Charitra Darshan

Author(s): Ramanlal C Shah
Publisher: Mumbai Jain Yuvak Sangh
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/002031/1

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DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha sAhitya saurabha - graMtha-3 caritra darzana saMpAdaka: DaoN. pravINa darajI zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha prakAzana

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caritradarzana | DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAhanA keTalIka viziSTa vyaktio vizenA 29 caritralekhonuM saMpAdana che. A caritragraMthamAM samAviSTa karelAM prathama ATha caritro eka yA bIjA svarUpe prAta: smaraNIya lekhI zakAya tevI vibhUtionAM che. pUjanIya jaina sAdhu- sAdhvI-saMtonuM vicArakarma ane jIvanakarma temAM zabdastha thayuM che. AvAM caritronI vizeSatA e che ke temAM kevaLa prasaMga mAhitI ke ghaTanAo ja che evuM nathI paNa evI ghaTanAo - prasaMgonI paDache caritra nAyaka ke nAyikAnuM bAhya sAthe AMtara vyaktitva kevI samajjavalatA sAthe prakAze che ane teno prabhAva anuyAyI ke bhAvika bhajano upara, jaina saMpradAya upara kevo paDe che te paNa hRdya rIte darzAvAyuM che. ramaNalAlanAM caritro temanA vyaktitvanAM tema temanA vaividhyasabhara rasakSetranAM paNa ghAtaka che. ramaNalAla jIvananI sakalakalAno svIkAra kare che. tethI ja kadAca temanA caritranAyako paNa vividha kSetromAMthI UMcakAtA AvyA che. jo jainanA prabhAvaka sthaviro temane AkarSe che to rAja kAraNa, sevAkAraNa ke ramatakAraNamAM paDelI vyaktionuM paNa te teTaluM ja kheMcANa anubhave che. e prakAranI vyaktio sAthe temanA aMgata saMbaMdho paNa rahyA che, pariNAme evAM caritro vAcaka mATe keTalAMka navya vizvone udghATita karI Ape che. | ena.sI.sI.mAM vIseka varSa utsAha thI pasA2 ka2nA2 ramaNalAle e kSetranA 'berarathI brigeDiyara' sudhInAM je viziSTa pAtrono paricaya karAvyo che temAMthI pAMceka caritro ahIM lIdhAM worth che. It A 29 caritro ramaNalAlanI caritrakAra tarIkenI mahattvanI lAkSaNikatAo prakaTa karI Ape evI samRddhi dAkhave che. lain Education International For Private & Personal use Quy www.jamelibrary.org

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DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha sAhityasaurabha - graMthaH 3 caritradarzana Do. ramaNalAla zAhe viziSTa vyaktio vize lakhelA caritralekho) saMpAdaka : DaoN. pravINa darajI saMyojakaH Do. dhanavaMta zAha prakAzaka : zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha 33, mahaMmadI minAre, 14mI khetavADI, muMbaI - 4OO GO4. mukhya vikretA : Ara. Ara. zeThanI ku. muMbaI - amadAvAda

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DR. RAMANLAL C. SHAH SAHITYA SAURABH - 3 `CHARITRA DARSHAN" collection of articles on glimpsis of Biographies of outstanding personalities written by Dr. Ramanlal C. Shah Edited by Dr. Pravin Darji Published by SHREE MUMBAI JAIN YUVAK SANGH 33, Mohmadi Minar, 14th Khetwadi, Mumbai - 400 004. (India) No Copyright pahelI AvRtti : 15 oNgasTa, 2006 pRSThasaMkhyA : 40+284 (chabIsaMpuTa 16 pAnAM) = 340 nakala : 5OO kiMmata: rU. 220 mukhya vikretA : 110/112, prinsesa sTrITa kezavabAga, muMbaI 400 002 Teli. : (022) 22013441 Ara. Ara. zeThanI kuM. mudraka caMdrikA prinTI mirajhApura, roDa, amadAvAda 380001 'dvArakeza' raoNyala epArTamenTa pAse, khAnapura, TAipaseTiMga zAradA mudraNAlaya 201, tilakarAja, paMcavaTI pahelI lena, AMbAvADI, amadAvAda-380 006 : phona : 26564279 amadAvAda - 380 001 Teli. : (079) 25506 573

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arpaNa Do. ramaNabhAInA aMtaraMga sanmitra AdaraNIya zrI sI. ke. mahetAne** ramaNabhAInA zabdone aMtaramAM sAcavyA Ape - zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha

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ramaNalAla cI. zAha sAhitya saurabha graMtha zreNI graMtha saMpAdaka 1. jaina dharmadarzana ...........DaoN. hasu yAjJika 2. jaina AcAra-darzana ......... DaoN. jitendra bI. zAha 3. caritradarzana ................ DaoN. pravINa darajI 4. sAhityadarzana .............. DaoN. prasAda brahmabhaTTa 5. pravAsa-darzana ................prA. jazavaMta zekhaDIvALA 6. sAMprata samAja-darzana .........prA. jazavaMta zekhaDIvALA 7. zrataupAsaka .............. .pro. kAMti paTela Do. ramaNalAla cI. zAha (sahasaMpAdaka) zrImatI nirubahena zAha, uSAbahena zAha, puSpAbahena parIkha

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prakAzakIya nivedana Do. ramaNalAla cI. zAha ApaNA zrI muMbaI jena yuvaka saMghanA AtmA hatA, ane Aje paNa che. temaja jyAM sudhI A saMsthAnI gati-pragati thatI raheze, ane e puNyAtmA jyAM jyAM viharato haze tyAMthI A saMsthAne preraNA ane AzIrvAda maLatA raheze. zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanI sthApanA 3 jI phebruArI 1929mAM thaI. eTale A saMsthAe 77 varSa pUrAM karI 78mA varSamAM praveza karI dIdho che. DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAhane have ame ahIM ramaNabhAI ja kahIzuM kema ke amArA haiye A saMbodhana ja sthira thaI gayuM che, ane raheze. ramaNabhAI 1952mAM 26 varSanI uMmare A saMsthAmAM pravezyA ane jIvananA aMtima dina sudhI kAryarata rahyA. A saMsthA sAthe emano pa3 varSano dIrgha saMbaMdha. A saMsthAnA koI paNa sabhya Aja divasa sudhI ATalI dIrgha phaLadAyI sevA A saMsthAne nathI ApI zakyA. ramaNabhAI prathama saMsthAnI kArobArI samitimAM joDAyA, te samaye pU. paramANaMdabhAI kApaDiyA ane pU. cImanalAla cakubhAI zAhe ramaNabhaImAM raheluM hIra pArakhyuM ane ramaNabhAIne eka pachI eka javAbadArI soMpatA gayA, je ramaNabhAIe niSThApUrvaka bajAvI ane pratyeka kAryathI saMsthAne UjaLI karI. 1982mAM pU. cImanabhAInA svargavAsa pachI ramaNabhAIe A saMsthAnuM pramukhapada ane prabuddha jIvana'nuM taMtrIpada svIkAryuM ane jAhera jIvananAM badhAM pada choDavAnA temaNe nakkI karelA siddhAMtone kAraNe 1996mAM potAnI 70 varSanI uMmare saMsthAnA pramukhapadethI rAjInAmuM ApI saMsthAnI kArobArI samitinA sabhya banI rahI aMtima zvAsa sudhI saMsthAne pUrepUruM mArgadarzana ApyuM. sana 1972mAM ramaNabhAIe saMsthAnI suprasiddha paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAnuM

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pramukhapada svIkAryuM. A pramukhapade pahelAM kAkA kAlelakara, pU. paMDita sukhalAlajI ane pU. gaurIprasAda jhAlAsAheba jevA vidvAna manISI birAjyA hatA. ramaNabhAIe jIvananA aMtima zvAsa sudhI A vyAkhyAnamALAnuM jatana karyuM ane preraNAdAyI pravacano ApavA mATe dareka saMpradAyanA pU. sAdhu-sAdhvI bhagavaMto, anya dharmAcAryo ane bhAratanA prasiddha vidvAna vyAkhyAtAone nimaMtryA ane vyAkhyAnamALAne eka AgavI yazagAthA sudhI laI gayA. Ama vyAkhyAnamALAnA pramukhapade eozrI jIvananA aMtima zvAsa sudhI satata 33 varSa birAjyA. ramaNabhAI eTale aNizuddha suzrAvaka ane karuNAno jIva. keTalAMka varSa pahelAM ramaNabhAIne eka uttama vicAra Avyo ke A vyAkhyAnamALAmAM dharmajijJAsu varga Ave che. e sarvanA hRdayamAM AvA parvanA divase karuNAnI ane dAnanI bhAvanA hoya ja. vaLI vicAryuM ke gujarAtanA pachAta vistAramAM ghaNIbadhI evI uttama saMsthAo che je dhanane abhAve potAnA sevAkAryane AgaLa vadhArI zakatI nathI. eTale paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALA pahelAM yuvaka saMghanI kArobArI samitinA sabhyone sAthe laI saMsthAnI mulAkAta laI evI saMsthA mATe paryuSaNa daramiyAna tenI yogyatA ane jarUriyAta tapAsI dAnanI vinaMti karavAnuM nakkI karyuM. AnA pariNAme Aja sudhI gujarAtanI 21 saMsthAone kula poNA traNa karoDanA dAnano mAtabara phALo prApta thayo che ane e badhI saMsthAe Aje khUba ja vikAsa karI sevA kSetre aneruM pradAna karyuM che. pU. ramaNabhAInA uttama vicAranuM A atizubha ane sarvajana kalyANakArI pariNAma che. A saMsthAnuM vartamAna mukhapatra "prabuddha jIvana che. 1929mAM saMsthAe potAnuM mukhapatra "muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha patrikA'nA nAmathI zarU karyuM ane 1933mAM prabuddha jaina" ane pachI 1953mAM prabuddha jIvana' nAma dhAraNa karI jIvananA vizALa kane sparzavAno saMkalpa karyo. eTale saMsthAnA mukhapatrano itihAsa paNa 77 varSano che. koI paNa prakAranI jAhera khabara na levAnA, ane bIje chapAyelA lekha na levAnA siddhAMtane vareluM A mukhapatra Aje 78mA varSamAM praveze che, eno yaza Aja sudhInA ciMtaka mahAnubhAva mAnad maMtrIo temaja jijJAsu vAcakone jAya che. pU. ramaNabhAI pUrve A mukhapatronA taMtrI sthAne zrI maNilAla mokamacaMda zAha, zrI paramAnaMda kuMvarajI kApaDiyA ane zrI cImanalAla cakubhAI zAha jevA prakhara ciMtako ane samAjasudhArako birAjyA hatA. sana 1982mAM prabuddha jIvana'nuM taMtrIsthAna pU. ramaNabhAIe svIkAryuM ane vividha viSayothI temaja jaina dharmanA UMDA tattalekhothI prabuddha jIvanane jJAnanA khajAnAthI tarabatara karI dIdhuM. saMsthA ane samAja A

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RNa koI rIte cUkavI zake ema nathI. - pU. ramaNabhAI potAnI upasthitimAM ja prabuddha jIvana' temaja paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAnuM sukAna amArA hoMzIlA, vidvAna, kartavyaniSTha, daSTisaMpanna dhanavaMtabhAIne soMpI prabuddha jIvana'nA taMtrIsthAnane mATe ucita veLAsara pasaMdagI karI amane AjanI ciMtAmAMthI mukta karI gayA. jJAnIjanone to ArSadRSTi hoya ja. dhanavaMtabhAInA taMtrIsthAne AjanuM prabuddha jIvana' pU. ramaNabhAI ane anya vidvAna pUrvasUrionI yazagAthAne UjaLI karI rahyuM che enI pratIti thatAM amArA sarvanuM mastaka ramaNabhAI prati jhUke che. "DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha sAhityasaurabhanA graMthonI yojanA pU. ramaNabhAInI upasthitimAM ja ame karI hatI. amArI A yojanAnI saMmati pU. ramaNabhAI ApatA na hatA. svaprazaMsAno karmadoSa lAge e bhAra AvA jJAnIjana kema svIkAre ? paraMtu amArA Agraha ane prema pAse eozrI haLavA thayA ane amane saMmati ApI. A jJAnIjana tyAre kadAca koIka "darzana' pAmI gayA haze. A graMthonA saMyojaka ane vidvAna saMpAdakonI pasaMdagI paNa eozrIe karI hatI. ramaNabhAInA vipula sAhityanuM vAcana karavuM ane enuM cayana karI vividha viSayonA graMthamAM ene samAvavuM e sAgaramAMthI motI zodhavA karatAM paNa kaThina kAma, kAraNa ke ramaNabhAInA sAhityasAgaramAM to motI ja motI. A sAruM ane A enAthI vizeSa sAruM evI spardhA ahIM zakya ja nathI. jaDIbuTTI zodhatA hanumAnajI jema jaDIbuTTI zodhI na zakyA ane Akho pahADa UMcakI lAvyA, evI vimAsaNa pratyeka vidvAna saMpAdake ahIM anubhavI haze ja. paraMtu toya kartavyadharmamAM sthita A sarva vidvAna saMpAdakoe athAga bhagIratha parizrama karyo ane ApaNA mATe A sAta graMthonuM nirmANa karyuM. A vidvAna saMpAdako prA. jazavaMta zekhaDIvALA, Do. hasu yAjJika, DaoN. pravINa darajI, DaoN. jitendra zAha, Do. prasAda brahmabhaTTa ane amArA aMtaraMga vidvAna mitra prA. kAMti paTela. A sarva mahAnubhAvone amAruM hRdaya pUrA AdarathI namana kare che. uparAMta zrataupAsaka Do. ramaNalAla cI. zAha' graMthanA sahasaMpAdako, A saMsthAnI kArobArI samitinA amArA sabhyo nIrubahena zAha, puSpAbahena parIkha ane uSAbahena zAhano AbhAra to kema manAya ? emanA parizramane abhinaMduM yojanA taiyAra to thAya paNa ene AkAra ApavA satata puruSArtha karavo paDe.

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evo puruSArtha amArI mudraNa samitinA sabhyo sarvazrI bhUpendrabhAI DAhyAbhAI jhaverI, zrI gAMgajIbhAI pI. zeThiyA, zrI uSAbahena pI. zAha, zrI vasubahena bhaNazAlI ane zrI javAharabhAI nA. zukle karyo, ane satata parizrama karI A samitinA sabhyoe amane gauravavaMtA karyAM che. saMghabaLanuM A saMghaLa che. A sarve pratye ame hRdayano AnaMda ja vyakta karIe chIe. uparAMta A graMtha nirmANa mATe satata doDadhAma karanArA amArA karmaniSTha karmacArIo mukhyatve maeNnejara zrI mathurAdAsabhAI TAMka, bhAI azoka palasamakara, bhAI haricaMdra navALe, bhAI manasukhabhAI mahetA ane bahena zrI jyAbahena vIrAne to kayA zabdomAM navAjIe ? haiyuM, hAma ane hAtha A traNeno sumeLa hoya to ja zubha AkAra prApta thAya. badhI sAmagrI ane sAhitya ekatrita karavA mATe pU. tArAbahena ane pU. ramaNabhAInAM suputrI bahena zrI zailajAne ame khUba khUba parizrama Apyo che. emanA rAta-divasanA puruSArtha vagara A graMtho ATalA badhA samRddha ane zobhita na ja thAta. emanA prati mAtra RNabhAvathI vizeSa lakhIe to emano mITho Thapako anubhavavo paDe. A badhI parikalpanAnA sUtradhAra saMyojaka amArA sarvenA nAnA bhAI jevA, buddhidhana dhanavaMtabhAIne to amAre AjJA karavAnI ja hoya, ane AjJA karatA rahevAnA ja. hRdayamAM sthira thayelA A amArA nAnA bhAIne zabdathI zuM kAma bahAra AvavA daIe ? ATalA vizALa kAryano ame AraMbha to karyo, paNa manamAM dhanarAzinI ciMtA hatI. paNa sAthe sAthe zraddhA paNa hatI ja. paraMtu pU. ramaNabhAInI suvAsa ane amArA pUrvasUrionAM puNya ane puruSArthano amane anokho anubhava thayo. ene camatkAra paNa kema na kahevAya ? 'prabuddha jIvana'nA 16 phebruArIno kaDaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha smaraNAMjali saMpuTa' aMka vAcako pAse jevo pahoMcyo ane emAM chellA pRSTha upara 'DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha sAhityasaurabha' graMthonI mAhitI pragaTa thatAM ja e ja mAsanI 2022 tArIkhanI AsapAsa ja eka dAnavIra suzrAvakano amane phona Avyo, ane namratApUrvaka amane A graMtho mATe mAtabara rakama svIkAravAnI vinaMti karI ane tarata ja mAtabara rakamano ceka mokalI Apyo ! pU. ramaNabhAI AvA keTakeTalA zubha AtmAmAM birAjyA haze ? amArAM keTalAM badhAM sadbhAgya ke amane AvA suzrAvaka jJAnIjanano sahavAsa ane sadbhAva prApta thayo !

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A dAtA pratye amArA hRdayamAM anero pUjya bhAva pragaTa thayo che, ane eozrInAM puNyakarmone ame vaMdana karIe chIe. A vAMcanAra sarvenA hRdayamAM paNa AvA ja bhAvo AMdolita thaze evI amane zraddhA che. A graMthone khUba ja kALajIpUrvaka ApaNI pAse pahoMcADavA mATe TAipaseTiMga ane mudraNakArya mATe amadAvAdanA zAradA mudraNAlayanA zrI rohitabhAI koThArI ane caMdrikA prinTarInA zrI rUpalabhAI desAI uparAMta muMbaInA mudrAMkananA zrI javAharabhAI zukla temaja mukhapRSThanI yathAyogya suMdara DijhAina mATe zrI mohanabhAI doDecAno aMtarathI AbhAra mAnIe chIe. A graMthonI jAherAta thatAM ja AgotarA grAhakoe potAnuM nAma noMdhAvI amane protsAhita karyA. e mATe e sarvano paNa hRdayathI AbhAra. satata sAta mAsanA parizramathI ane eTalI ja utAvaLathI A graMtho taiyAra thayA. eTale koI paNa kSatinuM darzana thAya to amane kSamA karazo. uparAMta Apane ramaNabhAInuM koI apekSita sarjana ahIM najare na paDe to amArI graMthanAM pRSThonI maryAdA che ema samajI amane daragujara karazo, paNa Apano pratibhAva jarUra jaNAvazo. Aje A graMthonuM prakAzana thaI rahyuM che tyAre ramaNabhAI ApaNI pAse nathI, che mAtra emano jJAnaprakAza ane zabdonA tejapuMjathI jhaLahaLatuM eozrInuM jJAnagata. A sAta graMtho ApanA karakamaLamAM mUkatAM ame dhanyatA anubhavIe to chIe, paNa sAthosAtha tarpaNa bhAvano saMtoSa amArA romeromamAM AMdolita thaI rahyo che. eno AnaMda ApanI pAse kayA zabdomAM darzAvIe ? A AMdolanane pU. ramaNabhAInA AtmAno sparza maLe evI kALadevatAne prArthanA. dhanyavAda. tA. 15-8-206 zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanA sarva sabhyo vatI zrI rasikalAla laheracaMda zAha pramukha

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saurabha graMthonI sarjanayAtrA zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha pratye AkarSaNa ane ahobhAva mane kaoNlejakALathI hatAM. eTale lagabhaga 40 varSathI prabuddha jIvananuM niyamita vAcana karato hato ane jJAna-zravaNa arthe pratyeka paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM acUka javAnuM thatuM ja. AvA saMbaMdhane kAraNe aMtarathI kyAre saMghamaya thaI gayo enI khabareya na paDI, ane e thakI hRdayamAM koI ajabogajabanuM saMskAraghaDatara thatuM gayuM. mAtAnA garbhamAM bALaka vikasatuM jAya ema A vAtAvaraNathI aMtaramAM koI anivarcanIya tattva vikasatuM gayuM. A kAraNe sarva prathama to zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghane khamAsaNa bhAve namana karuM chuM. pU. ramaNabhAI ema.e.mAM amane bhASAzAstra zIkhavatA hatA. vaLI teo jaina yuvaka saMghamAM sakriya kAryakara hatA. eTale e kAraNe emanA pratye vizeSa bhAvAnubaMdha thayo. jema jema eozrInI najIka thato gayo tema tema emanI vidvattA ane emanA zrAvakAcArathI abhibhUta thato gayo. aMtaranA koIka khUNe mArA e rola moDela banI gayA. trIseka varSa pahelAM ame sahu adhyApaka saMmelanamAMthI pAchA pharatAM hatAM tyAre pUramaNabhAI ane pU. tArAbahene pitRmAtRbhAvathI mane yuvaka saMghamAM joDAvA kahyuM. mAre mana e AjJAbhAva hato, ane saMghano lAIpha membara thaI meM emAM praveza karyo. mArA jIvananI e ati zubha ane saddabhAgI ghaDI hatI. basa pachI to ramaNabhAI mArA upara varasatA gayA, basa varasatA gayA, ane eka pachI eka kAmo mane soMpatA gayA. mAruM ene parama saddabhAgya gaNuM sAhebano preraka ane AnaMdaprada sahavAsa, eozrI sAthenA pravAso, temaNe

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yojelA jaina sAhitya samAroha ane parisaMvAdo vageremAMthI ghaNuM jIvanapAtheya maLI rahetuM. zrAvakajIvana vizenA emanA vicAro ane AcArano subhaga samanvaya temanA jIvanamAM jovA maLato. jIvananA marmo hasatA hasatA sAheba ApaNane samajAve e eozrInI viziSTatA. pU. sAhebanuM lagabhaga badhuM ja sAhitya vAMcavAno mane lAbha maLyo. e badhuM ja uttama ane jIvanane UrdhvagAmI banAve evuM tattvazIla che. prabuddha jIvana" pragaTa thAya eTale vahelI savAre pU. sAhebano lekha vAMcavAno niyama thaI gayo. emanA vicArone manamAM vAgoLuM ane sAheba sAthe e lekha vize vizeSa jANakArI meLavuM. ApaNe e lekhanI prazaMsA karIe to sAheba mauna smita sAthe, nispRha bhAve e jhIlI le, ane zaMkAnuM samAdhAna kare. pU. sAhebe temano gUrjara phAgu sAhitya' graMtha mane mokalyo. navuM pustaka pragaTa thAya eTale sAheba acUka snehImitro ane abhyAsIone mokale. e graMtha vAMcIne huM to avAk ja banI gayo. ATaluM badhuM parizramapUrvakanuM saMzodhana temaja gahana ciMtana meM bhAgye ja koI graMthamAM joyuM che. utsAhathI meM sAhebane phona karyo, dasa miniTa sudhI huM bolato ja rahyo, ane chelle kahyuM, "sAheba, A graMthane to DI.lITa.nI upAdhi maLavI joIe. paradezamAM AvuM saMzodhana Ape karyuM hota to...' to sAmA pakSe sAhebanuM mAtra mauna ja, ane chelle - upAdhyAya yazovijayajI kRta adhyAtmasAra" ane "jJAnasAra' be graMtho eozrI pAsethI jainajagatane maLyA e to ApaNA saunuM parama sabhAgya. e graMthonuM vizad ciMtana ahIM eka lITImAM zuM samAvuM ? ane e mATe huM adhikArI paNa nathI. eka vakhata phona upara vAto karatAM karatAM meM sAhebane kahyuM, ApanuM sAhityajagata vizALa che, enuM cayana karI cAra-pAMca graMtho taiyAra thAya to aneka jJAnapipAsune vizeSa lAbha maLe. koNa jANe kema e ghaDI ApaNA mATe zubha haze, to sAhebathI sahaja bolAI gayuM : "hA, hamaNAM ja mitra prA. jazavaMta zekhaDIvALAe paNa mane evuM sUcana karyuM hatuM. paNa bIjI ja paLe e vAkyathI dUra laI javA mane bIjI vAtoe vaLagADI dIdho. huM samajI gayo ke sAhebanI mane A vAta kahevAnI IcchA na hatI. paNa emanAthI "kahevAI gayuM' ! e emane duHkha hatuM. ajANatAM thaI gayelA AvAM sUkSma karmo pratye paNa sAheba ATalA sabhAna ! paNa A vAta mArA manano keDo na choDe. manamAM saMtoSa thayo ke mane jevo vicAra Avyo evo ja vicAra sAdhucarita prA. jazavaMta zekhaDIvALAsAhebane paNa Avyo che. eTale A kAma karavA jevuM to che ja, ane kudaratano AmAM nakkI kaMI

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saMketa che. pachI jyAre jyAre sAhebane phona karuM tyAre A vAta karuM, sAheba e vAtane TALe ane huM pAcho tyAM ne tyAM ja pahoMcuM ane sAheba sAthenI vAtomAMthI mAMDa mAMDa nAno cheda uDAvI zakyo. joke "nA" na pADavAmAM paNa mArA premane duHkha na pahoMce e ja emano vizeSa bhAva hato. e huM samajI gayo hato. tarata ja muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanI kArobArI samitimAM tA. 21-1- 2005nA pU. ramaNabhAInI upasthitimAM ja meM prastAva mUkyo ane sAheba kAMI paNa hA-nA kare e pahelAM sarve sabhyoe e prastAvane AnaMda-utsAhathI vadhAvIne maMjUrInI mahora mArI dIdhI, ane saMyojakanI javAbadArI sarve vaDIloe mane soMpI, mAruM e sadbhAgya. tarata ja bIje divase sAheba sAthe vigate carcA karI saMpAdaka mATe pUchyuM. sAheba kahe, "zekhaDIvALAsAheba ja A kAma mATe pUrA adhikArI che. eozrI sAthe carcA karo, ane anya saMpAdako paNa eozrInI sUcanA mujaba nakkI karo." meM tarata ja pU. zekhaDIvALA sAhebane phona karyo. eozrI khUba ja prasanna thayA. amAre phona upara vAto thatI rahI. ane anya saMpAdakomAM vidvaddavarya Do. hasu yAjJika, DaoN. pravINa darajI ane DaoN. prasAda brahmabhaTTane vinaMti karavAnuM nakkI karyuM. A nAmo meM sAhebane jaNAvyAM. sAhebe saMmati ApI. A cayanagraMthonI sAthosAtha sAhebanA jIvana vize paNa eka graMtha taiyAra thAya evo amArA manamAM bhAva janmyo ane meM bahena zailajAne phona karI sAhebanA badhA ja phoTogrApha ekatra karavA kahyuM. - bIje divase ja sAhebano mane phona Avyo, ane mane kahyuM "Avo graMtha taiyAra na karazo ane mArA mATe koI pAsethI lekha ke abhiprAya na maMgAvo. mAtra sAhityasaMcaya ja karo." vyaktinI hayAtimAM Avo graMtha taiyAra thAya to prazaMsAno karmadoSa lAge, sAheba AvA karmabaMdha mATe sabhAna hatA. sAhebano marma huM samajI gayo. meM sAhebane manomana namana karyAM. A graMthanI gati dhIre dhIre AgaLa vadhatI gaI. gokaLagAya gati ja samajo. sAhebane tabiyate sAtha na Apyo. mAre phona upara "prabuddha jIvana' pUratI ja vAta thAya ane vAtavAtamAM to pU. sAheba ApaNAthI dUra thaI gayA ! ! paNa juo, vidhinI kevI vicitratA ! pU. sAhebe jIvanaprazaMsA lakhAvavAnI nA pADI hatI. e ja kAma amAre paheluM karavuM paDyuM. sAheba vizenA prabuddha jIvananA be aMko navembara 2005no "zraddhAMjali" aMka ane jAnyuArI 2006no DaoN.

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ramaNalAla cI. zAha smaraNAMjali saMpuTa aMka. e baMne aMkonA samanvaya rUpa graMtha Aje "mRtaupAsaka DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAhanA zIrSakathI ApanA karakamaLamAM mukAya che. pU. sAhebanuM jIvana ane guNo prakAzita na thAya evuM kALadevatAne paNa maMjUra na hatuM. guNo DhAMkya DhaMkAtA nathI. smaraNikA "aMka' mATe lekhakone vadhu samaya ApavAno avakAza na hato. chatAM lekhono pravAha vaheto gayo. keTalAka lekhone samayamaryAdAne kAraNe e aMkamAM samAvI na zakAyA, eTale banne aMkono samanvaya ane pachIthI AvelA lekho eTale "zrutaupAsaka 2. cI. zAha' graMtha. uparano smaraNikA aMka taiyAra thayA pachI e aMkanI prApti mATe aneka vinaMtipatra amane maLyA eTale e aMka pharI chApavo paDyo. A "zrutaupAsaka' graMthanA preraNAstrota e jijJASujano ane pU. sAhebanA cAhako che. pU. sAhebanA jIvananA vividha prasaMgo, emanI sAttvika pratibhA ane emanA guNasAmrAjyanuM eka vizva ApaNI samakSa UghaDyuM jenAthI ApaNe to zuM, paNa ghaNAya ajJAta hatA. sAhebanuM jIvana AvuM preraka. graMthonAM nirmANano prAraMbha karavA DisembaramAM pro. jazavaMtabhAI zekhaDIvALAne tyAM Do. hasubhAI yAjJika, Do. pravINa darajI ane Do. prasAda brahmabhaTTa sAthe ame ekatra thayA. murabbI zrI zekhaDIvALAsAhebanuM uSmAbharyuM Atithya ame sarvee mAryuM. mArA mATe to vidvadUdarzana hatuM. sarve vidvAna saMpAdakoe kAryano AraMbha karyo, nirdhArita gati pragati thatI gaI. e daramiyAna amArA sabhyo ane cAhakoe pU. sAhebanA jaina dharma vizenA lekhono eka khAsa graMtha thAya evuM AgrahapUrNa sUcana karyuM. pU. sAheba to sarvadharma ciMtaka hatA. koI eka vartuLamAM ja emane kema rakhAya ? paraMtu jaina dharma vize eozrInuM gahana adhyayana ane ciMtana vizeSa che e paNa eTaluM ja satya. meM.pU. zekhaDIvALA sAhebane ane murabbI DaoN. hasubhAI yAjJikane A hakIkata jaNAvI ane eozrIe mArI A vAta tarata ja svIkArI eTale meM mArA aMtaraMga mitra vidvAna ciMtaka ane jaina dharmanA gahana abhyAsI DaoN. jitendrabhAI zAha upara mitrahaka ajamAvI dIdho. koIpaNa prakAranI bahA-nAnI carcA vagara Do. hasubhAI yAjJika ane DaoN. jitendrabhAI maLyA ane ApaNane be graMtha jaina dharmadarzana ane jaina AcAradarzana prApta thaI rahyA che. zrutaupAsaka DaoN. 2. cI. zAha' graMthanA saMpAdananI javAbadArI amArA saMghanI kArobArI samitinA sabhyo bahenazrI nirubahena zAha, puSpAbahena parIkha ane uSAbahena zAhe saMbhALI kAmano prAraMbha karyo. paraMtu ame vicAryuM ke A graMthane 13

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paNa mUrdhanya vidvarjanano sAtha maLe to sonAmAM sugaMdha maLe. eTale pU. tArAbahene ziSyahaka ane meM mitrahakano upayoga karI vidvAna prAdhyApaka zrI kAMtibhAI paTelane vinaMti karI. zrI kAMtibhAI pU. sAhebanA ziSya, ane sAhebano ziSyo pratye prema evo ke badhA hoMze hoMze e nirNayane hRdayamAM samAvI le. sarve vidvAna saMpAdakoe abhyAsa karI khUba ja parizrama laI A rAte graMthanuM sarjana karyuM che. mitra prAdhyApaka prasAda brahmabhaTTa to mudraNavyavasthA paNa saMbhALI. A sarveno aMta:karaNathI AbhAra mAnuM chuM. uparAMta A graMthanirmANa mATe je je mahAnubhAvoe potAno puruSArtha A kAryamAM sIMcyo che e sarveno nAmollekha amArA pramukhazrIe prakAzakIya nivedanamAM karyo che, e bhAvamAM huM mArA bhAvanuM AropaNa karuM chuM. A graMthonI sAmagrI ekaThI karavAmAM sakhata ane satata parizrama to pU. tArAbahena ane bahena zailajAe karyo che. e mArAM moTAM bahena tulya pU. tArAbahenanAM caraNomAM vaMdana karI bahena zailajAne abhinaMduM chuM. saMyojaka tarIke mane pasaMda karI mArA upara AvA AtmasaMtarpaka zubha kAma mATe vizvAsa mUkI mane mokaLA mane A kAma karavA dIdhuM ane mane aDhaLaka prema Apyo evA muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanI kArobArI samitinA sarve sabhyono AbhAra mAnavA mArI pAse zabdo nathI ja. e sarve pratye hRdaya name che. A samagra graMthacanAmAM mArI kAMI kSati daSTie paDe to Apa sarve vAcaka mahAnubhAvo mane kSamA karazo. ane pU. sAhebanuM RNa to kaI rIte cUkavuM ? zakya ja nathI. huM bhale mULa adhyApakano jIva, paraMtu mArA udyogonA saMcAlanamAM khUba ja vyasta rahuM sadbhAgye pU. sAhebe mAro hAtha pakaDI lIdho ane udyoga-vyApArajagatamAM pUro garakAva thaI jAuM e pahelAM ja pU. sAhebe mane samatulAmAM besADI dIdho. pU. sAhebe mArI lekhanacetanAne phUMka na mArI hota to huM mAtra vyApArI ja rahyo hota. A upakAra to bhavobhavamAM nahi cUkavI zakAya. A graMthonA vAcanathI ApaNA sarvanuM hRdaya vikasita thAya evI paramAtmAne prArthanA. tA. 15-8-2006 - dhanavaMta zAha epha-76, vinasa epArTamenTa, varalI sI phesa-sAutha, muMbaI-400 018. 14

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sahunA ramaNabhAI zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha eka labdhapratiSTha saMsthA che. jIvananAM ghaNAM kSetre enI karuNA preraka ane saMskAralakSI pravRttione kAraNe samagra bhAratanI jaina saMsthAomAM enuM AgavuM ane mAnabharyuM sthAna che. ghaNI vyaktioe potAnuM sattva, sAmarthya ane sevA ApIne A saMsthAne mahAna banAvI che. A saMsthAnA 77 varSanA itihAsamAM eka hRdayasaMtarpaka ghaTanA ghaTI rahI che. mArA pati ane saMsthAnA bhUtapUrva pramukha Do. ramaNabhAInA pragaTa thayelA sarva sAhityamAMthI cayana karIne cha graMtho ane temane zraddhAMjali arpatA lekhono eka graMtha "zruta upAsaka ramaNabhAI - A sAta graMtha uparAMta temanAM vyAkhyAnonI eka sI.DI.nA vimocanano prasaMga UjavAI rahyo che. A prasaMga eTale zrI jaina yuvaka saMghanA sabhyo ane ramaNabhAInA vizALa cAhakavarganA hRdayamAM ramaNabhAI pratye pragaTa thatA snehAdarano utsava. zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha sAthe ramaNabhAIno saMbaMdha AtmIya, anokho ane avarNanIya che. 1952thI 2005 eTale pa3 varSano saMbaMdha. saMghanA sabhya. kamiTI membara, saMghanA pramukha, vyAkhyAnamALAnA pramukha ane prabuddha jIvananA taMtrI tarIkeno saMbaMdha. Ama vividha stare sukhada, yazasvI ane phaLadAyI rahyo che. ramaNabhAI bhAgyazALI hatA. saMgha sAthenA saMbaMdhanI zarUAtamAM ja zrI maNilAla mokamacaMda zAha, zrI ratibhAI koThArI, zrI paramAnaMdabhAI kApaDiyA, zrI cImanalAla cakubhAI zAha, zrI khImajI mAMDaNa bhUpUriyA, mArA pitAzrI dIpacaMdabhAI zAha, zrI TI. jI. zAha vagere vaDIlonA prema ane sadbhAva temane maLyA. temAM temaNe potAnI sevA ane AgavI sUjha umerIne ene aneka gaNo vistAryo. vaDIlonuM vAtsalya ane vizvAsa, samavayaskano prema ane potAnAthI nAnAno Adara ramaNabhAInI e 16

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moTI upalabdhi che. ramaNabhAIe jIvananA dareka kSetre potAnuM uttamottama yogadAna ApyuM. kuTuMba ke kaoNleja hoya, yunivarsiTI ke judI judI saMsthAo hoya, maMDaLa, adhyayana ke adhyApana, pravAsa, pravacana ke lekhana hoya, N.C.C. ke samAjasevAno koI prazna hoya. te dareka mATe temaNe mana mUkIne svayaM mahenata laIne saccAIpUrvaka kAma karyuM che. kyAMya UNapa, adhUrapa ke kacAza na rahe e mATe khUba prayatnazIla rahetA. tethI temanuM dareka kAma saMpUrNa, samucita ane suyaza apAvanAruM thayuM che. enAM ghaNAM kAraNo che. N.C.C.nI lazkarI tAlImane lIdhe zista, svAvalaMbIpaNuM ane apramattabhAva temanAmAM Avyo. jaina dharmanA abhyAsa, dharmaArAdhanA ane ciMtanapradhAna prakRtinA kAraNe temanAmAM jAgRti, kartavyaniSThA ane vyApaka karuNAbhAva Avyo. mAtApitAnA saMskAra ane pUrvajanmanA puNyodayane kAraNe temanA dareka kAryamAM sArAM pariNAma AvyAM. . dareka pravRtti ane paristhitimAM kaMIka zubha ane kalyANakArI tattva jovAnI dRSTine ane vicAraNAne kAraNe, kaMIka phaLadAyI karavAnI bhAvanAthI saMghanI pravRttimAM ramaNabhAI navuM navuM umeratA gayA. dareka taba temaNe saMghanA vikAsano vicAra karyo. paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM jaina dharmanA dareka phIrakAnA ane anya dharmanA sAdhusaMto, paMDito, vidvAnone AmaMtraNa ApatA. jIvananA vividha kSetre karuNAnI pravRttio, asthi sAravAra, netrayajJo, cAmaDInA rogonI sAravAra uparAMta Arthika rIte jarUriyAtamaMdane rAhata maLe tevI yojanAo uparAMta saMskAralakSI pravRttio, saMgIta. vastRtvakalA, zikSaNa-sAhitya-arthazAstra, rAjakAraNa vagere viSayonI vividha vyAkhyAna zreNI, pustaka prakAzana vagere cAlu karyA. A sarva pravRttimAM sahu sabhyonI saMmati ane sahakAra temane maLyA. kamiTInA sabhyono utsAhapUrvakano sahakAra, keTalAka kAmanI javAbadArI levAnI tatparatA, cIvaTathI kAma karavAnI taiyArI, pravRtti mATe phaMDa ekaThuM karavAnI temanI takedArI vagerethI ramaNabhAInuM kAma saraLa banatuM. kamiTImAM ekarUpatA ane kartavyaparAyaNatAnuM vAtAvaraNa rahetuM. pramukhasthAnethI nivRtta thayA pachI paNa A pravRttio cAlu rahI. AvI lokopayogI ane uttama pravRttione kAraNe saMsthAnI chabI vadhu ujvaLa thatI gaI. saMsthAnA vikAsanI sAthe sAthe ane saMsthAnA kAraNe ramaNabhAIno potAno vikAsa ghaNo thayo. prabuddha jIvananA agralekhonA nimitte sAhitya ane dharmano UMDo abhyAsa thayo. te temanA cAritryavikAsamAM madadarUpa thayo. karuNAnA kAmane lIdhe judI judI saMsthAono pratyakSa paricaya thayo, tethI karuNAnAM kayAM ane kevAM kAma karavA jevAM che, temanA manamAM tenI vicAraNA satata thatI rahetI. yuvaka saMghamAM "dIpacaMda tribhovanadAsa TrasTamAM chapAyelAM temanAM jaina 16

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dharmaviSayaka pustako, prabuddha jIvana', jaina dharmanI keseTa deza-paradeza pahoMcyAM, jethI temano prazaMsaka varga ane temanuM mitravartuLa vikasatuM gayuM. jaina yuvaka saMghanI pravRtti viSayaka vicAro ramaNabhAInA jIvanamAM agrasthAne rahetA. jema ramaNabhAInA hRdayamAM A saMsthA agrasthAne hatI tema saMsthAnA hRdayamAM ramaNabhAI Aje paNa jIvaMta che. saMsthAe ramaNabhAI mATenA ananya, akhUTa prema, lAgaNI, ane katajJabhAva vyakta karavA tathA ramaNabhAInI smRti jALavavA eka vizALa samAraMbhanuM Aje Ayojana karyuM che te dhanyavAdane pAtra che. AvI satata vikAsazIla saMsthA sAtheno saMbaMdha e amArA parivAra mATe gaurava ane dhanyatAno anubhava che. ramaNabhAI sahunA hatA ane sahunAM hRdayamAM temanuM premabharyuM sthAna che te jANIne AnaMdanI, kRtArthatAnI lAgaNI ane anubhavIe chIe. A samAraMbhane saphaLa banAvavA ghaNI vyaktioe potAnI zakti siMcI che, saddabhAvapUrvaka samaya Apyo che teno vicAra karIe tyAre kRtajJa bhAvathI, AbhArathI te sahune amAruM mastaka name che. kono kono AbhAra mAnuM ? sahu prathama AbhAra parama hitakArI paramAtmAno jeNe mArA pati DaoN. ramaNabhAIne aDhaLaka bhAva darzAvanArAM AvAM snehIjano ApyA. AbhAra zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanI pUrva kAryavAhaka samitinA sabhyo temaja saMghanA sabhyono ane vizeSataH vartamAna kAryavAhaka samitinA padAdhikArIo, pramukha zrI rasikalAla laheracaMda zAha, upapramukha zrI caMdrakAMtabhAI zAha, maMtrIo - zrImatI nirubahena zAha, zrI dhanavaMtabhAI zAha, sahamaMtrI zrI varSAbahena zAha, koSAdhyakSa zrI bhUpendrabhAI jhaverIno ane samitinA anya sabhyo temaja saMghanA sarva sabhyono, jemanA saddabhAvabharyA nirNaya ane tene anurUpa kAryavAhIne kAraNe A prasaMganuM ane graMthonuM nirmANa thayuM. AbhAra trizalA IlekTroniksanA sUtradhAra zrI zAMtibhAI ane zrI mahendrabhAIno jemaNe yuvaka saMghanI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM DaoN. ramaNabhAIe ApelAM vyAkhyAnonI keseTo uparAMta upalabdha anya keseTo samAvI laIne DaoN. ramaNabhAInAM vyAkhyAnonI sI.DI. taiyAra karI. "prabuddha jIvananA navembaranA zraddhAMjali aMka ane jAnyuArInA smaraNAMjali aMkamAM saMdezA mokalanAra ane ramaNabhAIne AdarAMjali ApatA lekho mATe pU. sAdhu-sAdhvI samudAya, saMto, svajano, vaDIlo, mitro, vidyArthI bhAI-bahenono AbhAra mAnuM eTalo ocho che. te sahunA aMtastalamAMthI premanA prazaMsAnA, guNAnurAganA, kRtajJatAnA bhAvo kevA chalakAya che ! vizeSataH DaoN. kumArapALa desAIno sahu prathama ramaNabhAInA jIvananI 17

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laMbANathI vigato ApI gujarAta ane muMbaInAM vartamAnapatromAM zraddhAMjali lekha ApavA mATe. kRtajJabhAve sahuno AbhAra. AbhAra cha graMthonA vidvAna saMpAdako - prA. zrI jazavaMta zekhaDIvALA, DaoN. pravINabhAI darajI, Do. hasubhAI yAjJika, DaoN. jitendrabhAI zAha, Do. prasAdabhAI brahmabhaTTa jemaNe DaoN. ramaNabhAInA vizALa sAhityano abhyAsa karI premathI parizrama laI A cha graMthonuM saMpAdanakArya karyuM. AbhAra "zrutaupAsaka ramaNabhAI' graMtha mATe sahAya karanAra traNa saMpAdakabaheno zrImatI nirubahena zAha, zrImatI puSpAbahena parIkha, zrImatI uSAbahena zAhano. AbhAra "zrataupAsaka ramaNabhAI' graMthanA mukhya saMpAdaka vidvAna pro. kAntibhAI paTelano. pustakane suMdara ane gauravaprada banAvavA jarUrI badhI vigatono vicAra ane kAryavAhI karavA mATe ane prastAvanA lakhavA mATe. AbhAra saMghanI mudraNa kamiTino - mudraNa mATe jarUrI taiyArI mATe. AbhAra zrI javAharabhAI zuklano, have jeo amArAmAMnA eka che - bhAvathI ane kAryathI. zraddhAMjali ane smaraNAMjali aMkonA lekhone ekatra karI zrutaupAsaka ramaNabhAI graMtha taiyAra karavA mATe. chellI ghaDInA pheraphAro ane sUcanone udArabhAve sahI, svIkArI, zramapUrvaka suMdara kAma karI ApavA mATe. snehI zrI mohanabhAI doDecA jemaNe graMthonA suMdara ane suyogya mukhapRSTha karI ApyAM ane chabIonI goThavaNI mATe yogya mArgadarzana ApyuM e mATe eozrIno aMta:karaNapUrvaka AbhAra mAnuM chuM. AbhAra mi. sAMInAtha, ajitA ane anya karmacArIgaNano merethona grU5) athAga mahenata laI phoTA ane citro skena karavA ane citronI suMdara goThavaNI karI ApavA mATe. zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanA ophisa sTAphane to kema bhulAya ? sahuno hRdayapUrvaka AbhAra. saMghanA menejara zrI mathurAdAsabhAI TAMka jemaNe pustako ane prasaMgane saphaLa banAvavA mATe khUba jahemata laI, jarUra paDye musApharI paNa karI ane ucita kAryavAhI karIne tanatoDa mahenata karI e mATe emano hRdayapUrvaka AbhAra. saMghanA karmacArIgaNa zrI jayAbahena vIrA, zrI azoka palasamakara, harIcaraNa, manasukhabhAI vagerenI niSThAbharI mahenata ane sahakAra mATe paNa AbhAra. AbhAra Do. gulAbabhAI deDhiyAno - jyAre paNa jarUra paDe tyAre nikaTanA svajanabhAve yogya sUcano ane mArgadarzana mATe. AbhAra putrI sau. zailajA ane jamAI zrI cetanabhAIno. yogya sUcano, mArgadarzana ane athAka mahenata mATe. prasaMga ane pustaka mATe jarUrI sAmagrI ekaThI 9s

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karavI, jarA paNa UNapa ke kacAza na rahe, dareka vastu yathAyogya ane saMpUrNa rIte saphaLa bane tenI takedArI rAkhavI vagere kAryo atyaMta niSThApUrvaka, pitRtarpaNanI umadA bhAvanAthI ane bhaktibhAvathI karavA mATe. AvA ja bhAvathI amArA putra amitAbha ane putravadhu surabhi amerikAthI yogya sUcano mokalatAM rahyAM, temane kema bhUluM ? AbhAra, zrImad rAjacaMdra Azrama, dharamapuranA praNetA pU. Do. rAkezabhAIno ane temanA viDIyo DipArTamenTano-vizeSataH bahena darzitA kApaDiyA, bhakti cheDA ane caitAlI mAladeno ane anya sahAyakono. DaoN. ramaNabhAI pratye avarNanIya Adara ane sanmAnanI lAgaNIthI prerAIne DaoN. rAkezabhAIe AnaMdathI, cIvaTathI, svayaM rasa laI potAnA AzramavAsIo pAse DaoN. ramaNabhAInA jIvana ane lekhana AdhArita viDiyo projekzana taiyAra karAvyAM. temanI sUjha-sahakAra, sabhAva mATe jeTalo AbhAra mAnuM teTalo ocho. zrutadevatA emanA para sadAya prasanna rahe. navembara 2005 ane jAnyuArI 2006nA DaoN. ramaNabhAI vizenA prabuddha jIvananA zraddhAMjali ane smaraNAMjali aMkonI sAmagrIthI ane e aMkomAM pragaTa thanAra sAta graMthonI jAherAtathI prabhAvita thaI DaoN. ramaNabhAInA snehI suzrAvaka zrI sI. ke. mahetAsAhebe graMthanA prakAzana mATe udArabhAve saMghane mAtabara rakamanI Arthika sahAya karI amane nizcita karI dIdhAM. emano AbhAra mAnavA mArI pAse zabdo nathI. AvA suzrAvaka para jinazAsananI kRpA varaso evI zubha bhAvanA. sauthI pahelo jemano AbhAra mAnavo joIe temano sauthI chello mAnuM chuM te amArA yuvaka saMghanA utsAhI maMtrI ane amArAM bannenA svajana - amArA nAnA bhAI samA DaoN. dhanavaMtabhAI zAhano. Do. ramaNabhAInA 75mAM varSe pustakonA prakAzananI yojanA sahu prathama emaNe rajU karI. traNa varSo sudhI yAda karAvI ramaNabhAI pAse te AgrahapUrvaka maMjUra karAvI. avasara Avye potAnA atyaMta vyasta jIvanamAMthI samaya kADhI suMdara ane saMpUrNa rIte kArya saMpanna karyuM. ramaNabhAI pratyenA Adara ane ahobhAvathI prerAIne, Azcaryajanaka vaphAdArI sAthe, utsAhathI, kyAMya kacAza na rahe te lakSamAM rAkhIne kArya karyuM. temanA vinA A kArya zakya ja nahotuM. snehabhAve sAtha-sahakAra mATe temanAM patnI smitAbahenano paNa AbhAra. bhagavAna mahAvIranI kRpA sahu para varasI raho. tA. 15-8-2006 - tA. ramaNalAla zAha 301, trideva naM. 1, bhakti mArga, muluMDa pazcima), muMbaI-400080. 1 2

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saMpAdakIya caritrano madhapUDo (1) ramaNalAlanA dehAvasAnanA samAcAra jANyA. aMgata rIte mane ane mArA parivArane tethI khUba duHkha thayuM. kevuM Azcarya che ! huM ane ramaNalAla pratyakSa rIte maLyA nathI. chatAM amAro patravyavahAra sadA rahyo. temaNe temanAM moTA bhAganAM prakAzano paNa mane saMbhAvapUrvaka mokalyA karyA. prabuddhajIvana' paNa mane niyamitapaNe maLe. kyAreka temanA AgrahathI lekha paNa mokaluM. aMdarathI amAro Avo kAcA sUtaranA tAMtaNAno nAjuka prema. emanA mATe mane to bhAre Adara kharo ja, paNa temano snehabhAva paNa mArA mATe sAme eTalo ja. temanA dehAvasAnathI lAgyuM ke meM eka svajana gumAvyo, jainasamAje emano rAhabara gumAvyo, gujarAtI bhASAe eka bhASApremI ane sattva-tattva sabhara lekhaka gumAvyo ane pro. jazavaMta zekhaDIvALA jevA anekoe emano mitra gumAvyo. - hA, A jazavaMta zekhaDIvALAe ja AvA divasomAM phona karyo pravINabhAI, have ramaNabhAI nathI. emanA saMgrahomAMthI pAMca-cha jeTalAM saMpAdana karavAnAM che. tame, huM, hasu yAjJika, prasAda brahmabhaTTa vageree e kArya karavAnuM che. ramaNabhAInI paNa hayAta hatA tyAre tevI icchA hatI - ane meM phona upara tarata ja hA pADI. Do. dhanavaMtabhAI zAhano emAM prema umerAyo. tArAbahenanI emAM bhAvanA bhaLI ane Aje tamArI pAse temanAM uttama caritrono A je saMgraha che te tenuM pariNAma. A prakriyA ekasAthe ramaNalAlanA sarjanamAMthI pasAra thavAnuM banyuM e rIte AnaMdarUpA rahI, to bIjI rIte aneka dazAMgula ucca ke koIpaNa rIte vizeSarUpa evI vyaktionA saMparkamAM mukAvAnuM paNa banyuM. sAthe ramaNalAlanI khudanI bhAvasaMvedanAomAM paNa satata jhabakoLAvAnuM 20

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banyuM. mArA mATe to e ja sAcI upalabdhi che. (2) koIkane AvA saMpAdanamAM pravezatAM pUrve evo prazna thaI zake - caritranAM saMpAdanonI Aje prastutatA keTalI? ane AvA praznano uttara ApanAranI sAme pachI aneka bAbato sAme AvI rahe. udArIkaraNanA ApaNA samayamAM mANasa have dhIme dhIme enI svakIya kahI zakAya tevI oLakha gumAvato jAya che. miDiyA ane enI sAthe saMbaMdhita anya mAdhyamo mANasane have vadhu ane vadhu vAmaNo banAvatAM jAya che. aNuno parvata ane parvatano aNu - evI sthitinuM kaMIka avaLethI nirmANa thaI rahyuM che. sAhasa, preraNA, zaurya, nIti, sadAcAra, samudAratA, prema kazuMka uttama karavAnI dhagaza vagere divase divase ghaTatAM jAya che. mANasa pharIthI jANe ke mATInuM pUtaLuM ja hoya evuM siddha karavAnI spardhAmAM hoya evA divasonA ApaNe sau sAkSI banI rahyA chIe. AvI paristhitithI saveLA jAgI javA jevuM che. mANasane mANasa hovAnuM gaurava thAya, pote mANasa che tethI aneka dizAomAMthI zubhaMkara evuM pAmI manuSya tarIke vajanadAra DagaluM bharI Izvara taraphanI keDI prati gati kare, athavA uttama vyaktionuM smaraNa karatAM karatAM enI paNa evI dizA hoya - A ke AvuM kazuMka vAtAvaraNa racAya, pelA bajAru vikalponI sAme, kazAka nakkara vikalpo AvI maLe e have bahu jarUrI banyuM che. pazcimamAM chellAM thoDAMka varSomAM navalakathAkAra, nATyakAra AvI koI mathAmaNanA bhAgarUpe ja jIvanacaritro ke AtmakathAnI sAmagrIno vadhu ne vadhu lAbha leto jovA maLe che. AvI kRtio paricita athavA ochI paricita vyaktinA saMgharSamaya, nATyakSama kSaNonI Avana-jAvanavALA prasaMgone kAraNe ke mAnavasahaja nirbaLa kSaNonAM temAM AvatAM varNanone laIne te vAMcavA tarapha vizeSa rUpe vaLe che, tenI sAthe potAnA jIvanano tALo meLave che, potAnAM alano mATe AzvAsana le che. to pelA caritra ke AtmakathAnA nAyake svaprayatna je kaMI saMsiddha karavA mAge apanAvyA che, potAnA jIvanane kasoTInI sarANe caDhAvI che - tevuM pelo vAcaka paNa kyAreka karavA prayatna kare che. kaho ke peluM caritra ke AtmakathA tenA mATe preraNApIyUSa banI rahe che. navI peDhI sAme potAnI oLakha mATe, manuSya zuM che, kevo hovo joIe vagerenAM sAdAM samIkaraNonI jANa mATe AvuM sAhitya ghaNIbadhI rIte poSakabreraka banI rahe tema che. e rIte sAhityanAM anya svarUpone mukAbale tathya-satya-vAstavane potAnI UMDaLamAM laIne vizeSa rUpe koI svarUpa vadhu vikasatuM, UchaLI AvatuM jaNAtuM hoya to te caritra ke AtmakathA che. sAdI bhASAmAM kahIe

