nivRtta thaI gaye che." A tema ja e samayanA bIjA patronuM avalokana karIe to saheje samajAya che ke zrImad rAjacaMdra pitAnA upara AvI paDelA upAdhinA bhIDAne, saMprApta vyavahArane For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra niSkAmatAthI, vItarAgapaNAthI svastha, zAMta citte adA karavAnI lekettara adbhuta avasthA prApta karI lIdhI hatI. ATalI bhUmikA khyAlamAM rAkhIne zrImad rAjacaMdranA vyAvahArika jIvana tarapha vaLIe. Ama te zrImad nAnapaNamAM pitAnA pitAnI dukAne besatA hatA e ApaNe AgaLa joI gayA chIe.* te veLAe nAnI vayamAM paNa teo pavitra bhAvanAthI pitAnuM kAma karatA hatA. "keIne meM e choadhike bhAva kahyo nathI, ke keIne ochuM adhikuM teLI dIdhuM nathI." A bhAvanA meTapaNe paNa emanAmAM eTalI ja sateja hatI. ekavIsamA varSamAM zrImad jhaverInA vyavasAyamAM joDAyA hatA. ghaNA TUka vakhatamAM temaNe eka sArA jhaverI tarIkenI nAmanA meLavI hatI. - zrImad muMbaImAM vyApAramAM joDAyA tyArathI bhAgIdAre sAthe kema pravartavuM tene nirNaya temaNe karI rAkhyo hato. saMvata 1946nI temanI rojanIzImAM e maLI Ave che. e Adarza ApaNane saune sahAyarUpa thaI paDe ema avazya cheH 1. "keInA paNa doSa je nahi. tArA pitAnA deSathI je thAya che te thAya che ema mAna. 2. "tArI (Atma) prazaMsA karIza nahi ane karIza # prakaraNa 4 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA te tuM ja halake che ema huM mAnuM chuM. 3. "jema bIjAne priya lAge tevI tArI vartaNUka karavAnuM prayatna karaje. ekadama temAM tene siddhi nahi maLe, vA vinna naDaze; tathApi daDha AgrahathI haLave haLave te krama para tArI niSThA lAvI mUkaje. 4. "tuM vyavahAramAM jenAthI joDAyela che tenAthI amuka prakAre vartavAne nirNaya karI tene jaNAva. tene anukULa Ave to tema; nahi te te jaNAve tema pravartaje. sAthe jaNAvaje ke tamArA kAryamAM (je mane sepe temAM) kaI rIte mArI niSThAthI karIne hAni nahi pahoMcADuM. tame mArA saMbaMdhamAM bIjI kaMI kalpanA karaze nahi. mane vyavahAra saMbaMdhI anyathA lAgaNI nathI tema huM tamArAthI anyathA vartavA icchatA nathI, eTaluM ja nahi, paNa kaMI mAruM viparItAcaraNa mana-vacana-kAyAe thayuM, to te mATe pazcAttApI thaIza. ema nahi karavA AgaLathI bahu sAvacetI rAkhIza. tame sepeluM kAma karatAM huM nirabhimAnI rahIza. mArI bhUla mATe mane Thapake Apaze te sahana karIza. - "mAruM cAlaze tyAM sudhI svane paNa tamAro TheSa vA tamArA saMbaMdhI kaI paNa jAtanI anyathA kalpanA karIza nahi. tamane koI jAtanI zaMkA thAya te mane jaNAvaze, te tamAre upakAra mAnIza, ane tene khare khulAse karIza. khulAso nahi thAya te mauna rahIza, paraMtu asatya bolIza nahi. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra mAtra tamArI pAsethI eTaluM ja icchuM chuM ke kaI paNa prakAre tame mane nimitta rAkhI azubha yogamAM pravRtti karaze nahi; tamArI IcchAnusAra tame vaje, temAM mAre kaMI paNa adhika kahevAnI jarUra nathI. mAtra mane mArI nivRtti zreNImAM vartavA detAM, kaI rIte tamAruM aMtaHkaraNa TUMkuM karaze nahi; ane TUMkuM karavA je tamArI IcchA hoya te khacIta karIne mane AgaLathI jaNAvI deje. te zreNIne sAcavavA mArI IcchA che ane te mATe ethI huM egya karI laIza. mAruM cAlatAM sudhI huM tamane dUbhavIza nahi ane chevaTe e ja nivRtti zreNI tamane apriya haze te paNa huM jema banaze tema jALavaNIthI, tamArI samIpathI, tamane kaI jAtanI hAnI karyA vagara banate lAbha karIne, have pachInA game te kALa mATe paNa tevI IcchA rAkhIne khasI jaIza." zrIyuta mANekalAlabhAI ghelAbhAI zrImadda vize lakhe cheH amArI bhAgIdArInAM keTalAMka varSa te sAhasika vyApAranA kheDANamAM gayelAM ane te samaye teonI vyApAra ane vyavahAra kuzaLatA evI uttama hatI ke ame vilAyatanA keTalAka vyApArIo sAthe kAma pADatA hatA, teo amArI kAma levAnI paddhatithI dezIonI kAbeliyata mATe prazaMsA karatA hatA. amArA A vyApAranI kUMcIrUpa kharuM kahIe to zrImAn rAjacaMdra hatA. zrImad rAjacaMdra hIrAmetInA vepAramAM joDAyA hatA e arasAmAM mahAtmA gAMdhIjIne temanI sAthe samAgama For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA thaye hate.* mahAtmA gAMdhIjIe e samayanA zrImada rAjacaMdranuM surekha Alekhana pitAnAM emanA vizenAM smaraNomAM kareluM che, emAMthI nIce ApelA utArAo juo : vaNika tehanuM nAma, jeha jUThuM nava bole; vaNika tehanuM nAma, tela e nava tAle, vaNika tehanuM nAma, bApe belyuM te pALe, vaNika tehanuM nAma, vyAja sahita dhana vALe; viveka tela e vaNikanuM, sulatAna tela e zAkha che; vepAra cUke je vANiye; duHkha dAvAnaLa thAya che." -zAmaLabhaTTa sAmAnya mAnyatA evI hoya che ke vyavahAra ke vepAra ane paramArtha athavA dharma e be nekhI ne vidhI vastu che. vepAramAM dharma dAkhala kare e gAMDapaNa che. ema karavA jatAM baMne bagaDe. A mAnyatA je kheTI na hoya to ApaNe kapALe kevaLa nirAza ja lakhelI hoya. evI eka paNa vastu nathI, e eka paNa vyavahAra nathI ke jemAMthI ApaNe dharmane dUra rAkhI zakIe. dhArmika manuSyane dharma tenA pratyeka kAryamAM jaNAve ja joIe ema rAyacaMdabhAIe potAnA jIvanamAM batAvI ApyuM hatuM. dharma kaMI ekAdazIne dahADe ja, pajusaNamAM * A aMge juo prakaraNa 12 muM. For Personal & Private Use Only

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28 zrImad rAjacaMdra ja, Idane dahADe ke ravivAre ja pALavAne, athavA te maMdiramAM, deherAMomAM, devaLamAM ne masjidomAM ja pALavAne, paNa dukAnamAM ke darabAramAM nahi, e koI niyama nathI, eTaluM ja nahi paNa ema kahevuM e dharmane na oLakhavA barAbara che, ema rAyacaMdabhAI kahetA, mAnatA ne potAnA AcAramAM batAvI ApatA. temane vepAra hIrAmotIno hato. zrI revAzaMkara jagajIvana jhaverInI sAthe bhAgIdAra hatA. sAthe kApaDanI dukAna paNa calAvatA. potAnA vyavahAramAM saMpUrNa rIte prAmANikapaNuM jALavatA evI mArI upara temaNe chApa pADI hatI. teo sedA karatA te vakhate huM kaI vAra anAyAse hAjara rahetA. temanI vAta spaSTa ane eka ja hatI. "cAlAkI" jevuM huM kaMI jete nahi. sAmenAnI cAlAkI pite tarata kaLI jatA, te temane asahya lAgatI. eve vakhate temanI bhrakuTI paNa caDatI, ne AMkhamAM lAlAza huM joI zakato hato. "dharmakuzaLa e vyavahArakuzaLa na hoya e vahema rAyacaMdabhAIe beTe siddha karI batAvyuM hatuM. pitAnA vepAramAM pUrI kALajI ne hoziyArI batAvatA. hIrAmotInI parIkSA ghaNI jhINavaTathI karI zakatA. jo ke aMgrejI jJAna temane nahetuM chatAM pArisa vagerenA temanA ADatiyA taraphathI AvelA kAgaLo, tAronA marmo tarata samajI jatA, ne teonI kaLA vartatAM vAra na lAgatI. temaNe karelA tarko ghaNe bhAge sAcA paDatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA ATalI kALajI ne hoziyArI chatAM vepAranI dhAlAvelI ke ciMtA na rAkhatA. dukAnamAM beThA paNa jyAre pitAnuM kAma pUruM thaI rahe eTale dharmapustaka te pAse paDayuM ja hoya te UghaDe. mArA jevA jijJAsu temanI pAse ja AvyA ja hoya. temanI sAthe dharmacarcA karatAM AMcake na khAya.." pitAnI "AtmakathAmAM gAMdhIjI A bAbatamAM lakhe cheH jenA upara huM mugdha thaye.........e hatuM temanuM bahoLuM zAstrajJAna, temanuM zuddha cAritrya, ane temanI Atmadarzana karavAnI bhAre dhagaza. Atmadarzanane ja khAtara te pitAnuM jIvana vyatIta karatA hatA ema meM pAchaLathI joyuM. "hasatAM ramatAM pragaTa hari dekhuM re, mAruM jIvyuM saphaLa tava lekhuM re; muktAnaMdane nAtha vihArI re, odhA jIvanaderI amArI re." e muktAnaMdanuM vacana temane mehe te hatuM ja, paNa te temanA hRdayamAMye aMkita hatuM. pote hajAranA vepAra kheDatA, hIrAmotInI pArakha karatA, vepAranA keyaDA ukelatA; paNa e vastu temane viSaya nahatI. temane viSaya - temane puruSArtha - te AtmaoLakha-haridarzana hatuM. potAnI peDhI upara bIjI vastu hoya yA na hoya, paNa kaI ne kaI dharmapustaka For Personal & Private Use Only

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90 zrImada rAjacaMdra ane rojanIzI hoya ja. vepAranI vAta pUrI thaI ke dharma pustaka UghaDe athavA pelI neMdhapothI UghaDe. temanA lekhane je saMgraha pragaTa thaye che temane ghaNe bhAga te A noMdhapothImAMthI levAyela che. je manuSya lAkhonA sedAnI vAta karI laIne turata AtmajJAnanI gUDha vAte lakhavA besI jAya, tenI jAta vepArInI nahi paNa zuddha jJAnInI che. temane AvI jAtane anubhava mane eka veLA nahi paNa aneka veLA thayele, meM temane kadI mUrzita sthitimAM nathI joyA. mArI joDe temane kaze svArtha nahe. temanA ati nikaTa saMbaMdhamAM huM rahyo chuM. huM te veLA bhikhArI baeNrisTara hatuM paNa jyAre huM temanI dukAne pahoMce tyAre mArI sAthe dharmavArtA sivAya bIjI vArtA na ja kare. A veLA je ke meM mArI dizA joI nahatI, mane sAmAnya rIte dharmavArtAmAM rasa hate ema na kahI zakAya, chatAM rAyacaMdabhAInI dharmavArtAmAM mane rasa Avate. ghaNA dharmAcAryonA prasaMgamAM huM tyAra pachI A chuM, dareka dharmanA AcAryone maLavAne prayatna meM karyo che, paNa je chApa mArA upara rAyacaMdabhAI e pADI te bIjA keI nathI pADI zakyA. temanAM ghaNAM vacane mane seMsarAM UtarI jatAM. temanI buddhine vize mane mAna hatuM. temanI prAmANikatA vize teTaluM ja hatuM. ne tethI huM jANato hato ke teo mane IrAdApUrvaka ADe raste nahi dere ne pitAnA manamAM haze evuM ja kaheze. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA AthI mArI AdhyAtmika bhIDamAM huM temane Azraya lete." vaLI gAMdhIjIe zrImad rAjacaMdranuM surekha rekhAcitra temanAM smaraNamAM AlekhyuM che, e vAMcatAM zrImadanuM udAtta vyaktitva AMkha sAme khaDuM thaI jAya che? apUrva avasara e kyAre Avaze? kyAre thaIzuM bAhyAntara nigraMtha jo? sarva saMbaMdhanuM baMdhana tINa chedIne, vicarazuM kava mahapuruSane paMtha je. sarva bhAvathI audAsInya vRtti karI, mAtra deha te saMyama hetu hoya che, anya kAraNe anya kazuM ka9pe nahi, dehe paNa kiMcit mUcha nava jeya je. je vairAgya e kaDIomAM jhaLahaLI rahyo che te meM temanA be varSanA gADha paricayamAM kSaNe kSaNe temanAmAM joyele. temanAM lakhANonI eka asAdhAraNatA e che ke pite je anubhavyuM te ja lakhyuM che. temAM kyAMye kRtrimatA nathI. bIjAnI upara chApa pADavA sAru eka lITI sarakhI paNa lakhI hoya ema meM nathI joyuM. temanI pAse hamezAM kaMIka dharma pustaka ane eka kerI paDI paDelAM ja heya. e copaDImAM pitAnA manamAM je vicAra Ave te lakhI nAkhe. keI veLA gadya ne koI vaLa padya. evI rIte ja apUrva avasara" paNa lakhAyeluM hovuM joIe. khAtAM, besatAM, sUtAM, pratyeka kriyA karatAM temanAmAM For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra vairAgya te heya ja. kaI vakhata A jagatanA keIpaNa vaibhavane vize temane meha thaye hoya ema meM nathI joyuM. temanI raheNIkaraNI huM AdarapUrvaka paNa jhINavaTathI tapAsate. bhejanamAM je maLe tethI saMtuSTa rahetA. paheraveza sAdo, paheraNa, aMgarakhuM, khesa, garabhasUtare pheTa ne chetI. e kaMI bahu sApha ke IstrIbaMdha rahetAM ema mane samaraNa nathI. ye besavuM, khurasIe besavuM baMne sarakhAM hatAM. sAmAnya rIte potAnI dukAnamAM gAdIe besatA. A temanI cAla dhImI hatI, ane jenAra samajI zake ke cAlatAM paNa pote vicAramAM grasta che. AMkhamAM camatkAra hataH atyaMta tejasvI vihaLatA jarAye na hatI. AMkhamAM ekAgratA lakhelI hatI. cahere gaLAkAra, hoTha pAtaLA, nAka aNIdAra paNa nahi-capaTuM paNa nahi, zarIra ekavaDuM, kada madhyama, varNa zyAma, dekhAva zAMta mUrtine hatA. temanA kaMThamAM eTaluM badhuM mAdhurya hatuM ke temane sAMbhaLatAM mANasa thAke nahi. cahere hasamukhe ne praphullita hatuM. tenI upara aMtarAnaMdanI chAyA hatI. bhASA eTalI paripUrNa hatI ke temane potAnA vicAro batAvatAM koI divasa zabda gata paDyo che ema mane yAda nathI. kAgaLa lakhavA bese tyAre bhAgye ja zabda badalatAM meM temane joyA haze; chatAM vAMcanArane ema nahi lAge ke kyAMye vicAra apUrNa che ke vAkyaracanA tUTelI che, athavA zabdanI pasaMdagImAM kheDa che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA A varNana saMyamIne vize saMbhave. bAhyADaMbarathI manuSya vItarAgI nathI thaI zakate. vItarAgatA e AtmAnI prasAdI che. aneka janmanA prayatna maLI zake che ema harakoI mANasa anubhavI zake che. rAgone kADhavAno prayatna karanAra jANe che ke rAgarahita thavuM kevuM kaThina che. e rAgarahita dazA kavine svAbhAvika hatI ema mArI upara chApa paDI hatI. mokSanuM prathama pagathiyuM vItarAgatA che. jyAM sudhI jagatanI eka paNa vastumAM mana khUceluM che tyAM sudhI mekSanI vAta kema game? athavA game to te kevaLa kAnane ja--eTale jema ApaNane artha jANyA ke samajyA vinA keI saMgItane kevaLa sUra ja gamI jAya tema. evI mAtra karNapriya gammatamAMthI mokSane anusaranAruM vartana AvatAM te ghaNo kALa vahI jAya. AMtara vairAgya vinA mokSanI laganI na thAya. evI vairAgyalaganI kavinI hatI." ....vyavahAra kuzaLatA ane dharmaparAyaNatAne suMdara meLa eTale meM kavine vize je eTale bIjAmAM nathI anubhavyo." te samayano eka preraka prasaMga che. zrImade jhaverAta sAthe motIne vepAra paNa zarU karyo hato. teo sarva vepArIomAM sauthI vizeSa vizvAsapAtra vepArI tarIke jANItA thayA hatA. eka Araba vepArI potAnA nAnA bhAI sAthe For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra muMbaImAM metInI ADatane vepAra karate hate. nAnA bhAIne eka divasa vicAra AvyuM ke Aje ApaNe paNa meTA, bhAInI peThe metIne meTe vepAra karIe. tethI je mAla bahAra paradezathI Avele e laIne te bajAramAM gaye. tyAM eka dalAlane teNe kahyuM : "kaI sArA prAmANika zeTha mane batAva." dalAle zrImadane tene bheTo karAvyuM. zrImade badho mAla barAbara kasI che ane tenI vyAjabI kiMmata gaNI ApI. pile nAna bhAI nANuM laIne khuza thate pitAne ghera gaye. moTA bhAI ghera AvyA eTale teNe vepAranI vAta kahI saMbhaLAvI. meTAbhAIe joyuM ke, nAno bhAI sade karavAmAM chetarAye te nathI. zrImade barobara kiMmata AMkI ApI hatI. paraMtu vAta ema hatI ke, je mANasane mAla hite ene te divase kAgaLa AvyuM hatuM. emAM teNe lakhyuM hatuM ke, amuka kiMmata vagara mAla vecaze nahi. e kiMmata cAlu bajArabhAva karatAM ghaNI moTI hatI. have zuM thAya? A jabarI beTa gaI! te gussAmAM bolI UThazeH alyA, A te zuM karyuM? mAre devALuM ja kADhavuM paDaze!" te Araba hAMphaLe phAMphaLe zrImad pAse doDI gaye. teNe karagarIne pelA mANasane kAgaLa vaMcAvIne kahyuM, sAheba, kaMI rahema kare. nahi te huM garIba mANasa For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA pAyamAla thaI jaIza!" zrImade svasthapaNe kahyuM: "bhAI, tamAre mAla A rahyo. tame khuzIthI laI jAo." ema kahIne temaNe Arabane ene mAla pAcho meMpI dIdhuM ane nANAM gaNI lIdhAM. jANe kaMI se karyo ja nathI ema gaNI, ghaNe naphe thavAno hato paNa te jAte karyo. e Araba zrImane khudAne payagaMbara jevA ja mAnavA lAge. bIjo eka prasaMga zrImad rAjacaMdrajInI karuNAmaya jIvanadaSTine joIe: ekavAra eka vepArI sAthe zrImade hIrAnA sedA karyA. evuM nakakI karavAmAM AvyuM ke, amuka samaye nakakI karelA bhAva pramANe e vepArIe zrImadane amuka hIrA ApavA. A bAbatane khatapatra paNa e vepArIo zrImane lakhI ApyuM hatuM. paraMtu evuM banyuM ke, samaya pAkatAM e hIrAnI kiMmata khUba ja vadhI gaI! e vepArI khatapatra pramANe zrImane hIrA Ape te e bApaDAne bahu bhAre nukasAnImAM UtaravuM paDe; pitAnI badhI ja mAlamilakata vecI devI paDe! have zuM thAya? A bAju zrImane jyAre hIrAnI kiMmatanA bajAra bhAvanI khabara paDI, tyAre teo tarata ja pelA vepArInI dukAne jaI pahoMcyA. zrImadane pitAnI dukAne AvelA joIne pele. For Personal & Private Use Only

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3 zrImad rAjacaMdra vepArI bicAro gabharATamAM paDI gayA. te karagarate beH rAyacaMdabhAI, ApaNI vacce thayelA hIrAnA sedA aMge huM khUba ciMtAmAM paDI gayuM chuM. mAruM je thavAnuM hoya e bhale thAo, paNa tame khAtarI rAkhaje ke huM tamane AjanA bajArabhAve sede cUkavI ApIza. tame ciMtA karaze mA." e sAMbhaLIne rAjacaMdrajI karuNAbharyA avAje bolyA: "vAha! bhAI vAha! huM ciMtA zA mATe nahi karuM? tamane sedAnI ciMtA thatI hoya te mane zA mATe ciMtA na thavI joIe? paraMtu ApaNe baMnenI ciMtAnuM mULa kAraNa te A kAgaLiyuM ja che ne? ene ja nAza karI daIe te ApaNA baMnenI ciMtA maTI jaze." ema kahIne zrImad rAjacaMdra sahaja bhAve pele dastAveja phADI nAkhe. pachI zrImad belyA: 'bhAI, A khatapatrane kAraNe tamArA hAthapaga baMdhAyelA hatA. bajArabhAva vadhI. javAthI tamArI pAse mArA sATha-sIttera hajAra leNuM nIkaLe. paraMtu huM tamArI sthiti samajI zakuM chuM. eTalA badhA rUpiyA huM tamArI pAsethI lauM te tamArI zI vale thAya? paraMtu rAyacaMda dUdha pI zake che, lehI nahi." pele bApaDa vepArI te AbhAravaza banI phirastA samAna zrImane joI ja rahyo. A badhuM joIne, zrImade zrAvaNa vada, 1948nA For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA patramAM je ugArI kADhelA che e ja udgArA ApaNA aMtaHkaraNamAMthI zrImad rAjacaMdrajI vize vyakta thaI jAya cheH te puruSa namana karavA ceAgya che, kIta karavA ceAgya che, paramapreme guNagrAma karavA yeAgya che, pharI pharI viziSTa AtmapariNAme dhyAvata karavA ceAgya che, ke je puruSane dravyathI, kSetrathI, kALathI ane bhAvathI kAI paNa prakAranu` pratibaddhapaNuM va tu nathI. 3-211-19 97 For Personal & Private Use Only

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11 zrImanI ekAnta caryA ApaNe joI gayA ke zrImadda hIrAmatIne lAkhone vepAra karatA hatA, paraMtu sAthe sAthe temanuM AMtarajIvana paNa vikAsa pAmatuM jatuM ja hatuM. vepAramAM lAbhahAni paNa thayA karatI, paraMtu e badhuM emane mana kSaNika hatuM. emanuM sAcuM jIvana te dharmalAbhane anivArya samajI emAM ja otaprota rahetuM hatuM. vaLI emanA vadhatA jatA vyApAranI upAdhiomAM paNa dharma ane tattvajJAnanA pitAnA priya abhyAsamAM temaNe khalela AvavA dIdhI nahotI. udyogarata jIvanamAM zAMta svastha cite cupakIdIthI teo jJAnavRddhi karye jatA hatA; tema ja hamezAM dharmagraMthAnA vAcana-manamAM gUMthAyelA rahetA hatA. Ama zrImade bAhI upAdhi ane AMtaradazA vacce adbhuta sumeLa sAcce hato. emAM paNa zrImadda bhagavAnanI kRpA ja jatA hatA. teo lakhe che: "je bhagavat kRpA na hoya to A kALane vize tevA upAdhigamAM mAthuM dhaDa upara rahevuM kaThaNa thAya. hRdayamAM prabhunuM nAma rAkhI For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA mAMDa kAMI pravana karI zakIe chIe.' Ama IzvarArpitabhAve samatAthI zrImad rAjacaMdra adhI upAdhione nirvAha niSkAmapaNe karatA hatA. paraMtu A udyoga-pravRttirata jIvanamAMthI paNa tee vacce vacce AtmaciMtanAthe mukhaI cheDIne ekAMta sthaLeAmAM, vanemAM ke pahADAmAM ghaNe! vakhata ekalA cAlyA jatA hatA. peAtAnI peDhIe tee kahI jatA ke jyAM sudhI peAte lakhe nahi, tyAM sudhI keAIe peAtAnI sAthe kAI paNa jAtane patravyavahAra paNa karavA nahi. A rIte zrImada cotara, saurASTra, iDara vagere pradezeAmAM ekAMtamAM rahyA hatA. teo rakhene peAte oLakhAI jAya athavA peAtAnA sthaLanI khabara paDI jAya tevI dhAstIthI ghaNA gupta rahevAnA hamezAM prayAsa karatA, chatAM teo vAraMvAra eLakhAI jatA ane leAkeAnI meATI sakhyA temanAM upadeza, zikSAvacaneA zravaNa karavAnI jijJAsAthI temanI pAchaLa paDatI. 99 zrImanI ekAMta caryAnI sa`pUrNa mAhitI maLI zakI nathI. paraMtu je bhaktajanA emanA samAgamamAM AvyA hatA emanI pAsethI maLelI hakIkatAmAMthI ahIM TUMkamAM joI jaI e.ka prathama khaMbhAtamAM zrImad eka aThavADiyuM . savata 1946mAM rahyA. pachI theADA vakhata khaMbhAtathI thADe dUra * vistRta mAhitI mATe jue brahmacArI geAvanadAsajI kRta 'zrImad rAjarA dra jIvanakaLA', For Personal & Private Use Only

