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________________ aSTAvakra mahAgItA-(bhAga-2) ozo ina sUtroM para khUba manana karanA bAra-bAra; jaise koI jUgAlI karatA hai| phira-phira kyoMki inameM bahutarasa hai| jitanA tuma cabAoge utanA hI amRta jhregaa| ve kucha sUtra aise nahIM hai ki jaise upanyAsa, eka daphe par3ha liyA, samajha gae, __bAta khatma ho gaI, phira kacare meM pheNkaa| yaha koI eka bAra par3ha lene vAlI bAta nahIM hai, yaha to kisI zubhamuhUrta meM kisI zAMta kSaNa meM kisI AnaMda kI aho-dazA meM, tuma inakA artha pakar3a paaoge| yaha to roja-roja, ghar3I bhara baiTha kara, ina parama sUtroM ko phira se par3ha lene kI jarUrata hai| anivArya hai| --ozo
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________________ dharma hai jIvana kA gaurI zaMkara-pravacana-eka dinAMka: 26 sitaMbara, 1976, zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| prazna sAra: pahalA prazna: prasiddha manovaijJAnika e. eca. maisalo ne manuSya kI jIvana AvazyakatAoM ke krama meM AtmajJAna (Self-actualization) ko aMtima sthAna diyA hai| kyA Apake jAne AtmajJAna manuSya-jIvana kI eka anivArya AvazyakatA hai, aura dharma, adhyAtma jaise saMbodhana anAvazyaka rUpa se AtmajJAna ke sAtha jor3a die gae haiM? kRpA karake smjhaaeN| pahalI bAta, ki AtmajJAna na to anivArya hai aura na AvazyakatA hai| vaisI bhASA AtmajJAna ke saMbaMdha meM mUlabhUta rUpa se galata hai| bhUkha hai to roTI kI AvazyakatA hai| deha hai to zvAsa kI AvazyakatA hai! inake binA tuma jI na skoge| lekina AtmajJAna ke binA to AdamI maje se jItA hai| pAnI cAhie roTI cAhie, makAna caahie| inakI to AvazyakatA hai| inake binA tuma eka kSaNa na jI skoge| AtmajJAna ke binA to adhika loga jIte hI haiN| to pahalI to bAta AtmajJAna AvazyakatA nhiiN| aura anivArya to bilakula hI nahIM hai| kabhI koI buddha, kabhI koI aSTAvakra, koI krAisTa, muhammada usa dazA ko upalabdha hote haiN| yaha itanA advitIya hai isa ghaTanA kA ghaTanA, ki isako anivArya to kahA hI nahIM jA sakatA, nahIM to sabako ghaTatI, pratyeka ko ghtttii| adhyAtma eka artha meM prayojana-zUnya hai, arthahIna hai| isalie to hama isa deza meM use saccidAnaMda kahate haiN| AnaMda kA kyA artha? AnaMda kI kyA AvazyakatA? AnaMda kI kyA anivAryatA? paramAtmA
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________________ binA jagata bar3e maje se cala rahA hai| isalie to paramAtmA kahIM dikhAI nahIM detaa| usakI maujUdagI Avazyaka nahIM mAlUma hotI na dUkAna para jarUrata hai, na daphtara meM jarUrata hai, na ghara meM jarUrata hai| AtmajJAna to AtyaMtika AbhijAtya, AtyaMtika airisTokresI hai| roTI kI jarUrata hai, lekina mAikala aiMjilo kI mUrtiyoM kI thor3e hI jarUrata hai! unake binA AdamI maje se raha legaa| chappara kI jarUrata hai, lekina kAlidAsa kI kyA jarUrata hai? na hoM kAlidAsa ke graMtha, kauna-sI ar3acana A jAegI? kSudra kI jarUrata hai, virATa kI kahAM jarUrata hai? aura agara virATa tumhArI jarUrata ho to vaha bhI kSudra ho jaaegaa| virATa to AnaMda hai, ahobhAva hai| virATa ko tuma AvazyakatA kI bhASA meM mata khiiNcnaa| paramAtmA ko arthazAstra mata banAnA, IkanaoNmiksa mata bnaanaa| isalie to samAjavAdI kahate haiM : roTI, rojI aura mkaan| usameM kahIM paramAtmA ko jagaha nhiiN| isalie kamyUnijya meM paramAtmA ko koI jagaha nhiiN| thor3A soco, mArksa jaisA arthazAstrI... agara paramAtmA kI koI AvazyakatA hotI, AtmajJAna kI AvazyakatA hotI to kamyUnijma meM kucha jagaha rkhtaa| bilakula jagaha nahIM rkhii| zuddha arthazAstra meM koI jarUrata hI nhiiN| saca to yaha hai ki tumhAre jIvana meM paramAtmA kI kiraNa utaregI to bahuta ar3ayoM khar3I hoNgii| isalie to bahuta se loga himmata nahIM krte| paramAtmA kI kiraNa utaregI to tuma jaise calate the phira vaise na cala paaoge| ar3acaneM AnI zurU ho jaaeNgii| tumhAre jIvana kA DhAMcA badalane lgegaa| tumhArI zailI bdlegii| tumhArA hone kA rUpa bdlegaa| tumhArI dizA bdlegii| tama burI taraha asta-vyasta ho jaaoge| tumhArA jo jamA-jamAyA rUpa thA saba ukhddegaa| tumhArI jar3eM ukhar3a jaaeNgii| tumheM naI bhUmi khojanI par3egI; purAnI bhUmi kAma na aaegii| tuma pRthvI para na Tika sakoge tumheM AkAza kA sahArA lenA hogaa| isa bAta ko tuma jitanI gaharAI se samajha lo utanA upayogI hogaa| / hai| isalie to una thor3e-se logoM ke hI mana meM paramAtmA kI pyAsa paidA hotI hai, jinheM yaha bAta samajha meM A gaI ki jarUrI meM AnaMda nahIM ho sktaa| jarUrI meM jyAdA se jyAdA jarUrata pUrI hotI hai| tumheM bhUkha lagI tumane bhojana kara liyaa| bhUkhe raho to takalIpha hotI hai, bhojana karake kauna-sA sukha mila jAtA hai? dhUpa par3atI thI, pasInA AtA thA, tuma parezAna aura becaina the| chappara ke nIce A gae, becainI miTa gii| lekina chappara ke nIce A jAne se koI sukha thor3e hI mila jAtA hai| ___ AvazyakatA ke jagata meM dukha hai aura dukha se chuTakArA hai; AnaMda bilakula nhiiN| yahI to takalIpha hai ki eka garIba AdamI, jisake pAsa dhana nahIM hai, socatA hai dhana mila jAegA to AnaMda mila jaaegaa| jaba dhana mila jAtA hai, taba patA calatA hai : garIbI to miTa gaI, dhana bhI mila gayA, AnaMda nahIM milaa| AvazyakatAoM kI tRpti meM AnaMda kahAM? AvazyakatAoM kI tRpti se dukha kama hotA jaaegaa| aura, eka aura anUThI ghaTanA ghaTatI hai ki jaise-jaise dukha kama hotA jAegA, vaise-vaise tumheM lagegA
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________________ ki saba dukha bhI samApta ho jAe aura AnaMda na mile to sAra kyA hai? eka AdamI hai jise na koI bImArI hai, na koI kaSTa hai, na koI Arthika parezAnI hai, saba sukha-suvidhA hai- makAna hai, kAra hai, pratiSThA hai- aba aura kyA cAhie? saba AvazyakatAeM pUrI ho gaIM, aba aura kyA cAhie? lekina vaha AdamI bhI kahatA hai kucha khAlI - khAlI hai, kucha lagatA hai kho rahA hai, kucha milA nahIM! jaba taka tuma prayojana - zUnya se saMbaMdha na bAMdho, jaba taka tuma AvazyakatA ke Upara uThakara na dekho, jaba taka tumhAre jIvana meM kucha aisA na ghaTe jisakI koI AvazyakatA nahIM thI - taba taka AnaMda na ghttegaa| AvazyakatA ke miTane se pUre hone se dukha nahIM hotA, suvidhA ho jAtI hai; AnaMda bhI nahIM hotaa| AnaMda to ghaTatA hai taba jaba tuma AvazyakatA ke pAra uThate ho- artha - zUnya meM, phUloM meM, saMgIta meM, kAvya meN| koI jarUrata nahIM hai| vaijanara ho yA na ho, zeksapiyara ho yA na ho, ravIMdranAtha hoM yA na hoM-kyA sAra hai? khAoge kavitAoM ko, pIyoge, oDhoge? lekina yaha to maiM isalie nAma le rahA hUM ki tumheM samajha meM A jaaeN| inameM bhI thor3A-bahuta artha ho sakatA hai| paramAtmA meM utanA bha nahIM hai| AtmajJAna to bilakula hI nirarthaka hai| usakA hone kA rasa to hai, artha bilakula nhiiN| use tuma 'kamoDiTI', bAjAra meM bikane vAlI vastu na banA skoge| jisa dina koI vyakti isa satya ko samajhane meM samartha ho jAtA hai ki jaba taka maiM AvazyakatA kI pUrti khojatA rahUMgA, taba taka maiM eka vartula meM ghuumuuNgaa| roja bhUkha lagegI roja khAnA kamA lUMgA, roja khAnA khA lUMgA, phira bhUkha miTa jAegI, kala phira bhUkha lgegii| phira bhojana, phira bhUkha, phira bhojana / bhojana se kucha sukha na milegA; sirpha bhUkha se jo dukha milatA thA, vaha na hogaa| sAMsArika AdamI kI paribhASA yahI hai- jo kevala suvidhA khoja rahA hai, asuvidhA na ho / AdhyAtmika AdamI kA artha yahI hai ki jo isa satya ko samajha gayA ki suvidhA saba bhI mila jAe to jIvana meM phUla nahIM khilate, na sugaMdha uThatI, na gIta bajate / nahIM, jIvana kI vINA khAlI hI par3I raha jAtI hai| isalie maiM dharma ko AbhijAtya kahatA huuN| AbhijAtya kA artha hai. isakA koI prayojana nahIM hai| yaha prayojana-hIna, prayojana- zUnya yA kaho prayojana- atiit| aura tumhAre jIvana meM jaba bhI kabhI koI prayojana - atIta utaratA hai, vahIM thor3I-sI jhalaka AnaMda kI milatI hai; jaise prema meN| prema kA kyA artha hai, kyA sAra hai? khAoge? pIyoge ? oDhoge? kyA karoge prema kA na agara koI tumase pUchane lage ki kyA pAgala ho rahe ho, prema se phAyadA kyA hai? baiMka - baileMsa to bar3hegA nhiiN| makAna bar3A banegA nhiiN| prema se phAyadA kyA hai? kyoM samaya gaMvAte ho ? isalie to rAjanItijJa prema-prema ke cakkara meM nahIM par3atA vaha sArI zakti pada para lagAtA, prema para nhiiN| dhana kA dIvAnA, dhana kA AkAMkSI, sArI zakti dhana ko kamAne meM lagAtA hai| prema, vaha kahatA hai, abhI nahIM! abhI phursata kahAM? phira prema kA prayojana bhI kucha nahIM dikhAI detA - sva taraha kA pAgalapana mAlUma hotA hai| tuma vyAvahArika logoM se pUcho, ve kaheMge, prema yAnI paaglpn| lekina prema meM thor3I-sI jhalaka
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________________ milatI hai usakI, jo prayojana-hIna hai, jisakA koI artha nahIM; phira bhI parama rasamaya hai, phira bhI parama vibhAmaya hai; phira bhI saccidAnaMda hai| koI AdamI baiThakara apanI sitAra bajA rahA hai| tuma usase pUcho ki 'kyA milegA isase?' vaha uttara na de paaegaa| 'kyA sAra hai isa tAra ko Thokane, khIMcane, pITane se? baMda kro| kucha kAma karo kucha kAma kI bAta kro| kucha upajAo, kucha paidA karo! phaikTarI banAo, kheta meM jAo! ye tAra cher3ane se kyA sAra hai?' lekina jisako tAra cher3ane meM rasa A gayA, vaha kabhI-kabhI bhUkhA bhI raha jAnA pasaMda karatA hai aura tAra nahIM chodd'taa| vinseMTa vAnagaoNga bhUkhA- bhUkhA mraa| usake pAsa itane hI paise the... usakA bhAI use itane hI paise detA thA ki sAta dina kI roTI kharIda sakatA thaa| to vaha tIna dina khAnA khAtA, cAra dina bhUkhA rhtaa| aura jo paise bacate, unase kharIdatA raMga, kainavasa, aura citra bnaataa| citra usake eka bhI bikate nhiiN| kyoMki usane jo citra banAe, ve kama-se-kama apane samaya ke sau sAla pahale the| duniyA kI sArI pratibhA samaya ke pahale hotI hai| vastuta: pratibhA kA artha hI yahI hai, jo samaya ke pahale ho| koI kharIdadAra na thA una citroM kaa| aba to usakA eka-eka citra lAkhoM meM bikatA hai, dasa-dasa lAkha rupaye meM eka-eka citra bikatA hai| taba koI dasa paise meM bhI kharIdane ko taiyAra na thaa| vaha bhUkhA hI jIyA, bhUkhA hI mraa| ghara ke loga hairAna the ki tU pAgala hai! AdamI kI bhUkha pahalI jarUrata hai, lekina kucha mila rahA hogA vAnagaoNga ko, jo kisI ko dikhAI nahIM par3a rahA thaa| koI rasadhAra baha rahI hogI! nahIM to kyoM, kyA prayojana? na pratiSThA mila rahI hai, na nAma mila rahA hai, na dhana mila rahA hai; bhUkha mila rahI, pIr3A mila rahI, daridratA mila rahI-lekina vaha hai ki apane citra banAe jA rahA hai| jaba vaha citra banAne lagatA to na bhUkha raha jAtI, na deha raha jAtI-vaha dehAtIta ho jaataa| jaba usake sAre citra bana gae, jo use banAne the, to usane AtmahatyA kara lii| aura vaha jo patra likhakara chor3a gayA, usameM likha gayA ki aba jIne meM kucha artha nahIM rhaa| __ aba yaha bar3e maje kI bAta hai| vaha likha gayA ki jo mujhe banAnA thA, banA liyA; jo mujhe gunagunAnA thA, gunagunA liyA, jo mujhe raMgoM meM DhAlanA thA, DhAla diyA; jo mujhe kahanI thI bAta, kaha dI; jo mere bhItara chipA thA, vaha pragaTa ho gayA; aba kucha artha nahIM hai rahane kaa| vaha jo arthahIna citra banA rahA thA, vahI usakA artha thA; jaba usakA kAma cuka gayA, vaha vidA ho gyaa| jIvana meM jaise koI aura artha thA nahIM! kyA phAyadA roTI roja khA lo, phira bhUkha lagA lo phira roTI roja khA lo, phira bhUkha lagA lo? hara roTI naI bhUkha le AtI hai, hara bhUkha naI roTI kI mAMga le AtI hai| yaha to eka vartula huA jisameM hama ghUmate cale jAte haiN| isase sAra kyA hai, tumane kabhI socA? eka AdamI agara assI sAla jIe to assI sAla meM usane kiyA kyA? jisako tuma arthapUrNa prakriyAeM kahate ho-roTI, rojI, makAna-usane kiyA kyA? jarA tuma gaura kro| na mAlUma kitane hajAroM mana bhojana usane mala-mUtra banA diyaa| itanA hI kAma kiyaa| jarA soco, assI sAla meM usane kitane pacAsagamana
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________________ mala-mUtra ke Dhera, agara vaha lagAtA hI calA jAtA to kitane Dhera laga jAte, pahAr3a khar3e kara detaa| basa itanA hI usakA kAma hai| pIche tuma mala-mUtra kA eka pahAr3a chor3a kara vidA ho jaaoge| isako tuma artha kahate ho? lekina yahI artha jaisA mAlama paDatA hai| isakA hI arthazAstra hai| maiM isIlie paramAtmA ko artha nahIM kahatA, kyoMki artha dene se hI to vaha arthazAstra kA hissA ho jaaegaa| maiM use kahatA hUM 'arthaatiit'| vaha koI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| aura jaba taka tuma AvazyakatAoM meM ulajhe ho, taba taka tuma usa tarapha AMkha na uThA skoge| isalie maiM kahatA hUM jaba koI samAja bahuta samRddha hotA hai, tabhI dharma meM gati hotI hai, anyathA nahIM hotii| ___yaha merI bAta bar3I muzkila meM DAlatI hai logoM ko| kyoMki loga pUchane lagate haiM 'to phira kyA garIba dhArmika nahIM ho sakatA?' maiM yaha nahIM khtaa| garIba bhI dhArmika ho sakatA hai, lekina garIba samAja kabhI dhArmika samAja nahIM ho sktaa| vyaktigata rUpa se garIba bhI itanA pratibhAvAna ho sakatA hai ki dhArmika ho jAe, jIvana kI vyarthatA ko samajha le; jisako hama artha kahate haiM, usakI vyarthatA samajha le| to phira jo arthotIta hai, vahI artha ho jAtA hai| lekina vaha bar3I rUpAMtaraNa kI, bar3I krAMti kI bAta hai| lekina samRddha samAja nizcita rUpa se dhArmika ho jAtA hai| mere dekhe to vahI samRddha samAja hai jo dhArmika ho jaae| bhArata jaba apane svarNa -zikhara para thA, jaba jarUrateM pUrI thIM, khalihAna bhare the, kheto meM phasaleM thIM, loga bhUkhe na the, pIr3ita na the, parezAna na the, taba dharma ne UMce zikhara chae, taba bhagavadagItA utarI, taba aSTAvakra kI mahAgItA utarI, taba upaniSada gaMje, taba buddha aura mahAvIroM ne isa deza ko jgaayaa| vaha svarNa-zikhara thaa| aba vaisA svarNa-zikhara pazcima jA cukA hai| aba agara dharma kI koI bhI saMbhAvanA hai to pazcima meM hai, pUraba meM nahIM hai| pUraba ke sAtha dharma kA atIta hai, pazcima ke sAtha dharma kA bhaviSya hai| tumane apane hAtha gNvaayaa| tumane yaha socakara gaMvAyA ki kyA rakhA hai dhana meM, saMpadA meM! kucha bhI nahIM rakhA hai, yaha bhI saca hai| lekina jaba dhana-saMpadA hotI hai tabhI patA calatA hai ki kucha bhI nahIM rakhA hai| itanI sArthakatA usameM hai-yaha dikhAne kii| aura jaba tumhAre jIvana meM saba hotA hai aura tuma pAte ho kucha bhI nahIM huA to pahalI daphA eka hUka uThatI hai ki aba khojeM use, jo AvazyakatA nahIM hai| aura anivArya to bilakula hI nahIM hai prmaatmaa| anivArya kA to artha yaha hotA ki tuma cAhe karo cAhe na karo, ho kara rhegaa| anivArya mauta hai, samAdhi nhiiN| anivArya to mRtya hai, dhyAna nhiiN| anivArya bar3hApA hai, dharma nhiiN| anivArya itanA hI hai ki yaha jo kSaNabhaMgura hai, baha jaaegaa| zAzvata AegA ki nahIM, yaha anivArya nahIM hai| zAzvata to tuma khojoge to aaegaa| khojoge, bhaTakoge, bAra-bAra pA loge aura kho jAegA, bar3I muzkila se aaegaa| anivArya to kataI nahIM hai| anivArya kA to yaha matalaba hai ki tuma baiThe raho, kucha na karo, hone vAlA hai, hokara rhegaa| mauta jaisA hogA paramAtmA phira, jaise sabhI AdamI marate haiM, aise sabhI AdamI AtmajJAna ko upalabdha ho jaaeNge| nahIM, na to anivArya hai aura na AvazyakatA hai| AtmajJAna khojane se hogA, gahana sAdhanA se hogA, bar3I tvarA se hogA, dAva para lagAoge apane ko, to hogaa| AtmajJAna bhAgya nahIM hai ki ho jAegA, likhA
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________________ hai vidhi meN| vidhi meM jo likhA hai, vaha to kSudra hai, vaha hotA rhegaa| caudaha sAla ke ho jAoge to kAmavAsanA paidA hogii| assI sAla ke ho jAoge to mauta A jaaegii| pacAsa ke pAra hone lagoge to bur3hApA A jaaegaa| kAmavAsanA anivArya hai; caudaha sAla ke hae ki hara bacce meM ho jAtI hai| agara kisI bacce meM na ho to kucha gar3abar3a hai to cikitsA kI jarUrata hai| honI hI cAhie; anivArya hai; prAkRtika hai| lekina adhyAtma anivArya nahIM hai aura na prAkRtika hai| ho jAe to camatkAra hai| jaba ho jAe kisI ko to Azcarya hai : jo nahIM ghaTanA cAhie, vaha ghttaa| isalie to hama sadiyoM taka yAda rakhate haiM buddha ko, ki jo nahIM ghaTanA thA vaha ghaTA, jisakI koI apekSA na thI, vaha ghaTA; jisakI koI saMbhAvanA na thI, vaha ghttaa| hajAroM sAla bIta jAte haiM, buddhoM ko hama nahIM bhUla paate| unakI yAda hameM satAtI hai| koI tAra hamAre hRdaya meM bajatA rahatA hai| asaMbhava bhI huA hai| isa pRthvI para sabase jyAdA asaMbhava ghaTanA AtmajJAna hai| jaba maiM kahatA hUM asaMbhava to maiM yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki nahIM ghaTane vAlI ghaTatI hai, ghaTa sakatI hai, lekina anivAryatA nahIM hai| aisA nahIM hai ki tuma kucha na karoge aura apane se ghaTa jaaegii| prAkRtika nahIM hai, ati-prAkRtika hai| pUchA hai ki 'kyA Apake jAne AtmajJAna manuSya jIvana kI eka anivArya AvazyakatA hai?' donoM bAta nahIM hai| anivArya ho to phira tumheM kucha karane kI jarUrata na rhii| tumheM bahuta kucha karanA par3egA, taba bhI ghaTa jAe to camatkAra hai| taba bhI pakkA nahIM hai, AzvAsana nahIM hai ki ghaTa hI jAegI, koI gAraMTI nahIM hai| bar3I abhUtapUrva ghaTanA hai utAra kara lAnA hai sImA meM asIma ko utAra kara lAnA hai deha meM paramAtmA ko; utAra kara lAnA hai zUnya ko mana meM, mahAzUnya ke lie jagaha banAnI hai| anivArya to bilakula nahIM hai| anivArya to vahI hai jo ho gayA hai| vAsanA ho gaI hai, ghara basa gayA hai, dhana kI daur3a cala rahI hai, pada kI daur3a cala rahI hai| rAjanIti anivArya hai, dharma anivArya nahIM hai| isalie to hamane isa deza meM dhArmika vyakti ko samAdara diyaa| hamane samrAToM ko Adara nahIM diyA, kyoMki isameM kyA hai para sabhI samrATa honA cAhate haiN| nahIM ho pAte, yaha dUsarI bAta hai; lekina sabhI honA cAhate haiM, sabhI kI AkAMkSA hai| yaha honA kucha vizeSa nhiiN| yaha bar3I sAdhAraNa bAta hai| pada para ho jAnA kucha vizeSa bAta nhiiN| eka gAMva meM buddha kA Agamana huA thaa| to usa gAva ke vajIra ne apane rAjA ko kahA ki buddha Ate haiM, hama svAgata ke lie gAva ke bAhara cleN| rAjA akar3IlA thaa| usane kahA, 'jAne kI hameM kyA jarUrata hai? aura buddha haiM kyA? bhikhArI hI haiN| A jAeMge apane - Apa! hamAre jAne na jAne kI kyA jarUrata hai? vaha baDhA vajIra to yaha sana kara rone lgaa| usane apanA istIphA likha diyaa| usane kahA, 'yaha merA istIphA le leM, yaha tyAgapatra! mujhe kSamA kareM, maiM calA! aba tumhArI chAyA meM bhI baiThanA ucita nhiiN| usa rAjA ne kahA, 'mAmalA kyA hai? isameM itane nArAja hone kI bAta kyA hai? maiMne kucha burI
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________________ bAta to kahI nhiiN| maiM samrATa hUM, ve bhikhArI haiN| unake lie mujhe lene jAne kI jarUrata kyA hai?' usa vajIra ne kahA, 'basa bAta khatma ho gii| aba maiM tumhAre pAsa na baiTha skuuNgaa| tuma apane lie vajIra khoja lo| kyoMki aise AdamI ke pAsa kyA baiThanA, jise itanI bhI samajha na ho ki rAjanIti to sAdhAraNa hai, rAjA honA to sAdhAraNa hai| lekina yaha buddha kA bhikhArI ho jAnA asAdhAraNa hai, apUrva hai, adavitIya hai| yahAM kucha ghaTA hai| jAo, unake caraNoM meM giro! yaha saubhAgya tumhArA ki ve isa gAMva meM Ate haiN| aura maiM to calA! tumhAre pAsa baiThanA kasaMga hai| ' yaha ThIka kaha rahA hai vjiir| isa bUr3he ke pAsa AMkheM haiN| isake pAsa kucha samajha hai, kucha parakha dhana kA hamane samAdara nahIM kiyA hai| hamane samAdara kucha aura hI bAta kA kiyA hai-bodha kA, saMnyAsa kA, tyAga kaa| unhoMne jinhoMne chor3A, unhoMne jinhoMne Upara AMkheM uThAI aura AkAza kI tarapha dekhA, unakA hamane sammAna kiyA hai| pazcima meM itihAsa likhA gayA, pUraba meM itihAsa nahIM likhA gayA, hamane purANa likhe| pazcima ke vicAraka bar3e hairAna hote haiM ki bhArata meM itihAsa kyoM nahIM likhA gayA! ve samajhate haiM, purANa to kathA, kalpanA! lekina hamane itihAsa jAna kara nahIM likhA, kyoMki itihAsa to hotA hai sAdhAraNa ghaTanAoM kA; purANa hotA hai asAdhAraNa ghaTanAoM kaa| isalie to kalpanA jaisA mAlUma hotA hai purANa, kyoMki usa para bharosA nahIM AtA ki yaha ghaTA bhI hogaa| purANa kA artha hotA hai jo kabhI-kabhI ghaTatA hai| itihAsa kA artha hotA hai jo roja ghaTatA hai, jo punarukti hai| nepoliyana ho, ki nAdirazAha ho, ki taimUralaMga ho, ki caMgeja ho, ki hiTalara ho, ki sTelina ho, ki mAo ho-yaha roja kI ghaTanA hai| isase itihAsa banatA hai| ye to akhabAra kI kataraneM haiM, jinase itihAsa banatA hai| buddha kA ghaTanA anahonA hai| nahIM ghaTanA thA aura ghttaa| jaise acAnaka AdhI rAta meM sUraja jyA Ae, ki aMdhere meM kiraNa utara Ae aura hama pakar3a bhI na pAeM aura kho jAe, aura hamAre hAtha bhI na lage aura kho jaae| hama Thage aura avAka raha jAeM, Ae aura calI jaae| gaMje eka gIta, hama ThIka se suna bhI na pAeM, kyoMki hama apane zoragula se bhare haiM, aura gIta vidA ho jaae| eka smRti bhara raha jAe, aura hameM khada hI zaka hone lage ki yaha gIta sunA thA? aisA AdamI dekhA thA? hameM khuda hI bharosA na aae| hama khuda saMdeha meM par3ane lgeN| jaise-jaise smRti phIkI hone lage aura dUra hone lage, vaise -vaise hamIM ko bharosA na Ae. aisA huA thA? purANa kA artha hotA hai. jo kabhI-kabhI hotA hai, hajAroM sAla meM kabhI-kabhI hotA hai| vaisI advitIya ghaTanAoM ke saMgraha kA nAma purANa hai| purANa para bharosA AtA hI nhiiN| itihAsa to rahI hai, itihAsa to kUr3A-karkaTa hai, kacare kA Dhera hai, jo roja hotA hai| purAne dinoM meM loga subaha uTha kara gItA par3hate the yA dhammapada par3hate the yA kurAna par3hate the, aba uTha kara akhabAra par3hate haiN| jo roja hotA hai.|
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________________ tumane akhabAra meM kabhI khayAla kiyA, tuma jo par3hate ho vaha roja hotA hai! phira bhI tuma roja usI ko par3hate ho| tumane akhabAra meM kucha nayA hote dekhA? kisI ne kabhI akhabAra meM nayA hote dekhA? akhabAra se jyAdA purAnI cIja tumane dekhI? kahate ho, nayA akhabAra hai! do dina kA purAnA ho jAe to phira tuma nahIM pddh'te| maiM eka jagaha rahatA thA, to mere pAsa eka pAgala AdamI rahatA thaa| usako akhabAroM kA bar3A zauka thaa| vaha saba mohalle ke akhabAra ikaTThe kara letaa| zAyada akhabAroM ke kAraNa pAgala ho gayA ho, kucha patA nhiiN| lekina jaba maiM gayA vaha pAgala hI thaa| vaha mujhase bhI Akara jo bhI akhabAra vagairaha hote, saba uThA kara le jaataa| kabhI maiMne kahA usako ki tU sAta-sAta ATha-ATha dina purAne akhabAra uThA kara le jAtA hai, inakA tU karegA kyA? vaha bolA, akhabAra kyA purAne, kyA nae! are jaba par3ho-tabhI nae! jaba hamane paDhe hI nahIM, to hamAre lie to ne| usa pAgala AdamI ne bar3I buddhimAnI kI bAta khii| kahA ki kyA nae aura kyA purAne! tuma akhabAra par3hate ho, tumane kabhI isa para khayAla kiyA ki yahI tuma roja roja par3hate ho| kucha nayA ghaTatA hai kabhI? nayA to kurAna meM ghaTA hai, dhammapada meM ghaTA hai, aSTAvakra meM ghaTA hai| purAne loga jyAdA hoziyAra the| ve vahI par3hate the jo aghaTa hai, anirvacanIya hai, pakar3a meM nahIM aataa| nahIM honA thA, phira bhI ho jAtA hai| ve durlabha phUla khojate the, tuma kUr3A-karkaTa khojate ho| durlabha phUloM kI khoja meM ve bhI dhIre-dhIre durlabha ho jAte the| aghaTa kI khoja meM dhIre - dhIre aghaTa kI ghaTane kI saMbhAvanA unake bhItara bhI bana jAtI thii| __ isalie maiM tumase kahanA cAhatA hUM : na to anivArya aura na aavshyk| dharma isa jagata meM sabase gaira- anivArya bAta hai aura sabase anaavshyk| isalie to rUsa hai, bIsa karor3a loga binA dharma ke jI rahe haiM, kauna-sI ar3acana hai? saca to yaha hai, bahuta maje se jI rahe haiN| ciMtA-phikra mittii| saba sukha-suvidhA se jI rahe haiN| zAyada kucha thor3e-se logoM ko ar3acana hai, magara sau meM ninyAnabe AdamiyoM ko koI ar3acana nahIM hai| koI ekAdha hai sau meM, koI solvenitsina yA koI aura, koI ekAdha hai jisako ar3acana hai| magara usa ekAdha kI kyA gaNanA? lokataMtra to bhIr3a ke lie jItA hai| ninyAnabe ko to koI matalaba nahIM hai| unheM zarAba mila jAe, suMdara patnI mila jAe, makAna mila jAe, kAra mila jAe, khAne -pIne kI jagaha mila jAe paryApta hai| tuma kitane kSudra se rAjI ho jAte ho! tuma nA-kucha se rAjI ho jAte ho| tumhArI dInatA to dekho! aSTAvakra kahate haiM, yaha tumhArA mAlinya to dekho! kaise malina ho tuma, kitane kSudra se rAjI ho jAte ho! duniyA meM dharma agara bilakula vidA ho jAe to bahuta thor3e logoM ko ar3acana hogii| koI gautama buddha paidA hogA to use ar3acana hogii| lekina bAkI ko to koI ar3acana na hogii| apUrva hai dhrm| kabhI-kabhI khilane vAlA phUla hai, roja nahIM khiltaa| kabhI-kabhI khilane vAlA phUla hai! mere pAsa kucha dinoM taka eka mAlI thaa| vaha eka paudhA le aayaa| vaha mujhase kahane lagA, isake pAMca sau rupae dene haiM, jisase khriidaa| maiMne kahA, 'pAgala isa eka paudhe ke pAca sau rupaye, isakA itanA
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________________ mUlya? mAmalA kyA hai, isa paudhe kI khUbI kyA hai?' usane kahA, 'isameM phUla khilatA hai, lekina vaha bAraha sAla meM eka bAra khilatA hai|' to maiMne kahA, 'phira dene lAyaka hai| phira tU pAMca sau nahIM hajAra bhI de| tU le jaa| kyoMki jaba bAraha sAla meM phUla khilatA hai to adavitIya hai| aise mausamI phUla haiM, do saptAha cAra saptAha meM khila jAte haiN| bAraha sAla, to thor3A dharma jaisA phUla hai| ise tU jarUra lgaa| ise mere bagIce meM honA hI caahie| hama pratIkSA kareMge isakI, jaba khilegaa|' aura jaba phUla khilA-vaha rAta ko hI khilatA-pUrNimA kI rAta ko vaha khilA, to sArA par3osa, dUra-dUra se loga use dekhane Ane lge| vaha kabhI-kabhI khilatA, usake darzana roja-roja nahIM hote| buddha-puruSa kabhI-kabhI khilate haiN| vaha sahasrAra kA kamala kabhI-kabhI khilatA hai| usakI AkAMkSA mata karo jo roja khilatA hai, jo roja milatA hai| usa kSudra meM kucha bhI nahIM hai| usakI AkAMkSA karo jo apUrva hai, advitIya hai, anirvacanIya, pakar3a ke bAhara hai| use cAho jo asaMbhava hai| jisa dina tumane asaMbhava ko cAhA, usI dina tuma dhArmika hue| asaMbhava kI vAsanA- dharma kI merI paribhASA hai| taratUliyana kA bar3A prasiddha vacana hai, ki maiM Izvara meM bharosA karatA hUM kyoMki Izvara asaMbhava hai| asaMbhava hai! isalie bharosA karatA huuN| saMbhava meM kyA bharosA karanA saMbhava meM bharosA karane ke lie koI buddhimAnI cAhie, koI bar3I pratibhA cAhie? saMbhava meM bharosA to buddha se buddha ko A jAtA hai| asaMbhava meM bharose ke lie tumhAre bhItara zraddhA ke pahAr3a uTheM, gaurIzaMkara nirmita ho, to asaMbhava kI zraddhA hotI hai| asaMbhava kI cAha hai dhrm| 'paizanaphaoNra da iMpaoNsibala!' aura tumane pUchA hai ki ' dharma, adhyAtma jaise saMbodhana anAvazyaka rUpa se AtmajJAna ke sAtha jor3a die gae haiM?' nahIM, jarA bhI nhiiN| ve saMbodhana bar3e sArthaka haiN| dharma kA artha hotA hai. svbhaav| vaha bar3A sAMketika zabda hai| dharma kA artha rilijana yA majahaba nahIM hotaa| rilijana yA majahaba ko to hama saMpradAya kahate haiN| dharma kA artha to bar3A gaharA hai| jisake kAraNa islAma, dharma hai; aura jisake kAraNa IsAiyata, dharma hai, aura jisake kAraNa jaina, dharma hai; aura jisake kAraNa hiMdU dharma hai; jisake kAraNa ye sAre dharma, dharma kahe jAte hai-vaha jo sabakA sArabhUta hai, usakA nAma dharma hai| ye saba usa dharma taka pahuMcane ke mArga haiM isalie saMpradAya haiN| IsAiyata eka saMpradAya huI hiMdU eka saMpradAya hai, jaina eka saMpradAya hai, bauddha eka saMpradAya hai, islAma eka saMpradAya hai| dharma to vaha hai jahAM taka ye sabhI saMpradAya pahuMcA dete haiN| isalie islAma ko dharma kahanA ucita nahIM, hiMdU ko dharma kahanA ucita nahIM saMpradAya! 'saMpradAya' zabda acchA hai| isakA artha hotA hai mArga, jisase hama phuNceN| jisa para pahuMceM vaha dharma hai| 'dharma' bar3A anUThA zabda hai| usakA gaharA artha hotA hai. svabhAva; hamArA jo AtyaMtika svabhAva hai; hamAre bhItara ke AkhirI keMdra para jo chipA hai bIja kI taraha, usakA pragaTa ho jaanaa|
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________________ hama paramAtmA ko bIja kI taraha lie ghUma rahe haiN| hama janmoM-janmoM taka ghUmate rahe haiM paramAtmA ko bIja kI taraha lie| jaba taka hama usa bIja ko bhUmi na deMge -dhyAna kI-taba taka dharma kA vRkSa khar3A na hogaa| agara dharma se paricita honA hai to dhyAna meM gahare utaranA pdd'e| kyoMki dhyAna bhUmi banatA hai, aura dharma kA bIja dhyAna kI bhUmi meM aMkurita hotA hai| duniyA meM dharma nahIM haiN| hI, kabhI-kabhI dhArmika vyakti hote haiN| jo haiM, ve saba saMpradAya haiN| to dharma zabda vyartha nahIM hai| aise jabardastI AtmajJAna ke Upara nahIM thopa diyA gayA hai| aura adhyAtma bhI bar3A bahumUlya zabda hai| usakA bhI vahI matalaba hotA hai vaha, jo tumhArI nijatA hai| samajhane kI koziza kro| tumhAre pAsa do taraha kI cIjeM haiN| eka to jo tumheM dUsaroM ne dI haiM, jo tumhArI nijI nahIM haiM jaise bhaassaa| jaba tuma paidA hue the to tuma koI bhASA le kara na Ae the| bhASA tumheM dI gii| mauna tuma le kara Ae the| bhASA tumheM dI gii| mauna adhyAtma hai, bhASA sAmAjika hai| jo tuma le kara Ae the, jo tumhArA hai, nijI hai-vaha adhyAtma hai| jo udhAra hai, bAsA hai, vaha adhyAtma nahIM hai| jo bhI tumheM dUsaroM ne de diyA hai, vaha adhyAtma nahIM hai| tumhAre pAsa bahuta jJAna ho sakatA hai jo tumane vizvavidyAlaya se sIkhA zAstroM se sIkhA, guruoM se sIkhA vaha adhyAtma nahIM hai| jisa dina tumhArA aMtazcetana jAgegA, tumhArI AMkha khulegI, tumhAre apane jJAna kA prAdurbhAva hogA-usakA nAma adhyAtma hai| adhyAtma kA koI zAstra nahIM hotA aura adhyAtma kI koI kitAba nahIM hotI aura adhyAtma ko udhAra pAne kA koI upAya nahIM hai| adhyAtma koI vastu nahIM jo hastAMtarita ho ske| adhyAtma hai tumhArA AtyaMtika nija rUpa, tumhArI nijtaa| jisa dina tuma saba udhAra ko chATakara alaga kara doge: kahate jAoge yaha bhI maiM nahIM, yaha bhI maiM nahIM, neti, netiH tama iMkAra karate jAoge aura vaisI ghar3I bacegI jaba tuma iMkAra na kara sakoge; jise tumheM kahanA par3egA, yahI maiM hUM-usa dina adhyAtma! to sAkSI- bhAva hI adhyAtma hai; bAkI to saba gaira- adhyAtma hai| ye zabda bar3e pyAre haiN| ina zabdoM kA artha samajhoge to tumhAre bhItara zabdoM kA artha sunate-sunate, samajhate-samajhate hI kucha ghaTanA ghaTanI zurU ho jaaegii| eka choTI-sI cinagArI mahAvana ko jalA detI hai| ye choTe -choTe zabda nahIM haiM, ye choTI-choTI cinagAriyAM haiN| dUsarA prazna : guru ziSya ko sIdhe bhI dekhatA hai lekina phira bhI use vibhinna parIkSAoM se jAna-bUjha kara gujAratA hai| kyA isase ziSya kA AtmajJAna tIvra aura zuddhatara hotA hai? kRpA karake smjhaaeN|
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________________ guru dekhatA hai tumhAre tIna rUpa-tuma jo the, tuma jo ho, tuma jo ho sakate ho| tuma jo the, usase tumheM chuTakArA dilAnA hai| tumhAre atIta se tumheM mukti dilAnI hai| tumhAre atIta ko poMcha DAlanA hai, sApha kara denA hai; vaha kacarA hai jo tumhAre darpaNa para ikaTThA ho gyaa| tumheM atIta se vicchinna karanA hai, yaha pahalA kaam| phira tuma jo ho, usake prati tumheM jagAnA hai| kyoMki tumheM usakA bilakula patA nahIM ki tuma kauna ho| tuma jo rahe ho aba taka, tumhArA atIta itanA bojhila ho gayA hai, usase tuma isa bhAMti daba gae ho ki tumhArA vartamAna tumheM dikhAI nahIM pdd'taa| aura vartamAna bar3A choTA-sA kSaNa hai, bar3A ANavika-itanA choTA kSaNa hai ki tuma use pakar3a bhI nahIM skte| tumane dekhA ki yaha rahA vartamAna ki vaha gyaa| itanA kahane meM ki yaha rahA vartamAna, vartamAna atIta ho jAtA hai| itane samaya meM to vartamAna gyaa| vartamAna ko kahane ke lie zabda bhI juTAo, utanI dera meM vartamAna jA cukA hotA hai| vartamAna to bar3I patalI dhAra hai, bar3I sUkSma! vahAM to tuma zAMta sAkSI rahoge to hI pakar3a paaoge| to tumheM atIta se chuTakArA dilAnA hai tumheM vartamAna meM jagAnA hai; aura bhvissy..| agara luga atIta meM jakar3e rahe to atIta hI tumhAre bhaviSya kA nirNAyaka hotA hai, atIta hI tumhAre bhaviSya ko banAtA hai| murdA tumhAre bhaviSya ko bhI naSTa karatA calA jAtA hai| kyoMki tuma bhaviSya kI jo yojanA banAoge, vaha kahAM se lAoge? tumhAre atIta se laaoge| atIta ke anubhava ke AdhAra para hI tuma bhaviSya ke bhavana khar3e kroge| ve punaruktiyA hoNgii| vaha phira-phira vahI doharAnA hogaa| thor3e-bahuta hera-phera kara loge, raMga badala loge, thor3A rUpa badala loge; lekina hogA vaha atIta hI sajAyA huA, saMvArA huaa| lAza hI hogI acche vastroM meM shrRNgaarit| bhaviSya kI tuma yojanA jo bhI banAoge, atIta se AegI, vaha atIta kA projekyAna hai, prakSepaNa hogaa| to guru kI ceSTA hogI ki vaha tumheM atIta ko bhaviSya meM prakSepita na hone de| nahIM to tumhArA atIta to naSTa huA tumhArA bhaviSya bhI naSTa ho jaaegaa| guru kI ceSTA hogI ki tumheM atIta se ta karavA de aura guru kI ceSTA hogI ki tumheM bhaviSya kI ciMtA aura vicAraNA se bhI mukta karavA de| kyoMki bhaviSya kA sArA vicAra bhaviSya ko naSTa karanA hai| bhaviSya kA vicAra kaise ho sakatA hai? bhaviSya to vahI hai jo abhI AyA nhiiN| bhaviSya to vahI hai jisakA tumheM koI patA nhiiN| bhaviSya to abhI korI sleTa hai, korA kAgaja hai, jisa para kucha likhA nahIM gyaa| abhI tuma bhaviSya para agara kucha likhanA zurU kara doge to tuma bhaviSya ko kharAba kara loge| usakA korApana ghara Ane ke pahale hI kharAba ho jaaegaa| to vartamAna meM tumheM jagAnA hai; atIta se tumheM chuTakArA dilAnA hai; bhaviSya ke sapanoM ko avaruddha karanA hai| ina tIna kAmoM ke lie guru sArI kI sArI ceSTA karatA hai| tumheM jagAtA, phira parIkSAeM bhI khar3I karatA hai ki tuma jAge yA nhiiN| kyoMki tumhArI nIMda itanI gaharI hai ki kaI bAra tuma nIMda
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________________ meM hI sapanA dekha lete ho ki jAga ge| tumheM aise sapane yAda hoMge jinameM tumane nIMda meM, sapane meM samajha liyA ki jAga ge| subaha uThakara patA calA ki sapanA to jhUThA thA hI, sapane meM jAge, vaha bhI jhuThA thaa| bahuta Dara hai isa bAta kA ki jAgane kI bAteM suna suna kara kahIM tuma jAgane kA sapanA na dekhane lago! vaha yathArtha nahIM hogaa| isalie aSTAvakra janaka kI khUba kasa kara kasauTI karane lagate haiN| mujhe bhI dekhanA par3atA hai ki kahIM tuma kisI nae sapane meM na par3a jAo! kahIM adhyAtma kA sapanA na dekhane lago! sapane saba sapane haiM-saMsAra ke hoM ki adhyAtma ke| sapane se mukta ho jAnA hai-to adhyaatm| aura tumheM jaldI bAteM pakar3a jAtI haiN| kyoMki jisa-jisa bAta se ahaMkAra kI tRpti ho, vaha tatkSaNa pakar3a jAtI hai| jaise kisI ne kahA ki tuma to brahmasvarUpa ho-pakar3I! ki isameM to koI aDcana hotI nhiiN| isalie to itane karor3oM loga isa bAta ko mAna lete haiM ki hama brahmasvarUpa haiN| isako pakar3ane meM dera nahIM lgtii| pApI se pApI AdamI bhI jaba sunatA hai udaghoSa upaniSadoM kA, aSTAvakra kA-siMha garjanA-ki tuma paramezvara ho, to vaha bhI socatA hai ki bilakula ThIka hai, yaha to hama pahale se jAnate the| kahate nahIM the ki koI mAnegA nahIM, lekina jAnate to hama pahale se the hii| pApa ityAdi to saba sapanA hai! hAlAMki tuma kie jAte ho paap| aba tuma eka naI tarakIba khoja lete ho ki yaha to saba mAyA hai| corI tuma kie cale jAte ho, beImAnI tuma kie cale jAte ho-aba tuma kahate ho, yaha saba mAyA hai| tuma aksara pAoge, jahAM isa taraha ke zuddha vedAMta kI bAteM hotI haiM, vahA tuma mahApApiyo ko baiThe dekhoge aura prasanna pAoge! vahIM unako prasannatA milatI hai, aura kahIM to mila nahIM sktii| aura to jahAM bhI ve jAte haiM, koI kahatA hai, yaha blaikamArkeTa karane vAlA jA rahA hai, koI kahatA, yaha cora hai, koI kahatA, yaha beImAna hai, yaha mahApApI hai| vaha jahAM zuddha adhyAtma baha rahA hai, vahIM unako thor3I zAMti milatI hai| vahAM unako lagatA hai ki bilakula ThIka bAta ho rahI hai| pApa ityAdi saba jhUThe haiM! tuma sAdhu-saMto ke pAsa pApiyoM ko ikaTThA dekhoge| unake vacana unake ahaMkAra ko bar3I tRpti dete haiM calo, koI to jagaha hai jahAM hama praphullita ho kara baiTha sakate haiM ki koI pApa ityAdi nahIM hai, yaha saba mAyA hai| na kucha kiyA, na kucha kiyA jA sakatA hai| kartA hama haiM hI nahIM, na hama bhoktA haiM hama to sAkSI haiM! to guru ko dekhanA par3atA hai ki kahIM yaha sAkSI kI dhAraNA tumhAre lie AtmaghAtI to na ho jaaegii| jaldI se yaha ghoSaNA ho jAtI hai| abhI janaka aura aSTAvakra kI bAteM suna kara aneka logoM ne mujhe patra likha die ki ' Apane khUba jagA diyA! aura hamako jJAna ho gayA!' eka mitra ne likhA ki aba to maiM jAga kara jA rahA hUM ki maiM svayaM paramabrahma huuN| ve gae bhI ve patra likha kara gae, ve cale hI gae patra likha kara! parIkSA dene taka kA maukA unhoMne nahIM diyaa| ve to sirpha ghoSaNA karake gae! 'svabhAva' ne patra likha diyA ki 'maiM jAga gayA! dhanyavAda prabhu ki Apane batA diyA ki maiM bhagavAna huuN|' na itanA kiyA, ve sira ghuTA lie usI joza meM lakSmI mujhase kahane lagI ki USA A kara rotI
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________________ hai (unakI ptnii)| maiMne lakSmI ko kahA, tU USA ko kaha, tU bilakula phikra na kr| aise kahIM koI... aise kahIM svabhAva jAgane vAle nhiiN| sira ghuTAne se kyA hotA hai, dekha coTI bacA lI hai! usI meM saba baca gayA! coTI kyoM bacAI svabhAva ne? hiMdU coTI to bacAegA hI! maiMne unakI patnI ko khabara bheja dI ki tU bilakula ghabar3A mata, uussaa| jaba taka maiM hI na kahUM ye jAga gaye, taba taka tU phikra mata kr| aise to ye kaI karavaTeM leMge aura phira-phira so jaaeNge| uttara maiMne unake prazna kA diyA nahIM thA, maiMne. ki jarA tuma suna lo pahale aSTAvakra kisa taraha janaka kI parIkSA karate haiM, phira tumhArA uttara de deNge| aba aSTAvakra kI parIkSA cala rahI hai janaka ke lie| vaha saba socanA, gaura se socnaa| mana bar3A beImAna hai! mana bar3A kuzala hai dhokhA dene meM! dUsaroM ko dhokhA detA hI detA, apane ko bhI de letA hai| jAgoge nizcita! jAganA hai! jAgaraNa tumhArA svabhAva hai, tumhAre bhItara par3A hai! lekina jaldI hI mAna loge, bahuta jaldI mAna loge, to guru ko tumhArI TAga khIMcanI pdd'egii| phira tumheM cAroM khAne citta! agara tuma na girAe gae to tuma kisI khatare meM par3a sakate ho| jAgaraNa nizcita ghaTatA hai-ghaTanA cAhie bhI! kabhI-kabhI tIvratA se bhI ghaTatA hai| kabhI-kabhI tatkSaNa bhI ghaTatA hai| lekina phira bhI guru ko dhyAna rakhanA par3atA hai ki kahIM vaha kisI kI bhI bhrAmaka dazA meM sahayogI to na bana jaaegaa| hAlAMki tumheM kabhI kabhI coTa bhI lagegI, kyoMki tuma kucha mAna late the aura maiM kaha detA haM nahIM yaha nahIM haa| to tamheM coTa bhI lgegii| vaha majabarI hai| usake lie mujhe kSamA krnaa| lekina coTa mujhe karanI hI pdd'egii| agara maiM coTa na karUM aura tumheM kisI bhAMti meM calane dUM to maiM tumhArA guru nahIM, tumhArA saMgI-sAthI nahIM; phira tumhArA zatru hUM phira maiMne tuma para karuNA na kI, maiMne tuma para prema na kiyaa| tumhAre ahaMkAra ko agara maiM kisI bhI kAraNa bharUM to maiM tumhArA duzmana huuN| tumhAre ahaMkAra ko to miTAnA hai| tumhAre ahaMkAra ko to aise miTA denA hai ki usakA bIja bilakula dagdha ho jaae| aba dhyAna rakhanA, kahIM svabhAva jA kara coTI na ghuTA leN| aba koI sAra nahIM hai ghuTAne se| aba to maiMne kaha diyA, aba kucha matalaba nahIM hai| aba tuma ghuTA bhI lo to koI pharka nahIM pdd'taa| ceSTA to hai samajhane kI, svabhAva kI! gahana ceSTA hai! bar3I tIvra AkAMkSA hai! jAganA cAhate haiN| jAganA cAhate haiM, isIlie to kabhI-kabhI nIMda meM bhI jAgane kA sapanA dekha lete haiN| AkAMkSA zubha hai| AkAMkSA honI caahie| eka artha meM dhanyabhAgI hai aisA vyakti, kyoMki kama se kama unase to behatara hai jo nIMda meM bhI jAgane kA sapanA nahIM dekhte| kama -se -kama jAgane kA sapanA hI shii| lekina jAgane kI AkAMkSA hogI, tabhI to jAgane kA sapanA dekhoge! agara ahaMkAra saMnyAsa se bhI bharate ho to bhI zubha hai eka artha meM ki saMnyAsa se bhara rahe ho ahaMkAra, saMnyAsa kI AkAMkSA to hai hI! aba thor3e aura Age jAnA hai| isa AkAMkSA ko parizuddha karanA puuraa| jAganA hI hai, sapanA kyA dekhanA jAgane kA pu jAgane ke sapane se kucha sAra na hogaa| isa prabhu kI yAtrA ke rAste para kaI par3Ava par3eMge, jahAM tumhArA so jAne kA mana hogaa| zaktiyAM
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________________ jageMgI, taba tumhArA so jAne kA mana hogaa| tuma kahoge, A gae basa ho gayA! dekho zakti jaga gaI!' eka musalamAna yuvaka mere pAsa sAdhanA karatA thaa| bar3I gahana AkAMkSA se sAdhanA meM lagA thaa| bar3I aTUTa usakI niSThA thii| vaha eka dina mere pAsa AyA aura usane kahA ki ghaTanA ghaTa gaI; mAlUma hotA hai, AtmajJAna ho gyaa| maiMne kahA, 'huA kyA?' to usane kahA, 'maiM eka basa meM baiThA thaa| aura aise basa majhI pahAr3I ke kinAre to mujhe lagA ki mere sAmane jo AdamI baiThA hai vaha kahIM gira to na jAegA ! aura jaise hI mujhe lagA ki vaha gira gyaa| to maiMne socA ki kahIM mere vicAra ne to isako nahIM girA diyaa| para maiMne kahA, saMyoga kI bAta bhI ho sakatI hai| to maiMne eka dUsarI daphe, jaba majhI basa, to maiMne eka dUsare AdamI para dhyAna kiyA aura socA ki yaha AdamI giregA ! vaha AdamI gira gayA ! taba maiM thor3A ghabar3AyA ki yaha mAmalA kyA hai! para phira bhI maiMne socA eka parIkSA aura kara lenI caahie| tIsarI daphe jaba basa majhI to eka bahuta moTe AdamI para jisake girane kI saMbhAvanA hI nahIM thI, jo aisA phaMsA baiThA thA ki sITa hI choTI par3a rahI thI, basa pUrI bhI ulaTa jAe to vaha zAyada na ulaTe - usako socA ki yaha gira jAe, vaha gira gayA! to phira bolA, phira to mujhe ekadama ghabaDAhaTa ho gii| ghabar3AhaTa bhI huI aura AnaMda bhI AyA / maiMne kahA ki yaha to mAlUma hotA hai zakti hAtha meM A rahI hai| aba vastutaH use ghaTa rahA thA, phira bhI mujhe kahanA par3A, yaha pAgalapana hai| yaha ekAgratA kI kSamatA hai| agara tuma dhyAna karate-karate bahuta ekAgra ho jAo aura usa ekAgratA meM koI vicAra tuma soco, vaha tatkSaNa ghaTa jaaegaa| isalie samasta yogazAstroM ne kahA hai, isake pahale ki tuma dhyAna kI ekAgratA meM utaro, tumheM zubha vicAroM se bhara jAnA caahie| kyoMki agara dhyAna kI ekAgratA ke bAda azubha vicAra tumhAre bhItara calate rahe to unake pariNAma Ane zurU ho jaaeNge| isalie pataMjali ne isake pahale ki dhAraNA, dhyAna, samAdhi sAdho - yama, niyama, prANAyAma, pratyAhAra, ina sabake sAdhane kI bAta khii| itane parizuddha ho jAo ki jaba dhyAna kI UrjA uThe to tumhAre pAsa galata vicAra to ho hI nahIM / isalie mahAvIra ne kahA, dhyAna ke pahale ahiMsA kA bhAva gaharA kara lo| buddha ne kahA, dhyAna ke pahale karuNA kA bhAva gaharA kara lo| buddha ne to yaha bhI kahA ki hara dhyAna ke bAda, uThane ke pahale dhyAna se, sAre jagata ke prati karuNA kA phailAva krnaa| hara dhyAna ko karuNA para pUrA karanA, karuNA se zurU karanA; anyathA khatarA hai, kyoMki agara jarA bhI galata vicAra ghUma jAe dhyAna kI sthiti meM to vaha vicAra pariNAmakArI ho jaaegaa| usa vicAra meM eka bala A jAtA hai| vaha vicAra dUsare vyakti meM praveza kara jaaegaa| zakti jAganI zurU hotI hai, use bhI guru ko rokanA par3atA hai| kalpanAeM satya mAlUma hone lagatI haiM, use bhI guru ko rokanA par3atA hai| bhrAMti janmoM-janmoM kI hai| usa bhrAMti kA bar3A phailAva hai| aisA hI samajho ki isa bagIce meM
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________________ janma -janmoM se kUr3A-karkaTa UgatA rahA hai, ghAsa-pAta UgatA rahA hai| aba tumane gulAba bo die, lekina isa bAta kI bahuta saMbhAvanA hai ki tumhAre gulAba para ghAsa car3ha daur3egA use dabA legaa| zAyada gulAba kA patA hI nahIM clegaa| janmoM-janmoM se tumhAre mana kI bhUmi AkrAMta rahI hai vyartha se, asAra se| to jaba sAra kI thor3I-sI kSamatA bhI paidA hogI, tatkSaNa asAra use dabA legaa| guru ko ceSTA rakhanI hogI ki asAra sAra ko dabA na paae| svapna satya para hAvI na ho paae| isalie bahuta sI parIkSAoM se gujAranA hogaa| guru kI maujUdagI hI parIkSA hai| guru jaba tumhArI AMkha meM AMkha DAla kara dekhatA hai, tabhI parIkSA cala rhii| guru ke pAsa hone kA artha hI yaha hotA hai ki tuma caubIsa ghaMTe kase jA rahe ho| aura isa kasane se ghabar3AnA mata, isa kasane ke lie taiyAra rhnaa| aura guru ko dhanyavAda denA ki mujhe aisA chor3a mata denA, mujhe kasate clnaa| kyoMki yAtrA laMbI hai ra anajAna hai, aparicita hai! mujhe to kucha patA nahIM, kahIM bhaTaka na jAUM! bhaTakAva kI saMbhAvanA jyAdA hai, pahuMcane ke bajAya kyoMki bhaTakAva hamArA purAnA abhyAsa hai| tIsarA prazna : hamArI saMnyAsa-dIkSA ke samaya Apa jisa kAgaja para hamAre naye nAma aura apane hastAkSara aMkita karate haiM, usakA eka bar3A hissA korA hI raha jAtA hai| usa para kyA likhate haiM jo korA raha jAtA hai? prabhu, usa korepana ke pIche kyA rahasya hai? vahI tumhAre saMnyAsa ke lie sUtra hai| jo nAma likhatA hUM tumhArA kone meM use to Aja nahIM kala bhUla jAnA, use to miTA denaa| korA kAgaja hI raha jAe! tuma kore raha jAo! tumheM patA hI na rahe, tuma kauna ho, kyA ho! tumheM patA na rahe, koI taadaatmy| tumhArI sArI sImAeM gira jAeM, tuma kore kAgaja raha jAo! isalie jAna kara hI eka kone meM tumhArA nAma likha detA hUM vaha bhI niice| Upara korA AkAza tumane kabhI cInI jhena phakIroM kI banAI huI citrakalA dekhI unake citra vAstavika citra haiN| unake citra meM tuma pAoge, bar3A kainavasa hotA, laMbA, aura nIce kone meM jarA-sI peMTiMga hotI hai| bar3A virATa AkAza aura jarA-se kone meM! ve ThIka-ThIka sUcanA de rahe haiN| ve kaha rahe haiM, AdamI kA jAnA huA basa aisA hai-jarA-sA kone meM! AdamI kA banAyA huA basa aisA hai jarA-sA kone meM! phira virATa AkAza pazcima meM jo peMTiMga hotI hai, usameM AkAza hotA hI nhiiN| saba bharA hotA hai, pUrA kainavasa
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________________ bharA hotA hai| saba raMga DAlate haiM, korA kucha chor3ate nhiiN| jaba pazcima pahalI daphA jhena peMTiMga ko pahacAnane lagA to bar3A cakita huA ki itane bar3e kAgaja para itanI sI peMTiMga itanI-sI peMTiMga to thor3e se kAgaja para ho jAtI hai! yaha itanA kAgaja khAlI kyoM chor3A hai? vaha khAlI bar3A rAja hai, vaha rahasya hai, vaha sUcaka hai| vaha khAlI hI saca hai, bAkI to thor3I-sI lahareM haiN| sAgara hI saca hai| yaha pRthvI to hamArI bar3I choTI-sI hai| yaha bar3A AkAza! isa anupAta ko mata bhuulnaa| isalie kone meM nIce dastakhata kara detA hUM tumhArA nAma likha detA huuN| aura pUrA kAgaja khAlI chor3a detA hUM tAki bAra-bAra tumheM yAda AtI rahe ki tumhArA nAma to basa jarA-sA kone meM hai| vaha bhI eka dina bhUla hI jAnA hai| anAma ho jAnA hai, tabhI saMnyAsa pUrNa hotA hai| kore kAgaja jaise ho jAnA hai| sUphiyoM kI eka kitAba hai, jo bilakula korI hai| usa jaisI bar3hiyA koI kitAba nhiiN| usa kitAba meM kucha likhA nahIM hai| koI sAta sau ATha sau sAla purAnI kitAba hai| eka guru se dUsare guru ko dI jAtI rhii| eka guru ne eka ziSya ko de dI, phira vaha apane ziSya ko de gayA, hAtha-hAtha calatI rahI hai| abhI bhI surakSita hai| abhI bhI sAta sau sAla ke bAda ziSya use par3hate haiM khola kr| usameM kucha likhA nahIM hai| vaha kore kAgaja haiN| usa kitAba ko sUphI chApanA cAhate the, koI pablizara chApane ko rAjI nhiiN| phira kisI ne himmata kI aura chaapaa| lekina usane bhI jaba chApA usako to koI bIsa-paccIsa panne bhUmikA ke likhavA lie|.. kharAba ho gaI kitAba! bhUmikA meM saba itihAsa de diyA ki kisane zurU kI yaha kitAba, phira kisake hAtha meM rahI, phira kisake hAtha meM gii| magara usase saba kharAba ho gyaa| vaha kitAba korI hI honI caahie| magara kauna rAjI hogA korI kitAba chApane ko! loga kaheMge, kucha ho bhI to chApane ko to chaa| isameM to kucha hai nhiiN| rAjasthAna meM eka mahilA hai : bhUribAI! adabhuta mahilA hai! jaba bhI maiM rAjasthAna jAtA thA, vaha jarUra mujhe milane AtI thii| bahuta thor3I-sI mahilAeM bhArata meM hoMgI, jo usa koTi kI haiN| bilakula dehAtI hai, use kucha patA bhI nahIM; magara saba patA hai| vaha mujhase kahane lagI ki 'bApajI, Apa mere gAva AnA! maiMne eka kitAba likhI hai, usakA udaghATana krnaa| ' maiMne kahA, 'tU kisI aura ko dhokhA denaa| terI kitAba maiM samajha gayA, usameM kyA hogaa| tU use yahIM le AnA, maiM yahIM udaghATana kara dNgaa| to vaha le AI eka daphA, sira para rakha kara lAI, bar3I suMdara peTI meM sajA kara lAI! usake bhakta. usake bhakta haiM! vaha mahilA hai yogya! usake bhakta sAtha meM aae| usakI kitAba kA maiMne udaghATana kara diyaa| kucha bhI nahIM, eka choTI-sI pustikA thI aMdara, khAlI! kucha usameM likhA nahIM thaa| vaha likhanA-par3hanA jAnatI bhI nhiiN| jaba pahalI daphA mere zivira meM AI to jo usake sAtha Ae the, bhakta, ve to saba dhyAna karane lage, vaha uTha kara apanI koTharI meM calI gii| usake bhaktoM ne jA kara kahA ki hama Ae hI yahAM isalie haiM ki dhyAna kareM, Apane dhyAna nahIM kiyA? vaha kahane lagI ki tuma bApajI se pUcha lenaa| ve mere pAsa
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________________ aae| unhoMne kahA, yaha mAmalA kyA hai? zrairabAI kahatI hai, bApajI se pUcha lenA / 'bApajI' mujhe kahanA nahIM cAhie, kyoMki vaha hogI sattara - assI sAla kii| maiMne kahA, vaha ThIka kahatI hai| kyoMki jo maiMne kahA thA vahI usane kiyaa| maiMne kahA thA, kucha na karo, zAMta sAkSI ho jAo! ve usake pAsa ge| unhoMne kahA, unhoMne to aisA kahA / vaha kahane lagI ki ThIka kahA / vahA to bar3I bhIr3a-bhAr3a thI, upadrava thaa| kaI loga kucha-kucha kara rahe the| maiM isa koTharI meM A kara baiTha gaI, maiMne kucha na kiyA, bar3A dhyAna lagA / phira vaha apane gAMva vApisa gaI to gAva ke logoM ne pUchA ki vahA se kyA lAI, to usane apanI koTharI para 'cupa likhavA diyaa| usane kahA ki itanA hI samajhI maiM to, ve kahe to bahuta-sI bAteM lekina merI buddhi meM jyAdA nahIM samAtA, maiM to gaira-par3hI likhI hUM; 'cupa - itanA hI merI samajha meM aayaa| vaha apanI koTharI para likhavA rakhA hai ki itanA unakI bAtoM meM se maiM samajha paaii| kahate to ve bahuta kucha haiM itanA maiM pakar3a paaii| vahI maiM tumako kaha sakatI huuN| vaha jo korA kAgaja hai, vaha kahatA hai 'cupa' / vaha jo korA kAgaja hai, vahI kurAna hai, vahI dhammapada vahI aSTAvakra kI saMhitA hai / usa kore kAgaja ke lie hI sAre zAstroM ne ceSTA kI hai ki tumhArI samajha meM korA kAgaja par3hanA A jaae| zUnya ko samajhAne ke lie zabdoM kA sahArA liyA hai; lekina zabdoM ko samajhAne ke lie nahIM - zUnya ko samajhAne ke lie| mauna meM le jAne ke lie bhASA kA prayojana hai| tuma sAkSI bano! tuma kore bhItara zUnya ke sAkSI bano! vahIM nirvANa ghaTita hotA hai, samAdhi ghaTita hotI hai! cauthA prazna : kala Apane moha aura jJAna ke gaMgA taTa jAne kI kathA kahI / usameM moha to gaMgA meM snAna kara prema ko upalabdha ho gayA lekina jJAna kA kyA huA? kRpA kara jJAna kI niyati para bhI thor3A prakAza DAleM ! vaha abhI bhI bhaTaka rahA hai| jJAna abhI bhI bhaTaka rahA hai| jJAna bar3I akar3I huI bAta hai| tuma paMDita se jyAdA ahaMkArI aura kisako pAoge? dhanI bhI utanA ahaMkArI nahIM hotA, jitanA ahaMkArI tathAkathita jJAnI ho jAtA hai| jisako yaha lagatA hai ki mujhe mAlUma hai, usakI akar3a kA kyA kahanA ! jJAna to rAjI na huA kalpa- gaMgA meM utarane ko / kalpa- gaMgA ne to donoM ko kahA thA - jJAna aura moha donoM khar3e the kinAre / jJAna aura moha ko tuma aisA samajha lo ki hRdaya aura buddhi, saMkalpa
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________________ aura samarpaNa, bhAva aura vicAra-nAma kucha bhI de do| donoM khar3e the| gaMgA ne kahA, 'Ao pyAre! snAna kara lo mujhameM! ho jAo pavitra! nahalAUMgI tumheM! zuddha kara dUMgI! nayA kara dUMgI! punarjIvana hogA tumhAra!' moha to utara gayA; kyoMki moha to bhAva hai, hRdaya hai; tarka nahIM hai vhaaN| usane to nimaMtraNa svIkAra kara liyaa| usane kahA ki calo, dekheN| vaha to utara gyaa| usane to DubakI mAra lii| vaha to jaba nikalA to purAnA jA cukA thA, nayA ho cukA thaa| moha prema ho gyaa| hRdaya samAdhi bana gyaa| bhAva rasa meM DUba gyaa| jJAna akar3A khar3A rhaa| usane kahA, kauna mujhe zuddha karegA? yaha kisa taraha kI bAta? mujhe aura zuddha? maiM zuddha hUM! yaha sAdhAraNa-sI gaMgA kA jala mujhe zuddha karegA? are maiM zAstroM kA jJAtA! mujhe kauna zuddha karegA? maiM dUsaroM ko zuddha kara dUM! vaha akar3A khar3A rhaa| vaha moha para haMsA bhI ki yaha bhI kyA pAgala bAtoM meM A rahA hai! vaha abhI bhI bhaTaka rahA hai| vaha abhI bhI vahIM khar3A hai, aba bhI haMsa rahA hai| paMDita sadA hI haMsatA hai premI pr| lekina premI hI haiM jo pAte haiN| tumase eka aura kathA kahatA huuN| eka rAjA ke do beTe the| rAjA ke pAsa bahuta dhana thaa| eka beTe kA nAma jJAna thA eka beTe kA nAma prema thaa| rAjA bar3I ciMtA meM thA ki kisako apanA rAjya sauMpa jaae| kisI phakIra ko pUchA ki kaise taya karUM? donoM jar3avAM the, sAtha-sAtha paidA hue the| umra meM koI bar3A-choTA na thA: na umra se taya kara lete| donoM pratibhAzAlI the, donoM medhAvI the, donoM kuzala the| kaise taya kareM? bApa kA mana bar3A DAvADola thA, kahIM anyAya na ho jAe! phakIra se puuchaa| phakIra ne kahA, 'yaha kro| donoM beToM ko kaha do ki yahI bAta nirNAyaka hogii| tuma jAo aura sArI duniyA meM bar3e-bar3e nagaroM meM koThiyAM bnaao| jo koThiyAM banAne meM pAMca sAla ke bhItara saphala ho jAegA, vahI mere rAjya kA uttarAdhikArI hogaa|' jJAna claa| usane koThiyAM banAnI zurU kara dii| magara pAMca sAla meM sArI pRthvI para kaise koThiyAM banAoge ? hajAroM baDe nagara haiM! kucha koThiyAM banAyIM, usakA dhana bhI cuka gayA, sAmarthya bhI cuka gaI, thaka bhI gayA, parezAna bhI ho gyaa| aura phira bAta bhI mUr3hatApUrNa mAlUma paDI, isase sAra kyA hai? pAMca sAla bAda jaba donoM lauTe to jAna to thakA-mAdA thA, bhikhamaMge kI hAlata meM lauttaa| saba jo usake pAsa thI saMpadA, vaha saba lagA dii| kucha koThiyAM jarUra bana gaIM, lekina isase kyA sAra? vaha bar3A parAjita aura viSAda meM lauttaa| prema bar3A nAcatA huA lauttaa| bApa ne pUchA koThiyAM banAI? prema ne kahA ki banA dIM, sArI duniyA para banA diiN| saba bar3e nagaroM meM kyA, choTe -choTe nagaroM meM bhI banA diiN| samaya kAphI thaa| bApa bhI thor3A cauNkaa| usane pUchA ki yaha terA bar3A bhAI, yaha terA dUsarA bhAI, yaha to thakA-hArA lauTA hai kucha nagaroM meM banA kara, tUne kaise banA lIM? prema ne kahA ki maiMne mitra banAe, jagaha-jagaha mitra bnaae| sabhI mitroM kI koThiyA mere lie khulI haiN| jisa gAMva meM jAUM vahIM, eka kyA do -do, peTalA .
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________________ tIna-tIna koThiyAM haiN| makAna maiMne nahIM banAe, maiMne mitra bnaae| yaha AdamI makAna banAne meM laga gayA, isalie cUka ho gii| makAna to mere lie khule khar3e haiM, koThiyAM mere lie taiyAra haiM, jagaha-jagaha taiyAra haiN| jahAM Apa kaheM, vahA merI kotthii| hara nagara meM merI koThI! eka to DhaMga hai prema kA aura eka DhaMga hai jJAna kaa| jJAna se aMtataH vijJAna paidA huaa| jJAna kI AkhirI saMtati vijJAna hai| vijJAna se aMtataH TekyolaoNjI paidA huii| vijJAna kI saMtati TekyolaoNjI hai; takanIka hai| prema se bhakti paidA hotI hai| bhakti prema kI putrI hai| bhakti se bhagavAna paidA hotA hai| vaha donoM dizAeM bar3I alaga haiN| jJAna ke mArga se jo calA hai, vaha kahIM na kahIM vijJAna meM bhaTaka jaaegaa| isalie to pazcima vijJAna meM bhaTaka gyaa| yUnAnI vicArakoM se paidA huI pazcima kI sArI prNpraa| vaha jJAna ke unakI bar3I pakaDa thii| arastR pleTo! tarka aura vicAra aura jJAna! jAnanA hai! jAna kara raheMge! usa jAnane kA aMtima pariNAma huA ki aNubama taka AdamI pahuMca gyaa| manai khoja lI aura kucha sAra na aayaa| pUraba prema se calA hai| to hamane samAdhi khojii| hamane kucha anUThA AkAza khojA jahAM saba bhara jAtA hai, saba pUrA ho jAtA hai| aba to pazcima parezAna hai, apane hI jJAna se parezAna hai| alabarTa AiMsTIna marane ke pahale kaha kara marA hai ki ' agara mujhe dubArA janma mile to maiM vaijJAnika na honA cAhUMgA kataI nahIM! plaMbara honA pasaMda kara lUMgA, vaijJAnika honA pasaMda nahIM kruuNgaa| ' bar3I pIr3A meM marA hai ki kyA sAra? jAnane kA kyA sAra? hone meM sAra hai| prema bhI jaba taka jhuke nahIM taba taka bhakti nahIM bntaa| jJAna bhI agara jhuka jAe to dhyAna bana jAtA hai| lekina jJAna jhukane ko rAjI nahIM hotaa| prema jhukane ko bar3I jaldI rAjI ho jAtA hai| agara jJAna bhI utara gayA hotA gaMgA meM-samajha lo, utarA nahIM, utara gayA hotA-usane bhI nimaMtraNa svIkAra kara liyA hotA, DubakI mAra lI hotI, to jaise moha prema bana kara nikalA, jJAna dhyAna bana kara nikala sakatA thaa| lekina kinAre para akar3A khar3A raha gayA, to vijJAna bana gayA, to TekyolaoNjI bana gii| to saba cIjeM kharAba hotI calI giiN| __aisA nahIM hai ki jJAna kI vRtti vAle vyakti ke lie mArga nahIM; jhuka jAe vaha bhI to usake lie bhI mArga hai| premI jhakatA hai to prArthanA paidA hotI hai; jJAnI jhakatA hai to dhyAna paidA hotA hai| prArthanA bhI paramAtmA para le jAtI hai; dhyAna bhI paramAtmA para le jAtA hai| bhASA alaga hogii| jaba dhyAnI paramAtmA para pahuMcegA to vaha kahegA AtmA! kyoMki dUsare kA koI upAya nahIM hai dhyAna meN| jaba premI paramAtmA para pahuMcatA hai to vaha AtmA nahIM kahatA, vaha kahatA hai, tumhI ho, maiM kahAM! ye sirpha bhASA ke bheda haiN| donoM eka hI mahAzUnya para pahuMca gae haiN| eka use AtmA kahatA hai, eka use paramAtmA kahatA hai| ye bhASA ke bheda haiN| agara tumhArI vicAra para bahuta pakar3a ho to dhyAna kA mArga pakar3o; DubakI magara lgaao| idhara rahI gaMgA! yaha maiM kahatA hUM ki A jAo le lo DubakI! maiM tumheM nayA kara duuNgaa|
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________________ agara vicAra para bahuta pakar3a hai, koI harjA nahIM / jo moha taka ko rUpAMtarita kara detI hai gaMgA, vaha vicAra ko na kara pAegI? moha taka ko rUpAMtarita kara diyA prema meM, to vicAra kI kyA tAkata hai? vicAra tatkSaNa dhyAna meM rUpAMtarita ho jAtA hai| lekina jhukanA pdd'e| binA jhuke kucha bhI nahIM banA samarpita hue kucha bhI nahIM pAMcavAM prazna : aisA lagatA hai ki pRthvIcArI janaka pahalI bAra AkAza ko dekha kara Azcaryacakita hote haiN| to AkAza-vihArI aSTAvakra ko saMsAra dekha kara hI Azcarya hotA hai| kyA saca hI saMsAra aura mokSa eka-dUsare ke lie itane Azcarya ke viSaya haiM? ve paraspara virodhI haiM yA eka-dUsare ke pUraka haiM? na to virodhI aura na pUraka / jaba eka hotA hai to dUsarA hotA hI nhiiN| aisA samajho ki prakAza aura aMdherA eka-dUsare ke virodhI haiM yA eka-dUsare ke pUraka ? na pUraka na virodhI, kyoMki jaba prakAza hotA hai to aMdherA nahIM hotA, jaba aMdherA hotA hai to prakAza nahIM hotaa| pUraka hone ke lie to donoM ko sAtha-sAtha honA caahie| virodhI hone ke lie bhI donoM ko sAtha-sAtha honA caahie| lekina eka hI hotA hai, dUsarA to bacatA hI nahIM / jaba tumhAre jIvana meM AkAza kA anubhava AnA zurU hotA hai, pRthvI kho jAtI hai| isalie to usa parama dazA ko prApta logoM ne kahA ki yaha pRthvI mAyA hai| mAyA kA artha hai, bhrama ho gaI, kho gaI, svapnavata ho gii| jaba pRthvI kA sapanA pakar3atA hai tumheM jora se to AtmA, brahma, Izvara saba svapnavata ho jAte haiN| jisake lie pRthvI saca hai, usake lie AtmA mAyA hai| jisake lie AtmA saca hai, usake lie pRthvI mAyA ho jAtI hai| lekina donoM sAtha-sAtha kabhI nahIM hote, eka hI hotA hai| aisA samajho ki rassI meM sAMpa dikhAI par3a gyaa| to jaba taka sAMpa dikhAI par3atA hai taba taka rassI dikhAI nahIM pdd'tii| phira jaba dIyA le Ae aura rassI dikhAI par3a gaI, to sAMpa dikhAI nahIM pdd'taa| to tuma kyA kahoge ? - eka-dUsare ke pUraka haiM yA eka-dUsare ke virodhI ? na to pUraka na virodhii| kyoMki donoM kabhI sAtha-sAtha hote nhiiN| eka hI hai| eka hI bhrAMti meM dUsare jaisA bhAsatA hai| AkAza hI hai, paramAtmA hI hai- tumhAre dekhane ke DhaMga meM jarA bhUla hai to tuma AkAra meM ulajha jAte ho, nirAkAra ko nahIM dekha paate| to tuma rUpa meM ulajha jAte ho, arUpa ko nahIM dekha paate| guNa ko to pakar3a lete ho, nirguNa chUTa jAtA hai| phira jaba tumhArI samajha gahana hotI hai, pragAr3ha hotI hai aura tuma arUpa ko dekhane lagate ho to rUpa kho jAtA hai| taba tuma nirAkAra ko dekhane lagate ho to
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________________ AkAra kho jAtA hai| aura isalie Azcarya paidA hotA hai| janaka Azcaryacakita haiM, kyoMki jaba pahalI daphA AkAza dikhAI par3A to pRthvI ekadama kho gii| jisa para sadA se khar3e the, acAnaka vaha pairoM ke nIce se khisaka gaI jamIna / to ve Azcarya se bhare haiM! ve kahate haiM, ' Azcarya, Azcarya ! yaha huA kyA yaha kaise huA!' aSTAvakra bhI Azcarya se bhare haiN| ve AkAza kI tarapha se jaba dekhate haiM to pRthvI vahAM kahIM bhI nahIM hai| to ve kahate haiM ki Azcarya! tujhe Azcarya hotA hai AkAza ko dekha kara, mujhe Azcarya ho rahA hai terA pRthvI kI bAteM suna kara / donoM kA Azcarya bilakula ThIka hai| kyoMki jisane rassI meM sAMpa dekhA thA, jaba use patA calegA ki yaha rassI hai to vaha Azcaryacakita hogaa| jo sadA se jAnatA rahA ki rassI rassI hai, vaha bhI Azcaryacakita hogA ki kisI ne isameM sAMpa dekha liyaa| donoM Azcaryacakita hoNge| eka hI ho sakatA hai| paramAtmA aura padArtha do cIjeM nahIM haiN| satya aura saMsAra do cIjeM nahIM haiN| jaba hama satya ko galata DhaMga se dekhate haiM aura hamArI vyAkhyA galata hotI hai - to saMsAra / jaba hama saMsAra ko ThIka se dekha lete haiM aura vyAkhyA ThIka ho jAtI hai to satya / paramAtmA ko hI dekhate haiM hama hara haal| kucha bhI dekho, paramAtmA ko hI dekhate ho| aura kucha hai hI nahIM, jisako dekha sakate ho| hI, tumhAre dekhane meM agara thor3I bhAMti ho, tumhArI AMkha meM agara thor3I kharAbI ho, to jo tumheM dikhAI par3atA hai, jo tuma dekha lete ho, vaha jo dikhAI par3a rahA hai usase bhinna ho jAtA hai| lekina jo dikhAI par3a rahA hai, vaha to vahI kA vahI hai - zAzvata, sanAtana ! usameM koI rUpAMtaraNa nahIM hai| AdamI kI bhUla hai saMsAra / AdamI kI galata vyAkhyA hai saMsAra / rAta aMdhere meM tuma dekha lete ho - tumhArA hI laMgoTa TaMgA hai - aura vaha laMgoTa meM do hAtha jaise mAlUma par3ate haiN| laMgoTI laTakI hai, to lagatA hai koI AdamI khar3A hai| tumhIM TAMga Ae dina meM, aura rAta tumhIM bAhara jAne se Darane lagate ho ki vahAM koI AdamI khar3A mAlUma hotA hai! laMgoTa aba bhI laMgoTa hai| laMgoTa ne DarAne kA tumheM kucha bhI nahIM kiyA hai| magara tuma ghabar3A sakate ho| kabhI aMdhere meM tumane dekhA, aMdhere rAste para ekAMta meM calate hue apane hI jUte kI AvAja aisI lagatI hai ki koI pIche A rahA hai ! ghabar3AhaTa pakar3ane lagatI hai| choTI-choTI cIjeM bhrama de jAtI haiN| una sabhI bhramoM kA jor3a saMsAra hai| jaba bhrama TUTa jAte aura vahI dikhAI par3a jAtA hai, jo hai - to prmaatmaa| paramAtmA yAnI jo hai; saMsAra yAnI jaisA hamane dekha liyA hai| chaThavAM prazna : maiM kabhI-kabhI apane zarIra para gairika vastra dekha kara cakita ho uThatA huuN| jIvana meM maiMne anaginata svapna dekhe, unameM yaha svapna kahAM thA ki maiM saMnyAsI bhI hoUMgA! maiMne to sadA sAdhu-saMnyAsiyoM kA
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________________ makhaula hI ur3AyA kiyaa| kahIM aisA to nahIM hai ki unameM se kisI sacce saMnyAsI ne mujhe yaha varada zApa diyA ki tumhArI deha para bhI gairika vastra utara jAeM? saba sapane AdamI dekhatA hai; saMnyAsa kA sapanA to kabhI nahIM dekhtaa| kyoMki saMnyAsa sapanA nahIM-sapanoM se jAganA hai| tumane jo sapane dekhe bahuta ve sapane hI jaba hAra gae, thaka gae aura parAjita ho gae; jaba una sapanoM meM se tuma kucha bhI na nicor3a pAe, to saMnyAsa phalita huaa| saMnyAsa saMsAra kI mahatvAkAMkSA kI parAjaya se phalita hotA hai| dhana pAyA to vyartha, nahIM pAyA to dukhdaayii| pada pAyA to vyartha, nahIM pAyA to dukhdaayii| daur3a-daur3a kara, kabhI pA kara kabhI na pA kara, hara hAla dukha paayaa| 'maitreya' kA prazna hai| maitreya mujhe mile taba ve pArliyAmeMTa ke sadasya the, ema pI. the| rAjaniti meM unakI daur3a thii| bane rahate vahAM to abhI kahIM na kahIM cIpha minisTara hote| bar3I saMbhAvanA thii| javAhara lAla ke priya pAtroM meM se the| to mere cakkara meM na par3ate, to yA to jela meM hote yA cIpha minisTara hote, do meM se kucha hote| kyoMki jayaprakAza ke bhI ve priya pAtra the| donoM se bacA liyA maiMne unheN| lekina maiM samajha pAtA hUM unakA prshn| unhoMne kabhI sapanA bhI nahIM dekhA hogaa| rAjanItijJa kahIM sapanA dekhatA hai saMnyAsI hone kA! rAjanIti aura dharma bar3e viparIta AyAma haiN| unase jyAdA viparIta aura kucha bhI nhiiN| rAjanIti hai mahatvAkAMkSA, dharma hai mahatvAkAMkSA se zUnya ho jaanaa| rAjanIti hai pada-pratiSThA kI daur3a, dUsaroM para kAbU pAne kI daur3a aura dharma hai apane mAlika hone kI aakaaNkssaa| ye bar3I bhinna bAteM haiN| dUsare ke svAmI hone kI jo AkAMkSA hai, vaha rAjanIti, apane svAmI hone kI jo AkAMkSA hai, vaha dhrm| isalie to saMnyAsiyoM ko hama svAmI kahate haiN| isase tuma yaha mata samajha lenA ki tuma kisI dUsare ke svAmI, maiM tumako banA rahA huuN| aisI bhrAMti ho sakatI hai ki hamako svAmI banA diyA aba hama sabake svAmI haiM! aisA mata soca lenaa| apane basa, itane ho gae to kAphI hai| apanA hI koI svAmI ho jAe to paryApta hai| aura jo apanA svAmI nahIM hai, vaha dUsaroM ke svAmI hone kI ceSTA kara rahA hai, usakI yAtrA asaphala honA nizcita hai| jo abhI apanA bhI svAmI nahIM ho pAyA, vaha kisakA svAmI ho pAegA? isalie jinako tuma rAjanetA kahate ho, ve apane anuyAyiyoM ke bhI anuyAyI hote haiM, ve apane gulAmoM ke bhI gulAma hote haiN| akhabAroM meM unakI tasvIreM dekha kara bahuta cakita mata ho jaanaa| ve choTe -choTe lucce-laphaMgoM, guMDoM se dube hote haiN| ve pIche khar3e rahate haiN| una guMDoM kI kahIM akhabAroM meM tasvIra nahIM chptii| lekina unake izAroM para calate hote haiN| calanA hI pdd'egaa| jisako tumheM apane pIche calAnA hai, usake izAre para calanA hogaa|
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________________ tumhAre anubhava meM sirpha eka hI bAta hogI, kyoMki tuma sabhI rAjanItijJa nahIM ho| patnI ko tumheM apane pIche calAnA ho to tumheM mAlUma hai patnI kI eka-eka AkAMkSA pUrI karanI hotI hai to hI vaha tumhAre pIche calatI hai| vaha kahatI hai, Apa mAlika, maiM dAsI! magara dAsI hone kA matalaba samajha haiM? jaba taka Apa usake dAsa na ho jAo, vaha dAsI nhiiN| likhatI hai 'ApakI dAsI', magara matalaba sApha hai| vaha Apake pIche-pIche calatI hai, jaba bhAMvara par3atI haiM; lekina agara usako jiMdagI bhara apane pIche calAnA ho to bar3e chipe rUpa meM Apako usake pIche calanA hotA hai| nahIM to vaha Apake pIche nahIM clegii| yaha to sAjhedArI hai. tuma hamAre pIche to hama tumhAre piiche| yaha to sAMTha-gAMTha hai| rAjanetA jinako apane pIche calA rahA hai, rAjanetA unake pIche calatA hotA hai| vaha lauTa - lauTa kara dekhatA rahatA hai, loga kahAM jA rahe haiM, usI tarapha jAne lagatA hai| asalI kuzala rAjanItijJa kA artha hI yahI hai| kucha kuzala rAjanItijJa nahIM hote to unakI akuzalatA kA kAraNa kyA hotA hai? itanA hI ho hai-akuzala rAjanItijJa vahI hai ki jo yaha socane lagatA hai duniyA mere pIche cala rahI hai| vaha jhaMjhaTa meM par3atA hai| morArajI desAI se pUcho! akuzala rAjanItijJa kI akuzalatA yahI hai ki vaha socatA hai saba mere pIche cala rahe haiM, maiM jahAM jAUMgA vahAM duniyA jaaegii| vaha galatI meM hai| kuzala rAjanItijJa vaha hai jo dekha letA hai, loga kisa tarapha jA rahe haiM, usI tarapha unake Age-Age calane lgtaa| samAjavAda ? samAjavAda sahI! yahI to hama bhI cAhate haiM! mullA nasaruddIna apane gadhe para bhAgA jA rahA thaa| eka bAjAra meM logoM ne use roka liyA aura pUchA ki kahA jA rahe ho? usane kahA, mujhase mata pUcho, mere gadhe se pUcho ! kyoMki maiM rAjanItijJa hUM / pahale maiMne bahuta koziza kI isa gadhe ko calAne kI, magara gadhA hai| hama bAeM calAeM, vaha dAeM jAe / bIca bAjAra meM makhaula ur3e ! bhIr3a ikaTThI ho jAe ki are nasaruddIna, tumhAre gadhe para bhI basa nahIM! kyA kareM? phira hameM samajha meM AyA ki gadhe ke sAtha rAjanIti karanI caahie| aba gadhA jisa tarapha jAtA hai hama usI tarapha jAte haiN| duniyA yahI samajhatI hai ki hama gadhe ko calA rahe haiM, magara gadhA hama calA rahA hai| 'maitreya jI' rAjanIti meM the| unhoMne kabhI sapanA nahIM dekhA hogA saMnyAsI hone kA, yaha saca hai| lekina raha kara rAjanIti meM kucha bhI na paayaa| usa na pAne se saMnyAsa kI tarapha vRtti huii| usa pAne se ve dUsarI dizA meM jhukanA zurU hue| rAjanItijJa to the, lekina unake pAsa rAjanItijJa kI pratibhA nahIM thI, beImAnI nahIM thii| bar3e sarala AdamI haiN| saMnyAsa unheM svAbhAvika pdd'aa| rAjanIti meM ve bar3I ulajhana meM par3e the| rAjanIti meM bar3I becainI meM the| ar3acana thI / vaha unake anukUla na thA / vaha utane oche aura choTe AdamI nahIM the| vahAM saphalatA unakI hai jo jitane oche haiM, jitane choTe haiN| vahAM saphalatA unakI hai, jo jitane nIce utara aaeN| vahA koI AdamI agara sarala ho, sIdhA-sAdA ho, to vahAM saphalatA nahIM hai| ve galata dizA meM par3a gae the| vaha dizA unake lie nahIM thii|
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________________ zAyada saMnyAsiyoM kA majAka bhI ve isIlie ur3Ate rahe hoMge, kyoMki hama majAka bhI akAraNa nahIM udd'aate| aksara to aisA hotA hai ki hama majAka unhIM kI ur3Ate haiM jinase hamArI IrSyA hotI hai| jaise tuma pAoge, saradAroM kA majAka pUre mulka meM ur3AI jAtA hai| usameM kucha kAraNa hai saradAroM se IrSyA hai| IrSyA ke kAraNa bhI sApha haiM saradAra tumase jyAdA mjbuut| gardana dabA de to tumhArI cI bola jAe! to pUre bhArata meM saradAra pAsa meM khar3A ho to tumheM becainI to hotI hai ki yaha AdamI jyAdA tAkatavara hai, aba isase badalA kaise lo! isase jhagar3A-jhAMsA karane meM sAra nahIM hai| to hama majAka ur3Ate haiM, hama makhaula karate haiN| vaha makhaula jhUTha hai| vaha IrSyA ke kAraNa hai| pazcima meM yahUdiyoM kA majAka ur3AyA jAtA hai| jitanI majAke haiM yahUdiyoM ke khilApha haiN| usake bhI pIche kAraNa haiN| yahUdI kI pratibhA se bar3I IrSyA hai| jahAM yahUdI paira rakha de vahAM se dUsaroM ko haTa jAnA par3atA hai| jitanI nobala prAIja yahUdiyoM ko milatI utanI duniyA meM kisI ko nahIM miltii| eka tarapha sArI duniyA aura eka tarapha yahUdI akele| unakI saMkhyA jyAdA nahIM hai, lekina nobala prAIja ve itanI mAra le jAte haiM ki cakita honA par3atA hai ki mAmalA kyA hai! isa sadI ko jina tIna logoM ne prabhAvita kiyA hai, ve tInoM ke tInoM yahUdI the mArksa, phrAyaDa, aaiNsttiin| yaha sArI sadI, bIsavIM sadI, yahUdiyoM se prabhAvita hai| yaha sArI sadI yahU diyoM ke AdhAra se cala rahI hai| hiTalara isIlie kamyUnijma ke khilApha thA, kyoMki vaha kahatA thA ki yaha bhI yahUdiyoM kA SaDyaMtra hai| yaha jo mArksa hai, yaha isane eka naI tarakIba nikAlI hai duniyA para kabjA karane kii| magara AdhI duniyA para kabjA kara bhI liyA hai| phira phrAyaDa hai; usane sAre manovijJAna para kabjA kara liyA hai| AdamI ke manasa ke saMbaMdha meM mAlika ho gayA hai| udhara alabarTa AiMsTIna hai; usane sAre vijJAna para kabjA kara liyA hai| yahUdI jahAM paira rakha de-rAjanIti meM rakhe to rAjanIti meM, bAjAra meM rakhe, dhana kI daur3a meM rakhe to dhana meM-vaha saba jagaha parAjita kara detA hai logoM ko| usake pAsa pratibhA hai| usa pratibhA se becainI hotI hai, IrSyA hotI hai| to majAka meM badalA lete haiM hm| majAka kA khayAla rkhnaa| tuma usI kA majAka ur3Ate ho jisase tumhArI IrSyA hotI hai| to maitreya se maiM kahatA hUM. saMnyAsiyoM kA tumane makhaula ur3AyA hogA, kyoMki saMnyAsI se tumhAre bhItara mana meM baDI IrSyA rahI hogI ki yaha tamheM honA thA aura tama nahIM ho paae| kisI saMnyAsI ke varada zApa ke kAraNa nahIM tumhAre bhItara hI saMnyAsI meM lagAva thA, rasa thaa| tuma saMnyAsI kI upekSA nahIM kara sakate the| aura tuma yaha bhI nahIM mAna sakate the ki saMnyAsI sahI hai, kyoMki agara saMnyAsI sahI to tuma galata ho| to makhaula ur3Ate the| lekina kahIM tumheM lagatA rahA hogA acetana meM, ki saMnyAsI sahI hai, usakI dizA sahI hai| vaha tumhArI Atma-surakSA (Diphensa) kA upAya thaa-mjaak| agara tuma mujhe mile hote, kabhI bhI mile hote to tuma cakkara meM pdd'te| kyoMki maiM kucha aisA saMnyAsI hUM jo saMnyAsI jaisA hai hI nhiiN| isalie kuta loga mere cakkara meM par3a jAte haiN| jo saMnyAsiyoM
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________________ ke sadA khilApha rahe ve A kara mere pAsa saMnyAsa le lete haiN| jo dharma ke sadA khilApha rahe, ve mere pAsa A kara dhyAna karane lagate haiN| mere pAsa nAstika Ate haiM aura kahate haiM, 'bar3I muzkila aura AstikoM se to hama lar3a lete haiM, Apase lar3anA nahIM ho paataa| ' maiM nAstika, mahAnAstika- mujhase lar3oge kaise? tuma eka nAstika cAla calo, maiM do nAstika cAla calatA huuN| merI AstikatA, nAstikatA ke viparIta nahIM hai-nAstikatA ke Upara hai| maiM nAstikatA ko sIr3hI banA letA huuN| maiM kahatA hUM? calo yaha khela bhI thor3I dera khela leN| nAstika ho to calo nAstikatA kA khela khela leN| nAstikatA mere lie AstikatA kI sIr3hiyAM bana gii| saMsAra ko maiMne saMnyAsa kI sIr3hI bnaayaa| isalie jo kisI bhI prAcIna paraMparAgata saMnyAsI se prabhAvita na hoMge, ve merI pratIkSA hI kara rahe haiN| ve jaba bhI mere saMparka meM AeMge, unako DUba jAnA pdd'egaa| maiMne kucha phUla cune maiMne kucha gIta bune apanI mahaphila ko sajAne ke lie apane jIvana ko bitAne ke lie khAe kitane hI phareba apane mana ko bahalAne ko kacce dhAgoM se kaI jAla bune maiMne kucha phUla cune| AsapAsa apane bunI sapanoM kI ThaMDI chAyA mana lubhAtI rahIM suMdara kAyA phira bhI yaha Asa kI mAyA maiMne dina-raina kabhI caina nahIM kyoM pAyA! maiMne kucha gIta bune gIta sune jo sune sara dhune ina madhura gIto kI laya meM khokara muskurAte hue bhole mana ko maiMne bahalAyA hai rUpa-rasa pAne kA bhrama khAyA hai! maiMne jo phUla cune maiMne jo gIta bune mana ko una phUloM ne una gIto ne garmAyA hai naujavAnI ke hasI khvAboM ne
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________________ caMda rAto meM, mulAkAto meM mujhako bahalAyA hai rUpa mAyA meM magara sukha mere mana ne kahAM pAyA hai! to 'maitreya jI' tumhAre sapane the saba khUba tumane bune / ve saba sapane the TUTane ko hI the| unameM zAMti na milI, sukha na milA, chAyA na milii| jvara milA, bImArI milI, tanAva milA, saMtApa milA-zAMti na milI ! saMsAra se thake-hAre ko, mahatvAkAMkSA se thake hAre koM-saMnyAsa ke atirikta aura zaraNa khaaN| hAre ko harinAma / AkhirI prazna : maiM tere maide ke kAbila hUM? yaha haragija maiMne kahA nahIM / istihAM aura bhI bAkI haiM kyA, kyA hai, jo maiMne sahA nahIM? maiM tere maikade ke kAbila hUM yaha haragija maiMne kahA nhiiN| isIlie tuma mere maikade ke kAbila ho| jisane yaha kahA ki maiM kAbila hUM vaha nAkAbila hai| jisane kahA, merI koI yogyatA nahIM, use maiM apanI madhuzAlA meM bharatI kara letA huuN| yogyoM kI yahAM koI jagaha nhiiN| ahaMkAriyoM ke lie yahAM koI upAya nhiiN| 'maiM tere maikade ke kAbila hUM yaha haragija maiMne kahA nhiiN| ' ThIka isIlie, bilakula ThIka isIlie mere dvAra tumhAre lie khule haiN| yaha merI madhuzAlA tumhArA maMdira hai| yahAM na jJAniyoM kI jarUrata hai; na paMDito kii| yahAM na puNyAtmAoM kI jarUrata hai; na sAdhu-mahAtmAoM kii| yahAM to unakI jarUrata hai jo vinamra haiM aura jhukane kI jinakI taiyArI hai| 'istihAM aura bhI bAkI haiM kyA, kyA hai, jo maiMne sahA nahIM?' koI istihAM bAkI nahIM hai| agara tumane jo sahA hai, use mUrcchA meM nahIM sahA hai to phira koI istihAM bAkI nahIM hai| tumane jo sahA hai, agara hozapUrvaka saha liyA hai to tuma A gae ho sAkSI ke kinAre; vaha ghaTanA ghaTane ke hI karIba hai, kisI bhI kSaNa ghaTa sakatI hai| lekina agara mUrcchA meM sahA
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________________ hai to eka istihAna bAkI hai| aura vaha hai jAgane kaa| jo-jo mUrchA meM sahA hai, aba use jAga kara saha lo| jo bhI tuma jAga kara saha loge usase tuma mukta ho jaaoge| jaba se terI lagana lagI hai hameM hama parIdA-havAsa rahate haiN| dila kI dUrI agara na hAyala ho pAsa hI tere dAsa rahate haiN| jaba se terI lagana lagI hai hameM hama parIdA-havAsa rahate haiN| taba se hamArI buddhi kA hoza ur3a gayA! jinakI buddhi kA hoza ur3a gayA hai, vahI mere kAma ke haiN| jaba se terI lagana lagI hai hameM hama parIdA-havAsa rahate haiN| dila kI dUrI agara na hAyala ho pAsa hI tere dAsa rahate haiN| basa jarA-sI dUrI raha gaI hai| vaha dUrI hai tumhAre mUrchita hRdaya kii| vahA thor3A jAgaraNa kA dIyA jala jAe, phira koI dUrI nhiiN| aura vahI mUrchA saba dukhoM kA kAraNa hai| behisa vIrAnI chAI hai alabele aramAM rUThe akla ne kaisI bedardI se dila kI bastI lUTI hai! buddhi ne tumheM lUTA hai| tuma buddhi ke hAthoM lUTe gae ho| behisa vIrAnI chAI hai alabele aramAM rUThe akla ne kaisI bedardI se dila kI bastI lUTI hai! gumasuma rahate haiM dukha sahate hAle-dila kisase kahate? apane- Apa se chUTa gae hama terI galI kyA chUTI hai! vaha jo prabhu kI galI hai-premagalI ati sIkarI tAmeM do na samAya-vaha jo prabhu kI galI hai jahAM kevala eka hI samA sakatA hai, vaha chUTa gaI usI dina, jisa dina tuma hue| gumasuma rahate haiM dukha sahate
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________________ hAle - dila kisase kahate ? apane Apa se chUTa gae hama terI galI kyA chUTI hai ! agara usa galI meM phira agara usa vRMdAvana kI galI meM phira praveza karanA ho taba apane ko chor3o! utanI-sI dUrI hai| basa tumhAre 'maiM' kI dUrI hI ekamAtra dUrI hai| eka hI kadama uThAnA hai- 'maiM' se 'na-maiM' meM ahaMkAra se nirahaMkAra meM aura zeSa saba apane se ho jAtA hai| madhuzAlA ke dvAra khule haiN| tuma 'maiM' ko bAhara rakha kara A sakI to yaha maikadA tumhArA hai| hari oma tatsat!
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________________ dinAMka: 27 sitaMbara, 1976 zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA / sU? parIkSA ke gahana sopAna - pravacana- dUsarA ihAmutra viraktastha nityAnityavivekinaH / Azcarya mokSakAmasya mokSAdeva vibhISikA / / 5311 dhIrastu bhojyamAnouyi yIDyamAno'pi sarvadA / AtmAnaM kevalaM pazyan na tuSyati na kuSyati / 15411 ceSTamAnaM zarIraM sva pshytynyshriirvt| saMstave cApi nidAyA kathaM mudhyet mahAzayaH / 15511 mAyAmAtramida vizva pazyan vigatakautuka / api sannihite mRtyau kathaM trasyati dhIradhI / ! 5611 nisthahaM mAnasa yasya nairAzyeuyi mahAtmanaH / tasyAtma jJAnatRptastha tulanA kena jAyate / / 57 / / svabhAvAdeva jAnAno jhayametabra kiMcana / hada grAhyamidaM tyAjya sa kiM pazyati dhIradhI / / 5811 antaslaktakaSAyastha nirdvandvastha nirAziSa / yadvacchyAgato bhogo na duHkhAya na tuSTateye / / 59 / / eka phUla kA khila jAnA hI, upavana kA madhumAsa nahIM hai| bAhara ghara kA jagamaga karanA, bhItara kA ullAsa nahIM hai| Upara se hama khuzI manAte, para pIr3A na jAtI ghara se /
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________________ amarAI ke laharAne para bhI, sulagA karate haiM bhItara se / retIle kaNa kI tRpti se, bujhatI apanI pyAsa nahIM hai| eka phUla kA khila jAnA hI, upavana kA madhumAsa nahIM hai| idhara garajatA kAlA bAdala, Aga ugalatA sAgara gaharA / kuTi purAnI sanyAsina para, avasAdoM kA nizi - dina paharA / ika pahare kA so jAnA hI, mukti kA AbhAsa nahIM hai| eka phUla kA khila jAnA hI, upavana kA madhumAsa nahIM hai| khatarA isakA hai ki eka phUla ke khila jAne ko koI samajha le vasaMta kA Agamana ho gayA! jaba taka ki pUre prANa hI na khila jAeM, jaba taka ki pUrI cetanA hI kamaloM se na Dhaka jAe, jaba taka ki sArA aMtastala prakAza se maMDita na ho jAe.. / eka kiraNa ke utara lene ko sUrya kA Agamana mata mAna lenA, aura eka phUla ke khila jAne madhumAsa mata mAna lenA / isalie guru ke dvArA parIkSA jarUrI hai| hama itane aMdhere meM rahe haiM, itane janmoM, jIvanoM, ki jarA-sI bhI tRpti kI jhalaka - aura hameM lagatA hai A gayA mokSa kA dvAra! jarA-sI sugaMdha - lagatA hai pahuMca gae usa mahA upavana meN| AMkha meM prakAza kA sapanA bhI Dola jAe to lagatA hai - ho gayA suuryody| hamArA laganA bhI ThIka hai, kyoMki hamane kabhI dukha ke sivAya kucha jAnA nahIM / sukha kI jarA-sI pulaka, siharana, jarA-sA romAMca hameM AhlAdita kara jAtA hai| hama narka meM hI jIe haiM; svarga kA svapna bhI hameM tRpti detA mAlUma par3atA hai| lekina guru kI jarUrata hI yahI hai ki vaha hameM jagAe jAe vaha kahe, abhI bahuta phUla khilane ko haiM, vaha hameM rukane na de, vaha hameM bar3hAe cale vaha kahe cale aura Age, aura Age ! vaha taba taka hameM na Thaharane de, jaba taka ki samasta jIvana sugaMdha se na bhara jAe; jaba taka ki prANoM kA konA-ko hI prakAza se AcchAdita na ho jAe; jaba taka ki hama svayaM prakAza-rUpa na ho jAeM; hamAre bhItara sivAya prakAza ke aura kucha bhI na bce| tabhI jAnanA ki huA vasaMta kA Agamana /
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________________ eka phUla kA khila jAnA hI upavana kA madhumAsa nahIM hai| aura eka pahare kA so jAnA hI mukti kA AbhAsa nahIM hai| isalie janaka kA yaha jo AnaMda hai, isako aSTAvakra ne cupacApa svIkAra nahIM kara liyaa| isakI ve bar3I kasauTI karane lge| kahIM aisA to nahIM hai ki bahuta dina kA bhUkhA-pyAsA rUkhI-sUkhI roTI pA gayA hai aura samajha rahA hai ki mila gayA aMtima ? aisA to nahIM hai ki bahuta thakA mAdA dhUpa kA, jarA-sI chAyA meM baiTha gayA hai-cAhe khajUra ke vRkSa kI chAyA hI kyoM na ho-aura socatA hai, A gayA kalpavRkSa ke nIce na: kyoMki hama jo bhI dekhate haiM, vaha hamAre atIta anubhava se dekhate haiN| eka garIba AdamI ko eka rupayA par3A huA mila jAe to AlAdita ho jAtA hai| amIra ko eka rupayA par3A huA mile, to kucha bhI par3A huA nahIM milaa| rupayA vahI hai lekina garIba apane atIta se taulatA hai, amIra apane atIta se taulatA hai| bahuta hai usake pAsa usameM eka rupaye ke juDne se kucha bhI nahIM judd'taa| garIba ke pAsa kucha bhI nahIM hai; usameM eka rupaye kA jur3a jAnA, jaise sAre jagata kI saMpadA kA jur3a jAnA hai| rupayA to vahI hai, lekina hamArI pratIti tulanAtmaka aura sAkSa hotI hai| hama apane hI anubhava se dekhate haiN| maiM kala eka choTI-sI kahAnI par3hatA thaa| eka bhUtapUrva mahArAjA ne apane saMsmaraNoM meM likhI hai, ki unhoMne eka nae naukara ko naukarI para rkhaa| aura use hukma diyA : jhinaka pIkadAna uThA kara laa| jhinakU kI samajha meM nahIM aayaa| pIkadAna zabda usane kabhI sunA hI nahIM thaa| thUkane ke lie bhI svarNapAtra hote haiM, yaha usakA anubhava na thaa| kone meM hI rakhA hai svarNapAtra hIre-javAharAto se jdd'aa| samrATa ne phira kahA ki samajha meM nahIM AyA re? abe, vaha kone meM jo svarNapAtra rakhA hai, use uThA kara laa| jhinakU ne pIkadAna meM jhAMka kara dekhA aura bolA. tanika ruko hajUra! eha meM kaunhoM mUrakha yUkI marA hai| mehaMtaravA bulaaii...| pIkadAna garIba kA anubhava nahIM hai! vaha to kahIM bhI thUkatA rahatA hai; sArI pRthvI pIkadAna hai| aura svarNapAtra! yUkane ke lie sone kA pAtra! hama apane anubhava se taulate haiN| hama jo bhI vyAkhyA karate haiM jIvana kI, vaha vyAkhyA hamase AtI to aSTAvakra socate haiM. janaka ne kabhI jAnA nahIM yaha ahobhAva, yaha Azcarya, yaha apUrva ghaTanA kabhI ghaTI nahIM-kahIM aisA to nahIM hai, eka phUla ke khila jAne ko madhumAsa kA Agamana samajha baiThA ho? jisane phUla dekhe hI nahIM, jo marusthaloM meM hI jIyA ho, vaha eka phUla ke Agamana ko bhI madhumAsa samajha sakatA hai| usake bhItara kI bhUkha dhokhA de sakatI hai| isI taraha to mRga-marIcikA paidA hotI
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________________ hai| marusthala meM jaba koI bhaTaka jAtA hai, ghaMToM aura dinoM kI pyAsa se jaba ghira jAtA hai, to mRga marIcikA paidA hotI hai| yahI AdamI agara tRpta ho, isake pAsa jala kI botala ho, surAhI ho aura jaba pyAsa lage, taba yaha apanA jala pI le to mRga marIcikA nahIM hotii| lekina jaba pyAsa bahuta ho jAtI hai aura prANa tar3apane lagate haiM, aura marusthala meM kahIM koI upAya nahIM dekhatA ki kahIM koI jaladhAra hai, ki koI marUdyAna hai, phira bhrama hone zurU hote haiN| phira kiraNoM ke hI niyama ke AdhAra para ise dUra marUdyAna dikhAI par3ane lagatA hai| marUdyAna kA dhokhA kiraNoM ke kAraNa jitanA hotA hai, usase bhI jyAdA pyAsa ke kAraNa hotA hai| pyAsa itanI hai ki jo nahIM hai, use bhI dekha lene kI AkAMkSA hone lagatI hai| pyAsa itanI hai ki jo nahIM hai, usakA bhI svapna hama sAkAra kara lete haiN| pyAse ko mRga marIcikA kA bhrama ho jAtA hai| bhayabhIta ko rassI meM sAMpa dikha jAtA hai| rassI meM sAMpa nahIM hotA- bhaya meM hotA hai| agara bahuta bAra sAMpa se mukAbalA huA ho aura bahuta bAra sAMpa kA daMza jhelA ho aura sAMpa kI ghabar3AhaTa prANoM meM baiTha gaI ho, to rassI meM sAMpa dikha jAe, isameM Azcarya nahIM / rassI meM sAMpa nahIM hotA dekhane vAle kI AMkha aura usake bhaya meM hotA hai, use Aropita kara letA hai| to aSTAvakra parIkSA le rahe haiM isIlie / ho bhI sakatA hai sUryodaya huA ho, aura ho bhI sakatA hai sirpha aMdhere meM rahane ke kAraNa prakAza kA sapanA dekhA ho / phira dUsarI bAta-isake pahale ki hama sUtra meM utareM - jisake anubhava meM AtA hai, anubhava to satya hai| jaise maiMne jAnA to vaha mere lie satya hai - tumase kahA, vaha asatya honA zurU ho gyaa| satya kahate hI asatya honA zurU ho jAtA hai| jaba taka maiMne apane bhItara rakhA jo maiMne jAnA - taba taka vaha satya hai; kyoMki maiMne jAnA, anubhava kiyA, vaha merI pratIti hai, merA sAkSAtkAra hai| jaise hI tumase kahA, zabda banAe, vyavasthA dI, saMvAda kiyA, tuma taka pahuMcAyA vaha asatya honA zurU ho gyaa| pahale to jaba maiMne zabdoM meM bAMdhA niHzabda ko, taba bahuta kucha TUTa gyaa| jaba maiMne virATa ko bharA choTe-se AMgana meM, taba bahuta kucha chUTa gyaa| jaba subaha kI tAjagI ko zabdoM kI maMjUSA meM kaida kiyA taba kucha mara gyaa| jaise subaha kA sUraja nikalA hai nAcatI kiraNeM hare vRkSoM ko pAra karatI haiM, vRkSa mastI meM madamAte haiM, subaha kI havA AnaMda se nAcatI - bhAgatI hai, khilakhilAtI, ThiThalAtI hai-isa sabako tuma eka choTI-sI peTI meM baMda kara lo| tuma jAo usa jagaha jahAM sUraja kI kiraNeM vRkSa se chana-chana kara jamIna para gira rahI haiM aura havA ne jahAM pattoM ke sAtha rAsa racAyA hai, aura jahAM gaMdha hai aura jahAM subaha kA tAjA mAdhurya hai- tuma ise eka peTI meM baMda kara lo / peTI tuma uThA kara le Ao - khAlI peTI hI AtI hai! zAyada thor3I-bahuta bhanaka A jAe sugaMdha kii| lekina kaise prakAza ko? aura sugaMdha bhI peTI meM baMda hote hI jaldI hI durgaMdha ho jaaegii| jo jAnA jAtA hai, vaha to hai zUnya meM, mauna meM, pragAr3ha niHzabda meM, phira jaise hI zabda meM rakhA - astavyasta huaa| phira kaThinAI yahI nahIM hai| zabda meM rakhane se AdhA satya to mara jAtA hai, AdhA bhI baca jAe to bahuta yaha kahane vAle kI kuzalatA para nirbhara hai|
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________________ isalie duniyA meM jJAnI to bahuta hote haiM, sadaguru bahuta nhiiN| sadaguru kA artha hai: jisane jAnA aura jo aisI kuzalatA se kaha detA hai ki satya kA kucha aMza to pahuMca hI jAe tuma tk| ziSya taka kucha pahuMca jAe, aisI kuzalatA kA nAma sadaguru hai| jJAnI to bahuta hote haiN| buddha ko kisI ne pUchA hai eka dina ki ye dasa hajara bhikSu haiM tumhAre, varSoM se tumhAre sAtha haiM, jIvana arpita kiyA hai, sAdhanA kI hai, sAdhanA meM lage haiM, inameM se kitane buddhatva ko upalabdha hue buddha ne kahA : inameM se bahuta upalabdha hue haiM bahuta upalabdha ho rahe haiM, bahuta upalabdha hone ke mArga para haiN| kucha cala par3e haiM, kucha pahuMcane ke karIba haiM kucha pahuMca bhI gae haiN| pUchane vAle ne kahA, isa para bharosA nahIM AtA, kyoMki inameM se Apa jaisA to koI bhI nahIM dikhtaa| buddha haMsane lge| unhoMne kahA : yaha saca hai| buddha hone se hI koI dikhAI nahIM par3atA, jaba taka ki buddhatva ko abhivyakti na de; jaba taka ki buddhatva ko bole na; jaba taka ki buddhatva ko gunagunAe nahIM, gIta na banAe; jaba taka ki buddhatva ko bAMdhe nahIM chaMda aura mAtrA meM; jaba taka ki buddhatva ko dUsare taka pahuMcAe nhiiN| jaba taka buddhatva savAMdita na ho taba taka patA kaise cale? aura jaba taka maiM jIvita hUM taba taka ye boleMge bhI nhiiN| kyoMki ye kahate haiM, jaba Apa maujUda haiM to hama boleM kyA? ApakI maujUdagI meM kyA boleM? inameM bahuta pahuMca gae haiN| bahuta to boleMge bhI nahIM kyoMki bolanA eka alaga kuzalatA hai| pA lenA eka bAta hai, bolanA bar3I dUsarI bAta hai| pA lene vAle ko jainazAstra kahate haiM : kevalI jin| aura batA dene vAle ko jainazAstra kahate haiM : tiirthNkr| hajAroM 'kevalI' hote haiM, taba kahIM ekAdha tIrthaMkara hotA hai| tIrthaMkara kA artha hai : jo khuda hI pAra nahIM huA balki jisane ghATa banAyA, nAva banAI, auroM ko bhI biThAyA nAva meM, ghATa se utArA aura claayaa| tIrtha yAnI ghaatt| tIrthaMkara yAnI ghATa ko banAne vAlA; khuda taira kara to bahuta loga pAra ho jAte haiM lekina dUsaroM ko nAva para le jAne vaalaa| para dhyAna rakhanA, jaise hI-bar3e se bar3A tIrthaMkara ho, bar3A se bar3A sadaguru ho-jaise hI zabda detA anubhava ko, anubhava jhUTha hone lagatA hai| usameM se kucha to tatkSaNa marane lagatA hai; aMza hI pahuMcatA hai| phira pahuMcane vAle para nirbhara hai kitanA phuNcegaa| pahale to bolane vAle para nirbhara hai kitanA bhara pAegA phira sunane vAle para nirbhara hai kitanA khola pAegA! to sabhI suna rahe ho tuma, lekina sabhI utanA hI na khola pAoge, eka jaisA na khola paaoge| koI bahuta khola legA koI tumhAre pAsa meM hI baiThA huA gadagada ho jAegA aura tuma cauMkoge ki kyA yaha AdamI pAgala hai! usane kucha tumase jyAdA khola liyaa| usake hRdaya taka bAta pahuMca gii| tumhAre zAyada sira meM hI gUMjatI raha gii| zAyada tuma zabdoM kA hI hisAba biThAte rhe| usa taka marma pahuMca gyaa| phira tuma para nirbhara hai ki kitanA tuma khologe| lekina phira kucha satya maregA tumhAre kholane meN| jo bAMdhA gayA hai zabdoM meM, vaha zabdAtIta hai| phira zabda se tumheM zabdAtIta ko chAMTanA hogA; zabda se phira tumheM artha ko alaga karanA hogA, phira zabda kI paridhi tor3anI hogI, sImA tor3anI hogI, asIma ko phira mukA karanA hogaa|
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________________ eka pakSI ko, anaMta ke pakSI ko piMjare meM rakha kara maiM tumheM detA huuN| unameM se bahuta se to aise haiM ki piMjare ke sauMdarya para mohita ho jAeMge, pakSI ko bhUla jaaeNge| bahuta se to aise haiM, piMjare ko sira para le kara calane lageMge, pakSI kI unheM yAda nahIM AegI, pahacAna bhI na hogii| piMjare ke lie piMjarA nahIM diyA thA, bhItara eka jIvaMta pakSI hai, usake die diyA thaa| piMjarA to banAyA hI isalie thA ki pakSI tuma taka pahuMca jAe nahIM to mere hAtha se ur3egA aura tuma taka kabhI pahuMcegA nhiiN| isalie zabda kA, zAstra kA piMjarA hai; siddhAta kA, bhASA kA piMjarA hai| use jitanA suMdara banA sakeM, banAne kI koziza kI jAtI hai, tAki usake sauMdarya se tuma usake bhItara praveza pAne kI AkAMkSA se bharo; tAki tumameM pyAsa uThe ki jo bAhara se itanA suMdara hai piMjarA, bhItara bhI dekheM! lekina bahuta haiM, jo piMjare ko samhAla kara rakha leMge; ve paMDita ho jaaeNge| ve doharAne lageMge mere zabdoM ko; ve mere piMjare ko le kara ghUmane lageMge aura dikhAne lageMge logoM ko ki dekho, kaisA suMdara piMjarA hai! kaisA suMdara darzanazAstra, kaisA pyArA siddhAta, kaisA hRdayagrAhI maMtavya, kaisI bAta kahI, kaisI bhA gaI mana ko, kaisI raca gaI, kaisI raMga se bharI, kaisI iMdradhanuSI! magara bhUla jAeMge ki piMjare ke lie piMjarA nahIM diyA thaa| kucha unameM se piMjare ke bhItara chipe pakSI ko bhI pahacAna leMge, lekina use piMjare se mukta na kara pAeMge, vaha piMjare meM hI baMda rhegaa| agara bahuta jyAdA dina baMda raha gayA to pakSI kI ur3ane kI kSamatA kho jaaegii| mujhase zabda mileM to dera mata karanA, use jaldI niHzabda meM khola lenaa| tuma mujhase jo suno, dera mata karanA, use dhyAna meM jaldI hI rUpAMtarita kara lenaa| kyoMki jitanI dera ho jAegI, utanI hI kaThinAI ho jaaegii| idhara suno, udhara dhyAna meM mukta kara lenaa| idhara maiM piMjarA tumhAre hAtha meM dUM tuma rukanA mata! piMjarA hAtha meM lete hI dvAra kholanA, pakSI ko mukta kara lenaa| agara jyAdA dera ho gaI, tumane kahA kala kareMge, tumane kahA parasoM kareMge, tumane kahA jaba suvidhA hogI taba kareMge, abhI to noTa-buka meM likha leM, phira pIche artha nikAla leMge, phira soca leMge, jaldI kyA hai? suvidhA se, mauke para to tuma jaba artha nikAlane jAoge, taba taka artha mara cukA hogA; zabda hI raha jAeMge, piMjarA hI raha jaaegaa| tumane agara pakSI mukta na kiyA, to pakSI mara cukegaa| phira tuma jaba khologe bhI, to lAza milegI; usake prANa to jA cuke hoMge, kyoMki usake prANa to anaMta ke haiM, usake prANa to zUnya ke haiM, usake prANa to AkAza ke haiN| vaha pakSI piMjare meM rahane ko banA nhiiN| deha par3I raha jAegI, prANa kA pakherU to ur3a jaaegaa| phira tuma usa deha kI kitanI hI pUjA karo, to bhI usameM prANa na aaeNge| aise hI to tuma pUjA kara rahe ho maMdiroM meM masjidoM meM, gurudavAroM meM mare pakSiyoM kI pUjA kara rahe ho! aba prANa DAle nahIM jA sakate haiN| tumane avasara kho diyaa| sadaguru se jaba vacana nikale to use tatkSaNa khola lenA; usameM eka kSaNa kI bhI derI khataranAka hai; jaba vaha garma -garma ho tabhI khola lenA, jaba usakI USmA samApta na ho gaI ho.....| jaba maiM tumheM de rahA hUM kucha to vaha garma hai tAjA hai| tuma use rakha kara mata baiTha jaanaa| tuma
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________________ jA kara apane phrija meM mata rakha denA ki jaba suvidhA hogI taba khola leMge, jaba jarUrata hogI taba nikAla leNge| vaha mara jAegA, usakI USmA kho jAegI; prANa-pakherU jA cuke hoMge, deha par3I raha jaaegii| satya kI par3I huI dehoM kA nAma hI zAstra hai| phira tuma sira para rakho gItA aura kurAna aura bAibila, aura lAkha karo pUjA aura lAkha paTako sira, caDhAo phUla, arcanA-saba vyartha hai; saba bilakula vyartha hai! isa Ayojana se aba kucha hone vAlA nhiiN| to jaba sadaguru bole, use tandhaNa khola lenaa| idhara maiM bolatA jAUM, udhara tuma kholate cale jaanaa| tuma zabda meM bahuta jyAdA mata ulajhanA tuma artha ko mukta karate cale jaanaa| tuma phUla meM mata ulajhanA, tuma to suvAsa ko mukta karate cale jaanaa| tuma to piMjare ko bhUla hI jaanaa| tuma to mere sAtha ur3anA AkAza meM, to jyAdA pA skoge| sAdhAraNata: to aisA nahIM hogaa| tuma murdA -murdA paaoge| phira agara tumane kisI dUsare ko kahA, jo tumane mujhase sunA, taba to vaha mare se bhI gayA-bItA hai, vaha sar3I huI lAza hai| aura aisA hI huA hai| aise hI saMpradAya banate haiN| maiMne tumase kahA tuma kisI aura ko kahoge, vaha kisI aura ko kahegA, pIr3hiyAM dUsarI pIr3hiyoM se kaheMgI, eka samaya dUsare samaya se kahegA-utaratA calA jAtA hai| phira sar3atI jAtI hai laash| isalie to dharmoM se itanI durgaMdha AtI hai aura dharmoM ke nAma para itane kalla hote haiN| aura dharmoM se prema nahIM phailA duniyA meM, ghRNA phailI hai| aura dharmoM se saMgharSa huA hatyAeM huIM yuddha hue prArthanA nahIM utarI, paramAtmA kA davAra nahIM khulaa| dharmoM se zaitAna kI zakti bar3hI, paramAtmA kI zakti nahIM bddh'ii| kyoMki tuma jise dharma kahate ho, vaha sar3I huI lAza hai| aSTAvakra pUchane lage, bAra-bAra coTa karane lage janaka ko| kyoMki jaba guru detA hai, to vaha yaha jAnanA cAhatA hai ki tuma taka jIvita pahuMcA? jIvaMta pahuMcA? USNa thA tabhI pahuMcA? tumane kholA ThIka-ThIka? kahIM tuma zabda se to AMdolita nahIM ho gae? kahIM yaha janaka piMjarA hI to nahIM hilA rahA hai? isake bhItara pakSI bhI hai? jIvita pakSI hai? usa jIvita pakSI ko mukta karane kI ceSTA isane kI hai yA kevala zabda-jAla meM par3a gayA? kyoMki jo-jo aSTAvakra ne kahA, vahI-vahI janaka ne doharA diyA hai-sirpha 'Azcarya' zabda jor3a-jor3a kara vahI-vahI doharA diyA hai| to kahIM yaha punarukti to nahIM? kahIM yaha yAMtrika smRti to nahIM? kahIM yaha janaka bahuta smRtivAna vyakti to nahIM? yaha vastuta: ise ho rahA hai jo yaha kaha rahA hai? to aSTAvakra saba tarapha se khodane lge| ye sUtra unakI khudAI ke haiN| inameM bar3I karuNA hai aura bar3I kaThoratA bhii| kaThoratA, ki janaka to ahobhAva kI bAta kara rahe haiM aura aSTAvakra parIkSA lene lge| karuNA, kyoMki parIkSA agara samaya para na lI jAe aura samaya kho jAe, to phira bAta bemausama kI ho jAtI hai, phira usakA kucha artha nahIM raha jaataa| to abhI- abhI tAjI-tAjI parIkSA ve le rahe haiM ki vaha jo maiMne tujhe kahA hai vaha pahuMca gayA tere hRdaya taka bana gayA terA rakta, mAMsa-majjA? tUne use rUpAMtarita kara liyA apane prANoM meM? vaha tere astitva kA hissA ho gayA? yA kevala buddhi
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________________ meM bhaTakatI huI bAta hai? ki buddhi meM bhaTakate hue zabda aura vicAra haiM? tU kahAM se kaha rahA hai? tere bhItara ho gayA-vahAM se kaha rahA hai? yA tUne mujhe suna liyA aura tU mere sAmane hI mujha hI ko doharA rahA hai? tU kahIM grAmophona kA rikArDa to nahIM? isakA khatarA hai hii| kyoMki sadaguruoM ke vacanoM kI eka khUbI hai ki ve bar3e pyAre haiN| ve itane pyAre haiM ki una para bharosA kara lene kA mana hotA hai| ve itane pyAre haiM ki una para vizvAsa jagatA hai| yahI khatarA hai| agara satya para vizvAsa jaga gayA to khatarA hai| khatarA yahI hai ki satya kabhI vizvAsa nahIM bana sktaa| vizvAsa to sadA jhUTha ho jAtA hai| vizvAsamAtra jhUTha hai| satya se kAnI cAhie zraddhA, vizvAsa nhiiN| ___ maiMne tumheM eka bAta kahI, maiMne tumheM bar3I pyArI bAta kahI-tuma usase mohita hue| tumane mAna lI ki bAta itanI pyArI hai ki saca hogI hI, ki jisane kahI usase tumheM pyAra hai, to jhUTha kaise hogI? to tumane vivAda bhI na kiyA, tumane tarka bhI na kiyaa| tumane cupacApa svIkAra kara liyaa| tumane eka vizvAsa banAyA, tuma usa vizvAsa ke sahAre jIne lage -tuma jhUTha ke sahAre jIne lge| maiMne kahI thI, saca hI thI, lekina tumane vizvAsa banAyA to jhUTha ho gaI zraddhA bananI caahie| kyA pharka hai zraddhA aura vizvAsa meM? jaba hama dUsare ko binA apane kisI anubhava kI gavAhI ke mAna lete haiM to vishvaas| jaba hama dUsare ko apane anubhava kI kasauTI para kasa kara mAnate haiM to shrddhaa| zraddhA anubhava hai| vizvAsa dUsare kA anubhava hai, tumhArA nhiiN| isase sAvadhAna rhnaa| to yaha jo janaka kaha rahA hai vizvAsa hai yA zraddhA, isakI hI kasauTI aSTAvakra karane lage haiN| aSTAvakra ne kahA : ihAmutra viraktasya nityaanityvivekinH| Azcarya mokSakAmasya mokSAdeva vibhiissikaa|| 'jo ihaloka aura paraloka ke bhoga se virakta hai janaka, aura jo nitya aura anitya kA viveka rakhatA hai, aura mokSa ko cAhane vAlA hai, vaha bhI mokSa se bhaya karatA hai-yahI to Azcarya hai! tere bhItara kahIM mokSa kA bhaya to nahIM bacA hai? ise samajhanA, yaha bar3A adabhuta sUtra hai! mokSa kA bhaya? tuma kahoge, mokSa kA bhaya? svataMtratA kA bhaya? hama sabhI svataMtra honA cAhate haiN| yaha bAta kyA huI ki svataMtratA kA bhaya? svataMtratA se kauna bhayabhIta hai? lekina tumheM patA nhiiN| aSTAvakra ThIka kaha rahe haiN| isa jagata meM bahuta kama loga haiM jo svataMtra honA cAhate haiN| sau meM ninyAnabe AdamI to bAteM karate haiM svataMtratA kI, lekina svataMtra honA nahIM caahte| parataMtratA meM bar3I surakSA hai| mukta hone meM bar3A khatarA hai jokhima! isalie loga eka parataMtratA se dUsarI parataMtratA meM utara jAte haiN| basa, parataMtratA badala lete haiM, lekina svataMtra kabhI nahIM hote| pUMjIvAda sAmyavAda bana jAtA hai, lekina kucha pharka nahIM hotaa| parataMtratA vahIM kI vhiiN| eka kI gulAmI dUsare kI gulAmI se badala jAtI hai, magara pharka koI bhI nahIM pdd'taa| AdamI svataMtra honA hI nahIM caahtaa| to ise hama
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________________ smjheN| svataMtratA kA bhaya hai| aura mokSa to parama svataMtratA hai, usakA to bar3A bhaya hai| jo bAta aSTAvakra ne uThAI hai, use pAMca hajAra sAla ke bAda pazcima meM manovijJAna aba samajha pA rahA hai| pazcima ke bahuta bar3e manovaijJAnika, airika phaoNma ne isa para bar3A jora diyA, bar3I khoja kI hai isa saMbaMdha meM phIyara oNpha phrIDama; svataMtratA kA bhaya! hama cAhate haiM ki koI hameM bAMdha le| isIlie to loga hameM bAMdha pAte haiN| tuma socate ho loga bAMdha lete haiM isalie tuma baMdhe ho to tuma galatI meM ho| jo nahIM baMdhanA cAhatA, use koI bhI nahIM bAMdha sktaa| tuma baMdhanA cAhate ho, isalie loga bAMdha lete haiN| tumhAre baMdhane kI cAha pahale hai, bAMdhane vAlA bAda meM AtA hai| pahale mAMga, phira puurti| tuma pukArate ho ki koI bAMdha le, to bAMdhane vAlA A jAtA hai| phira tuma cIkhate -cillAte ho ki mujhe bAMdha liyA gyaa| mere pAsa loga Ate haiN| ve kahate haiM, 'bar3e baMdhana meM haiM! patnI hai, bacce haiM!' magara kisane tumheM kahA thA? kauna tumhAre pIche par3A thA? aura lAkha loga pIche par3e the, agara tumheM nahIM baMdhanA thA to kauna bAMdha sakatA thA rU tuma bhAga nikale hote| ghara meM Aga lagI ho aura tuma ghara ke bhItara baiThe ho, lAkha tumheM loga samajhAeM ki are baiThe raho, koI harjA nahIM-tuma baiTha na skoge| tuma kahoge, 'ho gaI samajhadArI kI bAteM, maiM bAhara claa| tuma baiTho!' tuma bhAga khar3e hote, agara tumheM baMdhana dikhAI pdd'taa| lekina baMdhana tumheM dikhAI par3A nahIM thaa| aura majA yaha hai ki agara yaha patnI mara jAe to bahuta saMbhAvanA hai ki jaldI hI tuma dUsarA vivAha kroge| patnI ke marane ke bAda jyAdA dina yAda na rakha skoge| mana naI kalpanAeM karane lgegaa| mana kahegA, 'sabhI striyAM thor3e hI eka jaisI hotI haiM pU yaha duSTa mila gaI thI to bhAgya kI bAta, aba sabhI thor3e hI duSTa mila jAeMgI? duniyA meM acchI striyAM bhI haiN| apanI patnI ko chor3a kara sabhI striyAM acchI haiM hii| koI acchI strI mila jAegI to jIvana meM sukha ho jaaegaa| ' phira tuma khojane lge| dera nahIM lagegI, jaldI hI tuma phira baMdhana meM par3a jAoge, phira tama cIkhane-pakArane lagoge ki maiM baMdhana meM par3a gyaa| tumhIM banAte ho apane baMdhana, kyoMki binA baMdhana ke rahane ke lie bar3A sAhasa caahie| anabaMdhA rahane ke lie bar3A sAhasa caahie| kyoMki binA baMdhana ke rahane kA artha huA ki na koI surakSA hai kala kA patA nahIM kyA hogA! patnI tuma kyoM khoja lAe ho? -kala kI vyavasthA ke lie| kala agara tumhAre jIvana meM kAmavAsanA uThegI to kauna tRpta karegA? to tumane patnI khoja lI hai, jo kala bhI maujUda hogii| patnI ne pati khoja liyA hai, kyoMki kala kI kyA surakSA hai, bhojana kauna degA, makAna kauna degA, vastra kauna degA, alaMkaraNa kauna degA! kala kI surakSA tumane kara lI hai, parasoM kI surakSA kara lI hai| logoM ne Age taka kI surakSA kara rakhI hai| phira usa surakSA meM baMdha gae haiN| tumane eka makAna banA liyA, tumane baiMka meM baileMsa ikaTThA kara liyA, tumane dhana-pratiSThA banA lI-aba tuma kahate ho, bar3A baMdha gayA hUM! lekina kauna tumheM bAMdhatA hai? tuma baMdhe ho isalie ki baMdhana meM kucha surakSA hai kala agara bImAra hue to kyA hogA? marane lage to kyA hogA? muhammada ke jIvana meM ullekha hai, unako jo kucha milatA dina bhara meM, ve khAne-pIne ke bAda
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________________ jo bacatA sAMjha ko bAMTa dete, rAta bhikhArI ho kara so jaate| yaha unake jIvana bhara kI vyavasthA thii| jisa rAta mare, unakI patnI ne yaha soca kara ki mauta karIba AtI hai, cikitsaka kahate haiM bacane kA aba koI upAya nahIM hai, davAdArU kI jarUrata par3e, rAta vaidya bulAnA par3e, hakIma bulAnA par3e to usane pAMca rupaye bacA kara rakha lie pAMca dInAra bacA kara rakha lie| bAraha baje rAta muhammada bar3e tar3apane lge| unhoMne apanI patnI ko bulAyA aura kahA ki dekha, mujhe lagatA hai ki mere jIvana bhara kA jo niyama thA, vaha TUTA jA rahA hai marane kA vkt| maiMne kala ke lie kabhI koI vyavasthA nahIM kI / aura mujhe Aja Dara laga rahA hai ki ghara meM kucha rupaye haiN| agara hoM, to jaldI unheM tU bAMTa de, nahIM to paramAtmA ke sAmane AkhirI dina lajjita honA pdd'egaa| vaha mujhase pUchegA : to phira AkhirI dina tUne rupaye bacA lie? patnI to ghabar3A gaI ki inheM patA kaise calA ! usane jaldI se pAMca dInAra jo bacAe the, nikAla kara de die ki kSamA kareM, mujhase bhUla ho gaI ! maiM to yaha soca kara ki rAta- berAta, AdhI rAta jarUrata par3a sakatI hai, phira maiM kahAM mAMgUgI ? to muhammada ne kahA: pAgala, jisane hara bAra diyA hai, hara dina diyA hai, itane dina taka diyaa| kabhI hama bhUkhe mare ? kabhI jarUrata pUrI nahIM huI aisA huA? jo subaha detA hai, sAMjha detA hai, vahI rAta na de sakegA? tU jarA daravAje para to jA kara dekha ! vaha pAMca dInAra le kara gaI, vahA eka bhikhArI khar3A hai; vaha kahatA hai, mujhe pAMca dInAra kI jarUrata hai| ve pAMca dInAra usa bhikhArI ko de die ge| muhammada ne kahA. dekha lene bhI vahI A jAtA hai, dene bhI vahI A jAtA hai| hama nAhaka ciMtA khar3I kara lete haiN| phira ciMtA meM baMdhate haiM, phira baMdhana se pIr3ita hote haiM aura cillAte haiN| aba maiM nizcita huaa| aba maiM usake sAmane sira uThA kara khar3A ho sakUMgA ki tU hI merA ekamAtra bharosA thaa| tere alAvA maiMne bharosA aura kisI cIja meM na rakhA / jisakA paramAtmA meM bharosA hai, usako phira koI baMdhana nhiiN| lekina paramAtmA meM hamArA bharosA nahIM hai; bharosA hamArA hajAra aura cIjoM meM hai - izyoreMsa kaMpanI meM hai, baiMka meM hai, strI meM hai, pati meM hai, mitroM meM, parivAra meM, pitA meM, putra meM, sarakAra meM, aura hamAre hajAra bharose haiM ! nAstika bhI jo apane ko kahatA hai, vaha bhI nAstika nahIM hai| baiMka kA jahAM taka savAla hai, vaha bhI Astika hai, iMzyoreMsa kaMpanI kA jahAM taka savAla hai, vaha bhI Astika hai; sirpha bhagavAna ke saMbaMdha meM vaha Astika nahIM hai| staka kA artha hai : jisane apanA sArA bharosA paramAtmA meM rakhA, jisane sArA bharosA jIvana kI UrjA meM rakhA, astitva meM rkhaa| jaise hI rupaye bAMTa die, muhammada haMse aura unhoMne kahA : aba zubha huA, aba ThIka ghar3I A gaI, aba maiM nizcita jA sakatA huuN| cAdara unhoMne apane muMha para DAla lI aura kahate haiM prANa ur3a ge| patnI ne cAdara ughAr3I, vahAM to lAza par3I thI, muhammada jA cuke the| jaise ve pAMca dInAra aTakAe the!
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________________ jaise unake kAraNa ve becaina the, bojha thA, baMdhana thA! hama kahate to haiM ki hama svataMtra honA cAhate haiM, lekina svataMtra hone ke lie hama jo vyavasthA karate haiM vahI hameM bAMdha letI hai| tumane dekhA, dhana kI AdamI AkAMkSA kyoM karatA hai? isalie tAki svataMtra ho| dhana se svataMtratA milatI hai, aisA khayAla hai| aisI bhrAMti hai ki jitanA dhana hogA, utanI tumhArI svataMtratA hogI; jahAM jAnA hogA jA sakoge; jisa hoTala meM ThaharanA hogA, Thahara sakoge; havAI jahAja meM ur3anA hogA, havAI jahAja meM ur3oge; mahala meM rahanA hogA, mahala meM rahoge; jisa strI ko cAhoge vaha tumhAre paira dAbegI; jo kucha tuma karanA cAhoge, kara skoge| dhana svataMtratA detA hai, isa AzA meM AdamI dhana ikaTThA karatA hai| lekina dhana ikaTThA karane meM hI baMdha jAtA hai, burI taraha baMdha jAtA hai! dhana kA bojha bhArI ho jAtA hai aura chAtI usake nIce TUTane lagatI hai| yaha to hamArI sAdhAraNa svataMtratA hai| phira parama svataMtratA kA nAma mokSa hai| aSTAvakra kahate haiM : 'suna janaka, jo ihaloka aura paraloka ke bhoga se virakta hai aura jo nitya aura anitya kA viveka rakhatA hai...| ' jaisA terI bAtoM se laga rahA hai| terI bAtoM se aisA laga rahA hai ki tU to bilakula mukta ho gayA! na isa loka kI terI koI AkAMkSA hai, na paraloka kI terI koI AkAMkSA hai| na tU yahAM kucha cAhatA hai, na svarga meM kucha cAhatA hai| aura aisA lagatA hai terI bAtoM se ki tujhe to viveka utpanna ho gyaa| tujhe to patA hai : anitya kyA hai, nitya kyA hai; sAra kyA, asAra kyA? tujhe to dikhAI par3a gayA hai, aisA mAlUma hotA hai| tujhe darzana ho gayA hai, aisA mAlUma hotA hai| lekina phira bhI maiM tujhase pUchatA hUM ki mokSa ko cAhane vAlA mokSa se hI bhaya kare isa Azcarya kA tujhe patA hai? kahIM tere bhItara mokSa se bhI to bhaya nahIM hai abhii| agara hai, to yaha saba bAtacIta hai, jo tU kara rahA hai| usa bhaya ke kAraNa tU baMdhA hI rahegA, tU saMsAra nirmita karatA rhegaa| hamane bhaya ke kAraNa hI saMsAra nirmita kiyA hai| saMsAra yAnI hamAre bhaya kA vistaar| aura taba eka bar3e maje kI bAta, ki tumhArA bhagavAna bhI tumhAre bhaya kA vistAra aura tumhArA svarga bhI tumhAre bhaya kA vistAra, tumhArA puNya bhI tumhAre bhaya kA vistaar| tuma agara puNya bhI karate ho to isI bhaya se ki kahIM narka na jAnA pdd'e| tuma agara pApa bhI nahIM karate to isI bhaya se ki kahIM narka na jAnA pdd'e| tuma agara puNya karate ho to isI bhaya se ki kahIM svarga na kho jAe, svarga kI apsarAeM aura kalpavRkSa aura zarAba ke bahate jharane na kho jaaeN| tuma agara maMdira aura masjida meM jA kara sira Teka Ate ho, to sirpha isIlie ki paramAtmA agara kahIM ho to nArAja na ho jaae| tumhArA dharma tumhAre bhaya se nikalatA hai-adharma ho gyaa| isa jahara se amRta na nikalegA; isase to jahara hI nikalatA hai| bhaya se jo nikalatA hai, vaha saMsAra hai| tuma use paramAtmA kaho, svarga kaho, bahizta kaho, jo tuma kahanA cAho, lekina eka bAta yAda rakhanA, bhaya se saMsAra ke atirikta aura kucha bhI nahIM nikltaa| bhaya se mokSa kaise nikalegA? yaha to aisA hogA jaise reta se koI nicor3a le
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________________ tela ko| nahIM, yaha hotA nhiiN| bhaya se mokSa nahIM nikltaa| abhaya se mokSa nikalatA hai| phira mokSa kA bhaya kyA hai? aSTAvakra kyoM kahate haiM ki dekha le tU apane bhItara khojabIna karake, kahIM mokSa kA bhaya to nahIM hai? mokSa kA bhaya kyA hai? mokSa kA bhaya mahAmRtyu kA bhaya hai| mokSa tumhArI mRtyu hai| tumhAre mukta hone kA eka hI artha hai. tumhArA bilakula miTa jaanaa| taba jo zeSa bacegA vahI mokSa hai, tuma jahAM bilakula na rahoge; tumhArI rUparekhA bhI na bacegI; tuma bilakula kho jAoge jhaaN| mRtyu meM to AdamI bacatA hai, mokSa meM bilakula nahIM bctaa| mRtyu meM to zarIra khotA hai; mana bacatA hai, ahaMkAra bacatA hai, saMskAra bacate haiM, saba kucha baca jAtA hai, sirpha zarIra badala jAtA hai| mRtyu meM to kevala vastra badalate haiN| purAne jIrNa -zIrNa vastra chUTa jAte haiM, nae vastra mila jAte haiN| mokSa meM zarIra bhI gayA, saMskAra bhI gae, ahaMkAra bhI gayA, mana bhI gayA: tumane jo jAnA, anubhava kiyA saba gyaa| tuma gae! tuma pUre ke pUre gae samagratA se gae! phira jo zUnya bacatA hai, tumhAre abhAva meM, tumhArI gaira maujUdagI meM jo bacatA hai vahI mokSa hai, vahI paramAtmA hai, vahI satya hai| tuma to aise cale jAoge jaise prakAza ke Ane para adhaMkAra calA jAtA hai| mokSa ke Ane para tuma na bacoge -mokSa mahAmRtyu upaniSada kahate haiM; guru mahAmRtyu hai| kyoMki guru ke mAdhyama se mokSa kI tarapha calanA par3atA hai| guru sikhAtA hI hai marane kI klaa| aSTAvakra ThIka kahate haiM Azcarya mokSakAmasya mokSAdeva vibhiissikaa| maiMne dekhA hai, aSTAvakra kahate haiM ki mokSa kI kAmanA karane vAle loga bhI mokSa se hI Dare hote haiN| janaka tU jarA gaura se dekha le, kahIM tere bhItara bhI koI bhaya kI rekhA to nahIM hai| agara hai, to phira mokSa kI ye bAteM saba vyartha haiM, anargala pralApa haiM, pAgala kA pralApa haiM! inameM phira kucha bhI sAra nhiiN| mokSa kA svara to tumhAre bhItara tabhI phUTatA hai, jaba tumhAre saba svara baMda ho jAte haiN| jaba tumhArI saba AvAja kho jAtI hai, tabhI usa mahAsaMgIta meM tarobora hone kI ghar3I AtI hai| tuma khAlI karo siMhAsana! siMhAsana para baiThe -baiThe mokSa nahIM hai| jaba taka tuma ho, taba taka mokSa nahIM hai| jaise hI tuma na hue miTe, jhuke, khoe-mokSa hai! mokSa thA hI sadA se-tumhAre kAraNa dikhAI na par3atA thA, tuma oTa the; tuma pardA the; tuma hI ar3acana the; tuma hI bAdhA the| aba bar3I ar3acana utthii| mokSa kA to artha hI yaha hai ki jisane isa sacAI ko pahacAna liyA ki maiM hI roga huuN| makSa kA artha tumhArI mukti nahIM hai mokSa kA artha hai-tumase mukti| jisane pahacAna liyA ki maiM hI roga haM sAre roga kA AdhAra maiM hI hUM aura jisane kahA ki ThIka aba maiM yaha AdhAra chor3atA hUM, aba maiM na hone kI taiyArI dikhalAtA hUM, aba maiM marane ko rAjI hUM: ho-ho kara dekha liyA, kucha pAyA nahIM, ho-ho kara dekha liyA, sivAya khone ke kucha bhI nahIM huA hoM-hoM kara dekha liyA, aneka bAra ho kara dekha liyA, kitane janmoM taka ho kara dekha liyA, kAphI dera ho cukI hai| tuma bahuta
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________________ bAra ho kara dekha lie, hara honA khAlI gyaa| aba jarA na ho kara dekha leN| mokSa kA matalaba itanA hai : ki ho kara dekha liyA, asaphala hue aba jarA na ho kara dekha leN| 'janaka, kahIM tere bhItara kucha bhaya to nahIM hai?' mokSakAmasya mokSAt eva vibhISikA Azcaryam! aSTAvakra kahate haiM : tU Azcarya kI bAta karatA hai, suna, bar3e Azcarya maiM tujhe batAtA hUM bar3e se bar3A Azcarya yaha hai ki mokSa kI kAmanA karane vAlA bhI marane se DaratA hai| aura jo marane se DaratA hai, vaha mokSa ko kaise upalabdha hogA ? mokSa to mahAmRtyu hai| mullA nasaruddIna aura usakI patnI khAnA khA rahe the, tabhI reDiyo para rAga malhAra Ane lgaa| 'vAha - vAha!' mullA ne kahA, 'kyA pyArI cIja hai| 'kyA?' patnI ne jarA jora se pUchA / * 'maiMne kahA, kyA pyArI cIja hai!' mullA ne aura jarA jora se dohraayaa| patnI bolI, 'isa reDiyo ko baMda karo to kucha sunAI de / isa besurI Assssss ke kAraNa tumhArI bAta sunAI hI nahIM de rahI hai / ' mullA usI malhAra rAga kI bAta kara rahA hai, jisako patnI kaha rahI hai yaha besurI Asss Asss isake kAraNa tumhArI bAta hI sunAI nahIM de rhii| vaha jo mokSa kA svara hai, kinhIM ko to malhAra rAga mAlUma hotI hai, kinhIM ko sirpha Asss aasss..| kyA lagA rakhA hai zoragula! jo bhayabhIta haiM, unheM to vaha vyartha kA zoragula mAlUma hotA hai| kyoMki unhoMne vyartha ke zoragula ko sArthaka samajha rakhA hai, isalie sArthaka unheM vyartha mAlUma hone lgaa| ve ulTe khar3e haiM, zIrSAsana kara rahe haiN| lekina jinhoMne vyartha ko vyartha jAna liyA hai, unheM tatkSaNa vaha jo mokSa kI dhvani hai, jo tumhArI mRtyu meM thor3I-sI AtI hai - vaha rAga malhAra ho jAtI hai, vaha jIvana kA mahAsaMgIta ho jAtA hai| agara tumane jIvana se kucha bhI samajhA hai to eka bAta to samajho ki jIvana bilakula asAra hai| isameM sAra jaisA kucha bhI to nahIM hai| daur3o - ko, ApA-dhApI, khUba karo zrama - hAtha kucha bhI lagatA nahIM hai| yaha bar3A Azcarya hai ! aura phira bhI tuma maranA nahIM caahte| phira bhI tuma miTanA nahIM caahte| phira bhI tuma kahate ho, koI tarakIba batAeM ki maiM sadA banA rahUM, sadA-sadA banA rahUM kyA karoge sadA bane raha kara ? kahate haiM, jaba sikaMdara pUraba AyA to usake darabAriyoM meM se eka jJAnI ne use kahA ki tU pUraba jA rahA hai, mArga meM kahIM eka aisA sthAna hai, jahAM jala kA eka jharanA hai marusthala meM, use jo pI letA hai vaha amara ho jAtA hai| aba tU jA hI rahA hai, to usakI bhI khoja kara lenA; zAyada mila jAe; zAyada yaha kathA hI na ho, saca ho / sikaMdara ne apane sainikoM ko saceta kara diyA ki khojabIna karate rhnaa| kahIM bhI aisI jarA bhI bhanaka par3e, kAna meM aphavAha par3e, mujhe khabara kara denaa| khabara A gii| bIca eka registAna se gujarate
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________________ vakta khabara AI ki yahIM hai vaha jharanA | sikaMdara ne usakI khoja kara lii| vaha sAre sipAhiyoM ko bAhara chor3a kara, sainikoM ko bAhara chor3a kara utarA usa guphA meM, jahAM vaha jharanA thaa| vaha utara gayA guphA meM, sIr3hiyoM se utara kara jharane meM khar3A ho gayA, bar3A AhlAdita thA ki isa jharane ke jala ko pI kara aba maiM sadA-sadA ke lie amara ho jAUMgA / usane culla bhI bhara lii| tabhI eka kauA baiThA hai pAsa hI caTTAna pr| vaha kahane lagA ruka! sikaMdara to bahuta ghabar3AyA kaue ko bolate suna kara / usane kahA : ghabar3A mata, merI bAta suna le isake pahale ki tU pAnI pIe kyoMki maiM pI kara bar3I jhaMjhaTa meM par3a gayA hUM / sikaMdara ne kahA : kyA jhaMjhaTa ? kaue ne kahA: maiMne bhI isakI bar3I khoja kI, bAmuzkila maiM A paayaa| maiM kauoM kA rAjA hUM jaisA tU AdamiyoM kA rAjA hai| maiM koI choTA-moTA kauA nahIM hUM / tU zAhI kaue se bAta kara rahA hai / bAmuzkila maiM khoja pAyA, maiMne hajAroM kaue isa khoja meM lagA di the, Akhira isakA patA cala gayA, Akhira maiM A gayA aura maiMne yaha pI bhI liyA - pI kara maiM phaMsa gyaa| aba maiM maranA cAhatA hUM, kyoMki sadiyAM bIta gaIM taba se maiM jiMdA hUM / aba maiM maranA cAhatA hUM mara nahIM sktaa| sira paTakatA hUM caTTAnoM para koI sAra nhiiN| jahara pI letA hUM kucha sAra nahIM / gardana meM phAMsI laTakA kara laTaka jAtA hUM kucha sAra nhiiN| koI upAya mere marane kA nahIM hai| yaha pAnI bar3A khataranAka hai sikaMdara ! sikaMdara ne pUchA. tU aura maranA kyoM cAhatA hai ? usa kaue ne kahA : aba kyA karUM? vahI vahI rAga, vahI - vahI upadrava, kaba taka dekhUM ? milatA to kucha hai hI nahIM - daur3a-dhUpa, daur3a- dhUpa, daur3a dhUpa...! aba to maiM unase IrSyA karane lagA jo mara jAte haiM; kama se kama zAMti to mila jAtI hai| mujhase jyAdA azAMta isa pRthvI para koI nahIM sikaMdara ! phira terI marjI! kahate haiM, sikaMdara ne hAtha se pAnI nIce girA diyaa| sIr3hiyAM car3ha kara vApisa lauTa aayaa| pAnI usane pIyA nhiiN| kahAnI saca ho yA jhUThI, magara kahAnI bar3I sArthaka hai| tumhIM soco, agara tuma amara ho jAo, kyA karoge? yaha pacAsa-sATha-sattara sAla kI jiMdagI to kisI taraha kaTa jAtI hai| yaha koI bar3I jiMdagI nahIM hai| sattara sAla AdamI jItA hai, usameM se bIsa-paccIsa sAla to sone meM nikala jAte haiM; ATha ghaMTA roja soyA to eka tihAI to sone meM nikala gyaa| paMdraha-bIsa sAla par3hane-likhane meM, skUlI upadrava meM nikala gae, taba kucha hoza hI nahIM thaa| bace bIsa - sva sAla to daphtara, phaikTarI, dUkAna, majadUrI, patnI, bacce, hajAra upadrava! maMdira, masjida- isameM nikala ge| tumhAre pAsa bacatA kyA sattara sAla meM? sAta minaTa bhI bacate haiM? lekina tuma jarA soco ki agara maro hI na, to kaisI asuvidhA na khar3I ho jAegI? jisako jIvana kI yaha vyarthatA dikhAI par3atI hai, vaha amaratva kI AkAMkSA nahIM krtaa| vaha kahatA hai : 'he prabhu! mahAmRtyu ghaTita ho, aisI mRtyu ghaTita ho ki phira jIvana na mile| ' isI ko hama AvAgamana se mukti
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________________ kahate haiN| yahI to pUraba kI bar3I se bar3I nidhi aura khoja hai| pazcima abhI bacakAnA hai| abhI pazcima jIvana se UbA nhiiN| pUraba bar3A prAcIna hai, bar3A praur3ha hai - jIvana se Uba gyaa| pazcima ke to vicAraka soca kara hairAna hote haiM ki yaha mAmalA kyA hai? buddha, mahAvIra, pataMjali, aSTAvakra, lAotsu- ye saba yahI eka bAta karate haiM ki kaise chuTakArA ho? yaha mAmalA kyA hai? are jIvana chUTane ke lie hai? jIvana ko thor3A laMbA karo, naI auSadhiyAM khojo, nae upAya khojo, AdamI laMbA jIe, khUba jIe! ye loga kyA pAgala haiM? ye sAre buddhapuruSa, inakA dimAga phira gayA hai ? ye kahate haiM ki kaise AvAgamana se chuTakArA ho? pazcima abhI bacakAnA hai| abhI pazcima ko jIvana kA anubhava nahIM / pUraba ne jIvana kA bar3A laMbA anubhava liyA hai aura pAyA : yaha bilakula hI asAra hai| 'pAnI kerA budabudA' kSaNabhaMgura hai! aura bhItara kucha bhI nhiiN| phUTatA hai to zUnya hAtha lagatA hai| pyAja kI taraha hai : parta -parta ughADate calo, naI parteM nikalatI AtI, nikalatI AtI, eka dina zUnya, kucha hAtha nahIM lgtaa| daur3o - dhApo, kahIM pahuMcate nahIM, jahAM ke tahAM khar3e-khar3e mara jAte ho| kahIM pahuMce ho tuma? cale to ho- koI tIsa sAla cala liyA, koI pacAsa sAla cala liyA, koI sATha sAla cala liyA- lekina kahIM pahuMce ho? kahIM aisA lagatA hai ki koI pahuMcanA huA koI maMjila AI ? mArga hI mArga.. . ghUmate rahate! kahIM pahuMcanA to hotA nahIM, tRpti to kucha hotI nahIM / eka atRpti dUsarI atRpti meM le jAtI hai; dUsarI atRpti tIsarI atRpti meM do atRptiyoM ke bIca thor3I-sI AzA rahatI ki zAyada tRpti ho, bAkI tRpti kabhI hotI nahIM; saMtoSa kabhI AtA nhiiN| saMtuSTi isa jagata meM hai hI nahIM / janma-maraNa se chuTakAre kI AkAMkSA mokSa hai| aSTAvakra ne kahA ki tU jarA gaura se dekha, jarA hAtha meM khurdabIna le kara dekha janaka! kahIM bhI bhaya to nahIM hai marane kA ? nahIM to yaha saba bAta, UMcI-UMcI bAta, bAta kI bAta raha jaaegii| agara tere prANa meM yaha utara gaI ho, to tujhe marane ko rAjI honA cAhie tujhe mahAmRtyu ke lie rAjI honA caahie| taba to tujhe ahobhAva se nAcatA huA mRtyu ke svAgata ke lie jAnA caahie| huA, gIta gunagunAtA huA mRtyu ke svAgata ko gayA hai usI ne jIvana ko jAnA hai| jo Darate aura kaMpate mRtyu kI tarapha jA rahe haiM, ve jIvana ko nahIM jAne nahIM pahacAne aura cUMki jIvana ko nahIM pahacAne, isalie mRtyu kA artha bhI nahIM samajha paate| mRtyu to chuTakArA hai| mRtyu to vizrAma hai| lekina agara marate samaya tumhAre mana meM yaha kAmanA rahI ki phira ho jAUM, phira ho jAUM, marate vakta agara tumhAre mana meM yaha kAmanA rahI ki abhI thor3I dera aura jI jAtA, aura jI jAtA-to tuma phira lauTa Aoge, tumhArI vAsanA tumheM phira khIMca laaegii| vAsanA ke dhAge phira tumheM vApi kisI garbha meM le aaeNge| marate vakta jo kahatA : aho, dhanyabhAgI maiM, Azcarya ki aba maiM jA rahA hUM aura phira kabhI na AUMgA! buddha ne aisI cetanA ko anAgAmina kahA hai - jo jAtA hai aura phira kabhI nahIM AtA, phira jisakA Agamana kabhI nahIM hotaa| buddha ne kahA : dhanya haiM ve jo anAgAmina haiM-marate kSaNa jo pUre mara jAte
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________________ haiM aura jo kahate haiM yaha yAtrA samApta huI yaha vyartha kI daur3a-dhApa baMda huI yaha sapanA aba aura nahIM dekhanA hai! mokSakAmasya mokSAt eva vibhISikA aashcrym| -to tU jarA dekha, usa para Azcarya kara agara kahIM bhaya ho| 'dhIra-puruSa to bhogatA huA bhI aura pIr3ita hotA huA bhI nitya kevala AtmA ko dekhatA huA na prasanna hotA hai aura na krUddha hotA hai|' dhIrastu bhojyamAnoupi pIDyamAnoupi srvdaa| AtmAnaM kevalaM pazyan na tuSyati na kupyati|| kahane lage aSTAvakra ki janaka, dekha, jo vastuta: jJAna ko upalabdha ho gayA, jo dhIra-puruSa hai, vaha phira na to prasanna hotA hai aura na kruddha hotA hai| hAni ho to aprasanna nahIM, lAbha ho to prasanna nhiiN| mAna ho to prasanna nahIM, apamAna ho to krUddha nhiiN| tU jarA bhItara dekha, agara terA sammAna ho, to tU prasanna hogA? agara terA apamAna ho, to tU nArAja hogA? agara tU hAre jIvana meM Aja tU samrATa hai kala bhikhArI ho jAnA par3e-to tere citta meM koI aMtara par3egA? agara rekhA mAtra kA bhI aMtara par3atA ho, to abhI jaldI mata kr| yaha ghoSaNA bar3I hai jo tU kara rahA hai, yaha ghoSaNA mata kr| phira yaha ghoSaNA ayogya hai aura khataranAka hai, kyoMki kahIM isa ghoSaNA kA tU bharosA karane lage ki yaha satya hai, to phira tU satya ko kabhI bhI na pA skegaa| __guru kI yaha satata ceSTA dikhAne kI, ki kahIM tuma kisI bhrAMta dhAraNA ko jo nahIM huI hai aisA mata mAna lenA ki ho gaI hai| bar3I anivArya hai guru kI yaha upadezanA, bar3I karuNAmayI hai! kyoMki mana to bar3e jaldI mAnane ko hotA hai ki ho gayA aura jaba binA kie ho rahA ho to dikkata hI kyA? pataMjali ke sAtha to yaha khatarA nahIM hai, aSTAvakra ke sAtha bahuta khatarA hai| isalie pataMjali koI parIkSA bhI nahIM lete, aSTAvakra parIkSA lete haiN| yaha tumane khayAla kiyA? pataMjali ke sAtha koI khatarA nahIM hai; ve eka-eka iMca bar3hAte haiN| ve utanA hI bar3hAte haiM jitanA saMbhava hai sAdhAraNa manuSya ko bddh'naa| chalAMga vahAM nahIM hai| aura eka sIr3hI car3ho to hI dUsarI sIr3hI para car3ha sakate ho| pahalI sIr3hI agara nahIM car3ha pAe to dUsarI para car3ha hI na paaoge| isalie pataMjali parIkSA kI koI vyavasthA nahIM krte| lekina aSTAvakra ne parIkSA kI vyavasthA kI-karanI hI pdd'ii| kyoMki aSTAvakra to kahate haiM koI sIr3hI nahIM; cAho to tatkSaNa, abhI isI kSaNa mukta ho sakate ho! yaha suna kara kaI pAgala tallaNa ghoSaNA kara deMge ki hama mukta ho ge| ina pAgaloM ko khIMca kara inakI jagaha lAnA pdd'egaa| inake lie sUtra die jA rahe haiN| 'jo apane ceSTArata zarIra ko dUsare ke zarIra kI bhAMti dekhatA hai, vaha mahAzaya puruSa stuti aura niMdA meM bhI kaise kSobha ko prApta hogA?' ceSTamAnaM zarIraM svaM pshytynyshriirvt| jo apane zarIra ko bhI aisA dekhatA hai jaise kisI aura kA zarIra hai; jo apane zarIra ko bhI
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________________ apanA nahIM mAnatA; jisane apane zarIra se bhI utanI hI dUrI kara lI hai jitanI dUsare ke zarIra se hai| jaise tumhAre zarIra ko koI coTa pahuMcAe, to mujhe coTa nahIM lagatI-aisA hI mere zarIra ko koI coTa pahuMcAe aura taba bhI maiM jAnatA rahUM ki mujhe coTa nahIM lagatI jaise yaha kisI aura kA zarIra hai| to hI. 'jo apane ceSTArata zarIra ko dUsare ke zarIra kI bhAMti dekhatA hai, vaha mahAzaya puruSa stuti aura niMdA meM kaise kSobha ko prApta hogA? saMstave cApi nidAyA kathaM kSubhyet mhaashyH| yaha 'mahAzaya' zabda bar3A priya hai| banA hai mahA fa Azaya se-jisakA Azaya mahAna ho gayA; jo kSudra AzayoM se nahIM baMdhA hai; zarIra ke aura mana ke, vRtti ke aura vicAra ke Azaya jisake jIvana meM nahIM rahe: jisane apane samasta Azaya, apanI samasta AkAMkSAeM paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM, mahaMta caraNoM meM samarpita kara dI haiN| 'mahAzaya' bar3A anUThA zabda hai| hama to sAdhAraNa upayoga karate haiN| koI ghara AtA hai to kahate haiM. Aie mahAzaya, baiThie! lekina upayoga ThIka hai| hameM yaha mAna kara calanA cAhie ki dUsarA mahAzaya haikisI kSudra preraNA se nahIM AyA hogA, prabhu-preraNA se AyA hai| isalie to hama atithi ko devatA kahate haiN| atithi AyA hai to prabhu hI AyA hai| jo AyA hai vaha mahAzaya hai| cora bhI AyA hai to bhI kisI mahAzaya se AyA hogaa| aisI pratIti sAdhu-svabhAva kI honI caahie| kahate haiM. 'vaha mahAzaya puruSa stuti aura niMdA meM kaise kSobha ko prApta hogA?' to tU dekha janaka, tujhe kSobha hogA? terI stuti karUM to tujhe prasannatA hogI? prasannatA bhI kSobha hai| kSobha kA matalaba hotA hai : taraMgeM uTha AnA; kSubdha ho jaanaa| krodha to kSobha hai hI, prasannatA bhI kSobha hai| dukhI honA to kSobha hai hI, sukhI honA bhI kSobha hai, kyoMki donoM hAlata meM citta taraMgoM se bhara jAtA hai, kSubdha ho jAtA hai| jo sukha aura dukha ke pAra hai, vahI kSubdha hone ke pAra hai| use phira koI kSubdha nahIM kara paataa| to ve kahate haiM ki agara terA koI apamAna kare janaka, to tU kSubdha hogA? terA koI sammAna kare to tU kSubdha hogA? tujhameM koI aMtara par3egA koI bhI aMtara par3egA? aMtara mAtra par3e to tU jo abhI kaha rahA hai, vaha tUne merI sunI bAta doharA dii| aura satya ko punarukta nahIM karanA caahie| satya ko anubhava karanA caahie| 'jo isa vizva ko mAyA mAtra dekhatA hai aura jo kautuka ko pAra kara gayA hai, vaha dhIrapuruSa mRtyu ke Ane para bhI kyoM bhayabhIta hogA pU' / jisakI jijJAsA, kutUhala, ajJAna saba bIta gae; jisako aba pUchane ko kucha nahIM bacA hai, jo pUchane kI yAtrA samApta kara cukA jisake saba prazna gira gae haiN| vigatakautuka! yaha zabda pyArA hai| jisake mana meM aba pUchane ke lie kucha bhI nahIM hai, prazna hI nahIM hai|
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________________ mAyAmAtramida vizva pazyan vigtkautukH| 'jo isa vizva ko mAyAmAtra dekhatA hai aura jo kautuka ko pAra kara gayA hai...|' api sannihite matyau kathaM trasyati dhiirdhiiH| '......kyA mRtyu ko pAsa AyA huA dekha kara vaha bhayabhIta hogA? kyA jarA bhI bhaya kI rekhA usameM uThegI? tU to dekha, A rahI jaise mRtyu, khar3I tere dvAra para dastaka de rahI mRtyu, A gae yamadUta apane bhaiMsoM para savAra ho kara-tU unakA svAgata karake unake sAtha jAne ko tatpara hogA ki jarA bhI terA mana jhijhakegA? agara jarA bhI jhijhaka raha gaI ho, to phira tU abhI vigatakautuka nhiiN| agara jarA bhI jhijhaka raha gaI ho, to abhI zraddhA kA janma nahIM huaa| agara jarA bhI jhijhaka raha gaI ho, to abhI bahuta kucha karane ko bAkI hai krAMti ghaTI nhiiN| tU samajhA buddhi se, abhI prANoM se nahIM smjhaa| tUne jAnA Upara se, abhI aMtaratama meM prakAza kA dIyA nahIM jlaa| 'jisa mahAtmA kA mana mokSa meM bhI spRhA nahIM rakhatA aura jo AtmajJAna se tRpta hai, usakI tulanA kisake sAtha ho sakatI hai?' 'jisa mahAtmA kA mana mokSa meM bhI spRhA nahIM rkhtaa...|' nispRha mAnasa yasya nairAzye'pi mhaatmnH| jo itanA jyAdA vAsanA ke pAra ho gayA ki mokSa kI bhI vAsanA nahIM hai| ho to ho, na ho to na ho-yaha AtyaMtika sthiti hai| jaba mokSa kI bhI vAsanA nahIM hotI, tabhI mokSa phalita hotA hai| yaha mokSa kA virodhAbhAsa hai| kala maiM eka sUphI phakIra kA jIvana par3hatA thaa| vaha bar3A dhanapati thA-phakIra hone ke phle| damizka meM rahatA thaa| aura damizka kI jo bar3I prasiddha masjida hai, jagata-prasiddha masjida hai, usake mana meM yaha AkAMkSA thI ki vaha usa masjida kA vyavasthApaka ho jAe, vaha usake niyaMtraNa meM cle| vaha bar3e sammAna kI bAta thii| vaha damizka kA sabase UMcA pada thA-usa masjida kA vyavasthApaka ho jaanaa| to vaha dhanI to thA hI, saba kAma chor3a kara vaha subaha masjida meM praveza karane vAlA pahalA vyakti hotA aura sAMjha masjida ko chor3ane vAlA AkhirI vyakti hotaa| vaha dina bhara namAja meM lIna rhtaa| vaha caubIsa ghaMTe tanmaya ho kara prArthanA karatA-isa Azaya se bhItara ki jaba loga mujhe itanI prArthanA meM dekheMge, to Aja nahIM kala, masjida meM Ane vAle logoM kA yaha bhAva hogA hI ki itane bar3e namAjI ke rahate hue koI aura dUsarA vyavasthApaka ho! namAja meM usakA rasa na thaa| rasa to isameM thA ki loga dekha leN| logoM ne dekhA bhii| mahIne bIte, sAla bhI bItane lagA; lekina koI pariNAma dikhAI na pdd'e| Izvara se to kucha use lenA-denA bhI na thA; vaha to sirpha pradarzana thaa| sAla pUrA ho gayA to usane kahA, yaha to phijUla kI bAta hai| agara sAla bhara meM gAMva ke logoM ko itanA bhI patA nahIM.. .ki koI A kara kahatA bhI nahIM mujhase ki tuma vyavasthApaka ho jaao| to usa rAta usane kahA ki vyartha hai yh| bAta chor3a dii| usane usa rAta paramAtmA se prArthanA kI ki mujhe kSamA kr| maiMne bhI kahAM kI vyartha bAta meM sAla bhara gaMvAyA!
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________________ sAla bhara agara tere ko pAne kI prArthanA kI hotI, to zAyada tere hI darzana ho jaate| magara ina mUr3hoM ko kucha akla na aaii| magara maiM bhI mUr3ha hUM mujhe kSamA kara ! usa rAta usane bar3e nispRha mana se prArthanA kI, usameM kucha mAMga na thI! vaha prArthanA karake uTha kara dvAra para AyA ki dekhA ki gAMva ke loga ikaTThe ho rahe haiN| usane pUchA : mAmalA kyA hai? logoM kahA. hama sabane mila kara taya kiyA ki tuma usa masjida ke vyavasthApaka ho jaao| sAla bhara se hama dekhate haiM, tuma jaisA koI namAjI kabhI huA vaha to bar3A hairAna huA ki Aja to maiMne chor3I AkAMkSA aura Aja hI AkAMkSA pUre hone kA dina A gayA! lekina taba use hoza bhI aayaa| usane kahA ki kSamA karo mitro, sAla bhara to maiM AkAMkSA karatA thA, taba tuma kahAM the? aba tuma Ae ho jabaki maiM AkAMkSA chor3a cukaa| jaba AkAMkSA chor3ane se aisA phala milatA hai to aba AkAMkSA na karUMgA, aba tuma vyavasthApaka kisI aura ko banA lo| aura use itanA bodha huA isa ghaTanA se ki vaha saba chor3a-chAr3a kara phakIra ho gyaa| 'malika bina dInAra usakA nAma thaa| kahate haiM ki usane mokSa kI bhI AkAMkSA nahIM kI phira / svarga kI AkAMkSA kA to savAla hI nahIM; usane AkAMkSA hI nahIM kii| jaba marA to kisI bujurga ko sapane meM dikhAI diyA aura bujurga ne pUchA kyA khabara hai? vahA kaisA huA? kyoMki jisa dina malika bina dInAra marA, usI dina eka aura phakIra marA-hasana nAma kA eka phakIra mraa| donoM kI bar3I khyAti thI / to pUchA bujurga ne ki tuma donoM sAtha-sAtha mare, eka hI samaya mare, to mokSa ke daravAje para eka sAtha pahuMce hooge, pahale praveza kisako milA ? kina dInAra ne kahA ki maiM bhI bar3A cakita hUM, pahale praveza mujhako milaa| aura maiMne pUchA prabhu ko ki mujhe praveza pahale dene kA kyA kAraNa hai? kyoMki hasana mujhase jyAdA buddhimAna hai| hasana mujhase jyAdA jJAnI hai| hasana ke pAsa to maiM bhI sIkhane jAtA thaa| to prabhu ne kahA. tujhase jyAdA jJAnI hai, vaha tujhase jyAdA tyAgI hai; lekina usake mana meM mokSa kI AkAMkSA thI aura tere mana meM mokSa kI AkAMkSA na thI ! tU pahale praveza kA hakadAra hai| mokSa kI AkAMkSA bhI jisakI chUTa gaI ho; jisa mahAtmA kA mana mokSa kI bhI spRhA na karatA ho aura jo AtmajJAna se tRpta hai, aura jo apane hone se tRpta hai; jisakI tuSTi apane meM hai; jo aba kucha bhI nahIM mAMgatA, jo kahatA hai merA honA kAphI hai, kAphI se jyAdA hai; aura mujhe cAhie kyA-jo aisA kahatA hai! jo kahatA hai, maiMne apane ko jAna liyA, bhara pAyA, khUba pAyA, mila gayA saba, aba mujhe kucha bhI nahIM cAhie ! 'AtmajJAna se jo tRpta hai. ...' ' * tasyAtma jJAnatRptasya tulanA kena jaayte| .. usakI tulanA kisI se bhI nahIM ho sakatI / ' to janaka, tere mana meM mokSa kI spRhA to nahIM hai? abhI bhI tere mana meM mukta hone kI AkAMkSA to nahIM hai? tujhe jo yaha AtmajJAna huA hai jaisA tU kaha rahA hai ki ho gayA, isase paritRpta ho gayA
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________________ tU? aba aura to kucha nahIM cAhie? terI tRpti pUrI ho gaI? aba tU kucha aura to na mAMgegA? agara prabhu tere sAmane A jAe aura kahe ki suna janaka, tujhe kyA cAhie, maiM dene ko taiyAra hUM -to tere pAsa mAMgane ko kucha hogA, yA ta sirpha dhanyavAda degA? ta kucha mAMgegA yA dhanyavAda degA? ta yaha kahegA ki Apane de diyA saba, aba mujhe kucha cAhie nhiiN| aba to kucha bhI nahIM cAhie, aisA tU kaha sakegA binA kisI ar3acana ke? jarA-sI bhI bhItara dvaMdva kI sthiti na banegI, mana terA na kahegA ki are, aba prabhu kahate haiM to thor3A kucha mAMga hI lo? janmoM -janmoM taka AkAMkSA kI, aba ghar3I AI, zubha ghar3I ki paramAtmA svayaM kahatA hai kucha mAMga lo, mere varadahasta Aja tumheM luTAne ko taiyAra haiM, khar3e haiM tumhArI jholI bharane ko to terA mana jholI phailA to na degA? ye sArI bAteM aSTAvakra kahane lage, tAki janaka apane ko dekha le kahAM hai| 'jo jAnatA hai ki yaha dRzya svabhAva se hI kucha bhI nahIM hai, vaha dhIrabuddhi kaise dekha sakatA hai ki yaha grahaNa karane yogya hai aura yaha tyAgane yogya?' yaha bar3e mahatva kA sUtra hai ina saba sUtroM meM mahatva kA sUtra hai| isa sUtra kA artha hai ki aSTAvakra kahate haiM ki janaka dekha, ina sArI bAtoM ko suna kara maiMne kahA ki dhIrapuruSa dhana meM AkAMkSA na rakhegA; maiMne kahA ki dhIrapuruSa mokSa meM bhI AkAMkSA na rakhegA; maiMne kahA, dhIra-puruSa sAmrAjya meM, mahala meM, saMpatti ke vistAra meM AkAMkSA na rakhegA-isase aisA to nahIM hotA ki tere mana meM eka savAla uTha rahA ho : to maiM isa sabakA tyAga kara dUM? yaha bar3I bArIka bAta hai| merI ye bAteM suna kara tere mana meM aisA to nahIM ho rahA hai ki isa sabakA tyAga kara dUM? kyoMki dhIrapuruSa to dhana kI AkAMkSA nahIM rakhatA, mahala kI AkAMkSA nahIM rakhatA, sukha-suvidhA kI AkAMkSA nahIM rakhatA, to maiM ina sabako choDUM aura jaMgala calA jAUM-agara tere mana meM aisA ho rahA ho, to abhI tU dhIrapuruSa nhiiN| kyoMki dhIrapuruSa na to vastu kI AkAMkSA karatA hai, na vastu ke tyAga kI AkAMkSA karatA hai| to tere bhItara kahIM bhoga bacA hai? isake lie aba taka ke sUtra kahe ki agara kahIM bhI bhoga kI AkAMkSA bacI hai to khoja le| aba yaha bar3A sUtra, usase bhI bar3A sUtra hai ki ve kahate haiM. aba maiM tujhase yaha pUchatA hUM ki ho sakatA hai bhoga na bacA ho, tyAga kI AkAMkSA to nahIM hai kahIM? kyoMki tyAga kI AkAMkSA bhoga kA hI dUsarA rUpa hai| tyAga kI AkAMkSA bhoga hI hai-sira ke bala khar3A, kucha pharka nhiiN| bhoga kahatA hai pakar3o, tyAga kahatA hai chor3o; lekina pakar3ane aura chor3ane meM jisa para dhyAna hotA hai, vaha to eka hI cIja hai-dhana, kAminI yA kaacn| bhoga kahatA hai : ' aura striyaaN| ' tyAga kahatA hai. 'bilakula nhiiN| lekina donoM kI najara to strI para hotI hai yA puruSa para hotI hai| bhoga kahatA hai. 'aura- aura dhana!' tyAga kahatA hai. 'bilakula nahIM; aura-aura tyAga!' lekina donoM ke mana meM abhI ' aura' to hotA hai| na bhogI ko tuma tapta pAoge, na tyAgI ko| kyoMki tyAgI socatA hai abhI aura tyAga karanA hai, aura bhogI socatA hai abhI aura bhoga karanA hai| bar3e maje kI bAta hai, donoM kI dRSTi ' aura' para lagI hai aura! isa ' aura' ko ThIka se samajhanA, isa ' aura' meM hI sArA saMsAra samAyA hai|
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________________ + tuma bhogI ko bhI becaina paaoge| vaha kahatA hai ki hai, kAra to hai, lekina aura bar3I cAhie; makAna hai, lekina aura bar3A caahie| tuma tyAgI ke bhItara khojo| tyAgI kahatA hai, kie to upavAsa, lekina aura! tyAga kiyA to, lekina aura! abhI aura bahuta kucha chor3ane ko hai| krodha chor3A, mAyA chor3I, moha chor3anA hai, pratiSThA chor3anI hai, ahaMkAra chor3anA hai| lekina 'aura' kI daur3a to barAbara jArI hai| na bhogI tRpta hai, na tyAgI tRpta hai| svabhAvAdeva zAnAno dRzyametana kiNcn| idaM grAhyamidaM tyAjya sa kiM pazyati dhiirdhii:|| jo vastuta: dhIra ho gayA, jo vastuta: dhairya ko upalabdha ho gayA, jo vastuta: zAMta ho gayA aura jisane vastuta: jAna liyA ki ye saba dRzya svabhAva se hI kucha bhI nahIM haiM usake mana meM na to grahaNa karane kI koI vAsanA uThatI, aura na tyAga kI koI vAsanA uThatI hai| bhogI aura yogI meM bahuta aMtara nahIM hai, ve eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| bhogI aura tyAgI meM koI bheda nahIM hai; ve eka hI tarka kI do vyAkhyAeM haiN| magara tarka eka hI hai| vAstavika dhIra to vahI hai jo donoM ke pAra ho gyaa| dekhate haiM, parIkSA kaisI kaThina hotI jAtI hai! janaka ko kaise kasate jAte haiM saba tarapha se, bhAgane kI koI jagaha nahIM de rahe haiM! abhI taka bhoga kA khaMDana kiyA thA, to eka upAya thA janaka ko bhAgane kA, ki janaka socatA ki ThIka hai, aSTAvakra kahate haiM ki yaha saba jJAnI nahIM karatA-dhana, mAyA, mada, pada, vyavasthA, sAmrAjya, mahala, yaha saba nahIM krtaa| to eka chuTakAre kI jagaha thI-to ThIka hai, saba chor3a duuNgaa| ahaMkAra jJAna ke dAve meM chor3a bhI sakatA hai| agara isa para hI kasauTI ho jAe ki tumane jo vaktavya diyA hai janaka, ki maiM jAga gayA, yaha vaktavya tabhI sahI siddha hogA, jaba tuma yaha saba chor3a do, kyoMki jAgA huA AdamI ina saba cIjoM meM nahIM hotA to ahaMkAra kI yaha khUbI hai, sUkSma khUbI ki ahaMkAra isake lie bhI rAjI ho jaaegaa| janaka kahatA. acchA, agara yahI kasauTI hai, hama pUrI kie dete haiM! maiM jAtA yaha saba chor3a kara! yaha rahA par3A sAmrAjya, maiM calA! lekina usase kucha siddha na hotaa| usase yaha bilakula bhI siddha na hotA ki sAmrAjya svannavata huaa| kyoMki svapna na to pakar3e jA sakate haiM aura na chor3e jA sakate haiN| jaba tumase koI kahe ki maiMne lAkhoM rupaye tyAga kara die to samajha lenA ki tyAga nahIM huA, hisAba jArI hai| taba tuma pakkA samajha lenA ki yaha AdamI abhI bhI hisAba kara rahA hai ki isane kitane rupaye chor3a die; rupaye abhI bhI bahuta vAstavika haiN| mere eka mitra haiM, unhoMne lAkhoM rupaye chor3e haiN| mujhase bujurga haiN| kaI varSa ho gae, taba unhoMne chor3e, magara jaba bhI maiM unase milane jAtA thA to ve kisI na kisI bahAne yaha bAta nikAla hI dete ki maiMne lAkhoM rupayoM para lAta mAra dii| eka daphA sUnA maiMne, do daphe sunA, tIsarI daphe maiMne unase kahA ki suneM, nArAja na hoN| yaha lAta Apane kaba mArI thI?
