Laghuraj Swami Sachitra Jeevan Darshan

Author(s): Paras Jain
Publisher: Shrimad Rajchandra Gyanmandir Bandhni
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/009162/1

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zrImad laghurAja svAmI (naTu sat) (saTTanI 7 stra 6:) ananya zaNanAApanAra evAzura devarahatmasvarUdhdha cetanmasvAmInetrika namo namAjhe - AtmabhAvanAnAvatAM balava - jhava la 9 jJAna ma hA divyA kukSi ra naMHzabda jhitavarAtmamaHrAjacaMdra mahaM vaMde tatvalocana sahajatma svarUpa zuddha cetanyasvAmI namo nama: sarva deva - paramagurU triA namasTrAra pa.u.pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInA hastAkSara prakAzaka tathA prAptisthAna : prakAzaka : zrImad rAjacaMdra jJAnamaMdira po. bAMghaNI-388410 tA. peTalAda, jillo kheDA, phona (02697) 247713 zrImad rAjacaMdra jJAnamaMdira zrImad rAjacaMdra mArga Ara.bI.metA roDa, ghATakopara (IsTa) muMbaI-400 077 zrImad rAjacaMdra jJAnamaMdira AkAzavANI roDa, rAjakoTa (gujarAta) pInakoDa 360 001 zrImad rAjacaMdra janmabhuvana vavANIyA tAlukA-mALIyA miMyANA, jillo-rAjakoTa pInakoDa 363 660 prathamavRtti, prata 5000, isvI san 2007 paDatara kiMmata : 300/- rUA. vecANa kiMmata : 30/- rUA. | (2)

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prathamavRttinuM nivedana paramAtmadazAne pAmelA evA paramakRpALu paramaguru zrImad rAjacaMdra prabhunI ananya zraddhA bhakti karIne je svayaM paramAtmadazAne pAmyA evA zrImad laghurAja svAmI (prabhuzrIjI)nuM A sacitra jIvana darzana pragaTa karatA AnaMda thAya che. je pUjyazrI brahmacArIjI dvArA racita zrImad laghurAja svAmInA jIvana caritranA AdhAre banAvela che. paramakRpALudeve pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne saM.1954mAM vaso kSetre AtmajJAna prApta karAvI bIjA jIvonA uddhAra mATenI AjJA karela. te AjJAne uThAvavA bhagavAna mahAvIrano mULamArga paramakRpALudevanA vacanAmRto dvArA pragaTamAM lAvanAra evA pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno ApaNA upara ananya upakAra che. jo 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI hayAtI na hota to paramakRpALudeva dvArA prakAzita mULamArga ApaNA sudhI pahoMcavo muzkela hota. paNa pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI adbhuta yogabaLavALI munidazA hovAthI ApaNane paramakRpALudevanA vacano upara zraddhA thaI ane vartamAnamAM bahu lopa evA mULa vItarAgamArganI prApti thaI; jethI ApaNA mahAbhAgyano udaya thayo. pa..deve jaNAvyuM che ke "tevuM sthAna kyAM che ke jyAM jaIne rahIe? te paNa 5.u.pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInA yogabaLe A agAsa Azrama banI AvyuM. jyAM AvI ApaNe apUrva zAMtino anubhava karIe chIe. te upakAra paNa pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno ja che. vaLI jemanA nimitte, smaraNa maMtro, cha padano patra tathA Atmasiddhi zAstranI racanA thaI evA pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno anaMta upakAra sarvathA avarNanIya che. tevA upakAranI kiMcit smRtirUpe evA mahApuruSanI bhavyajIvone oLakhANa thAya, zraddhA thAya, tathA temano AtmalakSI bogha jIvanamAM UtarI jIvonuM kalyANa thAya te arthe temanA A sacitra jIvana darzananI jhAMkhIo banAvavAno prayatna karyo che. A sacitra jIvana darzanamAM baghA maLIne 511 darzanIya phoTAo che. | saMvat 2001mAM jyAre paramakRpALudevanuM sacitra jIvana darzana bahAra pADyuM te vakhate aneka mumukSuonI evI icchA thaI ke pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInuM sacitra jIvana darzana paNa evuM thAya ane sAthe emanA preraka prasaMgonA paNa citro jo bane to ghaNAne bhaktibhAva ane zraddhAnI draDhatAnuM kAraNa thAya. e bhAvanAne lakSamAM laI, temanA keTalAM citro banI zake tenI noMdha karI, te te citro banAvavAnuM kAma zarU karyuM, je lagabhaga aDhI varSe pUruM thayuM. ApaNI doravaNI anusAra zrI praphullabhAIe tathA zrI bhArgave bahu premathI A kAma karI ApyuM. emAM je pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI sAthenA mumukSuonA prasaMgo che, te meM mumukSuone pUchI pUchIne lakhelA, tathA koIe pote jAte lakhIne ApelA che. amuka prasaMgo zrI jItubhAIe mumukSuo pAse sAMbhaLIne ke pUchIne lakhelA hatA, temAMthI paNa lIdhA che. zrI bhAvanAbene paNa ghaNA mumukSuonI pAse besIne prasaMgo lakhyA che. koI prasaMgo mumukSuoe svayaM lakhelA tenA lakhANo maLelA tenA uparathI lIdhA che. e badhA prasaMgo sacitra chapAvavAno mukhya uddezya A che ke pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI sAthe banela vAstavika ghaTanAone jANI mumukSuone atyaMta ullAsabhAva thAya che ane zraddhA thavAnuM paNa te prabaLa kAraNa bane che. koIne lAgaze ke AmAM camatkAranA paNa prasaMgo che. te levAnuM kAraNa e che ke lokone moTe bhAge bAhyanuM oLakhANa hovAthI te vAto sAMbhaLIne temanA pratye AkarSaNa thAya, mAhAbhya lAge ke oho! AvA teo mahAtmA hatA! jemake pU.zrI brahmacArIjIe jIvanakaLA'mAM zrI TokarazI mahetAno prasaMga lakhyo che. te TokarazI mahetAne sannipAtano roga hato; te hAthanA IzArAmAtrathI paramakRpALudeve dUra karyo. chelle temanI vezyA paNa badalAvI adbhuta anubhava karAvyo. te vAMcIe tyAre lAge che ke jJAnI puruSomAM kevI kevI adbhuta zaktio rahelI che. jyAre jarUra paDe ane sAmAne lAbhanuM kAraNa jaNAya to teno upayoga kare che ane tenuM pAchuM prAyazcita le che. mATe evA mahApuruSonI bhaktimAM maMDyA rahIe emAM ApaNuM parama kalyANa che. A graMthanA citro banAvavAno badho kharca zrI chItubhAI vallabhabhAI paTela AstAvALAe bahu ullAsabhAvathI ApI gharmaprema darzAvyo che; te badala temane ghanyavAda ghaTe che. A jIvana darzana, saune sat zraddhAvaMta banAvavAmAM sahAyarUpa thAo; evI zubhecchA saha atre virAma pAmuM chuM. -AtmArtha icchuka, pArasabhAI jaina (3)

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km RRRRRRRY 559 FRE 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA vaTAmaNa gAmamAM banela maMdiranA aMdaranuM dRzya rAjarAja divyarAja rAjarA RRRRRRRRRR OM sajja svarUpe jIvanI sthiti thavI Sheng Bian Bian Bian Bian Bian Bian Ma Ma Fen Fen Yu Bian Bian Ma Fen Fen Fen Chi zrImad rAjacaMdra maMdiranA bahAranuM dRzya, vaTAmaNa look rAjarA Y tene zrI vItarAga'mokSa' kahe che. pa REGREE (4) 20 9 KIRTIBH

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anumaNikA pRSTha krama krama viSaya 1. zrImad laghurAja svAmI jIvana caritra lekhaka - pU. zrI brahmacArIjI, pa. pU. prabhuzrIjIne maLelA bhAvika mumukSuonA paricayo .......11 2. zrI zaMkarabhAI ajubhAI bhagata - kAviThA ...................... ,116 3. zrI motIbhAI bhagatajI - sImaraDA 123 4. zrI umedabhAI hIrAbhAI - borIA ..... 126 5. zrI jesaMgabhAI bhAIbhAI paTela - borIo . ..127 6. bra. zrI mohanabhAI prAgadAsa paTela - borI.............. ..128 7. zrI phulacaMDA chogAlAlA baMdA - AhIra . .131 .........135 8.bra. zrI maganabhAI lakSmIdAsa paTela - suNAva.. 9. zrI ratanabena punazIbhAI zeTha -muMbaI. .140 10. zeTha zrI mANekajI jeThAlAla vardhamAna - muMbaI.................49 11. zrI chaganabhAI desAIbhAI paTela - naroDA............. 12. zrI zivajIbhAI devasiMha zAha - maDhaDAvALA . 13. zrI goviMdabhAI dhanAbhAI paTela - bhuvAsaNa ........... 14. zrI chItubhAI DAhyAbhAI paTela -bhuvAsaNA.................. 15. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI somAbhAI paTela - saMdeza ..............189 16. zrI hIrAbhAI motIbhAI jhaverI - pethApura............ 17. zrI jJAnacaMdra IndracaMdra nAhaTA - muMbaI........... 18. zrI sadguNAbena jJAnacaMdra nAhaTA - muMbaI..... 19. bra. zrI sAkarabena premacaMda zAha - agAsa Azrama .............197 20. bra. zrI maNibena haramAnabhAI paTela -agAsa Azrama..........201 21. bra. zrI surajabena zaMkarabhAI paTela - agAsa Azrama .........207 22. bra. zrI kamaLAbena paTela - agAsa Azrama. 23. DaoN. zAradAbena paMDita - amadAvAda 24. zrI revAbena zanabhAI paTela - kAviThA............ ............. viSaya 32. zrI DAhyAbhAI nAdhubhAI paTela - thAmA 1 33. zrI zaMbhuprasAda mAstara -agAsa sTezana .......... 34. zrI motIcaMdabhAI buTA - Aho............. 35, zrI vAMsabhAI bhAIbhAI paTela - borIA 36. zrI nAraNabhAI vallabhabhAI paTela - kAviThA....................223 37. zrI DAhIbena vAghajIbhAI paTela - daMtAlI........... - 38. zrI 2jIbhAI - maMDALA...... 39, zrI dayALajIbhAI lallubhAI paTela - surata 4. zrI dirabhAI bhagAbhAI paTela - sorA 41. zrI somAbhAI zAmaLadAsa paTela - suNAva . 42. zrI punamabhAI raNachoDabhAI paTela - nAra 43. zrI hiMmatabhAI dhruva - agAsa Azrama . 44. zrI zivAbhAI vakIla - nAra..... .153 .158 45. zrI gulAbacaMdajI jIvAvata - Ahora .160 46. zrI phUlAbhAI lallubhAI paTela - kAviThA ........... ...179 25. zrI kalyANajIbhAI mULajIbhAI paTela - kAviThA................11 26. zrI maNibena bhAIlAlabhAI paTela - suNAva ...................212 27. zrI DAhyAbhAI nAraNabhAI paTela - sImaraDA ....................213 .190 47. zrI zanAbhAI mathurabhAI mAstara - agAsa Azrama ...........230 48. zrI cunIlAlajI megharAjajI kAMgA - .......................30 49. zrI ratanacaMdajI khubAjI kAMgA - Ahora . .193 50. jIvAmIyA - saMdeza........... 194 51. zrI motIbena phUlacaMdajI baMdA - Ahora para. pAuM,pa.pU. prabhuzrInA chUTaka prasaMgo.. .216 .216 pU. zrI brahmacArIjInA udgAro 58. tIrthakSetra zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama pRSTha .220 221 ..222 ......223 223 .224 .225 ..225 ..........226 .................226 53. 5.u.pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInuM AhoramAM Agamana ...................233 54. munizrI mohanalAlajI mahArAja - agAsa Azrama..............241 208 55. ahaMkAra nIkaLI gayo tyAM tame muni, ..209 56. paramapUjya prabhuzrIjInA chUTaka bodhavacano................. ..210 57, 5.3.5.pU. prabhuzrIjI pratye agAsanA nirmANa saMbaMdhInI vigato (6) .229 .229 .229 ..229 ..230 .230 ..231 ..232 .242 .244 ..246 28. zrI AzAbhAI goviMdabhAI paTela - daMtAlI....................215 59. agAsa AzramamAM zrI neminAtha prabhunI pratiSThA ...............259 29. zrI harakhacaMda karamacaMda jozI - junAgaDha 60. pa.u.pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInA sArdha janmazatAbdI 30. zrI maNibhAI phulAbhAI paTela - suNAva ........ 31. zrI motIbhAI prAgadAsa paTela - nAra ...... nimitte gAma AzramamAM nIkaLela varaghoDAnA drazyo.........200 61. pa.pU. prabhuzrInA agnisaMskAra sthAne banela derI............264 ...249

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000 000 00000 0000 ET 0000 00000 ' 10000 0000 0000 +0000 00000 50000 zrImad laghurAja svAmInI bhinna bhinna avasthA

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zrImad laghurAjasvAmI janmotsava pada aho! aho! upakAra prabhuzrIjInA, aho! aho! upakAra. A aghama jIva uddharavAne, prabhuzrIno avatAra; prabhujInA kahyo sanAtana mokSamArgane, AtmamAhAsya apAra. prabhuzrInA01 kaLikALe jIva jANI ajANyA, bhAvadayA-dAtAra. prabhuzrInA02 sAcI bhakti zaru karAvI, dekhADI guru sAra; prabhuzrInA bhaktikrama uttama yojIne, rasa lagADyo apAra. prabhuzrInA03 zrI satsaMganuM dhAma banAvI, dIgho parama AghAra; prabhuzrInA bhaktibhAvano dukALa TALI, sAdhyo satya pracAra. prabhuzrInA04 pUjyazrI brahmacArIjI kRta

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zrImad laghurAja svAmI janma pUrva dizAmAM ekalA sUryano udaya thAya che, paraMtu cAre dizAo tenAthI praphullita thAya che, tema saM.1910nA Aso vada 1nA pavitra dine bhAla pradezanA vaTAmaNa nAmanA gAmamAM bhaktinA avatAra samA mahAbhAgyazALI ane ati puNya pratApI evA pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno janma thavAthI temanI vidyamAna cAre mAtAonuM vaidhavya duHkha visAre paDyuM; ane manamAM praphullitatA vyApI. temanuM nAma lallubhAI rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. temanA pitAzrInuM nAma zrI kRSNadAsa gopAlajI hatuM. te vyavahArakuzaLa ane gAmamAM agragaNya puruSa hatA. te cAra vAra paraNelA, chatAM eke saMtAna nahotuM. temanA AyuSyanA aMtima varSe kuzalA (kasalI) bAIne garbha rahyo. paNa te arasAmAM kolerAnA roganI zarUAta thaI hatI. kRSNadAsa ghoDI upara besI ugharANI mATe gayA hatA. rastAmAM kolerAthI UlaTI thaI. tyAMthI ghera ANyA.paNa te bacI zakyA nahIM ane paraloka sidhAvyA. tethI nirvaMzatAnuM kalaMka TALanAra e putra pratye cAre mAtAonuM tathA temanA puNya prabhAve AkhA gAmanA lokonI prIti paNa vadhavA lAgI. te vakhatanI nizALo gAmaThI hatI. tyAM kizoravaye lallubhAI bhaNavA jatA. thoDuM ghaNuM lakhatAM-vAcatAM ane gaNatAM AvaDyuM ke zALAno abhyAsa baMdha karI potAnI dukAne besavA mAMDyuM. dukAnamAM levaDadevaDa tathA nAmAnuM kAma munIma mAraphata thatuM. mAtra pote dekharekha rAkhatA ane sarva rAjI rahe tema vartatA. 1

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thI hA 9 FA Sr . ajJAna avasthAmAM jIva kevA karma bAMdhI le che ! pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe ekavAra boghamAM jaNAvyuM ke nAnapaNamAM amArA hAthe kaDalIo (kallaIo) rUpAnI paherAvelI. amArA sagAMnA chokarAone hAthe paNa te hatI. eka divasa ame paragAma gayelA. tyAM chokarAo sAthe derAsaramAM gayA. ghaNI peDhInA DhuMDhiyA hovAthI pratimAne mAne nahIM, paNa moja mATe jovA derAsaramAM baghA gayA. tyAM bIjA chokarAo jina pratimAne kaDalIo mAre, tiraskAra kare. te joI amane te gameluM nahIM. ame tevuM kaMI kareluM nahIM. paNa tenuM smaraNa thatA paNa Aje kaMpArI chUTe che ke ajJAna dazAmAM jIva kevA karma bAMdhI le che!

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re mokSa meLavavAnI tIvra kAmanA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI potAnA bALavayanI bIjI vAta bodhamAM karatAM jaNAve che ke - eka vakhata amArA sagAM ghare AvelA. te memAna svAmInArAyaNa saMpradAyanA anuyAyI hovAthI vahelA UThI snAna kare. tethI temane madada karavA huM paNa kUvA upara gayelo. chokarAone memAna, navA mANaso pratye bahumAna hoya ane te ummaramAM kaMIka kAma karavuM vadhAre game. tyAM vAtacIta karatA memAne kahyuM ke 'svAmInArAyaNa, svAmInArAyaNa' kahIne eka ghaDAthI jo snAna kare to mokSa maLe. A sAMbhaLI mArI paNa vRtti mokSa mATe tatpara thaI ane ziyALAnI TADhamAM paNa ThaMDA pANIno eka ghaDo mAthe bhaga-bhagAvyo. mokSa koI uttama vastu che ane te meLavavAnuM koI sAdhana hoya to jarUra karavuM, evI pUrva bhave sevelI bhAvanAnA A saMskAro nAnapaNamAM paNa temanAmAM jovA maLe che. 3

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vyavahArakuzaLatA gAmanA lokomAM temanI AbarU sArI. garAsIyA, paTalIyA, rabArI temaja brAhmaNa, vANiyAo sAthe ucita vartAva rAkhI sarvanI prasannatA prApta karavAnI kazaLatA nAnI ummarathI temaNe prApta karI hatI. yogya vaye temanA lagna thayA. sagarbhAvasthAmAM ghaNAM jAmaphaLa khAvAthI patnIno deha chUTI gayo. tethI varateja gAmanA bhAvasAranI putrI nAthIbAI sAthe temanA bIjIvAranA lagna thayAM. Ama sAMsArika sukhamAM sattAvIza varSa sudhInI temanI ummara vyatIta thaI. temano vyavasAya nANA ghIraghArano hato. tethI nANA ghIratA. gAmaDAnA lokonI pramANikatA ane saraLatAthI pAchA vyAja sahita nANA bharI paNa jatAM ke anAja, goLa vagere vastuo ApI, devuM patAvI jatAM. koI mANasa nANA na Ape to AkarA zabdothI satAvIne ke sarakAramAM phariyAda karIne ke jatI karI paisA mATe vaira bAMdhavuM e temane biskula priya nahotuM; tethI bIjA gRhastho dvArA zaramAvI, samajAvIne kAma kADhI letAM. chatAM lAMbI ghIraghAra thaI javAthI ane lokonI vRttio pharatI joIne paisA ApI vaira vaghAravA jevA A ghIraghAranA ghaMghAthI teo kaMTALI gayA hatA. vyAdhino upadrava saM.1937mAM sattAvIsa varSanI ummaramAM temane pIpAMDu nAmano roga thayo. aneka prakAre upacAro karatAM chatAM te baghA vyartha gayA. bAra mAsamAM zarIra bahu kSINa thaI gayuM. eka vaidya parpaTInI mAtrA khavarAvIne kahyuM ke jo AyuSya haze to zarIrano bAMdho bahu majabUta thaze. tethI paNa vyAdhi aTakyo nahIM. ghoLakAnAM eka prakhyAta vaidya viSe evI lokavAyakA hatI ke je bacavAno hoya tenI ja te davA kare che. tyAM gayA tyAre teNe paNa davA karavAnI nA pADI dIdhI. eTale cokkasa thayuM ke have zarIra Takaze nahIM.

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aMtima kSamApanA tethI ghoLakAthI patAsAM laI vaTAmaNa AvyAM. gAmamAMthI je khabara jovA Ave temane pAMca pAMca patAsAM ApI potAnA thayelA doSonI chellI mAphI mAMgI khamatakhAmaNAM karavAM lAgyAM. pachI vicAryuM ke pUrve kaMI gharmanI ArAdhanA karI haze tenA phaLarUpe A ghana, vaibhava, AbarU vagere A kuTuMbamAM vizeSa dekhAya che. have bhaviSyamAM sukhanI icchA hoya to A bhavamAM gharmanI ArAdhanA avazya karI levA yogya che. saMsAra tyAgI sAdhu thavAnI bhAvanA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInuM janmasthaLa, vaTAmaNa te vicAre Akhare evuM svarUpa lIdhuM ke jo A roga maTI jAya to saMsArano tyAga karI sAdhu thavuM. paNa upadeza-vyAkhyAna pravRtti kare tevo koI sAthe hoya to ThIka paDe. tethI potAnA ghara pADozI mitra jevA devakaraNajI je tIkSNabuddhinA che te sAthe sAghu thAya to bahu sAruM. roja upAzrayamAM sAmAyika vakhate banne bhegA thatA hatA. tyAM lallubhAIe devakaraNajIne pUchyuM ke huM sAdhu thAuM to tuM mAro celo thAya? devakaraNajIne lAgyuM ke AvA sukhI kuTuMbano ane ekano eka dIkaro saMsAratyAga kare e banavA yogya nathI. tethI hA kahI ke tame sAdhu thAo to huM jarUra tamAro ziSya thAuM. devakaraNajInA mAthe devuM hatuM te patAvI devAnI pote kabulAta karI. tethI devakaraNajIne A vAta sAcI lAgI ane sAthe AnaMda paNa thayo.

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uttama bhAvanAthI roganuM zamana AvI saMsAratyAganI uttama bhAvanAthI, vaTAmaNa gAmamAM ja eka ThAkara davAnAM paDIkAM vecato hato. tene tyAMthI kasalIbAe thoDAM paDIkAM lAvI putrane khavarAvyA. tethI jhADA thayA ane roga upazamI gayo. sarvane AnaMda thayo. paNa lallubhAI ane devakaraNajIe je gupta vicAra karI rAkhyo hato te have pAra pADavA khaMbhAtavALA guru zrI harakhacaMdajI pAse javA TharAvyuM. te suratamAM hatA. surata jaI gurune vaMdana karI bannee dIkSA levAnA bhAva darzAvyA. paNa mA-bApanI rajA maLyA vinA dIkSA ApavAnI temaNe nA kahI. dIkSAnI vAta mAtAne kAne AvI ke te zaMkara nAmanA munImane sAthe laI rotA-kakaLatAM surata gayA ane be varSa saMsAramAM hajI rahe ane pachI jo vairAgya upaje to pote rokaze nahIM. ema gurunI sAkSIe mAtAjIe jaNAvyuM. have koI upAya rahyo nahIM. tethI lallubhAI mAtAjI Adi sAthe ghera AvyA ane gharmadhyAnamAM ghaNo kharo vakhata gALavA lAgyA. saMsAra choDavo ja che ema draDha nizcaya thayA pachI paNa paravazapaNe temAM pravartavAnuM be varSa sudhI banyuM. saM. 1940mAM zrI lallubhAInI trIsa varSanI ummare temanA patnI nAthIbAIe eka putrane janma Apyo. tenuM nAma mohana rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. sarvatra AnaMda phelAyo. paraMtu lallubhAI ane devakaraNajIne dIkSA saMbaMdhInA vicAra taraMgo UThyA. savA mAsano putra thayo teTalAmAM to banne gurune vAMdavA gogharA gayA ane dIkSA ApavA vinaMtI karI. paNa gurue mAtAjInI AjJA sivAya dIkSA ApavAnI pharIthI nA kahI. tethI gurune vaTAmaNa paghAravA jaNAvyuM. gurujIe vaTAmaNa AvI eka mAsanI sthiratA karI. tyAM vairAgyano bogha mAtAjIe sAMbhaLIne dIkSAnI sammati ApI. 6

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munidIkSA saM. 1940nA jeTha vada 3nA divase maMgaLavAre khaMbhAtamAM bannene saMgha samakSa dIkSA ApI ane devakaraNajI svAmIne zrI lallujIsvAmInA celA sthApyA.

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muni AcA2 pAlana zrI devakaraNajI ane zrI lallujIe dIkSA lIdhA pachI sAdhu samAcArI, zAstro, stavana, sajjhAyAdi bhaNI kuzaLa thayA. temAM devakaraNajI vyAkhyAnamAM bahu kuzaLa hovAthI vizeSa lokapriya thaI paDyA. paraMtu saraLatA, gurubhakti ane puNyaprabhAvane laIne zrI lallujImunie guruthI mAMDI sarva sAdhu, sAdhvI, zrAvaka, zrAvikAonA hRdayamAM abhISTa sthAna meLavyuM. saunA hRdayamAM ema lAgatuM ke jate divase gurunI gAdI zobhAvanAra zrI lallujIsvAmI che. dIkSA lIdhA pachI pAMca varSa sughI temaNe ekAMtarA upavAsa karyA, eTale ke eka divasa AhAra ane eka divasa upavAsa karavo. kaThoramAM comAsuM hatuM tyAre sAthe lagA sattara upavAsa karyA hatA. Ama bAhya tapa, kAyotsarga, dhyAna Adi paNa guru sAthe karatAM. 'namunthuNaM'no kAusagga rAtre guru zrI harakhacaMdajI eka be kalAka 'namunthuNaM'nA kAusagga karatA, temanI sAthe zrI lallujI paNa kAyotsarga karatA. paraMtu kAmavAsanA nirmULa thaI nahIM. tethI te gurune vAraMvAra pUchatA. to guru evI kriyA japa, tapa batAvatA ane te karye jatA. paNa potAne vikAravRtti dUra na thAya tyAM sudhI saMtoSa te kriyAthI thato nahIM. pote ghaNI vakhata kahetA ke apAsarAne oTale besI ame stavana sAyo gAtA ane manamAM lokone saMbhaLAvavAno bhAva raheto; paNa te kALamAM aMtavRttinI samaja nahotI. zrImadnA patronuM vAMcana te ja upAzrayanA sAmenA bIjA khUNAmAM zrI aMbAlAla bhAI, zrI tribhovanabhAI ane zrI choTAbhAI zrImanA patro vAMcatA hatA tyAre zrI lallujI munie zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne jaNAvyuM, kAM to upara vyAkhyAnamAM jAo kAM ahIM AvIne beso. 8 khaMbhAtanA upAzrayamAM svAdhyAya A upAzrayanA nIcalA khaMDamAM eka bAjunA khUNAmAM zrI lallujI muni ane zAstrAbhyAsI zrI dAmodarabhAI 'bhagavatIsUtra' no uparanA khaMDamAMthI AcArya zrI harakhacaMdajI mahArAja pAnAM vAMcIne mokale te vAMcatA hatA.

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zrI lallujI mahArAjane zrImadgI prathama jANakArI apAsarAmAM upara javAne badale zrI aMbAlAlabhAI Adi traNeya jaNa zrI lallujI mahArAja pAse AvIne beThA. bhavasthiti Adi praznonI carcA thaI paNa samAdhAna thaI zakyuM nahIM. tyAre zrI aMbAlAlabhAIe jaNAvyuM ke sarva AgamanA jJAtA evA zrImad rAjacaMdra nAmanA uttama puruSa muMbaImAM che, te ahIM khaMbhAta AvavAnA che. tyAre lallujI mahArAje kahyuM: "amane te puruSano meLApa karAvazo." pachI zrI lallajI mahArAjane zrImadunA patro vAMcavA ApyA. te vAMcI emane khAtarI thaI ke e puruSa jarUra aneka praznonuM samAdhAna karI zakaze. kemake A patromAM tattvo saMbaMghI je UMDuM ciMtana jaNAya che evuM to kyAMya jovAmAM AvyuM nathI. zrI laghurAjasvAmInuM paramakRpALudeva sAthe prathama milana T ET saM. 1946mAM zrImatuM khaMbhAtamAM prathama paghAravuM thayuM. zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne tyAM ja te UtaryA hatA. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI potAnA pitA zrI lAlacaMdabhAInI sAthe zrImadune apAsare teDI gayA.zrImade avaghAna karavAM choDI dIdhAM hatAM paraMtu lAlacaMdabhAI ane zrI harakhacaMdajI mahArAjanA AgrahathI apAsarAmAM te divase zrImade aSTAvaghAna karI batAvyAM. sarva sAthuvarga vagere zrImadunI vidvatA ane adabhuta zakti joI Azcarya pAmyA." (jI.pR.155).

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prathama milane sASTAMga daMDavat "zrImadune zrI lallujIe upara meDe padhAravA vinaMtI karI ane zrI harakhacaMdajI mahArAjane pUchyuM "huM temanI pAsethI kaMI avaghAruM? zrI harakhacaMdajI mahArAjanI AjJA maLI eTale zrI lallujIe upara jaIne zrImanne namaskAra karyA. zrImade namaskAra nivAraNa karavA chatAM temaNe umaMgathI uttama puruSa jANI aTakyA vagara namaskAra karyA." (jI.pR.156) hAla moTA vistAravALA zrImad rAjacaMdra AzramanA sthApaka tarIke prasiddha zrImad laghurAja svAmIno satya mArgamAM praveza karAvanAra sAcI janmagAMThano divasa gaNAvA yogya prathama mAMgalika prasaMga banI Avyo.' (jI.pR.157) paramakRpALudeva A viSe jaNAve che ke - "AtmA vinayI thaI saraLa ane laghutvabhAva pAmI sadaiva tatparuSanA caraNakamaLa prati rahyo, to je mahAtmAone namaskAra karyo che te mahAtmAonI je jAtinI riddhi che, te jAtinI riddhi saMprApta karI zakAya." (va.pR.183) samakita ane brahmacarya vRDhatAnI mAgaNI "zrImade zrI lallujI svAmIne pUchyuM : "tamArI zI icchA che?" svAmIjIe vinayasahita hAtha joDIne yAcanApUrvaka kahyuM : "samakita (AtmAnI oLakhANa) ane brahmacaryanI daDhatAnI mArI mAgaNI che." zrImad thoDIvAra mauna rahyA ane kahyuM, "ThIka che." pachI svAmIjInA jamaNA pagano aMgUTho tANI zrImade tapAsI joyo; ane UThIne badhA nIce gayA." (jI.pR.157). eka divase zrI lallujI svAmIe zrImanne kahyuM : "huM bahAcarya mATe pAMca varSathI ekAMtarA upavAsa (eka divasa upavAsa ne eka divasa khAvuM ema) karuM chuM. chatAM mAnasika pAlana barAbara thaI zakatuM nathI." zrImade kahyuM : "lokadraSTie karavuM nahIM; lokadekhAmaNa tapazcaryA karavI nahIM. paNa svAdano tyAga thAya, temaja UNodarI tapa (peTa UbhuM rahe tevuM, khUba gharAIne khAvuM nahIM) thAya tema AhAra karavo; svAdiSTa bhojana hoya te bIjAne ApI devuM." (jI.pR.159) prabhuzrI'gharme AtmajJAnI muni thAya "zrI aMbAlAlane ghera jatAM zrImade jaNAvyuM: "A puruSa (zrI lallujI muni) saMskArI che. A rekhA lakSaNo dharAvanAra puruSa saMsAre uttama pada pAme; gharme AtmajJAnI muni thAya." (jI.pR.157) "bIje divase zrI aMbAlAlane ghera zrI lallujI svAmI zrImadanA samAgama mATe gayA, tyAM zrImade ekAMtamAM temane pUchyuM : "tame amane mAna kema Apo cho?" svAmIjIe kahyuM : "Apane dekhIne ati harSa, prema Ave che; ane jANe amArA pUrvabhavanA pitA ho eTalo badho bhAva Ave che; koI prakArano bhaya raheto nathI; Apane jotAM evI nirbhayatA AtmAmAM Ave che." (jI.pR.158) zrImade pharI pUchyuM : "tame amane zAthI oLakhyA?" svAmIjIe kahyuM : "aMbAlAlabhAInA kahevAthI ApanA saMbaMdhI jANavAmAM AvyuM. ame anAdi kALathI rakhaDIe chIe, mATe amArI saMbhALa lo." (jI.pR.158) svAmIjIe pharI pUchyuM: "huM je je jouM chuM te bhrama che, jUThuM che, ema abhyAsa karuM chuM." zrImade kahyuM : "AtmA che ema joyA karo." (jI.pR.159) 10.

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Atama bhAvanA bhAvamAM jIva leha kevaLajJAna re" zrImadbhA samAgama arthe zrI lallujI munie saM.1949nuM comAsuM muMbaImAM karyuM. zrImade pUchyuM, "munine anArya jevA dezamAM vicaravAnI AjJA thoDI ja hoya che?' lallujIe kahyuM : "ApanA MAta nAjanA bhAva darzana samAgamanI bhAvanAne lIdhe ahIM cAturmAsa karyuM che' pachI jhala laTakela banALa re. lallujI muni peDhI upara samAgama arthe AvatA ke zrImad UThIne pAsenI oraDImAM AvI temane "sUyagaDAMga sutra", "samAdhizataka' vageremAMthI samajAvatA. "samAdhizataka"nI sattara gAthA samajAvIne te pustaka vAMcavA vicAravA mATe munizrIne ApyuM. te pustaka laI dAdarA sughI gayA ke zrI lallujI munine zrImade pAchA bolAvyA. pAchA bolAvI te "samAdhizataka'nA pahelA pAnA upara nIcenI A apUrva lITI lakhI ApI. "Atama bhAvanA bhAvamAM jIva lahe kevaLajJAna re" vAraMvAra mauna rahevAno bodha eka divasa zrI lallujIe zrImadna pUchyuM, "A badhuM mane gamatuM nathI. eka AtmabhAvanAmAM niraMtara rahuM ema kyAre thaze? zrImade kahyuM, "bothanI jarUra che". zrI lallujIe kahyuM, "botha Apo" zrImad mauna rahyA. Ama vAraMvAra zrImad maunapaNAno bodha ApatA, ane temAM vizeSa lAbha che ema jaNAvatA. te uparathI lallujIe muMbaI cAturmAsa pUrNa karI surata tarapha vihAra karyo tyArathI traNa varSa paryata maunapaNuM ghAraNa karyuM. mAtra sAdhuo sAthe jarUra pUratuM bolavAnI tathA zrImadda sAthe paramArtha kAraNe praznAdi rAkhI. "samAdhizataka'nuM vAMcana paNa have zarU karyuM. tethI potAne apUrva zAMti vedAtI hatI; ema pote te vakhatanuM varNana ghaNI vakhata karatA. svacchedathI je je karavAmAM Ave te saghaLuM abhimAna saM.1950 ane 1951nA banne comAsA suratamAM thayA. te vakhate vedAMta ane vedAMtIonA paricayathI devakaraNajI svAmI potAne paramAtmA mAnatA. te bAbata zrI lallujIe zrImatte lakhI jaNAvI. tenA uttaramAM zrImade lakhyuM ke "jJAnIpuruSanA samAgamanI upAsanA vinA jIva svacchede nizcaya kare te chUTavAno mArga nathI. sarva jIvanuM paramAtmapaNuM che. emAM saMzaya nathI....paNa jyAM sudhI te svarUpa yathAtathya pragaTe nahIM tyAM sudhI mumukSu, jijJAsu rahevuM te vaghAre sAruM che. ane te raste yathArtha paramAtmapaNuM pragaTe che."A vAMcI te pAchA haTyA. eka divasa zrImad surata padhArelA tyAre devakaraNajIe prazna pUchayo, "zrI lallujI mahArAja mane vyAkhyAna ApI AvuM tyAre abhimAna karyuM kahe che, dhyAna karuM tene taraMgarUpa kahe che; to zuM vItarAga prabhu emanuM kareluM svIkAre ane mAruM na svIkAre evA pakSapAtavALA haze?" zrImade zAMtithI uttara Apyo "svacchedathI je je karavAmAM Ave che te saghaLuM abhimAna ja che, asatuM sAdhana che ane saddagurunI AjJAthI je karavAmAM Ave che te kalyANakArI gharmarUpa satsAghana che." 11

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'cha pada'nA patrano udbhava vi.saM. 1950mAM zrI lallujI svAmIne suratamAM dasa bAra mahinAthI tAva Avato hato. jethI ciMtA thaI ke vakhate deha chUTI jaze. tethI paramakRpALudevane uparAuparI patra lakhI jaNAvyuM ke ''The nAtha! have A deha bace tema nathI. ane huM samakita vinA jaIza to mAro manuSyabhava vRthA jaze. mATe kRpA karIne have mane samakita Apo." zrI lallujI svAmInA patranA uttaramAM zrImade anaMta kRpA karIne 'cha pada'no patra lakhI mokalyo; ane sAthe jaNAvyuM ke deha chUTavAno bhaya kartavya nathI. rALaja jyAre zrImad surata padhAryA tyAre te cha pada'nA patranuM vizeSa vivecana karI teno paramArthe zrI lallujI svAmIne samajAvyo, ane te patra mukha pAThe karI vAraMvAra vicAravAnI temane bhalAmaNa karI. zrI lallujI svAmI potAnA chellAM varSomAM vAraMvAra upadezamAM kahetA ke "e camatkArI patra che. jIvanI yogyatA hoya to samyaktva prApta thAya tevI vicAraNA utpanna karAve tevo e adbhuta patra che." jaina munio comAsAmAM vihAra karI bIje gAma jaI na zake evo AcAra che tethI jANe zrImadre aMbAlAlabhAI mAraphata kahevaDAvyuM ke munizrInA cittamAM asaMtoSa raheto hoya to huM temanI pAse AvIne samAgama karAvuM ane temanA cittane viSe zAMti rahe to bhale pAchA cAlyA jAya. cha padano patra 12 'sahajAtmasvarUpa paramaguru' maMtrano udbhava saMvata 1952mAM khaMbhAta najIka Avela rALaja gAmamAM zrImade ekAMta nivRtti arthe nivAsa karela. tyAM mumukSuone bodha maLato. te jANI zrI laghurAja svAmI (zrI lallujI svAmI khaMbhAtathI cAlatA cAlatA rALajanI sIma sudhI AvI pahoMcyA. pachI eka mANasane moklI zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne bolAvyA ane zrImanI AzA maMgAvI. mAre AjJAnuM pAlana thAya tema karavuM' mATe huM pAcho cAlyo jAuM chuM ema kahI khinna thaI AMkhamAMthI jharatI AMsudhArA sAthe zrI laghurAja svAmI khaMbhAta pAchA pharyA; ane te rAtri parANe vyatIta karI. bIje divase savAre zrI aMbAlAlabhAI, zrI sobhAgabhAI ane zrI DuMgarazIbhAIne rALajathI zrImade khaMbhAta moklyA.

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maMtra maLatA mahAzAMti zrI sobhAgabhAIe upAzrayamAM AvI zrI lallujI svAmIne AzvAsana rUpe kahyuM ke "paramakRpALudeva tamane samAgama karAvaze ane Apane kahevA yogya je vAto kahI che te Apane ekalAne ja jaNAvavAnI che." tethI zrI aMbAlAlabhAInA ghare jaI te banne ekAMtamAM beThA. zrI sobhAgabhAIe zrImade jaNAvela maMtra kahI saMbhaLAvyo. ane pAMca mALAo roja pheravavAnI AjJA karI che ema jaNAvyuM. tathA thoDA divasamAM khaMbhAta paghArIne teozrI samAgama karAvaze evA samAcAra ApyA. te sAMbhaLIne munizrInI AMkhamAM harSanA AMsu ubharAyA ane praphullita bhAva thayA. zrI lallujIe zrI sobhAgabhAIne vinaMtI karI ke "bIjA munione Apa A maMtraprasAdI kRpA karIne Apo tyAre temaNe jaNAvyuM ke "mane AjJA ApI nathI. Apa temane jaNAvazo ema paramakRpALudeve kahyuM che." zrImadanuM rALajathI rathamAM vaDavA Agamana "zrI lallujI muninA samAgamane lIdhe, bIjA pAMca munione paNa zrImad pratye prema jAgelo; tethI zrImad khaMbhAta pAse vaDavA mukAme paghAravAnA cokkasa samAcAra maLatA chae munio zrImadbhI sAme gayA." (jI.pR.102) "rALajathI rathamAM besIne zrImadu tathA zrI sobhAgabhAI AvatA hatA. munione dIThA tyAre sobhAgabhAI rathamAMthI UtarI vaDavAnA makAna sudhI munio sAthe cAlyA." (jI.pR.182) samAgamanoviraha asahya vaDavAmAM zrImad samIpe zrI lallujI muninuM haiyuM bharAI AvyuM ane bolyA : "he nAtha, ApanA caraNakamaLamAM mane nizadina rAkho. A muhapatI mAre joItI nathI." ema kahI temaNe zrImadbhA AgaLa muhapattI nAkhI ane AMkhamAM azru ubharAtAM gadgad vANIthI bolyA: "mArAthI samAgamano viraha sahana thato nathI." (jI.pR.142) A drazya joI zrImanuM komaLa hRdaya paNa raDI paDyuM, temanI AMkhamAMthI satata azrapravAha vahevA lAgyo; keme karI aTake nahIM. zrI lallujIsvAmInA manamAM paNa ema AvyuM ke meM A zuM karyuM? aho! bhaktavatsala bhagavAna, mAro avinaya aparAgha thayo haze? have zuM karuM? ityAdi pazcAttApanA vicAramAM te lIna thaI gayA. sarva Azcaryacakita thaI mauna besI rahyA; lagabhaga eka kalAka sudhI Ama udAsIna mauna sthitimAM rahI zrImade munizrI devakaraNajIne kahyuM, "A muhapatI zrI lallujIne Apo. hamaNAM rAkho." (jI.pR.142) zrImajI vaDavA cha divasa rokAyA tyAM sudhI sarva mumukSu bhAI-baheno sAthe samAgama boghano lAbha maLato tathA muni samudAyane ekAMtamAM paNa temanA samAgamano lAbha maLato. saMpradAyanA loko tathA sAghuvarga A cha munionI niMdA karatA paNa tethI yathArtha gharma pratye chayenI vizeSa dRDhatA thaI. vaLI zrI lallujIno puNyaprabhAva eTalo paDato ke koI temane moDhe kahI zakatA nahIM. 13

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AtmasiddhinI racanAmAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI preraNA "kapALadeva saM.19paramAM khaMbhAta paghAryA tyAre zrI sobhAgabhAI paNa tyAM AvelA, tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI preraNAthI zrI sobhAgabhAIe kRpALudevane vinaMtI karI ke A "cha pada'no patra yAda nathI raheto mATe kaMIka gAvAnuM hoya to moDhe thAya. e vAtane vIseka divasa thayA bAda kapALudeve kalAka doDha kalAkamAM 142 gAthAnI A "Atmasiddhi' naDiyAda mukAme racI." - boghAmRta bhAga-2 (pR.306). vaDavAthI zrImadjI naDiyAda padhAryA. tyAM zrI Atmasiddhi zAstra' racyuM. tenI cAra nakala prathama karAvI. eka zrI lallujI svAmI upara svAdhyAya mATe mokalI ane sAthe patra lakhI jaNAvyuM ke Apane ekAMtamAM svAdhyAya arthe A mokalI che. doSavRSTi tajI guNagrAhI thavuM saM. 1953nuM comAsuM kheDAmAM zrI lallujIe karyuM. temanA svAdhyAya arthe zrImade "mokSamArgaprakAza" graMtha kheDAmAM mokalyo hato. temAM sthAnakavAsI paMtha viSe TIkA AvI. te vAMcI zrI devakaraNajIne gameluM nahIM, tethI graMtha vAMcavo baMdha rAkhyo. paNa pharI patra zrImad taraphathI maLyo ke koI bAbata mATe graMtha vAMcatA khaLI rahevA yogya nathI. doSadraSTi tajI guNagrAhI thavA preraNA karI. tethI te graMthano pUrNa svAdhyAya thatAM tenI mahattA samajAI. paramakRpALudevano vasomAM samAgama saM. 1954nA cAturmAsamAM zrImad rAjacaMdra nivRtti laI kAviThAmAM pharI padhAryA hatA. tyAMthI naDiyAda thaI vaso padhAryA. tyAre zrI lallujIne vasomAM zrImade pUchyuM, "kaho muni, ahiM keTalA divasa rahIe?" zrI lallujIne muMbaI sivAya bIje kyAMya aThavADiyAthI vadhAre samAgamano prasaMga maLelo nahIM, tethI temaNe kahyuM, "eka mAsa ahIM raho to sAruM" zrImad mauna rahyA. zrI lallujI AhArapANI levA jatAM tyAre gAmanA amIna vagere moTA mANasone kahetA ke muMbaIthI eka mahAtmA padhAryA che, te bahu vidvAna che. temanuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLazo to bahu lAbha thaze. tethI ghaNA mANaso zrImad pAse AvatA, ane jJAnavArtAno lAbha letA hatA. 14

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divasamAM ekavAra AhAra lai svAdhyAya-dhyAnamAM kALa gALavAnI AjJA eka divasa vanamAM vAva pAse zrImad munio sAthe vAta karatA beThA hatA. caturalAlajI muni tarapha joIne zrImade pUchyuM, "tame saMyama grahaNa karyo tyArathI Aja sudhImAM zuM karyuM?" caturalAlajIe kahyuM, "savAre cAnuM pAtra bharI lAvIe chIe te pIe chIe; te pachI chIMkaNI vahorI lAvIe chIe te suMghIe chIe; pachI AhAranA vakhate AhArapANI vahorI lAvIe chIe. te AhArapANI vAparyA pachI sUI rahIe chIe. sAMje pratikramaNa karIe chIe ane rAtre sUI rahIe chIe." zrImada vinodamAM kahyuM; "cA ane chIMkaNI vahorI lAvavI ane AhArapANI karI suI rahevuM tenuM nAma jJAna, darzana, cAritra?" S pachI AtmajAgRti arthe bogha ApI zrI lallujIne bhalAmaNa karatAM zrImade kahyuM, "bIjA muniono pramAda choDAvI bhaNavA tathA vAMcavAmAM, svAdhyAya-dhyAnamAM kALa vyatIta karAvavo ane tamAre sarvee eka vakhata divasamAM AhAra karavo. cA tathA chIMkaNI vinA kAraNe haMmezAM lAvavA nahIM. tamAre saMskRtano abhyAsa karavo." munizrI mohanalAlajIe pUchyuM, "mahArAjazrI tathA devakaraNajInI avasthA thaI che ane bhaNavAno joga kyAMthI bane?" zrImade uttaramAM jaNAvyuM, "yoga banI AvyathI abhyAsa karavo ane te thaI zake che; kemake vikTorIyA rANInI vRddha avasthA che, chatAM bIjA dezonI bhASAno abhyAsa kare che." eka vakhata munizrI mohanalAlajIe zrIma pUchyuM, "mAre dhyAna zI rIte karavuM?" zrImade uttara Apyo, "zrI lallujI mahArAja bhakti kare te vakhate tamAre kAyotsarga karI sAMbhaLyA karavuM, arthanuM ciMtana karavuM." maMtra Adi AtmArtha sAdhana bIjAne jaNAvavAnI zrImadjInI AjJA smaraNa-staMtra unAvavo. zrI lallujI svAmIne zrImade jaNAvyuM - "je koI mumukSabhAIo temaja baheno tamArI pAse AtmArtha-sAthana mAge tene A pramANe AtmahitanA sAghana batAvavA : 1. sAta vyasananA tyAgano niyama karAvavo. 2. lIlotarIno tyAga karAvavo. 3. kaMdamULano tyAga karAvavo. 4. abhakSya padArthono tyAga karAvavo. 5. rAtribhojanano tyAga karAvavo. 6. pAMca mALA pheravavAno niyama karAvavo. 7. smaraNa-maMtra batAvavo. kSamApanAno pATha ane vIsa doharAnuM paThana, manana nitya karavA jaNAvavuM. 9. satsamAgama ane sanzAstranuM sevana karavA jaNAvavuM." - u.pR.(12) (13)

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sAta vyasana sevavAnuM phaLa "sAta vyasanamAM je sAta vastuno tyAga kahyo che te dareka vastu vAparavAthI vyasana, Teva baMdhAI jAya che, mana tyAMnuM tyAM ja rahe che, gharmamAM vijJa pADe che. A loka paraloka bannemAM hAnikAraka che ane gharmano nAza karanAra che. mATe tene dUrathI tyAgavAnI vRtti rAkhavI." (u.pR. 128) jugAra | phaLa vaNathAkSana | Bar mAsa kuLa zikAra kuLa IT' S dArU kuLa. paragamata kuLa. corI | 301 sAtabhaThya kura satsamAgama ane satsAstranuM sevana karavA jaNAvavuM. pAMca mALA pheravavAno niyama karAvavo. kaMdamULano tyAga karAvavo. 16 rAtribhojanano tyAga karAvavo. lIlotarIno tyAga karAvavo.

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vacanAmRta maLavAthI paramazAMti. zrImade lakhela AtyaMtara noMdhapothImAMthI vagere amuka bhAga nod 1 ( 3) zrI lallujIne utArI ApavA mATe zrI aMbAlAlabhAIne AjJA mIna -2, evA nIe lai jai karI tathA munizrI lallujIne tenuM dhyAna karavA AjJA karI. ghaNI 1La upara na ja ke A tIvra pIpAsA pachI prApta thayela A sAthanathI zrI lallujIne parama | ma NI vicArevAM paDe che. zAMti prApta thaI hatI. nA che. jene ni 8. AtmadraSTi AtmajJAna)no udabhava zrImad rAjacaMdra AtyaMtara noMdhapothI - zrImadjInA hastAkSaramAM chelle divase zrI lallujIne ekAMtamAM zrImadjIe eka kalAka bodha Apyo ane dRSTirAga palaTAvI AtmadraSTi karAvI. zrI lallujIne te Azaya samajAyo tyAre zrImadjI bolatA aTakI gayA. pAMcaso pAMcaso gAu paryaTana karatA chatAM jJAnI maLaze nahIM vasomAM eka mAsa pUrNa thayo te divase zrImade zrI lallujIne kahyuM, "kema muni, tamArI mAgaNI pUrI thaI? eka mAsanI tamArI mAgaNI pramANe rahyA." zrI lallujIne manamAM lAgyuM ke vizeSa mAgaNI karI hota to sAruM. pachI sarva munione jAgRtino upadeza ApatAM zrImade jaNAvyuM, "he munio!atyAre jJAnI puruSanA pratyakSa samAgamamAM pramAda karo cho. paNa jJAnI puruSa nahIM hoya tyAre pazcAttApa pAmazo. pAMcaso pAMcaso gAu paryaTana karavA chatAM jJAnIno samAgama thaze nahIM." zrImad vasothI uttarasaMDA vanakSetre eka mAsa rahI kheDA padhAryA ane zrI devakaraNajI munine trevIsa divasa samAgama karAvyo. tenuM varNana karatAM zrI lallujIne eka patramAM zrI devakaraNajI lakhe che : - paramakRpALudevanA samAgamanuM phaLa "uttarAdhyayana'nA batrIsamA adhyayanano bogha thatAM asagurunI bhrAMti gaI, sadgurunI paripUrNa pratIti thaI. atyaMta nizcaya thayo, romAMca ullasyAM; satparuSanI pratItino draDha nizcaya roma roma UtarI gayo. AjJAvaza vRtti thaI... Ape kahyuM tema ja thayuM phaLa pAkyuM, rasa cAkhyo, zAMta thayA. AjJAvaDIe hamezAM zAMta rahIzuM. evI vRtti cAle che ke jANe sapuruSanA caraNamAM mokSa pratyakSa najare Ave che. parama kRpALudeve pUrNa kRpA karI che.... ame eka AhArano vakhata eLe gumAvIe chIe; bAkI to sadgurusevAmAM kALa vyatIta thAya che, eTale basa che. tenuM te ja vAkya te ja mukhamAMthI jyAre zravaNa karIe chIe tyAre navuM ja dIse che....

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sadaguru upadezano sAra sarvoparI upadezamAM ema AvyA kare che ke zarIra kuza karI, mAMhenuM tattva zoghI, kalevarane pheMkIne cAlyA jAo; viSaya-kaSAyarUpa corane aMdarathI bahAra kADhI, bALI-jALI phUMkI mUkI tenuM snAnasUtaka karI, dahADo pavADo karI zAMta thAo, chUTI jAo, zamAI jAo; zAMti, zAMti, zAMti thAo; vahelA vahelA tAkIda karo; jJAnI sadgurunAM upadezelAM vacano sAMbhaLIne eka vacana paNa pUrNa premathI grahaNa kare, eka paNa sadguru vacananuM pUrNa premathI ArAghana kare to te ArAghanA e ja mokSa che, mokSa batAve che." cAturmAsa pUro thatAM sarva sAte munio naDiyAda ekatra thayA. tyAM Azare doDha-mAsa sudhI alpa AhAra, alpa nidrA vagere niyamonuM pAlana karI ghaNokharo kALa pustaka-vAcana, manana, bhakti, dhyAnAdimAM gALatA. kheDA temaja vasomAM zrImadjIno samAgama-bodhe thayela tenuM vivecana smaraNa karI paraspara vinimaya (Apa le) karatA. - u.pR.(13) zrImad muMbaIthI IDara nivRtti arthe paghAryA che ema jANI zrI lallujIe IDara tarapha vihAra karyo. IDaramAM samAgama zrImadajIe dUrathI munizrIne joIne temanI sevAmAM rahelA bhAI ThAkarazIne kahyuM ke temane vanamAM laI jA. pAchaLa pote paNa tyAM gayA. eka AMbAnA jhADa nIce munizrIne pote bolAvI gayA ane pUchIne jANI lIdhuM ke traNa munio pahelA AvI pahoMcyA che ane cAra pAchaLa Ave che. te jANI zrImad sahaja khijAIne bolyA, "tame zA mATe pAchaLa paDyA cho? have zuM che? tamane je samajavAnuM hatuM te jaNAvyuM che. tame have kAle vihAra karI cAlyA jAo. devakaraNajIne ame khabara ApIe chIe tethI te A sthaLe nahIM AvatA bIjA sthAne vihAra karI pAchA jaze. ame ahIM gupta rIte rahIe chIe; koInA paricayamAM ame AvavA icchatA nathI; aprasiddha rahIe chIe. DaoNkaTaranA tarapha AhAra levA nahIM AvatA; bIjA sthAnethI lejo. kAle vihAra karI javuM." zrI lallujIe vinaMtI karI : "ApanI AzA pramANe cAlyA jaIzuM. paraMtu mohanalAlajI ane narasiMharakhane ahIM ApanAM darzana thayAM nathI. mATe Apa AjJA karo to eka divasa rokAI, pachI vihAra karIe." zrImade jaNAvyuM, "bhale tema karajo." 19

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IDara gaDhanA zrI zAMtinAtha bhagavAnanA A derAsaramAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI Adi munivarone prathama darzanA zrI devakaraNajImuni vagere IDara AvI pahoMcyA. zrImade sAte munione DuMgara paranAM zvetAMbara ane digaMbara banne derAsara ughaDAvI darzana karAvavA ThAkarazIne mokalyA. A sAte sthAnakavAsI munioe sadguru AjJAthI jinapratimAnAM darzana prathama IDaramAM karyA. te nimitte temane apUrva ullAsa thayo. DuMgara uparanAM zrImade jaNAvelAM badhAM sthaLo ThAkarazIe baghA munione batAvyAM. IDara gaDhanuM zvetAMbara maMdira apamAM Ara. 16 F DEODOODORE ITI | '' ' ''''''''''''''''' U NI PANI che miharakyanI karIne ApatA Taia. kitADhavA. IDara gaDhanuM digaMbara maMdira 20

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IDaranA bIjA darzanIya sthAno eka TekarI upara digaMbara munionAM samAdhisthAna tathA smaraNastUpo che tathA najIkamAM smazAna, kuMDa, guphA che te paNa jovA munione mokalyA hatA. u.pR. (pR.16) rAjamahela ruThI rANInuM mALiyuM arAjacaMdra raNamalanI cokI bhurAbAvAnI guphA savAre pAdhina DhoDhA (saurAa natha0 mattemAjika rIyara TI niriTela sI rAhanadhAra-mazrIdevaIjAtrI sAvIsAramahArAja nara nA kirUnama tamArI vecainnazI naakhate pAgha vRaitaimiTaNa) nA ! munionuM samAdhisthAna smazAna, kuMDa ane guphA pachI bIje divase temaja trIje divase paNa te AMbA nIce AvavAnI AjJA thayelI. te pramANe sAte munio rAha jotA hatAM. zrImajI AvyA pachI thoDe dUra jaI eka vizALa zilA para birAjyA. baghA munio temanI pAchaLa jaI temanI sanmukha beThA. zrImad dravyasaMgraha' graMtha hastAkSarathI lakhelo lAvyA hatA. te artho graMtha ahIM sarvane vAMcI saMbhaLAvyo. eTalAmAM devakaraNajI bolI UThyAH have amAre gAmamAM javAnI zI jarUra che?" zrImade kahyuM, "koNa kahe che ke jAo." zrI devakaraNajIe kahyuM, "zuM karIe? peTa paDyuM che." muninuM peTa jagatanA kalyANa mATe zrImade kahyuM, "munione peTa che te jagatanA kalyANane arthe che. munine peTa na hota to gAmamAM na jatAM pahADanI guphAmAM vasI kevaLa vItarAga bhAve rahI jaMgalamAM ja vicarata. tethI jagatanA kalyANarUpa thaI zakata nahIM. tethI muninuM peTa jagatanA hitArthe che." 21

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vastune jANanAra te AtmA dhyAnano viSaya carcatAM zrImadajIe kahyuM: "dhyAnanI aMdara jevuM ciMtave tevuM yogAbhyAsIne dekhAya. draSTAMta tarIke, dhyAnamAM AtmAne pADA jevo ciMtavI A pahADa jevaDuM pUchaDuM hovAnuM ciMtave to teno AtmA te rUpe bhAse che. paNa vastutaH te AtmA nathI. paNa tene jANanAra je che te AtmA che." eka divasa te sAMketika AmravRkSa nIce sAte mUnio sAthe zrImada birAjyA hatA tyAre muni mohanalAlajIe zrImadane phariyAda karI "AhAra karI rahyA pachI mane muhapattI bAMghatA vAra lAge che tethI mahArAja (zrI lallujI) mane daMDa Ape che." zrImadjIe kahyuM, "badhA muhapanI kADhI nAkho. ane IDaranI AsapAsa vIsa gAu sudhI bAMghazo nahIM. koI AvIne pUche to zAMtithI vAtacIta karIne tenA mananuM samAdhAna karavuM." -u.pR.(16) (17) kalpavRkSa samAna e AmravRkSa nIce chelle divase sAte munio vahelA AvI zrImadjInI rAha jotA hatA eTalAmAM pote padhAryA. tyAMthI vikaTa raste sarvane dorIne cAlavA lAgyA. siddhazilA zrImajI vahelA upara pahoMcI eka vizALa zilA upara birAjyA. pachI sAte munio AvIne sanmukha beThA. "ahIM najIkamAM eka vAgha rahe che, paNa tame sarva nirbhaya rahejo." siddhazilA ane siddhasvarUpanI vAta carcAyA pachI zrImade pUchyuM, "ApaNe ATale UMce beThA chIe, te koI nIceno mANasa taLeTI uparathI dekhI zake?" zrI lallujIe kahyuM, "nA, na dekhI zake." zrImade kahyuM, "tema ja nIcenI dazAno jIva UMcI dazAvALA jJAnInuM svarUpa jANI zakato nathI. paNa yogyatA prApta thAya, ane ucca dazAmAM Ave to dekhI zake. ApaNe DuMgara upara ucca sthAne hovAthI AkhuM zahera ane dUra sudhI joI zakIe chIe. paNa nIce bhUmi upara Ubhelo mAtra teTalI bhUmine dekhI zake che. tethI jJAnI ucca dazAe rahI nIcenAne kahe che, "tuM thoDe UMce Ava, pachI jo; tane khabara paDaze." dravyasaMgraha samajAvyo-e sarvoparI samAgama pachI zrImadjIe badhA munione kahyuM, "tame padmAsana vALI besI jAo ane jina mudrAvata banI 'dravyasaMgraha'nI gAthAono artha upayogamAM lo." te pramANe baghA besI gayA. pachI zrImajI dravyasaMgrahanI gAthAo moTA avAje bolavA lAgyA ane teno artha paNa karatA, pachI paramArtha kahetA. ema Akho dravyasaMgraha'graMtha paripUrNa saMbhaLAvyo, samajAvyo tyAM sudhI te ja Asane badhA munio acaLapaNe rahyA. zrI devakaraNajI ullAsamAM AvIne bolI UThyA : "atyAra sudhI je je samAgama paramaguruno thayo temAM A samAgama aho! sarvoparI thayo. jema derAsaranA zikhara upara kaLaza caDhAvavAmAM Ave che tema A prasaMgathI thayuM che." pachI zrImade kahyuM, "AtmAnuzAsana" graMthanA kartA zrI guNabhadrAcArya te graMthanA pAchaLanA bhAgamAM ati addabhuta jJAnamAM relyA che; AtmAnA svarUpanuM vizeSa varNana spaSTa batAve che." ema kahI te bhAga paNa vAMcI saMbhaLAvyo. 22

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pramAda ane lobhAdi kAraNe vRtti zithila te sAMketika AMbA nIce zrImadjIe munione kahyuM, "munio, jIvanI vRtti tIvrapaNAthI paNa paDI jAya che. aMbAlAlanI vRtti ane dazA prathama bhakti ane vairAgyAdi kAraNe ucca thatAM tene evI labdhi pragaTa thaI hatI ke ame traNa cAra kalAka bogha karyo hoya te bIje divase ke trIje divase lakhI lAvavAnuM kahIe to te saMpUrNa ane amArA zabdomAM lakhI lAvatA hatA. hAla pramAda ane lobha AdinA kAraNe vRtti zithila thaI che. te doSa tenAmAM pragaTa thaze ema ame bAra mAsa pahelAM jANatA hatAM." zrI lallujIne te sAMbhaLI kheda thayo. tethI zrImadjIne pUchyuM, "zuM te ema ja raheze?" zrImadjIe kahyuM, "muni, kheda karazo nahIM. jema nadInA pravAhamAM taNAtuM pAMdaDuM eka jALA ADe aTakI jAya, paNa pharI pUra-pravAhanA vahanamAM jALAthI juduM paDIne mahAsamudramAM jaIne maLe che; tema teno pramAda amArAthI dUra thaze ane paramapadane pAmaze." be aDhI mAsa paryata IDaranI AjubAjunA pradezamAM zrI lallujI vicaryA. pachI kherALu thaI naDiyAda AvI saM.1955nuM cAturmAsa tyAM ja karyuM. -u.pR.(17) (18) thoDA samayamAM zrImajI vavANiyAthI amadAvAda padhAryA. zrI lallujI Adi munio paNa tyAM hatA. muni tame (AtmA) jozo paramakRpALadeva amadAvAdamAM rAjaparanA derAsara javAnA hovAthI munione paNa tyAM bolAvyAM. derAsaramAM chaThThA padmaprabha prabhujInuM stavana pote gAyuM. "pahAprabha jina tuja muja AMtaruM re..." ane stuti namaskAra karI UbhA thaI pachI bhoMyarAmAM gayA. bhoMyarAmAM mULanAyakajI pArzvanAtha prabhunI bAjumAM je bhavya ghavala pratimAjI che, tenI samIpa jaI paramakRpALudeva ociMtA bolI UThyA ke, "devakaraNajI, juo! juo AtmA!" tyAre zrI laghurAja svAmI kahe huM bhoLo te bolI UThyo ke "kyAM che bApajI?" pachI mArI sAmuM ja joI rahyA ane boghamAM jaNAvyuM ke "muni! tame jozo." derAsara bahAra AvI munione pharamAvyuM, "munio, bahAra draSTi karazo to vikSepano pAra nathI. mATe aMtaradraSTi karo." sAdhunA paga dAjhatA haze amadAvAdathI zrImadjI IDara tarapha pathAryA, ane zrI lallujI Adi thoDA divasa pachI naroDA tarapha vicaryA. IDarathI zrImadjIno patra naroDA Avyo ke pote naroDA bIje divase Utaraze. amadAvAdathI mumukSu bhAIo paNa naroDe AvyA hatA. bAra vAge zrI lallujI Adi munione nivRtti sthaLe jaMgalamAM padhAravA zrImadjIe samAcAra mokalyA. munio upAzrayathI bhAgoLe pahoMcyA teTalAmAM zrImadjI Adi paNa tyAM rAha jotA UbhA hatA. unALAnA tApathI jamIna bahu tapI gaI hatI. paraMtu "sAdhunA paga dAjhatA haze" ema bolI zrImadjI potAnA joDA (slIpara) kADhI nAkhI gajagatithI dUra vaDa sudhI ughADA page cAlyA. sAdhuo chAyAno Azraya levA tvarita gatithI cAlatA hatA. paNa pote akaLAyA vagara, kaMI taDakAnI kALajI karyA vinA, zAMtithI cAlatA hatA. gAmanA loko paNa vAto karatA ke zrI devakaraNajI mahArAja jaNAvatA hatA ke A jJAnI puruSa che te vAta sAcI che. 23

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have ame taddana asaMga thavA icchIe chIe vaDa nIce zrImadjI birAjyA. temanI sAme chaye munio namaskAra karIne beThA. zrImadjInA paganA taLiyAM lAlacoLa thaI gayAM paNa paga para hAtha sudhdhAM pheravyo nahIM. zrI devakaraNajI sAmuM joI te bolyA, "have ame taddana asaMga thavA icchIe chIe. koInA paricayamAM AvavuM gamatuM nathI evI saMyamazreNimAM AtmA rahevA icche che." zrI devakaraNajIe prazna karyo, "to anaMtI dayA jJAnI puruSanI che te kyAM jaze?" zrImadjIe javAba Apyo : "aMte e paNa mUkavAnI che."-u.pR.(23) - saM.1956mAM zrI lallujI Adine patrathI samAcAra maLyA ke zrImadujI amadAvAda paghAryA che. temaja devakaraNajIne paNa samAcAra maLelA tethI badhA munio vihAra karIne amadAvAda AvyA. jJAnArNava' tathA 'kArtikeyAnuprekSAgraMtho vAMcI vicAravA badhA munio jyAre zrImadjInA darzana karavA AgAkhAnane baMgale gayA tyAre zrImad jIe vAtacItanA prasaMgamAM jaNAvyuM, "munio A jIve strI putrAdinA bhAra vahyA che, paNa sanmuruSonI ke gharmAtmAnI sevAbhakti pramAda- rahita uThAvI nathI." ema kahI lakSmIcaMdajI munine AjJA karI ke "A "jJAnArNava' graMtha jyAM sudhI devakaraNajI paripUrNa vAMcI na rahe tyAM sudhI vihAramAM tamAre UMcakavo." pachI muni devakaraNajIne "zAnArNava vAMcavAnI preraNA karI te "jJAnArNava' graMtha temane vahorAvyo. "kArtikeyAnuprekSA' nAmano graMtha zrI lallujIne vahorAvyo. ane te paripUrNa vAMcavA, svAdhyAya karavA jaNAvyuM tathA zrI mohanalAlajIne te graMtha UMcakavAnuM pharamAvyuM. zrImadjIe zrI lallujIne kahyuM, "muni, kArtikeyAnuprekSA" nA kartA kumAra brahmacArI che. temaNe kArtikeyAnuprekSAgraMtha jJAnArNava graMtha A graMthamAM apUrva vairAgyanuM je nirUpaNa karyuM che tevI aMtaradazA ane tenI utkRSTa bhAvanA te mahAtmAnI vartatI hatI. nivRtti sthaLe bahu vicArazo." zrI devakaraNajI svAmIne paNa kahyuM "tamAre paNa A graMtha atyaMta vAMcavo, vicAravo. banne arasaparasa graMtha badalI laI vAMcajo, vicArajo." zrI devakaraNajIe zrImadjIne pUchyuM : "ApanuM zarIra AvuM ekadama kRza kema thaI gayuM?' zrImadjIe uttara Apyo, "ame zarIranI sAme paDyA chIe." -u.pR.(24) giAramAM paNa che kAraNa 24

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amArAmAM ane vItarAgamAM bheda gaNazo nahIM bIje divase muni zrI lallujI ane zrI devakaraNane AgAkhAnane baMgale bolAvI zrImadjIe potAnI dazA viSe vAta karI : "have eka vItarAgatA sivAya amane bIjuM kaMI vedana nathI. amArAmAM ane vItarAgamAM bheda gaNazo nahIM." zrI lallujI ane zrI devakaraNajIne tevI ja zraddhA hatI paNa zrImukhe te dazA sAMbhaLI parama ullAsa thayo, ane jatAM pahelAM ApaNane potAnuM hRdaya kholI vAta karI dIdhI ema bannenA hRdayamAM thavAthI parama saMtoSa thayo. zrImadbhu amadAvAdathI vaDhavANa kaeNmpamAM padhAryA. tyAM keTaloka kALa rahI rAjakoTa paghAryA. ane saM. 1957nA caitra vada pAMcamane maMgaLavAre zrImadjIno dehotsarga thayo. 1.25) AtmajJAna ApanAra sadguruno viyoga asahya "zrImadnA dehAMtanA samAcAra kAviThA AvyA te vakhate zrI lallujI mahArAja vagere kAviThAmAM hatA. Agale divase temane upavAsa hato. ane ekAMta jaMgalamAM temane rahevAno abhyAsa hato. te pAraNA vakhate gAmamAM AvyA tyAre mumukSuo aMdara aMdara vAto karatA hatA; te viSe temaNe tapAsa karatAM zrImanA dehAMtanA samAcAra maLyA ke turata pAchA jaMgalamAM te cAlI nIkaLyA ane AhArapANI kaMI paNa vAparyA vinA ekAMta jaMgalamAM ja te viyoganI veLA vitAvI. temane ghaNo ja AghAta lAgyo hato. jene AtmadAnano lAbha maLyo che. tene te upakAra samajAyAthI sadguruno viyoga asahya thaI paDe che.'' (ja.pU.269, 270) zrImadjInI hayAtImAM temanA darzana samAgama mATe te jyAM hoya tyAM zrI lallujI svAmI javAnI bhAvanA rAkhatA ane zrImajI muMbaI ke kAThiyAvADa tarapha jatA hoya to paNa darzana samAgamano lAbha cUktA nahIM. ekAMta mATe pahADo ane jaMgalo priya paraMtu have tevuM baLavAna kAraNa rahyuM nahIM ane potAne pachADo ane jaMgalo priya hovAthI ekAMta AtmasAdhana vizeSa thaze ema dhArI dharmapuranA jaMgalo vaTAvI dakSiNa deza tarapha temaNe vihAra karyo hato. sAdhuomAMthI sAthe mAtra eka monalAlajIne rAkhyA hatA. te jyAM jAya tyAM upAzrayamAM koI Ave tenI sAthe dharmanI vAta karatA ane pote to ghaNo vakhata jaMgalomAM gALatA, AhAra vakhate AvatA. - vihAra karatAM munio dhyAna karatAM pa.pU prabhuzrI - 25

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patranA darzanathI jANe sAkSAt satpuruSanA darzana satpuruSanA vacana te amRta samAna ghIme ghIme amRtanA ghUMTaDA bhare tema badho patra saharSa vAMcI, pharI vAMcatA, vaLI pharI pharI vAMcI vicAratA; satpuruSanA parama upakArane, tenI niSkAraNa karuNAne hRdayamAM khaDI karI atyaMta bhaktibhAve te patranA Azayane hRdayamAM utAratA. amane samajAya nahIM paNa koI gana vAta lakhI che, A patrathI AtmAnuM apUrva hita karavA karuNA karI che, tene grahaNa karI Atmahita karavAno apUrva suprasaMga prApta thAo evI bhAvanA karatA.'' jodhAmRta bhAga 3 pU. 250 26 pa. u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI kahetA ke paramakRpALudeve viyogamAM rAkhIne amArA bhAvanI zuddhi karAvI phaLa pakaDyuM che. aMtaraMgamAM bhAvanA eTalI badhI ke niraMtara satsaMgamAM rahIe; tema na bane to patra dvArA bodhathI da22oja ullAsa vadhAratA rahe tevI bhAvanA, prabaLa kheMcANa rahetI; chatAM ghaNA kAgaLo jAya tyAre koIka divase uttara maLato. paNa je divase patra Ave te divase jANe sonAno sUrya Ugyo tema lAgatuM. patra vAMcyA pahelAM to patranA darzanathI jANe sAkSAt satpuruSanA darzana thayAM ema lAgatuM, saMghADAmAM bIjA virodhI sAdhuo hovAthI koI bIjAnA ziranAme patra maMgAvavo paDato. te patra maLe eTale turta to vaMcAya nahIM. pAcho tevo anukULa vakhata maLe ke jaMgalamAM svAdhyAya vagere arthe jAya tyAre namaskAra Adi vinaya karI ullAsabhera patra ughADI motInA dANA jevA paramakRpALudevanA svahastAkSaro joI romAMca thaI Avato.