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1eo zrImad rAjacaMdra rALaja nAmanA gAmamAM saM. 1947mAM rahyA hatA, te vakhate keI na jANe ema ekAMtamAM rahyA hatA. saM. 1951mAM zrImad nivRtti laIne saurASTramAM rANapura pAse haDamatALA (haDamatiyA) nAmanA nAnA gAma tarapha rahyA hatA. tyAM vaDedarA, boTAda, sAyalA, morabI vagere sthaLethI mumukSujane AvyA hatA ane aneka jIvane satsamAgama, bedha vagerene lAbha maLe hate. pachI haDamatALAthI muMbaI jatAM vacce khaMbhAta saM. 1951nA A mAsamAM zrImad rahyA hatA. muMbaIthI saM. 15ramAM zrImad lagabhaga aDhI mAsa jeTalI nivRtti laIne carotaramAM gayA hatA. teo aMbAlAlabhAI, sebhAgabhAI tathA DuMgarazI gesAniyA sAthe bAra divasa agAsa pAsenA kAviThA gAmamAM rahyA hatA. pachI zrImadda khaMbhAta pAse rALaja gAmamAM pArasIne baMgale AThadasa divasa rahyA hatA. pachI ekavAra khaMbhAta pAse vaDavA sthAne zrI lallujI mahArAja ane bIjA pAMca munie zrImadda samAgama karavA gayA hatA. zrImade vaDavAmAM ekAMta sthaLe e che munione bolAvyA hatA. tyAM teoe cha divasa rahI zrImanAM zrImukhethI parama bedha grahaNa karyo hate. chaThThA divase zrImade e cha munione jIvana preraka zikSA ApatAM kahyuM hatuM : "tame gRha, kuTuMba, parivAra temaja paMcanI sAkSIe pariNIta strI-e sarva para nirmohI thaI nIkaLyA cho. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 101 to tame sAcA sAdhuo bano. AtmAmAM sAcA pragaTa kare. (1) AtmA che; (2) AtmA nitya che; (3) AtmA kartA che; (4) AtmA joktA che; (5) mokSa che; ane (6) melane upAya che-A cha padane* he munie! vAraMvAra vicAra karaje. "vaDavA je ATalo kALa kAvuM thayuM che te tamArA mATe ja thayuM che. tamane (amArA) A veze pratIti thaze te yathArtha satya thaze; kAraNa ke tamAre tyAgIne veza che ane amArI pAse tevuM kaMI na dekhAya, paraMtu AtmapariNati upara lakSa ApavAthI pratItinuM kAraNa thaze." - kAviThAmAM zrImad pite ekalA khetaramAM vicaratA. kaI prasaMge mANase ekatra maLe tyAre sahaja dharUpe karuNA karatA. rALajamAM paNa tevI rIte baMdhanA prasaMge banelA ane vaDavAmAM te khaMbhAtanA oLakhItA ghaNA mumukSuo AvatA hovAthI dararoja bedhapravAha vahete. ANaMda, kAviThA, rALaja ne vaDavAnA bedhamAMthI smRtimAM rahelA vicAre ghaNAkharA zrImaddanA zabdomAM prabhAvazALI smaraNazaktivALA aMbAlAlabhAIe utArI lIdhA hatA. e vicAre "zrImad rAjacaMdra" bRhad graMthamAM 'upadezachAyA" nAme prasiddha thayA che. zrImada ANaMdathI naDiyAda saMvata 15ramAM AvyA hatA. temanI sevAbhaktimAM aMbAlAlabhAI badhAM gAmamAM * A cha padanI vistRta vicAraNuM "AtmasiddhizAstramAM karI che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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102 zrImad rAjacaMdra sAthe ja rahetA hatA. A ja naDiyAda mukAme zarada pUrNimAne bIje divase rAtanI veLAe eka ja beThake zrImad rAjacaMdra "AtmasiddhizAstra" padyarUpe racyuM hatuM.* zrImadda naDiyAdamAM saM. 15ranI divALI pachI paNa De vakhata rahyA hatA. pachI vavANiyA, merabI, sAyalA tarapha vaizAkha mAsa sudhI rahyA hatA. ane e ja mAsamAM IDara thaI muMbaI gayA hatA. zrImane merabImAM traNa mAsa saM. 1954mAM citra mAsa sudhI rahevAnuM banyuM hatuM. te prasaMge thayelA vyAkhyAnanI eka mumukSue neMdha karelI hatI. e naidha zrImad rAjacaMdra" bRhad graMthamAM vyAkhyAna sAra" nAme prasiddha thaI che. zrAvaNa mAsanI zarUAtamAM zrImad piTalAda thaI kAviThA gayA hatA. tyAM eka mAsa ane nava divasa sudhI nivRttimAM rahyA hatA. aMbAlAlabhAI temanI paricaryAmAM sAthe hatA. munizrI lallujI mahArAja AdinuM comAsuM vasemAM hatuM ane zrI devakaraNajI mahArAja vagerenuM kheDAmAM hatuM. tethI zrImada kAviThAthI naDiyAda thaI vase paNa gayA hatA. zrI lallujIne zrImade pUchayuM : "kahe muni, ahIM keTalA divasa rahIe? zrI lallujInI icchA zrImadda sAthe vadhAre vakhata samAgama karavAnI hatI. tethI temaNe javAba Ape * "AtmasiddhizAstra' vize vadhu mAhitI mATe juo prakaraNa 14muM. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 103 103 eka mAsa ahIM rahe te sAruM zrImad mauna rahyA. zrI lallujI vase gAmanA moTA moTA lekene tyAM AhArapANI levA jatA, tyAre badhAne teo kahetA ke, muMbaIthI eka meTA mahAtmA AvyA che, teo meTA vidvAna che. temanuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA Avaze te bahu lAbha thaze." eTale ghaNA mANase zrImad pAse AvavA lAgyA. A joIne zrImade zrI lallujIne kahyuM: "tamAre munioe badhA Ave tyAre na AvavuM." ' A sAMbhaLIne zrI lallujIne ghaNo pastAvo thaye . ke, eka mAsanA samAgamanI mAgaNI karI hatI. paNa Ama aMtarAya AvI paDyo! zrImad vanamAM bahAra jatA tyAre badhA munio vagerene jJAnavArtAne lAbha maLato. vasethI eka mAIlanA aMtara para AvelA carAmAM besI zrImadda jJAnavArtA vagere karatA. eka mAsa pUrNa thaye, tyAre munione jAgrata rahevAnuM sUcavatAM zrImad rAjacaMdra kahyuM: he munio! atyAre jJAnI puruSanA pratyakSa samAgamamAM tame pramAda kare che. paNa jJAnI puruSa nahi hoya tyAre pazcAttApa pAmaze. pAMca, pAMcase gAu paryaTana karavA chatAM jJAnIne samAgama thaze nahi." zrImad rAjacaMdra zrI lallujIne jaNAvyuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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104 zrImad rAjacaMdra je kaI mumukSu bhAIo tema ja bahene tamArI pAse AtmArtha sAdhana mAge tene A pramANe AtmahitanAM sAdhana batAvavAM 1. sAta vyasananA tyAgane niyama karAve. 2. lIlotarIne tyAga karAvo. 3. kaMdamULano tyAga karAve. 4. abhakSya padArthone tyAga karAva. "5. rAtribhejano tyAga karAva. 6. pAMca mALA pheravavAne niyama karAvo. 7. maraNa batAvavuM. 8. kSamApanAne pATha ane vIsa deharAnuM paThana - manana nitya karavA jaNAvavuM. 9 satsamAgama ane sazAstranuM sevana karavA jaNAvavuM." vasomAM bhAI motIlAla nAmanA naDiyAdanA bhAvasAra zrImanI sevAmAM rahetA hatA. temanI mAraphate naDiyAdanI AjubAjumAM kaI ekAMta sthaLa rahevA gya hoya tenI tapAsa zrImade karAvI hatI. naDiyAda ane uttarasaMDAnI vacamAM eka baMgale maLI zake evI gaThavaNa thaI. eTale aMbAlAlabhAI, laherAbhAI ane motIlAlabhAI e traNanI sAthe zrImad uttarasaMDAne baMgale padhAryA. bIjA keIne tyAM AvavAnI manAI karI hatI. paMdara divasa sudhI aMbAlAlabhAI sevAmAM rahyA ane badhI vyavasthA pite karI letA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 105 paraMtu zrImane taddana ekAMta nivRttinI vRtti hovAthI aMbAlAlabhAI raIne sAmAna, gAdalAM, vAsaNa vagere lAvyA hatA e badhuM laI javAnI zrImade AjJA karI, mAtra tIlAlabhAIne sevAmAM rAkhyA. aMbAlAlabhAI baMgale khAlI karI badhe sAmAna gADAmAM bharAvI naDiyAda laI gayA. motIlAlabhAIe pitAne mATe eka gAdaluM rakhAvyuM hatuM, te ane pANInA leTA sivAya bIjuM kazuM rAkhyuM na hatuM. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI metIlAlabhAIne sUcanA ApatA gayA ke, "rAtre betraNa vakhata zrImadjInI tapAsa rAkhatA rahejo." zrImada vanamAM ekalA dUra pharavA gayelA te sADAdaza vAgye rAtre AvyA. motIlAlabhAI e osarImAM hIMcake hate tenA upara peluM gAdaluM pAthayuM hatuM, te joIne zrImade pUchayuM: "gAdaluM kyAMthI lAvyA?" metIlAlabhAIe kahyuM: "mAre mATe rakhAvyuM hatuM te pAtharyuM che.' zrImad kaheH "tame te gAdaluM laI le." motIlAlabhAI e ghaNe Agraha karyo eTale zrImade gAdaluM rahevA dIdhuM. - DIvAra pachI meMtIlAlabhAI tapAsa karavA AvyA tyAre gAdaluM nIce paDeluM; ane macchara ghaNuM lAgyA! tethI eka dhetiyuM zrImad upara oDhADI pAchA te aMdara jaI sUI gayA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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106 zrImad rAjacaMdra vaLI pharI rAtre tapAsa karavA metIlAlabhAI AvyA, tyAre dhotiyuM nIce paDeluM; ane zrImad gAthAo belyA karatA hatA! tethI pharI oDhADI te aMdara jaI sUI gayA. Ama zarIranI darakAra karyA vinA dharmadhyAnamAM rAte paNa zrImad lIna rahetA. bIje divase zrImadda jaMgalamAM gayA hatA tyAMthI be kalAke pAchA pharyA. thoDIvAra pachI meMtIlAlabhAIe pUchayuM: "khAvApIvA mATe kema karIe?" - zrImade kahyuM: "tame naDiyAda jAo, tamArAM bAIne navarAvIne roTalI ane zAka karAvajo. vAsaNa lekhaMDanuM vApare nahi; ane zAka vageremAM pANI tathA tela nAkhe nahi tema jaNAvaje." motIlAlabhAI naDiyAda gayA ane kahelI sUcanA pramANe jeTalI ane zAka taiyAra karAvyAM. aMbAlAlabhAI naDiyAdamAM ja hatA. temaNe cUramuM vagere raseI tiyAra karAvI mUkI hatI. paraMtu AjJA thaI hatI te pramANe dUdha ane ghImAM banelI raseI te baMgale lAvyA. metIlAlabhAI Ama roja naDiyAda khAIne AvatA zrImadane mATe zuddha AhAra letA AvatA. motIlAlabhAIe paNa eka ja vakhata AhAra levAnuM rAkhyuM hatuM, jethI pramAda ocho thAya. sAMjanI veLAe zrImad bahAra ekalA dUra sudhI pharavA jatA ane rAte dazeka vAgye pAchA AvatA. keI For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 107 vakhata motIlAlabhAI paNa sAthe jatA. eka divasa cAlatAM cAlatAM zrImad kaheH tame pramAdamAM zuM paDyA rahyA che? vartamAnamAM mAga e kAMTAthI bharyo che ke te kAMTA khaseDatAM amane je zrama veThavo paDyo che te amAre AtmA jANe che. je vartamAnamAM jJAnI hatI te ame temanI pUThe pUThe cAlyA jAta, paNa tamane pratyakSa jJAnIne vega che. chatAM evA vegathI jAgrata thatA nathI. pramAda dUra kare; jAgrata thAo. ame jyAre vIra prabhunA chellA ziSya hatA, te vakhatamAM laghuzaMkA jeTalo pramAda karavAthI amAre ATalA bhava karavA paDyA. paNa jIne pratyakSa jJAnI puruSanuM oLakhANa thavuM ghaNuM ja durlabha che." eka divase metIlAlabhAIe pitAnAM patnIne sUcanA ApelI ke, "phAsTa gADI gayA bAda tame jamavAnuM laIne baMgalA tarapha Avaje ane traNacAra khetara dUra besajo. tyAM AvIne huM laI jaIza." paraMtu bAI te baMgalA pAse AvI pahoMcyAM! eTale meMtIlAlabhAIe emane bahu Thapake A. kAraNa ke zrImane A goThavaNa vize jaNAvavAnuM rAkhyuM nahotuM. A vAta zrImanA jANavAmAM AvI gaI, eTale temaNe motIlAlabhAIne kahyuM: "zA mATe tame khIjyA? tame dhaNIpaNuM bajAva cho? nahi, nahi; ema nahi thavuM joIe. UlaTe tamAre e bAIne upakAra mAna joIe. e bAI AThame bhave mokSapada pAmavAnAM che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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108 zrImad rAjacaMdra e bAIne ahIM AvavA de." motIlAlabhAIe tarata ja jaIne bAIne kahyuM: tamAre darzana karavAnI IcchA hoya te Ave. tamane AvavAnI AjJA ApI che." eTale bAI zrImanAM darzane AvyAM. zrImade pramAda tajavA upadeza ApatAM kahyuM: "pramAdathI jAgrata thAo. puruSArtha rahita Ama maMdapaNe kema varte che? A joga maLa mahAvikaTa che. mahA puNya karIne A jega maLyo che te vyartha kAM gumAve che? jAgrata thAo, jAgrata thAo. amAruM game te prakAre kahevuM thAya che te mAtra jAgrata thavA mATe ja kahevuM thAya che." A nivAsa veLAe zrImadda be rUpiyAbhAra leTanI roTalI tathA thoDuM zAka ane DuM dUdha AkhA divasamAM letA bIjI vakhata dUdha paNa letA nahi. eka paMciyuM vacamAMthI paheratA ane baMne cheDA sAmasAmA khabhA upara nAkhatA. eka vakhate zrImade kaheluM ke, "A zarIra amArI sAthe kajiye kare che; paNa ame pAra paDavA detA nathI." uttarasaMDAthI zrImad metIlAlabhAI sAthe joDAgADImAM besIne kheDA gayA. gAma bahAra baMgale mukAma karyo hato. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI kheDA AvI be divasa gAmamAM rahyA hatA ane darzana karavAnI AjJA meLavavA prayatna karatA hatA. zrImanI AjJA maLI tyAre temane darzana karavA maLyAM hatAM. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 109 zrImad A ekAMta-caryA veLAe dhyAnastha avasthAmAM khUba rahetA. pharavA jatA tyAre paNa ciMtanamAM ke dhyAnamAM eTalA lIna rahetA ke temane zarIranuM bhAna suddhAM rahetuM nahi. eka divasa pharavA jatI vakhate motIlAlabhAIe pitAnAM navAM pagarakhAM zrImanI AgaLa mUkyAM. e temaNe paherI lIdhAM. gAu deDha gAu cAlyA pachI eka jagyAe zrImad beThA. tyAM meMtIlAlabhAIe temanA paga tarapha joyuM to zrImanA pagane pagarakhAM DakhelAM ane cAmaDI UkhaDI hatI tyAMthI lehI nIkaLatuM hatuM ! zrImanuM te tarapha jarAye lakSa nahotuM. motIlAlabhAIe pagarakhAM kADhI laI cAmaDI sAcavIne sApha karI dhULa coMTelI dUra karI. motIlAlabhAIe pachIthI te pagarakhAM UMcakI lIdhAM. - zrI devakaraNajI Adi munie A vakhate kheDAmAM hatA. temane trevIsa divasa zrImaddanA samAgamane lAbha maLe. zrImadanI te vakhatanI sthitinuM varNana zrI devakaraNajIe zrI lallujI mahArAja para lakhelA patramAM nIce pramANe karyuM cheH '(zrImaddanA) sarvoparI upadezamAM ema ja AvyA kare che ke, "zarIra kRza karI, mAMhenuM tattva zodhI, kalevarane pheMkIne cAlyA jAo. viSayakaSAyarUpI corane aMdarathI bahAra kADhI, bALI jALI, phUMkI mUkI zAMta thAo, chUTI jAo, zamAI jAo, zAMti, zAMti, zAMti thAo; vahelA vahelA tAkIda karo." For Personal & Private Use Only

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110 zrImad rAjacaMdra A samAgama daramiyAna zrI devakaraNajInI zrImad uparanI AsthA pUrNa thaI. temanA Agraha dUra thaI temane zrImadda upara sArI zraddhA beThI. temaNe upalA patramAM ja ullAsabhera lakhyuM cheH asadagurunI bhrAMti gaI sadgurunI paripUrNa pratIti thaI, atyaMta nizcaya thayo. te vakhate romAMcita ulakSyAMka sapuruSanI pratItine daDha nizcaya roma rema UtarI gaye, AjJAvaza vRtti thaI.... Ape kahyuM tema ja thayuM, phaLa pAyuM, rasa cAkhe, zAMta thayA.evI vRtti cAle che ke jANe puruSanA caraNamAM mokSa pratyakSa najare Ave che. paramakRpALu deve pUrNa kRpA karI che. ame eka AhArane vakhata eLe gumAvIe chIe. bAkI te sadguru-sevAmAM kALa vyatIta thAya che; eTale basa che. tenuM te ja vAkya te ja mukhamAMthI jyAre zravaNa karIe chIe tyAre navuM ja dIse che. lakhavAnuM e ja harSa sahita zravaNa karyA karIe chIe.jJAnI sadgurunAM upadezelAM vacano sAMbhaLIne eka vacana paNa pUrNa premathI grahaNa kare, eka paNa saddaguru vacananuM pUrNa premathI ArAdhana kare, te te ArAdhanA e ja mokSa che; mokSa batAve che." cemAsuM UtaratAM badhA munio vase ane kheDAthI naDiyAda AvyA ane thoDoka kALa zrImaddanA samAgamamAM rahevAthI thayelA anubhavanI paraspara Apa le karI AtmAnaMdamAM magna rahyA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 111 kheDAthI zrImad mahemadAvAda sTezane thaI muMbaI gayA. tyAM eka mAsa rahI teo nivRtti arthe IDara javA UpaDyA. naDiyAda sTezane motIlAlabhAI maLyA, temane munio vize pUchatAM temaNe kahyuM ke, badhA munio ahIM ja che. zrImade pote IDara nivRtti arthe jAya che evA samAcAra munione kahevarAvyA. IDaramAM zrImanA kAkAsasarA Do. prANajIvanadAsa jagajIvanadAsa mahetA IDara sTeTanA cIpha meDikala ophisara hatA. temane tyAM saMvata 155mAM zrImad rahyA hatA. te vakhate gAmamAM ghaNuM karIne bhejana jeTale divase kALa gALatA; ane ghaNokhare vakhata IDaranAM pahADa ane jaMgalamAM pasAra karatA. zrImade Do. prANajIvanadAsane khAsa manAI karelI hovAthI janasamAjamAM temanA AvAgamana saMbaMdhI kaMI vAta bahAra paDatI nahi. IDaranA te vakhatanA mahArAjA sAhebe zrImanI be vakhata mulAkAta lIdhelI te daramyAna jJAnavArtA thayelI, tene sAra "dezI rAjya nAmanA mAsikamAM I. sa. 1928mAM prasiddha thaye hate. A vArtAlApamAM mahArAjA sAhebe eka prazna pUcho hate ene uttara ahIM noMdhavA lAyaka che. kAraNa ke emAM zrImade potAnA pUrvabhavano ullekha karyo che. zrImad kaheH "A pradezamAM aitihAsika prAcIna sthAna jotAM te mane asalanI-temAM vasanArAonI pUrNa vijayI sthiti ane temanI Arthika, naitika ane For Personal & Private Use Only

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112 zrImad rAjacaMdra AdhyAtmika unnatine purAvA Ape che. juo tamAre IDari gaDha; te uparanAM jaina derAsare, rUkhI rANInuM mALiyuM-raNamalanI cekI, mahAtmAonI guphAo, ane auSadhi-vanaspati, A badhuM alaukika khyAla Ape che." jina tIrthakarenI chellI covIsInA pahelA AdinAtha Sabhadeva ane chellA mahAvIra svAmInAM nAma Ape sAMbhaLyA haze. jina zAsanane pUrNa paNe prakAza karanAra A chelA tIrthakara ane teonA ziSya gautama Adi gaNadhara vicarelAne bhAsa thAya che. teonA ziSya nirvANane pAmyA temAMne eka pAchaLa rahI gayela jene janma A kALamAM thayeluM che. tenAthI ghaNuM jIvanuM kalyANa thavAno saMbhava che." naDiyAda sTezane zrImadda sAthe meMtIlAlabhAIne vAta thaI hatI e temaNe munione jaNAvI; eTale keTalAka munie khaMbhAta tarapha ane keTalAka amadAvAda tarapha vihAra karavA vicAra karatA hatA te baMdha rAkhI badhAne zrImanA samAgamanI bhAvanA thavAthI IDara tarapha badhAe vihAra karavA vicAra rAkhyo. munizrI lallujI, zrI mohanalAlajI ane zrI narasiMha rakha e traNe munio utAvaLe vihAra karI vahelA IDara pahoMcyA. munizrI devakaraNajI, zrI velazI 2kha, zrI lakSmIcaMdajI ane zrI caturalAlajI e cAra munie pAchaLa dhIme dhIme AvavA lAgyA. ahIM IDaranA pahADa upara zrImade A sAta For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 113 munione jJAnavArtA, sadha vagerene cAra divasa sudhI lAbha A . Ama te A IDaranivAsa daramyAna zrImadane taddana ekAMta joItuM hatuM, eTale AvA prasaMganI temane IcchA nahatI. chatAM te pahADa upara ekAMtamAM pharavA jAya te vakhate eka AMbAnA vRkSa nIce munione maLavAnuM temaNe goThavyuM hatuM. e mujaba munio bIje divase AMbAnA vRkSa taLe jaIne zrImadbhI rAha jovA lAgyA. evAmAM dUra dUrathI mAgadhI gAthAonA uccAraNane avAja saMbhaLAvA lAge. zrImad gAthAonI dhUna lagAvatA tyAM AvI rahyA hatA. teo nIce ApelI gAthAonuM raTaNa karatA hatA. e dhUna ekAda kalAka sudhI cAlyA karIH mA mujjaha, mA rajjaha, mA dussaha iTThaNi? atthesu / thiramicchaha jai cittaM vicitta jhANappasiddhIe // 48 // jaM kiMcivi citaMtA NirIhavittI have jadA sAhU / labhrUNaya ayattaM tadAhu taM tassa NiccayaM jhANaM // 55 // mA ciTThaha, mA jaMpaha, mA cittaha kiMvi jeNa hAI thiro / appA appami rao, iNameva paraM have jjhANaM / / 56 // -dravyasaMgraha bhAvArtha: vividha dhyAnamAM siddhi meLavavAne arthe tamAruM citta je sthira thayeluM IcchatA he, te ISTa ane aniSTa viSayamAM meha na kare, rAga na kare, dveSa na kare. (48) jI - sA - 2 For Personal & Private Use Only

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114 zrImad rAjacaMdra kaI paNa prakAranA viSaya upara dhyAna karatAM sAdhu svarUpasthitirUpa ekAgratA prApta karI sakAmavRttiothI rahita thaI zake, tyAre tene sAcuM dhyAna prApta thayuM kahevAya. (55) kAyAthI koI paNa ceSTA-kiyA na kare, vacanathI kaI paNa uccAra na kare, manathI koI paNa vicAra na kare, te tethI sthira thaze. AtmA Ama AtmAmAM ramamANa banI jAya te parama dhyAna thAya. (16) A gAthAonI dhUna pUrI thatAM lagabhaga teTalo ja vakhata zrImad zAMta sthirapaNe mana, vacana, kAyA traNe kega sthira karI dhyAnamAM lIna thaI gayA, samAdhistha thayA. te vakhatanI vItarAgatA ane AtmasthiratA tathA divya darzanIya svarUpastha avasthA jeIne munioe apUrva zAMtino anubhava karyo. dhyAna pUruM thatAM zrImad munione "vicArazo? eTaluM ja kahI tyAMthI cAlyA gayA. trIje divase munie AmravRkSa nIce niyata samaye AvI pahoMcyA. munizrI devakaraNajInuM zarIra kRza hovAne kAraNe dhrUjatuM hatuM. Rtu ziyALAnI hevAthI ThaMDI sakhata hatI. tethI zrI lakSmIcaMdajIe temane kapaDuM oDhADayuM. e joIne zrImad kaheH "TADha vAya che ane pachI bolyA: "TADha uDADavI che?" ema kahI zrImad UbhA thaI cAlavA lAgyA. badhA munio pAchaLa pAchaLa cAlavA lAgyA. zrImadda te For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 115 eTalI jhaDapathI kAMTA, kAMkarA, jALAM, dhAravALA paththaramAM thaIne dehanI paravA karyA vinA AtmavegamAM cAlatA hatA. munie paNa temanAM caraNanuM AlaMbana grahaNa karI cAlyA karatA hatA. eTalAmAM eka vizALa zilA AvI. tenI upara zrImad pUrvAbhimukha virAjyA. munie emanI sanmukha beThA. pachI "bRhad dravyasaMgraha vAMcavAnuM zrImade zarU karyuM. A zilAne puDhavI zilA kahI hatI. pAMcamA divase zrImad badhA munione UMce pahADa para laI gayA ne tyAM eka vizALa zilA para birAjyA ane kahyuM, "ahIM najIkamAM eka vAgha rahe che paNa tame nirbhaya raheje. juo A siddhazilA che. ema kahI upadeza karyo. Ama ja reja zrImad Atmasthiti anusAra vartatA. teo kaI vAra paThana pAThana karatA athavA dhArmika vivecana karatA. kaI kaI vAra te hiMsa pazuonA nivAsasthAna pAse jaIne besatA. A samaya daramyAna zrImade AkhuM 'dravyasaMgraha pustaka muniene vAMcI saMbhaLAvyuM hatuM ane e para mananIya pravacana paNa teo ApatA hatA. A apUrva samAgamane lahAve maLatAM munizrI devakaraNajI AnaMdita thaI belI UDyA hatAH "atyAra sudhImAM je je samAgama parama gurune thaye, temAM A samAgama sarvoparI thaye. devAlayanA zikhara upara kaLaza For Personal & Private Use Only

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116 zrImad rAjacaMdra caDhAve che tema A prasaMga parama kalyANakArI che; sarvoparI samajAya che." A vakhate zrImad traNeka mAsa IDaramAM rahyA hatA. guphAmAM ghaNo vakhata rahetA; tathA vanamAM vicaratA. zrI lallujI mahArAjane IDara nivAsI eka bhAIe kaheluM ke, IDara uparanI eka prAcIna guphAmAM A pahelAM eka vAra zrImadda deDha mAsa sudhI ekAMtamAM rahyA hatA. - IDarathI vavANiyA tarapha zrImad traNeka mAsa mATe gayA hatA ane pAchA pharI iDara thoDA vakhata mATe AvI muMbaI gayA hatA. dharamapuranAM jaMgalamAM paNa zrImadda zeDo kALa saM. 156mAM nivRtti arthe rahyA hatA. tyAMthI pachI vivANiyA gayA ane morabImAM paryuSaNa parva sudhI be mAsa rahyA hatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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12 zrImaddanA samAgamamAM dave prakAzavA lAge eTale tenA tarapha AjubAjuthI pataMgiyAM AkarSAya che, e ja pramANe zrImad rAjacaMdramAM sAcI dharma sthiti udaya pAmatAM ja temanI tarapha gRhastha, sAdhu ema badhA varganAM mumukSu, jijJAsu mANase kheMcAvA lAgyAM. pite saMpUrNatA prApta na kare tyAM sudhI bahAra na AvavAnI temanI tIvra IcchA hovA chatAM temane prabaLa puruSArtha ane ujajavaLa jJAnaprakAza DhAMkyAM DhaMkAI na rahyAM. pariNAme zrImaddanuM bhaktamaMDaLa vadhatuM ja gayuM. kaI paNa vyaktinI sAcI mahattAnI kasoTI karavAnAM aneka sAdhanemAMthI eka mukhya sAdhana, e vyaktie AjubAjunAM manuSya upara keTalI vyApaka ane ciraMjIvI asara pADI che, e keTalAnAM jIvanamAM otaprota banI gaI che, keTalI preraNArUpa thaI che, e gaNAya che. eTale zrImad rAjacaMdrane sAce paricaya meLavavA IcchanAra jijJAsue zrImaddanA paricayamAM AvelA mANase temanA pratye ke bhaktibhAva rAkhatAM hatAM, temane vize zuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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118 zrImada rAjacaMdra dhAratAM hatAM, temane kayA bhAve jatAM hatAM tathA temanAM jIvana upara zrImad rAjacaMdranI kevI asara paDI hatI e badhuM avazya jANavuM joIe. ahIM ApaNe zrImadanA sIdhA pratyakSa samAgamamAM AvelI vyaktiomAMthI jeTalA vize Aja sudhI je mAhitI upalabdha che ene TUMkamAM paricaya meLavIe. zrI dhArazIbhAI kuzaLacaMda saMghavI zrI dhArazIbhAI zrImadanA samAgamamAM kevI rIte AvyA e vize ApaNe AgaLa joI gayA chIe.* rAjakeTamAM e paricaya gADha banyA pachI dhArazIbhAI zrImane morabImAM anekavAra maLatA. teo baMne vacce patravyavahAra paNa thatuM hatuM. zrImade saM. 1948mAM muMbaIthI lakhele patra "manane laIne A badhuM che." vicAravA jevuM che. emAM zrImadda lakhe cheH "mahAtmAne deha be kAraNane laIne vidyamAnapaNe varte che. prArabbakama bhegavavAne arthe, jenA kalyANane arthe tathApi e baMnemAM te udAsapaNe udaya AvelI vartanAe vate che ema jANIe chIe." paMcAstikAya"nuM bhASAMtara zrImade kareluM te dhArazIbhAIne avagAhana arthe mokalatAM sAthenA patramAM zrImadda lakhe cheH * juo prakaraNa 5 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 119 he Arya! dravyAnuyeganuM phaLa sarva bhAvathI virAma pAmavArUpa saMyama che te A puruSanAM vacana tArA aMtaHkaraNamAM tuM kaI divasa zithila karIza nahi. vadhAre zuM ? samAdhinuM rahasya e ja che. sarva duHkhathI mukta thavAne ananya upAya e ja che." ema keTalAka patro zrImade dhArazIbhAIne lakhelA te "zrImad rAjacaMdra graMthamAM chapAyA che. saM. 1957nA caitra suda terasathI caitra vada cotha sudhI zrI dhArazIbhAI zrImanI AkharanI mAMdagImAM rAjakoTa mukAme zrImad pAse hAjara rahelA. caitra vada cothanI sAMje temane morabI javAnuM hovAthI temaNe zrImanI rajA mAgI. te vakhate zrImade vAraMvAra kahyuM: "utAvaLa che?" dhArazIbhAIe kahyuM: "be cAra divasamAM pAchA AvI jaIza. chevaTe zrImade kahyuM: "dhArazIbhAI! ghaNuM kahevAnuM che. avasara nathI. amArA samAgame traNa puruSe svarUpane pAmyA che. sebhAgabhAI, aMbAlAla tathA munizrI lallujI." bIje divase zrImaddanA avasAnanA samAcAra tArathI jANI teo bahu kheda pAmyA. zrImadda viraha temane vizeSa vedAye hate. . pachIthI dharmajijJAsA vadhatAM saM. 1961mAM dhaMdhukA mukAme zrI lallujI svAmIne maLyA. zrImade kahelI For Personal & Private Use Only

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120 zrImad rAjacaMdra aneka vAte temaNe munizrIne jaNAvI ane teonI pAsethI atyaMta vinayabhAve maMtranI AjJA meLavI. jIvananA aMtima varSamAM zrI dhArazIbhAI satsaMga arthe khaMbhAta AvI rahyA hatA. te vakhate zrI lallujI svAmInA sahayogI zrI mehanalAlajI munine samAgama temane be mahinA rahyo hate. ane nAranA vatanI bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAI paNa chellA ATha divasa pAse hatA. teo baMne dhArazIbhAInA samAdhi-maraNanA puruSArthane vAraMvAra vakhANatA. lagabhaga paMcotera varSanI uMmare saM. 1975nA mAgasara mAsamAM zrI dhArazIbhAIe khaMbhAtamAM samAdhipUrvaka deha choDyo hato. zrI jeThAbhAI ujamazIbhAI saMvata 1944mAM zrImad rAjacaMdra "mekSamALA chapAvavA amadAvAda AvyA hatA. te bAbatamAM salAha tathA madada mATe teo temanA eka snehIne bhalAmaNapatra zeTha jesaMgabhAI ujamazIbhAI upara laI AvyA hatA. te pramANe zeTha jezaMgabhAIe zrImadane sahAya karI hatI. e daramyAna zrImadune amadAvAdamAM ThIka ThIka rekAvAnuM thayuM hatuM. zeTha jesaMgabhAIne avAranavAra vyavasAyane aMge bahAragAma javAnuM thatuM, eTale pitAnI gerahAjarImAM temaNe pitAnA nAnA bhAI jUThAbhAIne zrImanI sarabharAmAM mUkyA hatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 121 A rIte zrI jUThAbhAI zrImanA paricayamAM AvyA. zrImad ghaNI vAra jUThAbhAInI dukAne jatA AvatA, tathA bIjAnA mananI vAta kahI batAvavAnA proga karatA, tethI temane tathA bIjA hAjara rahelA mANasone bahu Azcarya thatuM. zrImad bahu moTA vidvAna che ema jUThAbhAIne lAgatuM. paNa jUThAbhAIne AtmakalyANanI bhUkha te vakhate lAgelI nahi, tethI temane zrImaddanuM yathArtha oLakhANa thayeluM nahatuM. e arasAmAM zeTha dalapatabhAI bhagubhAIne vaMDe zrImade avadhAnanA prayoga paNa karI batAvyA hatA. e joIne jUThAbhAI zrImad tarapha vadhu AkarSAyA. ane zrImanI sarabharAmAM te rahevA lAgyA e daramyAna dhImedhIme paricaya vadhatuM gayo tema tema temane zrImanI sAcI mahattA samajAtI gaI ane pUrvanA saMskArone baLe AgaLa jatAM te zrImadunA samAgamathI sAcI AdhyAtmika jAgRti pAmI zakyA. eka vakhata zeTha dalapatabhAIne pustaka bhaMDAra jevA zrImad jUThAbhAInI sAthe gayA hatA. e vize jUThAbhAI e zeTha jesaMgabhAIne vAta karelI che. zrImada pustakonAM pAnAM mAtra pheravI jatA ane e pustakanuM rahasya samajI jatA. vavANiyA jaI AvI pharIthI saM. 1945mAM kArtika suda pUrNimAnA arasAmAM zrImadda amadAvAda AvyA hatA. ghaNA jijJAsuo temanI sAthe vArtAlApa karavA AvatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra te vakhate sAdhvIzrI divALIkhAI tyAM hatAM; temanI sAthe jUThAbhAI ane temanA kAkA kacaMdabhAI samakSa jJAna sa''dhI praznottara thatA. 122 jUDAbhAInA gADha paricayamAM AvyA pachI zrImad amadAvAda AvatA, tyAre temane tyAM ja UtaratA. jUThAbhAI zrImad sAthe merabImAM doDha be mAsa rahelA; eka vakhata zrImadnI sAthe bharUca paNa gayelA. patravyavahAra paNa dhanimitte temane paraspara thatA. juDAbhAInI zarIraprakRti A arasAmAM mAMdagIne lIdhe bahu narama rahetI; ane vairAgyavRtti paNa vamAna thatI jatI hatI. khabhAtathI eka vAra bhAI akhAlAla lAlacaMda ane eka e ` bhAI e keAI lagna prasaMge amadAvAda AvyA hatA. te sarakhI uMmaranA hAvAthI jUDAbhAI ne tyAM jatA-AvatA. varagheADA nIkaLavAnA hatA tyAre akhAlAlabhAI vagere jUThAbhAIne khelAvavA AvyA. te kahe, 'jUThAbhAI, cAleA varagheADAmAM jaI e.'te sAMbhaLIne cuvAna vaya chatAM svAbhAvika vairAgyazIla evA jUDAbhAI ne UmaLakA thayA nahi. e leAkeAne zrImadda vize kaI vAtA kahevAnI temane aMdarathI Urmi thaI AvI, paNa pAchuM mana kheMcI laI jUDAbhAI eTaluM ja melyA 'kAM pratikhaMdha karuM?' 6 e sAMbhaLIne te bhAIoe kahyuM: zuM kaheA che? amane samajAyuM nahi!" jUThAbhAInA vairAgyayukta vartAvanI chApa te bhAI e For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 123 upara paDI, tethI teo temanI pAse temane kahevAnuM heya e sAMbhaLavA beThA ane varaghoDAmAM na gayA. eTale jUThAbhAIe zrImad saMbaMdhI guNagrAma karyA ane temanA upara AvelA zrImanA patre e bhAIone vaMcAvyA. te bhAIoe tyAM ne tyAM e patronI nakala karI lIdhI. - lagna-nimitte amadAvAda AvelA, paNa jUThAbhAIne satasamAgame teone dharmanI laganI lAgI gaI. e bhAIomAM paNa zrImanAM darzana tema ja samAgama karavAnI abhilASA jAgI UThI ane e lokoe zrImane khaMbhAta padhAravA vinaMtI-patra paNa lakhI nAkhe. aMbAlAlabhAI vagere pachI zrImadanA nikaTa anuyAyI banyA e vAta AgaLa Avaze. jUThAbhAInuM zarIra saM. 1945-46 e chellAM be varSa rogagrasta raheluM. te prasaMge zrImade jUThAbhAIne lakhelA dharmadhyAna preranArA aneka patro temane bahu lAbhadAyaka ane jIvanapreraka nIvaDyA hatA. pariNAme "mokSa mAgane de evuM samyakatva temanA aMtaramAM prakANyuM hatuM. jUThAbhAInA avasAna saMbaMdhI saM. 1946nA vaizAkha suda trIjanA roja zrImadda lakhe cheH A upAdhimAM paDyA pachI je mAruM liMgadehajanyajJAnadarzana tevuM ja rahyuM hoya, yathArtha ja rahyuM hoya te jUThAbhAI asADa sudI nema gurunI rAtre samAdhizIta thaI A kSaNika jIvanane tyAga karI jaze, ema te jJAna For Personal & Private Use Only