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to zUnyamAMthI sarjana karanArA mANaso tema kema karI zakyA, rogagrasto rogamAMthI mukta thaI laDavaiyA-sazakta vyakti kema banI zakyA, skhalanono bhoga banela mANasa temAMthI bahAra nIkaLI moTI vyakti kevI rIte thaI zakyo, athavA nirdhana mANasa saMgharSomAMthI potAnA jIvanane kevI rIte ghaDI zakyo vagere vagere bAbato AvAM caritro ke AtmakathA vAMcatAM samajAya. vyakticaritro e rIte taMdurasta samAja ke taMdurasta vyaktinirmANa mATe 'Tonika' banI rahe che. temAM kalpanA nathI vAstava che. paNa e evuM vAstava che je Stranger than fiction puravAra thAya. ahIM AvI vividha kSetranI keTalIka vyaktionAM sughaDa caritro ApaNane je te vyaktivizvamAM to praveza karAve che ja paNa sAthe sAthe e vyakti sAthe anusaMdhita anya vizvomAM paNa romaharSaNa padArpaNa karAve che. AvuM vAMcana judI judI vaya-kakSAnI vyaktio mATe AnaMdanI sAthe preraNA paNa pUrI pADanAra banI rahe che. navI peDhI sAme Aje AvuM caritra-AtmakathAtmaka vadhu ne vadhu prastuta karavuM paDe tevA divasomAMthI jagata pasAra thaI rahyuM che. e rIte AvA saMpAdananI mahattA svayaM vadhI jAya che. (3) 'ciratra' ane enA lekhaka pAsethI ghaNI badhI apekSAo rakhAtI hoya che. emAM kyAreka jANItI vyaktionI kathanI hoya che to kyAreka bhAgye ja jANItI hoya tevI, koI khUNAmAMthI UMcakAI AvatI vyaktio paNa hoya che. alabatta, e vyakti potAnI rIte 'viziSTa' hovI ghaTe. temAM vRttAMta to che paNa temAM caDhAvautAra paNa eTaluM ja mahattva dharAve che. bhItara-bahArane prakaTa kare tevI kSaNo prasaMgonuM paNa emAM mAhAtmya rahyuM che. pelA vikasatA, pallavita thatA AtmAnI chabI paNa eTalI ja agatyanI. sAthe pArzvabhUmAM piravAra, samAja paNa atratatra UghaDatAM rahe. AvuM citraNa sapATa na hoya, kaLAmaya hoya. uddeza bhale vIrapUjAno hoya, mAnavaabhyAsano, anubhavabodhano ke svajanapremano hoya paNa caritramAM evuM kazuMka hovuM joIe jethI vAcakane rasa paDe, e vaDe satyAMzo, jIvanAMzo ujAgara thatA hoya. navalarAma caritranA lekhana mATe satya, zodha, viveka, varNana - e cAre vAnAMne anivArya lekhe che. ane e sAcuM paNa che. zAstrIyatA eno pAyo che to sarjanAtmakatA tenuM gaMtavya che. A rIte citralekhana kaMIka agharI bAbata banI jAya che. bajANiyo jo saMtulana rAkhavAmAM niSphaLa jAya to te paDyo ja jANo. evuM ja ahIM ciratrasAhityamAM che. kevaLa zAstrIyatA hoya to te na cAle tema kevaLa sarjanAtmakatA hoya ane zAstrIyatAno abhAva hoya to te paNa nirvAhya na 22

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bane. baMnenuM rucira saMtulana ja uttama caritranuM nirmANa kare. evuM caritra ja vAcaka mATe naitika asara UbhI karI zake, vAcaka prerakabodha pAmI zake, potAnA jIvananA koIka baMdha kamADane ughADavAno te kImiyo zIkhI zake. ramaNalAlanAM A badhAM caritrono vicAra karIe chIe tyAre navalarAmakathita pelAM satya, zodha, viveka ane varNananI zarato to paLAtI jovA maLe che ja paNa ramaNalAlanAM A caritronI ghATI kaMIka judI che. ema paNa kahI zakAya ke rUDha arthamAM je caritro maLe che tenAthI A caritronI bhAta thoDIka judI che. e bhAta ramaNalAlI che. kaho ke A caritro ramaNalAlanI potAnI cAlanAe lakhAyelAM che. jude jude samaye temaNe jude jude starethI AvAM caritrone AkArita karavAno prayatna karyo che. emanA evA Azayane lakSamAM laIne ja prastuta saMgrahanAM caritrone jovAM rahe. jemake berarathI brigeDiyaramAM teo noMdhe che tema, temAM AtmalakSI prakAranA aMgata anubhavo sAthe rekhAcitro ane TUMkI vArtAno samanvaya karavAno prayoga karyo che. satya ghaTanAtmaka vastu to tyAM che ja, sAthe apekSita sarjanAtmakatA paNa tyAM che. to temanAM keTalAMka caritro zraddhAMjali-lekho rUpe banI AvyAM che. khAsa karIne sAhityakAro, keLavaNIkAro, samAjasevako vagerenAM caritromAM kaMIka evI chAMTa jovA maLe che. keTalAMka sAdhu-sAdhvI, saMta, satI uparanAM caritro paNa zraddhAMjalinA nimitte lakhAyAM che. ramaNalAlano jIvanarasa aneka mArgomAM vaheto rahyo che. aneka vyaktionA saMparkamAM tethI teo AvyA che, temanAthI prabhAvita thayA che, keTalAkanI sAthe ghaniSTha saMbaMdha paNa baMdhAyo che. potAnA ghaDataranI bhUmikA paNa temAM teo jue che. evA vyaktitvomAMthI prasaMgopAtta teo preraNA paNa pAmatA rahyA che. keTalIka vyaktio sAthe ema teo hRdayathI paNa joDAyelA rahyA che. A rIte ahIM teo je kaMI lakhe che temAM temano jIvaMta saMparka, aMgata sparza, pelo hRdayasaMbaMdha, teno prabhAva vagere vagere vAMcI zakAya. teo tethI pelI caritra koSTakanI rekhAo toDI jIvananI rUparekhA ke sAhityanI mulavaNI karatAM aMgata prasaMgone temAM vizeSa sthAna Ape che. e rIte A caritro sAdI bhASAmAM kahevuM hoya to ramaNalAlIya caritro che. temanI AMkhe ane AtmAe ApaNe je te vyaktio ne temanAM caritrone pAmavAnAM rahe che. emanI sarjanavADImAM Ama to bhAta bhAtanAM caritrapuSpo che. e puSponI maheka mANavI game tevI che. paNa ahIM A caritragraMthamAM pRSThamaryAdAne kAraNe e saghaLuM ekasAthe ApavuM zakya nahotuM. tethI ahIM madhamAkhI jevo khela karyo che. madhamAkhI 23

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jema aneka puSpono rasa mANI madhapUDo bAMdhIne saghaLAno eka sthaLe amRtasvAda karAve che tevuM ja kaMIka ahIM pasaMda karelAM thoDAMka caritro vize paNa kahI zakAya. paNa eno rasa cAkhyA pachI ramaNalAlanI caritravADInA badhA ja saMketo ApaNane maLI rahe che. gujarAtI caritrasAhityamAM teno lekhaka potAno Agavo pATalo te vaDe nakhAvI zake tevuM A caritronuM sattva-vitta che te paNa A vAMcatAM samajAze. (5) A caritragraMthamAM samAviSTa karelAM prathama ATha caritro eka yA bIjA svarUpe prAtaH smaraNIya lekhI zakAya tevI vibhUtionAM che. pUjanIya jaina sAdhu-sAdhvI-saMtonuM vicA2karma ane jIvanakarma temAM zabdastha thayuM che. AvAM caritronI vizeSatA e che ke temAM kevaLa prasaMga-mAhitI ke ghaTanAo ja che evuM nathI. paNa evI ghaTanAoprasaMgonI paDache caritranAyaka ke nAyikAnuM bAhya sAthe AMtara vyaktitva kevI samujvalatA sAthe prakAze che ane teno prabhAva anuyAyI ke bhAvika bhakto u52, jaina saMpradAya u52 kevo paDe che te paNa hadya rIte darzAvyuM che. sAthe A prakA2nAM caritromAM lekhakanuM sAttvika, bhAvanAparAyaNa, jaina muniono Adara-vaMdana-praNAma karatuM vyaktitva paNa phoratuM rahe che. kaho ke dharmapuruSonAM A caritro lakhavA khAtara lakhAyAM nathI. dharmatattvanA jJAtA, jijJAsu evA ramaNalAlano hRdayaspaMda paNa temAM satata kaMpa anubhavyA kare che. je A prakAranAM caritrone sucAru rUpa ApI rahe che. zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAjanA ciratramAM lekhake temanA sUri thatAM pUrvenA jIvananI ghaTanAone sa-2sa rIte varNavI che. kaNabI komamAM bahecaradAsa nAme janmelA ane pAchaLathI dIkSA laI jainadharmanA moTA pravartaka tarIke oLakhAyelA ane buddhisAgarasUri tarIke paMkAyelA - A mahAna AtmAne temaNe aneka nAnI-nAnI vigatothI maMDita karyo che. temano jIvanakrama, temanI zikhAmaNo, temanA vizenA camatkAro, temanI abhyAsaparAyaNatA, temanuM vastraparidhAna, vyAkhyAnazakti, sarvadharma pratyeno temano samabhAva - e sarvanI eka sugaThita chabI ahIM UpasI rahI che. ramaNalAlanI vArtAkathanazaktino lAbha A caritrane ThIka ThIka maLyo che. upalabdha sAmagrIne vivekapuraHsa2 rajU karavAnuM lekhakanuM kauzala ane e vaDe apekSita caritrarekhAone pratyakSa karI ApatuM gadya buddhisAgarasUrinA vyaktitvane sajIva banAvI rahe che. saMsAranI asAratAne AraMbhathI ja pAmI cUkelA paMjAbanA kRpArAma zrIvRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja tarIke kramazaH nijane kevI rIte utkrAnta karatA rahe che, jinapratimAmAM temanI zraddhA kevI dRDha bane che, vividha sthaLe jatAM bALako upara temano 24

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kevo prabhAva vistare che, temanI madhura bhASA, daMbhano pardAphAza karI dharmapipAsuone samyak dharmadarzana kevI asarakArakatAthI karAvatA vagere vagerenAM hRdya citro ahIM UpasyAM che. pAThazALAo cAlu karavAnI, jainadharmaprasAra saMsthAo UbhI karavI, jainadharma prakAza' pathano AraMbha karavo vagere aneka bAbato paNa ahIM ciratramAM samucita rIte ullekhAI che. zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja ciratra ema suvAcya sAthe rasAvaha banyuM che. zrI vijayarAmacaMdrasUri mahArAjA ciratra paNa evuM ja rasALa banyuM che. ciratranAyakane pAdarAmAM bAlyakALathI ja jainadharmanuM pavitra vAtAvaraNa kevI rIte maLyuM hatuM, dIkSA mATe potAnAM navAM kapaDAM paNa kAtarathI phADI nAkhavA kevI rIte taiyAra thayA hatA, dIkSA pachI temanuM hRdayadravya ane hRdayasattva kevI kAMti dhAraNa kare che, devadravya, bALadIkSA, vyavahAru keLavaNI, samAjasudhAro, tithicaryAM vagere viSayomAM temanuM ciMtana-vimarzana kevuM AgavuM hatuM vagere aneka bAbatono gumpha zrI viyarAmacaMdrasUri mahArAjanA caritrane gatizIla banAve che. 'pU.zrI puNyavijayajI mahArAja'nuM caritra paNa AsvAdya banyuM che. mahArAjazrI tarIke jANItA thayA te pUrvenuM kapaDavaNajanuM maNilAla nAmadhArI bALajIvana, parivArano pariveza, sAdhujIvana pachInI mahArAjazrInI vinamratA, temanI nAjuka tabiyata ane tenA prazno, vAtsalyasabhara vANI, madhura svaranA prabhAvaka vArtAlApo A badhuM ahIM yazavakAze sahaja rIte prasphurita thatuM rahyuM che. mahArAjazrInA aMgata saMbaMdha-saMparke lekhakano temanA pratino sAcakalo premabhAva paNa ahIM racanAnA eka bhAgarUpe sAdyaMta pravahato jaNAya che. pU. zrI tattvAnaMdavijayajI mahArAja paNa lagabhaga dharmapuruSonAM u52 joyelAM caritronI ghATIe ja lakhAyeluM eka vadhu suvAcya ane sAphasUtharuM ciratra che. ahIM paNa pU. tattvAnaMdavijyanA pUrvajIvananI mAMDIne vAta thaI che. paccIsa varSanI uMmare dIkSA laI, dIkSApUrve ATheka bhASAomAM temanuM kevuM prabhutva hatuM te darzAvyuM che. navakAramaMtranuM temaNe potIkI rIte arthaghaTana karI teno sUkSma marmakoza kevI rIte chato karI Apyo hato tenI ahIM noMdha lIdhI che. to temanI yogavidyA vizenI, pUrvAbhAsa vizenI paNa keTalIka aMgata kahI zakAya tevI vAto lekhake jAtaanubhavane AdhAre bhAvapUrvaka AlekhI che. - 'zrI ajarAmarasvAmI' caritra paNa preraka banyuM che. dharmakSetre aneka kAryo karanAra ane jaina temaja aneka bhAratIya darzanonA abhyAsI, nAnapaNamAM ja AkhuM pratikramaNa moDhe karI nAkhanAra, goMDalanareza paNa jemanA dIkSAsamAohamAM upasthita rahyA hatA, maMtrataMtranA jANakAra, Agama zAstronA UMDA abhyAsI, saMpradAyamAM 25

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vyApelI zithilatAne dUra karanAra, sa2La-namra, vatsala, madhura evA ajarAmaranI muni tarIkenI-sAdhaka tarIkenI ahIM spRhaNIya chabI UpasI che. jaina-jaineta2 saune sarakho Adara rahyo che evA ajarAmara svAmInuM citra-caritra ahIM vAghA pArekha jevA prasaMgomAM sarasa rIte uThAva pAme che. yugadivAkara tarIke sukhyAta pU.zrI vijayadharmasUrijI mahArAjanuM caritra paNa sau koIne preraka bane tevuM, jIvanane unnata kare tevuM banyuM che. jainazAstronuM temanuM UMDuM adhyayana, temanuM hAjarajavAbIpaNuM, dareka vyakti mATe temano aMgata rasabhAva, vividha bhASAo uparanuM temanuM asAdhAraNa prabhutva, duSkALa, relarAhata vagere kAryomAM temanI agresaratA, bhAI nAdurasta tabiyata chatAM yazovijyajI mahArAja ane jyAnaMdavijyajI mahArAjane AcAryanI padavI ApavAnA prasaMgamAM morArajI sAthe temanI upasthiti, caritralekhaka sAthenA temanA aMgata AtmIya saMbaMdho vagere aneka bAbato ahIM sahaja rUpe gUMthAtI Ave che, ahIM samAntare caritranAyaka ane caritranA Alekhaka baMne vAcaka sAme ramya rIte-rUpe UghaDatA rahe che je A caritrano kaMIka vizeSa paNa che. pU. zrI mRgAvatIzrIjI mahArAja e tejasvI sAdhvIratna mRgAvatIzrIjInuM suMdara caritra che. dezabharanA prabuddha janomAM temanuM nAma AdarabhAvathI levAtuM AvyuM che. paMDita sukhalAlajI, paMDita becaradAsajI, paMDita dalasukhabhAI mAlavaNiyA vagere pAse bhASA, vyAkaraNa, koza, Agama vagere graMthono temaNe abhyAsa karyo hato. temanAmAM vyAvahArika ane AdhyAtmika ema baMne prakAranA ucca sadguNono subhaga samanvaya thayelo hato. sAMpradAyika saMkucitatAthI teo ghaNe dUra hatAM, to pradezabheda paNa temanAmAM ratIbhAra nahoto. sau tarapha teo mAna-sanmAnanI bhAvanAthI jotAM. hAthe vaselI khAdI ja paridhAna karatAM. sAdagI ane saMyamanI teo sAkSAta mUrti samAM hatAM. mRgAvatIjInuM samagra vyaktitva prema ane kalyANanA srot samuM hatuM. ciratranA Alekhakane to temanA nidhanathI mAtA gumAvyAnuM duHkha thAya e svAbhAvika che, paNa sAthe varNana-nirUpaNeya evuM sacoTa thayuM che ke sahRdaya bhAvaka paNa tevI ja lAgaNI anubhave. jaina saMpradAyamAM kevAM kevAM uttama sAdhvIratno haze tenI kalpanA vAcaka A namUnedAra ciratra uparathI paNa karI zake. ramaNalAlanAM A prakAranAM, dharmAvalaMbI sAdhu-sAdhvIonAM caritromAM, je te caritranAyakanuM sarvasparzI ne niHzeSa citraNa thayeluM jovA maLe che. AvAM ciratronuM nimitta vyaktinuM mRtyu hoya ke anya kazuM paNa te nAyaka-nAyikAnA pUrvAzramanuM citra paNa saMkSepamAM upasAvI Ape che. pachI uttarottara tevI sAdhutA kevI dIpti prakaTa karatI rahe che, tenA kevA kevA nUtana dharma-jIvana-samAja-lokakalyANa saMdarbhe AyAmo 26

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rahyA che te badhuM kramazaH prakaTa kare che ane aMte tenA vaMdanIya svarUpa sAthe caritrane ATopI le che. temanuM lakSya ema samRddha sAdhutAnuM darzana karAvavAnuM rahe che. AvAM caritro mAtra jaina samAja mATe ja nahi, anya samAja mATeya eTalAM ja mahattvanAM ane mananarUpa banyAM che. ramaNalAlanuM potAnuM paNa saraLa, dharmaparaka, guNAnurAgI ane bhAvuka vyaktitva A sarva caritrone nimitte anAyAsa khIlatuM AvyuM che e paNa AvAM ciratronI eka ADa upalabdhi che. jainavicAradhArA sAthe ke tattva sAthe saMkaLAyela bhAvako mATe ramaNalAlanAMsthaLasaMkocane kAraNe ahIM na laI zakAyelAM-anya caritro paNa eTalAM ja vicArakSama ne preraNAdAyI bane tevAM che. zrI vIratiyajI mahArAja', 'zrI vijyanemisUri mahArAja' jevAM pramANamAM dIrgha kahI zakAya tevAM ciratro athavA to pU. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAja, pU. zrI kuMdakuMdasUrijI mahArAja, pU. zrI guNasAgarasUrijI mahArAja', 'zrI zAMtisAgarasUri mahArAja', 'gaNivarya zrI muktivijayajI', 'zrI mohanalAlajI mahArAja temaja 'zrI AnaMdasAga2sUra mahArAja' vagere caritro ramaNalAlanI ciratralekhanazaktinI sAthe sAthe satpuruSo ke sAdhu paratvenI temanI AsthA-zraddhAnAM paNa sUcaka che. ciratralekhanamAM teo kazuM AMjI nAkhavA mATe nahi paNa zraddhAaMkuraNa mATe, utkrAnta thatA cAritryanA mahimA mATe ghaTanA-prasaMgono Azaro le che ne ema karavA jatAM parokSapaNe lekhakanI bhItara vahetuM sAdhutAnuM jharaNuM paNa khaLakhaLa vahetuM jAya che. pariNAme vAcaka eka nahi be vyaktithI bhIMjAto Avato hoya tevuM ekAdhika caritromAM banyuM che. (6) ramaNalAlanAM caritro temanA vyaktitvanAM tema temanA vaividhyasabhara 2sakSetranAM paNa ghotaka che. teo jaina hovA chatAM, jaina philasUphInA jJAtA hovA chatAM, tenA mATe temano bhArobhAra Adara hovA chatAM teo koI cokkasa parighamAM purAtA nathI. teo pUrepUrA khullA mananA (open minded) che, sAthe jIvananAM saghaLAM vAnAM sAthe temanI nisabata rahI che. vidhiniSedhomAM te phasAtA nathI. jyAM jIvana che tyAM teo sarva bAbatono svIkAra kare che. kazAthI aspRSTa rahevAnuM temane phAvyuM nathI. kaho ke ramaNalAla jIvananI sakalakalAno svIkAra kare che. tethI ja kadAca temanA caritranAyako paNa vividha kSetromAMthI UMcakAtA AvyA che. jo jainanA prabhAvaka sthaviro temane AkarSe che to rAjakAraNa, sevAkAraNa ke ramatakAraNamAM paDelI vyaktionuM paNa te teTaluM ja kheMcANa anubhave che. e prakAranI vyaktionI sAthe temanA aMgata saMbaMdho paNa rahyA che. pariNAme evAM caritro vAcaka mATe keTalAMka 27

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navya vizvone udghATita karI Ape che. sAthe 2maNalAlanuM badhAmAM chevaTe to mAnavakAraNa sAthe sagapaNa rahyuM che e vAta paNa emAMthI tarI Ave che. mo2A2jI desAI'mAM ramaNalAle aMgata anubhavanA havAlA ApI morArajI desAInA bahukoNIya vyaktitvane, saMkSiptamAM chatAM temanI mahattvanI tamAma khAsiyato sameta, suspaSTa karI ApyuM che. naheru-indirA sAthe temanA saMbaMdho, vaDApradhAnapade temanI kAmagIrIne muzkelI, DAMga vizeno prazna, kaTokaTI, temanuM jiddI valaNa, nisargopacAra ane jyotiSa vageremAM temanI zraddhA, vartamAnapatronA vAcanamAM temanI niyamitatA, vaDApradhAnapadethI rAjInAmuM vagere aneka bAbatone A lekhake sarasa rIte gUMthI lIdhI che to morArajIbhAInA vyaktitvamAM rahelI niSThuratAnI paNa temaNe nirbhIka rIte noMdha lIdhI che. suvarNadhAro, gujarAtanuM vibhAvana vagere prasaMgonuM temaNe yogya saMdarbhe smaraNa karyuM che. cImanabhAI cakubhAI zAha uparanuM caritra paNa evuM ja rocaka banI rahyuM che. dhArAzAstrI tarIke, baMdhAraNa sabhAnA sabhya tarIke, ciMtaka ane ciMtanazIla lekhaka temaja kuzaLa vaktA tarIke ema temanAM aneka pAsAM lekhake ahIM prastuta karyAM che. cImanabhAInA dehatyAganI aMtima kSaNonuM varNana lekhake saraLa chatAM asarakAraka gadyamAM karyuM che. 'mahAna mAnavI' liMkana uparanA caritragraMthamAMno saMkSipta aMza che. chatAM A nAnA aMzamAM liMkananA jIvanamAM pravartatAM virodhI baLonI khUbIpUrvaka noMdha levAI che. liMkananuM samagra vyaktitva ahIM e saMketomAMthI sarasa rIte beThuM thatuM jaNAya che. vijya maracanTa uparanuM caritra judI rIte yAdagAra banI rahe che. ahIM krikeTajagatanI moTI hastInuM vyakti tarIke kevuM mUlya rahyuM hatuM, garIbonI sevA mATenI temanI laganI kevI hatI, apaMgo mATenI temanI kAmagIrI kevI rahI hatI vagere sAthe krikeTamAM paNa teo kevA kheladila ane siddhAMtavAdI hatA te samucita rIte darzAvyuM che ane ema vijaya maracanTanI siddhAMtaniSThA ne sahRdaya vyakti tarIkenI eka rasabhara chabI teo aMkita karI Ape che. - A cAreya caritro pramANamAM TUMkAM ane sacoTa banI AvyAM che. vibhinna kSetranI vyaktio vize lakhatAM ramaNalAlanuM khudanuM bhAtIgaLa raMgovALuM vizva paNa achatuM rahetuM nathI. rAjakAraNa vize te morArajIbhAI ke liMkanane miSe lakhatA hoya tyAre spaSTapaNe jyAM saMketa karavo jarUrI bane tyAM to te kare che ja paNa evA rAjakAraNa sAthe AvI vyaktionuM mAnavakA2Na kevuM upara rahe che, vyakti tarIke teo kevA suvAsita rahyA che te upara ja lekhaka vadhu to potAnuM dhyAna kendrita karatA jaNAya che. kaho ke caritrakAranuM kharuM kArya ja e che. mATInA loMdAmAMthI te sughaDa AkAra nirmANa karI Ape. lekhaka-ciMtaka-dhArAzAstrI cImanabhAI ke vijya 28

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maracanTa jevI anya kSetrIya vyaktionI rekhAo paNa lekhake ochAmAM ochA zabdomAM chatAM sovedha karI zakAya e rIte upasAvI ApI che. AvAM caritromAM caritrakAra kevA ane kayA aMzo upara bhAra mUke che, kaI vyaktirekhAne te ghATI karavA mAge che vagere bAbato paNa lakSamAM levI joIe. ramaNalAlanAM caritronI loMgazaoNTa-klojha zoTanI kImiyAgIrImAM emano point of view ema khAsa mahattvano banI rahe che. ahIM A prakAranAM ciratronI carcAne sameTI letAM pahelAM eka anya bAbata paNa noMdhavI rahI. ramaNalAle A sivAyanAM paNa A prakAranI keTalIka vyaktionAM sparzI rahe tevAM caritro ApyAM che. jemAM zeTha motI zAha uparanuM caritra khAsa ullekha mAgI le che. A vistRta caritramAM motI zAha dhanADhya hovA chatAM temanuM mAnavIya pAsuM keTaluM umadA-unnata hatuM te aneka prasaMgo vaDe caritrakAre sarasa rIte batAvyuM che. ciratranA aMte ciratranAyakanA sadguNone temaNe saghana zailImAM upasAvI ApyA che. AvAM anya caritromAM 'phAdhara bAlAge2', 'sva. mAnabhAI bhaTTa' ane 'DaoN. zivAnaMda adhvaryu' vagere caritrono vizeSa rUpe samAveza karI zakAya. ramaNalAlanI caritrakAranI zaktiono paNa temAM sAro evo hisAba maLI rahe che. (7) ApaNe joyuM ke 2maNalAlanAM rasa-rucinAM kSetro vyApaka che. emanI saMcetanAno saMsAra vibhinna vizvomAM joI zakAya che. paNa e sarvamAM hArDa ramaNalAla zikSaka ane sArasvata rahyA che. e zikSakatva ane sArasvatatva ja saMbhava che ke teone jIvananAM anya kSetromAM kheMcI gayAM che. sAco zikSaka ekAMgI na hoI zake. jyAM jyAM uttama nihALe, jyAM jyAM kazuM umadA-udAra ke saMskArasabhara jue tyAM tyAM te pahoMcI jAya. tene mANe-pAme, poSe ke pamarAve ne prakAzita paNa kare. paMDita sukhalAlajI', 'umAzaMkara jozI', 'caMdravadana mahetA", "jyotIndra dave', bacubhAI rAvata' vagere ahIM lIdhelAM keTalAMka ciratro e dizAmAM khAsa mANavA jevAM che. AvI vyaktio sAthe ramaNalAlanI potAnI AMta2cetanAnuM sUtra koIka ane koIka rUpe joDAyeluM hovAthI sAhityika rIte paNa AvAM ciratronI khullU kaMIka judI hovAno anubhava vAcakane thavAno. paMDita sukhalAlajI mAtra gujarAtI ja nahIM, bhAratanI eka mahAna dArzanika pratibhA che. vIsamI sadInAM jJAnakSetro temanA mATe gaurava laI zake tevuM temanuM ananya vyaktitva rahyuM che. ramaNalAle yogya rIte ja AvI virala pratibhAne caritranA viSaya tarIke pasaMda karI che. lekhake paMDita sukhalAlajI u52 eka vistRta caritra paNa ApyuM 29

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che. ahIM temanA bIjA saMkSipta caritrane pasaMda karyuM che. sukhalAlajInuM vatana vaDhavANa, netrajyotinuM vilIna thavuM, jaina sAdhuo tarapha temanuM vikalpa kheMcANa, kAzImAM saMskRtano vidyAbhyAsa, banArasa yunivarsiTImAM prAkRta-jainadharmanA vibhAgAdhyakSa tarIkenI temanI kAmagIrI, sukhalAlajI sAthe caritrakAranAM aMgata saMsmaraNo, saMbaMdhasaMparka, paMDitajI sAthe amadAvAdamAM caritralekhakanuM roja sAMje pharavA javuM, paMDitajInI zravaNazaktinI ekAgratA, baLavAkhora paMDita tarIkenI sukhalAlajInI chabI, vayodharma vizenI paMDitajInI samaja, paMDitajInuM vAtsalya, temanI niraMtaranI vidyopAsanA, mRtyu vizeno paMDitajIne thayelo aNasAra vagere aneka bAbatone sAMkaLIne paMDitajInI ahIM eka akhaMDa chabI caritrakAra upasAvI Ape che. A chabI hRdayasparzI banI che. umAzaMkara jozI uparanuM caritra paNa evuM ja zraddheya ane rasALa banyuM che. caritralekhake sAcI rIte ja umAzaMkarane AMtarabhAratIya ane AMtararASTrIya kSetre khyAta evA kavi, vivecaka ane saMskArapuruSa tarIke oLakhAvyA che. umAzaMkaranI mAnabharI siddhionI noMdha lIdhA pachI temaNe umAzaMkaranA sUkSma vyaktitvane supere prakaTa karI ApyuM che. "Rta emano jIvanamaMtra hato' athavA to "emanA aMtaramAM eka bAju jema kAryasiddhinI AkAMkSA rahI hatI tema bIjI bAju anAsakti paNa rahelI hatI. A vAta sAthe saMmata thavuM paDe tema che. umAzaMkaranA vyaktitvano e naravo guNa hato. caritralekhake ahIM caritranAyaka sAthe potAno paricaya kevI rIte thayo hato ane e saMbaMdha AgaLa upara kevo vikasato rahyo hato tenuM paNa sarasa varNana karyuM che. bIjI bAju naDiyAdanA sAhitya pariSadanA saMmelana veLA munazI pAsethI sAhitya pariSada levAnA saMdarbhe umAzaMkara vadhu paDato gusso karI beThelA e bAbata paNa caritralekhake taTastha rIte noMdhI che. umAzaMkaranA dAmpatya vize, umAzaMkaranI sAdAI vize, khumArI vize, "saMskRti mATe nispRha ane mamatvamukta temanI vicAraNA vize, imarajansI vakhatanI temanI saMvedanazIlatA vize - ema aneka pAsAM ahIM lIlayA UghaDatAM AvyAM che. umAzaMkaranuM akhilAIbharyuM zabdacitra ema ahIM banI AvyuM che. caMdravadana mahetAnuM caritra paNa temanA phakkaDa, manamojI, svamAnI, saraLa chatAM kaDaka vyaktitvane supere upasAvI ApanAruM banyuM che. ramaNalAle kolejakALathI mAMDI phArbasa sudhInA caMdravadana sAthenA anubhavone temAM vaNI lIdhA che. vaLI madrAsamAM yojAyelI gujarAtI pariSadanA saMmelanamAM gavarnaranuM AvavuM, reDiyomAM caMdravadana hatA tyAre samaya vizenI temanI pAbaMdI, bacubhAInA abhivAdanano kAryakrama muMbaImAM hato tyAre caMdravadana pramukhasthAne hatA topaNa na AvyA, phArbasamAMthI caMdravadananuM rAjInAmuM, caMdravadanano majAkiyo svabhAva ane te aMgenA keTalAka prasaMgo sayAjI 30

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yunivarsiTInI kathaLelI sthiti vize temanI vyathA vagere aneka saMketo dvArA caritrakAre caMdravadananA lAkSaNika vyaktitvanI surekha chabi aMkita karI ApI che. 'teo nepathyamAM bIjo veza paheravA gayA che' athavA 'ajaMpAthI bharelA emanA AtmAne jaMpa hajo !' jevAM TUMkAM, ciratranA samApana uparanAM vAkyomAM, caritralekhake caMdravadananA viziSTa vyaktitva mATe kevAM mArmika kathano karyAM che ! jyotIndra dave' e jyotIndra dave uparanuM ciratra paNa eTaluM ja bhAvasabhara banI AvyuM che. jyotIndranA zIghralekhana ane zIghravaktRtva vize, jyotIndranA saraLa, nirabhimAnI svabhAva vize, temanI buddhiprabhA vize, temanA gahana abhyAsa ane aMdarathI gaMbhIra prakRti vize ramaNabhAIe saMkSepamAM paNa sacoTa rIte vAta karI che. 'bacubhAI rAvata' ciratramAM bacubhAInA jIvanaraMgo kaMIka vadhu khUbIpUrvaka UpasatA jaNAya che. 'kumAra' ane te aMgenA kAma mATenI temanI cIvaTa, prUpha vagerenuM vAcana, sAmagrInI pasaMdagI, 'I.ta.' nAmathI ke pachI vaga2 nAmathI 'kumA2'mAM AvatAM temanAM lakhANo, navA kavi-citrakAro-lekhako taiyA2 ka2vAmAM, temane saMkoravA ke protsAhita karavAmAM bacubhAIno rahelo siMhaphALo, 'budhasabhA' mATenuM temanuM dAyitva, bacubhAInuM dAmpatya, caMdravadananI jema bacubhAInI paNa jyotiSamAM zraddhA, laMDana ke zatruMjayanI yAtrAnA prasaMgo, mahuDInI yAtrA pachI bacubhAIne thayelA aNadhAryA lAbha - vagere prasaMgonI AsapAsa caritranAyaka ane caritrakAranA snehasaMbaMdhonI thatI AvatI gUMthaNI ne emAMthI paryaMte bacubhAInI eka 'sajjana' tarIkenI UpasI rahetI mudrA bacubhAInA caritrane kalAtmakatA arpI rahe che. ramaNalAlanAM A prakAranAM caritro eka rIte ciratranAyakonA vyaktiraMgonI chabIo racI rahe che to bIjI ta2pha gujarAta-gujarAtI janajIvana ane gujarAtI sAhityanA itihAsanI keTalIka ajANI ke alpaparicita kaDIo paNa saMpaDAvI Ape che. sArasvata tarIke te sau sAthenA potAnA je kaMI saMbaMdho rahyA che tenuM temaNe sahaja rIte, kaze tenuM AkramaNa thavA dIdhA vinA nirUpaNa karyuM hovAthI caritro vadhu sAhajika banyAM che. uparAMta ADalAbharUpe ramaNalAlanI potAnI nirmamatA ne nikhAlasatAnI AdarabhAvanI keTalIka vidyullekhA jevI ramaNIya rekhAo paNa jhabakI rahe che. ahIM jeno samAveza karyo nathI paNa AvAM ja vAMcavA yogya-mANavA yogya DaoN. bhogIlAla sAMDesarA', 'sAdhucarita sva. cI.nA. paTela', 'sva. kavi bAdarAyaNa' ane 'umedabhAI maNiyAra', Izvara peTalIkara', vi.2. trivedI' vagere caritronuM paNa smaraNa karavuM rahe. 31

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ramaNalAla sujana che. strI ke puruSa evA kazA bheda manamAM rAkhyA vinA jemanuM koIka ne koIka kSetre mahattvanuM arpaNa rahyuM hoya che tene teo zabdanA kemerAmAM tarata 'klika' karI detA jaNAya che. strIdAkSiNya temanA vyaktitvano eka akATya aMza rahyo che. temanAM sAdhvI uparanAM ke anya sannArIo uparanAM keTalAMka caritro vAMcatAM e vAta tarata samajAze. uttamane khoLIne uttama rUpe rajU karavAnI temanI khevanA rahI che. ahIM lIdhelAM haMsAbahena mahetA ane padmavibhUSaNa DaoN. uSAbahena mahetA" baMne caritro e saMdarbhe noMdhapAtra banyAM che. haMsA mahetAnuM caritra emanA mahattvanA jIvanAzone, temanA zAlIna ane buddhiprabhAyukta vyaktitvaaMzone sa-rasa rIte jhIlI batAve che. hiMsAbahenanuM nAnI uMmare ema.e. thavuM, paradezamAM bhaNavuM, jIvarAja mahetA sAthe AMtarajJAtIya lagna karI sAmAjika jIvanamAM tenA je pratyAghAta paDyA tene sahI niraMtara pravRttirata rahevuM, bhaginI samAja, dha nezanala kAunsila opha vimena ina inDiyAmAM maMtrI tarIke niyukta thavuM, dAMDIkUcamAM bhAga levo, jela javuM, pikeTiMga karavuM, dezasevikA saMghanI sthApanA karavI, muMbaI kaoNMgresa samitinAM adhyakSa banavuM, nATako, lekho lakhavA ke zeksapiyaranAM jANItAM nATakonA anuvAda karavA, cArTara opha hyumana rAITsamAM mahilA pratinidhi thavuM ane pAchaLathI te paMcanA pramukhapade ArUDha thavuM, ma.sa. yuni. vaDodarAmAM vAIsa cAnselarapade niyukta thavuM, jIvananAM aMtima varSo muMbaImAM ekAMtavAsamAM gALavAM - vagere aneka prasaMgo-ghaTanAonA meghadhanuSI raMgothI A caritra dipta che. bhAratIya stare nArIjagata mATe preraNAstrota banI rahe tevuM karmaTha vyaktitva ahIM zabdarUpe banI AvyuM che. evuM ja bIjuM nArIjagata mATe preraka banI rahe tevuM suMdara caritra DaoN. uSAbahena mahetAnuM che, padmavibhUSaNa' jevA rASTrIya khitAbathI vibhUSita uSAbahenanuM vyaktitva rASTrasamarpita hatuM. gAMdhIjInI vicAraNAno pAko raMga temane besI gayo hato. AjIvana apariNIta, khAdIdhArI, saraLa, nikhAlasa, anAgrahI, saMniSTha, sabhara sevAbhAvI uSAbahenanuM vyaktitva kazI apekSAo vinAnuM, mAtRbhUminA utkarSamAM satata rata rahyuM che. 194ramAM 'hiMda choDomAM koMgresa reDiyo'nI pravRtti te calAvatAM. mahAdevabhAInA avasAnanA samAcAra sauprathama koMgresa reDiyo'e prasArita karyA. pachI chApAMoe. vyavasAye adhyApaka, zAstrIya saMgItanAM jJAtA, adhyayana-adhyApana uparAMta lekhanapravRttimAM paNa agresara rahyAM che. caritrakAre ahIM caritranAyikA sAthenA nijI saMbaMdhone sAcA arthamAM ja potAnuM sadbhAgya lekhyuM che. 32

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baMne caritro, be zIlasuvAsita nArIonAM jIvanane anekazaH upasAvI Ape che. ramaNalAlanI nArIsanmAnabhAvanAno paricaya paNa parokSapaNe AvAM caritromAMthI prApta thaI rahe che. hIrAbahena pAThaka', 'lIlAvatIbAI mahAsatIjI', meDama sophiyA vADiyA", "raMbhAbahena gAMdhI vagere nArIratnonAM caritro paNa jijJAsu vAcakoe A sAthe vAMcavAM joIe. caritrakAranA vyaktitvanuM AvAM nArIviSayaka caritromAMthI komaLa, bhAvasabhara pAse prakaTa thAya che. ramaNalAla eka arthamAM jIvanakalAdhara che. teo jema koI cokkasa vicAra ke vAdamAM baMdhAyA nathI tema koI cokkasa vyavasAyane ja sarvasva lakhI AgaLa vadhyA nathI. temanI duniyA kaho ke ekasaMgI ke ekaraMgI nathI. emanI duniyAmAM teo aneka duniyAone samAvatA rahyA che. teo je kArya hAthamAM le athavA je kAryano svIkAra kare temAM teo pUrepUrA khUMpI jatA hatA. temAM je kaMI svIkArya hoya tene apanAvatA hatA, potAnA jIvanarasamAM tene bheLavI detA hatA. agAu kahyuM che tema hADe zikSaka-sArasvata rahI teo potAnI kriyAo, tenA kalApone Ama vistAratA rahyA che ane pachI enAM suMdara pariNAmo vAcakanA caraNe dharatA rahyA che. ena.sI.sI.mAM vIseka varSa temaNe je tamannA ane utsAhathI gALyAM che te temanI eka nirALI ja duniyA hatI. e duniyAe temanA vyaktitva upara paNa ghaNo moTo prabhAva pADyo che. emanI oLakhano eka bhAga banI rahe tevI temanI e kSetramAM dilacaspI rahI hatI. 1951thI 1970 sudhImAM tethI ja teo kramazaH potAnI pAtratA temAM puravAra karatA rahI mejara ane beTeliyana kamAnDara sudhInA agatyanA hoddAo sudhI pahoMcyA hatA. A nimitte eka lekhaka pote ja potAnA anubhavonI - jAta anubhavonI vAta, caritro vaDe ke caritrone upakAraka bane e rIte kahetA hoya tyAre eno AnaMda kaMIka nokho ja rahevAno. ahIM evI lAkSaNika duniyAmAMthI jude jude khUNethI pasaMda karIne berara dhonDI', 'brigeDiyara dArUvAlA', jamAdAra bile ane korporala bArazI' jevAM cAra caritrono samAveza karyo che. AvAM caritro vAcakone to eka navA anubhavizva samakSa khaDA karI ja de paNa yuvako mATe to ethIya vadhu te preraka-mArgadarzaka nIvaDe. ramaNalAlanA vyaktitvanuM paNa eka nUtana rUpa ApaNane A caritronI paDache jovA maLe che. gujarAtI lekhakomAMthI kadAca ramaNalAla pAsethI ja ATalI vadhu saMkhyAmAM ane pratyakSa anubhavanI saMDovaNIvALAM lazkarI duniyAnAM caritro 'berarathI brigeDiyaramAM ApaNane maLe che. berara dhoDInuM caritra A prakAranAM caritromAM noMdhapAtra banyuM che. lazkaramAM 33 ,

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sAhebo mATe kAma karatA nokaranuM jIvana kevuM hoya che te abhaNa dhonDI dvArA vyakta thayuM che. prAmANikatA, khaMta, mahenata, cIvaTa ane sevAtatparatAnI sAkSAta mUrti jevo dhonDI aneka sAhebo sAthe deza-videzamAM pharI Avyo che. eka AMkha gumAvI che, paraNavA taiyAra thayelI orata tene chetarI bhAgI gaI che, sAhebanAM baMne khissAmAMthI koI eka khisuM pasaMda karI temAMthI bakSisarUpe paisA levA jatAM pAMcaso rUpiyAnA badale pAMca rUpiyAvALA khissAmAM hAtha javo - vagere aneka bAbatothI A caritra vArtA jevo AnaMda ApIne dhonDI jevA abhaNa mANaso paNa nasIbavAdanI lisUphI upara potAnuM jIvana kevI zAMtithI pasAra karI detA hoya che te caritrakAre darzAvyuM che. ahIM dhoDIne nimitte lazkarI maeNsa, tenI kaDaka zista, oNphisaro sAthenA vyavahAranI rItarasamo vagere paNa pArzvabhUmAM AvatAM rahIne caritrane vaLa ApatAM rahe che. - brigeDiyara dArUvAlAnuM caritra paNa AkarSaka banyuM che. lazkarI mAholamAM Ispekzana hoya, brigeDiyara kakSAno mANasa Avato hoya tyAre mesathI mAMDIne samagra kempamAM kevI cahalapahala rahetI hoya che, kartavyaniSThA ane cIvaTa tyAre kevAM sarANe caDhatAM hoya che. sikreTa DokyumenTsanI kevI kaDaka cakAsaNI moDI rAta sudhI cAlatI hoya che ane aDhaLaka kAma pachI zistanI e kaDaka duniyA rAtrinI pArTImAM keTalI sahajatAthI majAka-mazakarI karI jIvanano raMga mANI le che ane brigeDiyara jevo moTo ophisara paNa evI hasI-majAka kevI karAve che e sarvanuM ahIM koI kathA-vArtAnI Dhabe jijJAsAbharyuM varNana thayuM che. brigeDiyara dArUvAlA jAnA badale pareDa cAlu che ema jyAre jAhera kare che tyAre sau aphasaro tene miliTarI spiriTathI kevI rIte vadhAvI le che enuM ahIM sarasa varNana thayuM che. e sarva vacce brigeDiyara dArUvAlAnI kartavyaniSTha ne kartavyavyasta, zArIrika-mAnasika samRddhinI pratimA hRdya rIte racAtI AvI che. jamAdAra bilenuM caritra lazkarI aphasaranuM bAhya ane AMtara vyaktitva - be cheDethI kevAM vibhinna parimANo dAkhavatuM hoya che te caritrakAre bile sAthenA jAtaanubhavathI tAdRzya rIte darzAvyuM che. je bile pareDa vakhate galI lAge, "gadheDo' ke "muDadA' jevA zabdo bolavAne kAraNe aNaghaDa lAge paNa e ja bile caritrakAra zAha greneDa pheMkavAmAM bhUla karatAM e ghaTanA kevI ghAtaka banI zake te samajI tarata ja zAhanA AkhA zarIrane bacAvavA potAnA zarIrathI temane DhAMkI de tyAre temanA vizeno khyAla ja badalAI jAya. tuMDamijAjI lAgatA bilenA vyaktitvanA eka bIjA mAnavIya pAsAnuM te ahIM ApaNane darzana karAve che. bilenI sAthe lazkarI TreiniMgo ane tyAMnA vAtAvaraNano paNa ahIM sAro citAra rajU thayo che. 34

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koparala bArazI lazkarI jagatanAM keTalAMka AzcaryonuM eka Azcarya che. sAdhAraNa sthitino bArazI jAte khristI che, anya keDeTsamAM judo tarI Ave tevI tenI lAMbI-UMcI dehayaSTi che, siphatapUrvaka te jUThuM bolI zake che, corI karI zake che, chatAM sArI chApa paNa pADI zake che. paNa chevaTe tapAsane aMte te ja cora sAbita thAya, eTaluM ja nahi rIDhA gunegAra jevI tenI vartaNUka puravAra thAya ane pariNAme tenI renka pAchI levAI jAya, kempamAMthI kADhI mUkavAmAM Ave ane jAte ja jiMdagI barabAda karI mUke - A ane AvA prasaMgothI yuvAnIno eka bIjo cahero caritrakAre ahIM sahaja rIte prakaTa karI Apyo che. A cAreya caritro lazkara sAthe saMkaLAyela judA judA stare kAma karatAM mANasonAM che. eka nokara che, eka brigeDiyara che, eka jamAdAra che to eka tAlImArthI che. ahIM darekanI navI-nokhI rekhAo chevaTe lazkarIjagatane ughADI Ape che. sAco jIvanarasa paNa kathArasathI kyAreya UNo hoto nathI. te AvAM rocaka caritro vAMcatAM jaNAya che. ApaNe tyAM AvA viSaya-vyaktine lagatAM caritro ghaNAM ochAM che. ramaNalAlano e dizAmAM A prayatna tethI vadhu prazaMsanIya ane svAgatAha bane che. sahRdaya bhAvakoe ahIM samAviSTa thaI zakyAM nathI tevAM, havAladAra nAyaDu, mejara tejAsiMga, aMDara oNphisara elana, lephaTananTa moghe, keDeTa AnnAde vagere caritro paNa vAMcavA jevAM che. ramaNalAlanI kArakirdInA eka mUlyavAna hissA jevuM banI cUkeluM lazkarIbhAvajagata ahIM aneka mize, aneka rUpe UghaDyuM che. gujarAtI vAcakabhAvaka mATe AvAM caritro navabhAvabodhanAM paricAyaka banI rahe tema che. (10) ramaNalAlano jIvanaghaTATopa aneka binduone sparzato rahyo che ane e dareka veLA teo temanA koI navA-navA aMzano ApaNane paricaya ApatA rahyA che. teo premALa vyakti che, kaho ke temanA vyaktitvano sthAyI bhAva ja prema che. putrI hoya, patnI hoya, mAtA-pitA hoya, sanmitra hoya, sahakAryakara hoya ke pachI dUranuM ke najIkanuM koI paricita hoya, saunI sAthe temano vartAva mAyALu, sahRdayatAbharyo rahyo che. samAja sAthenA ke aMgata snehIjano sAthenA saMbaMdhomAM teo kaze kaTu nathI banyA, doSadekhuM nathI rahyA, ApavaDAI ke huMkArane vacce nathI lAvyA. caMdananI jema ghasAtA rahyA che, sugaMdha prasAratA rahyA che. e badhAMmAM temanuM sadA umadA mAnavIya pAsuM ja koIka ne koIka rIte nIkharI AvatuM jovA maLe che. ahIM traNeka caritro temanA evA ekadama aMgata-AtmIya kahI zakAya tevI vyaktionAM pasaMda karyA che. jemAM premALa putra tarIkenuM, premALa svajana tarIkenuM-vyaktitva-ekadama

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najIkathI-pelAM caritronI sAthe sAthe phoratuM rahyuM che. AvAM Aptajano sAthe aneka smRtio saMkaLAyelI hoya e svAbhAvika che. pariNAme evAM caritro anya, saMkSipta caritrone mukAbale, thoDo vadhu vistAra dAkhave che paNa tethI caritronI rasAvahatA ochI thatI nathI. darda ane dila baMne bhegAM maLI evAM caritrone vadhu smaraNIya banAve che. "mArA pitAzrI', "mArAM mAtuzrI sva. revAbA' e baMne temanAM ja mAtA-pitAnAM, kaho ke rUpAntare khudanAM kuLa-mULanI oLakha ApI rahetAM caritro che, to saMcayanuM chelluM caritra "amArA pUjya zrI dozIkAkAmAM caritranAyaka sIdhI rIte pArivArika sagapaNa dAkhavatA nathI chatAM sA kAkAthI savAyA kAkA hoya tevI temanI sAthenI lekhakanI, lekhakanA parivAranI AtmIyatA rahI hovAthI tene ahIM sthAna ApyuM che. ahIM caritranAyaka ane caritralekhaka "mArA pitAzrI'mAM aMgata sUtre baMdhAyelA hovA chatAM nirUpaNamAM pUrato viveka rahyo che. somA varSeya pitA kevA svastha. nirvyasanI, prabhubhaktirata ane UNodarI vratadhArI rahyA che e bhUmikA bAMdhIne pIThajhabakAra paddhatie caritrane khIlave che. pitAno janma, janma sthaLa pAdarA ane teno saghaLo vIgatapracura ne rasapracura itihAsa, emAM AvatAM amRtalAlabApA, amathIbahena, DAhyAkAkA, caMdubhAI vagerenAM sukha-sughaDa citro, e vacce pitAnuM nirALuM vyaktitva, Arthika caDhAva-utAra, saMkaLAmaNo, pitAzrI sAthe mAtuzrInA vyaktitvanI ekasUratA, pitAnI sAdagI, dharmamayatA, saraLatA, temanuM nirabhimAnI vyaktitva, niHspRhatA - A sarvanuM vividha prasaMgo dvArA AsvAdya vyaktitva upasAvyuM che. koI vArtA vAMcI rahyA hoIe tevI jiMdagInA lolakanI AvanajAvana caritrakAre ahIM kazI ADaza vinA zabdAMkita karI che. caritra ema mAtra caritra rahevAne badale caritrathI kaMIka vizeSa rahIne tenA bhAvakane paNa jIvana jIvavAnI avanavI cAvIo pUrI pADe che. evuM ja rasaprada caritra temanI mAtA revAbAnuM che. pitA uparanA caritranI jema A paNa lekhakanA zabdomAM kahIe to "bhAvathI lakhAyeluM caritra che. saMyukta kuTuMbamAM eka samaye vizALa parivAra vacce jIvatI gharanI mukhya nArInuM vyaktitva kevAM pariNAmo ane parimANo parivAra mATe UbhAM karatI - takalIpho veThIne paNa - teno citAra govardhanarAme "sarasvatIcaMdra'mAM guNasuMdarInA pAtra dvArA barAbara Apyo che. gujarAtamAM tyAre ane Aje paNa evI guNasuMdarIo hatI ane che. revAbAnuM caritra paNa kaMIka e prakAranuM patiparAyaNa, parivAraparAyaNa, saMtAnaparAyaNa, dharma ane saMskAraparAyaNa rahyuM che. abhaNa hovA chatAM koThAsUjha evI ke game tevA jhaMjhAvAtamAM paNa kuTuMbanuM nAva teo aDola rAkhI zakatAM. sukha ane duHkha ubhayamAM evI mAtAe kevuM samatva dAkhavyuM che te lekhake 36

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aneka prasaMgo TAMkIne asarakAraka rIte darzAvyuM che. nAnA bALakanI zaucakriyA, kUve bAnuM pANI bharavA javuM, lekhakane vIMchI karaDavo, ghera ekadA bAvAnuM AvavuM, maraNaprasaMge revAbA - svajananA ke anyanA mRtyumAM paNa - lohInI Tazaro phUTe tyAM sudhI chAtI kUTatAM, gAmamAM IrAnI strIo Ave tyAre saMtAnone mA kevI rIte sAcave, roja savAre mA derAsara jatAM, muMbaI bAnuM rahevA javAnuM banyuM, potAnuM ke anyanuM kazuM kAma karavAmAM lagIre nAnama na anubhavavI, Arthika muzkelIveLA patinI nA chatAM bAe piyaranI be sonAnI baMgaDIo vecI devA patine dRDhatAthI samajAvyA, haThe bharAyelA bALakanA manane jItavAnI bAnI vAtsalyabharI rIta, aMtima divasomAM motiyAnuM oparezana na ja karAvyuM - vagere aneka aneka ghaTanAo bAnI tRptibharI, samajadAra ane saccAIbharI ajaba jIvanazailIne caritArtha karI rahe che. AvI bAnI kUkhe janmavAthI caritrakAra dhanyatA anubhave e svAbhAvika che. dozIkAkA uparanuM caritra paNa AjanA samAjamAM raNa vaccenI mIThI vIraDI jevuM che. dozIkAkA caritrakAranA sagA nathI paNa saMbaMdhI che. paNa evA saMbaMdhI ke sagAthI paNa caDiyAtA puravAra thAya. caritrakAre zIrSakamAM ja "amArA' ane pUjya evAM be vizeSaNo vAparIne dozIkAkA sAthenA AtmIya ane pUjya saMbaMdhane sarasa rIte dhvanita karI Apyo che. samagra caritramAM dozIkAkA vyakti karatAM eka saMsthA jevA, gheghUra vaDalA jevA vadhu lAge che. evA samarpita vyaktinuM vyaktitva kevuM hoya tenA uttama daSTAMtarUpa dozIkAkA che. caritrakAre yogya rIte ja gAMdhIjI, vinobAjI, ravizaMkara, babalabhAI, saccidAnaMda vageremAMthI dozIkAkAne preraNA maLatI rahe che te spaSTa karyuM che. dozIkAkAnI sArA graMthonI patnI bhAnubahena sAthe sahavAcananI Teva, vividha samitiomAM temanI kAmagIrI, cikhodarAnI hospiTala dvArA temaNe upADeluM netrayajJanuM kArya, AThasothI vadhu netrayajJonuM temaNe kareluM kArya, dardIne deva jevo gaNavAnI ane phI lIdhA vinA sevA karavAnI temanI nema, jamavAmAM temanA keTalAka vrata-niyama, garIbo kerI khAvI zarU kare pachI ja kerI khAvI tevA dRDhAgraha, e.sI. vinAnI ophisamAM ja kAma karavAnuM valaNa, durgama ane jyAM lUMTAI javAno bhaya hoya tyAM paNa dozIkAkAnuM netrayajJa mATe dhasI javuM, polIza vinAnA caMpala paheravAno sahaja svIkAra, pote agavaDa bhogavI bIjAne sagavaDa karI ApavAnI tatparatA vagere aneka guNo dozIkAkAnA paragaju vyaktitvane ahIM hUbahU karI Ape che. koInA pratye zatrutA nahi, vera ke kaDavAza nahi, mAtra prema ja dozIkAkAnI prakRti hatI. gAMdhIyuganA chellA avazeSarUpa dozIkAkAnI caritrakAre sAcA arthamAM ja vaiSNavajana ke zrAvaka tarIkenI oLakha ApI che. dozIkAkA ane bhAnubehanane maLatAM caritrakAre mAtApitA pAse hoIe evuM apAra vAtsalya 37