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ame sa2kA2I mANasa nathI paNa saMta sAdhu chIe eka divasa jaMgalamAM bahu dUra cAlI nIkaLyA. tevAmAM so-baso bhIlo temanI AjubAju dUra dUra hathiyAro tIrakAmaThAM sajja karI temane gherI UbhA rahyA. badhA kema temane gherIne UbhA che te temanA samajavAmAM AvyuM nahIM. tethI te nirbhayapaNe temanI pAse gayA ane pUchyuM, "bhAI, kema badhA ekaThA thayA cho ?'' eka jaNe kahyuM, "tame sarakArI mANasa cho ane laDAImAM bharatI karavA amane pakaDavA AvyA cho; tethI tamane amAre pakaDI levA che.'' temaNe pAsenA gAmanuM nAma tathA jene tyAM utAro hato te vANiyAnuM nAma jaNAvIne kahyuM, "ame to saMta sAdhu chIe. tamAre khAtarI karavI hoya to amArI sAthe cAlo. ame to bhagavAnanI bhakti arthe jaMgalamAM AvIe chIe, Aje jarA dUra AvavuM thayuM. tamane amArA taraphathI bhaya pAmavAnuM kAraNa nathI. ame sarakArI mANasa nathI.'' A saraLa khulAsAthI badhA samajI gayA ane verAI gayA. ka2mALAnA loko bahu bhAvika pachI lAMbA lAMbA vihAra karI dakSiNamAM karamALA gAma che tyAM gayA ane saMvat 1958nuM comAsuM paNa tyAM karyuM. te dezamAM je gujarAtI ane mAravADI loko hatA te temanA samAgamamAM AvatA. ane temane dharmanI vAta niSpakSapAtapaNe karatA te bahu ruci gaI. pAchaLathI pote ghaNI vakhata zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama agAsamAM te pradezanI vAta karatA ane kahetA ke tyAMnA loko bahu bhAvika ane utsAhI hatA ane tyAM vadhAre vakhata vicaravAnuM banyuM hota to zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama banI AvyuM che tevuM ja tyAM banI jAta. - u.pU.(29) 27

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zrI devakaraNajI muninI ajaba samatA saM.1958mAM zrI devakaraNajI Adi carotaramAM vicaratA hatA. te arasAmAM zrI devakaraNajIne page kAMTo vAgyo. tethI paga pAkyo ane hADakuM saDavA mAMDyuM tethI DoLImAM besADI amadAvAda ANyA. mumukSu varge temanI bahu sevA karI. klorophorma suMdhyA vinA sAtavAra pharI pharI oparezana karavA paDyAM. paNa klorophorma na lIgho te na lIgho. teo bebhAna rahevA mAMgatA na hatA. Akhare e comAsAmAM devakaraNajIno deha amadAvAdamAM paDyo. zrI lakSmIcaMdajI Adi munio zrI devakaraNajI sAthe amadAvAda comAsuM rahelA. temane AzvAsanano patra zrI lallajI svAmIe karamALAthI lakhyo hato, temAM jaNAve che : "tene AtmasvarUpano lakSa levAnI icchA hatI, te gurugamathI maLI hatI....te zuddha AtmA AtmapariNAmI thaI vartatA. tevA AtmA pratye namaskAra ho! namaskAra ho! zrI devakaraNajIno samAgama saMcamane sahAyakAraka ....munivarone te munizrIno samAgama saMyamane sAjakAra (sahAyakAraka) hato - vairAgya, tyAgano vadhAro thavAmAM kAraNabhUta hato. amane paNa te kAraNathI kheda rahe che. te kheda have kartavya nathI. amAre ane tamAre eka saguruno AdhAra che te zaraNa che....sarva bhUlI javA jevuM che...nAzavaMta che te vahele moDe mUkavA jevuM che....parabhAva bhUlI javAya tema kartavya che....pAMcamA sumatinAthanA stavanamAM bAja (bAhya), aMtarAtmA ane paramAtmAnA svarUpanI sAna karI ApI che te yAda lAvI sagurunA svarUpamAM cittavRttine joDazo....gautama svAmIe paNa mahAvIra uparathI rAga utAryo hato. eka sadagurunA svarUpamAM citta joDazo....maMtra Apela che te bahu vAra yAda karazo. koI vAte muMjhAvA jevuM nathI, muMjhAzo nahIM." - zrI devakaraNajInA vyAkhyAnanI asara cha cha mAsa sudhI zrI devakaraNajIno svabhAva siMha jevo zUravIra hato. kALe kAMTAthI Takoro mAryo ke maraNiyA thaI mRtyuvedanAno paDakAra temaNe jhIlI lIdho. temanA vyAkhyAnanI sacoTatA evI to khumArIbharI hatI ke eka zrI devakaraNajI vakhata paNa temanA vyAkhyAnane sAMbhaLanAra cha cha mAsa sughI bogha bhUle nahIM. zrIma temane pramodabhAve 'devakIrNa nAmathI saMbodhatA. -u.pR.(30) trIsa varSathI cAlatA aNabanAvanuM samAdhAna saMvata 1958mAM zrI lallujI muninuM digaMbara pratimA 2 sthAnakavAsI zvetAMbara pratimA upAzraya comAsuM karamALA hatuM. tyAM zrI aMbAlAlabhAInuM javuM thayuM hatuM. tyAM zvetAMbara, sthAnakavAsI ane digaMbara traNeya jaina pakSomAM trIsa varSathI cAlyA AvatA aNabanAva ane viroghanuM samAdhAna zrI lallujI muninI sahAyatAthI saMpa jaLavAya tema karyuM hatuM. TWITT ra8

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ghoDanadImAM eka ArjAnuM karAvela samAdhimaraNa comAsuM pUruM karI zrI lallajI dakSiNamAM vicaratA vicaratA kAraNa ke e saMpradAyamAM koI saMthArA sivAya marI jAya to tenI ghoDanadI nAmanA gAmamAM thoDo kALa rahyA hatA. te ja gAmanI ane upara saMbhALa rAkhanAranI apakIrti thatI. jema jema rAta eka bAI ane tenI dIkarIe sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyamAM dIkSA vItatI gaI ane prabhAta thavA AvyuM tema tema bAI zuddhimAM lIghelI. te bIjI ArtAo sAthe comAsAmAM tyAM rahelI. paNa te AvatI gaI ane savAre pANI pIvA mAMgyuM. gorANI to gabharAI bAIne mAMdagI bahu hovAthI comAsA pachI paNa tyAM rokAvuM thayeluM. cAre prakAranAM AhAranAM pacakhANa ApyAM che ane pANI mAMge te temanA saMghADAnA sAdhuone te ArtAoe patra lakhI jaNAveluM : kema apAya? gabharAtI gabharAtI gorANI zrI lallujI UtaryA ke eka ArjA mAMDI che tene saMthAro (maraNa pahelAnuM tapa) karAvavA hatA tyAM gaI ane badhI vAta temane jaNAvI; temanA sAdhuonA mATe zuM karavuM? samAcAra paNa jaNAvyA. 'paNa rAtre pUchavA avAya nahIM ane deha chUTI jAya ema lAgavAthI pacakhANa ApI dIdhAM che. have kema zrI lallujImuninI AjJA pramANe vartavuM karavuM? sUDI vacce sopArI jevI sthiti thaI che. kRpA karIne koI te sAdhuoe zrI lallujI ghoDanadImAM gayA che ema rasto batAvo." evI vinaMtI gorANIe karI. tene zAMta karIne sAMbhaLeluM ane khaMbhAtanA saMghADA pratye temane mAna hovAthI temaNe pAchI mokalI ane pote AryAonA upAzraye padhAryA. sarvee AryAne jaNAvyuM ke zrI lallurumuninI AjJA pramANe vartajo. vinaya sAcavyo. pachI zrI lallujI te mAMdI bAIne joIne bolyA, ArjAone samAcAra maLyA te ja rAtre te bAIne maMdavADa vadhI : "bAI. kaMI gabharAvAnuM kAraNa nathI. khuzIthI je AhArapANInI javAthI bezuddha thaI gaI. tethI have deha chUTI jaze ema jANI jarUra paDe te vAparaje." te bAI bolI, "nA, mahArAja, mane gorANIe (moTA sAdhvIe) tene jIvatA sudhI cAre prakAranA : pacakhANa karAvyAM che ema kahe che; paNa pANI vinA mAre nahIM AhAranA tyAganAM pacakhANa ApI sUtrapATha bhaNI saMthAro karAvyo. 4 cAle ema lAge che.' 29

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tuM deha nahIM paNa AtmA chuM zrI lallue himmata ApatAM kahyuM, "jo bAI, tArI mAgaNI sivAya je pacakhANa ApyAM che te dupayakhAnna che; supacakhAsa nathI. e paMcakhANa toDavAthI tane je pApa lAge ema lAgatuM hoya te huM mAre mAthe vahorI lauM chuM. tArI marajImAM Ave tevAM zuddha AhAra-pANI vAparavAmAM have harakata mAnIza nahIM.'' badhAM sAMbhaLanArAne bahu navAI lAgI. paNa te mAMdI bAIe kahyuM : "mAre pANI sivAya traNe prakAranAM AhArano tyAga karavo che. mAruM maraNa sudhAravA kRpA karajo.'' te bAInI samAdhimaraNanI bhAvanA temaja vinaMtine laIne zrI lallujI roja temane upAzraye jatA ane tene samajAya tevAM satpuruSonAM vacanonuM vivecana karatA, upadeza ApatA. temanAM vacano bIjAM sAMbhaLanArane bahu bhAre lAgatAM paNa mahApuruSanA yogabaLa AgaLa koI kaMI bolI zakatuM nahIM. A prasaMganuM varNana pote ghaNI vakhata zrotAone rasaprada ane vairAgyavAhaka vANImAM kahetA. te bAIne te upadezatA ke "AtmA bhinna che; deha bhinna che; tuM A deha nathI, tuM A rogarUpa nathI, tuM vRddha nathI, yuvAna nathI, bALa nathI; tuM strI nathI, sAdhvI nathI, gorANI nathI, celI nathI; huM zuddha, buddha caitanyamaya AtmA che. tArAM A kapaDAM nathI, tArAM pustaka nathI, tArAM upakaraNa nathI, tArI pATa nathI, tArI dIkarI nathI, tArI gorANI nathI, tAro A deha paNa nathI, sarvane vosarAvI de. jyAM jyAM A jIva baMdhAyo che tyAM tyAMthI vicAra, vairAgya vaDe chUTavAnuM che; traNe lokamAM koI paNa padArtha pratye Asakti, prIti karavA yogya nathI. niraMtara udAsInanA upAsavA yogya che. haratAM, pharatAM, besatAM, UThatAM, pANI pItAM, bolatAM, sUtAM, jAgatAM sarva avasthAmAM bhAna hoya tyAM sudhI eka AtmA ThAma ThAma jovA puruSArtha karavo. AtmA sivAya halAya nahIM, calAya nahIM, bolAya nahIM, vicArAya nahIM, sukhaduHkha jaNAya nahIM; AtmAnI hAjarImAM 30 badhuM khabara paDe. AtmA sivAya bIjAmAM lakSa rAkhavo nahIM. koImAM mamatAbhAva karavo nahIM; thayo hoya to tajI devo. potAnA bAMdhelA zubhAzubha karmanA phaLa potAne ja bhogavavA paDe jIva ekalo Avyo che, ekalo javAno che. koI koInuM duHkha laI zake ema nathI; koI koIne sukhI paNa kare tame nathI. tema potAnA bAMdhelA karma koI bhogavavAnuM nathI. potAnAM karelAM ja karmanuM phaLa potAne bhogavavuM paDe che to pachI temAM harSazoka zo karavo? samabhAva, sahanazIlatA ane dhIraja dhAraNa karIne jJAnIpuruSa jANelo AtmA mATe mAnya che evA zaraNabhAvathI udaya AvelAM karma vedI levAya to navA karma baMdhAya nahIM, ane jUnAM bAMghelA karma chUTatAM jAya che. dehane rAkhavo hoya topaNa AyuSya pUruM thaye rahe tema nathI to pachI evA nAzavaMta dehamAM moha rAkhI AtmAnuM ahita koNa kare ? jema thAvuM hoya tema thAjo; paNa have to eka AtmA sivAya bIje citta devuM nathI, bIje bIje citta rAkhIne anaMta kALa A jIva saMsAramAM bhamyo. paNa have satpuruSanA samAgame je bodha sAMbhaLyo, AtmAnuM mAhAtmya sAMbhaLyuM, 'Atmasiddhi' samajAvI temAM mArI ruci raho; te ja svarUpa mane prApta ho, tenuM niraMtara bhAna raho, e ja bhAvanA kartavya che. ATalI pakaDa karI laIza to tAruM kAma thaI jaze, samAdhimaraNa thaze.' aMtamAM jJAnIpuruSanA zuddha AtmAnuM zaraNa kartavya te bAIne paNa vizvAsa beThelo ke A mahAtmA puruSa kahe che te sAcuM che, te ja kartavya che; te kahe che te ja chUTavAno mArga che. ane temanI gerahAjarImAM paNa temaNe upadezelA bodhane te vicAratI, bhAvanA karatI ane vAraMvAra kahetI paNa kharI ke 'A mArI pATa nahIM, A mArAM vastra nahIM; A deha mArI nathI, mAruM kaMI thavAnuM nathI. badhuM paDyuM rahevAnuM che. jJAnI puruSe jANelo anubhavelo AtmA satya che, nitya che, sukhasvarUpa che; zaranna karavA yogya che.' Ama ekavIsa divasa sudhI pANInA AdhAre tenA prANa TakyA. da22oja zrI lallujI svAmI darzana-samAgamano lAbha ApatA, ane sa upadezathI thIraja, sahanazIlatA tathA AtmabhAvanA poSatA.--cha padano patra, Atmasiddhi zAstra, apUrva avasara Adi tene saMbhaLAvatA ane satpuruSa pratye zaraNabhAva ane AtmabhAva TakAvI rAkhavA jaNAvatA rahetA. zAMti-samAdhithI tenuM maraNa thayuM hatuM, tathA tenI gati sudharI gaI hatI; ema pote ghaNI vakhata jaNAveluM hatuM, 7,1. (13,44)

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je raste gayA hatA te ja pahADo ane jaMgalone raste thaIne gujarAta tarapha temaNe vihAra karyo. jatI vakhate jema bhIloe gherI laI upasarga karyo hato tevo upadrava A vakhate paNa bhIlonAM bhayaMkara sthAno vaTAvIne jatAM temane kaMIka aMze thayo. temanI sAthe zrI mohanalAlajI ane zrI caturalAlajI e be sAdhuo hatA. zrI caturalAlajI pAtrAM vagere upakaraNa laI AgaLa cAlatA hatA. pAchaLa banne jaNa AvatA hatA. kasuMbA gAma AvatA pahelAM jaMgalamAM zrI caturalAlajI AgaLa cAlatA hatA temane zrI lalluja ane mohanalAlajIthI vadhAre aMtara paDI gayuM. tevAmAM be bhIla jhADImAMthI nIkaLI AvyA. zrI caturalAlane pAchaLathI khabhe pakaDI eka bhIle chattA nIce pADI nAkhyA. poTalAmAM pAtrAM hatA te bhAMgI gayA. eka paga para caDhI beTho ane eka AgaLa chAtI upara caDhI beTho. bhIlone zikhAmaNa ApI choDAvyA zrI caturalAlajI AvezamAM AvI gayA, bannene uchALIne UbhA thaI gayA. bannenAM kAMDA pakaDI rakajhaka karatA hatA. eTalAmAM zrI mohanalAlajI AvI pahoMcyA ane pAchaLa zrI lallujI paNa AvatA hatA. temane joIne banne bhIlanAM gAtra narama thaI gayA, ane karagaravA lAgyA. zrI lallujI AvI pahoMcyA eTale banne bhIlone zikhAmaNa daI temaNe choDAvI dIdhA. -u.pR.(35) naroDAmAM comAsuM vihAra karatA karatA munivaro naroDA AvyA ane saM. 1959nuM comAsuM naroDA karyuM. comAsAmAM amadAvAda Adi sthaLethI mumukSuo muni-samAgama arthe avAranavAra AvatA. tyAMthI tIrthayAtrA arthe munivaro nAnI mAravADa tarapha padhAryA. upAzraya, naroDA bhIlono upasarga DO 31

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zrI rANakapura tIrtha AhArapANIno aMtarAya paMcatIrthamAM sAdaDI pAsenuM rANakapura eka tIrthasthaLa gaNAya che. tyAM zrI lallujI Adi munio javAnA che ema eka vidveSI sAdhune khabara paDavAthI teNe sAdaDI prathamathI jaI baghA zrAvakone samajAvyuM ke sthAnakavAsI sAdhuo ahIM AvavAnA che temane AhArapANI na ApavA. te unmArgI che, temane madada karavAthI mithyAtva lAge, vagere temanA manamAM sajjaDa ThasAvI dIdhuM. prApta pariSaha jItavo e ja nigraMthano mArga jyAre te munivaro rANakapura padhAryA, derAsaramAM darzana bhakti karI AhArapANI mATe gayA tyAre AhAranI vAta to dUra rahI paNa temane pANI sarakhuM maLyuM nahIM. koI garama pANIthI snAna karatA hatA, temanI pAse eka munie pANI mAMgyuM topaNa ApyuM nahIM. bIje divase bhikSArthe gayA topaNa tema ja thayuM. sAthenA munione ema lAgyuM ke ApaNe vihAra karI bIjA gAme javuM sAruM. paNa zrI lallujI svAmIe to nizcaya karyo ke prApta pariSaha jItavo e ja nigraMtha mArga che; kaThaNAIthI DarI javuM ke bhAgatA pharavuM e kAyaranuM kAma che. trIje divase paNa pANI sarakhuM maLyuM nahIM. Ama nirjaLa aThThama pUro thayo. bhAvika bhaktoe Apela bhaktithI AhAradAna tevAmAM khaMbhAtano saMgha yAtrArthe nIkaLelo te ja divase rANakapura AvI pahoMcyo. temaNe koI muni hoya to vahorAvIe evI bhAvanAthI tapAsa karI to khabara paDI ke zrI lallujI Adi munio ahIM che. tethI temane bolAvI lAvI temaNe bhaktipUrvaka AhArapANI vahorAvyAM.

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pAlanapu2mAM pItAMba2dAsano krodhAveza pItAMbaradAsane thayela pazcAttApavaDe mAMgela mAphI rAtre pItAMbaradAsabhAIne vicAra Avyo ke "Aje meM munione kaThora vacana kahyAM chatAM koI kAMI bolyA nahIM, temaNe to UlaTI kSamA dhAraNa karI. zAstramAM namirAjarSinA indre vakhANa karyAM che, 'he mahAyazasvI, moTuM Azcarya che ke teM krodhane jItyo, teM ahaMkArano parAjaya karyo!' A zAstra-vacana meM pratyakSa Aje satyarUpe joyAM. krodhane jItanAra kSamAmUrti A ja che. huM krodhathI dhamadhamyo ane kuvacano varasAvyAM; paraMtu emanuM roma paNa pharakyuM nahIM. to mAre prabhAte temanI mAphI mAgavI ghaTe che.'' ema vicArI savAre munivaro pAse AvI bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra karI temanI stuti karI mAphI mAgI. tyAMthI vihAra karatA karatA munivaro pAlanapura padhAryA. tyAMnA sthAnakavAsI saMghamAM agresara pItAMbaradAsa mahetA gaNAya che. te temane maLyA ane vAtacIta thatAM badhA munio paMcatIrthI yAtrA karIne Ave che ema sAMbhaLyuM eTale emane thayuM ke AmanI zraddhA pharI gaI lAge che. sthAnakavAsI to pratimAne mAne nahIM, derAsaromAM jAya nahIM. tethI temane Thapako devAnA hetuthI bolyA, tIrtha to sAdhu, sAdhvI, zrAvaka, zrAvikA rUpa cAra ja che; pAMcamuM tIrtha kyAMthI lAvyA? Ama munio badhe phare to zrAvakonI zraddhA dharma upara kyAMthI rahe ? munie bhagavAnanA vacananI viruddha varte to munipaNuM kyAM rahyuM ?'' vagere AvezamAM AvIne te ghaNuM bolyA, paNa munivaro zAMta rahyA. koI na 2hI zake evI guphAmAM traNa rAtri nivAsa junAgaDhamAM upara eka guphAmAM koI rahI zakatuM nahIM. eka muni rahelA. te paNa gabharAIne mAMdA paDI gujarI gayA. bIjA mumukSuo nA pADatA chatAM zrI lallujI muni, zrI mohanalAlajI muni sAthe te guphAmAM rahyA. rAtre banne bhakti karavA lAgyA. tyAre jANe upara zilAo gabaDatI hoya, vIjaLInA kaDAkA thatA hoya evA bhayaMkara avAjo thavA lAgyA. thoDIvAramAM zAMti prasarI gaI. pachI bannee praznottaramAM samaya gALyo. temaja pAchalI rAtano vakhata zrI lallujI munie ghyAnamAM ane zrI mohanalAlajI munie smaraNamaMtranI mALA gaNavAmAM gALyo. savAre bahAra tapAsa karatAM kAMI jaNAyuM nahIM. bIjI tathA trIjI rAtri paNa e prakAre gALI. paNa prathama rAtri jevo utpAta thayo nahIM. 33

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sarvane pratimAjInuM avalaMbana hitakArI jUnAgaDhathI vihAra karI ghaMghukA zrI lallujI padhAryA ane tyAM ja saM.1960nuM comAsuM paNa karyuM. khaMbhAtathI zrI aMbAlAlabhAI tathA vIramagAma, amadAvAda ane vaTAmaNa taraphanAM mumukSujanoe saMtasamAgama arthe AvIne paryuSaNa parva nimitte tyAM paMdareka divasa gALelA. keTalAMka bhAIbahenone e cAturmAsamAM evo to bhaktiraMga lAgyo hato ke te maraNaparyata TakI rahyo. eka vakhate dhaMdhukAnA sthAnakavAsI bhAvasAronA vicAravAna agresaroe zrI lallujI svAmI pAse AvIne pUchyuM ke "ApanA upara amane vizvAsa che tethI pUchIe chIe ke pratimA mAnavI ke nahIM? zAstramAM pratimApUjana vagere Ave che ke nahIM? amane khabara nathI, ame derAsaramAMya jatA nathI. tame kaho tema mAnIe." zrI lallujI svAmIe temane jaNAvyuM ke zAstramAM pratimA saMbaMdhI pATha cAlyA che, pratimAnuM avalaMbana hitakArI che. derAsaramAM na javuM evo Agraha choDI devA yogya che, ame paNa darzana karavA, bhakti karavA derAsara jaIe chIe. e viSe satsaMga - samAgame ghaNuM zravaNa karavAnI jarUra che." ghaMghukAnA trIsa bhAvasAra kuTuMbo sthAnakavAsInI mAnyatA badalI derAvAsI mAnyatAvALA thayAM. paNa pachI vizeSa satu-samAgamanA abhAve pAchA zvetAMbaranA AgrahavALA te thaI gayA. jema UMghamAM paDakhuM pherave paNa UMgha na taje tema eka pakSa choDI bIjA pakSamAM jatAM AtmajAgRti karavAnI hatI te na thaI. zrI dhArazIbhAIne pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe Apela maMtra prasAdI zrI ghArazIbhAI karmagraMthanA abhyAsI hatA. teo dhaMdhukAmAM zrI lallujI muninA darzanArthe AvyA. ane vinayapUrvaka sASTAMga daMDavat karIne jaNAvyuM ke-saMvat 1957mAM zrImadjIe mane kaheluM ke teozrInI hayAtImAM zrI aMbAlAla, zrI sobhAgabhAI ane Apane apUrva svarUpajJAna prApta thayuM che. mATe Apa mAre avalaMbanarUpa cho. mArI have Akhara uMmara gaNAya. tethI Aje avazya kRpA karI mane paramakRpALudeve jaNAvela AjJA pharamAvo ema AMkhamAM AMsu sahita zrI lallujInA caraNamAM temaNe mastaka mUkyuM. vAraMvAra jaNAvavAthI zrI lallujI munie, smaraNamaMtra je mumukSuone jaNAvavA paramakRpALudeve AjJA karela te temane jaNAvyo. tethI temano AbhAra mAnI maraNanI chellI ghaDI sudhI ArAdhanA karI durlabha evuM samAdhimaraNa sAdhya karyuM. 34

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zrImad rAjacaMdra graMtha haMmezAM sAthe saM.1961mAM 'paramavrutta prabhAvaka maMDaLa' taraphathI 'zrImad rAjacaMdra' graMtha chapAIne bahAra paDyo. te zrI lallujI svAmIne maLatA ghaNo AnaMda thayo hato. te paramakRpALudevanA vacanAmRtono saMgraha teo haMmezAM sAthe rAkhatA. R zrImad rAjacaMdra zrI ratnarAja svAmIne zrImad laghurAja svAmInA samAgamanI bhAvanA saM.1957mAM zrI ratnarAja nAme eka sAdhu puruSane zrImad rAjacaMdra koI AtmajJAnI puruSa che ema sAMbhaLavAthI temanI kRpAthI AtmajJAna pAmavAnI abhilASA hatI. paNa temaNe pharI sAMbhaLyuM ke temano to deha chUTI gayo che. pharI 1962mAM eka mumukSu pAse sAMbhaLyuM ke kherALumAM comAsuM karatA zrI lallujI svAmI te cothA ArAnA muni samAna alaukika, darzanIya, mAnanIya, pUjanIya, maMgalamUrti che tathA te zrImad rAjacaMdranA anuyAyI che. temanI evI vistArathI prazaMsApUrvakanI vAta sAMbhaLI zrI ratnarAja svAmIne paNa camatkRti lAgI ane cAturmAsa puru thayA pachI temano samAgama karavAnI bhAvanA jAgRta thaI. 35 kIMmA, rAja, AmaLA banne pakSanuM niSpakSapAtI bodhathI thayeluM samAdhAna kherALumAM ghaNA vakhatathI zvetAMbara ane sthAnakavAsI vacce khaTapaTa thayA karatI. te zrI lallujI svAmInA niSpakSapAtI bothI maTI jaI banne pakSo svAmIvAtsalya bhegA maLI karatA thayA. ane laNaNI paNa banne sAthe letA thayA hatA. nIcuM joyA vaga2 himmata karIne caDhI jA kherALumAM cAturmAsa pUruM karI zrI lallujI ane zrI mohanalAlajI tAraMgA tIrtha tarapha vihAra karavA lAgyA. rastAmAM ghaNaghAramAM dhuMdhalImallano moMkharo nAme eka pahADa Ave che, tene guruno bhoMkharo paNa kahe che. DuMgarA upara eka paththaranI moTI zilA coTInI peThe UMcI vadhelI che. tenI upara bIjI koI rIte caDhI zakAya tevuM nahIM hovAthI vAMsa upara vAMsa bAMghI eka lAMbI nisaraNI karelI hatI. nisaraNInAM pagathiyAM koI koI tUTelAM, vAMsa paNa phATI gayelA ane UMcAI joI gabharAI javAya tevuM hovA chatAM zrI lallujI to ghIrajathI sAcavIne upara caDhI gayA. upara sapATa jamIna ane ThaMDo pavana hovAthI be ghaDI bhakti thaze ghArI zrI mohanalAlajIne upara bolAvyA; paNa temanI hiMmmata cAle nahIM. paraMtu uparathI hiMmmata ApatAM zrI lallue kahyuM : "upara AvyA pachI bahu AnaMda Avaze. bhAMgI jAya tevA vAMsa nathI. nIcuM joyA vagara hiMmmata karIne caDhI jA.'" eTale dhrujate page te paNa caDhI gayA. ane upara AvyA ke temane pakaDIne upara kheMcI lIdhA. zrI mohanalAlajI to upara pahoMcyA tyAre nirAMta vaLI. tyAM besI be ghaDI bhakti karI. badhe pharIne joI lIdhuM. eka paththara pAse ghajA bAMdhelI hatI, ane tene gurunuM sthAna mAnI bhIla loko pUje che. tyAM eka guphA che. koI koI divase varSamA tyAM meLo bharAya che. -u.pR. (39)

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yatnAnu vizeSa kAraNa hovAthI morapIMchInuM karela grahaNa mehatANA maMdira zrI ratnarAja svAmIne zrI lallujIsvAmInA samAgamamAM, sevAmAM rahevA yogya che ema lAgavAthI temanI sAthe saM.1966nuM comAsuM pAlItANAmAM sarve munio sAthe gALavAnuM nakkI karyuM. pAlItANA jatAM pahelA zrI ratnarAja svAmI Adi munioe mehatANA tIrthamAM sthAnakavAsI veSa badalI nAkhI oghAne badale morapIMchI rAkhI ane muhapattI mukhe bAMghavI baMgha karI. morapIMchI ochI upAthI ane vizeSa yatnAnuM kAraNa hovAthI sarva munioe grahaNa karI. -u.pR.(41) pAlitANA taLeTInA maMdiro 36

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zrI anupacaMda malakacaMdanuM pAlItANAnA pahADa upara samAdhimaraNa 1. paramakRpALudeva pratye karela samAdhimaraNanI bhAvanA bharUcanA eka anupacaMdabhAI nAmanA vaNika gharmAtmA jIvane paramakRpALudevano pratyakSa yoga thayelo. temane tyAM sAMsArika, vyApArika kAraNe paramakRpALudevane javuM thayeluM. te vakhate temane AtmahitamAM preravA teozrIne vRtti udbhavelI, paNa temanuM pravartana matamatAMtaranA AgrahavALuM jANI, vRtti saMkSepI lIdhelI. pachI temane koI bhAre maMdavADa Avyo ane samAdhimaraNanI bhAvanA jAgI. tyAre koNa mane samAdhimaraNa karAvaze e vicAre temaNe badhe najara nAkhI. paNa koI sAdhu, sAdhvI ke zrAvaka tevA najare temanA gacchamAM jaNAyA nahIM. paraMtu paramakRpALudevanI adabhuta zaktino kaMIka paricaya temane thayelo tethI temane samAdhimaraNa mATe vinaMtI karI. tenA uttaramAM teozrIe eka patra lakhyo che te patrAMka 702 temaja patrAMka 706 e banne patro vAraMvAra vAMcI bane to mukhapATha karavA bhalAmaNa chejI. - bo. bhAga-3 (pR.571) samAdhimaraNanI bhAvanA papU.prabhuzrIjInA hAthe phaLI eka divase zrI anupacaMdabhAI pAlItANAnA gaDha upara caDhatA hatA. te vakhate pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInuM comAsuM pAlItANAmAM hatuM. teozrI gaDha uparathI darzana karI nIce UtaratA hatA. tyAre rastAmAM anupacaMdabhAIne cakkara AvavAthI sAthenA bhAIoe temane suvaDAvI dIdhA. temanI tabiyata asvastha jANI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke paramakRpALudeve jaNAvela vIsa doharA yAda che? tyAre temaNe hA kahI. tyAre 5.pU. prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM - te bolo. anupacaMdabhAI bolyA. pharI bolo, pharI bolo, ema traNavAra bolatA bolatA ja temano deha chUTI gayo. ema paramakRpALadeva pratye karela sAcI samAdhimaraNanI bhAvanA 5.pU. prabhuzrIjInA hAthe saphaLa thaI. 37

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vaDavAmAM pUjA-bhakti saM. 1967nuM cAturmAsa zrI lallujI svAmIe khaMbhAtamAM karyuM. cAturmAsa pUruM thatAM zrI lallujI Adi khaMbhAtanI pAse vaDavA kSetra che tyAM padhAryA. bhAI raNachoDabhAI paNa temanI sAthe ja tyAM rahyAM. vaDavAmAM divase khaMbhAtathI badhA mumukSuo AvatA ane pUjAo susvarathI bhaNAtI. temAM divasano ghaNokharo vakhata jato. bapore eka vakhata AhAra badhA letA. Akho divasa pUjA-bhaktimAM jato. sAMje bhakti karatA ka2tA dariyA kinAre 'sAMje Avazyaka kriyA thaI rahyA pachI zrI lallujI Adi bhaktamaMDaLa koI pada bolatAM bolatAM ke ekAda kaDInI dhUna lagAvatAM ke maMtranI dhUna sahita dariyA kinAre jatuM.' - u.pR. (43) 39

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19 divasa sudhI zrI lallujI hAthamAM pachI ane keDe kopIna mAtra rAkhI "draSTi thirAmAMhe darzana nitye. ratnaprabhAsama jANo re...e guNa rAjataNo na visAruM vahAlA, saMbhAru dinarAta re" Adi aneka pada badalatAM, badalatAM, ullAsabhAvamAM doDatAM kUdatAM, pahADI rAga gAtAM gAtAM e dariyAnI retImAM AkhI rAtri gALatA......

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rAta dahADo bhakti 89 8 . ) . tyAMthI vaDave AvI nityakriyAthI paravArI pAchA pUjAbhaktimAM baghA joDAI jatA. divase paNa UMghavAno avasara maLato nahIM. Ama akhaMDa 19 divasa sughI AMkha mIMcyA vinA zrI lallujI svAmIe rAta-divasa bhaktimAM gALyA.e bhaktinA apUrva veganA udaye aneka AtmAomAM bhaktiraMga draDha thayo." - u.pra.(44).

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pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI pratye zrI ratnarAja svAmIno parama bhaktibhAvo zrI ratnarAja svAmI zrI laghurAja svAmIne lakhe che ke - sAkSAt pratyakSa sajIvanamUrti sadguru bhagavAna zrI paramakRpALu maharSideva svAmIjI mahAprabhu zrI laghurAja svAmIzrInA pavitra caraNakamaLamAM vidhivat sASTAMga daMDavat namaskAra ho! namaskAra ho! ...amAre to Apa sapuruSanA darzana samAgamanI sa icchA sivAya bIjuM koI paNa kArya kalyANakArI kalpAyuM nathI. jyAM rAma tyAM ayodhyA'....jyAM Apa birAjo tyAM amAre to cotho Aro ja che. - u.pR.(50) nahIM banavAnuM nahIM bane, banavuM vyartha na thAya' zrI laghurAja svAmI eka pratyuttaramAM zrI ratnarAja svAmIne jaNAve che ke "dhIrajathI jema banavA yogya haze te banI Avaze. joyA karIzuM, dRSTA tarIke." ekAntavAsanuM AkarSaNa saM.1972nuM comAsu zrI laghurAja svAmInuM jUnAgaDhamAM thayuM. tyAMnA vAtAvaraNa saMbaMdhI lakhe che: "...vanakSetre rAjezrI mukAma, nivRtti yogIone dhyAna ramaNa karavAnI jagA, sahaje vRttimAM AnaMda Upaje, citta TharavAnuM nimitta kAraNa, ekAMtavAsa jagAnuM ghAma, pANI paNa sAruM te badhuM atre anukULa che. upAdhi paNa ochI che." "A kSetra tyAgI, vairAgI, yogI, dhyAnIne padhAravAnA vicArathI agAsa sudhI AvyA. agAsa sTezana sahaja nimitta anukULatAvALuM che." u.pR. (54) upara sAmA AvelA kAviThAnA mumukSuo temane kAviThA laI vaLI upadezAmRta pR.16 upara patrAMka 28mAM junAgaDhathI gayA. tyAM pAMca-sAta divasa rokAI teozrI nAra padhAryA. teozrI jaNAve che ke have carotaramAM bhaktinA yugano udaya thavAno hoya tema aneka navA mumukSuo ekatra thavA lAgyA. nAranA bhAI 1 zraddhAthI pragaTela anaMta zakti parama raNachoDabhAI paNa bhaktimAM kALa gALavA arthe zrI laghurAja ane koI addabhuta vicAro ane Atmika sukha svAmInI sAthe ja ghaNo vakhata rahetA ane navA mumukSu maMDaLane anubhavamAM Ave che te kahI zakAtuM nathI. anaMta zakti che, bhaktimArgamAM joDavAmAM temaNe athAga prayatna AraMbhyo. siddhio che, pUrva bhava paNa jaNAya che, AnaMda AnaMda varte che, sapuruSanA yogabaLanA vistAramAM nimittabhUta buddhibaLa, eka ja zraddhAthI! kahyuM-lakhyuM jatuM nathI. ApanA cittane zAMti vacanabaLa, kAyabaLa, ghanabaLa vagerenI jarUra hoya che tevI tevI thavAno hetu jANI jaNAvyuM che. koIne jaNAvavAnI jarUra nathI. jogavAI have sahaje sahaje sAMpaDavA mAMDI. zAMtiH zAMtiH zAMtiH" -u.pR.(16) eka bhAInA atyaMta AgrahathI zrI laghurAja svAmI jUnAgaDhathI carotaramAM nArathI sImaraDA padhAryA. tyAM thoDA divasa rahI kAviThA dazazrImad laghurAja svAmInuM Agamana paMdara divasa TakyA. tyAM rAta-divasa bhakti thatI. pachI varSAdanI saM.1974mAM nAra, kAviThA vagerenA mumukSuo taraphathI mosama zarU thatAM pAchA nAra padhAryA. ane tyAM zrImad rAjacaMdra carotaramAM paghAravAnI AgrahapUrvaka vinaMtIthI teo nAra maMdiramAM cAturmAsa karyuM. 42

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pa.pu.prabhuzrIjInI vyAdhigrasta sthitinA kA2Ne sthAyI makAnanI jarU2 C zrI maNIbhAI kalyANajIbhAI zrI puMjAbhAI hIrAcaMda pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI zrI kalyANajIbhAI kuMvarajI zrI raNachoDabhAI lakhAbhAI nA2nA ghaNA mumukSuo utsAhavALA hatA tathA muMbaIthI bhAI maNibhAI ghaNI vakhata AvatA ane rahI jatA. bhAI raNachoDabhAI, bhAI bhAIlAlabhAI, bhAI vallabhabhAI, bhAI maNibhAI Adino evo vicAra thayelo ke prabhuzrI (laghurAja svAmI)nI vRddhAvasthA tathA vyAdhigrasta sthiti hovAthI eka parNakuTI jevA sthAyI makAnanI jarUra che. tene mATe sAdhu-samAdhi khAtuM kholI temAM jene 2kama ApavI hoya te Ape tevuM nakkI karyuM. te ja cAturmAsamAM rUpiyA pAMca hajAra jeTalI rakama nAramAM thaI hatI. koI anukULa sthaLe makAna ka2vAnuM paNa bhAI raNachoDabhAI sAthe nakkI thayuM hatuM. dharmano udyota thAya tevI anukULatA vadhAravAnI sAthe prabhuzrIjInuM zarIra vyAdhiothI gherAvA lAgyuM. to paNa te badhAnI darakAra karyA vinA yathAzakti mumukSuomAM dharmapremanI vRddhi kema thatI rahe te mATe vizeSa zrama letA hatA. nAramAM cAra vAra uMdara karaDelo tenuM jhera lohImAM vyApI gayeluM ane e jherI jaMtuo chevaTa sudhI--saM.1992mAM DaoN. ratilAla, amadAvAdanA mumukSu tathA vaDodarAnA mumukSu DaoN. prANalAla bannee lohInI ghaNIvAra tapAsa karI tyAre paNa--lohImAM jaNAyA hatAM. aneka davAo karavA chatAM tAva zarIramAM ghara karIne rahelo. -u.pR. (56, 57) pa.pU. prabhuzrIjI sAkSAt pratyakSa sajIvana mUrti zrI ratnarAja svAmI bhAI zrI raNachoDabhAI Adine saMta sevA saMbaMdhI sUcanA nIcenA patramAM darzAve che - ....teo oliyA puruSa che eTale emane dehabhAna na hoya. eo to mAtra udayAdhIna ceSTAo ja jovArUpa ramatamAM 2matA hoya, paNa te avasare samIpavAsI, ziSyono dharma che ke teonA zarIra-dharmane sAcave. eTalA mATe to zrI sat sanAtana mArgamAM guruziSyano niyoga goThavAyela che, te yogya ja che....Apa je sAkSAt pratyakSa sajIvana mUrtinI sevAbuddhie sevA sAcavo cho te anumodanIya--prazaMsanIya ane anukaraNIya che...... "je sadgurusvarUpanA rAgI, te kahiye kharA vairAgI; je sadgurusvarUpanA bhogI, te kahiye sAcA yogI..4 je sadguru caraNa-anurAgI, te kahiye mahad baDabhAgI; je sadgurucaraNathI aLagA, te thaDa choDI DALe vaLagyA.' 43 -u.pR.(58)

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nA2mAM 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI mumukSu bhAIo sAthe 44

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mani zrI mohanalAlajA 5 5 5 bhazIjA prati zrI lakSmIcaMdajA Adi gastai sama kAviThAnI ghaNI utkRSTa bhakti : kAviThAnA AkhA gAmanA lokono ghaNo Agrahna hovAthI sImaraDethI kAviThA teozrI padhAryA. tyAM paramakRpALu zrImad rAjacaMdra prabhunA dehAtsarganI tithi nimitte saM.1975 caitra vada pAMcamano mahotsava kAviThA thayo hato. temAM lagabhaga be hajAra mANaso bhegA thayA hatA ane maMDapamAM caumukhI karI aMdara paramakRpALudevanI sthApanA karI ghaNI utkRSTa bhakti thaI hatI. prabhuzrIjInI tabiyata divase divase bagaDatI jANI unALAmAM garamI na lAge ane nivRtti maLe te hetuthI kAviThAmAM, khetaramAM ekAMta makAnamAM rahevAnI vyavasthA karI hatI. -u.pR. (58) pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI khetaramAM ekAMta jagyAmAM rahelA te korIyuM, kAviThA sImaraDAmAM apUrva bhakti sImaraDAmAM saM.1975nA paryuSaNanI bhakti saMbaMdhathI zrI raNachoDabhAI, zrI ratnarAja svAmIne patrakArA jaNAve che ke - "ATha divasa to zrI zvetAMbara paryuSaNaparva zrI sImaraDA gAmamAM bahu ja bhaktibhAvathI, rUDI rIte, koI kALe nahIM thayela tevAM zrI paramakRpALu sadguru paramAtmA prabhuzrIjInA parama ullAsathI koI apUrva rIte ke je vANImAM AvI zake nahIM, tevI rIte thayAM chejI, ane paramAtmA prabhuzrIjIe ghaNA kALathI je gupta rIte-jaDabharatanI rItie saMgrahI rAkhela mAdhavano parama parama parama ullAsa AvavAthI ghaNA jIvone satpuruSanA mArganI sanmukhavRSTi dRDhatva thavAthI parama AnaMda thayo chejI....ghaNA jIvone bhakti prasaMge mUrchAo AvI gaI hatI. tenI khumArI ghaNA jIvone hajI sudhI paNa varte che....''-u.pR.(59) 45

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saMdezaramAM zrImad rAjacaMdra janmajayaMtI mahotsava paramakRpALu zrImad rAjacaMdra jayaMtIno mahotsava saM.1976 kArtika suda pUrNimAthI ATha divasa sudhIno saMdezara gAme UjavavAnuM nakkI thayeluM. te prasaMge zrI laghurAja svAmI paNa cAturmAsa pUruM thaye sImaraDAthI saMdezara padhAryA hatA. je parama ullAsa bhAvathI teozrInI hAjarImAM bhakti thaI hatI tenuM varNana bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAInA nAme zrI ratnarAjane lakhI mokalyuM che te nIce pramANe che : vizALa bhaktimaMDapa ....maMDapa vizALa bAMdhavAmAM Avyo hato, jemAM Azare cAreka hajAra mANaso besI zake tevI vyavasthA hatI. vacamAM coka pADI AjubAju pradakSiNA pharavA mATe gelerI jevo bhAga hato. tenI cAre bAju AvanAra manuSyone besavAnI jagA hatI. paTela jIjIbhAInA khetaramAM madhye; A maMDapanI racanA joI ghaNA jIva Azcarya pAmatA. konTesanA tathA tevA ja prakAranA maMDapa bIje baMdhAyA haze te je jIvoe joyelA teo paNa A maMDapa joI cakita thaI jatA ane kahetA ke lAkha rUpiyA kharce to paNa banavA saMbhava nahIM tevo sarasa maMDapa satparuSanI bhakti AtmakalyANa thavA arthe potAnA AtmAnI aMtaradAjhathI bhAva lAvIne kAma karyA che te hajAro mANasanA rojathI banAve chatAM na banI zake tevI rIte raMgArInA riTAnA draSTAMte-evA mumukSu bhAIo Azare pacAseka agAuthI AvI akhaMDa rAtadivasa mahenata laI pU.choTAbhAI vageree bhaktibhAvathI mahenata laI taiyAra karyo hato.....racanA evI thaI hatI ke AgaLa devatAo bhagavAnanAM samavasaraNa racatA hatA ema zAstrathI jANyuM hatuM paNa pratyakSa kevI racanA jovAno avasara sahaje parama kRpALu svAmIjInA yogabaLathI naisargika avasara prApta thayo hato. AtmA, AtmA ane AtmA ja jhaLakI rahyo hato, jJAnI puruSanI draSTie jovAyo chejI. -u.pR.(pa9,60) bagasarAnA eka mumukSubhAI zrI kalyANajI kuMvarajI upara saMdezaranI bhaktimAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno kevo prabhAva paDelo ane zaraNabhAva Upajelo te temanA zabdomAM atre ApIe chIe : pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI Atmazaktino thayela pragaTa anubhava A huMDAvasarpiNI kALa duSama kahyo che je pUrNa duHkhathI bharapUra kahevAya che. tevA kALamAM caturthakALa mAphaka sapuruSanI yogavAI pAmavI e to mahatuM puNyAnubaMdhI puNyane laIne hoya che. evA kALamAM A manuSyadehe parama kRpALudevanA mArganI prApti ane Apa kRpALu, parama kRpALu, dayALu prabhuzrIjIno satsamAgama ene mATe vicAra karatAM apUrva zAMti Upaje che. Apa prabhu to kRpAnA sAgara cho. ane ApazrInI kRpAvaDIe je prakAre AtmasvabhAva samajAyo che, samajAya che ane samajAze te AtmasvabhAvanuM varNana lakhavAnI he prabhu, A bALakane haju azakti che. tenA citrakAra to he prabhu, Apa pote ja cho....saghaLA duHkhamAMthI mukta karavAne ane AtmA arpaNa karavAne he prabhu! Apa pote ja samartha cho. mane ApazrI sAthenA saMyogamAM je je anubhava maLyAM che te anubhava pramANe ApazrImAM je Atmazakti prakAzI nIkaLela jovAmAM AvI che tevI bIje koI sthaLe mane to jovAmAM ke jANavAmAM AvI nathI. ane tethI ja huM mane potAne mahabhAgI mAnuM chuM....anaMta avyAbAdha sukhanuM ghAma bane e zakti he prabhuzrI! ApanAmAM ja je che, tethI A dIna bALakanI tema thavAnI Apa kapALazrI pAse zuddha aMtaHkaraNathI ane zuddha bhAvathI yAcanA che. je prakAranI yAcanA che te prakAranuM dAna ApavA ApazrI sAmarthyavAna cho. mATe e....A bALakane arpaNa karavAne he prabhu! prasanna thAo, prasanna thAo, e ja yAcanA..." -u.pR.(61), aneka mumukSuone pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno prabhAva jaNAyelo. bAkI to "gupta camatkAro sRSTinA lakSamAM nathI." "satparuSanuM yogabaLa jagatanuM kalyANa karo." AvA vAkyo zrImad rAjacaMdra lakhyAM che te zrImad laghurAja svAmInA samAgamamAM AvelA ghaNAkharA mumukSuone sahaja hRdayagata thatAM. prabaLa puNyanA udaye aneka jIvone zrI kalyANajIbhAI aneka prakAre temanuM mAhAbhya bhAsyamAna thAya evA nimitto saheje banI AvatAM. 46

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saMdezaramAM ullAsapUrvaka bhakti : (E) ((G ja' '

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O O saMdezara parama ullA; 22 1121 bhakti vakhate Azare mANasa pAMceka hajAra bheguM thatuM ane AjubAjunAM gAmonI bhagatamaMDaLIo tathA saMdezaramAMthI mahArAjazrI prItamadAsanI maMDaLI rAtanA AvatI hatI. dinapratye paMcakalyANaka, navapadanI tathA cosaTha prakArI pUjAmAMthI tathA zrI AtmasiddhinI pUjA paDhAvavAmAM Avela hatI. vaLI bhaktibhAvanAM pado paNa bhaNavAmAM AvatAM tethI parama AnaMda thayo hato."

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makti mahotsava nimitte garabA unom . mar mAve bhakti-mahotsavanI ujavaNI A con . ' ' che rAtre bairAMo pUra ullAsathI mAthe dIvAvALI mATalIo laI maMDapamAM garabA gAtAM. maMDapamAM gesanI kiTsana lAITa hatI jethI pUra rozanImAM bahu ja - parama ullAsathI bhakti-mahotsava ujavAyo hato..

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zImarU zicaMdraAzramano "svAmIjI iSS

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zIlaghurAja AzramanAmeudabhava bIna, tIrthakSetra saMdezaranA. pUtha bhAIzrI jIjIbhAI kuberadAsane parama ullAsa AvavAthI vIghAM bAraNuM khetara eka phakta svAmIzrIjInA upayoga arthe Azcama baMdhAvavAnA nimitte anAyAse, prerakapaNe naisargika bhAvathI zrI svAmIjI zrI laghurAja Azrama"e nAme arpaNa karela che. te ja vakhate teozrI nA najIkanA kuTuMbI zrImaMta gRhastha bhAIoe hajAra hajAranI rakamo ApI tathA muMbaI, nAra, kAviThA, maMDALA vagere sthaLonA bhAIoe. maLIne kharaDo Azare rUpiyA sattara hajArano te ja vakhate ardhA kalAkamAM kudaratI rIte bharAI gayo hato. haja te saMbaMdhI cAlu chejI. uparanI bInAmAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI niHspRha draSTi bIjuM A che upara bInA jaNAvI. temAM paramopakArI svAmIzrIjInI kAMI draSTi nathI.paNa muMbaI vALA tathA saMdezara vALAonI. samajamAM vicAra hovArtha je temanI icchAe bhaki bhAvathI kAma karyuM che te ApazrIne vidita karyuM ejI..."- u.pR. (60)

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*zrImad laghurAja svAmIno paramArtha puNyodaya have kaMIka adhika prakAzavA lAgyo. parama kRpALudeve temane kaheluM ke "muni, duSamakALa che mATe jaDabharata jevA thaIne vicarajo; riddhi-siddhi pragaTaze tene oLaMgI ja. A kALanA jIvo pAkA cIbhaDA jevA che, kaDakAI sahana karI zake tevA nathI. mATe laghutA dhAraNa karI kalyANamUrti banazo to ghaNA jIvonuM kalyANa tamArA dvArA thaze." Azrama jevAM satsaMgadhAmathI hajAronuM kalyANa e vAtane rAkhI dhyAnamAM aMtaramAM jJAnadazA chatAM jaDabharatavat Aja sudhI te vicaratA. paNa have nAra,tArApura, sImaraDA. kAviThA, Adi aneka sthaLoe riddhi-siddhi pragaTaze, oLaMgI jajo apUrva bhakti rasanI relamachela karatA. jJAnavairAgya vALI adbhuta dazA thI aneka bhavyajanone saddharmano raMga caDhAvavA lAgyA. zrImad jIe paccIsa varSa pahelA zrI laghurAja svAmIne prItamadAsanA kakkAnuM pada hRdayamAM dhAraNa karavA jaNAvela, te pramANe prItamadAsanI nivAsabhUmi saMdezara najIka agAsa sTezana pAse jANe koI daivI saMketarUpe pote pUravegamAM prakAzamAM AvyA. mahAtmAono deha be kAraNane laIne vidyamAnapaNe varte che. prArabdhakarma bhogavavAne arthe, jIvonA kalyANane arthe; tathApi e bannemAM te udAsapaNe udaya AvelI vartanAe varte che.'' tema paramakRpALudeva prabodhita zrI sanAtana jina vItarAga mArganI prabhAvanAmAM potAnA prArabdhakarma pramANe vicarI jIvonA kalyANa arthe sadAya tatpara rahevA lAgyA. tethI e paropakArI saMta ziromaNI mahAtmAnA darzana, samAgama mATe aneka bhavyajano temanI samIpa rahI Atmazreya sAdhavAnI utkaMThAvALA jaNAvA lAgyA. vaLI aneka mumukSujano ema icchavA lAgyA ke have A mahAtmA koI eka sthAne sthiratA karI rahe ane te kAraNe Azrama jevuM koI satsaMgadhAma bane to hajAro gharmecchaka jIvone icchita AtmakalyANano lAbha prApta thAya. vagaDAu muni, AzramanA adhiSTAtA banyA sarvanI AvI utkaTa icchAthI agAsa sTezana pAsenA A Azramano udbhava thayo. te pahelA mukhyatve vagaDAomAM vihAra karatA hovAthI zrI laghurAja svAmI vagaDAu muninA nAme prasiddhi pAmyA hatA. te have agAsa AzramanA adhiSThAtA tarIke prakAzamAM AvyA. ane carotaramAM vagaDAu asaMga aghyAtma vAtAvaraNa UbhuM karI temAM temaNe prANa pUryA. ("pU.zrI brahmacArIjInuM adhuruM evuM jIvanacaritra ahIMthI AgaLanuM AdarathI AraMbhI zrI rAvajIbhAI desAIe pUrNa karela che. para

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sahaja svarUpanI prAptinuM sarvasvakAraNa paramakRpALudeva zrI laghurAja svAmInI chatrachAyA nIce A AzramanI utpatti thaI tethI bhaktajanoe zarUAtamAM AzramanuM nAma "zrImad laghurAja svAmI Azrama' rAkhyuM. paraMtu potAnuM nAma, sthApanA ke citrapaTa sarakhuM paNa na rAkhavAnI icchAvALA kevaLa niHspRha ane parama gurubhakta maharSi zrI laghurAja svAmIe ema sUcavyuM ke potAnA sahajasvarUpanI prAptinuM sarvasva kAraNa te paramakRpALu zrImad rAjacaMdra prabhu che. te sarvanA kalyANanA kAraNa che. mATe temanA pratyupakAra svarUpe A AzramanuM nAma "zrI sanAtana jainadharma zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama' rAkhavuM. tethI temanI icchAnusAra A AzramanuM nAma rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. A Azrama ghIme ghIme vaghatAM vaghatAM Aje eka nAnA gokuLiyA gAma samAna banI gayuM. sarvane AtmadraSTie jovAthI paDela upanAma "prabhuzrI' nAnA, moTA, raMka, rAjA, strI, puruSa, vRddha, yuvAna, sArA, khoTAM Adi paryAyavRSTithI nahIM jotA zrI laghurAja svAmI eka AtmavRSTithI sarvamAM prabhurUpe rahela AtmA jotA ane sarvane prabhu kahIne saMbodhatA. temanAmAM AtmaaizvaryarUpa prabhutA paNa adbhuta rIte prakAzI hovAthI sau koI temane "prabhuzrI' kahIne saMboghavA lAgyA. saM.1976nuM comAsuM prabhuzrIe sanAvaTa karyuM ane saM.1977, 1978 ane 1979nA traNeya comAsAM AzramamAM karyA. saMvata 1980mAM sametazikharanI yAtrArthe jaI pAchA pharatAM te varSanuM comAsuM zrI mANekajI zeThanA AmaMtraNathI pUnAmAM karyuM. pa.pU.prabhuzrInuM mAhAbhya darzAvanAra zrI raNachoDabhAI prabhuzrInA paramapremI, tanamanadhanathI sarva prakAre sevA karanAra tathA AzramanI sthApanAmAM mukhya kAryakartA evA nAranA zrI raNachoDabhAIno puruSArtha prabaLa hato. saMtakRpAthI temano kSayopazama samajAvavAnI zakti tathA prabhAva evA ajaba hatA ke sau koI temanA vacanothI AkarSAI mugdha banI jaI prabhuzrInA caraNo pratye DhaLI paDatA. tethI pota potAnA kuLa saMpradAyane choDI sAcA mArge vaLagyA to kharA paNa zrI raNachoDabhAIne paNa prabhuzrI jevA ja upakArI jJAnI mAnI temano paNa jJAnI jevo ja vinaya karavA lAgyA. zrI raNachoDabhAI 53

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anaMta saMsAra 2jhaLavAnuM kAraNa svaccheda saM.1980nA payurSaNamAM pUnAmAM zrI mANekajI zeThanA makAnamAM keTalAka bhAIoe zrI mohanabhAIne (prabhuzrInA putrane) bolAvI prabhuzrInI gerahAjarImAM temanI gAdI para besavAnuM kahyuM paNa temaNe nA pADI. eTale temaNe temane parANe kheMcIne besADyA ane maMgalAcaraNa karI bhakti karI. te vAta prabhuzrIe jANI eTale bIje divase temano puNyaprakopa prakAzI UThyo : A te zuM kahevAya? zuM svAmInArAyaNanI goDe saMsArIne gAdI upara besADI tene saMnyAsI name evo mArga calAvavo che? mArga Avo haze? anaMta saMsAra rajhaLavAnuM kAraNa AvuM kyAMthI sUjhayuM? tamArAmAMthI paNa koI na bolyuM? e gAdI upara paga kema melAya? ame paNa namaskAra karIne enI AzAe besIe, tyAM Ama svaccheda karIne Ama karavuM ghaTe?..tene parANe dAbIne besADyo emAM eno zo vAMka? paNa koIne nA sUjhayuM ke Ama te thAya?" zarIra sAthenI sagAI nahIM paNa samakita sAthenI sagAI bIje divase stavanamAM jyAre- "thanya te nagarI, ghanya veLA ghaDI, mAtapitA kulavaMza jinesara." ema gavAyuM tyAre pharIthI te prasaMgane lakSIne kahyuM : "emAM zo marma kahyo che? laukika vAtamAM e kaDI samajavAnI che ke alaukika rIte? kulavaMza ane e sagAI badhI te zuM A zarIranI? ema to Akho saMsAra karI ja rahyo che. e to samakita sAthenI sagAInI vAta; ane samakitathI pragaTelA guNa te vaMza. juo, peDhI khoLI kADhI! prabhu, e to enuM yogabaLa che, te e jagAno deva jAgaze tyAre thaze.... jJAna to apUrva vastu che ame to ajJAtapaNe (chUpA) jaDabharata peThe vicaratA hatA. temAM ANe (raNachoDabhAIe) peNuM phoDyuM (prasiddhimAM ApyA) evA kALamAM kaMIka enI sevAbhaktine lIdhe saMtanI AMtaraDI TharI. tenI duvAne lIdhe A je kaMI che te paNa A kALamAM jIravavuM muzkela che... jJAna to apUrva vastu che. (paramakRpALudevanA citrapaTa tarapha AMgaLI karI) ene zaraNe ame to beThA chIe... -u.pR. (64) 54

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saMtanA kahevAthI mAre kRpALadevanI AjJA mAnya che niSpakSapAtapaNe eka AtmahitanI khAtara ame eka vAta jaNAvavA icchIe chIe. temAM nathI amAro svArtha ke nathI koIne avaLo rasto batAvavo ke nathI pUjA-satkAra svIkAravAnI vAta. baghA saMghanI sAkSIe vAta kahIe chIe. je bharI sabhAmAM saMgha AgaLa jUThuM ke chetaravAne bole tenuM zAstramAM mahA pApa varNavyuM che. tevA bobaDA janme che; vAcA baMdha thaI jAya, mUDha paNa thAya. ame je kahIe chIe tenA upara jene vizvAsa hoya te ja UbhA thAya. bIjA bhale potAnI jagAe rahe. paNa ame kahIe tema karavuM hoya to UbhA thaI kRpALudevanA citrapaTa AgaLa hAtha mUke ane kahe ke saMtanA kahevAthI mAre kapALudevanI AjJA mAnya che. -u.pU. (64) paramakRpALudevanI AjJAsahajAtmasvarUpa paramaguru' amane to bhalA ema thayuM ke je vacana amane AtmahitanuM kAraNa thayuM te vacana bIjA paNa sAMbhaLe, zraddhe to kalyANa thAya. tethI tenI AjJA sahajAtmasvarUpa paramaguru" je amArI pAse AvyA temane kRpALunI draSTie kahI saMbhaLAvI. jhera pIo cho jhera. marI jazo. na hoya e rasto paNa aNasamajaNe koIka to popaTalAlane, koIka raNachoDabhAIne ane amane dehadraSTie vaLagI paDyA. jhera pIo cho jhera. marI jazo. na hoya e rasto. zAnI to je che te che. enI draSTie UbhA raho to taravAno kaMIka Aro che. amane mAnavA hoya to mAno, na mAnavA hoya to na mAno; paNa jema che tema kahI devuM che. ame to ghAryuM hatuM ke hamaNAM ja cAle che te cho cAle. vakhata Avye badhuM pheravI nAkhIzuM. kaMI amane phUlahAra, pUjA-satkAra e gamatAM haze? paNa na gamatA ghUMTaDA jANIne utArI jatA. have to chupAvyA vagara khalle kahI daIe chIe ke pajabhakti karavA lAyaka e pALadeva ThA bhale kAkI jA-bhakti karavA lAyaka e kRpALudeva. hA, bhale upakArIno upakAra na bhUlavo. koI meLApI mitranI peThe tenI chabI hoya to vAMdho nathI. paNa pUjA to e citrapaTanI thAya. ThIka thayuM, nahIM to kRpALudevanI sAthe A dehanI mUrti paNa derAsara thAta tyAre mUkI deta. evuM karavAnuM nathI. bAramA guNaThANA sudhI sAghaka, sAghaka ane sAghaka ja rahevAnuM kahyuM che. ADuavaLuM joyuM to marI gayA jANajo. have eke eke ahIM AvI kRpALudevanA citrapaTanI pATa upara hAtha mUkI, "saMtanA kahevAthI kRpALudevanI AjJA mATe mAnya che." ema jenI icchA hoya te kahI jAya. pachI badhA vArApharatI UThI citrapaTa AgaLa prabhuzrInA kahyA pramANe kahIne prabhuzrIne namaskAra karI pAchA beThA. -u.pR. (15) 55

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pUjA-bhakti karavA lAyaka eka kRpALudeva keTalAka navIna jIvo paNa tyAM (pUnAmAM) hatA. temane joIne prasanna vadane prabhuzrI bolyA - "A bhadrika navA jIvo paNa bhegA bhegA lAbha pAmI gayA. koNa jANatuM hatuM? kyAMthI AvI caDhyA! TakI rahe to kAma kADhI nAkhe. ame A kahyuM che te mArga khoTo hoya to tenA ame jAmInadAra chIe. paNa je koI svacchede vartaze ane "Ama nahIM, Ama karI draSTi phera karaze tenA ame javAbadAra nathI. javAbadArI levI sahelI nathI. paNa e mArgamAM bhUla nathI. je koI kRpALudevane mAnaze tene kaMI nahIM to devagati to che ja." ema paryuSaNamAM ATheya divasa sudhI prabhuzrIe satata ekadhArA pravAhathI prabaLa boghadvArA mumukSuonI zraddhA, pakaDa eka parama kRpALudeva upara draDha karAvavA athAga parizrama lIdho ane tyAra pachI paNa eka e ja zraddhA draDha karavA temaNe niraMtara 2 jIvana paryata athAga parizrama lIgho. je jIvo e boghane potAnA AtmAmAM sthira karaze te nikaTabhavI temanI AjJAnA ArAghaka thaI bhavano aMta karaze, emAM saMzaya nathI. paraMtu potAnI matie tethI anyathA karaze to anAdinA paramArthamArganA virAghaka to cAlyA ja Ave che. temAM koI mahAna bhAgyodaye sAcI vAta kahenAra jJAnIno yoga maLyo tyAM paNa temanA bogharahasyane gauNa karI, potAnI matine praghAna karI cAle to te jJAnInI AjJAnA virAghaka banatAM anaMta saMsAra vadhArI de to jJAnInI draSTimAM te dayApAtra ja gaNavA yogya che. -u.pR.(64,65) 56

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zrI DAhyAbhAI desAInuM samAdhima2Na naDiyAdanA zrI DAhyAbhAI desAIe ekavAra AzramamAM prabhuzrI pAse vinaMtIpUrvaka mAgaNI karelI ke prabhu, mArI aMta vakhate saMbhALa lejo. temano aMta samaya jANI prabhuzrI, zeTha zrI jesaMgabhAI sAthe ekAeka savAramAM naDiyAda zrI nAthAbhAI avicaLabhAI desAIne tyAM padhAryA. temane dharmabodha ApI tyAMthI teozrI zrI DAhyAbhAInA ghara tarapha cAlyA. badhA mumukSuo paNa pAchaLa pAchaLa cAlyA. prabhuzrI jyAre zrI DAhyAbhAIne tyAM AvI pahoMcyA tyAre ja badhAne khabara paDI ke A mahAbhAgya mumukSune aMtasamaye samAdhi maraNa sanmukha karAvavA ja teozrI ekAeka ahIM padhAryA che. jyAre prabhuzrI zrI DAhyAbhAInI maraNapathArI pAse padhAryA tyAre zrI DAhyAbhAI bahArathI kaMIka bebhAnavat jaNAtA hatA. paraMtu aMtaramAM temane paramakRpALudevanuM ja raTaNa hatuM. prabhuzrIe pAse AvI 'sahajAtmasvarUpa paramaguru' ema be traNa vAra moTethI maMtra saMbhaLAvI amImaya vRSTi nAkhI. tyAM to te bhAnamAM AvI pathArImAM beThA thaI gayA ane prabhuzrIne jotAM ja AnaMdamAM ullAsamAM roganI vedanAne vIsarI gayA. be hAtha joDI, mastaka namAvI aMtasamaye darzana devA badala AbhAranI bhAvanA darzAvI pAchA sUI jaI prabhuzrInA bodhavacano zravaNa karavAmAM ullAsathI ekAgratApUrvaka lIna thaI gayA. zrI DAhyAbhAIne aMtima upadeza ApatA pa.pU. prabhuzrIjI zrI DAhyAbhAI tyAM prabhuzrIe dehAdhyAsa chUTI AtmasvarUpamAM vRtti tallIna thAya tevo suMdara bodha ekAda kalAka sudhI evI sacoTa rIte karyo ke pAvana AtmA uttarottara zAMta dazA pAmI AnaMda ane ullAsasahita aMtaramagna thato gayo. A pramANe temane apUrva jAgRti ApI samAdhimaraNarUpa apUrva Atmazreya sanmukha karI teozrI bahAra nIkaLyA. tyArapachI tarata ja zrIDAhyAbhAI samAdhipUrvaka dehatyAga karI gayA. te ja divase prabhuzrI naroDA paghArI saMtokabAnuM paNa samAdhimaraNa karAvyuM. 57 m

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apUrva vAtsalyathI papU.prabhuzrIjIe pU.zrI brahmacArIjIne Apela maMtradIkSA saM.1977nI kALI caudazanA divase bAMghaNI gAmanA zrI govardhanadAsa kALIdAsa paTelanA (zrI brahmacArIjInA) jIvanamAM eka maMgala ghaTanA banI. grejyueTa thaI lagabhaga daseka varSathI teo carotara ejyukezana sosAyaTImAM svayaMsevaka tarIke joDAI ANaMdanA dAdAbhAI navarojI vinayamaMdiranA AcAryapada sudhI pahoMcyA. paraMtu emanuM jIvana AtmalakSI hoI temane potAnA AcArane AdarzarUpa banAvavAnI jhaMkhanA jAgI ane jyAM sudhI te siddha na thAya tyAM sudhI AcArya gaNAvuM te temane AtmavaMcanArUpa lAgatuM. jethI AcAryapada temane khUba sAlatuM. dIpotsavInI rajAomAM teo potAne vatana bAMghaNI AvyA hatA. tyAM temanA snehI zrI bhagavAnabhAI dvArA paramakRpALudeva tathA prabhuzrI saMbaMdhI jANavA maLyuM eTale agAsa AzramamAM AvavAnI utkaMThA jAgI. kALI caudazanI vahelI savAre teo banne AzramamAM AvyA. tyAre prabhuzrI rAyaNa nIce birAjelA ane "mULa mArganuM pada bolAtuM hatuM. AvA puruSanI sevAmAM rahevAya to jIvana kRtArtha thAya prabhuzrInA darzanathI ja temane apUrva aMtarazAMti thaI ane svAbhAvika bhAvanA UThI ke AvA puruSanI sevAmAM rahevAya to jIvana kRtArtha thaI jAya. prabhuzrIjIe "mULa mArga" nuM gUDha rahasya temane samajAvyuM. ane "TALI svacchaMda ne pratibaMgha'no artha temane pUchI pote spaSTa samajAvyo. ane apUrva vAtsalyathI temane maMtradIkSA ApI. emanA gayA pachI prabhuzrIjIe temanI sevAmAM rahetA eka bhAIne jaNAvyuM ke "AvuM smaraNa (maMtra) hajI sudhI ame koIneya ApyuM nathI." kALI caudaza jevA siddhi yogadine AvA mahApuruSanA hAthe maMtradIkSA maLe te kevI apUrva ghaTanA! ( 58

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svacchaMda ane pratibaMdha TALI svarUpa bhajavAnI tIvra pIpAsA jJAnIpuruSonI preraNAzakti ati gahana rIte kAma kare che. emanI vANI evI prabaLa hoya che ke te satpAtra vyaktinA jIvanane ekAda zabda ke vAkyathI palaTAvI nAkhe che. te pramANe zrI brahmacArIjIne 'TALI svacchaMda ne pratibaMdha' saMbaMdhI prabhuzrIjIe je upadeza karelo tenI emanA upara evI to chApa paDI ke tyArathI emane svajanAdinA pratibaMdhane TALI prabhuzrIjInI sevAmAM rahI temanI AjJAmAM jIvana gALavAnI tIvra bhAvanA jAgI. te mATe temaNe potAnA moTAbhAIne je patra lakhyo che temAM AjJAnI tIvra pipAsA kevI jAgelI ane pratibaMdhane TALavAnI kevI adamya icchA temane aMtaramAM vartatI hatI te nIcenAM avataraNo uparathI jaNAI Ave che H-- huM gha2bA2 choDI aNagAra thavA IcchuM chuM "huM..... paramArthanI zodhamAM ane tene prApta karavAnA prayatna mATe jIvuM chuM. tene mATe sarvasva arpaNa karIne paNa saMpUrNa unnati sAghI zakAya te mATe taiyAra thavA mAruM citta talapApaDa thaI rahyuM che....kuTuMbane sadAne mATe choDIne AkhI duniyAne kuTuMba gaNI mArA prArabdha upara AdhAra rAkhIne A bhavamAM bAkI rahelA varSo paramakRpALudevanAM caraNakamaLamAM arpaNa karavA tatpara thayo chuM..... brahmacarya vrata laI Adarela satata puruSArtha pachI to temanA moTA bhAInI saMmati maLatAM prabhuzrInI AjJA meLavI te sosAyaTImAMthI mukta thaI saM.1981mAM prabhuzrInI sevAmAM joDAyA. prabhuzrIe temane brahmacarya vrata ApyuM. prabhuzrInI sevAmAM niraMtara rahI temanI saMnidhimAM sUtrazAstronuM adhyayana, manana ane temanA bodhanuM jhIlana, AjJAdhIna vartana e temanAM zvAsozvAsa banI gayAM. prabhuzrInI sUcanAnusAra mumukSuonA patronA javAba, tathA navIna mumukSuone nityaniyama tathA smaraNAdi prabhuzrInI AjJAthI ApatA. te uparAMta vArtAlAponI, upadezanI noMdho, Ru Ah agatyanAM pustakomAMthI noMdho, bhASAMtara, zrImad rAjacaMdra jIvanakaLA jevA pustakonuM sarjana ityAdi pravRttiomAM satata ullAsa ane khaMtathI temaNe avirata parizramathI sevA AdarI. -u.pR. (68) satnA raMgathI lIdhela AjIvana brahmacaryavrata aneka kumArikAone satno evo adbhuta raMga lAgyo ke temaNe AjIvana brahmacaryavrata aMgIkAra karyuM. tema ja aneka yuvAna daMpatIoe paNa bhogathI anAsakta thaI brahmacaryavrata aMgIkAra karI sat sAdhanAmAM jIvana-arpaNatA svIkArI. ema anekAneka brahmavrata vibhUSita thayAM. brahmacArI bhAI baheno AdithI jIvaMta rahela satsaMgadhAma have AzramamAM jIvana arpaNa karanAra brahmacArIo mATe alaga vyavasthA karavAmAM AvI. tevI ja rIte brahmacAriNI baheno mATe paNa AzramamAM alaga nivAsasthAnanI vyavasthA thaI. tema ja bhAvika jijJAsuo vrataniyama dhAraNa karI AzramamAM kAyama rahevA lAgyA. koI koI gRhastha chatAM virakta mumukSuo paNa vrataniyama ghAraNa karI AzramamAM sahakuTuMba rahevA lAgyA. e rIte pacAsa-so mANasa kAyama rahevA lAgyAM ane satsAghanA-tatpara banyAM. tethI Azrama satsaMga ane bhaktinuM jIvaMta dhAma banI gayuM. 59

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bhagavAna mahAvIranA rAjagRhImAM cauda comAsa no. 0010 saM.1981nuM A comAsuM tema ja tyAra pachInA saM.1991 sudhInAM teozrInAM badhA agayAre ya comAsAM AzramamAM ja thayA.

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koNa pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA AzramamAM thI comAsA A pahelAnA 4,1cha3849mAM trA pAnAmAM emilI, kImInA ne voTa zomAsA AyAmamAM thayo che bhaLI teozrInAM kula cauda comAsA AzramamAM thayAM.