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124 zrImad rAjacaMdra sUcave che.' avasAna sa``dhI zrI jUDAbhAI ne kahevA bhAI chaganalAla becaralAlane zrImadre agAuthI lakheluM hatuM. zrI jUThAbhAInI vairAgyadazA ane udAsInatA pragaTa chatAM temanAM kuTubIe temane samyajJAna thayuM che ema jANI zakelAM nahi. sa. 1946nA asADa suda ne!mane divase mAtra trevIsa varSanI vaye zrI jUThAbhAI kALadharma pAmyA. zrImade sa. 1946nA asADa suda dazamanA patramAM lakhyuM cheH 'liMgadehajanyajJAnamAM upAdhine lIdhe yatkiMcit phera thayA jaNAyA. pavitrAtmA jUThAbhAI uparanI tithie paNa divase svargavAsI thayAnA Aje khakhara maLyA.' zrImade AzvAsananA patramAM zrI jUThAbhAInI aMtara`ga dazA varNavI che te sarvane manana karavA ceAgya cheH 'e pAvana AtmAnA guNenuM zuM smaraNa karavuM? jyAM vismRtine avakAza nathI tyAM smRti thaI gaNAya ja kema? enuM laiAkika nAma ja dehadhArI dAkhala satya hatuM, e AtmadazArUpe khA vairAgya hatA. 6 mithyAvAsanA jenI bahu kSINa thaI hatI, vItarAganA paramarAgI hatA, saMsAraneA parama jugupsita hatA, bhaktinuM prAdhAnya jenA ataramAM sadAya prakAzita hatuM, samyak bhAvathI vedanIya ka veDhavAnI jenI adbhuta samatA hatI, meAhanIya karmInuM pramaLa jenA aMtaramAM bahu zUnya thayuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 125 hatuM, mumukSutA jenAmAM uttama prakAre dIpI nIkaLI hatI, eve e jUThAbhAIno pavitrAtmA Aje jagatano, A bhAgane tyAga karIne cAlyA gaye. A sahacArIothI mukta thaye. dharmanA pUrNallAdamAM AyuSya acituM pUrNa karyuM. "arere! evA dharmAtmAnuM TUMkuM jIvana A kALamAM heya e kaMI vadhAre AzcaryakAraka nathI. evA pavitrAtmAnI A kALamAM kyAMthI sthiti hoya? bIjA saMgIonAM evAM bhAgya kakyAMthI hoya ke AvA pavitrAmAnA darzanane lAbha adhika kALa temane thAya? mokSamArgane de evuM je samyakatva jenA aMtaramAM prakANyuM hatuM, evA pavitrAmA jUThAbhAIne namaskAra he! namaskAra he! ci. satyaparAyaNanA* svargavAsa sUcaka zabdo bhayaMkara che. evA ratnanuM lAMbuM jIvana paraMtu kALane poSAtuM nathI. dharmecchakane e ananya sahAyaka mAyAdevIne rahevA deve yogya na lAge; A AtmAne A jIvanane rAhasTika vizrAma kALanI prabaLa daSTie kheMcI lIdhe; jJAnadaSTithI zAkane avakAza nathI manAte; tathApi tenA uttamottama guNe tema karavAnI AjJA kare che, bahu smaraNa thAya che, vadhAre nathI lakhI zakate. satyaparAyaNanA samaraNArthe ane te eka zikSAgraMtha lakhavA vicAruM chuM. * zrI mad juThAbhAIne A nAme ghaNI vAra saMbodhatA hatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra * dharmamAM prasakta rahe e ja phrI phI bhalAmaNuM, 6 te jarUra sukhI satyaparAyaNanA mArganuM sevana karIzuM thaIzuM; pAra pAmIzuM, ema huM dhAruM chuM.' 126 3 sAyalAvALA zrI seAbhAgabhAI saurASTramAM 'bhagatanA gAma' tarIke jANItA sAyalA gAmamAM zrI lallubhAI nAme eka nAmAMkita zeTha rahetA hatA. prasaMgavazAt temanI dhanasa patti cAlI gaI eTale temaNe vicAra karyAM ke, 'mAravADanA sAdhu maMtravidyA vageremAM kuzaLa kahevAya che. temAMnA keAInI kRpAthI lakSmI pharI prApta thAya tevI tajavIja karavI.' ema vicArI te mAravADamAM gayA ane kAI prakhyAta sAdhune paricaya karI temane prasanna karyAM. ekAMtamAM peAtAnI sthiti jaNAvI peAtAnI dazA kaMIka sudhare teveA upAya batAvavA vina'tI karI. paraMtu te adhyAtmapremI sAdhue zeTha lallubhAI ne ghaNA ThapakA ApyA ane kahyuM, 'AvA vicakSaNa thaI tame tyAgI pAsethI AtmAnI vAta pAmavAnuM cheDI daI mAyAnI vAta kare che e tamane ghaTe nahi.' e sAdhunA abhiprAyane samajI javAthI lallubhAI e kahyuM: 'ApajI, mArI bhUla thaI! mArA AtmAnuM kalyANu thAya tevuM mane kaI batAveA.' temanA upara kRpA karIne te sAdhue 'bIjajJAna' tAvyuM; sAthe sAthe ema paNa jaNAvyuM ke, 'tamArI For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 127 yegyatA nathI, paNa kaI yogya puruSane tame Apaze to tene jJAnaprApti thaze." e bIjajJAna zeThe e pramANe bIjA koI yogya puruSane ApavAnuM kahIne pitAnA putra sebhAgabhAIne batAvyuM hatuM. eka vakhata kaMI kAma prasaMge bhAgabhAIne merabI javAnuM hatuM. te veLAe zrImad rAjacaMdra merabImAM hatA. eTale sabhAgabhAIe merabI jatI vakhate pitAnA pitA lalubhAIne kahyuM: "kavi rAyacaMdabhAI bahu lAyaka mANasa che ema AkhA kAThiyAvADamAM kahevAya che. teo hAla morabI che ane mAre morabI javAnuM che, te Apa kahe te temane huM "bIjajJAna" batAvuM." lallubhAIe hA pADI, eTale te morabI gayA tyAre zrImane maLavA gayA. te vakhate zrImad dukAne beThelA hatA. sebhAgabhAInA AvatAM pahelAM temaNe potAnA nirmaLa jJAnathI jANI lIdhuM ke bhAgabhAI nAmanA mANasa "bIjajJAna"nI vAta batAvavA mATe Ave che. eTale zrImade kAgaLanI eka kApalI upara sabhAgabhAI je kahevA AvatA hatA e badhuM lakhI nAkhyuM ane e kApalIne gAdI pAsenA gallAmAM mUkI dIdhI. sebhAgabhAI dukAna pAse AvyA, eTale zrImade emane AvakAra ApatAM kahyuM: "A sabhAgabhAI." sobhAgabhAIne navAI lAgI ke, mane zrImad For Personal & Private Use Only

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128 zrImada rAjacaMdra oLakhatA nathI ne nAma daIne mane zI rIte belAvyo? pachI sebhAgabhAI kaMI pUche e pahelAM zrImade kahyuM: "A gallAmAM eka kApelI che te kADhIne vAMce. sebhAgabhAIe gallAmAMthI kApalI kADhIne vAMcI I. te Azcaryacakita thaI gayA! emane thayuM ke, A kaI alaukika jJAna pAmelA mahApuruSa che. emane mAre zuM batAvavAnuM hoya? mAre UlaTuM temanI pAsethI vizeSa jJAna meLavavuM rahyuM. paraMtu temaNe zrImaddanA jJAnanI vadhAre karoTI karI jevA pUchayuM: "sAyalAmAM amArA gharanuM bAraNuM kaI dizAmAM che?" zrImade aMtara jJAnathI jANIne yathArtha uttara Ape, eTale sebhAgabhAIe sAnaMdAzcarya pAmIne kahyuM: "ApanuM jJAna kharekhara sAcuM che." pachI temaNe zrImadane bhaktibhAvapUrvaka traNa namaskAra karyA. te vakhate zrImad paNa keI apUrva samAdhimAM lIna thaI gayA. Ama prathama samAgamathI teo vacce aMtaHkaraNanI ekatA pragaTI. te prasaMge "taraNuM othe DuMgara re, DuMgara kaI dekhe nahi." e padano bhAvArtha samajAvI tRSNA nivAravAne bodha zrImade karyo hate. - A prathama meLApa pachI sebhAgabhAI sAyalA gayA. thoDA divasa bAda zeTha lallubhAIne deha chUTI gaye, tethI kuTuMbanirvAhanI ciMtA sebhAgabhAIne mAthe AvI paDI. e vakhate zrImade vavANiyAthI "kSaNamaja sagA saMtire mavati mavALaMvatara no." e lekavALe prathama patra For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 129 bhAgabhAI para lakhyuM che. pachI "parama AtmavivekasaMpanna zrI sebhAgabhAI evA saMbaMdhanathI ghaNe lAMbe bedhapatra bIje aThavADiye lakhele che, ema prathamathI ja bhAgabhAI upara patranI paraMparA ekasarakhI zarU thaI hatI. ja sebhAgabhAI paranA zrImadbhA patre vinA saMkece, laMbANathI ane meTI saMkhyAmAM lakhAyelA che. emAM zrImad pitAnI vyAvahArika upAdhi jaNAvIne e sAthe anubhavAtI addabhuta aMtaradazAnuM suMdara varNana kare che. taduparAMta sebhAgabhAIne paNa upAdhithI para rahI zAstra vAMcavA-vicAravAnuM tathA AtmA saMbaMdhI aneka prazno upasthita karI tenuM samAdhAna vicAravAnuM valaNa Ape che. kaccha najIka aMjAramAM bhAgabhAInI dukAna hatI. saM. 1946nA bIjA bhAdaravA vadamAM aMjAra jatAM sabhAgabhAI zrImadda sAthe morabImAM cAra pAMca divasa rahelA. aMjArathI vaLatAM vavANiyA traNa divasa rahI A vadamAM zrImadane pitAnI sAthe sAyalA laI gayA. tyAM zrImadda aThavADiyuM rekAI khaMbhAta gayA. sAyalAmAM zrI DuMgarazI gosaLiyA, laherAbhAI vagerene zrIma prathama samAgama thaze. Ama zrImadda ane sebhAgabhAI vacce gADha saMbaMdha baMdhAte gaye. sebhAgabhAI zrImathI cuMmALIsa varSe moTA hatA. eTale zrImadbhI vaya trevIsa varSanI hatI tyAre sebhAgabhAInI saDasaTha varSanI hatI. bhAgajI - sA - 9 For Personal & Private Use Only

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130 zrImada rAjacaMdra bhAInA khAsa mitra DuMgarazIbhAI gosaLiyA hatA. te sebhAgabhAIthI paNa moTA hatA. DuMgarazIbhAI bhAre buddhimAna tarkavAdI hatA. temaNe ga sAdhI camatkAre siddha karelA hatA. eTale saraLa, bheLA svabhAvanA sebhAgabhAIne temanA pratye jJAnI jevI zraddhA thaI hatI. paraMtu zrImadda sAthe temane patravyavahAra jema jema vadhate gaye ane pUjyabuddhi vardhamAna thatI gaI, tema tema emanAmAM sAcA jJAnane AvirbhAva thate gaye; ane zrImadda pratye pativratA jeTalI temanI parama bhakti thatAM gosaLiyA pratyenI mAnyatA dUra thaI gaI. sabhAgabhAI gosaLiyAne paNa kRpALudeva zrImaddanuM zaraNa svIkAravA vAre vAre kahetA. te vakhate DuMgarazIbhAI aneka tarko uThAvatA. paNa sebhAgabhAI namatuM ApatA nahi. Ama chatAM teo baMne sAthe maLIne ja zrImadanA patre vize vicAratA ane tatvacarcA karatA hatA. saM. 1947nA paryuSaNa para zrImad muMbaIthI rALaja AvyA, tyAre sebhAgabhAI tathA DuMgarazIbhAI gosaLiyA zrImadda sAthe rahyA hatA. DuMgarazIbhAI rALaja paMdara divasa rahI pAchA pharyA. sebhAgabhAI zrImad, vavANiyA gayA tyAre sAthe nIkaLI sAyale gayA hatA. e ja rIte saM. 151mAM khaMbhAta ane saM. 195ramAM kAviThA zrImadda jyAre AvyA tyAre paNa e baMne vRddha puruSa sAthe ja hatA. - bhAgabhAIne satsaMganI tIvra jhaMkhanA hatI temAM For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA * 131 Arthika muzkelI naDatI te TALavA mATe te zrImadane vAraMvAra lakhyA karatA. saM. 1949-50mAM zrImade ghaNuM patro dvArA Arthika lAcArI nahi karavAnuM samajAvI temane AtmArthamAM daDha karelA. pitAne upAdhithI chUTavA zuM karavuM ema zrImad puchAvatA, tenA javAbamAM tvarAthI saMsAra tyAgI mA prabhAvanA karavA teo baMne zrImadane vAraMvAra lakhatA. tenA khulAsArUpe zrImade pitAnI prArabdhasthiti, mArga prabhAvanAnI utkaMThA ane tyAganI tatparatA darzAvatA patro lakhelA che. saM. 1953nA kArtikamAM zrImadda naDiyAdathI vavANiyA padhAryA ane mAtuzrIne zarIre tAva AvatuM hatuM vagere kAraNe unALA sudhI tyAM ja rokAyA hatA. te daramiyAna bhAgabhAIne paNa tAva lAgu paDe te vize kArataka suda dazamanA patramAM zrImade emane lakhyuM hatuM ane AtmasiddhazAstra" vizeSa vicAravA jaNAvyuM hatuM. pachI saM. 1953nA vizAkhamAM dasa divasa sAyalA ane dasa divasa IDara zrImada bhAgabhAIne samAgamane lAbha ApI temane AtmAnA utkRSTa puruSArthamAM preryA hatA. chelI vakhate zrImadda sAyalA AvyA hatA, tyAre temane vaLAvavA jatAM rastAmAM nadI AvI. te vakhate sUryodaya thavA AvyuM hatuM. e veLAe sebhAgabhAI e zrImane kahyuM: "UgatA sUryanI sAkhe, nadInI sAkhe, sapuruSanI sAme A sebhAgyane ApanA sivAya bIjuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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131 raTaNa na hA! eka patramAM zrI seAbhAgabhAI sa. 1953nA jeTha suda caudazane ravivAre zrImadane lakhe cheH A kAgaLa chelle lakhI jaNAvu chu....have A pAmara sevaka upara badhI rIte Apa kRpASTi rAkhaze.... deha ane AtmA judA che. deha jaDa che, AtmA caitanya che. te cetananA bhAga pratyakSa judA samajamAM AvatA nahAtA. paNa dina ATha thayAM ApanI kRpAthI anubhavageAcara thaI ekATa judA dekhAya che. ane rAta divasa A caitanya ane A deha judA ema ApanI kRpAdRSTithI saheja thaI gayuM che; e Apane sahaja jaNAvavA lakhyuM che. ....vagara bhaNye, vagara zAstra vAMcce thADA vakhatamAM ApanA medhathI atha vagerenA ghaNA khulAsA thaI gayA che. je khulAse pacIsa varSa thAya evA nahAtA te gheADA vakhatamAM ApanI kRpAthI thayA che.' zrImade chevaTe traNa patro zrI seAbhAgabhAI upara lakhelA; te patra samAdhimaraNane icchanAra dareka mumukSue vicAravAceAgya che. e patro zrImad rAjacadra'mAM prasiddha thayA che. 6 zrI seAbhAgabhAInA deha sauM. 1953nA jeTha vada dazamane divase chUTo hatA. zrI seAbhAgabhAI vize zrImada lakhe che: 6 jIvane dehanA sabadha e ja rIte che. tema chatAM zrImad rAjacaMdra For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA. * 133 paNa anAdithI te dehane tyAgatAM jIva kheda pAmyA kare che, ane temAM daDha mehathI ekapaNAnI peThe varte che. janmamaraNAdi saMsAranuM mukhya bIja e ja che. zrI sabhAge tevA dehane tyAgatAM moTA munione durlabha evI nizcaLa asaMgatAthI nija upayogamaya dazA rAkhIne apUrva hita karyuM che, emAM saMzaya nathI.. - "A kSetre A kALamAM zrI bhAga jevA viralA puruSa maLe ema amane vAraMvAra bhAse che. zrI bhAganI saraLatA, paramArtha saMbaMdhI nizcaya, mumukSu pratye upakAratA Adi guNe vAraMvAra vicAravA lAgyA che." munizrI lallujI mahArAjane zrImad te veLAe lakhe che : Arya bhAganI aMtaraMgadazA ane dehamukta samayanI dazA he munio! tamAre vAraMvAra anuprekSA karavA gya che." zrImane samyakajJAnanI prApti hatI, chatAM mumukSu jInA satsaMganI bhAvanA vizeSa rahyA karatI. dhArmika praznonI carcAmAM zrI bhAgabhAI yathAzakti bhAga ApI zrImad pAse bahu sArA khulAsA karAvatA. bIjA mumukSuo zrImane kaMI kahevA mAgatA hoya te vayevRddha zrI sabhAgabhAI dvArA vinaMtI karAvatA; ane dayALu dilanA hevAthI te saraLa bhAve darekanI vAta rajU karatA. "zrI AtmasiddhizAstra" lakhavAnI preraNuM paNa zrI sabhAgabhAI e karelI ke, "cha padane patra" gadyamAM For Personal & Private Use Only

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134 zrImad rAjacaMdra hevAthI mukhapATha thatuM nathI, te te bhAvArthanuM padya heya te sarva mumukSuo upara mahA upakAra thAya. zrImada pitAnI hAthanoMdhamAM upakAra darzAvatAM lakhe cheH he jina vItarAga! tamane atyaMta bhaktithI namaskAra karuM chuM. tame A pAmara pratye anaMta anaMta upakAra karyo che. - "he kuMdakuMdAdi AcAryo! tamArAM vacane paNa svarUpAnusaMdhAnane vize A pAmarane parama upakArabhUta thayAM che. te mATe huM tamane atizaya bhaktithI namaskAra he zrI bhAga! tArA satsamAgamanA anugrahathI AtmadazAnuM smaraNa thayuM te arthe tane namaskAra che." - mahAtmA gAMdhIjI zrImad rAjacaMdranI asara mahAtmA gAMdhIjInA jIvana para prabaLa thaI che. gAMdhIjI e vize kahe che? ghaNAnAM jIvanamAMthI ghaNuM lIdhuM che. paNa sauthI vadhAre keInA jIvanamAMthI meM grahaNa karyuM hoya, te te kavizrInA jIvanamAMthI che." vaLI anya sthaLe teozrI lakhe cheH mArI upara traNa puruSoe UMDI chApa pADI che - TaoNlsTaoNya, raskina ane rAyacaMdabhAI TesTayanI temanA amuka pustaka dvArA ane temanI sAthenA thoDA patravyavahArathI; raskinanI tenA eka ja pustaka 'anaTu For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 135 dhisa lAsTathI, jenuM gujarAtI nAma "sarvodaya' meM rAkhyuM che, ane rAyacaMdabhAInI temanI sAthenA gADha paricayathI." eTaluM ja nahi paNa gAMdhIjI te eTale sudhI kahe "mArA jIvanamAM zrImad rAjacaMdranI chApa mukhyapaNe che. mahAtmA TaoNlsTaoNya tathA rasikana karatAM paNa zrImade mArA upara UMDI asara karI che." mahAtmA gAMdhIjInA AvA udgAre sAMbhaLIne zrImad rAjacaMdra jevI ucca vibhUtinA samAgamamAM gAMdhIjI zI rIte AvyA ane te kema vadhAre ne vadhAre gADha banate gaye e vize jANavAnuM ApaNane saheje mana thaI Ave. I. sa. 1891nA julAI mAsamAM gAMdhIjI jyAre vilAyatathI baeNrisTara thaIne hiMda pAchA pharyA, tyAre muMbaImAM temane utAre zrImadanA kAkAsasarA De. prANajIvanadAsa mahetAne tyAM hate. zrImadda e DaoN. prANajIvanadAsabhAInA vaDIla baMdhu zrI pipaTalAlabhAInA jamAI thAya. dAktare zrImadanI sAthe gAMdhIjInI oLakhANa prathama vAra karAvI ane kahyuM: "kavi chatAM ye amArI sAthe vepAramAM che. teo jJAnI che; zatAvadhAnI che." keIe te vakhate gAMdhIjIne sUcavyuM ke, "tame rAyacaMdabhAIne keTalAka zabda saMbhaLAve ane e zabda game te bhASAnA haze te paNa te ja kramamAM rAyacaMdabhAI pAchA kahI jaze." For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra gAMdhIjIne A sAMbhaLIne Azcarya thayuM. e prasaMga veLAnI pitAnI sthitine khyAla ApatAM gAMdhIjI kahe cheH | 'te juvAni, vilAyatathI Avele, mArA bhASAjJAnane paNa DeLa, mane vilAyatane pavana tyAre kaMI ocho na hato. vilAyatathI AvyA eTale UMcethI UtaryA. meM mAruM badhuM jJAna ThAlavyuM ane judI judI bhASAnA zabda prathama te meM lakhI kADhyA -kema ke mane kama kyAM yAda rahevAnuM hatuM. ane pachI te zabdo huM vAMcI gaye. te ja kamamAM rAyacaMdabhAIe haLavethI eka pachI eka badhA zabdo kahI dIdhA. huM rAjI thaye cakita thaye, ane kavinI smaraNazakti vize mAre UMce abhiprAya baMdhAye vilAyatane pavana haLa pADavA sAru A anubhava sarasa thayo gaNAya." : zrImad rAjacaMdrane aMgrejI jJAna bahu na hatuM. te vakhate temanI uMmara pacIsathI upara nahi hoya. temanI ane gAMdhIjInI uMmaramAM eka varasa ane dazeka mahinAne ja pharaka che. gAMdhIjIne janma saMvata 1925nA bhAdaravA vada bArasane divase thaye hato, jyAre zrImadana janma emanAthI pahelAM saMvata 1924nI kArtikI pUrNimAne divase thaye hatuM. Ama pitAnAthI thoDAka ja meTA ane gujarAtI zALAmAM sAtamA dhoraNa sudhIne ja abhyAsa karela evA zrImamAM ATalI vilakSaNa smaraNazakti, ATaluM jJAna ane ATaluM temanI Asa For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 137 pAsanA taraphathI mAna-e joIne gAMdhIjI temanA para mugdha banI gayA. A prasaMgathI gAMdhIjIne e vAtanI pratIti thaI ke, smaraNazakti nizALamAM nathI vecAtI; jJAna paNa nizALanI bahAra je icchA thAya-jijJAsA heya-te maLe; ane mAna pAmavAne sAru vilAyata ke kyAMya javuM nathI paDatuM. che . paraMtu ahIM eka vAta lakSamAM rAkhavA jevI che ke, zrImad rAjacaMdranI mAtra tIvra smaraNazakti joIne gAMdhIjIne temanA tarapha AdarabhAva utpanna thaye evuM kaMI nahotuM. AdarabhAvanuM kAraNa te bIjuM ja hatuM. Ama to ghaNAnI smaraNazakti tIvra hoya, tethI aMjAvAnI kazI jarUra nathI. zAstrajJAna paNa ghaNune hiya. paNa je te leke saMskArI na hoya, te temanI pAsethI phUTI badAma paNa nathI maLatI. saMskAra sArA hoya tyAM ja smaraNazakti ane zAstrajJAna meLApa zebhe ane jagatane bhAve. : - gAMdhIjIe te pahelI mulAkAte ja joI lIdhuM hatuM ke, zrImad nirmaLa cAritryazIla ane sAcA jJAnI hatA. temanuM zAstrajJAna, temanuM zuddha cAritrya ane temanI Atmadarzana karavAnI utkaTa dhagaza joIne ja gAMdhIjI temanA pratye AkarSAyA hatA. - gAMdhIjInI zrImad sAthe prathama oLakha thaI te vakhatanI gAMdhIjInI sthiti vize paNa jANavuM Avazyaka For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra che. e bAbatamAM gAMdhIjI pote ja lakhe cheH "ame prathama maLyA te veLAnI mArI AdhyAtmika sthiti kevaLa jijJAsunI hatI. ghaNA prazno vize manamAM zaMkA rahetI. te veLA dharma, hiMdu dharma, gItA vagere vize mane DuM jJAna hatuM. mAtApitA pAsethI saheje pAmyuM hatuM enI ahIM vAta nathI karatuM. meM mArA prayatnathI dharma vize bahu jANyuM hoya ema nahatuM. paNa mane dharma vize jANavAnI utkaMThA rahetI. tethI rAyacaMdabhAIno samAgama mane game, ne temanAM vacananI asara mArI upara paDI." temanI buddhine vize mane mAna hatuM. temanI prAmANikatA vize teTaluM ja hatuM. ne tethI huM jANata hatuM ke, teo mane irAdApUrvaka ADe raste nahi dore ne pitAnA manamAM haze evuM ja kaheze. AthI mArI AdhyAtmika bhIDamAM huM temane Azraya le." evI AdhyAtmika bhIDane eka mahattvane prasaMga gAMdhIjI jyAre dakSiNa AphrikAmAM hatA tyAre A hato. gAMdhIjInA keTalAka khristI mitre temane khristI thavA samajAvI rahyA hatA. te veLA gAMdhIjInA aMtaramAM dharmamaMthana jAgyuM hatuM. khristI dharmanuM avalokana karatAM gAMdhIjIne e dharma saMpUrNa athavA sarvoparI na lAge. temaNe pitAnA e aMgenA vicAre pitAnA khristI mitra samakSa rajU karyA. paraMtu teo gAMdhIjInA mananuM samAdhAna thAya e rIte eno ukela lAvI zakyA nahi. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 139 paraMtu te veLAe gAMdhIjI jema khristI dharmane svIkAra karI zakatA na hatA, tema hiMdu dharmanI saMpUrNatA vize athavA tenA sarvoparIpaNuM vize paNa nirNaya para AvI zakatA na hatA. hiMdu dharmanI truTIo temanI nejara AgaLa taryA karatI hatI. taduparAMta, jema khristI mitre temanA upara asara karavA mathI rahyA hatA, tema musalamAna mitrone paNa prayatna hatuM ke, gAMdhIjI IslAmane abhyAsa kare. teo temane e dharmanI khUbIo paNa avAranavAra samajAvavA mathatA hatA. - gAMdhIjI A badhI vastuthI mUMjhAI gayA! chevaTe temaNe pitAnI A musIbate zrImad AgaLa mUkI. temaNe hiMdustAnanA bIjA dharmazAstrIo sAthe paNa patravyavahAra calAvyuM. te lekenA javAba AvyA. paraMtu zrImaddanA patrathI temane kaMIka zAMti thaI. zrImad rAjacaMdra gAMdhIjIne dhIraja rAkhavA ne hiMdu dharmane UMDo abhyAsa karavA bhalAmaNa karI. vaLI zrImade keTalAMka pustako jevAM ke, "paMcIkaraNa, maNiratnamALA", "gavAsiSTha" pustakamAMnuM mumukSu prakaraNa vagere gAMdhIjIne vAMcavA-vicAravA mokalyAM. gAMdhIjIe e badhAM pustake mAnapUrvaka vAMcyAM. vaLI je kaMI vakhata bacate ene upayoga teo dhArmika vAMcanamAM karavA lAgyA. temaNe zrImadda sAthe patravyavahAra jArI rAkhyuM hatuM. zrImadda paNa temane yeAgya daravaNI For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra ApatA hatA. pariNAme gAMdhIjInA hiMdu dharma pratyene Adara vacce ane enI khUbI tee samajavA lAgyA. ahIM zrImad rAjaca'dranI udAra dRSTinu ApaNane preraka darzana thAya che. Ama te zrImada jaina darzanane anusaranArA hatA. paraMtu bIjA dharmo pratye temane anAdara nahAtA. zrImanuM jIvanadarzana vizALa ane udAra hatuM. amuka darzana, paMtha ke vADAmAM ja satya samAyuM che ema mAnavAne badale satya AtmAnubhavamAM ja raheluM che, evA zrImadnA abhiprAya hatA. sAthe sAthe aMtima anubhavane lagatI khAkhatA vizenA judAM judAM danA ke pravata keAnA matabhedonA niveDA aMtima anubhava thaye ja maLe, ane tyAM sudhI badhA sapradAyAnA zAstra graMthA upadeza-soAdha prApta karavA pUratAM vAMcavA-vicAravA, ema teo mAnatA hatA. eTale ja zrImad rAjacandre lakhyuM cheH 140 siddhAMtajJAna jinAgama ane vedAMtamAM paraspara bheda pAmatu' jovAmAM Ave che, ane te prakAra joI, mumukSu jIva dezeA-zakA pAme che. ane te zaMkA cittanuM asamAdhipaNuM kare che. evuM ghaNuM karIne khanavA ceAgya ja che. kAraNa ke, siddhAMtajJAna te jIvane kaI atyaMta ujjavaLa kSApakSame ane sadgurunA vacananI ArAdhanAe udbhave che. siddhAMtajJAnanuM kAraNa upadezajJAna che. sadguruthI ke satzAstrathI prathama jIvamAM e jJAna deDha thavu ghaTe che. ke je upadezajJAnanAM phaLa For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA vairAgya ane upazama che. vairAgya ane upazamanuM baLa vadhavAthI jIvane vize saheje upazamanuM nirmaLa paNuM thAya che ane saheja sahejamAM siddhAMtajJAna thavAnuM kAraNa thAya che. je jIvamAM asaMgadazAmAM Ave, te AtmasvarUpa samajavuM sAva sulabha thAya che. AvI vyApaka dharmadaSTivALA zrImad hovAthI gAMdhIjInI mUMjhavaNa barAbara pAmI zakyA hatA. ane emanA dharmasaMskArane anulakSIne ja emane zrImad mArga darzAvatA hatA. eTale ja gAMdhIjI sAthe dharma aMge carcA karatAM temaNe kaI divasa evuM kahyuM nathI ke, gAMdhIjIe mekSa meLavavA khAtara amuka dharmane avalaMba joIe. temaNe gAMdhIjIne pitAne AcAra samajavAnuM, pitAno aMtarAtmA je pramANe dare e pramANe jIvana vize vicAravAnuM ja kahyuM hatuM. zrImade sUcavelAM pustaka paNa mukhyatve hiMdu dharmanAM ja hatAM. kAraNa ke gAMdhIjI paNa hiMdu dharmanI khUbIo samajavA prayatna karatA hatA. tethI temanI mUMjhavaNa dUra thAya ane temane sAcuM mArgadarzana maLe e vAta lakSamAM rAkhIne ja zrImade temane daravaNI ApavAnuM rAkhyuM hatuM. A - je zrImanI jagyAe bIjuM kaI heta, te jijJAsunI AvI dharmasaMkaTanI veLAne lAbha uThAvIne enA mana para potAnAM maMtavya, mAnyatA ke vicArene jorazorathI ThokI besADavA ja teNe prayatna karyo hota, paraMtu zrImad vyApaka dharmadaSTivALA hatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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142 zrImad rAjacaMdra Ama, samaya jatAM gAMdhIjIne zrImad sAtheno pratyakSa paricaya gADha banate gaye hatuM. gAMdhIjI zrImad pratye AdaranA bhAvathI jotA hatA. dhImedhIme zrImad pratye emane bhaktibhAva paNa udbhavyuM hatuM ane emanA AdhyAtmika ane cAritryazIla jIvanane prabhAva gAMdhIjInA citta para eTale sudhI paDelo ke, ekavAra gAMdhIjIne paNa thayuM hatuM ke, "huM emane mArA guru banAvuM." zrI aMbAlAla lAlacaMda ApaNe AgaLa joI gayA chIe ke zrI jUThAbhAIe khaMbhAtanA zrI aMbAlAlabhAI vagerene zrImadanI vAta kahI hatI ane patro batAvyA hatA. aMbAlAlabhAI vagerene AthI zrImanAM darzana karI pratyakSa samAgamamAM AvavAnI tIvra IcchA thaI. zrI jUThAbhAIe teone salAha ApI ke, prathama zrImanI AjJA meLavyA bAda maLavA javAnuM rAkhaje. - khaMbhAta AvIne aMbAlAlabhAI vageree zrImadane muMbaI patra lakhI maLavA mATenI AjJA mAgI. pAMca cha patre pachI zrImade AvavAnI hA kahI, tyAre tribhavanabhAI sAthe aMbAlAlabhAI muMbaI gayA ane zrImadane maLyA. - tyAra bAda aMbAlAlabhAInI vinaMtIthI zrImadda saM. 1946nA Ase mAsamAM khaMbhAta AvyA. zrI lAlacaMdabhAI zrImane sthAnakavAsI upAzraye laI gayA. muni For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 143 zrI lallujI mahArAja vagere munione paNa zrImadane ahIM prathama paricaya thaye hate. aMbAlAlabhAI zrImathI be varSa nAnA hatA. te pUrvanA saMskArI, uttama kSayazamavALA, sevAbhAvI ane ekaniSTha bhaktivALA hatA. saM. 1946nA samAgama pachI temanuM jIvana zrImaddamaya banI gayuM hatuM. zrImad sAthe temane patravyavahAra niraMtara cAlu rahyo hate. zrImaddanA upadeza anusAra temaNe pitAne samaya gALI jIvanane zreyamArge vALyuM hatuM. dareka bAbata te zrImadane puchAvIne jema AjJA maLe tema karatA. e rIte beDA ja vakhatamAM aMbAlAlabhAI zrImanA eka aMtevAsI jevA banI gayA. zrImadda jyAre cAretaramAM AvatA tyAre te emanI sAthe rahI badhI vyavasthA karatA. zrImanI tema ja anya mumukSuo Ave temanI aMbAlAlabhAI tanamanadhanathI niSThApUrvaka sevA karatA. zrImadda je bedha kare te aMbAlAlabhAI ATha divase paNa akSarazaH lakhI zakatA evI temanI dhAraNAzakti zrImade vakhANI hatI. saM. 15ramAM kAviThA, rALaja, vaDavA, khaMbhAta, ANaMda, naDiyAda sthAne thayela zrImadane baMdha "upadezachAyA" nAme "zrImad rAjacaMdra graMthamAM prasiddha thaye che, e aMbAlAlabhAInI neMdha che je zrImadanI najara taLe AvI gayela che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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144 zrImada rAjacaMdra - naDiyAdamAM zrImanI sthiti hatI te vakhate eka divasa sAMje zrImade Atmasiddhi lakhavI zarU karI. eka dhArAe 142 gAthA deDhathI be kalAkamAM pUrI karI. te daramyAna aMbAlAlabhAI bAjumAM phAnasa dharIne UbhA rahyA hatA. zrImade enI cAra nakala karavAnuM ane yogya jIne mekalavAnuM aMbAlAlabhAIne kahyuM. . vaLI zrImaddanA patro jyAM jyAM hatA tyAMthI maMgAvI tenI nakala karavAnuM kAma paNa zrImadanI AjJAthI aMbAlAlabhAIe zarU karyuM hatuM. tenI nakala aMbAlAlabhAI karI rAkhatA ane je mumukSune mokalavAnuM zrImadda lakhI jaNAve tene ekalatA. zrImaddanA ghaNA patromAMthI adhyAtmalakhANanI noMdhanuM eka pustaka aMbAlAlabhAI e taiyAra karela, je zrImade pote joI keTalAka sudhArA vadhArA karI Apela che. - taduparAMta, saMskRta, mAgadhI, hiMdI, gujarAtInAM agatyanAM pustakanI nakala utArI levA mATe zrImad aMbAlAlabhAIne ekalatA e mujaba aMbAlAlabhAI te pustake utArI mumukSune AjJAnusAra vAMcavA mokalatA. - aMbAlAlabhAI dararoja sAmAyika laIne besatA ane lekhanakArya ekacitte karatA. te sAthe saMskRta tathA karmagraMtha vagere zAstrono abhyAsa paNa te karatA hatA. TUMkamAM kahIe te, aMbAlAlabhAI ghaNuM ja kAryadakSa, AjJAMkita ane AtmArthI hatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 15 saM. 157nA mahA-phAgaNamAM aMbAlAlabhAI pitAnA nAnAbhAI nagInadAsa maganalAla* sAthe vaDhavANa zrImanI sevAmAM eka mahine rahyA hatA. zrImade temane javAnI AjJA karI tene mAna ApI te khaMbhAta gayA. zrImadanA dehatsarga pachI aMbAlAlabhAIe vacanAmRta" chapAvavAmAM zrImadanA nAnA bhAI zrI manasukhabhAIne sahAya karI hatI. zrImanA avasAna bAda munizrI lallujI tathA aMbAlAlabhAI anya salAha laIne vartatA. saM. 158mAM aMbAlAlabhAI zrI lallujI munine samAgama karavA dakSiNa hiMdamAM karamALa gayelA. chevaTe plega lAgu paDavAthI aMbAlAlabhAI samAdhi sahita saM. 1963nA citra vada bArase khaMbhAta mukAme mAtra sADatrIsa varSanI vaye devaloka pAmyA. . munizrI lallujI mahArAja-laghurAja svAmI zrImane mana, vacana, kAyA arpaNa karI temanI AjJAmAM tanmayapaNe samagra jIvana gALI mokSamArgane udyota saphaLapaNe hoya to te munizrI lallujI (zrI laghurAja svAmI) ja hatA. zrI lallujIne janma bhAla pradezanA vaTAmaNa gAmamAM * aMbAlAlabhAInA pitAzrInuM nAma maganalAla hatuM. paraMtu temanA mAtAmaha lAlacaMdabhAIne putra nahi, eTale lAlacaMdabhAIe aMbAlAlabhAIne dattaka lIdhA hatA. eTale te aMbAlAla lAlacaMda e nAme oLakhAtA. jI - sA - 10