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anubhavyuM che. jANe ke janmAntarano saMbaMdha na hoya !--evuM je lAgyuM che te A caritra vAMcatAM temanI tevI saMvedanAno tALo maLI rahe che. paramAnaMda kApaDiyA, joharImala parIkha ane keDeTa AndrAde - A traNe caritro paNa dhyAnapAtra banyAM che. temanAM vividha pAsAMne temaNe sarasa rIte ujAgara karI batAvyAM che. saraLa ane samucita zailI tenA vizeSa aMga che. A ogaNatrIsa caritro ramaNalAlanI caritrakAra tarIkenI mahattvanI lAkSaNikatAo prakaTa karI Ape tevI samRddhi dAkhave che. ramaNabhAInAM jaina sthaviro ke sAdhu-sAdhvIo uparanAM, sAhityakAro ke Aptajano uparanAM athavA lazkarI mAholane prakaTa karatI vyaktionAM ke svajano uparanAM ema koI paNa caritro lo, eka vAta samAnapaNe jovAya che ke teo kazuM ubhaDaka lakhatA nathI. cAretra kevA kevA prasaMgothI UpasI rahe ke prabhAvaka banI rahe te teo barAbara jANe che. hakIkatomAMthI amukanuM cayana karI, yogya pariprekSyamAM tene teo rajU kare che. emAM kazo viveka cukAya nahi, atizayokti ke alpokti thaI na rahe ane chatAM pUrA AdarathI, eka aMtara sAthe, caritranI rekhAo spRhaNIya caritra racI Ape tenuM temaNe lagabhaga dhyAna rAkhyuM che. Dabalyu.eca. Dana je bAhya AviSkaraNa ane AMtarika vRttivyApAronI apekSA rAkhe che, tevo anubhava A caritro karAvI rahe che. to je te vyaktinA jIvananA pachI te brigeDiyaranI vAta hoya ke mAtA-pitA ke sarjaka saMdarbhe kazuM kahetA hoya paNa DrAyaDana je cokkasa vyaktinA jIvanano itihAsa prakaTavo joIe ema kahe che - tevo itihAsa' athavA to evA 'itihAsanI kaDIo ahIM maLI rahe che. kazuM adhdhara, utAvaLiyuM, dhAraNAnA TekAvALuM teo lakhatA nathI. vyaktinuM jIvana judA judA prasaMga, paristhitie kevI rIte utkrAnta thatuM rahyuM che te upara caritrakAranI najara ahIM rahI che. A caritromAM itihAsa', 'vyakti" ane "sAhitya" ema traNe upara caritrakAranuM dhyAna rahyuM jaNAya che. pariNAme koI paNa vyaktinuM caritra ahIM zuSka banatuM nathI, kaMTALo Ape ke vAMcavuM na game tevuM banyuM nathI. "caritra' Akhare koIka vyaktinI "kathA' che. e kathAne kema rajU karI zakAya te kImiyo ramaNalAla barAbara jANe che ane emAM emane sAtha maLI rahe che temanA svaccha-svastha, saraLa-sahaja, vastune taMtotaMta prakaTa karatA gadyano. ahIM mAtApitAnA, umAzaMkara ke brigeDiyara dArUvAlAnA athavA morArajI desAI ke zrI vijayarAmacaMdrasUri mahArAja uparanA koI paNa caritrane lo, jarUra paDatAM caritrakAra vArtAlApano Azaro le che. e zailIne prasaMgopAtta jamAdAra bile ke bacubhAI rAvata uparanA caritromAM banyuM che tema citrAtmaka banAvI zake che. mAtA-pitAnAM caritromAM 38

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zaizavanA prasaMgone temaNe e rIte tAdaza karI ApyA che. temanuM gadya saraLa-sahaja paNa kalpanAvirodhI nathI. berara dhonDInA dekhAvanuM sacoTa citra AMkha AgaLathI khase tevuM nathI. A caritronuM gadya uSmApUrNa paNa rahyuM che. lekhake lakhavA khAtara nathI lakhyuM, paNa "bhAva thI ke "bhAvanA thavAthI" lakhyuM hovAthI jaina sAdhu-sAdhvIo upara lakhatA hoya ke caMdravadana-haMsAbahena vize ke bArazI vize lakhatA hoya pelI ukhAno anubhava thaI rahe che. temano tevI vyakti taraphano Adara, vaMdana ke bhAva tarata anubhavI rahevAya. AvAM caritro lakhanAranI sAme "caritra'no nAyaka jIvananA game te aMtime jIvyo hoya paNa chevaTe tyAM kyAMka mAnavatA sAthe tenuM anusaMdhAna athavA to vidhinA tarakaTa saMdarbhe kazuMka evuM joDANa pratIta thavuM joIe ke naitikatA viruddhano prasaMga paNa naitikatA viruddhano na banI rahe. evI vyakti mATe tiraskAra na hoI zake, tenAM evAM koI kArya mATe ghaNA na hovI joIe. A svarUpe ema Morality sAthe kAma pAra pADavAnuM che. ramaNalAlanAM vRtti-valaNa ane gadya baMnenI tadAkAratA AvA prasaMge khIlI UThe che. bArazInuM caritra tenuM sAruM dRSyata che. ramaNalAlanA gadyane Ama temanAM caritrothI alaga na karI zakAya evA aMgagIbhAve khIlatuM-pAMgaratuM, caritra ane eno artha UbhuM karavuM joI zakIe chIe. eka bIjI, noMdhavI paDe tevI bAbata paNa A caritro ane tenA gadyamAMthI satata pratIta thayA kare che. alabatta, agAu teno saMketa karyo che ja. A saghaLAM caritro, je te caritranAyaka ke nAyikAne to amuka rUpe upasAvI Ape che ja paNa A vaividhyapUrNa caritro ane gadyavidhAnamAMthI enA lakhanAranI bahumukhI zaktio, temanA khudanuM aMdara-bahAranuM vyaktitva paNa jude jude rUpe aNasAra ApatAM rahe che. caritra mATeno samabhAva ane sAthe anAsakti to che ja, paNa koIne kyAMya anyAya na thAya, kaze caritranAyaka vize khoTI chApa UbhI na thAya tenuM paNa temaNe satata dhyAna rAkhyuM che. sAthe bhASA kyAMya koIne dUbhave ke koI tethI dukhAya nahi e rIte yojAI che. ramaNalAlanI evI sujanatA, evuM AbhijAtya paNa A caritronI paDache pamAya che. kaho ke sujana caritrakAranI sujanatA bharelI gadyazailInI prasAdIrUpa A caritrasRSTi che. gujarAtI bhASAnA caritraitihAsamAM ramaNalAlanuM nAma thoDAka mokharAnA caritrakAro sAthe mUkavuM paDe tevI saMpannatA A caritronI ema rahI che. A satkAryamAM mane nimitta banAvanAra sau pratye huM sAdara kRtajJatA prakaTa karuM chuM. luNAvADA - pravINa darajI 17-4-06 39

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zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAja gaI sadImAM aMgrejonuM zAsana bhAratamAM cAlatuM hatuM tyAre khristI mizanarI pAdarIo khristI dharmano pracAra garIba gAmaDAMomAM ane khAsa karIne AdivAsI vistAromAM jorazorathI karatA hatA. aMgrejonI sattA hatI eTale mizanarIo sAme bahu virodha thaI zakato nahoto. eka vakhata dharmapracAranuM kAma rokaToka vinA vegathI cAle eTale emAM dharmAntara karAvavA mATe vividha tarakIbo paNa ajamAvAya. gAmaDAMonA abhaNa ane abudha lokone potAnA dharmanA camatkAranI vAtothI Azcaryamugdha karI devAnA prayAso paNa thatA. eka pAdarI potAnI pAse be nAnI sarasa raMgelI mUrtio rAkhatA. eka bhagavAna viSNunI ane eka krosa sahita Iza khristanI. gAmaDAMnA lokone bhegA karI teo upadeza ApatA ke sAcA bhagavAna e ja ke je pote tare ane bIjAne tAre. evo upadeza ApyA pachI loko pAse eka moTuM vAsaNa magAvI temAM pANI bharAvatA. pachI potAnI thelImAMthI bhagavAna viSNunI mUrti kADhI badhAMnAM dekhatAM teo pANImAM te mUkatA. e mUrti pANImAM DUbI jatI. tyAra pachI potAnI thelImAMthI Izu khristanI sarasa raMgIna mUrti kADhatA ane te pANImAM mUkatA ane saunA Azcarya vacce te mUrti pANImAM taravA lAgatI. Avo camatkArabharyo prayoga karIne gAmaDAMnAM garIba, abudha lokonA manamAM teo ThasAvatA ke je pote tarI zake te ja bIjAne tArI zake. mATe sAcA bhagavAna Iza khrista ja che, kAraNa ke te pote tare che ane bIjAne tAre che. mATe temano dharma svIkAravo joIe. dharmAntaranI temanI A pravRttinI vAta sAMbhaLI kutUhalathI prerAIne eka vakhata eka yuvAna paNa tyAM Avyo hato. lokonI vacce besIne pracAraka pAdarIno prayoga zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAja 1

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teNe nihALyo. pote buddhizALI hato eTale prayoganuM rahasya tarata samajI gayo. teNe prayoga pUro thayA pachI pAdarIne kahyuM ke "sAcA-khoTA bhagavAnanI jaLaparIkSA pUrI thaI. have mAre tamane A bhagavAnanI agniparIkSA karI batAvavI che. mATe baMne bhagavAna mane Apo." pAdarI tarata vAta pAmI gayA, kAraNa ke bhagavAna viSNunI mUrti paththaranI hatI ane Izu khristanI mUrti lAkaDAnI hatI. paraMtu baMne raMgelI hatI eTale bhoLA lokone tenA pharakanI khabara paDatI nahi. jo agniparIkSA karavAmAM Ave to Izu khristanI mUrti baLIne khAkha thaI jAya. eTale pAdarIe ADAMavaLAM gallAtallAM karyA ane tarata tyAMthI teNe vidAya lIdhI. pelA yuvAne lokone AvA bharamAvanArA dharmapracArathI na doravAI javA mATe zikhAmaNa ApI. pAdarInI sAme paDakAra pheMkanAra e yuvAnanuM nAma hatuM bahecaradAsa paTela, jeo pAchaLathI jaina dharmanI dIkSA aMgIkAra karI zrImad buddhisAgarasUri tarIke suvikhyAta banyA. bahecaradAsa jAte pATIdAra hatA. gujarAtamAM mahesANA jillAnA vijApura gAmamAM vi. saM. 1930 (I. sa. 1874mAM) mahA vada caudasanA roja mahAzivarAtrinA parvanA divase rAtanA bAra vAge emano janma thayo hato. emanA pitAnuM nAma zivadAsa hatuM ane mAtAnuM nAma hatuM aMbAbAI. zivadAsanA e pAMcamAM saMtAna hatA. zivadAsa kheDUta hatA. pati-patnI Akho divasa khetaramAM kAma karatAM. kheDUto sAmAnya rIte kare che tema jhADanI nIcI DALI upara jhoLInI jema lUgaDuM bAMdhIne temAM nAnA bALakane suvADe. evI rIte nAnA bALaka bahecaradAsane roja suvADatA hatA. eka divasa khetaramAM evI rIte bALakane suvADyuM hatuM tyAre te DALane bAMdhelI jhoLI upara eka kALo moTo nAga Avyo. e joIne aMbAbAI DaghAI gaI. nAga DaMkha mAre to UMghatA bALakanuM tarata mRtyu thAya. e dazya joI emanA mukhamAMthI cIsa nIkaLI gaI. sAthesAthe potAne jemAM parama zraddhA hatI evI bahucarA mAtAnI tarata mAnatA paNa mAnI lIdhI. thoDI vAramAM nAga tyAMthI cAlyo gayo. bALaka bacI gayuM. eTale mAtA-pitAe bALakanuM nAma bahecaradAsa rAkhyuM. - bahecaradAsa moTA thatAM emane gAmanI prAthamika zALAmAM mUkavAmAM AvyA. bhaNavAmAM te tejasvI hatA. sahAdhyAyIomAM eka DAhyAbhAI nAmano jaina vidyArthI hato, eNe bahecaradAsane sarasvatIdevIno maMtrajApa zIkhavyo hato. pote kaNabInA chokarA che eTale potAne vidyA nahi caDe ane pote paMDita nahi thaI zake evo Dara bahecaradAsanA manamAM hato. paraMtu vidvAna banavAnI tathA 2 = caritradarzana

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sArA vaktA banavAnI emane ghaNI hoMza hatI. mitra DAhyAbhAIe emane sarasvatIdevIno maMtrajApa eka jUnI hastalikhita pothImAMthI utArI Apyo ane gAmanA derAsaramAM jaI, ekAMta samaye padmAvatI devInI pratimA pAse besI maMtrajApa karavAnuM kahyuM. ema karavAthI bahecaradAsane jANe sarasvatIdevI prasanna thayAM hoya evo anubhava thayo. emanI vaphtatvachaTA ane lekhananI kalA jANe vikasavA lAgI. bahecaradAsano vaccharAja nAmano eka sahAdhyAyI hato. te jAte bAroTa hato ane kavitA kema vAMcavI te jANato hato. eNe bahecaradAsamAM kavitAno rasa jagADyo hato. zALAmAM bhaNavuM ane khetaramAM kAma karavuM e be bahecaradAsanI mukhya pravRtti sAthe maMtrajApa ane joDakaNAM banAvavAnI pravRtti cAlatI. bahecaradAsa bharatharI, jogI, sAdhubAvAo, rAvaNahaththAvALAo vagere pAse besI pado, bhajano sAMbhaLatA. e sAMbhaLIne evI kavitA lakhavAnuM temane paNa mana thaI jatuM. kizorAvasthAmAM ja bahecaradAsanI kavitA- saravANI phUTI hatI. e divasomAM emaNe eka prArthanA-kAvya lakhyuM hatuM jenI AraMbhanI kaDIo nIce pramANe hatI : o Izvara ! mAbApa tuM, tuM che tAraNahAra; sAro kara mujane, prabhu! le mArI saMbhALa. mArI vidyA Apa tuM, durguNa-doSo caLa; kRpA karI mujane, prabhu! gaNaje tAro bALa. eka vakhata vijApuranA vidyArthImaMDaLamAM mitra vaccharAjanA AgrahathI emaNe moTA thavA vize kAvyaracanA rajU karI hatI, jenI AraMbhanI kaDI nIce pramANe hatI : jano moTaya thAtA, jano paMkAtA, sArAM karIne kAja; duHkhane veThI vidyA bhaNe che, haiDe rAkhI hAma. khaMtIlA, utsAhI, Teka, udyamI rakhe nAma. zrI buddhisAgarasUrie ghaNAM pado, bhajano, stavano lakhyAM, moTI pUjAo lakhI tathA saMskRtamAM zlokaracanAo karI e emanI vikasita kavitvazaktinAM bIja kizorAvasthAnI emanI kAvyapravRttiomAM joI zakAya che. emanI pAse naisargika kAvyazakti hatI tenI e pratIti karAve che. zALAnA mitro sAthe bahecaradAsa gAmanI sImamAM, khetaromAM pharavA, rakhaDavA jatA. bahecaradAsa zarIre khaDatala hatA. jhADa upara caDIne kUdako mAratA. emane taravAnuM AvaDatuM nahi. pANImAM paDatAM Dara lAgato. eka divasa gAmanA taLAvanI pALe UbhA hatA tyAM pAchaLathI eka mitre dhakko mAryo. UMDA pANImAM paDyA. have hAthapaga halAvyA vagara chUTako nahoto. hAthapaga jorathI halAvyA ane UMDA zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAja - 3

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pANImAMthI bahAra AvyA. ema karatAM karatAM taravAnuM zIkhI gayA. pachI taravAmAM ekkA thaI gayA ane gAmanA bIjA chokarAone paNa zIkhavavA lAgyA hatA. potAnI zArIrika tAkAta, nirbhayatA ane manobaLa vaDe bahecaradAsa gAmanA badhA chokarAonA netA jevA banI gayA hatA. evAmAM vijApuramAM visAgara nAmanA jainAcArya padhAryA hatA. eka divasa savAramAM gAmane pAdara teo sthaMDila mATe jatA hatA tyAre be bheMso laDatI laDatI ravisAgara tarapha dhasatI hatI. bahecaradAse e dRzya joyuM. emane bhaya lAgyo ke rakhene A bheMso jaina mahArAjane aDapheTamAM laI pADaze to mahArAja motanA paMjAmAM paDaze. eTale emaNe potAnA hAthamAM rahelI DAMga eka bheMsane jorathI phaTakArI. ethI baMne bheMso chUTI paDIne cAlI gaI. ravisAgarajI bacI gayA. paraMtu e dRzya jonAra ravisAgarajI mahArAje bahecaradAsane pAse bolAvI premathI kahyuM, bhAI ! mUMgA Dhorane Ama marAya nahi. ene keTaluM duHkha thAya !' ravisAgarajI mahArAje je vAtsalyabhAvathI thoDA zabdomAM A zikhAmaNa ApI te bahecaradAsanA hradayamAM evI soMsarI UtarI gaI ke jANe ke A ghaTanAe enA samagra jIvanamAM parivartana karI nAkhyuM. A koI moTA mahAtmA che, emanA piracayamAM AvavA jevuM che evI aMtaramAM tarata pratIti thaI gaI. upAzraya I ravisAgarajI mahArAjano vadhu paricaya karyo ane pUrvanA koI RNAnubaMdhathI ravisAgarajI mahArAjane paNa bahecaradAsanA jIvanamAM rasa paDyo. vidyArthI tarIke te tejasvI hatA ane gAmaThI nizALamAM bhaNavAnuM cAlatuM hatuM. paraMtu teo vadhu hoziyAra thAya e mATe aMgrejI, saMskRta, ardhamAgadhI, urdU vagere bhASAo zIkhavA mATe visAgarajIe jaina gRhasthone bhalAmaNa karIne prabaMdha karAvI Apyo. vijApuramAM te samayanA nathurAma maMcchAcaMda dozI nAmanA gRhasthe temAM ghaNI Arthika madada karI ane badhI sagavaDa karAvI ApavAmAM aMgata rasa lIdho. bahecaradAse vijApuramAM jaina vidyArthIo mATe sAMje cAlatI pAThazALAmAM jaina sUtro bhaNavAnuM cAlu karyuM. pAThazALAnA brAhmaNa zikSakanuM nAma hatuM ravizaMkara jAnI. emaNe bahecaradAsane samajAvyuM ke jaina pAThazALAmAM abhyAsa karavAnuM to ja vadhu yogya gaNAya jo rAtribhojanano tyAga thAya ane DuMgaLI, lasaNa vagere khAvAnuM choDI devAmAM Ave. bahecaradAsane pAThazALAmAM abhyAsa karavAnI laganI lAgI hatI. eTale emaNe rAtribhojana ane kaMdamULano tyAga karyo. Ama, bAlyAvasthAthI ja bahecaradAsamAM jainatvanA saMskAra paDavA lAgyA hatA. vidyAbhyAsa karyA pachI khetInA vyavasAyamAM na rahetAM tejasvI bahecaradAsa 4 * caritradarzana

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pAse AvelA gAma AjolanI pAThazALAmAM zikSaka banyA. tyAM temaNe vidyArthIone sUtro zIkhavyAM. pote zrIpAla rAjAno rAsa, caMda rAjAno rAsa vagere rAsAo vAMcatA. enI asara emanA jIvana upara paNa paDatI. ahIM teo gorajI gaNapatasAgarajI, 'sanmitra'nA nAmathI suprasiddha zrI karkharavijayajI, AjolanA brahmacaryavratadhArI zrAvaka vaidya premacaMda vagerenA gADha saMparkamAM AvyA. AjolamAM teo "mAstaranA nAmathI vadhu prasiddha banyA. emanA pavitra vyaktitvanA prabhAvathI AjolanAM keTalAMye paTela kuTuMboe jaina dharma svIkArI lIdho hato. ahIM ja emane vaLagelo cothiyo tAva ghaNA upacAra chatAM nahoto maTyo te yati gaNapatasAgarajIe ApelA maMtranA jApathI maTI gayo hato ane tethI maMtrazaktimAM emanI zraddhA daDha thaI hatI. AjolamAM ja teo ThAkaraDA-bahAravaTiyAono sAmano karavA hAthamAM DAMga laI rajapUtonI sAme nIkaLI paDyA hatA. emanI yuvAnInuM kSAtrateja tyAre jhaLakI UThyuM hatuM. - ravisAgarajI mahArAja sAtheno temano saMparka uttarottara gADha thato gayo. e saMparkathI jainadharmanA vadhu UMDA saMskAra temanAmAM AvatA gayA. rAtribhojana ane abhakSyano temaNe tyAga karyo hato. have emaNe sAmAyika, pratikramaNa vagere kriyAo cAlu karI. pAThazALAnI InAmI spardhAomAM temane inAmo maLavA lAgyAM. keTalAMye stavano temaNe kaMThastha karyA. teo judA judA sAdhumahArAjonA saMparkamAM AvyA. emAM eka vayovRddha sAdhu mahArAja zrI gumAnavijayajI pratye temane ghaNI zraddhA thaI hatI. vaLI, potAnA aMtima divasomAM ravisAgarajI mahArAje bahecaradAsane pote je roja gaNatA hatA te navakAravALI potAnI smRti tarIke ApI ane AtmasAdhanA karavAnI bhalAmaNa karI. bahecaradAsanI tyAre 23 varSanI umara hatI. teo mahArAjanI sevAcAkarI karatA. avAja emano bulaMda hato. teo mahArAjazrIne ucca svare stavana-sajhAya saMbhaLAvatA. jaina sAdhuonuM jIvana joI emane saMyamano rasa lAgyo hato. dIkSA laI sAdhu thavuM ke na thavuM tenuM maMthana temanA dilamAM cAlu thayuM hatuM. paraMtu eTaluM to nakkI karI lIdhuM hatuM ke paraNIne gRhasthAzrama mAMDavo nathI. AjolamAM bahecaradAsano vidyAbhyAsa vadhato jato hato. tyAM kAzIthI eka vRddha yati AvyA hatA. e yatie bahecaradAsane "vardhamAna vidyA', "RSimaMDala' tathA sUrimaMtra'nI gurugama AmnAyo batAvI hatI. pati kAzI pAchA pharatA hatA tyAre kAzI jaI vadhu abhyAsa karavA bahecaradAsane mana thayuM, paNa pachI e ajANyA dezamAM javAnuM mAMDI vALIne mahesANAmAM ja guru mahArAja zrI ravisAgarajInI zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAja 5

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preraNAthI sthapAyelI zrI yazovijayajI jaina saMskRta pAThazALAmAM abhyAsa karavA mATe teo Ajola choDI mahesANA jaIne rahyA. vRddhAvasthAne kAraNe zrI ravisAgarajI mahArAje tyAM sthiravAsa karyo hato. bahecaradAsa tyAM emanA vadhu gADha saMparkamAM AvyA. ghaNuMkharuM emanI pAse ja rahetA ane emanI vaiyAvacca karatA. paMcotera varSanI vayanA zrI ravisAgarajI mahArAje keTalAka divasa pahelAM potAnA kALadharmanA divasanI AgAhI karI dIdhI hatI ane e divase padmAsana vALIne, kAusagga dhyAnamAM samAdhipUrvaka, aneka lokonI hAjarI vacce potAno deha choDyo hato. bahecaradAsa aMtima kSaNa sudhI emanI pAse ja rahyA hatA. zrI ravisAgarajI mahArAje potAnA aMtima divasomAM evI eka AgAhI karatAM bahecaradAsane kahyuM hatuM ke AgaLa jatAM tuM dIkSA leze ane amArA samudAyamAM tuM moTuM nAma kADhaze. bahecaradAsane emaNe nIce pramANe keTalIka mahattvanI zikhAmaNo paNa ApI hatI. (1) bhaNatara AtmAne tAravA mATe che. cauda pUrvanA dhAraka munio paNa pramAdathI patita thayA che. mATe bhaNIgaNIne rAgadveSa na thAya e ja dhyAnamAM rAkhavAnuM che. (2) bhaNyA-gaNyAno ahaMkAra na karavo. (3) darekanI sAthe kAraNa paDaghe jarUra pUratuM ja bolavuM. (4) ghaNA sAdhuonA samAgamamAM viveka ne vinayapUrvaka bhale AvavuM, paNa ekabIjAe karelI vAto manamAM rAkhavI. sAdhuonI pAse khAnagImAM bahu besavuM nahi. (5) koI paNa manuSya mATe ekadama sAro ke ekadama khoTo abhiprAya bAMdhI devo nahi. (6) potAnA abhyAsamAM citta rAkhavuM. koInA ghare jamavA javuM tyAM strIvarga sAme jovuM nahi. jamyA bAda tarata upAzrayamAM cAlyA AvavuM. (8) dararoja nava vAge mane 'navasmaraNa" saMbhaLAvavAM, kAraNa ke tane zuddha rIte bolatAM AvaDe che. zrI ravisAgarajI mahArAjanA kALadharmathI bahecaradAse jANe zirachatra gumAvyA jeTaluM duHkha anubhavyuM. teo temanI pAse hRdaya kholIne vAta karI zakatA ane temanI pAsethI niHsvArtha, sAcuM mArgadarzana vAtsalyapUrvaka maLI zakatuM. zrI ravisAgarajInA kALadharma pachI bahecaradAse ane emanA eka mitra 6 caritradarzana

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mohanalAle DAbhalA nAmanA gAme "sanmitra' pU. karkharavijayajI pAse AjIvana brahmacaryanI pratijJA lIdhI hatI. vi. saM. 1956mAM bhayaMkara dukALa paDyo. chappaniyA dukALa tarIke te jANIto thayo. e arasAmAM bahecaradAsa jyAre amadAvAdamAM hatA tyAre zeTha nAthubhAIno patra maLyo. temAM jaNAvyuM hatuM ke, bahecaradAsanAM mAtA ane pitA baMne pAMceka divasanA aMtare avasAna pAmyAM che. bahecaradAsa tarata vijApura AvyA. mAtApitAnI uttarakriyA karI. e nimitte mAnelI zatruMjayanI tIrthayAtrA paNa teo karI AvyA. vairAgya tarapha emanuM mana vadhatuM jatuM hatuM. vi. saM. 1957mAM emaNe ravisAgarajInA ziSya sukhasAgarajI mahArAja pAse jaI pAlanapuramAM 27 varSanI yuvAna vaye dIkSA aMgIkAra karI. bahecaradAsa paTela have muni buddhisAgara banyA. muni tarIke AjIvana khAdI paheravAno temaNe niyama lIdho. munijIvananuM teo custapaNe pAlana karavA lAgyA. potAnI UMcI paDachaMda kAyAne anurUpa jADo vajanadAra daDo teo hAthamAM rAkhatA. teo potAnI brahmacaryanI sAdhanA nava vADa sAthe niSThApUrvaka karatA. strI sAme dRSTi karatA nahi. vyAkhyAna sivAya strIo potAne saMparkamAM Ave nahi te mATe saMghone kaDaka sUcanA ApatA. buddhisAgara mahArAja atyaMta tejasvI, zraddhAvAna ane vidyAvyAsaMgI hatA. emaNe jhaDapathI zAstrAbhyAsa cAlu karyo. jaina ane anya dharmanA aneka graMtho teo vAMcavA lAgyA. bRhadsaMgrahaNI, kSetrasamAsa, uttarAdhyayana, dazavaikAlika, karmagraMtha, tarkasaMgraha, suyagaDAMga sUtra, prakaraNa ratnAkara, jaina kathAratna koza, yazovijayajI, AnaMdaghanajI ane devacaMdrajInI covIsIo, zrI AtmArAmajI mahArAjanA graMtho vagere uparAMta anya darzanonA graMthomAM zrImad bhagavadgItA, zrImad bhAgavata, tulasIkRta rAmAyaNa, zikSApatrI vagere aneka graMtho vAMcI lIdhA hatA. rojanAM pAMcaso jeTalAM pAnAM teo vAMcI letA. emanI grahaNazakti ghaNI sArI hatI. AvA aneka graMthonA vAcanathI emanI tarkazakti, tAratamyazakti vizeSa khIlavA lAgI hatI. dIkSA pachI prathama cAtumasa vi. saM. 1957mAM suratamAM thayuM. e samaye jaina sAdhumAMthI khristI banI gayelA jayamalla nAmanA eka bhAI khristI dharmano bahu pracAra karavA lAgyA hatA. tyAre tenI ekeeka dalIlano tarkayukta zAstrIya uttara Apato jenadharma ane khristI dharmano mukAbalo' nAmano grantha buddhisAgarajI mahArAje lakhyo. emanA e prathama graMthathI lekhaka tarIkenI, vicAraka tarIkenI ane zAstrajJa tarIke temanI UMcI zaktino paricaya badhAne thayo. A rIte yuvAna sAdhu buddhisAgarano prabhAva aneka loko upara paDavA lAgyo. zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAja

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suratanA cAturmAsa daramiyAna bIjI eka ghaTanA banI. suratamAM zrI kamalavijayanA zrI mohanavijaya nAmanA eka ziSya hatA. emane acAnaka gAMDapaNa UpaDeluM ane bahu tophAna teo macAvatA. emane phepharuM paNa AvatuM. ghaNA upacAra karyA chatAM te maTatuM ja nahotuM. bhUta, preta ke vaLagADamAM zrI kamalavijaya mAnatA nahotA. paraMtu potAnA A ziSyathI teo have thAkyA hatA ane ziSyane paNa ghaNo badho trAsa paDato hato. loko paNa temane kaMIka maMtrasAdhanA karavA vinaMtI karatA hatA. muni buddhisAgara maMtrataMtranA sArA jANakAra hatA ane gRhasthAvasthAmAM paNa teo sApa, vIMchI, AdhAzIzI vagere utArI ApatA hatA. emane kahevAmAM AvyuM. guru mahArAjanI AjJA laI munizrI buddhisAgara zrI mohanavijaya pAse gayA. maMtra bhaNIne vaLagADane paDakAra karyo. mohanavijaye ghaNuM tophAna macAvyuM. paNa pachI dhIme dhIme zAMta paDyA ane svastha thayA. e kSaNathI emano e roga kAyamane mATe cAlyo gayo. ethI zrI buddhisAgaranI maMtrazaktinI comera prazaMsA thavA lAgI. zrI buddhisAgaranA camatkAraka prabhAvanI suratamAM banelI bIjI eka ghaTanA paNa noMdhAyelI che. eka divasa savAramAM teo tApI nadInA kinAre spaMDila jaI pAchA pharatA hatA tyAM kinArA upara eka mAchImAra mAchalI pakaDavA mATe potAnI jALa pANImAM nAkhI rahyo hato. mahArAjazrIe ene tema na karavA samajAvyo; jaina sAdhunI hAjarImAM AvuM hiMsAnuM kAma karavuM yogya nathI ema paNa kahyuM. paraMtu mAchImAra mAnyo nahi ane uddhatAIthI javAba ApavA lAgyo. eTale mahArAjazrIe ene kahyuM ke, "bhale, tAre je karavuM hoya te kara, paNa Aje eka paNa mAchalI nahi Ave." ema kahIne mahArAjazrI tyAM besI gayA. maMtra bhaNIne eka kAMkarI pANImAM nAkhI ane e gyA sAme tAkIne besI rahyA. kalAkathI vadhu samaya thaI gayo paNa eka paNa mAchalI pakaDAI nahi eTale mAchImAra vimAsaNamAM paDyo. mahAtmAno ja A camatkAra che enI khAtarI thatAM e emane page paDyo. mAphI mAgI ane potAnI jALa saMkelI cAlyo gayo. surata pachI mahArAjazrInuM cAturmAsa pAdarAmAM hatuM. tyAM eka divasa emaNe aDadhI rAte jAgIne padmAsana vALIne dhyAna dharyA pachI AgAhI karI hatI ke pAdarA upara koI moTI Apatti AvI rahI che. tyAra pachI thoDA divasamAM ja pAdarAmAM plegano bhayaMkara rogacALo phATI nIkaLyo hato. aneka mANaso e upadravamAM mRtyu pAmyA. gAma khAlI thavA lAgyuM. saMghanI vinaMtIthI khuda zrI sukhasAgarajI mahArAja, zrI buddhisAgara mahArAja vagere sAdhuo cAturmAsa daramiyAna pAdarA choDI vaDodarA padhAryA ane tyAM temaNe cAturmAsa pUrNa karyuM hatuM. 8 ka caritradarzana

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lekhanazakti sAthe sAthe zrI buddhisAgara mahArAjanI vyAkhyAnanI zakti paNa khIlavA lAgI. zikSaka tarIke bolavAno mahAvaro to hato ja. temane sAMbhaLavA mATe jaina-ajaina ghaNA zrotAo AvatA. buddhisAgara mahArAje potAnA guru mahArAja sAthe tyAra pachI pAdarA, mahesANA, mANasA, vijApura, sANaMda, amadAvAda, surata, muMbaI, pethApura vagere sthaLe cAturmAsa karyo. uttarottara temanI zakti ghaNI vikasatI jatI hatI. vi. saM. 1969mAM emanA guru sukhasAgarajI mahArAja amadAvAdamAM jhaverIvADa, AMbalI poLanA upAzraye kALadharma pAmyA. have samudAyamAM pote sauthI moTA rahyA hatA. eTale pethApuramAM tyAMnA saMghe vi. saM. 1970mAM emane AcAryanI padavI ApI. teo zrI buddhisAgarasUri thayA. buddhisAgara mahArAja ekAvana varSanI nAnI uMmare vijApuramAM saM. 1981mAM kALadharma pAmyA hatA. dIkSAnAM covIsa jeTalAM varSa emane maLyAM eTalAM varSa daramiyAna emaNe je kArya karyuM te ajoDa che. emanA saMparkamAM AvelI keTalIka vyaktio Aje paNa hayAta che. emanI pAsethI buddhisAgara mahArAjanA prabhAvazALI vyaktitvanI aneka yAdagAra vAto sAMbhaLavA maLe che. covIsa varSanA dIkSAparyAyamAM buddhisAgara mahArAje 110 karatAM vadhu graMthonI racanA karI, jemAMthI 108 jeTalA graMtho emanI hayAtI daramiyAna chapAI gayA hatA. teo pote kavi hatA, saMzodhaka hatA, vivaraNakAra hatA, adhyAtmayogI hatA. 'karmayoga', "AnaMdaghanajInAM pado, paramAtmajyoti', paramAtmadarzana', 'tattvajJAnadIpikA', "yogadIpaka', "adhyAtmazAMti', "padravya-vicAra', "dhyAnavicAra', tIrthayAtrAnuM vimAna', "ziSyopaniSada', "adhyAtma mahAvIra', "bhajanapada saMgraha, zrImad devacaMdra' (bhAga 1 ane 2) vagere temanA aneka graMtho suprasiddha che. saMskRta bhASAmAM emaNe mahAvIragItA' nAmano maulika kAvyagraMtha lakhyo che je kavi, lekhaka, ciMtaka tarIkenI temanI viziSTa koTinI pratibhAno paricaya karAve che, temaja saMskRta bhASA uparanA emanA prabhutvanI pratIti karAve che. buddhisAgara mahArAje dIkSA lIdhA pachI paNa vividha dharmonA aneka graMthonuM vAcana karyuM hatuM. emaNe devacaMdrasUrikata "AgamasAra' graMtha so vakhata vAMcyo hato. zrImad bhagavadgItA cha vakhata vAMcI hatI. eka beThake saLaMga cha kalAka besI teo vAMcI jatA. "AcArAMgasUtra'nuM adhyayana traNa vAra karyuM hatuM. temanI vAMcavAnI ekAgratA abhuta hatI. temano Akho divasa lekhana ane vAcanamAM pasAra thato. pethApuramAM cAturmAsa daramiyAna potAno aMtakALa najIka Avyo jANIne potAnA 20thI vadhu graMtho zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAja - 9

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ekasAthe emaNe chApavA mATe ApI dIdhA hatA. emanA samayamAM phAunTana-pena te samayano zabda inDIpena)no vaparAza cAlu thayo hato, paraMtu temaNe pote InDIpena kyAreya vAparI na hatI. ghaNuMkharuM pensilathI lakhatA athavA zAhInA khaDiyAmAM baruno kitto boLIne lakhatA. jyAre lakhatA tyAre rojanI bAreka jeTalI pensilo vaparAtI. emanuM lekhanakArya 20 hajAra pAnAMthI vadhu thayeluM che. teo lakhavA mATe meja vAparatA nahi. paraMtu potAnA ghUMTaNa upara kAgaLa rAkhI TTAra besI lakhatA. teo sAdhujIvanamAM kyAreya bhIMtane aDhelI beThA nahotA. AvI ekAgratAthI cIvaTapUrvaka teo potAnuM lekhanakArya karye jatA. teo potAnI rojanIzI lakhatA ane temAM pote vihAra vize tathA je graMtho vAMcyA hoya athavA jenI jenI sAthe tattvacarcA karI hoya tenI noMdha rAkhatA. zrI buddhisAgara mahArAje borIA mahAdeva (Ajola ane lodarA gAmanI pAse)mAM rahetA dakSiNI svAmI sadAziva sarasvatI - borIA svAmI pAse haThayoga, prANAyAma, dhyAna, samAdhi ItyAdino UMDo abhyAsa karyo hato. teo kalAko sudhI samAdhimAM sthira besI zakatA. temane keTalIka yogasiddhio prApta thaI hatI. alabatta, teo tenI jAherAta karatA nahi. paraMtu koI adhikArI jijJAsu hoya to tene potAno prayoga gupta rIte batAvatA. yogasamAdhimAM lIna thaI potAnA zarIrane teo jamInathI adhdhara rAkhI zakatA. emanA e prayoganI noMdha najare jonArAoe lakhelI che. vaDodarAnA sara manubhAI dIvAna ane DaoN. sumanta mahetAnI vinaMtIthI temaNe potAnA hRdaya ane nADInA dhabakArA baMdha karI batAvyA hatA. aneka lokone temanA AzIrvAdathI ke sparzathI potAnuM duHkha dUra thayAnA anubhavo thayA hatA. zrI buddhisAgara mahArAja potAnI dhyAnasAdhanA mATe ekAMtasthaLa vadhu pasaMda karatA. kyAreka te mATe nadIkinAre ke jaMgalamAM ke pahADa upara jatA; bhoMyarA jevI jagyAmAM besatA. vi. saM. 1967mAM cAturmAsa mATe muMbaI padhArelA tyAre pAchA pharatAM rastAmAM borIvalI pAsenI kenerInI guphAo vize mAhitI maLatAM e guphAomAM jaIne temaNe yogasAdhanA karI hatI. teo jyAM jyAM vicaratA tyAM tyAM vedAMtI saMnyAsIo, svAminArAyaNa saMpradAyanA sAdhuo, AryasamAjI vidvAno, musalamAna oliyA ane phakIro, khristI pAdarIo, bhajaniko, bharatharIo vagere sarva dharmanA loko temanAM darzana mATe ane temanuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA ekatra thatA. temanA vihAranuM mukhya kSetra sAbarakAMThA hatuM. vijApura, amadAvAda, mANasA, pethApura, mahesANA, sANaMda, pAdarA vagere sthaLoe temanA cAturmAsa thayAM hatAM. e jamAno briTiza sarakAranI sAthe sAthe dezI 10 ka caritradarzana

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rAjAono paNa hato. IDara, mANasA, pethApura, dharamapura, lIMbodarA, aluvA, sANaMda, varasoDA vagere rAjyanA rAjavIo, ThAkoro temanAM vyAkhyAno sAMbhaLavA mATe padhAratA. vaDodarAnA sayAjIrAva gAyakavADe khAsa nimaMtraNa ApIne potAnA lakSmIvilAsa mahelamAM emanuM vyAkhyAna goThavyuM hatuM, jethI bIjA loko sAthe emanA kuTuMbano mahilAvarga mahArAjazrInA vyAkhyAnano lAbha laI zake. mahArAjazrInI vyAkhyAnazailI eTalI saraLa, rocaka ane prasaMgAnusAra rahetI ke jethI keTalAya rAjavIoe zikAra, mAMsa, jugAra ane madirAno tyAga karyo hato. sayAjIrAva gAyakavADe dazerAne divase vaDodarAmAM thato pADAno vadha, zrI buddhisAgarasUrijInI preraNAthI kAyama mATe baMdha karAvI dIdho hato. - zrI buddhisAgara mahArAjanI pratibhA evI hatI ke jyAM jyAM pote vicaratA tyAM tyAM tarata temanAM vyAkhyAno goThavAtAM ane sarva dharmanA seMkaDo, hajAro loko temane sAMbhaLavA AvatA. dareka sthaLe saMgha, samAja ke gAmanA AgevAno paNa temanAM vyAkhyAnamAM AvIne besatA. amadAvAdamAM hatA tyAre sva. AnaMdazaMkara dhruva, sva. kezava harSada dhruva, kavi nAnAlAla vagere paNa temanI pAse AvatA. mahArAjazrI pote paNa koI paNa prakArano saMkoca ke moTAI rAkhyA vagara sArA sArA mANasone, sAdhusaMnyAsIone, kavi-lekhakone sAmethI maLavA jatA ane nikhAlasa carcA karatA. teo gAMdhIjIne paNa maLyA hatA. vAdavivAdathI teo dUra rahetA hatA ane niSpakSa tathA niHsvArthabhAvathI vicAraNA karatA. amadAvAdamAM zrI amIrakhajI vagere sthAnakavAsI sAdhuoe mUrtipUjA vize emanI sAthe carcA karI tyAre eTalI taTastha rIte, AdhAro sahita, baMne pakSa pratye pUrA samabhAvathI rajUAta karI ke zrI amIrakhajI svAmI emanI pAse, potAnA munione laIne AvyA ane teoe emanI pAse mUrtipUjaka samudAyanI dIkSA lIdhI. zrI amIrakhajI svAmI bahu tejasvI ane dekhAve prabhAvazALI hatA. teo zrI ajitasAgarajI banyA ane samaya jatAM mahArAjazrInA paTTaziSya banyA. teo kuzaLa vaktA hatA ane temaNe paNa ghaNA graMtho lakhyA hatA. zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAjanA jIvana ane sAhitya upara AnaMdaghanajI, devacaMdrajI ane upAdhyAya yazovijayajInA sAhityanI ghaNI UMDI asara paDI che. e traNenuM jIvanacaritra emaNe lakhyuM che. devacaMdrajInA graMthonuM emaNe saMpAdana karIne be bhAgamAM prakAzana karyuM hatuM. AnaMdaghanajInAM pado upara emaNe savistara je vivecana karyuM che te jotAM tattvanA UMDANamAM javAnI temanI adhikArazakti keTalI moTI che tenI pratIti thAya che. sva. buddhisAgarasUrie pote paNa aneka pado, stavano, zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAja 11

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sajjhAyo, pUjAo vagerenI racanA karI che, jemAM emanI bhaktivairAgyayukta kavitvazaktinuM subhaga darzana thAya che. emaNe vi. saM. 1967mAM bhAkhelI bhaviSyavANI ke 'rAjAo sAmAnya mAnava thaze, rAjAzAhI jaze ne vijJAnanI vidyAthI eka khaMDanI khabaro bIjA khaMDamAM tatkSaNa Avaze' e sAcI paDI che. zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAje jainonA vyAvahArika ane dhArmika vidyAbhyAsa upara ghaNo bhAra mUkyo hato. vaNika jaino vepAradhaMdhAmAM jeTalA pravINa hoya che teTalA vidyAvyAsaMgI nathI hotA. e mATe emanI bhAvanA jaina gurukuLo sthApavAnI hatI. emaNe pAlitANAmAM zrI yazovijyajI jaina gurukuLanI sthApanA ane vikAsa mATe preraNA ApI hatI. amadAvAdamAM tathA vaDodarAmAM paNa jaina borDiMganI sthApanA karAvI hatI. emaNe jinAlayonI prANapratiSThA, upadhAna mahotsavo, cha'rI pALatA saMgho ityAdinuM Ayojana paNa karAvyuM hatuM; pAThazALAo ane dharmazALAonI sthApanA karAvI hatI. vijApuramAM hastalikhita pratonA bhaMDAra mATe 'jJAnamaMdira'nI sthApanA karAvI hatI. mahuDInuM ghaMTAkarNa mahAvIranuM sthAnaka e emanI jIvaMta smRti samAna banI gayuM che. emanI preraNAthI mANasAmAM sthapAyeluM 'zrI adhyAtma jJAnaprasAraka maMDaLa' sAteka dAyakAthI emanA graMthonA prakAzananI pravRtti Aja divasa sudhI karatuM AvyuM che. zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAje emanA jamAnAmAM joyuM hatuM ke keTalAya duHkhI jaina loko potAnAM duHkha dUra karavA mATe pIra vagerenI mAnatA rAkhatA hatA. AthI emaNe lokonA e pravAhane vALavA mATe ghaMTAkarNa vIra nAmanA devanI sAdhanA karIne emano sAkSAtkAra karyo hato. temAM potAne jevI AkRti dekhAI tevI mUrti mahuDIthI mULacaMda mistrIne bolAvIne temanI pAse taiyAra karAvIne mahuDImAM zrI padmaprabhunA jinAlayanI bahAra tenI sthApanA karAvI. tyArathI e tIrthakSetra mahimAvaMtuM banatuM gayuM che. yoganA UMDA abhyAsI hovAnA kAraNe zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAjane potAno aMtimakALa jaNAI gayo hato. vi. saM. 1981nA jeTha vada 2nA divase teo mahuDImAM hatA tyAre potAne vijApura laI javA mATe bhaktone kahyuM hatuM. savAre ATha vAge nIkaLavAno samaya jozIe kADhI Apyo hato. temAM pote pheraphAra karAvyo ane vahelA nIkaLyA ane jeTha vada 3nA divase savAre ATha vAgatAM vijApura pahoMcI gayA. badhAne khamAvIne potAno priya maMtra 'OM arham mahAvI'no jApa pote cAlu karyo ane ziSyo tathA ekatra thayelI mAnavamedanI pAse e jApa cAlu rakhAvyo. padmAsanamAM besI pote samAdhi lIdhI ane prANa rUMdhIne savA ATha vAgye deha choDyo. 12 caritradarzana

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emanA kALadharma pAmyAnA samAcAra cAre bAju prasarI gayA. - zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAjanA jIvananA aneka preraka prasaMgo che. emanuM sAhitya atyaMta vipula che. emanA jIvana ane sAhityano abhyAsa karavAthI zAstrajJa, marmajJa, bahuzruta, saMyamapAlanamAM atyaMta kaDaka, anekanAM dila jItanAra, vAtsalyamUrti zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAjanI eka anokhI chApa ApaNA cittamAM aMkita thAya che. aneka lokone sanmArge vALanAra e bhavyAtmAnuM jIvana-kavana sau koIne mATe preraNArUpa thAya tevuM che. prabhAvaka sthaviro-bhA. 1mAMthI) zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAja 13

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zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja potAnA guruvarya zrI buTerAyajI mahArAja tathA gurubaMdhu zrI mULacaMdajI sAthe paMjAbathI gujarAtamAM AvIne sva. pU. zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje je bhagIratha kArya karyuM teno itihAsa bhavya che. zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjano janma paMjAbamAM gujarAnavAlA jillAmAM rAmanaga2 nAmanA zaheramAM vi. saM. 1890nA poSa suda 11nA roja thayo hato. mAtApitAe emanuM nAma kRpArAma rAkhyuM hatuM. emanA pitAnuM nAma hatuM lAlA dharmayazajI ane mAtAnuM nAma hatuM kRSNAdevI. teo vIsA osavAla jJAtinA, bhAvaDA vaMzanA ane gadahiyA gotranA jaina hatA. kRpArAmane cAra bhAIo ane eka bahena hatAM. bhAIonAM nAma hatAM : (1) lAlacaMda (2) musadIlAla (3) hajArImala ane (4) hemarAja. bahenanuM nAma hatuM rAdhAdevI. lAlA dharmayazajI sukhI zrImaMta hatA. temano vepAra sonAcAMdIno, kApaDano ane zarAphIno hato. zaheramAM temanI moTI dukAna hatI. kRpArAme gAmanI zALAmAM abhyAsa karyo ane cauda varSanI uMmara thatAM pitAnI dukAne sonA-cAMdInA vepAramAM joDAI gayA hatA. e divasomAM nAnI uMmaramAM lagna thatAM. kRpArAmanA moTA bhAIonAM lagna thaI gayAM hatAM. tyAra pachI kRpArAmanI sagAI karavAmAM AvI hatI. paraMtu koIka kAraNasara e sagAI tUTI gaI hatI. eTale emanI bIjI sagAI karavA mATe mAtApitA vAtacIta calAvI rahyAM hatAM. paraMtu kRpArAmano jIvanano rAha kaMI judo ja hato. e divasomAM rAmanagaramAM pUjya buTerAyajI mahArAjanuM comAsuM hatuM. emanI sAthe emanA ziSya mULacaMdajI 14 * ciratradarzana

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mahArAja paNa hatA. mULacaMdajI paMjAbanA e pradezamAM e kALe lukApaMthI sthAnakavAsI sAdhu, DhuMDhaka rIkho (RSi) hatA. dharmayazajInuM kuTuMba emanI madhura vANI sAMbhaLavA upAzraye jatuM. kizora kRpArAma upara enI ghaNI prabaLa asara paDI. emaNe potAnI sagAI karavAno mAtApitAne inkAra karI dIdho ane potAne dIkSA levAno bhAva thayo che ema jaNAvyuM. AthI mAtApitA, bhAIbhAMDuo ciMtAmAM paDI gayAM. teo kRpArAmane upAzraye jatA aTakAvavA lAgyAM eTale lAga joI upAzraye jaI tyAM ja divasa-rAta rahevAnuM kRpArAme cAlu karyuM. mAtA-pitAe kRpArAmane zrImaMta sukhI gharanI sagavaDo, kauTuMbika jIvanano AnaMda, sAdhupaNAnAM kaSTo vagere samajAvavA mAMDyAM. paNa kRpArAma to haTha laIne beThA hatA ke potAne dIkSA ja levI che. cAturmAsa pachI buTerAyajI mahArAja to vihAra karIne cAlyA gayA. tAraTapAla ke relave vagaranA e divasomAM emano saMparka rAkhavAnuM saheluM nahotuM. paraMtu kRpArAme to dIkSA levAnI ja vAta karyA karI. ethI pitAjI tathA moTA bhAIo emane vAraMvAra dhamakAvavA lAgyA. kyAreka mAravA lAgyA. tema chatAM tenI kAMI asara na thaI. kRpArAma mAnyA nahi. AthI krodhe bharAyelA bhAIoe zaheranA tahasIladAra hakIma pAse jaIne phariyAda karI. zaheranA zrImaMta vepArI eTale tarata phariyAdanI asara thaI. tahasIladAra zekha jAtino musalamAna hato. eNe sipAIone mokalI kRpArAmane pakaDIne kacerImAM laI AvavA kahyuM. kRpArAmane pakaDI lAvIne kacerImAM pUravAmAM AvyA. tahasIladAre paNa kRpArAmane dhamakAvyA, satAvyA paNa kRpArAme emanI sAthe saMsAranI asAratAnI ja vAta karI ane pote dIkSA levA mATe pratijJAbaddha che ema kahyuM. chevaTe tahasIladAra paNa thAkyA. emaNe lAlA dharmayazajIne bolAvIne kahyuM ke "tamAro dIkaro koI paNa rIte mAnaze nahi. saMsAranI asAratA ene samajAI che. vairAgya enA dilamAM sAcI rIte vasyo che. dIkSA levAno eno nirdhAra che. e lagna nahi ja kare. mATe tame ene dIkSA levAnI rajA Apo e ja barAbara che.' A rIte samajAvavAmAM, dhAkadhamakI ApavAmAM, herAna karavAmAM traNa varSa pasAra thaI gayAM. chevaTe mAtApitAne lAgyuM ke dIkarAne dIkSA ApavI ja paDaze eTale teoe nAchUTake saMmati ApI. te vakhate buTerAyajI mahArAja vihAra karIne dilhI pahoMcyA hatA. temanuM cAturmAsa dilhImAM hatuM. kRpArAmane dIkSA levAnI saMmati maLI eTale emanA eka ajaina mitra aroDA jAtinA yuvAna jIvanamale paNa dIkSA levAno vicAra karyo. eNe paNa dIkSA mATe zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja 15