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NON CDa karI eka dI 0 AzramamAM banela zrI zvetAMbara bhavya jinAlaya jema jema anuyAyIonI saMkhyA vadhatI cAlI tema tema Azrama paNa vaghatuM cAlyuM. sarvanI icchAthI AzramamAM eka zikharabaMdhI bhavya jinAlaya UbhuM thayuM. temAM zrImadjInAM boghavacano anusAra zvetAMbara-digaMbara pratimAo sthApana karavAmAM AvI. A jinAlayanI pratiSThA saM.1984nA jeTha suda panA divase prabhuzrInI chatrachAyAmAM thaI. u.pU (69) 62

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zrIcaMDha paNa bhagavAna 13 mo aubji|by ramato $55/bam CALEDGE, AmsonmUDHA 6ne noka "anaMta zAMtamUrti evA caMdraprabha svAmIne namo nama:" -zrImad rAjacaMdra 63

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liDDDDDDDSOS paNa tu pa i & III III saphagAme samAna huM arihaMtAu paNa sIjha lAla lAguru caraNAko upAso lAgIrlIna A jinAlayanA bhUmigRhamAM eka gurumaMdira rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. temAM zrImadjInI pratimA tathA eka bAju praNavamaMtra OMkArajInI sthApanA uparokta divase ja karavAmAM AvI. bAjumAM pAdukAjInI sthApanA saM.1982nA Aso suda 15nA divase karavAmAM AvelI. mumukSubhAIonI saMkhyA ane temanI jarUriyAtane pahoMcI vaLavA eka bhavya sabhAmaMDapa ane vyAkhyAnamaMdira bAMdhavAmAM AvyAM. temaja pustakAlaya paNa sthApavAmAM AvyuM. -u.pR. (69) 64

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=== zrImad rAjacaMdra AzramamAM daravAjA uparanI derI daravAjA uparanI derImAM paramakRpALudevanI paMcaghAtunI pratimAnI saM.1988nA mAha suda 10nA divase pratiSThA karavAmAM AvI. u.pR. (69)

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LOL vIra saMvata 2451 kSamA eja mokSano bhavya daravAjo che vikrama saMvata 1981 thI satata A TEIN TUii : : daravAjA uparanI derImAM paramakRpALadevanI paMcadhAtunI pratimAnI se. 1988nA mAha suda 10nA divase pratiSThA karavAmAM AvI. -u.pR. (9)

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zrI rAjamaMdira - 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInuM nivAsa RESI.) 1300 no pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA upadezathI hajAro paramakRpALudevanA anuyAyI have prabhuzrInuM AzramamAM jema jema vaghAre 2hevAnuM thatuM gayuM tema tema teozrInAM darzanano, samAgamano, sadbodhano lAbha jema bane tema vadhAre maLe te icchAe AvanAra jijJAsuonI saMkhyA paNa vadhavA lAgI. ane hajAro mumukSuo temanA boghathI raMgAIne zrImadbhunA bodhavacanomAM rasa lenArA zrIjInA anuyAyIo banyA. teomAM prabhuzrInA jvalaMta boghanA pratApe anero utsAha ane sanAtana sat dharmabhAvanA jAgRta thayAM. -u.pR.(67)

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sthAnA zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama agAsamAM che jaina-jainetarone banAvela bhaktimArganA rasika rASTra) prAye sarvane gharmanI pakaDa bahu draDha hoya che. eTale pote mAnelA gharmanI pakaDa mUkI jJAnIoe boghelA sanAtana ? sagharma pratye zraddhA thavI, pakaDa thavI atyaMta vikaTa che. Ama hovA chatAM jJAnIpuruSanuM mAhAbhya, temanuM yogabaLa paNa , ne evuM aciMtya prabhAvazALI hoya che ke anekane sat gharmano raMga caDAve che. pU.prabhuzrInuM paNa tevuM ja adabhuta sAmarthya vRSTigocara thavA lAgyuM. hajAro jaina-jainetarone temaNe sAcA jaina banAvyA. temane maMtradIkSA ApI, sAta vyasanano | tyAga ane sAta abhakSyano tyAga karAvI vrata pacakhANa ApI sazraddhA sahita bhaktimArganA rasika banAvyAM. -u.pR. (69

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agAsa AzramanA sabhAmaMDapamAM papU.prabhuzrIjInI hAjarImAM svAdhyAya zrI mANekajI zeThane pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno aMtima upadeza saM.1986nA poSa suda 15nA roja zrI mANekajI zeTha AzramamAM AvyA hatA, te jyAre indora jatI vakhate prabhuzrI pAse darzanArthe gayA ane jaNAvyuM ke huM indora jAuM chuM tyAre temanA pUrvanA koI mahad puNyayoge prabhuzrIe temane apUrva bogha karyo. te paNa boghamAM evA tallIna thaI gayA ke gADIno TAIma paNa bhUlI gayA. pachI prabhuzrIe kahyuM ke gADI to gaI! tyAre temanAthI svAbhAvika bolAI javAyuM ke e gADI gaI te to pAchI Avaze, paraMtu A gADI (zarIra) te kaMI pAchI AvavAnI che? tyAra pachI jema koI chellI zikhAmaNa devAtI hoya tevo adabhuta bogha thayo pachI bIjA TAImamAM te indora gayA. mAha vadamAM temanI tabiyata narama thaI. eka mumukSu temanI pAse gayelA temane temaNe kahyuM ke mArI A varSamAM ghAta che tethI dehano bharUso nathI. mATe tAre ahIM rahevuM ane mane niraMtara maMtranuM smaraNa ApyA karavuM. mane bhAna na hoya to paNa tAre mArI pAse besIne smaraNa bolyA ja karavuM. bIjA koI kAmamAM tAre na javuM. paNa smaraNano jApa karyA ja karavo. 70

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zrI mANekajI zeThanuM samAdhimaraNa ha mAha vada sAtamanA divase sagAMsnehIo tathA gAma paragAmanA mumukSuone bolAvIne kSamAyAcanA karI lIdhI. mAha vada AThamanA roja temanI tabiyata vadhAre bagaDI. bapore bAra vAgyA pachI temaNe hAthe lakhIne Azrama para eka tAra mUkyo. temAM pote jaNAvyuM ke A mArI chellI prArthanA che : ApazrInI AziSa ane zaraNuM mane akhaMDa raho. AzramamAM tAra maLatAM prabhuzrIjIe tArathI javAba Apyo ke AtmAne maraNa che ja nahIM, maMtramAM badhuM samAya che mATe maMtranuM dhyAna rAkhazo. ane brahmacArIjI Ave che. tAra pahoMcyo ane pote vAMcyo tethI vizeSa jAgRti AvI, ullAsabhAva vadhI gayo. niraMtara temanI pAse maMtrano jApa karavA rahelA mumukSabhAIe maMtranI dhUna akhaMDa jagAvI ane zrI mANekajI zeThano pavitrAtmA parama jAgRtipUrvaka temAM ja ekAgra thaI samAdhibhAva-sanmukha thaI rAtrinA 11 vAge potAnuM apUrva hita karI dehatyAga karI cAlyo gayo. pUnAmAM prabhuzrIjI zrI mANekajI zeThane tyAM ja comAsuM rahyA hatA. tyArathI temane saMtugharmano raMga caDAvyo hato. te dinapratidina vadhato gayo hato. tana, mana, ghana-sarvasvathI temaNe saMtanI sevA karavAmAM khAmI rAkhI na hatI. temanI saraLatA, sadguru paramakRpALunI AjJAmAM ekaniSThatA, udAratA, laghutA, anukaMpA, vAtsalyatA ane AzramanI unnati mATe sarvasva arpavAnI tatparatA Adi temanA guNo prazaMsanIya che. -u.pR.(70) 71

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zrI rAvajIbhAI koThArInuM samAdhimaraNa saM.1987nA mAgasara vada amAvasanA roja cAra vAge zrI rAvajIbhAI koThArInuM samAdhimaraNa thayuM te AzramamAM koI apUrva banAva banyo hato. maraNanA traNa cAra divasa pahelAM temanI pAse "kSamApanA" prArthanA ane pratikramaNa vagere pApanI mAphI mAgavA mATe dInatvanA "vIsa duhA" tathA AtmajAgRti mATe "Atmasiddhi", "apUrva avasara' vagereno niraMtara svAdhyAya thato hato. bAkInA kALamAM patranuM vAMcana tathA smaraNano jApa rAtadivasa akhaMDa thayA karato. TheTha sudhI jAgRti sArI hatI. parama pUjya prabhuzrIjIno samAgama paNa divasamAM betraNa vakhata vAraMvAra thayA karato hato. jyAre jyAre parama pUjya prabhuzrIjI tyAM paghAre tyAre tyAre temane ullAsamAM Avato ane kahetA ke "vedanInI sAthe meM laDAI mAMDI che. eka bAju vedanInuM jora ane bIjI bAju upayoganI ghArA. te AvI vedanImAM paNa upayoganI ghArA na cUkavA devI tene mATe zrI gajasukumAra Adi mahApuruSonA caraNanuM avalaMbana lauM chuM....' je divase dehatyAga thavAno hato te divase sAMjanA traNa vAgyAnA sumAre pU.munideva zrI mohanalAlajInuM javuM thayuM. te vakhate temanI AMkha mIMcAyelI hatI. thoDI vAre AMkha ughADI ke beThA thaI darzana karyA. sAme tAkAmAM parama kRpALudevanuM citrapaTa hatuM tenA uparano paDado kADhI nakhAvyo ane parama kRpALudevane namaskAra karyA. pachI pU. munidevazrIe jaNAvyuM ke eka A ja puruSanuM zaraNuM sAcuM grahaNa karI rAkhavA yogya che. te puruSanA pratye ja sAcI zraddhA rahyuM A jIvanuM kalyANa che, ema jaNAvI saMthArA saMbaMghI gAthAo bolI cAra zaraNAM ApyAM. pachI pU.zrI sobhAgyabhAI upara parama kRpALudeve lakhelA Akhara vakhatanA patranuM vAMcana karyuM. te vakhate teonI barobara jAgRti hatI. maraNa saMbaMdhI kAMI cihna bahAra AvyuM nahIM. te patramAM temaNe barobara upayoga rAkhyo hato. mArA hRdayamAM dhyAna eka kRpALudevanuM che te patra (kIcasau kanaka jAke, nIcasau narezapada) pUrNa thatAmAM bhAvadayAsAgara parama pUjya prabhuzrI padhAryA. tethI temano AtmA ekadama ullAsamAM Avyo ane parama kRpALudevanI sAme AMgaLI karI tathA parama pUjya prabhuzrInI sAme AMgaLI karI nizAnIthI jaNAvyuM ke Ape jaNAvyA pramANe mAro lakSa che, e sivAya bIjuM mAre kaMI nathI. eTale mArA hRdayamAM dhyAna eka kRpALudevanuM che. parama pUjya prabhuzrIe jaNAvyuM ke te ja rAkhavA yogya che. pachI adhUro patra vaMcAI rahyA pachI parama pUjya prabhuzrIjIe "samAdhi zataka'nI gAthA uparathI aMta vakhatane yogya deha ane AtmAnA bhinnapaNA viSe tathA sahanazIlatA rAkhI himmata nahIM hAravA viSe puruSArtha ane ghIraja preraka apUrva bogha varasAvyo. Ama AtmAne apUrva jAgRti ApIne UThyA eTale zrI ravajIbhAIe temanAM gharmapatnIne jaNAvyuM ke kAMI ajabagajaba thayuM che! eTaluM chelluM bolIne pAMca miniTanI aMdara dehano tyAga karyo. AvuM samAdhimaraNa thavuM te mahatpaSyano udaya samajavo. -u.pR.(71) 7ra

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munizrI mohanalAlajInI adbhuta aMtaradazA AtmA zAzvata che, trikALa raheze munizrI mohanalAlajInI mAMdagI vakhate - munidevazrInI rUmamAM parama kRpALu prabhuzrI padhAryA. munidevazrI pathArImAM beThA hatA ane prabhuzrI sAme khurazI para beThA. "sahajAtmasvarUpa paramaguru" traNa cAra vakhata bolyA. pachI spaSTa ane sAghAraNa moTA uccArathI bolyA "AtmA che', bhinna che, TaMkotkIrNa che, asaMga che, jaDa te jaDa che. cetana te cetana che. koI koI palaTe nahIM, choDI Apa svabhAva, vedanI vedanInA kALe kSaya thAya che. mokSa che. nirjarA ja thAya che. AtmA zAzvata che, trikALa ja raheze. chelle sahajAtma svarUpa traNa cAra vakhata bolI vaMdana karavA padhAryA. - pra.bo.2 (pR.340) saM. 1988nA bhAdrapada mAsamAM munideva zrI mohanalAlajIne maraNAMta vyAdhino udaya Avyo. pa.pU. prabhuzrI vakhatovakhata temanI pAse jatA ane apUrva jAgRti Ave tevo bogha varasAvatA. temane vedanI atyaMta hatI chatAM boghanA aMtara pariNamanathI aMtaramAM zAMtinuM vadana hatuM. pa.pU. prabhuzrIe eka divasa temane jAgRti ApIne bahAra AvIne kahyuM ke Aje muninI aMtaradazA koI ora thaI che. have jo temanuM jIvana Takaze to ghaNA jIvone temanAthI abhuta lAbha thAya tema thayuM che. tyAra pachI ATha divase eTale bhAdrapada suda 6nA roja teozrI samAdhistha thayA. -u.pR.(72) hI) che ne ? munizrImohanalAlajI 73

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amadAvAdamAM dhaNI amadAvAdamAM zrI hIrAlAla zAhanA baMgalAmAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI tathA pU.zrI brahAcArIjI mumukSu bhAI-baheno sArthe dhAmadhUma ane bhaktibhAvapUrvaka citrapaTanI sthApanA. thaI. pachI AhArAdithI paravArI baporanA thoDA mumukSu saha prabhuzrI tarata ja te bhAI zrI paMDitane tyAM gayA. tyAre khabara paDI ke A bhAgyavaMtA bhaNanA uddhAra mATe ja A mahApuruSa ekAeka ahIM AvI pahoMcyA

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pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzananI bhAvanAnuM raTaNa zrIyuta hIrAlAla zAha amadAvAdamAM potAnA navA baMgalAmAM paramakRpALudevanA citrapaTanI sthApanA karavA prabhuzrIne koI koIvAra vinaMtI karatA tyAre prabhuzrI jaNAvatA ke avasare joIzuM. saM.1991nA mAgazara mahInAmAM eka apUrva banAva banyo. DaoNkaTara zAradAbena paMDita ghaNIvAra AzramamAM satsaMga arthe AvatA joI temanA bhAI zrI paMDitane koI pUrva puNyanA udaye ekadama AzramamAM AvavAnI bhAvanA jAgI. zukravAre AzramamAM javAnuM nakkI karyuM. paraMtu bhAI zrI paMDita ekAeka nyumoniyAthI pathArIvaza thaI paDyA. have e mahAtmAnA darzana mane kema karIne thaze? evI ciMtAmAM pathArImAM eka enuM ja raTaNa karavA lAgyA. zrI hIrAlAla zAhanA baMgalAmAM sthApanA nimitte pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInuM Agamana te arasAmAM prabhuzrIe zrI hIrAlAlabhAIne kahyuM : prabhu! A zanivAre tamAre tyAM paramakRpALudevanA citrapaTanI sthApanA mATe javAnuM rAkhIe to? zrI hIrAlAlabhAI harSita thaI saune AmaMtraNa ApI tarata ja amadAvAda gayA. so eka mumukSuo sAthe prabhuzrIjI amadAvAda paghAryA. amadAvAdamAM ghaNI ghAmadhUma ane bhaktibhAvanA pUrvaka citrapaTanI sthApanA thaI. pachI AhArAdithI paravArI baporanA thoDA mumukSusaha prabhuzrI tarata ja te bhAI zrI paMDita ne tyAM gayA. tyAre khabara paDI ke A bhAgyavaMta bhavyanA uddhAra mATe ja A mahApuruSa ekAeka ahIM AvI pahoMcyA che. 76

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zrI paMDitanuM samAdhimaraNa TI, STT zrI paMDitanI pathArI pAse prabhuzrI AvyA tyAre te tAvane kAraNe kaMIka asvastha hatA. paraMtu zrI zAradAbene kahyuM, bhAI, agAsa AzramamAMthI prabhuzrI AvyA che. te sAMbhaLI te bhAI to ghaNA AnaMdamAM AvI gayA ane prabhuzrI pratye atyaMta AbhAranI lAgaNI darzAvatAM hAtha joDI namana karyuM. pachI prabhuzrIe ekaghAro adbhuta bodha varasAvyo. zreNika rAjAnA pUrva bhavanuM draSTAMta kahyuM. pachI kahyuM : zreNika rAjAe bhIlanA bhAvamAM mAtra kAgaDAnuM mAMsa zAnI muni samakSa tyAkhyuM hatuM tethI te tyAMthI bharI deva thaI zreNika thayA ane anaMta saMsAra TALI eka bhavamAM mokSe jaze. jJAnI puruSanI AjJA ArAdhavAnuM aciMtyamAhAbhya jJAnI puruSanI AjJA ArAghavAnuM AvuM aciMtya mAhAbhya sAMbhaLI zrI paMDitane ghaNo ullAsa Avyo ane potAnA AtmahitanI bhAvanA jAgI. eTale prabhuzrIe temane sAte ya vyasanano tyAga karAvyo tathA maMtrasmaraNa ApI deha ane AtmAnA bhinnapaNA viSe bogha Apyo. tethI te ghaNA ja ullAsamAM AvI gayA. ema ekaghAro satata bogha varasAvI, apUrva jAgRti ApI, samAdhimaraNanI sanmukha karI, apUrva AtmahitamAM prerI prabhuzrI pAchA pharyA. ane keTalAka mumukSuone temanI pAse Atmasiddhi Adino svAdhyAya karavA tyAM rAkhyA. temaNe jJAnI puruSanAM vacana temanA kAnamAM satata reDyA ja karyA. tethI te bhAI vyAdhi ke maraNanAM duHkhane bhUlI jaI te bodhavacanomAM ja tallIna thatA gayA ane roga, maraNAdi to zarIramAM ja che, huM to tenAthI bhinna "zuddha, buddha, caitanyaghana, svayaMjyoti sukhadhAma', ema AtmasiddhinI gAthAomAM jaNAvyo tevo chuM. ema mAnI AtmabhAvanAmAM lIna thavA lAgyA. evI uttama bhAvanAmAM te rAtre temano deha chUTI gayo ane te apUrva hita sAdhI gayA.

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AbumAuMTanA "zabarI' baMgalAmAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI tathA pU.zrI brahAcArIjI mumukSuo sAthe AbumAuMTamAM "zrabarI' baMgalAmAM pa.pUprabhuzrIjIno nivAsa saM.1991nA phAgaNa vada pAMcamanA roja prabhuzrI Abu padhAryA. tyAM zrI hIrAlAla zAhe AgaLathI jaI zrabarI' baMgalo taiyAra rAkhyo hato temAM lagabhaga traNeka mAsa rahevAnuM thayuM. 78

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'zrabarI' baMgalAnI bahAra birAjamAna pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI kursI pAse pIMchI laI UbhelA pU.zrI brahmacArIjI. jamaNA paganI sevA karatA zrI jesIMgabhAI borIA tathA DAbA paganI sevA karatA bra.zrI mohanabhAI borIA. bAjumAM hAtha joDI UbhelA zrI jJAnacaMdra nAhaTA. 79

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Abu mAuMTamAM pa.pU.prabhuzrI jI tathA pU.zrI karAra)

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brahAcArIjI mumukSuo sAthe beMkaranA makAnamAM

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Abu mAuMTamAM zabarI baMgalAnI bahAra

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pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI mumukSu bhAI-baheno sAthe

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DuMgaro vigeremAM vicaratA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI, pU.zrI brahmacArIjI tathA mumukSuo tyAM chellA dazeka divasa daramiyAna AbunA pahADa upara judI judI dizAomAM, DuMgaromAM, guphAomAM, jaMgalomAM teozrI nIkaLI paDatA. temanI pAchaLa mumukSu samudAya paNa nIkaLI paDato. pachI tyAM bhaktino apUrva raMga jAmato. 84

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Abu mAuMTamAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI

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vasiSThAzramathI DoLImAM nIce UtaraztA pa.pa.prabhazrIjA "zrabarI' baMgalAnI bahAra beThela pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI mumukSuo sAthe 86

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addharadevImAM birAjamAna pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI mumukSu bhAIo sAthe 87

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' Abu mAuTa upara addharadevImAM birAjamAna pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI

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pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI Abu mAuMTamAM

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agyAra divasa Ahora padhArI caDhAvela dharmaraMga A daramiyAna AhoranA mumukSubhAIonI atyaMta AgrahabharI vinaMtIthI teozrI, zrI hIrAlAla, zrI nAhaTAjI Adi badhA mumukSuo sAthe 11 divasa Ahora padhAryA hatA ane tyAM ghaNA jIvone dharmaraMga caDAvI sanmArga sanmukha karyA hatA. pachI caitra vada bIjanA roja AhorathI Abu pAchA AvI gayA. 5.pU.prabhuzrIjI Aho2mAM ghe2 ghera padharAmaNI ka2tA 90

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pa.u.pa.pURbhuzrIjI A khAuMTakAu mumukSuo sAthe 91

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chAbu kAuMTamAM AvaradInAM AisarA nAnA

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-pa.ka.pa. pU.prabhuzrIjI mumukSu bhAI-baheno sAthe

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- De OOONO. inst OS pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI AbumAM delavADAnAM derAsaromAM aneka vAra jaIne bhakti caityavaMdana Adi karatA delavADAnAM derAsaronuM bahAranuM dRzya 94

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pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInuM acaLagaDhamAM ATha divasa rokANa Til Life acaLagaDhanA maMdiramAM paNa zrI AtmasiddhijInI pUjA bhaNAvI hatI. temaja tyAM prabhuzrI ATheka divasa rahyA hatA. 96

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bhaktino raMga jAmyo anAdarA poInTa eka vAra baghA gayA hatA tyAM bhaktinAM pado bolyA pachI goLa pharatAM pharatAM "mULa mAraga sAMbhaLo jinano re'e pada prabhuzrI pote bolAvatA ane baghAM ya jhIlatAM. ema bhaktino raMga jAmyo hato. bhakti pUrI thaye sahane "maMtra-smaraNa" ke "zuddhatA vicAre dhyAve' enuM raTaNa karatAM karatAM pAchA pharavAnI AjJA thaI hatI. A ja rIte arbudAdevI, sanaseTa paoNInTa, rAmakuMDa upara deDakIzilA, kraoNsa paoNInTa, pAMDava guphA, Trevara sarovara ane vasiSTha Azrama Adi sthaLoe kalAko sudhI bhaktino raMga jAmato ane sarvane abhuta gharmaraMga caDato hato.

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rAjAonuM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI pAse vAraMvAra Agamana prabhuzrInA AbunA nivAsa daramiyAna lImaDI, jasadaNa, sANaMda vagerenA rAjAo tathA bhAvanagaranA divAna paTTaNI vagere zrI hIrAlAla dvArA prabhuzrInuM mAhAtmya sAMbhaLI prabhuzrI pAse vAraMvAra AvatA ane kalAko sudhI bodha sAMbhaLavA besatA. temanA nimitte adbhuta bodhanI vRSTi thatI. lImaDInA ThAkoranI icchAthI zrI 'Atmasiddhi'nA artha paNa prabhuzrIe samajAvyA hatA. ema saune saMtoSa temaja AtmalAbha maLato hato. vasiSThAzramamAM ullAsapUrNa bhakti vasiSTha AzramamAM AtmasiddhinI pUjA cAlatI hatI tyAM prabhuzrI ghaNA ullAsamAM AvI jaI - "koI mAdhava lo, hAMre koI mAdhava lo; mAdhavane maTukImAM ghAlI, gopIjana laTake cAlI. hAMre koI mAdhava lo, acaLa preme mAghava loke ema pote bolI UThyA. pachI bodha karyo : "bhakti to sArI thaI. nirjarA thaI, paNa prema Avyo nathI, prIti thaI nathI. konA upara? eka AtmA upara prema prIti karavAnI che? baghA mukAma upara pAchA pharyA tyAre badhAne pUchyuM : "tyAM zuM joyuM ? zAnI icchA karI? AtmA joyo? koIe AtmA jo? A pramANe traNeka mAsa Abu rahI jeTha vada 8nA roja prabhuzrI tyAMthI siddhapura zrI ratnarAja svAmInA AzramamAM beeka divasa rokAI pachI amadAvAda thaI AzramamAM AvyA. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA utsava nimitte vasiSTha AzramamAM thayela bhaktinuM dRzya 98

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bhakti UcA pachInivAsa sthAna tarapha jatA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI liphTamAMthI bahAra padhAratA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI 100

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paramakRpALudevane sASTAMga daMDavat namaskAra karatAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI agAsa AzramanA sabhAmaMDapamAM upadeza karatA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI 102

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sabhAmaMDapamAM paramakRpALudeva samakSa darzana karatAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI vagere mumukSuo sabhAmaMDapamAM mahArAja zrI guNacaMdajI tathA zrI umedacaMdajIne upadeza ApatA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI 103

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pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno hIrAbhAI sAthe vArtAlApa pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI zAMtisthAnanI agAsI upara pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI sevA ka2tA pU.zrI brahmacArIjI Adi 104

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sabhAmaMDapamAM upadeza ApatA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI munizrI caturalAlajI, munizrI ratnarAjasviAmI, munizrI laghurAjasvAmI, munizrI mohanalAlajI 106

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pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI TelaNa gADImAM birAjamAna pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne pagamAM vAnuM darda hovAthI upara batAvela gADImAM besADI laI jatAM pU.zrI brahmacArIjI. bIjA mumukSuo paNa pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI A pramANenI sevA karatA. pAchaLa Ubhela bALaka nAraNabhAI kazIbhAI paTela che. 107

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mukhya brahmacArI soMpaNI * * * *trad kadara (1) prabhuzrIe sahaja karuNAzIla svabhAve paramakRpALudeve uddhArelA mArgane Azrama dvArA mUrta sthAyI svarUpa ApI dIdheluM. te temanuM kArya jANe pUruM karI jIvanalIlAne saMkelI levA mAgatA hoya tema saM.1992nA caitra vada pAMcamanA pavitra dine mArganI soMpaNI kare cheH "A badhuM AzramakhAtuM che; zeTha, cunIbhAI, maNibhAI -dALa vAMhe DhokaLI. kahevAya nahIM. maNibhAI, zeTha, brahmacArI ghaNA kALe, jo ke zarIra che tyAM sudhI kaMI kahevAnuM nathI. paNa mukhya brahmacArI soMpaNI. (brahmacArIjIne) kRpALudeva AgaLa javuM. pradakSiNA daIne, smaraNa levA Ave to gaMbhIratAe lakSamAM rAkhI lakSa levo, pUchavuM. kapALadevanI AjJAe ne zaraNAe AjJA mAnya karAvavI." tane dharma soMpu chuM' (2) prabhuzrIe pharIthI zrI brahmacArIjIne khAnagImAM paNa A soMpaNI saMbaMdhI jaNAvyuM te prasaMge, "prabhuzrInI vItarAgatA, asaMgatA temanI mukhamudrA AMkha vagerenA pheraphArathI spaSTa tarI AvatI ane jANe te bolatA nathI paNa divya dhvaninA varNananI peThe ApaNe sAMbhaLIe chIe ema lAge : "maMtra Apavo, vIsa doharA, yamaniyama, kSamApanAno pATha, sAta vyasana, sAta abhakSya jaNAvavAM. tane gharma soMpu chuM." (zrI brahmacArIjInI noMghapothI) -u.pR. (77) 108

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ARABAR pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno mRtyu mahotsava KIND ka J vaLI caitra vada chaThanA roja prabhuzrIjI prakAze che :-- "AtmAne mRtyu mahotsava che. eka mRtyu mahotsava che.eka AtmA. bIja kAMI nahIM. teno mahotsava. mRtyu mahotsava. parama kRpALu devanuM zaraNuM che te mAnya che....sau saMpe maLIne rahejo. gurudeva sahajAtmasvarUpa rAjacaMdrajI kRpALudeva kRpALudeve mane kahyuM che te vagara vAta nathI. gurudeva sahajAtmasvarUpa rAjacaMdrajI kRpALu deva che. AtmA che. jema che tema che....eka mRtyu mahotsava. 'thiMga ghaNI mAthe kiyA re kuNa gaMje nara kheTa' bIjo have nathI....enI zraddhA ane pratIti. basa, ANAe ghammo ANAe tavo, muddo e ja. vAta e ja che. bIjI lIdhI nathI. dRSTinI bhUla nathI. je che te che. eka parama kRpALudeva --thAvuM hoya tema thAjo, rUDA rAjane bhajIe.' A pudgala che. AtmA nathI. saMjoga che. saMjogano nAza che. hIrAbhAI jhaverIne paNa levAnA che. coTa che. parama kRpALu devane pakaDelA che. jeno vizvAsa ene mAnya che. je sobhAgabhAIne dhyAna hatuM te ja che virAma pAmuM chuM. virAma pAmuM chuM. khamAvuM chuM. eka AtmA sivAya bIjI vAta nathI. parama kRpALu deve kahyuM hatuM 'munio, A jIvane (prabhuzrIne) samAdhimaraNa sobhAgabhAInI peThe thaze.' je sobhAgabhAIne dhyAna hatuM te ja che. bIjuM kaMI mAnya nathI. bIjuM kaMI samajIe nahIM. parama kRpALu deva mAnya che. pudgalanI athaDAmaNI. rAkhanAM paDIkAM. nAkhI devA yogya che. 110 paramakRpALudevanI dRSTivALAnuM kalyANa badhAya parama kRpALu devanI dRSTivALAnuM kalyANa che. bhAvanA che e moTI vAta che. phUla nahIM ane phUlanI pAMkhaDI. kRpALu devanI dRSTi upara badhA Ave che. saunuM kAma thaI jaze. bIjA lAkho hoya to ya zuM ?'' -u.pR. (78)

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5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA pavitra AtmAe pAmela pa2ma samAdhi madha ma saMvata 1992nA vaizAkha suda AThamanA roja nitya-niyamAnusAra devavaMdana karI aMtevAsIone 'apUrva avasara' bolavAnuM sUcavela. kRpALudevanuM e bhAvanAsiddha pada pUrNa thatAM rAtrinAM 8 kalAke ane 10 miniTe byAzI varSanI vaye e mahApuruSano pavitra AtmA parama samAdhimAM sthita thaI, nAzavaMta dehano tyAga karI paramapada pratye prayANa karI gayo. anaMtazaH abhivaMdana ho e kalyANamUrti prabhuzrInA parama punita padAraviMdane! ane emaNe darzAvela divya zAzvata mokSamArgane ! bhaktisatsaMgadhAma banAvI ka2ela anaMta upakAra prabhuzrIe Ama saM.1976 thI 1992 sudhI AzramanA jIvanaprANa banI tene satsaMga, bhakti ane mokSamArga sAdhanAnuM anupama jIvaMta dharmasthAna banAvyuM ane hajAro mokSAbhilASI bhavyAtmAone sanmArga-sanmukha karI anaMta upakAra karyo. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA upadezAmRta vaDe anekane AtmajAgRti teozrIe saMsAratApathI saMtapta bhavyone ThAravA niSkAraNa karuNAthI prasaMgopAtta je je bodhavRSTi varasAvelI te boghAmRta varSomAMthI samIpavartI mumukSuoe koI koI vAra yatkiMcit yathAzakti jhIlI saMgraha karelo te 'upadezAmRta' nAmanA graMthamAM prasiddhi pAmela che. - u.pR.(75, 76, 77) AvA niSkAma mahAtmAone ati vinamrabhAve punaH punaH abhivaMdana ho! ane temanA aciMtya yogabaLe jagatanuM kalyANa thAo. -u.pR.(79) 111

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5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA pavitra deha samakSa AkhI rAta bhakti-smaraNa 5.3.5.pU.prabhuzrIjInA zarIrane pANI vagerethI svaccha karI, vastra badalI, zrI rAjamaMdiranA nIcenA daravAjAmAM pArthiva dezane padmAsana mudrAmAM birAjamAna karyo. tyAM AkhI rAta bhakti ane smaraNa maMtranI dhUna cAlI. ghaNA sthaLoe khabara karavAthI najIkanA gAmonA loko ekatrita thayA hatA. savAre bhAre medanI saha smazAnayAtrA nIkaLI hatI. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne pAlakhImAM birAjamAna karI smazAnayAtrA AzramanI pradakSiNA daI agnisaMskAra sthaLe pahoMcI hatI. pazcAt caMdananA lAkaDAnI khaDakelI citAmAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA dehane padharAvI vidhi pramANe ghI homI agnisaMskAra karavAmAM Avyo hato. 112

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[O] [O] [O] saMvatuM. 25 kSamAjamolano bhavyadaravAjo che. II (vIkamAM zrImadda rAja pAnanA Per me .123 jIvA, ja ke che " che ) 113 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI smazAnayAtrA

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zrI zaMkarabhAI ajubhAI bhagata AtmA vaiSNava nathI, jaina paNa nathI. kAviThA bIje ja divase kalyANabhAIne laIne umaradazI sItApurI (bra.zrI mohanabhAInA utArA uparathI) bAvAnA maMdiramAM gayo. te vakhate prabhuzrI tyAM maMdiramAM birAjyA nAnI ummare paramArthano lakSa nahIM hatA. amoe jaIne namaskAra karyA tathA teozrIne meM kahyuM ke mane saM.19paramAM kAviThAmAM jhaverazeThane tyAM huM amAruM kalyANa thAya tevuM kaMI batAvo. tyAre ratnarAja mahArAja kRpALadeva paghArelA te vakhatanA darzananI yAdI bolyA e to vaiSNava che, kAraNa mArA kapALe vaiSNavanuM tilaka kharI paNa uMmara nAnI hovAthI samAgamano lAbha hatuM. tyAre prabhuzrI bolyA "AtmA vaiSNava nathI, jaina nathI. levAno kaMI lakSa nahoto. eo saskuruSa pAse AvyA to emanuM bhAvI kalyANa ja che mumukSuonA saMge dharma jijJAsA jAgRta ema kahI mane smaraNa tathA ghaNo bodha Apyo. huM to manamAM ghaNo pachI saM. 1974nI sAlamAM kAviThAnA kalyANajI huM rAjI thayo. pachI kahyuM "A smaraNamaMtra karyA ja karajo, tamAruM mULajIbhAIno tathA lakSmIcaMdajI mahArAja (je kRpALudevanA kAma thaI jaze. te vakhatathI mane aMtaramAM evI coTa thaI gaI ke AjJAMkita sAta muniomAMnA eka) temano samAgama thayo tethI jagatamAM koI kalyANa karanAra sapuruSa hoya to te A ja che, mane gharmanI vizeSa jijJAsA jAgI. evI draDha zraddhA thaI gaI. mAna kone na game. koInA puNyane lIdhe dayA karaze prathama huM vaiSNava gharma pALato, temAM mukhya gaNAto. mane pachI prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM - amo amuka divase nAra javAnA loko zaMkara bhagata kahIne bolAvatA. amArA gharmaguru taINA chIe e jANI amo umaradazIthI kAviThA pAchA AvyA. tyAra gAmanA aDAtarA vANIyA hatA. teo paNa mArA upara bahu prema pachI je divase prabhuzrI nAra paghAravAnA hatA te divase amo rAkhatA. kAraNa maMDaLImAM huM agresara gaNAuM. mArA kahyA pramANe kAviThAthI pacAseka mANaso agAsa sTezana darzana karavA mATe badhA kare, tethI huM paNa eka guru tarIke manAvA lAgyo. mane mAna AvelA. tyAre amone prathamathI ja lakSmIcaMdajI mahArAje cetAvela mIThuM lAgyuM. mAna kone na game? kUtarAne paNa motIo motIo ke tamAre jo kAviThe pahela vahelA lAvavA hoya to badhA ja vinaMtI kahIe to e paNa pUMchaDI halAve. amArA guru paNa mane mAna karavA maMDI paDajo. eTale koInA puNyane lIdhe te dayALu puruSa Ape. kAraNa temane ziSyo taraphathI paisA maLe. AkhA gAme dayA karaze. pahelA prabhuzrI nA pADatA hatA. chatAM bhaktono temanI kaMThI bAMdhI hatI. ujjaDa gAmamAM eraMDo pradhAna tevuM ghaniMga sAmudAyika prema joIne moTA puruSo dayA kare che tema temane hA cAlyuM. ghaNA varSa sudhI tema cAlyuM. pADavI paDI ane kAviThA AvavAnuM nakkI thayuM. kalyANa karavA sadaguruzaraNanI jarUra prema e moTI vastu che pachI saM.1974nI sAlamAM eka vakhate lakSmIcaMdajI mahArAje mane khUba ghamakAvIne kahyuM ke bhagata tAre lokone rAjI prabhuzrIthI calAya nahIM tethI DamaNiyAmAM besI kAviThA karavA che ke tArA AtmAnuM kalyANa karavuM che? meM kahyuM-bApajI, padhAryA. gADI hAMkanAra phulAbhAI bakorabhAI hatA. gADI evI mAre to AtmAnuM kalyANa karavuM che. tyAre mahArAje kahyuM-"AtmAnuM calAve ke jANe mela Trena jAya che. kAviThAnI bhAgoLa pahoMcyA ke kalyANa karavuM hoya to koI sAcA sadagurune zaraNe jAo.' eTale prabhu bolyA-gADI koNa hAMkatuM hatuM? phulA bhagata kahe bApA huM huM bolyo ke evA satparuSa kyAM che? lakSmIcaMdajI mahArAje kahyuM : ' hAMkato hato. prabhuzrI kahe bhAI gADA pAchaLa joyuM to hatuM ke mAMhI 'hAla junAgaDhamAM prakAzapurImAM birAje che." to huM tyAM jAuM? besanAra UlaTI paDyA che ke beThelA che? phulA bhagata kahe bApA, tyAre kahyuM-hamaNAM to nAramAM raNachoDabhAI lakhAbhAI karIne eka premanA vegamAM mane kAMI paNa bhAna rahyuM nahIM. prabhuzrI bolyA jaNa che teno samAgama aThavADiyuM karo. tethI huM tarata nAra gayo. prema e ja moTI vastu che. prema e ja kalyANakartA che. sau saunA temaNe mane ghaNI ja samaja ApI ane prabhuzrIno bagasarAthI : bhAva upara AdhAra che." pachI prabhuzrI apAsare padhAryA. agAsa Avelo patra paNa vaMcAvyo. temAM lakheluM ke amo umaradazI sTezane prabhuzrIne teDavA AvelA te vakhatano dekhAva bahu ja AvavAnA chIe. tyAM aThavADiyuM rahI nAra javAnA chIe. pachI AzcaryakAraka hato. huM paNa teDavA javAmAM sAthe hato. mane paNa huM raNachoDabhAI pAse cAra divasa rahI kAviThA pAcho Avyo. khUba AnaMda thayo hato. 116

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meM divAnA rAjakA, kisIkuM mAra beThuMgA bogha sAMbhaLavA cAra-pAMca divasa rahyA hatA. tyAM rasoI karavA saM. 1974mAM kAviThAmAM prabhuzrI ATha divasa rahyA pachI mATe chagana nAmano nArano chokaro hato. tene prabhuzrIe ekavAra prabhuzrI bolyA have nAra javuM che. eTale kalyANajIbhAI bolyA ke kahyuM - "chagana Aje traNa jaNa AvanAra che." amone koIne khabara nahIM ke koNa AvanAra che. pachI bapore bApA ghorI bhagatanI derIe bhakti karIne jajo, jamavAno TAIma thavA Avyo te ja vakhate nahIM to amo tamone javA dezuM nahI. eTale prabhuzrI kahe "bhale tema karo. pachI bIje divase kAviThAthI zivabA, kaMkubA tathA AzAbhAIno ghorI bhagatanI derI je phulAbhagatanA khetaramAM dIkaro ema traNa jaNa AvyA hatA. A joI taLAva upara bAMdhelI che tyAM baghA gAmanA loko amo ghaNuM Azcarya pAmyA ane navAI jevuM Azare pAMcaso-sAtaso mANasa bhakti karavA lAgavAthI amArI zraddhAmAM vizeSa zraddhA daDha bhegA thayA. prabhuzrI paNa tyAM padhAryA. pote thavAnuM kAraNa banyuM hatuM. kAraNa ke jIvane kaMIka ekAMtamAM jaMgalomAM je bhaktino vega sevelo te camatkAra jevuM lAge eTale zraddhAnuM vizeSa nimitta vegamAMne vegamAM ahIM paNa khUba ajabanI bhakti bane che. karI hatI. temAM eka bhajana evA bhAvanuM AveluM svacchede kare te badhuM jherarUpa kAviThethI jatAM mArI jAte joDelA lagabhaga traNaso "meM dIvAnA rAjakA, muje koI mata kaho; bhajanonuM eka pustaka huM sAthe leto gayo. te bhajano prabhu hara kisIkuM mAra beThuMgA, mujase dUra raho saMbhaLAvIza tethI te rAjI thaze evA bhAvathI laI gayo hato. te e bhajana bolatAM prabhuzrI pIMchI laIne je UbhA thayA ke pustaka prabhuzrInA hAthamAM ApyuM eTale teo bolyA ke "prabhu! te dekhAva joI ghaNA mANasoe bhAgavA mAMDyuM. e adbhuta A pustaka koNe banAvyuM che?" meM kahyuM bApA e bhajano meM mArI dazA kyAMya joI zakAya nahIM tevI hatI. eTale lakSmIcaMdajI mahArAja jAte joDIne banAvyA che. te sAMbhaLI thoDIvAra mauna rahyA pachI kahe koI mANasa gabharAzo nahIM. e to bhaktino vega che, emAM ja bolyA ke "prabhu! jhera pIo cho jhera. kAraNa moTA puruSonA ApaNuM kalyANa che. puruSonuM yogabaLa ja jagatanuM kalyANa kare vacano laI tenI corI karI potAnuM mAna poSo cho. te kyAre che. pachI baghA zAMta thaI besI rahyA. chUTavAno Aro Avaze. potAne to AtmAnI khabara nathI, ne pote paNa bhaktimAM joDAI gayA koI satparuSanI AjJA paNa maLI nathI ke tamo bhajanonA pado racajo. potAnA svacchede karo cho te jherarUpa che. ciMtAmaNI have e ja gAmanA nizALanA mAstara aMbAlAla taLazI jevo manuSya deha che, ane AvAmAM khoTI thAo cho, tenA bhAIe chokarA baghA tyAM AvelA jANI temane bolAvavA mATe karatAM eka satyu je smaraNa bhajana ApyA hoya te laI maMDI tyAM AvyA. paNa A drazya joI Azcarya pAmyA ane A koI paDe to jIvanuM kalyANa thAya. A to UlaTuM baMdhananuM kAraNa sAcA sapuruSa che ema jANI chokarAone bolAvavAnuM bhUlI Ubhu karyuM che', evI rItano ghaNo bogha te nimitte amone Apyo. jaI pote paNa bhaktimAM joDAI gayA. teone paNa acaLa zraddhA thaI ke moTA puruSo je kahe te ja satya che. svacchaMda zekANo te ghaNuM ja sAruM thayuM pachI e pustaka prabhuzrI pAsethI laI tenA jINA jINA camatkArathI zraddhAmAM vRddhi TukaDA karIne eka khADAmAM dATI Avyo. tyAre kalyANajIbhAIe pachI bIje divase nAra javAnA hovAthI ghaNA mumukSu prabhuzrIne kahyuM ke bApA bhagatajIe to temanA racelAM padonuM je bhAI baheno temane vaLAvA mATe bhAgoLe bhegA thayA. thoDe sudhI pustaka hatuM te phADI nAkhI khADAmAM dATI dIdhuM. tyAre prabhuzrI kahe jaI pAchA AvyA. lagabhaga pacIseka mANasa temanI joDe gayA "ghaNuM ja sAruM thayuM che kAraNa teno svachaMda rokANo ane hatA. saM.1974nuM comAsuM prabhuzrIe nAramAM karyuM. moTA puruSo : saTuruSanI thatI AzAtanA paNa TaLI gaI. e pustaka hota to dayALu hoya che. prabhuzrInA nimitte ghaNA loko Ave te bojo : bIjA jIvo mithyAtvane poSata. te mithyAtva aTakyuM'. tevI ekalA bhAI raNachoDabhAI upara paDato jANI comAsA pachI rItano ghaNo bogha karyo hato. tyAM cAra divasa rahI amo pAchA prabhuzrI tArApura gayA. tyAM amo darzana karavA gayA tyAre prabhuzrIno : kAviThe AvyA hatA. 118

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acAnaka kAraNe kAviThA javAno nirNaya saM.1975mAM tArApurathI UThI prabhuzrI phAgaNa caitramAM sImaraDA AvyA. tyAre motI bhagate ghaNI vinaMtI karI prabhuzrIne bAvA prAgadAsanA maMdiramAM rAkhyA. eka divasa eka mumukSubhAI kAviThethI darzana karavA sImaraDe AvyA ane prabhuzrIne kAviThA laI javA ghaNI vinaMtI karI. prabhuzrI kahe "amAre thoDA divasa ahIM rahevA vicAra che, pachIthI joI laIzuM.' eTale te mumukSu pAchA gayA. paNa bIje ja divase evuM banyuM ke bAvA prAgadAsanA maMdiramAM jyAM prabhuzrI utaryA hatA te ja bAvAnA guru mahAtama rAmanA dehotsarganI nidhi ujavavAnI hovAthI bAvAe mAMDavo ropavA mAMDayo ane kahyuM bhakto Avaze, bhakti bhajana karaze, jamaNavAra thaze mATe mAMDavo bAMdhIe chIe. te uparathI prabhuzrIe vicAra karyo ke A acAnaka kAraNa AvI paDyuM mATe ApaNe kAviThA javuM, tethI dalapatabhAI sAthe bIje divase kAviThA jaI ThAkorIyAmAM prabhuzrIno nivAsa ThAkorIyA nAmanA khetaramAM be oraDI bAMdhelI hatI temAM bArobAra utAro karyo. AvezamAM jIva zuM bole tenuM bhAna nathI kAviThAnA lokone khabara paDatAM darzana karavA AvyA. tema pelA mumukSubhAI paNa AvyA ane prabhuzrIne joI khijAIne bolyA : mahArAja kAle meM kahyuM tyAre tamo kema na AvyA ane Aje chokarAnA teDyA Avo cho. tamoe mAruM apamAna karyuM mArA sATha varSa pANImAM nAkhyA. prabhuzrI tenuM kAraNa jaNAvatA hatA paNa sAMbhaLyA vagara AvezamAM AvI Thapako Apyo ane be vacana bIjA paNa kahyA haze. kAraNa AvezamAM jIva zuM bole che tenuM tene bhAna paNa rahetuM nathI. te vakhate bAMdhaNInA pATIdAra bhagavAnadAsa hatA jemaNe sImaraDAmAM paMpa mUkelo ane prabhuzrInA bodhathI raMgAyelA hatA. te prabhuzrI joDe kAviThA AvyA hatA. te bhAIthI A vacano sAMbhaLIne sahana thayA nahIM. tethI jarA tapI gayA ane kahevA lAgyA. tyAre phulAbhAI, kalyANajIbhAI ane huM vagere daza paMdara mAtraso beThA hatA temaNe paNa prabhuzrIne Thapako ApanAra mumukSune kahyuM tame cAlyA jAo, nahIM to A mANasa tamArI ijjata leze. kAraNa A mANasathI tamArA vacano sahana thatA nathI. tethI te cAlyA gayA hatA. jANe kaMI thayuM ja nathI evo zAMtabhAva prabhuzrIe zAMtapaNe badhuM sAMbhaLyA karyuM; eka zabda paNa uccAryo ke aMtara dubhAyuM hoya tevuM koI cihna amane jaLAyuM nahIM ane jANe kaMI ja thayuM nathI tema zAMtabhAvamAM ja birAjelA hatA. potAne dayAnI lAgaNI sAmA jIva upara paNI hoya paNa zuM karI zake? jevo jIvano karma udaya hoya tema thAya che. pachI ame prabhuzrIne pUchyuM ke A bhagavAnadAse te bhAInA sAme krotha karyo to tenuM phaLa zuM? eTale prabhuzrI bolyA ke 'te gharmanI lAgaNIthI bolyA hatA tethI eNe dharmanI rakSA karI kahevAya. kAraNa jo na bolyA hota to te bhAI vadhAre bolI karma bAMdhata, tene aTakAvyA che. chatI zaktie jo dharmanI rakSA na kare to pApa lAge evuM zAstravacana che.' lagabhaga be hajAra mANasonI bhaktimAM hAjarI pachI kAviThAmAM kapALudevanI tithi caitra vadI panA nimitte ATha divasa sudhI khetaramAM mAMDavo bAMdhI ghaNI dhAmadhUma sAthe utkRSTa bhakti thaI hatI. bahAragAmanA muMbaI, maMDALA, amadAvAda, naroDA, nAra, sImaraDA Adi ghaNA gAmanA tathA kAviThAnA maLI lagabhaga be hajAreka mANaso bhaktimAM bhegA thayA hatA. pachI comAsAno kALa AvavAthI motI bhagata ane bhagavAnadAsanA AgrahathI prabhuzrIe saM.1975nuM comAsuM sImaraDA karyuM hatuM. je jANe te mANe te comAsAmAM sImaraDAmAM paryuSaNa upara je ATha divasa bhakti prabhuzrInI hAjarImAM thaI hatI tenuM varNana koNa karI zake tema che! te bhakti to koI judA ja rUpamAM thaI hatI. ghaNA mANasone potAnA dehanuM jANe bhAna paNa na hoya, tevA gAMDA jevA thaI jatA. temAMnA je mANaso che teone pUchatAM paNa te bhaktinuM amo zuM varNana karIe! ema kahe che. gopIone kRSNa paramAtmA upara kevo prema hato te bIjA jIvone kema kahI zake? tema A bhaktino raMga bIjAne te kevI rIte kahe ? e to je jANe te jANe che ane je jANe che te ja mANe che ema thayuM hatuM. te paryuSaNamAM lagabhaga pAMcaso sAtaso mANaso bhegAM thayA hatAM. miyAMgAmavALA cunIlAla dharmacaMda, bagasarAvALA kalyANajIbhAI tathA temanA dIkarA maNibhAI Adi tathA bIjA maMDALA,surata, amadAvAda, naroDA, kAviThA, saMdezara Adi ghaNA gAmonA loko tyAM bhaktimAM AvyA hatA. Avo Azcaryajanaka bhaktino dekhAva joI sImaraDAvALA loko kahetA ke AvI bhakti to ame koI divasa joI nathI. sImaraDA gAmanA loko vaiSNava saMpradAyanA hatA. bhakti paNa roja karatA hatA. chatAM AvI alaukika bhakti to pahelI vAra joIne ghaNA mANaso A bhaktimAM joDAyA hatAM. 119

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jyAM rAma tyAM ayodhyA, jyAM prabhuzrI tyAM bhakti : pU.prabhuzrIne kahyuM : bApA! mAre maMtra levo che. pU.prabhuzrI ochuM sAMbhaLatA. pAse pU.zrI brahmacArIjI UbhA hatA. temane pUchyuM Aso vadI 1, je "A chokaro zuM kahe che?"pUjyazrI kahe "e maMtra mAMge che." Atmasiddhi zAstrano jAo, samajAvIne maMtra Apo" tyArathI huM niyamita bhakti tathA prabhuzrIno janma divasa che. te divasa paNa ghaNA ghAmadhUmathI uja pachI huM zaMkara bhagatathI pU.prabhuzrInI vAto sAMbhaLI ghaNo vAyo hato. ema AkhuM prabhAvita thayo. teonI keTalIka vigato ahIM raju karuM chuM - pahelAM zaMkara bhagata potAnA joDelA bhajano gAme gAma comAsuM sImaraDAmAM gAya ane kathA kIrtana kare. tethI temane ghaNA ziSyo thayA. bhagatane to jANe jyAM rAma tyAM ayodhyA tema jyAM paNa mAnano AnaMda Avato. prabhuzrI tyAM bhakti ema bhagata tamane jJAna thayuM che? thayuM hatuM. pa.pU. prabhuzrI temane maLyA pachI pUchyuM: "bhagata tame zuM mArI mAnatA karAvuM to mArA verI huM pote ja karo cho?" bhagata kahe ame amArA mANaso AgaLa bhajana eka vakhata prabhuzrI bIjA daza paMdara mumukSu sAthe bhaktimAM 6 karIe, kathA karIe. pa.pU.prabhuzrI kahe "bhagata eka bhajana bolo beThA hatA tyAre mane kahyuM ke "tamAre gharma dalAlI karavI, ahaMkAra joIe eTale te vakhate eka paNa bhajana bolAyuM nahIM." mUkIne'. tethI ghaNA jIvone lAbhanuM kAraNa thaze. te huM hAla pratyakSa pa.pU.prabhuzrIe pUchyuM : "bhagata tamane jJAna thayuM che?" dekhuM chuM. paNa temAM mAruM DahApaNa ke mArI mAnatA karAvuM to mAro zaMkara bhagata kahe : nA, jI. pU.prabhuzrI kahe - "tamane zAna thayuM nathI ane ziSyo gaLe vaLagADyA che to tamArI zI verI huM pote ja thAuM, evo ghaNo ja sUkSma upayoga rAkhI kRpALudeva gati thaze? badhA Dhorane ghare pahoMcADyA pachI ja govALane saMbaMdhI tathA prabhuzrI saMbaMthI vAta karuM chuM. kAraNa huM paNa chUTavAno potAne ghera javAya." kAmI chuM. huM tamAro guru nahIM ane tame mArA celA nahIM zrI maganabhAI zaMkarabhAI paTela zaMkara bhagatane te vakhate ghaNo ja pastAvo thayo. meM ghaNuM suNAva khoTuM karyuM che. ema manamAM thayuM. tyAre pU.prabhuzrI kahe - "chUTavuM che? suNAvamAM prathama darzana chUTavuM hoya to ziSyone jaI kaho ke huM tamAro guru nahIM ane huM ATha varSanI uMmarano hato tyAre pU.prabhuzrIjI laghurAja ! tame mArA celA nahIM. tamAre janmamaraNathI chUTavuM hoya, mukti svAmI suNAva paghArelA. te vakhate teozrInA prathama darzana ane meLavavI hoya to AtmajJAna pAmelA evA koI satparuSanuM thayelA. pachI cauda varSanI uMmare "zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama' agAsa : zaraNuM lo.' gayo. tyAre pU.zrI brahmacArIjInA prathamavAra darzana thayA. ane pachI pU.prabhuzrInA kahyA pramANe zaMkara bhagata potAnA pU.zrI laghurAja svAmInA paNa darzana thayA hatAM. aDhAra varSanI : ziSyone gAmaDe gAmaDe jaI kahI AvyA ane chUTI gayA. pachI uMmare mane manaharabhAI mAstaranA saMgathI paramakRpALudeva zrImad agAsa AzramamAM AvIne rahevA lAgyA. bhaktimAM mokSamALAnA rAjacaMdra viSe vadhu jANavAnuM maLyuM ane rasa jAgyo. kaMThastha karelA pATho bolatA. teno raNako haju kAnamAM gUMje che. temano avAja pahADI ane surIlo hato. jAo, samajAvIne maMtra Apo' pU.zrI brahmacArIjInA kahevAthI gharmanI ogaNIsa varSanI uMmare huM agAsa : dalAlI karavA surata jillAmAM teo jatAM. AzramamAM gayo tyAre mane maMtra levAnI icchA temanA satsaMgathI ghaNAne sAcA mArgano raMga thaI. tethI ophIsamAMthI tattvajJAna kharIdI lAgyo hato. temaNe ghaNAne pU.zrI lAvyo ane pU.prabhuzrI pAse pahoMcyo. : brahmacArIjI pAse maMtra smaraNa apAvyA suNAvanA be mumukSuo mArI sAthe hatA. meM hatAM. zrI zaMkarabhAI bhagata 120

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zrI motIbhAI bhagatajI sImaraDA (zrI AzAbhAI IzvarabhAIe temanA viSe jaNAvela vigato) kahevAtA saMtonA saMgathI saMtoSa nahIM pU. motIbhAI bhagatajI nAnI vayathI vairAgyavAna hatA. temanA hRdayamAM koI sadguru zodhI temanI pAse rahI bhakti karIe to bhagavAna maLe evI bhAvanA hatI. teo sadAcaraNI ane koI pApa na sevAya tenI pUrI kALajI rAkhanAra vyakti hatA. be vakhata ghara choDI gurunI zodhamAM nAsI gayelA paNa kuTuMbIo temane zodhI lAvyA. gAmamAM AvanAra ghaNA saMta mahAtmAono saMga kare, upadeza sAMbhaLe, dharma carcA kare paNa saMtoSa thAya nahIM; teomAM kaMIka uNapa ja jaNAya. pAchaLa beThelAno ekaDo bharI lIdho eka divasa sAMbhaLyuM ke kAviThAmAM koI mahAtmA AvyA che ane temanI vANI sAMbhaLavA jevI che. tethI pitarAI bhAI kAzIbhAI trIkamabhAIne laI kAviThA AvyA. tyAM upAzrayamAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno svAdhyAya cAlato hato. tyAM jaI pAchaLa beThA. svAdhyAya pUro thaye kAviThAvALA zaMkara bhagatane pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM 'sImaraDAvALo chokaro pAchaLa beThelo teno ekaDo ame bharI lIdho che.' have ghare jatAM motI bhagatajIne ema thayuM ke jene huM varSothI zodhato hato te mahAtmA mane Aje maLI gayA. thoDA ja divasomAM potAnA ekAda varSanA chokarAne paNa mUkI daI pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInI sevAmAM AjIvana brahmacarya vrata laI joDAI gayA. pachI prabhuzrIjInA kahevAthI zrI mathurabhAI jIvAbhAIe temanA putra vagerenI baghI saMbhALa rAkhI hatI. tamAre mArgAnusA2I jovo che? tArApuramAM bhakti vAMcana vakhate narasiMha mahetA, mIrAMbAI vagere mArgAnusArI puruSonI vAta AvI tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM tamAre mArgAnusArI jovo che? tyAre mumukSue kahyuM hove prabhu. te ja vakhate pU.bhagatajIne batAvIne pU.prabhuzrIe kahyuM - 'juo A mArgAnusArI.' - zrI motIbhAI bhagatajI AkAzamAMthI UDato deva Ave to paNa mAnIza nahIM ekavAra bhagatajI kahe-prabhuzrIjIe mane kaheluM ke 'bhagataDA! ame to enA nAmanA balaiyA paheryAM che. tuM paNa enA nAmanA paheraje, paNa satI jevA paheraje; zaMkhaNI jevA nahIM. AkAzamAMthI UDato deva Ave to paNa mAnIza nahIM. eka paramakRpALudevane ja guru mAnaje. A kALamAM e sAcA puruSa che.' 123

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sImaraDAnI apUrva bhakti - che _ TT saMvata 1975nuM comAsuM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe sImaraDAmAM kareluM. te vakhate pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno utAro mahAtamarAmanA maMdira pAchaLa Avela makAnamAM rAkhavAmAM Avyo hato. A varSanA paryuSaNanI nava divasanI bhakti sImaraDA gAmanI bhAgoLe Avela pATIdAra vADI ke jene gharmazALA kahe che temAM vacce cokamAM maMDapa bAMdhI karavAmAM AvI hatI. te bhakti adbhuta rIte thaI hatI. bhaktimAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI UbhA thaI bhAvollAsamAM pIMchI UMcI karI "meM dIvAnA rAjakA.... ke koI mAghava lo, mAghava lo' bolI evI bhakti kare ke te bhaktinA rasamAM mumukSuo bebhAna thaI jAya. temane upADI sAme Avela mahAtamarAmanA maMdiramAM laI jaI suvADI paMkhA nAkhe, pANI chAMTe ke pharI bhAnamAM AvI jaI bhaktimAM joDAI jAya. jyAM bhagavAna ja sAkSAt bhakti karAve e bhaktinuM varNana ApaNA jevA pAmara zuM karI zake? te samaye paramakRpALudevanI bhaktino ghaNAne adabhuta raMga lAgyo hato. zrI jesaMgabhAI zeTha, bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAI vagere mumukSuo paNa te bhaktimAM hAjara hatA. 124

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AzAtanAnuM phaLa AkaruM Ave gAmamAM AgevAna kahevAtA cAra mANaso gharmazALA bahAra besI kAyama TIkA kare ke A jaina bAvAnI pIMchImAM maMtra che. e pIMchI UMcI karI nAce ke badhA gAMDA thaI nAcavA mAMDe. A paramapuruSanI AzAtanAnuM je phaLa emane A bhavamAM AvyuM te kahyuM jAya tema nathI ane AgaLa zuM thaze te to bhagavAna ja jANe. AvaData vagaranuM uMTavaidu pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA hAthe bhagatajIe mUkAvyo. sthApanA thayA pachI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne nAra ane tArApuramAM traNa-cAra vAra bahAra AvIne pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : "bhagataDA! teM amArA uMdara karaDelo. tenuM jhera zarIramAM rahetuM hovAthI temanI zArIrika citrapaTanI sthApanA amArA hAthe ja karAvI." sthiti sArI rahetI nahotI. ekavAra AkaDAnA mULa ghasI teno te beya citrapaTonI sImaraDA maMdira banatAM temAM vidhivata rasa khUba pAvatA uTavaidu thaI gayuM. ane tenuM jhera caDhatA lagabhaga sthApanA karAyelI che. teo bebhAna jevA thaI gayA. ApaNA sadbhAgye 5.pU.prabhuzrIjInA A uMmare yAtrA hoya kahevAthI ghI pAvavAthI ghIme ghIme temane sAruM thaI gayuM. saM. 1980mAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI sametazikharajInI kaMkunA pagalA Adi darzanArthe yAtrAe gayA hatA. tyAM eka divasa temaNe kahyuM : "A uMmare pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe sImaraDAmAM kaMkumAM paga boLI kapaDA amAre yAtrA karavAnI hoya, paNa kALAMtare tIrtho nirjIva thayA upara pagalA pADI ApelA. te pahelAM pU.bhagatajI pAse hatA. have hoya te sajIvana thAya ane darzanArthe AvatA loko lAbha pAme te arthe udayAhIna AvavAnuM bane che.' e mATInA tagArAM noya paNa sonAnA che pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInuM comAsuM pUnA hatuM. bhagatajI pUnA gayA tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe pUchyuM AzramamAM atyAre zuM cAle che? bhagatajIe kahyuM gurumaMdira mATe bhoMyarAnuM khodakAma cAle che ane mumukSuo jAte khodIne mATInA tagArA bharI bharIne bAhara kADhe che. tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM "bhoLA, e mATInA tagArAM noya e to sonAnAM tagArAM che." pAMcame bhave mokSa ane 83 varSanuM AyuSya eka vakhata hAthamAM lAkaDI laI pharatA pharatA te sImaraDA maMdiramAM rAkhavAmAM AvelA che. tenI sAthe pa.pU. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI jyAM pU.bhagatajI beThA hatA tyAM AvyA ane kahe prabhuzrIjInI pAvaDIo tathA temanI dADha ane locanA vALa paNa "alyA kuMbhAranI mAphaka manamAM judA judA ghATa ghaDe ane bhAMge darzanArthe mUkavAmAM Avela che. che." pU.bhagatajI kahe mane prabhu ciMtA thAya che ke mAro mokSa thaze ke nahIM? tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI kahe "tAre mAthe amArA jevA beThA bhagataDA amArI sthApanA amArA hAthe ja chIe ane tane mokSanI ciMtA thAya che? bhoLA, ciMtA nA saMvata 1976nA kArataka suda 15 devadivALInA divase karIza. pAMcame bhave tAro mokSa che. ane 83 varSanuM tAruM pU.bhagatajInA makAnamAM nIce paramakRpALudevanA padmAsana mudrAnA AyuSya che." citrapaTanI sthApanA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe karelI. te paramakRpALudevanA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA kathanAnusAra 83 varSanI uMmare citrapaTanI bAjumAM ja pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno citrapaTa paNa bhagatajIno deha agAsa AzramamAM samAghipUrvaka chUTyo hato. 125

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prabhuzrInI kRpAe zIghra yAda thaI gayuM prabhuzrIe mane kahyuM 'maMtra bole che ?' meM kahyuM hA, boluM chuM. 'have tattvajJAnamAMthI thoDuM ghaNuM vAMca. A vIsa doharA moDhe karaje.' meM kahyuM A bAMdhaNInA mAstare kavitA moDhe karavA kahyuM tyAre traNa divase eka lITI mAMDa moDhe thaI. to vIza doharA mArAthI kema thaze? prabhuzrI kahe - 'jA thaze.' eTale ghare jaI eka vakhata tattvajJAnamAMthI bolI gayo ne moDhe thaI gayA. bIjA divase darzana karavA jatAM prabhuzrIe pUchyuM 'moDhe thayA?' meM kahyuM hA. to kahe 'bola'. huM bolI gayo. pachI kahe 'dararoja bolaje.' bAra mahinA pachI kSamApanAno pATha Apyo. A prabhu mArAthI thaze? to kahe 'thaze'. sAMje ghera jaI tattvajJAnamAMthI joIne bolyo. te paNa turata thaI gayo. mane kahyuM 'maMtra, vIza doharA ane kSamApanAno pATha e traNeya roja bolavA. AgaLa badhuMya AvaDaze.' ahIMthI borIA ghare jaI ane AvuM tyAre maMtra bolyA karato hato. zrI rAjamaMdiramAM pU.prabhuzrIjInuM nivAsasthAna sabhAmaMDapa nIce cAlato bhaktikrama zrI umedabhAI hIrAbhAI borIA sAcA guru joItA hatA te maLI gayA saMvata 1975nA caitra sudI 15nA roja kAviThA mahuDI kSetramAM mane prabhuzrInA prathama darzana thayA. tyArabAda saM.1976mAM prabhuzrI saMdezara kArataka sudI 15nA roja AvyA. tyAM huM sAMje jato hato. mArA bApujI hIrAbhAI tathA jesIMgabhAI tathA bra.mohanabhAI saMdezara jatAM rastAmAM traNeya jaNA vicAra karI dararoja navuM navuM dhAre ane te dhAreluM ja tyAM vAMcanamAM Ave eTale teone mahArAja sAcA lAgyA. ane prabhuzrI pratye pAkI zraddhA thaI. teo sAcA gurunI zodhamAM hatA te temane maLI gayA. jinamaMdira, gurumaMdira, sabhAmaMDapa maMdi2nuM kAma ka2vuM e paNa bhakti Azrama mATe pahelo kUvo khodAyo tyAre mArA bApu dekharekha rAkhatA ane hisAbI kAmakAja nAranA caturabhAI hAthIbhAI karatA. prabhuzrI saMdezara rahetA hatA. tyAMthI maMDALe gayA. tyAMthI sanAvada jaI comAsuM karyuM. ahIM kAmakAja cAlu hatuM. pahelA rAjamaMdiravALo bhAga banyo. tyAM prabhuzrI rahevA lAgyA. tethI AjubAju gAmonA mumukSuo sAthe DhebarAM laIne AvavA lAgyA. eka be divasa rahe ne jAya, pharI cArapAMca divasa rahIne Ave. prabhuzrI bodhamAM maMdiranuM kAma karavuM e paNa bhakti che ema kahe eTale mumukSuo hoMzathI kAma kare. huM paNa pAyA khodAya tyAre tagArA upADavA lAgato. sabhAmaMDapa nIceno bhAga taiyAra thayo eTale nIce bhaktikrama cAlu thayo hato. saM.1984thI sabhAmaMDapamAM bhaktinI zarUAta pahelA rAjamaMdiranA meDA upara bhakti thatI paNa jyAre sabhAmaMDapa nIceno bhAga taiyAra thayo eTale saM.1982 thI 84 sudhI bhoMyarAmAM nIce cAlu krama pramANe bhakti thatI hatI. saM.1984mAM zrI caMdraprabhu bhagavAnanI sthApanA thayA pachI maMdiranA bAjunA sabhAmaMDapamAM bhaktikrama cAlu thayo hato. 126 zrI umedabhAI

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ta ,. lava zrI jesIMgabhAI jIbhAIbhAI paTela borIyA (zrI aMbAlAlabhAI jesIMgabhAIe Apela vigata) siddhavarakuTa tIrtha vartamAnamAM bolatA cAlatA bhagavAna hoya? _siddhavarakuTa tIrthano daravAjo mArA pitAzrIne pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno prathama samAgama tArApuramAM thayo hato. zaMkara bhagata amArA pitAzrInA mAmA thAya. temanI joDe mArA pitAzrIne vAtacIta thatAM pUchyuM ke kRSNa bhagavAna to buddhAvatAra thaI gayA arthAt have to te pratimArUpe che te bole cAle nahIM to hAla koI bolatA cAlatA bhagavAna haze ke kema? tyAre zaMkara bhagate kahyuM ke bIjA saMpradAyamAM hoya to tuM mAne ke kema? tyAre teoe kahyuM ke game te saMpradAyamAM hoya to paNa mAnIza. te ja rAtre temane svapnamAM prabhuzrIjInA darzana thayA. bAda zaMkara bhagate mArA pitAzrIne prabhuzrIno meLApa karAvyo. samAgamano prasaMga banyo to joyuM ke A to svapnamAM joyA hatA te ja mahArAja che. pachI zraddhA evI besI gaI ke have A puruSa kahe temaja karavuM che. pachI huM vyavasAya mATe AphrikA javAno hato. tyAre mArA pitAzrIe mane kahyuM ke mAre to AtmakalyANa karavuM che ane tuM paradeza na jAya to te banI zake. paNa e tArAthI banaze? tyAre meM hA kahI ke bhale, tamAre AtmakalyANa karavuM che to karo; huM ahIM ja rahIza. amAre sAdhu nathI karavA mArA mAtuzrIne A bAbata Dara raheto ke mArA pitAzrI sAdhu thaI jaze. tethI prabhuzrIjI mAre ghera be vAra borIyA paghArelA ane mArA mAtuzrIne samajAvIne kaheluM ke "amAre sAthuye nathI karavA ane kaMI nathI karavuM. bolo tamArI zI icchA che?" tyAre mArA bAe kaheluM ke bIjAM to kaMI nahIM paraMtu jamavA ghera Ave. ane te mujaba kAyama jamavA ghera jatA. ghIme ghIme AMtarU vaghAre vadhAre pADatA, pachI bAno Agraha paNa ocho thaI gayo hato. bhayaMkara vagaDAmAM paNa amArAviSe vikalpa karazo nahIM 5.u.5.pU.prabhuzrIjI siddhavarakuTa gayA hatA. tyAre rAtre bAra vAge taMbuDImAM pANI bharI mArA pitAzrI jesIMgabhAIne kahyuM A jhAlo ane sAthe cAlo. madhyarAtrino ghora aMghakAra ane bhayaMkara vagaDo hato. thoDe dUra jaI jesIMga bhAIne eka jagyAe besADI temanI AjubAju kuMDALuM karyuM ane kahyuM "Darazo nahIM ane amArA viSe vikalpa karazo nahIM." ema kahI pote dUra gayA. kalAkeka bAda pAchA AvyA ane pUchyuM Dara lAgyo tyAre teoe kahyuM mane to jANe huM chuM ja nahIM ema thayuM hatuM. satata maMtra jApanuM raTaNa mArA pitAzrIe jaNAvela ke pU.prabhuzrIjInI hayAtimAM zarUmAM khUba ja puruSArtha saheje raheto. suvA jAuM to paNa suI zakAya nahIM. pharI pharIne aMdarathI ema thayA kare ke Aje tuM pramAda kare che. paNa kAle tuM nahIM hoya athavA satparuSa nahIM hoya to zuM karIza? mATe puruSArtha kara. ema vAraMvAra aMdarathI bhaNakArA vAgyA ja karatA; je sUvA paNa detA nahIM. satata maMtra jApa cAlyA karato. zrI jesIMgabhAI 127

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bra. zrI mohanabhAI prAgadAsa paTela borIA You Yin pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA samayanuM dRzya sArA bhAva thavA te pUrve karelA puNyanuM phaLa pU.prabhuzrI mumukSuo sAthe beThA hatA. oraDo bharelo hato. bhakti satsaMga cAlato hato. akasmAta pU.prabhuzrIjInI raga dabAI javAthI ekadama beThA thaI gayA. meM tarata ja uchaLIne temane bAthamAM laI jorathI jhAlI rAkhyA. pAMca miniTa pachI kaLa vaLI eTale zAMta thayA. pachI mane pUchyuM - 'kema jhAlyo'. meM kahyuM-pATa parathI paDI javAya ane hADakuM bhAMge to Apane duHkha thAya mATe. prabhuzrI bolyA A badhI puNya-pApanI racanA che. ahIM badhA beThA hatA. tamane ja kema AvA bhAva thayA? pUrvanA puNyathI koIne AvA bhAva thAya ane koIne bIjA bhAva paNa thAya, sArA bhAva thavA te pUrve karelA puNyanA phaLarUpa che.' jJAnI pratye viparIta bhAvanA thAya te narakamAM jAya prabhuzrI kahe--ame to badhAne chokarAnI mAphaka ramADIe chIe. amArA karama kharAM, paNa te khapAvavAnAM. paNa eTalI to khAtarI rAkhavI ke amArI ramata temAM koIpaNa motano aMza nathI. dehAtIta dazAmAM thAya eTale amAre koI karma baMdhAtA nathI. ane je karIe te botharUpe ane tenI keTalI avasthA, dazA che, te pArakhI levAnI khAtara. paNa jo koI emAMthI dhAre ke A to moha haze, to tenI athama dazA thAya, narakamAM javAnuM thAya. (gale phrAMsa darda batAvI) te to marI gayo ja jANavo. kALIdhoLI e badhI pudgala dravyanI avasthAo ekavAra khullI agAsImAM pU.prabhuzrI pATa upara beThA hatA. ame pAse UbhA hatA. sAme jhADa upara eka kAgaDo hato. prabhuzrI kahe - 'prabhu! kAgaDo kevo?' meM kahyuM kALo. prabhuzrI kahe ghoLo. meM kahyuM kALo. pachI prabhuzrI kahe - 'kerI pahelA kevI?' meM kahyuM pahelA mhora hoya, pachI lIMbu jevI, moTI thAya tyAre lIlA raMganI, pAke tyAre pILI. prabhuzrI kahe - 'na toDe to kohavAya ane kALI thAya. A badhI pudgalonI avasthAo che. badhuM kare che? paryAya palaTAya che zAthI? paMcAstikAya vAMcaje khabara paDaze,' be AnA vadhAre ke lAkha rUpiyAnI bhakti vadhA2e ? ekavAra huM tamAkunA choDa kADhavA gayo. tethI bhaktimAM na AvI zakyo. prabhuzrIe pUchyuM - mohana! kema bhaktimAM na Avyo ?' meM kahyuM ApA! tamAkunA choDa kADhavA gayo hato tethI na AvI zakyo. prabhuzrIe kahyuM'majUra rAkhe to keTalA paisA ApavA paDe ?' meM kahyuM be AnA. prabhuzrI kahe 'be AnA vadhAre ke lAkha rUpiyAnI bhakti vadhAre 128 bra.zrI mohanabhAI

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zrI phUlacaMdajI chogAlAlajI baMdA Ahora (zrI tejarAjajI phulacaMdajI baMdAe Apela vigatanA AdhAre) jIvatA jAgatA bhagavAna mArA pitAzrI phulacaMdabhAIne AhAramAM tamAkuno dhaMdho hato. tamAkunI kharIdI mATe gujarAtanA carotara pradezamAM avAranavAra AvavAnuM banatuM. ekavAra kharIdI mATe kAviThA AvelA hatA tyAre zrI dalapatabhAIe kahyuM. phUlacaMdabhAI tamane jIvatA jAgatA bhagavAna batAvuM. tyAre temaNe kahyuM : A kALamAM AvA koI hoya nahIM. to kahe cAlo batAvuM. ema kahI banne jaNa pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI pAse AvyA. vAha!prabhu vAha! pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe phUlacaMdabhAIne pUchyuM : "prabhu! zuM karo cho?" tyAre temaNe kahyuM: huM to badhuM karuM chuM. pUjA karuM chuM. pratikramaNa karuM chuM, pauSagha lauM chuM, RSi maMDaLa vagere maMtrono jApa japuM chuM ane paryuSaNamAM vyAkhyAna paNa vAMcu chuM. te sAMbhaLI pa.pU. prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM "vAha! prabhu vAha! 'potAnI moTAInI vAta ghIraja sahita sAMbhaLavAthI phUlacaMdabhAIne manamAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI pratye sadbhAva utpanna thayo ke mahArAja sArA che. bIjA varSe pharIthI tamAku levA AvyA tyAre RSimaMDaLa vagere maMtronA jApa karatA hatA ane jenuM emane khUba mAhAsya hatuM tenA kAgaLIyA vagere paNa phUlacaMdabhAI sAthe letA AvyA. te pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne batAvyA. te badhuM joI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe to te pAchA ApyA ane jaNAvyuM ke "prabhu! A badhA sAthe eka A pustaka "tattvajJAna che te paNa vAMcajo." pachI traNa pATha samajAvyA ane te karavA jaNAvyuM. AnaMdanuM kAraNa to A pustaka che zrI phUlacaMdabhAI tamAku levA Ave tyAre vaLatA pAlItANA darzana karIne AhAra jAya. pAlItANAmAM DuMgara caDhatAM taLeTImAM Avela bAbunA maMdiramAM darzana karavA gayA. tyAM pU.prabhuzrIjIe Apela "tattvajJAna" je pAse hatuM, te vAMcavAno bhAva thayo. pustaka kholatAM bahu puNya kerA puMjathI'nuM pada nIkaLyuM. te vAMcatA anero AnaMda AvavA lAgyo. vicAryuM ke Avo AnaMda to DuMgara upara dara varSe cahuM chuM paNa kadI Avyo nathI. pachI te pada pUruM thayuM ke tattvajJAna baMdha karyuM. tenI sAthe te AnaMda Avato paNa baMgha thayo. pharI pustaka kholyuM to AnaMda AvavA lAgyo. tethI manamAM thayuM ke AnaMdanuM kAraNa to A pustaka che. emAM ja kaMIka che. pa che. ' BkA. pAlItANAnI taLeTI upara bAbunuM maMdira 131