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________________ kahane lage, koI tIsa-paiMtIsa sAla pahale kI bAta hai, lAkhoM para lAta mAra dI! maiMne kahA, yaha lAta Apane mArI, lekina laga nahIM paaii| isako doharAte kyoM haiM? tIsa-paiMtIsa sAla kI bAta gaI-bItI ho gaI, isako doharAte kyoM haiM? vaha lAkhoM kA hisAba abhI bhI kAyama hai? pahale akar3a kara calate rahe hoMge ki mere pAsa lAkhoM haiM, aba agaDu kara calate haiM ki lAkhoM para lAta mAra dI-akar3a vahIM kI vahIM hai! pahalI akar3a se dUsarI akar3a thor3I jyAdA khataranAka hai| kyoMki pahalI akar3a to dikhAI bhI par3a jAtI hai, dUsarI dikhAI bhI nahIM par3atI, ati sUkSma hai| janaka ke lie vaha daravAjA khulA rakhA thA itanI dera taka aSTAvakra ne, aba use bhI baMda kara diyaa| aba janaka ko bhAgane kI koI jagaha nahIM rhii| aba to jAgane kI hI jagaha rahI, bhAgane kI koI jagaha nahIM rhii| aba to sIdhe satya ko svIkAra karanA hogA ki yA to huA hai to huA hai yA nahIM huA hai to nahIM huA hai| bacane kA koI upAya nahIM hai| svabhAvAdeva jJAnAno dRzyametata kiNcn| are, jise saba mAyA dikhAI par3ane lagI, use kaisA chor3anA, kaisA pakar3anA! irda grAhyamidaM tyAjya sa kiM pazyati dhiirdhii:| use to kucha dikhAI hI nahIM par3atA ki isameM pakar3anA aura chor3anA kyA? dhIra-puruSa aisA nahIM kahatA ki sonA miTTI hai| dhIra-puruSa kahatA hai. sonA sonA hai, miTTI miTTI hai; para donoM arthahIna, donoM saarhiin| vaha kahatA hai. mahala meM baiTho to, mahala ke bAhara baiTho to-saba barAbara haiM, donoM sapane haiN| amIra kA sapanA hai, garIba kA sapanA hai; saphala kA sapanA hai, asaphala kA sapanA hai donoM sapane haiN| sapane badalane se kucha bhI na hogaa| eka rAta tumane sapanA dekhA ki DAkU ho, dUsarI rAta sapanA dekhA ki saMta hoM-donoM sapane haiM, donoM kA koI mUlya nahIM hai| na tuma DAkU ho, na tuma sAdhu ho| tuma jaba taka apane ko koI tAdAtmya dete ho taba taka bhAMti jArI rhegii| tuma to parama zUnya ho, tuma to parama prajJA ho, tuma to parama sAkSI ho| tyAga bhI to kRtya huA jaise bhoga kRtya hai, vaise tyAga bhI kRtya hai| aura aSTAvakra kA pUrA krAMti-sUtra yahI hai. kartA nahIM, bhoktA nhiiN-saakssii| chor3A, vaha bhI karma huaa| pakar3A, vaha bhI karma huaa| donoM meM tuma kartA ho gae, donoM meM ahaMkAra nirmita hogaa| kRtya se ahaMkAra nirmita hotA hai| tuma sAkSI ho jaao| 'jisane aMtaHkaraNa ke kaSAya ko tyAga diyA hai aura jo davaMdava-rahita aura AzA-rahita hai, aise puruSa ko daivayoga se prApta vastu se na dukha hotA hai aura na sukha hotA hai|' 'jisane aMtaHkaraNa se kaSAya ko tyAga diyaa,.....| ' aMtaHkaraNa se kaSAya ko tyAgane kA artha hai. jisane jAga kara dekha liyA ki kaSAya mere nahIM, jisane dIyA jalA kara dekha liyA ki maiM to sirpha prakAza hUM aura maiM koI bhI nhiiN| na krodha merA, na moha merA| pakar3ane chor3ane kI bAta nahIM; itanA jAnane kI bAta hai ki donoM mere nhiiN| na bhoga merA,
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________________ na tyAga merA / 'jisane aMtaHkaraNa se kaSAya ko tyAga diyA hai aura jo dvaMdva - rahita aura AzA rahita hai ... / ' aba na to koI dvaMdva hai bhItara, kyoMki do bace nahIM, sirpha sAkSI bacA hai| sAkSI sadA eka hai| aura yaha zabda bar3A adabhuta hai. niradvaMdvasya nirAziSaH / jo dvaMdva se rahita aura AzA se rahita hai! aba jo koI bhI AzA nahIM karatA ki aisA ho, vaisA ho, yaha mile, vaha mile - jisake lie kala samApta ho gayA ! do kala haiM hamAre Aja ke donoM trph| eka kala hai bItA huA, usase dvaMdva paidA hotA hai| eka kala hai Ane vAlA, usase AzA jagatI, vAsanA jgtii| jisane atIta ke kala ko chor3a diyA, jisane kaha diyA ki jo bhI maiM aba taka thA, saba sapanA thA vaha mukta huA atIta se| aura jisane saba AzA chor3a dI, jisane kahA jo maiM hUM vaha kAphI hUM aba mujhe kucha aura honA nahIM kahIM aura jAnA nahIM; jahaM / hUM vahIM merA ghara hai jahAM hUM vaisA honA hI merA svabhAva hai jaisA hUM taisA hI honA merA niyati hai anyathA kI koI cAha nahIM - usane bhaviSya ko miTA diyaa| jisane atIta aura bhaviSya ko poMcha DAlA, vaha zAzvata meM praveza kara jAtA hai| aMtasmaktakaSAyasya nidvandvasya nirAziSaH / yadRcchayAgato bhogo na dukhAya na tuSTaye / use jo mila jAe, vaha daivayoga se, bhAgya se - sukha mile to, dukha mile to| yaha smjhnaa| yaha sUtra yAda rakhanA, bhUlanA mt| tuma kahate ho : jo milatA hai, apane kRtya se, karma se..| yaha karma kI philaoNsaphI nahIM hai| yaha sAkSI kA darzana hai / aSTAvakra kahate haiM. use dukha milatA hai to vaha kahatA hai : daivayoga, prabhu icchA, adRzya kI icchA! dukha milatA to, sukha milatA to! na to sukha meM vaha kahatA hai ki mere kAraNa milA, na dukha meM kahatA hai mere kAraNa milaa| vaha to kahatA , maiM to sirpha dekhanevAlA hUM yaha milanA na milanA usakI lIlA ! phira kaisA kheda ! na to phira prApta vastu meM dukha hai aura na sukha hai| jIsasa ne sUlI para AkhirI kSaNa meM kahA hai : terI marjI pUrI ho! merI marjI mata suna! maiM kyA kahatA hUM isa para dhyAna mata de terI marjI pUrI ho! kyoMki maiM to jo bhI kahUMgA vaha galata hogA aura tU jo bhI kahegA, vahI ThIka hai| maiM cAhUM yA na cAhUM vahI ho jo terI marjI hai jaba bhI tuma prabhu se prArthanA karate ho aura kahate ho aisA kara de, vaisA kara de-tabhI tumhArI prArthanA vikRta ho gaI, khaMDita ho gaI, prArthanA na rhii| tuma to prabhu ko sujhAva dene lge| tuma to kahane lage maiM tujhase jyAdA samajhadAra, tU yaha kyA kara rahA hai? eka sUphI phakIra huA usake do beTe the-juDavAM beTe, bar3e pyAre beTe the! aura bar3I dera se bur3hApe meM paidA hue the| usakA bar3A moha thA una para / vaha eka dina masjida meM pravacana de kara lauTA ghara AyA to vaha Ate hI se roja pUchatA thA ki Aja beTe kahAM haiM? aksara to ve masjida jAte the, Aja nahIM gae the sunne| usane pUchA patnI se beTe kahAM haiM? usane kahA, Ate hoMge, kahIM khelate hoMge, tuma bhojana
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________________ to kara lo! usane bhojana kara liyaa| bhojana karake usane phira pUchA ki beTe kahA haiM? kyoMki aisA kabhI na huA thA, ve bhojana usake sAtha hI karate the| to usane kahA, isake pahale ki maiM beToM ke saMbaMdha meM kucha kahUM eka bAta tumase pUchatI huuN| agara koI AdamI bIsa sAla pahale amAnata meM kucha mere pAsa rakha gayA thA, do hIre rakha gayA thA, Aja vaha vApisa mAMgane AyA, to maiM use lauTA dUM ki nahIM? phakIra ne kahA, yaha bhI koI pUchane kI bAta hai? yaha bhI tU pUchane yogya socatI hai? lauTA hI dene the, mere se pUchane kI kyA bAta thI? usake hIre use vApisa kara dene the, isameM hamArA kyA lenA-denA hai? tU mujhase pUchane ko kyoM rukI? usane kahA, basa, ThIka ho gyaa| pUchane ko ruka gaI thI, aba Apa A jAeM! vaha kamare meM le gaI, donoM beTe murdA par3e the| pAsa ke eka makAna meM khela rahe the aura chata gira gii| phakIra ne dekhA, bAta ko samajhA, haMsane lgaa| kahA. tUne bhI ThIka kiyaa| ThIka hai, bIsa sAla pahale koI hameM de gayA thA, adRzya, daivayoga, paramAtmA yA jo nAma pasaMda ho-Aja le gayA, hama bIca meM kauna? jaba ye beTe nahIM the, taba bhI hama maje meM the, aba ye beTe nahIM haiM to hama phira vaise ho gae jaise hama pahale the| inake Ane-jAne se kyA bheda par3atA hai! tUne ThIka kiyaa| tUne mujhe ThIka jgaayaa| jo bhI ho rahA hai, vaha mere kAraNa ho rahA hai-isase hI 'maiM' kI bhrAMti paidA hotI hai| jo ho rahA hai, vaha samasta ke kAraNa ho rahA hai, maiM sirpha draSTA-mAtra hUM-aisI samajha pragAr3ha ho jAe, aisI jyoti jale akaMpa, nidhUma, to sAkSI kA janma hotA hai| aSTAvakra ne janaka ko kahA. tU dekha le apane ko ina saba bAtoM para kasa kr| agara ina saba bAtoM para ThIka utara jAtA ho, to tUne jo ghoSaNA kI, vaha parama ghoSaNA hai| agara ina bAtoM para ThIka na utaratA ho, to apanI ghoSaNA vApisa le le| kyoMki jhUThI ghoSaNAeM khataranAka haiN| tU mujhe suna kara vizvAsa mata banA, tU mujhe suna kara zraddhA ko jagA tU satya meM svayaM jaag| merI jAga terI jAga nahIM ho sakatI aura merI rozanI terI rozanI nahIM ho sktii| merI AMkheM mere kAma AeMgI aura mere paira se maiM cluuNgaa| tujhe tere paira cAhie aura terI AMkheM cAhie aura terI rozanI caahie| tU ThIka se pahacAna le tU mujhase prabhAvita to nahIM ho gayA hai? kRSNamUrti niraMtara kahate haiM kisI se prabhAvita mata honaa| ve ThIka kahate haiN| vaha aSTAvakra kA hI sUtra hai| kisI se prabhAvita mata honaa| jAgo, anukaraNa meM mata par3a jaanaa| anukaraNa to sirpha nATaka hai, abhinaya hai; jIvana kA usase kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| yahI maiM tumase bhI kahatA huuN| mujhe suno lekina suna lenA kAphI nahIM hai| sunate-sunate jAgo! jo suno, usako pakar3a kara mata baiTha jaanaa| nahIM to piMjarA hAtha lagegA, pakSI ur3a jAegA yA mara jaaegaa| jo suno, use jaldI khola lenA, guna lenaa| jo suno, use jaldI rUpAMtarita karanA; pacAnA; nahIM to apaca ho jaaegaa| use pacAnA! vaha tumhArA khUna bane, tumhAre khUna meM bahe, tumhArI haDDI bane, tumhArI majjA bane, tumhArA prANa bane-to zraddhA!
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________________ zraddhA kA artha hai : pacAyA huA / vizvAsa kA artha hai : anpcaa| vizvAsa bojha ho jAtA hai, zraddhA mukti lAtI hai! hari oma tatsat!
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________________ vismaya hai dvAra prabhu kA-pravacana--tIsarA dinAMka: 28, sitaMbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| prazna sAra: pahalA prazna: manovaijJAnika vikTara I. phraiMkala ne 'ahA-anubhava' (Aha-Experience) evaM 'zikhara-anubhava (peak-Experience) kI carcA karake manovijJAna ko nayA AyAma diyA hai| kyA Apa kRpA karake ise aSTAvakra evaM janaka ke Azcarya-bodha ke saMdarbha meM hameM samajhAeMge? pahalI bAta. jise phraiMkala ne 'ahA-anubhava' kahA hai, vaha ' ahA 'to hai' anubhava bilakula nhiiN| anubhava kA to artha hotA hai 'ahA' mara gii| ahA kA artha hI hotA hai ki tuma usakA anubhava nahIM banA pA rahe; kucha aisA ghaTA hai, jo tumhAre atIta-jJAna se samajhA nahIM jA sakatA, isIlie to ahA kA bhAva paidA hotA hai, kucha aisA ghaTA hai jo tumhArI atIta- zrRMkhalA se jur3atA nahIM, zrRMkhalA TUTa gaI anahonA ghaTA hai, aparicita ghaTA hai, asaMbhava ghaTA hai; jise na tumane kabhI socA thA, na vicArA thA, na sapanA dekhA thA-aisA ghaTA hai| paramAtmA jaba tumhAre sAmane khar3A hogA, to na to vaha kRSNa kI taraha hogA bAMsurI bajAtA huA aura na jIsasa kI taraha hogA sUlI para laTakA huA aura na rAma kI taraha hogA dhanuSabANa hAtha meM lie hue| agara rAma kI taraha dhanuSa-bANa hAtha meM lie khar3A ho, to tumhAre anubhava se mela khA jaaegaa| tuma kahoge. ThIka hai, prabhu dvAra A ge| ahA paidA nahIM hogA; anubhava bana jAegA tumhArI dhAraNA meM baiTha jaaegaa| thor3e-bahuta cauMkoge, lekina cauMka itanI gaharI na hogI ki tumhAre atIta se tumhAre bhaviSya ko alaga tor3a jaae| ahA kA artha hotA hai aisI cauMka ki jaise bijalI kauMdha gaI aura eka kSaNa meM jo atIta thA vaha miTa gayA, usase tumhArA koI saMbaMdha na rhaa| kucha aisA ghaTA, jisakI tumheM sapane meM bhI bhanaka na thii| asaMbhava ghaTA! ajJeya davAra para khar3A ho gayA! na jisake lie koI dhAraNA thI, na vicAra thA, na siddhAta thA; jise samajhane meM tuma asamartha ho gae bilakula, jisa para tumhArI samajha kA DhAMcA na baiTha sakA; jo tumhArI samajha ke sAre DhAMce tor3a gayA-usI avasthA meM hI ahA kA bhAva paidA hotA hai|
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________________ isalie ahA, pahalI to bAta khayAla rakhanA, anubhava nahIM hai| anubhava kA to artha hotA hai pratyabhijJA ho gaI, rikaeNganIzana ho gayA, tuma pahacAna gae ki are, yaha gulAba kA phUla ! lekina gulAba ke phUla kI pratyabhijJA, pahacAna tabhI ho sakatI hai, jaba atIta meM dekhe gae phUloM jaisA hI ho| agara aisA ho jaisA ki atIta meM kabhI jAnA hI nahIM, to tuma pahacAna na sakoge, tuma Thage khar3e raha jAoge; tumhArA mana ekadama stabdha ho jaaegaa| tumhAre mana kI calatI vicAradhArA ekadama khaMDita ho jaaegii| usa khaMDita vicAradhArA meM, usa nirvicAra - kSaNa meM jo ghaTatA hai, vahI ahA hai, vaha anubhava nahIM hai| anubhava to sabhI mana ke haiN| vaha anubhavAtIta anubhava hai| kahane ko anubhava kaho, anubhava nahIM hai| usa anubhavAtIta avasthA kI tIna zreNiyAM haiN| pahalI : jaise hI kisI vyakti ko anajAna aura aparicita kI pratIti hotI hai, usakA sAnnidhya milatA hai - sabodhi kaho, samAdhi kaho, paramAtmA kaho-jaise hI tumhAre pAsa usa anajAna kI taraMgeM AtI haiM, tuma taraMgAyita hote ho, to jo pahalA bhAva uThatA hai, vaha hotA hai. Aha ! mujhe, aura huA! isa para bharosA nahIM AtA ki mujhe, aura ho sakatA hai! buddha ko huA hogA, kRSNa ko huA hogA krAisTa ko huA hogA- mujhe! pahalI asaMbhAvanA to yaha dikhatI hai ki mujha pApI ko, mujha nA kucha ko, mujha gire hue ko mujhe huA Aha ! to pahalA anubhava to yaha hotA hai ki jaise eka chAtI meM churI cubha gii| tumane kabhI socA hI nahIM thA ki tumheM ho sakatA hai| tumane kabhI socA, paramAtmA tumheM mila sakatA hai? sadA kisI aura ko milA hai| tumane na to itanI yAda kI hai usakI kabhI ki tuma mAna lo ki mujhe milegA na tumane aisA koI puNya - arjana kiyA hai ki mAna lo ki mujhe milegaa| tumhAre pAsa arjita kyA hai? hajAra-hajAra bhUleM kI haiM, hajAra-hajAra pApa kie haiM, hajAra-hajAra nAsamajhiyA kI haiM aura kI haiM aisA hI nahIM, aba bhI jArI haiN| to jaba pahalI daphe paramAtmA utaratA hai to apane para bharosA nahIM aataa| to pahalI to coTa uThatI hai Aha! mujhe! nahIM, nahIM, aisA kaise ho sakatA hai! tuma yaha mAna hI nahIM pAte ki yaha prasAda tuma para bhI barasa sakatA hai| lekina maiM tumase kahatA hUM ki yaha sabhI para barasa sakatA hai| yaha prasAda hai isake pAne ke lie tumheM arjita karane kI jarUrata hI nahIM / yaha kucha aisI cIja nahIM jise tuma mola-tola kara lo, jise tuma kharIda lo-tyAga se, tapazcaryA se| jo tyAga se milatA hai, vaha kucha aura hogA, paramAtmA nahIM / jo tapazcaryA se milatA hai, vaha kucha aura hogA, paramAtmA nhiiN| kyoMki jo tumhAre karane se milatA hai vaha tumase choTA hogA, tumase bar3A nahIM ho sktaa| jo tumhAre kRtya se milatA hai jo tumhArI muTThI meM baMdhA hai, usakA mUlya hI kyA vaha virATa nahIM hogaa| tumhAre kRtya se jo milatA hai, vaha kartA se to bar3A nahIM ho sktaa| kartA to apane kRtya se sadA bar3A hotA hai| tuma eka citra banAte ho, kitanA hI suMdara citra ho, lekina citrakAra se bar3A to nahIM ho sktaa| citrakAra se paidA huA hai, citrakAra bar3A hogaa| tumane eka gIta racA; kitanA hI suMdara ho, kitanA hI
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________________ manamohaka ho, lekina gItakAra se bar3A to nahIM ho sktaa| tumane vINA bajAI, kaisI hI rasa kI dhAra bahe, lekina vINA-vAdaka se to bar3I nahIM ho sakatI, jisase bahatI hai, usase to choTI hI hogii| agara tumhAre kRtya se paramAtmA mile, to tumase choTA hogaa| isalie to logoM ko jo paramAtmA milate haiM, ve bahuta paramAtmA nahIM haiM ve unase choTe haiM; ve unake hI mana ke khela haiM; unakI hI AkAMkSAoM, vAsanAoM ke rUpa haiN| ve sapane kI bhAMti haiM, yathArtha nhiiN| vAstavika paramAtmA to prasAda-rUpa milatA hai| vahAM tumhArA kRtya hotA hI nahIM, na tumhArA puNya hotA hai, na tumhArA dhyAna, na tumhArA tp| vahA kucha bhI nahIM hotA vahAM tuma bhI nahIM hote| jaba tuma miTate ho, taba vaha prasAda barasatA hai| jaba tuma siMhAsana khAlI kara dete ho, taba vaha rAjA AtA to pahalI to coTa lagatI hai? Aha! tuma mAna sakate the ki kisI aura ko milA, usane bar3I tapazcaryA kI thI, janmoM-janmoM taka puNya arjana kiyA thaa| tumheM milA! to pahalA anubhava to hai : Aha! jaba tuma thor3e samhalate ho, jaba tuma samhala kara jo ho rahA hai use dekhate ho; jise ho rahA hai, usakI phikra chor3a dete ho, kyoMki aba to yaha ho hI gayA isa para rukanA kyA; jo ho rahA hai, jaba tumhArI najara usa para jAtI hai to bhAva uThatA hai......ahA! apUrva ho rahA hai, anirvacanIya ho rahA hai! 'ahA' zabda bar3A pyArA hai| yaha kisI bhASA kA zabda nahIM hai| hiMdI meM kaho to ahA hai, aMgrejI meM kaho to ahA hai, cInI meM kaho to ahA hai, jarmana meM kaho to ahA hai| yaha kisI bhASA kA zabda nahIM hai-yaha bhASAoM se pAra hai| jisako bhI hogA... ikahArTa ko ho to usako bhI nikalatA hai ahA, aura rijhAI ko ho to usako bhI nikalatA hai ahA, aura kabIra ko ho to usako bhii| sArI duniyA meM jahAM bhI kisI ne paramAtmA kA anubhava kiyA hai, vahIM ahA kA udaghoSa huA hai| lekina yaha bhI dUsarI sIr3hI hai| pahale tuma apane para cauMkate ho ki mujhe huA phira tuma isa para cauMkate ho ki paramAtmA huA phira ina donoM ke pAra eka tIsarA bodha hai, jise hama kaheM : aho! vahI janaka ko ho rahA hai| tIsarA bodha hai; phira na to yaha savAla hai ki mujhe huA na yaha savAla hai ki paramAtmA huaa| phira sabjekTa aura AbjekTa, maiM aura tU ke pAra ho gaI baat| huA yahI Azcarya hai, hotA hai, yahI Azcarya hai| taratUliyana ne kahA hai ki paramAtmA asaMbhava hai, ho nahIM sakatA, lekina hotA hai| taba tIsarI bAta uThatI hai. aho! __ aisA samajho, Aha-hRdaya dhakka se raha gayA; ThiThaka kara raha gayA; avAka! eka pUrNa virAma A gyaa| daur3e cale jAte the, na mAlUma kahAM-kahAM daur3e cale jAte the; paira ThiThaka gae; daur3a baMda ho gaI, saba ruka gayA, zvAsa taka Thahara gii| Aha..! jo zvAsa Aha meM bAhara gaI, vaha bhItara nahIM lautttii| thor3I dera saba zUnya ho gyaa| samhale-zvAsa bhItara vApisa lauttii| yaha jo zvAsa kA bhItara lauTanA hai, yaha bar3A nayA anubhava hai| kyoMki tuma to miTa gae Aha meM, aba zvAsa bhItara lauTatI hai eka zUnya-gRha meM, maMdira meN| aura aba yaha zvAsa lauTatI hai-vaha jo
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________________ bAhara khar3A hai paramAtmA, usakI sugaMdha se bharI huI usakI gaMdha se AMdolita, usakI zItalatA, usake prakAza kI kiraNoM meM nahAI huI usake prema meM pagI! jaise hI yaha zvAsa bhItara jAtI hai, to ahA! pahale tuma cauMka kara raha gae the, zvAsa bAhara kI bAhara raha gaI thI, aba zvAsa bhItara AtI hai to zvAsa ke bahAne paramAtmA bhItara AtA hai| tumhArA ro-roAM khila jAtA hai, kalI-kalI phUla bana jAtI hai, hajAra-hajAra kamala khila jAte haiM tumhAre caitanya kI jhIla pr| ahA! / aura taba donoM miTa jAte hai-na to tuma ho, na paramAtmA hai, donoM eka ho gae, sImAeM kho giiN| mahAmilana hotA hai! jahAM na maiM maiM hUM, na tU tU hai taba aho! Aha hai : avAka ho jaanaa| ahA hai : avaak+aashcry| aho hai : Azcarya+avAka kRjnytaa|| to Aha to ghaTa sakatI hai nAstika ko bhii| Aha to ghaTa sakatI hai vaijJAnika ko bhii| jaba vaijJAnika bhI koI naI khoja kara letA hai, to dhakka raha jAtA hai, bharosA nahIM AtA, Aha nikala jAtI hai| Aha to ghaTa sakatI hai gaNitajJa ko bhii| koI savAla jaba barasoM taka ulajhAe rahA ho, jaba hala hotA hai, to varSoM taka ulajhAe rahane ke kAraNa itanA tanAva paidA ho jAtA hai aura jaba hala hotA hai to sArA tanAva gira jAtA hai, bar3I zAMti milatI hai| isase dharma kA abhI koI saMbaMdha nahIM hai| Aha to ghaTa sakatI hai gaira- dhArmika ko bhii| jaba hilerI evaresTa para pahuMcA to Aha nikala gii| isase kucha Izvara kA lenA-denA nahIM hai| koI kabhI nahIM pahuMca pAyA thA vahAM aisI anahonI ghaTanA ghaTI thii| isase hilerI kA IzvaravAdI honA jarUrI nahIM hai| jaba pahalI daphe AdamI cAMda para calA hogA to Aha nikala gaI hogI, bharosA na AyA hogA ki maiM cala rahA hUM cAMda para sadiyoM sadiyoM se AdamI ne sapanA dekhA.. hara baccA cAMda ko pakar3ane ke lie hAtha uThAe paidA hotA hai| 'pahalI daphA maiM, pahuMca gayA hUM cAMda para lekina isase bhI Izvara kA koI lenA-denA nahIM hai| jaba ahA paidA hotI hai, to ahA paidA ho sakatI hai kavi ko, citrakAra ko, mUrtikAra ko| Aha to paidA ho sakatI hai-vaijJAnika ko, gaNitajJa ko, tarkazAstrI ko| ahA paidA hotI hai-eka kadama aura. avAka+Azcarya-kavi ko, manISI ko, saMgItajJa ko| jaba saMgItajJa kisI aisI dhuna ko uThA letA hai, jise kabhI nahIM uThA pAyA thA, jaba vaha dhuna bajane lagatI hai, jaba vaha dhuna vAstavika ho jAtI hai, saghana hone lagatI hai, jaba dhuna cAroM tarapha barasane lagatI hai! yA kavi jaba koI gIta gunagunA letA hai, jise gunagunAne ko jIvana bhara tar3apA thA, zabda nahIM milate the, bhAva nahIM baMdhate the, jaba paMktiyAM baiTha jAtI haiM, jaba laya aura chaMda pUre ho jAte haiN...| ahA thor3I rahasyamaya hai| Aha bahuta vyavahArika hai| aura aho dhArmika hai| vaha ghaTatI hai kevala rahasyavAdI samAdhistha vyakti ko| vaha saMbodhi meM ghaTatI hai| ye jo janaka ke vacana haiM, ye aho ke vacana haiN| samhAle nahIM samhala rahI hai baat| hara vacana meM kahe jAte haiM. aho! aho!! isameM bar3I kRtajJatA kA bhAva hai, bar3A gahana dhanyavAda hai| pahalI daphA AsthA kA janma huA hai, pahalI daphe aMdhere meM AsthA kI kiraNa utarI hai| aba taka mAnA thA, socA thA, vicArA
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________________ thA ki paramAtmA hai-aba paramAtmA bhItara A gayA hai, aba pratyakSa hai! rAmakRSNa se vivekAnaMda ne pUchA ki mujhe paramAtmA ko dikhAeMge? mujhe paramAtmA ko siddha karake batAeMge? maiM paramAtmA kI khoja meM huuN| maiM tarka karane ko taiyAra huuN| rAmakRSNa sunate rhe| aura rAmakRSNa ne kahA : tU abhI dekhane ko rAjI hai ki thor3I dera ThaharegA? abhI cAhie? thor3e vivekAnaMda cauNke| kyoMki auroM se bhI pUchA thA ve pUchate hI phirate the| baMgAla meM jo bhI manISI the, unake pAsa jAte the ki Izvara hai? to koI siddha karatA thA, pramANa detA thA-veda se, upaniSada se| aura yahAM eka AdamI hai apar3ha, vaha kaha rahA hai : abhI yA thor3I dera rukegA? jaise ki ghara meM rakhA ho, jaise ki khIse meM par3A ho paramAtmA! abhI! yaha socA hI nahIM thA vivekAnaMda ne ki koI aisA bhI pUchane vAlA kabhI milegA ki abhii| aura isake pahale ki vaha kucha kaheM, rAmakRSNa khar3e ho ge| isake pahale ki vivekAnaMda uttara dete, unhoMne apanA paira vivekAnaMda kI chAtI se lagA diyA, aura vivekAnaMda ke muMha se jora kI cIkha nikalI : Aha! aura ve gira par3e aura koI ghaMTe bhara behoza rhe| jaba vaha hoza meM Ae to AMkheM AsuroM se bharI thIM, 'Aha' 'ahA' ho gaI thii| jaba unhoMne rAmakRSNa kI tarapha dekhA to 'aho' meM rUpAMtaraNa huA' ahA' kaa| ve gadagada ho ge| unhoMne paira pakar3a lie rAmakRSNa ke aura kahA : aba mujhe kabhI chor3anA mata! maiM nAsamajha hUM! maiM kabhI choDUM bhI, bhAga bhI, lekina mujhe tuma kabhI mata chor3anA! yaha huA kyA? vivekAnaMda pUchane lage : mujhe kisa loka meM le gae? saba sImAeM kho gaIM, maiM kho gayA, apUrva zAMti aura AnaMda kI jhalaka milI! to paramAtmA hai! vicAra ThiThaka jaae-aah| bhAva ThiThaka jaae-ahaa| tumhArI samagra AtmA ThiThaka jaae-aho| phraiMkala ne mahatvapUrNa kAma kiyA hai ki manovijJAna meM usane ahA anubhava kI bAta zurU kii| lekina phraiMkala koI rahasyavAdI saMta nhiiN| use saMbodhi kA yA dhyAna kA koI patA nhiiN| isalie vaha 'ahA' taka hI jA pAyA, ' aho' kI bAta nahIM kara pAyA hai| aura usakI 'ahA' bhI bahuta kucha 'Aha' se milatI-julatI hai, kyoMki usake svayaM ke koI anubhava nahIM haiN| yaha tarka -saraNI se, vicAra kI prakriyA se usane socA hai ki aisA bhI anubhava hotA hai| ikahArTa haiM, taratUliyana haiM, kabIra haiM, mIrA haiM inake saMbaMdha meM socA hai| soca-soca kara usane yaha siddhAta nirdhArita kiyaa| lekina phira bhI siddhAta mUlyavAna hai, kama se kama kisI ne tarka se bhare hae khopar3iyoM meM kucha to DAlA ki isake pAra bhI kucha ho sakatA hai! lekina phraiMkala kI bAta prAthamika hai| use khIMca kara ' aho' taka le jAne kI jarUrata hai, tabhI usameM divya AyAma praviSTa hotA hai| dUsarA prazna :
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________________ hama manuSyoM ne kisa mahaMta AkAMkSA ke vaza apanI anupama Azcaryabodha kSamatA kA tyAga kara diyA hai? kRpA karake ise smjhaaeN| pratyeka baccA Azcarya kI kSamatA se bharA huA paidA hotA hai| pratyeka baccA kutUhala aura jijJAsA meM jItA hai| aura pratyeka baccA choTI -choTI cIjoM se aisA aladita hotA hai ki hameM bharosA nahIM AtA hai| nadI ke kinAre, ki sAgara ke kinAre sIpiyA bIna letA hai, zaMkha bIna letA hai-aura socatA hai hIre-javAharAta bIna rahA hai! kaMkar3a -patthara lAla-pIle -hare ikaTThe kara letA hai| mAM-bApa samajhAte haiM ki pheMka, kahAM bojha le jAegA? vaha chipA letA hai apane khIsoM meN| rAta mAM usake bistara meM se patthara nikAlatI hai, kyoMki saba khIse se patthara bikhara jAte haiN| vaha chipA-chipA kara le AtA hai| hameM dikhAI par3ate haiM patthara, use dikhAI par3ate haiM hiire| abhI usakI Azcarya kI kSamatA marI nhiiN| abhI usake prANa pulakita haiN| abhI paramAtmA ke ghara se nayA-nayA, tAjA-tAjA AyA hai| abhI AMkheM raMgoM ko dekha pAtI haiN| abhI AMkheM dhUmila nahIM ho gaIM, dhuMdhalI nahIM ho giiN| abhI kAna svaroM ko suna pAte haiN| abhI hAtha sparza karane se mara nahIM gae haiM, abhI jIvaMta cetanA hai, abhI saMvedanazIlatA hai| isalie baccA choTI-choTI cIjoM meM kilakArI mAratA hai| tumane choTe bacce ko dekhA?... akAraNa!... itanI choTI bAta meM ki tumheM hI bharosA nahIM AtA ki koI itanI choTI bAta meM itanA prasanna kaise ho sakatA hai! lekina dhIre-dhIre vaha kSamatA marane lagatI hai; hama use mArate haiM, isalie marane lagatI hai| bar3e -ke bacce kI jijJAsA meM rasa nahIM lete| bar3e-bUr3hoM ke lie ar3acana hai| bacce kI jijJAsA unheM eka upadrava hai, eka utpAta hai| pUche hI calA jAtA hai| unake pAsa uttara bhI nahIM haiN| isalie bAra-bAra usakA pUchanA unheM becaina bhI karatA hai, kyoMki uttara bhI unake pAsa nahIM haiN| yA jo uttara unake pAsa haiM, unheM khuda bhI patA hai, ve thothe haiN| aura baccoM ko dhokhA denA muzkila hai| baccA pUchatA hai : yaha pRthvI kisane banAI hai? aura tuma kaho : paramAtmA ne| to vaha pUchatA hai : paramAtmA ko kisane banAyA? tuma DATate-DapaTate ho| DAMTane-DapaTane se tuma sirpha itanA kaha rahe ho ki tumhArA uttara thothA hai| bacce ne tumhArA ajJAna dikhA diyaa| usane kaha diyA: pitAjI, kisako dhokhA de rahe ho? duniyA bhagavAna ne banAI! vaha pUchatA hai. bhagavAna ko kisane banAyA? tuma kahate ho : cupa raha nAsamajha, jaba bar3A hogA to jAna legaa| tumane bar3e ho kara jAnA? lekina sirpha tuma TAla rahe ho| tuma chuTakArA kara rahe ho| tuma kaha rahe ho : mujhe mata satA, mujhe khuda hI patA nhiiN| lekina itanA kahane kI tumharI himmata nahIM ki mujhe patA nahIM hai| jaba bacce ne pUchA, pRthvI kisane banAI, saMsAra kisane banAyA kAza, tuma ImAnadAra
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________________ hote aura kahate ki 'maiM bhI khoja rahA hUM! patA calegA to maiM tujhe khuuNgaa| tujhe kabhI patA cala jAe to mujhe kaha denaa| magara mujhe patA nahIM hai| 'to Azcarya kI kSamatA maratI nhiiN| skUla jAtA baccA aura zikSakoM se pUchatA, saMsAra kisane banAyA aura ve kahate ki 'hameM patA nahIM, hama khojate haiM, lekina abhI taka kucha patA nahIM calA, bar3A rahasya hai| tuma bhI khojnaa| ' nahIM, lekina muzkila hai, bApa kA ahaMkAra hai ki bApa, aura na jAne! bApa yaha bAta mAna hI nahIM sktaa| bApa kyA ho gayA, saba bAtoM kA jAnakAra ho jAnA cAhie! koI strI mAM kyA bana gaI, hara bAta kI jAnakAra ho gaI! koI AdamI prAimarI skUla meM par3hAne kyA lagA, sau rupae kI naukarI kyA mila gaI-vaha hara cIja kA jAnakAra ho gayA! to zikSaka kA ahaMkAra hai, bApa kA ahaMkAra hai, mAM kA ahaMkAra hai, bar3e bhAiyoM kA, parivAra ke logoM kA, samAja kA ahaMkAra hai-aura choTA-sA baccA itane ahaMkAroM meM tuma socate ho baca sakegA? abodha, usakA nAjuka Azcarya-tumhAre ahaMkAroM meM dabegA, pisa jAegA, mara jaaegaa| tuma saba use pIsa ddaaloge| jahAM jAegA, vahIM DAMTa-DapaTa khaaegaa| jahAM jijJAsA uThAegA, vahIM use aisA anubhava hogA ki kucha galatI kI, kyoMki jisase bhI jijJAsA karo vahI kucha aise bhAva se letA hai jaise koI bhUla ho rhii| jisase prazna pUcho vahI nArAja ho jAtA hai, yA aisA uttara detA hai jisameM koI uttara nahIM hai| agara phira uttara pUcho to kahatA hai, nAsamajhI kI bAta hai| choTe-moTe logoM kI bAta chor3a do, jinako tuma bar3e-bar3e jJAnI kahate ho unakI bhI yahI hAlata hai| janaka ne eka daphA bar3e zAstrArtha kA Ayojana krvaayaa| usa samaya ke bar3e jJAnI yAjJavallava bhI usameM zAstrArtha meM ge| janaka ne hajAra gaUeM khar3I rakhI thIM mahala ke dvAra para ki jo jIta jAe, le jaae| yAjJavalla mahApaMDita the| unhoMne apane ziSyoM ko kahA ki gaUeM dhUpa meM khar3I haiM, tuma inako le jAo, vivAda maiM pIche kara luuNgaa| itanA bharosA rahA hogA apane vivAda kI kSamatA pr| bar3A ahaMkArI vyaktitva rahA hogaa| aura sacamuca, ve paMDita the, unhoMne vivAda meM sabhI ko harA diyaa| lekina ve jamAne bhI adabhuta the! eka strI khar3I ho gaI vivAda karane ko| gArgI usakA nAma thaa| usane yAjJavallava ko prazna pUche, usane muzkila meM DAla diyaa| strI, puruSoM se jyAdA baccoM ke karIba hai| isalie to strI umra bhI pA jAtI hai to bhI usake cehare para eka bholApana aura bacakAnApana hotA hai; vahI to usakA sauMdarya hai| strI baccoM ke karIba hai, kyoMki abhI bhI ro sakatI hai, abhI bhI haMsa sakatI hai| puruSa bilakula sUkha gae hote haiN| to aura to saba paMDita the, una sUkhe paMDito ko yAjJavallava ne harA diyA, eka rasabharI strI khar3I ho gii| aura usane kahA ki suno, mujhase bhI vivAda kro| ve dina acche the, taba taka striyAM vivAda se varjita na kI gaI thiiN| yAjJavallava ke bAda hI striyoM ko vivAda se varjita kara diyA gayA aura kahA gayA ki ve veda na par3ha skeNgii| yaha mahaMta anAcAra huaa| lekina isake pIche kAraNa thA. gArgI!
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________________ gArgI ne yAjJavallava ko pasIne-pasIne kara diyaa| koI bhI baccA kara detA, isameM gArgI kI koI khUbI na thii| khUbI itanI hI thI ki abhI vaha Azcarya- bhAva se bharI thI / vaha pUchane lagI prazna / usane sIdhA-sA prazna puuchaa| paMDito ne to bar3e jaTila prazna pUche the, unake uttara bhI yAjJavalla ne de die the| jaTila prazna kA uttara denA sadA AsAna hai| sarala prazna kA uttara denA sadA kaThina hai| kyoMki prazna itanA sarala hotA hai ki usameM uttara kI guMjAiza nahIM hotii| jaba prazna bahuta kaThina ho to usameM bahuta guMjAiza hotI hai isa kone, usa kone, hajAra rAste hote haiN| jaba prazna bilakula sIdhA-sarala ho; jaise koI pUcha le ki pIlA raMga yAnI kyA? tuma kyA karoge? prazna bilkula sIdhA sarala hai| tuma kahoge : pIlA raMga yAnI pIlA rNg| vaha kahe : yaha bhI koI uttara huA? pIlA raMga yAnI kyA? samajhAo! aba pIlA raMga itanI sarala bAta hai, isako samajhAne kA upAya nahIM hai, isakI paribhASA bhI nahIM banA skte| paribhASA bhI punarukti hogii| agara tuma kaho pIlA raMga pIlA raMga, to yaha to punarukti huii| yaha koI paribhASA huI? yaha to tumane vahI bAta phira doharA dI, bAta to vahIM kI vahIM rahI, prazna a hI rhaa| gArgI ne koI bar3e kaThina prazna nahIM pUche; sIdhI-sAdI strI rahI hogii| vahIM muzkila khar3I ho gii| agara vaha bhI ulajhI strI hotI to yAjJavallava ne use harA diyA hotaa| vaha pUchane lagI. mujhe to choTe choTe prazna pUchane haiN| yaha pRthvI ko kisane samhAlA huA hai? yAjJavalla tabhI DarA hogA ki yaha jhaMjhaTa kI bAta hai, yaha koI zAstrIya prazna nahIM hai| to yAjJavalla ne jo paurANika uttara thA diyA ki kachue ne samhAlA huA hai kachue ke Upara pRthvI TikI hai| yaha uttara bacakAnA hai| yaha uttara bilakula jhUThA hai| gArgI pUchane lagI? aura kachuA kisa para TikA hai? yaha bacce kA prazna hai| isalie maiM kahatA hUM gArgI ne ulajhana khar3I kara dI kyoMki vaha sIdhI-sAdI, Azcarya se bharI huI strI rahI hogii| kachuA kisa para khar3A hai? yAjJavalla ko ghabarAhaTa to bar3hane lagI hogI, kyoMki yaha to muzkila mAmalA hai| yaha to aba pUchatI hI calI jaaegii| tuma batAo, hAthI para khar3A hai| to hAthI kisa para khar3A hai? tuma kahAM taka jAoge? Akhira meM yaha to hala nahIM hone vaalaa| to usane socA ki ise cupa hI kara denA ucita hai, jaisA ki sabhI paMDita, sabhI zikSaka, sabhI mAM-bApa bajAya uttara dene ke cupa karane meM utsuka haiN| kisI taraha muMha baMda kara do to usane kahA. saba paramAtmA para khar3A huA hai, sabhI ko usane samhAlA huA hai| gArgI ne kahA : basa aba eka prazna aura pUchanA hai, paramAtmA ko kisane samhAlA hai? isalie maiM kahatA hUM yaha bilakula baccoM jaisA prazna thA - sIdhA - srl| basa yAjJavalla krodha meM A gyaa| usane kahA, yaha atiprazna hai gArgI! agara Age pUchA to sira dhar3a se girA diyA jAegA ! yaha bhI koI uttara huA? magara yahI uttara saba bApa dete rahe haiM ki agara jyAdA pUchA to piTAI ho jAegI! sira dhar3a se alaga kara diyA jAegA! sira gira jAegA gArgI, agara aura tUne pUchA Age! yaha atiprazna hai|
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________________ atiprazna kA kyA matalaba hotA hai ? koI prazna atiprazna ho sakatA hai? yA to sabhI prazna atiprazna haiM to pUcho hI mata, phira uttara hI mata do| yA phira kisI prazna ko atiprazna kahane kA to itanA hI artha huA ki mujhe isakA uttara mAlUma nahIM yaha mata puucho| tumheM uttara mAlUma nahIM hai, isalie prazna ati ho gayA! isase tuma nArAja ho gae! aura vaha AkhirI dina thA bhArata ke itihAsa meM, usake bAda phira striyoM ko veda par3hane kI manAhI kara dI gaI, zAstra par3hane kI manAhI kara dI gaI, kyoMki striyAM khataranAka thiiN| ve choTe baccoM kI taraha thiiN| ve jhaMjhaTeM khar3I karane lagIM paMDito ko| bhArata meM eka aMdherI rAta zurU huI striyoM ke lie| unase sAre soca-vicAra ke upAya chIna lie ge| yahI hamane baccoM ke sAtha kiyA hai| to baccA kaba taka apane Azcarya ke bhAva ko bacA kara rakhe? dera- abera samajha jAtA hai ki koI mere praznoM meM utsuka nahIM hai, koI mere Azcarya kA sAthI nahIM hai; aura jahAM-jahAM maiM Azcarya bhAva pragaTa karatA hUM jahAM-jahAM maiM utsukatA letA hUM hara AdamI aisA bhAva prakaTa karatA hai ki maiM koI pApa kara rahA huuN| baccA ina izAroM ko samajha jAtA hai| vaha apane Azcarya ko pIne lagatA hai, rokane lagatA hai, dabAne lagatA hai| jisa dina baccA apane Azcarya ko dabAtA hai, usI dina bacapana kI mauta ho jAtI hai| usa dina ke bAda vaha bUr3hA honA zurU ho jAtA hai| usa dina ke bAda phira jIvana meM vikAsa nahIM hotA, sirpha mRtyu ghaTatI hai| pUchA hai ki 'kisa mahaMta AkAMkSA ke vaza hama apanI anupama Azcaryabodha-kSamatA kA tyAga kara dete haiM? mahaMta AkAMkSA hai : loga svIkAra kareM! baccA cAhatA hai. bApa svIkAra kare, mAM svIkAra kre| kyoMki baccA una para nirbhara hai| vaha cAhatA hai ki mAM prema kare, bApa prema kare-to aisA koI kAma na karUM, jisase bApa nArAja ho jAtA hai yA bApa ko becainI hotI hai, anyathA prema ruka jaaegaa| aisI koI bAta na pUcha jisase mAM nArAja hotI hai| aisI koI bAta na pUchaM jisase zikSaka nArAja hotA hai| dhIre-dhIre prema pAUM, svIkAra pAUM, dUsare mere jIvana meM sahayogI baneM-isa AdhAra para Azcarya kI mRtyu ho jAtI hai| baccA Azcarya ko chor3a detA hai, ahaMkAra ko pakar3a letA hai| yaha saba ahaMkAra kI AkAMkSA hai ki logoM meM sammAna mile, apamAna na mile, sabhI loga mujhe svIkAra kareM; saba loga kaheM kitanA acchA, kitanA zAMta, kitanA saumya baccA hai! pUchane vAlA upadravI mAlUma par3atA hai| sImA se jyAdA pUchane vAlA vidrohI mAlUma par3ane lagatA hai| agara hara cIja para pUchatAcha karate cale jAo, to bar3I ar3acana ho jAtI hai| maiM choTA thA to mere ghara ke loga mujhe kisI sabhA ityAdi meM nahIM jAne dete the, ki tumhAre pIche hamArA taka nAma kharAba hotA hai; kyoMki maiM ruka hI nahIM sakatA thaa| koI svAmI jI bola rahe haiM, maiM khar3A ho jAUMgA bIca meM aura sAre loga nArAjagI se dekheMge ki yaha baccA A gayA gar3abar3a! maiM binA pUche raha hI nahIM sakatA thaa| aura aisA uttara maiMne kabhI nahIM pAyA, jisake Age aura prazna karane kI saMbhAvanA na ho| to svAbhAvika thA ki svAmI loga nArAja hoN| kaoNleja se mujhe nikAla diyA gayA,
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________________ kyoMki mere zikSaka ne kahA ki hama naukarI chor3a deMge agara tuma isa klAsa meM / yA to tuma chor3a do yA hama chor3a deN| philaoNsaphI par3hane kaoNleja gayA thA aura philaoNsaphI par3hAne vAlA prophesara kahatA hai ki tuma agara prazna pUchoge to hama naukarI chor3a deNge| to hada ho gaI! to kyA khAka philaoNsaphI paDhAoge? darzana - zAstra par3hAne baiThe ho, prazna pUchane nahIM dete! unakI kaThinAI bhI maiM samajhatA hUM - aba to aura acchI taraha samajhatA hUM unakI kaThinAI kyoMki par3hanA-likhanA ho hI nahIM sakatA thaa| mere pUchane kA aMta nahIM thA aura unake pAsa itanI himmata thI ki ve kisI prazna para kaha deM ki mujhe isakA uttara nahIM mAlUma - vaha ar3acana thii| vaha kucha na kucha uttara dete aura maiM unake uttara meM se phira bhUla nikAla letA / aisA huA ki ATha mahIne taka pahale pATha se hama Age bar3he hI nhiiN| to unakI ghabar3AhaTa bhI maiM samajhatA hUM magara eka choTI-sI bAta se hala ho jAtA; ve kaha dete, mujhe mAlUma nahIM - bAta khatma ho jaatii| maiM unase yahI kahatA ki Apa itanA kaha do ki mujhe mAlUma nahIM, phira maiM Apako parezAna nahIM kruuNgaa| phira bAta khatma ho gii| agara Apa kahate ho mujhe mAlUma hai to yaha vivAda calegA, cAhe jiMdagI merI kharAba ho jAe aura ApakI kharAba ho jaae| ATha mahIne bIta gae to unako lagA, yaha to aba muzkila mAmalA hai, yaha parIkSA kA vakta Ane lagA, auroM kA kyA hogA? dhIre-dhIre yaha hAlata ho gaI ki aura vidyArthiyoM ne to AnA hI baMda kara diyA klAsa meM ki sAra hI kyA, ye do AdamI lar3ate haiM, Age to bAta bar3hatI hI nahIM! bar3ha sakatI bhI nhiiN| kyoMki aisA koI bhI uttara nahIM hai jisameM prazna na pUche jA skeN| hara uttara nae prazna paidA kara jAtA hai| hI, agara unhoMne jarA bhI vinamratA dikhAI hotI, bAta hala ho gaI hotii| maiMne unase bAra-bAra kahA ki Apa eka daphe kaha do ki mujhe isakA uttara nahIM mAlUma, bAta khatma ho gaI; phira aziSTatA hai Apase puuchnaa| lekina Apa kahate ho mAlUma hai, to majabUrI hai, phira mujhe pUchanA hI pdd'egaa| unhoMne to istIphA de diyA, ve tIna dina chuTTI le kara ghara baiTha ge| unhoMne kahA, maiM to AUMgA hI taba jaba yaha vidyArthI vahA nahIM rahegA ! Azcarya ko tuma bacane nahIM dete| aba yaha svAbhAvika thA, kyoMki merI parIkSA ke patra unhIM ke hAtha meM the| yaha to taya hI thA ki maiM phela hone vAlA huuN| isameM to koI zaka -subahA nahIM thA / unako bhI lagatA thA ki dhIre-dhIre mujhe samajha A jAegI ki parIkSA karIba A rahI hai, to aba mujhe cupa ho jAnA caahie| maiMne unako kahA, parIkSA vagairaha kI mujhe ciMtA nahIM hai| yaha prazna agara hala ho gayA to saba hala ho gyaa| agara hama sammAna cAhate haiM to svabhAvata: hameM rAjI honA hogA- loga jo kahate haiM vahI mAna lene ko rAjI ho jAnA hogaa| to tumane pUchA hai : 'kisa kAraNa se, kisa mahaMta AkAMkSA se Azcarya mara jAtA hai?'
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________________ ahaMkAra kI AkAMkSA se Azcarya mara jAtA hai| saphala honA hai to Azcarya se kAma nahIM clegaa| Azcarya se bhare hue loga asaphala hoMge hii| ve kahIM bhI saphala nahIM ho sakate, kyoMki saphala hone ke lie dUsaroM kA sAtha jarUrI hai| saphala hone ke lie sammAna pAnA jarUrI hai| saphala hone ke lie ... dUsaroM ke binA saphalatA kA upAya kahAM hai? agara tuma asaphala hone ko rAjI ho to phira tumhAre Azcarya ko koI bhI mAra nahIM sktaa| lekina yaha bar3A kaThina hai| asaphala hone ko kauna rAjI hogA! agara tuma nA kucha hone ko rAjI ho to tumhArA Azcarya koI bhI mAra nahIM sktaa| lekina ahaMkAra kI svAbhAvika AkAMkSA hotI hai : sarTiphikeTa hoM, puraskAra mileM, zikSaka sammAna kareM; mAM-bApa sammAna kareM; gAMva, nagara, samAja sammAna kare, loga kaheM ki dekho, kaisA suputra huA lekina taba Azcarya mregaa| tumhAre bhItara kA kAvya mara jaaegaa| tumhAre bhItara kA kutUhala mara jaaegaa| tumhAre bhItara kI vaha jo taraMgAyita, rahasya anubhava karane kI kSamatA hai, vaha jar3a ho jAegI! tuma patharIle ho jaaoge| tumhAre jIvana kI rasadhAra sUkha jaaegii| tuma eka marusthala ho jaaoge| saphala ho jAoge lekina saphala hone meM jIvana gaMvA doge; marane ke pahale mara jAoge / maiM tumase kahatA hUM. asaphala rahanA, koI phikra nahIM; Azcarya ko mata marane denA ! kyoMki Azcarya paramAtmA taka pahuMcane kA dvAra hai| bharo apane ko Azcarya se jitanA virATa tumhArA Azcarya ho, jitanI gahana tumhArI jijJAsA ho, utanI hI bar3I saMbhAvanA hai tumhAre bhItara virATa ke utarane kii| pUchoge, pukAroge, khojoge to milegA / jIsasa ne kahA hai : khaTakhaTAo, to dvAra khuleMge! pUcho, to uttara milegaa| mAMgo, to bhara die jAoge ! lekina agara tumhAre bhItara saMvedanazIlatA hI nahIM, tuma pUchate hI nahIM, tuma khojate hI nahIM, tuma yAtrA para jAte hI nahIM, tuma baiThe ho gobara - gaNeza kI trh..| hAlAMki saba tumhArI bar3I prazaMsA karate haiM ki dekho, gaNezajI kitane acche mAlUma hote haiN| aksara aisA hotA hai ki jitanA gobara - gaNeza baccA ho, mAM-bApa usakI utanI hI prazaMsA karate haiN| baiThA rahe miTTI ke lauMde jaisA, to kahate haiM dekho gaNezajI kaise pyAre! magara yaha to mara gayA baccA, paidA hone ke pahale mara gyaa| agara baccA upadravI hai upadravI kA matalaba hI yaha hotA hai ki mAM-bApa kI dhAraNAoM ko tor3atA hai| upadravI kA artha hI hotA hai ki aise prazna uThAtA hai jinake uttara mAM - bApa ke pAsa nahIM; aisI jIvana-zailI sIkhatA hai, jisakI svIkAra kI kSamatA aura himmata mAM-bApa meM nhiiN| agara mAM-bApa Astika haiM to baccA aise prazna uThAtA hai jinase nAstikatA kI gaMdha AtI hai| agara mAM-bApa paraMparAvAdI haiM to baccA aisI bAteM uThAtA hai, jinase lIka TUTatI, paraMparA TUTatI / baccA lakIra kA phakIra nahIM hai| to sArA samAja, itanA bar3A samAja, rAjya, pulisa, adAlateM saba Azcarya kI hatyA karane ko baiThe haiN| jaba tumhArA Azcarya mara gayA taba tuma yaMtravata ho gae, phira tuma yogya ho gae, kAma ke ho
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________________ gae kuzala ho ge| phira tuma pUchoge nahIM tuma prazna nahIM uThAoge; tuma cupacApa jo kahA jAegA, kroge| dekhA, miliTrI meM yahI karate haiM ve! miliTrI meM ghaMToM kavAyada karavAte rahate haiN| kahate haiM. bAeM ghuma, dAeM ghama! koI pUche ki tIna-tIna cAra-cAra ghaMTe, bAeM-dAeM ghUma kyoM karavA rahe ho? usake pIche bar3A manovaijJAnika kAraNa hai| ve vyakti ke bhItara vyaktitva ko mAranA cAhate haiN| ve kahate haiM : jaba hama kaheM bAeM ghUma to tuma bAeM ghuumo| tumhAre bhItara aisA prazna nahIM uThanA cAhie. kyoM? kisI sAdhAraNa AdamI se sar3aka para khar3e ho kara kaho ki bAeM ghUma to vaha kahegA : kyoM? svAbhAvika hai, kisalie bAeM ghUmeM? aba koI kAraNa ho to bAeM ghUmeM, lekina miliTrI meM agara tuma kaho ki kisalie bAeM ghUmeM, kyA kAraNa hai-to tuma galata bAta pUcha rahe ho| kAraNa pUchane kA savAla nahIM-AjJA mAnanA hai| tumhAre mastiSka ko isa taraha se DhAlanA hai ki tumase jo kahA jAe, tuma binA soce kara sako yahI kuzalatA hai; ephiisieNsii| kyoMki socane meM to samaya lagatA hai| tumase kahA, bAeM ghUmo; tuma socane lage ki ghUmeM ki na ghUmeM ki phAyadA kyA ki matalaba kyA, aura phira dAeM ghUmanA par3egA aura phira yahIM AnA par3egA, to thor3I dera meM ghUma kara loga yahIM A jAeMge, hama yahIM khar3e raheM, sAra kyA hai to tuma sainika nahIM bana skte| sainika banane kA artha hI yahI hai ki tumhAre bhItara vicAra kI koI bhI Urmi na raha jAe, vicAra kI koI taraMga na raha jAe; tuma bilakula jar3avata ho jAo; jaba kahA bAeM ghUma, to tuma aise yaMtravata ghUma jAo ki tuma cAho bhI apane ko rokanA to na roka sko| viliyama jemsa ne ullekha kiyA hai ki pahale mahAyuddha ke vakta vaha eka hoTala meM baiThA huA hai| apane mitroM se bAta kara rahA hai| tabhI bAhara se eka yuddha se riTAyara sainika aMDoM kI eka TokarI lie sira para jA rahA hai| usane majAka meM, sirpha yaha dikhAne ke lie ki AdamI kaisA yAMtrika ho jA sakatA hai, hoTala meM jora se kahA. aTeMzana! vaha jo sainika bAhara jA rahA thA aMDe kI TokarI lie, vaha aTeMzana meM khar3A ho gyaa| usako naukarI chor3e bhI dasa sAla ho gae haiM! ve sAre aMDe sar3aka para gira kara, bikhara kara TUTa ge| vaha bar3A nArAja huaa| usane kahA : yaha kisa nAsamajha ne aTeMzana kahA? viliyama jemsa ne kahA ki tumheM matalaba? hama aTeMzana kahane ke hakadAra haiM, tuma mata hoo aTeMzana! usane kahA. yaha bhI ho sakatA hai? tIsa sAla taka, aTeMzana yAnI aTeMzana-aba to vaha khUna meM samA gayA hai| aisI majAka karanI ThIka nhiiN| yaha yaMtravatatA sainika meM paidA karanI par3atI hai| tabhI to eka sainika ko kahA-mAro, golI calAo! to vaha yaha nahIM pUchatA ki isa AdamI ne merA bigAr3A kyA, jisa para maiM golI calAU? vaha yaha nahIM socatA ki isakI patnI hogI ghara, isake bacce hoMge; jaise merI patnI aura mere bacce haiN| vaha yaha nahIM socatA ki isakI kI mAM hogI, zAyada isI para nirbhara hogii| vaha yaha nahIM socatA ki isaka bApa hogA, zAyada AMkheM kho gaI hoMgI, yahI usake jIvana kI lakar3I hai, sahArA hai| vaha kucha nahIM soctaa| 'golI mAra! ' to vaha golI mAratA hai, kyoMki vaha yaMtravata hai| jisa AdamI ne hirozimA para aiTama bama girAyA aura eka aiTama bama ke davArA eka lAkha AdamI
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________________ dasa miniTa ke bhItara rAkha ho gae, vaha vApisa lauTa kara so gyaa| jaba subaha usase patrakAroM ne pUchA ki tuma rAta so sake? usane kahA, kyoM? khUba gaharI nIMda soyA! AjJA pUrI kara dI, bAta khatma ho gii| isase merA lenA-denA hI kyA hai ki kitane loga mare ki nahIM mare? yaha to jinhoMne paoNlisI banAI, ve jAneM; merA kyA? mujhe to kahA gayA ki jAo, bama girA do phalAM jagaha-maiMne girA diyaa| kAma pUrA ho gayA, maiM nizcita bhAva se A kara so gyaa| eka lAkha AdamI mara jAeM tumhAre hAtha se girAe bama se, aura tumheM rAta nIMda A jAe- thor3A soco, matalaba kyA huA? eka lAkha AdamI! rAkha ho gae! inameM se tuma kisI ko jAnate nahIM, kisI ne tumhArA kucha kabhI bigAr3A nahIM, tumase kisI kA koI jhagar3A nhiiN| inameM choTe bacce the jo abhI dUdha pIte the, jinhoMne kisI kA kucha bigAr3anA bhI cAhA ho to bigAr3a nahIM sakate the| inameM garbha meM par3e hue bacce the, mAM ke garbha meM the, abhI paidA bhI na hue the unhoMne to kaise kisI kA kyA bigAr3A hogA! eka choTI baccI apanA homavarka karane sIr3hiyAM car3ha kara Upara jA rahI thI, vaha vahIM kI vahIM rAkha ho kara cipaTa gaI dIvAla se! usakA bastA, usakI kitAbeM saba rAkha ho kara cipaTa gae! lAkha AdamI rAkha ho gae aura yaha AdamI kahatA hai, maiM rAta so sakA maje se! yaha sainika hai| sainika kA matalaba itanA hai ki vaha AjJA kA pAlana kre| duniyA meM AjJApAlana karane vAloM ke kAraNa jitanA nukasAna huA hai AjJA na pAlana karane vAloM ke kAraNa nahIM huaa| aura agara eka acchI duniyA banAnI ho to hameM AjJA mAnane kI aisI aMdhatA tor3anI pdd'egii| hameM vyakti ko itanA viveka denA cAhie ki vaha soce ki kaba AjJA mAnanI, kaba nahIM maannii| thor3A soco, yaha AdamI yaha kaha sakatA thA ki ThIka hai, Apa mujhe golI mAra deM, lekina lAkha AdamiyoM ko maiM mArane nahIM jaauuNgaa| agara mere marane se lAkha AdamI bacate haiM to Apa mujhe golI mAra deN| thor3A soco ki jisa sainika ko bhI kahA jAtA ki hirozimA para bama girAo, aiTama, vaha kaha detA mujhe golI mAra de, maiM taiyAra hUM magara maiM girAne nahIM jAtA-duniyA meM eka krAMti ho jaatii| kyA AdamI ne itanA bala kho diyA hai, vicAra kI itanI kSamatA kho dI hai? magara isI ke lie kavAyada karavAnI par3atI hai, tAki dhIre - dhIre, dhIre-dhIre vicAra kI kSamatA kho jaae| sainika aura saMnyAsI do chora haiN| saMnyAsI kA artha hai. jo ThIka use lagatA hai vahI karegA, cAhe pariNAma kucha bhI ho| aura sainika kA artha hai : jo kahA jAtA hai vahI karegA, cAhe pariNAma kucha bhI ho| saMnyAsI bagAvatI hogA hI, buniyAdI rUpa se hogaa| isalie maiM kahatA hUM : dhArmika AdamI vidrohI hogA hii| agara koI AdamI dhArmika ho aura vidrohI na ho, to samajhanA ki dhArmika nahIM hai| usane sainika hone ko saMnyAsI honA samajha liyA hai| vaha maMdira bhI jAtA hai, pUjA kara AtA hai, lekina usakI pUjA kavAyada kA hI eka rUpa hai| use kahA gayA hai ki aisI pUjA karo to vaha kara AtA hai, ghaMTI aisI bajAo to bajA AtA hai, pAnI chiDako, gaMgAjala DAlo, tilaka-TIkA lagAo-vaha kara AtA hai| lekina yaha saba kavAyada hai| yaha AdamI dhArmika nahIM hai| kyoMki dhArmika AdamI to vahI hai jo apane aMtaraviveka se jItA hai|
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________________ yaha duniyA dharma ke bar3e viparIta hai| yahAM tIna sau dharma haiM jamIna para, magara yaha duniyA dharma ke bar3e viparIta hai| ye tIna sau dharma sabhI dharma ke hatyAre haiN| inhoMne saba dharma ko miTA DAlA hai aura miTAne kI pUrI ceSTA hai| dharma miTa jAtA hai, agara tuma AjJAkArI ho jaao| maiM tumase yaha nahIM kahatA ki anAjJAkArI ho jAo, khayAla rkhnaa| merI bAta kA galata artha mata samajha lenaa| maiM tumase kahatA hUM. vivekpuurnn..| phira jo ThIka lage AjJA meM, barAbara karo; aura jo ThIka na lage, phira cAhe koI bhI pariNAma bhugatanA par3e, kabhI mata kro| taba tumhAre jIvana meM phira se Azcarya kA udabhava hogaa| phira se tumhAre prANoM para jama gaI rAkha jhar3egI aura aMgArA nikharegA aura dmkegaa| usa damaka meM hI koI paramAtmA taka pahuMcatA hai| paramAtmA taka pahuMcane kA mArga sainika honA nahIM hai- paramAtmA taka pahuMcane kA mArga saMnyAsI honA hai| aura saMnyAsI kA artha hai : jisane nirNaya kiyA ki saba jokhima uThA legA, lekina apane viveka ko na becegA; saba jokhima uThA legA, agara jIvana bhI jAtA ho to gaMvAne ko taiyAra rahegA, lekina apanI aMtasa - svataMtratA ko na becegA / svataMtratA kA artha svacchaMdatA nahIM hai| svataMtratA kA artha viveka hai| svataMtratA kA artha parama dAyitva hai ki maiM apanA uttaradAyitva samajha kara svayaM jIUMgA, apane hI prakAza meM jIUM - gA; udhAra, paraMparAgata, lakIra kA phakIra ho kara nhiiN| kyoMki duniyA kI sthitiyAM badalatI jAtI haiM aura lakIreM nahIM bdltiiN| duniyA roja badalatI jAtI hai, nakze purAne bane rahate haiN| duniyA roja badalatI jAtI hai, Adeza purAne haiN| aba tuma veda se Adeza loge, bhaTakoge nahIM to kyA hogA ? tuma kurAna se Adeza loge, gItA se Adeza loge, bhaTakoge nahIM to kyA hogA? par3ho gItA, samajho gItA, lekina Adeza sadA svayaM kI AtmA se lenA / upadeza le lenA jahAM se bhI lenA ho, Adeza kahIM se bhI mata lenA / upadeza aura Adeza kA yahI pharka hai| upadeza kA artha hai : jahAM bhI zubha bAta sunAI par3e, suna lenA, guna lenA, samajha lenaa| lekina Adeza kahIM se mata lenaa| Adeza ke lie to tumhAre bhItara baiThA paramAtmA hai, usI se lenA / Azcarya kI kSamatA mara gaI hai, kyoMki tumane ahaMkAra ko cAhA, ahaMkAra kI AkAMkSA meM mara gaI hai| agara tuma cAhate ho Azcarya phira se jAge, to ahaMkAra kI caTTAnoM ko haTAo - bahegA jharanA Azcarya kaa| aura vaha Azcarya tumheM tAjA kara jAegA, kuMArA kara jAegA, nayA kara jaaegaa| phira se tuma dekhoge duniyA ko jaisA ki dekhanA caahie| ye hare vRkSa kucha aura hI DhaMga se hare ho jaaeNge| ke phUla kisI aura DhaMga se gulAbI ho jaaeNge| ye gulAba yaha jagata bar3A suMdara hai, lekina tumhArI AMkhoM kA Azcarya kho gayA hai; tumhArI AMkhoM para patthara jama gae haiN| yaha jagata apUrva hai, kyoMki prabhu maujUda hai yahAM, yaha prabhu se vyApta hai! yahAM patthara - patthara meM paramAtmA chipA hai; isalie koI patthara patthara nahIM hai, yahAM sirpha kohinUra hI kohinUra haiN| hara patthara se usI kA nUra pragaTa ho rahA hai, usI kI rozanI hai| magara tumhAre pAsa Azcarya kI AMkha caahie| isalie to jIsasa ne kahA hai : dhanya haiM ve jo choTe baccoM kI bhAMti haiM, kyoMki ve hI mere prabhu ke rAjya meM
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________________ praveza pA skeNge| yahAM ve Azcarya ke saMbaMdha meM hI iMgita kara rahe haiN| tIsarA prazna : guru ziSyoM ke sAtha kyA kabhI chiyA -chI kA khela bhI khelatA hai? kRpA karake kheN| priyA-chI hI to pUrA kA pUrA saMbaMdha hai guru aura ziSya kaa| kabhI kabhI khelatA hai, aisA nahIM basa vahI to saMbaMdha hai| aura na kevala guru aura ziSya ke bIca vaisA saMbaMdha hai, paramAtmA aura sRSTi ke sAtha bhI vaisA hI saMbaMdha hai| guru aura ziSya to usI virATa khela ko choTe paimAne para khelate haiM jise bar3e paimAne para paramAtmA sRSTi ke sAtha khela rahA hai| yahAM paramAtmA saba jagaha chipA hai, pukAra rahA hai jagaha-jagaha se : ' Ao, mujhe chuo, khojo!' jisa dina tuma usakI pukAra suna loge aura tuma use khojane lagoge usa dina tuma pAoge ki khojane meM itanA AnaMda hai ki tama zAyada kahane lago ki jaldI mata karanA pragaTa ho jAne kii| tuma kabhI choTe the, jaba tumane khelA baccoM kA khela chiyA-chI kaa| eka hI kamare meM bacce khar3e ho jAte haiM chipa kara, koI bistara ke nIce daba gayA hai, koI kursI ke pIche chipa gayA hai aura sabako patA hai ki kauna kahAM hai, kyoMki sabhI dhIre - dhIre AMkha khola kara dekha rahe haiM ki kauna kahAM hai, phira bhI khela calatA hai| jisane dekha liyA hai, vaha bhI idhara-udhara daur3atA hai; vahAM nahIM AtA jahAM ki tuma chipe ho, kyoMki khela to khelanA hai; nahIM to agara sIdhe cale Ae, jahAM tuma chipe ho to khela khatma ho gyaa| tumheM bhI patA hai ki vaha kahAM se A rahA hai| tuma bhI dekha rahe ho, vaha bhI dekha rahA hai| phira bhI khela cala rahA hai| AtyaMtika arthoM meM yahI artha hai lIlA kaa| paramAtmA aisA nahIM chipA hai ki mile nahIM; aisA chipA hai ki tuma hAtha bar3hAo aura mila jaae| lekina jisa dina tuma samajhoge ki itane pAsa chipA hai, tuma kahoge jarA khela calane do| cubhate hI terA aruNa bANa bahate kaNa-kaNa se phUTa-phUTa madhu ke nirjhara se sajala gAna mere choTe jIvana meM denA na tRpti kA kaNabhara rahane do pyAsI AMkheM bharatI AMsU ke sAgara
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________________ tuma mAnasa meM basa jAo chipa dukha kI avaguMThana se maiM tumheM DhUMDhane ke misa paricita ho lUM kaNa-kaNa se tuma raho sajala AMkhoM kI sita- asita mukuratA bana kara maiM saba kucha tumase dekhU tumako na dekha pAUM pr| bhakta kahatA hai saba tumase dekhU tuma merI AMkhoM meM chipa jAo; maiM tumhAre davArA hI saba dekhUphira bhI tumheM na dekha paauuN| aura yaha khela calatA rhe| tuma mAnasa meM basa jAo chipa dukha kI avaguMThana se maiM tumheM DhUMDhane ke misa paricita ho lUM kaNa-kaNa se -DhUMDhatA phirUM tumheM! aura tumheM DhUMDhane ke bahAne... maiM tumheM DhUMDhane ke misa tumheM DhUMDhane ke bahAne paricita ho lUM kaNa-kaNa se! khojatA phirUM, eka-eka kaNa meM tumheM pukAratA phirUM lahara-lahara meM tumheM jhAkatA phirUM aura isa bahAne sAre astitva se paricita ho lU~! zAyada paramAtmA ke chipane kA rAja aura rahasya bhI vahI hai ki tuma use khojane ke bahAne isa astitva ke mahArahasya se paricita ho jaao| vaha taba taka chipA hI rahegA jaba taka ki isa jagata ke samagra rahasya se tuma paricita nahIM ho jaate| tuma eka jagaha use khoja loge, vaha dUsarI jagaha chipa jAegA ki calo aba dUsarI jagaha se bhI paricita ho lo| tuma yahAM use khoja loge, vaha vahA chipa jAegA, tAki tuma vahA se bhI paricita ho lo| aise vaha tumheM lie calatA hai, tumheM apane pIche daur3Ae calatA hai| jaba bhakta samajha pAtA hai ThIka se ki yaha khela hai, ciMtA miTa jAtI hai usI kssnn| phira khojanA eka tanAva nahIM raha jAtA, eka AnaMda ho jAtA hai| phira khojane meM koI adhairya bhI nahIM hotaa| mere choTe jIvana meM denA na tRpti kA kaNabhara!
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________________ phira to bhakta kahatA hai, mujhe tRpta mata kara denA, kyoMki maiM tRpta ho gayA to phira tumheM na khojuuNgaa| tumheM khojanA- isake mukAbale kyA tRpti meM rasa ho sakatA hai? tumhArI pratIkSA, tumhArA iMtajAra - isase jyAdA aura rasa kahAM ho sakatA hai ? mere choTe jIvana meM denA na tRpti kA kaNabhara rahane do pyAsI AMkheM bharatI AMsU ke sAgara tuma phikra mata karanA, tuma jyAdA parezAna mata ho jAnA ki merI AMkha ke AMsU sAgara banAe de rahe haiN| tuma phikra mata krnaa| isameM mujhe AnaMda A rahA hai| maiM rasamagna huuN| yaha maiM dukha se nahIM ro rahA hUM! bhakta AnaMda se rone lagatA haiM, ahobhAva se rone lagatA hai| usake AMsuo meM phUla haiM, kAMTe nahIM; zikAyata nahIM, zikavA nahIM; prArthanA hai, kRtajJatA jJApana hai, AbhAra hai, zukriyA hai ! jo bar3e paimAne para paramAtmA aura sRSTi ke bIca ho rahA hai, eka choTe paimAne para vahI khela guru aura ziSya ke bIca hai| aura choTe paimAne para tuma khelanA sIkha jAo to phira bar3e paimAne para khela sakoge, itanA hI upayoga hai| jaise eka AdamI tairanA sIkhane jAtA hai to nadI ke kinAre tairanA sIkhatA hai; ekadama se nadI kI gaharAiyoM meM nahIM calA jAtA, DUbegA nahIM to| kinAre para, jahAM uthalA - uthalA jala hai, jahAM gale-gale jala hai, vahAM tairanA sIkhatA hai; phira dhIre - dhIre gaharAI meM jAnA zurU hotA hai| guru, jaise kinArA hai paramAtmA kA lo| phira jaba tuma kuzala ho jAo tairane meM artha samajha jAo - to phira jAnA gahana meM to vahAM tuma thor3A khela sIkha lo, vahAM tuma thor3I krIr3A kara aura tuma jaba khela ke niyama sIkha jAo aura lIlA kA gahare meM! phira utaranA sAgaroM meM / guru to kevala pATha hai paramAtmA meM utarane kaa| isalie jo bar3e paimAne para sRSTi meM ho rahA hai vahI choTe paimAne para guru aura ziSya ke bIca ghaTatA hai| ThIka tumane pUchA, chiyA-chI kA khela hI ghaTatA hai| eka bAta guru tumase kahatA hai, tuma use pUrI karane lagate ho vaha tatkSaNa dUsarI kahane lagatA hai| tuma eka bAta mAnane - mAnane ke karIba Ate ki vaha saba ukhAr3a DAlatA hai| tuma ghara banAne ko ho ki vaha AdhAra girA detA hai| tuma jaldI meM ho ki kisI taraha hala ho jAe guru itanI jaldI meM nahIM hai| guru kahatA hai ki jo jaldI hala ho jAegA, vaha koI hala na huA / yaha jIvana kA aisA pragAr3ha rahasya hai ki yaha jaldI hala nahIM ho sktaa| ye koI mausamI phUla ke paudhe nahIM haiN| ye bar3e darakhta haiM jo A ko chUte haiM; jo hajAroM sAla jIte haiM; jo cAMda-tAroM se bAta karate haiM; inameM pratIkSA..! maiMne sunA hai, maharSi kazyapa kI patnI ko bar3I AkAMkSA thI ki eka aisA putra ho jo mahAsatva ho| sAdhAraNa putra kI AkAMkSA nahIM thI / kazyapa kI patnI thI, sAdhAraNa putra kI AkAMkSA bhI kyA karatI ! kama se kama kazyapa jaisA to ho| kazyapa se bar3A ho, aisI AkAMkSA thii| mahAsatva ho, bodhisatva ho,
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________________ buddha jaisA ho! to usane bar3I prArthanAeM kiiN| kahate haiM, Izvara usa para prasanna huaa| aura vinItA usakA nAma thA, use eka Dimba diyA gayA ki usase mahAsatva saMtAna hogI / lekina vaha bar3I hairAna huii| jaisA niyama honA cAhie ki nau mahIne meM baccA paidA ho, bacce kI koI khabara hI nhiiN| nau mahIne kyA, sAloM bItane lge| vaha bar3I parezAna huI / vaha jaldI meM thI ki baccA honA caahie| vaha ke hone ke karIba A gaI to usane Dimba phor3a ddaalaa| baccA nikalA, lekina AdhA niklaa| jo baccA paidA huA, purANoM meM usI kA nAma aruNa hai| vahI baccA bAda meM sUrya kA sArathI banA / aruNa jaba paidA huA to usane bar3e krodha se apanI mAM se kahA ki suna tU mahAsatva saMtAna cAhatI hai, lekina mahApratIkSA karane kI terI kuzalatA aura kSamatA nahIM hai| tUne bIca meM hI aMDA phor3a diyA! maiM abhI AdhA hI bar3ha pAyA hUM / para mAM ne kahA, pratIkSA ho gaI, sAloM bIta ge| to usa beTe ne kahA phira mahAsatva saMtAna kI AkAMkSA nahIM karanI caahie| phira sAdhAraNa baccA cAhie to nau mahIne meM mila jAtA hai| hA cAhie to mahApratIkSA caahie| ziSya to bar3I jaldI meM hote haiN| unheM to lagatA hai, abhI ho jAe, koI de de to jhaMjhaTa miTe | tumheM rasa nahIM hai khoja kaa| guru jAnatA hai ki khoja meM rasa itanA ho jAe jaba ki tuma yaha bhI kaha sako ki aba na bhI milegA to calegA, khoja hI itanI rasapUrNa hai, kauna phikra karatA hai! usI dina milatA hai| ise tuma khayAla meM rakha lenA gAMTha bAMdha kara / maiM phira se doharA dUM. jisa dina tuma yaha kahane meM samartha ho jAoge ki aba tU jAna milane-julane kI hameM phikra nahIM, lekina khoja itanI AnadapUrNa hai, hama khoja karate raheMge, tU chipatA rh| usI dina khoja vyartha ho gaI, usI dina chipane kA koI artha na rhaa| jaba khoja hI milana kA AnaMda bana gaI aura jaba mArga hI maMjila mAlUma hone lagA, to phira maMjila chipa nahIM sakatI; usI dina milana ghaTatA hai| mahApratIkSA caahie| tuma amara pratijJA ho, maiM paga viraha pathika kA dhImA / A jAte miTa jAUM, pAUM na paMtha kI sImA / pAne meM tumako khoUM, khone meM samajheM pAnA / yaha cira atRpti ho jIvana, cira tRSNA ho miTa jAnA / meghoM meM vidyuta-sI chavi, unakI bana kara miTa jAtI; -
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________________ AMkhoM kI citrapaTI meM jisameM maiM AMka na paauuN| vaha AbhA bana kho jAte zazi kiraNoM kI ulajhana meM jisameM unako kaNa-kaNa meM DhUMDhaa pahacAna na paauuN| eka anaMta pratIkSA cAhie, mahaMta pratIkSA caahie| to guru kaI bAra tumase kahatA hai : abhI huA jAtA, abhI huA jAtA, basa hone ko hI hai! vaha sirpha isalie, tAki tuma khoja meM lage raho, tAki tumhArA dhairya baMdhA rahe / 'pahuMce, pahuMce guru kahatA jAtA hai-'dekho kinArA karIba A rahA hai, pakSI ur3ate dikhAI par3ane lage! dekho dUra kinAre vRkSa dikhAI par3ane lage, aba hama pahuMcate haiM tAki tumhArI himmata baMdhI rhe| tumhArI himmata bar3I kamajora hai| aura jaise hI tuma kisI sthiti meM thira hone lagate ho, kisI makAna ke nIce ghara banAne lagate ho aura kisI par3Ava ko maMjila samajhane lagate ho - tattvA guru DerA ukhAr3a detA hai| vaha kahatA hai, calo basa ho gayA, abhI maMjila bahuta hai| abhI bahuta dUra jAnA hai| abhI yahAM ghara nahIM banA lenA hai| aisI chiyA-chI calatI hai| dhIre- dhIre tuma isa rAja ko samajhane lagate ho / anubhava se hI samajha meM AtA hai| dhIre- dhIre tuma samajhane lagate ho ki vAstavika bAta pAnA nahIM hai, khojanA hai| vAstavika bAta pahuMca jAnA nahIM hai pahuMcane kI ceSTA karate rahanA hai| vAstavika bAta yAtrA hai, maMjila nhiiN| hAlAMki maiM samajhatA hUM tumhArI bar3I jaldI hai kisI taraha maMjila mila jAe; koI cora daravAjA ho, vahA se pahuMca jAeM yA koI rizvata calatI ho to kisI dvArapAla ko rizvata de deM aura aMdara ho jAeM yA koI zArTakaTa! magara na koI zArTakaTa hai, na koI cora daravAjA hai, na rizvata calatI hai| na tumhAre puNya se kucha hogA, na tumhArI tapazcaryA se kucha hogaa| anaMta yAtrA hai paramAtmA / paramAtmA maMjila hai, isa bhASA meM socA ki tuma bhUla meM par3oge / kyoMki maMjila kA matalaba hai : phira usake bAda baiTha gae, phira kucha bhI nahIM / paramAtmA satata jIvana hai, isalie baiThanA to ghaTa hI nahIM sakatA, yAtrA hotI rhegii| paramAtmA prakriyA hai-vastu nahIM / vastu kI taraha socoge to bhAMti hogI, bhUla hogii| paramAtmA prakriyA hai-calate rahane meM, jIte rahane meM, bahate rahane meN| jaise nadI hI jAtI hai sAgara kI tarapha aura sAgara uDU uDu kara nadI kI tarapha bahatA rahatA hai-aise hI sAdhaka khojate rahate paramAtmA ko paramAtmA sAdhakoM ko khojatA rahatA hai| yaha khela chiyA-chI kA hai| jisa dina samajha meM A jAegA ki yaha khela hai, tanAva samApta ho jAegA, phira khela meM pUrA majA aaegaa| hama to aise pAgala haiM ki khela meM bhI tanAva banA lete haiN| tumane dekhA do AdamI tAza khela rahe hoM, kaisA sira bhArI kara lete haiM, lar3ane-mArane ko utArU ho jAte haiM! talavAreM khiMca jAtI haiM zataraMja ke kheloM meM! logoM ne eka-dUsare kI hatyA kara dI hai zataraMja khelate hue| aise pagalA jAte haiM! aura kucha bhI nahIM hai vahAM / na hAthI haiM, na ghor3e haiM, na rAjA haiM, na kucha hai-lakar3I ke, yA bahuta hue hAthI-vata
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________________ ke| saba nakalI haiM, magara aisA rasa paidA ho jAtA hai ki jI-jAna kI bAjI laga jAtI hai| loga khela meM itanI gaMbhIratA le lete haiM aura sAdhaka vahI hai jo gaMbhIratA meM bhI khela le le| saMsArI vahI hai jo khela ko bhI gaMbhIra banA letA hai| aura saMnyAsI vahI hai jo gaMbhIratA ko bhI khela banA letA hai| tuma amara pratijJA ho, maiM paga viraha pathika kA dhImA! suno tuma amara pratijJA ho, maiM paga viraha pathika kA dhiimaa| Ate -jAte miTa jAUM pAUM na paMtha kI siimaa| bhakta kahatA hai paMtha kI sImA kahA pAnI, kisako pAnI, pA kara karanA kyA? Ate -jAte miTa jAUM pAUM na paMtha kI siimaa| pAne meM tumako khoUM khone meM samajhU pAnA! yahI chiyA-chI kA artha hai| yaha cira atRpti ho jIvana cira tRSNA ho miTa jAnA! tumheM khojate -khojate miTa jAUM! tumhArI tRSNA banI hI rahe! tumhArI pyAsa jalatI hI rahe! maiM tumheM pA kara tRpta nahIM ho jAnA cAhatA- bhakta kahatA hai| bhakta kahatA hai, tumhArI atRpti itanI pyArI! meghoM meM vidayuta sI chavi unakI, banakara miTa jaatii| kabhI-kabhI banegI paramAtmA kI chavi, miTegI paramAtmA kI chavi! AMkhoM kI citrapaTI meM jisase maiM AMka na paauuN| vaha banegI aura miTegI itanI zIghratA se ki tumhAre mana meM tuma usako saMjo na paaoge| tuma mana meM pratimA na banA paaoge| tumhArA ahobhAva ahobhAva hI rhegaa| tuma yaha na kaha pAoge : maiMne jAna liyaa| isalie upaniSada kahate haiM. jo kahatA hai maiMne jAna liyA, usane nahIM jaanaa| aura jo kahatA hai mujhe kucha bhI patA nahIM, zAyada use patA ho| meghoM meM vidayuta-sI chavi
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________________ unakI, bana kara miTa jaatii| AMkhoM kI citrapaTI meM jisase maiM AMka na paauuN| koI pratimA nahIM bana paatii| jhalaka AtI aura jAtI-aura itanI tvarA se, itanI tIvratA se ki tuma muTThI nahIM bAMdha paate| bAdhoge bhI to muTThI khAlI raha jaaegii| paramAtmA muTThI meM bAMdhA nahIM jA sakatA-na zabdoM meM, na siddhAto meM, na zAstroM meN| kahIM bhI usakI chavi tuma bAMdha na paaoge| vaha arUpa arUpa hI rhtaa| darzana bhI ho jAte haiM, phira bhI arUpa rhtaa| mila bhI jAtA, phira bhI pAne ko sadA zeSa rhtaa| vaha AbhA bana kho jAte zazi kiraNoM kI ulajhana meM jisameM unako kaNa-kaNa meM DhUMDhaMa pahacAna na paauuN| bhakta ko jaldI nahIM hai| aura jise jaldI nahIM hai, jaldI hI ghaTanA ghaTa jAtI hai| aura jise bahuta jaldI hai, use anaMta- anaMta kAla taka bhaTakanA par3atA hai aura ghaTanA nahIM ghtttii| agara tuma cAhate ho abhI mila jAe paramAtmA, to tuma anaMta pratIkSA ke lie rAjI ho jaao| kaha do : jaba milanA ho mila jAnA, kucha jaldI nahIM hai| hama khojate raheMge, hama khoja meM bahuta tRpta haiN| hama atRpti meM bhI bahuta tRpta haiN| hamAre ye viraha ke AMsU bhI bar3e AnadapUrNa haiN| AkhirI prazna : Apa bhItara ke prakAza kI tanI bAta karate haiM, lekina merA anubhava kucha aura hai| jaba bhI dhyAna meM mere vicAra zAMta hote haiM to mere bhItara eka ghanA aMdhakAra ghiratA hai, jo ThaMDA aura prItikara lagatA hai| kRpApUrvaka samajhAeM ki yaha kyA hai? sUbaha hone ke pUrva rAta gahana rUpa se aMdherI ho jAtI hai| aura aMdhere ke garbha se hI subaha kA janma hotA hai| to jaba maiM tumase niraMtara bAta karatA hUM prakAza kI tuma yaha mata samajha lenA ki tuma bhItara jAoge to tatkSaNa prakAza mila jaaegaa| pahale to gujaranA par3egA gahana rAtri se| usI rAtri ke aMta para subaha hai, prakAza hai| IsAI phakIroM ne isa avasthA ko 'DArka nAiTa oNpha da sola' kahA hai-AtmA kI aMdherI raat| sirpha IsAI phakIroM ne aisA pyArA nAma diyA hai, kisI aura ne nhiiN| aura bar3A ThIka kiyA hai| kyoMki
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________________ sabhI zAstra, kurAna, veda, upaniSada paramAtmA ke prakAza-rUpa kI bAta karate hai-vaha AtyaMtika bAta hai| lekina jaba sAdhaka bhItara utaregA to prakAza ekadama se nahIM miltaa| aura agara ekadama se milatA ho to jarA saMdeha karanA; kyoMki vaha prakAza kalpanA kA hogA, vAstavika nahIM ho sktaa| vaha tumane
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________________ suna-suna kara zAstroM meM par3ha par3ha kara ki paramAtmA prakAza - rUpa hai, prakAza ruup...| aura kaI to aise pAgala haiM jinakA hisAba nahIM! cAra-chaH dina pahale eka vyakti ne saMnyAsa liyaa| unhoMne kahA ki maiMne bAlayogezvara se dIkSA lI hai, to unhoMne mujhe samajhAyA thA ki AMkha ko aMgUThoM se dabAne se prakAza kA anubhava hotA hai, bar3A anubhava hotA hai| maiM dabAtA hUM AMkha, bar3A anubhava hotA hai| to vaha maiM jArI rakhUM ki baMda karUM? aba kyA pAgala ho? AMkha ko dabAoge aMgUThe se to tilamilAhaTa paidA hone se rozanI mAlUma hotI hai; vaha to kisI ko bhI mAlUma hotI hai; usase adhyAtma kA koI saMbaMdha hai? koI bhI AMkha ko jora se dabAegA to tilamilAhaTa paidA hotI hai, tilamilAhaTa se rozanI mAlUma hotI hai| vaha rozanI to sirpha AMkha ke dabAne ke kAraNa mAlUma ho rahI hai| isako tuma AdhyAtmika prakAza samajha rahe ho? aura ve do sAla se yahI kAma kara rahe haiN| usameM unakI AMkheM bhI kharAba ho gaI haiN| kyoMki jaba bahuta AMkhoM ko dbaaoge...| aura phira dhIre- dhIre rasa Ane lagA, to phira aura jyAdA dabAne lge| kyoMki jitanA dabAo utanA prakAza dikhAI par3atA hai, gajaba ho rahA hai! isako bAlayogezvara jJAna kahate haiN| AMkha meM dabAne se jo rozanI paidA hotI hai - yaha jJAna hai| aba yaha mAmalA aisA hai ki kisI kI bhI AMkha dabA do, usako rozanI dikhAI par3atI hai; vaha bhI cakita ho jAtA hai ki yaha to bAta bilakula ThIka ho rahI hai! hameM patA hI nahIM thA, bar3A sIdhA-sugama upAya mila gayA! yA phira aise loga haiM jo kahate haiM, rozanI kI bhItara dhAraNA kro| AMkha baMda kara lo, donoM AMkhoM ke madhya meM dekho ki eka dIye kI jyoti jala rahI hai yA eka prakAza kA biMdu, usa para dhyAna rakho / agara tuma aisI kalpanA karoge to dhIre- dhIre kalpanA pragAr3ha ho jaaegii| tumheM rozanI dikhAI par3ane lagegI, magara yaha jhUThI rozanI hai| dharma jyoti ne pUchA hai yaha prazna / ThIka ho rahA hai! aMdherI rAta se gujara kara hI jo subaha hogI, jisa subaha ko tuma nahIM lA sakate, jo apane-Apa AtI hai subaha, vaha aMdherI rAta se gujara kara AtI hai| tuma aMdherI rAta meM zAMti se gujaro, jaao| prakAza karIba Ane se pahale rAta bahuta aMdherI ho jaaegii| magara zubha ho rahA hai, kyoMki aMdhere ke sAtha eka ThaMDA aura prItikara bhAva hai| to bilakula zubha ho rahA hai| bhaya na ho aMdhere se, prema ho aMdhere se, to subaha jyAdA dUra nhiiN| agara bhaya ho to tuma bhAgane lagoge / bhAgane lage to subaha se dUra ho jAoge / bhAgoge to aMdhere se, dUra ho jAoge subaha se| aura ThaMDA, zItala.. . bilakula zubha ho rahA hai| ThaMDA aura zItala hI hai aMdhere kA anubhv| vaha to bhaya ke kAraNa hama anubhava nahIM kara paate| bacapana se hI aMdhere ke saMbaMdha meM hamArI galata dhAraNA ho jAtI hai| baccA DaratA hai aMdhere se, kyoMki akelA raha jAtA hai| aMdhere meM ghabarAtA hai ki koI A na jAe, kucha mAra na de, koI coTa na kara de, kucha gira na pdd'e| choTA baccA ! vaha bhaya baiTha jAtA hai| aura phira manuSya jAti ke itihAsa meM bhI Aja se koI dasa hajAra, bIsa hajAra sAla pahale jaba AdamI jaMgaloM meM thA, guphAoM meM thA, Aga kA AviSkAra na huA thA to rAta bar3I ghabarAne vAlI thii| kyoMki
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________________ rAta ko hI jaMgalI jAnavara hamalA karate the, dina to kisI taraha gujara jAtA thA, rAta meM hamalA hotA thaa| dina meM to sUraja kI rozanI hotI thI, AdamI apane ko bacA letA, bhAga jaataa| rAta ko siMha garajate aura zikAra krte| aura hajAra taraha ke jaMgalI jAnavara the, una sabake bIca bacanA bar3A kaThina thaa| to rAta ke sAtha una sabakA jor3a ho gayA / manovaijJAnika kahate haiM ki pratyeka manuSya ke acetana mana meM vaha guphA - mAnava kA anubhava abhI taka par3A hai, vaha gayA nhiiN| vaha zarIra kI smRti meM samAviSTa ho gayA hai| to isalie hama aMdhere se Darate haiN| aba to koI kAraNa bhI nahIM hai, ghara meM baiThe haiM, bijalI pAsa meM hai, jaba baTana dabAo rozanI ho jAe, koI jhaMjhaTa bhI nahIM hai aisI / deza meM anuzAsana parva cala rahA hai- koI upadrava nahIM hai, koI Dara kA kAraNa nahIM hai| apane kamare meM baiThe haiM, to bhI aMdhere se ghabarA rahe haiN| vaha bIsa hajAra sAla pahale AdamI kA jo anubhava thA, vaha tumhArI nasa-nasa meM samAyA huA hai| tuma bhI usI AdamI se paidA hue ho| zrRMkhalA usI se baMdhI hai| vaha bAta bhUlI nahIM hai, vaha bahuta gahare meM paDI hai| to aMdhere se Dara lagatA hai| aMdhere se AdamI bhayabhIta hotA hai| lekina jo AdamI aMdhere se bhayabhIta hotA hai aura DaratA hai, vaha bhItara jA hI na skegaa| usakI aMtaryAtrA hI na ho skegii| aMtaryAtrA meM aMdhere se to pAra honA hI pdd'egaa| aMtaryAtrA aMtarguhA meM praveza hai| zubha ho rahA hai| jAo - AnaMdapUrvaka, zAMtipUrvaka! subaha bhI karIba hai| aMdherA bar3hane lage, utanA hI bharosA jagA lenA ki aba subaha karIba AtI hai, aba karIba AtI hai| eka hI bAta dhyAna rakhanA isa aMdhere se moha mata banA lenaa| eka to khatarA hai bhaya kA ki AdamI ghabar3A kara bhAga jAe aura dUsarA khatarA hai, kyoMki yaha ThaMDA aura prItikara mAlUma ho rahA hai, isase moha mata banA lenA, nahIM to tuma subaha ko paidA na hone doge| tumhArA moha aisA ho jAegA ki tuma isako pkdd'oge| tuma dhIre - dhIre moha ke kAraNa aMdhere se jakar3a jAoge / bahuta loga haiM jinhoMne isI taraha kI jakar3ane paidA kara lI haiN| mere pAsa itane loga Ate haiM, maiM cakita hotA hUM dekhatA hUM koI AdamI udAsI se pakar3e hue hai apane ko, jakar3e hue hai| vaha kahatA hai ki mujhe udAsI nahIM cAhie, lekina saba upAya karatA hai ki udAsa ho jaae| bAteM karatA hai ki mujhe udAsI se bAhara khIMco, lekina jaba maiM use samajhA rahA hotA hUM taba maiM dekha rahA hotA hUM ki vaha suna bhI nahIM rahA hai| vaha zAyada merIbAtoM ko suna kara bhI udAsa ho jaaegaa| aise bhI loga maiMne dekhe, ve mujhe suna kara kahane lage ki hama pahale se hI udAsa the, ApakI bAteM suna kara aura udAsa ho ge| 'maiMne tumheM kauna-sI bAta kahI ?" Apane prakAza kI aura AnaMda kI itanI bAta kahI ki usase hameM aisA lagane lagA ki are, yaha to hama bar3e cUka rahe haiM! aura udAsI A gii| to hamArA jIvana bekAra hI gayA ! dekhate haiM, maiM prakAza kI bAta kara rahA hUM paramAtmA kI ki tuma uTho, jAgo, khojo| ve kahate haiM, ki hama aura susta ho kara gira par3e ki mAra DAlA! hama to socate the, saba ThIka cala rahA hai| Apane
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________________ aura yaha kahAM kI bAta kaha dI? isase hama aura bhI udAsa ho ge| loga dukha se saMbaMdha banA lete haiN| phira saMbaMdha aise ho jAte haiM prAcIna aura Adata ke, ki chUTanA bhI cAho to chUTate nhiiN| eka hAtha se chUTate ho, dUsare hAtha se banAe cale jAte ho| isakA thor3A khayAla rkhnaa| kala maiM eka gIta par3hatA thA : eka udAsa tanahAI jiMdagI ko rAsa AI! kucha loga haiM, jinheM udAsI aura akelApana rAsa A jAtA hai| kyoMki kisI ke sAtha raho to jhaMjhaTa to AtI hai| tuma jAnate ho : sAtha yAnI jhNjhtt| isalie to AdamI sAtha se bhAgatA hai| kisI ke bhI sAtha raho to thor3I-bahu ta jhaMjhaTa hogI kyoMki jahAM do bartana hue, thor3I AvAja, kalaha honA zurU hotI hai| vahIM cunautI bhI hai| lekina isase AdamI Dara sakatA hai, bhAga sakatA hai ki isase to akele behtr| akele rAma-koI jhaMjhaTa nahIM! magara akele rAma to ho gae, lekina cunautI nahIM rahI; sItA nahIM rahI, rAvaNa nahIM rahe! akele rAma to ho gae, lekina rAmalIlA khatma! to tuma to rAma se bhI jyAdA samajhadAra ho ge| rAma kA sArA vyaktitva nikharA, kyoMki akele rAma nahIM the; bar3I cAroM tarapha jIvana ke saMgharSa kI sthiti thii| usameM se vyaktitva nikharatA hai| to akele meM eka taraha kI murdA zAMti hai| eka udAsa tanahAI jiMdagI ko rAsa AI dila meM terI cAhaMta bhI le ke raMge-yAsa aaii| AzikI zaka-e-bAi kyoM na mere pAsa AI? kitane jAma khAlI haiM kitane jAma chalake haiM izka kI phajAoM meM vahama ke mahala ke haiM husna kI jiyAoM meM soca ke dhuMdhalake haiM merI ArajuoM ke raMga kitane halake haiM Aha, kyoM merI phitarata
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________________ rozanI se ghabarAI ? Aha, kyoM merI phitarata rozanI se ghabarAI ? khalaato kI zaidAI jalavato se zaramAI eka udAsa tanahAI jiMdagI ko rAsa aaii| tuma kahIM isa udAsI se rAsa mata A jaanaa| isa udAsI se saMga-sAtha mata banA lenaa| isa udAsI se gaThabaMdhana mata kara lenA / isa udAsI se vivAha mata kara baiThanA / yaha ThaMDI hai aura prItikara hai| Aha, kyoM merI phitarata rozanI se ghabarAI ? aura agara isase tumane bahuta saMbaMdha banA liyA to phira tuma rozanI se ghabar3Ane lagoge / kucha loga haiM jo aMdhere se ghabar3Ate haiM; aMdhere se ghabar3A kara bhAgate haiM to rozanI taka nahIM pahuMca paate| phira kucha loga haiM, jo rozanI se ghabar3Ane lagate haiM; kyoMki aMdhere se unakA prema bana jAtA hai| jisane pUchA hai, dharma jyoti ne, usake lie yaha khatarA hai, isalie maiM kaha rahA huuN| usake lie khatarA hai ki vaha isa aMdhere, udAsI, zAMti se kahIM bahuta jyAdA saMbaMdha na banA le| agara yaha saMbaMdha jyAdA bana gayA to phira subaha, ho sakatI thI jo subaha, vaha bhI na ho paaegii| isalie gujaro aMdhere seM- AnaMda se gujaro, gIta gunagunAte gujaro / aMdherA nizcita hI ThaMDA aura zItala hai, bar3A vizrAmadAyI hai! lekina khayAla rakhanA, aMdherA kevala garbha hai ujAle kA / aMdherA kevala niSedha hai| vidheya to prakAza hai| pahuMcanA to prakAza para hai| aMdhere se gujaro aMdhere meM nikharo, nahAo, lekina jAnA to prakAza para hai| agara koI vyakti aMdhere meM hI raha jAe to zAMta to ho sakatA hai, lekina usake jIvana meM prema paidA na hogaa| buddha ne kahA hai : agara dhyAna laga jAe aura karuNA paidA na ho, to samajhanA ki kahIM kucha cUka ho gaI; hote -hote bAta raha gii| aMdhere meM AdamI dhyAna ko to upalabdha ho sakatA hai, lekina jaba prakAza kA udaya hogA, tabhI prema ko upalabdha hogaa| aura jaba dhyAna aura prema donoM eka sAtha phalate haiM, tabhI vyakti ke vRkSa meM phala aura phUla donoM Ae; tabhI koI vastutaH saphala aura suphala huaa| dharma jyoti ko khatarA hai, kyoMki vaha prema se bar3I DarI huI hai| usane jIvana meM prema jAnA nhiiN| vaha pahale se hI kucha galata guruoM ke cakkara meM par3a gaI, jinhoMne samajhA diyA ki prema pApa hai; jinhoMne samajhA diyA ki zarIra pApa hai; jinhoMne samajhA diyA ki saMbaMdha saMsAra hai, isase to pAra jAnA hai|
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________________ unhoMne use bahuta ghabar3A diyaa| unase vaha chUTa bhI gaI lekina bar3e gahare acetana meM unakI dhAraNAeM aba bhI par3I raha gaI haiN| isalie isa bAta kA Dara hai ki kahIM aMdhere se gaThabaMdhana na bana jAe / to dhyAna rakhanA, rozanI se ghabar3AnA mt| rozanI karIba Ae to AMkha baMda mata kara lenA / rozanI karIba Ae to daravAjA baMda mata kara lenaa| kyoMki paramAtmA ke mArga para bhalA aMdherA ho, paramAtmA kI upalabdhi para prakAza hai| usakI pratIkSA karate rahanA- aMdherI rAta meM bhI ! aMdherI rAta meM bhI use pahacAnane kI koziza jArI rahe / kumuda - dala se vedanA ke dAga ko poMchatI jaba AMsuo se razmiyA cauMka uThatIM anila ke vizvAsa chU tArikAeM cakita-sI anajAna - sI avani aMbara kI rupahalI sIpa meM tarala motI-sA jaladhi jaba kApatA tairate ghana mRdula hima ke puMja se jyotsanA ke rajata pArAvAra meM surabhi bana jo thapakiyAM detA mujhe nIMda ke ucchavAsa - sA vaha kauna hai ! aMdhere meM bhI jo tumheM thapakiyAM de khayAla rakhanA. vahI hai ! surabhi bana jo thapakiyAM detA mujhe nIMda ke ucchavAsa - sA vaha kauna hai ! vaha jo nIMda meM bhI A kara tumheM ghera letA hai, vaha bhI vahI paramAtmA hai| aMdhere kI taraha tumheM jo ghera letA, vaha bhI vahI paramAtmA hai| zItala chAMha jo aMdhere kI mAlUma hotI hai, vaha bhI usI kI zItala chAha hai| vaha jo mIThA zAMtidAyI, vizrAmamayI bhAva ghera letA hai aMdhere meM, vaha bhI usI ke pAsa hone kI khabara hai; kahIM pAsa hI vaha maujUda hai! use bhUlanA mata aura usakI khoja jArI rakhanA / jo Aja soyA hai, vaha kala jaagegaa| jo Aja aMdhere meM dabA hai- ubhregaa| kSitija para usakI lAlI jaldI hI dikhAI dene lgegii| mujhe yaha mahasUsa ho rahA hai merA khudA khvAbagAhe - gaphalata meM so rahA hai merA dile - bekarAra muddata se ro rahA hai zikasta hai yaha ki AjamAiza - ki rabbe * Alama ki lutmoM akarAma kI numAiza baphare - vahazata ne jiMdagI kA suhAga lUTA tilisma kaiphe - zabAba lUTA
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________________ mujhe yaha mahasUsa ho rahA hai ki khAlike -jIsta so rahA hai| bazara muhabbata se jIsta ke husne raMga se hAtha dho rahA hai| kabhI to jAgegA sone vAlA kabhI to isa sabakI tIragI ko miTAegA subaha kA ujaalaa| kabhI to jAgegA sone vAlA kabhI to isa sabakI tIragI ko miTAegA subaha kA ujaalaa| vaha hogA-hone hI vAlA hai! nizcita hI hai! jaba rAta A gaI to subaha dUra nhiiN| jaba aMdherA ghanA hone lagA aura tAroM kI chAMva gaharI hone lagI, to sUraja karIba Ane lgaa| jaldI hI kSitija para phaila jAegI usakI lAla rekhaa| pratIkSA karo! prArthanA karo! AzA ko jagAe rakho! AMkha khola kara pukArate raho! aMdherA bhI usakA hai, prakAza bhI usakA hai! mRtyu bhI usakI, jIvana bhI uskaa| isalie saba jagaha use pahacAnate rho| hari oma tatsat!
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________________ saMnyAsa kA anuzAsana : sahajatA-pravacana-cauthA dinAMka: 29 sitaMbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| sUtraH haMtAtmajJasya dhIrastha khelato bhogliilyaa| na hi saMsAravAhIkaimUrai saha smaantaa||60|| yatyadaM premmavo dInA: zakrAdyA srvdeivtaaH| aho tatra sthito yogI na hrssmuygcchti||61|| tajjasya puNyayAyAthyAM sparzo hrayantana jaayte| na hayakAzastha dhUmena jhayamAno'yi sNgtiH||6211 AtyavedaM jagatsarvaM jJAtaM yena mhaatmnaa| yadRcchayA vartamAna taM niSedayaM kSameta kr://63|| Abrahmastambayaryante bhUtagrAme cturvidhe| vijJasyaiva hi saamrthymicchaanicchaavivrjne|| 64 / / AtmAnamavayaM kazcijjAnati jgdiishvrm| yadveti tatsa kuste na bhayaM tasya kutrcit|| 65 / / 7STAvakra ne bar3I kaThina parIkSA lii| aura janaka jaise sadaya:, abhI-abhI paidA hue AtmajJAnI kI, abhI-abhI janma huA abhI-abhI prakAza kI kiraNa utrii| abhI samhala bhI nahIM pAye jnk| abhI Azcarya kI taraMgeM uThI jA rahI haiN| abhI bharosA bhI nahIM baiThA ki jo ho gayA hai, vaha ho bhI gayA! bharosA baiThane meM thor3A samaya lagatA hai| jitanI bar3I ghaTanA ho, jitanI ajJAta ghaTanA ho, utanA hI jyAdA samaya lagatA hai| abhI to gadagada haiM jnk| hRdaya meM nayI-nayI taraMgeM uTha rahI haiN| jo huA hai vaha ho bhI sakatA hai-isa para bharosA nahIM A rahA hai| jo huA hai, vaha mujhe ho sakatA hai isa para to aura bhI bharosA nahIM A rhaa| jo huA hai, vaha itane tatkSaNa ho sakatA hai isa para kaise bharosA Aye! bar3e gahana ahobhAva se bhare jnk| aura aSTAvakra bar3I kaThora parIkSA lete haiM; jaise abhI-abhI paidA huA baccA ho aura parIkSA zurU ho gyii|
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________________ lekina usa kaThoratA meM karuNA hai| usa kaThoratA meM janaka kA sArA bhaviSya hai| aura yaha parIkSA tatkSaNa hI lI jA sakatI hai| agara thor3I dera ho jAye aura jJAna kI tAjagI samApta ho jAye, to phira parIkSA lenI kaThina hai| ise thoDA samajhane kI koziza kreN| jaba tAjA-tAjA jJAna hai, taba tarala hotA hai, taba use naye rUpa diye jA sakate haiM, naye DhAMce diye jA sakate haiN| jaise choTA-sA aMkara nikalatA hai, use hama kaise hI jhukA leM aura kinhIM dizAoM meM mor3a deM, koI bhI DhaMga de deN| phira bar3A purAnA vRkSa hai, use jhukAnA muzkila ho jAtA hai-TUTa jAyegA, jhukegA nahIM to jJAna jaba paidA ho, tabhI avasara hai| dera ho jAye, Azcarya samApta ho jAye, to jJAna Thosa ho gayA, taralatA kho gyii| vaha jo agni paidA huI thI vaha vilIna ho gyii| vaha jo lAvA bahA thA, vaha jama gayA, patthara ho gyaa| phira usakI parIkSA bar3I kaThina hai aura parIkSA vyartha bhI hai| kyoMki phira bar3I tor3a-phor3a karanI pdd'egii| isalie aSTAvakra ne eka kSaNa bhI na khoyaa| idhara janaka Azcarya se bhare haiM, udhara aSTAvakra ne kasanA zurU kara diyaa| janaka ne ina sUtroM meM, Aja ke sUtroM meM, uttara diyA hai| jo parIkSA lI jA rahI hai usake prati apane hRdaya ke bhAva prakaTa kiye haiM-ve bar3e anUThe haiN| janaka na to nArAja hue jarA bhI nArAja ho jAte to asaphala ho jAte; jarA bhI udavigna ho jAte to asaphala ho jaate| kyA kahate haiM, yaha utanA savAla nahIM hai kaise parIkSA ko liyA? karuNA ko pahacAne aSTAvakra kI yA kaThoratA ko? agara kaThoratA ko pahacAnate aura karuNA ko bhUla jAte to usakA artha huA ki janaka kA ahaMkAra abhI bhI marA nhiiN| ahaMkAra hI kaThoratA ko pahacAnatA hai| jahAM ahaMkAra kho gayA vahAM to sirpha mahAkaruNA hI jJAta hotI hai| vahAM to guru garadana para talavAra bhI rakha de to phUloM kA hAra hI rakhA huA mAlUma hotA hai| vahA to guru mAra bhI DAle to bhI ziSya marane ko tatpara hotA hai| kyoMki guru ke hAtha se mauta-isase zubha aura kyA hogA! isase mahAjIvana aura kyA ho sakatA hai! yaha to guru kI mahA anukaMpA hai ki vaha garadana ko alaga kara de, to tuma piMjare se mukta ho jaao| agara mRtyu bhI de guru aura ahaMkAra na ho, to karuNA kA darzana hogaa| aura agara ahaMkAra ho aura guru mahAjIvana bhI detA ho, to bhI saMdeha uttheNge| hajAra saMdeha uTha sakate the janaka ke mana meN| pahalI to bAta yaha uTha sakatI thI ki mujha para saMdeha kiyA jA rahA hai ? pahalA to saMdeha yaha uTha sakatA thA ki mujha para saMdeha kiyA jA rahA hai? agara aisA saMdeha uTha AtA to zraddhA kho jaatii| to vaha jo saMvAda cala rahA thA guru aura ziSya ke bIca, ruka jAtA, setu TUTa jaataa| dUsarI bAta yaha uTha sakatI thI ki kahIM aSTAvakra ko IrSyA to nahIM ho gayI? mujha meM yaha jo jJAna kA prAdurbhAva huA hai kahIM aSTAvakra IrSyAlu to nahIM ho gaye? kahIM aisA to nahIM hai ki ziSya ke jIvana meM uThatI isa krAMti ko dekha kara mana meM jalana paidA huI ho?
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________________ agara aisA bhAva uThatA to phira ziSya ziSya nahIM raha gyaa| phira to ziSya aura guru ke bIca hajAroM -hajAroM yojana kA phAsalA ho gyaa| phira to eka-dUsare kI AvAja pahuMcAnI asaMbhava hai| phira to ve dUsare alaga lokoM ke vAsI ho gye| nahIM, na to aisA saMdeha uThA ki guru ko mere para saMdeha hai, na aisA bhAva uThA ki guru IrSyA se bharA hai; na hI janaka ne apane pakSa meM bolane kI ceSTA kii| nahIM to sAdhAraNata: jaba bhI koI tumase kucha kahe aura tumheM parIkSA kA saMdeha ho to tumatatkSaNa surakSA ko tatpara ho jAte ho| tuma tarka dene lagate ho, vivAda karane lagate ho| tuma hajAra siddhAta khar3e karake batAne lagate ho ki nahIM, maiM ThIka huuN| agara janaka ne jarA bhI koziza kI hotI ki maiM ThIka hUM to ve galata ho gaye hote| kyoMki ThIka siddha karane kI koziza galata AdamI hI karatA hai| agara koI bhI tarka diyA hotA aura yaha siddha karane kI koziza kI hotI bauddhika rUpa se ki nahIM, Apa galata haiM, maiM ThIka haM to isa koziza meM hI galata ho gaye hote| jIvana kA gaNita bar3A virodhAbhAsI hai| yahAM jo siddha karane calA hai ki maiM ThIka hUM vaha galata siddha ho jaayegaa| kyoMki ThIka hUM, aisI siddha karane kI AkAMkSA hI tumhAre acetana meM tabhI uThatI hai jaba tumheM bhItara patA hI hotA hai ki tuma galata ho| AtmarakSA kA bhAva bhItara galata kI pratIti se paidA hotA hai- bhaya ke kAraNa ki kahIM bAta khala to na jAyegI? kahIM mere bhItara kA rAja jAhira to na ho jAyegA? yaha to guru parde uThAne lagA! yaha to mujhe nagna kiye de rahA hai! nahIM, aisI bAta bhI nahIM utthii| janaka ke ye sUtra tuma sunoge, ye cakita karane vAle sUtra haiN| parIkSA kaThora thI, guru kI AMkha teja talavAra kI dhAra kI taraha thii| aura guru ne jarA bhI rahama na kiyA thaa| guru bar3A berahama thaa| aura guru ne coTa pUrI kI thI, jitanI kI jA sakatI thii| aura guru ne saba daravAjoM se coTa kI thI; kahIM se bhAgane kI jagaha na chor3I thii| pahale bhoga ke daravAje roka diye, phira tyAga kA bhI daravAjA roka diyaa| bacane kA upAya na chor3A thaa| guru ne khUba kasA thA, saba tarapha se kasA thaa| agara thor3I bhI saMbhAvanA hotI janaka ke bhItara aMdhakAra kI, to ina sUtroM kA janma nahIM ho sakatA thaa| koI aMdhakAra kI saMbhAvanA nahIM raha gayI thii| janaka ne aise uttara diyA jisameM AtmarakSA kA bhAva bilakula nahIM; aise uttara diyA jisameM tarka-saraNI hai hI nhiiN| uttara kahanA bhI ThIka nahIM hai| janaka ne jo uttara diyA hai, vaha pratidhvani hai, uttara nhiiN| guru ne darpaNa sAmane rakha diyA thA, janaka ne apanA hRdaya sAmane rakha diyA, usa darpaNa meM jo jhalakA, ve hI ye sUtra haiN| jarA bhI apane ko oTa meM chipAne kI koziza na kii| jarA bhI cauMka kara saMdeha se na bhre| jarA bhI tarka ko bIca meM na laaye| jaise guru ne kucha parIkSA hI nahIM lI hai, isI taraha janaka ne uttara diye| pahalA sUtra, janaka ne kahA. 'haMta, bhogalIlA ke sAtha khelate hue AtmajJAnI dhIrapuruSa kI barAbarI
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________________ saMsAra ko sira para Dhone vAle mUr3ha puruSoM ke sAtha kadApi nahIM ho sakatI hai| ' pahalA zabda hai. 'haMta!' usameM sArI zraddhA uMDela dii| 'haMta' bar3A pyArA zabda hai| jainoM meM usakA pUrA rUpa hai ' arihNt'| bauddhoM meM usakA rUpa hai 'arhata | hiMdU saMkSipta 'haMta' kA upayoga karate haiN| haMta kA, arihaMta kA, arhata kA artha hotA hai, jisane apane zatruoM para vijaya pA lI - kAma, krodha, lobha, moha, bhoga, tyAga, ihaloka, paraloka! jisane apanI samasta AkAMkSAoM para vijaya pA lI, jo niSkAkSA ko upalabdha huA hai, vahI hai arihaMta / sUtra kI udaghoSaNA karate haiM janaka, aSTAvakra ko arihaMta kaha kara - parama zraddhA se! isase bar3A zabda nahIM hai bhASA meN| arihaMta kA artha hotA hai. bhagavAna, arihaMta kA artha hotA hai. AkhirI caitanya kI dazA, jisake pAra phira kucha bhI nahIM hai| jo-jo haTAnA thA, haTA diyaa| jo-jo girAnA thA, girA diyaa| jo - jo miTAnA thA, miTA diyaa| jo jo jItanA thA, jIta liyaa| aba kucha bhI nahIM bacA ! zuddha caitanya kA sAgara raha gyaa| vaisI dazA kA nAma hai 'arihaMta' / aura haMta kA eka artha aura bhI hai jo bar3A kImatI hai| hama to isakA eka hI taraha se upayoga karate haiM sAdhAraNa bhASA meN| jaba koI AdamI apane ko mAra letA hai to hama kahate haiM : AtmahaMtA / haMta kA artha hotA hai, jisane apane ko miTA liyA; jisane apane ko samApta kara diyA; jisake bhItara 'maiM na rahA; jisake bhItara ahaMkAra na rahA; jisane apane ko bilakula samApta kara diyA; jisane apanI koI rUpa-rekhA na bacAyI, nAma-patA na chor3A; jo zUnyavata huA; jo mahAzUnya huA; nirvANa ko upalabdha huA, jisane vastuta: AtmaghAta kara liyA! tuma jinheM AtmaghAta kahate ho ve AtmaghAta nahIM haiM, ve to kevala zarIra - ghAta haiN| eka AdamI golI mAra kara mara jAtA hai, isako AtmaghAta nahIM kahanA caahie| kyoMki AtmA to nahIM maratI / ahaMkAra to nahIM mrtaa| saca to yaha hai ki ahaMkAra ke kAraNa hI usane zarIra ko miTA DAlA hai| ahaMkAra para coTa par3a rahI thI; dAba laga gayA thA, muzkila dikhatA thA bacanA; divAlA nikala rahA thA, ki patnI bhAga gayI thI; ki parAjita ho gayA thA; cunAva meM hAra gayA thA - AtmahatyA kara lii| 'AtmahatyA' kahanI nahIM cAhie-'zarIra-hatyA', 'deha-hatyA' / mana, ahaMkAra saba maujUda hai| phira janma le legaa| dera nahIM lgegii| phira kisI deha meM utara jAyegA / lekina jJAnI vastuta: AtmahaMtA hai| vaha apane ko miTA hI DAlatA hai pUrA kA pUrA / aura usake miTa jAne meM hI paramAtmA kA honA hai| jaba tuma kho jAte ho, tabhI prabhu hotA hai| jahAM tuma nahIM ho, vahIM bhagavAna hai| tumhArA milana bhagavAna se kabhI na ho skegaa| tuma jaba taka khojate rahoge taba taka bhaTakate rhoge| kyoMki tuma jaba taka khojate rahoge tuma tuma hI bane rhoge| kala eka yuvaka iMgalaiMDa se AyA aura mujhase kahane lagA ki maiM Apake pAsa AyA hUM / merI jI meM bar3I AsthA hai; bar3A vizvAsa hai mujhe jIsasa meM usane kahA- kyA Apa mere vizvAsa ko dRr3ha banA sakeMge? kyA Apa mere vizvAsa ko aura majabUta banA sakeMge? to maiM saMnyasta hone ko taiyAra huuN| maiMne
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________________ usase kahA. phira hameM bAtacIta sApha kara lenI cAhie, kyoMki tumhAre vizvAsa ko majabUta banAne kA artha to tumhIM ko majabUta banAnA hogaa| tuma socate ho tuma jIsasa para vizvAsa karate ho? tumheM jIsasa se koI bhI prayojana hai? tamhArA vizvAsa majabUta honA caahie| aura jaba taka tumhArA saba bhAva na miTa jAye, 'maiM hone kA, taba taka jIsasa se tumhArA koI saMbaMdha nahIM ho sktaa| agara tuma mujha para chor3ate ho, to merI pUrI ceSTA yaha hogI ki tumhAre vizvAsoM ko bilakula miTA DAlUM kyoMki unhIM vizvAsoM ke sahAre tuma khar3e ho| jaba saba sahAre gira jAyeMge to tuma bhI gira jaaoge| aura jahAM tuma giroge vahIM sUlI lagI! jahAM tuma gire, vahIM tumhArA saMbaMdha krAisTa se huaa| usase maiMne kahA, jaba taka tuma krizciyana ho, taba taka krAisTa se koI saMbaMdha na ho skegaa| to agara tuma mujha para chor3ate ho, to maiM tumhAre krAisTa. tumhAre krAisTa ko to bilakula miTA dUMgA, kyoMki tumhArA krAisTa to tumhIM ko bharatA hai| jaba tuma samApta ho jAoge tumhArA krAisTa, tumhArI krizcieniTI, tumhArA carca, tumhArA zAstra saba kho jAyegA, aura tumhIM kho jAoge sabake AdhAra! -taba jisakA prAdurbhAva hogA, use phira tuma cAhe krAisTa kahanA, cAhe buddha kahanA, cAhe jina kahanA, tumheM jo marjI ho khnaa| usase phira mujhe koI prayojana nahIM, vaha nAma kI hI bAta hai| na to jIsasa kA nAma krAisTa thA, na buddha kA nAma buddha thA, na mahAvIra kA nAma jina thA, ve to caitanya kI avasthA ke nAma haiM-AkhirI avasthA ke nAma haiN| jina kA artha : jisane jIta liyaa| buddha kA artha. jo jAga gyaa| krAisTa kA artha bhI hai. jo sUlI se gujara gayA aura phira bhI na mraa| jo mRtyu se gujara gayA aura mahAjIvana ko upalabdha ho gayA-krAisTa kA artha hai| sUlI gujara gayI aura phira bhI kucha na mittaa| jo zAzvata thA vaha banA rahA, jo vyartha thA vahI chUTa gyaa| sUlI para jo marA, ve jIsasa the-sUlI se jo baca rahA, ve krAisTa! vahI punarujjIvana kI kathA kA artha hai| haMtA kA artha hai. jisane apane ko poMcha DAlA, miTA DAlA; jisane apane hAtha se apane ahaMkAra ko ghoMTa diyA, galA ghoMTa diyaa| phira bacate haiM hama-asIma kI bhAMti, anaMta kI bhAMti, zAzvata- sanAtana kI bhaati| ThIka kiyA janaka ne uttara dene meM jo pahalA zabda upayoga kiyA, usameM saba kaha diyaa| usameM saba kaha diyA ki Apa mujhe dhokhA na de paayeNge| Apa mujhe nArAja na kara paayeNge| kitanI hI parIkSA lo merI, kSaNa bhara ko bhI maiM nahIM bhUlUMgA ki tuma pahuMca gaye ho| tumhArI kaThoratA ke kAraNa maiM aisA soca bhI nahIM sakatA hUM ki tumhAre mana meM IrSyA hogii| tuma to ho hI nahIM to IrSyA kaisI? tuma to ho hI nahIM, to ahaMkAra kaisA? tuma to ho hI nahIM, to kaThoratA kaisI? isalie pahalA 'haMta' zabda upayoga kiyaa| usa 'haMta' meM saba kaha diyaa| bAta to vahIM khatma ho gayI, zeSa sUtra to phira vyAkhyA haiN| zeSa sUtroM meM to isI bAta ko phailA kara khaa| haMtAtmazasya dhIrasya khelato bhogliilyaa| na hi saMsAravAhIkaimUrai saha smaantaa|| 'he haMta, bhogalIlA ke sAtha khelate hue AtmajJAnI dhIrapuruSa kI barAbarI saMsAra ko sira para
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________________ DhonevAle mUr3ha puruSoM ke sAtha kadApi nahIM ho sktii| ' aura parIkSA ko vyaktigata rUpa se na liyaa| uttara dekhate haiM! uttara meM yaha nahIM kahA ki Apa merI barAbarI ajJAniyoM se kara rahe haiM! 'mujhako to bIca meM lAye hI nhiiN| 'maiM' ko to uThAyA hI nahIM / maiM kA koI saMbaMdha na baaNdhaa| uttara bilakula nirvaiyaktika hai| kahA ki 'bhogalIlA ke sAtha khelate hue AtmajJAnI dhIrapuruSa kI barAbarI saMsAra ko sira para DhonevAle mUr3ha puruSoM ke sAtha kadApi nahIM ho sktii| ' donoM saMsAra meM khar3e haiN| ajJAnI bhI khar3A hai, jJAnI bhI khar3A hai| donoM bAjAra meM khar3e haiN| lekina donoM ke khar3e hone ke DhaMga meM pharka hai| donoM kA sthAna bhalA eka ho, donoM kI sthiti alaga hai| ajJAnI to sira para Dho rahA hai, jJAnI ne poTalI ratha para utAra kara rakha dii| phira se tumheM vaha kahAnI kaha duuN| bAra-bAra kahatA hUM kyoMki bar3I mahatvapUrNa hai| samrATa calA A rahA hai zikAra khela kara apane ratha meM baiThA huA, dekhatA hai eka bhikhArI ko poTalI liye hue rAste para biThA letA hai ratha meM ki chor3a dUMgA jahAM tujhe utaranA ho; kahAM tujhe utaranA hai ? bhikhArI bar3A sakapakAtA hai| baiTha to jAtA hai ratha meM DarA-DarA ! kahanA to cAhatA hai ki nahIM mahArAja, maiM aura ratha meM baiThUM nahIM, nahIM! magara itanI bhI himmata nahIM, 'nahIM' kahane se kahIM samrATa nArAja na ho jAye! usa svarNa -siMhAsana para sikur3A - sikur3A baiThA hai, ghabar3AyA huA baiThA hai ki kahIM mere kAraNa saba gaMdA na ho jaaye| maiM dIna-hIna, isa rAjaratha para baiThUM ! lekina poTalI usane apane sira para uThA rakhI hai| samrATa thor3I dera bAda kahatA hai : are pAgala, poTalI nIce rakha ! aba poTalI sira para kyoM rakhe hai? vaha kahatA hai : nahIM mahArAja, itanI hI dayA kyA kama hai ki Apane mujhe baiThA liyA! aura apanI poTalI kA vrajana bhI Apake ratha para rakhUM ? nahIM-nahIM, yaha jyAdatI ho jaayegii| yaha to aziSTAcAra ho jaayegaa| mAnA ki maiM dIna-hIna garIba AdamI hUM itanI to buddhi mujhe bhI hai| poTalI to maiM sira para hI rakhUMgA, Apa kucha bhI kho| maiM baiTha gayA, yahI bahuta-baiThanA bhI nahIM thA mujhe| Dara ke mAre baiTha gayA hUM ki kahIM Apa nArAja na ho jaayeN| mere paira to calane ke lie hI bane haiN| maiM to garIba AdamI hUM yaha ratha mere lie nahIM hai| mujhe bar3I dikkata ho rahI hai| to kama se kama poTalI to mujhe sira para rakhe rahane deN| itanA bojha Apake ratha para aura DAlUM - nahIM, yaha mujhase na ho skegaa| aba tuma ratha meM baiThe ho, poTalI sira para rakho ki nIce - barAbara hai| ka kahate haiM. jJAnIpuruSa bhI ratha meM baiThatA, ajJAnI bhI ratha meM baitthtaa| ajJAnI poTalI sira para rakhe rahatA hai, jJAnI poTalI nIce utAra kara rakha detA hai| 'saMsAra ko sira para Dhone vAle mUr3ha puruSoM ke sAtha jJAnI puruSa kI samAnatA kadApi nahIM kI jA sktii|' kyoM? bhogalIlA ke sAtha khelate hue...| vaha jo jJAnI puruSa hai usake lie to saba lIlA ho gayA, saba khela ho gyaa| vaha to isa jagata meM khela kI taraha sammilita hai| isa jagata meM use koI
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________________ rasa nahIM hai| isa jagata meM pakSa-vipakSa nahIM rahA usake mana meM, icchA- anicchA nahIM rhii| vaha to sammilita hotA hai-prabhu - marjI se / ve sUtra Age aayeNge| lekina jagata use khela ho gyaa| tuma dukAna para do DhaMga se baiTha sakate ho| eka DhaMga hai ajJAnI kA ki tuma socate ho. dukAna hI jIvana / eka DhaMga hai jJAnI kA ki tuma jAnate ho. eka khela hai - jarUrI; khelanA Avazyaka, jIvana kA hissA, lekina khela - mAtra ! donoM dukAna para baiThe haiM; donoM eka jagaha baiThe haiM - lekina donoM kI citta-dazA bar3I bhinna hai| eka sAkSI - mAtra hai, kyoMki saba khela hai| dUsarA bhoktA ho gayA; kartA ho gayA, kyoMki saba bar3A gaMbhIra hai| ajJAnI jagata ko gaMbhIratA se letA hai, jJAnI haMsa kara letaa| basa, utanI muskurAhaTa kA phAsalA hai| patnI mara jAtI hai to ajJAnI bhI use maraghaTa taka chor3a AtA hai, lekina rotA, cIkhatA, cillaataa| jJAnI bhI maraghaTa taka chor3a aataa|.. eka khela pUrA huaa| eka nATaka samApta huA pardA giraa| rone, cIkhane, cillAne jaisA kucha bhI nahIM hai| bhItara vaha sAkSI hI banA rahatA hai| draSTA- bhAva usakA kSa bhara ko nahIM khotA / itanA hI bheda hai| jJAnI saMsAra ko chor3a kara bhAge, taba jJAnI - taba to isakA artha huA ki abhI bhI saMsAra ko gaMbhIratA se le rahA hai, chor3a kara bhAga rahA hai| abhI saMsAra ko dekha nahIM paayaa| abhI AMkha gaharI nahIM huii| abhI utarA nahIM jIvana ke aMtaratama meN| abhI pahacAnA nahIM ki bhoktA aura kartA maiM donoM nahIM hUM, sirpha sAkSI - mAtra hUM / amerikA meM liMkana kI pahalI zatI manAyI gyii| to eka AdamI ne liMkana kA pArTa kiyA, pArTa kiyA eka varSa taka sAre amerikA meM usakA ceharA liMkana se milatA-julatA thaa| to use nATaka kA kAma diyA gayA ki vaha liMkana kA abhinaya kre| aura vaha nATaka kI maMDalI sAre amerikA meM ghUmI, hara bar3e nagara meM gayI, gAMva-gAMva gayI, sAla bhara usane yAtrA kii| vaha AdamI sAla bhara taka liMkana kA abhinaya karatA rhaa| lekina dhIre - dhIre, dhIre - dhIre logoM ko thor3A zaka huA ki usa AdamI meM gar3abar3a honI zurU ho gyii| vaha liMkana ke kapar3e pahanatA, nATaka meM to pahanatA hI, dhIre- dhIre vaha bAhara bhI pahanane lagA / maMca ke bAhara bhI calane lagA vaise hI jaise liMkana calatA thaa| thor3A laMgar3AtA thA liMkana, to vaha aise hI laMgar3A kara bAhara bhI calane lgaa| liMkana thor3A hakalAtA thA, to vaise hI hakalA kara vaha bAhara bhI bolane lgaa| logoM ne kahA ki yaha kyA majAka hai? pahale to logoM ne samajhA, majAka kara rahA hai| lekina phira dhIre-dhIre loga gaMbhIra ho gaye, kyoMki vaha to bilakula hI mAna baiThA ki liMkana ho gayA hai| jaba sAla bhara bAda vaha ghara AyA to vaha to bilakula liMkana ho kara A gayA thaa| sAla bhara abhinaya karate-karate vaha yaha bhUla hI gayA ki maiM abhinetA huuN| usane to mAna hI liyA ki maiM bra liMkana huuN| usake saMbaMdha meM to yaha lokokti pracalita ho gayI ki jaba taka isako golI na mArI jAyegI taba taka yaha na maanegaa| jaise liMkana ko golI mArI gayI aura liMkana kI hatyA huI-jaba taka isakI
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________________ hatyA na hogI, yaha mAnane vAlA nahIM hai| saba taraha ke ilAja kiye gaye, cikitsA kI gayI; DaoNkTaroM ko dikhAyA gayA, manovaijJAnikoM ko dikhAyA gyaa| saba thaka gaye samajhA-samajhA kr| ve usako samajhAyeM, vaha muskurA kara baiThA rhe| vaha kahe ki Apa bar3e maje kI bAta kaha rahe haiN| hada ho gayI, Apa mujhako samajhA rahe haiM ki maiM abrAhama liMkana nahIM hUM! ApakA dimAga ThIka hai? mujhameM kyA kamI dekhate haiM? ___ kamI usameM kucha bhI na thI, abhinaya vaha bilakula pUrA kara rahA thaa| vaisA calatA, vaisA bolatA, vaisA uThatA-baiThatA, vaisI usane dAr3hI-mUche bar3hA lI thIM-saba bilakula vaisA thaa| Akhira cikitsaka bhI usase thaka gye| aura unhoMne kahA ki yaha AdamI to hada hai! isako bharosA itanA gaharA A gayA hai! tabhI amerikA meM eka mazIna IjAda kI gayI thI, jisako adAlatoM meM upayoga karate haiM, jhUTha pakar3ane ke lie laai-ddittekttr| AdamI ko mazIna ke Upara khar3A kara dete haiM, usase prazna pUchate haiM aise prazna jinake uttara vaha jhUThe to kabhI de hI nahIM sktaa| jaise, usase pUchate haiM ghar3I dikhA kara ki kitanA bajA hai? aba ghar3I meM agara sAr3he ATha bajA hai to vaha kahatA hai, sAr3he ATha bajA hai| isameM kyA jhUTha bolegA, ghar3I sAmane hai| jhUTha bolegA kaise? usase pUchate haiM, yaha raMga kaisA hai, geruA hai ki harA hai? to vaha kahatA hai, geruA hai| isameM jhUTha kyA bolegA? usake sAmane kitAba rakha kara kahate haiM, yaha kitAba kurAna hai ki bAibila hai? vaha kahatA hai, bAibila hai| isameM jhUTha kyA bolegA? aise pAMca-sAta prazna pUchate haiM, jinameM saca bolanA anivArya hI hai| unameM jhUTha bolane kI koI jagaha nahIM hai| nIce mazIna grApha banAtI hai| jaisA tumane kArDiyogrAma dekhA ho, vaisA hI grApha banatA hai niice| usake hRdaya kI dhar3akaneM batAtI haiM ki bilakula ThIka cala rahI haiN| tabhI acAnaka usase pUchate haiM ki tumane corI kI? usake hRdaya meM to AvAja AtI hai ki kI, kyoMki usane kI hai| lekina vaha use gaTaka jAtA hai aura kahatA hai, nahIM! nIce kArDiyogrAma jo bana rahA hai, grApha jo bana rahA hai, vaha jhaTakA khA jAtA hai| kyoMki aba pahalI daphA kucha kahanA cAhatA thA aura kucha kahA, to eka jhaTakA lgaa| hRdaya kI dhar3akana para, zvAsa para eka virodha paidA huA eka davaMdava huA dvaMdva pakar3a jAtA hai| basa, vahIM use pakar3a lete haiN| to kisI ne sujhAva diyA ki isa AdamI ko lAi-DiTekTara para khar3A kara ke dekho| to use khar3A kiyA gyaa| to usake saba cikitsaka ikaTThe hue parivAra ke loga ikaTThe hue| vaha AdamI bhI thaka gayA thA; roja-roja, roja-roja sabhI samajhAte the| usane usa dina kahA ki acchA calo, jhaMjhaTa khatma kro| hUM to maiM abrAhama liMkana lekina kyA karUM! aba duniyA hI mAnane ko rAjI nahIM hai to jAne do duniyA ko, kaha deMge ki nahIM haiN| isa kisse ko aba khatma kiyA jaaye| lAi-DiTekTara para khar3A kiyA; pAMca-sAta aise prazna pUche jo ThIka uttara diye jA sakate the| taba usase pUchA ki kyA tuma abrAhama liMkana ho? usane kahA ki nahIM! aura nIce lAi-DiTekTara ne kahA ki yaha jhUTha bola rahA hai| itanA gaharA bharosA! Upara se kaha rahA hai, nahIM! lAi-DiTekTara bhI kahatA
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________________ hai ki hai to yaha abrAhama liMkana! hamArI bhI aisI dazA hai| jnmoN-jnmoN..| usane to eka hI sAla kAma kiyA thA abrAhama liMkana kA, hama janmoM-janmoM se kartA aura bhoktA bane haiN| koI lAi-DiTekTara hameM pakaDa nahIM sktaa| agara hama kaheM bhI lAi-DiTekTara para khar3e ho kara ki hama sAkSI haiM, lAi-DiTekTara kahegA, yaha AdamI jhUTha bola rahA hai-kartA- bhoktA hai| sAkSI-bilakula nahIM! hamArI Adata laMbI aura prAcIna ho gayI hai-purAtana hai! sadiyoM se calI AtI hai| jaba koI vyakti jAgatA hai, to bhAgatA thor3e hI hai kahIM, bhAgegA kahAM? jAga kara itanA hI aMtara par3atA hai| yaha aMtara bahuta choTA aura bahuta bar3A donoM eka saath| yaha kisI ko patA bhI nahIM calegA, aisA aMtara hai| yaha to tuma guru ke sAmane khar3e hooge, usake darpaNa meM hI jhalakegA, aura kisI ko patA bhI nahIM clegaa| zAyada tumhArI patnI bhI na pahacAna pAye ki kaba tuma kartA se sAkSI ho gye| kaba, kisa ghar3I meM, kisa kSaNa meM krAMti ghaTI-zAyada tumhArA pati bhI na pahacAna pAye tumhAre bacce bhI na jAna paayeN| jo tumhAre hRdaya ke bahuta karIba haiM ve bhI na jAna paayeNge| kyoMki yaha krAMti bar3I sUkSma hai-sUkSma, ati-sUkSma hai yh| itanI bArIka krAMti hai ki yA to tuma jAnoge yA guru jaanegaa| isake atirikta koI bhI nahIM pahacAna skegaa| kyoMki rahoge to tuma vaise ke vaise hii| dukAna karate the to usa dina krAMti ke bAda bhI tuma dukAna para jA kara baiThoge, tarAjU se sAmAna tauloge, becoge, grAhakoM se mola-tola kroge-sbkroge| ghara Aoge; baccoM ke sira thapathapAoge, patnI ke lie phUla yA AiskIma kharIda lAoge-vaha saba kroge| saba vaisA hI calatA rhegaa| zAyada pahale se bhI acchA cala pdd'egaa| kyoMki aba eka gahana samajha kA janma huA hai| aba tuma kisI ko vyartha kaSTa na denA caahoge| __ lekina bhItara eka krAMti ghaTita ho gyii| aba tuma dUra-dUra ho| aba tuma bahuta dUra ho| aba tuma kara rahe ho, lekina karane meM aba koI gaMbhIratA nahIM hai| aba nATaka hai| aba tuma jAga gaye ki yaha saba rAmalIlA hai| aba tumheM hoza A gyaa| isa hoza ko to koI hoza vAlA hI pahacAnegA aura prkhegaa| isalie guru kI bar3I jarUrata hai, kyoMki guru hI sAkSI ho sakatA hai| janaka ne kahA. 'bhogalIlA ke sAtha khelate hue AtmajJAnI dhIrapuruSa kI barAbarI saMsAra ko sira para Dhone vAle mUr3ha puruSoM ke sAtha kadApi nahIM kI jA sktii|' dekhanA, uttara meM ye 'maiM ko bIca meM nahIM laaye| agara thor3A bhI ajJAna bacA hotA to ve kahate, 'kyA Apa kahate haiM? merI barAbarI, aura saMsAra ke mUDha puruSoM se karate haiM? '-aisA uttara hotaa| uttara bilakula aisA hI hotA, lekina jarA-sA pharka hotA ki 'Apa merI tulanA mUr3hoM se karate haiM maiM jJAnI, mujhe jJAna kA udaya ho gayA!' nahIM, vaha to bAta hI nahIM utthaayii| jise jJAna kA udaya ho gayA, usakA 'maiM to asta ho gyaa| aba maiM kI bAta uThAne kA koI kAraNa na rhaa| aba to sIdhI bAta kI-siddhAta kii| sIdhI bAta kI-satya kI, sUtra kii|
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________________ haMtAtmajJasya dhIrasya khelato bhogliilyaa| 'he haMta, he arihaMta! khelatA hai jJAnI to bhogamayI lIlA ke sAtha, DhotA nhiiN| krIr3A hai jagata, kRtya nhiiN|' ajJAnI to khela bhI khelatA hai to bhI ulajha jAtA hai, gaMbhIra ho jAtA hai| jJAnI kRtya bhI karatA hai, to bhI ulajhatA nahIM, jAgA rahatA hai| jAnatA rahatA hai ki merA svabhAva to sirpha sAkSI hai| aisI aharniza suna bajatI rahatI hai ki maiM sAkSI huuN| yaha 'maiM sAkSI' kA bhAva pRSThabhUima meM khar3A rahatA hai| saba hotA rahatA hai| janma hotA, mRtyu hotI; hAra hotI, jIta hotI, sammAna- apamAna hotA, saba hotA rahatA hai| kabhI mahala, kabhI jhopar3e, saba hotA rhtaa| lekina bhItara baiThA jJAnI jAnatA rahatA hai ki lIlA hai, khela hai, krIDA hai| tumane dekhA, tuma usI rAste para subaha ghUmane jAte ho aura usI rAste para dopahara daphtara ke lie jAte ho, rAstA vahI, tuma vahI, rAste ke kinAre khar3e darakhta vahI, sUraja, AkAza saba vahI, par3osa ke loga vahI, saba kucha vahI-lekina jaba tuma daphtara jAte ho to tumhArI cAla meM tanAva hotA hai| taba tumhAre mana meM ciMtA hotI hai| subaha usI rAste para tuma ghUmane jAte ho taba na koI ciMtA hotI, na koI tanAva hotaa| kyoMki tuma kahIM jA hI nahIM rahe hoM-khela hai| ghUmane nikale ho; havA khAne nikale ho| kahIM se bhI lauTa sakate ho, koI maMjila nahIM hai| kahIM pahuMcane kA koI sthira sthAna nahIM hai| kahIM pahuMcane ko nikale hI nahIM ho sirpha ghUmane nikale ho| ghUmane nikale ho to eka mauja hotI hai| kAma se jA rahe ho, saba mauja kho jAtI hai| jJAnI apane samasta kAmoM ko khela banA letA hai aura ajJAnI khela ko bhI kAma banA letA hai| basa, itanA hI pharka hai| itanI ko karma bhI abhinaya ho jAte haiN| ajJAnI ko abhinaya bhI karma ho jAtA hai| vaha abhinaya ko bhI gaMbhIratA se pakar3a letA hai| jJAnI jIvana meM se kucha bhI nahIM pakar3atA, kucha bhI nahIM chodd'taa| pakar3ane-chor3ane kA koI savAla nhiiN| jo A jAye, jo hotA hai-hone detA hai| sirpha dekhatA rahatA hai| 'jisa pada kI icchA karate hue zakra aura dUsare devatA dIna ho rahe haiM, usa pada para sthita huA bhI yogI harSa ko nahIM prApta hotA-yahI Azcarya hai| ' vaktavya nirvaiyaktika hai| __ yatpadaM prepsavo dInA: zakrAdyA srvdevtaa| iMdra ityAdi devatA bhI dIna ho kara mAga rahe haiM : aura mila jAye, aura mila jAye, aura mila jaaye| jinake pAsa saba milA huA mAlUma par3atA hai, ve bhI mAMga rahe haiN| mAMga baMda hotI nahIM, dInatA jAtI nahIM, hInatA miTatI nhiiN| kitane hI bar3e pada para raho, hIna bane hI rahate ho : 'aura bar3A pada mila jAye! aura thor3I zakti bar3ha jAye! aura thor3A sAmrAjya vistIrNa ho jAye! tijorI thor3I aura bar3I ho jAye!' isakA kahIM koI aMta nahIM aataa| dIna dIna hI banA rahatA hai| 'jisa pada kI icchA karate hue zakra aura dUsare devatA dIna ho rahe haiN|'
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________________ aho tatra sthito yogI na hrssmupgcchti| Azcarya hai haMta, ki yogI vahAM baiThA hai-usa parama avasthA meM jisake lie devatA bhI dIna ho rahe haiM aura phira bhI harSa ko prApta nahIM hotaa| usakI sArI dInatA kho gayI hai| ise smjhnaa| jaba taka tuma sukhI ho sakate ho taba taka tuma ThuSI bhI ho sakate ho| sukha-dukha sAtha-sAtha haiM-rAta-dina kI bhaaNti| tuma eka ko na bacA skoge| tuma yaha na kara sakoge ki harSa to baca jAye, dukha kho jaaye| tuma yaha na kara sakoge. dina hI dina baceM aura rAteM samApta ho jaayeN| dina bacAoge, rAteM bhI rheNgii| sukha bacAoge, dukha bhI rhegaa| janma bacAoge, mauta bhI rhegii| mitra bacAoge, zatru bhI rheNge| vaMdva se tuma bAhara jA na skoge| jisa dina tuma dekhoge ki ye to donoM jur3e haiM eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiM, usa dina pUrA sikkA hAtha se gira jAtA hai| yogI usa pada para baiThA hai jisakI bar3e -bar3e devatA bhI AkAMkSA kara rahe haiN| lekina phira bhI harSa ko upalabdha nahIM hotA hai| 'vaha usa pada para sthita huA bhI, jarA bhI harSa ko utpanna nahIM hotaa| ' kyoM? kyoMki jo usa pada para milA hai, vaha to svabhAva hai| usake lie harSa kyA? jo milanA hI cAhie vahI milA hai| jo milA hI huA thA vahI milA hai| jisako bhUla se samajhA thA ki kho gayA, vahI milaa| khoyA to kabhI bhI na thaa| harSa kyA hai? apanI svayaM kI saMpatti pAkara harSa kaisA? janaka kahate haiM : Azcarya yahI hai ki saba pAkara bhI harSa nahIM hotA yogI ko| harSa hotA hI nahIM yogI ko| tuma AnaMda kA artha harSa mata smjhnaa| harSa to eka jvaragrasta dazA hai| harSa bhI thakAtA hai| tuma jyAdA dera harSa meM na raha skoge| harSa meM bhI taraMgeM uThatI haiN| jaise ciMtA kI taraMgeM haiM vaise harSa kI taraMgeM haiN| jaise dukha kI taraMgeM haiM, vaise harSa kI taraMgeM haiN| :parka itanA hI hai ki dukha kI taraMgoM ko tuma pasaMda karate, sukha kI taraMgoM ko tuma pasaMda karate ho-bs| magara donoM taraMgeM haiN| donoM meM citta to vikSubdha hotA hai| donoM meM citta to TUTa-TUTa jAtA, khaMDa-khaMDa ho jAtA hai| tumhArI akhaMDatA to bikhara jAtI hai| tumhArI zAMta jhIla to kho jAtI hai| tumhArA darpaNa to DhaMka jAtA hai| tatra sthito yogI na harSama upagacchati aho| Azcarya prabhu! janaka kahane lage aSTAvakra se ki jise pAne ke lie sArA saMsAra daur3A jA rahA hai; janmoM-janmoM kI yAtrA cala rahI hai ,. anaMta kI khoja cala rahI hai, anaMta se cala rahI hai-use pAkara bhI, usa siMhAsana para virAjamAna ho kara bhI yogI meM harSa kA bhI patA nahIM hotaa| vaha vahA bhI sAkSI banA rahatA hai| usakA sAkSI- bhAva vahAM bhI nahIM khotaa| jarA bhI taraMga uThatI nhiiN| AkAza usakA korA kA korA rahatA hai| na dukha ke bAdala, na sukha ke bAdala-bAdala ghirate hI nhiiN| 'usa pada ko jAnane vAle ke aMtaHkaraNa kA sparza vaise hI puNya aura pApa ke sAtha nahIM hotA hai, jaise AkAza kA saMbaMdha bhAsatA huA bhI dhueM ke sAtha nahIM hotaa|' tumane dekhA, cUlhA jalAte ho, dhuAM uThatA hai| dhuAM AkAza meM phailatA hai, lekina AkAza ko
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________________ gaMdA nahIM kara pAtA, na chUtA / itane bAdala uThate haiM, saba dhuAM haiM; phira-phira kho jAte haiN| kitanI bAra bAdala uThe haiM aura kitanI bAra kho gaye haiM- AkAza to jarA bhI malina nahIM huaa| na to zubhra bAdaloM se svaccha hotA hai, na kAle bAdaloM se malina hotA hai| janaka kahate haiM usa pada ko jAnane vAle kA aeMtaHkaraNa aise hI ho jAtA hai jaise AkAza / ' tandAsya puNyapApAbhyAM sparzo hayantarna jAyate / na hayakAzasya dhUmena dRzyamAno'pi saMgatiH jaise dhueM ke saMga se AkAza achUtA, kuArA banA rahatA - asparzita - vaise hI jJAnI ke sAkSIbhAva kA AkAza kisI bhI cIja se dhUmila nahIM hotaa| usakI prabhA, vaha bhItara kI jyoti dhUma - rahita jalatI hai| na mahala use amIra karate aura na jhopar3e use garIba karate / na siMhAsanoM para baiTha kara svarNa use chUtA; na mArgoM para bhikhArI kI taraha bhaTaka kara dInatA use chUtI / 'jisa mahAtmA ne isa saMpUrNa jagata ko AtmA kI taraha jAna liyA hai, usa vartamAna jJAnI ka sphuraNA ke anusAra kArya karane se kauna roka sakatA hai?' bar3A anUThA sUtra hai aba / hi AkAzasya saMgatiH dRzyamAnA api dhUmena nA apanI 'AkAza jaisA ho gayA jo dhuAM jise aba chUtA nhiiN...| 'jisa mahAtmA ne isa saMpUrNa jagata ko AtmA kI taraha jAna liyA hai. / ' T 'maiM miTA ki phira bheda na rhaa| jaise makAna ke AsapAsa tuma bAgur3a lagA lete ho, to par3osI se bhinna ho gye| phira bAgur3a haTA dI, bAgur3a jalA dI - jamIna to sadA eka hI thI, bIca kI bAgur3a lagA rakhI thI, vaha haTA dI, to tatkSaNa tuma sArI pRthvI ke sAtha eka ho gye| maiM kI bAgar3a hai| 'maiM' kI hamane eka sImA khIMca rakhI hai apane cAroM tarapha, eka lakSmaNa-rekhA khIMca rakhI hai, jisake bAhara hama nahIM jAte aura na hama kisI ko bhItara ghusane dete haiN| jisa dina tuma isa lakSmaNa-rekhA ko miTA dete ho-na phira kucha bAhara hai, na kucha phira bhItara hai, bAhara aura bhItara eka hue| bAhara bhItara huA bhItara bAhara huaa| tumane makAna banA liyA hai IMTa kI dIvAleM uThA lIM, to AkAza bAhara raha gayA, kucha AkAza bhItara raha gyaa| kisI dina dIvAleM tumane girA dIM, to phira jo bhItara kA AkAza hai, bhItara na kaha sakoge use jo bAhara kA hai, use bAhara na kaha skoge| bAhara aura bhItara to dIvAla ke saMdarbha meM sArthaka the| aba dIvAla hI gira gayI to bAhara kyA? bhItara kyA? kaise kaho bAhara? kaise kaho bhItara ? dIvAla ke girate hI bAhara - bhItara bhI gira gyaa| eka hI bacA / 'jisa mahAtmA ne isa saMpUrNa jagata ko AtmA kI taraha jAna liyA hai, usa vartamAna jJAnI ko apanI sphuraNA ke anusAra kArya karane se kauna roka sakatA hai?" AtmavedaM jagatsarvaM jJAta yena mahAtmanA / yadRcchayA vartamAna taM niSeddhuM kSameta kaH / / kisakI kSamatA hai? kaise koI rokegA?
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________________ janaka ke isa sUtra ko bahuta gaharAI meM smjhnaa| janaka kA yahI uttara hai| janaka kaha rahe haiM aba kauna roke? jaba maiM eka ho gayA to aba kauna roke? jo ho rahA hai, ho rahA hai| jo hogA, hogaa| aba rokane vAlA na rhaa| aba to 'ydRcchyaa'| aba to bhAgya! aba to vidhi| aba to paramAtmA yA jo bhI nAma do| aba to 'vaha' jo karAye, hogaa| aba to apane kiye kucha na hogaa| hama to rahe nhiiN| hama to gye| taba to jo hogA, use dekheNge| mahala meM rakhavAyegA to mahala meM rheNge| mahala chIna legA, to mahala ko chInatA huA dekheNge| aisI janaka ke jIvana meM kathA hai ki eka guru ne apane ziSya ko bahuta varSoM taka mehanata karane ke bAda bhI jaba dekhA ki koI gati nahIM ho rahI hai samAdhi meM, to kahA ki tU janaka ke pAsa calA jaa| aba jisakI gati samAdhi meM nahIM ho rahI thI, jAhira hai ki bar3A ahaMkArI rahA hogaa| usane kahA : maiM, aura janaka ke pAsa jAUM? aura janaka mujhe kyA sikhAyeMge? khuda hI to pahale sIkheM, pahale tyAga to kareM! mahaloM meM rahate haiM; rAga-raMga meM jIte haiM-mujhe kyA khAka sikhAyeMge? magara Apa kahate haiM to calA jAtA huuN| guru- AjJA hai, isalie calA jAtA huuN| gayA to, lekina gayA nhiiN| majabUrI jaisA gyaa| vivazatA meM gyaa| mAnanI hai AjJA, so pUrI kara denI hai| guru ne kahA to jaao| gayA, lekina akar3a thii| jaba pahuMcA janaka ke darabAra meM to vahA to rAga raMga cala rahA thA, saMgIta uTha rahA thaa| nartakiyAM nAca rahI thiiN| zarAba ke pyAle DhAle jA rahe the, darabArI masta ho rahe the| bIca meM baiThe the jnk| vaha hNsaa| apane mana meM usane kahA ki maiM pahale hI jAnatA thaa| abhI isako khuda hI bodha nahIM hai| aba yaha baiThA yahAM kyA kara rahA hai? aura agara yaha jJAnI hai, to phira ajJAnI kauna hai? aura agara isase mujhe sIkhanA hai. hAlata to ulaTI mAlUma hotI hai : isako to maiM hI sikhA sakatA hUM kuch| janaka utthaa| brAhmaNa devatA Aye the to unhoMne usake paira par3e aura kahA ki Apa vizrAma kareM; subaha vizrAma ke bAda apanI jijJAsA pragaTa krnaa| usane kahA, khAka jijJAsA! tumane apane ko samajhA kyA hai? kaisI jijJAsA? tumase jijJAsA karUMgA? usane kahA ki nahIM, ApakI marjI, karanA ho kareM na kareM; lekina abhI to vizrAma kara leM, bhojana kreN| bhojana aura vizrAma kI vyavasthA karavA dii| janaka ko dikhAyI to par3a gayA sIdhA-sIdhA ki isa AdamI kI ar3acana kyA hai isake guru ne kyoM ise bhejA hai? yaha bhoga se to chUTa gayA thA, yaha tyAgI ho gayA thaa| aura bhogI ko to dhyAna meM le jAnA kaThina hai hI, tyAgI ko mahA kaThina hai| dhyAna meM le jAne meM jo ahaMkAra bAdhA hai, vaha tyAgI ke pAsa to aura bhI majabUta ho jAtA hai-ThIka ispAta kA ho jAtA hai| tyAgI kA ahaMkAra to sTailina ho jAtA hai| sTailina kA nAma sTIla se banA hai| to vaha to bilakula sTailina ho jAtA hai| usako to jhukAnA muzkila dekha to liyA janaka ne| paira dhoye tyAgI ke| tyAgI to aura bhI akdd'aa| usane kahA, 'maiM pahale
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________________ hI jAnatA thA ki yaha mUr3ha mujhe kyA samajhAyegA! mere paira dho rahA hai! yaha khuda hI mujhase sIkhane ko utsuka ho rahA hai| subaha yahI jijJAsA karegA / ' to vaha jJAna se soyA / vaha thor3I-sI ciMtA thI mana meM, vaha bhI gayI ki kisI se kucha sIkhanA pdd'egaa| sikhAne kA majA ahaMkAra ko bahuta hai| sIkhane ke lie ahaMkAra bilakula rAjI nahIM hai| guru hone kA maukA mile to ahaMkAra tatkSaNa hone ko taiyAra hai| ziSya banane meM bar3I ar3acana hai, bar3I kaThinAI hai| subaha huI / janaka ne use dvAra para A kara jagAyA aura kahA ki caleM snAna ko pIche bahatI hai nadI, vahA hama snAna kara leN| ve donoM snAna ko gye| tyAgI ke pAsa to sivAya laMgoTI ke kucha bhI na thaa| do laMgoTiyA thiiN| to eka laMgoTI to vaha kinAre para rakha gayA aura eka laMgoTI vaha pahane thA, to nadI meM gyaa| janaka bhI usake sAtha-sAtha gye| jaba ve donoM nadI meM snAna kara rahe the, tabhI vaha tyAgI cillAyA. are janaka, tere mahala meM Aga lagI! sArA mahala dhU-dhU kara jala rahA hai| janaka ne kahA. merA mahala kyA? mahala meM Aga lagI hai, itanA hI kho| apanA kyA! na le kara Aye the, na le kara jAyeMge / usane kahA. tU jAna, terA mahala, merI laMgoTI...! vaha bhAgA, kyoMki vaha mahala kI dIvAla ke pAsa hI laMgoTI rakhI hai| bAda meM janaka ne use kahA : soca, yaha mahala dhU dhU kara jala rahA hai aura maiM kahatA hUM ki maiM binA mahala ke AyA thA, binA mahala ke jaauuNgaa| isalie aba mahala rahe ki jale, kyA pharka par3atA hai ? dekhatA hUM! lekina tU apanI choTI-sI laMgoTI kA bhI draSTA na ho skaa| to savAla yaha nahIM hai kitanI bar3I saMpadA tumhAre pAsa hai, karor3a kI hai yA eka kaur3I kI hai - savAla yaha hai ki usa saMpadA ke prati tumhArA bhAva kyA hai, bhoktA kA hai ki sAkSI kA hai? yaha Aga, kahate haiM, janaka ne lagavAyI thI / yaha upadeza thA janaka kA usa nAsamajha tyAgI ko / 'jisa mahAtmA ne isa saMpUrNa jagata ko AtmA kI taraha jAna liyA hai, usa vartamAna jJAnI ko apanI sphuraNA ke anasAra kArya karane se kauna roka sakatA hai?" kauna rokegA? koI bacA nahIM ! janaka yaha kaha rahe haiM ki maiM to aba hUM nahIM| parIkSA gurudeva Apa kisakI lete haiM? jisakI parIkSA lI jA sakatI thI, vaha jA cukaa| Apa mujhe yaha bhI nahIM kaha sakate ki tU aisA kyoM karatA hai, vaisA kyoM nahIM karatA? kyoMki aba niyaMtraNa kauna kare ? maiM to rahA nahIM- a to jo hotA hai, hotA hai| yaha parama avasthA kI bAta hai| tumane dekhA, choTe baccoM ko pApa nahIM lagatA, adAlata meM jurma nahIM lagatA, aparAdha nahIM lagatA; kyoMki unheM bodha nahIM hai / pAgaloM ko bhI aparAdha nahIM lagatA, kyoMki unheM bodha nahIM hai| buddhoM ko bhI aparAdha nahIM lagatA, kyoMki ve bodha ke pAra cale gye| ulajhana bIca meM khar3e AdamI kI hai| na to nIce pApa hai, na Upara pApa hai| jAnavaroM ko to tuma pApI nahIM kaha sakate, kyoMki pApI hone ke lie
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________________ bodha to caahie| lekina buddha ko bhI tuma pApI nahIM kaha sakate kyoMki bodha itanA hai ki sAkSI ho gaye, kartA kA bhAva hI na rahA / maiM sunA, mullA nasaruddIna - sardI ke dina the-apane ghara ke bAhara baiThA dhUpa le rahA hai| usakA beTA homavarka kara rahA hai; vaha usake kAna maror3a rahA hai, use gAliyAM de rahA hai| vaha usase kaha rahA hai. harAmajAde! kisa nAlAyaka ne tujhe paidA kiyA? are ullU ke paTThe ! par3osa meM paMDita rahate haiM eka, unhoMne sunaa| yaha hada ho gayI / yaha gAliyAM apane ko hI de rahA
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________________ hai! ullU ke paTTe kA matalaba huA ki tuma khuda hI ullU ho| taba to ullU kA paTTA! 'kisa nAlAyaka ne tujhe paidA kiyA! harAmajAde!' usane socA, paMDita ne, vaha bhI baiThA dhUpa le rahA hai| usase na rahA gyaa| usane kahA ki mullA tuma yaha soco to, ye gAliyAM kisako lagatI haiM? mullA ne kahA. jo sAlA gAliyoM ko samajhatA hai, usI ko lagatI haiM! maiM to samajhatA nahIM aura yaha to ullU kA paTTA hai, yaha kyA khAka samajhegA! Apa hI samajho! jo samajhatA hai, usI ko lagatI haiN| kahate haiM, paMDita jaldI se uTha kara ghara ke aMdara calA gyaa| usane kahA ki jhaMjhaTa.. hama isa jhaMjhaTa meM kyoM par3e? eka to bacce haiM, pAgala haiM; pazu-pakSI haiM, paudhe haiM-vahA kucha pApa nahIM hai, kyoMki vahAM koI samajha nahIM hai| phira buddhapuruSa haiM, aSTAvakra haiM, jIsasa haiM, mahAvIra haiM-vahAM bodha itanA saghana huA hai ki kartA kA bhAva nahIM rhaa| ina donoM ko koI pApa nahIM hai| pApa to bIca meM paMDito ko hai, jo samajhate haiN| tuma samajhate ho ki tumane kiyA, isalie tuma pApI ho jAte ho| tuma samajhate ho ki tumane kiyA isalie tuma puNyAtmA ho jAte ho| hama samajhate ho tumane kiyA isalie bhogii| tuma samajhate ho tumane kiyA-isalie tyaagii| jisa dina tuma samajhoge tumane kucha kiyA hI nahI-jo ho rahA hai, ho rahA hai; tuma sirpha dekhane vAle ho usa dina na pApa hai na puNya hai; na yoga hai na bhoga hai| isalie aSTAvakra parama yoga kI bAta kaha rahe haiN| yaha yoga ke bhI pAra jAne vAlI bAta hai| aisI avasthA meM na to koI vidhi raha jAtI hai, na koI niSedha raha jAtA hai| janaka kahane lage. AtyavedaM jagatsarvaM jJAta yena mhaatmnaa| 'jina mahAtmAoM ne apane ko jagata ke sAtha eka samajha liyA, jAna liyaa.| ' __yadRcchayA vartamAna taM niSedhuM kSameta k| '.. aba ve kaise rokeM, kyA rokeM, kyA badaleM?' badalAhaTa kI AkAMkSA bhI ahaMkAra kI hI AkAMkSA hai| sAdhanA bhI ahaMkAra kA hI Ayojana hai| anuSThAna bhI ahaMkAra kI hI prakriyA hai| isalie to janaka ne kahA ki Apa hI to kahe ki adhiSThAna, anuSThAna, AdhAra, Azraya saba bAdhAeM haiN| karane ko kucha bacA nahIM, kyoMki kartA nahIM bcaa| isakA yaha artha nahIM ki karma nahIM bcaa| karma to clegaa| karma kI to apanI dhArA hai| zarIra ko bhUkha lagegI, zarIra bhojana maaNgegaa| itanA hI pharka hogA aba ki tuma jAga kara dekhate rahoge ki zarIra ko bhUkha lagI hai, zarIra ko bhojana de do| magara bhUkha bhI zarIra kI hai, bhojana se Ane vAlI tRpti bhI zarIra kI hai| tuma bhUkha ke bhI draSTA ho, tuma tRpti ke bhI draSTA ho, tuma hara hAlata meM draSTA ho| karma to jArI rhegaa| karma to vidhi hai, bhAgya hai| karma to samasta kA hai, vyakti kA nahIM hai-samaSTi kA hai| vaha paramAtmA cala rahA hai| hajAra-hajAra kRtya cala rahe haiN| vaha tumase jo bhI kAma lenA cAhatA hai, letA rhegaa| lekina aba tuma jAnate ho ki tuma kartA nahIM ho| tuma nimitta mAtra ho| isa sthiti meM janaka kahate haiM kauna
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________________ roke, kaise roke, rokane vAlA kauna hai, kauna niyaMtraNa kare, kauna sAdhanA kare, kauna anuzAsana de? 'jisa mahAtmA ne saMpUrNa jagata ko AtmA kI taraha jAna liyA, usa vartamAna jJAnI ko..|' ____ yaha zabda bhI khayAla karanA-kahate haiM, 'vartamAna jJAnI' ko| jJAnI atIta meM nahIM hotA hai aura na jJAnI bhaviSya meM hotA hai| jJAna kI ghaTanA to vartamAna kI ghaTanA hai| yA to abhI yA kabhI nhiiN| jJAna jaba bhI ghaTatA hai ' abhI' ghaTatA hai| kyoMki abhI hI astitva hai| jo jA cukA, jA cukaa| jo AyA nahIM AyA nhiiN| ina donoM ke madhya meM jo patalI-sI dhAra hai, bar3I mahIna dhAra hai-jIvana-cetanA kI, astitva kI-vahIM jJAna ghaTatA hai| vartamAna jJAnI ko apanI sphuraNA se jInA hotA hai-svata sphurnnaa| vaha 'sarva' se AtI hai sphurnnaa| usake lie hama paidA nahIM karate, na hama niyaMtraNa karate haiN| na hama usake janmadAtA haiM, na hama usake niyaMtraka haiN| vaha sphuraNA AtI hai| pakSI gIta gA rahe haiN| vRkSoM meM phUla laga rahe haiN| yaha saba svata: ho rahA hai| yaha sphuraNA jAgatika hai| vRkSoM ko koI ahaMkAra nahIM hai| vRkSa aisA nahIM kahate ki hama phUla khilA rahe haiN| aisI hI avasthA phira A jAtI hai jaba vartula pUrA hotA hai aura vyakti buddhatva ko arihaMtatva ko upalabdha hotA hai, taba phira aisI dazA A jAtI hai| tuma buddha se pUcho ki Apa cala rahe haiM? buddha kaheMge ki nahIM, maiM to haM hI nahIM calUMgA kaise? vahI cala rahA hai, jo saba meM cala rahA hai| jo phUla kI taraha khila rahA hai, jo nadI kI dhAra kI taraha baha rahA hai, jo pakSI kI taraha AkAza meM ur3a rahA hai, jo AkAza kI taraha phailatA calA gayA hai anaMta taka-vahI cala rahA hai| pUcho buddha se, Apa bola rahe haiM? ve kaheMge ki nahIM, vahI bola rahA hai| hama to bAMsa kI pogarI-kabIra ne khaa| vaha jo gAtA hai, use hama pragaTa kara dete haiM, mArga de dete haiM: rukAvaTa nahIM ddaalte| hama to nimitta mAtra haiN| vartamAna jJAnI. vartamAna ke kSaNa meM jisakA sAkSI jAgA huA hai| tuma dekho, cAho to ise abhI dekha sakate ho, koI rukAvaTa nahIM hai| tuma sAkSI hokara abhI dekha sakate ho| cIjeM to calatI rheNgii| zarIra hai to bhUkha lgegii| zarIra hai to pyAsa lgegii| dhUpa par3egI to garmI lgegii| zIta bar3ha jAyegI to sardI lgegii| bhojana DAla doge zarIra meM to tRpti ho jaayegii| garma kapar3e pahana loge, zIta miTa jaayegii| dhUpa se haTa kara chAyA meM baiTha jAoge, dhUpa miTa jaayegii| karma to jArI rahegA, sirpha kartA nahIM raha jAyegA bhiitr| tuma aisA na kahoge ki maiM parezAna ho rahA, ki maiM pIDita ho rahA, ki mujhe bhUkha lgii| tuma itanA hI kahoge aba zarIra ko bhUkha lagI; aba calo ise kucha deN| aura zarIra ko bhUkha lagI hai, isameM tumhArA kucha bhI hAtha nahIM hai| prakRti hI zarIra meM bhUkhI ho rahI hai| aura agara dhUpa meM baiTha kara zarIra ko dhUpa laga rahI hai to paramAtmA hI tapa rahA hai -tumhArA isameM kyA hai? aba agara tuma jabardastI biThA kara isako dhUpa meM tapAo to yaha ahaMkAra kA lauTanA ho gyaa| tuma kaho ki hama to tapAyeMge, kyoMki hama tyAgI haiM, tapAyeMge nahIM to tapazcaryA kaise hogI,
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________________ to hama to baiTha kara tapAyeMge-to tuma niyaMtraNa kI taraha bIca meM A gye| taba jo ho rahA thA, tumane use hone na diyaa| agara tuma svabhAvata: hone dete, to zarIra khuda hI utthtaa| tuma ise karake dekho| tuma isameM jarA baha kara dekho| tuma cakita ho jaaoge| tuma dhUpa meM baiThe ho, dhUpa laga rahI hai-tuma sirpha dekhate rho| tuma acAnaka dekhoge zarIra uTha kara khar3A ho gyaa| zarIra calA chAyA kI trph| tuma kahoge ki hama na calAyeMge to kaise calegA? tuma phira galata bAta kaha rahe ho| tumheM patA hI nhiiN| tumane kabhI prayoga nahIM kiyaa| bhUkha lagI zarIra calA rephrijareTara kI trph| tuma sirpha dekha rahe ho| tuma na rokanA, na claanaa| yaha parama sUtra hai. sphuraNA se jiinaa| jo ho use hone denaa| na zubha-azubha kA nirNaya krnaa| - tuma ho kauna? na pApa-puNya kA hisAba rkhnaa| jo hotA rahe, jo hotA jAye usake sAtha bahate cale jaanaa| 'brahamA se cIMTI paryaMta cAra prakAra ke jIvoM ke samUha meM jJAnI ko hI icchA aura anicchA ko rokane meM nizcita sAmarthya hai|' __icchA aura anicchA donoM hI jJAnI kI ruka jAtI haiM; bhoga-tyAga, donoN| icchA yAnI bhoga, anicchA yAnI tyaag| pasaMda-nApasaMda donoM ruka jAtI haiN| kyoMki jJAnI kahatA, hamArA cunAva hI kucha nahIM hai| jo hogA, jo svabhAvata: hogA, hama use dekhate rheNge| hama use hone deNge| hama na use jhukAyeMge isa tarapha, na usa trph| jo svabhAvata: hogA, hama use hone deNge| yaha bAta to suno| yaha bAta to guno| isa bAta ko jarA tumhAre hRdaya para to phailane do| jarA prANoM meM isa bAta kA prakAza to pahuMcane do| tuma pAoge yaha bar3I muktidAyI bAta hai| jo hogA hone deNge| hama kucha bhI nA-nuca na kreNge| bhogI kahatA hai aura bhoga caahie| bhUkha khatma ho gayI to bhI khAye calA jAtA hai| zarIra to kahatA hai. ruko aba! zarIra kI sphuraNA kahatI hai : basa ho gayA, aba mata khaao| lekina bhogI aura khAye calA jAtA hai| bhojana meM bhoga nahIM hai, jaba zarIra kahatA hai nahIM aura tuma khAye cale jAte ho, taba bhoga hai| phira tyAgI hai; zarIra to kahatA hai bhUkha lagI hai, aura tyAgI kahatA hai, hamane upavAsa kiyA hai| ye paryuSaNa cala rahe haiN| hama upavAsI haiM, hama nahIM khA sakate! mAMgate raho, cillAte rho| zarIra ko jaba bhUkha lagI, vaha to naisargika hai| aba tuma jo jabardastI kara rahe ho, vahI ahaMkAra A rahA hai| jabardastI meM ahaMkAra hai| hiMsA meM ahaMkAra hai| hiMsA do taraha kI hai : bhogI kI aura tyAgI kii| loga mujhase A kara pUchate haiM : Apa apane saMnyAsiyoM ko tyAga kyoM nahIM sikhAte?. baDA muzkila hai! maiM apane saMnyAsiyoM ko sahajatA sikhAtA hUM na bhoga na tyaag| utanA khAo jitanA sahaja zarIra kI sphuraNA mAMgatI hai| utanA soo jitanI sahaja zarIra kI sphuraNA kahatI hai| utanA zrama karo, utanA bolo, utanA cupa raho-jitanA sahaja hotA hai| asahaja mata hone do| jahAM asahaja hue, vahIM saMtulana khoyA, saMnyAsa gNvaayaa| do taraha se saMnyAsa gaMvA sakate ho| saMnyAsa kA artha hI saMtulana hai; samyaka nyAsa; ThIka-ThIka
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________________ bIca meM Thahara jAnA; na isa tarapha na usa trph| tyAgI saMnyAsI hai hI nahI-ho hI nahIM sakatA; usI taraha nahIM ho sakatA jaise bhogI saMnyAsI nahIM ho sktaa| donoM jhuka gaye haiN| saMnyAsI to bIca meM khar3A hai| sahajatA usakA anuzAsana hai| paramAtma-sphUrti ekamAtra usake jIvana kI vyavasthA hai| vahI usakI vidhi hai| isalie jhena phakIra bokojU ne kahA-jaba kisI ne pUchA, Apa karate kyA ho? tumhArI sAdhanA kyA hai? -kahA ki jaba bhUkha lagatI, bhojana kara letA; jaba nIMda AtI to so jaataa| pUchane vAlA cauMkA hogaa| pUchane vAle ne kahA : yaha bhI koI bAta huI? yaha to hama sabhI karate haiN| yaha to koI bhI karatA hai| yaha kauna sI bar3I bAta huii| bokojU haMsane lgaa| usane kahA ki maiMne to abhI taka muzkila se ine-gine loga dekhe haiM jo yaha karate haiN| jaba bhUkha lagatI taba tuma khAte nahIM yA jyAdA khA lete ho| jaba nIMda AtI hai taba tuma sote nahIM yA jyAdA so jAte ho| yA to kama yA jyaadaa| kama yAnI tyAga, jyAdA yAnI bhog| ThIka-ThIka samyaka-yAnI saMnyAsa; utanA hI jitanA sahaja ho pAtA hai| sahaja ke sUtra ko pakar3a kara calate raho, mokSa dUra nahIM hai| sahaja ke sUtra ko pakar3a kara calate raho, samAdhi dUra nahIM hai| sAdho, sahaja samAdhi bhalI! vaha jo kabIra ne sahaja samAdhi kahI hai, usakI hI bAta janaka kaha rahe haiM, apane guru ke sAmane nivedana kara rahe haiN| ve kaha rahe haiM ki samajha gyaa| Apa mujhe ukasAo, ukasA na skoge| kyoMki bAta saccI ghaTa gayI hai, mujhe dikhAyI hI par3a gyaa| aba Apa lAkha idhara-udhara se ghumAo, Apa mujhe dhokhe meM na DAla skoge| aba to mujhe dikha gayA ki maiM sAkSI hUM aura jo sphuraNA se hotA hai hotA hai| na to maiM use rokane vAlA, na maiM use lAne vaalaa| merA kucha lenA-denA nahIM hai| maiM dUra khar3A ho gayA huuN| bhUkha lagatI hai, khA luuNgaa| nIMda A jAyegI, so jaauuNgaa| bokojU se kisI ne aura eka bAra pUchA ki jaba tuma jJAna ko upalabdha na hue the taba tumhArI jIvana-caryA kyA thI? to usane kahA ki taba maiM guru ke Azrama meM rahatA thA; jaMgala se lakar3iyAM kATatA thA aura kueM se pAnI bhara kara lAtA thaa| phira usane pUchA. aba? aba jaba ki tuma svayaM guru ho gaye aura tuma jJAna ko upalabdha ho gaye tumhArI jIvana-caryA kyA hai? bokoja ne kahA. vahI, jaMgala se lakaDI kATa kara lAtA haM kueM se pAnI bhara kara lAtA hN| usa AdamI ne kahA hada ho gayI! phira pharka kyA huA? bokojU ne kahA : pharka bhItara huA hai, bAhara nahIM huaa| pharka mujhe patA hai yA mere guru ko patA hai| kAma meM pharka nahIM huA hai| dhyAna meM pharka huA hai| kRtya to vaisA kA vaisA hI hai| lakar3I aba bhI kATa kara lAtA hUM lekina aba maiM kartA nahIM huuN| pAnI aba bhI bhara kara lAtA hUM, lekina aba maiM kartA nahIM huuN| maiM sAkSI hI banA rahatA huuN| kRtya calate cale jAte haiN| kRtyoM ke pAra eka naye bhAva aura eka naye bodha kA udaya huA hai| eka nayA sUraja camakA vijJasya eva icchAnicchA vivarjane hi sAmarthyama!