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mAtApitA pAse ghaNI mahenata pachI saMmati meLavI. teo baMne dilhI javA nIkaLyA. e divasomAM tyAM relave nahotI. pravAsanAM khAsa sAdhano nahotAM. baLadagADI ane ghoDA upara pravAsa thato. kRpArAmane mAtApitA ane kuTuMbIjanoe bhAre haiye vidAya ApI. temanI sAthe mAsInA dIkarA tathA eka nokarane mokalyA. vaLI buTerAyajI mahArAjane bhalAmaNaciThThI lakhI ke hAla kRpArAmane gRhasthaveze abhyAsa karAvajo ane cAturmAsa pachI dIkSA Apajo. kRpArAma ane jIvanamala dilhI AvI pahoMcyA. buTerAyajI mahArAja pAse abhyAsa cAlu karyo. ema karatAM doDha mahino thaI gayo. have cAturmAsa zarU thavAne thoDA divasa hatA. kRpArAmano vairAgya eTalo tIvra hato ke cAturmAsa pahelAM dIkSA levAno temaNe Agraha rAkhyo, kAraNa ke cAturmAsamAM dIkSA apAya nahi. vaLI cAra mahinAmAM saMjogo kevA badalAI jAya enI zI khabara paDe ? eTale avasara barAbara jANI laI tathA baMne yuvAnonA vairAgyanA bhAvanI barAbara kasoTI karIne gurumahArAje cAturmAsa besatAM pahelAM aSADha suda 13 (saM. 1908)nA roja teo baMnene dIkSA ApI. kRpArAmanuM nAma muni vRddhicaMdrajI rAkhavAmAM AvyuM ane jIvanamalanuM nAma muni AnaMdacaMdajI rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. cAturmAsa pahelAM dIkSA ApavAmAM AvI e sAruM ja thayuM, kAraNa ke dIkSA pachI thoDA divase rAmanagarathI kRpArAmane teDI javA mATe pitAzrIno mANasa Avyo hato, kAraNa ke kRpArAmanA eka bhAInuM avasAna thayuM hatuM. dIkSA samayasa2 levAI gaI ethI muni vRddhicaMdrajIne bahu AnaMda thayo. dilhIthI vihAra karI buTerAyajI mahArAja potAnA ziSyo sAthe jayapura padhAryA. emanI bhAvanA gujarAta bAju vihAra karavAnI hatI. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje saM. 1909nuM cAturmAsa guru mahArAja sAthe yapuramAM karyuM hatuM. sAthe muni mUlacaMdajI, muni premacaMdajI tathA muni AnaMdacaMdajI mahArAja paNa hatA. A cAturmAsamAM abhyAsano vizeSa lAbha thayo kAraNa ke jayapuramAM hIrAcaMdajI nAmanA eka vidvAna yati hatA. vRddhicaMdrajIne jotAM ja temane temanA upara prIti thaI hatI. temaNe vRddhicaMdrajIne saMskRta-prAkRtamAM vyAkaraNa bhaNAvavAnuM tathA bIjA keTalAka graMthono abhyAsa karAvavAnuM utsAhathI svIkAryuM. vRddhicaMdrajInI sAthe anya munione paNa A lAbha maLyo. jyapuramAM hatA tyAre guru mahArAja traNe ziSyo ane keTalAka zrAvako sAthe pAse sAMganeramAM darzana karavA gayA hatA. rastAmAM nadI AvatI hatI te pA2 ka2vAnI hatI. jatAM to teo pahoMcI gayA, paraMtu buTerAyajI mahArAjane pagane taLiye phollA 16 caritradarzana

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UpaDI AvyA. have calAtuM baMdha thaI gayuM. eTale teone rAtrivAsa tyAM ja rahevuM paDyuM. paraMtu darda jeTaluM zamavuM joIe teTaluM zamyuM nahi. bIje divase pAchA pharatAM guru mahArAjathI calAtuM nahotuM. Teko laIne thoDuM cAlatA, thoDo ArAma karatA. paraMtu nadInA kAMThAno pradeza Avyo tyAM to cAlavuM azakya thaI gayuM hatuM. e vakhate vRddhicaMdrajIe guru mahArAjane potAnA khabhe UMcakI lIdhA. bIjA zrAvakoe paNa temAM madada karI. paNa sauthI vadhu jahemata to vRddhicaMdrajIe uThAvI hatI. jayapuranA cAturmAsa pachI guru mahArAja sAthe vihAra karI teo kizanagaDha padhAryA. tyAMthI ajamera padhAryA. te vakhate teonI have jinapratimAmAM zraddhA daDha thaI hatI eTale zatruMjaya tIrthanI yAtrA karavAnI abhilASA jAgI. daramiyAna bikAneranA zrAvako cAturmAsa mATe vinaMtI karavA AvyA hatA. cAturmAsa pachI zatruMjayanI yAtrA mATe tarata vihAra karavo hato paNa A varSe vRddhicaMdrajIne page vAnuM sakhata darda cAlu thayuM hatuM, eTale teo bahu lAMbo vihAra karI zakatA nahi. eTale teo guru mahArAja sAthe bikAnera padhAryA. mUlacaMdajI mahArAjanuM jaMghAbaLa sAruM hatuM eTale teo lAMbA vihAra karI zakatA. temaNe guru mahArAjanI AjJA laI sIdho pAlitANA tarapha vihAra cAlu karyo ane tyAM pahoMcI zatruMjaya mahAtIrthanI yAtrA karI cAturmAsa tyAM ja karyuM. muni premacaMdajI ane muni AnaMdacaMdajIe gurumahArAjanI AjJA laI potapotAno svataMtra vihAra karI anyatra comAsuM karyuM. bikAneranA cAturmAsa daramiyAna muni vRddhicaMdrajIe guru mahArAja pAse zAstrono gahana abhyAsa karyo, paraMtu ahIM kharataragacchanA yationuM varcasva vadhAre hatuM. zrAvakonI kriyAvidhi paNa judI hatI. eTale teo potAnI DhaMDhaka samAcArImAM paNa thoDo thoDo pheraphAra karatA rahyA hatA. | bikAneramAM hatA tyAre ajameranA saMghano buTerAyajI mahArAja upara patra Avyo ke "ajameramAM DhuMDhIAnA pUjya ratanacaMda zIkha ApanI sAthe mUrtipUjA vize zAstrArtha karavA mAge che.' buTerAyajI to e mATe sajja ja hatA. tarata teo vRddhicaMdrajI sAthe tyAMthI vihAra karI ajamera pahoMcyA. ratanacaMdajIe terApaMthanuM khaMDana karatI eka prata lakhI hatI. rastAmAM buTerAyajIne e prata maLI. te vAMcatAM ja lAgyuM ke ratanacaMdajInAM vAkyothI ja mUrtipUjA siddha thaI zake ema che. paraMtu teo ajamera pahoMcyA tyAre Azcarya sAthe jANyuM ke ratanacaMdajI tyAMthI cUpacApa nIkaLIne bIje cAlyA gayA hatA. Ama ajamera AvavAnuM prayojana na saryuM. paraMtu ethI bIjo eka lAbha thayo. teonI IcchA siddhAcalajInI yAtrAe javAnI hatI. vihAra lAMbo ane kaThina hato. mArgamAM zrAvakonAM ghara ochAM AvatAM. evAmAM ajamerathI zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja 17

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kesariyAjIno eka saMgha nIkaLato hato. teoe buTerAyajI ane vRddhicaMdrajIne joDAvA vinaMtI karI eTale teo temAM joDAI gayA. teoe saMgha sAthe prayANa karyuM. eTale vihAra-gocarI vagerenI anukULatA paNa rahevA lAgI. udayapura thaI kesariyAjI tIrthanI teoe jAtrA karI. tyAM vaLI bIjI anukULatA prApta thaI. te vakhate gujarAtamAM prAMtijathI kesariyAjI Avelo eka saMgha pAcho pharI rahyo hato. saMghapatie vinaMtI karI eno svIkArI karI buTerAyajI mahArAja tathA vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja e saMgha sAthe joDaI gayA. eTale gujarAta sudhIno vihAra karI teo baMne amadAvAda pahoMcyA ane zahera bahAra zeTha haThIsiMhanI vADIe UtaryA. te vakhate derAsaranA darzane Avela nagarazeTha hemAbhAIe rastAmAM temane joyA. koI sAdhuo AvyA haze ema mAnI vaMdana karI zaheramAM upAzraya tarapha jatA hatA tyAM emane thayuM ke sAdhuo gujarAtI jevA nathI. vaLI ajameranA eka vepArInI peDhI amadAvAdamAM hatI tyAM saMdezo Avyo hato ke be paMjAbI sAdhuo gujarAta tarapha AvI rahyA che ane teo bahu vidvAna, guNavAna, caritrazIla ane paricaya karavA jevA che. e vAta zeTha hemAbhAIe sAMbhaLI hatI eTale rastAmAM ja emane thayuM ke A be paMjAbI sAdhuo to nahi hoya ne ! tarata DelAnA upAzraya AvIne teo gaNi saubhAgyavijayanA vyAkhyAnamAM beThA. te daramiyAna saubhAgyavijayajIne e be sAdhuonI vAta karI. tarata temane teDavA mANasa mokalAyo. buTerAyajI mahArAja tathA vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja DelAnA upAzraye AvI pahoMcyA. temano paricaya thatAM saubhAgyavijayajI bahu AnaMdita thayA. bIjI bAju gujarAtamAM AvA saMvegI sAdhuonAM darzana thatAM buTerAyajI ane vRddhicaMdrajIne paNa bahu harSa thayo. teo thoDA divasa amadAvAdamAM rahyA. tyAM vAta sAMbhaLI ke kezarIsiMgha gaTA nAmanA eka zreSThI amadAvAda-siddhAcalano saMgha laI jAya che. A be paMjAbI sAdhuoe siddhAcalajInI yAtrA karavAnI potAnI bhAvanA darzAvelI hatI. eTale zeTha hemAbhAIe kezarIsiMghane bhalAmaNa karI ke A be sAdhuone paNa sAthe laI levAmAM Ave. kezarIsaMghe kahyuM ke, "hA, jarUra ame emane saMghamAM sAthe laI laIzuM. paraMtu amArA saMghamAM badhA yuvAno che ane je vRddho che temane mATe gADAMnI vyavasthA che. ame ATha divasamAM jhaDapathI tyAM pahoMcAvanA chIe. buTerAyajI uMmaralAyaka che. vaLI lAMbo vihAra karIne AvyA che mATe temane mATe DoLInI vyavasthA karIzuM." paraMtu buTerAyajIe DoLIno upayoga karavAnI nA pADI ane pote lAMbA vihAra karaze ema jaNAvyuM. teo baMne saMgha sAthe joDAI gayA ane caitra suda terase 18 caritradarzana

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pAlitANA pahoMcyA. vRddhicaMdrajIne page vAnI takalIpha hatI. chatAM te sahana karIne paNa teo sahunI sAthe pAlitANA pahoMcI gayA, eTaluM ja nahi paNa siddhAcalajInI yAtrAnuM varSonuM svapna sAkAra thatuM hatuM eTale pAlitANA pahoMcIne bIje divase caitra suda caudase savAre ja DuMgara caDIne jAtrA karI. AdIzvara dAdAnAM darzana karI baMnenAM hRdaya harSathI gaddagada thaI gayAM. bIje divase teoe pharIthI DuMgara caDIne caitrI pUnamanI paNa jAtrA karI. pAlitANAmAM mULacaMdajI mahArAja AvIne judI judI dharmazALAmAM UtaryA hatA. have buTerAyajI mahArAja ane vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja AvI pahoMcatAM guruziSyo eka varSa pachI pAchA ekatra thayA. pAlitANAmAM hatA tyAM sudhI jyAre jyAre anukULatA maLI tyAre tyAre teo DuMgara caDhIne jAtrA karI AvatA. teo caitra-vaizAkha pAlitANAmAM rokAyA, paNa tyAM yationuM jora hatuM. eTale cAturmAsa bIje karavuM hatuM. e mATe buTerAyajI mahArAje vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjane AsapAsanAM kSetromAM tapAsa karavA mokalyA. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja taLAjA, mahuvA, trApaja, ghoghA, sAvarakuMDalA vagere sthaLe vihAra karIne pachI bhAvanagara AvyA. anya kSetro karatAM bhAvanagaranuM kSetra emane vadhu anukULa lAgyuM. moTuM zahera hatuM. jainonI vasatI sArI hatI. loko dharmAnurAgI hatA. alabatta yati-gorajIne vadhAre mAnanArA hatA. paraMtu vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanA paricayamAM AvyA pachI zrAvakoe temane ane buTerAyajI mahArAjane cAturmAsa mATe padhAravA AgrahapUrvaka vinaMtI karI. eTale saM. 1911nuM cAturmAsa buTerAyajI mahArAje potAnA be ziSyo vRddhicaMdrajI ane premacaMdajI sAthe bhAvanagaramAM karyuM. mULacaMdajI mahArAja pAlitANAmAM yati akhecaMdajI pAse abhyAsa karavA mATe rokAyA. bhAvanagaranA cAturmAsamAM zrAvako upara teonI ghaNI moTI asara paDI. teonA custa saMyamapAlana ane zAstrajJAna mATe lokone bahu Adara thayo. buTerAyajI mahArAjanuM vyAkhyAna to sarasa rahetuM. paNa pachIthI loko vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjane vadhu maLavA AvatA. kudaratI rIte emaNe lokonAM dila jItI lIdhAM hatAM. emanI vAtacItanI ane prakRtinI saraLatAthI, sAcA vairAgyathI, karuNAdaSTithI, tarkayukta rIte samajAvavAnI zailIthI temaja madhura bhASAthI maLavA AvanArA lokonuM emanA pratyenuM AkarSaNa ghaNuM vadhI gayuM. emane pAMcadasa miniTa maLavA AvelA loko kalAka sudhI khasatA nahi. jyAre juo tyAre emanI sanmukha zrAvaka-zrAvikAo beThelAM ja hoya ane emanA mukhethI nIkaLatI vANI sAMbhaLavAmAM magna ja hoya. teo potAnI zaMkAonuM samAdhAna ane navuM mArgadarzana meLavatAM ja hoya. vRddhicaMdrajI zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja 19

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mahArAje prathama cAturmAsamAM ja bhAvanagaranA zrAvakone gheluM lagADI dIdhuM. yatio taraphano lokono rAga ocho thayo. bhAvanagaranA cAturmAsa pachI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja pAchA siddhAcalanI yAtrA ka2vA ane guru mahArAja sAthe pAlitANA gayA. tyAra pachI buTerAyajI mahArAje tathA mULacaMdajI mahArAje pAlitANAthI amadAvAda tarapha vihAra karyo ane vRddhicaMdrajI tathA premacaMdajI mahArAje giranAranI yAtrA mATe jUnAgaDha tarapha vihAra karyo. mArgamAM premacaMdajI mahArAja temanAthI judA paDI gayA. teo AcAramAM zithila thatA jatA hatA. jUnAgaDhamAM giranAranI yAtrA mATe amadAvAdathI saMgha Avyo hato, temAM muni kevaLavijyajI ane muni tilakavijayajI nAmanA be sAdhuo hatA. vRddhicaMdrajIne maLatAM ja teone potAnI sAthe joDAI javA vinaMtI karI jethI emanA zAstrajJAnano paNa potAne lAbha maLe. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanI prakRti eTalI saraLa ane gamI jAya evI hatI. teo saMgha sAthe joDAyA, paNa potAnI paganI takalIphane lIdhe thoDA vihAra pachI saMghane potAnI jhaDape AgaLa prayANa karavA kahyuM ane pote dhorAjImAM thoDA divasa mukAma karavAno vicAra karyAM. paraMtu baMne munio, saMghapati ane saMghanA mANasone vRddhicaMdrajIno saMga choDavAnuM gamatuM nahotuM. eTale teoe potAnI jhaDapa ochI karI najIka najIkanA mukAma nakkI karyA ane yAtrAno Akho kAryakrama badalI kADhyo, paNa vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjane potAnI sAthe ja rAkhyA. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja tyAre bAvIsa varSanA yuvAna hatA. baMne munio kevaLavijayajI ane tilakavijyajI temanA karatAM uMmare moTA hatA ane tapasvI hatA. eTale mukAma para pahoMcyA pachI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja te baMne mahAtmAnI sArI vaiyAvacca karatA. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja zAstrArtha karavAmAM kuzaLa hatA. temano abhyAsa ghaNo UMDo hato ane manana paNa ghaNuM karyuM hatuM. pote sthAnakavAsI hatA, paNa mUrtipUjAmAM mAnatA hatA. yAtrA daramiyAna kAlAvaDa, jAmanagara vagere sthaLe DhuMDhaka matanA je koI temanI pAse carcA karavA AvatA temane teo potAnA jJAnathI niruttara karI detA. teo amadAvAda tarapha pAchA pharI rahyA hatA tyAM samAcAra maLyA ke buTerAyajI mahArAja ane mULacaMdajI mahArAja lIMbaDImAM rokAI gayA che, kA2Na ke mULacaMdajI mahArAjane tAva Ave che. AthI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja tarata tyAM pahoMcI gayA. buTerAyajI mahArAja potAnA mAMdA ziSyanI sevAzuzrUSA premathI karatA hatA. have e javAbadArI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje laI lIdhI. tethI mULacaMdajI mahArAja prasanna thayA, kAraNa ke guru mahArAja pAse sevAcAkarI karAvatAM temane kheda thato hato. thoDuM 20 caritradarzana

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sAruM thayuM eTale teo traNee lIMbaDIthI vihAra karyo, paNa vihAranA zramane lIdhe mULacaMdajI mahArAjane pAcho tAva Avyo. eTale lIMbaDI pAchA pharavuM paDyuM. tAva sAva maTI gayo tyAra pachI vihAra karI teo traNe amadAvAdamAM AvI UjamaphoInI dharmazALAmAM UtaryA. amadAvAdamAM have teo paMnyAsa dAdA maNivijayajI tathA gaNi saubhAgyavijayajInA vadhu gADha saMparkamAM AvyA. ethI teo traNene dAdA maNivijayajI pAse mUrtipUjaka samudAyamAM saMvegI dIkSA levAnI IcchA thaI. zeTha hemAbhAIne vAta karI. temaNe dAdA maNivijayajIne vAta karI. e mATe yogavahana karavAnI AvazyakatA hatI. gaNi saubhAgyavijayajI pAse yogavahana karavAnI vyavasthA thaI. yoga pUrA thayA eTale saM. 1912mAM caturvidha saMgha samakSa dAdA maNivijayajIe teo traNene saMvegI dIkSA ApI ane muni buTerAyajInuM nAma muni buddhivijayajI, muni mULacaMdajInuM nAma muni muktivijayajI ane muni vRddhicaMdrajInuM nAma muni vRddhivijayajI rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. jaina dharmanA itihAsamAM A eka moTI krAntikAraka ghaTanA banI. sAcA tyAgI, vairAgI, khamIravaMtA A traNe paMjAbI mumukSu mahAtmAono prabhAva gujarAta, saurASTra, rAjasthAna, paMjAba vagere sthaLe ghaNo moTo paDyo. ethI paMjAbathI AtmArAmajI mahArAja sthAnakavAsI saMpradAya choDIne potAnA paMdareka bIjA sAdhuo sAthe gujarAta AvI pahoMcyA ane teoe paNa mUrtipUjaka samudAyamAM saMvegI dIkSA lIdhI. buTerAyajI mahArAja ane emanA ziSyonAM navAM nAma rAkhavAmAM AvyAM. paNa teonAM potAnAM mULa nAma eTalAM badhAM pracalita banI gayAM hatAM ke navAM nAmo bahu rUDha thayAM nahi, eTale muni vRddhivijayajI paNa vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja tarIke ja vadhu jANItA rahyA. saM. 1912nuM cAturmAsa teo traNee dAdA maNivijayajI sAthe amadAvAdamAM ja karyuM. potAnI sAmAcArIne paNa barAbara zuddha karI lIdhI. have gujarAtI bhASA paNa teo barAbara bolatA thaI gayA hatA, eTaluM ja nahi paNa potAnI paMjAbI bhASAmAM bole lakhe to temAM gujarAtI zabdo ane bhASAprayoga ajANatAM AvI jatA. amadAvAdanA samaya daramiyAna teo traNene abhyAsa karavA mATe zeTha hemAbhAIe tathA saMghe paMDitonI vyavasthA karI ApI. emAM te vakhatanA jANItA paMDita harinArAyaNa zAstrI pAse saMskRta kAvyagraMtho uparAMta upAdhyAya yazovijayajInA graMthono abhyAsa karavAnI sArI taka maLI. saM. 1914mAM vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje amadAvAdathI vihAra karI zatruMjaya ane zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja 21

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giranAranI yAtrA karIne bhAvanagaramAM cAturmAsa karyuM. guru mahArAje emane have vyAkhyAna vAMcavAnI AjJA ApI hatI. tyAre emanI uMmara covIsa varSanI hatI. A cAturmAsa daramiyAna paNa temaNe bhAvanagaranA zrAvakone pharI pAchA, ghelA karI dIdhA hatA. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanI pratibhA ghaNI tejasvI hatI. teo zarIre UMcA, gorA ane bharAvadAra hatA. temano cahero paNa bharAvadAra ane prazAMta hato. teo bALabrahmacArI hatA. emanuM cAritra eTaluM badhuM nirmaLa hatuM ane bhakti, vinaya, vaiyAvacca tathA zAstrajJAna vagere guNothI temanuM jIvana eTaluM badhuM pavitra hatuM ke emanI pAse rahevAthI ghaNAne vairAgyano bodha thato hato, keTalAka dIkSA levA taiyAra thatA ane keTalAka gRhastho emanI pAse AjIvana caturtha vratanI-brahmacaryanI bAdhA letA. A varSa daramiyAna vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanI gurubhaktino eka viziSTa prasaMga noMdhAyelo che. bhAvanagarathI potAnA guru mahArAja zrI buTerAyajI mahArAja tathA garabaMdhu zrI mUlacaMdajI mahArAja sAthe teo siddhAcalajInI yAtrAe AvyA hatA. pAlitANAmAM mukAma karyo hato. eka divasa mUlacaMdajI mahArAja gurudevane mATe dUdha vahoravA gayA. koIka zrAvikAne ghare jaI dUdha vahoryuM, paraMtu e zrAvikAe bhUlathI dUdhamAM daLelI khAMDane badale daLeluM mIThuM nAkhI dIdheluM. e bhUlanI khabara nahotI zrAvikAne ke nahotI mUlacaMdajI mahArAjane. upAzrayamAM AvyA pachI jyAre teo gocarI vAparavA beThA tyAre buTerAyajI mahArAje dUdhano ghUMTaDo pItAM ja kahyuM, "mUlA ! mArI jIbha kharAba thaI gaI lAge che. dUdhano svAda kaDavo lAge che.' tarata gurudevanA hAthamAM pAtra laIne mUlacaMdajI mahArAje dUdha cAkhyuM to khabara paDI ke dUdhamAM sAkarane badale bhUlathI mIThuM nakhAI gayuM che. eTale emaNe kahyuM, 'gurudeva, Apa e dUdha pIvuM rahevA do. huM e dUdha pI jaIza.' tyAM vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje dUdhanuM pAtra laI lIdhuM ane kahyuM, "A dUdha tamArA baMnene pIvAne yogya nathI. vaLI paraThavAthI jIvahAni thavAno saMbhava che. mATe huM ja A dUdha pI jAuM chuM.' ema kahI teo badhuM dUdha pI gayA. buTerAyajI mahArAja tathA mULacaMdajI mahArAja to e jotA ja rahI gayA. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje apathya dUdha pI to lIdhuM. paraMtu, ethI emane jhADA thaI gayA. emAMthI AgaLa jatAM emane saMgrahaNIno roga thayo, je ghaNA auSadhopacAra karavA chatAM jIvana paryata maTyo nahi. ethI emanuM zarIra kSINa ane azakta thaI gayuM hatuM. rara rara caritradarzana

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saM. 1914nA varSa daramiyAna vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanA saMsArI pitA lAlA dharmayazajInA avasAnanA samAcAra AvyA. mahArAjazrIe emanA upakAronuM smaraNa karyuM. paraMtu badhI sAMsArika mAyA have emaNe utArI nAkhI hatI. saM. 1915nuM comAsuM vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje keTalAka zrAvakonI vinaMtIthI ghoghAmAM karyuM. tyAM yationuM jora hatuM. eTale upAzrayamAM UtaravA na maLyuM. teo eka gRhasthane ghare UtaryA. tyAMnA vati dalIcaMdajIe emane vyAkhyAna vAMcavAnI manAI pharamAvI. AvI paristhiti UbhI thaze e teo jANatA ja hatA. eno saraLatAthI emaNe svIkAra karI lIdho. paNa divase divase zrAvako vRddhicaMdrajInA rAgI thatA gayA. vyAkhyAna paNa cAlu thayuM. ane paryuSaNamAM emaNe upAzrayamAM kalpasUtra vAMcyuM. tyArathI ghoghAmAMthI patino mahimA ocho thaI gayo. saM. 1916nuM cAtumasa bhAvanagaramAM karI teo saM. 1917mAM amadAvAda AvyA, kAraNa ke gurudeva buTerAyajI mahArAje have paMjAba bAju vihAra karyo hato. amadAvAdamAM vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje cAra cAturmAsa karyo. te daramiyAna amadAvAdanA zreSThIo zeTha hemAbhAI, zeTha premAbhAI, zeTha dalapatabhAI, zeTha maganabhAI vagere upara temano ghaNo prabhAva paDyo. zeTha dalapatabhAI bhagubhAIe siddhAcalajIno saMgha kADhavAnI bhAvanA vyakta karI, paNa te e zarate ke sAthe vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja padhAre. mahArAjazrIe saMmati ApI eTale bahu dhAmadhUmapUrvaka saMgha kADhavAmAM Avyo. zeThazrIe A mATe e divasomAM rUpiyA eMsI hajAranuM kharca karyuM hatuM. tyAra pachI bhAvanagara, amadAvAda, rAdhanapura vagere sthaLe mahArAjazrIe cAturmAsa karyA. 1927mAM jyAre temaNe jANyuM ke guruvarya buTerAyajI mahArAja pAchA gujarAta tarapha AvI rahyA che tyAre temanuM svAgata karavA mULacaMdajI mahArAja sAthe teo pATaNa, pAlanapura thaI TheTha rAjasthAnamAM pAlI sudhI pahoMcyA hatA. ghaNAM varSe pAchA teo traNe ekatra thayA. AbunI jAtrA karI teo gujarAtamAM padhAryA ane Thera Thera vicarI yatio-zrI pUjyonA jorane ochuM karI nAkhyuM. e divasomAM RSisAgara nAmanA eka sAdhu lokone maMtra-taMtra zikhavADI vahemamAM nAkhatA ane tattvasiddhAntathI vimukha banAvatA hatA. bIkanA mAryA ghaNA loko RddhisAgarane anusaratA. jyAre vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanA jANavAmAM A vAta AvI tyAre temaNe e daMbhI sAdhunA mohamAM na phasAvA mATe ghaNo pracAra karyo ane lokone emanI mAyAjALamAMthI choDAvyA hatA. mahArAjazrIe lokone sanmArge vALavA jAgRtipUrvaka kevA kevA prayAso karyA hatA eno bIjo eka prasaMga paNa noMdhAyelo che. vi. saM. 1939mAM jeThamalajI nAmanA zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja 23

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eka sAdhue "samakitasAra' nAmano graMtha chapAvIne pragaTa karyo hato, emAM jema dharmanI keTalIka avaLI prarUpaNA karavAmAM AvI hatI. e vAMcavAthI keTalAye lokonA manamAM zaMkA-kuzaMkA thavA lAgI hatI. mahArAjazrIe jyAre e graMtha vAMcyo tyAre emane thayuM ke enuM khaMDana thavuM jarUrI che. pote te lakhe tenA karatAM potAnA laghu gurubaMdhu AtmArAmajI mahArAja te kAma karavAne vadhu samartha che ema samajIne temanI pAse te lakhAvavAnuM vicAryuM. AtmArAmajI mahArAja tyAre amadAvAdamAM hatA. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanI AjJA thatAM tarata temaNe "samakita zalyoddhAra' nAmano graMtha khaMDanamaMDaLarUpe hiMdImAM lakhI Apyo. enuM gujarAtI bhASAMtara thayuM. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja paNa e joI gayA ane AtmArAmajI mahArAja paNa pharI tapAsI gayA. tyAra pachI jaina prasAraka sabhA taraphathI e graMtha pragaTa thayo. enI samAja upara ghaNI sArI asara thaI ane lokonA manamAM jAgelI zaMkAonuM samAdhAna thayuM. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjane emanA guru buTerAyajI mahArAje bhalAmaNa karI hatI ke jaina zAsanane sudaDha karavuM hoya to sAdhuo vadhAravA joIze. buTerAyajI mahArAja pote to adhyAtmarasamAM vadhAre lIna hatA eTale e javAbadArI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje ane mULacaMdajI mahArAje upADI lIdhI. paraMtu eka divasa rAte ekAMtamAM besI baMnee nirNaya karyo ke koIne potAnA celA na karavA, paraMtu je koI dIkSArthI hoya tene dIkSA ApIne tene gurudeva buTerAyajInA ziSya karavA, eTale ke tene potAnA gurubhAI karavA. ziSyano moha keTalo badho hoya che e to sAdhupaNAmAM je hoya tene vadhAre samajAya. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja ane mULacaMdajI mahArAje ziSyamoha upara vijaya meLavyo hato. paMratu eka divasa dharmasaMkaTa UbhuM thayuM. mULacaMdajI mahArAja pAse be yatio dIkSA levA AvyA. te jANIne buTerAyajI mahArAje AjJA karI, "mUlA ! A baMnene have vRddhinA celA banAvaje." gurudeve vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjane paNa kahyuM ke, "vRddhi ! have A bene tArA celA banAvaje." e divase rAtre pharI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja ane mULacaMdajI mahArAja ekAMtamAM maLyA. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje mULacaMdajI mahArAjane kahyuM, 'tame jANo cho ke meM pratijJA lIdhI che ke mAre koI ziSya na karavA, eTale teone huM celA tarIke kevI rIte svIkArI zakuM?" mULacaMdajI mahArAje kahyuM, 'tamArI pratijJAnI vAta sAcI che. meM paNa evI pratijJA lIdhI che. paraMtu bIjI bAju gurudevanI AjJAnA pAlanano prazna che. have gurudevanI AjJAnuM pAlana e aMgata pratijJA karatAM caDiyAtI vastu che. mATe tamAre 24 caritradarzana

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celA svIkAravA ja paDaze." vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje kahyuM ke, "jo gurudevanI AjJA hoya to eka celo tame karo ane eka celo mane Apo." mULacaMdajI mahArAje kahyuM, "ema banI nahi zake, kAraNa ke gurumahArAje mane AjJA karI che ke dIkSA ApIne mAre e baMnene ApanA ja ziSya karavAnA che.' chevaTe vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje dIkSA ApIne temane vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanA ziSya banAvyA. ekanuM nAma rAkhavAmAM AvyuM muni gaMbhIravijayajI ane bIjAnuM nAma muni cAritravijayajI. potAne be ziSyo thayA eTale samaya joIne vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje gurudevane kahyuM, 'gurudeva ! mAre be celA che ane mULacaMdajI mahArAjane eka paNa celo nathI." e sAMbhaLI buTerAyajI mahArAje mULacaMdajI mahArAjane kahyuM, "mUlA ! have jene dIkSA Ape tene tAro celo banAvaje." gurumahArAjanI AjJA thatAM kizanagaDhathI AvelA eka yatine dIkSA ApIne mULacaMdajI mahArAje emane potAnA celA banAvyA. emanuM nAma rAkhavAmAM AvyuM muni gulAbavijayajI. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanI ane mULacaMdajI mahArAjanI niHspRhatA ane udAratA keTalI badhI hatI te AvA prasaMgo uparathI joI zakAya che. vRddhicaMdrajInA vaDIla gurabaMdhu mUlacaMdajI mahArAja emanA karatAM uMmaramAM cAra varSa moTA hatA. temaNe dIkSA paNa vahelI lIdhI hatI. vaLI teo zarIre sudaDha ane sazakta hatA. eTale emaNe yogavahana karIne gaNinI padavI meLavI hatI. paraMtu vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja potAnI nAdurasta tabiyatane kAraNe IcchA ane bhAvanA hovA chatAM yogavahana karI zakyA nahotA. eTale emaNe potAnA munipadathI pUro saMtoSa mAnyo hato potAnA gurubaMdhu pratye teo pUro vinaya sAcavatA. temanI AjJA svIkAratA. vi. saM. 1938mAM gurumahArAja buTerAyajI amadAvAdamAM kALadharma pAmyA. ethI jANe eka AdhArastaMbha gayo hoya evo emane kheda thayo. have samudAyanI javAbadArI gaNivarya mULacaMdajI mahArAja upara AvI. varSe varSe sAdhu-sAdhvIonI saMkhyA vadhatI jatI hatI. paNa enI badhI vyavasthAmAM mULacaMdajI mahArAja atyaMta kuzaLa hatA. jaina dharma prasAraka sabhA taraphathI vi. saM. 1954mAM zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanuM jIvanacaritra gadyamAM pragaTa thayeluM, eno AdhAra laIne vaLAvALA zrI durlabhajI mahetAe padyamAM sAta paricchedamAM DhALa ane duhAnI maLIne 1125 kaDImAM rAsanA prakAranI sudIrgha racanA saM. 1972mAM karI che. zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja pratye emanA zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja 25

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bhaktonI vANI kevI kevI rIte mahorI che te AnA uparathI joI zakAya che. ane te uparathI e mahAtmAno prabhAva keTalo badho preraka ane protsAhaka haze tenI pratIti thAya che. kRtinA AraMbhamAM kavi kahe che : zrI zubha vIra prabhu namI, zAradA mAya pavitra, mahA muni vRddhicaMdanuM kahIzuM janmacaritra. brahmacArI saMyama grahI, bhArata bhUmi mojAra, vijaya nispRha bhAvathI kIdho ati upagAra. zAsana soha vadhArIne, svarga thayA guruAya. durlabha' padapaMkaja namI, guru biruA tasa gAya." kavi pote vaLAnA hatA ane mahArAjazrInA saMparkamAM AvyA hatA eTale emaNe bIje na maLatI evI vaLAnI keTalIka vigato A rAsakRtimAM ane pAdanoMdhamAM vaNI lIdhI che. teo lakhe che : pratibodha suNatAM nitya bhAve, mithyAtva timirane dUra haThAve, zuddha jinamata bIja vAve, muni zrAvaka AcAra batAve, loMkA tapA sahu suNavA Ave, zuddha paMtha jAgRti thAve. gocarI re paNa pote Ave bhakSyAbhaDhya viveka batAve, zrAvakAcAra samajAve. mithyAtvanA paravo nahIM karavA, rasoDe pANiyAre caMdaravA, sUcave jayaNA dharavA, kAThI garAziyAno ziNagAra, jotA ghaNA zrAvakane dvAra, kahe "A zuM? viruddhAcAra ?" lakA tapAno bheda nivAre re, - jinamata zuddha sarave dila dhAre re, upagAra karyo e bhAre re. Ama vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje vaLAmAM potAnI vANIthI ghaNo utsAha pragaTAvyo hato. emanuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA loko ane tapA (sthAnakavAsIo ane mUrtipUjako) badhA ja AvatA ane teo vaccenA bhedabhAva temaNe nivAryA hatA. vaLI loko garAsiyA jevo je AcAra pALatA hatA temAM paNa pheraphAra karAvyo hato. kavi 26 caritradarzana

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pAdanoMdhamAM lakhe che ke jainonA ghare garAsiyAnI jema je hukkA pivAnA hatA te temaNe baMdha karAvyA hatA. eka ja divasamAM cAlIsa jeTalAM kuTuMbomAM mahArAjazrInA preraka upadezathI zrAvakoe hukkA phoDI nAkhyA hatA. vaLA-valabhIpuramAM emaNe devarkiMgaNinI smRtimAM derAsara, upAzraya, smAraka vagere karavA mATe paNa upadeza Apyo hato. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjane siddhAcalajInI yAtrAnuM AkarSaNa ane anukULatA vizeSa rahyAM hatAM. temaNe pahelI yAtrA paMjAbathI amadAvAda AvIne karI hatI. tyAra pachI temaNe judA judA saMgho sAthe vihAra karIne vIsathI vadhu vAra zatruMjaya mahAtIrthanI yAtrA karI hatI. emaNe eka vakhata zatruMjaya mahAtIrthanI 'navvANuM yAtrA' paNa karI hatI. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje zatruMjaya tIrthanI bAbatamAM emanA jamAnAnI dRSTie eka mahattvanuM kArya karyuM hatuM. pAlitANAnA ThAkore jyAre yAtrikavero nAkhyo tyAre tenI sAme virodha noMdhAvavA rAjakoTamAM poliTikala ejanTa pAse kesa dAkhala karavAmAM Avyo. te vakhate amadAvAdamAM rahI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje badhAM zAstro jhINavaTapUrvaka vAMcIne zreSThIone zAstrIya purAvAo ApIne amadAvAdathI rAjakoTa mokalyA hatA. ghaNAM varSa kesa cAlyo hato. paraMtu emanI daramiyAnagIrIthI vyaktigata yAtrikavero rada karavAno ane zeTha ANaMdajI kalyANajInI peDhIe dara varase rUpiyA paMdara hajAra pAlitANAnA ThAkorane ApavAno cukAdo Avyo hato. saM. 1944mAM mUlacaMdajI mahArAjanI nizrAmAM amadAvAdathI zatruMjayano saMgha nIkaLyo hato. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja tyAre potAnI nAdurasta tabiyatane kAraNe pAlitANA AvI zake tema nahotA. eTale saMgha bhAvanagara AvIne pachI pAlitANA javAno hato. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjane A saMgha nIkaLavAnA samAcAra maLatAM teo potAnA gurubaMdhune maLavA AturatApUrvaka rAha jovA lAgyA hatA. jyAre saMgha bhAvanagara Avyo tyAre vRddhicaMdrajI potAnA sAdhu-sAdhvInA samudAya sahita zahera bahAra sAmaiyuM karavA gayA ane ghaNAM varasa pachI mUlacaMdajI mahArAjane maLatAM atyaMta harSa anubhavyo. vaDIla gurubaMdhunuM Agamana thatAM ane eka udyAnamAM teo pATa upara birAjamAna thatAM vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje potAnAM sAdhu-sAdhvI sahita vidhipUrvaka vaMdana karyA ane mUlacaMdajI mahArAjanA caraNakamalamAM potAnA mastaka vaDe sparza karyo. A dazya jonAra bhAvavibhora banI gayA ane jainadharmamAM vinayane keTaluM badhuM mahattva apAyuM che te samajIne te mATe rucivALA thayA. tyAra pachI mUlacaMdajI mahArAjanA parivAranAM sAdhu-sAdhvIoe vRddhicaMdrajI zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja 27

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mahArAjane vaMdana karyAM. Ama paraspara naMdanavidhi patI gayA pachI bhAvanaga2 zaheramAM saMghano bhavya praveza thayo. saMgha be divasa rokAyo te daramiyAna baMne gurubaMdhuoe paraspara anubhavonI, adhyayananI ane zAsananAM kAryonI vicAraNA karI. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje joyuM ke pAThazALAo ane vidyAzALAo vagara zrAvakomAM teja nahi Ave. e mATe emaNe ghaNe sthaLe bALako mATe pAThazALAo cAlu karAvI hatI. pAlitANAmAM saMskRta vagerenA abhyAsa mATe murzIdAbAdanA bAbu buddhisiMhajIne preraNA karIne buddhisiMhajI pAThazALAnI sthApanA karAvI hatI. bhAvanagaramAM jaina dharma prasAraka' nAmanI saMsthAnI sthApanA karAvI hatI tathA 'jainadharma prakAza' patranuM prakAzana karAvyuM hatuM. lIMbaDImAM temaNe jJAnabhaMDAra vyavasthita karAvyo hato. jJAnavRddhinAM AvAM aneka kAryo emanA hAthe thayAM hatAM. saM. 1944nA cAturmAsa pachI pAlitANAmAM gaNivarya zrI mUlacaMdajI maharAjanI tabiyata bagaDI. temanA zarIramAM raktavAtano vyAdhi thaI Avyo ane te vadhato gayo. ethI zarIramAM ghaNI azakti AvI gaI ane cAlavAnI zakti paNa rahI nahi. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja emanA satata samAcAra meLavatA rahyA hatA, paraMtu jyAre jANyuM ke pAlitANAmAM auSadhopacArathI kaMI pharaka paDyo nathI tyAre temane bhAvanagara bolAvI sArA vaidyo-DaoNkTaro pAse upacAra karAvavAnuM vicAryuM. temaNe bhAvanagarathI zreSThIone mokalyA. gaNivarya mahArAja cAlI zake ema nahotA. eTale temanA mATe myAnA pAlakhI jevuM vAhana)nI vyavasthA karAvI. temAM besI mUlacaMdajI mahArAja bhAvanagara padhAryAM. bhAvanagaramAM ghaNA upacAro karAvyA paNa vyAdhi vadhato rahyo. AyuSya pUruM thatAM saM. 1945nA mAgasara vada chaThanA divase emaNe deha mUkyo. gaNivaryanA aMtima avasthAnA samAcAra sAMbhaLI emanA saMghADAnA bAvIsa jeTalA sAdhuo bhAvanagaramAM ekatra thayA hatA. muni jhaverasAgarajI to udayapurathI vihAra karIne AvI gayA hatA. saue ane khAsa karIne to vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAje mUlacaMdajI gaNivaryanI ghaNI sArI sevAbhakti karI hatI. kALadharma pAmyA pachI gaNivarya mUlacaMdajI mahArAjanA dehane mahArAjazrInI sUcanAthI dAdAvADImAM agnisaMskAra karavAmAM Avyo hato ane tyAM ArasanI derI karI emanAM pagalAM sthApana karavAmAM AvyAM hatAM. e mATe kharca karavAmAM bhAvanagaranA saMghe pAchuM vaLIne joyuM nathI, kAraNa ke tapagacchanA saMvegI sAdhuonA punarutthAnanuM mahattvanuM kendra bhAvanagara banI gayuM hatuM. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanA chelle dasa ziSyo hatA : (1) kevavijayajI (2) gaMbhIravijayajI (3) uttamatiyajI (4) caturatiyajI (5) rAjavijayajI (6) 28 caritradarzana

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hemavijayajI (7) dharmavijayajI (kAzIvALA vijyadharmasUri) (8) nemavijayajI (zAsanasamrATa vijayanemisUri (9) premavijayajI ane (10) karpUravijyajI (sanmitra) A ziSyomAM vijyadharmasUri ane vijayanemisUrie zAsananAM bhagIratha kAryo karI ghaNuM ujjvaLa nAma karyuM hatuM. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjane vidyAbhyAsa ane jJAnasaMpAdana pratye ghaNI ruciprIti hatI. temaNe svayaM zAstrasiddhAMta uparAMta vyAkaraNa, kAvya, koza, alaMkAra vagereno sAro abhyAsa karyo hato, eTale bhAvanagaramAM cAturmAsa ane sthiravAsa daramiyAna e dizAmAM emaNe pote ghaNuM saMgIna kArya karyuM hatuM ane saMgha pAse karAvyuM hatuM. keTalAya jaina yuvAno emanI pAse zaMkA-samAdhAna mATe, jJAnacarcA mATe ke vyAkaraNAdinA abhyAsa mATe niyamita AvatA. bhAvanagaranA kuMvarajI ANaMdajI ane amaracaMda jasarAja to roja roja emanI pAse niyamita AvatA. teo rAtanA bA2eka vAgyA sudhI mahArAjazrI sAthe jJAnagoSThi karatA rahetA. aMtima varSomAM mahArAjazrInI tabiyata lathaDatI jatI hatI ane ujAgarA thatA nahotA. e vakhate paNa teo e zrAvakone vahelAM cAlyA javAnuM kahetA nahi. paraMtu jyAre ghaNI agavaDa thavA lAgI tyAre emaNe potAnA ziSya muni nemavijayajIne kahyuM hatuM, jo ne nemA ! mAruM zarIra AvuM narama che ne A loko mane bahu ujAgarA karAve che.' e sAMbhaLI guru mahArAjanI anumati meLavI nemavijaya mahArAje zrAvakone vahelAM AvavA ane vahelAM javA mATe kaDaka sUcanA ApI hatI. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanA aMtima divasomAM je zrAvakoe emanI divasa-rAta sevA-bhakti karI hatI temAM zrI kuMvarajI ANaMdajI ane zrI amaracaMda jasarAjanAM nAma mukhya hatAM. mahArAjazrIne vA ane saMgrahaNInAM asAdhya dardo to hatAM ja temAM chAtImAM vAraMvAra thaI AvatA duHkhAvAnuM darda vadhatuM cAlyuM hatuM. vaidarAjonA upacAro chatAM emAM pharaka paDato nahoto. eTale AvA zarIre mahArAjazrI keTaluM kheMcI zakaze e prazna hato. mahArAjazrInA A aMtima kALe emanI yAdagIrIrUpe emano phoTo pADavAnI icchA saMghanA keTalAka zreSThIone thaI. e divasomAM phoTogrAphInI zodha thaI cUkI hatI ane boksa kemerA vaDe phoTo pADavAmAM Avato. mahArAjazrIe agAu keTalIya vA2 potAno phoTo paDAvavA mATe anicchA darzAvelI, paraMtu have to zreSThIo kaeNmerAvALAne pahelAM taiyAra rAkhIne vinaMtI karatA ke jethI mahArAjazrI jo hA pADe to tarata ja phoTo pADI levAya. saM. 1948nA paryuSaNa pachI eka divasa zreSThIoe bahu ja AgrahapUrvaka vinaMtI karI ane saMghanA premane vaza thaI mAtra dAkSiNyatA zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja 4 29

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khAtara mahArAjazrIe hA kahI ke tarata ja emano phoTo kemerAvALAe pADI lIdho hato. phoTAnI aneka nakalo kaDhAvI jaina dharma prasAraka sabhAe gurubhaktone ApI hatI. mahArAjazrIno A eka ja phoTo maLe che je Aja sudhI pracalita rahyo che. evI ja rIte mahArAjazrInuM jIvanacaritra lakhavA mATe keTalAke koziza karI hatI. e mATe joItI mAhitI to mahArAjazrI pAsethI ja maLI zake. ekabe vakhata koIka-koIke mahArAjazrIne emanA jIvana vize prazno karyA tyAre mahArAjazrIe sahaja rIte enA javAba ApyA hatA, paraMtu pachIthI jyAre potAne vahema paDyo ke jIvanacaritra lakhavA mATe A prazna puchAya che tyAre temaNe javAba ApavAno spaSTa inkAra karI dIdho hato. mahArAjazrIne vihAra karIne siddhAcalajI ane taLAjA javAnI bhAvanA vAraMvAra thatI. paraMtu cAlavAnI zakti rahI nahotI. saMghe emane mATe DoLInI vyavasthA karavAnuM nakkI karyuM paNa DoLIno upayoga karavAnI emaNe spaSTa nA pADI dIdhI hatI. teo kahetA ke pote samudAyamAM vaDA che ane pote DoLIno upayoga kare to emano dAkhalo laI bIjAo paNa DoLImAM besavA lAge ane ema karatAM sAdhusamudAyamAM zithilAcAra vadhe. mahArAjazrInI zArIrika pIDA jema jema vadhatI gaI tema tema temano Atmopayoga paNa vadhato gayo. dehabhAvamAMthI chUTI adhyAtmasvarUpamAM ane anubhavajJAnamAM teo vadhu lIna rahevA lAgyA hatA. zarIranI vedanA tIvratama thatI tyAre paNa temanA mukhamAMthI UMhakAro nIkaLato nahi. teo "arihaMta, siddha, sAhu e traNa zabdonuM niraMtara raTaNa karatA rahetA ane potAne maLavA AvelAone paNa e traNa zabdonuM raTaNa karavA kahetA. evA azAtAnA vakhatamAM paNa teo causaraNa pannAnuM raTaNa karatA ane koI koI gAthAno artha ullAsapUrvaka samajAvatA, jANe ke zarIramAM kaMI vyAdhi ja nathI. saM. 1949nA vaizAkhamAM mahArAjazrInI tabiyata vadhu bagaDI ane vaizAkha suda 7nI rAtre 9-30 vAge emaNe samAdhipUrvaka deha choDyo. A zokajanaka samAcAra samagra zaheramAM pharI vaLyA. bhaktonAM ToLeToLAM UmaTyAM. gAmegAma tArathI khabara apAyA. bIje divase savAre bhAvanagaramAM badhAM bajAro-zALAo vagere baMdha rahyAM. suzobhita pAlakhImAM mahArAjazrInA dehane mUkIne bhakto jaya jaya naMdA, jaya jaya bhadrA'nA uccAro karatA dAdAvADImAM laI AvyA. hajAronI medanI tyAre ekatra thaI hatI. mahArAjazrInA dehane tyAM agnisaMskAra karavAmAM AvyA. eka mahAna jyoti vilIna thaI gaI. e prasaMge aneka lokoe ane judA judA saMghoe emanI smRtimAM saMsthAonI sthApanAnA, tapazcaryAnA, anukaMpAdAna, supAtradAna vagerenA cha ka caritradarzana

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saMkalpo jAhera karyA hatA. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja paNa potAnA vaDIla gurubaMdhu mUlacaMdajI mahArAjanI jema pa9 varSanI vaye kALadharma pAmyA. baMne bhAvanagaramAM kALadharma pAmyA. baMnenI uMmara vacce cAra varSanuM aMtara rahyuM hatuM. baMneno agnisaMskAra bhAvanagaramAM dAdAvADImAM thayo hato. baMnenAM pagalAMnI derI paNa pAse pAse karavAmAM AvI che. paMjAbathI bharayuvAna vaye nIkaLelA A be sAcA saMyamI, sAcA tyAgI, samartha dharmopadezaka mahAtmAoe gujarAta upara ananya upakAra karIne gujarAtamAM ja deha choDyo. pU. buTerAyajI mahArAja, pU. mUlacaMdajI mahArAja ane pU. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja paMjAbathI vihAra karI gujarAtamAM AvyA ane saMvegI dIkSA dhAraNa karI. tyAra pachI buTerAyajI mahArAja ane mUlacaMdajI mahArAja paMjAba jaI AvyA, paraMtu vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja to. pAchA paMjAba kyAreya gayA ja nahi. temaNe paMjAba uparathI, potAnA vatana ane kauTuMbika svajano uparathI Asakti kyAranIya utArI nAkhI hatI. teo gujarAtanA thaIne, gujarAta sAthe, bhAvanagara sAthe ekarUpa thaIne rahyA hatA. gurumahArAja buTerAyajI mahArAje emane kAThiyAvADa ane temAM paNa bhAvanagara kSetra saMbhALavAnI AjJA karI tyArathI teo te kSetrane savizeSapaNe sAcavavA lAgyA hatA. agAu gujarAta karatAM paNa kAThiyAvADa dharma ane saMskAramAM pachAta hatuM. vaLI tyAM sthAnakavAsI mArga vadhu pracalita banyo hato. e dRSTie maMdiramArgane tyAM vadhu cetanavaMto banAvavAmAM vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanuM moTuM yogadAna raheluM che. samagra bhAvanagara jillA upara ane temAM paNa bhAvanagara zahera upara emano upakAra ghaNo moTo rahyo che. emaNe paMjAba choDyA pachI kula 38 cAturmAsa gujarAtamAM karyA. emAM covIsa cAturmAsa kAThiyAvADamAM karyA ane aDadhA cAturmAsa-19 jeTalA cAturmAsa bhAvanagaramAM karyo. e uparathI paNa A vAtanI pratIti thaze. bhAvanagaranA saMgha pAse emaNe vakhatovakhata vividha suMdara dhArmika, sAmAjika, zaikSaNika kAryo karAvyAM ane pariNAme e jamAnAmAM bhAvanagara mAtra gujarAtanuM ja nahi, samagra bhAratanuM eka mahattvanuM saMskArakendra banI gayuM hatuM. vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanA svargavAsa pachI aMjali ApatI vividha kAvyakRtionI racanA thaI che. gujarAtImAM racAyelA ATha zlokanA eka aSTakamAM enA ajJAta kavie lakhyuM che : moTA-nAnA sarava janane mAna Ape suharSe hete bolI madhura vacano bhaktanA citta karyuM, jenA citte avacaLa sadA tulya dRSTi vibhAse te zrI vRddhivijaya gurune kema bhUlI javAze ? zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja - 31

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vidvAnonAM vadana nIrakhI nitya AnaMda pAme. graMtho dekhI abhinava ghaNo harSa je citta jAme, 'tattvo jANI jinamata taNA zAnadaSTi prakAze, te zrI vRddhivijaya gurune kema bhUlI javAze ?" vRddhicaMdrajInA praziSya kAzIvALA zrI vijayadharmasUrie stutirUpa aSTakanI racanA saMskRta zlokamAM karI che. enI viziSTatA e che ke emaNe prathama sAta zlokamAM pratyeka prathama caraNamAM pahelo zabda bevaDAvyo che, jemake vIvaM vAvuM, pAve pArva, yAyaM yAyaM ItyAdi tathA te pratyeka zlokanuM aMtima caraNa nIce pramANe ekasarakhuM ja rAkhyuM che : __svargasthau'sau vilasati sukhaM madgururvRddhicandraH / pU. zrI vijayanemisUrijI mahArAjanA praziSya pU. zrI vijayanaMdasUrie saMskRta padyamAM zrI vRddhistotram nAmanA kAvyanI dasa zlokamAM racanA karI che, jemAMnA prathama ATha zlokanuM aMtima caraNa tuve soShaM dhyAno e pramANe rAkhyuM che. zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanA uttama guNono mahimA gAtA A stotranA AraMbhanA zlokamAM teo kahe che : sadA smaryA saGakhyA skhalita guNaM saMsmArita yuga - pradhAnaM pIyUSopamamadhura vAcaM vratidhuram / vivekAdvijJAtasva parasamayAzeSa viSayaM stuve so'haM dhyAnollasitahRdayaM vRddhivijayam // sidA smaraNa karavA lAyaka, asaMkhya ane asmalita guNo vaDe yugapradhAnanuM smaraNa karAvanAra, amRtasamAna mIThI vANIvALA, muniomAM agresara, svarUpa siddhAMtanA sarva viSayone vivekathI jANanAra ane dhyAnamAM (athavA haM - te ja huM chuM evA dhyAnamAM) ullasita hRdayavALA zrI vRddhivijayanI huM stuti karuM chuM.] zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAjanI yazojvala gAthAnuM jema jema pAna karIe chIe tema tema temanA pratye mastaka vadhu ne vadhu name che. prabhAvaka sthaviro - bhA. ramAMthI) 32 caritradarzana

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zrI vRddhicaMdrajI mahArAja zrI buddhisAgarasUri mahArAja

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zrI vijayadharmasUri mahArAja nA jAma tae zrI vijayarAmacaMdrasUri mahArAja

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zrI ajarAmara svAmI zrI puNyavijayajI mahArAja

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zrI takhtAnaMdajI mahArAja zrI mRgAvatIjI mahArAja

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paMDita sukhalAlajI - zrI zatruMjaya khAtIrtha nI zAtala chAyAma, tAlA pATA para maoNjata zrI rAjena &ta bhavana pAlItANA tatatizAka jUala bIda haa , ThA 1, " ane kAra talIya regliAM kaka to mIrA, &SamAnA evA gIranA othI cImanabhAI paTela GokhaNAI paTela di ThAkara ne vizvamAM te kayamaMtrI sujAta atha) SdhI kanala ane bAkAta vidhAtA pe ' I kAkI, bIrtidAjI - paryAvaraNa maMtrI ? , 00 zrI jyoharimalajI pArekha

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zrI paramAnaMdabhAI kApaDiyA zrI cImanabhAI cakubhAI zAha