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jIvanamAM samULago palaTo. mahArAja tameya bhUlyA ane huMya bhUlyo pachI gaDha upara caDhI zrI RSabhadeva bhagavAnanA darzana zrI phUlacaMdabhAInA guru paNa pAlItANAmAM ja hatA. tyAM karI bAjunA maMdiramAM jyAM lokonI avarajavara nahotI evA jaI temanA ApelA badhA pustako maMtra taMtra vagere pAchA ApyA ekAMta sthAnamAM jaI te tattvajJAna vAMcavA beThA. vAMcavAmAM eTalA ane jaNAvyuM ke mahArAja tameya bhUlyA ane huMya bhUlyo. mane to baghA tallIna thaI gayA ke sAMja paDI gaI chatAM khabara paDI nahIM. sapuruSa maLyA tethI jANyuM ke gharma koI judI vastu che. pachI ghaNI carcA thaI. potAno ghorI zrAvaka bhUlo paDyo jANI gurunA AMkhamAM AMsu AvI gayA. chatAM phUlacaMdabhAI zraddhAmAM aDaga rahyA, pIgaLyA nahIM; ane junuM badhuM mUkI dIdhuM. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI pAse pharIthI navA vrata, niyama grahaNa karyA. ane dara varSe kuTuMba sahita yathAvakAze AzramamAM AvI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA amUlya bodhano lAbha levA lAgyA. prabhuzrIjInA darzananI bhAvanA jAgRta have AhAramAM paNa dukAnanA meDA upara zrI phUlacaMdabhAI bhakti karavA lAgyA. te jANIne zrI kuMdanamalajI, zrI cunIlAlajI, zrI caMdanamalajI ane zrI ratanacaMdajIe zrI phUlacaMdabhAIne pUchavAthI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA samAgamanI badhI vAta jaNAvI. tethI teone paNa pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavAnI bhAvanA jAgI. pachI pAlItANA darzana karavA javAnuM nimitta banAvI pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA paNa AvyA. emane paNa bhaktino raMga lAgI gayo. pachI cAre jaNA dukAna upara bhegA maLI bhakti karatA thayA. AzramamAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI aMtima samayanI mAMdagI zrI phUlacaMdabhAI hatI. zrI phulacaMdabhAI dezamAM javAnA hatA tyAre emanA gharmapatnI motIbAe kahyuM ke kAM to pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI haratA pharatA thAya, nahIM to huM hamaNAM Ahora AvavAnI nathI. pachI zrI phulacaMdabhAI paNa prabhuzrIjInA dehotsarga sudhI ahIM ja rahyA. maraNa eka kasoTI. zrI caMdanamalajI zrI phulacaMdabhAI potAnA chellA varSomAM moTe bhAge agAsa AzramamAM ja rahetA. temano deha paNa pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA dehotsarganA vaizAkha suda 8nA divase samAdhimaraNanI mALA gaNatA gaNatA AhoramAM chUTyo hato. aMta samaye bimAra hatA tyAre kahetA ke A maraNa eka kasoTI che. emAM pAsa thaI jaIe to zrI cunIlAlajI zrI ratanacaMdajI basa. aMta vakhate mALAmAM pUro upayoga rAkhI, mALAmAM thatI phulacaMdabhAIne zAstrono abhyAsa hovAthI "tattvajJAna' vaDe satu bIjAnI bhUlo paNa pote sughArI, samajAI gayuM, sat pratye zraddhA thaI gaI. ane pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA samAdhimaraNa sAthI kasoTImAM pAsa pratApe jIvanamAM samULago palaTo AvI gayo. manamAM draDha thayuM ke : thayA. karelI bhaktinuM phaLa kyAMya jatuM nathI A lakhanAra puruSa tattva pAmelA che. Aja sAcuM che, AvuM to te tAdraza jovA maLyuM. kyAMya jANavA maLyuM nathI. pUjArIe AvI jaNAvyuM ke zeTha nIce UtaravuM nathI,sADA pAMca vAgyA che. tyAre samayanuM bhAna thayuM zrI tejarAjajI ane nIce UtaryA. zrI kuMdanamalajI 132

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pApI pati potha pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI "zrI kAviThA gAme, paramakRpALudeva, pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI AdinI pratimAonI pratiSThA gaI terasane zukravAre thaI, te prasaMge javuM thayuM hatuM. bahu AnaMdapUrvaka bhaktibhAva sahita utsava pUrNa thayo. evA prasaMgo bhAva ullAsamAna thAya te arthe yojAya che." patrasuthA bo.bhA.3 (pR.640) 134

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bra.zrI maganabhAI lakSmIdAsa paTela suNAva pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno mane samAgama thayelo tenI atre upara beThA. zIro taiyAra thayo tyAre baghI thALIomAM sarakho TuMkANamAM hakIkata jaNAvuM chuM : pIrasavA jaNAvyuM. pIrasIne taiyAra karyA bAda pote AhAra karavA sAcA puruSa hoya to mane ahIM darzana Ape : beThA pachI ame paNa jamavA beThA. ekeka thALImAM eka eka ratala ekavAra saM.1976mAM pU.zaMkara bhagata indora AvelA ! jeTalo zIro hato. jamyA pachI baghAne potAnA rUmamAM bolAvyA ane temanA bhatrIjAone tyAM bhakti karatA hatA. najIkamAM mArA ane jaNAvyuM ke "Aje zIro amatho khavarAvyo nathI. Aje Atmasiddhino janma divasa che. namaskAra karI bhakti karavAnI moTAbhAI bhAIlAlabhAI rahetA hatA. te temane tyAM gayA. tyAM che. tame bathA upara jAo ane samavasaraNa raco." tethI 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno citrapaTa joIne temane thayuM ke A koI punamabhAI ane amo upara gayA. bIje mALe prabhuzrIjInI mahApuruSano citrapaTa che. evI aMtaramAM chApa paDI. tethI pUchyuM AjJAnusAra cAra citrapaTa samavasaraNanI jema goThavyA. caumukhI ke A citrapaTa kono che? tyAre zaMkara bhagate jaNAvela ke A taiyAra thaI. haoNla moTo hato. pachIthI ame vicAra karyo ke namaskAra puruSa sanAvaDa AvelA che. ame tyAM javAnA chIe. tyAre karatI vakhate kaMIka mUkavuM joIe. tethI bajAramAM jaI babe rUpiyAnA bhAIlAlabhAIe jaNAvyuM ke mAre paNa AvavuM che. dukAna baMdha chUTA paisA laI AvyA. be vAge prabhuzrIjI padhAryA. pote karI teo temanI sAthe sanAvada gayA. saM.1976nA jeTha vada Atmasiddhi bolAve tema ame baghA jhIlIe ane namaskAra karIe 12nA divase jyAre huM ane mArA lAlA bA indora gayA tyAre tathA paisA mukIe. amArI sAthe prabhuzrIjI paNa pradakSiNA karI te sanAvada gayelA hatA. tyAM jaIne AvyA bAda prabhuzrIjInI namaskAra karatA. Ama bathI bhakti ullAsa sAthe pUrI thaI. vAto baghA bhAIo bhegA maLI karatA hatA. te sAMbhaLI mane paNa sanAvadamAM A AtmasiddhinA janma divase UbhA UbhA namaskAra bahu prema Avyo. paNa mArAthI kahevAya nahIM ke mAre sanAvada karavAno vidhi joyo. bIje divase amo indora gayA. AvavuM che. paNa mAtuzrIe jaNAvyuM ke jo te sAcA puruSa hoya to mane ahIMyA darzana Ape to sanAvada darzana karavA jaIe. tyAra pachI svapnAmAM be vakhata temane darzana thayAM. eTale amo je zeThANInA makAnamAM rahetA hatA te sarve maLI kula 12-13 jaNA Aso suda 15 ne 11 vAge ravAnA thaI 4 vAge sanAvada pahoMcyA. mANekaThArI pUname smaraNa maMtrA baMgalA AgaLa gayA tyAre prabhuzrIjI pATa upara birAjelA hatA. temane meM rastAmAMthI joyA ane koI evo sneha Avyo ke jANe pUrvabhavanA sagAM hoya. mAtApitA karatAM paNa ghaNo ja sneha Avyo. pAMca vAge prabhuzrIjI pAse meM tathA pU.mAtuzrIe smaraNanI mAgaNI karI tyAre teozrIe jaNAvyuM ke Aje mANekaThArI pUnama che, Aje dariyAmAM sAcAM motI pAke. tema Aje tamane smaraNamaMtra, vIsa doharA ane kSamApanAno pATha Apyo che to tenI bhakti karajo." ema jaNAvyuM hatuM ane mAtuzrIne prabhuzrIjIe potA pAsenI mALA ApI hatI. te mALA roja teo pheravatA hatA. AtmasiddhinA janmadivase namaskAra bIje divase 11 vAge jamavAnA TANe rasoDe amo baghA gayA. indoranA 12-13 jaNa hatAM. tyAM prabhuzrIjI khurazI 135

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gAyo re gAyo kasarabA devAno saMda, gAyo re jyAre comAsu pUruM thayuM tyAre prabhuzrIjI indora lagabhaga mAgasara sudamAM savAre nava vAge padhAryA. AkhA gAmanA derAsaroe darzana karavA gayelA. pahelAM zeTha hakamacaMdanA kAcanA derAsare gayA. tyAM "vIrajIne caraNe lAguM' stavana bolAvyuM. pachI bIjAM derAsaroe jaI AvI AhAra pANI vAparI ArAma karI bapore tukogaMja gayA. tyAM hukamacaMda, kasturacaMda vagerenA traNeya baMgalAomAM padhAryA hatA. indoramAM rAtre nava vAge Atmasiddhi zarU karI. pote bolAve ane ame dasa-bAra jaNa jhIlIe. jyAre lagabhaga 12 vAgyAnA samaye AtmasiddhinI chellI kaLazanI pAMca gAthAo bAkI rahI tyAre pote UbhA thaI gayA. ane ullAsamAM AvI jaI "gAyo gAyo re kasarabA" devAno naMda, indora mukAme gAyo re" ema ghaNA ullAsathI bolyA pachI, "are bhUlyo bhUlyo" ema kahI devAnaMdAno naMda' ema jaNAvyuM hatuM. pachI amo baghA paNa UbhA thaI gayA. teozrI ghaNA ullAsamAM AvI gayelA hatA. te bhAva, te drazya jaNAvI zakAya ema nathI. saMsAra chUTaze nahIM paNa samAdhi thaze prabhuzrIjIne cAlatA cAlatA bhAIlAlabhAIe pUchyuM ke saMsAra chUTaze ke nahIM? tyAre uttaramAM prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke "saMsAra chUTaze nahIM paNa samAghi thaze." AjJA caDhe ke sevA caDhe rAtre baghA prabhuzrIjInA paga-hAtha dAbe tyAre bhAIlAlabhAI pAse beThelA hoya te paNa sevA karavA jAya tyAre nA pADe. bhAIlAlabhAIthI rahevAya nahIM eTale pharIpharIne jAya, paNa nA pADI de. pachIthI ekavAra rUmamAM badhA beThA hatA tyAre prabhuzrIjIe badhAne prazna karyo ke "sevA caDhe ke AzA caDhe?" tyAre sevA karavAvALAe kahyuM ke sevA. paNa prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke "AjJA caDhe. AjJAmAM sevA AvI jAya che." vaLI te ja prasaMge jaNAvyuM ke A dukAna khAlI karI nAkhazo.' AjJAmAM lAbha che ema jANI amoe savAre te siyAgaMjanI dukAna khAlI karI nAkhI ane gAmamAMnI dukAnamAM badho sarasAmAna laI gayA hatA. rAtre e dukAnamAM Aga lAgI. AjJAnuM ArAdhana e ja dharma paramakRpALudevanA nAme cAlatA judA judA gharma pravAhonI keTalIka vAta thayA pachI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke "chAnomAno eka khUNAmAM besI A maLelI AjJA (traNa pATha ane mALA vagere) pheravaze, te tene kSAyika samakita pamADaze. bAkI raMgeluM nAvaDuM joI kudI paDavA jevuM nathI. anAdikALathI jIve Ama karyuM che, tethI rajhaLyo che. sAcI vastu hAthamAM AvyA chatAM nikaTa Avelo paNa dUra jato rahe che." 136

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citrapaTamAMthI ghupanA goTe goTA sAvada jyAre prabhuzrIjInuM comAsuM hatuM tyAre roja bhAIlAlabhAI be cAra divase sanAvada darzana karavA jAya. temane cha mAsa sudhI bahu vega rahelo. te joI koI mANase suNAvamAM nAraNabhAIne jaNAvyuM ke bhAIlAlabhAI sAghu thaI javAno che. te sAMbhaLI temane bahu krogha Avyo. suNAvathI ravAnA thaI rAtre cAra vAge indora AvyA. nIcethI bAraNuM ughADavA mATenI bUma mArI te sAMbhaLI thayuM ke jANe te upara AvI zuM karaze? pachIthI lAlAbAe bAraNuM ughADyuM ane pathArI karI eTale pote thoDIvAra besI sUI rahyA; paNa kAMI bolI zakyA nahIM. savAre pAMca vAgye bhAIlAlabhAI UThI bhakti karavA lAgyA. cA-pANI karI huM dukAne gayo. pachI nAraNabhAI paravArIne dukAne AvyA. ane mane badhuM pUchavA lAgyA ke bhAIlAla dukAne bese che ke nahIM, ke pharato rahe che? tyAre meM jaNAvyuM ke dukAne bese che ane badhuM saMbhALe che. ema Akho divasa gayo paNa bhAIlAlabhAIne kaMI kahI zakyA nahIM. sAMje nava vAge amo 5-7 jaNa bhegA thaI bhakti karavA beThA. bAra vAgyA sudhI bhakti karI sUI gayA. dIvo baMgha karyA pachI ekadama AkhA rUmamAM dhUpa cUpa thaI gayo hoya ema jaNAyuM. A zuM che ema vicArI phAnasa saLagAvyuM. tyAre prabhuzrIjInA A bI vAvyuM te pAMcame bhave ugaze citrapaTanA aMgUThAmAMthI ghUpanA goTe goTA nIkaLatA jaNAyA. bIjI vakhate indora padhAryA tyAre hukamacaMdazeThanI chAvaNI nasIAmAM ghaNA ullAsathI Atmasiddhi tathA mULamArganI bhakti savAre UThI badhA chaka thaI gayA karI hatI. tyAM eka zeTha AvyA ane bhAvathI phUTano prasAda karyo. A camatkAra joI badhA chaka thaI gayA ane nAraNabhAI prabhuzrIjIe temane tattvajJAna ApyuM ane ghaNI vAta karI. temanA to A koI mahApuruSano citrapaTa che ema jANI te citrapaTa laI gayA pachI prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke "A bI vAvyuM te tene pAMcame navanI gADImAM suNAva javA mATe ravAnA thaI gayA. ane bhave ugaze." bhAIlAlabhAIne kahetA gayA ke tuM bIjo citrapaTa lAvI le che. pachI bhAIlAlabhAI sanAvada gayA tyAre prabhuzrIjIne ghaNA jIvone samyagadarzananuM kAraNa badhI vAta karI tyAre jANavA maLyuM ke te divase sanAvadamAM rAtanA paramakRpALudevanI pratimA bahu ullAsathI be vAgyA sudhI bhakti cAlI hatI ane bAra vAge bhoMyarAmAM paramakRpALudevanI pratimAjInI sthApanA thaI dhUpa karyo hato teno paDachAyo paDyo hato. te samaye 10 thI 15 hajAra mANasa bheguM thayuM hatuM. pU.prabhuzrIjIe zrIphaLa hAtho hAtha le to ja Apazo cogAnamAM rAyaNa nIce ekavAra jaNAvyuM hatuM ke "ame A pratimAnI aMjanazalAkA karI che; ghaNA jIvone samyagudarzananuM kAraNa thaze." eka divasa bhAIlAlabhAIe dezamAMthI AvelA mumukSuo sAthe eka zrIphaLa prabhuzrIjIne ApavA mokalyuM ane paramakRpALudeva kSAyika samakitI. kahyuM ke prabhuzrIjI hAthohAtha le to Apazo, nahIM to pAchuM lAvazo. .pU.prabhuzrIjI bharI sabhAmAM pachI te bhAI sanAvada gayA ane prabhuzrIjI pAse zrIphaLa jhAlI kahetA ke "paramakRpALudeva kSAyika samakitI UbhA rahyA tyAre bIjA bhAIoe jaNAvyuM ke nIce mUko. tyAre che. kSAyika samakitIne kSAyika samakitI prabhuzrIjIe te bhAIne bhAIlAlabhAIe jaNAvelI vAta jaNAvI ke ja oLakhI zake." ema kahI potAnI dizA ane zrIphaLa hAthamAM lIdhuM hatuM. : paNa batAvatA hatA. zrI bhAIlAlabhAI 137

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prabhuzrIjI, e ja ApaNuM dhana che ekavAra bhAIlAlabhAIe divALInA divasomAM bArasane divase potAnA mAtuzrIne kahyuM ke bA kAle dhanaterasa che. loko dhanaterasane divase ghanane dUdhathI ghUe che. tyAre mAtuzrIe kahyuM ke ApaNI pAse dhana kyAM che ke jene dUdhathI ghoIe. tyAre bhAIlAlabhAIe kahyuM ke agAsa AzramamAM prabhuzrIjI che e ja ApaNuM ghana che. emanA caraNa ghoIe. ema vicArI dhanaterasane divase savAranA traNa vAge UThI dUdha dohIne cAlatA cAlatA AzramamAM AvyA. te vakhate bhaktimAM stavana bolAtA hatA. pachI bhAIlAlabhAIe bhagatajIne kahyuM ke mAre prabhuzrIjInA dUdhathI caraNakamaLa dhovA che. te vAta bhagatajIe prabhuzrIjIne karI. pachI bhAIlAlabhAIe prAsuka jaLathI paga prakSAlana karI dUdhathI prabhuzrIjInA caraNakamaLa dhovAno adbhuta lAbha lIdho hato. pachI potAnI rUmamAM AvI te dUdhanI sAthe DhebarAM khAdhA. mahApuNyano udaya thAya tyAre AvuM sUje ke huM satpuruSanA caraNakamaLano abhiSeka karuM. AvA uttamabhAvathI jJAnIpuruSanA caraNakamaLa dhotAM potAnA pApa paNa dhovAI jAya che. bhAIlAlabhAIne "paramabuddhi kRSa dehamAM, sthUla deha mati alpa' e gAthA manamAM besatI nahotI. A vAta prabhuzrIjIne emaNe kahI nahotI. eka divasa prabhuzrIjI traNa cAra vakhata e gAthA 'parama buddhi kRza dehamAM, sthUla deha mati alpa' bolI AMgaLIthI kRpALudevane batAvyA. tyArabAda te gAthA bhAIlAlabhAInA manamAM besI gaI. bhAIlAlabhAIe pUchyuM : moTI corI eTale zuM? prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : 'A deha mAro mAnyo che te ja moTI corI' (A nizcayathI moTI corInI vyAkhyA thaI). koInI prakRti sAmuM jovuM nahIM saM.1989nA Aso vadI 2nA roja dhUlIyA javAno vicAra hato, paNa nAraNabhAInI prakRtinA vicAra AvavAthI mAMDI vALyuM. paNa teno khulAso prabhuzrIjI pAse thAya to javuM tevA vicArathI huM upara gayo tyAre prabhuzrIjI agAsImAM beThA hatA. tyAM jaIne beTho tenI sAthe ja prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke 'prakRti sAmuM jovuM nahIM.' te sAMbhaLIne mananuM samAdhAna thaI 138 gayuM. pachIthI trIjane divase huM dhulIyA gayo hato. prabhuzrInI hAjarImAM pitAzrInuM samAdhimaraNa mArA pitAzrI lakSmIdAsano deha AzramamAM sabhAmaMDapanI pAchaLa rUmamAM chUTyo. te vakhate AyaMbilanI oLI cAlatI hatI. temaNe cha AMbela karelA. pachI tAva Avyo tethI vadhu na banyA. caitra suda 15nA roja asvasthatA vadhAre jaNAtA 5.u. 5.pU. prabhuzrIjIne bolAvela. teozrIe AvIne uttama bodha Apyo. jevA bodha ApI pagathIyA UtaryA ke temano deha chUTI gayo. bIje divase savAre bAne laIne prabhuzrInA darzana karavA gayo tyAre prabhuzrIe kahyuM 'tenuM samAdhimaraNa thayuM. cha mahinAthI tenI lezyA uttama hatI e ame jANatA hatA.' mArA pitAzrI bhaNelA nahIM. paNa prabhuzrIe vacanAmRta vAMcavA ApyuM ane kahe vAMcaje, AvaDI jaze. emanI kRpAthI vAMcatA AvaDI gayuM ane AkhuM vacanAmRta puruM karyuM. pachI pUnamanA divase temano deha chUTyo hato.

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amAre have bIjA varSe jarUra nathI saM.1991nA bhAdaravA suda 15nI rAtre mane svapna AvyuM te uparathI mane ema lAgeluM ke have prabhuzrIjIno deha vaghAre Takaze nahIM. tethI teozrInuM AyuSya pahoMce tyAM sudhI mAre AzramamAM ja rahevuM. ekavAra DaoNkTara zAradAbena saM.199ranA poSa mAsamAM amadAvAdathI garama kapaDAM tathA zAla vagere prabhuzrIjI mATe lAvelA tyAre prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke amAre have bIjA varSe jarUra nathI. tema huM paNa jyAre prabhuzrIjI sTezana upara savAre pharavA jAya tyAre Tebala laIne sAthe jato, tyAM paNa vAta thayelI. te uparathI mArA svapnAnI mane khAtrI thaI ke jarUra prabhuzrIjIno deha have Takaze nahIM. pachI mahA suda-15 thI teozrInI zarIra prakRti ghIme ghIme narama paDavA lAgI ane chevaTe mAre temanI sAthe AzramamAM daza mAsa sudhI rahevAno joga banyo hato. ApanA pachI kono samAgama karavo svapnamAM jyAre huM prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA gayo tyAre teozrI pATa upara birAjelA hatA ane nIce DAbI bAju brahmacArIjI beThA hatA ane jamaNI bAju paramakRpALudeva UbhA hatA. jANe teo prabhuzrIjIne samAdhimaraNa karAvavA AvyA hoya tema bhAsa thayo. paramakRpALadeva dravyasaMgrahanI gAthAo UbhA UbhA bolatA hatA. jema IDaranA pahADamAM bolatA hatA tema jANe bolatA jaNAyA. te pramANe pA kalAka sudhI temanI pAse UbhA UbhA gAthAo bolI adrazya thaI gayA. A badhuM meM svapnamAM temanI sAme UbhA UbhA joyuM. tethI mane ema lAgyuM ke have prabhuzrIjIno deha Takaze nahIM. eTale svapnamAM ja meM mArA mATe prabhuzrIjIne be prazno pUchyAM. temAMno eka prazna e hato ke prabhu, ApanA pachI mAre kono samAgama karavo? tyAre prabhuzrIjIe temanI bAjumAM pATa nIce brahmacArIjI beThelA hatA temanI sAme AMgaLI karI mane IzAro karyo. tyArathI mane khAtrI thaI ke pAchaLathI brahmacArIjI jagyA saMbhALaze ane aMte ema ja banyuM. sAruM nimitta banAvavAthI ghaNo lAbha bhaktinA kAryakrama bAbata prabhuzrIjIe mane kaheluM ke sAruM nimitta banAvavuM tethI lAbha che. prabhuzrIjInA samayathI A kAryakrama huM saMbhALato, samayasara bhakti zarU karato. eka divasa baporanA koInA kahevAthI moDo ghaMTa vagADyo. paNa samayasara pU.zrI brahmacArIjI bhaktimAM AvIne besI gayA. mane pUchyuM ke kema zrI maganabhAI ghaMTa vagADyo nathI? je banyuM hatuM te meM kahyuM. tyAre brahmacArIjI kahe - tema karavuM nahIM. samayasara ghaMTa vagADI devo. 139

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zrI ratanabena punazIbhAI zeTha muMbaI vartamAnamAM sAcA sadguru kyAM maLe? ATha vAge nahIM pahoMco? zrI ThAkarazIbhAI (sobhAgabhAInA dikarI divALIbenanA A ja prasaMge AzramathI jyAre muMbaI jatA maLavA gayA dIkarA)ne paramakRpALudevano samAgama thayelo. teo amArA ghare tyAre prabhuzrIjIe amane pUchyuM : "tame kyAre ghera pahoMcazo?" AvatA. punazIbhAI zeTha roje temanI pAse besI vacanAmRta pAnabene javAba Apyo vAMcatA. temAM sadgurunuM mAhAbhya vizeSa AvatuM. tethI ekavAra ke rAtre nava vAge. punazIbhAI zeThe kahyuM : AvA sAcA sadguru kyAMthI maLI zake? : prabhuzrI kahe- "ATha vAge tyAre ThAkarazIbhAIe jaNAvyuM ke agAsa AzramamAM nahIM pahoMco? pAnabene vartamAnakALamAM AvA puruSa vidyamAna che. te vAta uparathI huM kahyuM ATha vAge to ame saM.1977mAM prathama ThAkarazIbhAI sAthe zeThane Azrama AvavAnuM dAdara pahoMcazuM. pachI banyuM. cAra divasa rokAI pAchA muMbaI AvyA. te vakhate pU.prabhuzrI lokala gADI badalIne upara temane zraddhA thaI ane pU.prabhuzrIe punazIbhAI zeThane maMtra mATuMgA ghare pahoMcatA paNa Apyo hato. nava to thAya. tyAre pharI prabhuzrIjInA darzananI bhAvanA prabhuzrIe kahyuM ATha maMtra laIne AvyA pachI prathama paryuSaNa muMbaImAM zeThe, vAge nahIM pahoMco? nA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe Apela maMtra vagerenI sAdhanAnA raTaNamAM pUrA prabhu. paNa banyuM ema ke amArI gADI mATuMgA sTezane jaI, karyA. teo vAMce tyAre mane paNa pAse besADatA. ATheya divasa signala nahIM maLavAthI tyAM ja UbhI rahI gaI. ame tyAM ja Ama pasAra karyA. pachI mane paNa prabhuzrIjInA darzananI bhAvanA UtarI gayA. kemake amAruM ghara sTezananI sAme ja hatuM. ame thaI. jethI pAnabena ane mane bannene laI zeTha agAsa AzramamAM : pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM tema barAbara ATha vAge to ghera paNa pahoMcI AvyA. pU.prabhuzrIjIne vahorAvavA mATe ghare bolAvI je kaMI gayA. ane tyAre zeTha paNa Azrama AvavA mATe bIstara taiyAra bhAtuM phaLa vagere lAvyA hatA te svahaste vahorAvyA. bIje divase karIne nIkaLatA hatA. prabhuzrIno A amAro pahelo samAgama savAre ATha vAge pU.prabhuzrIe mane tathA pAnabenane upara bolAvI hato. A prasaMgathI temanuM mAhAbhya amane vizeSa lAgyuM. te agAsImAM maMtra Apyo hato. divasathI evI zraddhA draDha besI gaI ke A koI sAmAnya puruSa nathI, olIyA che, ucca koTinA mahAtmA che. bhaviSyamAM zuM pU.prabhuzrI sAmAnya sAdhu nahIM, paNa thavAnuM che te paNa jANe che. tyAra pachI pU.prabhuzrI kaMI paNa kahe ucca koTinA mahAtmA temAM zaMkA thatI nahIM. pachI avAra navAra AzramamAM AvavAnuM pahelI ja vakhata ame eka mahino AzramamAM rokAyA paNa cAlu rAkhyuM hatuM. hatA. muMbaIthI amane teDAvavAno tAra Avyo. tethI huM ane mArA zaoNka pAnabena muMbaI javAno vicAra karI pu.prabhazrI pAse bhagavAnanA darzana samaye kevA bhAva karavA? gayA ane kahyuM ke prabhu, ame kAle savAre sAtanI gADImAM muMbaI ekavAra mane pU.prabhuzrIe pUchyuM ke "maMdiramAM jaIne zuM jaIe chIe. tyAre prabhue kahyuM - "sAMje jAo to nahIM cAle? : bole che?" tyAre meM kahyuM longassano kAusagga karI, stavana ema be vAra kahyuM. tyAre ame kahyuM sAMje nahIM phAve. ame AzramathI bolI stuti karIe. tyAre prabhuzrIe kahyuM : "mana kyAM phare che?" ravAnA thayA pachI doDheka kalAke zeTha punazIbhAIno mATuMgAthI kahyuM mana to saMsAramAM phare che. pachI prabhuzrIjI kahe: "maMdiramAM AzramamAM tAra Avyo ke muMbaI Avazo nahIM; huM Azrama AvuM huM jaIe tyAre ema bhAvanA karavI ke tame nIrAgI, nirvikArI, che. ame jyAre muMbaI pahoMcyA tyAre paNa nokare kahyuM: tuma Ighara saccidAnaMdasvarUpa cho. tame to rAga rahita cho, vikAra rahita kahe ke AyA? zeThajIne to Azrama tAra kiyA hai. zeThajI Aja cho, AtmasvarUpamAM lIna cho. AvA guNo tamArAmAM che, e Azrama jA rahe hai. A sAMbhaLI amane bhAna thayuM ke prabhuzrIjI zA gaNo mArAmAM Avo. kSamAdi guNo tamArAmAM che e mArAmAM mATe amane savArane badale sAMje javAnuM kahetA hatA. Avo; evA bhAva karavA." 140

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pU.prabhuzrI pAse mAMgatAya na AvaDyuM ekavAra pU.prabhuzrIe mane potAnuM alaukika svarUpa batAvI kahyuM - "mAMga zuM joIe?" kahyuM chokaro. tyAre pU.prabhuzrIe bhAvAvezamAM AvI kahyuM ke "mara bhUMDI. AvuM zuM mAgyuM, cAra gatinuM sAdhana. mAMgatA ya na AvaDyuM. nahiM to tAruM kAma thaI jAta." e sAMbhaLI chokarAnI icchA manamAMthI taddana nIkaLI gaI. bIje divase pU.prabhuzrIjI pAse gaI tyAre manamAM ghaNo ja kheda hato ke AvuM mAre mAMgavuM joItuM nahotuM. tethI pU.prabhuzrIne meM pUchyuM ke prabhu, mAro mokSa kyAre thaze? tyAre pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM "mokSa thavAmAM vAra lAgaze." pharI bodha ApI zAMta pADatAM beThA hatA. mane raMgaberaMgI kapaDAM paherIne jatAM pU.prabhuzrIe joI kahyuM : "je kaMI vAMcaze, sAMbhaLaze tenI samajaNa paDaze, mumukSubhAIne pUchyuM ke e koNa jAya che? javAbamAM temaNe kahyuM samajaNazakti sArI thaze." ratanabena prabhu, "bolAva ene'. pachI mane prabhue kahyuM - "prabhu, kaSAya ochA teno saMsAra ocho. AvA bhavaiyAnA veSa na karIe. sAdAM kapaDAM paherIe." kahyuM - pU.prabhuzrIjIe pUnAmAM comAsuM kareluM. tyAM eka ke kevA prabhu? tyAre prabhue kahyuM "ghoLA, sapheda kapaDAM paherIe. musalamAna hato. te tenA makAnanA oTalA upara besI raheto. jarUra jaNAye kora kinArI banAvI leje.' te vakhate mArI uMmara ane prabhazrIjI bahAra nIkaLe tyAre temanI sAthe joDAI jato. lagabhaga 22 varSanI hatI. pU.prabhuzrIjIe tene kaheluM ke "bhAI, tuM game te gharma karato hoya, eka kRpALudevane jaguru mAnavA paraMtu jenA krodhAdi kaSAya ochA teno saMsAra cho. hiMsAdi prabhuzrIjI kahetA ke "kRpALudevanuM nAma laI ghaNA badhA pApanA kAraNo che, te karavA yogya nathI." : mahAtmAo bahAra nIkaLaze, paNa emAM coMTavuM nahIM. eka khojA pratye paNa AtmadraSTi kRpALudevane ja guru mAnavA." bAndrAmAM eka musalamAna khojo hato. tene prabhuzrIjIe AgaLa upara AzramamAM jagyA maLaze nahIM maMtra Apyo hato. te bhakti karato. be peDhI sudhI A gharma hato. pachI jyAre AzramamAM makAna baMghAvavAnI icchA thaI pachI zuM thayuM te khabara nathI. tyAre amArA hamaNAMnA makAnanI jagA chevADe hatI. mane Dara amArA pUrva karma pUrA karIe chIe lAgaze ema jaNAvavAthI pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM "A jagyA vacamAM meM pU.prabhuzrIjIne pUchyuM-mane tamArA pratye pitA jevo ! AvI jaze. AgaLa upara tala jeTalI jagyA maLaze nahIM. prema Ave che tenuM zuM kAraNa? tyAre prabhuzrIjIe pUrvabhavano saMbaMdha paramakRpALunA yogabaLe A kALamAM ajaba gajaba thaze. ghaNA kahyo hato ane koIne kahIza nahIM ema jaNAvyuM hatuM. tethI Aja jIvonuM kalyANa thaI jaze." suthI koIne meM vAta karI nathI. vaLI kahyuM hatuM ke "ame paNa sarva roganAzano upAya prabhubhakti amArA pUrvabhavanA karma pUrA karIe chIe." ekavAra pU.prabhuzrI pAse eka saMnyAsI Avyo. teNe kahyuM : tamArA baghA roga maTI jAya ane tamAruM AyuSya vadhe evuM huM guruvAre gurunuM sthAna na choDAyA karuM. te sAMbhaLI prabhuzrI ekadama beThA thaI gayA ane kahyuM: 'haiM! zeTha ane huM ekavAra pU.prabhuzrI pAse AjJA levA gayA ema thAya che? cAlo ema karIe." ema kahI pU.prabhuzrI pIMchI ke prabhu, Aje muMbaI jaIe chIe. tyAre prabhu kahe "Aja to laIne cAlyA bhoMyarAmAM. sAthe badhA bhoMyarAmAM gayA. tyAM evI guruvAra che. guruvAre guru pAsethI na javAya. guruvAre gurunuM ajaba bhakti karI ke pelo saMnyAsI to te joI chaka thaI gayo. sthAna na choDAya." pU.prabhuzrInA roga maTADavAne badale saMnyAsIno ke baghAno kapaDAM sAdAM paherIe zArIrika, mAnasika ke bhavaroga kema maTe teno upAya bhakti vATe pU.prabhuzrIjI ekavAra agAsamAM rAjamaMdiranI gelerImAM : pU.prabhuzrIe batAvyo. 141

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zrI digaMbara pratimAnA Agamana samaye tAtkAlika bhakti agAsa AzramamAM digaMbara maMdiranI pratimA lAvyA tyAre mumukSuoe kahyuM ke kAle savAre khokhAmAMthI pratimAne bahAra kADhIzuM. paNa prabhuzrIe kahyuM, "hamaNAM ja lAvo." pachI pratimAne lAvyA ane sabhAmaMDapamAM mUkI prabhuzrInI AjJAthI rAtanA 11 vAge ghaMTa vagADyo. prabhuzrI pratimAnI sAme besIne "duHkha dohaga dUre TaLyA re" e stavana pote gavaDAvyuM. ane baghAe jhIlyuM. ekanI eka lITI ullAsabhAve pa-7 vakhata bolAvarAvI hatI. AzramamAM AyaMbila oLInI zarUAta zrI pAnabena AyaMbilanI oLInuM ujamaNuM karavA dezamAM javAnA hatA. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke "ahIMyA ja karo. nava nava vastuo, kaLazA vagere je ApavA hoya te ahIM derAsaramAM ApI devA." saMvata 1984mAM jinamaMdira baMdhAyuM ane te ja sAlanA Aso mahinAmAM jinamaMdira pAchaLanI kAviThAnI oraDI pAsenI jagyAmAM prathama AyaMbilanI oLI karAvavAnuM cAluM thayuM. je Ave tene jamADaje' pUnamanA chellA divase AyaMbila baghA thaI gayA ane khAvAnuM paNa lagabhaga badhuM patI gayuM hatuM tyAre prabhuzrIe mane tattvajJAna hIrAnA hAra jevuM koIne na apAya bolAvIne pUchyuM : "khAvAnuM keTaluM vadhyuM che?" tyAre meM kahyuM prabhu, eka vATakAmAM dALa, eka vATakAmAM bhAta ane eka vATakAmAM eka vakhata punazIbhAI zeTha bahAracaNA vadhyA che. prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : "Aje pUnama che, gAmaDAnA gAma jatAM mAruM tattvajJAna laI gayA. ane mumukSuo je Ave tene jamADaje'. tyAre meM kIdhuM ke prabhu eka te kyAMka khovAI gayuM. prabhuzrIne A vAta jaNa khAya teTaluMya nathI. roTalA roTalI to hatA ja nahIM. pachI karI bIjuM tattvajJAna meM mAMgyuM. tyAre prabhuzrI tyAM paghAryA ane baghA vATakA temane batAvyA. prabhuzrIe prabhuzrIe ghaNI zikhAmaNa ApI jaNAvyuM ke te upara pIMchI pheravI ane kahyuM ke "je Ave tene jamADaje ane "tattvajJAna e to hIrAnA hAra jevuM che. e vadhe te kAmavALIne ApI deje." jamavA Ave te badhAne khAvAnuM ke koIne na apAya." pachI be varasa sudhI mane tattvajJAna na ja pIrasuM tyAre bhAta vagere bahu dekhAya. sAta ATha jaNa jamI gayA ? ApyuM. saM.1983nI sAlamAM tattvajJAna levA mATe aDhI mahinA paNa khAvAnuM khUTyuM nahIM ane vATakAmAM jeTaluM hatuM teTaluM ja rahyuM : AzramamAM rokAyA hatA. paNa te levA jatAM cha padanA patra upara ja bhoMyarAmAM paramakRpALudeva samakSa samajAvatA. pachI eka divasa pU.prabhuzrIe pU.brahmacArIjIne kahyuM pU.prabhuzrInI ajaba bhakti ke "have ApaNe tattvajJAna ApIzuM? pU.brahmacArIjI kaMI bolyA ekavAra pU.prabhuzrI, jesIMgabhAI vagere mumukSubhAI baheno ke nahIM. paNa moDhA upara sahaja smita karyuM. tyAre pU.prabhuzrIe mane sAthe bhoMyarAmAM padhAryA. tyAM mallinAtha bhagavAnanuM stavana kahyuM have to tattvajJAna na khovAya?" pachI tattvajJAnamAM pAchaLa prabhuzrIe bolAvarAvyuM. prabhuzrI bole ane bathA mumukSao jhIle. sAta vyasana ane sAta abhakSya vagere lakhavA mATe mane pUchyuM ke te vakhate prabhuzrIe ane jesIMgabhAI zeThe ullAsathI zuM bhakti "huM lakhI ApuM ke brahmacArI?" meM kahyuM e bAbata mane zuM khabara karI che ke te hajI paNa baghAne yAda Ave che. bhaktinA tAnamAM paDe. tyAre pU.prabhuzrIe pU.brahmacArIjIne AjJA karI : jethI prabhuzrI pharatA jAya ane pIMchI pheravatA jAya. teoe tattvajJAnamAM mane lakhI ApyuM hatuM. tevajJAna TUTI | | 142

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brahmacaryavratanI pratijJA paNa kuMvarabena brahmacarya pALavAmAM bahu majabUta che." zeTha punazIbhAI pahelAM pAnabena sAthe paraNyA hatA. vrata lIdhuM tyAre mArI uMmara lagabhaga 25 varSanI ane temane saMtAna nahIM thavAthI bIjAM lagna temaNe mArI sAthe karyA. te ; zeThanI uMmara 38 varSanI hatI ane kaMI saMtAna nahotuM. vrata lIdhA vakhate zeThanI uMmara 33 varSanI hatI. jyAre huM 23 varSanI thaI pachI 10 varSa zeThajI jIvyA hatA. rAtadivasa temanI sevA karI tyAre pAnabene 33 varSanI uMmare AjIvana brahmacarya vrata aMgIkAra : che, navarAvyA che paNa koI divasa e vAtano saMcAra thayo nathI. karyuM. be varSa pachI zeTha paNa AjIvana brahmacarya vrata levAno zeThajIe paNa TheTha sudhI nirmaLapaNe vrata pALyuM. Azcarya e che ke vicAra karI prabhuzrI pAse gayA ane kahe : prabhu AjIvana brahmacarya : AvA mahApuruSomAM kevuM sAmarthya pragaTatuM haze ke je bIjAnI vrata levuM che. prabhuzrI kahe "ene (ratanabenane) pUchyuM?' zeTha kahe : lazyAne paNa pheravI zake. ghanya che AvA mahApuruSone ke jeNe nA prabhu. e to Apa kaho to jarUra mAnaze, pachI mane bolAvI ke mArA jevA pAmara jIva upara Avo anahada upakAra karyo. prabhue pUchyuM "A zeTha zuM kahe che? AjIvana brahAcarya vrata : pahelA prabhuzrIe be varSa brahmacaryavratanI bAdhA ApI levAnI vAta kare che. tArI zuM icchA che?" tyAre meM kahyuM ke hatI. te vakhate uparanI pIMchI pheravavAnI vAta banelI. pachI te zeTha bimAra rahe che, mAre navarAvavA paDe che bIjA zarIra sevAnA kAma paNa karavA paDe che. mATe mArA aMtaramAM vikAra nahIM thAya, bhAva sArA rahe ane vrata khaMDita nahIM thAya evuM kaMI karI Apo. to huM vrata lauM. pU.prabhuzrInuM adbhuta AzcaryakArI sAmarthya tyAre prabhu kahe "badhuM karI ApIzuM. tuM baLatAmAMthI bahAra nIkaLI jA." pachI sADA traNa vAge prathama be varSanA vratanI bAghA prabhuzrIe ApI. prabhuzrI bahu rAjI thayA ane amane oraDAmAM laI jaI bannenA moMDhA para traNa vAra pIMchI pheravI. pachI rathanemi rAjulanuM draSTAMta kahyuM ke strIomAM keTalI zakti che ke saMyamamAMthI paDatAne paNa sthira karAvI zake. jema rAjule rathanemine sthira karyA hatA tema." pachI prabhuzrIe zeThano hAtha pakaDI mane kahyuM ke "A to bhoLAnAtha che, enuM samAdhimaraNa thavAnuM che. chevaTa sughI enI sevA karaje. ane tAre hAthe ja samAdhimaraNa karAvaje." vaLI prabhuzrIe mane khAsa bhArapUrvaka kahyuM ke patine paramezvara mAnavA. ane pachI namaskAra karavA paNa prathama ene savAramAM hAtha joDI namaskAra karavA. kaTAra mArI marI javuM paNa brahmacarya bhAMgavuM nahIM vaLI kahyuM, "ziyaLa bhAMgavuM nahIM. : bAdhA toDyA vagara saLaMga AjIvana evo vakhata Ave to jhera pIne ke kaTAra brahmacarya vratanI bAdhA pU.zrI brahmacArIjI mArI marI javuM. paNa brahAcarya bhAMgavuM pAse sabhAmaMDapamAM lIdhI hatI. kAraNa vrata nahIM.' vAMcanamAM brahmacarya saMbaMghI vAta Ave lIdhAne poNA be varasa thayA pachI tyAre pU.kuMvarabenanA brahmacaryanA bahu vakhANa : prabhuzrIjIno dehotsarga thaI gayo hato. karatA ane kahetA ke "Do.bhATe DhIlo che, zrI ratanabena zrI punazIbhAI 143

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mArA guru AzramamAM che amadAvAdanA nivAsI eka choTAkAkA hatA. te Abu bAju konTrAkTa2no dhaMdho karatA hatA. tyAM AbumAM koIe temane tattvajJAna ApyuM. e vAMcIne emaNe paMghAne sameTI lIdho. amadAvAda AvyA pachI munizrI mohanalAlajIno saMparka thayo ane tattvajJAnamAMthI samajAvavA jaNAvyuM. tyAre munizrI mohanalAlajIe kahyuM ke mArA guru AzramamAM che. pachI teo Azrama AvyA ane prabhuzrIjInA samAgamathI kAma dhaMdho saMpUrNa choDI dIdho. choTAkAkAne eka dukAna hatI. temAM eka pArasI bhAgIdAra hato. tene dukAna soMpI dIdhI ane kahyuM ke huM jIvuM tyAM sudhI mane mahine 150-00 rUpiyA ApavA. 4-5 lAkhanI dukAna hatI paNa temAMthI kaMI bhAga lIdho nahIM. choTAkAkA tathA choTAkAkAnI vahu, be jaNa ja hatA. chokarA nahotA. banne jaNa amadAvAdamAM haThIsIMganI vADInA mukhya daravAjA uparanA meDhA upara rahetA hatA. jJAnInI pratyeka AjJA kalyANakArI choTAkAkA tathA punazIbhAI zeTha banne jaNA agAsa AzramanA jinamaMdira mATe pratimA jovA pAlItANA gayA hatA. tyAre choTAkAkAnI vahune evA bhAva thayA ke prabhuzrI mATe phINanA lADavA banAvI temane vahorAvuM. pachI te laI AzramamAM AvyA. te vakhate choTAkAkAnI vahune prabhuzrIe pUchyuM ke 'roja bhakti karo cho ?' tyAre kAkIe kahyuM : badhI bhakti mane AvaDatI nathI paNa jeTalI AvaDe eTalI karuM chuM. 'mALA gaNo cho?' hA, mALA gaNuM chuM. pachI prabhuzrIe kahyuM ke roja "je svarUpa samajyA vinA'e gAthA bolyA karajo. pachI kAkI amadAvAda gayA ane thoDA divasomAM bimAra paDyA. tAva Avato hato. kAkI to khATalAmAM paDyAM paDyAM guNa guNa kare. choTAkAkA kahe tuM zuM bola bola kare che. tane bhakti saMbhaLAvuM? tyAre kAkI kahe tame jorathI bolo tethI mAruM mAthuM pAkI jAya. tyAre choTAkAkA kahe tuM zuM bole che? kAkIe kahyuM ke tame bhagavAnanI pratimA jovA pAlItANA gayA tyAre huM agAsa gaI hatI. tyAM mahArAje mane "je svarUpa samajyA vinA''e gAthA ApI che. ane kahyuM che ke e gAthA bolyA karaje. eTale e gAthA bolyA karuM chuM. have huM jIvavAnI nathI. chelle peharAvavA mATe kapaDAM meM taiyAra karI mUkyAM che. te choTAkAkAe joyAM. temAM sapheda sADI hatI. tethI kahe tuM jIvavAnI nathI to sapheda sADI zuM karavA mUkI che. selo (bhAre sADI) mUkane bhale bhaMgI pahere, tyAre kAkIe kahyuM bhale tamArI icchA. aMta samaye choTAkAkA kaThe caMpAbenane (nagara zeThANIne) bolAvuM ? tyAre kAkI kahe zuM karavA emane bolAvo, huM maLavAnI nathI. cha vAge mAro deha chUTaze. chatAM choTAkAkAe caMpAbenane bolAvyA paNa emanI gADI ThIsIMganI vADI nA daravAjA nIce AvI teTalAmAM emano de chUTI gayo. "je svarUpa samajyA vinA" pachI suvAnuM ja che ne pachI choTAkAkAe gharabAra kADhI nAkhyuM, kapaDAM ghareNAM ApI dIdhAM. ane caMpAbenane tyAM ja rahetA. choTAkAkAne lIdhe ja caMpAbena dharma pAmelA. divALIne divase rAtanA 12 vAge choTAkAkAno deha chUTelo, tyAre beThA beThA baghI mALAo gaNI hatI. te vakhate caMpAbene kahyuM ke bhAI thAkI gayA hazo, have sUI jAo. tyAre choTAkAkA kahe - pachI sUvAnuM ja che ne. 144

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zuM dhaNIpaNuM bajAvo cho? pU.prabhuzrI Akhara vakhate bimAra rahetA tyAre punazIbhAI zeTha paMdara paMdara divase AzramamAM AvatA. paraMtu mane sAthe lAvatA nahIM. mane sAthe laI javA ghaNIvAra kaheluM chatAM lAvatA nahIM ane kahetA ke zuM kAma che? prabhuzrI to eka ja vAra darzana Ape che. bolatA paNa nathI. tabiyata ThIka nathI. tyAre mane manamAM thayuM ke A strIparyAyane dhikkAra che. strItvane lIdhe dabAve che. nahIM to huM ekalI ja jaI zakuM. paNa prabhuzrIjI to A badhuM jJAna vaDe jANe che. zeTha Azrama AvyA, prabhune maLavA gayA. prabhuzrIjIe zeThane bahu Thapako Apyo ane kahyuM : "zuM ghaNIpaNuM bajAvo cho? kema ene laI nahIM AvyA? e to ahIM AvavA mATe TaLavaLe che to kema lAvatA nathI. bIjI vAra lIdhA vinA AvavuM nahIM." zeThajIne potAnI bhUla samajAI ane pazcAttApa thayo. pachI zeTha muMbaI javA nIkaLyA tyAre pU.prabhuzrIe mArA upara eka patra lakhI mokalAvela. te patra nIce mujaba che : sanAtana upayogamaya zAzvato dharma mUkI 6 arthAt tevI bhrAMtimAM paDIza nahIM. ane sahajatmasvarUpamAM ja dehamAM Atmabuddhi nahIM karuM 6 trikALa vAsa karIne rahIza. (3) anAdi arUpI ane amUrtika evuM ke mAruM zAzvata zuddha tat 3OM sat caitanya svarUpa tene mUkIne rUpI ane mUrtika evo je deha tene ananya zaraNanA ApanAra evA zrI sadguru deva : svasvarUpa nahIM mAnuM. paramakRpALu zrImad rAjacaMdra devAdhidevane atyaMta bhaktithI : (4) zaddha caitanya jJAnamUrtine mUkIne bahAra draSTie eTale namaskAra ho. namaskAra ho. carmacakSuvaDe cAmaDAne nahIM jouM. te to camAranI draSTi gaNAya. sata sAthaka pavitra saraLabhAva bhAvika AtmA pratye, ke je camAra hoya te ja cAmaDAne viSe raMjana thAya. huM to divya (1) sanAtana upayoga evo mAro zAzvato gharma mUkIne have netravALo deva chuM eTale jJAnamUrti zuddha caitanyane joIza, gurugame. jogane viSe eTale dehane viSe Atmabuddhi nahIM karuM arthAt (5) traNe kALe eka svarUpe rahenAra evI je samatArUpI zuddha jogane eTale dehane AtmasvarUpa nahIM mAnuM. caitanya jJAnamUrtine mUkIne jaDa ajIvamAM nahIM pariNamuM arthAt (2) zrI sadgurue Apelo anaMta dayAe karIne sahajAtma- : ajIvane svasvarUpa nahIM mAnuM. jIvarAzi jJAna darzana mULasvarUpe svarUpane mUkIne bhrAMtithI achatI vastune eTale pudgala Adikane jIvanAro jIva te ja mAruM sahajasvarUpa che. eTale emAM ja sAkSAt jevI vastu kalpIne emAM have pachI bharAIza nahIM; trikALa nivAsa karIne rahIza". 145

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prabhu ApanA pachI amAre AdhAra koNa? bIjIvAra zeTha muMbaIthI Azrama AvyA tyAre mane sAthe letA AvyA. prabhuzrInuM vizeSa mAMdagInuM drazya joI huM to tyAM ja raDavA beThI. prabhuzrI pratyeno gADha prema ane zraddhAthI mane thayuM ke have pachI amAre AdhAra koNa? prabhuzrIe pUchyuM "koNa raDe che?" brahmacArIjIe kahyuM ratanabena muMbaIthI AvyA che, te raDe che. prabhuzrI kahe "kema raDo cho bA? ame kyAMya javAnA nathI, ahIM ja chIe. zuM zarIra joI raDavuM Ave che?" tyAre kahyuM : nA prabhu, paNa ApanA pachI amAre AghAra koNa? Apane badhI vAta karI zAMti meLavatI hatI paNa pachI kone vAta karIza. ema vicAra AvavAthI raDavuM Ave che. ame Ane mUkI jaIe chIe, gAdI khAlI nathI' pU.prabhuzrIe pU.brahmacArIjIno hAtha pakaDI mane batAvIne kahyuM : "ame Ane mUkI jaIe chIe. gAdI khAlI nathI. amane je vAta kare che te badhI ahIM karavI. A (brahAcArIjI) kundana jevo che. jema vALIe tema vaLe che." A vANI sAMbhaLI manamAM kaMIka TADha5 vaLI. pU.prabhuzrIjI pachI paNa pU.brahmacArIjInA samAgamathI ghaNA praznonAM ukela thatAM manamAM zAMti rahetI paNa pU. brahmacArIjInA dehotsarga pachI ghaNo kheda thayo ke have mana kholavAno koI AghAra rahyo nahIM. kalikAlanuM pratyakSa darzana thAya che. jyAM te vakhatano bhakti, satsaMga, svAdhyAyano raMga ane kyAM Ajano, rAta-dahADAnuM aMtara che. chatAM te puruSonA samAgamanI smRtithI te dRzya khaDuM thaI jAya che ane AnaMda Ape che. aho! te mahApuruSono samAgama, temanuM darzana ane mudrA; AzcaryakAraka hatA. have pharI nahIM maLIe pU.prabhuzrI dvArA nizcita karela A vakhate ATha divasa Azrama rahI muMbaI javAnA hatA ? agnisaMskAranuM sthAnA tyAre eka kalAka sudhI pU.prabhuzrIe bogha karyo ane kahyuM ke A pU.prabhuzrIe potAno agnisaMskAra kyAM karavo te jagyA chello bogha che. pachI huM ane zeTha muMbaI javA sTezane gayA. : pU. brahmacArIjIne pAchaLathI prabhuzrIjI paNa sTezana tarapha AvI gunA godAmanuM batAvela. jyAre chAparuM che tyAM beThA tyAMthI kAzIbhAIne kahI amane sTezanathI : prabhuzrIno deha chUTI pAchA bolAvI prabhuzrIe maitrI, pramoda, karuNA ane mAdhyastha e gayo tyAre baghA cAra bhAvanAo upara ghaNo bogha karyo hato. ane kahyuM hatuM ke have TrasTIoe vicAra pharI nahIM maLIe. kharekhara pachI maLyA nathI. be mahinA pachI karyo ke agni pU.prabhuzrIno dehotsarga thaI gayo hato. saMskAra kyAM karavo. prabhuzrIe sTezanathI pAchA bolAvyA tyAre zeThe mane paNa kaMI sUjha paDI nahIM. aMte pU.zrI brahmacArIjIne pUchyuM ke kahyuM ke gADInA TAIme pAchuM nahIM avAyuM to? meM kahyuM kAle savAre zuM tamane pU.prabhuzrIe potAno agni saMskAra kyAM karavo te kaMI jaIzuM. hamaNAM to prabhuzrIjIe bolAvyA eTale javAnuM ja. pachI jaNAvela che? tyAre pU.zrI brahmacArIjIe jagyA batAvI kahyuM ke A jagyAe karavo ema kaheluM che. pU.prabhuzrInA dehatyAgano prabhuzrIjInA yogabaLe te divase gADI paNa poNA pAMcane badale viraha bAra mahinA sudhI pU.zrI brahmacArIjIne khUba lAgyo hato. savA cha vAgye AvI hatI. tethI temanuM moTuM adbhuta vairAgyamaya rahetuM hatuM. 146

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zeTha zrI mANekajI jeThAlAla vardhamAna muMbaI (DaoN.zrI bhAulAla bhATenI DAyarImAMthI udbhUta) sazurunI zodhamAM khUba ja ullAsita thayA ane prabhuzrIjInA caraNamAM mastaka mUkI zrI mANekajI zeThano janma saMvata-1940mAM thayo hato. gadgad kaMThe bolyA ke Apa ja bhagavAna cho, Apa ja mahAvIra janmathI ja khUba saMskArI puNyAtmA hatA. jema jema uMmara vadhatI cho. prabhuzrIjIe te vakhate emanA upara anaMta karuNA karIne, gaI tema tema pUrvanA gharmanA saMskAra khIlatA gayA. sadguru kyAre ? baporanA traNa vAge emanI pAse bolAvyA. baporanA traNathI cha maLe e jhaMkhanA vadhatI cAlI. dara varSe be cAra mahinA sadgurunI ema traNa kalAka sudhI zeThajIne ekAMtamAM besADI paramotkRSTa zoghamAM tIrthayAtrAe jatA. parelamAM emanA baMgalAmAM AvatA botha Apyo. bIjA divase paNa samAgamano pUrNa lAbha Apyo. jatA ghaNA saMpradAyanA sAdhuo UtaratA. vyavahArathI e sAdhuonI trIjA divase savAranA be kalAka besADI maMtranI AjJA ApI.ane sevA karatA paNa A sadguru che ema koI sAdhumAM emanI draSTi paramakRpALudevanA vacanAmRtanI gujarAtI AvRtti temane ApI. TharI nahIM. zeThajInA hAthe khAtamuhUrta A lakhanAra jarUra jJAnI puruSa mane (DaoN...bhATe) paramakRpALu prabhuzrIjIno samAgama saM.1974mAM thayelo. zeThajI (mANekajI) mane bhaNavA skolarazIpa ApatA. eTale emanA paricayamAM huM Avato paNa e moTA mANasa eTale prabhuzrIjI viSe emane kahevAno mane bhAva ke icchA spharela nahIM. huM M.B.E.S.nI parIkSA pAsa thayA pachI emanA baMgale rahevA gayo. eka vakhata mArA upara paramakRpALu prabhuzrIno eka bogha patra Avelo te vakhate huM emanI sAme beTho hato. emaNe mane pUchayuM patra kono Avyo che? meM kahyuM ke agAsathI zrI laghurAja svAmIno patra che. emaNe patra vAMcavAnI icchA darzAvI. saM.1978mAM prabhuzrIjIe 10 vAge lagabhaga zeThajInA meM emanA hAthamAM patra mUkyo. emaNe eka lakSathI e patra vAMcyo hAthe derAsara, sabhAmaMDapanI khAtamuhUrta vidhi karAvI. zeThajIe ane kahyuM ke A lakhanAra jarUra jJAnI puruSa che. prabhuzrIjInA te vakhate ullAsabhAve lobha choDavA rUpiyA traNa hajAra e mahAna darzana samAgamanA bhAva zeThajIne jAgyA. saM. 1978nA pajAsaNamAM kAryamAM lakhAvyA. ane emanA mitramaMDaLamAMthI bIjAM nANAM meLavI mAre agAsa AvavAnuM hatuM. emaNe paNa mArI sAthe AvavA ApavA banatuM karIza ema bolyA. kahyuM, paNa emanA bhANAnI tabiyata narama thaI gayela tethI teo have to mane sAkSAt bhagavAna maLyA mArI sAthe na AvI zakyA. paNa temaNe mane kahyuM ke tame agAsa trIje divase sAMjanA pAMcanI TrenamAM agAsathI muMbaI bhale jAo, huM be divasa pachI jarUra AvIza. paNa pachI e : tarapha ravAnA thayA. muMbaI AvyA pachI emanA mukhethI samAgamanI AvI na zakyA. prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke "e hamaNAM nahIM Ave, vAto AnaMdathI bharapUra nIkaLavA lAgI. have to mane sAkSAt paNa thoDA vakhata pachI jarUra Avaze.' bhagavAna maLyA che. have to pravRttimAMthI nivRtta thaIne agAsa Apa ja bhagavAna cho AzramamAM sthira thaIza. evA bhAvanA vacano mukhethI nIkaLavA saM.1978nI ja sAlanA Aso mahinAmAM zeThajI ! lAgyA. mane (Do.bhATane) emaNe kahyuM ke DaoN.bhATe have tAre paNa ratalAma gayA hatA. tyAMthI savAranI TrenamAM 10 vAge agAsa mArI sAthe ja agAsamAM rahevuM. tyAM ja ApaNe paramakRpALudevanI AvyA. paramakRpALu prabhuzrIjInI sanmukha beThA. paramakRpALu bhaktimAM, prabhuzrIjInA samAgame AtmasAdhanAmAM jIvana pUrNa prabhuzrIjIe emanA bhAva jANIne prathama samAgame paramotkRSTa karIzuM. huM paNa emanI utkRSTa bhAvanAmAM anukuLa thayo. amo bodha karyo. temanI sarva zaMkAonuM pUrNa samAghAna thaI gayuM. te : banne eka nizcaya upara AvyA. tethI mane ane zeThajIne khUba botha emanA pavitra saraLa AtmAmAM paDatAM ja emanA bhAva : AnaMda thayo. 149

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badhA zabdono paramArtha ? ema bhAsa thAya che. prabhuzrIjIe avasara joIne temanA pUrvabhavanI eka paramakRpALadeva vAta karI ane kahyuM ke "AtmAnI nirmaLatAthI AgalA bhavanI zeThajI dara mahine ahIM smRti rahe paNa tethI vizeSa vairAgya pAmIne mohane chedavo. | AzramamAM AvatA. 15-20 : vairAgyanuM kharuM kAraNa evuM je sagurudevanuM zaraNa ane Azraya e ja grahaNa karavA. jeTale aMze saguru pratye AthInapaNuM che divasa ahIM rokAtA ane 8 teTale aMze ja kharo vairAgya pragaTe che." zeThajIne A vakhate thI 10 divasa muMbaI jatA. vairAgya-bhAva khUba ja vadhela.' maMtrano jApa khUba ja ullAsathI baLavAna zraddhAthI karatA. pU.prabhuzrIjI pratye pUrNa zraddhA zeThajIne UMgha bahu ochI AvatI. rAtre koIvAra mane bolAve prabhuzrIjInA vacana upara zeThajIne kevI pUrNa zraddhA hatI ane prabhuzrIjIe je bodha karyo hoya te upara khUba ja UMDA UtarI : te siddha karanAra eka prasaMga banelo je nIce jaNAvuM chuM :vicAraNA kare. zeThajI "DaoNkaTara' eTalo avAja kare ke huM tarata ja ! zeThajI muMbaI javA taiyAra thaIne, prabhuzrIjInI AjJA UThI emanI sAme nIce besI jAuM. apUrva AnaMdathI, apUrva levA gayA. prabhu, huM muMbaI jAuM chuM. prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM - "amadAvAda bhAvathI zeThajI vAto kare. emanI vAtamAM prabhuzrIjInA mukhathI jAo cho." zeThajIe prabhuzrIjInuM vacana tarata ja grahaNa karI nIkaLelA vacano ja hoya. e vacanono paramArtha khuba UMDA UtarIne lIdhuM ane prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM ke prabhu amadAvAda jaIza. muMbaI na zeThajI kahe. badhA zabdono paramArtha eka paramakRpALudeva ja che, jatAM amadAvAda gayA. tyAM sTezana upara maganalAla jhaverI maLyA. ema zeThajI kahetA. eka paramakRpALudevano ja akhaMDa lakSa rAkhI maganalAla jhaverIe kahyuM zeTha tame ahIM kyAMthI? zeThajIe kahyuM - e lakSa draDha thavA arthe khUba vicAraNA karatA. zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama gayo hato, tyAMthI AvuM chuM. zeThajIne jAtismaraNajJAna zrImad rAjacaMdra pUrNa vizvAsa rAkhavA yogya jhaverI zeThajIne jAtismaraNajJAna hatuM. paNa jyAM sudhI prabhuzrIjI maganalAla jhaverI bolyA ke zrImad rAjacaMdrane huM sArI na kahe tyAM sudhI nirdhAra karavA besavA taiyAra na hatA. eka vakhata rIte oLakhuM chuM. tamArA pitAzrI jeThAlAla vardhamAnane, tamArA prabhuzrIjIe avasara joIne emanA pUrvabhava viSe spaSTa vAta lagna prasaMge hIrAno hAra levo hato, te hIrAno hAra meM zrImad karI. zeThajInA mAtuzrI khetabAInA pitAzrI zeTha trikamajI velajI rAjacaMdra pAsethI apAvela. zrImad rAjacaMdrane teDIne huM tamArA mAlu, kacchI dazA osavAla komanA pratiSThita zrImaMta gRhastha pitA pAse laI Avyo hato ane kahyuM ke A hIrAno hAra tame hatA. teo atyaMta jijJAsu, satsaMga icchaka ane gharmapremI hatA. A jhaverI zrImad rAjacaMdra pAsethI kharIdo. zrImad rAjacaMdra saMpUrNa jenA upara prema tenI kukhe janma pramANika satya vAta karanAra che. pUrNa vizvAsa rAkhavA yogya vavANiyA thaIne te vakhate kaccha javAtuM. tethI trikamajI jhaverI che. pachI te hIrAno hAra zrI jeThAbhAI zeThe zrImadjI zeThane vavANiyAmAM paramakRpALudevanAM darzana thayelAM, ema pAsethI kharIdyo hato. te vakhate tamArI ummara lagabhaga 12 prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvela. varSanI hatI. tame zrImadjIne pAna sopArI ApavA mAMDI. paNa - trikamajI zeThane putra na hato, eka putrI khetabAI hatI. : emaNe na svIkArI. pachI tame elacI dANA ApyA te laI te khetabAI upara temane atyaMta prema hato. jenA upara prema hoya tamArI sAme premabharI amIdraSTithI nihALyuM. ATalI vAta sAMbhaLI tenI kUkhe avataravuM paDe, evo mohano prabhAva che. te kAraNe zeThajI khUba AnaMda pAmyA. pachI eka rAta maganalAla jhaverIne trikamajI zeTha potAnI putrI khetabAInI kUkhethI mANekajI zeTha tyAM amadAvAda rokAI pAchA AzramamAM AvyA. rUpe avataryA. nAnI vayamAM ja AgalA bhavanuM smaraNa hatuM, tethI pratyakSa darzananuM A phaLa kaccha koThArAmAM (emanA mULa gAmamAM) emanA makAnanA kabATamAM kaI kaI cIjo rAkhela che te pUrva bhavanI smRtithI jANI, kabATa : prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke paramakRpALudevanA pratyakSa darzana tamane kholI emaNe rAkhela cIjo kADhela. paNa e vAtane teo bahu thayelA tenuM ja A phaLa che. te vakhate tamArA AtmA upara tamArI mahatva nahotA ApatA. ane koIne paNa khAsa kaheluM nahIM. phakta : saraLatA joIne karuNAmRta varasAveluM tethI A samAgamane tame mane kaheluM ke emanA bAnA pitA trikamajI zeThano jIva pote hoya ! pAmyA cho. te sAMbhaLI zeThajI khUba ja AnaMda pAmyA hatA. 150

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pUnAmAM cAturmAsA prabhuzrIjIne saM.1980nA caturmAsa arthe pUnAmAM emanA baMgalAmAM sthiratA karavA zeThajIe vinaMtI karI. temanA utkRSTa bhAva joIne prabhuzrIjIe hA pADI. pUnAmAM cAturmAsa vakhate paramotkRSTa bogha thayo hato. mAro vahAlo paisAnA ThekANe rUpIyo vApare che saM.1980mAM yAtrArthe sametazikhara gayA. tyAMthI pAchA pharI te comAsu pUnAmAM zeTha mANekajI vardhamAnane tyAM karyuM. -upadezAmRta (pR.63) pUnAmAM bhakti taMbumAM thatI. taMbumAM citrapaTa ane prabhuzrIjInI pATa goThavavA mANekajI zeTha jAte mahenata letA. tyAM prabhuzrIjI padhAryA ane prabhuzrIjInA pATa upara kaMI kiMmatI vastra bAMdhavAnI nA pADI ane sAdI pATa kapALadevanA citrapaTa karatA nIcI rAkhavAnI bhalAmaNa karI. pachI jenA upara kRpALudevano citrapaTa pagharAvavAno hato, tene sApha karAvI sonerI raMgAvI zeTha kharca karatA hatA te viSe-prabhuzrIjI bolyA ke "hamaNAM e khUba vegamAM AvI gayo che, mAro vAlo paiso kharcavo ghaTe tyAM rUpiyA kharcI nAkhe che, ane kheMcI na jhAlIe to zuM nuM zuM karI nAkhe." taMbu taiyAra thayA pachI kRpALudevanA citrapaTa upara ane prabhuzrIjIvALI jagA upara chAMTo paNa varasAda na paDe te mATe taMbunA kapaDA taLe patarAM naMkhAvI nIce kapaDAMnI chata karAvI hatI." - pU.prabhuzrIjInA boghanI noMghapothI 1 (pR.24) pUnAmAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe comAsuM kareluM te makAna paramakRpALudevanA mArganuM maMDANa thaI cukyuM che lAkhanI) ghaMghAmAM gaI che. tyAre mANekajI zeTha bolyA ke prabhu! kacaro gayo. pU. mANekajI zeTha tathA bIjA 50 thI 60 mumukSuonI samakSa saM.1979nA caitra mahinAmAM eka divasa rAtre 10 vAge sabhAmaMDapanA bAMdhakAmamAM tanamanadhanathI madada pUrNa ullAsamAM AvI prabhuzrIjI boghamAM bolyA - agAsa Azramano sabhA maMDapano haoNla bAMghavAmAM paramakRpALudevanA mArganuM maMDANa thaI cUkyuM che. ame mANekajI zeThanI Arthika ane bIjI rIte ghaNI madada hatI. amArI pAchaLa eka brahAcArI mUkI jaIzuM. je paramakRpALudevanA bhagatajI kahetA ke sabhAmaMDapa nIce bhoMyarAmAM lokhaMDanA gaDara huM mArgano parama udyota karaze, parama prabhAvanA karaze." ane mANekajI zeTha paNa caDhAvavAmAM madada karatA. zeThano muMbaIno prabhuzrIjInA upadezathI dhana mAla dhULa jevA ke mALo toDelo tenA baghA lAkaDAM ahIM lAvI uparanA sabhAmaMDapanA pU.prabhuzrIjI AgaLa zrI mANekajI zeTha beThA hatA ane huM kAmamAM lIdhAM hatA. indorathI tAra Avyo ke ghaNI moTI rakamanI khoTa (lagabhaga dasa : 151

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maraNano bhaya pU.prabhuzrIjI kahe : pUnAmAM eka nAraNajIbhAIe mane pUchyuM, 'mahArAja sAheba, A mANekajIne Ape zuM karyuM che? pahelA to roja hajAmata karanAra have aThavADiye ya karAvatA jaNAtA nathI. meM kahyuM, "prabhu, temane maraNano bhaya lAgyo che." samAdhimaraNathI svarganA vaibhavamAM khaLI rahe nahIM pU.zrI brahmacArIjIe indorathI AvI zeThanA dehAvasAnanA samAcAra vagere pU.prabhuzrIjIne ApatA kahyuM - pU.vasanajI aThavADiyA upara AzramamAM AvelA tyAre temane Ape mANekajI zeThane dharmavRddhinuM jaNAvavA kaheluM tethI te tyAM gayelA. mANekajI zeThe temane kahyuM mArI ghAta be traNa divasamAM che, tethI tuM mArI pAse rahI mane maMtra smaraNa ApyA karaje. temanA kahyA pramANe temanI sevAmAM te rahelA. zeThanuM citta dharmamAM lIna hatuM. te sAMbhaLI pU.prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke "dhanya che ene. enI lezyA bahu sArI rahI. AvI bhAvanAe deha choDavAthI te svarga vagerenA vaibhavamAM khaLI rahe nahIM. koI kevaLI ke tIrthaMkarane zothI dharma ArAdhaze. have tene lAMbo saMsAra nathI. vAha prabhu! bahu sarasa thayuM. kevo rUDo jIva! e to e ja. enI udAratA, enI samajaNa, zraddhA kevA hatA! tema chatAM sahanazIlatA ane laghuttA paNa kevI dIpI nIkaLI hatI !'' samAdhima2NanI chellI zikhAmaNa "poSa mahinAnI pUnama upara e AvelA tyAre prabhu, zuM enI zraddhA ane lezmA jaNAtA hatAM! ane enA puNyodayathI zarIra sAruM nahotuM chatAM jANe samAdhimaraNanI chellI zikhAmaNa devAtI hoya evI koI apUrva vAta nIkaLI hatI ke sADA cAranI gADI jatI rahI. bodhamAM lIna thaI gayelA ane rAtre pAchA darzana karavA AvelA te vakhatano temano bhAva ullAsa je hato te tene TheTha sudhI kAma Avyo che.' DaoN. zrI bhAulAla bhATe vItarAganI ke vItarAga vijJAnanI ja vAta karatA teo maraNa pahelAM aThavADiyuM vyAvahArika vAto bhUlI jaI je Ave tene eka agAsanI, parama kRpALudevanI, prabhuzrIjInI ane paramakRpALudevanA boghanI ja vAta karatA. ema bhAI vasanajI je emane maMtra saMbhaLAvavA mATe rokyA hatA te jaNAvatA hatA. zrI mANekajI zeTha viSe mumukSu pAse sAMbhaLelI 152 vigata :-- deva thaI maMdironA darzane pU.prabhuzrIjI agAsI upara pharatA pharatA sImaraDAvALA motIbhAI bhagatajIne kahyuM ke mANekajI zeThano AtmA deva thayo che. tenuM vimAna badhe maMdironA darzana karavA phare che.' zrI mANekajI zaika

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zrI chaganabhAI desAIbhAI paTela naroDA bhoMyarAmAM kRpALudevanA ! tane hAlatAM cAlatAM raNachoDajI batAvuM citrapaTanI caumukhI saMvat 1982nI sAlamAM mArA mitra AtmarAme mane jyArathI agAsa AzramanI zarUAta DAkora javAnI pharaja pADI. meM paNa kahyuM ke tuM agAsa Azrama thaI tyArathI huM AzramamAM jato Avato. Ave to huM tArI sAthe DAkora AvuM. teNe kabulyuM. jethI ame zarUAtamAM prabhazrIjI ane pU.mohanalAlajI mahArAjanI be : DAkora gayA. savAre darzana karavA maMdire gayA. khUba bhIDa hatI. rUmo ane eka patarAnuM DhALIyuM hatuM. temAM paramakRpALudevano citrapaTa : ghakkA lAgavA lAgyA. eka ghakke kaThere pahoMcyA ane bIje ghakke mUkI bhakti thatI ane pU.prabhuzrIjI bogha ApatA. pachI sabhAmaMDapa : pagathIyA nIce. chatAM ghakkA khAtAM meM raNachoDajI bhagavAnane kahyuM nIce bhoMyaruM taiyAra thayuM tyAre tyAM bhakti thatI. eka vakhata ke have huM pharI ahIM nahIM AvuM ane AtmArAmane pakaDIne kahyuM bhoMyarAmAM thAMbhalAnI cAre bAju kRpALudevanA citrapaTo mUkI have ApaNe bahAra nIkaLI jaIe. kyAM sudhI ghakkA khAIzuM. tuM caumukhI banAvIne pU.prabhuzrIjI ane mumukSuoe pharatA pharatA : mArI sAthe cAla tane hAlatA cAlatAM pratyakSa raNachoDajI batAvuM. bhakti karI hatI. te vakhate huM paNa hAjara hato. mane paNa ghaNo prema ? pachI ame agAsa AzramamAM AvyA. 5.pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzana Avyo hato. te vakhate rasoDuM nahotuM. khIcaDI, AkhA maracAM tathA samAgama pachI AtmArAmane pUchyuM bola A puruSa kema ane mIThuM pANI lasoTI khAtA hatA. tenA yogabaLe bIjuM kaMI lAge che? teNe kahyuM kharekhara pratyakSa raNachoDajI to A ja che. have sAMbharatuM nahotuM. bhaktiboghano ghaNo AnaMda Avato. mAre kyAMya javuM nathI. pachI amane smaraNamaMtranI AjJA ApI pU.mohanalAlajI mahArAja kahetA ke hAthamAM paisA Ave ke tAre hatI. tathA parama kRpALudevano citrapaTa ane tattvajJAna ApyA tarata ahIM AvatA rahevuM. tema huM karato hato. ane pU.brahmacArIjIe tattvajJAnamAM te lakhI ApyuM hatuM. amane "Ajano lahAvo lyo kAla koNe dIThI che' beyane thayuM ke ApaNuM to kAma thaI gayuM. naroDA AvI citrapaTa maDhAvI roja bhakti karatA. AtmArAme paNa deha chUTatA sudhI 5.u.5.pU.prabhuzrIjI ekavAra naroDA padhArelA. tyAre zraddhA e ja TakAvI rAkhI hatI. gAmanI sImamAM bhulAbhAI goranA khetaramAM AMbAnI lAIna nIce maMDapa bAMdhI mumukSuo sAthe bhakti thaI hatI. te vakhate huM daza varSano hato. prabhuzrI pIMchI UMcI karI AvezamAM AvI bhaktimAM bolelA ke "Ajano lahAvo lyo, kAla koNe dIThI che' te drazya haju yAda Ave tyAre najarAya che. te vakhate mane gharmanI garaja nahIM paNa prabhuzrIjIne joI AnaMda Avato. jyAre huM 1213 varSano hato tyAre prabhuzrIjIe ahIM naroDA comAsuM karela. te vakhate temanI sevA karavA divase ke rAtre jyAre TAIma maLe tyAre huM jato. pUrva saMskAre temane joI AnaMda Avato. darzana mATe AvyuM, Dagale Dagale jagananuM phaLa ekavAra agAsa AzramamAM prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA badhA AvyA. temAM mANeka DosI ghIre ghIre cAlatA AvatA hatA. te joI prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM "tyAM rahyAM rahyAM bhAvanA karo." tyAre mANekabAe kahyuM bApA! darzana karyA vinA mArAthI rahevAtuM nathI. bApA kahe : "darzana mATe DagalA bharAya che temAM Dagale Dagale jagananuM puNya che." 153

