Shant Sudharas Part 01

Author(s): Bhadraguptasuri
Publisher: Vishvakalyan Prakashan Trust Mehsana
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/003661/1

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zAnta sudhArasa bhAga 1 pravacanakAra 'AcAryadeva zrI vijaya bhadraguptasUrIzvarajI mahArAja

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zrIyuta saMpatarAja cazvakalyANa pravacanakAra va sAhitya sarjaka AcArya zrI vijaya bhadraguptasUrIzvarajI. zrAvaNa zuklA 12 vi. saM. 1989 ke dina pudagAma- mehasANA (gujarAta) meM maNIbhAI evaM hIrAbahana ke kuladIpaka ke rupa meM janme hue mulacandabhAI, jUhI kI kalI kI bhAMti khilatI khulatI javAnI meM 18 barasa kI umra meM vi. saM. 2007. mahA vada 5 ke dina rANapura (saurASTra meM apane parama zraddheya suprasiddha jainAcArya bhagavaMta zrImad vijaya premasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA ke karakamaloM dvArA dIkSita hokara pU. bhAnuvijayajI (vartamAna meM A. zrImad vijaya bhuvanabhAnusUrIzvarajI) ke ziSya banate hai| munizrI bhadraguptavijayajI ke rUpa meM dIkSA-jIvana ke prAraMbha se hI adhyayana-adhyApana kI.sudIrgha yAtrA prAraMbha ho cukI thii| 45 AgamoM ke saTIka adhyayanoparAMta dArzanika, bhAratIya evaM pAzcAtya tatvajJAna, kAvya-sAhitya vagairaha ke 'mIlasTona' pAsa karatI huI vaha yAtrA sarjanAtmaka kSitija kI tarapha mur3a gii| 'mahApaMtha no yAtrI se 20 sAla kI umra meM zurU huI lekhanayAtrA Aja bhI athaka evaM anavarata cala rahI hai| taraha taraha kA maulika sAhitya, tatvajJAna vivecanA, dIrghakathAeM, laghu kathAeM kAvya gIta patroM ke jariye svaccha va svastha mArgadarzana, yoM sAhitya sarjana kA saphara dina va dina bharApUrA bana rahA hai| premabharA ha~samukha svabhAva, prasanna va mRdu AMtara-bAhya vyaktitva evaM bahujana hitAya-bahujana sukhAya vaisI pravRttiyAM unake jIvana kA mahatvapUrNa aMga hai| saMgha-zAsana vizeSa karake yuvA pIDhI, taruNa pIDhI eva zizu-saMsAra ke jIvana-nirmANa kI prakriyA meM unheM ruci hai... saMtuSTi hai| pravacana, vArtAlApa, saMskAra-zibira, jApha-dhyAna anuSThAna evaM paramAtma bhakti ke viziSTa AyojanoM ke mAdhyama se unakA sahiSNu vyaktitva bhI utanA hI unnata evaM ujvala banA hai| munizrI jAnane yogya vyaktitta evaM mahasUsane yogya astitva se sarAbora hai| kolhApUra meM tA. 4-5-87 ke dina unake gurudeva ne unheM AcAryapada pradAna kiyA taba se ve AcAryazrI vijaya bhadraguptasUrIzvarajI mahArAja ke & Personal Use Only

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zAntasudhArasa bhAga 1 ( pravacana 1 se 24) aTThArahavIM zatAbdI ke samartha sAhityasarjaka mahopAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI gaNi dvArA saMskRta bhASA meM viracita geya kAvyagraMtha 'zAntasudhArasa para AdhArita pravacana * pravacanakAra * AcAryadeva zrI vijaya bhadraguptasUrIzvarajI mahArAja

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- - - : saMkalana / saMpAdana : bhadrabAhuvijaya / : prakAzaka : zrI vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa kaMboInagara ke pAsa, mehasAnA - 384 002 (gujarAta) : mUlya : 50 rupaye : akSarAMkana : meka grAphiksa, ahamadAbAda : mudraka : candrikA prinTarI, ahamadAbAda - : mukhapRSTha mudraNa : meghArTa kalara krAphsa, muMbaI

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prakAzakIya __ pichale 35 barasoM se anavarata gujarAtI - hindI - aMgrejI sAhitya kA prakAzana karatI saMsthA zrI vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa kA nAma, AcAryadevazrI vijaya bhadraguptasUrIzvarajI mahArAja sAhaba ke sAhitya sarjana ke sAtha-sAtha kAphI lokapriya banatA calA hai / dIrgha kathAe~, kathAe~, pravacana, patrasAhitya, tattvajJAna-vivecanA, baccoM ke lie vividha sAhitya, gIta-kAvya sAhitya ityAdi eka ke bAda eka samRddha prakAzana janasamUha meM pahuMce haiM... samAdara pAye haiM... aura loga use cAva se par3hate hamArI sahayogI saMsthA arihaMta prakAzana ke mAdhyama se prati mAha arihaMta (hindI mAsika patra) ke dvArA pUjya AcAryadeva kA nitya nUtana sAhitya vizAla pAThaka-varga taka pahu~catA hai ! vaha sArA sAhitya pustaka rUpa meM saMkalita hokara TrasTa ke dvArA prakAzita hotA hai aura AjIvana sadasyoM ko va anya pAThakoM taka niyamita pahu~catA hai ! __pUjya gurudeva kA pravacana sAhitya, savizeSa taura para sAdhu-sAdhvIjI ma. meM atyaMta lokapriya huA hai / zAntasudhArasaM graMtha para pUjya gurudeva ne jo pravacana kiye-likhe... ve Aja zabdastha hokara pustaka rUpa meM Apa taka pahu~ca rahe haiM / / ina pravacanoM kA punaH punaH svAdhyAya avazyameva Apake citta ko tuSTi-saMtuSTi evaM samatA pradAna kregaa| Adhi-vyAdhi aura upAdhi ke jaMgala se isa jagata meM rahakara bhI samatva kI sAdhanA karanevAloM ko yogI banane meM yaha zAntasudhArasa atyaMta upayogI hogA / TrasTIgaNa zrI vi.ka. pra. TrasTa

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merI ora se - zAntasudhArasa ! mahopAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI mahArAja kI adbhuta aura anupama racanA ! isa graMtha ke prati merA khiMcAva, mere dIkSA-jIvana ke AraMbhika barasoM se banA rahA hai ! pUrA graMtha kaMThastha karake use gAne meM - gunagunAne meM nijAnaMda kI anubhUti kA halkA-sA ahasAsa pAyA hai... dekhA hai... mahasUsa kiyA hai ! __ aneka bAra isa graMtha kI bhAvanAoM para... gAthAoM para pravacana kiye haiM ! bar3ebar3e vizAla janasamUha ke bIca aura jijJAsuoM ke choTe vartula meM bhI ! isa graMtha ko gAne meM... isa para pravacana karane meM vizeSa AgrahabharA yogadAna rahA hai vayovRddha svargIya gAMdhIvAdI zrI zAMtibhAI sAThaMbAkara (ahamadAbAda) kA ! san 1966 ke mArca-apraila mahIne meM hue unake prathama paricaya se lekara san 1992 meM unake pArthiva zarIra kA nidhana hone taka ke barasoM meM jaba jaba bhI zAMtibhAI se milanA huA hai... taba-taba zAntasudhArasa' kA gAna... usakA rasapAna... usa para vivecana... usameM chupe hue rahasyoM kA, jIvanamUlyoM kA pragaTIkaraNa dila kholakara kiyA hai... karavAyA hai ! zAMtibhAI to jaise ki zAntasudhArasa ke Azika the / masta gAyaka the... aura bar3e prazaMsaka the| unake prANoM ke pratyeka spaMdana meM zAMtasudhArasa bhalIbhA~ti racApacA hogA... isIlie to unakI jIvana-saMdhyA kI kSitija para zAMtasudhArasa aura vizeSa rUpa se mAdhyasthya bhAvanA ke raMga khila uThe the / unake bhatIje aura khyAtiprApta DaoN. vADIbhAI zAha (bharucavAle) bhI zAMtasudhArasa ke tRSAtura abhilASaka hai... unake lie bhI maiMne ina bhAvanAoM ko gAyA hai| isa zAntasudhArasa graMtha ko - isakI bhAvanAoM ko, isake zlokoM ko zAstrIya rAgoM meM zrutimadhura DhaMga se svarabaddha karane ke aura svarAMkita zAMtasudhArasa ko

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janasamUha ke bIca pravAhita karane kA zreya ghATakopara - mumbaI ke saMgoI parivAra ke ketana - kauzika - kalpanA ina tInoM bhAI-bahana kI triveNI ko jAtA hai| usameM bhI govAliyA Tenka jaina saMgha meM san 1991 kA jo merA cAturmAsa huA... aura cAturmAsa ke daurAna 16 divasIya zAntasudhArasa gAna-mahotsava ke daurAna jo pravacana hue... ve pravacana suzrI kalpanA saMgoI ne akSarAMkita kara liye the... ina prastuta pravacanoM ko karane meM - likhane meM vaha saba prabala nimitta bana gyaa| __ madrAsa kI suzrI pUnama esa. mehatA ne merI manobhAvanA aura icchA ke mutAbika apane aMgrejIbhASI zodhaprabaMdha ke viSaya ke rUpa meM zAntasudhArasa' graMtha kI pasaMdagI kI... kar3I mehanata... dhairya aura lagana ke sAtha adhyayana-manana karake mere mArgadarzana tale hI usane apanA zodhaprabaMdha-mahAnibaMdha likhA aura madrAsa vizvavidyAlaya se disaMbara 1995 meM yazasvI rUpa se Ph.D. kI padavI bhI prApta kii| zAntasudhArasa ko isa taraha vividha rUpa meM pracArita-prasArita karane meM mujhe jo bhItarI tRpti... AMtarika AnaMda kA ahasAsa prApta huA hai, lagatA hai vaha upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI mahArAja ke prati kisI janmajanmAMtara kA RNAnabaMdha hI hogA ! 16 bhAvanAoM para kucha 72 pravacana likhane kA irAdA hai / usameM se 24 pravacanoM ke saMkalana rUpa meM prathama bhAga prakAzita ho rahA hai / anya pravacana taiyAra hone para yathA samaya prakAzita hoNge| eka bAta hai... merI lekhana-sarjanayAtrA aba pahale jaisI askhalita - anavarata nahIM rahI hai... zarIra kA kamajora par3a rahA svAsthya aba sAtatyabharA sahayoga dene se mukara rahA hai / taba jhona Adamsa' nAmaka eka videzI sarjaka ne apane Apa ke bAre meM kI huI nuktAcInI (eka mitra ne tabIyata kA hAla pUchA to usake javAba meM jhona Adamsa ne likhA thA) yAda A rahI hai / havA ke sakhta thaper3oM se ghire hue, tUphAna se TUTe-phaTe eka kamajora.. jarjarita aura girane ke bahAne khar3e rahe hue makAna meM philahAla maiM rahatA hU~ aura mujhe acchI taraha mAlUma hai ki makAnamAlika ko aba isa ghara ko durasta karavAne meM jyAdA ruci nahIM hai... na usakA irAdA hai ! hAlA~ki jahA~-jaba-jitanA zarIra sAtha de... to merI icchA hai sarjanayAtrA calatI rahe... sarjana kI yAtrA meM hI visarjana vaha to prabhu mahAvIra ke nirvANa

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kI smRti kA paricAyaka hai ! __ yAtrA to athaka... berokaToka... sadaiva calatI rahatI hai... rAstA badalatA hai... kabhI mukAma badalatA hai... sAthI badalate haiM... para maMjila to vahI rahatI hai... aura yAtrA to calatI hI hai ! __ merI yaha sarjanayAtrA tumhArI nijI AMtarika yAtrA meM tumheM sahArA de... ina bhAvanAoM kA sarjana ahaMbhAva kA visarjana kare... AtmabhAva... samatAbhAva kA navasarjana kare... yahI paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM abhyarthanA / 65-ba, zyAmala raoN hAUsa, skIma naM. 3, seTelAiTa, ahamadAbAda-380 015 (3-8-1996)

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zAMtasudhArasa ! saMtapta hRdaya ke lie dilAsA, nirAza mana ko AzA... azAMta AtmA ko ArAma, thake hAre prANI ko vizrAma...! satrahavIM sadI ke aMta meM aura aTThArahavIM sadI ke AraMbha meM gujarAta kI garimAmayI dharatI kI goda meM paidA hue... pale hue, jJAna-dhyAna evaM paramAtmabhakti kI dhUnI ramAnevAle upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI mahArAja, suprasiddha mahopAdhyAyazrI yazovijayajI vAcaka ke samakAlIna - sahAdhyAyI the| zrI vinayavijayajI kI prakAMDa aura pracaMDa buddhi pratibhA kA paricaya unake dvArA sarjita lokaprakAza jaise dIrghakAya saMskRta graMthoM ke mAdhyama se ho sakatA hai... jabaki bhakti ke bhAvoM kI namI unake dvArA racita stavana siddhAratha nA re naMdana vinavU, ke zabdoM meM chalakatI hai aura vairAgya-sabhara adhyAtma kA prakAza kahA~ karU~ maMdira, kahA~ karU~ damarA' zIrSaka ke pada meM jhalakatA hai / to 'zAntasudhArasa sA adbhuta, anUThA geya kAvya unake bAhya-bhItarI virakta vyaktitva kI bahuAyAmI vizeSatAoM kA khajAnA bana kara khulatA hai... khilatA hai / yaha unakI siramora racanA hai / 16 bhAvanAoM ke bhItarI vizva ko ciMtana-manana aura maMthana kA rUpa dekara zAMtasudhArasa vaisA nAma upAdhyAyajI ne diyA hai / 16 bhAvanAoM ke solaha prakaraNa hai / usameM chaMdobaddha zloka evaM solaha gItikAe~ - geya kAvyoM ko samAviSTa kiyA gayA hai / virakta jIvana ke rasabharapUra gAyaka zrI vinayavijayajI ne isa graMtha meM zubha bhAvoM kA vaibhava bhara diyA hai| zrRMgAra rasa - milana - viraha, ruThanA - manAnA... ina bhAvoM ko zabdoM meM guMphita karanA yA kAvyoM meM kaida karanA koI bahuta muzkila

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nahIM hai... kintu bharapUra vairAgya kI bAtoM ko suhAvane - lubhAvane zabdoM meM sajA kara rakhanA... yaha bar3A hI muzkila kArya hai / upAdhyAyajI ne zAnadAra DhaMga se bejAna zabdoM meM jAna DAlakara racanA kI hai ! pUjya gurudeva AcArya bhagavaMta zrI vijaya bhadraguptasUrIzvarajI mahArAja kA yaha priya svAdhyAya graMtha hai / aneka bAra unhoMne apane rasamadhura svara meM ina bhAvanAoM ko gAyA hai, vivecita kI hai, aura isa taraha saiMkar3oM saMtapta mana ko sAMtvanA ke kinAre para le gaye hai / unakI barasoM kI mahattvAkAMkSA, eka pichale prahara kA svapna maMtramugdha kara de... usa rUpa se AkAra lekara sAkAra huA hai / aura vaha zreya unake mAnasa ziSya ketana saMgoI, kauzika saMgoI evaM kalpanA saMgoI kI bhAI-bahana kI triveNI ke hisse meM jAtA hai / mahInoM kI satata mehanata, zAstrIya rAgoM kA guMphana, sarasa svaraniyojana, anavarata riyAja, ye sAre mIla ke patthara bItA kara vaha svarayAtrA zAMtasudhArasa ke rUpa prastuta ho cukI hai / meM kabhI maukA mile to usa svarayAtrA meM zAmila honA / philahAla to prastuta zAMtasudhArasa kAvya ko gAnA.... pUjya gurudeva ke pravacanoM ko par3hanA... usa para ciMtana karanA... zAMtasudhArasa kI mastI meM DUbe hue zrI vinayavijayajI ke zabdoM ke nakze meM tuma apanA virAgamArga khojane kI koziza karanA / zAMta sudhA ke sAgara kinAre mujhe banAnI minAreM 'priyadarzana' ve mahala hai pyAre, najara na Aye kinAreM !' bha.bA.vi.

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C 'zAMtasudhArasa' mahAkAvyake sarjaka mahopAdhyAya zrI vinaya vijayajI ma. kA smAraka :

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- rms >> >> >> mahopAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI viracita zrI zAntasudhArasa kAvya bhAvanA zloka saMkhyA geya gAthA prastAvanA anitya bhAvanA azaraNa bhAvanA saMsAra bhAvanA ekatva bhAvanA anyatva bhAvanA azuci bhAvanA Azrava bhAvanA saMvara bhAvanA 9. nirjarA bhAvanA 10. dharmaprabhAva bhAvanA lokasvarUpa bhAvanA bodhidurlabha bhAvanA maitryAdibhAva prastAvanA 13. maitrI bhAvanA pramoda bhAvanA 15. karuNA bhAvanA 16. mAdhyasthya bhAvanA upasaMhAra - prazasti 39 9 9 9 11. . 9 9 106 zloka - 106 geya gAthA- 128 234 gAthAmaya zrI zAMtasudhArasa kAvya

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janma kAladharma mAtA kA nAma pitA kA nAma guru kA nAma zraddheya AcAryapravara krama mahopAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI vi. saM. 1661 ke AsapAsa : : vi. saM. 1738 meM rAMdera (sUrata) / rAjezrI : tejapAla : upAdhyAya zrI kIrtivijayajI : zrI vijayaprabhasUrijI (bhagavAna mahAvIra kI 6ravIM pATa para Aye hue AcAryazrI) sarjanayAtrA zloka saMkhyA graMtha kA nAma 1) adhyAtmagItA 2 arhannamaskAra stotra : 3 Adijina vinatI 4 AnaMda lekha 5 AyaMbila kI sajjhAya 6 indudUta kAvya 7 iriyAvahIM sajjhAya 8 / upadhAna stavana 9 kalpasUtra subodhikA TIkA 10 guNasthAna garbhita vIrastavana 11 jiNaceiyathavaNa 12 jinacovIzI 13 jinapUjana caityavaMdana 14 jina sahastranAma 15 dharmanAtha stavanA 16 | nayakarNikA 17 nemanAtha bAramAsI 18 neminAtha bhramara gItA 19 pratyAkhyAna vicAra bhASA gujarAtI saMskRta 57 gAthA gujarAtI 252 padya 11 gAthA 131 26 gAthA 24 gAthA 4150 330 73 27 120 12 149 138 23 27 39 29 saMskRta gujarAtI saMskRta gujarAtI gujarAtI saMskRta gujarAtI prAkRta gujarAtI gujarAtI saMskRta gujarAtI saMskRta gujarAtI gujarAtI gujarAtI viSaya adhyAtma paramAtma stavanA paramAtma stavanA vijJapti - tapa mahattva - patra saMdezamaya vivaraNa kriyA vivaraNa kriyA vivaraNa kalpasUtra para vistRta TIkA AtmavikAsakA vivaraNa stavanA stavanA kriyA vivaraNa paramAtma prabhAva rUpakAtmaka kAvya jaina nyAya (Logic) bAraha mahInA vivaraNa phAgu kAvya paccakkhANa vicAra

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krama graMthakA nAma 20 | pAMca samavAya stavana 21 paTTAvalI sajjhAya 22 | puNyaprakAza stavana 23 bhagavatI sUtra sajjhAya 24 | marudevA mAtA sajjhAya 25 lokaprakAza | vijaya devasUri lekha 27 vijaya devasUri vijJapti 28 vijaya devasUri vijJapti 29 vinayavilAsa 30 viharamAna jina vIzI 31 vRSabhatIrthapati stavana 32 zAMtasudhArasa zloka saMkhyA bhASA | viSaya gujarAtI | paMcakAraNa vivaraNa gujarAtI | zramaNa paraMparA gujarAtI | Atma ArAdhanA gujarAtI sUtra stavanA gujarAtI 20621 saMskRta tattvajJAna gAthA 34 gAthA | gujarAtI vijJaptipatra 82 padya mizra saMskRta vijJaptipatra __- | gujarAtI vijJaptipatra 37 padya mizra hindI | adhyAtma (170 gAthA) | 116 gAthA gujarAtI |stavanA 6 gAthA saMskRta |stavanA 234 padya | saMskRta 16 bhAvanA (350 gAthA) vivaraNa gujarAtI 750 gAthA gujarAtI kathA jIvanacaritra saMskRta vAdavivAda 43 gAthA gujarAtI kriyA vivaraNa 3 gAthA gujarAtI stavanA 14 gAthA itihAsa vivaraNa (127 paMkti) 34000 saMskRta saMskRta stavanA 33 | zAzvata jina bhAsa 34 zrIpAla rAjA rAsa 35 SaT triMzajjalpa saMgraha 36 SaDAvazyaka stavana 37 sImaMdhara caityavaMdana 38 sUrata caitya paripATI gujarAtI vyAkaraNa 39 haimaprakAza 40 haima laghu prakriyA 2500 vyAkaraNa 'zrIpAla rAsa kI racanA ke daurAna upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI kA svargavAsa huA tatpazcAt unake samakAlIna upAdhyAyazrI yazovijayajI ne zeSa 502 gAthA kI racanA kara ke yaha rAsa pUrNa kiyA /

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kImata 200-00 200-00 200-00 50-00 50-00 30-00 30-00 30-00 25-00 20-00 20-00 15-00 10-00 hindI prakAzana sUci 1. jaina rAmAyaNa 1-2-3 2. zrAvaka jIvana bhAga 1/2/3/4 dhamma saraNaM pavajjAmi (bhAga-1-2-3-4) 4. prazamarati bhAga 1-2 5. prIta kiye duHkha hoya jJAnasAra (saMpUrNa) 7. mAraga sAcA kauna batAve 8. saMsAra sAgara hai parva-pravacanamAlA 10. yahI hai jindagI 11. jindagI imtihAna letI hai 12. mAyAvI rAnI 13. vijJAna seTa (3 pustake) 14. rAjakumAra zreNika 15. kathAdIpa 16. na mriyate jinadarzana 18. phalapattI 19. choTI sI bAta mAMgalika 21. rAga-virAga 22. suvAsa seTa (3 pustakeM) 23. hisAba kitAba 24. prArthanA 25. zodha pratizodha(samarAditya mahAkAthA-1) 26. dveSa adveSa (samarAditya mahAkAthA-2) 27. vizvAsaghAta (samarAditya mahAkAthA-3) 28. vaira-vikAra (samarAditya mahAkAthA-4) 29. vratakathA 30. zAMta-sudhArasa (sAnuvAda) 31. zAMta-sudhArasa (pravacana) 32. ciMtana kI cAMdanI 33. samAdhAna 34. pIo anubhavarasa pyAlA (zAmyazataka) 1111111111111111111111111111111 20. mAMga 2-00 30-00 30-00 50-00 0 15-00 12-00 50-00 30-00 30-00 20-00

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 1 : saMkalanA : * prastAvanA / * yaha bhava-vana hai| * avirata Azrava-jalavarSA / * bhava-vana meM sarvatra karmoM kI bela / * bhava-vana meM sarvatra mohAndhakAra / * tIrthaMkaroM kI vANI * tIrthaMkaroM kI divya karuNA jinavANI para vizvAsa / * jinavacana rakSA karate haiM / * jinavANI ne AtmahatyA se bacAyA / * sagara cakravartI * DAkU naravIra * jinavANI : kumArapAla

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nIrandhe bhavakAnane parigalat paJcAsavAmbhodhare, nAnAkarma-latAvitAnagahane mohAndhakAroddhare / bhAntAnAmiha dehinAM hitakRte kAruNyapuNyAtmabhistIrthezaiH prathitAssudhArasakiro ramyA giraH pAntu vaH // 1 // jina mahApuruSa kA jIvanakAla vi. saM. 1661 se 1738 kA thA, jinakI jananI kA nAma rAjezrI thA aura pitA kA nAma tejapAla thA, ve upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI kI yaha adbhuta racanA hai zAntasudhArasa / yaha saMskRta mahAkAvya hai, geya kAvya hai / isa mahAkAvya ke mAdhyama se upAdhyAyajI kI prakAMDa aura pracaMDa prajJA - pratibhA kA paricaya prApta hotA hai / unake Antara-bAhya virakta vyaktitva kI vizeSatAe~ ubharI huI pratIta hotI haiM / unhoMne aneka saMskRta, prAkRta aura gujarAtI bhASAoM meM graMthoM kI racanAe~ kI haiM, una sabhI meM yaha racanA zAntasudhArasa' mujhe zreSTha racanA lagI hai / hAlA~ki lokaprakAza', haima laghuprakriyA, nayakarNikA, ityAdi aneka graMtha, unakI apUrva vidvattA kA paricaya dete haiM / zrIpAla rAsa bhI unakI lokabhogya sarasa racanA hai| hama Aja unake zAntasudhArasa mahAkAvya para pravacanamAlA kA maMgala prAraMbha kara rahe haiM / yaha graMtharacanA unakI zreSTha racanA hai / 16 bhAvanAoM ke Upara upAdhyAyajI ne gaharA ciMtana-manana-maMthana kara bhAvanAe~ bhAvapUrNa zailI meM chaMdobaddha zlokoM meM evaM geya kAvyoM meM pravAhita kI hai / yaha sAmAnya racanA nahIM hai, yaha asAdhAraNa racanA hai / 2500 varSa ke saMskRta-prAkRta bhASA ke itihAsa meM aisI vairAgyabharapUra evaM adhyAtmapUrNa mahAkAvya kI racanA yaha eka hI hai, advitIya hai / merA to kaI varSoM se yaha priya svAdhyAya-graMtha hai / aneka bAra maiMne ekAnta meM aura pravacanoM meM rasapracura svara meM ina bhAvanAoM ko gAI haiM, una para vivecanA kI hai / aneka saMtapta evaM zokAkula jIvoM ko, manuSyoM ko zAnti, samatA aura prasannatA milI hai / Apa loga bhI isa pravacanamAlA ke eka-eka pravacana ko ekAgra mana se sunogeM to anubhava karoge zAnti kA aura prasannatA kA, samatA kA aura samAdhi kaa| isa graMtha kA nAma hI zAntasadhArasa' hai / graMthakAra ne hI svayaM yaha nAma diyA hai / zAntarasa kI gaMgA baha rahI hai isa graMtha meM / vAstava meM isa mahAkAvya meM zAntarasa kA madhura aura zItala pravAha hI baha rahA hai / AvazyakatA hai isa mahApravAha meM snAna karane kI ! sarvAMgINa snAna karane kI / kaI ghaMToM taka isa mahApravAha meM par3e rho| jisa prakAra pracaMDa tApa ke dinoM meM zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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loga tAlAba meM, nadI meM, sarovara meM...Bath (bAtha) meM par3e rahate haiM na ? tApa se bacate haiM, zItalatA pAte haiM / vaise saMtapta mana ko zAnti prApta karanI hai to zAntasudhArasa' ke bAtha' meM snAna karane pratidina AyA kro| yaha bhava-vana hai: __ upAdhyAyajI ne graMtha kA maMgalAcaraNa karate hue tIrthaMkaroM kI ramya, karuNAsabhara aura hitakArI vANI kI stavanA kI hai| hama bhI jinavANI ko praNAma kara unakI stavanA karate haiM / cU~ki jinavANI hI saMsAra kI, bhava kI bhramaNA ko miTA sakatI hai / jIvAtmA kI sabase bar3I bhramaNA hai bhava-saMsAra ko nagara mAnane kI, svarga mAnane kI... saMdara zahara yA grAma mAnane kI / bhramaNA yAnI asat ! bhramaNA yAnI jhUTha! jo nahIM hai vaha dikhatA hai - yaha hotI hai bhramaNA / registAna ke pradeza meM pAnI nahIM hotA hai, phira bhI mRga ko pAnI dikhatA hai, manuSya ko pAnI dikhatA hai, yaha bhramaNA hotI hai / nahIM hotA hai pAnI, phira bhI dikhAyI detA hai, vaha pAnI kI bhramaNA hotI hai / ___ saMsAra nagara nahIM hai, vana hai, bhISaNa vana hai / yaha vAstavikatA hai / satya hai| saMsAra meM svarga ke, nagara ke, zahara ke darzana hote haiM, yaha bhramaNA hai, asatya hai ! sarvaprathama bhramaNA se mukta honA Avazyaka hai / vAstavikatA kA svIkAra karanA Avazyaka hai / Apa kahoge : hameM A~khoM se nagara...zahara...gA~va dikhatA hai... pratyakSa dikhatA hai, phira bhramaNA kaise mAne ? apanI A~khoM se hI registAnI pradeza meM pAnI dikhatA hai na ? vaha bhramaNA hotI hai na ? apanI A~khoM se hI zveta vastu pIlI dikhAyI detI hai na ? vaha bhramaNA hotI hai na ? A~khoM para bharosA mata karo / jinavacana para bharosA karanA hogA / jaganmithyA' jo jagat dikhatA hai, vaha mithyA hai, asat hai / vaha svarga nahIM hai, nagara, gA~va nahIM hai... jaMgala hai, kAnana hai, vana hai| ___ ekAnta meM isa bAta para socanA ! A~kheM mUMda kara aura manaHcakSu khola kara socanA / saMsAra vana dikhegA / saMsAra ghora jaMgala dikhegA ! yaha koI kavi kI kalpanA nahIM hai, koI duHkhI manuSya ke udgagAra nahIM haiM, yaha pUrNa jJAnI, karuNAsAgara tIrthaMkara paramAtmA ke vacana haiM / isalie yaha bAta vizvasanIya hai, zraddhAgamya hai / jJAna ke Aloka meM dikhAyI denevAlA satya hai / avirata Azrava-jalavarSA : isa bhava-vana meM niraMtara varSA ho rahI hai / Azrava' - bAdaloM se varSA ho prastAvanA

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rahI hai / kalpanA ke Aloka meM barasAta kI kalpanA karanI hai| saMpUrNa saMsAravana meM pA~ca AzravoM ke bAdala barasa rahe haiM! pA~ca Azrava ke bAdala ! jAnate ho ina bAdaloM ko ? mithyAtva, avirati, kaSAya, azubha yoga aura pramAda ye pA~ca Azrava haiM aura ve ghanaghora bAdala haiM, barasate bAdala haiM / anaMta jIva isa varSA meM bhIga rahe haiM / - yaha tAttvika darzana hai / tattvadRSTi se darzana karanA hai / mithyAtva barasa rahA hai, avirati barasa rahI hai, kaSAya barasa rahe haiM, mana-vacana kAyA ke azubha yoga barasa rahe haiM aura pramAda barasa rahA hai ! aisI barasAta kA darzana karanA hai / karoge na ? avazya karanA hai| hama bhava-vana meM haiM, bhaTaka rahe haiM... aura AzravoM kI varSA meM bhIge jA rahe haiM ! AzravoM kI yaha varSA jIvoM ko mAtra bhigotI hai, aisA nahIM hai, isa varSA ke kucha nizcita duSprabhAva hote haiM ! * mithyAtva kI varSA se bhIganevAlA jIva Atmatattva ko mAnatA nahIM, jAnatA nahIM aura svIkAratA nahIM hai / deha ko hI, zarIra ko hI AtmA mAnatA hai ! vaise, jo paramAtma-tattva hotA hai, vAstavika hotA hai, usakA svIkAra nahIM karanA hai, paraMtu jo vAstava meM paramAtma-tattva nahIM hotA hai, usako paramAtmA mAnatA hai ! jo sahI rUpa se gurutattva hotA hai, usako guru nahIM mAnatA hai, jo vAstava meM guru nahIM hote, usako guru mAnatA hai ! jo dharmatattva nahIM hotA hai usako dharma mAnatA hai aura jo saccA dharmatattva hai, usakA svIkAra nahIM karatA hai| jaisI cAhie vaisI AstikatA nahIM hotI hai, jaisA cAhie vaisA bhavavairAgya nahIM hotA hai, nahIM mokSarAga hotA hai... duHkhI jIvoM ke prati tIvra karuNA nahIM hotI hai aura kaSAya bhI upazAnta nahIM hote haiM ! mithyAtva kI varSA meM bhIganevAle jIvoM kI yaha paristhiti hotI hai / * dUsarI 'avirati' kI varSA hotI hai| avirati kI varSA meM bhIganevAle jIvoM meM eka bahuta bar3I vikRti AtI hai| una jIvoM ko koI choTA-bar3A vrata lene kI, pratijJA lene kI, niyama lene kI icchA nahIM hotI hai / vrata grahaNa karane kA utsAha hI paidA nahIM hotA hai / vaha vrata - niyama kI bAta se ghabarAtA hai| hA~, mithyAtva kI varSA se nahIM bhIganevAlA jIva, avirati kI varSA se bhIgatA hai, to vaha vrata - niyama kI upAdeyatA kA svIkAra karegA, paraMtu vrata - niyama kA svIkAra kara pAlana nahIM kara sakegA ! 'maiM vrata grahaNa karU~ vaisA bhAvollAsa hI pragaTa nahIM hotA hai / ' * tIsarI varSA hotI hai kaSAyoM kI / krodha-mAna- mAyA aura lobha kI varSA, zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 4

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I bhava - vana meM hotI rahatI hai / jIva kaSAyavarSA meM bhIgate rahate haiM / ve krodhI banate haiM, abhimAnI banate haiM, mAyA karate rahate haiM aura lobhI bane rahate haiM / jo jIva mithyAtva kI varSA meM nahIM bhIgate haiM, una para kaSAyoM kI varSA kA prabhAva kucha kama hotA hai ! avirati kI varSA meM jo jyAdA nahIM bhIgate haiM, una para bhI kaSAyoM kA asara kucha kama hotA hai / kaSAyoM kI varSA se saMpUrNatayA bacanA, bhava-vana meM azakya sA hai / thor3A bahuta bhIganA hI par3atA hai ! bhava-vana meM bhaTakate jIvoM kI yaha paravazatA hai / * cauthI varSA hotI hai mana-vacana-kAyA ke zubhAzubha yogoM kI / azubha yogoM kI varSA se jIvoM ke mana bigar3ate haiM / bure vicAra Ate rahate haiM / azubha dhyAna hotA rahatA hai / mana kI vikRti ke sAtha-sAtha vANI bhI vikRta banatI hai / apriya, asatya aura ahitakArI banatI hai vANI / jIvAtmA apriya, asatya aura ahitakArI hI bolatA rahatA hai / azubha yogoM kI varSA se jIvAtmA apane zarIra se bhI duSTa pravRtti karatA hai / indriyoM kA durupayoga karatA hai / yaha to huI azubha yogoM kI varSA ke prabhAvoM kI bAta / zubha yogoM kI varSA se isase viparIta prabhAva par3ate haiM / mana meM acche vicAra Ate haiM; vANI priya, satya aura hitakArI hotI hai / zarIra se pravRttiyA~ bhI prazasta hotI haiM / kabhI zubha yogoM kI varSA meM bhIgate haiM, kabhI azubha yogoM kI varSA meM bhIgate haiM ! yogoM kI varSA niraMtara hotI rahatI hai / * pA~cavI varSA hotI hai pramAdoM kI / pramAdoM kI varSA meM jo jIva bhIgate haiM una meM aneka prakAra kI vikRtiyA~ paidA hotI haiN| mukhya rUpa se pA~ca vikRti hotI hai / pahalI vikRti hai nidrA kI / una jIvoM ko nidrA jyAdA AtI hai / jyAdA sonA unako pasaMda bhI hotA hai / dUsarI vikRti hotI hai viSayalAlasA kI / pA~ca indriyoM ke priya viSayoM kA jyAdA upabhoga karate rahate haiM / tIsarI vikRti hotI hai kaSAyoM kI / kaSAya karate rahate haiN| cauthI vikRti hotI hai vikathAe~ karane kI / vikRta kathA ko vikathA kahate haiN| zRMgAra- pradhAna bAteM karate haiM, bhojanaviSayaka carcA karate rahate haiM, deza-saMbaMdhI phAlatU bAteM karate rahate haiM aura dezanetAoM ke viSaya meM niSprayojana AlApa - pralApa karate rahate haiN| pramAda-varSA meM bhIganevAloM kI yaha sthiti hotI hai / pA~cavI vikRti hotI hai Alasya kI / koI bhI kArya samaya para nahIM karegA / usakA basa cale to kArya karegA hI nahIM / susta par3A rahegA / apane kartavyoM kA pAlana nahIM karegA / prastAvanA

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yadi mithyAtva kI varSA meM jIva nahIM bhIgatA hai, avirati kI varSA meM kama bhIgatA hai, to usa para pramAda - varSA ke prabhAva kama par3ate haiM / sadaiva yAda rakhanA, yaha bhava - vana hai / - sadaiva yAda rakhanA ki bhava-vana meM pA~ca AzravoM ke bAdala barasa rahe haiM, usa varSA meM anaMta - anaMta jIva bhIga rahe haiM / hama bhI bhIga rahe haiM - vaisI kalpanA karate rahanA / bhava-vana kI bhayAnakatA kA khyAla rahegA to saMsAra ke prati rAga nahIM rahegA, viSayoM meM Asakti nahIM rahegI / upAdhyAyajI graMtha ke prAraMbha meM hI, jJAnadRSTi se saMsAra kA svarUpadarzana karAte haiN| svarUpadarzana karavA kara, isa saMsAra meM tIrthaMkara kI vANI hI jIvoM kA sahArA hai, yaha bAta kahate haiM / bhava-vana meM sarvatra karmoM kI bela : - vana meM, jaMgala meM jamIna para kyA hotA hai ? kaMkara hote haiM, vRkSa hote haiM, paudhe hote haiM... aura beleM hotI haiM / bhava-vana kI jamIna para sarvatra karmoM kI beleM phailI huI haiN| jamIna kA eka Tukar3A bhI aisA nahIM hai ki jahA~ karmoM kI bela phailI huI nahIM ho ! Urdhva loka ho, madhya loka ho yA adho loka ho / sabhI jagaha karmoM kI beleM phailI huI haiN| jIva jahA~ bhI paira rakhatA hai, vahA~ karmoM kI bela pairoM se lipaTa jAtI haiM / I haiM mukhya rUpa se karmoM kI bela ATha prakAra kI hotI haiM / avAMtara prakAra 158 hote haiM aura avAMtara ke bhI avAMtara asaMkhya prakAra hote haiN| mukhya ATha prakAra jJAnAvaraNa, darzanAvaraNa, mohanIya, aMtarAya, nAma, gotra, vedanIya aura AyuSya / avAMtara prakAra haiM- jJAnAvaraNa ke pA~ca, darzanAvaraNa ke nau, mohanIya ke 28, aMtarAya ke 5, nAma ke 103, gotra ke 2, vedanIya ke 2 aura AyuSya ke 4 / isake bhI avAMtara prakAra hote haiM / ye sabhI bela bhava-vana kI bhUmi para phailI huI haiM / jahA~-jahA~ jIva kadama rakhatA hai, karmoM kI bela usake pairoM meM lipaTatI jAtI haiM / -- samajhe na ? ghara meM ho yA maMdira meM, dukAna meM ho yA dharmasthAna meM, hilasTezana para ho yA tIrthasthAna meM... karmoM kA baMdhana hotA hI rahatA hai| eka AyuSyakarma ko chor3akara zeSa sAtoM karma baMdhate hI rahate haiM ! zubha karma athavA azubha karma... baMdhate hI rahate haiN| saMsAra meM eka bhI aisI jagaha nahIM hai ki jahA~ karma baMdha jIva nahIM karatA ho ! zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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karma baMdhate rahate haiM, karma udaya meM Ate rahate haiM ! isa bAta ko upAdhyAyajI ne kAvyAtmaka zailI meM batAyA hai - nAnAkarmalatAvitAnagahane vividha prakAra ke karmoM kI latAoM se gahana bhava-vana meM ananta bhrAnta jIva bhaTaka rahe haiM ! kalpanA karane kI hai ! bhava-vana kI kalpanA kareM, usameM AzravoM kI varSA kI kalpanA kareM... jamIna para sarvatra karmoM kI latAe~ phailI par3I haiM... samagra bhUmi karmalatAoM se dabI huI hai / jIvoM ko sarvatra karmalatAoM para hI paira rakhane par3ate haiM / kucha latAe~ lipaTatI haiM, kucha latAe~ chUTa jAtI haiM / anAdikAla se yaha krama calatA rahatA hai / bhava-vana kI yaha eka bhayAnaka sthiti hai / ___ kucha karmalatAe~ jIvoM ko lipaTa kara duHkha detI haiM, kucha latAe~ lipaTa kara sukha detI haiM ! bhava-vana meM kucha jagaha aisI hotI hai ki jahA~ jIvoM ko duHkha hI duHkha hotA hai| vahA~ kI karmalatAe~ duHkha denevAlI hI hotI haiN| vaise kucha jagaha bhava-vana meM aisI hotI hai ki jahA~ jIvoM ko karmalatAe~ sukha hI sukha denevAlI hotI haiM / paraMtu vahA~ bhI nayI duHkhadAyinI karmalatAe~ jIvoM se cipakatI rahatI haiM ! __karmalatAe~ isa prakAra cipakatI rahatI haiM ki jIvoM ko mAlUma nahIM par3atA ki mere zarIra para (AtmA para) karmoM kI latAe~ cipaka rahI haiM ! karmalatAoM kI yaha vizeSatA hotI hai ! paraMtu jaba cipakI huI karmalatAe~ apanA prabhAva jatAtI haiM... taba jIvoM ko mAlUma hotA hai ! sukha-duHkha... zAnti-azAnti...saba, karmalatAoM kA prabhAva hotA hai ! bhava-vana meM sarvatra mohAndhakAra : pahalI bAta : bhava-saMsAra vana hai / dUsarI bAta : bhava-vana meM AzravoM kI varSA ho rahI hai / tIsarI bAta : bhava-vana meM sarvatra karmoM kI latAe~ phailI huI haiM ! aba upAdhyAyajI cauthI bAta batA rahe haiM ki bhava-vana meM sarvatra aMdhakAra hai ! prakAza kI eka kiraNa bhI nahIM hai ! pragAr3ha aMdhakAra vyApta hai bhava-vana meM / vaha aMdhakAra hai moha kA, ajJAna kA ! upAdhyAyajI kahate haiM : mohAndhakArodhure (bhava-vane) aMdhakAra meM sahI mArga nahIM dikhatA hai / aMdhere meM jIva bhaTaka jAtA hai / galata rAste para cala detA hai / aMdhere meM sahI aura galata rAste kA nirNaya nahIM kara sakatA prastAvanA

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hai / saMbhava rahatA hai ki galata mArga ko sahI mAna le aura sahI mArga ko galata samajha le / aura, yaha to moha kA aMdhakAra ! bar3A khataranAka hotA hai mohAndhakAra to| itanA to rAtri kA aMdhakAra bhI khataranAka nahIM hotA, bhUmigRha kA aMdhakAra bhI itanA bhayAvaha nahIM hotA, moha kA aMdhakAra bhayAvaha hotA hai / jarA sI kalpanA to kareM - 'jaMgala hai, bhayAnaka hai, usameM mUsalAdhAra varSA ho rahI hai... jamIna para sarvatra bhinna-bhinna prakAra kI latAe~ phailI par3I hai... sarvatra ghora aMdhakAra hai... aura hamArA koI sAthI nahIM hai... hama aMdhere meM bhaTaka rahe haiM.... kitanI bhayAnaka kalpanA hai ? apane Apako aise jaMgala meM bhUle-bhaTake hue dekho ! kA~pa uThoge ! rone lagoge ! aura usa samaya yadi Apake mu~ha se pukAra nikale-he prabho, merI rakSA karo... mujhe bacA lo isa bhISaNa vana se !' to saMbhava hai ki ApakI pukAra sunAyI degI aura Apako bacAnevAle, ApakI rakSA karanevAle kahIM se bhI A jAyeMge / Apako divya abhaya vacana sunAI degA - vatsa, nirbhaya bana, maiM terI rakSA karU~gA !' tIrthaMkaroM kI sudhArasapUrNa vANI : ve abhaya vacana hote haiM tIrthaMkara bhagavaMta ke ! vaha karuNApUrNa vANI hotI hai, tIrthaMkara paramAtmA kI ! karuNA ke sAgara tIrthaMkara isIlie to apanI amRtamayI vANI bahAte haiM / bhava-vana meM bhUle-bhaTake jIvoM kA parama hita karane ke lie hI tIrthaMkara dharmadezanA dete haiM / dharmatIrtha kI sthApanA hI isI hetu se kI jAtI hai| lokAhitAya pravartayAmAsa tIrthamidam / bhagavAn umAsvAtIjI ke ye vacana haiN| __ jaba bhI bhava-vana meM Apako bhaya lage, saMtApa lage, duHkha mahasusa ho, taba Apa ke hRdaya se vedanApUrNa pukAra nikalanI cAhie - bhagavaMta, merI rakSA karo, Apake binA merA koI sahArA nahIM hai / Apake binA merI koI zaraNa nahIM hai... prabho, mujhe isa bhayAnaka bhava-vana se bacA lo / hRdaya kI pukAra sunAyI detI hai, rakSA hotI hai, kisI bhI taraha...kisI bhI nimitta se, mAdhyama se rakSA hotI hai / vizvAsa cAhie, zraddhA cAhie / upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI kahate haiM - tIrthezaiH prathitAssudhArasakiro ramyA giraH pAntu vaH // 'tIrthaMkaroM kI amRtamayI ramya vANI ApakI rakSA kare !' zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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tIrthaMkara paramAtmA kI pahacAna kI hai ? AMtara-bAhya rUpa se Apane tIrthaMkara bhagavaMta kA paricaya prApta kiyA hai kyA ? tIrthaMkaroM kI divya karuNA : __ tIrthaMkara paramAtmA vItarAga hote haiM / rAga-dveSa se rahita hote haiM / na kisI ke prati rAga hotA hai, na kisI ke prati dveSa hotA hai ! phira bhI ve saMsAra ke sabhI jIvoM ke prati, bhava-vana meM bhaTakate hue sabhI jIvoM ke prati karuNAvaMta hote haiM / Apa karuNA ko rAga nahIM samajhe ! rAga karuNA nahIM hotA hai / karuNA kA svarUpa rAga nahIM hotA hai / rAga svakendrita hotA hai, karuNA svakendrita nahIM hotI hai / 'paraduHkha vinAzinI karuNA / dUsaroM ke duHkhoM ko miTAnevAlI hotI hai karuNA ! isIlie to bar3e-bar3e jJAnI... yogI aura AdhyAtmika mahApuruSoM ne tIrthaMkaroM ko karuNAsAgara' kahe haiM, karuNAnidhAna' kahe haiM, karuNA ke ghara' kahe haiM ! unase apane uddhAra kI, duHkhanivAraNa kI prArthanA kI hai| ___ Apa jAnate ho kyA, ki tIrthaMkara banAnevAlA tIrthaMkara nAmakarma kauna bA~dhatA hai aura kaise bA~dhatA hai ? bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI tIrthaMkara kaise bane the ? pUrvajanmoM kI unakI kathAoM kA adhyayana karane se mAluma par3egA ! naMdana muni' ke 25veM bhava meM unhoMne tIrthaMkara nAmakarma bA~dhA thA ! samagra jIvasRSTi ke prati unakI divya karuNA-bhAvanA thI - 'mujhe aisI zakti prApta ho ki maiM bhava-vana meM bhaTakate sabhI jIvoM ko parama sukha pradAna karU~... sabhI ko siddha...mukta...buddha banA = !' aura vaisI zakti prApta karane ke lie unhoMne vIsa sthAnaka-tapa kI ugra sAdhanA kI / lAkhoM upavAsa kiye / saste meM zakti nahIM milatI hai jIvoM ke uddhAra kI / mAtra vicAra karane se kAryasiddhi nahIM hotI hai / prabala puruSArtha karanA par3atA hai / karuNA-bhAvanA se aura tapa kI ArAdhanA se tIrthaMkara nAmakarma bA~dha liyA / 26vA~ bhava milA devaloka kA aura 27ve bhava meM ve tIrthaMkara mahAvIra bane / tIrthaMkara bana kara, dharmatIrtha kI sthApanA kara unhoMne vahI kAma kiyA, jo naMdana muni ke janma meM socA thA, tIvratA se cAhA thaa| sabhI jIvoM ko, jo ki bhava-vana meM bhaTaka rahe haiM unako parama sukhamaya mokSa meM le jAU~, parama sukha...zAzvat sukha dilA hU~ / dharmatIrtha kI sthApanA kI; sAdhu, sAdhvI, zrAvaka aura zrAvikA rUpa caturvidha saMgha kI sthApanA kI aura jagata ko; dharmopadeza denA zuru kiyA / parama sukhamaya prastAvanA / 9

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mokSamArga kA jJAna denA zuru kiyA / 'saMsAra meM sukha hai, saMsAra svarga hai... aisI bhrAntiyoM meM bhrAnta bane jIvoM kI bhrAntiyoM ko miTAne lage / unako karuNApUrNa vANI se samajhAyA * saMsAra nagara nahIM hai, svarga nahIM hai, vana hai, jaMgala hai / * saMsAra meM niraMtara AzravoM kI varSA ho rahI hai / * saMsAra meM sarvatra karmoM kI latAe~ phailI huI haiM, aura * saMsAra meM sarvatra moha kA pragAr3ha aMdhakAra hai / isalie saMsAra - vana se bAhara nikala jAo / mukti ke mArga para A jAo / mukti ke mArga para calate clo| thako nahIM, adhIra mata bano... hiMmata se Age bar3hate raho / kisI lobha meM, lAlaca meM mata pha~so / hama jaise kaheM vaise karate raho, calate raho / kaSTa aura ApattiyoM se Daro nahIM / saMkaToM ko sahate calo | jinavANI para vizvAsa karo : I paramAtmA tIrthaMkaradeva ke prati vizvAsa hogA to unakI vANI ke Upara, unake vacanoM ke Upara vizvAsa hogA hI / bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI 24veM tIrthaMkara the / unake upadezoM ko unake gaNadharoM ne sUtrabaddha kiye the / ziSyaparaMparA se sUtrabaddha upadeza Aja 2500 varSoM ke bAda bhI hameM prApta hue haiN| sabhI upadeza nahIM, kucha upadeza lupta ho gaye, kucha upadeza surakSita raha gye| Aja hama una upadezoM ko 'AgamasUtra' kahate haiM / vaise 45 AgamasUtra haiM / jainazAsana kI eka bahuta acchI paraMparA rahI hai ki koI bhI prajJAvaMta RSi, muni... AcArya... upAdhyAya ... maulika graMthoM kI racanA karate haiM, vaha graMtharacanA AgamasUtra ke anusAra karate hai / AgamasUtra se viparIta bAta apane graMtha meM nahIM A jAyeM, vaisI sAvadhAnI rakhate haiM / upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI vaise prAjJa puruSa the, Apta puruSa the, unhoMne jinavacanoM ke anurUpa, AgamasUtroM se aviruddha aisI 'zAntasudhArasa graMtha kI maulika racanA kI hai / isa dRSTi se 'zAntasudhArasa' meM jo vANI baha rahI hai, vaha jinavANI hI hai / tIrthaMkara ke hI vacana haiM / isalie ina vacanoM para vizvAsa karanA hogA / isa graMtha kI upAdeyatA kA svIkAra karanA hogA / upAdhyAyajI ne jinavANI kI stuti kI hai - ramyA giraH pAntu vaH / ' kaha kara apanI zraddhA abhivyakta kI hai / 'jinezvaroM kI bhavya ramya vANI ApakI rakSA karo !' I 10 - zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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jinavacana rakSA karate haiM: upAdhyAyajI kI yaha bAta sau pratizata sahI hai / jIvAtmA yadi jinavacanoM kA sahArA letA hai, to jinavacana avazya jIva kI azAnti miTA dete haiM / usake bhayoM kA nAza kara dete haiN| jinavacanoM kI zaraNa lene para jIva abhaya, adveSa aura akheda kA anubhava karate haiN| aura, jIvana meM se sabhI bhaya cale jAyeM, dveSa dUra ho jAyeM evaM kheda-udvega naSTa ho jAyeM, phira kyA cAhie ? sukha mila jAtA hai, zAnti mila jAtI hai aura utsAha-ullAsa jAgrata ho jAtA hai ! basa, saba kucha mila gayA ! yahI jinavacanoM kA mahAn pradAna hai / yahI unakI rakSA hai ! 'zAntasudhArasa mahAkAvya, jinavacanoM kI gaMgA hai / isa gaMgA meM svacchanda banakara snAna karanA hai / Ate raheM pratidina yahA~ snAna karane / yaha gaMgA kA ghATa hai ! eka ghaMTe taka snAna karate raheM / sabhI duHkhoM ko bhUla jAoge, sabhI azAnti baha jAyegI, sabhI prakAra ke bhaya dUra ho jAyeMge... nirbhayatA ke gIta gAne lagoge / maiMne to aneka bAra isa mahAkAvya ko gAyA hai, nagaroM meM gAyA hai aura jaMgaloM meM bhI gAyA hai / bahuta AnaMda pAyA hai / AdhyAtmika mastI kA anubhava kiyA hai / maiM isakA sArA zreya upAdhyAyajI ko detA hU~ | cU~ki unhoMne zAntasudhArasa jaise advitIya adhyAtma-kAvya kA sarjana kara hama para parama upakAra kiyA hai / janama-janama hama isa upakAra kA badalA nahIM cukA sakate haiM / yaha sAdhAraNa upakAra nahIM hai, parama upakAra hai / jinavANI ne AtmahatyA se bacAyA : eka zahara meM hamArA cAturmAsa thaa| hara ravivAra ke dina dopahara meM jAhira pravacana hote the| eka ravivAra ko ina bhAvanAoM ke viSaya meM pravacana thaa| pravacana pUrNa hone ke bAda merA eka paricita yuvaka eka mitra ko lekara mere pAsa AyA aura usakA paricaya dete hue kahA : mahArAja zrI, yaha merA mitra hai, sarakArI naukara hai, acchI posTa para hai, vaha ghumane jA rahA thA, maiM usako pravacana meM le AyA / isane dhyAna se pravacana sunA aura bahuta prabhAvita huA hai / usa yuvaka ne kahA : 'mahArAjazrI, saca kahatA hU~ ki mujhe Aja nayA jIvana milA hai / maiM Aja ghara se nikalA thA AtmahatyA karane ke lie hii| maiM do varSa se bahuta azAnta thA ! pati-patnI kA saMbaMdha TUTa cUkA thA / maiM ati nirAza ho gayA thaa| jInA mere lie azakya bana gayA thA...Aja maiM jIvana kA aMta lAne ko hI ghara se prastAvanA

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nikalA thA... aura rAste meM rAjendra mila gayA ! vaha mujhe pravacana meM le AyA / maiM jaina nahIM hU~... isalie yahA~ Ane meM mujhe saMkoca hotA thA, paraMtu rAjendra ne Agraha kiyA, yahA~ le AyA, mere Upara usane bar3A upakAra kiyA / pravacana sunatA gayA... aura merA mana svastha banatA gyaa| merI ulajhanoM kA samAdhAna ho gyaa| aba maiM kabhI bhI AtmahatyA kA vicAra nahIM karU~gA / ApakA mere Upara mahAn upakAra huaa| __vAstava meM yaha upakAra jinavANI kA thA / jinavacanoM kA thA / maiM to mAtra mAdhyama banA thA / jinavANI ne usa yuvaka ko bacA liyA / nayA jIvana pradAna kiyaa| sagara cakravartI - bhAvanA se manaHzAnti : yaha to abhI-abhI kI ghaTanA hai, aisI aneka sukhada ghaTanAe~ ghaTatI rahatI haiM / prasaMga-prasaMga para batAtA rahU~gA ghaTanAoM ko / paraMtu eka prAcInatama romAMcaka ghaTanA hai / Apane sunI bhI hai yaha ghaTanA / aSTApada tIrtha kI mahApUjA meM Apane sunA thA ki aSTApada tIrtha kI rakSA karate-karate sagara cakravartI ke 60 hajAra putroM kI mRtyu ho gaI thI / nAgakumAra devoM ne 60 hajAra rAjakumAroM ko jalA diye the / 60 hajAra rAjakumAra to devagati meM cale gaye the, paraMtu unake pitA sagara cakravartI ne jaba ye samAcAra sune... ve pAgala se ho gaye the| karuNa AnaMda karane lage the / kisI manuSya meM zakti nahIM thI ki jo cakravartI ko zAnta kareM ! Akhira devarAja indra ko AnA par3A / devarAja indra tattvajJa hote haiM, samyag dRSTi hote haiN| unhoMne cakravartI ko anitya-bhAvanA se samajhAyA / saMsAra meM svajanoM ke sAre saMbaMdha anitya hote haiN| AyuSya, Arogya, zakti aura jIvana... saba kucha anitya hotA hai !' acchI taraha samajhAyA... taba jAkara cakravartI kA zoka dUra huA / ve svastha bane / yaha kyA thA ? jinavANI kA upakAra thA / jinavANI ne cakravartI kI rakSA kii| DAkU naravIra : jinavANI se upazAnta : rAjA kumArapAla kA pUrvajanma jAnate ho ? pUrvajanma meM ve DAkU the / nAma thA naravIra / gujarAta aura mAlavA kI sImA ke Upara usakA aDDA thA / DAkuoM kA pUrA giroha thA / hajAroM musAphiroM ko lUTA thA, mArA thaa| paraMtu eka dina, mAlava deza ke sainikoM ke hAtha naravIra kA giroha mArA gayA aura sainikoM ke zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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saradAra ne (jo ki eka vyApArI thA) naravIra kI sagarbhA patnI ko mAra DAlA / naravIra apane prANa bacAkara bhAga khar3A huA / sainikoM ne usake aDDe ko jalA diyaa| naravIra dUra-dUra eka jaMgala meM jA pahu~cA / eka vRkSa kI chAyA meM hatAza-nirAza hokara baiTha gayA / vaha thaka gayA thaa| usakA sarvanAza ho gayA thaa| usake mana meM vaira kI Aga sulaga rahI thii| vaha atyaMta azAnta, udvigna aura khinna thaa| thor3I dera ke bAda usa jaMgala ke rAste se kucha jaina sAdhu gujarate the / naravIra ne sAdhuoM ko dekhaa| vaha khar3A huA aura sabase Age jo AcArya cala rahe the, unake sAmane jAkara praNAma kiyaa| ve AcArya the yshobhdrsuurijii| yazobhadrasUrijI ne naravIra ko dharmalAbha' kA AzIrvAda dekara jinavANI kA upadeza diyaa| hiMsA vagairaha AzravoM ke kaTu pariNAma batAye / kSamA vagairaha dharmoM kA zreSTha prabhAva btaayaa| usake hRdaya ko zAnta-upazAnta kiyA / vairabhAvanA ko miTA diyaa| sanmArga para sthApita kiyA / ekazIlA nagarI meM bhejaa...| ADhara zreSThI kA paricaya karavAyA...! pariNAma svarUpa usakA jIvana dharmamaya banA, mRtyu samAdhimaya huA aura dUsare bhava meM vaha rAjA kumArapAla banA ! yaha upakAra kisa kA thA? durgati meM jAte hue naravIra kI kisane rakSA kI ? jinavANI ne ! yazobhadrasUrijI ne jinavANI sunAyI thI na ? isa prakAra isa duniyA para jinavANI ne asaMkhya upakAra kiye haiM / durgati meM girate hue asaMkhya jIvoM ko bacA liye haiM / jinavANI aura kumArapAla : naravIra kA kaisA saubhAgya thA, ki dUsare janma meM bhI kadama-kadama para unakI rakSA karanevAlI jinavANI milI / naravIra ke janma meM gurudeva yazobhadrasUrijI mile the, kumArapAla ke janma meM AcAryazrI hemacandrasarijI mile ! naravIra ke janma meM sahAyaka-sAdharmika ADhara zreSThI mile the, to yahA~ kumArapAla ke bhava meM udayana maMtrI mile ! kumArapAla rAjA bane 50 varSa kI umra meM ! 50 varSa taka unakA jIvana aneka ApattiyoM se, vipattiyoM se gujarA thA / vaha ati nirAzA meM DUba gaye the / rAjA siddharAja, kumArapAla kI hatyA karane utArU huA thaa| bhAgyodaya se vaha bacatA rahA... aura aMta meM hemacandrasUrijI ke paricaya meM A gayA / AcAryadeva ne usako Azvasta kiyA aura jinavANI sunAnA prAraMbha kiyA / rAjA banane ke bAda bhI, jinavANI ke mAdhyama se AcAryadeva ne kumArapAla kI dravyAtmaka aura bhAvAtmaka prastAvanA 388888888888856002

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rakSA kI / kumArapAla svayaM jinavANI ke upAsaka bana gaye the / unhoMne saMskRta - prAkRta bhASA kA adhyayana kiyA thA aura jinavacanoM ko saMskRta kAvyoM meM nibaddha kiye the / ve svayaM cAturmAsa meM pATaNa meM hI rahate the aura gurudeva ke caraNoM meM baiThakara ghaMToM taka jinavANI kA zravaNa karate the / prAtaHkAla kucha samaya jinavacanoM kA svAdhyAya karane ke bAda hI mu~ha meM pAnI DAlate the / ve jAnate the, unake tana-mana kI rakSA jinavANI ne kaise kI thI ! gurudeva hemacandrasUrijI ne kaise kI thI ! upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI ne 'zAntasudhArasa' ke prAraMbha meM hI jinavANI kI stuti kI hai, yaha samucita hai / ramyA giraH pAntu vaH / jinezvaroM kI bhavya vANI tumhArI rakSA kare ! pratidina jinavANI kI ArAdhanA kareM : bhava-vana meM dUsarA koI bhI apanI rakSA karanevAlA nahIM hai / aura kisI para bhI vizvAsa nahIM karanA / koI rakSA nahIM karegA, koI duHkha meM sahArA nahIM degA / jinavANI hI sahArA detI hai, AzvAsana detI hai aura sahI mArgadarzana detI hai / bhISaNa bhava - vana meM, jinavANI hameM abhaya detI hai ghora aMdhakAra se bhare bhava-vana meM divya dRSTi detI hai karmalatAoM se vikaTa bhava-vana meM sahI rAstA batAtI hai, bhava-vana meM zatruoM se bacAnevAlI bhI jinavANI hai... bhava-vana meM bhaTaka bhaTaka kara thake hue jIvoM ko nayI zakti, nayI cetanAsphUrti denevAlI bhI jinavANI hai / isalie AgrahapUrvaka kahatA hU~ ki jinavANI kI pratidina ArAdhanA karate raho / pratidina jinavANI kA zravaNa karo, jinavANI kA vAMcana ( paThana) karo, jinavANI kA ciMtana-manana karo / kucha mArmika hRdayasparzI jinavacanoM ko yAda kara lo / smRti meM bhara lo / jinavacanoM kI ArAdhanA se mana ko zAnti milatI hai, samatA milatI hai, samAdhi prApta hotI hai ! jinavacanoM se ulajhaneM sulajha jAtI haiM, zaMkAoM kA samAdhAna ho jAtA hai / jIvana kI aMtima kSaNeM mahotsava bana jAtI haiM / Aja basa, itanA hI / 14 * * * zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 2 saMkalanA : * AcAryazrI haribhadrasUri : vyAkulatA * haMsa- paramahaMsa bauddhamaTha meM haMsa kI mRtyu paramahaMsa kA bauddhAcArya se vAda / * haribhadrasUri upazAnta hote haiM / saMsAra : moha - viSAda ke jahara se vyApta / mohaviSa ke prabhAva | * vAsanAoM kI pUrti meM azAnti / putraprApti kI vAsanA / yazaHkIrti kI vAsanA / Arogya kI vAsanA / sukha-zAnti kA eka hI upAya : bhAvanAe~ /

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sphurati cetasi bhAvanayA vinA, na viduSAmapi zAntasudhArasaH / na ca sukhaM kRzamayamunA vinA, jagati mohaviSAda - viSAkule || upAdhyAyajI kahate haiM : 'bhale hI Apa vidvAna ho, zAstrajJa ho, paraMtu yadi Apa bhAvanAoM meM ramamANa nahIM ho, bhAvanAoM se bhAvita nahIM ho, to Apake mana meM zAnta-sudhA kA upazama-rasa kA AsvAda nahIM kara sakoge / moha - viSAda se bharA huA hai yaha saMsAra, yaha jagat, usameM Apa aMzamAtra bhI sukha nahIM pA sakoge / ' upAdhyAyajI ne vidvAnoM ko, paMDitoM ko lakSya banA kara yaha bAta kahI hai / unhoMne paMDitoM ko bhI tIvra rAga-dveSa meM vyAkula, azAnta aura saMtapta dekhe hoMge / 'are, itane hajAroM zAstra par3hane ke bAda, par3hAne ke bAda bhI ye paMDita, ye vidvAna kyoM zokavihvala haiM ? kyoM zokasaMtapta haiM ? kyoM duHkhI haiM ? kyoM rudana karate haiM ? aise prazna unake mana meM paidA hue hoNge| praznoM kA samAdhAna unhoMne yaha khoja nikAlA ki 'bhAvanAoM se jo apane mana ko bhAvita nahIM karate, ve vidvAna hote hue bhI rAga-dveSa meM ulajha jAte haiM / azAnti aura udvega se bhara jAte haiM / cU~ki saMsAra to moha - ajJAna ke jahara se bharA-pUrA hai hI ! vaise saMsAra meM bhAvanAoM ke ciMtana ke binA sukha kA eka aMza bhI milanA saMbhava nahIM, zAnti kI eka kSaNa milanA bhI saMbhava nahIM / upAdhyAyajI mahArAja 'anitya' Adi bAraha bhAvanAoM ke viSaya meM aura 'maitrI' Adi cAra bhAvanAoM ke viSaya meM yaha graMtha likhate haiM zAntasudhArasa ! hara manuSya ke jIvana meM bhAvanAoM ke ciMtana kI anivAryatA pratipAdita karate hue ve yaha bAta kaha rahe haiM / vidvAn loga bhI bhAvanAoM ke binA sukha aura zAnti nahIM pA sakate haiM, to phira jo zAstrajJa nahIM hai, vidvAn nahIM haiM, unako sukha-zAnti kaise mila sakatI hai ? budha ho yA abudha ho, dhanI ho yA nirdhana ho, prAjJa ho yA ajJa ho, bhItara kA sukha, bhItara kI zAnti usI ko mila sakatI hai; jo bhAvanAoM kA ciMtana karate rahate haiM, pratidina karate rahate haiN| hara prasaMga para, hara ghaTanA para, bhAvanAoM kI dRSTi se jo dekhate haiM, socate haiM, ve kabhI azAnta aura udvigna nahIM banate / AcArya zrI haribhadrasUri ati vyAkula kyoM bane the ? upAdhyAyajI kI eka bAta sadaiva yAda rakhanA - 'jagati mohvissaadvissaakule|' yaha duniyA moha - viSAda ke jahara se vyApta hai| duniyA meM sarvatra moha - viSAda kA 16 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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jahara phailA huA hai / aura jIvoM ke apane-apane pApakarma evaM puNyakarma hote haiM / karmoM ke udaya ke anusAra sukha-duHkha ke prasaMga upasthita hote rahate haiM / aise prasaMgoM meM sAmAnya manuSya svastha nahIM raha sakatA hai / vaha tIvra harSa-zoka meM, rAgadveSa meM ulajha jAtA hai / bhAvanAoM kA cintana nahIM hotA hai, bhAvanAoM se AtmA bhAvita nahIM hotI hai, to vaha prazama-upazama kA Ananda nahIM pA sakatA hai / zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ke dharmazAsana meM jo aneka jJAnI, zrutadhara AcArya, upAdhyAya, munirAja ho gaye, unake prathama paMkti ke jJAnI AcAryazrI haribhadrasUrijI ho gaye / unhoMne apane jIvana meM 1444 dharmagraMthoM kI racanA kI thii| yAkinI mahattarA' nAma kI sAdhvI ke ve dharmaputra the / unake jIvana meM eka bahuta bar3I durghaTanA ghaTI thI aura ve krodha se...dveSa se pAgala se bana gaye the| vidvAn the, zAstrajJa the...phira bhI usa eka durghaTanA ne unako ati vihvala, ati caMcala...ati roSAyamAna banA diye the / saMkSepa meM vaha durghaTanA batAtA hU~ / vikrama kI AThamI zatAbdI kA samaya thA / AcAryazrI haribhadra ke do bhAnaje the| donoM raNavIra aura zUravIra the / yuddhakalA meM pAraMgata the / kisI nimitta se ve donoM saMsAra se virakta bane aura apane mAmA haribhadrasUrijI ke pAsa gaye / unhoMne AcAryadeva ko kahA : 'gurudeva, hama donoM gRhavAsa se virakta bane haiM / AcAryadeva ne kahA : yadi tamheM mere prati zraddhA ho to vidhipUrvaka dIkSA le lo| haMsa aura paramahaMsa ne dIkSA le lii| donoM prajJAvaMta ziSyoM ko AcAryadeva ne jainAgama par3hAye / nyAyadarzana aura vaidika darzana kA bhI adhyayana karAyA / bauddha darzana kA adhyayana karate-karate haMsa aura paramahaMsa ke mana meM vicAra AyA ki bauddhazAstroM kA bodha prApta karane, bauddha Azrama meM jAkara bauddhAcArya se adhyayana kareM / donoM ne apanI icchA gurudeva ke sAmane vyakta kara dii| gurudeva ne ziSyoM kI icchA jAnane ke bAda apane jJAna ke Aloka meM donoM ziSyoM kA bhaviSya dekhA / unhoMne kahA : vatsa, vahA~ bauddhamaTha meM jAne meM majhe tumhArA bhaviSya acchA nahIM lagatA / isalie tuma vahA~ jAne kA vicAra chor3a do| yahA~ dUsare bhI apane AcArya haiM, vidvAn haiM, bauddha darzana ke jJAtA haiM, tuma unake pAsa adhyayana kara sakate ho / haMsa ne kahA : gurudeva hamArI icchA to bauddha AcArya se hI bauddhamata kA adhyayana karane kI hai... / / prastAvanA 17 /

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gurudeva ne kahA : jo kulIna ziSya hotA hai vaha guru ko chor3akara nirupadravI mArga para bhI nahIM jAtA hai, to phira jisa mArga para bar3A upadrava ho, usa mArga para kaise jA sakatA hai ? maiM tumheM bauddhamaTha meM jAne kI ijAjata nahIM de sakatA / haMsa ne kahA : 'gurudeva, hama donoM para ApakA ati vAtsalya hai, isalie Apa isa prakAra kahate haiM / paraMtu gurudeva, ApakA nAma hI maMtra hai, usa nAmamaMtra ke prabhAva se hamArA kucha bhI ahita hogA nahIM / ApakI divya kRpA hamArI rakSA karegI / vaise bhI Apa hamArI zUravIratA aura yuddhakauzalya jAnate ho / samartha puruSoM kA durnimitta kyA bigAr3a sakate haiM ? gurudeva, kRpA kareM aura bauddhamaTha meM jAne kI anujJA pradAna kareM / AcArya zrI haribhadrasUri udAsa ho gye| unhoMne kahA : 'vatsa, tumheM hitakArI bAta kahanA nirarthaka lagatA hai / tumheM jaisA ja~ce vaisA karo, jahA sukkhaM devANuppiyA !' haMsa aura paramahaMsa ne gurudeva kI bAta nahIM mAnI / hitakArI vacanoM kI upekSA kI / unhoMne vezaparivartana kiyA aura ve 'bhUtAna gaye / bhUtAna para usa samaya bauddha rAjA kA zAsana thA / vahA~ bauddhoM kI aneka vidyApITheM thiiN| haMsa aura paramahaMsa eka vidyApITha meM praveza le liyA / bauddha AcArya ke pAsa raha kara bauddha darzana kA adhyayana karane lage / bauddha AcArya se jo-jo siddhAnta ve jAnate the, samajhate the, una siddhAntoM kA gupta rUpa se, jaina siddhAntoM ke dvArA khaMDana likhate the / likhe hue patra ve samhAla ke gupta rakhate the / paraMtu eka dina bauddha dharma kI adhiSThAtrI devI tArA ne, una likhe hue patroM meM se eka pannA ur3Akara zAlA meM DAla diyA / bauddha chAtroM ne vaha pannA dekhA, usa para 'namo jinAya' likhA huA thA, vaha pddh'aa| chAtroM ne vaha pannA bauddhAcArya ko diyA / AcArya ne socA : 'jinamata kA koI upAsaka yahA~ par3hane AyA lagatA hai / vaha kauna hai, parIkSA kara usako jAnanA hogA, pakar3anA hogA / eka dina AcArya ne kucha chAtroM ko apane pAsa bulA kara kahA : 'bhojanagRha ke dvAra para, mArga meM jinapratimA kA Alekhana karo aura usa pratimA ke sara para paira rakhakara bhojanagRha meM praveza karanA / haMsa - paramahaMsa ko chor3akara sabhI chAtroM ne vaisA kiyaa| haMsa- paramahaMsa ke hRdaya meM jaina dharma ke prati apAra zraddhA thI, unhoMne usa jinapratimA ke Upara khar3I (coka) se janeu kA cihna kiyA aura usa para paira rakhakara cala diye ! kucha bauddha chAtroM 18_______ zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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ne haMsa - paramahaMsa kI yaha kriyA dekha lI aura AcArya ko bola diyA / AcArya ne kahA : 'prajJAvaMta puruSa deva ke mastaka para paira nahIM rakhate / isalie una do chAtroM ne janeu kA cihna kiyA vaha ucita hai / ve do chAtra paradezI haiM, tuma dhairya rkho| maiM dUsare prakAra se unakI parIkSA lU~gA / usa rAtri ke samaya, jisa kamare meM haMsa- paramahaMsa dUsare chAtroM ke sAtha soye the, kamare ke Upara ke bhAga meM, AcArya ne miTTI ke ghar3e rakhavAye aura una ghar3oM ko kamare meM paTakavAye / ghar3e eka ke bAda eka phUTane lge| sabhI chAtra jaga gaye aura apane-apane iSTadeva ke nAma lene lage / haMsa-paramahaMsa ke mu~ha se 'namo arihaMtANaM' maMtra nikala gayA ! bauddha guptacaroM ne nirNaya kiyA- 'ye do jaina haiM / ' haMsa- paramahaMsa bhI sAvadhAna ho gaye / ve avilaMba vidyApITha ko chor3akara, nagara ko chor3akara bhAgane lge| AcArya ne nagara ke bauddha rAjA ko sArI bAta batA dI aura haMsa - paramahaMsa ko pakar3akara vApasa lAne ke lie khaa| rAjA ne sainikoM ko daur3Aye / haMsa - paramahaMsa ne sainika ghur3asavAroM ko apane nikaTa Ate dekhA | haMsa ne paramahaMsa ko kahA: "tU apane gurudeva ke pAsa pahu~ca jAnA aura unakI AjJA kA pAlana nahIM kara sake, usakA 'micchAmi dukkaDa' kahanA | tU abhI kSatriya rAjA sUrapAla ke pAsa jAnA / vaha rAjA zaraNAgata kI rakSA kregaa| maiM yahA~ khar3A rhuuNgaa| bauddha sainikoM ko yahA~ rokU~gA... unase yuddha karU~gA... tU rAjA ke pAsa pahu~ca jAnA / " -- paramahaMsa ro par3A / haMsa ke caraNoM meM praNAma kara vaha cala par3A / haMsa ne bauddha rAjA ke sainikoM ke sAtha yuddha karanA zuru kiyA / taba taka yuddha jArI rakhanA thA, jaba taka paramahaMsa rAjA sUrapAla ke pAsa pahu~ca na jAyaM ! yuddha meM haMsa kI mRtyu ho gaI / paramahaMsa rAjA surapAla kI zaraNa meM pahu~ca gayA / surapAla ne zaraNa dI / bauddha sainika bhI surapAla ke pAsa gaye aura bole : 'paramahaMsa hameM sauMpa do / ' rAjA ne kahA : vaha merA zaraNAgata hai, maiM use sauMpa nahIM sakatA, kucha bhI ho jAyaM / bauddha subhaToM ke bahuta Agraha karane para rAjA ne paramahaMsa se parAmarza kara ke kahA : 'tumhAre bauddhAcArya aura paramahaMsa kA yahA~ merI rAjasabhA meM vAda-vivAda ho / yadi paramahaMsa hAra jAye to usako le jA sakoge anyathA vaha apane sthAna para calA jAyegA !' bauddhAcArya ke sAtha paramahaMsa kA vAda-vivAda prAraMbha huaa| vAda-vivAda bahuta prastAvanA 19

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dina taka calatA rhaa| paramahaMsa ko kucha zaMkA huii| usane jaina dharma kI adhiSThAyitA aMbikAdevI kA smaraNa kiyaa| aMbikAdevI ne kahA : paramahaMsa, parade ke pIche, ghaDe meM ma~ha rakhakara, bauddhamata kI adhiSThAtrI tArAdevI vAda kara rahI hai, isalie tU paradA haTAkara prativAdI ko kaha de ki vaha tere sAmane A kara vAda kareM / dUsare dina hI paramahaMsa ne aMbikAdevI ke kathanAnusAra bauddhAcArya ko lalakArA : yadi tere meM zakti ho to aba paradA haTAkara mere sAmane A kara vAda kr| paraMtu AcArya mauna rahA / paramahaMsa ne paradA haTA diyA aura lAta mAra kara usa ghar3e ko phor3a diyaa| bauddha AcArya kA tiraskAra kara ke kahA : tuma adhama paMDita ho... aba mere sAtha vAda kro| paramahaMsa ne AcArya ko parAjita kara diyaa| rAjA surapAla ne ghoSita kara diyAvAda-vivAda meM paramahaMsa kI vijaya huI hai / paramahaMsa nirbhaya bana, citrakUTa pahu~ca gayA / gurudeva haribhadrasarijI ke caraNoM meM vaMdanA kI aura vaha phaTa-phaTakara ro par3A / rote-rote usane haMsa kI mRtyu kI bAta sunAyI... bAta kahate-kahate usakA hRdaya baMda par3a gayA... aura vahA~ hI usakI mRtyu ho gii| haMsa-paramahaMsa, haribhadrasUrijI ke priya ziSya the| donoM prajJAvaMta the, vidvAn the aura yuddhavIra the / isa prakAra donoM kI akAla mRtyu se haribhadrasUrijI ati udvigna...duHkhI aura saMtapta hue / bauddha AcArya ke prati unake mana meM pracaMDa roSa paidA huA / badalA lene kI adamya icchA paidA huI / gurudeva kI AjJA lekara ve rAjA surapAla ke nagara meM phuNce| rAjA ne haribhadrasUrijI kA svAgata kiyaa| AcAryadeva ne rAjA ko kahA : he rAjezvara, tumane mere ziSya paramahaMsa ko zaraNa dekara usakI rakSA kI, isalie maiM tumheM lAkha-lAkha dhanyavAda aura dharmalAbha detA huuN| tuma zaraNAgata-vatsala ho / tumane kSatriyakula kI zobhA bar3hAyI hai| rAjA surapAla ne paramahaMsa kI adbhuta vAdazakti kI prazaMsA kI, taba AcAryadeva kI A~kheM A~suoM se bhara AyI... unhoMne kahA : vaha merA priya ziSya... bAta karate-karate mauta kA... AcArya ro pdd'e| rAjA surapAla bhI paramahaMsa kI mRtyu kI bAta sunakara stabdha ho gayA aura bolA : bahuta burI bAta huI...' _ 'rAjan, maiM una duSTa bauddha bhikSuoM se vAda-vivAda karU~gA, parAjita karU~gA aura mauta kA badalA mauta se luuNgaa| zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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rAjA ne kahA : 'gurudeva, ve bauddha bhikSu eka-do yA sau-do sau nahIM haiM, ve zata- sahastra haiM / una para vijaya pAnA sarala nahIM hai... hA~, yadi Apake pAsa koI divya ajeya zakti ho !' AcAryadeva ne kahA : 'rAjan, jinazAsana kI adhiSThAyitA devI aMbikA mere para prasanna hai / tuma nizcita raho, maiM akelA una hajAroM ko parAjita kara sakatA '' Aja jo bAta mujhe batAnI hai vaha yahI bAta hai / bhAvanAoM ke binA, vidvAnoM ko, zAstrajJoM ko bhI zAnti nahIM mila sakatI hai / AcArya haribhadrasUri sAmAnya vidvAna nahIM the / jainAgamoM ke hI nahIM, ve SaD darzanoM ke pAragAmI the / paraMtu apane do ziSyoM kI mRtyu se, do ziSyoM ke viraha se, ve kitane vyathita ho gaye ? eka duHkhada ghaTanA ne unako kitane vicalita... roSAyamAna aura vaira kI bhAvanA se uttejita kara diye ? ve azAnta bana gaye, vyathita bana gaye... unake mana meM vaira kI Aga jala utthii| kyoM ? 'bhAvanAoM kA ciMtana nahIM kiyA thA / 'ekatva' aura 'anyatvaM' bhAvanA kA manana nahIM kiyA thaa| saMbaMdhoM kI anityatA' kA ciMtana nahIM kiyA thA / jJAna thA, paraMtu 'bhAvanA' nahIM thI ! adhyayana thA, anuprekSA nahIM thI / isalie bauddha AcArya aura bauddha bhikSuoM ke prati tIvra roSa liye ve vAdavivAda kara, una bhikSuoM ko mauta ke ghATa utArane kI bAta karane lage / unhoMne rAjA surapAla ko kahA: 'rAjan, una duSTa bauddha bhikSuoM ko yahA~ bulAkara kahanA - tumheM jainAcArya haribhadrasUri se vAda-vivAda karanA hai / jo hAregA usako garamAgarama taila ke kuMDa meM giranA hogA .... / ' rAjAne bauddha AcArya ko bulA kara sArI bAta batA dI / vAda-vivAda nizcita ho gayA / vAda kA prAraMbha huaa| dUsarI ora kuMDa meM garamAgarama taila bhara diyA gayA / bAda meM bauddha AcArya hAra gayA / unako taila ke kuMDa meM DAla diyA gayA / bAda meM eka ke bAda eka aise pA~ca bauddha bhikSu hAra gye| sabhI ko taila ke kuMDa meM DAla diye gaye / ve sabhI mRtyu kI goda meM samA gaye / isa viSaya meM alaga-alaga prAcIna graMthoM meM alaga-alaga maMtavya prApta hote haiM / 'prabhAvaka caritra' nAma ke graMtha meM kahA gayA hai ki 'apane do ziSyoM kI mRtyu se roSAyamAna bane hue haribhadrasUri ne mahAmaMtra ke prabhAva se bauddha bhikSuoM kA AkarSaNa kara, AkAzamArga se lA- lAkara garamAgarama taila ke kuMDa meM DAla 21 prastAvanA - -

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diye / 'purAtana prabaMdha saMgraha' nAma ke graMtha meM kahA gayA hai ki bauddha bhikSuoM ke prati pracaMDa krodha paidA hone para, haribhadrasUri ne upAzraya ke pIche hI garamAgarama taila kA bahuta bar3A bhAjana taiyAra karavAyA aura maMtraprabhAva se bauddha bhikSu AkAzamArga se Akara usameM girane lage / 700 bauddha bhikSu isa prakAra mara gaye / 'prabhAvaka caritra ke anusAra 1440 bhikSu mara gaye the / haribhadrasUri upazAnta hote haiM : udhara citrakUTa meM gurudeva jinadattasUrijI ko bauddha bhikSuoM ke vinAza kI aura haribhadrasUrijI ke pracaMDa kaSAya kI bAta mAluma huI / unhoMne haribhadrasUri ko zAnta karane tIna gAthAe~ dekara do sAdhuoM ko haribhadrasUri ke pAsa bheja diye / tIna gAthAe~ isa prakAra thI guNasena aggisammA- sIhANaMdA ya taha piyAputtA / sihi - jAliNImAi - suA, dhaNa - dhaNasirimoya par3a-bhajjA // 1 // jaya vijayA ya sahoara, dharaNo lacchIa taha par3a-bhajjA / seNa-viseNA pittiya- puttA- jammammi sattama // 2 // guNacanda - vANamantara samarAicca-giriseNa pANoa / egassa tao mokkho'Nanto annassa saMsAro // 3 // 'prabhAvaka caritra graMtha meM ye tIna gAthAe~ milatI haiM / 'samarAditya - kevalI' ke nau bhavoM kA mAtra nAmanirdeza ina tIna gAthAoM meM kiyA gayA hai / aMta meM kahA gayA hai ki eka kA mokSa huA, dUsarA ananta saMsAra meM bhaTakegA / haribhadrasUrijI ko isa mahAkathA kA jJAna to thA hI, ve isa kathA ko jAnate the, acchI taraha se jAnate the, paraMtu jaba gurudeva ne isa kathA kA nirdeza kiyA, unhoMne usa mahAkathA para ciMtana kiyA / krodha... vaira... roSa ke vipAkoM kA ciMtana agnizarmA se lagAkara girisena taka ke bhavoM ke mAdhyama se kiyA aura kSamA... zAnti... upazama kA cintana, guNasena se samarAditya taka ke bhavoM ke mAdhyama se kiyA / isa ciMtanayAtrA meM 'anitya - bhAvanA' se lagAkara 'bodhidurlabha' bhAvanA taka bAraha bhAvanAoM kA ciMtana samAviSTa hotA hai| maitrI - pramoda - karuNA aura mAdhyasthya 22 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 -

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bhAvanAoM kA maMthana bhI ho jAtA hai ! haribhadrasUrijI isa ciMtanayAtrA meM cala par3e / unakA krodha upazAnta ho gayA / unakA saMtApa dUra ho gyaa| unakI vaira kI Aga bujha gaI aura ve gurudeva ke pAsa pahu~ca gaye / pazcAttApa kI Aga meM ve vizaddha bane / prAyazcitta grahaNa kara ve svastha bane / upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI, isa zAntasudhArasa graMtha kI racanA kA prayojana batAte hue yaha bAta kahate haiM ki bhAvanAoM se hI zAnti prApta hotI hai / zAstroM se, tapa se, dAna se... aura dUsarI dharmakriyAoM se puNya prApta hogA, paraMtu zAnti nahIM ! mana kI zAnti, citta kA upazama bhAva bhAvanAoM kI ramaNatA se hI prApta hotA hai aura isIlie ve isa graMtha kI racanA karate haiM / bhAvapUrNa gItoM meM ve bhAvanAoM kA ciMtana pravAhita karate haiM / saMsAra : moha-viSAda ke jahara se vyApta : roga hote haiM to auSadhoM kI AvazyakatA hotI hai / saMsAra meM aneka-asaMkhya roga bhare par3e haiM / zArIrika rogoM kI maiM yahA~ bAta nahIM karatA hU~, mAnasika rogoM kI bAta karatA hU~ / AdhyAtmika rogoM kI bAta karatA huuN| una sabhI rogoM kA udbhava mohaM se hotA hai / moha kA artha hai ajJAna / ajJAna yAnI aMdhakAra / yaha vizva, yaha saMsAra mohAndhakAra se vyApta hai / upAdhyAyajI ne to moha ko aMdhakAra nahIM, jahara kahA hai, viSa kahA hai / sArA saMsAra moha-viSa se vyApta hai / saMsAra kI havA moha ke jahara se jaharIlI banI huI hai / paraMtu yaha bAta Apake mana meM, ApakI buddhi meM jaMcatI hai kyA ? Apako lagatA hai ki Apake mana para mohaviSa kA asara hai ? 'mere mana para, citta para moha-jahara kA asara hai yA nahIM, isa bAta kA nirNaya kaise karoge? nirNaya karanA hogA / nirNaya karane ke lie eka bAta kA vicAra karanA hai / 'mere mana meM kisI prakAra kA viSAda hai kyA ? kisI prakAra kA kheda-udvega hai kyA ?. kisI prakAra kA bhaya hai kyA ? yadi hai, to nizcita rUpa se moha-viSa kA asara hai Apake mana pr| na ca sukhaM kRzamapi jisa mana meM moha-viSa kA asara hotA hai usa mana meM aMza mAtra bhI sukha nahIM hotA hai ! Apa kitane bhI upAya kareM...bhautika, dhArmika... paraMtu Apako mAnasika sukha nahIM milegaa| jaba taka moha kA viSa rahegA taba taka sukha nAma kA tattva Apa nahIM pA sakoge / sarva prathama moha-viSa ko dUra karanA hogA / moha-viSAda ko miTAnA hogaa| prastAvanA

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moha-viSa ke prabhAva : moha-viSa ke prabhAva...moha-viSAda se utpanna viSaile prabhAvoM ko jAnate ho ? kucha tIvra vAsanAe~ mana meM utpanna hotI haiM / - dhana-saMpatti kI vAsanA, -- patnI-putrAdi kI vAsanA, - yazaHkIrti kI vAsanA, - zarIra Arogya kI vAsanA... ye vAsanAe~ mana ko sukha-zAnti kA anubhava nahIM karane detI haiN| ina vAsanAoM meM se eka bhI vAsanA mana meM jagatI hai, tIvra-tIvratara banatI hai, taba manuSya ko, jIvAtmA ko azAnta-becaina kara detI hai / hama madhyastha dRSTi se saMsAra ko dekheM, to yaha bAta spaSTa rUpa se samajha meM A jaayegii| ___ - eka bhAI kA zarIra nirogI hai, suzIla patnI hai, samAja meM mAna hai; paraMtu dhana-saMpatti nahIM hai / maiMne usako duHkhI dekhA hai / - eka bhAI dhanavAna hai, zarIra nirogI hai, patnI hai, yaza hai; paraMtu saMtAna nahIM hai, putra nahIM hai, maiMne usako duHkhI pAyA hai / ___- eka bhAI saMpattizAlI hai, patnI hai, putra hai, zarIra acchA hai; paraMtu yaza nahIM hai, kIrti nahIM hai, vaha apane Apako duHkhI samajhatA hai / ___- eka bhAI ke pAsa dhana-saMpatti hai, patnI-putra hai, yaza hai; paraMtu zarIra rogoM se bharA huA hai, ve apane ko duHkhI samajhate haiM ! ye sArI vAsanAe~, moha-viSa meM se utpanna hotI haiM / una vAsanAoM kI pUrti karane ke lie manuSya sadaiva prayatnazIla rahatA hai / ajJAna se ghirA huA vaha manuSya jAnatA nahIM hai ki ye sArI vAsanAe~ puNyakarma ke udaya se hI pUrNa hotI haiM ! ajJAnatA manuSya ko galata rAste para bhaTakA detI hai / vAsanAoM kI pUrti karane meM azAnti : ina vAsanAoM kI, icchAoM kI pUrti karane ke lie saMsAra ke bhrAnta jIva kaise-kaise galata kAma karate haiM, jAnate ho na ? dhana-saMpatti kI vAsanA : dhana-saMpatti prApta karane anIti, anyAya, beImAnI...to karate hI haiM, pApamaya zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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vyApAra karate haiM / zarAba kA dhaMdhA, mAMsa niyati kA dhaMdhA, juAghara (kesino) calAne ke dhaMdhe...hiMsaka sAdhanoM kA utpAdana karane ke dhaMdhe... aise aneka ghRNita dhaMdhe karate haiM / kahie, aise bijanesa karanevAloM ko citta kI zAnti hotI hai kyA ? mana kI prasannatA hotI hai kyA ? ___ - kucha loga dhana-saMpatti pAne ke lie maMtrajApa karate haiM, pUjA-pATha karate haiM, tapa-tyAga karate haiM... | yaha saba karate hue ve loga moha-viSAda se vyAkula hote haiM / maiMne aise logoM ke mu~ha se viSAdabhare zabda sune haiM - 'itane varSoM se bhagavAna kI pUjA karatA hU~...paraMtu sau rupaye kA bhI baiMka-belensa nahIM banA pAyA hU~... itane varSoM se AyaMbila kI olI karatA rahA hU~...phira bhI baMbaI meM abhI 10x10 kA kamarA bhI le nahIM pAyA hai| abhI taka nau lAkha navakAra maMtra kA japa kara liyA hai, paraMtu ghara meM na phona AyA hai, na phrIja AyA hai, na TI.vI. AyA hai...phiyATa kI to bAta hI kahA~ ? aise loga jIvanaparyaMta moha-viSAda ke jahara se vyApta rahate haiN| kabhI bhAgyodaya ho...aura satpuruSa kA samAgama ho jAyaM... aura aisA zAntasudhArasa jaisA graMtha sunane ko mila jAyaM... to saMbhava hai ki moha kA jahara utara jAyaM ! putra-prApti kI vAsanA : eka dhanavAna puruSa isalie azAnta aura udvigna rahatA thA, cUMki usako putra nahIM thaa| lar3akiyA~ thI, paraMtu lar3akA nahIM thA ! bhautika sukha ke sabhI sAdhana hote hue bhI vaha apane Apako duHkhI mAnatA thA / laDakA pAne ke lie usane kitane sAre upAya kiye the ? jitane kaMkara utane zaMkara kiye the / kitane bAbAphakIroM ke AsapAsa bhaTakatA thA ? kitanA maMtra-jApa karatA thA ? vAsanApUrti karane kI tIvratA ne usako pAgala sA banA diyA thaa| ___ maiMne usako pachA thA: tu kyoM laDakA pAne ke lie itanA vyagra aura azAnta hai ? tere gA~va meM...tere ghara ke pAsa meM hI tane durghaTanA nahIM dekhI hai ? usa mahAnubhAva ko eka hI lar3akA thA na ? lAr3a-pyAra meM bar3A huA thA na ? garbha zrImaMta thA na ? jyoM jyoM lar3akA bar3A hotA gayA...tyoM tyoM avinIta aura udaMDa banatA gayA / mAtA-pitA kA apamAna karane lgaa| par3hAI pUrNa nahIM kI...vyasanoM kA zikAra huA...paisoM kI corI karane lagA...pitA kI mRtyu ho gaI...mAtA ke jevara beca diye... zAdI kI...ghara se bhAga gayA...pitA kA ghara beca diyA...rAste para bhaTakatA ho gayA... | lar3ake se mAtA-pitA ne kauna-sA sukha pAyA ? hA~, lar3akiyoM / prastAvanA ACHARYA STARTERTAIEVINTAMANDIR 2 5 /