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146 zrImad rAjacaMdra saM. 1910nA Aso vada ekamane dine pratiSThita velANI bhAvasAra kuTuMbamAM thaye hate. pitAzrInuM nAma kRSNadAsa ane mAtuzrInuM nAma kasalAbA hatuM. janma pahelAM ja pitAnuM avasAna thayeluM ane cAra mAtAo vacce eka ja putra hovAthI ghaNuM lADathI te UcharelA. - thoDuM bhaNa temaNe zALA choDI dIdhI. yuvAvasthAmAM temaNe be vAra lagna karelAM, paNa putra thayela nahi. tyAM ekAeka temane pAMDuroga thayo. ghaNA upacAra karyo, paNa macyo nahi ane dharmanA saMskAra jAgyA, tethI saMkalpa karyo ke roga maTe te dIkSA levI. rega dUra thayo ane teo dIkSA levA tatpara thayA. paraMtu temanI mAtAe putra thAya pachI rajA ApavA jaNAvyuM. tyAra bAda putrane janma thaye ane te eka mahinAne thaye eTale devakaraNajI nAmanA pitAnA bhatrIjA sAthe saM. 1940mAM khaMbhAta mukAme zrI harakhacaMdajI muni hastaka dIkSA lIdhI. - dIkSA lIdhA pachI zAstranuM temaNe paThana pAThana karavA mAMDayuM tathA ekAMtarA upavAsa Adi ugra puruSArtha Adaryo. zrI lallujI vivekI ane vinayazIla hovAthI gurune tema ja anya sau sAdhuone mAnya gaNAtA. paraMtu temaNe je AtmAnI zAMti meLavavA dhArI hatI te maLI nahi tema ja zAstra vAMcatAM keTalIka zaMkAo UThatI tenuM samAdhAna thayuM nahi. ema pAMca varSa vyatIta thaI gayAM. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 147. ApaNe AgaLa joI gayA chIe ke, zrI jUThAbhAInI sAthe aMbAlAlabhAI vagere bhAIone paricaya thaye hatuM ane temanI pAsethI teoe zrImadbhA patre utArI lIdhA hatA. A bhAIe sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyanA hatA, tethI teo dararoja apAsare jatA ane koI ekAMta jagyAe besIne zrImadanA patro vAMcatA-vicAratA; paNa tyAM vyAkhyAna thatAM emAM jatA nahi. eka divasa aMbAlAlabhAI vagere bhAIo zrImanA patra vAMcatA hatA, tyAre khaMbhAta saMghADAnA mukhya AcArya zrI harakhacaMdajI mahArAja meDe vyAkhyAnamAM "bhagavatI sUtra" vAMcatA hatA ane nIce zrI lallujI mahArAja eka zAstra bhaNelA pATIdAra bhAI dAmodarabhAI sAthe uparathI vaMcAIne AvatAM "bhagavatI sUtra"nAM pAnAM vAMcatA hatA. temAM evI vAta AvI ke, "bhavasthiti pAke tyAre mekSa thAya che. A uparathI zrI lallujI mahArAjane AzaMkA gaI ke, "je ema ja heya te pachI mekSa mATe prayatna karavAnI zI jarUra che?" e AzaMkAne kAMI saMtoSakAraka khulAse temane maLyo nahi. e aMge te pelA bhAI sAthe vicAraNA karatA hatA, evAmAM temanI daSTi eka bAjue besIne vAta karatA aMbAlAlabhAI vagere tarapha paDI. eTale temaNe dharma nehathI Thapake ApatAM kahyuM: "tyAM beThA zuM kare che? upara vyAkhyAnamAM kema jatA nathI? upara jAo athavA For Personal & Private Use Only

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148 zrImad rAjacaMdra ahIM AvIne beso." e sAMbhaLIne teo badhA zrI lallujI mahArAja pAse jaIne beThA. ane "bhavasthitine prazna carcAte hato tene khulAse yathArtha na thA, tethI aMbAlAlabhAIe zrI lallujI mahArAjane zrImanI vAta karI ke, "teo sava AgamanA jJAtA che, uttama puruSa che; ane ahIM khaMbhAtamAM padhAravAnA che." zrI lallujI mahArAje jijJAsApUrvaka pUchayuM : "amane te puruSa sAthe meLApa karAvaze?" aMbAlAlabhAIe hA pADI. * zrImad rAjacaMdra saM. 1946mAM khaMbhAta padhAryA. temane utAre aMbAlAlabhAIne tyAM ja hatuM. te temane apAsare teDI gayA. tyAM zrImadane zrI harakhacaMdajI muni sAthe praznottara thayA ane badhAne temanA khulAsAthI zAMti thaI ane badhA zrImanI kuzAgra vizALa prajJAnI prazaMsA karavA lAgyA. zrI lallujIe zrI harakhacaMdajI mahArAjane pUchayuM : huM temanI pAsethI kaMI avadhAruM?" zrI harakhacaMdajI mahArAjanI AjJA maLI, eTale zrI lallujIe zrImane jeDe padhAravA vinaMtI karI. zrI lallujIe upara jaI zrImane uttama puruSa jANI namaskAra karyA. zrI lallujI zrImathI cauda varSa moTA hatA ane te vakhate zrImaddanI uMmara bAvIsa varSanI ja hatI. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanansAdhanA 149 Ama, zrImathI cauda varSe meTA, dhanADhya kuTuMbamAM ekanA eka putra chatAM sarvasva tyAga karI, bIjA traNa oLakhItA kuTuMbIo sAthe dIkSita, te vakhate khaMbhAtanA saMghADAmAM mAtra cAra ja sAdhue rahyA hatA tenI saMkhyA bamaNI karanAra ane vinayAdi guNothI AcAryane prasanna karI sarva sAdhuomAM pAMca cha varSamAM pradhAnapada pAmanAra, tema ja temanA dIkSita thayA pachI te saMghADAmAM cauda sAdhuo thaI javAthI sArAM pagalAMnA gaNAtA, maMgalakArI tathA bhadrika evA A AgevAna sAdhu zrI lallujI, mAtra bAvIsa ja varSanI vayanA, yuvAvasthAmAM praveza karanAra gRhasthane namaskAra kare e kaMI je te sAmAnya prasaMga na ja gaNAya. zrImade zrI lallujIne pUchayuM: "tamArI zI IcchA che?" zrI lallujIe vinayapUrvaka hAtha joDIne kahyuM: samakti (AtmAnI oLakhANa) ane brahmacaryanI dRDhatAnI mArI mAgaNe che." zrImad DIvAra mauna rahyA ane pachI kaheH "ThIka che." ema kahIne temaNe zrI lallujInA jamaNA pagane aMgUThe tANe tapAsI joye; ane UThIne teo nIce gayA. - ghera jatAM aMbAlAlabhAIne zrImade kahyuM: "A puruSa saMskArI che. A rekhA lakSaNe dharAvanAra puruSa saMsAre uttama pada pAme; dhameM AtmajJAnI muni thAya." bIje divase te zrI lallujI jAte ja aMbAlAla For Personal & Private Use Only

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150 zrImad rAjacaMdra bhAIne ghera zrImadbhA samAgama mATe AvyA tyAM ekAMtamAM zrImade temane pUchyuM: "tame amane mAna kema Ape che?" zrI lallujIe namratAthI kahyuM: "Apane dekhIne ati harSa-prema Ave che. jANe amArA pUrva bhavanA pitA che eTale badhe bhAva Ave che. koI prakArane bhaya rahetuM nathI. Apane jotAM evI nirbhayatA AtmAmAM Ave che." zrImadda khaMbhAtamAM sAta divasa rahyA. tyAM sudhI zrI lallujI re ja temanA samAgamane arthe temane utAre AvatA. pachI te zrI lallujI zrImane samAgama avAranavAra sAdhatA rahyA. zrI lallujInA ziSya gaNAtA zrI devakaraNajI paNa emanI sAthe zrImadane samAgama karavA lAgyA. te paNa zrImad pratye AkarSAvA lAgyA. zrImad pitAnI vyApArika pravRttimAMthI vacce vacce nivRtti laI zeDo vakhata ekAMtamAM gALavA muMbaI cheDIne jude jude sthaLe jatA, te vakhate zrI lallujI, zrI devakaraNajI vagere sAdhuo e arasAmAM te te sthaLe hatA athavA AvIne temane samAgama karatA, e ApaNe gayA prakaraNamAM joI gayA chIe. chevaTanA divase mAM zrImadda theDe vakhata amadAvAda hatA, tyAre temaNe zrI lallujIne bolAvIne ghaNI bhalAmaNa karI ane kahyuM ke, "amArAmAM ane vItarAgamAM bheda gaNaze nahi. tamAre keInI pAse javuM nahi. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 151 bIjA tamArI pAse Avaze. jaDabharata jevA thaIne vicarajo. tene eLagI jajo. A kALanA jIvA pAkA cIbhaDA duHSamakALa che, mATe riddhisiddhi pragaTaze jevA che, kaDakAza sahana karI zake tema nathI; tethI laghutA dhArI kalyANamUrti khanaze! te ghaNA jIvAnu kalyANu tamArA dvArA thaze.' zrImade khIjA mumukSuAne paNa munizrI lallujInA samAgama e be mAse karavA bhalAmaNa karI hatI. zrImaddanAM dehAtsaga nA samAcAra zrI lallujIne khIje divase savAre kAviThA mukAme maLyA, tyAre pAMcama upara chaThanA upavAsa karI gAma bahAra khetaramAM kAryAtsa mAM rahyA hatA. tyAra bAda dakSiNamAM karamALA, uttaramAM vaDAlI ane carotaramAM te cAturmAsa rahI vihAra karatA vicarelA. chevaTe jUnAgaDha, bagasarA rahI sa. 1974mAM nAra mukAme cAmAsuM karyuM. sa. 1975nI kArtika pUrNimAe te saMdezara padhAryAM. A be varSa daramyAna jyAM zrI lallujInA mukAma hAya tyAM dUradUrathI mumukSue temane samAgama karavA ekatra thatAM. temanA samAgamane lAbha nira'tara maLe e mATe eka Azrama najIka sthApavAmAM AvyeA. agAsa sTezana saM. 1980mAM zrI lallujI--laghurAja svAmI sametazikhara jaI AvI pUne cAturmAsa karavA padhAryA hatA. tyAM ghaNA mumukSue AvelA. te vakhate temaNe saune For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra kRpALudeva zrImad rAjacaMdranI mAnyatA para lAvI sAcA mA darzAvyA hatA. tyAra khAda dakSiNanI tI yAtrA karI be mahinA pethApura rahI caitra mAsamAM agAsa AzramamAM padhAryA hatA. tyAra pachInAM agiyAra cAmAsAM agAsa AzramamAM ja karyAM hatAM. chevaTe sa'. 1992nA vaizAkha suda AThamanI rAtre agAsa AzramamAM laghurAja svAmIe samAdhi sahita deha cheADayo. ahIM ApaNe zrImanA punita samAgamamAM AvelI thADIka vyaktie vize ja joI gayA. e uparathI zrImaddanA preraka samAgamathI, sadgurunI prAptithI mANasanA jIvanamAM kevuM AmUlAgra parivartana thAya che, tenA jIvanane kevA sAcA rAha prApta thAya che enA khyAla AvI zake che. zrImanA paricayamAM AvanArI vyaktie kharekhara bhAgyazALI ja gaNAya. kRpALudeve evI vyaktionA jIvanamAM kevA mahattvanA bhAga bhajavceA e aMgenAM saMsmaraNA vAMcatAM eka ja sUra manamAM gUMjI UThe cheH ahA! ahA! zrI sadguru, karuNAsiMdhu apAra; A pAmara para prabhu karyAM ahA! ahA! upakAra.' 6 (AtmasiddhizAstra, 124) 152 For Personal & Private Use Only

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13 zrImaddanA preraka prasaMgo mahApuruSanuM jIvana amRtanA strota samuM hoya che. saMsAranA duHkha-tApathI tapta banelA che e jharaNumAMthI amIpAna karI tRSA samAve che ane zAMti anubhave che. eTale AjubAjuthI mumukSu, mekSAthI, zreyArthI jane mahApuruSanuM, saMta-mahAtmAnuM zaraNa zodhatA hoya che ane pitAne mUMjhavatA praznonuM nirAkaraNa pAmatA hoya che. mahAvIra svAmI, bhagavAna buddha, Izu khrista, mahaMmada payagaMbara sAhebathI mAMDIne zrI rAmakRSNa paramahaMsa, mahAtmA gAMdhIjI sudhInA ekeeka payagaMbara, saMta, oliyA, mahApuruSa vagerenA jIvanamAM evA keTalAya prasaMge jovA maLe che jenuM vAcana-manana-ciMtana-avagAhana ApaNane preraNArUpa thaI paDe che. zrImad rAjacaMdrajInA jIvanamAMthI paNa evA keTalAya prasaMge jIvanane preraka ane mArgadarzaka thAya ema che. ahIM ApaNe evA thoDAka preraka prasaMgo joIe. e preraka prasaMge bedhakathAo -Parables- jevA sacoTa, For Personal & Private Use Only

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154 zrImad rAjacaMdra asarakAraka che. eka vAra zrImadda surata padhAryA hatA. tyAM zrI devakaraNajI vagere munie temanA sAmAgame gayA hatA. devakaraNajIe zrImane prazna pUchayoH zrI lallujI mahArAja mane, vyAkhyAna ApI AvuM tyAre abhimAna karyuM kahe che, dhyAna karuM chuM tene taraMgarUpa kahe che, te zuM vItarAga prabhu zrI lallujI mahArAjanuM kareluM svIkAre ane mAruM na svIkAre evA pakSapAtavALA haze?" zrImade zAMtithI uttara ApyuM: svacchedathI je je karavAmAM Ave che te saghaLuM abhimAna ja che, asatsAdhana che; ane sadagurunI AjJAthI je karavAmAM Ave che te kalyANakArI dharmarUpa satsAdhana che." zrImadda khaMbhAtamAM pahelI vAra sAta divasa rahyA hatA, te vakhate zrI lallujI mahArAja re ja zrImaddanA samAgamane arthe temane utAre jatA. eka divasa zrI lallujI mahArAje kahyuM: huM brahmacarya mATe pAMca varSathI ekAMtarA upavAsa karuM chuM ane dhyAna vagere karuM chuM. chatAM mAnasika pAlana barAbara thaI zakatuM nathI!" zrImad rAjacaMdra kahyuM: lekadaSTie (e badhuM) karavuM nahi. leka dekhAmaNa For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA 155 tapazcaryA karavI nahi. paNa svAdane tyAga thAya tema peTa UNuM rahe tema khAvuM. svAdiSTa bhajana hoya te bIjAne ApI devuM. zrI lallujI mahArAje eka vAra zrImane kahyuM: huM je je jouM chuM te bhrama che, jUThuM che, ema abhyAsa karuM chuM." zrImad kaheH AtmA che ema joyA kare." eka vAra zrImad kAviThA mukAme nivRttimAM rahyA hatA, tyAre munizrI mohanalAlajIe zrImadane pUchyuM: mana sthira rahetuM nathI, tene zuM upAya?" zrImad kaheH eka paLa paNa nakAmo kALa kADhave nahi. kaI sAruM pustaka, vairAgyAdinI vRddhi thAya tevuM, vAMcavuM vicAravuM. e kAMI na hoya te chevaTe mALA gaNavI. paNa je manane navaruM melaze te kSaNa vAramAM satyAnAza vALI de tevuM che. mATe tene sadavicArarUpa kherAka Apa. - "jema Dhorane kaMIne kaMI khAvAnuM joIe ja-khANane Topale AgaLa mUkyo hoya te te khAyA kare,-tema mananuM paNa che. bIjA vikalapa baMdha karavA hoya te tene savicArarUpa kherAka Apa. mana kahe tethI UlaTuM vartavuM, tene vaza thaI taNAI For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra 156 javuM nahi." zrImad vasamAM nivRtti arthe thoDA divasa rahyA hatA, te vakhate vasothI eka mAIla dUra AvelA carAmAM zrI lallujI vagere munio sAthe cheDe samaya gALI teone sadha ApatA hatA. eka divasa carAmAM zrI lallujI sAthe cAlatAM cAlatAM zrImad bAlyAH dharma aciMtya ciMtAmaNi svarUpa che." zrI lallujIe pUchyuM: "aciMtya ciMtAmaNi eTale zuM?" zrImad kaheH ciMtAmaNi ratna che, e citavyA pachI phaLa Ape che; citavavA jeTale temAM parizrama che. paraMtu dharma tya eTale temAM ciMtavavA jeTaluM paNa zrama nathI evuM aciMtya phaLa Ape che." eka divasa zrImade munizrI caturalAlajIne pUchyuM : tame saMyama grahaNa karyo tyArathI Aja sudhI zuM karyuM?" zrI caturalAlajIe kahyuM: "savAre cAnuM pAtra bharI lAvIe chIe te pIe chIe, te pachI chIMkaNI vaherI lAvIe chIe te sUMghIe chIe; pachI AhAranI vakhate AhArapANI vaherI lAvIe chIe te AhArapANa karyA pachI sUI rahIe chIe. sAMje pratikramaNa karIe chIe For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA ane rAtre sUI rahIe chIe.' : zrImade vinedamAM kahyuM cA ane chIMkaNI vaheArI lAvavI ane AhArapANI karI sUI rahevuM tenuM nAma dana, jJAna, cAritra?' pachI cAgya upadeza ApIne zrImadde zrI lallujI mahArAjane bhalAmaNa karatAM kahyuM : ' khIjA munione pramAda cheDAvI, bhaNavA tathA vAMcavAmAM, svAdhyAya dhyAna karavAmAM kALa vyatIta karAvavA ane tamAre sarvee divasamAM eka vakhata AhAra karavA; cA tathA chIMkaNI vinA kAraNe hamezAM lAvavI nahi. tamAre saMskRtane abhyAsa karavA.' eTale muni meAhanalAlajIe kahyuM : 'mahArAjazrI tathA zrI devakaraNajInI avasthA thaI che ane bhaNavAne joga kayAMthI ane?' 157 zrImada elyAH 6 caiAga khanI ALyethI abhyAsa karavA ane te thaI zake che. kemake vikTeriyA rANInI vRddha avasthA che, chatAM khIjA dezanI bhASAne abhyAsa kare che.' no eka veLA gAMdhIjI iMgleMDanA vaDA pradhAnanAM patnI misisa gleMDasTananI peAtAnA pati pratyenA premanI stuti zrImad AgaLa karavA lAgyA. gAMdhIjIe kayAMka vAMceluM AmanI sabhAmAM paNa misisa gleMDasTana peAtAnA patine cA banAvIne pAtAM. A vastunuM pAlana A niyamabaddha For Personal & Private Use Only

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158 zrImad rAjacaMdra daMpatInA jIvanane eka niyama thaI paDyo hate. zrImad A sAMbhaLIne kaheH emAM tamane mahattvanuM zuM lAge che? misisa glaeNDasTananuM patnIpaNuM ke tene sevAbhAva? je te bAI glaeNDasTananAM bahena heta te? athavA, tenI vaphAdAra nekara heta ne teTalA ja premathI cA Apata to? evI baheno, evI nokonAM daSTAMte ApaNane Aje nahi maLe? ane nArIjAtine badale e prema narajAtimAM je hota te tamane sAnaMdAzcarya na thAta? huM kahuM chuM te vicAraje." A prasaMga bAbatamAM gAMdhIjI lakhe cheH rAyacaMdabhAI pote vivAhita hatA. e veLA te mane temanuM vacana kaThera lAgeluM evuM smaraNa che. paNa te vacane mane lehacuMbakanI jema pakaDyo. puruSacAkaranI evI vaphAdArInI kiMmata patnInI vaphAdArI karatAM te hajAragaNuM caDe. pati patnI vacce aikya hoya, eTale temanI vacce prema hoya emAM Azcarya nathI. nekara zeTha vacce te prema keLavavuM paDe. divase divase kavinA vacananuM baLa mArI AgaLa vadhatuM jaNAyuM." muMbaImAM eka vAra zrImad rAjacaMdra ane gAMdhIjI dayAdharmanI vAta karatA hatA. cAmaDuM vAparavuM joIe ke nahi tene vicAra cAlato hato. chevaTe baMne evA mata para AvyA ke cAmaDA vinA te na ja calAvI For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 159 zakAya. khetI jevA udyoga te cAlavA ja joI e. paraMtu kaMI nahi te cAmaDuM mAthe teA naja paherIe. gAMdhIjIe jarA cakAsaNI karatAM zrImane pUchyuM': tamAre mAthe TopImAM zuM che?' zrImada peAte te AtmaciMtanamAM lIna rahenArA hatA. peAte zuM pahere che, zu eDhe che enA vicAra karavA besatA nahi. mAthe TopImAM cAmaDu' che e temaNe joyelu nahi. paNa gAMdhIjIe batAvyu ke turata zrImade TopImAMthI cAmaDuM teADI kADhayuM. A prasa`ga vize gAMdhIjI kahe che: 'mane kaMI ema nathI lAgatu ke mArI dalIla eTalI sajjaDa hatI ke temane sAMsarI UtarI gaI. temaNe te dalIla ja karI nahi. temaNe vicAyu' ke, AnA hetu sAre che, mArI upara pUjyabhAva rAkhe che, tenI sAthe carcA zuM kAma karuM? temaNe te turata cAmaDuM utArI nAkhyuM.' 'emAM ja mahApuruSanuM mahattva che. temanAmAM mithyAbhimAna nathI hotuM ema e batAve che. bALaka pAsethI paNa te zIkhI levAne taiyAra hoya che. meTA mANase nAnI khAkhatAmAM matabheda na rAkhe.' 9 muMbaImAM zrImanA eka vepArI paDeAzIe zrImadnA atizaya tathA svAdhyAyanA raMga dekhIne ekavAra pUchyu: tame AkhA divasa dharmanI dhUnamAM raheA che, te badhI cIjonA bajAramAM ze| bhAva thaze e pahelAMthI jANI For Personal & Private Use Only

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160 zrImad rAjacaMdra zakatA haze." zrImadda kaheH amAre dI UThaDyo nathI ke svAdhyAya bhAva jANavA karIe!" padamazIbhAI nAmanA eka kacchI bhAIe muMbaImAM zrImane pUcheluMH "sAhebajI, mane bhaya saMjJA vadhAre rahe che, tene zuM upAya?" zrImade sAme prazna pUchaH mukhya bhaya zAne varte che?" padamazIbhAIe kahyuM: "maraNane." eTale zrImad rAjacaMdra bolyA: te te AyuSyabaMdha pramANe thAya che. jyAre AyuSya pUrNa thatAM sudhI maraNa te nathI, tyAre nAnA prakAranA bhaya rAkhyAthI zuM thavAnuM hatuM? evuM dRDha mana rAkhavuM." 11 eka jijJAsue zrImane prazna karyoH pRthvIne zAstramAM sapATa kahI che ane hAlanA zeke geLa kahe che, temAM kharuM zuM ? zrImade sAme savAla pUchayoH "tamane sapATa hoya te phAyade ke goLa hoya te phAyado?" jijJAsue kahyuM: "huM e ja jANavA mAguM chuM." zrImade pUchayuM: "tame tIrthakara bhagavAnamAM zakti For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanansAdhanA 161 vadhAre mAne che ke hAlanA zedhaka mAM ?" jijJAsue jaNAvyuM: "tIrthakara bhagavAnamAM." zrImad kaheH tyAre tame tIrthakara bhagavAna para zraddhA rAkhe ane zaMkA kADhI nAkho. AtmAnuM kalyANa karaze te tamane pRthvI sapATa ke goLa, jevI haze tevI, kAMI harakata karaze nahi." che. ravajIbhAI devarAjajIe zrImadane prazna pUchayoH svarga, narakanI khAtarI zI?" zrImadda bolyA: naraka hoya ane tame na mAnatA he, te narake javAya tevAM kAma karavAthI keTaluM sAhasa kheDayuM kahevAya?" 13 khaMbhAtavALA zrI tribhavanadAsabhAI muMbaI jatA, tyAre zrImane samAgama karavA emane ghera javAnuM rAkhatA. eka vakhata zrImad pitAnI putrI kAzIbahena traNeka varSanI hatI tenI sAthe gammata karatAM pUche cheH "tuM koNa che?" kAzIbahene kahyuM: "huM kAzI chuM.' zrImad kaheH "nA, tuM AtmA che." kAzIbahena belI UThI: "nA, huM te kAzI chuM.' evAmAM zrI tribhavanadAsabhAI AvyA. zrImade temane kahyuM: jI - sA -11 For Personal & Private Use Only

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162 zrImad rAjacaMdra Ane hajI traNa varSa paNa pUrAM thayAM nathI. pitAnuM nAma "kAzI" pADayuM che enI samajaNanA saMskAre te DI mudatanA che; chatAM ene kahIe chIe ke tuM AtmA che, tyAre kahe che nA, huM te kAzI chuM. AvI bALadazA che!" 14. digaMbara paMDita zrI gopALadAsajI bariyAe eka vakhata zrImad digabara maMdiramAM svAdhyAya karatA hatA tyAre, vinaMtI karI: ""gamaTTasAra"nA anuvAdamAM je truTio jaNAya che, te pUrI karI deze?" zrImadda bolyAH "ame te zAstra mAtra AtmAne arthe vAMcIe chIe." 15 eka vakhata munizrI lallujIe vAtacItamAM zrImadane kahyuMH "meM sAdhanasaMpanna kuTuMba, vaibhava, vRddhamAtA, be bairI, eka putra Adine tyAga karI dIkSA lIdhI che." temanA tyAgane garva gALI nAkhavA zrImad taDUkIne bolI UThayAH "zuM tyAkhyuM che? eka ghara choDIne keTalAM ghara (zrAvakenAM) gaLe nAkhyAM che? e be strIne tyAga karI keTalI strIo pratye daSTi phare che? eka putra tyAgI keTalAM chokarAM pratye prIti thAya che? A sAMbhaLIne zrI lallujIne pitAnA doSa pragaTa dekhAyAthI eTalI badhI zarama AvI gaI ke jANe bhaya For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA mArga Ape te jamInamAM samAI jAuM! evI namratA pragaTatAM munizrIe zrImane kahyuM: "huM tyAgI nathI!" tyAM te zrImad rAjacaMdra belyAH muni, have tame tyAgI che." munizrI devakaraNajI zrImane prathama vAra maLyA, tyAre zrImane temaNe "sUyaDAMga sUtranA vIryAdhyayananI bAvIsatrevIsamI gAthA batAvIne kahyuM: "jyAM " " che tyAM " heya ane jyAM "4" che tyAM " " heya te artha barabara bese ema che, te A gAthAomAM lekhanadoSa che ke barAbara che?" je abuddhA mahAbhAgA vIrA asaMmattadaMsiNo / asuddhaM tesi parakkaMtaM saphalaM hoI savvA // je ya baddhA mahAbhAgA vIrA saMmattadaMsiNo / suddhaM tesiM parakkaMtaM aphalaM hoI savvaseA / / A gAthAo joIne zrImad kaheH lekhanadoSa nathI, barAbara che. tene bhAvArtha e che ke, mithyAdiSTinI kiyA "saphaLa" che, phaLe karIne sahita che, arthAt tene puNya-pApa (rUpI) phaLanuM besavApaNuM che. samyaka daSTinI kiyA "aphaLa" che, phaLa rahita che; tene phaLanuM besavApaNuM nathI arthAt nirjarA thAya che. ekanI (mithyASTinI) kriyAnuM saMsArahetuka saphaLapaNuM ane bIjAnI (samyakdaSTinI) kriyAnuM saMsArahetuka For Personal & Private Use Only