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________________ kahate haiM : jJAnI kI basa eka hI sAmarthya hai ki vaha icchA aura anicchA donoM se mukta ho jAtA hai| vaha na to kahatA, aisA ho; aura na kahatA hai, aisA nahIM ho| vaha kahatA hai, jaisA ho maiM raajii| jaisA bhI ho, maiM dekhatA rhuuNgaa| maiM to draSTA hUM-to kaisA bhI ho, pharka kyA par3atA hai? hAra ho to ThIka, jIta ho to tthiik| hAra, to terI; jIta, to terii| saphalatA, to terI, asaphalatA, to terii| aba maiM dekhatA rhuuNgaa| jIvana ko dekhUgA mRtyu ko bhI degaa| eka bAra sAkSI uTha jAye, to sArA jIvana rUpAMtarita ho jAtA hai| prabhu-marjI! jIsasa sUlI para laTake haiM, AkhirI kSaNa kahane lage 'he prabhu, yaha tU mujhe kyA dikhA rahA hai? kyA tUne merA sAtha chor3a diyA?' lekina cauMke khuda kI hI bAta samajha meM AyI ki yaha maiMne kyA kaha diyA, zikAyata ho gayI! yaha to yaha ho gayA kahane kA matalaba ki merI marjI tU pUrI nahIM kara rahA hai| yaha to merI marjI ko maiMne Upara rakha diyA aura prabhu kI marjI ko nIce rakha diyaa| yaha to maiMne use salAha de dii| yaha to maiMne 'sarva' ko niyaMtraNa karane kI ceSTA kara lii| to kahA ki nahIM-nahIM, kSamA kara! kSamA kara de, bhUla ho gyii| terI marjI pUrI ho mujhe to bhUla hI jaa| merI bAta ko dhyAna meM mata rkhnaa| basa terI marjI pUrI ho! prabhu-marjI! prabhu -marjI-agara prabhu zabda kA upayoga tumheM rucikara lagatA ho| arucikara lagatA hoM-koI jarUrata nahIM hai, zabda hI hai| sarvecchA-kaho 'sarva kI icchaa| samagra-icchA-samagra kI, icchaa| astitva kI mrjii| jo tumheM kahanA ho| itanI hI bAta khayAla rakho ki vyakti kI marjI nahIM, samaSTi kii| jaba taka vyakti kI marjI se jIte hoN-sNsaar| jaba samaSTi kI marjI se jIne lage to mokss| mokSa yAnI svayaM se mokss| jo hai, hai| jo ho, ho| isameM maiM bIca meM na aauuN| jo dRzya dekhane ko mile, dekha leMge-marusthala to marusthala, marUdayAna to mruudyaan| isameM maiM bIca meM na aauuNgaa| jo ho, ho; jo hai, hai| anyathA kI cAha nhiiN| icchA- anicchA ke vivarjana kA yahI artha hai. na vidhi na nissedh| vidhiniSedha kA kaMkara nahIM hai jJAnI; gulAma nahIM hai| jJAnI kisI anuzAsana ko nahIM jAnatA sarvAnuzAsana meM lIna ho jAtA hai| 'koI hI AtmA ko adavaya aura jagadIzvara-rUpa meM jAnatA hai..| ' 'koI hI kabhI viralA, AtmA ko adavaya aura jagadIzvara-rUpa meM jAnatA hai| vaha jise karane yogya mAnatA hai, use karatA hai| use kahIM bhI bhaya nahIM hai| ' AtmAnamadavayaM kazcijjAnAti jgdiishvrm| yadveti tatsa kurute na bhayaM tasya kutrcit|| samajho, kabhI koI viralA aisI mahaMta ghar3I ko upalabdha hotA hai jahAM bUMda ko sAgara meM lIna kara detA hai; jahAM ahaM ko zUnya meM DubA detA hai, jahAM sImA ko asIma meM DubA detA hai! koI viralA, kabhI! dhanyabhAgI hai vaisA viralA puruSa! honA to sabhI ko cAhie, lekina hama hone nahIM dete| hama aiMge DAlate rahate haiN| honA to sabhI ko caahie| sabhI kA svabhAva-siddha adhikAra hai| lekina hama hajAra ar3acaneM khar3I karate haiM, hama hone nahIM dete|
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________________ yaha bar3e maje kI bAta hai, tuma cakita hooge suna kara ki tuma jo cAhate ho vahI tuma hone nahIM dete| tumhAre atirikta aura koI tumhArA duzmana nahIM hai| tuma AnaMda cAhate ho aura AnaMda hone nahIM dete! kyoMki AnaMda ho sakatA hai sahajatA meN| tuma svataMtratA cAhate ho, svataMtratA hone nahIM dete| kyoMki svataMtratA ho sakatI hai kevala sarva kI sphuraNA ke sAtha eka ho jAne meN| tuma ciMtA nahIM cAhate, dukha nahIM cAhate; lekina tuma banAye cale jAte ho| kyoMki ciMtA aura dukha hai saMgharSa meN| samarpaNa meM phira koI ciMtA aura dukha nahIM hai| baho dhAra ke saath| yaha gaMgA jAtI hai sAgara ko-tuma isI ke sAtha baha calo! isameM patavAra bhI calAne kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai-chor3a do nAva ko! tor3a do patavAra ko! yaha gaMgA jA hI rahI hai saagr| dhAra ke viparIta mata bho| gaMgotrI jAne kI ceSTA mata kro| anyathA tuma TUToge; dukhI aura parezAna ho jaaoge| jo bhI prakRti se pratikUla jAtA hai vahI TUTatA hai; nahIM ki prakRti use tor3atI-apane pratikUla jAne se hI TUTatA hai| jo prakRti ke anukUla jAtA hai usake TUTane kA koI upAya nhiiN| jo saMgharSa hI nahIM karatA, vaha hAregA kaise? jo vijaya kI AkAMkSA hI nahIM karatA, usakI koI parAjaya nhiiN| chor3o apane ko, jAtI yaha gaMgA-calo, baha calo isa pr| hiMduoM ne apane sAre tIrtha nadiyoM ke kinAre banAye; bahuta kAraNoM meM eka kAraNa yaha bhI hai tAki nadI sAmane rahe! bahatI, sAgara kI tarapha jAtI nadI kA smaraNa rhe| aura yaha bhAva kabhI na bhUle ki hameM apane ko chor3a denA hai-nadI kI bhaaNti| nadI kucha bhI to nahIM karatI, sirpha bahI calI jAtI hai| bahane meM koI prayAsa bhI nahIM hai, ceSTA bhI nahIM hai| koI nakzA bhI le kara nadI nahIM cltii| gaMgA jaba nikalatI hai gaMgotrI se, koI nakzA pAsa nahIM hotA ki sAgara kahAM hai| binA nakze ke sAgara pahuMca jAtI hai| sabhI nadiyAM pahuMca jAtI haiM nadiyAM to chor3o, choTe-choTe jharane, nadI-nAle, ve bhI saba pahuMca jAte haiN| khoja lete haiM mArga-binA kisI zAstra ke| eka tarakIba ve jAnate haiM ki ulaTe mata baho, UMcAI kI tarapha mata bho| bahate raho, jahAM gaDDA mila jAye, vahIM samAte jaao| svabhAva pAnI kA nIce kI tarapha bahanA hai| basa itane svabhAva kI bAta nadI jAnatI hai| nadI ke kinAre baiTha kara hiMdU tapasviyoM ne, saMnyAsiyoM ne, manISiyoM ne kucha bhI nAma do-eka hI satya jAnA ki nadI jaise bahane vAle ho jAo, pahuMca hI jAoge saagr| bahane vAle sadA pahuMca jAte haiN| 'koI kabhI advaya aura jagadIzvara-rUpa ko jAnatA hai.| ' jagadIzvara-rUpa ko jAnane ke lie tumheM apanA rUpa khonA par3e-utanI zarta pUrI karanI par3e, utanA saudA hai! tuma agara cAho ki apane ko bhI bacA lUM aura prabhu ko bhI jAna lUM to yaha asaMbhava hai yaha nahIM ho sktaa| yA to apane ko bacA lo to prabhu kho jaayegaa| yA apane ko kho do to prabhu baca jaayegaa| aba tumhArI marjI! aura jo apane ko kho kara prabhu ko bacA lete haiM, tuma yaha mata socanA ki mahaMgA saudA karate haiN| mahaMgA saudA to tuma kara rahe ho. apane ko bacA kara prabhu ko kho rahe ho| kaMkar3a bacA liyA, hIrA kho diyaa|
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________________ jinako tuma jJAnI kahate ho, unhoMne mahaMgA saudA nahIM kiyaa| ve bar3e hoziyAra haiN| unhoMne kaMkar3a chor3A aura hIrA bacA liyaa| tumhAre sAtha sivAya dukha aura narka ke hai hI kyA? tuma ho, to sivAya pIr3A aura ciMtA ke hai hI kyA? tuma to kATe ho chAtI meM cubhe apanI hI / ise bacA - bacA kara kyA karoge? isako jo samarpaNa kara detA hai, vahI koI viralA..! AtmAnamadvayaM kazcijjAnati jagadIzvaram / vahI kabhI, kvacita, koI jAna pAtA prabhu ko aura jo use jAna letA.... yaveti tatsa kurute| phira vaha kucha nahIM krtaa| phira to vaha jise karane yogya mAnatA hai - vaha, jisameM tumane apane ko samarpita kara diyA - vaha jise karane yogya mAnatA hai, vahI karatA hai| phira usakI apanI koI marjI nahIM raha jaatii| yat veti tat sa kurute| - vaha to vahI karatA hai jo prabhu karavAtA hai| khUba javAba diyA janaka ne| ThIka-ThIka javAba diyA / aSTAvakra nAce hoMge hRdaya meM, praphullita hue hoMge isI javAba kI talAza thii| isI uttara kI khoja thii| tasya bhayam kutracit n| - aura phira aise vyakti ko kahAM bhaya hai! jisane paramAtmA meM apane ko chor3a diyA, use kahAM bhaya hai! bhaya to tabhI taka hai jaba taka tuma lar3a rahe ho sarva se| aura bhaya svAbhAvika hai, kyoMki sarva ke sAtha tuma jIta sakate hI nhiiN| to bhaya bilakula svAbhAvika hai| mauta ghaTane hI vAlI hai| hAra hone hI vAlI hai| tumhArI yAtrA pahale se hI parAjita hai| sarva se lar3a kara kauna kaba jItegA? aMza aMzI se lar3a kara kaise jItegA? to bhayabhIta hai, kaipa rahA hai| jaise choTA-sA baccA apane bApa se lar3a rahA hai- kaise jItegA? phira vahI choTA baccA apane bApa kA hAtha pakar3a liyA aura bApa ke sAtha cala par3A - aba kaise hAregA? paramAtmA ke sAtha apane ko ekasvara, ekalIna, eka tAna meM bAMdha dene para - phira kaisA bhaya? tasya bhayam kutracit na! zAstra kahate haiM : 'brahmavit brahmeva bhavati-joM brahma ko jAnatA, vaha svayaM brahma ho jAtA hai| ' phira kaisA bhaya hai? jAnate hI vahI ho jAtA hai jo hama jAnate haiN| tumane kSudra ko jAnA to kSudra ho gaye, virATa ko jAnA to virATa ho jaaoge| tumhArA jAnanA tumhArA honA ho jAtA hai| brahmavit brahmeva bhavati! aura zAstra yaha bhI kahate : 'tarati shokmaatmvit| ' aura jisane svayaM ko jAna liyA, vaha samasta zokoM ke pAra ho jAtA hai| phira use koI bhaya nahIM, dukha nahIM, pIr3A nahIM / saba dukha, saba pIr3A, saba bhaya, saba narka ahaMkAra - keMdrita haiN| ahaMkAra ke binA yaha saba aise hI
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________________ bikhara jAtA, jaise tAza ke patte havA ke eka jhoMke meM gira jAte haiN| jJAna kA jarA-sA jhoMkA, sAkSIbhAva kI jarA-sI havA-aura saba patte bikhara jAte haiN| janaka ne sIdhA-sIdhA uttara nahIM diyaa| sIdhA-sIdhA uttara cAhA bhI na gayA thaa| janaka ne to uttara bhI bar3A nirvaiyaktika diyA aura dara khaDe ho kara diyA; jaise kucha parIkSA unakI nahIM ho rahI hai| kyoMki jaba tumheM khayAla ho jAye ki tumhArI parIkSA ho rahI hai to tanAva ho jAtA hai| tanAva ho jAtA to janaka parIkSA meM asaphala ho jaate| becaina ho jAte bacAne ko, siddha karane ko, to gar3abar3a ho jaatii| ve jarA bhI becaina nahIM haiM, jarA bhI ciMtA nahIM hai| ve dUra khar3e ho kara aise dekha liye jaise parIkSA kisI aura kI ho rahI hai| jaise janaka ko kucha lenA-denA nahIM hai| aneka mitroM ne prazna pUche haiM ki guru parIkSA kyoM letA hai? kyA guru ko itanI sAmarthya nahIM hai ki vaha dekha le ki vastuta: ziSya ko huA yA nahIM? guru to saba jAnatA hai, phira parIkSA kyoM letA parIkSA sirpha parIkSA hI nahIM hai-parIkSA Age kI pragati kA upAya bhI hai| ye jo prazna pUche aSTAvakra ne, yaha sirpha parIkSA hI nahIM hai| parIkSA kA to matalaba hotA hai aba taka jo jAnA usako kasanA hai| agara ye sirpha parIkSA hI hotI to vyartha the| aba taka jo jAnA vaha to aSTAvakra ko bhI dikhAyI par3a rahA hai| usakI koI parIkSA nahIM hai| lekina aba taka jo jAnA usake saMbaMdha meM prazna uThA kara aba jo pratikriyA bhaviSya meM yaha janaka karegA, vaha Age kI pragati bnegii| to parIkSA doharI hai-atIta ke saMbaMdha meM, magara vaha gauNa hai| usakA koI bahuta mUlya nahIM hai| yaha to aSTAvakra bhI jAna sakate haiM sIdhA hI jAna rahe haiM ki kyA huA hai lekina jo huA hai usake saMbaMdha meM pUcha kara janaka jo pratikriyA karegA, jo uttara degA, usase Age ke dvAra khuleNge| donoM saMbhAvanAeM haiN| agara janaka galata uttara deM to pIche ke davAra baMda ho sakate haiM; jo khulatekhulate the, ve phira baMda ho sakate haiN| aura agara ThIka-ThIka uttara de, to jo dvAra khule the ve to khule hI rahege-aura bhI dvAra haiM, ve bhI khula jaayeNge| saba nirbhara karegA janaka ke uttara pr| guru ke sAmane janaka ko aba taka jo ghaTA hai, vaha to sApha hai; lekina jo ghaTegA, vaha to kisI ke lie bhI sApha nahIM hai| jo ghaTegA, vaha to abhI ghaTA nahIM hai| bhaviSya to abhI zUnya meM hai, nirAkAra meM hai, abhI usane AkAra nahIM liyaa| atIta kA to saba patA hai| atIta kA to saba patA aSTAvakra ko janaka se bhI jyAdA hai| janaka jitanA apane saMbaMdha meM batA sakegA, aSTAvakra usase jyAdA dekha sakate haiN| aSTAvakra kI dRSTi nizcita hI jyAdA ghira aura jyAdA gaharI hai| ve to bhItara taka jhAMka kara dekha leNge| usakA koI savAla bhI nahIM hai| atIta se kucha bar3A savAla nahIM hai savAla hai bhaviSya se|
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________________ bhaviSya kA kucha patA nahIM hai| eka kSaNa bAda kyA hogA, kucha nahIM kahA jA sktaa| kyoMki jIvana yaMtravata nahIM hai; jIvana parama svataMtratA hai| hote-hote bAta ruka sakatI hai; ghaTate -ghaTate ruka sakatI hai| AdamI AkhirI kSaNa se pahuMca kara lauTa sakatA hai| eka AdamI chalAMga lagAne jA rahA thaa| mujhe bacapana meM bahuta zauka thA nadI para UMcAI se kUdane kaa| jitanI UMcAI ho, utanA mujhe rasa thaa| aba mere sAtha jo mere mitra the, ve bar3e parezAna rahate the| kyoMki agara maiM kUda jAUM aura ve na kUde to unake ahaMkAra ko coTa lge| magara kUde to unake prANa saMkaTa meM! to kabhI-kabhI maiM dekhatA ki koI himmata karake daur3atA hai, mere sAtha daur3a rahA hai kUdane ke lie-cAlIsa phITa yA tIsa phITa kI UMcAI yA pacAsa phITa kI uuNcaaii| phira dhIre- dhIre to mujhe rasa itanA Ane lagA ki vaha jo nadI ke Upara relave kA pula thA, usase jA kara maiM kUdane lgaa| vaha to bahuta hI khataranAka thaa| usa para koI mere sAtha daur3a kara AtA AtA, AtA AtA bilakula Akhira meM; maiM to kUda jAtA, ve khar3e hI raha gaye! aba bilakula Akhira para A gayA thaa| koI zaka - zubA na thii| mere sAtha daur3A, kinAre para A gayA thaa...| eka bAra to aisA huA ki paMcamar3hI meM mere gAMva se thor3e phAsale para pahAr3I sthAna hai - vahA ke eka jalaprapAta meM hama kUdane gye| to mere eka mitra the, jo mere sAtha bahuta jagaha kUde the kAphI UMcAI thI, ghabar3A gye| kUda bhI gaye, lekina bIca meM eka jar3a ko pakar3a kara laTaka gye| kyA karoge? kUda bhI gaye! aisA bhI nahIM ki na kUde hoM-kUda bhI gaye, lekina bIca meM eka jar3a ko pakar3a liyaa| maiM jaba pAnI meM nIce pahuMca gayA DubakI khA kara Upara AyA to maiMne kahA ki aba yaha bar3A muzkila ho gyaa| unako utAranA bar3A muzkila ho gyaa| jo ho gayA hai, vaha to aSTAvakra dekha sakate haiM; lekina jo abhI hone ko hai, usakA koI upAya nahIM hai| bhaviSya bilakula nirAkAra hai ! ho bhI sakatA hai, na bhI ho! to isako tuma parIkSA hI samajhanA, yaha parIkSA se bhI jyAdA / parIkSA to hai hI parIkSA se bhI jyAdA, bhaviSya kI tarapha iMgita hai| parIkSA se bhI jyAdA, bhaviSya ko eka dizA meM lAne kA upAya hai; bhaviSya ko eka rUpa dene kA upAya hai; bhaviSya ko janma dene kA upAya hai| aura janaka ne jo uttara diye haiM, ve nizcita hI, sApha kahate haiM ki chalAMga ho gayI aura hotI rhegii| janaka ke uttara ne sApha kara diyA ki parIkSA meM to ve pUre utare, bhaviSya kI tarapha bhI sApha ho gayI hai, naye dvAra khula gaye haiN| guru jo bhI karatA hai, ThIka hI karatA hai| tumhAre mana meM aise prazna uThe ki kyA guru meM itanI sAmarthya nahIM ki vaha jAna le| aisA prazna agara janaka ke mana meM bhI uThatA to janaka cUka jaate| ve yaha khuda bhI kaha sakate the ki gurudeva, Apa to sarvajJAtA haiM; Apa, aura merI parIkSA lete haiM! are Apa to AMkha khola kara dekha lo mujhameM ! to Apa khuda hI patA cala jaayegaa| nahIM, janaka ne vaha bhI na khaa| kyoMki agara guru parIkSA lete haiM to parIkSA meM bhI koI rAja hogaa| koI rAja hogA, jisakA janaka ko abhI patA hI nahIM / janaka ne cupacApa parIkSA svIkAra kara
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________________ lii| guru jitanI parIkSAeM khar3I kare, svIkAra kara lene meM hI sAra hai| kyoMki tuma jitanA samajha sakate ho utanA hI tumheM samajhAyA jA sakatA hai| kucha hai, jo tumheM karAyA jaayegaa| yaha parIkSA to eka sicuezana, eka sthiti thii| guru ne to eka sthiti paidA kii| isa sthiti meM kaisA janaka pratyuttara lAte haiM, kyA pratidhvani hotI hai unake bhItara - usa pratidhvani kA eka maukA diyaa| isase atIta kA to patA cala hI jAyegA, vaha to binA isake bhI patA cala jAtA - lekina isase bhaviSya bhI sunizcita hogA / eka rekhA nirmita hogI, AyAma sApha hogaa| aise prazna ekAdha mitra ne nahIM, anekoM ne pUche haiN| maiMne unake uttara aba taka nahIM diye the, kyoMki maiM cAhatA thA janaka kA uttara pahale tuma suna lo / jaise maiMne 'svabhAva' kI pIche carcA kii| eka mitra ne A kara kahA ki Apane aisI bAta kI ki kahIM svabhAva dukhI na ho jaaye| maiMne kahA, dukhI ho jAye to hue anuttIrNA 'ki kahIM svabhAva samajhe na aura nArAja na ho jAye; kruddha na ho jaaye| ' kruddha hue, to phira maiMne jo kahA ki hAthI to nikala gayA, pUMcha raha gayI-pUrA sira to unhoMne ghuTA liyA, coTI raha gayI, to hAthI to nikala gayA, pUMcha aTaka gayI to phira pUMcha ke dvArA pUre svabhAva aTaka gaye! nahIM, lekina svabhAva ne burA nahIM mAnA, na dukha liyaa| samajhane kI ceSTA kii| aisI ceSTA jArI rahe, to hAthI to nikala hI gayA hai, kisI dina pUMcha bhI nikala jAyegI / svabhAva ne ThIka kiyA hai| hari oma tatsat!
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________________ krAMti: nijI aura vaiyaktika-pravacana-pAMcavAM dinAMka: 30 sitaMbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| prazna sAra: pahalA prazna : Apa Aja maujUda haiM, to bhI manuSya nIce aura nIce kI ora jA rahA hai, jabaki baddhoM ke Agamana para manuSyatA koI zikhara chUne lagatI hai| hajAroM AMkheM ApakI ora lagI haiM ki zAyada Apake dvArA phira navajAgaraNa hogA aura dharma kA jagata nirmita hogaa| kRpayA batAeM ki yaha visphoTa kaba aura kaise hogA? kyoMki badalanA to dUra, ulaTe loga ApakA hI virodha kara rahe haiN| pahalI bAta, manuSyatA sadA aisI kI aisI hI rahI hai| kucha virale manuSya badalate haiM manuSyatA jarA bhI nahIM badalatI bAhara kI sthitiyAM badalatI haiM, vyavasthAeM badalatI haiM, bhItara manuSya vaisA kA hI vaisA rahatA hai! to pahale to isa bhrAMti ko chor3a do ki Aja kA manuSya patita ho gayA hai| sadA kA manuSya aisA hI thaa| buddha ke samaya meM bhI loga aise hI prazna pUchate haiM buddha se, ki Aja kA manuSya patita ho gayA hai, Apa kucha kreN| lAotsu se bhI aise hI prazna, kanphyUziyasa se bhI aise hI prshn| purAne se purAnA zAstra khoja leM, purAne se purAnA zAstra yahI ronA rotA hai ki manuSya patita ho gayA hai| bebilona meM chaha hajAra varSa purAnI eka IMTa milI hai jisa para zilAlekha hai| usa zilAlekha meM yahI likhA hai ki Aja ke manuSya ko kyA ho gayA, patita ho gayA! chaha hajAra sAla pahale bhI yahI bAta hai| hara samaya ke AdamI ne aisA socA hai ki Aja kA manuSya patita ho gayA hai| isake pIche kucha manovaijJAnika kAraNa haiN| atIta ke manuSyoM kA to tumheM patA nhiiN| unake saMbaMdha meM to tuma kucha bhI nahIM jaante| buddha ke saMbaMdha meM to tuma kucha jAnate ho lekina buddha kina manuSyoM ke bIca jI rahe the unake saMbaMdha meM tuma kucha bhI nahIM jAnate ho| buddha ke saMbaMdha meM to zAstra haiM, unakI mahimA ke gIta haiM, unakI mahimA ke gIta ko tuma usa samaya kI manuSyatA
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________________ kI mahimA mata samajha lenaa| agara saca meM hI buddha ke samaya ke loga UMce hote to buddha kI kauna phikra karatA? aMdhere kAle bAdaloM meM hI bijalI camakatI hai| buddha itane bar3e hokara dikhAI par3e, yaha choTe manuSyoM ke kAraNa hI saMbhava thaa| agara buddha jaise hI manuSya hote bar3I saMkhyA meM to buddha ko kauna pUchatA ? kauna khayAla karatA? soco, kohinUra hIrA kImatI hai, kyoMki akelA hai| agara gAva, galI-kUce, rAha ke kinAre, nadI ke taToM para kohinUroM ke Dhera lage hote to kohinUra ko kauna pUchatA ? rAma kI hama yAda karate haiM, kyoMki jamAnA rAma jaisA nahIM thaa| kRSNa kI hama yAda karate haiM, kyoMki jamAnA kRSNa jaisA nahIM thaa| jamAnA to rAvaNa jaisA rahA hogA aura jamAnA to kaMsa jaisA rahA hogaa| AdamI sadA se aisA hI hai| lekina atIta ke saMbaMdha meM eka dhAraNA bana jAtI hai ki atIta suMdara thA, kyoMki atIta ke suMdaratama logoM kI khabareM tuma taka AtI haiM, atIta ke suMdaratama gIta gUMjate hue sadiyoM meM tumhAre pAsa Ate haiN| bAjAra kI bhIr3a bhAr3a, chInA-jhapaTI to bhUla jAtI hai, suMdaratama bacatA hai; phUla bacate haiM, kATe to bhUla jAte haiN| aura Aja, jo tumhAre nikaTa loga haiM unameM tumheM kATe dikhAI par3ate haiM kAMTe hI kAMTe saba tarapha dikhAI par3ate haiN| samasAmayika buddhapuruSa dikhAI bhI nahIM par3atA, kyoMki itane kIToM kI bhIr3a meM bharosA bhI karanA muzkila hai ki gulAba kA phUla khila sakatA hai| to jaba koI buddhapuruSa maujUda hotA hai usa para bharosA nahIM AtA; kyoMki buddhapuruSa to eka hotA hai aura abuddhapuruSa araboM-kharaboM hote haiN| bharosA Ae bhI kaise? lekina jaba samaya bIta jAtA hai to usa eka kI to yAda gUMjatI rahatI hai aura una anekoM kA vismaraNa ho jAtA hai| taba tumhAre saba mUlyAMkana astavyasta ho jAte haiN| AdamI sadA se aisA hI rahA hai| na to atIta ke samaya kA AdamI zreSTha thA, na tuma nikRSTa ho| na atIta ke samaya kA AdamI nikRSTa thA, na tuma zreSTha ho| AdamI AdamI jaisA hai, cIjoM meM pharka par3a gae haiN| yaha bAta nizcita hai ki atIta kA AdamI phieTa kAra kI AkAMkSA nahIM karatA thA, kyoMki phieTa kAra nahIM thI / isase tuma yaha mata soca lenA ki Aja AdamI bar3A patita ho gayA hai, dekho phieTa kAra kI AkAMkSA karatA hai| atIta kA AdamI eka zAnadAra ghor3e kI AkAMkSA karatA thA, eka acchI bagghI kI AkAMkSA karatA thA, ratha kI AkAMkSA karatA thaa| AkAMkSA vahI hai| bagghI kI jagaha phieTa A gaI, AkAMkSA meM koI pharka nahIM par3A hai| atIta kA AdamI aisA hI lobhI thA, aisA hI kAmI thA, aisA hI krodhI thA; nahIM to buddhapuruSa pAgala haiM jo samajhAeM ki krodha mata karo, vAsanA meM mata par3o, jo logoM ko samajhAeM, lobha chodd'o| tumhAre sAre zAstra zikSA kyA dete haiM ? zikSA kisako dI jAtI hai? agara loga alobhI the to buddha pAgala the jo logoM ko kahate ki lobha chodd'o| loga to lobha chor3e hI hue the- ve kahate, Apa bhI bAteM kyA kara rahe haiM? lobhI yahAM hai kauna? cAlIsa sAla niraMtara buddha gAMva-gAMva ghUma kara logoM ko samajhAte rahe.
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________________ lobha chor3o, IrSyA chor3o, mahatvAkAMkSA chor3o, ahaMkAra chor3o! nizcita hI ye bAteM logoM meM rahI hoMgI, anyathA ye auSadhiyAM kisako bAMTI jA rahI thIM? loga bImAra rahe hoNge| tumhAre zAstra gavAha haiM ki kisa logoM ke bIca meM likhe gae hoNge| jo bImArI hotI hai usakI cikitsA kA Ayojana karanA hotA hai loga kAmI rahe hoMge isalie to brahmacarya kI itanI prazaMsA hai| agara loga brahmacArI hI the to kI prazaMsA kA kyA prayojana thA? lAotsu ne kahA hai : agara loga dhArmika hoM to dharma-zAstra vyrth| ThIka kahA hai| agara loga sacamuca dhArmika hoM to dharma -zAstra kI kyA jarUrata? yA dUsarI tarapha se dekheN| kRSNa ne kahA hai ki jaba-jaba dharma kI hAni hogI maiM aauuNgaa| to usa vakta kyoM Ae the? dharma kI hAni ho gaI hogii| sIdhI-sI bAta hai. jaba-jaba aMdherA ghiregA, sAdhu-saMta satAe jAeMge, taba-taba aauuNgaa| to usa samaya yaha ghar3I ghaTa gaI hogii| agara tarka ko ThIka se samajheM, to jaba tumhAre ghara meM koI bImAra hotA hai tabhI vaidya ko bulAte haiN| jaba koI samAja patita hotA hai to use uThAne kI ceSTA hotI hai|| itane avatAra, itane tIrthaMkara kisalie paidA hote haiM? kahIM-na-kahIM AdamI galata rahA hogaa| to, pahalI to bAta yaha samajha lenA ki AdamI sadA se aisA hI hai| yaha jo hameM bhAMti paidA hotI hai, isake pIche aura bhI kAraNa haiN| sabhI ko aisA khayAla hai ki bacapana bar3A suMdara thA, svarNima! sabhI ko! hAlAMki baccoM se pUcho, koI baccA isa bAta ke lie rAjI nahIM kahane ko ki svarNima kAla bacapana hai| bacce jaldI se jaldI bar3e honA cAhate haiN| baccA bApa ke bagala meM kursI para khar3A ho jAtA hai aura kahatA hai, dekho tumse.| vaha usakI AkAMkSA kA sabUta hai; vaha cAhatA hai, tumase bar3A ho jaae| eka choTe bacce ko skUla meM eka zikSaka ne mArA usane kucha bhUla-cUka kI thii| mArane ke bAda use phusalAyA, samajhAyA aura kahA, 'beTA dekha, yaha maiM hUM isIlie ki tujhe maiM prema karatA huuN|' usa beTe ne AMkha se AMsU poMchate hue kahA ki prema to maiM bhI Apako bahuta karatAhUM, lekina pramANa abhI de nahIM sktaa| choTe baccoM se pUcho, ve jaldI se jaldI bar3e ho jAnA cAhate haiN| lekina bAda meM yAda raha jAtI hai sirpha ki bacapana bar3A saMdara thaa| kaise ho sakatA hai bacapana suMdara? kyoMki tuma bacapana meM bilakula hI parataMtra the, hara bAta ke lie asahAya the, dIna the aura hara bAta ke lie tumheM kisI kA muMha takanA par3atA thaa| aisI parataMtra avasthA, aisI svataMtratA-hIna avasthA kaise suMdara ho sakatI hai? lekina bAda meM yahI yAda raha jAtI hai ki bacapana bar3A suMdara thaa| manovaijJAnika kahate haiM, isake pIche eka kAraNa hai| AdamI kA mana, jo dukhapUrNa hai use bhulA detA hai, kyoMki dukha ko yAda rakhanA kaThina hai| dukha itanA jyAdA hai ki agara hama dukha ko yAda rakheM to hama jI na skeNge| to jo dukhapUrNa hai use hama haTA dete haiM, use hama acetana meM, garta meM DAla dete haiN| aura jo sukhada-sukhada hai usakI phUlamAlA banA lete haiM, jaise-jaise hama Age bar3hate jAte haiM jo sukhada
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________________ hai, usako ikaTThA karate jAte haiN| jo sukhada nahIM hai use chor3ate cale jAte haiN| to pIche ke saMbaMdha meM jo bhI vaktavya dete haiM, ve saba galata hote haiN| aura yahI sthiti bar3e paimAne para samAja ke saMbaMdha meM sahI hai| hama socate haiM ki atIta meM saba suMdara thA; saba svarNayuga atIta meM ho cuke / yaha bAta hara hAla meM galata hai, kyoMki agara atIta itanA suMdara thA to yaha vartamAna usI atIta se paidA huA hai yaha aura bhI suMdara honA caahie| agara bacapana itanA suMdara thA to javAnI usI bacapana se AI hai, yaha bacapana se jyAdA suMdara honI caahie| agara javAnI suMdara thI to bur3hApA javAnI se AyA hai, bur3hApA javAnI se bhI jyAdA suMdara honA caahie| aura agara jIvana tumhArA sacamuca AhalAda thA to mRtyu bhI nRtya hogI, utsava hogI, kyoMki mRtyu usI jIvana kA sAra - nicor3a hai| lekina tuma to dekhate ho ki bacapana suMdara thA javAnI se, javAnI suMdara bur3hApe se jIvana suMdara, mRtyu suMdara kabhI nahIM! yaha to tuma dukha-dukha ko chor3ate jAte ho, sukha-sukha ko cunate jAte ho / sukha tumheM milatA to nahIM, lekina jo kucha bhI kSaNabhaMgura smRtiyAM raha jAtI haiM, unhIM ko tuma sajA-saMvAra kara rakha lete ho| tuma Ae ho unhIM samAjoM se jinako loga svarNayuga kahate haiM, satayuga kahate haiN| yaha kaliyuga satayuga se paidA huA hai| agara yaha kaliyuga burA hai to kahAvata hai ki phala se vRkSa kA patA calA hai| agara phala galata hai to vRkSa sar3A huA rahA hogA, bIja se hI sar3A huA rahA hogaa| tuma sabUta ho isa bAta ke ki sArA manuSya jAti kA atIta tumase behatara to nahIM rahA, kisI hAlata meM nahIM rahA / tumase zAyada burA bhale rahA ho, tumase behatara to nahIM ho sakatA, kyoMki tuma usake phala ho| to pahalI to maiM yaha bhrAMti tumhAre mana se haTA denA cAhatA huuN| maiM tumase yaha bhI nahIM kahanA cAhatA ki tuma zreSTha ho| tumase yaha bhI nahIM kahanA cAhatA ki tuma nikRSTa ho| tumase maiM eka bahu sIdhA-sAdA prastAva karatA hUM ki tuma vaise hI ho jaise sadA se manuSya rahA hai| isalie yaha ciMtA vicAra chor3a kara isa bAta para dhyAna do ki kucha manuSyoM ne kabhI-kabhI jIvana meM krAMti kI hai| tuma sabakI ciMtA bhI bhUla jaao| tuma to itanI hI phikra kara lo ki tumhAre jIvana meM prakAza utara Ae tumhArA dIyA jala jAe to basa kAphI hai| 'Apa maujUda haiM to bhI manuSya nIce kI ora nIce kI ora jA rahA hai|' maiM kisI ko nIce kI ora jAte nahIM dekhatA aura na kisI ko UMce jAte dekhtaa| loga kolha ke baila kI taraha ghUma rahe haiM, vahIM ke vahIM ghUma rahe haiN| AMkha para paTTiyAM baMdhI haiM, socate haiM kahIM jA rahe haiN| koI kahIM nahIM jA rahA hai| kabhI-kabhI koI ekAdha vyaktiM AMkha se paTTiyAM haTA detA hai-dhAraNAo kI, siddhAto kI, dharmoM kI, rAjanItiyoM kI; khola kara dekhatA hai, dekhatA hai. are, maiM eka vartula meM ghUma rahA hUM kolha kA baila vaha nikala par3atA hai vartula ke bAhara / usa vartula ke bAhara chalAMga lagA lenA hI saMnyAsa hai| isa samAja meM kabhI dharma Ane vAlA nahIM hai; kucha saMnyAsiyoM ke jIvana meM dharma Ane vAlA
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________________ hai| dharma to mahAkrAMti hai-aura krAMti vyakti meM hI ghaTa sakatI hai| samAja meM to jyAdA se jyAdA sudhAra ghaTate haiM, lIpA-potI calatI hai| makAna vahI kA vahI rahatA hai, kahIM palastara gira gayA to car3hA diyA; kahIM raMga kharAba ho gayA to raMga kara diyA; kahIM chappara kharAba ho gayA to kucha khapare badala diye, kahIM dIvAla girane lagI to sahAre aura Teka lagA dI magara makAna vahI kA vahI rahatA hai| krAMti to vyakti meM ghaTatI hai| nitAMta rUpa se vaiyaktika hai kraaNti| to maiM to kisI ko nIce -UMce jAte nahIM dekhtaa| samAja to vahIM kA vahIM hai| pUchA hai. .....jabaki buddhapuruSoM ke Agamana para manuSyatA koI zikhara chUne lagatI hai| ' manuSyatA nahIM, kucha manuSya! kucha manuSyoM meM chipI manuSyatA jarUra chUne lagatI hai| lekina usa zikhara ko chUne vAle logoM kI saMkhyA sadA bar3I hotI hai| kabhI karor3a meM eka AdamI buddhoM ke sAtha usa anaMta yAtrA para nikalatA hai| Aja tumheM lagatA hai ki buddha ke samaya meM bar3I krAMti huI hogI yA ke samaya meM bar3I krAMti huI hogI, lekina agara tuma anupAta dekho to tuma cakita ho jaaoge| buddha jisa gAva se gujarate haiM agara usameM dasa hajAra AdamI haiM to dasa bhI sunane ko A jAeM to basa paryApta hai| aura una dasa meM bhI jo sunane A gae haiM, unameM se eka bhI suna le to bhut| sunane A jAne se hI thor3e hI koI suna letA hai| Aja tumheM lagatA hai ki bahuta log..| abhI jo mujhe suna rahe haiM, unakI saMkhyA nagaNya hai| jo mujhe samajha rahe haiM unakI aura bhI nagaNya hai| jo majhe samajha kara apane jIvana ko badala rahe haiM unakI aura bhI nagaNya hai| samaya bIta jAne para yahI saMkhyA bar3I dikhAI par3ane lgegii| Aja jainoM kI saMkhyA tIsa lAkha se jyAdA nahIM hai| agara mahAvIra ne tIsa AdamiyoM ko badalA ho to do hajAra sAla meM unase tIsa lAkha kI saMkhyA paidA ho sakatI hai| bahuta jyAdA logoM ko nahIM gaa| DhAI hajAra sAla meM jainiyoM kI saMkhyA tIsa lAkha hai| tIsa joDe itanI bar3I saMkhyA paidA kara sakate haiM DhAI hajAra sAla meN| bahuta thor3e se loga badale hoNge| badalAhaTa sadA thor3e se logoM meM AtI hai| hI, una thor3e se logoM meM manuSyatA jo hai vaha bar3e UMce zikhara chUne lagatI hai| magara tuma isakI ciMtA na karake, isakI hI ciMtA karo ki tumhAre bhItara vaha zikhara chuA jA rahA hai yA nahIM? kahIM aisA na ho ki tuma sabakI ciMtA meM khuda ko bisAra baittho| aura vahIM ghaTanA ghaTa sakatI hai| sabakI ciMtA meM tuma to cUka hI jAoge aura saba ko koI lAbha na hogaa| '.. hajAroM AMkheM ApakI ora lagI haiM ki zAyada Apake dvArA phira navajAgaraNa hogaa|' ye bhrAMtiyAM chodd'o| kisI ke davArA kabhI koI navajAgaraNa na huA hai, na honevAlA hai| kitane satpuruSa hue tuma ye bhrAMtiyAM kaba taka bAMdhe rahoge? ye bhrAMtiyAM tumheM bhaTakAtI haiN| inake kAraNa tuma jo krAMti kara sakate the, vaha nahIM karate; tuma baiTha kara pratIkSA karate ho, hogaa| jaise kisI aura kA kAma hai! jaise yaha merI jimmevArI hai| jaise nahIM hogA to maiM doSI! taba to tuma sabhI buddhapuruSoM ko doSI pAoge, kyoMki vaha navajAgaraNa aba taka nahIM aayaa| maiM tumase yaha kahanA cAhatA hUM. vaha kabhI nahIM aaegaa|
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________________ aMgrejI meM usa navajAgaraNa ke lie jo zabda hai, uTopiyA, vaha bahuta acchA hai| uTopiyA zabda kA hI artha hotA hai, jo na kabhI AyA, na kabhI aaegaa| vaha sirpha tumhArI AkAMkSA hai - aura napuMsaka AkAMkSA hai| dUsare ke lie pratIkSA kyoM kara rahe ho? mere pAsa loga Ate haiM aura kahate haiM aba avatAra kA janma kaba hogA?' tuma kyA kara rahe ho ? janmAo avatAra ko apane bhItara ! tuma yaha uttaradAyitva kyoM TAlate ho? kisa para TAla rahe ho? mere pAsa loga Ate haiM, ve kahate haiM. 'bhagavAna sunatA nhiiN| itanI AheM uTha rahI haiM, bhagavAna kahA hai? AtA kyoM nahIM?' ye manuSya kI jAlasAjiyA, ye dhAraNAeM ! inase eka tarakIba tuma apane bhItara banA lete ho ki hameM to kucha karanA nahIM, baiThakara rAha dekhanI hai, jaba AegA taba hogaa| koI masIhA AegA, koI paigaMbara AegA, koI avatAra aaegaa| A cuke paigaMbara, A cuke masIhA, A cuke avatAra aura navajAgaraNa nahIM aayaa| tuma kaba jAgoge? kitane avatAra, kitane tIrthaMkara A cuke! kahAM navajAgaraNa AyA? kahAM huI krAMti rU nahIM, tumhArI bhrAMti hai| kisI dUsare se hone vAlI nahIM hai| tumameM ghaTanA ghttegii| samUha meM kabhI ghaTanA nahIM ghttegii| samUha meM jo ghaTatI vaha rAjanIti hai; vyakti meM jo ghaTatA hai, vaha dharma / tuma rAjanIti ko dharma para Aropita mata kro| agara loga sonA cAhate haiM to kauna jagAegA, kaise jagAegA me' agara jyAdA jagAne vAlA gar3abar3a karegA, sone vAle usakI hatyA kara deNge| vahI to huaa| jIsasa ko sUlI para laTakA diyA, sukarAta ko jahara pilA diyaa| ye loga jarA jyAdA zoragula macAne lge| aba jisako sonA hai, tuma uTha kara aura ghaMTA bajAne lage subaha se aura kahane lage prabhAta - velA A gaI, jAgo! para jisako sonA hai, vaha kahatA hai. sonA aura jAganA to kama se kama merI svataMtratA honI caahie| dUsarA AdamI A kara ghaMTA bajAne lage ki jAgo to use gussA Ae, bilakula svAbhAvika hai| aura sone vAle loga jyAdA haiN| soe hI haiN| ghaMTe bajAne vAle Ate haiM aura cale jAte haiM aura sone vAle karavaTa bhI nahIM badalate / yA bahuta se - bahuta karavaTa badala lete haiM, phira so jAte haiN| thor3e nArAja ho jAte haiN| agara bhale hue to kahate haiM 'mahArAja, namaskAra! Apa bar3e mahAtmA haiM! magara abhI mujha dIna ko chor3o, abhI merI suvidhA nahIM jAgane kii| japatA jruur| ApakI bAta bilakula ThIka hai| loga kahate haiM ki ApakI bAta bilakula ThIka hai, ki choDo, merA piMDa chodd'o| aba kauna vivAda kare? sone vAlA vivAda kaise kare? sone vAlA kahatA hai, mujhe sone do| mAnA ki brahmamuhUrta hai aura uThanA cAhie brahmamuhUrta meM aura kabhI hama jarUra uTheMge, aura yAda rakheMge tumhArI bAta aura tumhArA nAma smaraNa kareMge, tumhArI pUjA bhI kareMge, phoTo laTakA leMge, mUrti lagA deMge, sadA-sadA tumheM pUjeMge- magara abhI chor3o ! abhI mujhe nIMda A rahI hai| abhI maiM isa yogya nahIM, abhI maiM pAtra nhiiN| abhI ghara hai, gRhasthI hai, bacce haiM, patnI hai - abhI inako samhAlane do; eka dina to mokSa kI tarapha jAnA hai, Apa bilakula ThIka kahate haiN| isIlie tuma pUjA karate ho, maMdira banAte ho| tumhAre maMdira aura tumhArI pUjAeM tumhAre bacane kI vidhiyoM kA aMga haiN| jo duSTa haiM, ve jhagar3ane ko khar3e ho jAte haiM, jo sajjana haiM, ve pUjA karane ko|
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________________ magara jagane ko koI rAjI nhiiN| ___hamane bhArata meM sUlI nahIM dI-sajjanoM kA deza hai! mArapITa, jhagar3A-jhAMse meM hama bharosA nahIM karate-ahisakoM kA deza hai! zAkAhAriyoM kA deza hai! bar3I purAnI hamArI paraMparA hai| hama kahate haiM, jisako hAtha jor3a kara, paira chU kara chuTakArA pAyA jA sakatA hai, usako sUlI para kyoM laTakAnA? aura sUlI para laTakAne se jhaMjhaTa hI bar3hatI hai; Akhira sone vAle AdamI ko sUlI banAnA par3e, le jAo, sUlI para lttkaao..| paira chU lie ki mahArAja sASTAga daMDavata hai, Apa jAeM! hamane samajha lI trkiib| to jo jIsasa ke sAtha yahUdiyoM ne kiyA vaha hamane buddha ke sAtha nahIM kiyaa| kabhI ikke-dukke kisI pAgala ne patthara pheMka diyA, lekina Amataura se samAja ne kahA ki Apa Izvara ke avatAra haiN| mahAvIra ko hamane thor3I-bahuta gAlI galauja dI, lekina koI jahara nahIM pilA diyA, jaisA sukArAta ko yUnAna meM pilA diyaa| hamane kabIrako koI maMsUra kI taraha kATa nahIM DAlA hai, jaisA masalamAnoM ne maMsUra ko kATa diyaa| sajjanoM kA deza hai! hama tarakIba jyAdA behatara jAna ge| hama samajha gae ki jahAM suI se kAma ho jAtA hai, vahAM talavAra kI kyA jarUrata? maMdira meM biThA dete haiM, mUrti banA dete haiM, phUla car3hA deMge, zAstra banA dete haiM aura kyA cAhie? magara jagAne kI koziza mata karo! samAja kabhI bhI nahIM jaagegaa| samAja to soI huI bhIr3a hai| isa bhIr3a meM se kabhI kabhI koI viralA puruSa jAgatA hai| to tuma yaha to pUcho hI mata yaha to bAta hI mata kro| maiM tumhArI kisI bhrAMti meM kisI taraha kA sahArA dene ko taiyAra nahIM huuN| maiM nahIM tumase kahatA ki mere dvArA navajAgaraNa AegA sArI duniyA meM krAMti ho jAegI, rAma-rAjya sthApita ho jaaegaa| ho cukIM ye pAgalapana kI bAteM bhut| rAma se nahIM huA rAmarAjya sthApita, to kisI dUsare se kaise ho jAegA? kRSNa se nahIM huA hAra gae sira paTaka-paTaka kara! buddha se nahIM huA to mujhase kaise ho jAegA? nahIM, buddha aura kRSNa aura rAma ne vaisI bhrAMti pAlI hI nahIM, vaha bhrAMti tuma pAle hue ho| buddha to bAra-bAra kahate haiM ki apane dIye bano; mere davArA kucha bhI na hogaa| mahAvIra bAra-bAra kahate haiM. apanI zaraNa jAo, merI zaraNa Ane se kyA hogA paDa mahAvIra ne to bahuta sApha kahA hai ki maiM svayaM jAgA hUM, maiM tumhAre kalyANa ke lie nahIM AyA hUM yadayapi jaina abhI bhI kahe jAte haiM ki jagata ke kalyANa ke lie unakA janma huaa| mahAvIra kahate haiM, maiM tumhAre kalyANa ke lie nahIM AyA, kyoMki koI dUsarA tumhArA kalyANa kaise karegA? aura agara dUsarA tumhArA kalyANa kara sake to vaha kalyANa bhI do kaur3I kA hogaa| usameM tumhArA vikAsa phalita nahIM hogA, tumhArI AMtarika utkAMti ghaTita nahIM hogii| vaha udhAra hogA, bAsA hogaa| to mahAvIra kahate haiM. apanI zaraNa jAo, samajho, apane ko jagAo! ..... dharma kA jagata kaba nirmita hogA?' jhUThe sapane mata dekho| jagata adharma kA rhegaa| isameM kabhI kabhI dhArmika vyakti gAte rheNge|
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________________ yaha rAta to aMdherI rhegii| isameM kabhI-kabhI koI tAre jagamagAte rheNge| aba tuma yaha pratIkSA mata karo ki kaba pUrI rAta badalegI / tuma to isakI phikra karo ki maiM jagamagAne lagA yA nahIM guma tuma jagamagA gae, tumhAre lie rAta samApta ho gii| tuma jisa dina jagamagAe tumhArI subaha ho gii| ise maiM bAra-bAra doharAnA cAhatA hUM ki yaha krAMti vyakti ke aMtastala meM ghaTatI hai! yaha bar3I AMtarika hai, AtyaMtika rUpa se nijI hai| samUha, bhIr3a se isakA kucha nAtA nahIM / pUchA hai : 'kyoMki badalanA to dUra. kaba hogA visphoTa ? kaise hogA? badalanA to dUra ulTe loga ApakA virodha kara rahe haiN| ' sadA se karate rahe haiN| kucha nayA nahIM ismeN| ve virodha na kareM to Azcarya hogaa| virodha unheM karanA hI caahie| vaha unakI purAnI Adata hai| jaina zAstroM meM ullekha hai : eka muni nadI meM snAna karane utraa| eka bicchu ko usane tairate dekhA, DubakI khaate| ki mara na jAe, to usane hAtha para caDhA kara use ghATa para rakha denA cAhA lekina jaba taka usane ghATa para rakhA, usane do - tIna DaMka mAra die| aura jaisA ki tumane dekhA hogA, cIMTe ko agara haTAne kI koziza karo to jisa dizA se haTAo vaha usI dizA kI tarapha bhAgatA hai| bar3e jiddI hote haiN| jitanI nAsamajhI, utanI hI jidda / to bicchu to bicchu ! usako chor3A to vaha phira bhAgA pAnI kI trph| usa muni ne phira use uThAyA aura phira kinAre para rkhaa| phira usane do-tIna DaMka mAra die| eka machuA rAha ke kinAre khar3A hai| vaha kahane lagA ki mahArAja vaha Apako DaMka mAre jA rahA hai, aba chor3o bhI, marane bhI do ! vaha muni haMsane lgaa| usane kahA ki vaha apanI Adata nahIM chor3atA, maiM apanI Adata chor3a dUM? dekheM kauna jItatA hai ? bicchu hai to yaha mAna kara hI calanA cAhie ki vaha DaMka mAregA; isameM kucha nayA to nahIM kara rahA hai| na mAre DaMka aura acAnaka kahe ki dhanyavAda, to ghabar3AhaTa hogI, to bharosA na aaegaa| jaba bhI koI soe hue logoM ko jagAne kI koziza karegA to ve DaMka mAreMge, ve nArAja hoNge| unakI bAta merI samajha meM AtI hai, maiM usameM kucha etarAja bhI nahIM krtaa| mujhe bilakula samajha meM AtA hai. soe hue ko jagAo to nArAjagI hotI hai| yaha bhI ho sakatA hai ki tuma se kaha kara soyA ho ki subaha cAra baje uThA denA, mujhe Trena pakar3anI hai, lekina usako bhI cAra baje uThAo to vaha bhI gussA dikhalAtA hai| vaha bhI tumheM duzmana kI taraha dekhatA hai. ki are, kahA thA ThIka hai, magara isakA yaha matalaba thor3e hI hai ki jagAne hI lago / aba kaha diyA, bhUla ho gaI, magara aba pIche to na par3o / rugNa AdamI ko davA do to bhI vaha pIne meM AnAkAnI karatA hai| bacce jaise haiM loga, nAsamajha haiN| unakI tarapha se virodha bilakula svAbhAvika hai| agara isa virodha kA tuma manovijJAna samajho to bar3e cakita hooge| ve virodha isIlie kara rahe haiM ki unheM bAta jaMcane lagI hai ki bAta meM kucha sacAI hai| nahIM to ve virodha bhI nahIM krte| unheM Dara lagane lagA hai ki yaha AdamI kahIM jagA hI na de| unake virodha kI kevala itanI hI sArthakatA hai ki ve zaMkita ho gae haiM
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________________ ki agara isa AdamI ko sunA, isakI bAta ko jarA gaura se sunA, virodha kA dhuAM khar3A na kiyA, apanI AMkheM virodha se na bhara lIM to kahIM yaha bAta samajha meM na A jAe; kahIM yaha bAta hRdaya meM na utara jAe; kahIM yaha bIja AtmA meM par3a na jAe / to unakA virodha sAMketika hai| ve kaha rahe haiM ki aba yA to hameM virodha karanA par3egA yA sAtha calanA par3egA - aba do hI upAya chor3e haiN| isalie sadA unhoMne virodha kiyA hai| unake virodha kI maiM niMdA nahIM kara rahA hUM, maiM use svIkAra karatA hUM vaha bilakula svAbhAvika hai| ve jisa dina virodha na kareMge usa dina samajhanA ki unakA aba buddhatva meM koI rasa nahIM rhaa| ve bar3e durdina hoMge, jaba buddhapuruSa AegA aura loga bilakula virodha na kareMge loga kaheMge, maje se Apako jo kahanA hai kaho, jo karanA hai karo; hamArA manoraMjana hotA hai, Apa bar3e maje se kho| loga tAlI bajAeMge aura apane ghara cale jAeMge, koI virodha na kregaa| usa dina kaThinAI hogii| dhyAna rakhanA, virodha kA matalaba hI hai, lagAva zurU ho gyaa| ghRNA prema kA rUpa hai| jo AdamI ghRNA karane lagA, aba jyAdA dera nahIM hai, vaha prema bhI kara skegaa| upekSA khataranAka hai| buddhapuruSa AeM aura loga unakI upekSA kara deM ve rAha se nikaleM, na koI virodha kare, na koI prema kare ; loga kaheM ki ThIka ApakI marjI, ApakA jaisA dila Apa kaheM, jo Apako rahanA hai Apa raheM, hameM koI etarAja nhiiN| jarA soco usa sthiti kI bAta ki koI virodha na kare; koI pakSa meM nahIM, koI vipakSa meM nahIM; buddha AeM, kaheM aura cale jAeM, koI lakIra hI na chUTe kisI para-to durdina hogaa| to usakA artha huA ki aba buddhatva meM itanA bhI rasa nahIM rahA logoM kaa| aba koI virodha bhI nahIM karatA / virodha to rAgAtmaka hai| eka yahUdI hasIda phakIra ne kitAba likhI thI / kitAba bar3I bagAvatI thI / hasIda bar3e bagAvatI phakIra haiN| aura usane apane deza ke sabase bar3e yahUdI dharmaguru ko vaha kitAba bhejI, khuda apanI patnI ke hAtha bhejii| aura usane kahA ki kucha phikra na karanA / jo bhI ho, tU usameM ulajhanA mata, sirpha dekhate rahanA kyA ho rahA hai saba mujhe A kara vaisA kA vaisA batA denA / vaha gii| jaise hI kitAba usane dI paMDita ke hAtha meM, usane kitAba ulaTa kara dekhI, dekhA ki hasIda phakIra kI hai| vaha to aisA tilamilA gayA ki jaise hAtha meM aMgArA rakha diyA ho| usane to kitAba uThA kara bAhara pheMka dI apane makAna ke| usane kahA ki mere hAtha apavitra ho gae, mujhe snAna karanA pdd'egaa| vaha to Aga-babUlA ho gyaa| usake pAsa hI eka dUsarA purohita baiThA thA, eka dUsarA dharmaguru / usane kahA ki mAnA ki vaha bagAvatI hai, magara usane kitAba bheMTa bhejI, tuma thor3I dera bAda pheMka dete, yaha patnI ko to cale jAne dete! usane bhejI to! usane to prema se bhejI, upahAra diyaa| isa patnI ko cale jAne dete, phira pheMka dete| itanI jaldI kyA thI? aura tumhAre ghara meM itanI kitAbeM haiM, itanI bar3I lAyabrerI hai, usameM yaha eka kitAba par3I bhI rahatI to kyA bigAr3a detI ?
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________________ patnI vApisa lauttii| pati ne pUchA, kyA huA? usane kahA ki pradhAna purohita ne to kitAba ekadama bAhara pheMka dI; ve to aise nArAja ho gae ki mujha para hamalA na kara deN| unhoMne to aise kiyA ki jaise maiMne hAtha meM aMgArA rakha diyA ho| magara unake pAsa hI eka dUsare dharmaguru baiThe the| unhoMne kahA ki nahIM, yaha karanA ucita nahIM hai, patnI ko cale jAne dete, phira pheMka dete, yA phira rakhI rahatI kitAba, itanI kitAbeM par3I haiM! tumhAre ghara meM virodhiyoM kI kitAbeM bhI rakhI haiM, to yaha to yahUdI hai, mAnA ki bagAvatI hai| rakha lete, par3I rahatI lAyabrerI meM, kyA bigar3atA thA? pati ne kahA. jisane kitAba pheMkI, use to hama kisI na kisI dina badala leMge, lekina dUsare se hamArA koI saMbaMdha nahIM bana sktaa| samajhe Apa matalaba? jisane kitAba pheMkI, usase to rAgAtmaka saMbaMdha bana gyaa| vaha kama se kama itanA to rAga hai usakA, joza to AyA ! usane kucha kiyA to, taraMga to utthii| vaha jo baiTha kara zAMti se kaha rahA hai, rakha lo, DAla do, kinAre meM paDI rahegI lAyabrerI meM, vaha upekSA se bharA AdamI hai, usase hama kabhI koI saMbaMdha na banA paaeNge| isa dharmaguru ko to hama badala leMge, lekina dUsare dharmaguru se hamArA koI saMbaMdha na bana paaegaa| maiM dUsare ke lie dukhI hUM / patnI to bahuta cauNkii| vaha to socatI thI, dUsarA bhalA AdamI hai; pahalA AdamI burA hai| lekina usake pati ne kahA ki pahalA AdamI to hamAre cakkara meM A hI cukA hai, dUsarA khataranAka hai| maiM tumase kahatA hUM ki pahalA to uThA kara kitAba paDegA / jisane itane joza se pheMkI hai vaha binA par3he nahIM raha sakatA, kyoMki isa joza ko kaise zAMta karegA? vaha to utsuka ho hI gyaa| maiM usakA pIchA karUMgA; rAta sapane meM dikhAI pdduugaa| maiM usake sira ke AsapAsa ghUmUMgA / vaha socegA, kaI bAra ki pheMkanA ki nahIM pheMkanA thA, dekha to lUM isameM likhA kyA hai ! merA virodha karate haiM, ve nizcita rUpa se merI kitAba par3hate haiM - yaha tuma khayAla rkhnaa| unase merA saMbaMdha bana cukA hai| unase mere hRdaya kA nAtA jur3a gayA hai, dhIre- dhIre khIMca luuNgaa| lekina jo virodha bhI nahIM karate, virodha taka nahIM karate, unake sAtha bar3A muzkila hai| unake hRdaya kA daravAjA pAnA bahuta muzkila hai| unake daravAje saba baMda haiN| aura yaha bilakula svAbhAvika hai| jitanI krAMti kI bAta hogI, utanI hI kaThinAI hotI hai| loga paraMparA se jIte haiN| loga paraMparA meM suvidhA aura surakSA pAte haiN| badalAhaTa sAhasiyoM kA kAma hai, dussAhasiyoM kA kAma hai| utanA sAhasa jisameM nahIM hotA, vaha virodha na kare to kyA kare? usakA virodha to samajho, vaha yaha kaha rahA hai ki itanA sAhasa mujha meM nahIM hai, to yA to maiM yaha svIkAra karUM ki maiM kAyara aura kamajora hUM aura yA siddha karUM ki yaha bAta galata hai| to pahale vaha koziza karatA hai siddha karane kI ki bAta galata hai, jAne yogya hai hI nahIM, isalie hama nahIM jaate| nahIM to use sApha ho jAegA, agara jAne yogya hai aura nahIM jAte, to phira hama kAyara haiN| ahaMkAra ko phira coTa lagatI hai| vaha ahaMkAra kI surakSA hai virodha |
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________________ lekina jaba koI vyakti mujhameM aura usake ahaMkAra meM cunAva karane lagA, to eka na eka dina use mujhe cunanA hI hogA, kyoMki ahaMkAra sivAe narka ke kucha detA hI nhiiN| usa cunAva ko tuma kaba taka kie cale jAoge? dUsarA prazna : Apane kahA ki upadeza sabase lenA cAhie, lekina Adeza apanI aMtarAtmA se, apane viveka se| prazna hai ki jaba taka viveka na ho taba taka kaise patA cale ki jo AvAja aMdara se A rahI hai, vaha viveka-janya hai yA mana kA hI eka khela hai? kRpayA prakAza ddaaleN| svAbhAvika prazna utthegaa| maiMne kahA, upadeza sabase le lenA, Adeza apane / se lenaa| tumhArA prazna saMgata hai| tuma pUchate ho, taya kaise hogA ki jo hama kara rahe haiM, jo hama mAna kara cala rahe haiM, jisa dizA ko hamane cunA, vaha hamArI aMtarAtmA kA Adeza hai yA hamAre mana kA hI khela hai? calo! calane se hI patA clegaa| maiM tumase yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki tuma hamezA sahI cala paaoge| yaha maiMne kahA bhI nhiiN| tuma bahuta bAra cuukoge| lekina cUkacUka kara hI to patA calatA hai ki galata kyA hai aura sahI kyA hai| tuma bahuta bAra giroge gira-gira kara hI to patA calatA hai ki kaise calanA cAhie tAki na gire| choTA baccA calanA zurU karatA hai| agara vaha kahe ki mujhe bilakula aisI tarakIba cAhie, sau pratizata gAraMTI kI ki girUM na-to vaha kabhI calegA nahIM, kabhI cala hI na paaegaa| phira vaha kisI kI godI meM hI caDhA rhegaa| giranA to pdd'egaa| aura jaba mAM kahatI hai, bephikra ho kara tU cala, giregA thor3e hI-to vaha jAnatI hai ki giregaa| lekina girane ke sivAe calanA sIkhane kA koI upAya nhiiN| tuma sAikila calAne ke saMbaMdha meM kitAba par3ha lo, kitAba meM saba samajhAyA ho ki kisa taraha saMtulana kAyama karanA cAhie, kisa taraha paiDala calAne cAhie, kisa taraha haiMDala pakar3anA cAhie- isase kucha na hogaa| tuma lAkha kitAba ko kaMThastha karake sAikila calAne jAo, do-cAra bAra giroge, hAtha-paira para paTTI baMdhegI, camar3I do-cAra bAra chilegii| magara usI girane se tumheM saMtulana kI pratIti hogI, kyA hai sNtuln| kitAba meM likhane se thor3e hI patA calatA hai ki saMtulana kyA hai baileMsa kyA hai? vaha to sAikila para car3hane se patA calatA hai| aba do cAka kI sAikila, aura sadhI raha jAtI hai, camatkAra hai| giranA to bilakula niyamAnusAra hai; nahIM giranA, camatkAra hai| magara do -cAra bAra gira kara tumako khayAla Ane lagatA hai| aba vaha khayAla aisA hai ki koI dUsarA kitanA hI jiMdagI se sAikila calA rahA ho to bhI tumheM de nahIM sktaa|
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________________ koI tumheM de nahIM sakatA ki yaha lo maiM tumheM apanI samajha die detA huuN| vaha kitanA hI samajhA de phira bhI tumheM giranA par3egA / to jaba maiMne tumase kahA, upadeza sabase lenA, to maiMne kahA jitane sAikila savAra hoM, sabase pUcha lenaa| magara isase tuma yaha mata samajha lenA ki tumheM sAikila calAnA A gyaa| car3hanA to tumheM hI pdd'egaa| aura isase maiM yaha bhI nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki tumheM sau pratizata gAraMTI hai ki tuma na giroge| aisI gAraMTI maiM detA hI nahIM / gAraMTI itanI de sakatA hUM ki jarUra giroge, magara gira- gira kara sIkhoge / kaI bAra galata rAstoM para bhaTaka jaaoge| lekina agara apane hI kAraNa bhaTake to lauTa Aoge, agara dUsare ke kAraNa bhaTake to kabhI na lauTa skoge| kyoMki jo AdamI dUsare ke pIche cala rahA hai use kabhI patA hI nahIM calatA hai ki maiM ThIka jA rahA hUM ki galata jA rahA hUM / jaise ki tuma kisI sAikila savAra ke pIche kairiyara para baiThe hue ho tumheM thor3e hI baileMsa AegA! hAlAMki tuma bhI sAikila para savAra ho, lekina tumheM saMtulana nahIM aaegaa| tuma janmoM-janmoM taka baiThe raho dUsare kI sAikila ke pIche, yAtrA bhI hogI, magara saMtulana nahIM aaegaa| aura asalI bAta saMtulana hai| to tuma kisI kI pITha ke pIche cala par3o.. tuma jaba kisI ke pIche calate ho to tuma isI bhaya ke kAraNa to calate ho, kahIM hama caleM to bhUla na ho jAe, to hama jAnakAra ke pIche caleM! lekina ho sakatA hai ki jAnakAra bhI tumhArI jaisI hI buddhi kA ho, kisI aura jAnakAra ke pIche cala rahA ho aura ve bhI isI buddhi ke hoM aura aksara isI buddhi ke loga haiM to tuma pAoge ki eka Adama dUsare ke pIche cala rahA hai, dUsarA tIsare ke pIche cala rahA hai; tIsarA kisI aura ke, jo ki mara cuke haiM, ve kisI aura ke pIche calate the jo ki bahuta pahale mara cuke haiM ve kisI aura ke pIche calate the, jo kabhI hue hI nahIM / aba cale jA rahe haiM aba inako kabhI patA nahIM calegA ki galatI ho rahI hai, kyoMki galatI hone kA upAya nahIM hai; yaha to kyU hai, aura isakA chora khojanA muzkila hai| galatI to taba patA cale jaba kyU kA chora patA cle| aba aSTAvakra kI mAna kara calane lageM janaka, janaka kI mAna kara calane lageM koI aura, koI aura, pAMca hajAra sAla meM aba to tumheM patA lagAnA muzkila ho jAegA ki galatI kahAM ho rahI hai| yaha to bar3A kyU hai| isameM to aSTAvakra gire to bhI tumheM patA na calegA ki ve gira gae khaDDa meM / kAma nahIM AI unakI giitaa| ve tar3apa rahe haiM par3e hue| usakA bhI tumheM patA nahIM clegaa| tuma to bher3a cAla se calate cale jaaoge| jaba dasa-pAMca hajAra sAla meM tuma bhI unake Upara giroge, unakI haDDiyoM para, taba tumheM patA calegA ki yaha to bhUla ho gaI hai| lekina taba bahuta dera ho cukI hogI / nahIM, bhUla kara kisI ke pIche mata calanA / suna lenA, jAna lenA, samajha lenA; lekina uttaradAyitva sadA apanA apane hAtha meM rakhanA / to usakA lAbha hai kama se kama kyU to nahIM hai Age tuma giroge to patA to calegA ki maiM girA / tuma giroge to giranA kyoM huA kisa kAraNa se huA isakA to patA calegA! agalI bAra usa taraha kA kAraNa na dohare, isakI samajha to aaegii| dasa - pAMca bAra
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________________ gira kara tumheM sAikila calAne kI kalA A jaaegii| vaha kalA hai, vijJAna nhiiN| vijJAna hotA to dUsarA de detaa| kalA koI de nahIM sakatA, kalA sIkhanI par3atI hai anubhava se| to tumane mujhase pUchA hai ki 'prazna hai jaba taka viveka na ho taba taka kaise patA cale ki jo AvAja aMdara se A rahI hai vaha viveka-janya hai yA mana kA hI eka khela hai?' / koI upAya nahIM hai jAnane kaa| anubhava se hI tumheM dhIre-dhIre patA clegaa| kaise patA calegA? jo mana kA khela hai, usase tuma hamezA takalIpha meM par3oge-hamezA takalIpha meM par3oge, dukha AegA! aura jo mana kA khela nahIM hai, usase hamezA AnaMda kI sphuraNA hogii| vahI kasauTI hai| jo bhItara se A rahI, aMtarAtmA se, usakA phala sadA hI AnaMda hai, saccidAnaMda hai| jo mana kA hai jAla, usase tuma hamezA dukha paaoge| dukha se patA clegaa| karake hI patA calegA kisase dukha milA, kisase sukha milaa| jisase sukha mile, vaha satya kI tarapha jA rahI hai yAtrA, aura jisase dukha mile, vaha asatya kI tarapha jA rahI hai yaatraa| tumane sunA hai, par3hA hai ki narka meM dukha hai| acchA ho ise thor3A ulTA kara lo : dukha meM narka hai| to jahAM-jahAM dukha mile, tuma samajha lenA ki narka kI tarapha cala rahe ho, gaDDe meM gira rahe ho| jahAM-jahAM sukha mile, taraMga Ae samAdhi kI, lahara uThe, gIta phUTe, khile bhItara ke iMdradhanuSa, suvAsa uThe, saMgIta janme-samajhanA ki cala rahe svarga kI trph| / calate-calate, girate -uThate AdamI sIkhatA hai| eka bhala kabhI mata karanA aura vaha bhala hai. baiThe mata raha jAnA bhUla ke Dara se| bhUla karanI hI hogii| hau, eka hI bhUla ko dubArA karane kI koI jarUrata nhiiN| to bodhapUrvaka bhUla krnaa| aura eka bhUla jaba ho jAe aura patA cala jAe to pachatAte mata baiThe rahanA ki bhUla ho gii| utanA anubhava huaa| lAbha huaa| aba Age aisI bhUla dubArA na ho isakI gAMTha bAMdha lenaa| aise dhIre - dhIre tuma pAoge, bhUla kama hotI gaIM, kama hotI gaIM, eka dina bhUla samApta ho gaI aura tumhAre jIvana meM viveka kA udaya ho gyaa| tumase maiM yaha pUchatA hUM tumane pUchA hai ki ' agara hama dUsare se upadeza na leM to hameM kaise pakkA patA calegA ki kyA ThIka aura kyA galata? kyA mana kA khela aura kayA viveka kI AvAja? ' maiM tumase pUchatA hUM binA viveka ke jage tuma kaise pakkA karoge ki kisakI mAneM aura kisakI na mAneM prazna to vahI kA vahI hai| hajAroM loga haiM, hajAroM zAstra haiM, hajAroM zAstA haiM, sabake maMtavya alaga haiM, sabakI dRSTi alaga hai-isameM tuma kisako cunoge? mahAvIra ko cunoge ki kRSNa ko cunoge? kaise cunoge? kyoMki mahAvIra kahate haiM, cIMTI bhI na mare, nahIM to saDoge narakoM meN| kRSNa kahate haiM. phikra hI mata kara, saba usakI lIlA hai! tU bedhar3aka maar| tU mArane vAlA kauna? aura phira kabhI AtmA mArI gaI hai? na hanyate hanyamAne shriire| yaha to zarIra hI giratA-uThatA hai, AtmA kabhI maratI nhiiN| tU talavAra se kATegA, taba bhI nahIM ktttii| nainaM chindanti shstraanni| tU phikra hI chor3a, yaha to khela hai! kisakI mAnoge? kaise taya karoge? kauna ThIka ina do guruoM meM? taya karane kA logoM ne eka sastA rAstA nikAla liyA hai. jisa ghara meM paidA hue| agara jaina ghara meM paidA hue to mahAvIra ko maaneNge|
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________________ yaha bhI koI bAta huI? sirpha ghara meM paidA ho jAne se! hiMdU ghara meM paidA hue to kRSNa ko mAna leMge kaise taya karoge kauna ThIka hai? aMtataH to tumhIM ko taya karanA hai| jaba tuma guru bhI cunate ho taba tuma kaise taya karate ho yaha aMtarAtmA se AvAja uThI ki mana kI AvAja hai? tuma baca nahIM skte| yaha nirNaya to tumhArA hI hogaa| tuma agara mujhe guru cuna lo to tuma kaise pakkA karoge ki isa AdamI kI bAtacIta meM ulajha gae, sammohita ho gae, prItikara thI bAtacIta, tarkayukta thI isalie ulajha gae yA ki saca meM yaha AdamI jAgrata puruSa hai? kaise taya karoge? kyA upAya hai? kyA kasauTI hai? tumhIM to taya karoge na! to vahI prazna vahIM kA vahIM khar3A hai| jaba taya tumhIM ko karanA hai to eka bAta sApha hai ki paramAtmA ne nirNaya kI zakti pratyeka vyakti ko dI huI hai aura nirNaya kisI dUsare para nahIM chor3A jA sktaa| tuma nirNAyaka ho| suno merI, samajho merii| hRdayapUrvaka samajhane kI koziza karo, samagratA se samajhane kI koziza kro| lekina jaba aMtima nirNaya loge, to nirNaya to tumhIM loge ki yaha AdamI ThIka kaha rahA hai ki galata; isakI mAna kara caleM ki na cleN| to tuma kucha bhI karo, cAhe kisI ke pIche calo, cAhe na calo, cAhe apane paira calo, cAhe kisI ke kaMdhe para savAra ho kara calo-nirNAyaka tuma hI ho, jimmevArI tumhArI hai| tuma to cAhate ho jimmevArI Tala jaae| to kala agara gaDDe meM giro to tuma merI gardana pakar3a lo ki dekho, girAyA gaDDe meM, maiM to Apake pIche cala rahA thA! isalie maiM pahale hI kahe de rahA hUM. mere pIche calane se kacha matalaba nahIM hai| gaDaDe meM giroge to tuma giroge| aura gaDDe meM giroge to maiM gaDDe ke kinAre khar3e ho kara hatUMgA; maiM kahUMgA, maiMne pahale hI kaha diyA thaa| tumhArI marjI thI, tuma mere pIche cale, phira bhI suna kara cle| maiMne pahale hI kaha diyA thA ki agara giroge to tuma giroge| tuma mujhase yaha na kaha sakoge ki hama to Apake pIche cala rahe the| Apane hI cunA thaa| mere pIche calanA bhI Apane cunA thaa| maiMne jabardastI thopa nahIM diyA thaa| jabardastI kauna kisa para thopa detA hai? kaise thopA jA sakatA hai? lekina AdamI uttaradAyitva se bacatA hai| AdamI cAhatA hai, kisI ke kaMdhe para jimmevArI ho jAe to kala hama kaha to sakeM; agara adAlata ho kahIM paramAtmA kI, to hama kaha sakeM hama to bilakula nirdoSa haiM, ye gerue vastra isa AdamI ne pahanA die the| aba kyA pakkA hai tumheM ki paramAtmA gerue vastra ke pakSa meM hogA? kucha pakkA nahIM hai| buddha ne pIle vastra cuna lie the ho sakatA hai, paramAtmA pIle vastra ke pakSa meM ho| pArzvanAtha ne sapheda vastra cuna lie the, ho sakatA hai paramAtmA sapheda vastroM ke pakSa meM ho| aura mahAvIra nagna khar3e ho gae the, ho sakatA hai paramAtmA nyUiDasTa ho| karoge kyA? yaha to paramAtmA jaba AegA, tbhii| usa vakta tuma yaha na kaha sakoge ki hameM to kucha patA hI nahIM thA; hameM to isa AdamI ne kaha diyA, gairika vastra pahana lo, hamane gairika vastra pahana lie| nahIM, taba tumheM javAba svayaM hI denA hogaa| yaha cunAva bhI tumhArA cunAva hai| agara tumane yaha cunA ki mere prati samarpita ho jAo, yaha bhI tumhArA saMkalpa hai, yaha bhI tumane hI cAhA hai| isa taraha tuma isa bAta ko sadA hI yAda rakhanA ki tumhIM nirNAyaka ho, tumhIM uttaradAyI ho aura aMtima rUpa
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________________ se jo bhI phalita hogA, ghaTita hogA, usakA zreya bhI tumhArA hai| aisA mAna kara jo vyakti calatA hai-vahI satya kA zodhaka, khojii| khatare to haiM hii| jIvana jokhima hai| aura jo jitane jyAdA khatare uThAtA hai, utanA hI jAnane meM samartha ho pAtA hai| jo loga khatare nahIM uThAte, ve miTTI ke laude raha jAte haiN| unake jIvana meM koI dhAra nahIM hotii| unake jIvana meM koI tvarA nahIM hotii| koI camaka nahIM hotii| unake jIvana meM pratibhA nahIM hotii| tuma jA kara dekha sakate ho, aise miTTI ke lauMde tumheM AzramoM meM baiThe mileMge, maMdiroM meM baiThe mileMge-ghaMTiyAM bajA rahe, pUjA kara rahe, koI upavAsa kara rahA--miTTI ke lauMde haiM! una AMkhoM meM tuma bijaliyAM na pAoge, aura unake prANoM meM tuma vaha UrjA na pAoge, jo UrjA satya ko pAne ke lie atyaMta anivArya hai| tuma unheM murdA paaoge| tuma unheM lAza kI taraha paaoge| to maiM tumase yaha kahatA hUM ki aise tuma mata bana jaanaa| tuma apanI nijatA ko bacAnA aura apanI nijatA ko nikhaarnaa| aura kitanI hI kaThinAI ho, kabhI apanI nijatA ko mata khonaa| kyoMki nijatA hI tumhArI AtmA hai aura usI AtmA meM chipA hai sty| buddha ne aMtima vacana kahA hai AnaMda ko. 'appa dIvo bhava!' apanA dIyA svayaM bn| AnaMda rone lagA thA buddha ko jAtA dekha kara, buddha cle| ghabar3A gayA hogaa| inhIM ke pIche calatA rahA cAlIsa- vyAlIsa saal| pUrA jIvana dAva para lagA diyaa| inhIM kI pITha ke sivAe kucha dekhA nhiiN| inhIM ke pIche calatA rahA, uThatA rahA, baiThatA rahA; Aja ye cale, to rone lagA! svAbhAvika thA ronaa| usane kahA ki maiM to abhI taka pahuMcA nahIM aura Apake jAne kI ghar3I A gii| to buddha ne kahA maiMne tujhe kabhI kahA hI nahIM ki maiM tujhe pahuMcA duuNgaa| apanA dIyA khuda bana aura AnaMda, zAyada mere kAraNa bAdhA par3atI rahI ho, to aba maiM jA rahA hUM aba vaha bAdhA bhI na rhegii| aba tere sAmane koI pITha na hogI; aba tere sAmane khulA AkAza hogaa| aura Azcarya kI ghaTanA hai ki AnaMda caubIsa ghaMTe bAda hI jJAna ko upalabdha huaa| vyAlIsa sAla meM jo na ho sakA, vaha caubIsa ghaMTe meM huaa| yaha bAta tIra kI taraha cubha gii| yaha bAta to usakI samajha meM A gaI ki Aja buddha cale, aba maiM akelA raha gyaa| akele to hama sadA se haiN| kisI ke pIche calo to bhI tuma akele ho, bhrAMti bhara paidA hotI hai koI sAtha hai| isa akelepana ko tuma pahale se hI yAda rkho| buddha ne AnaMda se aMta meM kahA thA, maiM apane 'AnaMdoM' se prathama se kaha rahA hUM ki tuma apane dIye svayaM bno| taba koI jarUrata nahIM ki mere jAne ke bAda caubIsa ghaMTe meM tuma jJAna ko upalabdha hoo, tuma mere rahate caubIsa kSaNa meM jJAna ko upalabdha ho sakate ho| kyoMki jJAna ko upalabdha hone kA kula artha itanA hI hai ki yaha jIvana merA hai aura maiM uttaradAyI huuN| bhUla hogI cUka hogI to maiM jimmevAra huuN| maiM uttaradAyitva pUrA apane hAtha meM letA huuN| maiM apanI mAlakiyata apane Upara ghoSaNA karatA huuN| __ isalie to tuma saMnyAsiyoM ko maiM svAmI kahatA huuN| svAmI kA artha hai tumhArI mAlakiyata tumhAre hAtha meM hai| yaha maiMne ghoSaNA kara dI ki aba tuma svAmI hue| aba tumhArA koI bhI svAmI
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________________ nahIM hai| aba tuma apane svAmI ho| yaha tumhArA svAmitva hai| isa ghoSaNA ke sAtha hI satya kI yAtrA zurU hotI hai| aura isa ghoSaNA ko jisa dina tuma pUrA-pUrA anubhava kara loge, usa dina A gaI maMjila, usa dina A gayA apanA ghara / sikhalAkA vaha Rt eka hI anala hai, jiMdagI nahIM vahAM, jahAM nahIM halacala hai| jinameM dAhakatA nahIM, na to garjana hai, sukha kI taraMga kA jahAM aMdha varjana hai| jo satya rAkha meM sane rukSa rUThe haiM, chor3o unako, ve sahI nahIM, jhUThe haiN| jo satya rAkha meM sane rukSa rUThe haiN| chor3o unako, ve sahI nahIM, jhUThe haiN| jIvaMta satya to tumhAre bhItara paidA hogaa| bAhara se tuma jo bhI le Ae ho, saba kUr3A-karkaTa hai; kisI aura se ikaTThA kara liyA hai, saba udhAra aura bAsA aura vyartha hai| Aga lagA do usa saba meM / ve saba satya rAkha meM sane haiN| tumhArA satya tumhAre bhItara paidA hogaa| tumhAre satya ke lie tumheM hI prasava pIr3A se gujaranA hogaa| tumhArA satya tumhAre bhItara jnmegaa| tumheM usa satya ke lie garbha bananA hogA aura prasava pIr3A se gujaranA hogaa| khayAla kiyA tumane? koI strI ko baccA paidA nahIM hotA, vaha kisI ke bacce ko goda le letI hai| aise mana samajhAnA ho jAtA hai| maiM tumase kahatA hUM. satyoM ko goda mata lenaa| yaha to bar3I jhUTha ho jaaegii| aura hama sabane satya goda le lie haiN| koI hiMdU banA baiThA hai, koI IsAI, koI musalamAna, koI jain| hamane saba satya udhAra le lie haiN| nAnaka kA satya hai; tuma sikkha bane baiThe ho, yaha satya tumhArA nahIM hai| nAnaka ne isake lie pIr3A sahI, nAnaka ne garbha dhAraNa kiyA - isa satya ko janma diyaa| tuma mukta lie baiThe ho| tumane isake lie kucha bhI nahIM kiyaa| na tuma Aga meM gae, na tuma jale, na tuma bhaTake, na tuma gire-tumheM yaha mukta milaa| pIr3A nikhAratI hai| muphta milane se kucha bhI nikhAra nahIM AtA / goda mata lenA satyoM ko - jnmaanaa| aura jaba tuma janmAne meM samartha ho pAoge, tabhI tumhAre bhItara vaha taraMga uThegI nijatA kI, vyaktigata kii| tuma advitIya banoge / advitIyatA dharma kA AkhirI phala hai| aura yaha bhI maiM jAnatA hUM ki acAnaka Aja tuma pUre satya ko na pA skoge| iMca-iMca calanA hogA, ghisaTanA hogA - aura car3hAI bar3I hai aura pahAr3a UMcA hai, aura sAMsa ghuTegI, aura saba bojha chor3a denA hogA; kyoMki jarA bhI bojha nahIM le jAyA jA sktaa| jaise-jaise pahAr3a para koI car3hane lagatA
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________________ hai, vaise-vaise bojha kama karanA par3atA hai| jaba hilerI evaresTa para pahuMcA, usake pAsa kucha bhI nahIM thaa| pAnI kI botala bhI thor3e pIche use chor3a denI par3I, kyoMki utanA bojha DhonA bhI muzkila ho gyaa| jitanI UMcAI hotI hai utanA bojha muzkila ho jAtA hai| saba sAmAna le kara AyA thA, ve dhIre - dhIre saba chUTa gae; dhIre- dhIre saba DAlatA gayA, rAha ke kinAre rakhatA gayA, kyoMki unakA khIMcanA muzkila hone lagA thaa| jaba pahuMcA to akelA thA, khAlI thaa| aura jisa gaurIzaMkara kI car3hAI kI maiM tumase bAta kara rahA hUM vaha to AkhirI UMcAI hai astitva kii| vaha Aja na ghaTa jaaegii| iMca-iMca jalanA aura tapanA hogaa| dhIre- dhIre tuma chor3a paaoge| magara chor3ane kA khayAla rhe| bAMsoM - bAMsa uchalatI lahareM / dekha liyA hai cAMda salonA, lekina hAtha raha gayA baunA / raha-rahakara kara malatI lahareM, bAMsoM - bAMsa uchalatI lahareM / zItalatA kaisI bikharA dI, pAnI meM hI Aga lagA dii| bujhatI aura sulagatI lahareM, bAMsoM - bAMsa uchalatI lahareM / svapna - loka ke yAtrA - patha para, bhAvukatA racA svayaMvara, asaphala ho sira haranatI lahareM, bAMsoM bAMsa uchalatI lahareM / -- cAMda to dikhAI par3ane lagatA hai upadeza se, tuma bAMsoM - bAMsa uchalane lagate ho| magara itane se cAMda mila na jAegA / upadeza se cAMda nahIM milegA, upadeza se cAMda dikhegaa| milegA to tumhAre apane jIvana ko eka anuzAsana aura Adeza dene se| vaha jo maiMne kahA ki tuma upadeza saba se le lenA, Adeza svayaM denA - usakA itanA hI artha hai| mahAvIra, buddha, kRSNa, krAisTa, nAnaka, kabIra, unake pAsa tumheM pahalI daphe cAMda kI smRti AegI ki cAMda hai| pahalI daphe tumhArI jamIna meM gar3I AMkheM Upara uTheMgI aura AkAza ko dekheNgii| tuma uchaloge
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________________ khUba | jIvana bar3I praphullatA se bhara jaaegaa| sadaguru ke pAsa honA eka apUrva anubhava hai| to phira satya ko pahuMca jAnA to kaisA apUrva soca lo! sadaguru ke pAsa honA bhI apUrva anubhava hai / jise satya milA hai usake pAsa honA bhI apUrva anubhava hai| bAMsoM -bAMsa uchalatI lahareM dekha liyA hai cAMda salonA lekina hAtha raha gayA baunA / raha-rahakara kara malatI lahareM bAMsoM - bAMsa uchalatI lahareM ! tumhArA hRdaya uchalane lagegA, taraMgeM lene lagegA : cAMda dikhAI par3ane lagA ! lekina upadeza ko hI tuma saba mata samajha lenA - zuruAta hai, prAraMbha hai| cAMda taka calanA hai, cAMda taka pahuMcanA hai| aura tuma apane hI pairoM se pahuMca paaoge| koI kisI aura ke pairoM se kabhI nahIM pahuMcA hai| appa dIpo bhava apane dIe bano! tIsarA prazna : maiM AMsU kA eka jharanA hUM? lekina hUM kaMdhA huA arase se kaise caTTAna haTe buddhi kI, kaise maiM phUTa kara baha nikalUM? pUchA hai 'yoga prItama' ne| prItama kavi haiN| aura kavi ke lie sadA eka kaThinAI hai| aura kaThinAI yaha hai ki kavi kA astitva to hotA hai hRdaya kA, abhivyakti hotI hai buddhi kii| to kavi ke bhItara eka dvaMdva hotA hai, eka satata dvaMdva hai| jo use kahanA hai, vaha zabdoM ke pAra hai| aura jo use kaha kA mAdhyama hai, ve zabda haiN| jo vaha uDelanA cAhatA hai, vaha hRdaya hai - aura uDelanA par3atA hai buddhi kI bhASA meN| saba kaTa-piTa jAtA hai, saba khaMDa-khaMDa ho jAtA hai, chitara jAtA hai| isalie kavi sadA pIr3A meM rahatA hai| kavi kabhI tRpta nahIM ho paataa| aura jo kavi tRpta ho jAe vaha bahuta choTA kavi hai; tukabaMda kahanA cAhie, kavi nhiiN| jitanA bar3A kavi ho utanI atRpti hotI hai| taDaphatA hai kucha pragaTa hone ko / aura jaba use pragaTa karanA cAho taba milate haiM choTe -choTe zabda, jinameM vaha samAtA nhiiN| bar3A AkAza hai hRdaya kA aura zabdoM ke bhItara jagaha nahIM hai, sthAna nahIM, avakAza nhiiN| to kaha-kaha kara bhI kavi kaha nahIM paataa| jIvana bhara gA-gA kara bhI gA nahIM paataa| jise gAne
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________________ AyA thA vaha to anagAyA hI raha jAtA hai| jisake lie jIvana bhara cAhA thA ki pragaTa kara de, vaha apragaTa hI raha jAtA hai| to kavi kI duvidhA hai| vaha duvidhA yaha hai ki bhAva to pragaTa karanA hai aura buddhi se pragaTa karanA hai| agara kavi isameM hI ulajhA rahe to sadA becaina aura asaMtuSTa rhegaa| kavi eka sAtha do saMsAroM meM jItA hai, to bar3A tanAva hotA hai| pazcima meM bahuta-se kavi AtmahatyA kara lie| aura bahuta se kavi pAgala ho jAte haiN| aura aksara kavi zarAba pIne lagate haiN| aura usakA kula kAraNa itanA hai ki unake bhItara itanI becainI hotI hai ki usa becainI ko DhAlane ke lie sivAya zarAba ke, becainI ko DhAMkane ke lie sivAya zarAba ke aura kucha milatA nhiiN| kisI taraha apane ko vismaraNa karanA cAhate haiM; vaha tanAva bhArI hai| kavi taba taka khiMcA rahatA hai jaba taka ki saMta na bana jaae| kavi taba taka asaMtuSTa rahatA hai jaba taka saMta na bana jaae| saMta banane kA artha hai ki aba buddhi se pragaTa karane kI ceSTA chUTatI hai, aba pragaTa karane kI ceSTA vicAra se chUTatI hai; aura nae DhaMga pakar3atA hai kavi / jaise mIrA nAcane lagI, bajAne lagI apanA sitAra; ki bAUla le lete ikatArA, le lete eka DugI, bajAne lagate DuggI aura bajAne lagate ikatArA aura nAcane lgte| jo bar3e-bar3e kavi nahIM kaha pAte, ve bAUla kaha pAte haiN| ki caitanya mahAprabhu nAcane lge| ve jo kahanA cAhate the, vaha nAca se jyAdA AsAnI se kahA jA sakatA hai| zabda usake lie ThIka mAdhyama nahIM haiN| to jaba taka kavi rahasya ko apane samagra vyaktitva se pragaTa na karane lage, taba taka ar3acana hotI hai| 'maiM AMsU kA ika jharanA hUM - pUchA hai- 'lekina hUM ruMdhA huA arase se ruMdhe 'ho, isIlie AMsU ke jharane ho, aisA pratIta hotA hai| jaise hI AMsU pragaTa huA, muskAna bana jAtA hai| muskAna ruMdhI raha jAe, AMsU ho jAtI hai| ruMdhI muskAna kA nAma hI AMsU hai| isalie to tuma jaba kabhI ro lete ho to halake ho jAte ho| aura agara tuma dila bhara kara ro lo to tumhAre cehare para eka smita A jAtA hai, eka prasAda A jAtA hai, eka AzISa kI varSA ho jAtI hai tumhAre uupr| isalie to rone meM itanA prasAda hai| puruSoM ne kho diyA prasAda / striyoM ke cehare para thor3A prasAda zeSa rahA hai, kyoMki unhoMne rone kI kSamatA kabhI nahIM khoI / striyoM ne bahuta kucha khoyA, lekina eka bahuta bahu mUlya cIja bacA lI vaha rone kI kssmtaa| puruSoM ne bahuta kucha bacAyA zakti, pada, prtisstthaa| lekina kucha bahuta bahumUlya kho diyA, vaha rone kI kSamatA kho dii| unakI AMkheM gIlI nahIM ho paatiiN| aura jisakI AMkheM gIlI nahIM ho pAtIM usakA hRdaya dhIre- dhIre patharIlA ho jAtA hai| to maiM tumase kahUMgA : prItama, agara tumheM lagatA hai AMsU kA jharanA bhItara par3A hai raMdhA huA arase se kaise caTTAna haTe buddhi kI ? kaise maiM phUTa kara baha nikalUM?"
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________________ aura tuma jo prazna pUcha rahe ho, vaha phira buddhi kA hai-'kaise?' tuma buddhi se hI buddhi ko na haTA skoge| roo, dila bhara kara roo| kauna rokatA hai? pahale saMkoca lagegA, to ekAMta meM cale gae, vRkSoM ke pAsa baiTha lie| vRkSa tumhArA bilakula bhI apamAna na kareMge ki ro rahe, are straiNa mAlUma hote! vRkSa tumase bilakula na kaheMge ki prItama roo mata, yaha puruSa jaisA nahIM mAlUma par3atA, are bahAdura AdamI, tuma ro rahe? cale jAo pahAr3iyoM meM, cale jAo nadI ke taTa pr| roo! vRkSa tumheM svIkAra kreNge| nadiyAM tumheM svIkAra kara leMgI! pahAr3a tumheM svIkAra kara leNge| dila bhara kara roo| rone ke lie 'kaise kyA pUchanA? ronA zurU kro| ronA to eka kRtya hai| kaise kA koI savAla nahIM hai| kaise kA to matalaba yaha hai ki aba tuma pahale iMtajAma karoge, vidhi-vidhAna karoge, anuSThAna karoge, Ayojana karoge ki kaise roeN| to kyA karoge? mircI pIsa kara AMkhoM meM DAloge? to ronA jhUThA ho jaaegaa| abhinetA vaisA karate haiN| aba rAmalIlA meM rAma ko ronA par3a rahA hai aura sItA kA unheM koI darda hai nhiiN| sItA hai bhI nahIM sItA, gAMva kA koI lar3akA hI banA huA hai| ho sakatA hai rAma aura sItA meM jhagar3A bhI ho| to aba kyA karanA? to mirca kA thor3A-sA masAlA banA lete haiN| usako hAtha meM lagAe rakhate haiN| jaba ronA par3atA hai rAma ko to ve apanI AMkha meM lagA lete, AMsU bahane lagate haiN| Ayojana karake jo ronA AegA, vaha jhUThA ho jaaegaa| ceSTA se jo AMsU AeMge, ve AMsU na rahe, unakA prasAda-guNa kho gyaa| itanA kucha hai cAroM tarapha itanA dukha hai, use dekhakara roo! itanI pIr3A hai, use dekhakara roo! itanA AnaMda hai, use dekhakara roo! itane phUla khile haiM, unheM dekhakara roo! itane cAMda-tAre haiM, unheM dekhakara roo! rone ke lie kyA kamI hai? pUrA Ayojana hai| aura roo-dhyAnapUrvaka! Dolo rone meM! nAco rone meM! bahane do AMsuo kI dhAra! / zurU-zurU meM kaThinAI hogI, kyoMki bahuta dina kA avaruddha hai to zAyada tuma bhUla gae hoo| svAta meM jAkara baiTha jAo aura pratIkSA kro| kisI-na-kisI dina tuma acAnaka pAoge, AMkhoM se AMsU bahane lage akaarnn| loga socate haiM, kAraNa caahie| ghara meM koI maregA to roke| mRtyu roja ghaTa rahI hai: tumhAre ghara meM ghaTegI, isake lie kyA pratIkSA karate ho? jIvana mRtyu se ghirA hai| cale jAo maraghaTa pr| buddha bheja dete the apane bhikSuoM ko maraghaTa para ki tIna mahIne vahIM dhyAna kara lo| koI lAza AegI, jalegI, tuma baiTha kara dekhate rho| ronA hai to hara jagaha suvidhA hai| kAraNa khojane kI koI vizeSa jarUrata hI nahIM; saba jagaha kAraNa maujUda hai| dekhate ho, vRkSa para pattA thA, kala taka harA thA, Aja pIlA ho gayA! dekhate raho usa pIle hote patte ko aura tuma pAoge tumhArI AMkheM DabaDabA aaiiN| aura tuma pAoge vaha pattA pIlA hokara girane lagA, vaha TUTa gayA, aba jamIna para par3A hai| aise hI saba gira jaaegaa| aise hI tuma gira jaaoge| aisA giranA hI hone vAlA hai| jo phalA, so jhraa| yahAM jo janmA, so mraa| yahAM saba tarapha ina hare-se-hare vRkSoM ko bhI mRtyu
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________________ kI kAlI chAyA ghera kara khar3I hai| phira koI dukha hI jarUrI nahIM hai rone ke lie; sukha bhI! itanI mRtyu ke ghirAva meM bhI jIvana naSTa nahIM hotA-dekho to isa apUrva camatkAra ko! itane kAMTe haiM, phira bhI phUla khile cale jAte haiN| mauta roja-roja AtI hai, phira bhI bacce janme jAte haiN| paramAtmA thakatA nhiiN| mauta jIta nahIM paatii| jIvana hAratA nahIM, jIvana bar3hatA hI calA jAtA hai| Aye mauta kitanI, jIvana phira naI taraMgeM le kara uTha AtA hai| mauta AtI rahatI hai aura jIvana bar3hatA jAtA hai| isa ahobhAva ko dekho, isa AnaMda bhAva ko dekho! isa apane hone ko soco| yaha honA itanA Azcaryajanaka hai -tuma dekha pAte ho, soca pAte ho, anubhava kara pAte ho| tuma ho, itanA hI kAphI hai| yaha bhAva hI tumheM DolA jaaegaa| to svAta meM baiTho, zithila ho jAo, dhAraNAeM chodd'o| dekho AkAza ke tAroM ko, ki bahatI nadI kI dhAra ko, ki AkAza meM uThe hue vRkSoM ko, ki ghUmate- bhaTakate bAdaloM ko / isa jIvana - prakRti ke camatkAra se ghira jaao| aura tuma pAoge AMkhoM se AMsU bahane lge| vidhi kI nahIM bAta karUMgA, kyoMki tuma pUchate ho 'kaise?' kaise meM to ar3acana ho jaaegii| kaise hI se to rukAvaTa par3a gaI hai| phUTa kara baha nikalane meM buddhi bAdhA nahIM de rahI hai| tuma buddhi ko pakar3e ho isalie bAdhA hai| ise bhI khayAla meM le lenaa| loga socate haiM, buddhi bAdhA de rahI hai| buddhi bAdhA nahIM de rahI / caitanya mahAprabhu ke pAsa kucha kama buddhi na thii| lekina pharka itanA hI hai ki unhoMne buddhi ko pakar3A nhiiN| buddhi apanI jagaha hai, hRdaya use DubAtA huA sarobora karatA huA bahatA rahatA hai| buddhi bAdhA nahIM ddaaltii| saca to yaha hai, jahAM caTTAneM hotI haiN| vahAM nadI meM saMgIta A jAtA hai| tumane dekhA, jharanA jaba caTTAnoM se baha kara nikalatA hai to jharane meM saMgIta A jAtA hai ! caTTAneM hoM to saMgIta kho jAtA hai| jharanA kucha rikta ho jAtA hai binA caTTAnoM ke jharane meM zora nahIM raha jAtA, svara nahIM raha jaataa| jharanA nIrava ho jAtA hai| jharane kI vANI kho jAtI hai| to maiM to tumase kahatA hUM buddhi kI phikra hI mata kro| buddhi ko rahane do patthara kI taraha, caTTAnoM kI taraha; baho buddhi ke Upara se, baho buddhi ko ghera kara aura tuma pAoge ki tumhAre hRdaya ke bahate jharane para jaba buddhi kI caTTAnoM kI Takkara hotI hai to uThegA eka saMgIta, uThegA eka ninAda, eka maramara ! vahI kAvya hai| vahI asalI kavitA hai| eka to aisI kavitA hai jo bhAva uThatA hai aura usako tuma ceSTA karake buddhi ke zabdoM meM DhAlate ho-vahI tumhArI ar3acana hai abhI / eka aura bhI kavitA hai, jo bahatI anAyAsa, buddhi kI caTTAnoM se ttkraatii| usa TakarAhaTa se jo rava paidA hotA hai, jo laya paidA hotI hai, vaha jo gunagunAhaTa paidA ho jAtI hai-vaha eka kavitA hai| usa kavitA meM artha kama hogA, laya jyAdA hogii| usa kavitA meM vyAkaraNa kama hogA, saMgIta jyAdA hogaa| usa kavitA ko zAyada buddhi ke DhAMce meM samajhA hI na jA sake, lekina phira bhI hRdaya usase AMdolita hogA /
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________________ Adhunika kAvya kI yahI khUbI hai| usane vyAkaraNa chor3I, layabaddhatA purAne DhaMga kI, mAtrA, chaMda kA Ayojana chodd'aa| naI kavitA zuddha kavitA hai| purAnI kavitA se usane bar3I UMcAI lI hai| yaha bahuta logoM kI samajha meM nahIM AtI, kyoMki bahuta loga sImA ke bAhara ko nahIM samajha paate| bahuta loga vyAkaraNa ke bAhara ko nahIM samajha paate| bahuta se loga paribhASA ke bAhara ko nahIM samajha paate| citroM meM bhI huA hai, naI mUrtiyoM meM bhI huA hai naI kavitA meM bhI huA hai| sAre jagata meM eka visphoTa huA hai-vaha visphoTa hRdaya ko bahAne se hai| buddhi ke patthara par3e rahane do| isase hAni nahIM hai| isase buddhi ke ina pattharoM se thor3I samRddhi hI bddh'egii| aura kavi ko cAhie prema, cAhie prArthanA, cAhie paramAtmA; anyathA ar3acana rhegii| jaba taka kavitA bhajana nai bane, taba taka duvidhA rhegii| aura jaba taka kavitA prArthanApUrNa na ho jAe, arcanA na bane, naivedya na bane, taba taka ar3acana rahegI / kauna hai aMkuza ise maiM bhI nahIM pahacAnatA hUM / para sarovara ke kinAre kaMTha meM jo jala rahI hai, usa tRSA, usa vedanA ko jAnatA hUM / Aga hai koI nahIM jo zAMta hotI aura khula kara khelane se niraMtara bhAgatI hai| TUTa giratI haiM umaMgeM bAhuoM kA pAza ho jAtA zithila hai, apratibha meM, phira usI durgama jaladhi meM DUba jAtA phira vahI udvigna ciMtana phira vahI pRcchA ciraMtana rUpa kI ArAdhanA kA mArga AliMgana nahIM to aura kyA hai? sneha kA sauMdarya ko upahAra rasa cuMbana nahIM to aura kyA hai? rakta kI uttapta laharoM kI paridhi ke pAra koI satya ho to, cAhatA hUM bheda usakA jAna lUM paMtha au sauMdarya kI ArAdhanA kA vyoma meM yadi zUnya kI usa rekha ko pahacAna luuN|
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________________ para jahAM taka bhI uDUM isa prazna kA uttara nahIM hai| mRttimahada AkAza meM ThahareM kahAM para zUnya hai saba aura nIce bhI nahIM sNtoss| miTTI ke hRdaya se dUra hotA hI kabhI aMbara nahIM hai| isa vyathA ko jhelatA AkAza kI nissImatA meM ghUmatA, phiratA, vikala, vibhrAMta para kucha bhI na pAtA prazna jo gar3hatA gagana kI zUnyatA meM gaja kara saba ora mere hI zravaNa meM lauTa aataa| maiM na ruka pAtA kahIM phira lauTa AtA hUM pipAsita zUnya se sAkAra suSamA ke bhuvana meM yuddha se bhAge hue usa vedanA-vihvala yuvaka-sA jo kahIM rukatA nahIM becaina jA giratA akuMThita tIra-sA sIdhe priyA kI goda meN| nIMda jala kA srota hai chAyA saghana hai nIMda zyAmala megha hai zItala pavana hai| kiMtu jaga kara dekhatA hUM kAmanAeM vartikA-sI bala rahI haiM jisa taraha pahale pipAsA se vikala thIM pyAsa se Akula abhI bhI jala rahI haiN| prANa kI cirasaginI yaha vahi isako sAtha lekara
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________________ bhUmi se AkAza taka calate raho martya nara kA bhAgya jaba taka prema kI dhArA na milatI Apa apanI Aga meM jalate rho| martya nara kA bhAgya jaba taka prema kI dhArA na milatI Apa apanI Aga meM jalate raho! kAvya eka yAtrA kA prAraMbha hai, aMta nhiiN| kAvya kI aMtima pUrNAhUti to prema meM hai| kavi kA hRdaya to kevala isa bAta kI sUcanA de rahA hai ki prema kI bar3I gaharI saMbhAvanA hai, jo nahIM ghaTa rahA hai| karo prema! tuma pUchoge 'kaise' phir| prema ke lie 'kaise' kI koI bhI jarUrata nhiiN| zurU karo; aise hI jaise koI tairanA zurU karatA hai, anagar3ha hAtha pheMkatA hai| koI bhI to yahAM janma se hI sIkhA huA nahIM aataa| sabhI ko hAtha irache-tirache pheMkane par3ate haiN| phira dhIre- dhIre tairane kI kuzalatA A jAtI hai| karo prema! vRkSoM se karo, pazu-pakSiyoM se karo, mitroM se karo, priyajanoM se kro| jahAM maukA mile prema kA, -kho mt| hama bar3e ajIba haiM! hama prema ke saMbaMdha meM bar3e kRpaNa haiN| prema meM hama aise kaMjUsa haiM ki jinase hama kahate haiM, hamArA prema hai, unase bhI hama bAmuzkila se prema kA saMbaMdha banAte haiM, jaise ki kucha luTA jA rahA hai| jaise ki prema kyA kara leMge, to kucha kho jAegA; jaise ki prema kyA de deMge kisI ko to kucha miTa jAegA bhItara; jaise ki kucha kama ho jaaegaa| prema aisI saMpadA nahIM hai| yaha tijor3I nahIM hai AdamiyoM kI, ki tumane agara dasa rupae kisI ko de die to dasa rupae kama ho ge| yaha kucha mAmalA hI aura hai| yaha to aise hai jaise kueM se koI pAnI bhara le| tuma bhara lo purAnA pAnI, nayA tAjA jharanA kueM meM phUTA calA A rahA hai| purAne ko haTAo, nayA milatA hai| sar3e ko haTAo, gale ko haTAo-tAjA milatA hai| jaise kueM se pAnI ko bharate raho to kuAM jIvaMta rahatA hai, jharane jAge rahate haiM, naI-naI dhAreM phUTatI rahatI haiM; sAgara, dUra kA sAgara, kueM ko bharatA rahatA, bharatA rhtaa| bIca kI miTTI chAnatI hai| sAgara ke pAnI ko sIdhe nahIM pIyA jA sktaa| pIyoge to mara jaaoge| lekina bIca kI miTTI sAgara ke pAnI ko chAna letI hai, chAna detI hai| aura kueM meM pAnI bhAgA calA A rahA hai| agara tuma bharoge na pAnI, bAMToge nahIM pAnI, tuma kahoge merA kuA khAlI ho jAegA to tumhArA kuA saDegA, mregaa| dhIre - dhIre jharane baheMge nahIM, to sUkha jaaeNge| aba tuma pUchate ho ki jharanoM ko kaise kholeM, maiM avaruddha par3A hUM eka arase se, ruMdhA par3A hUM kaise kholUM isa jharane ko? maiM kahatA hUM : bAMTo prema! nimaMtraNa do logoM ko! jahAM maukA mila jAe- paricita se, aparicita se; apane se, parAe se; pahacAna vAle se, ajanabI se! prema meM kucha bhI to tumhArA kharca
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________________ nahIM hotA hai| do! jarUrI nahIM ki tuma kucha do hii.| TAlasTaoNya ne apane saMsmaraNoM meM likhA hai ki maiM eka dina jA rahA thA eka rAha ke kinAre se, eka bhikhamaMge ne hAtha phailA diyaa| sabaha thI, abhI saraja UgA thA aura TAlasTaoNya baDI prasanna madrA pA, iMkAra na kara skaa| abhI-abhI carca se prArthanA karake bhI lauTa rahA thA, to vaha hAtha use paramAtmA kA hI hAtha mAlUma pdd'aa| usane apane khIse TaTole, kucha bhI nahIM thaa| dUsare khIse meM dekhA, vahA bhI kucha nahIM thaa| vaha jarA becaina hone lgaa| usa bhikhArI ne kahA ki nahIM, becaina na hoM, Apane denA cAhA, itanA hI kyA kama hai! TAlasTaoNya ne usakA hAtha apane hAtha meM le liyaa| aura TAlasTaoNya kahatA hai, merI AMkheM AMsuo se bhara giiN| maiMne use kucha bhI na diyA, usane mujhe itanA de diyaa| usane kahA ki Apa becaina na hoM! Apane TaTolA, denA cAhA-itanA kyA kama hai? bahuta de diyA na de kara bhI denA ho sakatA hai| aura kabhI-kabhI de kara bhI denA nahIM hotaa| agara bemana se diyA to denA nahIM ho paataa| agara mana se denA cAhA, na bhI de pAe, to bhI denA ghaTa jAtA hai-aisA jIvana kA rahasya hai| bAMTate calo! dhIre- dhIre tuma pAoge, jaise-jaise tuma bAMTane lage UrjA, vaise-vaise tumhAre bhItara se kahIM paramAtmA kA sAgara tumheM bharatA jaataa| naI-naI UrjA AtI, naI taraMgeM aatiiN| aura eka daphA yaha tumheM gaNita samajha meM A jAe. .yaha jIvana kA arthazAstra nahIM hai, yaha paramAtmA kA arthazAstra hai, yaha bilakula alaga hai| jIvana kA arthazAstra to yaha hai ki jo hai, agara nahIM bacAyA to lutte| isako to bacAnA, nahIM to bhIkha mAMgoge! maiMne sunA, eka bhikhamaMgA mullA nasaruddIna ke dvAra para bhIkha mAMga rahA thaa| mullA ne use khUba dila khola kara diyaa| khilAyA, pilAyA, vastra pahanAe, jAne lagA to dasa kA noTa bhI diyaa| phira mullA ne usase pUchA ki tuma AdamI to bhale mAlUma par3ate ho tumhAre cehare se saMskAra mAlUma par3atA hai| tumhAre vastra bhI yadyapi dIna, malina haiM, phaTe-purAne haiM, lekina kImatI mAlUma hote haiN| yaha dazA tumhArI kaise huI? vaha kahane lagA, jaise Apa kara rahe haiM, aise hI maiM karatA thaa| jaldI ApakI bhI yahI dazA ho jaaegii| de-de kara yaha dazA huii| bAMTatA rahA, usI meM lUTa gyaa| to eka to isa bAhara ke jagata kA arthazAstra hai : yahAM chIno to milegA, yahAM do to kho jaaegaa| eka bhItara kA arthazAstra hai, kabIra ne kahA donoM hAtha ulIcie! ulIcate rahI to nayA AtA rhegaa| bAMTate raho to milatA rhegaa| jo bacAyA vaha gayA; jo diyA vaha bcaa| jo tumane bAMTa diyA aura de diyA, vahI tumhArA hai aMtara ke jagata meN| to do kAma karo : prema bATo aura AMsuo ko Ane do| aura donoM sAtha-sAtha ho jAeMge, kyoMki donoM eka hI ghaTanA ke hisse haiN| jitanA hRdaya meM prema baMTane lagatA hai, utanI AMkheM gIlI hone lagatI haiM, nama hone lagatI haiN| prANa kI cirasaginI yaha vahi
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________________ isako sAtha le kara bhUmi se AkAza taka calate raho martya nara kA bhAgya jaba taka prema kI dhArA na milatI Apa apanI Aga meM jalate rho| yaha jo Aja jalana hai, yahI kala phUla kI taraha khilegii| yaha Aja jo agni hai, yahI kala tumhAre bhItara kamala bnegii| magara bAMToM! prema sUtra hai| aura prema ke jagata meM 'kaise kA koI saMbaMdha nahIM! bezarta baaNttii| yaha bhI mata kahanA 'kisako! yaha to kaMjUsa pUchatA hai| pAtra-apAtra, yaha bhI kaMjUsa pUchatA hai| hama kauna haiM taya kareM-kauna pAtra, kauna apAtra? jo mila jAe, de do| aura jo tumase tumhAre prema ko le le, usakA dhanyavAda mAnanA, AbhAra mAnanA; iMkAra bhI kara sakatA thaa| usane iMkAra na kiyA, tuma dhanyabhAgI ho| usane tumheM apane ko luTAne kA thor3A maukA diyA, kyoMki usa luTAne se hI tuma aura bharoge use dhanyavAda denA! prema jIvana meM Ae to dhIre- dhIre prArthanA bhI A jAtI hai| aura jaba taka kAvya kI kSamatA bhajana na bane, jaba taka kAvya prArthanA na bane, taba taka kavi ko bar3I becainI rhegii| tumhArA kAvya jaba upaniSada bana jAe, to kavi mara jAtA hai aura RSi kA janma hotA hai| RSi aura kavi donoM zabdoM kA eka hI artha hai| pharka itanA hI hai ki kavi ceSTA karake hRdaya ke bhAvoM ko zabdoM meM DAlatA hai; aura RSi nizceSTA se, sahajatA se, sahaja sphuraNA se, bhAva ko bahane detA hai mastiSka kI caTTAnoM para se| usase jo rava paidA hotA hai, jo saMgIta paidA hotA hai-vahI usakA kAvya hai| aura vahI usakA naivedaya hai prabhu ke caraNoM meN| AkhirI prazna mere mAjI ke talsa aMdheroM meM, batA 'rajanIza ' kyA dekhA tUne? gardiza -e- athyAma meM thA ulajhA, yA bAhara ulajhanoM se Ate dekhA? (mere atIta ke gahare aMdhere meM kyA dekhA? kyA maiM bhAgya-cakra meM ulajhA thA yA bhAgya- cakra ke bAhara A rahA thaa|) dineza ne pUchA hai|
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________________ ulajhe to abhI bhI ho| aura bhAgya cakra meM AdamI ulajhA hI rahatA hai jaba taka pUrA na jAga jaae| bhAgya - cakra kA artha hI itanA hotA hai ki hama behozI se cale jA rahe haiN| bhAgya hotA hI behoza AdamI kA hai| hoza se bhare AdamI kA koI bhAgya nahIM hotA / behoza AdamI ke saMbaMdha meM jyoti bhaviSyavANI kara sakate haiN| hoza vAle AdamI ke saMbaMdha meM koI jyotiSI koI bhaviSyavANI nahIM kara sktaa| kyoMki hoza se bharA huA AdamI kyA karegA, isakA koI nirNaya atIta ke hAthoM meM nahIM hai| behoza AdamI kyA karegA, yaha saba atIta para nirbhara hai| agara tumhArA atIta batA diyA jAe, patA ho, to tumhAre bhaviSya kI bhI ghoSaNA kI jA sakatI hai| tumane kala bhI krodha kiyA thA, parasoM bhI krodha kiyA thA, aura pUrI pIche krodha kiyA thA - tuma kala bhI krodha karoge, isameM kucha ar3acana nahIM hai| kyoMki tuma vahI karoge jo tuma karate rahe ho| tuma Ada se calate ho, yaMtravata ho / bhAgya yAnI yaMtravata jIvana | jaise-jaise hoza jagatA hai, dhyAna jagatA hai, AdamI bhAgya ke bAhara hone lagatA hai| phira tuma atIta se saMcAlita nahIM hote| phira pratikSaNa jo ghaTatA hai, usake sAtha tumhArA saMvAda hotA hai| vaha saMvAda sIdhA hai| vaha purAnI Adata ke kAraNa nhiiN| usakA koI nirdhAraNa tumhAre pIche ke anubhavoM se nahIM hotaa| isa kSaNa kI maujUdagI aura isa kSaNa kI upasthiti aura isa kSaNa kA bodha hI usakA nirNAyaka hotA hai| lekina 'dineza' ke jIvana meM ceSTA to hai bAhara Ane kI - aura vahI zubha hai| ceSTA hai to bAhara AnA bhI ho jaaegaa| mujhe isakI ciMtA nahIM hai ki tumane kyA kiyaa| tumane pApa kie tumane bure karma kie mujhe usakI koI ciMtA nahIM, yA ki tumane puNya kie| na to mere lie puNya kA koI mUlya hai aura na pApa kA koI mUlya hai; kyoMki puNya bhI tumane soe-soe kie, pApa bhI tumane soe-soe kie| tuma cora the to soe the, tuma saMta the to soe the| mere lie to eka hI bAta kA mUlya hai ki aba tumhAre mana meM jAgane kI AkAMkSA paidA huii| usa AkAMkSA para saba nirbhara hai| vahI AkAMkSA jIvana kI sabase bar3I ghaTanA hai| maiM ki barabAde - nigArAne - dilAArA hI sahI, maiM ki rusavA - e - maya- o-sAgaro - mInA hI sahI, maiM ki makyUle - gulo - naragise - sahalA hI sahI, phira bhI maiM khAke - rahe - sAhide - najarA hUM dost| maiM ki barabAde - nigArAne - dilAArA hI sahI / - hRdaya AkarSaka suMdariyoM dvArA barabAda, mAna liyA yahI sahI hai| maiM ki rusavA - e - maya- o-sAgaro - mInA hI sahI - yA ki zarAba ke pyAle aura surAhI ke dvArA apamAnita, mAna liyA, to vaha bhI ThIka | maiM ki makyUle - gulo - naragise sahalA hI sahI - aura yA ki phUloM, naragisa ke phUla, aisI AMkhoM vAlI suMdariyoM dvArA mArA huA ThIka, vaha bhI ThIka, vaha bhI svIkAra kara liyaa|
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________________ phira bhI maiM khAke - rahe - sAhide - najarA hUM dosta / - phira bhI maiM pArakhiyoM ke mArga kI dhUla huuN| basa vahI bAta mUlyavAna hai| 'dineza' ke bhItara pArakhI kA janma ho rahA hai| AkAMkSA paidA ho rahI hai-AkAMkSA ke pAra jAne kii| pUraba ke kSitija para sUraja kI pahalI kiraNoM kI lAlI pragaTa hone lagI / nahIM, tumhAre atIta se, tumhAre mAjI se mujhe kucha lenA-denA nahIM | tuma sapane dekhe haiM aba taka, aba jAgane kI pahalI jhalaka A rahI hai| nIMda TUTane ke karIba hai - vahI mUlyavAna hai| tuma samrATa the ki daridra, tuma sAdhu the ki asAdhu ki tumane aba taka puNyoM kA aMbAra lagA liyA thA ki pApoM ke saMgraha kara lie the saba bAta vyartha hai| vaha saba tumane nIMda - nIMda meM kiyA thA, ve saba sapane the| aba sapanA TUTane kI ghar3I karIba A rahI hai| dhyAna ke prati prema paidA huA hai, vahI bAta mahatvapUrNa hai| aura 'dineza' kI taiyArI hai miTane kI - vahI bAta mahatvapUrNa hai| jo miTane ko taiyAra hai, vaha atIta se mukta ho jaaegaa| kyoMki tuma ho hI atIta kA saMgraha / hama jo niraMtara kahate haiM yahAM ki ahaMkAra chor3a do, to usakA matalaba sirpha itanA hI hotA hai ki tuma aba taka jo atIta ne tumheM banAyA hai use vismRta karo, usase apane ko vicchinna kara lo, tAki tAje ke lie ghaTane ke lie jagaha bana ske| bAvare, aherI re! kucha bhI avadhya nahIM tujhe, saba AkheTa hai| eka basa mere mana- vivara meM, dubakI kaloMca ko, dubakI hI chor3a kara, kyA tU calA jAegA? maiM khola detA hUM kapATa sAre mere isa khaMDahara kI zirA-zirA cheda de Aloka kI ani se apanI | gar3ha sArA DhAha kara dUha bhara kara de, viphala dinoM kI tU kaloMca para mAna jA merI AMkheM Aja jA ki tujhe dekhUM dekhUM aura mana meM, kRtajJatA umar3a Ae pahanU~ sirope se, ye kanaka tAra tere bAvare, aherI ! 'dineza' kI prArthanA mujhe sunAI par3a rahI hai. maiM khola detA hUM kapATa sAre
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________________ mere isa khaMDahara kI zirA-zirA cheda de Aloka kI ani se apanI! aura vahI zubha ghar3I hai, vahI bhAgyodaya hai, jaba tuma kisI ke pAsa jA kara kaha sakI, miTA do mujhe| gar3ha sArA DAha kara, dUha bhara kara de viphala dinoM kI tU kaloMca para mAna jA merI AMkheM Aja jA! dhyAna yAnI AMkhoM kA AMjanA hai| dhyAna yAnI AMkhoM ko tAjA karanA hai, nayA karanA hai, atIta kI dhUla jhADUnA hai! 'mere mAjI ke talsa aMdheroM meM batA 'rajanIza' kyA dekhA tUne?' nahIM, tumhAre atIta kI maiM ciMtA hI nahIM krtaa| jo gayA, gyaa| jo bItA so biitaa| 'gardiza-e-athyAma meM thA ulajhA yA bAhara ulajhanoM se Ate dekhA?' ' nahIM, abhI Ae nahIM baahr| lekina bAhara Ane kI pahalI AkAMkSA utthii| aura pahalI AkAMkSA kA uTha AnA AdhI yAtrA kA pUrA ho jAnA hai| le maiM khola detA hUM kapATa sAre mere isa khaMDahara kI zirA-zirA cheda de Aloka kI ani se apnii| idhara maiM prakAza lie baiThA hUM, tuma agara taiyAra ho hRdaya ko khola dene ko, to mRtyu ghaTegI aura tumhArA nayA janma bhI hogaa| sUlI bhI lagegI aura tumhArA punarjanma bhI hogaa| para miTane kI taiyArI cAhie, pUrI-pUrI miTane kI taiyArI cAhie! vahI saMnyAsa hai. atIta se apane ko vicchinna kara lenA; atIta kI bhUmi se apanI jar3oM ko bilakula ukhAr3a lenaa| naI bhUmi kI talAza hai sNnyaas| jaise aba taka jo thA vyartha thA; jo huA huA nahIM huA nahIM huA aba hama usase saba saMbaMdha chor3a lete haiM; aba Age usakA koI hisAba na rakheMge, aura aba pIche lauTa-lauTa kara na dekheNge| gaDha sArA DhAha kara, dUha bhara kara de viphala dinoM kI tU kaloMca para mAna jA merI AMkheM Aja jaa| maiM taiyAra hUM! agara tuma taiyAra ho, to maiM taiyAra hUM tumhArI AMkheM Ajane ko| thoDI takalIpha bhI hotI hai jaba AMkheM AjI jAtI haiN| AMsU bhI bahate haiM, AMkha baMda kara lene kA bhI mana hotA hai| vaha saba svAbhAvika hai| lekina agara sAhasa ho to paramAtmA sunizcita ghaTa sakatA hai|
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________________ merI taiyArI hai; agara tuma bhI taiyAra ho to koI rukAvaTa rukAvaTa nahIM bana sakatI / chor3o pIche ko, Age kI sudhi lo| hari oma tatsat!
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________________ jJAna mukti hai-pravacana-chaTavAM dinAMka: 1 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama puunaa| sUtraH aSTAvakra uvaac| na te saMgousti kenAyi kiM shddhstyktmicchsi| saMghAtavilayaM kurvannemeva layaM vrj||661/ udeti bhavato vizvaM vAridheriva budbudH| iti jJAtvaikamAtmAnamevameva laya vrj|| 67 / / pratyakSamathyavastutvadavizvaM nAstamale tvyi| rajjusarpa iva vyakRmevameva laya vrj|| 68 / / samaduHkha sukha: pUrNa AzAnairAzyayoH smH| samajIvita mRtyuH sannaivameva layaM vrj|| 69 / / janaka uvaac| AkAzavadanaMto'haM dhaTavat prAkRtaM jgt| iti jJAnaM tathaitastha na tyAgo na graho ly:||70 / / mahodadhirivAhaM sa prapaMco viicisnnibhiH| iti jJAnaM tathaitastha na tyAgo na graho lyH|| 71 / / ahaM sa zuktisaMkAzo ruuppvvishvklynaa| iti jJAnaM tathaitastha na tyAgo na graho lyH|| 72 / / ahaM vA sarvabhUteSu sarvabhatAnyayo myi| iti jJAnaM tathaitasya na tyAgo na graho lyH|| 73 / /
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________________ chUTatA hai to jarUrI nahIM ki ajJAna kI pakar3a chUTa jaae| bhoga chUTatA hai to jarUrI nahIM ki bhoga ke AMtarika kAraNa vinaSTa ho jaaeN| AMtarika kAraNa to phira bhI maujUda rheNge| tuma dhana chor3a do vaha jo pakar3ane kI AkAMkSA thI, vaha tyAga ko pakar3a legii| tuma ghara chor3a do; vaha jo pakar3ane kI AkAMkSA thI, Azrama ko pakar3a legii| tuma bAjAra chor3a do; vaha jo pakar3ane kI purAnI vRtti thI, vaha ekAMta pakar3a legii| aura pakar3a pakar3a kI hai.. pakar3a chor3anI hai| isalie jo vyakti bhoga se jAgatA hai, usake lie tatkSaNa eka dUsarA khatarA paidA hotA hai| vaha khatarA bhogI ko kabhI nahIM hai| vaha khatarA kevala usako hai jo bhoga se jAgatA hai| vaha khatarA hai-tyAga meM ulajha jAne kaa| agara purAnI Adata banI hI rahI aura parivartana bAharI huA bhItara krAMti na ghaTI, to tuma tyAga meM ulajha jaaoge| saMsArI se saMnyAsI ho jaaoge| dhana chor3a doge, parivAra, ghara-davAra chor3a doge, lekina bhItara tumhAre jo jAla the pakar3ane ke, ve maujUda rheNge| tuma kucha aura pakar3a loge| eka laMgoTI kAphI hai, koI sAmrAjya nahIM cAhie pakar3ane ko| naMgApana bhI AdamI pakar3a le sakatA hai| tyAga bhI AdamI pakar3a le sakatA hai| / purAnI sUphiyoM kI eka kathA hai| eka samrATa jaba choTA baccA thA, skUla meM par3hatA thA, to usakI eka yuvaka se bar3I maitrI thii| phira jIvana ke rAste alaga- alaga hue| samrATa kA beTA to samrATa ho gyaa| vaha jo usakA mitra thA, vaha tyAgI ho gayA, vaha phakIra ho gyaa| usakI dUra-digata taka prazaMsA phaila gaI-phakIra kii| yAtrI dUra-dUra se usake caraNoM meM Ane lge| khojI usakA satsaMga karane Ane lge| jaise-jaise khojiyoM kI bhIr3a bar3hatI gaI, usakA tyAga bhI bar3hatA gyaa| aMtata: usane vastra bhI chor3a die, vaha digaMbara ho gyaa| phira to vaha sUrya kI bhAMti camakane lgaa| aura tyAgiyoM ko usane pIche chor3a diyaa| lekina samrATa ko sadA mana meM yaha hotA thA ki maiM use bhalIbhAti jAnatA hUM, vaha bar3A ahaMkArI thA skUla ke dinoM meM, kAleja ke dinoM meM acAnaka itanA mahAtyAga usameM phalita ho gayA! isa para bharosA samrATa ko na AtA thaa| phira yaha jijJAsA usakI bar3hatI gii| aMtataH usane apane mitra ko nimaMtraNa bhejA ki aba tuma mahAtyAgI ho gae ho, rAjadhAnI Ao, mujhe bhI sevA kA avasara do| mere prajAjanoM ko bhI bodha do, jagAo! nimaMtraNa svIkAra huaa| vaha phakIra rAjadhAnI kI tarapha aayaa| samrATa ne usake svAgata ke lie bar3A Ayojana kiyaa| purAnA mitra thaa| phira itanA khyAtilabdha, itanI prazaMsA ko prApta, itanA gauravAnvita! to usane kucha chor3A nahIM, sArI rAjadhAnI ko sajAyA-phUloM se, dIpoM se! rAste para suMdara kAlIna bichAe, bahumUlya kAlIna bichaae| jahAM se usakA praveza honA thA vahAM se rAjamahala taka dIvAlI kI sthiti khar3I kara dii|
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________________ phakIra AyA, lekina samrATa hairAna huA. vaha nagara ke davAra para usakI pratIkSA karatA thA apane pUre darabAriyoM ko lekara, lekina cakita huA varSA ke dina na the, rAheM sUkhI par3I thIM, loga pAnI ke lie taDUpha rahe the aura phakIra ghuTanoM taka kIcar3a se bharA thaa| vaha bharosA na kara sakA ki itanI kIcar3a rAha meM kahAM mila gaI, aura ghuTane taka kIcar3a se bharA huA hai| para sabake sAmane kucha kahanA ThIka na thaa| donoM rAjamahala phuNce| jaba donoM ekAMta meM pahuMce to samrATa ne pUchA ki mujhe kaheM yaha ar3acana kahAM AI? Apake paira kIcar3a se bhare haiM! usane kahA, ar3acana kA koI savAla nhiiN| jaba maiM A rahA thA to logoM ne mujhase kahA ki tumheM patA hai, tumhArA mitra, samrATa, apanA vaibhava dikhAne ke lie rAjadhAnI ko sajA rahA hai? vaha tumheM jheMpAnA cAhatA hai| tumheM kahanA cAhatA hai, 'tumane kyA pAyA? naMge phakIra ho! dekho mujhe!' usane rAste para bahu mUlya kAlIna bichAe, lAkhoM rupaye kharca kie gae haiN| rAjadhAnI dulhana kI taraha sajI hai| vaha tumheM dikhAnA cAhatA hai| vaha tumheM phIkA karanA cAhatA hai|. to maiMne kahA ki dekha lie aisA phIkA karane vAle! agara vaha bahu mUlya kAlIna bichA sakatA hai to maiM phakIra hUM maiM kIcar3a bhare pairoM se una kAlInoM para cala sakatA huuN| maiM do kaur3I kA mUlya nahIM mAnatA ___ jaba usane ye bAteM kahIM to samrATa ne kahA, aba maiM nizcita huaa| merI jijJAsA zAMta huii| Apane mujhe tRpta kara diyaa| yahI merI jijJAsA thii| phakIra ne pUchA, kyA jijJAsA thI? 'yahI jijJAsA thI ki Apako maiM sadA se jAnatA huuN| skUla meM kAleja meM Apase jyAdA ahaMkArI koI bhI na thaa| Apa itanI vinamratA ko upalabdha ho gae, yahI mujhe saMdeha hotA thaa| aba mujhe koI ciMtA nhiiN| Ao hama gale mileM, hama eka hI jaise haiN| tuma mujha hI jaise ho| kucha pharka nahIM huA hai| maiMne eka taraha se apane ahaMkAra ko bharane kI ceSTA kI hai-samrATa ho kara; tuma dUsarI taraha se usI ahaMkAra ko bharane kI ceSTA kara rahe ho| hamArI dizAeM alaga hoM, hamAre lakSya alaga nhiiN| aura maiM tumase itanA kahanA cAhatA hUM mujhe to patA hai ki maiM ahaMkArI hUM tumheM patA hI nahIM ki tuma ahaMkArI ho| to maiM to kisI na kisI dina isa ahaMkAra se Uba hI jAUMgA, tuma kaise Uboge? tuma para mujhe bar3I dayA AtI hai| tumane to ahaMkAra ko khUba sajA liyaa| tumane to use tyAga ke vastra pahanA die|' jo vyakti saMsAra se UbatA hai, usake lie tyAga kA khatarA hai| duniyA meM do taraha ke saMsArI haiM-eka, jo dukAnoM meM baiThe haiM; aura eka, jo maMdiroM meM baiThe haiN| duniyA meM do taraha ke saMsArI haiM-eka, jo dhana ikaTThA kara rahe haiM: eka jinhoMne dhana para lAta mAra dI hai| duniyA meM do taraha ke duniyAdAra haiM-eka jo bAhara kI cIjoM se apane ko bhara rahe haiM; aura dUsare, jo socate haiM ki bAhara kI cIjoM ko chor3ane se apane ko bhara leNge| donoM kI bhrAMti eka hI hai| na to bAhara kI cIjoM se kabhI koI apane ko bhara sakatA hai aura na bAhara kI cIjoM ko chor3a kara apane ko bhara sakatA hai| bharAva kA koI bhI saMbaMdha bAhara se nahIM hai| aSTAvakra ne pahale to parIkSA lI janaka kii| Aja ke sUtroM meM parIkSA nahIM lete, pralobhana dete
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________________ haiN| vaha pralobhana, jo hara tyAgI ke lie khar3A hotA hai; vaha pralobhana, jo bhoga se bhAgate hue AdamI ke lie khar3A hotA hai| Aja ve phusalAte haiM janaka ko ki tU tyAgI ho jaa| aba tujhe jJAna ho gayA aba tU tyAga ko upalabdha ho jaa| aba chor3a saba! aba uTha isa mAyAmoha ke Upara ! ye jo sUkSma pralobhana aSTAvakra dete haiM janaka ko, yaha pahalI parIkSA se bhI kaThinatara parIkSA hai| lekina yaha pratyeka bhoga se haTane vAle AdamI ke jIvana meM AtA hai; isalie bilakula ThIka aSTAvakra karate haiN| ThIka hI hai yaha pralobhana kA denA / aura jaba taka koI tyAga se bhI mukta na ho jAe taba taka koI mukta nahIM hotaa| bhoga se to mukta honA hI hai, tyAga se bhI mukta honA hai| saMsAra se to mukta honA hI hai| mokSa se bhI mukta honA hai| tabhI parama mukti phalita hotI hai| parama mukti kA artha hI yahI hai ki aba koI cIja kI AkAMkSA na rhii| tyAga meM to AkAMkSA hai| tuma tyAga karate ho to kisI kAraNa karate ho| aura jahAM kAraNa hai, vahA kaisA tyAga ? phira bha aura tyAga meM pharka kyA rahA? donoM kA gaNita to eka ho gyaa| eka AdamI bhoga meM par3A hai, dhana ikaTThA karatA, suMdara strI kI talAza karatA, suMdara puruSa ko khojatA, bar3A makAna banAtA - tuma pUcho usase kyoM banA rahA hai? vaha kahatA hai, isase sukha milegA / eka AdamI suMdara makAna chor3a detA, patnI ko chor3a kara calA jAtA, ghara-dvAra se alaga ho jAtA, nagna bhaTakane lagatA, saMnyAsI ho jAtA - pUcho usase, yaha saba tuma kyoM kara rahe ho? vaha kahegA, isase sukha milegaa| to donoM kI sukha kI AkAMkSA hai aura donoM mAnate haiM ki sukha ko pAne ke lie kucha kiyA jA sakatA hai| yahI bhrAMti hai| sukha svabhAva hai| use pAne ke lie tuma jaba taka kucha karoge, taba taka use khote rhoge| tumhAre pAne kI ceSTA meM hI tumane use gaMvAyA hai / saMsArI eka taraha se gavAtA, tyAgI dUsarI taraha se gavAtA / tuma kisa bhAMti gaMvAte, isase koI pharka nahIM par3atA / tuma kisa DhaMga kI zarAba pIkara behoza ho, isase kucha pharka nahIM pdd'taa| tuma kisa mArke kI zarAba pIte ho, isase koI pharka nahIM pdd'taa| lekina isa gaNita ko ThIka khayAla meM le lenA / saMsArI kahatA hai, itanA itanA mere pAsa hogA to maiM sukhI ho jaauuNgaa| tyAgI kahatA hai, mere pAsa kucha bhI na hogA to maiM sukhI ho jaauuNgaa| donoM ke sukha sazarta haiN| aura jaba taka tuma zarta lagA rahe ho sukha para taba taka tumheM eka bAta samajha meM nahIM AI ki sukha tumhArA svabhAva hai| use pAne kahIM jAnA nahIM sukha milA hI huA hai| tuma jAnA chor3a do| tuma kahIM bhI khojo mt| tuma apane bhItara vizrAma meM utara jaao| yahI to aSTAvakra ne prAthamika sUtroM meM kahA. caitanya meM vizrAma ko pahuMca jAnA hI sukha hai, AnaMda hai, saccidAnaMda hai| tuma kahIM bhI mata jAo! taraMga hI na uThe jAne kI! jAne kA artha hI hotA hai : haTa gae tuma apane svabhAva se| mAMgA tumane kucha, cAhA tumane kucha, khojA tumane kucha - smRta hue apane svabhAva se / na mAMgA, na khojA, na kahIM gae kI AMkha baMda, DUbe apane meM!
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________________ jo hai| vaha isI kSaNa tumhAre pAsa hai| jo hai, use tuma sadA se le kara calate rahe ho| jo hai vaha tumhArI gudar3I meM chipA hai| vaha hIrA tumhArI gudar3I meM par3A hai| tuma gudar3I dekhate ho aura bhIkha mAMgate ho| tuma socate ho, hamAre pAsa kyA? aura hIrA gudar3I meM par3A hai| tuma gadar3I kholo| aura jise tuma khojate the, tuma cakita ho jAoge, vahI to Azcarya hai-jo janaka ko AMdolita kara diyA hai| janaka kaha rahe haiM, ' Azcarya! aisA mana hotA hai ki apane ko hI namaskAra kara lUM ki apane hI caraNa chU lUM! hada ho gaI, jo milA hI thA, use khojatA thA! maiM to paramezvaroM kA paramezvara hUM! maiM to isa sAre jagata kA sAra hUM! maiM to samrATa hUM hI aura bhikhArI banA ghUmatA thA samrATa honA hamArA svabhAva hai; bhikhArI honA hamArI aadt| bhikhArI honA hamArI bhUla hai| bhUla ko ThIka kara lenA hai na kahIM khojane jAnA hai, na kucha khojanA hai| to jaba koI vyakti bhoga se jAgane lagatA hai taba khatarA khar3A hotA hai| phira bhI vaha mAMgegA vhii| taMga A cukA hUM siddate-jahade-hayAta se| mutariba! zurU koI mohabbata kA rAga kr| -ghabar3A cukA hUM jIvana ke saMgharSa se taMga A cukA hUM siddate-jahade-hayAta se -bahuta ho gayA yaha saMgharSa aba aura nhiiN| aba himmata na rhii| aba TUTa cukA huuN| mutariba! zurU koI mohabbata kA rAga kr| -he gAyaka, aba tU prema kA gIta gA! magara yaha mAmalA kyA huA? agara jiMdagI ke rAga se Uba gaye ho to yaha prema kA gIta? yaha to phira jiMdagI kA rAga zurU huaa| agara jiMdagI ke saMgharSa se Uba gae ho, to phira prema kI abhIpsA, phira jIvana kI zuruAta ho jaaegii| hama badalate haiM to bhI badalate nhiiN| hama mur3ate haiM to bhI mur3ate nhiiN| hama Upara-Upara saba khela khela lete haiN| hama laharoM -laharoM meM tairate rahate haiM, bhItara hama praveza nahIM krte| be-gotA kaise milatA hameM gauhare -murAda hama tairate rahe sadA, laharoM ke jhAga pr| eka lahara se dUsarI lahara, dUsarI se tIsarI lhr| hama laharoM ke jhAga para hI tairate rahate haiN| to vaha jo maNi hai, jise milakara mukti mila jAtI hai-kaheM muktA, kaheM maNi-vaha jo parama maNi hai, vaha to gahare DubakI lagAne se milatI hai| be-gotA kaise milatA hameM gauhare-murAda vaha jo hamArI sadA kI AkAMkSAoM kI AkAMkSA hai, vaha jo hamArI cAhatoM kI cAhata hai, 'gauhare-murAda', jisake atirikta hamane kabhI kucha nahIM cAhA hai-hamane saba DhaMga, saba raMga meM usI ko cAhA hai| koI dhana meM khojatA hai, koI pada meM khojatA hai; lekina hama khojate paramAtmA ko hI haiM, pada
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________________ para baiThakara paramAtmA hone kA hI thor3A majA lete haiM ki thor3I zakti hAtha AI! dhana pAsa hotA hai to paramAtmA kA thor3A sA majA lete haiM ki hama dIna-daridra nhiiN| jJAna hotA hai to paramAtmA kA thor3A sA majA lete haiM ki hama ajJAnI nhiiN| be-gotA kaise milatA hameM gauhare-murAda vaha paramAtmA hI gauhare-murAda hai| usako hamane bahuta-bahuta laharoM meM khojA, kabhI pAyA nhiiN| hAtha meM jhAga lagatA hai| lahara ko pakar3ate haiM, jhAga muTThI meM raha jAtA hai| magara phira dUsarI lahara para uThA jhAga hameM bulAne lagatA hai| jhAga bar3A suMdara lagatA hai kabhI! sUraja kI subaha kI kiraNoM meM jhAga bar3A raMgIna lagatA hai| maNimuktAeM hAra jAeM, aisI zubhratA, aise raMga, aise iMdradhanuSa jhAga meM dikhAI par3a sakate haiN| dUra uThatI lahara ke Upara jhAga aise lagatA hai jaise himAlaya para barpha jamI ho, pavitra! jhAga aise lagatA hai jaise sAre samudra kA sAra navanIta ho| hAtha bAMdho, muTThI bAMdho kucha bhI hAtha nahIM aataa| be-gotA kaise milatA hameM gauhare-murAda hama tairate rahe sadA, laharoM ke jhAga pr| hamane bahuta bAra karavaTeM badalIM, magara eka lahara se dUsarI lahara meM ulajha gae, maiM tumase yaha kahanA cAhatA hUM ki tumameM se bahuta oka bAra saMnyAsI hue phira bhogI hue phira saMnyAsI hue phira bhogI hue| ye karavaTeM tuma bahuta bAra badala cuke ho| yaha kucha nayA khela nhiiN| yaha khela bar3A purAnA hai| tuma isameM bar3e niSNAta ho cuke ho| kaI bAra maiM dekhatA hUM kucha loga jaba pahalI daphA saMnyAsa lene Ate haiM, ve socate haiM ki pahalI daphA saMnyAsa lene Ae; unake bhItara maiM jhAMkatA hUM to Azcarya se bhara jAtA hUM : yaha to ve kaI bAra kara cuke haiM, kyA isa bAra bhI phira vahI purAnA hI khela jArI rakheMge, ki isa bAra krAMti hogI? maiM socane lagatA : yaha phira eka naI lahara hogI yA gaharAI meM utaranA hogA? bhogiyoM ko dekhatA hUM to bhogI saMnyAsa kA sapanA dekhate milate haiM aura saMnyAsiyoM se bhI maiM milatA rahA huuN| varSoM taka ghUmatA rahA hUM saba taraha ke saMnyAsiyoM se milA huuN| saMnyAsiyoM ko bhoga ke sapane Ane zurU ho jAte haiN| yaha bar3A majA hai| jo lahara, jisa para tuma savAra hote ho, vaha vyartha mAlUma hotI hai; aura jo lahara dUra hai-ve dUra ke Dhola suhAvane-vaha bar3I AkarSaka mAlUma hotI hai! bhogI kahatA hai ki tyAgI bar3A AnaMda le rahA hogaa| isalie to bhogI tyAgI ke caraNa chUne jAtA hai| kaba tumheM akla AegI? kaba tumhArI AMkheM khuleMgI? agara tumane tyAgI ke caraNa sirpha isalie chue haiM ki tuma socate ho ki tyAgI majA le rahA hai, to khatarA hai| jaba tuma bhoga se Uboge, tuma tyAgI ho jaaoge| kyoMki paira tuma usI ke chUnA cAhate ho, jo tuma honA cAhate ho| paira chUnA to kevala iMgita hai| tuma to khabara de rahe ho ki agara hamArA basa cale to aise hote; jarA musIbata hai, isalie ulajhe haiN| mullA nasaruddIna eka dina bar3A udAsa thaa| maiMne pUchA, tuma itane udAsa kyoM ho? mAnA ki tumhArI patnI mara gaI, lekina tuma abhI javAna ho, dUsarI zAdI ho sakatI hai| saca to yaha hai ki kucha logoM ne mere pAsa Akara kahA bhI hai, kisI taraha mullA ko rAjI kara deM, unakI javAna lar3akI hai|
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________________ mullA ne kahA, kara to lUM lekina isake cAra kAraNa haiM, kara nahIM sakatA huuN| cAra kAraNa maiMne kahA, brahmacArI bhI cAra kAraNa nahIM ginA sake haiM aba taka zAdI na karane ke, tU btaa| cAra kAraNa.. usane kahA cAra kAraNa haiM, tIna laDakiyA aura eka lddkaa| ina cAra kAraNoM ke kAraNa vivAha kara sakatA nhiiN| karanA to maiM bhI cAhatA huuN| magara ye aTake haiN| inase phAMsI lagI hai| bhogI tyAgI ke paira chUne jAtA hai| lekina hajAra kAraNa aTake haiM usake gale meM, anyathA vaha bhI tyAgI honA caahtaa| tuma kyoM jAte ho mahAtmA ke caraNa chUne? tuma socate ho, kabhI aise sadabhAgya hoMge mere bhI ki maiM bhI mahAtmA ho jAUMgA! abhI nahIM ho sakatA to kama se kama caraNa to chU sakatA huuN| abhI nahIM ho sakatA to kama se kama samAdara to de sakatA huuN| tumhArA samAdara tumhArI apanI hI bhaviSya kI AkAMkSAoM ke caraNoM meM car3hAe gae phUla haiN| tuma kisI mahAtmA ke caraNa thor3e hI chU rahe ho; tuma apane hI bhaviSya kI pratimA ke caraNoM meM jhuka rahe ho| kabhI agara tumheM maukA milA, cAra kAraNa na rahe, taba khatarA aaegaa| taba tuma chalAMga lagA kara saMnyAsI ho jAoge, tyAgI ho jaaoge| aura maiM tyAgiyoM ko jAnatA hUM ve tyAgI ho kara taDUpha rahe haiN| mujhase eka sattara-pacahattara sAla ke ke saMnyAsI ne kahA ki ' Apase kaha sakatA hUM kisI aura se to kaha bhI nahIM sktaa| yaha darda aisA hai, kaho kisase! loga mere paira chUne Ate haiN| unase to maiM kaha nahIM sktaa| ve to majhe Adara dete haiM, unase to satya kahA nahIM jA sakatA; leki kahatA hUM ki cAlIsa sAla ho gae mujhe saMnyAsa lie| ' jaina muni haiM, cAlIsa sAla se saba tyAgA hai, lekina kucha milA nhiiN| ' aba to yaha zaka hone lagA hai isa bur3hApe meM,' unhoMne mujhase kahA, 'ki kahIM maiMne bhUla to nahIM kara dI! aba to rAta mujhe sapane Ane lage haiM ki isase to behatara thA maiM grahastha hI rhtaa| ghara-dvAra thA, patnI thI, bacce the, isase to maiM vahIM behatara thaa| aba to mujhe zaka hone lagA hai apane upakrama pr| cAlIsa sAla pahale kI bAteM mujhe aba prItikara lagane lagI ki vahI ThIka thA, isase to vahI ThIka thaa| aba vaha lahara jo cAlIsa sAla pahale chor3I thI, aba phira jhAga se bhara gaI hai| aba usa lahara ke sira para phira suMdara jhAga ne mukuTa racA die phira iMdradhanuSa paidA ho rahe haiN|' ___yaha tuma cakita hooge jAna kara ki bure AdamI acche AdamI hone ke sapane dekhate haiN| acche AdamI bure AdamI hone ke sapane dekhate haiN| agara tuma sAdhu-saMto ke sapanoM meM jhAMka pAo to tuma ghabar3A jaaoge| vahA tuma aparAdhiyoM ko chipA paaoge| aura agara tuma jelakhAne meM jAo aura aparAdhiyoM ke sapanoM meM jhAMko, unakI khopar3I meM khir3akI banA lo aura unakA sapanA dekho, tuma cakita ho jAoge, ki ve saba Uba gae haiM, thaka gae haiM burA kara-karake, aba ve bhale honA cAhate haiN| aba kisI taraha unako eka bAra maukA mila jAe to ve duniyA meM siddha kara denA cAhate haiM ki ve aparAdhI nahIM haiM, saMta haiN| yaha dUsarI bAta hai ki jela se jaba ve chUTeMge dasa-paMdraha sAla bAda, taba phira bAhara kI lahareM tAjI mAlUma hone lgeNgii| yaha dUsarI bAta hai| lekina AdamI hamezA vahA ke sapane dekhatA hai jahAM nahIM
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________________ janaka kI yaha jo dhyAna kI ghaTanA ghaTI hai, aSTAvakra parIkSA lie, aba use pralobhana dete haiN| yaha pralobhana aura bhI gaharI parIkSA hai| aba ve kahate haiM ki phira ThIka, jaba tujhe jJAna hI ho gayA janaka, to aba... aba chor3a, aba tyAga meM utara jaa| agara janaka isameM phaMsa gayA to asaphala huA to gaharI parIkSA meM asaphala huaa| janaka kI jagaha koI bhI sAdhAraNa vyakti hotA to ulajha jAtA jhaMjhaTa maiN| kyoMki aSTAvakra ina zabdoM meM bAta kara rahe haiM ki pakar3anA bahuta muzkila hai| suno unake suutr| aSTAvakra ne kahA : 'terA kisI se bhI saMga nahIM hai| tUne ghoSaNA kara dI asaMga hone kii| ' 'terA kisI se bhI saMga nahIM hai, isalie tU zuddha hai| tU kisako tyAganA cAhatA hai? isa prakAra dehAbhimAna ko miTAkara tU mokSa ko prApta ho|' bar3A ulajhA huA sUtra hai| ukasAte haiM bar3e bArIka nAjuka rAste se| pUchate haiM: tU zuddha hai, terA kisI se bhI koI saMga nahIM hai-phira bhI janaka, maiM dekhatA hUM tere bhItara tyAga kI lahareM uTha rahI haiN| tU kisako tyAganA cAhatA hai? ThIka, agara tyAganA hI cAhatA hai to isa prakAra ke dehAbhimAna ko tyAga kara tU mokSa ko prApta ho jaa| 'dehAbhimAna ko tyAga kara mokSa ko prApta ho jA!' eka to kahate haiM ki maiM tere bhItara tyAga kI lahara uThate dekhatA hUM dhImI taraMga hai zAyada tUne bhI abhI pahacAnI na ho; zAyada tujhe bhI abhI pahacAnane meM samaya lge| tere gahare atala meM uTha rahI hai eka lahara, jo thor3I-bahuta dera bAda terI caTTAna se TakarAegI caitanya kI, aura tU jAna paayegaa| abhI zAyada tujhe khabara bhI nhiiN| jaba manuSya ke bhItara koI vicAra uThatA hai to vaha cAra khaMDoM meM bAMTA jA sakatA hai| jaba tuma bolate ho, vaha AkhirI bAta hai| bolane ke pahale tamhAre kaMTha meM hotA hai| tama jAnate ho| sApha-sApha hotA hai, kyA bolanA hai| tuma bhItara to paricita ho gae, bhItara to tumane bola liyaa| abhI bAhara prATa nahIM kiyA hai| vaha tIsarI avasthA hai| usake pahale dUsarI avasthA hotI hai jaba dhuMdhalA hotA hai| tumheM sApha nahIM hotA ki kyA hai| aisA bhI ho sakatA hai, vaisA bhI ho sakatA hai| zAyada ho zAyada na ho! rUparekhA spaSTa nahIM hotii| subaha ke dhuMdhalake meM chipA hotA hai| magara thor3I-thor3I bhanaka par3atI hai| lagatA hai kucha hai| thor3I AvAja AnI zurU hotI hai| vaha dUsarI avasthA hai| usake pahale eka pahalI avasthA hai. jaba tumheM bilakula hI patA nahIM hotA, dhuMdhalake kA bhI patA nahIM hotaa| gaharI aMdherI rAta chAI hotI hai| lekina tumhAre bhItara vaha pahalI avasthA jaba uThatI hai, taba bhI guru dekha letA hai| aSTAvakra dekha rahe haiM ki janaka kI pahalI avasthA meM vicAra kI koI taraMga hai| thor3I dera bAda dUsarI avasthA hogii| thor3A dhuMdhalA- dhuMdhalA AbhAsa hogaa| phira tIsarI avasthA hogI. vicAra pragAr3ha hogA, spaSTa hogaa| phira cauthI avasthA hogI. janaka udaghoSaNA kareMge ki maiMne saba chor3A, maiMne saba tyAgA, aba maiM jAtA
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________________ vana kI or| isake pahale ki vicAra yahAM taka pahuMca jAe.. kyoMki yahAM taka pahuMca kara phira lauTanA muzkila ho jAtA hai| vicAra se mukta hone kI prakriyA yahI hai ki pahalI avasthA meM vicAra ko agara pakar3a liyA jAe to tuma kabhI usake baMdhana meM nahIM pdd'te| tumane bIja meM pakar3a liyA vRkSa ko, vRkSa paidA hI nahIM ho paataa| adhika loga to jaba vRkSa na kevala paidA ho jAtA hai, usameM phala laga jAte, na kevala phala laga jAte, balki vRkSa hajAroM bIjoM ko apanI tarapha pheMka detA hai bhUmi meM-taba sajaga hote haiM, taba bar3I dera ho gii| taba tuma isa vRkSa ko ukhAr3a bhI do to bhI pharka nahIM par3ane vAlA, kyoMki hajAroM bIja pheMka cukaa| samaya Ane para ve phUTeMge, hajAroM vRkSa bneNge| aura tumhArI purAnI Adata hai, tuma tabhI pakar3oge jaba vRkSa bana jAeMge, bIja gira jAeMge, taba tuma phira pakar3oge, phira tuma kATa denaa| tuma vRkSoM ko kATate rahanA aura vRkSoM kA koI aMta na hogaa| vRkSoM kI naI zrRMkhalAeM AtI calI jaaeNgii| aisA hI hamAre jIvana meM hotA hai| buddha ne vipassanA kA prayoga diyA hai apane bhikSuoM ko| vipassanA kA kula artha itanA hI hai ki tuma isa bhAMti bhItara sajaga hote jAo ki dhIre- dhIre tumheM pahalI avasthA meM vicAra dikhAI par3ane lge| jaba pahalI avasthA meM vicAra dikhAI par3atA hai, bar3I sarala hai baat| itanA hI kaha denA kAphI hai : 'basa kSamA kara! nahIM icchA par3ane kI ismeN| ' itanA bhAva hI ki 'nahIM' paryApta hai aura bIja dagdha ho jAtA hai| dUsarI avasthA meM thor3A kaThina hai| thor3A saMgharSa karanA pdd'egaa| tIsarI avasthA meM aura bhI kaThina hai| saMgharSa karoge to bhI jIta pAoge, saMdigdha chai| cauthI avasthA meM to bahuta muzkila hai| ghoSaNA ho cukii| tuma phaMsa ge| lauTanA karIba karIba asaMbhava ho jAtA hai| aba to phala bhoganA par3egA, kyoMki vicAra karma bana gyaa| pahale vicAra kevala bhAva hotaa| usake pahale zUnya meM bIja-mAtra hotA, saMbhAvanA mAtra hotaa| phira bhAva banatA, phira vicAra banatA, phira abhivyakti bntaa| abhI janaka ko zAyada patA bhI na ho, yA zAyada patA calanA zurU huA ho; lekina aSTAvakra ko dikhAI par3A hai| 'terA kisI se bhI saMga nahIM janaka, tU zuddha hai! lekina phira bhI kisako tyAganA cAhatA hai?' . eka kAma kara, agara tyAganA hI hai tujhe, agara tyAgane kI jida hI hai to... 'dehAbhimAna ko miTA kara tU mokSa ko prApta ho!' bar3A gaharA jAla hai! agara janaka itanA bhI kaha de ki hA, dehAbhimAna kA tyAga karanA hai, to bAta taya ho jAegI ki kucha tyAga karanA hai ise| kucha bhI tyAga karanA ho to ajJAna zeSa hai| phira abhI jJAna kI krAMti nahIM ghttii| dIyA jala gayA aura tuma kaho, aMdhere kA tyAga karanA hai, to phira dIyA jalA nahIM! dIyA jala jAne para aMdhere kA kaisA tyAga? dIyA jala gayA to aMdherA to jA hI cukA, tyAga ho hI cukaa| tyAga karanA ho to galata, tyAga ho jAe to shii| jo karanA par3e to kartA bana jAte haiM hama; jo ho jAe to sAkSI rahate haiN| bhoga huA tyAga huaa| na hamane bhoga kiyA na hamane
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________________ tyAga kiyaa| jo hotA thA, hone diyaa| hama karate bhI kyA ? jo hotA thA, hone diyaa| dekhate rhe| apane dekhane ko vizuddha rakhA ! na te saMgousti kenApi kiM shuddhslkttrmicchsi| saMghAtavilaya kurvannevameva laya vraja / / te kena api saMga: na.. | terA koI saMgI-sAthI nahIM chor3anA kisako cAhatA hai? koI saMgI-sAthI hotA to chor3a dete| samajho, bArIka hai sUtra samajhA to krAMti ghaTa sakatI hai| koI mere pAsa AtA hai, vaha kahatA hai, patnI-bacce chor3ane haiN| to usane eka bAta to mAna hI lI ki patnI-bacce usake haiN| koI mere pAsa AtA hai, kahatA hai, dhana chor3anA hai, ghara-dvAra chor3anA hai| maiM usase pUchatA hUM 'tujhe pakkA hai ki ve tere haiM? tU na chor3egA to tere raheMge? kala tU maregA, phira kyA karegA ? marate vakta tU kahegA ki ye mere haiM aura chUTa rahe haiM, yaha mAmalA kyA hai? janma ke pahale tU to nahIM thA, makAna yahIM thaa| jisa tijor3I meM tUne hIre bhara rakhe haiM, ve bhI yahIM the, tU nahIM thaa| ve kisI aura ke the| kisI aura ko bhrAMti thI ki mere haiN| aba tujhe bhrAMti hai ki mere haiN| tU jaba nahIM thA, taba bhI the; tU nahIM rahegA, taba bhI hoNge| chor3egA tU? chor3anA to tabhI ghaTa sakatA hai jaba tujhe pakkA ho ki ye mere haiN| mere haiM, to chor3anA saMbhava hai| agara mere nahIM haiM to chor3egA kaise? chor3ane meM to mAlakiyata kA dAvA jArI hai| jisa AdamI ne kahA, maiMne chor3a diyA saMsAra, vaha AdamI abhI chor3a nahIM pAyA, kyoMki chor3ane bhI dAvedAra maujUda hai| vaha kahatA hai, maiMne chor3A! to usane pahalI bhAMti ko abhI bhI pakar3A huA hai ki merA thA ! jo merA ho to chor3A jA sakatA hai| te kena api saMga: na.. | terA kauna saMgI, terA kauna sAthI ! akelA tU AtA, akelA tU jAtA ! na kucha le kara AtA, na kucha le kara jAtA! khAlI hAtha AtA, khAlI hAtha jAtA ! mAmalA to ajIba hI hai| AdamI jaba paidA hotA hai to baMdhI muTThI, maratA hai to khulI muTThI / aura burI hAlata meM maratA hai| kama se kama baMdhI muTThI le kara AtA hai, baccA jaba AtA hai| nahIM sahI, kucha bhI nahIM hai usameM, kama se kama baMsrI muTThI. loga kahate haiM baMdhI muTThI lAkha kI, khulI to khAka kI ! jaba maratA hai to muTThI khula jAtI hai, khAka kI ho jAtI hai| na to baMdhI muTThI meM kucha thA, na khulI muTThI meM kucha thaa| lekina baMdhI muTThI meM kama se kama bhrama to thA ki kucha hai| na hama kucha lAte, na hama kucha le jaate| chor3egA kyA? chor3ane ko kyA hai? tena api saMga na ataH zuddhaH / bar3A adabhuta sUtra hai| bar3e vaijJAnika sUtra haiM ! terA koI saMgI nahIM, sAthI nahIM, terI koI mAlakiyata nahIM, terI koI vastu nhiiN| ataH zuddhaH / isalie tU zuddha hai| kyoMki mAlakiyata bhraSTa karatI hai| tumane dekhA, jisa cIja para mAlakiyata kAyama karo, usI kI mAlakiyata tuma para kAyama ho jAtI hai! bano kisI strI ke svAmI aura vaha tumhArI mAlika ho gii| bano makAna ke mAlika aura
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________________ makAna tumhArA mAlika ho gyaa| pharIda eka rAste se gujaratA thA apane ziSyoM ke sAtha aura eka AdamI eka gAya ke gale meM rassI bAMdha kara ghasITe le jA rahA thaa| gAya ghisaTa rahI thI, jA nahIM rahI thI / parataMtratA kauna cAhatA hai! pharIda ne ghera liyA usa AdamI ko, gAya ko apane ziSyoM se kahA, khar3e ho jAo, eka pATha. le lo| maiM tumase eka savAla pUchatA hUM 'yaha AdamI ne gAya ko bAMdhA hai ki gAya ne AdamI ko bAMdhA hai?' vaha AdamI jo gAya le jA rahA thA vaha bhI khar3A ho gayA. dekheM mAmalA kyA hai ! yaha to bar3A ajIba prazna hai| aura pharIda jaisA jJAnI kara rahA hai ! ziSyoM ne kahA, bAta sApha hai ki isa AdamI ne gAya ko bAMdhA hai, kyoMki rassI isake hAtha hai| pharIda ne kahA, maiM dUsarA savAla pUchatA huuN| hama isa rassI ko bIca se kATa deM to yaha A gAya ke pIche jAegA ki gAya AdamI ke pIche jAegI? to ziSyoM ne kahA, taba jarA jhaMjhaTa hai| agara rassI kATa dI to itanA to pakkA hai ki gAya to bhAgane ko taiyAra hI khar3I hai| yaha isake pIche jAne vAlI nahIM hai, yaha AdamI hI isake pIche jaaegaa| to pharIda ne kahA, Upara se dikhatA hai ki rassI gale meM baMdhI hai gAya ke pIche se gahare meM samajho to AdamI ke gale meM baMdhI hai| jisake hama mAlika hote haiM, usakI hama para mAlakiyata ho jAtI hai| tuma dhana ke kAraNa dhanI thor3e hI hote ho, dhana ke gulAma ho jAte ho| dhana ke kAraNa dhanI ho jAo to dhana meM kucha bhI kharAba nahIM hai| lekina dhana ke kAraNa kabhI koI viralA dhanI ho pAtA hai| dhana ke kAraNa to loga gulAma ho jAte haiN| unakI sArI jiMdagI eka hI kAma meM laga jAtI hai jaise... tijor3I kI rakSA ! aura dhana ko ikaTThA karate jAnA! jaise ve isIlie paidA hue haiM ye mahaMta kArya karane ko isa saMsAra meM Ae haiN| tijor3I meM bhara kara mara jAyeMge, unakA mahaMta kArya pUrA ho jAegA! tijor3I yahIM par3I raha jaaegii| aSTAvakra kahate haiM. terA koI nahIM, tU kisI kA nahIM, akelA hai - ataH zuddhaH / isalie maiM ghoSaNA karatA hUM ki tU zuddha hai| zuddha terA svabhAva hai| jaba bhI koI cIja kisI dUsarI cIja se mila jAtI hai to azuddha ho jAtI hai| vijAtIya se milane se azuddhi hotI hai| pratyeka cIja apane Apa meM to zuddha hI hotI hai, yaha dhyAna rkhnaa| tuma kahate ho, isa dUdha vAle ne pAnI milA diyA dUdha meM, to dUdha azuddha ho gyaa| tumane kabhI dUsarI bAta socI ki pAnI bhI azuddha ho gayA? vaha to tumheM jarUrata dUdha kI hai, isalie tuma dUdha kI phikra karate ho ki dUdha azuddha ho gyaa| lekina dUdha, agara dUdha vAlA yaha kahe ki maiMne bilakula zuddha pAnI milAya hai, kaisI nAsamajhI kI bAta karate ho ki azuddha ho gayA! pAnI bilakula zuddha thA, maiMne milAyA, dUdha bhI zuddha thA - zuddhatA doharI ho gaI ! tuma azuddhatA kI bAta kara rahe ho? koI azuddha pAnI nahIM milAyA hai, koI Dabare se sar3aka ke kinAre nahIM bhara kara milA diyA, bilakula zuddha karake ra ubAla kara, prAzuka isameM milAyA hai| tuma kaise kahate ho ki yaha azuddha hai? do zuddha cIjeM jaba milatI haiM to sIdhA
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________________ hai ki zuddhi doharI ho jAnI cAhie, duganI ho jAnI caahie| magara jiMdagI meM gaNita nahIM cltaa| jiMdagI gaNita se kucha jyAdA hai| do zuddha cIjoM ko bhI milAo to donoM azuddha ho jAtI haiN| tuma kahate ho, dUdha azuddha ho gayA, kyoMki dUdha kI tumheM jarUrata hai, dUdha ke dAma lagate haiN| pAnI bhI azuddha ho gyaa| to azuddhi kA artha samajha lenA mala-mUtra bhI par3A ho aura tuma usameM sonA DAla do to malamUtra bhI azuddha ho gyaa| malamUtra malamUtra kI taraha zuddha hai| zuddha kA matalaba yaha ki sirpha svayaM hai| zuddha kA artha hI itanA hotA hai : svayaM honaa| mullA nasaruddIna eka cAya-ghara maiM baiTha kara gapa-zapa kara rahA thA aura kaha rahA thA ki bhagavAna ne saba cIjeM paripUrNa banAI haiN| bhagavAna pUrNa hai to bhagavAna ne hara cIja pUrNa bnaaii| loga bar3I gaMbhIratA se suna rahe the, bAta jaMca bhI rahI thI, tabhI eka kubar3A AdamI-rahA hogA aSTAvakra jaisA-khar3A ho gyaa| aura usane kahA, mere saMbaMdha meM kyA ? vaha kaI jagaha se irachA-tirachA thaa| thor3A to mullA bhI cauMkA ki jarA muzkila bAta hai| usane kahA ki tU bilakula. tere saMbaMdha meM bhI sahI hai| tujha jaisA paripUrNa kubar3A maiMne dekhA hI nhiiN| tU bilakula pUrNa kubar3A hai| isameM aura sudhAra karane kA upAya nahIM hai| paramAtmA banAtA hI pUrNa cIjeM hai, tujhe pUrNa kubar3A banAyA hai! pratyeka vastu jaisI hai, apane meM zuddha hai| to zuddha kA artha huA : svabhAva meM honaa| azuddha kA artha huA parabhAva meM honaa| jaba bhI tuma para kA bhAva karate ho vizuddhatA kho jAtI hai, azuddha ho jAte ho| dhana cAhA to tumhArI cetanA meM dhana kI chAyA par3ane lagI, pada cAhA to pada kI chAyA par3ane lagI; pratiSThA cAhI to pratiSThA kI chAyA par3ane lgii| jaba taka tumane kucha cAhA, cAha kA artha hI hai apane se anyathA kI caah| svayaM ko to kauna cAhatA hai! svayaM to tuma ho hI, cAhane ko kucha hai nhiiN| isalie to loga AtmA ko cakate cale jAte haiM, kyoMki AtmA ko koI cAhegA kyoM! AtmA to hai hii| jo nahIM hai, use hama cAhate haiN| jo hama nahIM haiM, use hamAcAhate haiM aura usakI cAha hI hameM azuddha karatI hai| te kena api saMga: na ata: zuddhaH tU zuddha hai janaka, kyoMki terI koI cAha nhiiN| kim tyaktuma icchsi| lekina tere bhItara maiM dekhatA hUM icchA paidA ho rahI hai tyAga kii| kise tU chor3anA cAhatA hai? kise? kyoMki chor3ane meM bhrAMti-merI hai-aisI to rahegI hii| itanA jAna lenA kAphI hai ki merA kucha bhI nahIM-tyAga ho gayA! na kahIM bhAganA hai, na kahIM jAnA hai| tuma jahAM ho vahIM baiThe -baiThe kira kAnoM -kAna khabara bhI na hogI, patnI pAsa hI baiThI rahegI, bacce vahIM khelate raheMge, dukAna calatI rahegI, grAhaka Ate-jAte raheMge, tuma vahIM baiThe-baiThe isa choTe se bodha ke dIe se mukta ho jA sakate ho ki merA kucha bhI nahIM! kim tyastuma icchsi|
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________________ tU kise chor3ane kI icchA kara rahA hai? tere bhItara maiM eka icchA kA aMkura uThate dekhatA hUM / evam eva saMghAtavilayam kurvan layam vrj| aura agara aisA hai to eka bAta chor3ane jaisI hai, vaha hai dehAbhimAna | yaha bAta ki maiM deha hUM yaha bAta ki maiM mana hUM, yaha bAta ki merA koI tAdAtmya hai - yaha chor3ane jaisI hai, tU isakA tyAga kara de| dekheM jAla! Upara se kaha rahe haiM ki tere bhItara koI bhI tyAga kI AkAMkSA uThe to galata hai| aura phira bar3I bArIkI se, bar3I kuzalatA se kahate haiM: - lekina phira bhI agara terI marjI ho, chor3ane kA hI ho to aura kucha chor3anA to vyartha hai, yaha bAta chor3a de ki maiM deha, ki maiM mana, ki merA kisI se tAdAtmya | aise ve tyAga ke lie ukasAte haiN| bar3I jaTila bAta hai! tumane kabhI kumhAra ko ghar3A banAte dekhA ? kyA karatA kumhAra ? bhItara se to samhAlatA hai ghar3e ko| cAka para rakhatA hai miTTI ko bhItara se samhAlatA hai aura bAhara se coTa mAratA hai| eka hAtha se coTa mAratA hai, eka hAtha se samhAlatA hai| isI se ghar3e kI dIvAla uThanI zurU hotI hai| ghar3A banA zurU hotA hai| bhItara se samhAlatA jAtA hai, bAhara se coTa karatA jAtA hai| kabIra ne kahA hai : yahI guru kA kAma hai| eka hAtha se coTa karatA, eka hAtha se samhAlatA hai| agara tumane coTa hI dekhI to tumane AdhA dekhA / tumane agara samhAlanA hI dekhA to bhI tumane AdhA dekhA, to tuma guru kI pUrI kImiyA se paricita na ho sake phira pUrA rasAyana tumheM samajha meM na aaegaa| idhara coTa mAratA, idhara samajhA letaa| itanI bhI coTa nahIM mAratA ki tuma bhAga hI khar3e hoo| itanA bhI nahIM samajhA letA ki tuma vahI ke vahI raha jAo jaise Ae the| coTa bhI kie calA jAtA hai, tAki tuma badalo bhii| lekina coTa bhI itanI mAtrA meM karatA hai - homiyopaithI ke Doja detA hai, dhIre- dhIre ! ekadama ailopaithI kA Doja nahIM de detA ki tuma yA to bhAga hI khar3e hoo yA khatma hI ho jaao| bar3I choTI mAtrA meM, coTa karatA hai! dekhatA hai kitanI dUra taka saha sakoge, utanI coTa kara detA hai / phira rukatA hai; dekhatA hai ki jyAdA ho gaI, tilamilA gae, bhAge jA rahe ho, bistara - vistara bAMdha rahe ho, to phira thor3A samajhA letA hai| dekhA! 'svabhAva' ke sAtha vahI to kiyA na / aba unhoMne phira bistara vagairaha khola kara rakha diyA hai| aba ve phira maje -maje se baiThe hue haiM, sira ghuTAe hue aba unako koI ar3acana nahIM hai| aba phira coTa kI taiyArI hai| aba una para phira mAra par3anI caahie| ....... eka hAtha se samhAlo, eka hAtha se coTa karate jaao| to ve usase kahate, 'aisA kara ki tU chodd'| dhana ityAdi chor3anA to choTI bAteM haiM, maiM tujhe bar3I bAta chor3ane kI batAtA hUM / tU dehAbhimAna chor3a ve' saMghAtavilayam ! yaha jo deha kA saMghAta hai, isako laya kara de ! maiM deha hUM aise bhAva ko vilIna kara de| isa prakAra dehAbhimAna ko miTA kara tU mokSa ko abhI prApta ho jA sakatA hai| dekhanA bArIkI : 'mokSa ko prApta ho jA sakatA hai, agara dehAbhimAna ko chor3a de ! phira kAraNa
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________________ kArya kI duniyA banAI jA rahI hai| phira use kahA jA rahA hai ki yaha kAraNa hai, deha kA abhimAna chUTa jAe to mokSa phale / mokSa phala nahIM hai; mokSa ke lie kucha karanA jarUrI nahIM hai| mokSa tumhArA svabhAva hai| magara janaka bhI adabhuta kuzala vyakti hoNge| unake sUtra zIghra hI AeMge, taba tuma samajhoge, unhoMne kaisA adabhuta uttara diyA! 'tujhase saMsAra utpanna hotA hai, jaise samudra se bulabulA / isa prakAra AtmA ko eka jAna aura aisA jAna kara mokSa ko prApta ho| ' udeti bhavato vizva vAridheriva budavudaH / iti jJAtvaikamAtmAnamevameva laya braja / / itanI hI bhAvanA kara ki mujhase saMsAra utpanna huA hai jaise samudra meM bulabulA utpanna hotA hai| aura apane ko aura jagata ko svayaM ko aura samaSTi ko eka mAna kara eka jAna kara tU mokSa ko prApta ho jaa| jaise ki mokSa kisI jAnane para nirbhara hai! jaise mokSa ke lie koI jJAna Avazyaka hai! agara mokSa ke lie kucha bhI Avazyaka hai to vaha mokSa na rhaa| kyoMki jisa mokSa ke lie koI kAraNa hai, vaha kAraNa para nirbhara hogA; usakI zarta ho gaI; vaha kAraNa se baMdhA hogA; kisI dina kAraNa haTa jAegA to mokSa gira jaaegaa| mokSa akAraNa hai| mokSa kA koI bhI kAraNa nahIM hai| tumane agara pUchA ki maiM kaise mukta ho jAUM to tuma baMdhane kA nayA upAya pUcha rahe ho| tuma pUcha rahe ho ki mujhe aba kucha aura batAeM purAne baMdhana purAne par3a gae, unameM aba rasa nahIM AtA; aba maiM kaise mukta ho jAUM? to koI kahatA hai, aba tuma yogAsana karo, isase mukta ho jaaoge| to pahale tuma dukAna para baiThe the, gaddI para Asana lagA rahe the, aba tuma baiTha gae kahIM jaMgala meM jA kara jhAr3a ke nIce, yogAsana lagAne lge| magara, jArI rahA kaam| AkAMkSA bhaviSya kI rahI / mokSa to hai hI! tuma kucha na karo - mokSa hai| jaba tuma kucha bhI nahIM karate hooge, usI kSaNa tumheM dikhAI pdd'egaa| kyoMki karane se UrjA mukta huI ki phira kyA karegI? phira dekhegI! kartA meM UrjA ulajhI rahe to sAkSI nahIM bana paatii| vahI UrjA jaba kartA meM nahIM ulajhI hotI, kucha karane ko nahIM hotA, to sAkSI bana jAtI hai| jhena guru apane ziSyoM ko kahate haiM? basa baiTho aura kucha na kro| isase krAMtikArI sUtra kabhI diyA hI nahIM gyaa| ve kahate haiM, basa baiTho kucha na kro| ziSya bAra-bAra AtA ki kucha karane ko de do| sadaguru kahatA hai kucha karane ko de diyA, basa zurU huA gorakhadhaMdhA ! : 'gorakhadhaMdhA' zabda bar3A adabhuta zabda hai| yaha gorakhanAtha se claa| kyoMki jitanI vidhiyAM gorakhanAtha ne khojI, mere alAvA kisI aura ne nahIM khojI / gorakhadhaMdhA ! mAnate nahIM, kucha kareMge. karo! kuMDalinI karo, nAdabrahma karo! karane ke binA caina nahIM hai! tuma kahate ho, binA kucha kie to hama baiTha hI nahIM skte| to maiM kahatA hUM calo ThIka hai, kucha karo! jaba thaka jAoge karane se, kisI dina jaba
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________________ kahoge ki aba kucha aisA batAeM ki karane se bahuta ho gayA, aba karane se kucha hotA nahIM, to tumase kahUMgA aba baiTha raho! jaise choTA baccA ghara meM hotA hai - becaina - tuma use kahate ho, zAMta baiTha! vaha zAMta kyA, kaise baiThe? itanA bUr3hA nahIM hai ki zAMta baitthe| abhI UrjA se bharA hai, abhI ubala rahI hai Aga ! abhI vaha zAMta bhI baiThe to kasamasAtA hai, hilatA DulatA hai| vaha rAta meM so bhI nahIM sakatA, bistara se nIce gira jAtA hai| to karavaTeM badalatA hai, hAtha-paira pheMkatA hai| abhI to zakti uTha rahI hai| tuma use kahate ho, 'zAMta baiTha! AMkha baMda kara !' vaha baiTha nahIM sktaa| usake lie to eka hI upAya hai| usase kaho ki jA ghara ke paMdraha cakkara lagA A, jora se daur3anA / phira kucha kahane kI jarUrata na rhegii| ve paMdraha cakkara lagA kara khuda hI zAMti se A kara baiTha jaaeNge| taba tuma dekhanA unakI zAMti meM pharka hai| UrjA baha gaI hai, thakAna A gaI hai - usa thakAna meM baiThanA AsAna ho jAtA hai| sArI vidhiyAM gorakhadhaMdhe haiN| unakA upayoga kevala eka hai ki tuma thaka jAo, tumhAre kartA meM dhIre- dhIre thakAna A jaae| tuma yaha socane lago, kara-kara ke to kucha huA nahIM, aba jarA na karake dekha leM! tuma karane se aise parezAna ho jAo ki eka dina tuma kahane lago, aba to prabhu karane se chuddaao| aba to yaha karanA bar3A jAna lie le rahA hai| aba to hama zAMta honA cAhate haiM, baiThanA cAhate haiM ! jaba tumhIM zAMta baiThanA cAhoge, tabhI zAMta baiTha skoge| jaba taka ziSya kartA meM abhI rasa le rahA hai kisI taraha kA, taba taka use kucha na kucha karma denA par3egA, koI prakriyA denI pdd'egii| lekina jhena phakIra AkhirI bAta kahate haiN| ve kahate haiM, baiTha jAo, kucha karo mata! bar3A kaThina hotA hai baiTha jAnA aura kucha na karanA / tumane kabhI khayAla kiyA, ghara meM kucha karane ko na ho to kaisI musIbata A jAtI hai! pharnIcara hI jamAne lagate haiM loga; abhI kala hI jamAyA thA, phira se jamAne lagate haiN| jhAr3U-poMcha karane lagate haiN| kala hI kI thI, phira se karane lagate haiN| akhabAra purAnA par3A hai, usI ko par3hane lagate haiM; use par3ha cuke haiM pahale hI / tumane kabhI khayAla kiyA? kucha na kucha karane lagate haiM! kucha na ho to kucha khAne-pIne lgeNge| maiM yAtrA karatA thA varSoM taka, to mere sAtha eka mitra kabhI-kabhI yAtrA para jAte the| to ve mujhase bole ki bar3I ajIba bAta hai, ghara aisI bhUkha nahIM lgtii| Trena meM mere sAtha kabhI unako tIsa ghaMTe baiThanA pdd'taa| ghara aisI bhUkha nahIM lagatI, kyA mAmalA hai? aura ghara to kAma meM lage rahate haiM aura bhUkha nahIM lagatI, aura Trena meM to sirpha baiThe hue haiN| Trena meM aneka logoM ko bhUkha lagatI hai| aura agara ghara se kucha kalevA le kara cale haiM phira to bar3I becainI ho jAtI hai| phira to kaba kholeM..! to maiMne unase kahA ki isakA kAraNa. kAraNa kula itanA hai ki tuma khAlI nahIM baiTha skte| aba yaha eka jhAjhena ho gayA, eka kiyA ho gaI jhena kI, ki baiThe Trena meM tIsa ghaMTe taka, aba kucha kAma bhI nahIM hai| bAhara bhI kaba taka dekho, AMkheM thaka jAtI haiN| akhabAra bhI kaba taka par3ho, thor3I dera meM cuka jAtA hai| to kucha khAo, phira se bistara jamAo phira se sUTakesa khola kara dekho; jaise ki
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________________ kisI aura kA hai! tumhIM jamA kara Ae ho ghara se| usako vyavasthita kara lo! maiMne dekhA ki.. maiM dekhatA rahatA ki kyA rahe haiM ve| phira cale bAtharUma! kyoM? abhI tuma gaye the! na mAlUma kyA mAmalA hai? khir3akI kholate, baMda karate! AdamI ko kucha ulajhana caahie| ulajhA rahe, vyasta rahe to ThIka mAlUma par3atA hai| ulajhA rahe, vyasta rahe to purAnI Adata ke anukUla saba calatA rahatA hai| khAlI chUTa jAe zUnya pakar3ane lagatA hai| vahI zUnya dhyAna hai| khAlI chUTa jAe, mokSa utarane lagatA hai| ___ mokSa kA tumheM patA hI nhiiN| tuma daravAjA baMda kara kara dete ho| jaba bhI mokSa kahatA hai, jarA bhItara Ane do, tuma phira kucha karane meM laga jAte ho| mokSa tabhI AyegA, jaba tuma aisI ghar3I meM hooge jaba kucha bhI nahIM kara rhe| taba acAnaka utara AtA hai| vaha parama AzISa barasa jAtA hai| ekadama prasAda saba tarapha khar3A ho jAtA hai| kyoMki mokSa to pratyeka kA svabhAva hai, tumhAre karane para nirbhara nhiiN| lekina guru dekhatA hai agara koI vAsanA karane kI thor3I-bahuta zeSa raha gaI usako bhI nipaTA lo| 'tujha se saMsAra utpanna hotA hai; jaise samudra se bulbulaa| isa prakAra AtmA ko eka jAna aura aisA jAna kara mokSa ko prApta ho| ' iti jJAtvaikamAtmAnamevameva laya vrj| ve kahate haiM, tU eka kAma kara le| itanA jAna le ki AtmA sarva ke sAtha eka hai| aba yaha jJAna kI yAtrA zurU karavA rahe haiN| aise to kaI nAsamajha baiThe haiM, jo doharAte rahate haiM baiThe-baiThe ki maiM aura brahma eka, maiM aura brahma ek| doharAte raho janmoM taka, kucha bhI na hogaa| tote bana jaaoge| doharAte-doharAte aisI bhrAMti bhI paidA ho sakatI hai ki zAyada maiM aura brahma ek| magara isa bhrAMti kA nAma jJAna nahIM hai| 'dRzyamAna jagata pratyakSa hotA huA bhI rajju sarpa kI bhAMti tujha zuddha ke lie nahIM hai| isalie tU nirvANa ko prApta ho| ' yaha saba bhAMti hai| yaha saba bhrAMti se jAga! nirvANa ko prApta ho! yaha saba sapanA hai; jaise rassI meM sAMpa dikhAI par3a jaae| vyaktam vizvam pratyakSam api avstutvaat| yadayapi dikhAI par3atA hai yaha vizva, phira bhI nahIM hai| aisA hI dikhAI par3atA, jaise rassI meM saaNp| amale tvayi rantusarpaH iva na asti tujha zuddha meM, tujha buddha meM, koI bhI mala, koI bhI doSa nahIM hai| agara doSa dikhAI bhI par3atA ho to vaha bhI rantu meM sarpavata hai| evam eva layam vraja | aisA jAna kara tU laya ko prApta ho jA! tU nirvANa ko prApta ho jA!