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ne mAtA vaha kucha bolA nahIM / merI bAta, kyA patA usake mana meM ja~cI hogI yA nahIM / vAsanAvivaza manuSya hitakArI jJAnI puruSoM kI bAta prAyaH mAna nahIM sakatA hai / vaha duHkhI aura azAnta hI banA rahatA hai / moha - viSAda kA viSa usake mana meM phailatA jAtA hai / eka dina usake bhAvaprANa naSTa ho jAte haiM... aura vaha durgati meM calA jAtA hai / yazaHkIrti kI vAsanA : tA-pitA ko prema diyA, duHkha meM sahAyatA kI.... i moha - viSAda ke viSa kA eka dAruNa vikAra hotA hai, yazaHkIrti kA, mAnasammAna kA / dhana-saMpatti hone para bhI mAna-sammAna nahIM milatA hai to manuSya azAnta rahatA hai, becaina rahatA hai / mAna-sammAna aura yazaHkIrti pAne ke upAya vaha khojatA rahatA hai ! vaha pAne ke lie jo kucha bhI acchA-burA karanA par3e, vaha karane ke lie tatpara ho jAtA hai| daMbha aura kapaTa karatA hai / hiMsA aura corI bhI karatA hai / vaise dAna bhI detA hai aura paropakAra bhI karatA hai / yaha saba karane para yadi loga usakI prazaMsA karate haiM to vaha khuza hotA hai, thor3A abhimAnI banatA hai, dUsaroM kA kabhI-kabhI tiraskAra bhI karatA hai / aura yadi saba kucha karane para bhI loga usakI prazaMsA nahIM karate haiM to vaha nArAja ho jAtA hai / usakI niMdA karanevAloM ke prati roSAyamAna hotA hai / unakI kaTu AlocanA karatA hai / yaha saba karane meM usakA mana ati vyAkula rahatA hai / na mana kA sukha hotA hai, na mana kI prasannatA rahatI hai / yazaH kIrti kI tIvra icchAvAle loga 'sattA' kA siMhAsana prApta karanA cAhate I haiM | vidhAnasabhA meM yA lokasabhA meM jAnA cAhate haiM / isalie cunAva lar3ate haiN| cunAva meM lar3ate hue kaI galata upAya karate haiM / jItane ke lie ve kyAkyA nahIM karate ? Apa loga acchI taraha jAnate ho / na ve zAnti pAte haiM, na parivAra ko zAnti de pAte haiM / ghora azAnti ke viSacakra meM ve pha~sa jAte haiM / zArIrika Arogya kI vAsanA : moha - viSAda kA viSa manuSya ko sahI vicAra nahIM karane detA hai / vaha nahIM samajhane detA hai ki dhana-saMpatti kI prApti lAbhAntarAya karma ke kSayopazama se hotI hai ! patnI... putra... Adi kI prApti bhI aMtarAya karma ke kSayopazama se hotI zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 26

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hai| yaza kIrti kI prApti yazaHkIrti nAma-karma ke udaya se hotI hai aura apayazabadanAmI hotI hai apayaza nAma-karma ke udaya se ! zArIrika Arogya kI prApti zAtA-vedanIya karma ke udaya se hotI hai aura sabhI rogoM kA mUla azAtA-vedanIya karma kA udaya hotA hai ! moha-viSa se bhrAnta banA huA manuSya, ye tAttvika vicAra nahIM kara pAtA hai / vaha atAttvika-ayathArtha vicAra hI karatA rahatA hai / jaba zarIra rogagrasta banatA hai, aneka auSadhopacAra karane para bhI zarIra nirogI nahIM banatA hai, taba usakI vyAkulatA bar3ha jAtI hai / usako mRtyu kA bhaya satAne lagatA hai / rogoM se bacane ke lie kaisA bhI anucita aura hiMsA-pracura upAya karatA hai / pApa-puNya kA vicAra bhI nahIM AtA hai / rogagrasta sthiti meM yadi svajana-parijana usakI sevA nahIM karate haiM, usakI dekhabhAla acchI taraha nahIM karate haiM... to vaha roSa se, rIsa se aura krodha se bhara jAtA hai / vaha kaTu vacana bolatA hai, vaha tIvra Akroza karatA hai aura tIvra azAMti kA bhoga bana jAtA hai / moha-viSAda ke jahara kA yaha duSprabhAva hotA hai / saMsAra meM moha-viSAda kA jahara vyApta hai, usa saMsAra meM sukha ho hI nahIM sakatA hai, zAnti mila hI nahIM sakatI hai / sukha-zAnti kA eka hI upAya - bhAvanAe~ : __ sabhA meM se : hama loga saMsAra meM hI hai, saMsAra moha-viSa se vyApta hai, to phira hama sukha-zAnti kaise pA sakate haiM ? mahArAjazrI : bhAvanAoM se ! isa zAntasudhArasa graMtha ke zravaNa-manana se / Apa loga sukha aura zAnti pA sako isalie to isa graMtha para mujhe pravacana dene haiM / isa mahAkAvya ko gAnA hai / mAnasika sukha-zAnti pAne kA eka aura advitIya upAya hai bhAvanAoM se AtmA ko bhAvita karane kA ! kitanA bhI puNyakarma kA udaya hogA, kitane bhI bhautika sukha ke sAdhana hoMge, paraMtu bhAvanAoM kA mana meM ciMtana nahIM hogA, to zAnti nahIM milegI ! eka bar3e sAdhupuruSa haiM, bar3e tapasvI haiM... paraMtu mana meM zAnti nahIM ! hajAroM loga unakI tapazcaryA kI prazaMsA karate haiM, guNagAna gAte haiM... paraMtu ve svayaM meM azAnta haiM / jIvana kI kucha viSamatAe~ unako azAnta banAye rakhatI haiM ! cU~ki tapa ve karate haiM, paraMtu bhAvanAoM se AtmA ko bhAvita nahIM karate ! - - - - - prastAvanA 27 /

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eka mahAtmA ko maiM jAnatA thA, unakI mRtyu ho gaI hai, paraMtu unake jIvanakAla meM aneka utAra-car3hAva Aye the / unakA eka ananya bhakta thA / 25 - 30 varSoM se unakI sevA-bhakti karatA thA, usake guNagAna gAtA thA / paraMtu eka dina aisA AyA... bhakta kI koI bAta usa mahAtmA ne nahIM mAnI... aura vaha bhakta zatru bana gayA / jisa mahAtmA ke vaha guNa gAtA thA, aba vaha niMdA karane lagA / caritra hanana karane lagA / paraMtu ve mahAtmA nirAkula rahe ! unakA mana azAnta nahIM banA / eka ziSya ne pUchA : 'gurudeva, vaha ApakA bhakta aba zatru banakara ghora niMdA kara rahA hai, Apa usakI galata bAtoM kA khaMDana kyoM nahIM karate ?' usa mahAtmA ne ha~sa diyA aura kahA jaise prazaMsA zAzvat nahIM hotI vaise niMdA bhI zAzvat nahIM hogI ! niMdA-prazaMsA donoM karmajanya bhAva haiN| usameM harSa - zoka nahIM karane cAhie / ajJAnI jIva jo bhUla karatA hai, jJAnI ko vaisI bhUla nahIM karanI cAhie !' moha kA jahara, bhAvanAoM se utara jAtA hai / isalie bhAvanAoM se bhAvita karanA hai apane mana ko, apanI AtmA ko / pratidina bhAvanAoM kA ciMtana karate rahanA hai / jaba-jaba saMsAra meM koI mohajanya viSamatA paidA ho, taba-taba Apa anurUpa bhAvanA kA ciMtana kara, mana ko svastha rakha sakate ho / eka zreSThI ke viSaya meM gurujanoM se sunA thA ki ve pratidina jinavANI sunane upAzraya meM niyamita 9 baje A jAte / 9 baje pravacana zuru hotA / do mahIne ke bAda eka dina ve zreSThI AdhA ghaMTA derI se Aye aura pIche baiTha gaye / pravacanakAra AcAryazrI ne unako dekha liye / pravacana pUrNa hone para, jaba ve zreSThI caraNasparza karane gurudeva ke pAsa Aye, taba gurudeva ne pUchA : 'Aja kyoM derI huI ? zreSThI ne kahA : 'gurudeva, eka mehamAna ko bidA dene gayA thA, isalie derI ho gaI / ' bar3I gaMbhIratA se unhoMne yaha bAta kahI / gurudeva soca meM par3a gaye, ki pAsa khar3e hue eka bhAI ne gadgad svara meM kahA : 'gurudeva, inakA ikalautA bar3A beTA... jo ki dukAna kA sArA vyavahAra saMbhAlatA thA, rAtri meM usakI mRtyu ho gaI... subaha meM usakI smazAnayAtrA thI....:. gurudeva kI A~kheM bhara AyI, paraMtu ve zreSThI svastha rahe / unhoMne putra ko bhI ghara meM mehamAna mAnA thA ! saMyoga-viyoga kA ciMtana kiyA thA / 'svajana - parijanoM se maiM bhinna hU~, isa anyatva - bhAvanA se ve bhAvita bane the / isalie ve putra kI mRtyu se zokamagna nahIM bane, asvastha nahIM bane / ArtadhyAna nahIM kiyA / 28 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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bhAvanAoM kA yaha aciMtya prabhAva hai / moha-viSAda kA jahara utara jAtA hai / mohajanya vAsanAe~ dUra ho jAtI haiM / vAsanApUrti kI icchAe~ zAnta ho jAtI haiM / yadi Apa loga yaha cAhate ho to zAntasudhArasa' graMtha ko avazya suneM / niyamita rUpa se suneM / sunane ke bAda, rAtri ke samaya ciMtana kareM / manana kareM / dUsare svajana, mitroM ke sAtha bhAvanAoM ke viSaya meM vArtAlApa kreN| yaha saba karane se dhIre-dhIre ApakA mana moha se mukta banatA jAyegA / Apa zAnti pAoge, sukha kA anubhava karoge / Aja basa, itanA hI / prastAvanA 29 |

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 3 : saMkalanA : * upadeza : buddhimAnoM ko / * do mahattvapUrNa prazna / * bhavabhramaNa ko samajhate ho ? * ananta sukha ko samajhe ho ? * ananta sukha pAne kI tatparatA / * upasaMhAra / PORDERnalAla

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yadi bhava-bhramakhedaparAGgamukhaM, yadi ca cittamanantasukhonmukham / zruNuta tatsudhiyaH zubha-bhAvanAmRtarasaM, mama zAntasudhArasam // 3 // he buddhimAn sajjanoM, yadi tumhArA citta bhavabhramaNa kI thakAna se udvigna huA ho aura ananta sukhamaya mokSa prApta karane tatpara banA ho, to zubha bhAvanA ke amRtarasa se bharapUra bharA huA merA yaha zAntasudhArasa' kAvya ekAgra mana se sunate raho / ' yaha upadeza pavitra buddhimAnoM ko : __upAdhyAyajI unako apanA yaha zAntasudhArasa' graMtha sunane ke lie kaha rahe haiM ki jo sudhiyaH haiM / buddhimAnoM ko sunane ko kaha rahe haiM, suMdara-pavitra buddhivAloM ko sunane kA AmaMtraNa de rahe haiM / bar3I mahattvapUrNa bAta kahI hai unhoMne / unako mUrkha zrotA nahIM cAhie, unako alpajJa zrotA bhI nahIM cAhie, unako mAtra buddhimAna zrotA nahIM cAhie, unako cAhie 'sudhiyaH' zrotA ! pavitra-nirmala buddhivAle zrotA ! dharmopadeza, kisI na kisI eka apekSA se diyA jAtA hai / jisa apekSA se upadeza diyA jAtA ho, usa apekSA ko samajhanevAlA zrotA cAhie / mUrkha zrotA, sAmAnya buddhivAlA zrotA, vaktA kI usa apekSA ko nahIM samajha sakatA hai / malina buddhivAlA zrotA bhI vaktA ke abhiprAya ko nahIM samajha pAtA hai, isalie vaha artha kA anartha kara detA hai / isalie vaktA ko cAhie ki vaha zrotAoM ko pahacAneM / zrotAoM kI bauddhika yogyatA ko pahacAneM / unakI dhArmika-sAmpradAyika mAnyatAoM ko pahacAneM / zrotAoM kI bauddhika yogyatA samajhakara upadeza dene kA hotA hai / upadeza kA viSaya, upadeza kI bhASA...bhI zrotAoM kI yogyatA ke anusAra honI caahie| __ eka zahara meM hama loga gaye / upAzraya ke eka TrasTI ne kahA : yahA~ thor3e dina pahale eka bar3e jJAnI munirAja Aye the, paMDita the / unakA pravacana bahuta acchA thA / hama loga to samajha bhI nahIM pAye / unhoMne sApekSavAda, naya, nikSepa...vagairaha kI bAteM kI...paraMtu hama kucha nahIM samajha pAye / the bar3e vidvAn...paMDita !' hai na buddhimAna loga ! jo vidvAn, zrotAoM nahIM samajha sake vaisA upadeza deM...ve paMDita ! Apake palle kucha na par3e, vaisA bole, ve paMDita ! upAdhyAyajI vaise zrotA cAhate haiM ki jo nirmala-pavitra buddhivAle ho ! jaina paribhASA ko jAnanevAle ho / jaina paribhASA kA jJAna zrotAoM ko honA Avazyaka hai| jaise pahale hI zloka meM paMcAzrava zabda aayaa| pA~ca Azrava / yadi Azraya prastAvanA

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zabda kI paribhASA kA jJAna nahIM hogA to kyA samajheMge ? aura, pravacana ke daurAna pAribhASika zabdoM ke artha samajhAte raheMge to pravacana nIrasa bana jaayegaa| isalie zrotA aise cAhie ki jinako jaina pAribhASika zabdoM kA jJAna ho / inhIM ko sudhiyaH kahe haiM / mAna lo ki pravacana ke daurAna paribhASA ko samajhAyeM bhI, paraMtu jo buddhimAna hoMge, ve hI samajha pAyeMge / paribhASA ko samajhanA bhI sarala nahIM hotA / maMdabuddhi loga, alpabuddhi loga nahIM samajha sakate / bhale hI ve umra meM bar3e ho / umra meM choTe hoM, paraMtu jo buddhimAna lar3ake hote haiM, ve pAribhASika zabdoM ko acchI taraha samajha lete haiM / isalie viziSTa tattvajJAna kA upadeza buddhimAnoM ko denA cAhie / sAmAnya dharmopadeza sabhI ko diyA jA sakatA hai / jisameM artha kA anartha hone kI saMbhAvanA nahIM hotI hai / do mahattvapUrNa prazna : buddhimAnoM ko bhI upAdhyAyajI do prazna pUchate haiM / bar3e mahattvapUrNa haiM ye do prazna ! 'zAntasudhArasa sunanA hai to mere do praznoM kA uttara do ! __ pahalA prazna pUchate haiM : 'tumhArA citta, bhavabhramaNa kI thakAna se udvigna ho gayA hai kyA ? aba mujhe saMsAra meM janma-mRtyu nahIM pAnA hai, ananta paribhramaNa se maiM thaka gayA hU~... aba nahIM bhaTakanA hai saMsAra kI cAra gatiyoM meM, aisA nirNaya kiyA hai kyA ? __dUsarA prazna pUchate haiM : ananta sukhamaya mokSa pAne ke lie tumhArA mana tatpara banA hai kyA ?' 'aba to mokSa hI pAnA haiM - aisA manomana nirNaya kara liyA hai kyA ? upAdhyAyajI kA yaha kaisA niHspRha bhAva hai ? 'maiMne kitanA acchA saMskRta mahAkAvya banAyA hai, maiM logoM ko sunAU~...loga merI bharapUra prazaMsA kareMge...mahAkAvya kA ucca mUlyAMkana kareMge...' vagairaha spRhA unake mana meM thI hI nahIM / apanI kIrti kA, apanI prazaMsA kA koI dhyeya nahIM thA / ve to spaSTa kahate the -- tuma bhavabhramaNa se thaka gaye ho ? tumheM ananta sukhamaya mokSa pAne kI tatparatA hai ? to hI Aiye aura zAntasudhArasa suniye / _ kevala TAima pAsa karane ke lie sananA nahIM hai, karNapriya lagatA hai, isalie nahIM sunanA hai / mahArAja sAba bahuta acchA gAte haiM, sunane meM majA AtA hai...' isa prakAra zravaNendriya kI tRpti ke lie nahIM sunanA hai / isalie sunanA hai ki zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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bhavasaMsAra se citta kI virakti bar3hAnA hai aura ananta sukhamaya mokSa kI ora citta kI anurakti bar3hAnA hai / saMsAra - virakti aura mokSa-anurakti kI dRSTi se zAntasudhArasa' kA zravaNa karanA hai| zubha bhAvanAoM kA amRtarasa-pAna karanA hai / isa graMtha - zravaNa kA kauna adhikArI hai, yaha samajha gaye na ? 'bhavabhramaNa' ko samajhate ho ? Apako 'zAntasudhArasa' sunanA hai na ? yogyatA prApta kara sunanA hai na ? sabhA meM se : graMthakAra jisa yogyatA kI apekSA rakhate haiM, vaha yogyatA to hama meM nahIM hai... mahArAja zrI : abhI yogyatA bhale hI na ho, paraMtu yogyatA pAnA to hai na ? yogyatA pAne kA prayatna kareMge to yogyatA prApta kara sakoge / isalie sarvaprathama 'bhavabhramaNa' ko samajhanA hogA / apanI AtmA kaba se aura kahA~-kahA~ bhaTakI hai yaha bAta samajhoge to tumhArA mana saMsAra - paribhramaNa se napharata karane lagegA | saMsAravAsa se virakta banegA / dUsarI bAta yaha socane kI hai ki 'hamArI AtmA saMsAra kI cAra gatiyoM meM kyoM bhaTaka rahI hai ?' hama bhaTaka rahe haiM, paraMtu socate nahIM ki kyoM bhaTaka rahe haiM ? kyA pAne ke lie bhaTaka rahe haiM ? eka puruSa thakA huA nirAza hokara baiThA thA / usako pUchA gayA: 'bhAI, tuma kyo nirAza hokara baiThe ho ?' vaha kahatA hai : 'merA putra kho gayA hai, usako kitane dinoM seM khoja rahA hU~... bhaTaka rahA hU~... gA~va-gA~va aura vana-vana khojA... bhaTakA... paraMtu lar3akA nahIM milA...aba nirAza ho gayA hU~... thaka gayA hU~...aba AzA chor3a dI hai...|' : dUsarA eka puruSa nirAzA ke sAgara meM DUbA huA, zUnyamanaska hokara baiThA thA / usako pUchA gayA bhAI, tuma kyoM nirAza hokara baiThe ho ?' vaha kahatA hai : 'isa zahara meM bIsa sAla se AyA hU~... bahuta parizrama kiyA karatA hU~... paraMtu paise nahIM milate | thor3e rupaye milate haiM to Tikate nahIM... daridra kA daridra hI rahA hU~ / jitane bAjAra haiM, sabhI bAjAroM meM dhaMdhA kiyA... mehanata kI... majadUrI kI ... paraMtu kucha nahIM milA... kyA karU~ ? thaka gayA hU~...! aba to mauta kI rAha dekhatA hU~...' vaise "hamArI AtmA parama sukha pAne ke lie ananta kAla se, anAdikAla se saMsAra kI gatiyoM meM bhaTaka rahI hai, paraMtu parama sukha nahIM milA hai / zAzvata sukha nahIM milA hai / sukha milatA hai paraMtu TikatA nahIM, calA jAtA hai / jaisA 1 prastAvanA 33

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cAhie vaisA sukha nahIM milatA, sukhAbhAsa milatA hai... pariNAma svarUpa duHkha hI milatA hai / vAstavika sukha khojate khojate thaka gaye... nirAza ho gye...| aba isa saMsAra meM sukha pAne ke lie nahIM bhaTakanA hai...| saMsAra meM parama sukha, zAzvat sukha mila hI nahIM sakatA / kSaNika sukhoM ke pIche aba bhaTakanA nahIM hai / " aisA kucha mana meM hotA hai kyA ? anAdi bhUtakAla meM jJAnadRSTi se kabhI gaye ho ? nahIM gaye ho na ? calo, Aja le jAtA hU~ apane ananta bhUtakAla meN...| hama anantakAla 'avyavahAra rAzi kI nigoda meM rahe / vahA~ hama ekendriya the / mAtra sparzanendriya thI / cetana hote hue bhI acetana jaise... mUcchita avasthA meM the| jaise jaise saMsAra meM se jIva mokSa meM jAte rahe, hama avyavahAra rAzi kI nigoda meM se nikala kara 'vyavahAra rAzi kI nigoda meM Ate rhe| aisA zAzvat niyama hai ki eka jIva mokSa meM jAtA hai taba eka jIva avyavahAra rAzi meM se vyavahAra rAzi meM AtA hai / anantakAla yaha silasilA calatA rahatA hai / - I nigoda - avasthA meM jIvoM ko ati duHkha hotA hai / sukha kA sparza lavaleza nahIM hotA hai / 'vyavahAra rAzi kI nigoda meM bhI duHkha hI duHkha hotA hai / hamArA saMsAra - paribhramaNa nigoda se zurU hotA hai / sarvaprathama hama ekendriya the / mUcchita the / duHkhI the / bAda meM 'beindriya' jIva bane the / hamArI sparzanendriya aura rasanendriya ye do indriyA~ thI / mana to hotA hI nahIM / binA mana jIva kI sthiti kI kalpanA karanA / phira bhI beindriya jIvoM ko sukha-duHkha kI saMjJA hotI hai / hama aneka bAra bendriya jIva bane / janma-mRtyu kiye, bAda meM teindriya jIva bane / sparza, rasa ke bAda hameM ghrANendriya milI / tIna indriyA~ milI / teindriya jIva yoni meM bhI hamane aneka janma-mRtyu kiye / duHkha sahate rahe aura caurindriya jIvoM kI yonI meM hamArA janma huaa| sparza, rasa, ghrANa ke bAda hameM cauthI cakSurindriya milI; paraMtu mana nahIM milA / caurindriya ke janmoM meM bhI dukha hI duHkha pAyA / aneka janma-mRtyu karane ke bAda paMcendriya- yoni meM hamArA janma huA / sparza, rasa, gaMdha, cakSu ke bAda hameM zravaNendriya milI / kAna mile / paraMtu mana nahIM milA / pazu-pakSI kI yoni milI / vahA~ para bhI hama duHkha hI duHkha bhogate rahe / bAda meM hameM pA~ca indriyoM ke sAtha mana bhI milA / paraMtu avikasita mana, nirbala mana / yahA~ taka, yAnI ekendriya se paMcendriya taka lAkhoM yoniyoM meM janma 34 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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maraNa karate rahe, duHkha sahate rahe / ___ yaha apanI hI ananta janmoM kI kahAnI hai / kaise-kaise janma hamane pAye...kaisekaise ghora duHkha pAye ? jJAnadRSTi se socanA hai / mana milane ke bAda duHkha bar3hane lage / sukha ke AbhAsa milane lage / - tiryaMca-paMcendriya kI cAra lAkha yoni meM janma-maraNa kiye, - manuSya kI caudaha lAkha yoni meM bhI janma-maraNa kiye, - naraka kI cAra lAkha yoni meM janma-maraNa kiye, aura - devoM kI bhI cAra lAkha yoni meM janma-maraNa kiye| hA~, devaloka meM bhI hamAre jIva ne devatva pAyA thA aura vahA~ ke zreSTha bhautika sukha pAye the, paraMtu ve sukha bhI zAzvat nahIM the, vahA~ kA janma samApta hone para vahA~ ke sukha bhI samApta ho gaye / sukha milane ke bAda cale jAte haiM, taba jIva bahuta jyAdA duHkhI hotA hai / vaise ekendriya avasthA kI kitanI yoniyoM meM hamAre jIva ne kitane janmamaraNa kiye haiM, jAnate ho kyA ? - pRthvIkAya kI sAta lAkha yoni hai, - apkAya kI sAta lAkha yoni hai, - teukAya kI sAta lAkha yoni hai, - vAyukAya kI sAta lAkha yoni hai, - pratyeka vanaspatikAya kI 10 lAkha yoni hai, aura - sAdhAraNa vanaspatikAya kI 14 lAkha yoni hai / ina sabhI yoniyoM meM hamArI AtmA ne aneka bAra janma-maraNa kiye haiN| jarA zAnti se socanA / svastha dimAga se socanA / aisI samagra jIvanasRSTi meM hama bhaTake haiM, ghora duHkha pAye haiM...aura Aja bhI hama bhaTaka rahe haiM / abhI taka aisA sukha nahIM milA ki jo sukha zAzvat ho, avinAzI ho| vaise ekendriya se asaMjJI paMcendriya jIvoM ko sukha milatA hI nahIM, sukhAbhAsa thor3A sA mila jAyeM to ThIka hai / saMjJI paMcendriya jIvoM ko naraka meM sukha kA aMza bhI nahIM milatA / tiryaMca paMcendriya jIvoM ko kucha gAya, bhaiMsa, hAthI-ghor3A Adi kucha pazuoM ko chor3akara anya pazuoM ko prAyaH sukha nahIM milatA hai / pazu-pakSiyoM ko vizeSakara bhayaM jyAdA rahatA hai / aura jahA~ bhaya hotA hai vahA~ sukhAnubhava nahIM ho sakatA hai / pakSiyoM ko bhI bhaya satAtA rahatA hai / pAlatU pazu / prastAvanA 35 /

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pakSiyoM ko parataMtratA kA duHkha hotA hai / parAdhInatA bar3A duHkha hotA hai na ? manuSyoM ko bhI sukha kitanA milatA hai ? jyAdAtara manuSya duHkhI hI hote haiN| thor3e manuSya bhautika dRSTi se sukhI hote haiM, paraMtu mAnasika dRSTi se duHkhI hote haiM / bhautika sukha kSaNika aura vinAzI hote haiM / ve sukha bhI sabhI prakAra ke nahIM milate haiM / manapasaMda nahIM milate haiM / kucha adhure sukha milate haiM / prApta sukha ke sAdhana kabhI bhI cale jA sakate haiM / I prazna : isa manuSya-jIvana pUrNa hone para punaH kyA hama tiryaMca yoni meM ... vibhinna yoniyoM meM paidA ho sakate haiM ? uttara : hA~, isa jIvana meM jyAdA hiMsAdi pApa karane para hama naraka meM, tiryaMca gati meM, nimnatara manuSya gati meM utpanna ho sakate haiM / 'nigoda' meM bhI jA sakate haiM, yAnI sAdhAraNa vanaspatikAya meM utpanna ho sakate haiM / aba mujhe Apase pUchanA hai : isa prakAra saMsAra meM anantakAla se janma-maraNa karate hue thake ho kyA ? aba isa prakAra nahIM bhaTakanA hai, aisA AtmasAkSI se nirNaya kara liyA hai ? saMsAra ke prati nirveda paidA huA hai kyA ? upAdhyAyajI yaha nirveda cAhate haiM Apase / yadi Apake mana meM nirveda hogA, to 'zAntasudhArasa' sunane meM Apa tallIna bana jAoge / ApakI AtmA saMtRpti prApta karegI / isa mahAkAvya kA eka-eka zabda AtmA ko sparza karegA / aba Apa samajha gaye hoMge ki graMthakAra ne pahalA prazna kyoM pUchA hai ? 'ananta sukha ko samajhe ho ? upAdhyAyajI ne dUsarA prazna pUchA hai : 'ApakA citta ananta sukha pAne ko tatpara banA hai ?' I ananta sukha ! binA anta kA sukha / aisA sukha ki jo eka bAra milane ke bAda calA nahIM jAye / naSTa na ho / kabhI vaha sukha kama na ho, jyAdA na ho / paripUrNa sukha ho / vaha sukha milane ke bAda kabhI koI anya sukha kI apekSA hI nahIM rahe / ananta sukha kaho yA pUrNa sukha kaho ! vaisA sukha mila jAne para prApta karane ko kucha bhI zeSa nahIM rahatA hai / 1 ananta sukha ke sAtha ananta Ananda jur3A huA hotA hai / pUrNAnanda... pUrNa sukha... ... pAne kI Apake citta meM icchA paidA honI cAhie / tatparatA utpanna honI cAhie | 'mujhe pUrNAnandI honA hai, mujhe pUrNa sukha hI cAhie, apUrNa sukha nahIM cAhie,' aisA ApakA dRr3ha nirNaya honA cAhie / 36 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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jJAnadRSTi khulane para hI yaha bAta bana sakatI hai / jaba taka jJAnadRSTi nahIM khulatI hai taba taka saMsAra ke kSaNika aura vinAzI sukhoM kI tRSNA jagatI rahegI / ve sukha pAne kI dInatA banI rahegI / kSaNika-vinAzI vaiSayika sukhoM kI tRSNA kRSNasarpa jaisI hai / kRSNasarpa kATatA hai to kaisI vedanA hotI hai ? vaiSayika sukhoM kI tRSNA vaisI hI vedanA detI hai / isalie saMsAra ke vaiSayika sukhoM kI tuSNA ko samApta karanI hogii| yaha kArya jJAnadRSTi se hI ho sakatA hai / jJAnadRSTi vaiSayika sukhoM ke bhItara duHkha kA darzana karavAtI hai / jaise vaijJAnika dRSTi, pAnI meM oNksIjana aura hAiDrojana kA darzana karavAtI hai / vaise hI vaiSayika sukhoM meM duHkhadarzana hogA, una sukhoM kI tRSNA naSTa ho jAyegI / vaise sukha nahIM milane para dInatA nahIM rhegii| jJAnadRSTi Apako ananta sukha pUrNa sukha, pUrNAnanda pAne ke lie prerita kregii| isalie vaiSayika sukhoM kA tyAga karane ke lie tatpara kregii| ___ bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ke samaya meM aneka rAjAoM ko, aneka zreSThiyoM ko...aneka amAtyoM ko jJAnadRSTi jAgrata huI thI aura unhoMne apane vipula vaiSayika sukha-sAdhanoM kA tyAga kara diyA thaa| bhagavAna mahAvIra ke nirvANa ke bAda bhI, unake dharmazAsana meM yaha silasilA calatA rahA hai / jJAnadRSTi khulane para hajAroM...lAkhoM strI-puruSoM ne sabhI vaiSayika sukhoM kA tyAga kara diyA hai| - rAjA dazArNabhadra, rAjA udayana vagairaha rAjAoM ne jJAnadRSTi khulane para rAjavaibhava kA pUrNatayA tyAga kara sAdhujIvana kA svIkAra kara liyA thA na ? - zreSThI zAlibhada, zreSThI dhanakumAra, zreSThI avaMtI sukumAla vagairaha ne karor3oM rupayoM kI saMpatti kA tyAga kara aura rUpa-saundaryavatI paliyoM kA tyAga kara sAdhujIvana svIkAra kara liyA thA na ? 2500 varSoM kA itihAsa par3hoge to par3hatepar3hate ApakI jJAnadRSTi khula jAyegI / __ - kaI rAjArAniyoM ne, kaI rAjakumAriyoM ne, kaI zreSThIpatniyoM ne aura kaI zreSThIkanyAoM ne vipula sukha-vaibhava kA tyAga isalie kara diyA thA, cUMki vaha saMpatti-vaibhava zAzvat nahIM thA, kSaNika thaa| zAzvat ko pAne ke lie kSaNika kA tyAga karanA anivArya hotA hai| aisA bhI kaha sakate haiM ki zAzvat sukha, anaMta sukha pAne kI tatparatA jAgrata hone para kSaNika chaTa jAtA hai, vinAzI kA visarjana ho jAtA hai / apUrNaH pUrNatAmeti / apUrNa ho jAnA yAnI khAlI ho jAnA / kSaNika-vinAzI sukha chUTa jAne para AtmA khAlI ho jAtI hai / para prastAvanA 883333333333 BE 37

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spRhA, para-tRSNA chUTa jAne para AtmA khAlI ho jAtI hai / khAlI AtmA anaMta sukha se bhara sakatI hai / khAlI-apUrNa AtmA pUrNa sukha se bhara sakatI hai / ananta sakha pAne kI tatparatA : jina logoM ke pAsa AdhyAtmika jJAna nahIM hotA hai, jo loga AtmajJAna pAye nahIM hai, jinako AtmA ke svAbhAvika aura vaibhAvika svarUpa kA jJAna nahIM hai, ve loga yadi mokSa pAne kI hI bAta karate haiM to vaha raTI huI bAta hotI hai / tote ko jaise rAma-nAma raTAyA jAtA hai aura vaha rAma...rAma bolatA hai, vaisI bAta hotI hai mokSa kI / mokSa ke svarUpa kA jJAna nahIM aura mokSa pAne kI bAta karanA! kitanI buddhihIna bAta hai ! AtmA ke zuddha svarUpa kA jJAna nahIM hai, vaibhAvika svarUpa meM ramaNatA hai aura mokSa kI bAta karatA hai / usako zarma bhI nahIM AtI / ananta sukha ko samajhe binA, vaha pAne kI tatparatA mana meM uThatI hI nahIM hai / AtmA kA svayaM kA jo sukha hai vaha anaMta sukha hI hai, pUrNAnanda hI hai / karmajanya sukha AtmA kA svayaM kA nahIM hai / bhale hI devarAja indra kA sukha ho, yA cakravartI rAjA kA sukha ho / ___ cakravartI rAjAoM ne kyoM apane sAre sukha chor3akara sAdhutA kA svIkAra kara liyA thA ? bharata cakravartI, sanatkumAra cakravartI, zAntinAtha cakravartI...vagairaha cakravartI rAjAoM ne 'ye sukha hamAre nijI svAbhAvika sukha nahIM haiM...ye sAre sukha karmajanya haiM, vaibhAvika haiM... yaha samajhe hue the, aura 'ananta zAzvat sukha hI AtmA kA svAbhAvika sukha hotA hai / vaha eka bAra pA lene para...punaH pAnA nahIM par3atA hai, cUMki vaha calA jAtA nahIM hai / nijI sukha eka bAra hI pAnA par3atA hai / pA kara bhogate raho / azarIrI-arUpI bana kara bhogate raho ! kitanA bhI vaha sukha bhogoM, sukha kama nahIM hogA aura AtmA kabhI thakegI nahIM / cU~ki anaMta sukha ke sAtha ananta zakti bhI AtmA ko prApta ho jAtI hai / ananta jJAna aura ananta darzana pragaTa ho jAte haiM / saba kucha ananta...zAzvat...avinAzI prApta hotA hai / vaha anantaM pAne kI icchA Apake mana meM jAgrata huI hai kyA ? yaha icchA jAgrata hone para yaha zAntasudhArasa graMtha sunane meM Apa Ananda kA anubhava karoge / AMtara sukha kA anubhava karoge / graMthakAra upAdhyAyajI mahArAja zrotAoM se yaha apekSA rakhate haiM / 'zAntasudhArasa sunane kI yogyatA kA nirNaya unhoMne isa prakAra kiyA hai - ApakA citta 'bhavabhramakhedaparAGgamukhaM aura anantasukhonmukham' honA cAhie / tabhI Apa zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAntasudhArasa' graMtha suna sakate ho| prazna : graMtha sunane meM bhI yogyatA cAhie kyA ? uttara : hA~, yogyatA cAhie / Atmavizuddhi kA zreSTha lakSya lekara isa graMtha kI racanA kI gaI hai / mAtra janaraMjana ke lie racanA nahIM kI gaI hai / eka sAdhupuruSa kI, eka maharSi kI yaha racanA hai / unako zrotAoM se dhana kI apekSA nahIM hai, prazaMsA kI apekSA nahIM hai / unako ina do bAtoM kI apekSA hai / mana ko bhavabhramaNa se parAGgamukha karo, ananta sukha ke sanmukha karo / upasaMhAra : upAdhyAyajI isa tIsare zloka meM tIna bAteM batAte haiM / sarvaprathama ve zrotAoM ko 'sudhiyaH' kahate haiM / yAnI ve zrotAoM ko acchI buddhivAle cAhate haiM / acchI yAnI nirmala buddhivAle / jo vaktA ke abhigama ko acchI taraha samajha sake / dUsarI bAta yaha hotI hai ki kavi ko, mahAkavi ko kAvyajJa aura kAvyapriya zrotA priya hote haiM / zAntasudhArasa mahAkAvya hai / zAstrIya rAgoM meM isakI racanA huI hai, to kAvyapATha karanevAle mahAkavi kA ullAsa bar3hatA hai / / dUsarI bAta unhoMne batAyI hai : zrotA bhavabhramaNa se thakA huA...virakta cAhie / jinako bhavabhramaNa se udvega nahIM huA hai, unake lie yaha graMtha sunanA vizeSa artha nahIM rakhatA hai / aba mujhe saMsAra kI cAra gatiyoM meM bhaTakanA nahIM hai, janma-maraNa nahIM karanA hai, isa prakAra nirNaya kara liyA ho, aisA virakta puruSa cAhie isa graMtha ke zrotA / tIsarI bAta vinayavijayajI ne kahI hai : jo manuSya ananta sukha pAne ke lie, pUrNAnanda pAne ke lie tatpara banA ho, vaha mumukSu hI isa graMtha kA zrotA cAhie / ananta sukha kI ora jisakI dRSTi khula gaI ho / yaha zAntasudhArasaM graMtha mujhe Apako sunAnA hai| Apako kaisI yogyatA saMpAdana karanI hogI, Apa samajha gaye hoMge / yadi aisI yogyatA nahIM hai abhI, paraMtu graMtha sunate-sunate yogyatA prApta ho jAyegI, to bhI calegA / bhavavirakti aura mokSAnurakti - ye do bAteM A jAye to bhI yaha jIvana saphala ho jAyegA / dRr3ha nizcaya ke sAtha yadi zravaNa karoge, to AzA hai ki ye do bAteM Apa prApta kara loge| Aja basa, itanA hii| prastAvanA

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 4 / sakalanA * zrotA : pavitra manavAle * bAraha bhAvanAe~ hRdayastha kareM / mohamUr3hatA ke duSpariNAma - anitya ko nitya mAnanA - azaraNa hote hue nirbhaya mAnanA - Atmatattva kA ajJAna - paraciMtA - zarIra kI apavitratA nahIM dekhanA - AzravoM se ajJAta - saMvara kA ajJAna - nirjarA se anabhijJa - dharma ke prati udAsInatA - 14 rAjaloka kA ciMtana nahIM - bodhi kI aprApti * eka DAkU kI kahAnI : saccI ghaTanA

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sumanaso manasi zrutapAvanA, nidadhatAM dvayadhikA daza bhAvanAH / yadiha rohati mohatirohitA-dbhutagatirviditA samatAlatA // 4 // zrotA : pavitra manavAle : upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI zAntasudhArasa' graMtha kI prastAvanA meM kaha rahe haiM : he pavitra manavAle sajjanoM ! sunane mAtra se antaHkaraNa ko pAvana karanevAlI bAraha bhAvanAoM ko tumhAre citta meM sthApita kareM / isase eka bar3A lAbha tumheM hogA ! moha se AcchAdita banI huI samatA-latA, punaH navapallavita hogI / moha kA AcchAdana dUra hogaa| upAdhyAyajI ne zrotAoM ko kaisA suMdara saMbodhana kiyA hai - 'sumanaso! pavitra manavAle ! unhoMne zrotAoM ke mana kI kauna-sI pavitratA dekha lI hogI? pavitratA dekhe binA to ve kaise kahate ? unhoMne kahA hai, isalie mAnanA par3egA ki unhoMne zrotAoM ke mana meM pavitratA dekhI hai ! hameM to anumAna hI karanA hogA / pahalA anumAna to yaha hai ki unhoMne zrotAoM meM dharmazravaNa kI abhiruci dekhI thI / eka dharmaguru ke pAsa manuSya jAtA hai, dharma kI bAteM sunane jAtA hai / saMsAra kI Adhi-vyAdhi-upAdhi se mukta hone jAtA hai... yaha bAta, usake mana kI pavitratA kA sabUta hai / dharmazravaNa kI abhiruci sAmAnya bAta nahIM hai, sAdhAraNa bAta nahIM hai, eka viziSTa guNa hai / guNAnurAgI upAdhyAyajI, isa viziSTa guNa kA viziSTa mUlyAMkana karate haiM / isa guNavAloM ko ve pavitra manavAle kahate haiM; yaha sarvathA ucita lagatA hai| dUsarA anumAna yaha hai ki vaktA, zrotAoM ko zravaNa-abhimukha karane ke upAya karatA hai / aneka upAya hote haiM / eka upAya yaha hai ki zrotAoM ko prema se saMbodhita karo ! bhale, zrotA kA mana pavitra na ho, paraMtu pavitra banAne ke lie kahanA par3atA hai pavitra ! lar3akA acchA nahIM hai, phira bhI mA~ apane lar3ake ko kahatI hai : merA beTA acchA hai !' kyoM ? isalie ki vaha apane lar3ake ko acchA banAnA cAhatI hai| tIsarA anumAna yaha hai ki sAdhupuruSa, zrotAoM ko acche zabdoM meM saMbodhita karate haiM / Agama graMthoM meM vaise saMbodhana par3hane meM Ate haiM - 'he devANuppiya... he mahAnubhAva...' ityAdi ! vaise upAdhyAyajI ne yahA~ zrotAoM ke liye sumanasoM zabda kA prayoga kiyA hai / zabda bahuta acchA hai / AtmanirIkSaNa ke lie prerita / prastAvanA 41 /

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karatA hai yaha zabda / kyA merA mana pavitra hai ? nirmala hai ? AdhyAtmika jAgRti meM AtmanirIkSaNa upayogI to hai hI, anivArya hotA hai| __ mana sarvathA nirmala rahe, yaha saMbhava nahIM hai / kucha bAtoM ko lekara mana pavitranirmala raha sakatA hai / vaisI eka bAta hai tattva-zravaNa kI abhiruci ! tattvazravaNa karanA, sabhI manuSyoM ke lie saMbhava nahIM hotA / kama loga hI tattva-zravaNa karane kI icchA rakhate haiM / duniyA meM jyAdA loga vikathA-zravaNa ke hI abhilASI hote haiM / sumanasoM saMbodhana aise logoM ke lie prayukta nahIM hai / Apa loga jo yahA~ zAntasudhArasa sunane A rahe ho, unake lie yaha saMbodhana upayukta hai / ApakA mana acchA hai, isalie Apa zAntasudhArasa' sunane A rahe ho / athavA, zAntasudhArasa sunate-sunate ApakA mana pavitra banegA / nirmala banegA ! basa, ApakA dRr3ha praNidhAna honA cAhie ki 'mujhe merA mana pavitra banAnA hai / zAntasudhArasa' kA pratidina zravaNa karate raho / nirmala banegA hii| bAraha bhAvanAoM ko hRdayastha kareM : upAdhyAyajI kahate haiM ki bAraha bhAvanAoM ko apane citta meM sthApita kareM / bAraha bhAvanAoM ko sunane mAtra se hRdaya pavitra hotA hai / ye bAraha bhAvanAe~ isa prakAra haiM : anityatvAzaraNe bhavamekatvamanyatAm / azaucamAzravaM cAtman ! saMvaraM paribhAvaya // karmaNo nirjarAM dharma-sUktatAM lokapaddhatim / bodhidurlabhatAmetA bhAvayan mucyase bhavAt // 1. anitya, 2. azaraNa, 3. saMsAra, 4. ekatva, 5. anyatva, 6. azuci, 7. Ava, 8. saMvara, 9. karma nirjarA, 10. dharmasukRta, 11. lokasvarUpa aura 12. bodhidarlabha bhAvanA / ye bAraha bhAvanAe~ haiM / ina sabhI bhAvanAoM ko vistAra se samajhAnA hai / upAdhyAyajI ne eka-eka bhAvanA ke viSaya meM zloka aura geya kAvyoM kI racanA kI hai / saMskRta bhASA meM ina kAvyoM kI racanA rasapracUra hai / advitIya hai| upAdhyAyajI cAhate the ki hara mumukSu AtmA ina bhAvanAoM ko hRdayastha kareM / gadya kI bajAya padya-kAvya, hRdaya ko zIghra sparza karatA hai / kAvya hRdaya meM jaldI praveza kara pAtA hai / isameM bhI jo kAvya rasamaya hotA hai, jisa kAvya | 42 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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meM zabda-lAlitya hotA hai, bhAvoM kI gaharAI hotI hai, vaha kAvya hRdayastha ho jAtA _ 'bhAvanAoM kA viSaya zAstrIya hai, dhArmika hai, AdhyAtmika hai, aise viSaya ko manuSya ke hRdaya taka pahu~cAne kA zreSTha mAdhyama kAvya hai. geya kAvya hai / zAnta-sudhArasa bhinna-bhinna rAgoM meM nibaddha mahAkAvya hai / vividha zAstrIya rAgoM meM nibaddha hai / isalie isako gA sakate haiM...gAte-gAte divya bhAvoM meM lIna ho sakate haiM / klezamaya, duHkhamaya duniyA ko bhUla sakate haiM / zAnti, samatA aura samAdhi kI anubhUti kara sakate haiM / mohamUr3hatA ke duSpariNAma : sadaiva yAda rakhanA hai ki yaha duniyA klezamaya hai aura duHkhamaya hai / cUMki samagra jIvasRSTi para rAga-dveSa aura moha kA pragAr3ha AvaraNa chAyA huA hai / rAgIdveSI aura mohAndha jIva kaise sukha-zAnti aura samatA-samAdhi pA sakatA hai ? nahIM pA sakatA hai ! rAga-dveSa aura moha ke kAraNa jIvAtmA - ___ * anitya ko nitya mAnatA hai / zarIra, AyuSya, riddhi, siddhi aura saMpatti, pA~ca indriyoM ke viSaya-sukha, mitra-strI-svajanoM kA saMgama sukha.... yaha saba anitya, kSaNika hote hue bhI nitya mAnakara jItA hai| * bar3e-bar3e samrATa, deva-devendra, cakravartI... ye sabhI mRtyu ke Age azaraNa hote haiM, phira bhI mohAkula manuSya apanI azaraNatA kA vicAra nahIM karatA hai / azaraNa hote hue bhI apane teja se, pratApa se, puruSArtha se, dhanavaibhava se abhimAna karatA rahatA hai| * mohAkrAnta manuSya ko saMsAra bhayAnaka vana nahIM dikhatA hai / lobha kA dAvAnala nahIM dikhatA hai / viSaya-tRSNA mRgajala jaisI nahIM lagatI hai / ananta cintAoM se ghirA huA rahatA hai, mana-vacana-kAyA meM niraMtara vikAra utpanna hote rahate haiM, kadama-kadama para ApattiyoM ke gahare khaDDe meM giratA rahatA hai, phira bhI vaha saMsAra se virakta nahIM banatA hai / karmoM ke kuTila baMdhanoM se baMdhA huA jIvAtmA dik bhrAnta bana kara bhaTaka rahA hai... phira bhI vaha apane Apako svAdhIna-svataMtra samajhatA hai ! vaha soca hI nahIM sakatA hai ki vaha anAdi bhavasAgara meM ananta kAla se bhramaNa kara rahA hai / mohavaza...ajJAnavaza vaha saMsAra meM jo saMbaMdhoM ke parivartana hote haiM, una parivartanoM ko samajha sakatA hI nahIM hai / janma ke parivartana ke sAtha / prastAvanA 43 |

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saMbaMdhoM ke parivartana hote haiM, jaise ki putra pitA banatA hai, pitA putra banatA hai, mAtA putrI banatI hai, putrI mAtA banatI hai, mitra zatru banatA hai, zatru svajana banatA hai .... yaha parivartana mohAndha jIva nahIM dekha sakatA hai, nahIM samajha sakatA hai / * mohAsakta jIva Atmatattva ko nahIM samajha sakatA hai / maiM AtmA hU~... jJAna-darzana mere guNa haiM, AtmA ke alAvA saba mAtra mamatva hai, vyartha hai... kalpanA hai,' yaha parama satya kA AbhAsa bhI mohAndha jIva ko nahIM hotA hai / vaha to, jo apanA nahIM hotA hai, usako apanA mAnane kI mUrkhatA karatA hai / parabhAva kI lAlaca meM DUbA huA rahatA hai / indriyajanya AvegoM meM paravaza rahatA hai| jo parAyI vastu hotI haiM, unako apanI mAna kara vaha vividha pIr3AoM ko nimaMtrita karatA hai / I 1 * mohAsakta avivekI jIva paraciMtA karatA rahatA hai, paracintA kara vaha svayaM duHkhI hotA hai / AtmA se bhinna jar3a-cetana dravyoM kA vicAra karatA huA vaha kabhI unmatta hotA hai, kabhI udAsa hotA hai, kabhI prasanna hotA hai, kabhI nArAja hotA hai, kabhI harSa se nAcatA hai, to kabhI zoka se AkraMda karatA hai / vaha nahIM samajha sakatA ki kyA apanA hai, kyA parAyA hai ? vaha kabhI soca hI nahIM sakatA hai ki usane naraka gati meM aura tiryaMca gati meM kaise-kaise ghora duHkha pAye haiM ? vaha kATA gayA hai, usake zata- sahasra Tukar3e hue haiM, vaha jalAyA gayA hai.... mArA gayA hai... anaMta yAtanAe~ usane bhogI haiM... paraMtu mohamUr3hatA use socane nahIM detI / vaha * mohAcchAdita buddhivAlA manuSya apane zarIra ke bhItara dekha nahIM sakatA hai / bhItara meM jo mala-mUtra hai, haDDiyA~ aura mAMsa-majjA hai... gaMdagI hai... vaha nahIM dekha sakatA hai / zarIra kI yaha azuddhi, malInatA... kabhI bhI, kaise bhI dUra nahIM ho sakatI hai yaha bAta mohAsakta manuSya ko koI samajhA sakatA nahIM hai / vaha to punaH punaH snAna kara zarIra ko svaccha karane kA prayatna karatA rahatA hai| caMdana kA vilepana kara zarIra ko sugaMdhita karatA rahatA hai ! vaha samajhatA hI nahIM ki zarIra kI azuci pAnI se yA caMdana se dUra hotI hI nahIM hai / vaha nahIM samajha pAtA hai ki zarIra apanI svAbhAvika durgaMdha chor3atA nahIM hai / zarIra ko kitanA bhI suzobhita karo, zrRMgAra sajAo, hRSTa-puSTa karo.... paraMtu vaha apanA svabhAva nahIM chor3egA / zarIra svayaM to malina hai hI, usake saMparka meM AnevAle pavitra padArthoM ko bhI vaha gaMdA kara detA hai ! aise zarIra meM pavitratA kI kalpanA karanA hI bar3I ajJAnatA hai / mUr3hatA hai| mohamUr3ha manuSya zarIra ke zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 44 -

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viSaya meM sadaiva vyagra banA rahatA hai / usako samatA - sudhA kA svAda kaise A sakatA hai ? * mohamUr3ha manuSya nahIM samajhatA hai ki vaha pratisamaya vividha AzravoM se bharA jA rahA hai| AzravoM se yAnI mithyAtva, avirati, kaSAya, yoga aura pramAdoM se vaha asthira - caMcala aura gaMdA banA hai| kauna samajhAye usako ki Azrava pratikSaNa tujhe karmoM se bhara rahA hai / jaba AzravoM ko hI nahIM samajhatA hai to phira AzravadvAroM ko rokane kI to bAta hI kahA~ ? vaha mohAndha jIva nahIM samajhatA hai AzravoM kI gatividhi ko / nahIM jAnatA hai AzravoM ke 42 prakAroM ko / AzravoM ko roke binA samatva kaise pAyA jA sakatA hai ? * mohAsakta manuSya ko AzravadvAroM ko baMda karane kI bAta kauna samajhAye ? vaha AMtaradRSTi se samAlocana kara hI nahIM sakatA / 'saMvara' tattva vaha samajha nahIM sakatA hai / indriyoM ke, viSayoM ke evaM asaMyama ke AvegoM ko vaha dabA nahIM sakatA hai, niyaMtrita nahIM kara sakatA hai| nahIM vaha samyakatva ko jAnatA hai, na vaha mithyAtva kI dAruNatA ko pahacAnatA hai| ArtadhyAna aura raudradhyAna karatA rahatA hai...| Arta- raudradhyAna kI bhayAnakatA ko vaha jAnatA nahIM hai / na vaha kSamAnamratA kI vizeSatA jAnatA hai, na saralatA aura nirlobhatA ke mahAn lAbha jAnatA hai / vaha mana-vacana-kAyA ke azubha yogoM meM, azubha pravRttiyoM meM ulajhA huA rahatA hai / durgati ke galata rAste para vaha calatA rahatA hai / * jisa prakAra mohAsakta jIva Azrava aura saMvara ko nahIM samajhatA hai, vaise vaha 'nirjarA' ko bhI nahIM samajhatA hai / kabhI-kabhI vaha tapa kara letA hai paraMtu 'mujhe karmoM kA nAza karanA hai, vaha bAta vaha nahIM samajhatA hai| tapa karane se merI prasiddhi hogI, mujhe yaza milegA... mujhe mUlyavAna bheTa milegI... aisI tuccha icchAoM se vaha tapa karatA hai / jyAdAtara mohAMbha manuSya to zarIra ke vyAmoha ke kAraNa tapa karate hI nahIM ! unakA Ananda khAne-pIne meM hotA hai / dina-rAta ve khAte rahate haiM, bhakSya - abhakSya khAte rahate haiM / tapa ke prabhAvoM ko ve loga mAnate hI nahIM / tapa kI ve hamezA upekSA karate rahate haiM / karma... karmanAza... karmanirjarA jaise zabda ve jAnate hI nahIM ! moha kA yaha duSprabhAva hai I I * moha se AkrAnta manuSya dharma ke prati bhI udAsIna hotA hai| dharma ke prati usake hRdaya meM zraddhA nahIM hotI, prema nahIM hotA / vaha dharma ke suMdara prabhAvoM ko jAnatA nahIM hai, mAnatA nahIM hai / dharmabhAvanA se prerita hokara na vaha dAna detA hai, prastAvanA 45

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na vaha zIla kA pAlana karatA hai, na vaha tapa karatA hai aura na vaha acche vicAra karatA hai / mohAdhIna manuSya ko asatya priya hotA hai, krodha acchA lagatA hai, mAnasammAna kI cAha rakhatA hai, lobha kA saMga karatA hai / usako kapaTa-kriyA priya hotI hai, vaha abrahmasevana karatA hai, brahmacaryapAlana use ucchA nahIM lagatA hai| na vaha saMyama ko upAdeya mAnatA hai / * mohAdhIna manuSya ko yaha kahA jAya ki dharma ke prabhAva se sUrya aura candra, isa vizva para upakAra karane pratidina udita hote haiM aura bhayAnaka tApa se saMtapta dharA ko zItalatA dene ke lie megha barasate haiM, to vaha ha~satA hai ! satya kA asvIkAra kara detA hai ! vaha yaha bhI nahIM mAnatA ki dharma ke prabhAva se hI samudra pRthvI ko DUbA nahIM detA hai aura siMha vagairaha hiMsaka pazu mAnavasRSTi kA nAza nahIM karate haiM ! vaha yaha bhI nahIM mAnatA ki manuSya ke lie aMtima zaraNa dharma hI hai ! __ * mohAsakta manuSya ko kahA jAya ki tuma caudaha rAjaloka kA cintana kro|' vaha kaba aura kaise karegA lokasvarUpa kA ciMtana ? usake citta meM to vaiSayika ciMtana calatA rahatA hai, Arta-raudradhyAna kA ciMtana calatA rahatA hai ! na usako adholoka meM AyI huI sAta naraka se matalaba hotA hai, na Urdhvaloka ke devalokoM se saMbaMdha hotA hai / nahIM vaha madhyaloka ke asaMkhya dvIpa-samudroM meM ruci rakhatA hai / mohAkrAnta manuSya kI abhiruci lokasvarUpa ke viSaya meM hotI hI nahIM hai / loka meM 6 dravya ho yA na ho, kRtrima ho yA akRtrima ho, Adi-aMta rahita ho yA sahita ho ! aise logoM ko manaHsthiratA se koI matalaba nahIM hotA ! phira vaha lokasvarUpa kA ciMtana kyoM karegA ? * pragAr3ha godAndhakAra se vyApta jIvAtmA 'bodhi' kaise prApta kara sakatA hai ? vaha samajhatA hI nahIM ki bodhi kyA bAta hai ? na vaha bodhi ke prabhAvoM ko jAnatA hai, na vaha bodhi kA svarUpa jAnatA hai ! nigoda ke aMdhakAramaya kUpa meM... pratisamaya janma-mRtyu kI paraMparA meM ati duHkhI jIvoM ko bhAvoM kI zuddhi kaise prApta ho sakatI hai ? sUkSma nigoda meM se nikala kara bAdara sthAvaratva prApta kareM, to bhI trasatva prApta karanA durlabha hotA hai / usameM bhI paMcendriya honA, papti prApta karanA, saMjJA honA... yaha saba ati mazkila hotA hai / bAda meM manuSya-jIvana pAnA aura dRr3ha AyuSya pAnA sarala nahIM hotaa| manuSya-jIvana pAkara mUrkha manuSya mahAmoha meM...mithyAtva meM aura mAyAkapaTa meM ulajha jAtA hai aura punaH saMsAra ke apadha kUpa meM gira jAtA hai / manuSya zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 46

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jIvana meM sanmArga pAnA, sanmArga para zraddhA honA aura usa sanmArga para calanA, mohAndha manuSya ke lie duSkara hotA hai / vaha Atmabodha pA nahIM sakatA / eka DAkU prazAnta manuSya banatA hai : jaba taka jIvAtmA mohAkrAnta hotA hai taba taka usake mana meM samatva nahIM AtA hai / AtmA meM to sahaja bhAva se samatA par3I huI hai, paraMtu mohadazA ne usako dabA kara rakha dI hai / yadi Apako vaha samatA pAnI hai, to mohadazA ko miTAnA hogaa| ina bAraha bhAvanAoM ke abhyAsa se mohadazA miTa sakatI hai / athavA ina bhAvanAoM ko hRdayastha karanevAle kisI mahAtmA ke paricaya se mohadazA dUra ho sakatI hai| __ abhI-abhI maiMne aisI hI eka satya ghaTanA par3hI hai | Apako sunAtA hU~ vaha romAMcaka ghaTanA / yaha ghaTanA eka DAkU ke jIvana kI hai / ghaTanA eka jaMgala meM ghaTI hai ! Apa to sajjana loga haiM na ? jarA tulanA karanA isa ghaTanA ko sunakara ! gujarAta-saurASTra ke sImA pradeza para bajAnA sTeTa thaa| usa sTeTa ke 24 gA~va the / usameM 'pIpalI' nAma kA gA~va hai / usa samaya kI yaha bAta hai jaba bajAnA kA navAba jIvanakhAna thaa| navAba jata jAti kA thaa| jata jAti musalamAna hotI hai / jata kauma bahAdura aura lar3Ayaka hotI thii| pIpalI gA~va meM mAdhojI nAma kA jata musalamAna thA / mAdhojI kI pA~ca hAtha kI U~cAI thI / baliSTha zarIra thaa| corI karanA, mArAmArI karanA, lar3AI-jhagar3A paratA... rasake kApa the / vyabhicArI thA, mAMsAhArI thA / 40/45 varSa kI umra hogI / bajAnA sTeTa ke 24 gA~voM meM vaha kukhyAta DAkU thaa| dUra-dUra jAkara vaha corI kara, prabhAta meM vaha pIpalI A jAtA / vaise vaha samRddha thaa| acchA pakkA ghara thA / gAyeM thI, bhaiMse thI aura mANakI nAmakI lakSaNavaMtI ghor3I thii| usakI patnI bhI khAnadAna gharAne kI thI / mAdhojI ke mu~ha meM kabhI rAmanAma nahIM thA, rahemAna kA nAma bhI nahIM thaa| pIpalI aura bajAnA ke bIca 6 mIla kA antara hai / bIca meM eka tAlAba hai / vaha ghaMTIyAlI talAvaDI ke nAma se prasiddha hai ! usa tAlAba ke AsapAsa babUla ke vRkSa the / vRkSoM kI ghaTA thii| usa jagaha eka dina zaiva saMpradAya ke digaMbara bAbAoM ne mukAma kiyaa| sau-savAsau bAbAloga hoMge / zarIra para bhasma aura gale meM tulasI kI mAlA / lalATa meM tilaka aura hAtha meM bar3A cimaTA / cimaTA hI unakA zastra ! bIca meM akhaMDa agni / sAtha prastAvanA 47

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meM tIna hAthI the, bIsa U~Ta the, paccIsa ghor3e the, taMbU the aura 130 varSa kI AyuSya ke vayovRddha mahaMta the ! sara para bar3I jaTA thI, laMbI dAr3hI thI, zarIra kaupIna thA, bar3I-bar3I A~kheM thI aura AMkhoM meM se teja dhArA bahatI thI / kevala dUdha kA AhAra lete the / zrI rAmanAma kA akhaMDa jApa karate the / unakA taMbU alaga thA, unakI agni bhI alaga thI / __ madhyarAtri kA samaya thA / pIpalI kA mAdhojI ghara se nikalA / usako mAluma ho gayA thA ki ina naMge bAbAoM kI jamAta meM eka lakSaNavaMtI tejana ghor3I hai / vaha ghor3I kI corI karane udhara pahu~cA / tejana ghor3I kI aneka vizeSatAe~ hotI haiM / vaha ghor3I gurumahaMta ke taMbU ke pAsa majabUta rassI se bA~dhI huI thI / usa ghor3I kI corI karane mAdhojI vahA~ pahu~cA / vaha jamIna para so gayA aura sA~pa kI taraha jamIna para sarakane lgaa| ghor3I kI ora Age bar3hane lgaa| vRkSoM kI ghaTA thii| pragAr3ha aMdhakAra thA / mAdhojI ghor3I ke pAsa pahuMcA thA / pA~ca-sAta hAtha dUra hogA, aura ghor3I ne usako dekha liyA ! ghor3I ne jora se haNa...Na...Na...Na... kI AvAja lagAI / ghor3I kI AvAja sunakara mahaMta jAgrata ho gye| unhoMne ghor3I kI ora sarakate hue mAdhojI ko dekha liyaa| ve sArI paristhiti ko samajha gaye / dUsarI ora se par3Ava ko rakSA karanevAle do mahAkAya naMge bAbA bhI ghor3I kI AvAja sunakara usakI tarapha daur3ate Aye / paraMtu mahaMta ne unako vApisa apanI jagaha jAne kA AjJA de dii| ve cale gaye / mahaMta khar3e hue / mahaMta ne dUsarI AvAja lagAI mAdhojI ko| 'baccA , idhara A jA ! usa gaMbhIra aura prabhAvazAlI AvAja ne mAdhojI kI sArI zakti ko hara liyaa| jisa prakAra mAMtrika, gAruDI eka hI AvAja se mahAmaNidhara nAgarAja ko bA~dha letA hai vaise mahaMta kI AvAja sunate hI mAdhojI khar3A ho gyaa| mahaMta kI dUsarI AvAja AyI - beTe, ghabarA mata, idhara A jA!' mAdhojI mahaMta ke taMbU ke pAsa gayA / taMbU ke dvAra para mahaMta khar3e the / pUre zarIra para bhabhUta lagI thii| sara para bar3I jaTA thii| A~khoM meM teja thA, karuNA thI ! mahaMta ne mAdhojI ke kaMdhe para hAtha rakhA aura bole : kyA tujhe yaha ghor3I cAhie ? jinakA mukha dekhane se sabhI pApa naSTa ho jAte haiM, jinake sparza se pUrvakAlIna karmoM kA kSaya ho jAtA hai aura jinakA vacana sunane se mana kA moha miTa jAtA | 48 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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hai, aise satpuruSa kA saMyoga pUrvopArjita puNya se milatA hai / mAdhojI ko vaise satpuruSa mile / unakI vANI, sparza aura dRSTi tInoM mAdhojI para gire ! mAdhojI ne uttara nahIM diyaa| vaha mahaMta kI ora ekaTaka dekha rahA thaa| mahaMta ne punaH dhIra-gaMbhIra AvAja meM kahA : baccA, kaba taka yaha pAmara manuSya kA kAma karatA rahegA? tere pAsa bhI aisI hI mANakI ghor3I hai na ? phira bhI tujhe taSNA satA rahI hai na ? acchA, to le jA ghoDI ko...choDa le / paraMtu mAdhojI to bUta jaisA hI khar3A rahA / prabhAta kA candra pRthvI para apanI kiraNoM kA amRta barasA rahA thA / vayovRddha mahaMta apane pavitra aMtarAtmArUpa candra dvArA vANI aura dRSTi se mAdhojI ke Upara amRta barasA rahe the aura mAdhojI kI AtmA ke Upara se moha-mAyA ke AvaraNa utAra rahe the / unhoMne mAdhojI ko pUchA : terA nAma mAdhojI hai na ?' mAdhojI ne apanA mastaka jhukAkara hA~ kaha diyaa| mahaMta aura jora se ha~sane lage-bolane lage : 'mAdhojI ! mAdhava, merA mAdhava ! mAdhava ! mohapAza kyoM chUTe ? mahaMta ne apanA dAhinA hAtha laMbA kiyA / apane hAtha meM mAdhojI kA hAtha liyA / usako apane taMbU meM le gaye / agni kI dhUnI meM se rAkha lekara mAdhojI ke lalATa meM lagAyI aura eka kAle raMga kI gola vastu lekara usake mu~ha meM rakha dii| apane hAtha para gyAraha rudrAkSa kI jo mAlA baMdhI huI thI, vaha mAdhojI ke dAhine hAtha para bA~dha dI aura dhIra-gaMbhIra AvAja meM unhoMne mAdhojI ko kahA - jAo beTe, tapa kro| yaha janma terA aMtima janma hai| paramAtma-svarUpa meM terA laya ho! itanA bolakara, mahaMta ne mAdhojI kA hAtha pakar3A, tAlAba ke kinAre para le gye| pIpalI gA~va kI ora khar3A rakhakara, usakI pITha para eka dhabbA lagA diyA aura mAdhojI pIpalI kI ora calane lgaa| usakA moha kA AvaraNa TUTa gayA thaa| jarA soceM / mAdhojI gayA thA ghor3I kI corI karane / aura vahA~ usako eka bhAratIya saMta puruSa kA saMparka ho gayA ! ve bhI karuNAvaMta saMta ! DAkU ko sAdhu banAne kI bhAvanAvAle ve saMta the ! usa saMta kA kaisA anupama vyaktitva hogA / prastAvanA

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ki mAdhojI jaisA DAkU, jo ki sabhI mahA vyasanoM meM pha~sA huA thA, vaha saMta ke prabhAva meM A gyaa| usake hRdaya para saMta kA prabhAva chA gyaa| saMta ke sparza ne lohe ko sonA banA diyaa| usa mAdhojI kA mohAvaraNa chinna ho gayA / usako aba saMsAra ke kisI bhI padArtha para mamatva nahIM rahA / isa ghaTanA ko likhanevAle the ahamadAbAda maNInagara ke vaidya jAdavajI narabherAma zAstrI / zAstrIjI mAdhojI se mile the / mAdhojI kA gA~va pIMpalI, zAstrIjI kA bhI gA~va thaa| zAstrIjI ne jo bAteM likhI haiM, apane anubhava likhe haiM, ve anubhava Apako batAU~gA / moha kA AvaraNa TUTane para mAdhojI ne kaisI apUrva samatA - samAdhi pAyI thI.... vaha batAU~gA / Aja basa, itanA hI / 50 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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saMkalanA : samatva pAne kA nirNaya / DAkU mAdhojI nirmohI banA / apUrva aura asAdhAraNa bAta / mauna kaise sarala huA ? cAra bAtoM kA mamatva TUTanA cAhie svajanoM kA parijanoM kA vaibhava-saMpatti kA zarIra kA nimitta aura upAdAna kA tattvajJAna * duniyA se koI matalaba na ho ! upasaMhAra "" zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 5 -- -

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sumanaso manasi zrutapAvanA nidadhatAM dvayadhikA daza bhAvanAH / yadiha rohati mohatirohitA-dbhutagatividitA samatAlatA // 4 // samatva pAne kA nirNaya : upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI kahate haiM : bAraha bhAvanAoM ko hRdayastha kro| sunane mAtra se ye bhAvanAe~ aMtaHkaraNa ko pAvana karatI haiM / aura moha se AcchAdita samatA-latA punaH navapallavita hogI / moha kA AcchAdana dUra hogA / Apako bhItara meM yadi samatA pAne kI, samaMtAbhAva jAgrata karane kI tIvra icchA jagI hogI aura AtmabhAva ko pAvana banAne kI bhAvanA paidA huI hogI to hI Apa moha kA AvaraNa dUra karane kA prayatna kareMge / bAraha bhAvanAoM kA zravaNa kreNge| 'mujhe samatva pAnA hai, kucha bhI ho jAyaM... mujhe samatAbhAva meM rahanA hai| yaha nirNaya honA cAhie apane hRdaya meM / mujhe samatva kA sukha pAnA hai ! aba mujhe kaSAyajanya sukhAbhAsa nahIM caahie| aisA AtmasAkSika dRr3ha saMkalpa karanA hogA ! aise saMkalpa ke binA samatva pAnA muzkila hogaa| asaMbhava hogaa| cUMki anAdikAla se jIva kaSAyajanya sukhAbhAsoM meM hI bhramita ho, bhaTaka rahA hai / samatva pAne kA prayatna hI nahIM kiyA hai / moha kA AvaraNa dUra karane ke upAya hI nahIM kiye haiN| AtmA ke Upara moha ke AvaraNa pragAr3ha bane hue haiM / moha ke AvaraNa haTAye binA sukha-zAnti prApta nahIM ho sakatI / DAkU mAdhojI kA moha dUra huA : apane ghara Akara mAdhojI ghara ke barAmade meM zAnti se baiTha gyaa| jo mAdhojI eka kSaNa bhI zAnti se baiTha nahIM sakatA aura eka kSaNa bhI sthiratA nahIM hotI aise mAdhojI cupacApa baiTha gayA the / sUryodaya hone para, unakI patnI ne unake kaMdhe pakar3a kara hilAye aura bolI : uThiye, isa prakAra mUr3ha banakara kyoM baiThe ho ? kyA kAma karake Aye ho ? mAdhojI mauna rahA / patnI ne dUsarI bAra bulAne kA prayatna kiyA... tIsarI bAra prayatna kiyaa| sara para se pAgha utAra lI / sAmane Akara dekhatI hai| mAdhojI kI A~kheM AkAza kI ora thI, ve AkAza meM TakaTakI lagAkara dekha rahe the / mAdhojI kI patnI ghabarA gaI aura cillA kara bolI : inako kucha ho gayA hai... koI bhUta... strI kI AvAja sunakara AsapAsa ke loga ikaTThe ho gaye / saba ne mAdhojI ko apane-apane DhaMga se bulAne kA prayatna kiyA, paraMtu mAdhojI nahIM bolA / bolA nahIM aura apanI jagaha se hilA bhI | 52 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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nahIM / vaha sabhI logoM ko ekaTaka dekhatA rahA / na harSa, na zoka, na mAna, na apamAna, na merA, na terA, na sukha, na duHkha... aisI sthiti ho gaI mAdhojI kii| ___ eka-do ghaMTe meM sAre gA~va meM logoM ko mAluma ho gayA ki mAdhojI ko koI bhUta laga gayA hai / vaha na bolatA hai, na khAtA hai, na pItA hai !' choTA gA~va thA pIpalI / loga jaMtaramaMtara karane lage / dorA-dhAgA karane lge| pIra, jati, phakIra... bhuA Ane lage ! paraMtu sabhI ke upAya niSphala jAne lge| kucha jati-logoM ne socA ki mAdhojI kA yaha saba DhoMga hai / usako ve loga mArane lage... lakar3I se mArane lage... phira bhI mAdhojI bolatA nahIM hai, khAnA mA~gatA nahIM hai / jo sAmane AtA hai usake sAmane ekaTaka dekhatA rahatA hai / koI usake sAmane thAlI meM roTI rakhatA hai to do TakaDe khA letA hai, pAnI pI letA hai / isake alAvA logoM ke sAtha vaise jItA hai ki jaise kisI ke sAtha kisI prakAra kA saMbaMdha hI na ho / nirvikArI, niSkAmI bana kara jItA hai / eka varSa taka aisA calatA rahA / kisI kA koI upAya kAma nahIM AyA / usakI patnI kA bhI moha TUTa gayA / patnI ghara meM se jevara, paise vagairaha lekara apane mAyake calI gaI / ghara meM aba akelA mAdhojI raha gayA / AsapAsa ke loga mAdhojI ke ghara meM Ate aura jo kucha hAtha meM AtA vaha le jAte ! ghara khAlI ho gayA / mAdhojI ke zarIra para mAtra do vastra raha gaye / jo loga mAdhojI ke ghara meM se vastu uThAkara le jAte aura mAdhojI ke sAmane dekhate, mAdhojI usake sAmane aTTahAsa karate / jaisA pAgala manuSya kA hAsya hotA hai vaisA hAsya hotA / jar3abharata kA hAsya ! jaisA hAsya unake guru-mahaMta kA hotA thA, vaisA mAdhojI kA hAsya hotA thaa| ___ loga mAdhojI ke ghara ke dvAra ukhAr3a kara le gaye / chappara tor3a kara le gaye / ghara kI mAtra dIvAreM khar3I raha gaI / mAdhojI vaisI jagaha meM par3e rahate the| koI dayAvAna puruSa... koI mitra, snehI thAlI meM roTI-sabjI lAkara mAdhojI ke sAmane rakhate to ve khA lete aura tAlAba meM se pAnI pI lete / ___ madhyarAtri ke samaya mAdhojI bAhara Ate aura aTTahAsa karate / gA~va meM soye hue loga jaga jAte... | gA~va ke bAhara Akara ve dUsarI bAra aTTahAsa karate aura calate jAte / tIna mIla cala kara ve usa ghaMTIyAlI talAvar3I ke kinAre para jAte ki jahA~ usake guru kA mukAma thaa| gurucaraNa se jo pRthvI pAvana huI thI / jahA~ para mAdhojI kI mohAndhatA dUra huI thI aura samatva kI prApti huI prastAvanA

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thii| mAdhojI vahA~ jAkara pRthvI kI raja lete aura apane mastaka para rakhate / A~khoM meM se azrudhArA bahatI... aMta meM aTTahAsa karate aura vApasa pIMpalI lauTate 1 yaha nityakrama ATha varSa taka calatA rhaa| jaba mAdhojI ke vastra gaMde ho jAte, pasIne se durgaMdhamaya ho jAte, vastroM meM jU par3a jAtI, sara meM se bhI jU jamIna para giratI to mAdhojI uThAkara sara meM rakha dete... aura ha~sate / zarIra ke Upara ke vastra phaTa jAte... taba gA~va ke sajjana loga naye do vastra silavAkara, mAdhojI ko pahanA dete / mAdhojI ko aba dina-rAta kA bhAna nahIM rahatA thA / na kisI se prIta thI, na kisI se vaira thA / gA~va meM rahane para bhI ve gA~va se nyAre the / sukha - duHkha kA koI bheda nahIM rahA thA / aisI sthiti meM mAdhojI ne ATha varSa bitA diye the / taba isa prasaMga ke lekhaka vaidya jAdavajI narabherAma zAstrI, pIMpalI pahu~cate haiM / aba maiM unake hI zabdoM meM Age kI kathA kahatA hU~ / I 'maiM usa gA~va meM gyaa| gA~va ke pravezadvAra ke pAsa hI merA ghara thA | pravezadvAra ko gujarAtI meM 'jhAMpoM daravAjA kahate haiM / garmI ke dinoM meM maiM daravAje ke pAsa hI khATa DAlakara so jAtA thA / prathama rAtri meM hI maiMne mAdhojI kA aTTahAsa sunA / maiM turaMta jaga gayA / maiM khar3A huA / usake pAsa gayA, usako dekhA... maiMne mAna liyA ki vaha sacamuca avadhUta thA, yogI puruSa thA / hamArI A~kheM milI / eka-dUsare ko pahacAna liyA / aba mAdhojI madhyarAtri ke samaya jaba gA~va ke bAhara jAte, taba pravezadvAra meM merI khaTiyA ke pAsa Akara khar3e rahate, mere sAmane ekaTaka dekhate rahate... maiM bhI jaga jAtA... ve maMda-maMda muskarAte aura cale jAte / ATha varSa se ve bole nahIM 1 the / gA~va ke loga mAdhojI ko pAgala mAnate / mAdhojI pUre jagata ko pAgala mAnate hue apane mArga para cala rahe the / paraMtu unako jaise vizrAma kI pratIkSA thI vaisA vizrAma gA~va ke pravezadvAra para mila gayA aura mujhe kaI varSoM se jaise puruSa kI apekSA thI vaisA puruSa mila gayA ! do mahIne taka hamArA isa prakAra mauna milana hotA rahA / maiMne unako bulAne kA upAya socaa| maiM unase bAta karanA cAhatA thA / maiMne eka upAya soca liyA / rAtri ke samaya, jahA~ daravAje ke pAsa maiM sotA thA, vahA~ para lAlaTena jalAkara maiM tulasI - rAmAyaNa kA ayodhyAkAMDa par3hane lagA / pratidina mAdhojI rAtri meM vahA~ Akara baiThane lagA / zrIrAma kA vanavAsa, ayodhyAvAsiyoM kA kalpAMta, bharata kA rudana ... vagairaha kA maiM gujarAtI bhASA meM I 1 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 54

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varNana karatA / mAdhojI kI A~khoM meM se avirata azrudhArA bahatI rahatI / kathA pUrNa hone para mAdhojI calA jAtA / isa prakAra madhyarAtri kA hamArA milana calatA rahA / laMkAkAMDa pUrNa huA / rAma vApasa ayodhyA Aye / guru vaziSTha ne zrIrAma ko rAjasiMhAsana para ArUr3ha kiye, abhiSeka kiyaa| usI rAta meM mAdhojI ne merA hAtha pakar3A aura mujhe mere hI ghara meM le gayA / pustaka aura lAlaTena lekara maiM ghara meM gayA / ASAr3ha mahIne kI zuklA navamI thii| mAdhojI ne ATha varSa aura sAta mahIne ke bAda mu~ha se AvAja dI aura mu~ha meM se kAle pASANa kA zAligrAma bAhara nikAlA / mujhe batAte hue bole - 'dekha le yaha guruprasAdI !' zAligrAma aura 11 rudrAkSa kI mAlA ko maiMne do hAtha jor3akara bhAvapUrvaka praNAma kiyA / mAdhojI ko bhI maiMne praNAma kiyaa| mAdhojI ne zAligrAma mu~ha meM rakha diyA, mAlA hAtha para bA~dha lI, adbhuta aTTahAsa kiyA aura cala diye / usa dina ke bAda hamArI mulAkAta ghara meM hone lagI / kathA pUrNa hone para maiM unako kucha prasAda detA, ve prasannatA se khAte / dhIre-dhIre unako merI mumukSatA para vizvAsa huA aura mAdhojI apane duSkRtyoM kI kathA mujhe sunAne lge| sarvaprathama unhoMne corI aura vyabhicAra ke duSkRtya mujhe sunAye / aneka prasaMga sunaaye| bAda meM ghaMTIyAlI talAvar3I ke Upara sadguru kA saMparka kaise huA... vaha kahAnI bhI sunAyI / gurudeva kI bAta karate-karate ve dravita ho jAte aura A~sU bahAte / unako tulasI - rAmAyaNa sunane meM AnaMda AtA / maiM dhIre-dhIre sarala grAmINa bhASA meM sunAtA / ve saMpUrNa nirakSara the / basa, sunate rahate / bAra-bAra ve pA~ca pAMDavoM kI kathA kahane kA Agraha karate / maiM vaha kathA unako sunAtA / unhoMne mujhe kahA thA 'apanI isa jJAnagoSThi kI bAta kisI ko kahanA nahIM / maiMne unakI mRtyu taka yaha bAta kisI ko nahIM kahI thI / eka varSa taka unake sAtha merA sahavAsa rahA thA / unake jIvana meM kisI prakAra kA dUsarA parivartana nahIM AyA thA / ve vaise hI nizcala, niSkAma aura nirdvadva rahe the / - jisa dina mujhe gA~va chor3akara jAnA thA, maiMne unako kahA thA 'mAdhojIbhAI, aba maiM jAU~gA / ' sunakara ve ha~se the / unhoMne mu~ha meM se zAligrAma nikAlakara mujhe darzana kraaye| maiMne daMDavat praNAma kiye| vApasa unhoMne mu~ha meM zAligrAma rakha diyA, aTTahAsa kiyA aura cale gaye ! jaise unakA aura merA koI saMbaMdha hI na ho vaise nirlepa banakara cale gaye / - prastAvanA 55

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bAraha varSa taka ve jar3abharata kI taraha jIvana jIye aura deha chor3a diyaa| apUrva aura asAdhAraNa bAta : ___ moha kA AvaraNa Ta jAne ke bAda kitanA apUrva samatva mAdhojI ko prApta huA thA ! vaise ve nirakSara the, anapar3ha the, phira bhI samatva kA vaibhava kitanA mahAn thA ? - dhana-mAla lekara patnI calI gii| - logoM ne ghara kA chappara bhI nahIM chodd'aa| - ghara meM na kapar3A rahA, na bichonA rahA, na kucha khAne ko rahA / saba kucha calA gayA... phira bhI samatva nahIM gayA ! kisI ke prati bhI roSa, rIsa yA krodha nahIM AyA ! yaha kyA sAmAnya bAta hai ? nahIM, yaha asAdhAraNa aura apUrva bAta hai| - logoM se kucha bhI mA~ganA nahIM, bhojana bhI nahIM mA~ganA ! - kisI se bAta nahIM karanA, vaha bhI bAraha varSa taka ! samatA ko vyApaka artha meM samajhanA hogA ! na rAga, na dveSa - isako kahate haiM samatA ! mAdhojI pAgala nahIM bana gaye the ! zUnyamanaska nahIM bana gaye the / mauna dhAraNa karane ke lie hI unake mu~ha meM guru ne zAligrAma-patthara rakhA thA / jihvA para vijaya pAne kA hI vaha upAya thA / patnI dhana-mAla lekara calI gaI, to patnI ke Upara krodha nahIM AyA, durbhAva nahIM AyA ! duHkha meM nikaTa kA snehI calA jAye to kyA hotA ? jarA svastha dimAga se soco / mAtra kahAnI sunakara cale nahIM jAnA / yaha satya ghaTanA hai...| isa kaliyuga meM ghaTI huI ghaTanA hai... eka DAkU-cora-vyabhicArI puruSa ke jIvana kI ghaTanA hai ! Apa to sajjana ho na? sadAcArI aura samajhadAra ho na? kahie, isa prakAra patnI calI jAya to kyA ho jAya ? sabhA meM se : bhayaMkara krodha ! mahArAjazrI : loga ghara meM lUTa macAye to ? sabhA meM se : turaMta pulisa sTezana para phona ! mahArAjazrI : zarIra meM bhUta...DAkinI...zAkinI AyI hai...aisA samajhakara ojhA vagairaha mArane lage to ? sabhA meM se : hama DaMDA lekara mArane lage ! athavA bacane ke lie bhAga zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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jAyeM ! mana meM roSa...pratikAra kI tIvra icchA... vagairaha Aye binA rahe nahIM ! yaha to bAta hai / samatA kI bAta karanA sarala hai, jIvana meM samatA se jInA muDikala hai| sabhA meM se : asaMbhava lagatA hai ! mahArAjazrI : sadguru ke anugraha se asaMbhava bhI saMbhava bana jAtA hai ! muzkila kAma bhI sarala bana jAtA hai ! moha kA AvaraNa TUTa jAnA cAhie ! bAda meM saba kucha saMbhava hai, sarala hai, sukara hai / mauna kaise sarala huA ? dUsarI bAta hai mauna kI / mAdhojI ne bAraha varSa taka mauna dhAraNa kiyA thA / Apa bAraha dina bhI mauna raha sakate ho ? nahIM na ? mAdhojI ne duniyA se sabhI saMbaMdha tor3a diye the! patnI calI gaI aura snehI-svajana-mitra vagairaha vimukha ho gaye ! aba kisa se bAta karanA ? jinakA cAra bAtoM se saMbaMdha TUTa jAtA hai unako kisI se bolane kI AvazyakatA nahIM rahatI hai / - svajanoM se saMbaMdha TUTa jAyeM, - mitra, snehI, paricitoM se saMbaMdha kaTa jAyeM, -- vaibhava-saMpatti-daulata se mamatva TUTa jAyeM, aura - zarIra se mamatva kA saMbaMdha nahIM rahe... / to mauna rahanA sarala bana sakatA hai / ye cAroM bAteM mAdhojI meM nahIM thI kyA ? cAroM bAteM thIM / ve isa duniyA se aba kisI prakAra kA saMbaMdha bA~dhanA nahIM cAhate the / zarIra se bhI mamatva jor3anA nahIM cAhate the / jo TUTa gayA so TUTa gayA... / ___ kahie, Apa loga to zrAvaka haiM na ? samakita dRSTi haiM na ? ina cAra bAtoM meM se kauna-sI bAta hai jIvana meM ? sabhA meM se : eka bhI nahIM hai ! mahArAjazrI : phira bhI abhimAna kitanA ? kisa bAta ko lekara abhimAna kara rahe ho ? inameM se eka bhI bAta nahIM hone para bhI abhimAna kara sakate ho ? Apa nahIM cAhate ho phira bhI svajana Apa se mu~ha mor3a leM, to Apake mana meM kyA hogA ? Apa nahIM cAhate, phira bhI mitra vagairaha parijana Apa se saMbaMdha tor3a deM, to kyA hogA ? Apa nahIM cAhate phira bhI saMpatti calI jAyeM, to kyA prastAvanA

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hogA ? jarA zAnti se socanA / svastha dimAga se socanA / yadi samatA pAnA hai to yaha cAra prakAra kA moha tor3anA hI par3egA / cAroM bAtoM kA mamatva TUTanA cAhie : yadi ina cAra bAtoM kA mamatva nahIM TUTatA hai to mauna nahIM raha sakatA hai 1 samatA nahIM A sakatI hai| cAra meM se eka bAta kA bhI moha rahatA hai, to bhI samatA nahIM TikatI hai / maiMne aise kaI prakAra ke loga dekhe haiM / kucha udAharaNa dekara batAtA hU~ / nAma sahI nahIM batAU~gA / 1 eka muni the| muni the isalie svajana - parijana aura vaibhava - saMpatti ke to tyAgI the hI! paraMtu zarIra to thA hI! muni kA nAma tattvavijayajI samajhanA / unako zarIra para moha thA, mamatva thA / jaba zarIra asvastha hotA... ve vicalita ho jaate| eka dina unake ziSya ne unakI sevA meM upekSA kara dI, to tattvavijayajI kA krodha AsamAna chUne lagA aura ziSya ke sara para DaMDA mAra diyaa| ve samatA nahIM rakha pAye / - eka mahAnubhAva ko svajana - parijana aura zarIra se lagAva bahuta kama thA, paraMtu dhana-saMpatti se tIvra lagAva thA / dhana-saMpatti ke viSaya meM tIvra rAga-dveSa karate / hiMsA karavAte aura asatya bhI bolate / unake mana meM sadaiva azAnti banI rahatI / - maiM eka sajjana ko pahacAnatA hU~ / unako dhana-saMpatti se lagAva nahIM hai, zarIra se bhI lagAva nahIM hai... paraMtu svajanoM se ati lagAva hai / svajanoM meM bhI patnI se jyAdA lagAva hai / isalie ve hamezA azAnta - parezAna rahate haiM ! cU~ki utanA lagAva patnI ko pati ke prati nahIM hai / - eka muni haiN| unako ina cAroM bAtoM se lagAva nahIM hai; paraMtu nAma se, kIrti se... yaza se bhArI lagAva hai ! jarA bhI kisI ne jAne-anajAne meM apamAna kara diyA athavA niMdA kara dI... to ve azAnta ho jAte haiM / krodhI ho jAte haiM / unakA samatAbhAva calA jAtA hai / unhoMne jJAna aura tapazcaryA ko yaza-kIrti kA sAdhana banA diyA hai ! ve apane jJAna aura tapa se samatA nahIM pA rahe haiM / kaSAyoM ko bar3hAte haiM ! I nimitta aura upAdAna kA tattvajJAna : sabhA meM se: mAdhojI ke jIvana parivartana meM, hRdaya - parivartana meM mukhya nimitta zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 58 --

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to ve mahaMta hI the na ? mahArAjazrI : hA~, ve hI nimitta the / paraMtu nimitta tabhI asara karatA hai, jaba upAdAna yogya hotA hai / upAdAna kI yogyatA paripakva hotI hai / yadi mAdhojI kA upAdAna (AtmA) yogya nahIM hotA, paripakva nahIM hotA to mahaMta kA nimitta koI asara nahIM karatA / 'nimitta aura upAdAna kA tattvajJAna samajhane jaisA hai / isa tattvajJAna ko samajhanevAle kabhI nirAza nahIM hote aura kabhI kartRtva kA abhimAna nahIM hotA ! mAna lo ki maiMne kisI vyasanI vyakti ko upadeza diyA aura usane vyasana kA tyAga kara diyA / yadi maiM nimitta-upAdAna kA tattvajJAna jAnatA hU~ to mujhe abhimAna nahIM hogA ki maiMne... mere upadeza se usane vyasanoM kA tyAga kara diyA ! maiM yaha samajhaMgA ki usakA upAdAna yogya thA, isalie maiM nimitta bana gayA / vaise maiMne bahuta acchA upadeza diyA, phira bhI usa vyakti ne vyasanoM kA tyAga nahIM kiyA, to maiM nirAza nahIM hoU~gA athavA usa vyakti para mujhe napharata bhI nahIM hogii| maiM samajhUgA ki usakA upAdAna (AtmA) yogya nahIM thA, paripakva nahIM thA, isalie vaha upadeza grahaNa nahIM kara skaa| ApakI acchI bAta bhI, saca bAta bhI ApakA svajana yA mitra-snehI nahIM mAnatA hai, to Apako kyA hotA hai ? yA to gussA AtA hogA ? yA to nirAzA hotI hogI ? gussA nahIM karanA, nirAza bhI nahIM honA / upAdAna kI yogyatA nahIM hotI hai to usake Upara acche nimitta kA bhI asara nahIM hotA hai / nimittaupAdAna kI yaha bAta Apa acchI taraha samajha lo / Arta-raudradhyAna se baca jaaoge| citta svastha rahegA / rAga-dveSa kama ho jAyeMge / samatAbhAva banA rhegaa| duniyA se koI matalaba na ho ! viziSTa jJAnI puruSa upAdAna kI yogyatA-ayogyatA ko acchI taraha pahacAna lete haiN| yogyatA dikhatI hai, tabhI ve upadeza dete haiM, anyathA nhiiN| usa vayovRddha zaivamArgI mahaMta ne mAdhojI kI yogyatA dekha lI hogii| tabhI usako upadeza diyA aura zAligrAma tathA mAlA dI / aise kaI pApI jIva, bhItara se yogya hone para, upAdAna kI yogyatA hone para, satpuruSoM kI kRpA ke pAtra bana jAte haiM aura unakA acchA jIvana-parivartana ho jAtA hai / prastAvanA

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acchA jIvana-parivartana tabhI hotA hai, jaba moha kA baMdhana TUTatA hai / cAroM prakAra ke moha kA baMdhana TUTa jAtA hai, taba sarvaprathama manuSya meM samatva A jAtA hai / duniyA ke prati udAsInatA A jAtI hai / duniyA svapnavat dikhane lagatI hai / vicAroM kI duniyA badala jAtI hai / vicAroM meM nahIM rahate haiM vikAra, nahIM rahatI hai uttejanA / vicAra- dhArA antarmukhI bana jAtI hai / bAhya jagata se usakA saMbaMdha TUTa jAtA hai / upAdhyAyajI ne isI graMtha ke aMtima kAvya meM jo bAta likhI hai - parihara paracintA parivAram cintaya nijamavikAram re... vaha bAta bana jAtI hai| parapadArthoM kI ciMtAoM ko chor3a de aura apane avikArI svarUpa kA ciMtana kara | moha kA baMdhana TUTane para hI yaha bAta banatI hai / mAdhojI ke aMtima 12 varSa ke jIvana meM yahI bAta banI thI na ? apane hI svarUpa meM masta rahe the / duniyA kI koI paravAha nahIM kI / jisako jo mAnanA ho mAneM ! pAgala mAnanA ho to pAgala mAne aura jar3abharata mAnanA ho vaha jar3abharata mAne / duniyA se kucha lenA -denA hI nahIM thA ! duniyA se kucha matalaba hI nahIM thaa| hameM to duniyA se matalaba hai ! lenA-denA hai ! duniyA hameM sajjana mAne... satpuruSa mAneM... aisI hamArI icchA hotI hai / upasaMhAra : graMthakAra upAdhyAyajI bAraha bhAvanAoM kA zravaNa karane kI preraNA dete hue kahate haiM ki ye aisI bhAvanAe~ haiM ki jinakA zravaNa karane mAtra se manuSya kA mana pavitra ho jAtA hai / mohavAsanA dUra hone para samatAbhAva pragaTa hotA hai / mahattva kI bAta hai mohavAsanA ko miTAne kI / mUlabhUta bAta unhoMne yahA~ kaha dI hai / isake pahale jo bAta unhoMne 'yadi bhavabhramakheda... vAlI kahI hai, vaha bAta bhI tabhI saMbhava ho sakatI hai jaba mohavAsanA dUra hotI hai / vairAgya aura mokSaprIti, mohavAsanA TUTe binA saMbhava hI nahIM hai / __ hAlA~ki ye bAraha bhAvanAe~ aisI haiM aura upAdhyAyajI ne isa prakAra geya kAvyoM meM racI haiM ki sunanevAloM kI mohavAsanA naSTa ho hI jAyeM ! paraMtu sunanevAloM kA upAdAna yogya honA cAhie / nimitta (yaha graMtha) to zreSTha hai hI ! yogya-suyogya 60 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1||

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upAdAna para isa nimitta kA asara hogA hI / yAnI unakI mohavAsanA miTegI hI / sabhA meM se : upAdAna kI yogyatA paripakva karane ke lie kyA-kyA karanA cAhie ? mahArAjazrI : tIna kAma karane cAhie / tInoM samaya (subaha-dopahara-zAma) pratidina cAra zaraNa (arihaMta, siddha, sAdhu aura dharma) kA svIkAra kareM, duSkRtyoM kI AtmasAkSI se niMdA kareM aura sukRtyoM kI anumodanA kareM / ina tIna bAtoM ko vistAra se samajhanA ho to paMcasUtra graMtha kA vivecana par3he / bahuta acchA graMtha hai / upAdAna kI yogyatA paripakva karane ke lie ye tIna bAteM avazya kartavya vizeSa bAteM Age kreNge| Aja basa, itanA hii| AI prastAvanA 61

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 6 |: saMkalana : Arta-raudradhyAna Aga hai ArtadhyAna raudradhyAna viSaya lolupatA viSayalolupI preta banA viSayalolupI kartavyaniSTha nahIM tAtyATope : eka ghaTanA vajrasvAmI : eka prasaMga vivekazobhA upasaMhAra . -71