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ahIM 2hene, kazuMe sAthe AvavAnuM nathI bIjIvAra huM Azrama Avyo tyAre prabhuzrIjIe mane kahyuM - "tAre ahIM rahevuM che?" meM kahyuM hA bApA. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke "ahIM rahene, kAma thaI jaze, kazuMe sAthe AvavAnuM nathI.' A vacano mane aMtaramAM UtarI gayA hatA. jA tArI devagati thaI huM mahine savA mahine naroDA jato ane cAra pAMca divase pAMca rUpiyA Ape eTale huM AzramamAM AvI jato. ema karatAM chaeka mahinA thayA. mArA pitAzrI Azrama AvavA mATe AnAkAnI karatA. pU.prabhuzrIjInA kahevAthI patra lakhI temane meM Azrama bolAvyA. te AvyA pachI pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA gayA. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe temane kahyuM "A chokarAnI ADe AvIza nahIM. te je karato hoya te karavA deje. e je mAge te Apaje.' pachI pitAzrI gaLagaLA thaI gayA ane namaskAra karI kahyuM bApA! have huM ADe nahIM AvuM. e je mAMgaze te ApIza. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM "jA tArI devagati thaI." prabhu, ame to kRpALudevanA zaraNe beThA chIe huM jyAM jato tyAM prabhuzrIjInA darzana thatAM. ema lagabhaga cha mahinA cAlyuM. ekavAra huM rAjamaMdiramAM savAre sADApAMca vAge darzana karavA gayo tyAre prabhuzrIjI agAsImAM pATa upara beThA hatA. temaNe brahmacArIjIne pUchyuM koNa Ave che? temaNe rUmamAM joyuM to koIne joyo nahIM. pachI rAjamaMdiramAM joyuM to huM namaskAra karato hato. tethI brahmacArIjIe prabhuzrIjI pAse jaI kahyuM - naroDIyo Ave che. eTalAmAM huM temanI pAse gayo. prabhuzrIjIe mane pUchyuM - "zuM levA Avyo?" tyAre meM kahyuM, "ApanuM zaraNa" ema kahI temanA khoLAmAM mastaka mUkI dIdhuM. pachI pUbrahmacArIjIe prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM "ApanuM zaraNa mAMge che." tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM "prabhu, ame to kRpALudevanA zaraNe beThA chIe, emanuM zaraNa rAkhavuM, kAma thaI jaze." ema kahI jANe kapALudevanA zaraNamAM mane mUkI dIdho. tyArapachI jyAM tyAM prabhuzrIjIne dekhato te have baMdha thaI gayuM. 154

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munipaNAnI bhAvanA rAkhI yogyatA vadhAro eka divasa pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM amAre eka be jaNane dIkSA ApavI che. eka be chokarA dhyAnamAM Ave che. te sAMbhaLI Azare paMdara jaNa dIkSA levA taiyAra thayA. temAM huM paNa hato. pachI prabhuzrIjI bolyA sAta sAta divasa sudhI khAvA na maLe, keza loca karavo paDaze, khullA page cAlavuM paDaze, bhoMya para sUvuM paDaze. evI ghaNI vAta kahI. temanI AjJAe game tema thAya ame taiyAra hatA. paNa manamAM Azrama mUkI bIje javuM paDaze. tyAM pU.prabhuzrIjIno bogha maLaze nahIM. e ciMtA hatI. pachI pU.prabhuzrIjI svayaM bolI UThyA ke "prabhu! A kALa munipaNAno nathI. munipaNAnI bhAvanA rAkhI yogyatA vadhAravA je sthitimAM cho temAM rahI bhakti satsaMgamAM maMDyA raho." ghaNAe paisA mUkyA paNa chokaro soMpyo nahIM. mArA bA traNa mahinA AzramamAM rahI naroDA jatI vakhate prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM bApA huM jauM chuM paNa A chokaro Apane soMpuM chuM. pU.prabhuzrIjIe pU.brahmacArIjIne lAve! ahIM zuM karavA Avyo chuM? ema AkhI rAta UMgha na AvI. pUchyuM zuM kahe che? pU.brahmacArIjIe kahyuM - e kahe che ke huM jauM chuM ! savAre saMdezara jaI DabI pAchI ApI Avyo tyAre zAMti thaI. paNa A chokaro tamane soMpuM chuM. pU.prabhuzrIjI kahe - "jA DozI tArI devagati thaI. Aja sudhI ghaNAe paisA mUkyA paNa koIe huM Aje koI mumukSa AvI jame to AnaMda thAya chokaro soMpyo nahIM. jA tArA chokarAnuM kAma thaI jaze." savAranI gADImAM naroDA javA mATe agAsathI bIjuM koI ApanAra maLaze to tuM zuM nahIM lAve! amadAvAdanI meM TIkITa lIdhI. mahemadAbAda AvyuM ne mAro te vakhate AzramamAM rAtre nava vAgyA sudhI sabhAmaMDapamAM vicAra pharyo. mane thayuM ke huM pahelAM vaTavA sTezane UtarI zeThazrI bhakti cAlatI. pachI prabhuzrIjI pAse rAtre bAra vAgyA sudhI choTAlAlane maLI pachI naroDA jAuM. tethI huM vaTavA UtarI temanA bogha cAlato. koIka vakhate mane tyAM UMgha AvatI. ghare gayo. tyAM nagara zeThANI caMpAbA AvelA. temaNe Aje hAthe rasoI karelI. temanA manamAM evI bhAvanA thaI ke pU.prabhuzrIjI tethI saMdezara jaI AMkhamAM nAkhavA mATe maganabhAI pAse chIMkaNI pAsethI koI mumukSu Ave ane A rasoI jame to kevo AnaMda mAgI. temaNe kahyuM A DabbI rahI, laI jA. huM DabbI laI Avyo. thAya. eTalAmAM huM tyAM gayo. te joI caMpAbAne khUba ullAsa rAtre mane vicAra Avyo ke tuM chIMkaNI lAvyo paNa DabbI kema Avyo ane mane premapUrvaka jamADyo hato. lAvyo? kAle tane bIjuM koI ApanAra maLaze to tuM zuM nahIM ! 155

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puNyAnubaMdhI puNya hoya to vAta ruce prabhuzrIjIno ullAsa joI amAruM citta praphullita naroDAmAM harIbhAI ghoLIdAsa vizeSa mAMdA hatA ane pU.prabhuzrIjI Abu gayelA jANI huM paNa tyAM gayo ane huM naroDA javAno hato tyAre pU.prabhuzrIjIne pUchatAM mane "mRtyu prabhuzrIjInA darzana karyA tyAre temaNe kahyuM "naroDIyA, tuM Avyo? mahotsava' nAmanuM nAnuM pustaka ApI jaNAvyuM ke "A pustaka meM kahyuM hA, bApA. pachI prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM - "AhAra AvavuM che? temane saMbhaLAvaje ane ahIM savAra sAMja bhakti karIe chIe kAma thaI jaze.' meM kahyuM hA prabhu AvavuM che. Ahora gayA tyAre te temanI pAse karaje." naroDA jaI haribhAIne kahyuM prabhuzrIjIe huM lagabhaga be hajAra bhAI baheno rAha joI UbhA hatA. tyAM bhakti pachI prasAdImAM drAkSa ane badAma khobA bharI bharIne Ape; te tamane gharmavRddhinuM jaNAvyuM che ane mRtyu mahotsavanuM A pustaka ! joI huM to Abho ja banI gayo ke aho AhAranA mumukSuono tamane vAMcI saMbhaLAvavA kahyuM che. tathA AzramamAM bhakti thAya che kevo bhaktibhAva che. bIje divase AtmasiddhinI pUjA bhaNAvI te tamArI pAse karavA kahyuM che. tyAre temaNe kahyuM bhAI mane koI hatI. temAM mumukSubhAIono eTalo utsAha hato ke page jhAMjhara bole che to tobA thAya che. mAruM citta kapALadevamAM ja che. ema bAMghI bhaktimAM nAcyA hatA. ane hAthamAM thALI laI tene eka kahI pustaka vAMcavA na dIdhuM ane bhakti bolavA jAuM to paNa nA AMgaLI upara pheravatA hatA. huM prabhuzrI pAse besI vIMjhaNuM vIMjhato pADe. bIjI vAtomAM mAthuM mAre paNa jene puNyAnubaMdhI puNya hoya hato. tyAM bhakti pachI sadagurudevakI jaya evA bhAvathI bolAya tene e vAta ruce. pachI deha chUTI gayo. Azrama gayo tyAre ke zarIramAM jhaNajhaNATI thaI jAya. te vakhate prabhuzrIjIno ullAsa prabhuzrIjIne badhI hakIkata kahI tyAre prabhuzrIjIe mAthe hAtha mUkI : joI amAruM hRdaya phATI jAya evo ullAsa Avyo hato. kahyuM ke prabhu zuM karIe? pahelA paNa harIbhAI Azrama AvyA 6 mumukSubhAI bahenone bhaktino khUba ja lAbha maLyo hato. tyAre pU.prabhuzrIjIne be zabdo kahevAno meLa paDyo na hato. prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM "prabhu Avo lAbha jiMdagImAM kadI maLaze nahIM." sAsa na karyuM prabhuzrInA zabdamAtrathI anarthanuM aTakana Azrama pAsenA khetaramAMthI roja koI juvAra kApI jatuM. eka divasa khetaranA ghaNIe nakkI karyuM ke Aje to juvAra kApI janArane pakaDI pUro karI nAkhuM, bIjI vAta nahIM. tevAmAM prabhuzrIjI ne khetara pAse eka jhADa nIce beThA hatA. bogha cAlato hato. tyAM boghamAM ema bolyA ke "sAhasa na karavuM te khetaranA ghaNInA kAnamAM A vacana paDyuM tethI vicAra Avyo ke eka vAra to joIe pachI vAta. te jotAM potAno ja bhatrIjo nIkaLyo. tene mArI nAkhyo hota to mAre ja rovAno vakhata Avata. pachI prabhuzrIjI pAse AvI teNe kahyuM Aje jo ApanA zabdo mArA kAne na paDyA hota to Aje huM kaMInuM kaMI karI besata. zrI chaganabhAI 156

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zrI zivajIbhAI devasiMha zAha maDhaDAvALA chellA varSe AkarSI temano karelo uddhAra pAlItANAmAM bhAI zivajI nAmanA kacchI zrAvake jaina borDiMga sthApI hatI. tyAM 'vIra aThThAI mahotsava' karyo hato. tyAM A munivaro jatA ane bhAI zivajI sAthe paricaya thayelo, paNa gADha paricaya thaI je mAhAtmya bhAsavuM joIe tevo prasaMga te cAturmAsamAM banelo nahIM. mAtra saraLa svabhAvI, bhaktivaMta, zrImanA ziSya che evo bhAva rahelo. zrI ratnarAjanA vAkcAturyanI temanA para sArI asara thayelI ane temanuM mAhAtmya lAgeluM. pachInA varSomAM bhAI zivajIbhAI siddhapura AzramamAM be traNa mAsa rahelA; paNa ethI emanuM dila ThareluM nahIM. teo zrI lallujI svAmInA darzanArthe koI koI vakhata varSamAM ekAda divasa AvI jatA. paNa saM.1992mAM 26 varSanA lAMbA gALA bAda svAmIjI sAthe eka mAsa rahevAnI anukULatA zrI agAsakSetre zrImad rAjacaMdra AzramamAM maLI AvI. prabhuzrIjI pratye pragaTelo prema te vakhate prabhuzrI--laghurAjasvAmI, zrI lallujI muni evAM nAmathI oLakhAtA, keTalAka bhoLA pATIdAra loko 'bApA' paNa kahetA. temanA aMtaHkaraNanI vizALatA, prabhuprema ane prabhAva zrI zivajIne samajAyA ane ghAmaNa bhaNInA bhaktono samAgama thatAM temane purANI zrI kRSNakathA yAda AvI. jema uddhavajIne zrIkRSNe gokuLamAM mokalyA hatA te zrI gopAMganAonI bhaktinA raMge raMgAIne AvyA hatA tema zrI zivajIne paNa thayuM hatuM. zrI lallujI svAmI zrI zivajIe pAlItANAmAM karelI sevA ghaNI vakhata yAda karatA; te RNa patAvavA ja jANe chellA varSamAM temane AkarSIne temanA para kRpA karI hoya evo acAnaka e eka mAsano prasaMga banyo hato. zrI zivajI bhaktinA AvezamAM AvI gayelA. tevA prasaMge 'agAsanA saMta' ane 'mane maLyA guruvara zAnI re' jevAM temaNe pote lakhelAM gIto AzramanA mumukSujanone avAranavAra gavarAvatA. -u. (pR.40) have mArI pAchaLa ghaNI che zivajI kahe--"have to huM badhA mArA mitrone jaNAvI dauM chuM ke huM pharI gayo chuM ane kRpALudevane tathA prabhuzrIjIne mAnya kIdhA che, to bIjA loko mAnatA nathI ke ema hoya nahIM. to huM temane chAtI ThokIne kahuM chuM ke ema ja che ane ema ja samajajo, bIjuM nathI. huM javAno chuM. Aje badhA mumukSubhAIone kahI jAuM chuM ke havethI mane prabhuzrIjInI kRpAthI bahu baLa rahyA kare che. mArA ahIM A vakhatanA divaso bahu ja AnaMda ane utsAhamAM gayA che, kAraNa ke have mArI pAchaLa ghaNI che.'' 158 mane maLyA guruva2 jJAnI re "mane maLyA guruvara zAnI re, mArI saphaLa thaI jiMdagAnI; zrImad devasvarUpe dIThA, laghurAja prabhu lAgyA mIThA; Atmika jyoti pichAnI re, mArI saphaLa thaI jiMdagAnI. bhAgyodaya thayo mAro Aje, coTI cittavRtti gururAje; kharI karI meM kamANI re, mArI saphaLa thaI jiMdagAnI. dustara bhavasAgara taravAno, dilamAM leza nahIM DaravAno, maLyA sujANa sukAnI re, mArI saphaLa thaI jiMdagAnI. mana, vacana, kAyA lekhe lagADuM, bhaktisudhArasa cAkhuM cakhADuM; bhakti ziva-kara jANI re, mArI saphaLa thaI jiMdagAnI." bolo zrI sadgurudevakI......jaya ! ahIM mane na dhArelo, na kalpelo evo khUba AnaMda Avyo che. AkhI jiMdagImAM Avo AnaMda nathI Avyo. prabhuzrI--'mukhya vAta to AtmA, bhAva ane pariNAma. bIjuM konuM sagapaNa karavuM che?' 2.mumukSu--'savi jIva karuM zAsanarasI, evI bhAvadayA mana ullasI.' prabhuzrI--'jIva rUDo che. mane aMtarathI game che. kaMI nathI, manuSya bhavamAM A sAra che.'' (u.pR.239)

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zrI DAhyAbhAI nAthubhAI ghAmaNavALA jaNAve che - prabhu! tame dhAmaNa padhAro chellA varSamAM zivajI bhAIne AkarSI temanA upara kRpA karI pU.prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke prabhu! tame ghAmaNa padhAro. ema AjJA thavAthI teo atre ghAmaNa AvelA. te prasaMge pU.prabhuzrIjIe temanI sAthe zrI hIrAlAlabhAI jhaverI temaja zrI nAhaTAjIne paNa ghAmaNa AvavA AjJA karela. te arasAmAM zrI kALAkAkAnA ghare rAjamaMdiramAM AjubAjunA temaja gAmanA mumukSubhAI baheno sAthe bhaktino ghaNo sAro raMga jAmyo hato. paramakRpALudevane je mAne teno huM dAsa chuM eka divasa ghAmaNa gAmamAM jAhera lokonI sabhAmAM paramakRpALudeva tathA pU.prabhuzrIjInA guNagAna karatAM ullAsamAM AvI jaI zivajIbhAI maDhaDAvALAe jaNAvyuM ke je koI vyakti paramakRpALudevane vaMdana kare ke mAne teno huM kiMkara chuM. dAsa chuM. mArI jiMdagImAM haju sudhI koIne meM guru karyA nathI. paNa atre dhAmaNa AvI mAruM mastaka prabhunA caraNomAM namI jAya che. ghAmaNathI vidAya laI teo zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama agAsa thaI pa.pU. prabhuzrIjI pAse sadgurumaMtra temaja upadezabodha laIne gayA hatA. jIva ajJAnavaza kevA bhAva ka2e buddhisAga2jI nAmanA sAdhu puruSe eka vAra zivajIbhAIne kahyuM ke tame zrImanuM nAma levuM mUkI do. tyAre zivajIbhAI kahe - teno eka rasto che. te huM batAvuM; ke jethI zrImaddnA pustakane koI aDe nahIM. te sAMbhaLI buddhisAgarajI bolyA-te zuM che? kaho. tyAre zivajIbhAI kahe - zrImade je lakhyuM che tenA karatAM eka sAruM pustaka tame lakho, jethI zrImadna koI vAMcaze nahIM. A vacanothI buddhisAgarajI zaramAI gayA ane bolatA baMdha thaI gayA. zrI zivajIbhAI 159 zrImad rAjacaMdra

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zrI goviMdabhAI dhanAbhAI paTela bhuvAsaNa ' "sadaguruprasAda" bhakti vagara mukti maLe nahIM saMvata 1988nA mahAsuda 13nA divase mane maMtra smaraNa prabhuzrI kahe sTezana para Dabbo paDyo hoya ane temAM maLyuM ane prabhuzrIjInA hAthe "saguruprasAda' graMtha maLyo hato. huM besIe to kyAMya na jaI zakAya. paNa te DabbAno AMkaDo enjina saguruprasAda upara sonAnI jarI vaDe nAma "guruprasAda', sAthe bheravAya to jyAM javuM hoya tyAM jaI zakAya. "tema sadguru sahajAtmasvarUpa paramaguru" maMtra ane sUrya caMdra bharAvI prabhuzrI : rUpI enjina sAthe premarUpI kaDI bheravelI rAkhIe to pachI AgaLa laI gayo tyAre temaNe hAthamAM laI joIne kahyuM "AmAMthI : phIkara nahIM. prema e bhakti che. bhaktithI ja mukti maLe. bhakti patra mukhapATha karaje ane citrapaTanA darzana karavAM. koI anya vagara mukti maLe nahIM.' mAnyatAvALA hoya temane paNa darzana karAvavA, jethI bhAva thAya, pAtra vinA vastu rahe nahIM ane gati sudharI jAya.' prabhuzrIjI brahmacarya upara ghaNo ja bhAra mUkatA. jethI prabhu mane bhakti Apajo ghaNA mumukSuoe prabhuzrIjInA hAthe cothA vratanI bAdhA lIdhI prabhuzrIjI ekavAra bhuvAsaNa amArA ghera paghArelA tyAre hatI. eka bhAIe prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM : bhakti karIe chIe paNa meM paramakRpALudevanA citrapaTanI pAse temanA mATe Asana samakita thatuM nathI. tyAre prabhuzrIjI kahe "prabhu! pAtratA joIe. banAvela. paNa tenA upara nahIM besatA nIce beThA. bra.mohanabhAIne siMhaNanuM dUtha sonAnA pAtra vinA na rahe. pAtratA joIze." jaNAvatAM temaNe kahyuM ke kRpALudevanuM Asana, temanA Asana karatAM prabhu, A to mahAna vrata che nIce hatuM. tethI prabhuzrIjI paNa nIce birAjamAna thayA che. pachI meM mArAM mAtuzrIne brahmacarya vrata levA jaNAvyuM tyAre kahe bhakti tathA bogha thayo. gharanA baghAe darzana karyA pachI huM darzana bhAI, have huM gharaDI thaI. mAre e vrata laIne zuM kAma che? tyAre karIne prabhuzrIjInI sAme Ubho rahyo. tyAre prabhuzrIjI bolyA meM kahyuM AzramamAM bhagatajInA mAjI 90 varSanA che, temane paNa tArI zuM icchA che." meM kahyuM prabhu mane bhakti Apajo. jethI mane A vrata ApIne prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke "prabhu, A to mahAna vrata temanI sAthe navasArI, surata, Abu, AhAra, siddhapura, amadAvAda che. e levAthI devagati thAya." tyAre mArAM bAe vrata lIdhuM. vagere sthaLoe sAthe rahevAnuM maLyuM. emanAM samAdhimaraNa vakhate mahAbhAgya hoya to prabhuzrIjInA hAthe Avu vrata Ave. pachI paNa AzramamAM ja hato. aMte temane kAMgha para caDhAvavAnuM sadbhAgya jhaverI hIrAbhAI ane menAbene paNa brahmacarya vrata lIdhuM hatuM. paNa prApta thayuM. mumukSuonI alaukika bhakti prabhuzrIjInA vakhatanA baghA mumukSubhAI benonI bhakti alaukika hatI. beno rasoI karatAM karatAM bhakti kare, maMtra smaraNa kare, daLe tyAre paNa bhakti kare, haratA pharatA paNa bhakti kare. Azrama jANe vRMdAvananI gopa gopIo jevuM hatuM. prabhuzrIjI bahAra pharavA jAya to badhA emanI pAchaLa jAya. eka jagyAe emanI ThelaNagADI UbhI rAkhe ane pada bolAve, bogha kare. savAranI bhakti UThyA pachI mumukSubhAI baheno rAyaNa pAse AvI ekatra thAya. prabhuzrIjI sAme uparanA jharUkhAmAM AvI baghAne pIMchIM UMcI karI darzana Ape. sau bhAI baheno temane namaskAra karI pachI ghare jAya. 160

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ApaNo AtmA siddha jevo ekavAra prabhuzrIjIe upadezamAM jaNAvyuM ke 'ApaNo AtmA siddha jevo che, paraMtu AvaraNe DhaMkAI gayo che. jema phAnasa to baLatuM hoya, paNa kAca upara meza bAjhI javAthI prakAza bahAra Avato nathI. tema AtmA upara karmarUpI maiza bAjhI gayela che. tene dUra karIe to ApaNA AtmAno prakAza je siddha bhagavAna jevo che te bahAra Ave. karmarUpI mezane dUra karavA dararoja maMtranuM raTaNa karIzuM to ApaNo AtmA jarUra yuddha thaze. dharmamAM zraddhA - vizvAsa e to pahelo joIe prabhuzrIjIe eka dRSTAMta ApyuM ke eka bAdazAha hato. te darekane dAna Ape. eka garIba phakIranI vahu kahe bAdazAha dAna Ape che to tame paNa levA jAone. jethI te phakIra, bAdazAha pAse dAna levA gayo. tene joI vicAra Avyo ke bAdazAha paNa mANasa che ane huM paNa mANasa chuM. huM garIba ane e rAjA, ema kema ? jethI teNe bAdazAhane pUchyuM ke rAjAjI tamane A badhuM dhana koNe ApyuM? rAjAe kahyuM mane to khudAe ApyuM. tyAre phakIrane vicAra Avyo ke khudA ene Ape che to mane kema nahIM Ape. jethI bAdazAha pAsethI paisA lIdhA vinA ja te AvI gayo. ane khudA degA toThI legA evo vicAra karyo. ghare AvIne bIbIne badhI vAta karI tyAre teNe kahyuM - bIje gAma mAMgavA jAo, ema kaMI khudA Ape nahIM. paNa tene khudA upara pUro vizvAsa hato ke khudAe bAdazAhane ApyuM to mane paNa jarUra Apaze. AvA vRDha vizvAsathI te bIje gAma javA 2vAnA thayo. raste eka vADamAM kaMIka caLakatuM joyuM. vADamAM sonAcAMdInA sikkA bharelo eka carU joyo. tenA upara dhULa nAkhI pAMdaDA DhAMkI ghera AvI bIbIne badhI vAta karI. te kahe e badhuM koI laI jAya to tame zuM karo ? A badhI vAta thatI hatI te pADozIe sAMbhaLI lIdhI. jethI phakIre batAvelI jagyAe teNe jaIne joyuM to sAce ja carU hato. tenA uparanuM moDhuM choDIne joyuM to aMdara sarpa-vIMchI vagere jherI jIvo jovAmAM AvyA. tethI pAchuM moDhuM bAMghI dIdhuM ane vicAryuM ke eNe mane mAravA mATe ja A yukti karI che. mATe ene paNa huM batAvI dauM, ema nakkI karI te ghaDo sAthe laIne ghera Avyo. lekina khudA upara vizvAsa cAhie. prabhuzrIjI kahe dharmamAM zraddhA - vizvAsa e to pahelo joIe. zraddhA jeTalI baLavAna teTalo puruSArtha paNa baLavAna hoya.' pADozI paNa samajI gayA ke A to enA nasIbanuM ja hatuM tethI huM ja UMcakI lAvI ene mAravA mATe uparathI nAkhyuM. mane jherI jIvo dekhAyA ane ene ghana dekhAyuM. ema koInuM nasIba koI laI zakatuM nathI. chatAM ajJAnI jIvo eka bIjAnuM sAruM joI IrSyA karI karma bAMdhe che. rAtre potAnA ghara upara caDhI bAjunA phakIranA gharanA naLiyA khaseDI aMdara bAkoruM pADI carUnuM DhAMkaNa kholIne te ghaDo UMdho karyo. jethI tenA gharamAM paDatAM ja sonA-cAMdInA sikkAno avAja thayo ane teo jAgI gayA. jue che to sikkAno Dhagalo. teNe bIbIne kahyuM ke joyuM, khudA detA hai to chappara phADake detA hai, ja 161

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sAdharmika pratye vAtsalyabhAva Ave to emAM sudhAro karIne paNa mApha karIza. pachI teNe upAya zodhI prabhu prasanna thAya kADhI mAphI apAvI dIdhI. mATe kahevata che ke - "jAkA bAla sAgharmika pratye ke khilAIe tAkA rijhata bApa." tema sahagharmI pratye vAtsalyabhAva vAtsalyabhAva Ave to : Ave to prabhu prasanna thAya. prabhu prasanna thAya. tenA kasoTI sonAnI thAya upara prabhuzrIjIe eka huM DAhyAbhAI bhagAbhAI ghAmaNavALAnA nimittathI draSTAMta ApyuM : eka AzramamAM Avyo hato. DAhyAbhAI agAsa pahelIvAra AvyA bhAIne ATha divasa pachI tyAre tyAM ja rahI gayA. paNa emanA bApujInI AjJA nahIM tethI phAMsInI sajA thaI. tethI prabhuzrIjIe temane ghera javAnI AjJA ApI. emane rAtri khAvApIvAmAM have tene rasa bhojanano tyAga hato. emanA ghare rAtre rasoI banAve tethI sAMje rahyo nahIM ane mUMjhAI ! juvAra ane ghauMnA dANA khAIne calAve paNa vrata toDe nahIM. evuM gayo ke ATha divasa pachI to mAre marI javAnuM che. tenI bAIe ghaNA vakhata cAlyuM. khetaramAM juvAra saMbhALavA mokale tyAM cakalAM kahyuM tamane bacavAno eka upAya batAvuM. to ke kevI rIte. teNIe uDADe nahIM paNa pANInA kuMDA bharI rAkhe jethI cakalAM juvAra kahyuM huM kahuM tema karo. jajane tyAM eka nAno chokaro che. tene mATe : khAI pANI pI le; evI emanA hRdayamAM dayA hatI. pachI emanA sonAnI be kallIo karAvI lAvo ane DabbImAM laI jajane tyAM bApujIne khabara paDI ane dayA AvavAthI divasanA rasoI jAo. te kalpIo chokarAnA hAthamAM paherAvI dejo. paNa jaja karAvavA lAgyA. kasoTI Ave tyAre TakI rahe te ja kharo mumukSa. korTamAM gayA hoya tyAre temanA ghera jajo. prabhuzrIjI boghamAM kahetA ke "kasoTI sonAnI thAya tyAre kALuM pachI avasara joI te jajanA ghera gayo. tyAM jajanI 6 paDe nahIM, paNa pittaLa kALuM paDI jAya." bAI ekalI hatI. teNe pUchyuM konuM kAma che? tyAre eNe kahyuM bena huM to tamane maLavA Avyo chuM ane tamArA bALakane mAre ramADavo che. ema kahI bALakane ramADatAM hAthamAM sonAnI kallIo paherAvI dIdhI ane kahevA lAgyo bena have mane AnaMda thayo. tamArA bALakane ramADavAthI mane ghaNo AnaMda thayo. kAraNa ke have huM ATha ja divasano mahemAna chuM. jaja sAhebe mane ATha divasa pachI phAMsInI sajA pharamAvI che. jethI bena huM tamArA chokarAne ramADavA Avyo hato. paNa khAlI hAthe nahIM javAya ema jANI A nAnI vastu leto Avyo chuM. ema kahI te cAlyo gayo. te sAMbhaLI jajanI bAIne thayuM ke A kevo bhalo mANasa che; A phAMsIne lAyaka nathI. e keTalo badho vivekI che. sAMje jaja AvyA tyAre temane te bhAInI badhI vAta karI ane kahyuM ke ATaluM badhuM karyA chatAM teNe mArI pAse potAne choDAvavAnI mAgaNI paNa karI nathI. evA bhalA mANasane phAMsI nahIM ApavI joIe. jaja kahe ene phAMsInI sajA thaI gaI che. mudata phare nahIM. paraMtu bAI kahe hajI phAMsI to thaI nathI ne? jethI game tema karIne paNa enI phAMsI rada karo. jaje ghaNI nA pADI paNa bAIe to pakaDI rAkhyuM ke game tema karo paNa A chokarAne ramADanArane phAMsI hoya? jethI na chUTake jaje bAIne kahyuM ke bhale 162

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dharmanA rastA upara caDhanAra mANasanA bhavobhava bace prabhuzrIjI kahe 'eka mANasane taLAvamAM DUbatA bacAvIe tenA karatAM adhika eka mANasane dharmane raste caDhAvIe tenuM ghaNuM ja puNya che. kArajJa DUbatA mAnnasano eka bhava bace jyAre dharmanA rastA upara caDhanAra mANasanA bhavobhava bace.' vAkyonA artha gurugame samajavA prabhuzrIjI gurugama upara dRSTAMta ApatA ke eka gAmamAM eka brAhmaNI, bIjI rajapUta ane trIjI paTalaNa kUve pANI bharavA jatI hatI. rastAmAM eka maMdiramAM mahArAja kathA karatA hatA. temAM mahArAja bolyA ke bhAIo! AgalI sArI nahIM, pAchalI sArI nahIM paNa vacamAM che te sArI che. e sAMbhaLI rajapUtANIe vicAra karyo ke mahArAje mane bIjI beya karatAM sArI kahI. kemake AgaLa brAhmaNI cAlatI hatI, pAchaLa paTalANI ane vacce huM hatI. tethI teNe ghera jaI potAnA patine kahyuM : maMdiranA mahArAje Aje mane joIne kahyuM ke vacamAMnI sArI che. te sAMbhaLI rajapUtane krodha caDhayo. DAMga laIne mahArAjane mAravA nIkaLyo. mahArAja pAse Avyo ke te beThA hatA. tyAM bAraNAmAM anAja paDeluM hatuM ane gAya tene khAvA gaI ke mahArAjano celo tarata DAMga laIne tene mAravA UThyo. tyAre mahArAja jorathI bolyA ke mAra, eTale ziSye tarata ja DAMga hAthamAMthI nAkhI dIdhI. tyAM UbhA rahelA rajapUte A dRzya joyuM. tethI mahArAjane pUchyuM tame to ziSyane mAravA kahyuM ane teNe to tarata ja DAMga hAthamAMthI nIce kema nAkhI dIdhI ? tyAre mahArAja kahe bhAI meM ene gAyane mAravAnuM kahyuM nahotuM paNa tArA kALa jevA krodhane mAra, jethI eNe hAthamAMnI DAMga nAkhI dIdhI. pachI rajapUta kahe mahArAja tame Aje kathAmAM AgalI sArI nahIM, pAchalI sArI nahIM, paNa vacamAMnI sArI ema kahyuM tyAM vacamAM to mArI rajapUtaNa hatI. tyAre mahArAja kahe bhAI, sAMbhaLa tane samaja phera thAya che, manuSya jIvananA traNa bhAga che. bALapaNa, juvAnI ane ghaDapaNa. temAM bALapaNamAM Atmahi thatuM nathI. ghaDapaNamAM paNa thatuM nathI. paNa juvAnImAM je karavuM hoya te thaI zake che. mATe te juvAnIne meM sArI kaMThI. te sAMbhaLI rajapUte potAnI badhI vAta kahI mAphI mAMgI. mahArAjane namaskAra karI ghera gayo. ema mahApuruSanA vAkyanA artha gurugamathI samajavA joIe ane vAtavAtamAM thatA kropa kaSAyane mAravo joIe. nahIM to A 163 bhavamAM duHkha pAme ane parabhavamAM paNa jIva durgatie jAya che. ghaNA ja dhAmadhUmathI prabhuzrIjInI padharAmaNI saM.1989nA vaizAkha suda 3ne divase prabhuzrIjI dhAmaNa, saMgha sAthe paghAryA. te vakhate ghaNI ja ghAmaghUmathI benDavAjA sAthe prabhuzrIjInI pagharAmaNI thaI hatI. te vakhatanA varaghoDAnuM varNana thaI zake ema nathI. prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA eTalI mAnava medanI hatI ke lAMbA rastA thaze dUra sudhI bharAI gayA hatA. mAlikanI rajA vagara kerI levAya? navasArImAM prabhuzrIjIno nivAsa kAvArANAnA baMgalAmAM hato. baMgalAnI aMdara AMbAnI vADI hatI. vaizAkha mahinAmAM hAphusanI kerIo taiyAra thayelI. huM baMgalAmAM nIce beTho hato. mAlika kahe bhAI! kerI toDazo nahIM. paDe te laIne khAjo. ekavAra nIce paDelI kerI leto hato. te prabhuzrIjIe baMgalAnA jharokhAmAMthI joI mane upara bolAvyo ane kahyuM - 'mAlikanI rajA vagara kerI levAya?' meM kahyuM prabhu vADIvALAe kahyuM che ke nIce paDelI lejo. tethI leto hato. prabhuzrIjI vyavahAramAM paNa keTalI badhI cokasAI rAkhatA hatA.

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mokSe laI janAra mana ane narake laI janAra paNa mana prabhuzrI kahe ApaNuM mana ja mAre che ane mana ja jIvADe che. zubha bhAva kare zubha phaLa Ave. azubha bhAva kare azubha phaLa Ave. te para eka zeThanI kathA kahetA. eka nagara zeTha hatA. tenA makAna AgaLathI eka rAjAnI govAlaNa dahIM laIne jatI hatI. tyAre zeThe potAnA manane kahyuM : jo, huM tane Aje sajA karAvuM, ema kahI govAlaNa pAse jaI zeThe dahIMmA dhULa nAkhI dIdhI. govAlaNa zeThanA kAraNe kaMI bolI nahIM paNa rAjamahelamAM jaI kahyuM ke Aje nagarazeThe rAjAnA khAvAnA dahIMmAM dhULa nAkhI. te jANI rAjA kopAyamAna thayA ane zeThane kaMI pUchyA vagara zULIe caDhAvavAno hukama karI dIdho. chellI vakhate rAjAe zeThane pUchyuM ke tArI zI icchA che? tyAre zeThe potAnA manane kahyuM-jo tane huM zULIe caDhAvA sudhI lAvyo ane have jo tane choDAvuM chuM. ema vicAra karI zeThe rAjAne kahyuM - mahArAja!! Aje huM maruM teno mane vAMdho nathI paNa lAkhono tAraNahAra bacyo e ja mane AnaMda che. rAjA kahe e vAta kevI rIte ? tyAre zeThe kahyuM mahArAja ! huM mArA makAnanA jharukhAmAM beTho hato tyAre govAlaNa dahIM laIne tyAMthI jatI hatI. te vakhate AkAzamAMthI eka samaLI moDhAmAM sApa laI jatAM tenuM jhera A dahIMmA paDatuM meM joyuM. govAlaNane enI khabara nathI. huM A vAta tene karuM paNa lobha khAtara kadAca te mAne nahIM ane Apane tyAM A dahIM ApI ke to ApanuM mRtyu thaI jAya. mATe meM A yukti karIne dahIMmA dhuLa nAkhI dIdhI. jethI e dahIM khAvA lAyaka ja rahe nahIM. mane Aje AnaMda che ke bhale mane phAMsInI sajA thaI paNa lAkhonA tAraNahAra evA Apa bacI gayA. A sAMbhaLI rAjA ghaNA khuza thayA ane sAro sirapAva ApI sAthe gAdIe besADIne sanmAna karyuM. zeThe manamAM kahyuM joyuM phAMsInA mAMcaDA sudhI paNa huM ja laI gayo ane rAjAnI sAthe gAdIe besADanAra paNa huM ja hato. prabhuzrIjIe A kathAnA sArAMzamAM kahyuM ke pote ja potAno mitra che ane pote ja potAno vairI che. potAnA bhAva upara badho AdhAra che. sArA bhAvo karI pote ja potAne svarge ke ke mokSa laI jAya ane khoTAM bhAvo karI pote ja potAne narakamAM pADe che. smaraNa maMtra karyA karIzuM to enuM phaLa Avaze ja ja prabhuzrIjI kahe dUdhamAM chAza nAkhIe eTale temAM meLavavAnI kriyA thayA kare che, paNa thoDA thoDA vakhate hAtha nAkhI joyA karIe to e meLavAya nahIM paNa bagaDI jAya. tema smaraNa maMtra karyAM karIzuM to enuM phaLa Avaze ja. paNa thoDA thoDA vakhate vicArIzuM ke mane samakita to thatuM nathI ema karI mUkI daIzuM to enuM phaLa Avaze nahIM. jema eka choDa ropyo hoya, tene roja pANI ApIe to e paNa kALa jatAM phaLa Ape. paNa pANI na ApIe to choDa sukAI jAya. tema ApaNe roja maMtra smaraNa ke bhakti na karIe to bhaktinA bhAva paNa sukAI jAya. anaMta karmone nAza ka2vAno upAya prabhuzrIjI kahe eka divAsaLInA TeravAmAM eTalo agni che ke te lAkhkho maNa rUne bALI nAkhe, tema smaranna maMtramAM evo camatkAra che ke te anaMta karyAMne bALIne bhasma karI de. mATe tenuM raTaNa sadAya karyA karavuM. 164

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prabhuzrIjI AgaLa labdhidhArI zuM visAtamAM eka vakhate jesaMgabhAI zeTha vaDodarA gayelA. tyAM emane ke ame to prabhu amArA gurunA zaraNe chIe eka labdhighArI saMnyAsIno meLApa thayo. te labdhighArIe thoDA vakhata pachI te labdhighArI AzramamAM Avyo ane dezavidezamAMthI sonAnA cAMda meLavyA hatA. tyAMthI zeTha ravAnA prabhuzrIjInAM darzana karyA. teNe thayA tyAre kahyuM ke agAsa AzramamAM eka muni mahAtmAnI mAMdagI ekAMtamAM prabhuzrInA samAgamanI che, jethI amAre javAnI utAvaLa che. tyAre te labdhighArI kahe : mAgaNI karI. jethI tene laI hamaNAM temano deha chUTavAno nathI. chatAM zeTha AzramamAM AvavA prabhuzrI gurumaMdiramAM gayA. taiyAra thayA ane te labdhighArIne paNa AzramamAM AvavA AmaMtraNa aMdara jaI paramakRpALudevanI ApyuM. sAthe jaNAvyuM ke tame eka vakhata AzramamAM Avazo to pratimA AgaLa prabhuzrIe kahyuM tamAruM ghaNuM samAdhAna thaze. ke prabhu! ame to kazuM jANatA ekavAra AzramamAM prabhuzrI AgaLa baghA TrasTIo : nathI. ame to A amArA samAgamamAM beThA hatA tyAre zeThe te vaDodarAvALA labdhighArInI gurunA zaraNe chIe. to prabhu vAta kADhI kahyuM ke teNe prabhuzrIno atyAre deha chUTavAno nathI ema zuM tame kaMI kaho. te badhA savAla pUchavAnA lakhI lAvyo hato chatAM kahyuM che. tyAre prabhuzrI kahe zeTha! tamane eNe kahyuM te kema lAge che? teNe prabhuzrIjIne Agraha karyo ke nA tame kaho. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe zeTha kahe : prabhu jeNe dariyo dITho hoya tene khAbociyAnI zI to je prazno e lakhI lAvyo hato ane pUchavAnA hatA te ja prazno gaNatarI? ema prabhuzrI AgaLa labdhighArI saMnyAsI zuM visAtamAM. prabhuzrIjIe tene sAmA pUchaLyA. jethI te camatkAra pAmI gayo ke ema zeThanI prabhuzrI pratye draDha zraddhA hovAthI ema jaNAvyuM. mAre je savAla pUchavAnA hatA te to mahArAje ja kahI dIdhA. bhoMyarAmAM aMdara prabhuzrIjI gayA tyAre bahAra AzramanA mumukSabhAIo UbhA rahyA hatA. eka AsanamAM corAzI Asana pachI zAMtibhuvanamAM bhakti beThI. temAM badhA praznonA khulAsArUpe prabhuzrIjIe vivecana karyuM. te badhuM labdhidhArIe sAMbhaLyuM. pachI prabhuzrIjIne teNe kahyuM : huM corAzI Asana jANuM chuM, te karI batAvuM. 'tyAre prabhuzrIjIe paga para paga caDhAvI padmAsana vALIne kahyuM : prabhu! amArA to A eka AsanamAM corAzI Asana samAI gayA.' Aja mAro ahaMkAra gaLI gayo chatAM pelA labdhighArIe Asana batAvavA zarU karyA. pAMca cha thayAM ke gabaDI paDyo ane pachI Asana karI zakyo nahIM. tyAre te kahevA lAgyo ke mahArAja Aja sudhImAM meM badhA Asano pUrA karyA che. paNa Aje mArA Asano pUrA thatA nathI, paNa Aje mAro ahaMkAra pUro thAya che. kyAM Apa surya jevA ane kyAM huM eka AgIyo; ema kahI prabhuzrIjIne namaskAra karyA. Aja sudhI huM koIne namyo nathI. paNa Aje Apane namaskAra karuM chuM. prabhuzrIjIne namI potAnuM bhaluM karyuM. pachI prabhuzrIjIno samAgama karI ahIMthI vidAya lIdhI. 165

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A mahArAjano samAgama karavA yogya che AbumAM prabhuzrIjInI ThelaNagADI calAvavAnuM kAma mane soMpyuM. AzramanA nityakrama pramANe tyAM bhakti thatI. bhaktino krama pUro thAya pachI prabhuzrInI gADI laIne pharavA jAuM. koI vakhata baghA Ave to koI vakhata ekalo ja laIne pharavA jAuM. eka divasa hIrAbhAI jhaverInA bhAIbaMgha rAjAo jhaverIne maLavA AvyA tyAre jhaverIe kahyuM, amArA guru mahArAjanI sAthe saMghamAM AvyA chIe. A mahArAjano samAgama karavA jevo che. jhaverInA AmaMtraNathI rAjAo traNa divasa lAgalagATa AvyA hatA. manane vaza karavuM hoya to sArAM kAmamAM joDeluM rAkhavuM bIje divase jhaverInA oLakhANathI zirohInA mahArAjA AvavAnI jANa thaI. jethI prabhuzrIjI AgaLa temanA mATe gAdIvALuM Asana karyuM. bhakti vakhate te mahArAjA AvyA ane temane batAvyA chatAM te Asana upara beThA nahIM. tyAre prabhuzrIjI paNa kahyuM prabhu! Asana para beso. paNa beThA nahIM. ane kahe tamArA AgaLa ame nIce ja besavA lAyaka chIe evo viveka vAparyo. pachI prabhuzrIjI kahe prabhu! kaMI kaho. tyAre te rAjA kahe huM 18 varSa thayAM bhakti karuM chuM, gItA vAMcu chuM chatAM mana sthira thatuM nathI. teno koI upAya batAvo. tyAre prabhuzrIjI kahe prabhu! bhaktinI ghaNI jarUra che. A mana to bAbarAbhUta jevuM che. ene vaza karavA mATe hamezAM sArA kAmamAM joDeluM rAkhavuM. nahIM to e navaruM beThuM nakhkhoda vALe. pachI bAbarAbhUtanuM draSTAMta ApyuM hatuM. bhUtanI jema manane thakavI nAkhavuM draSTAMta - eka zeThane kAma ghaNAM. mitranA kahevAthI ArAdhanA karI eka bhUtane vaza karyo. bhUta kahe kAma batAva nahIM to khAuM. eTale zeThane have roja kAma batAvavAnI upAdhi AvI paDI. tethI mitre zeThane kahyuM - tenI pAse eka moTo vAMsa maMgAva ane kahe jyAM sudhI huM kAma na batAvuM tyAM sudhI tAre A vAMsa upara caDhavuM ane UtaravuM. e kAma karyA karavuM. evuM kAma soMpavAthI te bhUta paNa thAkI gayo ane zeThane kahe kAma haze tyAre huM AvIne karI jaIza ema kahI cAlyo gayo. jema vAMsa upara caDhaUtara karatA bhUta paNa thAkyo tema mana pAse sArA kAma karAvI ene thakavI nAkhavuM jethI te vazamAM rahe. navaruM paDavA devuM nahIM. prabhu! samAgamanI ghaNI jarUra che pachI rAjA prabhuzrIjIno samAgama karavA avAranavAra AvatA ane ekavAra prabhuzrIjIne potAne baMgale paNa laI gayA hatA. baMgalAmAM nIce kapaDAM pAtharI tenA upara calAvIne laI gayA. 166

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svacchaMdanuM phaLa cAragatimAM ja bhramaNa prabhuzrIjI boghamAM svaccheda upara draSTAMta ApatA ke be mAIo hatA. te bIje gAma mAM rastAmAM jaMgala AvyuM. tyAM zunA hADakA paDelA dIThA. te joI eka bhAI kahe mArI pAse maMtra vidyA che te vaDe maMtarIne pANI hADakA upara chAMTu to pazunuM je rUpa hoya te thaI jAya. bIjA bhAIe kahyuM-jaMgalamAM hiMsaka pazuo paNa hoya, te pachI ApaNane mArI nAkhe. chatAM pelA bhAIe vidyAnA garvamAM kahyuM - mAre to prayoga karavo ja che. to bIjA bhAIe kahyuM mane jhADa para caDhavA de pachI tAre je karavuM hoya te karaje. teNe bhAInuM kaheluM mAnyuM nahIM ane pANI maMtarIne chAMTyuM. te hADakAM vAghanA hatAM tethI vAgha thayo ane ene phADI khAdho. "vidyA sAcI hoya paNa kyAM vAparavI te AvaDavuM joIe. talavAra, baMduka hoya paNa vAparatAM AvaDavuM joIe. tema gharmanA sAghana sAcA hoya paNa sadguru AzAe karavA joIe. svacchede kare to cAragatimAM ja rajhaLavAnuM thAya; janma-maraNanA duHkha TaLe nahIM." AvaraNa khase to sUrya jevo AtmA jaNAya. prabhuzrIjI boghamAM kahe samudramAM eka kAcabo hato. ekavAra jhADuM sevAla khasI javAthI teNe sUryanuM prakAza pahelIvAra joyuM. tema AtmA upara karmanA AvaraNa che te khase to sUrya jevo AtmA jaNAya. ekavAra sUryanuM teja joyuM to bhUlAya nahIM. tema ApaNe paNa prabhuzrIjInI bhakti vagere joI te kadI bhUlI javAya ema nathI. AtmA jhaverAtanI peTI jevo, tenI saMbhALa levI prabhuzrI kahe eka makAnamAM Aga lAgI, jethI bIjA gharavALAne tyAM paNa Aga lAgI. bIjo gharavALo paisA dAgInA paDI mUkI gAdalA godaDA kADhavA maMDyo. jyAre pahelo gharavALo to gharamAM tijorI hatI temAMthI jhaverAta kADhI bahAra nIkaLI gayo. AgathI beyanuM badhuM baLI gayuM. paNa jhaverAtavALAe to jhaverAta vecI pharIthI navuM makAna bAMdhI lIdhuM ane sukhI thayo. tema prabhuzrI kahe AtmA e jhaverAtanI peTI jevo che. tenI saMbhALa le to bhavobhava sukhI thAya ane deha e gAdalA godaDA jevo che. te to ahIM ja baLI jaI khAkha thaI jaze. mATe AtmAnI saMbhALa karavI. 167

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AtmAnI oLakhANa karyA vinA janmamaraNathI chuTAya nahIM thoDA divasa pachI jasadaNanA rAjA rANI hIrAbhAI jhaverIne maLavA AvyA tyAre temaNe huM sAruM thayuM tamo AvyA. hamaNAM mahArAja ahIM che. temano samAgama karavA jevo che ane maMtra smaraNa lo. eTale rANI kahe huM to da22oja bhakti karuM chuM. gItA paNa vAMcu chuM. pachI prabhuzrIjIne maLyA tyAre temaNe bodhamAM jaNAvyuM ke prabhu! A vIsa dohA, kSamApanA, maMtra smaraNa, cha padano patra, Atmasiddhine potAnI jIvAdorI jANI avazya karavA jevuM che. paisoTako, parivAra kazuM rahevAnuM nathI. Akhare badhuM choDIne javuM paDaze. mATe AtmAnI oLakhANa karavA jevI che, karyAM vinA janmamaraNa chUTe nahIM. sAta vyasanano tyAga kare to cAra gatimAM bhamavuM maTI jAya. karavuM potAnA hAthamAM che. rANIe sAta vyasana, sAta abhakSyano tyAga karI maMtra lIdho. rAjAe lIdho nahIM, e to UbhA ja rahyA. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe rAjAne kahyuM prabhu ! tame zikAra karo cho te karavA jevuM nathI. dArU, mAMsa, parastrIgamana, vezyAgamana vagere choDavA jevA che. rAjA kaMI bolyA nahIM tethI rANI bolyA ke mahArAja pAse AvyA to kaMIka lyo. pachI prabhuzrIjI bolyA ke sArA bhAva rAkhazo. A karavA jevuM che evA bhAva rAkhazo to pApa ochAM baMdhAze. pachI bahAra AvI rANIe mane pUchyuM ke mahArAja AgaLa zuM mUkuM? meM kahyuM prabhuzrIjI to kaMI letA nathI. pachI teo 2vAnA thayA. mane thayuM ke kyAM rAjA ane kyAM huM. paNa prabhuzrIjIne mana to rAjA ke raMka beya sarakhA che. 90707570 sAco bhakta hoya to jJAnIne mAnya thAya saMvata 1991nA phAgaNa mAsamAM prabhuzrIjI Abu padhAryA hatA. tyAM bodhamAM kathA kahI ke - eka jaMgalamAM eka bAI chANA vINatI hatI. najIkamAM eka sarovara hatuM. tyAM eka rAjA ghoDAne pANI pIvA laI AvI caDhyo. tyAM chANA vINatI bAI tenA jovAmAM AvI. te ghaNI suMdara hatI. tene potAnI rANI banAvavA vicAra karIne rAjAe tene kahyuM - huM tane mArI rANI banAvuM. tyAre te bAI kahe mahArAja! huM to eka garIba strI chuM ane tame to rAjA cho. huM kevI rIte tamArI rANI banI zakuM. tyAre rAjA kahe mane tuM pasaMda che tethI tuM mArI rANI banI zake. tyAre te bAI kahe mahArAja tamArI rANI mane kema mAnya karaze. rAjA kahe huM tane paTarANI banAvIza jethI badhAne mAnya karavuM paDaze. pachI te taiyAra thaI ane rAjA potAnA mahele laI Avyo ane badhI rANIone kahyuM ke A mArI mukhya rANI che. ene paTarANI tarIke sthApu chuM. tamAre saue enI AjJAmAM rahevuM. mukhya paTarANI eTale badho kArabhAra tathA cAvIo tene soMpI dIdhI. jethI kahevata che ke rAjAne gamI te rANI, bhale tene chANA vINatI ANI.' prabhuzrIjIe A kathAno paramArtha kahyo ke garIbamAM garIba hoya paNa bhagavAnano sAco bhakta hoya to jJAnIne te mAnya thAya ane jJAna Ape. 168

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Abu mAuMTamAM deDakI zilA upara bhakti prabhu ghaNI nirjaza thaI thoDA vakhata pachI ekavAra baghA rAjAo AvyA. temane laIne baghA mumukSuo deDakI zilA para gayA. e zilA moTI hatI. tyAM baghA mumukSuo ane rAjAo vagere beThA. bhakti zarU thaI. prabhuzrIjIe bogha karyo ane pada bolavA maMDyA, temAM ghaNo ja vakhata nIkaLI gayo. sakhata tApa paDavA maMDyo. patthara dAjavA lAgyA. ame to baghA sahana karIe paNa pelA rAjAo to jema dAje tema UMcA nIcA thAya. paNa kaMI bolyA nahIM. bhakti pUrI thayA pachI prabhuzrIjI bolyA prabhu! ghaNI nirjarA thaI. kAle pharI evI bhakti karAvazo ekavAra gADI laI jatAM sArI jagyAe gADI UbhI rakhAvI. bagho saMgha sAthe hato. prabhuzrIjI gADImAMthI UtarI gayA ane AkhA saMghanI vacce jaI pIMchI laIne UbhA rahyA. pachI pada gAvAnuM zarU karyuM. "mULa mAraga sAMbhaLo jinano re, karI vRtti akhaMDa sanmukha, mULa mAraga sAMbhaLo jinano re' e pada bolatAM prabhuzrIjIe jyAre pIMchI pheravavA mAMDI tyAre jANe kRSNa gopIone rAsa ramADatA hoya evo prema sahune Avyo. ane khUba bhakti thaI. A to jeNe joyuM hoya tene ja khyAla Ave. e bhakti alaukika hatI. taravare che. jANe Aje bhakti karAvI hoya tema. baMgale AvyA pachI baghA mumukSabhAIo kahe Aje je bhakti thaI tevI pharI thaze ke nahIM. kAraNa ATalI umare prabhuzrIjIe je bhakti karAvI te ApaNI kalpanAnI bahAra che. pachI cunIbhAI kArabhArIe prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM prabhu AjanI alaukika bhaktimAM huM AvavAno rahI gayo. mATe kAle pharI evI bhakti karAvazo? tyAre prabhuzrIjI kahe lagnanAM gIta lagnamAM gavAya, pharI gavAtAM nathI. pharI gAe to umaLako Ave nahIM. e umaLako kahevAthI Ave nahIM; sahaje Ave. 169

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emanI pAchaLa koNa thaze? bIje divase vasiSThAzrame bagho saMgha javA taiyAra thayo. prabhuzrIjI mATe DoLI karI. zeTha mATe tathA nahIM cAlI zake temane mATe paNa DoLI karI. prabhuzrIjInI DoLI pAchaLa huM cAlato hato. hIrAbhAI jhaverI ane nAhaTAjI vagere paNa cAlatA hatA te vakhate nAhaTAjIe hIrAbhAI jhaverIne pUchyuM : kAkAjI!prabhu gharaDA thaI gayA to emanI pAchaLa koNa thaze? tyAre jhaverI hIrAbhAIe kahyuM nahATA phikara karazo nahIM. emanA pachI AjJAMkita brahmacArIjI che, emanI dazA paNa UMcI che. hIrAnI parIkSA jhaverIne hoya tema thayuM. A mAruM pratyakSa sAMbhaLeluM kahuM chuM. pachI meM DoLIvALAne kahyuM bhAIo A to prabhu che. tamane AvI rIte UMcakavAnuM maLyuM e tamArA mahAbhAgya che. prabhu mauna rahyA. vaLI meM DoLIvALAne kahyuM tame mahArAjane utAro tyAre hAtha joDIne page lAgajo to tamAruM kalyANa thaze. smaraNa karatAM Dagale Dagale jagananuM phaLa eka divasa ThelaNagADI laIne dUra sudhI gayA. tyAM prabhuzrIjIe bogha karyo ane pada bolAvyA. pachI pAchA AvatAM prabhuzrIjI kahe maMtra smaraNa karatA cAlazo to Dagale Dagale jagananuM phaLa che. tethI baghA smaraNa karatA karatA baMgale AvyA. vakIla jeTalo vizvAsa paNa jJAnI upara nahIM prabhuzrI kahe korTamAM kesa karyo hoya tyAre vakIla upara vizvAsa karI tene kesa soMpI de teTalo vizvAsa paNa jIva jJAnI upara karato nathI. kare to jIvanuM kalyANa thaI jAya. jJAnI je sukhano rasto batAve te sAco che. te pramANe karavuM joIe. apUrva bhakti jeNe jANI teNe ja mANI pachI Akho saMgha vasiSThAzrame pahoMcyo. tyAM gaumukhI che. tenA mukhamAMthI rAtadivasa pANI vahyA kare che. tyAM bhakti beThI. bhaktimAM prabhuzrIjIe koI mAdhava lyo, koI mAdhava lyo' e pada gAIne apUrva bhakti karAvI hatI. te jeNe jANI teNe ja mANI che ane mANI teNe ja vakhANI che. manuSyabhava maLavo keTalo durlabha che ekavAra ThelaNagADI laI jatAM eka sarovara AvyuM. tyAM baghA yuropanA chokarAo nahAtA hatA. temAM ghaNAkharA to pANImAM kUdAkUda kare ane uparathI bhusakA mAre. e joIne prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM prabhu AmA ja jIvana cAlyuM jAya. emane khabara nathI ke manuSyabhava maLavo keTalo durlabha che. go-muraka vAkara kana nayA pAnI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA utsava nimitte gaumukhImAM karela bhakti 170

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mUrtione aMjanazalAkA thaI thoDA vakhata pachI saMgha acaLagaDha gayo. tyAM maMdiramAM AkhA saMghe ghaNA ullAsathI bhakti karI. prabhuzrIjIe mUrtio AgaLa ghaNA badhA zloka bolIne kahyuM -prabhu Aje A mUrtione aMjanazalAkA thaI. ghaNA yAtrALuone tharmalAbha thaze. mahArAja Apane AtmA dekhA he? acalagaDhamAM bra.surajabene mane pUchyuM ke ahIM kaMI jovA jevuM che? meM kahyuM najIkamAM eka guphA che. pachI ame te guphAmAM gayA to tyAM eka mahArAja beThA hatA. temaNe pUchyuM - kItharase Aye? sUrajabene kahyuM eka saMta mahAtmA hai unake sAtha hama Aye hai. surajabene mahArAjane pUchyuM tuma tapa kisaliye karate ho? mahArAja kahe beTA, AtmA ke kalyANake liye. surajabena kahe - mahArAja Apane AtmA dekhA hai? AtmA kaisI vastu hai? eTale mahArAja bolyA beTA terA guru kauna hai? itanI choTI umrameM AtmAkI bAta karate ho. surajabene kahyuM yahAMse najadIkameM hI hamAre guru hai. vahAM para milanA ho to tIna baje AIe. pachI te AvyA hatA ane prabhuzrIjIno bogha sAMbhaLI ghaNA prabhAvita thaI namaskAra karIne gayA hatA. A bogharUpI lAkaDI ApuM chuM eka vakhata paMcavaTI jatAM rastAmAM eka bhAIne vAMsanI bhArI laIne jatAM joyo. tenA pAse AvI prabhuzrIjI UbhA rahyA. jethI pelAe eka lAkaDI prabhuzrIjIne ApI. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke bhAI tArI lAkaDI emane ema levAya nahIM. tuM eka niyama le ke huM vIMchI mArIza nahIM. pachI te sammata thayo. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM jA tAruM kalyANa thaze evo AzIrvAda Apyo. pachI te lAkaDI uttarasaMDAvALA kAMtibhAIne ApIne prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke jo AmAM cha gAMTha che. te joIne AtmA che, nitya che, kartA che, bhoktA che, mokSa che ane mokSano upAya che e yAda karavAM. A bodharUpI lAkaDI ApuM chuM. tenI yAdI rAkhI amArA kahevAthI paramakRpALudevanI je zraddhA karaze teno AtmabhAva jAgRta thaze. mAthe dhagadhaNI che phikara karIza nahIM. paMcavaTImAM eka jagyAe bhakti karyA pachI jhaverabenanI dIkarI kamaLAbenane sApa karaDyo hato. jethI te bebhAna thaI gaI. pU.prabhuzrIjInA kahevAthI maMtra cAlu karyo. pachI jyAre zuddhi AvI tyAre pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke tArA karma khapI gayA. tAre mAthe thIMgaghaNI che. phIkara karIza nahIM. pachI te kamaLAbahena brahmacArI tarIke jIvanaparyata AzramamAM ja rahyA hatA. 171

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bodha pAmavA jIve DhephArUpa thavuM prabhuzrIjIe boghA jaNAvyuM ke satpuruSano bodha pAmavA jIve DhephArUpa thavuM. DhekuM narama hoya tethI pANI paDatA ja te pI jAya. jyAre patthara para pANI paDatA te nIce UtarI jAya, pIe nahIM. mATe bogha paribramavA DhephArUpa komaLa parijJAma rAkhavA. lapoDa zaMkha jevA thavuM nahIM eka loDa zaMkha viSe prabhuzrIjIe kathA kahI ke eka garIba brAhmaNa upara dariyAI deve dayA karIne tene daivI zaMkha Apyo ane kahyuM AnAthI tuM je mAgIza te maLaze. paNa sAcavIne rAkhaje. te brAhmaNa dariyA kinArethI ghare jatAM mAsInuM ghara AvyuM. mAsI rasoI banAvavA taiyAra thayA tyAre eNe kahyuM rasoI banAvavAnI jarUra nathI. mArI pAse daivI zaMkha che tenAthI je mAgIzuM te maLaze. tenAthI badhI sAmagrI meLavIne badhA jamyA. paNa mAsInI dAnata bagaDI. jethI rAtre gharamAM evo ja eka bIjo zaMkha hato te tenI jhoLImAM mUkIne daivI zaMkha kADhI lIdho. brAhmaNe ghera jaI badhI vAta patnIne karI. ane have ApaNe AvatI kAle brAhmaNanI pUrI nAta jamADIe. jethI te zaMkhane DhAMkIne kahyuM ke lAkha rUpiyA thaI jAo. tyAre te zaMkha ke bolyo savA lAkha. paNa nIkaLe kazuM nahIM. savAyuM bole paNa Ape kazuM nahIM. jethI te pharI dariyAI deva pAse gayo tyAre eNe kahyuM ke A to lapoDazaMkha che. asala daivI zaMkha to tArI mAsIe badalI nAkhyo che. te tenA maMdiramAM che. jethI te pAcho AvI tyAM rAta rokAyane potAno daivI zaMkha badalIne laI lIdho. A vAta kahI prabhuzrIjI kahe ke lapoDazaMkha jevA thavuM nIM. moTI moTI vAto kare paNa tuMbaDImAM kAMkarA, kaMI jIvanamAM utAre nahIM. vAte vaDA thAya nahIM. jIvanamAM tyAga ane vairAgya lAvavo joIe. te vagara zAna thAya nahIM. pazunuM paNa kalyANa prabhuzrIjInA samayamAM AzramamAM be baLada hatA. te baLadoe AzramamAM cUnAnI cakkI pIlavAnuM temaja maMdiranA pattharo vagere UMcakavAnuM ghaNuM kAma karyuM hatuM. te gharaDA thayA tyAre tene beThA khavaDAve, da22oja dANa mUke. pharatA baMdha thayA tyAre prabhuzrIjI bogha saMbhaLAve ane mumukSuo pAse pada paNa bolAve. temanI ghaNI mAMdagI vakhate prabhuzrI khurazI para besI tenA mukha AgaLa botha kare tyAre AMkho kholIne kAna phaphaDAve. aMte tenuM samAdhimaraNa thayuM. 172 jJAnIpuruSone mana to badhA AtmA che prabhuzrIjI kahe pAMca bhAIo hatA. te nATaka kare. temAM eka bhAI rAjA thayo, eka bhAI rANI thayo, bIjo bhAI cAmara DhALe ane eka bhAI rAjAno aMgarakSaka sipAhI thayo. have nATaka jonArane to rAjA, rANI, cAmara vIMjhanArA ane aMgarakSaka sipAhI dekhAya; paNa kharekhara tema nathI. e bhAIone mana to ame pAMce bhAIo chIe. ame nathI rAjA, nathI rANI, nathI cAmavALA ke nathI aMgarakSaka sipAhI. tema zAnI puruSone mana to badhA AtmA che. rAjA, rANI vagere A to karmane AdhIna badhI avasthA che, paryAya che. mULa svarUpe jotA to prabhu! badhA AtmA che. AvI prabhuzrIjInI amRtavANI che. rAmanuM bANa che, camatkAra che prabhuzrIjI koI koI vakhata bodhamAM kahetA ke amAruM kAluM gheluM bolavuM emAM phera jANazo nahIM. rAmanuM bANa che, camatkAra che. AvA amRta vacano kahetA paNa kone miThAsa Ave ? jenuM mana nirmaLa hoya tene enI vAtrI priya lAge. jema uMTa drAkSa khAya to mare, mANasane te amRtanuM kAma kare.