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________________ do hI bAteM haiM jo saMsAra ke bhoga se jAge hue AdamI ko pakar3a sakatI haiM. eka tyAga aura eka jJAna| tyAga ki chor3o; tapazcaryA meM utaro, upavAsa karo, nIMda tyAgo, isako chor3o usako chor3o; aura jJAna. aisA jAno, vaisA jAno, aura jAnane ko majabata kro| do taraha ke loga haiM saMsAra meM. jo bahuta sakriya pravRti ke loga haiM ve to saMsAra se chUTate hI tyAga meM laga jAte haiN| jo thor3I niSkiya pravRti ke loga haiM, vicAraka vRtti ke loga haiM, ve saMsAra se chUTate hI jJAna meM laga jAte haiN| magara donoM hI ar3acaneM haiN| tuma aksara pAoge. yA to saMsAra se bhAgA huA AdamI paMDita ho jAtA hai, zAstra doharAne lagatA; yA zarIra ko galAne lagatA, satAne lgtaa| donoM hI avarodha haiN| na to yahAM kucha jAnane ko hai na yahAM kucha karane ko hai| jJAtA tumhAre bhItara chupA hai, jAnanA kyA hai? jAnane vAlA tumhAre bhItara baiThA hai, sabako jAnane vAlA tumhAre bhItara baiThA hai| jAnanA kyA hai gu: ye adhyAtma ke AtyaMtika udaghoSa haiN| isalie tumheM kaThina bhI mAlUma par3e to bhI samajhane kI koziza krnaa| 'dukha aura sukha jisake lie samAna haiM, jo pUrNa hai, jo AzA aura nirAzA meM samAna hai, jIvana aura mRtyu meM samAna hai; aisA ho kara tU nirvANa ko prApta ho|' samaduHkhasukhaH pUrNa AzAnairAzyayo smH| sukha-dukha jise samAna dikhAI par3e, AzA-nirAzA jise samAna dikhAI par3e-yahI to vairAgya kI paribhASA hai| samajIvitamRtkR! -mRtyU aura jIvana bhI jise samAna mAlUma pdd'e| satraivameva laya vrj| -aisA jAna kara tU nirvANa ko prApta kara le jnk| phira eka lakSya de rahe use| yA to tyAga de dehAbhimAna aura yA 'maiM svayaM paramabrahma hUM AtmA hUM AtmA sarva se eka hai-aise jJAna ko pakar3a le| ye do rAste haiM tere mukta ho jAne ke| agara koI bhI sAdhAraNa sAdhaka hotA to ulajha gayA hotaa| agara sakriya vyakti hotA to karmayoga meM par3a jaataa| agara niSkiya vyakti hotA to jJAnayoga meM par3a jaataa| bhakti kI bAta aSTAvakra ne nahIM uThAI, kyoMki janaka meM usakI koI saMbhAvanA nahIM thii| ye do saMbhAvanAeM thiiN| kSatriya thA janaka, to sakriya hone kI saMbhAvanA thii| bIja-rUpa se yoddhA thA, to sakriya hone kI saMbhAvanA thii| isIlie to jainoM ke sAre tIrthaMkara, cUMki kSatriya the, gahana tyAga meM par3a ge| to eka to saMbhAvanA thI ki janaka mahAtyAgI ho jaae| aura eka saMbhAvanA thI kyoMki samrATa thA, suzikSita thA, susaMskRta thA usa jagata kA, usa jamAne kA jo bhI zuddhatama jJAna saMbhava thA vaha janaka ko upalabdha huA thA dUsarI saMbhAvanA thI, bar3A vicAraka ho jaae| bhakti kI koI saMbhAvanA na dikhAI par3I hogI, isalie aSTAvakra ne vaha koI savAla nahIM utthaayaa| ye do savAla utthaae| ye do acetana meM
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________________ par3I huI saMbhAvanAeM haiM kahIM bhItara sarakatI huI guMjAiza hai inameM aMkuraNa ho sakatA hai| hama apane hI DhaMga se samajhate haiM, kucha bhI kahA jaae| maiM tumase kaha rahA hUM jitane loga yahAM haiM, utanI bAteM paidA ho jaaeNgii| maiM to eka hI hUM kahane vAlA, lekina jitane loga yahAM haiM utanI bAteM paidA ho jaaeNgii| loga apane DhaMga se samajhate haiN| mullA nasaruddIna ke beTe se merI bAta ho rahI thii| choTA baccA hai, usane acAnaka mujhase pUchA ki Apa eka bAta btaaeN| Apa sabake savAla kA javAba dete haiM, mere savAla kA javAba deN| AdamI jaba maratA hai to usakI jAna kahAM se nikalatI hai? choTe bacce aksara aisI bAta pUcha lete haiN| maiM bhI thor3A cauNkaa| maiMne usase pUchA, tujhe patA hai kahAM se nikalatI hai? vaha haMsane lgaa| usane kahA, mujhe patA hai| maiMne kahA, to pahale tU batA de| usane kahA...... khir3akI se nikalatI hai| maiMne usase pUchA, acchA yaha kaise ? tujhe kaise patA calA? usane kahA, eka dina maiMne dekhA ki pApA (arthAta mullA nasaruddIna) eka dina maiMne dekhA ki pApA jaba khir3akI ke pAsa khar3e the, nIce sar3aka se koI lar3akI nikala rahI thI to ve bole, Thaharo merI jAna! tabhI maiMne samajhA ki jAna khir3akI se nikala jAtI hai| choTA baccA hai, usane ThIka samajhA, jahAM taka samajha sakatA thA bilakula ThIka smjhaa| hama vahI samajhate haiM jo hama samajha sakate haiN| janaka aisA samajhA jaisA janaka samajha sakatA hai| janaka kI samajha bar3I asAdhAraNa hai, bar3I viziSTa hai| vaha sAdhAraNa vyakti kI samajha nahIM hai| aSTAvakra ko bhI thor3A-sA rahA hogA ki patA nahIM, janaka samajha pAyegA ki nahIM samajha pAyegA / svAbhAvika bhI hai, kyoMki yaha ghaTanA itanI bar3I hai, yaha UMcAI itanI bar3I hai, yahAM taka koI car3ha pAyegA ki nahIM car3ha pAyegA! 'sukha aura dukha jisake lie samAna haiN| khayAla rakhanA, tuma agara ceSTA karo to sukha aura dukha samAna ho sakate haiN| aura phira bhI tuma baMdhana meM rhoge| jIvana aura mRtyu bhI samAna ho sakatI haiM- mAnyatA ke AdhAra pr| tuma apane ko samajhA le sakate ho, tuma apane ko sammohita kara le sakate ho, ki saba samAna hai| lekina isase koI... koI mahaMta ghaTanA na ghaTegI jo tumheM badala jAe aura tumheM naye artha aura naye abhiprAya aura naye AkAza de jaae| janaka ne kahA.. I aba janaka ke sUtra haiN| ye bar3e anUThe sUtra haiN| aisA lagatA hai jaise janaka kI gaharAI meM utara kara aSTAvakra ne kahe hoNge| aisA lagatA hai ki jaisA aSTAvakra cAhate hoMge, ThIka vaisA janaka ne pratyuttara diyaa| aisA ziSya pAnA durlabha hai| janaka ne kahA, 'maiM AkAza kI bhAMti huuN| saMsAra ghar3e kI bhAMti prakRti-janya hai, aisA jJAna hai| isalie na isakA tyAga hai, aura na grahaNa hai, aura na laya hai| '
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________________ bar3I krAMti kI bAta kahI janaka ne! nAca uThe hoMge assttaavkr| mAnA ki unakA zarIra ATha jagaha se Ter3hA thA, lekina isa kSaNa ruka na sake hoMge, nAce hoNge| yaha to parama kamala khilA, sahasrAra khilaa| AkAzavadanaMtogha ghaTavat prAkRta jgt| maiM hUM AkAza kI bhaaNti| saMsAra to ghar3e kI bhAMti hai banatA aura miTatA rahatA hai| AkAza para isakA koI pariNAma nahIM hai| saMsAra uThate haiM, banate haiM, miTate haiM; jaise sapane banate, uThate, miTate haiN| lekina sAkSI to AkAza jaisA zuddha banA rahatA hai| mujhe koI cIja azuddha kara hI nahIM sakatI-isakI ghoSaNA kI janaka ne| isalie Apa yaha to bAta hI chor3a deM ki maiM zuddha ho kara aura mukti ko prApta ho jaauuN| maiM kabhI azuddha huA hI nhiiN| mAnA ki dUdha meM pAnI milAyA jA sakatA hai, kyoMki dUdha aura pAnI donoM hI eka hI DhaMga ke padArtha haiN| tuma tela meM pAnI ko to na milA skoge| phira bhI tela aura pAnI ko sAtha-sAtha to kiyA hI jA sakatA hai; mileM na mileM, eka hI botala meM bharA to jA hI sakatA hai| kyoMki donoM phira bhI padArtha haiN| lekina AkAza ko to tuma kisI cIja se bhI milA nahIM skte| AkAza to zuddha nirvikAra isa pRthvI para kitane loga paidA hue-acche-bure, puNyAtmA-pApI; kitane yuddha hue kitane prema ghaTe; kitane vasaMta Ae patajhar3a hue-AkAza to nirvikAra khar3A rhtaa| koI rekhA nahIM chUTa jaatii| AkAza meM to koI AkAra nahIM bntaa| iti jJAnaM! -yaha bar3I adabhuta bAta hai| janaka kahate haiM : maiM AkAzavata huuN| iti jnyaanN| yahI jJAna hai| aba aura kisa jJAna kI Apa mujhase kaha rahe haiM ki maiM jJAna ko pA lUM jJAna ko khoja laM? jJAna ho gayA! iti jJAna! tathaitasya na tyAgo na grahoM lyH| sAre AdhyAtmika sAhitya meM aisA sUtra tuma na khoja skoge| aise to bahuta se zAstra haiM jo kahate haiM. na bhoga hai na tyAga hai| lekina janaka kahate haiM. na bhoga hai, na tyAga hai, na mokSa; laya bhI nahIM hai| yaha tIsarI bAta socane jaisI hai| 'maiM AkAza kI bhAMti huuN| saMsAra ghar3e kI bhAMti prakRti-janya hai|' ghar3e banate-miTate rahate haiN| ghar3A jaba bana jAtA hai to ghar3e ke bhItara AkAza ho jAtA hai, ghar3e ke bAhara ho jAtA hai| ghar3A phUTa jAtA hai, bhItara kA AkAza bAhara kA AkAza phira eka ho jAte haiN| zAyada jaba ghar3A banA rahatA hai taba bhI bAhara aura bhItara ke AkAza alaga nahIM hote| kyoMki ghar3A porasa hai, chidroM se AkAza jur3A huA hai| AkAza chinna-bhinna nahIM hotA, khaMDita nahIM hotaa| tuma talavAra se AkAza ko kATa to nahIM skte| saba sImAeM kAlpanika haiM, banAI huI haiN| AkAza para koI rekhA khiMcatI nhiiN| maiM AkAza kI bhAMti hUM-aisA jJAna hai| iti jJAnaM! isalie na isakA tyAga hai, na isakA grahaNa
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________________ hai aura na laya hai| 'maiM samudra ke samAna huuN| yaha saMsAra taraMgoM ke sadRzya hai| aisA jJAna hai| isalie na isakA tyAga hai, na isakA grahaNa hai aura na isakA laya hai|' mahodadhirivAha sa prapaMco viicisnnibhi| jJAna tathaitasya na tyAgo na graho lyH|| janaka kahane lage, mujhe gurudeva ulajhAo mt| tuma mujhe ulajhA na skoge| mujhe tumane jagA hI diyaa| aba jAla na pheNko| aba tumhattAre pralobhana kisI bhI kAma ke nahIM haiN| khUba Uce pralobhana tuma de rahe ho ki aisA jAna kara tU mukti prApta ho jaa| janaka kahate haiM, maiM mukta huu| iti jJAna aisA jJAna hai; aba aura kahAM jJAna bacA? mukta ho jAUM to phira tuma vAsanA ko jagAte ho| mokSa ko khojU to phira tuma AkAMkSA ko jagAte ho| phira pallavita karate hojo jala gayA dagdha ho gayA miTa gyaa| yaha bAta kisase kara rahe ho? baMda kara lo yaha pralobhana denaa| aba tuma mujhe na phusalA skoge|' aSTAvakra jaisA kuzala meM chipe hue jAla ko janaka ko beca nahIM pAtA hai| janaka aba grAhaka hI na rhe| janaka nizcita hI jAge haiN| mahodadhi.. .jaise samudra meM mahodadhi meM uThatI haiM taraMgeM aisA jJAna hai| maiM mahodadhi huuN| maiM samudra huuN| yaha saMsAra taraMgoM ke sadazya hai| yaha saMsAra mujhase dikhAI par3atA huA bhI alaga kahAM? lahareM sa se alaga kahAM haiM? samudra meM haiM, samudra kI haiN| samuMdra hI to laharAta hai, aura kauna? yaha saMsAra bhI maiM hUM isa saMsAra kA na honA bhI maiM hUM, jaba lahare hotI hai taba bhI samudra hai| jaba lahare nahIM hotI taba bhI samudra hai| iti jJAnaM! aba kisako choDUM? samudra laharoM ko chor3e? bAta nAsamajhI kI hai| samudra laharoM meM pakaDe? -pakaDane kI koI jarUrata hI nahIM hai: lahareM samada kI hI haiN| makti kahAM, mokSa kahAM? kaisI mukti, kaisA mokSa? aisA jAna kara maiM mukta ho gayA huuN| iti jJAnaM! 'maiM sIpI ke samAna vizva kI kalpanA cAMdI ke sadRzya hai| aisA jJAna hai| isalie na isakA tyAga hai, na isakA grahaNa hai, na laya hai| ahaM sa zuktisaMkAzo ruupyvvishvklpnaa| iti jJAnaM tathaitasya na tyAgo na graho lyH| 'maiM nizcita saba bhUto meM hUM aura yaha saba bhUta mujhameM haiN| aisA jJAna hai| isalie na isakA tyAga hai, na grahaNa hai aura na laya hai|' jJAna pAnA nahIM hai| jJAna hai| yA to hai yA nahIM hai| pA kara kabhI kisI ne pAyA nhiiN| pAne vAlA paMDita bana jAtA hai; jAgane vAlA, jnyaanii| jo honA cAhie, vaha huA hI huA hai| jaisA honA cAhie vaisA hI hai| anyathA kSaNa bhara ko na to huA thA na ho sakatA hai| isa dazA ko jo upalabdha ho jAe vahI saMta hai| kucha loga haiM jo saMsAra meM pAne meM lage haiM : dhana milanA cAhie pada milanA cAhie, pratiSThA...|
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________________ kucha loga haiM jo svarga pAne meM lage haiM : vahAM pada milanA cAhie vahAM prtisstthaa..| kucha loga haiM jo isa saMsAra kI kamAI kara rahe haiM, kucha loga paraloka kI kamAI kara rahe haiN| kinhIM kA, baiMka yahAM hai, kinhIM kA dara svargoM meN| para koI pharka nahIM pdd'taa| donoM kamAne meM lage haiN| saMta vahI hai jo kA hai, kaisA kamAnA? yaha sArA jagata merA hai| isa sAre jagata kA maiM huuN| mujhameM aura isa jagata meM rattI mAtra bhI phAsalA nhiiN| aba to isa maMjila para A pahuMce haiM terI cahata meM, khuda ko tujha meM pAte haiM hama tujhako khuda meM pAte haiN| aba yaha maiM-tU kA phAsalA nahIM hai| yaha sirpha bhASA kA khela hai, zAyada lIlA hai| eka taraMga dUsarI taraMga se alaga nahIM hai| aba to isa maMjila para A pahuMce haiM terI cahata meM, khuda ko tujha meM pAte haiM hama tujhako khuda meM pAte haiN| aisI ghar3I-iti jJAna! jamAle-nigArAM pe azaAra kaha kara, karAre-dile - AzikAM ho gae hm| zanAsA-e-rAje-jahAM ho gae hama, to bephikre -ko -jiyA ho gae hm| saMsAra ke rahasya se paricita ho ge| to phira saba lAbha-hAni se nizcita ho gae yahAM na kucha lAbha hai, yahAM na kucha hAni hai; kyoMki yahAM hamAre atirikta koI hai hI nhiiN| na to koI chIna sakatA hai, na koI de sakatA hai| na to lobha meM kucha artha hai, na krodha meM kucha artha hai| krodha aisA hI hai jaise koI apanA hI cAMTA apane hI gAla para mAra le| lobha aisA hI hai jaise koI apane hI ghara meM apanI hI cIjoM ko chipA kara, samhAla kara rakha le-apane se hI-ki kahIM corI na kara baiThU! jamAle -nigArAM pe azaAra kaha kara, karAre-dile- AzikAM ho gae hm| zanAsA-e-rAje-jahAM ho gae hama! jAna liyA zanAsA-e-rAje-jahAM ho gae hama! jAna liyA rahasya-jagata kA, jIvana kA, saMsAra kaa| rahasya khula gayA! to bephikre -sUdo -jiyA ho gae hm| aba na kucha hAni hai, aba na koI lAbha hai| 'Apa kisase kahate haiM-janaka ne kahA-'sukha-dukha meM samAna ho jA? yahAM sukha hai kahA? dukha hai kahAM? Apa kahate haiM, jIvana-mRtyu meM samabhAva rkh| samabhAva rakhane kA to matalaba hI yaha huA ki
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________________ donoM alaga haiM, donoM meM samabhAva rakhanA hai| donoM eka hI haiM, samabhAva rakhanA kisako hai? aura donoM mujhameM hI haiM aura donoM meM maiM huuN|' vyakti jahAM zanya ho jAtA, vahA samaSTi ke sAtha eka ho jaataa| isalie kahA ki brahama ko jo jAna letA, vaha brahma vo jaataa| satya ko jo jAna letA, vaha satya ho jaataa| jo hama jAna lete haiM, vahI hama ho jAte hai| ahaM vA sarvabhUteSu sarvabhUtAnyamoM myi| iti jJAnaM tathaitasya na tyAgo na graho lyH|| ye choTe-se cAra sUtra jaba janaka ne kahe hoMge, tuma aSTAvakra ke AnaMda kI kalpanA nahIM kara sakate! jaba ziSya upalabdha hotA hai to tuma guru kI prasannatA kA anubhava nahIM kara skte| jaise phira se guru ko parama AnaMda milatA hai, jo use milA hI huA thA, vaha use phira se milatA hai| jaba ziSya meM dIyA jalatA hai to jaise guru ke prakAza meM aura bhI eka nayA sUraja jur3A! hajAroM sUraja vahA the, eka hajAra eka hue isakI hI apekSA thI, isalie parIkSA thii| isakI hI apekSA thI, isalie pralobhana thaa| janaka se yaha saMbhAvanA thI, isalie janaka ko jaldI nahIM chor3a diyaa| jina ziSyoM ko guru jaldI chor3a detA hai, vaha isalie chor3a detA hai ki unakI saMbhAvanA bahuta nahIM hai| unheM jyAdA kasane meM ve TUTa jaaeNge| parIkSA utanI hI lI jA sakatI hai jitanI sAmarthya ho| parIkSA sImA ke bAhara ho to ziSya ko naSTa kara jAegI, banA na paaegii| janaka ko Akhira taka khIMcA, AkhirI pralobhana diyA jJAna kA aura tyAga kaa| jJAna aura tyAga AkhirI bAdhAeM haiN| jo unake bhI pAra ho gayA, vahI mukta hai| jisane aisA jAna liyA ki maiM mukta hUM vahI mukta hai| iti jJAnaM __ aise to ajJAnI bhI bar3I jJAna kI bAteM kara lete haiN| aksara ajJAnI jJAna kI bAteM karate haiN| tabhI to apane ajJAna ko chipA pAte haiN| nahIM to chipAege kaise? jJAna kI bAtoM meM ajJAna khUba vyavasthA se chipa jAtA hai| roga ho, bImArI ho, to tuma svAsthya kI carcA meM chipA sakate ho| aksara bImAra hI svAsthya kI carcA karate haiN| ghAva ho, tuma Upara se phUla lagA sakate ho; suMdara vastroM meM DhAMka sakate ho; makhamala rezama meM DhAMka sakate ho| lekina usase ghAva miTegA nhiiN| tumheM aksara isa saMsAra meM loga kahate hue mila jAeMge : sukha-dukha meM samAnatA rakho, jIvana-mRtyu meM samAnatA rkho| lekina samAnatA rakho? to isakA artha hI yaha huA ki donoM asamAna haiM aura samAnatA tumheM rakhanI hai| yaha to ceSTA huii| jahAM ceSTA hai, vahA jJAna nhiiN| jJAna to sahaja hai| sahaja hai to hI jJAna hai| iti jJAnaM! jo ceSTA se AtA hai, vaha to khabara de rahA hai ki bhItara viparIta maujUda hai nahIM to ceSTA kisake khilApha? ___eka AdamI ceSTA se krodha se lar3a rahA hai aura kahatA hai, zAMta rahanA cAhie, zAMta rahanA hI dharma hai| ye tumheM bAteM jaMcatI bhI haiM ki zAMta rahanA dharma hai| zAMta rahanA dharma nahIM hai| zAMta rahane kI ceSTA to kevala krodha ko chipAne kA upAya hai| zAMta hUM aisA jAna lenA dharma hai zAMta rahane kI ceSTA
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________________ nhiiN| zAMta hUM hI-aise anubhava meM, aise sAkSAtkAra meM utara jaanaa| mullA nasaruddIna eka dina apane par3osI se kahatA thA : ghora musIbata meM itanA yAda rakhanA cAhie- Adhe logoM ko tumhArI musIbata sunane meM rasa nahIM aura bAkI Adhe logoM kA khayAla hai ki tuma isI lAyaka ho / aba vaha bar3e jJAna kI bAta kaha rahe haiN| ajJAniyoM se bhI tuma jJAna ke bar3e vacana sunoge, hAlAMki unake kAraNa hamezA galata hoNge| ve bAteM to sahI kareMge, lekina kAraNa galata hoNge| krodha ke viparIta nahIM hai zAMti ki tuma sAdha lo| jahAM zAMti hai vahAM krodha nahIM hai, yaha saca hai| zAMti krodha kA abhAva hai, viparIta nhiiN| loga yahI socate haiM ki zAMti krodha kA vaiparItya hai, viparIta sthiti hai; to krodha ko haTAo to zAMti hogii| haTAne se zAMti na hogI / haTAne meM tuma aura azAMta ho jAoge / haTAne meM itanA hI ho sakatA hai ki tuma zAMti kA eka kalevara or3ha lo, eka vastrAbharaNa, aura bhItara saba chipa jAe, jahara kI taraha, mavAda kI trh| vaha kabhI phUTegA / kAmavAsanA ke viparIta nahIM hai brhmcry| jahAM brahmacarya hai, vahAM kAmavAsanA nahIM hai - yaha saca hai| iti jJAnaM! para kAmavAsanA ke viparIta nahIM hai brahmacarya / kAmavAsanA ko roka roka kara, samhAlasamhAla kara koI brahmacarya nahIM hotaa| koI jAna letA hai ki maiM brahma hUM usakI caryA meM brahma utara AtA hai| brahmacarya yAnI brahma jaisI caryA / usakA kAmavAsanA se koI bhI saMbaMdha nahIM hai| isa zabda ko to dekho! itanA adabhuta zabda hai brhmcry| usako tumhAre tathAkathita mahAtmAoM ne burI taraha bhraSTa kiyaa| brahmacarya kA ve matalaba karate haiM : kAmavAsanA se mukta ho jAnA / brahmacarya meM kahIM kAmavAsanA kI bAta hI nahIM hai| brahma jaisI caryA! IzvarIya vyavahAra! magara brahma jaisI caryA to tabhI hogI jaba tumheM brahma kA bhItara anubhava ho| jisako brahma kA anubhava ho gayA, usakI caryA meM brhmcry| vaha kahegA, sAgara meM lahareM haiM, vaha bhI merI / vaha kahegA, saba kucha merA hai aura saba kucha kA maiM hUM / na yahAM kucha chor3ane ko hai na yahAM kucha pakar3ane ko / saMsAra hI mokSa hai phira phira jAnA kahAM hai? jhena phakIra rijhAI kA bar3A prasiddha vacana hai : saMsAra nirvANa hai| saikar3oM varSoM se anekoM logoM ko becaina karatA rahA rijhAI kA yaha sUtra / saMsAra nirvANa hai? yaha to bAta bar3I ajIba-sI hai / saMsAra, aura nirvANa? yaha to aise huA ki jaise koI kahe bhoga tyAga hai| magara bAta sahI hai| riMjhAI yahI kaha rahA hai. na kucha chUTane ko hai, na kucha chor3ane ko hai, na kucha pAne ko hai - aisA jisane jAna liyA vaha nirvANa kI avasthA meM A gyaa| iti jJAna! phira vaha saMsAra meM hI rahegA, bhAgegA kahA? jAegA kahA ? jAnA kahAM hai? jo hai vaha use svIkAra hai| lahara hai to lahara svIkAra hai; lahara kho gaI to lahara kA kho jAnA svIkAra hai| usakI svIkRti parama hai| usakI avasthA tathAtA kI hai| jo hai, use svIkAra hai| anyathA kI vaha mAMga nahIM karatA; anyathA ho bhI nahIM sktaa| jaba taka tuma cAhate ho anyathA ho jAe, kucha aura ho jAe, jaisA hai usase bhinna ho jAe-taba taka tuma becaina rhoge| jisa dina tumane kahA- jaisA hai vaisA hai, aura jaisA hai vaisA hI rahegA, aura jaisA
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________________ hai usase maiM rAjI hUM-tuma mukta ho gae iti jJAnaM! hari oma tatsat!
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________________ ekaTi namaskAre prabhu ekaTi namaskAre!-pravacana-sAtavAM dinAMka: 2 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| prazna sAra: pahalA prazna : kapila RSi ke sAMkhya-darzana, aSTAvakra kI mahAgItA aura kRSNamUrti kI dezanA meM kyA deza-kAla anusAra abhivyakti kA hI bheda hai? kRpA karake samajhAiye! satya to kAlAtIta hai, dezAtIta hai| satya ko to deza aura kAla se koI saMbaMdha nhiiN| satya to zAzvata hai; samaya kI sImA ke bAhara hai| lekina abhivyakti kAlAtIta nahIM hai, dezAtIta nahIM hai| abhivyakti samaya ke bhItara hai; satya samaya ke bAhara hai| jo jAnA jAtA hai, vaha to samaya meM nahIM jAnA jAtA; lekina jo kahA jAtA hai, vaha samaya meM kahA jAtA hai| jo jAnA jAtA hai, vaha to nitAMta ekAMta meM; vahAM to koI dUsarA nahIM hotaa| lekina jo kahA jAtA hai, vaha to dUsare se hI kahA jAtA satya kI ghaTanA to ghaTatI hai vyakti meM, abhivyakti kI ghaTanA ghaTatI hai samAja meM, samUha meN| to svabhAvata:, kapila jinase bole, unase bole| aSTAvakra ne jisase kahA, usase khaa| kRSNamUrti jisase bolate haiM, svabhAvata: usase hI bolate haiN| bheda abhivyakti meM pdd'egaa| lekina jo jAnA gayA hai, vaha abhinna hai| isakA yaha artha mata samajha lenA ki kRSNamUrti aSTAvakra ko doharA rahe haiM, yA aSTAvakra kapila ko doharA rahe haiM, yA kapila kRSNamUrti ko doharA rahe haiN| koI kisI ko doharA nahIM rahA hai| jaba taka doharAnA hai taba taka satya kA koI anubhava nahIM hai| doharAyA gayA satya, asatya ho jAtA hai| jAnA huA satya hI satya hai| mAnA huA satya asatya hai| pratyeka ne svayaM jAnA hai| aura jaba koI satya ko jAnatA hai svayaM, to use aisA jarA bhI bhAva paidA nahIM hotA ki aisA kisI aura ne bhI jAnA hogaa| vaha ghaTanA itanI alaukika, itanI advitIya, itanI maulika hai ki pratyeka vyakti jaba jAnatA hai to aisA hI anubhava karatA hai : pahalI bAra, prathama bAra yaha kiraNa utarI! jaise ki jaba koI vyakti kisI ke prema meM par3atA hai, to kyA use lagatA hai yaha prema kisI
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________________ aura ne kabhI jAnA hogA? pRthvI para aneka premI hue anaMta premI hue lekina jaba bhI prema kI kiraNa utaratI hai kisI hRdaya meM, to use lagatA hai aisA prema basa maiM hI jAna rahA huuN| kyoMki prema punarukti nahIM hai; tuma kisI se udhAra nahIM lete| jaba ghaTatA hai to tumheM ghaTatA hai| aura jaba ghaTatA hai to tumheM to pahalI bAra hI ghaTatA hai| dUsaroM ko ghaTA, isakA na to tumheM patA ho sktaa| dUsaroM ko kaisA ghaTA, isakA koI anubhava bhI tumheM nahIM ho sakatA / tumheM to apanA hI anubhava pratIta hotA hai| isalie satya jaba bhI ghaTatA hai to maulika udaghoSaNA hotI hai| isa kAraNa hI anuyAyI bar3e dhokhe meM par3a jAte haiN| anuyAyI bhI dAvA karane lagate haiM ki jo kapila ne jAnA vaha kisI ne nahIM jAnA; jo aSTAvakra ne jAnA vaha kisI ne nahIM jAnA; jo kRSNamUrti kahate haiM vaha kisI ne nahIM khaa| yaha anuyAyI kI bhrAMti hai| yahI jAnA gayA hai, anyathA jAnane ko kucha hai hI nhiiN| aura yahI kahA gayA hai| zabdoM ke kitane hI bheda hoM, sunane vAloM ke kitane hI bheda hoM - yahI jAnA gayA hai, yahI kahA gayA hai! lekina jaba bhI yaha jAnA jAtA hai to satya kA yaha guNadharma hai ki usake sAtha-sAtha maulika hone kI sphuraNA hotI hai| tumheM lagatA hai, basa pahalI daphA ! na aisA kabhI huA na aisA phira kabhI hogaa| jaba buddha ko satya kA anubhava huA to unhoMne udaghoSaNA kI apUrva pahale kabhI huA nahIM aisA mujhe anubhava huA hai| yaha unake saMbaMdha meM ghoSaNA hai| lekina ziSyoM ne samajhA ki apUrva! arthAta kisI ko aisA nahIM huA, jaisA buddha ko huA hai| bhrAMti ho gii| phira buddha ke pIche calanevAlA dAvA karatA hai ki jo buddha ko huA vaha mahAvIra ko nahIM huaa| jo buddha ko huA vaha zaMkara ko nahIM huaa| jo buddha ko huA vaha apUrva hai| khuda buddha kA vacana hai ki jo mujhe huA vaha apUrva hai| lekina buddha ke vacana kA artha bar3A bhinna hai / buddha sirpha apane anubhava kI bAta kara rahe haiN| ve kaha rahe haiM, aisA mujhe kabhI na huA thA / yaha subaha pahalI bAra huii| yaha rAta pahalI bAra ttuuttii| yaha aMdherA pahalI bAra haTA hai| anuttara apUrva samAdhi-buddha ne khaa| lekina jaba bhI kisI ko samAdhi ghaTatI hai, tabhI anuttara apUrva hotI hai| upadrava hotA hai sunane vAle zrAvaka, anuyAyI, pAthika se| jaise hI tuma sunate ho, eka bar3I ar3acana hotI hai| maiM tumase kucha kaha rahA hUM, jaba taka maiMne nahIM kahA taba taka satya hai, jaise hI maiMne kahA aura tumane sunA, asatya huaa| kyoMki jo maiM kaha rahA hUM vaha merA anubhava hai| jo tuma suna rahe ho vaha tumhArA anubhava nahIM / jo maiM kaha rahA hUM, vaha merI pratIti hai; jo tuma suna rahe ho vaha jyAdA se jyAdA tumhArA vizvAsa hogaa| vizvAsa asatya hai| tuma mAnoge, tumane jAnA nhiiN| mAnane se upadrava khar3A hotA hai| phira, mAnane vAloM meM saMgharSa khar3A hotA hai| kyoMki kisI ne buddha ko sunA kisI ne mahAvIra ko sunA, kisI ne kapila ko, kisI ne aSTAvakra ko, kisI ne kRSNamUrti ko / unhoMne alaga- alaga abhivyaktiyAM suniiN| eka hI gIta hai, lekina hara kaMTha se svara bhinna ho jAte haiN|
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________________ tumheM patA hai dhvani-zAstrI kyA kahate haiM? Adhunika dhvani - zAstra kI bar3I se bar3I khojoM meM eka khoja yaha hai ki jaise tumhAre aMgUThe kA cihna bhinna hotA hai, aise pratyeka AdamI kI AvAja bhinna hotI hai| sAUMDa - priMTa! do AdamiyoM kI AvAja eka jaisI nahIM hotii| itanA vaibhinya hai vyaktitvoM kA, ki do AdamiyoM kI AvAja bhI eka jaisI nahIM hotI / gIta eka hI doharAo, rAga bhinna ho jAtA hai| gIta eka hI doharAo, svara bhinna ho jAtA hai| gIta eka hI doharAo, raMga bhinna ho jAtA hai| to kRSNamUrti jo kahate haiM, usa para unakI dhvani kI chApa hai; unake vyaktitva kI chApa hai; unake hastAkSara haiN| kapila jo kahate haiM, usa para unake hastAkSara haiN| ina hastAkSaroM meM agara ulajha gae to saMpradAya banegA, aura agara hastAkSara ko haTA kara mUla ko dekhane kI ceSTA kI to dharma kA janma hotA hai| saba saMpradAyoM ke bhItara kahIM dharma chipA hai| saMpradAya vastroM kI bhAMti haiN| aura jaba taka tuma vastroM ko alaga na kara doge aura nirvastra dharma ko na khoja loge taka taka tumheM dharma kA koI patA nahIM clegaa| hiMdU musalamAna, IsAI, sikkha, jaina - ye saba saMpradAya haiN| ye abhivyaktiyoM ke bheda haiN| yaha eka hI bAta ko alaga -alaga bhASAoM meM kahane ke kAraNa itanI bhinnatA mAlUma hotI hai| aura bhASAeM aneka ho sakatI haiN| sabhI dharma bhASAoM jaise haiN| lekina maiM tumase yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki tuma ina sabhI dharmoM ke bIca koI samanvaya sthApita kro| usa bhrAMti meM mata par3anA / vaha bhrAMti bauddhika hogii| aSTAvakra ko par3ho, kRSNamUrti ko par3ho, kapila ko par3ho, phira unake bIca samAnatA khojo aura jo-jo mela khAtA lage use ikaTThA karo aura phira eka siMthIsisa, eka samanvaya banAo - vaha saba buddhi kA jAla hogaa| usase kucha tumheM dharma kA patA na clegaa| jahAM pahale tIna saMpradAya the, vahAM cAra ho jAeMge basa / eka tumhArA saMpradAya aura saMyukta ho jaaegaa| eka gAMva meM kucha loga jhagar3a rahe the| mullA nasaruddIna pAsa se gujaratA thaa| to usane kahA, bhaI ! jhagar3ate kyoM ho? yaha nipaTArA to bAtacIta se ho sakatA hai| itanI talavAreM kyoM khIMce hue ho? khUna, khatarA ho jAegA, ruko! usane gAMva ke do-cAra paMca ikaTThe kara die aura kahA ki Apa... to donoM pArTiyoM ne apane pAMca-pAca paMca cuna lie.. ye nirNaya kara deMge jhagar3e kA / jaba zAma ko mullA vahA vApisa pahuMcA to dekhA, jahAM subaha thoDe se jhagar3ane vAle the vahAM aura bhArI bhIr3a hai| talavAreM khiMcI haiN| usane kahA, mAmalA kyA hai? unhoMne kahA ki aba ye paMca bhI lar3a rahe haiN| pahale to subaha vivAdI the, ve lar3a rahe the, aba ye paMca bhI lar3a rahe haiN| aura to koI upAya nahIM hai| kisI ne salAha dI ki nasaruddIna paMcoM ke lie bhI paMca niyukta kro| nasaruddIna ne kahA, aba bahuta ho gyaa| aba mujhe akla A gii| yaha to subaha hI nipaTa lete tuma, to behatara thA; yaha to jhagar3A aura bar3ha gayA / jo samanvayavAdI haiM inase saMpradAya samApta nahIM hote| jahAM tIna saMpradAya hote haiM, vahAM ina tIna kI jagaha yaha cAra, cauthA samanvaya allAha Izvara tere nAma! cauthA khar3A ho jAtA khai| usake apane
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________________ dAve zurU ho jAte haiN| samanvaya kA usakA dAvA ho jAtA hai| tumane dekhA, mahAvIra ke sAtha aisA huA mahAvIra ne kahA ki sabhI satya kI abhivyaktiyAM satya haiM, Azika satya haiM; SNeI abhivyakti pUrNa satya nahIM hai| isalie mahAvIra ne eka siddhAta ko janma diyA- syAdavAda / syAdavAda kA artha hotA hai maiM bhI ThIka hUM, tuma bhI ThIka ho, vaha bhI ThIka hai| kucha na kucha to ThIka sabhI meM hai| isalie hama kyoM jhagar3e ? syAdavAda kA artha hai. sabhI ke bhItara satya ke aMza kI svIkRti, tAki vivAda na ho, vyartha kA jhagar3A na ho| lekina pariNAma kyA huA? syAdavAda kA alaga eka jhagar3A khar3A ho gayA / eka jaina muni se maiM bAta kara rahA thaa| maiMne unase kahA ki Apa mujhe saMkSipta meM kahie ki syAdavAda kA artha kyA hai? unhoMne kahA, syAdavAda kA artha hai ki koI bhI pUrNa satya nahIM hai, sabhI satya Azika haiN| sabhI meM satya hai thor3A thodd'aa| hama sabhI ke satya ko dekhate haiM; hama vivAdI nahIM haiM, hama saMvAdI haiN| maiMne thor3I dera idhara-udhara kI bAta kI, aura maiMne pUchA ki maiM Apase eka bAta pUchatA hUM: syAdavAda pUrNa satya hai yA nahIM? unhoMne kahA, bilakula pUrNa satya hai| aba yaha syAdavAda pUrNa satya hai! aba agara isako koI kahe ki yaha Azika satya hai, yaha bhI Azika satya hai, to jhagar3A khar3A ho jaayegaa| saba Azika satya haiM, lekina jo maiM kaha rahA hUM vaha pUrNa satya hai- yahI to jhagar3A thaa| isI jhagar3e ko hala karane ko syAdavAda khojA gyaa| aba syAdavAda bhI jhagar3A karane vAloM meM eka hissA ho gayA, eka paarttii| vaha bhI eka vivAda hai| vaha bhI eka saMpradAya hai| agara syAdavAda samajhA gayA hotA to jainoM kA koI saMpradAya honA nahIM cAhie, kyoMki syAdavAda ke AdhAra para saMpradAya khar3A nahIM ho sakatA / syAdavAda kA artha hI yaha hai ki sabhI meM satya hai aura kisI meM pUrNa satya nahIM hai; isalie saMpradAya khar3e karane kI koI jagaha nahIM hai| saMpradAya kA to matalaba hI yaha hotA hai ki satya yahAM hai, vahAM nahIM hai| syAdavAda ne to saMpradAya kI jar3a kATI thii| lekina jainoM kA eka saMpradAya khar3A hai, jo aba syAdavAda kI rakSA karatA hai| ina tInoM ke bIca tumase maiM samanvaya khojane ko nahIM kaha rahA huuN| maiM tumase yahI kaha rahA hUM ki agara tuma dhyAna kI gaharAiyoM meM gae, tuma sAkSI- bhAva ko upalabdha hue to acAnaka tumheM dikhAI par3egA ki isa sAkSI ke zikhara para baiTha kara patA calatA hai: sabhI mArga isI pahAr3a ke zikhara kI tarapha Ate haiN| una mArgoM ke prAraMbha hone ke biMdu kitane hI bhinna hoM, unakI aMtima pUrNAhuti eka hI zikhara para hotI hai| sabhI mArga vahIM A jAte haiM jahAM sAkSI bhAva hai| kaise tuma Ate ho, yaha tumhArI marjI hai-bailagAr3I para, ghor3e para, paidala, havAI jahAja para, Trena para moTara, basa meM / kaise tuma Ate ho, yaha tumhArI marjI hai| agara jarA bhI samajhadArI ho to isameM koI jhagar3A karane kI jarUrata nahIM - koI ghor3e para A rahA hai, koI bailagAr3I para A rahA hai, apanI- apanI mauj| koI masjida se A rahA hai, koI maMdira se A rahA hai, koI prArthanA karake A rahA hai, koI dhyAna karake A rahA hai, koI nAca kara, koI cupa baiThaka | lekina agara sAkSI bhAva jaga rahA hai, agara tumhAre bhItara jAgarUkatA kI kiraNa phUTa rahI
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________________ hai, prabhAta ho rahA hai, hoza gahana ho rahA hai -aba tuma behozI se nahIM jIte, hoza se jIne lage ho aura tumhAre jIvana meM karuNA aura prema kI chAyA Ane lagI hai; tumhAre jIvana se krodha aura hiMsA visarjita hone lage haiN| ___ basa do bAteM jAnane kI haiN| ve do bAteM bhI eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| bhItara dhyAna ghaTatA hai to bAhara prema ghaTatA hai| bAhara prema ghaTatA hai to bhItara dhyAna anivArya rUpa se ghaTatA hai| agara prArthanA karo to prema ghaTegA aura dhyAna usake pIche aaegaa| agara dhyAna karo to dhyAna ghaTegA aura prArthanA usake pIche se aaegii| tuma do meM se koI eka sAdha lo, dUsarA apane-Apa sadha jAtA hai| sAkSI meM pahuMca kara hI tumheM sAre jagata ke satyoM ke bIca samanvaya kI pratIti hogii| usa anubhava kI tarapha merA izArA hai| ise tuma bauddhika samanvaya banAne kI koziza mata krnaa| dUsarA prazna : Apane kala kahA ki sabhI sAdhanAeM gorakhadhaMdhA haiN| lekina sAtha hI Apa apane saMnyAsiyoM ke lie dhyAna karanA anivArya kara rakhe haiN| isase mana duvidhA meM par3atA hai| dhyAna nahIM karane se lagatA hai kucha cUka ho rahI hai aura karane para mana kahatA hai ki samaya to nahIM gaMvA rahe ho? kRpApUrvaka mArgadarzana kreN| nizcita hI sabhI anuSThAna gorakhadhaMdhe haiN| lekina isakA yaha artha nahIM ki tuma anuSThAna karanA mt| jaise ki maiM tumase kahUM nAva para savAra ho jAo lekina usa pAra jA kara utara jaanaa| tuma kaho ki Apa to duvidhA meM DAla rahe haiM. eka hAtha se to kahate haiM, savAra ho jAo aura tatkSaNa kahate haiM, utara jaanaa| agara utaranA hI hai to hama nAva para car3he hI kyoM? aura agara car3ha hI gae phira utareM kyoM? yaha to Apa duvidhA meM DAlate haiM, car3hane ko bhI kahate haiM, utarane ko bhI kahate haiN| lekina isameM vidhA hai| nAva para car3hanA hogA aura nAva se utaranA bhI hogaa| duniyA meM do taraha ke pAgala haiN| ve bar3e tArkika haiN| tarka bar3A vikSipta hotA hai| ThIka hai tarka yh| maiMne sunA hai ki kucha loga tIrtha yAtrA ko jA rahe haiN-hridvaar| aura Trena para bar3I bhIr3a-bhar3akkA hai| aura eka AdamI bar3I koziza kara rahA hai, lekina car3ha nahIM pA rhaa| kisI ne aise hI majAka meM usase kahA ki are, itane kyoM mare jA rahe ho car3hane ke lie, Akhira utaranA par3egA! to vaha AdamI rahA hogA bar3A vicAraka, vaha utara hI gyaa| usane car3hane kI koziza chor3a dii| usake sAthI jo aMdara car3ha gaye the, unhoMne kahA ki bhaI, tU khar3A kyoM hai, gAr3I chUTane ko ho rahI hai, car3ha! usane kahA ki tumheM patA nahIM, utaranA pdd'egaa| jaba utaranA hI hai to car3hane ke lie itanI dhakkama- dhakkI kyA karanI?
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________________ samajha gaye, yahIM utara gye| ve ghabaDAe, kyoMki gAr3I chUTI jA rahI hai| aura usa AdamI ko sAtha le Aye haiM, kahAM use chor3a jAeM? unameM se kucha utare aura jabardastI use cddh'aayaa| vaha cillAtA - cIkhatA rahA / usane kahA, yaha kara kyA rahe ho? jaba utaranA hI hai to hama kyoM isa musIbata meM phaMse ? para unhoMne usakI koI phikra nahIM kii| unhoMne kahA, vivAda pIche kara leMge, pahale tU car3hA aba tujhe hama kahAM chor3a jAyeM yahAM anajAna jagaha meM? kahIM gAMva se Ate the| khaira kisI taraha usako car3hA liyaa| bar3I muzkila vaha cddh'aa| eka to vaise hI bhIr3a thI aura vaha car3hane meM jhagar3A khar3A kara rahA thA / vahaka utara jAnA cAhatA thaa| car3ha gyaa| phira haridvAra A gyaa| aba utArane kI jhaMjhaTa khar3I huI / vaha utaratA nhiiN| vaha kahatA hai, jaba car3ha hI gaye, jaba eka daphA car3ha hI gaye to aba kyA utaranA bAra - bAra ? aba phira car3hane kI jhaMjhaTa hogii| isalie hama car3he hI rheNge| aba hameM tuma yahIM chor3a do, tuma jaao| aba usako ve jabardastI utAra rahe haiN| vaha AdamI cillA rahA hai ki tuma kaise asaMgata ho? kSaNa bhara pahale car3hAte, kSaNa bhara bAda utArate - asaMgati to dekho ! tuma mujhe duvidhA meM DAla rahe ho| tuma mujhe sIdhA sAra-sUtra kaha do ki yA car3hanA yA utaranA, to hama nipaTA leN| hama vahI ho jaaeN| tuma jiMdagI ko itanA tarka se agara cale to bar3I burI taraha cuukoge| agara tuma car3hoge hI nahIM to tIrtha nahIM phuNcoge| aura agara car3he hI raha gae to bhI tIrtha nahIM pahuMcoge / isalie maiM tumase kahatA hUM ki dhyAna bhI karanA aura eka dina smaraNa rakhanA ki dhyAna bhI chor3a denA hai| donoM bAteM tumase kahatA huuN| tumato cAhoge ki koI eka kahUM to tumheM suvidhA ho jaae| tuma suvidhA kI phikra kara rahe ho tuma sAdhanA kI phikra nahIM kara rahe ho| tuma suvidhA khoja rahe ho| tuma krAMti nahIM khoja rahe ho| to suvidhAoM meM do upAya haiN| yA to maiM tumase kahUM ki karo hI mt| jaise kRSNamurti kahate haiM- unakI bAta sIdhI-sApha hai- dhyAna karane kI koI jarUrata nahIM / jinako dhyAna nahIM karanA hai ve unake pAsa ikaTThe ho gae haiM; yadyapi unheM kucha bhI nahIM huaa| mere pAsa Ate haiM log| ve kahate haiM, hama kRSNamUrti ko sunate-sunate thaka ge| hameM bAta bhI samajha meM A gaI ki dhyAna ityAdi meM kucha bhI nahIM hai, magara hameM kucha huA bhI nahIM hai| kucha huA bhI nahIM hai aura samajha meM bhI A gayA hai ki dhyAna ityAdi meM kucha bhI nahIM hai| ye isI pAra raha gae, nAva para na cddh'e| phira dUsarI tarapha maheza yogI yA una jaise loga haiM, jo kahate haiM. 'dhyAna, dhyAna, dhyAna! karo!' aura phira kabhI nahIM kahate ki ise chor3anA hai| to kucha loga haiM jo basa japa rahe haiM rAma, rAma, rAma, rAma rAma rAma japate hI cale jAte haiN| jiMdagI gujara gii| ve bhI mere pAsa A jAte haiN| ve kahate haiM, rAma rAma japate hama thaka gae, aba kaba taka japate raheM? aura dhyAna to chor3A nahIM jA sktaa| dhyAna to dharma kI vidhi hai| tuma merI sthiti ko samajhane kI koziza kro| maiM tumase kahatA hUM, dhyAna zurU kro| nahIM to
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________________ khatarA hai ki tuma kRSNamUrti jaisI AkhirI bAta suna kara baiTha ge| yaha bAta sahI hai nAva chor3a denI hai - magara usa kinAre, isa kinAre nhiiN| aura kRSNamUrti ne nAva chor3I, isalie tumase kaha rahe haiM ki chor3a do naav| lekina yaha usa kinAre kI bAta hai, isa kinAre kI bAta nahIM hai| isa kinAre chor3a dI to tuma kabhI usa kinAre na phuNcoge| tumane kRSNamUrti ko nAva se utarate dekhA hai yaha saca hai, tuma mata utara jAnA, kyoMki tuma isa kinAre hI ho| tuma agara utara gae to bhaTaka jaaoge| aura tumane maheza yogI ko car3hate dekhA nAva para, yaha bhI saca hai| aba car3he hI mata raha jaanaa| kyoMki dUsarA kinArA A jAe to utarane kA khayAla rakhanA / maiM tumheM jaba ye virodhAbhAsI bAteM kahatA hUM ki dhyAna karo aura dhyAna chor3o bhI to ye do kinAroM kI bAteM haiN| isa kinAre se zurU karo, usa kinAre para chor3a denaa| agara maiM kahUM sirpha dhyAna karo, to eka khatarA paidA hogA, jaba chor3ane kI bAta AegI, tuma chor3a na skoge| agara maiM sirpha itanA hI kahUM ki chor3a do, to tuma karoge hI nahIM chor3ane kI saMbhAvanA kA savAla hI nahIM, karoge hI nahIM to chor3oge kyA khAka ? maiM tumase kahatA hUM : kamAo aura dAna kara do! kamAne meM bhI majA hai, phira dAna karane meM to bahuta majA hai| dhyAna meM bahuta rasa hai phira dhyAna ke chor3ane meM to mahArasa hai| duvidhA meM par3ane kI tumheM jarUrata nahIM / sIdhI-sApha bAta hai| maiM sabhI virodhoM kA upayoga karanA cAhatA huuN| tuma cAhate ho avirodhI vaktavya, jisameM tumheM ar3acana na ho tuma lakIra ke phakIra bana jAo aura cala pdd'o| tuma lakIra ke phakIra banane ko itane Atura ho ki basa tumheM eka jhaMDA pakar3A diyA jAe, basa tuma calate rahoge / nizcita hI merI bAta meM virodhAbhAsa hai, kyoMki sArA jIvana virodhAbhAsa se nirmita hai| janma hotA hai, mRtyu hotI hai- yaha virodhAbhAsa hai| tuma jIvana se nahIM kahate. yaha kyA mAmalA hai? tuma paramAtmA .se kabhI khar3e ho kara zikAyata nahIM karate ki yaha kyA mAmalA hai? agara janma diyA to mArate kyoM ho phira? aura agara mAranA hI hai to janma denA hI baMda kara do| tuma kaho to bhI paramAtmA tumhArI sunegA nhiiN| kaI logoM ne kaI bAra kahA bhI hai| lekina paramAtmA janma detA hai, mRtyu detA hai| eka hAtha se janma detA hai, dUsare hAtha se janma vApisa le letA hai| yahAM rAta hotI, dina hotaa| yahAM garmI AtI, sardI aatii| yahAM mausama badalate rhte| yahI to jIvana kI rasamayatA hai| rAhI virodha kA milana hai| agara ikaharA hotA jIvana to isameM rasa na hotA, isameM samRddhi na hotii| yahAM viparIta saMghAta mila kara apUrva saMgIta kA janma hotA hai| yahAM janma aura mRtyu ke bIca jIvana kA khela calatA hai, jIvana kA rAsa rasA jAtA hai vahI maiM tumase kaha rahA hUM : dhyAna karo bhI aura dhyAna rakhanA ki chor3anA hai / eka dina chor3anA hai| - vidhi kA eka dina visarjana kara denA hai| tumane dekhA, hiMdU isa saMbaMdha meM bar3e kuzala haiN| gaNeza jI banA lie miTTI ke, pUjA ityAdi kara lI- jA kara samudra meM samA Ae / duniyA kA koI dharma itanA himmatavara nahIM hai| agara maMdira meM murti
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________________ rakha lI to phira sirAne kI bAta hI nahIM utthtii| phira ve kahate haiM aba isakI pUjA jArI rhegii| hiMduoM ko himmata dekhate ho! pahale banA lete haiM, miTTI ke gaNeza jI banA lie| miTTI ke banA kara unhoMne bhagavAna kA AropaNa kara liyaa| nAca-kUda, gIta, prArthanA-pUjA saba ho gii| phira aba vaha kahate haiM, aba calo mahArAja, aba hameM dUsare kAma bhI karane haiM! aba Apa samadra meM vizrAma karo. phira agale sAla uThA leNge| yaha himmata dekhate ho? isakA artha kyA hotA hai? isakA bar3A sAMketika artha hai. anuSThAna kA upayoga kara lo aura samudra meM sirA do| vidhi kA upayoga kara lo, phira vidhi se baMdhe mata raha jaao| jahAM hara cIja AtI hai, jAtI hai, vahA bhagavAna ko bhI banA lo, miTA do| jo bhagavAna tumhAre sAtha karatA hai vahI tuma bhagavAna ke sAtha karo yahI sajjana kA dharma hai| vaha tumheM banAtA, miTA detaa| usakI kalA tuma bhI siikho| tuma use banA lo use visarjita kara do| jaba banAte hiMdU to kitane bhAva se! dUsare dharmoM ke logoM ko bar3I hairAnI hotI hai| kitane bhAva se banAte, kaisA raMgate, mUrti ko kitanA suMdara banAte kitanA kharca karate! mahInoM mehanata karate haiN| jaba mUrti bana jAtI, to kitane bhAva se pUjA karate, phUla- arcana, bhajana, kIrtana! magara adabhuta loga haiM! phira A gayA unakI visarjana kA din| phira ve cale baiMDa-bAjA bajAte, to bhI nAcate jAte haiN| janma bhI nRtya hai, mRtyu bhI nRtya honA caahie| cale paramAtmA ko sirA dene! janma kara liyA thA, mRtyu kA vakta A gyaa| isa jagata meM jo bhI cIja banatI hai vaha miTatI hai| aura isa jagata meM hara cIja kA upayoga kara lenA hai aura kisI cIja se baMdhe nahIM raha jAnA hai-paramAtmA se bhI baMdhe nahIM raha jAnA hai| maiM nahIM kahatA ki hiMduoM ko ThIka-ThIka bodha hai ki ve kyA kara rahe haiN| lekina jinhoMne zurU kI hogI yAtrA unako jarUra bodha rahA hogaa| loga bhUla gaye hoNge| aba unheM kucha bhI patA na ho ki ve kyA kara rahe cA meM kara rahe hoNge| purAnI paraMparA hai ki banAyA visarjana kara rahe hoMge; lekina usakA sAra to smjho| sAra itanA hI hai ki vidhi upayoga kara lii| phira vidhi se baMdhe nahIM raha jAnA hai| anuSThAna pUrA ho gayA, visarjana kara diyaa| vahI maiM tumase kahatA hUM : nAco, kUdo, dhyAna karo, pUjA, prArthanA-isameM ulajhe mata raha jaanaa| ha patha hai, mArga hai; maMjila nhiiN| jaba maMjila A jAe to tuma yaha mata kahanA ki 'maiM itanA purAnA yAtrI, aba mArga ko chor3a dUM? chor3o! itane dina janmoM-janmoM taka mArga para calA, aba Aja maMjila A gaI, to mArga ko dhokhA de dUM? dagAbAja, gaddAra ho jAUM? jisa mArga se itanA sAtha rahA aura jisa mArga ne yahAM taka pahuMcA diyA usako chor3a dUM? maMjila chor3a sakatA ha, mArga nahIM chor3a sktaa| 'taba tuma samajhoge ki kaisI mUr3hatA kI sthiti ho jaaegii| isI maMjila ko pAne ke lie mArga para cale the mArga se nAtA-riztA banAyA thA-vaha TUTane ko hI thaa| mArga kI saphalatA hI yahI hai ki eka dina ghar3I A jAe jaba mArga chor3a denA pdd'e| dhyAna ke jo parama sUtra haiM, unameM eka sUtra yaha bhI hai ki jaba dhyAna chor3ane kI ghar3I A jAye
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________________ to dhyAna pUrA huaa| jaba taka dhyAna chUTa na sake taba taka jAnanA abhI kaccA hai, abhI pakA nhiiN| jaba phala paka jAtA hai to vRkSa se gira jAtA hai| aura jaba dhyAna kA phala paka jAtA hai, taba dhyAna kA phala bhI gira jAtA hai| jaba dhyAna kA phala gira jAtA hai taba samAdhi phalita hotI hai| pataMjali ne dhyAna kI prakriyA ko tIna hissoM meM bAMTA hai. dhAraNA, dhyAna, samAdhi | dhAraNA choTI-sI pagaDaMDI hai, jo tumheM rAjapatha se jor3a detI hai| tuma jahAM ho vahAM se rAjapatha nahIM gujaratA / eka choTI-sI pagaDaMDI hai, jo rAjapatha se jor3atI hai| mArga, jo rAjamArga se jor3a detA hai-dhaarnnaa| phira rAjamArga- dhyaan| phira rAjamArga maMjila se jor3a detA hai-madira se, aMtima gaMtavya se / dhAraNA chUTa jAtI hai jaba dhyAna zurU hotA hai| dhyAna chUTa jAtA jaba samAdhi A jAtI hai| isalie dhyAna karanA-utane hI bhAva se jaise gaNeza ko hiMdU nirmita karate haiM, utane hI ahobhAva se! aisA mana meM khayAla mata rakhanA ki 'ise chor3anA hai to kyA to kyA raMganA ? kaise bhI banA liyA kyA phikra karanI ki suMdara hai ki asuMdara hai, koI bhI raMga pota die, ceharA jaMcatA hai ki nahIM jaMcatA, AMkha ubharI ki nahIM ubharI, nAka banI ki nahIM kyA karanA hai? abhI cAra dina bAda to ise vidA kara denA hogA, to kaise hI banA-banU kara pUjA kara lo|' nahIM, to phira pUjA huI hI nhiiN| to chor3ane kI ghar3I AegI hI nhiiN| jaba bane hI nahIM gaNeza to visarjana kaise hogA ? to jaba dhyAna karo, taba aise karanA jaise sArA jIvana dAva para lagA hai| taba hI usa mahAghaDI kA Agamana hogA, vaha mahAsaubhAgya kA kSaNa AegA jaba tuma pAoge aba visarjana kA samaya A gayA; aba dhyAna ko bhI chor3a deM; aba dhyAna se bhI Upara uTha jAeM, aba samAdhi; aba samAdhAna; aba maMjila | to maiM tumase yaha virodhAbhAsa kahatA hUM ki jo dhyAna ko samagratA se kareMge ve hI eka dina dhyAna ko samagratA se chor3a paaeNge| aura jinhoMne aise-aise kiyA, kunakune -kunakune kiyA, aura kabhI ubale nahIM aura bhApa na bane, unakI kabhI chor3ane kI ghar3I na aaegii| ve isI kinAre aTke raha jaaeNge| jaina zAstroM meM eka kathA hai| eka sAdhu snAna kara rahA hai| aura vaha dekha rahA hai ki eka AdamI AyA, vaha nAva meM baiThA, patavAra calAI, lekina kucha hairAna hai| vaha sAdhu haMsane lgaa| usa AdamI ne pUchA ki mere bhAI, tumheM zAyada patA ho, mAmalA kyA hai? yaha nAva calatI kyoM nahIM? usa sAdhu ne kahA ki sajjana puruSa mahAzaya ! nAva kinAre se baMdhI hai / patavAra calAne se kucha bhI na hogaa| pahale khUMTI se rassI to khola lo! ve patavAra calA rahe haiM, tejI se calA rahe haiM! yaha soca kara ki zAyada dhIme-dhIme calAne se nAva nahIM cala rahI hai, to aura tejI se claao| pasIne-pasIne hue jA rahe haiN| lekina nAva kinAre se baMdhI hai| use chor3A nahIM gyaa| nAva calAne ke pahale kinAre se chor3a lenA jarUrI hai| to agara tumane Adhe - Adhe mana se dhyAna kiyA to nAva kinAre se chUTegI hI nhiiN| to tuma usa kinAre kabhI pahuMcoge hI nahIM utarane kI ghar3I kabhI AegI hI nahIM aSTAvakra ne janaka ko kahA ki saba anuSThAna baMdhana haiN| bilakula ThIka khaa| lekina tuma yaha
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________________ yAda rakhanA ki yaha nAva usa kinAre pahuMca gaI hai taba kahe gae vacana haiN| isalie maiMne isako mahAgItA khaa| kRSNa kI gItA ko maiM sirpha gItA kahatA hUM: aSTAvakra kI gItA ko mhaagiitaa| kyoMki kRSNa kI gItA arjana se kahI gaI hai isa kinAre pr| vaha nAva para savAra hI nahIM ho rahA hai| vaha bhAgabhAga khar3A ho rahA hai| vaha kaha rahA hai, 'mujhe saMnyAsa lenA hai| maiM nAva para nahIM cddh'taa| kyA sAra hai? mujhe jAne do| ' vaha bhAga rahA hai| vaha kahatA hai, 'mere gAta zithila ho ge| merA gAMDIva DhIlA ho gyaa| maiM nahIM car3hanA caahtaa| ' vaha ratha para baiThA hai, susta ho gayA hai| vaha kahatA hai, nAva para mujhe car3hanA hI nhiiN| kRSNa use pakar3a-pakaDa kara, samajhA-samajhA kara nAva para biThAte haiN| kRSNa kI gItA sirpha gItA hai; isa kinAre arjuna ko nAva para biThA denA hai| aSTAvakra kI gItA mahAgItA hai| yaha usa kinAre kI bAta hai| ye janaka usa kinAre haiM, lekina nAva se utarane ko zAyada taiyAra nahIM; yA nAva meM baiThe raha gae haiN| bahuta dinoM taka nAva meM yAtrA kI hai, nAva meM hI ghara banA liyA hai| aSTAvakra kahate haiM : utara aao| saba anuSThAna baMdhana haiM, anuSThAna chor3o! kRSNa kahate haiM. utaro saMgharSa meM, bhAgo mata! saba paramAtmA para chor3a do| vaha jo karavAe, kro| tuma nimitta mAtra ho jaao| isa nAva meM car3hanA hI hogaa| yahI tumhArI niyati, tumhArA bhAgya hai| agara arjuna nAva meM car3ha jAe-car3ha hI gayA kRSNa kI bAta mAna kara-to khatarA hai, vaha bhI bar3A tarkaniSTha vyakti thaa| eka dina usako phira aSTAvakra kI jarUrata par3egI, kyoMki vaha usa kinAre jA kara utaregA nhiiN| jitanA vivAda usane car3hane meM kiyA thA, usase kama vivAda vaha utarane meM nahIM karegA, zAyada jyAdA hI kre| kyoMki vaha kahegA, kRSNa car3hA gae haiN| aba utaranA eka taraha kI gaddArI hogii| yaha to apane guru ke sAtha dhokhA hogaa| bAmuzkila to maiM car3hA thA, aba tuma utArane A gae? maiM to pahale hI kaha rahA thA ki mujhe car3hanA nahIM hai| yaha bhI kyA khela hai? aura aSTAvakra kahate haiM, saba anuSThAna baMdhana haiN| dhyAna baMdhana hai, dhAraNA baMdhana hai, yoga baMdhana hai, pUjA-prArthanA baMdhana hai-saba baMdhana haiN| kRSNa kI gItA usake lie hai jo abhI a ba sa sIkha rahA hai adhyAtma kaa| aSTAvakra kI gItA usake lie hai jisake saba pATha pUre ho gae, dIkSAMta kA samaya A gyaa| kRSNa kI gItA dIkSAraMbha hai| aSTAvakra kI gItA dIkSAMta-pravacana hai| ina donoM gItAoM ke bIca meM sArI yAtrA pUrI ho jAtI hai| eka car3hA detA hai anuSThAnoM meM, eka utAra letI hai, anuSThAnoM se| eka batAtI hai gaNeza ko kaise nirmita karo, kaise bhAva- bhakti se, kaise raMga bharI; eka batAtI hai, kaise nAcate, gIta gunagunAte visarjita kro| aisA janma aura mRtyu ke bIca jIvana hai, aise hI nAva meM car3hane aura nAva se utarane ke bIca paramAtmA kA anubhava hai| tIsarA prazna :
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________________ jaba maiM ApakA pravacana sanatA hUM to na jAne kyoM usake prema-saMgIta meM kho jAtA huuN| mujhe lagatA hai ki Apa sitAra bajA rahe haiM aura maiM tabalA bajA rahA huuN| kabhI lagatA hai ki maiM tAnapUrA bajA rahA hUM aura Apa tAna lagA rahe haiN| prabhu mujhe yaha kyA ho gayA hai? kRpA kara mujhe thAmeM ! thAmeM? dhakkA deMge! aisI zubha ghar3I A gaI, tuma kahate ho, kRpAkara thAmeM? yahI to maiM cAhatA hUM ki sabhI ko ho jo tumheM huA hai| yaha jo maiM kaha rahA hUM, yaha zabda nahIM, saMgIta hI hai| aura ise agara tuma sunanA cAhate ho to sunane kI jo zreSThatama vyavasthA hai vaha yahI ki tuma bhI mere saMgIta meM sahabhAgI ho joo| merI isa laya meM tuma bhI tAnapUrA to bajAo kama se kama tuma aise dUra-dUra khar3e na raha jaao| tuma isa ArkesTrA ke aMga bana jAo, tabhI tuma samajha pAoge / zubha ho rahA hai, saubhAgya kI ghaTanA ghaTa rahI hai| tuma Daro mt| do tabale para tAla! bajAo tAnapUrA! sAtha mere gAo, sAtha mere nAco / isI nRtya meM tuma kho jaaoge| isI khone se tumhArA vAstavika honA zurU hogaa| isI nRtya meM tuma visarjita ho jAoge; tumhArI sImAeM asIma meM Daba jaaeNgii| acAnaka tuma pahalI daphA jAgoge aura pAoge ki tuma kauna isI kho jAne meM nIMda TUTegII, jAgaraNa hogaa| aura tuma kahate ho prabhu thAmeM / samajha rahA hUM tumhArI ar3acana bhI tumhAre prazna ko bhI samajha rahA huuN| kyoMki jaba koI aisA DUbane lagatA, to ghabar3AhaTa svAbhAvika hotI hai ki yaha kyA ho rahA ? kahIM maiM pAgala to nahIM huA jA rahA? yahAM kaisI vINA aura kaisA tabalA? pUchane meM bhI tuma Dare hooge| prazna ko maiMne kahA to bahuta loga haMse bhI / unako bhI lagA ha kyA pAgalapana hai? tumako bhI lagA hogA, kyA pAgalapana hai? yaha maiM kara kyA rahA hUM? yahAM A ki tabalA bajAne? aura yaha kaisA tAnapUrA maiMne sAdha liyaa| yaha kaisI kalpanA meM maiM ulajhA jA rahA hUM, yaha koI sammohana to nahIM? yaha koI mana kI vikSiptatA to nahIM? yaha kaisI lahara mujhameM uThI? mata ghabar3Ao, yahI lahara tumheM le jAegI usa pAra / yahI lahara nAva bnegii| isI lahara para car3hane ko kaha rahA hUM / car3ha jAo isa lahara pr| isa lahara ko cUko mt| yaha lahara DubAe to DUba jaao| yaha ubAre to ubaro, DubAe to dduubo| isa lahara ke sAtha apanA tAdAtmya kara lo| isa lahara se lar3o mt| isake viparIta taise mt| isase bacane kI ceSTA mata kro| taba bulA jAtA mujhe usa pAra jo dUra ke saMgIta - sA vaha kauna hai?
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________________ jo tumheM bulA rahA hai, vaha abhI dUra kA saMgIta hai| tuma usake sAtha agara tAnapUrA bajAne lage, vaha karIba Ane lgegaa| taba bulA jAtA mujhe usa pAra jo dUra ke saMgIta-sA vaha kauna hai? abhI dUra hai sNgiit| sahabhAgI bno| eka to sunane kA DhaMga hotA hai ki suna rahe haiM taTastha bhAva se; jaise kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| suna rahe haiM-eka niSkriya avasthA meM murde kI trh| kAna haiM to suna rahe haiN| eka to niSkriya sunanA hai| aura eka sakriya sunanA hai -praphullita, AnaMdamagna, nAcate hue, sahayoga karate hue jaise maiM nahIM bola rahA hUM tumhIM bola raheho; jaise tumhArA hI bhaviSya bola rahA hai, jaise tumhAre hI bhItara chipI huI saMbhAvanA bola rahI hai| maiM tumhArI hI gunagunAhaTa huuN| jo gIta tuma abhI gAe nahIM aura gAnA hai usI kI tarapha thor3e-se pATha tumheM de rahA huuN| abhI jo tumheM lagegA tAnapUrA hai, bajAte-bajAte vahI tumhArI vINA ho jaaegii| abhI tuma mere sAtha bajAoge, dhIre- dhIre tuma pAoge tuma aura maiM kA phAsalA to samApta ho gayA na to maiM hUM, na tuma hoM-paramAtmA bajA rahA hai| aura taba tuma isa yogya ho jAoge ki koI tumhAre pAsa Ae to vaha apanA tAnapUrA bajAne lge| prANoM ke aMtima pAhuna cAMdanI dhulA aMjana-sA vidyuta muskAna bichAtA surabhita samIra paMkhoM se ur3a jo nabha meM ghira AtA vaha vArida tuma AnA bana! jyoM zrauta pathika para rajanI chAyA-sI A muskAtI bhArI palakoM meM dhIre nidrA kA madhu khulakAtI tyoM karanA tumabesudha jIvana! ajJAta loka se chipa-chipa jyoM utara razmiyA AtI madhu pIkara pyAsa bujhAne
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________________ phUloM ke ura khulavAtI chipa AnA tuma chAyA tana! Ane do mujhe, tumhAre bhItara Ane do| thAmane kI bAta hI mata utthaao| tumheM madamasta honA hai| tumheM zarAbI bananA hai| tumheM DolanA hai kisI madirA meN| thAmane kI bAta hI mata utthaao| tumhArA Dara maiM samajhatA hUM-ki yaha kyA ho rahA hai? kahIM maiM apanA hoza to na kho daMgA? kahIM maiM besudha to na ho jAUMgA? jyoM zrauta pathika para rajanI chAyA-sI A muskAtI bhArI palakoM meM dhIre nidrA kA madhu khulakAtI tyoM karanA tuma besudha jIvana! yahI aba tumhArI prArthanA ho : tyoM karanA tuma besudha jIvana! tuma mujhase kaho ki jaldI karo tuma mujhase kaho ki aba aisA bhaya mujhe na rahe ki maiM kucha thAma kara ruka jaauuN| tuma mujhase kaho ki aba mujhe DubAo, mujhe besudha kro| kyoMki tumane jise aba taka sudha samajhI hai vaha to besudhi thii| tumane jise aba taka hoza samajhA hai vaha to behozI thii| aura tuma jise aba taka jAgaraNa samajhate the vaha sapanoM se jyAdA nahIM thaa| vaha bar3I gahana aMdherI rAta aura nIMda thii| aba yaha jo besudhi maiM tumheM denA cAhatA hUM jo behozI tumheM pilAnA cAhatA hUM-yaha hoza kA Agamana hai| yaha tumheM behozI lagatI hai, kyoMki tuma jise aba taka hoza samajhe the, yaha usase viparIta hai| yaha madirA aisI hai jo hoza lAtI hai| ajJAta loka se chipa-chipa jyoM utara razmiyA AtI madhu pIkara pyAsa bujhAne phUloM ke ura khulavAtI chipa AnA tuma chAyA tana! tuma mujhe Ane do| tumane jo kahA hai. thAmeM! usakA artha huA ki tuma bhayabhIta ho gaye ho| usakA artha huA agara maiM tumhAre dvAra para dastaka dUMgA to tuma dvAra na khologe| usakA artha huA ki tuma mujhe pAsa dekha kara dvAra baMda kara loge| usakA artha huA ki tuma pAgalapana se ghabar3A rahe ho| lekina dhyAna rakhanA, dharma eka anUThA pAgalapana hai-aisA pAgalapana jo buddhimAnoM kI buddhiyoM se bahuta jyAdA buddhimAna hai aisA pAgalapana jo sAdhAraNa buddhi se bahuta pAra aura atIta hai aisA pAgalapana jo paramAtmA ke nikaTa le jAtA hai|
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________________ duniyA meM do taraha ke loga pAgala ho jAte haiM eka to ve, jo buddhi se nIce gira jAte haiM, aura eka ve jo buddhi ke pAra nikala jAte haiN| isalie Azcarya kI bAta nahIM hai ki manasvida saMto ko pAgaloM ke sAtha hI ginate haiM - donoM ko ebnaarml...| manovijJAna kI kitAboM meM tuma saMto ke lie aura pAgaloM ke lie alaga-alaga vibhAjana na paaoge| unake hisAba se do hI taraha ke AdamI haiM - nArmala ebanArmala sAdhAraNa aura rugNa / sAdhAraNa tuma ho| rugNa do taraha ke loga haiM-phira ve kisI DhaMga ke rugNa hoM; cAhe dhArmika rugNa hoM, cAhe adhArmika hoM, cAhe nAstika, cAhe Astika - lekina ebanArmala haiN| abhI bhI jIsasa para kitAbeM likhI jAtI haiM pazcima meM, jinameM dAvA kiyA jAtA hai ki jIsasa pAgala the, nyUroTika the| abhI hiMdustAna meM manovijJAna kA utanA prabhAva nahIM hai, isalie buddha aura mahAvIra, aSTAvakra abhI bace haiN| lekina jyAdA dina yaha bAta calegI nhiiN| jaldI hI hiMdustAna ke manovaijJAnika bhI hismata juTA leNge| abhI unakI itanI himmata bhI nahIM hai; lekina jaldI himmata juTA leNge| jo jIsasa ke khilApha likhA jA rahA hai, vaha kisI na kisI dina mahAvIra ke khilApha likhA jaaegaa| aura tuma pakkA samajho ki jIsasa ko pAgala siddha karane ke lie utane pramANa nahIM haiM, jisase jyAdA pramANa mahAvIra ko pAgala siddha karane ke lie mila jaaeNge| tumane dekhA, mahAvIra nagna khar3e haiM! kama se kama jIsasa kapar3e to pahane haiN| aba yaha to pAgalapana hai| tumane dekhA, mahAvIra apane bAloM ko loca kara ukhAr3ate haiM! pAgaloM kA eka khAsa samUha hotA hai jo apane bAla loca kara ukhAr3atA hai| tumane pAgaloM ko dekhA hogA, tumane kabhI khuda bhI dekhA hogA, jaba tuma para kabhI pAgalapana car3hatA hai, to tuma kahate ho, bAla loca lene kA mana hotA hai| kahAvata hai ca ki bAla loca lene kA mana hotA hai| striyoM ko gussA A jAtA hai to bAla loca letI haiM- kisI pAgalapana ke kSaNa meM! bahuta pAgala haiM pAgalakhAnoM meM jo apane bAla loca lete haiN| mahAvIra apane bAla loca lete the| keza luMca / tumhAre pAsa eka gAlI hai - naMgA - luccA / vaha sabase pahale mahAvIra ko dI gaI thii| kyoMki ve naMge the aura bAla loMcate the| naMgA - luccA! agara mahAvIra meM khojanA ho pAgalapana to pUrA mila jaaegaa| lekina manovaijJAnika abhI kucha bhI nahIM jAnate haiN| jo unakA vibhAjana hai, ajJAnamaya hai| yaha bhI ho sakatA hai ki eka AdamI zarAba ke naze meM cala rahA ho rAste para - DAvAMDola, DagamagAtA aura koI kisI ke prema meM madamasta ho kara cala rahA ho; aura koI kisI prArthanA meM Dola rahA ho| tInoM rAha para DAvAMDola cala rahe hoM, paira jagaha para na par3ate hoM, samAe na samAte hoM, bhItara kI khuzI aisI bahI jA rahI ho-pIche se tuma tInoM ko dekho to tInoM lageMge ki zarAbI haiN| kyoMki jaisA zarAbI DAMvAMDola ho rahA hai, vaisI hI mIrA bhI DAvAMDola ho rahI hai, vaise hI caitanya bhI DAMvAMDola ho rahe haiN| jaise zarAbI gIta gunagunA rahA hai, vaisI mIrA bhI gIta gunagunA rahI hai| pIche se tuma dekhoge to tumheM donoM eka jaise lgeNge| lekina kahAM mIrA aura kahAM zarAbI ! kahA caitanya aura kahAM zarAbI ! zarAbI ne buddhi gaMvA dI zarAba pI kara | mIrA bhI buddhi gaMvA dii|
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________________ kahatI hai, saba loka-lAja khoI / koI aura bar3I zarAba pI lI ! aMgase se banatI hai jo zarAba, vahI to zarAba nhiiN| eka aura bhI zarAba hai, jo prabhu - prema se banatI hai| vaha pI lii| vaha bhI madamasta hai| lekina mIrA rugNa nahIM hai| agara mIrA rugNa hai to phira tumhAre svAsthya kI paribhASAeM galata haiN| kyoMki mIrA jaisI masta aura AnaMdita hai.. . svAsthya kA lakSaNa hI mastI aura AnaMda honA caahie| sAdhAraNa, jisako manovaijJAnika kahate haiM nArmala, vaha to bar3A azAMta, becaina, parezAna, dukhI dikhAI par3atA hai| yaha koI svAsthya kI paribhASA huI? ye ciMtAgrasta loga, dukhI loga parezAna loga, jinake jIvana meM kabhI koI phUla nahIM khilA, koI saragama nahIM phUTA, koI rasadhAra nahIM bahI - ye svastha loga haiM? agara yahI svastha loga haiM to samajhadAra loga to mIrA kA pAgalapana cuneNge| vaha cunane yogya hai| pAgalapana sahI nAma se kyA pharka par3atA hai ? gulAba ko tuma kyA nAma dete ho, isase kyA pharka par3atA hai ? gulAba to gulAba hai| gulAba to gulAba hI rahegA tuma geMdA kaho, isase kyA pharka par3atA hai? tuma mahAvIra ko pAgala kaho, isase kyA pharka par3atA hai? yA paramahaMsa kaho, isase kyA pharka par3atA hai? mahAvIra mahAvIra haiN| yaha tuma khayAla meM lenaa| ghabar3A mata jAnA / mere pAsa agara tuma ho, to nizcita hI kisI zarAba ke pilAne kA Ayojana cala rahA hai| yaha madhuzAlA hai| ise maMdira kahane se behatara madhuzAlA hI kahanA ucita hai| yahAM maiM cAhatA hUM ki tuma Dolo nAco! yahAM tuma kisI gaharI mastI meM utaro ! nayA AyAma khule! dUra dila se saba kadUrata ho gaI hai jIsta kitanI khUbasUrata ho gaI hai ! thor3A pIo mujhe! dUra dila se saba kadUrata ho gaI hai saba ciMtA, phikra, becainI, azAMti, saba dUra ho jAegI ! jIsta kitanI khUbasUrata ho gaI hai! aura jiMdagI bar3I khUbasUrata ho jaaegii| eka-eka phUla meM hajAra-hajAra phUla khilate dikhAI pdd'eNge| isa kadara satahI hai duniyA kI masarrata dila ko phira gama kI jarUrata ho gaI hai| aura jaba tuma jiMdagI ke asalI AnaMda ko jAnoge to tuma cakita ho jAoge / tuma pAoge isa duniyA ke sukha se to paramAtmA ko paramAtmA ke viraha meM, paramAtmA ke bichoha meM paidA hone vAlA dukha behatara hai| isa duniyA ke sukhoM se to paramAtmA ke bichoha meM ronA behatara hai| isa duniyA kI muskurAhaToM se to paramAtmA ke lie bahe AMsU behatara haiN| isa kadara satahI hai duniyA kI masarrata dila ko phira gama kI jarUrata ho gaI hai|
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________________ yUM basI hai mujhameM terI yAda sAjana mere mana-madira kI mUrata ho gaI hai| terI yAda ne dila ko camakA diyA, tere pyAra se yaha sabhA saja gaI hai| jabA~ para na AyA koI aura nAma, terA nAma hI rAta-dina bhaja gaI hai| mere dila meM zahanAI - sI baja gaI hai| isa zahanAI ko bajane do| isa para dhun| nAco, gAo, gunagunAo! merI dRSTi meM, dharma vahI hai jo nAcatA huA hai| aura duniyA ko eka nAcate hue paramAtmA kI jarUrata hai| udAsa paramAtmA kAma nahIM aayaa| udAsa paramAtmA saccA siddha nahIM huaa| kyoMki AdamI vaise hI udAsa thA, aura udAsa paramAtmA ko le kara baiTha gayA / udAsa paramAtmA to lagatA hai udAsa AdamI kI IjAda hai, asalI paramAtmA nahIM / nAcatA, haMsatA paramAtmA cAhie ! aura jo dharma haMsI na de aura jo dharma khuzI na de aura jo dharma tumhAre jIvana ko muskurAhaToM se na bhara de, utsava se na bhara de, utsAha se na bhara de - vaha dharma, dharma nahIM hai, AtmahatyA hai| usase rAjI mata honaa| vaha dharma bUr3hoM kA dharma hai yA murdoM kA dharma hai-jinake jIvana kI dhArA baha gaI hai aura saba sUkha gayA hai| dharma to javAna cAhie! dharma to yuvA cAhie ! dharma to choTe baccoM jaisA pulakatA, phudakatA, nAcatA, Azcarya bharA cAhie! to maiM yahAM tumheM udAsa aura laMbe cehare sikhAne ko nahIM huuN| aura maiM nahIM cAhatA ki tuma yahAM bar3e gaMbhIra ho kara jIvana ko lene lago / gaMbhIratA hI to tumhArI chAtI para patthara ho gaI hai| gaMbhIratA roga hai| haTAo gaMbhIratA ke patthara ko / ikatAre ko bajane do| isa tAnapUre ko bajane do| uThane do tabale cauthA prazna : vaha patthara saraka rahA hai aura tAnapUrA bajane ko hai, aura tuma kahate ho thAmo! tuma kahate ho, thAmo mujhe! kaho ki dhakkA do! kaho ki aisA dhakkA do ki maiM to miTa hI jAUM, tAnapUrA hI bajatA rhe| - jiMdagI dene vAle, suna! terI duniyA se jI bhara gayA merA jInA yahAM muzkila ho gyaa| rAta kaTatI nahIM, dina gujaratA nahIM, jakhma aisA diyA jo bharatA nhiiN| AMkha vIrAna hai, dila parezAna hai,
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________________ gama kA sAmAna hai jiMdagI dene vAle suna! terI duniyA se jI bhara gayA / agara jI sacamuca bhara gayA hai, agara saca meM hI duniyA se jI bhara gayA hai to usakA pariNAma udAsI nahIM hai| usakA pariNAma nirAzA bhI nahIM hai| usakA pariNAma to eka apUrva utkullatA kA janma hai| jisakA jIvana se jI bhara gayA-artha huA ki usane jAna liyA ki jIvana vyartha hai| aba kaisI nirAzA? nirAzA ke lie to AzA caahie| ise samajhane kI koziza kro| jaba taka tumhAre jIvana meM AzA hai ki kucha milegA jiMdagI se, kucha milegA taba taka jiMdagI tumheM nirAza karegI, kyoMki milane vAlA kucha bhI nahIM hai| jisa dina tumhArI AzA chUTa gaI, usI dina nirAzA bhI chUTa gii| loga socate haiM : jaba AzA chUTa jAegI to hama bilakula nirAza ho jaaeNge| AzA chUTa gaI, phira to nirAza hone kA upAya hI nhiiN| kyoMki AzA, nirAzA sAtha hI vidA ho jAte haiN| AzA kI chAyA hai nirAzA / jitanI tuma AzA karoge utanI nirAzA plegii| utane hI tuma hAroge / jItanA cAhA to hI hAra sakate ho| lAotsu kahatA hai. mujhe koI harA nahIM sakatA kyoMki maiM jItanA cAhatA hI nahIM / kaise harAoge usa AdamI ko jo jItanA cAhatA hI nhiiN| lAotsu kahatA hai maiM hArA hI huA hUM mujhe tuma harAoge kaise? jisa AdamI ko jItane kI AkAMkSA hai, vaha hAregA aura jitanI jyAdA AkAMkSA hai, utanA jyAdA haaregaa| jo AdamI dhanI honA cAhatA hai vaha nirdhana rahegA aura jitanA jyAdA dhanI honA cAhatA hai utanA nirdhana rhegaa| kyoMki usakI dhana kI apekSA kabhI bhI bhara nahIM sakatI / jitanA milegA vaha choTA mAlUma par3egA, ochA mAlUma par3egA / usakI AkAMkSA kA pAtra to bar3A hai| usa pAtra meM sabhI jo milegA, kho jaaegaa| isa sUtra ko khayAla meM lenA : tumhArI AzA nirAzA kI janmadAtrI hai| tumhArI AkAMkSA tumhArI viphalatA kA sUtra - AdhAra hai| tumhArI mAMga tumhAre jIvana kA viSAda hai| agara saca meM hI jIvana se jI bhara gyaa..| lagatA nhiiN| 'jiMdagI dene vAle suna terI duniyA se jI bhara gayA / ' abhI bharA nhiiN| thaka gae hooge| AzAeM pUrI nahIM huIM lekina AzAeM samApta nahIM ho gaI haiN| jisako tuma jIvana se jI bhara jAnA kahate ho, vaha viSAda kI avasthA hai| tuma jo cAhate the vaha nahIM huA, isalie Uba gae ho| lekina agara abhI paramAtmA kahe ki ho sakatA hai, tuma phira daur3a
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________________ pdd'oge| agara koI tumheM phira se kaha de ki daur3a jAo, abhI mila jAegA, basa pAsa hI hai-tuma phira cala par3oge; phira AzA kA dIyA jalane lgegaa| yaha tumhArI hAra hai, samajha nahIM / yaha tumhArI parAjaya hai, lekina bodha nhiiN| aura parAjaya ko bodha mata samajha lenA / parAjita AdamI baiTha jAtA hai thaka kara; lekina gahare meM to abhI bhI socatA rahatA hai : mila jAtA zAyada kucha aura upAya kara letA! zAyada koI aura DhaMga hogA khojane kA ! maiMne zAyada galata DhaMga se khojA, ThIka na khojaa| yA maiMne pUrI tAkata na lagAI khojane meM! tuma kitanI hI tAkata lagAo, saMsAra meM hAra sunizcita hai| saMsAra meM jIta hotI nahIM / maiMne sunA hai, eka mahilA eka dukAna para baccoM ke khilaune kharIda rahI hai| eka khilaune ko vaha jamAne kI koziza kara rahI hai, jo Tukar3e-Tukar3e meM hai aura jamAyA jAtA hai| usane bahuta koziza kI usake pati ne bhI bahuta koziza kI lekina vaha jamatA hI nahIM / Akhira usane dukAnadAra se pUchA ki suno, pAMca sAla ke bacce ke lie hama yaha khilaune kharIda rahe haiM; na maiM isako jamA pAtI hUM na mere pati jamA pAte haiN| mere pati gaNita ke prophesara haiN| aba aura kauna isako jamA pAegA? merA pAMca sAla kA baccA isako kaise jamAegA? usa dukAnadAra ne kahA, suneM, parezAna na hoN| yaha khilaunA jamAne ke lie banAyA hI nahIM gyaa| yaha to bacce ke lie eka zikSaNa hai ki duniyA bhI aisI hI hai, kitanA hI jamAo, yaha jamatI nahIM / yaha to baccA abhI se sIkha le jIvana kA eka satya / isako jamAne kI koziza karegA baccA, hajAra koziza karegA, magara yaha jamAne ke lie banAyA hI nahIM gayA, yaha jama sakatA hI nhiiN| isameM tuma cUkate hI jaaoge| isameM hAra nizcita hai| saMsAra eka prazikSaNa hai| yaha jamane ko hai nhiiN| yaha kabhI jamA nhiiN| yaha sikaMdara se nahIM jamA / yaha nepoliyana se nahIM jamA / yaha tumase bhI jamane vAlA nahIM hai| yaha kisI se kabhI nahIM jamA / agara yaha jama hI jAtA to buddha, mahAvIra chor3a kara na haTa jAte, unhoMne jamA liyA hotaa| buddha - mahAvIroM se nahIM jamA, tumase nahIM jmegaa| yaha jamane ko hai hI nhiiN| yaha banAyA hI isa DhaMga se gayA hai ki isameM hAra sunizcita hai, viSAda nizcita hai| yaha jAgane ko banAyA gayA hai ki tuma dekha-dekha kara, hAra-hAra kara jaago| eka dina, jisa dina tuma jAga jAoge, tumheM yaha samajha A jAegI ki yaha jamatA hI nahIM- nahIM ki mere upAya meM koI kamI hai, nahIM ki maiMne mehanata kama kI; nahIM ki maiM buddhimAna pUrA na thA, nahIM ki maiM thor3A kama daur3A, agara thor3A aura daur3atA to pahuMca jAtA / jisa dina tuma samajhoge yaha jamane ko banA hI nahIM usa dina viSAda miTa jAegA / usa dina saba bhItara kI parAjaya hAra, saba kho jaaegii| usa dina tuma khilakhilA kara hsoge| tuma kahoge, yaha bhI khUba majAka rahI! isa majAka ko jAna kara hI hiMduoM ne jagata ko lIlA kahA / khUba khela rahA! isa saMsAra se tuma jaba taka apekSA rakhe ho, taba taka becainI hai|
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________________ ai dile - marga - AzanA khata kA javAba suna liyA? aura tU bekarAra ho! aura tU iMtajAra kara ! - baiThe haiM, bar3I pratIkSA kara rahe haiM ki preyasI kA patra AtA hogaa| ai dile - marga- AzanA ! hue dila / ai dile - marga - AzanAM khata kA javAba suna liyA? aura tU bekarAra ho! aura tU iMtajAra kara! ai preyasI para miTe aba jAgo, bahuta ho cukA iMtajAra dekho, khela lo| isameM bhaTaka mata jaao| isako ati yahAM kucha milane ko hai nhiiN| khela hai, khela kI taraha gaMbhIratA se mata lo| aura tuma to aise pAgala ho ki philma dekhane jAte ho, usI ko gaMbhIratA se le lete ho| dekhA, philma meM kisI kI hatyA ho jAtI hai, aneka AheM nikala jAtI haiM! pAgala ho gae ho? kucha to hoza rakho! logoM ke rUmAla agara tuma philma ke bAda pakar3a kara eka-eka ke dekho to gIle paaoge| AMsU baha jAte haiM, poMcha lete haiM apane AMsU jaldI se, rUmAla chipA lete haiN| acchA hai vaha to aMdherA rahatA hai sinemAgRha meM, to koI dekha nahIM paataa| patnI bhI bagala meM ro rahI hai, pati bhI ro rahe haiN| donoM poMcha kara apnaa...| magara donoM ko yaha samajha meM nahIM A rahA ki parde para kucha bhI nahIM hai / dhUpa-chAMva! lekina vaha bhI prabhAvita kara jAtI hai| usase bhI tuma bar3e AMdolita ho jAte ho| pratIka prabhAvita kara jAte haiN| zabda prabhAvita kara jAte haiN| to svAbhAvika hai ki yaha jIvana jo cAroM tarapha phailA hai, itanA virATa maMca, isameM agara tuma bhaTaka jAo to kucha Azcarya nahIM! tuma hoza meM nahIM ho, tuma mUrcchita ho| 'jiMdagI dene vAle suna terI duniyA se jI bhara gayA merA jInA yahAM muzkila ho gyaa| ' muzkila? isakA matalaba hai ki abhI bhI apekSA banI hai; nahIM to kyA muzkila hai? muzkila kA matalaba hai. abhI bhI tuma cAhate ho kucha suvidhA ho jAtI kucha saphalatA mila jAtI, kucha to rAhaMta de dete| ekadama hAra hI hAra to mata dilAe cale jaao| kucha bahAnA to, kucha nimitta to rahe jIne kaa| 'rAta kaTatI nahIM, dina gujaratA nahIM jakhma aisA diyA, jo bharatA nhiiN| ' phira se gaura se dekho| kyoMki jAnane vAloM ne to kahA ki jagata mAyA hai, isase jakhma to ho hI nahIM sktaa| yaha to aisA hI hai - aSTAvakra bAra-bAra kahate haiM- jaise rajjU meM sarpa / jaise koI Ada aMdhere meM dekha kara rassI aura bhAga khar3A ho ki sAMpa hai; bhAgane meM pasInA-pasInA ho jAe, chAtI dhar3akane lage, hRdaya kA daurA par3ane lage aura koI dIyA le Ae aura kahe ki pAgala, jarA dekha bhI to, vahAM kucha bhAga ko hai, na kucha bhayabhIta hone ko hai! rassI par3I hai|
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________________ mere gAMva meM eka kabIrapaMthI sAdhu the| ve yaha rajjU meM sarpa kA udAharaNa sadA dete| choTA-sA thA, taba se unheM sunatA thaa| jaba bhI unako sunane jAtA to yaha udAharaNa to rahatA hii| yaha bar3A prAcIna, bhArata kA udAharaNa hai| Akhira eka daphA mujhe sUjhA ki yaha AdamI itanA kahatA hai ki saMsAra to rajjU meM sarpavata, jarA isakI parIkSA bhI kara lI jaae| to ve roja mere ghara ke sAmane se rAta ko nikalate the| unakA makAna mere ghara ke pIche, nAle ko pAra karake thA, to eka rassI meM eka patalA dhAgA bAMdha kara maiM apane ghara meM baiTha gyaa| rassI ko dUsarI tarapha sar3aka ke kinAre nAlI meM DAla diyaa| jaba ve nikale apanA iMDA ityAdi lie hue, to maiMne dhIre se vaha dhAgA khIMcanA zurU kiyaa| maiM dUsarI tarapha baiThA hUM? isalie us| aura jaba rassI unhoMne dekhI sarakatI huI to ve aise bhAge, aisI cIkha-pukAra macA dI ki maiM eka khATa ke pIche chipA thA, unakI cIkha-pukAra meM khATa gira gaI, maiM pakar3A gyaa| bahuta DATa par3I ki yaha yaha bAta ThIka nahIM hai, eka bUr3he AdamI ke sAtha aisA majAka karanA! para maiMne kahA, yaha majAka unhoMne sujhAyA hai| maiM thaka gayA sunate-sunate-rajyU meM sarpavata, rajjU meM sarpavata! to maiMne socA ki kama se kama ye to na ghabar3Ake ye to pahacAna leMge ki rassI hai| ye bhI cUka gae to auroM kA kyA kahanA? yaha saMsAra pratIta hotA, bhAsamAna hotaa| aura bhAsamAna aisA hotA hai ki lagatA hai saca hai| lekina tuma eka dina nahIM the aura eka dina phira nahIM ho jaaoge| yaha jo bIca kA thor3I dera kA khela hai, yaha eka dina sapane jaisA vilIna jaaegaa| pIche lauTa kara dekho, tuma tIsa sAla jI lie, cAlIsa sAla jI lie, pacAsa sAla jI lie ye jo pacAsa sAla tuma jIye, Aja kyA tuma pakkA nirNaya kara sakate ho ki sapane meM dekhe the pacAsa sAla yA asalI jIye the? aba to sirpha smRti raha gii| smRti to sapane kI bhI raha jAtI hai| Aja tumhAre pAsa kyA upAya hai yaha jAMca karane kA ki jo pacAsa sAla maiMne jIe, ye vastuta: maiM jIyA thaa| vastuta: yA eka sapane meM dekhI kathA hai? bar3I muzkila meM par3a jaaoge| bar3A citta becaina ho jAegA agara socane baitthoge| agara isa para dhyAna karoge to bar3e becaina, pasIne -pasIne ho jaaoge| kyoMki tuma pakar3a na pAoge sUtra ki yaha kaise siddha kareM ki jo maiMne, socatA hUM ki dekhA vaha saca meM dekhA thA, yA kevala eka mRga-marIcikA thI? __ marate vakta jaba mauta tumhAre dvAra para khar3I ho jAegI aura mauta kA aMdhakAra tumheM gherane lagegA, kyA tumheM yAda na AegI ki jo maiM sATha, sattara, assI sAla jIvana jIyA, vaha thA? tuma kaise taya karoge ki vaha thA? mRtyu saba poMcha jaaegii| kitane loga isa jamIna para rahe, kitane loga isa jamIna para gujara gae, Ae aura gae-unakA Aja koI bhI to patA-ThikAnA nahIM hai| vaijJAnika kahate haiM ki tuma jisa jagaha baiThe ho vahA kama se kama dasa AdamiyoM kI lAzeM gar3I haiN| itane loga isa jamIna para mara cuke haiN| iMca iMca jamIna kabra hai| tuma yaha mata socanA ki kaba gAMva ke bAhara hai| jahAM gAMva hai vahA kabhI kaba thI, kabhI kabristAna thA, maraghaTa thaa| jahAM aba maraghaTa hai, vahA kabhI gAMva thaa| saba cIjeM badalatI rahI haiN| kitane karor3oM varSoM meM! jamIna kA eka-eka iMca AdamI
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________________ kI lAzoM se paTA hai| hara iMca para dasa lAzeM paTI haiN| tuma jahAM baiThe ho, vahA dasa murde nIce gar3e haiN| tuma bhI dhIre se gyArahaveM ho jAoge, unhIM meM saraka jAoge / phira isa saba daur3a-dhUpa kA isa AkAMkSA- abhilASA kA isa mahatvAkAMkSA kA kyA artha hai ? kyA sAra hai? isa satya ko dekha kara jo jAgatA, phira vaha aisA nahIM kahatA ki rAta kaTatI nahIM, dina gujaratA nhiiN| ' phira vaha aisA nahIM kahatA ki 'jakhma aisA diyA jo bharatA nhiiN| AMkha vIrAna hai, dila parezAna hai, gama kA sAmAna hai| 'yaha to saba AzA - apekSA kI hI chAyAeM haiN| inase koI dhArmika nahIM hotaa| aura inake kAraNa jo AdamI dhArmika ho jAtA hai, vaha dharma ke nAma para saMsAra kI hI mAMga jArI rakhatA hai| vaha maMdira meM bhI jAegA to vahI mAMgegA jo saMsAra meM nahIM milA hai! usakA svarga unhIM cIjoM kI pUrti hogI jo saMsAra meM nahIM mila pAyI haiM unakI AkAMkSA vahAM pUrI kara legaa| isalie to svarga meM hamane kalpavRkSa lagA rakhe haiM; unake nIce baiTha gae, saba pUrA ho jAtA hai| maiMne sunA, eka AdamI bhUle- bhaTake kalpavRkSa ke nIce pahuMca gyaa| use patA nahIM thA ki yaha kalpavRkSa hai| vaha usake nIce baiThA, bar3A thakA thaa| usane kahA, 'bar3A thakA- mAdA huuN| aise meM kahIM koI bhojana detaa| magara kahIM koI dikhAI par3atA hI nahIM / ' aisA usakA socanA hI thA ki acAnaka bhojana ke thAla pragaTa hue| vaha itanA bhUkhA thA ki usane dhyAna bhI na diyA ki kahAM se A rahe haiM? kyA ho rahA hai? bhUkhA AdamI mara rahA thaa| usane bhojana kara liyaa| bhojana karake usane socA, bar3I ajIba bAta hai| magara duniyA hai, yahAM saba hotA hai, hara cIja hotI hai| isa vakta to aba ciMtA karane kA samaya bhI nahIM, peTa khUba bhara gayA hai| usane DaTa kara khA liyA hai| jarUrata se jyAdA khA liyA, to nIMda A rahI hai| to vaha socane lagA ki eka bistara hotA to maje se so jaate| socanA thA ki eka bistara laga gyaa| jarA sA zaka to uThA magara usane socA, ' abhI koI samaya hai! abhI to so lo, dekheNge| abhI to bahuta jiMdagI par3I hai, jaldI kyA hai, soca leNge| ' so bhI gyaa| jaba uThA so kara, aba jarA nizcita thaa| aba usane dekhA cAroM tarapha ki mAmalA ho kyA rahA hai| yahAM koI bhUta-preta to nahIM haiM ! bhUta-preta khar3e ho gae, kyoMki vaha to kalpavRkSa thaa| usane kahA, mAre gae ! to mAre gae ! ki bhUta-preta jhapaTe una para ve mAre gae ! kalpavRkSa kI kalpanA kara rakhI hai svarga meN| jo-jo yahAM nahIM hai, vahA sirpha kAmanA se milegaa| tumane dekhA, AdamI kI kAmanA kaisI hai! yahAM to zrama karanA par3atA hai; kAmanA se hI nahIM miltaa| zrama karo, taba bhI jarUrI nahIM ki mile| kahAM milatA ? zrama karake bhI kahAM milatA? to isase ThIka viparIta avasthA svarga meM hai| vahAM tumane socA, tumane socA nahIM ki milA nahIM / tatkSaNa ! usI kSaNa ! samaya kA jarA bhI aMtarAla nahIM hotaa| lekina dhyAna rakhanA, tuma vahA bhI sukhI na ho skoge| dekhA, isa AdamI kI kyA hAlata huI jahAM saba mila jAegA vahAM bhI tuma sukhI na ho sakoge / kyoMki sukhI tuma taba taka ho hI nahIM sakate jaba taka tuma sukha meM bharosA karate ho / sukha se jAgo! sukha se jAgane se hI dukha visarjita ho jAtA hai| buddha ke pAsa eka AdamI AyA- unakA bhikSu thA, unakA saMnyAsI thaa| usane bahuta dina dhyAna
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________________ kiyA, bahuta zAMta bhI ho gyaa| eka dina dhyAna karate-karate use khayAla AyA ki buddha ne asalI bAtoM ke to javAba hI nahIM die| vaha AyA unake pAsa bhAgA huA / usane kahA ki sunie, na to Apane kabhI batAyA hai ki Izvara hai yA nahIM, na Apane kabhI yaha batAyA hai ki svarga hai yA nahIM, na Apane kabhI yaha batAyA hai ki AtmA mara kara kahA jAtI hai, punarjanma hotA ki nahIM? ina bAtoM ke uttara deN| buddha ne kahA, suno, agara maiM ina bAtoM ke uttara dUM to tumhAre taka uttara pahuMcane ke pahale maiM mara jAUMgA aura tumhAre samajhane ke pahale tuma mara jaaoge| ina bAtoM ke uttara vyartha haiN| ye to aise haiM jaise kisI AdamI ko tIra laga gayA ho aura vaha marane ke karIba par3A ho aura maiM usase kahUM kilA maiM terA tIra khIMca lUM aura vaha kahe, ruko, pahale merI bAtoM ke uttara do. 'yaha tIra kisa dizA se AyA? yaha kisane calAyA ? calAne vAlA mitra thA ki duzmana thA ? bhUla se lagA ki jAna kara mArA gayA? tIra jahara-bujhA hai yA sAdhAraNa hai? pahale ina bAtoM ke uttara do!' to maiM usa AdamI ko kahUMgA, phira tU mregaa| mujhe pahale tIra khIMca lene de, phira tU phikra karanA ina praznoM kii| abhI to baca jA / to buddha ne usa bhikSu ko kahA ki maiMne tumheM batAyA hai ki jIvana meM dukha hai aura maiMne tumheM batAyA hai ki jIvana ke dukha se mukta hone kA mArga hai| merI dezanA pUrI ho gii| isase jyAdA mujhe tumheM kucha nahIM batAnA / tumhArA dukha miTa jAe phira tuma jAno, khoja lenA / yaha bar3e socane jaisI bAta hai| buddha ne aisA kyoM kahA? kyA buddha Izvara ke saMbaMdha meM uttara nahIM denA cAhate the? buddha jAnate haiM ki tuma Izvara ko bhI dukha ke kAraNa hI khoja rahe ho| jisa dina dukha miTa jAegA, tuma Izvara ityAdi kI bakavAsa baMda kara doge / Izvara bhI tumhArI dukha kI hI AkAMkSA hai ki kisI taraha dukha miTa jAe / saMsAra meM nahIM miTA to svarga meM miTa jaae| yahAM to mAMga-mAMga kara hAra gaye, yahAM to nyAya milatA nahIM, paramAtmA ke ghara to milegA! loga kahate haiM, vahAM dera hai aMdhera nhiiN| kahate haiM, cAhe dera kitanI ho jAye, janma ke bAda mile, janmoM ke bAda mile, marane ke bAda; lekina nyAya to milegaa| aMdhera nahIM hai| lekina tumhArI AkAMkSAeM apanI jagaha khar3I haiN| tuma kahate ho, kabhI to bharI jAyeMgI! dera hai, aMdhera nhiiN| buddha ne kahA, maiMne do hI bAteM sikhAIM : dukha hai, isake prati jAgo aura dukha se pAra hone kA upAya hai-sAkSI ho jAo! basa isase jyAdA mujhe kucha kahanA nahIM, merI dezanA pUrI ho gii| tuma ye do kAma kara lo, bAkI tuma khoja lenA / aura buddha bilakula ThIka kahA / jisa AdamI kA dukha miTa gayA vaha bilakula ciMtA nahIM kara ki svarga hai yA nhiiN| svarga to ho hI gayA, jisa AdamI kA dukha miTa gyaa| aura jisa AdamI dukha miTa gayA vaha nahIM pUchatA ki Izvara hai yA nahIM? jisa AdamI kA dukha miTa gayA, vaha svayaM Izvara ho gyaa| aba aura bacA kyA? jisane pUchA hai prazna, use bahuta kucha samajhane kI jarUrata hai| jiMdagI ko AkAMkSAoM ke parde
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________________ se mata dekho| jiMdagI ko apekSAoM ke DhaMga se mata dekho| jaisI jiMdagI hai use dekho aura bIca meM apanI AkAMkSA ko mata laao| aura taba tuma acAnaka pAoge. sAMpa kho gayA, rassI par3I raha gii| phira usase bhaya bhI paidA nahIM hotA, jakhma bhI nahIM lagate, hAra bhI nahIM hotI, parAjaya bhI nahIM hotI, viSAda bhI nahIM hotaa| aura usase tumhAre bhItara usa dIe kA jalanA zurU ho jAegA, jisako aSTAvakra sAkSIbhAva kaha rahe haiN| dukha ko dekho| sukha ko cAho mata, dukha ko dekho| do hI taraha ke loga haiM duniyA meM, sukha ko cAhane vAle loga, aura dukha ko dekhane vAle log| jo sukha ko cAhatA hai vaha naye-naye dukha paidA karatA jAtA hai, kyoMki hara sukha kI AkAMkSA meM naye dukha kA janma hai| aura jo dukha ko dekhatA hai, dukha visarjita ho jAtA hai| aura dukha ke visarjana meM sukha kA AvirbhAva hai| maiM phira se doharA dUM : do hI taraha ke loga haiM, aura tumhArI marjI jisa taraha ke loga tumheM bananA ho bana jaanaa| sukha ko mAMgo, dukha bar3hatA jaaegaa| kyoMki sukha milatA hI nahIM, mAMgane se milatA hI nahIM isalie dukha bar3hatA jAtA hai| phira jitanA dukha bar3hatA hai, utanA hI tuma sukha kI mAMga karate ho utanA hI jyAdA dukha bar3hatA hai| par3e eka duSTacakra meM, jisake bAhara AnA muzkila ho jaaegaa| isI ko to jJAniyoM ne saMsAra-cakra kahA hai- bhavasAgara! bar3A sAgara banatA jAtA hai, kyoMki jaise-jaise tumhArA dukha bar3hatA hai, tuma socate ho : aura sukha kI khoja kreN| aura sukha kI khoja karate ho, aura dukha bar3hatA hai| aba isakA kahIM pArAvAra nahIM, isakA koI aMta nhiiN| bhavasAgara nirmita huaa| dUsare taraha ke loga haiM, jo dukha ko dekhate haiN| dukha hai, ThIka hai| isase viparIta kI AkAMkSA karane se kyA sAra hai? ise dekha leM : yaha kahAM hai, kyA hai, kaisA hai? dukha tathya hai to isake prati jAga jaaeN| tuma isakA choTA-moTA prayoga karake dekho| jaba bhI tuma udAsa ho, dukhI ho, baiTha jAo zAMta apane kamare meN| raho dukhI! vastuta: jitane dukhI ho sako utane dukhI ho jaao| atizayokti kro| tibbata meM eka prayoga hai. atishyokti| dhyAna kA gaharA prayoga hai| ve kahate haiM, jisa cIja se tumheM chuTakArA pAnA ho, usakI atizayokti karo, tAki vaha pUre rUpa meM pragaTa ho jAye, .aisA maMda-maMda na ho| tuma dukhI ho rahe ho, baMda kara lo dvAra-daravAje, baiTha jAo bIca kamare ke aura ho jAo dukhI, jitane honA hai| taDupho, Aha bharo, cIkho; loTanA-poTanA ho jamIna para, loTo-poTo; pITanA ho apane ko, pITo-lekina dukha kI atizayokti kro| dukha ko usakI pUrI garimA meM uThA do, dukha kI Aga jalA do| aura jaba dukha kI Aga bhabhaka kara jalane lage, dhU-dhU karake jalane lage, taba bIca meM khar3e ho kara dekhane lago : kyA hai, kaisA hai dukha 2: isa dukha ke sAkSI ho jaao| tuma cakita ho jAoge, tuma hairAna ho jAoge ki tumhAre sAkSI banate hI dukha dUra hone lagA, tumhAre aura dukha ke bIca phAsalA hone lagA, tuma sAkSI banane lage, phAsalA bar3A hone lgaa| tuma aura bhI sAkSI banane lage, phAsalA aura bar3A hone lgaa| aura jaise-jaise phAsalA bar3A hone lagA, sukha kI
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________________ dhuna Ane lagI, sukha kI suvAsa Ane lgii| kyoMki dukha kA dUra honA, yAnI sukha kA pAsa aanaa| dhIre- dhIre tuma pAoge, dukha itane dUra pahuMca gayA ki aba samajha meM bhI nahIM AtA ki hai yA nahIM dUra tAroM para pahuMca gayA aura sukha kI vINA bhItara bajane lgii| phira eka aisI ghar3I AtI hai, jaba dukha calA hI gyaa| jaba dukha calA jAtA hai, to jo zeSa raha jAtA hai, vahI sukha hai| sukha tumhArA svabhAva hai| sukha dukha ke viparIta nahIM hai| tumheM sukha pAne ke lie dukha se lar3anA nahIM hai| dukha kA abhAva hai sukh| dukha kI anupasthiti hai sukh| dukha ko tuma dekha lo bhara AMkha-aura dukha gyaa| yahI karo tuma krodha ke saath| yahI karo tuma lobha ke saath| yahI karo tuma ciMtA ke saath| aura sau meM se nabbe maukoM para to zarIra ke dukha ke sAtha bhI tuma yahI kara sakate ho| abhI pazcima meM bar3e manovaijJAnika prayoga cala rahe haiM, jinhoMne isa bAta kI saccAI kI gavAhI dI hai| sau meM ninyAnabe maukoM para siradarda kevala sAkSI- bhAva se dekhane se calA jAtA hai -ninyAnabe mauke pr| eka hI maukA hai jaba ki zAyada na jAe, kyoMki usakA kAraNa zArIrika ho, anyathA usake kAraNa mAnasika hote haiN| tumheM aba jaba dubArA siradarda ho to jaldI se seriDaoNna mata le lenA, estho mata le lenaa| aba kI bAra jaba dukha ho to dhyAna kA prayoga karanA, tuma cakita hooge| yaha to prayogAtmaka hai| yaha to aba vaijJAnika rUpa se siddha hai, dhArmika rUpa se to sadiyoM se siddha rahA hai, aba vaijJAnika rUpa se siddha hai| jaba tumhAre sira meM darda ho, tuma baiTha jaanaa| usa darda ko khojane kI koziza karanA kahAM hai ThIkaThIka? tAki tuma aMgulI rakha sako, kahAM hai| pUre sira meM mAlUma hotA hai to khojane kI koziza karanA : kahAM hai ThIka-ThIka? tuma cakita hooge : jaise tuma khojate ho, darda sikur3ane lagatA hai, usakI jagaha choTI hone lagatI hai| pahale lagatA thA pUre sira meM hai, aba lagatA hai eka thor3I-sI jagaha meM hai| aura khojate jAnA, aura khojate jAnA, aura khojate jAnA, dekhate jAnA bhItara-aura jarA bhI ceSTA nahIM karanA ki dukha na ho, darda na ho; hai to hai, svIkAra kara lenaa| aura tuma acAnaka pAoge, eka aisI ghar3I AegI ki darda aisA raha jAegA jaise ki koI suI cubho rahA hai| itane se, choTe-se biMdu para! aura taba tuma hairAna hooge ki kabhI-kabhI darda kho jaaegaa| kabhI-kabhI lauTa aaegaa| kabhI-kabhI phira kho jaaegaa| kabhI-kabhI phira lauTa aaegaa| aura taba tumheM eka bAta sApha ho jAegI ki jaba bhI tumhArA sAkSI bhAva sadhegA, darda kho jaaegaa| aura jaba bhI sAkSI- bhAva se tuma vicalita ho jAoge, darda vApisa lauTa aaegaa| aura agara sAkSI- bhAva ThIka sadha gayA to darda bilakula calA jaaegaa| ise tuma jarA prayoga karake dekho| mAnasika dukha to nizcita rUpa se cale jAte haiM, zAyada zArIrika dukha na jaaeN| aba kisI ne agara sira meM patthara mAra diyA ho to usake lie maiM nahIM kaha rahA huuN| isalie sau meM eka maukA chor3A hai ki tumane apanA sira dIvAla se TakarA liyA ho, phira darda ho rahA ho, to vaha darda zArIrika hai| usakA mana se kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| lekina agara kisI ne sira meM patthara bhI mAra diyA ho to bhI agara tuma sAkSI bhAva se dekhoge to darda miTegA to nahIM, lekina eka bAta sApha ho jAegI ki tuma darda nahIM ho| tuma darda se bhinna ho| darda rhegaa| agara mAnasika darda hai to
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________________ miTa jaaegaa| agara zArIrika darda hai to darda rhegaa| lekina donoM hAlata meM rda ke pAra ho jaaoge| mAnasika hogA to darda gayA; agara zArIrika hogA to darda rahA; lekina aba mujhe darda ho rahA hai, aisI pratIti nahIM hogii| darda ho rahA hai, jaise kisI aura ke sira meM darda ho rahA hai| jaise kisI aura ke paira meM darda ho rahA hai| jaise kisI aura ko coTa lagI hai| bar3e dUra ho jaaegaa| tuma khar3e dekha rahe ho| tuma draSTA, sAkSI mAtra! ghabar3Ao mt| 'jiMdagI dene vAle suna! terI duniyA se jI bhara gyaa| merA jInA yahAM muzkila ho gyaa|' yaha jisane tumheM jiMdagI dI hai, usake kAraNa nahIM huA hai yaha tumhAre kAraNa huA hai| isalie ghabar3Ao mata; kyoMki agara usake kAraNa huA ho, taba to tumhAre hAtha meM kucha bhI nhiiN| tumhAre kAraNa huA hai, isalie tumhAre hAtha meM saba kucha hai| tuma jAgo to yaha miTa sakatA hai| aura ye gIta gAne se kucha bhI na hogA-kucha karanA hogA! kucha zrama karanA hogA, tAki bhItara kI nidrA ttuutte| nidrA TUTa sakatI hai| yaha jo aMdherA dikhAI par3a rahA hai, yaha sadA rahane vAlA nahIM hai| subaha ho sakatI hai| yaha eka zaba kI taDUpha hai, sahara to hone do bahizta sara pe lie rojagAra gujregaa| phijA ke dila se paraapazA hai ArajU -e-gubAra jarUra idhara se koI zahasavAra gujregaa| 'nasIma' jAgo, kamara ko bAMdho uThAo bistara ki rAta kama hai| rAta to gujara hI jaaegii| taiyArI karo! 'nasIma' jAgo, kamara ko bAMdho uThAo bistara ki rAta kama hai| sAkSI- bhAva bistara kA bAMdha lenA hai, ki aba to subaha hone ke karIba hai| aura tumane jisa dina bAMdhA bistara, usI dina subaha karIba A jAtI hai| yaha subaha kucha aisI hai ki tumhAre bistara bAMdhane para nirbhara hai| idhara tumane bAMdhA, idhara tumane taiyArI kI, tuma jAga kara khar3e ho gae-subaha ho gaI! subaha arthAta tumhArA jAga jaanaa| rAta arthAta tumhArA soyA rhnaa| ro-ro kara darda kI bAteM kara lene se kucha hala na hogaa| yaha to tuma karate hI rahe ho| yaha ronA to kAphI ho cukA hai| yaha to janmoM-janmoM se tuma ro rahe ho aura kaha rahe ho ki koI kara de, duniyA ko banAne vAlA ho yA na ho| tuma kisase prArthanA kara rahe ho? usakA tumheM kucha patA bhI nahIM hai| ho na ho; ho, baharA ho; ho, aura tumheM dukha dene meM majA letA ho; ho, aura tumhArA dukha use dukha jaisA
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________________ dikhAI na par3atA ho - tuma kisase prArthanA kara rahe ho? aura vaha hai bhI, isakA kucha pakkA nahIM hai| AdamI ne apane bhaya meM bhagavAna khar3e kie haiM aura apane dukha meM mUjhAtayAM gar3ha lI haiM, aura apanI pIr3A meM kisI kA sahArA khojane ke lie AkAza meM AkAra nirmita kara lie haiN| inase kucha bhI na hogaa| aSTAvakra yA buddha yA kapila tumase isa taraha kI bAteM karane ko nahIM khte| to kahate haiM, jo ho sakatA hai vaha eka bAta hai ki tumhAre bhItara caitanya hai, itanA to pakkA hai; nahIM to dukha kA patA kaise calatA ? dukha kA jise patA cala rahA hai usa caitanya ko aura nikhAro, sApha-sutharA karo! kUr3e-karkaTa se alaga kro| usako prajvalita karo, jalAo ki vaha eka mazAla bana jaae| usI mazAla meM mukti hai| AkhirI savAla - aura AkhirI savAla savAla nahIM hai : ekaTi namaskAre prabhu, ekaTi namaskAre! sakala deha lUTie paDUka tomAra e saMsAre ghana zrAvaNa meghera mato rasera bhAre nama nata ekaTi namaskAre prabhu, ekaTi namaskAre! samasta mana paDiyA thAka, tava bhavana -dvAre nAnA sarera Akala dhArA milie die AtmahArA kaTi namaskAre prabhu, ekaTi namaskAre! samasta gAna samApta hoka, nIrava pArAvAre haMsa yemana mAnasa - yAtrI temana sArA divasa - rAtri ekaTi namaskAre prabhu, ekaTi namaskAre!
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________________ rkhnaa| samasta prANa sTe calUka mahAmaraNa - pAre ! svAmI AnaMda sAgarera praNAma ! AnaMda sAgara ne nivedana kiyA hai, prazna to nahIM hai| lekina sArthaka paMktiyAM haiN| unheM smaraNa 'sakala deha lUTie paDUka, tomAra e saMsAre!' - tere isa saMsAra meM saba luTa gayA! aba to eka namaskAra hI bacA hai| 'ekaTi namaskAre prabhu, ekaTi namaskAre! sakala deha lUTie paDUka, tomAra e saMsAre ghana zrAvaNa - meghera mato' - aura jaise ASADha meM megha bhara jAte haiM jala se / 'rasera bhAre namra nata' .. - aura rasa se bhare hue jhuka jAte pRthvI para aura barasa jAte haiN| 'ekaTi namaskAre prabhu, ekaTi namaskAre!' - aisA maiM barasa jAUM tumhAre caraNoM meM jaise rasa se bhare hue megha barasa jAte haiN| 'samasta mana paDiyA thAka taba bhavana dvAre!' - aura tere bhavana ke para, basa itanI hI prArthanA hai| dvAra para sAre mana ko thakA kara tor3a DAlUM mana se mukta ho jAUM tere dvAra 'nAnA surera Akula dhArA milie die AtmahArA ekaTi namaskAre prabhu ekaTi namaskAre! samasta gAna samApta hoka nIrava pArAvAre!' - aisA ho ki mere saba gIta aba kho jAeM, kevala nIrava pArAvara bace! zUnya kA gIta zurU ho
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________________ tamana svarahIna ravahIna gIta zurU ho! samasta gAna samApta hoka nIrava pArAvAre!' -aba AkhirI gIta nIrava ho, binA kahe ho, binA zabdoM kA ho! aba mauna hI AkhirI gIta ho| haMsa yemana mAnasa-yAtrI temana sArA divs-raatri| -ye prANa to mAnasa-sarovara ke lie, mAna-sarovara ke lie ur3a rahe haiN| ye prANa to haMsa jaise haiM jo apane ghara ke lie taDUpha rahe haiN| haMsa yemana mAnasa-yAtrI temana sArA divs-raatri| -aharniza basa eka hI prArthanA hai ki kaise usa zUnya meM, kaise usa mahAvirATa meM, kaise usa mAnasarovara meM isa haMsa kI vApisI ho jAe! kaise ghara puna: mile! ekaTi namaskAre prabhu phITa namaskAre! samasta prANa ur3e calUka mhaamrnn-paare|| -aisA kucha ho ki sAre prANa aba isa janma aura mRtyu ko chor3a kara, janma aura mRtyu ke jo atIta hai usa tarapha ur3a cleN| aisI basa eka namaskAra zeSa raha jAe! basa, aisI eka prArthanA zeSa raha jAe aura meghoM kI bhAMti tumhAre prANa jhuka jAeM anaMta ke caraNoM meM to saba prasAda-rUpa phalita ho jAtA hai, ghaTa jAtA hai| tuma jhuko ki saba ho jAtA hai| tuma akar3e khar3e raho ki vaMcita raha jAte ho| tumhAre kie, tumhArI asmitA aura ahaMkAra se, aura tumhAre saMkalpa se, daur3a-dhUpa hI hogii| tumhAre samarpaNa se, tumhAre visarjana se, tumhAre DUba jAne se mahAprasAda utregaa| tuma jhuko| 'rasera bhAre namra nata ghana zrAvaNa-meghera mato ekaTi namaskAre prabhu ekaTi namaskAre! samasta mana paDiyA thAka samasta gAna samApta hoka samasta prANa ur3e calUka mahAmaraNa-pAre!' jIvana kA parama satya mRtyu ke pAra hai| jIvana kA parama satya vahIM hai jahAM tuma miTate ho| tumhArI
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________________ mRtyu hI samAdhi hai| aura tumhArA na ho jAnA hI prabhu kA honA hai| jaba taka tuma ho prabhu rukA, attkaa| tuma dIvAla ho| tuma miTe ki dvAra khulA! sIkho miTanA! aura miTane ke do hI upAya haiM yA to sAkSI bana jAo-jo ki aSTAvakra, kapila, kRSNamUrti, buddha inakA upAya hai; yA prema meM DUba jAo-jo ki mIrA, caitanya, jIsasa, mohammada, inakA mArga hai| donoM hI mArga le jAte haiM yA to bodha, yA bhkti| magara donoM mArga kA sAra-sUtra eka hI hai| bodha meM bhI tuma miTa jAte ho, kyoMki ahaMkAra sAkSI meM bacatA nahIM; aura prema meM bhI tuma miTa jAte ho, kyoMki prema meM ahaMkAra ke bacane kI koI saMbhAvanA nhiiN| to eka bAta sAra-nicor3a kI hai. ahaMkAra na rahe to paramAtmA pragaTa ho jAtA hai| hari oma tatsat!
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________________ dRSTi hI sRSTi hai-pravacana-AThavAM dinAMka: 3 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama puunaa| sUtraH janaka uvaac| mathyanantamahAmmodhau vizvayota itastataH! bhramati svAntavAtena na mmaaslshidhyaataa|| 74 / / mayyanantamahAmmodhau jagavIci svbhaavtH| udeta vAstamAyAta na me vRddhirna na ksstiH|| 7511 mayyanantamahAmmodhau vizva nAma viklpnaa| atizAnto nirAkAra etdevaahmaasthitH|| 7611 nAtmA bhAveSa no bhAvastatrAnante nirNjne| ityasaktousaha: zAnta etdevaahmaasthitaaH|| 7711 aho cinyAtramevAha mindrajAlopamaM jgt| ato mama kathaM kutra heyopaadeyklynaa|| 78 / / satya ko kahA nahIM jA sakatA, isIlie bAra-bAra kahanA par3atA hai| bAra-bAra kaha kara bhI patA calatA hai ki phira chUTa gyaa| phira chUTa gyaa| jo kahanA thA, vaha nahIM samA pAyA zabdoM meN| araba meM eka kahAvata hai ki pUrNa manuSya nahIM banAyA jA sktaa| isalie paramAtmA roja naye bacce paidA karatA jAtA hai| abhI bhI koziza kara rahA hai pUrNa manuSya ko banAne kI hArA nahIM, thakA nahIM, hatAza nahIM huA hai| ThIka vaisI hI sthiti satya ke saMbaMdha meM bhI hai| sanAtana se buddhapuruSa kahane kI ceSTA karate rahe haiN| hajAra-hajAra DhaMga se usa tarapha izArA kiyA hai, lekina phira bhI jo kahanA thA vaha anakahA raha gayA hai| use kahA hI nahIM jA sakatA hai| svabhAva se hI zabda meM baMdhane kI koI saMbhAvanA nahIM hai| jaise koI muTThI meM AkAza ko nahIM bhara le sktaa|
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________________ eka Azcarya kI bAta dekhI ! muTThI bAMdho to AkAza bAhara raha jAtA hai; muTThI khola do to AkAza muTThI meM hotA hai| khulI muTThI meM to hotA hai baMdhI muTThI meM kho jAtA hai| to mauna meM to satya hotA hai, zabda meM kho jAtA hai| zabda to baMdhI muTThI hai; mauna khulA hAtha hai| lekina phira bhI buddhapuruSa kahane kI ceSTA karate hai-karuNAvazAMta aura zubha hai ki ceSTA jArI hai| satya bhalA na kahA jA sake, lekina satya ko kahane kI jo ceSTA hai vaha calatI rahanI cAhie; kyoMki usI ceSTA meM bahuta-se soye vyakti jAga haiN| suna kara satya milatA bhI nahIM, lekina suna-suna kara pyAsa to jaga jAtI hai; satya kI khoja kI AkAMkSA to prajvalita ho jAtI hai| maiM tumase kaha rahA hUM jo kucha jAna kara kaha rahA hUM ki tuma taka nahIM phuNcegaa| lekina phira bhI jo maiM kahUMgA vaha bhalA na pahuMce tumhAre jIvana ke bhItara chipI huI agni meM ghI kA kAma karegA agni prajvalita hogii| satya tumheM mile na mile, lekina tumhAre bhItara soI huI agni ko IMdhana milegaa| isI AzA meM sAre zAstroM kA janma huA hai| lekina agara tuma satya ko pakar3ane kI ceSTA meM zabda meM ulajha jAo to cUka gye| jaise ki koI gIta to kaMThastha kara le aura gIta ke bhItara chipA huA artha bhUla jaae| toto ko dekhA ! yAda kara lete haiN| rAma-rAma raTane lagate haiN| bhajana bhI doharA dete haiN| tuma zabda sIkha le sakate ho| suMdara zabda upalabdha haiN| aura tumheM aisI bhrAMti bhI ho sakatI hai ki jaba zabda A gayA to satya bhI A gayA hogaa| zabda to kevala khAlI maMjUSA hai| satya to AtA nahIM, isalie zabda ko kabhI bhUla kara satya mata samajha lenA aura zAstra ko sira para mata DhonA / aSTAvakra kI yaha mahAgItA hai| isase zuddhatama vaktavya satya kA kabhI nahIM diyA gayA aura kabhI diyA bhI nahIM jA sktaa| phira bhI tumheM yAda dilA dUM ina zabdoM meM mata ulajha jaanaa| ye zabda khAlI haiN| ye bar3e pyAre haiM - isalie nahIM ki inameM satya hai; ye bar3e pyAre haiM, kyoMki jisa AdamI se nikale haiM usake bhItara satya rahA hogA, ye bar3e pyAre haiM, kyoMki jisa hRdaya se umage haiM, jahAM se uThe haiM, vahAM satya kA AvAsa rahA hogaa| sadaguru ke pAsa yA sadavacanoM ke sAnnidhya meM kucha aisI ghaTanA ghaTatI hai, jaise subaha kuhAsA ghirA ho aura tuma ghUmane gaye ho, to ekadama bhIga nahIM jAte; koI varSA to ho nahIM rahI hai ki tuma bhIga jAo; lekina agara ghUmate hI rahe, ghUmate hI rahe, to vastra dhIre- dhIre Ardra ho jAte haiN| varSA ho bhI nahIM rahI ki tuma bhIga jAo, ki tara-batara ho jAo; lekina kuhAse meM agara ghUmane gaye ho to ghara lauTa kara pAoge ki vastra thor3e gIle ho gye| satsaMga meM aisA hI gIlApana AtA, ArdratA AtI; varSA nahIM ho jaatii| lekina agara tuma zAstra ke zuddha vacanoM ko zAMti se sunate rahe aura zabdoM meM na ulajhe, to kuhAse kI taraha zabdoM ke AsapAsa lipaTI huI jo gaMdha AtI hai vaha tumheM sugaMdhita kara jAyegI, aura tumheM prajvalita kara jAyegI; tumhAre bhItara kI mazAla ko IMdhana bana jaayegii| kavi ne gIta likhe naye-naye bAra-bAra para usI eka viSaya ko detA rahA vistAra
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________________ jise kabhI pUrA pakar3a pAyA nahIM, jo kabhI kisI gIta meM samAyA nahIM kisI eka gIta meM vaha aTa gayA dikhatA to kavi dUsarA gIta hI kyoM likhatA? tumheM bahuta bAra lagegA aSTAvakra vahI kahe jAte haiM janaka vahI doharAe cale jAte haiN| kavi ne gIta likhe naye-naye bAra-bAra para usI eka viSaya ko detA rahA vistArajise kabhI pUrA pakaDa pAyA nahIM jo kabhI kisI gIta meM samAyA nahIM eka gIta hAra jAtA, kavi dUsarA gIta racatA hai| lekina jo usane pahale gIta meM gAnA cAhA thA vahI vaha dUsare gIta meM gAnA cAhatA hai| vinseMTa vAnagAga ko kisI ne pUchA ki tumane apane jIvana meM kitane citra banAye haiM? usane kahA ki banAye to bahuta, lekina banAnA eka hI cAhatA thaa| ThIka khaa| usa eka ko banAne kI ceSTA meM bahuta bane aura vaha eka hamezA raha jAtA hai, vaha bana nahIM pAtA hai| ravIMdranAtha maraNa-zaiyA para the| unakI AMkhoM se AMsU Tapakate dekha kara unake eka mitra ne kahA, Apa, aura rote haiM? are dhanyavAda do! prabhu ne tumheM saba kucha diyaa| tumase bar3A mahAkavi nahIM huaa| tumane chaha hajAra gIta likhe jo saMgIta meM baMdha sakate haiN| pazcima meM zailI kI bar3I khyAti hai; usane bhI do hajAra hI gIta likhe haiM jo saMgIta meM baMdha jaaeN| tumane chaha hajAra likhe| aura kyA cAhate ho? aba kisalie rote ho? aba to zAMti se vidA ho jaao| ravIMdranAtha haMsane lge| unhoMne kahA, isalie rotA bhI nhiiN| idhara prabhu se nivedana kara rahA thA bhItara-bhItara, AMkha meM AMsU A gye| nivedana kara rahA thA, yaha bhI kaisA majAka hai! abhI to maiM sAja biThA pAyA thaa| abhI gIta gAyA kahAM? abhI to sAja biThA pAyA thaa| aura yaha vidA kI belA A gii| yaha kaisA anyAya hai? ye chaha hajAra gIta jo maiMne gAye, yaha to sirpha sAja kA biThAnA thaa| __ jaise tumane dekhA, tabalacI tabale ko ThoMkatA-pITatA, vINAkAra vINA ko kstaa| usa vINA ko kasane se jo AvAja nikalatI hai, tAroM ko khIMcane se, jAMcane se jo AvAja nikalatI hai, use saMgIta mata samajha lenA; vaha to kevala abhI Ayojana kiyA jA rahA hai| ravIMdranAtha ne kahA, abhI to Ayojana pUrA hone ko AyA thaa| aba maiM gA sakatA thA, aisA lagatA thA, aura yaha vidA hone kA vakta A gayA, yaha kaisA anyAya hai? jinhoMne bhI kucha kahane kI koziza kI hai, sabhI kA yahI anubhava hai| jo gAnA hai, vaha anagAyA raha jAtA hai| jo kahanA hai, anakahA chUTa jAtA hai| phira dUsarI tarapha se ceSTA hotI hai ki calo, isa AyAma se nahIM huA, dUsare AyAma se ho
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________________ jAegA; ye zabda kAma na Aye, koI aura zabda kAma A jAyeMge; isase na jala sakA dIyA, kisI aura bAta se jala jaaegaa| lekina dIyA jala sakatA nahIM, kyoMki zabda aura satya kA milana hotA nahIM / phira bhI, agara tumane zAMti se sunA, tumane agara pIyA, to zabda to kho jAegA, lekina zabda ke pAsa kuhAse kI taraha jo AbhAmaMDala thA, vaha tumhAre bhItara kI agni ko prajvalita kara degA, tuma pyAse ho jAoge / janaka ke Aja ke sUtra, pIche jo sUtra the unhIM ke silasile meM haiM, unhIM kI kramabaddhatA meM haiN| pIche ke cAra sUtra bar3e krAMtikArI the| aba unhIM kA vistAra hai| aura vastutaH, pUrI mahAgItA meM unhIM kA vistAra hogaa| una cAra sUtroM meM jo maulika bAta thI vaha itanI hI thI ki aSTAvakra ne kahA hai janaka ko ki aba tU jJAna ko upalabdha ho jaa| aura janaka kahate haiM, jJAna ko upalabdha ho jAUM? yaha bhI Apa kaisI bAta kaha rahe haiM? jJAna ko upalabdha ho gayA hUM! yaha Apa kaisI bAta kara rahe haiM ki jJAna ko upalabdha ho jAo, jaise ki jJAna mujhase kucha bhinna ho ! merA svabhAva, merA bodha hai| iti jJAnaM! yahI jJAna hai| yaha jo sAkSI kA anubhava ho rahA hai, yahI jJAna hai| 'ho jAo' meM to aisA lagatA hai bhaviSya meM hogaa| 'ho jAo' meM to aisA lagatA hai, kucha sAdhana karanA par3egA, vidhAna karanA par3egA, anuSThAna karanA pdd'egaa| 'ho jAo' meM to aisA lagatA hai yAtrA karanI hogI; maMjila bhaviSya meM hai, mArga taya karanA hogaa| janaka ne kahA, nahIM-nahIM! Apa mujhe ulajhAne kI koziza mata kareM aura Apa mujhe aise pralobhana na deN| ho gayA hai, ghaTa gayA hai| aura jaba kaha rahe haiM ki ghaTa gayA hai to isakA yaha artha nahIM hai pahale nahIM ghaTA thA, aba ghaTA hai| isakA itanA artha hai ki ghaTA to sadA hI se thA, mujhe hI bodha thA, mujhe smaraNa na thaa| saMpatti to mujhameM par3I thI; maiM udhara AMkha ko na le gayA; maiM kahIM aura khojatA rhaa| milane meM koI ar3acana na thI, merI galata khoja hI ar3acana thI / aisA nahIM thA ki merA zrama pUrA nahIM thA, merI sAdhanA pUrI nahIM thI, yA mere sAdhana adhUre the, yA maiMne pUrI jIvana-UrjA ko dAva para na lagAyA thA-aisA nahIM thaa| sirpha jahAM mujhe dekhanA thA vahAM maiMne nahIM dekhA thaa| maiMne apane bhItara nahIM dekhA thaa| khojane vAle ne khojane vAle meM nahIM dekhA thA, kahIM aura khoja rahA thaa| dekhA bhItara, ho gyaa| 'ho gayA', kahanA par3atA hai bhASA meM; kahanA to aisA cAhie. vahI ho gayA jo sadA se thaa| buddha ko jJAna huA to buddha se kisI ne pUchA kyA milA? buddha ne kahA, milA kucha bhI nhiiN| jo milA hI huA thA, usakA patA claa| jo milA hI huA thA, jise khone kA koI upAya hI nahIM hai! aSTAvakra bar3e prasanna ho rahe hoMge suna kara janaka ke uttr| zAyada hI kabhI kisI ziSya ne guru kI AkAMkSA ko isa paripUrNatA se pUrA kiyA hai| kyoMki ziSya kI utsukatA to hone meM hotI hai meM hotI hai, vikasita hone meM, samRddha hone meM, jJAnavAna hone meM, zaktisaMpanna hone meM, siddhi pAne meN| aSTAvakra bar3e praphullita hue hoNge| unakA mana bahuta magna huA hogaa| kyoMki jo janaka kaha rahe the vahI aSTAvakra sunanA cAhate the|
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________________ tere husne - javAba se AI mere lI savAla kI khuzabU / jarUra janaka ke javAba meM apane savAla kI AtyaMtika sugaMdha ko aSTAvakra ne anubhava kiyA hogaa| idhara bhItara to vaha praphullita ho rahe hoMge, lekina bAhara unhoMne rukha bar3e kaThora banA rakhA hai| bAhara to parIkSaka haiN| bAhara to AMkheM jAMca rahI haiN| painI dhAra AMkhoM kI janaka ke hRdaya ko kATa rahI hai| guru ko kaThora honA hI cAhie - yahI usakI karuNA hai| vaha to AtyaMtika sthiti meM hI kahegA ki ThIka, usake pahale nhiiN| jaba taka jarA-sI bhI saMbhAvanA hai bhUla- bhaTaka kI, taba taka vaha kurede jAegA, taba taka vaha kATe jAegA, taba taka vaha aura upAya karegA ki tuma phaMsa jAo, aura upAya karegA ki kahIM tumase bhUla-cUka ho jaae| janaka ne kahA 'mujha aMtahIna mahAsamudra meM, vizva - rUpI nAva apanI hI prakRta vAyu DolatI hai| mujhe asahiSNutA nahIM hai| ' idhara-udhara yaha sUtra itanA sarala mAlUma hotA hai, lekina bar3A gahana hai ! isameM utarane kI koziza kro| khUba dhyAna se sunoge to hI utara skoge| isa sUtra kA yaha artha huA ki dukha Ae cAhe sukha donoM hI prakRti se utpanna ho rahe haiN| mere cunAva kI suvidhA kahAM hai mujhase pUchatA kauna hai! jaise samudra meM lahareM uTha rahI haiM-choTI lahareM, bar3I lahareM, acchI lahareM, burI lahareM suMdara, kurUpa lahareM - yaha samudra kA svabhAva hai ki ye lahareM uThatI haiN| aise hI mujha meM lahareM uThatI haiM- sukha kI, dukha kI; prema kI, ghRNA kI; krodha kI, karuNA kii| ye svabhAva se hI uThatI haiM aura idhara-udhara DolatI haiN| isameM maiMne cunAva nahIM kiyA hai, cunAva chor3a diyA hai| aura jaba se cunAva chor3A tabhI se asahiSNutA bhI calI gaI / karane ko hI kucha nahIM hai to asahiSNutA kaise ho? mere pAsa loga Ate haiM, ve kahate haiM ki kisI taraha azAMti ke bAhara nikAla leN| maiM unase kahatA hUM tuma 'azAMti ko svIkAra kara lo| ekadama unheM samajha meM nahIM AtA, kyoMki ve Ae haiM azAMti ko chodd'ne| maiM unase kahatA hUM, azAMti ko svIkAra kara lo| unake Ane kA kAraNa bilakula bhinna hai| ve cAhate haiM ki koI azAMti se chur3A de| koI vidhi hogI, koI upAya hogA, koI auSadhi hogI, koI maMtra-taMtra, kucha yajJa-havana - kucha hogA, jisase azAMti chUTa jaaegii| aura duniyA meM sau guruoM meM ninyAnabe aise haiM ki tuma jAoge to ve jarUra tumheM kucha kaha deMge ki yaha karo to azAMti chUTa jaaegii| merI ar3acana yaha hai ki maiM jAnatA hUM azAMti ko chor3ane kA koI upAya hI nahIM hai - svIkAra karane kA upAya hai| aura svIkAra karane meM azAMti visarjita ho jAtI hai| maiM jaba kahatA hUM azAMti visarjita ho jAtI hai to tuma yaha mata samajhanA ki azAMti chUTa jAtI hai| azAMti hotI rahe yA na hotI rahe, tuma azAMti se chUTa jAte ho| tumase azAMti chUTe yA na chUTe, tuma azAMti se chUTa jAte ho| isa mana kI vyavasthA ko smjheN| mana azAMta hai, tuma kahate ho zAMta honA caahie| mana to azAMta thA, eka aura naI azAMti tumane jor3I ki aba zAMta honA caahie| mana kI azAMti ko smjho|
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________________ tumhAre pAsa dasa hajAra rupaye haiM, tuma dasa lAkha cAhate the, isalie mana azAMta hai| jitanA hai usase tuma tRpta na the| jo nahIM hai vaha tuma mAMga rahe the| 'nahIM' kI mAMga se azAMti aaii| azAMti AtI hai abhAva se| jo hai, usase azAMti kabhI nahIM AtI hai; jo nahIM hai, usakI mAMga se AtI hai| jo patnI tumhArI hai, usase suMdara caahie| jo pati tumhArA hai, usase jyAdA yazasvI caahie| jo beTA tumhArA hai, usase jyAdA buddhimAna caahie| jaisA makAna hai, usase bar3A caahie| jitanI tumhArI pratiSThA hai, usase gaharI caahie| jo pada tumhAre pAsa hai, usase Age kA pada caahie| azAMti AtI hai usakI mAMga se jo tumhAre pAsa nahIM hai| phira, jaba tuma azAMta ho gae to aba tuma eka aura naI bAta mAMganA zurU karate ho-purAnA jAla to kAyama hai aura usI jAla kA gaNita aura phailatA hai-aba tuma kahate ho, mujhe zAMti caahie| aba zAMti nahIM hai tumhAre pAsa, aba tumheM zAMti caahie| tuma samajhe? isakA matalaba huA ki aba jAla aura bhI jaTila ho jaaegaa| jo AdamI sAdhAraNata: azAMta hai aura zAMti kI jhaMjhaTa meM nahIM par3A hai, vaha usa AdamI se jyAdA zAMta hotA hai jo zAMta honA cAhane kI jhaMjhaTa meM par3a gayA hai| yaha eka aura upadrava huaa| azAMta to tuma the hI, tarka thA ki jo nahIM hai vaha honA cAhie; aba zAMti nahIM hai, zAMti honA caahie| eka aura naI jhaMjhaTa zurU huii| jo tathAkathita dhArmika loga haiM, unase jyAdA azAMta vyakti tuma dUsare na paaoge| sAMsArika vyakti utane azAMta nahIM haiN| maMdiroM meM, masjidoM meM jhuke loga, pUjAgRhoM meM baiThe loga, tapazcaryA upavAsa karate loga tumheM jitane azAMta dikhAI par3eMge utane tumheM sAdhAraNa loga, hoTaloM meM baiThe, cAya pIte, akhabAra par3hate, utane azAMta na dikhAI pdd'eNge| kama se kama unake pAsa eka hI azAMti hai-ve saMsAra meM kucha pAnA cAhate haiN| dhArmika vyakti ke pAsa doharI azAMti hai-vaha paraloka meM bhI kucha pAga cAhatA hai| na kevala paraloka meM kucha pAnA cAhatA hai, yahAM bhI zAMti pAnA cAhatA hai, AnaMda pAnA cAhatA hai, dhyAna pAnA cAhatA hai| aura sArA jAla itanA hI hai ki tuma agara kucha pAnA cAhate ho to tuma aura azAMta hote jaaoge| ___ maiM kahatA hUM-jaba koI zAMti kI khoja meM AtA ki tuma azAMti ko svIkAra kara lo| use samajhAtA huuN| kabhI-kabhI usakI samajha meM bhI A jAtA hai| yaha bAta kaThina hai : 'azAMti ko svIkAra kara lo! to phira zAMta kaise hoMge?' tumhArI bAta bhI merI samajha meM AtI hai| lekina maiM tumase kahatA hUM. jaba bhI koI zAMta huA hai, azAMti ko svIkAra karake huA hai| suna kara mujhe samajha kara mujhe koI rAjI ho jAtA hai ki ' acchA, to svIkAra kara lete haiM; phira zAMta ho jAeMge? svIkAra kara lete haiM, phira zAMta ho jAeMge? kaba taka zAMta hoMge? calo svIkAra kara lete haiN| to maiM unase kahatA hUM yaha tumane svIkAra kiyA hI nhiiN| abhI bhI tumhArI mAMga to kAyama hai ki zAMta honA hai| svIkAra karane kA artha hai. jaisA hai, vaisA hai; anyathA ho nahIM sktaa| jaisA hai, vaisA hI hogaa| jaisA huA hai, vaisA hI hotA rahA jaba tuma isa bhAMti svIkAra kara lete ho to pIche yaha prazna khar3A nahIM hotA ki svIkAra karane
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________________ se hama zAMta ho jAeMge? aura zAMti usI ghaTanA kI sthiti hai, jaba jo hai svIkAra hai| phira kaise azAMta hooge batAo mujhe? phira kyA upAya hai azAMta hone kA ? jo hai, jaisA hai - svIkAra hai / phira tumheM kauna azAMta kara sakegA, kaise azAMta kara sakegA? phira to agara azAMti bhI hogI to svIkAra hai| phira to dukha bhI AegA to svIkAra hai| phira to mauta bhI AegI to svIkAra hai| tumane cunAva chor3a diyA, tumane saMkalpa chor3a diyA, tuma samarpita ho gye| tumane kahA, aba jo hai vahI hai| aura usI dina vaha mahAkrAMti ghaTatI hai jisakA isa sUtra meM iMgita hai| mayi anaMta mahAmbhodhau vizvapota itastataH / 'mujha aMtahIna mahAsamudra meM vizva - rUpI nAva apanI hI prakRta vAyu se idhara-udhara DolatI hai| 'bhramati svAntavAtena na mama asti asahiSNutA aba maiM jAna gayA ki yaha svabhAva hI hai| koI mere viparIta mere pIche nahIM par3A hai| koI merA zatru nahIM hai jo mujhe azAMta kara rahA hai| ye mere hI svabhAva kI taraMgeM haiN| yaha maiM hI huuN| yaha mere hone kA DhaMga hai ki kabhI isameM lahareM uThatI haiM, kabhI lahareM nahIM uThatIM; kabhI saba zAMta ho jAtA hai, kabhI saba azAMta ho jAtA hai| yaha maiM hI hUM aura yaha merA svabhAva hai| eka mitra ne pUchA ki Apa kahate haiM, AtmA jaba mukta ho jAegI taba paripUrNa AnaMda meM hogI, svataMtra hogI, lekina kyA phira AtmA meM vAsanA nahIM uTha sakatI? aura agara vAsanA phira nahIM uTha sakatI to pahale hI vAsanA kyoM uThI? kyoMki AtmA to svabhAva se hI svataMtra hai, zuddha - buddha hai| pahale se hI vAsanA kyoM uThI? una mitra ko... unakA prazna bilakula svAbhAvika hai, tarkayukta hai / unako yaha khayAla meM nahIM A rahA ki vAsanA kA uThanA bhI AtmA kI svataMtratA kA hissA hai| yaha kisI ne uThA nahIM dI tummeN| yaha tumhArA svabhAva hai| vAsanA bhI uThatI hai tumhAre svabhAva meM aura mokSa bhI uThatA hai tumhAre svabhAva meN| jaba vAsanA uThatI hai to tuma saMsArI ho jAte ho| jaba vAsanA uThatI hai to tuma deha meM praveza kara jAte ho| jaba vAsanA se thaka jAte ho to mukta ho jAte ho| magara donoM tumhAre hI svabhAva haiN| aisA nahIM hai ki vAsanA koI zaitAna tuma meM DAla rahA hai aura mokSa tuma lAoge / vAsanA bhI tumhArI mokSa bhI tumhaaraa| aura jisane aisA samajha liyA, use eka bAta khayAla meM A jAegI ki agara AtmA meM vAsanA na uTha sake to vaha AtmA mukta hI nhiiN| kyoMki mukti aisI kyA mukti huI agara tumheM svarga jAne kI hI mukti ho aura naraka jAne ke lie daravAje hI baMda hoM aura jA hI na sako, to yaha mukta koI pUrI mukti na huii| yaha svarga bhI bemajA ho jaaegaa| isakA bhI svAda kho jaaegaa| muMha kar3avAhaTa se bhara jAegA svarga meM jA kara / svarga kA majA hI yaha hai ki naraka jAne kI bhI suvidhA hai| sukha kA majA yahI hai ki dukhI hone kI suvidhA hai| viparIta ke kAraNa hI jIvana meM sArA raMga sArA saMgIta hai| agara viparIta na ho to saba saMgIta kho jaae| vINAvAdaka aMguliyoM se tAra ko cheDatA hai to saMgIta hai| aMguliyoM aura tAra meM jo saMgharSa hotA hai vahI saMgIta hai| saMgharSa baMda ho jAe, saMgIta zUnya ho jAe, saMgIta kho jAe /
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________________ strI aura puruSa ke bIca jo viparItatA hai, vahI prema hai| agara viparItatA samApta ho jAe, prema vidA ho jAe / saMsAra aura mokSa ke bIca jo vikalpa hai, vahI svataMtratA hai| svataMtratA kA matalaba yaha hai ki agara maiM cAhUM to maiM naraka kI AkhirI parata taka jA sktaa| koI mujhe rokane vAlA nahIM / aura agara maiM cAhUM to svarga kI saba UMcAiyAM merI haiM, mujhe koI rokane vAlA nhiiN| yaha merA nirNaya hai| aura ye donoM mere svabhAva haiN| naraka merI hI nimnatama dazA hai, svarga merI hI uccatama dazA hai| samajho ki naraka mere paira haiM aura svarga merA sira hai| magara donoM mere haiM aura bhItara merA khUna donoM ko jor3e hue hai| bhramati svAntavAtena.. I apanI hI havA hai, usI se bhrama paidA ho rahA hai| DAvAMDola hotI naukA | 'mujha aMtahIna mahAsamudra meM vizvarUpI nAva apanI hI prakRta vAyu se idhara-udhara DolatI hai| mujhe asahiSNutA nahIM hai / kahate haiM, aba maiM cunAva nahIM karanA cAhatA / maiM yaha nahIM cAhatA ki nAva na Dole, kyoMki vaha merA AkarSaNa ki nAva na Dole, mere mana kA tanAva banegA / jaba bhI tumane kucha cAhA, jaba bhI tumane kucha cAha kI tanAva paidA huaa| jaba bhI tumane svIkAra kiyA, jo hai, tabhI tanAva kho gyaa| agara tumane cAhA ki ajJAna haTe aura jJAna Ae - upadrava zurU huaa| agara tumane cAhA ki vAsanA miTe, nirvAsanA Ae - paDe tuma jhaMjhaTa meM! agara tumane cAhA saMsAra se mukta ho, mokSa bane merA sAmrAjya - aba tumane eka taraha kI parezAnI mola lI, jo tumheM caina na degii| bAta kaha rahe haiN| janaka kaha rahe haiM: saMsAra aura mokSa donoM hI mujhameM uThatI taraMgeM haiN| aba maiM cunAva nahIM karatA, jo taraMga uThatI hai, dekhatA rahatA hUM / yaha bhI merI hai| yaha bhI svAbhAvika bar3I hai| dekhA isa svIkAra - bhAva ko ! phira kaisI asahiSNutA ? phira to sahiSNutA bilakula hI naisargika hogii| jo ho rahA hai, ho rahA hai| bar3I kaThina hai yaha bAta svIkAra karanI, kyoMki ahaMkAra ke bar3e viparIta hai| koI mere pAsa AyA aura kahane lagA, maiM mahAkrodhI hUM, mujhe krodha se mukta honA hai| maiMne usase pUchA ki tU mahAkrodhI kyoM hai? isako thor3A samajha / ahaMkAra ke kAraNa hogaa| usane kahA, Apa ThIka kahate haiN| aura maiMne kahA, usI ahaMkAra ke kAraNa tU kahatA hai ki mujhe krodha se bAhara honA hai, kyoMki krodha ke kAraNa ahaMkAra ko coTa lagatI hai| to krodha ke pIche bhI ahaMkAra hai aura akrodhI banane ke pIche bhI ahaMkAra hai / jaba bhI tU krodha karatA hai to terI pratimA nIce giratI hai, tere ahaMkAra ko bhAtA nahIM hai| tU cAhatA hai ki loga tujhe saMta kI taraha pUrje, caraNa chue tere / tere krodha ke kAraNa vaha saba gar3abar3a ho jAtA hai| tere koI caraNa nahIM chUtA / caraNa kauna tere chue ? namaskAra kauna kare tujhe? to aba tU cAhatA hai ki krodha se kaise chuutteN| lekina mUla jar3a to vahI kI vahI hai| jisake kAraNa tU krodha karatA thA - jisa ahaMkAra ke kAraNa - vahI ahaMkAra aba saMta- mahAtmA
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________________ bana jAnA cAhatA hai| ise samajha aura aba tU cunAva chor3a de| maiM tujhase kahatA hUM? tU krodhI hai, tU rAjI ho jA. ThIka hai, maiM krodhI huuN| aura krodha ke jo pariNAma haiM ve hoNge| koI tujhe sammAna nahIM degA, ThIka hai, bilakula ThIka hai| sammAna denA hI kyoM caahie| koI terA apamAna karegA, ThIka hai| krodhI hUM isalie apamAna hotA hai| samajhane kI koziza krnaa| agara yaha vyakti krodha ko samajha le, svIkAra kara le to kyA krodha bacegA? usa vyakti ne do dina pahale mujhe patra likhA thA ki mujhe aba bacAeM, mujhe bAhara nikAleM kyoMki maiM vezyA ke ghara jAne lagA hUM aura ye aura loga mujhe saMta mAnate haiM sAdhu mAnate haiN| aura agara maiM pakar3A gayA yA kisI ko patA cala gayA to phira kyA hogA? dekhate haiM, vahI ahaMkAra nae-nae rUpa legA! vahI ahaMkAra vezyA ke ghara le jaaegaa| vahI ahaMkAra saMta banane kI AkAMkSA paidA karavA degaa| usa vyakti ko maiMne kahA, tU eka kAma kr| yA to tU svIkAra kara le ki tU vezyAgAmI hai aura ghoSaNA kara de ki maiM vezyAgAmI huuN| bAta khatma ho gii| phira na tujhe Dara rahegA na bhaya rahA, phira tujhe jAnA hai jA, nahIM jAnA hai na jaa| terI marjI hai| tere lie zAyada abhI yahI ucita hogA. jo ho rahA hai ThIka ho rahA hai| maiM tujhe nahIM kahatA ki mata jaa| agara isa svIkAra- bhAva se yaha gira jAe vRtti to ThIka, to tU jAga jaaegaa| taba jAgaraNa ko svIkAra kara lenA, abhI sone ko svIkAra kr| aura svIkAra ke mAdhyama se hI sone aura jAgaraNa ke bIca setu banatA hai| kyA kiyA usa vyakti ne? vaha cIkhA, mere sAmane hI cillAyA ki mujhe buddha banane se koI bhI nahIM roka sakatA! itane jora se cIkhA ki zIlA mere pAsa baiThI thI, vaha ekadama kaipa gii| vahI krodha, vahI ahaMkAra nae-nae rUpa le letA hai| aba buddha banane se koI nahIM roka sakatA! jaise ki maiM usako buddha banane se roka rahA hUM kyoMki maiMne usase kahA, svIkAra kara le| jo ho rahA hai, svIkAra kara le! jaisA hai svIkAra kara le| yaha bAta coTa kara gii| yaha kaise svIkAra kara leM! burA se burA AdamI bhI yaha svIkAra nahIM karatA ki maiM burA huuN| itanA hI mAnatA hai ki kucha burAI mujhameM hai hUM to maiM AdamI acchA| dekho, acchA hone kI koziza meM lagA huuN| pUjA karatA prArthanA karatA, dhyAna karatA, sAdhu -satsaMga meM / jAtA-AdamI to maiM acchA hUM; jarA kamajorI hai, thor3I- thor3I burAI kabhI ho jAtI hai, miTa jAegI dhIre- dhIre! kabhI nahIM mittegii| kyoMki yaha acchAI tumhArI burAI ko chipAne kA upAya bhara hai| yaha sAdhu-satsaMga, tumhAre bhItara jo krodha par3A hai, usake lie Ai hai| ye acchI-acchI bAteM aura ye acchIacchI kalpanAeM ki kabhI to saMta ho jAUMgA, buddha banane se koI bhI mujhe roka nahIM sakatA-yaha ahaMkAra aba bar3I acchI ADU le rahA hai; bar3e suMdara parde meM chipa rahA hai-buddha hone kA pardA! agara mana ko tuma ThIka se dekhoge to janaka kI bAta kA mahatva samajha meM aaegaa| svIkAra
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________________ yaha bhI svAbhAvika hai, vaha bhI svAbhAvika hai| jo isa ghar3I ho rahA hai, usase anyathA maiM nahIM honA caahtaa| isa bAta kI krAMti ko samajhe? jo isa kSaNa ho rahA hai, vahI maiM hUM. krodha to krodha, lobha to lobha, kAma to kaam| isa kSaNa maiM jo hUM vahI maiM haM aura isase anyathA kI maiM koI mAMga nahIM karatA aura na anyathA kA koI AvaraNa khar3A karatA huuN| aksara acche-acche AdarzoM ke pIche tuma apane jIvana ke ghAva chipA lete ho| hiMsaka, ahiMsaka banane kI koziza meM lage rahate haiN| kabhI banate nahIM, bana sakate nhiiN| kyoMki ahiMsaka banane kA eka hI upAya hai-aura vaha hai : hiMsA ko paripUrNa rUpa se svIkAra kara lenaa| krodhI karuNA kI ceSTA karate rahate haiM kabhI nahIM bana skte| ho sakatA hai Upara-Upara AvaraNa or3ha leM, pAkhaMDa raca leM, lekina bana nahIM skte| kAmI brahmacarya kI ceSTA meM lage rahate haiN| jitanA kAmI puruSa hogA utanA hI brahmacarya meM AkarSita hotA hai| kyoMki brahmacarya ke Adarza meM hI chipA sakatA hai apanI kAmavAsanA kI kurUpatA ko, aura to koI upAya nhiiN| Aja to galata hai, kala acchA ho jAUMgA-isa AzA meM hI to Aja ko jI sakatA hai; nahIM to Aja hI jInA muzkila ho jaaegaa| maiM tumase kahatA hUM : kala hai hI nahIM; tuma jo Aja ho, vahI tuma ho| isako samagra- bhAvena, isako paripUrNatA se aMgIkAra kara lete hI tumhAre jIvana se vaMdva visarjita ho jAtA hai| tuma jo ho ho, anyathA ho nahIM sakate; dvaMdva kahAM? cunAva kahAM? jaise tuma ho, vaise ho| yahI tumhArA honA hai| prabhu ne tumheM aisA hI cAhA hai| isa ghar3I prabhu ko tumhAre bhItara aisI hI ghaTanA ghaTAne kIAkAMkSA hai| isa ghar3I samasta jIvana tumheM aisA hI dekhanA cAhatA hai| aise hI AdamI kI jarUrata hai| tumhAre bhItara yahI vidhi hai, yahI bhAgya hai| 'mujha aMtahIna mahAsamudra meM vizva-rUpI nAva apanI prakRta vAyu se idhara-udhara DolatI hai| ' kabhI krodha bana jAtI, kabhI karuNA bana jAtI; kabhI kAma, kabhI brahmacarya; kabhI lobha, kabhI dAna-idhara-udhara, itastata:! mujhe lekina asahiSNutA nahIM hai| maiM isase anyathA cAhatA nhiiN| isalie mujhe kucha karane ko nahIM bacA hai| gayA kRty| aba to maiM baiTha kara dekhatA hUM ki lahara kaisI uThatI hai| bhramati svaaNtvaaten.| bhaTaka rahI apanI hI havA se| na kahIM jAnA, nahIM mujhe kucha honaa| koI Adarza nahIM hai, koI lakSya nahIM hai| aba to maiM baiTha gyaa| aba to maiM mauja se dekhatA huuN| saba asahiSNutA kho gii| jaba tuma kahate ho maiM krodhI hUM aura mujhe akrodhI honA hai to isakA artha samajhe? tuma krodha ke kAraNa bahuta asahiSNu ho rahe ho| tuma krodha ko dhairya ke sAtha svIkAra nahIM kara he| tuma bar3e adhairya meM ho| tuma kahate ho, 'krodha aura maiM! mujha jaisA pavitra puruSa aura krodha kare -nahIM, yaha bAta jaMcatI nhiiN| mujhe krodha se chuTakArA cAhie! mujhe mukta honA hai! maiM upAya karUMgA, yama-niyama sAdhUMgA, Asana-vyAyAma karUMgA, dhAraNA - dhyAna karUMgA, mujhe lekina krodha se mukta honA hai!' tumane adhairya batA diyaa| tumane kaha diyA ki jo hai, tuma usake sAtha rAjI nahIM, tuma kucha aura cAhate ho| basa vahIM se tuma azAMta hone zurU hue|
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________________ asahiSNutA azAMti kA bIja hai| kaha rahe haiM. ye lahareM haiN| kabhI-kabhI krodha AtA, kabhI-kabhI kAma AtA, kabhI-kabhI lobha aataa| itastataH! yahAM-vahAM! svAMtavAtena! bhaTakatA saba kucha ! para maiM to dekhatA huuN| aba mujhe kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| aba merA koI bhI Agraha nahIM hai ki aisA ho jaauuN| maiM jaisA hUM, basa prasanna hUM | Adarza - mukti meM sahiSNutA hai| aura maiM kise saMnyAsI kahatA hUM? usI vyakti ko saMnyAsI kahatA hUM jisane AdarzoM kA tyAga kara diyaa| aba tuma jarA caukoge| tumane sadA yahI sunA hai ki jisane saMsAra kA tyAga kara diyA vahI saMnyAsI / maiM tumase kahatA hUM jisane AdarzoM kA tyAga kara diyA, vaha saMnyAsI / kyoMki Adarza ke tyAga ke bAda asahiSNu hone kA koI upAya nahIM raha jaataa| tuma jarA karake to dekho| eka mahInA shii| eka mahInA, tuma jo hai, use svIkAra kara lo| kisI ne kucha kahA, aura tuma krodhita ho gae - svIkAra kara lo| svIkAra karane kA matalaba yaha nahIM ki tuma siddha karo ki merA krodha ThIka hai| tuma itanA hI svIkAra kara lo ki maiM AdamI krodhI hUM / aura dUsare se kahanA ki bhaI krodhI se dostI banAI, to kAMTe to cubheNge| maiM AdamI krodhI hUM / ga tumhArI hai ki mujhase dostI banAI ki mujhase pahacAna kii| aba agara mere sAtha rahoge to krodha kabhI-kabhI hone vAlA hai| maiM tumheM yaha bhI vacana nahIM detA ki kala maiM akrodhI ho jaauuNgaa| kala kA kisako patA hai! jahAM taka maiM jAnatA hUM atIta meM kabhI bhI akrodhI nahIM rahA isalie bahuta saMbhAvanA to yahI hai ki kala bhI krodhI rhuuNgaa| tuma soca lo / maiM pazcAttApa bhI nahIM kara sakatA kyoMki pazcAttApa bahuta bAra kara cukA usase kucha hala nahIM hotA, vaha dhokhA siddha hotA hai| krodha kara letA hUM? pachatA letA hUM phira krodha karatA hUM / pazcAttApa kA kyA sAra hai tumase itanA hI kahatA hUM ki aba pazcAttApa kI lIpApotI bhI na kruuNgaa| T pazcAttApa kA matalaba hotA hai. lIpApotI / tuma kisI se krodhita ho gae, phira ghara lauTa kara Ae, tumane socA. 'yaha bhI kyA huA, bIca bAjAra meM bhadda karavA lI, loga kyA soceMge! aba taka sajjana samajhe jAte the| loga kahate the ki bar3e guru- gaMbhIra ! Aja saba uthalApana siddha ho gyaa| loga socate the svarNa-pAtra, alyumIniyama ke siddha hue jarA meM ekadama garamA gae / aba kucha karo, pratimA khaMDita ho gaI, auMdhe muMha par3I hai! uThAo, siMhAsana para phira bitthaao| ' phira tuma gae soca-vicAra kara kahA, kSamA karanA bhAI! maiM karanA nahIM cAhatA thA, ho gayA ! socate ho, kyA loga kahate haiM? loga kahate haiM- maiM karanA nahIM cAhatA thA, ho gayA ! mere bAvajUda ho gyaa| na mAlUma kaise ho gayA! kauna zaitAna mere sira car3ha gyaa| sunate ho logoM kI bAteM? aba khuda zaitAna haiM, yaha svIkAra na karane kA upAya kara rahe haiN| 'kauna zaitAna mere sira car3ha gyaa| kaisI durbuddhi ? lekina hoza AyA, pachatAne AyA hUM, kSamA krnaa| ' tuma kara kyA rahe ho? tuma yaha kara rahe ho ki vaha jo pratimA tumhArI bIca bAjAra meM khaMDita ho gaI, vaha jo gira par3I jamIna para use tuma uThA rahe ho| tuma kaha rahe ho ki maiM burA AdamI nahIM huuN| bhUla-cUka ho gii| bhUla-cUka kisase nahIM ho jAtI! AdamI bhUla-cUka karatA hI hai|
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________________ tumheM apane AdamI hone kI yAda hI taba AtI hai jaba tuma bhUla cUka karate ho| taba tuma kahate ho. TU irra ija jhuumn| bhUla-cUka karanA to AdamI hai| aura tumheM AdamI hone kI yAda nahIM AtI? kSamA mAMga kara yA usake caraNa chU kara vaha bhI socatA hai ki nahIM, AdamI to acchA hai| vaha bhI kyoM socatA hai ki AdamI acchA hai? krodha karake tumane usake ahaMkAra ko coTa pahuMcA dI thI to vaha nArAja thaa| aba tumane usake paira chU lie, phUla car3hA Ae, guladastA bheMTa kara aae| vaha bhI socatA hai ki AdamI to acchA hai| vaha kyoM socatA hai ? tumase use bhI kucha lenA-denA nahIM / na tumheM usase kucha lenA-denA hai| vaha socatA hai AdamI acchA hai, kyoMki aba tumane usake ahaMkAra para phUla rakha die / ghar3I bhara pahale cAMTA mAra Ae the to vaha tamatamA gayA thA, badalA lene kI soca rahA thA, adAlata meM jAne kI soca rahA thaa| tuma phUla rakha Ae jhaMjhaTa bcii| adAlata bhI bcii| pratiSThA tumheM milii| usakA ahaMkAra bhI pratiSThita ho gayA, tumhArA bhI pratiSThita ho gyaa| saMsAra phira vaisA hI cala par3A jaisA tumhAre cAMTA mArane ke pahale cala rahA thaa| phira jagaha para A gaIM cIjeM / phira vahIM ke vahIM khar3e ho gae jahAM the| nahIM, jisa vyakti ko vastutaH samajhanA ho, vaha jAegA - pazcAttApa karane nahIM, svIkAra krne| vaha jAegA kahane ki bhAI dekha liyA, AdamI maiM kaisA hUM? tumhArI dhAraNA mere prati galata thii| tuma jo socate the ki maiM AdamI acchA hUM vaha galata dhAraNA thii| merA asalI AdamI pragaTa ho gayA / aura acchA huA ki pragaTa ho gyaa| aba tuma soca lo . Age mujhase saMbaMdha rakhanA ki nahIM rkhnaa| maiM koI bharosA nahIM detA ki kala aisA phira na hogaa| maiM bharose - yogya nahIM huuN| maiM bharosA dUM bhI to bharosA rakhanA mata, kyoMki maiMne pahale logoM ko bharose die aura dhokhA diyaa| maiM AdamI burA hUM / zaitAniyata merA svabhAva hai| socate ho tuma isakA kyA pariNAma hogA? dUsare para kyA hogA, vaha dUsarA jAne, lekina tumhAre bhItara eka saralatA A jaaegii| tuma ekadama sarala ho jaaoge| tuma ekadama vinamra ho jaaoge| yaha pazcAttApa nahIM hai, yaha svIkAra - bhAva hai| tumane saba cIjeM sApha kara dIM apane bAbata, ki tuma AdamI kaise ho| aura tumane apane bAbata koI bhrama nahIM saMjoyA hai| aura taba eka krAMti ghaTita hotI hai| vaha krAMti ghaTatI hai svIkAra ke isa mahAsatya se, isa mahAsUtra se tuma acAnaka pAte ho ki dhIre- dhIre krodha muzkila ho gayA, aba krodha karane kA kAraNa kyA rahA? krodha to isalie ho jAtA thA ki koI tumhAre ahaMkAra ko girAne kI koziza kara rahA thA, to krodha ho jAtA thaa| aba to tumane khuda hI vaha pratimA girA dii| tuma to use khuda hI kacare -ghara meM pheMka aae| aba to koI tumheM krodhita kara nahIM sktaa| dhyAna rakhanA, hamArA mana sadA hotA hai jimmevArI dUsare para chor3a deN| hama saba yahI karate haiN| hajAra-hajAra upAya se hama yahI kAma karate haiM ki hama dUsare para jimmevArI chor3a dete haiN| eka AdamI ko maiM jAnatA hUM - mahAkrodhI / usase maiMne pUchA, itanA krodha kaise ho gayA hai? usane kahA, kyA karUM, merA bApa bar3A krodhI thaa| usakI vajaha se, bacapana se hI kusaMskAra par3a ge| magara yaha AdamI jo kaha rahA hai, haMsanA mt| phrAyaDa bhI yahI kaha rahA hai| bar3e se bar3e manovaijJAnika
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________________ bhI yahI kaha rahe haiN| sArA upAya yaha calatA hai ki kisI para haTA do jimmevArI / purAne dharma bhI yahI kahate the| agara tuma pUrI manuSya jAti kA itihAsa dekho to aSTAvakra yA janaka jaisI bAta ko kahane vAle ine-gine, uMgaliyoM para gine jA sakeM, itane loga mileMge, bAkI saba loga to kucha aura kaha rahe haiN| IsAiyata kahatI hai ki paramAtmA ne adama ko aura habbA ko svarga ke bagIce se bAhara khader3a diyA, kyoMki unhoMne AjJA kA ullaMghana kiyA thaa| jaba paramAtmA AyA aura usane adama se pUchA ki 'tUne kyoM khAyA isa vRkSa kA phala ? tujhe manA kiyA gayA thaa| usane kahA, 'maiM kyA karUM? yaha habbA, isane mujhe phuslaayaa| ' dekhate haiM, zurU ho gaI kahAnI! usane apanI jimmevArI habbA para pheMka dii| yaha isa patnI ko dekhie, aba maiM pati hI hUM, aura pati kI to Apa jAnate hI haiM hAlateM! aba patnI kahe aura pati na mAne to jhaMjhaTa / aba agara pati ko patnI aura paramAtmA meM cunanA ho to isako hI cunanA par3egA / mAnA, ApakI AzA mujhe mAlUma hai, magara isakI AzA bhI to dekhie ! yaha phala le AI aura kahane lagI cakho, to mujhe khAnA pdd'aa| to paramAtmA ne habbA se pUchA ki tujhe bhI patA thA, phira tU kyoM phala lAI? usane kahA, maiM kyA karUM? vaha zaitAna sAMpa bana kara mujhase kahane lgaa| sAMpa kahane lagA mujhase ki khAo isakA phala / usane mujhe kAphI uttejita kiyaa| usane kahA, isa phala ko khAne se tuma manuSya nahIM, paramAtma-rUpa ho jaaoge| paramAtmA svayaM isakA phala khAtA hai aura tumheM kahatA hai, mata khaao| jarA dhokhA to dekho ! yaha jJAna kA phala, isI ko khAkara paramAtmA jJAnI hai aura tumako ajJAnI rakhanA cAhatA hai| to sAdhAraNa strI hUM phusalA liyA usne| strI kA sadA se yahI kahanA rahA hai ki dUsaroM ne phusalA liyaa| hara pati jAnatA hai ki patnI kahatI hai ki hama tumhAre pIche na par3e the| tumhIM hamAre pIche par3e the, tumhIM ne phusalA liyA aura yaha jhaMjhaTa khar3I kara dii| ....... maiM kyA karUM, sAMpa ne phusalA liyA! agara sAMpa bhI bola sakatA hotA, to kisI aura para TAla detaa| ho sakatA thA, vRkSa para hI TAla detA ki yaha vRkSa hI vijJApana karatA hai ki jo mere phala ko khAegA vaha jJAna ko upalabdha ho jaaegaa| lekina sAMpa bola nahIM sakatA thA, usane zAyada sunA bhI na hogA ki mAmalA kyA cala rahA hai| AdamIAdamI ke bIca kI bAta thI; vaha cupacApa rahA, isalie kahAnI vahA pUrI ho gaI, nahIM to kahAnI pUrI ho nahIM sakatI thii| mArksa kahatA hai, samAja jimmevAra hai| agara tuma bure ho to isalie bure ho kyoMki samAja burA hai| yaha kucha pharka na huA / yaha vahI purAnI cAla hai nAma badala gayA / hiMdU kahate haiM, vidhi, bhAgya, vidhAtA ne aisA likha diyA, tuma kyA karoge? chor3o kisI para! vidhAtA likha gayA hai! jaba paidA hue the to mAthe para likha gayA ki aisA- aisA hogA, tuma krodhI banoge, kAmI banoge, ki sAdhu, ki saMta, ki kyA tumhArI jiMdagI meM hogA - saba likhA huA hai| saba to pahale
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________________ se taya kiyA huA hai, hamAre hAtha meM kyA hai? to vahI karavA rahA hai, so ho rahA hai| phrAyaDa kahatA hai ki bacapana meM mAM-bApa ne jo saMskAra DAle, tumhAre mana para jo saMskArita ho gayA, usakA hI pariNAma hai| lekina ye saba tarakIbeM haiM eka bAta se bacane kI ki yaha merA svabhAva hai, yaha jo bhI ho rahA hai merA svabhAva hai| isa mahaMta satya se bacane kI saba tarakIbeM haiM, IjAdeM haiM, AviSkAra haiM ki kaise hama TAla deN| aura maiM usI ko himmatavara kahatA hUM vahI hai sAhasI jo janaka kI bhAMti kaha de ki apanI hI prakRta vAyu se idhara-udhara DolatI lahareM haiN| bhramati svAMtavAtena! mana asahiSNutA na asti mujhe koI asahiSNutA nahIM hai| maiM isameM kucha pharka nahIM karanA cAhatA gurudeva! aSTAvakra se unhoMne kahA, jo hai, hai, maiM rAjI huuN| mere rAjIpana meM jarA bhI nA-nuca nahIM hai| isase mahAkrAMti kA udaya hotA hai| isa satya ko jisa dina tuma dekha pAoge, tuma pAoge binA kucha kie saba ho jAtA hai| 'mujha aMtahIna mahAsamudra meM jagatarUpI lahara svabhAva se udaya ho, cAhe mitte..|' suno! 'mujha aMtahIna mahAsamudra meM jagatarUpI lahara, svabhAva se udaya ho cAhe miTe, merI na vRddhi hai aura na hAni hai|' na yahAM kucha khotA, na yahAM kucha kamAyA jaataa| phira kyA phikra? na to krodha meM kucha khotA hai aura na karuNA meM kucha kamAyA jAtA hai| bar3I adabhuta bAta hai! yaha saba sapanA hai| mayi anaMta mahAmbhodhau jagadavIci svbhaavt:|| svabhAvika rUpa se uTha rahI haiM jagata kI lhreN| choTI-bar3I, aneka- aneka rUpa, acchI-burI, zoragula upadrava karatI, zAMta-sba taraha kI lahareM uTha rahI haiN| udeta vAstamAyAta na me vaddhirna na kssti:| na to vRddhi hotI, na kSati hotii| kucha bhI merA to kucha AtA-jAtA nhiiN| rAta tumane sapanA dekhA, cora ho gae ki sAdhu ho gae subaha uTha kara to donoM sapane barAbara ho jAte haiN| subaha tuma yaha to nahIM kahate ki rAta hama sAdhu ho gae the sapane meN| to tuma kucha gaurava to anubhava nahIM krte| aura na subaha tuma koI agaurava aura glAni anubhava karate ho ki cora ho gae the ki hatyAre ho gae the-sapanA to sapanA hai| sapanA to TUTA ki gyaa| to janaka kahate haiM ki ye cAhe baneM cAhe miTeM! Apa mujhase kahate haiM ki jagata se mukta ho jAUM? Apa bAta kyA kara rahe haiM? yaha jo ho rahA hai, hotA rahegA, hotA rahA hai, hotA rahe, mujhe lenA denA kyA hai? na to aisA karane se mujhe kucha lAbha hotA, na vaisA karane se mujhe kucha hAni hotI hai| yahAM cunAva karane ko hI kucha nahIM hai| yahAM lAbha-hAni barAbara hai|
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________________ hAni na lAbha kachu! yahAM kucha hai hI nahIM hAni-lAbha, tuma nAhaka hI khAte-bahI phailAe aura likha rahe ho bar3I hAni-lAbha ke-isameM lAbha hai, isameM hAni hai, yaha kareM to lAbha, yaha kareM to haani| janaka kahate haiM, jo ho rahA hai, ho rahA hai| maiM to sirpha dekha rahA huuN| jagadvIci svabhAvata: udetu vA astm| mere kie parivartana hone vAlA bhI nahIM hai| kyoMki svabhAva meM kaise parivartana hogA? patajhara AtI hai, patte gira jAte haiN| vasaMta AtA hai, phira naI koMpaleM uga AtI haiN| javAnI hotI hai, vAsanA uThatI hai| bur3hApA AtA hai, vAsanA kSINa ho jAtI hai| mere kie ho bhI nahIM rahA hai| maiM kartA nahIM huuN| to chor3anA kaisA, bhAganA kaisA, tyAga karanA kaisA? aSTAvakra ne eka jAla phailAyA hai parIkSA ke lie aura usase kahA ki tU tyAga kara, yaha saba chor3a de! jaba tujhe jJAna ho gayA, tU kahatA hai ki tujhe jJAna ho gayA to aba tU saba tyAga kara de| aba yaha zarIra merA, yaha dhana merA, yaha rAjya merA, yaha saba tU chor3a de| janaka kahate haiM, mere chor3ane se, pakar3ane se saMbaMdha hI kahAM hai? yaha merA hai hI nahIM jo maiM chor3a duuN| maiMne ise kabhI pakar3A bhI nahIM hai jo maiM ise chor3a duuN| yaha apane se huA hai, apane se kho jaaegaa| svabhAvata: udet vA astam me na vRddhiH ca na kssti| maiM to itanA hI dekha pA rahA hUM ki na to isake hone se mujhe kucha lAbha hai na isake na hone se mujhe kucha lAbha hai| yaha bar3I adabhuta bAta hai| yahI parama saMnyAsa hai| baiThe dukAna para to baitthe| ho rahI dukAna, to cala rahI hai, to cale! baMda ho jAe to baMda ho jAe! jaba dIvAlA nikala gayA to prasannatA se bAhara A gae! jaba taka calatI rahI, calatI rahI! karoge kyA? calatI thI to sAtha the, nahIM calatI to ruka ge| isa bhAMti jo le le, vaisA vyakti kabhI azAMta ho sakatA hai? vaisA vyakti kabhI udvigna ho sakatA hai? vaise vyakti ke jIvana meM kabhI tanAva ho sakatA hai? usakI vizrAMti A gii| bacapana thA to bacapana ke khela the, javAnI AI to javAnI ke khela haiM, bur3hApA AyA to bur3hApe ke khela haiN| bacce khela-khilaunoM se khelate haiM, javAna, vyaktiyoM se khelane lagate, ke, siddhAto se khelane lagate haiN| bacapana meM kAmavAsanA kA koI patA nahIM hai| tuma samajhAnA bhI cAho bacce ko, to samajhA nahIM sakate ki kAmavAsanA kyA hai| koI abhI uThI nahIM trNg| abhI svabhAva vAsanAmaya nahIM huaa| abhI svabhAva ne vAsanA kI taraMga nahIM utthaaii| phira javAna ho gayA AdamI, uThI vAsanA kI trNgeN| phira tuma lAkha smjhaao| mullA nasaruddIna maratA thaa| apane beTe ko usane pAsa bulAyA aura kahane lagA ki kahane ko to bahuta kucha hai lekina kahUMgA nhiiN| beTe ne pUchA kyoM? usane kahA ki mere bApa ne bhI mujhase kahA thA lekina maiMne sunA kahAM! kahane ko to bahuta kucha hai kahUMgA nhiiN| para beTA kahane lagA Apa kaha to deM, maiM sunUM yA na sunuuN| usane kahA ki phira dekha mere bApa ne bhI mujhase kahA thA ki striyoM ke
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________________ cakkara meM mata par3anA, magara maiM pdd'aa| aura eka ke cakkara meM nahIM par3A; islAma jitanI AjJA detA hai, nau striyAM pUre nau vivAha kie, aura bhogA! khUba naraka shaa| tujhase bhI maiM kahanA cAhatA hUM, lekina kahanA nahIM caahtaa| kyoMki maiM jAnatA hUM tU bhI pdd'egaa| mere kahane se kucha hogA nhiiN| bApa merA marA thA to kaha gayA thA zarAba mata pInA, para maiMne pI, khUba pI, aura sdd'aa| aura tU bhI saDegA; kyoMki jo maiM nahIM kara pAyA, merA beTA kara pAegA-yaha bhI mujhe bharosA nahIM hai| itanI hI yAda rakhanA ki itanA maiMne tujhase kahA thA ki kahane se koI sunatA nahIM, anubhava se hI koI sunatA hai| to eka bAra bhUla kare, kara lenA; khUba anubhava kara lenA usakA lekina dubArA vahI bhUla mata krnaa| aura agara tU mujhe maukA de-vaha kahane lagA to itanA kahanA cAhatA hUM striyoM kI jhaMjhaTa meM tU par3egA lekina eka samaya meM eka hI strI kI jhaMjhaTa meM pdd'naa| agara itanA bhI saMyama sAdha sake to kAphI hai| AdamI ke bhItara kucha hotA hai jo svAbhAvika hai| javAna hotA AdamI to vAsanA utthegii| ke socate haiM ki unheM koI bar3I bhArI saMpadA mila gaI, kyoMki aba unameM vAsanA ke prati vaisA rAga nahIM rahA, yA unameM aba vairAgya uTha rahA hai| yaha bur3hApe kA khela hai vairaagy| rAga javAnI kA khela hai, vairAgya bur3hApe kA khela hai| jaise rAga svAbhAvika hai eka khAsa umra meM, eka khAsa umra meM vairAgya svAbhAvika hai| isalie hiMduoM ne to ThIka koTi hI bAMTa dI thI ki paccIsa sAla taka vidayAarjana, brahmacarya; phira pacAsa sAla taka bhoga, gRhastha-jIvana; phira pacahattara taka vAnaprastha jIvana socanA, socanA kI aba saMnyAsa lenA, aba saMnyAsa lenaa| vAnaprastha yAnI socanA, ki jAnA jaMgala, jAnA jaMgala, jAnA karanA nhiiN| thor3e gae gAMva ke bAhara taka, phira lauTa Ae-aise bIca meM ulajhe rhnaa| phira pacahattara ke bAda saMnyAsa-agara mauta isake pahale na A jAe to! aksara to mauta isake pahale A jAegI aura tumheM saMnyAsI hone kI jhaMjhaTa nahIM pdd'egii| agara mauta na A jAe isake pahale, to sNnyaas| pacahattara ke bAda hiMduoM ne saMnyAsa rkhaa| hiMduoM kI socane kI paddhati bar3I vaijJAnika hai| kyoMki pacahattara ke bAda saMnyAsa vaisA hI svAbhAvika hai, jaise javAna AdamI meM vAsanA uThatI, taraMgeM uThatI, mahatvAkAMkSA uThatI-dhana kamA lUM pada-pratiSThA kara luuN| ThIka eka aisI ghar3I AtI hai, jaba jIvana- UrjA rikta ho jAtI hai, jhuka jAtI hai, tuma thaka cuke hote taba vairAgya uThane lgtaa| thakAna vairAgya le AtI hai| yaha paddhati hiMduoM kI sApha vaijJAnika hai aura isIlie buddha aura mahAvIra donoM ne isa paddhati ke khilApha bagAvata kii| unhoMne kahA ki jo vairAgya pacahattara ke bAda uThatA, vaha koI vairAgya hai? vaha to yaMtravata hai| vaha to uThatA hI hai| vaha to mauta karIba Ane lagI, usakI chAyA hai| vaha koI vairAgya hai? vairAgya to vaha hai jo bharI javAnI uThatA hai| buddha aura mahAvIra ne jo krAMti kI, usa krAMti kA bhI tarka yahI hai| ve kahate haiM, mAna liyA, tumhArA hisAba to ThIka hai, lekina jo pacahattara sAla ke bAda saMnyAsa uThegA, vaha koI uThA? isa pharka ko smjhnaa| jaina yA bauddha, unakI saMskRti zramaNa saMskRti kahalAtI hai-zrama vahAM mUlyavAna hai, puruSArtha vahAM
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________________ vidhi, bhAgya, svabhAva - ina sabakI koI vyavasthA nahIM hai| vahAM to tumhArA saMkalpa aura zrama! isalie svabhAvata: unhoMne javAnI meM saMnyAsa ko DAlane kI ceSTA kI, kyoMki javAna AdamI zrama karegA - to saMnyAsI ho sakegA, saMkalpa se jUjhegA, saMgharSa karegA, to saMnyAsI ho skegaa| isalie tuma jaina saMnyAsI ko jitanA ahaMkArI pAoge utanA hiMdU saMnyAsI ko na paaoge| aura musalamAna saMnyAsI ko to tuma bilakula hI ahaMkArI na paaoge| kyoMki usane kucha chor3A hI nahIM hai, sirpha samajhA hai; kartA kA koI bhAva hI nahIM hai| jaina saMnyAsI bahuta ahaMkArI hogA, kyoMki usane bahuta kucha kiyA hai| bharI javAnI meM yA bacapana meM saba chor3a diyA hai-dhana, dvAra, ghara, vAsanA, mahatvAkAMkSA ! uTha to rahI haiM bhItara taraMgeM, vaha unheM dabAe baiThA hai| to vaha jitanA unako dabAtA hai utanA hI vaha cAhatA hai sammAna mile, kyoMki vaha kAma to bar3A mehanata kA kara rahA hai, kaThina kAma kara rahA hai| mullA nasaruddIna ne eka daphtara meM naukarI kI darakhAsta dI thii| aura jaba vaha iMTaravyU dene gayA to usa daphtara ke mAlika ne pUchA ki tumheM TAipiMga AtI hai, tumane TAipisTa ke lie darakhAsta dI? mullA nasaruddIna ne kahA, nahIM, AtI to nhiiN| to usane kahA, hada ho gii| jaba TAipiMga nahIM AtI hai to darakhAsta kyoM dI? aura phira na kevala itanA, hada ho gaI, tumane isameM tanakhvAha duganI mAMgI hai! mullA ne kahA, isalie to mAMgI duganI, ki utara TAipiMga AtI to Adhe se hI kara dete kAma | AtI to hai nahIM, mehanata bahuta pdd'egii| mehanata kA to soco! to javAnI meM jo saMnyAsI ho jAe, to vaha AdamI bahuta ahaMkAra kI pratiSThA maaNgegaa| vaha kahatA hai, jarA dekho bhI to, javAna hUM abhI aura saMnyAsa liyA hUM jIvana kI dhAra ke viparIta bahA huuN| gaMgotrI kI tarapha taira rahA hUM, jarA dekho to ! hiMdU kA saMnyAsa to hai gaMgA ke sAtha, gaMgAsAgara kI tarapha tairanA / aura jaina kA saMnyAsa hai gaMgotrI kI tarapha tairanA, dhAra ke ulTe / to vaha Agraha mAMgatA hai ki kucha mujhe pratiSThA milanI cAhie, nahIM to kisalie mehanata karUM? to bajAo tAliyAM, zobhA - yAtrA nikAlo, cAroM tarapha baiDa-bAje karo! jaina muni AeM gAMva meM, to bar3A zoragula macAte haiN| hiMdU saMnyAsI AtA hai, calA jAtA hai, aisA kucha khAsa patA nahIM cltaa| musalamAna phakIra kA to bilakula patA nahIM cltaa| kyoMki usane to kucha chor3A nahIM hai bAhara se| ho sakatA hai usakI patnI ho, dUkAna ho| sUphI to kucha bhI nahIM chodd'te| sUphiyoM ko to pahacAnanA taka muzkila hai| jaba eka guru kisI dUsare sUphI ke pAsa apane ziSya ko sIkhane bhejatA hai, to hI patA calatA hai ki vaha dUsarA guru hai, nahIM to patA hI nahIM cala sakatA thaa| kyoMki ho sakatA hai, darI bunane kA kAma kara rahA ho, jiMdagI bhara se darI banA kara beca rahA ho| yA jUtA banA rahA ho aura jiMdagI bhara jUte banA rahA ho| gurajiepha jaba sUphI phakIroM kI khoja meM pUraba AyA to bar3I muzkila meM pdd'aa| kaise unakA patA
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________________ lage ki kauna AdamI hai? kyoMki ve koI alaga-thalaga dikhAI nahIM par3ate, jIvana meM rame haiN| to usane likhA hai ki bAmuzkila se sUtra milane zurU hue| bAmuzkila se / usane kisI masalamAna ko pachA ki maiM saphI phakIroM kA patA lagAnA cAhatA huuN| damizka kI galiyoM meM bhaTakatA thA ki kahIM khoja le| magara kaise patA cale? to usane kahA, tuma eka kAma kro| tuma patA na lagA skoge| tuma to jA kara masjida meM jitanI dera baiTha sako, namAja par3ha sako, pddh'o| kisI sUphI kI tuma para najara par3a jAegI to vaha tumheM pkdd'egaa| tuma to nahIM pakar3a paaoge| kyoMki ziSya kaise guru ko khojegA? guru hI ziSya ko khoja sakatA hai| yaha bAta jaMcI gurajiepha ko| vaha baiTha gayA masjida meM, dina bhara baiThA rahatA, AdhI-AdhI rAta taka vahAM baiTha kara namAja par3hatA rahatA; kisI kI to najara par3egI-aura najara pdd'ii| eka bujurga use gaura se dekhane lagA, kucha dina ke baad| eka dina vaha bujurga usake pAsa AyA usane kahA ki tuma musalamAna to nahIM mAlUma hote, phira itanI namAja kyoM kara rahe ho? usane kahA ki maiM kisI sadaguru kI talAza meM hUM aura mujhe kahA gayA hai ki maiM to na khoja paauuNgaa| agara maiM yahAM namAja par3hatA rahUM to zAyada kisI kI najara mujha para par3a jAe koI bujurgvaar| ApakI agara najara mujha para par3a gaI aura agara Apa pAte hoM ki maiM isa yogya hUM ki kisI sUphI ke pAsa mujhe bheja deM, to mujhe batA deN| usane kahA ki tuma Aja rAta bAraha baje phalAM-phalAM jagaha A jaao| vaha jaba vahAM pahuMcA to cakita huaa| jisase use milAyA gayA vaha hoTala calAtA thA, cAya ityAdi becatA thA, cAyaghara calAtA thaa| aura usa cAyaghara meM to gurajiepha kaI daphe cAya pI AyA thaa| na kevala yahI, usa cAya vAle se pUcha cukA thA kaI bAra ki agara koI sUphI kA patA ho to mujhe patAde do| to vaha cAya vAlA haMsatA thA ki bhaI dharma meM mujhe koI ruci nahIM, to mujhe to kucha patA nhiiN| vahI AdamI gurajiepha ke lie guru siddha huaa| usane gurajiepha se kahA ki basa aba terA varSa do varSa taka to yahI kAma hai ki kapa-pyAle sApha kr| kapa-pyAle sApha karavAte-karavAte dhyAna kI pahalI sudha usa guru ne denI zurU kii| eka amarIkana yAtrI DhAkA phuNcaa| kisI ne khabara dI ki vahA eka sUphI phakIra hai jo pahuMca gayA hai AkhirI avasthA meM; phanA kI avasthA meM pahuMca gayA hai jahAM miTa jAtA hai aadmii| tuma use pA lo to kucha mila jaae| to vaha DhAkA phuNcaa| usane jA kara eka TaiksI kI aura usane kahA ki maiM isa isa huliyA ke AdamI kI talAza meM AyA hUM, tuma mujhe kucha sahAyatA kro| usane kahA ki jarUra sahAyatA kareMge baittho| vaha ise le kara gayA, eka choTe -se jhopar3e ke sAmane gAr3I rokI aura usane kahA ki pAMca minaTa ke bAda tuma bhItara A jaanaa| vaha jaba pAca minaTa bAda bhItara gayA to vaha jo TaiksI-DrAivara thA, vahAM baiThA thA aura dasa-paMdraha ziSya baiThe the| usane kahA ki Apa hI guru haiM kyA? usane kahA ki maiM hI hUM aura isalie TaiksI-DrAiviMga kA kAma karatA hUM ki kabhI-kabhI khojI A jAte haiM to unako sIdhA
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________________ vahIM se pakar3a letA huuN| kahAM khojoge tuma, tuma khojoge kaise? sUphiyoM kA to patA bhI na calegA, kyoMki jIvana ko bar3I sahajatA se| ye jo vaktavya haiM, sUphiyoM ke vaktavya haiN| ye jo janaka ne kahe, yaha sUphI mata kA sAra hai| 'mujha aMtahIna mahAsamudra meM nizcita hI saMsAra kalpanA mAtra hai| maiM atyaMta zAMta hUM nirAkAra hUM aura isI ke Azraya huuN|' mampanaMtamahAmbhodhau vizva nAma vikalpanA! yaha vizva to nAmamAtra ko hai, kalpanA mAtra hai| yaha vastuta: hai nahIM- bhAsatA hai| yaha to hamArI dhAraNA hai| yaha to hamArI nIMda meM cala rahA sapanA hai| hama jAge hue nahIM haiM, isalie jagata hai| hama jAga gae to phira jagata nhiiN| tuma thor3A soco! jagata kaisA hogA agara tumhAre bhItara koI vAsanA na bace, tumhAre bhItara kucha pAne kI AkAMkSA na bce| kucha hone kA pAgalapana na bace? to kyA tuma isI jagata meM rahoge phira? tuma acAnaka pAoge ki tumhArA jagata to pUrA rUpAMtarita ho gyaa| kyoMki jo AdamI jo khojatA hai usI ke AdhAra para jagata bana jAtA hai| aisA ho sakatA hai ki tuma jisa rAste se roja gujarate ho, rAste ke kinAre hI baMbA lagA hai posTa oNphisa kA, leTara-baoNksa lagA hai, lAla raMga ke hanumAna jI khar3e haiM, magara tumhArI najara zAyada kabhI na par3e, lekina jisa dina tumheM patra DAlanA hai, usa dina acAnaka tumhArI najara par3a jaaegii| usI rAste se tuma roja gujarate the lekina patra DAlanA nahIM thA, to posTa oNphisa ke leTara-baoNksa ko kauna dekhatA hai mhArI AMkheM usa para na TikatI rahI hoNgii| vaha AMkha se ojhala hotA rahA hogaa| thA vahIM, lekina tumheM taba taka nahIM dikhA thA, jaba taka tumhAre bhItara koI AkAMkSA na thI, jo saMbaMdha banA de| Aja tumheM ciTThI DAlanI thI, acaank..| upavAsa karake dekho aura phira jAo ema jI roDa pr| phira tumheM kucha aura na dikhAI pdd'egaa| phira raistarA, hoTala, kaoNphI-hAusa, basa isI taraha kI cIjeM dikhAI pdd'egii| aura acAnaka tumhArI nAka aisI pragAr3ha ho jAegI ki hara taraha kI sugaMdhe Ane lageMgI, hara taraha ke AkarSaNa bulAve dene lgeNge| tumhAre upavAsa se tuma kisI aura hI rAste se gujarate ho jisase tuma kabhI nahIM gujare the| kahane mAtra ko ema jI. roDa hai| jaba tuma bhare peTa se gujarate ho, taba bAta aura hai| jaba tuma kapar3e kharIdane gujarate ho, taba bAta aura hai| jo puruSa apanI patnI se tRpta hai vaha bhI gujaratA hai, to bAta aur| jo apanI patnI se tRpta nahIM hai, vaha bhI usI rAste se gujaratA hai, lekina taba rAstA aur| kyoMki donoM ke dekhane kA DhaMga aura, donoM kI AkAMkSA aur| tuma jo cAhate ho, usase tumhArA jagata nirmita hotA hai| hama saba eka hI jagata meM nahIM rhte| hama saba apane -apane jagata meM rahate haiN| yahAM jitane manuSya haiM, jitane mana haiM, utane jagata haiN| usI jagata kI bAta ho rahI hai, tuma khayAla rkhnaa| nahIM to aksara bhrAMti hotI hai| pUraba ke ina manISiyoM
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________________ ke vacana se bar3I bhAMti hotI hai, loga socate haiM : 'jagata kalpanA ? to agara hama zAMta ho gae to yaha makAna samApta ho jAegA 1' ye vRkSa kho jAeMge?' to tuma samajhe nahIM / jagata kA artha hotA hai: tumhAre mana se jo kalpita hai, utanA kho jaaegaa| jo hai, vaha to rhegaa| saca to yaha hai ki jo hai vaha pahalI daphe dikhAI pdd'egaa| tumhAre mana ke kAraNa vaha to dikhAI hI nahIM par3atA thaa| tuma to kucha dekha lete the| tuma jo dekhane ke lie Atura the vahI tumheM dikhAI par3a jAtA thaa| tumhArI AturatA bar3I sRjanAtmaka hai| usI sRjanAtmakatA se sapanA paidA hotA, kalpanA paidA hotii| mampanantamahAmbhodhau vizva nAma vikalpanA! kucha kA tumhArA vizva tumhArI kalpanA hai / tumhAre par3osI kA vizva jarUrI nahIM ki tumhArA ho| do vyakti eka hI jagaha baiTha sakate haiM - aura do alaga duniyAoM meN| eka sinemAghara meM mullA nasaruddIna aura usakI patnI lagabhaga AdhA samaya taka Apasa meM hI bAteM karate rhe| unake pAsa baiThe darzakoM ko yaha bar3A burA laga rahA thaa| eka darzaka neM- mullA nasaruddIna ke pIche jo baiThA thA-kahA, 'kyA tote kI taraha TAyaM-TAyaM lagA rakhI hai? kabhI cupa hI nahIM hote| ' isa para mullA bigar3a gyaa| usane kahA, kyA Apa hamAre bAre meM kaha rahe haiM? usa darzaka ne kahA, jI nahIM Apako kahAM 2 philma vAloM ko kaha rahA huuN| zurU se hI bakavAsa kie jA rahe haiM, ApakI dilakaza bAtoM kA eka zabda bhI nahIM sunane diyA / aba yaha ho sakatA hai do AdamI pIche baiThe hoM philma- gRha meM, aura pati-patnI Apasa meM bAteM kara rahe hoM to eka ho sakatA hai parezAna ho ki philma cala rahI hai vaha sunAI nahIM par3a rahI inakI bakavAsa se; aura dUsarA ho sakatA hai parezAna ho ki bar3I gajaba kI bAteM ho rahI haiM ina donoM kI, yaha philma baMda ho jAe to jarA suna leM kyA ho rahA hai? donoM pAsa baiThe ho sakate haiM aura donoM ke dekhane ke DhaMga alaga ho sakate haiN| hamArA dekhane kA DhaMga hamArI dRSTi hai, hamArI sRSTi hai| dRSTi se sRSTi banatI hai| jaba tumhArI koI dRSTi nahIM raha jAtI, jaba tumhAre bhItara jaisA hai vaise ko hI dekhane kI saralatA raha jAtI, anyathA kucha AropaNa karane kI koI guMjAiza nahIM raha jAtI, tumhAre bhItara kA projekTara, prakSepana-yaMtra jaba baMda ho jAtA hai, taba tuma acAnaka pAte ho. pardA khAlI hai| vaha pardA saca hai| parde para calane vAlI jo dhUpa-chAva se bane jo citra haiM, ve saba tumhAre projekTara, tumhAre prakSepana se nikalate haiN| to jaba bhI zAstroM meM tuma kahIM yaha vacana pAo ki yaha saba saMsAra kalpanA - mAtra hai, to tuma isa bhrAMti meM mata par3anA ki zAstra yaha kaha rahe haiM ki agara tumhArA jAgaraNa hogA, samAdhi lagegI to sArA saMsAra tatkSaNa svapnavata kho jaaegaa| itanA hI kaha rahe haiM tumhArA saMsAra tatkSaNa kho jaaegaa| yaha saMsAra tumhArA nahIM / yaha to tuma Ae usake pahale bhI thA, tuma cale jAoge usake bAda bhI rhegaa| ye vRkSa, ye pakSI, yaha AkAza. / tumhArA nahIM hai inase kucha lenA-denA / tuma soo to hai, tuma jAgo to hai| tuma dhyAnastha ho jAo, to hai; tuma vAsanAgrasta raho, to hai| yaha to nahIM miTegA / lekina isa saMsAra ko pardA mAna kara tumane eka kalpanAoM kA jAla buna rakhA hai| tuma jarA isa jAla
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________________ ko pahacAnane kI koziza karanA, tuma kisa bhAMti roja isa jAla ko bune jAte ho aura yaha jAla tumheM paricita nahIM hone detA usase, jo hai| __ 'mujha aMtahIna mahAsamudra meM nizcita hI saMsAra kalpanA mAtra hai| maiM atyaMta zAMta hUM nirAkAra hUM aura isI ke Azraya huuN|' atizAto nirAkAra etdevaahmaasthitH| yaha samajha kara ki ye sArI kalpanAeM haiM-mujhameM hI uThatI haiM aura lIna ho jAtI haiM, ye saba merI hI taraMgeM haiM-maiM bilakula zAMta ho gayA hUM, maiM nirAkAra ho gayA huuN| aura aba to yahI merA ekamAtra Azraya hai| aba chor3ane ko kucha bacA nahIM hai, sirpha maiM hI bacA huuN| 'AtmA viSayoM meM nahIM hai aura viSaya usa anaMta niraMjana AtmA meM nahIM haiN| isa prakAra maiM anAsakta hUM spRhA-mukta hUM aura isI ke Azraya huuN|' nAtmA bhAvegu no bhAvastatrAnante nirNjne| na to viSaya mujhameM haiM aura na maiM viSayoM meM huuN| saba sataha para uThI taraMgoM kA khela hai| sAgara kI gaharAI una taraMgoM ko chUtI hI nhiiN| tuma sAgara ke Upara kitanI taraMgeM dekhate ho! jarA gotAkhoroM se pUcho ki bhItara tuma jAte ho, vahAM taraMgeM milatIM ki nahIM? sAgara kI atala gaharAI meM kh| taraMgeM? sirpha sataha para taraMgeM haiN| usa atala gaharAI meM to saba anAsakta, zAMta, nirAkAra hai, spahA-makta! aura vahI merA Azraya hai| vahI merA nijasvarUpa hai| kaisA chor3anA, kaisA tyAganA, kisako jAnanA? iti jJAna! aisA jo mujhe bodha huA hai, yahI jJAna hai| 'aho, maiM caitanya mAtra huuN| saMsAra iMdrajAla kI bhAMti hai| isalie heya aura upAdeya kI kalpanA kisameM ho?' kise choDUM? kise pakaDUM? heya aura upAdeya, lAbha aura hAni, acchA aura burA, zubha aura azubha-aba ye saba kalpanAeM vyartha haiN| jo ho rahA hai, svabhAva se ho rahA hai| jo ho rahA hai, sabhI ThIka hai| isameM na kucha cunane ko hai, na kucha chor3ane ko hai| kRSNamUrti jise bAra-bAra ccAyasalesa aveyaranesa kahate haiM, janaka usI satya kI ghoSaNA kara rahe haiM cunAvarahita bodha! aho aham cinmAtram! -basa kevala caitanya hUM maiM basa kevala sAkSI hUM! jagata iMdrajAlopamam! -aura jagata to aisA hai jaisA jAdU kA khela hai, iNdrjaal| saba Upara-Upara bhAsatA, aura hai nahIM pratIta hotA, aura hai nhiiN| ata: mana heyopAdeya kalpanA katham ca kutra -to maiM kaise kalpanA karUM ki kauna ThIka, kauna galata?