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Arauidra-pariNAmapAvaka-pluSTabhAvuka viveka sauSThave / mAnase viSayalolupAtmanAM kva prarohatitamAM zamAGkuraH // 5 // upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI 'zAntasudhArasa kI prastAvanA meM kaha rahe haiM : ArtadhyAna aura raudradhyAna ke krUra vicAra Aga jaise haiM / vaha Aga suMdara viveka kI zobhA ko jalA detI hai / jisake hRdaya meM viveka kI zobhA jala gaI hai vaise viSayalolupI manuSyoM ke hRdaya meM samatA kA aMkura kaise pragaTa ho sakatA hai ? Arta-raudradhyAna Aga hai : __ jo jalAtI hai use Aga kahate haiM / aneka prakAra kI Aga hotI hai / jo makAna, vastra, lakar3I, ghAsa vagairaha ko jalAtI hai, vaha vizva prasiddha Aga hai / isa Aga ko sabhI loga jAnate haiM, samajhate haiM / dUsarI Aga hotI hai vacana kI Aga, vANI kI Aga / kaTa, kaThora, karkaza vacana Aga jaise hote haiM / dUsaroM ke mana ko jalAte haiM aura kabhIkabhI vaise vacana dUsaroM ko jalA dete haiM, jalakara manuSya AtmahatyA kara lete haiM / koI vaise kaTu vacana sunakara jalate nahIM, jalakara mara nahIM jAte, paraMtu citta meM bhayAnaka jalana mahasUsa karate haiM / ___ tIsarI Aga hotI hai vicAroM kI / jo manuSya ko svayaM ko jalAtI hai / kucha vaise duSTa vicAra hote haiM, jo citta ko jalAte rahate haiM / citta kI zAnti ko, citta kI prasannatA ko, citta ke viveka ko jalAte haiM / bhItara se manuSya svayaM jalatA hai| ArtadhyAna : eka vaisI Aga hai ArtadhyAna kii| yahA~ dhyAna zabda kA prayoga duSTa vicAroM ke viSaya meM huA hai / tIvra koTi ke duSTa vicAra Arta-dhyAna kahe jAte haiM / ArtadhyAna meM vaise vicAroM kA praveza hai ki Apa loga sunakara cakarA jAoge ! hA~, hama hI hama vicAra karate haiM, apane hI vicAroM se hama jalate haiM, phira bhI hama apane vicAroM ko pahacAnate nahIM ! mukhya rUpa se cAra prakAra kA ArtadhyAna batAyA gayA hai - - iSTa ke saMyoga ke vicAra, - iSTa ke viyoga ke vicAra, - aniSTa ke saMyoga ke vicAra, - aniSTa ke viyoga ke vicAra / prastAvanA 63

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1. jo iSTa hotA hai, priya hotA hai vaha hameM mile - isa viSaya meM manuSya socatA rahatA hai / jo iSTa aura priya vastu athavA vyakti, manuSya ke pAsa hotI hai, vaha usake pAsa banI rahe, yaha bhI socatA rahatA haiM / isa ciMtana meM, aise vicAroM meM prAyaH hiMsA, asatya, corI, anIti, anyAya... vagairaha pApoM kA samAveza ho hI jAtA haiM | iSTa aura priya vastu yA vyakti sahajatA se nahIM milatA hai to manuSya galata rAste se pAne kA prayatna karatA hai / bharata cakravartI ko bAhubalI kA rAjya mAMgane para nahIM milA, bAhubalI ne bharata kI AjJAMkitatA nahIM mAnI to bharata yuddha karane tatpara ho gayA thA na ? yuddha yAnI hiMsA ! kucha varSa pUrva amarIkA ne irAka para AkramaNa kara diyA thA na ? kaisA bhayAnaka yuddha huA thA ? kyoM ? amerikA irAka para apanI sattA cAhatA thA ! jaise rASTrIya stara para yaha hotA hai, vaise sAmAjika aura vyaktigata jIvana meM bhI aisA hotA hai / iSTa aura priya ke saMyoga kI icchA karanA aura prApta iSTa aura priya kI rakSA ke vicAra karanA, ArtadhyAna nahI hai / 1 2. dUsarA prakAra hai ArtadhyAna kA, iSTa aura priya ke viyoga ke vicAra / manuSya ke pAsa jo iSTa aura priya hotA hai, manuSya nahIM cAhatA ki vaha calA jAyeM, naSTa ho jAyeM / priya vastu ho yA priya vyakti ho / manuSya aisI cintA kara duHkhI hotA hai ! eka bhAI isalie duHkhI thA, azAnta thA, cU~ki usako apanA ekalautA beTA priya thA ! aura vaha nahIM cAhatA thA ki usakA viyoga ho ! usakI mRtyu ho.... apaharaNa ho... vagairaha ! putra nahIM thA taba bhI duHkhI thA, putra prApta hone para bhI duHkhI hai / priya ke viraha kA bhaya duHkhI karatA hai / vaise eka bhAI ko bhAgya se 10 lAkha rupaye mila gaye / vaise vaha daridra thA, duHkhI thA / 10 lAkha milane ke bAda bhI vaha duHkhI hai / ye rupaye cale gaye to ? duniyA meM dhana cale jAne kI ghaTanAyeM banatI rahatI haiM, jaba vaha sunatA hai, akhabAra meM par3hatA hai, to azAnta bana jAtA hai| ArtadhyAna azAnta banAtA hI hai| ArtadhyAna karanevAle ajJAnI manuSya ke pAsa tattvajJAna to hotA nahIM ! tattvajJAna ke binA zAnti milatI nahIM ! sattAdhIza apanI sattA ke viyoga kI kalpanA se duHkhI hotA hai, dhanavAn apanI saMpatti cale jAne kI kalpanA se duHkhI hotA hai, pratiSThita vyakti apanI pratiSThA calI jAne kI kalpanA se duHkhI hotA hai, - mAtA-pitA apane priya saMtAna ke viyoga kI kalpanA se duHkhI hote haiM, baccA apanA priya khilaunA calA na jAyeM, isalie ciMtita rahatA hai, 64 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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- naukara apanI naukarI calI na jAyeM, isalie ciMtita rahatA hai / ___ yaha saba ArtadhyAna hai ! aisA ArtadhyAna manuSya ke mana meM calatA rahatA hai na ? choTI-bar3I vastu ke viSaya meM, mitra-snehI ke viSaya meM aisA ArtadhyAna calatA rahatA hai / basa, yaha ArtadhyAna kI Aga bhItara meM jalAtI rahatI hai ! yadi bhItara meM nahIM jalanA hai to ArtadhyAna mata kro| priya-iSTa ke saMyoga-viyoga ke vicAra nahIM kreN| 3. iSTa kI taraha aniSTa bhI hote haiM, apriya bhI hote haiM / manuSya ke jIvana meM kucha aniSTa - apriya lagA huA hotA hai ! nahIM cAhatA hai, phira bhI apriya hotA hai / usakA vaha viyoga cAhatA hai ! yaha apriya calA jAyeM to acchA ! yaha aniSTa calA jAyeM to acchA! aisI icchA calatI rahatI hai| kucha udAharaNoM se bAta samajhAtA hU~ - - pati ko patnI aniSTa hai, apriya hai, vaha patnI kA viyoga cAhatA hai, - patnI ko pati apriya hai, vaha pati kA viyoga cAhatI hai, - seTha ko naukara apriya hai, vaha naukara ko nikAlanA cAhatA hai, - lar3ake ko mAtA-pitA apriya haiM, vaha alaga karanA cAhatA hai, - kisI ko ghara aniSTa lagatA hai, ghara chor3anA cAhatA hai... isa prakAra kaI choTI-bar3I vastue~ hotI haiM, jo chor3anA cAhatA hai, chor3a nahIM sakatA hai ! kucha vyaktiyoM ko chor3anA cAhatA hai, chor3a nahIM sakatA hai / chor3ane ke lie yA chUTane ke lie jo jo vicAra karatA hai, vaha ArtadhyAna hotA hai / aura ArtadhyAna bhItara meM jalana-Aga paidA karatA hai / zAnti ko, viveka ko jalA detA hai| 4. manuSya aniSTa-apriya kI kalpanA karatA rahatA hai| kabhI kucha aniSTa hogA to ? apriya hogA to? aisI kalpanAyeM karanA bhI ArtadhyAna hai / manuSya karatA rahatA hai aisI kalpanAyeM ! - paise cale jAyeMge to? - zarIra meM roga paidA hoMge to ? - svajana chor3akara cale jAyeMge to ? - corI ho jAyegI to? - koI kalaMka A jAyegA to ? prastAvanA 65

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aise vicAra bhI ArtadhyAna haiM / aise vicAra mana kI zAnti ko naSTa karate haiN| aise vicAra mana kI prasannatA ko jalA dete haiM / aise vicAra viveka ko jalA dete haiM / raudradhyAna : __ ArtadhyAna se bar3hakara raudradhyAna hotA hai / hiMsA ke, mRSA ke, corI ke, maithuna ke, parigraha ke tIvra pApa vicAra raudradhyAna hotA hai / jisa mana meM ArtadhyAna aura raudradhyAna calatA rahatA hai usa mana meM zubha bhAvanAyeM nahIM rahatI haiM / zubha bhAvanAyeM paidA hI nahIM hotI haiN| raudradhyAna bahuta hI khataranAka hai / ghora azAnti to paidA karatA hI hai, sAtha sAtha ghora pApakarma ba~dhavAtA hai| una pApakarmoM ko bhogane ke lie naraka meM jAnA par3atA hai / ghora asahya duHkha bhogane par3ate haiM vahA~ / vartamAna jIvana meM aneka prakAra kI tIvra azAnti aura paraloka meM tIvra koTi ke duHkha / asaMkhya varSa taka ghora zArIrika - mAnasika pIr3A bhoganI par3atI hai / isalie raudradhyAna se bacate rho| raudradhyAna kI pracaMDa Aga se bacakara jInA hai / pahalA raudradhyAna hai hiMsAviSayaka / tIvra vairabhAvanA se prerita hokara jIva kI hiMsA karane ke satata vicAra karanA raudradhyAna hai / jIva choTA ho yA bar3A ! mArane ke irAde se use mArate haiM... athavA mArane kA satata vicAra calatA rahatA hai / vaise mRSAvAda ke satata vicAra bhI raudradhyAna hotA hai / satata jhUTha bolane ke vicAra manuSya karatA rahatA hai, taba vaha raudradhyAna bana jAtA hai / maSAvAda kI taraha maithuna-abrahma sevana ke satata vicAra bhI raudradhyAna hotA hai / raudradhyAna kI yaha Aga sarvabhakSI hotI hai / jIvana kA saba kucha jalA detI hai| kucha bhI nahIM bacatA... sivAya rAkha... bhasmIbhUta bane guNoM kI rAkha / rAkha meM se samatA ke aMkara kaise paidA ho sakate haiM ? nahIM ho sakate / isalie ArtadhyAna aura raudradhyAna se bacanA haiM / donoM durdhyAna kI jananI : viSaya lolupatA : zAyada Apake mana meM prazna paidA hogA ki mana meM kyoM - kisa vajaha se ArtadhyAna aura raudradhyAna paidA hote haiM ? isa prazna kA uttara isI zloka meM upAdhyAyajI ne de diyA hai ! jo jIvAtmA viSaya lolupI hotA hai usake mana meM Arta-raudradhyAna paidA hote haiM / mAnase viSaya lolupAtmanAm / pA~ca indriyoM ke asaMkhya viSaya hote haiM / una viSayoM kI Asakti hI durdhyAna zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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I kI jananI hotI hai / kisI bhI viSaya kI icchA, abhilASA, kAmanA... paidA hotI hai... ki ArtadhyAna zurU ho jAtA hai / aura vaha viSaya pAne ke lie hiMsA ke, mRSA ke, corI ke vicAra calate rahate haiM ki raudradhyAna zurU ho jAtA hai / I isa viSayalolupatA ke kAraNa hI manuSya ke jIvana meM saMgharSa bar3hatA hai| manuSya ke jIvana meM mAnasika tanAva kI vRddhi ho rahI hai / isakA prabhAva, mastiSka ke mAdhyama se samagra zarIra para par3atA hai / manobhAvoM kA uttejanAtmaka prabhAva hRdayagati, raktapAta, raktanalikAoM ke vyAsa meM parivartana, rakta ke rAsAyanika parivartana ke rupa meM hotA hai / jisakI pariNati 'hArTa eTeka', 'kAraDieka erithamiyA', 'isenziyala hAiparaTeMzana', 'eMjAinA pekTorisa' tathA 'mAigrena' ke rUpa meM hotI hai / eka vyApArI bhAvanAtmaka utAra-car3hAva ke sAtha hI ciMtita rahatA thA / kucha samaya bAda use ucca raktacApa kI bImArI ho gaI / manovaijJAnikoM ne use apane dRSTikoNa ko badalane tathA apane ko AdhyAtmika utthAna ke racanAtmaka prayAsa me lagane kI salAha dI / dekhA gayA ki kucha dinoM ke bAda hI use ucca raktacApa se mukti mila gayI / 1 U.S.A. meM prativarSa Adhe se jyAdA mRtyu hRdayarogoM se hotI hai / cikitsakoM ke anusAra 45 se 65 varSa kI umra meM 25 pratizata mRtyu 'sAyakosomeTika koronarI ArTarI' rogoM ke kAraNa hotI haiM / kucha videzI DaoNkTaroM ne apanI khojoM meM pAyA hai ki bhAvanAtmaka saMvegoM kA rakta ke jamAva kI gati se sIdhA saMbaMdha hai / 'blar3a beMka' meM raktadAtAoM ko tIna zreNiyoM meM bA~TA gyaa| jo zAnta manasthiti ke the unake rakta jamane kI dara 8 se 12 minaTa thI, jo bhayabhIta the unake rakta ke jamAva kA samaya 4 se 5 minaTa thA tathA jo atyAdhika ciMtita tathA bhayabhIta the, unakA 1 se 3 minaTa thA / hRdayAghAta meM mRtyu kA kAraNa khUna kA thakkA jama jAnA hotA hai / jo eka thraoNmbasa yA imbAlisma ke rUpa meM hotA hai / thakkA banane kI prakriyA rakta ke rAsAyanika parivartana para nirbhara karatI hai / jisa para mAnasika tanAva kA sIdhA prabhAva hotA hai| acchI taraha samajhanA ki yaha mAnasika tanAva ArtadhyAna athavA raudradhyAna se utpanna hotA hai / viSayalolupI jIvoM ko mAnasika tanAva rahegA hI ! manovikAroM se rahita mana kI sthiti zarIra ko nirogI rakhane meM mahatvapUrNa bhUmikA hai / isa tathya ko vizva ke mUrdhanya cikitsAzAstrI bhI anubhava kara cuke prastAvanA 67

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haiM / jinheM svastha, prasanna aura nirogI rahanA ho unheM cAhie ki ve pahale apane mana ko niyaMtrita saMyamita kareM / manovaijJAnika bhI niMdA, cugalI, irSyA, dveSa, krodha, Aveza Adi ke prasaMgoM se bacane kI salAha dete haiM / mana ke bhaTakAva ko rokane kI bAta karate haiN| anekoM jhagar3eM, jhaMjhaTa aura vaimanasya se bhI bacane ko kahate haiM / bacane kA eka hI zreSTha upAya hai viSayalolupatA kA tyAga ! viSayalolupI preta banA : 1 viSayalolupatA kI vajaha se eka sAdhu-saMnyAsI kaise preta banA, isakI eka aitihAsika ghaTanA batAtA hU~ / bihAra rAjya meM hemaMtapura nAma kI kabhI bahuta zAnadAra riyAsata thI / aba to usake dhvaMsAvazeSa hI raha gaye haiM / ina khaMDaharoM meM se kabhI kabhI eka kSINa kAyAvAle sAdhu kI mUrti AsamAna meM ur3atI dikhAyI par3atI hai / aura khaMDahara ke bhItara praveza karane para yaha bhI pratIta hotA hai ki isa meM koI AdamI rahatA hai| pAnI kA bharA ghar3A, buhArI, maTakA Adi vastueM na jAne kisakI rakhI huI haiM ! kahate haiM ki vahA~ ke rAjA sAhaba jaba siMhAsanArUr3ha theM taba unakI preraNA se, usa sAdhu ne tAMbe se sonA banAne kA prayoga kiyA thaa| pUrA hone se pUrva hI vaha galatI se kar3hAI meM girakara prANa gavA~ baiThA thA / sAdhu kI AtmA ko isa asaphalatA para bar3A kleza huaa| vaha abhI taka pretarUpa meM usa khaMDahara meM ghumatA dekhA jAtA hai ! viSayalolupI manuSya kartavyaniSTha nahIM raha sakatA : viSayalolupatA ke kAraNa kAmanA, lAlasA aura vAsanA kI saMkIrNa paridhi meM hI sAmAnyatayA manuSya- mana kA ciMtana ghUmatA rahatA hai / jJAnI puruSoM ne ise hI putraiSaNA, vittaiSaNA aura lokeSaNA kahakara isase ubarane ko kahA hai / AtmotkarSa ke mArga meM yahI pradhAna bAdhAyeM haiM / Ina eSaNAoM ke kAraNa, viSayalolupatA ke kAraNa hI loga rAga-dveSa, kalaha - kaTutA vagairaha meM jakar3e rahate haiM / aise loga viziSTa kartavyoM kA pAlana nahIM kara sakate haiM / isa viSaya meM eka aitihAsika prasaMga batAtA hU~ : san 1857 ke svataMtratAsaMgrAma kI eka mahatvapUrNa ghaTanA 'tAtyATope ke jIvana se saMbaMdhita hai / 'ajIjAna' nAma kI eka nartakI senApati tAtyATope kI ora Asakta ho gyii| usane tAtyA kA mana jItane ke lie AkarSaNoM kA jAla bichA diyA / ve usake T 68 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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mana kI bAta bhA~pa gaye / unhoMne eka dina ajIjAna se kahA : mere jIvana kA eka hI dhyeya hai / aMgrejoM ko bhArata-bhUmi se mAra bhagAnA / yadi sacamuca tuma mujhe pyAra karatI ho to mere isa zreSTha lakSya meM tumheM samarpita honA pdd'egaa| ajIjAna taiyAra ho gii| kintu samarpaNa itanI sarala prakriyA nahIM hai ki use yoMhI nibAhA jA ske| ajIjAna ne apanI sArI saMpatti svAdhInatA saMgrAma meM lagA dI / svayaM ko guptacara sevAoM meM samarpita kiyaa| ajIjAna ko bhayaMkara kapaTa evaM ApattiyoM kA sAmanA karanA pdd'aa| kintu vaha dhyeya ke prati avicala banI rahI ! sacce prema kI pavitratA ne usake hRdaya kI vAsanAoM dho dI thI / eka nartakI kA mana viSayalolupatA se mukta huA to usane kitanA mahAn kartavya nibhAyA ? eka prasaMga vajrasvAmI ke jIvana kA : aisI hI, paraMtu AdhyAtmika - dhArmika ghaTanA, bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ke dharmazAsana meM AcAryazrI vajrasvAmI ke jIvana meM ghaTI thI / vajrasvAmI jJAnI the, daivI zakti ke dhAraka the aura ati rUpavAna the / usa samaya, eka nagara meM eka zreSThI kanyA rukmiNI ne manomana saMkalpa kiyA thA ki maiM zAdI karU~gI to vajrasvAmI ke sAtha karU~gI / usake pitA zreSThI dhanAvaha karoDapati the| laDakI ati pyArI thI / usakI icchA pUrNa karane kA nirNaya kiyA / ve pitA - putrI nahIM jAnate the ki jaina sAdhu zAdI nahIM karate haiM, strI ko chUte bhI nahIM haiM / jaba vajrasvAmI usa nagara meM pahu~ce ki jahA~ dhanAvaha zreSThI rahate the, dhanAvaha ko aura usakI putrI rukmiNI ko mAluma huA ki vajrasvAmI nagara ke bAhara udyAna meM ruke haiM / zreSThI, putrI evaM karoDoM kI saMpatti lekara vajrasvAmI ke pAsa jAte haiM / vajrasvAmI ko namratA se praNAma kara dhanAvaha kahate haiM : he satpuruSa, yaha merI putrI rukmiNI hai / usane jaba se Apa kI prazaMsA sunI hai taba se Apake sAtha zAdI karane kA saMkalpa kiyA hai / maiM Apa se prArthanA karatA hU~ ki Apa merI putrI kA svIkAra kareM aura isa saMpatti kA bhI svIkAra kreN| - vajrasvAmI ne madhura vANI meM kahA : mahAnubhAva, hama jaina sAdhu haiM / hama zAdI nahIM kara sakate / hameM brahmacaryavrata kA pAlana karanA hotA hai / hamArA jIvanadhyeya AtmA kI mukti kA hai| karmabaMdhanoM se AtmA ko mukta karane ke lie hama bhItarI saMgharSa kara rahe haiN| jaba AtmA mukta hogI, taba pUrNa sukha kI prApti hogii| he zreSThI, tumhArI putrI kA mere prati yadi vizuddha prema hai to, jisa muktimArga para maiM cala rahA hU~, usa mArga para vaha bhI cale / paraMtu muktimArga para calane ke lie viSayalolupatA kA mana-vacana-kAyA se tyAga karanA par3atA hai / prastAvanA

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rukmiNI ne kahA : 'he mahAtman, maiM Apa ke sAtha muktipatha para hI calU~gI / paraMtu maiM to ajJAnI hU~, abodha hU~, Apako hI mujhe mukti mArga para calAnA hogaa|' vajrasvAmIjI ne rukmiNI ko dIkSA dI / rukmiNI sAdhvI bana gii| darzanajJAna - cAritra kI ArAdhanA meM lIna banI / usa ne zreSTha samatA sukha pAyA / viveka - zobhA surakSita rakho : apanI bAta hai hRdaya meM samatA- aMkura pragaTa karane kI / hRdaya meM viveka hotA hai to hI samatA - aMkura pragaTa hotA hai| Arta- raudradhyAna viveka ko naSTa kara dete haiM, isalie samatA paidA nahIM ho pAtI / isalie upAdhyAyajI kahate haiM vivekazobhA ko surakSita rakho / vaha zobhA tabhI surakSita rahegI, jaba Arta- raudra dhyAna nahIM karoge / gaMde, duSTa aura adhama vicAravAlA manuSya avivekI bana jAtA hai / saMsAravyavahAra meM bhI avivekI * maryAdA bhraSTa bana jAtA hai| karIban 40 varSa purAnI eka ghaTanA mujhe yAda AtI hai / baMbaI meM hamArA cArtumAsa thA / maiM gaucarI lene gayA thA / eka ghara meM maine paira rakhA aura aTaka gyaa| pitA jamIna para par3A thA aura putra lAteM mAra rahA thA / maiM bhikSA liye binA nikala gyaa| lar3akA zaramA gyaa| mere sAtha pIchepIchemauna calatA rahA / upAzraya AyA / maiM bhI usake sAtha eka zabda bhI nahIM bolA thA / upAzraya meM Ane ke bAda vaha mere sAmane ro par3A / bolA : maiM pApI hU~ / mujhe bhayaMkara krodha AyA... maine apane pitA ko... / vaha rotA rahA / vaha viveka bhraSTa huA thA na ? viveka to pitRbhakta, mAtRbhakta banane kI preraNA detA hai / vaha to pitRdveSI bana gayA thA ! cU~ki usake mana meM ArtadhyAna A gayA thA ! phira vaha samatA kaise rakha sakatA thA ? 1 eka sAdhu apane gurudeva ke sAtha krodhAveza meM auddhatyapUrvaka bola rahe the / gurudeva mauna ho suna rahe the / sAMdhu kI anucita icchA gurudeva kaise pUrNa kara sakate the ? kucha samaya bolane ke bAda vaha sAdhu apanI jagaha Akara baiTha gayA / maiM bhI vahIM para baiThA thA / bolane vAle sAdhu mere se bar3e the / upAzraya meM stabdhatA chA gayI thii| maiM Adhe ghaMTe ke bAda khar3A huA aura usa sAdhu ke pAsa gayA / izAre se unako eka kamare meM le gayA / hama baiThe / maiM mauna rahA / usa sAdhu ne hI kahA : Aja roSa meM... krodha meM maine gurudeva kI AzAtanA kara dii| maiMne vinaya - viveka kho diyaa| mujhe merI bhUla mahasUsa hotI hai| maine kahA : 'gurudeva se kSamA mA~go / prAyazcitta kro| Apa to jJAnI ho...| unhoMne kahA : 'jJAnI nahIM hU~, ghora ajJAnI hU~... azAnta hU~... aparAdhI hU~... / 70 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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bAda meM unhoMne gurudeva se kSamA mA~gakara prAyazcitta kiyA thaa| maiMne socA thA - usa sAdhu kI viveka - zobhA naSTa huI thI ArtadhyAna se / krodha - roSa - gussA.... AtA hai ArtadhyAna se / vaha sAdhu zobhAvihIna ho gayA thA / manuSya kI zobhA viveka se hotI hai, vinaya se hotI hai / vaha zobhA banAye rakhane ke lie ArtadhyAna se bacate raho / priya apriya kI kalpanA se mukta raho / iSTa - aniSTa kI kalpanA se mukta raho / upasaMhAra : upAdhyAyajI mahArAja bahuta spaSTa zabdoM meM kahate haiM - viSayalolupI manuSya ke mana meM samatA - aMkura kaise paidA ho sakatA hai ? arthAt nahIM ho sakatA hai / viSaya lolupatA hI ArtadhyAna hai / pA~ca indriyoM ke asaMkhya viSaya hote haiN| kisI bhI viSaya kI icchA, spahA, tRSNA paidA hone para ArtadhyAna zarU ho jAtA hai / viSaya rAga se kaSAya utpanna ho jAte haiM / kaSAya bar3hane para raudradhyAna A jAtA hai| mana jaba viSaya - kaSAya se bhara jAtA hai. phira samatA samAdhi kahA~ raheMge? samatA - amRta kA pAna kaise ho sakatA hai ? vaha to ghora azAnti kA viSapAna hI karatA rahegA / anaMta janmoM meM jIva ne aise viSapAna hI kiye haiN| yadi isa jIvana meM jJAnadraSTi khula jAyeM... to samatA kA amRtapAna kara sakate ho / vaha tabhI saMbhava haiM, jaba viSayalolupatA dUra ho / viveka zobhA akhaMr3ita ho / viSayalolapatA naSTa hone para viveka zobhA akhaMDa rahegI hii| cUMki viSayalolupatA nahIM rahane para ArtadhyAna nahIM rahatA hai, ArtadhyAna nahIM rahane para raudradhyAna bhI nahIM rahatA hai / viSayalolupatA miTAne ke lie viSayoM ke viSaya meM ciMtana kara nirNaya kareM ki - - viSaya nAzavaMta haiM, kSaNika haiM, - viSayoM kA rAga ghAtaka hotA hai, - viSayabhoga viSabhoga jaise haiM, - viSayabhogoM se kabhI bhI AtmA ko tRpti nahIM hotI hai / isa prakAra viSayoM kI aniSTatA ke punaH punaH vicAra karane se viSayoM ke prati vairAgI banogeM / virakta bnogeN| viSaya lolapatA nahIM rahegI / ArtadhyAna nahIM rhegaa| vivekazomA banI rahegI aura samatA-aMkura hRdaya meM janma legA ! Aja basa, itanA hI - / prastAvanA 71 / /

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 7 | : saMkalanA : bhAvanAoM kA sthAna : antaHkaraNa dharmakriyAo ke sAtha dharmadhyAna mokSa ke dvAra para bhIr3a : eka upanaya kathA svarga aura naraka kA AdhAra : manuSyamana eka yogI : eka vezyA sukha aura Ananda kahA~ hai ? eka upanaya kathA mana irSyA Adi doSoM se grasta kyoM ? mana ulajhA hai, sukha-duHkhoM meM upasaMhAra

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yasyAzayaM zrutakRtAtizayaM vivekapIyUSavarSaramaNIyaramaM zrayante / sadbhAvanAsuralatA na hi tasya dUre, lokottaraprazamasaukhyaphalaprasUti // 6 // upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI zAntasudhArasa' kI prastAvanA meM kahate haiM : usI antaHkaraNa meM ye zubha-suMdara bhAvanAyeM rahatI haiM ki jo antaHkaraNa samyag jJAna ke abhyAsa se unnata banA ho aura viveka-amRta kI vRSTi se mRdu evaM suzobhita banA ho / graMtha kI prastAvanA ke 7-8 zloka meM unhone bAraha bhAvanAoM ke nAma batAye haiM : anityatvAzaraNate bhavamekatvamanyatAm, azaucamAzravaM cAtmana, saMvaraM paribhAvaya // 7 // karmaNo nirjarAM dharmasUktatAM lokapaddhati, bodhidurlabhatAmetAM, bhAvayan mucyabha sevAt // 8 // 1. anityabhAvanA, 2. azaraNa bhAvanA, 3. saMsAra bhAvanA, 4. ekatva bhAvanA, 5. anyatva bhAvanA, 6. azucibhAvanA, 7. AzravabhAvanA, 8. saMvarabhAvanA, 9. karmanirjarA bhAvanA, 10. dharmasukRta bhAvanA, 11. lokasvarupa bhAvanA aura 12. bodhidurlabha bhaavnaa| bhavaprapaMca se mukta hone ke lie, pratidina Ina bhAvanAoM se punaHpunaH bhAvita hote raho ! bhAvanAoM kA sthAna aMtaHkaraNa : __ bhAvanAoM kA utpatti sthAna antaHkaraNa hai, citta hai / isalie antaHkaraNa zuddha, mRdu aura suzobhita rahanA Avazyaka hai / citta meM Arta aura raudra vicAra nahIM Ane cAhie, nahIM rahane cAhie / paraMtu jaba taka manuSya daur3atA rahatA hai, koI dhana ke pIche, koI yaza ke pIche, koI pada-pratiSThA ke pIche... koI svarga ke pIche... taba taka Arta-raudra vicAroM se citta mukta nahIM raha skegaa| cAhe manuSya maMdiroM meM jAyeM yA tIrthoM kI yAtrA kareM ! manuSya kA jIvana aisI daur3a meM hI pUrNa ho jAtA hai, hAtha meM kucha AtA nahIM hai / isalie pahale yaha soca lo ki kahA~ jAnA hai ? kyA pAnA hai ? kisa lie jAnA hai ? aura, yaha bhI soca lenA cAhie ki jahA~ pahu~canA cAhate haiM, jo prApta karanA cAhate haiM, usake lie jIvana meM itanA zrama uThAnA, itanI muzkiliyA~ sahanA yogya-ucita hai kyA ? prastAvanA

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binA soce-samajhe daur3ate raheMge to vahA~ pahu~cakara mAluma hogA ki yaha pAne ke lie daur3anA Avazyaka nahIM thA / aura vAstava meM jahA~ pahu~canA cAhate the, vahA~ pahu~ce hI nahIM haiM ! jahA~ the vahIM para haiM ! aisI bhUle apane jIvana meM nahIM ho, isalie sAvadhAna rahanA cAhie / anyathA jIvana nirarthaka pUrA ho jAyegA / AyuSya bahuMta alpa hai, zakti maryAdita hai aura samaya bahuta kama hai, isalie sajagatA ke sAtha jInA hogA / sabhI daur3a rahe haiM... mana se daur3a rahe haiM, tana se daur3a rahe haiM ! mujhe lagatA hai yaha saba aMdhI daur3a hai / koI gaMtavya ko jAnatA hI nahIM ! saba bhAge jA rahe haiM... hama bhI bhAgate jA rahe haiM ! na mana kI ciMtA hai, na tana kI ciMtA hai ! __jo kucha pAnA hai, vaha apane bhItara hI hai, apane aMtaHkaraNa meM hai / aMtaHkaraNa ko zuddha, mRdu aura suzobhita karanA hai / vahA~ hI AtmA se paramAtmA taka kI prApti hotI hai / zAnti se parama zAnti vahA~ prApta hotI hai| isalie usa antaHkaraNa meM bhAvanAoM ko vikasita karanA hai / viveka-amRta kI varSA se hI yaha kAma ho skegaa| yahI viveka hai ki dhana-yaza-pada-pratiSThA ke pIche daur3anA baMdha karake, jahA~ haiM vahA~ sthira bana kara, dhyAnamagna hokara apane bhItara meM dekheM ! bhItara meM azubha...tuccha...asAra vicAroM kA kacarA dikhAI deM, to usa kacare ko bAhara pheMka do aura citta ke upara zubha bhAvanAoM kI amRta varSA karate calo ! anitya bhAvanA se lagAkara bodhi-darlabha bhAvanAoM kI ora maitrI bhAvanA se mAdhyasthya bhAvanAoM kI amRta varSA karate raho! Apa kA citta, Apa kA antaHkaraNa prasanna, zItala aura AnandapUrNa bana jAyegA / dharmakriyAoM ke sAtha dharmadhyAna Avazyaka : ___ Apa apane citta ke prati kendrita baneM / mAtra bAhya dharmakriyAyeM karake, saMtoSa na mAna leM / bIte hue ananta janmoM meM dharmakriyAyeM ananta bAra kI, paraMtu hamArA mokSa meM praveza nahIM huA ! hama saMsAra meM hI bhaTaka rahe haiM, janma-mRtyu karate rahe haiM / isa viSaya meM eka upanaya - kathA sunAtA huuN| ___ eka bAra mokSa ke dvAra para bar3I bhIr3a jamI thI / sabhI manuSya the| saba ko mokSa meM jAnA thA, paraMtu dvArarakSaka dvAra nahIM khola rahe the ! kucha paMr3itoM ne, vidvAnoM ne Age Akara bolA : hama jJAnI hai, hamane hajAroM zAstra paDhe haiM, hajAroM-lAkhoM logoM ko dharmopadeza diyA hai... hameM mokSa meM jAnA hai, dvAra kholo / eka dvArapAla ne kahA : | 74 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 2

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'yahA~ zAstroM kA mUlya nahIM hai, anubhavajJAna kA mUlya hai, yahA~ janopadeza kA mUlya nahIM hai, svopadeza kA mUlya hai ! Apa ko mokSa meM praveza nahIM milegA !' ___ bhIr3a meM se kucha kRzakAya tapasvI mani-saMnyAsI Age Aye aura kahA - hamane eka-eka, do-do mahine ke upavAsa kiye haiM, kaI varSoM se zarIra ko kaSTa diye haiM, kaI kaSTadAyI vrata-niyamoM kA pAlana kiyA hai, hamAre lie mokSa kA dvAra kholane kI kRpA kareM / / eka dvArapAla ne kahA : yaha jAnanA paDegA ki yaha tapa, tyAga aura vrata-niyamoM kA pAlana tumane kisa bhAvanA se kiyA thA ? tumhAre mana meM yaza-pratiSThA aura mAna-sanmAna pAne kI icchA to nahIM thI ? svarga ke sukha pAne ke lie to yaha saba nahIM kiyA thA ? mAtra tapatyAga aura vrata-niyamoM kA pAlana karane vAloM ko mokSadvAra meM praveza nahIM milatA hai / tumane dharmakriyAyeM kI, paraMtu mana meM dharmadhyAna nahIM kiyA thA / isalie yahA~ se lauTa jaaiiye| __bhIr3a kucha kama huI, to kucha loga Age Aye aura bole : hamane hamArA samagra jIvana paropakAra karane meM bitAyA hai, isalie hameM mokSa meM praveza milanA cAhie / eka dvArapAla ne kahA : Apane dUsare jIvoM para upakAra kiye hoMge, paraMtu yahA~ mAtra upakAroM kI kriyA kA mahatva nahIM hai, yaha dekhanA par3egA ki Apane dUsare jIvoM ke prati maitrIbhAva, karuNAbhAva, pramodabhAva, upekSAbhAva rakhe the kyA ? jIvamaitrI ke binA kiye hue jIvopakAroM kA yahA~ mUlya nahIM hai ! bhIr3a calI gaI, paraMtu saba ke pIche eka manuSya khar3A thA, usako dvArapAlane pUchA : bhAI, tUM yahA~ kyoM AyA hai ? usane kahA : mujhe mAluma nahIM... kauna mujhe yahA~ le AyA ! mere pAsa kucha nahIM hai / na zAstrajJAna hai, na maine tapa kiyA hai, na tyAga kiyA hai / vrata niyamoM kA bhI pAlana nahIM kiyA hai... / yaha saba karane ke lie mere meM zakti hI nahIM thI ! hA~, kisI jIva ke sAtha merI zatrutA nahIM thI, kisI ke sAtha maine burA vyavahAra nahIM kiyA, sabhI ke prati mere hRdaya meM prema hai aura isa duniyA ke prati majhe koI mamatva-lagAva nahIM hai / paraMtu itane mAtra se isa mokSadvAra meM praveza pAne kI merI yogyatA siddha nahIM hotii| isalie kRpAkara mujhe narka kA dvAra btaaiye| prastAvanA

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dvArapAloM ne usake lie mokSadvAra khola diyA / yaha upanaya kathA hai| isa kathA meM abhipreta jo satya hai, usa satya kA svIkAra karanA hai / mAtra dharmakriyA se saMtoSa nahIM mAneM, dharmadhyAna kI mahattA samajheM / 12 bhAvanAyeM dharmadhyAna ke AlaMbana haiM / citta meM eka bhI bhAvanA kA ciMtana calatA rahegA to vaha dharmadhyAna hogA ! aura taba Apa kA citta darpaNa jaisA svaccha aura nirmala hogA / usa citta meM paramAtmA kA pratibiMba spaSTa dikhAyI degA / apanA citta jitanA sarala, nirdoSa aura nirmala hogA, utanA vizva bhI spaSTa aura svaccha dikhAyI degA / bhItara meM sukha aura AnaMda bar3hatA jAyegA / svarga aura naraka kA AdhAra : manuSya-mana : isalie upAdhyAyajI kahate haiM: manuSya ke mana kA parivartana, paripUrNa parivartana Avazyaka hai / zArIrika parivartana yA vastra - parivartana kA vizeSa mUlya nahIM hai / citta meM, antaHkaraNa meM krAnti honA mahattvapUrNa hai| AMtarika parivartana ke binA, bAhya parivartana hotA hai, saMnyAsa bhI le letA hai manuSya, paraMtu vaha AtmavaMcanA hI hotI hai| isI draSTi se hI to duHkhoM se parAbhUta hokara athavA sukhoM ke pralobhanoM se AkarSita hokara liyA huA saMnyAsa heya mAnA gayA hai, vyartha mAnA gayA hai ! jJAnadraSTi se yAnI AMtara-vicAra krAnti se liyA huA saMnyAsa hI yathArtha hotA hai / bAhya bhautika sukha-bhogoM kI vyarthatA kA bodha hone para hI citta meM saMnyAsa kA, cAritra kA avataraNa hotA hai| eka kahAnI se yaha bAta spaSTa hogI / zAyada Apa logoM ne yaha kahAnI sunI bhI hogI, paraMtu Aja maiM jisa saMdarbha meM kaha rahA hU~, usa saMdarbha meM samajhanA / eka nagara meM eka hI dina do mRtyu huI / eka yogI kI mRtyu huI, aura eka vezyA kI mRtya huii| donoM eka hI dina, eka hI samaya isa saMsAra se bidA hue / donoM ke ghara Amane-sAmane the| eka-dUsare ke ghara meM kyA ho rahA hai, donoM jAnate the| donoM jIye bhI sAtha aura mare bhI sAtha ! paraMtu eka AzcaryakArI ghaTanA aisI ghaTI ki jo yamadUta unakI AtmAoM ko lene Aye the, unameM se eka yamadUta vezyA ko lekara svarga kI ora jAne lagA aura dUsarA yamadUta yogI ko lekara naraka kI ora jAne lagA / yogI ne yaha dekhA aura yamadUtako pUchA : bhaiyA, tumhArI koI bhUla to nahIM ho rahI hai ? vezyA kI jA tUM mujhe bhUla se naraka meM le jA rahA hai ! yaha kaisA anyAya ? kaisA aMdhera ?' usa yamadUta ne kahA : 'he mahAnubhAva, hamArI koI bhUla nahIM hai, koI anyAya nahIM hai, koI aMdhera nahIM hai / 76 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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yogI ne pRthvI kI ora dekhA to usake mRtadeha ko puSpahAroM se sajAyA gayA thA aura deha kI aMtima yAtrA bar3I zAna se nikala rahI thI / jaba ki usa vezyA ke mRtadeha ko uThAnevAlA bhI koI nahIM thaa| usakI lAza ghara se bAhara rAste kI eka ora par3I huI thii| kutte aura gIdha usa mRtadeha kI mejabAnI ur3A rahe the / majA lUTa rahe the / yaha dekhakara yogI bolA : he yamadUta, tuma se to jyAdA ye pRthvI ke loga nyAyapUrNa vyavahAra kara rahe haiM / dekho aura kucha samajhoM, tuma kaisI bhUla kara rahe ho !' ___ yamadUta ne kahA : pRthvI ke loga mAtra itanA hI jAnate haiM ki jo bAhara dikhatA hai / unakI dRSTi zarIra se jyAdA gaharI pahu~ca nahIM pAtI hai / prazna zarIra kA nahIM hai, mana kA hai ! zarIra se tuma saMnyAsI the, paraMtu tumhAre mana meM kyA thA ? kyA tumhArA mana vezyA ke ghara meM ho rahe suMdara nAca-gAna aura AnaMda se AkarSita nahIM rahatA thA ?' merA jIvana kitanA nIrasa vyatIta ho rahA hai aura yaha vezyA kaisA majA le rahI hai ? tuma yaha soca rahe the| paraMtu tumhe mAluma hai ki vezyA kI mAnasika sthiti kaisI thI ? vaha vezyA to tumhAre saMnyAsI - jIvana meM jo zAnti aura apUrva Ananda dikhatA thA, vaha pAne ke lie vicAroM meM khoyI huI rahatI thI ! rAtri meM jaba tuma bhajana gAte taba aura prAtaHkAla meM jaba madhura-maMgala zloka gAte taba vaha vezyA prabhumaya bana jAtI aura bhAvavibhora ho A~sU bahAtI thii| eka ora tuma saMnyAsI hone ke ahaMkAra ko puSTa karate the, dUsarI ora vaha vezyA apane pApI jIvana ke pazcAttApa se vinamra hotI jA rahI thI / tuma tumhAre jJAna se garvita hote jA rahe the, vaha vezyA apane ajJAna ke bodha se sarala aura zuddha hotI jA rahI thI / pariNAma svarupa tumhArA vyaktitva ahaMkArapUrNa banA aura vezyA kA vyaktitva ahaMkArazUnya banatA rahA / vezyA ke citta meM nahIM thA ahaMkAra, nahIM thI vAsanA / mRtyu ke samaya usakA citta paramAtmA kI prArthanA meM lIna thA / saMnyAsI mauna ho gayA / kahane kA tAtparya yaha hai ki parama satya kI prApti mAtra bAhya dharmakriyAoM se nahIM hotI hai / bAhya dhArmika AcaraNa se koI AdhyAtmika lAbha nahIM hotA hai / AdhyAtmika unnati bhItara meM hotI hai / AMtarika cetanA - kendra ko pakar3anA hogA / bhAvanAoM ke niraMtara manana-maMthana se AMtarika cetanA kendra khulatA hai / aura apUrva AtmAnanda kI anubhUti hotI hai / 77 | prastAvanA

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sukha aura Ananda kahA~ hai ? upAdhyAyajI mahArAja kahate haiM : 'samyag jJAna ke abhyAsa se unnata aura vivekaamRta kI vRSTi se suzobhita evaM mRdu bane hue aMtaHkaraNa meM ye suMdara bhAvanAyeM rahatI haiM / aura ye bhAvanAyeM hI alaukika sukha aura Ananda paidA karatI haiM / isakA artha samajhe Apa loga ? sukha aura Ananda bhItara meM antaHkaraNa meM khojane ke haiM, bhItara meM paidA karane ke haiM, bAhya vizva meM nahIM ! ye bhAvanAyeM hI bhItara meM sukha aura Ananda paidA karatI haiM ! isalie jo prabuddha manuSya sadaiva Ina bhAvanAoM ke mAdhyama se vicAra-ciMtana-manana karatA rahatA hai, vaha sadaiva sukhI aura Anandita rahatA hai ! vaha kabhI duHkhI aura azAnta nahIM rahatA yaha bAta, eka kathA kahakara samajhAU~gA / eka dina gA~va meM prabhAta hote hI eka AkAzavANI sunAI dI / aisI AkAzavANI - divya ghoSaNA kisI ne kabhI nahIM sunI thI / ghoSaNA kauna kara rahA hai, kahA~ se ho rahI hai, vaha mAluma nahIM par3atA thA / paraMtu ghoSaNA ke zabda spaSTa the / 'hai saMsAra ke logoM, paramAtmA kI ora se Apa ko eka amUlya bheMTa dI jAtI hai / tumhAre duHkhoM se mukta hone kA eka amUlya avasara diyA jAtA hai / Aja madhyarAtri meM, Apa apane sabhI duHkhoM kI gaTharI bAMdhakara nagara ke bAhara chor3a deM aura jo sukha, jitanA sukha cAhie, usakI gaTharI bAMdhakara sUryodaya se pahale nagara meM le AyeM / eka rAta ke liye pRthvI para kalpavRkSa AnevAlA hai, isalie koI pramAda nahIM kreN| jisa gaTharI meM duHkha hogA, usa gaTharI meM sukha A jAyegA / binA bhUla kiye, Aja rAta meM sukhI bana jAo !' ye zabda sabhI logoM ko sunAyI diye / bAra bAra yaha ghoSaNA hotI rahI / sUryAsta taka hotI rahI / logoM ko ghoSaNA para zraddhA ho gii| kauna vaisA mUrkha hogA ki jo aisA svarNa-avasara gaMvA de ? aura, saMsAra meM aisA kauna hai ki jo duHkhI nahIM hai aura aisA kauna hai ki jisa ko sukha pAne kI kAmanA nahIM hai ? sabhI loga apane-apane duHkha yAda kara gaTharI bA~dhane lge| sabhI ko eka hI cintA thI ki eka bhI duHkha gaTharI meM bA~dhanA raha nahIM jAyeM ! madhyarAtri hone para gA~va ke sabhI ghara khAlI ho gaye ! hajAroM strI-puruSa eka katAra meM apaneapane duHkhoM kI gaTharI uThAye gA~va ke bAhara jA rahe the| sabhI ne dUra dUra jAkara duHkhoM kI gaThariyA~ pheMka dI / vApasa lauTate samaya sabhI apane-apane sukhoM kI gaTharI bA~dhane lage / yAda 78 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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kara-kara jo jo sukha cAhie the, sabhI bA~dha liye / sabhI jaldI meM the / sUryodaya pahale gA~va meM pahu~canA thaa| sabhI ko eka hI ciMtA thI ki koI sakha gaTharI meM bA~dhanA raha na jAyeM ! sukha asaMkhya the aura samaya alpa thA ! phira bhI ho sake utanI sukhoM kI kalpanA kara, una sabhI ko bA~dhakara...jaldI jaldI loga sUryodaya pahale ghara vApasa lautte| ___ vApasa Ane para sabhI ne bar3A Azcarya dekhA / apanI A~khoM para vizvAsa nahIM ho rahA thA / jhopaDI kI jagaha mahala bana gaye the ! saba kucha svarNamaya bana gayA thaa| sukhoM kI jaise varSA ho rahI thii| jisane jo cAhA thA vaha saba, sabhI ko mila gayA thA ! __paraMtu eka nayA Azcarya khar3A ho gayA thaa| saba kucha milane para bhI kisI ke cehare para AnaMda nahIM thA ! cU~ki sabhI ko apane par3ausI kA sukha jyAdA lagatA thA aura vahI bAta duHkhI kara rahI thI ! purAne duHkha dUra ho gaye the, naye duHkha paidA ho gaye the ! duHkha badala gaye the / nayI ciMtAyeM savAra ho gaI thI / manuSya mana to vaise hI irSyAgrasta rahA thA / dUsaroM kA sukha unako duHkhI kara rahA thA, dUsaroM ke duHkha unako khuza kara rahe the / hAlA~ki dUsarA koI duHkhI nahIM rahA thA, paraMtu dUsarA koI duHkhI na ho, to svayaM ko sukha kaise milatA ! __usa gA~va meM eka vRddha saMnyAsI thA / vaha duHkha chor3ane aura sukha bAMdhane gA~va ke bAhara nahIM gayA thA / usake pAsa kucha thA hI nahIM ! hAlA~ki logoM ne usako bahuta samajhAyA thaa| ghoSaNA ke anusAra avasara khone jaisA nahIM thA, paraMtu vaha vRddha yogI nahIM mAnA thA / usane to sabhI ko haMsate haMsate kahA thA : jo bAhara hai vaha sukha nahIM hai, AnaMda nahIM hai, jo AnaMda mere bhItara hai, usako khojane bAhara kyoM jAU~ ? maine mere antaHkaraNa meM hI Ananda dekhA hai aura pAyA hai ! yaha sunakara logoM ne usa yogI ko pAgala mAnA thA, mahAmUrkha mAnA thaa| logoM ke ghara mahala bana gaye the / hIre aura motI patthara kI taraha rAste para par3e the / itanI samRddhi hone para bhI unake mukha para khuzI nahIM thI, Ananda nahIM thaa| taba usa yogI ne logoM ko haMsate haMsate kahA : kyA abhI bhI tuma logoM ko tumhArI bhUla samajha meM nahIM AyI ? sukha aura AnaMda kahA~ hai, samajha nahIM AtA ? sukha aura Ananda tumhAre anAsakta antaHkaraNa meM hai / tumhAre svayaM meM hI sukha aura prastAvanA 79

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AnaMda bhare par3e haiM !' mana irSyA Adi doSoM se grasta kyoM ? jaba taka bhAvanAoM se, 'anitya' 'azaraNa' Adi bhAvanAoM se, maitrI - pramoda Adi bhAvanAoM se mana zubha aura zubhra nahIM banatA hai taba taka mana meM irSyA, dveSa, moha, Asakti, daMbha, prapaMca Adi asaMkhya doSa rahanevAle hI haiM / koI manuSya tumheM zatru lagatA hai kAraNa ? maitrI bhAvanA nahIM hai ! kisI manuSya ke prati irSyA hotI hai kAraNa ? pramodabhAvanA nahIM hai ! kisI manuSya ke prati ghRNA hotI hai kAraNa ? karuNAbhAvanA nahIM hai ! kisI jIva ke prati dveSa hotA hai kAraNa ? mAdhyasthya bhAvanA nahIM hai ! kisI vastu yA vyakti ke prati mamatva hotA hai kyoM ? anitya bhAvanA nahIM hai ! - -- - - - - -- nirbhaya hokara duSkRtya karate ho kyoM ? azaraNabhAvanA nahIM hai ! saMbaMdhoM ke baMdhanoM meM baMdhe ho kyoM ? saMsAra - bhAvanA nahIM hai ! anekoM meM sukha lagatA hai kyoM ? ekatva bhAvanA nahIM hai ! dUsaroM ko apane mAna kara duHkhI ho kyoM ? anyatva bhAvanA nahIM hai ! apanA zarIra priya lagatA hai kyoM ? azuci bhAvanA nahIM hai ! pApa-puNya karmoM ke vicAra nahIM Ate haiM kyoM ? Azrava-bhAvanA nahIM hai ! karmabaMdha nahIM karane kA vicAra nahIM AtA hai kyoM ? saMvara bhAvanA nahIM hai / tapa karane ke vicAra nahIM Ate haiM kyoM ? karma nirjarA bhAvanA nahIM hai ! - dharma puruSArtha karane kI icchA nahIM hotI hai kyoM ? dharmasukRta bhAvanA nahIM hai ! ananta jIvasRSTi kA ciMtana nahIM karate ho kyoM ? loka svarupa bhAvanA nahIM hai / bodhi nahIM hai ! yadi ye sArI bhAvanAyeM aMtaHkaraNa meM ho, to irSyA, dveSa, moha, Asakti, daMbha, prapaMca Adi doSa raha sakate haiM kyA ? doSoM se mukta hone ke lie, mana ko, citta ko, aMtaHkaraNa ko doSarahita karane kA eka hI upAya hai, bhAvanAoM kA punaHpunaH ciMtana | 80 1 samyaktva pAne kI icchA nahIM hotI hai kyoM ? bodhi durlabha bhAvanA zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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mana ulajhA hai bAhya sukha-duHkhoM meM : __irSyA vagairaha doSoM kA kAraNa hai sukha-duHkha kI kalpanAyeM / bAhya sukha-duHkha kI kalpanAyeM hI irSyA vagairaha doSoM ko paidA karatI hai / isa viSaya meM eka acchI kahAnI hai / abhI Apane jo kahAnI sunI, vaisI hI hai yaha kahAnI, paraMtu thor3A sA aMtara hai| eka bAra eka gA~va meM AkAzavANI huii| divya ghoSaNA huI / parama kRpAnidhi paramAtmA tumhAre duHkha jAnate haiM / tuma loga kisI na kisI bAta ko lekara duHkhI ho, yaha bAta paramAtmA ko mAluma hai / tumheM apane se dUsare loga jyAdA sukhI lagate haiM, isalie eka acchI vyavasthA kI gaI hai : kala zAma ko, tuma sabhI tumhAre sukhoM kA aura duHkhoM kI gaTharI bA~dhakara, gA~va ke bAhara eka vizAla taMbU hai, usa taMbU meM TA~ga denA / phira zAnti se vahA~ baiTha jAnA / tumhArI gaTharI barAbara dhyAna meM rakhanA / jaba taMbU meM prakAza ho taba, jisa manuSya ko tuma jyAdA sukhI mAnate ho, usakI gaTharI uThA lenA / usameM jo sukha-duHkha hoMge vaha tumhAre ho jAyeMge / sUryodaya hone para ghara para cale jaanaa| ___ AkAzavANI ke anusAra sabhI ne apanI apanI gaThariyA~ usa taMbU meM TA~ga diye / bAda meM socane lage : kisakI gaTharI leMge ? jisakI gaTharI leMge, usameM sukha ke sAtha duHkha bhI jAyegA / kisa ke duHkha kaise hoMge, kyA patA ? dUsaroM ke duHkha apane lie to anajAna hI hote haiM / apane duHkha hI acche !' 'Known Devil is better than the unknown Devil.' hameM nizcita rupa se mAluma ho ki hama se koI jyAdA sukhI aura kama duHkhI hai, usakI hI gaTharI lenA cAhie / yadi jyAdA duHkhavAlA poTalA hAtha meM A gayA to kyA hogA ?' itane meM taMbU meM rozanI huI / sabhI ne khar3e hokara apanI apanI hI gaTharI utthaayii| jAne hue duHkha jyAdA acche hote haiM / sukha to kSaNabhaMgura hote haiM / samaya jAne para jisa meM sukha prApti kI kalpanA bA~dhI thI, vaha bhI duHkha dene lagatA hai / sukha aura duHkha mAtra mana kI kalpanA hotI hai / mana yadi usameM hI ulajhA huA rahatA hai to AdhyAtmika vikAsa-yAtrA nahIM hotI hai / bAraha bhAvanAoM kA aura maitrI Adi cAra bhAvanAoM kA cintana nahIM ho pAtA hai / isalie sukha-duHkha ko prastAvanA

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apane-apane karmoM ke udaya para chor3akara, mana ko bhAvanAoM ke ciMtana meM jor3anA hI zreyaskara hai / upasaMhAra : Aja isa graMtha kI prastAvanA ke ATha zlokoM kA vivecana pUrNa karatA hU~ / prastAvanA meM graMthakAra upAdhyAyajI mahArAja ne bhAvanAoM kI upAdeyatA acchI taraha samajhAyI hai / bhAvanAoM kI manuSya jIvana meM kitanI AvazyakatA hai, yaha aba jyAdA samajhAnA jarurI hai kyA ? Apa vidvAna ho, Apa ugra tapasvI ho, Apa paramAtma bhakta ho Apa zrAvaka ho yA sAdhu ho, Apa kitane bhI kAyAkaSTa sahana karate ho, paraMtu yadi Apake aMtaHkaraNa meM bhAvanAyeM nahIM hai, to Apa zAMti, samatA aura samAdhi prApta nahIM kara sakate / duSTa vicAroM se, gaMde vicAroM se Apa baca nahIM sakate / Artaraudra, vicAra Aga jaise haiM, yaha Aga 'viveka' ko jalA detI hai / viSaya lolupatA banI rahatI hai, phira samatA kaise aMkurita ho sakatI hai ? samyagjJAna ke abhyAsa se mana ko unnata karate raho aura viveka- amRta kI vRSTi se antaHkaraNa ko mRdu-komala aura suzobhita karate raho ! aise antaHkaraNa meM bhAvanAyeM raheMgI aura alaukika 'prazamasukha kA anubhava karAtI raheMgI / Apa sabhI aise anuttara prazama sukha kA anubhava karate raho yahI maMgala kAmanA / Aja basa, itanA hI 82 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 8 anitya bhAvanA - 1 zarIra kI anityatA zarIra kA saMbaMdha AyuSya ke sAtha AyuSya kI caMcalatA jIvana se lagAva nahIM rakhanA saMpatti kI anityatA mAlavapati muMja indriyoM ke vaiSayika sukha 'pudgala gItA' : cidAnandajI saMbaMdha : svapna, indrajAla tattvavijayajI kA eka kAvya upasaMhAra

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upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI, pahalI anitya bhAvanA ko 'puSpitAgrA' chaMda meM gAte haiM : vapurivapuridaM vidabhralIlAparicitamapyatibhaGguraM narANAm / tadatibhidurayauvanAvinItaM bhavati kathaM viduSAM mahodayAya ? // 7 // zarIra kI anityatA : upAdhyAyajI sarvaprathama zarIra kI anityatA batAte haiM / kyoM ki jIvAtmA ko saba se jyAdA zarIra ke upara prema hotA hai / zarIra, apanA zarIra saba se jyAdA priya hotA hai / rAga kA, mamatva kA, Asakti kA mukhya kendra zarIra hotA hai ! 'zarIra kaheM dehaM kaheM kAyA kaheM yA tana' kaheM... sabhI ekArthaka zabda haiM / zarIraprema, dehamamatva, kAyA-mAyA athavA tana-Asakti... kucha bhI kaho artha eka hI hai| aura yaha zarIra prema hI sabhI pApoM kA, sabhI duSkRtyoM kA mUla kAraNa hai / yaha kAyA kI mAyA hI azAnti, kleza aura saMtApoM kI jananI hai / / __ ajJAnI manuSya, mUr3ha jIvAtmA zarIra ko hI AtmA mAnatA hai / 'dehAtmabhAva meM hI jItA hai / zarIra vinAzI hai aura AtmA zAzvat hai, avinAzI hai, yaha satya usane pAyA nahIM hotA hai| isalie vaha kabhI zarIra kI vinAzitA, kSaNabhaMguratA, anityatA kA vicAra nahIM karatA hai ! jaise ki zarIra zAzvat ho, avinAzI ho, vaisA samajhakara vaha jItA hai / / ___ Azcarya isa bAta kA hai ki manuSya apanI A~khoM se aneka zarIroM ko jalate hue dekhatA hai, jamIna meM gar3ate hue dekhatA haiM... pazuoM kA bhakSya banate dekhatA hai, phira bhI vaha apane zarIra kI karUNAntikA kA vicAra nahIM karatA hai / aura jaba vaha kSaNa sAmane AtI hai, zarIra ko vinAza-kSaNa AtI hai taba vaha bhayabhIta ho jAtA hai, ghabarA jAtA hai / ati duHkha kA anubhava karatA hai / kisI mAsUma bacce kI mRtyu dekhakara, kisI tarUNa kI yA yuvaka kI mRtyu dekhakara, yaha zarIra pAnI ke bulabule jaisA kSaNabhaMgura hai, aisA vicAra kyoM nahIM AtA hai ? bhale hI zarIra yauvana ke unmAda se unmatta ho, balavAn ho, phira bhI eka kSaNa meM kyA vaha miTTI meM nahIM mila jAtA hai ? saMsAra meM aise drazya kyA nahIM dikhAyI dete haiM ? phira bhI mUr3ha jIvAtmA kA zarIra-moha TUTatA nahIM hai ! yaha bar3A Azcarya hai ! isalie jJAnI puruSoM ne sarvaprathama 'zarIra kI anityatA, zarIra kI kSaNabhaMguratA zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 84

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batAyI hai| zarIra kA saMbaMdha AyuSya ke sAtha : zarIra kA banA rahanA, jIvAtmA kI icchA para nirbhara nahIM hai, jIvAtmA kA jitanA 'AyuSya' hogA, utanI hI zarIra kI sthiti hotI hai / zarIra kI sthiti kaheM yA jIvana kI sthiti kaheM ! aura, AyuSyaM karbha hai, AyuSya-karma pUrvajanma meM bA~dhakara hI jIva janmatA hai / usako mAluma nahIM hotA hai ki vaha kitane dinoM kA, kitane mahinoM kA, kitane varSoM kA AyuSya lekara yahA~ janmA hai ! AyuSya pUrNa hone para jIvana pUrNa ho jAtA hai, zarIra kA nAza ho jAtA hai ! AyuSya acAnaka pUrNa ho jAtA hai, zarIra kA nAza ho jAtA hai ! AyuSya acAnaka pUrNa ho sakatA hai, isalie zarIra bhI acAnaka naSTa ho jAtA hai... isI kAraNa zarIra ko kSaNabhaMgura kahA hai aura AyuSya ko caMcala' kahA hai ! samudra kI jalataraMgoM jaisA caMcala batAyA hai / vAyu kI sarasarAhaTa se samudra kI jalataraMgeM kaisI caMcala bana jAtI haiM ? kabhI dekhanA... aura usameM AyuSya kI caMcalatA kA darzana krnaa| upAdhyAyajI ne vaisA darzana karake hI gAyA hai - AyurvAyutarattaraMgataralaM, lagnApadaH saMpadaH, sarve'pIndiya-gocarAzcaTulAH saMdhyAbharAgAdivat / mitra-strI-svajanAdisaMgamasukhaM svapnendrajAlopamaM, tatki vastu bhave bhavediha mudA-mAlambanaM yatsatAm // 2 // AyuSya kI caMcalatA : ___ jaba taka zarIra ke sAtha AyuSya kA saMbaMdha rahatA hai, taba taka jIvana' banA rahatA hai / yahI to jIvana hai ! zarIra aura AyuSya ke saMbaMdha para jIvana nirbhara hai / zarIra, AyuSya para nirbhara hai ! aura AyuSya caMcala hai ! asthira hai ! isalie zarIra asthira, anitya hai aura isI vajaha se hamArA jIvana asthira, caMcala aura vinAzI hai ! zramaNa bhagavAn mahAvIra svAmI ne apane aMtima upadeza meM kahA hai : 'asaMkhayaM jIviyaM mA pamAyae / jIvana asaMskRta hai / yAnI jaba jIvana TUTatA hai, samApta hotA hai, taba kisI bhI prakAra usa ko bacAyA nahIM jA sakatA hai / koI bacA nahIM sakatA hai| anitya bhAvanA

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jIvana se lagAva nahIM rakhanA hai : jo caMcala ho, asthira aura anitya ho, usase lagAva nahIM rakhanA cAhie / lagAva jaise nahIM rakhanA hai, vaise garva-abhimAna bhI nahIM karanA hai ! zarIra kA apratima rUpa, zarIra kA atula bala... bhI asthira aura anitya hotA hai / usa para bhI kabhI abhimAna nahIM karanA hai / zarIra kA, jIvana kA, dhArmika-AdhyAtmika vikAsa meM upayoga karanA hai, paraMtu abhimAna nahIM karanA hai / yaha zarIra, yaha jIvana kabhI bhI dhokhA de sakatA hai / yadi usa para lagAva hogA, mamatva hogA to duHkhI duHkhI ho jAoge / isalie sarvaprathama zarIra - jIvana kI pratidina kSaNikatA, anityatA kA ciMtana karane ko kahA hai / 1 zarIra kI, AyuSya kI aura jIvana kI kSaNikatA, anityatA samajhAne ke lie dUsare muni - kaviyoM ne bhI kucha kAvyoM kI racanAyeM kI haiN| vaise eka muni - kavi jayasoma ne gAyA hai -- kihA~ lage dhu~oM dhavalaharA rahejI, jala - parapoTo joya, AUkhu athiratima manuSyanuM jI, garva ma karazo koya, je kSaNamAM kheru hoya... atula bala suvara jinavara jisyAjI, cakrI haribala jor3I, na rahyA eNe juga koI thira thaI jI, suranara bhUpati kor3I... anityatA kA draSTAMta dete hue kavi ne kahA hai : dhavalatA ko haranevAlA dhu~A kaba taka rahatA hai ? aura pAnI ke bulabule bhI kitanA samaya Tikate haiM ? jIva kA AyuSya vaisA kSaNika hai isalie abhimAna nahIM kreN| kSaNamAtra meM zarIra rAkha (kheru) ho jAyegI, tumhArA garva naSTa ho jaayegaa| atula balavAle indra aura tIrthaMkara bhI saMsAra meM sthira nahIM raha pAye, cakravartI aura baladeva bhI sthira nahIM rahe ! devadevendra, rAjA aura samrATa kror3oM kI saMkhyA meM ho gaye... ve bhI AyuSya pUrNa hone para cale gaye... tujhe bhI eka dina jAnA hai, isalie AyuSya zarIra aura jIvana ke viSaya meM abhimAna mata kara / anityatA kA ciMtana karate rahane se abhimAna 86 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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nahIM hogA, vaise lagAva bhI nahIM rahegA / isI prakAra upAdhyAyazrI sakalacaMdrajI ne bhI anityAdi bhAvanAoM ko kAvya meM utArI haiM / bahuta bhAvapUrNa kAvyaracanA kI hai, sunie anitya bhAvanA kA prAraMbha unhoMne kisa prakAra kiyA hai / / muMjha mA, muMjha mA, mohamAM muMjha mA. zabda vara rupa rasa gaMdha dekhI; athira te athira tuM, athira tanu jIvitaM, samaja mana, gagana hari-cApa pekhI... ? he Atmana, tUM zreSTha vaise zabda, rUpa, rasa, gaMdha aura sparza ko dekhakara (zarIra kI pA~ca indriyoM ke viSayoM ko) una meM mohita na ho ! mohita na ho ! kyoM ki ve sabhI paudgalika bhAva asthira haiM, anitya haiM ! tUM bhI asthira hai, terA jIvana aura terA zarIra bhI asthira hai ! varSAkAla meM saMdhyA ke samaya gagana meM indradhanuSya ko dekhanA aura usameM tere zarIra kI evaM jIvana kI anityatA... kSaNabhaMguratA dekhanA !' saMpatti kI anityatA: ___ AyuSya, zarIra aura jIvana kI anityatA batAkara upAdhyAyajI saMpattioM kI bhI caMcalatA batAte haiM / lagnApadaH saMpadaH Rddhi-siddhi aura saMpatti, vipattioM ke bAdala se AcchAdita haiM / ve kahate haiM: saMpatti hogI to vipatti AyegI hI ! dUsarI koI Apatti Aye yA nahIM, bhaya kI Apatti to AtI hI hai ! aura, saMpatti sadAkAla ke lie manuSya ke pAsa rahatI bhI nahIM hai ! sakalacandrajI ne kahA hai - lacchI sariya-gati pare eka ghara navi rahe, dekhatAM jAya prabhujIva letI, athira savi vastune kAja mUDho kare jIvar3o pApanI kor3I ketI... muMjha mA. rAca mata rAjanI RddhizuM parivaryo aMte saba Rddhi visarAla hoze... Rddhi sAthe savi vastu mUkI jate divasa do-tIna parivAra roze... muMjha mA. / anitya bhAvanA 87 !

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saritA ke pravAha kI taraha lakSmI-saMpatti eka ghara meM, eka sthAna meM nahIM rahatI hai / jaise nadI kA jala bahatA rahatA hai, sthAna badalatA rahatA hai / saMpatti usake svAmI kA ( mAlika kA) jIva lekara jAtI hai / arthAt lakSmI calI jAne para kaI lakSmIpati ke prANa bhI cale jAte haiM / 1 aisI anitya- asthira vastuoM ke lie mUrkha jIva kitane pApa bA~dhatA hai ? aneka prakAra ke pApa kara ke vaha saMpatti pAne kA prayatna karatA hai / he Atman, tujhe rAjaRddhi prApta huI ho to bhI rAcanA mata, khuza nahIM honA / kyoM ki eka dina vaha rAjaRddhi naSTa honevAlI hai / athavA rAjaRddhi aura parivAra ko chor3akara tujhe jAnA par3egA, terI mRtyu ho jaayegii| do-cAra dina parivAra rUdana karegA... bAda meM tujhe bhUla jAyegA !' mAlavapati muMja : jayasoma muni, dhana-saMpatti ko pAne kI taraMge jaisI kahate haiM aura saMdhyA ke raMga jaisI batAte haiM : 'dhana-saMpada paNa dIse kAramI jI, jehavA jala - kallola / ' muMja sarikhe mAgI bhIkhar3I jI rAma rahyA vanavAsa, iNe saMsAre sukha-saMpadA jI jima saMdhyA- rAga vilAsa...' jisa prakAra saMdhyA ke raMga AkAza meM sthira nahIM hote, dekhate-dekhate vilIna ho jAte haiM, vaise saMsAra meM sukha-saMpati dekhate-dekhate calI jAtI hai / isa bAta ko puSTa karane kavi ne do prAcIna draSTAMta diye haiN| eka hai mAlavapati rAjA muMja kA aura dUsarA zrI rAmacandrajI kA / 88 mAlavadeza kA rAjA muMja parAkramI thA, vidvAn bhI thA / paraMtu eka dina rAjA tailapa ne usako yuddha meM harA diyA aura usako bA~dhakara apanI rAjadhAnI meM le gayA / kArAvAsa meM DAla diyaa| paraMtu jaba muMja ne kArAvAsa se bhAgane kI yojanA banAyI, yojanA rAjA tailapa kI bahana mRNAlinI ko batA dI / kyoM ki mRNAlinI se usakA prema ho gayA thA aura usako vaha apane sAtha le jAnA cAhatA thA / mRNAlinI ne muMjakI yojanA rAjA tailapa ko batA dI ! tailapa rAjA ne muMja ke hAthoM pairoM meM ber3iyA~ DAla dI aura hAthoM meM bhikSApAtra pakar3AyA / apanI nagarI zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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meM ghara-ghara usako bhikhArI ke rupa meM phirAyA aura bAda meM hAthI ke pairoM ke nIce kucalavA diyA / muMja kA kahA~ rahA rAjya ? kahA~ gayA zarIra-bala ? kahA~ rahA sukha-vaibhava ? saba kucha naSTa ho gayA / dUsarA draSTAMta diyA hai zrI rAmacaMdrajI kA / muhUrta nikalA thA rAjyAbhiSeka kA aura cale gaye vanavAsa meM / rAjya, vaibhava aura saMpatti tyAga kara, jaMgaloM meM phirate rhe| __ dhanasaMpatti, rAjya saMpatti aura sukhasaMpatti kI anityatA, asthiratA aura vinazvaratA batAkara, usa saMpatti ke upara moha nahIM rakhane kA upadeza diyA hai / mohamUr3ha nahIM banane kI preraNA dI hai| indriyoM ke vaiSayika sukha : ___ indriyoM ke priya vaiSayika sukhoM kI anityatA batAte hue upAdhyAyajI ne kahA 'sarve'pIndriyagocarAzca caTulAH sandhyAbharAgAdivat / ' saMdhyA ke kSaNika raMgoM jaise pA~ca indriyoM ke viSaya sukha haiM / - vaiSayika sukhoM se indriyA~ kabhI tRpta nahIM hotI, - viSayoM kI priyApriya kI kalpanAyeM badalatI rahatI haiM, - priya viSaya kI prApti puNyakarma ke adhIna hotI hai, - priya viSaya puNyakarma detA hai, pApakarma chIna letA hai ! - priya viSaya apriya bana jAtA hai, apriya viSaya priya bana jAtA hai / __ kabhI aisA bhI hotA hai ki priya viSaya prApta hote haiM, paraMtu indriyA~ kSatigrasta ho jAtI hai ! indriyA~ viSayabhoga nahIM kara sakatI haiM / - madhura zabda sunane ke sAdhana haiM (reDio, TI.vI. vagairaha) paraMtu kAna bahare ho gaye ho ! baharApana A gayA ho / - suMdara drazya, suMdara rUpa... saundarya ke sAdhana upalabdha hai, paraMtu A~khoM meM aMdhApana ___A gayA ho / athavA A~kheM rogagrasta ho gaI hoN| - manohara bAga ho, bagIcA ho, itra ho, seMTa ho...sugaMdhI aneka padArtha ho, paraMtu nAka hI bigar3a gayA ho ! nAka ko sugaMdha-durgaMdha kA anubhava hI na ho ! - khAne ke svAdiSTa bhojana ho, peya - padArtha ho, paraMtu jIbha hI svAdahIna ho gaI ho athavA jIbha ko lakavA-roga laga gayA ho ! / anitya bhAvanA 89

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sparza ke, priya sparza ke viSaya mile hoM paraMtu zarIra kI camaDI hI 'sensalesa' anubhavarahita ho gaI ho, kisI prakAra kA priya apriya sparza kA anubhava hI nahIM ho ... ! viSayoM kI anityatA ke sAtha indriyoM kI bhI anityatA kA, caMcalatA kA ciMtana karanA cAhie / yaha ciMtana jIvAtmAko viSayalolupa nahIM hone degA / yogI cidAnandajI ne 'pudgala - gItA meM viSaya sukhoM ke upabhoga ke bhayAnaka pariNAma batAye haiM : pudgalika sukha sevata ahaniza, mana- indriya na dhAve, jima ghRta madhu AhUti detAM, agni zAnta na thAve // jima jima adhika viSaya sukha seve, tima tima tRSNA dIpe, jima apeya jala pAna kiyA thakA, tRSA kahA~ kima chIpe ? pudgalika sukhanA AsvAdI eha marama navi jANe, jima jAtyaMdha puruSa dinakaranuM teja navi pahicANe || indriyajanita viSayarasa sevata vartamAna sukha ThANe, paNa kiMpAka taNAM phalanI pare, navi vipAka tasa jANe // phala kiMpAka thakI eka ja bhava, prANa haraNa duHkha pAve, indriyajanita viSayarasa te to, cihuM gati meM bharamAve || evaM jANI viSayasukha seMtI vimukha rUpa nita rahiye, trikaraNa yoge zuddhabhAva dhara, bheda yathAratha lahiye // pA~ca indriyoM ke viSaya - sukha 'anitya' haiM, aisA kahakara jJAnI puruSa jIvoM ko viSaya sukhoM se Asakti tor3ane kI preraNA dete haiM / viSaya sukha bhogane jaise nahIM haiM - isa bAta ko acchI taraha samajhAte hue yogI zrIcidAnandajI ne kahA hai * rAta-dina viSaya sukha bhogane para mana aura indriyA~ tRpta nahIM hotI haiM ! jisa prakAra agni meM ghI aura madhu kI AhUti DAlane para agni zAnta nahIM hotI, paraMtu vizeSa prajvalita hotI hai / * jaise jaise jyAdA viSayasukha jIva bhogatA hai, vaise vaise tRSNA bar3hatI hai| jisa prakAra samudra kA pAnI pIne se tRSA zAnta nahIM hai paraMtu bar3hatI hai / * paraMtu jina jIvoM ko viSaya sukhoM meM hI majA A gayA hotA hai ve loga isa marma ko nahIM jAnate / jisa taraha janmAMdha manuSya sUrya ke prakAza ko pahacAna zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 90 -

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nahIM sakatA, dekha nahIM sktaa| * indriyajanya vaiSayika sukhapAna karanevAlA, sukhapAna karate samaya nahIM samajhatA hai ki vaha kiMpAkaphala khA rahA hai ! kiMpAkaphala khAne meM mIThA hotA hai, paraMtu pariNAma mRtyu hotI hai ! * paraMtu kiMpAkaphala khAne se eka bAra hI prANaharaNa kA duHkha panuSya pAtA hai, jaba ki indriyajanita viSayasukha bhogane se cAroM gati meM aneka bAra janma mRtyu ke duHkha pAtA hai / * viSaya sukhoM kI isa vAstavikatA ko jAna kara, una sukhoM se vimukha rahanA cAhie / mana-vacana-kAyA se zuddha-pavitra bhAvoM ko dhAraNa kreN| viSayAnanda aura AtmAnaMda kA bheda yathArtha rUpa meM samajha laH / saMbaMdha svapna; indrajAla : indriyoM ke viSaya sukhoM kI anityatA aura bhayAnakatA batAne ke bAda, upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI saMbaMdhoM kI anityatA batAte haiM - 'mitra-strI-svajanAdisaMgamasukhaM svapnendrajAlopamam / ' 'mitra-strI-svajanoM ke saMyoga kA sukha svapna jaisA hai athavA indrajAla jaisA saMsAra meM yadi koI vyApaka baMdhana hai to yaha saMbaMdhoM kA hai ! jIva kA janma hote hI mAtA kA saMbaMdha nizcita ho jAtA hai / mAtA ke lie putra yA putrI kA saMbaMdha bana jAtA hai / vaise hI pitA kA saMbaMdha bana jAtA hai / yaha mAtA, yaha pitA,' yaha saMbaMdha sneha se, rAga se dRDha hotA jAtA hai / thor3eM baDeM hone para mitroM kA saMbaMdha banatA hai / mitroM ke sAtha khelane se, phirane se, khAne - pIne se vaha saMbaMdha bhI pakkA banatA jAtA hai / phira yauvana Ane para jaba zAdI hotI hai taba pati-patnI kA saMbaMdha banatA hai / paraspara sneha-rAga-moha bar3hane se yaha saMbaMdha bhI dRr3ha hotA hai / isa prakAra bhAI-bahana kA saMbaMdha, bhAI-bhAI kA saMbaMdha, cAcAmAmA kA saMbaMdha....saMbaMdhoM kI jAla vistRta hotI jAtI hai / saMbaMdhoM ke sAtha, saMbaMdhoM ko nibhAne ke lie kucha kartavyoM kA pAlana karanA anivArya hotA hai / saMbaMdha acche banAye rakhane ke lie kucha AdAna-pradAna karanA par3atA hai / yadi usameM kucha kama-jyAdA hotA hai to saMbaMdha bigar3atA hai / saMbaMdhoM meM dhIre dhIre svArtha-tattva kA praveza hotA hai, taba saMbaMdha duHkhadAyI banate haiM / | anitya bhAvanA

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saMbaMdhoM meM daMbha aura kapaTa mila jAte haiM, taba usake kaTu-pariNAma Ate haiM / jaba taka mAtA-putra kA, pati-patnI kA, bhAI-bhAI kA, bhAI-bahana ke saMbaMdha niHsvArtha rahate haiM taba taka ve saMbaMdha pavitra mAne gaye haiM / isa draSTi se mAtRdevo bhava, pitRdevo bhava...' kahA gayA hai, paraMtu unhI saMbaMdho meM svArthavRtti A jAtI hai taba dveSa daMbha, irSyA Adi doSa saMbaMdhoM kA asAra-niHsAra banA dete haiM / tattvavijaya' nAma ke eka muni - kavi ne eka kAvya likhA hai - kehanA re sagapaNa ? kehanI mAyA ? kehanI majjana-sagAI re, sajjana-varga koI sAtha na Ave, Ave prA) kamAI re.............1 mAjhaM mAjhaM sau kahe prANI tArI koNa sagAI re ? Apa svAratha sahune vahAlo, kuNa mannAra kuNa mAI re ?..........2 culaNI udare brahmadatta Ayo juo mAta sagAI re, putra mAraNa ne agni ja kIdhI, lAgvanAM ghara nipajAI re............3 kASTapiMjaramAM ghAlIne mAre, zamana yahI doDe thAI re, koNike nija tAta ja haNIyo, to kihA~ rahI putra sagAI re ?..4 bharata-bAhubalI Ape laDIyA, Aye sajja thAI re, bAra varasa saMgrAma ja kIdho. to kihA~ rahI bhrAtR-sagAI re ? ...5 guru upadezathI rAya pradezI, sudho samakita pAI re, svArathavaza surakAntA nArI, mAryo piyu viSa pAI re...........6 nija aMgajanA aMgane chede, juo rAhu ketu kamAI re, saha-sahune nija svAratha vahAlo, kuNa guru, kuNa bhAI re ? .....7 subhUma-parazurAma ja doI mAhomAMhe vera banAI re, krodha karIne narake pahoMcyA, kihA~ gaI tAta-sagAI re ? ..........8 cANakye to patana sAthe kIdhI mitra sagAI re, maraNa pAmyo ne manamAM harakhyo, kihA~ rahI mitra sagAI re ?......9 isa kAvya ko samajhe na ? saMbaMdhoM kI anityatA, niHsAratA samajhane ke lie itane draSTAMta paryApta nahIM haiM kyA ? * mAtA aura putra ke saMbaMdha kI asAratA batAte hue unhoM ne brahmadatta cakravartI aura usakI mAtA culaNI kA draSTAMta diyA hai| mAtAne putra ko mArane ke lie lAkSAgRha meM Aga lagAyI thii| zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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pitA aura putra ke saMbaMdha kI niHsAratA, anityatA batAte hue kavi ne rAjA zreNika aura rAjakumAra koNika kA draSTAMta diyA hai / putrane pitA ko kArAvAsa meM DAlA thA aura rojAnA cAbuka se mAratA thA / pati aura patnI ke saMbaMdha kI dAruNatA batAte hue kavi ne rAjA pradezI aura rAnI sUryakAntA kA draSTAMta batAyA hai| rAnI ne rAjA ko jahara dekara mAra DAlA thA / pitA-putra ke saMbaMdha kI niHsAratA batAte hue rAhu-ketu kI kahAnI batAyI hai / apane putra ke hI aMgoM kA chedana karanevAle pitA ko pitA kaise kaheM ? sama aura parazurAma paraspara zatru bane, donoM naraka meM gaye / cANakya aura parvata mitra bane / parvata kI mRtyu hone para cANakya khuza huA thA ! mitra kA saMbaMdha kaisA asAra ? kavi kahatA hai - koI kisI kA sagA nahIM hai, sabhI ko apanA svArtha hai ! kauna sajjana aura kauna durjana ? svArtha hI sajjana ko durjana banAtA hai aura svArthavaza durjana sajjana hone kA daMbha karatA hai ! upasaMhAra : isa prakAra Aja chaha prakAra kI anityatA kI bAta kI 1. zarIra kI anityatA, 2. AyuSya kI anityatA, 3. jIvana kI anityatA 4. saMpatti dhana daulata kI anityatA, vaiSayika sukhoM kI anityatA, aura 5. 6. saMbaMdhoM kI anityatA. - ina chaha bAtoM ke prati bhItara se virakta banakara jInA hai| yadi virakta banakara jInA sIkha liyA to Ananda hI Ananda pAoge / kleza, saMtApa aura udvega mukti mila jAyegI / Aja basa, itanA hI anitya bhAvanA -- 93

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 9 anitya bhAvanA saMkalanA : saMtoM kA udAsIna bhAva parivartana : dravyAtma + aura bhAvAtmaka * parivartanazIla padArthoM ke sAtha prema nahIM 2 zarIra eka maTha jJAnAnanda kA pada * svajana parijanoM meM parivartana mUr3ha jIva kA moha prabuddha AtmA kI manaHsthiti * prabuddha manuSya kI yauvana ke prati dRSTi yauvana ko sArthaka karanevAle

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saMtoM kA udAsIna bhAva : upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayI 'anityabhAvanA meM 6 bAtoM kI anityatA batAkara eka prazna pUchate haiM : tatkiM vastu bhave bhavediha mudAmAlambanaM yatsatAm ?' isa saMsAra meM aisI kauna sI vastu hai ki jo sajjanoM ko, saMto ko harSa pradAna kareM ? aisI eka bhI vastu nahIM hai, jisa se saMtoM ko harSa ho ! maiM satAm kA artha saMtapurUSa karatA hU~ / saMtapurUSa ve hote haiM jo AtmajJAnI hote haiM / jar3a aura cetana kA bheda jinhA ne jAnA hotA hai / AtmA aura pudgala kA bhedajJAna jihnoM ne pAyA hotA hai / isalie saMsAra meM saMtapurUSa harSa-zoka se mukta ho, udAsIna bhAva meM rahate hai / zrI cidAnandajI ne kahA hai - dhanya dhanya jaga meM te prANI, je nita rahata udAsa, zuddhaviveka hiye meM dhArI, kare na para kI Asa. saMsAra meM udAsIna bhAva se jInA sarala nahIM hai, isalie udAsIna bhAva se jInevAla saMtoM ko cidAnandajI dhanyavAda dete hue kahate haiM dhanya ! dhanya !' yaha bAta tabhI ghaTatI hai, jaba bhItara meM zuddha viveka kA udaya hotA hai / yAnI cetana - acetana kA bhedajJAna spaSTa rUpa se udbhAsita hotA hai / ___ zarIra, AyuSya, jIvana, saMpatti, vaiSayika sukha, svajana parivAra ityAdi ke prati, mohita nahIM hotA hai, vaise udvigna bhI nahIM hotA hai / rAga aura dveSa rahita udAsIna sthiti banI rahatI hai / aisI udAsIna sthiti pAnA vidvAnoM ke lie bhI muzkila hotI hai, isa bAta ko gAte hue nirAzA ke sura meM vinayavijayajI kahate haiM : prAtabhrAtarihAvadAtarucayo ye cetanA'cetanA, draSTA vizvamanaH pramodavidurA bhAvAH svataH sundarAH / tAMstatraiva dine vipAkavirasAn hA nazyataH pazyata zcetaH pretahataM jahAti na bhavapremAnubandhaM mama // maiM jAnatA hU~, dekhatA hU~ ki jo cetana-acetana padArtha, prabhAta meM zobhAyamAna hote haiM, mana ko prasanna kara denevAle hote haiM, AhlAdaka va AkarSaka hote haiM, ve hI padArtha saMdhyA ke samaya nirasa, nisteja aura anAkarSaka bana jAte haiM ! yaha pratyakSa dekhane para bhI merA pretahata mana, mUr3ha mana una padArthoM kA prema... moha... rAga chor3atA nahIM hai... yaha bar3I duHkha kI bAta hai / __ anitya bhAvanA

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sUryodaya se sUryAsta taka jar3a-cetana padArthoM meM jo parivartana AtA hai, vaha parivartana kI prakriyA ko upAdhyAyajI ne dekhI hai / parivartana do prakAra ke hote haiM : dravyAtmaka aura bhAvAtmaka / parivartana : dravyApaka aura bhAvAtmaka : - subaha puSpa khilatA hai zAma ko kumhalA jAtA hai, - subaha kA snAna zarIra zAma ko gaMdA ho jAtA hai, - subaha meM jo vastra suMdara dikhate haiM, zAma ko maile dikhate haiM, - subaha kA priya bhojana, zAma ko apriya lagatA hai... ye saba dravyAtmaka parivartana kahe jAte haiN| - subaha meM priya zabda sunAnevAle svajana, zAma ko apriya zabdoM kI varSA karate - subaha meM jina ke prati sneha hotA hai, zAma ko unake prati dveSa ho jAtA hai| subaha meM jina ke prati durbhAva hotA hai, zAma ko unake prati sadbhAva paidA ho jAtA hai ! ye saba bhAvAtmaka parivartana kahe jAte haiN| jina kA rUpa, rasa aura gaMdha badalatA rahatA hai aura jina kA rAga-dveSa aura moha Adi bhAva badalate rahate haiM... aise jar3a cetana padArthoM ke prati prema nahIM honA caahie| prema parivartanazIla padArtha ke prati nahIM honA cAhie, zAzvat ke sAtha prema honA cAhie / anitya - parivartanazIla padArtha ke sAtha prema TikatA nahIM hai, TUTa jAtA hai / zAzvat ke sAtha kiyA huA prema TUTatA nahIM hai ! isIlie paramAtmA se prema karanA hai ! kyoMki paramAtmA zAzvat hai ! paraMtu vAsanA ke preta se Ahata mana, anitya aura parivartanazIla padArthoM ke sAtha hI prema karatA hai ! aise mana ko kaise samajhAnA ? / ___ upAdhyAyajIne cetaH pretahataM kahA hai / preta yAnI bhUta, preta yAnI vyaMtara ! bhUtapreta kahate haiM na ? jisa ko bhUta-preta laga jAtA hai vaha vivekazUnya vyavahAra karatA hai| usameM svayaM kI samajhadArI nahIM rahatI hai / jyAdAtara, bhUta-preta, nirbala aura caMcala cittavAloM ko hI jaldI lagate haiM / upAdhyAyajI ko zaMkA ho gaI ki kyA mere citta ko bhUta-preta laga gayA hai ? anyathA pratyakSa parivartana pAnevAle padArthoM ke prati merA mana prema kyoM karatA hai ? | 96 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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padArthoM kI anityatA batAte hue zAmala bhaTTa ne kahA hai - je jAyuM te jAya, jeha phUlyuM te kharaze, bharyu teha ThalavAya, caDyuM te to utaraze, lIluM te sukAya, navaM te jUnuM thAze, AvaradAvaza sarva, kAla sahu ko ne khAze. jo janamatA hai usakA nAza hotA hai, jo khilatA hai vaha jhaDa jAtA hai, jo bharA huA hotA hai vaha khAlI ho jAtA hai, jo car3hatA hai vaha utaratA hai, jo harA hotA hai vaha sukhatA hai aura jo nayA hotA hai vaha jIrNa hotA hai... saba kucha apanI maryAdA meM hai / kAla-mahAkAla sarvabhakSI hotA hai / padArthoM ke parivartana kI kitanI acchI bAta kahI hai kavi ne ? parivartanazIla padArthoM ke sAtha prema nahIM : - pahale zarIra kI parivartanazIlatA kA vicAra kareM / 1. zizu-avasthA, 2. bAlya-avasthA, 3. tarUNa avasthA, 4. yuvAvasthA 5. prauDhAvasthA 6. vRddhAvasthA. ___ avasthAoM ke anurupa mana ke bhAvoM kA aura zarIra kI kriyA-karmoM kA bhI parivartana dekhane meM AtA hai na ? - kabhI zarIra nirogI hotA hai, kabhI zarIra rogagrasta hotA hai, - kabhI zarIra suMdara hotA hai, vahI zarIra akasmAta meM kurUpa bhI ho jAtA hai / - kabhI zarIra ThaMr3A hotA hai, kabhI garma hotA hai ! aise zarIra para bharosA rakha kara, kyoM usake upara prema karanA ? eka kavine kahA hai - ___kyA tana mAMjatA re, eka dina miTTI meM mila jAnA.... jJAnAnanda ne zarIra ko maTha' kI upamA dekara, aura AtmA (avadhU) ko usa | anitya bhAvanA 38533883333333333333898 17

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maTha meM soyA huA dekha kara kahA hai : avadhU ! kyA sotA isa maTha meM ? isa maTha kA hai kavaNa bharosA ? par3a jAye caTapaTa meM... avadhU. 98 pAnI kinAre maTha kA vAsA kavaNa vizvAsa e taTa meM ? avadhU. china meM tAtA, china meM zItala roga zoka bahuM maThameM... avadhU. ghaMTI pherI ATo khAyo kharacI na bAMdhI te vaTa meM... avadhU. sotA sotA kAla gamAyo aba hu na jAgyo tU ghaTa meM... avadhU. itanI suna nidhi saMyama milakara ! jJAnAnanda Aye ghaTa meM... 3 ..avadhU. soyI huI... pramAda meM soyI huI AtmA ko jagAne ke lie, kitanI acchI preraNA dI hai jJAnAnandajI ne ? zarIra rUpa maTha ke upara vizvAsa rakha kara, nizcita bana kara AtmA soyI hai, yaha dekhakara kavi AtmA ko saMbodhita kara kahate haiM : isa kAyA ke maTha meM kyA nizcita hokara soyA hai Atman ! isa kAyA ke maTha kA bharosA nahIM hai, yaha kabhI bhI gira sakatA hai, kyoMki mRtyu - nadI ke ( pAnI ke ) kinAre para basA hai yaha maTha ! kinArA kabhI bhI Dhaha sakatA hai... aura yaha kAyA kA maTha kabhI garama hotA hai, kabhI zItala... kabhI bhI dharAzAyI ho sakatA hai ... (isa lie jAga... nIMda kA tyAga kara ) zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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tUne mAtra khAne kA kAma kiyA, musApharI laMbI hai... tUne sAtha meM pAtheya nahIM liyA ? ( rAste meM kyA khAyegA ? ) - kitanA socA ? manuSya janma ko vyartha ga~vAyA ? abhI taka nahIM jAgA bhItara meM ? he cetana ! itanA sunakara jAga jA ! tere ghaTa meM jJAnAnanda bhara jAyegA ! svajana - parijanoM meM parivartana : jisa prakAra zarIra kI avasthAyeM parivartanazIla haiM, vaise svajana - parijana bhI parivartanazIla hote haiM / kucha udAharaNa se samajhAtA hU~ / baccA choTA hotA hai taba mAtA-pitA ko priya hotA hai, jaba vaha bar3A hotA hai aura mAtA-pitA kA kahA nahIM mAnatA hai, mAtA-pitA kI sevA nahIM karatA hai taba usI lar3ake ke prati mAtA-pitA roSa karate haiM I jisa lar3ake ko mAtA-pitA ke prati prema hotA hai, zAdI ke bAda prAyaH mAtApitA ke prati prema nahIM rahatA / manamuTAva, Apasa meM jhagar3A hotA hai aura lar3akA mAtA-pitA se alaga ho jAtA hai / pati-patnI ke bIca prAraMbha kAla meM prema hotA hai, bAda meM Apasa meM prAyaH rojAnA kleza... anabana... jhagar3A zurU ho jAtA hai / do mitroM ke bIca jaba svArtha A jAtA hai taba prema kI jagaha zatrutA A jAtI hai / svajana parijanoM kA sneha prAyaH svArthajanya hotA hai / jaba taka eka dUsare ke svArtha puSTa hote haiM taba taka prema rahatA hai, jaba svArthapUrti nahIM hotI hai taba svajana - parijana badala jAte haiM / zatrutApUrNa vyavahAra karate haiM / - svajana - parijanoM ke saMbaMdha aise parivartanazIla hote hue jAnate hai, phira bhI unake prati mUr3ha mana Asakta rahatA haiM / unakA mamatva TUTatA nahIM haiM / eka vRddhAzrama meM hama gaye the / vRddhAzrama meM usa samaya mAtra 5-7 vRddha purUSa anitya bhAvanA 99