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164 zrImad rAjacaMdra aphaLapaNuM. ema paramArtha samajavA gya che." badhAne te artha pasaMda paDyo. ghaNA vakhatathI saMzaya rahyA karatuM hatuM tenuM samAdhAna thayuM. zrI devakaraNajIne paNa lAgyuM ke zrImad mahAbuddhizALI che ane zrI lallujI mahArAja kahetA hatA te sAcuM che. zrImadda eka divasa IDara pahADa uparanI eka vizALa zilA upara besIne zrI lallujI vagere sAta munie sAthe jJAnavArtA karatA hatA. te veLAe zrImade prazna rajU karyoH "ApaNe ATale UMce beThelA chIe ApaNane keI nIce rahelo mANasa dekhI zake?" zrI lallujI mahArAje kahyuM: "nA, na dekhI zake." eTale zrImada kahe: 'tema ja nIcenI dazAvALa jIva UMcI dazAvALA jJAnInuM svarUpa jema che tema jANI zakatuM nathI. paNa yegyatA prApta thAya, ane ucca dazAmAM Ave te dekhI zake." eka vAra munizrI mehanalAlajIe zrImadane pUchayuM: amane kaI pUche ke pratikramaNa karyuM kare che, tyAre amAre zuM kahevuM?" zrImadda bolyAH tamAre kahevuM ke pApathI nivRtta thavuM e amAruM pratikramaNa che." For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 165 morabIne vatanI lallu nAmane kara ghaNAM varSa zrImane tyAM kAme rahyo hato. muMbaImAM tene gAMTha nIkaLI hatI. zrImadda tenI jAte sAravAra karatA. pitAnA kheALAmAM tenuM mAthuM mUkI aMta vakhata sudhI tenI sArasaMbhALa temaNe lIdhI hatI. eka vakhata zrImade vAtacIta karatAM kaheluM: jyAre zeTha nekara tarIke pagArathI rAkhe che, tyAre te zeTha nekaranA pagAra karatAM vadhAre kAma levAnI buddhi rAkhe che. nekara rahenAra mANasa garIba sthitimAM hovAthI te bicAre vepAra Adi karI zakatuM nathI. joke te mANasa vepAra Adi karI zake tema che, paraMtu paisAnuM sAdhana nahi hevAthI nekarI kare che. "zeTha nekara pAsethI pagAra karatAM vizeSa lAbha meLavavA buddhi rAkhe, te te zeTha te nekara karatAM paNa bhIkha mAganAra jevo pAmara gaNAya. zeTha je nekara pratye evI bhAvanA rAkhe ke A paNa mArA jevuM thAya, tene zeTha ghaTatI sahAya Ape, tenA para kAmane ghaNe je hoya te te vakhate kAmamAM madada Ape vagere dayAnI lAgaNuM heya, te zeTha zreSTha gaNAya." eka divasa sAMje vALu karIne zrImad rAjacaMdra zeTha tribhuvanadAsa bhANajI sAthe muMbaInA carcageTa vistAramAM AvelA baeNnDa-sTenDa tarapha pharavA gayA hatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra tyAM keTalIka dharmacarcA thayA bAda tribhuvanadAsabhAIe prazna pUchayoH eka jenanuM prAmANikapaNuM kevuM hovuM joIe? tenA javAbamAM zrImade najIkamAM AvelI muMbaInI hAIkeTane bhUraja batAvIne kahyuM: pelI dUra je hAI korTa dekhAya che, tenI aMdara besanAra jajanuM prAmANikapaNuM jevuM hoya tenA karatAM eka jainanuM prAmANikapaNuM ochuM te na ja hovuM joIe. matalaba ke enuM prAmANikapaNuM eTaluM badhuM vizALa hovuM joIe ke te saMbaMdhI keIne zaMkA paNa na thavI joIe, eTaluM ja nahi paNa te aprAmANika che ema kaI kahe te sAMbhaLanAra te vAta sAcI paNa na mAne, evuM tenuM prAmANikapaNuM sarvatra jANItuM hovuM joIe. 21 eka vakhata zeTha tribhuvanabhAI zrI mANekalAla vagere jamavA beThA hatA. zrImadda paNa e leke sAthe jamavAmAM hatA. prathama judI judI jAtanAM zAka pIrasavAmAM AvyAM. eka gRhastha tithinuM kAraNa batAvI zAka levAnI nA kahI. rAItuM pIrasAtAM temAM dvidalane kAraNe nA pADI. pachI bIjI keTalIka paracUraNa vastuo pIrasavAmAM AvI. temAMnI keTalIka lIdhI ane keTalIka na lIdhI. chevaTe dUdhapAka pIrasAvA lAgyuM. te gRhasthanI thALImAM pIrasAtuM hatuM tyAM te ene aTakAvIne For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 167. zrImad belyAH emane dUdhapAka pIrasave rahevA de. emane nAnInAnI vastuone tyAgI pitAnI mahattA vadhAravI che, paNa kharekharI rasapaSaka vastuno tyAga kare nathI!" 22 eka divasa keTalAka bhAIe zrImadda sAthe nIce gAdI para besIne dharmacarcA karatA hatA. te vakhate dAmanagaranA eka vaNika zeTha ArAma khurazI para paDyApaDayA bIDI pItA hatA. teNe tyAM beThAM beThAM kaMI tukko sUjhatAM zrImane pUchayuM: rAyacaMdabhAI, mekSa kema maLe?" zrImad belyAH tame atyAre je sthitimAM beThA cho te ja sthitimAM hAtha ke paga kaI paNa halAvyA calAvyA vagara sthira thaI jAo te tamAre ahIMthI sIdhe mokSa thaI jaze." A sAMbhaLIne te zeTha sAheba saphALA UbhA thaI gayA ane bIDI bahAra nAkhI daI zrImadda pAse AvIne dharmavArtA sAMbhaLavA besI gayA. eka vAra kAviThAvALA zA. jhaverabhAI bhagavAnabhAIe zrImane pUchayuM: "samakitI* kema karIne oLakhAya?" * jene samakti -samyagdarzana - AtmajJAna thayuM che evI vyakti. For Personal & Private Use Only

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138 zrImad kaheH oLakhavA mATe jJAnane ghaNe! khapa che ane cittanI nirmaLatA joI e.' 24 6 eka vAra zrI vrajabhAI gaMgAdAsa paTela kAviThAthI uttarasa'DA zrImanA upadeza sAMbhaLavA ane temanAM darzana upadeza sAMbhaLavA AvelA gAmanA pATIdAroe peAtAnI khAjumAM beThelA vrajabhAIne pUchyuM': 'A kANu che?' karavA AvyA hatA. vrajabhAI e kahyuM: 'vavANiyAnA zeTha che.' A vAtanI kANu jANe kema zrImane khabara paDI gaI. zrImade vrajabhAI ne pAse kheAlAvIne pUchyuM : tame zuM kahyuM?' vrajabhAI ne tarata ja potAnI bhUlanuM bhAna thayuM. zrImad jevA AdhyAtmika puruSanI A rIte eLakhANa na apAya e temane samajAyuM. te mAphI mAgatA khelyA : 'huM bhUlyA !' 25 eka vAra zrImade vrajabhAIne pUchyuM: 'tamane kayuM zAka vadhAre bhAve che?' vrajabhAI e kahyuM: vAlapApaDI.' 6 zrImad rAjacaMdra 6 zrImad kahe: vAlapApaDI AkhI jiMdagI sudhI khAvI nahi.' For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA zrImadda saM. 15ramAM piTalAdathI kAviThA padhAryA hatA. eka divasa jhavera zeThane meDe zrI prAgajIbhAI nAmanA eka bhAIe zrImane bedha sAMbhaLIne zrImane kahyuM: bhakti te ghaNIce karavI che. paNa peTa bhagavAne ApyuM che te khAvAnuM mAge che, tethI zuM karIe? lAcAra chIe!" zrImade pUchyuM: tamArA peTane ame javAba daIe to?" ema kahIne zrImade jhavera zeThane bhalAmaNa karatAM kahyuM: tame je bhojana karatA ho, te emane be vakhata Apaje ne pANInI maTakI Apaje ane A apAsarAnA meDA upara beThAbeThA bhakti kare; paNa zarata eTalI ke nIce koIne varagheDe jAte heya athavA bairAM gIta gAtAM jatAM hoya, to paNa bahAra javuM nahi. saMsAranI vAta na karavI. keI bhakti karavA Ave te bhale Ave, paNa bIjI kaMI vAtacIta karavI nahi. tema sAMbhaLavI nahi." prAgajIbhAI e sAMbhaLIne belI UThayAH e pramANe te amArAthI rahevAya nahi!" eTale zrImadda bolyAH A jIvane bhakti karavI nathI, eTale peTa AgaLa dhare che. bhakti karatAM ke bhUkhe marI gaye? jIva Ama chetarAya che!" For Personal & Private Use Only

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170 27 iDaranA pahADa upara zrImad sAta muniene jJAnavArtA kahetA hatA, te vakhate eka divasa zrImadnA adbhuta vairAgyapreraka upadeza sAMbhaLIne AtmallAsa anubhavIne zrI devakaraNajI khelI UcA : 'have amAre gAmamAM javAnI jarUra ja zI che?' zrImadda kahe: 'tamane kANu kahe che ke gAmamAM jAe ?' zrI devakaraNujIe kahyuM : 'zuM karIe? peTa paDayuM che! e sAMbhaLIne zrImad khelyAH muniene peTa che te jagatanA kalyANa arthe che. munine peTa na heAta, tA gAmamAM nahi jatAM pahADanI guDhDhAmAM vasI kevaLa vItarAga bhAve rahI jagalamAM vicarata. tethI jagatanA kalyANurUpa thaI zakata nahi. tethI muninuM peTa jagatanA hitArthe che.' 28 eka vakhate kAviThAnA nizALiyAe vagaDAmAM bedha sAMbhaLavA AvyA hatA. zrImade tene pUchyuM. chekarAe, eka prazna pRSTha chuM, tenA javAba tame Apaze? zrImad rAjacaMdra : chekarAoe kahyuM : 'hAjI' leATA hoya ane bIjA ane tamane mArge jatAM zrImadda kahe: 'tamArA eka hAthamAM chAzane bharelA hAthamAM ghI bhareleA leTA hoya; kAI nA dhakko vAge teA te vakhate For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 171 tame kyA hAthanA leTAne jALavaze?" | gIradhara nAmane chokare beH "ghIne leTe sAcavIzuM." - zrImad kaheH "kema? ghI ane chAza te ekamAMthI utpanna thAya che ne?" chokare kahyuM: "chAza DhaLI jAya te ghaNAye pherA kaI bharI Ape, paNa ghIne leTa keI bharI Ape nahi." e parathI zrImad sAra samajAvatA bolyAH "chAzanA je A deha che, tene A jIva sAcave che, ane ghInI mAphaka AtmA che, tene jAte kare che. evI avaLI samajaNavALo A jIva che. paNa je AtmAne ghInI tulya mUlyavAna jANe te AtmAne paNa sAcave; ane AMca Ave tyAre chAzanI mAphaka dehane jate kare. kAraNa deha te enI meLe ja maLavAne che. karma upArjana thayAM eTale te bhogavavA rUpe deha te maktane ja maLavAnuM che." eka vakhata zrImadda sAyalAthI sigarAmamAM besIne nIkaLyA. sAthe zrI bhAgabhAIne bhANeja ThAkarazIbhAI ane zrI DuMgarazIbhAI gesaLiyA hatA. zrImade DuMgarazIbhAIne kahyuM: "kema DuMgarabhAI, tame sebhAgabhAIne kaheluM te amane jaNAvatA hatA ke, "jJAna hoya tene nANuM na hoya, tenuM kema?" DuMgarazIbhAIe javAba ApeH "have te te kaMI For Personal & Private Use Only

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172 zrImad rAjacaMdra jaNAtuM nathI. ApanI pAse jJAna che ane nANuM paNa che." pachI jhaverAtanI peTImAMthI zrImada DuMgarazIbhAIne jhaverAta batAvavA lAgyA. raste khADATekarAmAM sigarAma hAlakaDolaka thatuM hatuM, tethI kImatI hIrA, motI ke jhINA naMga paDI jaze te hAtha nahi lAge e bhaya pradarzita karIne zrI DuMgarazIbhAI e zrImane jhaverAta na kADhavAnI vinaMtI karI. eTale zrImad kaheH "amAruM kyAMya javAnuM nathI. tame ciMtA na kare." ema kahIne badhuM jhaverAta batAvavA lAgyA ane teo belyAH "jene AtmajJAna che tene jhaverAtanI parIkSA thavI sahela che." - 30. zrImadda saM. 1954mAM kheDA padhAryA hatA. rAvabahAdura narasIrAmanA baMgalAmAM temane nivAsa rAkhavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. tyAM eka divasa paMDita pUjAbhAI somezvara bhaTTa zrImad pAse AvyA hatA. te veLAe zrImadda eka pustaka vAMcI rahyA hatA. e pustakamAMthI eka bleka temaNe pUjAbhAIne vAraMvAra kahI batAvyuM. e zlokane bhAvArtha e hate. mAruM citta evuM zAMta thaI jAo, mArA cittanI vRttio eTale darajaje zAMta thaI jAo ke kaI mRga paNa enAM zIMga mane ghase, mane joI nAsI na jAya." For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 173 A prasaMga zrImad AnaMdapUrvaka samajAvatA hatA, evAmAM rAvabahAdura narasIrAmabhAI tyAM AvI caDyA. - narasIrAmabhAI vedAMtI hatA. zrImad paNa vedAMtamAM mAnatA haze ema mAnIne temaNe AtmAnA abheda saMbaMdhI carcA upADI; ane abhedatA upara vivecana karavA mAMDyuM. zrImade na te rAvabahAduranA kahevAnuM anumedana ApyuM ke na kAMI vidha darzAvya, mAtra teo cUpa ja rahyA. zrI pUjAbhAI zrImane Azaya samajI gayA ke, je vRddha vaDIla puruSanA baMgalAmAM pote UtaryA che temane mAThuM lAge tevuM kAMI na bolAya te sAruM e zrIma bhAva hate. 3 * gujarAtanA eka agragaNya samAja sudhAraka zrI mahIpatarAma rUparAma ema mAnatA hatA ke, jainadharmathI bhAratavarSanI adhogati thaI che. eka vAra zrImadda sAthe temane meLApa thaye. zrImade pUchayuM: "bhAI, jainadharma ahiMsA, satya, saM5, dayA, sattAnukaMpA, sarvaprANahita, paramArtha, paropakAra, nyAya, nIti, Arogyaprada AhArapAna, nirvyasana, udyama Adine bodha kare che?" mahIpatarAma : "hA." * A prasaMga zrI manasukhabhAI kIratacaMdanI noMdha parathI lIdhe che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra zrImad bhAI jainadharma hiMsA, asatya, cArI, kusa pa, krUratA, svA parAyaNatA, anIti, anyAya, chaLakapaTa, viruddha AhAravihAra, meAjazekha, viSayalAlasA, ALasa, pramAda Adine niSedha kare che?' 174 ' mahIpatarAma: 'hA.' zrImad: 'kahe, dezanI adheAgati zAthI thAya ? ahiMsA, satya, sa`pa, dayA, paropakAra, paramArtha, sattvAnukapA, savaprANIhita, nyAya, nIti, AreAgya Ape ane rakSe evAM zuddha AhArapAna, nirvyasana, udyama AdithI ke tethI UlaTAM hiMsA, asatya, kusapa, krUratA, svArtha paTutA, chaLakapaTa, anIti, Arogya bagaDe ane zarIra-manane azakta kare evAM viruddha AhAravihAra, vyasana, meAjazeAkha, ALasa, pramAda AdithI? ' mahIpatarAma : 'bIjA'thI arthAt ahiMsA, satya AdithI UlaTAM evAM hiMsA, asatya AdithI.' zrImad tyAre dezanI unnati e bIjAthI UlaTAM evAM ahiMsA, satya, niSyasana, udyama, saMpa AdithI thAya ?' mahIpatarAma : 'hA.' zrImadH tyAre jainadhama dezanI adhogati thAya evA bedha kare che ke unnati thAya evA' " mahIpatarAma: bhAI, huM kabUla karu chuM ke jainadharma jethI dezanI unnati thAya evAM sAdhanAne medha kare che. AvI sUkSmatAthI vivekapUrvaka me' kadI vicAra For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 175 karyo na hate. amane te nAnapaNamAM pAdarInI zALAmAM zIkhatAM saMskAra thayelA, tethI vagara vicAre ame kahI dIdhuM; lakhI mAyuM!" 32 eka divasa zrI ThAkarazIbhAI laheracaMda zAhe zrImanI niMdA thatI kyAMka sAMbhaLI. eTale sAMje pharavA jatAM raste temaNe zrImadane e vize kahyuM. e sAMbhaLIne zrImada belyAH duniyA te sadAya evI ja che. jJAnIo jIvatA heya tyAre koI oLakhe nahi; te eTale sudhI ke jJAnIne mAthe lAkaDIonA mAra paDe toya thoDA. ane jJAnI muA pachI tenA nAmanA pahANane paNa pUje." For Personal & Private Use Only

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14 zrImanI amRta prasAdI zrImad rAjacaMdranuM samagra jIvana ApaNane preraNAdAyI che ja. paraMtu temanI Atmika AtyaMtara avasthAne nicoDa te temanAM preraka lakhANomAM ja mUrta svarUpa pAme che. e ja kRpALudevanI amRta prasAdI samAna che. emane jIvanasaMdeza jIvanamAM utAravA mATe emanAM vipula lakhANanuM niSThApUrvaka nitya manana ane anuzIlana karavuM joIe. zrImanAM lakhANone "zrImad rAjacaMdra nAmanA bRhada graMthamAM ekatrita karavAmAM AvyAM che. temAM vayAnukrame zrImanuM samasta AMtara jIvana ApaNI AgaLa tAdaza khaDuM thAya che. ApaNI bhASAmAM, keI sAdhakanA AMtara jIvananI noMdhonAM AvAM pustako bahu ochAM che. e daSTie "zrImad rAjacaMdra bRhada graMtha ApaNuM sAhityamAM agatyanuM anekhuM sthAna prApta kare che. zrImadanI svataMtra kRtio, anuvAdAtmaka kRtio, jijJAsuone teonA praznonA uttararUpe athavA anya For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 177 prasaMge lakhAyelAM lakhANe ke patra, tathA ApameLe ciMtana karatAM noMdharUpe lakhAyAM heya agara temanA upadezamAMthI janmyAM hoya tevAM lakhANoe saune A graMthamAM ekaThAM karelAM che. e sau lakhANone sAco paricaya meLavavA mATe e bRhada graMthanuM anuzIlana karavuM jarUrI che. ahIM te mAtra e sau lakhANene TUMka paricaya ja ApavA prayatna karIzuM. zrImanAM sau lakhANone nIce pramANe vaheMcI zakAya ? 1. mumukSuo pratye lakhAyelA patre; 2. svataMtra kAvya; 3. mekSamALA, bhAvanAbedha, AtmasiddhizAstra e traNa svataMtra graMtha; 4. munisamAgama, pratimAsiddhi Adi svataMtra lekhe; 5. strInItibodha vibhAga-1, puSpamALA, bodhavacana, vacanAmRta, mahAnIti Adi svataMtra bodhavacana mALAo; 6. paMcAstikAya graMthanuM gujarAtI bhASAMtara; 7. zrI ratnakaraMDa zrAvakAcAramAMthI traNa bhAvanAone anuvAda tathA svarodayajJAna, dravyasaMgraha, dazavaikAlika Adi graMthomAMthI keTalIka gAthAonuM bhASAMtara; AnaMdaghana cevIzImAMthI keTalAMka stavananA artha 8. vedAMta ane jaina darzana saMbaMdhI ne; 9. upadeza-noMdha, upadezachAyA, vyAkhyAnasAra 1-2 (mumukSuoe lIdhelI noMdha); jI - sA - 12 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra 10. traNa hAtha-nAMdhA--AbhyaMtara pariNAma avaleAkana ityAdi. 17 A vividha sAmagrImAMthI zarUAtamAM ApaNe zrImade racelAM svataMtra pustakAnA paricaya vayAnukrame karIzuM. skrInItikheAdha vibhAga-1': zrImadde sALa sALa varSa pahelAM lakhelAM lakhANeAmAMnuM A prathama pustaka che. tenI prastAvanAmAM zrImade, strIkeLavaNI vadhatI jAya enI sAthe vAMcavAnA zeAkha vadhe tene mATe, strIone ceAgya sArAM pustakA lakhavA vidvAneAne vina Mti karI che; jUnA vicAranA leAkeAnA strIkeLavaNI sAme mukAtA AkSepe dUra karyA che; te vakhate chapAyelAM strIene vAMcavA ceAgya pAMcasAta pustakanAM nAma ApyAM che; tathA strIone nahi sudharavAnuM kAraNa khALalagna, kajoDAM, vahema ane ajJAna che ema jaNAvI mALalagnanI hAni vicAravA vinati karI che. strIomAM gavAtA rAgamAM, gIta, dheALa ane garabAnI paddhati pramANe cAra bhAga pADI te pustakanuM AyeAjana karavAmAM Avyu che. zrImadde 'strInItibeAdha'nA traNa vibhAga lakhavAnuM vicAryuM hatuM. paNa bIjA be vibhAga lakhAyA jaNAtA nathI. 'strInItikhAdha vibhAga-1'ne aMte zrImade jAherakhabaramAM lakhyuM che ke, kAvyamALA' e nAmanuM eka sunItibeAdhaka pustaka me' racIne taiyAra kareluM che. te paNa prasiddha thayu' che ke nahi tenI mAhitI maLI nathI. lakhelI nakala paNa upalabdha nathI. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 179 nIti saMbaMdhI zrImane khyAla ghaNe UMDe hato, ane tene zrImad sarva AdhyAtmikatAnuM mULa mAnatA. A pustakamAM anIti dUra thAya ane nIti-sadAcAra pratye prema thAya te prakAre satya, zIla, udyama, zikSaNa Adi viSayane betraNa copaDI bhaNIne UThI gayelI moTI uMmaranI bahenane paNa vAMcavAnuM game evI saraLa bhASAmAM nirUpelA che. "puSpamALA e paNa zrImadanuM seLa varSanI uMmara pahelAnuM lakhANa gaNAya che. temAM sUtrAtmaka vAkyonI zailIthI, tathA mALAnI peThe nitya Avartana karI zakAya e hetuthI 108 bela lakhyA cheH navA UcharatA yuvAnanI keLavaNImAM sAcI keLavaNInI je khAmI che te dUra karI, temane agya vAMcanamAMthI bacAvI temane sanmArge doravAnuM temAM prajana che, A kRti kaI viziSTa saMpradAyane anulakSIne nahi, paNa sarvasAdhAraNa naitikadharma ane kartavyanI daSTie lakhAyelI che. mALAmAM 108 maNakA hoya tema A kRti 108 naitika rUpothI gUMthAyelI ane kaI paNa dharma, paMtha ke jAtinAM strI athavA puruSane nitya gaLe dhAraNa karavA jevI, arthAt paThana karavA gya ciMtana karavA gya che. puSpamALA" nI zarUAtamAM, rAta pUrI thaI, na divasa A gayA divasa upara najara nAkhI jAo ane niSphaLa gayelA vakhata mATe vicAra kare; karavAnAM kAmenI bAbatamAM samaya, zakti ane pariNAma tapAsI For Personal & Private Use Only

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180 zrImad rAjacaMdra le vakhata amUlya che e yAda rAkhe ane aAgya rIte koI zaktine upayoga na thAya tenI kALajI rAkhe. - e sarvamAnya upadeza che. pachI, rAjA, zrImaMta, vepArI, bALaka, yuvAna, vRddha, strI, kRpaNa, bhAgyazALI, dharmAcArya, anucara, durAcArI, duHkhI vagerene temanI pharajo ane maryAdA batAvI, pitApitAnAM kRtya karavAnI sUcanA ApI che. - tyAra bAda, khAvApIvAmAM mitAhArI thavAnuM, tathA kAmabhAgomAM saMyamI thavAnuM sUcavI, jIvanamAM aMtima lakSya pratye paNa durlakSa na karavAnI tAkIda ApI che. dharmanuM mULa sapuruSane vyavahAra che; judAjudA dharmomAM mAtra daSTibheda che, tAttvika bheda nathI; dhArmika jIvanamAM Avazyaka vastu amuka mata ke saMpradAyamAM hevApaNuM nathI, paraMtu saMsAramaLa nAza thAya tevI bhakti, nIti ane sadAcAranI kriyAo che; ane tene mATe ochAmAM ocho a prahara paNa ApavuM joIe ema sUcavyuM che. tathA vAstavika AtmaciMtana je thayuM teTalA pUrato ja Ajane divasa saphaLa thaye ema jaiNAvI, sUtI vakhate pharI potAnAM kAmeno hisAba kADhavAnuM sUcavI mALA pUrI karI che. A mALAnAM sUtrAtmaka vAkya vAMcanAranI bAhya vRtti rekI potAne Aje ke have pachI zuM karavuM te vicAramAM prere tevAM che. vAMcanAranI vicArazakti khIlavI, zabdasamUha pAchaLa rahelA artha ane paramArthanA pradezamAM For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 181 praveza karavAnI preraNA kare evAM TUMkAM paNa tINa bANanI peThe UMDA UtarI jAya tevAM te vAkya che. chelA 108mA mANakAmAM zrImadda jaNAve cheH lAMbI TUMkI ke kramAnukrama game te svarUpe A mArI kahelI pavitratAnAM puSpothI chavAyelI mALA prabhAtanA vakhatamAM, sAyaMkALe ane anya anukULa nivRttio vicAravAthI maMgaladAyaka thaze. vizeSa zuM kahuM?" "mekSamALA' e zrImade soLa varasa ane pAMca mAsanI vaye traNa divasamAM racI hatI. - manuSya aMtarmukha ke bahirmukha game te hoya, tene vaiyaktika jIvana ane sAmudAyika jIvananI svasthatA vAste sAmAnya nItinI jarUra hoya ja che. evA vyAvahArika nItinA zikSaNa mATe "puSpamALA" racyA pachI zrImane aMtarmukha adhikArIo mATe kAMIka viziSTa lakhavAnI preraNA thaI hoya ema lAge che. emAMthI emaNe AdhyAtmika jijJAsA saMtoSavA ane piSavA khAtara A kRti racI ane enuM nAma enA uddeza tathA viSayane anurUpa evuM "mekSamALA" rAkhyuM. A mekSamALA" bAlAvabodha nAme oLakhAya che. ene bIjo bhAga "prajJAvadha mekSamALA" zrImade lakhavA vicArelo ane emAM lakhavA dhArela viSayenI yAdI* * juo "zrImad rAjacaMdra' bahada graMtha patrAMka 946 (AvRtti saM. 2007). For Personal & Private Use Only