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pAMca indriyone AtmArthe savaLI karavI prabhuzrIjI kahe-eka eka viSayamAM jIva potAnA prANa gumAve che. pataMgiyu Asaktine laIne temAM paDI mare. mAchalI khAvAnA viSayane laIne kAMTAmAM bheravAIne prANa gumAve. haraNa sAMbhaLavAmAM tallIna thaIne pakaDAI jAya. bhramara sugaMgha levAne mATe kamaLamAM bIDAI jaI maraNa pAme. hAthI kRtrima hAthaNIne joI kAma viSayane kAraNe khADAmAM paDI rIbAIne mare. ema eka eka viSayamAM Asakta jIva prANa gumAve to ApaNane pAMce indriyonA viSayo prApta che mATe sadA jAgRta rahevuM. AMkhane prabhunA darzanamAM lagAvavI, kAnane prabhu bhajana sAMbhaLavAmAM joDavA, jIbhane prabhubhajana gAvAmAM lagADavI, kAmadevane vratathI jItavo. sugaMdha ane durgadhane pudgalanA paryAya jANI samabhAva rAkhavo. to ja A manuSyabhava sArthaka thaze. moTAInuM abhimAna karavA jevuM nathI. prabhuzrI draSTAMta ApatA ke eka jaMgalamAM eka siMha sUto hato. tenA upara eka uMdare doDAdoDa karavA mAMDI. tethI te jAgI gayo ane uMdarane paMjAmAM dAbI dIdho. maraNanA bhayathI te karagaravA lAgyo. jethI siMhe tene choDI mUkyo. jatAM jatAM uMdara kahe mahArAja tame mane jIvitadAna ApyuM teno badalo huM tamane vALI ApIza. siMhane thayuM ke huM vanano rAjA ane A eka nAno uMdara mAro zuM badalo vALI zake. thoDA vakhata pachI eka pAraghIe jALa nAkhI siMhane pakaDI lIgho. have tenAthI chUTI zakAya nahIM, tyAM te uMdara pharatA pharatA AvI caDhyo. tene siMhane jALamAM phasAyelo joyo tethI tenA tINA dAMta vaDe te jALane kotarI kotarIne toDI nAkhI siMhane chUTo karI dIdho. jIvitadAnanA badalAmAM siMhane paNa uMdare jIvitadAna ApyuM. prabhuzrI kahe-samaya Avye nAno paNa kAma Ave. moTAInuM kaMI abhimAna karavA jevuM nathI. 173

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koI vAtanI haTha pakaDavI nahIM prabhuzrI kahe-eka jaMgalamAM ziyALa bolyuM ke nadImAM maDaduM taNAtuM Ave che tenI jAMghamAM ratna che. je kADhaze tene maLaze. eka bhAIe A sAMbhaLyuM je ziyALanI bhASA jANato hato. teNe maDaduM kADhyuM ane jAMghamAMthI ratna kADhI moDI rAte ghera Avyo. tenI patnIe kahyuM ATalI rAte tame kyAM gayA hatA? te kahe ke e tAre jANavAnI jarUra nathI. kAraNa ke e pazuonI bhASA jANato paNa ene evuM varadAna hatuM ke jo e vAta bIjAne kare to tenuM mRtyu thAya. paraMtu tenI strIe haTha pakaDI ke mane kaho. pelo kahe tane kahuM to mAruM mRtyu thAya. chatAM haTha pakaDI. to kahe cAla kAzI tyAM vAta karIza, tyAM mAruM maraNa sAruM thAya. rastAmAM jatAM eka kUvo Avyo tyAM thAka khAvA beThA. tyAM eka bakaro ane bakarI caratAM hatA. caratA caratA bakarI kUvA AgaLa gaI. kUvAmAM pIpaLAnA kUmaLA pAna dIThA. tethI bakarAne kahyuM mane A kUvAmAMthI kumaLA pAna toDI Apo. tyAre bakaro kahe te toDavA jAuM to kUvAmAM paDI huM marI jAuM. paNa bakarIe haTha pakaDI. tyAre bakaro te bakarIne zIMgaDA vaDe mAravA maMDyo. ane kahevA lAgyo ke huM A mANasa jevo mUrakha nathI ke A rAMDanI vAte kAzI ; maravA jAuM. tArI vAto sAMbhaLuM to huM paNa kUvAmAM DUbI maruM. tyAre bakarI kahe mane mArazo nahIM - mAre kumaLA pAna nathI khAvA. ema haTha mUkI devI. meM vicAryuM ke AvI bhakti pharI pharI maLavAnI nathI. jethI meM to patinA duHkhe duHkhI ane tenA sukhe sukha mAnavuM nA lakhI dIdhI. prabhuzrIjIe boghamAM kahyuM ke A jIvane paTalAI ane paraNavAnI ghaNI ja hoMza hoya che. te mAre mATe ja lAgu A vAta sAMbhaLIne puruSanA manamAM thayuM ke A bakarA paDI. meM lakhI dIdhuM ke mArAthI atyAre AvI zakAya tema nathI. karatA paNa huM to halako Tharyo ke A rAMDanI vAte huM kAzI maravA kAraNa ke huM atyAre AzramamAM prabhuzrIjInI sevAmAM chuM. mane pharI cAlyo. tethI have khAvAnuM mUkI eka daMDo laI Avyo ane tenI Avo avasara maLaze nahIM. mATe huM AvavAno nathI. bhale e strIne mAravA maMDyo. te bolI ema kema karo cho? are tArI jagyA jAya. bhuvAsaNamAM prabhuzrIjI pAse bhakti mAgelI te ja vAta sAMbhaLIne huM kAzI maravA jAuM? zuM A jAnavara karatAM huM phaLI. nahIM to AvI bhAvanA mane thAya nahIM. halako chuM ema kahI pharI mAravA maMDyo. tyAre te bolI mane mArazo nahIM. mAre tamArI vAta sAMbhaLavI nathI. tamane je ThIka lAge tema karo. A kathAnA sArarUpe prabhuzrIjI kahe patinA duHkhe duHkhI ane tenA sukhe sukha mAnI rahevuM. sIdhI rIte na cAle to ghokhAno vAro Ave. paNa pahelethI koI vAtanI haTha pakaDavI nahIM; paNa bIjAnuM sukha icchavuM. temAM ApaNuM sukha samAyeluM ja che. jIvane paTalAI ane paraNavAnI hoMza hoya - thoDA vakhata pachI mArA gharathI kAgaLa Avyo ke bhAI govinda patra vAMcIne ghera AvI jazo. tamArA sagapaNa mATe pUchAve che. jethI tarata ja AvI jazo. nahIM to vAta jatI raheze. 174

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vagara vicAryuM karela kAmanuM duHkhada phaLA pUrI cakAsaNI karyA vagara utAvaLuM pagaluM bharavuM nahIM. e viSe prabhuzrIjIe kathA kahI ke eka rabArI hato. tene paisAnI jarUra paDI. teNe zeTha pAse AvI kahyuM ke A mArI pAse vaphAdArI kUtaro che tene rAkho ane mane paisA Apo. paNa jyAre paisA ApIza tyAre ja mAro kUtaro pAcho laI jaIza.zeThe vAta kabula karI paisA ApI dIghA. have ekavAra zeThane tyAM corI thaI. coro ghana laIne cAlatA thayA. pelo kUtaro paNa tenI pAchaLa pAchaLa jaMgalamAM gayo. jyAM coroe ghana dADhyuM te teNe joI lIdhuM ane pAcho ghera AvI gayo. savAre zeTha UThyA to gharamAM corI thayelI jaNAI. zeTha dAtaNa karavA beThA ane UThyA ke pelo kUtaro zeThanA ghotiyAno cheDo pakaDIne kheMcavA lAgyo. jethI zeThe vicAryuM ke A kyAMka laI javA mAMge che. jethI tenA pAchaLa pAchaLa jyAM ghana dADhyuM hatuM tyAM jaI kUtaro page khotaravA lAgyo. zeTha samajI gayA ke jarUra ahIM kaMIka che. jotAM badhuM potAnuM corAyeluM ghana maLI AvyuM. zeTha ghana laI ghare AvyA. pachI te kUtarAnA mAlika rabArI upara kAgaLa lakhyo ke : bAlune prabhuzrIjI AgaLa mUkI devo ane savArUpiyo ApI pAcho tane ApelA rUpiyA vaLI gayA jANavuM. kAraNa mAre ghare thayelI laI levo. e bAghA pachI bAlu sAro thaI gayo. eTale ame corIne A tArA kUtarAe pakaDI pADIne mAruM ghana meLavI ApyuM badhA agAsa AvyA. ane upara jaIne bAlune prabhuzrIjI AgaLa che. mATe mArI tane Apela rakama vasUla thaI gaI tathA upara tane Ubho rAkhyo. pachI koI kaMI bolyuM nahIM. eTale meM kahyuM - prabhu bakSIsa ApIza, ema lakhI te kAgaLa kUtarAnA gaLAmAM bAMdhI : Ane tamArI AgaLa mukavAnI bAdhA rAkhI che. ane savA rUpiyo rabArIne ghera mokalI Apyo. A to keLavAyelo kUtaro hato. ApI pAcho laI levo, evI bAdhA rAkhI che. tyAre prabhuzrIjI jethI rabArIne ghera pahoMcI gayo. tene Avelo joI rabArIne bolyA ke prabhu! AvI bAdhA rAkhavI nahIM. puSpAI hoya to krodha caDhyo ke zeThane paisA ApyA vinA tuM ghare AvI gayo ema ke sAruM thAya; nahIM to na thAya. pApa puNya upara badho AdhAra che. bolI teNe kUtarAnA mAthAmAM DAMga mArI. jethI te kUtaro tyAM ja rasoI thoDI ane jamanArA ghaNA marI gayo. pachI tenA gaLAmAM kAgaLa joyo. te choDIne vAMcyo ke rabArI poka mUkIne raDavA beTho ke oho meM kevuM vagara vicAryuM ke prabhuzrIjInI hAjarImAM kAviThAmAM abhuta bhakti thaI hatI. tyAre huM paNa hAjara hato. ghAravA karatAM ghaNA mANaso ekaThA thayA kAma karyuM : rabArIne te kUtaro ghaNo vahAlo hato. kahevata che ke hatA. bhakti UThI, jamavAno vakhata thayo. bahArathI bhaktimAM, "vagara vicAryuM je kare, pAchaLathI pastAya; ghaNA AvelA paNa rasoI bhaktivALA jeTalI ja hatI. tethI dekho evA kAmathI, jAna ghaNAnA jAya." jamavA besADyAM nahIM. prabhuzrIjIe puchyuM: jamavA kema besADatA prabhazrIjInA AvA bothathI ApaNe kaMI paNa kAma nathI tyAre kahyuM prabhu rasoI thoDI che ne jamanArA ghaNA che. prabhu vicArIne ja karavuM. jethI nukazAna thAya nahIM, pastAvu paDe nahIM kahe zuM banAvyuM che? lADu banAvyA che. pachI rasoI jovA prabhuzrIjI ane ArtadhyAnano vakhata Ave nahIM. lAkaDI laIne gayA ane katharoTa kholAvIne joyuM ane kahyuM ke pApa puNya upara badho AdhAra DhAMkI do ane jamavA besADo. eka bAjuthI kADhajo. pachI badhA eka divasa naMdIbenanA chokarAne kheMca AvI. jethI huM jamI rahyA chatAM katharoTamAM lADu vadhyA. te bahAra UbhelAne paNa DAhyAkAkAe kahyuM ke naMdI bAdhA rAkha. jo ene sAruM thAya to prasAda Apyo. je amoe najare joyeluM te drazyo Aje khaDA thAya che. 175

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vicAra karyA vinA utAvaLe kAma karavuM nahIM prabhuzrIjIe vagara vicAryuM kAma na karavuM e viSe kathA kahI ke eka bAIe gharamAM noLiyo pALyo hato. te bAI pANI bharavA gaI tyAre te noLiyAne potAno chokaro soMpI gaI. pachI gharamAMthI eka sApa nIkaLyo. te chokarA tarapha Avato jANI noLiyo sAmo thayo ane sApane pakaDI tenA kaTakA karI nAkhyA. pachI noLiyo pelI bAI pANI bharavA gayelI tenI sAme gayo. bAIe tenuM moDhuM lohIvALuM joIne vicAryuM ke eNe mArA chokarAne mArI nAkhyo che. tethI pANInuM bhareluM beDuM tenA para aphALI dIdhuM. jethI te noLiyo marI gayo. ghare AvI joyuM to potAnA chokarAne ramato joyo ane sApane marelo dITho. bAI samajI gaI ke A noLiyAe ja sApane mAryo che. nahIM to mArA chokarAne karaData. pachI to te bAIne bahu pastAvo thayo. mATe pUro vicAra karyA vinA utAvaLe kadI kAma karavuM nahIM. nathI. tuM vyAja sAthe paisA pAchA ApIza evA tArA vacana upara Apela vacana maraNAMte paNa mithyA karavuM nahIM vizvAsa rAkhI zakAya nahIM. prabhuzrIjIe vacana para aDaga rahevA eka draSTAMta Apela ke eka vaNajhAro hato. te zeTha pAse vyAje paisA levA Avyo. tema jJAnIpuruSa pAse AzA laI vacana Ape ke huM $ pratijJA toDIza nahIM, teNe vaNajhArAnI peThe vacanamAM aDaga zeThe kahyuM paisAnA badalAmAM cena vagere mUkavA lAvyo chuM? te kahe rahevuM. potAnA ApelA vacana maraNAMte paNa mithyA karavA nahIM. mArI pAse to kazuM nathI. tyAre zeTha kahe paisA nahIM maLe. tyAre te vaNajhAre kahyuM zeTha mArI pAse kiMmatI mUchano bAla che te ApuM? prema e to mahAna vastu che zeTha kahe bhale te Apa. tyAre teNe eka mUchano bAla toDI Apyo. AbuthI thoDA divasa pachI ame Ahora gayA hatA. tyAM tenI mUchano vALa kiMmatI che ke nahIM tenI parIkSA karavA zeThe kahyuM : mumukSuono prema haju bhulAto nathI. AhoramAM bhaktimAM A to vAMko che, bIjo Apa. tyAre te kahe bIjo nahIM ApuM... ? gharmacaMdabhAI, ratanacaMdabhAI page ghugharI bAMdhIne nAcyA hatA. tamAre paisA ApavA hoya to Apo. zeTha samajI gayA ke A ane hAthamAM mALA laIne eka AMgaLIthI pheravatA jAya. prabhu, sAco marada che. vacanano pAko che. jethI paisA ApyA. A jANIne bhaktimAM birAjamAna hatA.bhaktono prema prabhue joye ja bIjo mANasa zeTha pAse paisA levA Avyo. zeThe kahyuM kaMI cena rAkhyo. e prema lakhANamAM AvI zake nahIM. vagere mUkavA lAvyo? to kahe nA, paNa mUchano kiMmatI vALa ApuM. AkhA gAmane maMtrasmaraNanI AjJA zeTha kahe lAva tyAre. teNe toDI eka vALa AhoramAM prabhuzrIjIe mumukSuonA aneka ghera Apyo. zeTha kahe e to vAMko che bIjo padharAmaNI karI hatI. je ghera jAya tyAM prabhune vaghAve. tyAM Apa. tyAre teNe tarata ja bIjo toDIne derAsaramAM jaIne paNa saMghe bhakti karI hatI. AhorathI ravAnA Apyo. zeTha samajI gayA ane kahyuM tane 6 thatAM AkhA gAmane prabhuzrIjIe traNa pATha ane maMtrasmaraNanI paisA nahIM maLe. kema? to ke tane mUchanA AjJA ApI hatI. AhoramAM mumukSuonA bhAva ane bhakti zrI goviMdabhAI vALanI ke tArA bolelA vacananI kiMmata : alaukika hatA. 176

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zrI chItubhAI DAhyAbhAI paTela bhuvAsaNa dhanaprAptithI ja sukha maLe evI ApaNe prathama AzramamAM jaIe mAnyatAe zarIranuM satyAnAza 4 zrI goviMdabhAI pAsethI kapALadeva21 varSanI uMmare AjIvikAnuM sAdhana karavA paisAnI prabhuzrI viSe mane jANavA maLyuM. mAre amerikA javAnuM nakkI thayuM kamANI mATe paradeza panAmA (madhya amerikA) javAnuM thayuM. tyAM eTale goviMdabhAIne kahyuM ke mAre DAkora javAnuM che. ane tame prathama vepArIone tyAM nokarI karI. cha mAsa pachI rAjakoTanA kahetA hatA te mahArAja pAse mane laI na jAo? goviMdabhAI chaganalAla bhaTTa sAthe bhAgIdArImAM beThA.traNa varSa pachI chUTA huM saMmata thayA ane kahyuM ke cAlo huM tamArI sAthe AvuM. pachI temanI thaI svataMtra dukAna karI. amerikana TurIsTa prajA sAtheno dhaMdho sAthe huM nIkaLyo. gADImAM mane tattvajJAna vAMcavA ApyuM. suratathI hato. jamavAnA TAIme gharAkanI gADI AvI hoya to jamavAnuM 6 baroDA sudhI vAMcIne te pUruM karyuM. mane vacananI apUrNatA lAgI. ThelIne temane mAla ApIe. A rIte paisAnA lobhane kAraNe A vacana lakhanAra koI mahApuruSa che evI chApa paDI. pachI jamavAno TAIma aniyamita thavAthI gesa Trabala thavA lAgyo. goviMdabhAIe baroDAthI gADI upaDyA pachI kahyuM bhAI tamAre tyAMnI vilAyatI davA cha mAsa sudhI vAparI chatAM phera paDyo nahIM pahelA DAkora javuM che ke agAsa AzramamAM javuM che? meM kahyuM bhAI ane zarIra kRza thaI gayuM. khorAka chUTI gayo, phakta thoDuM phUTa laI tame kaho cho ke zrImad rAjacaMdrathI jJAna pAmelA mahArAja zrI zakAya. to paNa te vakhate ghanaprAptithI ja sukha maLe evI mAnyatAnA laghurAjasvAmI che. jemane tame prabhuzrI kaho cho, jemaNe Azrama kAraNe cha mAsa sudhI zarIrane sAme paDI dukAnanuM badhuM kAmakAja sthApela che, je hAla hayAta che ane jemanI 81 varSanI uMmara karavAno makkamatAe nirNaya karyo. mArA nAnAbhAI gopAlabhAIne thayelI che to ApaNe prathama AzramamAM ja jaIe. pachI DAkora phikara thaI ke emanuM zarIra ahIM vilAyatI davAthI sudhare tema ? jaIzuM. eTale ame sADA dasanI gADImAM AzramamAM AvyA. nathI. tethI mane bhAratamAM jaI Ayurvedika davA karazo to sAruM kSamA e ja mokSano bhavya daravAjo thaze ema kahI mane sTImaramAM bhAratadeza ravAnA karyo. moTe daravAje AvyA. daravAjo joI mane Azcarya lAgyuM. jagatamAM nAza nahIM thAya evuM kaMI sukha haze? meM kahyuM goviMdabhAI jarA UbhA raho. meM daravAjA upara draSTi bApujIe ghaNI davAo karAvI paNa kaMI khAsa phera paDyo nAkhI to kamAna upara "kSamA e ja mokSano bhavya daravAjo che' nahIM. tethI vicAro AvavA mAMDyA ke nAnI uMmare puruSArtha karIne ema vAMcyuM. tethI mane aMtaramAM AnaMda ane zAMtino anubhava paisA kamAyA, tethI zarIramAM roga Avyo. tenI sAravAra karI : thayo, pachI goviMdabhAI. zaMkara bhagatajI kAviThAvALAne tyAM paNa roga maTe nahIM ane khorAka laI zakAya nahIM, to zuM meLavelA laI gayA ane tyAM rahevAnuM rAkhyuM. ghanano upabhoga na laI zakAya ane mUkIne marI javAnuM? maraNa pachI zuM thatuM haze. gAmanA marI gayelA kyAM gayA haze? pachI vicAra Avyo ke A jagatamAM nAza nahIM thAya evuM kaMI sukha haze? he bhagavAna, jagatamAM sAcA guru hoya te mane maLo eka AdhyAtmika bhAI mAraphate mane caMdrakAnta'nAmano graMtha vAMcavA maLyo. temAM AvyuM ke guru vagara AtmajJAna thAya nahIM. gharamAM badhA kRSNa ane rAmanI bhakti karatA. tethI huM paNa kRSNa ane rAma AgaLa prArthanA karato ke he bhagavAna! A saMsAramAM je sAcA guru hoya te mane maLo. te bhAvanA mArI phaLI ane amArA gAmanA zrI goviMdabhAI zanAbhAI mAraphata mane 5.pU. prabhuzrIjIno bheTo thaI gayo. te bheTo kevI rIte thayo te nIce jaNAvuM chuM : 'kSamA e ja mokSano bhavya daravAjo che' 179

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nAhI dhoI darzana karavA jAo zrI zaMkara bhagate kahyuM : sabhAmaMDapamAM bhakti rAkhI nathI kAraNa prabhuzrIjInI tabiyata naramagarama che. 105 DIgrI tAva che. eTale rUmamAM bhakti rAkhela che. nAhI dhoIne darzana karavA jAo. pachI ame banne rUmamAM darzana karavA gayA. te vakhate pU.prabhuzrIjI nIcI pATa upara sUtA hatA. ane be bhAI pU.prabhuzrInA paganI sevA karatA hatA. temanI draSTi mArA para paDI. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne traNa traNa namaskAra karyA ane ame nIce beThA. bhakti cAlatI hatI te pUrI thaI eTale prabhuzrIjI beThA thaI gayA ane pATa upara padmAsana vALIne beThA. temanI draSTi mArA upara paDI tethI meM be hAtha joDyA. pachI bogha zarU thayo. AtmAnuM sukha to anaMta che. cAra gatinA duHkhanuM varNana karatA jaNAvyuM ke pAMca indriyanA viSaya sukho parAdhIna che, nAzavaMta che. rAgadveSa karAvI cAragatimAM rajhaLAvanAra che. AtmAnuM sukha to anaMta che. kahyuM jAya tema nathI. e rIte bogha cAlato hato. bAra vAgyA eTale mohanabhAIe kahyuM prabhu bAra vAgyA. tyAre prabhuzrIjI bolyA, e to vAgyA ja karavAnA. tyArapachI baporanI bhakti zAMtisthAnamAM beThI. goviMdabhAIe kahyuM ke bhaktinA pado pachI prabhuzrI padhAraze : beya bAjuthI pakaDIne prabhuzrIjIne zAMtisthAnanA uparavALA sthAne ane bogha thaze. lAvyA. tyAM citrapaTa AgaLa pIMchIthI traNa vAra namaskAra karIne prabhuzrInI videhIdazA prabhuzrIjI sAme beThA. pU.zrI brahmacArIjIe devavaMdana karyuM. pachI zrI mohanabhAI brahmacArIe prabhuzrIjIne pANIno pyAlo aho aho bolyA. "je svarUpa samajyA vinAnI gAthA vakhate Apyo. teo pI gayA. bIjo Apyo te paNa pI gayA. trIjo paNa prabhuzrI kahe mane sASTAMga namaskAra karAvo. ema traNe namaskAra pI gayA. pachI smRti ApI ke prabhu A cotho. tyAre prabhuzrIjI : karAvyA. mane ema thayuM ke ATalI avasthAe pahoMceluM ane vedanAkahe he! cotho? te vakhate ApaNane lAge ke jANe teo aMtaranA grasta zarIra chatAM hRdayamAM gurubhakti ane bahumAna kevuM che. ane uMDANamAMthI bahAra AvI bolatA hoya athavA jANe videhI 4 mana vacana kAyA sahita AtmabhAve guru pratye arpaNatA kevI che ke dazAmAM hoya ema jaNAya. te joI ziSyane paNa gurubhaktimAM puruSArtha karavAnI preraNA thAya. sacidAnaMda paramAtmA lAgyA mAre smaraNa bhakti levA che zrI hIrAbhAI jhaverIe mane kahyuM : amerikAvALA bhAI, huM Avyo te vakhate paryuSaNa parvanA divasa cAlatA hatA. A puruSa kema lAge che? meM kahyuM-satu-cidAnaMda paramAtmA lAge : temAM meM prathamanA traNa divasa kAryakrama cAle temAM besI lAbha che. tamArI vAta sAcI che. lIdho. tyArabAda mane AtmakalyANa karanArI bhaktinI AjJA pachI prabhuzrIne be bhAIo be bAjuthI pakaDIne zAMti levAnuM mana thayuM. eTale meM goviMdabhAIne kahyuM ke mAre smaraNa sthAnamAM lAvyA. prabhuzrIjI citrapaTanA darzana karI pATa upara : bhakti levA che. to mane prabhuzrIjI AgaLa laI jAo. ane je beThA ane bogha zarU karyo. goviMdabhAIe nAnI DAyarI ane pena : je pustako maLatAM hoya te mArA mATe laI lo. sadguruprasAda, ApI mane kahyuM-thoDuM thoDuM lakhajo. tamAre panAmAmAM kAma lAgaze. tattvajJAna, caityavaMdana covIzI, AlocanAdi padasaMgraha lIdhAM vRddha zarIra chatAM guru pratye parama vinayabhAva che ane citrapaTa vagere laI prabhuzrI pAse gayA. prabhuzrI AgaLa devavaMdananA samaye prabhuzrIjInI rUmamAMthI be bhAIo Tebala hatuM. tenA upara citrapaTa, pustaka ane mALA mUkyA. 180

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mAro AtmA kathIra jevo tene suvarNa samAna karo te vakhate prabhuzrIjI pATa upara beThA hatA ane bAjumAM pU.brahmacArIjI UbhelA hatA. goviMdabhAI ane meM bannee traNa traNa namaskAra karyAM. goviMdabhAIe prabhuzrI pAse jaI caraNa sparza karyA pachI meM paNa caraNa sparza karyA. pachI sAme hAtha joDI UbhA rahyA. pachI manamAM evA bhAva karyA ke he bhagavAna! mAro AtmA kathIra jevo che, paNa suvarNa samAna banAvajo. eTale prabhuzrIjIe Tebala uparathI tattvajJAna upADI hAthamAM lIdhuM ane badhA pAnA pheravI tenA upara draSTi nAkhI. paramakRpALudevanA citrapaTane haiyAno hAra karI rAkhaje pachI mane kahyuM ke A 'tattvajJAna' tArI jIvanadorI che. ane kRpALudevanuM nAnuM citrapaTa hAthamAM laI kahyuM A parama kRpALudevanA citrapaTane haiyAno hAra karI rAkhaje. AgaLa anaMtA jJAnIpuruSo thaI gayA temaNe jevo AtmA joyo, jANyo, anubhavyo tevo ja AtmA A kALamAM paramakRpALudeve joyo, jANyo, anubhavyo che. tevo ja ApaNo AtmA che. tenI prApti arthe temanI AzAthI traNa pAThanI bhakti ane smaraNamaMtra batAvIe chIe. te bahu vepAra upAdhi hoya to paNa rAtre sutI vakhate palaMga para besIne paNa bhakti ane mALA pheravavAnuM cUkIza nahIM. maraNa vakhate te zaraNa thaze ane tAruM kAma thaI jaze. sadguru prasAdanA darzana karAvavA pachI 'sadguru prasAda'nuM pustaka prabhuzrIe hAthamAM lIdhuM ane bolyA - e pustaka sAcavIne rAkhaje ane emAM rahelAM kRpALudevanI badhI avasthAnA citrapaTonA darzana karaje, koI maraNa pathArIe hoya tene darzana karavAnA bhAva thAya to darzana karAvaje, tenI devanI gati thaze. paramakRpALudeva samakSa smaraNa maMtra pachI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe pU.brahmacArIjIne smaraNa tathA vIsa doharA vagere batAvavA AjJA karI. pUjyazrI sAthe amo badhA pustako laIne rAjamaMdiramAM gayA. pustako paramakRpALudevanA gokhamAM mUkAvyA. ane pU.zrI brahmacArIjI sahita ame traNe namaskAra karIne UbhA rahyA. sapta vyasana ane sapta abhakSyano tyAga tyAM pUjyazrIe sAta vyasana bolIne samajAvyA ane mane pUchyuM ke sAta vyasanano tyAga paLAze? meM kahyuM jI prabhu, paLAze. pachI mane sAta abhakSya vastu bolIne saMbhaLAvI ane 181 Kong pUchyuM ke AmAM tamAre kaMI phUTa rAkhavI che? tyAre meM kahyuM prabhu magha ane mAkhaNanI be chUTa rAkhavI che. tyAre mane be vastu saMbaMdhI thoDo bodha karyo ke A zarIramAM roga thayo che te pUrve karelA pApanuM phaLa che. magha tathA mAkhanna vAparavAthI pharI pApa baMghAya ane tenuM phaLa jIvane duHkha bhogavavuM paDe, evuM jJAnIpuruSoe jANyuM che. tethI e vastuno niSedha karelo che, to vAparatI vakhate khyAla rAkhajo ke A pApanA kAraNa sevuM chuM. evo divasa kyAre Avaze ke e abhakSya vastuono sarvathA tyAga thAya. maghanI jagyAe goLa ke khAMDanI cAsaNI ke patAsAmAM paNa davA laI zakAya che. magha ja roga maTADe ke jIvADe evuM nathI. pachI mAkhaNa saMbaMdhI jaNAvyuM ke mAkhaNamAM samaye samaye anaMta jIvanI utpatti thAya che ane mAMsa samAna kharAba che. vAparavA lAyaka nathI. mATe amerikAmAM tame vAparatA ho to mAkhaNa lAvI tAvIne ghI banAvI vAparavuM. sTImaramAM vAparavuM paDatuM hoya to te vAparavuM nahIM. paraMtu gharethI eka baraNI ghInI bharI jajo. pUjyazrIe kahelI vAta mArA hRdayamAM besI gaI. ane emanA kahyA pramANe madha ane mAkhaNano paNa tyAga karI emanI sUcanA pramANe varyo hato.

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bhAIzrI 2NachoDabhAInuM milana bapore maMtra lIdho ane bIje divase savAramAM gAma javAnuM nakkI hatuM. paraMtu rAtre sADA ATha vAge bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAI AzramamAM AvyAnI khabara goviMdabhAIne paDI eTale mane goviMdabhAI kahe ke bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAIno samAgama karavA jevo che. be vAta tamane jANavA maLaze. bhaktibhAvamAM dRDhatA thaze. kAle savAre ApaNe javAnA chIe to atyAre tyAM jaIe ? meM kahyuM cAlo be vAta jANavA maLaze. ame gayA to Akho oraDo bhAIzrIno mumukSuothI bharAI gayelo hato. bAraNAmAM pesatAM thoDI jagyA hatI, tyAM beThA. goviMdabhAie mArI oLakhANa ApI. A bhAI amArA gAmanA che, pATIdAra che. emano dhaMdho amerikAmAM che. javA mATe sTImaranI TikiTa buka karAvIne traNa divasa mATe ahIM AvyA che. Aje emaNe bhakti smaraNa vage2e lIdhA che, ane kAle savAre gAma javAnA che. pAchA prabhuzrInA bodhano dhodha paDaze, pharI kyAre sAMbhaLazo have bhAIzrI mane uddezIne bolyA-tame pATIdAra cho to vAta karuM chuM. vANIyA hoya to viklpa kare. parama upakArI prabhuzrIjI AtmA pALelA puruSa che. eno bodha sAMbhaLazo to tamAruM hRdaya kUNuM che te raMgAI jaze. meM kahyuM huM sTImaranI TikiTa buka karAvIne Avelo chuM to mArAthI rokAvAya ema nathI. sTImara cAlI jAya. bhAIzrI bolyA ke e sTImara jAya to bIjI nathI maLavAnI ? payurSaNamAM AvA AtmajJAnI puruSanA bodhano ghogha paDaze te tamane pharI kyAre sAMbhaLavA maLaze? emanI vAtathI prabhAvita thaIne meM paNa kahyuM javA do e boTa, bIjImAM jaIzuM, jJAnIpuruSanA peTamAM anAjano eka dANo jAya to mahApuNya vaLI bhAIzrI bolyA ke A prabhuzrIjI AtmA pAmelA puruSanA peTamAM ApaNA gharanA anAjano eka kaNa jAya to cauda rAjaloka janme eTaluM puNya baMdhAya. bhAIzrInI vAta mArA hRdayamAM beThI. jethI AzramamAM rokAI mAtApitAne patra lakhI ahIM bolAvavAno meM vicAra karyo. mAtApitAno upakAra kema vaLe vaLI bhAIzrI bolyA tame amerikA jazo lAkho rUpiyAnuM ghana lAvazo, mAtApitAnI viMjhaNA nAkhI sevA karazo to paNa temano upakAra na vaLe. tyAre meM kahyuM te zI rIte vaLe? tyAre 182 bhAIzrI bolyA prabhuzrIjI AtmA pAmelA puruSa che. emanA hAthe kRpALudevanI bhakti ane smaraNamaMtra temane apAvo to mAtA pitAno upakAra vaLe. prabhuzrIjInA darzanathI 68 tIrthanA darzana pachI mArA mAtApitAne ahIM bolAvavA mATe patra lakhyo. temAM meM jaNAvyuM ke tame koI dharmatIrthanA darzana karyA nathI. paNa ahIM saMta mahAtmA che. temanA darzanathI tamane 68 tIrthanA darzana karyA jeTaluM puNya baMdhAze. mATe jaldI Avajo ane Avo tyAre ApaNA gharathI caNAnA loTano magaja tathA ghauMnA loTanA lADuno prasAda banAvIne sAthe lAvajo tathA eka karaMDIyo phruTa keLAM, mosaMbI vagere paNa suratathI letA Avajo. jJAnInA zaraNathI emanI je gati tevI ApaNI bhAIzrIe pharI AgaLa vAta calAvI ane bolyA - ApaNA lokonI mAnyatA evI ke yuvAnImAM bhakti zI karavI. vRddha thaIe tyAre karavI. paNa koNa jANe che ke vRddha thaIne marIzuM. navayuvAna chokaro cAlatA cAlatA Thokara vAgIne gabaDI paDe ane deha choDI cAlyo jAya. paNa AvA samartha kRpALudeva jevA puruSonI bhakti smaraNa karavAnuM lIghuM hoya to e enjinarUpa thAya. ane ApaNe DabArUpa banI emanuM zaraNuM rAkhyuM hoya to emanI je gati thAya te ApaNI paNa thAya. ane kadAca karma anusAra nIcI gatimAM gayo hoya to paNa zaraNuM rAkhyuM hoya to tene kheMcI che. A vAta sAMbhaLI mAro nAnobhAI dinubhAI hAIskulamAM bhaNato hato tene paNa patra lakhI meM bolAvI lIdho.

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prabhuzrIjInA darzanArthe mArA mAtApitA ane bhAI AzramamAM AvyA bAda goviMdabhAI sAthe badhAne huM prabhuzrIjInA darzana arthe upara haoNlamAM laI gayo. pU.prabhuzrIjI pATa upara beThelA hatA. ane bAjumAM pU.brahmacArIjI UbhA hatA. tyAM jaI prabhuzrIjIne namaskAra karI temanI sAme hAtha joDI badhA UbhA rahyA. te vakhate prabhuzrIjIe brahmacArIjIne pUchyuM ke A koNa che? kyAMthI AvyA che? tyAre brahmacArIjI bolyA A chItubhAInA mAtApitA ane temano nAnobhAI. meM pU.zrI brahmacArIjIne mAruM nAma AzramamAM traNa divasa AvyAne thayA hatA chatAM jaNAveluM na hatuM. tathA mArA mAtApitA ane mAro nAno bhAI AzramamAM AvyA tenI vigata paNa temane meM kAne nAkhI na hatI. prabhu, bahu bhoLIyA che prabhuzrIjI mArA mAtApitA sAme sRSTi nAkhIne hAthanI AMgaLIo vaDe ceSTA karI bolyA ke prabhu bahu bhoLIyA che. ane dinubhAI saMbaMdhI bolyA ke bahu bhAgyazALI che. pachI prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : bhaktino krama savArathI rAta sudhI cAle che. temAM besajo, sAMbhaLajo, bhAva rAkhajo. eTaluM bolyA pachI ame badhA namaskAra karIne nIce UtarI mukAme gayA. prasAdanI prabhAvanA pachI lAvela prasAda phruTa vagere prabhuzrIjIne vahorAvI tathA lADu magaja vagere brahmacArI bhAIonA rasoDe ApI, vadhyuM teno bhakti UThyA pachI mumukSu bhAIbahenomAM prasAda karyo hato. prabhukRpAe vagara bhaNye bhakti mukhapATha traNa divasa pachI badhAne bhakti smaraNa maMtra levAnA bhAva thayA eTale prabhuzrIjI pAse maMtra levA gayA. namaskAra karIne UbhA rahyA. te vakhate prabhuzrIjIe mArI bAne kahyuM - vIsa dohA'he prabhu ! he prabhu, moDhe karajo. tyAre mArI bAe javAba Apyo prabhu mane vAMcatA nathI AvaDatuM eTale mArAthI moDhe na thAya. tyAre prabhuzrI bolyA A loko bhakti karavA bese tyAre pAchaLa besI sAMbhaLajo. ane kRpALudeva upara bhAva rAkhajo, thaI jaze. te pramANe karyAthI 6 mahinAmAM bhaktino Akho krama mukhapATha thaI gayo hato, sAMbhaLIne ja; Atmisiddhi, cha padano patra vagere paNa. maMtra e AtmA che mUkIza nahIM mArI bAne 'sahajAtmasvarUpa paramaguru' maMtra bolAvyo. eTale bA bolyA. e maMtra traNa vakhata bolAvyo ane kahyuM yAda 183 raheze ne? bA bolyA - prabhu e to raheze. tyAre prabhuzrIjI bolyA maMtra e AtmA che, e doraDuM che. mUkIza nahIM. zarIra e paDo che, phUTe teA phUTavA deje. sTImara paNa leTa thaI gaI AzramamAM ATha divasa paryuSaNanA purA karI ame gAma gayA. tyAre muMbaIthI dalAlanI TapAla AvelI hatI. temAM jaNAveluM ke tame je sTImaranI TikiTa buka karAvelI te baMdare rokAtI rokAtI AvavAthI leTa thaI che. emAM ja tamAre javAnuM che, tamA2A bhAva hoya to ahIM beThAM paNa AjJA maLe pachI huM panAmA gayo ane dararoja bhaktino krama karato. pustakonuM vAMcana paNa avakAze rAkhyuM hatuM. mokSamALAnuM pustaka zrI gopAlabhAIne meM vAMcavA mATe ApyuM, 15 divasa vAMcana karyAne thayA haze ane mane kahe ke bhAI, tame je A bhakti karo cho te ahIM beThA mane maLe? meM kahyuM hA, tamArA bhAva hoya to maLe. tame tamArA bhAva pramANe tamArA hAthe prabhuzrIjI upara patra lakho. tyAre gopAlabhAIe ema lakhyuM ke mArA bhAI je bhakti kare che te mAre karavAnA bhAva che, to kRpA karIne mArA AtmAnuM kalyANa thAya evuM satsAghana jaNAvavA vinaMtI che,

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pU.zrI brahmacArIjInA hAthe smaraNa maMtra banI ane nahera mAraphata mahIsAgara nadI emanA khetara pAse thaIne gaI. gopALabhAIno patra pU.zrI brahmacArIjIe prabhuzrIjIne vAMcI saMbhaLAvyo tyAre prabhuzrIjIe brahmacArIjIne patra lakhavAnI tArI bheMsa dUdha deze AjJA karI ke ene lakhI jaNAva ke tArA bhAI je bhakti kare che, khaMbhoLajamAM prabhuzrIjI gayelA. koI bAI taLAva upara te kapALadevanA citrapaTane traNa namaskAra karIne vIsa dohA, bheMso pAvA AvelI tene kahyuM ke mAre dUdhano khapa che. tyAre yamaniyama ane kSamApanAno pATha e traNa pAThanI roja bhakti bAIe kahyuM bheMsa dUgha nathI detI. paNa mArA ghare cAlo. prabhuzrIjI karajo ane dezamAM AvavAnuM thAya tyAre tamane smaraNamaMtra maLaze. enA ghare gayA. gharamAM enA sasarA beThA hatA teNe kIdhuM ke A gopALabhAIne bhaktinI AjJA ApyA bAda 10-12 mahine : bAvAne zuM karavA ANyo? bAI kahe emane dUdha joIe che. prabhuzrIjIno dehavilaya thaI gayo hato. pahelA AtmakalyANanuM tyAre DosAe kahyuM AvA bAvA to ghaNAya Avaze. prabhuzrIjIe sAdhana 5.pU.prabhuzrIjI batAvatA hatA. tenI soMpaNI zrI tArI bheMsa dUtha deze ema kahI cAlavA mAMDyuM. bahAcArIjIne karI gayA hatA. jethI gopALabhAI dezamAM AvyAM pachI bheMse dUgha ApavA mAMDyuM eTale DosAnA bhAva tyAre pU.zrI brahmacArIjInA hAthe temane smaraNamaMtra maLyo hato. huM paNa pharI gayA. tethI prabhuzrIjIne bolAvavA gayA ane kahyuM ke gopALa! AtmA kAM mare che cAlo mahArAja dUgha ApuM. pachI khaMbhoLajamAM cAra gharanA loko mumukSu thayA. teo AzramamAM AvatA ane jamaNavAra paNa karatA. aMta vakhate bA bImAra paDyA. deha chUTI jAya tevI emanuM nAma bhAIlAlabhAI hatuM. sAmo jIva yogya hoya to ja sthiti hatI. te vakhate gopAlabhAIe bAne pUchyuM : bA!maraNano AvuM kahe. emane kaMI dUghanI jarUra nathI. bhaya lAge che? tyAre bAe kahyuM : gopAla! AtmA kAM mare che, bApAe (prabhuzrIjIe) kaheluM ne, zarIra e to ghaDA jevuM che, phUTe to phuTavA deje; paNa maMtranuM doraDuM pakaDI rAkhaje. bhoLA hovA chatAM maMtrane pakaDI rAkhI potAnA AtmAnuM kalyANa karI gayA. prabhukRpAe bhoLA bALAnuM kAma thaI gayuM mArA bApujIne ghaDI ghaDI bAtharUma javuM paDatuM. paNa chelle ekI na thaI ane amane kahyuM ke maMtra cAlu rAkho. bahAcArI maganabhAI ane huM vagere maMtra smaraNa karatA rahyAM ane thoDIvAramAM maMtra sAMbhaLatA sAMbhaLatA temano deha chUTI gayo. prabhuzrIjInI kRpAe bhoLAbALAnuM kAma thaI gayuM. tamArA khetara pAse thaI mahIsAgara jaze agAsa sTezana upara ANaMda taraphanuM paheluM signala che tyAM relve krosiMganI oraDI che. tenI pAse hIrA DosA ghArADAnuM khetara hatuM. tyAM prabhuzrIjI jatA ane AMbA nIce dhyAnamAM besatA. te vakhate hIrA DosA paNa prabhuzrIjInI sAme hAtha joDIne besatAM. te mATe hIrA DosA paNa khetara sApha karI rAkhatA. ekavAra dhyAna chUTyA pachI prabhuzrIjIe hIrA DosAne kahyuM ke tamArA khetara pAse thaI mahIsAgara jaze. tyAre te DosA kahe : bApA mahIsAgara nadI to ahIMthI dasa gAu dUra che te ahIM kyAMthI Ave? pachI lagabhaga 25 varSe ahIM nahera iYE/ 184

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samudranA taLIye moTA macchanuM baccuM zuM bhAvI kare te paNa jANe. agAsa sTezana sAme pIpaLAnA jhArDa nIce pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI tathA mumukSuo kAviThA gAmanA eka dAsabhAI maraghAbhAI hatA. teo prabhuzrIjInA boghathI raMgAIne AjIvana brahmacarya vrata laI AzramamAM ja kAyama zaMkara bhagatanI sAthe rahetA hatA. aMte temano deha paNa AzramamAM ja chUTyo hato. A pahelAM teo vaiSNavagharmI hovAthI temanA eka mitra sAthe dara pUname DAkora raNachoDarAyajInA darzana karavA jatA. pachI dAsabhAIne ahIM AzramamAM prabhuzrIjInI hayAtimAM bhaktino raMga lAgyo hato ane A bhaktithI jarUra kalyANa thaze evI zraddhA te divase ahIM AzramamAM bapora pachInI bhakti sADAcAra thaI hatI. tethI jyAre jyAre kAviThA gAme javAnuM thatuM tyAre 6 vAge pUrI thayA bAda prabhuzrIjI tathA brahmacArIbhAIo nIce emanA mitra goviMdabhAIne maLavA jatA ane temane kahetA ke cokamAM daravAjA AgaLa AvyA. tyAre bra.zrI haramAnabhAIne bhAI tuM eka vakhata AzramamAM to Ava. tyAM bhakti thAya che te ! prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke ThelaNagADI lAvo. tethI lAvyA. temAM jo. tyAre goviMdabhAI kahe ApaNA vaiSNavadharmamAM zuM ochuM kahyuM prabhuzrIjI beThA ane haramAnabhAI tathA kazIbhAIne kahyuM ke daravAjA che ke tyAM AvuM? pharI mitrane prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA AvavA bahAra cAlo. eTale teo gADI ghakelIne boriAnI aDadhI mATe Agraha karyo tyAre temaNe dAsabhAIne jaNAvyuM ke tArA mahArAja : saDaka sughI laI gayA. pachI prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM Azrama tarapha vALo. evA kevA che ke tuM mane vAraMvAra Agraha karyA kare che. eTale teo gADI ghakelIne AzramanI aMdara AvavAnA rastA A vAta dAsabhAIe prabhuzrIjIne karI ke prabhu, mAro najIka AvyA ke prabhuzrIjIe pharI kahyuM : pelA pIpaLAnA jhADa eka mitra che. tene tamArA darzana arthe AzramamAM AvavA kahuM chuM. nIce lo. te pIpaLAnuM jhADa AzramanA mukhya daravAjAnI bahArathI paNa te kahe che ke tArA mahArAja evA kevA che ke vAraMvAra AvavAnuM dekhAtuM hatuM. tyAM prabhuzrIjInI gADI UbhI che ema lAgavAthI kahe che. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : tene ema kaheje ke samudranA thoDA bhAIo tyAM AvI gayA ane namaskAra karI beThA. pachI taLIye moTA macchanuM baccuM zuM bhAva kare te paNa jANe. prabhuzrIjIe "bahu puNya kerA puMjathI' nuM pada cAlu karyuM. aDaghA jhADa nIce darzana thAya to tArA guru sAcA sughI pada bolAyuM haze, tyAM to dAsabhAI tathA emanA mitra pharI bIjI vakhata kAviThA javAnuM thayuM tyAre emanA mitrane govindabhAI agAsa sTezananA pleTaphorma upara AvyA. tyAMthI prabhuzrIjIe kahelI vAta jaNAvI. te vAta sAMbhaLIne ajAyabI : dAsabhAIe pIpaLA tarapha joyuM, to prabhuzrIjIne beThelA joyA. pAmI te bolyA ke aho! evA te vaLI kevA? eTaluM badhuM jANe ? tyAre emanA mitrane AMgaLInA izArAthI batAvIne kahyuM ke tuM to eka zaratathI AvuM ke jyAre ApaNe agAsa sTezana pahoMcIe ! kaheto hato ke tArA mahArAjanA darzana pIpaLA nIce thAya to sAruM tyAre relve sTezana sAme godI pAse moTuM je pIpaLAnuM jhADa che mAnuM. have jo pIpaLA nIce beThA che e ja amArA mahArAja che. tenI nIce tArA mahArAjanA darzana thAya to te sAcA. tyAre dAsa- pachI teo tyAM AvyA ane Azcarya pAmI namaskAra karI beThA bhAIe kahe tuM cAla darzana thaze. tethI kAviThAthI cAlatA nIkaLyA. : ane tene paNa zraddhA thaI gaI. 185.

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AtmA pAmelA puruSanI draSTi paDavAthI pratimAo sajIvana pUnA comAsu karyA pachI paMdara divase prabhuzrIjI bAhubalI javA ravAnA thayA. hubalI, ghAravADa, maisura, beMgalora thaI zravaNabelagolA gayA. savAramAM pahADa upara caDI bAhubalinI mUrti AgaLa dhyAnamAM UbhA rahyA pachI thoDI bhakti karI nIce UtaryA. gharmazALAmAM baghA beThA hatA tyAre eka mumukSue pUchyuM : jJAnIpuruSa pote jJAnI che to darzana karavA zA mATe vicaratA haze? prabhuzrIjI bolyA : maMdodarIe potAnA darzana mATe eka vidyAghara pAse ratna vaDe kotarAyelI A bAhubalInI pratimA che. ghaNo samaya thayo. avarAyalI pratimAo hoya te AtmA pAmelA puruSanI draSTi paDe to sajIvana thAya. ane ghaNA yogya jIvo samakita pAme. tathA bIjA paNa ghaNA jIvo ghaNA kALa sudhI puNya bAMdhe. zrI rAma, sItAe paNa A mUrtinA darzana karela che. bharI sabhA madhye bhUlanI mAphI. smaraNamaMtra ApavAnI AjJA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInuM pUnAmAM comAsuM hatuM. tyAM bAMdhaNInA prabhuzrIjInI tabiyata narama hatI te vakhate eka be mumukSu bhagavAnabhAI paNa temanA kuTuMba sAthe AvelA. ghaNA mumukSuo guNacaMdajI mahArAjane prabhuzrIjI AgaLa laI jAya ane kahe ke emane smaraNamaMtra ApavAnuM soMpo. te vakhate prabhuzrIjI avaLA hatA. ekavAra bhagavAnabhAIe kahyuM A badhA kaMI bhakti karavA pharI jAya. ema traNa cAra vakhata baneluM. pachI prabhuzrIjIe Ave che? koI jovA Ave che, koI pharavA Ave che. A vAta bradAcArIjIne smaraNamaMtra ApavAnI AjJA karI hatI. je yogya prabhuzrIjInA kAna sudhI pahoMcI. prabhuzrIjIe jamyA pachI hoya tene ja gharma soMpAya. bhagavAnabhAIne bolAvyA ane kahyuM tame AvuM bolyA hatA? hA prabhu, bolyo hato. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : kAle bharI sabhAmAM hama divAnA rAjakA kisIko mAra beThuMgA mAphI mAMgo. bhagavAnabhAIe bIje divase bharI sabhAmAM mAphI kAviThAmAM eka cotarA tarapha prabhuzrI bhaktinI dhunamAM mAMgI hatI. temaja A bhUlano be divasa sudhI temane pazcAttApa beThelA hatA. tyAM lIlA kalaranI bhamarI prabhuzrInA kAnamAM jAya rahyo hato. ane pAchI bahAra Ave. goLa goLa pharIne pAchI kAnamAM AvajA kare. te zaMkara bhagate joyuM. tethI potAnI pAse kapaDuM hatuM tenAthI uDAvavA mATe te cotarA upara caDhyA ke prabhuzrIjI pIMchI laI paganA ghuMTaNa upara UbhA thaIne bolyA ke "hama divAnA rAjakA kisIko mAra beThuMgA." AvuM joIne zaMkara bhagata to tyAMthI AghA khasI gayA ke jANe zuM karI nAkhaze. paNa prabhuzrIne bhaktinI dhunamAM bhamarI kyAM Ave ane kyAM jAya tenI paNa khabara nahotI. zrI chItubhAI, pitAzrI zrI DAhyAbhAI, zrI dinubhAI, mAtuzrI, zrI gopALabhAI 186

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zrI aMbAlAlabhAI somAbhAI paTela saMdezara kRpALudevanA ziSya laghurAjasvAmI che kAviThAmAM zaMkara bhagatane maLavAnuM thAya. te bhagata jevA lAge. teNe mane prathama kRpALudevano kaphanIvALo citrapaTa batAvyo. te jotAM pratIti thaI ke A koI mahApuruSa che. pachI meM bhagatajIne pUchyuM : e atyAre che? to kahe nathI paNa emanA ziSya laghurAjasvAmI nAme che. kAviThAnA ThAkoriyAmAM prabhuzrIjIno bogha prathama sAMbhaLavA maLyo. pachI Azrama AvatA thaI gayo. bIjuM kaMI na samajIe paNa prabhu kahe tema bhakti karyA karIe. pachI zaMkarabhagatanA kahevAthI maMtra lIgho. prabhuzrIjInI ajaba bhakti sImaraDAmAM paryuSaNa vakhate prabhunI bhakti ajaba joI. teo ullAsamAM Ave tyAre nAce paNa kharA. puruSa jabbara lAge. paNa prabhu paramAtmA che ema beseluM nahIM. Azrama baMghAyA pachI huM huM chuM jevuM karyuM. paNa have prabhu vinA na rahevAya eTale teo jema kahe ahIM AvavA lAgyo.pachI pratIti thaI. prabhu mArI pAse ; tema ja karavAnuM rahyuM. kRpALudevanA pado vagere gavarAvatA. sAcuM te badhAne game bhaktimAM vAjiMtranuM kAma nathI je ekavAra ahIM Ave tene pharI AvavuM ja paDe evuM eka vakhate koI bhAI taMbUro laIne Avyo. te taMbUrA : prabhunuM yogabaLa hatuM. saMdezaramAM ema vAto karatA ke AzramamAM upara bhajano gAto hato. prabhue bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAIne bolAvI gayA to mahArAja maMtarI nAkhe che. prabhuzrIne kahyuM tyAre kaheje kahyuM - prabhu! A zuM karo cho? ApaNe AvuM kaMI na joIe. sAcuM che te kahIe chIe; te badhAne game che. mATe pharI Ave che. ApaNe to sIdhuM gAvAnuM hoya. vAjiMtranuM ApaNe kAma nathI. jIva kharo vANIyo nathI jethI pelA taMbUrAvALAbhAIne nA kahI dIdhI. prabhue nAnA taMbUrA jevA vAjiMtranI nA pADI to moTA vAjiMtra kyAMthI lAvavAnA hoya. prabhuzrI kahetA ke jIva kharo vANIyo nathI. naphAno dhaMdho jato kare che. je ahIM ja paDI rahevAnuM che tenA mATe mathe che; ane daza AnI tame karo to cha AnI ame umerIe. je sAthe Ave te Atmahita karato nathI. ekavAra prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : karavuM to paDaze ja. karaze anAja cokhu ane khapa pUratuM levuM tAro bhA. tyAre ame kahyuM : prabhu tame amArA bhA. prabhu kahe ema pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI kahetA ke anAja vagere khapa pUratuM laIe na thAya. daza AnI tame karo to cha AnI umerI ApIe. uM ane cokhkhuM hoya to laIe. vadhu paDatuM laI jIvaDAM zuM karavA coTalInA vALa dekhAya to kheMcI kADhI nakhAya paNa dekhAya ja nahIM mArIe, pApa zuM karavA bAMghIe. to zuM kADhIe? anaMtajJAnadarzana sukhamaya prabhue prema ApI vaza karyA sahajatmasvarUpa prabhuzrIe pahelA amane premathI vaza karI lIdhA. pachI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne pUchyuM ke 'sahajAtma samajAvyuM ke kaMdamULa na khavAya, vyasana na sevAya, rAtre na svarUpa paramaguru' maMtrano artha zo ? tyAre carya pALavuM vagere. A to madArInI jema pahelAM kahyuM : anaMtajJAna, anaMtadarzana, anaMtavIrya, DugaDugI vagADI badhAne bhegA karyA pachI TopalImAMthI sApa kADhayA anaMtasukhamaya zuddha AtmA. zrI aMbAlAlabhAI 189

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zrI hIrAbhAI motIlAla jhaverI brahAjJAna mATe brahmaniSTha guru joIe pethApura san 1923mAM huM perIsathI ekAeka vepAra (temanI noMghanA AdhAre) choDIne hiMdustAna Avyo. eka mitre jAmanepoliyananI khabara che? nagaranA jaMgalanA yogInI vAta karI. temane san 1914mAM zrI harIbhAI sAthe maLavA gayo. teo eka vastra paheratA. AhAra temanA guru tarIke prabhuzrIjIne mAre maLavAnuM letA nahIM, uMghatA nahIM, siMha sAthe rahetA. mananI thayuM, namaskAra karyA. paNa prabhuzrI kaMI bolyA vAta jANatA vigere camatkAro sAMbhaLelA, te nahIM. huM phrAMsa javAno chuM evI vAta prabhuzrIne joyA. te baghAno khulAso pUchatAM temaNe kahyuM harIbhAIe karI. prabhuzrIe thoDI vAra pachI AmAM kAMI nathI. pachI brahmajJAna zuM haze te kahyuM "nepoliyananI khabara che?" huM jANe temane saMbaMdhI pUchyuM tyAre te yogI puruSe kahyuM-tene mAhitI Apato houM tema meM nepoliyananI vAta karavA mAMDI, mATe brahmaniSTha guruno samAgama karavo. pachI thayuM ke brahmaniSTha paNa prabhuzrI jANe kaMI sAMbhaLatA nathI tevuM lAgyuM tyAre vAta baMgha gurune kyAM khoLavA? tevAmAM zrI harIbhAIe kahyuM hAlamAM pUnAmAM karI. pachI UThIne bahAra gayA. pachI huM muMbaI gayo. sTImaramAM yo sTImaramAM brahmaniSTha guru che. tethI tyAM prabhuzrI pAse javA AvavAnuM rAkhyuM. beTho, perIsa gayo. tyAM rahyo. te daramyAna nepoliyananuM nAma zuM jJAnI hADamAMsajue ajJAnI rUpa jue karavA prabhujIe ApyuM haze te vicAra AvyA karato. pUnAmAM eka divasa prabhuzrI sAthe pharavA gayo. pAchaLa nepoliyananI rAjya sthiti ane kaidI sthiti : eka aMgreja bAI AvatI hatI. mane yuropanI rIta pramANe jo tuM amalamasta hoya to nepoliyana bonApArTane mohadraSTithI jovAnI Teva paDI hatI tema huM bAI sAmuM joto hato. banne sthitithI smaraNa kara." (puSpamALA) AvuM eka vAkya tevAmAM ekAeka prabhuzrIe pAchuM pharIne kahyuM ke "jJAnI hoya te tattvajJAnamAM vAMcavAmAM AvyuM. tyAre A hetuthI kadAca prabhuzrIe hADamAMsa cAmaDA jue ane ajJAnI hoya te rUpa jue. mane thayuM nepoliyananuM nAma kahyuM haze ema lAgyuM. ke A te kema banatuM haze? paNa prabhuzrInI vAta dhyAnamAM rahI. duniyAmAM bhavyamAM bhavya ane suMdaramAM suMdara dekhAvavALo mahArAja sArA che. temane kaMI bheTa ApI hoya to ThIka. pachI kIrtistaMbha ane kIrti daravAjo nepoliyane karyo che. tyAM roja : AzramamAM daravAjAnI vAta sAMbhaLI lagabhaga sAta hajAra ApyA. mAre pharavA javAnuM thatuM. tyAM perisamAM mINanA putaLAnuM pradarzana prabhuzrIe mane tattvajJAna ApI gurumaMtra Apyo hato. che tyAM nepoliyananI maraNapathArIno dekhAva che. te joI A vAta pATIdAra bhAIo to daivika mumukSuo che yAda AvatI ane prabhuzrIjInuM smaraNa thatuM. indoramAM badhA pATIdAra mumukSu prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA eka tarapha to nepoliyananuM nAma yAda Ave tevA ad AvelA. te baghA jamIna upara namaskAra karI jamIna upara ja bhuta bagIcA, mahela ane koIe nahIM bhogavelo evo vaibhava te roja jovA maLato. ane bIjI bAju pradarzanamAM maraNapathArIno beThA. mArA manathI A baghA garIba mANaso che tethI tema kare che. paNa te badhuM AzramamAM AvyA pachI samajAyuM ke pATIdAra bhAIo dekhAva; tyAM mAtra eka taMbumAM nepoliyana sUto che, pAse koI to bhaktibhAvavALA hovAthI daivI mumukSuo che. nathI, sAme aMgrejI DaoNkaTara che. nepoliyana kedI che. pAse eka nAno khATalo ane pANI pIvAno loTo. temAM paNa uMdara caDhI prabhuzrIjI bhagavAna svarUpa jAya tevuM. ghArADAnI ghAsanI jhuMpaDI tenA hisAbe mahela jevI AzramamAM khuzAlabhAI vigere maLyA. temanI baghAnI gaNAya tevI sthitino teno taMbu. pAsethI prabhuzrI bhagavAna svarUpa che evI vAto sAMbhaLI. jethI nepoliyananI e beya sthitine joI mane roja ema ema thayuM ke have samAgama karavo. tethI ANaMda rahevAnuM nakkI karyuM. thatuM ke prabhuzrIjIe zuM A vicAra karavA mATe mane nepoliyananuM kAraNa AzramamAM kaMI sagavaDa nathI. thoDA vakhata pachI prabhuzrIe nAma yAda devaDAvyuM haze? jJAnIpuruSanA eka vacananuM keTaluM apAra zuM kahyuM : prabhu AzramamAM rahevAya to ThIka. tyAre ANaMdamAM jagyA mahAtama che te kaMIka samajAya che. prabhuzrInA kahevAno Azaya kADhIne AzramamAM rahevAnuM nakkI karyuM. keTalo UMDo haze te to jJAnI ja jANe. 190

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prabhuzrI aMtaryAmI A mahAtmA to mukta puruSa jevA che prabhuzrI dakSiNamAM yAtrArthe javAnA hatA. sAthe gharmajathI eka brAhmaNa mumukSu AvelA. temane traNa cAra jaNa javAnA hatA. mane vicAra Avyo ke mATe prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke bhAI saMskArI che. tethI prabhuzrI joDe javAnuM thAya to ThIka. A vicAra karato temane meM bolAvyA. meM pUchyuM tame ahIM zuM joyuM? te hato tevAmAM mane koI bolAvA AvyuM. huM prabhuzrI bhAI duniyAmAM ghaNuM pharelA. ghaNA saMta, yogIne maLelA. pAse gayo tyAre temaNe kahyuM jo AvavA vicAra hoya vivekAnaMda, rAmakRSNanA ziSyone maLyA hatA. pAMDicerI to jagyA che. meM hA pADI. mane thayuM ke zuM prabhuzrIe gayA hatA. temaNe zrIyuta araviMdane jamInathI aththara mAro vicAra jAyo haze?te mane navAI bhareluM lAgyuM nIkaLavAne : nA jala paNa dIThelA. chatAM teo kahe - te badhuM ja8 ane A divase bAI menA muMbaIthI darzana karavA AvyA. ekAeka badhA mahAtmAnI vAta judI che. A mahAtmA (prabhuzrIjI) to mukta puruSa jevA lAge che. emanuM svarUpa kahevAya tema nathI. tenI bairAmAMthI bAI menAne bolAvIne kahyuM tAre AvavuM hoya to pratIti aMtaramAM thAya che. temane oLakhavA te buddhinA paranI Ava. A banAvathI paNa navAI lAgelI. vAta che. chatAM samajAyuM te kahI saMbhaLAvyuM. vagere ghaNuM kahyuM. traNa jJAnInuM eka vacana pakaDI rAkhe kalAka sudhI prabhuzrIjI mATe guNagrAma karyA. te uparathI pote to paNa kAma thAya saMskArI che tevuM mane paNa thayuM. (prabhuzrI boghanI neTa-3 pR.366) pUnAthI zravaNabelagulA jatAM pU.prabhuzrI "AtamabhAvanA huM adhamamAM paNa adhama chuM bhAvatAM jIva lahe kevaLajJAna re, jIva lahe kevaLajJAna re' ema prabhuzrIjIe eka vakhata kahyuM : "aghamAma adhiko nava vakhata bolelA. prabhuzrIe kaheluM ke jJAnInuM eka vacana : patita, sakala jagatamAM huMya" A gAthA kSAyaka samakita thayA pakaDI rAkhe to paNa kAma thAya. tethI A sahelAmAM sahelo zabda pachI paNa sAmene sAme rAkhavAnI che. lAgavAthI yAda rAkhelo. AjJA vRDha ArAdho to avazya mokSA A koI judI ja jAtanA sAghu che, tevuM lAgatuM. temanI game eka divasa prabhuzrIjI sabhAmaMDapamAM AvyA tyAre vIza temAMthI "artha' kADhI ApavAnI zailI mane gamatI hatI. doharAmAMnI "nathI AjJA gurudevanI, acaLa karI uramAMhI..." jJAnIpuruSanA eka vacananuM e gAthA cAlatI hatI te viSe prabhuzrIjI bolyA ke - "AjJA vRDha zraddhAna mokSanuM kAraNa acaLa karI nathI. A gAthA mULa che. san 1924thI 1936 sudhImAM prabhuzrInA samAgamamAM cha padanI zraddhAmAM rahela samyagadarzanA aneka prasaMgo banelA che. seMkaDo sAMbhaLyAM che ke je jaNAvatAM eka prabhuzrIjIe cha padanA patra mATe kahyuM ke kRpALudeve ja sAra nIkaLe che ke - jJAnI puruSanuM eka vacana zraddhavAmAM Ave chapadano patra ApI mArI pAse ekaDo ghUMTAvyo che. have jeTalA to kuvAmAM paDelA mANasane doraDuM hAthamAM AvyuM hoya to tene maDA nAkho eTalA lekhAmAM. cha padamAM jeTalA "che" zabda che bahAra kADhe, tema saMsArarUpI kuvAmAMthI jarUra te jIva UMco Ave ke tene tana ghaTave. ne baghA eka che. ane tene mokSe javuM hoya to laI jAya. mArA guruno moTo camatkAra bhUta, bhaviSyanuM jJAna, riddhi siddhi zrI rasikabhAI kahe - ekavAra mane zrI hIrAbhAIe jene sahajamAM prApta kaheluM ke zrI laghurAjasvAmInA camatkAronI vAto to ghaNI che. trikALajJAna zuM kahevAtuM haze? te to jJAnI jANe. paNa paNa eka moTo camatkAra thayo tenI huM tamane vAta karuM. meM je ApaNI AMkhe jotAM ema lAgatuM ke temane traNe loka pratyakSa hatA : vyasanonuM sevana karyuM ane jenI mane Teva paDI gaI hatI te ane karmane jatAM AvatAM joI zakatA eTale ke bhUta ane bhaviSya Adato choDI paNa chUTe nahIM, chatAM emAcamatkAra e thayo ke jANavuM te temane ramata jevuM hatuM. loko jene riddhi siddhi gaNe che koIpaNa prayatna karyA vinA, bAghA ke vrata lIdhA vinA e tevI to temane bathI sahaja hatI. evI mArA upara teozrInI ke vastuo chUTI gaI; e mArA guru zrImadda laghurAjasvAmIno ja chApa paDI hatI. moTo camatkAra che. 191

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jIvane gaDamathala thAya che, paNa AtmA che zrI rasikabhAI jaNAve che - amuka saMsArI kaSTomAMthI huM pasAra thato hato. mAruM mana bahuM mUMjhAyeluM rahetuM. mane paNa AtmA che ke nahIM, te praznano khulAso darzana zAstramAMthI ke sAyakolojImAMthI maLato nahIM ane enI mUMjhavaNa paNa thatI. evA eka prasaMge agAsa hIrAbhAInI preraNAthI jaI pahoMcyo. tyAre zrI laghurAjasvAmI dezanA detA hatA te sabhAmaMDapamAM jaIne beTho. zrI laghurAjasvAmInI draSTi pharatAM pharatAM mArA tarapha vaLI, mArI draSTi sAthe joDAI ane te sAthe ja "AtmA che." pharI thoDIka kSaNo pachI enuM e ja thayuM ane svAmIjIe kahyuM "jIvane gaDamathala bahu thAya che, paNa AtmA che." AnI A prakriyA ekAdavAra pharI thaI ane huM paNa mugdha thaI temAM tallIna thaI gayo. AnI mArA para zI asara thaI ke mArI zraddhA keTalI vaghI ke AtmAnI mane pratIti thaI evuM kazuM huM kahI zakuM tema nathI. paNa 'AtmA nathI' ema anekavAra vaijJAnika tarkabuddhi sAbita karatI hovA chatAM e vAta tyAra pachI cittamAM jamatI nathI.....haM hIrAbhAIne kaheto ke jo mane AtmajJAna ugaze to A bIjamAMthI ja ugaze. hIrAbhAInI zraddhA pramANe to zrI laghurAja svAmIe mane vIMdhI dIdho hato. amAre to liphTa joIe tamArA namaskAra nahIM pU. prabhuzrIjInA pagamAM vA AvavAthI dAdarA caDhavAmAM muzkelI joIne zrI hIrAbhAI jhaverIne vicAra Avyo ke upara javA mATe liphTa banAvavI joIe. te mATe navuM bhaNIne AvelA zrI ramaNabhAI enjinIyarane badhI vAta karI. ane agAsa AzramamAM AvavA jaNAvyuM. tyAre zrI ramaNabhAI kahe, bhale huM banAvI ApIza. tene mATe agAsa Azrama AvIza, paNa tyAM tamArA mahArAjane huM namuM nahIM hoM! tyAre zrI hIrAbhAIe kahyuM amAre to liphTa banAvavI che. tame namaskAra karo na karo ethI amane kaMI nibaMda nathI. pachI te ramaNabhAI, hIrAbhAI sAthe agAsa AzramamAM AvyA. ane liphTa banAvavA mATenI jagyA jovA upara gayA. tyAM anAyAse pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzana thatAM temanA bhAva pharI gayA ane pU.prabhuzrIjInA caraNamAM DhaLI paDyA, sASTAMga daMDavat namaskAra karyA. zrI hIrAbhAI 192

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zrI jJAnacaMdra indracaMdra nAhaTA muMbaI (emanA putrI sItAbene jaNAvela prasaMga ahIM to vijJAna che, daivikajJAna hiMdustAnamAM che zrI jJAnacaMdra nAhaTA perisamAM hatA tyAre temane svapnA Ave. svapnamAM potAnA zarIranA hADakA dekhAya ane jANe huM marI gayo chuM ema thAya. bIje divase paNa svapnamAM e ja pramANe dekhAyuM, ema traNa divasa thayuM, tethI tyAMnA mAnasika DaoNkaTarane puchyuM tyAre eNe kahyuM moTA DaoNkaTara AvavAnA che temane batAvajo. paNa teNe evI eka vAta karI ke ahIM to vijJAna che paNa daivikazAna nathI. daivikazAna joItuM hoya to InDiyA jAo. zrI hIrAbhAI dara varSe InDiyA jAya che, ane koI saMta mahAtmAno satsaMga kare che, temane maLo. pachI nAhaTAjI hIrAbhAIne maLyA ane badhI vAtacIta thaI. pachI ahIM agAsa AzramamAM AvavAnuM banyuM tyAre badhI vAtanI jANa thaI. AzramamAM nAhaTAjI prabhuzrIjIne maLavA gayA tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : svapnA joyA? nAhaTAne Azcarya thayuM ane kahyuM " hA joyA che. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke ame ja batAvyA che. tame aneka sarpone mAryA che? tyAre nAhaTAe kahyuM - hA. e bahAra pharavA jAya tyAM sarpano zikAra kare. nAhaTAjI kahe mane Ape AvA svapnA dekhAyA tenuM zuM kAraNa ? zrI jJAnacaMdra nAhaTA nake jatAM bacAvI ame RNamukta thayA prabhuzrI kahe - tamAruM amArA upara RRNa che. te patAvavuM che, tame amane cothA bhave eka pustaka ApyuM hatuM. tenAthI amArA AtmAnuM hita thayuM hatuM. te Rnna patAvavA tamane AvA svapnA dekhADyA; nahiM to tame narake jAo. pachI ghaNo bodha karyo jethI nAhaTAjInuM mana zAMta thayuM ane prabhuzrI pratye atUTa zraddhA pragaTI. 193

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zrI sadgaNAbena jJAnacaMdra nAhaTA muMbaI AtmAne maraNa che ja nahIM Abu mAunTa upara sanaseTa poInTa tarapha eka divasa prabhuzrIjInI ThelaNavADI gaI. najIkamAM eka bahena potAnA be bALakone laI rahetI hatI. te bALako prabhazrIjInI gADI joI doDI AvyA. prabhuzrIjIe temane alaukika darzana ApyA. prabhuzrI temane bhagavAnarUpe dekhAyA. te joI temane AnaMda AnaMda thaI gayo. temanI mA paNa pAchaLa pAchaLa AvI. tene prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM A nAno chokaro che tene amadAvAda tArA bhAIne tyAM mUka ane bhaNAva. ane tuM agAsa AzramamAM eka nAnI oraDI laIne tyAM rahe. te kahe mArI pAse paisA nathI. amArI sthiti garIba che. prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM tAro bhAI amadAvAdamAM presanuM kAma kare che te tuM mAMge to pacAseka rUpiyAnI madada na kare? jarUra karaze. chokarAne amadAvAda mUkI ATheka divasa tyAM raheje. ane A be patra ApuM chuM te dararoja pheravaje. AtmAne maraNa che ja nahIM. ityAdi bogha te bAIne prabhuzrIjIe te vakhate Apyo. pachI prabhunA kahyA mujaba bALakane amadAvAda laI jaI nizALamAM dAkhala karyo. be cAra divasamAM ja te bALaka bImAra paDyo ane teno deha chUTI gayo. patrAdi prabhuzrIjIe ApyA hatA te maraNanA viyoganA du:khamAM tene AzcaryakAraka sahAyarUpa thaI paDyA. , I if Aje ja huM to saMtanA darzana karavA jaIza zrI raNachoDabhAI nAravALA ekavAra muMbaI AvelA. temane muMbaImAM ghATakopara eka bhAIne tyAM mumukSuo sAthe bhAvapUrvaka bhakti karI ane pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA mAhAbhyanI adbhuta vAto karI. te sAMbhaLI zaMkarabhAI nAmanA vyaktine prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavAnI tIvra bhAvanA jAgI. temaNe potAnI patnIne kahyuM ke Aje ja huM to saMtanA darzana karavA jaIza. tuM rokIza to paNa jaIza. ravAnA thaI rAtre agAsa pahoMcyA tyAre Azramano "kSamA e ja mokSano bhavya daravAjo baMdha hato. daravAjo Thokyo paNa koI khole nahIM. pachI je thavAnuM hoya te thAya ema vicArI bhaktAmara bolatA tyAM ja besI rahyA. prabhudarzanathI anahada krodha svabhAva paNa zAMta prabhuzrIjInA jJAnamAM jaNAyuM. temaNe daravAjo kholavA sUcanA karI. prabhuzrInA darzana karatAM ja tene apUrva ullAsa Avyo ane temanA page vaLagI prabhuno aMgUTho cUsavA lAgyo. prabhue paNa bhaktanA bhAva joI tema karavA dIdhuM. te bhAIno krogha anahada hato. tethI prabhune kahyuM mane kaMI Apo. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : tuM kaMI bhakti vagere kare tevo che nahIM. tyAre te kahe mane to kaMI gama paDatI nathI. pachI prabhuzrIjIe temano citrapaTa koI bhAI pADIne lAvelA te temanI pAse paDelo te svahaste tene Apyo. muMbaI AvyA pachI temanA svabhAvamAM Avelo pheraphAra joI temanAM patnI cakita thaI gayAM. teo have zAMta banI gayA hatA. zrI saguNAbena 194

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bra. zrI sAkarabena premacaMda zAha agAsa Azrama (zrI sAkarabena sAthe bhAvanArbana pArasabhAIne thayelI vAtacIta mujaba pa.u.pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInA prathama darzana mane muMbaImAM thayA hatA. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI muMbaI padhArelA. tyAM mArA mAmA maNibhAI kalyANajIe vAtacItanA prasaMgamAM prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM ke mArI bhANI madrAsa bhaNe che te hamaNAM ahIM Avela che. tyAre prabhuzrIjI kahe kyAM che? vagere vAto thaI. pachI kesaramAmInA kahevAthI huM prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA gaI. temanA boghanA prasaMgathI mahAtmA sArA che evo mane bhAva utpanna thayo. prabhuzrIjIe mane vAMcavA mATe vacanAmRta ApyuM. te laI huM madrAsa ga. tyAM vacanAmRta pustaka vAMcyuM. bahu AnaMda thayo. mAre agAsa Azrama javuM che madrAsa bhaNavAnuM pUruM thavAthI huM muMbaI AvI. muMbaImAM mArA bhAI padamazIbhAI sAthe rahevA lAgI. bhAI kAme lAgyA paNa lagna thayA nahotA. tethI rasoI vagere gharanuM kAma huM karatI hatI. meM sarvIsa cAluM karI nahotI. mArA mAtApitA gujarI gayA hatA. mArA bA mArI nava varSanI uMmare, pitAzrI bAra varSanI uMmare gujarI gayA hatA. pachI mArA dAdAe mane amadAvAda, surata, muMbaI jyAM sArI skUla hoya tyAM bhaNavA mokalI. kaoNleja mATe madrAsamAM iMglIza sAruM hovAthI tyAM bhaNavA mUkI. dAdAno mArA upara prema ghaNo hato. temano paNa deha mArA kaoNlejanA chellA varSamAM chUTI gayo. ekavAra padamazIbhAI kAThIyAvADa jatA hatA. tyAre meM kahyuM bhAI huM paNa tamArI sAthe AvuM? mAre agAsa Azrama javuM che. huM Azrama AvI tyAre mAmA maNibhAI ane mAmI kesarabena AzramamAM ja hatA. mane keMsaramAmI pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA laI gayA. zAMtisthAnamAM citrapaTanI sthApanAnI bAjumAM pU.prabhuzrIjI pATa upara birAjela hatA. mumukSuo beThA hatA. amane na mAno paramakRpALudevane mAno boghamAM pU.prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke amane na mAno, paramakRpALudevane mAno. ema traNavAra kahyuM. tethI mArA manamAM evI chApa paDI ke A mahAtmA kevA nispRha che ke je potAne manAvA icchatA nathI. jyAre bIjA sAdhuo to potAne manAve. pachI ame ghera gayA. thoDIvAramAM pU.prabhuzrIjIe amane upara bolAvyA. huM tathA kesaramAmI upara gayA. darzana karIne beThA. pachI pU.prabhuzrIjIe kalAka doDha klAka evo bodha Apyo ke huM to te sAMbhaLIne TharI ja gaI. dAdA javAthI manamAM duHkha hatuM te dUra thayuM ane lAgyuM ke bApA kaho, dAdA kaho mArA mATe sarvasva e ja che, prabhuzrIjI pratye evo bhAva manamAM pragaTa thayo. prabhuzrIjInI AjJA pramANe vAMcana, manana pachI pU.prabhuzrIjIe mane maMtra Apyo, tattvajJAna ApyuM ane Atmasiddhi, cha padano patra vagere mukhapATha karavAnI AjJA ApI. cAra pAMca divasa pachI muMbaI gaI. tyAM Akho divasa daravAjo baMdha karI aMdara gokhavAnuM ke vAMcavAnuM karyAM karuM. padamazIbhAI kAmethI ghare Ave tyAre daravAjo kholuM. pADozI kahe Akho divasa aMdara ekalI besIne zuM karyA kare che. pachI meM skUlamAM prinsIpAlanI sarvIsa cAlu karI. be cAra divasa rajA hoya tyAre Azrama AvI jAuM. vratanA prabhAve bhAvomAM pheraphArano sAkSAt anubhava eka vakhata Azrama AvI tyAre brahmacarya viSe vAMcana keTalAya divasathI cAlatuM hatuM. te vakhate prabhuzrIjIe mane kahyuM vrata levuM che ? meM kahyuM hA prabhu. pachI mane be varSa mATenuM brahmacarya vrata ApyuM. e vrata laI huM muMbaI gaI. vratanA prabhAvathI bhAvamAM paNa pheraphAra jaNAyo. vratanuM mAhAtmya kevuM che teno mane sAkSAt anubhava thayo. pachI koI paNa vrata ke niyama prabhuzrIjI levAnuM kahe te mAre levuM evo manamAM nizcaya karyo. prabhuzrIjI maLyA pahelA paNa mAre lagna karavAno vicAra nahoto. 197

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AjIvana brahmacaryanI pratijJA divALInA vekezanamAM eka mahino AzramamAM rahevA Avela te vakhate vicAra Avyo ke hamaNAM prabhuzrIjI che to emanI pAse AkhI jiMdagInuM brahmacarya vrata laI lauM to sAruM. pachI pU.prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM ke mAre jIvanaparyata brahmacaryavrata levuM che. pU.prabhuzrIjI pAse pU.brahmacArIjI UbhelA hatA. pU.prabhuzrIjI kahe e zuM kahe che? pU.brahmacArIjI kahe prabhu, AjIvana brahmacarya vrata levAnuM kahe che. pharI pU.prabhuzrIjI kahe zuM kahe che. prabhu vrata levAnuM kahe che ema traNa cAra vakhata pUchIne nakkI karAvyuM. pachI kArtika suda 4ne divase zAMtisthAna upara pahelA bhakti thatI hatI tyAM mane pU.prabhuzrIjIe sabhA samakSa AjIvana brahmacaryavrata ApyuM. te divase jJAnAvaraNIya karmanI pUjA lakhAvI ane dara jJAna paMcamIe A vrata nimitte covihAra upavAsa karavAnuM bhAva paccakhANa karyuM. mAre vAMcavA mATe kayA kayA pustako kharIdavA tenA nAma pU.prabhuzrIjIe lakhAvyA hatA. pAnaMdIpaMcaviMzati vigere. prinsipAla ane vanitA vizrAmanI dekhabhALa eka sAthe mArI sarvIsa cAlu hatI. te vakhate muMbaImAM chokarIonI : dAkhala thavA lAgI. jenI jevI sagavaDa hoya te pramANe cArja borDiMga jenuM nAma vanitA vizrAma hatuM. te sAva paDI bhAMgI. huM bharavAnuM rAkhyuM. koI anAtha hoya tenA mATe chUTa rAkhI hatI. TrasTIoe vicAra karyo ke A kAma have kone soMpavuM. vAlIbena paramakRpALudevanI kRpAthI tamane vagerene kAma soMpyuM. paNa saphaLatA maLI nahIM. pachI koIe mAruM ! samakita thaze evo AzIrvAda nAma lIdhuM tyAre TrasTIo kahe e chokarI jevI che. te A badhI pU.prabhuzrIjI navasArI padhAryA tyAre huM ane lIlAbena chokarIone kema tAbAmAM rAkhI zakaze? pachI thAkIne mane soMpyuM. mArA bhAI padamazIbhAI kahe prinsipAla tarIke ane vanitA darzanArthe gayA hatA. pU.prabhuzrIjIe lIlAbenane maMtra ane vizrAmanuM kAma beya kevI rIte saMbhALAze? tyAre meM kahyuM vanitA tattvajJAna ApyuM hatuM. bIjI traNa cAra chokarIo sAthe hatI. vizrAmamAM ja rahIza. tethI te kAma paNa sArI rIte joI zakAze. paNa pU.prabhuzrIjIe temanI sAmuM paNa joyuM nahotuM. thoDA divasomAM ja te vyavasthita thaI gayuM. tyAM mAro nivAsa san 1934mAM sAkarabene pU.prabhuzrIjIne patra lakhela ke sauthI uparanA mALe hato. koI paNa chokarI kyAMya jAya to mane mane samakita kema thAya? teno upAya batAvo. teno javAba khabara paDI jAya. pU.prabhuzrIjIe Apela te upadezAmRta patrAMka 167mAM nIce pramANe jaNAvela che. teno thoDoka bhAga atre ApIe chIe. A badho puNya prabhAva mane to pU.prabhuzrIjIno lAgyo tamArI mAgaNI samakitanI thaI che te kRpALudevanI tyAM rasoDAnA koThAra saMbhALavA mATe eka bena joItA kRpAthI tamane thaze - niHzaMka mAnajo." "anAdino jIva hatA. te paNa maLI gayA. temanuM nAma lIlAbena hatuM. te bahu sArI mithyAtvamAM che. prathama zIkhavAnuM ke mAruM kaMI nathI. pudagala che rIte koThAra saMbhALe. A bagho puNya prabhAva mane to pU. te caitanyazaktithI bhinna che, bhinna che, bhinna che; AtmAnI prabhuzrIjIno lAgyo ke A saMsthA sarasa rIte cAlavA lAgI. zakti AtmAmAM che. caitanya che te potAnuM che, bIjuM nahIM, e saMsthAnI vyavasthA joI anAja, ghI, tela vagere bheTa mokalavA mAne che te mUkAya che. potAnuM nahIM tene mAruM mAne che te baMdhAya mATe lokonA kAgaLo AvavA lAgyA ane navI chokarIo paNa che. mAruM che, meM karyuM ema mAnanAra baMghAya che." 198