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zrI vijayarAmacandrasUri mahArAja suvizAla gacchAdhipati, saMgha-sthavira, jaina zAsananA mahAna jyotirdhara, yugapuruSa, parama gItArtha pUjyapAda AcAryadeva zrI vijayarAmacaMdrasUrIzvarajI mahArAja sAheba 96 varSanI uMmare amadAvAdamAM saM. 2047nA aSADha vada 14 (tA. 98-1991)nA roja arihaMta paramAtmAnA dhyAnamAM magna banIne samAdhipUrvaka kALadharma pAmyA. emanA svargavAsathI jaina zAsanane eka mahAna AcAryapravaranI khoTa paDI che. chellAM traNeka varSathI emanI tabiyata nabaLI rahetI hatI, tema chatAM teo apramatta rahetA. teo rAtre mAtra be kalAkanI nidrA letA ane dhyAnamAM tathA jApamAM samaya vitAvatA. AvI vRddhAvasthAmAM paNa teo navI navI gAthAo kaMThastha karatA. saM. 2046nuM cAturmAsa khaMbhAtamAM karI teo amadAvAda padhAryA. aMtima ziSya muni hitarucivijayanI dIkSA pachI teo sAbaramatImAM cAturmAsa mATe padhAryA hatA. pa. pU. sva. vijayarAmacaMdrasUrIzvarajInuM 79 varSanuM sudIrgha dIkSAjIvana saMkhyAbaMdha mahattvanI ghaTanAothI sabhara hatuM. emanuM jIvana eTale itihAsa, chellA saikAmAM thaI gayelA mahAna jainAcAryono itihAsa, pa. pU. rAmacaMdrasUrIzvarajInAM jIvana ane kAryanI noMdha vinA adhUro gaNAya. zrI rAmacaMdrasUrino janma emanA mosALanA gAma dehavANamAM vi. saM. 195ranA phAgaNa vada 4nA roja thayo hato. emanuM nAma tribhuvana rAkhavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. emanA pitAnuM nAma choTAlAla ane mAtAnuM nAma samarathabahena hatuM. bALaka tribhuvananA janma pachI mAtA piyarathI pAdarA Ave te pahelAM to pitAzrI choTAlAlanuM avasAna thayuM hatuM. choTAlAlane bIjA be bhAIo hatA. choTAlAlanI mAtAnuM nAma zrI vijayarAmacandrasUri mahArAja ne 33

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tribhuvananI dAdImAnuM nAma) ratanabA hatuM. emanA kuTuMbamAM bALako jIvatAM rahetAM nahotAM. je bALaka jIvI jAya tene koInI najara na lAge te mATe vicitra nAma pADavAnI paraMparA gAmaDAMomAM haju paNa cAlI Ave che. AthI bALaka tribhuvanane mAtA tathA dAdImA "sabUDo' kahIne bolAvatAM. pAdarAmAM jhaMDA bajAra tarapha AvelI sarakArI zALA pAsenI eka khaDakImAM ratanabAnuM kuTuMba eka nAnakaDA gharamAM rahetuM. temanI Arthika sthiti sAdhAraNa hatI. thoDA vakhata pachI tribhuvananI mAtA samaratha marakInA rogamAM mRtyu pAmyAM. tyAre tribhuvananI uMmara sAta varSanI hatI. tribhuvane pAdarAnI sarakArI zALAmAM abhyAsa cAlu karyo. te jamAnAmAM chokarAomAM aDadhI caDDI ke pAyajAmo paheravAno rivAja haju cAlu thayo nahoto. khamIza, dhotiyuM ane mAthe TopI paherIne zALAmAM vidyArthIo jatA. mArA pitAzrI ane tribhuvana eka vargamAM bhaNatA.) zALAmAM haju pIvAnA pANInI vyavasthA thaI nahotI. eTale chokarAo AsapAsanAM gharomAM jaIne pANI pI AvatA. tribhuvananuM ghara zALAnI najIka hatuM. eTale keTalAka jaina chokarAo tribhuvananA ghare pANI pIvA jatA. zALAmAM tyAre heDamAstara tarIke raNachoDarAya nAmanA zikSaka hatA. bIjA zikSakomAM vizvanAtha, bhUlAbhAI, vallabhabhAI, maganalAla vagere hatA. mohanalAla nAmanA eka mAstarane emanA cakalI jevA nAkane kAraNe gAmanA badhA loko "mohana cakalI" athavA "cakalI mAstara' kahIne bolAvatA. khuda mAstara pote paNa potAne cakalI mAstara' tarIke oLakhAvatA. bhaNAvavAmAM teo ghaNA hoziyAra hatA. traNa peDhI sudhInA vidyArthIone temaNe bhaNAvelA. e divasomAM pAdarAmAM aMgrejI zALA cAlu thaI gaI hatI. ghaNAkharA vidyArthIo cha dhoraNa sudhIno varnAkyulara phAInalano abhyAsa karatA. keTalAka vidyArthIo cothA dhoraNa pachI aMgrejI zALAmAM pharsTa sTAnDarDamAM dAkhala thatA. tribhuvane chaThThA dhoraNa sudhI abhyAsa cAlu rAkhelo. e divasomAM muMbaIthI amadAvAda ane dilhI sudhInI broDageja relave lAIna cAlu thaI gayelI. bhAratanI relavenuM Ayojana sImalAnuM relave borDa karatuM. muMbaIthI UpaDelI Trena vaDodarA rAjyamAMthI pasAra thaI dilhI jatI eTale relave borDa e vibhAganI Trena mATe bI.sI.AI. relave' evuM nAma rAkhavA vicAreluM. bI.sI.AI. eTale bombe enDa senTrala inDiyA. paraMtu gAyakavADa sarakAre e nAmamAM baroDA' zabda umeravA mATe Agraha rAkhelo ane e zarate potAnI rAjyanI paravAnagI ja caritradarzana

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ApelI. eTale bombe, baroDA enDa senTrala inDiyA relave (bI.bI. enDa sI.AI. relave) evuM nAma rAkhavuM paDyuM. gAyakavADa sarakAre DabhoIthI vizvAmitrI sudhI AvatI potAnI mITarageja jI.DI. relave gAyakavADa-DabhoI relave)ne vi. saM. 1953mAM pAdarA sudhI laMbAvI hatI. tyAra pachI e relavene mAsararoDa sudhI laMbAvavAmAM AvI ane enuM nAma gAyakavADa baroDA sTeTa relave rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. paraMtu mAsararoDathI AgaLa briTiza rAjya cAlu thatuM hatuM. gAyakavADa sarakAranI icchA e lAInane jaMbusara sudhI laI javAnI hatI. paraMtu sImalA borDa ghaNAM varSa sudhI e paravAnagI ApI nahotI. eTale e vistAramAM gADAmAM ke pagapALA saphara karavI paDatI. zALAmAM abhyAsa karyA pachI tribhuvanane nokarIe besADavAmAM Avyo hato. e vakhate pAdarAmAM cunIlAla zivalAlanI anAjanI moTI peDhI cAlatI hatI ane rAjasthAna tathA uttara bhAratamAMthI anAja Trena dvArA pAdarAmAM AvatuM. kizora tribhuvananI hoziyArI joIne zeTha cunIlAle ene rAjasthAnamAM bAlotarA gAme anAjanI kharIdI mATe mokalelo. Avo dUrano pravAsa jAte ekalA karavAne lIdhe tribhavananI hoziyArInI vAta pAdarAmAM jANItI thaI gaI hatI. tribhuvanane vyAvahArika keLavaNImAM bahu rasa na hato paraMtu navagharI nAmanI zerImAM AvelA upAzrayamAM sAMje pAThazALA cAlatI tenA abhyAsamAM vadhu rasa hato. pAdarAnI navagharI e jamAnAmAM dharmapravRttiothI satata dhabakatI rahetI. moTA moTA AcArya bhagavaMto pAdarA jevA nAnA gAmane cAturmAsano lAbha ApatA. 5. pU. zrImad buddhisAgarasUrijIe paNa keTalAMka cAturmAsa pAdarAmAM karyA hatAM. e jamAnAmAM pAdarAmAM vakhatovakhata dIkSAnA prasaMgo UbhA thatA. jaina sAdhu samAjamAM pAdarAnuM yogadAna nAnA gAmanA pramANamAM ghaNuM moTuM rahyuM che. chellAM pacAsa-sATha varSamAM pAdarAmAMthI pacAsathI vadhu vyaktioe dIkSA lIdhI che. emAM pAdarAnI jema pAThazALAno paNa ThIka ThIka phALo rahyo che. e jamAnAmAM pAThazALAno vahIvaTa vakIla mohanalAla hImacaMda tathA DAhyAbhAI vanamALIdAsa karatA. - pAdarAmAM be derAsara che : navagharI pAsenuM spattinAtha bhagavAnanuM moTuM derAsara ane jhaMDA bajAra pAse AveluM saMbhavanAtha bhagavAnanuM nAnuM derAsara. tribhuvana nAnA derAsara pAse raheto eTale tyAM pUjA karavA jato. paNa pAThazALA phakta navagharImAM hatI. eTale sAMjanA navagharImAM bhaNavA Avato. - pAdarAnA dhArmika vAtAvaraNamAM vakhatovakhata padhAratA sAdhu-bhagavaMtonI preraka ane ubodhaka vANIno lAbha maLavA uparAMta pAThazALAnA eka zikSaka zrI UjamazI mAstaranuM yogadAna paNa ghaNuM moTuM hatuM. teo kAThiyAvADamAM AvelA coTIlA gAmanA zrI vijayarAmacandrasUri mahArAja 35

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vatanI hatA. emanI bahenane pAdarAmAM zrI kezavalAla premacaMda sAthe paraNAvyAM hatAM. eTale UjamazI mAstarane pAdarA AvavAnuM vAraMvAra thatuM. temaNe mahesANAnI pAThazALAmAM abhyAsa karyo hato ane dhArmika zikSaka tarIke vyavasAyArthe pAdarAmAM AvIne vasyA hatA, kAraNa ke emane pAdarAnuM dhArmika vAtAvaraNa gamI gayuM hatuM. temano AtmA ghaNI UMcI koTino hato. zikSaka tarIkenI nokarI karatAM lokomAM dharmabhAvanA jagavavAnI hoMza temanAmAM ghaNI badhI hatI. potAnA bALakizora vidyArthIone sUtra, stavano, sajhAyo teo kaMThastha karAvatA. teo eTalA badhA utsAhapUrvaka abhyAsa karAvatA ke vidyArthIo gAthAo, stavano, sajhAyo hoMze hoMze kaMThastha karatA. UjamazI mAstarano kaMTha bahu madhura hato. temanA uccAro atyaMta zuddha hatA. teo saMgItanA jANakAra hatA. hArmoniyama sarasa vagADatA ane madhura kaMThe stavano, sajhAyo gAtA ane vidyArthIone gavaDAvatA. teo kavi paNa hatA. ane pote navAM navAM stavano, sajhAyonI racanA karatA. emanI svaracita kRtionI eka pustikA paNa chapAyelI. vidyArthIomAM dharmabhAvanA vadhAravA mATe UjamazI mAstara dara pUname tathA rajAnA divase pAdarAnI AsapAsanAM gAmomAM pAThazALAnA vidyArthIone pagapaLA jAtrA karavA laI jatA ane tyAM derAsaramAM snAtrapUjA rAgarAgiNI sAthe bhaNAvatA. pAdarA pAse AvelA kAnA kaDiyAnA gAma darAparA to mahinAmAM be-traNa vAra jAtrA mATe javAnuM thatuM. pAdarAnI jema darAparA paNa tyAre dhArmika pravRttiothI guMjatuM. UjamazI mAstara darAparAnI pAThazALAmAM bhaNAvavA paNa jatA. UjamazI mAstarane A vyavasAya nimitte potAne paNa dharmano raMga eTalo badho lAgyo hato ke vakhata jatAM temaNe zikSakano vyavasAya choDI daIne pU. nItisUri pAse dIkSA lIdhI hatI. teo muni udayavijayajI banyA hatA. samaya jatAM AcAryanI padavI dhAraNa karI teo pU. udayasUri banyA hatA. tribhuvanane bAlyakALamAM ane kizorAvasthAmAM paMca pratikramaNanAM sUtro tathA jIvavicAra, navatattva ItyAdi sUtro ane stavano tathA sajhAya kaMThastha karavAno utsAha jAgyo hato. temAM A UjamazI mAstaranuM yogadAna paNa ghaNuM moTuM hatuM. UjamazI mAstare tribhuvanane upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajIkRta samaktinA saDasaTha bolanI sajhAya sarasa pAkI karAvI hatI. enI parIkSAmAM tribhuvana prathama naMbare Avyo hato. kizora tribhuvana dharma-abhyAsamAM ghaNo tejasvI hato, ane sAdhu bhagavaMtanA saMparkane lIdhe dIkSA levAnA koDa enA manamAM janmyA hatA. paraMtu enAM dAdImA, 36 caritradarzana

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enA kAkA ene dIkSA letAM aTakAvatAM hatAM, kAraNa ke traNa bhAIo vacce A eka ja dIkaro hato. tribhuvananA pitAnA eka kAkAe to tribhuvana jo dIkSA na le to potAnI dukAna tribhuvananA nAma para karI ApavAnuM pralobhana paNa batAvyuM hatuM. paraMtu ethI tribhuvana jarA paNa AkarSita thayo nahoto. tribhuvananA eka mAmAe evI dalIla karI ke "tAre dIkSA levI hoya to leje, paraMtu tArAM navAM sIvaDAvelAM kapaDAM phATI jAya pachI dIkSA leje.' javAbamAM tribhuvane kaheluM ke "kAtara Apo to hamaNAM ja kapaDAM phADI nAkhuM." tribhuvanane samajAvavA mATe kAkAe pAdarAnA eka vakIlane kahyuM. vakIle tribhuvanane pAdarAnA pArasI nyAyAdhIza nAnAbhAI pestanajI navasArIvAlA pAse laI jaIne dIkSA na levA mATe samajAvatA vinaMtI karI. paraMtu e nyAyAdhIza paNa tribhuvananI dalIla AgaLa niruttara thaI gayA hatA ane temaNe kahyuM hatuM ke A chokaro dIkSA lIdhA vagara raheze nahi. e divasomAM gAyakavADI rAjyamAM dIkSA aMge keTalAka kaDaka dhArAo hatA. emAM paNa tribhuvananAM sagAMoe chApAmAM noTisa chapAvI hatI ke koIe tribhuvanane dIkSA ApavI nahi. je koI Apaze tenI sAme kAyadesaranAM pagalAM levAmAM Avaze.' - kizora tribhuvane dIkSA levAno aDaga nizcaya karyo hato, paraMtu konI pAse dIkSA levI e nirNaya haju thaI zakyo na hato. bIjI bAju tribhuvananI dIkSA aMge kAyadesaranI cetavaNI pachI dIkSA ApavAnI bAbatamAM sAdhubhagavaMto paNa vimAsaNa anubhavatA. daramiyAna pU. dAnavijayajI mahArAjanuM cAturmAsa pAdarA pAse darAparA nAmanA gAmamAM thayuM hatuM. te vakhate UjamazI mAstara sAthe vAraMvAra darAparA javAne lIdhe tribhuvanane pU. dAnavijayajI mahArAja tathA temanA ziSya pU. premavijayajI mahArAja sAthe gADha saMparka thayo hato. potAnI dAdImAnI hayAtI sudhI dIkSA na levAno vicAra jyAre eNe pU. premavijayajI mahArAja pAse vyakta karyo tyAre mahArAjazrIe eTaluM ja kahyuM, 'tribhuvana ! kALanI kone khabara che? kone khabara che ke tuM pahelo jaIza ke dAdImA pahelAM jaze ?" pU. premavijayajI mahArAjanuM A vAkya tribhuvananA hRdayamAM soMsaravuM nIkaLuM gayuM, ane teNe vahelI take dIkSA levAnuM nakkI karyuM. eNe thoDA vakhata pachI vaDodarAmAM pU. premavijayajI mahArAja pAse jaIne potAnI dIkSAnuM muhUrta kaDhAvyuM. paraMtu e mATe samaya ocho hato. (ocho hoya e jarUrI paNa hatuM.) ene dIkSA cUpacApa levI hatI. dIkSA vaDodarA rAjyanI hadanI bahAra ApavAmAM Ave to tAtkAlika kAyadAno zrI vijayarAmacandrasUri mahArAja 37

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koI prazna Ubho na thAya. eTale pU. premavijayajI mahArAje tribhuvanane dIkSA mATe briTiza sarahadamAM AvelA jaMbusara gAme pahoMcavAnuM kahyuM. e vakhate Trena mAsara roDa sudhI ja jatI hatI. mAsara roDa pahoMcI tyAMthI page cAlIne jaMbusara javAnuM hatuM. tribhuvana vizvAmitrIthI TrenamAM beTho. rastAmAM pAdarA sTezana AvatuM hatuM. musApharonI caDaUtaramAM potAnA gAmanA koI mANaso potAne joI na jAya te mATe pAdarA sTezana AvatAM pahelAM tribhuvana pATiyA nIce sUIne saMtAI gayo hato. sAMjanA mAsara roDa pahoMcIne pagapALA cAlIne te jaMbusara rAtanA sADA agiyAra vAge pahoMcyo. upAzrayamAM jaIne eNe moTA mahArAjane badhI vAta jaNAvI. bIje divase AmodamAM dIkSA ApavAnuM vicArAyuM hatuM. paraMtu tyAM paNa upAzrayamAM tribhuvananAM dUranAM eka kAkI tribhuvanane joI gayAM. eTale AmodamAM dIkSA ApavAnuM mAMDI vALavAmAM AvyuM. pachI jainonI vastI vagaranA tIrthadhAma gaMdhAramAM dIkSA ApavAnuM nakkI thayuM. muni maMgaLavijayajIe e kArya mATe hiMmata darzAvI. teo tathA muni nayavijayajI tathA muni prakAzavijayajI kizora tribhuvananI sAthe 19 mAIlano vihAra karI gaMdhAra pahoMcyA. gaMdhAramAM dIkSAnA muhUrtano samaya thaI gayo hato ane muMDana mATe gAmamAMthI hajAmane AvatAM vAra lAgI. eTale muni maMgaLavijayajIe pote kezaloca zarU karI dIdho hato. hajAma AvI pahoMcatAM muMDana thayuM. A rIte pAMca-sAta jaNanI vacce tribhuvanano dIkSAvidhi gupta rIte thaI gayo. emanuM nAma muni rAmavijaya rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. dIkSA pachI muni maMgaLavijayajI navadIkSita sAdhu sAthe vihAra karIne bharUca pahoMcI gayA. A bAju emanI dIkSAnA samAcAra pAdarAmAM pahoMcatAM tyAM bahu khaLabhaLATa macI gayo. sagAMsaMbaMdhIomAM A aMge turata kAyadesara pagalAM levAnI vAto thaI. bIjI bAju dIkSita tribhuvanane baLajabarIthI uThAvIne ghare laI AvavAnI vAto paNa vicArAI. alabatta, dIkSAnA samAcAra sAMbhaLyA pachI dAdImA ratanabAnuM haiyuM kaMIka DhIluM paDyuM. tribhuvanane pAcho laI AvavA mATe janArAM sagAMone A bAbatamAM kaMIka Ugra bolAcAlI ke jhapAjhapI na thAya e rIte vartavA temaNe vinaMtI karI. sagAMo bharUca pahoMcyAM. paNa navadIkSita rAmavijayajI mahArAja to potAnA nirNayamAM makkama hatA. eTale sagAMonuM bahu cAlyuM nahi. teo nirAza thaIne pAdarA pAchAM pharyA ane dAdImA ratanabAne badhI vAta karI. banelI paristhiti sAthe have manathI samAdhAna karavA sivAya temane mATe bIjo koI rasto rahyo na hato. dIkSA pachI rAmavijayajI mahArAje saM. 1969nuM prathama cAturmAsa sinora gAmamAM karyuM. e vakhate vyAkhyAnanI javAbadArI zrI dAnavijayajI mahArAjanI hatI. 38 caritradarzana

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paraMtu eka divasa dAnavijayajI mahArAjanI tabiyata sArI na hatI, tyAre emanA gurubhagavaMta vaDIla paMjAbI mahArAja upAdhyAya zrI vIravijayajIe nUtana sAdhu pU. rAmavijayajIne vyAkhyAna ApavA mATe pharamAvyuM, kAraNa ke rAmavijayajImAM e zakti emaNe nihALI hatI. pATa upara birAjI vyAkhyAna ApavAno rAmavijayajI mATe A pahelo ja prasaMga hato. pote nA pADI chatAM gurubhagavaMtanI AjJA thatAM e javAbadArI emaNe svIkAravI ja paDI. kayA viSaya upara vyAkhyAna ApavuM eno emaNe vicAra karI lIdho. samaktinA saDasaTha bolanI sajhAya potAne je kaMThastha hatI enA vivecanarUpe emaNe sarasa vyAkhyAna ApyuM. upAdhyAyazrI vIravijayajIe e vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLIne te vakhate AgAhI karI hatI ke rAmavijyajI bhaviSyamAM eka samartha vyAkhyAtA thaze ane potAnA viSayane tarkabaddha rIte zrotAo samakSa rajU karI zakaze. muni zrI rAmavijayajIne dIkSAnA pahelA varSe ja zarIramAM thayelA pittaprakopane kAraNe dAhanI asahya vedanA thaI hatI. paraMtu te vakhate emaNe cittanI pUrI samAdhi jALavI hatI. tyAra pachI paNa pittane kAraNe jyAre jyAre emane dAha UpaDato tyAre tyAre teo pUrI svasthatA dhAraNa karatA. zrI rAmavijayajI mahArAje vi. saM. 1970 tathA 1971nAM cAturmAsa gurumahArAja sAthe bhAvanagaramAM karyo. te daramiyAna "kammapayaDIno abhyAsa gurubhagavaMta pAse emaNe karyo hato. tyAra pachI potAnA gurubhagavaMto sAthe ja teo vihAra karatA rahyA hatA. emanA vidyAbhyAsa mATe pratyeka cAturmAsamAM paMDitonI vyavasthA karavAmAM AvatI. ene pariNAme emano zAstrIya abhyAsa ghaNo UMDo thayo hato. emanI buddhizakti ghaNI badhI khIlI hatI. dIkSAnA sAtamA varSathI teo sarasa vyAkhyAna ApatA thaI gayA hatA. eTalI yuvAnavaye paNa emanA vyAkhyAnano prabhAva zrotAo upara jabaradasta paDato, je emanA jIvananA aMta paryanta rahyo hato. - pUjya zrI rAmavijayajI mahArAjanI vANIno prabhAva zrotAo upara eTalo badho paDato ke te sAMbhaLIne keTalAkanAM hRdayamAM tyAga-vairAgyano bhAva UbharAI Avato. keTalAMkane dIkSA levAnuM mana thatuM. pU. zrI rAmavijayajInA aMgata saMparkamAM AvatI vyakti upara jANe ke koI pavitra jAduI asara thatI ane emanI pAse dIkSA levAnuM mana thatuM. pU. rAmavijayajI mahArAjanuM potAnuM caritra UMcI koTinuM hatuM. emano zAstrAbhyAsa ghaNo UMDo hato. emanI tarkazakti ane bIjAne samajAvavAnI zailI addabhuta hatI. ane emano vAtsalyabhAva eTalo chalakAI raheto zrI vijayarAmacandrasUri mahArAja - 39

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ke emanI pAse dIkSA levAno umaMga emanA gADha paricayamAM AvanArane thaI Avato. yuvAnavaye ja amadAvAdanA koTyAdhipati zeTha zrI ziMgalAle temanI pAse dIkSA lIdhI hatI. e ghaTanAe aneka lokone Azcaryacakita karI dIdhA hatA. AvA to bIjA aneka prasaMgo che. potAnAM svajana ghara choDIne dIkSA le e ghaTanA koI paNa kuTuMbane vyavahAru daSTie na game e dekhItI vAta che. pUjya zrI rAmavijayajI pAse dikSA lenArAonI saMkhyA vadhatI jatI hatI. e saMjogomAM dikSAvirodhI vAtAvaraNa prasare e svAbhAvika hatuM. potAnA patie pU. rAmavijayajI pAse dIkSA lIdhI hatI, enA virodhamAM ratanabAI nAmanI eka mahilAe eka jAherasabhAmAM jaIne mAro pati mane pAcho Apo' ema kahIne rAmavijayajInAM kapaDAM kheMcavAno prayatna karyo hato. A jhaghaDo korTa sudhI gayo hato ane korTe rAmavijayajIne nirdoSa jAhera karyA hatA. zrI rAmavijayajI mahArAjane AvAM judAM judAM kAraNosara jude jude sthaLe maLIne lagabhaga trIseka jeTalI vAra korTamAM jubAnI ApavA javAnuM thayuM haze. paraMtu te darekamAM korTe pU. mahArAjazrIne nirdoSa jAhera karyA hatA. saM. 1976nuM cAturmAsa emaNe amadAvAdamAM vidyAzALAmAM karyuM hatuM. AjhAdI pUrvenA e divaso hatA. cAnuM vyasana lokomAM vadhatuM jatuM hatuM. e vakhate cAno virodha paNa sakhata thato hato. e jamAnAmAM amadAvAdamAM rIcIroDa (gAMdhI mArga para AvelI be jANItI hoTelomAM Akho divasa cA pInArAno dhasAro raheto. emAM jenonI saMkhyA ghaNI moTI hatI. sAthe abhakSya paNa khAvAnuM. hoTelamAM rojanuM sattara maNa dUdha vaparAtuM. e vakhate rAmavijayajI mahArAje enI sAme jhuMbeza upADI hatI. TheraThera pravacano karyA hatAM ane e pravacanono prabhAva loko upara eTalo badho paDyo hato ke hoTelanI gharAkI ekadama ghaTI gaI ane rojanA sattara maNa dUdhane badale mAtra be-traNa maNa jeTaluM dUdha vaparAvA lAgyuM hatuM. Aje to cAnA vyasanano koI virodha rahyo nathI. paNa e jamAnAmAM rAmavijayajI mahArAjanI vANIno prabhAva keTalo badho hato te A ghaTanA sUcave che. e ja varSamAM prANI hiMsAnI bIjI vicitra ghaTanA paNa amadAvAdamAM banI hatI. amadAvAdamAM te samaye kUtarAMono trAsa vadhato jato hato. e trAsamAMthI bacavuM hoya to kUtarAMone mArI nAkhavAM joIe evo eka vicAra vaheto thayo hato. AvA vicArane jaina samAja svIkAre ja nahi. balake eno sakhata virodha kare e dekhItuM che. paraMtu zaramajanaka ghaTanA to evI banI ke pAzcAtya keLavaNI lIdhelA eka sudhArAvAdI nAstika zrImaMta jaina udyogapatie lokonI lAgaNIne vadhu 4) ka caritradarzana

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dubhAvavA mATe jANI-joIne saMvatsarInA pavitra parvanA divase ja potAnA baMgalAnA kampAunDamAM sATha jeTalAM kUtarAMone mArI nAkhyAM hatAM. A ghaTanAno tyAre jabaradasta virodha thayo hato. kUtarAM mAravAnI himAyata karanAra sAme pU. rAmavijayajI mahArAje prakhara AMdolana upADyuM hatuM. pariNAme kUtarAMone mArI nAkhavAnI himAyata karatI pravRtti tarata baMdha thaI gaI hatI. vi. saM. 1976nuM varSa amadAvAdamAM mahattvanuM banI gayuM hatuM. amadAvAdamAM navarAtrinA divaso daramiyAna mAtAjIno utsava thato ane dazerAnA divase bhadrakALI mAtAnA maMdiramAM bali tarIke eka bakarAno vadha karavAno rivAja cAlyo Avato hato. amadAvAda jevI dharmanagarImAM dharmanA nAme eka moTA paMcendriya jIvano vadha karavAmAM Ave e rivAja asahya thaI paDyo hato. e baMdha karAvavA mATe pU. rAmavijayajI mahArAje amadAvAdamAM ugra AMdolana cAlu karyuM. poLe poLe jaIne emaNe potAnA pravacanamAM A ja viSaya para bhAra mUkyo ane A hiMsaka pravRtti baMdha karavA mATenA badhA ja upAyo ajamAvI devA uddabodhana karyuM hatuM. A AMdolanane pariNAme amadAvAdamAM Thera Thera A ja carcAno viSaya banI gayo. emAM ahiMsApremI hinduo paNa joDAyA. amadAvAdamAM mANekacokamAM pacAsa hajAranI medanI samakSa pU. rAmavijayajI mahArAje joradAra ubodhana karyuM. ethI amadAvAdamAM eka moTuM AMdolana sarjAyuM. bIjI bAju saMgho taraphathI korTano Azraya levAmAM Avyo ane kAnUnI kAryavAhI paNa karAvAI. pariNAme bhadrakALI mAtAnA maMdiranA pUjArIo gabharAI gayA. vijayAdazamInA divase bhadrakALI mAtAnA maMdira AgaLa A hiMsaka prathA aTakAvavA hajAro mANasa ekatra thaI gayA. AvA pracaMDa virodhanI sAme pUjArIone namatuM jokhavuM paDyuM ane bakarAno vadha thaI zakyo nahi. lokoe harSanA pokAro karyA. tyArathI bhadrakALInA maMdiramAM bakarAnA vadhanI prathA kAyama mATe kAyadesara baMdha thaI gaI. e divasomAM jaina zAsanamAM eka vicitra ghaTanA banavA pAmI hatI. lAlana nAmanA eka paMDita ghaNA vidvAna hatA. emanAM pravacanono prabhAva loko upara bahu sAro paDyo hato. emano eka judI koTino anuyAyIvarga Ubho thavA lAgyo hato. emanA ziSyomAM zivajIbhAI nAmanA eka ziSya mukhya hatA. lAlana jyAM jatA tyAM lAlana mahArAja kI jaya'nA jayanAda emanAM bhaktajano pokAratAM. emanA anuyAyI vargano paMDita lAlana pratyenI bhaktino atireka eTalI hada sudhI thaI gayo ke teo temane tIrthakara tarIke mAnatA. eka divasa lAlana mahArAjanI emanA bhaktoe siddhigiri-zatruMjayanI taLeTImAM pacIsamA tIrthakara tarIke AratI utArI. zrI vijayarAmacandrasUri mahArAja 41

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A ghaTanAe jaina samAjamAM ghaNo khaLabhaLATa macAvI dIdho. te samaye AgamoddhAraka zrI sAgarAnaMdajI mahArAje paNa A ghaTanAno sakhata virodha karyo hato. pU. rAmavijayajI mahArAje paNa A ghaTanA sAme AMdolana gAvyuM hatuM. emaNe pU. sAgarajI mahArAja sAthe vicAravinimaya karIne A bAbatamAM kaMIka karavuM joIe tevo nirNaya karyo hato. e samaye sAgarAnaMdajI mahArAjanA bhaktoe lAlana-zivajI sAme A bAbata aMge adAlatamAM kesa dAkhala karyo hato. adAlatamAM jubAnI ApavA mATe chANIthI ugra vihAra karIne pU. sAgarajI mahArAja surata AvI pahoMcyA hatA. zAstronA AdhAre emaNe ApelI samartha jubAnIne kA2Ne adAlatano cukAdo lAlana-zivajInI viruddha Avyo hato. ema kahevAya che ke paMDita lAlanane potAne tIrthaMkara tarIke oLakhAvavAnI koI icchA nahotI, paraMtu bhaktonA Agrahane teo vaza thaI gayA hatA. e mATe emane pazcAttApa thayo hato. tyAra pachI to paMDita lAlana amadAvAdamAM pU. rAmavijayajI mahArAjanA vyAkhyAnamAM AvatA ane e sAMbhaLIne temaNe potAnI bhUla mATe potAno pazcAttApa vyakta karyo hato. temanA hRdayanuM parivartana thayuM hatuM. devadravya, bALadIkSA, vyavahAru keLavaNI, samAjasudhAro, tithicarcA vagere viSayomAM pU. rAmavijayajI mahArAja potAnA vicAro mokSanA lakSyanI dRSTithI, tattvadarzana ane zAstranA AdhAre sacoTa rIte rajU karatA, paraMtu phakta vartamAna vyavahAru upayogI dRSTithI ja vicAratA. loko sAthe AvA viSayomAM vaicArika saMgharSa thAya ane tenA AghAta-pratyAghAta paDe e svAbhAvika che. potAnA jIvanakALa daramiyAna pU. rAmacaMdrasUrijI mahArAje AvA ghaNA jhaMjhAvAto joyA hatA, ane te dareka prasaMge teo jarA paNa calAyamAna thayA nahotA. potAnA vicAro ane potAnA nirNayamAM teo haMmezAM aDaga rahyA hatA. emanI AvI nIDaratAne kAraNe emane keTalIka vAra sahana paNa karavuM paDatuM, paraMtu te badhuM teo nirbhayatAthI sahana karatA. emanuM khUna karavAnI dhamakInA patro paNa emanA upara kyAreka AvatA ane ethI emanA guru mahArAja zrI premavijayajI rAtre upAzrayamAM rAmavijyajInA saMthArAnuM sthAna badalAvI nAkhatA. emanI vaho2vA mATenI gocarImAM jhera bheLavI devAze evI aphavAo paNa UDatI. eTalA mATe temanA eka ziSya cAritravijayajI bhaktibhAvapUrvaka svecchAe pahelAM pote gocarI vAparI pachI ja emane vAparavA ApatA. rAmavijyajI mahArAjanI yuvAna vaye AvI keTalIka kanaDagata thoDo samaya cAlelI. pU. rAmacandrasUri mahArAje gujarAta ane rAjasthAna uparAMta dilhI, 42 caritradarzana

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uttarapradeza, bihAra, baMgALa, kalakattA, sametazikhara, madhyapradeza, mahArASTra, karNATaka jevA vistAramAM sthaLe sthaLe vihAra karI potAnI prabhAvaka vANIno lAbha aneka lokone Apyo hato. amadAvAdamAM premAbhAI holamAM "rAmAyaNamAM saMskRtino Adarza uparanAM temanAM vyAkhyAno, pAvApurImAM bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmInA jIvanacaritra paranAM vyAkhyAno, rAjagRhImAM AgamasUtra uparanI vAcanA ane vyAkhyAno vageree aneka lokone AkarSita karyA hatA. emanA vyAkhyAna daramiyAna koI paNa vyaktine koI paNa viSaya upara prazna pUchavAnI chUTa rahetI ane keTalIya vAra to AkhuM vyAkhyAna praznottararUpa banI jatuM. teo vyAkhyAnamAM kyAreya mAIka vAparatA nahi. yuvAnavaye emano avAja bulaMda hato ane hajAronI medanI temanuM vyAkhyAna zAMtipUrvaka sAMbhaLatI. vRddhAvasthAmAM jIvananA aMta sudhI emaNe kyAreya vyAkhyAna ApavAnI bAbatamAM pramAda sevyo nathI. azakti hoya, nAdurasta tabiyata hoya, topaNa teo pATa upara birAjamAna thaI acUka vyAkhyAna ApatA. chellAM varSomAM to emano avAja badhA zrotAo sudhI pahoMcato nahi, topaNa zrotAo saMpUrNa zAMti jALavIne emanA zabdone pakaDavA prayatna karatA. keTalAya lokone emanA pratye zraddhApUrvakano evo daDha bhaktibhAva raheto ke potAne vyAkhyAnamAM kazuM spaSTa sAMbhaLavA na maLe topaNa emanA pavitra mukhAraviMdanAM darzana karIne paNa teo anero utsAha, saMtoSa ane dhanyatA anubhavatA. pU. AcArya bhagavaMta jyAM jyAM vicaryA tyAM tyAM emanA pagale pagale aMjanazalAkA, pratiSThA, dIkSA, vaDI dIkSA, padavIpradAna, upadhAna, jinamaMdiranI varSagAMTha, rathayAtrA, tIrthaMkara paramAtmAnA kalyANakonI tathA anya parvonI ujavaNI ItyAdi prakAranA utsavo satata yojAtA rahyA hatA. emane pagale pagale utsava thato hato. emanI preraNAthI saMgha ane zAsananAM ghaNAM mahattvanAM kAryo sthaLe sthaLe thayAM che. potAnA sudIrgha jIvanakALa daramiyAna emanA hAthe aMjanazalAkA, pratiSThA ke dIkSAnA prasaMgo vartamAna samayamAM jeTalA thayA che eTalA anya koIthI thayAnuM jANyuM nathI. khaMbhAtamAM eka sAthe 24 ane amalaneramAM eka sAthe 26 vyaktioe emanI pAse dIkSA lIdhI. emanA potAnA 117 jeTalA ziSyo hatA. praziSyo maLIne emane hAthe 250thI vadhu munione ane 500thI vadhu sAdhvIone dIkSA apAI che. e ghaTanA jaina zAsananA itihAsamAM ghaNI moTI gaNAze. zatAdhika ziSyaziSyAo sAthe vicaratA AcArya bhagavaMta tarIke emanuM puNyazloka nAma sudIrgha kALa sudhI guMjatuM raheze. pU. AcArya bhagavaMta potAnA sAdhusamudAyamAM AcArapAlana mATe bahu ja zrI vijayarAmacandrasUri mahArAja 43

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custa rahyA hatA. jarA sarakhI zithilatAne paNa teo calAvI letA nahi. paraMtu potAnA dIkSita sAdhuone teo potAnI preraka vANIthI ane vAtsalyabhAvathI evA to AtmAbhimukha banAvI detA ke jethI emanA sAdhuo sAMsArika pralobhano ke lokeSaNAthI calita thatA nahi. ekaMdare phoTA pADavA-paDAvavAnuM paNa emanA samudAyamAM niSiddha rahyuM che. (ajANatAM koI pADI le te judI vAta che) vividha yojanAo mATe TrasTo karAvI dhana ekatrita karAvavAnuM lakSya paNa emanA samudAyamAM rakhAyuM nathI. pU. AcArya-bhagavaMta zAsananAM kArya mATe ke anukaMpA jevA viSayo mATe potAnI preraka vANI vahAvatA, paraMtu dAna ApavA mATe sIdhI apIla ke vyaktigata dabANa teo kyAreya karatA ke karAvatA nahi. paraMtu emanA vyaktitvanI asara ja evI thatI ke loko sAmethI dAna ApavA mATe haMmezAM tatpara rahetA. ene pariNAme emanI koI paNa vAta upara dhananI relamachela thaI jatI. emanI A eka viziSTa labdhi hatI. emanA kALadharma prasaMge eka karoDa rUpiyA karatAM adhika rakama uchAmaNImAM bolAI te emanA prabhAvaka puNyanI pratIti karAve che. saMsAra bhUMDo, duHkhamaya ane choDavA jevo che, levA jevo saMyama che ane meLavavA jevo mokSa che, e vAtanuM niraMtara lakSa rAkhanAra ane rakhAvanAra parama gItArtha pUjyapAda sva. zrI rAmacandrasUrIzvarajIne koTi koTi bhAvabharI vaMdanA ! prabhAvaka sthaviro, bhA. pamAMthI) ja ja caritradarzana

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pU. zrI vijayadharmasUrijI mahArAja yugadivAkara tarIke jemane biradAvavAmAM AvyA hatA te mahAna jaina AcArya parama pUjya zrI vijayadharmasUrIzvarajI mahArAja zanivAra tA. 6ThThI mArca, 1982nA roja savAre muMbaImAM majhagAMvanA upAzrayamAM 78 varSanI uMmare navakAramaMtranuM raTaNa karatAM karatAM samAdhipUrvaka kALadharma pAmyA. phAgaNa suda terasano e pavitra divasa hato, je divasa zatruMjaya mahAtIrthanI cha gAvanI pradakSiNA karavAno mahimA che. pU. vijayadharmasUrIzvarajI videha thatAM jaina samAjane eka mahAna AcAryanI khoTa paDI che. svargastha AcArya mahArAjanI pAlakhI goDIjInA upAzrayethI bIje divase savAre nIkaLavAnI jAherAta thaI gaI hatI. emanA kALadharmanA samAcAra muMbaI ane bahAragAmamAM vAyuvege prasarI gayA ane emanA pArthiva dehanA aMtima darzana mATe savArathI seMkaDo mANasonI lAina lAgI gaI hatI. huM ane mArAM patnI emanAM darzana karavA gayAM tyAre aDadhA kalAke vAro Avyo. aMtima darzana mATe vyavasthA paNa sArI rakhAI hatI. lAkho mANasoe emanAM aMtima darzana karyA. cembara sudhInI bAvIsa kilomITara jeTalI lAMbI aMtima yAtrAmAM lAkho mANasoe bhAga lIdho ane emane mATenI guNAnuvAda sabhA paNa ajoDa ane yAdagAra banI. pUjya AcArya mahArAjane pAMceka varSa pahelAM pAlItANAmAM lakavAno gaMbhIra humalo thayo hato ane teo bezuddha banI gayA hatA, paraMtu e gaMbhIra hAlatamAMthI teo beThA thayA ane potAnA AtmabaLa vaDe temaNe keTalAMka adhUrAM rahelAM potAnAM mahattvanAM kAryo pAra pADyAM. pUjya AcArya mahArAjano amArA kuTuMba upara anahada upakAra hato. huM pU. zrI vijayadharmasUrijI mahArAja 45

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chellAM paMdareka varSathI temanA gADha saMparkamAM Avyo hato. temanA vizeSa nikaTanA saMparkamAM AvavAnI taka mane apAvI mArA mitra zrI bAbubAI (vrajalAla) kapUracaMda mahetAe. teo dara aThavADiye eka ke be divasa rAtane vakhate pU. mahArAjasAheba jyAM hoya tyAM temanI pAse jatA. AThadasa mitro ekaThA thatA. pU. mahArAjajI koI eka zAstragraMthanuM adhyayana karAvatA. A rAtrivargamAM bAbubhAI potAnI gADImAM mane niyamita laI jatA. amArA A rAtrivargamAM aDadho-poNo kalAka mahArAjasAheba samajAve ane pachI praznottarI thAya. AvI rIte cAreka varSa khAsa karIne cAturmAsa daramiyAna pUjya AcArya mahArAja pAse niyamita javAnuM banyuM. A rAtrivargane kAraNe pUjya mahArAjasAheba sAthe mAre AtmIyatA thaI. citta upara eka chApa daDhapaNe aMkita thaI ke pUjya AcArya mahArAje ApaNA zAstragraMthonuM ghaNuM UMDuM adhyayana karyuM che. pratyeka viSayano temanI pAse tarata zAstrIya uttara hAjara hoya. zAstronI seMkaDo paMktio temane kaMThastha hatI. amArA badhA praznonI teo vividha dRSTikoNathI savigata chaNAvaTa karatA, jethI amane pUro saMtoSa thAya. vaLI temanI dRSTi haMmezAM vyavahAranaya ane nizcayanayanA samanvayanI rahetI. temanuM hRdaya haMmezAM karuNAthI chalakAtuM. keTalAka vivAdAspada praznonI chaNAvaTamAM paNa temanA vaktavyamAM abhiniveza ke judo mata dharAvanAra pratye asadubhAva jovA maLato nahi. amArA A rAtrivargamAM eka vakhata eka nAjuka, gaMbhIra carcA cAlI. vAta ema hatI ke I. sa. 1972mAM zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha taraphathI eka darakhAsta mArI pAse AvI. jaina yuvaka saMgha taraphathI prativarSa yojAtI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM pramukhasthAne birAjatA pro. gaurIprasAda jhAlAnuM avasAna thayuM. saMghanI samitie e sthAna mATe mArI pasaMdagI karI. huM saMghanI samitimAM hato. meM nizcaya karyo ke pUjya mahArAjazrI e mATe saMmati Ape to ja mAre e sthAna svIkAravuM. ekaMdare sAdhu bhagavaMto upAzrayanI bahAra cAlatI AvA prakAranI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALA mATe potAno aNagamo vyakta karatA. eTale mahArAjazrI mane saMmati Apaze ke nahi teno mane saMzaya hato. rAtrivarganA badhA ja mitroe abhiprAya Apyo ke "upAzrayanI bahAra erakanDizanDa holamAM cAlatI AvI nAstika vyAkhyAnamALAmAM ramaNabhAIthI pramukha tarIke javAya ja nahi. mahArAjazrI zo uttara Ape che te jANavA huM utsuka hato. thoDI vAra vicAra karI mahArAjazrIe kahyuM, ramaNabhAIe e vyAkhyAnamALAnuM pramukhasthAna svIkAravuM ja joIe, A taka jatI na karAya." mahArAjazrInA javAbathI badhA Azcaryacakita thaI gayA. A praznanI judA judA dRSTikoNathI chaNAvaTa karI mahArAjazrIe kahyuM, "huM je rIte ramaNabhAIne jANuM 46 ki caritradarzana

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chuM te jotAM ramaNabhAInA tyAM javAthI teo nAstika nahi thAya, paNa vyAkhyAnamALA Astika thaI jaze." mahArAjazrInI saMmatithI huM sAnaMdAzcaryamAM garakAva thaI gayo. - pUjya AcArya mahArAja pAse vaMdana arthe AvelA lokonI haMmezAM bhIDa rahetI. tenuM kAraNa nAnAMmoTAM sahunI sAthe teo AtmIyatA dAkhavatA. ene lIdhe koIne emanI pAse jatAM saMkoca thato nahi. AcArya mahArAja pote darekanI vAtamAM rasa laIne tene yogya mArgadarzana ApatA. seMkaDo nahi babbe hajAro mANasone teo nAmathI oLakhatA. emanI pAse koI jAya ke tarata teo nAma daIne bolAvatA. teo uMmaramAM moTA hatA eTale keTalAMyane ekavacanamAM saMbodhatA. paraMtu ethI temanAmAM raheluM pitAtulya vAtsalya pratIta thatuM ane tene lIdhe te vizeSa gamatuM pU. vijayadharmasUri mahArAjanuM samagra jIvana tejasvI hatuM. temanuM gRhastha jIvana thoDAM varSonuM paNa dharmaparAyaNa hatuM. temano janma vi. saM. 1960mAM vaDhavANamAM thayo hato. temanuM janmanAma bhAIcaMda hatuM. temanA pitAzrInuM nAma hIrAcaMdabhAI ane mAtAnuM nAma chabalabahena hatuM. temaNe cha varSanI uMmare potAnA pitA gumAvyA hatA. emanAM dharmaparAyaNa mAtAe bhAIcaMdane prAthamika zALAnA abhyAsanI sAthe sAthe pAThazALAmAM paMcapratikramaNa sUtrano abhyAsa karAvyo. bALaka bhAIcaMdanI smRti ane grahaNazakti ghaNI sateja hatI. nava varSanI uMmare to teo AsapAsanAM gAmanA lokone pratikramaNa karAvavA jatA. vadhu abhyAsane mATe bhAIcaMdane amadAvAdanI suprasiddha zALA cImanalAla nagInadAsa chAtrAlaya (sI.ena. vidyAvihAra)mAM dAkhala karavAmAM AvyA hatA. emano vidyAbhyAsa amadAvAdamAM ghaNo sarasa cAlato hato. bIjI bAju chabalabahene pAThazALAmAM zikSikA tarIke kAma cAlu karyuM hatuM. dharma pratye temanI ruci uttarottara vadhatI jatI hatI. potAnA traNa putromAMthI vacalA putra bhAIcaMdane paNa teo e ja mArge vALavA icchatAM hatAM. nAnI uMmaramAM ja mAtAe potAnA A putrane dIkSA levA mATe preraNA karI hatI. bhAIcaMdane joIne pU. vijayamohanasUrie paNa chabalabahenane e ja bhalAmaNa karI hatI. 16 varSanI uMmare bhAIcaMda zALAno abhyAsa choDI daIne vaDhavANa pAchA AvyA. vi. saM. 1976mAM mahesANA pAse sAMgaNapuramAM pU. vijayamohanasUri pAse dIkSA lIdhI. emanuM nAma muni dharmavijaya rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. muni pratApavijayanA ziSya tarIke teone jAhera karavAmAM AvyA. cAreka varSa pachI emanAM mAtuzrI chabalabahene paNa dIkSA lIdhI ane temanuM nAma sAdhvI zrI kuzaLazrIjI rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. dIkSA lIdhA pachI muni dharmavijaye pU. mohanasUri pAse umaMgabhera zAstrAbhyAsa cAlu karyo. taduparAMta vakhata maLatAM temaNe te samayanA mahAna jaina AcArya pU. pU. zrI vijayadharmasUrijI mahArAja 47

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vijayanemisUri, pU. AnaMdasAgarasUri, pU. udayasUri vagere pAse paNa vakhatovakhata zAstrAbhyAsa karyo. bhagavatIsUtra, karmagraMtha, kamaprakRti, paMcasaMgraha, bRhatkalpabhASya, vizeSAvazyaka mahAbhASya, tattvArthasUtra vagere zAstragraMtho uparAMta kAvya, nATaka, koSa, vyAkaraNa, nyAya ItyAdi viSayomAM paNa teo pAraMgata thayA. samaya jatAM temane kramekrame pravartaka, gaNi, paMnyAsa, upAdhyAya vagere padavIo apAI ane vi. saM. 2007mAM muMbaImAM AcAryanI padavI ApavAmAM AvI. zrI vijayadharmasUrijI prakAMDa paMDita hatA. temaNe saMkhyAbaMdha graMtho lakhyA che. saMskRta, prAkRta ane gurAtI bhASA para teo asAdhAraNa prabhutva dharAvatA hatA. temaNe navatattva prakaraNa upara saMskRtamAM cha hajAra zlokapramANa "sumaMgalA' nAmanI TIkA lakhI che. taduparAMta "bhagavatIsUtranAM pravacano, 'laghukSetramAsa', praznottara mohanamALA', zravaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra pUrvabhava' vagere saMkhyAbaMdha graMtho lakhyA che. AcArya thayA pachI zrI vijayadharmasUrijInI jAhera dhArmika pravRttio vadhu vegathI cAlavA lAgI. nUtana jinAlayanuM nirmANa, jinAlayono jIrNoddhAra, aMjanazalAkA ke pratiSThA, upadhAna ane mALAropaNa, maMdironI sAlagiri ane ujamaNAM uparAMta dhArmika zikSaNa ane jaina sAhitya tathA kalAnA pracAra mATe temaNe ghaNAM moTAM moTAM kAryo karyA che. temanA haste zatAdhika maMdirono jIrNoddhAra thayo che. temanI nizrAmAM pacIseka vAra upadhAna tapanI ArAdhanA thaI che. muMbaImAM ceMburamAM RSabhadeva bhagavAnanA ane ghATakoparamAM muni suvratasvAmInA derAsaranuM nimaNa emanI preraNAthI thayuM hatuM. taduparAMta dharmazALA, bhojanazALA, hospiTala, upAzraya, duSkALa-rAhata, relarAhata vagere sAmAjika kAryo mATe paNa emaNe ghaNI preraNA ApI che. emanA upadezathI chellA traNa dAyakAmAM vividha pravRttiomAM paMcAvana karoDathI vadhu rUpiyAnI rakama kharcAI che. e uparathI paNa temanI suvAsa, zakti ane dRSTino paricaya maLI rahe che. vi. saM. 2035mAM vaDhavANamAM jyAre emano amRta mahotsava UjavavA mATe ghaNuM moTuM phaMDa ekatrita thayuM te vakhate morabImAM rela AvatAM e tamAma rakama morabInA rAhatakArya mATe vAparavAnI emaNe sUcanA ApI hatI, je emanI samayajJatA darzAve che. zrI vijayadharmasUrijIno prabhAva evo moTo hato ke keTalAye mANaso yathAzakti jAhera kArya mATe pote je rakama dAna tarIke vAparavA IcchatA hoya tenI jANa mahArAjazrIne karI jatA. keTalIka vAra mahArAjazrInI sUcanA anusAra e rakama vAparavAne mATe keTalAka dAtAone eka-be varSa ke vadhu samaya rAha jovI paDatI. mahArAjazrIne koI paNa navuM kArya upADatAM te pAra paDaze ke kema te vize saMzaya 48 caritradarzana

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AC mAM raheto nahi, kAraNa ke dAtAo pAsethI lAkho rUpiyAnAM vacano agAuthI temane maLelAM rahetAM. koI paNa kArya mATe mahArAjazrI Tahela nAkhatA ke tarata te mATe joIe te karatAM vadhu nANAM ekaThAM thaI jatAM. - pUjya AcArya mahArAjane pagale pagale utsava thato. teo jyAM jyAM vicaratA tyAM tyAM utsavanuM vAtAvaraNa ApoApa sarjAI jatuM. keTaleka sthaLe sthAnika mANaso vacce sumeLa na hoya to sumeLa sthapAI jato. sumeLa sthApavA tarapha temanuM lakSa paNa rahetuM. eka prasaMga yAda che. dahANu pAse boraDI ane golavaDa nAmanAM be gAma che. tyAM jainonI ThIkaThIka vastI che. boraDImAM pratiSThAno mahotsava hato. huM ane mArI patnI tyAM gayAM hatAM. pratiSThAnA mahotsava daramiyAna pUjya mahArAjasAhebane evo vahema paDato hato ke A mahotsavamAM golavaDanA AgevAno utsAhabhera bhAga letA nathI ane kaMIka nArAja rahyA kare che. AcArya mahArAje temAMnA keTalAkane bolAvIne temanI vAta jANI. baMne gAmanA loko vacce sumeLa karAvavA mATe emaNe jAhera karyuM ke pratiSThAne bIje divase savAre derAsaranA dvAranuM udghATana karavAno lAbha golavaDanA saMghane ja maLavo joIe. e mATe golavaDanA saMghe vahelI savAramAM golavaDathI vAjategAjate boraDI AvavuM paDe. sAthe AcArya mahArAja hoya to ja e zobhe. paraMtu AcArya mahArAjane hRdayaroganI bImArI hatI. e zrama levAnuM kema kahI zakAya ? paraMtu AcArya mahArAje sAmethI potAnI tatparatA batAvI. vahelI savAramAM pote boraDIthI vihAra karI golavaDa gayA ane golavaDanA saMgha sAthe pAchA tarata ja vihAra karI boraDI padhAryA. potAnI nAdurasta tabiyata chatAM baMne gAmanA saMgho vacce sumeLa karAvavAne mATe temaNe vihAranuM ATaluM badhuM kaSTa uThAvyuM. mahArAjazrI muMbaIthI vihAra karI gujarAta tarapha vicaryA hatA tyAre bharUca pAse daheja baMdaramAM emanI preraNAthI ane sahAyathI tyAMnA jinamaMdirano jIrNoddhAra thayo hato ane tyAM pratiSThAno prasaMga bhavya rIte emanI nizrAmAM yojAyo hato. e prasaMge emanA umaLakAbharyA Agrahane vaza thaI ame sahakuTuMba tyAM gayAM hatAM ethI emaNe bahu ja prasannatA anubhavI hatI ane amane paNa e mahotsavamAM upasthita rahevAno ghaNo AnaMda thayo hato. - I. sa. 1974mAM bhagavAna mahAvIranA 2500mA nirvANa mahotsava prasaMge pUrva AphrikAmAM vyAkhyAno ApavA mATe mane ane mArAM patnIne jyAre nimaMtraNa maLyuM tyAre emanI pAse AzIrvAda levA gayelAM. e vakhate kevA kevA viSayo para vyAkhyAno ApavAM vagere ghaNI bAbato vize emaNe sarasa mArgadarzana ApyuM hatuM. e vakhate A mahotsava nimitte meM bhagavAna mahAvIra ane jaina dharma vize lakhelI pU. zrI vijayadharmasUrijI mahArAja dara 49