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I the / unako saba prakAra kI suvidhAyeM upalabdha thI / maine unako pUchA : yahA~ tumheM zAnti milI hai na ? zAnti se dharma ArAdhanA hotI hai na ? unhoM ne kahA : bAra bAra ghara - svajana - parivAra yAda AtA hai, mana meM rAga-dveSa hote haiM / ' jisa parivAra ne, jina svajanoM ne ina vRddhoM ko, unake hI gharoM meM se nikAla diye the, Azrama meM bheja diye the, jo svajana una kA mu~ha dekhanA bhI nahIM cAhate... una svajana - parijanoM ke prati abhI bhI una vRddhoM ko mamatva thA ! prema thA ! aisA prema karanevAle mana ko 'pretahata' nahIM kaheM to kyA kaheM ? jo mana pretahata nahIM hotA hai, jo mana mUr3ha nahIM hotA hai, jo mana jJAnavijJAna se vAsita hotA hai, vaha to pahale se hI saMsAra ke padArthoM ko parivartanazIla samajha letA hai, vaiSayika sukhoM ko duHkhadAyI samajha letA hai aura unakA tyAga kara saMyamamArga para, cAritramArga para cala detA hai / vaiSayika sukhoM ko evaM svajana parijanoM kA tyAga kara detA hai / vaha iMtajAra nahIM karatA hai ki jaba viSayasukha cale jAyeMge, jaba snehI - svajana mu~ha mor3a leMge, jaba zarIra aura indriyA~ azakta ho jAyeMgI... taba saMsAra kA tyAga kareMge ! jaba vaisI sthiti kA nirmANa hogA, taba pretahata mana kI tRSNA, mamatA drar3ha ho gayI hogI ! apane hRdaya meM parivAra Adi sabhI vaibhavoM kA bAra bAra vicAra kara, vyartha mohita hotA rahatA hai ! isI draSTi se upAdhyAyajI mahArAja ne kahA hai : mUDha jIva kA moha : mUDha muhyasi mUDha muhyasi mudhA, 100 vibhavamanucintya hRdi saparivAram / kuzazirasi nIramiva galadanilakampitaM, vinaya jAnIhi jIvitamasAram // 'upAdhyAyajI apane svayaM ko saMbodhita karate hue kahate hai : 'vinaya, tU jIvana ko asAra jAna, niHsAra jAna / kyoMki jIvana kSaNika hai... ati alpakAlIna hai aura caMcala hai / ghAsa ke patte para rahe hue jalabiMdu jaisA hai| pavana kA eka jhoMkA Ane para vaha jalabiMdu gira jAtA hai, vaise mahAkAla kA eka dhakkA lagane para jIvana samApta ho jAtA hai| isalie jIvana ke prati, vaibhavoM ke prati, zarIra aura svajanoM ke prati vyartha mohita mata ho / apane hRdaya meM Ina kSaNika padArthoM ke vicAra kara vyartha rAga-dveSa karatA hai / terI yaha mUr3hatA hai / zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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apane mana kA anuzAsana karate haiM vinayavijayajI / apane mana ko phiTakArate haiM / 'tU mUr3ha hai... tU mUr3ha hai...' ye zabda ghora phiTakAra ke haiM / he mana tujhe lAnata hai... ki tU sAMsArika vaibhavoM kA bArabAra bicAra karatA hai... jo vaibhava kSaNika jo kSaNika... vinAzI... kSaNabhaMgura hotA hai... usakA vicAra hI nahIM karanA caahie| usa para mamatva hI nahIM bA~dhanA cAhie / kSaNika ke sAtha mamatva bA~dhanA mUr3hatA hai / mUrkhatA hai / __ hA~, jisa zarIra ke sAtha jInA hai, jisa parivAra ke sAtha jInA hai, jina paudgalika viSayoM kA bhoga-upayoga karanA hai, jisa vaibhava-saMpatti ke sAtha jInA hai - unake sAtha mamatva nahIM bA~dhanA hai ! unake sAtha prema nahIM karanA hai / una para vizvAsa nahIM karanA hai| prazna : bar3A muzkila lagatA hai ! uttara : muzkila ko sarala banAne ke lie to bhAvanAoM se bhAvita honA hai ! bhAvanAoM ke mAdhyama se, anitya-bhAvanA ke sahAre muzkila kAma bhI sarala banegA / prayoga karake anubhava kareM / anubhava kara ke dekheM / prabuddha AtmA kI manaHsthiti : __bAhara se to zarIra Adi kSaNabhaMgura padArthoM ke sAtha hI jInA hogA, parivartana bhItara meM, antaHkaraNa meM lAnA hai / krAnti vaicArika karatI hai / - jaba zarIra rogagrasta ho, zastrAhata ho, - jaba saMpatti calI jAyeM, kama ho jAyeM, - jaba svajana mu~ha mor3a leM, parAye bana jAyeM, - jaba mitra zatru bana jAyeM... usa samaya ApakA mana azAnta, saMtapta aura udvigna nahIM bananA cAhie... basa, itanA hI pariNAma cAhie anitya bhAvanA ke ciMtana kA / jisa samaya mUDha, abudha aura mUrkha manuSya rotA hai, ghora duHkha anubhava karatA hai, usa samaya anityabhAvanA kA ciMtaka prabuddha manuSya svastha rahatA hai, prasanna rahatA hai / * koI usako pUchatA hai : ApakA zarIra itanA rogagrasta ho gayA hai... hameM bahuta duHkha hotA hai| vaha kahatA hai : zarIra rogagrasta honA hI thA, maiM jo hU~, pUrNa nirogI hU~ / maiM | anitya bhAvanA 101

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duHkhI nahIM hU~, Apa bhI duHkhI nahIM ho / * koI AzvAsana dete hue kahatA hai : Apako vyApAra meM bahuta bar3A nukasAna AyA... karor3a-do karor3a rUpayoM kA nukasAna huA aisA sunA hai, sunakara duHkha huaa| vaha kahatA hai : Apa kI sahAnubhUti ke lie AbhAra ! vaise maiMne saMpatti ko merI mAnI hI nahIM thI / saMpatti ko sadaiva caMcala, anitya mAnatA rahA hU~, isalie maiM saMpatti jAne para bhI svastha hU~, prasannacitta huuN| mujhe duHkha nahIM hai ! * koI sahAnubhUti jatAtA huA kahatA hai : mujhe jAnakara bar3A duHkha huA ki Apa ko akele chor3akara lar3ake alaga ho gaye / vRddhAvasthA ke prAraMbha meM parivAra se dUra rahanA bar3A duHkhadAyI hotA hai ! vaha kahatA hai : mitra, svajanoM ke saMbaMdha maiMne anitya hI mAnA thA aura mAnatA hU~ ! jaise jalayAna meM athavA vAyuyAna meM aneka musAphira ikaTThe hote haiM, jaba apanI apanI jagaha AtI hai, taba musAphira utara jAte haiM, cala dete hai ! hama bhI sabhI bhavayAtrA ke musAphira haiM ! musAphiroM kA saMbaMdha sthAyI nahIM rahatA, kSaNika hotA hai... alpa kAlIna hotA hai ! putroM kA, patnI kA, bhAI-bahanoM ke saMbaMdha vaise anitya hote haiM, ve cale gaye, mujhe koI duHkha nahIM hai / maiMne saMbaMdhoM ko kabhI sthAyI nahIM mAne / maine svajanoM se mamatva nahIM bAMdhA ! isalie mujhe koI duHkha nahIM hai| * koI Akara duHkha vyakta karatA hai : Apane jisa mitra ko bahuta sahAyatA dI thI, gire hue ko uThAyA thA, maiM jAnatA hU~, usane Apa ko hI dhokhA diyA... Apa ko hI girAne kI ceSTA kI... jAnakara bahuta duHkha huaa| vaha kahatA hai : mere dosta, mere bAhya vyavahAra se tumane mAna liyA thA ki usako maiM merA mitra mAnatA thA, usake sAtha merA lagAva thA ! nahIM, usako maine sahAyatA kI thI mAtra karUNA se, usako U~cA uThAne kA kAma kiyA thA, eka sAdharmika samajha kara ! paraMtu maine kabhI usake prati-upakAra kI apekSA nahIM rakhI thI aura jaisI tuma samajhate ho, vaisI maitrI kA saMbaMdha bhI nahIM jor3A thA / merI maitrI to saMsAra ke sabhI jIvoM ke sAtha hai / vaise usane mujhe dhokhA nahIM diyA hai, dhokhA denevAle mere karma hI haiM ! vaise usane dhokhA diyA, to bhI kyA ho gayA ? vaiSayika sukha cale gaye na ? maine vaiSayika sukhoM ko kSaNabhaMgura mAne haiM ! __ pazya bhaMguramidaM viSayasukhasauhRdaM zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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pazyatAmeva nazyati sahAsaM, etadanuharati saMsAraspaM rayA jjaladajalabAlikA ruci vilAsam // 2 // dekho, soco, vaiSayika sukhoM kA saMbaMdha kSaNabhaMgura hai / cakamA dekara, chalanA kara vaha saMbaMdha calA jAtA hai / isa saMsAra kI mAyA bijalI kI camaka jaisI caMcala hotI hai| prabuddha manuSya kI yauvana ke prati draSTi : sAmAnya manuSya, abudha manuSya viSayasukhoM ko bhogane kA acchA samaya yauvana kAla ko samajhatA hai ! yauvanakAla meM pA~coM indriyoM ke bharapUra vaiSayika sukha bhoge jA sakate hai -' aisI drar3ha mAnyatA hotI hai / isa meM bhI strI-puruSa kA saMgamasukha hI kendra meM hotA hai / yauvana ke prAraMbha meM hI seksa kI vRtti jAgrata hotI hai / vaha vRtti, purUSa ko strI kI ora aura strI ko purUSa kI ora AkRSTa karatI hai / yuvAvasthA meM strI-purUSoM ke bhItara viSaya vAsanA kA Avega prabala hotA hai / usa Avega para kaMTrola karanA, saMyama rakhanA, bahuta kaThina kAma hotA hai| isalie ve yauvana ko hI anitya kSaNabhaMgura kutte kI pU~cha jaisA vakra batAkara, samajhAkara, yauvana ke unmAda ko zAnta karane kA upAya karate haiM ! ve kahate haiM : hanta hatayauvanaM pucchamiva zauvanaM kuTilamati tadapi laghu draSTanaSTam / tena bata paravazAH paravazAhatadhiyaH kaTukamiha kiM na kalayanti kaSTam ? // 3 // saca, kutte kI pU~cha jaisA kuTila-vakra hai yauvana ! dekhate hI dekhate vaha (yauvana) naSTa ho jAtA hai / yauvana ke seksI Avega meM purUSa strI ko paravaza ho jAtA hai, usakI buddhi kuMThita ho jAtI hai...vaha viSayoM ke upabhoga (seksa) kI kaTutA... usake duHkhapUrNa pariNAma ko nahIM samajha pAtA hai ? upAdhyAyajI ko Azcarya hotA hai ! paraMtu yauvana kI yaha vAstavikatA hai / yauvana meM seksI Avega utanA prabala hotA hai ki jo buddhimAnoM kI, dhArmikoM kI buddhi ko bhI kuMThita kara detA hai / javAnI pariNAmoM kA vicAra karane prAyaH sakSama nahIM hotI hai / vAstavikatA ke vicAra bhI, unmatta yauvanakAla meM karanA asaMbhava sA hotA hai| | anitya bhAvanA 103

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aura, yauvana meM purUSa ko strI kA AkarSaNa, samAgama kI tIvra abhilASA... svAbhAvika hotI hai / vaisI hI bAta strI ke lie hotI hai / strI ko puruSa kA AkarSaNa prabala rahatA hai / aura jaba jisakA AkarSaNa hotA hai vaha mila jAtA hai taba donoM eka-dUsare ke vaza ho jAte haiN| eka-dusare ke binA raha nahIM sakate haiM / yauvanakAla meM kAma-purUSArtha hI pradhAna bana jAtA hai / ___ graMthakAra-kAvyakAra upAdhyAyajI ko to yuvakoM ko itanA hI samajhAnA hai ki "tumhArA yauvana jyAdA TikanevAlA nahIM hai... kSaNika hai ! kucha varSa hI TikanevAlA nahIM hai, isalie yauvana para bharosA mata rakho / - yauvana meM bhI zarIra rogagrasta bana sakatA hai aura bhoga bhogane meM azakta bana __ sakatA hai / - yauvana meM bhI mauta A sakatI hai, jIvana samApta ho sakatA hai, - yauvana meM priya pAtra kA viyoga ho sakatA hai, - yauvana meM nirAzA, hatAzA ghira AtI hai... mana Diprezana meM DUba jAtA hai... __ taba bhogasukha bhoge nahIM jA sakate haiM / yauvana vyartha lagatA hai / yauvana ko sArthaka karanevAle yauvana meM bhogasukhoM kA tyAga kara, virakta banakara brahmacarya kA mahAvrata lenevAle mahAmAnavoM ko yAda kiyA kareM, to yauvana meM bhI bhogavRtti para saMyama A sakatA * kAkaMdI kA dhanyakumAra * rAjagRhI ke zAlibhadra * ujjayinI ke avaMtIsukumAla, * rAjakumAra meghakumAra * rAmAyaNa ke sukozalakumAra * rAmAyaNa ke rAjakumAra vajrabAhu * mRgAputra * naMdiSeNa * jaMbUsvAmI * sthUlabhadrajI, * gajasukumAla... 104 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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* madanabrahma kumAra... bahuta bar3I sUci hai yuvAnoM kI, jinhoM ne yauvana ko aMkuza meM rakhA thA / AtmAnuzAsana kara brahmacarya ke mahAvrata ko pAlA thA / yauvana ko sArthaka kiyA thaa| yaha hai jJAnI-prabuddha purUSoM kA yauvana viSayaka abhigama ! vartamAna meM...pazcimI sabhyatA kI chAyA meM yauvana meM kaisI vikRtiyA~ praviSTa ho gaI haiM aura yauvana ko barbAda kara rahI hai, isa viSaya kI carcA Age karU~gA, Aja basa, itanA hI - / anitya bhAvanA / anitya bhAvanA 8833638588 105 105

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 10 anitya bhAvanA - saMkalanA : kAmavikAroM kI prabalatA rUpavijayajI kA eka kAvya kAmavAsanA kA udbhavasthAna kAma puruSArtha * paMDita vAcaspati mizra ( bhAmatI) sahI aura galata jIvanadraSTi * seksa viSayaka pazcima kI vikRta vicAradhArA * phroir3a aura erika phroma unmArgagAmI mAnasazAstra bhautikavAdI sabhyatA ke nukazAna * kAmavRtti kA abhigama upasaMhAra 3

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yadapi piNyAkatAmaMGgamidamupagataM bhuvana- durjayajarApIta - sAram / tadapi gatalajjamujjhati manonAMginAM, vitathamati - kuthita manmatha - vikAram // kAmavikAroM kA prAbalya batAte hue upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajIne kahA hai : jarA se satvahIna aura kSINa dehavAle jIvoM kA nirlajja mana, jo ki isa jagata meM ati durjaya hai, kAmavikAroM kA tyAga nahIM karatA hai, yaha kitanI zarma kI bAta hai ! kAmavikAroM kI prabalatA : yauvana to kAmavAsanA kA krIDA - kAla hI hotA hai, paraMtu vRddhAvasthA meM bhI kAmavAsanA chUTatI nahIM hai / mana kAmavAsanA meM ramamANa rahatA hai ! yaha bAta sabhI jJAnI purUSoM ko zarmajanaka, lajjAspada aura dhikkArapAtra lagI hai / vRddhAvasthA kA varNana karate hue eka saMskRta bhASA ke kavi ne kahA hai gAtraM saMkucitaM, gati vigalitA, daMtAzca nAzaM gatA, dRSTi bhrasyati, rUpameva hasate, vaktraM ca lAlAyate / vAkyaM naiva karoti bAndhavajanaH, patnI na suzrUyate, dhik kaSTaM hA jarAbhibhUta puruSaM putro'pyavajJAyate / / vRddhAvasthA meM zarIra saMkucita ho jAtA hai yAnI zarIra para jhurriyA~ par3a jAtI haiM, gati - Agati skhalita ho jAtI hai, dA~ta gira jAte haiM, A~kheM dhuMdhalI ho jAtI hai, niHsteja ho jAtI haiM, rUpa- lAvaNya ghaTatA jAtA hai, mu~ha se lAra TapakatI hai, baMdhujana usakI AjJA nahIM mAnate, patnI bhI usakI sevA nahIM karatI hai, putra bhI usakI avajJA karatA hai... isalie jarAvasthA se parAbhUta purUSa ko dhikkAra ho ! cU~ki aisI karUNAspada sthiti meM bhI usakA mana kAmavAsanA kA tyAga nahIM karatA hai / kAmavAsanA vRddha nahIM hotI hai / vRddhAvasthA ko gujarAtI bhASA meM 'ghar3apaNa' kahate haiM / isa 'ghaDapaNa' ke upara, upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI ke hI ziSya rUpavijayajI ne eka kAvya likhA hai, bahuta acchA hai, suneM ghar3apaNa kAM tuM AvIo ? tuja koNa jue hai vATa ? tuM sahune alakhAmaNo re, jema mAMkar3a bharI khATa anitya bhAvanA 107

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ghar3apaNa koNe mokalyuM ? jAya, gati bhAMge tuM AvatAM re, udyama uThI re dAMtar3alA paNa kharI par3e re, lAra par3e mukhamAMya..........ghar3apaNa. bala bhAMge AMkho taNuM re, zravaNe suNyuM navi jAya, tuja Ave avaguNa ghaNA re, valI dholI hoya romarAya .. ghar3apaNa. ker3a duHkhe, gur3A rahe re, mukhamAM zvAsa na mAya, gAle par3e karacalI re rupa zarIranuM jAya... re.... jIbhalar3I paNa lar3athar3e re, ANa na mAne koya, ghera sahune alakhAmaNo re, sAra na pUche koya.... dikarA to nAsI gayA re, bahuo diye re gAla, dikarI nAve DhuMkar3I re, sabala par3ayo che jaMjAla... kAne to dhAko paDI re, sAMbhale nahIMya lagAra, A~khe to chAyA valI re dekhI zake na lagAra............. uMbaro to DuMgara thayo re, pola thaI paradeza, golI to gaMgA thaI re, tame juo jarAnA veza... ghar3apaNamAM vhAlI lApazI, ghaDapaNamAM vhAlI bhIMta, ghar3apaNamAM vhAlI lAkar3I, tume juo ghar3apaNanI rIta... ghar3apaNa. ghar3apaNa tuM akahyAgaruM, aNa ter3ayuM ma AvIza, jobanIyuM jaga vahAlu re, jatana huM tAsa karIza... koI na vaMche tujane re, tuM to dUra vasAya, vinayavijaya uvajjhAyano rupavijaya guNa gAya... ghar3apaNa. yaha varNana vRddhAvasthA kA hai| aisI avasthA meM bhI kAmavAsanA prabala ho sakatI * ghar3apaNa. . ghar3apaNa. hai / aura napuMsaka veda / purUSa ko purUSa veda 108 - - . ghar3apaNa. * ghar3apaNa. ********* kAmavAsanA kA udbhava sthAna : kAmavAsanA (seksIvRtti) cAroM gati ke jIvoM meM hotI hai, paraMtu saba se jyAdA kAmavAsanA manuSya ko hotI hai ! kAmavAsanA jAgrata hotI hai, mohanIya karma se / mohanIya karma ke aMtargata tIna veda-karma hote haiN| purUSa veda, strI veda ..... ....... .ghar3apaNa. ghar3apaNa. ...... mohanIya karma kA udaya hotA hai taba strI ke prati zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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AkarSaNa hotA hai, strI-upabhoga kI vAsanA uThatI hai / - strIko strIveda - mohanIya karma kA udaya hotA hai, taba purUSa ke prati AkarSaNa hotA hai, purUSa-upabhoga kI vAsanA jAgrata hotI hai / - jisako napuMsaka-veda-mohanIya karma kA udaya hotA hai, usako strI aura purUSa, donoM ke upabhoga kI vAsanA jagatI hai / mohanIya karma kA udaya prabala hotA hai taba kAmavAsanA bhI prabala hotI hai / usa prabala kAmavAsanA ko upazAnta karane kA manobala sabhI manuSyoM meM nahIM hotA hai, vAsanA se paravaza ho jAnevAle hI jyAdA loga hote haiM / isa kAmavRtti kA samAveza RSi-muniyoM ne kAma-purUSArtha' meM kiyA hai| kAma-puruSArtha : bhAratIya saMskRti meM kAmavRtti kI ora dekhane kI samyag daSTi aura samucita samajhadArI rahI huI hai / isa saMskRti meM kAmavRtti ko gaharAI se aura samagratA se samajhane kA aura mAnavocita urcIkaraNa kA ghaniSTha prayAsa huA hai / kAmapurUSArtha kA vijJAna vikasita huA hai / paraMtu vartamAna meM kAmavRtti - viSayaka ajJAnatA aura vikRta samajhadArI kA AkramaNa samAja para ho rahA hai / aise samaya meM hameM apanI sAMskRtika virAsata ko yathArtha rUpa meM samajha lenI cAhie / anyathA Aja kA seksa eksaplojhana (seksa-visphoTa) saba kucha naSTa kara degaa| ___ kAmavRtti eka prabala urjA hai, prANazakti hai / kAmavRtti ekAntataH tiraskRta nahIM hai / bhAratIya saMskRti kA abhigama sAmAnyatayA aisA rahA hai ki kAmAnaMda ke lie prANa zakti kA vyaya maryAdita aura saMyamita rakhakara, use bhAvanA aura prajJA ke vikAsa hetu evaM samAdhi ke brahmAnaMda ke lie upayoga meM liyA jaayeN| saSTi meM vyApta cetana - tattva ke sAtha tAdAtmya sAdhana se brahmAnanda kI anubhUti hotI hai| aisI anubhati jisa ko hotI hai usako kAmAnaMda kA AkarSaNa kalAsarjana ke kArya meM nimagna vaijJAnika, ciMtaka yA kalAkAra, kAmAnaMda se uccatara sarjanAtmaka AnaMda kI anubhUti karatA hai taba usako dUsarA koI sAna-bhAna nahIM rahatA hai ! paMDita vAcaspati mizra : isa viSaya meM paMDita vAcaspati mizra kA eka draSTAMta sunAtA hU~ / hAlA~ki yaha prasiddha kahAnI hai, phira bhI yahA~ prastuta hone se kahatA huuN| unhoMne bhAmatI nAmakA eka apratima graMtha likhA thA / 16 varSa taka isa graMtharacanA anitya bhAvanA 109

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meM ve nimagna ho gaye the| zAdI ke bAda tUrta hI kArya meM ve laga gaye the / pratidina patnI samaya para bhojana lAtI, saMdhyA hone para dIpaka jalAtI, paraMtu paMDitajI ko sivAya graMtha racanA, aura koI bhAna nahIM thA / jaba graMtharacanA pUrNa huI, zAma ko patnI dIyA lekara AyI, paMDitajI ne usake sAmane dekhA aura pUchA 'suMdarI, tU kauna hai ?' 'maiM Apa kI dharmapatnI hU~... rojAnA zAma ko dIyA lAkara maiM rakhatI hU~ / vAcaspati mizra lajjita ho gaye / 16 varSa taka usa strI ne unakI aura unake graMtha kI mUka sevA kI thii| paMDitajI natamastaka ho gaye / patnI kA nAma bhAmatI thA, unhone graMtha kA nAma 'bhAmatI' rakha diyA / graMtha patnI ko samarpita kiyA / paMDitajI apanI jJAnopAsanA meM nimagna the / apanI samagra prANazakti, niHzeSa urjA, usI meM samAviSTa ho gaI thI / vaha unakA sahaja brahmacarya thA ! unakA vaha sahaja indriyanigraha thA / sahI aura galata jIvanadraSTi : mUla prazna hai jIvana viSayaka draSTi kA, philosophI kA, jIvanadarzana kA / eka draSTAMta se yaha bAta samajhAtA hU~ / apane mahAn pUrvajoM ne himAlaya, giranAra, AbU, zatruMjaya, sammetazikhara jaise pahAr3oM para, giripradezoM meM jahA~ jahA~ ramaNIyatA dekhI vahA~-vahA~ devamaMdira banAye, yAtrAdhAma banAye ! jaba ki aMgreja bhArata meM Aye, unhoMne vahA~ 'hila - sTezana' banAye ! maMdira ke sAtha maMdira ke sahacArI bhAva Aye, hila sTezana ke sAtha hila sTezana ke sahacArI bhAva Aye ! yAtrAdhAmoM ne apanA pavitra vAtAvaraNa khar3A kiyA, hilasTezanoM ne apanI duniyA khar3I kara dI ! hila sTezana ne vahA~ kI prajA ko vilAsa se svacchandI evaM Amoda-pramoda se gaMdI - malina banA dI / yaha jo aMtara hai, bheda hai, vaha jIvana ke prati abhigama kA, draSTi kA aMtara hai / 1 vaise hI seksa ke prati jo abhigama hai, usa meM bhI jIvana draSTi hI, jIvanadarzana mahattvapUrNa rahA hai / bhAratIya saMskRti meM, kahA gayA hai - 'dharmArthakAmebhyo namaH / ' vAtsAyana ne apane 'kAmasUtra' ke maMgalAcaraNa meM dharma-artha- kAma purUSArtha ko namaskAra kiyA hai / kAmazAstro meM svasthatA hai, pukhtatA hai aura paripakvatA hai / usa meM draSTri ekAMgI nahIM hai, sarvAMgI hai| khayAla samagra jIvana kA hai / vAtsAyana 'kAmazAstra' kI racanA kara rahe the, kAmAnaMda kisa taraha pAnA, usakA 110 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAstra banA rahe the, paraMtu isa graMtha kI racanA kA prayojana kyA thA ? preraNA kauna sI thI ? tadetat brahmacaryeNa... yAnI brahmacarya kA pAlana parama samAdhi meM citta ko ekAgra kara, lokayAtrA ke lie maine isa kAmasUtra nAma ke graMtha kI racanA kI hai / isa se rAga-kAma bar3he, vaisI isakI racanA nahIM hai / dharma-artha aura kAma, tInoM purUSArtha kA poSaka yaha zAstra hai / isa zAstra kA tattvajJa, jitendriya hI hotA hai / indriya sukha kA yaha zAstra, indriyoM kA gulAma banane ke lie nahIM, svAmI banane ke lie, mitra banane ke lie hai / racanA karanevAle RSi ne indriya sukha ke naze meM zAstra racanA nahIM kI hai, paraMtu saMpUrNa svasthatA se, brahmacarya kA pAlana karate hue evaM citta kI samAdhi - avasthA meM kAmazAstra kI racanA kI hai ! aisI svasthatA aura paripakvatA, pazcima kI sabhyatA meM rUr3ha banI huI seksa viSayaka mAnyatAoM meM evaM zAstroM meM bilkula dekhane meM nahIM AtI hai / Ina meM sarvAMgI draSTi kA abhAva dikhatA hai / seksa viSayaka pazcima kI vikRta vicAradhArA : __ pazcima ke dezoM meM jo kAmazAstra va siddhAnta banAye gaye, una meM mAtra artha aura kAma, do para hI dhyAna rahA, dharma aura mokSa-purUSArtha kI kalpanA bhI unako nahIM thI / saMbhava hai ki dharma aura mokSa kI bAta ko phAlatU samajhakara, usakI upekSA kara dI gaI / pazcima ke kAmazAstroM kI, siddhAntoM kI racanA karanevAle kucha loga to kaMDizanDa mAnasavAle, saMkIrNa khayAlavAle aura svayaM jAtIya vikRti se utpIDita the| kahate haiM ki pazcima meM seksolojI kI nIMva DAlanevAlA hevaloka elisa svayaM, kucha vizeSa jAtIya vyavahAroM meM ebnoramala thA / isa seksa ke viSaya meM jisako pazcima meM aura pUrva meM bhI patha-pradarzaka mAnate haiM vaha phroiDa bhI bahuta svakendrI thA, svacchandI manovRttivAla, ati mahatvAkAMkSI, virodhiyoM ke prati asahiSNu aura prazaMsA se khuza honevAlA thaa| mahatvapUrNa bAta to yaha hai ki pazcima ke sabhI kAmazAstra evaM siddhAMtoM kA dhyeya jitendriyatA siddha karane kA to nahIM hI thA / phroiDa ne durbhAgya se apanA saMpUrNa dhyAna kAmavRtti para hI kendrita kara diyA thA / yatra-tatra-sarvatra usako kAmavRtti hI dikhAyI dI ! sabhI mAnavIya saMbaMdhoM meM, usane DAyarekTa' athavA 'inDAyarekTa', jAgrata yA suSupta dazA meM, jAtIya-yauna vRtti kA hI pratipAdana kiyaa| usane vahA~ taka taka diyA ki pitA ko putrI jyAdA priya hotI hai aura | anitya bhAvanA 119 |

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mAtA ko putra jyAdA priya hotA hai, usa meM bhI yaha kAmavRtti aura vijAtIya AkarSaNa hI kAraNa hotA hai 1 phroir3a kahatA hai choTe baccoM meM bhI jAtIya bhUkha hotI hai ! isalie to vaha apane nikaTa se nikaTa strI-mAtA kI ora yauna AkarSaNa kA anubhava karatA hai !' phroir3a ke aise siddhAnta kA khaMDana karate hue, prasiddha mAnasazAstrI erika phroma' ne kahA hai : 'phroiDa eka ora mAtA ke sneha kA, manuSya kI icchA kA svIkAra karatA hai, to dUsarI ora inakAra kara detA hai ! mAtA aura putra kI sneha-vRtti ko yauna vRtti batAkara vaha sacce artha kA inakAra kara detA hai / phroir3a mAtA ko usake pavitra sthAna se padabhraSTa kara, usakI jAtIya vAsanA kA eka sAdhana banA detA hai, vezyA meM badala detA hai !' phroir3a drar3hatA se mAnatA thA ki prema kAmavRttijanya vijAtIya saMbaMdha hI hotA hai / strI - purUSa kI pArasparika draSTi bhI kAmamUlaka hI hotI hai / ' yaha to eka atyaMta anarthakArI aura bhayAnaka tattvajJAna bana jAtA hai / isa mAnyatA ke anusAra to strI-purUSa ke bIca nara-nArI ke alAvA dUsarA koI saMbaMdha saMbhavita hI nahIM rahatA ! nara-nArI ke bIca yauna saMbaMdha ke alAvA dUsarI sabhI saMbaMdha asaMbhava hI bana jAte haiM / yaha mAnyatA phroir3a kI, saMkIrNa, nAdAna aura avicArI hai / saMpUrNa aparipakva hai / saMskRti kI vidhvaMsaka hai / phroir3a ke viSaya meM eka bAra vinobAjI ne kahA thA abhI abhI phroir3a kA zAstra calA hai ki kAmavAsanA ko dabAnA nahIM cAhie ! yaha bAta samajha meM nahIM AtI / hama yadi vAsanA ko nahIM dabAyeM to kyA hama nA se daba jAyeM ? apanI vAsanA ko manuSya samajheM aura usakA zamana - damana kareM, vahI yogya hai / kAmavRtti ke damana se mAnasika asvasthatA paidA hotI haiM, yaha bAta bahuta pracalita ho gaI hai, paraMtu kAmavRtti ko amaryAda rUpa se bar3hane denA bhI manorUgNatA kAhI prakAra hai / jJAnI maharSi hI nahIM, gaNamAnya manovizleSaka erika phroma jaise bhI kahate haiM : 1 -- 'phroir3a ke nAma se aisA manAyA jAtA hai ki yadi tuma apanI yauna vRttioM ko dabA kara rakkhoge to usa se mAnasika asvasthatA paidA hogI / isa pazcimI sabhyatA meM aisI mAnyatA pracalita banI hai ki 'tumhArI hara icchA ko tUrta hI saMtuSTa 112 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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karo!' Adhunika manuSya ke vikRta mAnasa kI yaha bAta hai, paraMtu isakA pariNAma kyA AyegA? AlDasa haksa lI ne 'breva nyU varlDa meM kahA hai : isakA pariNAma pakSAghAta meM AyegA, Akhira manuSya apanA ho nAza karegA / vAstavikatA kA varNana karatA huA erika phroma kahatA hai - ina sabhI kAmavAsanAoM ko, Arthika abhigama se sanama uttejita kI jAtI haiM / isa vAsanA kI bhUkha, kRtrimatA se paidA kI jAtI yona bhUkha bhI jyAdAtara naisargika nahIM hotI hai, usako kRtrima DhaMga se uttejita kI jAtI hai / Aja manuSya ke pazuvat lakSaNoM para jyAdA mahatva diyA jAtA hai / _ 'yauna sukha hI sarvocca sukha hai aura abAdhita yauna sukha manuSya ko sukhazAnti degA, aisI mAnyatA, vartamAnakAlIna mAnasazAstra ne rUr3ha kara dI hai, yaha sarvathA anucita hai, unmArga gAminI hai| itanA hI nahIM svacchaMda yauna sukha manorUgNatA meM hI pariNata hotA hai / isase to manuSya kI svasthatA aura mAnasika saMtulana bigar3a jAtA hai / aise viparIta pariNAma, Aja pazcimI samAja meM spaSTa dikhAyI dete haiN| __ mahatvapUrNa bAta yaha hai ki manuSya ko yauna pratibaMdhoM se mukta kara dene se vaha sakha-zAnti aura mAnasika svAsthya prApta kara legA - yaha anumAna sarvathA galata siddha hotA hai / yAda rakho ki yauna sukha hI manuSya ko eka mAtra AvazyakatA nahIM hai, manuSya kI dUsarI aneka mAnasika aura AdhyAtmika AvazyakatAyeM bhI hotI haiM, jo ki jyAdA mahattva kI hotI hai / yadi ve AvazyakatAeM pUrNa nahIM hoMgI to mAnAsaka rUgNatA paidA hogI / Aja pazcimI dezoM kI hospiTala meM Adhe se jyAde palaMga zArIrika nahIM, mAnasika rogiyoM se bhare par3e haiM / aba to bhArata meM bhI mana ke rogI bar3ha rahe haiM / meMTala hospiTaleM bar3hatI jA rahI haiM / pazcima meM kizoroM ke evaM yuvAnoM kI AtmAhatyA kA pramANa bar3ha gayA hai / isa se manovaijJAnika ciMtita ho gaye haiN| isa taraha sabhI mAnava saMbaMdhoM meM yauna vRtti kA hI prAdhAnya dekhanA bhI vikRta draSTi hai / prema, mRdutA, tAdAtmya, sahAnubhUti, uSmApUrNa komala vyavahAra vagairaha pavitra mAnavIya anubhUtiyA~ hotI haiM / ina ko yauna vRtti ke sAtha jor3anA mUrkhatA hai / saba kucha seksa ke cazme se dekhanA jaise ki phaizana ho gayA hai / mahApurUSoM ke mRdu-premapUrNa vyavahAroM meM bhI aise chidrAnveSI saMzodhana kiye jA rahe haiM ! paraMtu vaha mAtra vyartha bauddhika vyAyAma hai ! | anitya bhAvanA 113

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vAstava meM to kAmavRtti kA prema, madatA, AtmIyatA vagairaha se bharapUra mAnavIya vyavahAroM meM rUpAntara karanA, manuSya ke lie acchA purUSArtha hai / kAmavRtti kA UrvIkaraNa karanA cAhie / aisA udhvIkaraNa nahIM hogA to sthUla kAmavRtti hI ati balavAn hotI rahegI, yaha parvasAmAnya anubhava hai| unmArgagAmI mAnasazAstra : ___ kAmavRtti ke UrvIkaraNa ke viSaya meM vartamAna mAnasazAstriyoM kA dhyAna rahA hI nahIM hai / unhoMne nyAya, saMyama, Atmonnati jaise uccatama tattvoM ko sarvathA bhUlA diye haiM / erika phoma jaise thor3e manovaijJAnikoM ne, mAnavasvabhAva kI udhvaMsaMbhAvanAoM ke upara AdhArita 'objective ethics' (vastuniSTha nItizAstra) kI bAteM kahI, to usako avaijJAnika kahakara, upekSita kara dI ! yuga' jaise manovaijJAnika ne kahA ki mAnava svabhAva meM kAmavRtti jitanA hI prabhAva Religious function kA (dhArmika vRtti kA) rahA hai, usako bhI avaijJAnika kaha diyA aura mahatvahIna bnaayaa| isakI kar3I AlocanA karate hue erikaphroma kahatA hai - Aja kA mAnasa zAstra, manuSya ke vikAsa ke lie gaMbhIra khatarA bana gayA hai / mAnasazAstra kA bijhanesa karanevAloM ne mauja-majA upabhoga aura sattvahInatA kA jo nayA dharma phailA rakkhA hai, usa ke ve dharmagurU bana gaye haiM / manuSya kA eka sAdhana ke rUpa meM upayoga karane meM ve niSNAta bana gaye haiM / pazcima kA Adhunika mAnasazAstra bhautikavAda kA Dhola pITanevAlA bana gayA hai| manuSya ke jIvana meM AtmA, dharma, naitikatA vagairaha kA koI sthAna hI nahIM rahanA cAhie - aisI bhautikavAdI mAnyatA ke upara aise unmArgagAmI mAnasazAstra ne zAstrIya muhara lagA dI hai| bhautikavAdI sabhyatA ke nukazAna : pazcima kI bhautikavAdI sabhyatA ne, vijJAna ke nAma AtmA, dharma, naitikatA vagairaha pavitra tattvoM ko mUlataH ukhAr3akara pheMka diye / mAnavajAta se aneka prakAzadIpa chIna liye| manuSya ne pAralaukika sattA aura divyatA.kI saMbhAvanAoM ke khayAla ga~vA diye / pahale to jIva ko izvara kA - paramAtmA kA eka aMza mAnate the, aura jIvana meM uccatama sAdhanA kara paramAtmA svarUpa prApta karane kA lakSya thA, paraMtu aba manuSya saMpUrNatayA apane pArthiva astitva ke sAtha jur3a gayA hai / isa pRthvI para saba sukha-suvidhAyeM aura AnaMda-pramoda prApta karane kA hI mukhya dhyeya bana gyaa| zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 | 114

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'bonDa rasela ne kahA hai : isa bhautikavAda ne vizva meM se izvara ko eka vyakti ke rUpa meM hakAla diyA hai, itanA hI nahIM, eka Adarza ke rUpa meM paramAtmA - tattva ko bhI bhUlA diyA hai / isa paramAtma-tattva ke prati to manuSya kI mUlabhUta niSThA rahI huI thii| manuSya ke pAsa koI bhI AMtarika rakSA kavaca nahIM rahA / bhautikavAdI vicAradhArA para AdhArita naye naye zAstra bane aura naye naye siddhAnta bane / aisI eka rUr3ha mAnyatA bana gaI ki manuSya svabhAva se hI svArthI hai, kAmuka hai aura tIvra spardhA mAnava svabhAva ke mUlabhUta tattva haiM / isalie Adhunika zAstroM ke AdhAra diye jAne lage! kAmavRtti kA abhigama badalanA hogA : bhAratIya samAja ke upara pazcima ke seksa-visphoTa kA prabala AkramaNa huA hai / usa kA pratirodha karanA ati Avazyaka hai / seksa ke kSetra meM rUr3ha banI huI bahuta sI mAnyatAoM ko mUla se badalanA hogA / parivartana karanA anivArya ___ jahA~ zoSaNa dvArA, pralobhana dvArA, dabAva ke dvArA, balAtkAra dvArA evaM dhana dvArA yauna sukha bhogA jA rahA hai, usako to yauna sukha bhI nahIM kahA jA sakatA, vaha to ahaMtRpti kA, pAzavI balapradarzana kA evaM vikRta mAnasika tRpti kA sukha hotA hai / aba to bhadra samAja ke nAma para jAta jAta ke valgara, abhadra svarUpa sAmane Aye haiM ! jaise seksa TurIjhama, seksa-sarvisa, seksa-varkara, kola garlsa, kampharTa garlsa, kI-klaba vagairaha kAmAnanda ke prakAra nahIM haiM kyA ? ___ Aja vizeSa rUpa se yuvA varga ko bhinna bhinna prakAra kI karAmatoM se, mukta yauna jIvana ke nAma phusalAkara galata mArga para le jAyA rahA hai / aisI sthiti meM Dhola bajAkara samajhAnA par3egA ki yaha mukta yauna jIvana kI bAtoM meM manuSya kA na to sAMskRtika vikAsa hai, na to Atmonnati hai, nahIM kAmAnanda kI prApti hai / yaha to manuSya kA sarvatomukhI adhaHpatana hai / naye yuvA-samAja ko kahanA hogA ki vAsanA ko, seksa ko sira para nahIM car3hAnA hai / ghor3e ko apane para svAra nahIM hone denA hai / ghor3e para khuda savAra hue binA yAtrA AnaMdamayI nahIM bana sakatI / yauna vRtti ko usake propara plesa para ucita sthAna para sthApita kreN| pazcimI sabhyatA ne manuSya ko svacchaMda pazutulya banA diyA hai / manuSya ko seksa kI kaThaputalI banA diyA hai / Aja manuSya seksa ko nahIM bhogatA hai, | anitya bhAvanA

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seksa manuSya ko bhogatA hai / manuSya ko nacAtA hai / manuSya jaise ki 'seksa' ke kArAgAra meM kaida ho gayA hai / kArAgAra ko itanA suMdara banA diyA gayA hai ki manuSya ko kaida hone kA ehasAsa ho na ho ! isa kArAvAsa ko lohe kI salAravAe~ nahIM hotI, kaidI ke hAtha-pA~va meM ber3I nahIM hotI, paraMtu indriya sukha kI bharapUra suvidhAoM ke sAtha manuSya 'seksa ke paMje meM najarakaida hai ! adrazya jaMjIroM se baMdhA huA hai / upasaMhAra : Aja 'kuthitamanmathavikAram' ke viSaya meM vistAra se isalie carcA kI hai, kyoM ki Aja skUla-kolejoM meM 'mAnasa zAstra' ke nAma, kAma vikAroM ko bar3hAyA diyA jA rahA hai / tarUNa aura yuvAna galata mArga para bhaTaka rahe haiM / isa meM T.V. aura sinemA ne to sarvanAza karane kA nirNaya kara liyA ho, aisA lagatA hai / bAla, tarUNa, yuvaka sabhI kAmavAsanA se baco - yahI maMgalakAmanA / Aja basa, itanA hI aura vRddha 116 - zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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N zAnta sudhArasa) pravacana : 11 anitya bhAvanA - 4 : saMkalanA : * sarvaM kSaNikam / * eka sAdhu ko cakravartI kA sukha bhA gayA dharma kA avamUlyanaH dharmaprApti nahIM draupadI ko pA~ca pati kyoM ? vaiSayika sukhoM kA AkarSaNa saMbaMdhoM kI niHsAratA dhana-lakSmI kI asthiratA * lakSmI kA saMcaya nahIM kareM eka samrATa, eka dhanapati narakagati kI vedanAyeM upasaMhAra

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upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI, anitya bhAvanA ko 'bhairava' rAga meM gAte hue Age bar3hate haiM : sukhamanuttarasurAvadhi yadatimeduraM kAlatastadapi kalayati virAmam / kataraditarattadA vastu sAMsArikaM sthirataraM bhavati cintaya nikAmam // 5 // sarvaM kSaNikam, sarvamanityam, sarvamasthiram' saba kucha kSaNika hai, saba kucha anitya hai, saba kucha asthira hai ! 'anuttara devaloka' ke devoM ke sukha bhI kAlakrama se naSTa ho jAte haiM... jo ki asaMkhya varSa ke sukha hote haiM, to phira saMsAra kI aisI kauna sI vastu hai... jo sthira ho, zAzvat ho, nitya ho ? svasthatA se isa viSaya meM pUrNa vicAra kara ! ___ saMsAra meM saba se jyAdA dIrghakAlIna sukha anuttara devaloka meM hotA hai - 33 sAgaropama kAla kA ! vaise saba se jyAdA dukha hotA hai sAtavIM tamaHtamaHprabhA nAma kI naraka meM ! vaha bhI 33 sAgaropama kAla ka ! usa kA bhI kAlakrama se aMta A jAtA hai| saMsAra meM sakha bhI sthira nahIM haiM, duHkha bhI sthira nahIM hai / saba kucha asthira hai, anitya hai / jJAnadraSTi ke pariprekSya meM dekhanI hai vizva sthiti ko / devaloka ke sukha bhI nitya-zAzvat nahIM haiM - isalie ve sukha pAne kI bhI icchA nahIM karanI hai / jo anitya hai, jo kSaNika hai... vaise sukhoM kI icchA nahIM karanI hai ! icchA bhI nahIM karanI hai, prayatna aura purUSArtha bhI nahIM karanA hai ! hA~, viziSTa tapazcaryA se icchita sukha kI prApti dUsare janma meM hotI hai, paraMtu vaise sukha, sukha ke sAdhana pAkara jIva sukha kA anubhava nahIM kara pAtA hai ! eka sAdhu ko cakravartI kA sukha bhA gayA ! manuSya kA mana kitanA caMcala hai ! jJAna hote hue bhI, jAnakArI hote hue bhI - cakravartI rAjA kA sukha bhI kSaNika hai, anitya hai, phira bhI kaba moha kA bAdala AtmA para chA jAtA hai, aura jo tuccha hotA hai, asAra hotA hai, usakI icchA mana kara letA hai ! zAstro meM eka sAdhu kI kahAnI par3hI thI / eka tapasvI sAdhu the / ghora tapazcaryA karate the / jJAnI bhI the / unako kIrti sunakara cakravartI rAjA apanI rAnI ke sAtha vaMdana karane gayA / muni ke darzana | 118 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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kara, rAjA-rAnI bhAvavibhora ho gye| vaMdana karane lge| rAnI kI baMdhI huI keza kI rAzi khula gaI / strI ratna ke sira ke bAla laMbe hote the, aura rAniyA~ bAla kaTavA kara bobr3a heyara nahIM karavAtI thI ! rAnI ke laMbe bAla muni ke caraNa ko chU gaye / rAnI ne tUrta hI apane bAla khIMca liye, vaMdana pUrNa kara, rAjA - rAnI cala diye / paraMtu muni ke mana ko rAnI ke keza kA sparza bhA gayA ! unake mana meM vicAroM kI paraMparA calI : 'jisa strI ratna ke bAloM kA sparza itanA sukhada hai, usake zarIra kA sparza kitanA sukhada hogA ! aisA strI ratna cakravartI rAjA ko hI milatA hai ! mujhe aise strIratna kA sparza cAhie, isalie mujhe cakravartI rAjA honA cAhie / merI ghora tapazcaryA se maiM cakravartI rAjA banane kA svapna siddha kara sakatA hU~ / usa sAdhu ne saMkalpa kiyA : merI isa tapazcaryA kA yadi mujhe phala milegA to mujhe cakravartI rAjA kA pada milo !' isako zAstrIya bhASA meM 'niyANA' kahate haiM / tIrthaMkaroM ne niyANA nahIM karane kA upadeza diyA hai ! paraMtu kSaNika sukhoM kA rAga-moha, isa taraha niyANA karavA detA hai ! kSaNika-anitya sukhoM kA prabala AkarSaNa aisI bhUla karavAtA hai ! isalie 'anityabhAvanA kA punaH punaH ciMtana karate rahanA hai / dharma kA avamUlyana : dharmaprApti nahIM : dUsare janma meM usa sAdhu ko cakravartI pada milA, yAnI vaha cakravartI banA, paraMtu cakravartI kA bhava samApta hone para usa ko naraka meM jAnA par3A / aisA eka zAzvat niyama hai ki cakravartI rAjA, yadi uttarAvasthA meM cakravartI pada kA tyAga kara, sAdhu nahIM bana jAtA hai to vaha naraka meM hI jAtA hai / sAdhu bana jAtA hai to vaha mokSa pAtA hai athavA devaloka meM utpanna hotA hai / __ kSaNika sukhoM ke moha se, ve sukha pAne ke lie dharma kA saudA karanevAloM ko ve sukha to milate haiM, paraMtu dharma nahIM milatA hai ! cUMki vaha kSaNika sukhoM kA ucca mUlyAMkana karatA hai, dharma kA avamUlyana karatA hai ! dharma ko dekara vaha kSaNika sukhoM ko kharIdatA hai na ? ___ dharma kA saudA kara pAye hue sukhoM meM manuSya itanA mohAMdha bana jAtA hai, itanA mohamUr3ha bana jAtA hai ki usako dharma acchA hI nahIM lagatA, usake jIvana meM dharma hotA hI nahIM / pApoM se hI usakA jIvana bhara jAtA hai / | anitya bhAvanA 119 119 /

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draupadI ko pA~ca pati kyoM ? draupadI ko pA~ca pati the na ? vaha pA~ca pAMDavoM kI patnI thI na ? kyoM usako pA~ca pati kI patnI honA par3A ? jAnate ho ? usa ne pUrvabhava meM niyANAM kiyA thaa| pUrvajanma meM vaha sAdhvI thI / zuddha saMyamadharma kA pAlana aura ghora tapazcaryA karatI thii| __eka bAra gurUNI ke manA karane para bhI, vaha sAdhu purUSoM kA galata anukaraNa karatI huI, rAtri ke samaya nagara ke bAhara kAyotsarga - dhyAna karane gaI / jahA~ vaha khar3I rahI, usake sAmane, kucha dUrI para eka vezyA kA AvAsa thaa| AvAsa meM rozanI thI / vezyA AvAsa ke jharokhe meM pA~ca purUSoM ke sAtha vArtA-vinoda kara rahI thii| dRzya bar3A AkarSaka thA / usa sAdhvI kI nigAha usa drazya para par3I ! dharmadhyAna rUka gayA; vezyA ke vicAra mana meM zurU ho gaye / pA~ca purUSoM ke sAtha usakI jo krIr3A dekhI, mana meM bhA gaI ! usane socA : mujhe bhI aisA janma mile... pA~ca-pA~ca purUSoM kA pyAra mile to kitanA acchA ! maine zAstroM meM sunA hai ki tapazcaryA se manovAMchita milatA hai / maiM merI tapazcaryA kA yahI phala mAMga lU~ to ?' aura usa sAdhvI ne pA~ca purUSoM kA sukha mile vaisA strI kA avatAra mAMga liyA ! dUsare janma meM vaha sAdhvI draupadI huI ! vaiSayika sukhoM kA AkarSaNa khataranAka : sAdhvI jIvana se usako vezyA ke jIvana jyAdA acchA lagA! brahmacArI jIvana se usako viSayabhoga kA jIvana jyAdA priya lagA ! mana se usakA skhalana ho gayA / tapazcaryA kA saudA kara liyA ! kitanI bar3I bhUla kara dI sAdhvI ne ? mana meM vaiSayika sukhoM kA AkarSaNa paidA hI nahIM hone denA cAhie / isalie - 1. vaiSayika sukhabhoga ke drazya nahIM dekheM, 2. zRMgArika bAteM, gIta vagairaha nahIM suneM, 3. vAsanAoM ko uttejita kareM vesI kitAbeM nahIM pddh'e| sAdhujIvana kI maryAdAyeM vaisI hI haiM ki jahA~ Ina tIna bAtoM kA sahajatA se pAlana ho sakatA hai| - sAdhu ko gA~va-nagara meM yA jaMgala meM pRthvI para draSTi rakha kara calanA hotA hai / dhyAna bhI, nAsikA ke agra bhAga para draSTi sthira kara karanA hotA hai / | 120 / zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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- sAdhu ko vaise zRMgArika bAteM, gIta vagairaha sunanA niSiddha hI hotA hai, aura - vaisI gaMdI, seksI kitAbeM par3hane kI nahIM hotI haiM / ___ yadi sAdhu-sAdhvI Ina maryAdAoM kA drar3hatA se pAlana kareM to usakA adhaHpatana nahIM ho sakatA hai / aura yadi pAlana nahIM karatA hai to mAnasika adhaHpatana to hogA hI ! vaiSayika sukhoM kA AkarSaNa bar3A khataranAka hotA hai / saMbaMdho kI niHsAratA : upAdhyAyajI, sAMsArika viSayoM kI asthiratA kI bAta karane ke bAda aba saMbaMdhoM kI niHsAratA batAte hue kahate haiM : yaiH samaM krIDitA, ye ca bhRzamIDitAH yaiH sahAkRSmahi prItivAdam / tAn janAn vIkSya bata bhasmabhUyaMgatAn, nirvizaMkAH sma iti dhik pramAdam // 6 // jina snehI - svajana aura mitroM ke sAtha bahuta khele, jina ke sAtha snehasabhara bAteM karate rahe, jina kI prazaMsA karate rahe... una ke mRta deha ko smazAna meM jalate dekhate hue... deha ko bhasmIbhUta huA dekhate hue bhI hameM jIvana kI nazvaratA kA, saMbaMdhoM kI kSaNikatA kA vicAra nahIM AtA hai - to yaha hamArA kaisA ghora pramAda hai ? dhikkAra hai hamAre pramAda ko... / ___ kabhI aisA bhI hotA hai ki priyajanoM ke mRtadeha kI bhasma, havA se ur3akara... mArgoM para bhI A jAyeM aura hama jaba usa mArga se gujareM taba vaha bhasma hamAre pairoM tale A jAyeM ! hameM kabhI vicAra AyA ki hamAre svajanoM kI bhasma hamAre pairoM tale kucalate cala rahe haiM ! svajanoM ko, mitroM ko, snehIjanoM ko, una kI mRtyu ke bAda manuSya prAyaH zIghra bhUla jAtA hai / niHzaMka hokara viSayopabhoga meM DUba jAtA hai, jaise ki usakI mRtyu honevAlI hI na ho! jisa zarIra se mAtA-pitA, baMdhu, putra, mitra, patnI Adi se saMbaMdha hotA hai, una para rAga-moha hotA hai, paraMtu una sabhI svajanoM kI mRtyu hone para, unake zarIra ko jalA diye jAte haiM athavA jamIna meM gAr3a diye jAte haiM, athavA jaMgalI pazu usakA bhakSya kara jAte haiM / saba kucha bikhara jAtA hai, kyA patA, kaba unakA punaH saMbaMdha hogA? | anitya bhAvanA 121 /

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jisa prakAra vRkSa kI chAyA meM musAphira vizrAma lete haiM, vRkSa kI ghaTA meM pakSI vizrAma lete haiM... bAda meM ve saba apane - apane sthAna para cale jAte haiM, vaise parivAra bhI eka vRkSa jaisA hai / apane apane AyuSya ke anusAra jIva parivAra meM, kuTuMba meM rahate haiM, bAda meM ve bhinna - bhinna gati meM cale jAte haiM / isalie svajanoM ke sAtha mamatva bA~dhanA vyartha hai / svajanoM ke saMbaMdha kSaNika haiM, anitya svajanoM ke saMbaMdha ko anitya batAne ke bAda, upAdhyAyazrI punaH svajana saMyoga aura dhana-lakSmI ke saMyoga ko indrajAla jaise batAte hue kahate haiM : __ asakRdunmiSya nimiSayanti sindhUrmivat cetanAcetanAH sarvabhAvAH / indrajAlopamAH svajanadhanasaMgamAH teSu rajyanti mUDhasvabhAvAH // 7 // samudra ke taraMgoM kI taraha sabhI sajIva-nirjIva padArtha utpanna hote haiM aura naSTa hote haiN| svajana aura dhana-lakSmI ke saMbaMdha indrajAla jaise haiM, phira bhI mUr3ha jIva usameM Asakta banate haiN| dhana-lakSmI kI asthiratA : zarIra, svajana, yauvana, saMbaMdha, pA~ca indriyoM ke viSaya... ityAdi kI anityatA kA ciMtana - vivecana kara liyA, aba dhana-lakSmI kI kSaNabhaMguratA kA, anityatA kA ciMtana karanA hai / manuSya ko Ajakala, zarIra Adi se bhI jyAdA mohAsakti dhana-saMpatti meM ho gaI hai / dhana-saMpatti ke pIche pAgala banakara manuSya daur3a rahA hai / usa dhana-lakSmI ke viSaya meM zAnta citta se, svastha mana se kucha socanA Avazyaka hai / nayI draSTi se, jJAnadraSTi se ciMtana karanA Avazyaka hai / jo lakSmI, jo saMpatti, jo dhana-daulata, utkRSTa puNyakarma ke udaya se cakravartI vagairaha samrATa-rAjAoM ko milatI hai, unake pAsa bhI zAzvat kAla nahIM rahatI hai, sadAkAla nahIM rahatI hai, to phira jina kA puNyodaya nahIM hotA, jo abhAgI hote haiM, una ke pAsa kaise rahegI ? - koI samajhe ki maiM ucca kula meM janmA hU~, kaI pIr3hiyoM se saMpatti calI A __ rahI hai, aba kaise jAyegI ? - koI mAneM ki mere meM dhairya hai, vIrya hai, maiM kaise lakSmI ko jAne dU~gA ? | 122 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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- maiM paMDita hU~, vidyAvAn hU~, mere se kauna dhana chIna sakatA hai ? - maiM sainika hU~, parAkramI hU~, maiM kaise saMpatti ko jAne dU~gA ? - maiM dharmAtmA hU~, dharma se to lakSmI AtI hai, jAyegI kaise ? - maiM rUpavAn hU~, merA rUpa dekhakara duniyA khuza hotI hai, phira lakSmI mujhe chor3akara ___ kaise jAyegI ? - maiM sajjana hU~, paropakArI hU~, lakSmI mere pAsa hI rhegii| ___ ye sAre vicAra mithyA haiM, vyartha haiM ! kyoMki lakSmI kahA~ bhI, kisI ke bhI pAsa sthira nahIM rahatI ! kattha vi Na ramai lcchii| Apa kaise bhI ho... kulavAn ho, paMDita ho, guNavAn ho, zaktizAlI ho, dharmAtmA ho, parAkramI ho yA rUpavAn ho... Apake pAsa lakSmI sadAkAla rahanevAlI nahIM hai| ___ yaha lakSmI jalataraMga kI taraha caMcala hai / jaba taka tumhAre pAsa hai, thor3e dina, thor3e varSa... taba taka usa lakSmI kA sadupayoga kara lo, bhoga lo... anyathA usa kA nAza to nizcita hai ! kArtikeya svAmI ne kahA hai - tA bhuMjijjau lacchI, dijjau dANaM dayApahANeNa / jA jalataraMgacavalA, do-tiNNa diNANi ciTThei // yA to bhoga lo, athavA dayAvAn hokara dAna de do ! jalataraMga jaisI caMcala hai lakSmI... do-tIna dina TikanevAlI hI hai ! usa para vizvAsa mata karo / mamatva se lakSmI kA saMcaya karate rahoge to, jaba lakSmI calI jAyegI taba duHkhI ho jaaoge| lakSmI kA saMcaya nahIM kareM : lakSmI kA saMcaya nahIM kareM / kyoMki isase - kaSAya-bhAva bar3hatA hai, - mana kI malInatA bar3hatI hai, - raudra dhyAna bhI A sakatA hai, - vaira-virodha bar3hatA hai, -- kRpaNatA se jagata meM apayaza hotA hai / yadi lakSmI kA saMcaya nahIM karate hue dAna dete ho to - - mamatvabhAva ghaTatA hai, - mana prasanna rahatA hai, | anitya bhAvanA 8368 123 123 |

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jagata meM yaza bar3hatA hai, lakSmI jAne para bhI duHkha nahIM hotA hai lakSmI kA mamatva tor3ane ke lie, bhUtakAlIna aura vartamAnakAlIna dAnavIroM ko smRti meM lAkara, unakI anumodanA karate raheM / -- deza kI AjhAdI ke lie apanA sArA dhana rANA pratApa ke sAmane rakha denevAle zreSThI bhAmAzAha ko yAda kareM / jaba deza meM duSkAla par3A taba zreSThI jagaDuzAha ne apane annabhaMDAroM ko sabhI ke liye khola kara rakha diye the, unako yAda kareM I rANakapura meM bhavya advitIya maMdira kA nirmANa karane ke lie 99 kroDa rUpayoM kA vyaya karanevAle dhanAzA poravAr3a ko yAda kareM / vaise vartamAna meM prati varSa karIbana 1 kror3a rUpayoM kA sukRta karanevAle aise kucha dhArmika TrasTa haiN| jo jIvadayA, mAnavadayA Adi ke kArya karate haiM / jo bhI choTA-bar3A dAna karate haiM, unakI sarAhanA karate rahoge, to Apa meM bhI dAna dene kI bhAvanA jAgrata hotI / lakSmI kA saMcaya - saMgraha karane kI icchA nahIM hogI - eka samrATa, eka dhanapati : eka samrATa thA, bahuta dAna karatA thA, cAroM dizAoM meM usakI kIrti phailI huA thI / rAjA kI prajA, rAjA ke tyAga kA, usakI sAdagI kA, vinamratA kA guNagAna karatI thI / paraMtu usa kIrti va prazaMsA se samrATa kA abhimAna aura ahaMkAra bar3hatA gayA / paramAtmA se aura sadguru se vaha bahuta dUra ho gayA thA / samrATa dAna detA thA, yaza bar3hatA thA, paraMtu usakI AtmA DUbatI jA rahI thI / samrATa kI zAkhAyeM phailatI jAtI thI, paraMtu usakI jar3e, usake mUla nirbala hote jAte the / dAna karatA thA samrATa, paraMtu dAnadharma nahIM karatA thA ! usa samrATa kA eka mitra thA, usake pAsa bahuta lakSmI thI / usa samaya kA vaha kubera hI thA / usakI sAgara jaisI tijorI meM cAroM ora se dhana kI nadiyA~ Akara giratI thI / paraMtu jaise samrATa bar3A dAnI thA, vaise usakA dhanapati mitra bar3A kaMjUsa thA / eka paisA bhI kisI ko detA nahIM thA / sarvatra usakI kaMjUsa ke rUpa meM apakIrti phailI thI / samaya bItatA gayA, samrATa aura usakA mitra dhanapati, donoM vRddha hue / samrATa zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 124

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"maiM dAnI hU~ isa abhimAna se uchala rahA thA, dhanapati 'maiM koI satkarma na kara sakA, isa vicAra se khinna mana se va AtmaglAni se pIr3ita thA / ahaMkAra aura AtmaglAni eka draSTi se samAna hI haiN| samrATa ahaMkAra nahIM chor3atA hai, kaMjUsa AtmaglAni se mukta nahIM ho pAtA hai / donoM duHkhI ho gye| paraMtu dhanapati ke eka sadgurU the / dhanapati unakI rAya lene gayA / usane sadgurU ko kahA: "maiM azAnta hU~, jaise ki Aga meM jala rahA hU~, mujhe zAnti cAhie / ' - sadgurU ne pUchA : 'tere pAsa itanA dhana-vaibhava hai, zakti sAmarthya hai, phira bhI zAnti nahIM hai ?' dhanapati ne kahA : mujhe aba anubhava ho gayA hai ki dhana meM zAnti nahIM hai, dhana kI vajaha se hI zAnti nahIM hai !' sadgurUne kahA : 'jAo aura apanI sArI saMpatti kA dAna kara do| jisa se lakSmI chIna lI ho, usa ko vApasa kara do, jisake pAsa lakSmI nahIM ho, usako do... dIna-daridra hokara mere pAsa AnA / ' dhanapati gyaa| saba kucha de diyaa| kucha bhI usake pAsa nahIM rahA, vaha sadgurU ke pAsa gayA aura kahA : 'Apake kahe anusAra nirdhana hokara Apa ke pAsa AyA aba Apa hI zaraNa haiM / sadgurU ne kahA : 'tUM ne jisa saMpatti kA tyAga kiyA, usa tyAga ke abhimAna kA bhI tyAga kara ke AnA, taba mujhe saccI zAnti milegI / terA mitra samrATa, bar3A dAnI hote hue bhI kyoM azAnta hai ? usane lakSmI kA tyAga kiyA, paraMtu tyAga ke abhimAna kA tyAga nahIM kiyA hai ! isalie tuma donoM 'dAnAbhimAna' se mukta bano / parama zAnti se tuma mRtyu kA varaNa karoge ! mRtyu nizcita hai : yadi Apa lakSmI kA tyAga svecchA se nahIM karoge to Apako svayaM ko lakSmI kA tyAga karake paraloka jAnA hogA / mahAkAla niraMtara jIvoM ko bhakSya banAtA hI jAtA hai ! vaha kabhI tRpta nahIM hotA hai ! yahI bAta upAdhyAyajI kahate haiM kalayannavirataM, jaMgamAjaMgamaM jagadaho naiva tRpyati kRtAntaH / anitya bhAvanA 125

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mukhagatAn khAdatastasya karatalagataiH na kathamupalapsyate'smAbhirantaH // 8 // Azcarya ! sthAvara jaMgama jagata kA sadaiva bhakSaNa karatA huA kAla kadApi tRpta nahIM hotA hai / aise kAla ke hAthoM meM hama bhI A gaye haiM, hamako bhI vaha bhakSya banA legA ! kahane kA matabala yaha hai ki mRtyu nizcita hai ! dhana saMpatti yahA~ raha jAyegI aura jIva paraloka calA jAyegA ! dhana-saMpatti pAne ke lie, mana vacana kAyA se kiye hue pApa-hiMsA, asatya, corI, beimAnI vagairaha, jIva ke sAtha paraloka caleMge / aura, pApoM kI gaTharI ke sAtha jo paraloka jAtA hai, usako kauna sI gati meM jAnA par3atA hai, vaha Apa jAnate ho na ? sabhA meM se : naraka meM ! mahArAjazrI : phira bhI pApoM kI gaTharI bA~dhate jA rahe ho ? naraka ke duHkhoM se nirbhaya ho gaye ho kyA ? naraka kI vedanAoM ko kabhI yAda karate ho ? naraka ke duHkhoM kA lisTa Apa ke beDarUma meM athavA DroIMgarUma meM rakhA kro| naraka meM jAnA yAnI koI bagIce meM nahIM jAnA hai ! hiTalara ke 'gesa cembara' se bhI bahuta jyAdA bhayaMkara naraka hai / 'gesa cembara' meM eka bAra mauta ho jAtI hai, jaba ki naraka meM punaH punaH ghora duHkha sahanA par3atA hai ! narakagati kI vedanAyeM : sabhA meM se : naraka meM kaisI vedanAyeM hotI haiM ? mahArAjazrI : vahA~ 10 prakAra kI kSetra vedanA hotI hai / 1. AhArya pudgaloM kA baMdhana : prati samaya AhArAdi pudgaloM ke sAtha jo baMdhana hotA hai, vaha pradIpta agni se bhI ati bhayaMkara hotA hai / - 2. gati : gadhe kI cAla se bhI nArakoM kI cAla ati azubha hotI hai / tapta lohe kI bhUmi para paira rakhane se jo vedanA hotI hai, usase bahuta jyAdA vedanA, naraka kI jamIna para calane se hotI hai / 3. saMsthAna : jisa pakSI ke paMkha kaTa gaye hoM, vaha kaisA lagatA hai ? usase jyAdA kharAba unakA saMsthAna hotA hai / 126 4. bheda : bhitti para se jo pudgala girate haiM ve zastra kI dhAra se bhI jyAdA pIr3AkArI hote haiM / zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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5. varNa : aMdhakAramaya, bhayaMkara aura malina ! bhUmimAtra zleSma, viSTA, mUtra, kapha vagairaha bIbhatsa padArthoM se lipta hotA hai / mAMsa, keza, haDDiyA~, dAMta aura camar3e se AcchAdita smazAnabhUmi jaisA hotA hai / 6. gaMdha : sar3e hue pazuoM ke mRtakalevaroM kI durgaMdha se bhI jyAdA durgaMdha vahA~ hotI hai| 7. rasa : ati kaTu rasa hotA hai / 8. sparza : agni aura bicchU ke sparza se jyAdA tIvra hotA hai / 9. pariNAma : ati vyathA karanevAlA hotA hai / 10. zabda : satata pIr3AoM se karUNa kalpAMta karate jIvoM ke svara jaisA vahA~ svara hotA hai / sunane mAtra se duHkhadAyI hotA hai / isake alAvA, zIta kI, uSNatA kI, kSudhA kI, tRSA kI, khAja kI, paravazatA kI, jvara kI, dAha kI, bhaya kI aura zoka kI vedanAyeM tIvra hotI hai / paramAdhAmI devoM kI ora se jo utpIr3ana hotA hai, vaha alaga se hai / paraspara jo kATAkATI... mArAmArI hotI hai, vaha alaga se hotI hai ! upasaMhAra : isalie aise pApa nahIM kareM ki jo pApa naraka meM le jAye / anityabhAvanA kA ciMtana karate hue - zarIra kI anityatA, - AyuSya kI anityatA, - yauvana kI anityatA, - viSayoM kI anityatA, - saMpatti - lakSmI kI anityatA, aura - saMbaMdhoM kI anityatA kA ___ ciMtana karate rheN| bur3hApe kI parAdhInatA kA aura mahAkAla (mRtyu) kI bhayAnakatA kA ciMtana karate raheM / isase koI pApa tIvratA se nahIM hogaa| tIvratA se karmabaMdha nahIM hogA / naraka Adi durgati meM jAnA nahIM hogaa| Aja basa, itanA hI - | anitya bhAvanA 127 |

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 12 anitya bhAvanA - 5 - - : saMkalanA : AtmasvarUpa kI pahacAna kara lo / / 'paramAnanda-paMcaviMzati' meM AtmA kI pahacAna AtmA zarIra meM hai / yogI hI Atmadarzana karate haiM / isI janma meM utsava manA lo / bhItara kA utsava ekAnta meM yogIpuruSa kaise hote haiM ? prazamasukha' yAnI mokSasukha mokSa yahIM para hai ! -

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anitya bhAvanA kA upasaMhAra karate hue upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI gAte haiM / nityamekaM cidAnandayamAtmano rupamabhirupya sukhamanubhaveyam / prazamarasanavasudhApAnavinayotsavo bhavatu satataM satAmiha bhave'yam // 9 // 'saba kucha anitya, kSaNika aura kSaNabhaMgura hai, taba nitya kyA hai ? zAzvat kyA hai ? Anandamaya kyA hai ? isa prazna kA uttara diyA gayA hai : 'nitya aura cidAnandamaya eka mAtra AtmA hai ! usa AtmA ke svarUpa kI pahacAna kara lo aura svAbhAvika Atmasukha kA anubhava kareM / isa anitya bhAvanA ke ciMtana se 'prazamarasa' utpanna hogA bhItara meM, usa prazama-rasa kA abhinava amRtapAna karate raho ! aparva AnaMdotsava, paramAnaMdotsava tumhAre bhItara ghaTita hogA / aisA utsava satpuruSoM ko isI janma meM prApta ho ! AtmasvarUpa kI pahacAna kara lo : .... 'jo anitya, kSaNika hai vaise zarIra, yauvana, AyuSya, vaiSayika sukha, svajanasaMbaMdha, saMpatti... kI pahacAna kara lo; usakA mamatva, Asakti, rAga-moha chUTa gayA... aba aise nitya-zAzvat tattva se mamatva jor3anA hai ki jisase bhItara meM apUrva AnaMdotsava ghaTita ho jAyaM ! paramAnanda kI anubhUti ho jAyaM / vaisA eka hI Atmatattva hai / apanI deha meM hI vaha Atmatattva rahA huA hai ? bhItara meM hI hai / bhItara meM dekhane ke lie dhyAna AnA cAhie / jo dhyAna nahIM kara sakate ve apane hI zarIra meM rahI huI paramAnandamaya, nirvikAra, nirAmaya AtmA ko dekha nahIM sakate / pahacAna nahIM kara sakate / dhyAnamagna yogIpuruSoM ne jo AtmA kI pahacAna pAyI hai, vaha isa taraha hai - anantasukhasaMpannaM, jJAnAmRta-payodharaM / anantavIryasaMpannaM, darzanaM paramAtmanaH // nirvikAraM nirAhAraM, sarvasaMgavivarjitaM / paramAnandasaMpannaM - zuddha caitanyalakSaNam // AnandarUpaM, paramAtmatattvaM samasta saMkalpavikalpamuktam / | anitya bhAvanA 129 |

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- svabhAvalInA nivasanti nityaM jAnAti yogI svayameva tattvam // sadAnandamayaM zuddhaM nirAkAraM nirAmayam / anantasukhasaMpannaM sarvasaMga - vivarjitam // paramAhlAdasaMpannaM rAgadveSa- vivarjitam / so'haM dehamadhyeSu, yo jAnAti saH paMDitaH // AkArarahitaM zuddhaM svasvaspe vyavasthitam / siddhAvaSTaguNopetaM nirvikAraM nirAmayam // tatsadRzaM nijAtmAnaM, paramAnandakAraNam / saMsevate nijAtmAnaM, yo jAnAti saH paMDitaH // 'paramAnanda - paMcaviMzati meM isa prakAra AtmA kI pahacAna karAyI gaI hai| 'zarIra ke bhItara rahI huI parama vizuddha AtmA ananta sukhamaya hai, jJAnAmRta se bhare bAdala samAna hai, ananta zaktizAlI hai, isa prakAra AtmA kA darzana kareM 1 nirvikAra hai, nirAhAra hai, sabhI prakAra ke saMga - AsaMga se rahita hai / paramAnanda se paripUrNa hai aura zuddha caitanya svarUpa hai / " yaha parama vizuddha Atmatattva AnandarUpa hai, sabhI saMkalpa - vikalpoM se mukta hai / svabhAva meM lIna, aise Atmatattva ko yogIpuruSa svayameva jAnate haiM / sadaiva Anandamaya, zuddha, nirAkAra, nirAmaya, ananta sukhamaya aura sabhI baMdhanoM se mukta hai Atmatattva ! parama prasannatA se paripUrNa, rAga-dveSa se rahita so'ham' aisA maiM, deha meM rahA huA hU~ jo jAnatA hai vaha vidvAn hai / AkAra - rahita, zuddha, sva-svarUpa meM rahA huA, siddha paramAtmA ke ATha guNoM se yukta, nirvikAra aura nirAmaya hai, vaha Atmatattva / usa siddhAtmA ke samAna apanI AtmA ko jAnatA hai, vaha paramAnanda kA kAraNa banatA hai, nijAtmA ko isa taraha jo jAnatA hai vaha paMDita - vidvAn hai / yaha to sAta zlokoM kA artha btaayaa| aba AtmA ke guNoM kI kramazaH sUci 130 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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suna lo, isase zuddha AtmA kA acchA paricaya hogA / * ananta sukhamaya * saMkalpa-vikalpoM se mukta, * jJAnAmRta se paripUrNa * svabhAvalIna * ananta zaktizAlI * nirAkAra * nirvikAra * nirAmaya * nirAhAra * baMdhanamukta * asaMga * prasannatA se paripUrNa * paramAnanda se pUrNa * rAga-deSarahita * zuddha caitanya-svarUpa * siddhAtmA-sadRza * AnandarUpa aisI AtmA zarIra meM hai ! ___ aisI AtmA apane zarIra meM rahI huI hai ! paraMtu aisI AtmA ko dhyAnahInAH na pazyati / jo manuSya dhyAnI nahIM hai, vaha nahIM dekha sakatA, jaise janma se aMdha vyakti sUrya ko nahIM dekha sakatA / dhyAnI aise yogIpuruSa hI dekha sakate haiM / aisA dhyAna karanA cAhie, jisase mana vilIna ho jAyaM aura tatkSaNa zuddha Anandamaya AtmA kA darzana ho jAyaM / taddhyAnaM kriyate bhavyaM mano yena vilIyate / ' zarIra ke bhItara hI dekhanA hai ! zarIra meM vyApta hokara rahI huI AtmA ko dekhanA hai / jisa prakAra pASANoM meM sonA hotA hai, dUdha meM ghI rahA huA hai aura tila meM taila hotA hai, vaise deha meM AtmA rahI huI hai / jisa prakAra lakar3I meM agni zaktirUpa se hotI hai vaise yaha AtmA, svabhAva se nirmala, zarIra meM rahI huI hai / kahA gayA hai pASANeSu yathA hema, dugdhamadhye yathA ghRtaM / / tilamadhye yathA tailaM, dehamadhye tathA zivaH // kASThamadhye yathA vahniH zaktirUpeNa tiSThati / ayamAtmA svabhAvena dehe tiSThati nirmalaH // yogI hI Atmadarzana karate haiM : zarIra kA mamatva, moha tor3ane ke lie jaise zarIra meM mAMsa, majjA, rUdhira, | anitya bhAvanA

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viSTA... ityAdi bIbhatsa padArthoM ko dekhanA hai, vaise AtmA se mamatva jor3ane ke lie isI zarIra meM rahI huI nirmala, nirAkAra, nirAmaya, nirvikAra aura nirAhAra AtmA kA darzana karanA hai / dhyAna se hI aisA darzana ho sakatA hai / aisA dhyAna ve hI satpuruSa kara sakate haiM, jinako zuddha AtmasvarUpa meM vizrAnti priya hotI hai, usI meM hI ramaNatA priya hotI hai / mahAmuni devacaMdrajI ne gAyA hai - 'AtamatattvAlaMbI ramatA AtamarAma, zuddha svarupane bhoge, yoge jasu visarAma / ' sarvaprathama to sva-guNoM ke ciMtana meM mana nimagna honA cAhie / bAda meM bhItara meM rahI huI 'AtmasattA' kI ora dekhanA hai / parabhAva se, pudgalabhAva se mana ko sarvathA mukta karanA hogA / hai zrI devacandrajI ne kahA aisA yogIpuruSa 'svaguNa - ciMtana - rase buddhi ghAle, AtmasattA bhaNI je nihAle / - - teha samatArasa tattva sAdhe, nizcalAnanda anubhava ArAdhe ! samatArasa kI, prazamarasa kI anubhUti karatA hai aura nizcala Ananda, paramAnanda pAtA hai / yahI yogIpuruSoM kA utsava hotA hai ! jina yogI puruSoM kI buddhi AtmaguNoM ke ciMtana meM calI jAtI hai aura jinako AtmasattA hI dikhatI hai ve yogI apane AtmaguNoM ke Ayudha ( zastra) se karmoM kA nAza karate haiM, bharapUra karmanirjarA karate haiM / 132 'svaguNa - Ayudha thakI karma cUre, asaMkhyAta guNa nirjarA teha pUre !' jaise jaise karmanirjarA hotI jAtI hai, vaise vaise AtmA ko abhinava prazamasukha kA anubhava hotA jAtA hai ! vahI satpuruSoM kA 'mahotsava' hotA hai ! isI janma meM utsava manA lo ! yogI - jJAnI puruSoM kA utsava bhItara meM ghaTita hotA hai / isa utsava kA majA varNanAtIta... zabdAtIta hotA hai ! yAnI isa prazamasukha kI abhinava anubhUti zabdoM zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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meM bA~dha nahIM sakate ! kAvya meM gA nahIM sakate ! yaha to yogIpuruSoM kA svayaM kA 'utsava' hotA hai / svayaM kA nijAnaMda hotA hai / mokSasukha to dUra hai, paraMtu vaisA hI prazamasukha yahA~ anubhava karate haiM / 'dUre mokSasukhaM, pratyakSaM prazamasukham / jo sAdhaka yahA~, isa janma meM prazamasukha kA anubhava nahIM kara sakate ve mokSasukha nahIM pA sakate / isalie isI janma meM prazamasukha kA amRtapAna karate hue Atmotsava manAne ke lie upAdhyAyajI preraNA karate haiM / jisa prakAra pRthvI kA utsava RtuoM ke dvArA prakaTa hotA hai, vRkSoM kA utsava vasaMta dvArA aura vasaMta kA utsava koyala ke kUjana dvArA vyakta hotA hai / puSpoM kA utsava unakI sugaMdha se hotA hai| AkAza kA utsava mauna dvArA prakaTa hotA hai ! vidyA kA utsava viveka dvArA vyakta hotA hai aura yogIpuruSoM kA, satpuruSoM kA utsava prazamarasa ke amRtapAna ke dvArA prakaTa hotA hai / Atmatattva kI anubhUti hone para yogIpuruSa, satpuruSa cidAnanda se vibhora ho jAtA hai aura gAne lagatA hai| : sa eva paramaM brahma, sa eva jinapuMgavaH / sa eva paramaM cittaM sa eva paramo guruH // sa eva paramaM jyotiH, sa eva paramaM tapaH / sa eva paramaM dhyAnaM, sa eva paramAtmakam // sa eva sarvakalyANaM, sa eva sukhabhAjanam / sa eva zuddhacidrUpaM sa eva paramaH zivaH // sa eva paramAnandaH, sa eva sukhadAyakaH / sa eva paracaitanyaM sa eva guNasAgaraH || paramAhlAdasaMpannaM rAgadveSavivarjitam / so'haM dehamadhyeSu, yo jAnAti saH paMDitaH // 'sa evaM' yAnI AtmA, zarIra meM rahI huI AtmA / vaha merI AtmA hI parama brahma hai, vahI jinezvara hai, vahI parama citta hai aura vahI parama guru hai / vahI merI dehasthita AtmA hI parama jyoti hai, vahI parama tapa hai, vahI parama dhyAna hai aura vahI parama AtmA hai ! anitya bhAvanA 133

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vahI AtmA hI sarvakalyANarUpa hai aura vahI sukhabhaMDAra hai, vahI zuddha cidrUpa hai aura vahI parama ziva hai ! vahI merA paramAnanda hai, vahI sukhadAyaka hai, vahI parama caitanya hai aura vahI guNasAgara hai ! vahI merA parama AhlAda hai... vahI vItarAga-vItadveSa hai... so'ham... so'ham... so'hm| maiM vahI hU~... maiM vahI hU~... maiM vahI hU~ / __ yaha prazamarasa ke amRtapAna se jo bhItara meM utsava ghaTita hotA hai, usakA kAvya hai, AnaMdormi kA gIta hai / cidAnanda hI mastI meM sphUrita zabdAvalI hai ! Apako utsava... bhItara kA utsava manAnA hai ? to Apa bAhara ke utsavoM kA moha tyAga kara, bhItara meM cale jAyaM / samagratayA bhItara meM cale jAyaM, kucha 15/20 miniTa ke lie, Adhe ghaMTe ke lie... bhItara meM sthira hokara, ye pA~ca zloka gAiye / jyotisvarUpa AtmA kI kalpanA kara, ye pA~ca zlokoM kA gAna kriye| bhItara kA utsava ekAnta meM: ___ yadi Apa aisA Ananda se bharapUra utsava manAtA cAhate ho, to pahalA kAma rAgI-dveSI logoM kI bhIr3a se dUra jAnA hogA / isIlie pahAr3oM para apane tIrtha bane haiN| bIhar3a jaMgaloM meM apane tIrtha bane haiM ! paraMtu vartamAna meM to vahA~ bhI logoM kI bhIr3a rahane lagI hai ! isalie jahA~ loga nahIM jAte haiM, bahuta kama loga jAte haiM vaise pahAr3a para cale jaao| jaise ki tAraMgAjI ke Upara siddhazilA kI guphA meM yA koTizilA kI guphA meM jAkara baiThe... athavA giranAra kI koI guphA pasaMda kara, vahA~ ekAdha-AdhA ghaMTA baiTho... aura utsava manA lo ! athavA rANakapura ke koI nirjana maMdira meM athavA pahAr3oM... meM jAkara baiTha jAyaM aura utsava manA lo! __isa utsava meM ekAnta aura mauna cAhie hI / vANI kA mauna aura vicAroM kA mauna ! pudgaleSvapravRttistu yoginAM maunamuttamam !' pudgala bhAvoM meM mana kI pravRtti nahIM honA, yogIpuruSoM kA uttama mauna hotA hai| jaba ApakA mana, ApakI baddhi AtmabhAvoM meM hI lIna banatI hai. phira mana pudgala bhAvoM meM jAyegA hI kaise ? apanI prAcIna paraMparA meM sAdhaka puruSa, zrAvaka ho yA sAdhu ho, gRhastha ho yA | 134 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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saMnyAsI ho, jisako cidAnanda kA prazamAnanda kA utsava manAnA hotA thA ve rAtri ke samaya meM nagara ke bAhara zUnya gharoM meM, khaMDaharoM meM... smazAna meM cale jAte the / unako vahA~ ekAnta milatA thA / ve rAtabhara vahA~ kAyotsarga dhyAna meM yahI paramAnanda kA paramAhlAda kA, parama jyoti kA utsava manAte the / ve 'so'ham... so'ham... so'ham...' ke nAda se jhUmate the / ve siddhasvarUpa kA tAdAtmya pAkara paramAnanda kI anubhUti karate the / 1 aise zrAvaka bhI hote the / sudarzana vagairaha ke dRSTAMta apane zAstroM meM, AgamoM meM par3hate haiM / muni, yogI, sAdhuoM ke to aneka dRSTAMta par3hane ko milate haiM ve nirbhaya hote the / ve indriyavijetA hote the / ve vIra aura dhIra hote the ! bhItara kA utsava aise satpuruSa hI manA sakate haiM / aise satpuruSa, jisa prakAra ekAntapriya aura maunadhArI hote hai, vaise ve sahajarUpa se tapasvI hote the / binA AhAra -pAnI ve kaI dinoM taka apanI ArAdhanA meM nirata raha sakate the / lokasaMparka se ve dUra raha sakate the / cidAnanda kI mastI meM khAnA- pInA... unako yAda bhI AtA nahIM hogA ! ve to amRtapAna hI karate rahate the / 'prazamarasa' kA amRtapAna ! yogIpuruSa kaise hote haiM prazna : Apa kahate haiM vaise yogIpuruSa kaise hote haiM ? uttara : AtmadhyAna karanevAle aura paramAnaMda kA utsava manAnevAle yogI 12 yogyatAvAle cAhie / suneM, ve yogyatAe~ batAtA hU~ / 7. layayoga meM tatpara, 1. sthira buddhivAlA, 2. svAdhIna, 8. vIryavAn, 3. vizAla hRdayavAlA, 4. kSamAzIla, 5. vIra, 6. gurucaraNapUjaka, aisA sAdhaka hI AtmadhyAna karane yogya aura adhikArI hotA hai| aisA yogIpuruSa yadi apanI AtmA kI, 'jinasvarUpa' banakara ArAdhanA karate haiM, ve 'jinasvarUpa' bana jAte haiM / mahAyogI zrI AnaMdaghanajI ne kahA hai : 'jinasvarUpa thai jina ArAdhe anitya bhAvanA 9. dayAvAn, 10. satyavAdI, 11. zraddhAvAn, 12. yogAbhyAsa meM tatpara / 135

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te sahI jinavara hove re... apanI AtmA ko jinasvarUpa yAnI paramAtmasvarUpa dekhanA aura usa para ekAgra honA, unake lie hI saMbhava hai ki jo abhI maiMne batAyA vaisA vyaktitvavAlA ho! ___ zrI zAntinAtha bhagavAna kI stavanA karate hue zrImad AnandaghanajI ne gAyA mAna-apamAna citta sama gaNe sama gaNe kanaka-pASANa re, vaMdaka-niMdaka sama gaNe, isyo hoya tuM jANa re... zAnti. sarva jaga jaMtu ne sama gaNe, sama gaNe tuNa-maNi bhAva re, mukti-saMsAra bihu sama gaNe, muNe bhava-jalanidhi nAva re... na mAna-sanmAna unake citta meM rAgajanya caMcalatA paidA kara sakate haiM, na apamAna-tiraskAra dveSajanya caMcalatA ko janma de sakate haiM / yogIpuruSa mAnaapamAna ko samAna mAnate haiM / __unake sAmane svarNa kA Dhera ho yA pASANa ke pahAr3a ho, isa yogI kI jJAnadRSTi meM donoM samAna hote haiN| ___ koI bhakta unake caraNoM meM vaMdanA kareM athavA koI unakI niMdA kareM, yogI to vaMdaka aura nindaka - donoM ko samAna samajhatA hai ! na to vaMdaka ke prema hotA hai, na niMdaka ke prati dveSa hotA hai ! samagra vizva ke sabhI jIvoM ko yogIpuruSa samAna rUpa se dekhatA hai / unakI jJAnadRSTi meM nahIM hotA hai rAjA-raMka kA bheda, na zrImaMta-garIba kA bheda ! samagra jIvasRSTi ko samAna rUpa meM dekhate haiM, yAnI hara AtmA ko usake zuddha svarUpa meM dekhate haiM / sabhI jIvoM kA vizuddha svarUpa to samAna hI hotA hai / / unake sAmane ghAsa ho yA maNi-mANaka ho, yogI ke citta meM koI bheda nahIM hotaa| na ghAsa ke prati tucchatA kA bhAva, na maNi-mANaka ke prati uttamatA kA bhAva hotA. hai / ___ are, unake mana meM to saMsAra aura mokSa ke bIca bhI koI bheda nahIM hotA ! donoM ke prati samabhAva ! yaha hai samatAbhAva, yaha hai prazamabhAva ! isa samatva kA utsava yogI manAte rahate haiM apanI bhItara ! utsava manAte hue bhAvavibhora banakara gAne lagate haiM AnandaghanajI : 136 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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'aho ! aho ! hu~ mujane kahu~, namo muja ! namo muja... re ! apanI AtmA kA paramAtmasvarUpa, paramAnandasvarUpa dekha liyA... aura ve apanI hI AtmA ko namaskAra karane lage ! 'namo muja, namo muja !' bolate hue nAcane lage ! isI ko kahate haiM yogI kA utsava ! prazamabhAva ke amRtapAna kA utsava ! prazamasukha yAnI mokSasukha : upAdhyAyajI ne jisa 'prazamarasa' ke sudhApAna ke utsava kI bAta kahI hai.... vaha bahuta hI rahasyabhUta aura adbhuta bAta hai| isa prazamarasa' ke viSaya meM mahAjJAnI bhagavAna umAsvAtIjI ne 'prazamarati graMtha kI racanA kI hai| isa graMtha meM prazamasukha' ko unhoMne pratyakSa mokSasukha batAyA hai svargasukhAni parokSANyatyantaparokSameva mokSasukham / pratyakSaM prazamasukhaM na paravazaM na vyayaprAptam // 237 // 'svarga ke sukha parokSa haiM aura mokSa kA sukha to atyaMta parokSa hai, jaba ki prazamasukha pratyakSa hai, svAdhIna hai aura zAzvat hai !' isa pRthvI para, isa saMsAra meM yadi mokSasukha cAhie to vaha hai prazama kA sukha ! jina AtmAoM ke pAsa, jina mahAtmAoM ke pAsa yaha 'prazamasukha' hai, unheM svarga ke sukhoM kI icchA nahIM rahatI, unheM mokSa ke sukha kI bhI tamannA nahIM hotI ! ve to 'mokSe'pi anicchaH' hote haiM ! yaha prazamasukha pAne ke lie kisI bhI taraha kI gulAmI nahIM karanI hai, tumhArI hI aMtarAtmA meM se vaha sukha mila jaayegaa| milane ke bAda usa sukha kA anubhava karane ke liye indriyoM kI paravazatA bhI nahIM hogI, cU~ki yaha sukha indriyAtIta hotA hai / AtmA kA sukha, AtmA se hI, AtmA ko, AtmA meM mahasUsa karanA hai ! tuma cAho jitanA prazamasukha bhogo, vaha kabhI bhI kama nahIM hone kA ! yaha sukha hai hI kucha aisA ki jyoM jyoM use bhogate caleM, tyoM tyoM vaha bar3hatA hI rahatA hai ! isa prazamasukha kI prApti hone para, bhautika-vaiSayika sukhoM kI icchA hI mRtaprAyaH ho jAtI hai / apUrva evaM adbhuta prazamasukha meM DUbI huI AtmA mokSasukha kI anubhUti meM gahare utaratI hai aura bhavya utsava manAtI hai ! anitya bhAvanA 137

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mokSa yahIM para hai ! bhagavAna umAsvAtijI ne Age bar3hakara kahA hai - nirjitamadamadanAnAM, vAkkAyamanovikAra-rahitAnAm / vinivRttaparAzAnAmihaiva mokSaH suvihitAnAm // 238 / / 'jinhoMne mada aura kAma ko jIta liyA hai, jo mana-vacana-kAyA ke vikAroM se mukta haiM, parapadArthoM kI AzAyeM jinakI naSTa ho gaI haiM, vaise suvihita yogI ke lie to yahIM para hI mokSa hai ! tAtparya yaha hai - - mAna-sanmAna kI AzA chor3a denA hai, - Adara-satkAra kI apekSA tyAga denA hai, - priya vacana kI AzaMsA jhaTaka denA hai, - anukUlatAoM kI utsukatA ukhAr3a pheMkanA hai, aura - kiye hue upakAroM ke badale kI AzA nahIM rakhanA hai / - mada aura madana para vijaya prApta karanA hogA / kyoMki mana ko AtyaMtika rUpa se asvastha banAnevAle yadi koI hai to ye mada aura madana hai / mAna aura kAma ! - vaise, manovikAroM ko dUra karane par3eMge / - vacana-vikAroM ko bhI mUla se naSTa karane hoMge / - kAyA ke vikAroM kA bhI mUloccheda karanA hogA / yaha saba yogIpuruSa kara sakate haiM, aura ve hI mokSasukha sadRza prazamasukha kA anubhava kara sakate haiM / isI bhava meM prazamasukhAnubhava kA utsava hotA rahatA hai ! bhavatu satataM satAmiha bhave'yam / ' zrI vinayavijayajI aisI bhAvanA vyakta karate haiM - "bhavatu prazamasukha kA anubhava... utsava satata calatA rahe ! hotA rahe !' __ isI janma meM, apane bhI vaisA prazamasukha kA amRtapAna karate raheM aura utsava manAte raheM - yahI zubha kAmanA / ___ Aja basa, itanA hI - | 138 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 13 azaraNabhAvanA - 1 : saMkalanA : mRtyu sarvopari / - mRtyu ke sAmane sabhI azaraNa / madonmatta nahIM bane / - mRtyu sAmane khar3I hai| guNanidhAna loga bhI cale jAte haiN| .. AyuSyakarma kA vijJAna samajheM / dvArikA jala jAtI hai| niyANA kyA hotA hai ? zrIkRSNa kI dvArikA meM ghoSaNA / bhagavAna nemanAtha giranAra para / / dvaipAyana mara kara agnikumAra deva banA /