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have atre zrI sAkarabenanI DAyarImAMthI pU.prabhuzrIjIno karavA tarapha lakSa ApavuM. thoDoka bodha ApIe chIe. koI bAbatanI ghana, sattA, brahmacarya vrata dravyabhAve grahaNa karyuM te deha, putra vigerenI mamatA na jarUra mokSa apAvaze thAya. mamatA e ja baMdhana che. te AtmAne mahAAje pU. prabhuzrIjIe A jIvane bolAvI aMtarathI duHkhamaya che...mATe kSaNa kSaNa bogha karyo ke tuM AtmA che ema jANa ane sarvamAM AtmAne ja bahu saMbhALavuM. sarva para jo. A hADa cAmaDAM che temAM moha pAmI baMghAIza nahIM. tuM tane samabhAva rAkhI sarvanuM zubha ghaDI ghaDI yAda kara ane tAruM svarUpa je jJAnIe kahyuM che teno icchavuM, pAramArthika rIte." sAkSAtkAra kara. je brahmacarya vrata dravyabhAve grahaNa karyuM che te ghaNuM (pR.92) zubha thayuM che. te jarUra AtmAne mokSa apAvaze. te pALavA deha potAno che nahIM ane thavAno paNa nathI. dravyabhAve paNa kALajI rAkhavI. nimitta kharAba na banavA devA. sAvaceta rahevuM ane A deha che teTalo kALa to Teka draDha rAkhavI. A dehamAM moha mUrchA to na ja karavA. deha potAno che paraMtu je tyAga karyo che e AtmabhAve aMtarathI thavo joIe. ke nahIM ane thavAno nathI, evo nizcaya karI levo. te saDI jaze, manathI moha rAga na thAya te mATe udaya Avye cittavRtti vAMcavA paDI jaze, roga Avaze, vRddha thaze, kurUpa banaze paNa tethI na vicAravAmAM athavA AtmaciMtanamAM rokavI. je draDhatAthI vrata mUMjhAvuM. kAraNa ApaNo hetu to tethI koIpaNa rIte AtmArtha lIdhuM tethI A jIva saMsAra samudra oLaMgI kAMThe AvI pahoMcyo : sAvavAno che, nahIM ke tene zAzvata karavAno. tema khAvuM, pIvuM, che. have mAtra eka AtmAne oLakhavAno che. kharuM sukha che te huM paheravuM, oDhavuM te mohathI, svArthathI deha para mUccha lAvI potAne bahAranuM nathI, AtmAmAM che. mATe tene pAmavA AtmaciMtana deharUpa mAnIne karyuM to te jherarUpa che. tema thatuM hoya te karatAM marI karavuM. e bIjI AjJA che." (pR.85) javuM bahetara che ke jethI navA bhava UbhA thatA to aTake. (pR.99) A duniyAmAM icchavA yogya mAtra eka satsaMga "paramakRpALudeva prati' e kAvya caityavaMdana tulya "Aje aThavADiyuM thayAM navasArI AvI. divase divase "parama kRpALu deva prati, vinaya vinaMtI eha; pU.prabhuzrIjIno bogha vaghune vaghu amRtamaya banato jAya che.....A traya tatva traNa ratna muja, Apo avicaLa sneha." duniyAmAM icchavA yogya kaMIpaNa hoya to Avo anupama satsaMga. e pada caityavaMdana che. e eTaluM ja jo nitya niyamita tenuM durlabhapaNuM jANI have vacano TAMkI te mATe janma arpaNa bolAya to caityavaMdana karyA tulya che. mATe ene na cUkavuM. nitya karavo. (pR.89) pratye eno sadguru samakSa pATha karavo; to samAdhimaraNa thaze. paramakRpALudevane sadguru ane vacanAmRta che te AkhuM amRtatulya che. te pratye bahumAna sarvasva A janmamAM mAnavA karI vAMcI, vicAravuM. (pR.120) pU.prabhuzrIjIe kRpA karI dezanA ApI ke parama zAnI ? mana viSaya vikAramAM jAya te jhera pIvA barAbara kRpALudeva upara sadguru tarIke hRdayapUrvaka jeTalo bane teTalo "pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI AjJA che ke (1) manane viSayamAM bhAva karavo. e ja AtmAnuM sarvasva A janmamAM mAnavuM. bIjA javA devuM te jherano pyAlo pIvA barAbara samajavuM.(2) sArI aneka devone choDI e ekamAM ja vRttine satata parovavI. vastu manohara suMdara joI A sAruM che ema karI pratibaMdha na emanAmAM ja prItine joDavI to A janmanuM sArthaka aneka bhavamAM karavo. pudgala koIpaNa prakAranAM joIne na rAcavuM. AtmAne ja na thayuM te thaze. te prabhune ane te kRpALu devAdhidevane A AtmAnA kharo mAnavo. bIjuM badhuM nAzavaMta che, mATe tuccha che. (pR.122) satata bhaktipUrvaka namaskAra. (pR.90) mAruM koI nahIM, mAro eka AtmA mamatA e ja baMdhana ane mahAduHkhanuM kAraNa vyavahAramAM sagAM mitra vageremAM vartavuM paDe to vartavuM paraMtu samakita meLavavA mamatA mUkavI joIe...bIjuM badhuM : aMtarathI toDI nAkhavuM. mAruM koI nahIM; mAro eka AtmA che, tene je karavuM paDe te uparathI karavuM. paraMtu aMtarathI to Atmahita choDAvavAno che; ane te AzA ArAghanathI chUTaze." (pR.152) 199

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AtmA che to javAya ? che, adhikAra koIne trAsa apAve che, anyAya huM pada utpanna kare che. e che ane kuTuMba che te mAyA karAve che. e rIte sarva, A manuSyabhava nahIM maLyo che tene eLe gumAvavAnA kAraNo bane che. ethI mAtra saMsAranI ja vRddhi thAya che. tethI naradehane hArI javAya che. teno Aje tathA gaIkAle pa. vicAra karavA paNa bhavya jIvo thobhatA nathI." (pR.220) pU.prabhuzrIjIe A jIvane atyaMta lAgaNIthI bogha jJAnI gurue joyo tevo AtmA chuM karyo ke have dehAdhyAsa A hADakAM cAmaDAM lohI paDyuM temAM rAgabhAva na karuM, TALavo. AtmA A dehamAM na karuM. tene mAruM svarUpa na mAnuM. bhinna bhAva karI lauM. pagathI te mAthA sudhI : pU.prabhuzrIjInI A chellI zikhAmaNa. teno sAkSAtkAra karavA rahelo che temAM vRtti parovavI. pAMca indriya ane chaThThuM mana e sanmuruSane bhajuM. huM koNa chuM. huM A loko jue che te nathI. paNa rUpI cha bArIo che. temAMthI vRtti bahAra jAya che tyAMthI kheMcI jJAnI gurue joyo te chuM. te AtmAne pAmavA sadgurunI bhakti AtmAmAM lAvavI. je jovAya che te AtmA che to jovAya che. bhajana satata karuM.... nahIM to pachI anaMtakALanuM duHkha-saMsAranuM mATe tene vismRta na karavo. (pR.153) : kema sahevAze.'' (pR.319) AtmAmAM vRttine parovavA vAMcana vicAramAM rahevuM prabhuzrIjIno dehotsarga vaLI je brahmacarya vrata lIdhuM che te dRDha pALavA koI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno dehotsarga vaizAkha sudI aSTamI saMvata puruSane aDavuM nahIM. eTalI teozrInI AjJA che te pALavI. 1992 rAtre 8 vAge tA.29-4-36 budhavAra. (pR.322) ane saMbhALIne upayogapUrvaka vartavuM. dUrathI levuM devuM. ghaNAne dehamAM atyaMta nirmamatAthI evuM vrata hoya che, bhUla thAya tyAM upavAsa paDe che, ema sAcavavuM apUrvagatine pAmelA evA pU.prabhuzrIjI jethI vratano upayoga rahe. manathI AtmAmAM vRttine parovavA parama pUjya parama upakArI apUrva bhAvadayA sAgara, vAMcavA vicAravAmAM rahevuM. (pR.153) svapara hitakArI, paramapUjya prabhuzrIjI jemaNe sADA agyAra vinaya prema bhaktinI bahu khAmI varSathI A jIvane apUrva bogha ApI paramArthanuM bhAna karAvyuM. "vinaya, prema-bhaktinI A jIvamAM bahu khAmI che. anAthane sanAtha banAvyo. anaMtakALanA paribhramaNa para karuNA anaMtakALanA paribhramaNa pachI yathArtha mArga prApta thayo che to dAkhavI paramakRpALudevano Azrita karyo, jene Azraye aneka bhUla upayoga rAkhI bhAvanI vRddhi karavI. (pR.166) bhramaNA bhAMgavAno avasara prApta thayo ane AtmasvarUpa pratye sarva duHkhatha choDAvanAra jJAnI pratye premano abhAva abhimukha A pAmara jIva thayo; teozrI gaI kAle rAte A "kharekhara anaMtakALathI AthaDIne jIva Avyo che. anaMta nAzavaMta dehano tyAga karI gayA. temaNe svaparano bheda jANyo duHkhamAM laI janAra evA para padArtho-parabhAva vigeremAM prIti hato. svapna paNa AtmAne bhinna anubhave tevA hatA. aneka mohabhAva kare che. paNa sarva duHkhathI, baMdhanathI, mohathI, azAnathI jIvonuM kalyANa karanAra hatA. teo potAnA hitamAM kema khAmI choDAvI mukta karanAra evA jJAnI upara prema thato nathI. ane rAkhe? chellA 15 divasathI khAsa karIne sarve kamane khapAvI, e prema jAge nahIM tyAM sudhI bogha pariNamato nathI." (pR.167) pUrNa samAdhimAM sAvaghAnI pUrvaka, sarva dravya kSetra kALa bhAvathI apratibaddha thaI, dehamAM atyaMta nirmamatApUrvaka apUrvagatine rAga dveSa moha choDI samabhAva ane pAmyA te pratyakSa joyuM. zI temanI vedanI samakita pAmavAno bodha. sahana karavAnI zakti. jyAM bhedajJAna rAgadveSa ane moha e traNa mUkI samabhAva ane samakita che tyAM baLapUrvaka dareka prakAranuM duHkha te ghAraNa karavA pU.prabhuzrIjIno bogha che." (pR.209) sukharUpa gaNya-mAnyuM, ane AtmAmAM lIna evA amara mahAtmAne mArA naradehane hArI javAnA kAraNo AtmabhAve trikALa namaskAra ho! "pU. prabhazrIjIe kahyuM ke ghana che te abhimAna karAve : namaskAra ho! (pR.323) zrI sAkarabena 200

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bra. zrI maNibena haramAnabhAI paTela agAsa Azrama paramakRpALudevanI pratimAnuM agAsa AzramamAM Agamana , che jaka paramakRpALudevanI pratimA e prabhunu sAkSAt svarUpa parama kRpALudevanI mUrti mumbaIthI khullI bogImAM AvelI tyAre sTezana uparathI vAjate gAjate beMDavAjA sAthe AzramamAM lAvyA hatA. te vakhate prabhuzrIjI paNa sAme levA gayA hatA. - sAdhu ja nahIM bhagavAna cho prabhuzrI agAsa sTezana upara khurazI upara beThA hatA. te vakhate eka mumukSubhAI phulano moTo karaMDIyo laIne Avyo ane prabhuzrInA upara ThAlavI dIdho. prabhuzrI kahe "AvuM na karAya ame to sAdhu chIe.' tyAre te bhAI kahe sAdhu ja nahIM bhagavAna cho. bhagavAna upara badhuMye thAya. dravya ane bhAvathI asaMgadazA prabhuzrIjI nAsikathI AvyA pachI potAnI rUmamAM zarIra upara kapaDuM rAkhatA nahIM. digaMbara avasthAmAM rahetA. koI darzana karavA Ave tyAre kapaDuM zarIra upara oDhADe. 201

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pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI saMvata 1991mAM mumukSuo sAthe Abu padhAryA hatA. tyAre huM paNa sAthe hatI. te vakhate banela prasaMgo smRti mujaba jaNAvuM chuM : AvA bhagavAna to ame kyAMya joyA nathI vasiSThAzramamAM bhakti karyA pachI DolIvALAoe prabhuzrIjIne DolImAM besADI baMgale lAvyA. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe haramAnabhAIne kahyuM ke A DolIvALAne paisA ApI do. tyAre DolIvALA bolyA ke AvA bhagavAna ame kyAMya joyA nathI. emanA zarIrano jarAkeya bhAra amane lAgyo nathI. mATe emanA paisA levAya nahIM. A to sAkSAtu bhagavAna che. paisA ApavAno pharI ghaNo Agraha karyo chatAM temaNe lIghA nahIM. DolIvALA thoDe dUra gayA tyAre prabhuzrIjI bolyA ke A banne jIvonuM kalyANa thaI gayuM. te mokSe javAnA che. ame aMjana zalAkA karIe chIe acalagaDhamAM prabhuzrIjIe mumukSuone kahyuM: kuMthunAtha bhagavAnanA darzana karavA che? mumukSuoe hA kahI. pachI badhA prabhuzrIjI sAthe maMdiramAM gayA. tyAM kuMthunAtha bhagavAnanuM stavana bahu ullAsathI prabhuzrIjIe bolAvyuM ane badhAe jhIlyuM. pachI prabhuzrIjI bolyA - "ame aMjanazalAkA karIe chIe.ghaNA kALa sudhI A pratimAthI jIvone lAbha thaze." prabhu ame kaMI evuM karatA nathI 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI mAunTa Abu paghArelA. te samayamAM zrI hIrAlAlabhAI jhaverInA perIsanA prasaMgathI aneka rAjA tathA rANIo pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA prasaMgamAM AvelA. tyAM eka vAra eka sirohI rAjAnI rANIe AvI pa.pU.prabhuzrIne jaNAvela ke mArA pati mArAthI vimukha thaI gayA che ane bIjI strI sAthe saMbaMdha rAkhe che. mATe Apa kaMI karo jethI mArA bhaNI te sadubhAvavALA thAya. tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : prabhu! ame kaMI evuM karatA nathI.A he prabhuno pATha che te karajo, badhuM sAruM thaI raheze. AvuM koI sAhasa karavuM nahIM chatAM rAtrie maravAno vicAra karI eka jherano pyAlo taiyAra karyo. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA jJAnamAM te jaNAtAM aDadhI rAtre hIrAbhAI jhaverI, nATA sAheba, menAbena ane saguNAbena vagere mumukSuone phAnasa laI tyAM mokalyA. temane potAnA ghara tarapha AvatAM jANI te jherano pyAlo mUkIne thobhI. tenA makAnamAM jaI saguNAbene te rANIne kahyuM ke pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe tamane jaNAvyuM che ke AvuM koI sAhasa karavuM nahIM. savAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI tamAre tyAM padhAraze. e sAMbhaLI rANIne thayuM ke aho! e mahAtmA mAruM badhuM kRtya jANe che. tene pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI upara ghaNo prema Avyo ane savAre te mahAtmA mAre ghera padhAraze ema jANI harSaghelA thaI jarI vagerenI aneka kiMmatI sADIo potAnA makAnamAM pAtharI dIdhI. jethI mahAtmAnA paga nIce na paDe. 202

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pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI AbumAuMTamAM sirohInA rAjAnA makAnamAM birAjamAnA T po , , ,, 24 je us . , je. prabhuzrIjInI karela sAcA mane bhakti savAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI tyAM padhAryA. makAnamAM dAkhala thatAMja temanA caraNakamaLa thALImAM mukAvI prakSAlana karyuM, ane te caraNAmRtanuM Acamana karI gaI. pachI kesara ghoLI vATakAmAM rAkhela, te kesaranA vastra upara pagalAM paDAvyA. pachI pa.pU. prabhuzrIjI birAjamAna thayA tyAre AratI utArI ghaNo Adara satkAra karyo. 5.pU.prabhuzrIjIe paNa boghamAM jaNAvyuM ke he prabhu! bhavobhavanuM duHkha jatuM rahe evuM sat sAdhana ApIe chIe. te vIsa duhA vagerenI bhakti karavI. badhuM ThIka thaI raheze vagere upadeza ApI pAchA pharyA. sAcI bhaktinuM zIghra phaLA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI pratyenI sAcI bhaktinuM zuM phaLa AvyuM ke teno pati rAjA je bIjI strI upara Asakta hato; te strIe rAjAne jAkAro Apyo. tethI te rAjA ghaNA vakhate pharIthI ghera Avyo. jethI rANI AnaMda pAmI 5.pU.prabhuzrIjI pAse AvI kahevA lAgI ke rAjAjI AvI gayA, mAruM du:kha maTI gayuM. tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe tene kahyuM ke gAMDI! rAjA Ave toya zuM ane na Ave toya zuM. kharuM duHkha to A janmamaraNanuM che. te bhavobhavanuM duHkha dUra karavA A "he prabhu" vagere sat sAthana ApyuM che tene ArAghaje; AmAM tAruM kalyANa che. 203

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mahAtmAne sAcAbhAvathI AhAradAnanuM phaLa namAvyuM ke tyAM ja teno deha chUTI gayo. tIrthaMkarapada prApti sabhA madhye pApanI AlocanA Azrama thayA hirAphoI nAnI uMmaranA hatA. tyAre kAviThAmAM pahelA ekavAra prabhuzrI kRpALudevanA paga dhovaDAvelA. kRpALudeve emanA mAmAne kaheluM ke vihAra karatA amadAvAda ene paraNAvazo nahIM. chatAM paraNAvyA. eka chokarI thaI. tene gayA. tyAMnA zeThe ekavAra dAyajAnA bhayathI janmatAM ja mArI nAkhelI. emanA vara gujarI prabhuzrIne gharmazALAmAM gayA. pachI teo agAsa AzramamAM rahevA lAgyA. sabhAmAM UtaravA mATe AmaMtraNa hIrAphoIe prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM ke bApA meM to mArI chokarIne kareluM tethI prabhuzrIjI mArI nAkhI bahu pApa karyA che. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM have tuM vihAra karI gharmazALAmAM pApathI chUTI gaI. gayA. tyAre zeThe kahyuM ke prabhuzrIjInuM nirmaLa jJAna ahiM to sAdhu sAdhvIonuM nAhaTAjI AbumAM ekalA jaI ekAMtamAM besI ciMtana saMmelana che mATe have jagyA nathI. te vAta pAse beThelA becaradAsa karatA. eka divasa prabhuzrIe hIrAlAlabhAIne kahyuM ke dUthamAM bhAI lazkarIe sAMbhaLI tethI temaNe prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM ke Apa sAkara nAkhI vATako bharIne jaladI jA. tyAM jherI sApa nIkaLaze amAre ghera paghAro. e bhAIe to prabhuzrIne pahelIvAra ja te nAhaTAjIne karaDI jaze. tethI hIrAbhAI vahelA vahelA gayA joyelA. to paNa bahu bhAva AvavAthI potAnA gharanI zerIthI ane tenA dara pAse vADako mUkyo. sarpa daramAMthI bahAra Avyo lagAvIne potAnA ghara sudhImAM prabhuzrInA pagalAM dhULamAM na ane dUdha pI gayo. pachI nAhaTAjIne tyAMthI UThADI lIghA. paDe tema sADIo pAtharIne ghare laI gayA. tyArapachI e dehanI mUrchA ochI ka2vA bhalAmaNa bhAIe prabhuzrIjIne AhArapANI ghaNA bhAvathI vahorAvyA. prabhuzrIjIe mane bolAvI paNa kAraNane laIne gaI te viSe prabhuzrIe kaheluM ke becarabhAI to trIje bhave tIrthaMkara I nahotI. tethI sUrajabenane prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke maNine kaheje ke thaI mokSane pAmaze. dehanI mUrchA ochI kare. prabhuzrInA vacanomAM atizayokti nahIM gurubhaktiseM ho tIrthapatipada zAstram vistAra hai." kAraNa zAstromAM evA ghaNA dAkhalAo che. RSabhadeva bhagavAnano jIva pUrvabhavamAM thanAsArthavAhanA bhavamAM AcAryane AhAradAna ApavAthI tathA bhagavAna mahAvIrano jIva te nayasAranA bhavamAM mahAtmAne AhAradAna ApavAthI tIrthaMkara nAmakarmano baMdha karI mokSe padhAryA che. tema A paNa hoI zake che. baLada paNa AtmA che prabhuzrIjInA vakhatamAM koI eka baLada jaMgalamAM caravA gayo hato. prabhuzrIjIe mohanabhAIne kahyuM ke moTA daravAjA AgaLa khurzI nAkha. tethI nAkhI paNa prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke daravAjAnI sAme vacamA khurazI nAkha. pachI prabhuzrIjI te khurzI upara beThA. baLada bahArathI carIne Avyo. teNe prabhuzrIjIne joyA ke tyAM AvI temane traNa pradakSiNA daI emanA caraNamAM mAthuM pAchaLa brahmacArI baheno zrI kAzIbena, bIjA zrI kAzIbena, zrI maNibena, zrI surajabena; vacamAM beThelA zrI pArvatIbena che. 204

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bra. zrI surajabena zaMkarabhAI paTela agAsa Azrama mane to sahajAnaMdasvAmI ahIM ja maLI gayA mAryo. chatAM bacI gaI. A vAta gAmamAM mArA pitAzrI pahelA svAmInArAyaNa saMpradAyanI mAnyatA phelAI, ho-ho thaI gaI. polisanA vALA hatA. teo sahajAnaMda svAmInA darzana karavA vaDatAla javA pagalAM levAyA ane kesa cAlyo. cukAdo ravAnA thayA. paNa bhAInA kahevAthI agAsa Azrama thaIne AvavAno samaya thayo. chellI tArIkha AvI tyAre prabhuzrIjIe bAne bolAvI kahyuM ka apakArAnA paNa vaDatAla javA prerAyA. agAsa AzramamAM pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzana thayA. darzana karatAM temanI koNIne pU.prabhuzrIjInI pIMchI jarAka upakAra karI tene mAphI ApavAnI che. tethI bAe korTamAM kahyuM ke aDI gaI. sparza thatAM ja temane kaMI thayuM. ane aMtaramAM sahajAnaMda ene choDI do, mArA dIkarA jevo che, ucherIne moTo karyo che. svAmI sAkSAt dekhAyA. bahu AnaMda thayo. temane manamAM thayuM ke tene 21 varSanI janmaTIpa sajA ane daMDa thAya ema hatuM chatAM sahajAnaMdasvAmI mane ahIM ja maLI gayA. have mAre kyAMya javuM choDAvI dIdho. jaja paNa cakita thaI gayA ane pUchyuM Ama kema nathI. mArA bAne to pU.prabhuzrIjInI zraddhA hatI ja. kAraNa mArA karo cho? bA e kahyuM mArA gurue mane Ama karavA kahyuM che. bAnA pitAzrI saMdezaravALA jIjIbhAI hatA. temane to parama- 4 jaje pUchyuM te koNa che? tamArA guru kyAM che ?bAe pU.prabhuzrIjInuM kRpALudeva paNa maLelA hatA. nAma tathA agAsa AzramanuM sthAna batAvyuM. jethI prabhAvita thaI jaja paNa darzana karavA AvyA hatA. maMtra gaNatA gaNatA javuM nA paraNe tene raMDApo nathI mArA bAnA bA ekavAra Azrama thaI amArA gAma : mArA bAne ghaNIvAra raDatI joI mane vicAra Avato ke dAvola mArA pitAzrI bimAra hovAthI jovA AvatA hatA. te paraNyA to raMDAvuM paDyuM. na paraNe tene raMDApo nathI. mATe mAre vakhate pU.prabhuzrIjIe "sahajAtmasvarUpa paramaguru maMtra gaNatA gaNatA javAnuM kahyuM ane jaNAvyuM ke tyAM pahoMcazo tyAre te bebhAna paNa paraNavuM nathI. kuMvArA ja rahevuM che, evo manamAM nizcaya karI lIdho. pachI pU.prabhuzrIjIne brahmacarya vrata pAlana karavA mArI haze. te jAgRta thAya tyAre A prasAda tenA moM mAM mUkajo. te icchA che, mATe Apo ema jaNAvyuM. tyAre pU.prabhuzrIjI kahe mUkatAMja mArA pitAzrI jussAmAM AvI beThA thaI gayA ane brahmacarya eTale tuM zuM samajI? meM kahyuM puruSane aDakavuM nahIM. jorathI maMtra thuna zarU karI. te maMtra bolatAM bolatA ja temano deha DhaLI paDyo. temanI uMmara ghaNI ja nAnI hatI. ema huM jANuM chuM. pachI pU.prabhuzrIjIe AzramamAM rahevA rajA ApavAthI brahAcArI tarIke rahI. tattvajJAna bacI gayuM prabhunI pratimA parama avalaMbanarUpa mArA bAne moTuM duHkha AvI paDyuM. pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM AzramamAM cunIbhAInA gharmapatnI kesarabena rahetA hatA. haju tane ghaNuM duHkha AvavAnuM che. eka divasa acAnaka amArA temaNe potAnA dAgInA paramakRpALudevanI pratimA thatI hatI gAmamAM Aga lAgI. bAvIsa makAno lAInasara hatA te badhA temAM ApI daI alaMkArano te divasathI tyAga karyo hato. baLIne bhasma thaI gayA. makAnamAM dAgInA rokaDa vagere badhuM baLI gayuM. 3-4 divase agni ThaMDo paDyo. eka peTImAM copaDA mumukSune jamADavA e paNa bhakti. ane tattvajJAna je prabhuzrIjIe Apela te eka vANiyAe bacAvI AzramamAM bhakti mATe koI navA mumukSuo AvyA hoya lIghA hatA. to pU.prabhuzrIjI bhaktimAM kesarabena sAmuM jue to te samajI jAya mArA gurue mane Ama karavA kahyuM che ane ghera jaI jamavAnuM taiyAra karI le. samAgama pUro thaye cunIbhAI temane ghera laI jAya. tyAM jamavAnuM taiyAra ja hoya. te vakhate AvI Aphato AvyA pachI paNa sagAMo ane pADozInI najara amArI jamIna AzramamAM jamavA mATe rasoDuM nahotuM. jAgIra upara paDI ane temane thayuM ke A traNa prabhubhaktithI zIdhra mukhapATha jaNa noMghArA che. temane mArI nAkhIe to badhuM pU.prabhuzrIjI kesarabenane mokSamALA nA pATha moDhe karavA ApaNane maLI jAya. mArA bhAIne mAravA mATe : ApI ArAma kare, te UThe ke pATha moDhe karI temane saMbhaLAvI zrA surajabena mAro karyo. mArA bAne mAthAmAM sajaDa mAra : detA. evo kSayopazama prabhu kRpAe temane pragaTyo hato. 207

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bra.zrI kamaLAbena paTela, agAsa Azrama AjIvana brahmacarya vrata pU.prabhuzrIjIe mane bAra varSanI uMmare be varSanuM brahmacarya vrata ApyuM hatuM. traNa vakhata be be varSanuM vrata ApyuM. pachI 18me varSe mane kAyamanuM AjIvana brahmacarya vrata ApyuM ane kahyuM A to kuMvArI ja rahevAnI. AtmA ajara amara che. huM ane mArI bA pU.prabhuzrIjI sAthe AbumAM doDha mahIno rahyA hatA. tyAM mane sApa karaDelo. prabhuzrIjIe tyAM bhakti karI. prabhuzrIjI to jJAnI. mane UlaTI thaI ane badhuM jhera nIkaLI gayuM. huM bacI gaI. eTale prabhuzrIjI kahe kamaLIne sApa karaDyo hato. samatAbhAve maTI gayuM. nirjarAnuM kAraNa thayuM. ciMtA zI? tAro AtmA kyAM maravAno che. vItarAgane mAnajo, moTAne mAnajo. mArA dAdAne nAhI dhoIne khAvAno niyama. mahAdevanA maMdire darzana karavA jAya. dAdA Azrama AvyA tyAre mArI bAne kahyuM - tArA bhagavAna dekhADane! pachI prabhuzrIjInA darzana karAvyA. tyAre prabhuzrIjI bolyA "vItarAgane mAnajo, moTAne mAnajo." pachI vAta samajAI ane badhuM mUkI dIdhuM. pachI nAhyA ghoyA vagara khAya, mahAdevanA maMdire na jAya. ekavAra prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM- mAruM samAdhimaraNa karAvajo. lAkha rUpiyA maLe to ya zuM? bhakti kyAM maLe? mArA bAne chAtImAM kensara thayeluM. tethI lohI paDe. ? bolatA ja deha chUTI gayo. bAnuM maraNa joI mane thayuM lAkha jIvaDAM paDyA. tethI kApaDano kakaDo mUkI bhaktimAM jAya. 4 rUpiyA maLe toya zuM? AvI bhakti kyAM maLe? mumukSanA darzana prabhuzrIjInA boghathI bA kahe- A pUrvanA karma AvyAM che. bhogavI thAya, AnaMda thAya. pachI nizcaya karyo ke ekalI paNa mAre to laIzuM. sagAM kahe davAkhAne cAlo. bA kahe - mAre maTADavuM nathI. AzramamAM ja rahevuM che. kemake kalyANa to ahIM ja thAya. davAkhAne AvavuM nathI, mAruM maraNa bagaDI jAya. bAne koI A kALa dIkSA mATe yogya nathI maLavA Ave tyAre hasIne kahe- A karmanA phaLa juo. bA mane prabhuzrIjIe eka divase kahyuM - kone dIkSA levI che? meM kahe - khAvApIvAnuM kazuM pUchIza nahIM. mane bolAvIza nahIM. maMtra kahyuM- prabhu! mAre dIkSA levI che. prabhuzrIjI kahe "tAre dIkSA karavA deje. huM jyAre mAMgu tyAre ApavuM. jIvIne zuM karavuM che? levI che?" meM kahyuM che prabhu! mAre sAdhvI thavuM che. prabhuzrIjI bhakti. deha chUTavAnA divase savAre mane kahyuM have rahevAnI nathI, kahe - A kALa dIkSA mATe yogya nathI. brahmacArI thaIne javAnuM che hoM. jhapATe ekalA maMtra bolyA ane maMtra bolatA : AzramamAM rahevuM. 208

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DaoN. zrI zAradAbena paMDita amadAvAda AtmasiddhinuM mAhAbhya lAgyuM eka divasa pU.prabhuzrIjIe zAradAbenane Atmasiddhi moDhe karavA kahyuM paNa zAradAbenane AtmasiddhinuM mAhAbhya na lAgatA temaNe moDhe na karI ane e vAta dhyAnamAM na lIdhI. prasaMgopAta eka divasa teo prabhuzrIjI pAse gayA. prabhuzrIjI pote Atmasiddhi bolatA hatA. zAradAbenane lAgyuM ke A to prabhuzrIjI pote ja Atmasiddhi bole che ane e ja mane karavA kahe che. tethI temane AtmasiddhinuM mAhAbhya lAgyuM ane te kaMThastha karavAnA bhAva thayA. pachI prabhuzrIne AtmasiddhinA artha samajAvavA vinaMtI karI tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM - karIzuM. eka vakhata prabhuzrIjI sAthe jAtrAmAM Abu gayA tyAre prabhuzrIjI pote AtmasiddhinI prathama gAthA "je svarUpa samajyA vinA pAmyo duHkha anaMta." no artha eka kalAka sudhI bolyA hatA. te artha pU. zrI brahmacArIjInA svahastAkSaramAM pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInA boghanI hastalikhita noTamAM lakhela che. te nIce pramANe che : "je svarUpa samajyA vinA, pAmyo duHkha anaMta; samajAvyuM te pada namuM, zrI saguru bhagavaMta." racyuM; temanA caraNArvidamAM koTizaH namaskAra ho!jemanA guNonI "parama upakArI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe acalagaDhamAM mRti mAtrathI koTikarma bhasmIbhUta thaI jAya che, evA te paramAtmA paramakRpA karIne "Atmasiddhi'nI uparanI 1lI gAthAnA eka : jayavaMta vartA!te zuddhAtmAnuM niraMtara smaraNa ane zaraNa raho e ja prArthanA che ke jenI sahAyathI A dUstara saMsAra sAgara saheje kalAka sudhI apUrva artha samajAvyA hatA. te bhAva gocara mAtra tarI javAya. hatA. vANI gocara te thaI zake tema nathI. AtmasiddhinI prathama gAthAno bhAvArtha pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI aMtaradazA prabhuzrIjI "jeha svarUpa, jeha svarUpa, jeha svarUpa!" ! prabhuzrI - kaMI samajyo? zuM samajyo? potAnuM svarUpa : je saccidAnaMdaghanarUpa che, te na jANavAthI jIva cAra gatinAM bolatA tyAre te svarUpa thaI gayA hoya ema bhAsatuM hatuM!!! zuM te anaMta duHkha anaMtavAra bhogavato Avyo che. potAnI oLakhANa vakhatanA bhAva! zuM te vakhatano citAra! te Aje atyAre khaDo na paDavAthI ATaluM paribhramaNa thayuM. te oLakhANa zAthI thAya? thaI jAya che. ati ullasita tana, mana thaI jAya che. (karI nAkhe te AgaLa kahyuM che "seve sadguru caraNane..lakSa' sarva bhAva che) te smRtithI zarIra pulakita thaI jAya che, ane harSAzrunI dhArA satparuSane arpaNa kare ane tenA ja bhAvanuM (AtmAna) sevana asmalita vahI rahI che, vANI rUMghAya che, mana prasanna thAya che kare, sarva ahaMmamatvAdi bhAvono tyAga kare ane te svarUpamAM ja Thare che. vizrAma pAme che. ghaca te ghaDI ane to tenuM svarUpa prApta thAya che. te zuddha svarUpanI ghanya te veLA! ghanya te divasa!ghanya te sthAna!ghanya te zrotAo nirvikalpa paramAtmapadanI (siddha svarUpanI) ane sarvathI ghanya te mahAtmAzrI laghurAja svAmI ane parama : jeNe oLakhANa karAvI te bhagavAna sadyogIndra sAkSAt vItarAga svarUpa paramAtmA zrImad rAjacaMdra prabhu | gurune namaskAra ho!hArdika bhAva vaMdana ho!" jemaNe parama upakArI zrI AtmasiddhizAstra bhavya jIvonA hitArthe -pra.bo.no.3 (pR.209nI sAme) zrI zAradAbena 209

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zrI revAbena zanAbhAI paTela prabhuzrIjInA bodhathI pharI tAjagI sabhAmaMDapanuM bhoMyaru rAtanA bAra vAgyA sudhI mumukSuo khode pachI suI jAya. thAkI jAya eTale manamAM thAya ke ghare jatA rahIe. paNa prabhuzrIjI Ave ne vAtacIto kare ke pharI pAchA baghA tAjA thaI jAya ane savAramAM kAma karavA lAgI jAya. A to jainadharma nIkaLyo zrI somAbhAI prabhudAsa kAviThAvALA tathA zrI aMbAlAla bhAI saMdezaravALA vagere vaiSNavanA bahu AgrahI ke hAthI nIce kacarAIne marI javuM paNa jainanA derAsaramAM javuM nahIM. teo pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI pAse AvelA. te vakhate to jainonuM kaMI batAvyuM nahIM. jainanuM batAvyuM hota to Avata paNa nahIM. paNa derAsaranI pratiSThA vakhate jainanI pratimA joI tyAre aMbAlAlabhAI bolyA: somAbhAI A to jainadharma nIkaLyo. tyAre somAbhAI kahe have je hoya te. have bApAne choDAya nahIM. A AzcamanuM baMdhAraNa samAdhimaraNa karavA mATe zrI vImubenanA bApujI zanAbhAIne TI.bI.thayo hato. tethI revAbena ane zanAbhAI banne kAviThAthI AzramamAM rahevA AvyA. te vakhate kArabhArIe kahyuM ke tame ghera jAo. kAraNa baghAne TI.bI. thaI jAya. eTale e loko pAchA kAviThA gayA. pachI indora zanAbhAInA bApujI somAbhAIne kAgaLa lakhyo. somAbhAI indorathI kAviThA AvyA, ane badhAne pAchA AzramamAM lAvyA. somAbhAIe kArabhArIne kahyuM ke ame Azrama zuM karavA bAMdhyuM che? ahIM samAdhimaraNa karavA mATe bAMdhyuM che. ame vaDa taLIye jhuMpaDuM bAMdhIne rahIzuM. A vAta pU.prabhuzrIjIne jANa thatAM kArabhArIne bolAvyA ane kahyuM ke emane oraDI Apo. meghajI thobhaNanI gharmazALAmAM chellI rUma ApI hatI. pachI zanAbhAI ane revAbene pU. prabhuzrIjI pAse AjIvana brahmacarya vrata lIdhuM hatuM. AvA zarIre paNa pU.prabhuzrIjIe temane traNa AyaMbila karAvyA hatA. e enuM karI devAmAM gayo, tuM tAruM karaje pU.prabhuzrIjI zanAbhAI pAse roja upadeza ApavA meghajI thobhaNajInI gharmazALAnI chellI oraDImAM AvatA. chellA divase bodha ApatA hatA te vakhate prabhuzrIjI bolyA ke kAle e duHkhano nAza thaI jaze. bIje divase savAranA cAra vAge temano deha chUTI gayo. agnisaMskAra karyA pachI jhaverabena uttarasaMDAvALAne prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke jA olIne (revAbenane) upara bolAvI Ava. pachI revAbena upara gayA, tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : e enuM karI devamAM gayo, nimitta maLaze tyAre zrI revAbena samakita pAmaze. tuM tAruM karaje. 210

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zrI kalyANajIbhAI mULajIbhAI paTela kAviThA (zivabA kalyANajIbhAInA pautra raNachoDabhAIe jaNAvelI vigata) prabhuzrIjI dvArA samaLIno uddhAra eka vakhata prabhuzrI jAjaru javA gayA tyAre mArA dAdA kalyANajIbhAI mULajIbhAI prabhuzrInI sAthe gayA hatA. gAmanI najIka temane besADI prabhuzrIjI sImaraDA tarapha gayA. vacce vIjaLI mAtAno vaDa Ave che tyAM gayA. tyAre samaLI jhADa uparathI nIce paDI. paDatAnI sAthe te bebhAna thaI gaI. prabhuzrIjI Thalle na jatAM tuMbaDInuM pANI tenA mAthA upara reDyuM ne maMtra saMbhaLAvyo ane pAchA AvyA. tyAre kalyANajIbhAIe kahyuM prabhu ghaNI vAra lAgI? prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM tane zI khabara? koInuM bhaluM thavAnuM hoya to rokAvuM paDe. pachI badhI vAta kahI. pazcAttApa vaDe mAphI mAMgavAthI chUTakAro kAviThAnA kalyANajIbhAI kRpALudeva pAse roja jAya. temanA vahu zivabA bole ke e to vavANiyAnA chokarA pAchaLa pAchaLa pharyA kare che ane gharanuM kAmakAja paNa karatA nathI. kalyANajI bhAIe kRpALudevanI pAse brahmacaryavratanI bAdhA lIghelI. naDIyAdamAM zivabA gayA hatA. te vakhate prabhuzrIjInuM comAsuM tyAM hatuM. prabhuzrIjI AgaLa mAthuM mUkI teo bahu raDyA ane kahyuM ke meM to tamArA gurunI (kRpALudevanI) bahu AzAtanA karI ghaNA karma bAMdhyA che. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM- tame have pazcAttApa karI mAphI mAgI tethI chUTI gayA. pachI prabhuzrIjI pAse zivabAe Aje kAviThA jazo nahIM paNa brahmacaryavrata lIdhuM hatuM. teo ekaso pAMca varSa jIvyA hatA. zivabA AzramamAM darzana karavA AvyA tyAre pa.pU. brahmacArIjIne maLyA. te vakhate teozrIe ema kahyuM ke Aje tame kAviThA jazo nahIM. te ja divase pU.prabhuzrIno deha chUTyo hato. : zrI zivabA 211

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zrI maNibena bhAIlAlabhAI paTela suNAva jA tAruM kAma thaI jaze ane sadAya tuM nAnI rahIza agAsa AzramamAM huM dhulIyAthI AvI pU.prabhuzrI pAse maMtra levA gaI tyAre pU.prabhuzrI pATa upara beThA hatA. cAre bAju cAra jaNa UbhelA hatA. pU.brahmacArIjI, pU.motIbhAI bhagata, pU.mohanabhAI, pU.haramAnabhAI. huM pU.prabhuzrI pAse jatI hatI tyAre motI bhagata bolyA ke jo je aDatI nahIM. pachI pU.prabhuzrI bolyA-jA tAruM kAma thaI jaze ane sadAya tuM nAnI rahIza. bothamAM sAta vyasana, badhAM kaMdamULano tyAga, traNa pATha ane traNa mALA karavAnuM jaNAvyuM. pachI pU.prabhuzrIe mALA AvaDaze? ema kahI bolI batAvyuM pachI huM paNa bolI. pU.mohanabhAI kahetA ke chello maMtra tamane ja Apyo che. pachI koIne Apyo nathI. zrI maNibene temanA kuTuMbIo dvArA sAMbhaLelI vigato :- sabhAmaMDapamAM jaI kRpALudevane hAra caDhAvo indoranA sAta mumukSubhAIo cauda gulAbanA hAra banAvI namaskAranA divase Azrama AvyA. prabhuzrIjIno janmadivasa paNa te ja che. savAramAM rAjamaMdiramAM AvI eka jaNe prabhuzrIjInA gaLAmAM hAra nAkhyo ke prabhuzrIjI UbhA thaI gayA. pachI prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM Aje Atmasiddhino janmadivasa che. baghA sabhAmaMDapamAM jaI kRpALudevane hAra caDhAvo. badhA jaI hAra caDhAvI pAchA AvyA. tyAre prabhuzrIjI kahe tamArA karma khapI gayA. aMdhArI rAte ajavALA jevo eka divasa mArA sAsu lAlAbAe prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM - bApA, mAre maganabhAIne paraNAvavo che. prabhuzrIjI bolyA ''hajI bene paraNAvI gharAI nathI ke trIjAne paraNAvavo che? e tAre ghera aMdhArI rAte ajavALuM che. tame pAMce devalokathI AvyA cho. mArA diyara maganabhAIne prabhuzrIjIe 21 varSanI uMmare cothA vratanI bAghA ApI. te vakhate bhAIlAlabhAIe kahyuM mane paNa cothA vratanI bAghA Apo tyAre prabhuzrIjI kahe - chAnomAno besI rahe. tAro trIjA bhave mokSa thaze. A bhave saMsAra chUTaze nahIM. tyArabAda bAra mahinA pachI mArA lagna thayA hatA. prabhuzrIjInAM pagalAnA pratApe bhUtano praveza nahIM indoramAM zrI bhAIlAlabhAI eka mAravADInuM makAna 212 bhADe rAkhIne rahetA hatA. e mAravADI, temanI pahelI patnI gujarI javAthI bIjI patnI kaMcanabenane paraNyA hatA. thoDA vakhatamAM e mAravADI bhAI gujarI gayA. te marIne bhUta thayA. pachI rAtre kaMcanabenane herAna kare, bahu mAre. eka divasa savAramAM uThAyuM nahIM. lAlAbA prabhuzrIjIne temanA gharamAM laI gayA. prabhuzrI traNe rUmamAM pharyAM. ane maMtra paNa Apyo. pachI te bhUta aMdara AvI zakato nahIM. rAtre bahArathI bUma pADIne kahe umarAnI bahAra Ava paNa e bahAra Ave ja nahIM. maLamAM kasturI jevI sugaMdha zrI bhAIlAlabhAI prabhuzrIjInI sevAmAM rahetA. teozrI jAjaru jAya tyAre AMtaraDu bahAra Ave. pAchuM aMdara nAkhatA bhayaMkara vedanA thAya, chatAM samatAthI sahana kare. emanA maLamAM kasturI jevI sugaMdha AvatI ema bhAIlAlabhAI kahetA hatA.

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zrI DAhyAbhAI nAraNabhAI paTela sImaraDA vastune nahIM paNa vastunA jonAra evA AtmA upara lakSa rAkho ekavAra prabhuzrIjIe potAno aMgUTho batAvI kahyuM juo AtmA, vaLI DAbalI batAvI kahyuM juo AtmA, tathA morapIMchI batAvI kahyuM juo A AtmA. jema nALiyeramAM goLo judo rahe tema A dehamAM ame rahIe chIe. amArI vAta anubhava sahitanI che. jagatanA sarva padArthomAM kharI kiMmata caitanyanI che. kharUM mAhAtmya jonAra, jANanAra evA AtmAnuM che. pachI parama kRpALudevanA citrapaTa tarapha AMgaLI karIne kahyuM - A zrutakevaLI. enA pAdamULamAM kSAvika samati thAya. A vaDa zAmAMthI dekhAya? aMbAbAne prabhuzrIjIe pUchyuM ke 'A bArImAMthI zuM dekhAya che?" aMbAmA kahe jhADa dekhAya che. prabhuzrI kahe zAmAM dekhAya che? tyAre aMbAmA kahe mane zI khabara paDe! tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : AtmAmAM dekhAya che. game teTalI bArI moTI hoya paNa AtmA na hoya to na dekhAya. AtmA che to vaDa dekhAya che. 213 saMpa na hoya to sarva duHkhI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI eka dRSTAMta ApatA ke eka rAjA hato. tene sAta dIkarA. rAjya moTuM. rAjA gujarI gayA. dIkarAonA hAthamAM rAjya AvavAthI khaMDiyA rAjAoe khaMDaNI bharavAnuM baMdha karyuM ane vicAryuM ke rAjya jItI laIe. paNa pradhAnoe kahyuM jo sAte bhAIomAM saMpa haze to rAjya jItI zakAze nahIM. mATe tenI parIkSA karavI joIe. tethI badhAne jamavAnuM AmaMtraNa ApI sArI rIte jamADI eka oraDAmAM ArAma karavA jaNAvyuM. tyAM eka ja palaMga rAkhyo. badhA bhAIomAM saMpa na hovAthI te palaMga upara badhA bhAIo sAMkaDamAMkaDa paNa ADA suI gayA. paNa moTobhAIne te palaMga sUvA na Apyo. bArImAMthI A badhuM joIne praghAne kahyuM emane jItI zakAze. kemake emanAmAM saMpa nathI. tethI badhAne keda karI lIdhA ane moTuM rAjya hovA chatAM jItI lIdhuM, mATe prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM -bathA saMpe maLIne rahejo. saMpa tyAM ja jaMpa che.

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prabhuzrIjInA vakhatamAM sImaraDA, kAviThA vagere gAmonA mumukSuone mana thAya ke prabhuzrIjI pAse javuM che to kAma karatA karatA paDatuM mUkI AzramamAM AvI jAya ane prabhuzrIjI AgaLa dharmakArya mATe rUpiyo mUke. kapaDAM melA ghelA paherelA hoya ane jesIMgabhAI vagere zeThIyAo beThA hoya temanI pAse jaI besI jAya. AvA melAghelA pAsethI zeThIyAo thoDA dUra khase. paNa prabhuzrIjIthI te ajANyuM nathI. prabhuzrI upadezamAM kahe zeThIyAo dharmakAryamAM 1000 mAMthI 100, 50 mUke jyAre A bALA bhoLA rUpiyo mUkI potAnuM badhuM mUkI de che. bhAva moTI vAta che prabhu. pachI jesIMgabhAI vagere zeThIyAo paNa AvA mumukSuo pratye bahu bhAva rAkhatA. amadAvAdamAM zrI jesIMgabhAI bImAra hatA tyAre sImaraDA vagerethI mumukSuo emane maLavA jAya tyAre zeThe paTAdArone kaheluM ke sagAMvahAlAone game te samaye AvavA devA nahIM; paNa mumukSuo mATe kaheluM ke jyAre Ave tyAre AvavA devA. tabiyata sArI hoya to sAthe besIne jamADe. sTezane potAnI gADImAM besADI mUkavA jAya ane TIkiTa laI gADImAM besADI Ave. prabhuzrIjInA upadezathI mumukSuo pratye AvuM bahumAna temanA hRdayamAM pragaTyuM hatuM. guru AjJA pramANe vartavAthI ja jIvanuM kalyANa prabhuzrIjI mahAbhAratamAMthI dRSTAMta ApatA--jarAsaMgha rAjagRhImAM prati vAsudeva hato. ane kRSNa dvArikAmAM vAsudeva hatAM. A benI vacce laDAI jAmI. badhAno nAza na thAya te mATe jarAsaMgha ane kRSNa vacce yuddha goThavAyuM. zrIkRSNa vatI bhIma laDavA taiyAra thayo ane jarAsaMgha sAthe bhImanuM gadAyuddha cAlyuM. bhIme kRSNane kahyuM ke mArAthI jarAsaMghano mAra sahana na thAya to zuM karavuM? kRSNe kahyuM mArI sAmuM joje. bhIma ane jarAsaMgha laDavA lAgyA. bhIma jarAsaMghanA be cIrIyA karI be dizAmAM pheMkI de, paNa banne TukaDA pAchA bhegA thaI jAya. kAraNa ke jarAsaMghane mahAdevanuM varadAna hatuM ke tuM ekano aneka thaIza. jarAsaMgha pharI eka thaIne bhImane gadAthI mAra kare. bhImanI badhI mahenata phogaTa jAya. gadAnA mArathI bhIma thAkI gayo tyAre kRSNa sAme joyuM. kRSNe izArAthI samajAvyuM ke jarAsaMghanA be phADIyAM be bAju pheMkIne, vacce mATInuM zivaliMga banAvI de. Ama karavAthI te zivano bhakta hovAthI be phADIyA pharIthI bhegAM thayAM nahIM. ane jarAsaMgha mRtyu pAmyo. kahevAnuM tAtparya ke jIva potAnI mati mUkI gurunI AjJA pramANe varte to ja samyak darzana thAya. 214 zrI jesIMgabhAI zeTha (agAsa AzramanA prathama pramukha) zrI DAhyAbhAI

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zrI AzAbhAI govindabhAI paTela daMtAlI soya tArI TopImAM jo saMvata 1980mAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI ekavAra sAMje cAra vAge daMtAlI AvelA. pATa upara beThA hatA. tyAM mArA kAkA harajIbhAIne pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe potAno aMgUTho batAvI kahyuM ke jo bhAI AmAM phAMsa che? tyAre kAkAe kahyuM nA prabhu, kaMI nathI. pharIthI jo. pharIthI joyuM to phAMsa jaNAI. pachI kahyuM tuM kADhIza? hA prabhu. paNa mArI pAse soya nathI, gherathI soya laI AvuM. prabhuzrI kahe soya nathI ? nA prabhu, laI AvuM. tyAre prabhuzrIjI kahe tArI TopImAM jo. TopImAM joyuM to moTI soya maLI AvI. tenA vaDe phAMsa kADhI. manamAM thayuM ke A satpuruSa to badhuM jANe che. A deha te huM nahIM ane te mAro nahIM prabhuzrI kahetA ke paramakRpALudeva sAcA puruSa che. A mAnyatA mokSa Ape. A pratIti karI lene. samajaNa vagaranA bALAbhoLA melAghelA paNa zraddhAvALA jIvonuM kalyANa thaI jaze. tArI pAse bhAva che te karI le ne. kRpALudevanI mAnyatA dRDha karavAnuM jaNAvatA. tyAM ja vaLagADatAM. A deha te huM nahIM, deha te mAro nahIM. jyAM jyAM coTyo tyAMthI ukheDavAno che. ATaluM ja karavAnuM che. AmAM prabhu ! badhuM AvI gayuM. lAMbI vANIyAzAhI pUchaparachanI jarUra nathI. koI kahe lADuM kema bane? te mATe lAMbu lIsTa taiyAra kare. temAM sAkara joIe. te mATe zeraDI joIe. te kema ropAya? Ama cUMthAcUMtha kare zuM vaLe ? lADuM eTale lADu. eNe kahyuM te mAnya. paramakRpALudeva eTale mokSa. te mATe dehabhAva choDavo. te karavA maMDI paDane. A TUMko rasto che. prabhu! A jIvonuM kalyANa thaI jaze zrI maNibhAI lAlajI paTela maNilAla lAlajI nAnapaNathI bahu vairAgyavALA hatA. rAma jovAnI aMtaranI icchA hatI. tethI gharathI nIkaLI paDelA. pharatA pharatA koI ThekANe pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno bodha cAlato hato tyAM AvI caDhyA. koIe kahyuM A mahAtmA che emane maLo to kadAca tamane rAma batAve. bodha pUro thaye badhA vIkharAI gayA. paNa e UbhA rahyA. chokarA jevI uMmara hatI. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe bolAvyo. vAtacIta thaI to kahe mAre to rAma jovA che. prabhue kahyuM rAma jovA che? to cAla ame batAvIzuM. tuM joIne DarIza to nahIM ne? saM.1984mAM sabhAmaMDapamAM citrapaTonI sthApanAnA divase prabhuzrIjI rAjamaMdirathI nIce UtaratA, mANasonI medanI joI bolI UThyA : prabhu! A jIvonuM kalyANa thaI jaze. bhAdaraNa (zrI ApAbhAI maNIbhAI dvArA sAMbhaLelI temanI vAta) mAre to rAma jovA che 215 prabhunuM adbhuta svarUpa joI zakAyuM nahIM pachI eka oraDImAM tene laI jaI, te baMdha karI prabhu dhyAnamAM beThA. Asana UMcu thayuM ane teja teja phelAvA lAgyuM. eTaluM badhuM teja vadhyuM ke temanAthI joI zakAyuM nahIM. paraMtu zraddhA besI gaI ane namI paDyA. vairAgya khUba hato tethI sAdhu thavuM hatuM. paNa pa.pU.prabhuzrIe kahyuM : tAre hajI bhogAvalI karma bAkI che. chokarA thaze. temane poSavAnA che. mATe ghera jA. ATalo bhava Arthika sthiti paNa AvI ja raheze. chokarAonI AgaLa upara sthiti sudharaze. tuM bhakti vagere karaje. trIje bhave mokSa thaze.

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zrI harakhacaMda karamacaMda dozI junAgaDha (zrI manasukhabhAI harakhacaMde jaNAvelI vigata) sthAnakavAsI chatAM derAvAsI banI gayA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe saM.1972nI sAlamAM junAgaDha comAsuM karyuM hatuM. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA kAkAnA dIkarI bena junAgaDhamAM gAma bahAra Avela prakAzapurImAM rahetA hatA. temaNe prabhuzrIjIne comAsuM karavA mATe vinaMtI karelI. tethI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI prakAzapurImAM Avela zrI rAmajI maMdIramAM pahelA mALe rahyA hatA. te makAnanI bArI rastA upara paDatI hatI. temAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI besatA. amArA pitAzrI harakhacaMda karamacaMda dozInuM dhyAna temanA upara gayuM. sthAnakavAsI jaina sAdhu jANI vaMdana karavA gayA. saMparka vadhyo ane satsaMgathI derAsare paNa javA lAgyA. paramakRpALudeva pratye zraddhA thavAthI maMtra laI traNa pATha karatA thaI gayA hatA. prabhuzrIjIe aMte nAra AvavAnuM mAnya rAkhyuM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI icchA junAgaDhamAM ja deha choDavAnI hatI. paNa nAranA bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAI tathA temanA patnI bALako sAthe junAgaDha AvyA. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne nAra paghAravA ghaNI vinaMtI karI paNa teozrI mAnya karatA nahotA ane bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAI paNa temane manAvavA mATe aDaga hatA. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI jyAre AvavAnI nA kahe ke bhAIzrI, temanA gharmapatnI ane bALako temane namaskAra karavAnuM zarU karI detAM. pacAsa-so namaskAra thAya ke pa.pU.prabhuzrI kahe have baMgha karo. tyAre bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAI kahetA ke Apa AvavAnI "hA" kaho. tyAre 5.pU.prabhuzrI kahe A bAbata vicArIzuM paNa aMte pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne carotaramAM AvavAnuM mAnya rAkhavuM paDyuM hatuM. paramakRpALudeva pratye pUrI zraddhA | (zrI hIrAbhAI jhaverInI DAyarImAMthI) harakhacaMdabhAI lagabhaga 85 varSa jIvyA tyAM sudhI rAta divasa paramakRpALudevanI bhaktimAM lIna rahetA. temanI bIjI koI pravRtti nahotI. Aje paNa temanA gharamAM badhAne paramakRpALudeva pratye pUrI zraddhA che. kukAvAvamAM harakhacaMdabhAIne prabhuzrIjIe kaheluM "strI ke makAna joyuM te vakhate pahelAM AtmA jovo. pachI bheda pADavo ke jonAra jANanAra AtmA che. dekhAya che te pudgala che." to moha na thAya. kAraNa ke svabhAvamAM rahyo tethI baMgha na thAya. jJAnIoe pheMcI batAvI che. vRtti roke te vrata. upayoga e gharma, kriyA e karma. bhUla e mithyAtva. vRttine rokI smaraNamAM rahevuM. derAsare javAnuM kaheluM. jJAnadAna devuM. garIbane devuM. AtmArthe lobha choDavA devuM. zrI maNibhAI phulAbhAI paTela suNAva oho!tuM to munadAsanA gAmano mane prabhuzrIjIno bheTo mArI 12 athavA 14 varSanI umaramAM thayelo. amAre vekezana hatuM. tethI cAra pAMca mitroe vicAra karyo ke ApaNe AzramamAM jaIe. tyAM jamI AvIzuM ane darzana paNa karI laIzuM. gharethI be be AnA ApyAM te laI Azrama AvyA. pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzana karyA. chAtIe, dADhIe vALa hovAthI prabhuzrIno dekhAva amane siMha jevo lAgyo. mArA mitro to joIne DarI gayA. huM pAchaLa cAlato hato. baghA DaryA zAthI? te joI huM Ubho rahyo. mArI ane prabhuzrIjInI najara maLI gaI. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM chokarA ahIM Ava. huM temanI pAse gayo. tyAre mane pUchyuM: chokarA, kayuM gAma? meM kahyuM suNAva. te sAMbhaLI prabhuzrI bolI UThyAM oho! tuM to munadAsanA gAmano. ema kahI teo harSa pAmyA. copaDImAMthI gokhaje, moDhe karaje pachI mane pAse besADI pUchyuM ke tane kavitA bolatA AvaDe? meM kahyuM hA. tyAre tattvajJAna laI "he prabhu!"no pATha kADhI bolavA kahyuM : mane rAga besADatA AvaDyuM nahIM. tethI pote be traNa gAthAo bolyA. pachI huM bolyo ne DhALa besI gaI. tattvajJAnamAM te pAnA AgaLa eka kAgaLano TUkaDo mUkyo ane kahyuM - yAda rAkhaje. A tattvajJAna laI jA ne vIsa doharA sArA akSare lakhaje. rasvaI - dIrghaImAM bhUla karIza nahIM. copaDImAMthI gokhajemoDhe karaje. ane kahyuM tattvajJAna pAchuM ApI jaje. meM vIsa doharA moDhe karyA. tattvajJAna pAchuM ApavA Avyo tyAre vIsa doharA prabhuzrIjI AgaLa bolI gayo. pachI pravRttimAM paDI gayo. tyAre gharma zuM tenuM kaMI bhAna nahIM. zrI munadAsabhAI ane zrI umedabhAI banne bhAIbaMdha hatA. emanA lIdhe mArA bApujIne paramakRpALudevanI mAnyatA thaI hatI. pachIthI pU.brahmacArIjI maLatAM pharIthI jAgRti AvI ane janma saphaLa thayo. 216

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zrI motIbhAI prAgadAsa paTela nAra sukha joItuM hoya to prabhu! pApanA kAraNo mUkavA pU.prabhuzrIjInA vakhatamAM bhAratamAM rAjAonA rAjya hatA. te samaye vaDodarA mahArAjAnI rANI cImanAdevI sAthe mahArAjA sayAjIrAva bolatA nahotA. kAraNa ke oramAna chokarAne teNe penamAM jhera ApyuM hatuM. mahArAjA sayAjIrAva mArI sAthe bole eTalA mATe pU.prabhuzrIjInuM mAhAbhya sAMbhaLI temanI pAse spezIyala relve salUna laI te AzramamAM AvyA. pachI pU.prabhuzrIjIne maLavA gayA tyAre phuTa, paisA vagere prabhuzrIjI AgaLa gharyA ane temanI sAme darzana karIne beThA. pachI pU.prabhuzrIjIe boghamAM jaNAvyuM ke prabhu! badhA jIvo karmane AdhIna sukha duHkha bhogave che. sukha joItuM hoya to pApanA kAraNo mUkI devA. sadAcAra sevavA. AtmA jevo koI deva nathI. te A dehathI judo che ema mAnavuM. tenI zraddhA karavI. ame to prabhu! dorAdhAgA evuM kaMI karatA nathI ame to prabhu dorAdhAgA evuM kaMI karatA nathI. ame AvuM karatAM hoIzuM? ame to AtmAnuM kalyANa karIe. tamArA phuTa, paisA amane khape nahIM. rAjapiMDa kahevAya. ame to prabhu! badhuM choDIne beThA chIe. amAre A baghAne zuM karavuM che? eka AtmAnuM kalyANa karavA jevuM che. rANI cImanAdevI sAthe temanI bhatrIjI caMdraprabhA paNa AvI hatI. tenA upara pU.prabhuzrInI draSTi paDelI ene Azrama bahu gamI gayo hato. 219

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zrI DAhyAbhAI nAthubhAI paTela ghAmaNa dhAmaNamAM papU.prabhuzrIjInuM sAmaiyuM pU.prabhuzrIjI saraI gAmathI zrI kALAkAkAne tyAM pratiSThA nimitte ghAmaNa paghAryA. te prasaMge gAmanA temaja bAharanA AvelA mumukSu bhAIbaheno-bAharagAmanA agAsa Azrama, kAviThA, sImaraDA, nAra, bhAdaraNa, vaDavA, khaMbhAta, Ahora tathA surata vagere maLIne kula doDha hajAra mANasa hAjara hatuM. te prasaMge dhAmaNa gAmanA bhAgoLathI vAjA vAjiMtra bhakti bhajana sahita ati ullAsabhAvathI pU.prabhuzrIjInuM sAmaiyuM karyuM hatuM. "zrImad rAjacaMdra graMtha satyatAthI bharapUra saMvata 1982mAM mArA mosALa saraI je navasArI tAlukAmAM Avela che tyAM mArA gharaDA mAjInI sAra saMbhALa mATe javAnuM thatuM. te vakhate bhAdaraNa gAmanA eka mumukSu zrI cunIbhAIne e gAmamAM talATInI nokarI hatI. te mArA mAjInA gharamAM rahetA hatA. temanI pAse "zrImad rAjacaMdra graMtha mArA jovAmAM Avyo. teno thoDo bhAga vAMcatA A graMtha mane satyatAthI bharapUra lAgyo. te graMtha bAbata pUchatAM zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama agAsamAM eka saMta mahAtmA zrI laghurAjasvAmI pAsethI mane prApta thayo che ema jaNAvyuM. AzramanuM saranAmuM laI saM.1982nA phAgaNa vada pAMcame huM ahIM Avyo. 220

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prabhuzrIjIno samAgama meLavI teozrInI kRpAdRSTithI maMtrotha, tattvajJAna vagere AtmakalyANanA sAdhana prApta thayA. te vakhate mArI uMmara ogaNIsa varSanI hatI. mane prabhuzrIjInA parama satsaMgano bAvIsa divasa sudhI alabhya lAbha maLyo. pachI saraI dhAmaNa gAme vacanAmRtanuM vAMcana karatAM bIjA sahavAsIo paNa agAsa AzramamAM jaI maMtra bodha laI AvyA. surata jillAmAM divo pragaTa thayo saMvat 1989nI sAlamAM kALA kAkAnI vinaMtIthI pU.prabhuzrIjIe pote ghAmaNa padhArI be divasa sthiratA karI adbhuta bhaktino lAbha Apyo hato. zrI kALAkAkAnA baMgalAnA mALa upara zeThazrI jesIMgabhAI ujamasInA zubha haste parama kRpALudevanA citrapaTo padharAvavAmAM AvyA hatA. ghAmaNathI vidAya letA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM hatuM ke "surata jillAmAM divo pragaTa thayo che'. A jAtrAnuM thAma banaze. saMghane agyAra vAgyA sudhImAM vidAya karI devo zrI dhIrajabhAIe paNa bhakti satsaMga mATe rokAvAnI vinaMtI karatA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke pote rahI zakaze nahIM tathA Avela saMghane paNa AvatI kAle agyAra vAgyA sudhImAM bhakti temaja jamaNavAra patAvI viThAya karI devo. te pramANe vidAya karyA pachI be vAge pU.ghIrajabhAInA moTA dikarAnI je piyaramAM hatI, tyAM tenuM maraNa thayuM hatuM, paramakRpALudevanI sthApanAnuM sthAna pavitra rAkhavuM vadhu pU.kALAkAkAne pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe atrethI jatI vakhate kaheluM ke prabhu, A paramakRpALudeva zrImad rAjacaMdranA sthApanAvALA moTA oraDAmAM koI gRhastho suve nahIM te sAcavavuM. e sthAna pavitra rAkhavuM, zrI DAhyAbhAI prabhuzrIjI maLyA pachI krodha prakRti zAMta pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI maLyA pahelA kALAkAkAnI prakRti bahu krodha svabhAvavALI hatI. paNa pU.prabhuzrIjIne maLyA pachI te bahu zAMta thaI gayA hatA. 221 zrI zaMbhuprasAda mAstara agAsa sTezana (zrI guNezamalajI rAjamalajI AkoravALAe Apela vigato) duHkhe tyAre khAsa smaraNa karyA kare agAsa sTezananA mAstara zaMbhu prasAda hatA. temanA dharma patnI ahIM sTezana upara rahetA. bahu varSa ahIM rahyA paNa AzramamAM nahotA AvatA. prabhuzrIjI pharavA jAya to vaDa nIce bese. eka divasa mAstaranAM dharmapatnI maLyA. prabhue kahyuM AzramamAM Avajo. pachI roja AvavA lAgyA ane sArI zraddhA thaI. be varSamAM badalI thaI gaI. UMcI posTa upara badalI thaI paNa temane lAgyuM ke badalI na thaI hota to sAruM. mAstaranI patnIne peTamAM goLAnI bimArI hatI. koI koI vakhata bahu duHkhavA AvatuM. klAko sudhI dukhatuM. paNa ThIka thaI jatuM. prabhuzrIjI maLyA pachI smaraNa ApyuM ane kahyuM ke basa smaraNa karavuM. teo smaraNa karyAM karatA. jyAre duHkhe tyAre to khAsa smaraNa karyAM kare. emanI A vedanIno kALa sAmAyika jevo thavA lAgyo. Azcaryamaya bInA banI pU.brahmacArIjI mAravADa tarapha jatA amadAvAda sTezana upara zaMbhuprasAda maLyA. pU.brahmacArIjIe pUchyuM tamArA gharamAMthI kema che? mAstare kahyuM e to gujarI gayA. emanI badhI vAta kahuM. rojanI mAphaka maraNanA divase darda vadhAre thayuM ane jANe marI gayA che ema jANI badhAe ThAThaDInI taiyArI karI. eTalAmAM to emanI AMkha jarA khulI. meM pUchyuM kema che ? tyAre emaNe kahyuM ahIM Avo tamane vAta kahuM. pachI kahevA lAgyA ke huM to prabhuzrIjI pAse gaI hatI. tyAM kRpALudeva hatA ane prabhuzrIjI hatA. prabhuzrIjIe mane pUchyuM kema rajhaLatI, rakhaDatI paNa AvI gaI? huM to prabhuzrIjI pAse sAdhvI thaI gaI chuM ema kahI thoDIvAramAM maraNa thaI gayuM. ema Azcaryamaya bInA banI gaI. benanA zubha bhAvo hovAthI tema kahI zake. zubhabhAvo e zubhagatinuM kAraNa che. 'sahaja sukha sAdhana' nAmanA graMthamAM pAna 351 upara jaNAve che ke -"maraNanI thoDIvAra pahelAM koIka jIvanA pradeza phelAIne jyAM janma levAno hoya tyAM sudhI pahoMce che, sparza karIne pAchA Ave che. pachI maraNa thAya che. tene maraNAMtika samuddAta kahevAmAM Ave che."