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aMgrejI pustikA mATe emaNe AzIrvacana lakhI ApyAM hatAM. emanA ja hastAkSarano bloka banAvI pustikAmAM meM eka bloka eka saMbhAraNArUpe chApyo hato. mahArAjazrInI nizrAmAM muMbaIthI zatruMjaya mahAtIrthano cha'rI pAlita saMgha nIkaLyo tyAre ame eka divasa mATe muMbaInA hAive para zirasADathI mano2 gAma sudhI page cAlIne joDAyAM hatAM. taduparAMta saMgha amArA vatana pAdarAmAM pahoMcyo tyAre paNa eka divasa mATe ame pharIthI joDAyAM hatAM. pAdarAmAM mArAM dAdImA amathIbahena amRtalAlanA nAmathI baMdhAyelA upAzrayamAM mukhya preraNA mahArAjazrInI ja hatI eTale upAzrayanA udghATanano kAryakrama mahArAjazrInI nizrAmAM A saMghapraveza vakhate yojAyo hato. A yAtrAsaMghe je je gAme mukAma karyo tyAM tyAM jIvadayA, sAdharmika bhakti vagere prakAranAM ghaNAM sarasa kAryo thayAM. vaLI eka mahattvanI yAdagAra ghaTanA to evI banI hatI ke muMbaI choDatAM eka kUtaro saMgha sAthe joDAI gayo hato. pote paNa yAtrika hoya tema saMgha sAthe te vihAra karato, vyAkhyAnamAM besato, navakArazI ane covihAra karato. saMgha sAthe zatruMjaya parvata para caDI AdIzvara dAdAnAM eNe darzana karyAM. pAchAM pharatAM A pavitra kUtarAne koNa potAne ghare rAkhe e mATe mahArAjazrInI nizrAmAM uchAmaNI bolAvavAmAM AvI hatI. pUjya AcArya mahArAjanuM manobaLa ane AtmabaLa kevuM hatuM teno eka prasaMga yAda Ave che. lakavAne lIdhe temanAM jamaNAM aMgo barAbara kAma nahotAM karatAM. lAMbo samaya besI zakAtuM nahi. paraMtu pUjya yazovijayajI mahArAja ane yAnaMdavijayajI mahArAjane AcAryanI padavI ApavAno prasaMga pAlItANAmAM hato. te vakhatanA vaDApradhAna mAnanIya morArajIbhAI desAI A prasaMge AvavAnA hatA. bapora pachIno samaya hato. je maMca taiyAra karavAmAM Avyo hato tyAM AcArya mahArAjane besavAnuM hatuM. temanI tabiyata ghaNI nAdurasta hatI. taDako paNa sakhata hato. topaNa e prasaMge pUjya AcArya mahArAja pUrI svasthatA sAthe AkhA kAryakrama daramiyAna maMca upara beThA hatA. apUrva AtmabaLa sivAya AvuM kaSTa uThAvI zakAya nahi. pUjya AcArya mahArAjano amArA pratye sadbhAva ghaNo badho hato. game teTalA teo rokAyelA hoya topaNa ame Ie ke tarata amane samaya ApatA ane zubhAziSa darzAvatA. vi. saM. 2035mAM pUjya AcArya mahArAja vaDhavANamAM cAturmAsa karatA hatA tyAre huM ane mArAM patnI temane vaMdana karavA gayAM hatAM. ame upAzraye pahoMcyAM ke tarata caMdravijaya mahArAje kahyuM, "mahArAz2a tamane bahu yAda karatA hatA. mahArAne cha iMcanI dhAtunI be pratimAjI koIka ApI gayuM che. eka mahAvIra svAmInI ane bIjI gautama svAmInI che. mahArAjjI kahe A 50 caritradarzana

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baMne pratimAjI ramaNabhAI ane tArAbahena Ave tyAre emane mAre bheTa ApavI che.' caMdrasena mahArAjanI vAta sAMbhaLI amane ghaNo harSa thayo. ame mahArAjajI pAse gayAM. te divase khAsa kaMI bhIDa nahotI. mahArAjI have dhIme dhIme paNa spaSTa bolI zakatA hatA. vAtacIta karavAmAM bahu zrama paDato nahoto, e divase amArI sAthe emaNe nirAMte dharmanI ghaNI vAto karI. amane khUba AnaMda thayo. teo e divase bahu ja prasanna hatA. mahArAjasAhebe baMne pratimA maMgAvI maMtra bhaNIne tenA upara vAsakSepa nAkhyo ane be pratimAjI amane ApI. amArA jIvanano A eka atyaMta pavitra, maMgalamaya, avismaraNIya prasaMga hato. pUjya AcArya bhagavaMta pAse keTalAMka varSa pUrve ame AjIvana caturvyavratanI-brahmacaryanI bAdhA lIdhI hatI tyArathI emano amArA pratye apAra vAtsalyabhAva rahyo hato. pUjya mahArAjazrI pAse keTalIka labdhisiddhi hatI. emanuM vacana mithyA thatuM nahi. emanA vAsakSepathI potAne lAbha thayo hoya evI vAta ghaNA pAsethI sAMbhaLI che. emanA vAsakSepathI eka bhAI paradezamAM akasmAtathI bacI gayAnI vAta paNa huM jANuM chuM. A zraddhAno viSaya che. aneka lokone AvA niHsvArtha karuNAsabhara mahAtmA pratye zraddhA hoya e svAbhAvika che. zrI vijayadharmasUri mahArAjano ziSyasamudAya vizALa che, jemAM AMtararASTrIya khyAti dharAvanAra sAhitya-kalAratna-zrI vijayayazodevasUri, zatAvadhAnI zrI vijyajyAnaMdasUri, prakhara vyAkhyAtA vijyakanakaratnasUri vagerethI jaina samAja suparicita che. temanA ziSyoe gurubhaktinuM apratima kArya karyuM che. lakavA thayA pachI pU. AcArya mahArAjane bIjAnI sahAyanI Akho divasa jarUra paDatI. emanA badhA ja ziSyoe vaiyAvaccanuM uttama kArya karyuM che, paraMtu temAM savizeSa ullekhanIya che pU. caMdrasenavijyajI mahArAja. emaNe satata pAMca varSa sudhI rAta ane divasa temanI pUrI saMbhALa lIdhI. UThavA-besavAmAM Teko Apavo, zaucAdi kriyA karAvavI, mukhamAMthI jharatI lALa sApha karavI, samaye samaye davAo ApavI, AhArapANInI saMbhALa rAkhavI ityAdi kAryo uparAMta satata jAmatI bhaktonI bhIDanI mahArAjazrIne zrama na paDe e rIte vyavasthita rAkhavI - e badhuM atyaMta parizramabhareluM kArya pUrI niSThApUrvakanI gurubhaktithI prasannatApUrvaka karyuM che je badala teo dhanyavAdane pAtra che. 52ma pUjya vijayadharmasUrIzvarajI mahArAjano samAja upara asIma upakAra che. teo divaMgata thayA, paraMtu temanI prasanna ane prabhAvaka smRti aneka lokonAM hRdayamAM cirakALa sudhI aMkita raheze. AvA dhuraMdhara mahAtmAne ApaNAM koTizaH vaMdana ho. ('tiviheNavaMdAmi'mAMthI) pU. zrI vijayadharmasUrijI mahArAja 51

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pU. zrI puNyavijayajI mahArAja parama pUjya zrI puNyavijayajI mahArAja vi. saM. 2027nA jeTha vada 6ne 14mI jUna, 1971nA roja muMbaImAM kALadharma pAmyA. "AgamaprabhAkara' ane zratazIlavAridhi'nuM biruda dharAvanAra zrI puNyavijayajI mahArAje jIvanabhara AgamasaMzodhana saMpAdananuM bhagIratha kArya karyuM hatuM. teo zrutasAhityanA marmajJa hatA. jene sAhitya ane tenI hastaprato vizenI temanI jANakArI eTalI badhI ke jaina sAhityanA kSetre saMzodhananuM kArya karanArane temanI pAsethI joItI mAhitI saraLatAthI tarata upalabdha thatI. emanA kALadharma pachI muMbaImAM bIje divase savAre temanI pAlakhI nIkaLI hatI. emAM hajAro mANaso joDAyA hatA. judA judA vistAramAM pharIne pAlakhI vAlakezvara bANagaMgAnA smazAnagRhamAM AvI pahoMcI hatI. tyAM emanA pArthivadehane jyAre agnisaMskAra karavAmAM Avyo tyAre keTalIye vyaktionI AMkhamAMthI AMsuonI dhArA vahI hatI. je keTalIka vaDIla ane pUjanIya vyaktio mArA jIvanaghaDataramAM preraNArUpa banI gaI che temAM parama pUjya munizrI puNyavijayajI mahArAja agrasthAna dharAve che. emanI preraNAe ja mane prAcIna jaina sAhitya pratye ane ethI paNa vizeSa jainadharma ane tattvajJAna pratye anurAgI banAvyo che. emanA AzIrvAdathI ja jIvanamAM keTalAMka kAryo huM saphaLatApUrvaka pAra pADI zakyo chuM. e mATe emanA pratye huM haMmezAM ghaNo ja RNI rahyo chuM. pUjya mahArAjasAheba sAtheno mAro paricaya lagabhaga doDha dAyakA jeTalo hato. emanAM pahelavahelAM darzana meM karyA amadAvAdamAM orienTala kaoNnpharansa bharAI tyAre. jaina munio paNa AvI kaoNnpharansamAM rasa le che e jANIne tyAre mane Azcarya para = caritradarzana

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thayeluM ane ApaNA jJAnabhaMDAro vize pU. mahArAjAsAhebe je pravacana karyuM te sAMbhaLIne to mArI mugdhatAno pAra rahyo na hato ! mAre pUjya mahArAjasAhebanA vadhu nikaTanA saMparkamAM AvavAnuM banyuM I. sa. 1955mAM. e varSe amadAvAdamAM seMTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejanI sthApanA thaI. muMbaInI seMTa jheviyarsa kaoNleja taraphathI amadAvAdanI seMTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM gujarAtI viSayanA adhyApaka tarIke sevA ApavA mATe, eka varSa mATe mane mokalavAmAM Avyo hato. savAranI kaoNleja hatI eTale samaya paNa ghaNo maLato hato. roja sAMje "sarita kuMja' baMgalAmAM prajJAcakSu pUjya paMDitajI zrI sukhalAlajI pAse huM jato hato. emane ekabe kalAka kaMIka vAMcI saMbhaLAvato hato. te samaye anala-damayaMtInI kathAno vikAsa e viSaya para zodhanibaMdha lakhavAnA kAryano haju AraMbha ja meM karyo hato. pUjya paMDitajI sAthe e viSayanI vAta nIkaLatAM emaNe e mATe pUjya puNyavijayajI mahArAjano saMparka sAdhavAnuM ane emanuM mArgadarzana meLavavAnuM sUcana karyuM. e pramANe eka divasa bapore huM jaina sosAyaTInA upAzrayamAM pU. puNyavijayajI mahArAja pAse jaI caDyo. pU. mahArAjasAhebane meM vaMdana karyA. paraMtu vidhisara vaMdana karatAM mane AvaDatuM nahotuM. pUjya mahArAjasAhebane mAro koI paricaya na hato, paraMtu prathama mulAkAte ja emaNe mArI sAthe koI svajananI jema khUba umaLakAbhera vAta karI. tethI huM atyaMta AnaMdita thaI gayo. emanA AvakAre mAruM hRdaya jItI lIdhuM. potAnA kAmamAMthI samaya kADhI emaNe mAre mATe puSkaLa samaya Apyo. ane te ja vakhate emaNe mAruM kaMI paNa ThAmaThekANuM lIdhA vinA mane madhyakAlIna jaina kRtionI be hastaprato ApI. emaNe mArAmAM mUkelA A asAdhAraNa vizvAsane kAraNe huM emanA vyaktitvathI vadhAre AkarSAyo. ane pachI to emane vaMdana karavAne tathA emanuM mArgadarzana meLavavAne jaina sosAyaTInA upAzraye javAno mAro rojano kAryakrama banI gayo. e divasomAM amerikAthI DaoN. normana brAunanA vidyArthI DaoN. aranesTa benDara kAlabhAcArya kathA upara saMzodhana karavA mATe amadAvAdamAM AvIne rahyA hatA. mahArAjazrI ane emanI vacce bhAMgyAtUTyA aMgrejImAM vyavahAra cAlato. jarUra paDe to teo koIkane bolAvI letA. eka divasa huM gayo ane dubhASiyA tarIke mAre kAma karavAnuM AvyuM ethI baMnene saraLatA rahI. huM upAzrayanI pAse ja traNacAra miniTanA raste raheto hato. mAre savAre sAtathI dasa sudhI kaoNlejamAM bhaNAvavAnuM hatuM. eTale Akho divasa samaya maLato. AthI DaoN. benDara amadAvAdamAM rahyA tyAM sudhI rojeroja dubhASiyA tarIke javAnuM meM cAlu karyuM. DaoN. benDare RSivardhanakRta pU. zrI puNyavijayajI mahArAja pa3

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"nalarAya-davadatI carita'nuM saMpAdana karyuM hatuM. eTale mAre zodhanibaMdha mATe e saMpAdana paNa upayogI thaI paDyuM ane Do. benDara sAthe pachIthI to evI maitrI baMdhAI ke bhAratamAM jyAre jyAre Ave tyAre mAro saMparka karyA vagara rahe nahi. muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM meM emanAM vyAkhyAno paNa goThavelAM. naLa-damayaMtInI kathA vizenA zodhanibaMdhanI pUrvataiyArImAM meM je keTalIka kRtio noMdhI hatI temAM samayasuMdarakRta 'nala-davadatI rAsa' paNa hato. paraMtu e kRti apragaTa hatI eTale hastapratane AdhAre eno abhyAsa karavAno hato. hastapratanI lipi barAbara vAMcatAM mane AvaDatuM nahotuM. pUjya mahArAjasAheba pAsethI e mane zIkhavA maLyuM, eTaluM ja nahi, emanI preraNAthI samayasuMdaranI e kRtinuM saMpAdana karavAnuM kArya paNa meM hAtha dharyuM, jemAM pUjya mahArAjasAhebanA ziSya pUjya darzanavijayajI mahArAje paNa ghaNI sahAya karI. pUjya puNyavijayajI mahArAjanA hAtha nIcenI tAlImane pariNAme e saMpAdana sArI rIte taiyAra thaI zakyuM. ethI ja e jyAre pustakarUpe pragaTa thayuM tyAre meM e pustaka emane arpaNa karyuM hatuM. Ama jUnI gujarAtI bhASAmAM lakhAyelI jena rAsAdi kRtionA saMzodhanasaMpAdananA kSetramAM pUjya mahArAjasAhebe ja mane praveza karAvyo ane emanI ja preraNAthI tyAra pachI meM upAdhyAyajI zrI yazovijayakRta jaMbusvAmI rAsa'nuM saMpAdana paNa taiyAra karI prakAzita karyuM. emAM mahArAjazrIe AzIrvacana lakhI ApyAM hatAM. - I. sa. 1955-56 mAM amadAvAdanI seMTa jheviyarsa kolejamAM eka varSa kAma karI mATe muMbaI pAchA pharavAnuM thayuM. pUjya mahArAjasAhebane vaMdana karavA gayo tyAre mAro dharma pratyeno anurAga vadhato joIne emaNe mane saMbhAraNA tarIke eka prAcIna kalAtmaka siddhacakrajInI bheTa ApI, jenA nitya darzana-vaMdanane pariNAme, mAre prAmANikapaNe kahevuM joIe ke mane jIvanamAM asAdhAraNa lAbho thayA che. muMbaI AvIne pUjya mahArAjasAheba sAthe patravyavahAra dvArA saMparka rAkhavAno prayatna karyo, paraMtu saune haze evo ja anubhava mane thayo hato. pUjya mahArAjasAhebanI A eka jANItI khAsiyata hatI ke teo koInI sAthe sAmAnya rIte patravyavahAra rAkhatA nahi. TapAlaTikiTano bane teTalo ochAmAM ocho parigraha ane saMghane ochAmAM ochuM kharca karAvavAnI bhAvanAmAMthI A vRtti janmelI manAya che. paraMtu anivArya hoya tyAre pUjya mahArAjasAheba avazya patrano javAba Ape che, evo paNa mane anubhava thayo hato. meM jyAre dhArmika ke sAhityika viSayanI koI agatyanI bAbata vize emanuM mArgadarzana maMgAvyuM hoya tyAre tyAre acUka temanA taraphathI svaccha ane maroDadAra akSare muddAsara ane cIvaTapUrvaka lakhelo patra pa4 taka caritradarzana

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maLyo hoya. mahArAjazrIe amadAvAdamAM ghaNAM cAturmAsa karyA. potAnI tabiyatane kAraNe tathA AgamasaMzodhana mATe jarUrI graMtho, hastaprato vagerenI anukULatAne kAraNe amadAvAdamAM emane vizeSa phAvatuM. emanAM bA-mahArAja, sAdhvI zrI ratnazrI paNa amadAvAdamAM hatAM eTale emanI khabaraaMtara pUchavAnI dRSTie paNa amadAvAda anukULa hatuM. mahArAjazrIne nAnI uMmarathI saMgrahaNIno roga thaI gayo hato ane ghaNA upacAro karavA chatAM saMpUrNapaNe ArAma thato nahi. mahArAjazrI pAse zarUAtamAM eka divasa huM beTho hato tyAre meM joyuM ke teo laghuzaMkA mATe jAya, paNa ghaNI vAra lAge. eka divasa sahaja jijJAsAthI meM pUchyuM tyAre emaNe kahyuM ke saMgrahaNInA rogane kAraNe have zarIra eTaluM nabaLuM paDI gayuM che ke zaucanI baMne kriyAo-laghuzaMkA ane vaDIzaMkA ekasAthe ja thAya che. potAnI AvI zArIrika avasthA hovA chatAM jIvanabhara temaNe pUrNa svasthatApUrvaka ghaNuM bhagIratha saMzodhanakArya karyuM. mahArAjazrInA mukhya ziSya ane emanA aMgata maMtrI jevA pU. zrI ramaNIkavijayajI mahArAja hRdayaroganI takalIphane kAraNe vahelA kALadharma pAmyA. pUjya bA-mahArAja paNa sudIrgha dIkSAparyAya pachI vi. saM. 2022mAM amadAvAdamAM kALadharma pAmyAM hatAM. mahArAjazrInA hAtha nIce prAkRta bhASA, lipi, jena dharma vagere viSayamAM pATaNa ane amadAvAdamAM keTalIka vyaktione sArI tAlIma maLI hatI. DaoN. bhogIlAla sAMDesarA, DaoN. umAkAnta zAha, paMDita amRtalAla bhojaka, paMDita lakSmaNabhAI vagere emanI pAse sArI rIte taiyAra thayA hatA. mahArAjazrI pAse tAlIma levAno mane paNa sAro lAbha maLyo. I. sa. 1955thI 1970-71 sudhI kyAreya evuM nahi banyuM hoya ke varasamAM be-cAra vakhata amadAvAda jaIne mahArAjazrInI sAthe kalAko gALyA na hoya. pU. puNayavijayajI mahArAja kapaDavaMjanA vatanI hatA. emanuM janma-nAma maNilAla hatuM. emanA pitAnuM nAma DAhyAbhAI dozI ane mAtAnuM nAma mANekabahena hatuM. mahArAjazrIno janma vi. saM. 19paranA kArataka suda pAMcamane divase, eTale ke jJAnapaMcamI athavA lAbhapaMcamIne divase thayo hato. e paNa kevo suMdara yogAnuyoga hato ! DAhyAbhAI dozInI Arthika sthiti sAdhAraNa hatI. eTale teo nokarI mATe muMbaI rahetA ane kapaDavaMja Ava-jA karatA. paraMtu e divasomAM muMbaInAM havA-pANI sArAM gaNAtAM nahi. eTale DAhyAbhAInI tabiyata naramagarama rahetI. mANekabahenane eka pachI eka ema pAMca saMtAno thayelAM, paNa temAMthI cAra to pU. zrI puNyavijayajI mahArAja - papa

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bALavayamAM ja gujarI gayelAM. saddabhAgye maNilAla bacI gayelA. vaLI maNilAla eka ghAtamAMthI paNa UgarI gayelA. eka divasa kapaDavaMjamAM e AkhI zerImAM moTI Aga lAgelI ane temAM mANekabahenanuM ghara paNa jhaDapAyuM. teo te vakhate bALakane gharamAM ekalo rAkhI nadIe kapaDAM dhovA gayelAM. Aga lAgI te vakhate bALaka maNilAlanA raDavAno avAja sAMbhaLI pasAra thatA koI eka vahorA saddagRhastha AgavALA gharamAM pahoMcI gayA ane maNilAlane bacAvI potAne ghera laI gayA. mANekabahena jyAre nadIethI pAchAM AvyAM tyAre potAnA gharamAM Aga lAgelI joIne DaghAI gayAM ane raDavA lAgyAM. emaNe tyAre mAnyuM ke potAno ekano eka dIkaro paNa AgamAM baLI gayo. emaNe to rokakaLa karI mUkI. bALakane laI janAra vahorAe Akho divasa ene dUdha tathA khAvAnuM ApIne ene sAcavyuM, paNa rAta sudhI koI levA na AvyuM eTale bALakane laIne teo ghare ghare tapAsa karavA nIkaLyA. te vakhate maNilAla jIvatA che e jANIne ane joIne mANekabahenanA AzvaryAnaMdano pAra na rahyo. bALakane chAtIsaraso cAMpatAM emanI AMkhamAMthI harSAzru vahyAM. sattAvIsa varSanI uMmare mANekabahenanA jIvamAM eka bhAre moTo AghAta AvI paDyo. emanA pati DAhyAbhAInuM akALa avasAna thayuM. vaidhavyanuM bhAre duHkha mANekabahenane mAthe AvI paDyuM. AvI viSama sthitimAM dharmanuM zaraNa AzvAsanarUpa banI jAya. mANekabahena dharma tarapha vaLI gayAM. dIkarAne zALAmAM bhaNavA mokalyo. dIkaro moTo thAya pachI pote dIkSA laI saMyamajIvana gALavuM evI bhAvanA teo sevavA lAgyAM. ema karatAM maNilAla caudeka varasanI umaranA thayA. mANekabahenane dvidhA hatI ke maNilAlane konA hAthamAM soMpIne dIkSA levI? bIjI bAju maNilAlanI ruci ane prakRti jotAM emane lAgyuM ke maNilAlane jANe gharasaMsAra karatAM saMyamane mArge vALavAmAM Ave to teo jIvanane vadhu sArthaka ane ujvaLa karI zakaze. kizora maNilAle paNa e mATe harSapUrvaka saMmati darzAvI. AthI vi. saM. 196panA mahA vada pAMcamanA roja chANI (vaDodarA pAse)mAM munivarya zrI caturavijayajI pAse maNilAlane dIkSA ApavAmAM AvI. maNilAlanuM nAma rAkhavAmAM AvyuM "muni puNyavijayajI." maNilAlanI dIkSA pachI mANekabahene gharanI badhI javAbadArIo ane bIjI badhI vyavasthA sameTI lIdhI. pachI teo pAlItANA gayAM. tyAM mohanalAlajI mahArAjanA samudAyamAM emaNe dIkSA lIdhI. emanuM nAma rAkhavAmAM AvyuM sAdhvI zrI ratnathI. Ama, mAtA ane putra baMne saMyamanA paMthe vaLyAM. pa6 caritradarzana

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dikSA pachI pU puNyavijayajI mahArAje potAnA guru zrI caturavijayajI mahArAja pAse tathA dAdAguru pravartaka zrI kAMtivijayajI mahArAja pAse sAro abhyAsa karyo. taduparAMta emaNe pU. sAgarAnaMdajI mahArAja, pU. lAvaNyavijayajI mahArAja, paMDita sukhalAlajI, zrI kuMvarajI ANaMdajI, paMDita nityAnaMda zAstrI, paMDita bhAIlAlabhAI, paMDita vIracaMdabhAI meghajI vagere pAse saMskRta, prAkRta, ardhamAgadhI, apabhraMza, jUnI gujarAtI vagere bhASAono, zAstragraMthono, judA judA saikAonI lipiono tathA hastapratonA saMzodhana-saMpAdananI paddhatino ghaNo UMDo abhyAsa karyo. jaina darzana uparAMta anya darzanonuM paNa emaNe sAruM adhyayana karyuM. mahArAjazrInI vidvattAno samAjane ane vizeSataH suzikSita vargane sAro paricaya thayo. te eTale sudhI ke pote kaoNleja-yunivarsiTImAM abhyAsa karyo na hovA chatAM judI judI yunivarsiTIo taraphathI temanI pIeca.DI.nA parIkSaka tarIke nimaNUka thatI. I. sa. 1961mAM kAzamIramAM bharAyelI ola inDiyA orienTala kaoNnpharansanA prAkRta ane jainadharma vibhAganA adhyakSa tarIke emanI nimaNUka thaI hatI. pote to tyAM jaI na zake paNa potAno adhyakSa tarIkeno te vizeno lekha emaNe mokalI Apyo hato. emanA mArgadarzana mATe normana brAuna, aranesTa benDara vagere videzanA vidvAno AvatA. amerikAnI orienTala sosAyaTIe mahArAjazrInI mAnada sabhya tarIke nimaNUka karI hatI, e jevuMtevuM bahamAna na gaNAya. bALabrahmacArI, lAMbA dIkSAparyAyavALA, saMyamanI ArAdhanAmAM magnacitta, jJAnavRddha ane tapovRddha sthavira pUjya mahArAjasAhebe potAnI tabiyatanI paNa darakAra karyA vagara pATaNa, jesalamera, amadAvAda vagere sthaLe jaina bhaMDAronI hastapratone vyavasthita karavAnuM amUlya kArya karyuM che. asahya garamImAM, mAthe bhInuM potuM mUkIne dhIkhatA patarA nIce besIne bharabapore jyAre emane meM amadAvAdamAM devasAnA pADAnA upAzrayamAM prasanna citte kArya karatA joyA tyAre to mAruM mastaka emanA caraNomAM namI paDyuM hatuM. emanA athAka parizramayukta avirata kAryane kAraNe tema ja cAritryanI zreSThatAne kAraNe koI saMghe ke samAje teo varSothI upAzrayamAM potAnA svAdhyAyasaMzodhananA kAmane mATe lAITano upayoga karatA hovA chatAM teno virodha ke UhApoha karyo nathI. pUjya mahArAjasAhebanI Atmika zakti eTalI prabaLa hatI ke aDadhI rAta sudhI kArya karyuM hoya ane rAtanA eka-be kalAkanI UMgha maLI hoya topaNa bIje divase savAre teo evA jasvastha ane prasanna hoya ane divase ArAma levAnI emane jarUra paNa na hoya. AvI rIte ekAda divasa nahi, divasonA divasa sudhI, mahinAo sudhI kArya karavAnI asAdhAraNa zakti teo dharAvatA hatA. pU. zrI puNyavijyajI mahArAja pa7

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zuM jena ke zuM bauddha, zuM hindu ke zuM khristI, dareka dharma ke saMpradAyanA tyAgI sAdhuomAM paNa jovA maLe che lokeSaNAnI abhIpsA. tyAgI mahAtmAonI lokaprazaMsA ApoApa ja thavA lAge che, tema chatAM samaya jatAM kyAreka keTalAkamAM vadhu lokeSaNAnI vAsanA jAge che, paraMtu pUjya mahArAjasAhebe enA upara vijaya meLavyo hato. potAne AgrahapUrvaka sahaja rIte maLatI AcAryanI padavInI paNa emaNe khevanA karI nahotI, to bIjI lokeSaNAnI to vAta ja zI karavI ? mahArAjazrInI vinamratAno eka prasaMga mArA cittapaTamAM haMmezAM aMkita rahelo che. I. sa. 1963nA arasAmAM pU. zrI hemasAgarasUrie 'kuvalayamALA' nAmanA graMthanA anuvAda tathA saMzodhana-saMpAdananuM kArya mane soMpyuM hatuM. te vakhate keTalAka samAsayukta prAkRta zabdonA artha barAbara besatA nahi, eTale pU. hemasAgara mahArAje sUcana karyuM ke e mATe mAre pUjya puNyavijayajI mahArAjanuM mArgadarzana meLavavuM. e pramANe eka divasa huM jyAre amadAvAda gayelo tyAre pU. puNyavijayajI mahArAja pAse te kAma mATe luNAvADAnA upAzraye rAtre ATheka vAge pahoMcyo hato. mahArAjazrI pAse zabdonA arthanI carcA karatAM karatAM rAtano lagabhaga doDha vAgI gayo haze. badhA artha barAbara saMtoSakAraka rIte besI gayA. kAma patyuM eTale mahArAjazrI pAse mAMgalika sAMbhaLIne huM nIkaLato hato. te vakhate mahArAjazrIe kahyuM, "ramaNabhAI, muMbaI pahoMco eTale hemasAgarasUrine mArI vaMdanA kahejo." meM kahyuM, 'paNa mahArAjazrI, hemasAgarusUri to ApanA karatAM uMmaramAM, dIkSA paryAyamAM, jJAnamAM ghaNA ja nAnA che. ApanI vaMdanA hoya ?" emaNe kahyuM, 'e game te hoya, paNa teo AcArya che ane huM muni chuM eTale mAre ja emane vaMdanA karavAnI hoya !" mahArAjazrInI AvI ucca, udAtta, vinamra bhAvanAthI huM bahu prabhAvita thayo hato. jIvananAM vividha kSetromAM mahAna gaNAtI koI koI vyaktionA nikaTanA saMparkamAM AvavAnI jyAre ApaNane taka maLe che tyAre te darekano ApaNo anubhava ekasarakho nathI hoto. keTalIka mahAna gaNAtI vyaktionA nikaTanA saMparkamAM jema jema ApaNe AvIe chIe ane jema jema emanI vizvasanIya vyakti banIe chIe tema tema e mahApuruSamAM rahelAM ahaMkAra, daMbha, ugra rAgadveSa, saMkucita ane svArthaparAyaNa dRSTi, khaTapaTa, cAritryanI zithilatA, upadeza ane vartana vaccenI visaMvAditA ityAdi ApaNI najare caDavA lAge che. ane vakhata jatAM lokaSTie mahAna gaNAtA e puruSamAM vAmana puruSanuM ApaNane darzana thatuM jAya che. bIjI bAju keTalAka evA kharekhara mahAtmAo hoya che ke jemanA nikaTanA saMparkamAM jema jema ApaNe AvatA jaIe tema tema temanA cAritryanAM ApaNane khabara na hoya 58 caritradarzana

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evAM ujjavaLa pAsAMonuM vadhu ne vadhu subhaga darzana ApaNane thatuM jAya che. parama pUjya puNyavijayajI mahArAjasAhebanA jema jema nikaTanA paricayamAM mAre AvavAnuM thatuM gayuM tema tema emanA jIvananA atyaMta ujvaLa pAsAMonuM vadhu ne vadhu sarasa darzana mane haMmezAM thatuM gayuM hatuM. muMbaI zaheramAM emanA vihAra daramiyAna mahArAjazrI mArA copATInA ghare pagalo karI gayA hatA, paraMtu vAlakezvaranA cAturmAsa daramiyAna mAre emano jeTalo lAbha joIto hato teTalo, kauTuMbika ane vyAvasAyika javAbadArIone kAraNe, laI zakyo nahoto. huM ghaNI vAra rAtre dasa vAge emanI pAse jato, ane bAra-eka vAgyA sudhI besato. teo aDadhI rAta sudhI ghaNuMkharuM jAgatA ja hoya ane kaMIka lekhana-vAcana karatA ja hoya. e arasAmAM nAnAM TeparekarDara nIkaLyAM hatAM. meM emanI vAto, upadezavacano, anubhavo, keTalAMka stotro vagere rekarDa karI lIdhAM hatAM. emanI zraddhAMjali sabhAmAM meM jyAre AraMbhamAM ane aMti mahArAjazrInI vANI saMbhaLAvI tyAre sau zrotAo Azcaryamugdha thaI gayA hatA. muMbaImAM bIjA cAturmAsa pachI mahArAjazrInI bImArI vadhI jatAM emane jyAre hospiTalamAM dAkhala karavAmAM AvyA tyAre seMTa jheviyarsa kolejamAMthI sAMje chUTIne huM emanI khabara jovA jato. je divase rAtre teo kALadharma pAmyA te divase mAre emane maLavAno yoga nahi hoya. kaoNlejathI chUTIne lagabhaga sADA sAta vAge huM emanI pAse javA nIkaLyo. pahoMcavA Avyo tyAM e AkhA vistAranI lAITa gaI. hospiTalanA makAnamAM aMdhAruM vyApI gayuM. liphTa baMdha thaI gaI. vIseka miniTa rAha jovA chatAM lAITa AvI nahi, eTale nirAza thaI bIje divase javAno vicAra karI tyAMthI ghare AvavA meM basa pakaDI. thoDI vAra thaI tyAM lAITa cAlu thaI, paNa have basamAMthI UtarI pAchA pharavAnuM mana na thayuM. huM ghare Avyo tyAM kalAkamAM ja samAcAra AvyA ke mahArAjazrI kALadharma pAmyA che. e samAcAra sAMbhaLatAM ja meM jANe vajAghAta anubhavyo. jIvanano eka AdhArastaMbha gumAvyA jevuM lAgyuM. aMtima milanano avasara cUkyAno vasavaso manamAM rahI gayo. vidvattA, udAratA, samatA ane vatsalatAnA avatAra samA pUjya zrI puNyavijayajInA kALadharmathI mAruM to eka AzrayasthAna cAlyuM gayuM evuM mane lAgyuM. emanI vAtsalyasabhara vANI ane madhura svare thatA vArtAlApanuM zravaNaguMjana to haju paNa thayA kare che. AvI e vaMdanIya preraNAmUrtine ApaNI koTiza vaMdanA ho! (tiviheNavaMdAmimAMthI) pU. zrI puNyavijayajI mahArAja 59

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6 pU. zrI tattvAnaMdavijayajI mahArAja parama pUjya muni zrI tattvAnaMdavijyajI mahArAjasAheba ravivAra, tA. 31mI me, 1981nA roja savAre muMbaImAM dAdaranA jJAnamaMdiranA upAzrayamAM kALadharma pAmyA. chellA lagabhaga eka mahinAthI temanI tabiyata asvastha rahetI hatI. temane avAranavAra tAva Avato hato. ene lIdhe temanAthI khorAka levAto nahoto. chelle temano tAva acAnaka ekadama vadhI gayo. dAktarI nidAna thAya te pahelAM ane temane haoNspiTala laI javAya te pahelAM emaNe deha choDyo. samAdhipUrvaka teo kALadharma pAmyA. chellA mahinAmAM huM temane vaMdana karavA mATe be vAra gayo hato. lagabhaga mahinA pahelAM pahelI vAra gayo hato tyAre eka kalAka temanI sAthe vAtacIta karI hatI. potAne tAva Ave che teno ullekha temaNe karyo hato. temanA caherA upara joIe teTalI prasannatA jaNAtI nahotI. teo kALadharma pAmyA tenA daseka divasa pahelAM bIjI vAra gayo tyAre teo khUba prasanna hatA. temaNe kahyuM, 'tame Aje AvyA te sAruM karyuM. gaI kAle AvyA hota to huM besI zakata nahi. gaI kAla sudhI mane tAva hato. Aje savArathI tAva nathI. khorAka levAyo che ane prasannatA anubhavAya che.' te divase temanI sAthe lagabhaga be kalAka jJAnagoSThi cAlI. tIrthaMkara paramAtmAnA mahimA vize samajAvatAM temaNe kahyuM ke tIrthaMkaro jyAre samavasaraNamAM padhAre tyAre dezanA ApatAM pahelAM caturvidha saMghane vaMdana kare, kA2Na ke saMgha e tIrtharUpa che. teo 'namo saMghasa, namo tIthrassa' ema kahyA pachI dezanA zarU kare che. evI ja rIte tIrthaMkaro nirvANa pAme tyAre emanA mukhamAMthI chellA zabdo nIkaLe 60 * caritradarzana

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namo saMghA, namo tIththamsa.' pUjya mahArAjasAheba sAthe te divase arihaMta bhagavaMta, siddha bhagavaMta, kevaLI bhagavaMta, cauda pUrvadhara sAdhuo vagere vize ghaNI vAto nIkaLI. teo khUba utsAhamAM ne ullAsamAM hatA. temaNe kahyuM ke pote aMdarathI khUba prasannatA anubhave che ane aMdarano prakAza jANe vadhato jato hoya tevuM anubhavAya che. te divase temanI tabiyata eTalI sArI hatI ke teo ATalA jaladI kALadharma pAmaze ema mAnI na zakAya. temanI uMmara paNa evI moTI nahotI. temane haju sATha varSa paNa pUrAM thayAM nahotAM. paraMtu teo yogasamAdhi laI jIvana pUruM karaze evo aNasAra mane Avato hato. pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajI mahArAja kacchanA sAMherA gAmanA vatanI hatA. emanA pitAnuM nAma jeThAbhAI ane mAtAnuM nAma sonAbAI hatuM. emano janma kAraMjAmAM thayo hato ane emanuM nAma tejapAra rAkhavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. temaNe kaccha, muMbaI ane mahArASTramAM zALA-kaoNlejamAM abhyAsa karyo hato. kaoNlejamAM inTara sudhInA abhyAsa pachI temaNe be varSa nokarI karI hatI. daramiyAna teo pU. zrI lakSmaNasUrijInA saMparkamAM AvyA ane emane dIkSA levAnI bhAvanA thaI. pacIsa varSanI vaye emaNe dIkSA lIdhI ane pU. lakSmaNasUrinA ziSya pU. kIrticaMdrasUrinA ziSya thayA. emanuM nAma muni tattvAnaMdavijyajI rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. dIkSA pachI emaNe pU. lakSmaNasUri pAse saMskRta, prAkRta, ardhamAgadhI vagere bhASAono tathA zAstragraMthono UMDo abhyAsa karyo hato. eka vakhata pU. lakSmaNasUrinA ziSyomAMthI koNa keTalI bhASAmAM vyAkhyAna ApI zake e vize spardhA yojavAmAM AvI hatI. te vakhate gujarAtI, marAThI, hindI, aMgrejI, kacchI, siMdhI, saMskRta ane prAkRta ema ATha bhASAmAM vyAkhyAna ApavAnI zaktinI pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajIe pratIti karAvI sarvamAM prathama naMbara meLavyo hato. sva. pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajI mahArAjanuM nAma pahelavaheluM meM sAMbhaLyuM jyAre namaskAra svAdhyAya' nAmano graMtha jaina sAhitya vikAsa maMDaLa taraphathI pragaTa thayo tyAre. navakAramaMtra vize prAkRta bhASAnAM lakhANanAM saMzodhana-saMpAdanarUpe e graMtha thayo tyAre enA saMpAdaka pU. zrI tattvAnaMdavijyajInI vidvattAno paricaya thayo. tyAra pachI 'namaskAra svAdhyAya'no bIjo bhAga navakAramaMtra vizenAM pUrvAcAryonA saMskRta lakhANonAM saMzodhana-saMpAdanarUpe pragaTa thayo hato. tyAra pachI 'namaskAra svAdhyAya'no trIjo bhAga navakAramaMtra vizenAM jUnI gujarAtI bhASAnAM lakhANo vizenA saMzodhanasaMpAdana tarIke pragaTa thayo hato. pa. pU. zrI vijayadharmasUrIzvarajInI nizrAmAM muMbaImAM sAntAkrujhamAM e graMthanA prakAzanano samAroha yojAyo hato. te prasaMge mane prAsaMgika pU. zrI tattvAnaMdavijyajI mahArAja 6 1

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vaktavya rajU karavA mATe pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajI mahArAje khAsa kahyuM hatuM. e divase emane khUba ullAsa hato, ke namaskAra svAdhyAya vize temaNe upADeluM saMzodhanakArya varSonI jahemata pachI pUruM thayuM hatuM. pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajInA saMzodhanano tema ja ArAdhanAno mahattvano eka viSaya te navakAramaMtra hato. saMskRta, ardhamAgadhI ane jUnI gujarAtI bhASAmAM e vize lakhAyelA evA tamAma upalabdha sAhityano UMDo abhyAsa temaNe karyo hato. emanuM rAta-divasa ciMtanamanana paNa navakAramaMtra vize rahetuM. eka sthaLe cAturmAsamAM dainika vyAkhyAna mATe paNa emaNe navakAramaMtrano viSaya rAkhyo hato. cAra mahinA A eka ja viSaya upara vyAkhyAno ApavAnuM temanA jevA vidvAna muni mahArAjathI ja banI zake, kAraNa ke emaNe e viSayanuM talasparzI avagAhana karyuM hatuM. navakAramaMtramAM prathama pada arihaMta bhagavaMtanuM. arihaMta bhagavaMtanA svarUpa vize paNa pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajIe ghaNo ja UMDo abhyAsa karyo hato. emaNe devAdhideva "bhagavAna mahAvIranA jIvanacaritra uparAMta arihaMta bhagavaMtanA svarUpanAM vividha pAsAMono zAstrIya dRSTithI ane zAstragraMthomAMthI aneka avataraNo ApIne paricaya karAvyo che. pU. mahArAjazrIe namaskAra svAdhyAyanA traNa graMtho ane devAdhideva bhagavAna mahAvIranA graMthamAM eTaluM zAstrIya vidvattApUrNa ane vaijJAnika paddhatithI saMzodhanakArya karyuM che ke koI paNa yunivarsiTI emane DilinI padavI jarUra ApI zake. videzonA keTalAye vidvAnoe emanA A graMthonI kadara karI che. vartamAna samayanA jaina vidvAna sAdhuomAM pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajInI ApaNe jarUra gauravapUrvaka gaNanA karI zakIe. pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajI kacchanA vatanI hatA, paraMtu temanA pitAzrI varSo pahelAM mahArASTramAM AvIne vasyA hatA. eTale tattvAnaMdavijayajIno uchera mahArASTramAM thayo hato. ene lIdhe teo marAThI bhASA paNa sArI rIte jANatA hatA. emaNe AraMbhamAM keTalAya graMtho marAThI bhASAmAM vAMcyA hatA. pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajIno pratyakSa paricaya mane I. sa. 1974mAM thayo. tyAre teo muMbaImAM copATInA upAzraye cAturmAsa mATe birAjamAna hatA. amArA makAnamAM pahele mALe A upAzraya hato. eTale pU. mahArAja pAse roja savArasAMja javAnuM thatuM tathA vyAkhyAna paNa sAMbhaLavA maLatuM. jaina viSayomAM mArI keTalIye zaMkAonuM samAdhAna emanI pAse thatuM ane sarasa mArgadarzana maLatuM. mahArAjazrI amAre ghare ghaNI vAra vahoravA padhAratA. teo dUdha vahoratA. eka vakhata emanI sAthe vAta nIkaLI tyAre jANavA maLyuM ke emane pittanI takalIpha che eTale dUdha 62 caritradarzana

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vadhAre mAphaka Ave che. eka vakhata emaNe kaheluM ke amane sAdhuone vRddhAvasthAmAM prakRtine anukULa gocarI na maLe to Akho divasa bagaDI jAya ane tabiyata paNa bagaDe. emanI pittanI takalIphane kAraNe maracAM vagaranI gocarI anukULa rahetI. chatAM koIka vAra koIka gharethI ajANatAM maracAMvALI vAnagI AvI jatI, enI asara emanI tabiyata upara thatI. yogavidyAnA paNa teo UMDA jANakAra ane abhyAsI hatA. temane keTalIka svayaMskuraNA thatI. temanI kuMDalinI jAgrata rahetI. ethI ja pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajIne vizALa sAdhu-samudAyamAM vicaravuM gamatuM nahi. vyavahAranA niyamane khAtara potAnI sAthe ekAda sAdhune rAkhavA paDatA, paNa manathI temane te paNa bahu gamatuM nahi. vaLI dara vakhate gurumahArAja navA navA dIkSita evA prauDha sAdhuo ApatA ke jemanI sAthe prakRtimeLa thavo agharo raheto. teo jyAre muMbaI khAte mulunDamAM birAjamAna hatA tyAre ame koI koI vAra emane vaMdana karavA jatAM. mArAM sAsu paNa amArI sAthe AvatAM, kAraNa ke emane paNa pUjya mahArAjazrI pratye khUba bhaktibhAva hato. eka vakhata ame vaMdana karavA gayAM tyAre mArAM sAsu amerikAnA pravAse javAnAM che e vAta nIkaLI. e vakhate emaNe thoDI vAra dhyAnamagna thayA pachI mArAM sAsune kahyuM, 'tame amerikA bhale jAya, paNa cha aThavADiyAMmAMthI eka divasa paNa vadhu na rokAtAM. emaNe ApelI tArIkha pramANe mArAM sAsu amerikAthI pAchA AvI gayAM. vadhu rokAya to tyAM emane koI azubha yoga naDe ema hato ema emaNe pAchaLathI sUcana karyuM hatuM. chellA keTalAka samayathI teo koI koI vakhata ekalA vicaratA ane ghaNuMkharuM parAMomAM rahetAM. dhyAna mATe ekalatA ane ekAMta emane vadhu priya ane anukULa rahetA. muMbaI bAju padhAravA mATe meM temane vinaMtI karelI, paraMtu emaNe kaheluM ke dhyAnamAM ane jApa mATe parAMomAM jevuM ekAMta maLe che tevuM muMbaI bAju maLatuM nathI. mATe muMbaI bAju AvavAno bhAva khAsa thato nathI. chellA keTalAka samayathI teo dAdaramAM jJAnamaMdiranA upAzrayamAM hatA. ame eka vakhata emane vaMdana karavA gayAM tyAre copATInuM amAruM nAnuM ghara badalIne vAlakezvaramAM moTuM ghara levAnI vATAghATa cAlatI hatI enI vAta karI, paNa e mATe jarUrI eTalAM nANAMnI amArI pAse sagavaDa thAya ema nathI ema jaNAvyuM. emaNe kahyuM, "ramaNabhAI, huM kahuM chuM ke tamAre e ghara laI levAnuM che. roja bhaktAmara stotra bolajo. eka varSamAM tamAro nANAMno prazna acUka ghaNI sArI rIte pAra paDI jaze." jANe emanI vANI phaLI hoya tema emaNe kahelI samayamaryAdAmAM Akho prazna sAnaMdAzcarya UkalI gayo. jANe teo AzIrvAda varasAvatA rahyA hoya evo anubhava thayo. temanuM cAtumAMsa pU. zrI takhtAnaMdavijayajI mahArAja 63

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goregAmamAM javAharanagaramAM nakkI thayuM hatuM. thoDA divasa pachI teo e tarapha vihAra karavAnA hatA; paraMtu e pahelAM to teo kALadharma pAmyA. pU. tattvAnaMdavijayajI mahArAjanA svargavAsathI aMgata rIte amArA kuTuMbane ghaNI moTI khoTa paDI che. emanA keTalAye zabdonuM smaraNa aneka vAra thayA karyuM che. emanA javAthI jaina samAjane paNa eka vidvAna saMzodhaka ane ArAdhaka sAdhu bhagavaMtanI moTI khoTa paDI che. emanA AtmAne koTi koTi vaMdana ho ! 64 * citradarzana ('tiviheNavaMdAmi'mAMthI)

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zrI ajarAmarasvAmI sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyamAM thaI gayelA mahAtmAomAM sva. pU. zrI ajarAmarajI svAmInuM sthAna anokhuM che. emaNe potAnA jIvanakALa daramiyAna dharmanA kSetre bhagIratha kAryo karyA hatAM. emaNe jaina darzana uparAMta anya bhAratIya darzanono paNa UMDo abhyAsa karyo hato. eTale emanAmAM sAMpradAyikatA, saMkucitatA ke kaTTaratA rahI nahotI. teo bahu udAra ane samanvayakArI daSTi dharAvatA hatA. gujarAta, saurASTra ane kaccha bAju teo ghaNuM vicaryA hatA. kacchamAM paNa vAgaDa vistAra upara temano ghaNo moTo prabhAva rahyo hato. temanA jIvana vize keTalIka mAhitI maLe che. te uparathI zatAvadhAnI paMDita ratnacaMdrajI mahArAje temanuM jIvanacaritra lakheluM che ane temanA vize "bhaktAmara pAdapUrti'nI racanA saMskRta zlokamAM karelI che. ajarAmarasvAmIno janma vi. saM. 1809nA jeTha suda 9nA divase jAmanagara pAse paDANA gAmamAM thayo hato. emanA pitAnuM nAma mANekacaMda hatuM, mAtAnuM nAma kaMkubAI hatuM, teo jJAtie vIsA osavAla hatA. ajarAmarasvAmInuM janmanAma paNa ajarAmara hatuM. teo pAMca varSanI uMmaranA hatA tyAre temanA pitAnuM avasAna thayuM hatuM. du:khI thayelAM vidhavA mAtA kaMkubAI dharma tarapha vaLyAM hatAM. bALaka ajarAmara gAmaThI nizALamAM bhaNavAnuM cAlu karyuM hatuM. potAnI mAtA roja upAzraya gurumahArAja pAse jatAM tyAre sAthe temane paNa laI jatAM. mAtA kaMkubAIne roja sAmAyika ane pratikramaNa karavAno niyama hato. temane sUtro vagere AvaDatAM nahotAM, paraMtu sthAnakamAM jaI bIjA bole te sAMbhaLIne teo sAmAyika ke pratikramaNa karatAM. eka divasa bahu ja varasAda paDyo. ethI sthAnake javAnuM zakya nahotuM. eTale zrI ajarAmarasvAmI - 65

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mAtA kaMkubAI udAsa banI gayAM hatAM. pratikramaNano potAno niyama tUTaze evuM temane lAgatuM hatuM. te vakhate mAtAnI asvasthatA bALaka ajarAmara kaLI gayo. emaNe mAtAnI asvasthatAnuM kAraNa jANIne mAtAne kahyuM, "mA! tame ciMtA na karo. huM tamane AkhuM pratikramaNa sUtro bolIne karAvIza." mAtAe sAcuM mAnyuM nahi. paraMtu ajarAmare kahyuM ke pote roja sthAnake sAthe Ave che eTale AkhuM pratikramaNa potAne moDhe thaI gayuM che. cha varSanA bALake jyAre mAtAne AkhuM pratikramaNa zuddha uccArapUrvaka karAvyuM tyAre mAtAne bahu Azcarya thayuM. potAno putra ATalo badho tejasvI che evI tyAre emane khAtarI thaI. emanA manamAM evI bhAvanA paNa jAgI ke potAno dIkaro moTo thaIne koI mahAna sAdhu-mahAtmA bane to kevuM sAruM! mAtAne potAne paNa dIkSA levAnI bhAvanA thaI hatI. vi. saM. 1818mAM hIrAjIsvAmI ane kAnajIsvAmI lIMbaDIthI vihAra karIne goMDala padhAryA hatA. tyAM temanuM cAturmAsa hatuM. kaMkubAI ane ajarAmara hIrAjIsvAmI pAse goMDala pahoMcyAM. dIkSA levAnI potAnI ane bALakanI bhAvanA che evI temaNe icchA darzAvI. harAjIsvAmIe e mATe keTaloka samaya thobhI javAnuM kahyuM ane ajarAmarane potAnI pAse ane kaMkubAIne jeThIbAI mahAsatIjI pAse rahIne zAstrAbhyAsa karavAnI vyavasthA karI. cAturmAsa pachI anyatra vihAra karI saM. 1819mAM hIrAjIsvAmI pharI goMDala padhAryA ane goMDalamAM kaMkubAI tathA bALaka ajarAmarane dIkSA ApavAmAM AvI. goMDala mATe A eka bhavya prasaMga banI gayo. goMDala nareze paNa A prasaMge utsAhapUrvaka rasa laI rAjya taraphathI sAro sahakAra Apyo hato. dIkSA pachI ajarAmara kAnajIsvAmInA ziSya thayA ane kaMkubAI jeThIbAI mahAsatIjInA ziSya banyAM. bALaka ajarAmara bahu tejasvI hatA. emanI mukhamudrA jotAM ja. emanA bhavya lalATa upara najara paDatAM ja ane emanI tIkSNa AMkho jotAM ja jonArane A koI asAmAnya bALaka che evI khAtarI tarata ja thaI jatI. mAtA kaMkubAI ane bALaka ajarAmara jyAre goMDalamAM hIrAjIsvAmI ane kAnajIsvAmI pAse dIkSA levAnI bhAvanAthI AvyAM hatAM tyAre bALaka ajarAmara upAzrayethI koI judA judA gRhasthanA ghare jamavA mATe jatA-AvatA tyAre goMDalanI vaiSNava havelInA gosAMIjI mahArAjanI tenA upara najara paDI. e tejasvI bALakane bolAvIne tenI sAthe vAtacIta karatAM bALaka dIkSA levAnA che e vAta jANIne AvA tejasvI bALaka potAnI havelImAM AvIne rahe ane potAnA uttarAdhikArI 66 caritradarzana