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________________ aba yaha saba kalpanA hI chor3a dii| iti jJAnaM! yahI jJAna hai| yahI jAgaraNa hai| yahI bodha hai| bhoga eka taraha kI kalpanA hai, tyAga dUsare taraha kI kalpanA hai| bhoga se bace to tyAga meM gire-to aise hI jaise koI calatA khAI aura kueM ke bIca, kueM se bace to khAI meM gire| bIca meM hai mArga| na to tyAgI bananA hai, na bhogI bananA hai| agara tuma tyAga aura bhoga se baca sako, agara tuma donoM ke pAra ho sako, agara tuma donoM ke sAkSI bana sako, to saMnyasta, to saMnyAsa kA janma huaa| saMsArI saMnyAsI nahIM hai, tyAgI bhI sanyAsI nahIM hai| donoM ne cunAva kiyA hai| bhogI ne cunAva kiyA hai ki bhogeMge, aura- aura bhogeMge, aura bhoga cAhie, to hI sukha hogaa| tyAgI ne cunAva kiyA hai ki tyAgeMge, khUba tyAgeMge, to sukha hogaa| saMnyAsI vahI hai, jo kahatA hai. sukha hai| iti sukham! hogA nhiiN| na kucha pakar3anA hai na kucha chor3anA hai-apane meM ho jAnA hai| vahIM apane meM hone meM sukha aura jJAna hai| anyathA, tuma pIr3AeM badala le sakate ho| tuma eka kaMdhe kA bojha dUsare kaMdhe para rakha le sakate ho| tuma eka naraka se dUsare naraka meM praveza kara sakate ho, lekina aMtara na pdd'egaa| mullA nasaruddIna kI patnI mullA se kaha rahI thI. hamane pharIdA ke lie jo lar3akA pasaMda kiyA hai, vaha vaise to bahuta ThIka hai, do hI bAtoM kI bhUla-cUka hai| eka to yaha usakI dUsarI zAdI hai, pahalI patnI to mara gaI hai| vidhura hai| magara yaha koI bar3I bAta nahIM, patnI ne khaa| abhI javAna hai| magara jo bAta akharatI hai, vaha yaha hai ki saba ThIka hai-khilatA huA raMga UMcA kada, taMdarusta, nAka-nakzA bhI acchA para eka aiba khaTakatA hai| mullA ne pUchA, vaha kyA? patnI ne kahA, lagatA hai tumane dhyAna nahIM diyaa| jaba vaha haMsatA hai to usake laMbe-laMbe dAMta bAhara A jAte haiM aura vaha kurUpa lagane lagatA hai| mullA ne kahA, ajI chor3o bhI! pharIdA se vivAha to hone do, phira use haMsane kA maukA hI kahAM milegA? abhI eka patnI marI hai unakI, aba ve pharIdA ke cakkara meM par3a rahe haiN| hama jyAdA dera binA ulajhanoM ke nahIM raha skte| eka ulajhana chUTa jAtI hai to lagatA hai khAlI-khAlI ho ge| jaldI hama dUsarI ulajhana nirmita karate haiN| AdamI ulajhanoM meM vyasta rahatA hai| manovaijJAnika kahate haiM, gaira-zAdIzudA loga jyAdA pAgala hote haiM, bajAe zAdIzudA logoM ke| yaha bar3I hairAnI kI bAta hai| jaba maiMne pahalI daphA par3hA to maiM bhI socane lagA ki mAmalA kyA hai! honA to ulTA cAhie ki zAdIzudA loga pAgala hoM, yaha samajha meM A sakatA hai| jyAdA pAgala hoM, yaha bhI samajha meM A sakatA hai| sArI duniyA se AMkar3e ikaTThe kie gae haiM, unase patA calatA hai ki gaira- zAdIzudA loga jyAdA AtmahatyA karate haiM, bajAe zAdIzudA logoM ke| yaha to jarA kucha bharose yogya nahIM mAlUma hotaa| lekina phira khojabIna karane se manovaijJAnikoM ko patA calA ki kAraNa yaha hai ki gaira-zAdIzudA AdamI ko ulajhaneM nahIM hotii| pAgala na ho to kare kyA, phursata hI phursata! zAdIzudA AdamI ko phursata
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________________ kahAM pAgala hone kI! itanI vyastatA hai! eka manovaijJAnika khojabIna kara rahA thA ki kisa taraha ke loga sarvAdhika sukhI hote haiN| aura vaha bar3e ajIba niSkarSa para phuNcaa| ve hI loga sarvAdhika sukhI mAlUma hote haiM jinako itanI bhI phursata nahIM ki soca sakeM ki hama sukhI haiM ki dukhii| itanI phursata milI ki dukha zurU huaa| tuma rAjanItijJoM ko bar3A sukhI pAoge, bar3e praphullatA se bhare hue gajare ityAdi pahane hue, bhAge cale jA rahe haiN| aura kAraNa kula itanA hI hai ki unako itanA bhI samaya nahIM hai ki ve baiTha kara eka daphA soca leM, punarvicAra kareM ki hama sukhI haiM ki dukhI? itanA samaya kahAM! baMdhe kolha ke bailoM kI taraha, bhAge cale jAte haiM dillI calo! phursata kahAM hai ki idhara-udhara dekheM! aura dhakkama - dhukkIM itanI hai ki koI Tala khIMca rahA, koI Age khIMca rahA, koI pIche khIMca rahA, koI eka hAtha pakar3e, koI dUsarA, kucha samajha meM nahIM AtA hai ki ho kyA rahA hai! lekina bhAge cale jAte haiN| ApAdhApI meM phurasata nahIM miltii| manovaijJAnika kahate haiM ki jo loga vyasta rahate haiM sadA, ve kama pAgala hote haiM, kama AtmahatyA karate haiN| unheM yAda hI nahIM raha jAtI ki ve haiM bhii| unheM patA bhUla jAtA hai apanA sArA jIvana, sArI UrjA vyartha kAmoM meM itanI saMlagna ho jAtI hai| isIlie kabhI-kabhI thor3e - bahuta dinoM ke lie cupa ho kara svAta meM baiTha jAnA zubha hai| vahAM tumheM patA calegA ki avyasta hone meM tuma kitane becaina hone lagate ho khAlIpana kaisA kATatA hai ! loga mujhase pUchate haiM ki loga dukha ko kyoM pasaMda karate haiM, kyoM cunate haiM ? loga dukha ko pasaMda kara lete haiM khAlIpana ke cunAva meM khAlIpana se to loga socate haiM dukha hI behatara hai| kama se kama siradarda to hai, sira meM kucha to hai| ulajhaneM haiM to kucha to upAya hai, kucha karane kI suvidhA to hai| lekina kucha bhI nahIM hai to| aura jo AdamI khAlI hone ko rAjI nahIM, vaha kabhI svayaM taka pahuMca nahIM paataa| kyoMki svayaM taka pahuMcane kA rAstA khAlI hone se jAtA hai, rikta, zUnyatA se jAtA hai| vahI to dhyAna hai / yA koI aura nAma do| vahI samAdhi hai| jaba tuma thor3I dera ke lie saba vyastatA chor3a kara baiTha jAte ho, kinAre para, nadI kI dhAra se haTakara, nadI bahatI, tuma dekhate, tuma kucha bhI karate nahIM - unhIM kSaNoM meM dhIre- dhIre sAkSI jAgegA / lekina sAkSI ke jAgane se pahale zUnya ke registAna se gujaranA pdd'egaa| vaha mUlya hai, jisane cukAne kI himmata na kI, vaha kabhI sAkSI na ho paaegaa| thor3A dUra honA jarUrI hai| hama cIjoM meM itane jyAdA khar3e haiM ki hameM dikhAI hI nahIM par3atA ki hama cIjoM se alaga haiN| thor3A-sA phAsalA, thor3A sthAna, thor3A avakAza ki hama dekha sakeM ki hama kauna haiM? jagata kyA hai? kyA ho rahA hai hamAre jIvana kA ? thor3e-thor3e khAlI aMtarAla tumheM Atmabodha ke lie kAraNa bana sakate haiN| unhIM - unhIM aMtarAloM meM tumheM thor3I-thor3I jhalaka milegI : 'aho, maiM caitanya-mAtra hUM!' vyastatA meM to tumheM kabhI patA na clegaa| vyastatA kA to matalaba hai. vastuoM se
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________________ ulajhe, aura se ulajhe, anya se ulajhe / jaba tuma avyasta hote ho, anaAkupAiDa, jaba tuma kisI se bhI nahIM ulajhe taba tumheM apanI yAda AnI zurU hotI hai, svayaM kA smaraNa hotA hai| 'aho, maiM caitanya-mAtra huuN| saMsAra iMdrajAla kI bhAMti hai| ' aura taba tumheM patA calatA ki tumhArI sArI vyastatA bacapanA, khela hai| dhana kamA rahe ho, dhana ke Dhera lagA rahe hoM - kyA milegA? bar3e se bar3e pada para pahuMca jAoge - kyA pAoge? saphala AdamiyoM se asaphala AdamI tuma kahIM aura khoja sakate ho? jo saphala huA vaha muzkila meM par3A / saphala ho kara patA calatA hai. are, yaha to jIvana hAtha se gayA, aura hAtha to kucha bhI na lgaa| kahate haiM sikaMdara jaba bhArata AyA aura porasa para usane vijaya pA lI, to eka kamare meM calA gayA, eka taMbU meM calA gayA, aura rone lgaa| usake sipahasAlAra, usake sainAnI bar3e ciMtita ho ge| unhoMne kabhI sikaMdara ko rote nahIM dekhA thaa| use kaise vyavadhAna deM, kaise bAdhA DAleM - yaha bhI samajha nahIM AtA thaa| phira kisI eka ko himmata karake bhejaa| usane bhItara jA kara sikaMdara ko pUchA ' Apa ro kyoM rahe haiM? aura vijaya ke kSaNa meM! agara hAra gae hote to samajha meM AtA thA ki Apa ro rahe haiN| vijaya ke kSaNa meM ro rahe haiM, mAmalA kyA hai? porasa roe, samajha meM AtA hai| sikaMdara roe ? yaha to ghar3I utsava kI hai| ' sikaMdara ne kahA, isIlie to ro rahA hUM / aba duniyA meM mujhe jItane ko kucha bhI na bcaa| aba duniyA meM mujhe jItane ko kucha bhI na bacA, aba maiM kyA karUMgA? zAyada porasa na bhI royA ho, koI kahAnI nahIM porasa ke rone kii| kyoMki porasa ko to abhI bahuta kucha bacA kama se kama sikaMdara ko harAnA to bacA hai; abhI isake to usako dAta khaTTe karane haiN| magara sikaMdara ke lie kucha bhI nahIM bacA hai| vaha tharrA gyaa| sArI vyastatA ekadama samApta ho gii| A gayA zikhara para! aba kahAM ? aba isa zikhara se Upara jAne kI koI bhI sIr3hI nahIM hai| aba kyA hogA? yaha ghabar3AhaTa sabhI saphala AdamiyoM ko hotI hai| dhana kamA liyA, pada pA liyA, pratiSThA mila gaI, lekina itanA karate karate sArA jIvana hAtha se baha gyaa| eka dina acAnaka saphala to ho gae, aura eka sAtha hI usI kSaNa meM, pUrI taraha viphala bhI ho ge| aba kyA ho? rAkha lagatI hai haath| vyasta AdamI Akhira meM rAkha kA Dhera raha jAtA, aMgAra to bilakula Dhaka jAtI yA bujha jAtI hai| thor3e- thor3e avyasta kSaNa khojate rahanA / kabhI-kabhI thor3A samaya nikAla lenA apane meM DUbane kaa| bhUla jAnA saMsAra ko bhUla jAnA saMsAra kI taraMgoM ko thoDe gahare meM apanI prazAMti meM apanI gaharAI meM thor3I DubakI lenaa| to tumheM bhI samajha meM AegA tabhI samajha meM AegA - kisa bAta ko naka kahate haiM : iti jJAna! yahI jJAna hai| 'aho, maiM caitanya - mAtra hUM! saMsAra iMdrajAla kI bhAMti hai| isalie heya aura upAdeya kI kalpanA kisameM ho?' aba mujhe na to kucha heya hai, na kucha upAdeya hai| na to kucha hAni, na kucha laabh| na to kucha
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________________ pAne -yogya, na kucha Dara ki kucha chUTa jaaegaa| maiM to sirpha caitanyamAtra huuN| aho yahI to mukti hai| jaba taka tuma karmoM meM ulajhe ho taba taka tumameM bheda hai| jaise hI tuma sAkSI bane saba bheda mitte| apane-apane karmoM kA phala bhoga rahA hai hara koI sUraja to ika-sA hI camake nAthoM aura anAthoM pr| apane-apane karmoM kA phala bhoga rahA hai hara koii| tuma apane karmoM se baMdhe ho aura phala bhoga rahe ho| sUraja to ika-sA hI camake nAthoM aura anAthoM pr| sUraja to saba para eka-sA camaka rahA hai| paramAtmA to saba para eka-sA barasa rahA hai| lekina tumane apane-apane karmoM ke pAtra banA rakhe haiN| koI kA choTA pAtra, kisI kA bar3A paatr| kisI kA gaMdA pAtra, kisI kA suMdara paatr| paramAtmA eka-sA barasa rahA hai| kisI kA pApa se bharA pAtra, kisI kA puNya se bharA pAtra lekina sabhI pAtra sImita hote haiM-pApI kA bhI, puNyAtmA kA bhii| tuma jarA pAtra ko haTAo, karma ko bhUlo, kartA ko vismaraNa karo-sAkSI ko dekho! sAkSI ko dekhate hI tuma pAoge. tuma anaMta sAgara ho, paramAtmA anaMta rUpa se tumameM barasa rahA hai| aho aham cinmAtram! tuma taba pAoge, jaisA ki janaka ne bAra-bAra pIche kahA ki aisA mana hotA hai ki apane hI caraNa chU luuN| aisA dhanyabhAga, aisA prasAda ki apane ko hI namaskAra karane kA mana hotA hai! dAmane-dila pe nahIM bArize-ilhAma abhI izka nApukhtA abhI jacce darUkhAma abhii| dilarUpI dAmana para agara daivI varSA nahIM ho rahI hai to itanA hI samajhanA ki prema abhI kaccA aura bhItara kI bhAvanA apripky| dAmane -dila pe nahIM bArize-ilhAma abhI! agara prabhu kA prasAda nahIM barasa rahA hai to yaha mata samajhanA ki prabhu kA prasAda nahIM barasa rahA hai| itanA hI samajhanA. izka nApukhtA abhI! abhI tumhArA prema kccaa| jajve-darUkhAma abhii| aura abhI tumhArI bhItara kI caitanya kI dazA paripakva nhiiN| anyathA paramAtmA to barasa hI rahA hai pAtra para, apAtra para; puNyAtmA para, pApI pr| sUraja to ika-sA hI camake nAthoM aura anAthoM pr|
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________________ aba do vidhiyAM haiM isa parama avasthA ko khojane kii| eka to hai ki karmoM ko badalo, bure karmoM ko acchA karo, azubha ko zubha se badalo, pApa ko haTAo, puNya ko lAo-vaha bar3I laMbI vidhi hai, aura zAyada kabhI saphala nahIM ho sktii| kyoMki ve to itane anaMta janmoM ke karma haiM, unako tuma badala bhI na paaoge| vaha to dhokhA hai| vaha to posTapona karane kI tarakIba hai| vaha to mithyA hai| phira dUsarI vidhi hai-yA kahanA cAhie vastuta: to eka hI vidhi hai-yaha dUsarI vidhi ki tuma sAre karmoM ke pIche khar3e ho kara sAkSI ho jaao| to tuma abhI ho sakate ho| isI kSaNa ho sakate ho| aSTAvakra kI mahAgItA kA maulika sAra itanA hI hai ki tuma yadi cAho to abhI kinAre para nikala jAo aura baiTha jaao| abhI sAkSI ho jAo! aura jaba taka tumane karmoM ko badalane kI koziza kI, taba taka to tuma naI naI ulajhaneM khar3I karate rhoge| kyoMki hara pApa ke sAtha thor3A puNya hai, hara puNya ke sAtha thor3A pApa hai| tuma aisA koI puNya kara hI nahIM sakate jisameM pApa na jur3A ho| soco, kauna-sA puNya karoge jisameM pApa na jur3A ho? agara dhana dAna doge to dhana kamAoge to! dAna doge kahAM se? pahale kamAne meM pApa kara loge, to dAna doge| yaha to bAta bemAnI ho gii| maMdira banAoge to kinhIM jhopar3oM ko miTAoge tabhI maMdira banA paaoge| kisI ko cUsoge, tabhI maMdira khar3A ho skegaa| yaha to bAta vyartha ho gii| yaha to puNya ke sAtha pApa cala jaaegaa| tuma acchA kucha bhI karoge to thor3A na bahuta burA sAtha meM hotA hI rhegaa| barA bhI jaba tuma karate ho kucha na kucha acchA hotA, hai| tabhI to burA AdamI karatA hai, nahIM to vaha bhI kyoM karegA? eka cora hai, vaha corI kara lAtA hai; kyoMki vaha kahatA hai ki usakA baccA bImAra hai aura davA caahie| bacce ko davA to milanI caahie| corI se milatI hai to corI se, lekina bacce ko davA to denI hI pdd'egii| jIvana mUlyavAna hai| tumhAre dhana-saMpatti ke niyama itane mUlyavAna nahIM haiN| parama rAsAyanika nAgArjuna ke jIvana meM ullekha hai| vaha dArzanika bhI thA, vicAraka bhI thaa| apUrva dArzanika thA! zAyada bhArata meM vaisA koI dUsarA dArzanika nahIM huaa| zaMkarAcArya bhI naMbara do mAlUma par3ate haiM nAgArjuna se| aura aisA lagatA hai zaMkara ne jo bhI kahA, usameM nAgArjuna kI chApa hai| nAgArjuna ne bar3I anUThI bAteM kahIM haiN| aura vaha rasAyanavida thaa| use do sahayogiyoM kI jarUrata thI, jo rasAyana kI prakriyA meM usakA sAtha de skeN| to usane bar3I khoja kii| do rasAyanavida aae| vaha unakI parIkSA lenA cAhatA thaa| to usane kucha rAsAyanika dravya die donoM ko aura kahA ki kala tuma isakA mizraNa banA kara le aanaa| agara tuma saphala ho gae mizraNa banAne meM, to jo bhI saphala ho jAegA vaha cuna liyA jaaegaa| ve donoM cale ge| dUsare dina eka to mizraNa banA kara A gayA aura dUsarA rAsAyanika dravya vaise ke vaise le kara A gyaa| nAgArjuna ne usa dUsare se pUchA ki tumane banAyA nahIM? usane kahA ki maiM gayA, rAste para eka bhikhArI mara rahA thA, maiM usakI sevA meM laga gyaa| caubIsa ghaMTe usako bacAne meM laga gae, mujhe samaya hI nahIM milaa| aura yaha jo prakriyA hai isameM kama se kama caubIsa ghaMTe caahie| isalie mujhe kSamA kreN| maiM jAnatA hUM ki maiM asvIkRtaho gayA, lekina kucha aura upAya na thaa| bhikhArI
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________________ mara rahA thA, mujhe caubIsa ghaMTe usakI sevA karanI pdd'ii| vaha baca gayA, maiM khuza huuN| mujhe jo ApakI sevA kA maukA milatA thA, vaha nahIM milegA, lekina maiM prasanna huuN| merI koI zikAyata nhiiN| aura nAgArjuna ne isI AdamI ko cuna liyaa| aura nAgArjuna ke aura dUsare sahayogI the, ve kahane lage ki yaha Apa kyA kara rahe haiM? jo AdamI rasAyana banA kara le AyA hai, usako nahIM cuna rahe? nAgArjuna ne kahA, jIvana kA mUlya rasAyana se jyAdA hai| yaha rasAyana-vasAyana to ThIka hai magara jIvana kA muuly...| isa AdamI ke pAsa pakar3a hai| yaha jAnatA hai ki kauna-sI cIja jyAdA mUlyavAna hai-basa, yahI to rahasya hai| sAra aura asAra meM ise bheda hai| aba eka AdamI kA baccA mara rahA hai, vaha tumhArI phikra kare ki corI nahIM karanI cAhie? vaha ciMtA kare isa bAta kI? vyaktigata saMpatti ko samAdara de? vaha phikra nahIM krtaa| vaha kahatA hai, corI ho jAe, cAhe maiM jela calA jAUM, bacce ko bacAnA hai| to pApa meM bhI kahIM to thor3A puNya hai| do AdamI agara sAtha-sAtha corI bhI karate haiM to kama se kama eka-dUsare ko to dagA nahIM dete| utanI to ImAnadArI hai| ve bhI mAnate haiM, AnesTI ija da besTa paalisii| Apasa meM to kama se km| kisI aura ke sAtha na mAnate hoM, lekina ImAnadArI eka-dUsare ke sAtha baratate haiN| utanA to puNya hai| tuma aisA koI pApa kA kRtya nahIM khoja sakate jisameM puNya na ho| eka cora pakar3A gayA, to maijisTreTa bar3A hairAna thaa| usane kahA ki hamane sunA ki tuma nau daphe rAta meM isa dukAna meM ghuse! usane kahA, aura kyA karUM hujUra? akelA AdamI, pUrI dukAna DhonI thI! to maijisTreTa ne kahA ki to koI saMgI-sAthI nahIM? usane kahA ki jamAnA bar3A kharAba hai| saMgI-sAthI kisako banAo? jisako banAo vahI dhokhA de jAtA hai| cora bhI kahatA hai ki jamAnA kharAba hai aura Apa to jAnate hI haiN| saMgI-sAthI kisako banAo? corI bhI karanI ho to bhI jamAnA acchA honA caahie| kisI ko dhokhA denA ho to bhii| usa AdamI meM itanI, jisako tumheM dhokhA denA hai, itanI bhalamanasAhaMta to honI cAhie ki bharosA kre| pApa aura puNya guMthe par3e haiN| sAtha-sAtha jur3e haiN| na to tuma puNya kara sakate ho binA pApa kie na tuma pApa kara sakate ho binA puNya kie| sukha na sahacarI, luTerA bhI huA karatA hai khuzI meM gama kA baserA bhI huA karatA hai| apanI kismata kI syAhI ko kosane vAlo, cAMda ke sAtha aMdherA bhI huA karatA hai| ve saba jur3e haiN| isalie agara tuma eka se bacanA cAhoge to tuma jyAdA se jyAdA dUsare ko chipA sakate ho, lekina dUsare se bhAga nahIM skte| pApa-puNya eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| sikkA jAegA to pUrA jAegA AdhA nahIM bacAyA
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________________ jA sktaa| eka pahalU nahIM bacAyA jA sktaa| isalie aSTAvakra aura janaka ke saMvAda ke bIca jo krAMtikArI sUtra ghaTita ho rahA hai, vaha sAkSI kA hai| tumheM na to pApa chor3anA hai, na puNya chor3anA hai| na tumheM pApa pakar3anA hai, na puNya pakar3anA hai|
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________________ tumheM pakar3anA-chor3anA chor3anA hai| na pakar3o na chodd'o| tuma donoM se dUra haTa kara khar3e ho jAo, dekhane vAle bano, draSTA bano, sAkSI bano! aho aham cinmAtram jagata iNdrjaalopmm| ata: mana heyopAdeya kalpanA katham ca kutra isalie janaka ne kahA, mujhe to kalpanA bhI nahIM uThatI ki kauna ThIka, kauna glt| aba to saba ThIka yA saba glt| maiM jAla ke bAhara khar3A, cinmAtra! cinmayarUpa! kevala caitanya! kevala sAkSI! Apa kisase kaha rahe haiM tyAga kI bAta? ve kahane lge| Apa kisase kaha rahe haiM ki maiM jJAna ko upalabdha hoUM? iti jJAna! hari oma tatsat!
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________________ kitanI ladhu aMjuli hamArI-pravacana-nauvAM dinAMka: 4 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| prazna sAraH pahalA prazna : Apane kahA ki saba Adarza galata haiN| lekina kyA apane gaMtavya ko, apanI niyati ko pAne kA Adarza bhI utanA hI galata hai? rza galata hai; kisa bAta ko pAne kA Adarza hai, isase koI bheda nahIM pdd'taa| Adarza kA artha hai : bhaviSya meM hogaa| Adarza kA artha hai : kala hogaa| Adarza kA artha hai. Aja upalabdha nahIM hai| Adarza sthagana hai bhaviSya ke lie| jo tumhArI niyati hai use to Adarza banAne kI koI bhI jarUrata nahIM; vaha to hokara hI rahegA, vaha to huA hI huA hai| niyati kA artha hai, jo tumhArA svabhAva hai| isa kSaNa jo pUrA kA pUrA tumheM upalabdha hai vahI tumhArI niyati hai| saba Adarza niyati-virodhI haiN| Adarza kA artha hI yaha hotA hai ki tuma vaha honA cAhate ho jo tuma pAte ho ki ho na skoge| gulAba to gulAba ho jAtA hai, kamala kamala ho jAtA hai| kamala ke hRdaya meM kahIM koI Adarza nahIM hai ki maiM kamala bnN| agara kamala kamala bananA cAhe to pAgala hogA, kamala nahIM ho paaegaa| jo tuma ho vaha to tuma ho hI bIja se hI ho| usase to anyathA hone kA upAya nahIM hai| isalie niyati ke sAtha, svabhAva ke sAtha Adarza ko jor3anA to virodhAbhAsa hai| para hamAre mana para Adarza kI bar3I pakar3a hai| sadiyoM se hameM yahI sikhAyA gayA hai ki kucha honA hai, kucha bananA hai, kucha pAnA hai| daur3a sikhAI gaI, spardhA sikhAI gaI, vAsanA sikhAI gaI-anata- anaMta rUpoM meN| aSTAvakra kA udaghoSa yahI hai ki jo tumheM honA hai vaha tuma ho hii| kucha honA nahIM hai jInA hai| isa kSaNa tumheM saba upalabdha hai| eka kSaNa bhI TAlane kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| eka kSaNa bhI TAlA to bhrAMti meM pdd'e| tuma jInA zurU karo-tuma paripUrNa ho| samasta adhyAtma kI maulika udaghoSaNA yahI hai ki tuma paripUrNa ho, jaise tuma ho| hone ko kucha paramAtmA ne bAkI nahIM chor3A hai| aura jo paramAtmA ne bAkI chor3A hai, use tuma pUrA na kara paaoge|
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________________ jo paramAtmA nahIM kara sakA, use tuma kara sakoge - yaha ahaMkAra chodd'o| jo ho sakatA thA, ho gayA hai| jo paramAtmA ke lie saMbhava thA, vaha ghaTa gayA hai| tuma jInA zurU karo, TAlo mt| parama adhyAtma kI ghoSaNA yahI hai ki utsava kI ghar3I maujUda hai, tuma taiyArI mata kro| eka taiyArI karane vAlA citta hai jo utsava meM kabhI sammilita nahIM hotA, sadA taiyArI karatA hai. yaha taiyAra kara lUM vaha taiyAra kara lUM vaha hamezA TAima-Tebala dekhatA rahatA hai; kabhI Trena para savAra nahIM hotaa| Trena sAmane bhI khar3I ho to vaha TAima-Tebala meM ulajhA hotA hai| vaha sadA bistara bAMdhatA hai, lekina kabhI yAtrA para jAtA nhiiN| vaha sadA makAna banAtA hai, lekina kabhI usameM rahatA nhiiN| vaha dhana kamAtA hai, lekina dhana ko kabhI bhogatA nhiiN| basa vaha taiyArI karatA hai| tuma aise taiyArI karane vAle karor3oM logoM ko cAroM tarapha dekhoge vahI haiM, unhIM kI bhIr3a hai| ve saba taiyArI kara rahe haiN| ve kaha rahe haiM, kala bhogeMge, parasoM bhogeNge| inameM sAMsArika bhI haiM, inameM AdhyAtmika jinako tuma kahate ho ve bhI sammilita haiM- tumhAre tathAkathita sAdhu-saMta aura mhaatmaa| ve kahate haiM yahAM kyA rakhA hai, svarga meM bhogeMge ! unakA kala aura bhI Age hai : marane ke bAda bhogeMge yahAM kyA rakhA hai! yahAM to saba kSaNabhaMgura! yahAM to sirpha pIr3ita honA hai, parezAna honA hai aura kala kI taiyArI karanI hai| lekina tumane dekhA, kala kabhI AtA nahIM! kala kabhI AyA hI nhiiN| isalie maiM tumase kahatA hUM : svarga kabhI AtA nahIM, kabhI AyA hI nhiiN| svarga to kala kA vistAra hai| kala hI nahIM AtA, svarga kaise AegA? jisa AdamI ne kala meM apane svarga ko dekhA hai, usakA Aja narka hogA- basa itanA pakkA hai| kala to AegA nhiiN| aura jaba bhI kala AegA Aja hokara aaegaa| aura agara tumane yaha galata Adata sIkha lI ki tuma kala meM hI najara lagAe rahe to tuma Aja ko sadA cUkate jaaoge| aura jaba bhI AegA Aja AegA; jo bhI AegA Aja kI taraha AegA / aura tumhArI AMkheM kala para lagI rheNgii| kala kabhI AtA nhiiN| aise tuma vaMcita ho jaaoge| aise tuma, jo milA thA use na bhoga paaoge| jo hAtha meM rakhA thA use na dekha paaoge| jo maujUda thA, jo nRtya-gIta cala hI rahA thA, usameM tuma sammilita na ho paaoge| adhyAtma kI AtyaMtika ghoSaNA yahI hai ki samaya ke jAla meM mata pdd'o| samaya hai mana kA jAla / astitva maujUda hai-utaro, chalAMga lo! taiyArI sadA se pUrI hai, sirpha tumhArI pratIkSA hai| tuma nAco! tuma yaha mata kaho ki kala nAceMge, aura tuma yaha mata kaho ki Ayana Ter3hA hai, nAce kaise? jise nAcanA AtA hai, vaha Ter3he AMgana meM bhI nAca letA hai| aura jise nAcanA nahIM AtA, apAna kitanA hI sIdhA, caukora ho jAe to bhI nAca na paaegaa| mullA nasaruddIna kI AMkheM kharAba ho gaI thIM, to vaha ilAja karAne gyaa| DaoNkTara se pUchane lagA ki kyA merI AMkhoM ke Aparezana ke bAda maiM par3hane meM samartha ho jAUMgA? DaoNkTara ne kahA, nishcit| yaha jAlI hai, ise hama kATa deMge AMkha se, tuma par3hane meM samartha ho jAoge /
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________________ mullA ne kahA, dhanyavAda bhagavAna kA, kyoMki maiM kabhI par3hanA-likhanA sIkhA nhiiN| agara par3hanA-likhanA AtA hI nahIM to AMkha kI jAlI kaTane se par3hanA nahIM A jaaegaa| agara nAcanA AtA hI nahIM to tuma svarga meM bhI rooge| tumheM ronA hI AtA hai| tuma svarga meM bhI baiTha kara pothA-purANa khola kara socoge ki aba Age kyA hai? tuma svarga meM bhI kahoge, kyA rakhA hai yahAM? kyoMki tumane eka hI gaNita aura eka hI tarka sIkhA hai ki yahAM to kucha bhI nahIM rakhA hai; sadA vahAM, kahIM aura, kahIM aura hai jIvana barasa rahA, yahAM to basa mauta hai! tuma jaisA tarka pakar3e ho, agara kisI bhUla-cUka se tuma svarga pahuMca jAo to tuma use narka meM rUpAMtarita kara loge| tumheM hara cIja ko narka banAne kI kalA AtI hai| aura usa kalA kA sabase mahatvapUrNa sUtra yahI hai ki Aja ko mata dekhanA kala kI AzA rakhanA, kala hogA saba! Aja to saha lo, Aja to ro lo; kala haMseMge! Aja to rudana hai, AMsU haiM, kala hoMgI muskuraahtteN| lekina kala jaba taka AegA taba taka rone kA abhyAsa bhI saghana ho rahA hai, ise yAda rkhnaa| pratipala tuma ro rahe ho, Aja tuma ro rahe ho| roja rote-rote rone kI kalA AtI jA rahI hai, AMkheM sUjatI jA rahI haiM, AMsUo ke sivAe tumhArI aura koI kuzalatA nahIM hai| kala AegA tumhAre dvAra para, lekina isa abhyAsa ko tuma acAnaka chor3a thor3e hI pAoge! kala phira Aja kI taraha aaegaa| phira tumhArA purAtana tarka kAma karegA kala; aura ro lo! aise hI tuma rote rahe ho janmoM -janmoM, aise hI tuma ro rahe ho| agara aise hI tumheM ronA hai, rote rahanA hai, to banAo Adarza! maiM tumase kahatA hUM : Adarza-mukta ho jaao| tumheM ghabar3AhaTa hotI hai, kyoMki tumhArA citta kahatA hai, Adarza-mukta? tumhArA ahaMkAra kahatA hai, Adarza-mukta paDa to usakA to matalaba huA ki phira tuma kabhI paripUrNa na ho paaoge| maiM tumase kahatA hUM tuma paripUrNa ho| pUrNatA tumheM milIhai-varadAna hai, bheMTa hai paramAtmA kI! agara paramAtmA pUrNa hai to usase apUrNa paidA ho hI nahIM sktaa| aura agara paramAtmA se apUrNa paidA ho rahA hai to tuma eka bAta pakkI mAno ki tuma apUrNa se pUrNa kI koI saMbhAvanA nhiiN| thor3A soco to hisAba kyA huA? pUrNa se apUrNa paidA ho rahA hai, pahale to yaha bAta glt| pUrNa se pUrNa hI paidA hotA hai| upaniSada kahate haiM : pUrNa se pUrNa nikAla lo to bhI pIche pUrNa zeSa raha jAtA hai| pUrNa se tuma apUrNa to nikAla hI na sakoge pAoge kahAM apUrNa? aura phira aba eka to tumane yaha bhrAMti pAla rakhI hai ki pUrNa se apUrNa ho sakatA hai| aba dUsarI bhAMti isa bhrAMti se paidA ho rahI hai ki aba isa apUrNa ko pUrNa honA hai| aba aerNa ceSTA karegA pUrNa hone kii| thor3A soco, apUrNa kI saba ceSTAeM apUrNa raheMgI! aura apUrNa se pUrNa ko nikAlane kA koI upAya nahIM hai| agara tuma sahI ho to narka hI ekamAtra satya hai| agara maiM sahI hUM to svarga ho sakatA hai| cunAva tumhArA hai| aura tumhArI jiMdagI hai aura tumheM cunanA hai| maiM tumase kahatA hUM bhogo jIvana ko isa kSaNa! nAco, gunagunAo AnaMdita hoo! yaha AnaMda kA abhyAsa saghana hogA to isI AnaMda ke abhyAsa kI saghanatA meM kala bhI aaegaa| aura tuma Aja meM hI rasa lenA sIkha loge, to kala bhI tuma rasa loge,
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________________ aura rasadhAra bhegii| parasoM bhI AegA, taba taka tumhArA rasa kA abhyAsa aura gahana ho jaaegaa| tuma aura rasa se bhara jaaoge| tuma aura mugdha matavAle, tumhAre roeM-roeM meM madirA phaila gaI hogii| parasoM bhI AegA; tuma aura nAcoge, aura gungunaaoge| dhIre-dhIre tuma pAoge, tumheM nAcanA A gyaa| aba AMgana Ter3hA ho ki caukora, AMgana ho ki na ho, aba tuma nAca sakate ho| aba to tuma baiThe bhI raho zAMta to bhI bhItara nRtya calatA hai| aba to tuma na bhI bolo to bhI gIta uThate haiN| aba to tuma kucha bhI na karo to bhI kamala khilate cale jAte haiN| niyati, svabhAva kA itanA hI artha hai jo apane se ho rahA hai, aura jo apane se hogaa| jise karane ke lie ceSTA kI jarUrata hai, vaha tumhArI niyati nhiiN| ceSTA kA artha hI yaha hotA hai ki kucha niyati ke viparIta karane cale ho; tumane kucha apanI yojanA bnaaii| jo paramAtmA ne tumheM blUpriMTa diyA, jo paramAtmA ne tumheM jIvana kI dizA dI, gaMtavya diyA, usase anyathA tumane koI yojanA bnaaii| aura isalie to tumhArI yojanA kabhI pUrI nahIM hotii| sadA tumhArI yojanA TUTatI hai parAjita hotI tuma paramAtmA se lar3a kara jIta na skoge| usase jItane kA eka hI rAstA hai, usase hAra jaanaa| prema meM hAra hI vijaya hai| prArthanA meM bhI vahI bAta hai| prArthanA meM bhI hAra vijaya hai| tuma hAro! tumane kaba se bAMdha rakhe Adarza, kyA karoge? aura itanA bhI tuma nahIM dekhate ki jIvana bhara Adarza kI ceSTA karake tuma upalabdha kyA kara pAte ho? maiM dekhatA hUM koI brahmacarya kA Adarza banAe baiThA hai| saba taraha se apane ko kasatA hai| dIvAleM banAtA hai, bAdhAeM khar3I karatA hai, chAtI para patthara aTakAtA hai, tAki kisI taraha vAsanA na utthe| lekina jitanI ceSTA karatA hai utanA hI vAsanA se bharatA calA jAtA hai| vAsanA mAlUma hotI hai paramAtmA kI hai, aura brahmacarya tumhArA hai| vAsanA to tumheM milI hai, brahmacarya tuma lA rahe ho| vAsanA to svAbhAvika, prAkRtika hai; brahmacarya Adarza hai| ____ maiM yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki brahmacarya phalita nahIM hotA phalita hotA hai, lekina aise hI phalita hotA hai jaise vAsanA phalita huI hai| tuma chor3o paramAtmA para, tuma sahaja bhAva se bahe cale jaao| vaha jahAM le cale-kabhI aMdhere, kabhI ujAle; kabhI AMsUo meM, kabhI muskurAhaToM meM tuma cale clo| tuma niSThA rkho| tuma vAsanA meM bhI yahI khayAla rakho. prabhu kI marjI! usane jo cAhA hai, ho rahA hai| tumane to vAsanA paidA nahIM kii| eka mahAtmA mere pAsa Ae aura kahane lage : basa, vAsanA se chuTakArA karavA deN| maiMne kahA, tumane paidA kI hai? unhoMne kahA ki nahIM, maiMne to paidA nahIM kI hai| maiMne kahA, jo tumane paidA nahIM kI use tuma miTA na skoge| jo tumane paidA kI hai use tuma miTA sakate ho| tuma patnI ko chor3a kara bhAga sakate ho, kyoMki patnI tumane cunI hai, banAI hai| lekina vAsanA chor3a kara kahAM bhAgoge? jahAM jAoge vAsanA rhegii| tuma striyoM se AMkha baMda kara le sakate ho, tuma AMkha phor3a le sakate ho| striyoM ko dekho na dekho, isase kucha pharka na pdd'egaa| vAsanA ko kaise miTAoge? aMdhA bhI vAsanA ko dekhatA
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________________ rahatA hai| tumane sunI hai sUradAsa kI kathA? mujhe ThIka nahIM mAlUma par3atI, saca nahIM mAlUma pdd'tii| kyoMki kathA aisI behUdI hai ki sUradAsa kA sArA mUlya kharAba ho jAtA hai| sUradAsa jaise kImatI manuSya ke jIvana meM aisI ghaTanA ghaTa sakatI hai, yaha maiM mAnane ko rAjI nahIM ghaTI ho to sUradAsa do kaur3I ke / na ghaTI ho, to hI sUradAsa meM kucha mUlya hai| kathA kahatI hai ki sUradAsa ne eka suMdara yuvatI ko dekhA aura ve cala par3e usake piiche| usake dvAra para bhikSA mAMgI, phira roja-roja bhikSA mAMgane jAne lge| phakIra haiN| apanA lie ikatArA, gIta gunagunAte rahate haiM, lekina saba gIta aba usa strI kI tarapha samarpita hone lge| ghabar3AhaTa paidA huii| to kahate haiM, apanI AMkheM phor3a ddaaliiN| sUradAsa usa dina hue| AMkheM phor3a lIM aMdhe ho ge| kyoMki socA ki jo AMkheM bhaTakA rahI haiM, ina AMkhoM se kyA saMga-sAtha ! yaha kahAnI jarUra nAsamajhoM ne gar3hI hogii| kyoMki AMkheM phor3a lene se vAsanA se kahIM mukti hotI hai? AMkheM phor3a lene se to vAsanA bAhara dikhAI par3atI thI, aba bhItara dikhAI par3ane lgegii| tuma kabhI soco, eka suMdarI jAtI ho rAste se, ghabar3AhaTa meM AMkheM baMda kara lo, sAdhu-mahAtmA ho jAo to AMkheM baMda karake kyA strI kA rUpa kho jAtA hai? aura suMdara ho kara pragaTa hotA hai| aura sugaMdhita ho kara pragaTa hotA hai| vaha sAdhAraNa-sI strI, jo khulI AMkha se dekhate to zAyada usase chuTakArA bhI ho jaataa| kauna strI, kauna puruSa itanA suMdara hai ki agara ThIka se dekho to chuTakArA na ho jAe agara gaura se dekhate to mukta bhI ho jaate| aba AMkha baMda karake to bar3I muzkila ho gii| aba to strI apsarA ho gaI, sapanA bana gii| tumane khayAla kiyA, tumhAre sapanoM meM jaisI suMdara striyAM hotI haiM, aisI suMdara striyAM jagata meM nahIM haiM! isalie to kavi bar3e atRpta rahate haiM, kyoMki ve jaisI kalpanA kara lete haiM striyoM kI, vaisI striyAM kahIM milatI nahIM / citrakAra bar3e atRpta rahate haiM, mUrtikAra bar3e atRpta rahate haiN| kisI se mana nahIM bhrtaa| aba jo mUrti gar3hatA hai, usakI rUpa kI kalpanA bar3I pragAr3ha hai / nAka-nakyA kA usakA anupAta bar3A gaharA hai| vaha to ati suMdara ho to hI suMdara ho sakatA hai, vaisA to koI ceharA kahIM milatA nhiiN| sapane itane suMdara haiM ki yathArtha unase phIkA par3atA hai| to jisakI bhI kalpanA pragAr3ha hai, vaha kabhI jIvana meM tRpta nahIM hotaa| usakI kalpanA hI kahe calI jAtI hai. isameM kyA rakhA hai? isameM kyA rakhA hai? usakI kalpanA tulanA kA AdhAra rahatI hai| AMkha baMda karane se kalpanA to na miTegI, sapane to na mitteNge| AMkha baMda karane se to jo UrjA thor3I-bahuta bAhara calI jAtI thI, sapane nahIM banatI thI, vaha bhI sapane banane lgegii| sArI UrjA sapanA banane lgegii| to jisa vyakti ne vAsanA ke khilApha brahmacarya kA Adarza banAyA, vaha brahmacarya ko to upalabdha nahIM hotA, eka mAnasika vyabhicAra ko upalabdha hotA hai| usake bhItara bhItara vAsanA daur3ane lagatI hai| maiM yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki brahmacarya ghaTita nahIM hotA, lekina Adarza kI taraha kabhI ghaTita nahIM hotaa| vAsanA ko samajha kara vAsanA ko jI kara, vAsanA ke anubhava se, vAsanA ke rasa meM DUba kara pratIti se, sAkSAta se, dhIre - dhIre tumheM dikhAI par3atA hai ki vAsanA se kucha bhI milane ko nahIM hai /
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________________ aura dhIre - dhIre vAsanA meM hI tumheM dikhAI par3anA zurU hotA hai-nirvAsanA kI pahalI pahalI jhlkeN| brahmacarya kI pahalI jhalakeM vAsanA kI gaharAI meM hI milatI haiN| saMbhoga kI AtyaMtika gaharAI meM hI pahalI daphe samAdhi kI kiraNa utaratI hai| vaisI kiraNa jaba utara AtI hai, basa phira ghaTanA ghaTa gii| phira tuma usa kiraNa ke sahAre cala par3o, sUraja taka pahuMca jaaoge| phira tumheM koI roka sakatA nhiiN| lekina vaha ghaTanA utanI hI svAbhAvika hai, jaise vAsanA svAbhAvika hai, kAmanA svAbhAvika hai, brahmacarya bhI svAbhAvika hai| thopA, Aropita, Ayojita brahmacarya do kaur3I kA hai| tuma hiMsaka ho, ahiMsA kA Adarza banA lete ho| saca to yaha hai ki tuma AdamI kA Adarza dekha kara batA sakate ho ki AdamI kaisA hogA, ulTA kara lenaa| agara AdamI kA Adarza brahmacarya ho to samajha lenA kAmI AdamI hai| kAmI ke atirikta kauna brahmacarya kA Adarza banAegA! agara AdamI dAna ko Adarza mAnatA ho, to samajhanA lobhI hai| agara AdamI karuNA ko Adarza mAnatA ho, samajhanA krodhI hai| agara AdamI kahatA ho, jIvana meM zAMti Adarza hai to samajha lenA, azAMta AdamI hai, vikSipta AdamI hai| tuma mujhe batA do kisI AdamI kA Adarza aura maiM batA dUMgA usakA yathArtha kyA hai| yathArtha bilakula viparIta hogaa| isa gaNita meM tumheM kabhI cUka na hogii| tuma pUcha lo AdamI se ApakA Adarza kyA hai mahAnubhAva? aura Apa unake yathArtha se paricita ho jaaoge| agara AdamI kahe ki acaurya merA Adarza hai, to apanI jeba saMbhAla lenA; yaha AdamI cora hai| kyoMki cora ke lie hI kevala acaurya kA Adarza ho sakatA hai| jo AdamI cora nahIM hai use to khayAla bhI nahIM AegA ki acaurya bhI Adarza hai| agara vaha kahe ki ImAnadArI merA Adarza hai, to vaha beImAna hai| tuma AdarzoM ko mata dekhnaa| tuma tatkSaNa viparIta khojanA-aura tumheM acAnaka usa AdamI ke jIvana kI kuMjI mila jaaegii| jisa AdamI ke jIvana meM ImAnadArI hai use ImAnadArI kA khayAla hI nahIM raha jAtA; jo hai, usakA khayAla hI bhUla jAtA hai| svastha AdamI ke jIvana meM kabhI bhI svAsthya kA Adarza nahIM hotA; bImAra AdamI ke jIvana meM hotA hai| tuma bImAroM ko dekhoge prAkRtika cikitsA kI kitAbeM par3ha rahe haiM, ailopaithI, homyopaithI, bAyokemisTrI aura na mAlUma kahAM-kahAM se khoja kara le Ate haiN| bImAra AdamI ko tuma hamezA svAsthya ke zAstra par3hate dekhoge| svastha AdamI ko hairAnI hotI hai ki kucha aura par3hane ko nahIM hai? yaha kyA par3ha rahe ho tuma? prAkRtika cikitsA, ki peTa para miTTI bAMdho, ki sira para gIlA kapaDA rakho, ki Taba meM leTe raho, ki upavAsa kara lo, ki aisA karo, ki enImA le lo, yaha tuma kara kyA rahe ho? yaha koI...? vaha AdamI kahegA, svAsthya merA Adarza hai| lekina yaha AdamI bImAra hai| yaha burI taraha se bImAra hai| isakA roga bhayAnaka hai| yaha roga se grasta hai| aura Adarza banAnA kahIM aura se nahIM AtA tumhAre roga se AtA hai| svastha AdamI ko svAsthya kA patA nahIM cltaa| vastuta: svAsthya kI paribhASA yahI hai ki jaba tumheM zarIra kA bilakula patA
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________________ na cale to tuma svastha / agara zarIra kA kahIM bhI patA cale to bImAra / bImArI kA matalaba kyA hotA hai gra sira meM jaba darda hotA hai to sira kA patA calatA hai| sira meM darda na ho to sira kA patA calatA hI nhiiN| tuma soco, dekho| sira kI tumheM yAda kaba AtI hai guma jaba sira meM darda hotA hai| agara koI AdamI caubIsa ghaMTe sira ke saMbaMdha meM socane lage to samajhanA ki sira usakA rugNa hai| paira meM kAMTA gar3atA hai to paira kA patA calatA hai| jUtA kATatA hai to jUte kA patA calatA hai| agara jUtA kATatA na ho to jUte kA patA calatA hai? jisa cIja se pIr3A hotI hai usakA hameM patA calatA hai| jaba patA calatA hai to usase viparIta ko hama Adarza banAte haiN| Adarza rugNa citta ke lakSaNa haiN| svastha vyakti Adarza nahIM banAtA; jo sthiti hai, usako samajhane kI koziza karatA hai, usako jIne kI koziza karatA hai-dhyAna - pUrvaka, hozapUrvaka / aura usI hoza se svAsthya phalita hotA hai| usI hoza se brahmacarya phalita hotA hai, karuNA phalita hotI hai| tuma apane krodha ko samajho, krodha ko jIyo - karuNA apane Apa A jaaegii| Adarza mata bnaao| tuma apanI kAmavAsanA ko pahacAno, dIyA jalAo hoza kaa| tuma kAmavAsanA meM hozapUrvaka jaao| aise Dare-Dare, sakucAte, parezAna, ghabaDAe hue tane hue nahIM jAnA aura jAnA par3a rahA hai-aise aparAdha meM DUbe hue mata jaao| isameM kucha sAra na hogaa| sahaja bhAva se jaao| prabhu ne jo diyA hai artha hogaa| jo samagra meM uTha rahA hai, usameM artha hogaa| tuma yahAM hote nahIM agara vAsanA na hotI; na tumhAre mahAtmA hote, na brahmacarya kA upadeza dene vAle hote| ve saba vAsanA ke hI phala haiN| to jisa vAsanA se buddha jaise loga paidA hote, usa vAsanA ko gAlI doge ? jisa vAsanA se mahAvIra jaise phala lagate, usako gAlI doge ? jisa vAsanA se aSTAvakra janmate, tuma use gAlI dete thor3A saMkoca nahIM karate? agara brahmacarya isa jagata meM phalA hai to vAsanA se hI phalA hai| phala ko to tuma Adara dete ho, vRkSa ko iMkAra karate ho? to tuma bhUla kara rahe ho| to tumhAre jIvana ke gaNita meM sApha-sutharApana nahIM, bar3I ulajhana hai, bar3A vibhrama hai| buddha hoM ki mahAvIra, kRSNa hoM ki muhammada ki krAisTa - saba Ate haiN| vAsanA ke sAgara meM hI ye lahareM uThatI haiM aura brahmacarya kI UMcAI para pahuMca jAtI haiN| sAgara ko dhanyavAda do virodha mata kro| jaba maiM kahatA hUM, sabhI Adarza khataranAka haiM, to merA matalaba itanA hI hai ki jIvana paryApta hai, isake Upara tuma aura Adarza mata thopI, jIvana meM gahare utaro / jIvana kI gaharAI meM hI tuma una maNiyoM ko pAoge, jinako tuma cAhate ho / vAsanA meM utara kara milatA hai brhmcry| maiM yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki sabhI vAsanA se bhare logoM ko brahmacarya mila jAegA yA mila gayA hai| merI zarta khayAla meM rakhanA / vAsanA meM utara kara milatA hai, lekina jo jAgarUkatA se utaratA hai, basa usI ko milatA hai, jo sAkSI- bhAva se utaratA hai, usI
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________________ ko milatA hai| to duniyA meM do taraha ke loga haiM sAdhAraNata: -vAsanA meM utarate mUrchA se, unako kucha nahIM milatA: phira vAsanA se bhayabhIta ho kara bhAgate brahmacarya kI tarapha mA meM, unako bhI kucha nahIM miltaa| milatA use hai jo sajaga ho kara, jAga kara, jIvana jo dikhAe use dekhane ko rAjI hotA hai: jo kahatA hai, merI nijI koI marjI nahIM, prabhu jo dikhAegA use dekheMge, lekina sAkSI ko jagA kara dekheMge, pUrA-pUrA dekheMge, rattI-rattI dekheMge, kucha chor3a na deMge, chor3ane kI jaldI na kreNge| aise sajaga jAgaraNa meM sabhI Adarza apane - Apa phalane lagate haiN| jaba maiM tumase kahatA hUM Adarza chor3o to maiM AdarzoM ke virodha meM nahIM huuN| agara tuma merI bAta samajho to maiM hI AdarzoM ke pakSa meM huuN| kyoMki jo maiM kaha rahA hUM usI se Adarza phleNge| aura jo tuma sunate rahe ho, usase Adarza kabhI nahIM phlte| Adarza ke pIche daur3o aura Adarza kabhI na milegaa| aura maiM tumase kahatA hUM. ruko, jo hai usameM utro| Adarza apane-Apa phala jaaeNge| svabhAva kA artha hI yahI hai, niyati kA artha hI yahI hai. kucha karane ko nahIM hai| jAga kara jInA hai| aura jAganA koI karanA thor3e hI hai! vaha to tumhArI kSamatA hI hai| usameM kucha kRtya jaisA nahIM hai| lekina ahaMkAra AdarzoM se palatA hai| tuma cakita hooge| ahaMkAra bahuta ghabar3AtA hai isa bAta se jo maiM kaha rahA huuN| kyoMki agara merI bAta tumane mAnI to ahaMkAra isI kSaNa mara jaaegaa| phira ahaMkAra ko sajAne ke lie koI upAya na rhegaa| ahaMkAra sajatA hai AdarzoM se| na to kabhI Adarza milate, lekina ahaMkAra kI daur3a ho jaatii| daur3a meM ahaMkAra hai| aura Adarza daur3a kI suvidhA dete haiN| kisI ko dhana kamAnA hai, to ahaMkAra ko suvidhA hai| kisI ko pada para pahuMcanA hai to ahaMkAra ko suvidhA hai| kisI ko mokSa pAnA hai, to ahaMkAra ko suvidhA hai| kisI ko tyAgI bananA hai, to ahaMkAra ko suvidhA hai| maiM kahatA hUM. kucha bananA nahIM, tuma ho! to daur3a khtm| daur3a girI, ahaMkAra giraa| ahaMkAra bar3I sUkSma prakriyA hai| agara tumane nirahakAritA kA Adarza banA liyA to bhI ahaMkAra banA rhegaa| ahaMkAra kahatA hai, nirahaMkAra honA hai| phira calI yAtrA, phira cala par3e tum| phira mana kA vyApAra zurU ho gyaa| ___ tuma koI Adarza mata bnaao| phira dekho kyA ghaTatA hai! tuma itanA hI kaha do ki jo hUM hUM aisA hUM! khola kara rakha do apanI kitAba, DhAMko mt| udaghoSaNA kara do ki burA hUM pApI hUM krodhI hUM kAmI hUM-aisA huuN| aura apane banAe hUM aisA nahIM, kyoMki maiMne kabhI aisA bananA nahIM caahaa| aisA maiMne apane ko pAyA hai to maiM kara kyA sakatA hUM? dekheMgA jo hai| baiTha kara dekheMge isa khela ko, jo prabhu ne dikhAnA cAhA, jarUra koI rAja hogaa| aura rAja hai| rAja yahI hai ki isa lIlA ko tuma dekhane vAle bana jAo, tuma draSTA bana jaao| Adarza tumheM kartA banA dete haiM, kucha karane kA maukA ho jAtA hai| maiM tumase Adarza chIna rahA huuN| aSTAvakra tumase Adarza chIna rahe haiM sirpha isalie tAki kartA
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________________ ko koI jagaha na bce| Adarza gae to karane ke saba upAya ge| phira karoge kyA? phira to honA hI bcaa| zuddha honA! Adarza se sAvadhAna rahanA! Adarza ke kAraNa hI tumhArA jIvana rikta raha gayA hai| Adarza ke kAraNa hI Adarza nahIM phala pAe, nahIM phUla paae| agara saca meM hI tuma cAhate ho ki Adarza tumhAre jIvana ko bhara deM to AdarzoM ko bilakula bhUla jAo aura jIvana ke sAkSI ho jaao| jaisA hai, hai| jo hai, hai| isa tathAtA meM tthhro| isameM rattI bhara hera-phera karane kI AkAMkSA mata kro| tuma ho kauna? tuma hera-phera kara kaise sakoge? jarA dhArmika logoM kI viDaMbanA to dekho! eka tarapha kahate haiM, usake binA hilAe pattA nahIM hilatA, aura ye mahAtmA bana rahe haiM-usake binA hilAe! inase thor3A pUcho ki jaba usake binA hilAe pattA nahIM hilatA to yaha pApI kaise hilegA? jaba vaha hilAkA, hilege| jaba taka nahIM hilAtA to jarUra koI rAja hogA, svIkAra kreNge| agara dukha de rahA hai to jarUra mAMjane ke lie de rahA hogaa| agara kAmanA dI hai to jarUra jalane ke lie dI hogii| isI Aga se gujara kara nikharegA ruup| to svIkAra kreNge| pattA nahIM hilatA usakI binA AjJA ke, aura tuma sAre jIvana ko badala dene kI ceSTA kara rahe ho? tuma ho kauna? aura tumhAre kie kaba kyA huA hai? aura phira isa jAla ko aura bhI thor3A gaura se dekho| tuma jo bhI karoge, tumhI karoge na? kAmI koziza karegA brahmacarya lAne kI, lekina kAmI koziza karegA na? kAmI kI koziza kAmanA kI hI hogii| krodhI koziza karegA karuNA kI, krodhI karegA na? to krodhI kI sArI ceSTA meM krodha hogaa| karuNA bhI krodha se viSAkta ho jaaegii| ahaMkArI vinamra banane kI ceSTA karatA hai, para ahaMkArI karatA hai| to tuma vinamra AdamiyoM ko dekho! una jaise saje-sajAe ahaMkArI tumheM kahIM bhI na mileNge| koI AdamI AtA hai, tumase kahatA hai : Apake pairoM kI dhUla hUM maiM vaha yaha nahIM kaha rahA hai ki maiM pairoM kI dhUla huuN| vaha yaha kaha rahA hai maiM bar3A vinamra AdamI huuN| vaha yaha kaha rahA hai ki aba tuma mujhase kaho ki nahIM-nahIM, Apa aura pairoM kI dhUla? Apa to saratAja haiM! vaha yaha sunane ko khar3A hai ki bolo aba! vaha yaha kaha rahA hai ki chuo mere caraNa! dekho maiMne itanI vinamratA dikhAI ki kahA ki maiM tumhAre pairoM kI dhUla hUM aura agara tumane mAna liyA ki nahIM, Apa bilakula ThIka kahate haiM, pahale to maiM to aisA mAnatA hI hUM sadA se ki Apa bilakula pairoM kI dhUla haiN| to vaha AdamI tumheM jiMdagI bhara mApha na kara skegaa| hAlAMki kahA usI ne thaa| tumane kucha aura kucha jor3A na thaa| tumane itanA hI kahA ki Apa bilakula ThIka kaha rahe haiN| sabhI ko patA hai| eka-eka AdamI jAnatA hai isa gAMva meM ki Apa bilakula pairoM kI dhUla, pairoM kI dhUla se bhI gae bIte haiN| phira dekhanA usa AdamI kI AMkha meM kaisI Aga jalatI hai! taba tumheM pakkA patA calegA ki vinamratA kI oTa meM bhI ahaMkAra palatA hai| lekina svAbhAvika hai| ahaMkAra hI vinamra hone kI koziza kara rahA hai, anyathA hogA bhI kaise?
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________________ to maiM tumhAre viparIta kinhIM AdarzoM ko tumhAre Upara nahIM thopanA caahtaa| kyoMki tumhI thopoge unheM, ar3acana khar3I hogii| maiM to cAhatA hUM ki tuma jIvana jaisA tumhArA hai, jo tumhAre jIvana kA yathArtha hai, usa yathArtha ko smjho| usI yathArtha kI samajha meM se khileMge phUla, uTheMge giit| usI yathArtha ke bodha meM se tumhAre jIvana meM krAMti ghttegii| krAMti ghaTatI hai-tumhAre ghaTAe nahIM ghtttii| tuma jAga kara dekhane lago jo hai-aura ghaTatI hai! krAMti prabhu-prasAda hai| dUsarA prazna : eka hI sapanA bAra-bAra punasthya hotA hai, isalie pUchatA huuN| sapanA aisA hai: maiM kAra calA rahA hUM, pahAr3I rAstA hai aura yAtrA Upara kI ora hai| acAnaka kAra pIche kI tarapha jAne lagatI hai-rivrs| aura maiM rokane kI koziza karatA hUM, lekina na maiM giyara saMbhAla pAtA hUM aura na breka aura na sttiiyriNg| asahAya hokara durghaTanA ke kinAre pahuMca jAtA hUM aura tabhI cauMka kara jAga jAtA huuN| kabhIkabhI kAra jaba utAra para hotI hai, taba bhI merA saba niyaMtraNa jAtA rahatA hai| lekina eka bAta sadA mahasUsa hotI hai ki yadayapi maiM DrAivara hUM to bhI merA paira eksIlareTara para nahIM hai| gAr3I apane Apa calatI hai| maiM rokane kI koziza karatA hUM aura niyaMtraNa nahIM rakha pAtA huuN| pUchA hai 'ajita sarasvatI' ne| sapanA mahatvapUrNa hai aura sabhI ke kAma kA hai| aura abhI-abhI jo maiM pahale prazna ke uttara meM kaha rahA thA, usase jur3A huA hai| usI saMdarbha meM samajhane kI koziza krnaa| 'maiM kAra calA rahA hUM, pahAr3I rAstA hai, yAtrA Upara kI ora hai| sabhI loga jIvana ko Upara kI ora khIMca rahe haiM pahAr3I para! Adarza yAnI pahAr3a, Upara! sabhI koziza kara rahe haiM. gaMgotrI meM pahuMca jAeM gaMgA meM taira kr| gaMgA ke sAtha jAne ko koI taiyAra nahIM viparIta jA rahe haiN| dhAra ke viparIta baha rahe haiN| ahaMkara ko majA hI dhAra ke viparIta bahane meM hai| dhAra ke sAtha bahane meM kyA majA! dhAra ke sAtha bahane meM to tuma bacate hI nahIM, dhAra hI bacatI hai| tumhArA kyA hai? chor3a die hAtha-paira, cala par3e, to gaMgA tumheM le jAegI sAgara taka, girA degI vahAM baMgAla kI khAr3I meN| lekina tumhArA kyA? tuma itanA bhI to na kaha pAoge ki maiMne itanI yAtrA kii| loga hNseNge| ve kaheMge, 'tumane yAtrA kI? yaha to gaMgA kI yAtrA hai| tuma to bace kahAM? tuma to usI dina miTa gae jisa dina tumane dhAra meM apane ko chodd'aa| tuma to baca sakate the eka hI tarakIba se ki lar3ate dhAra se, jAte Upara kI trph|
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________________ ulaTe bhte| viparIta karate kuch| to dekhanA tuma, tumhArA tyAgI, tumhArA mahAtmA mahata rUpa se ahaMkArI ho jAtA hai| vaha dhAre ke viparIta baha rahA hai| vaha tumase kahatA hai. 'tuma kyA ho, kSudra manuSya! pApI! kAmavAsanA meM par3e ho / dekho mujhe, brahmacarya sAdha rahA hUM! tuma ho kyA? jamIna ke kIr3e, lobha meM par3e ho, krodha meM paDe ho! kSudra kSaNabhaMgura meM paDe ho! mujhe dekho, virATa kI talAza kara rahA hUM!' tuma jarA apane mahAtmAoM ko jA kara gaura se to dekhnaa| unakI AMkha meM hI tumhArI niMdA hai| unake vyavahAra meM tumhArI niMdA hai| unake uThane-baiThane meM tumhArI niMdA hai| ve dhAre ke viparIta jA rahe haiN| unhoMne ahaMkAra chor3ane kI koziza kI hai, vAsanA chor3I, krodha chor3A, dhana chor3A, parivAra chor3A, saba chodd'aa| tuma kyA kara rahe ho? tuma sAdhAraNa bhogI! tuma gaMgA meM baha rahe ho| tumheM bhI lagatA hai ki bAta to ThIka hai, hama kara kyA rahe haiM? isalie tuma bhI mahAtmAoM ke caraNa chUte ho| mahAtmAoM ke caraNa chUne meM tuma itanA hI kahate ho ki karanA to hamako bhI yahI hai, kara nahIM pA rahe, majabUirayAM haiM, hajAra jhaMjhaTeM haiM, ghara-dvAra, bAla-bacce, pAla lI ulajhana ! kara nahIM pA rahe, lekina Apako dekha kara prasannatA hotI hai ki calo koI to kara rahA hai| tuma koI AdamI zIrSAsana lagAe khar3A ho to ruka kara dekhane lagate ho| paira ke bala khar3e AdamI ko kauna dekhatA hai! vaha kucha ulaTA kara rahA hai| kATo para koI AdamI soyA ho to loga phUla car3hA lagate haiN| lekina tuma acchI zaiyA lagA kara aura leTa jAo, koI phUla na car3hAkA / ulaTe loga patthara mArane lageMge ki 'yaha kyA lagA hai? bIca meM, bAjAra meM upadrava kiyA huA hai! bistara apane ghara meM lagAo!' lekina kATo kI zaiyA para koI so jAe to loga phUla car3hAte haiN| acche bistara para, jJAnadAra bistara ko lagA kara koI leTa jAe to loga patthara mArate haiN| kyA, mAmalA kyA hai? AdamI ulaTe meM rasa letA mAlUma hotA hai, kyoMki ulaTe meM patA calatA hai ki koI kucha kara rahA hai| 'maiM kAra calA rahA hUM pahAr3I rAstA hai aura yAtrA Upara kI ora hai| sabhI yahI kara rahe haiM, yahI sabakA sapanA hai, aura yahI sabakI jiMdagI hai| aura tumhArI jiMdagI isa sapane se bhinna nahIM hai| 'acAnaka kAra pIche kI tarapha jAne lagatI hai- rivarsa / aura maiM rokane kI koziza karatA hUM / ' aise mauke jIvana meM bahuta bAra AeMge ki tuma to le jAnA cAhate ho pahAr3a kI coTI para lekina jIvana kI ghaTanAeM tumheM pIche kI tarapha le jAne lagatI haiN| taba ghabar3AhaTa paidA hotI hai| tuma to jAnA cAhate ho gaMgotrI kI tarapha aura gaMgA jA rahI hai sAgara kI tarapha, vaha tumheM sAgara kI tarapha le jAne lagatI hai| kaI daphA tuma thaka jaate| kaI daphA tuma hAra jAte / svAbhAvika ke viparIta kaba taka lar3oge? agara kAra ko Upara le jAnA ho to peTrola caahie| nIce lAnA ho to peTrola kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai, to peTrola baMda kara do, kAra apane se calI AegI, kyoMki nIce AnA svAbhAvika hai; grevITezana, jamIna kI kaziza khIMca letI hai| Upara jAnA asvAbhAvika hai, isalie bar3I zakti kI jarUrata par3atI hai|
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________________ to hajAra mauke AeMge jIvana meM, jaba tuma acAnaka pAoge kAra pIche kI tarapha sarakane lgii| aura jaba bhI aise mauke AeMge, tuma rokane kI koziza karoge; kyoMki yaha to tumhAre ahaMkAra ke bilakula viparIta ho rahA hai| yaha to tumhAre saMkalpa ke viparIta ho rahA hai| yaha to tumhArI hAra huI jAtI, yaha to tuma parAjita hone lage, yaha to viphalatA A gii| 'aura maiM rokane kI koziza karatA hUM lekina namaiM giyara samhAla pAtA hUM na breka aura na sttiiyriNg| 'yaha mere pAsa rahane kA pariNAma hai ajita sarasvatI! aba yaha saMbhalegA nhiiN| aba na to tuma giyara samhAla pAoge, na breka samhAla pAoge, na sttiiyriNg| kyoMki merA sArA prayojana tumheM samajhAne kA itanA hI hai ki jIvana ke sAtha ekarasa ho jaao| jahAM jIvana le jAe vahIM calo, vahIM maMjila hai| to aba tuma sapane meM bhI na roka pAoge, yaha zubha hai| roka lete to durghaTanA thii| yaha zubha hai ki aba sapane meM bhI tuma roka nahIM paate| tumhArA niyaMtraNa kho rahA hai| tumhArA niyaMtraNa kho rahA hai arthAta tumhArA ahaMkAra kho rahA hai, kyoMki ahaMkAra niyaMtA hai| jaise hI tumane ahaMkAra chor3A, paramAtmA niyaMtA hai, phira tuma niyaMtA nahIM ho| jaba taka tumhArA ahaMkAra hai, tuma niyaMtA ho, taba taka paramAtmA ityAdi kI tuma kitanI hI bAteM karo, lekina paramAtmA se tumhArA koI saMbaMdha nahIM bana sktaa| tuma ho, to paramAtmA nahIM hai| acchA ho rahA hai ki aba na giyara samhalatA, na breka lagatA, na sTIyariMga para pakar3a raha gaI hai| ' asahAya ho kara durghaTanA ke kinAre pahuMca jAtA huuN|' vaha durghaTanA jaisI lagatI hai, kyoMki tuma Upara jAnA cAhate the| khayAla rakhanA, kauna-sI bAta durghaTanA hai? ghaTanA para nirbhara nahIM hotA, tumhArI vyAkhyA para nirbhara hotA hai| tuma jo karanA cAhate the usake viparIta ho jAe to durghaTanA hai| tuma jo karanA cAhate the usake anukUla ho jAe to saubhAgya, phira durghaTanA nahIM hai| tumhAre Upara nirbhara hai| to vaha jo ahaMkAra kI choTI-sI bacI huI kahIM chipI kone meM par3I huI AzA hai, vaha tatkSaNa kahatI hai, yaha to durghaTanA huI jA rahI hai! niyaMtraNa khoe de rahe ho! yaha to kAra tumhArI tumhAre hAtha ke bAhara huI jA rahI hai| 'asahAya ho kara durghaTanA ke kinAre pahuMca jAtA huuN| tuma nahIM cAhate aura pahuMca jAte ho isalie asahAya avasthA mAlUma hotI hai| agara tuma cAhane lago to jise tuma asahAya kaha rahe ho, vaha asahAya na raha jaaegii| usI avasthA meM tuma pAoge, jahAM tumane apanA saba AdhAra chor3A, vahIM, jahAM tuma nirAdhAra hue vahIM paramAtmA kA AdhAra milaa| taba tuma acAnaka pAoge, pahalI daphA AsarA milaa| aba taka asahAya the, kyoMki apane sivAya apanA koI sahArA nahIM thaa| vaha bhI koI sahArA thA? tinakoM ko pakar3e the aura sAgara meM tairane kI socate the| kAgaja kI nAva meM baiThe the| aba pahalI daphA tuma pAoge ki besahArA ho kara sahArA milaa| hAre ko harinAma! jaise hI AdamI pUrNa rUpa se hAra jAtA hai, harinAma kA udaghoSa hotA hai| nirbala ke bala rAma! jaba tuma bilakula nirbala siddha ho jAte ho, saba taraha se asahAya, usI kSaNa tumheM prabhu kA sahArA milanA
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________________ zurU ho jAtA hai| tumhAre kAraNa hI bAdhA par3a rahI thI, aba koI bAdhA na rhii| 'asahAya ho kara durghaTanA ke kinAre pahuMca jAtA hUM aura tabhI cauMka kara jAga jAtA huuN|' vahIM jAgane kI ghaTanA ghaTegI jahAM ahaMkAra bilakula asahAya ho kara gira jAtA hai| yaha sapanA suMdara hai| yaha sapanA bar3A sArthaka hai| isakA eka-eka pratIka mUlyavAna hai| isalie yaha bAra-bAra dohara rahA hogaa| kyoMki yaha sapanA hI nahIM hai, yaha ajita kI jiMdagI meM bhI ghaTa rahI bAta hai| sapanA to usakA pratiphalana hai| sapanA to kevala chAyA hai acetana meM usa ghaTanA kI jo unake jIvana meM cAroM tarapha ghaTa rahI hai| 'aura tabhI cauMka kara jAga jAtA huuN|' maiM agara jAganA ho to besahArA ho jAo, asahAya ho jaao| jaba taka tumheM akar3a rahegI ki kucha kara lUMgA, taba taka tuma soe rhoge| jaba taka tumheM akar3a rahegI ki maiM kartA hUM taba taka tuma soe rhoge| jaise hI tumhArI akar3a TUTane lagegI, na giyara samhalegA, na breka, na sTIyariMga, acAnaka gAr3I calane lagegI tumhAre niyaMtraNa ke bAhara, usI kSaNa tuma jAga jaaoge| ahaMkAra mUrcchA hai, nidrA hai / nirahaMkAra honA jAga jAnA hai, amUrcchA hai| 'kabhI-kabhI kAra jaba utAra para hotI hai, taba bhI merA saba niyaMtraNa jAtA rahatA hai| utAra se hI hama Darate haiN| utAra zabda se hI ghabar3AhaTa hai| car3hAva to ahaMkAra ko rasa detA hai, utAra, to becainI zurU ho jAtI hai| isalie to javAnI meM rasa hotA hai, buDhApe meM becainI zurU ho jAtI hai| koI kA nahIM honA caahtaa| honA par3atA hai, yaha dUsarI bAta hai| koI honA nahIM caahtaa| aura loga ke bhI ho jAte haiM, taba taka dAvA bhI karate rahate haiM ki ve javAna haiN| aura loga bar3e prasanna hote haiM unakI bAta ko suna kara / paMDita javAharalAla neharU bur3hApe taka kahate rahe haiM ki maiM javAna hUM aura sArA mulka prasanna hotA thA ki bilakula ThIka bAta hai| yaha kyA bAta huI? car3hAva para hI rahane meM rasa hai, utAra ko svIkAra karane kI bhI himmata nahIM ? lekina mulka ko bar3A acchA lagatA thA ki mulka kA pradhAnamaMtrI kahatA hai ki maiM javAna hUM bur3hApe meM ki maiM sATha sAla kA javAna hUM, ki maiM paiMsaTha sAla kA javAna hUM! hama bar3e prasanna hote the| vaha prasannatA hamAre bhItara kI AkAMkSA ko batAtI hai| hamameM se bhI koI bUr3hA nahIM honA cAhatA hai| hama saba javAna rahanA cAhate haiN| hama saba car3hAva para rahanA cAhate haiM, sadA car3hAva para rahanA cAhate haiN| 1 magara soco bhI to, car3hAva binA utAra ke ho kaise sakate haiM? car3hate hI rahoge aura utAra na hogA to pAgala ho jaaoge| hara pahAr3a ke pAsa khAI hogI, khaDDa hogaa| hara bar3I lahara ke pIche gaDDA hogaa| javAnI ke sAtha bur3hApA jur3A hai| aura agara javAna hI koI raha jAe, aTaka jAe to sar3Adha paidA hogI, bahAva miTa jaaegaa| kA honA bilakula svAbhAvika hai| jaise javAnI ko svIkAra kiyA, vaise bur3hApe ko svIkAra karanA / jo aTaka gayA javAnI meM, usakA pravAha ruka gyaa| bur3hApe se hama sabhI ghabar3Ate haiN| jaba AdamI dekhatA hai pahale bAla sapheda hone lage, to bar3A ghabar3A
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________________ jAtA hai| jaba pahalI daphA dekhatA hai paira kaMpatA hai calane meM, hAtha tharrAtA hai-bar3A ghabar3A jAtA hai| utAra A gayA! aura hama to socate the, sadA javAna rheNge| aura hama to socate the, sadA jiieNge| yaha to utAra A gayA! aba mauta bhI jyAdA dUra na hogii| yaha to mauta kA saMdezavAhaka A gyaa| bur3hApe ko -hama iMkAra karate haiM, kyoMki hama mauta ko iMkAra karanA cAhate haiN| bur3hApA to sIDI hai mauta kI trph| lekina dhyAna rakhanA, jo bur3hApe ko iMkAra karatA hai, mRtyu ko iMkAra karatA hai, vaha jIvana ko bhI svIkAra nahIM kara paataa| kyoMki jIvana meM hI to ye ghaTanAeM ghaTatI haiM-bur3hApA aura mRtyu| ye jIvana ke hI to aMtima caraNa haiN| yaha jIvana kA hI to AkhirI caraNa, AkhirI abhivyakti hai| yaha AkhirI sthiti hai| yaha jIvana kA hI to aMtima udaghoSa hai-mRtyu| yaha jIvana kA tAra jo aMtima svara bajAtA hai, vaha mRtyu kA hai| to phira jIvana ko bhI tuma prema nahIM kara paate| 'nIce Ate kAra ko dekhatA hUM taba bhI niyaMtraNa jAtA rahatA hai|' asala meM jaba bhI koI cIja nIce AtI hai, tabhI tumheM patA calatA hai ki apane niyaMtraNa meM saba kucha nahIM hai| jaba taka cIjeM ThIka calatI haiM, patnI jhagar3atI nahIM, bacce ThIka se skUla meM par3hate haiM, dhaMdhA, dukAna kamAI meM calatI hai taba taka saba ThIka hai| taba taka tumheM patA nahIM calatA ki tuma asahAya ho| phira acAnaka dekhA ki dukAna TUTI, divAlA nikala gyaa| jaba taka dIvAlI, taba taka ThIka; jaba divAlA, taba ghabaDAe ki yaha apane basa ke bAhara huI jA rahI hai baat| maiM to socatA thA, saba apane basa meM hai, aura dIvAlI hI dIvAlI rhegii| yaha 'divAlA' zabda bar3A bar3hiyA hai| aba dIvAlI binA divAle ke ho kaise sakatI hai? dIvAlI to strI hai, divAlA to pati hai| yaha to pUrA jor3A hI hai| tuma socate the sirpha dIvAlI se gujAra leM, magara jaba patnI A gaI to pati bhI A rahA hai pIche se| dera-abera A hI jaaegaa| patnI ThIka hai, koI jhagar3A-jhAMsA nahIM, saba ThIka cala rahA hai to tuma socate ho bilakula taraMga uTha rahI hai, jIvana bar3I prasannatA se bharA hai, ahaMkAra majabUta hai| jarA-sA patnI kalaha kara detI hai, jarA-sA upadrava khar3Aho jAtA hai ki basa kSaNa bhara meM tumhArA saba saMgIta kho jAtA hai, saba laya vicchinna ho jAtI hai| tatkSaNa tumheM patA calatA hai. are, yaha nAva DUbane vAlI hai! tumane kabhI khayAla kiyA, jarA-sA jhagar3A ho jAe patnI se, tuma soca lete ho. kahAM par3a gae isakI jhaMjhaTa meM, kyoM vivAha kiyA, yaha mara hI jAe to behatara, yA kahIM chUTa nikaleM to acchA! abhI kSaNa bhara pahale saba ThIka cala rahA thA, taba ahaMkAra taraMgeM le rahA thaa| ahaMkAra bar3A ghabar3AtA hai parAjaya se, utAra se| lekina utAra hI manuSya ko paramAtmA kI tarapha lAtI hai| dIvAlA hI paramAtmA kI tarapha lAtA hai| agara tuma jItate hI cale jAo to tuma kabhI dhArmika banoge hI nhiiN| tumhArI jIta meM vastuta tumhArI niyati kI hAra hai| aura jaba tuma hArate ho taba pahalI daphe tumheM apanI asalI sthiti kA patA calatA hai : hama isa virATa meM eka choTI-sI taraMga haiM, eka bUMda haiM sAgara meN| hamArI jIta kyA, hamArI hAra kyA! jIta hai to usakI, hAra hai to uskii| 'lekina eka bAta sadA mahasUsa hotI hai ki yadayapi maiM DrAivara hotA hUM to bhI merA paira aiksIlareTara
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________________ para kabhI nahIM hotaa| ' | yaha bAta ThIka hai| hai bhI nahIM kisI kA paira aiksIlareTara pr| aiksIlareTara para paira to paramAtmA kA hai| tumhArI hAlata to vaisI hai jaise koI choTA baccA bApa se kahatA hai, kAra meM baiThA kara mujhe calAne do| aura bApa aiksIlareTara para paira rakhatA hai, breka para paira rakhatA hai, sTIyariMga bhI pakar3e rahatA hai aura lar3ake ko saMbhalavA detA hai sTIyariMga aura lar3akA bar3A akar3a se, bar3A maje se.. hAlAMki vaha jo ghumA rahA hai vaha bhI bApa hI ghumA rahA hai.. aura bar3A prasanna hotA hai ki gAr3I calA rahA hai! usa vakta usakA ceharA dekho, usakI praphullatA dekho! vaha cAroM tarapha dekhatA hai ki loga dekha leM ki gAr3I kauna calA rahA hai| yaha jIvana kI jo gAr3I hai, isa para aiksIlareTara para paira tumhArA nahIM hai, kabhI nahIM hai; na sTIyariMga tumhAre hAtha meM hai| tuma choTe bacce kI bhAMti ho jo bhAMti meM par3a gayA hai| gAr3I apane Apa calatI hai, gAr3I apane Apa hI cala rahI hai| tumhAre calAne kI jarA bhI jarUrata nhiiN| tuma nAhaka parezAna ho rahe ho, pasIne-pasIne hue jA rahe ho| yaha baccA nAhaka parezAna ho rahA hai| yaha soca rahA hai, gAr3I yaha calA rahA hai, agara na calAe to muzkila ho jaaegii| bar3A haoNrna bajA rahA hai| yaha soca rahA hai isake binA to saba astavyasta ho jAegA yaha sArA, abhI durghaTanA ho jAegI, kahIM koI Takkara ho jaaegii| yaha pasIne-pasIne hue jA rahA hai| ise patA nahIM ki tere na haoNrna bajAne se kucha honA hai na tU gAr3I ko saMbhAla rahA hai| gAr3I koI aura saMbhAle hue hai| kinhIM virATa hAthoM meM saba hai| hama sirpha sAkSI ho jaaeN| kartA hama nahIM haiN| hama sirpha sAkSI ho jAeM, to bar3I haMsI aaegii| jIvana kI isa viDaMbanA para bar3I haMsI AegI ki khuba majAka rhii| 'gAr3I apane- Apa calatI hai| maiM rokane kI koziza karatA hUM aura niyaMtraNa nahIM rakha pAtA huuN| 'niyaMtraNa chor3a denA hI merI dezanA hai| maiM tumase kahatA hUM. choDo saba niyaMtraNa! tumhAre hAtha bar3e choTe haiM, inase niyaMtraNa ho bhI na skegaa| tuma chor3o prabhu pr| karane do use niyNtrnn| tuma nahIM the taba bhI yaha jagata cala rahA thaa| phUla khilate the, cAMda nikalate the, varSA AtI, dhUpa AtI! tuma nahIM the, taba bhI saba cala rahA thaa| cAMda-tAre ghUmate, sUraja nikalatA! tuma nahIM rahoge, taba bhI saba calatA rhegaa| itanA virATa cala rahA hai| tuma nAhaka isameM parezAna ho rahe ho| maiMne sunA hai, eka chipakalI rAjA ke mahala meM rahatI thii| svabhAvata: rAjA ke mahala meM rahatI thI to vaha apane ko samrATa se kama nahIM mAnatI thii| koI sAdhAraNa chipakalI na thii| gAMva kI aura chipakaliyoM meM usakA bar3A samAdara thaa| usako bar3e nimaMtraNa bhI milate the ki Aja isa jagaha udaghATana kara do, ki naI chipakalI ne ghara basAyA, ki kisI chipakalI kA vivAha ho rahA hai, ki kisI chipakalI ko baccA paidA huA lekina vaha kabhI jAtI nahIM, vaha muskurA kara TAla detii| vaha kahatI, kisI aura ko le jAo, kyoMki maiM agara calI gaI to isa mahala ke chappara ko kauna samhAlegA? yaha mahala gira jaaegaa| chipakalI socatI hai samhAle hai chappara ko! koI samhAle nhiiN| hamAre samhAle kucha samhalA
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________________ nhiiN| lekina hamAre ahaMkAra ke kAraNa hama yaha bAta mAnane ko rAjI nahIM ho pAte ki hamAre binA bhI mahala raha jaaegaa| asaMbhava! varnara irahArDa eka choTI-sI kahAnI kahate haiM, ki amarIkA ke pahAr3oM meM base eka kabIle meM eka guru thaa| vaha roja sAMjha ko usake pAsa eka jAduI kaMbala thA-vaha jora se kaMbala ko uThA kara ghumAtA aura tatkSaNa AkAza meM tAre nikalane zurU ho jaate| aisA sadiyoM se hotA rahA thaa| aura vaha kabIlA mAnatA thA ki guru ke kaMbala meM kucha jAdU hai| kyoMki jaba bhI guru ghumAtA hai kaMbala ko phira tuma jAo bAhara aura dekhanA zurU karo, zIghra hI AkAza meM tAre dikhAI par3ane lagate haiN| usa guru se loga bahuta Darate the kyoMki khataranAka mAmalA hai, kisI dina kaMbala na ghumAe, pheMka de kaMbala, kaha de ki nahIM nikAlate tAre-to kyA hogA? phira aisA huA ki koI dUsare kabIle kA cora, guru kA kaMbala eka daphe curA kara le gyaa| aba guru bar3I muzkila meM pdd'e| sabase bar3I muzkila yaha thI.aise to guru ko bhI yahI bharosA thA, unake kaMbala ghumAne se tAre nikalate haiM. sArA kabIlA udAsa hai ki aba kyA kareM? Aja kyA hogA? saba astavyasta ho gyaa| lekina kucha astavyasta na huaa| tAre nikala Ae ThIka samaya pr| kahate haiM guru ne AtmahatyA kara lii| phira koI rahane kA koI upAya nahIM rhaa| loga haMsane lge| unhoMne kahA, hama bhI bar3I nAsamajhI meM par3e the| tAre nikalate hI the| kaMbala se tAroM ke nikalane kA koI saMbaMdha na thaa| yaha to kaMbala ThIka vakta para ghumAte the| sUraja Dhala gayA, ThIka samaya taya thA, taba yaha kaMbala ghumA dete the| kaMbala ke ghumAne aura tAroM ke nikalane meM koI kArya -kAraNa kA saMbaMdha na thaa|| kaMbala ghumAo na ghumAo, tAre nikalate hI haiN| tuma karo na karo, jo hotA hai hotA hai| tumhAre kie kucha bhI nahIM hai| jisa dina yaha bAta tumheM samajha meM A jAegI, jisa dina tumhArA kaMbala corI calA jAegA.. aura vahI huA, ajita sarasvatI kA kaMbala corI jA rahA hai, khIMca rahA hUM dhIre- dhIre, kAphI to nikala gayA hai, thor3A-sA pakar3e raha gae haiM ve hAtha meM, vaha bhI jisa dina chUTa jAegA, usI dina yaha sapanA baMda ho jaaegaa| usa dina tuma acAnaka pAoge : hama vyartha hI parezAna ho rahe the; jIvana cala hI rahA hai, suMdaratama DhaMga se cala rahA hai| isase aura jyAdA gauravazAlI DhaMga ho nahIM sktaa| bar3I garimA aura prasAda se cala rahA hai| hama vyartha hI isameM zoragula macA rahe the| hama vyartha hI cillA rahe the, cIkha rahe the| hama cIkhate-cillAte haiM, kyoMki hamArA ahaMkAra yaha mAnane ko rAjI nahIM ho pAtA ki hamAre binA bhI duniyA calatI rhegii| hamAre binA, aura duniyA calatI rahegI tra: asaMbhava! hama gae ki mahala kA chappara giraa| nahIM, mahala kA chappara tumase samhalA nahIM hai| na tumhAre kaMbala ke ghumAne se jIvana cala rahA hai| isa bhrAMti ko chor3a dene kA nAma hI dharma hai| tuma Izvara ko mAno yA na mAno, dhArmika hone se Izvara ko mAnane na mAnane kA kucha prayojana nhiiN| tuma isakI bhrAMti chor3a do ki mere calAe saba cala rahA hai-tuma dhArmika ho gae; tumane jAna hI liyA prabhu ko paramAtmA avatarita ho hI gayA; tuma usake
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________________ Amane - sAmane khar3e ho ge| phira sAkSAta meM kSaNa bhara dera nahIM hotii| tIsarA prazna : maiMne deza ke aneka AzramoM meM dekhA hai ki vahAM ke aMtevAsiyo ke lie kucha na kucha anivArya sAdhanA nizcita hai, jisakA abhyAsa unheM niyamita karanA par3atA hai| paraMtu Azcarya hai ki yahAM aisA koI sAdhana, anuzAsana nahIM dikhtaa| kRpayA isa viziSTatA para kacha prakAza DAlane kI anakaMpA kareM ma yahAM maujUda hUM maiM tumhArA anuzAsana huuN| jaba maiM na rahUM taba tumheM niyamyavasthA, anuzAsana kI jarUrata pdd'egii| zAstA ho, to zAsana kI koI jarUrata nhiiN| jaba zAstA na ho to zAsana paripUraka hai| murdA AzramoM meM tumane jarUra yaha dekhA hogaa| yaha eka jiMdA Azrama hai| abhI yaha jiMdA hai| maregA kabhI-aura taba tuma nizcita mAno. niyama bhI hoMge, anuzAsana bhI hogaa| mere jAte hI niyama hoMge, anuzAsana hoMge, kyoMki tuma binA niyamaanuzAsana ke raha nahIM sakate-tuma aise gulAma ho maiM bhI lAkha upAya karatA hUM taba bhI tuma bAsbAra pUchane lagate ho : kucha niyama, kucha anuzAsana! merI sArI ceSTA tumheM samajhAne kI yaha hai ki tumhAre hAtha meM kucha bhI nahIM hai| kyA anuzAsana? kyA niyama? tuma pAMca baje subaha uTha Aoge to jJAna ko upalabdha ho jAoge? kisa mUr3hatA meM par3e ho? pAMca baje uTho ki cAra baje uTho ki tIna baje uTho, tuma mUr3ha ke mUr3ha hI rhoge| mUr3ha pAMca baje uThe ki tIna baje, koI pharka nahIM pdd'taa| ghar3I se tumhAre AtmajJAna kA koI saMbaMdha nahIM hai| magara mUr3hoM ko rasa milatA hai| unako kama se kama kucha sahArA mila jAtA hai| maiM unako koI sahArA nahIM detaa| unako agara maiM kaha dUM brahmamuhUrta meM uTho to brahmajJAna hogaa..| hAlAMki unheM takalIpha hogI uThane meM pAMca baje, ar3acana pAeMge, lekina ar3acana meM majA AegA; kyoMki ar3acana meM lagegA kAra Upara kI tarapha car3ha rahI hai| unako maiM kaha dUM roja subaha zIrSAsana lagA kara khar3e ho jaao.| buddha mAlUma par3eMge zIrSAsana karate hue| kauna AdamI suMdara mAlUma par3atA hai sira ke bala khar3A lekina takalIpha bhI hogI, gardana bhI dukhegI lekina phira bhI unako rasa aaegaa| ve kaheMge, calo kucha kara to rahe, mokSa kI tarapha bar3ha to rahe! __maiM tumase kaha rahA hUM tuma mukta ho| hI tumheM agara AnaMda AtA ho pAMca baje uThane meM, barAbara uTho, lekina pAca baje uThane se mokSa milegA, isa bhrAMti meM mata pdd'naa| tumheM agara sira ke bala khar3e
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________________ hone se rasa milatA ho, barAbara khar3e ho jAo, maiM tumheM rokatA nhiiN| lekina maiM tumase yaha nahIM kaha sakatA hUM ki sira ke bala tuma khar3e ho gae to saMbodhi kI ghaTanA ghaTa jaaegii| tuma sastI tarakIbeM cAhate ho, maiM tumheM koI tarakIba nahIM detaa| mere rahate isa Azrama meM koI niyama, anuzAsana hone vAlA nahIM hai| mere rahate yaha Azrama arAjaka rahegA, kyoMki arAjakatA jIvana kA lakSaNa hai| maiM tumheM paripUrNa svataMtratA detA hUM ki tuma jo bhI honA cAho aura jaise bhI honA cAho, jAgarUkatA pUrvaka vahI hone meM rasa lo| pUchA hai 'svAmI yoga cinmaya' ne| bAra-bAra, cinmaya ghUma-phira kara yahI pUchate haiN| jina murdA AzramoM meM unako jAne kA durbhAgya se avasara milA, unase pIchA nahIM chuutttaa| kyoMki kahIM koI eka daphe bhojana karate haiM, kahIM koI tIna baje rAta uThate haiM, kahIM koI sira ke bala khar3e hote haiM, naulIdhotI karate haiM, kahIM koI yogAsana sAdhate haiM, kahIM kriyAyoga, kahIM kucha, kahIM kuch| aura saba eka jabardasta anuzAsana kI taraha, ki na kiyA to pApa, aparAdha; kiyA to puNya! ye mUr3hatA ke lakSaNa haiN| maiM tumheM svataMtratA detA huuN| maiM tumheM aparAdhI nahIM siddha karanA cAhatA kisI bhI kAraNa se| kyoMki niyama dUMgA to usake pIche aparAdha kA bhAva AtA hai| kisI dina pAMca baje subaha tuma na uTha pAe to pIche se aparAdha kA bhAva AtA hai ki Aja AjJA kA ullaMghana ho gayA; tumheM maiMne aparAdhI kara diyaa| pAMca baje uThane se to kucha milane vAlA thA nhiiN| itanI sastI bAta nahIM hai| svAsthyapUrNa hai pAMca baje uTho, lekina mokSa se kucha lenA-denA nahIM hai| tAjI havA hotI hai, suMdara subaha hotI hai, estheTika hai| sauMdarya kA jinheM bodha hai, ve subaha pAMca baje uTheMge, lekina dharma se isakA kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| jinheM thor3A kAvya kA rasa hai ve cUkeMge nahIM, kyoMki subaha pAMca baje jaisI duniyA hotI hai, jaisI suMdara, AdamI se achUtI! abhI saba buddha aura buddhimAna, saba so rahe haiM, abhI duniyA achUtI hai, jaisI bhagavAna ne banAI hogI, kucha-kucha vaisI hai! to pAMca baje jinako thor3A bhI jIvana meM rasa hai, ve jarUra uttheNge| merI bAta ko tuma samajha lenaa| maiM yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM tuma pAMca baje mata uttho| maiM to kaha rahA hUM. jinameM thor3I bhI samajha hai ve jarUra uttheNge| lekina yaha anuzAsana nahIM hai| uThe, to tumhArI mauj| uThe, to tumane lAbha liyA, phala mila gyaa| tumheM maiM koI pramANa-patra na dUMgA ki tuma mahAjJAnI ho, kyoMki pAMca baje uThate ho; kyoMki tuma uThe to tumane lAbha le liyA aba aura kucha prazaMsA kI jarUrata nahIM hai| agara na uThe to tuma cUka ge| eka suMdara subaha thI maujUda tumhAre dvAra khaTakhaTAI thI, tuma par3e soe rahe, ghurrAte rhe| bAhara saMgIta phaila rahA thA, subaha kA sUraja UgA thA tuma AMkheM baMda kie apanI taMdrA meM par3e rahe, tuma cUka gae! daMDa tumheM kAphI mila gyaa| aba aura maiM tumheM isake Upara se aparAdhI siddha karUM ki tumane AjJA kA ullaMghana kiyA-yaha to galata ho jaaegaa| mullA nasaruddIna eka dina jA rahA thA apanI kAra se| teja calA rahA thaa| pulisa vAle ne rokaa| pulisa vAle ke rokate hI.. pIche patnI baiThI thI mullA kI gAr3I meN| vaha ekadama mullA para nArAja hone lagI ki hajAra daphe kahA ki tuma AMkha ke aMdhe ho? tumheM dikhAI nahIM par3atA? ki itanI tejI se kAra mata calAo pU tumheM mITara nahIM dikhAI par3atA? aura tumheM maiM pUre vakta cillAtI rahatI hUM ki bAeM
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________________ ghUmo, dAeM ghUmo, phira bhI tuma cale jA rahe ho / na tumheM lAiTa dikhAI par3atI hai ki aba yaha gAr3I jAne kI hai ki nahIM hai| tuma hoza meM ho? vaha pulisa vAlA yaha saba sunatA rahA / Akhira usane mullA se kahA ki aba Apa jAie, Apako sajA pahale hI kAphI mila cukI aba aura kyA sajA ? yaha patnI kAphI hai| jo AdamI subaha nahIM uThA, use sajA kAphI mila cukI / aba aura kyA usa becAre ko, garIba ko aura daMDa de rahe haiM ki pApI hai, ki aparAdhI hai, ki AjJA kA ullaMghana ho gayA! nahIM, maiM tumheM koI anuzAsana nahIM detA / maiM to tumheM sirpha kevala eka bodha-mAtra detA hUM tuma jo bhI karo jAga kara karo / aba raha gaI bAta.. pUchA hai, anivArya sAdhanA ? kucha anivArya nahIM hai yhaaN| kyoMki jo bhI anivArya ho, vaha baMdhana bana jAtA hai| jo karanA hI par3e, vaha baMdhana bana jAtA hai| isI taraha to hamane bahuta suMdara cIjeM kharAba kara diiN| jo karanA hI par3e usakA rasa hI kho jAtA hai| tuma gae, aura mAM hai, to usake paira chUnA hI cAhie, vaha anivArya hai, to mAM ke paira chUte ho-majA kho gayA, anivArya ho gayA! usase mauja calI gaI, usameM se mukti calI gii| aba tuma chUte ho, kyoMki mAM hai aura sadA chUnA cAhie, isalie chUte hoM-sva niyama, aupacArikatA / mullA eka dina apane ghara aayaa| aura usane dekhA usakA mitra usakI patnI ko cUma rahA hai ?r3A to vaha bar3A hairAna ho gayA, sakate meM khar3A ho gyaa| mitra bhI ghabar3A gayA, patnI bhI ghabar3A gaI aura vaha kucha bole hI nhiiN| mitra ne pUchA, kucha bolo to! usane kahA, boleM kyA! mujhe to karanA par3atA hai yaha, lekina tuma - kyoM kara rahe ho? mujhe tumhArI buddhi para tarasa AtA hai| khaira merI vaha patnI hai to mujhe vaha karanA par3atA hai| isameM koI ... magara tumheM kyA huA? jo karanA par3atA hai, usameM se saba rasa calA jAtA hai - vaha cAhe patnI kA cuMbana hI kyoM na ho| dulAra aura prema aura AliMgana bhI kaSTapUrNa mAlUma hone lagate haiM, agara karane pdd'e| anivArya...! maiM eka saMskRta vidyAlaya meM zikSaka thaa| jaba maiM pahale - pahale vahAM gayA to saMskRta mahAvidyAlaya thA, to paMDitoM kA rAjya thA vahAM to maiM to bilakula eka upadrava kI taraha vahAM pahuMca gyaa| kucha bhUla-cUka ho gaI sarakAra kI, vaha mujhe vahAM TrAMsaphara kara diyaa| jaldI unhoMne phira sudhAra lI cha: mahInoM meM mujhe vahAM se haTAyA, kyoMki vahAM bar3A upadrava zurU ho gyaa| ve to saba paMDita the aura vahAM to unhoMne bar3I ajIba hAlata kara rakhI thii| maiM, koI mere pAsa rahane kI jagaha na thI to chAtrAvAsa meM maiM rukaa| koI sattara assI vidyArthI chAtrAvAsa meM the| unako tIna baje rAta uThanA par3atA thA, anivaary| saMskRta mahAvidyAlaya ! koI isa Adhunika sadI kA to nahIM, gurukula purAnA tIna baje rAta uThanA ! sardI ho ki garmI, varSA ho ki kucha, tIna baje to uThanA hI pdd'taa| aura phira sabako kueM para jA kara snAna karanA hai| maiM bhI gyaa| jaba tIna baje pUrA hosTala uTha AyA to maiM bhI uThA, maiM bhI gayA kueM para mujhe loga taba jAnate bhI nahIM the| pahale hI dina AyA thA, to kisI ne merI phikra bhI nahIM kii| ve apane nahA rahe the aura ve gAlI
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________________ de rahe the priMsipala se le kara paramAtmA taka ko mAM-bahana kI gAlI ! maiMne sunA, yaha bhI khUba ho rahA hai ! isa gAlI-galauja ke bAda phira unako prArthanA karane khar3A honA par3atA thA, to ve kisI taraha prArthanA krte| maiMne priMsipala ko kahA ki dekho, tuma narka meM sddoge| usane kahA, kyA matalaba? maiMne kahA ki ye lar3ake, sattara lar3ake, roja subaha anivArya rUpa se priMsipala se le kara paramAtmA taka ko gAlI dete haiN| tumheM gAlI ThIka, magara paramAtmA ko gAlI par3a rahI haiM, tuma isake kAraNa ho| yaha anivAryatA khataranAka hai, maiMne kahA / usane kahA, nahIM, yaha anivArya nahIM hai; jaisA ki loga hamezA kahate haiN| yaha to loga apanI svecchA se, apane maje se karate haiN| to maiMne kahA, phira mere hAtha meM Apa de do| maiM noTisa lagA detA hUM aura kala tIna baje subaha Apa bhI kueM para maujUda ho jAnA aura maiM bhI ho jaauuNgaa| noTisa maiMne lagA diyA ki 'jinako karanA ho snAna tIna baje kevala ve hI uTheM; jinako prArthanA sammilita honA ho kevala ve hI uttheN| koI anivAryatA Aja se nahIM hai| ' mere aura priMsipala ke sivAya kueM para koI nahIM thaa| maiMne pUchA, kaho janAba! aba agara himmata ho to DUba jAo kueM meM! unhoMne mujhe chaha mahIne ke bhItara vahAM se kahA ki nahIM, Apa yahAM se jAo, yaha saba gar3abar3a kara diyA ! saba ThIka cala rahA thaa| isako ThIka calanA kahate ho? anivAryatA traH prArthanA aura anivArya ho sakatI hai? prema aura anivArya ho sakatA hai? pUjA aura anivArya ho sakatI hai ? anivArya to kevala cIjeM kArAgRha meM hotI haiN| jIvana meM kucha bhI anivArya nahIM / bhUla kara bhI kisI cIja ko anivArya mata karanA, anyathA usI kSaNa usa cIja kA mUlya naSTa ho jaaegaa| 'jIvana bar3A nAjuka hai, phUla jaisA nAjuka hai! isa para anivAryatA ke patthara mata rakha denA, nahIM to phUla mara jaaegaa| mujhase koI A kara bhI pUchatA AzramavAsI haiM, mujhase pUchate haiM A kara ki hama anivArya - rUpa se Apako subaha sunane AeM? maiM kahatA hUM, bhUla kara mata AnA / anivArya, aura mujhe sunane? tuma mujhe gAliyAM dene lgoge| tumheM AnA ho to AnA, tumheM na AnA ho to na aanaa| aura bhUla kara bhI aparAdha anubhava mata karanA ki hama Azrama meM rahate haiM aura hama sunane na gae aura loga itane dUra se Ate haiM! isakI phikra chodd'o| tumhArI jaba mauja ho, taba tuma A jaanaa| to agara mahIne meM tuma eka bAra bhI Ae to itanA pA loge jitanA ki anivArya A kara mahIne bhara meM bhI nahIM pA sakate the; kyoMki pAne kI ghaTanA to prema se ghaTatI hai| to yahAM anivArya kucha bhI nahIM hai| aura anuzAsana jo bAhara se thopA jAe ve to ber3iyAM haiN| maiM tumase kahUM ki dhyAna karo yaha bhI koI bAta huI? maiM roja subaha samajhA rahA hUMM dhyAna kA rasa, bahAtA rasadhAra subaha roja dhyAna kI, gaMgA tumhAre sAmane kara detA hUM- aba yaha bhI tumase kahUM ki roja gaMgA meM snAna karo, ki roja pIyo jaladhAra? aba yaha tumhArI marjI hai| itanA kyA kama hai ki maiMne gaMgA tumhAre sAmane lA dii| aba yaha bhI mujhe karanA par3egA ? gaMgA kA itanA guNagAna kara diyA, aba ThIka
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________________ hai, aba tumhArI mauj| tumheM dhyAna karanA ho karo, na karanA ho na kro| lekina maiM tumase yaha nahIM kahUMgA ki anivArya rUpa se tumheM dhyAna karanA hai| kyoMki jaise hI anivArya huI koI bAta vaise hI gar3ane lagatI hai, kAMTe kI taraha gar3ane lagatI hai| dhyAna jaisI mahimApUrNa cIja ko kharAba to mata kro| to tuma pUche ho ki anivArya sAdhanA nizcita hotI AzramoM meM jisakA abhyAsa unheM niyamita karanA hotA hai| nahIM, yahAM mere pAsa kucha bhI niyama nahIM hai aura na koI abhyAsa hai tumheM dene ko| saba abhyAsa ahaMkAra ke haiN| adhyAtma kA koI abhyAsa nhiiN| maiM to kahatA hUM. jAgo! iti jJAnaM! yahI jJAna hai! iti dhyAna! yahI dhyAna hai! iti mokSa:! yahI mokSa hai! tuma jAga kara jIne lago, dhyAna tumhAre caubIsa ghaMTe para phaila jaaegaa| dhyAna koI aisI cIja thor3e hI hai ki kara liyA subaha uTha kara aura bhUla gae phir| dhyAna to aisI dhArA hai jo tumhAre bhItara bahanI caahie| dhyAna to aisA sUtra hai jo tumhAre bhItara banA rahanA cAhie; jo tumhAre sAre kRtyoM ko piro de eka mAlA meN| jaise hama mAlA banAte haiM to phUloM ko dhAge meM piro dete haiM, phUla dikhAI par3ate, dhAgA to dikhAI bhI nahIM par3atA-aisA hI dhyAna honA cAhie, dikhAI hI na pdd'e| jIvana ke saba kAmauThanA-baiThanA, khAnA-pInA, calanA, bolanA, sunanA, saba-phUla kI taraha dhyAna meM anasthUta ho jAeM, dhyAna kA dhAgA saba meM phaila jaae| to dhyAna to mere lie jAgaraNa aura sAkSI- bhAva kA nAma hai| aura jaba maiM na rahUMgA taba nizcita yaha upadrava hone vAlA hai| kyoMki koI na koI 'yoga cinmaya' isa kursI para baiTha jaayeNge| aisI muzkila hai yaha kursI khAlI thor3e hI rhegii| koI na koI calAne lagegA anushaasn| jisa dina anuzAsana calane lage, usa dina samajhanA merA saMbaMdha TUTa gayA isa jagaha se| jisa dina yahAM niyama ho jAe, anivAryatA ho jAe, abhyAsa ho jAe, usa dina jAnanA yaha merA Azrama na rahA; yaha eka murdA Azrama ho gayA, jo jur3a gayA dUsare murdA AzramoM se| mere jIte-jI aisA na ho skegaa| maiM svayaM jI rahA hUM aura tumheM bhI jiMdA dekhanA cAhatA hUM murdA nhiiN| maiM tumheM sAdhaka nahIM maantaa| maiM tumheM siddha mAnatA huuN| aura maiM cAhatA hUM ki tuma bhI apanI siddhAvasthA ko svIkAra kara lo| maiM cAhatA hUM ki tuma bhI kaha sako : aho, merA mujhako namana! cauthA prazna : AbU meM jo anubhava huA thA vaha aba pragAr3ha ho gayA hai| satata AnaMda kA bhAva banA rahatA hai| jIvana dhanya ho gayA prabhu! jo anubhava meM AyA hai, use kaha nahIM paatii| ahobhAva ke sAgara meM taira rahI huuN| mere anaMta praNAma svIkAra kreN|
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________________ pUchA hai 'hemA' ne| hemA ko jo AbU meM huA thA vaha nizcita anUThA thaa| jisako jhena phakIra satorI kahate haiM, samAdhi kI pahalI jhalaka, hemA ko AbU meM ghttii| itanI Akasmika thI ki vaha khuda bhI bharosA na kara paaii| tIna dina taka vaha haMsatI hI rahI, usakI haMsI dekhane yogya thii| vaisI haMsI tumheM phira kahIM aura sunAI nahIM par3a sktii| vaisI haMsI kevala satorI ke bAda hI AtI hai| yaha maiMne usase taba kahA bhI nahIM thA ki yaha satorI hai, Aja kahatA huuN| kyoMki usa vakta kahane se usakA ahaMkAra majabUta ho sakatA thaa| aba Dara nahIM hai| vaha tIna dina taka haMsatI hI rhii| usakI haMsI bar3I alaukika thii| vaha ruka hI na pAtI thI; akAraNa, satata haMsI jArI rhii| aisA bodhidharma ke jIvana meM ullekha hai, jaba use pahalI daphe samAdhi upalabdha huI to vaha haMsatA hI rahA tIna dina tk| haMsatA rahA isa bAta para, ki bharosA hI na Ae ki kyA ho gayA aura aisA rasa, aura aisI gudagudI ki bhItara se koI gudagudAe jA rahA hai| apanI sImA meM na rhaa| usake parivAra ke loga ciMtita bhI hue ki yaha pAgala ho gii| svabhAvata, minaTa do minaTa kI haMsI bhI kaThina mAlUma hone lagatI hai| hama rone ke aise AdI haiM ki agara AdamI tIna dina rotA rahe to koI pAgala na khegaa| dekho majA, usako hama svIkAra karate haiN| lekina agara koI AdamI tIna dina taka satata haMsatA rahe to pAgala nizcita ho gyaa| yahAM AnaMdita hone meM bar3A khatarA hai| yahAM loga aise dukha meM rahe haiM ki dukha ko to svIkAra karate haiM; AnaMda to saMbhava hI nahIM hai, aisA mAna liyA hai; sirpha pAgaloM ko ho sakatA hai| _sigamaMDa phraoNyaDa ne apane jIvana bhara ke anubhavoM ke bAda likhA hai ki AdamI sukhI ho hI nahIM sktaa| cAlIsa sAla kA satata manovizleSaNa, hajAroM-hajAroM rogiyoM kA ilAja aura usake bAda usakA yaha anubhava hai ki AdamI sukhI ho hI nahIM sktaa| yaha asaMbhava hai| dukha AdamI kI niyati hai| to jaba sigamaMDa phraoNyaDa jaisA vicArazIla vyakti yaha kahe to socanA par3atA hai ki jarUra dukha AdamI kI niyati bana gayA hai| kRSNa apavAda mAlUma hote haiM, niyama nhiiN| bAMsurI lagatA nahIM ki baja sakatI hai jIvana meN| aura kabhI-kabhI jaba hama bAMsurI meM DUbate bhI haiM to sirpha isIlie ki jIvana kA dukha bhUla jAe, aura kucha nhiiN| bAMsurI meM hameM rasa nahIM hai, jIvana kA dukha bhulAne kA eka upAya hai, vismaraNa kI eka vyavasthA hai| hemA jaba haMsI thI to vaha haMsI vahI thI jo bodhidharma kI haMsI thii| vaha tIna dina taka haMsatI rhii| usake parivAra, priyajanoM meM to bar3I ghabar3AhaTa phaila gii| usake parivAra aura priyajanoM meM se jo mujhe sunane Ate the, una sabane AnA baMda kara diyA. hemA to pAgala ho gaI! lekina bar3I anUThI ghaTanA ghaTI thii|
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________________ pUchA hai usane. 'AbU meM jo anubhava huA thA vaha aba pragAr3ha ho gayA hai| satata Anda kA bhAva banA rahatA hai, jIvana dhanya ho gayA hai prabhu / jo anubhava meM AyA use kaha nahIM pAtI / ahobhAva ke sAgara meM taira rahI hUM / ' aba haMsI kho gaI hai| vaha udvega calA gyaa| kyoMki vaha udvega to prAthamika kSaNa meM hI hotA hai| phira to haMsI dhIre- dhIre roeM - roeM meM samA gaI hai| aba vaha praphullita hai, AnaMdita hai| eka smita hai vyaktitva meN| aba rasa sirpha oMThoM meM nahIM hai| jaba pahalI daphe ghaTatA hai to haMsI bar3I pragAr3ha hotI hai, phira dhIre- dhIre haMsI saMtulita ho jAtI hai, dhIre- dhIre vyaktitva meM samA jAtI hai| eka sahaja ahobhAva aura eka AnaMda kA bhAva nirmita ho jAtA nizcita hI jo anubhava meM AyA hai, vaha kahatI hai, use kahA nahIM jA sktaa| koI use kabhI nahIM kaha pAyA hai| jitanA jyAdA anubhava meM AtA hai utanA hI kahanA muzkila ho jAtA hai| bAhara vaha khoyA pAyA mailA ujalA dina - dina hotA jAtA vayaska dina-dina dhuMdhalAtI AMkhoM se suspaSTa dekhatA jAtA thA pahacAna rahA thA rUpa pA rahA vANI aura bUjhatA zabda para dina-dina adhikAdhika hakalAtA thA dina-para-dina usakI ghigghI baMdhatI jAtI thI dhuMdha se DhaMkI huI kitanI gaharI vApikA tumhArI kitanI laghu aMjuli hamArI! hAtha hamAre choTe haiN| prabhu kA AnaMda - loka bahuta bar3A hai| dhuMdha se DhaMkI huI kitanI gaharI vApikA tumhArI kitanI laghu aMjuli hamArI ! jitanA hI koI jAnatA hai, utanA hI hakalAtA hai| jitanA hI koI jAnatA hai, utanI hI ghigghI baMdhatI jAtI hai| kahane ko muzkila hone lagatA hai| jo kahanA hai vaha to kahA nahIM jA sktaa| usake AsapAsa hI prayAsa calatA hai| to ThIka, 'jo anubhava meM AyA use kaha nahIM paatii| ahobhAva ke sAgara meM taira rahI hUM / ' use kahane kI phikra bhI mata krnaa| anyathA usa ceSTA se bhI tanAva paidA hogaa| samAdhi bahuta logoM ko ghaTatI hai, bahuta thor3e se loga use kahane meM thor3e - bahuta samartha ho pAte HT se vaha nahIM hogaa| usa ceSTA meM par3egI to usake bhItara jo ghaTa rahA hai usameM avarodha A jAegA, bAdhA A jaaegii| kahane kI phikra hI mata kro| agara bahuta kahane kA mana hone lage aura hogA
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________________ mana-kyoMki jaba bhItara kucha ghaTatA hai to hama bAMTanA cAhate, sAjhIdAra banAnA cAhate auroM ko| jaba rasa bhItara bahatA hai to hama cAhate haiM kisI aura ko bhI mila jaae| loga itane pyAse haiM, loga itane bhUkhe haiM, loga itane jala rahe haiM, to bAMTane kI icchA paidA hotI hai| lekina jaba bhI kahane kA savAla uThe to kahane kI jagaha haMsanA, hemA! nAcanA, gunagunAnA! usase AsAna hogaa| zabda tuma na banA skogii| zabda tumhArA saMbhava nahIM hogaa| kucha aura DhaMga se tumheM kahanA hogA-jaise mIrA ne kahA, gunagunA kara kahA buddha ne kaha kara kahA; jaise caitanya ne kahA, le gae, le kara maMjIrA aura madaMga, nAcate hue kahane lge| apanA DhaMga khojanA hogaa| zabda nizcita tumhArA DhaMga nahIM hai| haMso, nAco, gunagunAo hajAra DhaMga ho sakate haiN| lekina apanA DhaMga khojanA hI par3atA hai, jaba ghaTanA ghaTa jAtI hai| nahIM to bhItara kucha ubalane lagatA hai| aura bhItara kucha taiyAra hotA hai, pakatA hai -aura hama use bAMTa na pAeM to bojhila hone lagate haiM, jaise varSA ke megha jaba bhara jAte jala se to varSA hotI hai| varSA svAbhAvika hai| (itane meM kisI ko jora se rulAI AI aura loga use rokane ko daudd'e| bhagavAna zrI ne eka saMnyAsI ko saMbodhita karate hue kahA : 'saMta, chor3a do| chor3a do unheN| chor3a do| chor3a do unheN| vaha zAMta ho jAeMge, chor3a do| bilakula chor3a do, alaga haTa jaao| dUra haTa jAo unse|) pratyeka ko apanI vidhi, apanI vyavasthA khojanA par3atI hai| abhivyakti sabhI ke lie eka jaisI nahIM ho sktii| phira strI-puruSoM meM bhI bar3A pharka hai| isalie to tumheM strI sadaguru bahuta kama dikhAI par3ate haiM-usakA kAraNa yaha nahIM hai ki striyAM mokSa ko upalabdha nahIM huiiN| mere dekhe to striyAM mokSa ko jyAdA AsAnI se upalabdha ho sakatI haiM, bajAya puruSoM ke| kyoMki puruSoM ke ahaMkAra ko girane meM bar3I dera lagatI hai| striyoM kA ahaMkAra bar3I saralatA se gira jAtA hai| lekina phira bhI tumheM buddha mahAvIra, pArzva, kRSNa, krAisTa, zaMkara, nAgArjuna aise puruSoM kI zrRMkhalAbaddha katAra dikhAI par3atI hai- aise striyoM ke nAma lene jAo to uMgaliyoM para bhI nahIM gine jA skte| kabhI koI sahajo, koI mIrA, rAbiyA, thairesA-basa aise tIna cAra nAma haiN| isakA yaha artha nahIM hai, isa galata tarka meM mata par3a jAnA ki isalie striyAM mokSa ko upalabdha nahIM huIM yA striyoM ne pAyA nahIM, yA striyAM pA nahIM sktiiN| striyoM ne pAyA-utanA hI jitanA puruSoM ne, zAyada thor3A jyaadaa| lekina striyAM zabda meM nahIM kaha paatiiN| yaha ar3acana hai| aura binA zabda meM kahe, tumheM buddha kA patA na calatA agara buddha ne zabda meM na kahA hotaa| agara buddha cupa baiThe rahate bodhi vRkSa ke nIce, kisI ko kAnoM-kAna khabara na hotii| agara maiM na bolUM to tuma yahAM na A skoge| maiM to na bola kara bhI maiM hI rhuuNgaa| kyA pharka par3egA mere na bolane se? mere lie koI pharka na par3egA, lekina tuma na A skoge| tuma mujhe sunane Ae hoM-sunate -sunate zAyada tuma phaMsa bhI jAo sunate-sunate zAyada tuma
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________________ mere sAtha ulajha bhI jAo, sunate-sunate zAyada tuma mujhameM dhIre- dhIre paga jaao| lekina Ae the tuma sunne| sunate-sunate zAyada tuma gunane bhI lago / gunate - gunate zAyada tuma gunagunAne bhI lgo| mere pAsa baiThate-baiThate ho sakatA hai yaha pAgalapana tumheM bhI chU jaae| tuma madamasta ho jaao| leki tuma Ae the mujhe sunane / zabda kI gati hai jagata meN| zabda ke atirikta aura koI saMvAda kA upAya nahIM dikhAI par3atA / isalie striyAM sadaguru to huIM, lekina unakA patA bhI nahIM cala sakA / jJAna ko to upalabdha huIM lekina ve guru na bana paaiiN| ziSya to zabda sunane Ate haiN| mIrA ne aise adabhuta bhajana gAe phira bhI koI ziSya thor3e hI paidA kara pAI mIrA / koI mIrA kI sthiti sadaguru kI taraha thor3e hI hai| adabhuta gAyA, jinhoMne sunA unhoMne bhI rasa pAyA; lekina guru kI sthiti to nahIM bana paaii| kyoMki guru kA to artha hI yaha hai : jo mIrA ko milA thA vahI vaha dUsaroM ko bhI milAne meM sahayogI ho jAtI / vaha nahIM ho paayaa| strI ke citta kI apanI vyavasthA hai| maiM kahUMgA : agara tujhe bhara jAe bhAva, bAMTane kA mana hone lage aura zabda kahane ko na mileM, kisI ke paira dabAne laganA; vaha terA rAstA hogaa| kisI kA sira dabAne laganA, kisI ko prema denA, nAcanA, gAnA, gunagunAnA khojanA koI upAya / zabda to terA upAya nahIM ho sakatA / lekina bAMTanA to par3atA hai, binA bAMTe rahA nahIM jA sktaa| jaba sugaMdha A gaI phUla meM to paMkhurI ko khilanA hI hogA, sugaMdha ko visarjita honA hI hogA, gaMdha caDhegI paMkhoM para havA ke jAegI dUra-dUra lokoM taka, to niyati pUrI hotI hai| ai kalpanA ke darpaNa! tana-mana tujha para arpaNa jaba hoMge tere darzana dhar3akana harasUM hogii| koyala kI taraha merA caMcala mana macalegA jaba Ama ke per3oM para harasUM kU-kU hogii| jaba samAdhi kI pahalI jhalaka AtI hai to aisA hI hotA hai| ai kalpanA ke darpaNa! tana-mana tujha para arpaNa jaba hoMge tere darzana dhar3akana harasUM hogii| taba tumhArA hRdaya hI nahIM dhar3akatA hai jaba samAdhi phalita hotI hai - taba tuma pahalI daphe pAte ho tumhAre hRdaya ke sAtha sArA jagata dhar3aka rahA hai| patthara bhI dhar3aka rahe haiM, vahAM bhI hRdaya hai| vRkSa bhI
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________________ dhar3aka rahe haiM, cAMda-tAre bhI dhar3aka rahe haiN| taba tumhArI dhar3akana ke sAtha sArA jagata eka layabaddha, eka chaMdobaddha gati meM A jAtA hai-eka gIta, eka saMgIta-jisameM tuma alaga nahIM ho; eka virATa ArkesTrA ke hisse ho gae ho! koyala kI taraha merA caMcala mana macalegA jaba Ama ke per3oM para harasUM kU-kU hogii| yaha kisI bAhara kI koyala kI bAta nahIM hai aura yaha kisI bAhara ke AmoM kI bAta nahIM hai| bhItara bhI vasaMta AtA hai| bhItara kI koyala bhI kU-kU karatI hai| usa ghaTanA ke karIba hai hemaa| agara calatI rahI aura isa bAta ko suna kara ki mujhe samAdhi kI pahalI pratIti huI hai akar3a na gii..| kyoMki usa akar3a meM hI mara jAtA sb| isalie pahalI daphA varSoM pahale jaba use AbU meM huA thA maiMne kucha kahA nahIM, maiM cupa hI rhaa| aba kahatA hUM lekina phira bhI khatarA to sadA hai| aba isa bAta ko bahuta ahaMkAra kA hissA mata banA lenaa| nahIM to jo huA hai vaha vahIM aTaka jaaegaa| jahAM ahaMkAra AyA vahIM gati avaruddha ho jAtI hai| aisA huA hai to yaha mata socanA ki mere kie huA hai| aisA socanA prabhu kA prasAda hai! aisA socanA ki kRtajJa usakI, usakA AzISa hai! aisA socanA ki maiM apAtra, kaise yaha ho pAyA! Azcarya! aho! ahobhAva kA itanA hI artha hai ki bhItara aho kA bhAva uThatA rahe, ki aho, mujhe honA nahIM thA aura huA maiM pAtra nahIM thI, aura ha A apAtra thI, aura huaa| usakI 'anukaMpA apAra hai! AkhirI prazna : gara jAma nahIM hai hAthoM meM, AMkhoM se pilA de, kAphI hai| aba jIne kI hai phikra kise, tU mujhe miTA de, kAphI hai| aba Dora tere hI hAthoM meM, jI bhara ke nacA de, kAphI hai| nA hoza rahe bAkI, aisApAgala hI banA de, kAphI hai| aba amRta kI hai cAha kise, tU jahara pilA de, kAphI hai|
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________________ pUchA hai 'haMsa' ne| : haMsa ke pAsa kavi kA hRdaya hai aura ThIka jo usake hRdaya meM ho rahA hai, vahI ina zabdoM meM bAMdha diyA hai| jo abhI hRdaya meM ho rahA hai, jisakI abhI thor3I- thor3I jhalaka hai, vaha kabhI samaya pA kara, ThIka avasara para ThIka mausama meM pakA huA phala bhI bnegaa| tuma nAcoge! tuma masta ho kara nAcoge! aura jo vyakti jahara pIne ko rAjI ho gayA hai mastI meM, usake lie jahara bhI amRta ho jAtA hai| jo prabhu ke sAtha calane ko rAjI ho gayA hai - saba sthitiyoM meM, cAhe jahara pilAe to bhI, cAhe narka meM pheMka de to bhI usakA narka samApta huA aba usake lie svarga hI svarga hai| 'gara jAma nahIM hai hAthoM meM AMkhoM se pilA de, kAphI hai| aba jIne kI hai phikra kise tU mujhe miTA de kAphI hai| aba Dora tere hI hAthoM meM jI bhara ke nacA de, kAphI hai| nA hoza rahe bAkI, aisA pAgala hI banA de, kAphI hai| aba amRta kI hai cAha kise tU jahara pilA de, kAphI hai| " yaha hogaa| pilaauuNgaa| yaha ghaTanA ghttegii| bhare AzA se, pratIkSA se, svIkAra se tuma 'taiyAra raho-yaha ghaTanA ghttegii| yaha ghaTanA ghaTanI zurU hI ho gaI hai| yaha tumhAre gIta meM tumane jo bhAva bAdhA hai, usI subaha kI pahalI kiraNa hai| prAcI lAla hone lagI, prAcI para lAlI hone lagI- sUraja UgegA! sUraja UgatA hI hai, hama jarA rAjI bhara ho jaaeN| hamAre na rAjI hone para bhI sUraja to UgatA hI hai, lekina hama AMkha khola kara nahIM dekhte| to hama aMdhere meM hI rahe Ate haiN| AMkha baMda, to hamArI rAta jArI rahatI hai| jaba hama rAjI ho jAte haiM to hama AMkha khola kara dekhane kI tatparatA dikhAte haiM! sUraja to UgatA hI rahA hai| hara rAta ke bAda subaha hai| hara bhaTakana ke bAda par3Ava hai| hara saMsAra ke bAda mokSa hai| basa hama AMkha
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________________ khola kara dekhane ko taiyAra hoM! hari oma tatsat!