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zrI motIcaMdabhAI buTA. Ahora (zrI 3OMkArabhAI dvArA maLela vigata) saM.1991mAM prabhuzrIjI AbuthI Ahora paghArelA. gharmazALAmAM meDA upara prabhuzrIno utAro hato. nIce maMDapa bAMdhyo hato. loko bhaktimAM bahu AvatA. bhakti UThyA pachI kisamIsa, kAju, badAma, vagere sUkAmevAnI prabhAvanA khobo bharIne mumukSuone ApatA hatA. AtmakalyANamAM lokalAjano bhaya rAkhavo nahIM AhoramAM motIcaMdabhAI buTAne dIkSA levAnA bhAva hatA. tethI dIkSA levA mATe gayelA. paNa emanA kuTuMbIo emane pAchA laI AvyA. gharmamAM AgevAna ghorI zrAvaka kahevAya. upAzrayamAM vAMcana vagere karatA. phUlacaMdabhAInA mitra hatA. tethI phUlacaMdabhAIne kahyuM ke pU.prabhuzrIjI pAse mAre paNa maMtra to levo che, paNa koI na jANe evI rIte levo che. tyAre phUlacaMdabhAIe kahyuM ke cAlo prabhuzrIjI pAse. te jema kaheze tema karIzuM. pachI prabhuzrIjI pAse gayA tyAre phUlacaMdabhAIe prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM ke A motIcaMdabhAIne maMtra levo che. prabhuzrIjInA jJAnamAM kaMI ajANyuM nahotuM. jIvanuM kalyANa lokalAja mUkyA vagara thAya nahIM. tethI enA upara temaNe ghA karyo. ane pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe pU.zrI brahmacArIjIne kahyuM ke nIce sabhAmAM bhakti cAle che tyAM jaI emane maMtra Apo. tyAre phulacaMdabhAIe motIcaMdabhAIne kahyuM ke have zuM karIzuM? motIcaMdabhAI kahe have je thAya te joI laIzuM. evI nirbhayatA AvI gaI ane nIce jaI sabhAnI vacce ja maMtra lIdho. loko baghA Azcarya pAmyA ke zuM motIcaMdabhAI maMtra le che? ke A svapna che? pachI motIcaMdabhAI AyaMbilanI oLI cAlatI hovAthI zrIpALa rAjAno rAsa roja vAMcatA hatA. tethI upAzraye gayA. tyAM loko aMdara aMdara vAto karavA lAgyA ke AvA AgevAna thaIne Ama maMtra vagere le to ApaNA saMpradAyanuM zuM thAya? AvI vAto karatA jANI motIcaMdabhAIe spaSTa kahyuM ke tame kahetA ho to vAMcu, nahIM to mAre vAMcavuM nathI. kAraNa mane to sAcA sapuruSa maLyA che. ema kahI tattvajJAna batAvyuM. pachI loko kaMI bolyA nahIM. avasare avasare ghaNA lokone tattvajJAnamAMthI e samajAvatA ane kahetA ke A ja sAcuM che. 222

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havethI 'sahajAtmasvarUpa' maMtranI ja mALA gaNIza maMtra lIghelo tethI eka mALA "sahajAtmasvarUpanI ane bIjI mALA emanA gurue pahelA Apela maMtranI paNa sAthe gaNatA hatA. eka vakhata pUjyazrI brahmacArIjI Ahora paghArelA te vakhate motIcaMdabhAI bImAra hatA. tethI emane tyAM pUjyazrI padhAryA. motIcaMdabhAIne pUjyazrIe kahyuM : eka ja ghaNI ghAravA. eka pakaDa karI levI ema upadeza Apyo. pachI motIcaMdabhAI bolyA ke pahelA mane gurue maMtra Apelo te paNa gaNato hato. paNa AjathI have eka "sahajAtmasvarUpa'maMtranI ja mALA gaNIza ema kahyuM. pU.zrI brahmacArIjIe emanA vagara kahyuM emanA ghera jaI eka paramakRpALudevano ja lakSa rAkhavA jaNAvyuM. pachI thoDA divasamAM ja emano deha chUTI gayo hato. zrI vAMsajIbhAI jIbhAIbhAI paTela borIA amRtaphaLa ApI amara phaLa lIdhuM borIyAnA vAMsajIbhAI hatA. temaNe prabhuzrInI derI pAse je khetara che te Azramane bheTa ApyuM. ane prabhuzrIne kahyuM ke prabhu A khetaramAM ja AMbo che te huM rAkhIza. prabhuzrIe kahyuM bhale. thoDA divaso pachI vAMsajIbhAIe prabhuzrIne kahyuM ke prabhu huM A AMbo Apu ane Apa mane maMtra Apo. tyAre prabhuzrIjIe mohanalAlajI munine kahyuM : ene amRtaphaLa ApI amaraphaLa levuM che. pachI maMtra laI AMbo Azramane bheTa Apyo. maMtranI ArAghanA vaDe samAdhimaraNa sAthI AtmAne amara banAvI sadgatine pAmyA. zrI nAraNabhAI vallabhabhAI paTela kAviThA nokarI kara, dhaMdho kara, paNa khetI na kara huM nAno hato. prabhuzrIjInA darzana karIne jato hato tyAre mumukSune pUchyuM A kono chokaro? vallabhabhAIno. mane bolAvI pUchyuM tuM zuM kare che? meM kahyuM khetI. prabhuzrI kahe--khetI na kara, bahu pApano dhaMdho che, karavA jevo nathI. meM kahyuM-prabhu amAre to bApadAdAno e ja ghaMgho, bIjuM zuM karIe? prabhu kahe-nokarI kara, ghaMgho kare, paNa khetI na karIza. temanI preraNAthI huM indora gayo. nokarI karI. pachI ghaMgho karyo. temAM pahelA divase rU. 21no vakaro Avela. te darzana karavA Avyo tyAre gharmakArya mATe prabhuzrI pAse mUkela. prabhuzrInI preraNAthI pApano ghaMgho chUTI gayo. zrI nAraNabhAI zrI DAhIbena vAghajIbhAI paTela daMtAlI mArApaNAnI mAnyatAmithyA DAhIbena AzramamAM AvelA. vAgajIbhAIno deha chUTI gayelo. emane ekano eka chokaro hato. paraNAvelo hato. prabhuzrIe DAhIbenane pUchyuM tAre chokaro che? te kahe hA bApA. bolAva joya. bApA A jAya. pachI ene bolAvyo. bApA kahe tAro chokaro noya. DAhIbena kahe mAro chokaro che. bApA kahe tAro chokaro noya. pachI AzramathI jatA chokarAne peTamAM duHkhavA AvyuM ane lagabhaga ATha daza divasamAM teno deha chUTI gayo. 223

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zrI harajIbhAI maMDALA prabhuzrIjInuM yogabaLa (pUjyazrI brahmacArIjInI DAyarImAMthI) "eka vakhata maMDALAmAM pU.harajIbhAI pU.prabhuzrIjIne guru karavA cAdara oDhADavAnA bhAvathI cAdara laIne gayA. pa.pU. prabhuzrIjIe pUchyuM zuM lAvyo che? zuM karavA? temaNe kahyuM svAmInArAyaNamAM ame gurune cAdara oDhADIe chIe, te Aje cAdara Apane oDhADavAno chuM. hA kaho ke nA kaho paNa oDhADIza. pachI te oDhADavA jAya tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI pATa uparathI UbhA thaI jAya ema badhuvAra karyuM. paNa lAga na khAdho. eka vakhata to jaldIthI oDhADavAno vicAra karI pAse gayA, tyAM teozrIe eka AMgaLI sAmI gharI tyAM to te pANI pANI jevA thaI gayA ane dhrujavA lAgyA. ghaNIvAra pachI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe pUchyuM kema che? pachI temane lAgyuM ke kaMI jora cAle tevuM nathI. pachI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe cAdara laI khesanI jema khabhe nAkhI oDhI ane prasAdIrUpe pAchI ApI sAcavI rAkhavA kahyuM." (pR.88) (zrI somAbhAI kesura (ghobI) maMDALAvALAe kahelI vigata) huM mArA mitra maganabhAIne tyAM vAto karato hato ke mAre paNa guru karavA che. ane te mATe vaDatAla javA kaheto. teTalAmAM temanI pAse ja harajIbhAInuM ghara hatuM. temaNe mArI badhI vAta ame kSAyika samakitanA ghaNI chIe sAMbhaLI. pachI mane bolAvIne kahyuM : tuM mArI sAthe cAla. tane khavarAvIza, pIvarAvIza, sArI rIte rAkhIza, tane badhI sagavaDa harajIbhAI maMDALAvALAne pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe ekavAra ApIza. ema kahI mane agAsa AzramamAM laI AvyA. sabhAmaMDapa AgaLa jamIna para lAkaDI ThokIne kahyuM ke "ame sAyika samatinA ghaNI chIe." "kRpALudeva zrutakevaLI che. sahajAnmasvarUpa paramaguru maMtra choDazo nahIM emanA pAdamULamAM prabhuzrIjI ya kSAyika samakita pAmyA." mane pU.brahmacArIjI pAse laI gayA. temaNe mane maMtra o.bhA. 2 (pR.185) Apyo. tyAre meM kahyuM huM to abhaNa chuM. tyAre kahe : "sahajAtma AtmA kyAM che? sanmuruSa te ja AtmA che. DAhyA na svarUpa paramagurumaMtra choDazo nahIM. enuM sadA raTaNa karajo. thavuM. zAnI thavA na karavuM. mumukSa, jijJAsu rahIne bhakti karavI. AzramamAM jagyA rAkhavAnI bhalAmaNa riddhi siddhi AtmonnatimAM bAdhaka zrI harajIbhAIne pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM AzramamAM thelI prabhuzrIjI kahetA ke riddhi siddhine to lAta mArI kADhI bheravAya eTalI jagyA karI leje. pachI supaDA jeTalI jagyA : mUkI." (bo.2 pR.210) maLavAnI nathI. paNa gharmanA kAryamAM kaMI saMkaTa jevuM jaNAya ke koIne paramakRpALudeva sivAya koIne mAnIza nahIM ? gharmamAM sthira karavA mATe teo labdhino upayoga kare. jemake pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI kahe-harajIbhAI! paMcamakALa che. eka kumArapALa rAjAne gharmamAM dRDha karavA zrI hemacaMdrAcArye labdhino hAtha UMco addhara cAlato hoya tene paNa bhagavAna mAnIza upayoga karyo hato, tema prabhuzrIjInA paNa aneka prasaMgo gharmasaMkaTane nahIM. dUra karavA temaja mumukSune gharmamAM sthira karavA mATe jovA maLe che. 224

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eNe to enuM sarvasva ApyuM che | (zrI saguNAbahene kahelI vigata) maMDALAnA eka mumukSubhAI harajIbhAI hatA. temanI sthiti ghaNI ja sAghAraNa hatI. teo AzramamAM AvyA tyAre "kSamA e ja mokSano bhavya daravAjo che' e daravAjAnuM bAMghakAma cAlatuM hatuM. mumukSuo zakti mujaba tenI TIpamAM lakhAvatA hatA. harajIbhAInI paNa temAM lakhAvavAnI bhAvanA ghaNI hatI. paNa temanI kamANI rojanI ATheka AnA jevI hatI. prabhuzrIjI temanA bhAva samajI gayA ane kahe tAre AmAM paisA ApavA che? harajIbhAI kahe hA prabhu. paNa moTAo hajAro lakhAve tema mAruM gaju nathI. prabhu kahe tArI rakama levAnI. temanI rakama lIdhA pachI tenuM nAma paheluM lakhAvyuM. ane kahyuM tame baghA tamAruM rAkhIne rakamo lakhAvI paNa eNe to enuM sarvasva ApyuM che. trIje bhave tAro mokSa che, ema paNa temane prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM hatuM. maMDALAmAM prabhuzrIjI paghAryA tyAre emane tyAM ghaNI bhakti karAvI hatI. zrI dayALajIbhAI lallubhAI paTela surata Ava besa bhakti karIe karelo abhyAsa UMghamAM paNa upayogI pa.pU.prabhuzrIe mane maMtra Apela. AzramamAM ekavAra rAtre ekavAra pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : be vAra jamaje paNa traNa vAge UThI sabhAmaMDapamAM bhaktinI vAra hatI tethI rAjamaMdiramAM : Atmasiddhi karaje. te huM moTethI bolato. tenAM paryAya evA paDI gayo. tyAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI paramakRpALudevanA citrapaTanI sAme jatAM ke rAtre uMghamAM paNa kaDakaDATa bhUla vagara bolI jato. te beThA hatA. aMdhArAmAM dAkhala thayo paNa tarata ja oLakhI lIgho bAjumAM rahela maganabhAI sAMbhaLI kahetA. ane kahyuM besa bhakti karIe. sapuruSonI kRpAdRSTi sAcA hadayanA pastAvAthI chUTakAro pU.zrI brahmacArIjIe mane kahyuM tane pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI temanA rUmamAM rahela moTI pATa para sUtA. ghaNuM ApyuM che. te Ugaze tyAre khabara paDaze. pU.zrI brahmacArIjI pATa pAse nIce besatA. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno huM tenI kRpAthI nIDara banI gayelo. boghathI AnaMda deha deva jevo. paga dAbIe tyAre pocuM pocuM lAge. A badhuM : leto ane kaMIka samAghAnI bharyA vicAra karI zakato. najare tare che, jANe prabhu dUra che ja nahIM. kyAMya gayA nathI. bhAva zrI haribhAI bhagAbhAI paTela dayA sAgara hatA. upara agAsImAM besatA. dUra dUrathI badhAne dekhAya tema darzana ApatA. bALakane mAnuM moDhuM jovA na maLe to saDodarA kevuM akaLAya? divasa pasAra thavo bhAre paDe. darzana thaye zAMti Amane maMtra Apo vaLe tema thatuM. prabhuzrIjI jyAre navasArI paghArelA tyAre huM darzana karavA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI kahetA ke ghana mATe royo, bairAM mATe royo, gayelo. darzana karI ghare Avyo tyAre vikalpa thayo ke mane maMtra chokarA mATe royo paNa zAnI mATe royo? AMsu pADyA? koI Apyo nahIM. eTale bIje divase jamyA vinA cAlIne huM navasArI koI prabhu AgaLa AvI raDatA ke prabhu ghaNA pApo karyA che athavA gayo. tyAM jaI prabhuzrIjInA darzana karyA ke tarata ja prabhuzrIjIe sAcA hRdayathI pastAvo karatA to prabhu kahetA ke tuM chUTI gayo. brahAcArIjIne AjJA karI ke Amane maMtra Apo. 225

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tamArA chokarAne to sAdhu banAvI deze mArI nAnI uMmaramAM prabhuzrI pAse thoDo vakhata rahyo hato. huM bahu tophAnI hato. prabhuzrIe mane eka divasa kahyuM ke bhAI tuM tAre ghera jA. meM AnAkAnI karI tyAre prabhue kahyuM ekavAra jA. pharI AvavuM hoya to Avaje. kemake gAmamAM mArA pitAne lokoe evuM bharamAveluM ke tamArA chokarAne to sAdhu banAvI deze. tethI teo levA AvavAno vicAra karatA hatA. teTalAmAM to huM ja ghare AvI pahoMcyo. pitA mane joIne navAI pAmyA ane pUchyuM tyAre meM kahyuM ke prabhuzrIe mane ghare jatA rahevA kahyuM che. AvI hakIkata jANI pitAne paNa prabhuzrInA darzana karavAnA bhAva thayA ane ame agAsa AvyA. pachI mane pAse rAkhavA prabhuzrIne vinaMtI karI tethI pharI huM tyAM rahyo hato. zrI pUnamabhAI 2NachoDabhAI paTela nAra zrI somAbhAI zAmaLadAsa paTela suNAva badhA jamI rahyA pachI mUzaLadhAra varasAda 226 eka vakhata paryuSaNamAM pAraNAno divasa hato. te vakhate jamavA mATe agAsa AzramamAM aMdara besavAnI sagavaDa nahotI, tethI bahAra khullAmAM jamavA mATe besADatA hatA. te divase sAMje jamavAnA vakhate ekdama gAjavIja sAthe AkAzamAM ghanaghora vAdaLa thaI gayA ane jANe hamaNA varasAda paDaze eTale baghA gabharAyA. e vAta prabhuzrIjIne jaNAvI ke prabhu AvuM thayuM che. prabhuzrIjI te vakhate upara temanA rUma bahAra rAyaNa bAjAnI agAsImAM beThA hatA. temaNe AkAzamAM vAdaLa tarapha thoDIvAra joyuM ane hAtha UMco karyo ane kahyuM : baghAne jamavA besADI do. pachI rAta paDI jaze. badhA jamI rahyA ane hAtha ghoIne UThyA ke tarata ja khUba muzaLadhAra varasAda paDyo. ane janmelA mAsonA patarALA paNa badhA pANImAM taNAI gayA. te vakhate huM hAjara hato. A meM najare joyuM che. zrI somAbhAI satpuruSa kahe tema karavuM, ka2e tema na karavuM ekavAra prabhuzrIne loca karatA joI meM paNa mUcha tathA dADhInA vALane kheMcI kADhyo to moDhuM sujI gayuM, te vakhate mane prabhuzrIe A vAta jANI tyAre kahyuM - satpuruSa kahe tema karavuM, thayuM ke prabhu to ghaNuM kaSTa sahana kare che. ApaNAthI A thAya nahIM. kare tema na karavuM. sULIno ghA soyathI TaLI gayo ekavAra mArA hAthamAM saLiyo pesI gayo. prabhuzrI kahe - amArI davA karavI che ke DaoNkaTaranI. meM kahyuM tamArI. temanA kahyA pramANe khapATIyAM bALI tenI rAkhanI diveTa karI ghAmAM bharI dIdhI. upara cAra vAra divasamAM talanuM tela sIMcavA kahyuM. bIjA kahe pAkI jaze. paNa meM to te ja karyuM to ATheka divasamAM sAruM thaI gayuM. prabhuzrI kahe sULInuM vighana soyathI gayuM.

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zrI hiMmatabhAI dhruva agAsa Azrama samakita vaga2nI dikSAthI janmama2Na chUTe nahIM huM mArA mAtuzrIne vAraMvAra kaheto ke mAre dIkSA levI che. A vAta mArA mAtuzrI pArvatIbene pU.prabhuzrIne karI. teo vAraMvAra bhakti satsaMga mATe AvatA. pU.prabhuzrIjIe mane ekAMtamAM kahyuM prabhu ! tArI bhAvanA sArI che. dIkSA levAno bhAva sAro che. paNa dIkSA laI saMyama pALaze to bIjA bhave svarganuM sukha maLaze. paNa pAchuM puNya bhogavI ahIM AvavuM paDaze. janmamaraNa chUTaze nahIM. AvI dIkSA to jIve anaMtavAra lIdhI che. potAnA kapaDAM pakaDIne batAvyuM ke jo AvA kapaDAM to anaMtavAra jIve ghAraNa karyAM che. paNa samakita vagara ThekANuM paDe tema nathI. A tArA mAtuzrI gharaDAM che temanI sevA hamaNAM kara ane satsaMga bhakti karyAM kara. AgaLa upara joyuM jaze. te sAMbhaLI mArA bhAva pharI gayA. ane mAtuzrInI TheTha sudhI sevA karI. ane aMte zrImad rAjacaMdra AzramamAM trIsa varSa zAMtithI rahyo ane bhakti bhajana karyA. teo saraLa bhadrika prakRtinA vyakti hatA. zrI zivAbhAI vakIla nAra game tyAM 2hevAnuM thAya, A2AdhanA bhulavI nahIM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahela ke ame jUnAgaDhanA jaMgalomAM amArA ghaNA karmo kSaya karI nAkhyA che. eTale amArI vadhAre vacana pravRtti thatI nathI. koIvAra TUMku TUMku bolAya che. mArA jIvana saMbaMdhI ghaNI vAta karela. paNa te vakhate bahu bhAva nahIM; paraMtu te badhuM sAcuM paDatuM gayuM tema zraddhA vadhatI gaI. game tyAM rahevAnuM thAya paNa A karavAnuM che te ArAghanA batAvela. bAkI karma bAMdhyA te Avaze paNa tethI DaravAnuM nathI. mArAthI moTA mA2A guru, te sivAya koI nahIM vaDodarAnA rAjA peTalAda AvavAnA hatA tethI huM javAno hato. prabhuzrIjInA darzana karavA gayo tyAre kahyuM - koInI mahattA ApaNA upara paDavA devI nahIM. mArAthI moTA mArA guru. te sivAya koInI mahattA manamAM paDavA devI nahIM. nahIM to tevA bhAvothI mithyAtva gADha thAya ane karmano baMgha thAya. mATe koI game tevo moTo hoya to paNa tenI mahattA manamAM ANavI nahIM. peTalAda javuM hoya to jA paNa maLaze nahIM. temaja thayuM. huM peTalAda gayo paNa rAjA AvyA nahIM. zrI gulAbacaMdajI jIvAvata Ahora 229 pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI satnI mUrti pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIno mane prathama samAgama agAsa AzramamAM thayelo. nAnapaNamAM sAdhusAdhvIno ghaNo samAgama karelo. tethI pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI to mane satnI mUrti jaNAyA. adbhuta vibhUtirUpe bhAsyamAna thayA. pachI pUnA gayo tyAM bodhano ghaNo lAbha maLyo ane A mArganI zraddhA thaI. aMdara UtarI gayuM. tyArabAda AzramamAM maMtra lIdho. temanA jIvanakALa daramiyAna samAgamano lAbha lIdho hato. pAchaLathI ocho thaI gayo. maMtrathI vizeSa mArI pAse kaMI nathI eka vakhata zrI zAMtivijayajI mahArAja AbuvALA pAse gayo hato. temane kahyuM ke mokSanuM kaMI sAdhana Apo. tyAre temaNe mane pUchyuM hAla zuM karo cho? mArI pAse tattvajJAna hatuM te batAvIne 'sahajAtmasvarUpa paramagurumaMtra viSe meM jaNAvyuM. te jANI temaNe kahyuM AthI vizeSa mArI pAse kaMI nathI. pachI teoe kRpALudevanA vakhANa karyAM. tyAM meM avalokana karyuM ke temanI pAse mAtra kAmanAbuddhithI loko AvatA hatAM. jyAre AzramamAM AvI koI vAta jaNAtI nathI. ahIM koI kaMIpaNa laukika kAmanAthI AvatA nathI. zrI phUlAbhAI lallubhAI paTela kAviThA mokSa jovo che, juo A mokSa eka divasa zAMtisthAnavALI jagyAmAM bodha cAlato hato te vakhate pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : mokSa jovo che? pachI paramakRpALudevanA citrapaTa tarapha AMgaLI karI batAvyuM-juo A mokSa' ema traNavAra kahyuM hatuM. paramakRpALudevano AtmA mokSasvarUpa che. 'tuM cho mokSasvarUpa'. zrI gulAbacaMdajI zrI phulAbhAI

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zrI zanAbhAI mathurabhAI mAstara agAsa Azrama jema jema upAdhivizeSa tema tema samAdhisukhanI hAni prabhuzrI kahe - strInA tarapha najara na rAkhavI. strInA aMgopAMga tarapha najara na karavI. tema karavAthI vRtti bagaDe. vaLI prabhuzrIe ekavAra kaheluM ke eka chokaruM thAya eTale eka kule gumaDuM, bIjuM thAya eTale bIje kule gumaDuM ane trIjuM chokaruM thAya eTale cIrAmAM gumaDuM thayuM mAnavuM. be kule gumaDuM hoya to paNa besavuM takalIphavALuM ane cIrA vacce thAya to bhoga maLyA. to have A na joIe. ema vicArI paraNyAne pAMca varSa thayelA, zrI ratanacaMdajI khubAjI kAMgA ane AjIvana brahAcaryavrata laI lIdhuM. AhAra maghAnA pANI bharI levA bhAvathI karelA darzana vyartha na jAya pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe boghamAM jaNAvyuM ke maghAnA pANI bharI pU.prabhuzrIjI Ahora paghArelA tyAre eka DosA je zrI levAM. tethI ekavAra huM saMdezara gayo hato. tyAM maghA nakSatranA de huM kuMdanamalajInA dUranA sagAM thAya. temane ghera pU.prabhuzrIe pagalAM pANIno TAMko bharelo joyo. temAMthI eka ; karelA. te vakhate DosAe pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzana karelA. tyAra ghaDo bharI lAvyo ane prabhuzrIjIne kahyuM : 6 bAda varSo pachI eka divasa zrI phulacaMdajI te bApA maghAnA pANI bharI lAvyo. tyAre raste thaI temanA ghare saheje gayA. te bimAra prabhuzrIjI kahe "madAnA pANI eTale A hatA. tethI paramakRpALudevanA thoDA vacano bogha. tene hRdayamAM bharI levo, kAma thaI saMbhaLAvyA ane te bhAvomAM temano deha chUTI zrI zanAbhAI jAya.' gayo. zrI ratanacaMdajI zrI cunIlAlajI megharAjajI kAMgA jIvAmIyA Ahora saMdezara prabhu darzana niSphaLa nahIM nAta jAta mUkI bhaktibhAva karaje AhoranA eka DosImAM anya jAtinA hatA. teNe saM.1976nI sAlamAM huM (jIvAmIyA) saMdezarathI Avyo prabhuzrIjInAM darzana karelA. chelle divase cunIlAlabhAI kAMgA ? tyAre mArI uMmara nAnI hatI. prabhuzrIjIe mane pUchyuM - tuM kaI tyAM thaIne jatA hatA. temane vicAra Avyo ke DosImAne joto nAtano? meM kahyuM musalamAna chuM. prabhuzrI kahe tane kayAM sikko jauM. aMdara gayA ane pUchyuM mAjI kema che? mAryo. bhagavAnane tyAMthI sikko mArIne Avyo? tane koI DosImAe kahyuM beso bhAI, tamArA miyAM kaheze, baDAmiyAM kaheze te tuM khamaje. koInI sAmo thaIza AzramanI bhakti saMbhaLAvone! cunIlAla- nahIM. bhaktibhAva karaje. ahIM Avato raheje. kAyAnI to rAkha bhAI bhakti saMbhaLAvavA lAgyA. bhakti thaze. maMtra to tane nahIM ApIe, kaMIka tArAthI AzAtanA thaI sAMbhaLatA sAMbhaLatA ja te DosImAnuM jAya. paNa bhaktibhAva karaje. maraNa thaI gayuM. te mULamAraga, aho aho zrI sadguru vagere jANato. zrI cunIlAlajI potAnI patnI gujarI gaI tyAre chevaTa sudhI "sahajatmasvarUpa paramaguru' maMtra tene saMbhaLAvyo hato. tenI potAnI paNa zraddhA 6 TheTha sudhI TakI rahI hatI. 230

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pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI zrI motIbahena phUlacaMdajI baMdA Ahora (bhAvanAbena pI. jaine jaNAvelI vigata) eka divasa prabhuzrIe pUchyuM ke tane ciMtA thAya che? motIbene kahyuM - hA prabhu. prabhuzrI kahe zenI ciMtA thAya? to kahe mArA chokarA mokSe jaze ke nahIM enI. prabhuzrI kahe - tArA badhA chokarA mokSe jaze. ekavAra motIbene kahyuM--prabhuzrI maLyA pachI bIje citta coMTe nahIM. temaNe aMdara evuM cakaluM ghAlI dIdhuM che ke phaDaphaDa thayA kare. kADhavuM hoya toya nIkaLe nahIM. sabhAmaMDapanA pAchaLanA bhAgamAM lAMbI cAlI che tyAM rUmamAM teo rahetA. zrI motIbena chokarAo bahAra ramatA hoya ane prabhuzrI zAMtisthAna upara AMTA mAratA hoya. te vakhate prabhuzrI chokarAone bolAve eTale baghA doDIne upara jAya. saMskAra nAkhe. 231 ca2Na2jathI gumaDA gAyaba eka vakhata evuM banyuM ke nemicaMdabhAInA mAthAmAM bAra mahinAthI gumaDAM thayelA. davA karAvavA chatAM maTatA nahIM. tethI nAnA hovA chatAM vicAra karI eka divasa prabhuzrIjI cAlatA hatA tyAre temanA paga nIcenI dhULa laI mAthAmAM ghasI nAkhI. jethI mAthAmAMnA baghA gumaDA maTI gayA. prabhuzrIjI bimAra hatA tyAre motIbena chokarAone laI ahIM rahelA. phulacaMdabhAIe Ahora javAnI vAta karI tyAre kahe prabhuzrInI tabiyata sArI thaze to ja AvIza; nahIM to nahIM. zrI nemicaMdajI

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pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA chUTaka prasaMgo jJAnI kahe tuM AtmA, paNa jIva mAnato nathI AzramamAM eka vakhata be bhAIo nIce vaDhatA hatA. temane pU.prabhuzrIjIe upara bolAvyA ane pUchyuM : kema vaDhatA hatA? te kahe mane eNe gadheDo kahyo. tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIe kahyuM "ame tane keTalIyavAra kahIe chIe ke tuM AtmA che, AtmA che toya mAnato nathI ane eNe ekavAra gadheDo kahyo, te mAnI lIdhuM? : phaThA2 KATHOR (1) Aje koI muMbaIthI Ave che ghATakoparamAM eka saMta harajIbhagata tulasIdAsajI hatA. jene hajAro loko pUjatA. prabhuzrIjI viSe sAMbhaLatA temanA darzananI temane utkaTa laganI lAgI. prabhuzrIne teoe koIvAra joyA ke sAMbhaLyA na hatA. te samaye prabhuzrIjI kaThoramAM hatA. prabhuzrIjIno mane kola Avyo che ema kahI bhaktinA bhAvAvezamAM teo TreInamAM besI gayA. ane rAtre traNa vAgye kaThora sTezane sahaja phuraNAthI UtarI. paDyA ane bAMkaDA upara beThA. prabhuzrI kahe Aje koI muMbaIthI Ave che. tethI thoDA mumukSuo sTezane gayA ane tapAsa karatA teo koI muMbaInA mahemAna ema bolavA lAgyA tyAre bhagate kahyuM, hA huM chuM. bhaktavatsala bhagavAne bhaktanI saMbhALa lIdhI. 232

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5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInuM Aho2mAM Agamana (sadguru zrotriya brahmaniSThapada....rAga) "satpuruSonA caraNa sparzathI, bhUmi-2ja te tIrtha bane; te pAvana sthAne jaI bhAvuM, bhakti bhAvo kharA mane.'' paramajJAnAvatAra, paramakRpALu sadgurudeva zrImad rAjacaMdra prabhunA ananya AjJA upAsaka AtmaguNasaMpanna munizrI laghurAjasvAmI (prabhuzrIjI)e zrI Ahora nagare padhArI potAnA pavitra caraNakamalothI A kSetrane tIrtharUpa banAvyuM che. teozrInA kRpAbaLe rAjasthAnamAM AveluM zrI Ahora nagara khacIta 'rAja' sthAna banyuM che. saMvat 1991nA caitra mAsamAM AhoranA mumukSuonI bhAvabharI vinaMtIthI 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe tIrthakSetra zrI AbuthI Ahora padhArI agyAra divasanI atre sthiratA karI hatI. A alaukika puNyaprasaMge aneka bhavyAtmAone vItarAga praNIta sadgharmanI yathArtha samajaNa ApI, sanmArga sanmukha karyA. A prasaMge mumukSuono dharmaprema ane bhAvollAsa kevo hato enI jhAMkhI, pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA bodhanI hastalikhita DAyarImAM upalabdha che, temAMthI keTalAka aMzo atre uddhRta karyAM che :-- Avo ullAsa pahelI vakhata joyo 'saMvat 1991nA caitra suda 8 tA. 11-4-35nA roja AbuthI pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI Ahora AvavA mATe 2vAnA thayA tyAre ghaNA ullAsamAM hatA. badhAne ghaNI utAvaLa karavAnuM jaNAvatA hatA. paraMtu tenuM koI kAraNa samajAyuM nahIM. paNa jyAre Ahora gayAM tyAre khabara paDI ke -- 233 'lagabhaga AkhuM gAma be-hajAra mANasa teozrInI rAha joI UbhuM hatuM. ghaNI bhIDa jAmelI hatI. lokonA ullAsano pAra nahoto. Avo ullAsa pahelI vakhata joyo." Agamana prasaMge rAha jotAM gAmanA loko prabhuzrIjI gAmanA loko sAthe

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A mahApuruSa sAdhu nathI paNa bhagavAna che "pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA darzana thayA pachI gAmamAM evI vAto prasarI ke A mahApuruSa sAdhu nathI paNa bhagavAna che." AvatI kAle tathA parama divase khUba jorathI bhakti karavAnuM prabhuzrIjIe baghAne pharamAvyuM ane kahyuM : "bhAva tyAM bhagavAna che; tame bhakti karazo tyAM bhagavAna hAjara che. ahIM hAjara che. Aje baghAne ghaNo lAbha thayo che. bhAva rAkhavAno che." " "guru ghera AvyA te divALI' jANI AhAranA mumukSuone roja sAgharmIvAtsalya (jamaNavAra) karavAnI svAbhAvika icchA hatI. paNa te samaye gAmamAM AyaMbilanI oLI cAlatI hovAthI prabhuzrIjIe mumukSuone AyaMbila karavAnI AjJA karI. tethI ghaNAkharA mumukSuoe tA.13-4-75thI AyaMbila karavA zarU karyA hatA." "atre rokANa daramyAna pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInuM mumukSuo sAthe bIjA derAsare temaja bAvana jinAlaya goDI pArzvanAthanA derAsare pathAravuM thayuM hatuM." zrI goDI pArzvanAthanA maMdire darzana karavA padhAratAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI Adi mumukSuo 234

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svahaste pratiSThA ''tA. 18-4-35 caitra suda 15 guruvAranA roja savAre Azrama mATe rAkhelI jagyA jovA pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI padhAryA hatA.'' tyAM prabhuzrIjIe zrI phulacaMdabhAIne jaNAvyuM ke tamArA manamAM bIjI moTI jamIna levAno vicAra che te kADhI nAkhavo. A jamIna maMdira mATe ghaNI sArI che. pote tyAM khurazI para birAjyA ane hastakamaLamAM rahela lAkaDIne te jamIna upara rAkhIne prabhuzrIjIe zrImukhe pharamAvyuM ke A jamIna prAmANika che pratiSThA thaI. Ama prabhuzrIjInA svamukhe nIkaLela ugAro sAMbhaLI zrI rAjamaMdiranA nirmANa mATenI mumukSuonI bhAvanA vizeSa vardhamAna thaI. te divase AtmasiddhizAstranI pUjA paNa bhaNAvavAmAM AvI hatI. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI ka-pratiSThA thaI pUjA pUrI thaye bhaktimAM AvelA lokone badAma ane drAkSanI khobA bharI bharIne prabhAvanA bhiktamaMDapamAM padhAratAM pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI bhakti pUrI thaye ghare jatA mumukSuo bhakti pUrI thaye ghare jatA mumukSuo 235 bhakti pachI nivAsasthAna tarapha padhAratA pa...mazrA S bhakti pUrI thaye prabhAvanAnI vaheMcaNI

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Aho2mAM 5.pU.prabhuzrIjInI ghera ghera padharAmaNInA dRzyo 'tA.20-4-35nA roja pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe zrI phUlacaMdabhAInA ghera padhAratAM vacce ghera-ghera pagharAmaNI karI hatI. apUrva banAva joyo. A hakIkata evI apUrva che ke lakhI zakAtI nathI. jeNe A banAva joyo hoya te ja samajI zake tevuM che, bIjAne to atizayokti jevuM lAge. tethI A hakIkata zabdomAM lakhI nathI.'' "te divase pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kulle 22 ghera padharAmaNI karI hatI. AzramamAM agAu kadI nahIM AvelA tevAone ghera paNa prabhuzrIjI padhAryA hatA.'' 236

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pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI ghera ghera padharAmaNI vakhate, teozrInA pagalAM dhULamAM na paDe te mATe rastAmAM pAtha2vAmAM AvatA kApaDa pUjyazrI brahmacArIjInA patromAMthI uddhRta :-- Abu mAunTa tA.25-5-1935 ahIM AvyA tyAre ThaMDI ghaNI hatI. tevAmAM Aho2nA mumukSubhAIo darzanArthe AvelA temanA AgrahathI Ahora mukAme teozrInuM padhAravuM thayuM hatuM. tyAM dazeka divasa rokAvuM banyuM hatuM. chaso jainonA gharavALA e zaheramAM paramakRpALudevanuM koI alaukika yogabaLa pravartelu che. lokone ema thaI gayuM ke amArA gAmamAM sAkSAt bhagavAna pathAryAM che. AkhA gAmanAM bhAI-baheno darzana samAgama arthe AvajAva karatAM. temAMthI so ghara jeTalA to paramakRpALudevanI mAnyatAvALA thayA che. vIsa dohA, kSamApanAno pATha vagere jJAnIpuruSanI AjJA pAmavA yogya bhAgyazALI banyA che. ghaNA mumukSuo pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne potAne ghera laI gayA hatA. ane ghaNAnA bhAva pUrA thaI zakyA nathI. AzramamAMthI paNa keTalAka-pacAseka bhAI-baheno AhoramAM bhaktine prasaMge AvelA hatA. agAsa tA. 14-7-35 pratyakSa satpuruSanA yogamAM jyAM jyAM javAnuM ke rahevAnuM bane te sarva sthaLa tIrtharUpa che. kAraNa mUrtimaMta dharma satpuruSa che. AhoramAM daza divasa 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrInuM padhAravuM thayuM hatuM. tyAMnA mumukSuomAM ghAmaNa gAma karatAM paNa ghaNo utsAha pragaTa jaNAto hato. kAraNa ke te loko kuLe jaina dharmanA hovAthI satpuruSanA sanmAnanI vidhi vageremAM mAhita hatA. 237

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koI kuhADAthI vADhe ke koI caMdana copaDe, beya pratye samabhAva "gAma-jamaNavAra mATe zrI phUlacaMdabhAIe AgevAna paMconI rajA mAMgI chatAM teoe nA pADI. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe zrI phUlacaMdabhAIne pharI vAra aMtarathI AgevAnone kahevA jaNAvyuM. chatAM teo samajyA nahIM; ane rajA ApI nahIM.'' "A vAta zrI phulacaMdabhAIe prabhuzrIjIne jaNAvI. tenA uttaramAM 5.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe potAnA gaLe hAtha mUkIne kahyuM : 'bicArA aMtarAyathI bahu baMdhAI gayA.' ekavAra AgevAnone bolAvI lAvavA jaNAvyuM." 'amAre to prabhu, badhuM sama che' "tA.21-4-35 nA roja AgevAnomAMthI traNa AvyA; be na AvyA. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe anaMta karuNA karI dharmabodha karyo. te sAMbhaLI teonA bhAva palaTAI gayA. traNeya AgevAno ghaNA ja narama paDI gayA ane te badhAe pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIne rokAvAnI vinaMtI karI. tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe jaNAvyuM ke koI samakita pAme tevuM hoya to rokAIe. amAre kaMI chokarA raDatAM nathI. "amAre to prabhu, badhu sama che. koI kuhADAthI vADhe ke caMdana copaDe tenA upara eka ja bhAva che.'' Ama prabhuzrIjIe potAnI adbhuta, asaMgI, aMtaraMga AtmadazA Ahora kSetre pragaTa karI hatI. guru vagara jJAna nahIM, jJAna vagara mokSa nahIM "bapore pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI bhaktimAM padhAryA hatA. ghaNI ja bhIDa hatI. AhoramAM ThAko2nA kArabhArIe savAla pUchelo ke mokSa kema maLe? prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : AtmA arUpI che. tenI oLakhANa karavI joIe. mAhita thavuM joIe. bhaNyA pachI vAMcatA AvaDe che. tema bhedI maLavo joIe. pachI ja samajaNa Ave.' (pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA bodhanI hastalikhita noTamAMthI) 238

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vidAya veLAe AkhA gAmane traNa pAThanI AjJA "te ja divase prabhuzrIjI AhorathI Abu paghAryA hatA." bhAvadayAsAgara 5.pU.prabhuzrIjIe, AhorathI vidAya thatA potAno hAtha UMco karI pIMchI vaDe gAmane udaghoSaNA sAthe nirdeza karyo ke - "AkhA gAmane traNa pAThanI AzA che." eTale gAmanI je vyaktine AtmakalyANa arthe traNa pATha (vIsa doharA, yamaniyama, kSamApanAno pATha) karavAnI bhAvanA hoya tene amArI AzA che. "ANAe tho ANAe tavo- AcArAMga sUtra, "AjJA e ja gharma ane AjJA e ja tapa che' jJAnIpuruSanI AjJA vagara anaMta bhavomAM anaMtavAra gharma mATe jIve sAghana karyA paNa te niSphaLa gayA. te sAghana have saphaLa thavA prabhuzrIjIe anaMta karuNA karI anAyAse AkhA gAmane traNa pAThanI AjJA ApI; te paNa A gAmanA lokonuM ahobhAgya sUcave che. A ja nAjuka 239

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munizrI mohanalAlajI mahArAja agAsa Azrama mahAvI2nuM hRdaya jANyuM hoya tevo artha muni mohanalAlajI pU.prabhuzrIjIne jaNAve che kedevakaraNajInA bodhathI huM saMsAra choDI sAdhu thayo. ApanA upara paNa pUjyabhAva kharo. paNa pachI kRpALudeva sAthe Apano saMbaMgha thayA pachI Apa ane ApanA ziSya devakaraNajI banne uparathI bhAva UThI gayo ane ApanA vagoNAM karato. pachI eka bhAvanagaranA sAdhu pAse AcArAMga sUtra bhaNavA rahyo. temaNe kahyuM ke ApaNane samajavuM ATaluM muzkela paDe che paNa zrImad rAjacaMdra karIne eka puruSa che te to jANe mahAvIranuM hRdaya jANyuM hoya tema teno artha kare che. eTale meM kahyuM ke ema? to kahe ke 'ema!' eTale pazcAttApa karavA lAgyo ke devakaraNajI ane moTA mahArAjane avagaNyA te khoTuM thayuM. eTale te sAdhue kahyuM ke emanI jo AzAtanA karI to mAryA gayA jANajo. tethI ekadama Apane maLavAnI icchA jAgI. eka parama snehI sAdhu hato. tene meM AgaLa mokalyo ke ApanI caryA jue ane tene je lAge te kahe. cothA ArAnA banne puruSa che muAnazrA mAhanalAlajI pachI huM ekAda mAsa bAda khaMbhAta tarapha gayo. tyAM to rastAmAM pelo sAdhu eka mAsa Apano samAgama karI mane maLyo. tene pUchyuM paNa kaMI kahe nahIM, pachI vadhAre pUchyuM eTale kahyuM ke cothA ArAnA banne puruSa che. eTale vaLI jijJAsA vadhI. bIjA badhA kheDA gAmamAM gayA. huM to Apane maLavA eka baMgalAmAM roja Apa jAo cho ema mane khabara maLI ke tyAM gayo. nadIkinAre vizvAsIno cAra mALano baMgalo hato tenA upalA mALe Apa kaMI bolatA hatA. meM dAdarAmAM rahI Apa zuM karo cho te joyuM. ghaDIka praNAma karatA, koI vakhata gAthA bolatA, koI vakhata UbhA ja rahetA. e badhI carcA uparathI ApanI koI alaukika dazA lAgatI hatI! pachI gAmamAM javAno vakhata thavA Avyo hato. eTale praNAma karI beTho ane pachI gAmamAM gayo. tyAM koInI sAthe Apa bolatA nahIM, mAtra sAdhu sAthe je kaMI pUche to bolo; nahIM to zAMta ja rahetA. je emanuM thAya te mAruM thajo pachI khaMbhAta padhAryA tyAre sAthe comAsuM gALavAno lAbha maLyo. aMbAlAlAbhAInI vairAgyadazA ane ApanI sAthe AkhI rAta temane vAto cAlatI te badhuM joIne mane camatkAra lAgI gayo ane te ja comAsAmAM zrImad rAjacaMdra-kRpALudeva padhAryA ane eka aThavADiyuM munione bodha Apyo. Ape pahelAM mumatI nAkhI dIdhI ane pachI thayuM, "zuM kaheze? pUchyA vagara karyuM te ThIka kahevAya?''e vicArathI eka kalAka sudhI Apane AMsunI dhAra cAlI ane kRpALudevanI AMkhamAMthI paNa AMsu jharavA lAgyA ! badhA stabdha thaI gayA. pachI parama kRpALudeve devakaraNajIne kahyuM ke mahArAjane mumatI Apo ane jaNAvo ke hajI paheravAnI jarUra che. pachI devakaraNajIe mane eka bAju bolAvI kahyuM : "jemaNe doDha mAsano dIkaro ane byAzI varasanI DosI choDI, sAdhupaNuM lIdhuM te je puruSane grahaNa kare te amathA karatA haze? je emanuM thAya te mAruM thajo, ema AjathI gaNI le ane temAM tAruM kalyANa thaze." eTale te divasathI kRpALudeva para AsthA thaI. (u.pR.268) 241

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ahaMkAra nIkaLI gayo tyAM tame muni zrI mohanabhAI eka vakhata khaMbhAta aMbAlAlabhAInI khaDakI - ne meDe kRpALudevane meM kahyuM "meM be strIo, be chokarAM, sAhyabI vagere taryuM to huM tyAgI nahIM? have, mAre zuM tyAgavAnuM rahyuM che?" pachI kRpALudeve to mane levA mAMDyo, "muni, be chokarAM choDI keTalA baghA zrAvako ane saMghADAmAM jIva parovyo che! potAnI strI choDI bIjI keTalI badhI bAIo para najara nAkho cho? emAM tame zuM tyAguM? eka gayuM ne bIju AvyuM!" tyAM to mane thayuM : "hAya! hAya! AvuM? khare!huM muni nahIM. mArI pAchaLa to bahu lapa vaLagI che." tyAre kRpALudeve kahyuM, "have tame muni. manamAMthI meM choDyuM che, meM tyAkhyuM che evo ahaMkAra nIkaLI gayo tyAM tame muni." - upadezAmRta (pRSTha-261) (pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA putra zrI mohanabhAI tathA putrI zrI maNIbena) 242

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paramapUjya pUbhuzrIjInA chUTaka bodhavacano nikaTa mokSanA kAraNo huM baghAne samaja paDe tevuM vaMcAze, vArtA Avaze. paNa lakSa rAkhavo satparuSo pratye ane temanA anuyAyI pratye, tamane ke huM to AtmA, sAMbhaLuM chuM. lakSa tyAM rAkhavAno che. amane bhaktibhAvavALuM vartana hoya to nikaTa mokSa che. ane -pra.bo.no.naM.2 (pR.150) tethI viparIta vartana hoya to baMghana che. A anaMtAnubaMdhInuM bhUMDAmAM bhaMDo deha kAraNa che. - pra.boghanI noTa naM.2 (pR.334) prabhuzrI kahe - rAjAe pUchyuM bhUMDAmAM bhUMDuM zuM? prasthAna zabda zabda AtmA dekhAvo joIe : kahe: viSTA. tyAre annadeva bolI UThyAM - khoTI vAta che. huM to DaoN. phojadAra eka dahADA mATe AvyA hatA. temane suMdara dUthapAka hato; paNa zarIrane laIne bagaDI gayo chuM; mATe 111 9 prabhuzrIjIe kaheluM Atmasiddhi vAMcatA zabda zabda AtmA dekhAvo : deha te ja bhUMDAmAM bhUMDo che. - prabhuzrIno bogha no.naM.3 (pR.354) joIe tevuM karavuM. pra.bo.no.naM.2 (pR.164) sapuruSa kema oLakhAya? kuzAstranuM vAMcana jherarUpa prabhuzrIjIe phUlAbhAIne pUchyuM - satparuSanI parIkSA sarpanA moMmAMthI lALa paDe to te jhera che tema kuzAstranuM kevI rIte thAya? vAMcana-zravaNa jherarUpa che. -.bo.no.naM.2 (pR.309) tyAre phUlAbhAIe kahyuM - bApA! lohacuMbakanI peThe AkarSaNa thAya che. saMdezara javuM hoya ane ahIM AvI javAya. pagathiyA gaNyA to 72 ja hatA eka vakhata baLada khovAI gayelo. te khoLavA jatAM naDiyAda kAviThAvALA ApanI pAse avAyuM. khetaramAM javuM hoya ane ahIM AvatuM zrI dalapatabhAI rahevAya che. e uparathI ame to jANIe ke A sAcuM che. vaLI AzramamAM daravAjA kazIbhAIe kahyuM ke saMsAra bhAva moLo paDe te uparathI jaNAya ke uparanI derI upara A sAcuM che. - pra.bo.no.naM.4 (pR.60) thI UtaratA, Aje emanI pAse jazo to bhUta bharAvI deze prabhuzrIjIne vAta karI ke - sastA sAhityanuM pustaka vaMcAtA temAM lakhyuM hatuM ke 1. mumukSu: siddhapuranA godaDa pArekha jaNAvatA ke Apane mokSane mATe 72 pagathiyAM che.tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM A derInA maLyA pachI Ape hRdayamAM cakaluM ghAlI dIdhuM che, te phaDaphaDa thayA ja (daravAjA uparanI) keTalA pagathiyAM che? gayA to 72 ja kare che. pahelAM to khAtA ane nirAMte UMghatA paNa have to kaMI hatA. - pra.bo.no.naM.3 (pR.6) cena paDatuM nathI. prabhuzrI : ema ja che. amane kRpALudeva maLyA pachI zraddhArUpa samakita to joIze badhA munio amArA saMbaMthI vAta karatA ke emanI pAse jazo eka AMdhaLo hato tene khela jovAnuM mana thayuM. badhAne to bhUta bharAvI deze; emanA zabdoya kAne na AvavA devA, nahIM kahe mane laI jAo. badhA kahe tuM zuM joze? AMdhaLAe kahyuM tame to coTa lAgI ja jANavI. godo mArajo huM paNa hasIsa. khela thayo. baghA hasyA paNa godo 2. mumukSu : hajI amadAvAdamAM ema ja kahevAya che ke Avelo nahIM tethI te hasyo nahIM. pachI eka jaNAe godo mAryo Apane maLe che temane bhUta vaLagyuM ja jANo. tyAre te ekalo hasavA lAgyo. mATe AMkha joIze. (zraddhArUpI prabhuzrI : ema ja che. zuM thAya che te ApaNane zI khabara AMkha joIze) samakitanI vAta AvI. te kevaLajJAnane kahe che ke paDe? paNa keTalAMya karmanI nirjarA thAya che, karmanI koDa khape che, mArA vinA tuM kyAM maLe ema che. te to jJAnI jANe che. prabhuzrIjI kahe : juo samakitanuM mAhAbhya. te to 3. mumukSu meM kyAMka vAMcyuM che ke zAstra vAMceluM samajaNa atyAre che. mATe te samakita karI levuM. - pra.bo.no.naM.3 (pR.141) na paDe to paNa jo zabdo kAnamAM paDe toya AvatA bhavamAM paNa lakSa AtmAno rAkhavo tenA saMskAra jAgI, te samajAya che ane mokSanuM kAraNa thAya che. bapore prabhuzrIe kahyuM - paryuSaNamAM je vaMcAya temAM : prabhuzrI kahe : e vAta sAcI che. (u.pR.323) 244

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gopas. pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI pratye pU.zrI brahmacArIjInA udgAra (boghAmRta bhAga-1,2,3mAMthI) prabhuzrI bahu zAMta, bikula zamAI gayelA Ubho hato. teoe mane kahyuM - "paramaguru ghaNI vakhata huM(pU.zrI brahmacArIjI) ANaMdathI prabhuzrIjIne ke nigraMtha sarvazadeva" ema bolatAM bolatAM sevA prazno pUchavA mATe Avato. paNa pachI sevAmAM raheto ke badhuM bhUlI kara. te vakhate mane barAbara yAda na rahyuM, paNa manamAM ema hatuM ke javAtuM. vikalpo zAMta thatA. tyAM besatAM kazuM joItuM nathI ema jJAnIe kahyuM te sAcuM che. pachIthI prabhuzrIjIe chatrIsa mALAmAM thatuM. badhuM jagata bhUlI javAtuM. mahApuruSanA yoge jIvane vagara aThThAvIsamALA "paramaguru nigraMtha sarvazadeva"nI pheravavA kahyuM. upadeze botha prApta thAya che; kaMI kahe nahIM, kare nahIM toya.....bahu - bo.1 (pR.121) zAMta hatA. bilakula zamAI gayelA, TharI gayelA. - bo.1 (pR.222) je kAnamAM paDe te vakhata Avye UgI nIkaLaze hindustAnamAM pharyo paNa AvA yogI joyA nahIM gommasAra"nuM vAcana thatuM tyAre gharaDI DozIo na calAya topaNa bhAva karIne sAMbhaLavA AvatI. tyAre munizrI mohanalAlajIe prabhuzrIjI pAse ANaMdathI huM (pU.brahmacArIjI) Avato hato. te vakhate eka yogI maLyA. te paNa mArI sAthe ahIM prabhuzrIjI prabhuzrIjIne pUchyuM ke Avo agharo karmagraMtha zuM A DozIo samajatI haze? tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke bhAva tyAM bhagavAna che. pAse AvyA. prabhuzrIjIne joIne eNe kahyuM ke AkhA hindustAnamAM je kAnamAM paDe te vakhata Avye UgI nIkaLaze. "tene Avyo prema huM pharyo paNa AvA yogI to koI ThekANe joyA nathI. bilakula to mAre zo nema" ema kahI bhagavAne govALane darzana dIdhA te TharI gayelA che. evA mahApuruSono jene samAgama thayo che teNe samajavA jevI vAta che. bhAvathI badhuM thAya che. - bo.1 (pR.6) to zuravIra thavAnuM che. kapALudeva kahetA ke cothA ArAnA muni che.- bo.2 (pR.281) kalyANa thavA mATe sAcA thavAnI bhAvanA joIze. ApanI chabI mArA hRdayamAM prabhuzrI kahe : badhA maMtra laI jAya che te puNyanuM kAraNa kRpALudeve prabhuzrIjIne Atmasiddhi ApyA pachI pUchyuM che. paNa kalyANa thavA mATe sAcA thavAnI bhAvanA joIze. te satuM ke kema rahe che? prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM ke - AtmasiddhinI gAthAmAM ane zIla che. sat eTale AtmAnI bhAvanA ane zIla eTale mAruM citta rahe che ane ApanA citrapaTanI chabI mArA hRdayamAM tyAga. e beya joIze. chapAI gaI che te dekhAya che.- bo.1 (pR.333) paramakRpALudevane bhajatAM sarva jJAnI puruSo bhajAya A bicArA jIvoe zo doSa karyo che? eka sapuruSa ke jJAnIne bhajatAM sarva anaMta jJAnIo eka vakhata zrI raNachoDabhAIe prabhathIjAne paDyuM ke bhajAya chejI. ane ekanI AzAtanA thatAM anaMta jJAnI puruSanI A ahIM beThA che, te badhAnuM kalyANa thaze ke nahIM? prabhuzrIjIe AzAtanA thAya chejI. mATe koI prakAranI zaMkA rAkhyA vinA kahyuM - gozALA jevAnuM thaze to A bicArA jIvoe zo doSa : jJAnIpuruSe jokhama kheDI je puruSa ApaNane batAvyo tenI bhaktimAM karyo che? pachI prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM hatuM ke paNa ema kahevAmAM citta raheze to sarva paramAtmAnI bhakti thaI ema gaNavA yogya lAbha nathI. - bo.1 (pR.331) chejI. draSTi rAga tajI eka paramakRpALudeva pratye ananya bhakti jJAnInI dazA divase divase caDhIyAtI hoya. : bhAva jagADavo. (bra. zrI mohanabhAInI noTamAMthI) mane be divasathI vikalpa AvyA karatA ke rAyaNano jIva bhavya pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI kaye guNasthAne haze? teno khulAso prabhuzrIjI kahetA ke A rAyaNa taLe bhakti karIe chIe prabhuzrIjI rAjamaMdiramAM pharatAM hatA tyAre pAchA pharI te rAyaNanA jIvane paNa lAbha thAya che. - bo.1 (pR.243) mane kahyuM : "divase divase dazA caDhIyAtI hoya" ema vaLI kahetA ke A rAyaNano jIva bhavya che. enuM kalyANa kahI pAchA pharavA lAgyA. pachI tevo vikalpa mane kadI thavAnuM che. satparuSa enI nIce bese to enI chAyA Avyo nathI. satparuSa upara paDe, tethI tene puNya baMghAya. ema karatAM paramaguru nigraMtha sarvajJa deva" karatAM jIva manuSyabhava pAme. ema jANe ajANe paNa mane sevAmAM rahyuM thoDAka ja divasa thayA hatA. huM pAse jIvane lAbha thAya che, saMskAra paDe che. - bo.1 (pR.279) 246

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tIrthakSetra'zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama' agAsanA nirmANa saMbaMdhInI vigato (mumukSuo dvArA sAMbhaLela) saMvat 1954mAM agAsa sTezana para zrImad rAjacaMdranuM Agamana A puNyabhUmi che, tIrthadhAma thaze saMvat 1954 nA zrAvaNa mAsanI zarUAtamAM parama kRpALudeva kAviThA javA mATe agAsa sTezane UtaryA hatA. khaMbhAtavALA zrI aMbAlAlabhAI sAthe hatA. tyAre kAviThAthI levA mATe vAhana AvatAM sudhI teozrI agAsa sTezananA veITIMgarUmamAM rokAyA hatA. te samaya daramyAna hAla jyAM Azrama banela che tyAM teozrI padhArelA ane jaNAvela ke A puNyabhUmi che. tIrthadhAma thaze, ema kahevAya che. 52makRpALudeve jaNAvyuM ke 'muni Avaze' saMdezaranA jIjIkAkA hatA. teo mULa pATIdAra hatA. temanA mitra suNAvanA munadAsa hatA. paraMtu sthAnakavAsI sAdhuonA satsaMgathI jainadharmano temane sAdhAraNa paricaya thayelo. jIjIkAkAne paramakRpALudevano paNa eka zrI jIjIkAkA divasano samAgama ANaMda mukAme thayo hato. jIjIkAkAe paramakRpALudevane saMdezara paghAravA vinaMtI karI hatI. tyAre parama kRpALudeve jaNAvyuM hatuM ke "muni Avaze.'' kALAMtare paramakRpALudeva temaja banyuM. pU. prabhuzrIjI saMdezara padhAryA. temanA sAnidhyamAM adbhuta bhakti thaI ane agAsa AzramanuM maMDANa thayuM. pa.pU.prabhuzrIjI 249 ba AGAS bA2 vIghAnuM kheta2 bheTamAM ane agAsa AzramanuM maMDANa saM.1974mAM prabhuzrIjI junAgaDha birAjatA hatA. tyAre nAra, kAviThA vagerenA mumukSuo taraphathI carotaramAM padhAravAnI Agrahabhara vinaMtIthI teo nAra padhAravAnA vicArathI agAsa sTezana sudhI AvyA. agAsa sTezana upara sAmA Avela kAviThAnA mumukSuo ghaNo Agraha karI temane kAviThA laI gayA. tyAM pAMca sAta divasa rokAIne teozrI nAra padhAryA. tyAM 1974nuM comAsuM pUrNa karI tArApura AvyA. saM.1975nuM comAsu sImaraDA karyuM. tyArabAda saM.1976 kArtika suda pUrNimAe prabhuzrIjI saMdezara padhAryA. tyAre tyAMnA mumukSuoe jIjIkAkAnA mahuDI nAmanA khetaramAM ATha divasano bhakti kAryakrama rAkhyo. saMdezaranA bhaktinA prasaMge badhA mumukSuo bhegA thayA. te vakhate prabhuzrIjInI vRddhAvasthAnA kAraNe tathA vAnA dardane laIne vihAra thaI zake ema nathI, mATe kaMI Azrama jevuM sthAna bane to mumukSuo paNa bhakti satsaMgano lAbha laI zake evI vicAraNA karavAmAM AvI. te utsavanI bhaktimAM saMdezaranA bhAIzrI jIjIbhAIne bahu ullAsa AvavAthI 12 vIghAnuM khetara Azrama baMdhAvavA mATe bheTamAM ApyuM. te joI bIjA mumukSuoe paNa phALo ugharAvavA TIpa karI. temAM 17402/-rUA.nI rakama mAtra aDaghA kalAkamAM thaI gaI, ane agAsa AzramanuM maMDANa thaI gayuM.

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saMghanA saMkaTanuM prabhuzrIjIe karela nivA2Na saMdeza2nA bhakti prasaMge AjubAjunA tathA dUranA ghaNA gAmothI mumukSuo AvatA hatA. chelle divase svAmIvAtsalya hatuM. temAM cAra hajAra mANasanI rasoI banAvavAmAM AvI hatI. paNa AjubAjunA loko chelle divase vadhI javAthI sAta ATha hajAra thaI gayA. bhakti pUrI thaye prabhuzrIjI emanA utAre padhAryA. mumukSuo vicAramAM paDI gayA ke have ApaNe ATalA badhAne kevI rIte jamADIzuM? eke ema kahyuM ke badhAne lADavAno prasAda ApI daIe, ane je ApaNA che temane jamADIe. tyAre kAviThAnA kalyANajIbhAIe kahyuM ke ApaNe AvA vikalpo karIe tenA karatAM prabhuzrIjIne ja pUchI joIe, ane te kahe tema karIe. becAra mumukSu kalyANajIbhAI sAthe prabhuzrIjIne pUchavA gayA ane kIdhuM ke prabhu! mANasa bahu vadhI gayuM che ane rasoI pUrI paDe tema nathI. mATe badhAne lADavAno prasAda ApI daIe ke kema ? tyAre prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM prabhu ema! evuM kahI cAlatA cAlatA jyAM lADavAnI katharoTo paDI hatI tyAM AvyA. katharoTo joI temAM lAkaDI nAkhIne kahyuM - upara kapaDuM oDhADo. bAjuthI lADavA Apajo, thaI raheze. badhAne jamavA besADo. badhA jamI rahyA pachI paNa rasoI vadhI hatI. Azrama mATe vadhArAnI jamIna kharIdI Azrama mATe bheTa maLela bAra vIghA jamInanI AjI bAjunI bIjI jamIno paNa bAMdhakAma mATe vecAtI rAkhavAmAM AvI. tethI kulle paMdareka vIghAnI jamIna Azare thaI. te jamIna para traNeka o2DInI eka dharmazALA bAMdhavAnuM prathama nakkI karavAmAM AvyuM. Azrama keTaluM bAMdhIzuM? Azrama bAMdhavAno vicAra thayA pachI raNachoDabhAI, zaMkarabhagata Adi mumukSuo rAyaNa nIce beThA hatA tyAre raNachoDabhAIe kIdhuM ke Azrama keTaluM bAMdhIzuM? prabhuzrIjI kaMI bolyA nahIM paNa UThyA ane meghajI thobhaNanI dharmazALAthI potAnI lAkaDI labaDAvI cAlyA tethI lITo paDI gayo. pachI aMdaranA jhAMpA sudhI AvI UbhA rahyA. kUvAnuM khodakAma bIjI vAra mumukSuo bhegA thayelA te vakhate raNachoDabhAIe prabhuzrIjIne jaNAvyuM ke prabhu!bAMghakAma karIe paNa pANInI jarUra paDaze. mATe kUvo kyAM karavAnuM rAkhIe? tyAre prabhuzrIe rAyaNa nIcethI cAlavA mAMDyuM. eo AgaLa cAle ne bhAIo pAchaLa. cAlatAM cAlatAM prabhuzrIjI jyAM UbhA rahyA tyAM bhAIzrIe rahyA tyAM bhAIzrIe kodALA vatI nizAna karI dIdhuM. te jagyAe kUvAnuM khodakAma cAlu karyuM. cAlIzeka phUTa khodIne mATI kADhI. eka divase khodakAma mATe mAro kUvAmAM UtaryA, ane khodakAma karatA hatA. teTalAmAM prabhuzrIjIe eka mANasane jaNAvyuM ke pelA kUvo khode che te majUrone tyAM jaI moTe sAde kaho ke badhA bahAra cAlyA Avo. teNe tema karyuM ane majUro bahAra AvI gayA. thoDA samaya bAda mATI ghasI paDI ane kUvAno ghaNo bhAga purAI gayo. pachI lAkaDAnI raMgI karIne kUvAmAM utArI ke jethI mATI DhaLI na paDe, ane pharIthI khodakAma zarU karyuM. e pramANe khodakAma karatA 80-90 phuTe akhUTa pANInA jharA lAgI gayA ane mIThuM pANI nIkaLyuM. mazInathI rAta divasa pANI kADhe to paNa khUTe nahIM tema banyuM. A kUvAnA bAMghakAma mATe rUpiyA traNa hajAra naDiyAdanA zrI DAhyAbhAI divAne prabhuzrIjInI bhaktithI raMgAIne ApyA hatA. prabhu! thAMbhalA vagarano sabhAmaMDapa banI zake? zrI DAhyAbhAI jinamaMdira pAseno sabhAmaMDapa bAMdhavAno vicAra thayo tyAre bhAIzrI raNachoDabhAIne pU.prabhuzrIjIe kahyuM : prabhu ! thAMbhalA vagarano maMDapa banI zake? tyAre teo khaMbhAtathI eka khojA ArkITekTane bolAvI lAvyA. teNe rAyaNa nIce ghULamAM thAMbhalA vagarano sabhAmaMDapa dorI batAvyo. te joI pU.prabhuzrIjI bolyA ke vAha prabhu vAha! evuM joIe. te pramANe ja A jinamaMdira pAseno sabhAmaMDapa banela che. derAsara, sabhAmaMDapanuM khAtamuhUrta saM.1978mAM mANekajI zeThanA hAthe derAsara, sabhAmaMDapanI khAtamuhUrta vidhi lagabhaga dasa vAge pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInI AjJAthI karAvI hatI. zeThajIe te vakhate ullAsabhAve lobha choDavA rUpiyA traNa hajAra e mahAna kAryamAM lakhAvyA. vaLI emanA mitra maMDaLamAMthI bIjA nANAM meLavI ApavA banatuM karIza ema paNa kahyuM. 250 prabhuzrIjInA meLApathI tAjagI sabhAmaMDapanuM bhoMyarUM rAtanA bAra vAgyA sudhI mumukSu bhAIo khode, pachI sUI jAya. rAtre thAkI jAya eTale manamAM thAya ke ghare jatA rahIe. paNa prabhuzrI Ave ne vAto cIto kare ke pharI pAchA tAjA thaI jAya ane savAramAM kAma karavA lAgI jAya.

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zaciMTuprabha bhagavAha YO) e to olIyA puruSa paramakRpALudevanA bhoMyarAmAM je pratimAjI che te muMbaIthI khullI relvenI bogImAM AvyA hatA. pratimAjIne cAre bAjAthI lAkaDAthI jaDI dIdhelA. 1 sAthe eka musalamAna te pratimAjInI saMbhALa rAkhavA sAthe Avela. te UMco, jADo ane zarIre puSTa hato. AzramamAMthI moTo varaghoDo kADhI prabhuzrIjI sAthe ghaNA mumukSuo vAjA vagere sahita ullAsapUrvaka sTezana upara pratimAjIne levA AvelA. te vakhate prabhuzrIjIne joI te musalamAna kahe-e to olIyA puruSa hai. tene prabhuzrIjI upara ghaNo pUjyabhAva thayo hato. eka mahino ahIM rokAyo hato. ane maMtra vagere AjJA paNa lIdhI hatI. bhale e pratimAjI laI jAo. mULanAyaka zrI caMdraprabhu bhagavAna zvetAMbarajinAlayanI pAMca pratimAo zrI zItalanAtha bhagavAna zrI RSabhadeva bhagavAna zrI caMdraprabhu bhagavAna zrI pArzvanAtha bhagavAna agAsa AzramanA jinamaMdiranA uparanA bhAgamAM digaMbara maMdiramAM mULanAyaka zrI caMdraprabhunI pratimAjI ane zrI pArzvanAtha bhagavAnanI zyAma mUrti nava pheNavALA nAganI che te pratimAjI kyAMthI ane kevI rIte AvyA tenI vigata A pramANe che : prabhuzrIjI paTaNA padhArelA tyAre temanI sAthe motIbhAI bhagata hatA ane bIjA cAra pAMca jaNA paNa sAthe hatA. zrImatI bahena rAjabIbInA derAsaramAM A pratimAjI hatA. tene pU.prabhuzrIjIe Azrama mATe pasaMda karI. tyAre prathama teoe nA pADI ke bIjI je joIe te pratimAo laI jAo paNa A nahIM. pachI pU.prabhuzrIjI paTaNAmAM traNa cAra divasa rokAyA. tyArabAda teoe rAjI thaIne kahyuM ke bhale e pratimAjIne tame laI jAo. agAsa AzramanA zvetAMbara jinAlayamAM mULanAyaka zrI caMdraprabhujInI pratimAjI kacchanA zeTha zrI jeThAbhAI narasI kezavajIe pAlItANAnI mULa TuMkamAMthI Apela che. - tathA eka Adizvara bhagavAnanA pratimAjI, eka suvidhinAtha prabhunA pratimAjI, temaja be zrI zItalanAtha prabhunA pratimAjI zeTha narasI nAthA cerITI phaMDa taraphathI, pAlItANAnI taLeTInI gharmazALAmAMthI Apela che. zrI zItalanAtha bhagavAna zrI suvidhinAtha bhagavAna 251

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so sudI 15nA ja ke zrI digaMbara-zvetAMbagurumaMdira-sabhAmaMDapamAM pratiSThAo kayA varSamAM? agAsa AzramanA jinamaMdira nIce bhoMyarAmAM saM. 1982 mAM Aso sudI 15nA roja zrImad rAjacaMdranA pAdukAjInI pratiSThA karavAmAM Avela che. tathA saM.1984mAM jeTha vada panA roja digaMbara maMdiramAM mULanAyaka zrI caMdraprabhu tathA zyAmavarNanA zrI pArzvanAtha prabhunA pratimAjI ane zvetAMbara maMdiramAM mULanAyaka zrI caMdraprabhu, zrI zItalanAtha prabhunA 2 pratimAjI tathA 1 suvidhinAtha prabhu ane zrI Adizvara bhagavAnanI pratimAjI temaja bhUmigRhamAM zrImadajInA pratimAjI tathA bAjAmAM OMkArajInI pratiSThA karavAmAM Avela che. zrI zvetAMbara maMdirano raMgamaMDapa pratimAnA darzanathI samyakudarzana - bhUmigRhamAM paramakRpALudevanA pratimAjInI pratiSThA vakhate prabhuzrIjIne umaLako AvavAthI pratimAjIne bheTyA. pachI pAchaLa khasI svamukhe bolyA ke aMjanazalAkA thaI, koI pUrvano ArAghaka saMskArI haze tene A pratimAjInA darzanathI samyakdarzana thaze. zrI jinamaMdiranI pratiSThA karAvavA bADamerathI zrI nemicaMdajI yatine bolAvyA hatA. 252

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sabhAmaMDapano mukhya citrapaTa perisamAM banAvela zrI jJAnacaMdra nAhaTAjInA putrI zrI sItAbene jaNAvela vigata :-- cAlu sabhAmaMDapamAM paramakRpALudevanA kAusagga mudrAno citrapaTa banAvavA mATe prabhuzrIe hIrAbhAI jhaverIne AjJA karI. temaNe perisa jaI te banAvyo. te banAvIne perisathI pAchA hiMdustAna AvatA samudramAM tophAna AvyuM. sTImara DolAyamAna thavA lAgI. badhAne kammare paTTA bAMdhavAnuM elAna thayuM. tyAre hIrAbhAInA manamAM ema thayuM ke bIjuM game te thAya paNa mArA bhagavAnanA citrapaTane kaMI na thavuM joIe. tethI citrapaTane UMce laI hAthamAM pakaDI rAkhI aMtaHkaraNamAM ullAsapUrvaka 'sahajAtmasvarUpa paramaguru' maMtra bolavA lAgyA. thoDIvAramAM badho khaLabhaLATa zamI gayo. ane zAMti prasarI gaI. 52makRpALudevanA citrapaTanI sabhAmaMDapamAM pratiSThA te paramakRpALudevanA kada pramANa kAusagga mudrAnA citrapaTanI saMvat 1984mAM sabhAmaMDapamAM pratiSThA karavAmAM AvI. 253

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digaMbara jinabiMbo tathA paramakRpALudevanA paMcadhAtunI khaDagAsanavALI pratimAnI pratiSThA saM.1988 nA mAha sudI 10nA divase AzramamAM nIce pramANe zrI jinabiMbonI pratiSThA karavAmAM Avela. (1) zrI caMdraprabhu paTaNAthI prApta thayela digaMbara pratimAjI. (2) zAMtinAthaprabhu burAnapurathI prApta thayela digaMbara pratimAjI. (3) paramakRpALu gurudeva zrImad rAjacaMdranI paMcadhAtunI kAusagga mudrAnI mUrti kSamA e ja mokSano bhavya daravAjo che tenA upara pratiSThA karavAmAM AvI. zrI caMdraprabhu bhagavAna zrI zAMtinAtha bhagavAna prakSAlanuM pANI pratiSThAne divase savAre vidhi thayA bAda bhagavAnanA prakSAlanuM pANI rAkhI mUkeluM. jenI sAMje ghArA AkhA AzramanA cophera ApavAnI hatI. tenI pUjArIne khabara nahIM. tethI rojiMdA mujaba prakSAlanuM pANI teNe DhoLavA mAMDyuM. tyAre pa.pU. prabhuzrIjIe jJAnabaLe jANI eka mumukSune bolAvI kahyuM : jAo, pUjArI prakSAlanuM pANI DhoLI nAkhe che. tethI temaNe tarata jaI tene rokyo. navIna pratiSThA nimitte bhoMyarAmAM devonuM Agamana zaMkara bhagata roja cAra vAge bhaktino ghaMTa vagADatA. ane sabhAmaMDapanA cokamAM sUI rahetA. teo bhoMyarAnAM pratimAjInI pratiSThAnA cAra pAMca divasa pachI rAtre 12 vAgye jAgyA to bhoMyarAmAM abhuta saMgIta vAgatuM sAMbhaLyuM. tyAM jovA gayA to upara sabhAmaMDapamAM vAgatuM hoya tema saMbhaLAya. upara jAya to nIce bhoMyarAmAM saMbhaLAya. Ama uparathI nIce traNa cAra vAra caDha Utara karI joyuM paNa kaMI dekhAyuM nahIM. savAre prabhuzrIjIne pUchyuM tyAre teozrIe khulAso karyo ke e to devo navI pratiSThA thaI hoya tyAM darzana karavA Ave. kAviThAnA hIrAphoI sabhAmaMDapanI pAchaLanI cAlImAM rahetA. temaNe paNa kaheluM ke eka vakhata huM rAtanA jAgI ke sabhAmaMDapamAM bhaktinAM avAja Ave tethI huM tyAM gaI paNa kAMI dekhAyuM nahIM. zrI maNibena bhAIlAlabhAI jaNAve che ke - mArA sAsu lAlAbA sabhAmaMDapanI pAchaLanI oraDImAM rahetA hatA. temaNe prabhuzrIjI pAse jaI kahyuM - bApA! bhoMyarAmAM rAtre jANe bhakti cAlatI hoya evo avAja saMbhaLAya che ane jovA jauM to baMgha thaI jAya. vaLI pAcho saMbhaLAya. ema kema? prabhuzrI kahe - pratiSThA thaI tethI devo bhakti karavA Ave. zrImad rAjacaMdranI paMcaghAtunI mUrti zrImad rAjacaMdranI paMcadhAtunI mUrti mATe banela derI parama pUjya munizrI laghurAja svAmIzrInI sanmukha vikratuvara paMDita brahmacArI zItalaprasAdajI dvArA A traNe pratiSThA mahAmaMgaLa utsava pUrvaka karavAmAM Avela che. jemAM Azare dazeka hajAra bhAI bahenoe bahu bhaktibhAva pUrvaka bhAga lIdho hato. jyAre Azramano mukhya daravAjo - 'kSamA e ja mokSano bhavya daravAjo" banAvavAno hato tyAre pa.pU.prabhuzrIjIe kaheluM ke aMbADI sahita hAthI jaI zake evo daravAjo banAvajo. tethI tevo vizALa daravAjo banAvavAmAM Avela. 254

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zrI zAMtisthAnanA upara-nIcenuM drazya zrI zAMtisthAnanAM uparanuM drazya zrI zAMtisthAnanAM aMdaranuM drazya pahelA zAMtisthAnavALA haoNlamAM bhakti thatI hatI. te nAno paDavAthI zrI jinamaMdira pAse sabhAmaMDapa bAMghavAmAM Avyo. pachI temAM paNa moTA divasomAM mumukSuono samAveza na thavAthI vizALa nUtana sabhAmaMDapa bAMghavAmAM Avyo. zrI jinamaMdira pAsenA sabhAmaMDapanAM daranuM raNa 255

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nUtana sabhAmaMDapanA aMda2nuM dRzya XX 3 nUtana sabhAmaMDapanA bahAranuM dRzya ORACL nUtana sabhAmaMDapamAM saM.2047 mahA suda 5, tA. 21 jAnyuArI, 1991nA zubha divase paramakRpALudeva, pa.pU. prabhuzrIjI tathA pU.zrI brahmacArIjInA maLIne kula sAta citrapaTonI pratiSThA moTA utsava sAthe ghAmaghUmathI karavAmAM AvI hatI. 256

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agAsa AzramamAM zrI neminAtha prabhunI navIna pratiSThA agAsa AzramamAM Avela zrI digaMbara maMdiramAM bhagavAnanI eka beThaka khAlI hovAthI tyAM pratimAjInI sthApanA karavA mATe indora pAse Avela zrI baneDIyAjI tIrthamAMthI bALa brahmacArI zrI neminAtha bhagavAnanA 511 varSa jUnA pratimAjIne lAvavAmAM AvyA. te pratimAjI zrI barnaDIyAjInA TrasTIoe sadbhAvapUrvaka bheTa Apela che, zrI baneDIyAjI tIrthathI pratimAjIne AzramamAM lAvavAmAM AvyA tyAre beMDavAjA sAthe bahu dhAmadhUma pUrvaka mumukSu bhAI bahenoe agAsa AzramanA prathama daravAjAmAM praveza karAvyo hato. tyArapachI varaghoDArUpe pratimAjIne laI AvyA. 'kSamA e ja mokSano bhavya daravAjo' che tyAM temane vadhAvI zrI digaMbara maMdiramAM birAjamAna karyA hatA. tyArabAda te pratimAjInI pratiSThA saM.ra760 nA Aso vadI 1 nA divase zrI Atmasiddhi zAstra tathA pa. pU. prabhuzrIjI nA janma utsava prasaMge bhAvollAsapUrvaka vidhi sahita karavAmAM AvI hatI. 259 zrI neminAtha prabhunA pratimAjI

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pa.u.pa.pU. prabhuzrIjInA sArdha janma zatAbdI utsava nimitte nIkaLela varaghoDAnA drazyo zrI prabhazrIjI janma sArdhazata pauipapa zrI laghurAjavAmI (prabhuzrIjI) janma paMcAhnikA mahotsava tA.ra01ra007 thI viaa ra004 sudhI zrImad rAjacaMdra AzraNa svAsa FORD 260

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pa.u.pa.pU.prabhuzrIjInA sArtha janma zatAbdI utsava nimitte nIkaLela varaghoDAnA vRzyo 261

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7 paramopakArI zrI ladharAje sAmI nA pAdukAjI siM110 matadA donsarca sirasAnA PIsanAtana jainavItarAma mAgAMdhAipa pUjya zrImad rAjacaMchA nAkhakhaMDa avopAsaka khate saMDherAvAhaka, agAsa sTezana pAsena mIlanAnsa jaina dharma pAya kAra para yAM. samA siMha vi saM 1946 zrImad rAjacaMdra AzramanA saMsthApaka ane adhi ThAtA ne munizrI laghurAja svAmIjInA palijha 5razna kakSAnI pUjA kuti-padaus. teozrInA paramopakAranI piicata sumati ane tabhAva najaeNmA mIrAe AtamanAunamAM vaidhana atisaMwdhA nA detImAM - sanAtana jaina dharSa amadda rAjapada AryA nAsakalasaMdha banAva ane atiuhalAnubhAva sitAM 144nA zatra nAdinI pa.u.pa.pU. prabhuzrIjIno jyAM agnisaMskAra thayo te sthAne banela derI,