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bane evo vicAra temane thayo. e mATe temaNe bALaka pAse darakhAsta mUkI joI ane havelImAM rahevAthI kevAM sarasa vastrAbhUSaNa paheravA maLaze, kevuM sarasa khAvApIvAnuM maLaze ane keTalI moTI milakatanA vArasadAra thavAze te batAvyuM. paraMtu bALaka ajarAmara tenAthI jarA paNa lalacAyo nahi. temaNe to tyAga-vairAgyamAM ja potAne rasa che ane saMyamano mArga ja pote grahaNa karavA mAge che tenA upara bhAra mUkyo. bAlyakALamAM paNa ajarAmaranI dRSTi keTalI sAcI, svastha ane sthira hatI te A prasaMga u52thI joI zakAze. dIkSA pachI ajarAmarasvAmIe potAno abhyAsa vadhArI dIdho. jude jude sthaLe keTalAMka cAturmAsa karyA pachI pU. zrI hIrAjIsvAmIne evI bhAvanA thaI ke bAlamunine vadhu abhyAsa karAvavA mATe surata tarapha vihAra karavo, kAraNa ke suratamAM tyAre sArA paMDito hatA. vi. saM. 1826mAM pU. zrI hIrAjIsvAmI, pU. zrI kAnajIsvAmI ane bALamuni pU. zrI ajarAmarasvAmI cAturmAsa pachI bharucathI surata tarapha vihAra karI rahyA hatA. teo narmadA nadI oLaMgavA mATe enA retInA paTamAMthI pasAra thaI rahyA hatA. nadI oLaMgI teo sAme eka vRkSanI chAyAmAM thAka khAvA beThA hatA. e vakhate suranivAsI kharataragacchanA pUjyazrI yatizrI gulAbacaMdajI paNa bharUcathI surata pAchA pharI rahyA hatA. emaNe retImAM moTAM pagalAMonI sAthe nAnAM pagalAM paNa joyAM. teo samartha lakSaNavettA hatA. pagalAM jotAM ja temane thayuM ke A koI tejasvI bALakanAM pagalAM che. sAme kinAre pahoMcI temaNe hIrAjIsvAmI vagerene vRkSa nIce joyA eTale vaMdana karI pUchyuM, "mahArAja ! Apa kyAMthI padhAro cho ? kaI bAju vihAra karavAnA cho ?' hIrAjIsvAmIe pote lIMbaDIthI vihAra karI surata jaI rahyA che tenI vAta jaNAvI. vaLI bALamunine saMskRta bhASAsAhitya tathA darzanazAstrono abhyAsa karAvavAnI bhAvanA che e paNa kahyuM. pUjyazrI gulAbacaMdajIe potAno piracaya Apyo ane pagalAM u52thI ane bIjAM za2I2lakSaNa u52thI bALamuni bahu vidvAna ane tejasvI thaze tenI AgAhI karI. vaLI kahyuM ke temane jo vidyAbhyAsa karavo hoya to suratamAM pote vidyAbhyAsa karAvaze. ethI hIrAjIsvAmI ane bIjA sAdhuoe prasannatA anubhavI. pUjyazrI gulAbacaMdajI mUrtipUjaka saMpradAyanA kharataragacchanA yati hatA. eka sthAnakavAsI bAlamunine abhyAsa karAvavAno hato. eka mUrtipUjaka saMpradAyanA yatizrI potAnA sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyanA bAlamunine abhyAsa karAve enI sAme hIrAjIsvAmI ane kAnajIsvAmIne jarA paNa vAMdho nahoto. bIjI bAju yatizrI zrI ajarAmarasvAmI 67

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gulAbacaMdajIe mUrtipUjaka saMpradAyanA pote hovA chatAM bAlamunine avazya abhyAsa kirAvaze tevI khAtarI ApI. suratamAM jyAre vidyAbhyAsa cAlu thayo tyAre anya saMpradAyanA sAdhune vidyAbhyAsa karAvavA mATe samAjamAM thoDo khaLabhaLATa paNa macyo. paraMtu tenI khAsa kaMI asara thaI nahi. gulAbacaMdajIe bahu ja utsAhathI bAlamunine saMskRta ane prAkRta bhASAnA adhyayana sAthe vyAkaraNa, kAvya, alaMkAra, nyAya, jyotiSa vagere ghaNA viSayonuM adhyayana karAvyuM. vaLI sAMkhya, vedAMta vagere paDadarzanano paNa abhyAsa karAvyo ane nyAyAvatAra, syAdvAda ratnAkara vagere gahana ane kaThina graMtho paNa bhaNAvyA. AvA adhyayanamAM ghaNAM varSa lAge ane eka ja sthAnaka ke upAzrayamAM vadhu comAsA karavAnuM yogya na gaNAya eTale hIrAjIsvAmIe suratanAM parAMomAM jude jude sthaLe ema cha comAsAM karyo. A rIte bAlamuni ajarAmarasvAmIne vidyAbhyAsa karavAmAM suratamAM satata cha comAsAM karavA paDyAM, paraMtu ethI emane saLaMga abhyAsa karavAno ghaNobadho lAbha thayo. pUjyazrI maMtrataMtra ane guptavidyAonA paNa samartha jANakAra hatA. ajarAmarasvAmI yogya adhikArI pAtra che evI khAtarI thayA pachI temaNe maMtrataMtra tathA sUryaprajJapti ane caMdraprajJaptinI gupta vidyAo ane vidhi-AmnAya paNa arAmarasvAmIne zIkhavADI. ajarAmarasvAmIe A cha varSanA gALA daramiyAna vidyAbhyAsa karatAM karatAM keTalIye noMdho utArI lIdhI hatI. vaLI teo jyAre vihAra karavAnA hatA tyAre pUjyazrI gulAbacaMdajIe potAnA vizALa saMgrahamAMthI 300 jeTalI mahattvanI pothIo potAnI sAthe laI javA mATe ajarAmarasvAmIne ApI hatI. (A badhI pothIo ane ajarAmarasvAmInA potAnA hAthe lakhelI prato lIMbaDInA jJAnabhaMDAramAM Aje paNa sacavAyelI che.) Ama ajarAmarasvAmInA vidyAbhyAsa nimitte suratano mUrtipUjaka samudAya ane sthAnakavAsI samudAya baMne udAra dilathI ekabIjAthI vadhu najIka AvyA. ene ja kAraNe ajarAmarasvAmInI mAtra jaina saMpradAyo pUratI ja nahi, jaina ane jainetara dharmo vacce paNa vizALa ane udAra daSTi khIlI hatI. ajarAmarasvAmInuM vyaktitva evuM pavitra ane udAtta hatuM ke emanI upasthitimAM sAMpradAyika saMkucitatAnI vAta TakI zakatI nahi. yuvAna ajarAmarasvAmI UMDo zAstrAbhyAsa karIne jyAre lIMbaDI padhAryA hatA tyAre lIMbaDInA lokoe temanA pratye ghaNo badho AdarabhAva darzAvyo hato. paraMtu ajarAmarasvAmIe kahyuM ke pote jJAnamAM haju adhUrA che ane temanI icchA mALavAmAM vicaratA zrI dolatarAmajI mahArAja pAse AgamazAstrono abhyAsa karavAnI che. 68 ka caritradarzana

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e mATe kAM to teo kAThiyAvADamAM padhAre ane kAM to pote temanI pAse jaIne abhyAsa karavo joIe. saMghe vicAryuM ke jo olatarAmajI mahArAja jhAlAvADamAM padhAre to lokone paNa lAbha maLe. e mATe khAsa mANasa mokalIne samagra paristhiti samajAvI zrI dolatarAmajI mahArAjane vinaMtI karavAmAM AvI. zrI dolatarAmajI mahArAje eno svIkAra karyo. teo potAnA ziSya-samudAya sAthe amadAvAda thaIne lIMbaDI padhAryA. jhAlAvADamAM teo be varasa vicaryA ane ajarAmarasvAmIe temanI pAse AgamazAstrono UMDo abhyAsa karyo. teo pAchA pharyA tyAre ajarAmarasvAmIe temane potAnA graMthasaMgrahamAMthI keTalAka uttama mUlyavAna graMtho bheTa ApyA hatA. ajarAmarasvAmI zAstrajJAtA thayA hatA ane zAsanano bhAra upADI zake evA tejasvI hatA. e joI saMghe vi. saM. 1845mAM lIMbaDImAM moTuM saMmelana yojI emane 35 varSanI yuvAna vaye AcAryapade sthApyA hatA tyAre saMpradAyamAM je kaMI zithilatA hatI te dUra karavA emaNe jabaro puruSArtha karyo hato. mahAsatIjIonA vidyAbhyAsa mATe paNa temaNe prabaMdha karAvyA hatA. temanA vyaktitvamAM saraLatA, namratA, vatsalatA, madhuratA, udAratA, gaMbhIratA vagere guNo evA vikasyA hatA ke jaina-jainetara evA aneka loko temanA cAhaka banyA hatA. ajarAmarasvAmInI sAdhanA ghaNI UMcI hatI. temanAmAM AtmabaLa paNa ghaNuM hatuM. AvI vibhUtionA jIvanamAM keTalAka camatkAranA prasaMgo bane te svAbhAvika che. ema kahevAya che ke eka vakhata ajarAmara svAmI jAmanagarathI kaccha javA mATe mALiyA gAme padhAryA. tyAMthI teo raNa UtarIne vAgaDa tarapha jatA hatA te vakhate rastAmAM lUMTAruonI eka ToLI maLI. ajarAmarasvAmIe lUMTAruone kahyuM ke pote badhA sAdhuo che ane temanI pAse koI mAla-milakata nathI, topaNa lUMTAruoe temane zarIra para eka ja vastra rAkhIne bAkInAM vastro, pAtarAMo, pothIo vagere badhuM ApI devA tochaDAIthI hukama karyo. lUMTAruo koI rIte mAnavA taiyAra na hatA. te vakhate paristhiti joI ajarAmarasvAmIe maMtroccAra karyo. ethI lUMTAruo sthabhita thaI gayA ane AMkhe dekhatA baMdha thaI gayA. ethI gabharAI gayelA lUMTAruo mAphI mAgavA lAgyA eTale pharI kyAreya teo lUMTa nahi kare tevI pratijJA temanI pAse ajarAmarasvAmIe levaDAvI hatI. pachIthI to e lUMTAruo paNa svAmIjInA bhakta banI gayA hatA. bIjA eka prasaMge ajarAmarasvAmI potAnA ziSyo sAthe kacchathI vihAra karIne lIMbaDI tarapha AvI rahyA hatA, tyAre rastAmAM jaMgalamAMthI eka siMha sAmethI zrI ajarAmara svAmI e 69

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doDato Avyo. te vakhate ziSyo gabharAI gayA, paraMtu svasthatApUrvaka cAlatA svAmIjIe ziSyone navakAramaMtranuM raTaNa karatAM karatAM potAnI pAchaLa pAchaLa AvavAnuM kahyuM, ethI siMha tyAM ja besI gayo ane AkramaNa karavAne badale ekITaze svAmIjIne nihALato rahyo hato. vi. saM. 1846mAM ajarAmarasvAmIe bIjI vAra mALiyAthI viA2 karIne kacchanuM raNa UtarIne eka gAmamAM mukAma karyo hato. te vakhate kacchanA kArabhArI mUrtipUjaka jaina AgevAna vAghajI pArekhane kacchanA mahArAva sAthe kaMIka aNabanAva thayAnI vAta vahetI thaI hatI. ajarAmarasvAmI kacchanA A gAmamAM koIka zrAvakanA gharanA bahAranA bhAgamAM UtaryA hatA. rAtre teo saMthAro karatA hatA tyAre aMdhArAmAM eka mANasa Avato temane dekhAyo. svAmIjIe pUchyuM, 'koNa ? vAghA pArekha cho ?' potAnuM nAma ajarAmarajInA mukhethI sAMbhaLatAM vAghA pArekhane Azcarya thayuM, kAraNa ke teo ekabIjAne kyAreya maLyA na hatA. svAmIjIe vAghA pArekhane besADI kahyuM, 'kacchanA mahArAve tamArA u52 gusso karyo che, ethI gabharAIne tame saMtAtA pharo cho. kaccha choDIne bhAgI javAnuM tame vicAro cho. paraMtu tema karavAnI tamAre jarUra nathI. hiMmata ane dhIraja rAkho. mahArAvazrIne eka agatyanuM kAma paDaze tyAre tamArA sivAya bIjuM koI e kAma karI zakaze nahi. e vakhate mahArAvazrI tamane bolAvaze. tyAre tamArA hAthe kacchanI prajAnI sevA karavAnuM moTuM kAma thaze.' ajarAmarasvAmIe kahelI e vAta bilakula sAcI paDI. mahArAvazrIe kAma paDyuM eTale vAghA pArekhane bolAvyA. baMne vacce sumeLa pahelAMnA jevo thaI gayo. mahArANIe to potAnA bhAI tarIke tAghA pArekhane oLakhAvyA. kArabhArI tarIkenI badhI javAbadArI temane pAchI soMpavAmAM AvI. tyArathI vAghA pArekhane ajarAmarasvAmInA vacanamAM atUTa vizvAsa besI gayo hato. ajarAmarasvAmIe kacchamAM traNa vakhata vihAra karyo hato. e divasomAM kAThiyAvADathI vihAra karIne kacchamAM javAnuM eTaluM saraLa nahotuM. viAra bahu lAMbA ane kaparA rahetA. tema chatAM lokonI dharmabhAvanAne anusarI ajarAmarasvAmIe kacchamAM kula cha jeTalAM cAturmAsa karyAM hatAM. vi. saM. 1846mAM mAMDavImAM cAturmAsa hatuM, tyAre vAghajI pArekhanI icchA hatI ke svAmIjI potAnA bhuja nagaramAM padhAre. e divasomAM sthAnakavAsI sAdhuone bhujamAM padhAravAnI rAja taraphathI manAI hatI, te vAghajI pArekhe rada karAvI hatI ane svAmInA nagapraveza vakhate baeNnDavAjAM caritradarzana

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vagADavAmAM na Ave te vize paNa saMghane sUcanA ApI hatI. ajarAmarasvAmIe kacchamAM je cAturmAsa karyA temAM mAMDavInI dariyAnI havA ane pANIne kAraNe temane saMgrahaNInuM tathA pagamAM vAnuM darda cAlu thayuM hatuM. ghaNA upacAro karavA chatAM temAM pharaka paDyo nahoto. alabatta, tyAra pachI paNa temaNe gujarAta, saurASTra ane kacchamAM ThIka ThIka vihAra karyo hato. paraMtu azakti vadhatAM vi. saM. 1864mAM lIMbaDImAM cAturmAsa karyA pachI temane lIMbaDImAM sthiravAsa karavo paDyo hato. lIMbaDImAM temane maLavA mATe cAre bAjuthI aneka saMta-satIo padhAratAM. eka vakhata amadAvAdathI zatruMjayanI yAtrAno moTo saMgha nIkaLyo hato. te lIMbaDI thaIne pasAra thato hato. te saMghamAM AvelA keTalAka yatio ajarAmara svAmIne maLavA AvelA ane temanI sAthe saMskRta bhASAmAM zAstracarcA karatI vakhate teo bahu ja prabhAvita thayA hatA. vi. saM. 186 8nA cAturmAsamAM ajarAmarasvAmInI preraNAthI lIMbaDImAM ghaNI tapazcaryA thaI hatI. temAM 39 jeTalAM to mAsakhamaNa thayAM hatAM ane te tapazcaryAmAM mUrtipUjaka saMpradAye paNa utsAhathI bhAga lIdho hato. vi. saM. 1870mAM zrAvaNa mahinAmAM ajarAmarasvAmInI tabiyata vadhu bagaDatI gaI. dIkSA paryAyanAM pacAsa varSa ane AcArya padavInAM pacIsa varSa pUrAM karyA hatAM. potAno aMtakALa najIka Avato jANIne temaNe saMthAro laI lIdho. kSamApanA karI lIdhI. navakAramaMtranuM raTaNa karatAM karatAM zrAvaNa vada-1nI rAtre eka vAge temaNe deha choDyo. emanA kALadharmanA samAcAra jhaDapathI cAre bAju prasarI gayA ane zrAvaNa vada-5nA divase emanA dehanA agnisaMskAra vakhate cAre bAjuthI hajAro mANaso AvI pahoMcyA hatA. lagabhaga bAsaTha varSanA ATalA alpa AyuSyakALamAM sva. pU. ajarAmarasvAmIe ghaNIbadhI siddhio meLavI hatI. jaina zAsana upara temano ghaNobadho upakAra rahyo che. potAnA hRdayanI vizALatA ane udAratAne kAraNe jainonA tamAma saMpradAyanA lokonAM tema ja jainetara lokonAM hRdayamAM temaNe anokhuM sthAna prApta karyuM hatuM. ethI ja emanA nAmathI Thera Thera judI judI saMsthAonI sthApanA thaI che ane be saikA pachI paNa aneka loko emanuM bhAvapUrvaka smaraNa kare che. prabhAvaka sthaviro, bhA. 3mAMthI) zrI ajarAmara svAmI ka 71

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. pU. zrI mRgAvatIzrIjI mahArAja parama pUjya jaina bhAratI, mahattarA sAdhvIratna zrI mRgAvatIjI zukravAra tA. 18mI julAI, 1986nA roja dilhImAM vallabha smArakanA sthAnamAM savAre ATha vAge samAdhipUrvaka kALadharma pAmyAM. AgalA divasathI ja emane potAnI aMtima ghaDIno aNasAra AvI gayo hato. e samaye tyAM upasthita rahelA lokonI ane keTalAkane vyaktigata nAma daIne, emaNe kSamApanA karI lIdhI ane pachI AtmasamAdhimAM lIna thaI gayAM. bIje divase 61 varSanI uMmare teo kALadharma pAmyAM. tera varSanI uMmare dIkSA laI aDatAlIsa varSanA dIkSAparyAMya daramiyAna emaNe zAsanotinAM ghaNAM kAryo karyAM. emanA kALadharmathI eka tejasvI sAdhvIratnanI ApaNane khoTa paDI che. temanA kALadharmanA samAcAra dilhImAM ane bhAratabharamAM reDiyo, TI.vI. ane tAra dvArA prasarI gayA. emanI aMtima yAtrA mATe gAmegAmathI aneka loko AvI pahoMcyA. emanA pArthiva dehane dilhImAM vallabha smAraka khAte ja agnisaMskAra ka2vAmAM Avyo. eka mahAna jyoti sthULa rUpe bhUtakALamAM vilIna thaI gaI; sUkSma rUpe e jyoti anekanAM haiyAMmAM cirakALa paryaMta prakAzatI raheze ! pUjya zrI mRgAvatIzrIjI eTale vartamAna samayanA sAdhvIgaNomAM eka 52ma tejasvI pratibhA. saikAomAM kyAreka jovA maLe evI emanI anokhI virala pratibhA hatI. aMgata saMparkamAM AvyA hoIe to enI savizeSa pratIti thAya. eka sAdhvIjI mahArAja potAnA ekasaTha varSa jeTalA jIvanakALa daramiyAna ATalAM badhAM moTAM moTAM kAryo karI-karAvI zake e jevItevI siddhi nathI. parizuddha 72 caritradarzana

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cAritrapAlana, ananya prabhubhakti, dRDha AtmavizvAsa, vizada vicArazakti, aDaga zraddhA, parama gurubhakti, bIjAnA hRdayane jItavAnI sahajasAdhya dharmakaLA, apAra vAtsalya, niraMtara prasannatA, UMDI samajazakti, anokhI dIrghadRSTi, tAjagIbharI smRtizakti, Avazyaka vyavahAradakSatA, pAtrAnusAra sadupadeza vagere jotAM emanAmAM vyAvahArika ane AdhyAtmika evA aneka ucca sadguNono subhaga samanvaya thayo hato. ene lIdhe ja emanA kALadharmathI aneka lokoe eka mAtAtulya svajana gumAvyA jevI lAgaNI anubhavI che. mAtA guruNI pUjya zIlavatIjI vinamratA ane vAtsalyanAM mUrti samAM hatAM. potAnI putrI sAdhvI-ziSyA mRgAvatIzrIjIne jJAna ane cAritranI ArAdhanAmAM susajja karIne AtmasAdhanAnA ujjvaLa paMtha tarapha dorI javAnI emanI bhAvanA hatI. e mATe emaNe satata lakSa ApyuM hatuM. potAnI mAtA pUjya zIlavatIzrIjInA sAMskArika ane AdhyAtmika vArasAne pUjya mRgAvatIzrIjIe savAyo samRddha karIne dIpAvyo. pUjya mRgAvatIzrIjI jyAre yuvAna vayanAM hatAM tyAre vicakSaNatA, vidagdhatA, tejasvitA ane buddhigrAhyatA joIne, emanA jevI sAdhvIne mATe jJAna saMpanna karavAnI vyavasthA karavAnuM pUjya vallabhasUrijI, pUjya samudrasUrijI, pUjya zIlavatIzrIjI ane saMghanA zreSThioe vicAryuM. e mATe anukULa sthaLa amadAvAda jaNAyuM. pUjya mRgAvatIjIe amadAvAdamAM traNa varSa rahI pUjya puNyavijayajI mahArAja, paMDita sukhalAlajI, paMDita becaradAsajI, paMDita choTelAla zAstrI, paMDita dalasukhabhAI mAlavaNiyA vagere pAse bhASA, vyAkaraNa, koSa, Agama graMtho ane pUrvAcAryonA ananya mahAna graMthonA parizIlana uparAMta anya dharmonA mahattvanA graMthonuM paNa adhyayana karyuM. A adhyayanane pariNAme mRgAvatIjInI vidyApratibhA ghaNI vikAsa pAmI. emanI e prakAranI paraMparAgatatA joIne kalakattAmAM cAturmAsa daramiyAna pUjya vallabhasUrijIe emane vyAkhyAna ApavAnI anumati ApI. ethI mRgAvatIjInI vyAkhyAnazakti khIlI UThI. gujarAta bahAra vizeSataH paMjAbamAM vicaravAnuM thatAM. vyAkhyAna mATe gujarAtI ane hindI ema banne bhASA u52 emaNe prabhutva meLavI lIdhuM. temanAM vyAkhyAnonI zrotAo upara UMDI asara thatI, kA2Na ke emanI zAstrasaMgata vANI hRdayanA UMDANamAMthI pragaTa thatI. lagabhaga be dAyakA pahelAM pUjya zIlavatIzrIjI ane pUjya mRgAvatIzrIjI jyAre muMbaImAM hatAM tyAre zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayanA DAyarekTara murabbI zrI kAntilAla korAe mane temano paricaya karAvyo hato. tyAra pachI muMbaImAM keTalIka pU. zrI mRgAvatIzrIjI mahArAja 73

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vAra mAre emane maLavAnuM thayuM hatuM. zIlavatIzrIjI apAra vAtsalyathI sabhara hatAM evuM emane maLatAM ja pratIta thatuM. eka vakhata huM emane vaMdana karavA gayo. pAcho pharato hato tyAre teo eTaluM ja bolyAM, "bhAI, dAdaramAM aMdhAruM che. jarA sAcavIne jajo.' e vAkyamAM vAtsalyano evo abhUtapUrva raNako mane saMbhaLAyo ke Aja divasa sudhI e vAkya haju kAnamAM guMjyA kare che. zIlavatIjI saMvata 2024mAM muMbaImAM kALadharma pAmyAM. emaNe potAnAM putrI-ziSyA mRgAvatIjIne evAM taiyAra karyA hatAM ke emanAmAM emanI mAtAguruNI pUjya zIlavatIzrIjInAM darzana thatAM. pUjya mRgAvatIjIe potAnAM mAtAguraNI zIlavatIjI sAthe saMvata 2024 sudhI eTale ke lagabhaga traNa dAyakA sudhI gujarAta, rAjasthAna ane paMjAbamAM vihAra karyo. tyAra pachI chellAM aDhAra varSamAM temaNe potAnI ziSyAo sAthe gujarAta, mahArASTra, karNATaka, bihAra, baMgALa, uttarapradeza, dilhI, paMjAba, himAcalapradeza vagere sthaLoe lagabhaga sATha hajAra mAIla jeTalo pAdavihAra karIne sthaLe sthaLe dharmanI prabhAvanA karI hatI. temaNe saMvata 2009mAM kalakattA-zAMtiniketanamAM sarva dharma pariSadamAM jaina dharmanA pratinidhi tarIke bhAga lIdho hato. saMvata 2010mAM pAvApurImAM bhArata sevaka samAja taraphathI yojAyelI zibiramAM temaNe mahattvanuM kArya karyuM hatuM. saMvata 2016mAM ludhiyANAmAM jaina zvetAmbara konpharansanuM 21muM adhivezana pUjya vijayasamudrasUrijInI nizrAmAM yojAyuM tyAre mRgAvatIjInAM pravacanothI prerAIne "vijayavallabha hAIskUla mATe aneka bahenoe potAnAM ghareNAM utArI ApyAM hatAM. Azare 3700 vidyArthIo dharAvatI ludhiyANAnI A hAIskUla e mRgAvatIjInI preraNAnuM pariNAma che. emanI preraNAthI saMvata 2010mAM aMbAlAmAM "vallabhavihAra' nAmanA samAdhi maMdiranuM nirmANa thayuM hatuM. emanA upadezathI paMjAbamAM jariyA, laherA vagere sthaLoe jinAlaya, upAzraya, gurumaMdira, kIrtistaMbha, hospiTala, hAIskUla vagere thayAM che. emanI preraNAthI dilhImAM vallabha smArakanuM nirmANa thayuM. vaLI e smArakamAM "bhogIlAla laheracaMda jaina ekeDamI opha inDolojikala sTaDIjhanI sthApanA karavAmAM AvI. mRgAvatIjI pUjya AtmArAmajI mahArAja ane pUjya vijayavallabhasUri mahArAjanA samudAyanAM hatAM, paraMtu temanAmAM sAMpradAyika saMkucitatA nahotI. udAra dRSTithI bhAratanA vihAra daramiyAna digambara tIrtha mULabidrInI yAtrAe teo gayAM hatAM. e tIrthanA jIrNoddhAra mATe temaNe aneka lokone upadeza Apyo hato. mUrtipUjaka phIrakAnA hovA chatAM, sthAnakavAsI ke terApaMthI sthAnakomAM teonA kAryakramomAM teo upasthita rahetAM ane te te samudAyanA sAdhu-sAdhvIone ja caritradarzana

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udAratAthI sAmethI maLavA jatAM. caMdIgaDhamAM hatAM tyAre temaNe digambara upAzrayamAM rahI cAturmAsa karyuM hatuM. tyAM digambarone paNa emanI vidhi anusAra emanA paryuSaNa parvanI (dazalakSaNI parvanI) ArAdhanA karAvI hatI. pote tapagacchanAM hovA chatAM kharataragaccha, aMcalagacchanA dhArmika prasaMgo, zibiromAM hAjarI ApatAM. AvA to aneka prasaMgo emanA jIvanamAM jovA maLe che. emanA anuyAyIomAM paMjAbanA keTalAya hinduo paNa hatA. emanI preraNAthI evA keTalAya paMjAbI hinduoe raheNIkaraNImAM mAMsamadirA choDI jaina dharmanA AcAra apanAvyA hatA. paMjAbamAM daheja vagerenA kurivAjone tilAMjali ApavA mATe emaNe aneka lokone upadeza Apyo hato. pUjya mRgAvatIjI pote gujarAta-saurASTranAM vatanI hatAM, paraMtu bhAratIya paraMparAmAM sAdhu-sAdhvIonA hRdayamAM pradezabheda hoto nathI. pradeza, bhASA, jAti ityAdinA bhedone teo sahaja rIte atikramI jAya che. pUjya AtmArAmajI mahArAja paMjAbanA vatanI hatA. chatAM teo gujarAtamAM vicaryA tyAre gujarAtanA thaI gayA. pUjya vallabhasUrimahArAja vaDodarAnA vatanI, paraMtu teo vizeSapaNe paMjAbamAM vicaryA. paMjAbIo sAthe emanI AtmIyatA sadhAI gaI hatI. potAnA guruvaryane anusarIne mRgAvatIjIe paNa paMjAba ane dilhIne potAnAM kAryakSetra banAvI dIdhAM hatAM. emanAM eka ziSyA sujyeSThAzrIjI gujarAtI hatAM, je thoDA samaya pahelAM kALadharma pAmyAM. emanAM bIjAM ziSyA suvratAzrIjI paMjAbanAM, trIjA ziSyA suyazAzrIjI kacchanAM ane cothAM ziSyA suprazAzrIjI paMjAbanAM. A cAreya ziSyAo sAthe mRgAvatIjIne nihALIe tyAre bhASA ke pradezanA badhA ja bhedo vigalita thaI gayA hoya evI sarasa AdarzarUpa ekatA, ekarUpatA e badhAMmAM jovA maLe. jaina dharmanI hajAro varSathI cAlatI AvelI A eka viziSTa lAkSaNikatA che. anya AcArya bhagavaMtonA samudAyamAM ane anya dharmomAM paNa AvI lAkSaNikatA jovA maLaze. adhyAtmika mArge gayelo mANasa nimna kakSAnA bheda-prabhedathI keTalo alipta ane ucca rahI zake che ane thaI zake che tenuM A eka anupama udAtta nidarzana che. pU. mRgAvatIzrIjInA kALadharma pachI eka vAra pU. sAdhvIzrI suvratAzrIjI sAthe vAta thaI tyAre gaLagaLAM thaI emaNe mane potAno anubhava kahyo hato. emaNe kahyuM ke pote jyAre mRgAvatIzrIjI pAse dIkSA levAnI vAta kuTuMbamAM karI tyAre sagAMsaMbaMdhIoe teno virodha karatAM kahyuM ke tuM gujarAtI sAdhvI pAse zA mATe dIkSA le che ? teo gujarAtI-paMjAbIno bhedabhAva ka2ze ane gujarAta bAju vihAra pU. zrI mRgAvatIzrIjI mahArAja* 75

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karI jaze to tane pharI paMjAba jovA nahi maLe." paraMtu huM mArA nirNayamAM makkama hatI. kAraNa ke mane mRgAvatIzrI mahArAjanA paricayamAM evuM kyAreya lAgyuM nahotuM. meM emanI pAse dIkSA lIdhI tyArathI teo kALadharma pAmyAM tyAM sudhI eka divasa to zuM, eka kSaNa paNa mane evo anubhava thavA dIdho nathI ke pote gujarAtI che ane huM paMjAbI chuM. emano AtmA evo mahAna UMcI dazAno hato. emanI pAse dikSA laIne huM to dhanya thaI gaI chuM ane je sagAMsaMbaMdhIoe tyAre virodha karyo hato teo paNa pachIthI to pU. mRgAvatIzrIjI pAse meM dIkSA lIdhI ethI bahu rAjI thaI gayAM hatAM." chellAM keTalAMka varSothI pUjya mRgAvatIjIno vihAra paMjAbamAM rahyo hato. pUjya AtmArAmajI mahArAja ane pUjya vallabhasUrijI mahArAjanuM mukhya kAryakSetra paMjAba rahyuM hatuM. ethI emanA samudAyanAM eka mukhya sAdhvI pUjya mRgAvatIjInuM kAryakSetra paNa vizeSapaNe paMjAba rahe e svAbhAvika che. ludhiyANA, jalaMdhara, aMbAlA, hoziyArapura, caMdIgaDha, laherA, mAlerakoTalA jevAM mukhya nagaro uparAMta mArganAM bIjAM nAnAM gAmomAM paNa aneka jaina kuTuMbo sAthe pUjya mRgAvatIjIno saMparka atyaMta gADha rahyo hato. pUjya mRgAvatIjInI eka viziSTatA e hatI ke teo nAnAM-moTAM saune nAmathI oLakhe. eka vakhata maLe eTale emanA smRtipaTa para e vyaktinuM nAma aMkita thaI jAya. keTalAMka kuTuMbomAM bAra-paMdara sabhyo hoya to te badhAMne mRgAvatIjI nAmathI oLakhe ane emAMnI ekAda vyakti kyAreka emane vaMdana karavA jAya to teo AkhA kuTuMbanAM badhAM sabhyonAM nAma daIne badhAMnI khabaraaMtara pUche ane badhAMne dharmalAbha kahevaDAve. emAM vayovRddha vaDIlonAM nAma paNa hoya ane be-cAra varSanAM nAnAM bALakonAM nAma paNa hoya. AthI ja paMjAbamAM keTalAMya kuTuMbonA sabhyone pUjya mRgAvatIjI pAse vAraMvAra doDI javAnuM mana thAya. maLIne vaMdana kare tyAre eTalI ja AtmIyatA anubhavAya. pUjya mRgAvatIjIne jAhera kAryamAM potAne dhAryA karatAM ghaNI vadhAre saphaLatA maLatI, tenuM kAraNa anekAneka vyaktio sAthenI A temanI nisvArtha premaparAyaNa AtmIyatA hatI. himAcala pradezamAM kAMgaDA tIrthamAM cAturmAsa hatAM tyAre huM mArAM patnI ane dIkarI ci. zailajA sAthe tyAM gayo hato. amArI dIkarIno emane pahelI vAra paricaya thayo, chatAM tyAra pachI jyAre jyAre maLyo chuM tyAre ci. zailajAne enuM nAma daIne teo acUka yAda kare. amAro putra ci. amitAbha amerikAmAM abhyAsa kare che ane emane kyAreya maLyo nathI. chatAM dareka vakhate ene paNa enA nAma sAthe yAda kare. patramAM paNa nAmano ullekha kare. 76 ka caritradarzana

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potAne maLI hoya ke na maLI hoya evI aneka vyaktionAM nAma yAda rAkhavAnI emanI gajabanI zakti hatI. emanI smRti evI hatI ke emane lagabhaga sATha hajAra jeTalI gAthAo kaMThastha hatI. pUjya mRgAvatIjInA pavitra jIvanano evo prabhAva hato ke upAdhivALA keTalAka loko emanA sAnidhyamAM zAMti anubhavatA. kaMIka Apatti AvI paDI hoya, kaMIka vyaktigata ke kauTumbika prazno hoya ane emanI pAse jaIne mANasa vAsakSepa naMkhAve ane mAMgalika sAMbhaLI Ave to potAnA prazno UkalI gayA hoya evA anubhavanI vAto ghaNA pAsethI mane sAMbhaLavA maLI che. gujarAnavAlApAkistAna)mAM pUjya AtmArAmajI mahArAja kALadharma pAmyA hatA ane jyAM suMdara samAdhi maMdira baMdhAvavAmAM AvyuM hatuM tyAM hindustAnapAkistAnanA vibhAjana pachI jaino jaI zakatA na hatA. zIkhone pAkistAnamAM AvelA temanA gurudvArAomAM javA mATe pAkistAnanI sarakAra samAMtara dhoraNe jema chUTa ApatI hatI te ja rIte jaino mATe paNa gujarAnavAlAnI chUTa ucca kakSAnI sarakArI vyaktio sudhI potAnI vAta pahoMcADIne mRgAvatIjIe meLavI ApavAnuM kArya karyuM hatuM. pAkistAnanA gujarAnavAlAmAM ane anyatra jaina jJAnabhaMDAromAM keTalIya hastaprato rahI gaI hatI. pAkistAnanI sarakAra pAsethI emAMthI cha hajAra jeTalI jaina hastaprato mRgAvatIjIe pAchI meLavI lAvavA mATenuM potAnA AcArya bhagavaMtonI preraNA ane sahakArathI bhagIratha kArya karyuM. jaina-jainetara zreSThIo, amaladAro, dhArAsabhyo, saMsadasabhyo, pradhAno temanuM kArya karavA tatpara rahetA. svargastha pUjya guruvarya vijayavallabhasUrijI mATe yogya smAraka karavAnI yojanA vicArAtI hatI, paraMtu varSo pasAra thavA chatAM te sAkAra thatI nahotI. vaDodarAmAM pUjya vijayasamudrasUrijIe A kAryanI javAbadArI upADI levA mATe pUjya mRgAvatIjIne AjJA karI. AjJA thatAM mRgAvatIjI ugra vihAra karI dilhI pahoMcyAM. dilhI, aMbAlA, ludhiyANA, laMdhara, hoziyArapura vagere sthaLonA zreSThIo sAthe vicAravinimaya karIne te mATe temaNe jarUrI vihAra karyo. teo aMbAlAthI dilhI vihAra karatAM hatAM tyAre visAmo levA rastA paranA eka khetaramAM eka vRkSa nIce beThAM hatAM e vakhate e sthaLa ane enuM vAtAvaraNa emane eTalAM badhAM gamI gayAM ane jANe koI divya preraNA maLatI hoya tema manamAM bhAvanA thaI ke A ja sthaLe vallabha smAraka karavAmAM Ave to kevuM sAruM ! jANe vallabha smArakane tyAM sAkAra thatuM manomana teo nihALI rahyAM. dilhI AvI saMghanA AgevAnone vAta karI. dilhIthI 18-20 kilomITara dUra e nirjana sthaLe koNa jAya ane tyAM kevI pU. zrI mRgAvatI zrIjI mahArAja - 77

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rIte kAma thAya ? vaLI tenI upayogitA keTalI ? tevA prazno kadAca keTalAkane tyAre thayA haze. paraMtu samagra rIte jotAM saMghanA AgevAnone lAgyuM ke Aje bhale e sthaLa dUra hoya, paraMtu hAIve para AvelI e vizALa, ramaNIya jagyA bhavya smAraka mATe badhI ja rIte anukULa che. samaya jatAM dilhI zaherano vikAsa thaze tyAre e sthaLa dUra nahi lAge. e pramANe nirNaya levAyo ane e ja sthaLe bhavya smAraka mATenI yojanA thaI. mRgAvatIjInI zubha nizrAmAM hajAronI janamedanI vacce mahotsavapUrvaka lAlA bairAtIlAla jainanA hAthe tyAM zilAnyAsano kAryakrama thayo. tyAra pachI dAnano pravAha vadhu vegathI vahevA lAgyo. tabiyata asvastha chatAM pUjya mRgAvatIjInI upasthitimAM vizeSataH saMkrAnti dinanI ujavaNI vakhate thoDAka ja mahinAomAM lAkho rUpiyAnAM vacano maLI cUkyAM hatAM. pU. mRgAvatIjInI A eka viziSTa labdhi hatI. pUjya mRgAvatIjIne haMmezAM khAdI paheravAno niyama hato. A niyamane teo custapaNe pALatAM hatAM. emanI badhI ziSyAo paNa khAdI ja dhAraNa kare. vaLI emano evo paNa niyama hato ke je vyakti jAte khAdI paheratI hoya tenI pAsethI ja khAdInuM kapaDuM vahoravuM. tyAga ane sAdAInI emanI bhAvanA keTalI UMcI hatI te A niyama parathI joI zakAya che. dilhInA zrI rAmalAlajI sAthe mRgAvatIjI vize vAta nIkaLatAM temaNe kahyuM hatuM ke mRgAvatIjI paMjAbamAM jyAre vicaratAM tyAre eka gAmathI bIje gAma javAmAM emane rasto batAvavA mATe tathA sAdhvIjIonA rakSaNa mATe koI sAthIdAra-cokIdAra mokalavAnuM sUcana karIe to teo teno InkAra karatAM. teo kahetA ke "ame amArI meLe amAro mArga zodhI laIzuM. amane koIno Dara nathI. ame nirbhaya chIe. vaLI vihAramAM amArI sAthe koI puruSa cAlato hoya e amane gamatuM nathI. amArA cAritrapAlanamAM ame eTalAM custa rahevA icchIe chIe." pUjya mRgAvatIzrIjI potAnA brahmacaryavratamAM, sAdhvI tarIke potAnA caritrapAlanamAM atyaMta daDha hatAM. sAMjanA pratikramaNa karyA pachI teo koI puruSanuM mukha jotAM nahi ane te pramANe potAnI ziSyA sAdhvIone paNa sAcavatAM. keTalAMka varSa pahelAM mRgAvatIjIne chAtImAM kensara thayuM tyAre oNparezana vakhate emaNe je dhairya ane daDha cAritrapAlana karyuM hatuM tenI vAto paNa temanA pratye atyaMta AdarabhAva pedA kare evI che. dilhImAM teo oparezana mATe ebyulansamAM nahi paNa nava kilomITara jeTaluM aMtara page cAlIne haoNspiTala gayAM hatAM. ghaNI azakti hatI chatAM liphTano upayoga temaNe nahoto karyo, paNa dAdara caDIne gayAM hatAM. 8 a caritradarzana

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haoNspiTalanAM bIjAnAM vAparelAM sAdhano-tharamaoNmITara, injekzananI sIrIMja, blaDaprezara mApavAnuM yaMtra vagere na vAparatAM potAnAM alaga rakhAvyAM hatAM. potAnI pATa judI rakhAvI hatI. oNparezana vakhate potAne koInuM paNa lohI caDAvavAmAM na Ave te mATe khAsa sUcanA ApI hatI. oNparezana pachI DaoNkTare kahyuM hatuM ke zarIre 52sevo na thavo joIe ane te mATe paMkho vAparavo paDaze. paraMtu mRgAvatIjIe tenI paNa nA pADI hatI. haoNspiTalamAM potAnI jagyA evI pasaMda karAvI hatI ke jyAMthI roja savAranA jinamaMdiranA zikharanAM darzana thaI zake. haoNspiTalanA keTalAye dAktaro, narso, anya dardIo vagere roja temanI pAse vAsakSepa nakhAvavA AvatAM. oNparezana pachI haoNspiTalamAMthI jyAre temane rajA ApavAmAM AvI tyAre paNa liphTa, sTrecara ke vAhanano upayoga temaNe nahoto karyo. rastAmAM cAlatAM cAlatAM teo thAkI jAya to ziSyA-sAdhvIjIno Teko laI UbhAM rahetAM. ema dhIme dhIme vihAra karI dilhImAM dariyAgaMjathI rUpanagara pAMca divase teo pahoMcyAM hatAM. ravivAra, tA. 15mI jUna 1986nA roja dilhImAM saMkrAMtinA divasa nimitte temaja svargastha pUjya AtmArAmajI mahArAjanI puNyatithi nimitte eka kAryakrama yojavAmAM Avyo hato. te prasaMge mArA mitra zrI zailezabhAI koThArI sAthe tyAM mAre upasthita rahevAnuM thayuM hatuM. e prasaMge be divasa pUjya mRgAvatIjI pAse besavAnuM sadbhAgya sAMpaDyuM. potAne kaeNnsarano vyAdhi thayo che ane divase divase AyuSya kSINa thatuM jAya che e vize pote svasthatApUrvaka, samatApUrvaka sabhAna hatAM e emanI vAtacIta parathI spaSTa thatuM hatuM. kensaranA vyAdhine kAraNe temane zArIrika pIDA asahya rahetI. thoDuMka bolatAM hAMpha caDI jato. paMdara-pacIsa miniTathI vadhAre besI zakAtuM nahi. tarata sUI javuM paDatuM. vaLI pAchI svasthatA Ave eTale beThAM thAya. vAtacIta kare. kAne ochuM saMbhaLAtuM. eTale bIjAone moTethI bolavAnuM kahetAM. e paNa barAbara na samajAya eTale emanI ziSyAo emanA kAna pAse moTethI pharIthI te te vAkyo bole ane mRgAvatIjI te pramANe prasanna vadane uttara Ape. emanI zArIrika asvasthatA ATalI badhI hovA chatAM emanuM Atmika baLa ghaNuM moTuM hatuM. Agale divase bahAragAmathI padhArelAM ghaNAMbadhAMnI sAthe vAtacIta karavAno parizrama thayo hato. saMkrAMtinA divase emanI nizrAmAM smAraka paranAM jina maMdira mATenI jina pratimAonI bolI bolAvavAno kAryakrama hato. eTale e divase sabhAmAM pAMca-cha kalAka satata besavuM paDe ema hatuM. pUjya mRgAvatIjInuM AtmabaLa eTaluM moTuM hatuM ke satata pAMca-cha kalAka sudhI teo svasthatApUrvaka beThAM ane kAryakrama pU. zrI mRgAvatIzrIjI mahArAja * 79

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daramiyAna prAsaMgika vaktavya paNa rajU karyuM. e ja divase bapore AtmAnaMda jaina sabhAnA kAryakartAo ane pratinidhionI sabhA hatI. temAM paNa lagabhaga aDhI kalAka teo svasthatApUrvaka beThAM hatAM ane do2vaNI ApatAM rahyAM hatAM. e prasaMge zarIranI aMdara asahya pIDA chatAM prasanna ane sasmita vadane badhI kAryavAhImAM emane bhAga letAM ame joyAM tyAre emanI Atmika zaktinI savizeSa pratIti thaI hatI. pUjya mRgAvatIjInA kALadharmanA agalA divase 17mI julAIe atyaMta gaMbhIra bImArInA aMtima ghaDInA samAcAra Thera Thera prasarI gayA. seMkaDo mANaso dilhI pahoMcI gayA. mArA mitra zailezabhAI koThArI paNa vimAnamAM dilhI pahoMcI gayA. huM saMjogavazAt na jaI zakyo. mRgAvatIjI taddana azakta thaI gayAM hatAM, paraMtu vAtacIta karI zakatAM hatAM. zailezabhAIne jotAM ja emaNe prazna karyo, prophesa2 ramaNabhAI nathI AvyA ?" zailezabhAIe muMbaI pAchA AvIne jyAre A vAta mane karI tyAre pUjya mRgAvatIjIe aMtima ghaDIe mane yAda karyo ethI dhanyatA anubhavI. pUjya mRgAvatIjInA pArthiva dehano agnisaMskAra vallabha smArakamAM thayo emAM paNa koI daivI saMketa haze ! e prasaMge emanI smRti mATe lAkho rUpiyAnuM phaMDa thoDA kalAkamAM ja thayuM e paNa jevItevI vAta nahotI. pUjya mRgAvatIjInA haiyAmAM sarva pratye premano, kalyANano srota eTalo badho vaheto rahyo hato ke agnisaMskAra vakhate sittera-eMzInI uMmaranAM mANaso paNa bolatAM hatAM ke, "Aje ame jANe amArI mAtA gumAvyAnuM du:kha anubhavIe chIe.' pUjya mRgAvatIjIne AthI vadhu suMdara aMjali kayA zabdomAM hoI zake ? ('tiviheNavaMdAmi'mAMthI) 80 caritradarzana

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jeharImalajI pArakha keTalAka samaya pahelAM jaina samAjanI eka mahAna vibhUti zrI joharImala pArakhano jodhapuramAM Ikotera varSanI vaye svargavAsa thayo. jaina samAjanA vizALa varge kadAca sva. joharImalajInuM nAma paNa nahi sAMbhaLyuM hoya, paraMtu jeoe emane phakta eka vAra najare nihALyA haze teo temane kyAreya bhUlI nahi zake. jeoe temane joyA na hoya teo to emanA jIvananI vAtone sAcI mAnI paNa na zake evuM virala, A kALanuM advitIya emanuM gRhasthajIvana hatuM. teo gRhastha hatA, dIkSita thayA nahotA, chatAM chellAM bAvIseka varSathI svecchAe tyAgI - sAdhu jevuM ke ethIye kaThina jIvana teo jIvatA hatA. potAnA mAnakaSAyane jItavAno emaNe ghora puruSArtha karyo hato. upasargo ane parISaho sahana karavAnuM asAdhAraNa Atmika baLa temaNe prApta karyuM hatuM. keTalAMka varSo pahelAMnI vAta che. muMbaImAM amArA makAnano cokIdAra eka divasa bapore doDha vAge ghare Avyo ane mane kahyuM, "sAheba ! koI bhikhArI jevo mANasa Apane maLavA mAge che. ame ene manAI karI, paNa e mANase jarA Agraha karyo che ke eno saMdezo Apane Apavo. pachI e cAlyo jaze." "koNa che ? zuM nAma kahe che ?' nAma to pUchyuM nathI. koI DAuTaphala mANasa kaMI banAvaTa karavA Avyo haze ema lAge che. Apa kaho to ene kADhI mUkuM. daravAjA pAse besADyo che." kyAMthI Ave che e kaMI pUchyuM ?' "hA, kahe che ke jodhapurathI AvuM chuM.' jodhapurathI koNa hoI zake ? tAtkAlika to kaMI yAda na AvyuM. paNa dAdara joharImalajI pArakha 81

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UtaratAM UtaratAM yAda AvyuM ke jodhapurathI mahinA pahelAM joharImala pArakha nAmanA koIkano patra hato. kadAca e to na hoya? paNa e to suzikSita sajjana che. kevA maroDadAra akSare keTalI sarasa iMgliza bhASAmAM emaNe patra lakhyo hato ! teo keTalIka yojanAnI vicAraNA karavA mATe mane maLavA icchatA hatA, paraMtu teo kadAca nahi hoya, kAraNa ke cokIdAra kahe che ke A to bhikhArI jevo koI mANasa huM daravAje pahoMcyo. ame baMnee ekabIjAne kyAreya joyA nahotA. cokIdAra sAthe huM gayo e parathI anumAna karIne emaNe mane kahyuM, 'tame DaoN. ramaNabhAI zAha ? joharImala pArakha. jodhapurathI AvuM chuM. meM tamane eka patra lakhyo hato ane tame lakhyuM hatuM ke muMbaI Avo tyAre jarUra maLajo. eTale huM tamane maLavA Avyo chuM." joharImalajIne jotAM ja huM emane caraNamAM namI paDyo. cokIdAra joto ja rahI gayo. eNe mAphI mAgI. joharImalajIe hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM, "bhAI, emAM tAro vAMka nathI. mAro veza ja evo che ke mANasa mane bhikhArI ke cora jevo dhArI le." joharImalajIne huM gharamAM laI Avyo. sophA upara emaNe besavAnI nA pADI. jamIna para besI gayA. meM emane lAkaDAnA Tebala para besavA Agraha karyo. teo tenA para beThA. jaina sAdhunA AcAra teo pALatA hatA. teo dIkSita thayA nahotA, paNa sAdhujIvana gALatA hatA. mAro A pahelo paricaya hato. teo ughADe page hatA. TUMkI potaDI paherI hatI. te paNa ghaNI melI hatI. hAthamAM muhapattI hatI. te paNa melI hatI. eka melI thelImAM plAsTikanuM eka DabbA ke TaeNbalara jevuM vAsaNa hatuM. emanI sAthe vAtacItamAMthI meM jANI lIdhuM ke teo muMbaI senTralathI vAlakezvaramAM mArA ghara sudhI cAlatA AvyA hatA. bhara unALAmAM ughADA page DAmaranA rastA para dasa DagalAM cAlatAM paNa paga zekAI jAya tyAM teo cArapAMca kilomITara cAlatA AvyA hatA. TeksI ke basamAM kema na AvyA? kAraNa ke pAse paisA rAkhatA nathI. emaNe je kaSTa uThAvyuM tethI huM asvastha thaI gayo. paNa teo atyaMta prasanna hatA. Trena cAra kalAka moDI hovAthI AvatAM temane moDuM thayuM hatuM. temaNe savArathI bhojana lIdhuM nahotuM. ame emane bhojana mATe vinaMtI karI. tyAre khabara paDI ke thALI-vATakAmAM teo bhojana letA nathI. potAnA TabalaramAM emaNe thoDuM khAvAnuM lIdhuM. cAreka vAnagI badhI ekamAM ja lIdhI. te bheLavIne eka khUNAmAM dIvAla sAme UbhAM UbhAM ja emaNe AhAra vAparI lIdho. pachI emAM 82 caritradarzana

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ja pANI laIne te pI lIdhuM. joharImalajI vAhana ane eka vastranA upayoga sivAya anya rIte digaMbara sAdhu jevuM jIvana jIvatA hatA. teo jodhapuranA vatanI paNa muMbaImAM rahetA hatA. cArTarDa ekAunTanTa hatA. ghaNI sArI prekTisa cAlatI hatI. zrImaMta hatA. dhIkatI kamANI hatI. patnI-saMtAno sAthe atyaMta sukhI jIvana jIvatA hatA. moTo phleTa, oNphisa, moTaragADI badhuM hatuM. paraMtu aMtaramAM tyAga-vairAgya bhArobhAra bharyA hatAM. gharanAMnI badhAMnI saMmati laI lagabhaga pacAsa varSanI vaye badhuM choDI daI sAdhu jevuM jIvana svIkArI lIdhuM. pote sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyanA hatA, paraMtu teo badhA saMpradAyothI para thaI gayA hatA. sAdhunI jema temaNe snAnano tyAga karyo hato. jADI khAdInuM potaDI jevuM vastra paheryuM te paheryuM. e phATe nahi tyAM sudhI bIjuM vastra dhAraNa karavAnuM nahi. emaNe vAhananI chUTa rAkhI hatI, paraMtu te niprayojana nahi ke mAtra haravApharavA arthe nahi, paNa dharmakArya nimitte, jJAnanA pracArArthe ke dhArmika saMmelano, parisaMvAdo pUratI hatI. mAre ghare thoDAka kalAka rokAyA pachI emaNe potAnA putrane phona karyo. pitAjI muMbaI AvyA che e jANI teo AnaMdita thaI gayA. tarata moTarakAra laI teDavA AvyA. joharImalajIne vidAya ApavA huM ane mArAM patnI nIce gayAM. joharImalajI amArI sosAyaTInA daravAjAmAM dAkhala thayA tyAre cokIdAre emane aTakAvyA ane besADI rAkhyA. teo vidAya thayA tyAre moTI moTarakAramAM gayA. sau vaLIvaLIne temane page lAgyA. emane jovA mATe AsapAsa ToLuM thaI gayuM. Ama apamAna ane bahumAnanI baMne sthitimAM emanI samatA ane prasannatA evI ja rahI hatI. joharImalajI meluM eka ja vastra ane te paNa moTI laMgoTI ke potaDI jevuM pahere ethI muMbaI jevA zaheramAM to teo jyAM jyAM ekalA jAya tyAM cokIdAro emane aTakAve. sAthe koI hoya to kaMI savAla nahi. muMbaImAM eka zreSThIe emane kahyuM, 'tame mAre tyAM Avo tyAre eka sArI dhotI paherIne Avo ke jethI tamane koI aTakAve nahi." joharImalajIe kahyuM ke, "tamane maLavAno bIjo koI rasto vicArIzuM, paraMtu mArA AcAramAM huM pheraphAra nahi karuM. koI cokIdAra mane aTakAve e mAre mATe koI navo anubhava nathI. tyAra pachI dilhImAM vallabha smArakamAM mAre emane maLavAnuM thayuM hatuM. eka parisaMvAdamAM mAre bhAga levAno hato. joharImalajI paNa tyAM padhAryA hatA. tyAM utArAnI sagavaDa karatAM pratinidhio vadhAre thaI gayA hatA. potAne sAro rUma nathI maLyo eno ane maccharadAnI nathI maLI eno kacavATa keTalAka mAMhomAMhe joharImalajI pArakha 83

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vyakta karatA hatA. meM joharImalajIne pUchyuM, "tamAro utAro kayA rUmamAM che ?" mAro utAro badhA ja rUmamAM che. huM bega ke bistaro rAkhato ja nathI. eTale mAre utArAno prazna ja nathI. je rUmamAM huM koInI sAthe vAta karavA besuM eTalI vAra e rUma mAro." vallabha smArakamAM maccharano trAsa ghaNo hato. sAMja paDI. joharImalajIne meM pUchyuM ke, "Apa kyAM sUI javAnA?" ahIM khullAmAM, A pALI upara." oDhavA-pAtharavA mATe huM AvuM kaMIka ?" "huM haMmezAM jamIna para sUI jAuM chuM. kazuM oDhato nathI.' AkhI rAta macchara karaDaze ! tamAre zarIra upara mAtra potaDI che. te sivAya AkhuM zarIra ughADuM che.' "bhagavAne to DAMsa-maccharono parISaha sahana karavAnuM kahyuM che. mane macchara karaDe to huM samatAbhAve, prasannatApUrvaka sahana karI lauM chuM. mAre to phakta be-traNa kalAkanI UMgha joIe. bAkIno samaya dhyAnamAM beTho houM chuM. have to huM maccharathI eTalo TevAI gayo chuM ke macchara karaDe che ke nahi tenI paNa khabara paDatI nathI." kAyama jamIna upara sUI javuM, kazuM oDhavuM-pAtharavuM nahi. e rIte joharImalajIe digaMbara muni jevuM jIvana jIvavAnuM cAlu karI dIdhuM hatuM. chellAM keTalAMka varSothI jaina sAhitya samArohamAM tathA jaina viSayanA parisaMvAdamAM bhAga levA teo mArA AgrahathI padhAratA. ethI mArI sAthe temane ghaniSTha AtmIyatA thaI gaI hatI. teo samAroha ke parisaMvAdane sthaLe jAte pahoMcI jAya ane sabhAmAM eka cheDe cUpacApa besI jAya. jeo emane pahelI vAra jotA hoya teone kaMIka kutUhala thAya. paNa jyAre jANe ke A to eka mahAna vibhUti che tyAre loko Azcaryacakita thaI jatA. kacchamAM, pAlitANAmAM, rAjagRhImAM teo padhAryA hatA. ane kAryakramamAM bhAga lIdho hato. emanI hAjarIthI samagra kAryakramane opa maLato hato. pAlitANAmAM sAhitya samArohamAM bhAga levA teo AvyA tyAre rAta paDI gaI hatI. rAtanA agiyAra vAge amArA utArAnI dharmazALA para teo AvyA. emano veza joI cokIdAre emane dabaDAvyA. aMdara AvavA dIdhA nahi. dharmazALAnI bahAra eka cotarA jevI jagyAmAM teo AkhI rAta sUI rahyA. paraMtu e mATe emanA manamAM kazuM ja nahotuM. mane aphasosa thayo ke cokIdArane sUcanA ApI hota to sAruM thAta. ja eka caritradarzana