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________________ dRzya svapna hai, draSTA satya hai-pravacana-dasavAM dinAMka: 5 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| sUtra: tadA adho yadA cittaM kiMcidvAcchati shocti| kiMcinmujcati gRhaNAti kiMcir3aSyati kupyti|| 71 / / tadA maktiryadA cittaM na vAMchati na shocti| majcati na gRhaNAti na haSyati na kthyti|| 72 / / tadA adho yadA cittaM saktaM kAsvapi dRssttissu| tadA mokSo yadA citaMsaktaM sarva dvssttissu|| 73 / / yadA nAhaM tadara mokSo yadAhaM baMdhana tdaa| matveti helaMyara kiMcit mA gRhANa vimujca maa|| 74 / / sajA kA hAla sunAeM, jajA kI bAta kareM, halai kta? ho jinheM, vo khudA kI trI ??e~ / AdamI apane dukha kI bAta karatA, apanI ciMtAoM kI, becainiyoM kI, apane saMtApa kii| AdamI vahI bAta karatA hai, jo use milA hai| jaba AnaMda kI kiraNa phUTatI hai, to eka naI hI bAta zurU hotI hai| jaba prabhu se milana hotA, to saba bhUla jAte janmoM-janmoM ke jAla; jaise kabhI hue hI na hoM jaise rAta meM jo dekhA thA vaha saca hI na rahA ho| subaha kA sUraja sArI rAtoM ko jhUTha kara jaataa| aura sUraja ke Ugane para phira kauna aMdhere kI bAta kare! janaka ke jIvana meM aisA hI sUraja UgA hai| aura janaka ke jIvana meM jo ghaTA hai, vaha itanA Akasmika hai ki janaka bhI samhAla nahIM pA rahe haiM, vaha bahA jA rahA hai; jaise koI jharanA acAnaka phUTa par3A ho, jisake lie abhI mArga bhI nahIM hai, mArga bana rahA hai| usI mArga banAne meM sahArA de rahe haiM aSTAvakra| pahale parIkSA kI, phira pralobhana diyaa| Aja ke sUtroM meM protsAhana hai| parIkSA ThIka utarI, janaka uttIrNa hue| pralobhana bhI vyartha gayA janaka usameM bhI na uljhe| jo huA hai saca meM hI huA hai, kasauTI para kharA aayaa| aba protsAhana dete haiN| aba pITha thapathapAte haiN| aba ve use kahate haiM ki ThIka huaa| aba jo janaka ne kahA hai, usako aSTAvakra doharA kara sAkSI banate haiN|
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________________ ye sUtra bar3e anUThe haiN| sajA kA hAla sunAeM, jajA kI bAta kareM, khudA milA ho jinheM, vo khudA kI bAta kreN| yahAM khudA ke milane kI ghaTanA ghaTI hai| aSTAvakra aura janaka ke bIca khudA ghaTA hai| isalie koI aura bAta nahIM cala sakatI ab| tumheM to kabhI-kabhI aisA bhI lagane lagegA : 'aba yaha itanI punarukti huI jA rahI hai aba yaha bAra-bAra vahI bAta kyoM kahI jA rahI hai?' lekina jinheM khudA milA ho, ve kucha aura kara hI nahIM sakate; ve bAra-bAra vahI kheNge| tumane kabhI dekhA, jaba choTA baccA pahalI daphe bolanA zurU karatA hai, TUTe -phUTe zabda hote haiM, bar3e sArthaka bhI nahIM hote; pApA, mAmA, aise kucha zabda bolanA zurU karatA hai lekina jaba baccA bolanA zurU karatA hai to phira dina bhara doharAtA hai| prayojana ho na prayojana ho, saMgati ho na saMgati ho, use itanA rasa AtA hai; eka bar3I adabhuta kSamatA hAtha meM A gaI hai! vaha pApA yA mAmA kahanA sIkha gayA hai| usakA jagata meM eka nayA anubhava ghaTita huA hai| vaha samAja kA hissA bana gayA hai| aba taka samAja ke bAhara thA, aba taka jaMgala meM thA, pApA kaha kara praveza-davAra se bhItara A gayA hai| aba vaha bhASA, samAja, samUha kA aMga hai| aba bola sakatA hai| to jaba pahalI daphe baccA bolatA hai, to vaha dina bhara gunagunAtA hai. pApA, pApA, mAmA.?,| kucha prayojana na ho to bhI kahatA hai| kahane meM hI rasa letA hai| bAra-bAra doharAtA hai, doharAne meM hI majA pAtA hai| ThIka vaisI hI ghaTanA ghaTI hai| eka nayA janma huA hai janaka kaa| prabhu kI pahalI jhalaka milI hai| jhalaka prANoM taka kauMdha gaI hai, roeM-roeM ko kaMpA gaI hai| aba to ve jo bhI boleMge, jo bhI dekheMge, jo bhI suneMge usa sabameM hI paramAtmA hI paramAtmA kI bAta hogii| yadayapi yaha bAta aisI hai ki kahI nahIM jA sakatI, phira bhI jaba ghaTatI hai to hajAra-hajAra upAya ise kahane ke kie jAte haiN| Aja ke sUtroM meM aSTAvakra janaka kI pITha para hAtha rakha kara thapathapAte haiN| ve kahate haiM, tU jiitaa| ve kahate haiM, tU ghara lauTa aayaa| tU jo kaha rahA hai ThIka kaha rahA hai| terI parIkSA pUrI huI hai| tU uttIrNa huA hai| pahalA sUtra, 'jaba mana kucha cAhatA hai-aSTAvakra ne kahA-'kucha socatA hai, kucha tyAgatA hai, kucha grahaNa karatA hai, jaba vaha dukhI aura sukhI hotA hai-taba baMdha hai|' baMdha kI ThIka-ThIka paribhASA ho jAe to mokSa kI bhI paribhASA ho jAtI hai| kyoMki jo baMdha nahIM hai, vahI mokSa hai| aura AsAna hai pahale baMdhana kI paribhASA kara lenA, kyoMki baMdhana se hama paricita haiN| AnaMda kI paribhASA karanI ho to buddha kahate haiM : dukha kA nirodh| dukha se hama paricita haiN| jahAM dukha na raha jAegA, vahAM aanNd| aMdherI rAta se hama paricita haiN| subaha kI paribhASA karanI ho to kahanA hogA : jahAM aMdherA na raha jaae|
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________________ lekina isa paribhASA se bar3I bhUleM bhI ho gaI haiN| kucha loga socane lagate haiM ki zAyada aMdhere ko miTAnA par3egA, taba subaha hogii| paribhASA to bilakula ThIka hai ki jahAM aMdherA na raha jAe, vahAM subh| lekina isa paribhASA ko tuma anuSThAna mata banA lenaa| tuma yaha mata socanA ki hama aMdhere ko miTAeMge to subaha ho jAegI / taba saba ulTA ho jaaegaa| subaha AtI hai, taba aMdherA miTatA hai| aMdhere ko miTAne kI koI saMbhAvanA nahIM hai| tuma to subaha ko pukaarnaa| tuma to subaha ko khojanA / tuma to dIye ko jalAnA / yadyapi yaha paribhASA bilakula ThIka hai ki jaba aMdherA nahIM raha jAtA, taba subaha / paribhASA kI taraha ThIka hai, sAdhana kI taraha khataranAka hai| jahAM koI dukha nahIM raha jAtA, vahAM AnaMda hai| to tuma dukha ko miTAne meM mata laga jAnA, nahIM to tuma AnaMda taka kabhI na pahuMcoge / paribhASA kI taraha bilakula suMdara hai| tuma to AnaMda ko pukAranA / tuma to AnaMda ko jagAnA | mere pAsa loga Ate haiN| ve kahate haiM ki hama kaise dukha se chUTeM? maiM kahatA hUM tuma dukha se dhyAna httaao| tuma jaba taka dukha se chUTanA cAhoge, taba taka na chUTa skoge| kyoMki dukha se chUTane meM tuma dukha hI para to najara rakhe ho / dukha se chUTane ke lie tumane apanI AMkheM dukha meM hI gar3A dI haiN| dukha se chUTane ke lie tuma dukha kA hI ciMtana karate ho| jisakA tuma ciMtana karate ho, vaha bar3hatA hai| dukha se chUTane ke lie tuma kSaNa bhara ko dukha ko bhUlate nahIM ho| jisako tuma bhUlate nahIM vaha gaharA utaratA jAtA hai| jisakA smaraNa karoge, vahI ho jAoge / jisase chUTanA cAhoge, usakI yAda bAra-bAra karanI pdd'egii| dekhA tumane kabhI kisI ko vismaraNa karanA ho to vismaraNa karanA muzkila ho jAtA hai! aise hajAroM loga Ate haiM jIvana meM aura bhUla jAte haiN| lekina kisI ko vismaraNa karanA ho, phira kaThinAI ho jAtI hai| kyoMki vismaraNa karane meM to smaraNa karanA par3atA hai| smaraNa se to ulTI prakriyA zurU ho jAtI hai| jise bhUlanA ho, use mUlane kI kabhI koziza mata krnaa| agara koziza kI to kabhI bhUla na paaoge| kyoMki koziza kA to matalaba hogA phira-phira yAda jagA loge| phira-phira koziza karoge, phira-phira yAda A jaaegii| bhUlanA ho to upekSA / bhUlanA ho to dhyAna ko kahIM aura le jAnA / bhulAne ke lie agara ceSTA kI to dhyAna vahIM aTakA rhegaa| yaha to aisA hogA jaise koI apane ghAva meM aMgulI DAla kara khele aura soce ki isase ghAva bhara jaaegaa| isase to ghAva kabhI bhI na bharegA, ghAva to harA rhegaa| tuma to roja ghAva ko banAte cale jaaoge| tuma to jitanI aMgulI se kheloge, ghAva ke bharane kI koI saMbhAvanA na chuuttegii| tuma bhuulo| tumane dekhA, agara koI AdamI bahuta bImAra ho to cikitsaka kahate haiM, pahalI jarUrata hai nIMda ! agara nIMda A jAe to AdhI bImArI ThIka ho jaae| kyoM? nIMda kA itanA mUlya kyA hai? kyoMki nIMda na Ae to bImAra bImArI ko bhUla nahIM paataa| vaha ghAva meM aMgulI DAla kara khelatA hai| vaha bAra-bAra vahI socatA hai ki sira meM darda hai, sira meM darda hai, sira meM darda hai ! vaha jitanI bAra socatA hai, darda ko
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________________ utanA bala detA hai| kAmI vyakti kAma se chUTanA cAhatA hai, to kAma hI kAma kI ciMtA karatA hai ki 'kaise chuTUM? yaha pApa hai, yaha burA hai, yaha aparAdha hai| ' krodhI krodha se chaTanA cAhatA hai, to krodha ke sAtha hI ulajhA raha jAtA hai| tuma jisase chUTanA cAhoge, usI meM aTaka jaaoge| dhyAna ko bdlnaa| dhyAna rAta se haTe, subaha para lge| dhyAna aMdhere se haTe, dIye para lge| dukha kI bAta hI mata utthaao| dukha hai, usakI upekSA kro| sukha ko jgaao| idhara sukha jagane lagegA, udhara dukha tirodhAna hone lgegaa| to paribhASAoM ko tuma sAdhanA mata smjhnaa| aneka loga paribhASAoM ko sAdhanA mAna lete haiN| paribhASAeM to kevala iMgita haiM, izAre haiM, kisI bAta ko kahane ke DhaMga haiN| aura kahanA par3atA hai ulTI tarapha se, kyoMki ulTe se tuma paricita ho| AnaMda ko hama buddhoM kI tarapha se to kaha nahIM sakate, kyoMki usake lie phira koI bhASA nahIM hai| buddhoM kI koI bhASA nahIM hai, vahAM to mauna bhASA hai| AnaMda ko kahanA ho to abuddhoM kI tarapha se kahanA pdd'egaa| abuddhoM ko AnaMda kA koI patA nahIM hai| ar3acana smjho| buddhoM ke pAsa koI bhASA nahIM hai, AnaMda kA anubhava hai| abuddhoM ke pAsa bhASA hai AnaMda kA koI anubhava nahIM hai| aba ina donoM ke bIca kaise saMvAda ho? to hama buddhoM ke anubhava ko abuddhoM kI bhASA meM anuvAdita karate haiN| jaba hama kahate haiM, AnaMda dukha kA nirodha hai, to anuvAda hai yh| jaba hama kahate haiM, sUraja kA UganA rAta kA miTa jAnA hai, to anuvAda hai yh| tumhArI bhASA meM anuvAda hai, tumheM anubhava nahIM hai| aura unakA anuvAda hai jinheM anubhava hai, lekina jinake pAsa bhASA nahIM hai| 'jaba mana kucha cAhatA hai...|' tadA baMdho yadA cittaM kiMcidvAcchati zocati __ kiMcindujcati gRhaNAti kiMciddhaSyati kupyti| 'jaba mana kucha socatA hai, kucha cAhatA hai, kucha tyAgatA hai, kucha grahaNa karatA hai, jaba vaha sukhI aura dukhI hotA hai-taba baMdha hai|' jaba mana sakriya hotA hai taba baMdha hai| mana kI kriyA baMdhana hai| tumase logoM ne kahA, krodha baMdha hai| tumase logoM ne kahA, kAma baMdha hai, lobha baMdha hai-vaha bAta pUrI nahIM hai. kyoMki agara dAna tuma karoge soca kara, to vaha bhI baMdha hai| agara tuma karuNA karoge soca kara, to vaha bhI badha hai| aSTAvakra bar3I maulika paribhASA de rahe haiN| ve kaha rahe haiM, mana kI kriyA mAtra baMdha hai| jahAM mana sakriya huA, taraMgeM uThIM, vahAM tuma baMdha ge| jahAM mana pUrA niktiya huA vahIM tuma mukta ho ge| una kSaNoM ko khojo jahAM mana kI koI kriyA na ho| tadA baMdha:! -yahAM hai bNdh|
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________________ yadA cittaM vAMchati! --jaba tumane kucha caahaa| cAhA ki nikale yAtrA pr| jarA socA tumane ki bane shekhcillii| sunI tumane zekhacillI kI kahAnI ? jAtA thA dUdha becane, sira para rakhA thA ghar3A dUdha kA / socane lagA rAha meM, ki Aja beca lUMgA to cAra Ane mileNge| bacAtA rahUMgA cAra Ane cAra Ane, cAra Ane, to jaldI hI eka aura bhaiMsa kharIda lUMgA ! phira to bar3A praphullita ho gayA, jaba bhaiMsa sAmane AI, AMkha meM utarI, mana meM gaMjI | bhaiMsa dekhI to socA 'are, itanA - itanA dUdha hogA, itanA - itanA ghI nikalegA, isa - isa taraha becUMgA, jaldI hI bhaiMseM hI bhaiMseM ho jAeMgI! kharIdatA jAUMgA, becatA jAUMgA, kharIdatA jAUMgA! jaldI aisI ghar3I A jAegI ki itanA dhana mere pAsa hogA ki gAMva kI jo suMdaratama lar3akI hai, vaha nizcita vivAha kA nivedana karegI ! ' taba to vaha havAoM meM ur3ane lgaa| jA to rahA thA usI sar3aka para, dUdha becane jA rahA thA - abhI bikA bhI nahIM thA, abhI cAra Ane hAtha meM Ae bhI nahIM the - zAdI bhI kara lI, bahU ko ghara bhI le AyA / itanA hI nahIM, jaldI hI beTA bhI ho gyaa| abhI bAjAra pahuMcA nahIM thA, abhI jA hI rahA thaa| beTA bhI ho gyaa| beTe ko biThAe, sardI ke dina haiM, godI meM khilA rahA hai| beTe ne usakI dAr3hI khIMcanI zurU kara dii| to usane kahA, ' are nAsamajha !' yaha bAta jarA jora se nikala gii| pahale dhIre- dhIre mana meM cala rahA thA saba khel| aba to khela itanA pakkA ho gayA thA ki yaha bAta jarA jora se nikala gii| aura donoM hAtha se usane beTe ko dAr3hI se agala karane kI koziza kI-ghaDA chUTa gyaa| ghar3A jamIna para girA / tumheM dikhA ki ghar3A girA; usakA to sArA saMsAra gira gyaa| tumheM usake saMsAra kA patA nahIM ! beTA marA, patnI marI, hajAroM bhaiMseM kharIdanI thIM, saba kho giiN| saMpatti khar3I ho gaI thI, saba miTa gii| koI bhI na thaa| ve cAra Ane bhI jo saMbhava the, ve bhI ge| khar3A hai akelaa| tuma samajha bhI nahIM sakate ki rAha para TUTa gaI usa maTakI meM kitanA kyA TUTa gayA ! isako aSTAvakra tumhAre mana kA saMsAra kahate haiN|. . nAma kalpanA! kucha hai nahIM - khela hai| lekina mana usa khela meM rasalIna ho jAtA, DUba jAtA / jahAM mana kI kiyA hai, vahIM baMdhana hai| yadA cittaM vAMchati! - jahAM mana ne cAhA, kucha bhI cAhA / yahAM viSaya kA koI bheda nahIM hai| aisA nahIM kahA jA rahA ki jo loga dhana cAhate haiM ve saMsArI haiM aura baMdhana meM haiN| tumane agara paramAtmA cAhA to bhI tuma baMdhana meM ho| tumane agara satya cAhA to bhI tuma baMdhana meM ho| dekhanA sUtra ko. yadA cittaM vAMchati / jisake citta meM vAMchA utthii| vAMchA kisakI? isakI koI jarUrata kahane kI nhiiN| kyoMki kisI kI bhI vAMchA uThe, vAMchA ke
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________________ pIche lahareM uThatI haiM, jhIla DAMvAMDola ho jAtI hai| jaise zAMta jhIla hai, tuma baiThe kinAre, uThA kara eka patthara pheMka diyA, chapAka avAja huI aura jhIla laharoM se bhara gaI-aise hI vAMchA kA patthara, cAha kA patthara, jaise hI mana meM par3atA hai ki sArA DAvAMDola ho jAtA hai| tuma karake dekho| karake dekhane kI bAta nahIM hai, roja tuma kara hI rahe ho| tuma isa zekhacillI ko kahIM kisI dUsare meM mata dekhnaa| kaI bAra tuma agara jarA pakar3ane kI koziza karoge to apane meM hI pakar3a loge| kitanI bAra nahIM yaha zekhacillI tumhAre bhItara tumhAre kitane rUpa leta! mana zekhacillI hai| aura jaba tuma zekhacillI ko pakar3a lo, to jarA haMsanA apane para aura apanI mUr3hatA pr| kyoMki jo vyakti apanI mUr3hatA para haMsane lage vaha buddhimAna honA zurU ho gyaa| kyoMki jo mUr3hatA para haMsatA hai vaha sAkSI ho gyaa| yadA cittaM vAMchati kiMcita shocti......| socA ki uljhe| soca-vicAra meM jAla hai| jaba bhI tumane koI vicAra uThAyA ki tuma usameM dduube| jaise hI vicAra uThatA hai, tuma gauNa ho jAte ho, vicAra pramukha ho jAtA hai| bhItara saba mUlya parivartana ho jAte haiN| tuma vicAra meM itane saMlagna ho jAte ho ki tumheM smaraNa bhUla jAtA hai ki tuma draSTA ho; tuma vicAraka ho jAte ho| tIna sthitiyAM haiM tumhaarii| eka to sAkSI kI taba mana bilakula nahIM hai, kyoMki koI taraMga hI nahIM hai| mana to taraMgoM kA jor3a hai, vicAra ke pravAha kA nAma hai| sAkSI kI dazA-taba jhIla bilakula mauna hai, koI havA kaMpAtI nhiiN| phira dUsarI avasthA hai-vicAraka kii| jhIla kaipa gii| vicAra ke bIja par3a gae haiN| vicAra kA patthara girA, vAMchA uThI, saba kaMpita ho gayA, darpaNa kho gayA-vaha darpaNa jaisI zAMta jhIla jo abhI taka cAMda ko jhalakAtI thI, aba nahIM jhlkaatii| aba cAMda bhI Tukar3e-Tukar3e ho gyaa| cAMdI phaila gaI pUrI jhIla para, lekina cAMda kA pratibiMba aba kahIM bhI ThIka se nahIM banatA, saba vikRta ho gyaa| yaha dUsarI avsthaa| phira tIsarI avasthA kartA kii| vaha jo vicAra meM tumane pakar3a liyA, jaldI hI karma bnegaa| sAkSI, vicAra aura krm| karma meM A gae to ghane jaMgala meM A gae saMsAra ke| vicAra meM the, to A rahe the saMsAra kI trph| sAkSI se cUka gae the, karma meM Ae na the, madhya meM aTake the-trizaka the| sAkSI ko jo upalabdha ho le vaha vyakti hai dhaarmik| jo vicAra meM ulajhA rahe, vaha vyakti hai daarshnik| aura jo karma meM utara Ae, vahI hai raajniitijny| dharma, darzanazAstra aura rAjanIti-ye tumhAre citta kI tIna avasthAeM haiN| dharma kA koI saMbaMdha na to kRtya se hai aura na vicAra se hai| dharma kA saMbaMdha to zuddha sAkSIbhAva se hai| phira darzanazAstra hai, usakA saMbaMdha sirpha vicAra se hai| vaha taraMgoM kA hisAba lagAtA; taraMgoM ke hisAba meM jhIla ko bhUla jAtA taraMgoM kI ginatI meM bhUla hI jAtA kisakI taraMgeM haiN| aura phira sabase jyAdA bhaTakI huI avasthA rAjanItika citta hI hai; vaha taraMgoM taka se cUka jAtA hai| vaha to taraMgoM ke jo pariNAma hote haiM agara
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________________ jhIla meM taraMgeM haiM to taraMgoM se jo AvAja uThatI, vaha pAsa kI vAdiyoM meM gaMjane lagatI hai-usakA hisAba rakhatA hai| jaba taka karma na bana jAe koI cIja, taba taka rAjanIti nahIM bntii| jina logoM ne kRSNa kI gItA para TIkA likhI hai, unameM tIna taraha ke loga haiN| eka to rAjanItijJa haiM; jaise tilaka, araviMda, gAMdhI-inhoMne kRSNa kI gItA para TIkAe~ likhiiN| ina sabakI koziza yaha hai ki gItA meM karmayoga siddha kareM ki karma hI saba kucha hai| phira dUsare vicArakoM ne TIkAeM likhI haiN| unakA Agraha hai ki ve vicAra kI kisI paraMparA ko siddha kareM- agara vicAra kI koI paraMparA bhakti ko mAnatI hai to bhakti ko siddha kareM; agara vicAra kI koI paraMparA jJAna ko mAnatI hai to jJAna ko siddha kareM; vicAra kI koI paraMparA advaita ko mAnatI hai to advaita siddha kareM, siddha kareM, yA dvaitAdvaita siddha kreN| hajAroM vicAra kI paraMparAeM haiN| ve dvaita ko mAnatI hai to vaita vicArakoM kI vyAkhyAeM haiN| tIsarI vyAkhyA kabhI kI nahIM gii| kyoMki tIsarI vyAkhyA to kI nahIM jA sktii| tIsarI vyAkhyA hai sAkSI- bhAva kii| vaha to anubhava kI bAta hai / usa vyAkhyA meM to koI utaratA hai - sakA, karane kA koI upAya nahIM hai| kyoMki agara vaha tIsarI bhI vyAkhyA kI jAe to vaha dUsarI vyAkhyA bana jaaegii| agara koI yaha bhI siddha karane kI ceSTA kare ki sAkSI - bhAva gItA kA mUla uddezya, dhyAna hai, samAdhi hai - to bhI vaha vicAra kA hissA ho jaaegaa| tIsarI vyAkhyA kI nahIM jA sktii| lekina jinhoMne tIsarI vyAkhyA samajhI anubhava se, ve hI samajha pAe; bAkI sabane apanI samajha ke kAraNa kRSNa kI samajha ko astavyasta kara diyaa| 'jaba mana kucha cAhatA, kucha socatA, kucha tyAgatA, kucha grahaNa karatA, jaba sukhI - dukhI hotAtaba baMdha hai|' tadA baMdha! pakar3e phira majA hai ki kucha loga pakar3ate, kucha loga chodd'te| kucha loga saMsAra ko pakar3e hue haiN| hu logoM ko kucha samajhAte haiM ki chor3o, saMsAra meM dukha hai, chor3o, bhAgoM ! lekina jo bhAga rahe haiM ve sukhI nahIM dikhAI pdd'te| unake jIvana meM koI prasAda nahIM mAlUma hotaa| jo bhAga kara baiTha gae haiM jaMgaloM-pahAr3oM meM, maThoM meM, unake jIvana meM koI kiraNa nahIM dikhAI par3atI, koI vibhA nahIM dikhAI pdd'tii|.. bAta kyA ho gaI? na pakar3ane se kucha milatA na chor3ane se kucha miltaa| kyoMki pakar3ate bhI tuma vahI ho, chor3ate bhI tuma vahI ho| kabhI-kabhI to aisA hotA hai ki pakar3ane vAle zAyada tumheM thor3e - bahuta sukhI bhI dikhAI par3e bhagor3e bilakula sukhI nahIM dikhAI pdd'te| kyoMki pakar3ane vAle ko kama se kama jIvana ke sAdhAraNa kSaNabhaMgura sukha to milate haiN| kSaNabhaMgura sahI kabhI kisI strI ke prema meM koI par3a jAtA hai, to kSaNabhaMgura hI sahI, eka sapanA to dekhatA hai sukhI hone kaa| TUTa jAegA yaha sapanA, yaha bhI saca hai| lekina thA - yaha bhI saca hai| lekina jo bhAga gayA hai, usako to kSaNabhaMgura bhI kho jAtA hai; zAzvata to milatA nahIM, kSaNabhaMgura bhI kho jAtA hai| maiM eka kahAnI par3hatA thaa| eka kathA - guru ne apane ziSyoM ko kahA ki eka kahAnI suno aura isa para dhyAna karanA aura isakA artha kala subaha lA kara mujhe de denA- isakI niSpatti / kahAnI
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________________ sIdhI-sAdI thii| kahAnI thI ki eka samrATa thA aura usake harama meM, usake ranivAsa meM pAMca sau suMdara striyAM thiiN| lekina ranivAsa usane apane mahala se pAMca mIla dUra jaMgala meM banA rakhA thaa| usakA jo vizvasta, sabase jyAdA vizvasta dAsa thA, sevaka thA, use sAMjha jAnA par3atA thA, eka rAnI ko le AtA thA-rAjA ke rAta ke bhoga ke lie| kahate haiM, rAjA to nabbe sAla taka jIyA, lekina jo AdamI usakI striyoM ko lAtA, le jAtA thA, vaha cAlIsa sAla meM mara gyaa| phira usane dUsarA AdamI rakhA, vaha bhI rAjA ke marane ke pahale mara gyaa| to kathA-guru ne apane ziSyoM ko kahA ki kala tuma subaha isa para dhyAna karake isakI niSpatti mere pAsa le AnA, isakA artha kyA hai? ziSyoM ne bahuta socA kucha artha samajha meM na AyA ki isameM artha kyA hai? ve vApisa aae| kathA-guru haMsA aura usane kahA, artha sIdhA-sApha hai| AdamI striyoM ke bhoga se itanI jaldI nahIM maratA, jitanA striyoM ke pIche bhAgane se maratA hai| vaha jo bhAgatA thA, roja jAtA, roja AtA-vaha cAlIsa sAla meM khatma ho gyaa| jo bhogatA thA, vaha nabbe sAla taka jiiyaa| AdamI dhana ke pIche bhAgane se utanA nahIM TUTatA, dhana ko bhogane se utanA nahIM TUTatA, jitanA dhana se bhAgane se TUTatA hai| AdamI saMsAra se utanA nahIM TUTatA, jitanA saMsAra se bhAgane lage to TUTa jAtA hai| sAMsArika vyaktiyoM ke cehare para to tumheM kabhI-kabhI raunaka bhI dikhAI par3a jAe; lekina jinako tuma tapasvI kahate ho, unake cehare para tumheM koI raunaka nahIM dikhAI pdd'egii| ve murdA haiN| hA, yaha ho sakatA hai tuma unake marepana ko hI tapazcaryA samajhate ho to tumheM dikhAI par3e kuch| pIlA par3a jAe AdamI upavAsa se to bhakta kahate haiM; 'kaisA kuMdana jaisA rUpa nikhara AyA! dekho, kaisA svarNa jaisA!' jo unake bhakta nahIM, unase pUcho to ve kaheMge : inako hama pItala bhI nahIM kaha sakate, sonA to dUsarI bAta hai| yaha sonA tumakI dikhAI par3atA hai; dikhAI bhI par3atA hai, yaha bhI pakkA nahIM-tuma dekhanA cAhate ho, isalie dikhAI par3atA hai| tumane kabhI tumhAre tyAgiyoM ko AnaMdita dekhA? kabhI kisI jaina muni ko tumane AnaMdita dekhA? aura tumane kabhI yaha bhI socA ki itane jaina muni haiM, inameM koI AnaMdita nahIM dikhAI par3atA, koI nAcatA, gIta gunagunAtA nahIM dikhAI par3atA? inameM to AnaMda honA caahie| ye to saba saMsAra chor3a kara cale gae haiN| inhoMne to dakha ke saba rAste tor3a die| inhoMne to saba setu girA die| inake hAtha meM to ikatArA honA caahie| inake hRdaya meM to vINA bajanI caahie| inake pairoM meM to ara honA caahie| ye to gAe~... pada dhuMgharU bAMdha mIrA nAcI re! magara nahIM, na koI nAca hai, na pada meM dhuMgharU haiM, na prANoM meM ghugharU haiN| saba udAsa, saba khAlI, saba rikta, saba murdA, maraghaTa kI taraha haiM ye log| tumhAre mahAtmA yAnI jIte - jI mrghtt| phira bhI tuma socate nahIM ki huA kyA hai? kahIM aisA to nahIM ki bhoga to galata hai hI, tyAga aura bhI galata hai? bhogI to nAsamajha hai hI, nAsamajha hai- bhogI se bhI jyAdA nAsamajha hai| aSTAvakra kA yaha sUtra suno 'jo kucha tyAgatA hai, kucha grahaNa karatA hai.....| '
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________________ kiMcit muDacati kiMcit gRhnnaati.....| kucha pakar3A, kucha chor3A-donoM baMdhana hai| yadA bNdh:| jo sukhI hotA, dukhI hotaa| sukha aura dukha donoM meM koI bhI AnaMda nahIM hai| AnaMda bar3I hI pAralaukika bAta hai| sukhI AdamI AnaMdita AdamI nahIM hai, sukhI AdamI dukha ko dabAe baiThA hai| sukhI AdamI kSaNa bhara ko dukha ko bhulA baiThA hai| tuma kaba apane ko sukhI kahate ho, tumane khayAla kiyA pU philma dekhane cale gae, do ghaMTe philma meM DUba gae-tuma kahate ho, bar3A sukha milA! bAhara nikale, phira tumhArA dukha maujUda hai| kabhI zarAba pI lI-tuma kahate ho, bar3A sukha milA! subaha uThe, phira tumhArA dukha maujUda hai, vahIM kA vahIM khar3A hai; zAyada bar3ha bhI gayA ho rAta meN| tuma jaba behoza par3e the, taba dukha bar3ha rahA thaa| kyoMki isa jagata meM koI bhI cIja ThaharI huI nahIM hai, saba cIjeM bar3ha rahI haiN| tuma rAta soe the, vRkSa bar3ha rahe the| tuma rAta soe the, tumhArA baccA bar3A ho rahA thaa| tuma rAta soe the, tumhArA dukha bhI bar3ha rahA thaa| tuma zarAba pI kara par3e the to vismaraNa ho gayA thA, lekina vismaraNa se to kucha miTatA nhiiN| yaha to zuturamurga kI dRSTi hai| sunI hai na tumane bAta ki zaturamurga apane duzmana ko dekha kara sira ko reta meM khapA kara khar3A ho jAtA hai? na dikhAI par3atA duzmana ramurga mAnatA hai : jo dikhAI nahIM par3atA hai, vaha ho kaise sakatA hai? usakA tarka to ThIka hai| nAstika bhI to yahI kahate haiM ki paramAtmA dikhAI nahIM par3atA to ho nahIM sktaa| zata arastu ke nyAya-zAstra ko mAnatA hai| usane sira gar3A liyA reta meM vaha kahatA hai, mujhe to koI dikhAI nahIM par3a rahA duzmana, to ho kaise sakatA hai? jo mujhe dikhAI na par3e to ho nahIM sakatA, kyoMki pratyakSa pramANa kahAM? lekina zuturamurga kitanA hI sira reta meM gar3A le, duzmana sAmane hai to hai| saca to yaha hai, agara AMkheM khulI hotI aura zuturamurga duzmana ko dekhatA to bacane kA koI upAya bhI thaa| aba bacane kA koI upAya bhI na rhaa| aba to yaha bilakula duzmana ke hAtha meM hai| isane apane hAtha se a duzmana ko de diyaa| yaha to AtmahatyA hai| agara duzmana isako mAra DAlegA, to duzmana kI kalA kama, zuturamurga kI AtmahatyA kI vRtti jyAdA kAragara hai| usakA hI hAtha hogA-AtmahatyA kI vRtti kaa| zmRturamurga mata bananA, AMkha baMda mata krnaa| lekina tuma jise sukha kahate ho vaha saba zuturamurgI bAteM haiN| kabhI isameM kabhI usameM thor3A apane ko ulajhA lete ho| koI tAza ke patte lie baiThA hai, khela rahA hai| kisI ne zataraMja bichA rakhI hai, jhUThe-nakalI ghor3e, vajIra-bAdazAha banA rakhe haiM-khela rahA hai| kaise loga DUba jAte haiM, tuma jarA soco! zataraMja ke khelane vAle aise DUba jAte haiM ki sArI duniyA bhUla jAtI hai| kaisI ekAgratA! aura kisa para ye ekAgratA kara rahe haiM-jahAM kucha bhI nahIM hai! apane hI banAe hAthI-ghor3e haiM! aura maiM tumase kahanA cAhatA hUM ki zataraMja ke hAthI ghor3e hI jhUThe hoM, aisA nahIM hai; jo tumhAre
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________________ rAjA-mahArAjAoM ke hAthI-ghor3e haiM, rAjanItijJoM ke, rASTrapatiyoM, pradhAnamaMtriyoM ke hAthI-ghor3e haiM, ve bhI itane hI jhUThe haiN| aMtima vizleSaNa meM, isa jagata meM jo bhI cala rahA hai-khela hai| usa khela ko ati gaMbhIratA se le lenA bhrAMti hai| lekina hama lete haiN| hama lete haiM eka kAraNa se ki vahI ekamAtra upAya hai dukha ko mUlane kaa| tuma dekhate ho, krikeTa kA maica ho ki hAkI ho ki vAlIbaoNla ho, cale lAkhoM loga dekhane! inase thor3A pUcho bhI ki kyA dekhane jAte ho? to inake pAsa koI uttara na hogaa| lekina ye mUlane jA rahe haiN| tuma rAha se jA rahe ho, hajAra jarUrI kAma hoM, agara do AdamI lar3ate hoM rAha ke kinAre, tuma ruka jAte ho| TikA dI sAikila, khar3e ho gae, dekhane lge| kyA dekhate ho? do AdamI lar3ate haiM, isako dekhanA bhI azobhana hai, abhadra hai| yaha to lar3ane jaisA hI hai| yaha to tumhAre dekhane se bhI unako lar3ane meM gati milegii| tuma pApa ke bhAgIdAra ho rahe ho| tuma protsAhana de rahe ho| agara koI khar3A na ho to zAyada ve bhI apane - apane rAste cale jAeM ki kyA sAra hai! lekina jaba bhIr3a khar3I ho jAe to unakA bhI jAnA muzkila ho jAtA, ahaMkAra para coTa par3atI, dAva laga jAtA itane loga dekha rahe haiM! aba agara haTe to kAyara! itane logoM kI maujUdagI lar3A degii| tuma agara khar3e ho gae, to tuma unake lar3ane kA kAraNa bana rahe ho| aura tumane kabhI yaha bhI khayAla kiyA ki agara jhagar3A na ho aura ve donoM AdamI sulaha para A jAeM aura namaskAra karake vidA ho jAeM, to tuma bhItara thor3A-sA anubhava karate ho, jaise kucha cUkA, kucha nukasAna huA majA na AyA! tumhAre bhItara aisA lagatA hai ki honA jo cAhie thA, ho jAtI Takkara, ho jAtA khUna-kharAbA, to thor3I tumheM uttejanA milatI, tumhArI murdA-sI par3I jiMdagI meM thor3A bala AtA, thor3e prANa sarakate tumhArI marI AtmA thor3I sAMsa letii| nahIM huA kucha bhI tuma aise jAte ho khAlI hAtha, jaise tumheM dhokhA diyA gyaa| tuma eka zikAyata lie jAte ho| tuma kaha bhI nahIM sakate kisI se| kyA kahane kA! lekina bhItara eka zikAyata, eka kar3avA svAda tumhAre muMha meM raha jaaegaa| kucha kI tuma pratIkSA karate the, vaha nahIM huaa| aura donoM bar3A zoragula macA rahe the aura kucha bhI nahIM huaa| subaha jaba tuma akhabAra uThA kara par3hate ho, to tuma jaldI se dekhate ho. 'kahAM DAkA par3A? kahAM hatyA huI? kauna pradhAnamaMtrI mArA gayA? kauna girAyA gayA? kauna kyA huA?' agara unakhabAra meM kucha bhI na ho to tuma aise udAsI se paTaka dete ho ki Aja koI samAcAra hI nhiiN| tuma kina samAcAroM kI pratIkSA kara rahe ho? tuma cAhate kyA ho? tuma apanI cAhata to dekho| tuma basa apanI uttejanA ke lie kucha bhI, kucha bhI ho jaae,?.| spena meM loga sAMDoM se AdamiyoM ko lar3Ate haiM aura dekhane jAte haiN| aba kisI AdamI se sAMDa ko lar3AnA sAMDa ke sAtha bhI jyAdatI hai aura AdamI ke sAtha bhI jyAdatI hai| lekina lAkhoM loga dekhate
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________________ haiM-tatpara ho kara! ina sAMDoM kI lar3AI meM loga jitane dhyAna-magna dikhAI par3ate haiM aura kahIM dikhAI nahIM dete| purAne dinoM meM, romana dinoM meM AdamiyoM ko chor3a diyA jAtA thA jaMgalI jAnavaroM, zeroM, siMhoM ke sAmane aura unase ldd'aaii.| aura lAra murge lar3Ate haiM loga, kabUtara lar3Ate haiM log| agara tumhAre par3osa meM pati-patnI lar3ane lageM, to tuma dIvAla se kAna lagA kara baiTha jAte ho| rasa hai tumhArA aisI bAtoM meM jinake dvArA tuma kisI bhAMti apane para se apanA dhyAna haTA lo| sArA dharma kahatA hai. apane para dhyAna lagAo, to AnaMda phalita hogaa| tuma apane para se dhyAna haTA rahe ho| aura jaba tumhArA dhyAna thor3I dera ko haTa jAtA hai, tuma saphala ho jAte-tuma kahate, jarA sukha milA! jarA-sA sukha milaa| saMgIta meM DUba gae, ki saMbhoga meM DUba gae, ki zarAba meM DUba gae-jarA-sA sukha milaa| kSaNa bhara ko apane ko bhUla gae, kiyA vismaraNa-sukhI the? vismaraNa sukha hai? to phira saba buddha nAsamajha haiN| kyoMki ve kahate haiM, Atma-smaraNa AnaMda hai| to AnaMda aura sukha kI paribhASA samajha lo| Atma-smaraNa AnaMda hai| svecchA se Atma-smaraNa kI tarapha jAnA sAdhanA hai| Atma-vismaraNa sukha hai| jabardastI svayaM kI yAda dilA de koI cIja to dukha hai| tuma jise dukha kahate ho, usase AnaMda karIba hai, bajAya tumhAre sukha ke| phira se maiM samajhA dUM? Atma-smaraNa AnaMda hai; Atma-vismaraNa sukha hai| aura dukha hai donoM ke bIca meN| dukha meM majabUrI se AdamI ko svayaM kA thor3A bahuta smaraNa karanA par3atA hai-majabUrI se, jabardastI; karanA nahIM cAhatA! sira meM darda hai aura apanI yAda AtI hai| hRdaya meM eka kAMTA cubhA hai aura pIr3A ke kAraNa yAda aatii| karanA par3atA hai! bhAgatA hai ki koI upAya khoja le, kahIM zarAba kI botala khola le aura apane ko bhUla jaae| jahAM bhI tuma apane ko bhulAne jAte ho bhalA vaha maMdira ho yA masjida, prArthanA ho yA namAjavaha saba zarAba hai| jahAM mUlane kA tuma upAya khojate ho, vaha saba zarAba hai| bhUlanA mAtra AdamI ko apane se dUra le jAtA hai| agara tumheM merI yaha bAta samajha meM AI ho, to tuma tapazcaryA kA artha bhI samajha loge| tapazcaryA kA artha hai : jaba dukha ho to usase bhAganA nhiiN| tapazcaryA kA artha hai : jaba jIvana meM dukha ho, to usase jarA bhI bhAgane kI koziza na karanI, balki ThIka usa dukha ke bIca dhyAnastha ho kara baiTha jAnA; usa dukha ko dekhanA; usa dukha ke prati jAganA aura sAkSI- bhAva paidA krnaa| isalie maiMne kahA ki dukha se AnaMda karIba hai, bajAya sukha ke| maiM tumase yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki tuma dukha paidA karo kyoMki vaha to dukhavAda hogA, vaha eka taraha kA maisocijma hogaa| maiM tumako yaha nahIM kaha rahA ki tuma apane ko satAo; jaisA ki kaI mUDha satA rahe haiN| jiMdagI meM dukha apaneApa kAphI hai, aba tumheM kucha aura karane kI jarUrata nahIM hai| jIvana kAphI dukhadAyI hai, dukha hI dukha se bharA hai| janma dukha hai, jarA dukha hai, mRtyu dukha hai-yahAM dukha hI dukha haiN| buddha ne kahA, yahAM dukhoM kI
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________________ koI kamI hai? saba tarapha dukha hI dukha haiN| tumheM dukha banAne kI jarUrata nahIM, dukha to haiM, tuma sirpha dukhoM se bhAgo mata, dukhoM ke prati jAgo! tuma dukhoM ko sukha meM bhulAne kI ceSTA mata kro| tuma dukhoM ko dhyAna banA lo aura usI dhyAna se tuma pAoge, tuma Atma-smaraNa meM sarakane lge| dhIre- dhIre dukha ko dekhate-dekhate, tumheM vaha bhI dikhAI par3ane lagegA jo dukha ko dekha rahA hai| sukha meM to dekhane vAlA so jAtA hai| isalie to sukha meM kabhI paramAtmA yAda nahIM aataa| isalie to sukhI AdamI eka taraha ke abhizApa meM hai aura dukhI AdamI ko eka taraha kA varadAna hai| sukhI to bhUla jAtA apane ko, paramAtmA kI sudha kauna rakhe ? paramAtmA to hamArA AtyaMtika keMdra hai| hama apane ko hI bhUla gae, to apane keMdra kI kahAM sudha rahI? paramAtmA to hamAre bhItara chipA hai; hama apane ko hI bhUla gae to paramAtmA ko hI bhUla ge| isalie kabhI-kabhI dukha meM paramAtmA kI bhalA yAda Ae, sukha meM jarA bhI yAda nahIM AtI; sukha meM to AdamI bilakula bhUla jAtA hai| sukha AeM to saubhAgya mata samajhanA / sukha AeM to unake bhI sAkSI bananA aura dukha AeM to durbhAgya mata samajhanA; dukha AeM to unake bhI sAkSI bnnaa| aura donoM ke sAkSI bana kara tuma pAoge ki donoM ke pAra ho gae ho| jo na sukhI hotA na dukhI, jahAM na sukha hai na dukha, vahIM baMdhana ke pAra ho jAtA hai aadmii| jaba taka sukhI hotA, dukhI hotA, chor3atA, pakar3atA, tabhI taka baMdhana hai / tadA baMdha ! 'jaba mana na cAha karatA hai, na socatA hai, na tyAgatA hai, na grahaNa karatA hai, vaha jaba na sukhI hotA, na dukhI hotA-taba mukti | tadA muktiryadA cittaM na vAMchati na shocti| na muDacati na gRhaNAti na haSyati na kupyti|| kahAM hai mukti ? mokSa kahAM hai? loga socate haiM, zAyada mokSa kahIM kisI pAralaukika bhUgola kA hissA hai, koI jyaoN~grAphI hai| mokSa jyA~grAphI nahIM hai, bhUgola nahIM hai| mokSa to tumhAre hI citta kI AtyaMtika rUpa se zAMta ho gaI dazA hai| loga socate haiM, saMsAra bAhara hai| saMsAra bhI bAhara nahIM hai - tumhArI hI vikSubdha cetanA hai| mokSa bhI kahIM dUra Upara AkAza meM hai? nahIM, jarA bhI nahIM / mokSa bhI tumhArI phira se zAMta ho gaI hai| to aisA samajho ki saMsAra hai jvara-grasta cetanA; mokSa hai jvara - mukta cetanA / saMsAra hai udvigna lahareM tumhAre caitanya kI, mokSa hai laharoM kA phira so jAnA, vizrAma meM kho jAnA / jhIla jaba zAMta ho jAe aura cAMda kA pratibiMba banane lage pUrA-pUrA to mokSa, aura jhIla jaba udvigna ho jAe, aura lahareM hI lahareM phaila jAeM aura cAMda kA pratibiMba TUTa jAe - taba saMsAra / tadA muktiH yadA na vAMchati / - na to cAha ho, na zocati........ /
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________________ na soca ho, vicAra ho na majcati......| -na tyAga ho; na gRhNAti.......| -na pakar3a ho; tadA mukti..... -vahIM hai mokss| yaha zuddhatama mokSa kI paribhASA hai| isakA yaha artha huA ki aisA bhI nahIM hai ki tumheM kisI dina mokSa milegA, tuma cAho to abhI bhI, kabhI-kabhI, bhare saMsAra meM bhI kSaNa bhara ko tuma mokSa kA rasa le sakate ho| kyoMki agara kSaNa bhara ko bhI vicAra baMda ho jAeM, aura kSaNa bhara ko bhI koI vAMchA na ho kSaNa bhara ko bhI citta meM kriyA ruka jAe, koI gati-AvAgamana na ho, na kucha pakar3ane kA bhAva uThe na chor3ane kA-to usa kSaNa meM tuma mokSa meM ho| aura vahI svAda tumheM phira aura- aura mokSa meM le jaaegaa| dhyAna kA artha hai : thor3I-thor3I jhlkeN| samAdhi kA artha hai : jhalakoM kA Thahara jAnA, thira ho jaanaa| 'jaba mana na cAha karatA hai.| ' lekina tuma dekho! jinako tuma tyAgI kahate ho, ve bhI cAha kara rahe haiM mokSa kI cAha kara rahe haiM! aSTAvakra kI paribhASA meM tumhAre tyAgI, tyAgI nahIM haiN| tuma pUcho apane tyAgI se ki tumane saMsAra kyoM chor3A? vaha kahatA hai, mokSa kI talAza meN| tuma pUcho apane tyAgI se, tumane dhana-dvAra, ghara-dvAra kyoM chor3A? to vaha kahatA hai, mokSa kI talAza meM AtmA ke AnaMda ko khojanA, satya ko khojnaa| magara yaha to phira tyAga na huaa| maiMne sunA hai, do choTe-choTe gAMva eka pahAr3I para base the| eka thA kSatriyoM kA gAMva aura eka thA julAhoM kA gaaNv| julAhe sadA se kSatriyoM se pIr3ita the sadA Darate rhe| kSatriya, kSatriya; julAhe julAhe! unake sAmane akar3a kara bhI na nikala paate| kSatriyoM ne niyama banA rakhA thA ki unake gAMva meM se koI julAhA mUMcha para tAva de kara nahIM nikala sakatA, to mUMcha nIcI kara lenI pdd'tii| bar3I pIr3A thI julAhoM ko| Akhira unhoMne kahA, isakA kucha upAya karanA par3e, Akhira eka sImA hotI hai sahane kii| unhoMne kahA, eka rAta jaba kSatriya soe hoM kyoMki jAge meM to una para hamalA karane meM jhaMjhaTa hai-jaba saba kSatriya soe hoM aura unako kabhI kalpanA bhI nahIM ho sakatI, kisI kSatriya ne sapanA bhI na dekhA hogA ki julAhe hamalA kareMge to rAta meM hama cale jAeM aura acchI mAra-kuTAI kara deM aura lUTapATa kara leN| bar3I himmata bAMdha kara julAhoM ne kSatriyoM ke gAMva para hamalA kiyA, lekina julAhe to julAhe the| soe hue kSatriya bhI jAge hue julAhoM ke lie kAphI the| ve pahale hI se ghabar3A rahe the eka-dUsare ke pIche ho rahe the, bAmuzkila to pahuMce kSatriyoM ke gAMva meM unake pahuMcane ke zoragula meM isake pahale ki ve hamalA kareM yA kucha kareM, kSatriya jaga ge| ve soca-vicAra hI kAphI karate rahe ki kahAM se kareM
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________________ kisa para kareM; socate rahe ki sabase kamajora kSatriya kauna hai, pahale usI ko dekheN| aba ye bhI koI DhaMga hote haiM? utanI dera meM kSatriya jAga gae, ve talavAreM nikAla laae| julAhoM ne talavAreM dekhIM to bhAge, betahAzA bhaage| jaba jalAhe bhAga rahe the, to unameM se unakA eka sAthI kahane lagA ki bhAiyoM! bhAge to jAte hI ho, bhalA mAro-mAro to kahate clo| to julAhe bhAgate jAte aura cillAte jAte : 'mAro-mAro!' / kisako dhokhA dete ho? lekina unako majA AyA 'mAro-mAro cillAne meN| mAranA karanA unake basa ke bAhara thA, piTAI ho rahI thI, bhAge jA rahe the, lekina jisane kahA, usane bhI khUba tarakIba nikaalii| usane kahA ki kama se kama mAro -mAro to cillaao| mAra nahIM sakate, koI harjA nahIM, lekina mAro -mAro kI AvAja to hama kara hI sakate haiN| isase kama se kama bharosA to rahegA ki hamane bhI kucha kiyaa| tuma apane tyAgiyoM ko dekhate ho? tumhAre hI jaise, ThIka tumhAre jaise hI vAMchA se bhare, kAmanA se bhare, tumhAre hI jaise vAsanA se bhre| mAnA ki unake vAsanA ke viSaya dUsare, tumhAre viSaya dUsare, para viSaya- bheda se thor3e koI bheda par3atA hai! vAsanA kA artha hai. kucha bhI cAhA, to cUke, to apane se cuuke| cAha-mAtra apane se vaMcita kara jAtI hai| lekina bhAgate jAte haiM apanI cAha ke pIche aura cillAte bhI jAte haiM ki bhAiyo! tyAgoM, tyAgo! vAsanA meM kucha sAra nahIM hai! tuma jarA suno apane julAhoM ko tumhAre mahAtmA! ve kahate haiM. 'bhAiyoM! tyAgo, tyAgo! vAsanA meM kucha bhI rakhA nahIM; dukha hI dukha hai| ' aura tuma unase hI pUcho ki mahArAja, Apa upavAsa karate, ghara chor3a diyA, maMdira meM baiThe haiM, bar3A dhyAna lagAte haiM-kisalie guma agara tumhArA mahAtmA uttara de de ki isalie, to cUka gyaa| koI bhI uttara vaha de, kahe ki isalie, to vAsanA maujUda hai| tumhArA mahAtmA agara haMse aura kahe ki 'kisalie bhI nahIM, sirpha jIvana kI vyarthatA dikhAI par3a gaI.! maiMne jIvana chor3A nahIM hai-jIvana chUTa gayA hai| maiM kucha cAhane meM nahIM lagA hUM maiM kucha khojane meM bhI nahIM lagA hUM-maiMne to yaha jAna liyA ki jisako khojanA hai, vaha mere bhItara hai, usako khojane kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| maiM kahIM jA bhI nahIM rahA hUM apane ghara meM baiThA huuN| merI saba yAtrA samApta ho gaI hai| maiM mokSa bhI nahIM khoja rahA hUM, paramAtmA bhI nahIM khoja rahA huuN| merI prArthanA kucha mAMgane ke lie nahIM hai| upavAsa merA AnaMda hai, kucha cAha nhiiN| dhyAna merA AnaMda hai, kucha cAha nhiiN| ye mere sAdhana nahIM haiM, ye mere sAdhya haiN|' agara tumase koI mahAtmA aisA kahe, aura aisA tuma pAo ki kisI mahAtmA ke jIvana meM aisA hai bhI, kyoMki kahane se kucha nahIM hotA; ho sakatA hai 'mAro-mAro' cillA rahA ho, phira bhI tumheM usakI AMkhoM meM aisI jhalaka mile, usake sAnnidhya meM bhI aisA lage ki na usakI koI pakar3a hai na koI chor3a hai, na tyAga hai na bhoga hai, jo hotA hai hotA hai, vaha cupacApa kinAre para baiThA dekha rahA hai-agara tuma aisI vizrAma kI cetanA ko pA lo, vahAM jhukAnA apanA sir| vaha jhukane kI jagaha hai| vaha maMdira kI caukhaTa A gii| vaisA AdamI maMdira hai|
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________________ lekina agara kahIM bhI pAne kI, koI AkAMkSA abhI bhI saraka rahI ho mana ke kisI kone meM, phira vaha pAnA kucha bhI kyoM na ho, to saMsArI saMsArI hai| sira ke bala khar3A ho jAe, isase kucha bheda nahIM pdd'taa| bhUkhA mare, isase kucha bheda nahIM pdd'taa| naMgA khar3A ho jAe, isase kucha bheda nahIM pdd'taa| saMsAra aura mokSa aSTAvakra kI paribhASA meM tumhAre citta kI dazAeM haiM-cAha aura acAha kii| 'jaba mana na cAha karatA hai, na socatA hai, na tyAgatA hai, na grahaNa karatA hai, na sukhI hotA, na dukhI hotA-taba mukti hai|' tadA muktiH / jaba mana ekarasa hotA, basa hotA, koI kriyA nahIM hotI, koI halana-calana nahIM hotA, koI kaMpana nahIM hotA, stabdha jyoti ThaharI hotI hai akaMpa, na kahIM jAnA, na hone kI koI vAMchA, jaisA hai hai-aisA sarvasvIkAra, aisI tathAtA; jaise darpaNa korA; jaise korA kAgaja, jisa para kucha likhA nahIM hai, aisA jaba mana korA hotA-usa kore mana kA nAma hI dhyAna hai| aura usa kore mana meM jaba koI saMbhAvanA nahIM raha jAtI...| kyoMki kucha kore kAgaja hote haiM jinameM adRzya likhAvaTa hotI hai| korA kAgaja ho sakatA hai, lekina aisI rAsAyanika prakriyAeM hotI haiM ki tuma rAsAyanika dravyoM se likha sakate ho, dikhAI na par3e, thor3I AMca batAo to dikhAI par3ane lge| jaba korA kAgaja aisA hotA hai ki usameM adRzya likhAI bhI nahIM hotI, kitanI hI AMca dikhAo kucha bhI dikhAI nahIM par3egA, kucha bhI paidA nahIM hogA-taba jAnanA A gae apane ghara, maMjila milii| tadA muktiH / 'jaba mana kisI dRSTi athavA viSaya meM lagA huA hai taba baMdha hai aura mana jaba saba dRSTiyoM se anAsakta hai taba mokSa hai|' sIdhI-sIdhI bAteM haiM, bar3e sIdhe sUtra haiM aura satya ke atyaMta nikaTa haiN| tadA baMdho yadA cittaM sakta kAsvapi dRSTiSu / tadA mokSo yadA citaMsaktaM sarvadRSTiSu / / 'jaba mana kisI dRSTi athavA viSaya meM lagA hai......|' kisI dRSTi meM lagA hai-AMkha se jo dikhAI par3atA hai usameM lagA hai, kAna se jo sunAI par3atA hai usameM lagA hai, hAtha se jo sparza meM AtA hai usameM lagA hai-to dRSTi meM lagA hai| samajho isa bAta ko| tuma rAha se gujare dekhA eka suMdara strI ko jAte hue mana usake pIche calane lgaa| tuma na bhI jAo usake pIche, tuma muMha mor3a lo, tuma AMkha baMda kara lo, tuma usa tarapha dekho hI nahIM lekina mana calane lgaa| tumhAre calane se kucha mana ke calane kA saMbaMdha nhiiN| tumhArA zarIra cale na cale, mana calane lgaa| phira vahIM se eka tyAgI nikala rahA hai| tuma usa strI ke sauMdarya ke bhoga ke lie Atura hone lage, mana meM kalpanA uThane lgii| phira eka tyAgI nikalatA hai vahIM se, usane bhI suMdara strI dekhii| suMdara strI dekha kara hI vaha zAstroM ke vacana apane bhItara doharAne lagA ki 'strI meM hai kyA? haDDI, mAMsa, majjA, mala-mUtra hai kyA strI meM? kucha bhI to nahIM hai| ' vaha samajhAne lagA apane ko| yaha tyAgI hai, lekina isa tyAga ke pIche bhI kahIM gahare meM rAga chipA hai.; nahIM to
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________________ yaha bAta bhI kyA uThAnI ? aura strI meM mala-mUtra chipA hai to tumameM kyA koI sonA-cAMdI chipA hai| tumane kabhI socA? jina mahAtmAoM ne tumhAre zAstra likhe, usameM ve likha gae 'strI meM mala-mUtra, mAMsa-majjA, basa yahI thUka - khakhAra - yahI saba chipA par3A hai| 'khuda ina mahAtmA kyA chipA thA? isa saMbaMdha meM bhI to kucha sUcanA de jaate| usa saMbaMdha meM bilakula cupa haiN| kyoMki puruSoM ne zAstra likhe haiM, isalie striyoM meM to haDDI, mAMsa, majjA hai aura puruSoM meM sonA-cAMdI hai ! striyoM ne zAstra likhe hote to zAyada bAta kucha aura hotI, to ve puruSoM ke bAbata likhtiiN| lekina yaha likhane kI jarUrata bhI kyA hai? kyA isa bAta meM sApha pramANa nahIM hai ki kahIM na kahIM abhI bhI strI meM rasa rahA hogaa| usI rasa ko jhuThalAne ko yaha kaha rahA hai ki rakhA kyA hai! yaha apane mana ko samajhA rahA hai| mana to kahatA hai ki clo...| yaha mana ko kaha rahA hai : are pAgala, kucha bhI nahIM rakhA hai! vAsanA to uThI hai, yaha vAsanA kI lagAma khIMcane kI koziza kara rahA hai| lAkha tuma aisI kozizeM karo, tuma jItoge nhiiN| yaha saba soca-vicAra hI hai| mujhe apanI pastI kI zarama hai terI riphaatoM kA khayAla hai magara apane dila ko maiM kyA karUM? ise phira bhI zauka - e -visAla hai| tuma lAkha samajho, zarmiMdA hoo, aparAdhI anubhava karo galatI ho rahI hai, pApa ho rahA hai-phira bhI kucha pharka nahIM par3atA / magara apane dila ko maiM kyA karUM? ise phira bhI zauka - e -visAla hai| vaha dila to bhoga mAMgatA hI jAtA hai| usa dila ko tuma roko, baMdhana DAlo, jaMjIreM pahanAoisase bhI koI pharka nahIM pdd'taa| tuma nikala rahe rAha se tuma bhogI ho to bhoga kI AkAMkSA uThI hai; tyAgI nikalatA, usako bhI bhoga kI AkAMkSA nikalatI hai, vaha tyAga kI bAtoM se usa AkAMkSA ko dabAtA / magara donoM dRSTi meM ulajha gae; jo dikhAI par3A usameM ulajha ge| tuma usa AdamI kI kalpanA karo jo vahIM rAste se nikalatA hai aura jo dikhAI par3atA hai, vaha na to isa tarapha na usa tarapha, kisI taraha kI ulajhana paidA nahIM krtaa| strI nikalI, nikalI - strI strI hai! na to zoragula macAne kI jarUrata hai ki svarga nikala gayA pAsa se, na zoragula macAne kI jarUrata hai ki yaha kAporazana kI mailA - gAr3I nikala gaI pAsa se / strI, strI hai- nikala gaI, nikala gaI ! tuma aise hI cale gae, jaise kucha bhI na niklaa| isa avasthA kA nAma hai : dRSTi ke pAra ho jAnA / tumane kAna se kucha sunA aura usameM rasa par3a gyaa| eka gIta suna liyA phira-phira gIta ko sunane kI AkAMkSA hone lagI to dRSTi meM ulajha ge| tumane kucha chuA, prItikara lagA, phira-phira chUnA cAhA to phira dRSTi meM ulajha ge| khayAla rakhanA, tumane jA kara kisI sAdhu kI vANI sunI, kisI saMta ke vacana sune, sunane ke
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________________ kAraNa acche lage aura ulajha gae to vaha bhI dRSTi hai| samajha ke kAraNa ThIka laganA eka bAta hai, sunane ke kAraNa ThIka laganA bilakula dUsarI bAta hai| tuma, sirpha kAnoM ko prItikara lage, isalie ulajha gae; karNamadhura lage, isalie ulajha gae to phira tuma dRSTi meM ulajha ge| tumhArI samajha ko ThIka lge.| 'jaba mana kisI dRSTi athavA viSaya meM lagA huA hai taba baMdha hai|' yadA cittam kAsu dRSTimu saktam tadA bNdhH| 'aura mana saba dRSTiyoM se jaba anAsakta hai, taba mokSa hai|' __ yadA cittam sarvadRSTimu asaktam tadA mokssH|| jaba tuma dekhate hue aura nahIM dekhate; calate hue aura nahIM calate, chUte hue aura nahIM chUte, sunate hue nahIM sunate; saba hotA rahatA hai, lekina tuma apane draSTA- bhAva meM thira hote ho, vahAM se tuma vicalita nahIM hote, vahAM avicalita tumhArI aMtarajyoti kaMpatI nahIM, koI havA kA jhoMkA tumheM hilAtA nahIM; saba AtA hai jAtA hai, tuma vahI ke vahI bane rahate ho, ekarasa, jyoM ke tyoM-yahI mokSa hai| mokSa kahIM sAta svargoM ke pAra nhiiN| aura saMsAra bAjAra meM, dukAna meM, vyavasAya meM nhiiN| saMsAra tumhAre citta kI eka dazA; mokSa bhI tumhAre citta kI eka dshaa| mokSa vaisI dazA jaisA svAbhAvika honA cAhie; aura saMsAra vaisI dazA jaisA roga-grasta avasthA meM ho jAtA hai| saMsAra yAnI bImAra AtmA kI avsthaa| mokSa yAnI svastha AtmA kI avsthaa| 'svastha' zabda bar3A acchA hai| isakA artha hI hotA hai. svayaM meM sthit| svAsthya kA artha hI hotA hai, jo svayaM meM sthita ho gyaa| Atmastha jo huA vahI svastha, bAkI saba biimaar| zarIra kI bImArI thor3e hI koI bImArI hai, asalI bImArI to AtmA kA asvastha honA hai| apane se smRta ho jAnA, apane se haTa jAnA, apane keMdra se DAvAMDola ho jAnA. asvaasthy| apane keMdra para baiTha jAnA, aDiga. svaasthy| isI svAsthya ko aSTAvakra mokSa kaha rahe haiN| 'jaba maiM hUM taba baMdha hai| jaba maiM nahIM hUM taba mokSa hai| kaise pyAre vacana haiM! inase zreSTha vacana tuma kahAM khoja sakoge! 'jaba maiM hUM taba baMdha hai| jaba maiM nahIM hUM taba mokSa hai| isa prakAra vicAra karana icchA kara, na grahaNa kara aura na tyAga kr|' sarala, anUThe, para ati kaThina! jitane sarala utane ktthin| sarala hI to hameM karanA kaThina ho gayA hai| kaThina to hama kara lete haiM, sarala aTakA detA hai| ise thor3A smjhnaa| kaThina ko to karane meM ahaMkAra ko rasa AtA hai, isalie kara lete haiN| kaThina meM to ahaMkAra ko cunautI hai, kucha karake dikhalA dene kA majA hai| kaThina meM to kartA hone kI suvidhA hai| to AdamI kaThina ko karane meM bar3A utsuka hotA hai| tuma dhyAna rakhanA, tuma jIvana meM jo bhI kara rahe ho, kahIM vaha isalie to nahIM kara rahe ho
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________________ ki vaha kaThina hai? bar3A makAna banAnA kaThina hai| bar3I kAra kharIda lAnA kaThina hai| bar3A dhana - aMbAra lagA lenA kaThina hai| kahIM tuma isalie to pIche nahIM lage ho ? khAoge, pIyoge, oDhoge - kyA karoge usa dhana ke aMbAra kA? lekina AdamI dhana kA Dhera lagAtA jAtA hai| kyoM? pUcho usase / zAyada bahuta kaThina thA, isalie cunautI thii| kucha dikhalA kara- maiM bhI kucha hUM - duniyA ko batalA dene kA majA thaa| jo bilakula sarala hai, usameM to kisI ko rasa nahIM AtA / sikaMdara sArI duniyA jItanA cAhatA thaa| DAyojanIja ne usase kahA, kyA karoge sArI duniyA ko jItane ke bAda? sikaMdara ne kahA, kyA kareMge? phira vizrAma kareMge ! DAyojanIja khUba haMsane lgaa| usane kahA, agara vizrAma hI karanA hai to hama abhI vizrAma kara rahe haiM, to tuma bhI kro| sArI duniyA jIta kara vizrAma karoge, yaha bAta kucha samajha meM nahIM aaii| isameM tarka kyA hai? kyoMki sArI duniyA ke jItane kA vizrAma se koI bhI to saMbaMdha nahIM hai| vizrAma maiM binA kucha jI kara rahA hUM / jarA merI tarapha dekho ! aura vaha kara hI rahA thA vishraam| vaha nadI - taTa para nagna leTA thaa| subaha kI sUraja kI kiraNeM use nahalA rahI thiiN| masta baiThA thaa| masta leTA thaa| kahIM kucha karane ko na thA, vizrAma meM thaa| to vaha khUba haMsane lgaa| usane kahA, sikaMdara tuma pAgala ho! tuma jarA mujhe kaho to, ki agara vizrAma duniyA ko jItane ke bAda ho sakatA hai, to DAyojanIja kaise vizrAma kara rahA hai? maiM kaise vizrAma kara rahA hUM? maiMne to kucha jItA nhiiN| mere pAsa to kucha bhI nahIM hai| mere hAtha meM eka bhikSA pAtra huA karatA thA, vaha bhI maiMne chor3a diyaa| vaha isa kutte kI dostI ke kAraNa chor3a diyaa| kuttA usake pAsa baiThA thaa| DAyojanIja kA nAma hI ho gayA thA yUnAna meM : 'DAyojanIja kutte vaalaa'| vaha kuttA sadA usake sAtha rahatA thaa| usane AdamiyoM se dostI chor3a dii| usane kahA, AdamI kuttoM se gae-bIte haiN| usane eka kutte se dostI kara lii| aura usane kahA, isa kutte se mujhe eka zikSA milI, isalie maiMne pAtra bhI chor3a diyA, pahale eka bhikSA pAtra rakhatA thA / eka dina maiMne isa kutte ko nadI meM pAnI pIte dekhaa| maiMne kahA, ' are, yaha binA pAtra ke pAnI pI rahA hai! mujhe pAtra kI jarUrata par3atI hai!' vahIM maiMne chor3a diyaa| isa kutte ne mujhe harA diyaa| maiMne kahA, yaha hamase Age pahuMcA huA hai? mujhe pAtra kI jarUrata par3atI hai? kyA jarUrata? jaba kuttA pI letA hai pAnI aura kuttA bhojana kara letaa.| to mere pAsa kucha bhI nahIM hai, phira bhI maiM vizrAma kara rahA huuN| aura kyA tuma saMdeha kara sakate ho mere vizrAma para ? nahIM, sikaMdara bhI saMdeha na kara skaa| vaha AdamI saca kaha rahA thaa| vaha nizcita hI vizrAma meM thaa| usakI 'AMkheM, usakA sArA bhAva, usake cehare kI vibhA vaha aisA thA jaise duniyA meM kucha pAne ko bacA nahIM, saba pA liyA hai| kucha khone ko nahIM, koI bhaya nahIM, koI pralobhana nhiiN| sikaMdara ne kahA, tumase mujhe IrSyA hotI hai| cAhatA maiM bhI hUM aisA hI vizrAma, lekina abhI na kara skuuNgaa| duniyA to jItanI hI pdd'egii| maiM yaha to bAta mAna hI nahIM sakatA ki sikaMdara banA duniyA ko jIte mara gayA /
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________________ DAyojanIja ne kahA, jAte ho, eka bAta kahe detA hUM, kahanI to nahIM cAhie, ziSTAcAra meM AtI bhI nahIM, lekina maiM kahe detA hUM : tuma maroge binA vizrAma kie| aura sikaMdara binA vizrAma kie hI marA! bhArata se lauTatA thA, rAste meM hI mara gayA, ghara taka bhI nahIM pahuMca paayaa| aura jaba bIca meM marane lagA aura cikitsakoM ne kahA ki aba bacane kI koI ummIda nahIM, to usane kahA, sirpha mujhe caubIsa ghaMTe bacA do, kyoMki maiM apanI mAM ko milanA cAhatA huuN| maiM apanA sArA rAjya dene ko taiyAra huuN| maiMne yaha rAjya apane pUre jIvana ko gaMvA kara kamAyA hai maiM vaha saba luTA dene ko taiyAra hUM. caubIsa ghaMTe! maiMne apanI mAM ko vacana diyA hai ki marane ke pahale jarUra usake caraNoM meM A jaauuNgaa| cikitsakoM ne kahA ki tuma sArA rAjya do yA kucha bhI karo, eka zvAsa bhI bar3ha nahIM sktii| sikaMdara ne kahA, kisI ne agara mujhe pahale yaha kahA hotA, to maiM apanA jIvana na gNvaataa| jisa rAjya ko pAne meM maiMne sArA jIvana gaMvA diyA, usa rAjya ko dene se eka zvAsa bhI nahIM milatI! DAyojanIja ThIka kahatA thA ki maiM kabhI vizrAma na kara skuuNgaa| khayAla rakhanA, kaThina meM eka AkarSaNa hai ahaMkAra ko| sarala meM ahaMkAra ko koI AkarSaNa nahIM hai| isalie sarala se hama cUka jAte haiN| sarala.. paramAtmA bilakula sarala hai| satya bilakula sarala hai, sIdhA-sApha, jarA bhI jaTilatA nhiiN| yadA nAhaM tadA mokSo yadAhaM baMdhana tdaa| matveti helayA kiMcit mA gRhANa vimuDaca maa|| 'jaba maiM hUM, taba baMdha hai| ' yadA ahama tadA bNdhnm| maiM hI baMdha huuN| merA bhAva mujhe dUra kie hai paramAtmA se| yaha socanA ki maiM hUM mere aura usake bIca phAsalA hai| yahI sImA aTakA rhii| jisa kSaNa maiM jAnatA hUM-vahI hai, maiM nhiiN| yadA aham na tadA mokssH| yadA aham na tadA mokSa: -jahAM maiM nahIM, basa vahAM mukti, vahAM mokss| eka hI cIja girA denI hai. maiM - bhAva, asmitA, ahNkaar| aura jaba taka citta meM lahareM haiM, ba taka ahaMkAra nahIM giratA, kyoMki ahaMkAra sabhI laharoM ke jor3a kA nAma hai| ahaMkAra tumhArI sArI azAMti kA saMghaTa hai| ahaMkAra koI vastu nahIM hai ki tuma uThA kara pheMka do| ahaMkAra tumhAre pUre pAgalapana kA saMgrahIta nAma hai| jaise-jaise tuma zAMta hote jAoge, vaise -vaise ahaMkAra visarjita hotA jaaegaa| jaise tuma gae aura dekhA dariyA meM tUphAna hai, phira tUphAna zAMta ho gayA-phira tuma kyA pUchate ho tUphAna kahAM gayA? jaba dariyA zAMta hai to tUphAna kahA hai? kyA tuma kahoge ki tUphAna aba zAMta avasthA meM hai? tUphAna hai hI nhiiN| aura jaba tUphAna thA taba kyA thA? taba bhI dariyA hI thA, sirpha astavyasta dariyA thaa| bar3I lahareM uThatI thIM, AkAza ko chU lene kA pAgalapana thA, bar3A mahatvAkAkSI dariyA thA, bar3I AkAMkSA, bar3I cAhata, bar3A vicAra, kucha kara dikhAne kA bhAva dariyA meM thaa| thaka gayA,
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________________ hAra gayA, samajha liyA ki kucha sAra nahIM, so gayA, vizrAma meM lauTa gayA- tUphAna gayA / tUphAna koI vastu nahIM hai, tUphAna eka udvigna avasthA hai| ahaMkAra bhI tUphAna jaisA hai| tumhAre citta kI udvigna avasthA kA nAma ahaMkAra hai| jaise-jaise tuma zAMta hone lage, ahaMkAra vidA hone lgaa| parama zAMti meM tumhArI sImA kho jAtI hai, tuma acAnaka asIma ke sAtha eka ho jAte ho| 'jaba maiM hUM taba baMdha hai| ' yadA nAhaM tadA mokSo yadAhaM baMdhana tadA / ' aura jaba maiM nahIM, taba mokss| ' 'isa prakAra vicAra kara na icchA kara, na grahaNa kara, na tyAga kr| ' bar3A sIdhA sUtra hai, lekina tuma kahoge, bar3A jaTila hai! yaha to ulajhA diyaa| sIdhI bAta kaho, yA to kaho ki grahaNa karo, bhogo-samajha meM AtA hai| yaha bhI samajha meM AtA hai ki mata bhogo, chor3o, tyaago| yaha bhI samajha meM AtA hai| yaha kyA bAta hai ? yaha to bar3I ulajhana hai| 1 aSTAvakra kahate haiM : 'aisA vicAra kara na icchA kara, na grahaNa kara aura na tyAga kara / hameM to bar3I jaTilatA mAlUma hotI hai Upara se dekhane para ki yaha to bar3I ulajhana kI bAta ho gii| mere pAsa loga Ate haiM, ve kahate haiM, hama kAmavAsanA ke sAtha kyA kareM? bhogeM ? dabAeM? kyA kareM? Apa hameM ulajhana meM DAle hue haiN| jo kahate haiM, bhogo.... cArvAka kahate haiM, bhogo / bRhaspati ne kahA, 'koI phikra na kro| RNa kRtvA ghRtaM piveta! agara RNa le kara ghI pInA par3e to pIyo maje se lauTa kara AtA kauna? kisakA RNa cukAnA hai? kisako cukAnA hai? mare ki mre| bhoga lo lUTa kara bhI bhoganA ho to bhoga lo| apanI hai ki parAI hai strI, isakI phikra mata kro| kauna kisakA hai? mara gae ki saba rAkha hai| koI mara kara AtA nhiiN| koI AtmA ityAdi nahIM, isalie aparAdha ityAdi kI vyartha bAtoM meM mata pdd'o| na koI pApa hai, na koI puNya / ' yaha bhI bAta samajha meM AtI hai| sau meM ninyAnabe loga yahI mAnate haiM, cAhe kahate kucha bhI hoN| unake kahane para mata jAnA - dekhanA, kyA karate haiM? unakI kitAboM meM mata khojanA, unake ceharoM meM khojnaa| hareka ceharA khuda eka khulI kitAba hai yahAM, diloM kA hAla kitAboM meM DhUMDhatA kyoM hai? musalamAna ko dekhanA ho to kurAna meM mata dekhanA, anyathA galatI meM pdd'oge| kyoMki musalamAna kA kurAna se kyA lenA-denA hai, jitanA hiMdU kA lenA-denA hai kurAna se utanA hI musalamAna kA lenA-denA hai, usase jyAdA nhiiN| hiMdU ko dekhanA ho to veda aura upaniSadoM meM mata dekhanA / usase hiMdU ko kyA lenA-denA hai? hiMdU ko dekhanA ho to usakI AMkhoM meM dekhanA, usake cehare meM dekhanA / siddhAMtoM meM mata jhAMkanA, siddhAMta bar3e dhokhe se bhare haiN| hamane siddhAMta pakar3a lie haiM apanI asaliyata chipAne ko| kurAna meM DhaMke baiThe haiN| koI veda ko or3he baiThA hai, koI rAma-nAma cadariyA DAle hai- unake bhItara
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________________ chipe baiThe haiN| tuma rAma-nAma cadariyoM ke dhokhe meM mata AnA, tuma to AdamI kI sIdhI AMkha meM dekhnaa| hareka ceharA khuda eka khulI kitAba hai yahAM, diloM kA hAla kitAboM meM DhUMDhatA kyoM hai? sau meM ninyAnabe AdamI cArvAkavAdI haiN| cArvAka kA purAnA nAma hai lokaayt| vaha nAma bar3A pyArA hai| lokAyata kA artha hotA hai : loga ko jo priya hai| sabako jo priya hai| kaheM loga kucha bhI, Upara se kucha bhI gunagunAe rAma-rAma japeM; Upara se mokSa, paramAtmA, dharma kI bAteM kareM-lekina bhItara se agara pUcho to hara AdamI kA dila cArvAka hai| 'cArvAka' zabda bhI bahuta acchA hai| vaha AyA hai cAru vAka se-jisake vacana madhura lgeN| sabhI ko madhura lagate haiM kahe koI nahIM; himmatavara kaheMge sirph| bRhaspati himmatavara rahe hoMge, isalie bhArata meM unako AcArya kA pada diyA gayA, 'AcArya bRhaspati' kahA hai| cArvAka darzana ke janmadAtA ko bhI AcArya kahA hai-usI taraha jisa taraha zaMkara ko AcArya kahA hai, rAmAnuja ko AcArya kahA hai| isa deza meM himmata to hai| yaha to kahatA hai ki bAta to kahI hI hai bRhaspati ne, bar3e mUlya kI kahI hai| aura adhika loga to bRhaspati ke hI anuyAyI haiN| hAlAki bRhaspati ke lie koI samarpita maMdira nahIM hai khiiN| aura na tuma kisI ke ghara meM cArvAka kI kitAba pAoge, kitAba bacI nahIM hai kisI ne bacAI bhI nhiiN| kauna bacAegA? kitAbeM tuma pAoge : gItA, kurAna, bAibila, veda, dhmmpd| magara inase kisI ko kucha lenA-denA nahIM hai| kitAboM ke kavara dhammapada ke haiM, bhItara to bRhaspati ke vacana likhe haiN| hRdaya khojo AdamI kA, to sau meM ninyAnabe AdamI nAstika haiM aura sau meM ninyAnabe AdamI bhogavAdI haiN| vaha bhI samajha meM AtA hai, svAbhAvika lagatA hai| phira thor3e -se loga haiM jo tyAgI haiN| ve bhI samajha meM Ate haiN| bhoga ke tarka se unake tarka meM kucha virodha nhiiN| ve kahate haiM, jIvana meM kucha nahIM hai, isalie hama chor3ate haiN| vaha bhI bAta samajha meM AtI hai : 'jahAM kucha nahIM hai, usase bhAgo! kisI aura kI talAza karo, jahAM kucha ho!' lekina aSTAvakra ko kaise samajhoge? majhe kaise samajhoge? 'na icchA kara, na grahaNa kara aura na tyAga kr|' to jaba mujhase koI pUchatA hai, 'hama apanI kAmavAsanA kA kyA kareM? Apa kahate haiM dabAo mt| Apa kahate haiM bhogo mt| kareM kyA phira?' ye do bAteM sApha samajha meM AtI haiN| davaita sadA samajha meM AtA, adavaita samajha meM nahIM aataa| maiM unase kahatA hUM jAgo na bhogo na bhaago-jaago| na dabAo na damana karo, na bhoga meM apane ko naSTa karo-sAkSI bno| dekho| jo hotA ho use dekho| vAsanA pakar3e to pakar3ane do, tuma kyA karoge? tuma dUra bhItara baiThe dekhate raho ki vAsanA pakar3atI hai| tumane uThAI bhI nhiiN| jisane uThAI vaha jaane| tuma apane ko kyoM becaina kie lete ho? krodha uThatA hai, krodha ko bhI dekho| lobha uThatA hai, lobha ko bhI dekho| tuma sirpha dekhane para dhyAna rakho ki dekhuugaa| jo bhI uThegA, dekhuugaa|
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________________ subaha hotI hai to kyA karate hoM-subaha ko dekhte| rAta ho jAtI to kyA karate, rAta ko dekhte| javAna hote to javAnI dekhate, bUr3he ho jAte to bur3hApe ko dekhte| mausama badalate, RtueM badalatI-aisA hI tumhArA citta bhI DAMvADola hotA rahatA hai, tuma dekhate rho| agara tumane dekhane ke sUtra ko pakar3a liyA, to tuma dhIre-dhIre pAoge saba RtueM dUra ho gaIM; na kAma bacA, na brahmacarya bacA; na bhoga bacA na tyAga bcaa| donoM ge| eka dina aMtata: AdamI pAtA hai. akelA baiThA hUM ghara meM koI bhI nahIM bcaa| ekAMta, bilakula akelA, zuddha caitanya, cinmAtra! aho cinmAtra! Azcarya ki maiM sirpha caitanya mAtra hUM aura saba vyartha kI bakavAsa thI-pakar3o, chor3o, yaha karo, vaha kro| kartA bhI bhUla thI, bhoktA bhI bhUla thii| saMskRta meM jo zabda hai vaha bar3A bahumUlya hai| matveti helayA kiMcit mA gRhANa vimuDaca maa| hiMdI meM anuvAda sadA kiyA jAtA rahA hai. 'isa prakAra vicAra kara, na icchA kara, na grahaNa kara, aura na tyAga kr| ' lekina yaha 'vicAra karanA nahIM hai| kyoMki vicAra karane ko to manA kiyA hai aSTAvakra ne zurU meM hii| to jinhoMne bhI anuvAda kie haiM aSTAvakra ke, ve ThIka nahIM mAlUma par3ate haiN| kyoMki tIna sUtroM ke pahale hI ve kahate haiM. 'jaba mana kucha cAhatA hai, kucha socatA hai, kucha tyAgatA, kucha grahaNa karatA, jaba vaha sukhI-dukhI hotA, taba baMdha hai|' kiMcita zocati tadA baMdha:! to vicAra to nahIM ho sakatA 'matveti' kA arth| matveti banatA hai mati se| mati eka bar3I pAribhASika dhAraNA hai| tumane sunI kahAvata ki jaba paramAtmA kisI ko miTAnA cAhatA to usakI mati bhraSTa kara detaa| mati kyA hai? tumhAre socane para nirbhara nahIM hai mti| tuma to soca-soca kara jo bhI karoge vaha mana kA hI khela hogaa| mati hai mana ke pAra jo samajha hai, usakA nAma mati hai| mana ke pAra jo samajha hai, soca-vicAra se Upara jo samajha hai, zuddha samajha, jisako aMgrejI meM aMDarasTeMDiMga kaheM, thiMkiMga nahIM, vicAraNA nahIM, aMDarasTeMDiMga, prajJA jisako buddha ne kahA hai-mti| matveti helayA kiMcit mA gRhANa vimuDaca maa| jo aisI mati meM thira ho gayA hai-maiM agara anuvAda karUM to aisA karUMgA-jo aisI mati ko upalabdha ho gayA hai, matveti, ki aba na to icchA uThatI, na grahaNa uThatA, na tyAga kA bhAva utthtaa| jo aisI mati ko upalabdha ho gayA hai, jahAM mana nahIM utthtaa| jisako jhena phakIra no -mAiMDa kahate haiM, vahI mti| yaha tumhAre soca-vicAra kA savAla nahIM hai| jaba tumhArA saba soca-vicAra kho jAegA, taba tuma usa ghar3I meM Aoge, jisako mati kheN| mati tumhArI aura merI nahIM hotii| mati to eka hI hai| mere vicAra mere, tumhAre vicAra tumhAre haiN| jaba tumhAre vicAra kho gae, mere vicAra kho gae, maiM nirvicAra huA tuma nirvicAra hue to mujhameM tumameM koI bheda na rhaa| aura jo usa ghar3I meM ghaTegA vaha mti| vaha mati na to tumhArI na merii| vicAra to sadA mere-tere hote haiN| aura aSTAvakra to kahate haiM, jaba maiai hUM taba baMdha hai| aura vicAra ke sAtha
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________________ to maiM jur3A hI rahatA hai| isalie to loga bar3e lar3ate haiN| kahate haiM, merA vicaar| isakI bhI phikra nahIM karate ki satya kyA hai? merA vicAra satya honA hI cAhie, kyoMki merA hai| duniyA meM jo vivAda calate haiM, vaha koI satya ke anusaMdhAna ke lie thor3e hI haiN| satya ke anusaMdhAna ke lie vivAda kI jarUrata hI nahIM hai| vivAda calate haiM ki jo maiM kahatA hUM vahI satya jo tuma kahate ho vahI glt| tuma kahate ho, isalie vaha glt| aura maiM kahatA hUM isalie yaha shii| aura koI AdhAra nahIM hai| maiMne kahA hai to galata ho kaise sakatA hai! to vicAra meM to maiM -tU hai| mati meM maiM -tU nahIM hai| yA aisA hogA kahanA jyAdA ThIka ki vicAra hamAre-tumhAre hote, vicAra manuSyoM ke hote, mati paramAtmA kii| mati vahAM hai jahAM hama kho gae hote haiN| iti mati matvA helayA mA gRhANa mA vimujc| -aisI mati meM hoM hama, ki na to icchA karake grahaNa kareM, na icchA karake tyAga kreN| isako bhI samajha lenaa| jarA bhI icchA na ho| jo ho, use hone deN| agara kisI kSaNa dukha ho, to use hone deM, icchA karake hama dukha ko na httaae| aura kisI kSaNa sukha ho, to use hone deM; icchA karake hama sukha ko na httaae| hama icchA karake haTAne kA kAma hI baMda kara deN| hama to yahI kaha deM jo ho terI mrjii| jaisI terI marjI vaise rheNge| jo anaMta kI marjI, vahI merI mrjii| maiM apane ko alagathalaga na rkhuugaa| merA apanA koI nijI lakSya nahIM ab| jo sarva kA lakSya hai, vahI merA lakSya hai| aisI ghar3I meM, aisI mati meM, aisI prajJA meM, aise bodhodaya meM, kahAM dukha? kahAM sukha? kahAM baMdhana? kahAM mukti ? saba dvaMdva kho jAte haiN| saba dvaita so jAte haiN| eka hI bacatA hai ahrnish| eka hI gUMjatA hai, eka hI gAtA, eka hI jItA, eka hI nAcatA hai| aisI ghar3I meM tuma sarva ke aMga ho jAte, sarva ke sAtha praphullita, sarva ke sAtha khile hue| tumhArA saba saMgharSa samApta ho jAtA hai| tuma sarva ke sAtha layabaddha ho jAte; chaMdobaddha ho jaate| sarva ke sAtha jo chaMdabaddha ho gayA hai, usI ko maiM saMnyAsI kahatA huuN| jo ho acchA ho, burA ho-aba koI ciMtA na rhii| jaisA ho, ho; aba merI koI apekSA na rhii| aba jo hogA vaha mujhe svIkAra hai| narka to narka aura svarga to svrg| aisI parama svIkRti kA nAma saMnyAsa hai| ye saMnyAsa ke mahata sUtra haiN| inheM tuma samajhanA, soca-vicAra kara nahIM, dhyAna kara-kara ke, tAki inase mati kA janma ho jaae| yadA nAhaM tadA mokSo yadAhaM baMdhana tdaa| matveti helayA kiMcit mA gRhANa vimujca maa|| aura isa jIvana ke lie, isa jIvana kI parama krAMti ke lie tumhI prayoga sthala ho, tuma hI parIkSA ho| tumhIM ko apanI parIkSA lenI hai| tumhIM ko janaka bananA hai aura tumhIM ko aSTAvakra bhii| yaha saMvAda tumhAre bhItara hI ghaTita honA hai| maiMne sunA hai ki mullA nasaruddIna apanI lAna meM ArAmakursI para adhaleTA akhabAra par3ha rahA
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________________ thaa| aura eka alseziyana kuttA usake pAMva ke pAsa baiThA pUMcha hilA rahA thaa| eka par3osI mitra milane Ae the, kutte ke Dara se daravAje para hI khar3e ho ge| mullA kA dhyAna AkRSTa karane ke lie unhoMne jora se cillA kara kahA ki bhAI, yaha kuttA kATatA - ATatA to nahIM? mullA ne kahA, are A jAie, bilakula A jAie, koI phikra mata kIjie ! phira bhI mitra Dare the, kyoMki kuttA kucha khar3A ho gayA thA aura gurrA kara dekha rahA thaa| to mitra ne kahA ki ThIka, Apa ThIka kahate haiM ki kATatA ityAdi to nahIM? kyoMki mujhe pahale kuttoM ke bar3e bure anubhava ho cuke / mullA ne kahA, bhAI, yahI to dekhanA cAhatA hUM ki kATatA hai ki nahIM, abhI hI kharIda kara lAyA hUM / jIvana meM parIkSAeM dUsaroM kI mata lenaa| aura dUsaroM kI parIkSAoM se jo tumheM mila bhI jAegA, vaha kabhI tumhArA nahIM hogaa| dUsare ke anubhava kabhI tumhAre anubhava nahIM ho skte| jIvana kI AtyaMtika rahasyamayatA to usI ke sAmane pragaTa hotI hai, jo apane ko hI apanA parIkSA - sthala banA letA, jo apane ko hI apanI prayoga- bhUmi banA letA / isalie kahatA hUM. soca-vicAra se nahIM, prayoga se, dhyAna se mati upalabdha hogI / aura tumane sadA suna rakhA hai. svarga kahIM Upara, narka kahIM niice| usa bhrAMta dhAraNA ko chor3a do| svarga tumhAre bhItara, narka tumhAre bhiitr| svarga tumhAre hone kA eka DhaMga aura narka tumhAre hone kA eka DhaMga / maiM se bhare hue to narka, maiM se mukta to svarga / saMsAra baMdhana, aura mokSa kahIM dUra siddha - zilAeM haiM jahAM mukta puruSa baiThe haiM-aisI bhrAMtiyAM chor3a do| agara mana meM cAha hai, cAhata hai, to saMsAra / agara mana meM koI cAhata nahIM chor3ane taka kI cAha nahIM, tyAga taka kI cAha nahIM, koI cAha nahIM aisI acAha kI avasthA mokSa | bAhara mata khojanA svarga-naraka, saMsAra - mokSa ko| ye tumhAre hone ke DhaMga haiN| svastha honA mokSa hai, asvastha honA saMsAra hai| isalie? bAhara chor3ane ko bhI kucha nahIM hai, bhAgane ko bhI kucha nahIM hai| himAlaya para bhI baiTho to tuma tuma hI rahoge aura bAjAra meM bhI baiTho to tuma tuma hI rahoge / isalie maiMne tumase nahIM kahA hai, mere saMnyAsiyoM ko maiMne nahIM kahA hai, tuma kucha bhI chor3a kara kahIM jaao| maiMne unako sirpha itanA hI kahA, tuma jAga kara dekhate raho, jo ghaTatA hai ghaTane do| gRhasthI hai to gRhasthI shii| aura kisI dina agara tuma acAnaka apane ko himAlaya para baiThA huA pAo to vaha bhI ThIka jAte hue pAo to vaha bhI ThIka hai| jo ghaTe, use ghaTane denA; icchApUrvaka anyathA mata cAhanA / anyathA kI cAha se maiM saMgaThita hotA hai| tuma apanI koI cAha na rakho, sarva kI cAha ke sAtha bahe cale jaao| yaha gaMgA jahAM jAtI hai, vahIM cala pdd'o| tuma patavAreM mata utthaanaa| tuma to pAla khola do, calane do havAoM ko, le calane do isa nadI kI dhAra ko / isa samarpaNa ko maiMne saMnyAsa kahA hai| isa samarpaNa meM tuma bacate hI nahIM, sirpha paramAtmA bacatA
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________________ hai| kisI na kisI dina vaha ghar3I AegI, vaha mati AegI ki haTeMge bAdala, khulA AkAza pragaTa hogaa| taba tuma haMsoge, taba tuma jAnoge ki aSTAvakra kyA kaha rahe hai-na kucha chor3ane ko, na kucha pakar3ane ko| jo bhI dikhAI par3a rahA hai, svapnavata hai; jo dekha rahA hai, vahI satya hai| hari oma tatsat!
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________________ svataMtratA kI jhIla maryAdA ke kamala-pravacana-gyArahavAM dinAMka: 6 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| prazna sAra: pahalA prazna : bhAratIya manISA ne AtmajJAnI ko sarvataMtra svataMtra kahA hai| aura Apa usa koTihIna koTi meM haiN| lekina mujhe Azcarya hotA hai ki usa parama svataMtratA se itanA suMdara anuzAsana aura gahana dAyitva kaise phalita hotA hai! esA prazna svAbhAvika hai| kyoMki sAdhAraNata: to manuSya athaka ceSTA karake bhI jIvana meM anuzAsana nahIM lA paataa| satata abhyAsa ke bAvajUda bhI dAyitva AMnadapUrNa nahIM ho paataa| dAyitva meM bhItara kahIM pIr3A banI rahatI hai| jo bhI hameM kartavya jaisA mAlUma par3atA hai, usameM hI baMdhana dikhAI par3atA hai| aura jahAM baMdhana hai, vahAM pratirodha hai| aura jahAM baMdhana hai, vahAM se mukta hone kI AkAMkSA kartavya yA dAyitva, hameM lagate haiM, Upara se thope gae haiN| samAja ne, saMskRti ne, parivAra ne, yA svayaM kI surakSA kI kAmanA ne hameM kartavyoM se baMdha jAne ke lie majabUra kiyA hai para majabUrI hai vahAM, vivazatA hai, asahAya avasthA hai| aura jahAM bhI majabUrI hai, vahAM prasannatA aura. praphullatA nahIM ho sktii| jaba bhI hameM svataMtra hone kA avasara milatA hai, to hama tatkSaNa svacchaMda ho jAte haiN| hama itanI parataMtratA meM jIe haiM ki hameM agara svataMtra hone kA maukA mile to hama saba dAyitva ko chor3a kara, saba kartavya ko pheMka kara arAjaka sthiti meM pahuMca jaaeNge| isase svabhAvata: yaha prazna uThatA hai ki kyA yaha saMbhava hai ki sarvataMtra svataMtra vyakti, jisake Upara na koI zAsana hai, na koI niyama haiM-yahI saMnyAsI kI paribhASA hai, sarvataMtra svataMtra, jisa para samAja aura saMskRti kA koI AropaNa nahIM hai, jo saba maryAdAoM ke bAhara hai lekina vaisA vyakti maryAdAoM meM kaise jItA hogA? hama apanI tarapha se socate haiM to lagatA hai, yaha to asaMbhava hai| hama to maryAdA chor3I ki svacchaMda hue| to saMnyAsI sArI maryAdAoM ke pAra jA kara bhI anuzAsanabaddha hotA hai eka apUrva dAyitva baMdhana kI bhAMti nahIM, sugaMdha kI bhAMti-usase uThatA rahatA hai| usakI aMtaryoti use kahIM bhI bhaTakane nahIM
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________________ mullA detii| usakI aMtaryoti usakI parama maryAdA bana jAtI hai| vaha saba maryAdAoM se to Upara uTha jAtA hai, lekina usakA Atmabodha usakA anuzAsana bana jAtA hai| prazna uThanA hameM svAbhAvika hai| maiMne sunA hai, mullA nasaruddIna ne apane kutte se eka dina kahA ki aba aise na calegA, tU kAleja meM bharatI ho jaa| par3he-likhe binA aba kucha bhI nahIM hotaa| agara par3ha likha gayA to kucha bana jaaegaa| par3hoge-likhoge, to hoge navAba! kutte ko bhI jNcaa| navAba kauna na honA cAhe, kuttA bhI honA cAhatA hai! jaba par3ha-likha kara kuttA vApisa lauTA kAleja se, cAra sAla bAda, to mullA ne pUchA, kyA-kyA sIkhA? usa kutte ne kahA ki suno, itihAsa meM mujhe koI ruci nahIM aaii| kyoMki AdamiyoM ke itihAsa meM kutte kI kyA ruci ho sakatI hai| kuttoM kI koI bAta hI nahIM AtI, kutte ne khaa| bar3e-bar3e kutte ho cuke haiM, jaise tumhAre sikaMdara aura hiTalara, aise hamAre bhI bar3e-bar3e kutte ho cuke haiM lekina hamAre itihAsa kA koI ullekha nhiiN| itihAsa meM mujhe kucha rasa na aayaa| jisameM merA aura merI jAti kA ullekha na ho, usameM mujhe kyA rasa? bhUgola meM merI thor3I utsukatA thI-utanI hI jitanI ki kuttoM kI hotI hai, ho sakatI hai|... posTa Aphisa kA babA yA bijalI kA khaMbhA, kyoMki ve hamAre zaucAlaya haiN| isase jyAdA bhUgola meM mujhe kucha rasa nahIM aayaa| mullA thor3A hairAna hone lgaa| usane kahA, aura gaNita? kutte ne kahA, gaNita kA hama kyA kareMge? gaNita kA hameM koI artha nahIM hai| kyoMki hameM dhana-saMpatti ikaTThI nahIM karanI hai| hama to kSaNa meM jIte haiN| hama to abhI jIte haiM, kala kI hameM koI phikra nhiiN| jo bItA kala hai, vaha gayA; jo Ane vAlA kala hai, AyA nahIM-hisAba karanA kisako hai? lenA-denA kyA hai? koI khAtA-bahI rakhanA hai? to mullA ne kahA, cAra sAla saba phijUla gae? nahIM, usa kutte ne kahA, saba phijUla nahIM ge| maiM eka videzI bhASA meM pAraMgata ho kara lauTA huuN| mullA khuza huaa| usane kahA calo kucha to kiyA! to calo videza vibhAga meM naukarI lagavA deNge| agara bhAgya sAtha diyA to rAjadUta ho jaaoge| aura agara prabhu kI kRpA rahI to videza maMtrI ho jaaoge| kucha na kucha ho jaaegaa| calo itanA hI bhut| mere sukha ke lie thor3I-sI vaha videzI bhASA bolo, udAharaNa svarUpa, to maiM smjhuu| kutte ne AMkheM baMda kI, apane ko bilakula yogI kI taraha saadhaa| bar3e abhyAsa se, bar3I muzkila se eka zabda usase niklaa| usane kahA, myAUM! 'yaha videzI bhASA sIkha kara lauTe ho?' lekina kutte ke lie yahI videzI bhASA hai! hara cetanA ke tala kI apanI bhASA hai aura hara cetanA ke tala kI apanI samajha hai| jahAM hama jIte haiM, vahAM hama soca bhI nahIM sakate ki sarvataMtra svataMtra ho kara bhI hama zAMta hoMge, suniyojita hoMge, sRjanAtmaka hoMge-hama soca bhI nahIM sakate, socane kA upAya bhI nahIM hai| hameM samajha meM nahIM A sakatA,
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________________ kyoMki hama kartavya ko prema-rahita jAne haiN| hameM patA nahIM ki jaba prema se prANa bharate haiM to kartavya chAyA kI taraha calA AtA hai| eka saMnyAsI himAlaya kI yAtrA para gayA thaa| vaha apanA bistara-boriyA bAMdhe hue car3ha rahA hai- pasIne se lathapatha, dopahara hai ghanI, car3hAva hai bdd'aa| aura tabhI usane pAsa meM eka pahAr3I lar3akI ko bhI car3hate dekhA, hogI umra koI dasa-bAraha sAla kI, aura apane bar3e moTe -tagar3e bhAI ko jo hogA kama se kama chaha sAta sAla kA, usako vaha kaMdhe para biThAe car3ha rahI hai-pasIne se lthpth| usa saMnyAsI ne usase kahA, beTI, bar3A bojha lagatA hogA? usa lar3akI ne bar3e cauMka kara dekhA aura saMnyAsI ko kahA, svAmI jI! bojha Apa lie haiM, yaha merA choTA bhAI hai! tarAjU para to choTe bhAI ko bhI rakho yA bistara ko rakho, koI pharka nahIM par3atA-tarAjU to donoM kA bojha batA degaa| lekina hRdaya ke tarAjU para bar3A pharka par3a jAtA hai| choTA bhAI hai, phira bojha kahA? phira bojha meM bhI eka rasa hai, phira bojha bhI nibojha hai| jisa vyakti ko Atma-bhAva jagA, jisane svayaM ko jAnA, usake lie sArA astitva parivAra ho gayA, isase eka nAtA judd'aa| jisa dina tuma svayaM ko jAnoge usa dina tuma yaha bhI jAnoge ki tuma isa virATa se alaga aura pRthaka nahIM ho; yaha tumhArA hI phailAva hai, yA tuma isake phailAva ho, magara donoM eka ho| usa ekAtma bodha meM tuma kaise kisI kI hAni kara sakoge, tuma kaise hiMsA kara sakoge, tuma kaise kisI ko dukha pahuMcA sakoge tuma kaise balAtkAra kara sakoge kisI bhI AyAma meM, kisI ke bhI sAtha, tuma kaise jabardastI kara sakoge? vaha to apane hI paira kATanA hogaa| vaha to apanI hI AMkheM phor3anA hogaa| vaha to apane hI sAtha balAt hogaa| jisa vyakti ko AtmajJAna hotA, use yaha bhI jJAna ho jAtA ki maiM aura tU do nahIM haiM, eka hI haiN| usa aikya bodha meM dAyitva phalita hotA hai| lekina vaha dAyitva tumhAre kartavya jaisA nahIM hai| tumheM to karanA par3atA hai| usa sarvataMtra svataMtra avasthA meM karane par3ane kI to koI bAta hI nahIM raha jAtI-hotA hai| saMnyAsI khIMca rahA thA bojha ko, parezAna thA, soca rahA hogA hajAra bAra. 'kahIM suvidhA mila jAe to isa bojha ko utAra dUM haTA dUM! kisa durbhAgya kI ghar3I meM itanA bojha le kara cala par3A! pahale hI socA hotA ki pahAr3a para car3hAI hai, ghanI dhUpa hai..| ' inhIM bAtoM ko socatA huA jAtA hogA inhIM bAtoM ke parde se usane usa choTI-sI lar3akI ko bhI dekhaa| lekina lar3akI isa taraha kA kucha soca hI nahIM rahI thii| unakI bhASAeM alaga thiiN| usane kahA, yaha merA choTA bhAI hai| Apa kahate kyA haiM svAmI jI? apane zabda vApisa leM! bojha! yaha merA choTA bhAI hai! / vahAM eka saMbaMdha hai, eka aMtarasaMbaMdha hai| jahAM aMtarasaMbaMdha hai vahAM bojha kahAM! aura jisa vyakti kA aMtarasaMbaMdha sarva se ho gyaa| vaha sarvataMtra svataMtra ho jAe lekina aba sarva se jur3a gyaa| taMtra se mukta huA sarva se jur3a gyaa| to taMtra meM to eka UparI AropaNa thaa| kAnUna kahatA hai aisA kro| nIti-niyama kahate haiM, aisA kro| na karoge to adAlata hai| adAlata se baca gae to narka hai| ghabar3AhaTa paidA hotI
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________________ hai! isa bhaya ke kAraNa AdamI maryAdA meM jItA hai| lekina jisa vyakti ko patA calA ki maiM isa virATa ke sAtha eka hUM-ye vRkSa bhI mere hI phailAva haiM, yaha maiM hI ina vRkSoM meM bhI harA huA hUM to vRkSa kI DAla ko kATate vakta bhI tumhArI AMkheM gIlI ho AeMgI, tuma saMkoca se bhara jAoge, tuma apane ko hI kATa rahe ho, tuma samhala- samhala kara calane lagoge, jaise mahAvIra calane lage samhala - samhala kr| kahate * rAta karavaTa na badalate the ki kahIM karavaTa badalane meM koI kIr3A-makor3A pIche A gayA ho, daba na jaae| to eka hI karavaTa sote the| aba kisI bhI aisA unase kahA nahIM thA, kisI zAstra meM likhA nahIM ki eka hI karavaTa sonA / kisI nIti-zAstra meM likhA nahIM ki karavaTa badalane meM pApa hai| mahAvIra ke pahale bhI jo teIsa tIrthaMkara ho gae the jainoM ke, unameM se bhI kisI ne kahA nahIM ki rAta karavaTa mata badalanA; kisI ne socA hI nahIM hogA ki karavaTa badalane meM koI pApa ho sakatA hai| tumhArI karavaTa hai, maje se badalo, kyA ar3acana hai? lekina mahAvIra kA aMtarabodha ki karavaTa badalane meM bhI unheM lagA ki kucha daba jAe, koI pIr3A pA jAe! aMdhere meM calate nahIM the ki koI paira ke nIce daba na jaae| aMdhere meM bhojana na karate the ki koI pataMgA gira na jAe / jaina bhI nahIM karatA aMdhere meM bhojana - lekina isalie nahIM ki pataMge se kucha lenA-denA hai| jaina kA prayojana itanA hai ki pataMgA gira gayA aura khA liyA, to hiMsA ho jAegI, narka jAoge ! yaha phi apanI hai, yaha taMtra hai| mahAvIra kI phikra apanI nahIM hai pataMge kI phikra hai / yaha sarvataMtra svataMtratA! yaha sarva ke sAtha ekAtma bhAva ! jaina muni bhI calatA hai picchI lekara, rAstA apanA sApha kara letA hai jahAM baiThatA hai| lekina usakA prayojana bhinna hai, vaha niyama kA anusaraNa kara rahA hai| agara koI dekhane vAlA nahIM hotA to vaha binA hI sApha kie baiTha jAtA hai| agara dasa AdamI dekhane vAle baiThe haiM, zrAvaka ikaTThe haiM, to vaha bar3I 'kuzalatA se pradarzana karatA hai| yaha to taMtra hai| ye to eka anuzAsana mAna kara cala rahe haiN| inhoMne kucha bAteM par3hI haiM, sunI haiM, samajhI haiM, paraMparA se inhoMne kucha sUtra lie hai una sUtroM ke pIche cala rahe haiN| isalie to tuma jaina muni ko prasanna nahIM dekhte| dekho mahAvIra kI prasannatA prasannatA to sadA svataMtratA meM hai| aura jIvana kA AtyaMtika anuzAsana bhI svataMtratA meM hai| pUchA hai, ' bhAratIya manISA ne AtmajJAnI ko sarvataMtra svataMtra khaa| lekina mujhe Azcarya hotA hai ki usa parama svataMtratA meM itanA suMdara anuzAsana aura gahana dAyitva kaise phalita ho sakatA hai!' usake atirikta agara phalita ho to Azcarya karanA / parataMtratA meM agara suMdara anuzAsana phalita ho jAe to camatkAra hai| yaha ho hI nahIM sktaa| yaha huA nahIM kabhI / yaha hogA bhI nahIM kbhii| apane beTe se kahatI hai ki mujhe prema kara, kyoMki maiM terI mAM hUM / prema meM bhI 'kyoMkiM', 'isalie! jaise ki prema bhI koI tarkasaraNI hai, jaise yaha bhI koI gaNita kA savAla hai ! 'maiM terI mAM hUM isalie mujhe prema kara!' beTA bhI socatA hai ki mAM hai to prema karanA cAhie ! prema aura karanA cAhie? tumane prema ko
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________________ jar3a se hI kATanA zurU kara diyaa| tuma usakI saMbhAvanA hI naSTa kie de rahe ho| jahAM 'karanA cAhie ' A gayA, vahAM se prema vidA ho cukaa| kyA karoge tuma prema meM? tuma abhinaya karoge? choTA baccA kyA karegA? mAM AegI pAsa to muskurAegA, jabardastI muMha phailA degaa| bhItara hRdaya se koI muskurAhaTa uThegI nhiiN| aba mAM A rahI hai - mAM hai to muskurAnA cAhie, prema dikhAnA cAhie; lekina isake hRdaya meM kahIM koI muskurAhaTa nahIM uTha rahI, yaha jhUTha honA zurU huaa| yaha pAkhaMDa kI yAtrA zurU huii| yaha prema kI yAtrA nahIM hai; yaha baccA marane lagA, yaha pAkhaMDI hone lgaa| phira jiMdagI bhara yaha muMha ko phailA degaa| muMha ko phailA lenA to abhyAsa se A jAtA hai| muMha kA phailA denA thor3e hI muskurAhaTa hai muskurAhaTa to vaha hai jo Ae bhItara se phaila jAe cehare para, roeM - roeM para, uThe hRdaya se --to hI muskurAhaTa hai| aise oMTha ko tAna liyA, to abhinaya huA, nATaka - huA, rAjanIti huI dekhate ho rAjanItijJa ko, basa hAtha jor3e muskurAtA hI rahatA hai! eka rAjanItijJa ko maiM jAnatA hUM / kahate haiM ve rAta meM bhI jaba sote haiM, to hAtha jor3e muskurAte rahate haiN| nIMda meM bhI voTaroM ke samakSa khar3e haiM; muskurA rahe haiN| jIvana sar3A jA rahA hai| prANa meM sivAya aMdhere ke kucha bhI nahIM hai; sivAya ciMtA aura vikSiptatA ke kucha jAnA nahIM, magara muskurAe jA rahe haiM! vaha muskurAhaTa thothI hai| aura tumane agara prema isalie kiyA, kyoMki mAM hai, kyoMki choTI bahana hai, kyoMki choTA bhAI hai - agara tumhAre prema meM 'kyoMki' rahA, to tuma samajha lenA ki tuma samajha nahIM pAe / hama sabako taiyAra kiyA gayA hai pAkhaMDa ke lie| isalie to duniyA meM prema kama hai aura pAkhaMDa bahuta hai| isalie to duniyA meM satya kama hai aura abhinaya bahuta hai| isalie to duniyA meM paramAtmA pragaTa nahIM ho pAtA; kyoMki mAyA bahuta hai, mAyAcArI bahuta haiN| tuma vahI jInA, jo tumhAre bhItara se uThatA ho / zurU-zurU meM ar3acana hogI, kyoMki bahuta bAra tuma pAoge. jaba haMsanA thA, taba tuma nahIM haMsa pAe jaba ronA thA, taba nahIM ro paae| zurU-zurU meM ar3acana hogii| usa ar3acana ko hI maiM tapazcaryA kahatA huuN| lekina dhIre- dhIre tuma eka apUrva AnaMda se bharane lagoge / aura taba tuma pAoge ki jaba tuma haMsate ho to tabhI haMsate ho, jaba vastutaH haMsI khila rahI hotI hai| tuma dhokhA nahIM dete. dhIre- dhIre tumhArA jIvana taMtra se mukta hone lagegA aura svabhAva ke anukUla Ane lgegaa| taMtra hai aadt| bacapana se kisI ko sikhA diyA ki hiMdU maMdira ke sAmane hAtha jor3anA, to vaha jor3a letA hai; vaha Adata hai| na to koI hRdaya meM zraddhA hai, na prANoM meM koI naivedya car3hAne kI AturatA hai, na bharosA hai| gaNita jarUra hai, bharosA nahIM hai| maiM blaisa paisakala kA jIvana par3hatA thA / bahuta bar3A gaNitajJa aura vaijJAnika huA paisakala / usakA eka mitra thA. di meyr| vaha juArI thaa| kahate haiM, duniyA ke khAsa bar3e juArioM meM eka thaa| usane apanA saba jIvana jue para lagA diyA thA / jue meM jaba kabhI koI bar3I kaThinAI A jAtI, use koI
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________________ prazna uThatA, to vaha paisakala se pUchA karatA thA ki tuma itane bar3e gaNitajJa ho, jarA mere jue meM sAtha do| to paisakala kA mitra thA, isalie paisakala usakI bAta sunatA thaa| usakI bAta sunate-sunate paisakala ko yaha samajha meM AyA.. usane apanI AtmakathA meM likhA hai, ki usakI bAteM suna-suna kara maiM IsAI ho gyaa| yaha bar3e Azcarya kI bAta hai, juArI kI bAteM suna suna kara IsAI! to paiskala kahatA hai, isa taraha maiM IsAI huaa| usake juArI ke manovijJAna ko samajha kara mujhe samajha meM AyA ki dhArmika AdamI kA manovijJAna bhI juArI kA hai| juArI eka rupayA lagAtA agara jItegA to paccIsa rupae milane vAle haiM; agara hAregA sirpha eka hI rupayA jaayegaa| yaha usakA manovijJAna hai| hArane meM kucha khAsakhotA nahIM, agara mila gayA to pacIsa gunA milatA hai yA hajAra gunA milatA hai| agara khoyA to kucha khAsa khotA nhiiN| milatA hai to bahuta milatA hai| ina donoM ke bIca juArI taulatA hai| to paisakala ne likhA hai ki maiMne bhI socA ki yadi Izvara hai.| Astika mAnatA hai ki Izvara hai, agara marane ke bAda Astika ne pAyA ki Izvara nahIM hai, to kyA khoyA? thor3A-sA samaya khoyAprArthanA-pUjA meM lagAyA, jo satsaMga meM gaMvAyA, bAibila, kurAna ulaTane meM jo naSTa hu thor3A-sA samaya khoyaa| agara Izvara nahIM pAyA to Astika itanA hI khoegA ki thor3A sA samaya khoyA aura jaba pUrI hI jiMdagI kho gaI to usa thor3e samaya se bhI kyA pharka par3atA hai? lekina agara Izvara huA, to zAzvata rUpa se svarga meM nivAsa karegA, bhogegA AnaMda! nAstika kahatA hai, Izvara nahIM hai| agara Izvara na huA to ThIka, nAstika ne kucha bhI nahIM khoyaa| lekina agara Izvara huA, to anaMta kAla taka narkoM ke dukh..| isalie paisakala ne likhA ki maiM kahatA hUM yaha sIdhA gaNita hai ki Izvara ko maano| isameM khone ko to kucha bhI nahIM hai, milane kI saMbhAvanA hai| na mAnane meM kucha milegA nahIM agara Izvara na huA lekina agara huA to bahuta kucha khojaaegaa| paisakala kahatA hai, agara tumheM thor3I bhI surakSA aura jue kA thor3A bhI anubhava hai to Izvara saudA karane jaisA hai| aba yaha eka saraNI hai| isa saraNI meM Izvara ke prati koI prema nahIM hai| yaha sIdhA tarka hai| aura agara paisakala mujhe kahIM mila jAe, to usase maiM kahUMgA jo AdamI isa taraha soca kara Izvara meM bharosA karatA hai, vaha bharosA karatA hI nhiiN| vaha jue meM bharosA karatA hai, gaNita meM bharosA karatA hai, Izvara meM bharosA nahIM krtaa| yaha koI bharosA huA? yaha koI prema kI aura zraddhA kI bhASA huI? yaha to sIdhI bAjAra kI bAta ho gaI, yaha to dUkAna kI bAta ho gii| yA to Izvara hai yA Izvara nahIM hai-'yadi kA koI savAla nhiiN| yA to tumhAre anubhava meM A rahA hai ki Izvara hai, yA tumhAre anubhava meM A rahA hai ki nahIM hai| agara tumhAre anubhava meM A rahA hai ki hai, to phira cAhe lAbha ho ki hAni-Izvara hai| agara tumhAre anubhava meM A rahA hai ki nahIM hai, to phira cAhe hAni ho ki lAbha nahIM hai| 'yadi kA kahAM savAla hai?
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________________ lekina hama apane jIvana ko 'yadiyoM para khar3A karate haiN| hamArA saba jIvana juAriyoM jaisA hai - gaNita, hisAba, saudA ! sunate ho, paisakala kyA kaha rahA hai? ki thor3A-sA samaya prArthanA meM gayA, vahI gaMvAyA! aisA AdamI prArthanA kara pAegA? prArthanA paidA kaise hogI? gaNita se tarka se kahIM prArthanA kA koI saMbaMdha hai? prArthanA to aisA ahobhAva hai ki Izvara hI hai aura kucha bhI nahIM hai| aura agara Izvara ke mAnane meM saba kucha bhI jAtA ho to bhI bhakta Izvara ko mAnane ko rAjI hai| aura Izvara ko chor3ane meM agara saba kucha bhI bacatA ho, to bhI bhakta kahegA, kSamA karo, yaha saba kucha mujhe nahIM caahie| prArthanA eka satya manodazA honI cAhie, gaNita nahIM / prema bhI eka satya manodazA honI cAhie, gaNita nhiiN| aura tumhAre sabhI bhAva prAmANika hone caahie| to dhIre- dhIre tuma pAoge, tuma svataMtra bhI hote jAte ho, sarvataMtra svataMtra hote jAte ho aura eka apUrva anuzAsana tumhAre jIvana meM utaratA AtA hai! svacchaMdatA nahIM AegI taba svataMtratA se / taba svataMtratA se paripUrNa dAyitva kA janma hogA- aise dAyitva kA, jisameM kartavya - bhAva bilakula nahIM hai, aise dAyitva kA, jisameM prema kI bahatI huI dhArA hai! taba tuma uThoge, baiThoge, caloge, kucha bhI karoge - sabake pIche tumhArA bodha kA dIyA banA rahegA / bhItara kA dIyA jalatA rahe to phira hama jo bhI karate haiM, usameM prakAza par3atA hai| bhItara kA yA bujhA rahe to hama jo bhI karate haiM, usameM hamAre aMdhere kI chAyA par3atI hai| soyA huA AdamI puNya bhI kare to pApa ho jAtA hai| jAgA huA AdamI pApa bhI kare to bhI puNya hI hogaa| kyoMki jAgA huA AdamI pApa kara hI nahIM sktaa| jAgaraNa aura pApa kA koI saMbaMdha nahIM hai| tumane dekhA, aMdhere meM AdamI TaTolatA hai ki daravAjA kahAM hai? ujAle meM AdamI na TaTolatA, na pUchatA-uThatA hai aura nikala jAtA hai / ujAle meM AdamI socatA bhI nahIM ki daravAjA kahAM hai, aisA prazna bhI nahIM utthtaa| tumheM yahAM se uTha kara jAnA hogA to tuma socoge thor3e hI tuma yojanA thor3e hI banAoge ki aise caleM, aise caleM, phira yahAM daravAjA khojeM-basa, tuma uThoge aura cala par3oge ! tumheM dikhAI par3a rahA hai| sarvataMtra svataMtra vyakti vahI ho sakatA hai, jisake bhItara prakAza jalA hai| saMnyAsI ko hamane sarvataMtra svataMtra kahA hai| use hamane koTihIna koTi mAnA hai| aSTAvakra usI kI carcA kara rahe haiM - usI parama saMnyAsa kI, parama dazA kI jahAM na bhogI, na tyAgI, donoM niyama kAma nahIM karate haiM; na bhoga na tyAga, jahAM kevala sAkSI- bhAva paryApta hai| aSTAvakra kaha rahe haiM ki sAkSI- bhAva ho to phira tU kahIM bhI raha, kaise bhI raha, jaise ho vaise raha / sAkSI- bhAva hai to saba sadha jAegA, saba ThIka ho jaaegaa| eka bAta samhala jAe- dhyAna samhala jAe, sAkSI bhAva samhala jAe - saba apane-Apa samhala jAtA hai; zeSa saba apane- Apa samhala jAtA hai| aura nizcita hI taba jo eka anuzAsana hotA hai, usake sauMdarya kI mahimA apUrva hai| taba jo anuzAsana hotA hai vaha prasAdarUpa hai| taba usameM AropaNa jarA bhI nahIM, ceSTA jarA bhI nahIM / tuma kucha karanA cAhie, isalie nahIM krte| jo hotA hai, hotA hai| jo hotA hai, suMdara aura zubha hai|
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________________ tumane paribhASA sunI hogii| paribhASAeM kahatI haiM acche kAma karane vAlA puruSa saMta hai| maiM tumase kahanA cAhatA hUM. 'acche kAma karane vAlA puruSa saMta hai-isameM tumane bailoM ko gAr3I ke pIche rakha diyaa| 'saMta se acche kAma hote haiM -taba tumane baila ko gAr3I ke Age jotaa| acche kAmoM se koI saMta nahIM hotA; saMta hone se kAma acche hote haiN| Upara se AMcaraNa ThIka kara lene se koI bhItara aMtasa kI krAMti nahIM hotI, lekina bhItara aMtasa kI krAMti ho jAe, to bAhara kA AMcaraNa dedIpyamAna ho jAtA hai, dIpti se bhara jAtA hai, AbhA se Alokita ho jAtA hai| aura jamIna-AsamAna kA pharka tuma dekhoge mahAvIra ke calane meM aura jaina muni ke calane meM, buddha ke calane meM aura bauddha bhikSu ke calane meM; jIsasa ke uThane -baiThane meM aura IsAI ke uThane -baiThane meN| ho sakatA hai, donoM bilakula eka-sA kara rahe hoN| kabhI-kabhI to yaha ho sakatA hai, anukaraNa karane vAlA mUla ko bhI mAta kara de| kyoMki mUla to sahaja hogA, svasphUrta hogA; anukaraNa karane vAlA to yaMtravata hogaa| jo abhinaya kara rahA hai, vaha to riharsala karake, khUba abhyAsa karake karatA hai| lekina jo svabhAva se jI rahA hai, vaha to koI riharsala nahIM karatA, koI abhyAsa nahIM krtaa| jo usakI aMtazcetanA meM pratiphalita hotA hai, vaisA jItA hai, jaba jaisA pratiphalita hotA hai vaisA jItA hai| jaba jaisA svabhAva calAe, clnaa| jaba jaisA svabhAva karAe, karanA! jaba jaisA aMtasa meM uge, usase anyathA na honaa| yahI saMnyAsa hai| yaha ghoSaNA bar3I kaThina hai| kyoMki isa ghoSaNA kA pariNAma yaha hogA ki tamhAre cAroM tarapha, jinase tuma jur3e ho, unako ar3acana mAlUma hogii| ve tumhArI svatatratA nahIM cAhate haiM; ve sirpha tumhArI kuzalatA cAhate haiN| ve tumhArI AtmA meM utsuka nahIM hai tumhArI upayogitA meM utsuka haiN| aura upayogitA yaMtra kI jyAdA hotI hai, AdamI kI kama hotI hai-yaha khayAla rkhnaa| yaMtra kI upayogitA bahuta jyAdA hai, kyoMki vaha kAma hI kAma karatA hai, mAMga kucha bhI nahIM karatA-na svataMtratA mAMgatA, na har3atAla karatA, na jhaMjhaTa-jhagar3e khar3A karatA, na kahatA hai, yaha ThIka hai, yaha ThIka nahIM hai-jo AjJA, jo hukma yaMtra kahatA hai, basa, hama taiyAra haiM! dabAo baTana, bijalI jala jAtI hai| samAja bhI cAhatA hai ki AdamI bhI aise hI hoM-dabAo baTana, bijalI jala jaae| svasphUrta vyakti kI baTaneM nahIM hotIM, tuma usakI baTana nahIM dabA skte| koI upAya nahIM tumheM tumhAre hAtha meM usakI baTana dabAne kA, vaha apanA mAlika hai| tuma agara use gAlI do to vaha khar3A huA suna legaa| tuma gAlI de kara bhI usakI krodha kI baTana nahIM dabA skte| tuma gAlI de vaha khar3A sunatA rahegA; vaha muskurA kara cala degaa| vaha kahegA ki hamArA dila krodha karane kA nahIM hai| hama tumhAre gulAma nahIM haiM ki tumane jaba cAhA gAlI de dI aura hama tumhAre paMje meM A ge| hama apane mAlika haiM! tumheM denA hai gAlI dete raho, yaha tumhArA kAma hai-hama nahIM lete| denA tumhArI svataMtratA hai, leM na leM, hamArI mAlakiyata hai| tumane dI dhanyavAda! tumane itanA samaya kharAba kiyA hama para bar3I kRpA! aba hama jAte apane ghara, tuma apane ghr| jo apanA mAlika hai, vahI svataMtra hai| aura mAlika kauna hai? jisane svayaM ko jAnA, vahI svayaM kA mAlika ho sakatA hai| jo svayaM ko hI nahIM jAnatA, vaha mAlika to kaise hogA? usa jAnane se,
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________________ usa bodha se jIvana meM saba badala jAtA hai| eka nizcita eka maryAdA AtI hai| aura usa maryAdA meM jarA bhI gaMdagI nahIM hai, kurUpatA nahIM hai| usa maryAdA se svataMtratA kA koI virodha nahIM hai; ve maryAdA ke kamala svataMtratA kI jhIla meM hI lagate haiN| tuma jarA dekho! tuma jarA prema se jI kara dekho, dhyAna se jI kara dekho! tumhArI purAnI AdateM bAdhA DAleMgI, kyoMki tumane kartavya ke khUba jAla banA rakhe haiN| tuma apanI patnI ko prema pragaTa ki cale jAte ho, kyoMki kahate ho patnI hai, zAstra kahate haiM, janma-janma kA sAtha hai| lekina tumane eka dina bhI isa patnI ko prema kiyA hai? ina zAstroM ne tumhArA jIvana naSTa kiyA, aura yaha patnI tumase tRpta nahIM ho skii| kyoMki prema to tumane kabhI kiyA nahIM, patnI ko prema karanA cAhie, isalie eka niyama kA anusaraNa kiyA, prema kabhI bahA nahIM; prema kabhI jharA nahIM, prema kabhI nAcA nahIM, gunagunAyA nahIM, prema meM koI gIta nahIM bane- sirpha eka niyama ki DAla lie the sAta phere, paMDita-pujAriyoM ne jyotiSa se hisAba bAMdha diyA thA ki yaha tumhArI patnI, tuma isake pati, mAM-bApa ne kula - parivAra khoja liyA thA, to aba to karanA hI par3egA ! patnI hai to prema to karanA hI par3egA! tumane isa patnI kA bhI jIvana naSTa kara diyA, tumane apanA jIvana bhI naSTa kara liyaa| tumhArA prema jaba jhUThA ho jAtA hai, to tumhAre paramAtmA se jur3ane ke saba setu TUTa jAte haiN| tuma patnI se na jur3a sake, pati se na jur3a sake, tuma paramAtmA se kyA khAka juDoge? tuma prema hI na kara pAe, tuma prArthanA kaise karoge? prArthanA to prema kA hI navanIta hai| vaha to prema kA hI sAra bhAga hai| jIvana ko svAbhAvika rUpa se jInA vidroha hai| isalie maiM kahatA hUM. dhArmika jIvana vidrohI kA jIvana hai| dhArmika jIvana tapasvI kA jIvana hai / aura dhyAna rakhanA, tapazcaryA se merA matalaba nahIM ki tuma dhUpa meM khar3e ho, zarIra ko kAlA kara rahe ho yA kATe bichA kara leTa gae ho - ye saba mUr3hatAeM haiN| inakA tapazcaryA se kucha lenA-denA nahIM hai| tapazcaryA kA isase koI saMbaMdha nahIM ki tuma upavAsa kara rahe ho ki bhUkhe mara rahe ho - ye saba mUr3hatAeM haiN| hoMgI vikSiptatAeM tumhAre mana kI lekina tapazcaryA se inakA koI saMbaMdha nahIM / tapazcaryA to eka hI hai ki tuma bhItara se bAhara kI tarapha jI rahe ho, phira jo pariNAma ho; tuma bAhara se bhItara kI tarapha nahIM jIyoge, phira jo pariNAma ho; tuma jo bhItara hogA, usI ko bAhara lAoge; tuma apane bAhara ko apane bhItara ke anusAra banAoge / aba dekhanA phrk| sAdhAraNataH tumheM dharmaguru samajhAte haiM ki jo tumhAre bAhara hai vahI tumhAre bhItara honA caahie| maiM tumase kahatA hUM jo tumhAre bhItara hai, vahI tumhAre bAhara honA caahie| aura tuma yaha mata samajhanA ki hama eka hI bAta kaha rahe haiN| dharmaguru kahatA hai : jo tumhAre bAhara hai, vahI bhItara honA caahie| vaha kahatA hai. tuma muskurAye to tumhAre hRdaya meM bhI muskurAhaTa honI cAhie, aba yaha bar3I ar3acana kI bAta hai| maiM tumase kahatA hUM jo tumhAre bhItara ho vahI tumhAre oThoM para honA caahie| agara bhItara muskurAhaTa hai to phikra chor3o samaya - asamaya kI ciMtA chodd'o| agara bhItara muskurAhaTa hai to haMsoM /
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________________ maiM choTA thaa| mere eka zikSaka mara ge| unase mujhe bar3A lagAMva thaa| ve bar3e pyAre AdamI the| kAphI moTe the| aura jaise moTe AdamI Amataura se bhole-bhAle lagate haiM, ve bhI bhole-bhAle lagate the| unheM hama cir3hAyA bhI karate the-sAre vidyArthI unakI khUba majAka bhI ur3Ate the| ve bar3A sAphA-vAphA bAMdha kara Ate, eka to vaise hI moTe, aura sAphA ityAdi aura DaMDA vagairaha-bar3e prAcIna mAlUma hote| aura cehare para unake baccoM jaisA bholApana thA, jaisA aksara moTe AdamiyoM ke cehare para ho jAtA hai| unheM dekha kara hI haMsI aatii| unakA nAma hI loga bhUla gae the; unako hama saba bholenaath| usase ve cir3hate the| blaika borDa para unake Ate hI bar3e-bar3e akSaroM meM likha diyA jAtA- bholenaath| aura basa, ve Ate hI se garamA jAte the| aura unakI garmI dekhane lAyaka thI! aura unakI parezAnI aura unakA pITanA Tebala ko vidayArthI bar3e zAMti se AnaMda lete unkaa| ve mara gae to maiM choTA hI thA, gayA vhaaN| vahAM bar3I bhIr3a ikaTThI ho gaI thI; choTA gAMva, sabhI loga eka-dUsare se jur3e, sabhI loga ikaTThe ho gae the| aura gAMva- bhara unako prema karatA thaa| unako marA huA par3A dekhakara aura unake cehare ko dekha kara mujhe ekadama haMsI Ane lgii| maiMne rokA kyoMki yaha to azobhana hogaa| lekina phira eka aisI ghaTanA ghaTI ki maiM nahIM roka paayaa| unakI patnI bhItara se AI aura ekadama unakI chAtI para gira par3I aura bolI 'hAya, mere bholenAtha!' jiMdagI bhara hama unako ' bholenAtha' kaha kara cir3hAte rahe the| marate vakta, marane ke bAda aura patnI ke muMha se! yaha bilakula kaThina ho gayA to maiM to khilakhilA kara hNsaa| mujhe ghara lAyA gayA, DATA-DapaTA gayA aura kahA, kabhI aba kisI kI mRtyu ityAdi ho, tuma jAnA mata! kyoMki vahAM haMsanA nahIM cAhie thaa| maiMne kahA, isase aura ucita, anukUla avasara kahAM milegA? merI bAta to smjho| AdamI becArA mara gayA aura jiMdagI bhara parezAna thA ki loga bholenAtha kaha-kaha kara satA rahe the| bacce unake pIche cillAte calate the ki bholenaath| unako skUla pahuMcane meM ghaMTA bhara laga jAtA thA kyoMki isa bacce ke pIche daur3e, usa bacce ke pIche daur3e, kisI se jhagar3A-jhaMjhaTa khar3A ho gayA aura marate vakta yaha khUba upasaMhAra huA yaha iti kAphI adabhuta huI ki patnI unakI chAtI para gira kara kahatI hai : 'hAya, mere bholenAtha!' / jo bhItara ho use hI bAhara hone denaa| mujhe DATA-DapaTA gayA, lekina maiM yaha bAta mAnane ko rAjI nahIM huA ki maiMne galata kiyA hai| aura phira maiMne kahA, jIvana aura mauta donoM hI haMsane jaise haiN| to mere ghara ke logoM ne kahA yaha phalasaphA tuma apane pAsa rakho ki mauta aura jIvana haMsane jaise haiN| magara tuma dubArA kisI kI mauta meM aba mata jAnA, aura gae to ThIka nahIM hogaa| vyakti ko eka sunizcita nirNaya kara lenA cAhie ki jo mere bhItara ho, use maiM dabAUM nhiiN| aura jo mere bhItara ho, vaha mere bAhara pragaTa ho| jo mere bhItara hai, use maiM pragaTa karUM yA na karUM, vaha hai to| na pragaTa karane se dhIre-dhIre mere apane saMbaMdha merI aMtarAtmA se TUTa jaaeNge| jaba rone kI ghar3I
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________________ ho, aura tumheM ronA AtA ho to lAkha sthiti kahe ki 'mata roo, ki marda baccA ho, rote ho 2: yaha to striyoM kA kAma hai! kyA janAnI bAta kara rahe ho? mardAne ho! roo mt| ' lekina jaba rone kI ghar3I ho aura tumhArA hRdaya rudana se bharA ho to bahane denA AMsUo ko mata sunanA, lAkha daniyA khe| aura jaba haMsane kI tumhAre bhItara phulajhar3iyAM phUTatI hoM to lAkha duniyA kahe, hNsnaa| isako maiM tapazcaryA kahatA huuN| tumheM bar3I kaThinAiyAM aaeNgii| aura ina kaThinAiyoM ke mukAbale dhUpa meM khar3A honA yA bhUkhe maranA yA upavAsa karanA kucha bhI nahIM hai baccoM ke khela haiM; sarkasI khela haiN| jIvana meM iMca-iMca para tumheM kaThinAI AegI, kyoMki iMca-iMca para samAja ne maryAdAeM banA kara rakhI haiM, iMca iMca para samAja ne vyavahAra, lokopacAra, ziSTAcAra banA kara rakhA hai| aura saba lokopacAra tumheM jhUTha kie de rahA hai| tuma bilakula jhUThe ho gae ho| tuma eka mahAjhUTha ho| tumhAre bhItara khojane se saca kA patA hI nahIM clegaa| tuma khuda bhI agara khojoge to cakita ho jaaoge| __ maiM tumase yaha kahanA cahatA hUM. eka mahIne bhara taka isa bAta kI khoja karo ki tuma kitane-kitane samaya para jhUTha hote ho| rAste para koI milatA, tuma kahate, 'namaskAra, bar3e dinoM meM darzana hue bar3I AMkheM tarasa giiN| ' aura bhItara tuma kaha rahe ho, 'ye duSTa subaha se kahAM mila gayA, yaha sArA dina kharAba na ho jAe! hama kisa durbhAgya ke kSaNa meM isa rAste se nikala Ae!' tuma Upara se kaha rahe ho ki mila kara bar3I khuzI huI aura bhItara se tuma kaha rahe ho, kaise chuTakArA ho! tuma jarA jaaNcnaa| tuma sirpha eka mahInA jAMca kro| tuma muskurA rahe ho jarA jAMcanA. oMTha para hI hai yA bhItara se jur3I hai? tuma AMkha meM AMsU le Ae ho, jarA jAMcanA. AMkha meM AMsU jhUThe to nahIM haiM, prANoM se nikalate haiM? tuma eka mahInA sirpha jAMca karo aura tuma pAoge tumhArI jiMdagI karIba karIba ninyAnabe pratizata jhUTha hai aura phira tuma kahate ho, paramAtmA ko khojanA hai! paramAtmA to kevala unhIM ko milatA hai jinakA jIvana sau pratizata saca hai| aura saca honA atyaMta kaThina hai, tapazcaryApUrNa hai; kyoMki jagaha-jagaha ar3acana hogii| samAja jhUTha se jItA hai| phreDarika nItse ne likhA hai ki AdamI banA hI kucha aisA hai ki binA jhUTha ke jI nahIM sktaa| sArA vyavahAra jhUTha se calatA hai| AdamI ko nItse ne likhA hai-kabhI bhUla kara bhI jhUTha se mukta mata karavA denA anyathA usakA jInA muzkila ho jAegA, vaha jI hI na skegaa| vana meM vaise hI kAma karatA hai, jaise iMjana meM lubrIkezana kAma karatA hai| agara tela na DAlo, lubrIkezana na DAlo, to iMjana cala nahIM paataa| lubrIkezana DAla do, to cIjeM cala par3atI haiM, khaTara-paTara kama ho jAtI hai| tela kI cikanAhaTa jaise iMjana ko calAne meM sahayogI hai, vaise jhUTha kI cikanAhaTa do AdamiyoM ke bIca khaTara-paTara nahIM hone detii| ghara tuma Ae, patnI ke lie AisakrIma le Ae, phUla kharIda lAe-tuma eka jhUTha kharIda laae| kyoMki agara tumhAre hRdaya meM prema hai to AisakrIma kI koI bhI jarUrata nahIM hai, phUla kI koI bhI jarUrata nahIM hai| prema kAphI hai| tuma agara hRdayapUrvaka patnI ko gale lagA loge to bahuta hai| vaha tumane
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________________ kabhI kiyA nahIM; usakA bhItara aparAdha - bhAva anubhava hotA hai| jitanA aparAdha - bhAva anubhava hotA hai, usa gaDDe ko bharane kI ceSTA karate calo, phUla kharIda lAo, AisakrIma le Ao, miThAI laao| jaba gaDDA bahuta bar3A ho jAtA hai, to phira gahanA lAo, sAr3I laao| jitanA bar3A gaDDA ho, u mahaMgI cIja se bhro| prema jahAM bhara sakatA thA, vahAM koI aura cIja na bharegI, tuma kitanA hI laao| tuma socate ho, maiM itanA kara rahA hUM patnI socatI hai, prema nahIM mila rhaa| aura tuma socate ho, maiM kara kitanA rahA hUM? roja itanA lAtA hUM saba tumhAre lie hI to kara rahA hUM lekina isase kucha hala nahIM hotaa| prema to sirpha prema se bharatA hai - tumhAre jhUThoM se nahIM / kase bhI ThIka kahatA hai| agara AdamiyoM kI jiMdagI dekho to jhUTha se bharI hai, bilakula jhUTha se bharI hai| vahA~ saccAI hai hI nhiiN| isa jhUThI sthiti meM tuma kabhI paramAtmA ke darzana na pA skoge| jhUTha, samAja meM jIvana to sarala banA detA hai; lekina jhUTha paramAtma- jIvana meM bAdhA bana jAtA hai| to agara tuma merI bAta samajho to maiM tumheM samAja chor3ane ko nahIM kahatA; lekina maiM tumase una cho ko chor3ane ko jarUra kaha detA hUM jinake kAraNa tuma samAja ke murdA aMga bana gae ho aura tumane jIvana kho diyA hai| samAja ko chor3ane se kucha artha nahIM hai, lekina sAmAjikatA ko chodd'o| raho samAja meM, lekina aupacArikatA ko chor3o, prAmANika bano! aura dhIre- dhIre tuma pAoge utarane lagA prabhu tumhAre bhiitr| jaise-jaise tuma satyatara hote ho, vaise-vaise AMkheM tumhArI virATa ko dekhane meM saphala hone lagatI haiN| jo isa saMsAra meM sahayogI hai, vahI paramAtmA kI khoja meM bAdhA hai| aura tuma cakita to taba hooge, jaise janaka cakita ho gae haiM, kahate haiM. 'aho, Azcarya aise tuma bhI cakita hooge eka dina, jisa dina tuma pAoge ki prasAda usakA utarA aura tuma sarvataMtra svataMtra ho gae ho, aura usakA prasAda utara AyA aura aba phira tumhAre jIvana meM eka dAyitva kA bodha hai, jo bilakula nayA hai| acAnaka phira tuma jIvana kI maryAdAoM ko pUrA karane lage ho, lekina aba kisI bAharI dabAva ke kAraNa nahIM; kisI bAharI jabardastI ke kAraNa nhiiN| aba tumhAre bhItara se hI rasa baha rahA hai| aba tumane dekhanA zurU kiyA ki yahAM koI dUsarA hai hI nahIM / aba tumane jAnA ki bAhara hai hI nahIM, basa bhItara hI bhItara hai, maiM hI maiM hUM / isalie to janaka kahate haiM, mana hotA hai apane ko hI namaskAra kara lUM! aba to maiM hI maiM hUM / saba mujhameM hai, maiM sabameM hUM! usa dina hotA hai eka anuzAsana - ati garimApUrNa, ati suMdara, apUrva! hotA hai eka dAyitva-kisI kA thopA huA nahIM, tumhArI nija-bodha kI kSamatA se janmA, svasphUrta! svasphUrta ko khojo - aura tuma paramAtmA ke nikaTa pahuMcate cale jaaoge| jabardastI thope hue ke lie rAjI ho jAo aura tuma gulAma kI taraha jIyoge aura gulAma kI taraha maroge / gulAma kI taraha mata maranA yaha bar3A mahaMgA saudA hai mAlika kI taraha jIyo aura mAlika kI taraha mro| aura mAlakiyata kA itanA hI artha hai ki tuma apane svayaM ke bodha ke mAlika bano, svabodha ko upalabdha hoo|
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________________ dUsarA prazna : kala Apane vAnaprastha kI adabhuta paribhASA kahI- anirNaya kI sthiti kA vaha vyakti jo do kadama jaMgala kI tarapha calatA hai aura do kadama vApisa bAjAra kI tarapha lauTa AtA hai, aisI cahalakadamI kA nAma vAnaprastha hai| isa saMdarbha meM kRpayA samajhAeM ki yadi acunAva mahAgItA kA saMdeza hai to vaha vyakti kyA kare-bAjAra cune, yA jaMgala, yA donoM nahIM? kRpayA yaha bhI samajhAeM ki anirNaya kI dazA meM aura acunAva kI dazA meM kyA pharka hai? mahAgItA kA maulika saMdeza eka hai ki cunAva saMsAra hai| agara tumane saMnyAsa bhI cunA to vaha bhI saMsAra ho gyaa| jo tumane cunA vaha paramAtmA kA nahIM hai; jo apane se ghaTe, vahI paramAtmA kA hai| jo tumane ghaTAnA cAhA, vaha tumhArI yojanA hai; vaha tumhAre ahaMkAra kA vistAra hai| to mahAgItA kahatI hai : tuma cuno mata-tuma sirpha sAkSI bno| jo ho, hone do| bAjAra ho to bAjAra, acAnaka tuma pAo ki cala par3e jaMgala kI tarapha, cala par3e-nahIM cunAva ke kAraNa sahaja sphuraNA se-to cale jaao| pharka samajhane kI koziza kro| sahaja sphuraNA se cale jAnA jaMgala eka bAta hai, ceSTA karake, nirNaya karake, sAdhanA karake, abhyAsa karake jaMgala calA jAnA bilakula dUsarI bAta hai| mere eka mitra jaina sAdhu haiN| unake pAsa se nikalatA thA jaMgala meM unakI kuTI thI aura maiM gujaratA thA rAste se, kisI gAMva jAtA thA, to maiMne DrAivara ko kahA ki ghar3I bhara unake pAsa rukate cleN| to hama mudd'e| jaba maiM utara kara unakI kuTI ke pAsa pahuMcA to maiMne khir3akI meM se dekhA. ve naMge, kamare meM Tahala rahe haiN| koI Azcarya kI bAta na thI, jaMgala meM vahAM koI thA bhI nahIM-kisake lie kapar3e pahananA? phira maiM jAnatA hUM unheM ki jaina paraMparA meM ve pale haiM aura nagnatA kA digaMbara jaina haiM to nagnatA kA bahumUlya Adara hai unake mana meM bar3A mUlya hai| maiM jaba daravAje para dastaka diyA, to maiMne dekhA. ve Ae to eka kapar3A lapeTa kara cale aae| maiMne pUchA ki abhI maiMne khir3akI se dekhA Apa nagna the, yaha kapar3A kyoM lapeTa liyA? ve haMsane lge| ve kahane lage, abhyAsa kara rahA huuN| 'kAhe kA abhyAsa?' unhoMne kahA, nagna hone kA abhyAsa kara rahA huuN| digaMbara jainoM meM pAMca sIr3hiyAM haiM saMnyAsI kI, to dhIre - dhIre pahale brahmacArI hotA hai AdamI, phira chullaka hotA, phira ellaka hotA, phira aise bar3hatA jAtA, phira aMtima ghar3I meM muni hotA; muni
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________________ jaba hotA, taba nagna ho jaataa| to dhIre- dhIre chor3atA jAtA hai| pahale do laMgoTI rakhatA, phira eka laMgoTI rakhatA, phira chor3a detaa| maiM unase pUchA ki mahAvIra ke jIvana meM kahIM ullekha hai ki unhoMne nagnatA kA abhyAsa kiyA ho? kahA, 'koI ullekha nhiiN| ' maiMne kahA, mujhe vaha batAeM, jo unakI nagnatA ke saMbaMdha meM kahA hai zAstroM meM, Apa zAstra ke jJAtA! ve thor3e hairAna hue, kyoMki zAstra meM to itanA hI kahA hai ki mahAvIra jaba ghara se cale to eka cAMdara unhoMne lapeTa lii| saba bAMTa diyaa| rAha meM jaba ve jA rahe the, to saba to bAMTa cuke the; pUrA gAMva, jo bhI Ae the saba le kara gae the| Akhira meM eka bhikhamaMgA milA jo abhI bhI ghisaTatA huA calA A rahA thA, aura bolA, 'are, kyA saba baMTa gayA? aura maiM to abhI A hI rahA thaa| ' to mahAvIra ne kahA, yaha to bar3A muzkila huaa| usako AdhI cAMdara phAr3a kara de dii| aba aura to kucha bacA bhI nahIM thA; aba AdhI hI se kAma calA leNge| jaba ve isa AdhI cAMdara ko le kara jaMgala meM praveza kara rahe the, to eka jhAr3I se, ho sakatA hai gulAba kI jhAr3I rahI ho yA koI aura jhAr3I rahI ho - vaha AdhI cAMdara ulajha gii| vaha isa burI taraha ulajha gaI ki agara use nikAleM, to jhAr3I ko coTa phuNcegii| to mahAvIra kahA, tU bhI le le, aba AdhI ko bhI kyA rakhanA! vaha AdhI usa jhAr3I ko de dii| aise ve nagna hue / abhyAsa to isameM, maiMne kahA, kahIM bhI nahIM hai| maiMne unase kahA ki tuma abhyAsa kara-karake nagna agara ho gae, to tuma saMnyAsI na banoge, sarkasI bana jaaoge| pahale tuma aisA kamare meM naMge ghUmoge, phira dhIre - dhIre bagIce meM ghUmane laganA, phira dhIre- dhIre gAMva meM jAne laganA- aise kara-karake himmata bar3hA loge - ki loga haMsate haiM, haMsane do, loga kucha kahate haiM, kahane do, dhIre dhIre dhIre - dhIre / magara dhIre- dhIre jo ghaTegA vaha to jhUThA ho gyaa| yaha to tuma cUka hI gae nagnatA kI nirdoSatA cUka ge| abhyAsajanya to sabhI cAlAkI se bhara jAtA hai, nirdoSa to sahaja hotA hai| agara tumheM nagna hone kA bhAva A gayA hai, calo yaha cAMdara mujhe bheMTa kara do-maiMne kahA- khatma karo isa bAta ko / ve kahane lage, nahIM, abhI nhiiN| maiM unakI cAMdara khIMcane lagA to bole. are, yaha mata karanA ! maiMne kahA, maiM to sahayogI ho rahA huuN| yaha abhI ghaTavAe detA hUM aura gAMva ke logoM ko bulAe letA huuN| kaba taka abhyAsa karoge? yaha pAMca minaTa kA kAma hai| maiM gAMva se logoM ko bulA letA hUM bhIr3abhAr3a ikaTThI kara detA hUM, cAMdara le lUMgA sabake sAmane khatma karo! kaba taka abhyAsa karoge? unhoMne kahA, nahIM-nahIM, abhI nahIM, kisI se kahanA bhI nahIM / abhI merI yogyatA nahIM hai| nagna hone meM bhI yogyatA kI jarUrata hai? sArA jaMgala, pazu-pakSI nagna ghUma rahe haiM; tuma kahate ho nagnatA meM bhI yogyatA kI jarUrata hai! AdamI bhI hada cAlAka hai! itane sarala meM bhI yogyatA kI jarUrata hai! ve abhI taka nagna nahIM hue| yaha ghaTanA ghaTe koI paMdraha sAla ho ge| ve abhI taka bhI cAMdara --
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________________ or3he hue haiN| abhyAsa aba bhI jArI hogaa| khayAla karanA, mahAgItA kahatI hai. cuno mata! kyoMki cunoge to ahaMkAra se hI cunoge na? cunoge to 'maiM' karane vAlA hUM-kartA ho jAoge n| mahAgItA kahatI hai. na kartA, na bhoktA-tuma sAkSI rho| tuma agara pAo ki bAjAra meM baiThe haiM aura saba ThIka hai-to ThIka hai, bAjAra ThIka hai| tuma agara pAo ki nahIM, cala par3e paira, jaMgala bulAne lagA, A gaI pukAra-aba rukate-rukate bhI rukane kA koI upAya nahIM, aba tuma cala par3e, aba tuma daur3a par3e, jaise baja gaI kRSNa kI bAMsurI aura bhAgane lagIM gopiyAM koI ne AdhA abhI dUdha lagAyA thA, usane paTakI maTakI vahIM, vaha bhAgI; koI abhI dIyA jalA rahI thI, usane dIyA nahIM jalAyA aura bhaagii| baMsI uThI pukAra! aba kaise koI ruka sakatA hai! jisa dina aisA sahaja ghaTatA ho, jisa dina tuma javAba na de sako ki kyoM kiyA, tumhAre pAsa koI tarka na ho ki kyoM aisA huA tuma itanA hI kaha sako ki basa huA, hama dekhane vAle the, hama karane vAle nahIM the-to mahAgItA kahatI hai, to aSTAvakra kahate haiM-toM asalI saMnyAsa, sahajasphUrta! to pahalI to bAta hai, pUchA hai, 'to vaha vyakti kyA kare-bAjAra cUne ki jaMgala tra: ' cunA ki bhttkaa| cunAva meM saMsAra hai, agara vaha jaMgala bhI cune to saMsAra hai, cunAva meM saMsAra hai| aura agara vaha binA cune bAjAra meM bhI rahe to saMnyAsa hai| acunAva saMnyAsa hai cunAva saMsAra hai| isalie saMnyAsa ko cunane kA koI upAya nahIM hai-saMnyAsa ghaTatA hai| mere pAsa itane loga Ate haiN| mere pAsa bhI do taraha ke saMnyAsI haiM-eka jo ghaTAte, aura eka, jinako ghaTatA hai| jo ghaTAte haiM, ve kahate haiM, soca rahe haiM; ve kahate haiM, soca rahe haiM, bAta to kucha jaeNcatI hai, soca-vicAra kara rahe haiN| leMge, kabhI na kabhI leMge, magara abhI nhiiN| abhI, ve kahate haiM, aura bahuta kAma haiM; bAta to U~catI hai| ___maiMne sunA hai, mullA nasaruddIna masjida meM baiThA thA aura dharmaguru ne pravacana diyaa| aura bIca pravacana meM usane bar3e nATakIya DhaMga se pUchA ki jo loga svarga jAnA cAhate haiM, uTha kara khar3e ho jaaeN| saba loga uTha kara khar3e ho gae, sirpha mullA baiThA rhaa| usa dharmaguru ne pUchA kyA tumane sunA nahIM nasaruddIna? maiM kaha rahA hUM jinako svarga jAnA ho, ve khar3e ho jaaeN| nasaruddIna ne kahA : bilakula suna liyA, lekina abhI maiM jA nahIM sktaa| 'bAta kyA hai?' usane kahA ki patnI ne kahA hai ki masjida se sIdhe ghara aanaa| masjida se sIdhe ghara AnA, idhara- udhara jAnA hI mata! aba Apa aura eka laMbI.. svarga jinako jAnA hai, jo jA sakate hoM jaaeN| jAUMgA maiM bhI kbhii| to pahalA to kAraNa ki patnI ne kahA ki masjida se sIdhe ghara aanaa| aura dUsarA kAraNa ki isa kaMpanI ke sAtha svarga maiM nahIM jAnA caahtaa| inhIM kI vajaha se to yaha saMsAra bhI narka ho gayA hai aura aba svarga bhI kharAba karavAoge? inake binA to maiM narka bhI jAnA pasaMda kara luuNgaa| inake saath| mere pAsa loga Ate haiM, ve kahate haiM. soca rahe, bAta jaMcatI, lekina abhI muzkila hai patnI se
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________________ pUchanA hai, baccoM se pUchanA hai, abhI to lar3akI kI zAdI karanI hai, abhI lar3ake kI zAdI karanI hai; yaha karanA vaha karanA dukaan| maiM unase kahatA hUM : maiM tumase lar3akI na chor3ane ko kahatA hUM na lar3akA na patnI na dukAna-maiM tumase kucha chor3ane ko kahatA hI nhiiN| aura maiM tumase yaha bhI nahIM kahatA ki tuma saMnyAsa ke saMbaMdha meM soco, taba lenaa| soca kara liyA, cUka ge| kyoMki socane meM to tumhArA nirNaya ho jaaegaa| maiM to kahatA hUM : ahobhAva se lenaa| uTha gayA ho bhAva to le lenaa| socanA mt| socane kI prakriyA mata claanaa| jaba ghaTatA ho to ghaTa jAne denA, na ghaTe to koI ciMtA kI bAta nahIM- thopanA mt| kucha loga Ate haiM, jo isI sahajatA se lete haiN| kucha loga Ate haiM, unase maiM kahatA hUM ki kyA irAde haiM saMnyAsa ke? ve kahate haiM. ApakI marjI! Apa agara mujhe yogya samajheM to de deN| yaha bAta aura huii| yaha bAta hI aura ho gii| isakA mUlya bar3A alaga ho gyaa| ve kahate haiM Apa agara yogya samajheM to mujhe de deN| saMnyAsa maiM kaise lUMgA? Apa dete hoM to de deN| isa vyakti ne ThIka se samajhA saMnyAsa kA arth| jo hotA ho, jo ghaTatA ho, use ghaTa jAne denA- binA nA-nuca ke, binA apanI bAdhA DAle, binA apanI pasaMda nApasaMda ddaale| to tuma pUchate ho : bAjAra cuneM ki jaMgala na: maiM kahatA hUM : cune ki phaMse! cune ki bAjAra meM rhe| jaMgala jAo yA kahIM bhI jAo, cune ki bAjAra meM rhe| na cunA aura bAjAra meM bhI rahe to A gayA jNgl| jahAM tuma bAjAra dekha rahe ho, vahAM kabhI jaMgala the aura phira jaMgala ho jaaeNge| aura jahAM tuma jaMgala dekha rahe ho, vahAM bAjAra kaI daphe bana cuke haiM aura ujar3a cuke haiN| jaMgala aura bAjAra meM koI bar3A pharka nahIM hai| ibrAhIma eka musalamAna samrATa, saMnyAsI ho gyaa| acAnaka nikala gayA rAjamahala se| dvArapAla rokane lge| usane kahA, haTo bhI! tumheM maiMne yahAM davAroM para khar3A kiyA thA ki kisI ko bhItara mata Ane denA, mujhe rokane ko nhiiN| rAstA do| ve usase hAtha jor3ane lage ki Apa yaha kyA kara rahe haiM? hameM khabara milI hai ki Apa saMnyAsI ho rahe haiN| Apa kyoM yaha mahala chor3a rahe haiM? ibrAhIma ne kahA. chor3a rahA hUM? bAta hI galata hai| yahAM kucha chor3ane yogya hai hI nahIM, isalie jA rahA huuN| na pakar3ane yogya hai na chor3ane yogya hai| ibrAhIma calA gayA aura gAMva ke bAhara rahane lgaa| vaha balka kA rAjA thaa| usane maraghaTa ke pAsa eka cauraste para apanA nivAsa banA liyaa| loga usa cauraste se Ate, rAhagIra, aura usase pUchate ki bastI kahAM hai, to vaha maraghaTa kA rAstA batA detaa| donoM tarapha rAste jAte the| aura usakI bAta mAna kara loga cale jaate| bar3A zAMta phakIra thA, zAhI AdamI thA! usake cehare kI jJAna aura raunaka, usake
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________________ vyaktitva kI garimA aura prasAda bar3A AbhAyukta vyakti thA! usakI bAta para sahaja bharosA ho jaataa| koI yaha bhI nahIM socatA ki yaha AdamI galata khegaa| usase pUchate, bAbA kahA hai bastI kA rAstA, to vaha kaha detA ki bilakala sIdhe cale jAo: isa rAste para mata jAnA, nahIM to bhaTaka jaaoge| jaba ve cAra mIla cala kara pahuMcate to maraghaTa! bar3e krodha meM lauTa kara aate| ve kahate ki tuma hoza meM to ho? maraghaTa bheja diyA! usane kahA. tumane bastI pUchI thI na? to maiMne maraghaTa meM jinako basate dekhA, unako kabhI ujaDte nahIM dekhatA-isalie usako maiM bastI kahatA huuN| aura bastI tuma jisako kahate ho, usako maiM maraghaTa kahatA hUM kyoMki vahAM saba marane vAle loga haiN| Aja marA koI kala marA koI, parasoM marA koI-vaha maraghaTa hai| vahAM kyU lagA hai, jisakA naMbara A gayA, vaha gyaa| jisako tuma bastI kahate ho, usako maiMne basate kabhI dekhA nahIM; ujaDUte dekhaa| usako bastI kaho kaise bhUH bastI to vaha, jo basI rhe| maraghaTa hai bstii| tumane bAta galata pUchI merI koI galI nahIM hai| tumane pUchA bastI kahAM hai, maiMne tumheM bastI batA dii| tuma pUchate maraghaTa maiM tumheM gAMva bheja detaa| aba tuma maraghaTa jAnA cAhate ho, to tuma isa rAste se cale jaao| lekina maiM tumase kahe detA hUM maraghaTa para kabhI tuma basa na paaoge| jAnA to par3egA-jisako tuma maraghaTa kahate ho-vhiiN| kyoMki vahIM aMtima basAva hai, vahIM AdamI aMtataH pahuMca jAtA hai| jisako bastI kaho, vahAM kaI daphe maraghaTa bana cukA; jisako maraghaTa kaho, vahAM kaI daphe bastI basa cukii| yahAM kyA jaMgala hai, kyA bAjAra hai! yahAM donoM hI mAyA haiM, donoM hI sapane haiN| cune ki phNse| mahAgItA kahatI hai : cunanA mt| jo ho hone denaa| tuma sirpha dekhate rhnaa| yaha sabase kaThina bAta hai aura sabase sarala bhii| kyoMki karane ko kucha nahIM, isalie bilakula sarala; aura cUMki karane ko kucha bhI nahIM hai, isalie tumheM bahuta kaThina hai| kucha karane ko ho to kara lo| isameM kucha karane ko hI nahIM hai, sirpha dekhate rahane kA hai| 'kRpayA yaha bhI samajhAeM ki anirNaya kI dazA meM aura acunAva kI dazA meM kyA pharka hai!' bahuta pharka hai| donoM eka-dUsare ke viparIta haiN| anirNaya kA artha hai : tumhAre mana meM do nirNaya eka sAtha haiN| jaba bhI koI AdamI kahatA hai ki maiM anirNIta hUM tuma bhUla meM mata par3a jaanaa| vaha yaha kaha rahA hai ki do nirNaya haiM aura taya nahIM kara pA rahA hUM ki kauna-sA karUM-jaMgala jAUM ki dukAna para rahUM? eka mana kahatA hai, dukAna para raho; eka kahatA hai, jaMgala cale jaao| eka mana kahatA hai, zAdI kara lo; eka kahatA hai, kuMAre bane rho| eka mana kahatA hai, aisA karo; eka mana kahatA hai, vaisA kro| nirNaya haiM yA kaI nirNaya haiN| aura kaI nirNayoM meM cuna nahIM pA rahe ho, kyoMki sabhI karIba-karIba barAbara vajana ke mAlUma hote haiM isalie anirnny| anirNaya bar3I bhrAMta, mUrchita dazA hai; aura acunAva bar3I jAgrata dazA hai| acunAva kA matalaba hai ki na yaha cunate haiM na yaha cunate haiM, cunate hI nhiiN| anirNaya meM to cunane kI AkAMkSA banI hai, magara taya nahIM ho pA rahA : kyA kareM, kisako cuneM?
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________________ eka strI hai jisako tuma cAhate ho ki zAdI kara leM, lekina usake pAsa suMdara zarIra nahIM hai aura dhana bahuta hai| aura eka strI hai, jisake pAsa suMdara zarIra hai aura dhana bilakula nahIM hai| aba tumhAre mana meM DAvAMDola cala rahA hai. kisako cuna leM? dhana vAlI kurUpa strI ko cuna leM ki nirdhana suMdara strI ko cuna leM? eka mana kahatA hai, ' dhana kA kyA karoge? dhana ko khAoge ki pIyoge ? are, sauMdarya ke Age dhana kyA hai?' eka mana kahatA hai, 'sauMdarya kA kyA karoge? do dina meM saba phIkA ho jAegA, do dina meM paricita ho jaaoge| phira kyA karoge, khAoge ki pIyoge ? dhana Akhira meM kAma AtA / dhana suMdara hai; kala cecaka nikala Ae, phira kyA karoge? dUra ke Dhola suhAvane hote haiM- pAsa A kara kauna-sA kala kI ho jAegI - phira kyA karoge? aura abhI to jiMdagI bhara kAma AegA / aura Aja yaha strI aura Aja yaha suMdara dikhAI par3a rahI hai dUra se jahara nikalegA, kyA patA ! phira Aja javAna hai, akele nirdhana ho, aura eka gale se bAMdha lI phAMsI do ho jAoge, bhUkhoM maroge!' AdamI kI bhUkha peTa meM ho to kahAM kA prema aura kahAM kA sauMdarya-bhUkhe bhajana na hoya! to eka mana kahatA hai, suMdara ko cuna lo eka mana kahatA hai, dhana ko cuna lo| aura duvidhA hai ki tuma donoM caahte| tuma cAhate yaha the, donoM hAtha laha hote| tuma cAhate suMdara strI hotI aura dhana bhI hotA / vaise donoM hAtha laha isa saMsAra meM kisI ko nahIM milte| agara kisI ko bhI mila jAte isa saMsAra meM donoM hAtha laha, to usake lie dharma vyartha ho jAtA; lekina dharma kisI ko kabhI vyartha nahIM huA, kyoMki donoM hAtha laha kabhI kisI ko nahIM milte| kucha na kucha kamI raha jAtI hai| kisI kI AMkha suMdara hai, kisI ke kAna suMdara haiM, kisI kI nAka suMdara hai... bar3I muzkila hai. kisI ke bAla suMdara haiM, kisI kI vANI madhura hai, kisI kA vyavahAra suMdara hai, kisI kA deha kA anupAta suMdara hai| hajAra cIjeM haiM, sabhI pUrI nahIM hotiiN| mana kI AkAMkSA bar3I hai aura cIjeM bar3I choTI haiN| mana ke sapane bar3e suMdara haiM aura saba cIjeM phIkI par3a jAtI haiN| donoM hAtha laha kisI ko bhI nahIM milte| ve to paramAtmA hue binA nahIM milte| tumane dekhA na, hiMduoM kI paramAtmA kI mUrtiyAM haiM -kahIM sahasrabAhu .. aura saba hAthoM meM, kisI meM zaMkha, kisI meM laha, kisI meM kuch| AdamI ke do hAtha haiM, saMsAra bar3A hai- jaba taka tuma sahasrabAhu na ho jAo, taba taka kucha hone vAlA nhiiN| paramAtmA hue binA koI tRpta nahIM hotA; hAtha bhara hI nahIM paate| aura do hAtha bhara bhI jAeM to bhI kyA hone vAlA hai? AkAMkSAeM bahuta haiM, unake lie hajAroM hAtha cAhie; ve bhI zAyada choTe par3a jAte hoNge| kabhI tuma dekhanA hiMduoM kI purAnI mUrtiyAM to kaI naI cIjeM paidA ho gaI haiM, jo una hAthoM nahIM haiN| aba bhagavAna ko nae hAtha ugAne par3e, nahIM to ve bhI taDUpa rahe hoNge| agara aba hama phira se banAeM to eka hAtha meM kAra laTakI hai, eka hAtha meM kursI laTakI hai, eka hAtha meM phrija rakhA hai| tuma haMsate ho! kyoMki tumane una dinoM jo cIjeM zreSThatama thIM ve laTakA dI thiiN| aba to cIjeM bahuta bar3ha gaI haiM, utane hAthoM se kAma na clegaa| cIjeM to roja bar3hatI jAtI haiM, hAtha sadA choTe par3a jAte haiN| to anirNaya kI avasthA to taba hai, jaba tumhAre mana meM bahuta-sI cIjeM haiM, pratiyogI cIjeM haiM
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________________ aura tuma taya nahIM kara paate| taya tuma karanA cAhate ho aura nahIM kara pAte to anirnny| anirNaya bar3I duvidhA kI dazA hai| acunAva-tuma taya karanA hI nahIM cAhate, tumane taya karanA hI choDa diyaa| tuma kahate ho, hama to dekheNge| hama yaha bhI dekheMge, hama vaha bhI dekheMge; hamArA koI jhukAva nahIM hai| hama sirpha sAkSI bana kara baiThe haiN| ___ acunAva to caitanya kI sabase UMcI sthiti hai| anirNaya, caitanya kI sabase nIcI sthiti hai| anirNaya ko acunAva mata samajha lenA, nahIM to tuma bhrAMti ko satya samajha loge| tuma yaha mata samajha lenA. cUMika hama nirNaya nahIM kara pAte, isalie hama acunAva kI avasthA ko upalabdha ho gae haiN| nirNaya na kara pAnA eka bAta hai aura nirNaya karanA chor3a denA bilakula dUsarI bAta hai| nirNaya na kara pAnA to eka taraha kI asahAya avasthA hai; nirNaya karanA chor3a denA eka mukti hai| iti jJAna! janaka kahate haiM, yahI jJAna hai! tIsarA prazna : janaka aSTAvakra ke samakSa nissaMkoca bhAva se jJAna ko abhivyakta kie jA rahe haiN| kyA jJAna upalabdhi ke bAda guru ke samakSa sakucAhaTa bhI kho jAtI hai? kRpA karake smjhaaie| sakucAhaTa yA saMkoca bhI ahaMkAra kA hI anuSaMga hai| jisako tuma saMkoca kahate ho, lajjA kahate ho, vaha bhI ahaMkAra kI hI chAyA hai| tuma sakucAte kyoM ho kahane meM? tuma socate ho, kahIM aisA na samajhA jAe ki koI samajhe ki abhadra hai, maryAdA-rahita hai| tuma sakucAte kyoM ho kahane meM? kahIM aisA na ho ki bhadda ho jAe, jo maiM kahUM vaha ThIka na ho| tuma sakucAte kyoMho kahane meM? kyoMki tuma Dare hue ho dUsarA kyA socegA! lekina guru aura ziSya kA saMbaMdha to bar3A aMtaraMga saMbaMdha hai| vahAM dUsarA kyA socegA, yaha vicAra bhI A jAe to bheda A gyaa| guru ke sAmane kaisA saMkoca? jo huA hai, use khola kara rakha denaa| burA huA to burA khola kara rakha denA bhalA huA to bhalA khola kara rakha denaa| dukha svapna dekhA to use khola kara rakha denaa| aMdherA hai to kaha denA aMdherA hai, rozanI ho gaI, taba saMkoca kyA? kyA tuma socate ho ki janaka ko kahanA cAhie ki nahIM-nahIM, kucha bhI nahIM huA are sAhaba, mujhe kaise ho sakatA hai! ho gayA, aura ve kaheM saMkocavaza, ziSTAcAravaza, ki nahIM-nahIM! tumane janaka ko kyA koI lakhanavI samajhA hai? maiMne sunA hai ki eka strI ke peTa meM do bacce the| nau mahIne nikala gae, dasa mahIne nikalane lage, gyAraha mahInA, bAraha mhiinaa| strI bhI ghabar3A gaI, DAkTara bhI ghabar3A ge| kaI sAla nikala gae,
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________________ bAmuzkila Aparezana karake bacce nikAle gae / jaba nikAle gae taba to ve bolane kI umra ke A cuke the| DAkTara ne pUchA ki karate kyA rahe itanI dera taka? unhoMne kahA, 'sAhaba kyA karate! maiM inase kahatA, pahale Apa; ye kahate, pahale Apa!' lakhanavI the donoN| aba pahale kauna nikale, yahI ar3acana thI / purAne dinoM meM aisA ho jAtA thaa| lakhanaU ke sTezana para gAr3I sITI bajA rahI hai| aura koI khar3e haiM abhI, car3ha hI nahIM rahe-ve kahate haiM, 'pahale Apa ! pahale Apa ! are nahIM Apake sAmane maiM kaise car3ha sakatA hUM!' saMkoca, sakucAhaTa, ziSTAcAra guru aura ziSya ke bIca artha nahIM rkhte| jahAM prema pragAr3ha hai, vahAM ina kSudra bAtoM kI koI bhI jarUrata nhiiN| ye to saba prema ko chipAne ke upAya haiN| ye to jo nahIM hai usako batalAne ke DhaMga haiN| jaba tumhArA prema pUrA hotA hai, to tuma kucha bhI nahIM chipAte, taba to tuma saba khola kara rakha dete ho| tumane dekhA, do AdamI dosta hote haiM to saba ziSTAcAra kho jAtA hai| loga to kahate haiM, jaba taka do AdamI eka-dUsare ko gAlI-galauja na dene lageM, taba taka dostI hI nhiiN| ThIka hI kahate haiM eka artha meM, kyoMki jaba taka gAlI-galauja kI naubata na A jAe, taba taka kaisI dostI ? taba taka ziSTAcAra kAyama hai; Aie, baiThie, padhArie kAyama hai| jaba do mitra dosta ho jAte haiM, jaba mitratA ghanI ho jAtI hai| to Aie, baiThie, padhArie, saba vidA ho jAtA hai| taba bAteM sIdhI hone lagatI haiN| taba dila kI dila se bAta hotI hai| ye Upara-Upara ke khela, samAja ke niyama, upacAra - inakA koI mUlya nahIM raha jaataa| guru aura ziSya ke bIca to koI bhI aupacArikatA nahIM hai| lekina tuma hairAna hooge ki agara tuma guru-ziSya ko dekhoge to tuma cakita hooge / janaka kaha to rahA hai ye sArI bAteM, lekina isakA yaha artha nahIM hai ki janaka ke mana meM guru ke prati kRtatA nahIM hai, ki ahobhAva nahIM hai| eka jhena phakIra maMdira meM rAta rukaa| rAta sarda thI aura usane maMdira meM se buddha kI pratimA ko uThA liyA; lakar3I kI pratimA thI, jalA kara AMca tApa lii| jaba maMdira ke pujArI kI nIMda khulI AdhI rAta ko; lakar3I kI AvAja, jalane kI AvAja suna kara, to vaha bhAgA aayaa| usane kahA ki yaha tU AdamI pAgala hai kyA? hamane to tujhe sAdhu samajha kara maMdira meM ThaharA liyA, yaha tUne kyA pApa kiyA? tUne buddha ko jalA DAlA to vaha sAdhu eka lakar3I ko uThA kara buddha kI jalI huI mUrti meM rAkha meM TaTolane lgaa| usa maMdira ke pujArI ne pUchA, kyA karate ho aba? usane kahA, maiM buddha kI asthiyAM khoja rahA hUM / vaha pujArI hNsaa| usane kahA, tuma nizcita pAgala ho / are, lakar3I kI mUrti meM kaisI asthiyAM ? usane kahA, jaba asthiyAM hI nahIM haiM to kaise buddha? tuma, do mUrtiyAM aura rakhI haiM, uThA lAo, rAta abhI bahuta bAkI hai| aura tuma bhI A jAo hama to tApa hI rahe haiM, tuma kyoM ThaMDa meM ThiThura rahe ho, tApa hI lo! usane to use usI vakta maMdira ke bAhara nikAlA, kyoMki kahIM vaha dUsarI mUrtiyAM aura na jalA
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________________ ddaale| subaha jaba pujArI uThA to usane dekhA ki vaha sAdhu rAha ke kinAre lage mIla ke patthara para do phUla car3hA kara hAtha jor3e baiThA hai| usane kahA, hada ho gaI! rAta buddha ko jalA baiThA, aba mIla ke patthara para phUla car3hA kara baiThA hai! usane jA kara phira use hilAyA aura kahA, tU AdamI kaisA hai? aba yaha kyA kara rahA hai yahAM? usane kahA, bhagavAna ko dhanyavAda de rahA huuN| yaha unakI hI kRpA hai ki unakI mUrti ko jalAne kI kSamatA A skii| aura mUrti to mAnane kI bAta hai| jahAM mAna liyA, vahAM buddha / ve to sabhI jagaha maujUda haiM, magara hama sabhI jagaha dekhane meM samartha nahIM; hama to eka hI dizA meM dhyAna lagAne meM samartha haiN| to abhI jo sAmane mila gayA, yaha patthara mila gayA, phUla bhI lage the kinAre, saba sAdhana-sAmagrI unhIM ne juTA dI, socA ki aba pUjA kara leN| aba dhUpa bhI nikala AI, dina bhI tAjA ho gyaa| phira rAta inhoMne sAtha diyA thaa| dekhA nahIM, jaba sardI par3I to inhIM ko le kara AMca lI thii| zarIra ko bhI ye bacA lete haiM, AtmA ko bhI bacA lete haiN| aba dhanyavAda de rahe haiN| ziSya aura guru ke bIca bar3A anUThA saMbaMdha hai| vaha apane satya ko pUrA khola kara bhI rakha detA hai, lekina isakA artha nahIM hai ki avajJA kara rahA hai, yA abhadratA kara rahA hai| yahI bhadra saMbaMdha hai| aura dhanyavAda bhI usakA pUrA hai| janaka paira bhI chueMge aSTAvakra ke, unako biThAyA hai siMhAsana para, khuda nIce baiThe haiN| khuda samrATa haiM, aSTAvakra to kucha bhI nahIM haiN| unako biThA kara siMhAsana para kahA, prabhu! mujhe upadeza deN| mujhe batAeM kyA hai jJAna, kyA hai vairAgya, kyA hai mukti tra: aura tuma yaha mata socanA ki aSTAvakra nArAja haiM yaha jJAna kI abhivyakti suna kara | agara sakucAte janaka to kucha kamI raha gii| kyoMki saMkoca kA matalaba hai : abhI bhI tuma soca rahe ho, maiM huuN| aba koI saMkoca nahIM 'maiM' bilakula gyaa| aura aSTAvakra svayaM hI kahate haiM. jahAM 'maiM' nahIM, vahAM mukti hai; jahAM 'maiM hai, vahAM baMdhana hai| to saba baMdhana gira gyaa| 'maiM' hI gira gayA to kaisA saMkoca, kaisI sakucAhaTa? lekina tuma isase yaha mata samajha lenA ki janaka kI kRtajJatA kA bhAva gira gyaa| vaha to aura ghanA ho gyaa| isI guru ke mAdhyama se to, isI guru ke izAre para to, isI guru kI cinagArI se to jalI yaha Aga aura saba bhasmIbhUta huA / yaha jo ghaTanA ghaTI hai mahAmukti kI yaha jo samAdhistha ho gae haiM janaka - yaha jisa guru kI kRpA se hue haiM jisake prasAda se hue haiM, usake sAmane kaisA saMkoca ? saca to yaha hai, jaba guru aura ziSya ke bIca parama saMbaMdha jur3atA hai to na ziSya ziSya raha jAtA, na guru guru raha jAtA, taba donoM eka ho jAte, mahAmilana ho jAtA! cauthA prazna :
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________________ maiM cAhatA hUM? tuma kucha bolo, tama cAhate ho, maiM kacha bola; a~dhara kAMpa ke raha jAte hai, vismita hUM kaise muMha kholUM to diyA! to tumhAre lie eka kahAnI: cAra AdamiyoM ne taya kiyA ki mauna kI sAdhanA kreNge| ve cAroM gae, eka maMdira meM baiTha gae... caubIsa ghaMTe mauna se rheNge| koI ghar3I bhI nahIM gujarI thI ki pahalA AdamI bolA are are, patA nahIM maiM tAlA lagA AyA ki nahIM ghara kA! dUsarA muskurAyA, usane kahA ki tumane mauna khaMDita kara diyA nAsamajha, mUr3ha! tUne bola kara saba mauna kharAba kara diyA! tIsarA bolA ki kharAba to tumhArA bhI ho gayA hai! tuma kyA khAka usako samajhA rahe ho? cauthA bolA : he prabhu! eka hama hI bace, jisakA mauna abhI taka kharAba nahIM huaa| bole binA rahA nahIM jaataa| agara binA bole raha jAo to bahuta kucha ho| agara mauna raha jAo to mahAna ghaTa sakatA hai| zabda se satya ke ghaTane meM koI sahArA nahIM milatA-zUnya se hI sahArA milatA hai| agara aisA bhAva mana meM uTha rahA hai mauna raha jAne kA, to raha hI jAo, itanA bhI mata kaho; itanA kahane se bhI kharAba ho jaaegaa| merI majabUrI hai ki mujhe tumase bolanA par3a rahA hai kyoMki tuma mere zUnya ko na suna skoge| kAza, tuma mere zUnya ko suna sakate to bolane kI koI jarUrata na raha jAtI! to maiM yahAM baiThatA, tuma yahAM baiThate-maMtaka-maMtaka, hRdaya se hRdaya kI ho letI carcA, zabda bIca meM na aate| ___ tumheM usI tarapha taiyAra kara rahA huuN| bola bhI isalie rahA hUM ki tumheM na bolane kI tarapha dhIre - dhIre sarakAyA jA ske| tumase kaha bhI rahA hUM ki suno sirpha isIlie ki abhI tuma sunane ke mAdhyama se hI zAMta baiTha sakate ho, anyathA tuma zAMta na baiTha skoge| phira dhIre - dhIre, jaba tuma sunane meM parama kuzala ho jAoge, to tumase kahUMgA aba suno, aura aba maiM bolUMgA nahIM, tuma sirpha suno| phira maiM binA bole tumhAre pAsa bailuuNgaa| phira bhI tuma suna paaoge| aura jo abhI jhalaka-jhalaka AtA hai, vaha bilakula sAkSAta aaegaa| jo abhI zabda meM thor3A-thor3A AtA hai, bUMda-bUMda AtA hai, vaha phira sAgara kI taraha aaegaa| aura abhI jo havA ke jhoMke kI taraha AtA hai-kabhI patA calatA AyA, kabhI patA calatA nahIM AyA-vaha eka aMdhar3a-AdhI kI taraha AegA aura tumheM ibA degA; aura tumheM miTA degA; aura tumheM bahA le jaaegaa| vaha eka sAgara kI tUphAnI lahara hogA, jisameM tuma vilIna ho jaaoge| maiM bola rahA hUM -sirpha isalie ki tumheM zUnya ke lie taiyAra kara luuN| abhI majabUrI hai| tumane dekhA, choTe baccoM kI kitAbeM hotI haiM, to unameM akSara kama hote haiM, citra khUba hote haiN| akSara bar3e-bar3e hote haiM, bahuta thor3e hote haiM-Ama.. aura bar3A eka Ama laTakA hotA hai| kyoMki abhI
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________________ akSara to rasapUrNa nahIM hai bacce ko / abhI tuma Ama kitane hI likho, use kucha majA na aaegaa| abhI vaha dekhatA hai raMgIna Ama ko| use dekha kara usake muMha meM svAda A jAtA hai, vaha kahatA hai, are Ama ! Ama ko vaha jAnatA hai citra se Ama ke sahAre vaha kinAre para likhA huA zabda 'Ama', vaha bhI use samajha meM A jAtA hai ki acchA to yaha Ama hai| jaise-jaise baccA bar3A hone lagatA hai, kitAboM meM se citra khone lagate haiN| vizvavidyAlaya taka pahuMcate-pahuMcate kitAboM meM koI citra nahIM raha jAte, saba citra kho jAte haiM, aura akSara choTe hone lagate haiN| phira vizvavidyAlaya ke bAda jo asalI zikSA hai vahAM to akSara aura bhI choTe hote-hote akSara bhI kho jAte haiN| korA kAgaja ! vahI merI mehanata cala rahI hai ki aba akSara ko choTA-choTA karate-karate karate-karate eka dina tumheM korA kAgaja de dUM aura tumase kahUM par3ho aura tuma par3ho bhI, aura tuma guno bhI, aura tuma gnagunAo aura nAco bhI aura tuma mujhe dhanyavAda de sako ki korA kAgaja Apane diyA ! ye zabda to kevala setu haiM, zUnya kI tarapha izAre haiN| tumhAre mana meM agara cupa hone kI bAta AtI ho to bilakula hI cupa ho jAnA, itanA bhI mata kahanA ki cupa hone kI bAta A gaI, utane meM bhI mauna TUTa jAtA hai| AkhirI prazna : mahAgItA para hue Apake pravacanoM se mere sAre saMzaya dUra ho gae aura mere sAre svanirmita baMdhana kSaNa meM Dhaha gae aura Aja maiM ApakI karuNA se jhUThe pAzoM se mukta huA kahA hai 'svAmI sadAziva bhAratI' ne| kucha ghaTA hai, nizcita ghaTA hai| magara isase bahuta sAvadhAna rahane kI jarUrata bhI A gaI hai| aba agara akar3a gae ki kucha ghaTA hai, to kho doge| abhI bar3I nAjuka kiraNa utarI hai, muTThI meM agara jora se bAMdha liyA, mara jaaegii| abhI kalI umagI hai, abhI khilane denA, phUla banane denaa| nahIM to kabhI-kabhI aisA hotA hai, hama kinAre-kinAre pahuMca kara bhI gaMgA meM binA DUbe vApisa lauTa Ate haiN| bilakula pahuMca gae the chalAMga lagAne ke karIba the aura lauTa Ate haiN| kucha nizcita huA hai sadAziva ko yaha kahatA hUM- isalie ki tumheM bharosA Ae, majabUtI aae| magara yaha bhI sAvadhAnI de denI jarUrI hai ki isameM akar3a mata jaanaa| isase ahaMkAra ko ghanA mata kara lenA ki ho gyaa| abhI bahuta kucha hone ko hai| kucha huA hai bahuta kucha hone ko hai| kucha huA-saubhAgya! prabhu kRpA! anukaMpA mAnanA use, kyoMki tumhAre kie kucha bhI nahIM huA hai| tumane kiyA hI kyA hai? sunate-sunate, yahAM baiThe-baiThe ho gayA hai| ise anukaMpA mAnanA, isase ahaMkAra
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________________ ko mata bhara lenaa| isase aura bhI anugRhIta hAM jAnA ki prabhu kA prasAda milA, aura maiM to pAtra bhI na thaa| isase ahaMkAra ko aura visarjita hone denA, to aura ghaTegA, aura ghaTegA / tumhArA pAtra jitanA zUnya - hone lagegA ahaMkAra se, utanA hI paramAtmA bharane lgegaa| eka ghar3I aisI AtI hai ki tuma sirpha zUnya-mAtra raha jAte ho - mahAzUnya ! usa mahAzUnya meM mahApUrNa utaratA hai| pahalI kiraNa AI hai abhI tAjI - tAjI subaha kI, abhI sUraja ugane ko hai, prAcI lAla huI, lAlI A gaI hai prAcI para, prAcI lAla ho gaI hai - tuma kahIM ahaMkAra meM AMkha baMda mata kara baitthnaa| pahale to yaha pahalI kiraNa pAnI bahuta muzkila hai phira pA kara kho denI bahuta AsAna hai| jinheM nahIM milI unakA utanA khatarA nahIM hai- unake pAsa kucha hai hI nahIM / jinheM yaha kiraNa milatI hai, unake pAsa saMpadA hai, unheM khatarA hai| usa khatare se sAvadhAna rahanA / ahaMkAra nirmita na ho basa ! anugraha kA bhAva aura bhI gahana hotA jAe, to aura bhI hogA, bahuta kucha hogA yaha to abhI zuruAta hai| yaha to abhI zrIgaNezAya namaH ! abhI to zAstra prAraMbha huaa| hari oM tatsat!
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________________ vAsanA saMsAra hai, bodha mukti hai-pravacana-bArahavAM dinAMka: 7 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| sUtra: aSTAvakra uvAca: kRtAkRte na vaMdvAni kadA zAMtAni kasya vaa| evaM jJAtveha nirvedAbhava tyAgaparo'vratI / / 83 / / kasyApi tAta dhanyasya lokcessttaavloknaat| jIvitecchA bubhukSA va bubhutsoyazamaM gatAH / / 84 / / anityaM sarvamevedaM tApatritaya duussitm| asAraM niMditaM heyamiti nizcitya zAmyati / / 85 / / kAusau kAlo vayA: kiM vA yatra davaMdavAni no nRnnaam| tAnyuyekya yathAprAptavartI siddhimvaapnuyaat|| 86 / / nAnA mataM maharSINAM sAdhunAM yoginAM tthaa| davaSTava nirvedamApanna: ko na zAmyati maanvH|| 87 / / kRtvA mUrtiyarijJAnaM caitanyasya na kiM gurU:/ nirvedasamatAyaktayA yastArayati saMsate: / / 8811 pazya bhUtavikArAstvaM bhUtamAtrAn ythaarthtH| tatkSaNAda baMdhanirmukta: svarUyastho bhvissysi|| 89 / / vAsanA eva saMsAra iti sarvA vimujca taa:| tatyAgo vAsanAtyAgAt sthitiradaya yathA tathA / / 9011 aSTAvakra ne kahA : 'kiyA aura anakiyA karma, aura davaMdava kisake kaba zAMta hue haiN| isa prakAra nizcita jAna kara isa saMsAra meM udAsIna (nirveda) ho kara avratI aura tyAgaparAyaNa ho| ' kRtAkRte ca dvaMdvAni kadA zAtAni kasya vaa| evaM jJAtveha niveMdAdbhava tyaagprogvRtii||
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________________ bahuta bahumUlya sUtra hai| ekaeka zabda ko ThIka se samajhane kI koziza kreN| 'kiyA aura anakiyA karma... / ' manuSya usase hI nahIM baMdhatA jo karatA hai; usase bhI baMdha jAtA jo karanA cAhatA hai| kiyA yA nahIM, isase bahuta bheda nahIM par3atA karanA cAhA thA to baMdhana nirmita ho jAtA corI kI yA nahIM- agara kI to aparAdha ho jAtA hai, lekina na kI ho to bhI pApa to ho hI jAtA hai| pApa aura aparAdha kA yahI bheda hai| socA, to pApa to ho gyaa| koI pakar3a nahIM skegaa| koI adAlata, koI kAnUna tumheM aparAdhI nahIM ThaharA sakegA, apane ghara meM baiTha kara tuma socate raho-DAke DAlanA, corI karanI hatyA karanI- kauna nahIM socatA hai! vicAra para samAja kA koI adhikAra nahIM, jaba taka ki vicAra kRtya na bana jaae| isa kAraNa tuma isa bhAMti meM mata par3anA ki vicAra karane meM koI pApa nahIM, kyoMki tumane vicAra kiyA, to paramAtmA ke samakSa to tuma pApI ho hI ge| tumane socA- itanA kAphI hai; tuma to patita ho hI ge| vicAra kI taraMga uThI, na banI kRtya isase bheda nahIM par3atA lekina tumhAre bhItara to malinatA praviSTa ho gii| kiyA, to aparAdha bana jAtA hai; na kiyA, socA, to bhI pApa bana jAtA hai| aura aparAdha se to bacane ke upAya haiM; kyoMki kAnUna, adAlata, pulisa, inase bacane kI vyavasthAeM khojI jA sakatI haiM, khoja lI gaI haiN| jitane kAnUna banate haiM, utanA kAnUna se bacane kA upAya bhI nikala AtA hai| Akhira vakIloM kA sArA kAma hI vahI hai| 'vakIla' zabda sUphiyoM kA hai- baDI burI taraha vikRta huaa| vakIla ke jo maulika artha haiM ve haiM. jo paramAtmA ke sAmane tumhArA gavAha hogA ki tuma saca ho / muhammada vakIla haiN| ve paramAtmA ke sAmane gavAhI deMge ki hI, yaha AdamI saca hai| lekina phira vakIla zabda kA to bar3A ajIba patana huaa| aba to tuma jhUTha ho yA saca, tumhAre lie jo gavAhI de sakatA hai aura pramANa juTA sakatA hai ki tuma saca ho; vastutaH tuma jitane jhUThe ho, utanA hI jo pramANa juTA sake ki tuma saca ho - vaha utanA hI bar3A vkiil| agara tuma saca ho aura vakIla tumheM saca siddha kare to usakI vakAlata kA kyA mUlya? kauna usako vakIla kahegA? vakIla to hama usI ko kahate haiM isa duniyA meM, jo jhUTha ko saca kare, saca ko jhUTha kre| sUphiyoM kA zabda thA vakIla aura vakIla kA artha thA : guru tumhArA vakIla hogaa| vaha tumheM paramAtmA ke sAmane pramANa degA ki merI gavAhI suno, yaha AdamI saca hai| jIsasa ne kahA hai apane anuyAyiyoM se ki 'tuma ghabar3AnA mata, AkhirI kSaNa meM maiM tumhArA gavAha rhuuNgaa| merI gavAhI kA bharosA rkhnaa| 'vaha vakAlata hai| lekina sAdhAraNataH to vakIla kA artha hai, jo tumase kahe : ghabar3Ao mata pApa kiyA, jhUTha bole, corI kI--koI phikra mata karo, kAnUna se bacane kA upAya hai| AdamI aisA koI kAnUna to khoja hI nahIM sakatA, jisase bacane kA koI upAya na ho| AdamI hI kAnUna khojatA hai, AdamI hI kAnUna se bacane kA upAya bhI khoja legaa|
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________________ aparAdha se to tuma baca sakate ho aura aksara bar3e aparAdhI baca jAte haiM, choTe aparAdhI pakar3e jAte haiN| jisako bacAne vAlA koI nahIM, ve phaMsa jAte haiN| jinako bacAne ke lie dhana hai, suvidhA hai, saMpatti hai, ve baca jAte haiN| bar3e aparAdhI nahIM pakar3e jaate| bar3e aparAdhI to senApati ho jAte haiM, rAjanetA ho jAte haiN| bar3e aparAdhI to itihAsa-puruSa ho jAte haiN| choTe aparAdhI kArAgRhoM meM sar3ate haiN| __ lekina jahAM vicAra kA saMbaMdha hai, vahAM koI tumheM bacA na skegaa| yahAM tumane vicAra kiyA ki tuma patita ho hI ge| aisA agara hotA ki abhI tuma vicAra karate aura kaI janmoM ke bAda patita hote, to bIca meM hama koI upAya khoja lete, rizvata khilA dete| aisA koI upAya nahIM hai| vicAra kiyA ki tuma patita hue| tumane dekhA, jaba tuma bhItara vicAra karate ho krodha kA, to tumhAre lie to krodha ghaTa hI gayA! tuma to usI meM ubala jAte ho| tuma to jala jAte ho, tuma to dagdha ho jAte ho| phira tumane krodha kiyA hai yA nahIM kiyA, yaha dUsarI bAta hai| bhItara-bhItara to chAle par3a gae, bhItara-bhItara to ghAva ho ge| vaha to krodha ke bhAva meM hI ho ge| krodha meM hI krodha kA pariNAma hai| isalie paramAtmA ko dhokhA dene kA upAya nahIM hai| usane pariNAma ko kAraNa se dUra nahIM rakhA hai| Aga meM hAtha DAlo to aisA nahIM ki isa janma meM hAtha DAloge aura agale janma meM jaloge; hAtha DAlA ki jala gye| yahAM bhI AdamI ne tarakIbeM nikAlI haiN| loga kahate haiM : abhI karoge, agale janma meM bhroge| kyA maje kI bAta kaha rahe haiM! ve kaha rahe haiM : abhI pApa karoge, agale janma meM milegA phala; itanI to abhI suvidhA hai! kauna dekha AyA agale janma kI! aura taba taka bIca meM kucha puNya kara leMge, bacane kA kucha upAya kara leNge| pUjA, prArthanA, arcanA kara leMge; paMDita, purohita ko naukarI para lagA deMge; maMdira banA deMge, dAna kareMge, dharmazAlA banA deMge-kucha kara leMge! abhI to hotA nahIM! __paMDitoM ne tumheM samajhAyA hai ki dharma udhAra hai| yaha ho nahIM sakatA, kyoMki dharma to utanA hI vaijJAnika hai jitanA vijnyaan| agara vijJAna nagada hai to dharma udhAra nahIM ho sktaa| Aga meM hAtha DAlate ho to abhI jalate ho| krodha karoge to bhI abhI jloge| burA socoge to burA ho gyaa| vicAra se manuSya pApa karatA hai aura jaba pApa ko kRtya taka le AtA hai to aparAdha ho jAte haiN| aparAdhoM se to bacane kA upAya hai; lekina agara tumane soca liyA burA vicAra to basa ghaTanA ghaTa gaI; aba bacane kI koI suvidhA na rahI, jo honA thA ho gyaa| aSTAvakra kahate haiM : 'kiyA aura anakiyA karma aura vaMdva, sukha aura dukha kA saMgharSaNa, kisake kaba zAMta hue haiN| bar3I anUThI bAta kaha rahe haiN| ve kaha rahe haiM tuma inako zAMta karane meM mata laga jAnA anyathA aura azAMta ho jaaoge| ye kaba kisake zAMta hue haiN| tumane kabhI koI aisA AdamI dekhA, jisake sukha-dukha zAMta ho gae hoM? mahAvIra kI bhI mRtyu hotI to pecisa kI bImArI se hotii| buddha kI mRtyu hotI hai to viSAkta bhojana zarIra meM phaila jAtA
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________________ hai-viSa ke kAraNa hotI hai| jIsasa sUlI para laTaka kara marate haiN| sukarAta jahara pI kara maratA hai| ramaNa ko kaiMsara thA, rAmakRSNa ko kaiMsara thaa| sukha-dukha kaba kisake zAMta hue| sukha-dukha to calate hI raheMge aura vicAra bhI! kiye - anakiye karmoM se bhI bilakula chuTakArA nahIM ho sktaa| tuma kaise chuTakArA karoge? tuma kaho ki hama bilakula baiTha jAeMge, hama kucha kareMge hI nahIM yahI to purAne Dhaba kA saMnyAsI kahatA hai : hama baiTha jAeMge, kucha kareMge hI nahIM lekina baiThanA karma hai| baiThe -baiThe hajAroM cIjeM ho jaaeNgii| tuma baiThoge, sAMsa to loge? sAMsa loge to pUcho vaijJAnika se, vaha kahatA hai eka zvAsa meM lAkhoM jIvANu mara jAte haiN| ho gaI hatyA, ho gaI hiNsaa| bAMdha lo kitanI hI muMhapaTTI muMha para, bana jAo jaina terApaMthI muni, bAMdha lo muMhapaTTI-kucha pharka nahIM pdd'taa| tumhArI paTTI se TakarA kara mara jaaeNge| muMha to khologe, bologe to, zrAvakoM ko samajhAoge to? vaha jo muMha se garma havA nikalatI hai, usameM mara jaaeNge| bhojana to karoge, pAnI to pIyoge, kucha to karoge hI-jaba taka jIvana hai kRtya to rhegaa| aura pratyeka kRtya ke sAtha kucha na kucha ho rahA hai| pratyeka kRtya meM kucha na kucha hiMsA ho hI rahI hai| jIvana hiMsAzUnya ho hI nahIM sktaa| bhAga jAoge, chor3a doge saba-jahAM jAoge vahAM kucha na kucha karanA pdd'egaa| bhIkha to mAMgoge? kRtya to jArI rahegA; jIvana kA anivArya aMga hai| jIvana jaba zUnya ho jAtA, tabhI kRtya zUnya hotA hai| aura jaba kucha karoge to kucha vicAra bhI calate rheNge| aba saMnyAsI baiThA hai, use bhUkha lagI hai to vicAra na uThegA ki bhUkha lagI? mahAvIra ko bhI uThatA hogA ki bhUkha lagI, nahIM to bhikSA mAMgane kyoM jAte? vicAra to svAbhAvika hai, uThegA ki aba bhUkha lgii| rAste para aMgArA par3A ho to mahAvIra bhI hoM to baca kara nikaleMge, unako bhI to vicAra uThegA ki aMgArA par3A hai, isa para paira na rakhU paira jala jaaegaa| tuma patthara mahAvIra kI tarapha pheMkoge to unakI AMkha bhI jhapa jaaegii| itanA to vicAra hogA na, itanI to taraMga hogI na, ki patthara A rahA hai, AMkha phUTI jAtI hai, AMkha jhapA lo! vicAra to uThatA rahegA, kyoMki vicAra bhI jIvana kA anuSaMga hai| jaba taka zvAsa calatI hai, taba taka vicAra bhI uThatA rhegaa| isakA kyA artha huA? kyA isakA artha huA ki AdamI ke zAMta hone kA koI upAya nahIM? nahIM, upAya hai| usI upAya kI tarapha iMgita karane ke lie aSTAvakra kahate haiM ki pahale yaha samajha lo ki kauna-kauna se upAya kAma nahIM aaeNge| chor3a kara bhAganA kAma nahIM aaegaa| karma se bacanA kAma nahIM aaegaa| vicAra se lar3anA kAma nahIM aaegaa| kRtAkRte ca vaMdvAni kadA zAMtAni kasya vaa| tU mujhe batA janaka kisake kaba vicAra zAMta hue haiM? kisake kaba dvaMdva, dukha zAMta hue? jIvana hai to vaMdva hai| dina ko jAgoge, to rAta sooge na? vaMdva zurU ho gayA, doharI prakriyAeM ho giiN| zrama karoge to vizrAma kroge| sukha hogA to usake pIche dukha AegA, jaise dina ke pIche rAta AtI hai| rAta ke pIche phira dina calA A rahA hai| hara sukha ke pIche dukha hai, hara dukha ke pIche sukha hai-zrRMkhalA baMdhI hai| zvAsa bhItara loge to phira bAhara bhI to chor3oge na? nahIM to phira bhItara na le skoge|
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________________ bAhara loge zvAsa to bhItara jAegI, bhItara loge to bAhara jAegI-vaMdva jArI rhegaa| isa jIvana kI sArI gati davaMdavAtmaka hai| do paira se AdamI calatA hai| saba calane meM do kI jarUrata hai| do paMkha se pakSI ur3atA hai| ur3ane meM do kI jarUrata hai| eka paMkha kATa do, pakSI gira jaaegaa| eka paira kATa do, AdamI gira jaaegaa| jIvana dvaMdva se calatA hai| jo nivaMdva huA vaha tatkSaNa gira jaaegaa| isalie to paramAtmA tumheM kahIM dikhAI nahIM pdd'taa| jo bhI dikhAI par3atA hai, vaha davaMdava se ghirA hogaa| jahAM davaMdava gayA, vahAM dRzya bhI gayA; vahAM vyakti adRzya ho jAtA hai| jIvana to usI adRzya kA dRzya honA hai| isalie aSTAvakra kahate haiM. kiyA-anakiyA karma, davaMdava kisake kaba zAMta hue to tU isa ulajhana meM mata par3a jAnA ki inako zAMta karanA hai| mere pAsa loga Ate haiN| ve kahate haiM, mana meM bar3A krodha hai, ise kaise zAMta kareM? maiM unase kahatA hUM jhaMjhaTa meM mata pdd'o| krodha ko kauna kaba zAMta kara pAyA hai? tuma to sAkSI bhAva se dekho-joM hai so hai-aura dekhate se hI zAMta honA zurU ho jAtA hai| lekina yaha zAMti bar3I aura hai| isakA yaha artha nahIM hai ki taraMgeM nahIM uTheMgI; taraMgeM uThatI raheMgI, lekina tuma taraMgoM se dUra ho jaaoge| taraMgeM uThatI raheMgI, lekina ina taraMgoM se tumhArA tAdAtmya TUTa jaaegaa| tuma aisA na samajhoge. ye taraMgeM merI haiN| bhUkha lagegI to tuma aisA na samajhoge : mujhe bhUkha lagI tuma samajhoge. zarIra ko / / paira meM kAMTA cubhegA to tuma samajhoge: zarIra ko pIr3A huii| vicAra to uThega tuma meM bhI uThatA hai, mahAvIra meM bhI uThatA hai| tumameM uThatA hai : are, mujhe pIr3A huI mahAvIra ko uThatA hai : are, zarIra ko kAMTA gar3A! jaba tuma maroge to tumheM vicAra uThatA hai maiM marA! jaba ramaNa marate haiM, to unheM vicAra uThatA hai yaha zarIra ke dina pUre hue| mRtyu to hogI hii| vaha to janma ke sAtha hI baMdhA hai dvNdv| 'isa prakAra nizcita jAna kara isa saMsAra meM udAsIna ho kara avratI aura tyAgaparAyaNa ho| ' eka-eka zabda kohinUra jaisA hai! 'isa prakAra nizcita jAna kara...| ' evaM jJAtveha.......| -aisA jAna kara!
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________________ 'nizcita jAna kara' kA kyA artha hai? suna kara nahIM kisI aura ke jAnane se udhAra le kara nahIM-aisA jIvana kA avalokana krke| aisA jIvana ko dekha kara ki dvaMdva yahAM ruka kaise sakatA hai? yahAM vicAra samApta kaise ho sakate haiM? sAgara kI sataha para to calatI hI raheMgI trNgeN| havA ke itane jhakore haiM, sUraja nikalegA, bAdala AeMge, havA calegI, tUphAna uTheMge - sataha para to saba calatA hI rhegaa| itanA hI ho sakatA hai ki tU sataha para mata raha, tU saraka jarA, saraka kara apane keMdra para A jaa| pratyeka ke bhItara eka aisI jagaha hai jahAM koI taraMga nahIM pahuMcatI / tuma taraMga ko rokane kI ceSTA mata karo; tuma to vahAM saraka jAo jahAM taraMga nahIM pahuMcatI / bAhara tuma baiThe ho subaha hai, sardI ke dina haiM, dhUpa suhAvanI lagatI, mIThI lagatI; phira thor3I dera meM sUraja jyAdA garma ho AyA, Upara A gayA, Upara uThane lagA, pasInA-pasInA hone lage- aba tuma kyA karate ho? kyA tuma sUraja ke Upara pAnI chir3akate ho ki calo ThaMDA kara do sUraja ko thor3A ? tuma cupacApa saraka jAte apane ghara kI chAyA meM, tuma haTa Ate chappara ke nIce / aba koI AdamI le kara hAMja aura sUraja ko ThaMDA karane kI koziza karane lage, to usako tuma pAgala khoge| tuma kahoge. 'are pAgala ! sUraja ko kauna kaba zAMta kara pAyA !' yahI aSTAvakra kaha rahe haiM. jaba sUraja bahuta garma ho jAe to cale jAnA bhUmigata kamaroM meM jahAM koI sUraja kI kiraNa na pahuMcatI ho / sarakate jAnA bhItara ! pratyeka ke bhItara eka aisI jagaha hai jahAM koI taraMga nahIM pahuMcatI vahI tumhArA keMdra hai vahI tumhArA svarUpa hai| usa gaharAI meM hI tumhArA vAstavika 'honA' hai| 'isa prakAra nizcita jAna kara evaM jJAtveha - aisA jAna kr...| ' magara yaha maiM kahUM, isase na hogaa| aSTAvakra kaheM, isase bhI na hogaa| veda- kurAna kahate rahe haiM, kucha bhI nahIM hotaa| jaba taka tuma na jAnoge jaba taka yaha tumhArI pratIti na banegI .. / jJAna muphta nahIM milatA aura udhAra bhI nahIM milatA - jIvana ke kar3ave - mIThe anubhava se milatA hai; jIvana jI kara milatA hai; jIvana ko jIne meM jo pIr3A hai, tapa hai, usa sabako jhela kara milatA hai| aisA nizcita jAna kara AdamI isa saMsAra meM udAsIna ho jAtA hai / ' 'udAsIna' zabda bar3A pyArA hai| AsIna kA matalaba to tuma samajhate hI ho. baiTha jAnA; Asana / udAsIna kA artha hai apane meM baiTha jAnA, apanI gaharAI meM baiTha jAnA; aise saraka jAnA apane bhItara ki jahAM bAhara kI koI taraMga na pahuMcatI ho| hairigela ne bar3I mIThI ghaTanA likhI hai apane jhena guru ke bAbata / hairigela jApAna meM thA aura tIna varSoM taka dhanurvidyA sIkhatA thA eka jhena guru se / dhanurvidyA bhI dhyAna ko sikhAne ke lie eka mAdhyama hai| tIna varSa pUre ho gae the aura hairigela uttIrNa bhI ho gayA thA - bAmuzkila uttIrNa ho paayaa| kyoMki pAzcAtya buddhi takanIka ko to samajha letI hai, TekyolaoNjikala hai, lekina usase gaharI kisI bAta ko samajhane meM use bar3I ar3acana hotI hai| vaha jhena guru kahatA thA tuma calAo to tIra, lekina aise calAo jaise tumane nahIM claayaa|
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________________ aba yaha bar3I muzkila bAta hai / hairigela niSNAta dhanurvida thaa| sau pratizata usake nizAne ThIka baiThate the| lekina vaha guru kahatA : nahIM, abhI isameM jhena nahIM hai; abhI isameM dhyAna nahIM hai| hairigela kahatA mere nizAne bilakula ThIka par3ate haiM, aba aura kyA cAhie? yaha pAzcAtya tarka hai ki jaba nizAne saba ThIka laga rahe haiM, sau pratizata ThIka laga rahe haiM, to aba aura kyA isameM bhUla-cUka hai? lekina jhena guru kahatA. hameM tumhArA nizAnA ThIka lagatA hai ki nahIM, isase savAla nahIM tuma ThIka ho yA nahIM, isase savAla hai| nizAnA cUke to bhI clegaa| nizAne kI phikra kisako hai? tuma na cUko / bAta bar3I kaThina thii| vaha kahatA. tuma aise tIra calAo ki calAne vAle tuma na raho, kartA tuma na raho, tuma sirpha sAkSI / calAne do paramAtmA ko calAne do vizva kI UrjA ko, magara tuma na claao| aba yaha bar3I kaThina bAta hai| hairigela kahegA ki maiM na calAU to maiM phira tIra ko pratyaMcA para rakhUM hI kyoM? aba jo rakhUMgA to maiM hI rakhUMgA / jaba khIMkA pratyaMcA ko to maiM hI khIMkA, kauna baiThA hai khIMcane vAlA? aura jaba tIra kA nizAnA lagAUMgA to maiM hI lagAUMgA, kauna baiThA hai dekhane vAlA aura? tIna varSa bIta gae aura guru ne usase kahA ki aba bahuta ho gayA aba tumhArI samajha meM na aaegaa| yaha bAta nahIM hone vAlI, tuma vApisa lauTa jaao| to AkhirI dina vaha chor3a diyA. usane khayAla kiyA, apane se hone vAlA nahIM hai yA yaha kucha pAgalapana kA mAmalA hai| vaha guru se vidA lene gayA hai| guru dUsare ziSyoM ko sikhA rahA hai| tIna varSa usane kaI bAra guru ko tIra calAte dekhA, lekina yaha bAta dikhAI na par3I thii| nahIM dikhAI par3I thI, kyoMki khuda kI cAha se bharA thA ki kaise sIkha lUM? kaise sIkha lUM? bar3A bhItara tanAva thaa| Aja sIkhane kI bAta to khatma ho gaI thii| vaha vidA hone ko AyA hai- AkhirI namaskAra krne| kucha bhI ho isa guru ne tIna varSa usake sAtha mehanata to kI hai| to vaha baiThA hai eka beMca para guru dUsare ziSyoM ko sikhA rahA hai| vaha khAlI ho jAe, to hairigela usase kSamA mAMga le aura vidA le le| khAlI baiThe-baiThe usako pahalI daphA dikhAI par3A ki are, guru uThAtA hai pratyaMcA, lekina jaise usane nahIM utthaaii| koI tanAva uThAne meM rakhatA hai tIra, lekina jaise udAsIna / car3hAtA hai hAtha khIMcatA hai hAtha, lekina jaise prayojana-zUnya; sUnA-sUnA; bhItara koI cAhata nahIM hai ki aisA ho, jaise koI karavA le rahA hai! tumane pharka dekhA pU tuma apanI preyasI se milane jA rahe ho to tumhArI gati aura hotI hai aura kisI ke saMdezavAhaka ho kara jA rahe ho, kisI ne ciTThI de dI ki jarA merI preyasI ko pahuMcA denA to tuma rakha lete ho udAsIna mana se khIse meM, tumheM kyA lenA-denA! cale jAte ho, de bhI dete ho; magara vaha gati, tvarA, jvara, jo tumhArI preyasI kI tarapha jAne meM hotA hai, vaha to nahIM hotA, tuma sirpha saMdezavAhaka ho| tumane dekhA, posTamaina AtA hai, DAkiyA! tumheM lAkha rupaye kI lATarI mila gaI ho, vaha aise hI calA AtA hai ki jaise do kaur3I kA liphAphA pakar3A rahA hai| tumheM hairAnI hotI hai ki are, tU kaisA pAgala hai? lAkha rupaye mujhe mila gae aura tU bilakula aise hI calA A rahA hai jaise roja AtA hai vahI
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________________ ronI sUrata, vahI sAikila para savAra calA A rahA hai! magara use kyA lenA-denA hai? saMdezavAhaka, saMdezavAhaka hai| dekhA hairigela ne ki guru ThIka kahatA thA, maiM cUkatA rahA huuN| vaha uThA aura cakita huA thor3A, kyoMki use lagA. maiM nahIM uThA hUM koI cIja uThI vaha uTha kara guru ke pAsa gayA, usane guru ke hAtha se tIra-kamAna le liyA, car3hAyA, nizAnA mArA aura guru praphullita ho gayA, usane gale se lagA liyaa| usane kahA, ho gayA! Aja 'usane claayaa| Aja tU udAsIna thaa| tIna varSa meM jo na ho pAyA, vaha Aja AkhirI ghar3I meM ho gayA / usakI khuzI meM usane guru ko nimaMtraNa diyA ki Aja mere sAtha bhojana kreN| guru AyA, eka sAta-maMjila makAna meM bhojana karane baiThe, acAnaka bhUkaMpa A gyaa| jApAna meM Amataura se bhUkaMpa A jAte haiN| saba bhAge, pUrA bhavana kaMpa gyaa| hairigela khuda bhI bhaagaa| bhAgane meM use yaha bhI yAda na rahI ki guru kahAM hai| sIDI para bhIr3a ho gaI, kyoMki koI pacIsa-tIsa AdamiyoM ko usane bulAyA thaa| to usane pIche lauTa kara dekhA, guru to zAMta AMkha baMda kie baiThA hai, jahAM baiThA thA, vahIM baiThA hai| hairigela ko yaha itanA manamohaka lagA - yaha ghaTanA, guru kA yaha nizcita rahanA, yaha bhUkaMpa kA honA, yaha mauta dvAra para khar3I, yaha makAna abhI gira sakatA hai, sAta-maMjila makAna hai, kaMpA jA rahA hai jar3oM se, aura guru aisA baiThA hai nizcita, jaise kucha bhI nahIM ho rahA hai! vaha bhUla hI gayA bhaagnaa| aisA kucha jAdU guru kI maujUdagI meM use lagA ! kucha aisI gaharAI, jo usane kabhI nahIM jAnI! vaha A kara guru ke pAsa baiTha gayA; kaMpa rahA hai, lekina usane kahA ki mehamAna ghara meM baiThA ho aura mejabAna bhAga jAe, yaha to azobhana hai - to maiM bhI baiThUMgA; phira jo inakA hogA, merA bhI hogaa| bhUkaMpa AyA aura gayA, kSaNa bhara ttikaa| guru ne AMkha kholI, aura jahAM se bAta TUTa gaI thI bhUkaMpa ke Ane aura logoM ke bhAgane ke kAraNa, use phira vahIM se zurU kara diyaa| hairigela ne kahA. chor3ie bhI, aba mujhe kucha yAda nahIM ki kauna-sI hama bAta kara rahe the| vaha bAta AyI-gayI ho gaI, isa saMbaMdha meM kucha aba mujhe jAnanA nahIM / mujhe kucha aura jAnane kI utsukatA hai| isa bhUkaMpa kA kyA huA? hama saba bhAge, Apa nahIM bhAge? guru ne kahA : tumane dekhA nahIM, bhAgA maiM bhI / tuma bAhara kI tarapha bhAge, maiM bhItara kI tarapha bhaagaa| tumhArA bhAganA nAsamajhI se bharA hai, kyoMki tuma jahAM jA rahe ho vahAM bhI bhUkaMpa hai| pAgalo, jA kahAM rahe ho? isa maMjila para bhUkaMpa hai to chaThavIM para nahIM hai? to pAMcavIM para nahIM hai? to cauthI para nahIM hai? kyA pahalI maMjila para nahIM hai? tuma agara kisI taraha makAna ke bAhara bhI nikala gae, to sar3aka para bhI bhUkaMpa hai| tuma bhUkaMpa meM hI bhAge jA rahe ho| tumhAre bhAgane meM kucha artha nahIM hai| maiM aisI jagaha saraka gayA, jahAM koI bhUkaMpa kabhI nahIM jaate| maiM apane bhItara saraka gyaa| isa bhItara saraka jAne kA nAma hai 'udAsIna - apane bhItara baiTha gae ! bhUkaMpa AegA to zarIra taka jA sakatA hai, jyAdA se jyAdA mana taka jA sakatA hai, isase pAra bhUkaMpa kI koI gati nahIM hai| tumhArI AtmA meM bhUkaMpa ke jAne kA koI upAya nahIM hai| kyoMki
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________________ una donoM ke hone kA DhaMga itanA alaga hai ki eka-dUsare kA kahIM milana nahIM ho sktaa| bhUkaMpa AegA to zarIra para to nizcita pariNAma hogA; kyoMki zarIra isI miTTI kA banA hai, isI bhUmi kA banA hai, jisameM bhUkaMpa AyA hai| donoM kI taraMgeM eka haiN| donoM eka hI dhAtu se nirmita haiM eka hI dravya se nirmita haiN| to pUrI bhUmi kaipa rahI ho to tumhArA zarIra na kaMpe, yaha nahIM ho sakatA; zarIra to kNpegaa| yahI to kahate aSTAvakra ki are pAgala, kauna kaba zAMta huA? kauna kaba sukha-dukha ke pAra huA? eka sImA taka to saba kaMpatA hI rhegaa| bhUkaMpa AegA to mahAvIra ko bhI AegA, koI tumhArA zarIra hI thor3e hI TUTegA? agara mahAvIra hoMge to unakA zarIra bhI ttuuttegaa| zarIra to miTTI kA hai, to miTTI ke niyama kAma kreNge| aura jaba bhUkaMpa AegA aura zarIra TUTegA, to mana bhI vicalita hogA, kyoMki mana to zarIra kA gulAma hai kyoMki mana to zarIra kA sevaka hai; kyoMki mana to zarIra kA hI apane ko bacAe rakhane kA eka upAya hai, apanI surakSA hai| jaba bhUkha lagatI hai to mana kahatA bhUkha lagI kyoMki zarIra abola hai, gaMgA hai, to usane eka bolane vAle kA sahArA le rakhA hai| pyAsa lagatI hai to mana kahatA hai pyAsa lagI; zarIra kaha na skegaa| to jaisA tumane sunA hogA ki eka aMdhe AdamI ne aura eka laMgar3e AdamI ne dostI kara lI thI dono bhikhamaMge the, eka-dUsare ko sahArA dete the| aMdhA dekha nahIM sakatA thA, laMgar3A cala nahIM sakatA thaa| aMdhA cala sakatA thA, laMgar3A dekha sakatA thA donoM kI dostI kAma aaii| aMdhA baiThA letA thA laMgar3e ko apane kaMdhoM para, donoM bhikSA mAMga Ate the| donoM akele to asamartha the, donoM sAtha-sAtha bar3e samartha ho jAte the| zarIra meM ghaTanA ghaTatI hai, mana meM aMkana hotA hai| mana aura zarIra kA saMyoga hai| manovaijJAnika to kahate haiM, mana aura zarIra isa taraha do cIjoM kI bAta nahIM karanI caahie-mnoshriir| eka hI ghaTanA hai| usakA eka bAhara kA hissA hai, eka bhItara kA hissA hai| to aba navIna manovijJAna meM zarIra aura mana aise do zabdoM kA prayoga nahIM kiyA jAtA, balki 'manozarIra' kA prayoga kiyA jAtA hai, saaikosomaittik| donoM saMyukta haiN| isalie jo zarIra meM ghaTatA hai, usI taraMgeM mana taka pahuMca jAtI haiN| saca to yaha hai zarIra meM ghaTA nahIM ki taraMgeM pahuMca jAtI haiN| kabhI-kabhI to zarIra meM ghaTane ke pahale pahuMca jAtI haiN| jaise koI AdamI charA lie calA A rahA hai mArane tumheM, to abhI zarIra meM to charA lagA nahIM, lekina mana meM khabara pahale pahuMca jaaegii| mana kI jarUrata hI yahI hai ki kucha ghaTe, usake pahale khabara de de ki baco, yaha AdamI charA mArane A rahA hai| tuma jaba soe ho, taba koI churA mArane Ae, to mana soyA rahatA hai| zarIra to maujUda rahatA hai, lekina zarIra to aMdhA hai, zarIra ko to kucha dikhAI par3atA nahIM; koI A jAe, churA mAra jAe, to kucha patA na clegaa| tuma jAge ho to mana sajaga hai| mana to aisA hai jaise tumane havAI jahAja meM rADAra dekhA ho| jaise rADAra kA upakaraNa do sau mIla dUra taka dekhatA rahatA hai, kyoMki havAI jahAja kI gati itanI hai aba to, dhvani se bhI jyAdA gati hai, ki agara do sau mIla dUra taka dikhAI na
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________________ par3e to durghaTanA ho jaaegii| kyoMki eka kSaNa lagegA do sau mIla pAra karane meN| agara havAI jahAja ATha sau mIla prati ghaMTe kI raphtAra se jA rahA hai, to kitanI dera lagane vAlI hai? to agara havAI jahAja ke sAmane hI jaba koI cIja A jAe taba dikhAI par3e, taba to gae; taba to tumhAre dekhane aura bacAne ke bIca samaya na hogaa| to rADAra dekhatA hai do sau mIla, chaha sau mIla, hajAra mIla dUra - bAdala haiM, bijalI camaka rahI hai, pAnI gira rahA hai, kyA ho rahA hai? mana rADAra hai| vaha dekhatA hai, kauna churA mArane A rahA hai? vaha dekhatA hai, are, yaha vRkSa gira rahA hai, haTa jAo! vaha dekhatA hai, rAha para kAMTe par3e haiM, baca jaao| magara hai vaha zarIra kA sevaka, zarIra kI sevA meM rata hai| vaha zarIra kA hI vikasitatama rUpa hai| vaha zarIra kI hI zuddha UrjA hai| isalie jaba zarIra kaMpegA, taba to mana kaMpegA hii| kabhI-kabhI to zarIra nahIM bhI kaMpatA aura mana kaMpa jAtA hai| jaise ki tumase koI kaha de ki bhUkaMpa Ane vAlA hai, abhI AyA nahIM, taba isa zarIra ko to kucha patA nahIM cala rahA, lekina mana kaipa jAegA ki bhUkaMpa Ane vAlA hai| dekhA abhI, pekiMga meM kaI dinoM taka loga ghara ke bAhara taMbU DAle par3e rahe ! bhUkaMpa Ane vAlA hai, isakI saMbhAvanA se mana to kaMpa gayA, mana to ghabar3A gyaa| abhI yahAM koI jora se cillA de, 'Aga, Aga-inameM se kaI bhAga khar3e hoNge| Aga na bhI lagI ho, to bhI bhAga khar3e hoMge, kyoMki isakI suvidhA kahA milegI ki jAMca-par3atAla kareM? mana ne sunA Aga ki bhAgA mana / dekhA tumane, koI kaha de nIbU aura tatkSaNa lAra mana meM bahanI zurU ho jAtI hai! abhI nIbU zarIra meM DAlA nahIM, lekina nIbU zabda - aura bhItara lAra bahanI zurU ho gaI! mana taiyArI karane lagA ki nIbU karIba A rahA hai| zabda AyA hai to zAyada yathArtha bhI AtA hogaa| usa jhena guru ne hairigela ko kahA: bhAge tuma, lekina tumhArA bhAganA vyartha thA, kyoMki tuma bhUkaMpa meM hI bhAge jAte the| bhAgA maiM bhI, yadyapi tumheM dikhAI na par3A; maiM bhItara kI tarapha bhaagaa| maiMne tatkSaNa apanA tAdAtmya zarIra aura mana se alaga kara liyA ina para bhUkaMpa ghaTa sakatA hai, inase dostI abhI ThIka nhiiN| maiM tatkSaNa apane ko alaga kara liyaa| zarIra kaMpatA rahA, mana kaMpatA rahA- maiM bhItara baiThA dekhatA rhaa| bhUkaMpa uga jAtA to zarIra maratA, mana TUTatA, bikharatA; merA kucha hone vAlA nahIM thaa| nainaM chidati zastrANi - nahIM zastra use cheda pAte, nainaM dahati pAvakaH - nahIM Aga use jalA pAtI hai| 'kiyA aura anakiyA karma aura dvaMdva kisake kaba zAMta hue haiN| isa prakAra nizcita jAna kara isa saMsAra meM udAsIna, nirveda ho kara avratI aura tyAgaparAyaNa ho / ' tumane 'udAsIna' zabda sunA hogaa| lekina isakA ThIka-ThIka artha zAyada kabhI na samajhA hogA / loga to samajhate haiM. udAsIna kA saMbaMdha udAsa se hai| loga socate haiM : jo jiMdagI se udAsa ho gae ve udaasiin| udAsa se udAsIna kA kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| kyoMki jiMdagI meM jo udAsa ho gae haiM, ve to udAsIna ho hI nahIM skte| jiMdagI meM udAsa hone kA to itanA hI matalaba hai ki abhI unakI
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________________ buddhi jAgI nahIM, nahIM to udAsa hone ko bhI yahAM kucha nahIM hai| yahAM praphullita hone ko bhI kucha nahIM hai, udAsa hone ko bhI kucha nahIM hai| na yahAM pAnA hai na denA hai| hAni-lAbha na kachu! agara lAbha ho sakatA ho to tuma praphullita ho jAte ho, agara hAni hone lage to udAsa ho jAte ho; lekina yahAM to na hAni hai na laabh| isalie udAsIna kA udAsa zabda se koI artha nahIM; bhalA bhASA-zAstra kucha bhI kahate hoM, mujhe usakA prayojana nahIM hai| maiM tumheM kucha Atma zAstra kI bAta kaha rahA hUM, bhASA-zAstrI maiM hUM bhI nhiiN| udAsIna kA artha hai. apane bhItara jo AsIna; uda- aasiin| jo apane bhItara baiTha gayA! jo apane aMtaratama meM baiTha gayA! aura vahAM se dekhane lagA lIlA, vahAM sAkSI ho gyaa| aura sArA jagata bAhara kA, bhItara kA saba dRzya-mAtra, nATaka ho gyaa| jo ThIka se jAna letA hai-aSTAvakra kahate hai-vaha udAsIna ho jAtA hai| vaha phira yaha bhI nahIM kahatA ki mujhe zAMta honA hai| vaha kahatA hai na maiM zAMta ho sakatA hUM na azAMta maiM to draSTA huuN| yaha zAMta aura azAMta hone kI bAta bhI mana ke sAtha tAdAtmya ke kAraNa hai| vaha yaha bhI nahIM kahatA ki mujhe sukhI honA hai, kyoMki yaha sukhI honA aura dukhI honA, sAtha-sAtha calane vAlA hai| jo sukhI honA cAhatA hai, vaha dukhI bhI hogaa| donoM paMkha cAhie ur3ane ke lie| tuma akele sukhI honA cAhate ho tuma vyartha kI AkAMkSA kara rahe ho, jo kabhI saphala nahIM ho sktii| jitane tuma sukhI honA cAhoge, utane dukhI ho jaaoge| jisane jAna liyA, vaha to kahatA hai : aba mujhe na sukhI honA, na dukhI; na zAMta, na ashaaNt| loga Ate haiM mere paas| ve kahate haiM, dhyAna hameM sIkhanA- hai, kyoMki hama zAMta honA cAhate haiN| unheM dhyAna kA artha bhI patA nahIM hai| dhyAna kA artha hotA hai. aisI bhItara kI avasthA, jahAM na zAMti hai na ashaaNti| vahIM zAMti hai-jahAM zAMti bhI nhiiN| kyoMki jahAM taka zAMti hai, vahAM taka azAMta hone kA upAya hai| tuma baiThe ho to tumane dekhA hogA, kabhI-kabhI ghara meM koI AdamI dhyAna meM utsuka ho jAtA hai to vaha zAMta ho kara baiThA hai| kisI bacce ne kilakArI mAra dI, vaha azAMta ho gyaa| yaha bhI koI zAMti huI? ki Apa bar3e dhyAna-maMdira meM baiThe haiM, dhyAna kara rahe haiM aura patnI ne eka pyAlI girA dI aura aise mauke para patnI jarUra girA degI aura Apa baukhalA gae ki azAMti ho gaI ki par3osI ne reDiyo calA diyA aura Apa azAMta ho gae; ki par3osI ke yahAM bar3e adhArmika haiM, pApI haiM, narka jAeMge, dhyAna bhraSTa kara diyA! jo bhraSTa ho jAe, vaha dhyAna nhiiN| jisase tuma DAMvADola ho jAo vaha dhyAna nhiiN| pyAliyoM ke TUTane se, reDiyo ke cala par3ane se, bacce ke haMsane se jo bikhara jAtA ho, vaha hai hI nhiiN| tuma kisI taraha apane ko samhAla-samhAla kara baiThe the, magara vaha samhAla kara baiThA honA sirpha niyaMtraNa thA, koI gaharA anubhava nahIM thaa| the to tuma bilakula karIba sataha ke zAyada sira DubA liyA thA; lekina the bilakula sataha ke kriib| jarA-sI coTa bAhara se AyI ki tuma astavyasta ho gye|
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________________ dhyAna na to zAMti hai na ashaaNti| dhyAna to vaisI citta kI sAkSI-dazA hai, jahAM tuma zAMti ko uThate dekhate aura Asakta nahIM hote; jahAM tuma azAMti ko uThate dekhate aura vikSubdha nahIM hote| tuma kahate, yaha to mana kA khela hai, calatA rahegA, ye to sAgara kI lahareM haiM, calatI raheMgI, inase kyA lenA-denA hai! tuma dUra baiThe udAsIna dekhate rhte| evaM jJAtveha nirvedAbhrava.......! 'nirveda' zabda kA ThIka vahI artha hai, jo udAsIna kaa| smjho| nirveda kA artha hotA hai : aisI dazA, jahAM koI bhAva-taraMga se tumhArA saMbaMdha na raha jaae| veda kA artha hotA hai : bhaav-trNg| veda kA artha hotA hai : jnyaan-trNg| isalie to hama hiMduoM ke zAstra ko veda kahate haiN| isalie to hama dukha ko vedanA kahate haiM, bhAva-taraMga, pIr3A ghera letii| nirveda kA artha hai. jahAM na to jJAna kI taraMga raha jAe, na bhAva kI taraMga raha jaae| kyoMki jJAna kI taraMga uThatI hai mastiSka meM aura bhAva kI taraMga uThatI hai hRdaya meM aura tuma donoM ke pAra jaba baiTha jAo; na vahAM bhAva uThe na jJAna uThe; na to tumheM lage ki kucha maiM jAnane vAlA hUM na tumheM lage ki maiM kucha bhAvane vAlA hUM jahAM jJAna aura bhAva donoM se dUra khar3e tuma mAtra sAkSI raha jAo; kisI taraMga se tumhArA koI tAdAkya na raha jaae| ye do hI taraMgeM haiM tumhAre bhItara, inase jaba tuma tIsare ho jAo-toM nirved| vahI udAsIna kA artha hai| jo nirveda ho gayA, vahI udAsIna ho gyaa| __ 'aisA nizcita jAna kara saMsAra meM udAsIna ho kara avratI aura tyAgaparAyaNa ho|' bar3I bahumUlya bAta Age AtI hai avratI! tuma cauMkoge, kyoMki tuma to kahate ho : vratI! AdamI ko vratI honA cAhie! hama kahate haiM : phalAM AdamI bar3A tyAgI-vratI hai! jaba kisI kA hameM bar3A sammAna karanA hotA hai to hama kahate haiM. mahAna tyAgI, vratI! lekina aSTAvakra kaha rahe haiM, avrtii| aSTAvakra nizcita hI adabhuta krAMtikArI vyakti haiN| ve kaha rahe haiM : jisane vrata liyA, vaha to dhokhe meM par3a jaaegaa| kyoMki vrata to jabardastI hai| vrata kA artha to hai htth| vrata kA artha to hai aagrh| avratI kA artha hai : jisakA koI Agraha nahIM; jisakI koI maMsA nahIM; jo nahIM kahatA ki aisA hI ho| samajho, eka AdamI cora hai| vaha vrata le letA hai maMdira meM jA kara ki aba maiM corI nahIM kruuNgaa| kyA ghaTegA isake bhItara? yaha AdamI cora hai| vrata lene se hI to corI nahIM ruka sakatI hai| nahIM to duniyA meM sabhI vrata le lete aura saMta ho jaate| isane maMdira meM jA kara vrata liyA ki maiM corI nahIM kruuNgaa| kisI mahAtmA ke caraNoM meM sira jhukA kara kahA ki AzIrvAda deM ki merA vrata pUrA ho ki maiM corI nahIM kruuNgaa| samUha samAja ke samakSa isane ghoSaNA kI ki aba maiM corI nahIM kruuNgaa| yaha kara kyA rahA hai? yaha kara yaha rahA hai ki yaha corI ke khilApha apane ahaMkAra ko khar3A kara rahA hai, yaha kahatA hai aba maMdira meM samUha ke samakSa, hajAra AdamiyoM ke sAmane kaha diyA, aba agara corI kI to vaha to yUke ko nigalanA hogaa| loga kyA kaheMge ki are, patita ho gae! aura jaba koI vrata kA niyama letA hai, to samAja usameM phUla-mAlAeM usake gale meM DAlatA, usakA julUsa nikAlatA, akhabAroM meM phoTo chApatA, mahAtmA AzIrvAda dete, mahAtmA gavAha banate, samAja
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________________ cAroM tarapha se prazaMsA ke phUla barasAne lgtaa| vratI ko itanI prazaMsA milatI hai ki ahaMkAra majabUta hotA hai| aba usake sAmane ar3acana aaegii| agara vaha corI karane jAe to itanA ahaMkAra khone kI himmata honI caahie| to jitanA vratI ko sammAna diyA jAtA hai, utanA hI usakA ahaMkAra paripuSTa ho jAtA hai| aura aba ahaMkAra ko lar3AtA hai vaha apanI purAnI Adata ke khilaaph| itanA hI kula artha hai vratI kaa| vratI meM kucha aura mAmalA nahIM hai| aba tuma soco, corI se chUTe aura ahaMkAra meM phaMse yaha kucha mukti na huI isase corI behatara thii| isase corI burI nahIM thii| yaha to kueM se bace aura khAI meM gire! aura isase bhI corI naSTa nahIM ho jAegI, corI bhItara-bhItara sulagegI; ahaMkAra Upara-Upara patAkA phaharAegA, corI bhItara-bhItara sulgegii| aura bhItara satata eka saMgharSa hogA, caubIsa ghaMTe eka lar3AI clegii| aba samajha lo ki lAkha rupaye isa AdamI ko rAste ke kinAre par3e mila jAeM, aba isako bar3I muzkila ho jAegI ki kyA karUM. aba yaha lAkha bacAUM ki ahaMkAra bacAUM? eka hAtha bar3hAkA ki uThA lUM eka hAtha rokegA ki are, yaha kyA kara rahe ho? isI ko samAja aMtaHkaraNa kahatA hai, kaoNnaziensa kahatA hai| kaoNnaziensa bar3I samAja kI gaharI tarakIba hai| vaha tumheM eka taraha kA ahaMkAra de detA hai, jisako tuma aMtaHkaraNa kahate ho| tumase bacapana se kahA gayA hai ki tuma bar3e kulIna ho bar3e ghara meM paidA hue hiMdU musalamAna, IsAI! khayAla rakhanA-apanI ijjata kA, apane parivAra kA, apane vaMza kA, apane kula kA, apane dharma kA, apane rASTra kA! smaraNa rakhanA, tuma kauna ho! tuma koI sAdhAraNa puruSa nahIM ho| tuma hiMdU ho, ki musalamAna ho, ki IsAI ho! bAkI saba sAdhAraNa haiN| mullA jaba marane lagA to logoM ne usakI prArthanA sunI vaha kaha rahA thA paramAtmA se ki he prabhu, maiMne corI kI hai bahuta bAra, yaha saca hai; aura maiM kaI bAra acaurya ke vrata se patita huA huuN| maiMne dUsaroM kI striyoM kI tarapha burI najara se dekhA hai, yaha bhI saca hai; maiM vyabhicArI huuN| aura maiMne koI bar3I bar3I coriyAM hI kI hoM, yaha bhI nahIM hai, maiMne murgiyAM taka par3osiyoM kI curA lI haiN| aura maiM saba tarapha se beImAna hUM jhUThA huuN| jhUTha merI Adata meM zumAra ho gaI hai saca mujhase bolA nahIM gyaa| maiM duSTa bhI huuN| choTI-moTI bAta para jhagar3A mujhe bilakula AsAna hai, mArapITa AsAna hai| itanA hI nahIM, maiMne eka AdamI kI hatyA bhI kara dI hai| aura hatyA ke vicAra to mere mana meM sadA uThate rahe haiN| yaha saba hai; lekina eka bAta tumase kahanA cAhatA hUM ki maiMne saba kucha kiyA ho, lekina apanA dharma kabhI nahIM khoyA! aba yaha bar3e maje kI bAta hai! aba yaha dharma kyA hai? maiMne apanA 'dIna' kabhI nahIM khoyA, rahA sadA musalamAna hI! usa saMbaMdha meM maiMne kabhI aisA nahIM ki IsAI ho gayA, ki hiMdU ho gayA-rahA sadA musalamAna hI! dharma maiMne kabhI nahIM khoyA! itanI bAta maiM jarUra tujhase kahUMgA yaha tU yAda rakhanA! lAkha bure kAma kara lie hoM, lekina dharma kabhI nahIM khoyA! aba loga dharma bacA rahe haiN| dharma bhI ahaMkAra kA hissA ho jAtA hai| kula, pratiSThA, mAna mryaadaa.| aura tuma thor3A soco, tumane kasama le lI ki corI nahIM kareMge aura cora kA tumhArA mana hai,
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________________ aura yaha ahaMkAra hai; aba ina donoM meM saMgharSa calegA; eka yuddha tumhAre bhItara paidA hogA, mahAbhArata tumhAre bhItara clegaa| tuma A gae joza-kharoza meM, suna rahe the kisI sAdhu-saMta kI bAta, usane tumako ghabar3A diyA ki agara kAma-vAsanA rahI to narka meM saDoge / aura usane khUba spaSTa citra khIMce, raMgIna, zrI DAyameMzanala, ki vahAM Aga kI lapaTeM haiM, aura kar3Ahe jala rahe haiM tela ke, aura una kar3AhoM meM DAle jAoge, maroge bhI nahIM aura seMke bhI jAoge aura ubAle bhI jAoge, aura maroge bhI nahIM, aura kIr3e tumhAre zarIra meM cheda banA-banA kara daur3eMge, aura maroge bhI nahIM aura chidra - chidra ho jAoge / usane khUba tasvIra khIMcI raMgIna aura tumheM bilakula ghabar3A diyA / usa ghabar3AhaTa ke bhAvAveza ke kSaNa meM tuma khar3e ho gae, tumane kahA. maiM brahmacarya kI pratijJA letA hUM / aba mare ! ghara taka lauTate-lauTate jaba zAMta ho jAoge thor3e, udvignatA thor3A baiThegI, maMdira kI havA se thor3e dUra jAoge aura tumheM yAda AegA. yaha kyA kara baiThe ? aba phAMsI lagI! vratI ho gae ! aura logoM ne tAliyAM bajA diiN| aura loga to koI bhI buddha bana rahA ho to tAlI bajAte haiN| logoM kI tAliyoM se bar3e sAvadhAna rahanA / eka adabhuta phakIra the. mahAtmA bhgvaandiin| ve kabhI-kabhI mere pAsa rukate the| merI to choTI umra thI, lekina unakA mujhase bar3A lagAMva thaa| ve kabhI mere gAMva se gujarate to mere pAsa jarUra rukte| unakI eka khUbI thI jaba ve bolate, agara koI tAlI bajA de to bar3e nArAja ho jaate| ve uTha kara hI khar3e ho jAte ki aba maiM bolUMgA hI nahIM, kyoM tAlI bajAI ? maiMne unase kahA ki loga tAlI bajA rahe haiM, Apa itane nArAja hote haiM? ve kahate loga tAlI hI taba bajAte haiM, jaba koI AdamI buddhapana karatA hai| maiMne jarUra koI galatI kI hogii| pahalI to bAta, ina buddhaoM ko agara maiM saca bAta kahUM to samajha meM na AegI, galata kahUM tabhI samajha meM AtI hai aura tabhI ye tAlI bajAte haiN| tAlI bajAI ki maiM tatkAla samajha jAtA hUM ki ho gaI koI galatI / ve ThIka kahate haiN| jaisA AdamI hai usako dekha kara aisA hI lagatA hai| AdamI to usI bAta para tAlI bajAtA hai jo usako jaMcatI hai| jaba tuma kisI ke brahmacarya ke vrata lene para tAlI bajAte ho, to matalaba kyA hai? tuma yaha kaha rahe ho ki lenA to hama bhI cAhate haiM, lekina abhI nahIM / tumane himmata kI, bar3A acchA; tuma Age bar3he, bar3A acchaa| tuma zahIda ho rahe ho, bar3A acchA, jAo / hamArI zubhakAmanAeM tumhAre sAtha haiN| magara yahI loga jinhoMne tAlI bajAI, aba najara rkheNge| aba ve dekheMge ki kahIM sinemA meM to nahIM baiThe ho brahmacarya kA vrata le kara ? yahAM hoTala meM baiThe kyA kara rahe, klaba meM kyA kara rahe ? yaha kisakI strI ke sAtha cale jA rahe ? mere eka saMnyAsI ne saMnyAsa liyA - eka yuvaka ne| vaha kucha dina bAda mere pAsa AyA ki merI patnI ko bhI saMnyAsa de do| to maiMne kahA, mAmalA kyA hai? usane kahA ki maiM garIba AdamI hUM aba maiM ye gerue vastra pahana kara apanI patnI ke sAtha kahIM jAtA hUM to loga roka lete haiM ki kisakI patnI hai? saMnyAsI ! loga bhalA dhArmika na hoM, lekina dUsare ko to dhArmika banAne meM utsuka rahate hI haiM !