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ye SaTkhaNDamahImahInatarasA nirjitya babhrAjire, ye ca svargabhujo bhujorjitamadA medurmudA medurAH / te'pi krUrakRtAntavaktraradanairnirdalyamAnAhaThAdatrANAH zaraNAya hA dazadizaH prekSanta dInAnanAH // 7 // azaraNa bhAvanA kA prAraMbha karate hue upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI kahate haiM : apane atula parAkrama se samagra pRthvI para vijaya pAnevAle samrATa, cakravartI aura apanI ajeya zakti se unmatta evaM apUrva harSa se sarvadA Anandita rahanevAle deva-devendra, jaba unake Upara nirdaya yamarAja balAtkAra karatA hai aura apane tIkSNa dAMtoM se unako cIra DAlatA hai, taba ve samrATa, cakravartI, deva aura devendra, dInahIna bana, azaraNa sthiti meM cAroM ora dekhate rahate haiM, unako koI bacA nahIM sakatA! mRtyu sarvopari : ananta janmoM se jIvoM ke sAtha asaMkhya vAsanAe~ jur3I huI haiM / AhAra kI vAsanA, bhaya kI vAsanA, maithuna kI vAsanA aura parigraha kI vAsanA / ye cAra pramukha vAsanAe~ haiN| ye vAsanAe~ jIvoM ko duHkhI karatI haiN| isalie parama karuNAvaMta jJAnIpuruSoM ne vAsanAoM para vijaya pAne kA, vAsanAoM ko naSTa karane kA upadeza diyA / vAsanAoM ke Upara bhAvanAoM se vijaya pA sakate haiM / vAsanAoM ke Upara vijaya pAne kA zreSTha upAya hai bhaavnaaeN| __cAra pramukha vAsanAoM meM se eka hai bhaya kI vAsanA / janma se mRtyu taka jIva kucha bhayoM ke sAtha jIte haiM / priya ke viyoga kA bhaya aura apriya ke saMyoga kA bhaya ! ye do mukhya bhaya hote haiM / svajana-parijana, saMpatti-vaibhava, zarIra vagairaha priya padArtha hote haiM / ye cale na jAyaM, naSTa na ho jAyaM, corI na ho jAyaM... isa bAta ko lekara manuSya bhayAkrAnta rahatA hai / vaise jo apriya vastu hotI hai, apriya bAteM hotI haiM - roga-zoka, svajanaviyoga, durjana-saMyoga, vRddhatva aura mRtyu... inase bhI manuSya bhayabhIta rahatA hai / bhaya se bacane ke lie vaha koI rakSA cAhatA hai, koI zaraNa cAhatA hai / jo usakI bhaya se rakSA karatA ho, usakI vaha zaraNa cAhatA hai / hA~, dUsare sabhI bhayoM se bacAnevAle, zaraNa denevAle phira bhI mila jAte haiM saMsAra meM, paraMtu mRtyu se bacAnevAle koI nahIM hote haiM saMsAra meM ! mRtyu anivArya hotI hai jIvoM ke lie, 140 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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mRtyu kA bhaya bhI hotA hai nizcita rUpa se / mRtyu jaba sAmane dikhatI hai, taba jIvAtmA apane Apako azaraNa pAtA hai, asahAya pAtA hai ! mRtyu ke sAmane sabhI azaraNa : rogoM se bacAnevAle, zatruoM se bacAnevAle, Apatti se bacAnevAle mila sakate haiM isa saMsAra meM / vo bhI yadi puNyakarma kA udaya ho to ! anyathA nahIM / paraMtu mRtyu se, yamarAja se bacAnevAlA koI nahIM hai / tuma bhale hI bar3e samrATa ho, cakravartI ho, deva ho yA devendra ho, tumhAre pAsa bar3I-virATa senA ho, vizAla bhUmisenA ho, samudrI senA ho yA AkAzI senA ho... tuma mRtyu se nahIM baca sakate ho / yamarAja tumheM uThAkara le jAyegA ! tuma jAnA nahIM cAhate hoMge, to bhI balAt le jAyegA ! tuma dIna-hIna banakara cAroM ora dekhate rahoge aura vaha le jaayegaa| tumhAre snehI-svajana-mitra... sabhI dekhate raha jAyeMge aura yamarAja tumheM le jAyegA / yaha hotI hai azaraNatA / upAdhyAyazrI sakalacandrajI kahate haiM : __ mAtA-pitAdika Tagamaga jotA, yama le janane tANI re, maraNa thakI surapati navi chUTe navi chUTe indrANI re... ko navi zaraNaM, ko navi zaraNaM / pyArabharI mAtA pAsa meM ho, vAtsalyabhare pitA pAsa khar3e hoM, premapUrNa patnI pAsa khaDI ho, aneka svajana aura mitra khar3e ho...saba dekhate raha jAte haiM aura yamarAja jIva ko ur3Akara le jAtA hai / mRtyu se kauna bacatA hai ? na devendra bacatA hai, na devarAnI chUTatI hai ! mRtyu se bacAnevAlI koI zaraNa nahIM hai / madonmatta nahIM baneM : mRtyu sAmane khar3I hai : . . tAvadeva madavibhramamAlI, tAvadeva guNagauravazAlI / yAvadakSamakRtAntakaTAkSarnekSito vizaraNo narakITaH // 2 // upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI kahate haiM : he manuSya, taba taka hI tUM madonmatta hai aura guNagauravazIla hai, jaba taka tere para durjaya yamarAja kA krUra dRSTipAta nahIM huA hai / yamarAja kA krUra dRSTipAta hone para tujhe koI nahIM bacA skegaa| yadi Apa pratipala mRtyu ko sAmane rakhate ho, to kabhI bhI, kisI bhI bAta kA abhimAna nahIM hogA / athavA, jaba kabhI saMpatti kA, yauvana kA, buddhi kA azaraNa bhAvanA 141

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yA jJAna vagairaha kA abhimAna A jAyaM, taba mRtyu kA kSaNika ciMtana karate raho, abhimAna nahIM rhegaa| garva vigalita ho jAyegA / kucha aitihAsika athavA zAstrIya udAharaNa yAda rakheM, jaba mana garvonmatta baneM, taba una udAharaNoM ko yAda kreN| vaise do udAharaNa prAcInatama yAda rakheM / eka rAmAyaNakAlIna laMkApati rAvaNa kA, dUsarA mahAbhAratakAlIna duryodhana kA / donoM apanI ajeya zakti para garvonmatta the, donoM apane kukarmoM kA vicAra taka nahIM karate the| donoM ne parastrI ko satAyA thA-eka ne sItAjI ko, dUsare ne draupadI ko / yuddha meM donoM kI mRtyu huI thI / saba kucha yahA~ par3A raha gayA aura ve durgati meM cale gaye / unako koI nahIM bacA pAye / na bhAI bacA pAye, na putra bacA pAye, na senA bacA pAI / unakI deha ke sAtha sArA abhimAna miTTI meM mila gayA / dIna-anAtha aura azaraNa bane / mRtyu-yamarAja uThA kara le gayA ! bala, buddhi, sattA aura saMpatti kucha bhI kAma nahIM AyA / isalie graMthakAra kahate haiM : abhimAna mata karo / mRtyu ke sAmane tuma azaraNa ho / jisa taraha jaMgala meM siMha ke pairoM ke tale par3A huA mRga azaraNa hotA hai, vaise saMsAra meM kAla-mahAkAla se grasita jIva bhI azaraNa hotA hai / guNanidhAna loga bhI cale jAte haiM : __pApI logoM ko jisa taraha yamarAja nahIM chor3atA hai, vaise guNavAna logoM ko bhI yamarAja uThA kara le jAtA hai / isa saMsAra meM jIvoM kI niyati hai janma aura mRtyu kI / janma aura mRtyu ke bIca jIvana hotA hai / jIvana, pratyeka jIva kA jIvana, AyuSyakarma ke sAtha saMbaMdhita hotA hai / AyuSyakarma samApta hone para jIvana samApta ho jAtA hai / mRtyu ho jAtI hai / kArtikeyAnuprekSA meM kahA gayA hai - AukkhayeNa maraNaM AuM dAuNa sakkade ko vi / / / tamha deviMdo viya maraNA uNa rakkhade ko vi // 'AyuSyakarma ke kSaya se mRtyu hotI hai aura AyuSya kisI ko koI bhI de nahIM sakatA, isalie devarAja indra bhI apane ko mRtyu se bacA nahIM sakatA __svayaM indra bhI, apane Apa ko mRtyu se yadi bacA sakatA hotA to vaha sarvottama bhogoMvAlA svargavAsa kisalie chor3atA ? arthAt isa jIvasRSTi meM koI bhI jIvAtmA apanA AyuSya, eka kSaNa bhI bar3hA sakatA nahIM hai / deva-devendroM se pUjita | 142 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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tIrthaMkara paramAtmA bhI apanA AyuSya bar3hA nahIM pAte ! eka kSaNa bhI bar3hA nahIM pAte / zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ne, devarAja indra kI prArthanA hone para kahA thA na ki he indra, AyuSyakarma maiM bhI nahIM bar3hA sakatA ! AyuSyakarma pUrNa hone para, bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI kA, dezanA dete dete nirvANa ho gayA thA / AyuSyakarma kA vijJAna samajheM : AyuSyakarma kA mRtyu ke sAtha saMbaMdha hai / cAroM gati ke jIvoM ke mRtyu kA saMbaMdha AyuSyakarma ke sAtha hotA hai / pratyeka jIvAtmA, apane AnevAle janma kA (mRtyu ke bAda) AyuSyakarma bA~dha letA hai, nizcita kara letA hai / koI jIva devagati kA, koI jIva manuSyagati kA, koI jIva tiryaMcagati kA, koI jIva narakagati kA AyuSyakarma bA~dha letA hai / mRtyu ke pahale AyuSyakarma baMdha hI jAtA hai / AgAmI janma kA AyuSyakarma baMdhane ke bAda hI mRtyu hotI hai / aura, vartamAna jIvana kA AyuSyakarma pUrNa hone para mRtyu hotI hai / aura hamAre pAsa vaisA jJAna nahIM hai, divya jJAna nahIM hai ki hama jAna sakeM ki hamArA kitanA AyuSya zeSa hai ! aura yaha bhI nahIM jAna sakate ki hamane kauna sI gati kA AyuSyakarma bA~dha liyA hai / AyuSyakarma ke viSaya meM hama pUrNatayA ajJAnI haiM / mAtra deva jAna sakate haiM, kyoMki ve avadhijJAnI hote haiM / __ AyuSyakarma kabhI bhI, kisI bhI kSaNa samApta ho sakatA hai / isalie kisI bhI samaya mRtyu ho sakatI hai / koI bhI zakti mRtyu se bacA nahIM sakatI hai / azaraNa bhAvanA ko eka sajjhAya meM (kAvya meM) kavi ne kahA hai : cakrI subhUma te jaladhimAM hAryoM khaTakhaMDa rAja re, bUDayo carama jahAja re, deva gayA savi bhAja re... lobhe gaI tasa lAja re... bAraha cakravartI hue, isa avasarpiNI kAla meM / unameM AThavA~ cakravartI huA subhUma / subhUma cakravartI ne isa bharatakSetra ke 6 khaMDa jIta liye the| phira bhI usako saMtoSa nahIM huaa| vaha dhAtakIkhaMDa ke bharatakSetra ke dUsare 6 khaMDa jItane ko claa| usako pUrA lavaNasamudra pAra karanA thaa| usake pAsa carmaratna thaa| ati vizAlavirATa carma ke jahAja para vizAla senA lekara, usane prayANa kiyA / carma-jahAja ko uThAkara hajAroM deva cala rahe the| sabhI devoM ko, jahAja ko uThAnevAle sabhI devoM ko eka hI samaya vicAra AyA ki yaha carma-jahAja cakravartI ke puNya se azaraNa bhAvanA

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calatA hai yA hamAre uThAne se ? jahAja ko chor3a deM... dekheM ki kyA hotA hai ?' sabhI devoM ne jahAja ko chor3a diyA / jahAja lavaNasamudra meM DUbA ! cakravartI bhI DUbA ! marA aura sAtavIM naraka meM calA gayA / marate samaya usake mana meM devoM ke prati ghora dveSa paidA ho gayA hogA ! raudradhyAna A gayA hogA ! raudradhyAna meM marane se jIva ko naraka meM jAnA par3atA hai / raudradhyAna meM jIva narakagati kA AyuSyakarma bA~dha letA hai / mahattvapUrNa bAta to yaha hai ki subhUma cakravartI kA AyuSya usa samaya pUrNa ho gayA ki jaba vaha samudramArga se jA rahA thA ! jahAja vahana karanevAle deva to nimitta mAtra the ! AyuSya pUrNa hone para usakI mRtyu nizcita thI / cakravartI na svayaM ko bacA pAyA, nahIM deva usako mRtyu se bacA pAye ! yaha hai jIvoM kI azaraNatA / 'azaraNabhAvanA' kI sajjhAya meM kavi ne Age kahA hai : dvIpAyana dahI dvArikA, balavaMta goviMda rAma re, rAkhI na zakyA re rAjavI, mAta-pitA-suta dhAma re.... lobhe tasa gaI lAja re... dvArikA jala jAtI hai : mahAbhAratakAlIna yaha kathA bar3I karuNAntikA hai / 22veM tIrthaMkara bhagavAna nemanAtha ke samaya meM ghaTI huI yaha ghaTanA, triSaSTizalAkApuruSacaritra meM AcArya zrI hemacandrasUrijI ne mArmika DhaMga se likhI hai| baladeva aura vAsudeva jaise ati balavAna zalAkA puruSa, uttama puruSa bhI mahAkAla ke sAmane kaise azaraNa ... asahAya... bana jAte haiM, yaha bAta isa kahAnI ke mAdhyama se batAnA hai / bar3I romAMcaka aura karuNa (TrejeDI) kahAnI hai yaha / Apa ekAgra citta se sunanA aura jIvoM kI mahAkAla ke sAmane jo azaraNatA hai vaha mahasUsa karanA / 144 - bhagavAna neminAtha dvArikA ke bAhya udyAna meM padhAre the| samavasaraNa meM baiThakara bhagavaMta ne dharmopadeza diyA / upadeza pUrNa hone para zrIkRSNa ne vinaya se bhagavaMta ko pUchA : 'bhagavan isa dvArikA kA, yAdavoM kA aura merA nAza kaise hogA ?' bhagavaMta ne kahA : 'kRSNa, indriyavijetA aura brahmacArI dvaipAyana RSi, dvArikA ko jalA deNge| usameM tere mAtA-pitA aura sabhI yAdava jalakara mareMge / mAtra tU aura balarAma bacoge terI mRtyu tere bhAI jarAkumAra se hogI / ' I zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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jarAkumAra samavasaraNa meM hI baiThA thA / bhagavaMta ke vacana sunakara vaha khinna ho gyaa| usake hRdaya meM zrIkRSNa ke prati apAra sneha thaa| usane socA : 'maiM zrIkRSNa kA bhrAtA huuN| maiM unakA kaise ghAta kara sakatA hU~ / maiM dvArikA meM nahIM rahU~gA / usane vanavAsa svIkAra kara liyaa| ___ dvaipAyana RSi, jo ki dvArikA ke pAsa rahate the / unhoMne bhagavAna neminAtha kI bhaviSyavANI sunI / ve gahare soca meM par3a gaye / unake mana meM dvArikA se va yAdavoM se lagAva thaa| kRSNa aura balarAma se sneha thaa| unakA mana bhI vikSubdha ho gyaa| ve bhI apanA Azrama chor3akara dUra-dUra giri guphA meM cale gaye / zrIkRSNa ne bhagavAna se jAna liyA thA ki yaha sArA anartha zarAba kI vajaha se honevAlA hai, madirA se honevAlA hai / unhoMne apane nagara meM, saMpUrNa dvArikA meM madirApAna kA niSedha jArI kara diyaa| dvArikA meM jitanI bhI madirA thI, vaha sArI kI sArI madirA, kadaMba vana meM jo kAdaMbarI nAma kI guphA thI, usake pAsa aneka zilAkhaMDa the, vahA DAla dI gaI / udhara madirA kI eka nadI sI bahane lgii| vaha madirA, vividha vRkSoM ke sugaMdhI puSpoM ke saMparka se jyAdA svAdiSTa ho gii| vaizAkha mahinA thA / eka dina, kRSNaputra zAbakumAra kA eka sevaka udhara se gujarA ki jahA~ madirA baha rahI thii| use tRSA lagI thI, usane vahA~ madirApAna kiyA / madirA ke svAda se vaha harSita huA / usane kucha madirA bhAjana meM bhara lI aura chupAkara zAMbakumAra ke pAsa le aayaa| zAMbakumAra ne madirApAna kiyaa| vaha bahuta khuza huA / usane sevaka se pUchA : aisI madirA ta kahA~ se le AyA ? sevaka ne sArI bAta btaaii| dUsare hI dina zAMbakumAra aneka yAdavayuvakoM ke sAtha kAdaMbarI guphA ke pAsa gayA / vahA~ usane zilAkhaMDoM ke bIca bahatI huI madirA kI nadI ko dekhA ! vaha harSonmatta huaa| usane sevakoM se madirA maMgavAkara pInA zurU kiyaa| sabhI ne peTa bharakara madirApAna kiyaa| sabhI kumAra unmatta bane / vahA~ se vApasa lauTe / rAste meM unhoMne usa kadaMba vana meM dvaipAyana RSi ko dhyAnastha avasthA meM khar3e hue dekhe / zAMbakumAra dvaipAyana RSi ko dekhate hI bolA : yaha tApasa, hamArI dvArikA . ko aura hamAre kula ko jalAkara mAra denevAlA hai, isalie isako hI mAra DAleM! yaha mara jAyegA, phira vaha dvArikA ko kaise jalA degA ? hamAre kula ko kaise mAregA ?' zAMbakumAra kI AjJA hote hI yAdavakumAroM ne dvaipAyana RSi ko mAranA | azaraNa bhAvanA 145 |

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zurU kiyaa| atyadhika zarAba pIne se unmatta to the hI...unhoMne RSi ko lAteM mArI, muSThIprahAra kiye, jamIna para girA diye / itanA mArA ki RSi mRtapAyaH ho gaye / sabhI yAdavakumAra bAda meM dvArikA meM apane gharoM meM ghusa gaye ! / zrIkRSNa ko yAdavakumAroM kA yaha bhayAnaka duSkRtya mAluma huA / ve bahuta vyathita hue| unhoMne socA : kumAroM ne vAstava meM yAdavakula kA nAza karanevAlA duSkRtya kiyA hai / mujhe RSi ke pAsa jAkara unase kSamAyAcanA karanI hI hogI / RSi atyaMta kopAyamAna hue hoMge / zrIkRSNa ne bar3e bhAI balarAma ko sArI bAta batAI / ve bhI duHkhI hue / zrIkRSNa ne kahA : bhaiyA, hameM dvaipAyana RSi ke pAsa jAkara, unase kSamAyAcanA karanI hogii| donoM bhAI dvaipAyana RSi ke pAsa pahu~ce / unhoMne dvaipAyana ko dekhA / dvaipAyana kI A~kheM krodha se lAla-lAla ho gaI thI, jaise dRSTiviSa sarpa kI A~kheM ho ! zrIkRSNa aura balarAma ne RSi ke caraNoM meM praNAma kiyA aura vinaya se unake sAmane baitthe| zrIkRSNa ne namratA se kahA : he maharSi, mere putra madirApAna se unmatta the, aMdha bane the| unhoMne ApakA bahuta bar3A aparAdha kiyA hai / Apako bahuta kaSTa diyA hai / ve ajJAnI haiM, mohAndha haiM / Apa jJAnI haiM, tapasvI haiM, Apa unako kSamA kreN| Apa krodha ko zAnta kareM...samatA dhAraNa kareM / zrIkRSNa ne bahuta prArthanA kii| dvaipAyana ne kahA : kRSNa, tU mujhe upadeza mata deN| jaba tere putroM ne mujhe mArA, mujhe mRtaprAyaH kara diyA, usI samaya maiMne dvArikA ko, sabhI yAdavoM ke sAtha jalA dene kA saMkalpa kiyA hai / tuma donoM ko jAne dU~gA dvArikA ke bAhara / isalie aba mujhe samajhAne kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai / maiMne 'niyANA' hI kara liyA hai / niyANA kyA hotA hai ? ___niyANA kA artha jAnate ho ? nahIM jAnate ho| niyANA bar3e utkRSTa tapasvI hI kara sakate hai, sAmAnya dusare nahIM / vaise baDe tapasvI loga, kisI bhI lAlaca se yA roSa se apanI tapazcaryA kA saudA kara dete haiM / ve saMkalpa karate haiM ki merI tapazcaryA ke phalasvarUpa mujhe aisI-aisI riddhi prApta ho, siddhi prApta ho / ' jaise dvaipAyana RSi ne niyANA kiyA ki merI tapazcaryA ke phalasvarUpa maiM dvArikA ko, sabhI yAdavoM ke sAtha jalA sakU~...vaisI zakti mujhe prApta ho !' * 'samarAdityacaritra' meM agnizarmA tApasa ne niyANA kiyA thA ki "prati janma maiM guNasena rAjA ko mAranevAlA banU~ !" | 146 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga /

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* draupadI ne pUrvajanma meM niyANA kiyA thA jaba vaha sAdhvI thii| usane pA~ca pati pAne kA niyANA kiyA thA, isalie vaha pA~ca pAMDavoM kI patnI banI thii| * brahmadatta cakravartI ne pUrvajanma meM jaba vaha sAdhu thA, usane cakravartI kA strIratna pAne kA niyANA kiyA thA / ghora aura ugra tapazcaryA se, tapasvI jo cAhe vaha use mila jAtA hai / paraMtu usa kI vaha tapazcaryA usako karmakSaya nahIM karavAtI hai aura mokSaprApti nahIM karavA sakatI hai / vaha tapasvI saMsAra meM bhaTaka jAtA hai / zrIkRSNa kI dvArikA meM ghoSaNA : ___ jaba dvaipAyana ne niyANA kI bAta kI, taba balarAma roSAyamAna ho gye| unhoMne zrIkRSNa ko kahA : he baMdhu, isa saMnyAsI ko aba manAnA-samajhAnA vyartha hai| jina ke mukha, caraNa, nAsikA aura hAtha Ter3he hote haiM, jinake hoMTha, dAMta aura nAsikA sthUla hotI haiM, jinakI indriyA~ vilakSaNa hotI haiM aura jo hIna aMgavAle hote haiM, ve kabhI zAnti nahIM pAte haiM / inako kyA vizeSa kahanA ? bhaiyA, sarvajJa bhagavaMta kA vacana mithyA nahIM honevAlA hai / jo honevAlA hai, vaha hogA hii| balarAma zrIkRSNa kA hAtha pakar3akara khar3e hue / donoM bhAI nirAza hokara vApasa lauTe / dasare dina zrIkRSNa ne dvArikA meM ghoSaNA karavA dI : 'sabhI nAgarika dharma meM vizeSa rUpa se tatpara rheN| dvArikA meM sabhI logoM ko dvaipAyana RSi ke 'niyANe kI bAta mAluma ho gaI thii| isalie nagara meM bhaya kA vAtAvaraNa phaila gayA thA / logoM ne tapazcaryA aura dAna-zIla kI ArAdhanA sacce bhAva se zurU kara dI thii| bhagavAna nemanAtha giranAra para : usa samaya bhagavAna nemanAtha giranAra para padhAre / vahA~ devoM ne samavasaraNa kI racanA kii| zrIkRSNa saparivAra, prabhu kI dezanA sunane samavasaraNa meM gaye / dezanA sunakara sabhI zrotA mohanidrA tyAga kara jAgrata bane / aura yAdavakumAra zAMba, pradyumna, niSadha, ulmuka, sAraNa vagairaha ne virakta banakara prabhu ke pAsa cAritradharma svIkAra kiyA, ve zramaNa-sAdhu bana gaye / vaise bhI unake mana meM, dvaipAyana RSi ko mArane kA pazcAttApa bhI thaa| una kumAroM ke kAraNa hI dvaipAyana ne dvArikAdahana kA niyANA kiyA thA na ? hAlA~ki zrIkRSNa ne rAjakumAroM ko kucha bhI kahA nahIM thaa| paraMtu | azaraNa bhAvanA 147

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bhagavAna neminAtha ke upadeza ne unakI AtmA ko jAgrata kara dI aura ve sAdhu bana gaye / unake sAtha sAtha zrIkRSNa kI rAniyA~ rUkmiNI, jAMbavatI vagairaha ne bhI prabhu ke pAsa dIkSA le lI / zrIkRSNa ne prabhu ko pUchA : _ 'bhagavaMta, dvaipAyana dvArikA kA dahana kaba karegA ?' bhagavaMta ne kahA : kRSNa, dvaipAyana Aja se bAraha varSa ke bAda dvArikA ko jlaayegaa| yaha sunakara zrIkRSNa mana meM socane lage : samudravijaya vagairaha dhanya bana gaye ki jinhoMne pahale hI cAritradharma svIkAra kara liyA, maiM hI dhikkArapAtra hU~ ki maiM rAjasukha meM lubdha hokara . saMsAra meM par3A rahA huuN| . sarvajJa bhagavaMta ne zrIkRSNa ko kahA : kRSNa, vAsudeva kabhI cAritradharma le hI nahIM sakate haiM / kyoMki vAsudeva jo hote haiM ve niyANAM se hI hote haiM / niyANA se prApta vAsudevatva, cAritra nahIM lene detA hai / itanA hI nahIM, vAsudeva adhogAmInarakagAmI hote haiM / he kRSNa, mRtyu ke bAda tuma tIsarI vAlukAprabhA' nAma naraka meM jaaoge| yaha sunakara kRSNa ati duHkhI ho gaye / unake mu~ha para ati glAni chA gii| taba bhagavaMta ne kahA : he vAsudeva, tuma duHkhI mata ho| tuma naraka kA AyuSya pUrNa kara, isa bharatakSetra meM janma loge aura tIrthaMkara banoge / kRSNa ne pUchA : bhagavaMta, mere bhrAtA balarAma kI mukti kaba hogI ?' kRSNa, mRtyu ke bAda balarAma brahmadeva loka meM deva baneMge / deva kA AyuSyakarma pUrNa hone para ve manuSyajanma pAyeMge / punaH ve deva baneMge / vahA~ kA AyuSya pUrNa hone para isa bharatakSetra meM utsarpiNI kAla meM manuSyajanma pAyeMge / rAjA baneMge aura usa samaya tuma tIrthaMkara banoge / tumhAre tIrtha meM hI ve dIkSA leMge aura mukti paayeNge| bhagavaMta ne jo bhaviSyakathana kiyA, isase kRSNa kucha Azvasta hue / unhoMne bhagavaMta ko vaMdanA kI / ve nagara meM Aye / punaH unhoMne nagara meM ghoSaNA karavAkara logoM ko dharmaArAdhanA meM vizeSa rUpa se pravRtta kiye| . dvaipAyana marakara agnikumAra deva banA : dvaipAyana tApasa ugra tapazcaryA karane lagA thA / usakI mRtyu huI, vaha agnikumAra-nikAya meM deva huA / pUrvajanma kI dRr3ha kI huI vairabhAvanA jAgrata huI aura vaha dvArikA meM AyA / usane dekhA to dvArikA ke nagarajana vizeSa rUpa 148 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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se tapazcaryA kara rahe the aura paramAtmA kI bhakti kara rahe the / dharma ke prabhAva se vaha nagara meM kucha bhI upadrava nahIM kara sakA / mana meM roSa bharA huA thaa| vaira kI agnijvAlA prajvalita thI / vaha gyAraha varSa taka dvArikA meM rahA / intajAra karatA rahA ki kaba nagarajana pramAdI baneM aura dharmaArAdhanA chor3akara pApAcaraNa karane lage ! ___ jaba bArahavA~ varSa AyA, taba logoM ne socA ki apane tapa ke prabhAva se dvaipAyana apanI pratijJA se bhraSTa hokara bhAga gayA lagatA hai / nagara jalA nahIM, apana bhI jIvita haiM...aba ciMtA kI bAta nahIM hai| aisA socakara loga madirApAna karane lage, abhakSya khAne lage aura svacchaMda banakara pApAcaraNa karane lge| ... dvaipAyana to (agnikumAra deva) chidra dekha hI rahA thA / usako avasara mila gayA / vaha nAcane lgaa| usane tatkAla kalpAMtakAla jaise utpAta dvArikA meM utpanna kiye / logoM ko yamarAja kA tAMDavanRtya dikhAI diyA / AkAza meM ulkApAta hone lage / pRthvI kA~pane lagI / grahoM meM se dhUmra chUTane lgaa| aMgAravRSTi hone lagI / sUryamaMDala meM chidra dikhAI diyA / sUrya aura candra kA grahaNa hone lagA / mahaloM meM lagI huI pASANa kI putaliyA~ aTTahAsya karane lagI / citroM ke deva hasane lge| nagara meM bAgha-siMha jaise hiMsaka pazu phirane lage / balarAma kA hala nAma kA zastra aura zrIkRSNa kA cakra vagairaha Ayudha naSTa ho gaye / aura dvaipAyana ne-agnikumAra deva ne dvArikA meM Aga lagA dii| vizeSa bAteM Age karU~gA, Aja basa itanA hI / | azaraNa bhAvanA bhAvanA ra 149 149

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 14 azaraNabhAvanA : saMkalanA dvArikA jala rahI hai / mAtA-pitA ko bacAne kA prayatna | # vasudeva-devakI - rohiNI kI mRtyu / zrIkRSNa kI ghora vyathA-vedanA | # zrIkRSNa kI mauta / # zrIkRSNa kI aMtima ArAdhanA / jinadharma hI zaraNa | 2 cAritradharma hI zaraNa / balarAma kA vyAmoha aura dIkSA / anAthatA - azaraNatA aura anAthImuni / # anAthImuni kA AtmavRttAnta /

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pratApairvyApannaM galitamatha tejobhiruditairgataM dhairyodyogaiH zlathitamatha puSTena vapuSA / pravRttaM tadravyagrahaNaviSaye bAndhavajanai rjane kInAzena prasabhamupanIte nijavazam // 3 // upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI kahate haiM : 'jaba manuSya yamarAja ke balAtkAra kA bhoga banatA hai taba usakA pratApa naSTa ho jAtA hai, usakA udita teja asta ho jAtA hai, usakA dhairya aura puruSArtha vilaya ho jAtA hai, puSTa zarIra zithila ho jAtA hai aura usake svajana, usakA dhana-vaibhava lene ke lie prayatnazIla bana jAte haiM / mRtyu ke sAmane manuSya sarvathA dIna bana jAtA hai, yaha hai manuSya kI ghora azaraNatA !' yAdavoM se marI huI dvArikA jala rahI hai : dvaipAyana, jo ki agnikumAra deva banA hai, usane zrIkRSNa kA cakra aura baladeva kA hala - zastra naSTa kara diye| usane saMvartaka vAyu pravartita kiyA / usa vAyu se cAroM dizAoM meM se tRNa, kASTha vagairaha dvArikA meM bhara gye| loga jaba cAroM dizAoM meM bhAgane lage taba agnikumAra una logoM ko dvArikA meM pakar3akara lAyA, dizA - vidizAoM meM se vRkSoM ko lAkara dvArikA meM DAle aura sabhI yAdavoM ko dvArikA meM baMda kara diye| bAda meM dvaipAyana ne Aga jalAyI / samagra dvArikA jalane lagI / agnijvAlAe~ AkAza ko chUne lagI / kRSNa aura balarAma kA pratApa naSTa ho gayA thA, teja asta ho gayA thA, dhairya aura puruSArtha vilIna ho gaye the / ve azaraNa - asahAya banakara jalatI huI dvArikA ko dekha rahe the / mAtA-pitA ko bacAne kA prayatna : 1 zrIkRSNa aura balarAma ne vasudeva, devakI aura rohiNI ko Aga se bacAne ke lie ratha meM biThAye, paraMtu dvaipAyana- deva ne ratha ke azvoM ko staMbhita kara diye / azva eka kadama bhI cala nahIM sake / zrIkRSNa ne ratha ke Age baliSTha vRSabhoM ko jodd'e| vRSabha - baila bhI staMbhita ho gye| zrIkRSNa ne vRSabhoM ko bhI ratha se mukta kara diye aura ve donoM bhAI ratha ko khIMcane lage / vahA~ ratha kI dhurA TUTa gii| phira bhI bar3I muzkila se ve ratha ko nagara ke daravAje taka le Aye / usa samaya nagara ke daravAje baMda ho gaye / mAtA-pitA cillAne lage 'he rAma, kRSNa, hamArI rakSA karo... hameM bacA lo...| dvArikA jala rahI thI, kroDoM yAdava 151 azaraNa bhAvanA

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jala rahe the / ghora citkAra sunAI detA thA / pralaya kA dRzya racA gayA thaa| rAma aura kRSNa mAtA-pitA ko bacA lene ke lie kRtanizcayI the| unhoMne lAta mArakara nagara kA daravAjA tor3a diyA / paraMtu ratha ke pahiye jamIna meM pha~sa gaye the / rAma aura kRSNa bharasaka prayatna karane lage ratha ko bAhara nikAlane ke lie, paraMtu nirAza ho gaye / usa samaya dvaipAyana-deva ne vahA~ prakaTa ho kara kahA : 'are rAma-kRSNa, tamheM yaha kyA ho gayA hai ? maiMne tumheM kahA thA ki dvArikA meM kevala tuma do bhAI hI bacoge / tuma donoM ke alAvA koI bhI agni se baca nahIM pAyegA / kyoMki maiMne merA tapa beca diyA hai...niyANA kara diyA hai...| vasudeva-devakI-rohiNI kI mRtyu : deva ke vacana sunakara devakI aura vasudeva ne kahA : 'aba tuma cale jAo, tuma do bhAI jIvita rahoge to sabhI yAdava jIvita hai / aba hameM bacAne kA jyAdA puruSArtha mata kro| tumane bahuta prayala kiyA, paraMtu bhavitavyatA balavatI aura durlaMghya hotI hai| hama abhAgI haiM, hamane bhagavAna nemanAtha ke pAsa cAritradharma liyA nahIM...dIkSA lI nahIM / aba hameM hamAre karmoM kA phala bhoganA hI hogaa| phira bhI balarAmakRSNa vahA~ hI khar3e rahe / vasudeva, devakI aura rohiNI ne A~kheM mUMda lI aura bole : hameM jagadguru bhagavAna nemanAtha kI zaraNa haiM / hama anazana karate haiM / cAroM prakAra ke AhAra kA tyAga karate haiM / he prabho, hama Apake zaraNAgata haiM / arihaMta, siddha, sAdhu aura arhatakathita dharma kI zaraNa svIkAra karate haiM / hama kisI ke nahIM haiM, hamAre koI nahIM haiM / isa prakAra bolakara ve zrI navakAramaMtra ke dhyAna meM lIna bane / usa samaya dvaipAyana ne una para agnivarSA kii| tInoM kI mRtyu huI aura ve devaloka meM utpanna hue| zrIkRSNa kI ghora vyathA-vedanA : balarAma ke sAtha zrIkRSNa dvArikA ke bAhara nikale / bAhara jo jIrNodyAna thA, usa udyAna meM gaye / vahA~ eka choTI-sI pahAr3I thI, usa para khar3e hokara jalatI huI dvArikA ko dekhane lge| zrIkRSNa jyAdA samaya dekha nahIM ske| unhoMne balarAma ko kahA : 'bhayyA, maiM napuMsaka jaisA bana gayA hU~, dhikkAra hai mujhe, maiM asahAya...azaraNa banakara merI dvArikA ko jalatI huI dekha rahA hU~ / he AtmabaMdhu, jisa prakAra maiM nagarI kI rakSA karane meM samartha nahIM haiM, vaise usako aba jalatI | 152 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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huI dekhane ke lie bhI samartha nahIM hU~ / cale, yahA~ se cala deN| aba apana kahA~ caleMge ?' jarA-sA ciMtana kareM isa ghaTanA pr| apane Apako asahAya - azaraNa mahasUsa karanevAle zrIkRSNa ke bhavya bhUtakAla para eka dRSTi DAleM / kabhI... kahIM bhI kRSNa hAre nahIM, bacapana se abhI taka kahIM bhI ve nirAza nahIM hue| ve dUsaroM ke sahArA bane the, Aja ve svayaM asahAya bane haiM / jinake prati unako atyaMta sneha thA, lagAva thA, vaise mAtA-pitA ko ve bacA nahIM pAye / unake dekhate-dekhate ve Aga meM bhasmIbhUta ho gaye / zrIkRSNa ko zizupAla kI sabhA meM dekho, zrIkRSNa ko yuddha ke medAna para arjuna ke ratha meM dekho| pAMDavoM kI rAjasabhA meM dekho...| unakI smitasabhara mukhamudrA ko dekho... unakI a~guli para ghumate hue cakraratna ko dekho ! unake virATa svarUpa ko dekho... aura Aja dIna-hIna bane... nirAzA se ghire hue zrIkRSNa ko dekho ! Aja unakA pratApa, prabhAva, zaurya, sAhasa, buddhi... kucha bhI nahIM bcaa| donoM bhAI usa udyAna se cala par3e... nairRtya dizA meM pAMDavoM kI nagarI kI ora cala pdd'e| zrIkRSNa kI mauta : balarAma ke sAtha jaMgaloM meM se calate-calate ve kauzAmbI nagarI ke bAhya vana meM pahu~ce / grISmakAla thA, zrama thA, zoka thA aura puNyakSaya thA, zrIkRSNa atyadhika tRSAtura hue / unhoMne balarAma ko kahA: 'baMdhu, ati tRSA se merA mu~ha sukha gayA hai...isa vRkSaghaTAvAle vana meM bhI aba maiM eka kadama bhI calane meM samartha nahIM / ' balarAma ne kahA : 'mere bhAI, maiM abhI pAnI lene jAtA hU~ / tuma isa vRkSa ke nIce vizrAma karo, paraMtu apramatta hokara baiThanA, maiM abhI vApasa AtA hU~ / ' I balarAma pAnI lene gaye / kRSNa ati zramita ho gaye the / ve eka paira ke Upara dUsarA paira car3hAkara, pIlA vastra or3hakara vRkSa ke nIce so gaye / alpa kSaNoM meM hI so gaye / balarAma ne jAte-jAte bhI kRSNa ko eka kSaNa bhI pramAda nahIM karane ko kahA thA / itanA hI nahIM, unhoMne vanadeviyoM se prArthanA kI thI: 'he vanadeviyA~, merA yaha anuja ba~dhu ApakI zaraNa meM hai, isalie isa vizvavatsala puruSa kI rakSA krnaa|' paraMtu bhavitavyatA ko kauna mithyA kara sakatA hai ? usI jaMgala meM bAraha varSoM se jarAkumAra rahatA thA / usane vyAghracarma pahanA thA / hAtha meM dhanuSya-bANa thA, azaraNa bhAvanA 153

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zikArI bana gayA thA / phiratA-phiratA usa pradeza meM AyA ki jahA~ zrIkRSNa soye the / dUra se jarAkumAra ne dekhA...jisa prakAra kRSNa soye the, jarAkumAra ne mRga kI kalpanA kI...mRga samajhakara usane tIra calA diyA / kRSNa ke caraNatala meM tIra lgaa| tIra lagate hI kRSNa baiTha gaye aura bole : are, maiM niraparAdhI hU~...mujhe kisane tIra mArA? Aja dina taka kabhI bhI apanA paricaya diye binA mere para prahAra nahIM kiyA hai / isalie jisane bhI mujhe tIra mArA hai vaha apanA nAma aura gotra kaheM / ___ yaha prazna vRkSaghaTA meM rahA huA jarAkumAra sunatA hai / hAlA~ki use apanI .. bhUla mahasUsa huI, 'maiMne mRga samajhakara tIra mArA, paraMtu yaha to manuSya hai !' kRSNa kA prazna sunakara vaha bolA : maiM harivaMzIya vasudeva kA putra hU~ / jarAdevI merI mAtA hai, merA nAma jarAkumAra hai / maiM zrIkRSNa kA agraja huuN| bhagavaMta nemanAtha ke vacana sunakara maiM isa vana meM Akara bAraha varSoM se raha rahA huuN| mere hAtha se zrIkRSNa kI mauta na ho...isa bhAvanA se yahA~ rahatA hU~ / bAraha varSoM meM maiMne isa vana meM kisI manuSya ko nahIM dekhA hai| Apa kauna haiM ?' ___ kRSNa bole : he baMdhu, tUM yahA~ A jA / maiM hI terA anuja kRSNa huuN| jisake lie vanavAsI banA hai / he baMdhu, terA bAraha varSa kA vanavAsa nirarthaka siddha huaa| yaha sunakara jarAkumAra zrIkRSNa ke pAsa AyA / kRSNa ko dekhate hI vaha mUrchita ho gyaa| mUrchA dUra hone para jarAkumAra karuNa rUdana karane lgaa| bolA - 'mere prANapriya bhrAtA, yaha kyA ho gayA ? Apa yahA~ kaise A gaye ? kyA dvArikA jala gaI? kyA yAdavoM kA vinAza ho gayA ? ApakI yaha sthiti dekhate hue mujhe lagatA hai ki bhagavAna nemanAtha ke vacana siddha hue haiN| zrIkRSNa ne sArA vRttAMta sunAyA / jarAkumAra rote-rote bolA : mere bhrAtA, maiMne zatru jaisA kAma kiyA hai...mRga samajhakara maiMne tIra calA diyaa...| Apa jaise bhrAtRvatsala, vizvavatsala mahApuruSa ko maiMne mArA, mujhe naraka meM bhI jagaha nahIM milegI / ApakI rakSA kI bhAvanA se maiMne vanavAsa liyA, paraMtu maiM nahIM jAnatA thA ki vidhi ne mujhe hI ApakI mRtyu kA nimitta banAyA hai / he pRthvI, tU mujhe jagaha de, maiM isI zarIra se naraka meM calA jAU~ / kyoMki mere lie bhrAtRhatyA kA duHkha, sabhI duHkhoM se bar3A duHkha hai / aba yahA~ mujhe naraka se bhI jyAdA duHkha lagatA hai / jisa samaya bhagavAna nemanAtha ne bhaviSyakathana kiyA thA, usI samaya mujhe AtmahatyA kara lenI cAhie thii| | 154 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zrIkRSNa ne jarAkumAra ko sAntvanA dete hue kahA : mere bar3e bhaiyA, aba zoka nahIM kareM / mere se, Apa se aura kisI se bhI bhavitavyatA kA ullaMghana nahIM ho sakatA / yAdavakula meM aba Apa hI eka bace ho / Apa cirakAla jIyeM isalie aba eka kSaNa kA bhI vilaMba kiye binA Apa yahA~ se cale jaao| kyoMki balarAma abhI pAnI lekara AyeMge, ve krodha se tumheM mAra DAleMge / lo, merA yaha kaustubha ratna aura pAMDavoM ke pAsa cale jAo / unako satya vRttAMta sunA denA / merI ora se sabhI pAMDavoM se kSamApanA karanA / zrIkRSNa kI aMtima ArAdhanA : ___ jarAkumAra ne zrIkRSNa ke caraNa meM se tIra khIMca liyA, kaustubha ratna liyA aura vahA~ se cala diyA / jarAkumAra ke jAne ke bAda, zrIkRSNa tIra ke AghAta se atyaMta pIDita hote hue bhI uttarAbhimukha hokara, aMjali jor3akara bole : ___ahaMta, siddha, AcArya, upAdhyAya aura sAdhubhagavaMtoM ko mana-vacana-kAyA se merA namaskAra ho / vizeSarUpa se bhagavAna neminAtha ko merA namaskAra hai ki jinhoMne isa pRthvI para dharmatIrtha kI pravartanA kii| itanA bolakara ve tRNa ke saMthAre para so gaye, jAna para caraNa rakhA, pIlA vastra or3ha liyA aura ciMtana karane lage : 'rUkmiNI vagairaha merI rAniyoM ko dhanya hai, zAMba, pradyumna vagairaha rAjakumAroM ko dhanya hai ki jinhoMne gRhavAsa kA tyAga kara paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM cAritradharma le liyA ! mujhe dhikkAra hai ki maiM isa duHkhapUrNa saMsAra meM par3A rahA...!' isa prakAra zubha bhAvanA bhAte-bhAte zrIkRSNa kA zarIra bhItara se TUTane lgaa| yamarAja ke sahodara jaisA vAyu zarIra meM prakupita huaa| tIvra tRSA, atyadhika zoka aura prakupita vAyu ne zrIkRSNa ke viveka ko sarvathA naSTa kara diyaa| unakA mana aMtima kSaNoM meM azubha-raudra dhyAna meM calA gayA : usa dvaipAyana ne merA ghora parAbhava kiyA...phira bhI abhI yadi yahA~ Aye to kSaNamAtra meM usako mAra DAlU~... raudradhyAna meM unakI mRtyu ho gaI / eka hajAra varSa kA AyuSya pUrNa huA / marakara ve tIsarI naraka meM cale gaye / / upAdhyAyazrI sakalacaMdrajI kI sajjhAya yAda AtI hai : haya gaya paya ratha kroDe viMTayA, rahe nita rANArAya re, bahu upAya te jIvana kAje karatA azaraNa jAya re... ko navi zaraNaM, ko navi zaraNaM, maratA kuNane prANI re... | azaraNa bhAvanA 155 |

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zrIkRSNa kI kahA~ aura kaisI mRtyu huI ? eka ghora-bhayaMkara jaMgala meM mRtyu huI / apane hI bhrAtA ke dvArA mRtyu huI / pAsa meM koI nahIM, balarAma bhI nahIM ! kaisI azaraNatA ? azaraNatA kA isase bar3hakara kauna-sA dRSTAMta milegA isa duniyA meM ? jinadharma hI zaraNa : cAritradharma hI zaraNa : graMthakAra upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI kahate haiM : svajanajano bahudhA hitakAmaM prItirasairabhirAmam / maraNadazAvazamupagatavantam, rakSati ko'pi na santam / vinaya vidhIyatAM re zrIjinadharmazaraNam / anusaMdhIyatAM re zucitara caraNa-smaraNam // 7 // vinaya. 'hitakArI aura prItipAtra sajjana loga, jaba mRtyu ke mahAsAgara meM DUbate hote haiM. taba koI bhI svajana unako bacA nahIM sakate / isalie he Atmana, tu mahAmaMgalakArI jinadharma kI hI zaraNa le leM aura atyaMta nirmala cAritradharma kA smaraNa kara / yaha dharma hI tujhe bacA skegaa| kitanI saccI-vAstavika bAta kahI hai graMthakAra ne ? zrIkRSNa ko mRtyu se koI nahIM bacA sakA ! balarAma bhI bacA nahIM pAye / vaise balarAma ko vAsudeva ke Upara anahada-apAra prema hotA hai| zrIkRSNa bhI prItipAtra yugapuruSa the| lAkhoMkaror3oM jIvo ke hitakArI the, phira bhI ve baca nahIM pAye / balarAma kA vyAmoha aura dIkSA : __balarAma pAnI lekara zrIkRSNa ke pAsa Aye, taba kRSNa kI mRtyu ho cukI thii| paraMtu baladeva mAnane ko taiyAra nahIM the ki kRSNa mara gaye haiM / 6 mahIne taka zrIkRSNa ko jIvita mAnate hue, unake mRtadeha ko uThAkara pRthvI para phirate rhe| usa samaya balarAma kA sArathi siddhArtha, jo ki dIkSA lekara, saMyama dharma kI acchI ArAdhanA kara deva banA thA, usane avadhijJAna se dekhA ki balarAma atyaMta vyathita haiM aura kRSNa ko jIvita mAnakara, unakA mRtadeha uThAkara phira rahe the / deva ko yAda AyA ki mujhe balarAma ne dIkSA kI anumati dete samaya mere se vacana mA~ga liyA thA ki : tU cAritradharma ke prabhAva se devaloka meM deva bane aura jaba mujhe Apatti Aye taba tU AnA aura mujhe pratibodhita karanA / mujhe isa samaya unake pAsa jAnA cAhie aura pratibodha dekara, kRSNamoha dUra karAkara, zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 156

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unakI AtmA ko jagAnI caahie| siddhArtha-deva manuSyarUpa dharakara pRthvI para AtA hai| aneka upAya kara balarAma ko pratibodha detA hai / baladeva kA vyAmoha dUra hotA hai / siddhArtha-deva apanA mUlarUpa - devarUpa pragaTa karatA hai, apanA paricaya detA hai / usane kahA : maiM ApakA sArathi siddhArtha hU~ / dIkSA lekara, usakA pAlana kara, maiM deva huA huuN| Apane mere se vacana liyA thA, usa vacana kA pAlana karane yahA~ AyA huuN| Apako pratibodha dene kA kartavya maiMne nibhAyA hai / he pUjya, bhagavAn nemanAtha ne kahA thA ki jarAkumAra se kRSNa kI mRtyu hogI, vaise hI huA hai / sarvajJavacana kabhI bhI mithyA nahIM hotA hai / zrIkRSNa ne jarAkumAra ko apanA kaustubharatna dekara pAMDavoM ke pAsa bhejA hai| balarAma ne deva ko kahA : siddhArtha, tumane yahA~ Akara mujhe bodha diyA, bahuta acchA kiyaa| paraMtu bhrAtA kI mRtyu se maiM atyaMta vyathita huuN| aba maiM kyA karU~ ? mujhe mArga btaao| siddhArthadeva ne kahA : 'Apa bhagavAna neminAtha ke vivekI bhrAtA haiM / Apake lie aba cAritradharma hI zaraNabhUta hai / balarAma ne kahA : 'acchI bAta hai / saMsAra ke prati merA mana virakta banA hI hai / bhrAtA ke binA saMsAra meM rahanA, mere lie asaMbhava hai / balarAma ne siMdhu aura sAgara ke saMgama para jAkara, zrIkRSNa ke deha kA agnisaMskAra kara diyA / usa samaya bhagavAna neminAtha ne balarAma ke cAritra ke bhAva dekhakara, eka vidyAdhara munivara ko AkAzamArga se vahA~ bhejA / balarAma ne usa munirAja ke pAsa dIkSA le lI / zrI jinadharmaH zaraNam / zucitaracaraNa-smaraNam / balarAma muni ne zrIjinadharma kI zaraNa le lI aura pavitra cAritradharma kA pAlana karane lge| anAthatA-azaraNatA aura anAthImuni : aba maiM isI saMdarbha meM anAthImuni kA vRttAMta sunAU~gA, jo uttarAdhyana-sUtra meM milatA hai aura uttarAdhyayana-sUtra to bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI kI aMtima dezanA thI / yAnI anAthImuni kI kahAnI svayaM bhagavAna mahAvIra ne sunAI huI hai / 157 azaraNa bhAvanA

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mahArAjA zreNika, rAjagRhInagarI ke bAhara maMDitakukSI nAma ke udyAna meM ghUmanephirane Aye the / maMDitakukSI udyAna naMdanavana jaisA suMdara thaa| usa udyAna meM eka vRkSa ke tale baiThe hue sukomala aura samAdhimagna yuvA muni ko dekhA / muni ko dekhakara zreNika rAjA ko bar3A Azcarya hotA hai / vaha socatA hai : isa muni kA gaurarUpa, AkAra vagairaha apUrva aura alaukika hai / isake mu~ha para adbhuta saumyatA hai, camatkArika kSamAbhAva hai aura advitIya niHspRhatA dikhatI hai / rAjA ne munirAja ke caraNoM meM vaMdanA kI, tIna pradakSiNA dI aura vinaya se munirAja ke sAmane baitthaa| __ mastaka para aMjali racAkara, rAjA ne munirAja ko prazna pUchA : 'he muni, Apa taruNa haiM, yuvaka haiM, yaha ApakI viSayabhoga kI umra hai / isa umra meM Apa kyoM sAdhu bana gaye ? koI aisA kAraNa hogA, jisakI vajaha se Apa sAdhu bane ho / merI jijJAsA hai vaha kAraNa jAnane kI / ___ muni ne rAjA ke sAmane dekhA / usakI A~khoM meM jhA~kA aura bole : 'rAjana, maiM anAtha hU~, azaraNa hU~ / merA yoga-kSema karanevAlA nAtha' mujhe milA nahIM, koI zaraNadAtA karuNAvaMta puruSa milA nahIM, koI vaisA snehI-svajana-mitra milA nahIM, isalie yauvanakAla meM maiM sAdhu banA / / ___ munirAja kI bAta sunakara rAjA zreNika ha~sane lge| unhoMne kahA : he Arya, aisA hI hai, to maiM ApakA nAtha banU~gA / aura yadi maiM nAtha banA to Apako aneka mitra, svajana, snehI mileNge| basa, Apa vaiSayika sukha bhogate raheM aura manuSyajanma ko saphala kreN| yaha sunakara mani ke mu~ha para smita ubhara aayaa| ve bole : he magadhAdhipati. tUM svayaM anAtha hai, tUM merA nAtha kaise banegA ?' appaNA vi aNAhosi seNiyA magahAvihA / appaNA aNAho saMto kahaM me bhavissasi ? // __ vaise bhI zreNika pahale hI muni ke rUpa-guNa se vismita thA hI, paraMtu jaba muni ke isa prakAra vacana sune taba vaha atyaMta vismita huA, atyaMta saMbhramita huA aura bolA : ___ he muni, mere pAsa hAthI, ghor3e aura aMtaHpura hai / maiM hajAroM gA~va-nagaroM kA mAlika huuN| maiM manuSyayogya vipula bhoga bhogatA huuN| maiM magadhadeza kA zAsaka hU~ / aneka zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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sAmaMta rAjA merI AjJA mAnate haiN| mere pAsa vipula samRddhi hai, merA advitIya aizvarya hai / mere pAsa utkRSTa saMpatti hai aura prajAjanoM kI kAmanAoM ko pUrNa karanevAlA maiM hU~, phira maiM anAtha kaise ? he muni, jisake pAsa kucha bhI nahIM hotA hai vaha anAtha kahalAtA hai / maiM sarvasaMpatti kA nAtha hU~, maiM anAtha nahIM hU~ / he Arya, Apa asatya nahIM bole| he rAjan, maiMne kisa artha meM, kisa abhiprAya se anAtha' zabda kA prayoga kiyA hai, yaha saMdarbha Apa nahIM jAnate ! anAthatA aura sanAthatA ke mUla kAraNa Apa nahIM jAnate / he rAjezvara, maiMne mere liye jo anAtha' zabda kA prayoga kiyA, usakA kAraNa Apa suneM, citta ko sthira kara suneM / anAthImuni kA AtmavRttAMta : maiM kauzaMbInagarI kA nivAsI thaa| mere pitA ke pAsa kubera ke samAna saMpatti thii| maiM jaba yuvAvasthA meM AyA, taba eka suMdara aura guNanidhAna lar3akI se merI zAdI kara dI thii| maiM saMsAra ke zreSTha sukha bhogatA thA / ___ eka dina merI A~khoM meM tIvra darda utpanna huaa| mere zarIra ke bhItara sabhI avayavoM meM tIvra dAha paidA ho gayA / saMpUrNa zarIra meM jalana paidA ho gaI / jaise koI duSTa zatru kAna-nAka vagairaha indriyoM meM tIkSNa zastra-prahAra kare aura jo pIr3A ho, vaisI merI netravedanA thii| ___ kamara ke bAhara aura bhItara, vakSaHsthala ke bAhara aura bhItara evaM mastaka meM mujhe ghora vedanA ho rahI thI / eka kSaNa bhI mujhe caina nahIM thaa| eka pala bhI mujhe sukha nahIM thaa| mere pitA, merI mAtA, merI patnI, mere bhAI-bahana... koI bhI mujhe merI isa ghora-tIvra vedanA se bacA nahIM sakate the| ___ mere ati putravatsala pitA ne zAstrakuzala vaidya bulAye, auSadha maMgavAye, aneka paricAraka upasthita kiye| ve vaidyarAja merI cikitsA karane lage, paraMtu mujhe rogamukta nahIM kara pAye, yaha merI pahalI anAthatA thI / mere pitA kA mere prati agAdha prema thA, vaidyoM ne mere lie jo jo mUlyavAn auSadha maMgavAye, sabhI auSadha, sabhI padArtha lAkara diye, to bhI pitAjI mujhe duHkha se mukta nahIM kara pAye, yaha merI dUsarI anAthatA thI / / ___ he rAjezvara, putravatsala merI pyArabharI mAtA, mere duHkha se ati zokArta banI huI thI, vaha bhI mujhe rogamukta nahIM kara sakI, yaha merI tIsarI anAthatA thii| azaraNa bhAvanA 159

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he mahArAjA, mere choTe aura bar3e bhAI mere prati atyaMta anurAgavAle the, ve bhI mujhe rogamukta - duHkhamukta nahIM kara pAye, merI yaha cauthI anAthatA thii| __ he magadhAdhipati, merI choTI-bar3I bahaneM, jo merA darda dekhakara ro rahI thI, ve bhI mujhe merI tIvra vedanA se mukta nahIM kara pAyI, yaha merI pA~cavI anAthatA thii| __he zreNikarAjA, merI rUpavatI aura pativratA patnI, A~su bahAtI huI merI chAtI ko bhigo rahI thI, vaha bhI merA duHkha dUra nahIM kara sakI thI, yaha merI chaTThI anAthatA thI / merI patnI ne bhojana, snAna, vilepana, jalapAna vagairaha tyAga diyA thA / mere pAsa hI khar3I rahatI thI / mujhe chor3akara eka kSaNa bhI dUra nahIM jAtI thI...phira bhI maiM vedanAmukta nahIM huA, yaha merI kaisI karuNa azaraNatA thI ? rAjA zreNika dattacitta hokara anAthImuni kA vRttAMta suna rahe the / unako jIva kI anAthatA kA, azaraNatA kA khyAla A rahA thaa| usane pUchA : he munivara, jaba koI auSadha kAma nahIM AyA, taba Apake pitA ne kyA kiyA? Apa rogamukta kaise hue ? Aja, basa itanA hI / | 160 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 15 azaraNabhAvanA -------- 3 saMkalanA mRtyu ke sAmane azaraNatA / vRddhAvasthA ke sAmane azaraNatA / ugra rogoM ke sAmane azaraNatA / # anAthImuni kA AtmavRttAnta / apane aura dUsaroM ke nAtha kaise baneM / saMsAra meM jIva anAtha azaraNa / sAdhu bhI anAtha azaraNa | kaise ? saMbhUtamuni: niyANA, cakravartI, 7 vIM naraka | # saMbhUtamuni kA mAnasika patana /

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turagarathebhanarAvRttikalitaM dadhataM balamaskhalitam / " harati yamo narapatimapi dInaM mainika iva laghu mInam // 2 // vinaya vidhIyatAM re zrIjinadharmazaraNam / pravizati vajramaye yadi sadane, tRNamatha ghaTayati vadane / tadapi na muJcati hata samavartI, nirdayapauruSanatIM // 3 // vinaya vidhIyatAM re zrIjinadharmazaraNam / vidyAmantramahauSadhisevAM, sRjatu vazIkRtadevAm / rasatu rasAyanamupacayakaraNaM, tadapi na muJcati maraNam // 4 // vinaya vidhIyatAM re zrIjinadharmazaraNam // mRtyu ke sAmane azaraNatA : upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI jIvAtmA kI azaraNatA batAte hue pharamAte haiM : 'jisa prakAra macchImAra choTI-choTI machaliyoM ko saralatA se pakar3a letA hai, vaise yamarAja azva-ratha- hAthI aura padAti sainya se sajja evaM apratima balavAle rAjAoM ko pakar3a letA hai / bhale hI ve rAjA yamarAja ke sAmane dInatA karate hoM / mahAkAla se bacane ke lie koI manuSya vajra ke ghara meM chipa jAyaM athavA mu~ha meM tRNa lekara usa yamarAja ke sAmane apanI hAra mAna le, phira bhI vaha nirdaya yamarAja kisI ko chor3atA nahIM hai / devoM ko AdhIna karanevAle maMtra, vidyAe~ athavA auSadhiyoM kA prayoga kareM, Apa ke zarIra ko puSTa karanevAle rasAyanoM kA sevana kareM, phira bhI mRtyu tumheM chor3anevAlI nahIM hai / vRddhAvasthA ke sAmane jIva kI azaraNatA : mRtyu ke sAmane jIva kI azaraNatA anAthatA kA yaha adbhuta varNana hai / vaise vRddhAvasthA' ke sAmane bhI jIva kI kaisI azaraNatA hai, usakA varNana bhI suneM : vapuSi ciraM niruNaddhi samIraM patati jaladhiparatIram / zirasi gireradhirohati tarasA, tadapi sa jIryati jarasA // 5 // vinaya vidhIyatAM re zrIjinadharmazaraNam / sRjatImasitaziroruhalalitaM manujaziraH sitapalitam / 162 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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ko vidadhAnAM bhUdhanamarasaM prabhavati rorbu jarasam // 6 // vinaya vidhIyatAM re zrIjinadharmazaraNam / / bhale hI Apa dIrghakAla taka prANAyAma kareM, zvAsanirodha kareM, bhale hI samudra ke usa pAra jAkara raheM, bhale hI U~ce pahAr3a ke zikhara para jAkara rahe, paraMtu eka dina tumhArA isa deha kA piMjarA jIrNa honevAlA hI hai ! yAnI vRddhAvasthA AnevAlI zyAma keza se zobhita sira ko zveta kara denevAlI aura suMdara zarIra ko zuSka kara denevAlI jarA - vRddhAvasthA ko rokane meM kauna samartha hai ? koI bhI zaktimAna nahIM hai| vRddhAvasthA se bacane kA eka hI mArga hotA hai / vRddhAvasthA ke pUrva hI yadi AyuSya pUrNa ho jAyaM, mRtyu ho jAyaM to baca sakate ho vRddhatva se / ugra rogoM ke sAmane jIva kI azaraNatA : udyata ugrasjA janakAyaH kaH syAt tatra sahAyaH ? eko'nubhavati vidhusparAgaM, vibhajati ko'pi na bhAgam // . vinaya ! vidhIyatAM re zrIjinadharmaH zaraNam / jaba manuSya ke zarIra meM ugra roga paidA hote haiM, taba usako kauna bacA sakatA hai ? koI bhI nahIM / rAhu kI pIr3A akelA candra hI sahana karatA hai, vaise tumhAra rogoM kI pIr3A tumheM akele ko hI sahane kI hai| usameM koI bhI hissA nahIM ba~TAtA hai| ___ yahI bAta, rAjagRhI ke maMDitakukSI nAma udyAna meM anAthImuni rAjA zreNika ko apane hI vRttAMta se batA rahe the| kala maiMne Apako yaha vRttAMta sunAyA thA na ? usa para Apane ghara jAkara ciMtana-manana kiyA thA na ? yAda rakhanA, ye pravacana bhAvanAoM ke viSaya meM cala rahe haiN| punaH punaH ciMtana karanA hI bhAvanA hai| anityatA kA punaH punaH ciMtana karanA hai| azaraNatA kA bAra-bAra ciMtana karanA hai| tabhI ye bhAvanAe~ AtmasparzI bneNgii| maiM azaraNa hU~ isa saMsAra meM yaha anubhUti taba hogii| anAthimuni kA AtmavRttAnta : rAjA zreNika ke prazna ke uttara meM munirAja ne kahA : maiMne mere mana meM socA, saMkalpa kiyA ki isa tIvra - vipula vedanA se yadi eka bAra maiM mukta ho jAU~ to kSamAvAna banAnevAlI, indriya aura mana kA vijetA banAnevAlI aura anAraMbhI / azaraNa bhAvanA 163 |

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banAnevAlI sAdhutA kA svIkAra kara lU~ ! sayaM ca jai muccijjA veaNA viulA iso / khaMto danto nirAraMbho pavvaie aNagAriaM // 32 // uttarAdhyayana/a-20 he rAjan, isa prakAra ciMtana karate-karate mujhe nIMda A gaI ! kaI dinoM se mujhe nIMda nahIM A rahI thii| maiM nidrAdhIna ho gayA zubha ciMtana ke prabhAva se / rAtri pUrNa hone para merI vedanA naSTa ho gaI / merI A~khoM kI vedanA... mere zarIra kA dAhajvara... vagairaha sabhI prakAra kA darda upazAnta ho gayA ! 1 rAjezvara, prabhAta meM maiMne mere mAtA-pitA vagairaha svajanoM ko merA saMkalpa kaha sunaayaa| zubha saMkalpa kA prabhAva btaayaa| unase maiMne sAdhu banane kI ijAjata lI aura maiM sAdhu bana gayA / kaSAyoM kA zamana, indriyoM kA damana aura AraMbhasamAraMbha ke tyAgavAlI sAdhutA kA pAlana karane lagA / he rAjan, taba maiM nAtha banA, sanAtha banA ! apanA nAtha banA, dUsare jIvoM kA bhI nAtha banA / zrI uttarAdhyayana-sUtra meM kahA gayA hai : taohaM nAho jAo, appANo ya parasya ya / savvesiM ceva bhUANaM tasANaM thAvarANa ya / / 35 / / apane aura dUsaroM ke nAtha kaise baneM ? munirAja zreNika ko batA rahe haiM: rAjan, aNagAra banane ke bAda maiM svayaM kA nAtha banA aura trasa - sthAvara sabhI jIvoM kI rakSA karanevAlA nAtha banA / rAjan, maiM apane ApakA nAtha kaise banA, yaha pahale batAtA hU~ / appA naI vearaNI, appA me appA kAmaduhA dheNU appA me appA kattA vikattAya duhANaya suhANaya / 164 u. a. 20 appA mittamamittaM ca, duppaTThiya- supaTThio // 'AtmA hI vaitaraNI nadI hai aura AtmA hI vajrakaMTakoMvAlA zAlmalI vRkSa kUDasAlmaNI / naMdaNaM vaNaM // hai / AtmA hI kAmadugdhA dhenu hai aura AtmA hI naMdanavana hai ! AtmA hI sukhaduHkha kA kartA hai, AtmA hI mitra hai aura AtmA hI zatru hai / ' jaba taka jIva saMsAra meM viSaya-kaSAyoM meM magna rahatA hai, taba taka vaitaraNI zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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- nadI rUpa hotA hai / maiMne saMsAra kA tyAga kara diyA, maiM apane ApakA nAtha banA ! maine saMsAra ke AraMbha-samAraMbhoM kA tyAga kara diyA, isalie maiM dUsare jIvoM kA bhI nAtha banA ! maiMne jaba sAdhutA kA svIkAra kara liyA, mujhe kAmadhenu mila gaI, naMdanavana mila gayA ! maiM citta kA parama AnaMda anubhava karatA hU~, yahI merI sanAthatA hai / mana-vacana-kAyA se maiM saMyamadharma kA niraticAra pAlana karatA hU~, isalie maiM sva-para kA nAtha banA huuN| rAjan, sva-para kA nAtha vahI banatA hai ki jo - - karmazatruoM kA nAza karane ke lie tatpara hotA hai / - indriyavijaya karane ke lie prayatnazIla hotA hai / - manojaya karane ke lie pratikSaNa jAgrata rahatA hai| - ghora-vIra aura ugra tapazcaryA karatA hai| - apane mahAvratoM kA dRr3hatA se pAlana karatA hai / anAthImuni meM ye pA~coM bAteM thI, isalie ve 'nAtha' bane the| zreNika meM ye pA~ca bAteM nahIM thI, isalie vaha anAtha thA / muni ne zreNika ko isa artha meM anAtha kahA thaa| saMsAra meM jIva anAtha - azaraNa hai : saMsAra meM jIva ugra rogoM ke sAmane, vRddhAvasthA ke sAmane aura mRtyu ke sAmane to anAtha - azaraNa hai hI, paraMtu ina bAtoM ke alAvA AdhyAtmika dRSTi se bhI jIva kaise anAtha aura azaraNa hai, yaha bhI samajha lenA caahie| * jo jIvAtmA arihaMta paramAtmA kI, siddha bhagavaMtoM kI, sAdhupuruSoM kI aura kevalipraNIta dharma kI avajJA karatA hai, unakI AjJA nahIM mAnatA hai, unake prati zraddhAvAn nahIM banatA hai-vaha anAtha, azaraNa hotA hai / * jo jIvAtmA krodha, mAna, mAyA aura lobha karatA rahatA hai; cAra kaSAyoM ko pApa nahIM mAnatA hai; vaha anAtha - azaraNa hotA hai / * jo jIvAtmA hiMsA, asatya, corI, maithuna aura parigraha meM lIna rahatA hai; ina pA~ca mahApApoM ko pApa nahIM mAnatA hai; ina pApoM ke tyAga kI bhAvanA nahIM rakhatA hai; vaha anAtha - azaraNa hotA hai / * jo jIvAtmA mana-vacana-kAyA ko azubha yogoM meM, pApakAryoM meM pravartita rakhatA hai, zubha yogoM meM nahIM jor3atA hai, vaha anAtha - azaraNa hotA hai / * jo jIvAtmA mAyAzalya, nidAnazalya aura mithyAtvazalya kA tyAga nahIM karatA azaraNa bhAvanA

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hai, vaha anAtha - azaraNa hotA hai / * jo jIvAtmA rasagArava, RddhigArava aura zAtAgArava meM lIna rahatA hai, vaha anAtha - azaraNa hotA hai| * jo jIvAtmA jJAnavirAdhanA, darzanavirAdhanA aura cAritravirAdhanA karatA rahatA hai, vaha anAtha - azaraNa hotA hai / * jo jIvAtmA ArtadhyAna aura raudradhyAna karatA rahatA hai, dharmadhyAna nahIM karatA __hai, vaha anAtha - azaraNa hotA hai / * jo jIvAtmA pA~ca indriyoM ke viSayoM meM lubdha hotA hai, vaha anAtha - azaraNa hotA hai / sAdhu bhI anAtha - azaraNa : kaise ? uttarAdhyayana-sUtra meM anAthImuni ne rAjA zreNika ko sAdhu-zramaNa kI bhI anAthatA - azaraNatA batAyI hai ! samajhane jaisI bAteM haiN| yaha anAthatA-azaraNatA paraloka dRSTi se batAyI gaI hai / anAthimuni ne kahA : / * he rAjana, nirgrantha dharma kI prApti hone para bhI niHsatva manuSya apane AcArapAlana meM zithila banate haiM, ve sva-para kI rakSA karane meM samartha nahIM hote haiM, yaha una jIvoM kI azaraNatA hai / * pravrajyA lene ke bAda jo sAdhu pramAda kI vajaha se mahAvratoM kA acchI taraha pAlana nahIM karatA hai, AtmAnuzAsana nahIM karatA hai, rasAsakta hotA hai, vaha samUla rAga-dveSa kA uccheda nahIM karatA hai, yaha usakI azaraNatA hai / / * jo sAdhu pA~ca samiti kA pAlana nahIM karatA hai, vaha mokSamArga kA anusaraNa nahIM kara sakatA hai, yaha usakI anAthatA hai / * jo sAdhu kezaluMcana karatA hai, paraMtu saMyamAnuSThAna nahIM karatA hai, tapa aura niyamoM se bhraSTa hotA hai, vaha anAtha - azaraNa bana saMsAra meM paribhramaNa karatA rahatA * jisameM sAdhutA ke bhAva nahIM hote, jo sAdhutA ke AcAroM ke pAlana meM zithila hote haiM, ve dravyasAdhu kahalAte haiM / dravyamuni asAra hote haiM, nirguNa hote haiM, ve sarvatra upekSita hote haiM / ve jJAnIpuruSoM kI dRSTi meM mUlyahIna hote haiM / aise dravya muni sarala jIvoM ko Thagate haiN| ve azaraNa banakara saMsAra meM bhaTakate * kevala udarabharaNa ke lie jo sAdhuveza dhAraNa karate haiM, asaMyamI hote hue 166 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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bhI saMyamI kahalAte haiM, ve dIrghakAlaparyaMta narakAdi durgati meM vinipAta pAte haiM / * jisa prakAra pIyA huA jahara, galata DhaMga se pakar3A huA zastra, avidhi se kI huI maMtrasAdhanA manuSya ko mAratI hai; vaise zabdAdi viSayoM kI laMpaTatA, dravyamuni kA durgati meM patana karavAtI hai / * jo dravyamuni lakSaNazAstra evaM svapnazAstra kA prayoga karatA hai, jo dravyamuni aSTAMga jyotiSa kA nimitta evaM saMtAnAdi ke lie prayoga karatA hai; indrajAla, jAdU, maMtra, taMtra, vidyArUpa AzravoM kA sevana karatA hai; usa dravyamuni ko anAtha - azaraNa smjhnaa| * mithyAtva se Ahata aura utkRSTa ajJAna se vaha dravyamuni zIlahIna banakara, sadA duHkhI banakara, tattvaviparItatA pAkara, cAritra kI virAdhanA kara, satata naraka-tiryaMca yoniyoM meM janma-maraNa karatA hai / isa prakAra sAdhu kI vividha anAthatA - azaraNatA batAyI hai / anAtha - azaraNa bane hue dravyamuni ko durgati meM jAnA hI par3atA hai / usako koI nahIM bacA sakatA hai, yaha usakI azaraNatA hai-anAthatA hai / saMbhUtamuni : niyANA : cakravartI : sAtavIM naraka : jaba dravyamuni kI anAthatA -- azaraNatA kI bAta batAyI hai, taba eka dRSTAMta sunAkara usa bAta ko puSTa karatA huuN| vaha dRSTAMta hai brahmadatta cakravartI kA / kahAnI vaise to vistRta hai, paraMtu maiM saMkSepa meM btaauuNgaa| kyoMki mujhe to jIva kI azaraNatA batAnA hai| ___ kAzI meM bhUtadatta nAma kA cAMDAla rahatA thaa| bar3A samRddhivAlA thaa| usake do putra the : citra aura saMbhUta / kAzI kA rAjA thA zaMkha / usakA maMtrI thA namuci / eka bAra namuci se bar3A aparAdha ho gayA / rAjA ne namuci ko mAra DAlane ke lie bhUtadatta cAMDAla ko soMpa diyA / namaci ne bhUtadatta ko kahA : kaise bhI karake tU mujhe bacA le| bhUtadatta ne kahA : yadi tUM mere do putroM ko acchI zikSA deM to maiM terI rakSA karU~ / namuci mAna gayA / bhUmigRha meM gupta rUpa se namuci ne citra aura saMbhUta ko par3hAnA zurU kiyA / gIta-saMgIta-nRtya Adi kalAe~ bhI sikhAne lgaa| kucha varSa taka yaha upakrama calatA rahA / paraMtu namuci kA bhUtadatta kI patnI ke sAtha saMbaMdha ho gayA / ve vyabhicAra-sevana karane lage / eka dina bhUtadatta ko yaha pApalIlA mAluma ho gaI / usane namuci ko mAra DAlane kA nirNaya | azaraNa bhAvanA 167

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kiyaa| citra-saMbhUta ko mAluma ho gayA ki unake pitA namuci ko mAra DAlanevAle haiN| unhoMne namuci ko guptamArga se bhagA diyA / idhara nagarI meM madanotsava pravartita huA / nagaravAsI loga udyAnoM meM jAne lage / citra - saMbhUta bhI gAte-gAte nagara meM phirane lage / itanA karNapriya gIta ve gAte the ki unake AsapAsa logoM kI bhIr3a laga gii| loga prazaMsA karane lage / paraMtu kucha rAjapuruSoM ne jAkara rAjA ko kahA: 'do cAMDAlaputroM ne apanI gItakalA se logoM ko AkarSita kara liyA hai aura nagara ko apavitra kara diyA hai !' rAjA ne una do cAMDAlaputroM ko nagara ke bAhara nikAla dene kI kotavAla ko AjJA de dii| paraMtu kucha dinoM ke bAda citra aura saMbhUta nakAba dhAraNa kara punaH nagara meM ghumane lage / gAne lage / hajAroM yuvaka unakI gAnakalA se AkarSita hue| ye do kauna gAyaka haiM ?' jijJAsA se yuvakoM ne unakA nakAba khIMca liyA ! 'are, ye to ve hI cAMDAlaputra haiM !' loga unako mArane lage / 1 citra - saMbhUta nagara se bAhara cale gaye / 'gaMbhIra' nAma ke udyAna meM gaye / eka vRkSa ke nIce baiThakara ve socane lage : 'apanI hIna jAti hone kI vajaha se apanI kalA, apanA rUpa, apanA kauzalya vagairaha dhikkArapAtra bana gaye haiM / aisI dhikkArapAtra avasthA meM jIne kI bajAya mara jAnA acchA hai !' AtmahatyA karane kI icchA se donoM bhAI dakSiNa dizA meM cale / calate-calate eka dina ve donoM bhAI eka bahuta U~ce pahAr3a ke pAsa phuNce| donoM ne socA: 'isa pahAr3a ke zikhara para car3hakara, vahA~ se gaharI khAI meM girakara mara jaayN| ve pahAr3a para car3hane lage / zikhara para unhoMne eka mahAmuni ko dekhaa| mahAmuni kAyotsarga dhyAna meM khar3e the / munirAja ke darzana karane se citra-saMbhUta ke hRdaya meM AnaMda huaa| ve apane duHkha - saMtApa bhUla gaye / unakI A~khoM meM se harSa ke A~su bahane lge| ve munirAja ke caraNoM meM gira pdd'e| muni ne apanA dhyAna pUrNa kiyA aura pUchA : 'tuma kauna ho ? aura yahA~ kyoM Aye ho ?' citra-saMbhUta ne apanI sArI kathA-vyathA sunA dI / munirAja ne kahA : 'mahAnubhAva, AtmahatyA karane se tumhAre zarIra kA nAza hogA, paraMtu tumhAre pApakarmoM kA nAza nahIM hogA / jaba taka AtmA ke sAtha pApakarma lage raheMge, taba taka duHkhoM kA anta AnevAlA nahIM hai| dUsare janma meM aura jyAdA duHkha bhogane hoNge| phira bhI tumheM zarIra kA tyAga karanA hI hai, to tapazcaryA karake zarIra kA tyAga karo / tapazcaryA se svarga aura mokSa ke sukha milate haiN| ghora - vIra aura 168 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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ugra tapazcaryA karane se yaha durlabha mAnavajIvana saphala hogaa| yaha mAnavadeha bahuta mUlyavAna hai, usakA vyartha hI nAza nahIM karanA cAhie / mahAmuni kI amRtamayI vANI sunakara donoM bhAI ke mana nirmala bane, pavitra bane / AtmahatyA karane kA vicAra chor3a diyA / donoM ne usa munirAja ke pAsa zramaNa-dharma kA svIkAra kiyA / donoM bhAI sAdhu bana gaye / munirAja ne donoM bhAiyoM ko acchA adhyayana karAyA / ve donoM jJAnI bane / tapasvI bane / gurudeva kI AjJA pAkara citramuni aura saMbhUtamuni gAMva-nagara ko pAvana karate hue hastinApura ke bAhya pradeza meM pahu~ce / nagara ke bAhya udyAna meM donoM munivaroM ne sthiratA kI aura ugra tapa tapane lge| eka dina saMbhUtamuni mAsakhamaNa (eka mahIne ke upavAsa) ke pAraNe ke lie bhikSA lene nagara meM gaye / vahA~ usa namuci ne munirAja ko dekhA / namuci kAzI se bhAgakara yahA~ hastinApura meM AyA thA aura cakravartI sanatkumAra kI rAjasabhA meM maMtrI banA thA / namuci ne saMbhUta ko pahacAna liyA / vaha ghabarA gyaa| usane socA : yaha saMbhUta - cAMDAlaputra merA pUrvavRttAMta yahA~ pragaTa kara degA, isalie usane apane sevakoM ko AjJA kara dI - isa sAdhu ko mArakara nagara ke bAhara nikAla do| sevakoM ne jAkara munirAja ko pakar3A aura mArane lage / namuAca dekhatA hai / nIca aura adhama puruSa para kiye hue upakAra sarpa ko dUdha pilAne jaisA hotA hai| kyA namaci nahIM jAnatA thA ki citra aura saMbhUta mujhe gupta rAste se bhagAte nahIM to unakA pitA - cAMDAla mujhe mAra DAlatA / maiMne usa AzrayadAtAjIvanadAtA kI patnI ke sAtha vyabhicAra-sevana kiyA thA / jAnatA thA, phira bhI saMbhUti, jo ki muniveza meM thA, usako apane sainikoM ke dvArA maravAtA hai| mani bAhya udyAna meM jAne lage, paraMtu sainikoM ne jAne nahIM diyaa| mArate rahe / taba acAnaka muni ke mu~ha se tejolezyA utpanna ho gaI / muni kopAyamAna ho gaye / mu~ha meM se agnijvAlAe~ nikalane lgii| jo sainika mAra rahe the, ve agnijvAlAoM meM jalane lage / nagaravAsI loga ghabarA gaye / namuci bhI bhayabhIta ho gayA / bAta pahu~cI sanatkumAra cakravartI ke pAsa / cakravartI tatkAla munirAja ke pAsa gaye / munirAja ko vaMdanA kara prArthanA kI : he bhagavana, isa prakAra roSa karanA Apa jaise maharSi ko kyA ucita hai ? sUrya ke kiraNoM se candrakAnta maNi tapatA jarUra hai, phira bhI apanI zItala kAnti chor3atA nahIM hai / ina sevakoM ne ApakA aparAdha kiyA hai, isalie una para krodha AnA azaraNa bhAvanA 169

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saMbhava hai, paraMtu satpuruSoM kA krodha, durjanoM ke sneha jaisA kSaNika hotA hai / vaise to satpuruSoM ko krodha hotA hI nahIM hai, hotA hai to dIrghakAla taka rahatA nahIM hai, rahatA hai to bhI vaha niSphala jAtA hai / he mahAmuni, merI Apa se prArthanA hai Apa ki krodha chor3a deN| kyoMki Apa to apakArI aura upakArI ke prati samadRSTivAle hote haiN| phira bhI munirAja kI tejolezyA zAnta nahIM huI / bAta udyAna meM citramani ko mAluma huI / ve tatkAla saMbhUtamuni ke pAsa Aye aura madhura vANI se saMbhUtamuni ko zAnta kiyaa| rAjA aura prajA ne mani ko vaMdanA kii| donoM manirAja udyAna meM lauTe / saMbhUtamuni ke hRdaya meM ghora pazcAttApa utpanna huA / unhoMne citramuni ko kahA : mAtra AhAra ke lie ghara-ghara phirane se kaSTa paidA hotA hai / AhAra se zarIra kA poSaNa karane para bhI, pariNAma to zarIra kA nAza hI hai / eka dina zarIra naSTa honevAlA hI hai / to phira yogI puruSoM ko zarIra aura AhAra kI apekSA hI kyoM rakhanI cAhie ? isalie apane cAroM AhAra kA tyAga kara anazana kara leN| citramuni aura saMbhUtamuni ne anazana-vrata svIkAra kara liyaa| udhara cakravartI rAjA ne sAdhu kA parAbhava karanevAle namuci ko pakar3a liyA / rAjA ne kahA : 'pUjya puruSa kI jo pUjA nahIM karatA hai, paraMtu unakA hanana karatA hai, vaha mahApApI hai / rAjA ne namuci ko rassI se baMdhavAyA aura nagara ke rAjamArgoM para ghumaayaa| bAda meM udyAna meM munirAja ke samakSa upasthita kiyA / cakravartI ne donoM munirAja ko vaMdanA kI aura kahA : Apa AjJA kareM, ApakA yaha aparAdhI hai, kyA daMDa karU~? munirAja ne kahA : rAjana, jo aparAdhI hotA hai, vaha svataH apane pApakarma kA phala bhogatA hai / munivaroM ne namuci ko baMdhanamukta krvaayaa| rAjA ne namuci ko dezanikAlA de diyaa| saMbhUtamuni kA mAnasika patana : cakravartI rAjA, saMbhUtamuni evaM citramuni ke guNoM se AkarSita huA thaa| vaha apane aMtaHpura kI rAniyoM ko lekara munivaroM ko vaMdana karane AyA / donoM muni ne anazana-vrata svIkArA huA thaa| donoM zAnta the, svastha the| cakravartI ne donoM munivaroM ko vaMdanA kI / sunaMdA, jo ki cakravartI kA strIratna thA, usane bhI hajAroM rAniyoM ke sAtha bhAvapUrvaka vaMdanA kI / paraMtu vaMdanA karate samaya sunaMdA ke bAloM kI coTI khula gayI / vaise bhI strIratna ke bAla bahuta laMbe hote haiM / 170 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1]

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bAla saMbhUtamuni ko chU gaye / bAloM kA sparza hote hI muni tatkAla romAMcita ho gaye / rAjA apane aMtaHpura kI rAniyoM ke sAtha nagara meM calA gayA / ___ saMbhUtamuni apane mana kA nigraha nahIM kara sake / aura vaise bhI kAmadeva to sadaiva jIva kA chidra dekhatA hI rahatA hai / saMbhUtamuni ne socA : jisa strIratna ke bAloM kA sparza itanA sukhada hai, manabhAvana hai, usake zarIra kA sparza...sarvAMga zarIra kA sparza kitanA sukhadAyI hotA hogA ? mujhe aisI rAnI cAhie / aisI rAnI cakravartI rAjA kI hI hotI hai / maiM yadi merI tapazcaryA kA niyANA kara dU~, to AnevAle janma meM cakravartI bana sakatA hU~ aura mujhe aisA strIratna mila sakatA ___saMbhUtamuni ne apane mana ke vicAra, niyANA karane kI icchA citramuni ko kaha sunAyI / citramuni ne kahA : tuma bahuta bar3I bhUla kara rahe ho / jo tapazcaryA mokSa kA phala denevAlI hai, usa tapazcaryA se tuma manuSyaloka ke bibhatsa vaiSayika sukha kI kAmanA karate ho ? mata karo aisI kAmanA ! saMsAra meM bhaTaka jAoge / kyA tuma nahIM jAnate ki niyANA kara, mA~gA huA bhautika sukha mila to jAtA hai, paraMtu cAritradharma nahIM milatA hai / bhautika sukhoM meM mohamUDha banakara jIva durgati meM calA jAtA hai ? tuma jJAnI hokara aisI gaMbhIra bhUla mata karo / ___ saMbhUtamuni ke mana para prabala viSayecchA chA gayI thI / citramuni kI preraNA kA koI asara nahIM huaa| saMbhUtamuni ne niyANA kara hI liyaa| maiMne jo duSkara tapa kiyA hai, usa tapa kA yadi mujhe phala milane kA ho to mujhe AnevAle janma meM strIratna kI prApti ho / maiM cakravartI rAjA banU~ / ' __ phira bhI, citramuni ne saMbhUtamuni ko kahA : tuma mithyA duSkRta dekara niyANA chor3a do| merA kahA mAno / tuma jaise jJAnI aura tapasvI muni ke lie yaha niyANA sarvathA anucita hai| paraMtu saMbhUtamuni ne niyANA kA tyAga nahIM kiyaa| donoM muni kA AyuSyakarma pUrNa hotA hai / mRtyu hotI hai / donoM kI AtmA pahale devaloka meM utpanna hotI hai / Aja, basa itanA hii| azaraNa bhAvanA 171

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 16 azaraNabhAvanA : 4 : saMkalanA : . duHkhoM kA mUla : mamatva / saMbhUta mara kara brahmadatta cakravartI / pUrvajanma ke bhAtA--muni kA milana / * brahmadatta aMdhA, mRtyu, 7vIM naraka meM / zreSTha zaraNabhUta cAra tattva / zraddhAvAna nirbhaya hotA hai / nalarAjA kI rAnI damayaMtI / abhaya-adveSa-akheda / duHkhoM meM bhI sthira mana se dharmaArAdhanA kA rahasya / zAntasudhA kA pAna kareM / zAntasudhA yAnI mokSasukha / zaraNAgati kA bhAva dRr3ha kareM / upasaMhAra /

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zaraNamekamanusara caturaMgaM parihara mamatAsaMgam / vinaya ! racaya zivasaukhyanidhAnaM, zAntasudhArasapAnam // 8 // vinaya ! vidhIyatAM re zrIjinadharmaHzaraNam / anusaMdhIyatAM re, zucitaracaraNasmaraNam // upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI zAntasudhArasa kI dUsarI azaraNabhAvanA kA samApana karate hue kahate haiM : he Atman, tU cAra zaraNa svIkAra kara le : arihaMta, siddha, sAdhu aura kevalipraNIta dharma kI zaraNa le le / mamatA kA saMga chor3a de aura zivasukha ke nidhAnasvarUpa zAntasudhA kA AsvAdana kara / tIvra rogoM se, anivArya vRddhAvasthA se aura nizcita mRtyu se, isa duniyA meM bacAnevAlA koI nahIM hai / niyati kA svIkAra karate hue jIvAtmA ko jIvana kA mamatva chor3a denA cAhie / jIvana ke moha se mukta honA cAhie / duHkhoM kA mUla : mamatva : jaise jIvana meM azaraNatA hai, vaise jIvana hI azaraNa hai / manuSya apane jIvana meM kaI bAra azaraNatA kA anubhava karatA hai / jahA~ jahA~ usake bala, buddhi, zakti, saMpatti...vagairaha zaraNabhUta nahIM banate haiM, svajana-parijana bhI zaraNabhUta nahIM banate haiM, vahA~ manuSya ghora duHkha kA anubhava karatA hai / manuSya ko apanA jIvana priya hotA hai, aura jaba vaha jIvana ko khatare meM dekhatA hai, taba duHkhI ho jAtA hai / jaba bacane kA koI mArga nahIM dikhatA hai taba vaha mara jAne kA, AtmahatyA kara dene kA socatA hai / citra-saMbhUta do bhAI kA jIvana isa bAta kA zreSTha udAharaNa hai| sarvaprathama, jaba nagaravAsI logoM ne 'ye to cAMDAla hai, aisA tiraskAra kara mArA thA, taba ve apane Apako azaraNa samajha kara mara jAne ke lie jaMgala meM cale gaye the / bhAgyayoga se usa pahAr3a para unako mahAmuni mila gaye...aura unhoMne AzvAsana diyaa| cAMDAlakula ko dhyAna meM nahIM lete hue munirAja ne una donoM bhAiyoM ko vAtsalya se, karuNA se zaraNa dI aura sAdhupanA diyaa| donoM bhAiyoM ko nayA jIvana milaa| punaH hastinApura nagara meM saMbhUtamuni ko, namucimaMtrI ne trAsa diyA / sainikoM ke sAmane ve azaraNa ho gaye aura jIvana kA mamatva hI TUTa gyaa| donoM bhAImuniyoM ne anazana svIkAra kara liyA ! svaicchika mRtyu kA varaNa kara liyA / azaraNa bhAvanA 173

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paraMtu cakravartI rAjA kI strIratna kA aisA nimitta milA ki punaH saMbhUtamuni ke mana meM jIvana kA mamatva jAgrata ho uThA ! sAmAnya jIvana kA mamatva nahIM, cakravartI ke jIvana kA mamatva paidA huA ! citramuni mamatva ke baMdhana meM nahIM ba~dhe, saMbhUta ba~dha gaye / unhoMne niyANA kara diyA / donoM bhAiyoM kA AyuSya pUrNa hone para, donoM devaloka meM deva hue| devatva bhI zAzvat nahIM hotA hai / devoM kA bhI AyuSya hotA hai / AyuSya pUrNa hone para devabhava chUTa jAtA hai, manuSyabhava meM athavA tiryaMcabhava meM janma lenA par3atA hai / deva mara kara devabhava meM janma nahIM le sakatA hai, vaise sIdhA naraka meM bhI utpanna nahIM ho sakatA hai / saMbhUta mara kara brahmadatta cakravartI : __saMbhUta kA devabhava kA AyuSya pUrNa hotA hai aura vaha isa bharatakSetra meM kAMpilyapura meM brahmarAjA kI rAnI culanIdevI ke peTa meM AtA hai / culanI ne 14 mahAsvapna dekhe / cakravartI kI mAtA 14 mahAsvapna dekhatI hai / jaba putra kA janma huA, usakA nAma brahmadatta rakhA gayA / brahmadatta bAraha varSa kA huA taba brahmarAjA kI mRtyu ho gaI / cakravartI hone ke pahale brahmadatta ke jIvana meM aneka kaSTa Aye, ApattiyA~ AyI... paraMtu usakA jIvanamoha prabala thA, usako vairAgya hone kA nahIM thA / vaha eka dina cakravartI banA / niyANA kiyA thA na ? strIratna bhI milaa| nimitta pAkara usako jAtismaraNa jJAna hotA hai / pUrva ke pA~ca janma batAnevAlA jAtismaraNa jJAna hotA hai / usane pUrvajanma ke bhrAtA citra ko dekhA / 'merA bhAI mujhe kahA~ milegA ?' citra ke prati usake hRdaya meM dRr3ha anurAga thA / cakravartI, citra ko khoja nikAlatA hai / citra kA jIva, devaloka kA AyuSya pUrNa kara, isI bharatakSetra meM purimatAla nagara meM zreSThiputra hotA hai / usako bhI jAtismaraNajJAna hotA hai, vaha saMsAra se virakta hotA hai aura cAritradharma kA svIkAra kara letA hai| pUrvajanma ke bhrAtA ko pratibodha karane ve muni purimatAla nagara meM Ate haiM / vahA~ para brahmadatta kA milana hotA hai / brahmadatta pUrvajanma ke bhrAtA ko milane para ati harSasabhara hotA hai, vaMdanA karatA hai aura upadeza sunane muni ke Age vinaya se baiTha jAtA hai / munirAja brahmadatta ko upadeza dete haiM / hAlA~ki ve jAnate haiM ki isane niyANA karake cakravartIpanA pAyA hai, isalie isakA jIvanamamatva, bhogAsakti TUTanevAlI nahIM hai, phira bhI eka kartavya ke nAte unhoMne upadeza diyA / | 174 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 174

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pUrvajanma ke bhrAtA - muni kA milana : upadeza : 'he rAjan, yaha saMsAra asAra hai, saMsAra meM kucha bhI sArabhUta nahIM hai / sArabhUta ekamAtra dharma hai / yaha zarIra, lakSmI-saMpatti, svAmitva, snehI svajana saba kucha caMcala hai, asthira hai, vinAzI hai / rAjan, tumane bAhara ke sabhI zatruoM ko to jIta liye, aba mokSa pAne ke lie aMtaraMga zatruoM ko bhI jIta lo| jisa prakAra rAjahaMsa, pAnI ko chor3akara kSIra ko grahaNa karatA hai, vaise tuma isa saMsAra ko chor3akara cAritradharma kA svIkAra kara lo !' yaha sunakara brahmadatta ne kahA: 'he mere Atmatulya baMdhu ! mere sadbhAgya se mujhe Apake darzana mile| yaha rAjyazrI Apa kI hI hai, Apa svecchA se vipula bhogasukha bhogeM / tapa kA phala bhoga hai / bhogasukha milane ke bAda aba Apako tapa kyoM karanA cAhie ?' munirAja ne kahA : 'he rAjan, mere ghara meM bhI kubera jaisI saMpatti thI, vipula bhogasukha the, paraMtu maiMne usako tRNavat tuccha samajhakara, bhavabhramaNa kA hetu samajhakara chor3a diye / he rAjan, puNyakarma kA kSaya hone para tuma devaloka se isa pRthvI para Aye ho / yahA~ punaH puNya kSaya hone para adhogati meM jAnA par3egA / bhogasukha bhogane se puNyakarma kA kSaya hotA hai / rAjan, isa AryakSetra meM aura zreSTha kula meM durlabha manuSya jIvana milA hai| isa jIvana meM bhogasukha nahIM bhogane haiM, bhogasukha tyAga kara, Atmasukha pAnA hai / ' brahmadatta ke hRdaya para muni ke upadeza kA koI asara nahIM huA / asara hone kA bhI nahIM thA / vaha pratibuddha nahIM huA / niyANA ke phalasvarUpa use cakravartIpanA milA thA na ? usako 'bodhi' kI prApti honA asaMbhava hotA hai| muni ne brahmadatta ko abodhya samajha liyA / vahA~ se vihAra kara anyatra cale gaye / brahmadatta ke prati madhyasthabhAva dhAraNa kara liyA / na rAga, na dveSa ! munirAja ko kaivalya kI prApti hotI hai| zeSa aghAtI - bhavopragAhI karmoM kA kSaya hone para ve paramapada - mokSa pA lete haiM / brahmadatta aMdha hotA hai : mRtyu : sAtavIM naraka meM : brahmadatta apane strIratna ke sAtha vipula bhogasukha bhogatA hai / tapazcaryA kA phala bhogatA hai / paraMtu eka dina eka caravAhA, brahmadatta kI donoM A~kheM phor3a DAlatA hai ! eka brAhmaNa ne caravAhe ke pAsa yaha kAma karavAyA thA, isalie usa brAhmaNa azaraNa bhAvanA 175