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182 zrImad rAjacaMdra paNa temaNe taiyAra karI hatI. paNa teo e bhAga lakhI zakyA nahotA. "mekSamALAmAM carcelA dharmanA muddA khAsa karI jaina dharmane ja anulakSI lIdhelA che. zrImad pote ja saM. 1955mAM lakhe cheH "jainamArgane yathArtha samajAvavA temAM prayAsa karyo che. jinendra mArgathI kaMI paNa jUnAdhika temAM kahyuM nathI. vItarAga mArga para AbAlavRddhanI ruci thAya, tenuM svarUpa samajAya, tenuM bIja hRdayamAM pAya tevA hetue bAlAvabodha rUpa yojanA tenI karI che." vaLI saM. 1956mAM "mekSamALA'nI bIjI AvRtti veLAe prakAzakane karelI sUcanAmAM zrImade jaNAvelI beeka vAta dhyAnamAM levA jevI che ? .... kSamALA'nA pATha ame mApI mApIne lakhyA che. zrotA-vAcakane banatAM sudhI ApaNuM abhiprAye na daravA lakSa rAkhavuM. zrotA-vAcakamAM potAnI meLe abhiprAya UgavA de. sArAsAra tela karavAnuM vAMcanAra zrotAnA para cheDI devuM. ApaNe temane derI temane pitAne UgI zake evA abhiprAyane thaMbhI na devo." AvA jIvanapreraka pustakanuM adhyayana kema karavuM e aMge zrImade A pustakanA prAraMbhamAM je lakhyuM che e kharekhara uttama zikhAmaNa rUpa cheH madhyasthatAthI emAM tattvajJAna ane zIla bedhavAne udeza che. A pustaka prasiddha karavAne mukhya hetu For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 183 UcharatA bALa yuvAne avivekI vidyA pAmI AtmasiddhithI bhraSTa thAya che te bhraSTatA aTakAvavAne paNa che. bahu UMDA UtaratAM A mekSamALA mekSanA kAraNarUpa thaI paDaze. "pAThaka ane vAcaka vargane mukhya bhalAmaNa e che ke zikSApATha pATha karavA karatAM jema bane tema manana karavA; tenAM tAtparya anubhavavAM, jemanI samajaNamAM na AvatAM hoya temaNe....pAMcasAta vakhata te pATha vAMcI javA. eka pATha vAMcI gayA pachI ardha ghaDI te para vicAra karI aMtaHkaraNane pUchavuM ke zuM tAtparya maLyuM? te tAtparyamAMthI heya,* ya ane upAdeya zuM che? ema karavAthI A graMtha samajI zakAze; hRdaya kamaLa thaze; vicArazakti khIlaze ane jaina tattva para rUDI zraddhA thaze. A graMtha kaMI paThana karavA rUpa nathI; paNa manana karavA rUpa che. artha rUpa keLavaNe emAM che. te janA "bAlAvabodha" rUpa che; "vivecana" ane prajJAvabodha" bhAga bhinna che...." "mekSamALAne prathama pATha paNa "vAMcanArane bhalAmaNa" che. temAM zrImadda sUcave cheH "keTalAka ajJAna manuSya nahi vAMcavA gya pustako vAMcIne pitAne vakhata I de che; ane avaLe raste caDI jAya che. A lekamAM apakIrti pAme che; tema ja * tajavA gya, jANavA yogya, AdaravA gya zuM che? For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra paralekamAM nIca gatie jAya che. tamane eka e paNa bhalAmaNa che ke, jene vAMcatAM nahi AvaDatuM hoya, ane tenI IcchA hoya te A pustaka anukrame tene vAMcI saMbhaLAvavuM. tamArA AtmAnuM AthI hita thAya; tamane jJAna, zAMti ane AnaMda maLe; tame popakArI, dayALu, kSamAvAna, vivekI ane buddhizALI thAo; evI zubha yAcanA ahaMtu bhagavAna kane karI A pATha pUrNa karuM chuM." A rIte zrImade pote ja A pustakanuM mahattva vizadatAthI darzAvyuM che. vaLI zrImade ekavAra vAtacIta daramyAna jaNAvyuM hatuM keH "mokSamALA" racI te vakhate amAre virAgya gavAsiSThanA vairAgya prakaraNamAM zrI rAmacaMdrajIne vairAgya varNavela che tevuM hatuM ane tamAma jaina Agama savA varSanI aMdara ame avalokana karyA hatAM. te vakhate abhuta vairAgya vartatuM hatuM, te eTalA sudhI ke ame khAdhuM che ke nahi tenI amane smRti rahetI nahi." e uparathI paNa A pustakanI mUlyavattAne sujJa vAcakane saheje khyAla AvI zake ema che. kathAo ane udAharaNathI recaka banAvelA 108 zikSApAThanuM bhAvapUrvaka manana-ciMtana ApaNuM jIvanane mekSAbhilASI banAvavAmAM sahAyarUpa thAya ema che. bhAvanAbedha" pustaka saM. 194ramAM zrImade racyuM hatuM. mekSamALA" saM. 1940mAM lakhAI ane saM. 1944mAM For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA chapAIne prasiddha thaI. ATale cAra varSane vilaMba thAya tema hovAthI agAuthI thayelA grAhakone zrImade "bhAvanAbedha" pustaka e daramyAna chapAvIne bheTa ApyuM hatuM. "bhAvanAbedha" graMtha TUMke chatAM vairAgyathI bharapUra che. adhyAtmajIvana gALavA icchanAre je bAra bhAvanAo jIvanamAM daDha karavAnI che, te bhAvanAo rocaka daSTAMtathI samajAvI che. kathAo dvArA bhAvanAonuM varNana ApeluM hevAthI cittAkarSaka ane UMDI asara kare te AnaMdadAyaka A nAnakaDe graMtha banyuM che. supAtratA pAmavAnuM ane krodhabhamehAdi kaSAya dUra karavAnuM A graMtha uttama sAdhana che. - zrImade A graMthanA TUMkA uddaghAtamAM kharuM sukha, mahAtmAone bodha ane khAsa karIne bhagavAna mahAvIrane mAnavA gya bodha tathA mekSane arthe e sarvane upadeza che ema jaNAvI, mekSamALAmAM "bAra bhAvanA" vize lakhelo pATha mUkyo che. pachI baMne graMthanuM prajana TUMkamAM bahu suMdara rIte darzAvyuM cheH uttama tattvajJAna ane parama suzIlane upadeza karanArA puruSe kaMI ochA thayA nathI, tema A graMtha kaMI tethI uttama vA samAnatArUpa nathI; paNa vinayarUpe te upadezakanA dhuraMdhara pravacane AgaLa kaniSTha che. A paNa pramANabhUta che ke pradhAna puruSanI samIpa anucaranuM avazya che; tema tevA dhuraMdhara graMthanuM upadezabIja ropAvA, aMtaHkaraNa kamaLa karavA AvA graMthanuM prajana che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImada rAjacaMdra tattvajJAna tema ja suzIlanI prApti mATe ane pariNAme anaMta sukhataraMga prApta karavA mATe je je sAdhya sAdhane zramaNa bhagavaMta jJAtaputre prakAzyAM che, tene sva5tAthI kiMcit tattvasaMcaya karI, temAM mahApuruSanAM nAnAM nAnAM caritre ekatra karI A bhAvanAbedha tathA mokSamALAne vibhUSita karI che, te vizva muvamaMDa mavata' e bAra bhAvanAo nIce mujaba cheH 1. anityabhAvanAH zarIra, vaibhava, lakSamI, kuTuMba parivArAdika sarva vinAzI che. jIvane mULa dharma avinAzI che, ema citavavuM te pahelI anityabhAvanA. azaraNabhAvanAH saMsAramAM maraNa samaye jIvane zaraNa rAkhanAra koI nathI, mAtra eka zubha dharmanuM ja zaraNa satya che, ema ciMtavavuM te bIjI azaraNabhAvanA. 3. saMsArabhAvanAH A AtmAe saMsAra samudramAM paryaTana karatAM karatAM sarva bhava kIdhA che. e saMsArI jaMjIrathI kyAre chUTIza? e saMsAra mAre nathI; huM mokSamayI chuM; ema ciMtavavuM te trIjI saMsArabhAvanA. ekatvabhAvanAH A mAre AtmA ekale che. te ekale AvyuM che, ekale jaze, pitAnAM karelAM karma eTale bhagavaze, aMtaHkaraNathI ema ciMtavavuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 187 te cothI ekatvabhAvanA. 5. anyatvabhAvanAH A saMsAramAM kaI keInuM nathI ema ciMtavavuM te pAMcamI anyatvabhAvanA. azucibhAvanAH A zarIra apavitra che, maLamUtranI khANa che, regajarAnuM nivAsadhAma che, e zarIrathI huM jyAre chuM ema citavavuM te chaThThI azucibhAvanA. AzravabhAvanAH rAga, dveSa, ajJAna, mithyAtva ItyAdika sarva Azrava che ema citavavuM te sAtamI AzravabhAvanA. sasvarabhAvanAH jJAna, dhyAnamAM pravartamAna thaIne jIva navAM karma bAMdhe nahi te AThamI sasvarabhAvanA. 9. nirjarAbhAvanA jJAna sahita kriyA karavI te nirjarAnuM kAraNa che ema ciMtavavuM te navamI nirjarAbhAvanA. 10. lekasvarUpabhAvanAH caudarAja lekanuM svarUpa vicAravuM te dazamI lakasvarUpabhAvanA. 11. bedhadurlabhabhAvanAH saMsAramAM bhamatAM AtmAne samyakajJAnanI prasAdI prApta thavI durlabha che, vA samyakajJAna pAmyA te cAritra sarvavirati pariNAmarUpa dharma pAma durlabha che ema citavavuM te agiyAramI bedhadurlabhabhAvanA. 12. dharma durlabhabhAvanAH dharmanA upadezaka tathA zuddha zAstranA bedhaka evA guru ane evuM zravaNa maLavuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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188 zrImad rAjacaMdra durlabha che, ema ciMtavavuM te bAramI dharmadurlabhabhAvanA. zrImada mAtra gadyanA ja lekhaka nathI. teoe kavitAo paNa racI che. temane te samayamAM ghaNuM jene "kavi" nAmathI ja oLakhatA. ane keTalAke te temanA anugAmI gaNane "kavisaMpradAya" tarIke ja oLakhAvatA. zrImadbhI kavitAo jotAM ema lAge che ke, kavitvanuM bIja - vastusparza ane pratibhA tathA abhivyakti sAmarthya- temanAmAM hatuM. temanI kavitA temanAM anya gadya lakhANanI peThe AdhyAtmika viSayasparzI ja che. temanI kavitAbhASA pravAhabaddha che. sahajabhAve saralatAthI pratipAdya viSayane kheALAmAM laI, e pravAha kyAMka josabhera te kyAMka ciMtana sulabha gaMbhIra gatie vaho jAya che. temanI lagabhaga badhI ja kavitAo jaina saMpradAyanI bhAvanAo tAttvika muddAone sparzI racAyelI che. jema AnaMdaghana, devacaMdra ane yazovijayajInAM keTalAMka padya bhAvanI sUkSamatA ane kalpanAnI uccagAmitAne lIdhe tatkAlIna gujarAtI sAhityamAM bhAta pADe evAM che, ane chatAMye te badhAM padyo jaina saMpradAyanI ja vastune spaze che, evuM ja zrImanAM paDyo vize kahI zakAya. zrImade "mekSamALA" "puSpamALA' vagere graMtha racyA che e arasAmAM ja temaNe saMskRta mahAkAvyanA niyamAnusAre "namirAja" nAme eka kAvyagraMtha lakhyo che. temAM dharma, artha, kAma ane mekSa e cAre puruSArthane For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 189 upadeza karI aMte mokSamArga varNavyuM che. e pAMca hajAra lekane graMtha temaNe cha divasamAM ra hato. paraMtu e graMtha upalabdha nathI. tema ja te chapAye hate. ke kema te paNa kahI zakAtuM nathI." sattara ke aDhAra varSanI vaye zrImade lakhelA dANAMtika doharA lagabhaga eMzI jeTalI saMkhyAmAM prApta thayA che je "zrImad rAjacaMdra bRhada graMthanI pAMcamI AvRttimAM chapAyA che. e deharAomAM nItivyavahAranI zikhAmaNa mukhya che. te dareka deharAmAM ghaNuM karIne prathama siddhAMta jaNAvI pachI tene puSTa karanAra daSTAMta ApeluM che. dAkhalA tarIkeH pharI pharI maLI nathI, A uttama avatAra; kALI caudaza ne ravi, Ave keIka vAra." vacane vallabhatA vadhe, vacane vAdhe vera; jaLathI jIve jagata A, kadI kare paNa kera." heya sarasa paNa cIja te, gya sthaLe vaparAya; kema kaTArI kanakanI, peTa viSe ghAMcAya?". "buddhiprakAza" sAmayikamAM I. sa. 1885mAM zUravIrasmaraNa" nAme zrImade lakhelA covIsa savaiyA chapAyA che. te uparathI temanI chaTAdAra bhASA, sadAra zailI ane kavitvane khyAla Ave che. udAharaNa tarIke: * A graMtha aMgeno mAtra ullekha saM. 1943mAM prasiddha thayelI pustikA "sAkSAt sarasvatI"mAM maLe che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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19o zrImad rAjacaMdra DhAla DhaLakatI, jhabaka jhabakatI, laI caLakatI kara karavAla, kharekharA khUda raNamAM tyAM mUcha malakatI jhagatuM bhAla; verIne gherI letA jhaTa, bharatabhUminA jaya bhaDavIra, are, arere, Aja gayA kyAM, raDhiyALA evA raNadhIra?" - trIsa varSanI uMmare lakhAyela "apUrva avasara eve kyAre Avaze?" e dhruvapadavALA zrImaddanA jANItA kAvyane ahIM ullekha karI laIe. e kAvya "AzramabhajanAvalImAM sthAna pAmeluM hovAthI, mAtra jaina ke gujarAtI janatAmAM ja nahi, paNa gujarAtI bhASA cheDe ghaNe aMze samajanAra vargamAM paNa jANItuM thayuM che ane thatuM jAya che. e kAvya evA Atmika ullAsamAMthI lakhAyela che ke, vAMcanArane paNa te zAMti Ape che. zrI AtmasiddhizAstra" e adhyAtmaviSayaka padyagraMtha zrImade ogaNatrIsa varSanI vaye eka ja beThake 142 gAthAomAM race che. AtmasiddhizAstranI racanA zrImade karI tyAre temaNe mAtra cAra jIvane adhikArI jANI tenI hastalikhita nakale temanA ja upaga mATe mekalI hatI, kAraNa ke vairAgya-upazamathI teonI buddhinuM viparyAsapaNuM TALyuM hatuM. AtmAnI oLakha karavA mATe satyAsatyanuM mAtra zAstra jJAna kAma AvatuM nathI. "samarfdhazataka'mAM kahyuM che ema?" zRNvannapyanyataH kAmaM vadannapi kalevarAt / nAtmAnaM bhAvayed bhinnaM yAvat tAvanna mAkSabhAk // For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 191 AtmA dehathI bhinna che e vize sadaguru pAsethI sArI rIte sAMbhaLyuM hoya, bIjAne kahI paNa batAvate hoya, chatAM jyAM sudhI dehathI AtmA bhinna che tevI vana kare nahi tyAM sudhI zuddha AtmAno anubhava thAya nahi ane mokSane gya te jIva thAya nahi. Ave sadasaviveka jIva karI zake tathA AtmAnI ' oLakha karavA tarapha te vaLI zake ane tenI anubhUti sAkSAt karI zake e vastune lakSamAM rAkhIne zrImade bahu saraLatAthI sUtrAtmaka zailImAM 142 gAthAomAM je sAdha ApyuM che e kharekhara cirakALa manana karavA yogya che. muktimArganA pravAsI zrImade je AtmasvarUpanuM niraMtara apragaTapaNe pitAne vaMdana hatuM, te AbAlavRddha sau kaI samajI zake evI saraLa pravAhI bhASAmAM "AtmasiddhizAstra" dvArA padyarUpe pragaTa karyuM. AvA gUDha tattvane sarasa padyamAM zabdArUDha karIne sAmAnya kakSAnA mumukSu je paNa yathAzakti samajIne pitAnI Atmonnati sAdhI zake evI saraLa paNa gaMbhIra praDha bhASA dvArA Adhunika yugamAM kevAM zAstra racavAM joIe tene yathArtha Adarza A zAstra racIne zrImade rajU karyo che. - tattvajJAnanA mahAna praznone AvI saraLa bhASAmAM vyakta karavA e kharekhara mahAprajJAvaMtanuM kArya che. zrImadanAM bIjA badhAM lakhANa karatAM "AtmasiddhizAstranI racanA judI ja tarI Ave che. TUMkA saraLa zabdo sahita, For Personal & Private Use Only

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192 zrImad rAjacaMdra naya ke nyAyanAM aTapaTAM anumAne ke khaMDanamaMDananI kilawtArahita, sau koI mumukSu jIvane bhegya, zreyaskara sAmagrIthI samRddha e A graMtha zrImanI Amennatikara sAdhanAnA paripAkasame che. prathama cUMvALIsa gAthAomAM prAstAvika vivecana che. temAM AtmajJAna sivAya janmamaraNanAM duHkha TaLe nahi ema jaNAvI, vartamAnakALamAM mekSamArgane rekanAra kiyA jaDatva ane zuSkajJAna e be deze darzAvI te doSanAM lakSaNa ApyAM che. pachI te baMne doSe TALavAne upAya sadgurucaraNanI upAsanA batAvI, sadgurunAM lakSaNa ane mAhAmya saMkSepamAM varNavI, sadgurunA ke temanA samAgamanA abhAve AtmAnuM nirUpaNa karanArAM saltAne abhyAsa madhyastha buddhie karavAnI bhalAmaNa karI che. pachI, AtmajJAna pAmavA IcchanAre svachaMda ane matAthapaNuM TALavAM joIe; mekSamArgamAM svachaMda e mahAna vidanarUpa che tathA matAthapaNuM e tenuM ja eka rUpa che ema darzAvI, sAcA AtmArthInAM lakSaNe varNavI batAvyAM che. tyAra bAda, eka gAthAmAM che padane nAmanirdeza Ave che. ane te dareka pada upara ziSyanI zaMkAo ane saddaguru tenuM samAdhAna kare che. jemake, "AtmA che" e pada upara zaMkA karatAM ziSya jaNAve che ke, "jIva dekhAto nathI, mATe jIva nathI. athavA deha ja AtmA che." pachI guru aneka saraLa yuktiothI te nAstikavAdanuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA : 193 khaMDana kare che. te ja pramANe AtmAnA nityatva, kartRtva, bhetRtva, mokSa che ane mokSane upAya che e pade upara paNa ziSya zaMkAo kare che ane guru tenuM samAdhAna upasaMhAramAM, A cha pada vize vicAra karavAthI tema ja temAM niHzaMka thavAthI samakita prApta thaze ema jaNAvI, mithyAtvarUpI mahAna rega TALavA sadgururUpI mahAvaidyane zodhI, temanI AjJArUpI pathyapALI, temanA bedhane vicAra ane dhyAnarUpa auSadhanI bhalAmaNa karI che. tathA "A kALa viSama hovAthI mokSa na maLe" vagere vicAre tajI puruSArtha karI paramArtha sAdhavA preraNA karI che. aMtamAM, AtmAnuM pAramArthika svarUpa vicAravA chatAM savyavahArarUpI mekSanAM sAdhane pratye bedarakAra na banavAnI cetavaNI ApI che ane jaNAvyuM che ke, jyAM sudhI te jJAna prApta thayuM nathI, tyAM sudhI pAramArthika sthitinI vAta karavAmAM tathya nathI, mATe dayA, zAMti, samatA, kSamA, satya, tyAga, vairAgya Adi guNenuM sevana karatAM karatAM jAgrata rahevuM e ja rogya che. AvA gaMbhIra viSayane zrImade bahu saraLatAthI nirUge che. paraMtu e viSaya dArzanika, tarkapradhAna ane jaina saMpradAyasiddha hovAthI tene rasAsvAda anubhavavA mATe jaina paribhASA ane jaina tattvajJAnanA spaSTa saMskAra meLavavA Avazyaka che. teye "AtmasiddhizAstranA jI - sA - 13 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra anuzIlana mATe sugamatA e che ke zrI aMbAlAlabhAIe dareka gAthAne artha gadyamAM Ape che, je zrImadanI daSTi taLe AvI gayele che. vaLI zrImade pite A graMthanI keTalIka gAthAo upara judA judA samaye patramAM vivecane mumukSuo upara lakhI mekalyAM hatAM. A badhI amUlya sAmagrIne lIdhe "AtmasiddhizAstranuM adhyayana karavAmAM saraLatA thaI paDe che. prajJAcakSu vidvavaya paMDita sukhalAlajI yathArtha ja kahe cheH je uMmare ane jeTalA TUMka vakhatamAM zrImade "Atmasiddhi"mAM pote pacAvela jJAna gUMcyuM che tene vicAra karuM chuM tyAre mAruM mastaka bhaktibhAve namI paDe che. eTaluM ja nahi, paNa mane lAge che ke temaNe AdhyAtmika mumukSune ApelI A bheTa e to seMkaDe vidvAnoe ApelI sAhityika graMtharAzInI bheTa karatAM vizeSa mUlyavaMtI che." e ja rIte zrImade lakhelA aneka patro, teozrIe lakhelI hAthadhe vagerene abhyAsa karIe te zrImanI vipula amRta prasAdIne saheje khyAla AvI zake che. - zrImadanAM lakhANonI eka asAdhAraNatA e che ke pite je anubhavyuM te ja temaNe lakhyuM che. emanAM lakhANe eTale AMtara-bAhya jIvananI utkaTa anubhUtiene nicoDa. temAM kyAMye kRtrimatA jovA maLatI nathI. bIjAnI upara chApa pADavA sAru emaNe ekeya lITI For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 15 lakhI hoya e jarAya saMbhava kyAMya dekhAtuM nathI. Atmanimajajana karI hadayanA atala sAgaramAMthI teo satarUpI matIne vINI lAvanArA marajIvAsamA hatA. tethI ja emanAM lakhANomAM sat -amRtatva nItarI rahyuM hoya evI pratIti vAMcanArane thAya che. temane lakhavAne hetu ja vAMcanArane pitAnA AtmAnaMdamAM bhAgIdAra banAvavAne hate. jene Atmaleza TALave che, je pitAnuM kartavya jANavA utsuka che, je zreyAthIM - mekSArthI che tene zrImad rAjacaMdranAM amRta - prasAdIrUpa lakhANe atIva upagI thaI paDe tema avazya che. chevaTe, zrImanAM lakhANanI mahattA darzAvate paMDitavarya sukhalAlajIne abhiprAya Apa egya thazeH baMgALI, marAThI, hiMdI ane gujarAtI Adi prAMtika bhASAo, jemAM gRhastha ke tyAgI jaina vidvAna ane vicAraka varganI lekhana pravRtti thAya che ane vizeSa saMbhave che, temAMthI prasiddha jaina AcArya AtmArAmajInI hiMdI kRtione bAda karatAM eke bhASAmAM vIsamI zatAbdimAM lakhAyeluM eka paNa pustaka meM evuM nathI jeyuM ke, jene "zrImad rAjacaMdranAM lakhANa sAthe gaMbhIratA, madhyasthatA ane maulikatAnI daSTie aMzathI paNa sarakhAvI zakAya. tethI Adhunika samagra jaina sAhityanI daSTie, * saM. 1992nI zrI mad rAjacaMdra jayaMtI veLAe amadAvAdamAM vAMcavA mATe taiyAra karelA paMDitajInA nibaMdhamAMthI. For Personal & Private Use Only

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196 zrImad rAjacaMdra vizeSe karI jaina tattvajJAna ane cAritraviSayaka gujarAtI sAhityanI daSTie zrImanAM lakhANanuM bhAre mUlya che. chelA traNa cAra dazakA thayAM jaina samAjamAM navIna prajAne navIna keLavaNI sAthe dhArmika ane tattvajJAna saMbaMdhI jaina zikSaNa ApI zake evAM pustakanI cemerathI anavarata mAgaNI thatI jovAmAM Ave che. aneka saMsthAoe potapotAnI zakyatA pramANe AvI mAgaNIne pahoMcI vaLavA kAMI ne kAMI prayatna sevyA che, tema ja nAnAmeTAM pustako prasiddha karyA che, paNa jyAre niSpakSabhAve e badhA vize vicAra karuM chuM, tyAre mane spaSTa lAge che ke, e badhA prayatna ane lagabhaga e badhuM sAhitya zrImanAM lakhANe sAme bAlIza ane kRtrima jevuM che. emanAM lakhANomAMthI ja akSareakSara amuka bhAge tAravI, adhikArInI gyatA ane vaya pramANe pAThyakrama ghaDI kADhavAmAM Ave, ke jemAM koI paNa jAtanA kharca, parizrama Adine beja nathI, te dhArmika sAhitya vizenI jaina samAjanI mAgaNane Aje paNa emanAM lakhANathI bIjAM kaI paNa pustaka karatAM vadhAre sArI rIte saMteSI zakAya ema che. emAM kumArathI mAMDI praDha uMmara sudhInA ane prAthamika abhyAsIthI mAMDI UMDA ciMtaka sudhInA jijJAsu mATenI sAmagrI mejuda che. alabatta e sAmagrIne sadupayoga karavA vAste asaMkucita ane guNagrAhaka mAnasacakSu joIe." For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 197 vaLI sAthesAthe ApaNA gujarAtI sAhityanA eka agragaNya vicAraka AcAryazrI AnaMdazaMkarabhAI dhruva "zrImad rAjacaMdra" vize zuM kahI gayA che e paNa dhyAnamAM levA jevuM cheH AjakAla bhaNelAomAM evI ghelachA cAlI che ke dareka meTA lekhakanA graMthe ApaNe vAMcI levA ja joIe. khUba vAMcavuM, khUba lakhavuM ane khUba chapAvavuM e rega AjakAla phATI nIkaLyo che. paNa huM tene vAjabI mAnatuM nathI. "pUrvakALe mAtra eka be graMthanAM vAcana ane mananathI je phaLa maLatuM te Aje seMkaDe ane hajAre graMthanA vAcanathI maLatuM nathI. vividha mahAtmAnA graMthamAM vividha Adarzo ApaNe pratyakSa karIe chIe ane e AdarzonI chApa ApaNA aMtaHkaraNa upara sthAyIrUpe rahI zakatI nathI. dareka graMthanI amuka eka bAju hoya che. AvI aneka bAjuonuM pratibiMba ApaNe ApaNA jIvanamAM pADI zakIe e asaMbhavita che. aMgreja vidvAnamAM ane kene eka cokkasa graMthakAra ke mahAtmA pratye khAsa hRdayabhAva heya che. teo pitAnA AkhA jIvana daramiyAna e eka ja Adarzane keLavavA mathe che. AthI temane ghaNe lAbha maLe che. * saM. 1973nI kArtikI pUrNimAne divase vaDhavANa kaMpamAM AcArya zrI AnaMdazaMkarabhAI dhruve pramukhapade ApelA bhASaNamAMthI. For Personal & Private Use Only

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198 zrImad rAjacaMdra ApaNe e viSayanu anukaraNa karavu. joIe ane khanI zake teA eka ja mahApuruSanA graMthane dRSTi sanmukha rAkhI tenuM manana ane niddidhyAsana karavAnA prayatna karavA joIe. huM joke kAI khAsa prakAranA matAgraha dharAvatA nathI, teA paNa madhukarabhAve je kaI grahaNa karavAmAM Ave tene huM vAjabI mAnatA nathI. ( 66 'gujarAtanA jAhera jIvanamAM mAruM je alpa sthAna che tene lakSamAM laI ane mAre zire je javAbadArI rahelI che tene vicAra karI mAre kahevu joIe ke, zrImad rAjacaMdra" graMthane eka AdarzarUpe rAkhavAmAM Ave tA tethI tenA upAsakane atyaMta lAbha thayA vagara rahe nahi. e graMthamAM tattvajJAnanAM jharaNA vahyA kare che. e graMtha kAI dharmanA virAdhI nathI, kAraNa ke tenI zailI bahu ga bhIra prakAranI che. huM A graMtha vAMcavAnI ane vicAravAnI saune vinaMti karI mAruM khelavuDa samApta karuM chuM.' For Personal & Private Use Only

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15 zrImanI aMtima caryA paMca viSayamAM rAgadveSavirahitatA, paMca pramAde na maLe manane bha je, dravya kSetra ne kALa bhAva pratibaMdha vaNa, vicaravuM udayAdhIna paNa vItalebha je.* bhagavAne uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM gautamane kahyuM ke, "he gautama! manuSyanuM AyuSya DAbhanI aNI para paDelA jaLanA biMdu jevuM che. jema te biMdune paDatAM vAra lAgatI nathI, tema A manuSyAyu jatAM vAra lAgatI nathI.' mATe he gautama "samAM nAyama mA pamANa" -samaya- avasara pAmIne pramAda na kara, meSAnumeSamAM cAlyA jatA alpamAM a5 bhAga jeTalA samayamAM paNa pramAda na kara. A bedhane kendramAM rAkhIne zrImad "mekSamALA'mAM * paMca viSaya = pAMca idrinA viSaye. paMca pramAda = dharmanI anAdaratA, umAda, ALasa, kaSAya e saghaLAM pramAdanAM lakSaNa che. (juo mokSamALA pATha-50) udayAdhIna = prArabdha karmane AdhIna. For Personal & Private Use Only

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200 kahe cheH 'ati vicakSaNa puruSA sa`sAranI sarvopAdhi tyAgIne ahArAtra dharmAMmAM sAvadhAna thAya che. paLanA paNa pramAda karatA nathI. vicakSaNa puruSA aheArAtranA theADA bhAgane paNa niraMtara dhama katavyamAM gALe che, ane avasare avasare dharmAMka bya karatA rahe che. paNa mUDha puruSA nidrA, AhAra, meAjazAkha ane vikathA tema ja raMgarAgamAM Ayu vyatIta karI nAkhe che. enu pariNAma te adhAtirUpa pAme che. jema ane tema yatnA ane upayAgathI dharmane sAdhya karavA cAgya che. sAThe ghaDInA aheArAtramAM vIza ghaDI tA nidrAmAM gALIe chIe. bAkInI cALIza ghaDI upAdhi, TelaTappA ane rajhaLavAmAM gALIe chIe. e karatAM e sATha ghaDInA vakhatamAMthI becAra ghaDI vizuddha dharmAMka byane mATe upayogamAM laIe te khanI zake evu' che. enu pariNAma paNa kevuM suMdara thAya ? paLa e amUlya cIja che. cakravartI paNa eka paLa pAmavA AkhI riddhi Ape tepaNa te pAmanAra nathI. eka paLa bya khAvAthI eka bhava hArI javA jevu' che, ema tattvanI dRSTie siddha che!? jANe ke A epane ja AtmasAt karIne zrImad paramapadaprApti mATe pramAdarahitapaNe ahArAtra jhajhUmyA hatA. ane emanA prasiddha padamAM emaNe je gAyuM che e ja emanA jIvanamAM mUrtimata jovA maLe cheH zrImad rAjacaMdra For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 201 ekAkI vicarate vaLI smazAnamAM, vaLI parvatamAM vAgha siMha saMga je; aDela Asana, ne manamAM nahi kSebhatA, parama mitrane jANe pAmyA ga je. ghera tapazcaryAmAM paNa manane tApa nahi, sarasa ane nahi manane prasannabhAva je; rajakaNa ke riddhi vaimAnika devanI, | sarve mAnyA pugala eka svabhAva je." Ama cAritramehane parAjaya karIne zrImad sudaDha nizcaya kare che? aMta samaye tyAM pUrNa svarUpa vItarAga thaI pragaTAvuM nija kevaLajJAnanidhAna je." e mATe zrImad sarvasaMgaparityAga karI apratibaddhapaNe vicAravA Icche che. paraMtu vyAvahArika upAdhio hajI ochI thaI nathI, tethI joIe tevI sulabhatA jaNAtI nathI. e vize mAha suda, 1947nA patramAM zrImadda lakhe cheH paramAtmAmAM parama sneha game tevI vikaTa vATethI thatuM hoya te paNa kare egya ja che. saraLa vATa maLyA chatAM upAdhinA kAraNathI tanmayabhakti rahetI nathI, ane ekatAra sneha UbharAto nathI. AthI kheda rahyA kare che. ane vAraMvAra vanavAsanI IcchA thayA kare che. je ke vairAgya te e rahe che ke ghara ane vanamAM ghaNuM karIne AtmAne bheda rahyo nathI, paraMtu upAdhinA For Personal & Private Use Only

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202 zrImad rAjacaMdra prasaMgane lIdhe temAM upaga rAkhavAnI vAraMvAra jarUra rahyA kare che, ke jethI parama sneha para te veLA AvaraNa ANavuM paDe; ane evI parama snehatA ane ananya premabhakti AvyA vinA dehatyAga karavAnI IcchA thatI nathI. kadApi sarvAtmAnI evI ja IcchA haze te game tevI dInatAthI paNa te IcchA pheravazuM. paNa premabhaktinI pUrNa laya AvyA vinA dehatyAga nahi karI zakAya ema rahe che; ane vAraMvAra e ja raTanA rahevAthI "vanamAM jaIe." "vanamAM jaIe" ema thaI Ave che..... gopAMganAnI jevI zrImad bhAgavatamAM premabhakti varNavI che, evI premabhakti A kaLikALamAM prApta thavI durlabha che, ema je ke sAmAnya lakSa che, tathApi kaLikALamAM nizcaLa matithI e ja laya lAge te paramAtmA anugraha karI zIgha e bhakti Ape che. jaDabharatajInI zrImad bhAgavatamAM suMdara AkhyAyikA. ApI che; e dazA vAraMvAra sAMbharI Ave che. ane evuM unmattapaNe paramAtmAne pAmavAnuM parama dvAra che. e dazA videhI hatI. bharatajIne haraNanA saMgathI janmanI vRddhi thaI hatI ane tethI jaDabharatanA bhavamAM asaMga rahyA hatA. evAM kAraNathI mane paNa asaMgatA bahu ja sAMbharI Ave che, ane keTalIka vakhata te evuM thaI jAya che ke te asaMgatA vinA parama duHkha thAya che. yama aMtakALe prANIne duHkhadAyaka nahi lAgate heya, paNa amane saMga duHkhadAyaka lAge che... For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 203 "sata - sat" enuM raTaNa che...adhika zuM kahIe? IzvaranI IcchA evI che ane tene rAjI rAkhyA rahyA vinA chUTake nathI. nahi te AvI upAdhiyukta dazAmAM na rahIe; ane dhAryuM karIe, parama pIyUSa ane premabhaktimaya ja rahIe! paNa prArabdha karma baLavattara che!" Ama zrImanuM citta asaMgatA tarapha vaLatuM jAya che. chatAM saMprApta vyavahArone teo niSkAmabhAve adA karavAnI zubha niSThA paNa jALavatA jAya che. pote kayA lakSa para pahoMcavAnuM che enI sajAgatA paNa temanAmAM eTalI ja makkamapaNe jovA maLe che. temanuM nizcayabaLa paNa eTaluM ja daDhIbhUta rahe che. phAgaNa suda, dazama 1948nA patramAM zrImadda lakhe cheH ghaNuM ghaNuM jJAnI puruSe thaI gayA che, temAM amArA je upAdhi prasaMga ane citta-sthiti udAsIna,* ati udAsIna, tevA ghaNuM karIne pramANamAM thoDA thayA che. upAdhi prasaMgane lIdhe AtmasaMbaMdhI je vicAra te akhaMDapaNe thaI zakatuM nathI, athavA gauNapaNe thayA kare che, tema thavAthI ghaNe kALa prapaMca vize rahevuM paDe che; ane temAM te atyaMta udAsa pariNAma thaI gayela * udAsInatAne artha samajavA jevo che. udAsInatA eTale samabhAva; vairAgya; zAMtatA; madhyasthatA. zrImade saM. 1945mAM lakhyuM che: "sukhakI sahelI hai, akelI udAsInatA. adhyAtmanI jananI te udAsInatA." For Personal & Private Use Only

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204 zrImada rAjacaMdra hovAthI kSaNavAra paNa citta TakI zakatuM nathI; jethI jJAnIo sarvasaMgaparityAga karI apratibaddhapaNe vicare che. "sarvasaMga" zabdane lakSyArtha e che ke, akhaMDapaNe AtmadhyAna ke bedha mukhyapaNe na rakhAvI zake e saMga. A ame TUMkAmAM lakhyuM che, ane te prakArane bAhyathI, aMtarathI bhajyA karIe chIe. deha chatAM manuSya pUrNa vitarAga thaI zake e amAre nizcala anubhava che. kAraNa ke ame paNa nizcaya te ja sthiti pAmavAnA chIe, ema amAre AtmA akhaMDapaNe kahe che; ane ema ja che, jarUra ema ja che. pUrNa vItarAganI caraNaraja niraMtara mastake he, ema rahyA kare che. atyaMta vikaTa evuM vItarAgatva atyaMta AzcaryakAraka che; tathApi te sthiti prApta thAya che, sadehe prApta thAya che, e nizcaya che; prApta karavAne pUrNa gya che, ema nizcaya che. sadehe tema thayA vinA amane udAsInatA mATe ema jaNAtuM nathI ane tema thavuM saMbhavita che, jarUra ema ja che." A sthitimAM paNa upAdhine jaga vizeSa hate. zrImadda cetra suda chaTha, 194tnA patramAM jaNAve cheH "upAdhine joga vizeSa rahe che. jema jema nivRttinA jaganI vizeSa IcchA thaI Ave che. tematema upAdhinI prAptino joga vizeSa dekhAya che. cAre bAjuthI upAdhine bhIDe che. koI evI bAju atyAre jaNAtI nathI ke atyAre ja emAMthI chUTI cAlyA javuM For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 205 heya te koIne aparAdha karyo na gaNAya. chUTavA jatAM keInA mukhya aparAdhamAM AvI javAno spaSTa saMbhava dekhAya che, ane A vartamAna avasthA upAdhirahitapaNAne atyaMta gya che; prArabdhanI vyavasthA evI prabaMdha karI haze." A rIte tarapha upAdhinI vAlA prajavalatI hoya te prasaMgamAM samAdhi-Asthiti jALavI rAkhavI ati duSkara che, chatAM e mATeno upAya paNa zrImadane jJAta hite. "prabhubhaktimAM jema bane tema tatpara rahevuM. mokSane e dhuraMdhara mArga mane lAge che. game te manathI paNa sthira thaIne besI prabhubhakti avazya karavI gya che. mananI sthiratA thavAne mukhya upAya hamaNAM te prabhubhakti samajo." je vaDe vairAgyanI vRddhi thAya te vAcana vizeSa karIne rAkhavuM, matamatAMtarane tyAga kare; asatsaMgAdikamAM ruci utpanna thatI maTavAno vicAra vAraMvAra karo che." (jeTha, 1948). ane kiM bahuNA iha jaha jaha, rAgadosA lahuM vilijjati / taha taha payaThThiavvaM, asA ANA jiNidANam // (upadeza rahasya-cavijayajI) keTaluMka kahIe? jemajema A rAgadveSane nAza vizeSa karI thAya che te prakAre pravartavuM e ja AjJA jinezvara devanI che." (1948). ema dhImedhIme zrImad sarvasaMgaparityAga bhaNuM prayANa For Personal & Private Use Only