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________________ 'yaha kisakI patnI ko le kara jA rahe ho?' jhagar3A-jhAMsA khar3A karate haiN| isako bhI Apa saMnyAsa de deN| maiMne usako saMnyAsa de diyaa| vaha ATha dina bAda phira AyA ki mere beTe ko / kyoMki loga kahate haiM ki bAbA jI, kisakA baccA bhagAe le jA rahe ho? yaha geruA to khataranAka hai! kyoMki logoM kI apekSAeM haiN| loga tAlI bajA deMge, phUla-mAlA pahanA deMge - unakI phUla-mAlA meM chipI phAMsI ko mata bhUla jaanaa| unhoMne gardana para hAtha rakha liyA, aba ve kaheMge. kahAM jA rahe ho? kyA kara rahe ho? kaise uThate? kaise baiThate? kisase bAta karate? kitanI dera sote ? brahmamuhUrta meM uThate ki nahIM? aba ve saba tarapha tumhArI jAMca rkheNge| unhoMne jo tAlI bajAI thI usakA badalA leNge| aura tuma mare tuma muzkila meM par3e, kyoMki kAmavAsanA kasama khAne se miTatI hotI, itanI AsAna bAta hotI, to sArI duniyA kAmavAsanA ke bAhara ho gayI hotii| aba yaha brahmacarya khIMcegA aura yaha kAmavAsanA khIMcegI aura ina donoM ke bIca tuma pisoge| do pATana ke bIca aba tumhArI burI taraha marammata hogI bAra-bAra tuma vAsanA meM giroge aura bAra-bAra tuma apane ko samhAla kara bAhara nikAloge aura bAra-bAra giroge| tumhArA jo aba taka thor3A-bahuta Atma - gaurava thA vaha bhI naSTa ho jaaegaa| tuma pAoge : mujha jaisA pApI koI bhI nahIM! maMdira meM jA kara loga sirpha yahI samajha kara lauTate haiM ki hama jaisA pApI koI bhI nahIM / aSTAvakra kahate haiM. 'avratI! tyAgaparAyaNa!' yahI maiM bhI tumase kahatA hUM / tumhArA bodha hI tumhArA vrata ho usase jyAdA vrata kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| tumheM samajha meM A gaI hai bAta, basa kAphI hai| isake lie samAja kI svIkRti aura samAdara kI koI bhI jarUrata nahIM hai| tuma samajha gae, tumheM brahmacarya meM rasa Ane lagA bilakula ThIka hai, aba vrata kI kyA jarUrata hai? vrata to itanA hI batAtA hai ki rasa abhI AyA nahIM thA, sirpha lobha paidA huA thaa| brahmacarya kA lobha paidA huA to vrt| agara samajha meM hI A gayA, to tuma aisI to kabhI kasama nahIM khAte ki maiM kasama khAtA hUM ki sadA do aura do cAra hI jodduugaa| tuma jAnate ho ki do aura do cAra hote haiM, isameM jor3anA kyA hai, kasama kyA khAnI hai? aura agara tuma jA kara kisI maMdira-masjida meM kasama khAo ki he sadaguru, mujhe AzIrvAda deM, aba se maiM do aura do cAra hI joDUgA, to sApha hai ki tuma vikSipta ho| aura jo tumheM AzIrvAda de, vaha tumase bhI Age hai vikSiptatA meN| tumhArA dimAga kharAba hai| tumheM zaka hai ki tuma do aura do pAMca jor3oge / usa zaka se lar3ane ke lie tuma iMtajAma kara rahe ho pahale se / tumheM apanI bhItarI avasthA kA patA hai ki jaba maiM joDUgA to do aura do pAMca hoNge| 'nahIM-nahIM, kasama khA lo, pahale se iMtajAma kara lo !' vaha bhItara to tuma jAnate hI ho ki do aura do pAMca hone vAle haiM, isalie kasama khA kara iMtajAma kara lo, rukAvaTa DAla do ki do aura do cAra hoN| lekina yaha jJAna nahIM hai,
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________________ yaha bodha nahIM hai-yaha lobha hai| lobhI vratI hotA hai; bodha ko upalabdha vyakti avratI hotA hai| isakA yaha artha nahIM ki usake jIvana meM krAMti nahIM hotI-usI ke jIvana meM krAMti hotI hai! vrata ke kAraNa kahIM krAMtiyA huI haiM? agara vrata ke kAraNa krAMti ho sake to isakA artha huA ki Upara se thopane se jabardastI Agraha apane Upara Aropita kara lene se AtmA badala jAegI-yaha to nahIM ho sktaa| tuma vrata ke kAraNa sainika to ho sakate ho, saMnyAsI nahIM ho skte| tuma vrata ke kAraNa eka abhyAsa kara le sakate ho, eka haTha kara le sakate ho aura eka khAsa DhaMga meM calane kI Adata banA le sakate ho, lekina usase tumhAre jIvana meM sUryodaya na hogaa| sUryodaya to avratI kA hotA hai| avratI kA artha itanA hI hai ki jo tumheM dikhAI par3atA hai, vaha karanA; lekina isakI ghoSaNA kyA karanI? isake lie kisI kI svIkRti kyA lenI? jo tumheM samajha meM A gayA hai, agara ThIka se A gayA hai, to apane-Apa tumhAre AMcaraNa meM AnA zurU ho jaaegaa| samajha AMcaraNa meM rUpAMtarita hotI hI hai; usase anyathA na huA hai na ho sakatA hai| isalie vrata kI kahAM jarUrata hai? mere pAsa koI AtA hai ki mujhe vrata de deM brahmacarya kA, maiM kahatA hUM. pAgalapana mata krnaa| maiM tumhAre kisI pAgalapana meM sammilita nahIM ho sakatA huuN| tumheM agara brahmacarya meM rasa Ane lagA hai-baho usa tarapha, magara vrata nahIM! koI mujhase kahatA hai ki Apa mujhe kasama dilavA deM ki maiM sadA dhyAna karUM, kabhI phlU n| maiM tumheM yaha kasama tumheM agara samajha A gaI, to tuma dhyAna kroge| aura agara dhyAna meM rasa AegA to vahI rasa niyama bnegaa| Aja karoge aura kala nahIM karoge, to kala tuma pAoge. kucha cUkA, kucha khoyA, kucha gaMvAyA, dina aise hI gayA! eka taMdrA chAI rhii| to parasoM tuma phira kroge| kara-karake tuma jAnoge ki jaba tuma karate ho to eka ujjvalatA, eka pavitratA, eka zucitA kA janma hotA hai! karane se patA calegA ki tuma tAje-tAje rahate, eka svacchatA, jaise sadya:snAta! caubIsa ghaMTe jIvana kI saba ulajhanoM ke bIca bhI tuma gaira-ulajhe bane rhte| upadrava haiM, calate rahate haiM; kAma- dhAma hai, vyavasAya hai, ApAdhApI hai-lekina bhItara kahIM koI sUtra jur3A rahatA aMtarAtmA se| aura vahAM saba zAMta hai, na koI ApAdhApI hai, na koI vyavasAya, na koI updrv| kara-karake tumheM patA calegA ki agara eka dina bhojana na karo to utanI hAni nahIM hai, jitanI dhyAna na karane se| eka dina agara snAna na karo to cala jaaegaa| kyoMki bhojana zarIra kA kRtya hai; dhyAna AtmA kaa| dhyAna AtmA kA bhojana hai| agara aisA kisI dina ho ki Aja samaya jyAdA nahIM hai, yA to bhojana karanA choDUM yA dhyAna kara lUM to tuma dhyAna kroge| magara vrata ke kAraNa nhiiN| kyoMki vrata ke kAraNa kiyA to dhokhA hogaa| maiM rAjasthAna jAtA thA aksara, to rAha meM eka jagaha mujhe Trena badalanI par3atI thI; vahAM koI do-tIna ghaMTe rukanA pdd'taa| sAMjha kA vakta hotA to kucha musalamAna mitroM ko maiM dekhatA ki ve sTezana para apanA kapar3A bichA kara namAja par3ha rahe haiN| maiM ghUmatA rahatA, kyoMki do-tIna ghaMTe vahAM Trena khar3I rahatI to pleTaphArma para ghUmatA rhtaa| magara jo namAja par3ha rahe haiM, ve bIca-bIca meM lauTakara dekhate jAte
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________________ ki Trena kahIM chUTa to nahIM gaI! eka sajjana mere hI Dibbe meM eka bAra yAtrA kara rahe the, to rAste meM unase pahacAna bhI ho gii| ve maulavI the, dharmaguru the| jaba ve bhI yahI karane lage usa sTezana para maiMne dekhA ki unhoMne bhI bichA liyA kapar3A aura apanI namAja kara rahe haiM. lekina bIca-bIca meM dekhate jAte hai| to maiM unake pIche gayA, maiMne unakA sira pakar3a kara usa tarapha kara diyaa| aba ve namAja meM the to kucha bola bhI na sake, nArAja to bahuta hue bhanabhanA ge| ve uThe to ekadama nArAja ho gae ki yaha kyA mAmalA hai, Apane merA sira kyoM mor3A? maiMne kahA ki yA to isa tarapha kara lo, kyoMki Trena aura paramAtmA donoM ko sAtha-sAtha yAda na kara skoge| agara Trena kI yAda karanI hai to chor3o yaha bakavAsa, kAhe ke lie namAja, kauna kaha rahA hai? maiMne to nahIM kahA! agara paramAtmA ko yAda karanA hai to bhUlo isa Trena ko kama se kama AdhA ghar3I ke lie; chUTa jAegI, bahuta se bahuta itanA hI hogA na paramAtmA raha gayA hAtha meM aura Trena chUTa gaI to kyA khAka chUTA? kucha bhI nahIM chUTA-dUsarI Trena AtI hai| agara paramAtmA kI yAda meM itanA bhI nahIM bhUla pAte.. to maiMne unase sUphiyoM kI eka kahAnI khii| eka sUphI namAja par3ha rahA thA aura eka aurata bhAgI huI nikalI usako dhakkA detI huI usake kapar3e para paira DAlatI huii| vaha bar3A nArAja huA bar3A nArAja huA, lekina namAja meM thA to bola nahIM skaa| jaldI usane namAja pUrI kI ki isakA pIchA kareM, kaisI badatamIja aurata, itanA bhI dhyAna nahIM! lekina jaba vaha namAja karake uThA to vaha aurata vApisa A rahI thI, to usane use pkdd'aa| usane kahA ki suna badatamIja aurata! tujhe itanA bhI patA nahIM ki koI dhyAna kara rahA hai, namAja kara rahA hai, prArthanA kara rahA hai? to isa taraha, isa taraha salUka karanA cAhie ki tU mujhe dhakkA detI mere kapar3e para paira rakhatI nikala gaI? usane kahA. kSamA kareM, mujhe yAda bhI nhiiN| maiM apane premI se milane jAtI thii| mujhe yAda bhI nahIM ki Apa kahAM baiThe the, kahA namAja par3ha rahe the, kauna namAja par3ha rahA thA, kauna nahIM par3ha rahA thA, mujhe yAda nhiiN| varSoM bAda merA premI AtA thA, maiM use lene gAMva ke bAhara davAra para jAtI thii| kSamA kareM! lekina eka bAta Apase pUchatI hUM : maiM apane premI se milane jAtI thI- kSaNabhaMgura premI, Apa apane premI se milane gae the, Apako, mere paira kapar3e para par3a gae, merA dhakkA lagA, isakA samajha meM A gayA? Apa paramAtmA se mila rahe the? taba to merI prArthanA Apase behatara hai| mAnA ki maiM kisI ke zarIra ke moha meM par3I hUM aura yaha moha ThIka nahIM, lekina kama se kama hai to! aura mAnA ki tuma paramAtmA ke moha meM par3e ho, magara hai kahAM? kahate haiM, usa sUphI ke jIvana meM krAMti ho gaI isa bAta se| usane kahA, aba namAja tabhI par3eMge jaba prema hogA, anyathA kyA sAra hai? vrata se nahIM-bodha se| vrata se nahIM-prema se| vrata se nahIM, niyama se nahIM, kisI bAharI anuzAsana se nahIM-aMtarabhAva se!
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________________ 'avratI aura tyAgaparAyaNa ho!' bar3I ulTI bAta, bar3A kaMTrADikyAna, bar3A virodhAbhAsa hai| kahate haiM ki tU vrata to mata le, lekina terA bodha hI tere jIvana meM tyAga bana jAe, bs| tyAga ko lAnA na par3e, bodha ke pIche chAyA kI taraha aae| evaM jJAtveha niveMdAdabhava tyaagprouvrtii| ise yAda rkhnaa| yahI mere saMnyAsa kA sUtra bhI hai| avratI tyAgapara: bhv| tyAgI bano-tyAga kI kasama khA kara nhiiN| tyAgI bano-tyAgI bananA cAhie, aise nirNaya aura Agraha se nhiiN| tyAgI bano-isalie nahIM ki tyAgI ko sammAna, samAdara, pratiSThA milatI hai| tyAgI bano-avrata, binA kisI lobha ke, binA kisI niyama ke, binA kisI Agraha ke anAgraha- bhAva se| tyAgI bano-bodha se| kacarA, kacarA dikhAI par3e to chUTa jaaegaa| kacare ko chor3ane kI kasama nahIM lenI hai| kacarA, kacarA dikhAI par3e, isakI ceSTA karanI hai| jJAna tyAga hai| ve hI chor3a pAte haiM jo jAgate haiM aura dekhate haiN| 'he priya, lokavyavahAra, utpatti aura vinAza ko dekha kara kisI bhAgyazAlI kI hI jIne kI kAmanA, bhogane kI vAsanA aura jJAna kI icchA zAMta huI hai|' kisI bhAgyazAlI kI hI! lokavyavahAra ko dekha kara-ThIka se dekha kara! jIvana meM jo cala rahA hai cAroM tarapha, usakA ThIka se avalokana kro| zAstra meM mata jAo khojne| zAstra meM niyama mileMge aura zAstra se vrata aaegaa| khojo jIvana meM vahAM se bodha milegA aura bodha kA koI vrata nahIM hai| bodha paryApta hai| use vrata ke sahAre kI jarUrata nahIM hai| vrata to aMdhe ke hAtha kI lakar3I hai; aura bodha, AMkha vAle AdamI kI AMkha hai| AMkha vAle AdamI ko lakar3I nahIM caahie| vrata to baisAkhI hai lUle laMgar3e kii| jisako bodha nahIM hai, usake lie vrata cAhie; vaha baisAkhI ke sahAre calatA hai| lekina jisake aMga aura deha svastha haiM, usake lie baisAkhI kI koI jarUrata nahIM hotii| jisake aMga svastha haiM, vaha to apane paira se calatA hai| vrata dUsare se udhAra milate haiM-bodha apanA kasyApi tAta dhanyasya lokcessttaavloknaat| jIvitecchA bubhukSA ca bubhutsopazamaM gtaa|| he priya, lokavyavahAra ko ThIka se avalokana karake-lokaceSTA avalokanAt-ThIka se jAga kara, jIvana meM jo ho rahA hai, use dekho| koI paidA ho rahA, koI mara rahA-jor3o! isa hisAba ko jor3o ki jo paidA hotA, mrtaa| kisI ke pAsa dInatA hai, daridratA hai-vaha dukhI hai| dhanI ko dekho, dhana hai, saba kucha hai-aura dukhI hai| yahAM aisA lagatA hai, sukhI hone kA kisI ko koI upAya nhiiN| viphala ro rahA hai, saphala ro rahA hai| kurUpa ro rahA hai, suMdara ro rahA hai| bImAra ro rahA hai, svastha ro rahA hai| yahAM jaise rudana hI, hAhAkAra macA hai|
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________________ 'jIvana ke ThIka se avalokana se kisI bhAgyazAlI ko hI jIne kI kAmanA, bhogane kI vAsanA aura jJAna kI icchA zAMta huI hai| tIna bAteM kaha rahe haiM. jIne kI kAmanA, jIvitecchA! jIvana ko dekho to, phira kAmanA karo jIne kii| yahAM jIvana meM rakhA kyA hai, dharA kyA hai? jIvana ko gaura se to dekho ! isakI AkAMkSA karane yogya hai? to loga yaha to dekhate hI nahIM, loga isa jIvana ko to dekhate hI nahIM gaura se, paraloka kI AkAMkSA karane lagate haiN| to vrata paidA hotA hai| isa loka ko hI gaura se dekho, to jIvitecchA vilIna ho jAtI hai, jIvana kI AkAMkSA nahIM raha jaatii| aura jisakI jIvana kI AkAMkSA na rahI, usakA paraloka hai| jisake jIvana kI AkAMkSA na rahI, usakA parama jIvana hai| aba tuma pharka samajhanA / pharka bahuta bArIka hai| jisa AdamI ne isa jIvana kI vyarthatA ko dekhA aura pahacAnA, vaha kisI jIvana kI bhI AkAMkSA nahIM krtaa| usakI AkAMkSA hI vilIna ho jAtI hai, dekha kara hI vilIna ho jAtI hai| maiMne sunA hai, eka yuvaka saMnyAsI gAMva se gujaratA thaa| vaha bacapana se hI saMnyAsI ho gayA thaa| pitA mara gae, mAM mara gaI, koI aura pAlane vAlA na thaa| gAMva ke eka ke saMnyAsI ne use pAlA / phira kA saMnyAsI himAlaya calA gayA, to vaha baccA bhI usake sAtha himAlaya calA gyaa| vaha himAlaya meM hI bar3A huaa| aba kA saMnyAsI mara gayA thA to vaha vApisa duniyA meM lauTa rahA thaa| yuvA thA, svastha thaa| vaha pahale hI gAMva meM AyA, to usane dekhA eka bArAta jA rahI hai| usane kabhI bArAta nahIM dekhI thii| baiDa-bAjA baja rahA thaa| eka yuvaka ghor3e para savAra hai, bar3e loga pIche jA rahe haiN| usane pUchA, yaha kyA hai? to kisI ne samajhAyA ki bArAta hai| usane pUchA, bArAta yAnI kyA? to kisI ne samajhAyA ki bhaI tumheM itanA bhI bodha nahIM hai| yaha jo ghor3e para baiThA hai, yaha dUlhA hai, isakA vivAha hone vAlA eka lar3akI se / usane kahA, phira kyA hogA? to kisI ne usako pakar3a kara pAsa le gayA ki tU yahAM A, tujhe kucha bhI patA nhiiN| usane use saba samajhAyA ki phira kyA hogA- zAdI hogI inakI, bhoga kareMge eka-dUsare kA, phira inakA baccA paidA hogaa| bArAta to nikala gii| saMnyAsI, rAta ho gaI thI, to gAMva ke bAhara jA kara kueM ke pATa para so rahA, garmI ke dina the| sapanA usane dekhA ki ghor3e para savAra hai, baiMDa-bAje baja rahe haiM, bArAta cala rahI, phira usakI zAdI ho gaI, phira vaha apanI patnI ke sAtha so rahA hai| aura patnI ne usase kahA ki jarA sarako, mujhe bhI to jagaha do| vaha jarA sarakA ki kueM meM gira gyaa| sArA gAMva ikaTThA ho gyaa| hairAnI to gAMva ko aura isalie huI ki vaha kueM meM par3A par3A khUba khilakhilA kara haMsa rahA hai| logoM ne pUchA : are bhaI haMsate kyoM ho? usane kahA, haMse nahIM to kyA kareM? mujhe nikAlo to maiM apanI kathA khuuN| use nikaalaa| logoM ne pUchA haMsate kyoM ho? kueM meM giranA, to mauta ho jAe - aura tuma haMsate ho? usane kahA, haMsane kI bAta ho gii| sapane kI strI ne kueM meM girA diyA, asalI strI kyA na karatI hogI logoM ke sAtha !
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________________ usane kahA : bace! sapane ke anubhava ne jagA diyaa| aba koI bArAta nahIM, aba yaha ghor3e-vor3e para car3hanA apane se hone vAlA nhiiN| itanA kAphI hai anubhv| sapane kI jhUThI strI ne aisA dhakkA diyA ki bhale-caMge soe, maiM jiMdagI bhara se sotA A rahA hUM kuoM para kabhI nahIM giraa| isa strI ne kahA, jarA srko..| asalI striyAM kyA na karatI hoMgI? agara bodha ho to sapanA bhI jagA detA hai| agara bodha na ho to jIvana bhI aisA hI bIta jAtA hai tuma usakA hisAba bhI nahIM lagA paate| lokaceSTA avloknaat.......| loka kI ceSTAoM kA avalokana! kasya dhanyasya api........| aura koI dhanyabhAgI hI jIvana kI ceSTAoM kA avalokana karatA hai| adhika loga to zAstroM meM khojate use, jo cAroM tarapha barasa rahA hai; jo cAroM tarapha maujUda hai, use zabdoM meM khojate; jo hara ghar3I maujUda hai, jo kahIM se bhI pakar3A jA sakatA hai sUtra, usake lie vyartha ke tarka aura siddhAMta aura vivAda meM par3ate haiN| kasya dhanyasya api.......| isalie aSTAvakra kahate haiM : koI dhanyabhAgI kabhI jIvana kA ThIka avalokana karake..| jIvitecchA bubhukSA ca bubhutsopazamaM gtaaH|| tIna cIjoM se mukta ho jAtA hai-jIne kI icchA se, bhogane kI icchA se aura jAnane kI icchA se| tuma cakita hooge : jAnane kI icchA bhI-ki maiM aura jyAdA jAna lUM aura jyAdA jAna lUM paMDita ho jAUM, mahApaMDita ho jAUM, saba kucha jAna lU~ jo duniyA meM hai-vaha bhI baMdhana kA kAraNa hai| icchA-mAtra baMdhana kA kAraNa hai| aura tIna hI icchAeM haiN| yA to AdamI jIvana kI icchA se bharA rahatA hai to dhana kamAtA hai, pada kI pratiSThA khojatA hai| yA bhogane kI vAsanA se bharatA hai, to zarAba pItA hai, vezyAgamana karatA hai, bhAgatA-phiratA bhogne| aura tIsare taraha ke loga haiM jo jJAna kI AkAMkSA karate haiN| ve zAstrAdhyayana, tarka ko nikhArate haiM, siddhAtoM para dhAra dharate haiM, vAda-vivAda meM par3e rahate haiN| ye tIna taraha ke sAdhAraNa loga haiN| cauthA vyakti vaha hai-dhanyabhAgI, jisakI koI AkAMkSA nahIM; jo na bhoganA cAhatA, na jAnanA cAhatA, na jInA cAhatA; jo kahatA hai : dekha liyA saba, isameM kucha bhI nahIM hai| 'yaha saba anitya hai, tInoM tApoM se dUSita hai, sArahIna hai, niMdita hai, tyAjya hai-aisA nizcaya kara vaha zAMti ko prApta hotA hai|' ye tInoM daur3e sirpha tIna tApa le AtI haiN| anitya sarvameveda tApatritaya duussitm| asAra niMdita heyamiti nizcitya shaamyti| idam sarvam anityam......|
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________________ yaha saba anitya hai, asAra hai-aisA bodha! avalokana se yAda rakhanA! zAstra se nahIM, udhAra nahIM-avalokana se| apanI hI AMkha ke anubhava se| Adhi-daivika, Adhi- bhautika, AdhyAtmika- tIna taraha ke dukh| zarIra kA dukha, mana kA dukha, AtmA kA dukh| basa, itanA hI milatA hai isa jagata meM, aura kucha milatA nhiiN| dukha hI dukha milatA hai, aura kucha milatA nhiiN| rAkha hI rAkha hAtha AtI hai aMtataH; kucha aura hAtha AtA nhiiN| asAram niMditam heyam iti nizcitya shaamyti| aisA jAna kara ki yaha bilakula vyartha hai, niMdita hai, asAra hai, zAMti upalabdha ho jAtI hai| iti nizcitya shaamyti......| jaise hI yaha nizcaya ho jAtA, ki yaha jagata asAra hai, zAMti phalita ho jAtI hai| 'vaha kauna kAla hai aura kauna-sI avasthA hai, jisameM manuSya ko vaMdva, sukha-dukha na ho? unakI upekSA kara, yathAprApta vastuoM meM saMtoSa karane vAlA manuSya, siddhi ko prApta hotA hai| ' aisA koI kAla nahIM hai, jaisA ki loga socate haiM, jaisA ki purANa kahate haiM ki kabhI aisA thaa| jaina-zAstra kahate haiM. sukhamA sukhamA, eka aisA kAla thA jaba sukha hI sukha thA phira aisA kAla AyA jaba sukhamA dukhamA, sukha aura dukha mizrita the, phira aisA kAla A gayA dukhamA-dukhamA, dukha hI dukh| yA hiMdU kahate haiM. aisA kAla thA satayuga, jaba sukha hI sukha thA, rAmarAjya thaa| lekina ye saba mana kI kalpanAeM haiN| daniyA meM do taraha ke kalpanAzIla logoM ne do taraha kI dhAraNAeM banAI haiN| eka kahate haiM atIta meM thA svrg| sabhI purAne dharma yahI kahate haiM ki atIta meM saba ThIka thaa| dUsarA, jo nayA pAgalapana hai duniyA meM, vaha hai kamyUnijma, sAmyavAda-ve kahate haiM, bhaviSya meM hai svrg| lekina ise tuma jAna lo| svarga kabhI nahIM rahA hai| na rAma ke samaya meM rAmarAjya thaa| rAmarAjya hI hotA to rAmakathA ke banane kI koI jagaha nahIM thii| agara sukha hI sukha ho to samAcAra hote hI nhiiN| rAmakathA banegI kahAM se? sItA curAegA kauna? caudaha varSa kA vanavAsa khuda rAma ko bhoganA pdd'aa| saba taraha kI kalaha aura saba taraha kI rAjanIti thii| khuda kI sautelI mAM dhokhA de gii| khuda kA bApa kAmI aura lolupa siddha huaa| patnI kI galata bAta mAna kara bhI lekina patnI yuvA thI-apane pyAre se pyAre beTe ko ghara ke bAhara bheja diyA, jaMgala bheja diyaa| tuma kahate ho rAmarAjya? ___ sItA ko rAma le bhI Ae laMkA se chur3A kara, to jo pahale zabda unhoMne kahe, ve kucha bar3e acche zabda nhiiN| unhoMne sItA se kahA. tU yaha mata socanA ki tere lie maiMne yuddha kiyA; yaha yuddha to pratiSThA, kula ke lie kiyaa| phira jarA-sI bAta para ki kisI dhobI ne kaha diyA apanI aurata ko ki tUne kyA samajhA hai! kaha diyA, maiM koI rAma nahIM huuN| eka rAta dhobina kahIM aura raha gaI to dhobI nArAja ho gayA, usane kahA ki maiM koI rAma nahIM hUM tUne samajhA kyA hai mujhe, ki varSoM rAvaNa ke ghara raha AI sItA aura phira bhI svIkAra kara liyA! itanI-sI bAta se, agni-parIkSA le lene ke bAda bhI, sItA ko jaMgala meM pheMka diyaa| rAjanIti jyAdA rahI hogI, rAmarAjya km| agara aisA hI thA to sItA ke
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________________ sAtha khuda bhI jaMgala cale gae hote| agara aisA hI thA, maryAdA hI rakhanI thI, to sItA ko bhI le jAte jaMgala aura khuda bhI cale gae hote| lekina saba kahAniyAM haiM ki rAmarAjya thaa| dIna the, daridra the, dukhI, pIr3ita the - saba taraha ke loga the| saba taraha ke upadrava, saba taraha kI jAlasAjiyAM, saba taraha kI kUTanIti - rAjanIti thii| kaba thA sukha? aba usase loga ghabar3A gae / atIta kA sukha, atIta ke uTopiA vyartha ho gae, to logoM IjAda kara lie| nae purANakAra haiM mArksa, eMjilsa, lenina, maao| aba inhoMne nae purANa IjAda kara lie| ye kahate haiM, bhaviSya meM hogA / eka bAta to pakkI hai, koI bhI nahIM kahatA ki abhI hai; kyoMki abhI kahoge to duniyA meM kauna mAnegA, kaise mAnegA? dukha hI dukha dikhAI par3atA hai| abhI to dukha hI dukha dikhAI par3atA hai| yA to kaho, kabhI thA yA kabhI hogaa| aba isameM kucha vivAda karanA muzkila ho jAtA hai-kabhI thA, kucha nirNAyaka nahIM haiN| magara zAyada atIta ko to khaMDita bhI kiyA jA sakatA hai, bhaviSya ko kaise khaMDita karoge? isalie kamyUnijma aura bhI cAlAka hai| vaha kahatA hai. bhaviSya meM hogA; svarNayuga AtA hai, Ane vAlA hai| tuma kurbAna hoo usake lie, to aaegaa| aSTAvakra kahate haiM, 'vaha kauna kAla hai, kauna avasthA hai, jisameM manuSya ko dvaMdva na rahA ho ? sukha-dukha na rahe hoM tra nahIM, kisI kAla kI pratIkSA mata karo, kisI sthiti kI pratIkSA mata kro| eka caitanya kI krAMti caahie| vaha krAMti kaise ghaTita hogI? 'unakI upekSA kara, yathAprApta vastuoM meM saMtoSa karane vAlA manuSya siddhi ko prApta hotA hai| 'yathA prAptavartI siddhima! jo milA hai ! jo milA hai, usameM hI baratane vAlA puruSa mokSa ko upalabdha ho jAtA hai| jo hai, usameM hI brto| usase jyAdA kI cAha mata kro| usase anyathA kabhI nahIM huA hai, kabhI nahIM hogaa| aisA hI rahA hai| kathA yahI kI yahI hai| yuga badalate haiM, AdamI nahIM badalatA / cIjeM badalatI haiM, caitanya nahIM badalatA / saba samaya meM aisA hI rahA hai| yahI vAradAteM, yahI jhaMjhaTeM, yahI upadravakamobeza - magara saba aisA hI rahA hai| 'kauna siddhi ko upalabdha hotA hai?" aSTAvakra kahate haiM. jo jaisA hai, jo milA hai, jo vartamAna hai - yathA prAptavartI- jo hai, jo milA hai, usameM jo saMtoSa mAna letA ki ThIka hai| to daur3a paidA nahIM hotii| to abhIpsA paidA nahIM hotI, AkAMkSA paidA nahIM hotI, cAha paidA nahIM hotii| saMtoSa paidA hotA hai ki jo hai, ThIka hai| jo hai, isase anyathA ho nahIM sakatA, anyathA kabhI huA nahIM, anyathA kabhI hogA nahIM - isalie anyathA kI cAha nahIM karanI / 'unakI upekSA kara, yathAprApta vastuoM meM saMtoSa kara lene vAlA manuSya siddhi ko prApta hotA hai|'
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________________ 'maharSiyoM ke, sAdhuoM ke, yogiyoM ke aneka mata haiN| aisA dekha kara upekSA ko prApta huA kauna manuSya zAMti ko nahIM prApta hotA hai?' / yaha bhI bar3I mahatvapUrNa bAta ve kahate haiN| nAnA mataM mhrssiinnaaN......| maharSiyoM ke bahuta-se siddhAMta haiM, dArzanikoM ke bar3e siddhAMta haiN| agara unameM ulajhe to koI pArAvAra nahIM hai, bhaTakate hI rhoge| sAdhuoM ke aneka siddhAMta haiM, yogiyoM ke aneka siddhAMta haiN| siddhAtoM kI bharamAra hai| jIvana eka hai, jIvana ko samajhAne vAlI dRSTiyAM bahuta haiN| aura jisako tuma sunoge vahI ThIka lgegaa| jisako tuma par3hoge vahI ThIka lgegaa| nizcita hI tumase jyAdA pratibhAzAlI logoM ne unako IjAda kiyA hai, maharSiyoM ne IjAda kiyA hai, yogiyoM ne IjAda kiyA hai| to unhoMne jarUra bar3A tarkabala bharA hai unmeN| tuma usase prabhAvita ho jaaoge| lekina jaba tuma dUsare ko sunoge, dUsarA ThIka lagane lgegaa| jaba tuma tIsare ko sunoge, tIsarA ThIka lagane lgegaa| aise to tuma na ghara ke rahoge na ghATa ke| aise to tuma dara-dara ke bhikhArI ho jaaoge| aSTAvakra kahate haiM. aisA dekha kara ki aneka mata haiM, buddhimAna vyakti matoM ko hI chor3a detA hai, matoM kI jhaMjhaTa meM hI nahIM pdd'taa| aisA dekha kara ki aneka zAstra haiM-kauna ThIka? kurAna ki bAibila? veda ki dhammapada? kauna sahI? kauna galata? isa jhaMjhaTa meM buddhimAna AdamI nahIM pdd'taa| isa jhaMjhaTa meM jo par3a jAte haiM ve kabhI isa jhaMjhaTa ke bAhara nahIM A pAte haiN| usa jhaMjhaTa kA koI aMta hI nahIM hai| usameM to eka ulajhana meM se dUsarI ulajhana nikalatI calI jAtI hai| eka prazna kA uttara hala karo, to usa uttara meM se dasa nae prazna khar3e ho jAte haiN| calatA hI calA jAtA hai| aMtahIna zrRMkhalA hai| usase kabhI koI bAhara nahIM A paataa| nAnA mataM maharSINAM sAdhunAM yogika tthaa| dRSTava nirvedamApatra ko na zAmyati maanvH|| 'aisA dekhakara ki isa vivAda meM kyA sAra hai? yaha kahIM le jAegA nahIM..' dRSTava niveMdamApatra ko na zAmyati maanvH| 'aisA kauna vyakti hai jo itanI-sI bAta samajha kara zAMta na ho jAe?' zAMta agara honA hai to siddhAtoM se bcnaa| zAMta agara honA hai to matavAdoM se bcnaa| zAMta agara honA ho to hiMdU musalamAna, IsAI, jaina, bauddha hone se bcnaa| zAMta agara honA ho to svayaM meM khojanA, siddhAtoM meM mata bhaTaka jaanaa| nAnA mataM maharSINAM.......| aura sabhI maharSi haiM, jhaMjhaTa to yaha hai! agara aise hI hotA ki eka AdamI burA hotA aura eka AdamI acchA hotA, to acche kI hama mAna lete, bure kI hama chor3a dete| yahAM jhaMjhaTa bar3I gaharI hai, donoM acche haiN| kisako pakar3o, kisako chor3o! jIsasa kI suno ki muhammada kI? ki mahAvIra kI? sabhI adabhuta puruSa haiN| sabhI ke vyaktitva meM bar3A camatkAra hai| jaba ve kahate haiM to unakI bAtoM meM
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________________ sammohana hai| lekina ulajhanA mt| aisA dekha kara ki yaha to siddhAMta aura darzanazAstra kA jAla calA hI A rahA hai, kabhI samApta nahIM huA........ darzanazAstra eka bhI prazna kA uttara nahIM milA hai, aura tarka se jIvana ko hala karane vAlA eka AdhAra nahIM milA hai| aura tarka bar3A dogalA hai| aura tarka se tuma aisA bhI siddha kara sakate ho aura vaisA bhI siddha kara sakate ho| tarka vezyA jaisA hai| tarka kA kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| maiM eka bar3e vakIla hari siMha gaura se paricita thaa| unhoMne sAgara vizvavidyAlaya kA nirmANa kiyaa| ve bar3e vakIla the, sArI duniyA ke khyAtilabdha vakIla the| privi kauMsila meM eka mukadamA thaa| ve kisI mahArAjA kI tarapha se mukadamA lar3a rahe the| ve to jisake pakSa meM khar3e ho jAte the, vaha jItegA hI--yaha nizcita thaa| isalie ve kucha jyAdA phikra bhI nahIM karate the| dhIre- dhIre unakI pratiSThA aisI ho gaI thI ki ve jisake pakSa meM hoM, vaha jItane hI vAlA hai| to virodhI to pasta ho jAte the| unakA jJAna - bhaMDAra bhI bahuta thA / aura unake pAsa kAma bhI bahuta thaa| eka dillI meM daphtara thA, eka pekiMga meM, eka laMdana meM / bhAge phirate the tInoM jagaha / kAma bhI bahuta thA, ulajhana bhI bahuta thii| rAta kisI pArTI meM saMlagna the aura dera se Ae aura so gae aura dekha nahIM pAe phaail| subaha adAlata meM jAnA par3A binA phAila dekhe, to sIdhe khar3e ho gae, bhUla gae ki kisake pakSa meM haiM- aura vipakSI ke pakSa meM dalIla dene lge| vipakSI ke pakSa meM unhoMne ghaMTe bhara taka dalIla kii| bar3A sannATA chA gayA adAlata meM ki yaha ho kyA rahA hai! majisTreTa bhI becaina, virodhI vakIla bhI becaina ki yaha mAmalA kyA hai? virodhI bhI becaina ! aura unakA jo AdamI thA, jisake pakSa meM ve lar3a rahe the- kisI mahArAjA ke vaha to pasIne-pasIne ho gayA ki jaba apanA hI vakIla yaha kaha rahA hai, to aba kyA rahA? aba to koI upAya nahIM hai| aba to mAre ge| Akhira unake sekreTarI ne himmata juTAI, unake pAsa jA kara kAna meM kahA ki Apa yaha kyA kara rahe haiM? yaha to Apane apane AdamI ko mAra ddaalaa| Apane to burI taraha use kharAba kara diyaa| aba to yaha mukadamA jItanA muzkila hai| unhoMne kahA, kyA matalaba? kyA maiM virodhI kI tarapha se bola rahA hUM? unhoMne kahA, ghabar3A mata ! unhoMne TAI-vAI ThIka kI aura majisTreTa se kahA ki mahAnubhAva, abhI maiMne ve dalIleM dIM jo merA virodhI vakIla degA, aba maiM inakA khaMDana zurU karatA hUM / aura khaMDana zurU kara diyA aura mukadamA jIta ge| aura bar3I sugamatA se jIte, kyoMki aba virodhI ko kucha kahane ko bacA hI nahIM; vaha jo kahatA aura jitanI acchI taraha se kaha sakatA thA, usase bhI jyAdA acchI taraha se unhoMne kaha hI diyA thA, aba kucha bacA hI nahIM thA kahane ko, aura usakA khaMDana bhI kara diyA thaa| tarka kI koI niSThA nahIM hai| tarka to vezyA hai| vaha to kisI ke bhI sAtha khar3A ho jAtA hai|
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________________ jisameM bhI thor3I akla ho, tarka usI ke AsapAsa nAcane lagatA hai| usase tuma cAho Izvara ko siddha kara do, cAho Izvara ko asiddha kara do| tuma cAho AtmA ko siddha kara do, tuma cAho AtmA ko asiddha kara do| aSTAvakra kahate haiM. buddhimAna puruSa vahI hai jo tarka meM AsthA nahIM rakhatA, tarka kA tyAga kara detA hai| yaha dekha kara ki sAdhuoM ke, yogiyoM ke, maharSiyoM ke bahuta mata haiM to eka bAta to saca hai ki matoM meM satya nahIM ho sakatA, nahIM to bahuta mata nahIM hote| satya to matAtIta hai| tarkoM meM satya nahIM ho sakatA, nahIM to tarka kA eka hI niSkarSa hotaa| to satya to tarkAtIta hai| aisA dekha kara matoM ke prati upekSA paidA ho jAtI hai| aura jo usa upekSA ko prApta hotA hai, vaha manuSya nizcita hI zAMti ko prApta ho jAtA hai| ___jo upekSA, samatA aura yukti davArA caitanya ke sacce svarUpa ko jAna kara saMsAra se apane ko tAratA hai, kyA vaha guru nahIM hai?' yaha bar3A mahatvapUrNa sUtra hai| aSTAvakra kaha rahe haiM ki guru tere bhItara chipA hai| agara tU upekSA samatA aura yukti dvArA caitanya ke sacce svarUpa ko jAna le, to mila gayA tujhe terA guru| kRtvA mUrtiparijJAnaM caitanyasya na kiM guru| kyA yahI guru nahIM hai? samatA se, upekSA se, yukti davArA svayaM ke caitanya svarUpa ko jAna lenA-kyA yahI guru nahIM hai? kyA yahI jAna lene kI ghaTanA paryApta nahIM hai? nivedasamatAyuklA yastArayati sNsRteH| bAhara jisako tuma guru kI taraha svIkAra bhI karate ho... janaka ne aSTAvakra ko svIkAra kiyA hai| janaka aSTAvakra ko le AyA hai apane rAjamahala meM aura kahA. gurudeva, mujhe samajhAeM jJAna kyA? mukti kyA? saccidAnaMda paramAtmA kyA? mujhe smjhaaeN| guru kA yaha aMtima kRtya hai ki vaha samajhAe ki jo maiMne tujhe samajhAyA vaha tere bhItara hI ghaTa sakatA hai| guru kI yaha aMtima kRpA hai ki vaha ziSya ko guru se bhI chuTakArA dilA de| yaha AkhirI kAma hai| jo guru yaha na kare, vaha sadaguru nhiiN| jo guru ziSya ko ulajhA le aura phira apane meM hI ulajhAe rakhe, vaha guru hI nahIM hai| kyoMki vaha phira isa ziSya kA zoSaNa kara rahA hai| phira usakI ceSTA yahI hai ki tuma ziSya hI bane rho|| lekina vAstavika guru to jaldI hI jaise hI tumhAre ziSyatva kA kAla pUrA huA aura bodha kA jAgaraNa zurU huA kahegA ki aba, aba merI tarapha dekhane kI jarUrata nahIM, aba bhItara dekha, aba AMkha baMda kr| maiM to darpaNa thaa| taba taka merI jarUrata thI, jaba taka terI apanI AMkha sApha na thii| aba to tU apanI hI AMkha se dekha legaa| maiMne tujhe jo dikhAyA vaha vahI thA jo tU bhI dekha sakatA hai| merI jarUrata par3I thI, kyoMki tU behoza thaa| aba merI koI jarUrata nahIM rhii| 'jo upekSA, samatA aura yukti davArA caitanya ke sacce svarUpa ko jAna kara apane ko tAratA hai, kyA vahI guru nahIM hai?'
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________________ vahI guru hai! guru to bhItara hai| bAhara kA guru to kevala pratIka rUpa hai| jo tumhAre bhItara ghaTanA hai, vaha kisI meM ghaTa gayA hai, bs| lekina AtyaMtika ghaTanA tumhAre bhItara ghaTatI hai| bAhara ke garu se saMketa le lenA, lekina bAhara ke garu ko jaMjIra mata banA lenaa| bAhara kA guru tumhArA kArAgRha bana jAe, isase sAvadhAna rhnaa| jarathustra kA bar3A bahumUlya vacana hai| jaba jarathustra apane ziSyoM ko chor3a kara bAhara jAne lagA vilIna hone ko apanI aMtima samAdhi meM, to usane kahA, 'aba AkhirI sUtra. jarathustra se sAvadhAna rahanA! AkhirI sUtra jarathustra se sAvadhAna rhnaa| ' basa, itanA kaha kara vaha pahADoM meM calA gyaa| 'biveyara oNpha jarathustrA!' saba samajhAyA, Akhira meM yaha samajhAyA ki aba mujhase sAvadhAna rahanA, kahIM aisA na ho ki tuma mujhase baMdha jAo! kahIM tumhArI Asakti mujha para na Tika jAe! nahIM to phira cUka ho gii| darpaNa meM tumhArA ceharA dikhAI par3atA hai| isase tuma yaha mata samajha lenA ki darpaNa meM tumhArA ceharA hai, nahIM to pAgala ho jaaoge| phira darpaNa lie phiroge ki aba darpaNa na le jAeMge to ceharA ghara hI chUTa jaaegaa| mullA nasaruddIna eka dhanapati ke ghara masjida ke lie kucha dAna mAMgane gyaa| jaise ki dhanapati hote haiM, dhanapati ne aisA khir3akI se jhAMka kara dekhA, dekhA ki mullA AyA hai, jarUra kucha dAna mAMgane AyA hogaa| usane apane darabAna ko kahA ki kaha do ki ve bAhara gae haiN| mullA ne bhI dekha liyA thaa| usa sira ko mullA bhI dekha cukA thA khir3akI se| darabAna ne kahA ki mahAnubhAva, Apa galata samaya Ae mAlika bAhara gae haiN| to mullA ne kahA, koI harjA nahIM, hama phira A jaaeNge| mAlika A jAeM to hamArI tarapha se muphta eka salAha unako de denA ki bAhara to jAeM, lekina sira ghara na chor3a kara jAyA kreN| isameM kabhI khatarA ho sakatA hai| agara tumane samajhA ki darpaNa meM tumhArA ceharA hai, to phira tumheM darpaNa ko le kara ghUmanA par3egA; nahIM to ceharA ghara chUTa jAegA, binA cehare ke tuma jaaoge| guru to darpaNa hai; tumheM tumhArA ceharA pahacanavA detA hai| lekina eka daphA pahacAna AnI zurU ho gaI, to aMtataH to apane bhItara hI khojanA hai| guru to vahI hai jo tumheM tumhAre guru se milA de| guru to vahI hai jo tumhAre bhItara ke soe gurU ko jagA de| svayaM meM chipA hai guru| bAhara kA guru to kevala pratidhvani hai tumhAre bhItara ke guru kii| 'jaba bhUta-vikAroM ko, deha, iMdriya Adi ko yathArthata: bhUta-mAtra dekhegA, usI kSaNa tU baMdha se mukta ho kara apane svabhAva meM sthita hogaa|' pazya bhUtavikArAsla bhUtamAtrAn ythaarthtH| -jo jaisA hai, jaba tU usako vaisA hI dekhane lgegaa|
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________________ tatkSaNAd baMdha nirmukt:| -usI kSaNa tU baMdhana se mukta ho jaaegaa| svarUpastho bhvissysi| -aura apane svabhAva meM thira ho jaaegaa| pahuMca jAegA usa AMtarika keMdra para jahAM koI taraMga nahIM phuNctii| __'jaba bhUta-vikAroM ko, deha, iMdriya Adi ko yathArthata: vaisA hI dekhegA, jaise ve haiN.|' zarIra ko jaba tU zarIra kI bhAMti dekhegaa| abhI hama dekhate haiM : merA zarIra, maiM zarIra, merA mana, maiM mn| abhI hama cIjoM ko vaisA dekhate haiM jaisI ve nahIM haiM, hama anyathA dekhate haiN| aura hama anyathA isalie dekhate haiM ki abhI hamArI dekhane kI kSamatA hI sApha nahIM hai, bar3I dhUmila hai, kucha kA kucha dikhAI par3atA hai| aSTAvakra kahate haiM. jo jaisA hai, use vaisA hI dekha lenA hai| zarIra, zarIra hai| mana, mana hai| aura maiM to donoM ke pAra hUM-jo donoM ko dekhatA, donoM ko phcaantaa| tumane kabhI khayAla kiyA? mana meM krodha AtA hai, taba bhI to koI tumhAre bhItara dekhatA hai ki krodha A rahA hai| tumane usa bhItara dekhane vAle ko thor3A pahacAnane kI koziza kI kauna dekhatA hai krodha A rahA hai? jaba krodha AtA hai to koI dekhatA hai krodha A rahA hai| tuma dekhate ho ki zarIra meM jahara phaila rahA hai, hiMsA kI bhAvanA uTha rahI hai| kauna dekhatA hai? kauna dekhatA hai? koI apamAna kara detA hai to apamAna ho jAtA hai; tumhAre bhItara koI dekhatA hai ki maiM apamAnita anubhava kara rahA huuN| kauna dekhatA hai ki apamAna ho gayA? tuma mujhe suna rahe ho| maiM yahAM bola rahA hUMtuma vahAM suna rahe ho yaha bolane aura sunane ke pIche tumhArA sAkSI khar3A hai, jo yaha dekha rahA hai ki tuma suna rahe ho| aura kabhI kabhI tumhArA sAkSI tumase yaha bhI kahegA ki tumane sunA to phira bhI sunA nahIM, cUka gae! tuma eka pannA par3hate ho kitAba kA, pUrA pannA par3ha jAte hoM-acAnaka khayAla AtA hai ki are, par3hate to rahe, lekina cUka gae! yaha kisako yAda AyA? par3hane ke atirikta bhI tumhAre pIche koI khar3A hai-aMtima nirNAyaka-jo kahatA hai, phira se par3ho, cUka gae! yaha jo aMtima hai tumhAre bhItara, yahI tumhArA svarUpa hai| __ 'jo jaisA hai use vaisA hI dekha le kara usI kSaNa tU baMdha se mukta ho kara apane svabhAva meM sthira hogaa|' 'vAsanA hI saMsAra hai| isalie vAsanA ko chodd'|' saMsAra ko nahIM! vAsanA saMsAra hai, isalie vAsanA ko chodd'| 'vAsanA ke tyAga se saMsAra kA tyAga hai| aba jahAM cAhe vahAM rh|' bar3e krAMtikArI vacana haiM! aba jahAM cAhe vahAM raha! aba saMsAra meM rahanA hai, saMsAra meM raha; bAjAra meM rahanA hai, bAjAra meM rh| aba jahAM cAhe vahAM rh| basa, terA sAkSI suspaSTa banA rahe, phira kucha aura
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________________ cAhie nhiiN| vAsanA eva saMsAra iti sarvA vimuJca tAH / tatyAgo vAsanAtyAgAt sthitiradya yathA tathA / jaisA hai phira tU jahAM hai phira tU bilakula ThIka hai aura suMdara hai| kahIM kucha karane ko nahIM hai| basa, eka bAta jAnate rahane ko hai ki maiM sirpha sAkSI - mAtra ! aho cinmAtram ! vAsanA eva saMsAraH / isa bheda ko smjhnaa| loga tumase kahate haiM, vAsanAeM chor3o to saMsAra chuuttegaa| loga tumase kahate haiM, vAsanAeM chor3o to saMsAra chUTegA / vAsanAeM nahIM haiM, vAsanA hai| koI bahuta vAsanAeM nahIM haiM, vAsanA to eka hI hai| vAsanA to eka hI vRtti hai : kucha honA hai, kucha pAnA hai| unake nAma tuma kucha bhI rkho| kisI ko dhana pAnA hai, kisI ko pada pAnA hai, kisI ko mokSa pAnA hai-vAsanA to eka hI hai| vAsanA kA artha hai : jo maiM hUM usase maiM rAjI nahIM, kucha aura honA cAhie, taba maiM rAjI houuNgaa| vA kA artha hai : jo hai, usase maiM nArAja, aura jo nahIM hai vaha honA caahie| jaba tuma jo hai usase rAjI ho jAoge, aura jo nahIM hai usakI mAMga na karoge - vAsanA gii| vAsanA eva saMsAra:... | aura vAsanA hI saMsAra hai! kucha haiM jo kahate haiM: saMsAra chor3o, taba vAsanA chuuttegii| galata kahate haiN| saMsAra chor3ane se kucha bhI na hogaa| tuma jaMgala meM bhAga jAoge, vAsanA tumhAre sAtha chAyA kI taraha lagI rhegii| tuma maMdira baiTha jAoge vAsanA tumhArA pIchA karegI; vahIM saMsAra bana jaaegaa| jahAM tuma ho, vahAM vAsanA hogii| vAsanA hogI, vahIM saMsAra nirmita ho jaaegaa| isase kucha pharka nahIM par3atA / vAsanA eva saMsAraH... / - vAsanA saMsAra hai, isalie vAsanA chUTa jAe ! iti jJAtvA ...... / aisA jo jAna letA hai| tAH sarvA vimuDaca ........ - vaha sabase mukta ho hI gyaa| usase saba chUTa gyaa| isa satya ko pahacAna liyA ki vAsanA hI saMsAra hai, basa isa pahacAna meM hI saba chUTa ho gii| vAsanA tyAgAta ttyaag:..| - idhara vAsanA gaI, vahAM saMsAra gyaa| adya yathA tathA sthiti| - phira terI janaka, jahAM marjI ho, vahAM rh| phira jahAM cAhe vahAM raha / isa sUtra ko bhI khayAla meM le lenaa| isakA yaha artha huA ki phira jahAM pAe apane ko, vahIM ThIka hai| phira jo ho rahA ho, vahI ThIka hai| mahala meM pAe to mahala ThIka hai, jaMgala meM pAe to jaMgala
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________________ ThIka hai| eka phakIra eka samrATa kA mitra thaa| samrATa usa phakIra se bahuta hI prabhAvita thaa| itanA prabhAvita thA ki eka dina usane kahA ki prabha, majhase dekhA nahIM jAtA ki isa vakSa ke nIce dhapa, chAyA, garmI meM Apa baiThe raheM: rAjamahala caleM! socA thA samrATa ne ki jaba maiM yaha kahUMgA phakIra kahegA ki 'nahIM-nahIM, nahIM-nahIM, rAjamahala aura maiM? maiM chor3a cukA saMsAra!' aisA kahA hotA phakIra ne to samrATa prasanna huA hotaa| usake mana meM aura bhI phakIra ke prati Adara bar3hA hotaa| lekina phakIra mere jaisA rahA hogaa| vaha uTha kara khar3A ho gyaa| usane kahA, ghor3A ityAdi kahAM hai? samrATa thor3A sakucAyA ki are, yaha kaisA tyAgI! magara aba kucha kaha bhI na sakatA thaa| le AyA ghor3A, lekina bemana se laayaa| vaha to phakIra car3ha kara ghor3e para baiTha gyaa| usane kahA ki clo| le AyA mahala, lekina majA calA gyaa| kyoMki majA to yahI thA samrATa kA ki mahAtyAgI guru! yaha kaisA tyAgI? aba lekina kaha bhI kucha nahIM sakatA, apane hAtha se hI phaMsa gayA, bulA laayaa| usako acche se acche kamare meM rakhA, jo zreSThatama, suMdaratama mahala kA hissA thaa| vaha vahIM rahane lgaa| vaha jaise vRkSa ke nIce baiThA rahA thA, vaha suMdara mahala meM baiThA rahane lgaa| kucha dina bAda samrATa kI becainI bar3hane lgii| usane kahA, yaha to bAta ajIba ho gii| chaha mahIne bIta jAne para usane kahA ki mahArAja eka prazna uThatA rahA hai.| phakIra ne kahA, itanI dera kyoM kI? prazna to usI dina uTha gayA thA jaba maiMne kahA, ghor3A le Ao! samrATa ddraa| usane kahA ki Apako patA hai? 'patA kaise nahIM hogA? kyoMki tatkSaNa tumhArA ceharA badala gayA thaa| usI kSaNa merA tumase saMbaMdha chUTa gayA, jaba maiMne ghor3e se saMbaMdha jodd'aa| usI kSaNa maiM koI tyAgI nahIM rahA tumhAre lie| bolo, chaha mahIne kyoM ruke? itanI dera kyoM takalIpha sahI? mujhe patA hai ki tuma becaina ho rhe| kyA hai?' kahA, 'itanA-sA pUchanA hai ki aba to mujhameM aura ApameM kucha bhI aMtara nahIM hai| aba to ThIka Apa bhI mere jaise haiM-mahala meM rahate haiM, sukha-suvidhA, naukara-cAkara, acchA khAnA-pInA! bheda to taba thA, jaba Apa baiThe the vRkSa ke nIce-Apa phakIra the, tyAgI the, mahAtmA the, maiM rAjA thA, bhogI thaa| aba kyA bheda hai?' usa phakIra ne kahA, jAnanA cAhate ho bheda, to gAMva ke bAhara clo| rAjA ne kahA, tthiik| donoM gAMva ke bAhara ge| phakIra ne kahA, thor3I dUra aura cleN| dopahara ho gii| samrATa ne kahA, aba batA bhI deM, batAnA hai to kahIM bhI batA deM, aba AdhA jaMgala A gayA yh| nahIM, usane kahA ki thor3I dUra aur| sUraja asta hote hI samajhA duuNgaa|
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________________ sUraja asta hone lgaa| samrATa ne kahA, aba... aba boleM ! usane kahA ki itanA hI samajhAnA hai ki aba maiM vApisa nahIM jA rahA / tuma jAte ho ki calate ho ? samrATa ne kahA, maiM kaise cala sakatA hUM Apake sAtha? mahala hai, patnI hai, bacce haiM, sArI vyavasthA.. / maiM kaise cala sakatA hUM? phakIra ne kahA, lekina maiM jA rahA huuN| pharka samajha meM AyA? samrATa usake paira para gira par3A 1 usane kahA ki nahIM, mujhe chor3e mata, mujhase bar3I bhUla ho gii| usane kahA, maiM to abhI phira ghor3e para baiThane ko taiyAra huuN| lekina tuma phira muzkila meM par3a jaaoge| le A, ghor3A kahAM hai? jaba aSTAvakra kaha rahe haiM to unakA izArA yahI hai : aba jahAM cAhe, vahAM raha / adya yathA tathA sthiti: / phira jo ho, jaisA hoM - ThIka hai, svIkAra hai / tathAtA! aise tathAtA ke bhAva meM jo rahatA hai, usI ko bauddhoM ne tathAgata kahA hai| buddha kA eka nAma hai : tthaagt| tathAgata kA artha hai : jo havA kI taraha AtA, havA kI taraha calA jAtA; pUraba ki pazcima kA koI bheda nahIM, uttara ki dakSiNa kA koI bheda nhiiN| registAnoM meM bahe havA ki marUdyAnoM meM bahe havA - kucha bheda nhiiN| jo aisA AyA aura aisA gayA ! tathAgata! jise saba svIkAra hai! adya yathA tathA sthitiH / isa sUtra ko mahAvAkya smjho| isa para khUba - khUba dhyAna karanA / ise dhIre dhIre tumhAre aMtaratama meM virAjamAna kara lenA / yaha tumhAre maMdira kA jalatA huA dIyA bane to bahuta prasAda phalita hogA, bahuta AzISa baraseMge tuma vahI ho sakate ho, jisako aSTAvakra ne kahA hai. kasya dhanyasya api ! koI dhanyabhAgI ! tuma vahI dhanyabhAgI ho sakate ho| usakA hI maiMne tumhAre lie dvAra kholA hai| hari oma tatsat!
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________________ bodha se jIyo-siddhAMta se nahIM-pravacana-taiharavAM dinAMka: 8 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| prazna sAra: pahalA prazna : aSTAvakra ne kahA ki maharSiyoM, sAdhuoM aura yogiyoM ke aneka mata haiM-aisA dekha kara nirveda ko prApta huA kauna manuSya zAMti ko nahIM prApta hotA hai? kahIM isalie hI to nahIM Apa eka sAtha sabake rola- maharSi, sAdhu aura yogo ke; aSTAvakra, buddha, pataMjali aura caitanya taka ke rola-pUrA kara rahe haiM, tAki hama niveMda ko prApta hoM? nizcaya hI aisA hI hai| jisase mukta honA ho, use jAnanA jarUrI hai| jAne binA koI mukta nahIM hotaa| tarka se mukta honA ho to tarka ko jAnanA jarUrI hai| tarka meM jinakI gaharAI hai, ve hI tarka ke pAra uTha pAte haiN| buddhi ke pAra jAnA ho to buddhi meM nikhAra caahie| ati buddhimAna hI buddhi ke pAra jA pAte haiN| buddhi ke pAra jAne ke lie jitanI dhAra rakhI jA sake buddhi para, utanA hI sahayogI hai| vaise to yaha bAta ulTI dikhAI par3egI, kyoMki jaba buddhi se mukta honA hai to dhAra kyoM rakhanI? magara buddha buddhi se mukta nahIM ho paate| jinhoMne buddhi kA khela jAnA hI nahIM ve to sadA tatpara hoMge usa jAla meM ulajha jAne ko| vizvAsa buddhi se nIce hai; AsthA buddhi ke pAra hai| vizvAsa kara lene ke lie kisI buddhimattA kI jarUrata nahIM hai, mUr3hatA paryApta hai| lekina AsthA ko jagAne ke lie bar3I buddhimattA kI jarUrata hai| buddhi kI sArI sIr3hiyoM ko, saraNiyoM ko jo pAra karatA hai, usake hI jIvana meM AsthA kA prakAza hotA hai| Astika honA satya nahIM hai| nAstika hue binA koI kabhI Astika huA hI nahIM, jo huA ho to usakI AstikatA sadA kaccI rhegii| vaha binA pakA ghar3A hai| dhokhe meM mata A jaanaa| usameM pAnI bhara kara mata le aanaa| nahIM to ghara Ate-Ate na to ghar3A rahegA na pAnI rhegaa| Aga se gujaranA jarUrI hai ghar3e ke pakane ke lie| isa jagata meM jo parama Astika hue haiM ve parama nAstikatA kI agni se gujare haiN| aura yaha
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________________ ThIka bhI mAlUma par3atA hai, kyoMki jise 'nahIM' kahanA hI na AyA, usakI 'hI' meM kitanA bala hogA? usakI 'hI' to napuMsaka kI 'hI' hogii| usakI napuMsakatA hI usakA vizvAsa bnegii| usakI kamajorI, usakI dInatA hI usakA vizvAsa bnegii| aura AsthA to vyakti ko banA detI hai samrATa! AsthA to vyakti ko banA detI hai virATa! AsthA to detI hai vibhutA, prabhutA! AsthA se to sAmrAjya phailatA hI calA jAtA hai-aisA sAmrAjya jisameM sUrya kA kabhI koI asta nahIM hotA; kyoMki vahAM aMdhakAra nahIM hai, prakAza hI prakAza hai| nAstikatA ko maiM kahatA hUM AstikatA kI anivArya siiddii| iMkAra karanA sIkhanA hI hotA hai tabhI hamAre 'hI' kahane meM kucha sArthakatA hotI hai| jo AdamI hara bAta meM 'hI' kaha detA ho usakI 'hA' kA kitanA mUlya hai? jo AdamI kabhI 'nahIM' bhI kahatA ho, usI kI 'hI' meM mUlya ho sakatA hai| to duniyA meM tumheM do taraha ke Astika mileMge-sva, jo bhaya ke kAraNa Astika haiN| unakA nAstika maujUda hI rahegA bhiitr| gahare meM to nAstikatA rahegI, Upara-Upara patalI-sI parta rahegI, jhInI-jhInI cAMdara rahegI AstikatA kI-jarA kharoMca do, phaTa jAegI aura nAstika bAhara A jaaegaa| saba ThIka calatA rahe to AstikatA banI rahegI, jarA astavyasta ho jAe to saba kho jaaegaa| tumhArA lar3akA javAna ho aura mara jAe aura Izvara para saMdeha A jaaegaa| tumhArI dUkAna ThIka calatI thI aura divAlA nikala jAe aura Izvara para saMdeha A jaaegaa| tumane ImAnadArI se kAma kiyA thA aura tumheM phala na mile aura koI beImAna le jAe-basa, saMdeha A jaaegaa| saMdeha jaise taiyAra hI baiThA hai! jaise saMdeha bilakula hAtha ke pAsa meM baiThA hai, maukA mile ki A jAe! jinako tuma Astika kahate ho-madiroM meM, masjidoM meM jhuke hue loga prArthanA-namAja meM- unake bhItara bhI gaharA saMdeha hai; zaka uThatA hai bAra-bAra ki hama jo kara rahe haiM, vaha ThIka hai? lekina kie jAte haiM bhaya ke kAraNa-patA nahIM paramAtmA ho hI, patA nahIM svarga aura narka hoM! isalie hoziyAra AdamI ko donoM kA iMtajAma kara lenA caahie| eka musalamAna maulavI marane ke karIba thaa| gAMva meM koI aura par3hA-likhA AdamI nahIM thA, to mullA nasaruddIna ko hI bulA liyA ki vaha marate vakta marate AdamI ko kurAna par3ha kara sunA de| mullA ne kahA, kurAna ityAdi chodd'o| aba isa AkhirI ghar3I meM maiM to tumase sirpha eka bAta kahatA hUM isa prArthanA ko mere sAtha dohraao| aura mullA ne kahA. kaho mere sAtha ki he prabhu aura he zaitAna, tuma donoM ko dhanyavAda! merA khayAla rkhnaa| usa maulavI ne AMkheM kholiiN| mara to rahA thA, lekina abhI ekadama hoza nahIM kho gayA thaa| usane kahA, tuma hoza meM to ho? tuma kyA kaha rahe ho-he prabhu, he zaitAna pU mullA ne kahA, aba isa AkhirI vakta meM khatarA mola lenA ThIka nhiiN| patA nahIM kauna asalI meM mAlika ho! tuma donoM ko hI yAda kara lo| aura phira patA nahIM tuma kahAM jAo-narka jAo ki
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________________ svarga jAo! narka gae to zaitAna nArAja rahegA ki tumane Izvara ko hI yAda kiyA, mujhe yAda nahIM kiyaa| svarga gae taba to tthiik| lekina pakkA kahA hai? aura aisI ghar3I meM koI bhI khatarA mola lenA ThIka nhiiN| jokhima mola lenA ThIka nahIM; tuma donoM ko hI khuza kara lo| rAjanIti se kAma lo thodd'aa| to jinako tuma maMdiroM meM prArthanA karate dekhate ho, ve rAjanIti se kAma le rahe haiM thodd'aa| isa jagata ko bhI samhAla rahe haiM; mauta ke bAda kucha hogA to usako bhI samhAla rahe haiN| nahIM huA to kucha harja nahIM lekina agara huA.. / phira isa jagata meM bhI sahArA cAhie akele bahuta kamajora haiN| to AdamI sahAre kI AkAMkSA se Izvara ko mAna letA hai| lekina yaha koI AsthA nahIM hai| yaha koI zraddhA nahIM hai| jaba taka Izvara kI dhAraNA kA tuma koI upayoga kara rahe ho taba taka AsthA nahIM hai| jaba Izvara kI dhAraNA tumhAre AnaMda kA ahobhAva ho, jaba tumhArA koI bhI saMbaMdha Izvara se kucha lene-dene kA na raha jAe, kucha mAMgane kA na raha jAe bhikhamaMgepana kA na raha jAe; jaba tumhAre aura Izvara ke bIca prema kI dhAra bahane lage, jo kucha bhI mAMgatI nahIM; jaba tumhAre aura Izvara ke bIca eka saMgIta kA janma ho, tumhArI vINA usakI vINA ke sAtha kaipane lage, tumhArA kaMTha usake kaMTha ke sAtha baMdha jAe, tumhAre prANa usake chaMda meM nAcane lageM aura isake pAra kucha na pAnA hai na khonA hai-taba AsthA ! lekina aisI AsthA to unhIM ko milatI hai, jo saba taraha kI nAstikatA ko kATa kara, saba taraha kI nAstikatA se gujara kara nikale haiN| 'nahIM' kahanA sIkhanA hI hotA hai, to hI 'hI' kahA jA sakatA hai| isalie maiM tumase sArI paraMparAoM kI bAta karatA hUM, kyoMki maiM cAhatA hUM ki tuma paraMparAoM ke pAra ho jaao| isase maiM tumase sAre dharmoM kI bAta karatA, kyoMki maiM tumheM usa parama dharma kI tarapha izArA karatA hUM jo saba dharmoM ke pAra hai| isalie kabhI muhammada kI kabhI mahAvIra kI, kabhI pataMjali kI, kabhI mIrA kI tumase bAta karatA, ki tumheM yaha smaraNa rahe ki satya to eka hai, mata bahuta haiM, aneka haiN| isalie matoM meM satya nahIM ho sktaa| tuma mata se mukta ho sako / pahale to nAstikatA ko ThIka se jAna lenA jarUrI hai| nAstikatA se mukta hone se phira AstikatA ke jo bahuta se siddhAMta haiM unako jAna lenA jarUrI hai, tAki unase bhI tuma mukta ho jaao| tuma hI raha jAo tumhArI parizuddhi meM, caitanyamAtra, cinmAtra ! na koI AsthA, na koI mata, na koI 'hI' na koI 'naa'| jahAM koI vikAra na raha jAe, darpaNa korA ho-basa vahIM tuma apane ghara A ge| nirveda kA vahI artha hai| 'nirveda' zabda meM bar3I bAteM chipI haiN| isakA eka artha hotA hai nirbhaav| isakA eka artha hotA hai. nirvicAra | jJAna ke mUla zAstra ko hama veda kahate haiM / nirveda kA artha hai. samasta vedoM se mukta ho jAnA; samasta jJAna se mukta ho jAnA; jJAna mAtra se mukta ho jAnA; mata, siddhAMta, dhAraNAeM, vizvAsa sabase mukta ho jAnA; veda se mukta ho jaanaa| phira veda tumhArA ho sakatA hai kurAna ho / musalamAna kA veda kurAna hai, bauddha kA - veda dhammapada hai, IsAI kA veda bAibila hai| isase kucha pharka nahIM par3atA / jahAM-jahAM tumane socA hai jJAna hai, jina-jina zabdoM meM, siddhAtoM meM tumane socA hai jJAna hai, una sabase
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________________ mukta ho jaanaa| nirveda kI dazA kA artha hogA. nirvicAra kI dazA, nirbhAva kI dazA / tumhAre bhItara koI zAstra nahIM, koI zabda nahIM, koI siddhAMta nahIM - tuma shuunyvt| tuma phira hiMdU nahIM, musalamAna nahIM, IsAI nahIM, jaina nahIM, bauddha nahIM - kyoMki ve saba nAma to vedoM se milate haiN| kisI ne eka veda ko mAnA hai to vaha hiMdU hai, kisI ne dUsare veda ko mAnA hai to vaha jaina hai| kisI ne kahA, hameM to mahAvIra meM hI veda kA anubhava hotA hai, to vaha jaina hai| aura kisI ne kahA, hameM buddha meM veda kA anubhava hotA hai, to vaha bauddha hai| lekina aSTAvakra kaha rahe haiM, paramajJAna kI avasthA hai, jaba tumheM sirpha apane meM hI veda kA anubhava ho| bAhara ke saba vedoM se mukti - nirveda | nirveda kA artha hogA. bar3A kuArApana, jaise jJAna hai hI nahIM! isako ajJAna bhI nahIM kaha skte| kyoMki bodha paripUrNa hai| hoza pUrA hai| isako ajJAna nahIM kaha skte| yaha bar3A jJAnapUrNa ajJAna hai| IsAI phakIroM ne, vizeSakara taratUliyana ne do vibhAjana kie haiN| usane do vibhAjana kie haiM manuSya ke jAnane ke| eka ko vaha kahatA hai ignoreMTa naoNleja, ajJAnI jJAna / aura eka ko vaha kahatA hai : noiMga ignoreMsa; jAnatA huA ajnyaan| bar3A adabhuta vibhAjana kiyA hai taratUliyana ne eka to aisA jJAna hai ki tuma jAnate kucha bhI nahIM - khAka bhI nahI - aura phira bhI lagatA hai khUba jAnate ho! zAstra kaMThastha haiM, tote bana gae ho| mastiSka meM saba bharA hai, doharA sakate ho - ThIka se doharA sakate ho| smRti tumhArI prakhara hai, yAdadAzta suMdara hai- tuma doharA sakate ho| bhASA kA tumheM patA hai, vyAkaraNa kA tumheM patA hai- tuma zabdoM kA ThIka-ThIka artha juTA sakate ho| aura phira bhI tuma kucha nahIM jaante| kyoMki jo bhI tumane jAnA hai usameM tumhArA jAnanA kucha bhI nahIM hai; saba udhAra hai; saba basA hai, mAMgA -kSa hai; apanA nahIM hai, nija kA nahIM hai| aura jo nija kA nahIM hai vaha kaisA jJAna? to eka to jJAna hai, jisake pIche ajJAna chipA rahatA hai| jisako hama paMDita kahate haiM, vaha aisA hI jJAnI hai| paMDita yAnI popaTa / paMDita yAnI totA / paMDita yAnI doharAtA hai, jAnatA nahIM; kaha detA hai lekina kyA kaha rahA hai, use kucha bhI patA nhiiN| yaMtra jaisA hai, yAMtrika hai - ignoreMTa nAleja ! aura phira taratUliyana kahatA hai, eka dUsarA AyAma hai. noiMga ignoreMsa; jAnatA huA ajJAna / nirveda kA vahI artha hai| nirveda kA artha hai. kucha bhI nahIM jAnate - basa itanA hI jAnate haiN| aura jAnanA pUrA jAgA huA hai bhItara dIyA jala rahA hai apanI prakharatA meN| usa dIye ke AsapAsa vedoM kA koI bhI dhuA nahIM hai| usa dIye ke AsapAsa koI chAyA bhI nahIM hai kisI siddhAMta kI / basa, zuddha aMtaratama kA dIyA jala rahA hai| usa aMtaratama ke dIye ke prakAza meM saba kucha jAnA jAtA hai, phira bhI jAnane kA koI dAvA nahIM utthtaa| upaniSada kahate haiM. jo kahe maiM jAnatA hUM jAna lenA ki nahIM jAnatA / sukarAta ne kahA hai. jaba maiM kucha-kucha jAnane lagA, taba mujhe patA calA ki maiM kucha bhI nahIM jAnatA huuN| jaba kucha-kucha jAnane lagA, taba patA calA ki maiM kucha bhI nahIM jAnatA hUM /
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________________ lAotsu ne kahA hai. jJAnI ajJAnI jaisA hotA hai| jIsasa ne kahA hai. jo baccoM kI bhAMti bhole haiM, ve mere prabhu ke rAjya meM praveza kreNge| baccoM kI bhAMti bhole haiM! bAta sApha hai| bacce meM pAMDitya nahIM hotaa| bacce kA abhI koI anubhava hI nahIM hai ki pAMDitya ho ske| abhI kahIM par3hA-likhA nahIM, socA-sunA nahIM abhI to bholA- bhAlA hai| aisA bholA-bhAlA ajJAna, jAnatA huA ajJAna tuma kucha jAnate nahIM, lekina tuma prajvalita agni ho; tumhArA prakAza saba tarapha phailatA hai| nirveda kI dazA bar3I anUThI dazA hai| isalie parama jJAniyoM ne vedoM ko to ajJAniyoM ke lie mAnA hai| aSTAvakra bhI vahI mAnate haiM, buddha bhI vahI mAnate haiM, mahAvIra bhI vahI mAnate haiN| vedoM ko to mAnA hai unake lie jinheM abhI kucha bhI samajha nahIM hai| unake lie veda haiN| jinako kucha bhI samajha hai, ve to nirveda meM apanA bodha khojate haiM, veda meM nhiiN| unakI AMkheM to zabdAtIta zUnya kI tarapha uThane lagatI haiM, vaMdvAtIta satya kI tarapha unakI ur3Ana zurU ho jAtI hai|| __ tumase maiM ina sAre siddhAtoM kI isIlie bAta kara rahA hUM tAki tuma jAna kara mukta ho sako tuma paricita ho lo, to mukta ho jaao| paricita nahIM hue to mukta na ho skoge| agara tuma mujhe sunate hI rahe zAMta bhAva se, to tuma dhIre- dhIre pAoge saba AyA aura saba gayA! khatarA to taba hai ki jaba tuma sunate-sunate mujhe, jJAna ko pakar3ane lago, taba khatarA hai| veda banane lagA, tuma nirveda se cuuke| magara maiM tumheM Tikane na duuNgaa| isalie roja badala letA huuN| eka dina bolatA hUM buddha para to tuma dhIre - dhIre rAjI hone lagate ho| jaise hI mujhe lagA ki aba rAjI ho rahe, tuma jJAnI bana rahe, jaise hI mujhe lagA ki aba buddha tumhArA veda bane jA rahe haiN..| AdamI itanI jaldI surakSA pakar3atA hai, itanI jaldI mAna lenA cAhatA hai ki jAna liyA-binA zrama ke, binA ceSTA ke! muphta kucha mila jAe to jJAnI bana jAne kA majA kauna nahIM lenA cAhatA hai! suna lI buddha kI bAta bar3e prasanna ho gae, gadagada ho gae, thor3I jAnakArI bar3ha gaI-aba usa jAnakArI ko tuma pheMkate hue rAste para caloge koI bhI mila jAegA, phaMsa jAegA jAla meM, to tuma usakI khopar3I meM vaha jAnakArI bharoge, tuma maukA na cuukoge| tumheM koI bhI maukA mila jAegA to kisI bhI bahAne tuma apanI jAnakArI ko jaldI se kisI bhI AdamI kI khUTI para Tala doge| tuma nimitta talAzoge ki jahAM nimitta mila jAe; koI kucha pUcha le, koI kucha bAta uThA de, to tuma apanI bAta le aaoge| yaha jAnakArI tumheM mukta nahIM karavA degii| yaha jAnakArI tumhAre ahaMkAra kA AbhUSaNa bhalA ho jAe, yaha ahaMkAra se mukti nahIM hone vAlI hai| to jaise hI maiM dekhatA hUM ki tuma buddha ko veda mAnane lage to mujhe tatkSaNa mahAvIra kI bAta karanI par3atI hai, tAki tumhAre paira ke nIce se jamIna phira khIMca lI jaae| aisA maiM bahuta bAra kruuNgaa| aisA bAra-bAra hogA to tumheM eka bodha AegA ki yaha jamIna to bAra-bAra paira ke nIce se khIMca lI jAtI hai| kisI dina to tumheM yaha samajha meM AegA ki aba jamIna na banAeM, aba suna leM aura siddhAMta ko na pakar3e, suna leM, guna leM, lekina aba kisI mata ko or3he n| jisa dina tumheM yaha samajha meM A
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________________ gaI, usI dina nirveda upalabdha huaa| ina sArI kakSAoM se gujara jAnA jarUrI hai| kyoMki jisase tuma nahIM gujaroge usakA khatarA zeSa rahegA; kabhI agara maukA AyA to zAyada phaMsa jaao| isalie maiM niraMtara kahatA hUM : jisase bhI mukta honA ho, use ThIka se jAna lo| jAnane ke atirikta na koI mukti hai na koI krAMti hai| dUsarA prazna : ziSya ke aMdara apane sadaguru ke prati usakA prema aura ziSya kA ahaMkAra kyA donoM eka sAtha Tika sakate haiM? dina Tikate haiM, jyAdA dina Tika nahIM skte| lekina prathamata: to ttikeNge| prathamata: to jaba ziSya guru ke pAsa AtA hai, to ekadama se thor3e hI ahaMkAra girA degA, ekadama se thor3e hI ahaMkAra chor3a degaa| zurU meM to zAyada ahaMkAra ke kAraNa hI guru ke pAsa AtA hai| dhana khojA, kucha nahIM pAyA, ahaMkAra ko vahAM tRpti na milI; pada khojA, vahAM kucha na pAyA; ahaMkAra ko vahAM bhI tRpti na milI-aba ahaMkAra kahatA hai, jJAna khojo| dekhA tumane, aSTAvakra ne tIna vAsanAeM ginAIM-unameM eka aura AkhirI vAsanA jJAna kI! ahaMkAra hI tumheM guru ke pAsa le AyA hai| isalie jo guru ke pAsa le AyA hai vaha ekadama sAtha na chor3egA; vaha kahegA ki prathamata: to hama hI tumhAre guru haiM hama hI tumheM yahAM laae| pahale tuma hameM namaskAra karo! aise kahAM hameM chor3a kara cale? itane jaldI na jAne deNge| to ahaMkAra rahegA; lekina agara guru kA prema.. guru ke prati prema uThane lagA, to jyAdA dinara raha skegaa| kyoMki ye viparIta ghaTanAeM haiM, ye donoM sAtha-sAtha nahIM ho sktiiN| dIyA jalane lagA, jyoti bar3hane lagI, pragAr3ha hone lagI-pahale TimaTimAtI-TimaTimAtI hogI to thor3A-bahuta aMdherA banA rahegA phira jyoti jaise-jaise pragAr3ha hogI, vaise-vaise aMdherA kttegaa| phira eka ghar3I AegI jyoti ke thira ho jAne kI, aura aMdhakAra nahIM raha jaaegaa| guru ke pAsa lAtA to ahaMkAra hI hai, isalie ekadama se chor3A nahIM jA sktaa| isa taraha ke ahaMkAra ko hI to loga sAtvika ahaMkAra kahate haiM, dhArmika ahaMkAra kahate haiM, pavitra ahaMkAra! to ahaMkAra bhii| jaise tumane kahAvata sunI hogI ki koI billI haja ko jAtI thI, to usane saba ko nimaMtraNa diyA-cUhe ityAdi ko ki aba to tuma mujhase A kara mila lo| aba maiM haja ko jA rahI hUM patA nahIM
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________________ lau na lauTU! purAne jamAne kI bAta hogii| aba to loga lauTa Ate haiN| pahale to koI tIrthayAtrA ko jAtA thA to AkhirI namaskAra karake jAtA thA - lauTanA ho yA na ho ! honA bhI nahIM cAhie tIrtha se lauttnaa| kyoMki jaba tIrtha cale hI gae to phira kyA lauTanA? phira lauTanA kaisA? to billI ne khabara bheja dii| cUhe bar3e ciMtita hue| cUhoM meM bar3I aphavAha saragarmI ho gii| unhoMne kahA ki jA to rahI haja ko, lekina isakA bharosA kyA ? sau-sau cUhe khAe, haja ko calI, patA nahIM ! itane cUhe khA gaI hai, Aja acAnaka dharma- bhAva paidA huA hai| ahaMkAra ne bahuta cUhe khAe haiM isalie ekadama bharosA to tumheM bhI nahIM aaegaa| ki ahaMkAra, aura sadaguru ke pAsa lA sakatA hai! lekina billiyAM bhI haja kI yAtrA ko jAtI haiN| Akhira AdamI thaka jAtA hai, hara cIja se thaka jAtA hai| aura ahaMkAra kI khUbI eka hai ki vaha kisI cIja se bharatA nahIM; isalie thakoge nahIM to karoge kyA ? kitanA hI dhana ikaTThA karo janmoM-janmoM taka, ahaMkAra bharatA hI nhiiN| ahaMkAra to aisI bAlTI hai, jisameM peMdI hai hI nhiiN| tuma usameM DAlate jAo, DAlate jAo, saba khotA calA jAtA hai| mullA nasaruddIna ke pAsa eka yuvaka AyA aura usane kahA ki kisI ne mujhase kahA ki tumheM jJAna kI kuMjI mila gaI hai| to mujhe svIkAra karo gurudeva, maiM Apake caraNoM meM rahUMgA! mullA ne kahA, kuMjI to mila gaI hai, lekina sIkhane ke lie bar3A dhairya caahie| to merI eka hI zarta hai ki dhairya rakhanA pdd'egaa| aura dhairya kI agara parIkSA meM tuma khare utare, to hI maiM tumheM svIkAra kruuNgaa| usane kahA, maiM taiyAra hUM, parIkSA merI le leN| mullA ne kahA, abhI to maiM kueM para jA rahA hUM pAnI bharane tuma mere sAtha A jAo, vahIM parIkSA bhI ho jaaegii| jaba mullA ne uThAI bAlTI, to usa yuvaka ne dekhA usameM peMdI nahIM hai| vaha thor3A hairAna huA magara usane socA : apanA bolanA ThIka nahIM, abhI parIkSA kA vakta hai| aba yaha jo kara rahA hai karane do magara yaha AdamI pAgala mAlUma hotA hai| rassI ityAdi le kara aura binA peMdI kI bAlTI le kara yaha jA kahAM rahA hai! ziSya bar3A becaina to huA, lekina usane apane ko saMbhAle rkhaa| usane kahA ki dhairya kI parIkSA hai, patA nahIM yahI parIkSA ho / mullA ne kueM meM bAlTI pheMkI, hilA kara usameM pAnI bhara liyaa| to nIce jaba pAnI meM DUba gaI to bharI mAlUma par3ane lgii| vaha yuvaka khar3A dekha rahA hai| usane kahA, hada ho rahI hai ! yaha ajJAnI hamako jJAna degA! isa mUr3ha ko itanA bhI patA nahIM hai ki yaha kyA kara rahA hai! isako jJAna kI kuMjI mila gaI hai? hama bhI kahA cakkara meM par3e jAte the! usane bAlTI khIMcI, bAlTI khAlI aaii| mullA ne kahA, mAmalA kyA hai tra' phira se pAnI meM ddaalii| aba usakA bardAzata karanA.. / vaha bhUla hI gyaa| usane kahA ki Thaharo jI, tuma mujhe jaba sikhAoge taba sikhAoge, kucha maiM tumheM sikhA dUM muphta! yaha bAlTI kabhI na bhregii| mullA * kahA, tuma bIca meM bole, tumane dhairya tor3a diyaa| tumase maiM itanA hI kahanA cAhatA
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________________ hUM ki tumhAre ahaMkAra kI bAlTI kI kucha jAMca-parakha karoge, kabhI bharI? aba tuma bhAga jAo yahAM se| maiM tumheM ziSya kI taraha svIkAra nahIM karUMgA, kyoMki tumane niyama bhaMga kara diyaa| tuma dhairya to rkhte| maiM tumheM kucha dikhA rahA thaa| bhagA diyA to ziSya calA gayA, lekina rAta bhara so na skaa| bAta to use bhI jaMcI ki bAta to yahI hai. kitane janmoM se bhara rahe haiM ahaMkAra ko, bharatA nahIM hai; to zAyada peMdI na hogii| yahI kAraNa ho sakatA hai| ahaMkAra meM peMdI hai bhI nhiiN| to tuma jJAna se bharo, dhana se bharo, pada se, tyAga se, prema se-kisI se bhI bharo, bharegA nhiiN| aMtataH ahaMkAra kA yaha na bharanA hI, ahaMkAra kI yaha viphalatA hI to paramAtmA ke davAra para lAtI hai| sau-sau cUhe khA kara billI haja ko jAtI hai| aura haja kI tarapha jAne kA upAya hI nahIM hai| to jo tumheM guru ke pAsa le AtA hai, vaha bhI ahaMkAra kI viphalatA hI hai| lekina ahaMkAra kitanA hI viphala ho jAe, AzA nahIM chodd'taa| AzA ahaMkAra kA prANa hai| vaha guru ke pAsa AtA hai, aba vaha socatA hai dharma se bhara leMge, jJAna se bhara leMge, dhyAna se bhara leNge| to thor3e dina sarakatA hai| bharane kI ceSTA yahAM bhI karatA hai| lekina agara guru ke prati samarpaNa kA sUtra paidA ho gayA, to ahaMkAra jyAdA dina TikegA nhiiN| donoM thor3e dina sAtha raha sakate haiM, jyAdA dina sAtha nahIM raha skte| rahIma kA eka vacana hai kahu rahIma kaise nibhai bera kera ko saMga vaha Dolata rasa Apane unake phATata aNg| kele kA vRkSa aura bera kA vRkSa, donoM kA sAtha-sAtha honA jyAdA dina cala nahIM sktaa| kahu rahIma kaise nibhai bera kera ko saMga vaha Dolata rasa Apane....... bera to apane AnaMda meM magna ho kara DolatA hai| unake phATata aNg| lekina usakI zAkhAoM ke chUne, kIToM ke chUne se kele ke to patte phaTa jAte haiN| koI kele ke patte phAr3ane ke lie bera koI ceSTA karatA nahIM; vaha to apane rasa meM DolatA hai; havAeM A gaIM subaha kI, magna ho kara nAcane lagatA hai| lekina usakA nAcanA hI kele kI mauta hone lagatI hai| agara tumhAre bhItara ahaMkAra bhI hai-jo ki svAbhAvika hai, aura tumhArA sadaguru ke prati prema bhI hai jo ki bar3A asvAbhAvika, jo ki bar3I mahatvapUrNa ghaTanA hai, bar3I adavitIya ghaTanA hai, apUrva ghaTanA hai, kyoMki apane prati prema kA nAma to ahaMkAra hai, kisI aura ke prati prema kA nAma nirahaMkAra hai| aura sadaguru ke prati prema kA to artha hai ki jahAM se tumhAre ahaMkAra ko tRpta karane kA koI bhI maukA na milegaa| agara tuma sadaguru ke samarpaNa meM, sadaguru ke satsaMga meM nAcane lage, madamasta hone lage,
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________________ to jyAdA dina yaha ahaMkAra TikegA nahIM, yaha to kera-bera kA saMga ho jaaegaa| isake to patte apane se phaTa jaaeNge| yaha to apane se naSTa ho jaaegaa| tuma isa para vicAra bhI mata do, isakA dhyAna bhI mata karo, isakI ciMtA bhI na lo| tuma to DUbo satsaMga meM, samarpaNa meN| yaha dhIre dhIre apane se vidA ho jaaegaa| ise vidA karane kI ceSTA bhI mata krnaa| kyoMki isa para dhyAna denA hI khataranAka hai| isakI upekSA hI isase mukti kA upAya hai| rahane do, jaba taka hai ThIka hai| tuma isakI phikra mata kro| tuma to apanI sArI UrjA samarpaNa meM ddaalo| jaise koI AdamI sIr3hI car3hatA hai, to tumane dekhA, eka paira purAnI sIr3hI para hotA hai, eka paira naI sIr3hI para rakhatA hai! phira jaba naI sIr3hI para paira jama jAtA hai, to pichale paira ko uThA letA hai, phira nae paira ko Age kI sIr3hI para rakhatA hai| lekina aisI bahuta ghar3iyAM hotI haiM jaba eka paira purAnI sIr3hI para hotA hai aura eka naI sIr3hI para hotA hai-tabhI to gati hotI hai| ahaMkAra tumhArI aba taka kI sIr3hI hai; samarpaNa tumhArA paira hai-nae kI talAza meN| jaba taka nae para paira na par3a jAe, taba taka purAne se paira haTAyA bhI nahIM jA sakatA haTAnA bhI mata, nahIM to muMha ke bala giroge| jaba paira jama jAe naI soDhI para, to phira uThA lenA, phira koI Dara nahIM hai| eka bAra paira ko samarpaNa meM jama jAne do, ahaMkAra se uTha jAne meM jyAdA aDUcana na aaegii| lekina jaldI kI bhI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| cIjoM ko unake svAbhAvika DhaMga se dhairyapUrvaka hone do| isase ciMtA mata lenA ki mujhameM ahaMkAra hai to kaise samarpaNa hogA? kamare meM aMdherA hotA hai to tuma yaha pUchate ho ki kamare meM itanA aMdherA hai aura dina do dina kA nahIM, janmoM-janmoM kA hai, na mAlUma kaba se hai, yahAM dIyA jalAeMge choTA-sA jalegA? itane aMdhakAra meM dIyA jalegA? aisA tuma pUchate nahIM, kyoMki tuma jAnate ho ahaMkAra yA aMdhakAra kitanA hI sadiyoM purAnA ho, usakA koI astitva nahIM hai| dIyA jale-bodha kA, samarpaNa kA, prema kA to jaise aMdhakAra dIye ke jalane para visarjita ho jAtA hai, nA-nuca bhI nahIM karatA, yaha bhI nahIM kahatA khar3e ho kara ki yaha kyA anyAya ho rahA hai; maiM isa kamare meM hajAroM sAla se thA aura Aja tuma acAnaka A gae mehamAna kI taraha aura mujhe nikalanA par3a rahA hai, maiM mejabAna hUM tuma mehamAna ho dIyA abhI jalA hai, maiM kaba. se yahAM maujUda hUM nahIM, aMdhakAra zikAyata bhI nahIM karatA, kara hI nahIM sktaa| aMdhakAra kA koI bala thor3e hI hai! vaha to thA hI isalie ki dIyA nahIM thaa| aba dIyA A gayA, aMdhakAra gyaa| to agara tumhAre bhItara samarpaNa kA bhAva paidA ho gayA hai to ghabar3Ao mt| ahaMkAra kitanA hI prAcIna ho, isa samarpaNa kI naI-sI phUTatI koMpala ke sAmane bhI Tika na skegaa| yaha choTI-sI jo jyoti tumhAre bhItara samarpaNa kI paidA huI hai yaha paryApta hai| yaha sadiyoM purAne, janmoM purAne ahaMkAra ko jalA kara rAkha kara degii| isakA bala bar3A hai| isakA bala tumheM patA nahIM hai, isalie ciMtA uThatI hai| aura isa ciMtA meM tuma kahIM bhUla mata kara baiThanA, tuma isa ciMtA meM kahIM ahaMkAra ke saMbaMdha meM bahuta vicAra mata karane laganA ki kaise ise chor3e, kaise ise haTAe! isa ciMtA meM vaha jo UrjA dIye ko jalAne meM laganI cAhie thI, vaha khaMDita ho jaaegii|
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________________ tuma to samagra bhAva se, saba ciMtAeM chor3akara samarpaNa meM apanI UrjA ko uMDele cale jaao| vahI to UrjA hai, jaba sArI kI sArI samarpaNa meM samAviSTa ho jAegI to ahaMkAra ke lie kucha bhI na bcegaa| ahaMkAra apane se calA jAtA hai| tIsarA prazna : mere jIvana ke kore kAgaja para Apane kyA likha diyA ki merA jIvana hI badala gayA? jisa prema aura AnaMda kI talAza mujhe janmoM se thI, vaha prema aura AnaMda mujhe ayAcita guru-prasAda ke rUpa meM mila gyaa| maiM to isakA pAtra bhI nahIM thaa| prabhu, jo saMpadA Apane mujhe dI hai, usako maiM bAMTanA cAhatA huuN| kRpA kara nirdeza aura AzISa deN| pahalI to bAta, tumhAre jIvana ke kore kAgaja para maiMne kucha likhA nhiiN| tumhAre jIvana kA kAgaja korA nahIM thA, use korA kiyaa| isa bhrAMti ko pAlanA mata, anyathA jJAna kI jagaha jAnakArI meM jakar3a jaaoge| maiMne tumhAre jIvana ke kAgaja para kucha likhA nahIM tumane likha liyA ho, to merI koI jimmevArI nhiiN| merI to sArI ceSTA tumhAre jIvana ke kAgaja para jo-jo tumane likha rakhA hai, usako poMcha DAlane kI hai| maiM tumhArI sArI jAnakArI chIna lenA cAhatA huuN| maiM tumheM nipaTa nirveda kI dazA meM chor3a denA cAhatA huuN| nirveda hI nirvANa hai| aura vahI huA bhI hai| lekina tumhI purAnI Adata dekhane aura socane kI galata vyAkhyA kie calI jAtI hai| vahI huA bhI hai| tuma kahate ho : 'mere jIvana ke kore kAgaja para Apane kyA likha diyA ki merA jIvana hI badala gayA? maiMne kucha bhI nahIM likhA hai kyoMki likhane se kabhI kisI kA jIvana badalA nhiiN| likhane se to jo likhA thA, usameM hI aura thor3A jur3a jAtA hai| saba likhA huA phuTanoTa siddha hotA hai| tumhArI kitAba bahuta purAnI hai| tuma bar3A zAstra lie baiThe ho bar3I bahI-khAtA! isameM maiM kucha likhUgA to vaha bhI eka phuTanoTa banegA; isase jyAdA kucha hone vAlA nahIM hai| tumhArA likhA huA to tumhArA pUrA atIta hai| isameM maiM likhUgA bhI to vaha kho jaaegaa| nahIM, likhane kA maiM prayAsa bhI nahIM kara rahA huuN| zikSaka aura guru meM yahI pharka hai| zikSaka likhatA hai; guru miTAtA hai| zikSaka sikhAtA hai, guru, jo tuma sIkha cuke ho, usase tumheM mukta karatA hai| zikSaka jJAna detA hai guru jJAna ke Upara uThane kI kalA
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________________ detA hai| zikSaka guru nahIM hai; guru zikSaka nahIM hai| ina zabdoM kA bar3A bhinna AyAma hai| zikSaka vaha, jo tumheM zikSA de, saMskAra de, anuzAsana de, jIvana-vyavasthA, zailI de! zikSaka vaha, jo tumheM kucha de, tumheM bhare ! zikSaka vaha, jo tumhAre bhItara uDelatA jAe aura tumheM bhara de, aura tumheM yaha bhrAMti dene lage ki tuma bhI jAnate ho, pramANa-patra de de, DigriyAM de de| guru vahI, jo tumheM korA kare; jo tumane sIkhA hai, use kaise anasIkhA karo, yahI sikhAe / eka jarmana vicAraka ramaNa maharSi ke pAsa aayaa| aura usane kahA ki maiM bar3I dUra se AyA hUM aura Apase kucha sIkhane kI AzA hai| ramaNa ne kahA, phira tuma galata jagaha A ge| hama to yahAM sIkhe ko bhulAte haiN| agara sIkhanA hai to kahIM aura jaao| yahAM to jaba mUlane kI taiyArI ho, taba AnA / lekina vahI huA hai, jo maiM kaha rahA huuN| kyoMki agara vaha nahIM huA hotA to vaha jo tumheM jIvana kI badalAhaTa mAlUma ho rahI hai, vaha badalAhaTa nahIM ho sakatI thii| tumhAre purAne jAla meM kucha bhI jor3a do, tumhAre purAne khaMDahara meM kucha bhI jor3a do - kucha pharka hone vAlA nahIM; tumhArA khaMDahara, khaMDahara rhegaa| tumhArI prAcInatA bar3I hai, usameM kucha bhI nayA jor3A jAe, vaha kho jaaegaa| vaha to aisA hai ki jaise sAgara meM koI eka cammaca zakkara DAla de aura AzA kare ki sAgara mIThA ho jaaegaa| tumhAre bhItara zakkara DAlane kA savAla nahIM hai- tumhAre bhItara se to kaise tumhAre viSa ko bAhara kiyA jAe .. / aura tuma aba taka jo bhI rahe ho, galata rahe ho| jo bhI tumane kiyA hai aura socA hai vaha saba galata huA hai tumhArA jIvana sirpha eka samasyA hai| tumane jIvana ke rahasya ko jAnA nahIM aura na jIvana utsava meM tuma praviSTa hue ho| tuma to samasyAoM ke jaMgala meM kho gae ho| maiM tumheM siddhAMta nahIM de rahA huuN| maiM tumhArI samasyAeM chIna rahA hUM / para tumhArI vyAkhyA svAbhAvika hai| jo ghaTegA nayA, usako bhI to tuma purAnI hI AMkhoM se dekhoge / to tuma 'kahate ho. 'mere jIvana ke kore kAgaja para Apane kyA likha diyA ki merA jIvana hI badala gayA? jIvana badalA hai, kyoMki tumhAre jIvana ke kAgaja se maiMne kucha likhAvaTeM chIna lI haiM; tumheM thor3I jagaha dI; tumheM thor3A rikta sthAna diyA; tumhAre bhItara ke kUDe - kabAr3a ko thor3A kama kiyA; tumheM thor3A avakAza diyA hai| usI avakAza meM utaratA hai paramAtmA / jaba tuma bilakula khAlI hote ho, to paramAtmA utaratA hai| jaba taka tuma bhare hote ho, taba taka usako jagaha hI nahIM ki utara aae| varSA hotI hai, dekhA? pahAr3oM para bhI hotI hai; lekina pahAr3a khAlI raha jAte haiM, kyoMki pahale se hI bhare haiN| phira khAI - khaDDoM meM hotI hai to jhIleM bana jAtI haiM; kyoMki khAI - khaDDe khAlI the, jagaha thI, to pAnI bhara jAtA hai| paramAtmA to barasa hI rahA hai, saba para barasa rahA hai, jitanA mujha para utanA tuma para; lekina agara tuma bhare ho to tuma khAlI raha jAoge, agara tuma khAlI ho to bhara die jaaoge| isa jIvana ke rahasyapUrNa niyama ko ThIka se khayAla meM le lenaa| agara tuma bhare ho pahAr3a kI taraha aura tumhArA ahaMkAra pahAr3a ke zikhara kI taraha akar3A khar3A hai, to paramAtmA barasatA rahegA aura tuma vaMcita raha jaaoge| tuma bana jAo jhIla kI taraha, khAI - khaDDoM kI taraha, nirahaMkAra, vinamra, nA kucha, dAvedAra
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________________ nahIM, sirpha zUnya ke udaghoSaka - aura paramAtmA tumheM bhara degaa| tuma miTo! yahI to aSTAvakra ne kahA ki jaba taka 'maiM hUM, taba taka satya nhiiN| jahAM 'maiM' na rahA, vahIM satya utara AtA hai| merI pUrI ceSTA tumheM yaha adabhuta kalA sikhAne kI hai ki tuma kaise miTo ki tuma kaise maro / isalie to maiM kahatA hUM. maiM mRtyu sikhAtA huuN| kyoMki vahI dvAra hai parama jIvana ko pAne kaa| isase hI badalAhaTa kI kiraNa tumhAre bhItara AI hai| 'jisa prema aura AnaMda kI talAza mujhe janmoM se thI, vaha prema aura AnaMda mujhe ayAcita guru prasAda ke rUpa meM mila gyaa|' ayAcita hI milatA hai / yAcanA se kucha mile do kaur3I kA hai| mAMga kara kucha mile, mUlya na rhaa| bina mAMge mile, to hI mUlyavAna hai| dhyAna rakhanA, isa jagata meM bhikhArI kI taraha tuma agara mAMgate rahe, mAMgate rahe... vahI to vAsanA hai| vAsanA kA artha kyA hai? maaNg| tuma kahate ho : yaha mile, yaha mile, yaha mile! tuma jitanA mAMgate ho, utanA bar3A bhikhamaMgApana hotA jAtA hai, aura utanA hI jIvana tumheM lagatA hai viSAda se bharA huaa| tuma jo mAMgate ho milatA nahIM mAlUma hotA / svAmI rAma ne kahA hai ki eka rAste se maiM gujaratA thaa| eka baccA bahuta parezAna thaa| subaha thI, dhUpa nikalI thI, sardI ke dina the aura baccA apAna meM khela rahA thaa| vaha apanI chAyA ko pakar3ana cAhatA thaa| to ucaka - ucaka kara chAyA ko pakar3a rahA thaa| bAra-bAra thaka jAtA thA, dukhI ho jAtA thA, usakI AMkha meM AMsU A gae, phira chalAMga lagAtA / lekina jaba tuma chalAMga lagAoge, tumhArI chAyA bhI chalAMga lagA jAtI hai| vaha chAyA ko pakar3ane kI koziza karatA hai, chAyA nahIM pakar3a pAtA hai| rAma khar3e dekha rahe haiM, khilakhilA kara haMsane lge| usa bacce ne rAma kI tarapha dekhA / ve bar3e pyAre saMnyAsI the, adabhuta saMnyAsI the! ve usa bacce ke pAsa ge| unhoMne kahA, jo maiM karatA rahA janma-janma, vahI tU kara rahA hai| phira maiMne to tarakIba pA lI, maiM tujhe tarakIba batA dUM? vaha choTA-sA baccA rotA huA bolA : batAeM, kaise pakaDUM? rAma ne usakA hAtha uThA kara usake mAthe para rakha diyaa| dekhA udhara chAyA para bhI usakA hAtha mAthe para par3a gyaa| vaha baccA haMsane lgaa| vaha prasanna ho gyaa| usa bacce kI mAM ne rAma se kahA, Apane hada kara dI ! Apake bacce haiM? rAma ne kahA, mere bacce to nhiiN| lekina janmoM-janmoM kA yahI anubhava merA bhI hai| jaba taka daur3o, pakar3o-hAtha kucha nahIM aataa| jaba apane para hAtha rakha kara baiTha jAo, hAtha phailAo hI mata, mAMgo hI mata, daur3o hI mata chInA-jhapaTI chor3o - saba mila jAtA hai| rAma ne kahA, maiMne eka ghara kyA chor3A, sArA vizva merA ho gyaa| eka kuTiyA, eka AMgana kyA chor3A, sArA AkAza merA AMgana ho gyaa| aba cAMda-tAre mere Ayana meM calate haiM, kuja mere Ayana meM nikalatA hai|
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________________ tumhAre jIvana meM jo bhI mahatvapUrNa ghaTegA, ayAcita ghttegaa| aura nahIM ghaTa rahA hai, kyoMki tuma yAcanA se bhare ho, tumhArI yAcanA hI avarodha bana rahI hai| mAMgo mt| agara cAhate ho to mAMgo mt| agara cAhate ho to cAho mt| hogA, apane se ho jAtA hai| yaha tumhIM thor3e hI paramAtmA ko talAza rahe ho, paramAtmA bhI tumheM talAza rahA hai| agara tumhIM talAza rahe hote to khojanA muzkila thaa| agara vaha chipa rahA hotA to khojanA muzkila thaa| kaise tuma talAzate? kucha patA-ThikAnA bhI to nahIM uskaa| vaha bhI tumheM talAza rahA hai| usake bhI adRzya hAtha tumhAre AsapAsa Ate haiM, magara tumheM maujUda hI nahIM paate| tuma kucha aura hI khoja meM nikala gae ho| ____ do mitra eka subaha mile| eka ne kahA, rAta maiMne sapanA dekhA ki gAMva meM jo pradarzanI, numAiza lagI hai, maiM use dekhane gayA huuN| bar3A majA AyA sapane meM numAiza gayA hUM dekhane bar3A majA aayaa| dUsare ne kahA. are isameM kyA rakhA hai, rAta maiMne sapanA dekhA ki hemAmAlinI aura maiM donoM eka nAva para savAra, pUrNimA kI rAta zaradapUrNimA! mitra jarA udAsa ho gyaa| usane kahA ki are, to tumane mujhe kyoM nahIM bulAyA? to usane kahA, maiM gayA thA, tumhArI mAM ne kahA ki vaha to numAiza meM gayA hai| paramAtmA tumhAre pAsa AtA hai, lekina tuma kahIM aura ho, tuma kabhI ghara milate nahIM, tuma koI aura sapanA dekha rahe ho, tuma kisI numAiza meM gae ho, tuma kisI mele meM bhaTaka rahe ho| tuma vahAM to hote hI nahIM jahAM tuma dikhAI par3ate ho| aura paramAtmA abhI taka nahIM samajha pAyA aura kabhI nahIM samajha pAegA, kyoMki paramAtmA to vahIM hotA hai jahAM dikhAI par3atA hai| vaha abhI bhI nahIM samajha pAyA ki yaha asaMbhava kaise ghaTa rahA hai, ki AdamI jahAM dikhAI par3atA hai vahAM hotA nahIM! vaha tumheM vahIM khojatA hai-apane sIdhe saralapana meM, jahAM tuma dikhAI par3ate ho lekina vahAM tuma hote nhiiN| baiThe pUnA meM ho sakate ho, aura hoo dillI meN| ho sakate ho ki baiThe daphtara ke bAhara eka choTe se ple para- caparAsI aura soca rahe ho ki rASTrapati ho gae ho| to jo tuma soca rahe ho, vahIM tumhArA honA hai| yahAM to deha baiThI hai murde kI bhAMti, lekina paramAtmA yahIM khojegaa| aura tumhArA mana yAcanAoM ke jAla meM bhAgA huA hai- bhaviSya meN| na mAlUma kahAM-kahAM para mArate ho tuma! jisa dina tuma kucha na mAMgoge, usa dina eka krAMti ghaTatI hai, usa dina tuma apane ghara hote ho| jaba mAMga hI nahIM rahI to kahIM jAnA na rhaa| mAMga le jAtI hai, dUra-dUra bhaTakAtI hai-cAMda-tAro meM, bhaviSya meM, svarga-narakoM meN| mAMga ke, yAcanA ke kAraNa hI samaya paidA hotA hai| maiM jaba kahatA hUM mAMga ke kAraNa samaya paidA hotA hai, to tuma ghar3I ke samaya kI mata socnaa| ghar3I kA samaya to alaga bAta hai, lekina tumhAre aMtasa-jagata meM jo samaya hai, jo kAla kI ghaTanA ghaTatI hai, vaha yAcanA ke kAraNa ghaTatI hai| tuma mAMgate ho, isalie bhaviSya paidA hotA hai| agara tuma mAMgo na to kaisA bhaviSya? agara tuma kala ke saMbaMdha meM na soco to kaisA kala? to phira sirpha Aja hai, Aja bhI kahanA ThIka nahIM-' abhI' hai-yahI kSaNa! basa eka kSaNa hI sadA hai-yahI kSaNa! yahI zAzvata hai|
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________________ ayAcita milatA hai paramAtmA / kyoMki jaba tuma yAcanA nahIM karate, samaya miTa jAtA hai, samaya bhaTakane ke sapane miTa jAte haiN| jaba tuma yAcanA nahIM karate, taba tuma ThIka vahAM hote ho jahAM tuma ho, tuma apane keMdra para hote ho| vahIM paramAtmA kA hAtha tumheM khoja sakatA hai aura kahIM nahIM khoja sktaa| isalie aSTAvakra ne kahA jo jaisA hai, use vaisA hI jAna lenaa| jo prApta hai, usa prApta meM saMtuSTa ho jaanaa| to phira tuma vahIM rahoge, jahAM tuma ho| jo prApta hai, usameM saMtuSTa; aura jo jaisA hai usakA vaisA hI svIkAra; na sukha kI AkAMkSA, na dukha se bacane kA upAya sukha hai to sukha hai, dukha hai to dukha hai-tuma sAkSI - mAtra ! isa ghar3I meM ayAcita svarga kA rAjya tuma para barasa uThatA hai| tuma thor3e hI svarga ke rAjya meM jAte ho, svarga kA rAjya tuma para barasa jAtA hai| 'ayAcita guru- prasAda ke rUpa meM mila gyaa| ' aura guru to kevala dvAra hai agara tuma guru ke pAsa jhuke to tuma dvAra ke pAsa jhuke| guru koI vyakti nahIM hai aura guru ko bhUla kara bhI vyakti kI taraha socanA mata, anyathA, guru ko tumane vyakti socA ki dIvAla banA liyaa| guru vyakti nahIM hai| guru to eka ghaTanA hai, eka apUrva ghaTanA hai! usake pAsa jhuka kara agara tumane dekhA to tuma guru ke Ara-pAra dekha paaoge| guru hai hI nahIM - nahIM hai, isIlie guru hai| usake na hone meM hI usakA sArA rAja hai| tuma agara guru meM gaura se dekhoge to tuma pAoge pAradarzI hai| jaise kAca ke ArapAra dikhAI par3atA hai| zuddha kAca ! patA bhI nahIM calatA ki bIca meM kucha hai - aisA guru hai pAradarzI vyktitv| Thosa nahIM hai usake bhItara kucha bhI / agara tumane guru meM gaura se dekhA.. aura gaura se to tuma tabhI dekhoge jaba tumhAre bhItara prema aura samarpaNa hogA, zraddhA hogI, bharosA hogA - to tuma AMkheM gar3A kara gaura se dekhoge, tuma guru para dhyAna kroge| tumane sunI hai guru para dhyAna karane kI bAta lekina artha zAyada tumane kabhI na samajhA ho / guru para dhyAna karane kA matalaba hotA hai ki apane guru kA nAma japo ? - nhiiN| guru para dhyAna karane kA matalaba yaha nahIM hotA ki guru kA phoTo rakha lo aura usako dekho| nahIM, guru para dhyAna karane kA artha hotA hai. guru ko dekho - aura dekho usake na hone ko ki vaha hai nahIM / dekho usake bhItara jo zUnya ghanA ho kara upasthita huA hai, jo anupasthiti upasthita huI hai use dekho! aura usa dekhane meM, dekhane meM se acAnaka tumheM paramAtmA kI jhalaka milanI zurU ho jaaegii| guru dvAra hai| jIsasa ne kahA hai 'maiM hUM dvArA maiM hUM mArga' ThIka kahA hai| jinase kahA thA, ve ziSya the, unake lie hI kahA thaa| jo bhI tumheM guru jaisA lage, jo tumhAre mana ko bhA jAe, phira usa para dhyAna karane laganA / isa dhyAna kI prakriyA ko hama satsaMga kahate rahe haiN| satsaMga kA artha hotA hai guru ke pAsa baiTha jAnA aura cupacApa baiThe rahanA; dekhanA, jhAMkanA, apane ko zAMta karake, vicAra-zUnya karake, khAlI karake guru kI maujUdagI kA AnaMda lenA, svAda lenA! guru kA svAda - satsaMga- dhIre- dhIre cakhanA! dhIre- dhIre guru
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________________ madhurimA tumameM vyApta hotI jAe ! dhIre - dhIre guru tumhAre bhItara uThane lage, tumhAre kaMTha se tumhAre hRdaya meM jAne lage! eka musalamAna phakIra bAyajIda eka maraghaTa se nikalatA thaa| acAnaka use aisA bhAsa huA ki koI usase kahatA hai hRdaya ke aMtaratama se ki ruka jA ! isa maraghaTa meM kucha hone ko hai / to usane aura mitroM ko vidA kara diyaa| mitroM ne kahA bhI ki yaha maraghaTa hai, yaha koI rukane kI jagaha nahIM, rAta takalIpha meM par3a jAoge, bhUta-preta hote haiN| usane kahA ki bhItara mujhe kucha kahatA hai, ruka jA ! Apa loga jaaeN| to vaise bhI nahIM rukanA cAhate the, maraghaTa meM kauna rukanA cAhatA thA! lekina akelA bAyajIda ruka gyaa| phira bhItara se usako AvAja huI ki isake pahale ki sUraja Dhala jAe tU bahuta sI khopaDiyAM ikaTThI kara le| thor3A bhayabhIta bhI huA ki yaha mAmalA kyA hai yaha koI bhUta-preta to nahIM, jo mujhe isa taraha ke sujhAva de rahA hai! lekina usane kahA, merA agara paramAtmA para bharosA hai to vaha jAne / usane kucha khopaDiyAM ikaTThI kara liiN| jaba vaha khopaDiyAM ikaTThI kara rahA thA to bhItara se AvAja huI eka-eka khopar3I ko gaura se dekh| to usane kahA, khopar3I meM gaura se dekhane ko kyA hai? sabhI khopaDiyAM eka jaisI hotI haiN| phira bhI AvAja huI ki koI khopar3I eka jaisI nahIM hotii| do AdamI eka jaise nahIM hote to do khopaDiyAM kaise eka jaisI ho sakatI haiM? dekha, gaura se dekha! usane eka-eka khopar3I ko gaura se dekhA, vaha bar3A cakita huaa| kucha khopar3iyA~ thIM jinake donoM kAna ke bIca meM dIvAla thI- to eka kAna meM kucha par3e to dUsare kAna taka nahIM phuNce| kucha khopaDiyAM thIM, jinake donoM kAna ke bIca meM suraMga thI - eka kAna meM pahuMce to dUsare kAna taka pahuMca jaae| aura kucha khopaDiyAM thIM, jinameM na kevala donoM kAnoM ke bIca meM suraMga thI, balki usa suraMga ke madhya se eka aura suraMga AtI thI jo hRdaya taka calI gaI thI, jo nIce kaMTha meM utara gaI thii| vaha bar3A hairAna huaa| usane kahA, hama to socate the sabhI khopaDiyAM eka jaisI hotI haiN| he prabhu! aba isakA artha aura batA do ! to usane kahA, pahalI khopaDiyAM una logoM kI haiM, jo sunate mAlUma par3ate the, lekina jinhoMne kabhI sunA nhiiN| dUsarI khopaDiyAM una logoM kI haiM, jo sunate the, lekina dUsare kAna se nikAla dete the- jinhoMne kabhI gunA nhiiN| aura tIsarI khopar3iyA~ una logoM kI haiM, jinhoMne sunA aura jo hRdaya meM pI ge| ye tIsarI khopar3iyAM satsagiyoM kI haiN| jaba maiMne bAyajIda ke jIvana meM yaha ullekha par3hA to bar3A pyArA lagA. tIsarI khopaDiyAM satsagiyoM kI haiM! ye samAdara yogya haiM! satsaMga kA artha hotA hai guru ke paas| agara bole guru to usake zabda sunanA, agara na bole to usakA mauna sunanA / kucha karane ko kahe to kara denA kucha na karane ko kahe to na karanA / guru ke pAsa honaa| isa pAsa hone ko apane bhItara utarane denaa| vaha jo guru kI taraMga hai, usa taraMga ke sAtha taraMgita honaa| vaha jo guru kI bhAva - dazA hai, thor3e-thor3e usake sAtha ur3anA /
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________________ tumane dekhA, choTe-choTe pakSiyoM ko unake mAM-bApa apane sAtha ur3Ate haiN| unake paMkha abhI kamajora haiM, lekina mAM-bApa sAtha jA rahe haiM to ve bhI himmata karate haiN| thor3I dUra jAte haiM, phira thaka kara lauTa aate| phira dUsare dina aura thor3I dUra jAte, phira thaka kara lauTa aate| phira tIsare dina aura thor3I dUra jaate| eka dina, dUra sArA AkAza unakA apanA ho jAtA hai| phira mAM-bApa ke sAtha jAne kI jarUrata bhI nahIM hotI, phira ve akele jAne lagate haiN| aisA hI hai paramAtmA kA anubhv| guru ke sAtha thor3A thor3A ur3a kara tumhAre paMkha majabUta ho jaaeN| thor3A-thor3A jAte-jAte, tumhArI himmata bar3hatI jaaegii| zraddhA, svayaM para bharosA paidA hogaa| eka dina guru kI koI jarUrata na raha jAegI-tumhAre bhItara kA guru jaga gayA! bAhara kA guru to bhItara ke guru ko jagAne kA eka upAya mAtra hai| 'janmoM-janmoM se jisakI mujhe khoja thI, vaha prema aura AnaMda mujhe ayAcita guru-prasAda ke rUpa meM mila gyaa|' agara tuma yAcanA-zUnya ho to milegaa| agara tuma guru ke pAsa ho to prasAda brsegaa| pAsa hone se hI barasatA hai, kucha karane kI bahuta bAta nahIM hai| koI pahuMca gayA usakI maujUdagI meM tumhArA jIvana bhI usa dhArA meM bahane lagatA hai| koI pahuMca gayA hai, usake sAtha-sAtha tuma bhI uThane lagate ho AkAza kI tarapha; gurutvAkarSaNa kA vajana tuma para kama hone lagatA hai| koI ur3a cukA kisI ne jAna liyA ki ur3ane kI ghaTanA hotI hai, ghaTatI hai! kisI kA sArA AkAza apanA ho gayA! usakI maujUdagI meM tuma bhI apane paMkha dhIre - dhIre phar3aphar3Ane lagate ho| basa itanA hii| 'maiM to isakA pAtra bhI nahIM thaa|' jaba bhI yaha ghaTanA ghaTegI, to nizcita yaha bhI anubhava meM AegA ki maiM isakA pAtra nahIM thaa| kyoMki paramAtmA itanI bar3I ghaTanA hai ki koI bhI usakA pAtra nahIM ho sktaa| jo kahe ki maiM pAtra thA, use to paramAtmA ghaTatA hI nhiiN| apAtra ko ghaTatA nahIM, kyoMki apAtra taiyAra nhiiN| supAtra ko ghaTatA hai, lekina tabhI, jaba supAtra kahatA hai. maiM bilakula apAtra huuN| yaha virodhAbhAsa dekhate ho apAtra ko ghaTatA nahIM, kyoMki usakA pAtra taiyAra nahIM, phUTA hai, jagaha-jagaha se TUTA hai, agara ThIka bhI hai, to ulTA rakhA hai| barasate raho lAkha usa para, saba baha jAegA, usameM na bhregaa| yA, sIdhA bhI rakhA hai to Dhakkana baMda hai| usakA Dhakkana bhItara na jAne degA; khulA nahIM hai; kucha bhItara lene ko rAjI nahIM hai| apAtra ko to kabhI paramAtmA nahIM ghaTatA, supAtra ko ghaTatA hai| supAtra kA artha hai, jisameM chidra nahIM! supAtra kA artha hai, jo ulTA nahIM rkhaa| supAtra kA artha hai, jo sIdhA rakhA hai| supAtra kA artha hai, jisakA Dhakkana khulA hai, Dhakkana baMda nhiiN| basa, yahI to ziSyatva hai| lekina, supAtra kA eka anivArya aMga hai. yaha bhAva ki maiM bilakula apAtra huuN| maiM itanA choTA sA pAtra, itanI bar3I ghaTanA mujhameM ghaTegI kaise! tuma sIdhe bhalA rakhe raho, Dhakkana khola kara rakhe raho, chidra bhI nahIM hai, to bhI itanI bar3I ghaTanA mujhameM ghaTa sakatI hai-yaha kabhI bharosA nahIM aataa| jaba ghaTa jAtA hai, taba bhI bharosA nahIM aataa| sUphI phakIra kahate haiM ki saMsAra se paramAtmA ko jor3ane vAlA jo setu hai, usake isa pAra khar3e
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________________ ho kara bharosA nahIM AtA ki yaha setu dUsarI pAra jAtA hogA, kyoMki dUsarA pAra dikhAI hI nahIM par3atA / yaha setu kahIM rAste meM hI trizaMku kI taraha aTakA to nahIM degA? kyoMki dUsarA kinArA to dikhAI hI nahIM par3atA hai| aura jaba koI usa setu para car3ha kara dUsare kinAre para pahuMca jAtA hai, taba bhI yaha bharosA nahIM aataa| kyoMki aba pahalA kinArA dikhAI nahIM pdd'taa| aba zaka- subahA hone lagatA hai ki pahalA kinArA thA bhI! ghaTanA itanI bar3I hai - isa tarapha se bhI samajha meM nahIM AtI, usa tarapha se bhI samajha meM nahIM aatii| ghaTanA itanI bar3I hai ! samajha se bar3I hai, isalie samajha meM nahIM AtI / pAtra choTA hai, jo prasAda barasatA hai, vaha bahuta bar3A hai| pAtra kI sImA hai, prasAda hai asIma, anirvacanIya, avyAkhya / isalie supAtra kI anivArya zarta hai isa bAta kA bodha ki maiM to apAtra huuN| jo dAvedAra banA vaha paramAtmA se cuukaa| jisane kahA mujhe milanA cAhie kyoMki dekho kitanI maiMne kI tapazcaryA, kitane upavAsa, kitane vrata, kitane niyama, kitane anuzAsana, kitanA dhyAna, kitanI namAja, kitanI prArthanA; mujhe milanA cAhie; yaha merA hisAba hai; mere sAtha anyAya ho rahA hai; yaha dekho to maiMne kyA-kyA kiyA - vaha cUka jaaegaa| usake isa dAve meM hI cUka jAegA, kyoMki dAvA kSudra kA hai| tumane kitane bAra sira jhukAyA, isase kyA lenA-denA? paramAtmA ke milane se kyA saMgati hai ki tumane namAja meM bahuta sira jhukAyA kavAyada ho gaI hogI to usakA tumheM lAbha bhI mila gayA hogA! ki tumane yogAsana kie, to ThIka, tuma thor3e jyAdA dina jiMdA raha lie hooge ! ki tumane prArtha kI to prArthanA kA majA le liyA hogaa| prArthanA kA saMgIta hai, usameM thor3I dera tuma praphullita ho lie hooge| aura kyA cAhie 1: tumane jo kiyA, usase kucha dAvA nahIM bntaa| isalie jo dAvedAra haiM, ve cUka jAte haiN| yahAM to gaira- dAvedAra pAte haiN| to tuma patha ke dAvedAra mata bananA / tuma yaha to kahanA hI mata kabhI bhUla kara ki aba mujhe milanA cAhie; jo maiM kara sakatA thA, kara cukA / vahI bAdhA ho jAegI - vaha bhAva ! tuma to yahI jAnanA ki mere kie kyA hogA ! karatA hUM kyoMki binA kie nahIM rahA jaataa| kucha karatA hUM lekina mere kie honA kyA hai! mere hAtha choTe haiM; jo pAnA hai, bahuta virATa hai merI muTThI meM kaise samAegA? maiMne sunA hai, eka kavi himAlaya kI yAtrA ko gayA / usane pahAr3oM se utarate gleziyara, unakI sarakatI huI maramara dhvani sunii| vaha apanI preyasI ke lie eka botala meM gleziyara kA jala bhara laayaa| ghara A kara jaba botala se jala uMDelA to ghuppa - ghuppa isake sivA kucha AvAja na huii| usane kahA yaha mAmalA kyA hai? kyoMki jaba maiMne gleziyara meM dekhA thA utaratI pahAr3a se jaladhAra, bahatI jaladhAra meM barpha kI caTTAneM, to aisA madhura rava thA - vaha kahAM gayA? tuma koziza karake dekha sakate ho| gae samudra ke taTa para dekhIM samudra kI ur3A lahareM, TakarAtI caTTAnoM se, karatIM zoragula, dekhA unakA nRtya, AhlAdita hue bhara lAe eka botala meM thor3A-sA sAgara / ghara A kara uMDelA-ghuppa - ghuppa! ve sArI tUphAnI AvAjeM, sAgara kA vaha virATa rUpa, vaha tAMDava nRtya - kucha bhI nahIM, ghuppa - ghuppa - saba kho jAtA hai|
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________________ hamArI botaleM bar3I choTI haiM! paramAtmA kA sAgara sabhI sAgaroM se bar3A hai| hamArI samajha bar3I choTI hai| hama isa samajha meM na to anaMta sauMdarya bhara pAte, na anaMta satya bhara pAte, na anaMta jIvana bhara paate| isalie dAvedAra mata bnnaa| yaha lakSaNa hai ziSya kA ki vaha jAnatA rahe ki maiM to isakA pAtra hI nahI-aura tuma pAtra ho jaaoge| jAnate-jAnate ki maiM pAtra nahIM pAtratA bar3I hogii| tuma jisa dina kahoge, maiM bilakula apAtra hUM-usI kSaNa ghaTanA ghaTa jAegI; usI kSaNa saba tumhAre bhItara utara aaegaa| tumhAre 'na hone' meM saba hai! tumhAre 'hone' meM saba aTakA hai| 'jo saMpadA Apane mujhe dI, usako maiM bAMTanA cAhatA huuN| kRpApUrvaka nirdeza aura AzISa veM cAha mata lAo bIca meN| bAMTanA cAhate ho to gar3abar3a ho jaaegii| bttegii| tuma pratIkSA kro| jaba tuma khUba bhara jAoge to Upara se bhegii| jaldI mata karanA, kyoMki bAMTane kI agara ceSTA kI to usI ceSTA meM tumhArA ahaMkAra phira se khar3A ho sakatA hai| aura usI ceSTA meM, jo jJAna kI taraha bana rahA thA, vaha jAnakArI kI taraha mara jA sakatA hai| tuma ceSTA mata karanA, tuma pratIkSA kro| jaise ayAcita ghaTanA ghaTI hai, aise hI ayAcita tumase baMTanI bhI S)rU ho jaaegii| kyA hogA? eka pAtra rakhA hai, varSA kA jala gira rahA hai, bhara gayA, bhara gayA, bhara gayA-kyA hogA phira? phira pAtra ke Upara se jaladhAra bhegii| bar3I se bar3I jhIleM bhara jAtI haiM to unake Upara se jaladhAra bahane lagatI hai| nadiyAM bhara jAtI haiM to bAr3ha A jAtI hai| jaba tumhAre bhItara itanA bhara jAegA ki tuma na saMbhAla sakoge, taba apane se bhegaa| basa, usakI pratIkSA kro| aura koI nirdeza maiM na dUMgA, kyoMki tumane koI bhI ceSTA kI to kharAba kara loge| tumhArI ceSTA vikRti laaegii| tuma to kaho. jaba tujhe baMTanA ho, baMTa jAnA! phira jaba baMTane lage to tuma rokanA mt| tuma apane ko bIca se haTA lo-na tuma bAMTanA, na tuma roknaa| do taraha ke loga haiN| kucha haiM, jaba jinake jIvana meM thor3I-sI kiraNa AtI hai, to ve tatkSaNa utsuka hote haiM ki bAMTa deN| svAbhAvika hai| kyoMki jo itanA prItipUrNa hameM ghaTatA hai hama cAhate haiM hamAre priyajanoM ko bhI mila jaae| yaha bilakula mAnavIya hai| pati ko milA to socatA hai patnI ko kaha de| patnI ko milA to socatI hai pati ko kaha de| kisI ko milA to socatA hai jAUM, apane mitroM ko khabara de dUM ki tuma kahAM bhaTaka rahe ho? mila sakatA hai, milA hai! maiM svAda le kara A rahA huuN| aba yaha maiM koI dhAraNA kI bAta nahIM kara rahA hUM, anubhava kI kaha rahA hU to tumhArA mana hotA hai ki tuma kaha do jA kr| magara galatI meM par3a jaaoge| tumane agara ceSTA karake kahA, to tuma abhI pUre na bhare the| aura ghar3A jaba taka pUrA nahIM bharatA taba taka zoragula karatA hai| jaba bhara jAtA hai, taba mauna se bahatA hai| mauna se hI jAne denA isa bAta ko| aura dhyAna rakhanA, tumane agara zoragula kiyA to ar3acana hogii| eka bAta khayAla meM lo, agara pati ko mila gaI koI bAta, dhyAna kI thor3I-sI saMpadA milI, svAbhAvika hai ki cAhe ki apanI patnI ko de de| aura kSudra saMpadAeM bhI patnI ko dI thIM, isake mukAbale
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________________ to kyA bheMTa hogI! socatA hai apanI patnI ko de de| lekina agara ceSTA kI, ki ar3acana ho jaaegii| tumhArI ceSTA ke kAraNa hI patnI surakSA karane lagegI, tuma para bharosA na kregii| hIre-javAharAta tuma le Ate ho, to ve mAna letI haiM, kyoMki ve pratyakSa dikhAI par3ate haiM, yaha dhyAna to tumhIM ko anubhava hotA hai, use to dikhAI nahIM pdd'taa| vaha kahegI. 'dimAga kharAba ho gayA, hoza meM to haiM / kisa jAla meM par3a gae haiM?' aura patniyAM bar3I vyAvahArika haiM, bar3I pArthiva haiM, bhUmi meM unakI jar3eM haiN| AdamI to thor3A AkAza meM bhI ur3e; unakI bhUmi meM jar3eM haiM, bilakula vyAvahArika haiN| ve kaheMgI : 'kisa nAsamajhI meM par3e ho? are, bAla-baccoM kI phikra kro| kahAM kA dhyAna? abhI dhana pAsa nahIM hai, tuma dhyAna meM laga gae? aura abhI to tuma javAna ho| yaha kyA jhaMjhaTa kara rahe ho rUma' patnI aura upadrava khar3e kara degI agara tumane khaa| kyoMki patnI ko lagegA, tuma to usake hAtha ke bAhara hone lge| patnI aisI koI bhI cIja bardAzta nahIM kara sakatI, jo tumheM mila gaI hai aura jisameM vaha bhAgIdAra nahIM ho sktii| koI cIja prAiveTa, nijI tumheM mila gaI hai, jisako tuma bhAgIdAra nahIM banA sakate patnI ko-patnI bardAzta nahIM kregii| pahale to vaha yahI siddha karegI ki tumheM milI nahIM, tuma bhrama meM par3a gae ho| kahAM milatA? kisako milatA? kisa nAsamajhI meM par3e ho, kisI ke sammohana meM A gae? chor3o ye bAteM, dimAga kharAba ho jaaegaa| vaha tumheM khIMcane kI koziza karane lgegii| jaba taka tuma Ate the dhyAna karane, zAMti kI talAza meM, vaha zAyada rAjI bhI thii| agara tuma masta hone lage.. mastI usane mAMgI bhI na thii| patnI cAhatI thI, pati thor3A zAMta ho jAe, choTI-choTI bAtoM meM jhallAe na, nArAja na ho; patnI kI AkAMkSA yaha nahIM thI ki tuma AtmA-paramAtmA ko jAna lo| vaha itanA hI jAnatI thI ki eka sajjana pati ho jAo-basa, paryApta hai! aba tuma kahane lage, tumheM dhyAna ghaTA! aba tuma gunagunAne lage tuma Dolane lage! aba patnI ghabaDAI ki yaha jarA jyAdA ho gyaa| maiMne sunA hai ki eka yuvatI kisI vyakti ke prema meM thii| yuvatI thI kaitholika IsAI aura jisake vaha prema meM par3I 'thI, vaha thA proTesTeMTa iisaaii| to yuvatI kI mAM ne kahA, yaha vivAha ho nahIM sakatA; hamAre dharma bhinna-bhinna, hamArA saMpradAya bhinn-bhinn| lekina lar3akI bahuta dIvAnI thI to mAM ne kahA : eka hI rAstA hai yaha vivAha karane kA ki vaha lar3akA kaitholika hone ko rAjI ho jaae| pahale tU yaha koziza kr| to lar3akI koziza karane lgii| lar3akA bhI prema meM thaa| aura roja-roja A kara mAM ko khabara dene lagI ki saba ThIka cala rahA hai, dhIre - dhIre vaha jhuka rahA hai| eka dina A kara khabara dI ki Aja to carca bhI gayA thaa| eka dina A kara khabara dI ki aba to vaha kaitholika dharma meM vizvAsa bhI karane lagA hai| aise mahIne biite| eka dina rotI huI ghara aaii| mAM ne pUchA, kyA huA? saba to ThIka cala rahA thA! usane kahA, jarUrata se jyAdA ho gyaa| vaha aba kaitholika pAdarI honA cAhatA hai| aba vaha vivAha
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________________ karanA hI nahIM cAhatA, vaha brahmacarya ! to kaitholika pAdarI to brahmacArI hote haiN| maiMne jarA jarUrata se jyAdA kara diyaa| patnI ne hI, ho sakatA hai, tumheM dhyAna karane bhejA ho, lekina saMnyAsa lene nahIM bhejA thaa| yaha jarA jyAdA ho gyaa| tuma to kaitholika pAdarI hone kI taiyArI karane lge| ho sakatA hai pati ne hI patnI ko bhejA ho, kyoMki kauna pati apanI patnI se parezAna nahIM hai ! vaha kahatA hai ki jA, cala cala aba dhyAna hI sIkha le- kucha to kalaha baMda ho, kucha to ghara meM zAMti rhe| magara pati ne yaha nahIM cAhA thA ki tuma saMnyAsI ho jAo, ki patnI dhyAna meM masta hone lage, ki loka-lAja kho kara mIrA kI taraha nAcane lage - yaha nahIM cAhA thA / yaha to mIrA ke ghara vAloM ko bhI pasaMda nahIM par3A thA, isalie to jahara kA pyAlA bheja diyA thaa| jaldI mata karanA, nahIM to dUsarA bAdhA DAlane lgegaa| jaba tumhAre bhItara kucha paidA hone lage to saMbhAlanA, chipaanaa| kabIra ne kahA hai. 'hIrA pAyo gAMTha gaThiyAyo !' jaldI se gAMTha lagA lenA, kisI ko patA bhI na cale! nahIM to cora bahuta haiM, beImAna bahuta haiM bAdhA DAlane vAle bahuta haiM aura IrSyAlu bahuta haiM aura aisA to koI bhI mAnane ko rAjI nahIM hogA ki tumako dhyAna ho gyaa| kyoMki isase to logoM ke ahaMkAra ko coTa lagatI hai| jaba bhI tuma kahoge mujhe dhyAna ho gayA, koI nahIM mAnane vAlA hai| kyoMki unako nahIM huA, tumheM kaise ho sakatA hai! unase pahale, tumheM ho sakatA hai? koI yaha bAta mAnane ko rAjI nhiiN| isalie jaba bhI tuma bhItara kI saMpadA kI ghoSaNA karoge, saba iMkAra kreNge| vahAM 'camanalAla' baiThe hue haiN| ve kala hI mujhase kaha rahe the ki bar3I muzkila ho gaI hai bar3I ghabar3AhaTa hotI hai| do-tIna mahIne meM Apake pAsa Ane kA mana hone lagatA hai, lekina sArA parivAra bAdhA DAlatA hai| patnI bAdhA DAlatI, beTe bAdhA DAlate, beTiyA bAdhA DAlatIM, par3osI taka samajhAte ki mata jAo, kahAM jA rahe ho? kahate the ki abhI bhI AyA hUM bAmuzkila to bhI beTA sAtha AyA hai ki dekheM ki mAmalA kyA hai tra: kahAM jAte ho bAra- bAra ? huliyA kharAba kara liyA gerue vastra pahana lie- aba bahuta ho gayA, aba ghara meM baiTho, aba kahIM aura Age na bar3ha jAnA ! aba unakA rasa laga rahA hai, aba unakA dhyAna jaga rahA hai, kucha ghaTa rahA hai! nizcita ghaTa rahA hai! unake bhItara jo ghaTa rahA hai, use maiM dekha pAtA huuN| janma ho rahA hai kisI anubhava kaa| lekina aba saba bAdhA DAlane ko utsuka haiM, kyoMki itanI sImA ke bAhara koI bhI jAne nahIM denA caahtaa| patnI samajhAtI hai ki ghara meM hI raho, yahIM dhyAna ityAdi kara lo, vahAM jAne kI jarUrata kyA hai ? lekina jahAM se milatA ho, vahAM Ane kI bAra-bAra AkAMkSA paidA hotI hai - svAbhAvika hai| do-cAra mahIne meM lagane lagatA hai ki phira usa raMga meM thor3A DUba leM, phira thor3e usa saMgIta meM nahA leM, phira thor3A vahAM ho AeM to phira tAjagI ho jAe phira UrjA A jAe, phira jIvana gatimAna hone lage ! nahIM to jIvana meM paThAra A jAte haiN| tuma kahanA hI mata mila jAe to cupacApa rakha lo saMbhAla kara / jaba bahane kI ghar3I AegI,
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________________ taba apane se bhegaa| aura taba koI bhI bAdhA na DAla skegaa| lekina usake pahale to bAdhA Dala sakatI hai, usake pahale to ar3acana A sakatI hai| to abhI jo ho rahA hai use smhaalo| tuma pratIkSA kro| jaba paramAtmA pAegA ki aba ghar3I A gaI ki tumase dUsaroM meM bhI bahA jA sakatA hai, taba apane-Apa mArga khoja legaa| na to tumheM mere nirdeza kI jarUrata hai, na mArga-darzana kii| paramAtmA tumase mArga khoja legA, jaba pAegA ki tuma taiyAra ho ge| jaba phala paka jAte haiM to gira jAte haiN| jaba bAdala jala se bhara jAte haiM to barasa jAte haiN| usake pahale mArga-darzana kI jarUrata hai| isalie maiM mArga-darzana detA bhI nhiiN| maiM kahatA hUM ki usI ke hAtha meM chodd'o| tuma bharate jAo apane aMtastala ko bharate jAo, bharate jAo aura chipAe rakho! apanI tarapha se ceSTA mata karanA bAMTane kii| AkAMkSA paidA hogI, magara usa AkAMkSA meM par3anA mt| aura jisa dina baMTane lage, usa dina dUsarA khatarA paidA hotA hai| phira rokane kI ceSTA mata krnaa| jaba apane se baMTane lage, to baMTane denaa| nahIM to dhIre- dhIre, samhAle-samhAle, ratna ko gAMTha meM gaThiyAye-gaThiyAye gAMTha par3ane kI Adata mata bAMdha lenA ki aba kaise kholeM! nahIM, jaba bttn| cAhe to baMTane denaa| tuma prabhu kI marjI se jIyo! usase kaho. jo terI mrjii| terI marjI pUrI ho! tU cAhatA ho hama chupe raheM to hama chupe raheMge! tU cAhatA ho hamArI kisI ko khabara na ho to hama kisI ko khabara na hone deMge! tU cAhatA ho hama aise hI tere ko bhItara samhAle samhAle jIeM aura vidA ho jAeM, to hama aise hI vidA ho jAeMge! tU cAhatA ho ki gAeM, tU cAhatA ho ki gharoM ke chappara para car3he aura cillAeM aura soyoM ko jagAe, to hama rAjI haiN| magara apanI tarapha se tuma kucha karanA hI mt| tumhArI tarapha se jo hotA hai saba galata hI hotA hai| tuma bIca se haTa jAo-tuma use mArga do! cauthA prazna : Apa kabhI kahate haiM ki vyakti nahIM, samaSTi hI hai; eka pattA bhI usakI marjI ke binA nahIM ddoltaa| aura kabhI kahate haiM ki vyakti kI svataMtratA itanI pUrI hai ki paramAtmA ke lie vahAM jagaha kahAM? aisI dhruvIya viparItatAoM ke bIca hama bar3I ulajhana meM par3a jAte haiN| satya to eka hI honA caahie| kRpApUrvaka hameM smjhaaeN| satya to eka hI hai| lekina satya ke do pahalU haiM-eka isa kinAre se dekhA gayA aura eka usa kinAre se dekhA gyaa| satya ke do pahalU haiM-eka mUrchA meM milI huI jhalaka aura eka parama jAgRti
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________________ meM huA anubhava isalie satya kI do vyAkhyAeM haiM; satya to eka hI / eka usa samaya kI vyAkhyA hai, jaise maiM tumase kaha rahA hUM | jo maiM tumase kaha rahA hUM vaha tumhAre lie abhI satya nahIM hai| aura jo merA satya hai, agara tuma apanA satya mAna lo to tuma bhrAMti meM par3a jAoge / merA satya tumhArA satya nahIM hai| to maiM tumase donoM bAteM kahatA huuN| maiM tumase pahale tumhArA satya kahatA hUM kyoMki vahIM se tumheM yAtrA karanI hai| aura phira maiM tumase apanA satya kahatA hUM ki vahAM tumheM pahuMcanA hai| aba smjho| 'Apa kabhI kahate haiM vyakti nahIM, samaSTi hI hai; eka pattA bhI usakI marjI ke binA nahIM DolatA / ' yaha maiM kahatA hUM - tumhAre kAraNa, tumhArI jagaha se khar3e ho kara tumhAre jUtoM meM khar3e ho kara kahatA hUM ki usakI binA marjI ke eka pattA bhI nahIM hilatA / maiM cAhatA hUM tAki tuma apane ahaMkAra ko haTA do, usakI marjI se hilane lago- usake patte ho jAo! usakI havAeM hilAeM to hilo; usakI havAeM na hilAeM to na hilo / abhI dekhate haiM, havA nahIM hai to vRkSa khar3e haiM! patA bhI nahIM hilatA / koI parezAna nahIM haiN| koI zikAyata nahIM kara rahe haiM ki hama hila kyoM nahIM rahe haiM? havA AegI to hilege; havA nahIM AtI to mauna khar3e haiM, sannATe meM khar3e haiM- dhyAnastha, yogiyoM kI bhAMti / abhI havA AegI to nAceMge bhaktoM kI bhaaNti| yaha maiM tumhArI tarapha se kahatA hUM ki usakI marjI ke binA pattA nahIM hiltaa| kyoMki saca to yaha hai ki hara patte meM vahI hai, isalie usakI binA marjI ke hila bhI kaise sakatA hai? yaha maiM tumhAre lie kaha rahA hUM tAki tuma apanI marjI chor3o aura usakI marjI kI tarapha jhuko| yaha maiM tumase kaha rahA hUM tAki tuma vyakti ko visarjita karo aura samaSTi meM jago tuma kSudra ko chor3o aura virATa kI tarapha calo, tuma lar3oM mata, samarpaNa karo - islie| agara tumane merI bAta samajha lI aura tuma cala par3e, to dUsarI bAta saca ho jaaegii| 'aura kabhI Apa kahate haiM ki vyakti kI svataMtratA itanI pUrI hai ki paramAtmA ke lie vahAM jagaha nhiiN| agara tumane merI bAta mAna lI aura ahaMkAra kA visarjana kara diyA, to tuma svayaM paramAtmA ho gae, aba paramAtmA ke lie bhI jagaha nahIM hai| agara tumane apane ahaMkAra ko chor3a diyA to aba tumhArI svataMtratA parama hai, kyoMki tuma svayaM paramAtmA ho / aba tumhArI marjI se sArA jagata calegA aura hilegaa| isalie tumheM virodhAbhAsa mAlUma par3atA hai| eka daphe maiM kahatA hUM tumhArI marjI se kucha nahIM hotA usakI marjI ke binA pattA nahIM hilatA, aura dUsarI daphe maiM tumase kahatA hUM tuma mAlika ho tuma saba kucha ho ! tumhIM ho cAMda-tAroM ko calAne vAle! svAmI rAma se kisI ne amarIkA meM pUchA ki duniyA ko kisane banAyA? svAmI rAma ne kahA, maiMne 'cAMda-tAre kauna calAtA hai?"
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________________ unhoMne kahA, maiM calAtA hUM / jo pUchA rahA thA, usane kahA ki kSamA kareM, Apa jarA bar3I vikSipta-sI bAta kaha rahe haiM! Apa nahIM the, taba kauna calAtA thA? rAma ne kahA, aisA kabhI huA hI nahIM ki maiM na rahA hoUM / 'Apa mareMge ki nahIM?' usa AdamI ne puuchaa| rAma ne kahA, aisA kabhI huA hI nahIM ki maiM marA hoUM yA mara skuuN| kaThanAI kyA ho rahI hai? donoM ke bIca do alaga bhASAoM meM bAta ho rahI hai| vaha AdamI dekha rahA hai rAma kA rUpa, AkAra, yaha deha, yaha vyakti / aura rAma bAta kara rahe haiM usakI jahAM na koI vyakti hai, na rUpa, na koI deha / Akhira rAma ne kahA ki suno jI, tuma samajha nahIM pA rhe| maiM rAma ke saMbaMdha meM nahIM kaha rahA huuN| maiM yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki rAma ke calAe cAMda-tAre calate haiM, ki rAma ne banAI duniyA | maiMne banAI ! maiM rAma ke pAra hUM! jaba maisUra ko sUlI lagI aura usane ghoSaNA kara dI analahaka kI ki maiM hI satya hUM - to musalamAna na samajha paae| kyoMki unhoMne samajhA, yaha AdamI khudA hone kA dAvA kara rahA hai| musalamAnoM ne to pahalI hI bAta pakar3a rakhI hai ki usakI marjI ke binA pattA nahIM hilatA / vaha dUsarA vaktavya khayAla meM nahIM hai| jaba pahalI bAta pUrI ho jAtI hai to dUsarI bhI ghaTatI hai| jaba tuma apane ko bilakula kho dete ho, to vahI bacatA hai| to jaba maMsUra ne kahA analahaka - maiM satya hUM maiM brahma hUM to ve kyA kaha rahe haiM? ve yaha kaha rahe haiM ki maisUra to aba bacA nahIM, aba brahma hI bacA hai| agara maisUra ne yaha bAta bhArata kahI hotI to koI sUlI na cddh'aataa| hamane pUjA kI hotI sadiyoM taka unake pairoM para phUla car3hAe hote| hama kahate, yaha to upaniSada kA sAra hai. ahaM brahmAsmi, maiM brahma hUM! ye do vaktavya viparIta nahIM haiM, viparIta dikhAI par3ate haiN| eka vaktavya hai tumhArI jagaha se, kyoMki ahaMkAra chor3anA hai, aura eka vaktavya hai usa jagaha se, jahAM ahaMkAra bacA nhiiN| jahAM ahaMkAra nahIM bacA vahAM to sirpha paramAtmA hI bacA - itanA akelA paramAtmA bacA ki aba paramAtmA yaha bhI kyA kahe ki paramAtmA hai| kisase kahanA ? kisako kahanA ? kisake bAbata kahanA ? isalie to mahAvIra ne kahA. appA so paramappA! AtmA hI paramAtmA ho jAtI hai koI aura paramAtmA nahIM hai| isameM kucha Izvara kA virodha nahIM hai| hiMdU galata smjhe| yaha to upaniSada kA sAra hai| isalie to buddha ne yaha bhI kaha diyA ki na paramAtmA hai, na AtmA, kyoMki ina donoM meM to dvaMdva mAlUma hotA hai ki do haiN| isalie buddha ne kahA jo hai, usa saMbaMdha meM maiM kucha kahUMgA hI nahIM / jo nahIM hai, basa usI taka apane vaktavya ko rakhUMgA-na AtmA hai, na paramAtmA hai| phira jo hai, usa saMbaMdha meM kucha bhI na khuuNgaa| vaha tuma ina donoM ko chor3a do aura jAna lo /
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________________ buddha ko hiMduoM ne samajhA ki nAstika hai| nahIM, yaha AstikatA kI AkhirI ghoSaNA hai| isase Upara koI ghoSaNA ho nahIM sakatI / kaThinAI isalie khar3I hotI hai ki buddhapuruSoM ko donoM hI vaktavya dene par3ate haiN| eka to vaktavya tumhArI tarapha se, kyoMki vahAM se yAtrA zurU honI hai| tuma vahIM se to caloge na jahAM tuma khar3e ho ? lekina, agara vaktavya yahIM samApta ho jAe to phira tuma pahuMcoge kahAM? calate hI thor3I rhoge| kahIM pahuMcanA hai| to dUsarA vaktavya hai| eka sAdhaka ke lie hai, eka siddha ke lie| yaha jo aSTAvakra kI gItA hai, yaha siddhAvasthA kA aMtima vaktavya hai| isameM sAdhanA kI jagaha hI nahIM hai| isameM sAdhaka ke lie koI bAta hI nahIM kahI gaI hai| yaha siddha kI ghoSaNA hai| yaha siddha kA gIta hai| isalie maiMne isako mahAgItA kahA hai| kRSNa kI gItA meM arjuna kA dhyAna hai| arjuna kI tarapha se bahuta bAteM kahI gaI haiN| dhIre dhIre, dhIre - dhIre arjuna ko samajhA-samajhA kara yAtrA para nikAlA gayA hai| kRSNa kI gItA arjuna ko samajhAne-bujhAne meM lagI hai ki arjuna kisI taraha nAva para savAra ho jAe, dUsare taTa kI tarapha cle| kahIM-kahIM bIca meM thor3e-bahuta dUsare taTa ke izAre haiM, jahAM kRSNa kahate haiM. 'sarvadharmAna parityajya mAmekaM zaraNaM braja!' saba chor3a, merI zaraNa A! vahAM ve dUsare taTa kI ghoSaNA kara rahe haiN| vahAM ve yaha nahIM kaha rahe haiM ki tU kRSNa kI zaraNa aa| vahAM ve kaha rahe haiM, vaha jo AtyaMtika rUpa hai maiM kA, mAmekaM, vaha jo 'maiM eka!' usa 'maiM eka' meM 'tU' bhI sammilita hai| usake 'tU bAhara nahIM hai| mAma ekam ! usa 'maiM' meM sabhI sammilita haiM, kyoMki vaha eka hI 'maiM' hai| yaha bahuta maje kI bAta hai| tumhArA nAma rAma kisI kA nAma viSNu, kisI kA nAma rahIma, kisI kA nAma rhmaan| lekina tumane dekhA, saba AdamI bhItara apane ko sirpha 'maiM' kahate haiM! saba! rahIma bhI kahatA hai 'maiM, rAma bhI kahatA hai 'maiM', viSNu bhI kahatA hai maiM, rahamAna bhI kahatA hai 'maiM' 'maiM' mAlUma hotA hai sabake bhItara kA sArvabhauma satya hai| jaba kRSNa kahate, mAmekaM zaraNaM braja, to ve yaha kahate haiM ki isa 'maiM, isa eka 'maiM - yahI to brahma hai, yahI to parama satya hai - isa eka kI zaraNa A jA, aura saba chor3a! yaha dUsare taTa kI ghoSaNA hai| lekina kahIM-kahIM ghoSaNAeM haiN| janaka aura aSTAvakra ke bIca jo mahAgItA ghaTI hai, usameM sAdhaka kI bAta hI nahIM hai; usameM siddha kI hI ghoSaNA hai, usameM dUsare taTa kI hI ghoSaNA hai| vaha AtyaMtika mahAgIta hai| vaha usa siddhapuruSa kA gIta hai, jo pahuMca gayA jo apanI mastI meM usa jagata kA gAna gA rahA hai, stuti kara rahA hai| isIlie to janaka kaha sake aho ahaM namo mahyam ! are, Azcarya! merA mana hotA hai, mujhako hI namaskAra kara lUM !' aba isase jyAdA upadrava kI bAta sunI kabhI? 'mujhako hI namaskAra kara lUM apanI hI pUjA kara lUM? apanI hI arcanA kara lUM naivedya car3hA dUM - yaha dUsare taTa kI ghoSaNA hai| jaba bhI maiM tumase kucha kaha rahA hUM to donoM bAteM dhyAna meM haiN| tumhArA arjuna honA maiM bhUlatA
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________________ nhiiN| kyoMki vaha bhUla jAUM, to tumheM koI lAbha na hogaa| isalie aSTAvakra kI mahAgItA se koI baha ta lAbha nahIM huA kyoMki yaha siddhapuruSa kI vANI hai| yaha to jaba siddha lekina siddha hogA koI, taba samajhegA na? isameM sAdhaka kI yAtrA nahIM hai| yaha to maMjila kI bAta hai| isameM sAdhana kI koI bAta hI nahIM hai| kRSNa kI gItA se jyAdA lAbha huA kyoMki usameM sAdhaka kI bAta hai| kRSNa kI gItA para agara tuma caloge, to kisI dina aSTAvakra kI mahAgItA para phuNcoge| ___ maiM tumhArA dhyAna rakhatA hUM ki tuma kahAM khar3e ho| to kabhI tumhArI tarapha se bolatA huuN| lekina sadA tumhArI tarapha se nahIM boltaa| mujhe apane sAtha bhI to nyAya karanA caahie| kabhI kabhI apanI tarapha se bhI bolatA huuN| mujha para bhI to dayA karo ina donoM ke bIca tumheM kabhI-kabhI virodha mAlUma par3egA, lekina vaha AbhAsa hai| AkhirI prazna : zarIra para geruA aura gale meM mAlA dekha kara loga prazna hI prazna pUchate rahate haiN| ve mujhase mere guru kA pramANa bhI mAMgate haiN| aise praznoM ke sAmane kyA karanA cAhie mujhe-cupa raha jAnA cAhie yA kucha kahanA cAhie? kAI niyama banAne kI jarUrata nhiiN| paristhiti para nirbhara kregaa| agara pUchane vAlA kutUhalavaza pUcha rahA ho to cupa raha jAnA cAhie agara jijJAsAvaza pUcha rahA ho to kucha kahanA caahie| agara mumukSAvaza pUcha rahA ho to saba jo jAnate ho uMDela denA caahie| paristhiti para nirbhara kregaa| isalie maiM tumheM koI aisA sIdhA Adeza nahIM de sakatA ki bolo yA cupa rho| maiM to tumheM sirpha nirdeza itanA de sakatA hUM ki pUchane vAle kI AMkha meM jarA dekhnaa| agara tumheM lage mAtra kutUhala hai, bacakAnA kutUhala hai, to cupa raha jaanaa| tumhAre cupa rahane se lAbha hogaa| kyoMki kutUhala to khAja jaisA hai, khujalAne se samApta thor3e hI hotA, camar3I chila jAtI aura ghAva ho jAtA hai| tuma cupa hI raha jaanaa| lekina koI agara jijJAsA se pUche, aisA lage ki niSThAvAna hai, sAdhaka hai, pUchatA hai isalie ki zAyada mArga kI talAza kara rahA hai, to jarUra khnaa| aura agara lage mumukSu hai, aise hI jijJAsA bauddhika nahIM hai, prANapaNa se khojane meM lagA hai, jIvana ko dAva para lagA dene kI taiyArI hai to apane hRdaya ko pUrA khola kara rakha denaa|
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________________ maiM tumase itanA hI kaha sakatA hUM ki koI sUtra pakar3a kara calane kI jIvana meM jarUrata nahIM hai, kyoMki paristhiti roja badala jAtI hai| agara jar3a sUtra ko pakar3a liyA to bahuta ar3acaneM khar3I hotI haiM; kucha kA kucha hotA rahatA hai| __jhena phakIroM kI purAnI kahAnI hai| do maMdira the eka gAMva ke| donoM maMdiroM meM purAnA jhagar3A thaa| jhagar3A itanA thA ki maMdira ke pujArI eka-dUsare se bolate bhI nahIM the| donoM pujAriyoM ke pAsa do choTe bacce the jo unake lie sabjI kharIda lAte aura kucha sevA-Tahala kara dete| una pujAriyoM ne kahA una baccoM se ki tuma bhI Apasa meM bolanA mata, rAste meM kahIM mila jAo to| bacce bacce haiM! unako batA diyA ki hamArA jhagar3A bahuta purAnA hai hajAroM sAla se cala rahA hai| usa maMdira ko hama narka mAnate haiN| usa maMdira ke bacce se bolanA mata, bAtacIta mata krnaa| lekina bacce to Akhira bacce haiM, rokane se aura unakI jijJAsA bddh'ii| pahale maMdira kA baccA eka dina khar3A ho gayA bAjAra meN| jaba dUsare maMdira kA baccA AtA thA to usane dUsare maMdira ke bacce se pUchA, kahAM jA rahe? to usa bacce ne kahA-sunate-sunate vaha bhI jJAniyoM kI bAteM, jJAnI ho gayA thA-usane kahA, jahAM havA le jAe! pahalA baccA bar3A hairAna huA ki aba bAta kaise Age cale? havA le jAe, aba to saba bAta hI khatma ho gaI! vaha bar3A udAsa aayaa| usane apane guru ko kahA ki bhUla se maiMne usase bAta kara lii| usase maiMne pUcha liyA, kahAM jA rahe? Apane to manA kiyA thA, mujhe kSamA kareM! lekina maiM baccA hI huuN| magara saca meM AdamI usa maMdira ke bar3e gar3abar3a haiN| maiMne to sIdhA sAdA savAla pUchA, vaha bar3A adhyAtma jhAr3ane lgaa| vaha bolA, jahAM havA le jAe! aura calA bhI gayA havA kI taraha! guru ne kahA, maiMne pahale hI kahA thA ki ve loga galata haiN| aba tU aisA kara, kala usase phira puuchnaa| aura jaba vaha kahe, jahAM havA le jAe, to tU kahanA, agara havA na cala rahI ho to phira kyA karoge? vaha baccA gayA dUsare din| usane pUchA, kahAM jA rahe ho? usa bacce ne kahA, jahAM paira le jaaeN| aba bar3I muzkila ho gii| aba jahAM paira le jAeM! vaha to baMdhA huA uttara le kara AyA thaa| vaha phira lauTa kara AyA, usane kahA ki ve to bar3e beImAna haiN| Apa ThIka kahate haiM, ve AdamI to bar3e beImAna haiM! usa maMdira ke loga to badala jAte haiN| kala bolA, jahAM havA le jAe; Aja bolA, jahAM paira le jAeMB! guru ne kahA, maiMne pahale hI kahA thA, unakI bAtoM kA koI bharosA hI nhiiN| unase zAstrArtha ho hI nahIM sktaa| kabhI kucha kahate, kabhI kucha khte| jaisA maukA dekhate haiM, avasaravAdI haiN| to tU aisA kara, kala taiyAra rh| agara vaha kahe jahAM havA le jAe, to pUchanA, havA na cale to? agara kahe, jahAM paira le jAeM, to kahanA bhagavAna na kare kahIM agara lUle-laMgar3e ho gae, phira? vaha gyaa| aba do uttara usake pAsa the| usane phira pUchA, kahAM jA rahe ho? usa lar3ake ne kahA, sabjI khriidne| maiM tumheM uttara nahIM detaa| maiM tumheM sirpha itanA izArA detA hUM ki jo pUche usakI tarapha gaura
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________________ se dekhanA, usakI sthiti ko samajhanA aura jaisA ucita ho vaisA karanA / jIvana ko kabhI bhI baMdhe hue niyamoM meM calAne kI jarUrata nahIM hai| usI se to AdamI dhIre - - dhIre murdA ho jAtA hai| jIvana ko jagAyA huA rkho| bodha se jIyo siddhAMta se nhiiN| jAgarUkatA se jIyo, baMdhI huI dhAraNAoM se nahIM / maryAdA basa eka hI rahe ki binA hoza ke kucha mata karo / aura saba maryAdAeM vyartha haiN| hari oma tatsat!
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________________ dhyAna arthAta uparAma-pravacana-caudahavAM dinAMka: 9 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| sUtra: aSTAvakra uvaac| vihAya vairiNaM kAmamarthaM caanrthsNkulm| dharmamaNyetayorhetuM sarvatrAnAdaraM kuru / / 91 / / svaptendrajAlavat pazya dinAni trINi paila vaa| mitrakSetradhanA gAradAradAyAdisampada ||92 / / yatra yatra bhavetRSNA saMsAra viddhi tatra vai| praur3havairAgyamAzritya vItatRSNa: sukhI bhava / / 93 / / tRSNamAtrAtmako baMdhastannAzo mokSa ucyte| bhavAsaMsaktimAtreNa prAptituSTiprarmuhu / / 94 / / tvamekazcetana: zaddho jaDaM vishvmsttthaa| avidayApi kiMcitsA kA babhatmA tathApi te|| 95 / / rAjyaM satA kalatrANi zarIrANi sakhAni c| saMsaktasyAyi naSTAni tava janmani jnmni|| 96 / / alamarthana kAmena sakatenAyi krmnnaa| ebhya: saMsArakAMtAre na vizrAMtamabhUnmanaH / / 9711 kRtaM na kati janmAni kAyena manasA giraa| dukhamAyAsadaM karma tadatAdhyaparamyatAm!/ 98 / / aSTAvakra ne kahA 'vairI-rUpa kAma ko aura anartha se bhare artha ko tyAga kara aura una donoM ke kAraNa-rUpa dharma ko bhI chor3a kara tU sabakI upekSA kr|'
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________________ sAdhAraNata: artha aura kAma ko chor3ane ko sabhI ne kahA hai| aSTAvakra kahate haiM. 'dharma ko bhI chor3a kr| ' isa bAta ko ThIka se samajha lenA jarUrI hai| dharma kI AtyaMtika krAti dharma ko bhI chor3ane para hI ghaTita hotI hai| dharma kA AtyaMtika lakSya dharma se bhI mukta ho jAnA hai| adharma se artha hai. jo burA hai, akartavya hai| dharma se artha hai. jo zubha hai, kartavya hai| adharma se artha hai : paap| dharma se artha hai : punny| pApa se to chUTanA hI hai, aSTAvakra kahate haiM, puNya se bhI chUTa jAnA hai| kyoMki mUlata pApa aura puNya alaga- alaga nahIM haiM, eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| aura jo vyakti puNya se baMdhA hai vaha pApa se bhI baMdhA rhegaa| puNya karane ke lie bhI pApa karane hoNge| binA pApa kie puNya nahIM kie jA sakate haiN| tumheM dAna denA ho, to dhana to ikaTThA karoge na! dhana ikaTThA karane meM pApa hogA, dAna dene meM puNya hogaa| lekina dhana ikaTThA kie binA kaise dAna karoge? aisA ullekha hai ki lAotsu kA eka ziSya nyAyAdhIza ho gayA thaa| mukadamA calA eka AdamI corI meM pakar3A gyaa| gAMva ke sabase bar3e nagaraseTha ke ghara meM usane DAkA DAlA thA, seMdha lagAI thii| pakar3A gayA thA raMge hAthoM, isalie kucha ulajhana bhI na thii| lAotsu ke ziSya nyAyAdhIza ne chaha mahIne kI sajA cora ko dI aura bAraha mahIne kI sajA nagaraseTha ko dii| nagaraseTha to haMsane lgaa| usane kahA aisA nyAya kabhI sunA hai? yaha kyA pAgalapana hai? samrATa ke pAsa bAta gaI ki yaha to hada ho gaI, merI corI ho aura phira mujhe daMDa diyA jAe! lekina usa nyAyAdhIza ne samrATa ko kahA. na yaha itanA ikaTThA karatA, na corI hotii| corI naMbara do hai, ikaTThA karanA naMbara eka hai| isalie chaha mahIne kI sajA detA hUM cora ko sAla kI sajA detA hUM isa AdamI ko bAta to samrATa ko bhI jaMcI, lekina niyama aise nahIM cala skte| samrATa ne kahA bAta meM to bala hai, lekina aisA kabhI huA nhiiN| aura isa AdhAra para to maiM bhI aparAdhI ho jaauuNgaa| tuma naukarI se istIphA de do| tumhArI bAta kitanI hI ThIka ho, vyAvahArika nahIM hai| vyavahAra ke nAma para AdamI bahuta-sI bAteM chipAe calA jAtA hai| satya pragaTa nahIM ho pAtA, kyoMki hama vyavahAra kI Ar3a meM chipA lete haiN| manuSya-jAti ke itihAsa meM yaha eka hI ghaTanA hai, jabaki cora ko bhI daMDa diyA gayA, aura jisake ghara corI huI thI usako bhI daMDa diyA gyaa| aura isa ghaTanA meM bar3A rAja hai| corI ho hI taba sakatI hai jaba koI dhana ko ikaTThA kara le| to dhana ko ikaTThA karanA to puNya ke lie bhI jarUrI hogaa| tabhI to tyAga kroge| tuma dekhate ho, agara koI garIba AdamI, koI bhikhamaMgA ghoSaNA kara de ki maiM saba tyAga karatA hUM to loga hNseNge| loga kaheMge tumhAre pAsa hai kyA? tyAga tuma kisa bAta kA karate ho?