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ko to parivAra sahita maravA diyA, paraMtu bAda meM sabhI brAhmaNoM kA vadha karavA diyA / solaha varSa taka raudradhyAna karatA huA, brahmadatta sAtavIM naraka meM calA gayA / naraka meM jAte hue usa cakravartI ko koI bacA nahIM pAyA / azaraNaanAtha banakara vaha narakagAmI banA / jIvana kA moha, jIvana kA mamatva kitanA bhayAnaka hotA hai ? isalie graMthakAra ne kahA : 'pariharamamatAsaMgam / ' mamatA - mamatva - moha kA tyAga karane kA upadeza diyA / cAra zaraNa kA svIkAra, vAstava meM vahI manuSya kara sakatA hai, jo jIvana kA mamatva tyAga detA hai / saMsAra ke vaiSayika sukhoM kA moha tyAga detA hai / vizva ke cAra zreSTha zaraNabhUta tattva : vaise to pratidina, tInoM kAla cAra zaraNa aMgIkAra karane ke hote haiM : arihaMte saraNaM pavajjAmi / siddhe saraNaM pavajjAmi / sAhU saraNaM pavajjAmi / kevalI pannattaM dhammaM saraNaM pavajjAmi / arihaMta, siddha, sAdhu aura dharma vizva ke ye cAra zreSTha zaraNabhUta tattva 1 haiM / jo jIvAtmA unakI zaraNa meM jAtA hai, zaraNa kA svIkAra karatA hai, vaha parama zAnti, parama sukha pAtA hai / -- paraMtu zaraNabhAva ke pahale zraddhAbhAva apekSita hotA hai / pahale zraddhAvAn bananA hogA / 'arihaMta - siddha-sAdhu aura dharma hI zaraNabhUta haiM, inake alAvA koI bhI zaraNabhUta nahIM hai isa vizva meM / isa prakAra kI zraddhA hRdaya meM dRr3ha honI cAhie | cAhe pralayakAla A jAyaM athavA ziva kA tAMDavanRtya ho jAyaM, cAhe dharA kA~pane lage yA AkAza meM se Aga barasane lage, nirbhaya banakara arihaMta Adi 4 paramatattva kI zaraNa svIkAra kara sakeM / zraddhAvAn nirbhaya hotA hai : : vaise nirbhaya zraddhAvAn AtmAoM ke kucha udAharaNoM kI yAda dilAtA hU~ pahalA udAharaNa sItAjI kA hai / zrIrAma ne sItAjI kA bIhar3a jaMgala meM tyAga karavA diyA thA / usa samaya unhoMne zrI namaskAra mahAmaMtra kI zaraNa lekara jIvana-mRtyu ke prati udAsIna vRttivAle bane the / jisa samaya ayodhyA ke bAhya pradeza meM sItAjI kI agniparIkSA huI thI, usa 176 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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meM samaya bhI sItAjI nirbhaya hokara, zrI namaskAra mahAmaMtra kA smaraNa kara agnikuMDa kUda par3e the / apane satItva-dharma ke Upara bhI unakI kaisI niHzaMka zraddhA thI ! agnikuMDa, pAnI kA kuMDa bana gayA thA ! dUsarA udAharaNa nalarAjA kI rAnI damayaMtI kA hai / rAjA nala ne damayaMtI kA jaMgala meM tyAga kara diyA thaa| eka asura se damayaMtI ko mAluma huA thA ki bAraha varSa taka pati kA viyoga rahanevAlA hai / damayaMtI ne kucha abhigrahapratijJAe~ mana meM le lI aura eka giriguphA meM nivAsa kara liyA / vahA~ usane miTTI kI, bhagavAn zAntinAtha kI mUrti banAyI aura pUrNa zraddhAbhAva se bhagavaMta kI pUjA karane lagI / damayaMtI ke hRdaya meM paramAtmA ke prati apUrva zaraNabhAva thA / 'vasaMta' nAma ke sArthavAha ne guphA ke pAsa eka nagara basA diyA thA / vahA~ para damayaMtI ke upadeza se 500 tApasa pratibodhita hue the / bhagavAn zAntinAtha ke bhakta bana gaye the / - eka dina damayaMtI guphA ke bAhara jaMgala meM paribhramaNa kara rahI thI, usa samaya acAnaka usake sAmane bhayAnaka AkRtivAlI rAkSasI pragaTa huI aura bolI: maiM tujhe khA jAU~gI !' damayaMtI ghabarAyI nahIM, usane A~kheM mU~da kara bolA : yadi maiMne mere pati nala ke alAvA kisI bhI puruSa kA kAmavAsanA se prerita hokara vicAra bhI nahIM kiyA ho, to mere isa satItva ke prabhAva se aura mere hRdaya meM rahe hue Arhat dharma ke prabhAva se yaha rAkSasI zAMta ho !' tatkSaNa rAkSasI zAMta ho gaI, damayaMtI ko praNAma kiyA aura adRzya ho gaI / damayaMtI usI vana meM calatI - calatI Age bar3hI / usako bahuta pyAsa lagI thI / rAste meM eka nirjala nadI AyI / nadI meM eka bUMda bhI pAnI nahIM thA / damayaMtI ne paMcaparameSThi kA smaraNa kara nadI meM paira se prahAra kiyA aura nadI meM pAnI ubhara AyA / jalapAna kara damayaMtI nadI ke kinAre para eka vRkSa ke tale baiThI / - * tIsarA prasiddha dRSTAMta satI surasuMdarI kA hai / rAkSasadvIpa ke Upara usakA pati amarakumAra, surasuMdarI kA tyAga kara calA gayA thA / dvIpa para akelI surasuMdarI raha gaI thI / samudra ke kinAre para jAkara usane madhyama sUra se zrI navakAramaMtra kA jApa zurU kiyA thaa| usa samaya usa dvIpa kA adhiSThAyaka rAkSasa vahA~ AtA hai aura surasuMdarI ko apanA bhakSya banAne kI icchA se usakI ora daur3atA hai / paraMtu zrI navakAramaMtra kI dhvani sunate hI zAnta ho jAtA hai| surasuMdarI ko putrIvat 177 azaraNa bhAvanA

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cAhatA hai / dvIpa ke Upara rakhatA hai aura usako sukhasuvidhA detA hai / bAda meM to surasuMdarI ke jIvana meM aneka tUphAna Ate haiM, aneka duHkha Ate haiM, paraMtu zrI navakAramaMtra ke aciMtya prabhAva se aura usake satItva-dharma ke prabhAva se vaha vighnoM para vijaya pAtI jAtI hai / vidyAdhara rAjA ratnajaTI ke paricaya ke bAda usako aneka prakAra ke sukha milate haiM... usakI kIrti phailatI hai aura pariNAmasvarUpa vaha bhavasAgara ko taira jAtI hai / abhaya - adveSa - akheda : __ arihaMta-siddha-sAdhu aura dharma ke prati pUrNa zraddhAbhAva pragaTa hone para aura zaraNAgati kA divya bhAva utpanna hone para manuSya nirbhaya bana jAtA hai / kaise bhI vighna AyeM, Apatti AyeM...vaha nirbhaya rahatA hai / abhaya rahatA hai / dUsarA pratibhAva hotA hai adveSa kA / usako, duHkha denevAle jIvAtmAoM ke prati dveSa nahIM hotA hai / unake prati karuNA hotI hai, athavA madhyasthabhAva hotA hai / zatrutA yA vairabhAva nahIM hotA hai / tIsarA pratibhAva hotA hai akheda kA / duHkhoM ke sAmane lar3ate hue vaha thakatA nahIM hai / paramArtha-paropakAra Adi dharmakArya karate hue vaha thakatA nahIM hai / usakA mana kabhI khinna nahIM hotA hai / usake mu~ha para kabhI nirAzA ke bAdala ghira nahIM Ate / duHkhoM meM bhI sthira mana se dharmaArAdhanA kA rahasya : sudarzana zeTha kI kahAnI jAnate ho na ? rAjA ne jaba sudarzana zeTha ko sUlI para car3hAkara mAra DAlane kI sajA sunAyI thI, usa samaya sudarzana zeTha kI patnI satI manoramA apane ghara meM, paramAtmA kI mUrti ke sAmane sthira mana se, kAyotsargadhyAna meM khar3I raha gaI thI na ? apanA pati sUlI para car3hane jA rahA ho, usa samaya pativratA strI sthira mana se, nirbhaya hokara, paramAtmA ke dhyAna meM lIna ho sakatI hai kyA ? kabhI socA hai Apa logoM ne isa ghaTanA ke viSaya meM ? nahIM, kyoMki isake bAre meM Apa kabhI socate hI nahIM, kevala sunate rahate ho ! dharma ko sunate ho aura adharma kA ciMtana karate ho ! phira dharma ke rahasyabhUta tattva kaise jAna sakate ho ? __mahAsatI manoramA kI zraddhA aura zaraNAgati ne usako nirbhaya banAyI thii| adveSI banAyI thI aura akhinna banAyI thii| usameM nahIM thA bhaya, nahIM thA dveSa aura nahIM thA kheda / citta ko asthira-caMcala banAnevAle ye tIna tattva hote haiM na ? bhaya-dveSa aura kheda / aba samajhe na manoramA kaise kAyotsargadhyAna meM lIna| 178 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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sulIna banI thI ? jabaki usake pati ko sUlI para car3hAne ke lie le jA rahe the! dUsarI bAta, jaise manoramA ne zraddhA aura zaraNabhAva ke phalasvarUpa abhaya, adveSa aura akheda - ye tIna vizeSatAe~ pAyI thI, vaise usake pati ne, sudarzana ne bhI ye tIna bAteM pAyI thI ! salI para caDhane kI sajA hone para bhI ve ghabarAye nahIM the, unake mana meM rAnI ke Upara dveSa nahIM AyA thA aura khinnatA se usakA mana bhara nahIM gayA thaa| tabhI ve nizcala mana se sUlI para car3ha sake the ! ekAgra mana se ve zrI paMcaparameSThi bhagavaMtoM kA dhyAna kara sake the / manoramA bhI sthira mana se paramAtmadhyAna meM lIna raha sakI thii| zAntasudhA kA pAna kareM : vahI thA unakA zAntarasa kA pAna ! manoramA ke mana meM zAnti thI. samatA thI, svasthatA thii| kyoMki usane apane jIvana kI sArI jimmedArI paMcaparameSThi ko sauMpa dI thii| paramAtmatattva aura gurutattva ko sauMpa dI thI / dharmatattva ko sauMpa dI thI / apane para usane tanika bhI bhAra nahIM rakhA thaa| yahI to vizeSatA hotI hai zaraNAgati ke bhAva kI / prazna yahI hai ki hama apane duHkhoM kA bhAra, azAnti kA bhAra...paramAtmatattva ko, parameSThitattva ko sauMpa sakate haiM kyA ? sauMpakara, nizcita bana sakate haiM kyA ? jisa prakAra zrIpAlacaritraM meM par3hate haiM ki samudra meM pravAsa karate hue dhavalaseTha ne kapaTa se zrIpAla ko samudra meM dhakkA de diyA thaa| zrIpAla samudra meM girate hI, unake parama iSTa siddhacakrajI ko yAda karate haiM / unake hRdaya meM siddhacakra ke prati aTUTa-akhaMDa zraddhAbhAva thA, zaraNAgati thI / ve samudra meM gire, jahAja to samudra meM Age bar3ha gyaa| zrIpAla kI paliyA~, zrIpAla kI vipula saMpatti...saba kucha jahAja meM thA / mitra ke rUpa meM rahA huA dhavalaseTha, zrIpAla kA gupta rUpa se zatru hI thaa| zrIpAla kI paliyA~, jo ki sabhI rAjakumAriyA~ thIM aura zrIpAla kI saMpatti, jo ki apAra-aparimeya thI...yaha saba har3apane ke lie hI usa duSTa dhavala ne zrIpAla ko samudra meM girA diyA thaa| paraMtu dharmo rakSati rakSitaH / dharma ne zrIpAla kI rakSA kI / vaha eka bar3e magaramaccha kI pITha para pdd'aa| magaramaccha tairatA huA samudra ke eka kinAre para zrIpAla ko le gayA / kinAre para utarakara zrIpAla eka vRkSa ke tale jA kara baitthe| unake mana para koI cintA kA bhAra nahIM thA / ve nizcita the / na kAminI kA bhAra thA, na kaMcana kA bhAra thA ! sArA / azaraNa bhAvanA 179 |

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bhAra unhoMne 'siddhacakra' ko sauMpa diyA thA ! siddhacakra unakI zraddhA kA kendra thA, zaraNAgati kA kendra thA / unake vizvAsa para ve nizcita the / ve nirbhaya the, unake mana meM dhavalaseTha para dveSa bhI nahIM thA, naye jIvana se Uba bhI gaye the / saMkaTa unako thakA nahIM sake the / ve sadaiva prasannacitta se, zAnta mana se siddhacakra kI ArAdhanA karate the / yaha koI kalpanA kI kathA nahIM hai / yaha vAstavikatA hai| jo manuSya niHspRha, nirmamatva hokara jItA hai aura zraddhA evaM zaraNAgati ke bhAvoM ko hRdayastha karatA hai, vaha sadaiva zAnti kA amRtapAna karatA rahatA hai / zAntasudhA yAnI mokSasukha : zAnti kA amRtapAna, prazamarasa kA amRtapAna, yahI isa saMsAra meM mokSasukha kA anubhava hai / 'prazamarati meM bhagavAna umAsvAtIjI ne kahA hai: dUre mokSasukhaM, pratyakSaM prazamasukham / ' siddhazilA para jo mokSasukha hai, vaha to bahuta dUra hai / yahA~ saMsAra meM prazamasukha, zAntasudhA kA rasapAna hI mokSasukha hai / yadi yahA~ isa jIvana meM mokSasukha kA anubhava karanA hai, to zAntasudhA kA amRtapAna karate raho / yaha amRtapAna karane ke lie mamatvarahita hokara, cAra zaraNa svIkAra karate raho / zaraNAgati ke bhAva ko hRdaya meM sthira kareM / mamatva - rAga-dveSa kA thor3e samaya ke lie tyAga kara, sthira citta se sthira Asana se baiThakara nimna prakAra svAdhyAya kareM : zuddha pariNAmane kAraNe, cAranAM zaraNa dhare citta re, prathama tihAM zaraNa arihaMtanuM jeha jagadIza jagamitta re cetana, jJAna ajuvAlIe. je samavasaraNamAM rAjatA, bhAMjatA bhavika - saMdeha re, dharmanAM vacana varase sadA, puSkarAvarta jima meha re... cetana. zaraNa bIjaM bhajo siddhanuM, je kare karma cakacUra re, bhogave rAjya zivanagaranuM jJAna - AnaMda bharapUra re... cetana. sAdhunuM zaraNa trIjuM dhare, jeha sAdhe zivapaMtha re, mUla - uttaraguNa je varyA, bhava taryA bhAva nirgrantha re... cetana. zaraNa cothuM dhare dharmanuM, jehamAM vara dayAbhAva re, je sukhahetu jinavara kAM, pApajala taravA nAva re... cetana. 180 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI ne 'amRtabela' kI sajjhAya meM isa prakAra cAra zaraNa svIkAra karane kA batAyA hai / zaraNAgati kA bhAva dRr3ha karane ke lie : zaraNAgati ke bhAva ko hRdaya meM dRr3ha karane ke lie, prAcIna gujarAtI bhASA meM zrI cidAnaMdajI racita sarala kAvya ke kucha aMza batAtA hU~, Apa loga kaMThastha bhI kara sakate haiM aura pratidina svAdhyAya kara sakate haiN| 1. paramAtama soi AtamA, avara na dUjo koya, paramAtama kuM dhyAvate, eha paramAtama hoya / 2. paramAtama eha brahma hai parama jyoti jagadIza, ___para-suM bhinna nihArIe, joi alakha soi is| 3. jo paramAtama siddha meM, sohI AtamamAMhI, ___ moha-mayala dRga laga rahyo, tAmeM sUjhata nAhI / 4. Atama so paramAtamA paramAtama soi siddha, bIca kI duvidhA miTa gaI, pragaTa bhaI nija riddha / 5. maiM hI siddha paramAtamA, maiM hI AtamarAma, maiM hI dhyAtA dhyeya ko, cetana mero nAma / 6. maiM hI anaMta sukha ko dhanI, sukha meM mohI sohAya, ___ avinAzI AnaMdamaya, sohaM tribhuvanarAya / 7. zuddha hamAro spa hai, zobhita siddha samAna, guNa anaMta karI saMyuta, cidAnaMda bhagavAna / 8. jaiso ziva pe tahi vase, teso yA tanamAMhI. nizcaya dRSTi nihAratAM, phera raMca kacha nAhI / 9. kAhe kuM bhaTakata phire ? siddha hone ke kAja, rAga-dveSakuM tyAga de, bhAI, sugama ilAja / 10.paramAtama-pada ko dhanI, raMka bhayo, dila lAya, rAga-dveSa kI prIti se, janama akAratha jAya / 11. rAga-dveSa ke nAsateM, paramAtama parakAsa, rAga-dveSa ke bhAsate, paramAtama pada-nAsa / 12.lAkha bAta kI bAta yaha, tAku diyo batAya, jo paramAtama-pada cahe, rAga-dveSa taja bhAya ! 181 / azaraNa bhAvanA

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13. rAga-dveSa tyAge binuM, paramAtamapada nAhI, koTi koTi tapa-japa kare, saba akAratha jAI / 14. dehasahita paramAtamA, eha acarija kI bAta, rAga-dveSa ke tyAga se karmazakti jarI jAta / 15. rAga-dveSa kuM tyAga ke, dharI paramAtama dhyAna, yuM pAve sukha zAsavata bhAI, ima kalyAna / ('paramAtma- chatrIzI' meM se) upasaMhAra : -- Aja dUsarI azaraNabhAvanA kA vivecana pUrNa karatA hU~ / jIvAtmA kI hara jIvana meM, hara gati meM kaisI azaraNa sthiti hai, yaha batAkara, zaraNabhUta cAra paramatattva hI haiM. yaha bAta batAyI gaI hai / isa saMsAra meM azaraNa hU~, merA koI zaraNa nahIM haiM - aisA nahIM socanA hai| isa saMsAra meM saccI zaraNa denevAle arihaMta Adi cAra paramatattva haiM, inake alAvA koI zaraNa nahIM hai / isa prakAra socanA hai / 'zrI jinadharmaH zaraNam' yaha bAra-bAra 'arihaMte saraNaM pavajjAmi...' ityAdi cAra zaraNa bAra-bAra svIkAra karane haiM / jaba citta meM zAnti ho, taba dina meM subaha, dopahara aura zAma, tIna samaya zaraNAgati svIkAreM / jaba citta azAnta ho, taba bAra-bAra zaraNAgati kA svIkAra karate raheM / zAnti - samatA - prasannatA prApta hogI / 182 raTanA hai 1 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 17 saMsAra bhAvanA - 1 : saMkalanA : * bhISaNa hai saMsAra * lobha kA dAvAnala lobha se vinAza viSayalAlasA : mRgatRSNA * abhayakumAra aura cAra munivara patnI kA vizvAsaghAta : mahAbhayam * dhanada munivara : atibhayam

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ito lobhaH kSobhaM janayati duranto dava ivollasaMllAbhAmbhobhiH kathamapi na zakyaH zamayitum / itastRSNA'kSANAM tudati mRgatRSNeva viphalA, kathaM svasthaiH stheyaM vividhabhayabhIme bhavavane ? // 7 // upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI 'zAntasudhArasa' graMtha meM tIsarI saMsArabhAvanA kA prAraMbha karate hue kahate haiM : "yaha eka bhayAnaka bhava-vana hai / ghanA - bIhar3a jaMgala hai / isa vana meM lobha kA dAvAnala bhar3aka rahA hai / use bujhAnA zakya nahIM hai / lAbha-prApti kI lakar3iyoM se yaha lobha kA dAvAnala aura jyAdA dhadhaka rahA hai / idhara mRgatRSNA-sI viSayalAlasA, jIvoM ko ghora pIr3A de rahI hai / aise bhISaNa bhava-vana meM nizcita hokara, ArAma se kaise rahA jA sakatA hai ?" bhISaNa hai saMsAra : saMsAra ko ghane - bIhar3a jaMgala kI upamA dI hai graMthakAra ne / saMsAra kI cAra gatiyA~ haiM : devagati, manuSyagati, tiya~cagati aura narakagati / cAroM gatiyoM meM duHkha hai, azAnti hai, kleza aura saMtApa hai / isalie saMsAra ko bhISaNa-raudra jaMgala kI upamA dI hai aura isa saMsAra meM se zIghrAtizIghra bAhara nikala jAne kI tIrthaMkaroM ne preraNA dI hai / mukti-mokSa pAne kA upadeza diyA hai / paraMtu saMsAra kI do gatiyoM meM sukha ke AbhAsa dikhate haiM / devagati aura manuSyagati meM jIvoM ko vaiSayika sukha, sukharUpa dikhate haiM ! jaise reta ke pradeza meM mRga ko dUra se pAnI kA AbhAsa hotA hai vaise ! pAnI nahIM hotA hai, phira bhI pAnI dikhAI detA hai mRga ko, aura vaha pAnI pIne ke lie daur3atA rahatA hai / vaise svarga aura manuSyaloka meM sukhAbhAsoM ko sukha samajhakara jIva una vaiSayika sukhoM ke lie daur3ate rahate haiN| __yahI hai sukhatRSNA kA dAvAnala ! sukha-lobha kA dAvAnala ! samagra saMsAra meM yaha dAvAnala jala rahA hai, bhar3aka rahA hai / jaise jaise jIva ko bhramaNA ke sukhoM kI prApti hotI jAtI hai, dAvAnala meM lakar3iyA~ (vaiSayika sukhaprApti kI) giratI jAtI haiM, vaise dAvAnala kI jvAlAe~ jalatI rahatI haiM, bujhatI nahIM haiM / aise saMsAra meM jIvAtmA ko svasthatA, zAnti, prasannatA kaise raha sakatI hai ? dAvAnala meM pha~se hue jIvoM kI azAnti, saMtApa aura pIr3A dekhanI ho to kisI jalate hue ghara meM pha~se hue logoM ko dekhanA ! zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 184

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I saMsAra ke isa svarUpa kA ciMtana karanA hai / ciMtana karoge tabhI yaha 'saMsArabhAvanA' banegI / tabhI saMsAra kA moha, saMsAra kI Asakti TUTegI / saMsArabhAvanA kA yahI prayojana hai / isa graMtha ke prAraMbha meM hI graMthakAra ne 'nIrandhre bhavakAna ne...' saMsAra ko bhayaMkara jaMgala batAyA hai ! AzravoM ke barasate bAdala batAye haiM, jaMgala meM phailI huI karmoM kI latAe~ batAI haiM, moha kA vyApaka pragAr3ha aMdhakAra batAyA hai / isa prakAra saMsArasvarUpa kA darzana karavA kara jJAnIpuruSa jIvoM ko saMsAra se virakta banAnA cAhate haiM / mohAsakti tor3anA cAhate haiM / bhramaNA ke sukhoM se jIvoM ko mukta karanA cAhate haiM / saMsArabhAvanA ke pahale zloka meM graMthakAra upAdhyAyajI ne saMsAra ko do upamAe~ dI haiM : * saMsAra jaMgala meM dAvAnala sulaga rahA hai, * saMsAra ke registAna meM mRgatRSNA marIcikA dikha rahI hai / lobha kA dAvAnala aura viSayatRSNA kI mRgatRSNA ! ye do bAteM batAI haiM / ina do bAtoM para ciMtana karanA hai / - lobha kA dAvAnala : dAvAnala usako kahate haiM jo kabhI nahIM bujhatA / jaba taka jaMgala meM lakar3iyA~ hotI haiM taba taka dAvAnala jalatA hI rahatA hai / lakar3iyoM ke sAtha jo choTebar3e jIva Aga kI lapaToM meM A jAte haiM, ve bhI jala kara mara jAte haiN| lobhatRSNAAsakti dAvAnala jaisI hai| saMsAra meM jIvoM kI viSayAsakti, vaiSayika tRSNA... viSayoM kA lobha kabhI zAnta nahIM hotA hai / 'lAbha' kI lakar3iyA~ lobha ke dAvAnala ko prajvalita rakhatI haiN| jaise jaise viSayalAbha hotA jAtA hai vaise lobha bar3hatA jAtA hai / 'zrI uttarAdhyayana sUtra meM kahA hai : jahA lAho tahA loho, lAhA loho pavaDDha | I jaise jaise dravyalAbha hotA jAtA hai, vaise vaise lobha bar3hatA jAtA hai / lAbha lobhavRddhi kA kAraNa hai / icchAoM kA koI anta nahIM hotA hai / icchAe~ ananta hotI haiM / 'uttarAdhyayana sUtra ke kApilIya - adhyayana meM, 'kapila' nAma ke kevalajJAnI svayaM apanA dRSTAMta dekara samajhAte haiM ki icchAoM kA anta nahIM hotA / eka dAsI se prema ho gayA thA, usako saMtuSTa karane ke lie thor3A sonA lene kapila rAjA ke pAsa gaye the... paraMtu eka karor3a svarNamudrAoM kI prApti se saMsAra bhAvanA 185

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bhI icchA pUrNa nahIM ho pAyI thI / unakI AtmA to jAgrata ho gaI thI aura ve icchAoM se mukta ho gaye... saMsAra se mukta ho gaye ! rAjasabhA meM khar3e-khar3e ve kevalajJAnI bana gaye the / lobha se vinAza : paraMtu jo AtmajJAnI nahIM hote haiM, lobha unakA vinAza karatA hai ! upaniSadoM meM eka kathA AtI hai / mahApaMDita 'kautsya kAlindI nadI ke taTa para baiThakara pratidina pravacana diyA karate the / viSaya cala rahA thA 'lobha se vinAza / paMDitajI svayaM ko lobhavijetA mAnate the| vaise unake sAmane lobha kA koI prasaMga bhI nahIM AyA thA / T nadI ke gahare pAnI meM eka magaramaccha rahatA thA / usane socA ki yaha paMDita abhimAnI, aparipakva aura Apabar3AI karanevAlA hai| usane paMDita ko bodhapATha denA cAhA ! eka dina nadI ke kinAre se paMDita ke Asana taka magaramaccha ne motI bikhera diye / paMDita ne motI dekhe ! ve motI ikaTThe karane lage / motI ikaTThe karate-karate ve kinAre taka pahu~ca gye| kinAre para magaramaccha unakA intajAra hI kara rahA thA / usane paMDitajI ko praNAma kiyA aura kahA 'kRpAvaMta, maiM to jalacara prANI hU~, Apake Asana taka A nahIM sakatA / isalie motI DAlakara Apako yahA~ taka bulAyA / Apake darzana kara dhanya huA / : magaramaccha kI saMpannatA, udAratA aura zraddhA dekhakara kautsya paMDita khuza hue / AzIrvAda diye / magaramaccha ne kahA : 'gurudeva, Apa karuNAnidhAna haiM / merI eka manokAmanA triveNIsnAna karane kI hai| maiMne mArga dekhA nahIM hai / kyA Apa mujhe mArga dikhAyeMge ? Apa merI pITha para baiTha jAyeM, Apa mArga batAte jAyeMge, maiM tairatA jAU~gA / triveNI saMgama pahu~cakara, mere pAsa jo sahasra maNiyoM kA hAra hai, vaha Apako hI denA hai / 1 magaramaccha kI bAta sunakara paMDitajI ke mu~ha meM pAnI A gayA ! sahasra maNiyoM ke hAra kI bAta sunakara ve lalacA gaye / lobha ke pahale hI AkramaNa meM paMDita kA pAMDitya havA meM ur3a gayA ! ve magaramaccha kI pITha para baiTha gaye / magaramaccha nadI ke pravAha meM tairane lagA / magaramaccha ne paMDita ko kahA : paMDitajI, Apa rojAnA 'lobha se vinAza kA upadeza dete haiM, vaha upadeza Apa bhUla gaye na ?' usane paMDita ko pAnI meM DAla diyA aura avilaMba unako udarastha kara gayA / nigala gayA ! 186 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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viSayalAlasA : mRgatRSNA : 1 graMthakAra ne saMsAra ko vIrAna ujjar3a jaMgala kI upamA dI hai| isako jaMgala kahane ke bajAya registAna kahanA jyAdA ucita hogA / registAna meM sUrya tapatA hai, taba mRgajala dikhAI detA hai / dUra-dUra mRgoM ko pAnI se bharA sarovara dikhatA hai / vaha pAnI pIne, tRSAtura mRga daur3ate haiM / paraMtu vahA~ pAnI kI jagaha garamagarama reta milatI hai / punaH ve mRga dUra-dUra dekhate haiM, pAnI kA sarovara dikhatA hai... pAnI pIne udhara daur3ate haiM, para pAnI nahIM milatA hai, garama-garama reta milatI hai / yaha silasilA dinabhara calatA rahatA hai, mRga bhaTakate rahate haiM, zAma ko ve mara jAte haiM / viSayatRSNA mRgajala jaisI hai| jIvAtmAe~ janma se mRtyu taka viSayatRSNA se bhava- registAna meM bhaTakate rahate haiM / dUra se viSayoM meM sukha dikhAI detA hai / viSaya milane para sukha nahIM, paraMtu duHkha milatA hai / isa viSaya meM maiM Apako eka kahAnI, jo ki bahuta romAMcaka hai, sunAkara vyAkhyAna samApta karU~gA / abhayakumAra aura cAra munivara : magadhasamrATa zreNika ke putra aura mahAmaMtrI the abhayakumAra / abhayakumAra ko bhagavAn mahAvIrasvAmI ke Upara dRr3ha zraddhA thI / magadhadeza ke mahAmaMtrI hone para bhI ve apanA AtmakalyANa nahIM bhUlate the / anekavidha pravRttiyA~ hone para bhI, samaya nikAla kara, nivRtta hokara ve dharmadhyAna karate rahate the / unako saMsAratyAgI aura virAgI munivaroM ke prati AMtara- prema hotA thaa| kabhI-kabhI pauSadhavrata lekara, ve rAtabhara munivRMda ke sAtha rahate the aura pavitra vAtAvaraNa kA Ananda pA the / unako pavitra munijIvana pasaMda thA aura unakA dhyeya bhI munijIvana thA / - eka dina kI bAta hai / abhayakumAra ne rAtri - pauSadha kA vrata liyaa| pauSadhazAlA meM zrI susthitasUrijI aneka munivaroM ke sAtha birAjamAna the| rAtri kA eka prahara vyatIta hone para, sabhI munivara nidrAdhIna hue, taba abhayakumAra ne dharmadhyAna zurU kiyA / itane meM rAtri kI nirava zAnti kA bhaMga karatA huA bhayaM aisA zabda sunAyI diyaa| abhayakumAra ne jisa tarapha se AvAja AyI thI, usa tarapha dekhA / upAzraya meM praveza karate hue eka munirAja ke mukha se yaha zabda nikalA thA / abhayakumAra khar3e hue aura munirAja ko vinaya se pUchA : 'he pUjya, upAzraya meM praveza karate samaya to 'nisihI' bolanA hotA hai, Apa 'bhayaM' bole, bhagavaMta, yahA~ upAzraya meM Apako kisa bAta kA bhaya hai ?' saMsAra bhAvanA 187

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munirAja ko kucha saMkoca huaa| unhoMne kahA : maMtrIzvara, acAnaka hI mere mu~ha se bhayaM zabda nikala gayA ! yahA~ upAzraya meM koI bhaya nahIM hai| yaha to merI pUrvAvasthA kI, gRhasthAvasthA kI eka ghaTanA smRtipatha meM AyI... aura mere mu~ha se bhayaM zabda nikala gayA / he munivara, ApakI pUrvAvasthA kI satya ghaTanA kyA Apa mujhe sunAyeMge ? munirAja ne kahA : avazya sunAU~gA / hama upAzraya ke bAhya bhAga meM baiThe ! zivamuni aura abhayakumAra upAzraya ke ekAMta bhAga meM jAkara baiThe / nirava zAMti thii| AtmAoM kI pavitratA thI, prasannatA thii| svaccha AkAza thaa| caMdra kI cA~danI pRthvI para barasa rahI thii| munirAja ne apane jIvana kI romAMcaka kathA sunAnA zurU kiyaa| ___ maMtrIzvara, merA janma ujjayinI nagarI meM huA thA / hama do bhAI the / ziva aura datta / hamArA parivAra nirdhana thA / hama donoM bhAI bar3e hue / nirdhanatA kA, daridratA kA duHkha hamase sahA nahIM gayA / hamane dhanArjana ke lie dUsare dezapradeza meM jAne kA nirNaya kiyA / hama saurASTra meM pahu~ce / vahA~ hamane bahuta dhana kamAyA / ghara vApasa jAne ko taiyAra hue / hamane sabhI rupayoM kA javAhirAta kharIda liyA / yAnI hIrA, ratna, motI vagairaha le liyA aura eka pole bAMsa meM bhara diyA / bAMsa ko lakar3I kI taraha uThAkara hamane cala diyA / bAMsa bhArI ho gayA thaa| isalie kabhI maiM uThAtA, kabhI merA bhAI datta uThAtA / jaba maiM bAMsa uThAtA taba mere mana meM eka pApavicAra A jAtA thA - yadi maiM isa datta ko mAra DAlU~ to saMpUrNa dhana merA ho jAyaM ! hama calate rahe / rAste meM pAnI kA sarovara AyA / hamane sarovara kA pAnI piyA aura snAna bhI kara liyA / vahA~ punaH mujhe vaha duSTa vicAra AyA - isa sarovara meM datta ko Drabo , aura maiM akelA saMpatti kA mAlika bana jAU~ ! maiM vihvala bana gayA, merA mana caMcala ho gyaa| maiMne mere choTe bhAI datta kI ora dekhA / usakA nirdoSa ceharA dekhate hI mere duSTa vicAra ke prati ghora ghRNA paidA ho gaI / 'are, isa tuccha dhana ke lobha se mere choTe bhaiyA ko maiM mAra DAlU~ kyA ? nahIM, nahIM, isa dhana kI vajaha se hI mujhe aisA adhama-pApavicAra AtA hai... isalie yaha dhana hI nahIM cAhie !' maiMne vaha bAMsa usa sarovara meM pheMka diyA / merA bhAI datta tatkAla khar3A ho gayA... aura bolA : are bhAI, tumane yaha kyA kara diyA ? pUrA dhana pAnI meM DAla diyA ?' | 188 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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maiMne dila kholakara sArI bAta kaha dI / usane merI bAta sunane ke bAda kahA : jaba maiM vaha bAMsa uThAkara calatA thA taba mere mana meM bhI aisA hI pApavicAra AtA thA / tumane acchA kiyaa| artha hI anartha kA mUla hotA hai ! hama loga punaH nirdhana ho gaye / paraMtu aba hameM nirdhanatA kA duHkha nahIM thA / kyoM ki svecchA se saMpatti kA tyAga karane para duHkha nahIM hotA hai / maMtrIzvara, hama donoM bhAI ghara pahu~ce / dUsarI ora eka ajIba sI ghaTanA ghttii| jisa bAMsa ko hamane sarovara meM pheMka diyA thA, usa bAMsa ko eka magaramaccha nigala gayA thA / vaha magaramaccha, eka macchImAra kI jAla meM phaMsa gayA aura macchImAra usako apane ghara le gyaa| ___ hama loga mAMsAhArI the / hamAre ghara para mehamAna Aye the / merI bahana bhojana ke lie usa macchImAra ke ghara se usI magaramaccha ko kharIda kara le AyI, ki jo bAMsa kI lakar3I nigala gayA thA ! mehamAna jyAdA the, isalie bahana bar3A magaramaccha kharIda kara le AyI thii| usane usa magaramaccha ko cIra DAlA / peTa meM se vaha bAMsa nikalA ! usane bAMsa ko kholA / bhItara se ratna, maNI vagairaha nikala Aye / bahana atyaMta harSita ho gaI / hamArI mA~ ne pUchA : beTI, kyA hai bAMsa meM ? kyoM itanI khuza ho gaI? bahana ne bAMsa ko chapA diyA aura bolI : kucha nahIM hai mA~ !' paraMtu mA~ usake pAsa jAne lagI, taba bahana ne dhana ke lobha se prerita hokara, pAsa meM jo mUzala par3A thA, vaha uThAkara mA~ ko mAra diyA / mA~ usI samaya mara gaI / usI samaya hama donoM bhAI ghara meM Aye | bahana ghabarA gii| vaha khar3I ho gii| usake vastra meM se vaha bAMsa nIce gira pdd'aa| aho, yaha to vahI polA bAMsa hai, jisameM hamane rala bhare the, bAda meM hamArI buddhi bigar3I thI aura hamane pAnI meM pheMka diyA thA ! yaha bAMsa yahA~ kaise A gayA ? hamane mA~ kA mRta deha dekhA, bahana ko dekhA...'artha hI anartha kA mUla hai / hameM saMsAra ke prati vairAgya ho gyaa| mA~ kA agnisaMskAra kara, ghara bahana ko soMpakara, hama donoM bhAiyoM ne AcAryadeva ke pAsa cAritradharma svIkAra kara liyA / maMtrIzvara, abhI upAzraya meM praveza karate samaya, vaha dRzya - bahana mA~ ko mUzala mAratI hai - sAmane A gayA aura mu~ha se 'bhayaM' zabda nikala gayA / __ munirAja kI vyathApUrNa kathA sunakara abhayakumAra vyathita ho gaye / viSayatRSNA kI, dhanalAlasA kI bhayAnakatA socate-socate ve apanI jagaha cale gaye / ve / saMsAra bhAvanA 189 /

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nidrAdhIna hone kA socate the, tabhI dUsarI ghaTanA vahA~ ghaTatI hai / patnI kA vizvAsaghAta : 'mahAbhayaM : mahAmaMtrI ne 'mahAbhayam' zabda sunaa| unhoMne upAzraya ke dvAra para dekhA / eka munirAja dvAra meM praveza kara rahe the, unake mu~ha se yaha zabda nikalA thA / abhayakumAra khar3e hue, munirAja ke pAsa gaye, dhIre se pUchA : hai pUjya, Apa 'mahAbhayam' kyoM bole ? Apane yahA~ koI bhaya dekhA kyA ?' munirAja ne kahA : 'maMtrI zvara, mere gRhastha jIvana kI eka mahAbhayaMkara ghaTanA yAda A gaI aura sahasA mere mu~ha se 'mahAbhayam' zabda nikala gayA / mahAmaMtrI ne pUchA : kRpAvaMta, aisI kaisI ghaTanA ghaTI Apake jIvana meM ? yadi Apake svAdhyAya meM vighna nahIM hotA ho to kahane kI kRpA kareM / ' munIzvara aura maMtrI zvara, upAzraya ke eka ekAnta bhAga meM jAkara baitthe| munirAja ne svastha banakara apanI vyathApUrNa kathA zurU kii| maiM caMpAnagarI meM rahatA thA / merA nAma thA suvrata / mere pAsa apAra sukha-samRddhi thI / paraMtu eka rAtri meM merA bhAgyacakra badala gayA / merI samRddhi hI mere liye duHkharUpa bana gaI / DAkuoM ne merI havelI meM DAkA DAlA / maiM havelI meM chUpa gayA / merI patnI ne DAkuoM ko kahA: 'tumheM kyA cAhie ? kaMcana yA kAminI ? yadi tumheM strI cAhie to maiM tumhAre sAtha Ane ko taiyAra hU~ / ' maiMne merI patnI ke zabda sune / mujhe satya nahIM lagA / paraMtu saca hI merI patnI DAkuoM ke sAtha calI gaI / DAkuoM ne merI patnI pallIpati ko sauMpa dI / pallIpati ne usako apanI patnI banA lI ! DAkuoM ke jAne ke bAda, mere mitra mere ghara Aye / unako mAlUma huA ki 'DAku merI patnI ko uThAkara le gaye haiM / unhoMne mujhe Agraha kiyA ki maiM usako mukta karA kara le AU~ / hAlA~ki merA mana nahIM mAnatA thA, phira bhI maiM mitroM ke Agraha se DAkuoM ke aDDe kI ora cala pdd'aa| vahA~ maiMne eka vRddhA kI jhoMpar3I dekhI / maiM usakI jhoMpar3I meM gayA / vRddhA ko bahuta dhana dekara saMtuSTa kiyA / maiMne usako kahA : pallIpati ke ghara meM merI patnI rahatI hai, usake pAsa jAkara tuma mere Agamana ke samAcAra do / vRddhA jAkara AyI aura bolI : 'usane kahA hai ki Aja rAtri meM tuma usake ghara cale jaanaa| kyoMki Aja rAtri meM pallIpati bAhara jAnevAlA hai / ' maiMne pUchA : vaha kahA~ rahatI hai ? vRddhA ne kahA : 'sAmane..... 190 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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dUra jo tAlavRkSa dikhatA hai na ? usa vRkSa ke nIce usakA ghara hai / ' merA mana Azvasta huA / patnI kI ora kucha vizvAsa paidA huA / sUryAsta hone para maiM vRddhA kI jhoMpar3I se nikalA / tAlavRkSa ke nIce ghara meM dIpaka jala rahA thA / maiM udhara pahu~ca gayA / vaha ghara ke dvAra para hI khar3I thI / usane izAre se merA svAgata kiyA / maiMne jhoMpar3I meM praveza kiyaa| mere mana meM vicAra AyA : 'kahA~, merI bhavya havelI aura kahA~ yaha jhoMpar3I ? havelI chor3akara yaha aurata kyoM isa jhoMpar3I meM AyI hogI ? merI patnI ne merA hAtha pakar3A aura mujhe khaTiyA para biThAyA / pAnI se mere paira dhone lagI / usakI A~khoM meM se azrudhArA bahane lagI / mujhe lagA ki usako apane pApa kA pazcAttApa ho rahA hai / itane meM jhoMpar3I ke dvAra para pallIpati Akara khar3A rhaa| maiM ghabarAyA / merI patnI ne mujhe usI khaTiyA ke nIce chipA diyA / usane pallIpati ko usI khaTiye ke Upara biThAyA / garama pAnI se usake paira dhone lagI / usane pallIpati ko kahA : he nAtha, merA pati yadi yahA~ Aye to Apa kyA kareM ?' usane kahA : 'usako dhana dU~, vastra dU~ aura usakI patnI dekara bidA dU~ !' pallIpati kI bAta, merI patnI ko pasaMda nahIM AyI, usane roSa kiyA / pallIpati ne ha~sakara kahA : 'priye, maiMne to majAka meM bolA, vAstava meM yadi terA pati yahA~ Aye to usako bA~dhakara usakI piTAI kara duuN| merI patnI khuza ho gaI / vaha bolI : 'merA pati isa khaTiye ke nIce hI hai !' pallIpati ne mujhe pakar3A, eka vRkSa ke sAtha bA~dhA aura mujhe maaraa| jhoMpar3I ke dvAra khulle rakhakara, pallIpati merI patnI ke sAtha so gayA / vahA~ kucha dera ke bAda eka kuttA AyA / usane mere paira ke baMdhana kA diye / maiM mukta ho gyaa| maiM jhoMpar3I meM gayA / khaTiye ke pAsa talavAra par3I thI, maiMne uThA lI / merI patnI ko jagAyA, talavAra batAyI aura izAre se calane ko kaha diyA / vaha Age aura maiM pIche ! hama calate rahe / rAtri pUrNa ho gaI / hama donoM eka bAMsa ke vRkSoM kI jAla meM chipa gaye / paraMtu kucha samaya meM hI pallIpati unake sAthiyoM ke sAtha vahA~ A pahu~cA / maiM bhayabhIta ho gayA / merI patnI, pallIpati ke pIche jAkara khar3I raha gaI / pallIpati ne mujhase talavAra chIna lI aura mujha para prahAra kara diyaa| maiM bhUmi para gira par3A / / jaba maiM jagA, to mere zarIra para talavAra ke aneka prahAra hue the| mujhe bahuta jyAdA darda ho rahA thA / maiM jarA bhI halacala karane meM samartha nahIM thA / mujhe merI saMsAra bhAvanA 191

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vivazatA para ronA A gyaa| merI A~khoM meM se A~sU bahane lage / madhyAhna kA samaya huaa| eka bar3A baMdara chAyA khojatA huA mere pAsa aayaa| vaha mujhe ekaTaka dekhatA rahA aura bhUmi para gira pdd'aa| jaba usakI mUrcchA dUra huI, vaha khar3A huA aura jaMgala meM calA gayA / vaha thor3I dera meM hI do prakAra kI vanaspati lekara AyA aura mere zarIra para vaha vanaspati lagA dI / mere ghAva bhara gaye / bAda meM vaha baMdara jamIna para kucha likhane lagA / usane likhA thA 'maiM tere hI gA~va kA siddhakarmA nAma ke vaidya kA putra thA / paraMtu ArtadhyAna meM marakara baMdara huA | tujhe dekhakara mujhe pUrvajanma kI smRti ho AyI hai / pUrvajanma ke auSadhIjJAna se yaha vanaspati le AyA hU~ aura tujhe svastha kiyA hai| aba tujhe merA eka kAma karanA hai / maiMne kahA : 'maiM terA kAma karU~gA / baMdara ne kahA : 'merI bAta suna / eka baliSTha baMdara ne mujhe baMdarayUtha se nikAla diyA hai / use mArakara, mujhe usa baMdarayUtha kA nAyaka banA de| mere upakAra kA badalA isa prakAra mujhe denA hai / maiMne vaisA hI kiyA / usa baMdara ko mArakara, mere upakArI baMdara ko nAyaka banA diyA / punaH maiM vaira kA badalA lene, pallIpati ke pAsa gayA / rAtri ke samaya usakI talavAra se usakA vadha kara diyA aura bevaphA patnI ko lekara ghara AyA / paraMtu merA mana saMsAra ke prati virakta bana gayA thaa| maiMne gurudeva ke pAsa jAkara cAritradharma kA svIkAra kara liyA / | he maMtrIzvara, isa ghaTanA se mere mu~ha se 'mahAbhayam' zabda nikala gayA thA ! abhayakumAra ekAgratA se suvrata munivara kI AtmakathA suna rahe the / saMsAra kI bhayAnakatA ke vicAra meM DUba gaye the / unhoMne munirAja ko kahA: munirAja, Apane cAritradharma kA mArga lekara vAstava meM AtmA ko bacA lI hai| jIvana ko pAvana banA diyA hai aura paraloka ko sukhamaya kara diyA hai !' I abhayakumAra ne munirAja ko vaMdanA kI aura vaha apane sthAna para gaye / dharmadhyAna meM lIna bane / dhanada munivara : 'atibhayam' : rAtri kA tIsarA prahara zurU ho gayA thA / mahAmaMtrI ke kAna para zabda AyA : 'atibhayam !' mahAmaMtrI kA dharmadhyAna bhaMga huA / unhoMne upAzraya ke dvAra meM praveza karate munirAja ko dekhaa| ve uThakara munirAja ke pAsa gaye aura pUchA : 192 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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he pUjya, atibhayam' zabda kyA Apake mukha se nikalA ?' munirAja ne kahA : hA~, maMtrIzvara, mere mukha se nikala gyaa| mahAmaMtrI ne kahA : 'prabho, zrI jinadharma kI zaraNa meM rahe hue muni ko kisakA ati bhaya ? munirAja to nirbhaya hote haiM | munirAja ne kahA : ___ maMtrIzvara, jinadharma kI zaraNa meM Ane ke bAda AtmA nirbhaya hI hotI hai / paraMtu mere gRhastha jIvana kI eka ati bhayAnaka ghaTanA smRti meM AyI aura 'atibhayam' zabda mere mu~ha se nikala gayA / ___ mahAmaMtrI ne kahA : gurudeva, aisI kauna-sI ghaTanA Apake jIvana meM ghaTI ? yadi Apa kahane kI kRpA kareMge to merI vairAgyabhAvanA dRr3ha hogii| ___ do munivaroM kI vyathApUrNa jIvanakathA sunakara abhayakumAra kA vairAgyabhAva bar3ha hI rahA thA / Aja kI rAta, mAno ki aisI jIvanakathA sunane kI hI rAta thii| abhayakumAra kI tattvadRSTi, munivaroM kI jIvanakathA meM saMsAra kI vAstavikatA kA darzana karatI thI / mokSamArga kI yathArthatA kA darzana karatI thii| __dhanada munivara ke caraNoM meM abhayakumAra vinaya se baiTha gaye / dhanadamuni ne apane jIvana kI... atItakAla kI smRti ko jhakajhorA / unhoMne kahA : ujjayinI nagarI ke pAsa eka gA~va hai / usa gA~va meM priya zreSThI mere pitA aura gaNasaMdarI merI mAtA / merA nAma dhanada / mere mAtA-pitA ne mujhe acche saMskAra diye / jaba maiM yauvana meM AyA, taba mere pitA ne ujjayinI kI eka kanyA ke sAtha merI zAdI kara dii| zAdI ke kucha dinoM ke bAda, merI patnI usake pitRgRha gaI thI / usako lene maiM paidala hI ujjayinI kI ora calA / saMdhyA kA samaya thA / mere pAsa talavAra thii| ujjayinI meM praveza karane kA mArga, smazAna ke pAsa se gujaratA thA / maiM jaba smazAna ke pAsa pahuMcA, to maine vahA~ eka bhayAnaka dRzya dekhA / 'kyA dekhA gurudeva ?' mahAmaMtrI bIca meM bola uThe / vahA~ eka manuSya ko sUlI para car3hAyA huA thA / vaha mara gayA thaa| usake pAsa eka aurata baiThI thI aura karuNa svara se ro rahI thii| maiM vahA~ khar3A raha gayA / mujhe usa strI ke Upara dayA A gaI / maiMne pUchA : aurata, tU kyoM rotI hai ?' usane kahA : 'maiM duHkhI huuN| maiMne pachA : 'tujhe kisa bAta kA duHkha hai ?' vaha bolI : tujhe kahakara kyA karanA ? jo puruSa merA duHkha dUra kara sake, use kahanA ucita hai| maiMne kahA : 'maiM terA duHkha dUra karU~gA / usa strI ne kahA : | saMsAra bhAvanA 193 |

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1 'isa sUlI para jo puruSa hai, vaha merA pati hai / rAjA ne usake aparAdha kI zikSA dI hai| abhI vaha marA nahIM hai / merI icchA mere hAthoM se usako bhojana karAne kI hai / tUM yadi utanI U~cAI para mujhe car3hA deM to maiM usako bhojana karA sakU~ / maiMne kahA : ThIka hai, tUM mere kaMdhe para car3ha jA / ' usane kahA : 'jaba taka maiM usako bhojana karA na lU~ taba taka tujhe Upara nahIM dekhane kA / maiM lajjAzIla nArI hU~ / ' maiMne kahA : 'ThIka hai, maiM Upara nahIM dekhU~gA / vaha aurata mere kaMdhe ke Upara car3ha gii| thor3e samaya ke bAda mere zarIra para kucha bUMde girane lagI / aMdherA thA, isalie mujhe khayAla nahIM AyA ki ve bUMde kisakI thI / pAnI kI bUMda samajhakara maiMne Upara nahIM dekhA / paraMtu jaba jyAdA bUMde girane lagI... mujhe khUna kI bA~sa Ane lagI / maiMne Upara dekhA... maiM kA~pane lagA / vaha aurata, usa mRta puruSa ke zarIra kA mAMsa khA rahI thI / maiM usI samaya usa aurata ko jamIna para pachAr3akara bhaagaa| paraMtu maiM merI talavAra lenA bhUla gayA / vaha strI merI talavAra lekara mere pIche daudd'ii| maiM daur3atA huA nagara ke daravAje meM praveza karane jAtA hU~, merA eka paira daravAje ke bAhara thA, usI samaya usa strI ne merA eka paira kATa diyA aura paira lekara vaha bhAga gaI / mujhe atyaMta vedanA ho rahI thI / maiM daravAje ke bhItara A gayA thA / vahA~ para hI baiTha gayA / daravAje ke bhItara durgarakSikA devI kA maMdira thaa| maiM dhIredhIre maMdira meM gayA aura karuNa svara se devI ke sAmane vilApa karane lagA / devI pragaTa huI aura vAtsalya se mujhe kahA: vatsa, jo manuSya nagara ke bhItara hotA hai usakI rakSA maiM kara sakatI huuN| terA eka paira durga ke bAhara raha gayA thA, isalie kaTa gayA / paraMtu tU ciMtA mata kara / maiM terA paira acchA kara detA hU~ / ' devI ne merA paira acchA kara diyA aura adRzya ho gii| devI ko maiMne vaMdanA kI aura maiM mere sasurAla pahu~cA / ghara baMda thA / paraMtu bhItara jo vArtAlApa ho rahA thA, vaha maiM sunane lagA / merI sAsa aura merI patnI Apasa meM bAta karatI thI / merI sAsa bola rahI thI : 'beTI, Aja yaha mAMsa bahuta svAdiSTa lagatA hai, kyA kAraNa hai ?' lar3akI bolI : 'mA~, yaha mAMsa tere jamAI ke paira kA hai / itanA kaha kara usane smazAna meM jo ghaTanA banI thI vaha sunAyI aura merA paira kaise kATA, vaha bhI sunAyA / 1 maMtrI zvara, maiM to stabdha ho gayA / kaisI krUra... bhayaMkara aurata ? maiM vahA~ se usI zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 194

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samaya vApasa lauTa gayA, mere ghara pahu~cA / merA mana saMsAra ke vaiSayika sukhoM se udvigna ho gayA / maiM gurudeva ke pAsa calA gayA aura cAritra kA svIkAra kara liyA / he mahAmaMtrI, yaha ghaTanA merI smRti meM ubhara AyI aura mere mu~ha se 'atibhayam' zabda nikala gayA / abhayakumAra, munirAja kI AtmakathA sunakara stabdha ho gaye / aisI bhayaMkara ghaTanA saMsAra meM ghaTa sakatI hai / isa vicAra ne unake mana ko vairAgya se bhara diyaa| unhoMne munirAja ko kahA : hai pUjya, saca hI bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ne saMsAra kI jo asAratA batAyI hai, vaha yathArtha hai / jinavacana satya hai| Apane saMsAra kA tyAga kara saMyama grahaNa kiyA, uttama kArya kiyA / mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA kara lenA yahI saMsAra meM sArabhUta tattva hai| cauthA prahara zurU ho rahA thaa| cauthI ghaTanA kauna-sI ghaTatI hai, yaha bAta kala batAU~gA / Aja basa, itanA hI / / saMsAra bhAvanA 195 |

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* zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 18 saMsAra bhAvanA -- manuSyabhava ke duHkha eka gujarAtI kAvya : naTavo * saMsAra kI cAra gati meM paribhramaNa * bhavitavyatA * anantakAla, ananta paribhramaNa anAdisaMsAra meM naraka ke duHkha saMkalanA caunaka muni kI AtmakathA 'bhayAdbhayam' --- 2 10 prakAra kI kSetravedanAe~ dUsare prakAra kI 10 vedanAe~ parasparakRta vedanAe~ paramAdhAmI - devakRta vedanAe~

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galatyekA cintA bhavati punaranyA tadadhikA manovAkkAyehA vikRtiratiroSAttarajasaH / vipadgartAvarte jhaTiti patayAloH pratipadaM / na jantoH saMsAre bhavati kathamapyativiratiH // 2 // upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI zAntasudhArasa graMtha meM tIsarI saMsArabhAvanA kA varNana karate hue kahate haiM : isa saMsAra meM manuSya kI eka ciMtA dUra hotI hai vahA~ usase bar3ha-car3hakara dUsarI ciMtA paidA ho jAtI hai / mana, vacana aura kAyA meM niraMtara vikAra utpanna hote haiN| tamoguNa aura rajoguNa ke prabhAva se kadama-kadama para ApattiyoM kI gartA meM girate-lur3hakate jIvoM ke duHkhoM kA aMta kisa taraha hogA?' caunaka muni kI AtmakathA : bhyaadbhym| upAdhyAyajI ne isa zloka meM kahA hai : 1. saMsAra meM manuSya ko satata ciMtAe~ rahatI haiM / 2. mana-vacana-kAyA meM niraMtara vikAra utpanna hote haiM, aura 3. kadamakadama para ApattiyA~ AtI rahatI haiM / ye tInoM bAteM isa kahAnI ke mAdhyama se Apa samajhane kA prayatna kareM / mahAmaMtrI abhayakumAra aura cAra munivaroM kI yaha kahAnI, saMsAra kI asAratA-nirguNatA aura duHkhapUrNatA acchI taraha samajhAtI hai| dhanadamunivara kI AtmakathA sunakara mahAmaMtrI gahana vicAra meM DUba gye| rAtri kI nirava zAMti, pauSadhazAlA kA pavitra vAtAvaraNa aura munivaroM kI vairAgyapUrNa jIvanakathAe~ ! abhayakumAra para gaharA asara huaa| saMsAra meM karmoM ke dAruNa vipAkoM ko ve socane lage / cauthA prahara zurU huA thaa| punaH eka zabda - bhayAdbhayam unake kAnoM para AyA / bhayoM kA bhI bhaya ! mahAmaMtrI ne upAzraya ke dvAra para dekhA / dvAra para eka munirAja khar3e the| mahAmaMtrI khar3e hue aura munirAja ke pAsa gaye / pachA : he pUjya, kyA bhayAdbhayam zabda Apake mu~ha se nikalA ?' munirAja ne kahA : hA~ mahAmaMtrI, bhayAdbhayam zabda mere mu~ha se nikala gayA.... mahAmaMtrI ne kahA : kaise ? Apako kaisA bhaya ? Apa to indra jaise nirbhaya ho / saMsAra ke sabhI jIvoM ke prati maitrIbhAva rakhanevAle munivara ko bhaya kaisA ?' maMtrIzvara, sahI bAta hai ApakI, paraMtu mere gRhasthajIvana kI eka ati bhayAnaka ghaTanA mujhe yAda A gaI, aura mere mu~ha se yaha zabda nikala gayA / mahAmaMtrI ne kahA : he pUjya, aisI kauna-sI ghaTanA ghaTI thI, Apake jIvana / saMsAra bhAvanA 197 /

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meM ? yadi samaya ho to mujhe sunAne kI kRpA kareM, jisase merA bhavavairAgya tIvra bana sakeM / munivara aura maMtrIzvara upAzraya ke ekAnta bhAga meM jAkara baiThe aura munivara ne apanI AtmakathA zurU kii| __ 'merA janma ujjayinI nagarI meM huA thaa| mere pitA dhanadatta, ati dhanavAna the / merA nAma caunaka thaa| maiM jaba yauvana meM AyA, mere pitAjI ne zrImati nAmakI kanyA ke sAtha merI zAdI kara dI / zrImati ke sAtha merA jIvanakAla sukhamaya vyatIta hotA thA / zrImati garbhavatI huI / usane mujhase kahA : he nAtha, mujhe mRga kA mAMsa khAne kI icchA paidA huI hai| Apa mRga kA mAMsa lAkara mujhe deM, anyathA merI akAla mRtyu ho jaayegii| maiMne usako pUchA : mujhe mRga kahA~ milegA ? usane kahA : 'Apa rAjagRhI nagarI meM jAyeM, vahA~ ke rAjA zreNika ke pAsa mRga __ maiM merI patnI kA manoratha pUrNa karane ke lie hAtha meM talavAra lekara rAjagRhI kI ora cala par3A / patnI kI ora mujhe ati rAga thaa| isalie mere mana meM bahuta ullAsa thA / maiM thor3e dinoM meM hI rAjagRhI pahu~ca gayA / maiM bAhya udyAna meM gyaa| vahA~ rAjagRhI kI vezyAe~ AnaMda-pramoda karane AI thiiN| maiM eka vRkSa ke nIce khar3A rahA / udyAna kI zItala havA ne aura vezyAoM kI krIr3A ne merI thakAna dUra kara dI / itane meM acAnaka sarovara ke pAsa vezyAoM ne zora macA diyA / nagarI kI prasiddha vezyA magadhasenA sarovara meM gira gaI thI / maiM sarovara kI ora daur3A, sarovara meM kUda pdd'aa| mujhe tairanA AtA thA / maiM magadhasenA ko uThAkara sarovara ke kinAre para A gayA / __ magadhasenA mujha para prasanna ho gaI / usane mujhe kahA : he pravAsI, tumane mujhe bacA liyA hai, isalie tuma mere upakArI ho / Aja tuma mere sAtha raho aura isa udyAna meM mere sAtha AnaMda-pramoda karo / maiM magadhasenA kI bAta TAla nahIM sakA / eka dina usake sAtha vahA~ rahA / usane mujhe rAjagRhI Ane kA prayojana pUchA / maiMne sArI bAta batA dI / usane mujhe kahA : 'he zreSThiputra, Apa sarala haiM / Apa samajha nahIM pAye, ApakI patnI durAcAriNI hai / mRga-mAMsa ke bahAne se Apako dUra bheja diyA hai|' ___ maiM merI patnI ke prati ati rAgI thA, merA usa para ati vizvAsa thA, isalie maiMne magadhasenA kI bAta nahIM maanii| maiMne magadhasenA ko samajhAne kA prayatna kiyA ki merI patnI saMpUrNa pativratA hai / paraMtu magadhasenA mAnane ko taiyAra nahIM thii| zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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usane mujhe usakI bhavya havelI meM rakhA / eka dina usake sAtha ratha meM baiThakara nagara kI ora jA rahA thA, vahA~ eka hAthI daur3atA huA sAmane aayaa| hAthI rAjA zreNika kA thA / vaha unmatta bana gayA thaa| maiM ratha meM se nIce utara gayA / maiM hAthI ko vaza karane kI vidyA jAnatA thaa| maiMne tarta hI hAthI ko vaza kara liyA / nagarajanoM ne merI bahuta prazaMsA kI / magadhasenA bahuta prasanna huI / hama havelI para pahu~ce / magadhasenA ne mujhe prema se bhojana karAyA aura kahA : Aja maiM mahArAjA zreNika ke rAjadarabAra meM nRtya karane jAnevAlI hU~, Apa sAtha caloge na ? vahA~ bahuta loga dekhane aayeNge|' maine kahA : 'he priye, Aja mujhe bahuta nIMda A rahI hai, isalie maiM nahIM aauuNgaa| magadhasenA rAjasabhA meM calI gii| usake jAne ke bAda mujhe magamAMsa yAda AyA / merI patnI yAda AI / merA mana vyathita-vihvala bana gyaa| patnI kI icchA pUrNa karane kI icchA prabala ho gaI / maiM uThA aura rAjamahala kI ora cala pdd'aa| maiM pahale rAjasabhA meM gayA / vahA~ magadhasenA kA nRtya cala rahA thA / loga nRtya dekhane meM lIna the / maiM guptarUpa se rAjamahala meM ghusa gayA / maiMne mRgamAMsa le liyA aura gupta mArga se nikalane lagA ki dvArarakSakoM ne mujhe pakar3a liyaa| dvArarakSaka mujhe lekara rAjasabhA meM Aye / mere viSaya meM rAjA ko zikAyata kii| rAjA nRtya dekhane meM tallIna thA, usane koI pratyuttara nahIM diyA / maiM vaise hI khar3A rahA ki magadhasenA kI dRSTi mujha para gire / nRtya pUrNa hone para rAjA ne magadhasenA ko tIna vacana mA~gane ko kahA / usa samaya magadhasenA ne mere sAmane dRSTi karate hue kahA : are, mRgamAMsa kA abhilASI aura mere prANoM kI rakSA karanevAlA merA prANanAtha kahA~ hai ?' maiM bolA : 'he priye, maiM yahA~ hI khar3A hU~ | usI samaya magadhasenA ne rAjA ko namana kara kahA : 'he naranAtha, Apane mujhe tIna vacana mA~gane ko kahA hai, to maiM pahalA vacana yaha mA~gatI hU~ ki isa mRgamAMsa kI corI karanevAle aparAdhI ko mukta kara diyA jAyaM aura dUsarA vacana yaha mA~gatI hU~ ki vahI puruSa merA pati ho / rAjA ne magadhasenA ko donoM vacana diye / magadhasenA kA mana prasanna ho gayA, maiM bhI bahuta khuza huaa| hama donoM ghara para pahu~ce / bharapUra AnaMda-pramoda meM hamAre dina vyatIta hone lge| paraMtu eka dina mujhe merA ghara aura merI patnI yAda AI / maiMne magadhasenA ko kahA : yadi tU mujhe ijAjata deM, to maiM mere ghara jAnA saMsAra bhAvanA

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cAhatA hU~ / yahA~ Aye mujhe bahuta samaya bIta gayA hai / merI pativratA aurata merA intajAra karatI hogii| bolate-bolate merA hRdaya bhara AyA / magadhasenA ne mujhe kahA : 'prANanAtha, Apa bhale hI mAne ki ApakI patnI pativratA hai, paraMtu Apa strI kA hRdaya nahIM samajha sakate / phira bhI Apako jAnA hI hai to caleM. maiM bhI Apake sAtha calatI hU~ / mujhe usa aurata kA durAcaraNa Apako batAnA hai / maiMne usako mere sAtha calane kI anumati dI / vaha prasanna huI, rAjA kI anumati le AI / hamane bahuta dhana sAtha le liyA aura ujjayinI kI ora prayANa kara diyaa| - ujjayinI Ane ke bAda, hama nagarI ke bAhya udyAna meM rUke / rAtri ke samaya maiM akelA talavAra lekara mere ghara pahu~cA / bhAgya-yoga se ghara kA dvAra khulA huA thA / maiM dhIre se ghara meM gayA / vahA~ maiMne bhayaMkara dRzya dekhA / merI patnI eka puruSa ke sAtha soyI huI thii| mere krodha kI koI sImA nahIM rhii| maiMne usa puruSa ke gale para talavAra kA prahAra kara diyA aura usako yamaloka pahu~cA diyA / maiM ghara meM hI chupakara baiTha gayA thA / merI patnI jagI / usane apane premI ko marA huA dekhA / vaha zokAkula ho gii| paraMtu usane khar3e hokara usake yAra ke mRtadeha ko ghara ke pIche le jAkara, eka khaDDA khodakara, usameM gAr3a diyA / usake Upara vedikA banAI, gobara se lIpA aura ghara meM Akara so gii| _maiM ghara meM se nikalakara nagarI ke bAhara udyAna meM pahu~cA / maiMne magadhasenA ko sArI bAta batA dI / maiMne kahA : 'he priye, terI kahI huI bAta maiM nahIM mAnatA thA, paraMtu Aja maiMne usakA vyabhicAra pratyakSa dekhA / aba mujhe ghara nahIM jAnA hai, calo vApasa rAjagRhI cleN| subaha hamane rAjagRhI kI ora prayANa kara diyaa| hama rAjagRhI Aye / magadhasenA ke sAtha saMsArasukha bhogate hue kucha varSa vyatIta ho gaye / eka dina mere pitA kI bImArI ke samAcAra mile / maiM akelA hI ujjayinI gyaa| mere mAtA-pitA ke pAsa gyaa| unakI kuzalapRcchA kI / unako namana kara maiM merI patnI ke pAsa gayA / vaha dUsare ghara meM rahatI thI / merI patnI ne harSavibhora hokara merA svAgata kiyaa| mujhe palaMga para biThAkara usane pUchA : he nAtha, Apako vApasa lauTane meM itanA sArA samaya kaise laga gayA ?' maiMne kahA : 'tere lie mRgamAMsa lene maiM bhaTakatA rahA, paraMtu mRgamAMsa milA nahIM, kyA karU~ ? phira, tere prati apUrva sneha ke kAraNa vApasa ghara para AyA / vaha bolI : Apa kSemakuzala vApasa A gaye, vahI mere liye Ananda kI bAta hai| mAtA-pitA kI bImArI kI vajaha se mujhe vahA~ rahanA Avazyaka thaa| maiM dekhatA | 200 88888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888888 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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thA ki merI patnI, usake yAra kI samAdhi para rojAnA sarvaprathama naivedya car3hAkara bAda meM hI mujhe bhojana parosatI thI ! eka dina maiMne usako kahA : he priye, Aja mujhe ghevara khAne kI icchA huI hai, isalie ghevara banAnA / jaba taka maiM bhojana nahIM kara la~, taba taka aura, kisI ko ghevara denA nahIM / merI bAta sunakara vaha bolI : he prANanAtha, Apa aisA kyoM bolate ho ? Apase jyAdA mujhe kauna priya hai ? ghevara kA bhojana taiyAra ho gyaa| maiM bhojana karane baiThA / merI patnI ne pahalA hI ghevara yaha to jala gayA hai, aisA bolakara, chipAkara rakhe hue ghar3e meM DAla diyA / maiMne dekha liyA / mujhe krodha A gyaa| maiMne kahA : re duSTA, abhI bhI tU tere mare hue yAra ko bhUlI nahIM hai ?' __ merI patnI ko bhayaMkara gussA AyA / maiM vahA~ se bhAgA / vaha mere pIche daudd'ii| usake hAtha meM garma-garma ghI kI kaDhAI thii| usane mere zarIra para ghI DAla diyaa| merA zarIra jalane lgaa| mere mu~ha se tIvra cIkha nikala par3I / maiM mere pitAjI ke pAsa gayA / upacAra karavAye, mujhe ArAma huaa| merA mana virakta bana gayA thaa| hAlA~ki magadhasenA mujhe hRdaya se pyAra karatI thI, paraMtu mujhe saMsAra ke sabhI bhogasukhoM ke prati napharata ho gaI thI / maiMne cAritradharma svIkAra karane kA nirNaya kara liyaa| "he maMtrIzvara, maiM pUjya susthitAcAryajI ke pAsa pahu~cA / unhoMne mujhe cAritra diyA / mere pUrvajIvana kI yaha bAta yAda A jAne para mere mu~ha se bhayAdbhayam zabda nikala gayA / " __ abhayakumAra ko sacamuca, caunaka muni ke pUrvajIvana kI bAta duHkhadarda se bharI huI mAluma huI / unhoMne munirAja ko kahA : he mahAmuni, Apane cAritradharma kA svIkAra kara, mAnavajIvana ko saphala kara diyaa| bhISaNa bhavasAgara ko taira jAne ke lie cAritradharma hI jahAja hai| ___ eka rAta meM cAra-cAra munivaroM kI romAMcaka AtmakathAe~ sunakara abhayakumAra kA mana saMsAra ke vaiSayika sakhoM se virakta banA thaa| prAtaH pauSadhavrata pUrNa kara, vairAgya kI mastI pAkara ve rAjamahala pahu~ce / Apa loga bhI vairAgya kI mastI lekara ghara lauToge na ? hRdaya meM kucha halacala macI kyA ? manuSyabhava ke duHkha : - upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI, manuSya-janma ke duHkhoM kA varNana karate hue kahate sahitvA santApAnazucijananIkukSikuhare, saMsAra bhAvanA / 201

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tato janma prApya pracuratarakaSTakramahataH / sukhAbhAsairyAvat spRzati kathamapyartiviratiM, jarA tAvatkAyaM kavalayati mRtyoH sahacarI // 3 // mAtA ke azucimaya udara meM Akara, nau-nau mahInoM taka kaSTa sahana kiye, isake bAda janma kI pIr3A shii| bar3e kaSToM ko sahate hue kSaNika aura kalpita sukha, vaiSayika sukha milane para lagA ki calo, duHkhoM se chuTakArA milA, itane to mauta kI paricArikA sI jarAvasthA-vRddhAvasthA A dhamakI aura kAyA jarjarita ho jAtI hai| kImatI manuSya-jIvana kauDI ke mola bikakara vyartha pUrA ho jAtA hai / manuSya-jIvana ke pramukha duHkha isa zloka meM batAye gaye haiM / pahalA duHkha batAyA hai garbhAvasthA kA / mAtA ke azucipUrNa udara meM jIva nau-nau mahInoM taka duHkha sahana karatA hai / dUsarA duHkha batAyA hai janma kA / tIsarA duHkha batAyA hai yauvanakAla meM honevAlA viSayasukhoM ke saMyoga-viyoga kA / cauthA duHkha batAyA vRddhAvasthA kA aura pA~cavA duHkha batAyA hai mRtyu kA / hai eka gujarAtI kAvya meM ina duHkhoM kA varNana, bahuta hRdayasparzI DhaMga se kiyA gayA hai / sarala gujarAtI bhASA hai / samajha meM A jAye vaisA kAvya hai / jinavaraprabhu ke sAmane kavizrI nyAyasAgarajI apane ko naTa abhinetA (ekTara) batAkara sArI bAta kaha rahe haiM / suneM - www hu~ to naTavo thaIne nATaka evAM nAcyo ho jinavariyA ! pahelAM nAcyo peTamAM, mAtAnA, bahuvAra, ghora aMdhArI koTaDI, tyAM kuNa suNe pokAra... tyAM mAdhuM nIcuM ne chAtI U~cI ho jinavariyA ! huto. 1. hADa - mAMsanuM pIMjaruM, Upara mar3hIyo cAma, mala-mUtra mAMhe bharyo meM mAnyuM sukhanuM dhAma, tyAM nava-nava mahinA U~dhe mastaka laTakyo ho jinavariyA ! 2. kror3a - kror3a roma-romamAM karI dhagadhagatI soya, bhoMke jo koI sAmaTI, kaSTa aSTa gaNuM hoya / pachI mAtAne meM jamanAM dvAra dekhAiyAM ho jinavariyA ! 3. bA~dhI muThI doyamAM hu~ lAvyo puNya ne pApa, uMvA uMvA karI hu~ raDuM, jagamAM harSa na mAya, pachI paDadAmAMthI raMgabhUmi para Avyo ho jinavariyA ! 4. zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 202

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pAraNIyAmAM poDhIyo ne mAtA hAlo gAya, kharar3Ayo mala-mUtramAM aMgulI mukha jAya, pachI bhInAmAMthI sUkAmAM suvaDAvyo ho jinavariyA ! 5. choTAno moTo thayo, ramato dhUlImAMya, pitA paraNAvIyo mAtA harakha na mAya, pachI nArIno nacAvyo thai-thai nAcyo ho jinavariyA ! 6. kuTuMba - ciMtA kAramI ghUMTa kalejA khAya, ethI to bhalI DAkaNI, manaDuM mAMhI muMjhAya, jANe kozITAno kIDo jAla guMthAyo ho jinavariyA ! 7. dAMto ne dADho paDI, ne nIcAM DhalIyAM neNa, gAlonI lAlI gaI kha- kha thaI gaI raina, pachI Doso thaIne Dagamaga Dagamaga cAlyo ho jinavariyA ! 8. cAra gati cogAnamA nAcyo nAca apAra, 'nyAyasAgara nAcyo nahIM, ratnatrayIne AdhAra, paNa kumatino bharamAvyo, kAMi nA samajyo ho jinavariyA ! 9. saMsAra kI cAra gati meM paribhramaNa : - upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI, jIvAtmA kyoM aura kaise saMsAra meM paribhramaNa kara rahA hai, vaha do zlokoM meM batA rahe haiN| : vibhrAntacitto bata bamprabhIti, pakSIva ruddhastanupaJjare'GagI / nunno niyatyA'tanukarmatantu-sandAnitaH sannihitAntakautuH // 4 // anantAnpudgalAvartAnanantAnantaspabhRt / anantazo bhramatyeva jIvo'nAdibhavArNave // 5 // yaha becArA jIva, bhavitavyatA se prerita, bhArI karmoM kI rassI se ba~dhA huA aura kAla (mauta) rUpa bilAva ke pAsa rahA huA (jIva), dizAzUnya hokara bhaTaka rahA hai| piMjare meM Abaddha pakSI kI taraha zarIra ke piMjare meM kaida jIvAtmA isa saMsAra meM paribhramaNa (janma-maraNa) kiyA karatA hai / saMsAra kI cAra gatiyoM meM aura 84 lAkha yoniyoM meM bhaTakatA huA anaMtaanaMta deha dhAraNa karatA hai / ananta pudgala parAvartakAla se, anAdi bhavasaMsAra meM, anaMta bAra bhramaNa kiyA karatA hai / saMsAra bhAvanA 203

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bhaTakAva meM preraka tattva hai bhavitavyatA : .. sarvajJa paramAtmA ne hara kArya ke pIche pA~ca kAraNa batAye haiM / ina pA~ca kAraNoM meM eka kAraNa hai bhavitavyatA / bhavitavyatA ko niyati bhI kahate haiM / jisa bAta meM koI badalAva, koI parivartana kI zakyatA nahIM hotI hai, jo bAta nizcita rUpa se hotI hI hai, usako bhavitavyatA kahate haiM / bhavitavyatA ke Age puruSArtha kAmayAba nahIM hotA hai / jIvoM kA cAra gatimaya saMsAra meM jo bhaTakAva hotA hai, usa bhaTakAva meM preraka tattva hai bhavitavyatA ! jIvoM ko cAra gati meM bhaTakanA hI par3atA hai / prazna : itanI paravazatA kA koI kAraNa hogA na ? / uttara : hA~, eka kAraNa hai - pratyeka jIvAtmA karmoM se ba~dhA huA hai / karmI kA baMdhana hI kAraNa hai / aura jaba taka karmoM kA baMdhana rahatA hai taba taka hara jIva ko zarIra dhAraNa karanA hI par3atA hai| jaise piMjaDe kA pakSI ! cAra gatiyoM meM jIvoM ke bhinna-bhinna prakAra ke zarIra hote haiM / zarIra ke rUpa, pudgala aura raMga alaga hote haiM / kisa jIva ko kaisA zarIra milanA, isakA nirNaya usa jIva ke karma karate haiN| ananta kAla... ananta paribhramaNa... anAdi saMsAra meM : rAtri kI nIravatA meM, ekAnta bhUmibhAga para... zAnta citta se saMsAra kI vAstavikatA para ciMtana karanA hogA / ciMtana kA viSaya honA cAhie saMsAra meM jIvoM kA janma lenA aura maranA / apane Apako pUchanA hogA : * ye sAre jIva kaba se janamate haiM aura kaba se marate rahate haiM ? * janma-mRtyu kA yaha cakra calatA hI rahegA yA anta A sakegA ? * saMsAra Adi hai yA anAdi hai ? * saMsAra kI cAra gatiyoM meM sukha hai yA duHkha hai ? vyaktigata rUpa se ina praznoM kA samAdhAna DhU~DhanA hogaa| anyathA ajJAnatA ke aMdhakAra meM hI jIvana samApta ho jAyegA aura jyAdA pragAr3ha aMdhakAra meM jIva kho jAyegA / isalie ina cAra bAtoM para gaMbhIratA se soco| __pahalI bAta : jisa prakAra saMsAra anAdi hai, vaise jIva bhI anAdi hai, isalie janma aura mRtyu bhI anAdikAla se hai / isakA koI prAraMbha-kAla nahIM hai / dUsarI bAta : janma-mRtyu kA anta lA sakate ho| yadi Apa karmoM ke baMdhana tor3a sakate ho to janma-mRtyu kA anta A sakatA hai / Apa a-mara bana sakate | 204 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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ho, a-janmA bana sakate ho / saMsAra to rahegA hI / vaha jaise anAdi hai vaise ananta hai / aise saMsAra meM se jIvAtmA bAhara nikala sakatA hai / cauthI bAta para abhI do-tIna dina ciMtana-manana kreNge| saMsAra kI cAra gatiyoM meM duHkha hI duHkha hai ! jo kucha bhI sukha lagatA hai vaha sukha nahIM hai, sukhAbhAsa hai ! mAtra mRgajala hai ! meghadhanuSya ke kSaNika raMga haiN| vAstavikatA jo hai vaha duHkhoM kI hai| sarvaprathama 'naraka' ke duHkhoM ko batAtA hU~ / tIrthaMkara bhagavaMtoM ne to kahA hai ki hama (AtmA) aneka bAra naraka meM gaye haiM ! naraka ke ghora duHkha sahe haiM, paraMtu apana jaise svarga ko bhUla gaye haiM vaise naraka ko bhI bhUla gaye haiM / zAstroM meM, dharmagraMthoM meM naraka ke duHkhoM kA varNana par3hane meM AtA hai| prazna : kyA vAstava meM naraka hai yA mAtra kalpanA hai ? uttara : hamArA to isa viSaya meM saMpUrNa niHzaMka nirNaya hai naraka ke astitva kA! svarga ke astitva kA / mAtra kalpanA nahIM hai / naraka ke duHkha : apanI AtmA ne naraka meM kaise-kaise duHkha bhoge haiM, maiM saMkSepa meM Aja batAtA hU~ / sarvaprathama 10 prakAra kI kSetravedanAe~ batAtA hU~ / (1) pratisamaya AhArAdi pudgaloM ke sAtha jIva kA jo baMdhana hotA hai, vaha pradIpta agni se bhI jyAdA duHkhadAyI hotA hai| U~Ta aura gadhe kI cAla (calane kA DhaMga) se bhI nArakI ke jIvoM kI cAla ati azubha hotI hai / tapta lohe jaisI bhUmi ke Upara paira rakhane se jo vedanA hotI hai, usase bahuta jyAdA vedanA, naraka kI bhUmi para calane se hotI hai, jo vedanA asahya hotI hai / (3) naraka ke jIvoM kA saMsthAna (AkAra) ati vikRta hotA hai / jaise kaTe huI paMkhavAle pakSI ! (4) dIvAra para se girate pudgaloM kI vedanA, zastra kI dhAra se bhI jyAdA pIr3AkArI hotI hai| (5) naraka ke jIvoM kA varNa bhayaMkara malina hotA hai / aMdhakAra jaisA kAlA hotA hai / vahA~ kA bhUmibhAga, zleSma-viSTA-mUtra-kapha vagairaha bIbhatsa padArthoM se lipta jaisA hotA hai / mAMsa, keza, nakha, haDDiyA~, camar3I Adi se jaise AcchAdita ho, vaisI smazAnabhUmi jaisA hotA hai / / saMsAra bhAvanA 2055

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(6) vahA~ kI gaMdha, sar3e hue pazu-kalevaroM kI durgaMdha se bhI jyAdA azubha hotI (7) vahA~ kA rasa, nIma pair3a vagairaha ke rasa se bhI jyAdA kar3avA hotA hai / (8) vahA~ kA sparza, agni ke aura bicchU ke sparza se bhI jyAdA tIvra hotA hai| (9) vahA~ kA zabda, AvAja, satata pIDAgrasta jIvoM ke karuNa kalpAMta jaisA hotA hai / sunane mAtra se duHkhadAyI hotA hai / (10) pariNAma bhI ati vyathA karanevAlA hotA hai / dUsare prakAra kI bhI 10 vedanAe~ vahA~ hotI haiM, ve bhI jAna lo / (1) poSa mahInA ho, rAtri meM himavarSA hotI ho, pracaMDa vAyu bahatA ho, himAlaya jaisA pradeza ho, vastrarahita manuSya ho...usako jaisA duHkha hotA ho, usase ananta gunA jyAdA duHkha nArakI ke jIvoM ko hotA hai / (2) caitra-vaizAkha mahInA ho, madhyAhana kA samaya ho, sUrya sira para tapatA ho, cAroM dizAoM meM agnijvAlAe~ phailI ho, aisI sthiti meM jaise koI pittarogI manuSya uSNatA kI ghora vedanA anubhava kareM, usase ananta gunA adhika vedanA nArakI ke jIvoM ko hotI hai| (3) nArakI ke jIvoM kI bhUkha-kSudhA kabhI zAnta nahIM hotI hai / DhAI dvIpa kA samagra dhAnya khA jAye to bhI una jIvoM kI kSudhA zAnta nahIM hotii| (4) pAnI kI pyAsa bhI kabhI nahIM bujhatI / sabhI samuda, sarovara aura nadiyoM kA pAnI pIne para bhI ve pyAse rahate haiM / (5) nArakI ke jIva zarIra ko khujalAte rahate haiM / churI se khujalAne para bhI unakI khujalI miTatI nahIM hai / (6) nArakI ke jIva sadaiva paravaza hote haiN| (7) vahA~ ke jIvoM ke zarIra sadaiva jvarAkrAnta rahate haiM / manuSya ko adhika se adhika jitanI DIgrI kA jvara hotA hai, usase ananta gunA jvara nArakI ke jIvoM ko hotA hai / (8) nArakI ke jIvoM ko sadaiva dAhajvara jalAtA rahatA hai / (9) una jIvoM kA avadhijJAna athavA vibhaMgajJAna hotA hai, isase ve apane AnevAle duHkhoM ko jAnate haiM...isase satata bhayAkula rahate haiM / vaise unako paramAdhAmI devoM kA bhaya aura dUsare nArakoM kA bhaya satAtA rahatA hai / | 206 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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(10) dasavA~ duHkha hotA hai zoka kA / sadaiva ve zokagrasta rahate haiM / __naraka ke jIvoM kI tIsare prakAra kI vedanAe~ hotI haiM paraspara lar3ane kI / Apasa meM ve eka-dUsare ko duHkha dete haiM ! * jisa prakAra eka kuttA dUsare kutte ko dekhate hI usako mArane lagatA hai, vaise eka nArakI jIva dUsare nArakI jIva ko mArane lagatA hai, lar3atA hai / ve vaikriya rUpa karate haiM, kSetraprabhAva se prApta honevAle zastra lekara ve ekadUsare ke Tukar3e kara DAlate haiM, jaise katalakhAne meM pazu ke Tukar3e kiye jAte haiM vaise| * vahA~ jo samyagdRSTi jIva hote haiM, ve tAttvika ciMtana ke dvArA samatA se duHkha sahana karate haiM / ve samyagdRSTi jIva, mithyAdRSTi nArakoM se kama pIr3A anubhava karate haiM aura karmakSaya karanevAle hote haiM / mithyAdRSTi nAraka jIva, krodhAveza se paraspara pIr3A karate haiM, isalie ve bahuta duHkha pAte haiM aura bahuta adhika karmabaMdha karate haiM / mAnasika duHkha kI apekSA se samakitadRSTi jIva jyAdA duHkhI hote haiM / pUrvakRta karmoM kA jitanA saMtApa unako hotA hai utanA saMtApa mithyAdaSTi jIvoM ko nahIM hotA hai / aba, paramAdhAmI-devoM ke dvArA naraka meM jIvoM ko jo duHkha diye jAte haiM, ve batAkara pravacana pUrNa kruuNgaa| * atizaya tapta lohe kI pUtaliyoM ke sAtha jIvoM ko jor3ate haiM, * atyaMta tapta sIse kA rasa pIlAte haiM, * zastra se zarIra ko kSata-vikSata kara, usa para kSAra DAlate haiM, * garma-garma taila se snAna karavAte haiM, * bhayaMkara Aga meM DAlate haiM, * bhAle se biMdhate haiM, * kolhU meM DAlakara pIsate haiM, * ArI se kATate haiM, * Aga jaisI retI para calAte haiM, * bAgha, siMha jaise pazu ke rUpa dhara jIvoM ko satAte haiM, * mUrgoM kI taraha paraspara lar3Ate haiM, | saMsAra bhAvanA 207

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* talavAra kI dhAra jaise asipatra ke vana meM calAte haiM, * hAtha, paira, kAna, A~kha Adi aMga-upAMgoM ko kATa DAlate haiM / itanA sArA kaSTa hone para bhI nArakI ke jIva marate nahIM hai ! na ve AtmahatyA kara mara sakate haiM / jaba una jIvoM kA AyuSya-karma samApta hotA hai, tabhI ve marate haiN| hamArI AtmA ne bhI naraka meM isa prakAra ke kaSTa sahe haiM - kalpanA krnaa| apane Apako naraka ke jIva ke rUpa meM dekhanA aura atizaya krUra...nirdaya aise paramAdhAmI deva kaSTa de rahe haiM, mAra rahe haiM - kalpanA se dekhanA ! ... Aja basa, itanA hii| | 208 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAnta sudhArasa ) pravacana : 19 saMsAra bhAvanA - 3 : sakalanA * saMsAra-bhAvanA kI nau bAteM * mohazatru kA satAnA - saMsAra ko DarAvanA samajhanA * devagati ke duHkha - sAre rizte phijUla * aThAraha nAte - saMsAra meM kadama-kadama para parezAnI - saMpatti meM garva, daridratA se dIna . karmaparavazatA . janama-janama meM naye-naye rUpa

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( rAga : bhairavI) kalaya saMsAramatidAruNaM, janmamaraNAdibhayabhIta re, moharipuNeha sagalagrahaM pratipadaM vipadamupanIta re // 1 // kalaya0 svajanatanayAdiparicayaguNai - riha mudhA badhyase mUDha re, pratipadaM navanavairanubhavaiH paribhavairasakRdupagUDha re // 2 // kalaya0 ghaTayasi kvacana madamunnateH kvacadaho hInatAdIna re, pratibhavaM rUpamaparAparaM, vahasi bata karmaNAdhIna re || 3 || kalaya0 jAtu zaizava - dazAparavazo, jAtu tAruNyamadamatta re, jAtu durjayajarAjarjaro, jAtu pitRpatikarAyatta re // 4 // kalaya0 upAdhyAya zrI vinayavijayajI 'zAntasudhArasa' graMtha meM tIsarI saMsAra - bhAvanA kA gAna karate hue kahate haiM: re jIva, mohazatru ne tujhe gale se pakar3akara, kadamakadama para satAyA hai / tU isa saMsAra ko janma - mRtyu ke bhaya se ghirA huA samajha aura use atyaMta DarAvanA mAna / re mUr3ha jIva, svajana - parijana evaM riztedAroM ke sAtha ke tere mIThe saMbaMdhoM ke baMdhana phijUla haiM / kadama-kadama para tujhe isa saMsAra ke naye-naye hAlAtoM kI parezAnI nahIM uThAnI par3atI kyA ? paga-paga para terA parAbhava nahIM hotA hai kyA ? tanika zAnti se soca to sahI / 'kabhI tU terI saMpatti se garviSTha ho uThatA hai, to kabhI daridratA ke caMgula meM pha~sakara dIna-hIna ho uThatA hai / tU karmoM ko paravaza hai| isalie to janamajanama meM naye-naye rUpa racAtA hai / alaga-alaga svAMga banAtA hai, saMsAra ke raMgamaca ke Upara tU eka abhinetA hI hai / ' * 'kabhI terA bacapana iThalAtA hai, kabhI taruNAI ke AvegoM se unmatta hokara tU aThakheliyA~ karatA hai, kabhI durjaya bur3hApe se terA zarIra jarjarita ho jAtA hai aura isa taraha aMta meM tU yamarAja ke paMjoM meM pha~sa jAtA hai / ' saMsAra - bhAvanA kI ina cAra geya gAthAoM meM graMthakAra ne nau bAte kahI haiM / pahale nau bAteM batAkara, bAda meM eka-eka bAta para vivecana karU~gA / 1. mohazatru kA satAnA / 2. saMsAra ko bhayAkrAnta- DarAvanA samajhanA / 3. sAre rizte phijUla / 210 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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4. paga-paga para parezAnI-parAbhava / 5. saMpatti se garva, daridratA se dInatA-hInatA / 6. karmaparavazatA / 7. hara janma meM nayA rUpa / 8. saMsAra - raMgamaMca : abhinetA / 9. bacapana-yauvana-bur3hApA-mRtyu / mohazatru kA satAnA : saMsAra ke sabhI duHkhoM kA mUla kAraNa hai moha / jo duHkhadAyI hotA hai, usako hI zatra kahA jAtA hai| isalie moha ko zatru kahA gayA hai ! mohazatru bar3A khataranAka zatru hai ! kyoMki vaha pradarzana karatA hai mitratA kA aura kAma karatA hai zatrutA kA / jisa manuSya ke bhItara moha kA varcasva hotA hai, vaha kabhI na kabhI dUsaroM ke sAtha zatrutApUrNa vyavahAra karegA hI / mohAsakta manuSya kauna-sA burA kArya nahIM karatA hai ? rAnI saryakAntA ne usake pati rAjA pradezI ke sAtha jo durvyavahAra kiyA thA, kisakI vajaha se ? rAyapaseNIya sUtra meM batAyA gayA hai ki bAhara se premabhAva batAnevAlI sUryakAntA ne apane pati rAjA pradezI kI hatyA kara DAlI thI / mAlavadeza ke rAjA muMja kI kumauta kisakI vajaha se huI thI ? usakI premikA mRNAlinI ne hI mohavaza dhokhAbAjI kI thI na ? aisI aneka ghaTanAe~ itihAsa meM aura zAstroM meM par3hane ko milatI haiM / saMsAra ko bhayAkrAnta - DarAvanA samajhanA : mohAsakta jIva ko cAroM gatiyoM meM duHkhoM kA bhaya rahatA hI hai / narakagati meM kaise kaise duHkha sahane par3ate haiM, yaha maine kala batAyA thA / Aja tiryaMcagati ke duHkha batAtA hU~ / tiryaMcagati meM choTe pazuoM ko bar3e hiMsaka pazuoM kA bhaya satAtA hai / siMha-bAgha vagairaha hiMsaka pazu mRga, gAya, bheMsa, ityAdi pazuoM ko mAra DAlate haiM aura apanA bhakSya banA DAlate haiN| zikArI, hiMsaka manuSya pazaoM kA zikAra karate haiM / isalie aise zikArI-hiMsaka manuSyoM se pazuoM ko bhaya rahatA hai, ve Darate rahate haiM / ghora trAsa anubhava karate hue ve jIte haiM / tiryaMcagati meM jIva paraspara bhakSya banAte haiM ! mAtA apanI saMtAna ko bhI bhakSya banA letI hai / pazuoM ko, jAnavaroM ko bahuta bar3e duHkha sahane par3ate haiM / ve abhivyakta nahIM kara pAte haiM / | saMsAra bhAvanA 211