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206 zrImad rAjacaMdra karavA lAgyA ane teo AtmavizvAsapUrvaka kahe cheH daDha vizvAsathI mAnaje ke A-ne vyavahAranuM baMdhana udayakALamAM na hatA te bIjA keTalAka manuSyane apUrva hitane ApanAra thAta. pravRtti che te tene mATe kaMI asamatA nathI, paraMtu nivRtti heta te bIjA AtmAone mArga maLavAnuM kAraNa thAta" (1947). vaLI zrImadanI ekAMtacaryA veLAe* tema ja zrImadanA samAgamamAM AvavA tatapara thatA bhaktajane ane mumukSujanene pravAha joIne zrImane thAya che ke, loke zreyAthI mArge javA utsuka che kharA. zrImadda e bAbatamAM lakhe cheH nAnI vaye mArgane uddhAra karavA saMbaMdhI jijJAsA vartatI hatI. tyAra pachI jJAnadazA Avye keme karIne te upazama jevI thaI paNa kaI kaI leke paricayamAM AvelA, temane keTalIka vizeSatA bhAsavAthI kaMIka mULa mArga para lakSa Avele, ane A bAju te seMkaDe athavA hajAre mANase prasaMgamAM AvelA jemAMthI kaMIka samajaNavALA tathA upadezaka pratye AsthAvALA evA eka mANase nIkaLe. e uparathI ema jovAmAM AvyuM ke leke taravAnA kAmI vizeSa che, paNa temane te ga bAjhata nathI. je kharekhara upadezaka puruSane joga bane te ghaNA * juo prakaraNa 12, 13. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 207 jIva mULamArga pAme tevuM che, ane dayA Adine vizeSa udyota thAya evuM che. ema dekhAvAthI kaMIka cittamAM Ave che ke A kArya kaI kare te sAruM. paNa daSTi karatAM te puruSa dhyAnamAM AvatuM nathI, eTale kaMIka lakhanAra pratye ja daSTi Ave che. paNa lakhanArane janmathI lakSa e che ke e jevuM eke jokhamavALuM pada nathI. ane pitAnI te kAryanI yathAyegyatA jyAM sudhI na vate tyAM sudhI tenI IcchA mAtra paNa na karavI ane ghaNuM karIne haju sudhI tema vartavAmAM AvyuM che. mArganuM kaMI paNa svarUpa kaMIkane samajAvyuM che, tathApi koIne eka vrata paccakhANa ApyuM nathI, athavA tame mArA ziSya che ane ame guru chIe e ghaNuM karIne prakAra darzita thaye nathI. kahevAne hetu e che ke sarvasaMgaparityAga thaye te kAryanI pravRtti sahaja svabhAve udayamAM Ave te karavI evI mAtra kalpanA che. - "tene kharekhare Agraha nathI. mAtra anukaMpAdi tathA jJAnaprabhAva vate che, tethI kyAreka te vRtti UThe che, athavA alpAMze aMgamAM te vRtti che, tathApi te svavaza che; ame dhArIe chIe tema sarvasaMgaparityAgAdi thAya te hajAre mANasa mULamArgane pAme ane hajAro mANasa te sanmArgane ArAdhI sadgatine pAme ema amArAthI thavuM saMbhave che. amArA saMgamAM tyAga karavAne ghaNA jIvane vRtti thAya e aMgamAM tyAga che. dharma sthApavAnuM mAna moTuM che; tenI spRhAthI For Personal & Private Use Only

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208 zrImad rAjacaMdra paNa vakhate AvI vRtti rahe. paNa AtmAne ghaNI vAra tAvI jemAM te saMbhava havenI dazAmAM che ja dekhAya che, ane kaMIka sattAgata rahyo haze te te kSINa thaze ema avazya bhAse che; kema ke yathAyegyatA vinA deha chUTI jAya tevI daDha kalpanA hoya te paNa mArga upadeza nahi ema Atmanizcaya varte che. eka e baLavAna kAraNathI parigrahAdi tyAga karavAnuM vicArI rahyA kare che. mArA manamAM ema rahe che ke vedokta dharma prakAza athavA sthApa hoya te mArI dazA yathAyogya che. paNa jinekta dharma sthApa hoya te haju teTalI gyatA nathI, paNa vizeSa yegyatA che, ema lAge che." tethI jyAM sudhI lokomAM buddhibheda utpanna thAya tevI bAhya upAdhi pitAne che, tyAM sudhI lekamAM dharmopadezaka tarIke bahAra na paDavuM evA nirNaya upara zrImadda Ave che. kAraNa ke temane evI pratIti thayelI hoya che ke, lokone aMdeze paDe evI jAtano bAhya-vyavahAra-ne udaya che. tevA vyavahAra sAthe baLavAna nigraMtha puruSa je upadeza kare te mAgane virodha karavA jevuM che." paraMtu UMDe UMDe zrImamAM nizcala zraddhA prasthApita thayelI to che ja keH yathA hetu je cittane, satya dharmane uddhAra re; thaze avazya A dehathI, ema thaye nirdhAra re. dhanya re divasa A ahe!" paNa A kArya keTaluM vikaTa che eno paNa khyAla For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra varSa 33 muM vi. saM. 1956 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 209 zrImane saMpUrNataH che. tethI teo prArthanAbhAve lakhe cheH - "he nAtha! kAM dharmonnati karavArUpa icchA sahajapaNa samAveza pAme tema thAo, kAM te te IcchA avazya kAryarUpa thAo. "avazya kAryarUpa thavI bahu duSkara dekhAya che, kema ke alpa apa vAtamAM matabheda bahu che ane tenAM mULa ghaNAM UMDAM gayelAM che. mULamArgathI leke lAkhe gAu dUra che eTaluM ja nahi paNa mULamArganI jijJAsA temane utpanna karAvavI hoya te paNa ghaNuM kALane paricaya thaye paNa thavI kaThaNa paDe evI temanI durAgrahAdithI jaDapradhAna dazA vate che." chevaTe dhIme dhIme karatAM bAho vyavahAra ane upAdhione bhIDe sahajapaNe thavA lAge. vyApAra karyAne daza varSa pUrAM thayAM hatAM. temane lAgyuM ke, have dhaMdhAne hetu pUrNa thayela che. mATe have saMsArane tyAga karI badhe samaya Avyennatikara sAdhanAmAM vyatIta kare. e mATe zrImade taiyArI paNa karavA mAMDI. te vakhate temanI AsapAsa bahoLe kuTuMba-parivAra vistareluM hatuM. temanAM mAtA-pitA hayAta hatAM; eka bhAI ane cAra bahene hatAdharmapatnI hatAM, be putra ane be putrI hatAM. kuTuMba paiseTake sukhI hatuM. badhe. zrImanI kIrti paNa ghaNuM phelAI hatI. AvI sukhamaya sthiti hatI chatAM zrImadda virakta avasthA bhaNI ja prayANa karatA hatA. jI - sA - 14 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ra10 zrImad rAjacaMdra ane saM. 1956mAM zrImad strIputrAdi ane lakSmIne tyAga karI vAnaprasthAzramamAM praveza kare che. A varSa daramyAna zrImade saMpUrNa saMnyAsa levA mATenI sarva prakAranI bAMhya tema ja AMtara taiyArI paNa karavA mAMDI hatI. paraMtu acAnaka temanuM zarIra e arasAmAM ja kathaLavA lAge che. te zrImad sarvasaMgaparityAga karavAnA pitAnA nirNayamAM eTalA ja nizcala rahe che. e ja varSamAM amadAvAda pAsenA nareDA gAmamAM munio hatA tyAM zrImadda padhAryA hatA. e veLAe zrImade zrI devakaraNajIne kahyuM: "have ame taddana asaMga thavA IcchIe chIe. keInA paricayamAM AvavuM gamatuM nathI. evI saMyamazraNamAM rahevA AtmA Icche che." zrI devakaraNajIe pUchyuM: "anaMta dayA jJAnI puruSanI che, te kyAM jaze?" zrImad kaheH "aMte e paNa mUkavAnI che." tyAra bAda zrImad saM. 157mAM pharIthI amadAvAda padhAryA hatA. teo AgAkhAnane baMgale pitAnAM mAtuzrI tathA dharmapatnI sahita rahyA hatA. te vakhate munio paNa comAsuM pUruM karI amadAvAda AvyA hatA. zrImadda pAse "jJAnAva" ane "svAmI kArtikeyAnuprekSA" nAmanA be meTA digaMbarI graMthe hAthanA lakhelA hatA. e graMthe zrI lallujI mahArAja ane zrI devakaraNajIne mAtuzrI devamAtA ane zrI jhabakabAnA haste vaharAvyA hatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 211 te veLAe sAthenA bIjA munioe vihAramAM graMthA UMcakavAmAM pramAdavRtti sevelI ane vRtti sa'kAcelI e deASA pote jANI laIne te dUra kare evA uddezathI zrImadde kahyuM: munie, A jIve srIputrAdinA bhAra vahyA che. paNa satpuruSonI ke dharmAtmAnI sevAbhakti pramAda rahita uThAvI nathI.' ( pachI zrImadde munizrI lakSmIca'dajIne kahyuM : 'tamAre zrI devakaraNajI pAsenA 'jJAnAva'graMtha te vAMce tyAM sudhI vihAramAM UMcakavA; tema ja zrI kArtikeyAnuprekSA' zrI lallujI vAMce tyAM sudhI vihAramAM zrI meAhanalAlajIe UMcakavA.' vAtacIta daramyAna zrI devakaraNajIe pUchyuM : ' A zarIra AvuM ekadama kema kRza thaI gayuM? ' 6 zrImad kaheH ame zarIranI sAme paDyA chIe. dharamapuramAM rahI apathyAhAra karavAthI ema dekhAya che.' zrImade mAtuzrI devamAtAne khAra vrata saMkSepamAM lakhI ApI vrata levA munie pAse aMbAlAlabhAI sAthe meAkalyAM hatAM. sAthe zrI jhabakamA paNa hatAM. ' zrI jJAnA va'mAMthI brahmacaya ne adhikAra saMbhaLAvavA paNa zrImade sUcanA karelI te pramANe zrI devakaraNajIe mAtuzrI tema ja jhakhakakhAne vAMcI sabhaLAvyeA. tyAra bAda zrI devakaraNajIe mAtuzrI devamAtAne kahyuM: 'mAtuzrI, have Apa AjJA ApeA, jethI kRpALudeva For Personal & Private Use Only

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ra1.2 zrImad rAjacaMdra (zrIma) sarva virati grahaNa kare ane ghaNuM jIvana uddhAra kare.' mAtuzrI devamAtA belyAM: "mane bahu meha che; temanA uparane meha mane chUTatuM nathI. temanuM zarIra sAruM thayA pachI huM sarvavirati grahaNa karavA temane rajA daIza." te ja divase zrImad munie pAse bhAvasAranI vADIe gayA hatA. tyAM zrI mohanalAlajIe prazna karyo H "maraNa samaye Atmapradeze kayA aMgamAMthI nIkaLatA haze?" zrImade daSTAMta ApI uttara ApeH nIkamAM pANI cAlyuM jatuM hoya ane nIka jyAMthI phATe, tyAMthI pANI cAlyuM jAya. ame maraNanuM svarUpa tapAsI vALyuM che ke, A sthitine jagatanA cha maraNa kahe che." | munie bhAvasAranI vADIthI vihAra karI sarasapura upAzrayamAM gayA hatA. rAtre bAra vAgyA pachI aMbAlAlabhAIne munio pAse javAnI AjJA thavAthI tyAM te ekalA gayA ane munione kaheH "Aje mArA para parama gurue apUrva kRpA karI che. mAre je pramAda hatuM, te Aje naSTa karyo che; jAgRti ApI, mULamArga ke joIe te saMbaMdhe vyavahAra ane paramArthanuM piSaNa thAya tevA sadvyavahAranuM svarUpa paNa kahyuM." ema savAra sudhI vAta karIne aMbAlAlabhAI pAchA zrImad pAse gayA hatA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 213 ahIM eka prasaMganuM smaraNa karavuM jarUrI che. IDaranA samAgamamAM eka vakhate AmravRkSa nIce zrImade munione kahyuM hatuM : "munio, jIvanI vRtti tIvrapaNAmAMthI paNa narama paDI jAya che. aMbAlAlanI vRtti ane dazA, prathama bhakti ane vairAgyAdinA kAraNe labdhi pragaTAve tevI hatI, te evI ke traNa cAra kalAka bedha karyo hoya te bIje divase ke trIje divase tene lakhI lAvavA kahIe te te badhuM amArA zabdomAM ja lakhI lAvatA. hAla pramAda ane lebhAdinAM kAraNathI vRtti zithila thaI che, ane te deSa tenAmAM pragaTa thaze ema ame bAra mAsa pahelAMthI jANatA hatA. e sAMbhaLIne zrI lallujInA manamAM kheta utpanna thaye. temaNe zrImadane pUchayuM: "zuM te ema ne ema ja raheze?" tyAre zrImade kahyuM: muni, kheda karaze mA. jema nadInA pravAhamAM taNAtuM pAMdaDuM koI eka jALA AgaLa aTakI jAya, paNa pharI pUrapravAhanA vahanamAM jALAthI juduM paDI cheka mahAsamudramAM jaI maLe. te pramANe tene pramAda amArA bedhathI dUra thaze ane paramapadane pAmaze." amadAvAdamAM eka divase zrImade zrI devakaraNajIne kahyuM : ame strI ane lakSamI baMne tyAgyAM che; ane sarva For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacadra saMgaparityAganI AjJA mAtuzrI Apaze ema lAge che.' e sAMbhaLIne zrI devakaraNajI harSa pAmatA khelI UDyA amArA pUrva puNyanA udaya thayA ke amane ApanI nira'tara sevA samAgama maLaze.' 214 khIje divase vaDhavANa jatAM pahelAM AgAkhAnane khaMgale zrI lallujI ane zrI devakaraNajIne kheAlAvI zrImade chellI sUcanA ApatAM jaNAvyu': 'amArAmAM ane vItarAgamAM bheda gaNaze nahi.' amadAvAdathI zrImadanuM vaDhavANu javAnuM thayuM, tyAM khabhAtanA bhAI lallubhAI tathA nagInabhAI zrImanAM darzane gayelA. tyAMthI pAchA khaMbhAta jatI vakhate zrImadde teone kahyuM hatuM : phrI maLIe ke na maLIe, samAgama thAya ke na thAya, paNa amArA pratye akhaMDa vizvAsa rAkhajo. amArAmAM ne zrI mahAvIradevamAM kaI paNa phera nathI. phakta A paheraNanA phera che.' vaDhavANu zrImad rahyA te daramyAna 'paramazruta prabhAvaka maMDaLa'nI ceAjanA zrImade zarU karI hatI. sa'. 1956nA bhAdaravAmAM eka patramAM ene ullekha karatAM zrImad jaNAve che: 'parama sadbhutanA pracArarUpa eka ceAjanA dhArI che. te pracAra thaI paramA mA prakAza pAme tema thaze. "prajJAvamedha " bhAga "mAkSamALA"nA 108 maNukA atre lakhAvazuM.' For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 215 eka sArI rakamanI TIpa karI temAMthI mahAna AcAryonA aprasiddha graMtha prasiddha karAvI tattvavicAraNA mATe janasamUhane anukULatA maLe tevA hetuthI te saMsthA sthapAI hatI. lakSamIne tyAga karyA pachI zrImad bahu bArIkAIthI vrata pALatA. relagADInI TikiTa sarakhI paNa pitAnI pAse rAkhatA nahi. "paramazruta prabhAvaka maMDaLane aMge nANAMnI vAtamAM bhaLavuM paDe che te paNa aticAra rUpe lekhatA. paraMtu A arasAmAM zrImanI tabiyata dhIredhIre vadhAre ne vadhAre bagaDatI ja cAlI. havAphera mATe temane dariyA kinAre muMbaI, mATuMgA, ziva ane valasADa pAse tIthala vagere sthaLoe laI javAmAM AvyA hatA. tyAMthI pachI vaDhavANa kempamAM lIMmaDInA utArAmAM thoDe vakhata rahevAnuM banyuM hatuM. ahIM vaDhavANamAM zrImade be phoTA padmAsana ane kAusagga mudrAnA bhAI sukhalAlanI mAgaNIthI paDAvyA hatA. pachIthI rAjakeTa ANavAmAM AvyA. ahIM ghaNuMkharA mumukSuo AvatA, paNa zarIra ghaNuM azakta thaI gayeluM hevAne kAraNe dAktaree zrImadane vAtacIta paNa vizeSa na karAvavAnI khAsa takedArI rAkhI hatI. patra lakhAvavA paDe te eka be lITInA ja teo lakhAvatA. rAjakoTamAM lakhelA chellA patro ahIM ApyA cheH For Personal & Private Use Only

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zrImad rAjacaMdra saM. 1957, phAgaNa vada 13, sema 34 zarIra saMbaMdhamAM bIjI vAra Aje aprAkRta kama zarU thaye. jJAnIone sanAtana samAga jayavaMta varto. 2 saM. 1957, citra suda 2, zukra 34 anaMta zAMtamUrti evA caMdraprabha svAmIne namo nama: vedanIya tathArUpa udayamAnapaNe vedavAmAM harSazeka ze? 8 zAMtiH. zrImadanA nAnA bhAIzrI manasukhabhAI zrI revAzaMkarabhAI, De. prANajIvanadAsabhAI, lImaDIvALA bhAI manasukhabhAI vagere zrImanI sAravAramAM hatA. paraMtu e sAnI prema ane kALajIbharI sArasaMbhALa ane zuzruSA paNa gamanabhukha AtmAne rekI zakI nahi. - zrI manasukhabhAI ravajIbhAIe zrImadanI aMtima avasthAnuM varNana eka patramAM nIce mujaba ApyuM cheH manaduHkha - huM chevaTanI paLa paryata asAvadha rahyo! te pavitrAtmAe ADakatarI rIte cetavyuM, tathApi rAgane laIne samajI zakyo nahi. have smaraNa thAya che ke teoe mane ekavAra cetavaNI ApI hatI. "ajJAna, aMdha ane mUkha teozrInI vANI samajI zakavAne asamartha hate. dehatyAganA AgalA divase sAyaMkALe revAzaMkara For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanansAdhanA 217 bhAI narabherAma, huM vagere bhAIone kahyuM, "tame nizcita raheje, A AtmA zAzvata che, tame zAMti ane samAdhipaNe pravartaze. je ratnamaya jJAnavANuM A deha dvArA kahI zakAvAnI hatI te kahevAne samaya nathI. tame puruSArtha karaze." AvI spaSTa cetavaNI chatAM ame rAganA kAraNathI cetI zakyA nahi. ame te ema baphamamAM rahyA ke azakti jaNAya che." rAtrinA aDhI vAgye atyaMta zaradI thaI te samaye teozrIe jaNAvyuM ke, "nizcita rahejobhAInuM samAdhi mRtyu che." upAye karatAM zaradI ochI thaI gaI? paNAATha vAgye savAre dUdha ApyuM, te teoe lIdhuM. taddana saMpUrNa zuddhimAM mana, vacana ane kAyA rahyAM hatAM." paNAnave kahyuM, "manasukha, duHkha na pAmate; mAne ThIka rAkhaje. huM mArA AtmasvarUpamAM lIna thAuM chuM." sADAsAta vAgye je bichAnAmAM paDyA hatA, temAMthI eka keca upara pheravavA mane AjJA karI. "mane lAgyuM ke, azakti ghaNuM jaNAya che mATe pheraphAra na kara. tyAre teozrIe AjJA karI ke tvarAthI pheraphAra kara. eTale meM samAdhistha bhAve sUI zakAya evI keca upara vyavasthA karI, je upara te pavitra deha ane AtmA samAdhistha bhAve chUTA paDyA leza mAtra AtmA For Personal & Private Use Only

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218 zrImad rAjacaMdra chUTo thavAnAM ci na jaNAyAM. jemajema prANa ochA thavA lAgyA tema tema mukhamudrAnI kAMti vizeSapaNe prakAza pAmavA lAgI. vaDhavANa kempamAM je sthitimAM UbhAMUbhAM citrapaTa paDAvela te ja sthitimAM koca upara samAdhi pAMca kalAka rahI. laghuzaMkA, dIrghazaMkA, meDhe pANI ke AMkhe pANI ke paraseve kaMI paNa piNa AThathI be vAgyA sudhI prANa chUTA paDyA te paNa kazuM jaNAyuM nahotuM. eka kalAke dUdha pIdhA pachI hamezAM dizAe javuM paDatuM tene badale Aje kAMI paNa nahi jevI rIte yaMtrane cAvI daI AdhIna karI levAmAM Ave e rIte karela. "AvA samAdhisthabhAve te pavitra AtmA ane dehane saMbaMdha chUTyo..." Ama saMvata 157nA citra vada pAMcama ne maMgaLavAre bapore be vAgatAM zrImad rAjacaMdrajI A kSetra ane nAzavaMta dehane tyAga karIne uttama gati pAmyA paramapada pAmyA. 34 zAMtiH zAMtiH zAMtiH | e paramapadaprAptinuM kayuM dhyAna meM, gaja vagara ne hAla maneratharUpa je; te paNa nizcaya rAjacaMdra manane rahyo, prabhu-AjJAe thAzuM te ja svarUpa je." zrImanI aMtima veLAe navalacaMdabhAI paNa hAjara hatA. temaNe aMbAlAlabhAIne patra dvArA lakhyuM hatuM: - "nirvANa samayanI mUrti anupama, citanyavyApI, For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 219 zAMta, manahara ne jotAM tRpti na thAya evI zebhatI hatI ema ApaNane guNAnurAgIne te lAge, paNa jeo bIjA saMbaMdhe hAjara hatAM teone paNa Azcarya pamADatI ne pUjyabhAva utpanna karatI jaNAtI hatI. A vakhatanA addabhuta svarUpanuM varNana karavAne AtmAmAM je bhAva thAya che te lakhI zakAtuM nathI." zrI manasukhabhAI AgaLa ApaNe joI gayA e patramAM ja jaNAve che? pite taddana vItarAga bhAve pravRtti karelI, eTale kaI paNa prakAre teozrIe pitAnI mAnI pravRtti karelI nahi, udAsInapaNuM ja egya dhAyuM hatuM. have ApaNe kenuM avalaMbana rahyuM - mAtra teozrInAM vacanAmRtanuM ane temanAM sadavartananuM anukaraNa karavuM e ja mahAna avalaMbana huM mAnuM chuM.' zrI aMbAlAlabhAI pitAnuM hadaya nIcenA patramAM ThAlave cheH vizALa araNyane vize ati suMdara ane zAMti ApanAruM evuM eka ja vRkSa heya, te vRkSamAM niHzaMkatAthI zAMtapaNe kamaLapaNe sukhAnaMdamAM pakSIgaNa malatAM hoya, te vRkSa ekAeka dAvAgnithI prajavalita thayuM hoya te vakhate te vRkSathI AnaMda pAmanArAM pakSIone keTaluM duHkha prApta thAya jene kSaNa eka paNa zAMti na hoya! ahAhA! te vakhatanA duHkhanuM meTA kavIzvara paNa varNana karavAne asamartha che; tevuM ja apAra duHkha aghora aTavIne For Personal & Private Use Only

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220 zrImad rAjacaMdra vize A pAmara jIvane ApI he prabhu! tame kyAM gayA? - "he bhArata bhUmi! zuM AvA, deha chatAM videhapaNe vicaratA prabhune bhAra tArAthI vahana na thaye? je tema ja heya te A pAmarane ja bhAra tAre haLave kara hata; ke nAhaka te tArI pRthvI upara bojA rUpa karI nAkhe. "he mahAvikarALa kALa, tane jarA paNa dayA na AvI! chappaniyAnA mahAduSkALa vakhate lAkhe manuSyane te bhAga lIdhe, te paNa tuM tRpta thaye nahi; ane tethI paNa tArI tRpti nahetI thaI te A dehane ja prathama bhakSa tAre karavuM hatuM ke AvA parama zAMta prabhune te janmAntarano viga karAvyA! tArI nirdayatA ane kaTheratA mArA pratye vAparavI hatI! zuM tuM hasamukha thaI mArA sAmuM jue che! "he zAsanadevI! tamAruM paribaLa A vakhate kALanA mukha AgaLa kyAM gayuM ! tamAre zAsananI unnatinI sevA bajAvavAmAM agresara tarIke sAdhanabhUta evA prabhu hatA; jene tame trikaraNage namaskAra karI sevAmAM hAjara rahetAM te A vakhate kayA sukhamAM nimagna thaI gayAM ke A mahAkALe zuM karavA mAMDyuM che tene vicAra ja na karyo. - "he prabhu! tamArA vinA ame tenI pAse phariyAda karIzuM? tame ja jyAre nirdayatA vAparI tyAM have bIje dayALu thAya ja keNu? he prabhu! tamArI parama kRpA, anaMta dayA, karuNAmaya hRdaya, kamaLa vANuM, cittaharaNa For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 221 zakti, vairAgyanI tIvratA, bAdhabIjanuM apUrva paNuM, samyaka jJAna, samyagdarzana ane samyakrazcAritranuM saMpUrNa ujamALapaNuM, paramArthalIlA, apAra zAMti, niSkAraNa karuNA, niHsvArthI bedha, satsaMganI apUrvatA. e Adi uttamattama guNAnuM huM zuM smaraNa karuM? vidvAna kavio ane rAjendra deve ApanAM guNastavana karavAne asamartha che te A kalamamAM alpa paNa samatA kyAMthI Ave? ApanA paramotkRSTa guNanuM smaraNa thavAthI mArA zuddha aMtaHkaraNathI trikaraNage ApanAM pavitra caraNAraviMdamAM abhivaMdana karuM chuM. ApanuM gabaLa, Ape prakAzita karelAM vacano ane ApeluM bAdhabIja mAruM rakSaNa kare, e ja sadeva IcchuM chuM. Ape sadevane mATe viyeganI A smaraNamALA ApI te have vismRta nahi karuM. - "kheda, kheda ane kheda e vinA bIjuM kaMI sUjhatuM nathI! rAtridivasa raDI raDIne kADhuM chuM. kAMI sUjha paDatI nathI !' A ja sthiti zrImanA sau bhaktajane tathA mumukSujananI thaI hatI. dharmanuM mahAna avalaMbana ane piSaNa ApanAra kalpavRkSa samAna zrImad sadgurune viga darekane asahya thayA vinA na ja rahe. - zrImanAM dharmapatnI jhabakabA pitAne kALa ekAMtamAM, zrImade ApelA smaraNanI mALAmAM ja gALatAM. bahu ja thoDA kALamAM temane paNa deha chUTI gaye hate. zrImanAM mAtuzrI devamAtAnuM haiyuM bahu kamaLa For Personal & Private Use Only

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222 zrImad rAjacaMdra hatuM. keI zrImadanI vAta kADhe te temanI AMkho AsuMthI chalakAI jatI. Ama paramakRpALu zrImad rAjacaMdrajI saunAM aMtaHkaraNamAM vyApI gayA hatA. evA mahAna saddagurune dehavilaya thatAM saunAM hRdaya AkuLavyAkuLa thayA vinA rahe ja zAnAM? paraMtu tyAM te zrImade vIsa varSanI vaye eka patramAM je lakhyuM hatuM te ApaNane haiyAdhAraNarUpa thaI paDe che ane zrImadane preraka saMdeza ApI jAya cheH AtmabhAvamAM saghaLuM rAkhaje. dharmadhyAnamAM upaga rAkhaje. jagatanA keI paNa padArtha, sagAM, kuTuMbI, mitrane kaMI harSazeka karavA yogya ja nathI. parama zAMtipadane icchIe e ja ApaNe sarvasamaMta dharma che; ane e ja IchAmAM ne IcchAmAM te maLI jaze, mATe nizcita rahe. "gacchamAM nathI, paNa AtmAmAM chuM e bhUlaze nahi." ane ApaNe AtmA paramakRpALudeva zrImad rAjacaMdrajInA pavitra caraNakamaLa bhaktibhAvapUrvaka praNAma karate prAthI UThe cheH parama puruSa prabhu saddaguru, parama jJAna sukhadhAma; jeNe ApyuM bhAna nija, tene sadA praNAma." For Personal & Private Use Only

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16 zrImanAM smArako zrI paramazrata prabhAvaka maMDaLa: saMvata 156nA paryuSaNa parva upara zrImadanI vaDhavANa kempamAM sthiti hatI. te vakhate teozrInI zarIra prakRti asvastha hovAthI ghaNA guNAnurAgIone samUha tyAM maLyo hate. A prasaMge zrImanI evI IcchA thaI ke cirakALa TakI zake evuM kAMIka jJAnapracAranuM kArya thAya te sAruM. e IcchA bhegA maLelA guNAnurAgI bhAIoe upADI lIdhI ane te ja vakhate eka phALe Ubhe karyo. thoDAka ja vakhatamAM lagabhaga rU. 9,000 bharAI gayA. A phALAnI yogya vyavasthA karavA te nANAM zrImane badhAe maLI arpaNa karyA. zrImade tenI eka TIpa taiyAra karAvI. te TIpa muMbaI zA. revAzaMkara jagajIvananA nAmathI cAlatI peDhI upara mekalI ApI. A rIte A maMDaLanI sthApanA thaI. zrImanI IcchA anusAra enuM nAma "paramazruta prabhAvaka maMDaLa pADavAmAM AvyuM. paramazruta prabhAvaka maMDaLa eTale For Personal & Private Use Only

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224 zrImada rAjacaMdra utkRSTa jJAnane utkarSa karanAra maMDaLa-lekasamUhamAM utkRSTa jJAnane phelAve karanAra maMDaLa. "parama zruta prabhAvaka maMDaLa"nI yojanA nizcita svarUpa pakaDe e pahelAM ja zrImadda dehavilaya thaye. tyAra pachI jaina bhaMDAranAM mULa pustaka meLavIne bhASAMtara karavAnuM kAma banI zake tema nahi hevAthI, zrI vItarAgazratanA siddhAMta paikI nyAya ane tatva viSayaka graMthanI prasiddhi hiMdI anuvAdarUpe dvimAsika dvArA zarU thaI. pAchaLathI dvimAsikane badale amuka vakhatane aMtare AkhA graMthe pragaTa karavAnuM zarU thayuM. A pramANe bahAra paDatAM pustakane zrImaddanA smArakarUpe zrI rAjacaMdra jaina zAstramALA" evuM nAma ApavAmAM AvyuM. sva. revAzaMkarabhAI jagajIvanadAsanA maMtrIpaNuM nIce A saMsthAe aneka uttama graMthe dvArA janasamAjamAM alabhya evAM pustakanA abhyAsanI vRddhi karI che. zrImanI hayAtImAM teozrIne jude jude prasaMge mumukSu bhAIo tathA munizrIo vagere taraphathI bhinnabhinna viSaye aMge pUchelA praznonA javAbanA patrane saMgraha khaMbhAta ane amadAvAdanA mumukSubhAIoe karela tathA zrImanI racelI bhAvanAbedha, kSamALA, Atmasiddhi ItyAdi kRtio vagere sAmagrIne ekatrita karI tema ja saMzodhita karAvI "zrImad rAjacaMdra" nAmane eka bRhadagraMtha A maMDaLe chapAvI prasiddha karyo che e paNa zrImanuM eka addabhuta smAraka ja che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 225 "zrI subodha pAThazALA : zrI aMbAlAlabhAI mumukSujanone upayogI thAya evAM pustake zrImanI sUcanA anusAra maMgAvI rAkhI, zrImadda sUcave te pramANe je jene gyA hoya tene te mokalI ApatA. kharIdavAnI IcchA hoya te kiMmata ApI rAkhI letA, nahi te abhyAsa karI pAchuM mokalatA. A pramANe jJAnanI parabarUpa "zrI subodha pAThazALAnI sthApanA thaI. tyAM khaMbhAta ane tenI AjubAjunA mumukSuo AvIne sagraMthone abhyAsa karatA, bhakti karatA tathA satsaMgane lAbha meLavatA. hAla paNa e saMsthA pustakAlaya ane bhaktisthAna tarIke satsaMganA dhAmarUpa banI gaI che. zrI nijAbhyAsa maMDapa : zrImadda khaMbhAta pAse vaDavAmAM nivRtti nimitte ghaNA vakhata AvI rahelA te tIrthasthaLanA smaraNArthe tathA satsaMga arthe e ekAMta uttama sthaLa hovAthI eka suMdara makAna ane derAsaranI anukULatA sahita "zrI nijAbhyAsa maMDapa" nAma ApI zrI popaTalAlabhAI mahekamacaMda tathA temanA paricita zrImaddanA prazaMsakoe eka saMsthA sthApelI che, te paNa satsaMganuM ramaNIya sthAna che. zrImade svamukhe ema kaheluM ke sAme Tekare zrI caMdraprabha prabhunI sthApanA thaze. khaMbhAta sTezanathI eka mAIla dUra A Azrama Avela che. vaDanI pAse vAva AvelI hevAthI "vaDavA" kahevAya che. jI - sA - 15 For Personal & Private Use Only