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________________ koI mahAvIra, koI buddha jaba tyAga karatA hai, to usakI ghoSaNA sadiyoM taka hotI hai| jainoM ke zAstroM meM, mahAvIra ne kitanA tyAga kiyA, usake bar3e bar3hA-car3hA kara varNana haiN| kitane hAthI, kitane ghoDe, kitane ratha, kitanA svarNa, kitanI azarphiyA-vaha bar3hA-car3hAyA huA varNana hai| utanA ho nahIM sakatA thaa| kyoMki mahAvIra eka bahuta choTe-moTe rAjA ke lar3ake the| usa rAjA kI haisiyata rAjA jaisI nahIM thI, eka bar3e mAlagujAra jaisI thii| Aja kI bhASA meM agara kaheM, to eka tahasIla se bar3A vaha rAjya na thA; tahasIladAra kI haisiyata thii| itanA dhana mahAvIra ke ghara meM ho nahIM sakatA, jitanA zAstroM meM likhA hai| lekina kyoM zAstroM meM bar3hA-car3hA kara likhA hogA? kyoMki zAstrakAra mahAvIra ko mahAtyAgI batAnA cAhate the| aura tyAga ko mApane kA eka hI upAya hai. dhn| aba yaha bar3I hairAnI kI bAta hai. yahAM bhoga bhI dhana se nApA jAtA, yahAM tyAga bhI dhana se nApA jAtA! yahAM agara tuma kisI ko pratiSThA dete ho to bhI dhana ke kaarnn| aura agara tuma kabhI tyAgI ko bhI pratiSThA dete ho to vaha bhI dhana ke kaarnn| dhana kI pratiSThA dikhAI par3atI hai, aMtima hai| usake atirikta hamAre pAsa koI mApadaMDa nahIM hai| bhikhamaMgA chor3e to kyA chor3A? isalie zAyada jainoM ke caubIsa tIrthaMkara hI rAjaputra haiN| aisA to nahIM hai ki ina rAjaputroM ke kAla meM kisI garIba ne tyAga na kiyA hogaa| caubIsa hI rAjaputra haiM. tiirthNkr| buddha bhI rAjA haiM, kRSNa, rAma, hiMduoM ke avatAra bhI rAjA haiN| thor3A socane jaisA hai| dhana kI pratiSThA itanI hai ki agara hama tyAga ko bhI mApeMge to vahI to eka mApadaMDa hai| ye rAjA rahe hoMge, taba sammAnita the| phira unhoMne jaba rAja tyAga diyA, taba aura bhI sammAnita ho ge| lekina kyA yaha tyAga kA sammAna huA? yaha to dhana kA hI sammAna huaa| bhikhamaMgA chor3a kara khar3A ho jAe to tuma hsoge| tuma kahoge thA kyA tumhAre pAsa, jo tumane chor3a diyA? laMgoTI bhI nahIM thI, naMge tuma the hI, aba digaMbara hone kI ghoSaNA kyA karate ho? to tyAga ke lie bhI dhana honA caahie| aura puNya ke lie bhI pApa karanA hogaa| isalie jo loga jIvana kI vyavasthA ko samajhate haiM, ve kaheMge. dharma bhI chor3a denA hogA; puNya bhI chor3a denA hogaa| ye donoM bAteM eka sAtha chor3a denI hogii| isa sUtra ko samajhane kI koziza kareM : vihAya vairiNa kAmamarthaM caanrthsNkulm| dharmamapyetayohaMtuM sarvatrAnAdaraM kuru|| zatru hai kaam| kyoM samasta zAstra sArI duniyA ke, kAma ko zatru kahate haiM? kyA kAraNa hogA kahane kA? eka mata se zatru kahate haiN| hiMdU hoM, jaina hoM, bauddha hoM, IsAI hoM-sva mata se kahate haiM ki kAma zatru hai| kyA kAraNa hogA kAma ko zatru kahane kA? use hama samajhane kI koziza kreN| kAma kA bala hI, kAma-UrjA kI zakti itanI virATa hai, ki usake pAza ke bAhara honA sarvAdhika kaThina hai, karIba-karIba asaMbhava jaisA hai| manovaijJAnika to mAnate haiM, usake pAra huA hI nahIM jA sktaa|
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________________ aura manovaijJAnikoM kI bAta bhI samajha lene jaisI hai| kyoMki kAma meM hI huA hai hamArA jnm| jo pahalI sphuraNA tumhAre jIvana kI thI, vaha tumhAre mAM aura pitA kI kAmavAsanA hI thii| usI taraMga se tuma Ae ho, usI taraMga se nirmita hue ho| tumhArA ro roA kAma se bharA hai| tumhArA pahalA aNu do kAma- aNuoM kA jor3a thaa| usase tuma nirmita hue| phira unhIM kAma aNuoM kA phailAva hotA calA gayA hai| aba tumhAre pAsa karor3oM sela haiM zarIra meM, lekina pratyeka sela kAma-koSTha hai| ___aura tuma aisA mata socanA ki strI tumhAre bAhara hI hai| kyoMki jaba tumhArA janma huA to AdhA aMga to mAM se milA, AdhA puruSa se milA, pitA se milaa| to tumhAre bhItara strI-puruSa donoM maujUda haiN| mAtrA kA bheda hai, para donoM maujUda haiN| hiMduoM kI dhAraNA hai, ardhanArIzvara kii| zaMkara kI tumane pratimAeM dekhI hoMgI, jinameM Adhe ve puruSa haiM, Adhe strii| vaha dhAraNA bar3I bahumUlya hai| tuma bhI ardhanArIzvara ho pratyeka vyakti ardhanArIzvara hai; anyathA hone kA upAya hI nahIM hai| kyoMki AdhI tumhArI mAM hai, Adhe tumhAre pitA haiM, donoM ke milana se tuma nirmita hue ho| puruSa meM pitA kI mAtrA jyAdA hai, strI meM mAM kI mAtrA jyAdA hai; para yaha mAtrA kA bheda hai| isIlie to kabhI ghaTanA ghaTatI hai ki kisI vyakti kA kAma badala jAtA hai, liMga badala jAtA hai| abhI dakSiNa bhArata meM eka yuvatI yuvaka ho gii| koI bIsa-bAIsa sAla taka yuvatI thI, acAnaka yuvaka ho gii| pazcima meM bahuta ghaTanAeM ghaTI haiN| aura aba to zarIrazAstrI kahate haiM ki yaha hamAre hAtha kI bAta ho jaaegii| loga agara apanA liMga parivartana karanA cAheM to kara skeNge| koI vyakti Uba gayA puruSa hone se to strI ho sakatA hai| koI strI Uba gaI strI hone se to puruSa ho sakatI hai| yaha to sirpha thor3e-se hAramona badala dene kI bAta hai, mAtrA badala dene kI bAta hai| tumhAre bhItara, aisA samajho ki agara tuma puruSa ho, to sATha pratizata puruSa ke jIvANu haiM cAlIsa pratizata strI ke jIvANu haiN| basa, isa anupAta ko badala diyA jAe, to tuma strI ho jaaoge| kAma se huA hai janma, do viparIta kAmoM ke milana para tumhArA jIvana khar3A hai| isalie yaha karIba-karIba asaMbhava hai-manovaijJAnika ke hisAba se to bilakula asaMbhava hai ki vyakti kAmavAsanA ke pAra ho jAe! dharmazAstra bhI yahI kahate haiN| AtmapurANa meM bar3A adabhuta vacana hai kAmena vijito brahmA, kAmena vijito hrH| kAmena vijito viSNaH zakra: kAmena nirjit|| kAma ne jItA brahmA ko, kAma ne harAyA zaMkara ko, kAma ne harAyA viSNu ko kAma se kauna kaba jItA! kAma se saba hAre haiN| kAma kA bala to prabala hai| aura jisakA jitanA jyAdA bala prabala hai, usake pAra hone meM utanA hI saMgharSaNa hogaa| isalie kahate haiM. vairI-rUpa kaam| isa jagata meM agara Takkara hI lenI ho kisI se, agara himmata hI ho Takkara lene kI, agara saMgharSa karane kA aura yuddha karane kA, yoddhA banane kA rasa ho-to choTe-moTe duzmana mata cunnaa| khayAla rakhanA, jitanA bar3A duzmana cunoge utanI hI bar3I tumhArI
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________________ sikaMdara ho ki taimUrala vijaya hogii| choTe -moTe ko harA bhI diyA to kyA sAra hai? kahate haiM jaMgala meM Isapa kI kathA hai-eka gadhe ne siMha ko cunautI de dI aura kahA : agara ho himmata to A maidAna meM aura ho jAe sIdhA yuddh| lekina siMha cupacApa calA gyaa| siyAra yaha sana thaa| usane thor3A Age bar3ha kara siMha ko pUchA ki samrATa, bAta kyA hai? eka gadhe kI cunautI ko bhI tuma svIkAra nahIM kie! | usane kahA pAgala huA hai? agara usakI cunautI maiM svIkAra karUM, to pahale to aphavAha ur3a jAegI ki siMha gadhe se ldd'aa| yaha badanAmI hogii| aisA kabhI huA nhiiN| yaha hamAre kula vaMza, paraMparA meM nahIM huA ki gadhe se ldd'e| lar3anA hai gadhe se. gadhe ko samApta kara de sakate haiM, lar3anA kyA hai? agara gadhA hArA to usakA koI apamAna nahIM hai| hama jIte bhI to koI sammAna nhiiN| loga kaheMge, kyA jIte, gadhe se jIte! aura kahIM bhUla-cUka se jIta gayA gadhA-gadhe haiM inakA bharosA kyA-toM hama sadA ke lie mAre ge| isalie maiM cupacApa calA AyA huuN| gadhe se jhaMjhaTa meM par3anA ThIka nahIM hai| choTe se agara tuma ulajhoge, jIte bhI to choTe se jiite| aura kAza agara hAra gae, to choTe se hAre! duzmana jarA soca kara cunnaa| mitra to koI bhI cala jAegA, zatru jarA soca kara cunnaa| zatru jarA bar3A cunnaa| kyoMki cunautI, saMgharSaNa tumheM avasara degA, tumhAre apane Atma-vikAsa kaa| to jo bAhara kI cIjoM se lar3ate rahate haiM, ve agara jIta bhI jAeM to cIjoM se hI jItate haiN| kaMdara ho ki taimaralaMga ho, ki nAdirazAha ho ki nepoliyana ho, phailA leM vistAra sAre jagata para apanA, to bhI vastuoM para hI vistAra phailatA hai| isalie isa deza meM hamane unako sammAna diyA jinhoMne apane ko jiitaa| sabako bhI jinhoMne jItA, unheM bhI hamane vaisA Adara nahIM diyA; hamane Adara unheM diyA, jinhoMne svayaM ko jiitaa| kyoMki svayaM ko jItane kA eka hI upAya hai aura vaha hai-kAma-UrjA se atikramaNa ho jAnA; kAma-UrjA ke pAra ho jaanaa| kAma-UrjA ke pAra hone kA artha hai : apane janma se mukta ho jAnA, apane jIvana se mukta ho jAnA, apanI mRtyu se mukta ho jaanaa| kAma-UrjA ne tumheM janma diyA, aura kAma-urjA kI utkullatA hI tumhArI javAnI hai, tumhArA jIvana hai| aura jaba kAma kI UrjA thaka jAegI, aura visarjita hone lagegI-vahI tumhArI mRtyu hogii| to tumhAre jIvana kI sArI kathA, prathama se le kara aMta taka kAma kI kathA hai| agara tuma isa kAma ke aMtargata hI bane rahe, to tuma kabhI mAlika kI taraha na jIe, eka gulAma kI taraha jiie| svayaM kA mAlika bananA ho aura agara cunautI hI svIkAra karanI ho kisI kI, to svayaM meM chipI isa cunautI ko hI svIkAra kara lenA ucita hai| isalie dharma zAstra kAma ko vairI-rUpa kahate haiN| yaha sirpha niMdA nahIM hai, isameM sammAna bhI chipA hai| ve yaha kahate haiM ki agara zatrutA hI karanI ho to kAma se krnaa| kyoMki kAmena vijito brahmA! kAma ne brahmA ko bhI hraayaa| kAmena vijito hrH| kAma ne mahAdeva ko bhI hraayaa| to aba agara lar3ane yogya koI hai to kAma hI hai| jisase devatA bhI hAra gae hoM, usako hI
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________________ jItane meM manuSya ke bhItara chipA huA phUla khilegaa| jisase saba hAra gae hoM usako hI jItane meM tumhAre bhItara pahalI daphe prabhu kA sAmrAjya nirmita hogaa| bhArata akelA deza hai, jahAM hamane buddhapuruSoM ke caraNoM meM devatAoM ko jhukAyA hai| jaba siddhArtha gautama buddhatva ko upalabdha hue to kathA hai ki brahmA, viSNu, maheza, tInoM unake caraNoM meM apanA naivedya, apanI pUjA car3hAne aae| jaba mahAvIra parama jJAna ko upalabdha hue to devatAoM ne phUla brsaae| lekina devatA kyoM barasAte hoMge phUla eka manuSya ke caraNoM meM? isalie ki yaha manuSya usa sImA ke bhI pAra jA cukA, jisa sImA ke pAra abhI devatA bhI nahIM ge| abhI iMdra bhI apsarAoM meM ulajhA hai| abhI svarga meM bhI vahI kAma - vyApAra cala rahA hai, jo pRthvI para cala rahA hai| thor3A vyavasthita cala rahA hai, thor3A DhaMga se cala rahA hai; jyAdA suMdara striyAM haiM, jyAdA suMdara deha hai, jyAdA laMbI Ayu hai, bhoga kI saba suvidhAeM, sAmagriyAM haiN| jo hamane svarga meM devatAoM ke lie vyavasthA kI hai, vahI vyavasthA vijJAna AdamI ke lie pRthvI para kara dene kI koziza kara rahA hai| ki maiM to sunA hai, eka AdamI marA aura svarga phuNcaa| to vaha bar3A hairAna huaa| vahAM usane dekhA kucha loga jaMjIroM se baMdhe haiN| svarga meM jaMjIroM se baMdhe haiM! usane dvArapAla se pUchA ki yaha to mujhe ghabar3AhaTa kA kAraNa mAlUma hotA hai| naraka meM baMdhe hoM, yaha samajha meM AtA hai| yaha svarga meM bhI agara baMdhana haiM aura loga jaMjIroM se baMdhe haiM- yaha kisa taraha kA svarga hai 1: vaha dvArapAla haMsane lgaa| usane kahA, ye amarIkI haiN| ye jaba se Ae haiM, taba se yaha dhuna lagAe haiM ki hameM amarIkA vApisa jAnA hai, yahAM se to vahIM behatara thA / vijJAna koziza kara rahA hai ki svarga ko jamIna para ghasITa lAe; lekina jamIna para vijJAna svarga le Ae, to bhI koI pharka nahIM par3atA / tumhArI kAmavAsanA ko kitanI hI tRpti kI suvidhA juTA dI jAe, tRpti nahIM hogii| kyoMki kAmavAsanA kA svabhAva atRpti hai| jo mila jAtA hai, usase hI atRpti ho jAtI hai| jo nahIM milA, usI meM rasa hotA hai| kAma ke isa svabhAva ko samajho - yahI usakA baMdhana hai, yahI usakA vairI - rUpa hai| jo mila jAtA hai, vahI vyartha ho jAtA hai| jisa strI ko tuma cAhate the, mila gaI; jisa puruSa ko tumane cAhA, mila gayA - basa, tatkSaNa tuma kisI aura kI cAha meM laga ge| bAyarana, aMgrejI kA kavi huA / usakA aneka striyoM se saMbaMdha thaa| suMdara puruSa thA pratibhAzAlI puruSa thA, aura mahIne - doM - mahIne se jyAdA usakA saMbaMdha nahIM calatA thaa| lekina eka strI ne use bilakula majabUra kara diyA vivAha karane ko| usane kahA, vivAha nahIM kiyA to hAtha bhI nahIM chuuuNgii| aura vaha dIvAnA ho gayA use apane karIba lene ko / Akhira vivAha ke lie rAjI honA pdd'aa| jaba vaha vivAha ho gayA aura carca se bAyarana utaratA thA apanI naI vivAhita patnI kA hAtha pakar3e hue sIr3hiyAM pAra kara rahA thA, ThiThaka kara khar3A ho gyaa| usane apanI patnI se kahA, Azcarya! maiM tere lie dIvAnA thA, mahInoM soyA nahIM, aura abhI kSaNa bhara ke lie terA hAtha mere hAtha meM hai, lekina terI mujhe sudhi
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________________ bhUla gii| rAha se vaha jo strI jA rahI hai, merA mana usake pIche calA gyaa| abhI vivAha nahIM huA, aura talAka zurU ho gayA! jo mila jAtA hai, usameM hamArA rasa kho jAtA hai| tama eka makAna banAnA cAhate the bahata dina se, banA liyA; jaba taka nahIM banA thA, taba taka khUba sapane dekhe, khUba socA, khUba vicArA, vahI-vahI dhuna thI, phira makAna bana gyaa| eka dina acAnaka tuma thake-mAMde khar3e ho kucha bhI to nahIM milA! aba tuma aura dUsarA makAna banAne kI socane lge| kAma kI lakSaNA yahI hai ki vaha tumheM kabhI tRpta na hone degA, tRpti kA vahAM koI upAya nhiiN| atRpti kI jalatI huI Aga hI kAma kA svarUpa hai| 'vairI-rUpa kAma ko, aura anartha se bhare artha ko tyAga kr..|' hiMduoM ne cAra puruSArtha kahe haiM : artha, kAma, dharma, mokss| kAma hai sAdhAraNa AdamI kI vAsanA, aura artha hai use bharane kA upaay| dhana kI hama AkAMkSA isalie karate haiM ki hamArI koI kAmanAeM haiM, jinheM pUrA binA dhana ke na kiyA jA skegaa| agara dhana hai, to suMdara strI upalabdha ho sakatI hai| nirdhana ko to bacA-khucA, jo zeSa raha jAtA hai, vahI upalabdha hotA hai| agara dhana hai to tuma jo cAhate ho, vaha tumhAre hAtha meM ho sakatA hai| agara nirdhana ho to cAhate raho, cAhane se kucha bhI nahIM hotaa| dhana cAha ko yathArtha banane meM sahayogI hotA hai| isalie eka bahuta maje kI bAta hai tuma dhanI se jyAdA atRpta AdamI kahIM bhI na paaoge| nirdhana ko to AzA rahatI hai, dhanI kI AzA bhI mara jAtI hai| nirdhana ko AzA rahatI hai-Aja nahIM kala dhana hAtha meM hogA, to kara leMge jo bhI karanA hai-dhana ke pIche daur3atA rahatA hai| dhanI ke pAsa dhana hai jo karanA hai, karane kI suvidhA hai| lekina karane meM kucha artha nahIM mAlUma hotaa| isalie dhanI vyakti anivAryarUpeNa azAMta, atRpta ho jAtA hai| tuma garIba AdamI ko pAgala hote na dekhoge amIra AdamI ko 'pAgala hote dekhoge| amIra mulkoM meM jyAdA pAgalapana ghaTatA hai| garIba mulkoM meM manovaijJAnika abhI hai hI nahIM abhI manovizleSaka hai hI nhiiN| baMbaI meM zAyada ekAdha koI yA pUnA meM ekAdha koI manovizleSaka ho| lekina isa sATha karor3a ke mulka meM tuma kahIM manovizleSaka ko na pAoge, usakI koI jarUrata bhI nahIM hai| lekina nyUyArka meM vaha phailatA jA rahA hai| usakI saMkhyA utanI hI hotI jA rahI hai, jitanI ki zarIra ke cikitsakoM kI hai| saMbhAvanA to yaha hai ki isa sadI ke pUre hote -hote, mana ke cikitsakoM kI saMkhyA jyAdA hogI zarIra ke cikitsakoM se| kyoMki zarIra ke lie to sArI suvidhAeM pazcima meM milatI jA rahI haiN| aura jitanI zarIra kI suvidhAeM milatI haiM, utanA mana pAgala hotA jA rahA hai| mere dekhe, agara garIba AdamI dhArmika ho to yaha camatkAra hai| aura agara AdamI amIra ho aura dhArmika na ho, to yaha bhI camatkAra hai| garIba AdamI dhArmika ho to apavAda-svarUpa hai| kyoMki garIba AdamI ko abhI mana se mukta hone kA maukA kahAM milA? abhI to mana kI pIr3A bhI usane nahIM jaanii| abhI to AzA TUTI nahIM hai| isalie garIba AdamI jaba kabhI dhArmika ho jAe, to
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________________ apavAda-svarUpa hai| dhArmika AdamI agara amIra hai to bilakula svAbhAvika hai, aisA honA hI cAhie thaa| amIra AdamI ko dhArmika honA hI cAhie; kyoMki aba isa jagata meM kucha hai, isakI AzA samApta ho gii| usake pAsa saba hai| koI eMDU kAranegI, koI raoNkaphelara, saba hai unake paas| jo kharIdanA ho, saba kharIdA jA sakatA hai| jitanI mAtrA meM kharIdanA ho, kharIdA jA sakatA hai| jo kharIdA jA sakatA hai, kharIdane kI kSamatA usase jyAdA hai unake paas| aba kyA kareM? to agara dhArmika AdamI amIra ho, to sAdhAraNa bAta hai, honA hI cAhie; garIba ho, to asAdhAraNa ghaTanA hai| aura agara amIra dhArmika AdamI na ho, to bar3I asAdhAraNa ghaTanA hai, aisA honA nahIM caahie| isake do hI artha ho sakate haiM. yA to vaha buddha hai, mUr3ha hai, aura yA phira abhI ThIka se dhanI nahIM huaa| ThIka se dhanI ho aura buddhi pAsa ho to dhArmika hone ke sivAya koI upAya nhiiN| garIba AdamI ko dhArmika honA ho to bar3I prakhara pratibhA caahie| amIra AdamI ko agara dhArmika hone se bacanA ho to bar3I prakhara mUr3hatA caahie| bhArata jaba dhanI thA to dhArmika thaa| svarNa -yuga thA bhArata kA buddha-mahAvIra ke samaya meN| zikhara para thA bhArata duniyA meM, sone kI cir3iyA thA! sArI duniyA bhArata kI tarapha dekhatI thI, sArA dhana jaise yahAM ikaTThA thaa| una ghar3iyoM meM hamane jo zikhara chae dharma ke, phira nahIM chU sake hama, phira sapanA ho gayA sb| garIba AdamI dhArmika dikhAI bhalA par3e, ho nahIM sktaa| kyoMki garIba AdamI kA abhI bhI bharosA artha meM hai| abhI to kAmanA hI pakar3e hue hai| abhI to jIvana kI choTI-moTI jarUrateM pUrI nahIM huIM dharma to jIvana kI bar3I AkhirI jarUrata hai| kahate haiM, ' bhUkhe bhajana na hoya gopAlA!' vaha jo bhUkhA AdamI hai, kaise bhajana kare? usake bhajana meM bhI bhUkha kI chAyA hogii| usake bhajana meM bhI bhUkha hogii| vaha bhajana bhI karegA to roTI hI maaNgegaa| usake bhajana meM paramAtmA kI mAMga nahIM ho sktii| jaba jIvana kI choTI jarUrateM pUrI ho jAtI haiM, zarIra, mana kI daur3a ke lie saba upAya ho jAte haiM, taba acAnaka patA calatA hai ki yahAM to pAne yogya kucha bhI nahIM hai| to kahIM aura hai pAne yogya, usakI khoja zurU hotI hai| dharma kI yAtrA tabhI zurU hotI hai, jaba artha aura kAma kI yAtrA vyartha ho jAtI hai| to do yAtrAeM haiM isa jagata meM, eka hai-artha, kaam| artha hai sAdhana; kAma hai saadhy| phira dUsarI yAtrA hai-dharma, mokss| dharma hai sAdhana; mokSa hai saadhy| to sAdhAraNata:, aisA samajhA gayA hai ki jisa AdamI ko mokSa pAnA ho, use dharma kamAnA caahie| jaise, jisa vyakti ko kAmanA tRpta karanI ho, use dhana kamAnA caahie| kyoMki dhana ke binA kaise tuma kAmanA tapta karoge? jisako kAma kA jagata pakar3e ho, use artha kamAnA caahie| aura jisa vyakti ko yaha bAta vyartha ho gaI, aba use mukta honA hai, parama mukti kA svAda lenA hai-use dharma kamAnA caahie| yaha sAdhAraNa dharma kI vyavasthA hai| aSTAvakra bar3I krAMtikArI bAta kaha rahe haiN| ve kaha rahe haiM : jisa vyakti ko vastuta: mokSa pAnA ho, use dharma se bhI mukta ho jAnA caahie| kyoM? kyoMki mokSa ko kAmanA nahIM banAyA jA sktaa|
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________________ mokSa kA svabhAva aisA hai ki tuma usakI cAha nahIM kara skte| jisakI bhI tumane cAha kI, vaha mokSa nahIM raha gyaa| tumhArI cAha agara pIche khar3I hai, to tuma jo bhI cAhoge, vaha saMsAra ho gyaa| mokSa kA koI sAdhana nahIM hai| dharma bhI mokSa kA sAdhana nahIM hai| yaha to hamArI gaNita kI duniyA hai| hama kahate haiM, yahAM kAmavAsanA pUrI karanI hai to dhana kamAo aura agara mokSa pAnA hai to dharma kmaao| loga dharma bhI kamAte haiM, jaisA dhana kamAte haiN| loga puNya ko bhI tijorI meM bharate cale jAte haiM, jaise sikkoM ko bharate haiN| jaise khAte-bahI banAte haiM, aura baiMka baileMsa rakhate haiM, vaisA hI puNya kA bhI hisAba rakhate haiN| paramAtmA ke sAmane khola kara rakha deMge apanI kitAba ki ye-ye, itane itane puNya kie the, inakA badalA caahie| sAdhAraNa AdamI kA tarka yahI hai ki jIvana meM saba kucha saudA hai, vyavasAya hai| aSTAvakra kahate haiM. mokSa koI saudA nahIM, koI vyavasAya nahIM; tumhAre kucha karane se na milegaa| prasAdarUpa hai yh| tumhArI cAha se nahIM philegaa| tumhArI cAha ke kAraNa hI tuma cUka rahe ho| mokSa to milA hI huA hai- tumhArI cAha ke kAraNa tuma nahIM dekha pA rahe cAha ne tumheM aMdhA kiyA hai| tuma cAhata chor3o, tuma cAha chodd'o| tuma binA cAha ke thor3I dera raha kara dekho - acAnaka pAoge, mokSa kI kiraNeM tumhAre bhItara utarane lagIM ! to mokSa koI sAdhya nahIM hai, jisakA sAdhana ho sake mokSa svabhAva hai| mokSa hai hI, hama mokSa meM hI jI rahe haiN| maiMne sunA hai, eka machalI bacapana se hI sunatI rahI thI sAgara kI, mahAsAgara kI baateN| zAstroM meM bhI machaliyoM ke mahAsAgara kI bAteM likhI haiN| bar3e jJAnI the jo machaliyoM meM, ve bhI mahAsAgara kI bAteM karate the| vaha machalI bar3I hone lagI, bar3I ciMtA aura vicAra meM par3ane lagI ki mahAsAgara hai kahAM ? aba jaba machalI sAgara meM hI paidA huI ho to sAgara kA patA nahIM cala sktaa| sAgara meM hI bar3I huI to sAgara kA patA nahIM cala sktaa| vaha pUchane lagI ki yaha mahAsAgara kahAM hai? logoM ne kahA, hamane sunI haiM jJAniyoM se bAteM, sunI hai vArtA, dekhA to kisI ne bhI nhiiN| kucha dhanyabhAgI machaliyAM, koI buddha-mahAvIra, koI kRSNa - rAma jAna lete hoMge; bAkI sAdhAraNa machaliyAM, hama to sirpha suna kara mAnate haiM ki hai mahAsAgara kahIM / vaha bar3I ciMtA meM rahane lgii| usakA jIvana bar3A vikSubdha ho gyaa| vaha bar3I vicArazIla machalI thii| vaha bhUkhI-pyAsI bhI par3I rahatI aura socatI rahatI ki kaise mahAsAgara pahuMce vaha advitIya ghaTanA kaise ghaTegI? mahAsAgara kA lobha usake mana meM samAne lgaa| vaha sUkhane lagI, vaha durbala hone lagI / phira koI eka atithi machalI par3osa kI nadI se AI thii| usane usakI yaha hAlata dekhii| usane kahA, pAgala ! jise tU khojatI hai, vaha cAroM tarapha maujUda hai, hama usI ke bhItara haiN| na to bhUkhe marane kI jarUrata hai, na dhyAna karane kI jarUrata hai, na japa karane kI jarUrata hai - mahAsAgara hai hI / mahAsAgara ke binA hama ho hI nahIM skte| jaisA usa machalI ko bodha diyA gayA, aSTAvakra jaise sadaguru hameM bhI yahI kaha rahe haiM ki hama
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________________ mokSa meM haiM hI, paramAtmA hameM cAroM tarapha se ghere hue hai usI meM hamArA janma hai, usI meM jIvana hai, usI meM hamArA visarjana hai| lekina itanA nikaTa hai paramAtmA, isalie dikhAI nahIM par3atA / dUra to hama dekha lete| AMkheM hamArI dUra ko dekhane meM samartha haiN| jo nikaTa hai, vahI cUka jAtA hai| jo bahuta pAsa hai, vaha bhUla jAtA hai| aura paramAtmA se jyAdA nikaTa koI bhI nhiiN| machalI ke lie to upAya bhI hai ki koI use uThAkara reta ke kinAre para DAla de to tar3apa le aura patA cala jAe use ki sAgara kA chUTa jAnA kaisA hotA hai| hamAre lie to vaha bhI upAya nahIM hai, paramAtmA ke bAhara hama jA hI nahIM skte| aSTAvakra kI udaghoSaNA yahI hai ki tuma dharma kI ciMtA meM mata par3anA / paramAtmA ko pAne ke lie kucha bhI karanA jarUrI nahIM hai; vaha milA hI huA hai| mokSa kahIM bhaviSya meM nahIM hai-mokSa abhI aura yahIM hai| mokSa, tumhArI cAha se zUnya avasthA kA nAma hai| vairiNa kAmam........ kAma hai zatru kyoMki vaha tRpta na hone degaa| zatru to vahI na jo tRpta na hone de ! yaha zatru kA artha smjho| mitra to vahI na jo tRpti de, vizrAMti de, jisake pAsa baiThakara ArAma mile ! jisake pAsa baiThakara sukha ho - mitra vahI / jisake sAtha rahakara dukha hI dukha ho, jisakI dostI meM sivAya kIToM ke kabhI kucha aura na mile; jo phUloM kA bharosA de, lekina pariNAma meM hamezA kATe hAtha AeM - zatru / vairiNa kAmam anarthasaMkulam artham ! aura aSTAvakra kahate haiM : jisako tuma artha kahate ho, vaha anartha hai| jisako tuma dhana kahate ho, artha, arthazAstra, ikyAmiksa, vaha anartha kA zAstra hai| duniyA meM jitanA anartha ho rahA hai, vaha dhana ke kAraNa hotA hai| isalie kucha duniyA ke vicAraka to isa sImA taka pahuMca gae ki unhoMne kahA. jaba taka duniyA meM dhana hai, taba taka zAMti nahIM ho sktii| tumane ninyAnabe ke cakkara kI kahAnI par3hI hai na, vaha anartha kI ghaTanA hai| kahAnI sIdhI - sApha hai, sarala hai, manuSya ko ThIka se pragaTa karatI hai| eka samrATa kA eka naukara thA, nAI thA uskaa| vaha usakI mAliza karatA, hajAmata banAtA / samrATa bar3A hairAna hotA thA ki vaha hamezA prasanna, bar3A AnaMdita, bar3A masta ! usako eka rupayA roja milatA thaa| basa, eka rupayA roja meM vaha khUba khAtA-pItA, mitroM ko bhI khilAtA -pilaataa| saste jamAne kI bAta hogii| rAta jaba sotA to usake pAsa eka paisA na hotA, vaha nizcita sotaa| subaha eka rupayA phira use mila jAtA mAliza karake / vaha bar3A khuza thA! itanA khuza thA ki samrATa ko usase IrSyA hone lgii| samrATa bhI itanA khuza nahIM thaa| khuzI kahAM udAsI aura ciMtAoM ke bojha aura pahAr3a usake sira para the| usane pUchA nAI se ki terI prasannatA kA rAja kyA hai? usane kahA, maiM to kucha jAnatA nahIM, maiM koI bar3A buddhimAna nhiiN| lekina, jaise Apa mujhe prasanna dekha kara cakita hote haiM, maiM Apako dekha kara cakita hotA hUM ki Apake dukhI hone kA kAraNa kyA hai puna mere pAsa to kucha bhI nahIM hai aura maiM sukhI hUM; Apake pAsa saba hai, aura Apa sukhI nahIM! Apa mujhe jyAdA hairAnI meM DAla dete haiN| maiM to
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________________ prasanna hUM kyoMki prasanna honA svAbhAvika hai aura hone ko hai hI kyA ? vajIra se pUchA samrATa ne eka dina ki isakA rAja khojanA pdd'egaa| yaha nAI itanA prasanna hai ki mere mana meM IrSyA kI Aga jalatI hai ki isase to behatara nAI hI hote / yaha samrATa ho kara kyoM phaMsa gae ? na rAta nIMda AtI, na dina caina hai; aura roja ciMtAeM bar3hatI hI calI jAtI haiN| ghaTanA to dUra, eka samasyA hala karo, dasa khar3I ho jAtI haiN| to nAI hI ho jaate| vajIra ne kahA, Apa ghabaDAeM mata / maiM usa nAI ko durusta kie detA hUM / vajIra to gaNita meM kuzala thaa| samrATa ne kahA, kyA karoge? usane kahA, kucha nhiiN| Apa eka-do - cAra dina meM dekheNge| vaha eka ninyAnabe rupaye eka thailI meM rakha kara rAta nAI ke ghara meM pheMka aayaa| jaba subaha nAI uThA, to usane ninyAnabe gine, basa vaha ciMtita ho gyaa| usane kahA, basa eka rupayA Aja mila jAe, to Aja upavAsa hI rakheMge, sau pUre kara leMge! basa, upadrava zurU ho gyaa| kabhI usane ikaTThA karane kA socA na thA, ikaTThA karane kI suvidhA bhI na thI / eka rupayA milatA thA, vaha paryApta thA jarUratoM ke lie| kala kI usane kabhI ciMtA hI na kI thii| 'kala' usake mana meM kabhI chAyA hI na DAlatA thA, vaha Aja meM hI jIyA thaa| Aja pahalI daphA 'kala' utthaa| ninyAnabe pAsa meM the, sau karane meM dera hI kyA thI! sirpha eka dina takalIpha uThAnI thI ki sau ho jaaeNge| usane dUsare dina upavAsa kara diyaa| lekina, jaba dUsare dina vaha AyA samrATa ke paira dabAne, to vaha mastI na thI, udAsa thA, ciMtA meM par3A thA, koI gaNita cala rahA thaa| samrATa ne pUchA, Aja bar3e ciMtita mAlUma hote ho? mAmalA kyA hai? usane kahA : nahIM hajUra, kucha bhI nahIM, kucha nahIM saba ThIka hai| magara Aja bAta meM vaha sugaMdha na thI jo sadA hotI thii| 'saba ThIka hai - aise kaha rahA thA jaise sabhI kahate haiM, saba ThIka hai| jaba pahale kahatA thA to saba ThIka thA hii| Aja aupacArika kaha rahA thaa| samrATa ne kahA, nahIM maiM na maanuuNgaa| tuma udAsa dikhate ho, tumhArI AMkha meM raunaka nahIM / tuma rAta so ThIka se tra usane kahA, aba Apa pUchate haiM to Apase jhUTha kaise bolUM rAta nahIM so paayaa| lekina saba ThIka ho jAegA, eka dina kI bAta hai| Apa ghabaDAeM mata / lekina vaha ciMtA usekI roja bar3hatI gii| sau pUre ho gae, to vaha socane lagA ki aba sau to ho hI gae; aba dhIre - dhIre ikaTThA kara leM, to kabhI do sau ho jaaeNge| aba eka-eka kadama uThane lgaa| vaha paMdraha dina meM bilakula hI DhIlA-DhAlA ho gayA, usakI saba khuzI calI gii| samrATa ne kahA, aba tU batA hI de saca - saca, mAmalA kyA hai? mere vajIra ne kucha kiyA? taba vaha cauNkaa| nAI bolA, kyA matalaba? ApakA vajIra ? acchA, to aba maiM smjhaa| acAnaka mere ghara meM eka thailI par3I milI mujhe - ninyAnabe rupae / basa, usI dina se maiM muzkila meM par3a gayA hUM / ninyAnabe kA phera! sAre anartha kI jar3a meM kahIM artha hai| duniyA meM Aja paryApta saMpatti hai ki sabhI loga sukhI
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________________ ho skeN| lekina kabjA karane vAloM kI daur3a itanI hai, mAlakiyata kA nazA itanA hai ki yaha asaMbhava hai, yaha ho nahIM sktaa| duniyA Aja itanI saMpanna ho sakatI hai ki koI AdamI dukhI na ho; kisI ko roTI, rojI, kapar3e kI koI takalIpha na ho; davA, chappara kA koI abhAva na ho lekina yaha ho nahIM sktaa| kyoMki kucha loga bilakula dIvAne haiM aura pAgala haiN| unakA eka hI rasa hai jIvana meM Dhera lagAnA dhana kaa| yaha Absezana hai, yaha eka vikSipta citta kI dazA hai| kitanI hatyAeM, kitane yuddha-veM sabhI artha ke kAraNa haiM! kitanI rAjanIti-vaha saba artha ke kAraNa hai| TAlasTaoNya ne likhA hai ki duniyA meM zAMti na hogI, jaba taka sikke calate rheNge| zAyada, duniyA meM aisA to kabhI nahIM hogA ki sikke na cleN| kyoMki vaha bhI ar3acana kA kAraNa hogA, bahuta ar3acana ho jAegI khddii| Aja to hama soca hI nahIM sakate ki AdamI binA sikke ke raha sakatA hai| isalie TAlasTaoNya jaise arAjakavAdiyoM kI bAta kabhI sunI jAegI, yaha to ThIka nahIM hai| aura maiM mAnatA bhI nahIM ki sunI jAnI caahie| lekina sikkoM ke pAgalapana se AdamI kA chuTakArA ho sakatA hai| khayAla kareM, jisa AdamI ko dhana ke pIche tuma daur3ate pAoge, usa AdamI ko agara gaura se dekho to eka bAta tumheM pakkI milegI, usa AdamI ke jIvana meM prema na milegaa| kRpaNa premI nahIM hotA-ho hI nahIM sakatA! aura premI kabhI kRpaNa nahIM hotaa| to aisA lagatA hai, jitanA jIvana meM prema hotA hai, dhana kA pAgalapana utanA hI kama hotA hai| aura jitanA jIvana meM prema kama hotA hai, dhana kA pAgalapana utanA hI jyAdA hotA hai| dhana prema kI paripUrti hai| hRdaya prema se khAlI raha gayA hai to kisI cIja se bharanA hogaa| vaha jo bhItara kI riktatA hai, ghabaDAtI hai, Dara paidA hotA hai ki maiM bhItara khAlI-khAlI, bhara lUM kisI cIja se! manasvida kahate haiM ki baccA jaba pahalI daphe paidA hotA hai, to usake jIvana meM jo pahalI mahatvapUrNa ghaTanA ghaTatI hai, vaha hai mAM kA stn| aura mAM ke stana se do cIjeM sAtha-sAtha bahatI haiM usa bacce meM prema aura duudh| agara mAM bacce ko prema karatI hai to baccA kabhI bahuta phikra nahIM karatA ki jyAdA dUdha pI le| saca to yaha hai ki mAM bacce ko prema karatI hai to bacce ko bahuta phusalAnA par3atA hai, samajhAnA par3atA hai, taba vaha dUdha pItA hai| vaha phikra hI nahIM karatA dUdha vagairaha pIne kii| vaha itanA bharA rahatA hai prema se ki dUdha se bharane kI icchA paidA nahIM hotii| agara bacce ko zaka ho jAe ki mAM prema nahIM karatI, yA sautelI mAM hai, yA narsa hai, yA mAM kI upekSA hai; cAhatI nahIM thI, baccA jabardastI paidA ho gayA hai, bartha-kaMTrola kI TikiyA zAyada kAma nahIM kara sakI, isalie paidA ho gayA hai: eka tiraskAra hai-to baccA jaldI hI samajha jAtA hai, phira vaha bahuta dUdha pIne lagatA hai| kyoMki ghar3I bhara bAda dUdha milegA yA nahIM, isakA bharosA nhiiN| kala kI ciMtA pakar3a letI hai| to vaha mAM ke stana se lagA hI rahatA hai| aura jitanA vaha jyAdA pItA hai, utanA mAM haTAtI hai usako ki ho gayA bhut| jitanA mAM kahatI hai, ho gayA bahuta haTo-utanA hI usako ghabar3AhaTa paidA hotI hai bhaviSya kI. ikaTThA kara lUM dUdha ko ikaTThA kara lUM? jitanA ho sake ikaTThA kara lUM! tumane dekhA, garIba baccoM ke peTa bar3e mileMge, amIra ghara ke baccoM ke peTa bar3e nahIM mileNge| garIba
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________________ baccoM ke zarIra to dubale ho jAeMge, peTa khUba bar3A ho jaaegaa| yaha sabUta hai ki baccA DarA hai; kala roTI milegI yA nahIM, isakA kucha pakkA nahIM hai| phira yahI bhaya pUre jIvana para phaila jAtA hai| dhana yAnI roTI | dhana yAnI dUdha / dhana yAnI kala kA bharosA / dhana yAnI kala kI surakSA | AdamI baiMka meM baileMsa rakhatA hai, iMzyoreMsa karavAtA hai- vaha kala kA iMtajAma kara rahA hai| vaha yaha kaha rahA hai, kala kI phikra nahIM rhegii| kala bUr3he ho jAeM, bImAra ho jAeM- koI phikra nahIM, paisA pAsa meM hai to saba surakSA hai| vaha kahatA hai, prema na bhI ho to calegA, paisA to honA hI caahie| prema ko kyA khAoge, pIyoge - kyA karoge? phira vaha kahatA hai ki paisA hogA to prema to bahuta mila jaaegaa| jisako paise kA pAgalapana hotA hai, vaha socatA hai hara cIja paise se kharIdI jA sakatI hai| nahIM, jIvana meM kucha mahatvapUrNa cIjeM haiM, jo paise se nahIM kharIdI jA sktiiN| saca to yaha hai, jo bhI mahatvapUrNa hai vaha paise se nahIM kharIdA jA sakatA - na prema, na prArthanA, na paramAtmA / jIvana meM jo kSudra hai aura vyartha hai, vahI paise se kharIdA jA sakatA hai| paisA svayaM kSudra hai| kSudra se kSudra hI mila sakatA hai| to AdamI ikaTThA karatA jAtA hai| vaha kahatA hai : prema kala kara leMge, Aja to paisA ikaTThA kara luuN| kala nizcita ho jAeMge, phira prema kara leMge, phira gIta gA leMge, phira vINA bajA leMge, phira vizrAma kareMge- Aja to kamA lUM! kala ko hama kahate haiM, chor3o, Aja kamA kara kala kA iMtajAma kara leN| kala bhI Aja kI taraha aaegaa| phira bhI tuma yahI karate rahoge ki kala ke lie kamA leM, kala ke lie kamA leN| eka dina mauta A jAtI hai aura kala kabhI nahIM aataa| dhana kA Dhera bAhara laga jAtA hai, aura tuma naMge bhikhArI ho jAte ho| dhana kA Dhera laga jAtA hai, bhItara nirdhanatA gaharI ho jAtI hai, bhItara ghAva hI ghAva ho jAte haiN| dhIre- dhIre tuma prema karanA bhUla hI jAte ho| dhana, artha anartha hai| ise pahacAnanA / maiM tumase yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki dhana ko chor3a kara bhAga jaao| maiM tumase sirpha itanA kaha rahA hUM ki jAga jaao| dhana kA upayoga hai| maiM koI arAjakavAdI nahIM hUM aura na dhana-virodhI hUM / dhana kA upayoga hai| dhana kI bAhya upayogitA hai| lekina dhana se apane ko bharane kI ceSTA mata karanA; vaha nahIM ho sakatA; vaha asaMbhava hai| asaMbhava ko karoge to jIvana naSTa ho jAegA, anartha ho jaaegaa| dhana se kucha cIjeM milatI haiM, jarUra milatI haiM aura una cIjoM kA mUlya bhI hai, lekina una cIjoM se koI tRpti nahIM milatI / jIsasa kA vacana hai : maina kaina naoNTa liva bAi beDa alon| AdamI akelI roTI se nahIM jI sktaa| dUsarA vacana bhI jor3A jA sakatA hai ki AdamI binA roTI ke bhI nahIM jI sakatA; vaha saca hai| roTI cAhie, lekina roTI paryApta nahIM hai; roTI se kucha jyAdA caahie| jisa dina tumane samajhA ki dhana paryApta hai, usa dina anartha huaa| jaba taka tumane samajhA ki dhana kI upayogitA hai eka sImA taka aura tuma sImA ke bhItara sajaga rahe- phira koI harja nahIM hai| to tumane dhana kA upayoga kiyA aura dhana ne tumhArA upayoga nahIM kiyaa| tuma mAlika rahe aura dhana mAlika na huaa| saMkSipta meM kaheM to aisA kaha sakate haiM. jaba artha tumhArA mAlika ho jAe to anartha ho gyaa| jaba artha ke tuma mAlika
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________________ hote ho-taba artha, anyathA anrth| __ vairiNam kAmam anarthasaMkulam artham etayo: __ hetum varman api vihAya sarvatra anAdaram kuru| aura ina sabake bhItara-yaha sUtra bar3A krAMtikArI hai aura ina sabake bhItara, sabakA mUlarUpa kAraNa, sAre anartha, kAma aura dhana kI daur3a ke pIche jo mUla kAraNa hai, vaha dharma hai| yaha tuma caukoge suna kr| kyoMki tumane sadA yahI sunA hai ki dharma to trANa hai, ki dharma to nAva hai jisameM baiTha kara hama usa pAra utara jaaeNge| aura aSTAvakra kahate haiM, ina donoM kA kAraNa-rUpa dharma hai| isa sAre upadrava kA kAraNa dharma hai| kyoM? dharma kA artha hai ki mokSa pAnA hai| dharma kA artha hai ki mokSa pAne ke lie kucha karanA hai| yaha mUla kAraNa hai upadrava kaa| tRpti ke lie kucha karanA hai-phira usI se artha bhI paidA hotA hai, usI se kAma bhI paidA hotA hai| mokSa kI udaghoSaNA yaha hai ki kucha karanA nahIM hai, tuma mukta paidA hue ho| isa kSaNa abhI aura yahIM mokSa tumhArA svabhAva hai| tumhArI udaghoSaNA kI bhara bAta hai| tuma jaba cAho ghoSaNA kara do-aura usI kSaNa se AnaMda kI varSA ho jaaegii| samajhane kI koziza kro| sAdhAraNata: hama cIjoM ko hamezA do meM bAMTa dete haiM-sAdhana aura saadhy| sAdhya hotA hai bhaviSya meM, sAdhana hotA hai abhii| mokSa ke saMbaMdha meM yA paramAtmA ke saMbaMdha meM bAta ulTI hai| mokSa abhI hai yahIM hai| kisI sAdhana kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai-sirpha jAganA hai| sirpha AMkha khola kara dekhanA hai-sUraja nikalA huA hai| rAta kahIM bhI nahIM tuma palaka baMda karake baiThe ho, isalie aMdherA mAlUma ho rahA hai| kisI sAdhana kI koI bhI jarUrata nahIM hai, kyoMki sAdhana kA to matalaba yaha hogA ki Aja taiyArI kareMge, taba kala milegaa| yaha to phira vahI daur3a zurU ho gii| Aja dhana kamAeMge to kala dhanI hoNge| Aja strI khojeMge, to kala milegii| yaha to phira paramAtmA ke nAma para bhI vahI daur3a zurU ho gii| nahIM, paramAtmA Aja hai! saMsAra kala hai aura paramAtmA Aja hai saMsAra meM -sadA dauDa hai aura paramAtmA sadA maMjila hai| saMsAra mArga hai aura paramAtmA lakSya hai| vaha lakSya maujUda hI hai, tumheM kahIM jAnA bhI nhiiN| tuma usI meM ghire baiThe ho| vahI tumhAre bhItara hai aura vahI tumhAre bAhara hai| 'tU sabakI upekSA kara, anAdara kr| sarvatra! artha, kAma aura dharma, ina tInoM kA tU anAdara kr| tere mana se sAdhana-mAtra anAdRta ho jaaeN| ' ye tInoM sAdhana haiN| ina tInoM kA anAdara ho jAe, to jo zeSa raha jAegA vahI mokSa hai| 'mitra, kheta, dhana, makAna, strI, bhAI Adi saMpadA ko tUra svapna aura iMdrajAla ke samAna dekha, jo tIna yA pAMca dina hI Tikate haiN| ' isa jagata meM jo bhI hama pakar3a lete haiM aura jisako bhI hama socate haiM ki isase hameM sukha milegA-aSTAvakra kahate hai-vaha draSTa-naSTa hai, dekhate-dekhate hI naSTa ho jAtA hai, svapna jaisA hai! jaba hotA hai to saca lagatA hai; jaba kho jAtA hai taba bar3I hairAnI hotI hai| tumane dekhA, svapna kA yaha svabhAva dekhA! roja rAta dekhate ho, roja subaha jAga kara pAte ho
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________________ jhUThA thaa| aura phira jaba rAta sote ho dUsare dina, to phira usa jhUTha meM par3a jAte ho| phira rAta vahI sapanA phira ThIka mAlUma hone lagatA hai| sapane meM tumheM kabhI saMdeha uThatA hI nhiiN| sapane meM maiMne nAstika dekhA hI nahIM, sapane meM sabhI Astika haiN| sapane meM saMdeha uThatA hI nahIM, bhrama uThatA hI nahIM, zaka uThatA hI nhiiN| sapane meM to bilakula zraddhA rahatI hai| bar3e Azcaryajanaka loga haiM! agara tuma sapane meM dekha rahe ho ki acAnaka eka ghor3A calA A rahA hai, pAsa A kara acAnaka tumhArI patnI bana gayA hai yA pati bana gayA hai, to bhI tumhArA mana yaha nahIM kahatA ki yaha kaise ho sakatA hai! tuma svIkAra karate ho| jarA bhI, raMcamAtra bhI saMdeha nahIM utthtaa| kucha bhI ghaTanA ghaTa saka hai| tuma sapane meM AkAza meM ur3ate ho, tuma zaka bhI nahIM karate ki maiM AkAza meM kaise ur3a sakatA hUM yaha kaise saMbhava hai! tuma virATa ho jAte ho sapane meM, sArA AkAza bhara dete ho, ki bar3e choTe ho jAte ho, ki cIMTI se bhI choTe ho jAte ho ki dikhAI bhI nahIM par3ate, to bhI tumheM zaka nahIM hotaa| subaha jAga kara tuma haMsate ho ki kyA-kyA pAgalapana dekhA ! sapane meM sapanA saca ho jAtA hai| 'mitra, kheta, dhana, makAna, strI, bhAI Adi saMpadA ko tU svapna aura iMdrajAla ke samAna dekha, jo tIna yA pAMca dina ho Tikate haiN| ' bhArata meM satya kI eka paribhASA hai aura vaha paribhASA hai : jo tInoM kAla meM Tike; trikAlaabAdhita; kabhI bhI jisakA khaMDana na ho; jo pahale bhI thA, abhI bhI hai aura phira bhI hogA, jo zAzvata hai - vahI satya hai| jo kala nahIM thA, Aja hai, aura kala phira nahIM ho jAegA use bhArata asatya kahatA hai| bhArata kI isa paribhASA ko ThIka khayAla meM lenaa| yahAM satya kI paribhASA hI yahI hai ki jo abAdhita rUpa se rahe, jaisA thA vaisA hI rhe| kyoM? jo kala nahIM thA, Aja hai, aura kala phira nahIM ho jAegA isakA to artha huA ki do 'nahIM' ke bIca meM honA ghaTa sakatA hai| eka dina thA tuma nahIM the, janma nahIM huA thA, eka dina AegA ki tuma mara jAoge, mauta ho jaaegii| do 'nahIM' aura una donoM ke bIca meM jisako tuma jIvana kahate ho yaha hai / yaha to svapnavata hai- cAhe sattara sAla dekho, cAhe sAta sau sAla dekho, isase koI pharka nahIM pdd'taa| laMbAI se kucha bheda nahIM pdd'taa| jo sadA hai. / trikAlAbAdhyatve stytvm| 'jo tInoM kAla meM abAdhita rahe, vahI satya hai / ' bhAratIya manovijJAna manuSya kI cetano kI cAra avasthAeM kahatA hai| tIna to avasthAeM haiM, cauthA svabhAva hai| jAgrata, svapna, suSupti - tIna to avasthAeM haiM; aura sAkSI, turIya, caturtha svabhAva hai| jAgate meM tuma eka duniyA dekhate ho| jaba tuma so jAte ho aura sapane meM par3ate ho to jAgane kI duniyA jhUTha ho jAtI hai| tuma ThIka apanI patnI ke pAsa so rahe ho bistara para, lekina patnI jhUTha ho gaI jaba tuma so ge| tumheM sone meM patnI kI kabhI yAda nahIM aatii| tuma yaha socate hI nahIM isa bhASA meM ki vaha merI patnI hai| jaba tuma so gae to bacce, tumhArA makAna, tuma garIba ho ki amIra, pratiSThita ho ki apratiSThita, sAdhu ho ki saMta, ki asAdhu ki asaMta, saba kho gyaa| jAganA eka sapanA thaa|
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________________ jaba dUsarA sapanA zurU huA; jAgane kA sapanA kho gayA / phira subaha jaba sapanA TUTatA hai phira dUsarA sapanA zurU huaa| sapane meM jo dekhA thA, vaha aba kho gyaa| jaba rAta meM gaharI nIMda lagatI hai aura sapanA bhI kho jAtA hai - taba jAgrata meM jo jAnA, vaha bhI samApta ho gayA, sapane meM jo jAnA, vaha bhI samApta ho gayA / suSupti meM donoM hI khaMDita ho ge| aura jo loga cauthI avasthA ko upalabdha hote haiM-cauthI, jo ki tumhArA nija - svarUpa hai, kaho buddhatva, sAkSI - bhAva, jinatva, jo bhI nAma denA ho-jo usa cauthI zuddha avasthA ko upalabdha hote haiM, jahAM parama jAgaraNa raha jAtA hai, unako patA calatA hai ki ve tInoM avasthAeM khaMDita ho giiN| svapna, suSupti, jAgRti-saba khaMDita ho gae; kucha aura hI anubhava meM AtA hai| brahma hI brahma anubhava meM AtA hai| kahIM koI saMsAra nahIM dikhAI par3atA, kahIM koI yA nahIM dikhAI par3atA / apanA hI phailAva mAlUma hotA hai / na koI maiM bacatA na koI tU bctaa| to bhArata kahatA hai. sAkSI - bhAva meM jo jAnA jAtA hai, vahI kevala satya hai; usakA phira kabhI khaMDana nahIM hotaa| yaha jagata jisako hama satya mAna baiThe haiM- bhAratIya manISA kahatI hai- isa jagata kI paribhASA. gacchatIti jagata! jo jA rahA hai- jgt| jo gayA gayA hai-jgt| jo jA hI cukA hai, jo jAne ke kinAre khar3A hai- jgt| jagata kA artha hai. jo athira hai, jo thira nahIM; jo nadI kI dhAra kI taraha bahA jA rahA hai; jahAM saba parivartana hI parivartana hai aura kucha bhI zAzvata nhiiN| jahAM parivartana hai, vahAM asty| aura jahAM aparivartita ke darzana hote haiM, zAzvata kI pratIti hotI hai - vahI satya / gacchatIti jagata-jo bhAgA jA rahA hai! jaise AkAza meM dhueM ke bAdala banate haiM aura miTate haiM aura rUpa khar3e hote haiM aura bikharate haiM, kSaNa bhara bhI kucha ThaharA huA nahIM hai- vaisA jagata! koI gira rahA, koI uTha rahA; koI jIta rahA, koI hAra rahA! jo hAra rahA hai, vaha kala jIta sakatA hai| jo abhI rahA hai, vaha kala hAra sakatA hai| yahAM kucha bhI pakkA nahIM hai, yahAM saba cIjeM badalI jA rahI haiN| samudra kI lahareM haiM! isameM jisane satya ko khojanA cAhA, vaha khAlI hAthoM maratA hai| isa sArI badalAhaTa ke bIca, kyA tumheM kabhI bhI thor3A smaraNa AtA hai ki koI aisI cIja hai jo binA badalI hai? usa binA badale ko hI hama AtmA kahate haiN| dina meM tuma jAgate ho - saMsAra - eka baat| yaha jo bhItara tumhAre baiThA dekhatA hai saMsAra ko yaha dUsarI bAta hai| rAta tuma sapane meM so jAte ho, sapanA dekhate ho, taba bhI do cIjeM rahatI haiM- sapanA aura tuma / phira tuma gaharI nIMda meM par3a jAte ho, taba bhI do cIjeM rahatI haiM- tuma aura gaharI niiNd| gaharI nIMda kabhI sapanA bana jAtI hai, sapanA kabhI gaharI nIMda bana jAtA hai| sapane se kabhI jAga Ate ho, duniyA A jAtI hai, phira duniyA khojI hai; lekina eka cIja zAzvata banI rahatI hai- tumhArA sAkSI - bhAva, tumhArA draSTA- bhAva, tumhArI aMtardRSTi / tumane dekhA, gaharI nIMda se bhI uTha kara AdamI kahatA hai, rAta bar3I gaharI nIMda AI, bar3I AMnadapUrNa nIMda AI! pUcho usase, agara nIMda pUrI laga gaI thI to yaha patA kisako calA? yaha kisane jAnA ? yaha kauna khabara de rahA hai ? jarUra tumhAre bhItara koI thA jo dekhatA rahA ki gaharI nIMda lagI, bar3I AMnadapUrNa nIMda lagI! kisI ne isakA pratyakSa kiyA hai- vahI tuma ho| aura saba to badalatA hai, sirpha sAkSI nahIM
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________________ bdltaa| tuma choTe bacce the, phira tuma javAna ho gae, phira tuma bUr3he ho gae, kabhI svastha the, aba jIrNa-jarjara ho gae, khaMDahara ho gae lekina eka tamhAre bhItara akhaMDa, abAdha vaisA kA vaisA banA hai vaha draSTA, saakssii| eka dina usane dekhA bacce jaisI deha hai, eka dina usane dekhA javAna ho gae; eka dina usane dekhA, ke hone lage, eka dina usane dekhA, jIrNa-jarjara ho ge| agara tuma khayAla kara pAo ki tumhAre bhItara yaha sAkSI kA jo anasthUta dhAgA hai, isa para hajAroM ghaTanAeM ghaTI haiM, magara yaha vaisA kA vaisA banA rahA hai| saba isake sAmane AyA aura gayA hai| saba khela isake sAmane calA hai| yaha sabase pAra, dUra achUtA, niSkaluSa maujUda rahA hai| yaha maujUdagI hI ekamAtra satya hai| 'jahAM-jahAM tRSNA ho, vahAM-vahAM hI saMsAra jaan| praur3ha vairAgya ko Azraya karake vItatRSNA ho| 'yatra yatra bhavettRSNA saMsAra viddhi tatra vai| praur3havairAgyamAzritya vItatRSNa sukhI bhava / / praur3ha vairAgya! kaccA vairAgya khataranAka hai| pakA vairAgya! kyA pharka hai kacce aura pake vairAgya meM na: eka to vairAgya hai jo tuma kisI kI bAteM suna kara le lo| kisI sAdhu -satsaMga meM vairAgya kI carcA calatI ho, vairAgya ke anUThe anubhavoM kI bAta hotI ho tumhArA lobha jaga jaae| vairAgya ke AnaMda kI prazasti gAyI jA rahI ho, koI samAdhi ke sukha kA varNana kara rahA ho aura tumhAre bhItara vAsanA jaga jAe ki aisA AnaMda hameM bhI mile, aisA sukha hama bhI pAeM, aisI parama rasapUrNa avasthA hamArI bhI ho! aura isa kAraNa tuma vairAgya le lo, to kaccA vairaagy| yaha TikegA nahIM, yaha tumheM bar3e khatare meM ddaalegaa| tuma abhI pake na the, kacce tor3a lie ge| kaccA phala TUTa jAe to vRkSa ko bhI pIr3A hotI hai, phala ko bhI pIr3A hotI hai| aura kaccA phala kaccA hai, isalie kucha anubhava ghaTegA nhiiN| jo pake phala ko ghaTA hai, vaha kacce ko ghaTa nahIM sakatA, kyoMki vaha pakane meM hI ghaTatA hai| jaba pakA phala vRkSa se giratA hai to kabhI kisI ko patA bhI nahIM calatA kaba gira gayA, cupacApa! na vRkSa para ghAva chUTatA, na pake phala ko koI pIr3A hotI-cupacApa saraka jAtA hai| havA kA jhoMkA bhI na AyA ho aura cupacApa saraka jAtA hai| pakA vairAgya, praur3ha vairAgya-yaha zabda bahuta bahumUlya hai-praur3ha vairAgya kA artha hai. jIvana kI asAratA ko anubhava karake jo vairAgya jnme| vairAgya kA gIta suna kara vairAgya kI prazasti suna kara, jo lobha ke kAraNa vairAgya A jAe, to vaha kaccA saMnyAsa hai -usase bacanA, usakA koI bhI mUlya nahIM, vaha bar3e khatare meM DAla degaa| vaha tumheM saMsAra kA anubhava bhI na karane degA aura samAdhi taka bhI na jAne degA: tuma bIca meM aTaka jAoge trizaMku kI bhaaNti| praur3ha vairAgya-saMsAra kA ThIka-ThIka anubhava karake, apane hI anubhava se jAna kr| buddha to kahate haiM : saMsAra dukha hai| aura aSTAvakra kahate haiM ki kAma zatru hai| aura mahAvIra kahate
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________________ haiM. artha meM sirpha anartha hai| magara yaha ve kahate haiM, yaha tumane nahIM jaanaa| inakI suna kara ekadama cala mata par3anA; anuyAyI mata bana jAnA, nahIM to khatarA hogaa| tumhAre pAsa apanI AMkheM nahIM haiM - tuma kahIM na kahIM khAI, khaDDe meM giroge| inako bAta samajhanA aura jIvana kI kasauTI para kasanA / anuyAyI mata bananA, anubhava se siikhnaa| ye kahate haiM, to ThIka kahate hoMge isa para vizvAsa kara lene kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| ye kahate haiM to ThIka hI kahate hoMge isa para avizvAsa karane kI bhI koI jarUrata nahIM hai, lekina isa para prayoga karane kI jarUrata hai| ye jo kahate haiM, use jIvana meM utAranA, dekhanA / dekhanA apanI vAsanA ko / agara tumhArA bhI yahI niSkarSa ho, tumhArA avalokana bhI yahI kahe ki buddha ThIka kahate haiM, aSTAvakra ThIka kahate haiM. lekina nirNAyaka tumhArA anubhava ho, buddha kA kahanA nahIM / buddha gavAha hoN| maulika niSpatti tumhArI apanI ho / phira tumhAre jIvana meM jo vairAgya hogA vaha praur3ha vairAgya hai| 'jahAM-jahAM tRSNA ho, vahAM - vahAM saMsAra jAna / agara mokSa kI bhI tRSNA ho, to vaha bhI saMsAra hai| isalie dharma ko bhI kahA, tyAga kara denA / 'praur3ha vairAgya ko Azraya karake vItatRSNA ho / ' praur3havairAgyamAzritya vItatRSNa sukhI bhava / abhI ho jA sukha ko upalabdha! lekina pahale vairAgya ko praur3ha ho jAne de| yatra yatra tRSNA bhaveta tatra saMsAram vidhi vai / jahAM -jahAM hai vAsanA, vahAM-vahAM saMsAra / samajhanA / vAsanA saMsAra hai, isalie saMsAra ko chor3ane se kucha bhI na hogaa| vAsanA chor3ane se saba kucha hogaa| saMsAra to vAsanA ke kAraNa nirmita hotA hai| tuma saMsAra se bhAga gae to kucha lAbha nahIM / vAsanA sAtha rahI to nayA saMsAra nirmita ho jaaegaa| jahAM tuma hooge, vahIM bdapriMTa tumhAre pAsa hai, phira tuma khar3A kara loge| usase tuma baca na pAoge / usakA bIja tumhAre bhItara hai| vAsanA bIja hai, saMsAra vRkSa hai| bIja ko dagdha karo, vRkSa se mata lar3ane meM laga jaanaa| ...... tatra saMsAram viddhi vai| praur3ha vairAgyam Azritya vItatRSNa sukhI bhava / / aura praur3hatA ko upalabdha ho ! isalie kacce -kacce bhAgo mt| gaira anubhava meM bhAgo mt| bhagor3e mata bno| palAyanavAdI mata bno| jIvana kI gaharAI meM, saghana meM khar3e ho kara jIvana ko saba taraha jAna kara .. / kAmavAsanA meM utara kara hI tuma kAmavAsanA se mukta ho skoge| kAmavAsanA kI gaharAiyoM meM utara kara hI tuma jAna pAoge vyrthtaa| dhana kI daur3a meM daur3a kara hI tuma pAoge milatA kucha bhI nhiiN| mahatvAkAMkSA meM jI kara hI tumheM patA calegA ki sirpha dagdha karatI hai mahatvAkAkSA, jalAtI hai; jvara hai, sannipAta hai| rAjanIti meM par3a kara hI tuma jAnoge ki rAjanIti roga hai, vikSiptatA hai, pAgalapana hai| jIvana ko anubhava se pakane do| aura jaba jIvana kA anubhava tumhArA kaha de to phira vairAgya
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________________ sahaja ghaTa jAegA; jaise pakA phala gira jAtA hai| 'mAtra tRSNA hI baMdha hai aura usakA nAza mokSa kahA jAtA hai| aura saMsAra-mAtra meM asaMga hone se niraMtara AtmA kI prApti aura tuSTi hotI hai|' tRSNAmAtrAtmako baMdhastannAzo mokSa uccte| bhavAsaMsaktimAtreNa praaptitussttirmuhurmuhu|| yaha sUtra bar3A vicAraNIya hai| 'mAtra tRSNA baMdha hai!' jaba taka tuma kucha bhI cAhate ho, taba taka jAnanA baMdhe rhoge| Izvara ko bhI cAhA to baMdhe rhoge| kala hI 'guNA' ne eka prazna likha kara mujhe bhejA hai ki maiM to Apako kabhI nahIM chor3a sakatI aura Apa koziza bhI mata karanA mujhe chur3A dene kii| mere lie to Apa saba kucha ho, mujhe koI Izvara nahIM cAhie, koI mokSa nahIM caahie| tumheM na cAhie ho aura tuma apanI cAhata meM kucha galata kI mAyA bhI karo to bhI maiM galata kA sahayogI nahIM ho sakatA huuN| kitanI hI kaThoratA mAlUma par3e maiM pUrI ceSTA karUMgA ki tuma mujhase mukta ho jaao| anyathA, maiM tumhArA zatru ho gyaa| yaha to phira cAhata ne nayA rUpa liyaa| yaha to phira tRSNA bnii| pati se chUTe, patnI se chUTe, to guru se baMdha gae; magara yaha to phira nayA jaMjAla huA, phira naI jaMjIra bnii| guru to vahI, jo tumheM AtyaMtika jaMjIra se mukta karavA de jo tumheM svayaM se bhI mukta karavA de| kaThina lagatA hai, kyoMki eka prema jagatA hai| kaThora lagatI hai bAta, lekina tumhArI mAna kara maiM calUM taba to tuma kabhI bhI kahIM na pahuMca paaoge| phira to maiM tumhArA anyAyI huaa| tumheM kaThora bhI lage to bhI maiM vahI kie calA jAUMgA jo mujhe karanA hai| agara maiM tumase kahUM bhI ki ghabar3Ao mata kabhI nahIM chuDAUMgA, to bhI tuma merA bharosA mata krnaa| vaha bhI sirpha isalie kaha rahA hUM ki kahIM chur3Ane ke pahale hI bhAga mata khar3e honaa| to roke rahUMgA samajhAtA rahUMgA ki nahIM koI harjA nahIM, kahA chur3AnA hai? kisako chur3AnA hai? sadA-sadA tumhAre sAtha rahUMgA magara nIce se jar3eM kATatA rhuuNgaa| eka dina acAnaka tuma pAoge ki chuTakArA ho gyaa| mujhase bhI chuTakArA to cAhie hI
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________________ sadaguru vahI hai, jo tumheM svayaM se bhI mukta kara de| nahIM to saMsAra kI sArI vAsanAeM dhIredhIre guru para laga jAtI haiM, tumhArA moha guru se bana jAtA hai| phira tuma usakI phikra meM laga jAte ho| phira moha kaise aMdhepana meM le jAtA hai, kahanA kaThina hai| maiM paMjAba jAtA thA, eka ghara meM ThaharatA thaa| eka dina subaha uTha kara nikalA to dekhA guru graMtha sAhaba-kitAba! -ko sajA kara rakhA huA hai| sAmane datauna rakhI hai aura eka loTA pAnI bharA rakhA hai| maiMne pUchA, mAmalA kyA hai? kahate haiM, guru graMtha sAhaba ke lie datauna! aba pAgalapana kI koI sImA hotI hai! nAnaka ke lie dI thI datauna-ThIka, samajha meM AtA; tuma guru-graMtha ko datauna lagA rahe? lekina bhakta yahI kara rahe haiN| mUrti ko sajAte haiM, bhoga lagAte haiM, uThAte-biThAte, nahalAtesulAte, na mAlUma kyA-kyA karate rahate haiM! khela-khilaunoM se kaba chUToge? choTe baccoM jaisI bAta ho gaI, bacakAnI ho gii| choTe bacce apanI gprA-uprI ko samhAle phirate haiM, snAna karavAte haiM, kapar3e badalAte haiM, bhojana bhI karavAte haiM, sulAte bhI haiM-tuma unako kahate ho bacakAne! aura tuma rAmacaMdra jI ke sAtha yahI kara rahe ho| magara moha hai| bhakta ko lagatA hai yaha to bhakti hai, yaha to prema hai, yaha to bar3I UMcI bAta hai! yaha kitanI hI UMcI ho, yaha tumheM kabhI bhI mukta na hone degI, tuma baMdhe hI raha jaaoge| saMsAra se chUTanA kaThina hai, phira dharma se chUTanA aura bhI kaThina ho jAtA hai| sAMsArika saMbaMdhoM se chUTanA kaThina hai, phira dhArmika saMbaMdhoM se chUTanA aura bhI kaThina ho jAtA hai| kyoMki dhArmika saMbaMdha itane prItikara haiM! aba guru aura ziSya kA saMbaMdha aisA prItikara hai, usameM kar3avAhaTa to hai hI nahIM, rasa hI rasa hai| pati-patnI to eka-dUsare se Uba bhI jAte haiM, bApa-beTA to eka-dUsare se kalaha bhI kara lete haiM, jhaMjhaTa bhI ho jAtI hai lekina guru-ziSya kA saMbaMdha to bar3A hI madhura hai| vahAM na koI jhaMjhaTa hai, na koI jhagar3A hai, na koI kalaha hai, na koI kATe haiN| vahAM to rasa hI rasa hai| vahAM to ziSya bhI apanI UMcAI meM milatA hai| aura guru to apanI UMcAI para hai| tuma jaba guru ke pAsa Ate ho taba tumhAre bhItara jo zreSThatama hai, vaha pragaTa hone lagatA hai| isalie milana zreSTha kA zreSTha se hotA hai| tuma guru ke pAsa apanI gaMdI zakla le kara thor3e hI Ate ho| sthAna karake, tAje ho kara, zubha muhUrta meM pUjA-prArthanA ke bhAva se bhare, tuma guru kI sannidhi meM Ate ho tumhArA zuddhatama rUpa tuma lAte ho| guru ke zreSThatama se milanA hai to jo bhI tumhAre pAsa zreSThatama hai, use le kara Ate ho| ina do ke bIca jo milana hotA hai, vaha to ati madhura hai| phira usameM baMdhana paidA hotA hai| phira lagatA hai : basa, aisA hI banA rahe, aisA hI calatA rahe, sadA-sadA, yaha sapanA kabhI TUTe na! / lekina yaha sapanA bhI TUTanA hI caahie| ziSya na tor3anA cAhe to bhI guru ko tor3anA pdd'egaa| ziSya yaha nAsamajhI kara sakatA hai, yaha kAmanA kara sakatA hai-guru to isa kAmanA ko bala nahIM de sktaa| 'mAtra tRSNA hI baMdha hai aura usakA nAza mokSa kahA jAtA hai| '
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________________ tRSNAmAtrAtmaka baMdha: tannAza mokSa: ucyte| 'aura jahAM tRSNA gira gaI, vahIM mokss|' aura saMsAra mAtra meM asaMga hone se niraMtara AtmA kI prApti aura taSTi hotI hai| bhavAsaMsaktimAtreNa muha muha praaptitusstti| aura jaise -jaise vAsanA ke girane kI jhalakeM AtI haiM.. jaise vAsanA girI ki tatkSaNa mokSa jhalakA! aisA bAra-bAra hogaa| muhuH muhuH! prApti hogI, tuSTi hogI! pahale-pahale to kabhI-kabhI kSaNa bhara ko vAsanA sarakegI, lekina utanI hI dera meM AkAza khula jAegA aura sUraja pragaTa ho jaaegaa| jaise kisI ne mUMde-mUMde AMkha jarA-sI kholI, phira baMda kara lI, purAnI Adatavaza AMkha phira baMda ho gaI, phira jarA-sI kholI, phira baMda kara lI, phira dhIre- dhIre kholane ke lie abhyasta huA phira pUrI AMkha kholI aura phira kabhI baMda na kii| to pahale to bAra-bAra aisA hogaa| __'saMsAra-mAtra meM asaMga hone se bAra-bAra AtmA kI prApti aura taSTi hotI hai|' bAra-bAra, phira-phira, puna: -puna:! aura rasa bAra-bAra bar3hatA jAtA hai, kyoMki AMkha bAra-bAra aura bhI khulatI jAtI hai| jaise-jaise satya dikhAI par3anA zurU hotA hai, vaise-vaise asatya se sAre saMbaMdha TUTane lagate haiN| jaise hI dikhAI par3a gayA ki asAra asAra hai, vaise hI hAtha se muTThI khula jAtI hai| jaise hI dikhA sAra sAra hai, vaise hI sAra ko hRdaya meM saMjo lene kI, hRdaya ko maMjUSA banA lene kI sahaja pravRtti ho jAtI hai| 'tU eka zuddha caitanya hai, saMsAra jar3a aura asta hai, vaha avidayA bhI asata hai-isa para bhI tU kyA jAnane kI icchA karatA hai?' aSTAvakra kahate haiM. yahAM jAnane ko aura kucha bhI nhiiN| yahAM tIna cIjeM haiM. AtmA hai, jagata hai aura AtmA aura jagata ke bIca eka bhrAMta saMbaMdha hai, jisako hama avidyA kaheM, mAyA kaheM, ajJAna kheN| yahAM tIna cIjeM haiM. AtmA, jagata- bhItara hai kucha hamAre, caitanya-mAtra, aura bAhara hai jar3atA kA phailAva-aura donoM ke bIca meM eka setu hai| vaha setu agara avidayA kA hai, to hama ulajhe haiN| vaha setu agara tRSNA kA hai, to hama baMdhana meM par3e haiN| vaha setu agara mAMga kA hai, yAcanA kA hai, to hama bhikhArI bane haiN| aura hameM apanI saMpadA kA kabhI patA na clegaa| agara dikhAI par3a gayA ki vaha avidayA, aura mAyA, aura sapanA, aura mUrchA vyartha hai aura hama jAgane lage, to bIca se setu TUTa jAtA hai. vahAM jar3a saMsAra raha jAtA hai, yahAM caitanya AtmA raha jAtI hai| jAnane ko phira kucha aura nahIM hai| 'tU eka zuddha caitanya hai|' tvamekazcetana zuddho jaDa vishvmsttthaa| avidayApi na kicitsA kA babhatsA tathApi te|| tvam eka: -tU eka; zuddhaH -zuddha: cetana: -caitanya, vizva jar3a ca asat-aura vizva hai jar3a, svpnvt| tathA sA avidayA api na kicita-aura jaisA yaha jar3a jagata asata hai, svannavata hai-isase jo hamane saMbaMdha banAe haiM, svabhAvata: ve saMbaMdha satya nahIM ho skte|
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________________ asatya se kaise satya ke saMbaMdha ho sakate haiM? rAta tumane eka sapanA dekhA ki kohinUra tumhAre sAmane rakhA hai-lar3ate raheM pAkistAna, hiMdustAna aura saba, lekina kohinUra tumhAre sapane meM sAmane rakhA hai| kohinUra dekhate hI tumhArA mana huA uThA rakha lUM apanA banA lUM chipA lUM kohinUra dekhA - vaha to jhUThA hai, sapane kA hai ! aba tumhAre mana meM yaha jo bhAva uThA-uThA lUM saMbhAla lUM rakha lUM koI dekha nale, kisI ko patA na cala jAe yaha jo bhAva uThA, yaha kaise saca ho sakatA hai? jisake prati uThA hai vahI asata hai, to jo bhAva uThA hai vaha sata nahIM ho sakatA hai| aSTAvakra kahate haiM avidyA api na kicita - aura ye jo avidyA ke saMbaMdha haiM, ye bhI asAra haiN| tathA api te kA bubhutsA- phira tU aura aba kyA jAnanA cAhatA hai? basa, jAnanA pUrA ho gayA / itanA hI jAnanA hai / iti jJAna ! saMsAra hai bhAgatA huA gacchatIti jagata! parivartana, taraMgoM se bharA huA aura AtmA hai zAzvata, nistaraMga, asNg| aura donoM ke bIca meM jo saMbaMdha haiM, ve saMbaMdha saba jhUThe haiM, ajJAna ke haiM, avidyA ke haiN| koI kahatA hai, merA beTA, koI kahatA hai, merI patnI, koI kahatA, merA makAna! maiM sunA hai, eka dhanapati ke makAna meM Aga laga gii| dhU-dhU karake makAna jala rahA hai, vaha chAtI pITa kara ro rahA hai| bar3I bhIr3a laga gaI hai| eka AdamI ne A kara kahA, 'tuma nAhaka ro rahe ho| mujhe pakkA patA hai, tumhAre beTe ne kala hI zAma yaha makAna beca diyA hai| ' aisA sunate hI dhanapati ekadama prasanna ho gayA aura usane kahA saca ! mujhe to patA hI nhiiN| beTe ne kucha khabara na dI, beTA dUsare gAMva gayA hai| magara aba aba bhI makAna jala rahA hai, dhU-dhU karake jala rahA hai, aura lapaTeM bar3I ho gaI haiM; lekina aba AMsU sUkha gae vaha bar3A prasanna hai| tabhI beTA vApisa AyA bhAgA huA aura usane kahA ki 'kyA khar3e ho? bAta uThI thI becane kI, lekina saudA abhI huA nahIM thaa| phira rone lagA, phira chAtI pITane lgaa| aba phira apanA makAna ! makAna abhI vahI kA vahI hai, aba bhI jala rahA hai| lekina bIca meM thor3I dera ko 'mere' kA saMbaMdha nahIM rhaa| thor3I dera ko bhI 'mere' kA saMbaMdha chUTa gyaa| sabhI sthiti vahI kI vahI thI, kucha pharka na par3A thaa| yaha AdamI vaisA kA vaisA, yaha makAna vaisA kA vaisA / yaha AdamI koI buddha nahIM ho gayA thaa| yaha bilakula vaise kA vaisA hI AdamI hai, makAna bhI jala rahA thA; sirpha eka saMbaMdha bIca se kho gayA thA - 'merA' / basa, usa saMbaMdha ke kho jAne se dukha kho gyaa| phira saMbaMdha lauTa AyA, phira dukha ho gyaa| tuma jarA gaura krnaa| tumhArA dukha asata ke sAtha tumhAre banAe hue saMbaMdhoM se paidA hotA hai| tumhArA sukha, asata ke sAtha tumhAre saMbaMdha chUTa jAe, unase ghaTita hotA hai| 'tere rAjya, putra-putriyAM, zarIra aura sukha janma-janma meM naSTa hue haiM yadyapi tU unase Asakta thaa| ' aSTAvakra kahate haiM. lauTa kara pIche dekh| jo tere pAsa Aja hai aisA kaI bAra tere pAsa thaa| aise rAjya kaI bAra hue| aisI patniyAM aise putra kaI bAra hue| bahuta bahuta dhana kaI bAra tere pAsa thaa| aura hara bAra tU Asakta thaa| lekina terI Asakti se kucha rukA nahIM AyA aura gyaa| AsaktiyoM se kahIM
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________________ sapane Thaharate haiM? rAjyaM satAH kalatrANi zarIrANi sukhAni ca / saMsaktasyApi naSTAni tava janmani janmani / / kitane janmoM se janaka tU aisI hI cIjoM ke bIca meM rahA hai! hara bAra tUne Asakti kI ! hara bAra tUne cIjoM se 'merA' saMbaMdha banAyA-merI haiM - phira chUTa - chUTa giiN| mauta AI aura saba saMbaMdha tor3a gaI, saba vicchinna kara gii| 'artha, kAma aura sukRta karma bahuta ho cuke| inase bhI saMsAra rUpI jaMgala meM mana vizrAMti ko nahIM prApta huaa|' suno artha, kAma, sukRta karma bahuta ho cuke tU saba kara cukA, dhana bhI khUba kamA cukA, bhoga bhI khUba kara cukA yayAti kI kathA hai upaniSadoM meM, ki jaba vaha marane ko huA, sau sAla kA ho kara mauta AI to vaha ghabar3A gyaa| usane kahA, yaha to jaldI A gii| abhI to maiM sau hI sAla kA huuN| abhI to maiM bhoga bhI nahIM paayaa| usake sau beTe the, saikar3oM rAniyAM thiiN| usane apane beToM se kahA ki aisA karo, mujha ke bApa ke lie itanA to karo, tumameM se koI mara jAe ! purAne dinoM kI kahAniyAM haiN| una dinoM niyama itane sakhta na rahe hoNge| paramAtmA sadaya thaa| bhI kahA ki ThIka hai, kA AdamI hai, chor3a dete haiM; lekina kisI ko to mujhe le jAnA hI hogA, koI bhI rAjI ho jaae| mauta ne socA, kauna rAjI hogA ! bar3e beTe to rAjI na hue| koI sattara sAla ke the, koI to assI sAla ke ho rahe the| ve bhI jIvana dekha cuke the, anubhava kara cuke the, magara, phira bhI rasa chUTA na thaa| choTA beTA khar3A ho gyaa| usane kahA ki mujhe le clo| vaha to abhI paMdraha solaha sAla kA hI thaa| mauta ne kahA, nAsamajha, tere aura ninyAnabe bhAI haiM, ve tujhase umra meM bar3e haiN| unameM se koI jAtA to samajha meM aataa| assI sAla ke haiM - ve khuda bhI tere bApa jitane bUr3he ho rahe haiM, ve nahIM jaate| terA bApa khuda sau sAla kA hai, use khuda jAnA cAhie! vaha kisI ko bhejane ko rAjI hai, koI beTA calA jAe to taiyAra hai| tU kyoM maratA hai? usa beTe ne kahA, yahI dekha kara ki sau sAla ke ho kara bhI pitA ko kucha na milA, to sau sAla agara maiM jI bhI liyA to kyA pAUMgA? yahI dekha kara ki assI sAla, sattara, sATha sAla ke mere bhAI haiM, inako abhI taka kucha nahIM milA, to raha kara bhI kyA sAra hai? maiM taiyAra huuN| bar3A abhUtapUrva vyakti rahA hogA vaha beTA / mauta use le gii| rAjA sau sAla jiiyaa| usa beTe kI umra use laga gii| aisA kahate haiM kaI bAra huA-dasa bAra huA hara bAra mauta AI aura hara bAra yayAti ne kahA : abhI. abhI to maiM bhoga hI nahIM paayaa| phira kisI beTe ko bhejA, phira kisI beTe ko bhejaa| jaba vaha hajAra sAla kA ho gayA, mauta phira aaii| phira yayAti ko bhI zarma lgii| usane kahA ki kSamA karo,
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________________ aba to eka bAta samajha meM A gaI ki eka hajAra sAla kyA eka karor3a sAla bhI jIUM, to bhI kucha nahIM hogaa| kucha yahAM hotA hI nhiiN| samaya kA koI savAla nahIM hai| vAsanA bharatI hI nahIM, dumUra hai| aSTAvakra kahate haiM janaka ko. artha, kAma, saba tU kara cukA aura aisA hI nahIM, sukRta karma bhI bahuta ho cuke, zubha karma bhI tU bahuta kara cukA puNya bhI khUba kara cukA hai unase bhI kucha bhI nahIM huA / 'inase bhI saMsAra rUpI jaMgala meM mana vizrAMti ko prApta nahIM huaa| ' na to bure karma se vizrAMti milatI, na acche karma se vizrAMti milatI / karma se vizrAMti milatI hI nahIM- akarma se milatI hai| kyoMki karma kA to artha hI hai : abhI gati jArI hai, bhAga-daur3a jArI hai, ApAdhApI jArI hai| akarma kA artha hai : baiTha gae, zAMta ho gae, virAma meM A gae, pUrNa virAma lagA diyA! aba sirpha sAkSI rahe, kartA na rhe| arthena kAmena sukRtena karmaNA api alam! bahuta ho cukA saba tU kara cukA! tathA api saMsAra kAtAre manaH na vizrAMtam abhuut| phira bhI isa jaMgala meM, isa upadrava meM, isa utpAta - rUpI saMsAra meM mana ko jarA bhI vizrAMti kA koI kSaNa nahIM milaa| to aba jAga- aba karane se jAga ! 'kitane janmoM taka tUne kyA zarIra, mana aura vANI se dukhapUrNa aura zramapUrNa karma nahIM kie haiM? aba to uparAma kr| ' aba vizrAMti kara! jisako jhena phakIra jhAjhena kahate haiN| jhAjhena kA artha hotA hai; basa baiThe rahanA aura dekhate rahanA; upazama ! yaha dhyAna kI parama paribhASA hai| dhyAna koI kRtya nahIM hai| dhyAna kA tumhAre karane se kucha saMbaMdha nahIM hai| dhyAna kA artha hai binA kisI virodha ke, binA cupacApa dekhanA ! : sAkSI - bhaav| jo ho rahA hai use cupacApa dekhanA ! binA kisI lagAMva ke kisI pakSapAta ke-na isa tarapha, na usa tarapha niSpakSa udAsIna - basa kRtaM na kati janmAni kAyena manasA girA / dukhamAyAsada karma tadadyAnduparamyatAm / / tata adyApi uprmytaam| aba to upazama kara! aba to baiTha! loga adharma meM ulajhe haiN| kisI taraha adharma se chUTate haiM to dharma meM ulajha jAte haiM-magara ulajhana nahIM jaatii| loga pApa kara rahe haiM; kisI taraha pApa se chUTate, to puNya meM ulajha jAte haiM- lekina ulajhana nahIM jaatii| kucha to kareMge hii| agara gAlI baka rahe haiM; kisI taraha unako samajhA-bujhA kara rAjI karo, mata bako, to ve kahate haiM : aba hama jApa kareMge, bhajana kareMge, magara upadrava to jArI rakheMge ! tumane dekhA, loga lAUDaspIkara lagA kara akhaMDa kIrtana karane lagate haiN| kIratana ko kIrtana kahate haiM! aba akhaMDa kIrtana tuma kara rahe ho, pUra mohalle ko sone nahIM dete! baccoM kI parIkSA hai, unakI parIkSA
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________________ kI kyA gati hogI-tumheM matalaba nhiiN| tuma dhArmika kArya kara rahe ho ye kisa taraha ke dhArmika loga haiM? ye kisI se pUchane bhI nahIM jaate| ina para koI roka bhI nahIM lagA sakatA, kyoMki yaha dhArmika kAma kara rahe haiN| agara koI AdamI mAika lagA kara rAta bhara anargala bake, to pulisa pakar3a le jAe; lekina vaha kIrtana kara rahA hai yA satyanArAyaNa kI kathA kara rahA hai, to koI pulisa bhI pakar3a kara nahIM le jA sktii| dhArmika hone kI to svataMtratA hai aura dhArmika kRtya kI svataMtratA hai| magara yaha AdamI vahI kA vahI hai| yaha cilla-poM meM isakA bharosA hai| mere pAsa loga Ate haiN| ve kahate haiM ki Apa kahate haiM : basa, zAMta baiTha kara dhyAna kara leN| magara kucha to sahArA cAhie, kucha AlaMbana de deM, rAma-rAma batA deM, koI bhI maMtra de deM, kAna phUMka deM, kucha to de deM-to hama kucha kareM! aba unako agara rAma-rAma de do, to ve rAma-rAma karane ko taiyAra haiM magara bakavAsa jArI rahI! pahale kucha aura baka rahe the bhItara, hajAra cIjeM baka rahe the; aba saba bakavAsa unhoMne eka tarapha lagA dI, aba rAma-rAma bakane lge| magara cupa hone ko rAjI nahIM, sirpha dekhane ko rAjI nahIM! dekhanA bar3A kaThina hai, sAkSI honA bar3A kaThina! sAkSI hI dhyAna hai| baiTha jAo; mana cale, calane do| tuma ho kauna bAdhA DAlane vAle? tumase pUchA kisane? tumase pUcha kara to mana zurU nahIM huA tumase pUcha kara baMda bhI hone kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| tuma ho kauna? jaise rAha para kAreM cala rahI haiM, rikyo daur3a rahe, bhoMpU baja rahe, AkAza meM havAI jahAja ur3a rahe, pakSI gunagunA rahe, bacce ro rahe, kutte bhauMka rahe-aise tumhAre bhItara mana kA bhI Traiphika hai. cala rahA, calane do! tuma baiThe raho! udAsIna kA yahI artha hai| 'udAsIna' ThIka-ThIka jhAjhena jaisA artha rakhatA hai : basa, baiTha gae! jamA lI Asana bhItara, ho gae AsIna bhItara, baiTha gae, dekhane lage! jo calatA hai, calane do| burA vicAra Ae to burA mata kaho, kyoMki burA kahA ki tuma DAvAMDola ho ge| burA kahA ki tumhArA mana huA ki na AtA to acchA thaa| A gayA, tuma vicalita ho ge| acchA vicAra A jAe, to bhI pITha mata thapathapAne laganA ki gajaba, bar3A acchA vicAra aayaa| itanA tumane kahA ki AsIna na rahe tuma, ukhar3a gayA Asana, tuma DAvAMDola ho gae, tumhArI thiratA kho gii| kuMDalinI jagane lage to parezAna mata honA ki uThane lagI kuMDalinI, aba basa siddhapuruSa hone meM jyAdA dera nahIM hai| prakAza dikhAI par3ane lage to vicalita mata ho jaanaa| ye saba mana ke hI khela haiN| bar3e-bar3e khela mana khelatA hai! bar3e dUra ke dRzya dikhAI dene lgeNge| eka mahilA, koI assI varSa kI mahilA, mere pAsa aaii| vaha kahane lagI ki bar3A gajaba anubhava ho rahA hai| 'kyA anubhava ho rahA hai?' ki jaba maiM baiThatI hUM, to aise-aise jaMgala dikhAI par3ate haiM jinako kabhI nahIM dekhaa| 'magara inako dekha kara bhI kyA karoge? jaMgala hI dikhAI par3a rahe haiM na?' vaha mujhase bar3I nArAja ho gii| usane kahA ki Apa kaise haiM? maiM to jaba bhI kisI sAdhu-saMta ke pAsa jAtI hUM, to ve kahate haiM. bahuta acchA ho rahA hai! bar3A anubhava ho rahA hai!
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________________ adhyAtma anubhava nahIM hai| aura jaba taka anubhava hotA rahe, taba taka adhyAtma nahIM hai| anubhava kA to artha hI hai, tuma abhI bhI anubhoktA bane ho, abhI bhI bhogI ho! bAhara kA nahIM bhoga rahe, bhItara kA bhoga rahe ho, lekina bhoga jArI hai| kisI kI kuMDalinI uTha rahI, kisI ko pITha meM surasurI mAlUma hone lgii| aura vaha bhI suna liyA hai, par3ha liyA hai zAstroM meM ki aisA hogA / to baiThe haiM, baiThe-baiThe basa khoja rahe haiM ki ho surasurI / aba tuma khojate rahoge to ho jaaegii| tuma kalpita kara loge tuma mAna loge-hoM jaaegii| aura jaba ho jAegI, to tuma bar3e praphullita hone lgoge| tuma praphullita hone lage ki gae cUka gae, phira dhyAna cUkA ! kucha bhI ho, tuma sirpha dekhanA ! tuma draSTA se jarA bhI DiganA mt| tuma sirpha sAkSI bane rhnaa| tuma kahanA ThIka, galata, jo bhI ho, hama dekhate rheNge| hama apanI tarapha se koI nirNaya na deMge, koI cunAva na kreNge| hama acche-bure kA vibhAjana na kreNge| zurU-zurU meM bar3A kaThina hogA, kyoMki Adata janmoM-janmoM kI hai nirNaya dene kii| jIsasa kA bar3A prasiddha vacana hai. jaja I naoNTa; nirNaya mata karo; nyAyAdhIza mata bano! na kaho acchA, na kaho burA-basa dekhate rho| aura tuma cakita ho jAoge, agara tuma dekhate rahe, to dhIredhIre bhIr3a chaMTane lgegii| kama vicAra AeMge, kama anubhava gujreNge| kabhI-kabhI aisA hogA, rAstA mana kA khAlI par3A raha jAegA; eka vicAra gujara gayA, dUsarA AyA nahIM; bIca meM eka khAlI jagaha aMtarAla-usI aMtarAla meM, jisako aSTAvakra kahate haiM. bhavAsaMsaktimAtreNa muhuH muhu prApti tuSTi! vahI puna: puna: tuSTi aura prApti hone lgegii| milegA prabhu aura parama tuSTi milegI vaha tuSTi anubhava kI nahIM hai ki koI bar3A anubhava huA hai isalie ahaMkAra ko majA aayaa| nahIM, vaha tuSTi to zUnya kI hai| vaha tuSTi to samAdhi kI hai, anubhava kI nahIM hai; vaha tuSTi to anubhavAtIta hai| vaha tuSTi to turIya avasthA kI hai| vaha tuSTi to parama upazama, vizrAMti kI hai| 'aba to upazama kara ! ' tata adyApi uparamyatAm ! yahI maiM tumase bhI kahatA. aba to upazama karo! aba to vizrAma karo! aba to baiTho aura dekho| aba to sAkSI bano! kartA bane bahuta, bhoktA bane bahuta acche bhI kie karma, bure bhI kie ho cukA bahuta aba jarA sAkSI bano! aura jo tumheM na kartA bana kara milA, na bhoktA bana kara milA vahI barasa uThegA prasAda kI bhAMti sAkSI meN| sAkSI meM milatA hai prmaatmaa| sAkSI meM milatA hai sty| kyoMki sAkSI satya hai! hari oM tatsat!
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________________ saMnyAsa bAMsurI hai sAkSI-bhAva kI--(pravacana-paMdrahavAM) dinAMka: 10 akTUbara, 1976; zrI rajanIza Azrama, puunaa| pahalA prazna : Apane batAyA ki jaba aSTAvakra mAM ke garbha meM the, unake pitA ne unheM zApa diyA, jisakI vajaha se unakA zarIra ATha jagahoM se Ar3A-tirachA ho gyaa| bhagavAna, isa ATha kA kyA rahasya hai? ve aThAraha jagaha se bhI Ter3he-mer3he ho sakate the aura aSTAvakra khlaate| yaha ATha kA hI AMkar3A kyoM? yaha ATha AMkar3A arthapUrNa hai| ye choTI-choTI kahAniyAM gahare sAMketika artha lie haiN| inheM tuma itihAsa mata smjhnaa| inakA tathya se bahuta kama saMbaMdha hai| inakA to bhItara ke rahasyoM se saMbaMdha hai| ATha kA AMkar3A yoga ke aSTAMgoM se saMbaMdhita hai| pataMjali ne kahA hai. ATha aMgoM ko jo pUrA karegA-yama, niyama, Asana, prANAyAma, pratyAhAra, dhAraNA, dhyAna, samAdhi-vahI kevala satya ko upalabdha hogaa| yaha pitA kI nArAjagI, yaha pitA kA abhizApa sirpha itanI hI sUcanA detA hai ki ve ATha aMga, jinase vyakti parama satya ko upalabdha hotA hai, maiM tere vikRta kie detA huuN| tumheM ghaTanA phira se yAda dilA duuN| pitA vedapAThI the| ve subaha roja uTha kara veda kA pATha krte| khyAtilabdha the, sAre deza meM unakA nAma thaa| bar3e zAstrArthI the| aura aSTAvakra garbha meM suntaa| eka dina acAnaka bola par3A garbha se ki ho gayA bahuta isa totA-raTana se kucha bhI na hogaa| jAne binA satya kA koI patA nahIM calatA-par3ho kitanA hI veda, zAstra satya nahIM hai satya to anubhava se upalabdha hotA hai| pitA nArAja hue| pitA ke ahaMkAra ko coTa lgii| paMDita aura pitA donoM saath-saath| beTe kI bAta bApa mAne, yaha bar3I anahonI ghaTanA hai| nArAja hI hotA hai| bApa kabhI yaha mAna hI nahIM pAtA ki beTA bhI kabhI samajhadAra ho sakatA hai| beTA sattara sAla kA ho jAe to bhI bApa samajhatA hai ki vaha nAsamajha hai| svAbhAvika hai| beTe aura bApa kA phAsalA utanA hI banA rahatA hai jitanA zurU meM, pahale dina hotA hai, usameM koI aMtara nahIM pdd'taa| agara bApa bIsa sAla bar3A hai to vaha sadA bIsa sAla bar3A hotA hai| utanA aMtara to banA hI rahatA hai| to beTe se jJAna le lenA kaThina, phira paMDita, to aura bhI ktthinaaii| bApa to socatA thA maiM jAnatA hUM, aura aba yaha garbhastha zizu kahane lagA ki tuma nahIM jAnate ho-yaha to hada ho gaI! abhI paidA bhI nahIM huaa| to bApa ne abhizApa diyA hogA; vaha abhizApa jJAna ke ATha aMgoM ko naSTa kara dene vAlA hai|
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________________ jina ATha aMgoM se vyakti jJAna ko upalabdha hotA hai, bApa ne kahA, tere ve naSTa hue| aba dekhU tU kaise jJAna ko upalabdha hogA-jisa jJAna kI tU bAta kara rahA hai, jisa parama jJAna kI tU ghoSaNA kara rahA hai? agara zAstra se nahIM milatA satya to dUsarA eka hI upAya hai ki sAdhanA se milatA hai| tU kahatA hai zAstra se nahIM milatA hai, cala ThIka, sAdhanA ke ATha aMga maiM tere vikRta kie detA hUM aba tU kaise pAegA? aura aSTAvakra ne phira bhI paayaa| aSTAvakra ke sAre upadeza kA sAra itanA hI hai ki satya milA hI huA hai, na zAstra se milatA hai na sAdhanA se milatA hai| sAdhanA to usake lie karanI hotI hai jo milA na ho| satya to hama lekara hI janme haiN| satya to hamAre sAtha garbha se hI hai, satya to hamArA svarUpa-siddha adhikAra hai| janma-siddha bhI nahIM, svarUpa-siddha adhikAra! satya to hama haiM hI, isalie milane kI koI bAta nhiiN| ATha jagaha se Ter3hA, calo koI harjA nahIM; lekina satya Ter3hA nahIM hogaa| svarUpa Ter3hA nahIM hogaa| yaha zarIra hI irachA-tirachA ho jaaegaa| sAdhanA kI pahuMca zarIra aura mana ke pAra nahIM hai| to tuma agara irache-tirache kA abhizApa dete ho to zarIra tirachA ho jAegA, mana tirachA ho jAegA, lekina merI AtmA ko koI pharka na pdd'egaa| yahI to aSTAvakra ne janaka se kahA ki rAjana! AMgana ke Ter3he-mer3he hone se AkAza to Ter3hA-mer3hA nahIM ho jaataa| ghar3e ke Ter3he-mer3he hone se ghar3e ke bhItara bharA huA AkAza to Ter3hA-mer3hA nahIM ho jaataa| merI tarapha dekho sIdhe; na zarIra ko dekho na mana ko| __ aSTAvakra kI pUrI dezanA yahI hai ki na zAstra se milatA na sAdhanA se miltaa| isalie to maiMne bAra-bAra tumheM yAda dilAyA ki kRSNamUrti kI jo dezanA hai vahI aSTAvakra kI hai| kRSNamUrti kI bhI dezanA yahI hai ki na zAstra se milatA na sAdhanA se miltaa| tama ghabaDA kara pUchate ho to phira kaise milegA? dezanA yahI hai ki kaise kI bAta hI pUchanA galata hai-milA hI huA hai| jo milA hI huA hai, pUchanA kaise milegA asaMgata prazna pUchanA hai| satya ke lie koI zarta nahIM hai; satya bezarta milA hai| pApI ko milA hai, puNyAtmA ko milA hai, kAle ko milA hai, gore ko milA hai; suMdara ko, asuMdara ko puruSa ko, strI ko| jinhoMne ceSTA kI, unheM milA hai, jinhoMne ceSTA nahIM kI, unheM bhI milA hai| kinhIM ko prayAsa se mila gayA hai, kinhIM ko prasAda se mila gayA hai| na to prayAsa jarUrI hai, na prasAda kI mAMga jarUrI hai, kyoMki satya milA hI huA hai| khilatA hai rAta meM belA prabhAta meM zatadala, nahIM hai apekSita sphuTana ke lie ujAlA, aNdheraa| jAge jisa kSaNa cetanA
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________________ vahI saverA / belA khila jAtA rAta meM, zatadala khilatA hai subaha prabhAta meM, khilane ke lie na to rAta hai na dina hai| jAga jAtA hai AdamI hara sthiti meM / saverA hI jAgane ke lie jarUrI nahIM hai, AdhI rAta meM bhI AdamI jAga jAtA hai| khilatA hai rAta meM belA prabhAta meM zatadala, nahIM hai apekSita sphuTana ke lie ujAlA, aMdherA / jAge jisa kSaNa cetanA vahI saverA / aura jAganA hai to jAgane ke lie kucha bhI aura karanA jarUrI nahIM hai, sirpha jAganA hI jarUrI hai; AMkha kholanA jarUrI hai| AMkha kI palaka meM hI saba chipA hai, AMkha kI oTa meM hI saba chipA hai| kabhI tumane dekhA, AMkha meM choTI-sI kirakirI calI jAtI hai, reta kA eka Tukar3A calA jAtA hai, kacarA calA jAtA hai- aura AMkha kI dekhane kI kSamatA samApta ho jAtI hai| aise AMkha himAlaya ko bhI samA letI hai| dekho jA kara himAlaya ko, saikar3oM mIla taka phaile hue hima-zikhara, saba AMkha meM dikhAI par3ate haiN| choTI-sI AMkha aise himAlaya ko samA letI hai, lekina choTI-sI kaMkarI se hAra jAtI hai| aura kaMkarI AMkha meM par3a jAe to himAlaya dikhAI nahIM par3atA; kaMkarI kI oTa meM himAlaya ho jAtA hai| jarA kaMkarI alaga kara dene kI bAta hai| aSTAvakra kI dezanA itanI hI hai ki jarA-sI samajha, jarA-sI palaka kA khulanA - aura saba jaisA honA cAhie vaisA hai hI; kucha karane ko nahIM hai; kahIM jAne ko nahIM hai; kucha pAne ko nahIM hai| khule nayana se sapane dekho, baMda nayana se apane / apane to rahate haiM bhItara, bAhara rahate spne| nAma-rUpa kI bhIr3a jagata meM, bhItara eka niraMjana / surati cAhie aMtardRga ko, bAhara dRga ko aMjana | dekhe ko anadekhA kara re, anadekhe ko dekhaa| kSara likha-likha tU rahA nirakSara, akSara sadA alekhA / samajho - khule nayana se sapane dekho, baMda nayana se apane / apane to rahate haiM bhItara, bAhara rahate spne| jo bhI bAhara dekhA hai, sapanA hai| apane ko dekhanA hai - to bhItara ! jo bhI bAhara dekhA, use agara pAnA cAhA to bar3I daur3a daur3anI par3egI, phira bhI milatA kahAM ? daur3a pUrI ho jAtI hai-hAtha kucha bhI nahIM aataa|
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________________ saMsAra kA svabhAva smjho| dikhatA hai saba-milatA kucha bhI nhiiN| lagatA hai yaha rahA, jarA hI calane kI bAta hai, thor3A prayAsa aura! jaise kSitija chUtA hai, lagatA hai kucha mIla kA phAsalA hai daur3a jAeMge, pahuMca jAeMge AkAza aura jamIna jahAM milate haiM vaha jagaha khoja leMge; phira vahAM se AkAza meM car3ha jAeMge, lagA leMge sIr3hI, banA leMge apanA bebilona, svarga kI sIDI lagA leMge-magara kabhI vaha jagaha milatI nahIM jahAM AkAza pRthvI se milatA hai, basa dikhatA hai ki milatA hai| AbhAsa! jisako hiMduoM ne mAyA kahA hai| pratIta to bilakula hotA hai ki yaha dikhAI par3a rahA hai AkAza milatA huA hogA dasa mIla, paMdraha mIla, bIsa mIla, thor3I yAtrA hai-lekina tuma jitane kSitija kI tarapha jAte ho, utanA hI kSitija tumase dUra calatA calA jAtA hai| dikhatA sadA milA milA, milatA kabhI bhI nhiiN| khule nayana se sapane dekho, baMda nayana se apne| apane to rahate haiM bhItara, bAhara rahate spne| bAhara lagatA hai mila jAegA, aura milatA kabhI nhiiN| aura bhItara lagatA hai kaise milegA? aura milA hI huA hai| ThIka saMsAra se viparIta avasthA hai bhItara kii| saMsAra dekhanA ho to AMkheM bAhara kholo; satya dekhanA ho to AMkheM bhItara kholo| bAhara se AMkha baMda karane kA kula itanA hI artha hai ki bhItara dekho| nAma-rUpa kI bhIr3a jagata meM, bhItara eka nirNjn| surati cAhie aMtardRga ko, bAhara dRga ko aNjn| bAhara ThIka-ThIka dekhanA ho to AMkha meM hama kAjala Ajate, aMjana lgaate| bur3hiyA kA kAjala lagA lete haiM na, bAhara ThIka-ThIka dekhanA ho to| bhItara dekhanA ho to bhI ko ne eka kAjala IjAda kiyA hai| usako kahate haiM; surati, smati, jAgati, samAdhi! nAma-rUpa kI bhIr3a jagata meM, bhItara eka nirNjn| surati cAhie aMtardRga ko, bAhara dRga ko aNjn| bAhara ThIka dekhanA ho, Aja lo AMkha, ThIka-ThIka dikhAI pdd'egaa| bhItara ThIka-ThIka dekhanA ho to eka hI aMjana hai-niraMjana hI aMjana hai! vahAM to eka hI bAta smaraNa karane jaisI hai, vahAM to eka hI prazna jagAne jaisA hai ki maiM kauna hUM? vahAM to eka hI bodha uThane lage saba tarapha se ki maiM kauna hUM? eka hI prazna guMjane lage prANoM meM ki maiM kauna hUM? dhIre- dhIre isI prazna kI coTa par3ate -par3ate bhItara ke davAra khula jAte haiN| yaha coTa to aisI hai jaise koI hathaur3I mAratA ho. maiM kauna hUM? maiM kauna uttara mata denA, kyoMki uttara bAhara se aaegaa| tumane jaldI se pUchA ki maiM kauna hUM? aura kahA, ahaM brahmAsmi-to A gayA upaniSada bIca meN| tuma uttara mata denA, tuma to sirpha pUchate hI cale jaanaa| eka aisI ghar3I AegI, prazna bhI gira jaaegaa| aura jahAM prazna gira jAtA hai.. jahAM prazna gira jAtA hai, vahIM uttara hai| phira tuma aisA kahate nahIM ki ahaM brahmAsmi aisA tuma jAnate ho; aisA tuma anubhava karate ho| zabda nahIM banate, niHzabda meM pratIti hotI hai|
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________________ dekhe ko anadekhA kara re, anadekhe ko dekhaa| abhI to tuma jise dekha rahe ho, usI meM ulajhe ho| aura jo dikhAI par3a rahA hai, vahI saMsAra hai| dRzya saMsAra hai| aura jo dekha rahA hai, jo draSTA hai, vaha to adRzya hai, vaha to bilakula chipA hai| dekhe ko anadekhA kara re, anadekhe ko dekhaa| kSara likha-likha tU rahA nirakSara...! likhane-par3hane se kucha bhI na hogaa| hama likhate to haiM aura jo likhate haiM usako kahate haiM : akssr| kabhI tumane socA, akSara kA matalaba hotA hai jo miTAyA na jA sake! likhate to kSara ho, kahate ho akssr| kaisA dhokhA dete ho, kisako dhokhA dete ho? tumane jo bhI likhA hai, saba miTa jaaegaa| likhA huA saba miTa jAtA hai| zAstra likho kho jAeMge; pattharoM para nAma khodo, reta ho jaaeNge| yahAM tuma kucha bhI likho, nadI ke taTa para reta meM likhe gae hastAkSara jaisA hai, havA kA jhoMkA AyA aura kho jaaegaa| zAyada itanA bhI nahIM hai, pAnI para likhe jaisA hai, tuma likha bhI nahIM pAte aura miTanA zurU ho jAtA hai| kSara likha-likha tU rahA nirakSara..! apar3ha! ajJAnI! mUDa! kSara ko likha rahA hai aura bharosA kara rahA hai akSara kA? samaya meM likha rahA hai aura zAzvata kI AkAMkSA kara rahA hai? kSudra ko pakar3a rahA hai aura virATa kI abhilASA bAMdhe hai? kSara likha-likha tU rahA nirakSara, akSara sadA alekhaa| aura terI isa likhAvaTa meM hI, yaha kSara meM ulajhe hone meM hI, akSara nahIM dikhAI pdd'taa| akSara tere bhItara hai| thor3I dera likha mata, thor3I dera par3ha mata, thor3I dera kucha kara mt| thor3I dera dRzya ko vidA kr| thor3I dera apane meM bhItara AMkha khola-surati meN| sUphiyoM ke pAsa ThIka zabda hai surati ke lie, ve kahate haiN-jikr| jikra kA bhI vahI artha hotA hai, jo surati kaa| jikra kA artha hotA hai. smaraNa, yAdadAzta, ki calo baiTheM, prabhu kA jikra kareM, usakI yAda kareM! jisako hiMdU nAma-smaraNa kahate haiN| nAma-smaraNa kA matalaba yaha nahIM hotA ki baiTha kara rAma-rAma, rAma-rAma karate rhe| agara rAma-rAma karane se zurU bhI hotA hai rAma kA smaraNa, to bhI samApta nahIM hotaa| sUphiyoM kA jikra samajhane jaisA hai| kucha tumameM se prayoga karanA cAheM to kreN| sUphiyoM ke jikra kA AdhAra hai : allAha! zabda bar3A pyArA hai| zabda meM bar3A rasa hai| vaha to hama hiMdU musalamAna, jaina IsAI meM bAMTa kara duniyA ko dekhate haiM, isalie bar3I rasIlI bAtoM se vaMcita raha jAte haiN| maiMne bahuta se zabdoM para prayoga kiyA, ' allAha' jaisA pyArA zabda nahIM hai| 'rAma' meM vaha majA nahIM hai| tuma jaba ggunagunAoge, taba patA clegaa| jo gunagunAhaTa allAha meM paidA hotI hai aura jo mastI allAha meM paidA hotI hai-vaha kisI aura zabda meM nahIM hotii| ceSTA karake dekhnaa| ___ kabhI rAta ke aMdhere meM dvAra-daravAje baMda karake dIyA bujhA kara baiTha jAnA, tAki bAhara kucha dikhAI hI na par3e, aMdherA kara lenaa| nahIM to tumhArI Adata to purAnI hai, kucha na kucha dekhate rhoge|
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________________ phira bhItara baiTha kara pahalA kadama hai jikra kA : 'allAha- allAha' kahanA zurU krnaa| jora se khnaa| oMTha kA upayoga krnaa| eka pAMca-sAta minaTa taka 'allAha- allAha' jora se khnaa| pAca-sAta minaTa meM tumhAre bhItara rasadhAra bahanI zurU hogI, taba oMTha baMda kara lenaa| dUsarA kadama. aba sirpha bhItara jIbha se kahanA, ' allAha- allAha-allAha! pAMca-sAta minaTa jIbha kA upayoga karanA, taba bhItara dhvani hone lagegI; taba tuma jIbha ko bhI chor3a denA, aba binA jIbha ke bhItara ' allAhaallAha-allAha' krnaa| pAMca-sAta minaTa.. taba tumhAre bhItara aura bhI gaharAI meM dhvani hone lagegI, pratidhvani hone lgegii| taba bhItara bhI bolanA baMda kara denA, 'allAha-allAha' vahAM bhI chor3a denaa| aba to 'allAha' zabda nahIM rahegA, lekina 'allAha' zabda ke niraMtara smaraNa se jo pratidhvani gaMjI, vaha gaja raha jAegI, taraMgeM raha jaaeNgii| jaise vINA bajate-bajate acAnaka baMda ho gaI, to thor3I dera vINA to baMda ho jAtI hai, lekina zrotA gadagada rahatA hai, gaja gUMjatI rahatI hai; dhvani dhIre- dhIre- dhIre zUnya meM khotI hai| to tumane agara paMdraha-bIsa minaTa allAha kA smaraNa kiyA, pahale oMThoM se, phira jIbha se, phira binA jIbha ke, to tuma usa jagaha A jAoge, jahAM do-cAra-pAca minaTa ke lie 'allAha' kI gaja gUMjatI rhegii| tumhAre bhItara jaise roA-roA 'allAha' kregaa| tuma use sunate rhnaa| dhIre- dhIre vaha gaja bhI kho jaaegii| aura taba jo zeSa raha jAtA hai, vahI allAha hai! taba jo zeSa raha jAtA hai, vahI rAma hai| zabda bhI nahIM bacatA, zabda kI anugUMja bhI nahIM bacatI-sva mahAzUnya raha jAtA hai| surati! 'rAma' zabda kA upayoga karo, usase bhI ho jaaegaa| 'oma' zabda kA upayoga karo, usase bhI ho jaaegaa| lekina 'allAha' nizcita hI bahuta rasapUrNa hai| aura tuma sUphiyoM ko jaisI mastI meM dekhoge, isa jamIna para tuma kisI ko vaisI mastI meM na dekhoge| jaisI sUphiyoM kI AMkha meM tuma zarAba dekhoge vaisI kisI kI AMkha meM na dekhoge| hiMdU saMnyAsI oMkAra kA pATha karatA rahatA hai, lekina usakI AMkha meM nazA nahIM hotA, mastI nahIM hotii| 'allAha' zabda to aMgUra jaisA hai, use agara ThIka se nicor3A to tuma bar3e cakita ho jaaoge| tuma calane lagoge nAcate hue| tumhAre jIvana meM eka gunagunAhaTa A jaaegii| surati, jikra, nAma-smaraNa-nAma kucha bhI hoN| nAma-rUpa kI bhIr3a jagata meM, bhItara eka nirNjn| surati cAhie aMtardRga ko, bAhara dRga ko aNjn| dekhe ko anadekhA kara re, anadekhe ko dekhaa| kSara likha-likha tU rahA nirakSara, akSara sadA alekhaa| aura vaha jo bhItara chipA hai, vaha hama le kara hI Ae haiN| use kucha paidA nahIM karanA-ughAr3anA hai, AviSkAra karanA hai| jyAdA to ThIka hogA kahanA. punaAviSkAra karanA hai, riDiskavarI! bhItara rakhe -rakhe hama bhUla hI gae haiM, hamArA kyA hai? apanA kyA hai? sapane meM kho gae haiM, apanA bhUla gae haiN|
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________________ sapane ko thor3A vidA karo, apane ko thor3A dekho! anadekhA dikhegA! alekhA dikhegA! akSara uThegA! aSTAvakra ke ATha aMgoM ke Ter3he ho jAne kI kathA kA kula itanA hI artha hai ki surati meM koI bAdhA nahIM pdd'tii| aMga Ter3he haiM ki mer3he, tuma baiThe ki khdd'e| tumane dekhA, alaga- alaga AsanoM meM parama jJAna upalabdha huA mahAvIra gaudohAsana meM baiThe the, bar3e maje kI bAta hai! jainI bahuta ciMtA nahIM karate ki kyA huaP gaudohAsana meM baiThe, kara kyA rahe the? gaudohAsana kA matalaba hai jaise koI gAya ko dohate vakta baiThatA hai| na to gAya thI, na dohane kA koI kAraNa thA unako-gaudohAsana meM baiThe the| usa vakta unheM parama jJAna upalabdha huaa| aba gaudohAsana koI bahuta suMdara Asana nahIM hai tuma baiTha kara dekha lenaa| buddha to kama se kama bhale DhaMga se baiThe the, siddhAsana meM baiThe the| mahAvIra gaudohAsana meM baiThe the| mahAvIra AdamI hI thor3e anUThe haiN| naMga- dhaDaMga gaudohAsana meM baiThe haiM taba unheM parama jJAna upalabdha huaa| zarIra tirachA ho ki irachA, choTA ho ki bar3A, aisA baiThe ki vaisA-nahIM, Asana se kucha lenA-denA nahIM hai| mana kI dazA puNya kI ho ki pApa kI, acchA karane kI ho ki burA karane kI isase bhI kucha lenA-denA nahIM hai| aSTAvakra kA maulika sUtra kevala itanA hai ki tuma agara sAkSI ho sako-tirachA zarIra hai to tirache zarIra ke sAkSI; aura mana agara pApa meM ulajhA hai to pApa meM ulajhe mana ke sAkSI-tuma agara sAkSI ho sako, dUra khar3e ho kara dekha sako zarIra aura mana ko, to ghaTanA ghaTa jaaegii| ATha aMgoM se Ter3he hone kA artha hai, yoga ke aSTAgoM kA koI upAya na thaa| tuma pakkA samajho, agara aSTAvakra kisI yogI ke pAsa jAte aura kahate ki mujhe yoga meM dIkSita karo, to vaha hAtha jor3a letaa| kahatA. mahArAja, Apa hameM kyoM musIbata meM DAlate haiM? yaha nahIM ho sktaa| Apa, aura yogAsana kaise kareMge? eka aMga sIdhA karane kI koziza kareMge, sAta aMga tirache ho jaaeNge| idhara samhAleMge, udhara bigar3a jaaegaa| kabhI UMTa ko yogAsana karate dekhA hai? aSTAvakra ko bhI koI yogI apanI yogazAlA meM bharatI nahIM kara sakatA thaa| upAya hI na thaa| yaha to kevala sucaka kathA hai| yaha kathA to yaha kahatI hai ki aise ATha aMgoM se Ter3hA vyakti bhI parama jJAna ko upalabdha ho gayA, ciMtA mata kro| deha ityAdi meM bahuta ulajhe mata rho| dUsarA prazna : svAmI rAmatIrtha kA eka zera hai : rAjI haiM usI hAla meM jisameM terI rajA hai, yUM bhI vAha-vAha hai, vU bhI vAha-vAha hai| lekina apane rAma ko to aisA lagatA hai : yUM bhI gar3abar3I hai aura vU bhI gar3abar3I hai,
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________________ yUM bhI jhaMjhaTeM haiM, aura va bhI jhaMjhaTeM haiN| aba ApakA kyA kahanA? ma na to rAmatIrtha se rAjI hUM na tumhAre rAma se| eka hai jIvana ke prati vidhAyaka (pAjiTiva) dRssttikonn| eka hai jIvana ke prati nakArAtmaka (nigeTiva) dRssttikonn| jaba rAmatIrtha kahate haiM-rAjI haiM usI hAla meM jisameM terI rajA hai to unhoMne jIvana ko eka vidhAyaka dRSTi se dekhaa| kATe nahIM gine, phUla gine, rAteM nahIM ginI, dina gine| agara rAmatIrtha se tuma pUcho to ve kaheMge : do dinoM ke bIca meM eka choTI-sI rAta hotI hai| ve phUloM kI carcA kareMge, ve kATo kI carcA na kreNge| ve kaheMge : kyA huA agara thor3e bahuta kATe bhI hote haiM-phUloM kI rakSA ke lie jarUrI haiM! jIvana meM jo sukhada hai, usa para unakI najara hai, jo zubha hai, suMdara hai-asuMdara kI upekSA hai| azubha ke prati dhyAna nahIM hai| aura agara prabhu ne azubha bhI cAhA hai to usameM bhI koI chipA huA zubha hogA, aisI unakI dhAraNA hai| yaha Astika kI dhAraNA hai| yaha svIkAra- bhAva hai| jo vyakti kahatA hai prabhu, maiMne tere lie paripUrNa rUpa se hI kaha dI, jisa vyakti ne apanI caikabuka binA kucha Akar3e likhe hastAkSara karake prabhu ko de dI ki aba tU jo likhe vahI svIkAra hai| 'rAjI haiM usI hAla meM jisameM terI rajA hai! yUM bhI vAha-vAha hai, bU bhI vAha-vAha hai| ' rAmatIrtha kahate haiM, jahAM rakha-yUM bhI to bhI ThIka, bU bhI to bhI ThIka, svarga de de to bhI masta narka de de to bhI mst| tU hamArI mastI na chIna sakegA, kyoMki hama to terI rajA meM rAjI ho ge| phira tuma kahate ho, lekina apane rAma ko aisA lagatA hai 'yUM bhI gar3abar3I hai, bU bhI gar3abar3I hai!' yaha rAmatIrtha se ThIka ulTA dRSTikoNa hai, yaha nAstika kI dRSTi hai-nakArAtmaka! tuma kAMTe ginate ho| tuma kahate ho ki hA, dina hotA to hai, lekina do rAtoM ke bIca meM eka choTA-sA din| idhara bhI rAta, udhara bhI rAta; idhare gire to kuA, udhara gire to khAI-bacAva kahIM nahIM dikhtaa| rAmatIrtha kA svara hai rAjI kA, tumhArA svara hai nArAjI kaa| tuma kahate ho gRhastha hue to jhaMjhaTeM haiM, saMnyAsI hue to jhaMjhaTeM haiN| ghara meM raho to musIbata hai ghara ke bAhara raho to musIbata hai| akele raho to musIbata hai kisI ke sAtha raho to musIbata hai| musIbata se kahIM chuTakArA nhiiN| tuma agara svarga meM bhI rahoge to jhaMjhaTa meM rhoge| svarga kI bhI jhaMjhaTeM nizcita hoNgii| svarga meM bhI pratispardhA hogI. kauna Izvara ke bilakula pAsa baiThA hai? kauna dUra baiThA hai? kisakI tarapha Izvara ne dekhA aura kisakI tarapha nahIM dekhA?
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________________ aura rAjanIti bhI calegI hii| AdamI jahAM hai, rAjanIti A jaaegii| jaba jIsasa vidA hone lage to unake ziSyoM ne pUchA : aMta meM itanA to batA deM ki svarga meM Apa to prabhu ke ThIka hAtha ke pAsa baiTheMge, hama bAraha ziSyoM kI kyA sthiti hogI? kauna kahAM baiThegA guma jIsasa ko sUlI lagane jA rahI hai aura ziSyoM ko rAjanIti par3I hai| kauna kahAM baiThegA! yaha bhI koI bAta thI? behUdA prazna thA lekina bilakula mAnavIya hai| 'naMbara do Apase kauna hogA rU naMbara tIna kauna hogA? cune hue kauna loga hoMge? paramAtmA se hamArI kitanI nikaTatA aura kitanI dUrI hogI?' nahIM, tuma svarga meM bhI jAoge to vahAM bhI kucha gar3abar3a hI paaoge| kisI ko suMdara apsarA hAtha laga jAegI, kisI ko na lgegii| tuma vahAM bhI rooge ki jamIna para bhI cUke, yahAM bhI cuuke| vahAM bhI loga kabjA jamAe baiThe the; yahAM bhI pahale se hI sAdhu -saMta A gae haiM, ve kabjA jamAe baiThe haiN| to matalaba, garIba saba jagaha mAre gae! __ 'yUM bhI gar3abar3I hai, jUM bhI gar3abar3I hai! yUM bhI jhaMjhaTeM haiM aura bU bhI jhaMjhaTeM haiN|' yaha dekhane kI dRSTi hai| tuma mujhase pUchate ho merA dRSTikoNa kyA hai? maiM na to Astika hUM na naastik| maiM na to 'hI' kI tarapha jhukatA hUM na 'nA' kI trph| kyoMki mere lie to 'hI' aura 'nA' eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| rAmatIrtha ne jo kahA hai, usI ko tumane sira ke bala khar3A kara diyA hai kucha pharka nhiiN| tumane jo kahA hai usI ko rAmatIrtha ne paira ke bala khar3A kara diyA-kucha pharka nhiiN| tuma samajhate ho tumhArI donoM bAtoM meM bar3A virodha hai-maiM nahIM smjhtaa| araba jarA gaura se dekhane kI koziza kro| 'rAjI haiM usI hAla meM jisameM terI rajA hai!' isameM hI nArAjagI to zurU ho gii| jaba tuma kisI se kahate ho ki maiM rAjI hUM, to matalaba kyA? kahIM-na-kahIM nArAjI hogii| nahIM to kahA kyoM? kahane kI bAta kahAM thI? 'ki nahIM, Apa jo kareMge vahI merI prasannatA hai| ' lekina sApha hai ki vahI ApakI prasannatA hai nhiiN| svIkAra kara leNge| bhagavAna jo karegA, vahI ThIka hai| aura kiyA bhI kyA jA sakatA hai? eka asahAya avasthA hai| lekina gaura se dekhanA, jaba tuma kahate ho ki nahIM, maiM bilakula rAjI hUM-tuma jitane AgrahapUrvaka kahate ho ki maiM bilakula rAjI hUM utanI hI khabara dete ho ki bhItara rAjI to nahIM ho bhItara kahIM kAMTA to hai| maiM na to Astika hUM na naastik| maiM na to kahatA hUM kirAjI hUM na maiM kahatA hUM nArAjI huuN| kyoMki merI ghoSaNA yahI hai ki hama usase pRthaka hI nahIM haiM, nArAja aura rAjI hone kA upAya nhiiN| nArAja aura rAjI to hama usase hote haiM, jisase hama bhinna hoN| yahI aSTAvakra kI mahAgItA kA saMdeza tuma hI vahI ho, aba nArAja kisase honA aura rAjI kisase honA? donoM meM davadava hai| vaha jo
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________________ kahatA hai, maiM terI rajA se rAjI hUM-vaha bhI kahatA hai tU mujhase alaga, maiM tumase alg| aura jaba taka tuma alaga ho, taba taka tuma rAjI ho kaise sakate ho bhU: bheda rhegaa| vaha jo kahatA hai, maiM rAjI nahIM haM-vaha bhI itanA hI kaha rahA hai ki merI marjI aura hai, terI marjI aura hai, mela nahIM khaatii| eka jhaka gayA hai| eka kahatA hai ThIka, maiM terI marjI ko or3he letA huuN| lekina jaba taka tuma ho, taba taka tumhArI majA bhI rhegii| tuma dUsare kI or3ha bhI lo, isase kucha pharka nahIM par3ane vaalaa| jo mahAsatya hai, vaha kucha aura hai| mahAsatya to yaha hai ki usake alAvA hama haiM hI nhiiN| hama hI haiN| hamArI marjI hI usakI marjI hai! usakI marjI hI hamArI marjI hai| yaha tumhAre cAhane na cAhane kI bAta nahIM hai| tuma rAjI hoo ki nArAjI hoo, isase kucha pharka nahIM pdd'taa| tumhArI rAjI aura nArAjagI donoM bAta kI khabara detI haiM ki tumane abhI bhI jIvana ke advaita ko nahIM dekhA, tuma jIvana ke dvaita meM abhI bhI ulajhe ho| tuma apane ko alaga paramAtmA ko alaga mAna rahe ho| yahAM upAya hI nahIM hai-kisako 'hI' kaho, kisako 'nA' kaho para eka sUphI phakIra paramAtmA se prArthanA karatA thA roja, cAlIsa varSoM taka, ki 'prabhu terI marjI pUrI ho! tU jo cAhe, vahI ho!' cAlIsaveM varSa, kahate haiM, prabhu ne use darzana diyA aura kahA, bahuta ho gayA! cAlIsa sAla se tU eka hI bakavAsa lagAe hai ki jo terI marjI ho vahI pUrI ho! eka daphA kaha diyA, bAta khatma ho gaI thI; aba yaha cAlIsa sAla se isI bAta ko doharAe jA rahA hai! jarUra tU nArAja hai| jarUra tU zikAyata kara rahA hai-bar3e sajjanocita DhaMga se, bar3e shissttaacaarpuurvk| lekina tU roja mujhe yAda dilA detA hai ki dhyAna rakhanA, rAjI to maiM nahIM huuN| aba ThIka hai, majabUrI hai| tumhAre hAtha meM tAkata hai aura maiM to nirbala! acchA, to rAjI hUM, jo marjI! 'jo marjI' vivazatA se uTha rahA hai, jabardastI jhukAe jA rahe haiM! jaise koI jabardastI tumhArI gardana jhukA de aura tuma kucha bhI na kara pAo to tuma kaho ThIka jo marjI! lekina tumane paramAtmA ko anya
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________________ to mAna hI liyaa| paramAtmA ananya hai| vahI hai, hama nahIM haiM, yA hama hI haiM, vaha nahIM hai| do nahIM haiM, eka bAta pakkI hai| maiM aura tU aise do nahIM haiN| yA to maiM hI hUM agara jJAna kI bhASA bolanI ho; agara bhakta kI bhASA bolanI ho to tU hI hai| magara eka bAta pakkI hai ki eka hI hai| to phira kyA sAra hai? kyA artha hai bhU: 'hAM' kaho ki 'nA' kaho, kisase kaha rahe ho? apane se hI kaha rahe ho| eka jhena phakIra, bokojU roja subaha uThatA to jora se kahatA bokojU! aura phira khuda hI bolatA. 'jI hI! kahie, kyA AjJA hai?' phira kahatA hai ki dekho dhyAna rakhanA, buddha ke niyamoM kA koI ullaMghana na ho| vaha kahatA. 'jI hajUra! dhyAna rkheNge| ' koI bhUla-cUka na ho, smaraNapUrvaka jInA! dina phira ho gyaa| vaha kahatA : 'bilakula khayAla rkheNge| ' __usake eka ziSya ne sunA ki yaha kyA pAgalapana hai! yaha kisase kaha rahA hai! bokojU isI kA nAma hai| subaha uTha kara roja-roja yaha kahatA hai. bokojU! aura phira kahatA hai : 'jI hI, kahie kyA kahanA hai? 'usa ziSya ne kahA ki mahArAja, isakA rAja mujhe samajhA deN| bokojU haMsane lgaa| usane kahA, yahI satya hai| yahAM do kahAM pU yahAM hama hI AjJA dene vAle haiM, hama hI AjJA mAnane vAle haiN| yahAM hamI sraSTA haiM aura hamI sRsstti| hamIM haiM prazna aura hamI haiM uttr| yahAM dUsarA nahIM hai| isalie tuma isako majAka mata samajhanA-bokojU ne khaa| yaha jIvana kA yathArtha hai| tuma mujhase pUchate ho merA kyA uttara hai? maiM yahI kahUMgA eka hai, do nahIM haiN| adavaya hai| isalie tuma nakArAtmaka ke bhI pAra uTho aura vidhAyaka ke bhI pAra uTho-tabhI adhyAtma zurU hotA hai| pharka ko samajha lenA-nakArAtmaka yAnI nAstika, akArAtmaka yAnI aastik| aura nakAra aura akAra donoM ke jo pAra hai, vaha aadhyaatmik| adhyAtma AstikatA se bar3I UMcI bAta hai| AstikatA to vahIM calatI hai jahAM nAstikatA calatI hai; una donoM kI bhUmi bhinna nahIM hai| eka 'nA' kahatA hai, eka 'hA' kahatA hai| lekina donoM mAnate haiM ki paramAtmA ko 'hI' aura 'nA' kahA jA sakatA hai; hamase bhinna hai| adhyAtma kahatA hai, paramAtmA tumase bhinna nahIM-tuma hI ho! aba kyA 'hI' aura 'nA'? jo hai, hai| rAjI hUM nArAjI hUM-yaha bAta hI mata utthaao| isameM to ajJAna A gyaa| tuma mujhase pUchate ho, maiM kyA kahUM? maiM kahUMgA jo hai, hai| kAMTA hai to kAMTA hai, phUla hai to phUla hai| na to maiM nArAja hUM na maiM rAjI huuN| jo hai hai| usase anyathA nahIM ho sktaa| anyathA karane kI koI cAha bhI nahIM hai| jaisA hai, usameM hI jI lenaa| aSTAvakra ne kahA : yathAprApta! jo hai, usameM hI jI lenA; usako sahaja bhAva se jI lenaa| nA-nuca na karanA, zoragula na macAnA, AstikatA-nAstikatA ko bIca meM na lAnA-yahI parama adhyAtma hai| tIsarA prazna :
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________________ aSTAvakra ne jAnane kI icchA ko bhI anya icchAoM jaisI batAyA haiM : jabaki anya jJAnI mumukSA kI bahuta mahimA batAte haiN| kRpApUrvaka isa para prakAza ddaaleN| mumukSA kA pahale to artha samajha leN| mumukSA tumhArI sArI AkAMkSAoM kA saMgRhIta hokara paramAtmA kI ora unmukha ho jAnA hai; jaise choTI-choTI AkAMkSAoM kI nadiyAM haiM, choTe -choTe jharane haiM, choTI-choTI saritAe haiM, nAle hai-ye saba gira kara gaMgA bana jAtI hai aura gaMgA sAgara kI tarapha daur3a par3atI hai| tuma dhana pAnA cAhate ho, tuma pada pAnA cAhate ho, tuma suMdara honA cAhate, svastha honA cAhate, pratiSThita honA cAhate-aisI hajAra-hajAra AkAMkSAeM haiN| jaba sArI AkAMkSAeM eka hI AkAMkSA meM nimajjita ho jAtI haiM aura tuma kahate, maiM prabhu ko jAnanA cAhatA-to gaMgA bnii| saba jharane, saba choTe -moTe nAle isa mahAnada meM gire-gaMgA calI sAgara kI tarapha! lekina aMtataH to gaMgA ko bhI miTa jAnA par3egA, nahIM to sAgara se mila na paaegii| eka ghar3I to AegI sAgara se milane ke kSaNa meM, jaba gaMgA ko apane ko bhI miTA denA hogaa| nahIM to gaMgA kA honA hI bAdhA ho jaaegaa| agara gaMgA sAgara ke taTa para khar3e ho kara kahe ki maiM itane dUra se AI, itanI mumukSA itanI Izvara-milana kI Asa ko le kara; maiM miTane ko nahIM AI hUM maiM to Izvara ko pAne AI hUM-to cUka ho gii| to gaMgA khar3I raha jAegI kinAre para aura cUka jAegI sAgara se| aMttaH to gaMgA ko bhI sAgara meM gira jAnA hai aura kho jAnA hai| pahale choTI-moTI icchAeM mumukSA kI mahA abhIpsA meM gira jAtI haiM, phira mumukSA kI AkAMkSA bhI aMtataH lIna ho jAnI caahie| isalie paramajJAnI to yahI kaheMge ki mumukSA bhI bAdhA hai| yaha jAnane kI icchA bhI bAdhA hai| yaha mokSa kI icchA bhI bAdhA hai| mumukSA yAnI mokSa kI icchA maiM mukta honA cAhatA hUM koI dhanI honA cAhatA hai, koI zaktizAlI honA cAhatA hai, koI amara honA cAhatA hai, koI mukta honA cAhatA hai lekina cAha maujUda hai| nizcita hI mokSa kI cAha sabhI cAho se Upara hai, lekina hai to cAha hii| khUba suMdara cAha hai, lekina hai to cAha hii| khUba sajI-saMvarI cAha hai, dulhana jaisI naI-naI-lekina hai to cAha hii| aura cAha baMdhana jaba taka maiM kucha cAhatA hUM, taba taka saMgharSa jArI rahegA : kyoMki merI cAha sarva ke viparIta clegii| cAha kA matalaba hI yaha hai : jo honA cAhie vaha nahIM hai; aura jo hai, vaha nahIM honA caahie| cAha kA artha hI itanA hai| cAha meM asaMtoSa hai| cAha asaMtoSa kI agni meM hI paidA hotI hai| aura mokSa to tabhI ghaTatA hai, jaba hama kahate haiM. jo hai, hai; aura yahI ho sakatA hai| tatkSaNa vizrAma A gyaa| jo nahIM hai, usakI mAMga nahIM; jo hai, usakA aanNd| saMtoSa A gayA, paritoSa A gayA, tuSTa hue
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________________ aSTAvakra kahate haiM : bAra-bAra AtmA milatI, bAra -bAra tuSTi miltii| muhurmuhuH phira-phira! jaise-jaise saMtoSa ghanA hotA hai, phira aura bar3I zAMti barasatI hai| aura saMtoSa ghanA hotA hai, aura bar3A AnaMda barasatA hai| aura zAMti gahana hotI hai, aura paramAtmA utaratA hai! muhurmuhu! phira-phira, bAra-bAra, puna: -puna:! aura koI aMta nahIM isa yAtrA kA! to mumukSA paramAtmA ke dvAra taka to le jAtI hai, lekina phira dvAra para aTakA letI hai| aMtata: mumukSA ko bhI chor3a denA hogaa| aMtataH saba cAha chor3a denI hogI, usameM mumukSA kI cAha bhI sammilita hai| agara mukta honA hai, to mukti kI AkAMkSA bhI chor3a denI hogii| lekina jaldI mata krnaa| pahale to gaMgA banAo, pahale to aura saba AkAMkSAoM ko mukti kI AkAMkSA meM samAviSTa kara do| eka hI AkAMkSA prajvalita raha jaae| mana hajAra tarapha daur3a rahA hai, vaha eka hI tarapha daur3ane lge| mana meM abhI khaMDa-khaMDa haiM, na mAlUma kitanI mAMgeM haiM-eka hI mAMga raha jaae| eka hI mAMga raha jAegI to tuma ekajuTa ho jaaoge| tumhAre bhItara eka yoga phalita hogaa| tumhAre khaMDa samApta ho jAeMge, tuma akhaMDa bnoge| phira jaba tuma pUre akhaMDa ho jAo to aba tuma naivedya bana ge| aba tuma jA kara paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM apanI akhaMDatA ko samarpita kara denaa| aba tuma kahanA. aba kucha bhI nahIM cAhie! aba yaha saba cAha-yaha jAnane kI, mokSa kI, tujhe khojane kI yaha bhI tere caraNoM meM rakha dete haiM! gaMgA usI kSaNa sAgara meM saraka jAtI hai, usI kSaNa sAgara ho jAtI hai| jhalaka hoza kI hai abhI bekhudI meM bar3I khAmiyAM haiM merI baMdagI meM! jhalaka hoza kI hai abhI bekhudI meM bar3I khAmiyAM haiM merI baMdagI meM! agara tumheM itanA bhI hoza raha gayA ki maiM behoza hUM to abhI baMdagI pUrI nahIM huIabhI prArthanA pUrI nahIM huii| tuma agara rAha para madamAte masta ho kara calane lage, lekina itanA khayAla rahA ki dekho kitanA masta hUM to mastI abhI pUrI nahIM mastI to tabhI pUrI hotI hai jaba mastI kA bhI khayAla nahIM raha jaataa| mokSa to tabhI pUrA hotA hai jaba mokSa kI bhI AkAMkSA nahIM raha jaatii| jhalaka hoza kI hai abhI bekhudI meM bar3I khAmiyAM haiM merI baMdagI meN| kaise kahUM ki khatma huI maMjile phanI itanI khabara to hai ki mujhe kucha khabara nhiiN| agara itanI bhI khabara raha gaI bhItara ki mujhe kucha khabara nahIM, to kAphI hai baMdhana, kAphI ar3acana, kAphI avarodha aura dhyAna rakhanA : bar3e-bar3e avarodha to AdamI AsAnI se pAra kara jAtA hai; choTe avarodha asalI ar3acana dete haiN| dhana pAnA hai, yaha AkAMkSA to bar3I kSudra hai| isako hama mokSa pAne kI AkAMkSA meM samAviSTa kara de sakate haiN| bar3I AkAMkSA isakI jagaha rakha dete haiM-mokSa pAne kI aakaaNkssaa| saba
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________________ vikRta, saba kurUpa, dhIre-dhIre suMdara ho jAtA hai| mokSa kI dhAraNA hI sauMdarya kI dhAraNA hai saba prasAdapUrNa ho jAtA hai| taba to patA bhI nahIM calatA ki koI dukha hai, koI pIr3A hai| phira to itanI choTI bAdhA raha jAtI hai-pAradarzI, dikhAI bhI nahIM par3atI! agara IMTa-patthara kI dIvAla cAroM tarapha ho to dikhAI par3atI hai| kAMca kI dIvAla, zuddha kAca kI dIvAla, sphaTika maNiyoM se banI hai-kucha bAdhA nahIM mAlUma par3atI, Ara-pAra dikhAI par3atA hai! dIvAla kA patA hI nahIM cltaa| lekina dIvAla abhI hai| agara nikalane kI koziza kI to sira ttkraaegaa| mumukSA kAMca kI dIvAla hai-dikhAI bhI nahIM pdd'tii| saMsArI kI to vAsanAeM bar3I kSudra haiM, sthUla haiM, pattharoM jaisI haiN| saMnyAsI kI AkAMkSA bar3I sUkSma hai, bar3I pAradarzI hai aura bar3I suMdara hai-aTakA le sakatI hai| ___ agara tumheM itanI bhI yAda raha gaI ki mukta honA hai to tuma abhI mukta nahIM hue| aura mukta honA hai, yaha vAsanA agara mana meM banI hai to tuma mukta ho bhI na skoge| kyoMki mukta hone kA kula itanA hI artha hotA hai ki aba koI cAha na rhii| magara yaha to eka cAha bacI-aura isa cAha sabhI baca gyaa| isalie aSTAvakra ne bar3I krAMtikArI bAta kahI. kAma, artha se to mukta honA hI, dharma se bhI mukta honaa| aisA koI sUtra kisI graMtha meM nahIM hai| artha aura kAma se mukta hone ko sabane kahA hai dharma se bhI mukta hone ko kisI ne nahIM kahA hai| aSTAvakra usa saMbaMdha meM bilakula maulika aura anUThe haiN| ve kahate haiM : dharma se bhI mukta honA hai, nahIM to dharma hI bAdhA bana jaaegaa| aMtataH to sabhI cAha gira jAnI caahie| ___ kaise kahUM ki khatma huI maMjile-phanI maMjile-phanI kA artha hotA hai zUnya ho jaanaa| ___ kaise kahUM ki khatma huI maMjilephanI kaise kahUM ki maiM zUnya ho gayA? itanI khabara to hai ki mujhe kucha khabara nhiiN| itanI bAdhA to abhI banI hai| itanI khabara to hai ki mujhe kucha khabara nhiiN| magara itanA kAphI hai| itanI dIvAla paryApta hai| itanI dIvAla cukA degii| himagiri lAMgha calA AyA maiM, laghu kaMkara avarodha bana gayA kSaNa kA sAhasa kevala saMzaya, agara mUla meM jIvita hai bhaya,
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________________ jalanidhi taira calA AyA maiM, uthalA taTa pratirodha bana gyaa| sAdhya vimukta svayaM se honA, vaMdva vigata kyA pAnA khonA, huA samanvaya sabase lekina nija se vahI virodha bana gayA, sUkSma graMthi meM yaha rezama mana, sulajhAne meM ulajhA cetana, kriyA ahaM se itanI dUSita, zodhana hI pratizodha bana gyaa| himagiri lAMgha calA AyA maiM laghu kaMkara avarodha bana gyaa| bar3e pahAr3a AdamI pAra kara letA hai, choTA-sA kaMkara aTakA letA hai| hAthI AsAnI se nikala jAtA hai, pUMcha hI muzkila se nikalatI hai pUMcha hI aTaka jAtI hai| jalanidhi taira calA AyA maiM uthalA taTa pratirodha bana gyaa| bahuta loga haiM jo sAgara to taira jAte haiM, phira kinAre se ulajha jAte haiN| mahAvIra ke jIvana meM bar3A mIThA ullekha hai| mahAvIra kA pradhAna ziSya thA : gautama gnndhr| vaha varSoM mahAvIra ke sAtha rahA, lekina mukta na ho skaa| vaha sabase jyAdA prakhara-buddhi vyakti thA mahAvIra ke ziSyoM meN| usakI becainI bahuta thii| vaha bahuta mukta honA cAhatA thA usakI AkAMkSA meM koI kamI na thI aura vaha socatA thA : ' aba aura kyA karUM? saba dAva para lagA diyaa| saba jIvana AhUti banA diyaa| aba mokSa kyoM nahIM ho rahA hai? lekina yaha bAta usakI samajha meM nahIM AtI thI ki yahI bAta bAdhA bana rahI hai| yaha jo Agraha hai, yaha jo AkAMkSA hai ki mokSa kyoM nahIM ho rahA-yahI becainI yahI tanAva khar3A kara rahI hai| yaha mokSa kI AkAMkSA bhI ahaMkAra-janya hai| yaha ahaMkAra kA AkhirI khela hai| aba vaha mokSa ke nAma para khela rahA hai| mahAvIra kI mRtyu huI to usa dina gautama bAhara gayA thaa| kahIM pAsa ke gAMva meM upadeza karane gayA thaa| lauTatA thA to rAhagIroM ne kahA ki tumheM patA nahIM, mahAvIra to chor3a bhI cuke deha? to vaha vahIM rone lgaa| rote -rote usane itanA pUchA rAhagIroM se ki mere lie koI aMtima saMdeza chor3A hai? kyoMki vaha nikaTatama ziSya thA aura mahAvIra kI usane athaka sevA kI thI, aura saba dAva para lagAyA
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________________ thA; phira bhI kucha ar3acana thI ki samajha meM nahIM AtA thA, kyoM aTakA hai? to unhoMne kahA. hama to samajha nahIM pAe ki upadeza kA kyA artha hai, kyA saMdeza kA artha hai? unhoMne chor3A jarUra hai, vacana hameM yAda hai, hama vaha kaha dete haiN| hameM artha mAlUma nahIM, artha tuma hamase pUchanA bhI mata, tuma jAno aura ve jaaneN| itanA hI unhoMne kahA ki he gautama, tU pUrI nadI to taira gayA, aba kinAre para kyoM ruka gayA hai? aura kahate haiM, yaha sunate hI gautama jJAna ko upalabdha ho gayA ! yaha sunate hI mokSa ghaTa gayA! himagiri lAMgha calA AyA maiM laghu kaMkara avarodha bana gayA / jalanidhi taira calA AyA maiM uthalA taTa pratirodha bana gyaa| AdamI pUrA sAgara taira jAtA hai, phira socatA hai, aba to kinArA A gayA - aba kinAre ko pakar3a kara ruka jAtA hai| kinAre ko bhI chor3anA pdd'e| saba chor3anA pdd'e| chor3anA bhI chor3anA pdd'e| tabhI tuma bacoge apane zuddhatama rUpa meM - niraMjana ! tabhI tumhArA mokSa pragaTa hotA hai| cauthA prazna : Apane jaise mujhe mere pichale svapna se jagAyA, maiM usakA bilakula galata artha kie baiThA thA vaise hI isa svapna ke bAre meM bhI kucha kahane kI kRpA kreN| pahale maiM aksara svapna dekhatA thA ki bhIr3a meM, sabhA meM, samAja meM acAnaka nagna ho gayA huuN| aura usase maiM bahuta cauMka uThatA thaa| lekina saMnyAsa lene ke pazcAta vaisA svapna AnA baMda ho gayA varSabhara se maiM aneka bAra svapna meM apane ko gaira- gairika vastroM meM dekhatA hUM aura apane ko vaisA dekha kara bhI maiM bahuta cauMka uThatA huuN| ullekhanIya hai ki aba to maiM gairika vastra svecchA, AnaMda aura kRtajJatA ke bhAva se pahanatA huuN| maiMne jo kucha pAyA hai use C meM yaha raMga bahuta sahayogI sAbita huA hai| phira yaha svapna kyA sUcita karatA hai? pUchA hai 'ajita sarasvatI' ne| isa svapna ko samajhane ke lie Adhunika manovijJAna ko kArla gustAva kA ke dvArA dI gaI eka dhAraNA samajhanI hogii| kArla gustAva kA ne usa dhAraNA ko 'di zaiDo, chAyA - vyaktitva kahA hai| vaha bar3I mahatvapUrNa dhAraNA hai| jaise tuma dhUpa meM calate ho to tumhArI chAyA banatI hai-ThIka aise hI tuma jo bhI karate ho, usakI bhI tumhAre bhItara chAyA banatI hai| vaha chAyA viparIta hotI hai| vaha chAyA sadA
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________________ tumase viparIta hotI hai| aura jIvana kA niyama hai ki yahAM sabhI cIjeM viparIta se calatI haiN| yahAM strI calatI hai to puruSa ke binA nahIM cala sktii| yahAM puruSa calatA hai to strI ke binA nahIM cala sktaa| yahAM rAta hai to dina hai aura yahAM janma hai to mauta hai| yahAM aMdherA hai to prakAza hai| yahAM hara cIja apane viparIta se baMdhI hai| jagata davaMdava hai, davaita; dvi| ThIka aisI hI sthiti mana ke bhItara hai| aba isa svapna ko samajhane kI koziza kro| kahA hai ki pahale svapna dekhatA thA : bhIr3a meM, sabhA meM, samAja meM acAnaka nagna ho gayA huuN| vaha chAyA hai| tuma vastra pahana kara samAja meM, bhIr3a meM, vyaktiyoM meM milate-julate hoM-tumhArI chAyA usase viparIta bhAva paidA karatI rahatI hai, nagna ho jAne kaa| isalie aksara jaba kabhI koI AdamI pAgala ho jAtA hai to vastra pheMka kara nagna ho jAtA hai| jo chAyA sadA se kaha rahI thI aura usane kabhI nahIM sunA thA, pAgala ho kara vaha chAyA ke sAtha rAjI ho jAtA hai; jo usane kiyA thA, use chor3a detA hai aura chAyA kI sunane lagatA hai| usakA chAyA rUpa sadA se kaha rahA thA. ho jAo nagna, ho jAo nagna! isalie to samAja itane jora se Agraha karatA hai ki nagna mata honA, nagna mata nikalanA baahr| kyoMki sabhI ko patA hai jisa dina se AdamI ne vastra pahane haiM, usI dina se nagna hone kI kAmanA chAyA-rUpa vyaktitva meM paidA ho gaI hai| jisa dina se vastra pahane haiM-usI dina se! jo loga nagna rahate haiM jaMgaloM meM, unako kabhI aisA sapanA nahIM aaegaa| sapane meM ve kabhI nahIM dekheMge ki ve nagna ho gae haiM, kyoMki vastra unhoMne pahane nhiiN| hI, sapane meM vastra pahanane kA sapanA A sakatA hai| agara unhoMne vastra pahane hue loga dekhe haiM to sapane meM vastra pahanane kI AkAMkSA paidA ho sakatI hai| sapane meM hama vahI dekhate haiM jo hamane iMkAra kiyA hai, jo hamane asvIkAra kiyA hai, jo hamane tyAga diyA hai| sapane meM vahI hamAre mana meM uThane lagatA hai jo hamane ghara ke talaghare meM pheMka diyA hai| aura jaba bhI hama koI kAma kareMge, to kucha to talaghare meM pheMkanA hI pdd'egaa| agara tumane kisI strI ko prema kiyA to prema ke sAtha jur3I huI ghRNA ko kyA karoge? ghRNA ko talaghare meM pheMka doge| tumhAre sapane meM ghRNA Ane lgegii| tumhAre sapane meM tuma kisI dina apanI patnI kI hatyA kara doge| kisI dina tuma sapane meM patnI kI gardana dabA rahe hooge| aura tuma soca bhI na sakoge ki kabhI aisA socA nahIM, jAgate meM kabhI vicAra nahIM AyA aura patnI itanI suMdara hai aura itanI prItikara hai aura saba ThIka cala rahA hai, yaha sapanA kaise paidA hotA hai! tuma kabhI sapane meM mitra ke sAtha lar3ate hue pAe jAoge kyoMki jisase bhI tumane maitrI banAI, usake sAtha jo zatrutA kA bhAva uThA, use tumane talaghare meM pheMka diyaa| hama caubIsa ghaMTe kucha karate haiM to talaghare meM pheMkate haiN| isalie to aSTAvakra to kahate haiM ki tuma na to cunanA puNya ko na pApa ko| tumane puNya cunA to pApa ko talaghare meM pheMka doge vaha tumhAre sapanoM meM chAyA DAlegA aura vaha tumhAre Ane vAle jIvana kA AdhAra bana jaaegaa| agara tumane cunA
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________________ pApa ko to tuma puNya ko talaghare meM pheNkoge| pharka hI kyA hai? jisako hama puNyAtmA kahate haiM, usa AdamI ne pApa ko bhItara dabA liyA hai, puNya ko bAhara pragaTa kara diyA hai| jisako hama pApI kahate haiM, usane ulTA kiyA hai. puNya ko bhItara dabA liyA, pApa ko bAhara pragaTa kara diyaa| lekina sabhI cIjeM doharI haiM; jaisI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| 'to jaba pahale svapna dekhatA thA bhIr3a meM, sabhA meM, samAja meM to dekhatA thA, acAnaka nagna ho gayA hUM!' jisa dina pahalI daphA ' ajita' ko mAM-bApa ne vastra pahanAe hoMge, usI dina chAyA paidA ho gii| bacce pasaMda nahIM karate vastra pahananA / unako jabardastI sikhAnA par3atA hai, dhamakAnA par3atA hai, rizvata denI par3atI hai ki miThAI deMge, ki yaha TAphI le lo, ki yaha cAkaleTa le lo, ki itane paise deMge - magara kapar3e pahana kara bAhara nikalo to bacce ke mana meM to nagna hone kA majA hotA hai; kyoMki baccA to jaMgalI hai, vaha to Adima hai| vaha koI kAraNa nahIM dekhatA ki kyoM kapar3e pahano ? koI vajaha nahIM hai| aura kapar3e ke binA itanI svataMtratA aura mukti mAlUma hotI hai, nAhaka kapar3e meM baMdhoM / aura phira jhaMjhaTeM kapar3e ke sAtha AtI haiM ki tuma kapar3A phAr3a kara A gae ki miTTI lagA lAe ! aba yaha bar3e maje kI bAta hai ki yahI loga kapar3A pahanAte haiM aura yahI loga phira kahate haiM ki aba kapar3e ko sApha-sutharA rakho, aba isako gaMdA mata kro| usane kabhI pahananA nahIM cAhA thaa| eka musIbata dUsarI musIbata lAtI hai| phira silasilA bar3hatA calA jAtA hai| phira acche kapar3e pahano, phira suMdara kapar3e pahano, phira susaMskRta kapar3e pahano - pratiSThA yogya ! phira yaha jAla bar3hatA jAtA hai| dhIre - * dhIre vaha jo mana meM bacapana meM nagna hone kI svataMtratA thI, vaha talaghara meM par3a jAtI hai| vaha kabhI-kabhI sapanoM meM chAyA ddaalegii| vaha kabhI-kabhI kahegI ki kyA ulajhana meM par3e ho pU kaisA majA thA taba ! kUdate the, nAcate the! pAnI meM utara gae to phikra nhiiN| varSA ho gaI to khar3e haiM, phikra nhiiN| reta meM loTe to phikra nhiiN| ina kapar3oM ne to jAna le lii| ina kapar3oM se milA to kucha bhI nahIM hai, khoyA bahuta kuch| to vaha bhItara dabI huI AkAMkSA uTha AtI hogii| vaha kahatI hai 'chor3a do, aba to chor3o, bahuta ho gayA, kyA pAyA? vastra hI vastra raha gae AtmA to gaMvA dI, svataMtratA gaMvA dI !' isalie sapane meM nagna ho jAte rahe hooge / phira pUchA hai ki 'jaba se saMnyAsa liyA, vaisA svapna AnA baMda ho gayA / ' sApha hai prtiik| saMnyAsa tumane liyA - mAM-bApa ne nahIM dilvaayaa| kapar3e mAM-bApa ne pahanAe the, tuma para kisI na kisI taraha kI jabardastI huI hogii| yaha saMnyAsa tumane svecchA se liyA yaha tumane apane AnaMda se liyaa| ye vastra tumane apane prema se cune tumane ahobhAva se cune| nizcita hI ina vastroM se tumhArA jaisA moha hai vaisA dUsare vastroM se nahIM thaa| ina vastroM se jaisA tumhArA lagAMva hai vaisA dUsare vastroM se nahIM thaa| isalie nagnatA kA svapna to vilIna ho gayA, vaha pardA girA, vaha bAta khatma ho gii| ve vastra hI tumane girA die, jinake kAraNa nagnatA kA svapna AtA thaa| unhIM vastroM se jur3A thA nagnatA kA
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________________ svapna, jo tumheM jabardastI pahanAe gae the| aba usa svapna kI koI sArthakatA na rhii| jaba ve vastra hI cale gae, to una vastroM ke kAraNa jo chAyA paidA huI thI, vaha chAyA bhI vidA ho gii| sikke kA eka pahalU calA gayA, dUsarA pahalU bhI calA gyaa| aba tumane khuda apanI icchA se vastra cune haiN| isalie nagna hone kA bhAva to paidA nahIM hotaa| 'lekina kabhI-kabhI gaira-gairika vastroM meM apane ko sapane meM dekhatA huuN| aba yaha thor3A samajhane jaisA hai| yadayapi ina vastroM ke sAtha vaisA virodha nahIM hai, jaisA ki mAM -bApa ke davArA pahanAe gae vastroM ke sAtha thA, yaha tumane apanI marjI se cunA hai lekina phira bhI, jo bhI cunA hai, usakI bhI chAyA bnegii| dhUmila hogI chAyA, utanI pragAr3ha na hogii| jo tumheM jabardastI cunavAyA gayA thA, to usakI chAyA bar3I majabUta hogii| jo tumane apanI svecchA se cunA hai usakI chAyA bahu ta maddhima hogI magara hogI to! kyoMki jo bhI hamane cunA hai usakI chAyA bnegii| vaha svecchA se cunA hai yA jabardastI cunavAyA gayA hai yaha bAta gauNa hai| cunAva kI chAyA bnegii| sirpha acunAva kI chAyA nahIM bntii| sirpha sAkSI- bhAva kI chAyA nahIM bntii| kartRtva kI to chAyA bnegii| yaha saMnyAsa bhI kartRtva hai| yaha tumane socA, vicArA, cunaa| isameM AnaMda bhI paayaa| lekina svapna bar3I sUcanA de rahA hai| svapna yaha kaha rahA hai ki aba kartA ke bhI Upara uTho, aba sAkSI bnii| sAkSI banate hI svapna kho jAte haiM-tuma yaha cakita hooge jAna kr| vastuta: koI vyakti sAkSI banA yA nahIM, isakI eka hI kasauTI hai ki usake svapna kho gae yA nahIM? jaba taka hama kartA haiM taba taka svapna calate rheNge| kyoMki karane kA matalaba hai : kucha hama cuneMge! aba samajho, ajita ne jaba saMnyAsa liyA to ekadama se kapar3e nahIM phne| ajita ne jaba saMnyAsa liyA zurU meM, to Upara kA zarTa badala liyA, nIce kA paiMTa ve sapheda hI pahanate rhe| davaMdava rahA hogaa| mana kahatA hogA. 'kyA kara rahe ghara hai, parivAra hai, vyavasAya hai!' ajita DAkTara haiM, pratiSThita DAkTara haiN| ' dhaMdhe ko nukasAna phuNcegaa| loga samajheMge pAgala haiM! yaha DAkTara ko kyA ho gayA?' mAlA bhI pahanate the to bhItara chipAe rakhate the-aba mujhase chupAyA nahIM jA sktaa| jo -jo bhItara chupA rahe haiM, ve khayAla rakhanA-usako bhItara chapAe rakhate the| phira dhIre - dhIre himmata juTAI, mAlA bAhara aaii| jaba bhI mujhe milate, to maiM unase kahatA rahatA ki aba kaba taka aisA karoge? aba yaha paiMTa bhI geruA kara ddaalo| ve kahate. karUMgA, karUMgA..| dhIre- dhIre aisA koI do-tIna sAla lage hoNge| to do -tIna sAla jo mana DAvAMDola rahA, usakI chAyA hai bhiitr| cunA itane dinoM meM, soca-soca kara cunA-dhIre -dhIre pighale, samajha meM aayaa| phira pUre gairika vastroM meM cale ge| lekina vaha jo tIna sAla DAvAMDola citta-dazA rahI-cuneM kina cuneM, AdhA cuneM AdhA na cuneM usa sabakI bhItara rekhAeM chaTa giiN| vaha svapnoM meM pratibiMba bnaaeNgii| jo bhI hama cuneMge. cunAva kA matalaba yaha hotA hai : kisI ke viparIta cuneNge| jo kapar3e ve pahane the, unake viparIta unhoMne gerue vastra cune| to jisake viparIta cune, vaha badalA legaa| jisake viparIta cune, vaha pratizodha legA, vaha bhItara baiThA-baiThA rAha dekhegA ki kabhI koI maukA mila jAe to maiM badalA
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________________ le luuN| agara sAmAnya jiMdagI meM maukA na milegA. kucha ko mila jAtA hai; jaise 'svabhAva' kala yA parasoM apanA sAdhAraNa kapar3e pahane hue yahAM baiThe the| to svabhAva ko sapanA nahIM AegA yaha bAta pakkI hai| sapane kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| ve beImAnI jAgane meM hI kara jAte haiM, aba sapane kI kyA jarUrata guma jaba dhokhA jAgane meM hI de dete ho to phira sapane kA koI savAla nahIM raha jaataa| svabhAva ko sapanA nahIM Ane vAlA, magara yaha unakA durbhAgya hai| yaha ajita kA saubhAgya hai ki sapanA A rahA hai| isase eka bAta pakkI hai ki jAgane meM dhokhA nahIM cala rahA haiN| to sapane meM chAyA bana rahI hai| aba isa sapane kI chAyA ke bhI pAra jAnA hai| isake pAra jAne kA eka hI upAya hai. ise svIkAra kara lo| ise sadabhAva se svIkAra kara lo ki saMnyAsa maiMne cunA thaa| ise bodhapUrvaka aMgIkAra kara lo ki saMnyAsa maiMne cunA thA, purAne kapar3oM se lar3a lar3a kara cunA thaa| to purAne kapar3oM ke prati kahIM koI dabI Asakti bhItara raha gaI hai; use svIkAra kara lo ki vaha Asakti thI aura maiMne usake viparIta cunA thaa| usako svIkAra karate hI svapnoM se vaha tirohita ho jaaegii| lekina usake svIkAra karate hI tuma eka nae AyAma meM praviSTa bhI hoge| ye gairika vastra gairika raheMge, lekina aba yaha cunAva jaisA na rahA, yaha prasAda-rUpa ho jaaegaa| isa pharka ko samajha lenaa| agara tumane saMnyAsa mujhase liyA hai prasAda -rUpa, tumane mujhase kahA ki Apa de deM agara mujhe pAtra mAnate hoM, aura tumane koI cunAva nahIM kiyA to sapane meM chAyA nahIM bnegii| agara tumane cunA, tumane socA, socA, bAra-bAra ciMtana kiyA, pakSa-vipakSa dekhA, tarka -vitarka jur3AyA, phira tumane saMnyAsa liyA-to chAyA bnegii| ajita ne khuba soca-soca kara saMnyAsa liyaa| isalie chAyA raha gaI hai| aba tuma saMnyAsa ko prasAda-rUpa kara lo| aba tuma yaha bhAva hI chor3a do ki maiMne liyaa| aba to tuma yahI samajho ki tumheM diyA gayA-prabhu -prasAda, prabhu-anukaMpA! yaha merA cunAva nhiiN| aura jo tumhAre bhItara dabA huA bhAva raha gayA hai, usako bhI aMgIkAra kara lo ki vaha hai; vaha tumhAre atIta meM thA, usakI chAyA raha gaI hai| svIkAra karate hI dhIre se yaha sapanA vidA ho jaaegaa| aura saMnyAsa ko prasAda-rUpa jaano| hAlAMki cAhe tumane soca kara hI liyA ho, agara tuma kisI dina satya ko samajhoge to tuma pAoge; tumane liyA nahIM, maiMne diyA hI hai| kurAna meM eka bar3A adabhuta vacana hai| vacana hai ki phakIra kabhI samrATa yA dhanapatiyoM ke davAra para na jaae| jaba bhI AnA ho, samrATa hI phakIra ke dvAra para aae| jalAluddIna rUmI bar3A pahuMcA huA siddha phakIra haa| use usake ziSyoM ne dekhAeka dina ki vaha samrATa ke rAjamahala gyaa| ziSya bar3e becaina hue| yaha to kurAna kA ullaMghana ho gyaa| jaba jalAluddIna vApisa lauTA to unhoMne kahA ki gurudeva, yaha to bAta ullaMghana ho gii| aura Apa jaisA satyuruSa cUka kare! kurAna meM sApha likhA hai ki kabhI phakIra dhanapati yA rAjAoM yA rAjanItijJoM ke dvAra para na jaae| agara rAjA ko AnA ho to phakIra ke davAra para aae|
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________________ patA hai, jalAluddIna ne kyA kahA tra: jo kahA, vaha bar3A adabhuta hai! kurAna ke vacana kI aisI vyAkhyA ThIka koI pahuMcA huA siddha hI kara sakatA hai| jalAluddIna ne kahA: 'tuma isakI phikra na kro| maiM jAUM rAjA ke ghara, cAhe rAjA mere pAsa Ae hara hAlata meM rAjA mere pAsa AtA hai| ' ajIba vyAkhyA! hara hAlata meM! tuma AMkhoM kI ciMtA meM mata par3anA ki tumane kyA dekhA! cAhe maiM rAjA ke mahala jAtA dikhAI paDUM aura cAhe rAjA mere jhopar3e para AtA dikhAI par3e, maiM tumase kahatA hUM : hara hAlata meM rAjA hI mere pAsa AtA hai| aba jalAluddIna kahate haiM to ziSya sakate meM A gae, lekina bAta to samajha meM nahIM AI ki yaha kyA mAmalA hai bhU: hara hAlata meM! jalAluddIna ne kahA : ghabar3Ao mata, parezAna mata hoo| kabhI maiM rAjA ke davAra para jAtA hUM kyoMki vaha himmata nahIM juTA pA rahA Ane kii| vaha to nAsamajha hai, maiM to nAsamajha nhiiN| maiM to usakI saMbhAvanA dekhatA huuN| maiM to isalie gayA ki usake Ane ke lie rAstA banA aauuN| aba vaha calA aaegaa| merA jAnA usase agara kucha mAMgane ko hotA to maiM gyaa| maiM to dene gayA thA, to jAnA kaisA? kurAna yahI kahatA hai ki mata jAnA-usakA kula matalaba itanA hai ki mAMgane mata jaanaa| dene jAne ke lie to koI manAhI nahIM hai| aura jo dene gayA hai, vaha gayA hI nahIM hai| maiM jalAluddIna se rAjI huuN| maiM ajita sarasvatI ko kahatA hUM ki tumane socasoca kara saMnyAsa liyA, vaha tumhArI samajha hogI; jahAM taka mujhase pUchate ho, maiMne diyaa| tuma socate na to thor3I jaldI mila jAtA, tuma soce to thor3I dera se milA bAkI hara hAla meM diyA maiNne| jinhoMne bhI saMnyAsa liyA hai, ve khayAla meM le leM ki tuma cAhe saMnyAsa lo cAhe maiM dUM? hara hAla meM maiM detA huuN| tumhAre lene kA koI savAla nahIM hai| tuma le kaise sakate ho? tuma usa virATa kI tarapha hAtha kaise phailA sakate ho? saMnyAsa prasAda hai| aura yaha bhAva jisa dina samajha meM A jAegA usI dina yaha svapna kho jaaegaa| isameM thor3A kartRtva- bhAva bacA hai, utanI hI ar3acana hai| chaThavAM prazna : mujhe apane samarpaNa para zaka hotA hai| kyA pUrA samarpaNa ziSya ko hI karanA hogA, yA ki guru ke sahayoga se vaha ziSya meM ghaTita hotA hai? kRpayA isa dizA meM hameM upadeza kreN| samarpaNa para zaka sabhI ko hotA hai, kyoMki samarpaNa tuma soca-soca kara karate ho| jo tuma soca-soca kara karate ho, usameM zaka
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________________ to rhegaa| zaka na hotA to socate hI kyoM? taba samarpaNa eka chalAMga hotA hai- kyATama chalAMga / taba tuma soca kara nahIM krte| taba samarpaNa eka pAgalapana jaisA hotA hai, eka unmAda kI avasthA hotI hai| tuma aise bhAvAviSTa ho jAte ho. eka zraddhA kI krAMti ghaTatI hai! lekina aisI krAMti to kabhI sau eka ko ghaTatI hai; ninyAnabe to soca kara hI karate haiN| isalie jaba tuma soca kara karoge, to vaha jo tumane socA hai bAra-bAra, vaha jo tumane nirNaya liyA hai, vaha cAhe bahumata kA nirNaya ho lekina hai pArliyAmeMTrI / tumane bahuta socA tumane pAyA. sATha pratizata mana gavAhI hai samarpaNa ke lie, cAlIsa pratizata gavAhI nahIM / tumane kahA, aba ThIka hai, aba nirNaya liyA jA sakatA hai| lekina yaha pArliyAmeMTrI hai| vaha jo cAlIsa pratizata rAjI nahIM thA, vaha kabhI bhI kucha sadasyoM ko phor3a le sakatA hai| rizvata khilA de, bhaviSya kA AzvAsana dilA de - minisTara banA deMge, yaha kara deMge, vaha kara deMge - vaha mana ke kucha khaMDoM ko tor3a le sakatA hai| vaha kisI bhI i bala meM A sakatA hai| aura usake Ane kI saMbhAvanA hai| kyoMki jisa sATha pratizata mana se tumane samarpaNa kiyA hai, samarpaNa karane ke bAda kasauTI AegI ki samarpaNa se kucha ghaTa rahA hai yA nahIM puna aba sATha pratizata samarpaNa se kucha bhI nahIM ghaTatA, to vaha jo cAlIsa pratizata mana hai vaha kahegA 'suno, aba AyI akla? pahale hI kahA thA ki karo mata, isase kucha hone vAlA nahIM hai| yaha bhItara kI sthiti hai / ghaTatI to hai ghaTanA sau pratizata se| usake pahale to ghaTatI nahIM, sau DigrI para hI pAnI bhApa banatA hai| sATha DigrI para bahuta se - bahuta garma ho sakatA hai, bhApa nahIM bana sktaa| to garamA gae ho| pahale kI zAMti bhI calI gaI, aura jvara A gayA, aura upadrava le liyA ye gerue vastroM kA! vaise hI parezAna the, vaise hI jhaMjhaTeM kAphI thI aura eka naI jhaMjhaTa jor3a lii| vaha jo cAlIsa pratizata baiThA huA hai, usakI to tuma AlocanA nahIM kara sakate, vaha to virodhI pArTI ho gayA! virodhI pArTI ko eka phAyadA hai| usakI tuma AlocanA nahIM kara skte| usane kucha kiyA hI nahIM, AlocanA kaise karoge? isalie virodhI pArTI ke netA bar3e kriTikala aura Alocaka ho jAte haiN| - hara cIja kI AlocanA karane lagate haiM- yaha galata, yaha galata ! jo kara rahA hai, nizcita usa para hI galatI kA AropaNa lagAyA jA sakatA hai| jo kucha bhI nahIM kara rhaa...| ve isalie bar3e maje kI ghaTanA sArI duniyA meM ghaTatI rahatI hai - bhItara bhI aura bAhara bhI! jo pArTI hukUmata meM hogI vaha jyAdA dera hukUmata meM nahIM raha sktii| vaha lAkha upAya kare sadA hukUmata meM nahIM raha sktii| kyoMki jo bhI vaha karegI, usameM kucha to bhUleM hone vAlI haiM, kucha to cUke hone vAlI haiN| jIvana kI samasyAeM hI itanI bar3I haiM ki saba to hala nahIM ho jaaeNgii| jo nahIM hala hoMgI, virodhI pArTI unhIM kI tarapha izArA karatI rahegI ki 'isakA kyA gura isa saMbaMdha meM kyA? kucha bhI nahIM huA barabAda ho gayA mulka!' to loga dhIre - dhIre virodhI kI bAta sunane lageMge ki bAta to ThIka hI kaha rahA hai| virodhI kA bala bar3ha jAtA hai| jaise hI virodhI sattA meM AyA, basa usakA bala TUTanA zurU ho jAtA hai| sattAdhikArI sattA meM Ate se hI kamajora hone lagatA hai| gaira-sattAdhikArI sattA ke bAhara
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________________ raha kara zaktizAlI hone lagatA hai| isalie duniyA meM rAjanitijJoM kA eka khela calatA rahatA hai| sAre lokataMtrIya mulkoM meM do hotI haiN| hiMdustAna abhI bhI utanI akla nahIM juTA pAyA isalie yahAM vyartha parezAnI hotI hai| do pArTiyAM hotI haiM, eka khela hai| janatA mUrkha banatI hai| una do pArTiyoM meM eka sattA meM hotI hai, use jo karanA hai vaha karatI hai; jo gaira-sattA meM hotI hai, isa bIca vaha apanI tAkata juTAtI hai| agale cunAva meM dUsarI pArTI sattA meM A jAtI hai, pahalI pArTI janatA meM utara kara phira apanI tAkata juTAne meM lagatI hai| una donoM ke bIca eka Sar3ayaMtra hai| eka sattA meM hotA hai, dUsarA Alocaka ho jAtA aura janatA kI smRti to bar3I kamajora hai| vaha pUchatI hI nahIM ki tuma jaba sattA meM the taba tumane yaha AlocanA nahIM kI, aba tuma AlocanA karane lage 1: yahI kAma tuma kara rahe the, lekina taba saba ThIka thA; aba saba galata ho gayA tra: aura ye jo kaha rahe haiM, saba galata ho gayA hai, jaba sattA meM pahuMca jAeMge taba phira saba ThIka ho jAegA! inake sattA meM hone se saba ThIka ho jAtA hai, inake sattA meM na hone se saba galata ho jAtA hai| inakI maujUdagI jaise zubha aura inakI gaira-maujUdagI azubha yahI ghaTanA mana ke bhItara ghaTatI hai| jo mana kA hissA kahatA thA, 'mata karo samarpaNa, mata lo saMnyAsa', vaha baiTha kara dekhatA hai. acchA! le liyA, tthiik| aba kyA huA? aba vaha bAra-bAra pUchatA hai : batAo kyA huA? to tumhAre jo sATha pratizata hisse the mana ke, ve dhIre-dhIre khisakane lagate haiN| kucha hisse usake pAsa cale jAte haiN| kaI bAra aisI naubata A jAtI haiM-phiphTI-phiphTI, pacAsapacAsa kI, taba saMdeha uThatA hai, taba tuma baDe DAvADola ho uThate ho| kabhI-kabhI aisA bhI ho sakatA hai ki hAlata ulaTI ho jAe, samarpaNa ke pakSa meM cAlIsa hisse ho jAeM aura viparIta meM sATha hisse ho jAeM to tuma saMnyAsa chor3a kara bhAgane kI AkAMkSA karane lagate ho| 'mujhe apane samarpaNa para zaka hotA hai|' samarpaNa kiyA hai to zaka hogA hii| kyoMki samarpaNa kiyA nahIM jA sktaa| samarpaNa hotA hai| yaha to prema jaisI ghaTanA hai| kisI se prema ho gayA, tuma yaha thor3e hI kahate ho ki prema kiyA ho gayA! to mere pAsa bhI do taraha ke saMnyAsI haiM-eka, jinhoMne samarpaNa kiyA hai, unako to zaka sadA rahegA; eka, jinakA samarpaNa ho gayA hai| zaka kI bAta hI na rhii| yaha koI pArliyAmeMTrI nirNaya na thaa| yaha koI bahumata se kiyA na thaa| yaha to sarva mata se huA thaa| yaha to pUrI kI pUrI dIvAnagI meM huA thA-usako maiM kyATama chalAMga kahatA huuN| vaha prakriyA nahIM hai sIDhI sIr3hI jAne kI vaha chalAMga hai| to jina mitra ne pUchA hai, unhoMne soca kara kiyA hogaa| soca kara karo to pUrA ho nahIM paataa| pUrA ho na, to kucha hAtha meM nahIM aataa| hAtha meM na Ae to saMdeha uThate haiN| phira pUchA hai ki 'kyA pUrA samarpaNa ziSya ko hI karanA hotA hai?'
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________________ samarpaNa karanA hI nahIM hotaa| samarpaNa to samajha kI abhivyakti hai-hotA hai| tuma sunate raho mujhe pIte raho mujhe, bane raho mere pAsa, bane raho merI chAyA meM dhIre- dhIre, dhIre- dhIre, eka dina tuma acAnaka pAoge. samarpaNa ho gayA! tuma soco mata isake lie ki karanA hai, ki kaise kareM, kaba kreN| tuma hisAba hI mata rakho yh| tuma to sirpha bane rho| satsaMga kA svAbhAvika pariNAma samarpaNa hai| na to ziSya ko karanA hotA hai, na guru ko karanA hotA hai| guru to kucha karatA hI nahIM, usakI maujUdagI kAphI hai; ziSya bhI kucha na kare, basa sirpha maujUda rahe guru kI maujUdagI meM! ina do maujUdagiyo kA mela ho jAe, ye donoM upasthitiyA eka -dUsare meM samAviSTa hone lageM, ye sImAeM thor3I chUTa jAeM, eka-dUsare meM praveza kara jAeM, atikramaNa ho jAe! mere aura tumhAre bIca phAsalA kama hotA jAe! sunate -sunate, baiThate-baiThate, nikaTa Ate -Ate koI dhuna tumhAre bhItara bajane lge| na to maiM bajAtA hUM, na tuma bajAte ho-nikaTatA meM bajatI hai| merA sitAra to baja hI rahA hai, tuma agara sunane ko rAjI ho to tumhArA sitAra bhI usake sAtha-sAtha Dolane lagegA; tumhAre sitAra meM bhI svara uThane lgeNge| to, na to ziSya karatA samarpaNa, na guru krvaataa| jo gurU samarpaNa karavAe, vaha asadaguru hai| aura jo ziSya samarpaNa kare, use ziSyatva kA koI patA nhiiN| samarpaNa donoM ke bIca ghaTatA hai, jaba donoM parama ekAtmamaya ho jAte haiN| guru to miTA hI hai, jaba ziSya bhI usake pAsa baiThate-baiThate, baiThate -baiThate miTane lagatA hai, pighalane lagatA hai-samarpaNa ghaTatA hai| 'yA ki guru ke sahayoga se vaha ziSya meM ghaTita hotA hai|' na koI sahayoga hai| guru kucha bhI nahIM krtaa| agara guru kucha bhI karatA ho to vaha tumhArA duzmana hai| kyoMki usakA hara karanA tumheM gulAma banA legaa| usake karane para tuma nirbhara ho jaaoge| kisI ke karane se mokSa nahIM Ane vAlA hai| garu kacha karatA hI nhiiN| guru to eka khAlI sthAna ke detA hai| guru to apanI maujUdagI tumhAre sAmane khola detA hai| apane ko khola detA hai| guru to eka dvAra hai| dvAra meM kucha bhI to nahIM hotA, dIvAla bhI nahIM hotii| dvAra kA matalaba hI hai : khaalii| tuma usameM se bhItara jA sakate ho| tuma agara Daro na, tuma agara soco -vicAro na, to dhIre se davAra tumheM bulA rahA hai| tumane dekhA, khulA dvAra eka nimaMtraNa hai! khule dvAra ko dekha kara tuma agara usake pAsa se nikalo to bhItara jAne kA mana hotA hai| agara tuma himmata juTA lo aura khule dvAra kA nimaMtraNa mAna lo to guru gurudvArA ho gayA usI se tuma praviSTa ho jAte ho| guru kucha karatA nhiiN| guru keTeliTika ejeMTa hai| usakI maujUdagI kucha karatI hai guru kucha bhI nahIM krtaa| aura maujUdagI tabhI kara sakatI hai jaba tuma karane do-tuma maukA do, tuma avasara do, tuma apanI akar3a chor3o, tuma thor3e apane ko zithila karo, vizrAma meM chodd'o| jo hai, vaha to tumhAre bhItara hai -guru kI maujUdagI meM tumheM patA calane lagatA hai| phirA apanI hI gaMdha se aMdha kastUrA
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________________ vana-vana utsa kA ajJAna bana gayA vyAdha kA saMdhAna / phirA apanI hI gaMdha se aMdha kastUrA! kastUrI kuMDala basai vaha kastUrA phiratA hai pAgala, aMdhA banA - apanI hI gaMdha se ! phirA apanI hI gaMdha se aMdha kastUrA ! daur3atA phiratA, bhAgatA ki kahAM se gaMdha AtI, gaMdha pukAratI...! yaha gaMdha jo tuma mujhameM dekha rahe ho, yaha tumhArI gaMdha hai| yaha svara jo tumane mujhameM sunA hai yaha tumhAre hI soe prANoM kA svara hai| phirA apanI hI gaMdha se aMdha kastUrA vana-vana utsa kA ajJAna bana gayA vyAdha kA saMdhAna / jo mArane vAlA chipA hai vyAdha kahIM, usake hAtha meM acAnaka kastUrA A jAtA hai / kasturA apanI hI gaMdha khojane nikalA thaa| tuma bhI na mAlUma kitane vyAdhoM ke saMdhAna bana gae ho - bha ke, kabhI pada ke, kabhI pratiSThA ke / na mAlUma kitane tIra tuma meM cubha gae haiM aura tuma bhaTaka rahe ho khojate apane ko! phirA kastUrA apanI hI gaMdha se aMdhA apanI hI gaMdha kA patA nahIM, bhAgate phirate ho! akAraNa saMsAra ke hajAra-hajAra tIra chidate haiM aura tumhAre hRdaya ko chalanI kara jAte haiN| sadaguru kA itanA hI artha hai, jisakI maujUdagI meM tumheM patA cale ki kastUrI kuMDala bsai| vaha tumhAre bhItara basI hai| aba samarpaNa kara diyaa| pahale bhI socate rahe, aba bhI soca rahe ho - soca-soca kara kaba taka gaMvAte rahoge? eka to samarpaNa hI soca kara nahIM karanA thaa| aba eka to bhUla kara dI, aba kara hI cuke, aba to socanA chodd'o| aba to pUMcha kaTa hI gii| aba to use jor3a lene ke sapane chodd'o| vaha jo thor3I-sI jIvana-rekhA bacI hai, vaha jo thor3I-sI jIvana-UrjA bacI hai, usakA kucha sadupayoga ho jAne doM- use socane - socane meM gaMvAo mata ! eka bacI cinagArI, cAhe citA jalA yA diip| jIrNa thakita lubdhaka sUraja kI lagane ko hai AMkha phira pratIcI se ur3A timira - khaga khola sAMjha kI pAMkha huI AratI kI taiyArI zaMkha khoja yA siip| mila sakatA manavaMtara kSaNa kA cukA sako yadi mola
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________________ raha jAeMge kAla-kaMTha meM mATI ke kucha bola Agata se Abaddha gatAgata phira kyA dUra samIpa? eka bacI cinagArI, cAhe citA jalA yA diip| thor3I-sI jo jIvana-UrjA bacI hai, ise tuma citA ke jalAne ke hI kAma meM lAoge yA dIyA bhI jalAnA hai? ho gayA soca-vicAra bahuta, aba isa sArI UrjA ko bahane do samarpaNa meM! Ao nikaTa, Ao samIpa-tAki jo mere bhItara huA hai, vaha tumhAre bhItara bhI saMkrAmaka ho utthe| eka bacI cinagArI, cAhe citA jalA yA diip| huI AratI kI taiyArI, zaMkha khoja yA siip| samarpaNa kiyA, saMnyAsa maiMne tumhAre hAtha meM de diyA aba ise hAtha meM rakhe baiThe rahoge? isa bAMsurI ko bajAo! bhale hI phUMkate raho bAMsurI binA dhare chidroM para aMguliyAM nahIM nikalegI praNaya kI rAginI! de dI bAMsurI tumheM, aba tuma aise hI khAlI phUMka-phUMka karate rahoge? soca-vicAra phUMkanA hI hai| kucha jIvana-UrjA kI aMguliyAM rakho bAMsurI ke chidroM para bhale hI phUMkate raho bAMsurI binA dhare chidroM para aMguliyAM nahIM nikalegI praNaya kI rAginI! yaha jo saMnyAsa tumheM diyA hai, yaha paramAtmA ke praNaya ke rAga ko paidA karane kA eka avasara bane! soca-vicAra bahuta ho cukaa| sunA nahIM aSTAvakra ko kahA janaka ko : kitane-kitane janmoM meM tumane acche kie karma, bure kie karma, kyA kAphI nahIM ho cukA? paryApta nahIM ho cukA? bahuta ho cukA, aba jAga! aba upazAMti ko, virAma ko, uparAma ko upalabdha ho| aba to lauTa A ghara! aba to vApisa A jA mUlasrota para! usa mUlasrota kA nAma sAkSI hai| saMnyAsa to bAMsurI hai, agara aMguliyAM rakha kara bajAI to jo svara nikaleMge, unase sAkSI- bhAva jnmegaa| saMnyAsa to kevala yAtrA hai-sAkSI kI trph| aura jaba taka sAkSI paidA na ho jAe, samajhanA : saMnyAsa pUrA nahIM huA hai|
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________________ samApta hari oma tatsat!