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tiryaMcagati meM jIvoM ko sabase bar3A duHkha hotA hai kSudhA kA aura pyAsa kA / udarAgni se jalate hue ve jIva tIvra duHkha anubhava karate haiN| kArtikeya anuprekSA meM kahA gayA hai - tivvatisAe tisido tivvavibhukkhAi bhukkhido saMto / tivva pAvadi duHkhaM uyarahuyAsehiM DajIto // 43 // isI 'kArtikeya anuprekSA' meM manuSyagati ke duHkha batAye gaye haiM / Apa loga duHkha anubhava karate hI haiM, phira bhI duHkhoM ke viSaya meM ciMtana nahIM karate, anuprekSA nahIM karate ! kaise-kaise duHkha jIvoM ko sahane par3ate haiM / garbhAvasthA ke duHkha, janma ke duHkha aura janma ke bAda mAtA-pitA kI mRtyu ho jAtI hai to parAzrayatA ke duHkha, nirdhanatA ke duHkha... ... vagairaha duHkha, pApakarmoM ke udaya se bhogane par3ate haiM / azAtA - vedanIya, nIca gotra, azubha nAmakarma ke udaya se duHkha sahane par3ate haiM / phira bhI ajJAnatAvaza jIva naye pApakarma karatA jAtA hai / I jina manuSyoM ko puNyakarma kA udaya hotA hai, vaise manuSyoM ko bhI iSTaviyoga aura aniSTa saMyoga ke duHkha sahane par3ate haiM ! bharata cakravartI jaise zreSTha puruSa ko apane hI choTe bhAI bAhubalI se hAra khAne kA duHkha sahanA par3A thA na ? sanatkumAra cakravartI jaise zreSTha puruSa ke zarIra meM 16 roga utpanna ho gaye the na ? puNyazAlI manuSya ko bhI sabhI manovAMchita sukha nahIM milate haiM / kisI ko strI kA sukha nahIM hotA hai, kisI ko putra kA sukha nahIM hotA hai, kisI ko nirogI zarIra nahIM hotA hai ! zarIra nirogI hotA hai to dhana-dhAnyAdi kI prApti nahIM hotI hai / sabakucha prApta ho bhI gayA, to mauta A jAtI hai ! I kisI kI patnI durAcAriNI hotI hai, to kisI kA pati vyabhicArI hotA hai / kisI kA putra juA khelatA hai, zarAbI hotA hai, kisI kA bhAI zatru jaisA vyavahAra karatA hai, kisI kI putrI durAcAriNI hotI hai| vaise, kisI kA putra acchA hai, guNavAna hai, paraMtu taruNavaya meM mara jAtA hai| kisI ko patnI acchI hotI hai, paraMtu usakI akAla mRtyu ho jAtI hai / kisI ke pAsa vipula dhana-saMpattihotI hai, paraMtu Aga... bhUkaMpa Adi se sarvanAza ho jAtA hai / Apa dekhate ho, sunate ho ki dhanavAna nirdhana ho jAte haiM, nirdhana dhanavAna ho jAte haiM / rAjAoM ke rAja cale gaye aura nimna jAti ke loga bar3e bar3e padoM para ArUr3ha ho jAte haiM / jo vairI hote haiM ve mitra bana jAte haiM aura mitra vairI bana jAte haiM / 1 212 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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devagati ke duHkha : ye to manuSyagati ke duHkha batAye, devagati meM bhI duHkha hote haiM ! sAmAnya rUpa se Apa loga yaha samajhate haiM ki devaloka meM deva-devI ko sukha hI sukha hote haiM ! paraMtu yaha galata dhAraNA hai / devoM ko bhI duHkha hote haiM ! apane se jyAdA sukha-saMpatti, vaibhavavAle devoM ko dekhakara, devoM ko mAnasika duHkha hotA hai / bar3e bar3e vaibhavazAlI devoM ko bhI jaba devarddhikA, devAMganAoM kA viyoga hotA hai taba duHkha hotA hai / sAre bhautika sukha viSayAdhIna hote haiM, unase jIvoM ko tRpti kaise hogI ? tRSNA bar3hatI hI rahatI hai / prazna : mAnasika duHkha alpa hotA hai na ? uttara : zArIrika duHkha se mAnasika duHkha jyAdA hotA hai, bahuta tIvra hotA hai| manuSya ke pAsa bahuta jyAdA vaiSayika sukha ke sAdhana hone para bhI yadi mAnasika duHkha hotA hai, to vaha apane Apako bahuta duHkhI mAnatA hai / mana ciMtAgrasta hone para sabhI sukhasAmagrI duHkharUpa hI lagatI hai / devoM ke sukha, viSayoM ke adhIna hote haiM, isalie ve duHkha ke hI kAraNa hote haiM / vAstava meM socA jAyaM to anya nimitta se mAnA gayA sukha, sukhAbhAsa hI hotA hai, bhrama hI hotA hai| kyoMki jisa vastu ko sukha kA kAraNa mAnA jAtA hai, vahI vastu kAlAntara meM duHkha kA kAraNa hotI hai I isa prakAra asAra aura bhayAnaka saMsAra meM kahIM bhI sukha nahIM hai / sAre rizte phijUla : vaise, isa saMsAra meM koI riztA, nAtA, saMbaMdha zAzvat nahIM hotA hai| sAre rizte badalate rahate haiM / eka janma kI mAtA dUsare janma meM putrI hotI hai, bahana hotI hai, yA patnI bhI hotI hai / pitA marakara putra hotA hai, zatru hotA hai, bhAI hotA hai ! patnI marakara zatru hotI hai, pati bhI bana sakatI hai ! 'samarAditya - mahAkathA' meM nau-nau janmoM kI kathA pddh'naa| rizte-nAte kaise badalate haiM... Apako mAluma hogA / are, eka hI vartamAna jIvana meM eka manuSya ke 18 prakAra ke saMbaMdha kI kahAnI par3hane meM AtI hai| maiMne jisa prakAra vaha kahAnI par3hI hai, Apako sunAtA hU~ / aThAraha nAte : mathurA nAma kI nagarI thI / usa nagarI meM kuberasenA nAma kI eka vezyA rahatI saMsAra bhAvanA 213

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thI / kuberasenA ne eka putra-putrI ke jor3e ko janma diyA / putra kA nAma rakhA kuberadatta aura putrI kA nAma rakhA kuberadattA / dasa dina taka una donoM ko kuberasenA ne stanapAna karavAyA / bAda meM eka majabUta peTI meM gaddI bichAkara donoM ko usameM sulA diyaa| donoM ke pAsa unake nAma kI sone kI aMgUThI banavAkara rakha dI / peTI baMda karake yamunA nadI ke pAnI meM bahA dI / vaha peTI bahatI-bahatI zaurIpurI nagarI ke kinAre para phuNcii| __ sabere kA samaya thA / zaurIpurI nagarI ke do yuvAna zreSThI ghUmane ke lie yamunA nadI ke kinAre para Aye hue the| unhoMne nadI ke pravAha meM bahatI huI ratnajar3ita kImatI peTI ko dekhA / unheM bar3I tAjjubI huI / unhoMne peTI bAhara nikaalii| donoM ne Apasa meM mazavirA kiyA : 'peTI meM se jo bhI nikalegA, vaha apana AdhA-AdhA bA~Ta leNge| unhoMne peTI kholI / do baccoM ko soye hue dekhA / donoM bacce suMdara-salone the / eka ne lar3ake ko le liyA, dUsare ne lar3akI lii| donoM ne nAma kI sone kI a~guThiyA~ bhI le lii| baccoM ko lekara ve apaneapane ghara cale gaye / bacce puNyazAlI the, isalie unakA lAlana-pAlana bar3e lAr3a-pyAra ke sAtha hone lgaa| ___ kuberadatta aura kuberadattA par3ha-likhakara bar3e hue| donoM zreSThiyoM ne ina donoM kI jor3I jamegI yoM socakara donoM kI zAdI kara dI / bhAI-bahina pati-patnI bana gye| donoM ke pAsa apane-apane nAma kI aMgaThI thii| donoM pati-patnI jarUra hue, paraMtu donoM ko eka dUje ke prati koI seksI-kAmavAsanA nahIM jagatI hai / zArIrika AkarSaNa paidA nahIM hotA hai / __eka dina donoM caupar3a kA khela khela rahe the| pAse DAlate hue acAnaka kuberadatta kI aMgulI meM se a~gUThI saraka kara kuberadattA kI goda meM girI / kuberadattA ne a~gUThI uThAyI aura Azcarya se apanI a~gUThI ke sAtha milAI, vaha soca meM par3a gaI / usane socA : ye donoM a~gUThI eka-sI hai / kyA hama donoM bhAIbahana to nahIM hoMge ? kyA isIlie hameM eka-dUje ke lie vAsanAjanya AkarSaNa nahIM jagatA hai ?' usane kuberadatta se kahA : hama isa bAre meM apane mAtA-pitA se pUche to ? kuberadatta ne hA~ kahI / kuberadatta ne apanI mA~ se pUchA : mA~ saca-saca batAnA / hamArA saccA riztA kyA hai ? hamAre donoM ke hAtha meM eka-sI a~guThiyA~ kyoM haiM ?' mA~ ne unase nadI meM se peTI milane kI sArI bAta batA dI / kuberadatta aura kuberadattA Azcarya evaM glAni se stabdha raha | 214 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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gaye / kuberadatta ne kahA : 'acchA huA ki hamArA zArIrika saMbaMdha nahIM huA, varnA bar3A anartha ho jAtA / hama nirmala rahe, yaha khuzakismatI hai / kuberadattA usake pAlaka pitA ke vahA~ calI gaI / kuberadatta kA mana bhI bujhAbujhA-sA rahane lgaa| eka dina vaha bhI vyApAra karane ke lie zaurIpurI chor3akara calA gyaa| kuberadattA kA mana saMsAra se virakta bana gayA thaa| usane eka dina jaina dIkSA le lI, vaha sAdhvI bana gii| ugra tapazcaryA karake usane avadhijJAna prApta kiyA / ___ kuberadatta vyApAra karane ke lie mathurA pahuMcA thA / mathurA meM vaha kuberasenA vezyA ke atithigRha meM ThaharA thaa| usane kuberasenA ko DheroM saMpatti dekara use apanI patnI banA lI thI / vaha usake sAtha raMgarAga meM DUba gayA thaa| mathurA meM vyApAra karate hue usane lAkhoM rupaye bhI kamAye / udhara sAdhvI kuberadattA ne apane avadhijJAna ke prakAza meM jAnanA cAhA ki kuberadatta kahA~ hai aura kyA karatA hai| usane mathurA meM kuberasenA ke sAtha bhogavilAsa meM lIna kuberadatta ko dekhA / vaha kA~pa uThI / usakA hRdaya citkAra uThA / oha ! apanI sagI mA~ ke saMga bhoga-vilAsa ? khuda ko janma denevAlI mA~ ke sAtha raMgarAga kA jIvana ? bar3A bhayaMkara anartha ho gayA, yaha to| ve eka-dUsare ko pahacAnate nahIM haiM / maiM jaldI-jaldI vahA~ para jAU~ aura anartha ko rokU~ / sAdhvI kuberadattA vihAra kara mathurA pahu~cI / isa bIca kuberasenA ne eka putra ko janma diyA thaa| sAdhvI kuberadattA socatI hai : ina donoM ko samajhAnA kisa taraha ? upadeza dU~ kaise? dharmazAstra kA upadeza to ye saneMge nhiiN| aura hI koI tarakIba khojanI hogI / yathArthatA kA bodha karAnA hI hogaa| sAdhvI kuberadattA, kuberasenA ke ghara para pahu~cI / sAdhvI ne kuberasenA se kahA: maiM tumhAre isa navajAta zizu ko acche saMskAra dU~gI / use mIThI-mIThI loriyA~ sunAU~gI / mere pAsa vaha khelatA rhegaa| kyA maiM tumhAre ghara meM raha sakatI hU~ ? baccA mere pAsa rahegA taba taka tumheM bhI avakAza mila jaayegaa| kuberasenA ne sAdhvIjI kI vinayabharI madhura vANI sunI / sAdhvIjI kA saumya, zItala, suMdara ceharA dekhA / usane sAdhvI ko apane ghara meM rahane kI ijAjata de dii| anya sAdhviyoM ke sAtha kuberadattA ne vahA~ para nivAsa kiyA / kuberadatta, apanI bahana kuberadattA ko sAdhvIrUpa meM pahacAna nahIM pAtA hai / kuberadattA ne ugra tapazcaryA karake zarIra ko kRza kara diyA hai / aura phira vaha | saMsAra bhAvanA

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thI bhI sAdhvI ke veza meM ! kuberasenA rojAnA apane navajAta putra ko sAdhvI ke pAsa chor3a jAtI hai / sAdhvIjI ha~satI hai, zizu ko ha~sAtI hai aura eka lorI gAtI jAtI hai| I bhAI tUM beTo mAharo devara valI bhatrIja, pitarAI ne pautra - ima tujathI saMbaMdhanA bIja... 1 bhAI-pitA-mAtAmaha, bhartA beTo sasaro teha, cha saMbaMdha dharAvuM huM tAharA janakathI hu~ sasneha...2 mAtA pitAmahI bhojAI vahu sAsu valI zoka, cha saMbaMdha dharAve mujathI mAtA tuja avaloka...3 (jaMbUsvAmI rAsa) sAdhvIjI aise tAra svara meM lorI sunAtI hai ki kuberadatta aura kuberasenA bhI suna ske| rojAnA gAtI hai, bAra-bAra gAtI hai / kuberadatta ko usakA artha samajha meM nahIM AtA hai / eka dina usane sAdhvIjI se pUcha hI liyA - pUjyA, Apa mere putra ko rojAnA jo lorI sunAtI ho, usakA artha mujhe samajha meM nahIM AtA hai / Apa jaise ki kucha aTapaTA-sA bola rahI ho, asaMbaddha bola rahI ho, vaisA mujhe lagatA hai / sAdhvI kuberadattA jisa avasara kI rAha dekha rahI thI, vaha avasara A gayA thA / unhoMne kahA 'kuberadatta, tere isa putra ke sAtha mere chaha prakAra ke nAte haiM / tere sAtha bhI mere chaha prakAra ke rizte haiM aura isa bacce kI mA~ ke sAtha bhI mere chaha prakAra ke saMbaMdha haiM ! yoM saba milAkara aThAraha prakAra ke nAte haiM tuma tInoM ke sAtha !' 216 kuberadatta sAdhvIjI kI bAta sunakara Azcarya se cakita raha gyaa| usane kahA : 'Apa kRpA karake mujhe ve aThAraha prakAra ke nAte samajhAiye / sAdhvIjI ne kahA : 1. isa bacce kI aura merI janetA eka hI hone se yaha merA bhAI hotA hai / 2. yaha bAlaka mere pati kA putra hone se merA bhI putra kahA jA sakatA hai / 3. yaha bAlaka mere pati kA choTA bhAI hone se merA devara hotA hai / (mere pati ko evaM isa bacce ko janma denevAlI mA~ eka hI kuberasenA hai / ) 4. mere bhAI kA beTA hone se yaha merA bhatIjA hotA hai / - zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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5. merI mA~ ke pati kA bhAI hone se merA cAcA bhI hotA hai / 6. merI sautana ke beTe kA lar3akA hai, isalie pautra bhI kahA jAegA / 7. isa bacce kA jo pitA hai vaha merA bhAI hai, kyoMki hama donoM kI mA~ eka hI hai / 8. isa bacce kA pitA tU (kuberadatta) merI mA~ kA pati hone se merA pitA hotA hai / 9. tU mere cAcA kA ( isa bacce kA pitA hai, ataH merA pitAmaha hai / 10. maiMne tere sAtha zAdI kI thI, ataH tU merA pati hai / 11. yaha kuberasenA terI dUsarI patnI hai, isalie merI sautana hai; isane tere ko janma diyA hai, isalie tUM merA bhI putra mAnA jAegA / 12. aura, mere devara kA tUM pitA hone se merA zvasura bhI hotA hai / 13. kuberadatta, terI jo mAtA hai, vaha merI bhI mAtA hai / 14. yaha baccA, eka saMbaMdha se merA cAcA hotA hai, isalie usakI jo mA~ hai vaha merI pitAmahI bhI hotI hai / 15. tU merA bhAI hai, terI yaha patnI kuberasenA merI bhAbhI hogI / 16. aura, merI sautana ke beTe kI bahU hone se (yaha kuberasenA terI patnI hai) merI putravadhU bhI hogI / 17. mere pati (terI) kI yaha kuberasenA mAtA hai, ataH merI sAsa bhI hotI hai / 18. mere pati kI (terI) dUsarI patnI hone se yaha kuberasenA merI sautana bhI khlaaegii| kuberadatta pahacAna gayA kuberadattA ko / kuberadattA ne apane pAsa kapar3e meM bA~dhakara rakhI huI donoM a~guThiyA~ bhI btaayii| itane meM vahA~ kuberasenA bhI A gaI / usane bhI a~guThiyA~ pahacAna lI / kuberadatta phUTa-phUTakara ro par3A / kuberasenA dahAr3a mAra-mArakara rone lagI / donoM pazcAttApa kI Aga meM jalane lage / - kuberadatta saMsAra ke prati virakta ho gayA / usane saMsAratyAga kiyA aura sAdhujIvana svIkAra kara liyA / - kuberasenA bhI saMsAra kA tyAga karanA cAhatI thI, para choTe bacce ke pAlana kI jimmedArI hone se usane zrAvikA - jIvana ke vrata aMgIkAra kiye / sAdhvI kuberadattA ne vahA~ se anyatra vihAra kara diyA / saMsAra bhAvanA 217

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mahAkAla ke anaMta pravAha meM yaha kahAnI vilIna ho gaI, paraMtu ananta jJAna ke Aloka meM jIvaMta rahatI hai sabhI kahAniyA~ / saMsAra ke sabhI saMbaMdhoM kI, sabhI riztoM kI niHsAratA...asAratA batAtI rahatI haiM aisI kahAniyA~ / jJAnI puruSa, vItarAga paramAtmA saMsAra ke sAre riztoM ko anitya, niHsAra aura phAlatU batAte haiM / riztoM ke kAraNa rAga-dveSa nahIM karane kA upadeza dete haiM / saMsAra meM paga-paga para parezAnI-parAbhava : tanika zAMti se socanA Avazyaka hai / 'pratipadaM navanavairanubhavaH paribhavairasakRdupagUDha re...' kadama-kadama para tujhe isa saMsAra ke naye-naye hAlAtoM kI parezAnI nahIM uThAnI par3atI kyA ? paga-paga para terA parAbhava nahIM hotA kyA ? antarAyakarma ke udaya se - kisI ko rahane ko ghara nahIM milatA hai, phuTapAtha para par3A rahanA par3atA hai| - kisI ko ati jIrNa, choTe aura sA~pa, cUhe Adi ke bilavAle ghara meM rahanA par3atA hai / - kisI ko hiMsaka, abhakSya khAnevAle, kukarmI logoM ke saMga rahanA par3atA hai / - kisI ko duSTa, vyasanI, durAcArI, mahApApI logoM se pallA par3atA hai / aise logoM ko paga-paga para parezAnI hotI rahatI hai na ? parAbhava hotA rahatA hai na ? vaise jisako aneka paliyA~ hotI haiM usake ghara meM pratidina jhagar3e hote rahate haiM / kisI ko ati duSTa, vyabhicAriNI, atikleza karanevAlI, mahArogI aurata hotI hai to mahA duHkhI hotA hai / * koI puruSa isalie parezAna hotA hai, kyoMki usakI suzIla aura priya patnI kI acAnaka mRtyu ho jAtI hai / * kisI puruSa ko taba bar3I parezAnI hotI hai, jaba usakI patnI vRddhAvasthA meM athavA nirdhana avasthA meM choTe-choTe baccoM ko chor3akara mara jAtI hai / * kucha puruSa zAdI ke bAda tUrta hI mara jAte haiM, isase usakI patnI ko dIrghakAla taka parezAnI-parAbhava bhoganA par3atA hai / * mAtA-pitA kI vRddhAvasthA meM, AdhArabhUta putra acAnaka mara jAtA hai / * kisI ko putra to hote haiM, paraMtu cora hote haiM, juArI hote haiM, zarAbI hote haiM, una mAtA-pitA ko parezAniyoM kI sImA nahIM rahatI hai / * eka to nirdhanatA kA bar3A duHkha hotA hai, dUsarI ora aneka putriyA~ hotI haiM, | 218 zAnta sadhArasa : bhAga 1

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putriyoM kI zAdI-saMrakSaNa Adi kI ciMtA satAtI rahatI hai / * putrI bar3I hone para bhI usakI zAdI nahIM hotI hai, zAdI hotI hai to vara mUrkha durAcArI aura ugra dimAga kA hotA hai...taba lar3akI ko aura usake mAtA pitA ko sadaiva ciMtA, parezAnI banI rahatI hai| * kisI ko putrI apaMga, aMdhI aura gUMgI hone se usako vara nahIM milatA hai, to bahuta ciMtA banI rahatI hai / * kisI kI mAtA, patnI, putrI athavA bahana galata rAste para jAtI hai, vyabhicArI banatI hai, to ghora ciMtA-parezAnI banI rahatI hai| * kisI ko lobhI, doSagrAhI, anyAyI, krodhI, nIca aura mUrkha zrImaMta kI naukarI sarvisa karanI par3atI hai, to paga-paga para parAbhava-apamAna sahana karane par3ate haiM / * vaise kisI seTha ko kRtaghnI, mUrkha, aprAmANika naukara-sevaka hotA hai, to usako kadama-kadama para parezAnI bhoganI par3atI hai / isa prakAra asaMkhya prakAra kI parezAniyA~ saMsAra meM jIvoM ko bhoganI par3atI hai / aise saMsAra meM zAnti kahA~ ? samatA kahA~ ? saMpatti meM garva, daridratA se dIna-hIna : __ pA~cavI bAta hai garva kI aura dInatA-hInatA kI / saMsAra meM hama pratyakSa dekhate haiM ki dhanavAna nirdhana ho jAtA hai aura nirdhana dhanavAna ho jAtA hai / dhanavAna jaba nirdhana bana jAtA hai taba vaha dIna-hIna bana jAtA hai, nirdhana jaba dhanavAna banatA hai taba abhimAnI bana jAtA hai / abhimAnI dhanavAnoM ko dekhe haiM na Apane ? ve jamIna se Upara calate haiM / na mAtA-pitA kI ijjata karate haiM, na hI gurujanoM kI AjJA mAnate haiM / upakArIjanoM kA bhI tiraskAra kara dete haiM / itanA hI nahIM, dhanavAnoM ko sabhI prakAra ke sukha hote haiM, aisA nahIM mAnanA / unako asaMkhya prakAra kI ciMtAe~ satAtI rahatI haiM / dhana-saMpatti kI rakSA kI ciMtA, sabase bar3I ciMtA hotI hai / pArivArika ciMtAe~ bhI satAtI rahatI haiM / zarIra bhI koI na koI roga se ghirA huA rahatA hai...isalie ve bhItara se apane Apako duHkhI hI samajhate karmaparavazatA : saMsAra kI sabhI parezAniyoM kA mUla kAraNa hai karmaparavazatA ! cAroM gati meM jIvoM kI kaisI karmaparavazatA hotI hai - isa bAta kA ciMtana karanA cAhie / | saMsAra bhAvanA 219

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karmoM kI parAdhInatA...paravazatA bar3I duHkhadAyI hotI hai / jIvAtmA kI icchAoM ko, abhilASAoM ko kauna pUrNa nahIM hone detA hai ? jIvAtmA ko apanI icchAoM se viparIta jInA par3atA hai, kisakI vajaha se ? karmasattA aisI adRzya sattA hai ki usane samagra saMsAra para apanA Adhipatya sthApita kara rakhA hai / koI usake Adhipatya ko naSTa nahIM kara sakatA hai| hA~, jo jIvAtmA prabuddha banatA hai aura karmoM ke baMdhanoM ko tor3ane ke lie kRtanizcayI banatA hai, vaha svAdhIna-svataMtra bana sakatA hai / ugra puruSArtha karanA par3atA hai / satata puruSArtha karanA par3atA hai / duHkhoM se jo DaratA nahIM hai aura karmajanita sukhoM se jo lalacAtA nahIM hai, vahI karmoM ke baMdhana tor3a sakatA hai ! karmadatta sukhoM kA jo tyAga kara detA hai aura karmajanya duHkhoM kA pratikAra kiye binA, samatAbhAva se sahana karatA hai, vaha AtmA svAdhIna banatI hai, paramAtmasvarUpa prApta karatI hai| janama-janama meM naye-naye spa: cAra gatiyoM meM jIvoM ko kaise-kaise naye rUpa karane par3ate haiM-jAnate ho ? rojAnA athavA kabhI-kabhI yAda karane cAhie ve rUpa ! kabhI pRthvI kA rUpa, kabhI pAnI kA rUpa, kabhI agni kA rUpa, kabhI vAyu kA rUpa, kabhI vanaspati kA rUpa...kabhI beindriya jIvoM kA rUpa, kabhI teindriya kA, kabhI caurindriya kA, to kabhI paMcendriya kA rUpa dhAraNa karatA hai jIva ! kabhI deva banakara sukhopabhoga kiyA, kabhI naraka meM nArakI banakara ghora duHkha sahana kiye...kabhI paza-pakSI banakara trAsa sahana kiye, to kabhI manuSya ke vividha rUpa dhAraNa kiye haiN| na sA jAi, na sA joNI, na taM ThANaM na taM kulaM / na jAyA na muA jattha savve jIvA anantaso // aisI koI jAti nahIM hai, aisI koI yoni nahIM hai, aisA koI sthAna nahIM hai aura aisA koI kula nahIM hai ki jahA~ sabhI jIva anaMta bAra janme nahIM ho aura mare nahIM ho| __saMsAra eka raMgamaMca hai, usake Upara jIva sadaiva abhinaya karate rahate haiN| karma hote haiM DAyarekTara-digdarzaka ! karma jisa prakAra nacAye usa prakAra jIva nAcate rahate haiM ! kabhI putra kA rUpa lekara nAcatA hai, to kabhI bhAI kA rUpa lekara nAcatA hai / kabhI vahI pitA yA zatru kA rUpa lekara nAcatA hai / kabhI mAtA kA, to kabhI patnI kA, kabhI bahana kA, to kabhI putrI kA rUpa lekara saMsAra ke raMgamaMca para | 220 / BE zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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nAcatA hai, abhinaya karatA rahatA hai / apana saba naTa haiM, abhinetA haiM ! ananta kAla se abhinaya kara rahe haiM / kaba anta AyegA, hameM patA nahIM hai / ___ kabhI-kabhI soceM ki kaba isa bhavanATaka meM nAcane kA aMta AyegA ? nAcatenAcate thaka gaye / aba nahIM nAcanA hai saMsAra ke raMgamaMca para / isa vartamAna manuSyajIvana meM bhI kaise-kaise rUpa banAkara nAcate haiM ? bacapana...yauvana...aura bur3hApA...kaisA vyatIta hotA hai ? kaise-kaise rUpa banAte par3ate haiM ? Akhira mRtyu ! mRtyu bhI eka prakAra kA rUpa hI hotA hai / mRtyu ke bAda nayA janma lenA hogA ! patA nahIM, kisa gati meM janma lenA hogA / ___ isa saMsAra-paribhramaNa se mana udvigna honA cAhie / saMsAra-paribhramaNa ke mukhya hetu hai viSaya aura kaSAya / viSaya-kaSAyoM ko pratikSaNa zatru samajheM, mitra nahIM / viSaya-kaSAyoM kA sAtha nahIM le, sahArA nahIM le; sahArA leM mAtra devaguru aura dharma kA / tabhI saMsAra-paribhramaNa kA aMta A sakatA hai / saMsAra kI bhayAnakatA kA saMvedana honA cAhie / isalie Apa loga "samarAditya-mahAkathA" avazya pddh'eN| isa prakAra Aja tRtIya saMsAra-bhAvanA kI cAra gAthA (kAvya) kA vivecana kiyaa| zeSa cAra gAthA kA vivecana kala karU~gA / Aja basa, itanA hii| sasAra bhAvanA 221

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 20 saMsAra bhAvanA - 4 ELEEPEECHEAPER : saMkalanA : pApatyAga kA puruSArtha kareM / mohamadirA se buddhibhraSTatA / mahAkAla jAdUgara hai| jinavacanoM kA saccA sahArA / gardabhAlI muni aura saMjaya rAjA / jinavacanoM para thor3A ciMtana kareM / abhayadAtA bneN| yaha jIvaloka anitya hai / sabakucha chor3akara jAnA hai / svajana sAtha nahIM caleMge / mRtyu ke bAda sAre rizte samApta / mRtyu kA zoka alpakAlIna / zubhAzubha karma hI sAtha calate haiM / . nimitta aura upAdAna / dharmakriyA karanevAle sAvadhAna !

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vrajati tanayo'pi nanu janakatAM, tanayatAM vrajati punareSa re / bhAvayanvikRtimiti bhavagatestyaja tamAM nRbhavazubhazeSa re / / 5 / / kalaya0 yatra duHkhArtigadadavalavai-ranudinaM dAse jIva re hanta tatraiva rajyasi ciraM mohamadirAmadakSIva re // 6 // kalaya. darzayan kimapi sukhavaibhavaM saMharaMstadatha sahasaiva re|| vipralambhayati zizumiva janaM kAlabaTuko'yamatraiva re // 7 // kalaya. sakalasaMsArabhayabhedakaM jinavaco manasi nibadhAna re / vinaya pariNamaya niHzreyasaM vihita zamarasasudhApAna re // 8 // kalaya. upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI zAntasudhArasa' graMtha meM tIsarI saMsAra-bhAvanA kA gAna karate hue kahate haiM : isa saMsAra meM, bhava ke parivartana ke sAtha putra pitA banatA hai, pitA putra kA rUpa letA hai ! tU aisI saMsAra-sthiti kA jarA vicAra to kara ! aura aise saMsAra ke hetubhUta pApoM kA tyAga kara / abhI bhI mAnavadeharUpa zubha sAmagrI tere pAsa hai, tU puruSArtha kara / o jIva, tu jisa saMsAra meM pratidina taraha-taraha kI ciMtA, duHkha aura bImAriyoM kI agnijvAlA meM jalatA hai, jhalasatA hai, usI saMsAra para ta kyA Asakta huA jA rahA hai ? paraMtu isameM terA doSa kyA ? moha kI madirA tUne dabA-dabA kara pI rakhI hai, jisase terI buddhi sunna ho gaI hai / bar3e aphasosa kI yaha bAta hai| yaha kAla-mahAkAla eka jAdugara hai / isa saMsAra ke jIvoM ko vaha sukhasamaddhi batAtA hai, lalacAtA hai aura phira acAnaka vaha sArI mAyAjAla sameTakara logoM ko abodha bacce kI taraha ThagatA hai / yaha saMsAra eka indrajAla se jyAdA, jAdugara kI mAyAjAla se jyAdA aura kuchabhI nahIM hai / isalie o Atman, tU tere mana meM jinavacanoM kA ciMtana kara / ve jinavacana hI saMsAra ke tamAma bhayoM kA nAza kareMge / zamarasa kA amRtapAna karake tU mukti kA yAtrI ho skegaa| makti, tamAma duHkhoM ke saMpUrNatayA vilayarUpa hai aura zAzvata sukha kA ekamAtra dhAma hai / pApatyAga kA puruSArtha kareM : jisa saMsAra meM mohazatru satAtA rahatA hai, jo saMsAra bhayAkrAnta hai, DarAvanA hai, jisa saMsAra ke sabhI rizte asAra haiM, jahA~ kadama-kadama para parezAniyA~ hai, parAbhava _ saMsAra bhAvanA 223 , 88888888

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hotA rahatA hai, jahA~ sadAkAla karmaparavazatA hotI hai, jahA~ naye-naye janma aura naye-naye rUpa dhAraNa karane par3ate haiM, bhinna-bhinna prakAra ke abhinaya karane par3ate haiM... aise duHkhapUrNa saMsAra kA paribhramaNa miTAnA ho to pApatyAga kA puruSArtha karanA hogA / pApoM kA tyAga karanA hI hogA / isa manuSya-jIvana meM hI pApatyAga kA puruSArtha ho skegaa| I jinezvara bhagavaMtoM ne 18 prakAra ke pApa batAye haiN| zAyada Apa loga jAnate hoMge ina pApoM ko / phira bhI nAmanirdeza karatA hU~ / 1 1. hiMsA 7. mAna 8. mAyA 2. mRSAvAda 3. corI 9. lobha 4. maithuna 5. parigraha 10. rAga 11. dveSa 13. abhyAkhyAna 14. paizunya ( cugalI) 15. rati - arati 16. para - parivAda ( niMdA) 17. mAyA - mRSAvAda (daMbha se jhUTha ) 18. mithyAtvazalya 6. krodha 12. kalaha 1 ye 18 pApa haiM / saMsAra - paribhramaNa ke ye pApa hI kAraNabhUta haiN| isalie ina pApoM kA tyAga karanA anivArya hai, yadi saMsAra se mukti cAhie to / mohamadirA se buddhibhraSTatA : paraMtu sadaiva mohamadirA kA pAna karanevAle jIvoM kI buddhi bhraSTa hotI hI hai / aise jIvoM ko to saMsAra meM bhaTakanA hI hai| saMsAra kI cAra gati meM janmamRtyu karanA hI hai / buddhibhraSTa logoM ko saMsAra kI asAratA samajhAnA asaMbhava hotA hai / ve saMsArarasika hote haiM / unako to vaiSayika sukha hI priya hote haiM / AtmA... Atmasukha... mokSa ... mokSasukha kI bAteM unako priya nahIM lagatI haiM / unako ina bAtoM se koI matalaba nahIM hotA hai / 1 1 mohAndha-buddhibhraSTa logoM ko pApoM kA bhaya nahIM hotA hai, unako to duHkhoM kA bhaya hotA hai / unako duHkha nahIM cAhie ! paraMtu ve duHkhoM se baca nahIM sakate / jo loga pApa karate haiM, unako duHkha bhogane hI par3ate haiM / ve saMsAra kI durgatiyoM meM janma-maraNa karate rahate haiM / mahAkAla jAdUgara hai : aise mohamadirA ke vyasanI aura buddhibhraSTa loga, saMsAra meM aneka prakAra kI cintAoM kI agnijvAlA meM jalate rahate haiM / satata ciMtA karanevAlA manuSya, eka 224 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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yoddhA se bhI jyAdA tanAva sahatA hotA hai / yuddha meM lar3anevAlA voriyara' (warrior) kahalAtA hai, jaba ki ciMtA (vari) karanevAlA variyara (worrier) kahalAtA hai| aise eka tanAvagrasta yoddhA ne cintA kA pRthakkaraNa kiyA hai aura kahA hai - - 30 pratizata ciMtAe~ aisI hotI haiM ki jo aparivartanIya hotI haiM / jisake nirNaya ___ ho gaye hote haiN| - 12 pratizata ciMtAe~, dUsaroM ne apane lie jo TIkAe~ kI hotI haiM, taviSayaka hotI haiN| inameM se bahuta sI TIkAe~ saccI nahIM hotI haiM / - 10 pratizata ciMtAe~ svAsthyaviSayaka hotI haiM / -- 40 pratizata ciMtAe~ bhaviSyaviSayaka hotI haiM, jo nirarthaka hotI haiM / - mAtra 8 pratizata jitanI ciMtAe~ saccI hotI haiM, jinakA pratikAra yogya samaya para apana kara sakate haiN| ciMtAe~ apanA pIchA chor3atI nahIM haiM, yaha bhI eka prakAra kA bleka-meila hI kahA jAyegA ! vartamAnakAlIna manuSya ko, pUrvakAlIna manuSya kI apekSA jyAdA ciMtAe~ rahatI haiM / pUrvakAlIna manuSya jaba eka gA~va se dUsare gA~va jAtA, taba jaMgalI janAvaroM kA bhaya rahatA thaa| Aja manuSya ko hAi-ve ke Upara TrakoM se Dara lagatA hai ! cintA nAma kI DAkina manuSya ko nIMda meM bhI satAtI haiM, isI kAraNa slIpiMga TebleTa kI khoja huI hai na ! __ saMsAra meM eka yA dUsare prakAra kI cintAe~ manuSya ko banI hI rahatI haiM / jaba taka icchAe~, kAmanAe~, abhilASAe~ banI rahatI haiM, taba taka cintAe~ banI rahatI haiM / banI raheMgI hii| aura eka dina jAdUgara kI taraha mahAkAla jIva ko uThAkara le jAtA hai / ___ mahAkAla ko graMthakAra ne jAdUgara' kahA hai / jaise jAdUgara mAyAjAla phailAtA hai vaise yaha saMsAra bhI mAyAjAla hI hai / eka kSaNa meM mAyAjAla ko sameTa kara mahAkAla jIva ko uThAkara le jAtA hai / saba kucha zUnya ho jAtA hai / jinavacanoM kA saccA sahArA : saMsAra kA isa prakAra se ciMtana karate rahanA hai / saMsAra kI niHsAratA, asAratA, kSaNikatA kA punaH punaH, bAra-bAra ciMtana karate hue jaba saMsAra ke prati vairAgya jagatA hai, virakti A jAtI hai, taba jinavacana hI jIvoM ko AMtarika zAnti dete haiM / saMsAra-paribhramaNa ke bhaya ko miTAte haiM / jinavacanoM ke sahAre hI jIva, saMsAra bhAvanA 3588838 225

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I saMsAra ke duHkhoM se bacane kA AzvAsana pAtA hai / vizvAsa pAtA hai / vaise saMsAra kI, hiMsAdi pApoM kI Asakti bhI jinavacanoM se hI TUTatI hai | mohAsakta aura pApAsakta jIvoM ko, bhAgyavaza jinavacana sunane mila jAte haiM, to ve jIva moharahita - pAparahita bana jAte haiM / 1 gardabhAlI muni aura saMjaya rAjA : aisI hI eka prAcIna kahAnI Aja Apako sunaauuNgaa| yaha kahAnI zramaNa bhagavAn mahAvIra svAmI ne apanI aMtima dezanA meM sunAI thI / 'uttarAdhyayana sUtra' meM Aja bhI vaha kahAnI par3ha sakate haiM / kAMpilya nagara kA rAjA saMjaya, pazuoM kA zikAra karane jaMgaloM meM jAyA karatA thA / usako mRgamAMsa bahuta bhAtA thA, isalie vaha jyAdAtara mRgoM kA zikAra karatA thA / usane eka bahuta bar3A mRgavana banavAyA thaa| usa vana meM hajAroM mRga rahate the / usa vana kA nAma thA kezaravana / eka dina kI bAta hai / vaha kucha sainikoM ke sAtha zikAra karane kezaravana meM gayA / usane mRgoM kA zikAra karanA prAraMbha kiyA / paraMtu rAjA ko dekhakara, hajAroM mRga daur3akara eka vRkSaghaTA meM ki jahA~ eka munirAja dharmadhyAna meM nimagna ho, khar3e the, vahA~ pahu~ca gaye / rAjA ne vahA~ jAkara zikAra kiyaa| kucha mRgoM ko mAra DAlA / phira ghor3e para se utarakara usa vRkSaghaTA meM gayA / vahA~ usane karuNAmUrti dhyAnastha gardabhAlI nAma ke munirAja ko dekhA / usane socA : 'maiMne munirAja ko dekhA nahIM, mAtra mRgoM ko hI dekhA aura tIra calA diye / munirAja ko bhI tIra lagA hogA ?' vaha bhayabhIta ho gayA / usane munirAja ke caraNoM meM vaMdanA kI aura bolA : 'he bhagavan, mere isa aparAdha ko kSamA kareM, maiMne bar3A pApa kiyA hai / ' paraMtu munirAja to dhyAnastha the / unhoMne rAjA ko pratyuttara nahIM diyA / rAjA saMjaya ghabarAyA / usane socA: 'ye muni pratyuttara nahIM dete / avazya ye mere prati kopAyamAna bane haiM... ye kyA kreNge| zApa deMge ? jalA deMge mujhe ? aise ghora tapasvI muni, yadi ve krodhI banate haiM, to hajAroM logoM ko jalA sakate haiN| maiMne aisA sunA hai| paraMtu maiM kyA karU~ ? mujhe mAluma nahIM thA ki isa vRkSaghaTA meM munirAja khar3e hoMge ! maiM merA paricaya dU~ aura punaH kSamAyAcanA kara, unase abhayavacana mA~ga la~ / rAjA vinamra bhAva se bolA 'bhagavan, mujhe kSamAvacana sunAyeM / maiM rAjA saMjaya 226 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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| maiMne mRgoM kA zikAra kiyA hai / Apako bhI kaSTa pahu~cAyA hai / bhagavan, mujhe abhayavacana dene kI kRpA kareM / munirAja ne apanA dharmadhyAna pUrNa kiyA aura kRpApUrNa dRSTi se rAjA kI ora dekhA / unhoMne kahA : abhao patthivA tubbhaM abhayadAyA bhavAhi a 1 aNicce jIvalogaMmi kiM hiMsA e pasajjasi ? 11 rAjan, merI ora se tujhe abhaya hai aura tU bhI abhayadAtA ho ! yaha jIvalokayaha saMsAra anitya hai, tU kyoM hiMsA meM pravRtta hotA hai ? jayA savvaM pariccajja, gaMtavvamavasassa te aNicce jIvalogammi, kiM rajjaMmi pasajjasi ? // rAjan, saba kucha chor3akara jIva ko eka dina avazya jAnA hI par3atA hai, tujhe bhI jAnA par3egA; to phira isa anitya saMsAra meM, rAjya kA moha kyoM ? jIviaM ceva svaM ca, vijjusaMpAyacaMcalaM jattha taM mujjhasI rAyaM, peccatthaM nAvabujjhase ? 1 / rAjan, yaha jIvana... yaha rUpa... bijalI kI camaka jaisA mAna, jisameM tU mohAsakta banA hai 1 tU paraloka kA vicAra kyoM nahIM karatA hai ? dArANi a suA ceva mittA ya tahA baMdhavA / jIvaMtamaNujIvaMti mayaM nANuvvayaMti a 11 rAjan, patnI, putra, mitra aura bAMdhava - ye sabhI tU jIvita hai taba taka haiM, mRtyu hone para ye sAtha nahIM caleMge / phira ye mere svajana aisA mamatva kyoM ? baMdhUrAyaM 11 niharaMti mayaM puttA, piaraM paramadukkhi A piaro'vi tahA putte putte tavaM care rAjan, saMsAra kI kaisI asAratA hai ! mRta pitA ko putra ghara se bAhara nikAla dete haiM aura pitA bhI mRta putra, mRta baMdhu vagairaha ko ghara se bAhara nikAla dete haiM / isalie rAjan, tapazcaryA kareM / saMyama grahaNa kareM / tao teNa'jjie davve dAre a parirakkhie / kIlaMtanne narA rAyaM haThThatuTThA alaMkiyA rAjan, dhanArjana karanevAle manuSya kI mRtyu hone para, dUsare loga usa dhana se aura usa strI vagairaha se mauja-majA karate haiN| zarIra ko sajAkara bar3e khuza hokara saMsAra bhAvanA 227

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jIte haiM / teNAvi jaM kayaM kammaM suhaM vA jai vA'suhaM / kammuNA teNa saMjutto gacchai u paraM bhavaM // maranevAlA jIva, he rAjan, jo zubhAzubha karma karatA hai, una karmoM ke sAtha vaha jIva paraloka jAtA hai, isalie he rAjan, tapa aura saMyama grahaNa karanA cAhie / mahAmuni se isa prakAra jinavacana suna kara rAjA saMjaya saMsAra ke prati virakta banate haiM, vaiSayika sukhoM ke prati virAgI banate haiM, rAjya kA tyAga kara dete haiM... aura zramaNa bana jAte haiM / tapa-saMyama kA pAlana kara parama saMvega se muktisukha pA lete haiM / ina jinavacanoM para thor3A ciMtana kareM : rAjA saMjaya kI Atmasthiti para thor3A vicAra karanA cAhie / vaha rAjA thaa| mAMsAhArI thA / rojAnA mRgamAMsa khAnevAlA thA / mRgamAMsa use bahuta bhAtA thA / yaha bAta 'uttarAdhyayana sUtra meM zramaNa bhagavAn mahAvIra svAmI ne batAI hai / zAyada vaha koI bhI dharmakriyA nahIM karatA hogA / na kisI sAdhu-munirAja kA paricaya hogA ! jaina zramaNa kA to paricaya hogA hI nahIM / anyathA vaha yaha nahIM socatA ki ye muni kopAyamAna hoMge, to lAkhoM-karor3oM manuSyoM ko jalA sakate haiM !' 'kuddhe teNa aNagAre dahijja narakoDio / aisA nahIM soca sakatA thA / jaina zramaNa kSamAzIla hote haiM / aparAdhI ke prati bhI kSamAzIla hote haiM / kSamA to unakA prathama guNa hotA hai| paraMtu saMjaya rAjA, sarvaprathama gardabhAlI munirAja ke paricaya meM Aye the / dUsarI bAta thI zikAra kii| usane aneka mRgoM kA zikAra kiyA thA / aneka mare hue mRga vahA~ par3e the / zAyada ekAdha tIra munirAja ko bhI lagA ho| isalie rAjA bhayabhIta ho gayA thA aura vinamra ho, vinIta ho, munirAja se kSamA mA~ga rahA thA / abhaya vacana mA~ga rahA thA / yaha bAta huI rAjA kI / aba soceM munirAja ke viSaya meM / pahalI bAta : munirAja rAjA ke paricita nahIM the / rAjA bhI munirAja kA paricita nahIM thA / donoM eka-dUsare se aparicita the / dUsarI bAta : munirAja jaMgala meM - kezaravana meM, mRgoM ke vana meM, akele dhyAna- dharmadhyAna kara rahe the yAnI dhyAnastha the / rAjA ne unake dhyAna meM vighna kiyA thaa| hajAroM mRga bhI jIva bacAne ke lie udhara 228 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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munirAja ke AsapAsa pahu~ca gaye the aura rAjA bhI vahA~ pahu~ca gayA thA ! munirAja kA dhyAna bhaMga ho gayA thaa| rAjA ko zikArI ke rUpa meM dekhA thaa| yaha saMjaya rAjA hai, yaha muni ko mAluma bhI ho gayA thaa| kyoMki rAjA ne svayaM apanA paricaya diyA thA ! munirAja ne rAjA ko DA~TA nahIM, upAlaMbha nahIM diyA, yaha mahattvapUrNa bAta hai ! usakA tiraskAra nahIM kiyA, kaTuvacana nahIM sunAye - 'tUne mRgoM ko mAra DAle, mahApApa kiyA, tU marakara naraka meM jAyegA...' vagairaha kaTu vacana nahIM sunAye / rAjA kI ora kruddha dRSTi se dekhA bhI nahIM / aparAdhI ke sAtha unhoMne kaisA vyavahAra kiyA, yaha bar3I mahattvapUrNa bAta hai ! jinavacana sunAne haiM, dharmopadeza denA hai, to sarvaprathama zrotA ke mana ko Azvasta karanA hogaa| usake aparAdha ko mApha karanA hogA / munirAja ne pahalA hI vacana kyA bolA thA ? 'abhao patthivA tubhaM ! 'he pArthiva, he rAjan, tujhe abhaya hai ! merI ora se tU nirbhaya hai !' rAjA nirbhaya huA / manuSya ko jahA~ bhayaMkara sajA milane kI saMbhAvanA lagatI ho, vahA~ yadi usako mAphI mila jAtI hai, vaha nirdoSa chUTa jAtA hai, taba usakI khazI kI sImA nahIM rahatI hai| rAjA ko abhaya vacana sunAne ke bAda munirAja ne jinavacana sunAye haiM / uttarAdhyayana sUtra ke aThArahaveM adhyayana meM sAta gAthAe~ kahI gaI haiM, jo maiMne Apako sunAI haiM / udhara gardabhAlI muni ne zikArI rAjA ko sAta gAthA sunAyI thI, yahA~ maiMne Apa jaise dhArmika logoM ko ve hI gAthAe~ sunAyI haiM / ye jinavacana sunakara zikArI rAjA sAdhu bana gayA thA, Apa loga kyA baneMge ? Apa to acche loga haiM na ? mAMsAhAra nahIM karate, zarAba nahIM pIte, juA nahIM khelate...vagairaha pApa nahIM karate haiM na ? __ sabhA meM se : hamAre caritra Apa nahIM jAnate...Apa hameM acche samajhate haiM, paraMtu hama loga to durjanoM ke bhI durjana haiN...| mahArAjazrI : durjanatA kA pazcAttApa hotA hai ? yadi pazcAttApa hogA to eka dina durjanatA calI jAyegI aura sajjanatA A jAyegI / jinavacanoM ke prabhAva se hI durjana sajjana bana jAte haiM / bhUtakAla meM bane haiM, vartamAna meM banate haiM aura bhaviSyakAla meM baneMge / jinavacanoM kA yahI camatkAra haiM ! aba maiM Apako munivara gardabhAlI ne saMjaya rAjA ko sAta gAthAoM meM jo jinavacana sunAye haiM, una vacanoM ko kucha vizeSatAe~ batAtA hU~ / | saMsAra bhAvanA 229

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abhayadAtA baneM : sarvaprathama bAta kahI abhayadAna kI ! svayaM munirAja ne rAjA ko abhaya kiyA aura preraNA bhI abhayadAna kI dI / kyoMki vaha usa vana meM zikAra karane AyA thA / AsapAsa hajAroM nirdoSa mRga khar3e the / jaise ve munirAja se abhaya kI yAcanA kara rahe hoM ! unako bhaya thA rAjA se / munirAja ne rAjA ko abhayadAna kA pahalA dharma batAyA / 'ta mere se abhaya cAhatA hai, vaise ye maga tere se abhaya cAhate haiM ! sabhI jIva jIvana cAhate haiM, mRtyu koI nahIM cAhatA hai / aura trasa-sthAvara sabhI jIvoM ko abhayadAna, mAtra mahAvratadhArI saMyamI AtmA hI de sakatI hai / isa dRSTi se munirAja ne rAjA ko sAdhudharma kI ora izArA kara diyA hai / Age jAkara spaSTa zabdoM meM sAdhudharma kI preraNA dI hai / yaha jIvaloka anitya hai : __ jIvaloka kI anityatA...asAratA unhoMne do gAthA meM kahI hai / kyoMki sAmane rAjA thA / rAjA ke pAsa bharapUra bhautika sukha hote haiM aura sukhoM ke bIca jIva ko saMsAra anitya nahIM lagatA / saMsAra kI asAratA kA vicAra bhI nahIM AtA ! isalie munirAja ne rAjA ko kahA : kSaNika...alpakAlIna jIvana meM tU hiMsA meM kyoM pravRtti karatA hai ? jIvahiMsA se paraloka meM jIva tIvra zArIrikamAnasika duHkha pAtA hai ? sadaiva yAda rakhanA cAhie ki yaha jIvaloka, yaha saMsAra asAra hai / isameM jIva, kisI bhI gati meM, kisI bhI yoni meM sthira nahIM hai / janma-mRtyu kA anAdikAlIna cakra phiratA hI rahatA hai / vaise, saMsAra meM sukhaduHkha kA bhI cakra calatA hI rahatA hai| saba kucha chor3akara jAnA hai : munirAja ne tIsarI bAta bhI coTadAra kahI hai / yAda rakho - 'saba kucha chor3akara jAnA hai ! rAjya ko bhI chor3akara jAnA hai ! ekAnta kSaNoM meM apane mana kI sAkSI se pratidina ciMtana karane kI bAta kaha dI hai - 'mujhe saba kucha chor3akara jAnA hai / jisako eka dina avazya chor3akara jAnA hai, usa para mamatva kyoM karanA ? usako apanA kyoM mAnanA ? nahIM mAnanA cAhie / jaba bhI koI iSTapriya vastu kA tyAga karane meM mana AnAkAnI karatA ho taba isa sUtra ko yAda karanA - saba kucha chor3akara jAnA hai ! 230 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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spa aura jIvana caMcala hai : __ sabhI jIvoM ko apanA jIvana priya hotA hai aura yaha to rAjA thA, rUpavAna thA, isalie rUpa bhI priya hotA hai / munirAja ne rUpa aura jIvana, donoM kI caMcalatAasthiratA-kSaNikatA batA dI / rUpa zAzvat nahIM hai, jIvana zAzvat nahIM hai / rUpa kabhI bhI karUpa bana sakatA hai, jIvana kA kabhI bhI aMta A sakatA hai| rUpa kI caMcalatA ko mana-mastiSka meM banAye rakhane ke lie sanatkumAra cakravartI kA dRSTAMta yAda rakho / snAna karate samaya devoM ko bhI vismita kara denevAlA rUpa, jaba cakravartI rAjasabhA meM jAkara baiThA, taba kurUpa bana gayA thA ! usake zarIra meM solaha prakAra ke roga paidA ho gaye the ! jIvana kI caMcalatA to hospiTaloM meM aura smazAna-gRhoM meM pratidina dekhane milegI / akhabAroM meM par3hate rahate ho na ? rUpa aura jIvana kI kSaNikatA kA vicAra, Apako paraloka kA vicAra karane ke lie prerita kregaa| mRtyu ke bAda maiM kisa gati meM jAU~gA, yaha vicAra pratidina karanA cAhie / paraloka kA vicAra manuSya ko pApa karane se rokatA hai| pApa karane se durgati meM jAnA par3atA hai / naraka aura tiryaMcagati meM janma lenA par3atA hai, yaha bAta jo manuSya jAnatA hai, vaha pApoM se bacakara jIvana jiiyegaa| svajana sAtha nahIM cleNge| jina svajanoM ke lie, svajanaprema se, svajanamoha se prerita hokara jIva pApa karatA hai athavA apane svArtha se svajanoM ke sAtha rAga-dveSa karatA hai, ve svajanapatnI, putra, bhAI-bahana-mitra vagairaha jIva kI mRtyu ke bAda paraloka meM sAtha nahIM calate / jina svajanoM ke kAraNa jIva pApa karatA hai, duSkarma karatA hai, ve svajana, jaba pApoM ke phala jIva ko bhogane par3ate haiM, taba duHkha ba~TAte nahIM haiN| yaha bAta acchI taraha samajhane ke lie abhayakumAra aura kAlasaukarika kasAI ke putra sulasa kI kahAnI pddh'naa| abhayakumAra ne yaha bAta sulasa ko prayogAtmaka DhaMga se samajhAyI thii| mRtyu ke bAda sAre rizte samApta : __ svajana aura parijanoM kA sneha-saMbaMdha, AdAna-pradAna vagairaha taba taka rahatA hai, jaba taka mRtyu nahIM AtI ! pitA kI mRtyu ho gaI, putra pitA ke mRtadeha ko ghara se bAhara nikAla detA hai, pitA kA kitanA bhI pyAra ho, pitA mara gaye, basa pyAra bhI mara gayA ! vaise patra bhI kitanA pyArA thaa| paraMtu mara gayA, pitA putra [ saMsAra bhAvanA

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ke mRtadeha ko ghara meM nahIM rakhatA, nikAla detA hai, jalA detA hai ! vaise patipatnI kA riztA ho, bhAI-bhAI kA riztA ho, mitra-mitra kA riztA hai...jaba taka jIvana hotA hai, taba taka hI sneha, pyAra... saMbaMdha banA rahatA hai, mRtyu ke sAtha saba kucha samApta ho jAtA hai| mRtyu kA zoka alpakAlIna : priyajana kI mRtyu ke bAda, svajana-viraha kI vyathA-vedanA prAyaH alpakAla rahatI hai / baladeva-vAsudeva kA prema apavAdarUpa samajhanA cAhie / inake alAvA saMsAra meM sarvatra mRtyu kA zoka alpakAlIna hI hotA hai / priyajana kI mRtyu ke bAda, kucha mahIne vyatIta hone para svajana-loga mastI se khAte-pIte haiM, zRMgAra sajate haiM aura raMgarAga meM DUba jAte haiM / jo vyakti mara jAtA hai, saba saMpattivaibhava chor3akara mara jAtA hai, usa saMpatti kA, usa vaibhava kA upayoga usake svajana vagairaha maje se karate rahate haiM / dAna-puNya bahuta kama karate haiM, bhogopabhoga hI jyAdA karate haiN| zubhAzubha karma hI sAtha calate haiM : __ mRtyu ke bAda snehI-svajana-parijana koI bhI sAtha nahIM calate, calate haiM mAtra jIva ke kiye hue zubhAzubha karma ! isa jIvana meM jo bhI acche-bure karma bA~dhe hoMge, ve karma AtmA ke sAtha paraloka meM calate haiM ! __ zubha karma paraloka meM sAtha calate haiM, to paraloka meM jIva ko sukha ke sAdhana milate haiM / azubha karma paraloka meM sAtha calate haiM, to paraloka meM jIva ko duHkha ke nimitta milate haiM / puNya se sukha aura pApoM se duHkha milate haiM / manirAja gardabhAlI ne saMjaya rAjA ko ye jinavacana sunAye aura rAjA kA mana saMsAra ke prati virakta banA / rAjA ne saMsAra kA tyAga kiyA, ve zramaNa bane / AtmA ko karmoM se mukta karane kA prabala puruSArtha kiyA aura ve siddha, buddha, mukta bana gaye ! saMsAra-paribhramaNa kA aMta A gayA / nimitta aura upAdAna : jinavacana nimitta haiM / ve hI jinavacana hameM mile haiM, jo jinavacana rAjA saMjaya ko mile the / ve jinavacanoM kA zreSTha nimitta pAkara bhavasAgara ko pAra kara gaye / hama abhI bhavasAgara meM bhaTaka rahe haiM / aisA kyoM ho rahA hai ? mana meM prazna uThatA hai na ? jJAnI puruSoM ne isa prazna kA samAdhAna diyA hai / nimitta kAraNa | 232 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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kitanA bhI zreSTha ho, uttama ho, paraMtu yadi upAdAna paripakva nahIM hotA hai, to phalaprApti nahIM hotI hai / upAdAna hotA hai AtmA / AtmA kI bhavasthiti paripakva nahIM hotI hai, to nimitta kA asara nahIM hotA hai / rAjA saMjaya kI AtmA kI yogyatA paripakva ho gaI thii| sabhA meM se : vaha to mAMsAhArI thA, zikArI thA...rasalolupa thA...! mahArAjazrI : Apa loga bAla jIva haiM / Apa dUsaroM kI bAhya kriyAe~ dekhakara usakI yogyatA-ayogyatA kA nirNaya karate haiM / jJAnI puruSa, kabhI bhI dUsare jIvoM ke bAhya kriyA-kalApoM ko dekhakara unakI yogyatA-ayogyatA kA nirNaya nahIM krte| ve to unakI AtmadazA dekhate haiM / ve unake bhItara dekhate haiM ! jaise bhUstarazAstrI miTTI meM sonA dekhate haiM ! aura ajJAnI pittala meM sonA dekhate haiM ! vaise Apa loga dharmakriyA karanevAloM ko mokSagAmI mAna lete ho aura pApakriyA karanevAloM ko narakagAmI mAna lete ho ! jJAnI puruSa aisA nahIM mAnate ! ve upAdAnabhUta AtmA kI bhItarI avasthA ko dekhate haiM / saMbhava hotA hai ki isI bhava meM mokSa pAnevAle jIvoM kI kriyA pApa kI ho aura anaMta saMsAra meM bhaTakanevAle jIva kI kriyA dharma kI ho ! vaha dharmakriyA usako mukti nahIM dilAtI hai ! dharmakriyA karanevAle sAvadhAna ! ___ isalie maiM kaI bAra Apako kahatA hU~ ki Apa dharmakriyAe~ karake abhimAna nahIM kreN| dharmakriyA karane mAtra se ApakI mukti nizcita nahIM hotI hai / Apa loga mere nimna praznoM ke uttara denA - 1. kyA Apako pApakriyAoM ke prati napharata huI hai ? 2. pApakriyA karanevAloM ke prati bhAva-karuNA hotI hai ? 3. svayaM pApakriyA karane para pazcAttApa hotA hai ? 4. pUrNa jAgRti ke sAtha upayogapUrvaka pratikramaNa karate ho ? 5. jo bhI dharmakriyA Apa karate ho, karate samaya AnaMda aura karane ke bAda anumodanA kA bhAva jagatA hai ? 6. jo dUsare loga Apa se acchI dharmakriyA karate haiM, unakI prazaMsA karate ho kyA ? unakI prazaMsA sunakara pramodabhAva AtA hai kyA ? 7. pApakriyA karane ke bAda hRdaya meM duHkha hotA hai kyA ? 8. sabhI pApoM kA kAraNa saMsAravAsa hai - yaha jinavacana hRdayastha huA hai kyA ? 9. saMsAratyAga kara kaba saMyamI zramaNa banU~ - aisI bhAvanA jagatI hai kyA ? / saMsAra bhAvanA 233

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10. saMyamadharma kA acchA pAlana karane ke manoratha citta meM jagate haiM kyA ? ina praznoM para ciMtana karanA / apanI DAyarI meM uttara likhanA / isa prakAra AtmAvalokana karanA / - saMsAra-bhAvanA se bhAvita honA hai / - saMsAra-bhAvanA se bhAvita hokara saMsAra ke prati virakta bananA hai / - saMsAravirakti hI AtmAnanda kI jananI hai / - saMsAravirakti Ane para rAga-dveSa maMda ho jAyeMge / - saMsAravirakti Ane para antarAtmabhAva jAgrata hogA, usameM sthiratA hogI aura paramAtmA ke prati prItibhAva jAgrata hogA / saMsAra-bhAvanA bhAte-bhAte saMsAra se virakta baneM, yahI maMgala kAmanA / Aja basa, itanA hii| | 234 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 21 : saMkalanA : maiM AtmA Atama sarva samAna / hama siddhoM ke sAdharmika AtmA hI bhagavAna / ekatva - bhAvanA meM dInatA nahIM hai / AtmA ke alAvA saba kucha kalpanA / maiM nahIM hU~ nA'hama AtmasAdhaka ko paricaya bAdhaka - ghAtaka / paradravya ko svadravya mAnanA bar3I bhUla / parastrI ko svastrI mAnanA duHkhadAyI / - kamAMDara nANAvaTI aura prema AhujA jIvana meM paradravya kA praveza, anartha kA mUla /

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eka eva bhagavAnayamAtmA jJAnadarzanataraGgasaraGgaH / sarvamanyadupakalpitamed vyAkulIkaraNameva mamatvam // 1 // upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI zAntasudhArasa graMtha kI cauthI bhAvanA kA maMgala prAraMbha karate hue kahate haiM : yaha AtmA eka hI hai, yahI prabhu hai, bhagavAn hai, jJAnadarzana kI taraMgoM meM masta hai / isake alAvA jo kucha bhI hai, vaha saba mamatva mAtra hai, kalpanA kA vizva hai / yaha mamatva vyAkulatA ko bar3hAnevAlA hai| maiM AtmA : maiM AtmA huuN| 'maiM vizuddha Atmadravya hU~, AtmasattA huuN| zuddha jJAna aura darzana mere haiM, mere guNa haiM / Aja hameM isa Atmatattva para hI ciMtana-manana karanA hai / jo hama svayaM haiM, hameM apane ApakA ciMtana karanA hai / bhAvanA ke Aloka meM usa Atmadravya ko dekhanA hai, AtmasattA ko nihAranA hai / Aja usI ke gIta gAnA hai / zeSa saba kucha bhUlakara... kalpanA ke jagat ko bhUlakara AtmA kI mastI kA anubhava karanA Atama sarva samAna : eka adhyAtma ke kavi ne gAyA hai : 'Atama sarva samAna, nidhAna mahA sukhakaMda, siddha taNA sAdharmI sattAe guNavRnda ! vizuddha AtmasattA kI dRSTi se samagra AtmasRSTi eka hI hai / jaisI sthiti siddha bhagavaMtoM kI hai vaisI sabhI AtmAoM kI hai| isa dRSTi se, vizuddha AtmasattA kI dRSTi se hama siddhoM ke sAdharmika haiM / unake jaise hI haiM / anaMta sukhamaya haiM, jJAnamaya haiM, guNamaya haiN| maiM vizuddha AtmA huuN| maiM anaMta sukhamaya huuN| maiM anaMta jJAnamaya huuN| maiM anaMta guNamaya huuN| sattA se sabhI AtmA eka-samAna haiM / `lm 236 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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hama siddhoM ke sAdharmika : ___eka apanI nayI pahacAna kara lo / caudaha rAjaloka ke Upara jo siddhazilA hai, jahA~ siddha-buddha-mukta anaMta AtmAoM kA avasthAna haiM, jo pUrNAnandI haiM, jo pUrNa sukhI haiM, jo pUrNa jJAnI haiM... ve hamAre sAdharmika haiM ! hama bhI unake jaise hI haiM / ve hamAre jaise haiM ! ve hI sAdharmika kahalAte haiM, jinake guNadharma samAna hote haiM / unake jJAna, sukha, AnaMda Adi anaMtaguNa haiM, hamAre bhI haiM ! unake pragaTa bhaya haiM, hamAre pracchanna haiM ! astitva (sattA) kI dRSTi se unakI AtmasattA jaisI hamArI bhI AtmasattA hai / / kalpanA kareM siddhazilA kI / kalpanA kareM vizuddha AtmasattAvAle siddha bhagavaMtoM kI ! aura unase kaheM : he siddha bhagavaMta, hama Apake sAdharmika haiM ! hama Apa jaise hI haiM, phira hameM yahA~ madhyaloka meM kyoM rahane diyA ? hameM bhI vahA~ Apake siddhaloka meM bulA lo! hameM vahA~ AnA hai / Apake pAsa rahanA hai| aba isa 14 rAjaloka meM paribhramaNa nahIM karanA hai / kRpA karo, hameM Apake pAsa le lo| AtmA hI bhagavAn hai : kitanI ullAsapreraka, utsAhapreraka bAta kahI hai graMthakAra ne ! eka eva bhagavAnayamAtmA / ' yaha AtmA hI eka bhagavAna hai, prabhu hai ! yAnI maiM jo AtmA hU~, bhagavAna hU~ ! siddha hU~, buddha hU~, mukta huuN| pUrNAnandI hU~, pUrNa jJAnI hU~, pUrNa sukhI zuddha nayadRSTi kI isa bhAvanA se sadaiva bhAvita honA hai / isase pApoM kA nAza hotA hai aura AtmasvarUpa pragaTa hotA hai : deha-mana-vacana pudgala thakI, karmathI bhinna tuja spa re, akSaya akalaMka che jIvanU, jJAna-AnaMda saspa re... cetana, jJAna ajavAlIe / 'amRtavelI kAvya meM upAdhyAyazrI yazovijayajI ne yaha upadeza-preraNA dI hai / mana-vacana-kAyA se mukta, karmoM se mukta AtmasattA kA ciMtana karanA hai| * maiM manasvarUpa nahIM hU~, mana paudgalika hai, maiM AtmA huuN| * maiM vacanasvarUpa nahIM hU~, vacana paudgalika hai, maiM cetana hU~ / * maiM zarIrasvarUpa nahIM hU~, zarIra paudgalika hai, maiM AtmA hU~ ! | ekatva-bhAvanA 237 | 0000004

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* maiM jo AtmA hU~, caitanyasvarUpa hU~, karmoM se bhinna hU~ / * maiM jJAnAtmA hU~ / maiM darzanAtmA huuN| maiM svaguNabhogI hU~ / isa prakAra svaguNa - ciMtana karate hue apanI vizuddha AtmasattA kI ora dekhanA hai / tabhI pUrNa nirmalAnaMda kI ora gati hogI / kahA hai jJAnanI tIkSNatA caraNa teha, jJAna - ekatvatA dhyAnageha, AtmatAdAtmyatA pUrNabhAve, tadA nirmalAnaMda saMpUrNa pAve 1 jJAna - jJAnI kI abheda sthiti ke dhyAna se jaba tAdAtmya ho jAtA hai, taba AtmA nizcala Ananda kI anubhUti karatI hai aura samatArasa kA AsvAda karatI hai / yaha hai AtmA ke ekatva kI bhAvanA kA sarva prathama prakAra / aura, isa prakAra AtmaramaNatA karane para niravadhi AMtarika prasannatA prApta hotI hai / usakA mana tRNa aura maNi ko samAna dekhatA hai, deva aura naraka ko samAna dekhatA hai / mATe nijabhogI yogIsara suprasanna, deva-naraka, tRNa-maNi sama, bhAse jehane manna ekatva - bhAvanA meM dInatA nahIM hai : isa prakAra, 'nizcayadRSTi se AtmA ke ekatva kA ciMtana karane para 'maiM akelA hU~, merA koI nahIM hai, aisI dInatA nahIM AyegI / 'maiM akelI AtmA hU~, maiM bhagavAna hU~, maiM prabhu hU~, maiM ananta sukhamaya... jJAnamaya aura Anandamaya hU~, isa prakAra kA ekatva kA ciMtana dInatA paidA nahIM karatA hai, paraMtu AtmavizvAsa paidA karatA hai / AtmazraddhA paidA karatA hai| sacce artha meM apanI pahacAna hai yaha / jaba taka Atmatattva kI pahacAna nahIM hotI hai taba taka tapa - saMyama bhI vyartha hote haiM; duHkhoM kA, saMsAra kA anta nahIM AtA hai / kahA gayA hai kaSTa karo, saMyama dharo, gAlo nija deha, jJAnadazA viNa jIvane, nahIM duHkhano cheha jaba taka Atmatattva kI pahacAna nahIM hotI taba taka bhavaduHkha, saMsAra ke duHkha bhogane hI par3ate haiM / AtmajJAna hone para hI bhavaduHkha miTate haiM / Atama - ajJAne karI, je bhavaduHkha lahIe, AtamajJAne te Tale, ema mana sadrahIe - AtmA ke alAvA saba kucha kalpanA : I vAstavika tattva eka mAtra AtmA hai / zeSa saba kucha kalpanA hai / eka mAtra mamatva hai / jIva ko yaha ajJAnajanya mamatva hI duHkhI karatA hai / jo 'maiM' nahIM 1 238 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 --

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hU~, jo merA nahIM hai, usako maiM samajhanA aura merA samajhanA jIva kI jar3atA hai / buddhizUnyatA hai / hu~ ehano, e mAharo, e huM, iNa buddhi, cetana jar3atA anubhave, na vimAse zuddhi / vedAMta darzana meM jo kahA gayA hai - brahma satyaM jaganmithyA / isa apekSA se sahI hai / brahma yAnI AtmA / AtmA hI satya tattva hai, isake alAvA saba kucha mithyA hai, asatya hai / isalie jagata ke sAtha mamatva jor3ane ko jJAnIpuruSa manA karate haiM / jagata ke sAtha bhAvAtmaka saMbaMdha tor3ane hI hoMge / bAhya vyavahAra kI dRSTi se, nirlepa bhAva se hI saMbaMdha rakhane ke haiM / bAhya vyavahAroM meM saMbaMdha rakhane par3ate haiM, kyoMki jagata ke sAtha jInA hai / hA~, parvakAlIna maharSi, yogI. munIzvara...jo jaMgaloM meM, giriguphAoM meM rahate the, sAdhanAnimagna rahate haiM, vaise rahanA ho to vyAvahArika saMbaMdha bhI rakhane kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai / maiM nahIM hU~ - nA'ham / ___ jagata ke sAtha, dUsare jar3a-cetana padArthoM ke sAtha to saMbaMdha nahIM rakhane haiM, apane zarIra ke sAtha aura apane vyaktitva ke sAtha bhI saMbaMdha nahIM rakhane ke * maiM manuSya nahIM hU~, yaha manuSyadeha maiM nahIM hU~ / * maiM yuvAna nahIM hU~, vRddha nahIM hU~ / zarIra kI koI bhI avasthA, maiM nahIM hU~ / * maiM strI nahIM hU~, puruSa nahIM hU~ / * maiM vyApArI nahIM hU~, maiM naukara nahIM huuN| * jisa nAma se maiM pukArA jAtA hU~, vo maiM nahIM hU~, maiM anAmI hU~ / * maiM DaoNkTara nahIM hU~, vakIla nahIM hU~, injiniyara nahIM huuN| * koI nAma-rUpavAlA maiM nahIM huuN| nA'ham...nA'ham...nA'ham / maiM nahIM hU~, maiM nahIM hU~, maiM nahIM huuN| apane vyaktitva ko bhUlanA, apanI pahacAna ko bhUlanA bahuta Avazyaka hai / isalie yogI, muni, RSi, isa mithyA jagat se dUra-dUra jaMgaloM meM, pahAr3oM meM kho jAte the| aparicita pradezoM meM cale jAte the| anAmI aura arUpI AtmA ke sAtha tAdAtmya sAdhane ke lie, nAma aura rUpa se saMbaMdha toDanA hI hogaa| prAcIna dharmagraMthoM meM maiMne par3hA thA / sAdhujIvana kI zreSTha bhUmikA jahA~ batAyI gaI hai / sAdhu kisI gA~va meM gaye aura kisI gRhastha ne unako nAma se, vyaktitva | ekatva-bhAvanA 239

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se pahacAna liyA aura unako mAluma ho gayA, to ve usa gA~va meM nahIM rahate the, cale jAte the usa gA~va-nagara ko chor3akara ! duniyA meM aparicita hokara jInA unakA lakSya hotA thA / AtmasAdhaka ko paricaya bAdhaka - ghAtaka : anAmI aura arUpI Atmatattva kI pahacAna kara, AtmaramaNatA kara, jJAnAnanda, AtmAnanda kA anubhava karanA hai; to nAma aura rUpa se prApta honevAlA kSaNika aura tuccha Ananda kA tyAga karanA hI hogA / paradravya kA, paraparyAya kA paricaya tyAganA hI hogA / paradravya ke paricaya se sukha prApta karane kI anAdikAlIna burI Adata, kuTeva chor3anI hI hogI / 'aba mujhe paradravya se sukha nahIM pAnA hai, paraparyAya se sukha nahIM pAnA hai - yaha nirNaya honA caahie| yadi Atmatattva kI saccI pahacAna ho jAtI hai to phira parabhAva kA kartRtva rahatA hI nahIM hai / vaha to apane hI AtmasvarUpa meM rahatA hai / upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI ne kahA hai -- ema jANIne re jJAnadazA bhajI, rahIe Apa svarUpa, para - pariNatithI re dharma na chAMDIe, navi paDIe bhavakUpa..... zrI sImaMdhara sAhiba sAMbhalo... Apa - svarUpa meM rahanA hai, yAnI AtmajJAna meM hI rahanA hai / para - pariNati meM yadi gaye, to dharma bhI gayA samajhanA aura saMsAra - sAgara meM DUbanA hogA / paradravya, paraparyAya kI ramaNatA hI adharma hai, pApa hai... yaha bAta AtmajJAnI samajhatA hai / paradravya ko apanA dravya mAnanA, bar3I bhUla : upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI dUsare zloka meM yahI bAta kahate haiM abudhaiH parabhAvalAlasA - lasadajJAnadazAvazAtmabhiH / paravastuSu hA svakIyatA, viSayAvezavazAd vikalpate // 2 // 'parabhAva kI lAlasA meM DUbe hue mUrkha aura ajJAnI AdamI, indriyajanya AvegoM ko paravaza hokara, parAyI vasta meM apanApana mAnate haiM / ' 9 jo abudha - ajJAnI loga hote haiM, unako to svabhAva aura parabhAva kA bhI jJAna nahIM hotA hai / na ve svabhAva' kA vijJAna jAnate haiM, na ve parabhAva kI bAta jAnate haiM / bAhya dharmakriyAe~ kitanI bhI karate hoM, paraMtu yadi ve svabhAva aura parabhAva kI bAtoM se anabhijJa haiM, to ve mUrkha haiM, ajJAnI haiN| kyoMki ve pA~ca indriyoM ke AvegoM ko paravaza ho hI jAte haiM aura paradravyoM ko, parapudgaloM ko apanA mAnate 240 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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haiM, unase mamatva jor3ate haiM ! ajJAnI loga jAnate hI nahIM ki zabda, rUpa, rasa, gaMdha aura sparza ke viSaya, mere svabhAvabhUta nahIM hai, parabhAva - rUpa hai, isalie ve usI viSayoM meM lubdha hote haiM, unhIM viSayoM ko apane mAnate haiM, mamatva bA~dhate haiM aura duHkhI hote haiM / jo paradravya hotA hai, jo parAyA dravya hotA hai, usako apanA mAnane kI bhUla, bar3I bhUla hotI hai / duHkhadAyI bhUla hotI hai / paradravya ko, parapadArtha ko svadravya mAnanA kitanA anarthakArI hai, vaha samajhAne ke lie graMthakAra ne udAharaNa diyA hai - parastrI ko apanI strI samajhanA, apanI mAnanA | parastrI ko apanI strI mAnanevAloM ko jaisA duHkha sahana karanA par3atA hai, jaisI pIr3Ae~ sahana karanI par3atI hai; vaisI pIr3A, paradravya ko, parapudgala ko svadravya mAnanevAloM ko bhoganI par3atI hai / 'Atmadravya hI svadravya hai, zeSa saba paradravya hai, yaha bAta acchI taraha samajha lo / kRtinAM dayiteti cintanaM, paradAreSu yathA vipattaye / vividhArtibhayAvahaM tathA parabhAveSu mamatvabhAvanam // 3 // jo manuSya dUsaroM kI auratoM ke bAre meM yaha merI aurata hai, vaisI kalpanA yadi karatA hai to vaha duHkhI hotA hai; vaise hI jo apanA nahIM hai, parabhAva hai, usameM mamatva kA khayAla karanA, taraha-taraha kI pIr3AoM kA kAraNa hotA hai / parastrI ko svastrI mAnanA duHkhadAyI : jo parabhAva hai, jo paradravya hai, jo apanA nahIM hai, usako svabhAva mAnanA, svadravya mAnanA, apanA mAnanA, bhaya trAsa aura duHkha denevAlA hotA hai / isa viSaya meM eka prAcIna kahAnI batAkara kucha vartamAnakAlIna satya ghaTanA bhI batAU~gA / vasantapura nAma kA nagara thaa| usa nagara ke rAjA kA nAma thA zatAyudha / usakI rAnI thI lalitAdevI / vaha rAnI bahuta hI khUbasUrata thI aura mohaka vyaktitvavAlI thI / causaTha kalAoM meM nipuNa thI / paraMtu vaha caritrahIna thii| pati ko vaha vaphAdAra nahIM thI / I eka dina vaha mahala ke jharokhe meM khar3I khar3I rAjamArga para najara pheMka rahI thI, usakI najara rAjamArga para se gujara rahe eka yuvaka para girii| usa yuvaka kA rUpa aura javAnI rAnI kI A~khoM meM basa gye| yuvaka to calA gayA, para rAnI usake khayAloM meM kho gayI / usake mohapAza meM baMdha gaI / rAnI kI eka dAsI dUra khar3I, rAnI kI eka-eka kriyA ko dekha rahI thI / vaha rAnI ke manobhAva ekatva - bhAvanA 241

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samajha gaI / vaha dhIre se rAnI ke pAsa Akara khar3I rhii| rAnI ne usase pUchA : 'abhI jo yahA~ rAjamArga para se suMdara kapar3e pahanA huA rUpavAna yuvaka gayA, vaha kauna hai ? kahA~ rahatA hai ? tU usakI talAza karake A, para corI-chipe ! kisI ko mAlUma nahIM par3anA cAhie / ' yoM kaha kara rAnI ne dAsI ko apanI a~guThI bheMTa kara dI / dAsI prasanna ho uThI / vaha turaMta usa yuvaka kI jAnakArI lene calI gaI / eka ghaMTe ke bAda vaha vApasa AyI / rAnI bar3I besabrI se usakA intajAra kara rahI thI / dAsI ne kahA : 'mahArAnIjI, vaha suMdara-salonA yuvaka to apane nagara zreSThi samudrapriya kA putra lalitAMga hai / vaha puruSa kI 72 kalAoM meM nipuNa hai / aba Apa jaisA kaho, vaisA karU~ / I rAnI ne dAsI ke kAna meM ekadama dhIre se kahA: 'vaha mujhe yahA~ ekAnta meM mile vaisA kucha kara sakegI ?' dAsI ne kahA : hA~, hA~, jarUra maiM usakA milana karavA dU~gI / para isake pahale Apa eka nimaMtraNapatra likhakara mujhe de do| maiM vaha patra use de AU~gI / isake bAda saba kAma jamA dUMgI / rAnI ne lalitAMga para premapatra likhakara dAsI ko de diyA / dAsI ne patra le jAkara lalitAMga ko de diyA / lalitAMga, rAnI kA premapatra pAkara diMga raha gayA / usane dAsI se kahA : 'kahA~ antaHpura meM rahanevAlI rAnI aura kahA~ maiM eka vaNikaputra ! hamArA milana azakya hai / ' dAsI ne kahA : 'azakya kucha bhI nahIM hai lalitAMga / maiM saba zakya kara dU~gI / tU taiyAra hai nA ?' lalitAMga ne hA~ bharI / dAsI ne maukA milane para Ane kA vAdA kiyA aura calI gaI / lalitAMga usake bAda dina meM tIna bAra rAnI ke mahala ke sAmane se gujaratA hai aura rAnI ko dekhatA hai / rAnI usako dekhatI hai / donoM kI nigAheM milatI haiN| donoM ke cehare khilate haiM aura mauna premAlApa hotA hai| eka dUje se milane ke lie donoM betAba hue jA rahe the / I nagara meM kaumudI - mahotsava ke dina Aye / rAjA ne rAnI se kahA : 'calo, hama jaMgala meM zikAra ke lie caleM / rAnI ne tabIyata kA bahAnA banAyA aura mahala meM raha gaI / usane dAsI ko isa mauke kA phAyadA uThAne ko kahA / antaHpura ke daravAje para sazastra sainika caubIsa ghaMTe tainAta rahate the / rAjA ke alAvA kisI bhI AdamI ko antaHpura meM praveza nahIM milatA thA / dAsI ne lalitAMga ko mahala meM lAne kI yojanA banAI / nagara ke bAhara bagIce meM vaha eka pAlakI lekara gaI / usane antaHpura ke zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 242

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rakSaka se kaha rakhA thA mahArAnI ke Ananda-pramoda ke lie eka yakSa kI mUrti lene jA rahI huuN| abhI vaha lekara lauttuuNgii| para vaha mUrti, mahArAnI ke sivAya kisI ko dekhanI nahIM hai / baMda pAlakI meM laauuNgii| usane pAlakI meM lalitAMga ko biThA diyaa| usa para lAla vastra DhaMka diyA / pAlakI ke cAroM tarapha parade girA diye / AdamiyoM se pAlakI uThavAyI aura vaha mahala meM le AyI / na to kisI ne use rokA, na kisI ne use TokA / rAnI aura lalitAMga mile / jaise svarga mila gayA ho, donoM ko vaisI khuzI huI / donoM manacAhI kAmakrIr3A karane lge| dAsI ko zayanakhaMDa ke bAhara mahala ke mukhya daravAje kI ora nigAha rakhane ke lie khar3I kara dI thii| Anandapramoda meM DUbI huI rAnI ko samaya kA khayAla rahA nahIM / dina kA cauthA prahara zurU ho gayA thaa| zikAra para gayA huA rAjA lauTa AyA thaa| / dUsarI ora, antaHpura ke rakSaka ko rAnI kI dAsI kI halacala zaMkAspada lagI thii| yakSa kI mUrti lAla vastra meM lapeTa kara kyoM lAyI gaI ? kyoM dAsI kabhI kI rAnIvAsa ke daravAje para akelI baiThI hai ? jaba rAjA AyA taba antaHpura ke rakSaka ne yakSa kI mUrti kI bAta kahI / apanI zaMkA bhI vyakta kI / rAjA ne kahA : maiM abhI rAnIvAsa meM hI jA rahA hU~, caukasI kara luuNgaa| dAsI catura thii| usane mahala ke daravAje para mahArAjA ke ghor3e ko dekha liyA thaa| rakSaka ko mahArAjA se kAnAphasI karate dekhA / mahArAjA ko ghor3e se nIce utarakara, dhIre dhIre rAnIvAsa kI ora kadama bar3hAte dekhakara usakA mAthA tthnkaa| dAsI ne tUrta hI zayanakhaMDa kA dvAra khttkhttaayaa| rAnI ne apane kapar3e ThIkaThAka kiye aura daravAjA kholaa| dAsI ke cehare para havAiyA~ ur3a rahI thii| usane bolA : mahArAjA A rahe haiN| rAnI aura lalitAMga ke hozahavAsa guma ho gye| lalitAMga pasIne-pasIne ho gayA / usane kahA : 'mujhe kahIM chupA de| rAnI ne kahA : yahA~ tujhe kahA~ para chupAU~ ? pakar3A jAyegA to rAjA tujhe mAra DAlegA aura merI camar3I utAra legaa| lalitAMga rUAMsA ho uThA / kAMpane lagA bhaya se / socane kA samaya kahA~ thA ? rAnI aura dAsI ne lalitAMga ko uThAyA aura rAnIvAsa ke pIche jo gaMdA purAnA kuA thA, usameM pheMka diyaa| rAnI dAsI ke sAmane dekhakara ha~sa dI / jaise ki Ama cUsakara guTalI bAhara pheMka dI ho / lalitAMga ko kae meM pheMkane ke bAda rAnI nizcita thii| rAjA ne rAnIvAsa meM praveza kiyaa| rAnI ne bar3I svAbhAvikatA se rAjA kA svAgata kiyA / dAsI zayanakhaMDa ke bAhara nikala gaI / rAjA ne zayanakhaMDa meM | ekatva-bhAvanA 243

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idhara-udhara nigAheM pheMkI, para kucha dikhA nahIM / phira bhI rAnI ko pUchA : vaha yakSa kI pratimA kahA~ hai ?' kauna-sI ? jo sabere lAyI thI vaha ?' 'hA~ / vaha mUrti to vApasa bhijavA dii| yoM kahakara rAnI ne mohaka hAvabhAva se rAjA ko gapazapa meM lagA diyA / cikanI-cupar3I bAteM karake rAjA kA dhyAna dUsarI ora khIMca liyA / lalitAMga jisa kue meM par3A thA, vaha kuA bahuta gaharA nahIM thA / para, daraasala meM vaha gaMdagI kA kuA thA / kue meM par3A par3A lalitAMga kAMpa rahA thaa| rAjA talAzate talAzate yahA~ para A gayA aura mujhe dekha liyA to? talavAra se merA galA kATa degaa| paraMtu jaba do-tIna ghaMTe bIta gaye, taba vaha nirbhaya banA / use rAnI yAda Ayo / rAnI ne mujhe uThAkara yahA~ isa kue meM pheMka diyA. kaisI svArthI aura nIca aurata hai ? mere sAtha kitanA prema dikhAyA, kaisI mIThI mIThI bAteM kI...aura jaba usakA svArtha pUrA ho gayA to usane merI yaha kadarthanA kara dI / yahA~ maiM jIU~gA kaise ? paraMtu yadi maiM jiMdA isa kue se bAhara nikala~gA to phira kabhI bhI isa taraha parAyI aurata ke sAtha pyAra nahIM karU~gA / usake sAmane bhI nahIM dekhNgaa|| dUsare dina sabere rAnI kI dAsI ne usa kue meM bhojana kI paDiyA bA~dhakara DAlI / lalitAMga ne puDiyA kholakara khA liyA aura gaTara kA gaMdA pAnI pI liyA / maratA huA manuSya kyA nahIM karatA ? yoM kucha dina-kucha mahine gujare, bAriza ke dina Aye / joroM kA pAnI girane lgaa| khaDDe-kue bhara gaye / lalitAMga pAnI ke pravAha meM bahatA huA nagara ke bAhara kile kI khAI meM jA phuNcaa| bahatAbahatA vaha khAI ke kinAre para phuNcaa| behoza hokara par3A thA vahA~ / zarIra usakA sar3a gayA thaa| vahA~ se gujara rahI usakI dhAvamAtA ne use dekhA / use phcaanaa| turaMta ghara para jAkara lalitAMga ke pitA samudrapriya ko bolaa| rAtri ke samaya lalitAMga ko ratha meM DAlakara ghara para lAyA gyaa| cikitsakoM ko bulAkara usake auSadhopacAra karavAye / chaha mahInoM kI lambI cikitsA ke bAda vaha svastha huaa| saMsAra ke bhrAmaka sukhoM meM pha~se sabhI manuSya, lalitAMga kI bhA~ti viSayopabhoga meM DUbe rahate haiM / viSayasukha lalitArAnI ke saMga sA smjhnaa| yaha sukha zurUAta meM madhura lagatA hai, para aMta meM bar3A hI bhayaMkara hotA hai / parabhAvoM ko apanA samajha kara mamatva bA~dhanA, kitanA duHkhadAyI hotA hai, isakA yaha zAstrIya udAharaNa | 244 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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hai / aba kucha hI varSa pUrva kI baMbaI meM ghaTI eka bhayaMkara ghaTanA kI bAta karatA kamAMDara nANAvaTI aura prema AhujA : i. sa. 1959 kI yaha ghaTanA hai / 'Tra sTorIjha oNpha sTreMja marDarsa ina inDiyAM pustaka meM kriminolojisTa DaoN. esa. datta ne yaha kissA likhA hai / ___ kamAMDara kAvasajI nANAvaTI, bhAratIya naukAdala meM nyUkliyara sAyaMsTisTa ke pada para niyukta I.N.S. mAyasora-jahAja para kepTana the / eka bAra jaba ve iMglenDa gaye, vahA~ silviyA nAma kI phrenca yuvatI ke sAtha kamAMDara kI pahacAna huI aura 1949 meM iMglaiMDa ke porTsamAutha nAma ke zahara meM nANAvaTI aura silviyA ne zAdI kara lii| zAdI ke 10 varSa meM tIna saMtAna ke mAtA-pitA bne| zAdI kI dasavIM lagnatithi Ane se kucha dina pUrva jiMdagI kA eka khataranAka moDa AyA / unake saMsAra meM tIsare vyakti kA praveza huA / usakA nAma thA prema AhujA / baMbaI ke nepiyansI roDa para, jIvanajyota' nAma ke bilDiMga meM vaha rahatA thA / vaha 34 varSa kA avivAhita yuvaka thaa| vaha yunivarsala moTarsa nAma kI peDhI kA mAlika thA aura vilisa jIpa kA vikretA thA / nANAvaTI daMpatI ke sAtha prema AhujA kA paricaya huA / nANAvaTI ko AhujA kA raMgIna svabhAva pasaMda A gyaa| dostI ho gii| eka-dUsare ke ghara AnA-jAnA zurU ho gayA / nANAvaTI ko kahA~ mAluma thA ki AhujA eka dina dostI kI pITha meM khaMjara bhoMka degA ! __ prema AhujA saundarya kA premI thA / kamAMDara nANAvaTI kI patnI silviyA bhI bahuta suMdara strI thii| donoM ke bIca anaitika premasaMbaMdha baMdha gayA / eka bAra AhujA ne bAta-bAta meM apanI bahana ko kaha bhI diyA ki yadi nANAvaTI unakI patnI ko talAka de de to maiM usake sAtha zAdI karane taiyAra huuN| hAlA~ki silviyA kamAMDara ko tana-mana se cAhatI thii| pati ke sAtha bevaphAI karane kI kalpanA taka vaha kara sakatI nahIM thii| dUsarI ora, AhujA silviyA ke alAvA kucha soca bhI nahIM sakatA thaa| vaha silviyA ko apanI banA lene ke lie maukA khojatA thA / ___ eka dina AhujA ko vaisA maukA mila gyaa| kamAMDara nANAvaTI kucha dinoM ke lie bAharagA~va gaye / silviyA ghara meM akelI thI / AhujA ne usake sAtha anaitika zArIrika saMbaMdha bAMdha liyaa| eka bAra adhaHpatana kI gaharI khAI meM girane ke bAda silviyA ne apane mu~ha para mauna kA tAlA lagA diyaa| usako anicchA se bhI AhujA kI icchA ko vaza honA par3atA thaa| vaha manomana prArthanA ekatva-bhAvanA 245

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karatI thI ki isa bAta kI jAnakArI kamAMDara ko nahIM ho / paraMtu aisI bAteM kaba taka gupta raha sakatI haiM ? Akhira eka dina kamAMDara ko mAluma ho gyaa| silviyA ko pUchA / silviyA ne AhujA ke sAtha kA praNaya-saMbaMdha kA ikarAra kiyA / bAda meM turaMta kamAMDara sIdhe jahAja para gye| sarvisa rivolvara aura 6 kAratUsa lekara ve vahA~ se nikala gaye / sIdhe ve AhujA ke ghara para gaye / AhujA snAna kara bAhara AyA hI thA ki nANAvaTI ne usa para rivolvara calA dii| AhujA jamIna para gira pdd'aa| usake mRtadeha para thUkakara nANAvaTI bolA : duzmana jo kAma nahIM kare, vo kAma dosta ne kiyA / ve vahA~ se sIdhe polIsa sTezana cale gaye aura kaha diyA - 'maiMne prema AhujA kI hatyA kI hai / ' nANAvaTI ko doSita siddha kiyA gayA thA aura usako AjIvana kArAvAsa kI sajA huI thI / baMbaI meM una dinoM meM yaha kesa kI carcA ghara-ghara meM thii| saba loga dUsare puruSa ko apane ghara meM praveza dene meM hicakicAte hoMge ! jIvana meM paradravya kA praveza - anartha kA mUla : parabhAvoM se, paradravyoM se mamatva karane kA pariNAma to isase bhI jyAdA bhayaMkara AtA hai / vahA~ to prema AhujA kI hatyA ho gaI, eka manuSya-jIvana se hAtha dhone par3e, paraMtu paradravyoM ke sAtha kiye hue mamatva se to hajAroM janma taka duHkha bhogane par3ate haiM / isalie paradravyoM ke mamatva se jo sakha kI kalpanA hotI hai. usa kalpanA kA tyAga kara do| apane mana kI sAkSI se, deva-guru kI sAkSI se nirNaya kara lo ki mujhe aba mere AtmabhAva meM hI rahanA hai / paradravyoM se, parabhAvoM se mamatva nahIM bA~dhanA he / jo mamatva baMdha gayA hai, usako tor3anA hai| __ paradravyoM kA mamatva, parastrI ke sAtha kiye hue mamatva ke samAna hai, jo sacamuca duHkhadAyI hotA hai / rAmakAlIna rAvaNa se lagA kara vartamAnakAlIna rAvaNoM taka dekha lo ! vaise paradravyoM se mamatva karanevAloM kI dardanAka pIr3AoM kA itihAsa asaMkhya varSoM kA par3ha lo ! zAstroM ko par3ha lo / * maiM akelI zaddhasvarUpI AtmA huuN| * maiM jJAnamaya, sukhamaya, Anandamaya AtmA hU~ | * AtmA meM hI saMtuSTa rahanA hai / AtmA ke alAvA kisI bhI bAta kI apekSA nahIM hai / ekatva kA aisA nirNaya kara, pratidina ekatva-bhAvanA karanI hai / Aja basa, itanA hii| 246 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 22 : saMkalanA : * parabhAva ke AvaraNoM ko cIra DAlo / pudgala-rAga / zera jaisI AtmA parAdhIna hai| * pudgala kI pahacAna kara lo| * AtmavicAra - caMdanavRkSa kI zItala havA / * samatva ke sAtha ekatva kA ciMtana / * nami rAjarSi : samatva-ekatva kA utsava / * nami rAjarSi va indra kA saMvAda /