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226 zrImad rAjacaMdra zrI sanAtana jaina dhama-zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama: zrI laghurAja svAmI municaryAnusAre aneka sthaLoe kyAMka sthira rahyA vinA vicaryA karatA. dhIme dhIme vRddhAvasthA ane vyAdhine kAraNe paganI zakti ghaTI jatAM, agAsa pAsenA saMdezara gAmamAM ghaNuM bhaktajanene samUha bhakti nimitte ekatra thayela, teonA AgrahathI zrI laghurAja svAmIe keI sthaLa zrImadanA smAraka tarIke ane bhaktidhAma tarIke pasaMda thAya ane makAna bane to ghaNe vakhata rahevAnuM svIkAryuM. e rIte saM. 1976nA kArataka suda puname saMdezara mukAme A Azramane saMkalpa karavAmAM AvyuM. saMdezaranA sva. jIjIbhAI nAmanA udAra sagRhathe jamIna ApI ane anya gRhae eka sArI rakamanI TIpa karI. Ama agAsa sTezananI bAjumAM "zrImad rAjacaMdra AzramanI sthApanA thaI. A AzramamAM manahara derAsara che, jemAM nIce zvetAMbara ane upara digaMbara pratimAo tathA bheMyarAmAM zrImad rAjacaMdranI ArasanI pratimA birAje che. A pratimAnI eka bAju praNava 34 kAranI sthApanA che tathA bIjI bAju zrImadjInI pAdukAjInI sthApanA che. AzramanA mukhya pravezadvAranI upara "kSamA e ja melane bhavya daravAje che" e vAkya meTA akSare aMkita kareluM che. zrImad rAjacaMdra janma-bhavana : zrImad rAjacaMdrane janma vavANiyAmAM thayela hatuM. e sthAna paNa pavitra For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana sAdhanA gaNAya. eTale zrI ravajIbhAI paMcANubhAInI mULa jagyA tathA tenI AsapAsanI jagyAmAM 'zrImad rAjacadra janma-bhavana' nAmanuM bhavya makAna aMdhAvyu che. e janma-bhavanamAM jinAlaya, gurumadira, vyAkhyAnagRha tathA dharmazALAnA samAveza thAya che. : 6 zrImad rAjacatra jJAna-prakAza madira': vavANiyAmAM zrImad rAjacaMdrane sAta varSanI vaye je khAvaLanA jhADa upara jAtismaraNa jJAna thayelu, te jagyAmAM zrImada rAjacaMdra jJAna-prakAza madira'nI sthApanA karavAmAM AvI che, temAM sa. 2008nA kArataka suda pUrNimAne rAja pAdukAjInI pratiSThA karavAmAM AvI che. ' zrImad rAjacaMdra vihAra bhavana: zrImad rAjacaMdra ekAMta sAdhanAthe iDaranA pahADomAM vAravAra vicarelA, tyAM ghaMTiyA pahADa para eka mATI zilAne siddhazilA' zrImade jaNAvI hatI. e sthAne Aje suMdara maMdira, abhyAsa ma`Dapa ane dharmazALA khAMdhavAmAM AvI che. AtmasAdhanArthe ekAMta ane zAMta sthAna banyuM che. ' zrI uttarasa'DA-vanakSetra': sa. 1954mAM khullAM khetarAmAM eka makAnamAM zrImad ekAMtacaryA mATe rahyA hatA. te makAnane punaH maMdira rUpe AMdhI dharmazALA sAthe eka suMdara sthAna bAMdhyuM che. zrImad rAjacaMdra samAdhi maMdira : zrImad rAjacaMdranA aMtima agnisa skAra rAjakeTamAM nadI kinAre thayA hatA. te sthAne eka samAdhi maMdira AMdhavAmAM 227 For Personal & Private Use Only 6

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228 zrImad rAjacaMdra AvyuM che. zrImad rAjacaMdra jJAnabhaMDAra: "zrImad rAjacaMdra jJAnabhaMDAra" nAmanI sAhitya prakAzana mATenI saMsthAne samAveza amadAvAda mukAme gUjarAta vidyApITha saMcAlita purAtatva maMdiramAM karavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. paraMtu purAtattva maMdira baMdha thatAM have "zrImada rAjacaMdra jJAna bhaMDAra" gUjarAta vidyApITha calAve che. zrI gUjarAta vidyApITha taraphathI "zrI rAjacaMdra jayaMtI mALA" prasiddha thAya che. emAM Aja sudhI tattvajJAnane lagatAM chaeka pustaka prasiddha thayAM che. emAM zrImad rAjacaMdrakRta "AtmasiddhizAstra" ane "zrImad rAjacaMdranI daSTAMtakathAo" Adine samAveza thAya che. zrImadda pratye bhaktivaMta bhAIoe pitApitAnAM gAmamAM satsaMga bhaktinA nimitte zrImad rAjacaMdra maMdiranI sthApanA karI che. e rIte kAviThA, nAra, bhAdaraNa, suNAva, sImaraDA, dhAmaNa, saDedarA, AhAra, Idera, amadAvAda, vaDhavANa, berasada, kalola, suNAva, vase, naroDA, vavANiyA, beMglora, vaDAlI, hampI ane devalAlI vagere sthaLee "zrImad rAjacaMdra maMdiranI sthApanA karavAmAM AvI che. zrImad rAjacaMdranA AtmAnubhavI sAhitya ne sAdhanAthI AkarSAtA bhaktone samudAya vadhatuM jAya che tema tema upAsanA-sAdhanAnAM sthAne maMdire smArakarUpe vadhatAM jAya che. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 229 A badhAM smAraka karatAM zrImad rAjacaMdrajInuM sauthI zreSTha smAraka te zrImadanA jIvanasaMdezane jhIlIne yathAzakti prayatna karI AtmArtha sAdhavA mathatAM sau zrImadu-bhakta mumukSujane ja che. evAM mumukSujane zrImanI satzikSAne AtmasAt karI pavitra tIrthadhAma samAM banI zake che ane teonAM aMtaHkaraNarUpI maMdiramAM kRpALudevane sadA vAsa che. chevaTe kRpALudevanAM pavitra caraNakamaLamAM mastaka namAvI prAthu chuM: zuM prabhucaraNa kane dharuM, AtmAthI sau hIna, te te prabhue Api, vatuM caraNAdhIna." AtmasiddhizAstra gA. 25 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanAmAM 'zrImad rAjacaMdra' bRhada graMthamAMthI lIdhelA lakhANanA patrAMka zrImad rAjacaMdra bRhada graMtha sa. 2007nI AvRttinA patrAMka pAna 5 6 7 7 9 12 13 13 14 14 15 15 16 jIvana-sAdhanA lITI 10 thI 18 AkhuM pAna 1 thI 13 19 thI 24 1 thI 4 6 thI 15 21 thI 24 pariziSTa-1 patra--saMdarbha 1 thI 4 7 thI 10 5 thI 9 23 thI 24 1 thI 10 16 thI 24 AkhuM pAna 89 89 89 17-meAkSamALA pA. pacha ,, 89 960 hAthaneAMdha-1 (32) ,, 77 424 89 89 128 128 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvana-sAdhanA 231 pAna patraka 17 lITI 1 thI 14 7 thI 10 128 1.8 89 19 8 126 126 1 thI 2 22 1 thI 4 23 thI 24 1 thI 3 22 thI 24 1 thI 15 10 thI 13 9 thI 16 89 89 1 / 44 18 718-Atmasiddhi gA. 117 21(76); 21(80); 21 (12) (11); 6 (12) 17 me. mA. pATha 84 40 17 me. mA. pATha 99 48 4 5 o 50 Vo 4 thI 9 13 thI 19 6 thI 18 7 thI 16 22 thI 23 24 1 thI 5 6 thI 7 [8 thI 14 15 thI 16 17 thI 18 19 thI 20 21 thI 24 21 (12) 108 51 112 108 21 (26); 21(34) For Personal & Private Use Only

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232 zrImad rAjacaMdra pAna patrAMka lITI 1 thI 5 16 thI 22 pa3 1 thI 15 19(10 -83 -84 -201 -315 -678 -90 -245 -401 -409 -544 -543) 19(545 -559 -160 -75 -190 -395 -4ra3 -4ra4 -436 -458 -459 -505 -pa06 -638 -287 -318 -297 -298 -70 -72 -73 -64 -139 -235) 53 101 54 19(549-06-137-173) 17 me. mA. pATha-64 54 55 56 56 24 thI 25 1 thI 4 17 thI 24 AkhuM pAna 1 thI 3 4 thI 24 15 thI 17 1 thI 2 [8 thI 21 11 thI 24 1 thI 16 18 thI 24 3 thI 22 17 mo. mA. pATha-65 103 103 59 30 78 9Z 113 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 233 patrAMka 113 64 65 2 67 960 hAtha noMdha- 1(3ra) 133 133 133 15ra 15. 70 70 71 (93. 3ra. lITI 1 thI 16 22 thI 24 AkhuM pAna 1 thI 15 5 thI 8 7 thI 17 1 thI 19 1 thI 3 6 thI 7 1 thI 2 6 thI 18 20 thI 24 1 thI 5 8 thI 13 17 thI 22 AkhuM pAna 1 thI 2 4 thI 6 9 thI 11 16 thI 23 AkhAM pAna 1 thI 4 7 thI 18 8 thI 15 20 thI 23 11 thI 15 91 91 157 (11) 187 187 74 187 74 189 74 201 74 75/76 77 255 255 255 258 960 hAtha noMdha- 1(32) 730 77 78 78 313 For Personal & Private Use Only

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234 zrImad rAjacaMdra pAna patrAMka 324 79 20 324 lITI 17 1 thI 8 21 thI 24 1 thI 19 21 thI 24 1 thI 8 10 thI 21 8 thI 9 20 thI 22 AkhuM pAna 1 thI 14 5 thI 12 4 thI 10 15 thI 17 329 329 398 398 415 83 84 _.9 84 157 (13) 21 738 7 400 99 465 465 373 118 119 866 123 124 124 125 16 thI 19 thI 5 21 thI 24 11 thI 13 16 thI 24 1 thI 12 13 thI 22 1 thI 3 23 thI 24 116 117 117 117 118 118 13ra 133 125 126 128 129 132 1 24 782. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA pAna 133 133 134 140 141 163 173 174 patrAMka 782 786 960 hAthanoMdha- 2 (20) 500 500 956 (32) 956 (10) 956 (10) 956 (10) 956 (7) 956 (24) 17 zi. 5 ane mu. mudrA 175 182 182 182 183 lITI 1 thI 10 13 thI 15 4 thI 12 16 thI 24 1 thI 5 13 thI 24 18 thI 22 AkhuM pAna 1 thI 3 5 thI 10 14 thI 19 23 thI 24. 1 thI 17 20 thI 22 18 thI 24 1 thI 7 8 thI 24 AkhuM pAna 1 thI 2 2 thI 5 6 thI 9 2 thI 20 1 thI 8 11 thI 12 18 thI 24 AkhuM pAna 183 185 186 186 187 188 199 199 17 me. mA. pA- 1 17 upadUdhAta 17 upodaghAta 17 pATha 21 17 pATha 21 17 ,, 738 17 pATha 50 17 pATha 50 738 738 217 217 200 201 201 201 For Personal & Private Use Only

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236 zrImad rAjacaMdra pAna patrAMka 217 203 203 334 203 77 204 334 204 205 439 439 205 380 205 382. 205 420 206 173 206 lITI 1 thI 5 13 thI 19 23 thI 24 1 thI 17 20 thI 24 1 thI 5 6 thI 13 14 thI 17 18 thI 23 2 thI 6 12 thI 22 AkhuM pAna 1 thI 11 16 thI 18 21 thI 23 2 thI 11 21 thI 24 1 thI 8 18 thI 21 10 thI 18 22 thI 23 chellI be lITI 708 207 708 208 708 208 208 209 214 216 582 960 hAthoMdha- 1 (3ra) 708 956 (24) dupara-953 738 37 266 718-gAthA 125 218 222 222 229 For Personal & Private Use Only

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avadhAna--eka vakhate aneka kArDamAM lakSa rAkhI smRtizakti tathA ekAgratAnI adbhUtatA khatAvavI te. avyAbAdha--khAdhA, pIDA vagaranuM. asAtA--duHkha, zArIrika duHkha. asa`gatA--AtmA sivAyanA saMga prasaMgamAM paDavuM nahi te. udaya (kama )--dravya, kSetra, kALa tathA bhAvane laIne ka je peAtAnI zakti dekhADe che tene kane udaya kahevAmAM karma phaLanuM pragaTavuM. Ave che; pariziSTa-2 zabdA upazama--kamanuM zAMta thavuM te. kAyAtsa--zarIranI mamatA cheDIne AtmAnI sanmukha thavuM; AtmadhyAna karavuM. khA--icchA. ceAvihAra-rAtre cAra prakAranA AhAranA tyAga: (1) khAdyajethI peTa bharAya jema roTalI vagere; (2) svAdya--svAda levA yogya jema elacI; ( 3) lehyucATavA yogya padArtha jema rAkhaDI; ( 4 ) peca-pIvA yAgya jema pANI dUdha ityAdi. du:Sama kALa--pacama kALa; A AreA pacamakAla che; anya dara nakArA ene ja kaliyuga kahe che; jinAgamamAM A kALane 'du:Sama ' evI sajJA kahI che. nirA--karmAnuM AtmAthI chUTA paDavuM te. nihAra--zauca, malatyAga. paccakhANa--kazuka tyAgavAnuM vratapratijJA. pratikramaNathayelA doSAnA pazcA tApa. For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 239 bhadrikapaNuM-saraLatA; uttamatA. videhI dazA-deha hovA chatAM je bhaya saMjJA-jethI jIvane bhaya lAgyA potAnA zuddha AtmasvarUpamAM kare che te. varte che evA puruSanI dazA. mehanIya karma-ATha karmomAM eka vedanIya karma-je karmanA udayathI mehanIya karma che, je karmone jIvane sukhaduHkhanI sAmagrI rAjA kahevAya che; tenA prabhAve prApta thAya--sAtA asAtA jIva ni ja svarUpane bhUle che. vedAya. canA-koI paNa jIvanI hiMsA na sAtA vedanIya-je karmanA udayathI thAya tema pravartavuM te. jIvane sukhanI sAmagrI maLe. raMca--jarA; DuM. sAmAcika- be ghaDI sudhI samatA. vikathA-beTI kathA; saMsAranI kathA. bhAvamAM rahevuM te. e cAra prakAre che. strIkathA, bhojanakathA, dezakathA, rAjakathA. For Personal & Private Use Only

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pariziSTa-3 sUci agAsa 151, 152, 226 ANaMda 101, 143 anaTu dhisa lAsTa 134 AtmajJAna 90, 172 apUrva anusAra 12 Atmadarzana 89 apUrva avasara...190 AtmasiddhizAstra 1,44,48, 102, amadAvAda 112, 121, 122, 123, 131, 133, 144, 152, 177, 150, 210, 213, 214, 224, 190-194, 224, 228, 229 228 AtmahitanAM sAdhana 104 amIcaMda 10 AtmA 155, 161, 162, 171, avadhAna 33, 40 192; nI zakti 14, 29, 44; aSTAvadhAna 33, 34 0nuM pUrNa svarUpa 4 aMjAra 129 Atmonnati 9, 39 aMtaradazA 129 AdinAtha kaSabhadeva 112 aMtarlona 15 AnaMdaghana 188; covIzI 117 aMbAlAlabhAI 100-106, 108, AtyaMtara pariNAma avakana 67, 119, 122, 123, 142-145, 177 147, 149, 194, 211-213, Azrama bhajanAvalI 190 218, 219, 225 Ahora 228 Agama 148 IDara 9, 102, 111-113, 115, AgAkhAnano baMgale 210, 214 131, 164, 170, 213, 227 AcArya AtmArAmajI 195 Izu khrista 153 AcArya AnaMdazaMkara dhruva 197 iMglaMDa 157 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 241 Idera 228 khaMbhAta 80, 99-101, 112, visarasa 18, 120, 122, 129, 130, 142 0 vanakSetra 227 143, 145, 148-150, 154, uttarAdhyayana 46, 199 161, 214, 224, 225 udAsInatA 15, 39, 63, 76, khImajIbhAI 10 83, 219 kheDA 110, 111, 172 upadeza chAyA 101, 143, 177 9 gaTulAlajI mahArAja 33 upadeza noMdha 177 gAMdhIjI 17, 19, 86, 87, 89, upadeza rahasya 205 91, 134-142, 153, 157- upAdhi 81, 83, 98, 99, 123, 159 129, 131, 203, 204, 205 gIradhara 171 ekAnta carcA 99, 206 gujarAtI 35 kaccha 22, 129 gujarAta vidyApITha 228 karamALA (dakSiNa hiMda) 145. 1pa gRhastha-jIvana para-16, 61 karNadeva 4 grahAzrama 63 karnala eca. ela. naTa 35 gopALadAsajI baraiyA 162 karma (vedanIyamahanIya) 124 gomaTTasAra 162 karmacaMdabhAI 122 gautama 112, 199 kalela 228 glaeNDasTana 157, 158 kalyANajIbhAI 10 cakavartI 15 kaSAya 59 - caturalAlajI 112, 156. kasabAlA 146 catrabhuja becarabhAI 69 kaLikALasarvajJa 4 camatkAra 5, 6, 38, 41, 92 kAThiyAvADa 127 camanapara 2 : kAviThA 43, 44, 100-102, 130, carotara 99, 100, 143, 151 143, 151, 155, 16-170, carcageTa 165 228 caMdraprabhasvAmI 216, 225 kAvyamALA 178 cAritraha 201 kAzIbahena 161 cAritrya 89 kRSNadAsa 146 caitanyanuM svarUpa 46 jI - sA - 16 For Personal & Private Use Only

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24ra zrImada rAjacaMdra chaganalAla becaralAla 124 tIrthakara 40, 112, 160, 161 cha pada 193 tyAga 162 jagakartA 6. 7 tribhuvanabhAI khaMbhAta 161 jaDabharata 151, 202 tribhuvanadAsa bhANajI 165, 166 jAtismaraNajJAna 10 dakSiNa AphrikA 138 jAmanagara 34 dalapatabhAI 121 jIjIbhAI 226 dazavaikAlika 177 jUThAbhAI ujamazIbhAI 120-125, dazA (videhI-niraparAdhI) 9 142, 147 dAmanagara 167 jUnAgaDha 12, 151 . dAmodarabhAI 147 jetapara (morabI tAbe) 69 divALIbAI 122 jesaMgabhAI 120, 121 duHkha 50, 51, 62, 64, 66, 69, jaina darzana 177 71, 83, 119, 202 , jainadharma 7, 47, 173, 174, 182 duSamakALa 151 jainanuM prAmANikapaNuM 166 devakaraNajI 80, 102, 109, 110, jatiSa 69 112, 113, 115, 146, 150, jJAna 171, 172, 0 dazA 206 154, 157, 163, 164, 170, jJAnArNava 20, 211 210, 211, 213, 214 devacaMdra 188 jhabakabAI 42, 61, 210, 211, devabAI 2, 3, 23, 210-212, 221 221 jhaverabhAI bhagavAnabhAI 43, 167; devalAlI 228 dezI rAjya 111 TAImsa oNpha inDiyA 38 dehotsarga 151 TaoNlsTaoNya 134, 135 dravyasaMgraha 113, 115, 177 ThAkarazIbhAI 171, 174 dvArikA 54 DuMgarazIbhAI gosaLiyA 10, dharamapura 116, 211 129, 130, 171 dharma 66, 125, 156, jJAna tattvajijJAsA 61 46; bhAvanA 44, 0maMthana 138; tIthala 215 mUrti 54; lebha 98

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jIvanasAdhanA 243 dhaMdhukA 119 dhAmaNu 228 dhArasIbhAI 25-32, 118-120 nagInadAsa maganalAla 145; 214 naDiyAda 101-103, 105, 106, 110-112, 131, 143, 144 namirAja 188 narabherAma 2017 narasiMha rakha 112 nareDA 210, 228 navalacaMdabhAI 218 nAra 120, 151, 228 nijAbhyAsa maMDapa 225 nigraMtha 55 nirlepatA 61 nivRtti 83, 86 niMdA 175 niHspRhA 15 nIti 50, 179, 181 nyAyadarzaka 35 padamazI ThAkarazI 10 padamazIbhAI 160 paramakRta prabhAvaka maMDaLa 214, 215, 223, 224 paramArtha 83 parigraha 56, 67 parisaha 17 paMca pramAda 199 paMcamakALa 73, 77 paMca viSaya 199 paMcANubhAI (mahetA 2, 22 paMcAstikAya 118, 177 paMcIkaraNa 139 paMDita sukhalAlajI 17, 194, 195 pAniyara 38 pArisa 88 pAlItANuM 4 piTarasana (DaoN.) 38 punarjanma 14, 15 puSpamALA 17, 177, 179, 181, 188 pUjAbhAI somezvara bhaTTa 172, 173 pUnA 151 pUrvabhava 15, 111 peTalAda 102, 169 pethApura 152 popaTalAlabhAI 135, 225 prajJA 40 prajJA vabodha mokSamALA 181, 183, 214 pratikramaNa 164; sUtra 7 pratimAsiddhi 177 pramAda 13, 53, 107, 108, 157, 199, 211, 212, 213 pravINasAgara 6 prAgajIbhAI 169 prANajIvanadAsa mahetA (Do.) 111, 135 , prArabdha 83; karma 118 prIti 1, 19, 20 prema 158 For Personal & Private Use Only

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244 zrImad rAjacaMdra pharAmajI IsTiTaTyUTa 38 bagasarA 151 bAra bhAvanAo 186-188 bIja jJAna 126, 127 buddha 1, 153 buddhi 40, 190, 0prakAza 189 beMglora 228 boTAda 35, 100 bodhavacana 177 borasada 228 brahmacarya pa2, 54, 154, 211 brahmacArI govardhanadAsajI 99 bhakti 169 bhagavatIsUtra 147 bhayano upAya 160 bharUca 122 bhava 13, sthiti 147, 148 bhAdaraNa ra28 bhAlapradeza 145 bhAvanA 84, 0dha 177, 184 186, 224 bhAvasAranI vADI 212 bhUlezvara 10 maNibhAI jazabhAI 22 maNiratnamALA 139 mana sthira rAkhavAne upAya 155 manasukhabhAI (mahetA) 42, 145, 216, 219; (lImaDIvALA) 216 mahaMmada payagaMbara 153 mahAnIti 177 mahAbhArata 19 mahAvIra svAmI 1, 13, 72, 73, 112, 153, 214 mahemadAvAda 111 mahIpatarAma rUparAma 173, 174 mATuMgA 215 mANekavADA 2 mANekalAlabhAI ghelAbhAI 86, 166 mAyA 15 mAravADa 126 mAlasIbhAI 28, 41 mithyAdaSTi 163 muktAnaMda 89 munione upadeza 100, 101 muni samAgama 177 muMbaI 10, 33, 34, 38, 70, 81, 84, 99, 100, 103, 111, 116, 118, 130, 135, 142, 150, 158, 159, 161, 165, 215; samAcAra 35 mokSa 93, 147, 167, 191; 0mALA 49, 54, 120, 177, 181, 182, 184, 186, 188, 199 motIlAla bhAvasAra 103-109, 111, 112 morabI 2, 25, 28, 33, 34, 43, 100, 102, 116, 119, 122, 127, 129, 165 moha 212, 214, 224; 0 dazA 61 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA 245 mehanalAlajI 112, 120, 155, lallujI mahArAja (laghurAja svAmI) 157, 164, 211, 212 80, 100, 102, 103, 19, mana 85 112, 116, 119, 120, 133, yazovijayajI 188, 205 143, 145-152, 154-157, yurepa 38 162, 164, 210, 211, 213, yogavAsiSTha 139, 184 214, 226 laherAbhAI 103, 129 raNachoDabhAI 120 lIMbaDI 215 ratnakaraMDa zrAvakAcAra 177 kamitra 35 ravajIbhAI devarAjajI 161 labha 15 ' ravajIbhAI (mahetA) 2, 3, 41, vAla 15 227 vacanAmRta 145, 177 raskina 134, 135 vaTAmaNa 145 rAjakoTa 25, 118, 119, 215, vaDavA 100, 101, 143, 225 227 vaDAlI 151, 228 rANapura 100, vaDodarA 100 rAma 23 vaDhavANa 35, 145, 197, 214, rAmakRSNa paramahaMsa 153 215, 218, 223, 228 rAmadAsajI 5 valasADa 215 rAmAyaNa 10 vivANiyA 2, 28, 31, 33, 41rAyacaMdabhAI 4, 21, 25, 28, 29, 43, 102, 116, 121, 128- 87, 88, 90, 96, 127, 134, 131, 168, 226-228 135, 158 vase 103, 156, 228 rAvabahAdura narasIdAma 172, 173 vikaTeriyA-rANI 60, 157 rALaja 100, 101, 130, 143 vilAyata 86, 135, 136 revAzaMkarabhAI jagajIvanadAsa 61, viveka 45, 64 70, 83, 88, 216, 223, 224 vItarAga prabhu 154, 214 lakSamIcaMdajI 112, 113, 211 vIra rAmajI desAI 41 42 lakSamIdAsa khImajIbhAI 34. vedAMta 177 lakSmInaMdana 4 vepAra (vyApAra) 86-90, 93, lallu 165 95, 98 For Personal & Private Use Only

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246 velazI rakha 112 velANI bhAvasAra 146 vaibhavI bhUmikA 6 vairAgya 7, 8, 12, 16, 45, 50, 61, 92, 83, 155 vyAkhyAnasAra 102, 177 vyAsa bhagavAna 73 vrajabhAI ga'gAdAsa 168 zakara 5cALI 69 zAmaLa bhaTTa 87 zAmaLabhAI pATIdA2 43, 44 zAstrI zaMkaralAla mAhezvara bhaTTa 34 ziva 215 zUravIra-smaraNa 189 zeThaneAkara saMbaMdha 165 zraddhA 161 zrImad rAjacaMdra--janma 3; --jAtismaraNa jJAna 10; hiMdanA hIrA'nuM biruda 34; --khAvana avadhAna 35; --zatAvadhAna 38; -- -sAkSAt sarasvatI'nuM biruda 38; --sparzendriyazakti 38; --vIra prabhunA chellA ziSya 107; vAnaprasthAzramapraveza pADavAmAM 210; --e phoTA AvyA 215; aMtIma nuM varNana 216-218 zrImad rAjacaMdra (graMtha) 176, 189, 195, 197, 198, 224 zrImad rAjacaMdra, jaina zAstramALA 224 - zrImad rAjacaMdra zrImad rAjacaMdra janmabhavana 226, 227 zrImad rAjacaMdra jJAnaprakAza madira 227 zrImad rAjacaMdra vihAra bhavana 227 zrImad rAjacaMdra samAdhi madira 227 zrImad rAjacaMdra jJAnabhaDAra 228 zrImad rAjacaMdra maMdira 228 zrImad rAjaca`dranI dRSTAMtakathAo 228 zreyArthIne mArgadarzana 50-51 saDAdarA 228 satyaparAyaNa 125 satsa'ga 82, 130 sadguru 110, 152, 154, 193 sanAtana jaina dharmAM--zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama 226 samakitI 167 samAdhi 15, 63, 67, 73, 80, 81, 82 samAdhizataka 190 samuccayavacacarcA 5, 9, 10, 14, 18, 19 sametazikhara 151 samyaktva 124, 125 samyakdana 80 avasthA-samyakdaSTa 163 sara cArlsa sArajanTa 38 sarasapura 212 sa`sagaparityAga 56, 201, 204, 207, 210, 214 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA sarvodaya 135 sadezara 226 sacama 156 sasAra 58, 82 sAyalA 100, 102, 126, 128131, 171 sidhdhAcaLajI 4 siMhAla 44 sImaraDA 228. sukha 56, 57, 61, 65, 69 sukhalAla 215 suNAva 228 sukhAdha pAThazALA 225 surata 154 sUyaDAMga sUtra 263 seAbhAgabhAI 68, 72, 100, 119126-134, 171 saurASTre 99, 100 strI 6, 16, 51, 55, 56, 61, 62, 65, 82, 83, 178; 0keLavaNI 21, 49 strInItikhAdya 177, 178 smaraNazakti 34, 38, 46 smRti 19, 40, 124 svacchaMda 15, 154 svarAyajJAna 177 247 svAdhyAya 159, 160 svAmI kArtikeyAnuprekSA 210, 214 haDamatALA 100 hampI 228 harakhacaMdajI mahArAja 80, 146 148 hemaca'drAcAryajI 4 hemarAjabhAI 28, 30, 41 For Personal & Private Use Only

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zuddhipatraka pAna pAna 15 lITI 24 chellI 43 21. pachI 22 mUkAyela 23 mathALuM 68 76 92 13 azuddha zuddha krodha karatAM, krodha karatAM, mAna mAyA karatAM, karatAM, mAyA karatAM, mANase mANaso "pachI vAMcavAne gya vAMcavA gya mukAyelo Atmasthita Atmasthiti hAnI hAni samakti samakitA kaI "kaI prajavalatI prajavalatI chAe chIe hAnI hAni jAIe joIe veLA vAcana-manamAM vAcana-mananamAM A ja naDiyAda A ja vakhatanA naDiyAda rahIe ? rahIe ?" ApyuM A : 78 10 chellI 15 12 91 22 98 102 102 20 22 1 02 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jIvanasAdhanA pAna 106 108 109 113 123 126 130 140 141 143 149 151 151 154 159 164 169 177 181 187 189 201 204 lITI 19 14 3 18 3 19 21 4 x 7 ' 19 3 15 9 16 3 3 16 5 14 21 azuddha AvatA letA suddhAM cAra divasa samyakatva dhAru zrImad, kSaye pakSame asa gadazAmAM kSayeAyazamavALA 6 * samakti zrImAM thatAM. sAmAgame nAkhyu.' chIe nahi. lakhANAe mAlukAmAM caudarAja lAka dASTAMtika vicAravA Ave che. zuddha AvatA. letA. sudhdhAM pAMca divasa thatA. samAgame nAkhyuM. chIe. nahi, lakhANA e maNakAmAM samyaktva dhAruM zrImad kSaye pazame asaMga dazA kSayApazamavALA 6 samakita zrImA caudarAjaleAka dASkRtika vicaravA Ave che, For Personal & Private Use Only 249

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kaSAyanI upazAMtatA, mAtra meAkSa abhilASa; bhave khaMda, prANIdayA, tyAM . AtmArtha nivAsa. dazA na evI yAM sudhI, jIva lahe nahi joga; meAkSamArga pAme nahi, maTe na aMtara roga. Ave jyAM evI dazA, sadgurubAdha suhAya; te badhe suvicAraNA, tyAM pragaTe sukhadAya. jayAM pragaTe suvicAraNA, tyAM pragaTe nijajJAna; je jJAne kSaya meAha thaI, pAme pada nirvANa. AtmasizAstra For Personal & Private Use Only

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