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adhunA parabhAvasaMvRtiM hara cetaH parito'vaguNThitAm / kSaNamAtmavicAracandana-dumavAtormirasAzpRzantu mAm // 4 // upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI, apane mana ko saMbodhita karate hue kahate haiM - 'o mere mana ! parabhAva ke ina AvaraNoM ko cIra karake jarA mukta ho ! tAki Atma-vicArarUpa caMdanavRkSa kI zItala havA tujhe sparza kara sake / parabhAva ke AvaraNoM ko cIra DAlo : mahattvapUrNa prazna yaha hai ki AtmavicAra aba karanA hai ? abhI taka pudgala vicAra hI jyAdA kiye haiM / ananta janmoM se pudgala-bhAvoM kI hI ramaNatA jIva ne kI hai ! isalie graMthakAra ne 'adhunA' zabda kA prayoga kara pUchA hai : "aba AtmavicAra karanA hai ? jyAdA samaya nahIM, kSaNam thor3I kSaNoM ke lie AtmavicAra kara lo !" ___ aura, yadi AtmavicAra karanA hai to eka kAma avazya karanA hogA, pudgalabhAva, ki jo parabhAva hai, una pudgala-bhAvoM ke AvaraNoM ko cIra DAlane hoMge / pudgala-bhAvoM ke AvaraNoM ko naSTa karane ke lie, pudgala-bhAvoM kI anarthakAritA aura bhayaMkaratA samajhanI hogii| pudgala-gItA meM yogI cidAnandajI ne kahA hai : kAla anaMta nigodadhAma meM pudgalarAge rahiyo, duHkha ananta narakAdikathI tuM adhika bahuvidha sahiyo / apanI AtmA anaMtakAla nigodanAma kI yoni meM rahI thii| jahA~ jIva ekendriya hotA hai ! jIva ko mAtra sparzendriya hotI hai / vahA~ para naraka se bhI jyAdA duHkha jIva ko sahanA par3atA hai aura anaMtakAla taka sahe bhI haiM ! nigoda meM pudgalarAga ke kAraNa hI rahanA par3atA hai / pAya akAma nirjarA' ko bala, kiMcit U~co Ayo, bAdara meM pudgala-rasa vazathI kAla asaMkhya gamAyo / sUkSma nigoda meM anantakAla jIva janma-maraNa karatA rahA, anaMta duHkha sahana karatA hai, isase karmoM kI nirjarA huI, akAma nirjarA huI, karmoM kA bhAra kucha kama huA aura jIva bAdara nigoda meM AyA ! sUkSma meM se bAdara meM AyA, itanI unnati huI, paraMtu vahA~ bhI pudgala-rasa ke kAraNa asaMkhya varSa bItA diye / sUkSma nigoda aura bAdara nigoda - donoM prakAra vanaspatikAya ke haiM / AtmA ke | 248 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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vikAsakAla kI ye prAraMbhika avasthAe~ hotI haiM / vahA~ se pudgala-bhAva kA rAgarasa jIva ke sAtha lagA huA hai ! kitanA pragAr3ha aura tIvra hogA yaha rAga-rasa ? isa pudgala-rAga ko miTAne kA bhavya puruSArtha isa jIvana meM karane kA hai / lahI kSayopazama matijJAna ko, paMcendriya jaba lAdhI, viSayAsakta rAga pudgalathI dhAra narakagati sAdhI / tADana-mArana chedana-bhedana, vedanA bahuvidha pAyI, kSetravedanA, paramAdhAmIkRta vidhavidha hai darasAyI / pudgalarAge narakavedanA vAra anaMtI vedI, puNyasaMyoge narabhava lAdho, azubha yugalagati bhedI / vanaspatikAya meM se dUsarI ekendriya jAtiyoM meM jIva ne janma-mRtyu kiye haiM ! pRthvIkAya meM, apkAya meM, vAyukAya meM, teukAya meN...| bAda meM beindiya meM, teindriya meM, cauriMdriya meM aura paMcendriya meM jIva AyA hai / bar3I muzkila se paMcendriyatva milatA hai ! paraMtu pudgala-rAga' ke kAraNa, viSayAsakti ke kAraNa jIva narakagati meM utpanna hotA hai ! narakagati meM kaise kaise duHkha hote haiM, saMsArabhAvanA ke pravacanoM meM Apane sunA hai na ? tAr3ana, mArana aura chedana-bhedana hotA rahatA hai / kaisI ghora vedanAe~ vahA~ jIvoM ko sahanI par3atI haiM ? isakA kAraNa hotA hai pudgala-rAga ! jIva ne naraka kI vedanA eka-do bAra sahI hai, aisA mata samajheM, anaMta bAra sahI hai ! vAra anaMtI vedI !' naraka meM anicchA se duHkha sahane se jo karmanirjarA hotI hai, usako akAma nirjarA kahate haiM / usa karmanirjarA ke kAraNa jIva kI unnati hotI hai, usako manuSya-janma milatA hai / narakagati aura tiryaMcagati se vaha bAhara nikala jAtA hai / manuSyagati, devagati se bhI jyAdA acchI batAyI hai jinezvara bhagavaMtoM ne / aisI acchI - zreSTha manuSyagati pAne ke bAda kyoM pudgalarAgI-viSayarAgI bana kara manuSya-jIvana ko barabAda karatA hai ? viSayAsakta rAga pudgala ko dharI narajanma gamAve, kAga uDAvaNakAja vipra jima, DAra maNi pachatAve / ajJanI brAhmaNa ne kauoM ko ur3Ane ke lie ratnoM ko pheMka diye the na ? bAda meM usako jaba mAluma huA ki maiMne patthara samajhakara ratnoM ko pheMka diye haiM, taba usako ghora pachatAvA huA thA ! vaise pudgala-rAga se, vaiSayika sukhoM ke rAga se manuSya-jIvana ga~vA dene ke bAda apane ko pachatAvA hogA ! ekatva-bhAvanA 249

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dUsarI bAta, paudgalika-vaiSayika sukha kitane bhI bhogeM, sadaiva bhogate raheM, mana aura indriyA~ tRpta nahIM hoMgI / jisa prakAra Aga meM ghI athavA madhu kI Ahuti dene para Aga zAMta nahIM hotI hai, paraMtu jyAdA prajvalita hotI hai / 'pudgala-gItA meM kahA haiM - pudgala-sukha sevata ahaniza, mana-indriya na dhAve, jima ghRta-madhu-AhUti detAM, agni zAMta navi thAve / Age calakara cidAnaMdajI ne kahA hai - jima jima adhika viSayasukha seve, tima tima tRSNA dIpe, jima apeya jala pAna kIyA thI tRSA kaho kima chIpe ? 'apeya jala yAnI sAgara kA khArA pAnI / sAgara kA pAnI pIne se tRSA chipatI nahIM hai, paraMtu jyAdA bar3hatI hai, vaise viSayasukha bhogane se, jyAdA se jyAdA bhogane se bhoga-tRSNA bar3hatI hai, jyAdA pradIpta hotI hai| paraMtu paudgalika sukha meM Asakta jIva yaha mArmika bAta nahIM jAnatA hai ! janmAMdha jIva sUrya kA teja kaise pahacAna sakatA hai ? yaha bAta cidAnandajI kahate haiM - paudgalika sukhanA AsvAdI, eha marama navi jANe, jima jAtyaMdha puruSa dinakaraneM teja navi pahicANe / jIvoM ko indriyajanya vaiSayika sukha acche lagate haiM, priya lagate haiM, paraMtu una sakhoM ke bhogopabhoga ke pariNAmoM kA ve jIva, ajJAnI jIva vicAra nahIM kara sakate / ajJAnI jIvoM ko pariNAmoM kA jJAna hI kahA~ hotA hai ? unako to vartamAnakAla kA hI vicAra hotA hai / abhI sukha milatA hai ? basa, kala kA vicAra nahIM karanA hai !' indriyajanita viSayarasa sevata, vartamAna sukha ThANe, paNa kiMpAka taNA phalanI pare, nahIM vipAka tasa jANe / 'kiMpAka' nAma kA jaMgalI phala khAne meM mIThA hotA hai, paraMtu usakA pariNAma mauta hotI hai ! vaise vaiSayika sukha bhogane meM acche lagate haiM, paraMtu janama-janama ve duHkhadAyI hote haiN| aisA samajhakara paudgalika-vaiSayika sukhoM se vimukha honA cAhie, virakta honA cAhie aura AtmabhAva ke sanmukha honA cAhie / ehavaM jANI viSayasukhaseMtI, vimukhaspa nita rahIe, trikaraNa yoge zuddhabhAvadhara, bheda yathAratha lahIye / | 250 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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'trikaraNa yoga' yAnI mana-vacana aura kaayaa| AtmA kA zuddha svarUpa manavacana-kAyA se samajhanA hai / AtmabhAva aura pudgala-bhAva kA yathArtha bheda jAnanA zera jaisI AtmA parAdhIna hai : __ vaise to AtmA, apane zuddha svarUpa meM anaMtajJAnI hai / paraMtu pudgala-bhAva se AvRtta hai / AtmA ananta zakti kA svAmI hai, paraMtu pudgala-bhAva ne usako kAyara banA DAlA hai / zrI cidAnandajI kahate haiM : jJAna anaMta jIvano nija guNa, te pudgala AvariyA, je anaMta zaktino nAyaka, te iNa kAyara kariyo / AtmA apane mUla svarUpa meM ajJAnI nahIM hai, anaMta jJAnI hai, kAyara-azakta nahIM hai, anaMta zaktivAlI hai| paraMtu anaMta karma-pudgaloM se AvRtta hai / karmapudgaloM kA AvaraNa kATanA hai / vaha AvaraNa dUra hone para mUla svarUpa pragaTa hogaa| jaba taka karma-pudgaloM kA prabhAva hai, taba taka to AtmA ko duHkha sahane hI par3eMge ! cetanakuM pudgalae nizadina, nAnAvidha duHkha ghAle, paNa piMjaragata nAharanI pare, jora kachu na cAle / zera hai, paraMtu piMjare meM hai ! kyA kare ? AtmA, zera jaisI zaktizAlI AtmA, karmoM ke piMjare meM baMda hai / pudgala usako vividha duHkha dete haiM / pApa-pudgala jIva ko duHkhI karate rahate haiM / pudgala kA piMjarA tor3anA hI hogA / kaise bhI kara ke tor3anA hogA / tapa se tor3o, tyAga se tor3o, jJAna se tor3o... dhyAna se tor3o... zama-upazama se tor3o... mArdava-Arjava se tor3o ! jo bhI upAya apane se bana par3e, usa upAya se pudgala ke piMjare ko tor3o aura zera jaisI AtmA ko mukta kro| zera hote hue bhI, piMjare meM rahane kA AdI ho gayA hai, usako pudgala kA saMga acchA lagatA hai ! priya lagatA hai ! jisa prakAra rogI manuSya kupathya karatA hai, nahIM khAne kA khAtA hai, nahIM pIne kA pItA hai aura khuziyA~ manAtA hai ! zrI cidAnandajI kahate haiM - itane para bhI jo cetana kuM, pudgalasaMga sohAve, rogI nara jima kupatha karIne, mana meM harSita thAve / karmoM ke pudgaloM kI kitanI paravazatA ho gaI hai ? AtmA apane sabhI zreSTha ekatva-bhAvanA 251

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guNoM ko bhUla gayI hai, zreSTha sva-rUpa ko bhUla gayI hai ! usakI koI jAtapAta nahIM hotI hai, kula aura nyAta nahIM hai, nAma aura rUpa nahIM hai... paraMtu pudgala ke saMga nAma aura rUpa dhAraNa kara liyA hai ! pudgala-mAyA ne usa para jAdU kara diyA hai / AtmA apane Apako bhUla gayI hai - jAtya-pAtya kula nyAta na jAkuM, nAma-gAma navi koI, pudgalasaMgata nAma dharAvata nija guNa saghalo khoI / yaha pudgala-saMgata hI parabhAva-saMvRtti hai / graMthakAra upAdhyAyajI isI parabhAva-saMvRtti ko tor3ane kA upadeza dete haiM / aura yaha tabhI tor3ane kI icchA hogI jaba jIva samAna hogA, pudgala-saMgata, 'pudgala-piMjarA usako baMdhana lagegA ! jaba taka pudgala-saMgata acchI lagatI hai taba taka - pudgala ke basa hAlata-cAlata, pudgala ke basa bole, kahUMka beThA Taka-Taka jue, kahUMka nayaNa na khole ! halanA-calanA, bolanA... saba kucha pudgala ke basa ! A~kheM kholanA aura baMda karanA bhI pudgala ke basa ! manapasaMda bhoga bhoganA aura sukhazaiyA meM sonA, pudgala ke basa ! aura inhIM pudgala ke paravaza bana kara bhUkhe-pyAse galiyoM meM par3e rote haiM ! managamatA kahUM bhoga bhogave, sukhasajyA meM sove, kahUMka bhUkhyA tarasyA bAhara, paDyA galI meM rove ! 'pudgala' kI pahacAna kara lo| parabhAva kI pahacAna kara lo| aura usase mukta hone kA puruSArtha karo / pudgala kA baMdhana jAno aura tor3ane kA prabala prayatna kro| isa manuSya-jIvana meM hI yaha prayala-puruSArtha kara pAyeMge / pudgala-bhAvoM kI lAlaca meM pha~sanA nahIM hai| pudgala kI pahacAna karAte hue zrI cidAnandajI sarala zabdoM meM kahate haiM : pANImAMhe gale je vastu, jale agani saMyoga, pudgalapiMDa jANa te cetana, tyAga harakha arU soga / chAyA, AkRti, tejAti sahu, pudgala kI parajAya, sar3ana-par3ana-vidhvaMsa dharma e, pudgala ko kahevAya ! malyA piMDa jehane baMdhe be, kAle vikharI jAya, caramanayaNa karI dekhIye te, sahu pudgala kahevAya / 252 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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pUraNa-galana dharmathI pudgala nAma jiNaMda vakhANe, kevala viNa parajAya anaMtI, cAra jJAna navi jANe / zubhathI azubha, azubhathI zubha, mUla svabhAve thAya, dharmapAlaTaNa pudgalano ima sadguru dIyo batAya / kAvya meM aura sarala bhASA meM pudgala kA paricaya karA diyA hai na ? samajha gaye na ? phira bhI samajhAtA hU~ gadya meM ! -- jo vastu pAnI meM gala jAtI hai, - jo vastu agni meM jala jAtI hai, usako pudgala jAnanA / he cetana, pudgala-bhAva meM harSa-zoka nahIM karanA / - jo chAyA dikhatI hai, jo prakAza dikhatA hai, jo AkRti dikhatI hai, ye saba pudgala ke paryAya hote haiN| pudgala kA dharma hotA hai sar3anA, giranA aura nAza honA ! 'sar3ana-par3ana aura vidhvaMsana pudgala kI niyati hai ! vaise jo do piMDa ikaTThe hote haiM aura kAlakrama se bikhara jAte haiM, jisako jIvAtmA apanI A~khoM se, carmadRSTi se dekhatA hai, vaha saba pudgala hotA hai ! AtmA jo hotI hai vaha A~khoM se, carmadRSTi se nahIM dikhatI hai ! __jo bar3hatA hai aura ghaTatA hai, jisakA pUraNa-galana svabhAva hotA hai, vaha pudgala hotA hai / pudgala ke anaMta paryAya hote haiM aura ve paryAya kevalajJAnI hI jAna sakate haiN| __ pudgala parivartanazIla hote haiM / zubha kA azubha aura azubha kA zubha hotA hai ! pudgala-bhAva sthira nahIM rahate / isalie una para rAga-dveSa nahIM karane cAhie / inake kAraNa harSa-zoka nahIM karane cAhie / AtmavicAra - candanavRkSa kI zItala havA : pudgala-rAga kA AvaraNa dUra hogA taba AtmavicAra paidA hogA / graMthakAra upAdhyAyajI ne AtmaciMtana ko, caMdanavRkSoM kI ghaTA meM se AtA huA sugaMdhita zItala pavana jaisA kahA hai ! jisa pavana meM caMdana kI sugaMdha hotI hai aura caMdanavat zItalatA hotI hai / bhItara meM hI parama Ananda kA anubhava hotA hai / samAdhizataka meM upAdhyAyazrI yazovijayajI ne kahA hai - rAgAdika jaba pariharI, kare sahaja guNakhoja, ghaTa meM bhI pragaTe tadA, cidAnanda kI moja / yadi bhItara meM cidAnanda pAnA hai to AtmaciMtana karanA hI hogaa| AtmA ke | ekatva-bhAvanA 253 |

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sahaja jJAnAdi guNoM kA ciMtana karanA hI hogaa| aura, pAramArthika dRSTi se soceM to sirpha AtmajJAna, Atmabodha hI mokSamArga hai, zivapaMtha hai / samAdhizataka ke prAraMbha meM hI kahA gayA hai - kevala Atamabodha hai, paramAratha zivapaMtha, tAmeM jinakI maganatA, soi bhAvanigraMtha / Atmabodha meM, AtmajJAna meM magnatA hI bhAvasAdhutA hai ! yadi AtmajJAna meM maganatA nahIM hai to bhAvasAdhutA nahIM hai / bhale hI mahAvratoM kA pAlana karate hoM yA ugra tapazcaryA karate hoM... jJAnamaganatA ke binA bhAvasAdhutA nahIM hotI hai / AtamajJAne magana jo, so saba pudgalakhela, indrajAla karI lekhave, mile na tihAM manamela / AtmajJAna meM nimagna AtmA, sAre pudgala-nirmita kheloM ko indrajAla samajhatA hai, usake sAtha unakA mana lagatA hI nahIM hai / eka bAra AtmajJAna meM maganatA kA abhUtapUrva anubhava hone para, pudgala racanAoM meM mana lagatA hI nahIM hai / jJAnamagnatA kA, AtmaramaNatA kA jo sukha hotA hai, usa sukha kA zabdoM meM varNana ho hI nahIM sakatA hai / jJAnasAra meM upAdhyAyazrI yazovijayajI ne kahA hai - jJAnamagnasya yaccharma tadvaktuM naiva zakyate / ' jJAnamagna AtmA kA sukha kahA nahIM jA sktaa| samatva ke sAtha ekatva kA ciMtana : yAda raheM, apanI bAta ekatva-bhAvanA kI cala rahI hai| bhItara meM ekatva kA utsava manAnA hai, utsava kA parama Ananda pAnA hai, to ekatva ke sAtha samatva ko jor3anA hogA / ekatva ke sAtha samatva jur3atA hai taba bhItara meM utsava racAtA hai, utsava kA Ananda pragaTa hotA hai / ekatva ke sAtha samatva jur3ane para yaha zatru, yaha mitra', aisA bheda nahIM rahatA ! yaha kaMcana, yaha kathira', aisA bheda nahIM rahatA / zatru para dveSa nahIM rahatA, mitra para rAga nahIM rahatA, kaMcana para rAga nahIM rahatA, kathira para dveSa nahIM rahatA ! tabhI ekatva utsavarUpa bana kara AnandarUpa bana jAtA hai| ekatAM samatopetA-menAtmAtman vibhAvaya / labhasva paramAnanda-sampadaM namirAjavat / / 5 / / graMthakAra kahate haiM : "Atman, samatvabhAva ke sAtha tU ekatva kI anubhUti 254 254 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 zAnta sudhArasa: bhAga 1

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kara / yoM karake tU nami rAjarSi kI taraha paramAnanda kA khajAnA prApta kara sakegA / " 'adhyAtmagItA meM zrI devacaMdrajI ne bhI kahA hai - teha samatArasa-tattva sAdhe, nizcalAnaMda anubhava ArAdhe / tIvra ghanaghAti nijakarma tor3e, saMdhi paDilehIne te vichor3e // vahI AtmA samatva kI siddhi pAtA hai aura nizcala AnaMda kA anubhava karatA hai, jo mohanIya Adi ghAtI karmoM ko tor3ane kA puruSArtha karatA hai / avasara pAkara karmoM ko tor3atA jAtA hai, karmoM kA kSaya-kSayopazama karatA jAtA hai / nami rAjarSi - samatva-ekatva kA utsava : upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI ne namirAjA' kA udAharaNa diyA hai / nami rAjavat ! nami rAjarSi kI taraha tU bhI paramAnanda kI saMpatti prApta kara ! uttarAdhyayana sUtra meM zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ne hI svayaM namirAjA kA pUrA eka adhyayana kahA hai / indra kA aura nami rAjarSi kA saMvAda, vAstava meM hRdayasparzI hai / usa saMvAda kI kucha bAteM Apako sunAtA huuN| namirAjA mithilA ke rAjA the / unako pUrvajanma kI smRti ho AyI thI / svargaloka jaise zreSTha bhogasukhoM ke prati ve virakta bane, putra kA rAjyAbhiSeka kara diyA aura unhoMne abhiniSkramaNa kiyA, yAnI bhogasukhoM kA, rAjyavaibhava kA tyAga kara ve sAdhu bana gaye / 'maiM akelA hU~, isa nizcaya ke sAtha unhoMne mithilA kA tyAga kiyA / jaba ve mithilA chor3a kara cala diye, taba mithilA meM sarvatra vilApa, rUdana... zoka... saMtApa kA kolAhala vyApta ho gayA thaa| prajA kA rAjA ke prati apAra prema thA / usa samaya devarAja indra ne apane avadhijJAna ke Aloka meM nami rAjarSi ko mithilA chor3a kara jAte hue dekhA / indra ne brAhmaNa kA rUpa kiyA aura jA kara rAjarSi ko mile / praNAma kara pUchA : kiM nu bho ajja mihilAe kolAhalagasaMkulA / succaMti dAruNA sadA pAsaesu gihesu a // 9/7 he rAjarSi, Aja mithilA meM, mahaloM meM aura gRhoM meM sarvatra rUdana-vilApa Adi zabda kyoM sunAyI de rahe haiM ? rAjarSi ne kahA : he brAhmaNa, udyAna meM rahA huA manorama vRkSa, pracaMDa AMdhItUphAna se gira jAtA hai taba usa para baiThe hue pakSI duHkhI hote haiM, AzrayahIna hote haiM, isalie ve kraMdana-rUdana karate haiM ! yAnI loga apanA svArtha naSTa hone se rote | ekatva-bhAvanA 255

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haiM, merI pravrajyA ke kAraNa nahIM rote !' devendra ne kahA : rAjarSi, Apa mithilA kI ora dekhie to sahI / mithilA Aga meM jala rahI hai, ApakA antaHpura-rAnIvAsa bhI jala rahA hai... Apa kyoM usa tarapha dekhate nahIM ? rAjarSi samatAbhAva se bole - suhaM vasAmo jIvAmo jesimo natthi kiMcaNaM / mihilAe DajjhamANIe na me ujjhai kiMcaNaM // 9/14 he brAhmaNa, hama sukha se jIte haiM, sukha se rahate haiM, merA kucha bhI nahIM hai ! mithilA jala rahI hai, merA kucha bhI nahIM jala rahA hai ! cattaputtakalattassa nivvAvArassa bhikkhuNo / piaMNa vijjaI kiMci appiaMpi Na vijjaI // 9/15 bahuM khu muNiNo bhaI, aNagArassa bhikkhUNo / savvao vippamukkassa egNtmnnupssoo|| 9/16 he brAhmaNa, strI-putra vagairaha svajanoM kA tyAga karanevAle aura sabhI pApapravRtti kA parihAra karanevAle bhikSu ko koI vastu priya nahIM hotI hai, koI vastu apriya nahIM hotI hai / unako sarvatra samabhAva-samatva hotA hai / ___ "he brAhmaNa, parigraha se sarvathA mukta, aNagAra aise bhikSu ko maiM akelA hI hU~, aisI ekatva kI mastI meM bahuta sukha hotA hai / " taba indra ne kahA : he rAjarSi, ThIka hai ApakI bAta, paraMtu Apa killA-prAkAra banavA kara, gopura aura aTTAlikAe~, yuddha karane ke sthAna, zastrAgAra ityAdi banavA kara, saba kucha vyavasthita karavA kara bAda meM jAnA / rAjarSi ne pratyuttara diyA - saddhaM ca nagaraM kiccA, tava saMvaramaggalaM / khaMtiniuNa pAgAraM tiguttaM duppadhaMsagaM // 9/20 dhaNuM parakkama kiccA, jIvaM ca iriaM sayA / dhiiM ca keaNaM kiccA, sacceNaM palimaMthae // 9/21 tava nArAyajutteNaM bhittUNaM kammakaMcuaM / muNI vigaDhasaMgAmo, bhAvAo parimuccaI // 9/22 he brAhmaNa, maiMne eka abhinava nagara basAyA hai / zatru para vijaya pAne ke lie zastra vagairaha bhI banA liye haiM / suno - | 256 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 8888888

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-- 'zraddhA' nAma kA nagara basAyA hai, - prazama ko nagara kA mukhya daravAjA banAyA hai, - saMsAra ko kivAr3a banAye haiM, - kSamA ko gar3ha banAyA hai, - manogupti-vacanagupti-kAyagupti ko aTTAlikA, khAI aura zastra banAye haiM, - vIryollAsa ko dhanuSya banAyA hai, - 'pA~ca samiti' ko dhanuSya kI DorI banAyI hai, - 'dhairya ko dhanuSya pakar3ane kI mUTha (hatthA) banAyI hai, - tapa ko bANa-tIra banAyA hai ! . he brAhmaNa, tapa ke tIroM se karmazatru ko mAra kara muni saMgrAmavijetA banatA hai aura saMsAra se mukta hotA hai / indra kA citta Anandita hotA hai / vaha kahatA hai : rAjarSi, vAstuzAstra ke anusAra prAsAda, viziSTa racanAvAle gRha ityAdi kA nirmANa karavA kara bAda meM niSkramaNa krnaa| rAjarSi ne kahA : he brAhmaNa - saMsayaM khalu so kuNai, jo magge kuNaI ghrN| jattheva gantumicchijjA, tattha kuvvijja sAsayaM // 9/26 mArga meM vaha manuSya ghara banAtA hai, jisako apanI yAtrA meM saMzaya hotA hai / jisane yAtrA kA, gamana kA nizcaya kara liyA hai vaha to apane iSTa sthAna para pahu~cane para hI Azraya karatA hai / he brAhmaNa, isalie maiM mukti ko hI Azraya banAne ke lie prayatnazIla banA huuN|' taba indra ne kahA : he rAjezvara, dhanavAnoM ko mArakara athavA binA mAre - corI karanevAle coroM ko, taskaroM ko nagara se bAhara nikAla kara, nagara kA kSema karane ke bAda jAnA ! kyoMki yaha ApakA rAjadharma hai / indra kI bAta suna kara, rAjarSi ne kahA - asaI tu maNassehiM, micchAdaMDo pajujjae / akAriNottha bajjhaMti, muccai kArago jaNo // 9/30 // he brAhmaNa, jo niraparAdhI hote haiM, unako ajJAna ke kAraNa manuSya sajA karatA hai, isase duniyA meM nirdoSa loga daMDita hote haiM aura doSita loga chUTa jAte | ekatva-bhAvanA 257

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haiM / ajJAna ke kAraNa aparAdhI ko daMDa nahIM mile aura niraparAdhI daMDita ho, vaisA rAjA nagara kA, prajA kA kSema karanevAlA kaise kahA jAyegA ? indra aba rAjarSi kI adveSa-bhAvanA kI parIkSA kI dRSTi se kahatA hai - rAjan, ApakI bAta ThIka hai, paraMtu jo rAjAe~ ApakI AjJA nahIM mAnate unako AjJAdhIna karake Apa jAnA ! rAjAoM ko AjJAdhIna banAne kI ApameM zakti rAjarSi ne kahA - jo sahassaM sahassANaM, saMgAme dujjA e jiNe / egaM jiNijja appANaM, esa me paramo jao // 9/34 he brAhmaNa, durjaya saMgrAma meM jo subhaTa dasa lAkha sainikoM para vijaya pAtA hai, vaha subhaTa yadi viSaya-kaSAya meM pravRtta aisI ati durjeya eka AtmA ko jIta letA hai, to vaha parama vijetA kahA jAtA hai !' appANameva jujjhAhi kiM te jujheNa bajjhao / appaNAmevamappANaM jaittA suhamehae // 9/35 he brAhmaNa, AtmA ko AtmA ke sAtha yuddha karanA hai ! anAcAroM meM pravRtta AtmA ke sAtha yuddha karanA hai / bAhara ke duzmanoM se lar3ane se kyA lAbha ? AtmA se AtmA para vijaya pA lenevAlA muni parama sukha pAtA hai / paMcindiyANI kohaM mANaM mANi taheva lobhaM ca / dujjayaM ceva appANaM savvamappe jie jiaM // 9/36 he brAhmaNa, pA~ca indriyA~ - krodha, mAna, mAyA, lobha aura durjaya mana, ye saba Atmavijaya prApta hone para sahajatA se jItA jA sakatA hai / isalie bAhara ke zatruoM kI upekSA kara maiM Atmajaya prApta karane ke lie prayatnazIla huuN| Atmajaya prApta hone para saba kucha jItA jAtA hai / ' abhI to maiM Apako indra aura nami rAjarSi ke prazna-uttara hI sanA rahA hU~ / nami rAjarSi brAhmaNa-rUpadhArI indra ko jo uttara de rahe haiM, usakI eka-eka bAta para eka-eka pravacana diyA jA sakatA hai, paraMtu itanA laMbA pravacana nahIM denA hai / Apa loga buddhimAna ho na ? saMkSepa meM sArI bAteM samajha sakate ho / bahuta sarala bhASA meM sArI bAteM batAyI jA rahI haiN| mahattvapUrNa bAteM do haiM - samatva kI aura ekatva kI / nami rAjarSi indra ko kitane samabhAva se uttara de rahe haiM ! unake bhItara AtmA kA vizuddha svarUpa pragaTa zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 258

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karane kI kitanI utkaTa bhAvanA hai ! ve bhItara meM kitane saMtuSTa hoMge ? isalie to unhoMne pahale hI kaha diyA : 'suhaM vasAmo jIvAmo ! 'hama sukhapUrvaka raha rahe haiM aura jI rahe haiM!' bar3I mahattvapUrNa bAta hai yaha ! AtmabhAva kI mastI meM sukhapUrvaka rahanA aura jInA ! aura kyA cAhie ? indra aura nami rAjarSi kA saMvAda, Aja yahI para hI pUrNa karate haiM / abhI kucha prazna- uttara zeSa haiM, kala batAU~gA / Aja basa, itanA hI / ekatva - bhAvanA 259

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Z zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 23 : saMkalanA nami rAjarSi va indra kA saMvAda / devarAja indra, rAjarSi kI stuti karatA hai / vastu ke vAstavika svarUpa ko jAneM / maiM akelA AyA hU~, akelA jAU~gA / zrIkRSNa aura balarAma / jIva akelA hI svarga meM, naraka meM aura mokSa meM jAtA hai / Atmahita bhI akele hI kara lenA hai / lava-kuza kA gRhatyAga mamatva kA bojha nIce le jAtA hai / parabhAva zarAba kA nazA / mamatva TUTA, rAma svastha hue / ekatva aura samatva se mukti / -

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upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI zAntasudhArasa' graMtha kI cauthI ekatva-bhAvanA meM kahate haiM : ekatAM samatopetA-menAmAtman vibhAvaya / labhasva paramAnandasaMpadaM namirAjavat // 5 // he Atmana, samatvabhAva ke sAtha tU AtmA ke ekatva kI anubhUti kara / yoM karake nami rAjarSi kI bhA~ti tU bhI parama AnaMda kA khajAnA prApta kara skegaa| mithilA kA rAjA nami ko pA~ca sau rAniyA~ thii| apAra rAjariddhi kA vaha mAlika thaa| eka dina usake badana meM dAhajvara paidA huaa| vaidyoM ne anekavidha auSadhopacAra kiye, paraMtu usakA dAhajvara zAnta nahIM huaa| zarIra para caMdana kA vilepana karane ke lie usakI sabhI rAniyA~ caMdana ghisane lagI / rAniyoM ke hAtha para aneka kaMgana the / kaMganoM ke gharSaNa se AvAja AtI thI, jyAdA AvAja AtI thii| namirAjA se sahana nahIM hotI thI / usako mAluma nahIM thA ki yaha AvAja rAniyoM ke kaMganoM kA hai / usane kahA : yaha AvAja baMda ho / rAniyoM ne turaMta hI saubhAgya kA sUcaka eka-eka kaMgana rakhakara zeSa kaMgana utAra diye / AvAja baMda ho gaI / rAjA ne pUchA : aba AvAja kaise baMda ho gaI ? rAniyoM ne kahA : svAminAtha, hamAre hAtha para aneka kaMgana the, isalie paraspara gharSaNa hotA thA, gharSaNa meM se AvAja paidA hotI thii| hamane saubhAgya kA eka-eka kaMgana rakhakara, zeSa kaMgana utAra diye, isalie aba AvAja nahIM AtI hai| rAniyoM ne to yaha bAta sahajabhAva se kahI thI, paraMtu namirAjA ne isa bAta kA AdhyAtmika artha kiyA / 'aneka meM saMgharSa hai, eka meM zAnti hai / aneka meM duHkha hai, eka meM hI sukha hai ! ekatva aura samatva meM hI zAnti aura sukha hai| isalie merA dAhajvara zAnta hone para maiM isa saMsAra kA tyAga kruuNgaa| aNagAra bnuuNgaa| nami rAjarSi va indra kA saMvAda : namirAjA kA zarIra nirogI hotA hai / ve pratyekabuddha banate haiN| yAnI kisI ke bhI upadeza ke binA ve virAgI-virakta banakara aNagAra banate haiM / mithilA kA, rAjaparivAra kA, rAjya-riddhi kA tyAga kara cala dete haiM / taba devarAja indra apane avadhijJAna se namirAjA ko dekhate haiM / indra ko Azcarya hotA hai ! namirAjA kA vairAgya duHkhagarbhita hai athavA jJAnagarbhita hai - yaha jAnane ke lie indra, brAhmaNa kA rUpa kara, pRthvI para AtA hai aura nami rAjarSi ko rAste meM milakara unase / ekatva-bhAvanA 261

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prazna pUchatA hai / nami rAjarSi samabhAva se kaise jJAnagarbhita pratyuttara dete haiM, kala kucha praznottara Apako sunAye the / jo zeSa praznottara haiM, ve Aja sunAtA huuN| ekAgra mana se sunanA, bAda meM una para ciMtana karanA hai| indra ne kahA : rAjana, bar3e-bar3e yajJa karA kara, zramaNa-brAhmaNa vagairaha ko bhojana karA kara, gau Adi kA dAna dekara, iSTa-miSTa aura priya viSayasukhoM ko bhogakara, svayaM yajJAdi karane ke bAda tyAgamArga para jAnA / nami rAjarSi ne kahA : jo sahassaM sahassANaM, mAse mAse gavaM dae / tassAvi saMjamo seo aditassAvi kiMcaNaM // 9/40 he brAhmaNa, koI manuSya pratimAsa 10-10 lAkha gAyoM kA dAna detA ho, aura koI manuSya eka gAya kA bhI dAna nahIM detA ho, to bhI hiMsA vagairaha pApoM ke parihArarUpa saMyama ati zreSTha hotA hai !' indra ne kahA : ThIka hai ApakI bAta, paraMtu gRhasthAzrama bhI ghora duSkara hai, usakA tyAga kara anya saMnyAsAzrama kI kyoM icchA karate ho ? he rAjan, gRhasthAzrama meM rahate hue pauSadhavrata meM nirata raheM / nami rAjarSi ne kahA : mAse mAse u jo bAlo, kusaggeNaM tu bhuMjae / na so suakkhAyadhammassa, kalaM agghai solasiM // 9/44 he brAhmaNa, koI ajJAnI manuSya, eka-eka mahIne ke upavAsa ke pAraNe meM ati alpa AhAra grahaNa karatA ho, phira bhI vaha tIrthaMkara-praNIta munidharma ke solahaveM bhAgasamAna bhI nahIM hotA hai / tIrthaMkaroM ne munidharma ko hI mukhya rUpa se muktimArga batAyA hai, gRhasthAzrama ko nahIM / ___ indra ne kahA : he rAjan, sonA, ratna, maNi-motI, mUlyavAna vastra, vAhana, dhanabhaMDAra ityAdi kI vRddhi karake aNagAra bananA / nami rAjarSi ne kahA : suvaNNaspassa, u pavvayA bhave, siA hu kelAsasamA asaMkhayA / narassa luddhassa na tehi kiMci icchA hu AgAsasamA aNaMtiyA // 4/48 he brAhmaNa, meruparvata jaise sonA-cAMdI ke asaMkhya pahAr3a mila jAyaM, phira bhI tRSNAtura manuSya ko thor3A bhI saMtoSa nahIM hotA hai| kyoMki icchA AkAza | 262 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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jaisI anaMta hotI hai / itanA hI nahIM, puDhavI sAlI javA ceva hiraNyaM pasubhissai / paDipuNNaM nAlamegassa, ii vijjA tavaM care // 9/49 he brAhmaNa, bhUmi, java Adi dhAnya, sonA Adi dhanasaMpatti, pazudhana Adi vaibhava, eka jIvAtmA kI icchApUrti ke lie paryApta nahIM hotA hai / aisA samajhakara, bAraha prakAra ke tapa karane caahie| ___ indra ne kahA : he rAjan, Azcarya kI bAta hai ki Apa vidyamAna adbhuta bhogoM kA tyAga kara, avidyamAna svarga ke sukhoM ko cAhate ho ! aprApta bhogoM kI ananta icchAoM se hata-prahata ho rahe ho ! Apa vivekI haiM, Apako aprApta bhogoM kI icchA se, prApta bhogoM kA tyAga nahIM karanA cAhie !' nami rAjarSi ne kahA : sallaM kAmA, visaM kAmA, kAmA, AsIvisovamA / kAme patthayamANA ya akAmA jaMti duggaiM // 9/53 ahe vayai koheNaM mANeNaM ahamA gaI / mAyA gai paDigghAo lohoo duhao bhayaM // 9/54 he brAhmaNa, zabda-rUpa-rasa-gaMdha aura sparza ke kAmasukha zalyarUpa haiM, kA~Te jaise haiM, jahara jaise haiM aura kAle nAga jaise haiM / kAmabhogoM kI icchA karane mAtra se jIva naraka-tiryaMcagati meM utpanna hote haiM, kAmabhoga bhogane kI bAta to dUra rahI ! __ he brAhmaNa, krodha se narakagati milatI hai, mAna-abhimAna se nIca gati milatI hai, mAyA se sadgati kA nAza hotA hai aura lobha se isa bhava meM aura parabhava meM aneka bhaya utpanna hote haiM / devarAja indra ko nami rAjarSi kA vairAgya jJAnamUlaka haiM - isa bAta kI pratIti ho gaI / usako ati harSa huA / usane apanA indra kA rUpa pragaTa kiyA aura nami rAjarSi ke caraNoM meM bhAvapUrvaka vaMdanA kara stuti kii| devarAja indra, rAjarSi kI stuti karatA hai : he rAjarSi, Apane krodha ko jIta liyA hai, mAna-abhimAna ko harA diyA hai, mAyA kA visarjana kiyA hai aura lobha ko svAdhIna kara liyA hai ! he rAjarSi, aho ! ApakI kaisI zreSTha saralatA hai ! kaisI apUrva namratA hai ! | ekatva-bhAvanA 263 |

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kaisI alaukika kSamA hai aura kaisA advitIya-asAdhAraNa saMtoSa hai ! ___ he pUjya, Apa uttama guNoM se saMpanna haiM, isalie vartamAna jIvana meM uttama haiM aura paraloka meM bhI uttamottama hoNge| Apa karmamukta banakara uttamottama sthAnamukti meM jAyeMge / isa prakAra stuti-stavanA kara indra AkAzamArga se devaloka meM calA gyaa| uttarAdhyayana sUtra meM bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI kahate haiM : indra ne pratyakSa hokara nami rAjarSi kI stuti kI, phira bhI nami rAjarSi garvita nahIM bane ! paraMtu ve vizeSa rUpa se AtmabhAva meM lIna bane ! nami namei appANaM / bar3I mahattvapUrNa bAta kaha dI hai / nami rAjarSi apane AtmasvarUpa meM vizeSa rUpa se lIna bane ! prazaMsA sunakara tanika bhI bAhya bhAva meM nahIM gaye / ekatva aura samatva kI ArAdhanA ko cUke nahIM, paraMtu usameM gahare DUba gye| - isa prakAra cauthI ekatva-bhAvanA ke pA~ca prAraMbhika zlokoM kA vivecana pUrNa kara, apana usa bhAvanA ke geya kAvya kA vivecana zurU karate haiN| yadi Apako zAstrIya rAgoM kA jJAna ho to yaha geya kAvya parajIyA yA bhImapalAsa rAga meM gA sakate haiM / suneM - vinaya cintaya vastutattvaM, jagati nijamiha kasya kim ? bhavatimatiriti yasya hRdaye, duritamudayati, tasya kim // 1 // eka utpadyate tanumA-neka eva vipadyate eka eva hi karma cinute, saikakaH phalamaznute // 2 // yasya yAvAnparaparigraha-vividhamamatAvIvadhaH / jalavidhivinihita potayuktyA, patati tAvadasAvadhaH // 3 // svasvabhAvaM madyamudito bhuvi vilupya viceSTate / dRzyatAM parabhAvaghaTanAt, patati viluThati jRmbhate // 4 // pahale ina zlokoM kA artha suna leM - o vinaya, tU vastu ke vAstavika rUpa kA bhalIbhA~ti ciMtana kr| isa vizva kI jela meM merA apanA kyA hai ? aisI pAradarzI prajJA jisake dila meM pragaTa ho jAtI hai, use phira duHkha-durita chuegA bhI kaise ? zarIradhArI AtmA akelA hI janma letA hai aura akelA hI mota kA zikAra hotA hai / karmoM kA baMdha bhI akele hI karatA hai aura karmoM ko bhugatanA bhI use 264 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 14.14

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akele hI par3atA hai| __taraha-taraha ke mamatvoM ke bojha se dabA huA prANI, parigraha kA bojha par3hane se, bahuta jyAdA bojha bar3hane se samudra meM DUba jAte jahAja kI bhA~ti nIce gaharAI meM pahu~ca jAtA hai| zarAba ke naze meM cUra hue AdamI kI taraha AtmA parabhAva ke pAza meM patita hotA hai, TakarAtA hai, loTatA hai aura zUnyamanaska hokara bhaTakatA hai / vastu ke vAstavika svaspa ko jAneM : ___ hara vastu ke do rUpa hote haiM - vAstavika aura avAstavika / vastu ke mUlabhUta dravya ko vAstavika kahate haiM, jisakA kabhI nAza nahIM hotA hai / dUsarA rUpa hotA hai avAstavika / usako kahate haiM paryAya ! hara dravya ke anaMta paryAya hote haiM / paryAya vinAzI hote haiM ! paryAya parivartanazIla hote haiM / yaha gaMbhIra tattvajJAna hai dravya aura paryAya kA / isa tattvajJAna kI ora graMthakAra nirdeza karate hue kahate haiM : soceM, isa vizva meM apanA kyA hai ? yaha divya vicAra jisake citta meM jAgrata ho jAtA hai, usako duHkha-durita kA sparza bhI nahIM ho sakatA hai ! cUMki usane samajha liyA hotA hai ki maiM vizuddha aura avinAzI AtmA hU~ aura jJAnAdi guNa hI mere hai, isake alAvA kucha bhI merA nahIM hai / carmadRSTi se dikhanevAlA eka bhI paryAya merA nahIM hai / pA~ca indriyA~ aura unake viSaya mere nahIM hai / jo merA nahIM hai vaha bane yA bigar3e, isase mujhe koI matalaba nahIM hai ! akelA AyA hU~, akelA jAU~gA : isa anAdi saMsAra meM karmavaza jIva kA ekatva' kaisA hai, isakA bahuta hI hRdayasparzI varNana kArtikeyAnuprekSA meM kiyA hai / ekatva kI anuprekSA karate hue tIna zlokoM meM unhoMne kahA hai - jIva akelA hI garbha meM utpanna hotA hai / garbha meM zarIra banAtA hai / vahI akelA janamatA hai, bAla hotA hai, yuvAna hotA hai aura vRddha hotA hai| ___ akelA hI roga-zoka bhogatA hai / akelA hI saMtApa-vedanA sahatA hai aura akelA hI maratA hai ! akelA hI naraka ke duHkha sahana karatA hai / naraka meM paravazatA se duHkha sahana karane hI par3ate haiM / koI bacA sakatA nahIM hai / zrIkRSNa aura balarAma : jaina mahAbhArata meM batAyA gayA hai ki zrIkRSNa kI mRtyu ke bAda balarAma virakta ho jAte haiM / ve zramaNa bana jAte haiM / sau varSa taka ve saMyamadharma kA pAlana karate ekatva-bhAvanA 265

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haiM / devaloka meM utpanna hote haiM / zrIkRSNa ke prati apAra rAga hone se, unhoMne devaloka meM utpanna hote hI, apane avadhijJAna ke prakAza meM dekhA ki zrIkRSNa kA janma kahA~ huA hai ? kRSNa ko unhoMne tIsarI naraka meM dekhe| vAsudeva marakara naraka meM hI jAte haiM / aisA siddhAMta hai / kRSNa vAsudeva the / balarAma-deva ne apanI daivIzakti se dUsarA zarIra banAyA aura ve zrIkRSNa ko milane tIsarI naraka meM gaye / kRSNa ko AliMgana kara bole : mere bhAI, maiM tumhArA bhAI balarAma hU~ | tumhArI rakSA karane maiM pA~cave brahma-devaloka se yahA~ AyA hU~ / bolo, tumhAre lie maiM kyA karU~ ?' kRSNa kucha bhI bole, usake pahale deva ne kRSNa ko uThAye / paraMtu uThAte hI kRSNa kA zarIra pAre kI taraha vizIrNa hokara jamIna para gira par3A / jamIna para girate hI punaH zarIra jaisA thA vaisA bana gayA / zrIkRSNa ne khar3e hokara balarAmadeva ko namaskAra kiyA / deva ne kahA - 'mere bhAI, bhagavAna nemanAtha ne kahA thA ki vaiSayika sukha duHkhadAyI hote haiM / Aja maiM pratyakSa dekha rahA huuN| he vAsudeva, karmoM se Apa niyaMtrita ho, maiM tumheM svarga meM le jA nahIM sakatA, paraMtu tumhAre mana kI khuzI ke lie maiM yahA~ tumhAre pAsa rahanA cAhatA hU~ / __ kRSNa ne kahA - 'bhaiyA, Apake yahA~ rahane se mujhe koI lAbha honevAlA nahIM hai / Apa raheMge, to bhI maiMne jitanA naraka kA AyuSya-karma bA~dhA hai, utanA bhoganA hI par3egA / mujhe akele ko bhoganA pdd'egaa| Apa yahA~ nahIM raheM / mere karma mujhe bhogane do| balarAma ke hRdaya meM bahuta duHkha huaa| ve vApasa devaloka meM cale gaye / akelA hI svarga meM, naraka meM aura mokSa meM jAtA hai : ikko saMcadi puNNaM, ikko bhuMjedi vivihasurasokkhaM / ikko khavedi kamma, ikko viya pAvae mokkhaM // 'akelA jIva puNya bA~dhatA hai, akelA jIva devaloka kA sukha bhogatA hai, akelA hI jIva karmoM kI nirjarA karatA hai aura akelA hI jIva mokSa pAtA hai / isalie, dUsaroM kI ora nahIM dekhate hue Atmahita bhI akele hI kara lenA caahie| prazamarati meM bhagavAn umAsvAtIjI ne kahA hai : ekasya janmamaraNe gatayazca zubhAzubhA bhavAvarte / tasmAdAkAlikAhitamekenaivAtmanaH kAryam // 153 // maiM akelA hU~ ! paidA hotA hU~ akelA aura maratA bhI akelA hI hU~ / naraka | 266 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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meM jAtA hU~ to bhI akelA aura svarga kI saira karatA hU~ to bhI maiM akelA hI / manuSyagati meM janma letA hU~ to bhI maiM khuda akelA aura pazuyoni meM jAU~ to bhI maiM svayaM hI! Atmahita bhI akele hI kara lenA hai : __ jo anaMta-anaMta samaya bIta gayA isa saMsAra meM paribhramaNa karate hue, usa anaMtakAla meM jo koI sukha-duHkha maiMne sahe vo bhI akele hI / maiM yAnI aatmaa| maiM akelA hU~, asahAya hU~, yaha vAstavikatA hai aura mujhe isa vAstavikatA kA sarasarI taura para svIkAra kara lenA cAhie / isa vAstavikatA kA maiMne svIkAra nahIM kiyA aura anekatA ke khyAla meM kho gyaa| anekatA kI jAla meM ulajhatA hI rahA - 'akele meM duHkha, aneka meM sukha, yaha vicAra merA dRr3ha rahA hai, isalie eka meM se aneka hone kA prayatna kiyA hai aura kiye jA rahA huuN| ___ 'vizAla parivAra ho to sukha, vizAla mitra-maMDala ho to sukha, bar3A anuyAyI varga ho to sukha, basa ! bhIr3a meM hI sukha aura AnaMda kI kalpanA banAyI aura usameM hI ulajhatA rahA / pariNAma-svarUpa duHkha aura azAnti kA bojha DhotA rahA / hAlA~ki samUha-jIvana meM kucha-eka sukha, kucha AnaMda bhI maine pAyA hai, para vo sukha dIrghakAla taka TikA nahIM, vo Ananda jyAdA samaya rahA nhiiN| vo saba alpakAlIna siddha huA hai / / __ mujhe ekAkI honA nahIM hai, phira bhI kabhI na kabhI to ekAkI bananA hI hogaa| taba kyA mujhe duHkha nahIM hogA ? vedanA nahIM hogI? akele jaba maranA hogA taba kyA merI svasthatA barakarAra banI rahegI ? samatA aura samAdhi meM lIna ho jAU~gA? maiM akelA, kauna-sI gati meM jAU~gA? yaha bhaya mujhe vyAkula to nahIM banA DAlegA ? isalie aba maiM isa parama satya kA svIkAra karatA hU~ - 'maiM akelA hU~, mujhe akele hI janma-maraNa karane haiM, akele hI cAra gati meM aura 84 lAkha yoni meM bhaTakanA hai, to phira kyoM na maiM akele hI merA AtmahitaAtmakalyANa sAdha lU~? kyoM na maiM akelA hI mahAn dharma-puruSArtha kara lU~ ?' aba Aja meM cAra nirNaya kara letA hU~ - 1. maiM akelA hU~, merA koI nahIM hai, mujhe kisI kA sahArA nahIM hai, aisI zikAyata aba maiM kabhI bhI nahIM kruuNgaa| 2. maine to unheM apanA mAnakara, unake DheroM kAma kiye, para unhoMne merI koI sahAyatA nahIM kI, aisI manovyathA aba maiM kabhI nahIM karU~gA / 3. 'dharmaArAdhanA to maiM karU~, para mujhe koI sAthI cAhie, koI sahayogI cAhie, & ekatva-bhAvanA 267 &

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sAtha-sahayoga ke binA dharmaArAdhanA mere se nahIM hogI, aisI dalIleM maiM nahIM kruuNgaa| 4. eko'haM- maiM akelA hU~ - isa satya ko AtmasAt karane ke lie niraMtara ekatva-bhAvanA se bhAvita banA raha~gA / AtmA kI advaitabhAva kI mastI meM jInevAle mithilA ke nami rAjarSi aura avaMtI ke rAjA bhartRhari vagairaha jaba smRti kI zIpa meM motI banakara ubharate haiM, taba AtmAnanda kI akathya anubhUti hotI hai / akelepana kI dInatA-hatAzA cUra-cUra ho jAtI hai / para-sApekSatA kI U~cI-U~cI kagAre TUTa giratI haiM / rahanA saba ke bIca, para saba se judA !' aise jIne kA majA maine cakha liyA hai / kisI girimAlA ke uttuMga zikhara para, gaganacuMbI bhavya jinamaMdiroM kI goda meM, akele Asana jamAkara, havA kI sanasanAhaToM ke aura pakSiyoM ke madhura kUjana ke alAvA jahA~ aura kucha bhI na ho, maMdira kA pUjArI bhI jaba apane ghara calA gayA ho, aise meM janarahita nIrava zAMti meM, paramAtmA ke sAnnidhya meM, ekatva aura samatva kA nijAnaMda maiMne pAyA hai / aura, tIvra saMvedanAoM se sikta huA hU~ / anekatA ke kolAhala se mukta hokara dUra dUra ekatva ke kSIrasamudra meM DubakiyA~ lagAne kI mastI maiMne pAyI hai| aba anekatA meM se milanevAle sukha mujhe nahIM cAhie / anekatA meM se paidA honevAlA AnaMda mujhe nahIM bhAyegA / para-sApekSa jIvana aba nahIM jInA hai / aba to isa choTI-sI jindagI meM AtmA ke advaita-ekatva kI jI bharakara sAdhanA kara lenA hai / AtmA kA sthAyI hita khoja lenA hai / nitya aura zAzvat guNasamRddhi pA lenA hai| ___ AtmasAkSI se aisA nirNaya kara lenA hai aura isa nirNaya ko dRr3ha karane ke lie paramAtmA se prArthanA karanA hai / lava-kuza kA gRhatyAga : jaba jIvana caMcala hai, jIva azaraNa hai, saMsAra nirguNa-asAra hai aura AtmA akelI hai, taba prabuddha manuSya ko zAzvat AtmakalyANa hI sAdha lenA cAhie / isa viSaya meM Apako rAmAyaNakAlIna eka adbhuta ghaTanA sunAtA huuN| ___ ayodhyA ke rAjamahala meM acAnaka lakSmaNajI kI mRtyu ho gaI thI / antaHpura kI rAniyA~ ghora Akranda karane lagI thI / rAniyA~ aura dAsiyoM kA karuNa vilApa sunakara zrIrAma vahA~ pahu~ca gaye aura bole : tuma loga yaha kyA kara rahe ho ? maiM jindA hU~, merA bhAI lakSmaNa bhI jindA hai / usako koI roga huA hai, vaha mUchita zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 268

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ho gayA hai / abhI maiM vaidyoM ko bulAkara auSadha karavAtA hU~ / zrIrAma ne turaMta hI vaidyoM ko bulavAye, mAMtrika aura tAMtrikoM ko bulavAye / auSadha aura maMtrataMtra ke prayoga karavAye, paraMtu saba kucha niSphala gayA / zrIrAma duHkha se macchita ho gye| jaba hoza meM Aye, ve karuNa vilApa karane lage / vibhISaNa, sugrIva, zatrudhna vagairaha ayodhyA meM hI the, ve bhI zrIrAma ke sAtha karuNa Akranda karane lge| kauzalyA, sumitrA vagairaha mAtAe~, putravadhUe~ vagairaha bhI bAra-bAra mUchita hone lagI aura karuNa rudana karane lagI / ayodhyA ke pratyeka mArga meM, pratyeka ghara meM aura pratyeka dukAna meM zokAdvaita phaila gyaa| usa samaya zrIrAma ke do putra lava aura kuza, gahana zokasAgara meM DUbe the| ve gahana ciMtana meM, gahana AtmamaMthana meM cale gaye ! hamAre pitAtulya lakSmaNajI acAnaka cala bse...| krUra mahAkAla ne una jaise advitIya parAkramI vAsudeva kA apaharaNa kara liyaa| ve kucha bhI Atmahita nahIM kara paaye..| jIvana...AyuSya...yauvana caMcala hai... vinAzI hai... / Arogya bhI caMcala hai / hameM pramAda nahIM karanA caahie| svajanoM ke moha-mamatva meM ulajhanA nahIM cAhie / mamatva ke baMdhanoM ko tatkAla tor3a DAlane cAhie / Aja cAcA cala base, kala hama bhI cale jA sakate haiM / mRtyu kabhI bhI A sakatI hai / isake pUrva gRha tyAga kara, zramaNa bana kara, cAritradharma le lenA cAhie / donoM bhAiyoM ne zrIrAma ko apanI bhAvanA batA dI aura namaskAra kara cala diyaa| zrI amRtaghoSa muni ke pAsa jAkara dIkSA le lI / jJAna-darzana-cAritra aura tapa kI ArAdhanA kI, sabhI karmabaMdhana tor3a DAle aura ve siddha-buddha-mukta bana gye| mamatva kA bojha nIce le jAtA hai : ___ mamatva ko hI parigraha kahA gayA hai / mUrchA kaheM, mamatva kaheM yA parigraha kaheM, artha eka hI hai / mamatva bhArI hotA hai / lohe se bhI bhArI / lohe se aura lakar3I se banA jahAja to samudra kI sataha para tairatA hai, paraMtu mamatva-parigrahaAsakti ke bojha se bharA huA manuSya saMsAra-sAgara meM DUba jAtA hai| nIce...bahuta nIce calA jAtA hai / saMsAra-sAgara ke bahuta nIce sAta naraka haiM / parigrahI jIva naraka meM calA jAtA hai / bahuta jyAdA parigrahI-viSayAsakta jIva sAtavIM naraka meM jAtA hai, usase kama parigrahI chaTThI naraka meM, usase kama parigrahI pA~cavI naraka meM... vaise kama-kama mamatvavAlA jIva cauthI, tIsarI, dUsarI, pahalI naraka meM jAtA ekatva-bhAvanA 269

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isalie mamatva tor3ane kA aura samatva pAne kA upadeza jJAnI puruSa dete haiM / tuma akele ho, akele janme ho aura akele maroge / jina paudgalika viSayoM para mamatva karate ho, Asakti bA~dhate ho, ve sAtha calanevAle nahIM hai / mamatva kA bojha tumheM nIce...gahare pAnI meM DUbo degaa| tuma naraka meM cale jaaoge| asaMkhya varSoM taka duHkha pAoge / __zAstroM meM, dharmagraMthoM meM kahA gayA hai ki jo vAsudeva hote haiM, ve avazya naraka meM jAte haiM / kyoMki ve mRtyuparyaMta parigraha kA, mamatva kA tyAga nahIM karate haiM ! aura sabhI baladeva svarga athavA mokSa meM jAte haiM, Upara jAte haiM, kyoMki ve mRtyu ke pahale parigraha kA tyAga kara dete haiM ! mamatva kA bojha kama kara dete haiM athavA sarvathA tyAga kara dete haiM / vaise jo cakravartI mRtyu taka parigrahI bane rahate haiM, ve avazya naraka meM jAte haiM / jo mRtyu ke pUrva mamatva kA tyAga karate haiM ve svarga athavA mokSa meM jAte haiM / bharata cakravartI vagairaha sarvathA aparigrahI bane the to mokSa meM gaye / sanatkumAra cakravartI ne mamatva kA bojha kama kiyA thA to ve tIsare devaloka meM gaye / aura subhUma-brahmadatta cakravartI ne mamatva-parigraha nahIM tyAgA thA to ve naraka meM gaye ! isalie mamatva chor3akara, ekatva kI aura samatva kI ArAdhanA kareM / parabhAva : zarAba kA nazA : ___ jahA~ ekatva kI bhAvanA nahIM rahatI hai, anekatva kI bhAvanA dRr3ha hotI hai, parabhAva kI Asakti, paradravya kA mamatva rahatA hai, vahA~ jIva kI dazA zarAbI jaisI hotI rahatI hai / phira vaha puruSa sAdhAraNa ho yA asAdhAraNa ! sAmAnya ho yA viziSTa! yuvAna ho yA vRddha / zarAbI kI taraha vaha patati, viluThati, jRmbhate! vaha giratA hai, TakarAtA hai...loTatA hai ! jaba laMkApati rAvaNa sItA kA apaharaNa kara gayA thA taba zrIrAma jaise mahAparuSa kI kyA sthiti banI thI ? zrIrAma kA sItA ke prati mamatva thA, parabhAva kA baMdhana thA ! zrIrAma ne jaba kuTiyA meM sItA ko nahIM dekhA, ve tatkAla mUJchita hokara pRthvI para gira par3e the / jaba ve hoza meM Aye taba ve jaMgala meM sItAjI kI khoja meM bhaTakane lage the| vanadevatA ko dIna vacanoM se prArthanA karane lage the - he vanadevatA, maiM isa vana meM sarvatra bhaTakA, paraMtu maiMne jAnakI ko nahIM dekhA...tumane dekhA ho to kRpayA batAyeM / bhUta aura jaMgalI krUra janAvaroM se bhare hue isa vana meM sItA ko akelI chor3akara maiM lakSmaNa ke pAsa calA gayA...maiM kaisA buddhihIna ? he priye | 270 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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sItA, isa bhayAnaka vana meM maiMne tujhe akelI kyoM chor3a dI ?' bolate-bolate ve ro par3e...aura mUrchita hokara gira par3e jamIna para / zrIrAma kI kaisI karuNAjanaka sthiti banI thI ! ve bAra-bAra girate rahe, vilApa karate rahe...saMtapta bane rahe ! kAraNa ? parabhAva kA mamatva thA ! sItA ke prati Asakti thI ! lakSmaNajI kI mRtyu ke bAda bhI zrIrAma kI sthiti aisI hI dayanIya ho gaI thii| ve bAra-bAra macchita hokara jamIna para gira jAte the| lakSmaNa ke Upara zrIrAma kA ati sneha thA, ati mamatva thA ! ve mAnane ko hI taiyAra nahIM the ki lakSmaNa kI mRtyu huI hai / lakSmaNa ke mRtadeha ko apane kaMdhe para lekara ayodhyA meM ve 6 mahInoM taka phirate rahe the| kabhI ve lakSmaNa ke mRtadeha ko snAna karavAte, svayaM unake zarIra para caMdana kA vilepana karate, uttama bhojana kA thAla unake sAmane rakhate / mRtadeha ko apane utsaMga meM lekara mukha para bAra-bAra cuMbana krte| kabhI zaiyA para sulAkara usa para paMkhA Dhote / kabhI aMgamardana karate / isa prakAra rAga se unmatta hokara...vividha mohaceSTAe~ karate...chaha mahIne taka phirate rahe / mamatva TUTA, rAma svastha hue : zrI sItAjI kI rakSA karate-karate marA huA jaTAyu-pakSI, marakara mAhendra devaloka meM deva huA thA / zrIrAma ke prati unakA dRr3ha sneha thA, vaha sneha se prerita hokara zrIrAma ke pAsa AtA hai aura rAma kI rAgAkrAnta mohamUDha dazA dekhakara, unako pratibuddha karane, vividha upAya karatA hai / vaise, zrIrAma kA senApati kRtAntavadana bhI marakara deva banA thA, vaha bhI zrIrAma ko pratibodha dene vahA~ ayodhyA meM AtA hai / donoM devoM ne vividha prayogoM se zrIrAma kI mohamUrchA dUra kii| lakSmaNa kI mRtyu ho gaI hai, yaha vAstavikatA samajhAyI, zrIrAma ne lakSmaNa kI mRtyu kI bAta mAna lI, taba donoM deva, zrIrAma ko praNAma kara, devaloka meM cale gaye ! lakSmaNa ke mRtadeha kA agnisaMskAra kiyA gyaa| zrIrAma aba saMsAra ke prati virakta bana gaye / sItA, lakSmaNa aura lava-kuza ke binA duniyA unake lie ujjar3a vIrAna-sI bana gaI thI / saMsAra kI asAratA kA unako vAstavika jJAna ho gayA thaa| unhoMne zatrudhna ko rAjya grahaNa karane ko kahA, paraMtu zatrughna ne kahAH 'maiM bhI Apake sAtha hI dIkSA luuNgaa| taba rAma ne lava ke putra anaMgadeva kA rAjyAbhiSeka kiyA aura ve suvrata nAma ke mahAmuni ke pAsa gaye / ___ sugrIva, zatrughna, vibhISaNa, virAdha vagairaha ke sAtha zrIrAma ne gRhavAsa kA tyAga kiyA aura ve aNagAra bana gaye / yaha samAcAra sAre bhArata meM phaila gaye / solaha | ekatva-bhAvanA 271

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hajAra rAjAoM ne bhI dIkSA le lI / ekatva aura samatva kI ArAdhanA karatekarate zrI rAmabhadra mahAmuni vagairaha ne mukti pA lii| ekatva aura samatva se mukti : ___ sabhI karmoM se mukti pAnA hai taba to ekatva aura samatva kI ArAdhanA karanI hI hogI, paraMtu isa jIvana meM zArIrika-mAnasika saMtApoM se-klezoM se mukti pAnA hai, to bhI ekatva aura samatva kI ArAdhanA karanI hogI / ekatva-bhAvanA kA ciMtana pratidina karanA hogA / isa bhAvanA ko AtmasAt karanI hogI / Aja geyakAvya kI cAra gAthAoM para vivecana kiyA hai| kala zeSa cAra gAthAoM para vivecana kara, ekatva-bhAvanA kA vivecana pUrNa kreNge| Aja basa, itanA hii| | 272 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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zAnta sudhArasa pravacana : 24 : saMkalanA : * apanA rUpa khojanA hogaa| * karmavaza jIva ke aneka spa / * ekatva se hI parama sukha kI or|| * zrIrAma-mahAmuni ko anukUla upasarga / * hRdayamaMdira meM pUrNAtmA kI ramaNatA ho / * indriyA~ aura AtmaramaNatA / * samatAsudhA kA AsvAda kreN| * paramAtmabhAva meM vAsanA dRr3ha kaise baneM ? * ekatva-bhAvanA se hI samatAsukha /

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pazya kAJcanamitarapudgala - militamaJcati kAM dazAm / kevalasya tu tasya rUpaM viditameva bhavAdazAm // 5 // evamAtmani karmavazato, bhavati spamanekadhA / karmamalarahite tu bhagavati, bhAsate kAJcanavidhA / / 6 / / jJAnadarzana caraNaparyava - parivRttaH paramezvaraH / eka evAnubhavasadane, sa ramatAmavinazvaraH / / 7 // rucirasamatAmRtarasaM - kSaNa- muditamAsvAdaya mudA / vinaya viSayAtItasukharasa - ratirudaJcatu te sadA // 8 // upAdhyAyazrI vinayavijayajI 'zAntasudhArasa' graMtha meM cauthI 'ekatva - bhAvanA' ke geya kAvya meM pharamAte haiM : 5. tumheM to mAlUma hI hai nA ? sone jaisI kImatI dhAtu bhI yadi halakI dhAtu meM mila jAtI hai to apanA nirmala rUpa kho baiThatI hai| vaise hI AtmA kA parabhAva meM apanA nirmala rUpa kho gayA hai / 6. parabhAva ke prapaMca meM par3I huI AtmA, na jAne kitane svAMga racAtI hai / para vahI AtmA yadi karmoM ke maila se mukta ho jAe to zuddha sone kI bhA~ti camaka uThatI hai / 7. aise paramezvara (AtmA) sadaiva jJAna - darzana aura cAritra ke bhAvoM se paripUrNa hote haiM / ve hI mere svAnubhava ke maMdira meM ramamANa raho / I 8. tere hRdaya meM zAMtarasa kA AvirbhAva huA hai, tU jarA usakA AsvAda to le ! aindrika sukhoM ke upabhoga - rasa se dUra-dUra vaise zAntarasa meM terA mana Ananda ko prApta karegA / apanA rUpa khojanA hogA : AtmA kA vizuddha rUpa 'zuddhAtmadravyamevAhaM pragaTa nahIM hai / taba mana meM prazna uThatA hai 'kahA~ vo vizuddha rUpa kho gayA hai ? kahA~ vo vizuddha AtmA kho gayI hai ?' usakA uttara hai : parabhAva meM, pudgala-bhAva meM usa AtmA kA vizuddha rUpa kho gayA hai, chipa gayA hai / yaha bAta samajhAne ke lie graMthakAra ne suvarNa kA udAharaNa diyA hai / pittala dhAtu meM yadi sonA mila jAtA hai to sonA apanA rUpa kho detA hai / vaise pudgala-bhAva meM AtmA ne apanA 'rUpa' kho diyA hai / vaise AtmA kA rUpa hai hI nahIM, vaha to 'arUpI' hai, rUpa to pudgala kA hotA hai ! pudgala ke saMga AtmA rUpI' kahalAtI hai / I 274 -- zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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pudgala-gItA meM kahA hai - jIva aspI, spa dharata te parapariNatiparasaMga parapariNatisaMga' yAnI parapudgalasaMga / jaba taka AtmA karmoM ke baMdhana meM hogI taba taka vaha rUpI hI rahegI / rUpa pudgala kA guNa hai / zabda, rUpa, rasa, gaMdha aura sparza - ye pA~coM pudgala ke guNa hai| pudgala khANo, pudgala pINo, pudgalahuMthI kAyA / varNa gaMdha rasa pharasa sahue, pudgalahuM kI mAyA // yaha saba pudgala kI mAyA hai ! AtmA ko pudgala se koI matalaba nahIM hai| phira bhI, jIva pudgala ke anAdikAlIna saMga kI vajaha se pudgala ke guNoM ko apane guNa mAna rahA hai| merA rUpa, merA sparza, merI gaMdha, merA zabda... aisA mAnatA hai, aisA bolatA hai aura aisA vyavahAra karatA hai| apane vizuddha AtmasvarUpa kA use jJAna hI nahIM hai / ekatva-bhAvanA meM AtmA ke ekatva kA jJAna karanA hai| vizuddha Atma-svarUpa kA dhyAna karanA hai / taba pudgala ke rUpa-rasAdi kA mamatva chUTa jAyegA / zuddha sone kI taraha AtmA svarUpa meM camaka utthegii| karmavaza jIva ke aneka rUpa : karmavazato bhavati rUpamanekadhA / isa virATa vizva meM jIvoM ke vividha rUpa jo dikhAyI dete haiM, ve karmoM kI vajaha se haiM / karma kI vajaha se hI jIva deva kA rUpa letA hai, naraka kA rUpa dhAraNa karatA hai, manuSya kA aura janAvara kA rUpa dhAraNa karatA hai / jar3a pudgala cetana kuM jaga meM, nAnA nAca nacAve !' karma, jar3a pudgala hai / vaha karma cetana-AtmA ko vividha nAca nacAtA hai| tIna bhavana meM sabhI prakAra kA vyavahAra karmapadagala kI vajaha se hI hai / mokSa meM karma nahIM hai, to eka bhI vikAra vahA~ nahIM hai ! eka bhI dAga vahA~ AtmA para nahIM hotA hai / zuddha sone jaisI vahA~ AtmA hotI hai| tIna bhuvana meM dekhIye sahu, pudgala kA vyavahAra, pudgala viNa kou siddhaspa meM darasata nahIM vikAra / isa dRSTi se yadi AtmA ke ekatva kI bhAvanA bhAnA hai, to pudgalajanyakarmajanya sabhI rUpoM se bhinna AtmA kA ciMtana karanA hogA / jaise ki - - maiM deva nahIM hU~, maiM devI nahIM hU~ / - maiM puruSa nahIM hU~, maiM strI nahIM haiN| ekatva-bhAvanA 275

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- maiM nArakI nahIM huuN| - maiM jAnavara nahIM huuN| - maiM zrImaMta nahIM hU~, maiM garIba nahIM huuN| maiM rogI nahIM hU~, maiM nirogI nahIM hU~ / - maiM mUrkha nahIM hU~, maiM buddhimAna nahIM hU~ / - maiM rUpavAna nahIM hU~, maiM kurUpa nahIM huuN| - maiM yazasvI nahIM hU~, maiM badanAma nahIM hU~ / maiM ina sabhI rUpoM se pare hU~ ! ye sabhI rUpa karmajanya haiM, parabhAvajanya haiM, pudgalajanya haiM / isalie ina sabhI rUpoM meM mamatva, Asakti nahIM karanA hai / vaise hI, puNya aura pApa ko bhI samAna samajheM / na puNya meM rAga kareM, na pApa meM dveSa kareM / puNyakarma aura pApakarma - donoM parabhAva hai, donoM paudgalika hai / donoM baMdhana hai / puNyakarma sone kI jaMjIra hai, pApakarma lohe kI ber3I hai ! kahA gayA hai - puNya pApa doya sama karI jANo, bhedama jANo kou, jima ber3I kaMcana loDhAnI, baMdhanaspa dou / puNyakarma meM harSita nahIM honA hai aura pApakarma meM zokAkula nahIM honA hai / donoM avasthA paradravya kI hai, parabhAva kI hai, isa dRSTi se donoM samAna haiM ! jaise eka manuSya kue meM girakara maratA hai, dUsarA parvata ke zikhara para se girakara maratA hai ! mRtyu donoM samAna haiM, phira bhI do prakAra mAne jAte haiM na ? vaise puNya-pApa do prakAra parabhAva ke mAne gaye haiN| kou kUpa meM paDi muve jima, kou giri jhaMpA khAya, maraNa be sarikhA jANiye paNa, bheda dou kahevAya / puNya-pApa-pudgaladazA ima, je jANe samatula, zubha kiriyAphala navi cAhe e, jANa adhyAtama mUla / AtmA ke ekatva aura samatva ke ciMtana meM puNya-pApa ko karmapudgala samajha kara, donoM ko samAna mAna kara, unase AtmA kI aliptatA kA bhAva dRr3ha karanA hai / AdhyAtmika ciMtana meM na puNya kA mahattva hai, na pApa kA mahattva hai / AtmabhAva, donoM se mukta hai| zubha-pavitra dharmakriyA karane kI hai, paraMtu mamatvabhAva nahIM karanA hai / isase nayA karmabaMdha nahIM hotA hai / maiM pudgalabhAvoM kA kartA bhI nahIM hU~ aura kArayitA 276 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1]

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bhI nahIM hU~ / isa prakAra kI samajhadArI Ane para nayA karmabaMdha nahIM hotA hai / aura, isa prakAra kA AdhyAtmika ciMtana, mohazatru para pahalA prahAra hai / zubha kiriyA AcaraNa Acare, dhare na mamatAbhAva, nUtana baMdha hoya nahIM iNavidha, prathama ari-zira ghAva / bahuta se manuSya - janma mile, anaMta bAra manuSya bane, paraMtu yaha AdhyAtmika ciMtana nahIM kiyA, isa manuSya-jIvana meM vaha bhUla doharAnA nahIM hai / isa jIvana meM AdhyAtmika dRSTi pAkara, moha kI chAtI meM AtmA ke ekatva kA tIra mAranA hI hai / moha-mamatva ko naSTa karanA hI hai / vAra ananta cUkIyA cetana ! iNa avasara mata cUka, mAra nizAnA moharAya kI chAtI meM, mata uka ! ekatva se hI parama sukha kI ora : 'anekatA meM duHkha hai, ekatva meM hI sukha hai / parama sukha pAne kA mArga bhI ekatva kI ArAdhanA kA hI haiM, aisA dRr3ha nizcaya hI mahAtmAoM ko kaThora upasargoM meM vicalita nahIM hone detaa| anukUla upasargoM meM bhI vicalita nahIM hone detA / zrIrAma ke citta meM, zramaNa banane ke bAda aisA hI 'ekatva' kA, AtmA ke ekatva kA dRr3ha nizcaya ho gayA thaa| sItAjI ke prati yA lakSmaNa ke prati thor3AsA bhI mamatva nahIM rahA thaa| sItA kA rUpa aura lakSmaNa kA rUpa 'ye karmajanya haiM, ye avasthAe~ avAstavika haiM, asat haiM...' yaha satya AtmasAt ho gayA thA / isalie sItendra ke anukUla upasarga meM ve calAyamAna nahIM hue the / I vaise bhI mahAmuni zrIrAma apramatta bhAva se ghora aura ugra tapazcaryA karate the eka mahIne ke, do mahIne ke, tIna-cAra mahIne ke upavAsa karate the| kabhI jaMgaloM meM ve paryaMkAsana' se rahate the, kabhI bhujAoM ko pralaMbita kara khar3e rahate the, kabhI aMguSTha para to kabhI pairoM kI er3I para khar3e rahakara AtmadhyAna meM rahate the / vihAra karate, zrIrAma - mahAmuni 'koTizilA' nAma kI jagaha para pahu~ce / zrIrAma - mahAmuni ko anukUla upasarga : 'triSaSTi- zalAkA puruSa - caritra meM zrIrAma - mahAmuni ko kaisA anukUla upasarga, sItendra dvArA huA thA, usakA hRdayasparzI varNana par3hane ko milatA hai / Apako sunAtA hU~ / sItA ne sAdhvI banakara, jJAna- darzana - cAritra kI ArAdhanA kara, devagati pAyI thI / ve bArahave devaloka meM devendra bane the| unake mana meM se abhI bhI rAmasneha 1 ekatva - bhAvanA - 277

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kA dvaita nirmUla nahIM huA thaa| rAmasneha pUrvavat banA huA thA / apane avadhijJAna se unhoMne dekhA, zrIrAma kyA kara rahe haiM!' avadhijJAna ke Aloka meM unhoMne zrIrAma ko aNagAra bane hue dekhA / koTizilA para dhyAnastha bane hue dekhA / unake mana meM ciMtA huI ki ye yadi zukladhyAna meM cale jAyeMge to sarvajJa - vItarAga banakara mukta bana jAyeMge / maiM cAhatA hU~ ki ve saMsAra meM hI rahe... to unake sAtha merA punaH saMbaMdha ho ske| maiM unako anukUla upasarga karU~, dhyAna se vicalita karU~, jisase ve mRtyu ke bAda yahA~ mere mitra deva baneM !' 1 aisA socakara sItendra zrIrAma - mahAmuni ke pAsa, koTizilA para Aye / unhoMne vahA~ vasaMtaRtu se vibhUSita eka bar3A udyAna banA diyA ! deva the na ? thor3I kSaNoM meM jo cAhe vaha ho sakatA thA ! udyAna meM vRkSoM kI DAlI para koyaleM kUkane lagI / malayAnila bahane lagA / puSpa - sugaMdha se harSita bhramaragaNa guMjArava karane lagA / Amra, caMpaka, gulAba, borasallI para naye sugaMdhI puSpa A gaye / sItendra ne apanA sItA kA rUpa banA liyA / anya striyoM ke sAtha rAma- mahAmuni ke pAsa A kara sItA bolane lagI : 1 'he nAtha, maiM ApakI priyA sItA hU~, Apake pAsa AyI hU~ / he nAtha, usa samaya maiMne Apa jaise snehabharapUra pati kA tyAga kara dIkSA le lI thI, paraMtu bAda meM mujhe bar3A pazcAttApa huA thA / ina vidyAdhara kumArikAoM ne mujhe prArthanA kI - 'Apa dIkSA chor3a do aura punaH zrIrAma kI paTTarAnI bana jaao| hama bhI sabhI kumArikAe~ zrIrAma kI rAniyA~ bana jAyeMgI / isalie he nAtha, Apa ina vidyAdhara kumArikAoM se zAdI racA lo, maiM bhI Apake sAtha pUrvavat sneha kruuNgii| maiMne jo apamAna kiyA thA, mujhe kSamA kara do / ' vidyAdhara kumArikAoM ke sItendra ne gIta-nRtya zurU kara diyaa| paraMtu zrIrAmamuni para isakA koI prabhAva nahIM pdd'aa| unhoMne na to udyAna kI zobhA dekhI, na sItA ke vacana suneM, na hI gIta-nRtya dekhaa..| dharmadhyAna meM se zukladhyAna meM praveza ho gayA aura mAghamAsa kI zuklA dvAdazI kI rAtri ke cauthe prahara meM mahAmuni ko kevalajJAna pragaTa ho gyaa| ve vItarAga - sarvajJa bana gaye / unakI AtmA pUrNa jJAna se, pUrNa darzana se, pUrNa zakti se aura pUrNa vItarAgatA se ujjvala bana gaI / ghAtI karmoM kA kSaya kara, AtmA paramAtmA bana jAtI hai| aura isI taraha bAkI bace aghAtI karmoM kA kSaya karake AtmA siddha-buddha - mukta bana jAtI hai| anAmI aura arUpI bana jAtI hai / 278 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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hRdayamaMdira meM paripUrNa AtmA kI ramaNatA ho : AtmA kI paramAtmadazA prApta karane ke lie apane hRdaya meM parama AtmA kA ciMtana kareM, darzana kareM, dhyAna kareM / AtmA jJAna-darzana- cAritramaya vizuddha sattA hai / caitanyamaya sattA hai / usakA svarUpa isa prakAra hai| arasamaruvamagaMdhaM avvattaM cedaNAguNamasaddaM / jANa aliMgaggahaNaM jIvamaNiddiTThasaMThANaM // jIvassa natthi vaNNoNa vigaMdho Na rasoNa viya kAso / Na viruvaM Na sarIraM Na vi saMThANaM Na saMhaNaNaM // hamArI indriyA~ jAnatI haiM zabda ko, rUpa ko, gaMdha ko, rasa ko aura sparza ko ! hamArI AtmA ko zabdAdi se koI saMbaMdha nahIM hai / caitanya se zabdAdi kA saMbaMdha kama karane ke lie, tor3ane ke lie kucha prayoga karane hoMge / 1 A~kha khulI hai, rUpa dekha rahe haiM / A~kha baMda kI, rUpa dikhanA baMda ho jAyegA / - -- - kAna khule haiM, zabda suna rahe haiN| kAna baMda kiye, zabda sunane baMda ho jAyeMge / nAka khulA hai, gaMdha AtI hai| nAka ko baMda kiyA, gaMdha AnI baMda ho jAyegI / jIbha sakriya hai, rasa kA anubhava hotA hai| jIbha para kucha na DAlo, koI rasAnubhUti nahIM hogI / kisI vastu ko sparza kiyA to sparza kA anubhava hotA hai / kisI ko chuo hI mata, akele meM raho, sparza kA anubhava nahIM hogA / isa prakAra indriyoM ko kucha samaya ke lie viSayoM ke saMparka se dUra rakheM 1 bAra-bAra aisA prayoga karate raheM / indriyoM kA viSayoM ke sAtha jo saMparka hotA hai, saMparka - janya rAga-dveSa hote haiM, ve kama karate raheM / A~kheM baMda kara, 48 minaTa dhyAna kareM / arUpa kI sthiti kA anubhava kareM / AtmA arUpI hai | arUpa kI anubhUti AtmA kI anubhUti hai / prazna : dhyAna meM AlaMbana cAhie na ? AlaMbana rUpI hogA ! uttara : sahI bAta hai, paraMtu AlaMbana kA rUpa aisA honA cAhie ki rAgadveSa na ho ! jyotisvarUpa AtmA kA AlaMbana leM, vItarAga - mUrti kA AlaMbana leM ! rUpa sAmane ho phira bhI rAga-dveSa na ho, vaisI sthiti prApta karane kI hai / rUpa pudgala kA hai, AtmA arUpI hai, yaha jJAnopayoga sadA rahe, vaisA abhyAsa karanA hogA / zabda, rUpa, rasAdi ke sAtha cetanA nahIM jur3anI cAhie / cetanA kI ekatva - bhAvanA 279

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ramaNatA jJAna-darzana-cAritra ityAdi AtmaguNoM meM honI cAhie / yadi cetanA indriyoM ke sAtha nahIM jur3egI to indriya viSayoM ko grahaNa nahIM kareMgI / isI ko anadhyavasAya' kahate haiM / eka udAharaNa se yaha bAta samajhAtA hU~ / eka manuSya ko DAyamaMDa kharIdanA hai / vaha bAjAra meM gayA / bAjAra meM saiMkar3oM dukAne haiM / unameM hajAroM prakAra kI vastue~ upalabdha hai / manuSya una vastuoM ko dekhatA calA jAtA hai; paraMtu vaha jauharAta kI dukAna para rukatA hai, hIrA kharIda letA hai| hIre ke alAvA bhI vaha aneka vastuoM ko dekhatA hai, paraMtu vaha dekhanA, na dekhane jaisA hI rahatA hai / jisake sAtha adhyavasAya jur3A use dekhA, le liyA aura saba kucha anadekhA-sA raha gayA / ___ hama vastu ke sAtha utanI hI cetanA ko jor3eM, jitanI usa vastu ko jAnane ke lie Avazyaka ho / usake sAtha mamatva kI cetanA ko nahIM jodd'eN| * hama zabda sune, paraMtu usa para rAga-dveSa na kareM / * hama rUpa dekheM, para usake prati rAga-dveSa na kreN| * hama khAnA khAyeM, para usake prati rAga-dveSa na kareM / * hama gaMdha le, paraMtu usake prati rAga-dveSa na kareM / * hama sparza kareM, para usake prati rAga-dveSa na kreN| __ hameM aisI sAdhanA-ArAdhanA karanI hogI ki jJAna jJAna rahe, usake sAtha rAgadveSa na jur3e / jJAna aura moha ko pRthak karate raheM / indriyA~ apanA-apanA kAma karegI, para usake sAtha mamatva nahIM jur3egA, jJAnadazA rhegii| indriyA~ aura AtmaramaNatA : jJAnadazA kI, jJAnopayoga kI sirpha bAteM nahIM karanA hai, abhyAsa karanA hai / jIvanaparyaMta abhyAsa karanA hai| indriyA~ sadaiva apane viSayoM se vimakha nahIM raha sakatIM / indriyoM kA sadaiva damana bhI nahIM ho sakatA / hA~, indriyoM ke sAtha mana ko jyAdA samaya nahIM jor3anA hai / cetanA ko nahIM jor3anA hai / eka dRSTAMta se yaha bAta samajhAtA huuN| baMbaI jaise bar3e zaharoM meM Apane pAnI kI bar3I pAIpalAIna' dekhI hogI / usake sAtha gaMde pAnI kI gaTaralAIna (aMDaragrAunDa) bhI calatI hai| yAnI pAnI kA nAlA aura mala kA nAlA - donoM sAtha-sAtha calate haiN| kabhI-kabhI nAlA bIca meM TUTatA hai... to jala aura mala kA mizraNa ho jAtA hai ! yaha gar3abar3a janasvAsthya ke lie khatarA bana jAtI hai / vaise hama jala aura mala kA nAlA alaga alaga calane deM / indriyoM ko apanA kAma karane deM, cetanA ko jJAna-darzana kI, AtmA kI ramaNatA meM ramane deM / isI ko adhyAtma kI ArAdhanA kahate haiM / zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1 | 280

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hama jo jJAtAbhAva aura dRSTAbhAva kI bAta karate haiM, isakA matalaba kyA hai ? isakA yahI artha hai ki hama indriyoM ke sAtha cetanA ko jor3e nahIM / vaise, indriyoM ko caubIsa ghaMTe baMdha rakhanA saMbhava nahIM hai / aura indriyoM kI upalabdhi karma ke kSayopazama se hotI hai| hama inheM baMda kyoM kareM ? hameM vaha abhyAsa karanA hogA ki hama kevala indriyoM kA upabhoga kareM, rAga-dveSa na kareM / prazna: kyA yaha saMbhava hai ? uttara : hA~, antarmukhatA Ane para saMbhava hai / antarmukha manuSya ke lie yaha sthiti sahaja saMbhava hotI hai / phira chalanA- pravaMcanA nahIM rahatI hai / prazna : antarmukha kaise bana sakate haiM ? uttara : antaryAtrA se / bahirAtma dazA se mukta hokara antarAtma dazA meM jAnA hogA / AtmajJAnI bananA hogA / rAce sAce dhyAna meM, jAce viSaya na koI / nAce rAce mugatirasa, AtamajJAnI soI // viSayoM se vimukha bana kara AtmadhyAna meM hI jisakI ruci ho jAtI hai, eka mAtra mukti - mokSaM' hI jisakA lakSya ho jAtA hai, vaha AtmajJAnI kahalAtA hai / aisA AtmajJAnI hI paramAtmA ko apane anubhava - maMdira meM rakhatA hai / graMthakAra aisI bhAvanA karate haiM --- 'paramezvaraH eka evAnubhava sadane ramatAmavinazvaraH / ' aisI antarAtmA hI 'samatA-sudhA' kA AsvAda karatI hai| usako hI viSayAtIta 'samatArasa' meM prema jAgrata hotA hai / samatA - sudhA kA AsvAda kareM : AtmajJAnI puruSa, jaba antarAtma dazA meM masta bana kara, samatA - sudhA kA AsvAda karatA hai, taba usakA jIvanavyavahAra hI badala jAtA hai / isa saMsAra ke sAtha, saMsAra ke rAgI -dveSI logoM ke sAtha usakA koI saMbaMdha hI nahIM rahatA hai ! duniyA kI nigAhoM meM AtmajJAnI unmatta sA dikhatA hai| AtmajJAnI kI dRSTi meM duniyA aMdhI lagatI hai / 'samAdhizataka' meM kahA gayA hai| - jaga jANe unmatta yaha, yaha jANe jaga aMdha, jJAnI ko jaga meM rahyo, yuM nahIM koI saMbaMdha | kitanI saccI bAta kaha dI hai upAdhyAyazrI yazovijayajI ne ! jJAnI puruSoM ko, AtmajJAnI puruSoM ko 'unmatta' 'pAgala' samajhakara jagata ne unako kitane satAye ekatva - bhAvanA 281

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haiM ? bhagavAna mahAvIra ko bhI bAraha varSa taka kitane satAye the duniyA ne ? devoM ne satAye the, manuSyoM ne bhI satAye the ! paraMtu jo AtmajJAnI hote haiM ve zarIra ke mamatva se mukta hote haiM / ve sadaiva samatAmRta ke AsvAda meM magna hote haiM! bhale koI unake zarIra kI camar3I ko utAre, athavA sira para jalate aMgAra bhare / bhale hI koI una para muSThiprahAra kare athavA gAliyoM kI byochAra kare / vaha to samajhatA hai 'ye loga aMdhe haiM, ve kucha dekhate hI nahIM ! una para karuNA hI karanA hai / aMdhoM para krodha kyA karanA ?' vaise to AtmajJAnI vikalpoM se mukta hote haiM / ve rAga-dveSa ke phAlatU vicAra karate hI nahIM ! ve samajhate haiM : 'nirvikalpa mujha rUpa hai, dvidhAbhAva na suhAI !' 1 AtmajJAnI ke ciMtana meM, unakI antaryAtrA meM vikalpoM ko koI sthAna hI nahIM hai / unakI antaryAtrA meM dvaita ko jagaha hI nahIM hotI hai 1 yuM bahirAtama chAMDa ke aMtara Atama hoI, paramAtama mati bhAvIe, jahA~ vikalpa na koI / usa AtmajJAnI kI antaryAtrA meM eka mAtra parama AtmA hI hotA hai| dUsarA koI vikalpa nahIM hotA hai| usakA mana, usakI mati, buddhi... saba kucha paramAtmamaya bana jAtA hai / paramAtmabhAva kI vAsanA dRr3ha ho jAtI hai / pariNAmasvarUpa AtmA paramAtmA bana jAtI hai / someM yA dRr3ha vAsanA, paramAtama pada heta, ilikAbhramarI dhyAnagata, jinamati jinapada deta / jisa prakAra pillU (ilikA) bhramarI kA dhyAna karatI hai to vaha bhramarI bana jAtI hai, vaise paramAtmA kA dhyAna karate-karate antarAtmA paramAtmA bana jAtA hai| paramAtmabhAva meM vAsanA bana jAnI cAhie ! dRr3ha vAsanA bana jAnI cAhie / paramAtmabhAva meM vAsanA dRr3ha kaise bane ? prazna : Apane kahA vaha siddhAnta kI dRSTi se sahI hai, paraMtu paramAtmabhAva meM vAsanA banatI hI nahIM / vaiSayika sukhoM meM hI vAsanA dRr3ha hai / uttara: maiM indriyoM se, zarIra se bhinna hU~, mere se zarIra - indriyA~ bhinna hai / maiM to vizuddha caitanyasvarUpa AtmA hI hU~ / ' yaha zuddha bhAvanA hI paramAtma-patha kI dIpikA hai ! 'samAdhizataka' meM kahA hai -- 'dehAdika se bhinna meM, mo se nyAre tehu, paramAtama - patha dIpikA, zuddha bhAvanA ehu / ' 282 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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antaryAtrA meM yaha ciMtana bAra-bAra karanA hai / karate raho yaha ciMtana / 6/8 mahInA yaha ciMtana karane ke bAda mujhe batAnA ki paramAtmabhAva kI vAsanA jagI yA nahIM ? eka bAra isa vAsanA ko jagane do! phira vaha dRr3ha hotI jaayegii| ciMtana to karanA hI hogA / bhedajJAna kA ciMtana karanA hogaa| adhyAtmamArga meM yaha ciMtana anivArya hotA hai / isa ciMtana se vaiSayika vAsanA zithila ho jaayegii| pudgalaviSayaka abhinirvaza-durAgraha chUTa jAyegA / 'mujhe aise hI zabda-rUparasAdi cAhie' - aisA durAgraha nahIM rahatA / AtmajJAnI-antarAtmA ko to apane guNoM kA bhI abhimAna nahIM rahatA, to phira viSayoM kA, pudgaloM kA Agraha to kaise raha sakatA hai ? abhiniveza pudgalaviSaya jJAnI kuM kahA~ hota ? guNa ko bhI mada miTa gayo, prakaTata sahaja udyota / ekatva-bhAvanA se hI samatAsukha : pratidina ekatva-bhAvanA kA ciMtana karate raho / citta samatAsukha kA anubhava karegA / isa dRSTi se AtmA ke ekatva kA vistAra se vivecana kiyA hai, nizcayadRSTi se samajhAyA hai aura vyavahAradRSTi se bhI samajhAyA hai / ___paMDita zrI sakalacaMdrajI ne ekatva-bhAvanA ko bhAvavAhI kAvya meM pravAhita kI hai / usa kAvya ko gAkara, usa para kucha ciMtana kara, Aja ekatva-bhAvanA kA vivecana pUrNa kreNge| e tuhI ApakuM tuMhI dhyAojI, dhyAnamAMhI akelA, jihA~ tihA~ tu jAyA akelA, jAvegA bhI akelA....1. harihara pramukhA sura-nara jAyA te bhI jage akelA, te saMsAra vividha para khelI gayA te bhI akelA....2. kucha bhI lInA sAtha na teNe, Rddhi gaI navi sAthe, nija-nija karaNI le gaye te, dhana bina ThAle hAthe....3. baha parivAre na rAco logoM, mudhAmalyo sahu sAtho, Rddhi mudhA hoze saba ciMtA, gagana taNI jima bAtho....4. zAMtasudhArasa sara meM jhIlo, viSaya-viSa paMca nivAro, ekapaNuM zubha bhAve ciMtI, Apa ApakuM tAro....5. hiMsAdika pApe e jIvo, pAme bahuvidha rogo, jala viNa jima mAcho akelo, pAme duHkha paralogo....6. ekapaNuM bhAvI namirAjA, mUkI mithilA rAjo, / ekatva-bhAvanA 283

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mUkI nara-nArI savi saMgata, praName tasa surarAjo.... 7. he Atman ! tU apanA hI dhyAna kara ! apanI AtmA kA dhyAna kara ! kyoMki dhyAna meM ekatva hI, akelApana hI Avazyaka hotA hai| dhyAna meM dUsare kA saMyoga vikSepa karatA hai / tU socanA ki isa saMsAra meM tU jahA~-jahA~ janmA, vahA~ akelA hI janmA hai aura marA bhI akelA hai / koI sAtha AyA nahIM hai aura AnevAlA bhI nahIM hai / 1 isa vizva meM viSNu - ziva vagairaha deva bhI, dUsare deva aura manuSya, sabhI akele hI Aye aura isa saMsAra meM vividha khela racAkara akele hI cale gaye / ye sabhI akele gaye, kisI ko sAtha nahIM le gaye / unakI samRddhi bhI unake sAtha nahIM gayI ve apane zubhAzubha karma hI sAtha le gaye / khAlI hAtha cale gaye / he duniyA ke logoM, vizAla parivAra dekhakara khuza nahIM honA / kyoMki vaha parivAra tumheM koI kAma kA nahIM hai / tumhArI sArI ciMtA vyartha jAnevAlI hai / jaise AkAza ko AliMgana denA vyartha hotA hai, kucha milatA nahIM hai, vaise vizAla parivAra paraloka jAne para upayogI honevAlA nahIM / isalie he bhavya logoM, tuma zAntasudhArasa ke sarovara meM snAna karate raho / pA~ca indriyoM ke viSayarUpa jahara ko dUra karo / ekatva - bhAvanA kA ciMtana kara, Apa hI Apako tAro / hiMsA - asatyAdi pApoM ke dvArA yaha jIva aneka prakAra ke rogoM kA bhAjana banatA hai / aura jisa prakAra pAnI ke binA machalI duHkhI hotI hai vaise akelA hI jIva becArA durgati meM duHkha pAtA hai / isa prakAra ekatva - bhAvanA se bhAvita ho kara namirAjA, mithilA kA rAjya chor3akara, aMtaHpura kA tyAga kara aNagAra bane the, pratyeka buddha bane the / indra ne unake vairAgya kI parIkSA kI thI, nami rAjarSi usa parIkSA meM uttIrNa hue the / devendra unake caraNoM meM vaMdanA kara, vApasa devaloka meM gayA thA / upasaMhAra : 1 'ekatva - bhAvanA' kA yaha gIta yAda kara loge aura gunagunAte rahoge to majA A jAyegA / vaise jaba samaya mile, ina pravacanoM ko par3hate rahanA / saMsAra meM manuSya ko kisI na kisI prakAra kI azAnti banI rahatI hai, usa samaya ye pravacana Apako avazya zAnti - samatA pradAna kareMge / Apa zAnti samatA kA AsvAda karate hI rahe - aisI zubha kAmanA ke sAtha pravacana pUrNa karatA hU~ / * 284 zAnta sudhArasa : bhAga 1

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