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rAgRhInA samArohamAM teo padhAravAnA hatA. ame badhA paTanA UtarI lachavADa rAta rokAI rAjagRhI javAnA hatA. paraMtu bihAranA taMga vAtAvaraNane kAraNe amAre sIdhA rAgRhI javuM paDyuM. chellI ghaDInA pheraphAranI temane khabara nahi. teo to lachavADa pahoMcI gayA. rAta rokAyA. amane na jotAM lachavADathI be-traNa basa badalIne teo rAjagRhI AvI pahoMcyA hatA. rAjagRhImAM paNa basasTenDathI vIrAyatana sudhI teo cAlatA AvyA hatA. pAse kaMI sAmAna nahi cAlavAnI jhaDapa vadhAre. manathI paNa teonI taiyArI. eTale haMmezAM prasanna rahetA. teo kahetA ke aparigrahano AnaMda keTalo badho che te to anubhavathI ja sArI rIte samajAya evI vAta che. joharImalajI potAnI rojiMdI Avazyaka dharmakriyA-sAmAyika, pratikramaNa, dhyAna vagere nizcita samaye avazya karI letA. teo roja eka vakhata AcArAMga sUtranuM paThana karatA. teo divase kadI sUtA nahi. sUryAsta pachI bIjA divasanI savAra sudhI teo maunamAM rahetA. gRhasthajIvananA tyAga pachI emaNe saMskRta, prAkRtano abhyAsa karyo ane badhA AgamagraMthonuM sArI rIte parizIlana karyuM. hastaprato vAMcatAM temane AvaDI gayuM hatuM. pa. pU. zrI jaMbuvijayajI mahArAja pAse teo vAraMvAra jatA ane temane kAmamAM madadarUpa thatA. chelle chelle amadAvAdanI ela. DI. insTiTyUTane paNa emaNe keTalAka divasa tyAM rahI potAnI sevA ApelI. teo pAse ghaDiyALa rAkhatA nahi. paNa varSonA mahAvarAne lIdhe samayanI pUrI khabara emane rahetI. joharImalajIe dhIme dhIme AhAra upara vijaya meLavyo hato. temaNe AraMbhamAM navakArazI tathA covihAra cAlu karI dIdhAM hatAM. tyAra pachI be TaMka AhAra sivAya kazuM ja na levuM, e rIte kAyamanAM besaNAM jevuM vrata aMgIkAra karyuM hatuM. pachI temaNe eka TaMka AhAra levAnuM cAlu karyuM. eka TaMka AhAra paNa temaNe eka pAtramAM thoDI vAnagIo laI, te badhAnuM mizraNa karI digaMbara sAdhunI jema UbhA UbhAM levAnuM cAlu karyuM. pote plAsTikanuM moTA TaeNbalara jevuM eka sAduM vAsaNa rAkhe. emAM badhuM bheLavI A AhAra vAparI le ane emAM pANI laIne pIe. A rIte varSo sudhI teo eka TaMka ja AhAra letA, chatAM temanI zakti sacavAI rahetI. vastutaH ochA AhArathI emane kyAreya azakti varatAI nahotI. chellAM beeka varSathI temaNe eka divasa upavAsa ane eka divasa eka TaMka AhAra e pramANe potAnI dinacaryA goThavI dIdhI hatI. A rIte aDatAlIsa kalAkamAM teo phakta eka ja vakhata UbhA UbhA AhAra karI letA. e aMge meM emane pUchyuM hatuM tyAre joharImalajI pArakha na 85

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kahyuM hatuM ke have be divasamAM eka ja vAra AhAra leto hovAthI, jyAre AhAra levAno thAya tyAra pahelAM karatAM saheja vadhAre AhAra levAya che ke jethI be divasa sudhI zakti barAbara jaLavAI rahe che. upavAsane divase teo pANI roja karatAM thoDuM vadhAre pI letA. pravAsamAM hoya to kAcuM pANI paNa vAparI le. sAdhunI dinacaryAnI jema joharImalajIne zaucAdi kriyA mATe paNa bahAra khullAmAM javAnuM vadhu game. zaheramAM hoya ane AsapAsa zaucAdi mATe sagavaDa na hoya to saMDAsa vagereno upayoga karatA. anyathA teo custa niyama pALatA. digaMbara sAdhunI jema teo eka vakhata zaucAdi mATe bahAra jatA. sAmAnya rIte te sivAya bIjI vAra laghunIti mATe paNa javAnI jarUra paDatI nahi. roja eka TaMka AhA2nA badale AMtare divase upavAsa emaNe cAlu karyA tyAra pachI zaucakriyA mATe roja eka vA2 javuM paDatuM. keTalAka sAdhuo ekAMtare upavAsa cAlu kare pachI zaucakriyA paNa ekAMtare thatI hoya che. paraMtu joharImalajI sAthenI vAtacItathI jANavA maLyuM ke ekAMtare upavAsa karavA chatAM potAnI zaucakriyA pahelAMnI jema ja rojeroja niyamita rahetI. potAnA mastakanA ane mUchadADhInA vALano teo loca karatA athavA kAtarathI kApatA, e aMge paNa teo sAdhunA jevo AcAra rAkhatA. pAMca-paMdara mAIla cAlavuM e emane mana ramata vAta hatI. sitteranI uMmare teo pahoMcyA hatA tyAre paNa ekavaDA, sukalakaDI zarIrane lIdhe teo jhaDapathI cAlI zakatA. zarIramAM saMdhivA ke bIjo koI roga nahoto. sametazikharamAM teo amArI sAthe hatA tyAre parvatithinA niyamane kAraNe teo pahADa upara gayA nahotA. chelle divase amArI basa bapore eka vAge UpaDavAnI hatI. emanI bhAvanA pahADa 52 jaI yAtrA ka2vAnI hatI. emaNe kahyuM ke, pote basa UpaDe te pahelAM AvI pahoMcaze. emane mATe thaIne amAre khoTI thavuM nahi. pote basa cUkI jaze to TrenamAM kalakattA AvI pahoMcaze. teo vahelI savAre UThIne pahADa para caDhyA. badhe ja darzana karyAM. TheTha caMdraprabhunI TUMka sudhI jaI AvyA. sADAbAra vAgatAmAM to teo nIce AvI pahoMcyA. temano upavAsano divasa hato. ATalo zrama levA chatAM temanA caherA 52 thAka nahoto. emanI zArIrika zakti ane dRDha manobaLa joI ame manomana temane vaMdana karI rahyA. relave ke basamAM pravAsa karavAmAM potAne kevA kevA anubhavo thAya che te vize emaNe kaheluM ke TrenamAM huM rijharvezana karAvIne jato nathI. bIjA DabbAomAM jyAM jagyA maLe tyAM besI jAuM chuM. ghaNI vAra beThaka 52 jagyA na hoya to huM 86 : caritradarzana

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nIce besI jAuM chuM. ghaNI vAra pesenjaro mArI sAthe tochaDI bhASA vApare, AghA besavAnuM kahe. huM vinA saMkoce tema karuM chuM. paraMtu thoDI vAtacItamAM lokone samajAI jAya ke huM koI suzikSita mANasa chuM, muphalisa nathI eTale loko sArI rIte vartavA lAge che. koI vAra thelImAMthI koI graMtha vAMcavAnuM cAlu karuM to mArA dharma ane AcAra vize kahuM, paraMtu tema kahevAmAM tyAga vize abhimAnayukta vacana na AvI jAya enI khAsa takedArI rAkhuM chuM. koI vAra TikiTa-cekaro paNa zaMkA kare ke huM TikiTa lIdhA vinA beTho hoIza. rUAbathI TikiTa mAge, koIka vAra to pUchayA vagara ja UtarI javAno hukama choDe. huM TikiTa batAvuM eTale zAMta thAya. relavenA potAnA anubhavo varNavatAM emaNe kaheluM ke pote paisA pAse rAkhe nahi ane koI vAra relavenuM bhADuM vadhI gayuM hoya ane potAnI pAse jUnA bhADAnI TikiTa hoya to TikiTa-cekara adhavacce ja utArI de. koIne phona karavo hoya to paNa paisA na hoya. paisA vagara ghaNI takalIpha paDatI. eTale chevaTe pAse jarUra pUratA thoDA rUpiyA rAkhavAnuM cAlu karyuM hatuM. eka vakhata joharImalajIne meM pUchyuM ke kyAMka rAtane vakhate rastAmAM ekalA javAnuM thAya to koIkane vahema paDe ke A mANasa koNa haze? tamane evA anubhava thayA che? "evA anubhavo ghaNI vAra thayA che, paNa ethI mArA manamAM koIne mATe cIDa ke abhAva nathI thato. e mArA jIvanano krama che." potAno jodhapurano eka anubhava emaNe varNavyo hato. jodhapuramAM jaina samAjamAM to badhA ja emane oLakhe. eka vakhata Trena moDI paDatAM pote rAtre eka vAge jodhapura pahoMcyA. ziyALAnI ThaMDInA divaso hatA. eTale pAsenA eka jaina maMdiramAM gayA. cokIdAra emane oLakhato hato. daravAjo kholI aMdara eka khUNAmAM sUvAnI sagavaDa karI ApI. have cokIdAranI DyUTI savAre pAMca vAgyA sudhI hatI. pAMca vAgye bIjo cokIdAra Avyo. te navo hato. jUnA cokIdAre emanA vize kazI vAta karelI nahi. navA cokIdAre eka khUNAmAM mane UMghato joI koI cora bharAyo che ema samajI bUmAbUma karI mUkI. mane uThADIne dhakkA mArIne bahAra kADhyo. rAtano vakhata hato eTale potAne mauna hatuM. joharImalajI kazuM ja bolyA nahi. savAra thaI gaI hatI eTale joharImalajI potAnA nivAsasthAne pahoMcI gayA. khabara paDatAM derAsaranA TrasTIo e cokIdArane laI emane mAphI mAgavA AvyA. paraMtu joharImalajIe kahyuM ke emAM cokIdArano kaMI ja vAMka nathI. eNe enI pharaja bajAvI che, ane potAne ethI kazuM mAThuM lAgyuM nathI. joharImalajI pArakha na 87

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eka vakhata meM emane pUcheluM ke, ApaNA jaina sAdhuonA vezane kAraNe gAmamAM dAkhala thatAM kUtarAMo bhase che. hAthamAM dAMDo hoya eTale karaDe nahi, paNa tamAro veza evo che ke kUtarAM jarUra bhase.' emaNe kahyuM, divase to bahu vAMdho nathI Avato. lokonI avarajavara sArI hoya tyAre paNa takalIpha nathI paDatI. paraMtu sAMje ke rAtre ekalo cAlyo jato houM to kUtarAM bhase che. koI vAra kaI dizAmAMthI kUtaruM doDatuM AvIne karaDI jAya tenI paNa khabara na paDe. jyArathI e veza dhAraNa karyo che tyArathI eTale ke chellAM vIseka varSathI varasamAM sarerAza pAMca-cha vakhata kUtaruM karaDe che. eTale mAre mATe enI koI navAI nathI. meM kyAreya kUtarAne mAravAno, bhagADavAno prayatna karyo nathI ke kUtarA upara mane koI cIDa nathI.' kUtaruM karaDe tyAre Apa ene mATenAM injekzano lo cho ?" huM koI davA leto nathI. kUtaruM karaDe tyAre paDelA ghA upara maracuM bhabharAvI dauM chuM. thoDA divasamAM maTI jAya che.' "duzmano bIjAnA ghA upara mIThuM bhabharAve evI lokokti che. paraMtu Apa to potAnA ghA upara maracuM bhabharAvo cho. e kevI rIte sahana thAya ?' pIDA ghaNI thAya, paNa e to dehanI pIDA che. AtmAnI nathI. evI pIDAthI bhAre azubha karmano je kSaya thAya che eno UlaTAno AnaMda thAya che.' Apa maracuM pAse rAkho cho ?' nA, enI kaMI jarUra nathI. AkhA bhAratamAM koI paNa ghare capaTI maracuM maLI rahe. kUtaruM karaDe tyAre najIkanA koI ghare jaIne maracuM mAgI lauM.' pU. joharImalajInI dehAtIta dazA kevI hatI enI A vAtathI pratIti thaI hatI. Disemba2, 1995mAM zaMkhezvara khAte jaina sAhitya samArohanuM Ayojana thayuM hatuM. temano patra AvI gayo hato ke pote amadAvAda AvyA che ane tyAMthI zaMkhezvara Avaze. saMjogavazAt sAhitya samAroha mulatavI rahyo. joharImalajI jodhapura pAchA gayA. jAnyuArI-phebruArI mahinAmAM ziyALAnI kaDakaDatI ThaMDImAM A rIte rahetAM emane zarIre ThaMDI caDI gaI. tAva Avyo. nyumoniyA thayo hato. auSadha levAnI ke haoNspiTalamAM javAnI emaNe nA pADI. deha choDavAnuM thAya to bhale thAya. e mATe pote svastha citte taiyAra hatA. phebruArInA pahelA aThavADiyAmAM emanAM svajano muMbaIthI jodhapura pahoMce te pahelAM emaNe deha mUkI dIdho. emanA svargavAsanA samAcAra amane to e rIte maLyA ke prabuddha jIvana'mAM jainonI AtmaghAtaka mAgaNI' nAmanA chapAyelA emanA lekha mATe manIorDarathI 88 caritradarzana

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mokalAvelI puraskAranI rakama pAchI AvI. temAM emanA putranI noMdha hatI ke joharImalajIe deha choDI dIdho che. svargastha pUjya joharImalajInuM jIvana bhagavAna mahAvI2svAmI vicaratA hatA enI thoDI jhAMkhI karAve evuM hatuM. AvI virala vyaktino yoga prApta thavo e ja durlabha vAta gaNAya. temanI sAthe amAro paricaya thayo. emanA AgamanathI amAruM ghara pavitra thatuM ane sAhitya samArohamAM emano preraka sahavAsa sAMpaDato rahyo e amArA jIvananI moTI dhanyatA che ! pU. joharImalajInA vizuddha AtmAne natamastake vaMdana ho ! joharImalajI pArakha * 89

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10 paMDita sukhalAlajI prajJAcakSa, paMDita zrI sukhalAlajI eTale vartamAna bhAratanI eka mahAna dArzanika pratibhA. 97 varSanI sudIrgha uMmare amadAvAdamAM emanuM avasAna thayuM hatuM. paMDitajInuM jIvana eTale puruSArthanI bhavya gAthA. saurASTramAM vaDhavANa zaheranA teo vatanI. soLa varSanI kizoravaye I. sa. 1897mAM unALAnA divasomAM temane zItaLA nIkaLyA ane netrajyoti vilIna thaI. acAnaka AvI paDelA aMdhatve emane ciMtAtura banAvI dIdhA. kizoravaye teo taravarATavALA hatA, paraMtu netra jatAM temanI zArIrika pravRtti maMda paDI gaI. pote khUba mUMjhavaNa anubhavavA lAgyA. jANe jIvanano rAha badalAI gayo. zuM karavuM te sUjhatuM nahi. e nAnakaDA gAmamAM bIjI pravRtti te zI hoI zake ? dharma ane enA kriyAkAMDo tarapha loko vALe ane potAne paNa vaLavAnuM mana thAya e svAbhAvika che. pote jaina. jaina sAdhuonI avarajavara cAlu hoya ja. potAnA gAmamAM jaina sAdhuo Ave, temanI pAse javuM, dhArmika abhyAsa karavo ane kriyAkAMDabharI dharmapravRtti karavI e tarapha teo doravAyA. jaina sAdhuo pAse samaya paNa ThIka ThIka hoya ane aMtaramAM karuNA paNa hoya. eTale yogya pAtra jaNAtAM tene preraNA ane mArgadarzana sahaja rIte Ape. paMDitajI vakhatovakhata judA jugha jaina sAdhuonA saMparkamAM AvyA ane ene pariNAme dharmazAstronuM adhyayana karavA mATe jarUrI evo prAkRta ane saMskRta bhASAno abhyAsa karavAnI tAlAvelI temane lAgI. pote aMdha hatA eTale bIjI pravRtti to khAsa rahI nahi. tethI maLelA samayamAM je kaMI jANavA maLe te cittamAM grahaNa karI letA ane tenuM vAraMvAra smaraNaraTaNa karatA. eka jaina sAdhu pAsethI raghuvaMza'nI nakala ATha divasa mATe maLI to teTalA divasamAM temaNe "raghuvaMza'nA dasa sarganA zloko kaMThastha karI lIdhA. (c) ja caritradarzana

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saMskRta bhASAnA abhyAso mATenI temanI bhUkha e nAnakaDA gAmamAM saMtoSAya tema nahotI. teo te mATe kAzI vidyAbhyAsa karavA gayA. kAzImAM temane ghaNI muzkelIo paDI. ghaNI parataMtratA anubhavI, paraMtu dhIrajapUrvaka temaNe potAnI abhyAsa pravRtti cAlu rAkhI. buddhinI tejasvitA, tIvra smaraNazakti ane svabhAvanI saraLatAne lIdhe paMDito paNa temane vidyAbhyAsa premathI karAvatA. temaNe kAzImAM saMskRta bhASAnA abhyAsa uparAMta darzanazAstrono paNa abhyAsa karyo. - vidyAbhyAsa pachI vyavasAya tarIke paMDitajIe moTuM kArya je karyuM te banArasa yunivarsiTImAM prAkRta ane jainadharma vibhAganA adhyakSa tarIkenuM adhyApanakArya che. A samaya daramiyAna temaNe hiMdI bhASAmAM ThIka ThIka lekhanakArya paNa karyuM. paMDitajIe keTaloka samaya gUjarAta vidyApIThamAM gAMdhIjI sAthe ane keTaloka samaya muMbaI bhAratIya vidyAbhavanamAM kanaiyAlAla munazIjI sAthe rahIne kArya karyuM. paMDitajIne emanI vidyAne mATe, emanA graMthone mATe suvarNacaMdrako, pAritoSiko, DI.liTa.nI upAdhi vagere maLyAM, paraMtu A badhAM aupacArika sanmAno hatAM. paMDitajIe potAnA vyaktitva para enI jarA paNa viparIta asara thavA dIdhI nahi. paMDitajI sAtheno mAro paricaya I. sa. 1944thI. e samaye huM kolejamAM vidyArthI tarIke dAkhala thayelo ane muMbaImAM zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayamAM raheto. te samaye amAre dhArmika abhyAsamAM paMDitajIe saMpAdita karelA graMtha, vAcaka umAsvAtikRta tattvArthasUtra'nuM adhyayana karavAnuM hatuM. paMDitajInI sUkSma ane gahana vidvattAno tyAre pahelo paricaya thayo. e ja varSe vidyAlayamAM paMDitajI kAkAsAheba kAlelakara sAthe maMgaLa pravacana mATe padhArelA. e samaye emanuM darzana pahelavaheluM thayeluM. tyAre paMDitajI muMbaImAM bhAratIya vidyAbhavananA jUnA makAnamAM rahetA eTale koI koI vakhata huM temane maLavA jato. teo zrI muMbaI jena yuvaka saMghanI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM pramukha sthAne birAjatA. koI koI vakhata temAM pote paNa ekAda viSaya upara pravacana ApatA. te sAMbhaLI paMDitajInI vidvattAthI huM ghaNo prabhAvita thayo hato. I. sa. 1951mAM senTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM gujarAtInA adhyApaka tarIke meM kArya karyuM ane sAthe sAthe jaina yuvaka saMghanI kAryavAhaka samitimAM paNa joDAyo. zrI paramAnaMda kApaDiyA tathA mArA sasarA zrI dIpacaMdabhAI zAha sAthe yuvaka saMghanI pravRttione aMge paMDitajIne maLavA javAnuM vAraMvAra banatuM. e arasAmAM eka vakhata zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanA upakrame yojAtI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM kalikAlasarvajJa hemacandrAcArya upara mAre vyAkhyAna ApavAnuM hatuM. pramukhasthAnethI paMDita sukhalAlajI je 91

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upasaMhAra karatAM paMDitajIe paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM AvA mahAna pUrvAcAryone saMbhAravA mATe AnaMda vyakta karyo. tyAkhyAna pachI emaNe mane 'triSaSTizalAkApuruSa caritra' saMskRtamAM vAMcI javA bhalAmaNa karelI. e prasaMgathI paMDitajI sAthe vadhu nikaTanA paricayamAM AvavAnuM thayeluM. A samaya daramiyAna paMDitajI muMbaI choDI kAyamane mATe amadAvAda jaIne vasyA hatA. 1955mAM eka varSane mATe amadAvAdamAM zarU thatI senTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM adhyApaka tarIke kArya karavAnuM mAre mATe nakkI thayuM. ethI e varSa daramiyAna agavaDo ghaNI paDI, chatAM mane sauthI moTo lAbha thayo hoya to te paMDitajI ane pa. pU. puNyavijayajI mahArAjanA niyamita saMparkamAM rahevAno ane temanI pAsethI preraNA ane mArgadarzana meLavavAno. paMDitajInA vatsala svabhAvano tyAre gADha paricaya thayo. amadAvAda pahoMcatAMnI sAthe paMDitajIne "saritakuMjamAM emanA nivAsasthAne huM maLavA gayo. pUchyuM, "koI kAma hoya to kaho." paMDitajIe kahyuM: "sAMje pharavA javuM che, tamane samaya hoya to Avo." huM sAMje paMDitajIne pharavA laI gayo. pachI to roja sAMje emane pharavA laI javAno kAryakrama nizcita banI gayo. jema jema samaya vadhu maLato gayo tema tema pharavA javAnA kAryakrama uparAMta kalAka-be kalAka paMDitajI pAse besIne temane je vAMcavuM hoya te vAMcavAno kAryakrama paNa cAlyo. roja sAMje ghaNuMkharuM teo haLavuM vAMcatA. chApAMo, sAmayiko vagere je AvyAM hoya te emaNe goThavIne rAkhyAM hoya. eka pachI eka huM leto jAuM. prathama zIrSaka vAMcI saMbhaLAvuM. jo e viSayanuM lakhANa mAre vAMcavAnuM hoya to teo vAMcavA mATe sUcana karatA. "janmabhUmi', 'prabuddha jIvana" ane "saMskRti' e traNa teo vadhAre vaMcAvatA. e samaye paMDitajI mATe vAMcelAM pustakomAMnAM be vizeSa yAda che. eka to mahAmahopAdhyAya kANenuM dharmazAstranA itihAsa vizenuM aMgrejI pustaka. e vAMcavA mATe sAthe aMgrejI zabdakoza laIne besato, kAraNa ke potAne khabara na hoya tevo eka paNa aMgrejI zabda paMDitajI cUkavA na detA. aMgrejI bhASAno pote vyavasthita abhyAsa karyo na hovA chatAM, e bhASAnI teo kevI sArI jANakArI dharAve che tenI te samaye pratIti thatI. bIjuM pustaka te iMdulAla yAjJikanI AtmakathA. te samaye navuM ja bahAra paDeluM te pustaka hatuM. e pustakamAM AjhAdInI laDatanA ane gAMdhIjI sAthenA keTalAye jAhera ane aMgata prasaMgonuM tema ja iMdulAlanA potAnA aMgata jIvananA ekarArabharyA keTalAka prasaMgonuM hRdayasparzI Alekhana thayuM che. te vAMcatAM paMDitajI keTalIye vAre asvastha thaI jatA, AMkhamAMthI AMsu TapakatAM. koI vAra gaLagaLA thaI jatA ane kahetA ke, "basa, hamaNAM have vAMcavAnuM baMdha rAkho." 92 9 caritradarzana

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rajAnA divaso hoya tyAre paMDitajI pAse vAMcavA mATe savAre athavA bapore paNa jato. emano nokara saraju athavA mAdhu amArA baMne mATe cA banAvI lAvato. jyAre gaMbhIra vAcana cAlatuM hoya te samaye paMDitajIne koI maLavA AvyuM hoya tyAre teo lAMbI vAta karatA nahi. ekAda miniTamAM patAvI mane AgaLa vAMcavAnI sucanA karatA, eTale AvanAra vyakti tarata samajI jatI. vidyAbhyAsanA samayamAM mulAkAtIo khalela pahoMcADe te emane gamatuM nahi. paMDitajI AMkhe joI zakatA na hatA; paraMtu "saritakuMja' makAnamAM vasavATane kAraNe teo pratyeka vastuthI eTalA paricita thaI gayA hatA ke temane tyAM besavAUThavAmAM ke haravA-pharavAmAM koI aDacaNa paDatI nahi. badhuM ja kAma potAnI meLe karI letA. pratyeka vastu kyAM keTalA aMtare che e emanA citta samakSa spaSTa rahetuM. emanI zravaNazakti ghaNI tIvra hatI. Teliphona paNa jAte ja letA ane vAtacIta karatA. avAjane oLakhI levAnI temanI sUkSma grahaNazakti ane smaraNazakti paNa eTalI ja sateja hatI. paMDitajI pAse huM jato tyAre mAre mAro paricaya ApavAnI jarUra paDatI nahi. mAro avAja e oLakhI letA. keTalIka vAra ame beThA hoIe tyAre temane maLavA AvanAra koI mANaso bahArathI vAto karatA karatA AvatA hoya to paMDitajI tarata kahetA ke phalANAbhAI AvyA lAge che. paMDitajInI zravaNazakti ane smaraNazakti eTalI tIvra hatI ke bUTa, caMpalanA avAja parathI paNa koNa AvyuM che te paNa teo jANI letA. - eka vAra muMbaImAM 'tAnasena' nAmanuM calacitra jovA ame paMDitajI sAthe gayelA. emaNe paradA uparanuM cAlatuM calacitra joyuM nahotuM, mAtra saMvAdo ane gIto temaNe sAMbhaLelAM. paNa e citra joIne pAchA pharyA pachI emaNe keTalAka prazno karyA tyAre calacitra jonArA je vAto cUkI gayA hatA te zravaNazaktinI ekAgratA vaDe temaNe kevI sarasa rIte pakaDI lIdhI hatI tenI pratIti thaI hatI. 1955-56mAM paMDitajI pAse AvanArA mahAnubhAvomAM sAhitya pariSadanA baMdhAraNa vagerenI carcA mATe AvanArA sneharazmi, umAzaMkarabhAI ane jayaMtI dalAla mukhya hatA. sAhitya pariSadanA navesarathI ghaDAnArA baMdhAraNanI ghaNI vATAghATo paMDitajInI hAjarImAM thatI. keTalIka vAra matabhedo thatA tyAre, khAsa karIne jayaMtI dalAla ugra banI gayA hoya tyAre, paMDitajI thoDuMka ja kahetA ane vAtanuM nirAkaraNa thaI jatuM. paMDitajI baLavAkhora paMDita' tarIke jANItA hatA. keTalAye dhArmika jaDa kriyAkAMDo upara emaNe prahAro karelA che; Ama chatAM paMDitajI mAtra buddhivAdI paMDita sukhalAlajI 93

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nahotA, zraddhAnA tattvane paNa temanA jIvanamAM pUro avakAza hato. mane eka prasaMganuM barAbara smaraNa che. comAsAnA divaso hatA. paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALA mATe paMDitajI muMbaI AvavA nIkaLatA hatA. huM paMDitajIne levA mATe "saritakuMjamAM gayo. teo taiyAra ja hatA. meM temano hAtha pakaDI cAlavA mAMDyuM tyAM paMDitajI kahe, "eka miniTa UbhA raho." mane ema ke kaMI levAnuM bhulAI gayuM haze; paraMtu paMDitajIe moDhA AgaLa hatheLI dharI navakAra maMtra bolavAnuM zarU karyuM. traNa navakAra gaNIne emaNe rUmanI bahAra paga mUkyo. meM paMDitajIne pUchyuM, "Apa paNa A rIte navakAra gaNo cho?" temaNe kahyuM, "zraddhA vagara ApaNuM jIvana TakI ja na zake. bahAragAma jatAM ke koI sArA kAma mATe jatAM huM haMmezAM manamAM navakAra gaNI lauM chuM." paMDitajIe jyAre potAnI tabiyata sArI hovA chatAM paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAnuM pramukhasthAna choDyuM tyAre meM emane pUcheluM, "Ape kema muMbaI vyAkhyAnamALAmAM javAnuM mAMDI vALyuM?" emaNe eka ja zabdamAM uttara Apyo, 'vayodharma'. paMDitajI kahetA ke ApaNAM lokomAM uMmara pramANe potAnA dharmo bahu ochA mANaso samaje che, khAsa karIne jAhera jIvanamAM je pramANe ApaNI uMmara cAlatI hoya te pramANe ApaNAM rasa ane pravRttinAM kSetra badalavAM joIe. paMDitajI mitabhASI ane mitAhArI hatA. vAtacItamAM teo haMmezAM TUMkA ane muddAsara javAba ApatA. e javAbamAM paNa emanI vidvattA DokiyuM karI jatI. tattvajJAnanI carcA hoya to emanI bahuzrutatAnI pratIti vAte vAte thatI. dareka dharma ane saMpradAyanI ke enA mahAna dArzanikonI vAta thatI hoya tyAre tenA guNapakSe zuM zuM che ane enI maryAdA kyAM kyAM rahelI che tenI samatola vAta paMDitajI pAsethI sAMbhaLavA maLatI. paMDitajInI smRti khUba sateja hatI ane koI paNa vyakti ke graMthano saMdarbha teo jhINavaTathI tarata ApatA. - paMDitajI maMda ane mRdu avAje vAta karatA. koI vAra bhArapUrvaka vAta karavI hoya tyAre jamaNA ke DAbA hAthanI tarjanI UMcI karI te vaDe teo te darzAvatA. paMDitajI ekalA beThA hoya athavA mAtra sAMbhaLavAnuM cAlatuM hoya tyAre emanA jamaNA hAthanA aMgUThA upara tarjanI satata pharyA karatI hoya, jANe mALA pheravatA na hoya ! kyAreka DAbA hAthamAM paNa e kriyA cAlatI hoya. muni jinavijayajIne paNa evI Teva hatI. jIva ane zivanA milanarUpa e mudrA ane AMgaLI pheravavAnI e kriyA haThayoganI dRSTie dIrdhAyuSyamAM sahAyarUpa manAya che.) kizorAvasthAmAM zItaLA thavAne kAraNe paMDitajInA zarIramAM garamI puSkaLa rahetI. AthI gharamAM hoya tyAre ghaNuMkharuM teo phakta dhotiyuM paherIne ja besatA. 94 na caritradarzana

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dhotiyuM khAdInuM ane haMmezAM svaccha rahetuM. chAtI upara teo vastra sahana karI zakatA nAMhe. bahAra javuM hoya tyAre khAdInuM sAduM paheraNa paherI letA. AjIvana brahmacaryopAsanAne kAraNe paMDitajInuM zarIra ojasvI hatuM. vRddhAvasthAmAM paNa emanA zarI2 upa2 uMma2 jaNAtI nahi. avasAnanA mahinA pahelAM emane maLavA gayo tyAre teo pathArImAM beThA thayA hatA ane TaTTAra beThA hatA. paMDitajInA sAnnidhyamAM mane haMmezAM emanA vAtsalyano anubhava thato. huM amadAvAda eka varSa mATe gayo hato ane lojamAM jamato hato. eTale mArI tabiyata mATe teo haMmezAM phikara karatA. eka divasa sAMje gayo tyAre mane kahe, "Aje navaraMgapurA bAju pharavA jaIe.'' saritakuMjathI Azrama roDa 52 sIdhA ja ame cAlyA, tyAre raste ATalAM makAno ke vAhanavyavahAra nahi. (Aje to have 'saritakuMja' paNa rahyuM nathI.) rasto Ama zAMta hato. amuka aMtare cAlyA pachI paMDitajI kahe, "have DAbI bAju vaLo." ame DAbI bAjunA raste cAlyA. paMDitajI pachI kahe, "ApaNe anAja-kariyANAnI dukAna che tyAM jaIe.' paMDitajI joI zakatA nahi, paNa keTaluM aMtara kapAyuM che ane kyAM pahoMcyA chIe tenI temanI sUjha cokasAIbharelI hatI. e dukAne ame gayA. emanA koI sagAnI e dukAna hatI. paMDitajIe badAma, kAju, drAkSa ema cAra-pAMca paDIkAM baMdhAvyAM; pachI mArA hAthamAM ApIne kahe, 'ramaNabhAI, A tamArA mATe baMdhAvyAM che. paisA ApavAnA nathI. ApaNI gharanI ja dukAna che.' paMDitajIe zA mATe navaraMgapurA bAju pharavA javAnuM sUcana karyuM hatuM te samajAyuM. emanA Agrahane chevaTe vaza thavuM paDyuM. emanA vAtsalyanA sparzathI mAruM hRdaya ArdrabhAve namI rahyuM. paMDitajInA avasAnanA chaeka mahinA pahelAM mArAM patnI sAthe huM maLavA gayo hato. varSo jUnAM muMbaInAM smaraNo tAjAM karyAM. ATalI uMmare paNa emanI smRti sateja hatI. alabatta, vAta karatAM karatAM citta thAkI jatuM to thoDI vAra zAMta rahetA. amArAM baMne saMtAnone yAda karyAM ane pharI amadAvAda jaIe to saMtAnone laI emane tyAM amAre javuM ane tyAM ja jamavAnuM rAkhavuM evo Agraha karyo. kahe, "ahIM jamavAnI badhI vyavasthA thaI zake ema che, mATe e ciMtA karazo nahi." paMDitajIe amadAvAdane potAnuM nivRttisthAna, nivAsasthAna banAvyuM te pachI amadAvAda bahAra khAsa teo gayA nathI. 'saritakuMja'mAMthI muni jinavijayajInA makAnamAM, 'anekAMtavihAra'mAM rahevA gayA pachIthI to gharanI bahAra paNa khAsa jatA nahi. chellAM keTalAMka varSomAM to alabatta, tabiyatane kAraNe paNa teo bahAra paMDita sukhalAlajI 95

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nIkaLatA nahi. paMDitajInuM jIvana eTale AjIvana vidyopAsanA ane AjIvana brahmacaryanI paNa upAsanA. alpaparigrahI, niHsvArtha, tapomaya emanuM jIvana hatuM. paMDitajI eTale jaMgama tIrtha. 1956mAM huM amadAvAda choDI muMbaI pAcho Avyo tyArathI te teo svargavAsa pAmyA tyAM sudhI jyAre jyAre amadAvAda jAuM tyAre paMDitajIne maLavA javAnuM, vaMdanArthe javAnuM to acUka rAkhyuM hatuM. chelle emanA avasAnanA cAreka mahinA pahelAM eka vakhata maLavA gayelo tyAre muni jinavijayajI tyAM AvIne rahyA hatA. paMDitajIe mane kahyuM, "munijIne kensara thayuM che. DaoNkTara kahe che ke have e mahinAthI vadhu nahi kADhe. bahAra sUtA che. tame maLo tyAre kensaranI vAta karatA nahi." huM munijI pAse gayo. munijI prasanna hatA. gUjarAta vidyApIThanAM keTalAMka saMsmaraNo mane kahyAM. sAthe sAthe kahyuM, "basa, have taiyArI thaI gaI che. thoDA divasano ja mahemAna chuM. mRtyudevanA AgamananI utsukatApUrvaka rAha jouM chuM." mRtyunI vAte kadAca munijI asvastha bane evI bhIti hatI, paraMtu mRtyunI vAta emaNe pote ja kADhI ane prasannatApUrvaka tenI taiyArI darzAvI. muni jinavijayajI jatAM paMDitajIne eka nikaTanA sAthI ane AdhArasthaMbha gumAvyA jevuM lAgyuM hatuM. paMDitajInuM smaraNa thatAM cittapaTa para aneka smaraNo taravarI rahe che. darzana ane ciMtana', 'tattvArtha sUtra', "sanmatitarka vagere emanA graMthonuM vAcana-manana karIe chIe tyAre emanI dArzanika pratibhAnI jhAMkhI thAya che. viparIta saMjogomAM emaNe karelI jIvanasAdhanA kevI ananya hatI tenI pratIti thAya che. mahAna vibhUtio potAnI bhautika maryAdAone AtmabaLathI dUra karI jIvanane kevuM sarasa ane sArthaka karI zake che ! 'vaMdanIya hRdayasparzamAMthI) 9 na caritradarzana

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11 mahAna mAnavI (abrAhma liMkana) liMkana jagatanA mahAna puruSomAMno eka hato. jyaoNrja vaoNziMgTana pachI amerikAno bIjo mahAna puruSa te ebrahama liMkana. liMkananuM jIvana gAMdhIjInA jIvana sAthe keTalIka bAbatomAM maLatuM Ave che. liMkana ane gAMdhIjI baMne vakIla hatA. vakIlAtamAM baMne paisA meLavavA karatAM sAcA nyAya mATe vadhAre Agraha rAkhatA hatA. baMne mahAna rAjadvArI puruSo hatA ane mAnavatAnA sAcA pUjArI hatA. gAMdhIjIe aspRzyono uddhAra karyo to liMkane gulAmono. satya, nIti, dayA vagerene baMnee jIvananA dareka kSetramAM sthAna ApyuM hatuM. baMnenuM jIvana niraMtara yuddha jevuM hatuM. baMne nirbhaya hatA. jelamAM javAthI baMne DaratA nahotA. potAnI jAtane jokhamamAM mUkatAM baMne vicA2 ka2tA nahotA. potAnA khUnanAM kAvatarAM thavA chatAM baMne mUMjhAtA nahotA. potAnA jIvana daramiyAna potAnI dhyeyasiddhi liMkananI saMghanI akhaMDitatA ane gulAmonI muktinI ane gAMdhIjInI bhAratanI AjhAdInI ane aspRzyonA uddhAranI-joI zakyA hatA ane e pachI thoDAka ja samayamAM baMne potAnA ja eka dezabAMdhavane hAthe khUnano bhoga thaI paDyA hatA. baMne potAnA dezamAM eTalA badhA lokapriya hatA ke mRtyu pachI amerikAmAM liMkananI ane bhAratamAM gAMdhIjInI jevI bhavya smazAnayAtrA nIkaLI hatI tevI amerikAmAM ane bhAratamAM koIe joI nahotI ane joI nathI. liMkana mahAna hato paNa enuM jIvana, kudaratanI eka karuNa lIlAnuM darzana karAvavA mATe jANe sarjAyeluM hoya evuM hatuM. liMkananuM jIvana saphLatA ane niSphaLatAnI gUMthaNI jevuM lAge che. jaMgalanI koTaDImAM rahenAra abhaNa chokaro amerikAnA pramukhapade pahoMcI gayo e jevItevI mahAna mAnavI (abrAhma liMkana) 97

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siddhi nahotI. liMkana ghaNo ja mahattvAkAMkSI hato. enI mahattvAkAMkSA ane niSphaLatA sAme jhajhUmavAnuM jhAjhuM baLa detI hatI. liMkana jevA saphaLa puruSo gatamAM bahu ochA jovA maLaze ane je jovA maLaze temanA jIvanamAM paNa liMkananA jeTalI niSphaLatAo to bhAgye ja jovA maLe. liMkananuM jIvana saphaLatA ane niSphaLatAnI, AzA ane nirAzAnI gUMthaNI jevuM hatuM. eka abhaNa ane garIba chokaro ApabaLe AgaLa vadhIne posTa mAstara thayo, jamInanI AMkaNI karanAra thayo, nAnI uMmare rAjyanI dhArAsabhAmAM cUMTAyo, pratiSThita vakIla banyo, amerikAnI koMgresamAM cUMTAI Avyo, amerikAno pramukha banyo, pharIthI pramukha tarIke cUMTAI Avyo. jaMgalamAM jhUMpaDImAM rahenAra eka garIba chokarA mATe A siddhi zuM ochI hatI ? ane chatAM dareka prasaMge ene kevA kevA anubhavo thayA? haju e pUro UcharIne moTo paNa nahoto thayo tyAM enI vahAlI mAtAnuM avasAna thayuM. bhaNavAnI ene icchA hatI tyAre ene evI koI taka maLatI nahi; jyAM taka maLatI tyAM navuM kazuM jANavA maLatuM nahi. pahelI vAra e nyU oliyansa gayo tyAre habasI lUMTAruo maLyA. bIjI vAra nyU oliyansa gayo tyAM mArgamAM hoDI khUMcI gaI ane nyU oliyansa pahoMcatAM gulAmInI prathA joI. rAjyanI dhArAsabhAnI cUMTaNImAM pahelI vAra e Ubho rahyo to niSphaLa gayo. bleka haoNkanA baLavAmAM TukaDIno e saradAra thayo tyAre TukaDI vikharAI gaI. ene nyU sAlemanI dukAnamAM nokarI maLI, to dukAna barAbara cAlI nahi. eNe potAnI dukAna karI to temAM moTI khoTa gaI. jamIna-AMkaNInuM kAma zarU karyuM tyAre enAM ojAro harAja thaI gayAM. posTa mAstaranI nokarI maLI, tyAre thoDA samayamAM nyU sAlemanI vastI ghaTI gaI ane posTa ophisa baMdha thaI gaI. ena alejanA premamAM e paDyo, tyAre ena AlejanuM avasAna thayuM. merI sAthe eNe lagna karyA, tyAre enuM gRhajIvana klezamaya pasAra thavA lAgyuM. gRhajIvana kaMIka sukhI thavA lAgyuM tyAre enA eka dIkarAnuM avasAna thayuM. koMgresanI cUMTaNImAM UbhA rahevAnI eNe icchA vyakta karI tyAre ripablikana pakSe ene nApasaMda karyo; pakSe ene pasaMda karyo, tyAre cUMTaNImAM enI hAra thaI. laeNnDa ophisanI UMcI hoddAnI nokarI mATe eNe arajI karI, tyAre e mATe ene nAlAyaka TharAvavAmAM Avyo. seneTanI cUMTaNImAM e Ubho rahyo tyAre DagalAse ene harAvyo. upapramukhapada mATe eNe prayatna karyo, to temAM e niSphaLa gayo. pramukhapade e cUMTAyo tyAre 98 caritradarzana

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AMtaravigrahanI ene tarata zarUAta karavI paDI. vigrahamAM AzAnAM cihuno dekhAvA lAgyAM, tyAre enA bIjA putranuM avasAna thayuM. pharIthI pramukhapade Avyo tyAre enI sarakAra uthalAvI nAkhavAnuM kAvataruM racAyuM. AMtaravigrahamAM eNe vijaya meLavyo tyAre vijayanA pAMcame divase enuM khUna thayuM. jIvanamAM keTalI badhI niSphaLA ane nirAzA ? eka nahi, be nahi. Dagale ne pagale nirAzA maLatI hovA chatAM liMkane potAno prayatna kadI choDyo nahi. enuM jIvana eTaluM badhuM karuNa hatuM ke keTakeTalA prayatno pachI ene saphaLatA maLI, tyAre e saphaLatA niSphaLatA karatAMye moMghI paDe evo ene anubhava thato. kudarate jANe nizcaya ja karyo hato ke liMkanane sarva rIte haMphAvavo ane kyAMya ene saphaLa thaIne AgaLa vadhavA na devo. ane liMkane paNa jANe nizcaya ja karyo hato ke game teTalA parAjayo maLe topaNa daDha manobaLa sAthe AgaLa vadhavuM ja. liMkananI siddhi vadhAre saMgIna hatI, kAraNa parAjyonA pAkA pAyA upara enuM caNatara thayuM hatuM. ane liMkane potAnA jIvana daramiyAna zuM zuM prApta na karyuM ? eNe amerikAne chinnabhinna thatuM bacAvI lIdhuM. eNe lAkho gulAmone kAyadesaranI mukti apAvI. enI A be siddhio zuM ochI mahAna hatI ? ane eka garIbano abhaNa chokaro, yuvAnInA uMbaramAM paga mUkatAM sudhInAM varSo veDaphI nAkhyA pachI paNa Dagale ne pagale pAcho paDavA chatAM, mAtra ApabaLe AgaLa vadhIne amerikAno babbe vAra pramukha banI zake che e liMkane potAnA jIvana dvArA batAvI ApyuM e ja zuM enA jIvananI moTAmAM moTI siddhi nahotI? enA jIvananI sAcI mahattA samajavA mATe eTaluM zuM basa nathI ? ("gulAmono muktidAtAmAMthI) mahAna mAnavI (abrAhma liMkana) 99

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12 morArajI desAI bhAratanA bhUtapUrva vaDApradhAna zrI morArajI desAIno 99 varSanI uMmare muMbaImAM tA. 10mI eprila 1995nA roja svargavAsa thayo. emaNe 10mA varSamAM praveza karyo, paraMtu zatAbdI pUrI karI zakyA nahi. temanI niyamitatA ane zArIrika svasthatA jotAM evI AzA hatI ke teo avazya 100 varSa pUrAM karaze. paraMtu kudaratanuM karavuM kaMIka juduM ja hoya che. jemanA nakhamAMya roga nahoto evA morArajIbhAI acAnaka tAvamAM paTakAyA ane tAvanI asara magaja para pahoMcI. bebhAna avasthAmAM temaNe jasaloka hospiTalamAM deha choDyo. jasaloka hospiTalamAM chellA divasomAM emane jovA mATe mulAkAtIone javA devAmAM AvatA nahotA. Ama paNa teo bhAnamAM na hatA eTale emane aMdara jovA javAno vizeSa artha paNa nahoto. morArajIbhAInA pArthiva dehane, emanI bhAvanA anusAra amadAvAdamAM sAbaramatI nadInA taTamAM aneka mahAnubhAvonI upasthitimAM agnisaMskAra karavAmAM AvyA. prakhara gAMdhIvAdI, nirdabha, satyaniSTha, mUlyaniSTha, sAdhanazuddhinA AgrahI, kuzaLa vahIvaTakartA, svataMtra vicAraka, bhagavadgItAnA upAsaka karmayogI evA sva. morArajI desAInI 99 varSanI sakriya kArakirdInA ghaTanAsabhara jIvana vize ghaNuM lakhI zakAya. emanuM vistRta jIvanacaritra lakhAyuM che. ahIM to mAtra emanA jIvananAM keTalAMka pAsAM vize aMgata smaraNo sAthe lakhavuM che. bhAratanI AjhAdInA jaMgamAM bhAga lenAra netAomAM chellAM pacAsa varSamAM eka mAtra morArajIbhAI ja evI vyakti che ke jemane badhI kakSAno sattAvAra anubhava 10 2 caritradarzana

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hato. javAharalAlano sIdho vaDApradhAna tarIkeno anubhava hato. rAjyakakSAno kazo anubhava nahoto. tevI ja rIte indirA gAMdhIne paNa rAjyakakSAno anubhava nahoto. rAjIva gAMdhIne to dhArAsabhA ke lokasabhAnA sabhya tarIkeno ke rAjya ke kendranA koI pradhAna tarIkeno paNa anubhava nahoto. morArajIbhAIne dhArAsabhAnA sabhya tarIke, kendranA pradhAna tarIke, nAyaba vaDApradhAna tarIke ane vaDApradhAna tarIkeno anubhava hato. ATalA badhA prakAranAM sattAsthAna 52 2helI haju sudhI koI eka vyakti hoya to te morArajIbhAI desAI che. vaLI, teone briTiza zAsanakALa daramiyAna briTiza rAjyataMtramAM paNa DepyuTI kalekTara, provinziyala oNphisara, parsanala esisTanTa Tu kalekTara vagere prakAranAM sattAsthAnono anubhava hato ane AjhAdI pUrve 1937mAM je homarUla prAMtika sa2kAranI racanA thayelI temAM bALAsAheba khe2sAheba sAthe emaNe mahesUla khAtAnA pradhAna tarIke kAmagIrI bajAvI hatI. sarakArI sattAsthAno uparAMta kaoNMgresa pakSamAM paNa emaNe gujarAta pradezanA kaoNMgresanA maMtrI tarIke, kArobArI samitinA sabhya tarIke, kAmarAja yojanA heThaLa rASTranA agraNI kAryakara netA tarIke ema vividha prakAranI kAmagIrI bajAvI hatI. morArajIbhAIe 1930mAM sAbaramatI jelamAM, 1931mAM nAsika jelamAM, 1933mAM yaravaDA jelamAM, 1941mAM sAbaramatI ane ya2vaDA jelamAM, 1942mAM yaravaDA jelamAM ane AjhAdI pachI indirA gAMdhInA kaTokaTInA zAsanakALa daramiyAna 1975mAM sohanA jelamAM rahIne jelajIvanano paNa ghaNo anubhava lIdho hato. morArajIbhAI sakriya rAjakAraNamAMthI nivRtta thayA tyAre zrI jaina yuvaka saMghanI vasaMta vyAkhyAnamALAmAM vyAkhyAna ApavA mATe padhAryA hatA. tyAre vyAkhyAnamALAnA pramukha tarIke meM emanI A badhI siddhio dAkhavatAM evI icchA ane AzA vyakta karI hatI ke, have ekamAtra rASTrapatinuM pada morArajIbhAIne maLavuM bAkI che ane sakriya rAjakAraNamAMthI teo nivRtta thayA che tyAre A pada paNa temane maLaze evI AzA vyakta karuM chuM.' paraMtu morArajIbhAIne e pada maLyuM nahi. maLyuM hota to rASTranI zobhA vadhata. eTaluM sAruM thayuM ke emane potAnI hayAtImAM ja 'bhArataratna'no ilkAba maLyo hato. pAkistAne paNa emane sarvocca ilkAba nizAne pAkistAna' Apyo hato. bhAratanA duzmana gaNAtA rASTramAM paNa morArajIbhAInI suvAsa kevI hatI enI e pratIti karAve che. bhArata ane pAkistAna ema baMne rASTronA sarvocca ilkAba meLavanAra eka mAtra vyakti hoya to morArajIbhAI ja che. morArajIbhAIne najIkathI maLavAno sauthI pahelo prasaMga mane 1952mAM prApta mocarajI desAI 101

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thayo hato. tyAre teo muMbaI rAjyanA mukhyamaMtrI banyA hatA. te varSe huM belagAmamAM lazkarI tAlIma levA gayo hato. belagAma tyAre muMbaI rAjyamAM hatuM. morArajIbhAI rAjyanA mukhyamaMtrI tarIke belagAmanA miliTarI senTaranI mulAkAta lenAra hatA. teo amArI pareDanI salAmI lenAra hatA ane miliTarI mesamAM amArI sAthe bhojana lenAra hatA. AjhAdI pachI haju thoDA ja varSa pasAra thayAM hatAM. briTizaronI lazkarI eTikeTa haju cAlu ja hatI. eTikeTano mukhya prazna A hato: miliTarI mesamAM ke pareDanA medAnamAM koI paNa vyakti caMpala paherIne jaI na zake. bUTamojAM paherIne ja javuM paDe. vaLI koI paNa vyakti mesamAM bhojana mATe dhotiyuM ke pAyajAmo paherIne na jaI zake, penTa ja paheravuM paDe. morArajIbhAI dhotiyuM ane caMpala paherIne AvavAnA hatA. vaDApradhAna javAharalAla bUTa paheratA ane dhotiyuM nahotA paheratA. emanAthI lakarI oNphisaro TevAI gayA hatA, paraMtu dhotiyuM ane caMpalathI haju TevAyA nahotA. miliTarImAM eTikeTano eTale ke ziSTAcArano bhaMga e ghaNI gaMbhIra bAbata gaNAya. vastutaH guno ja lekhAya. morArajIbhAI mATe bUTamojAM ane lazkarI yuniphorma taiyAra rAkhavAmAM AvyAM hatAM, paraMtu e kahevAnI hiMmata koNa kare ane jo teo na mAne to zuM thAya? amArA kamAnDiMga ophisara A bAbatamAM je bahu gussAmAM hatA te chellI ghaDIe DhIlA paDI gayA. amArI ophisaronI miTiMgamAM temaNe jAhera karyuM ke, "ApaNAthI kazuM kahI zakAze nahi. eTikeTano bhaMga thAya te joyA karavo paDaze." morArajIbhAI mulAkAta mATe AvyA. teo prasannavadana hatA, paNa amArA kamAnDiMga ophisaranA caherA para kRtrima prasannatA hatI. bIjA ophisaro paNa jhaMkhavANA paDI gayA hatA. morArajIbhAIe amArI sAthe dhotiyuM ane caMpala paherIne bhojana lIdhuM. belagAmanA miliTarI senTaramAM pahelI vAra eTikeTanA bhaMgarUpa aitihAsika ghaTanA banI gaI. bhojana pachI ame badhA ophisaro beThakanA khaMDamAM beThA. temanI sAthe vAta karavAnI mane paNa taka maLI. oNphisaramAM gujarAtI tarIke huM eka ja hato. huM lazkarI tAlIma lauM chuM e jANIne emane AnaMda thayo. vaLI huM jaina chuM e jANIne emane Azcarya thayuM. khAnapAnamAM mane kaMI muzkelI nathI paDatI ane mane yogya zAkAhAra maLI rahe che e jANIne emane saMtoSa thayo hato. huM kaI kolejamAM kayo viSaya bhaNAvuM chuM te paNa emaNe mane pUchyuM. thoDI miniTa mATenI A amArI anaupacArika vAto emane mATe to anekamAMnI eka hatI. emane yAda paNa na rahe, paNa pacIsa varSanI vaye mane rAjyanA mukhyamaMtrI sAthe vAta karavAnI taka maLI e mAre mATe 102 caritradarzana

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yAdagAra ghaTanA hatI. alabatta, tyAra pachI to emane maLavAnuM ghaNI vAra thayuM hatuM. morArajIbhAIne jyotiSamAM UMDI zraddhA hatI. ImarajansI pahelAM eka vakhata amArI sAthenI vAtacItamAM temaNe kahyuM hatuM ke, pote jarUra bhAratanA vaDApradhAna thavAnA che. potAnI janmakuMDaLImAM evo yoga che. morArajIbhAInI e vAta sAcI paDI hatI. vaDApradhAnanA padethI nivRtta thayA pachI eka vakhata morArajIbhAIne mAre maLavAnuM thayuM tyAre emaNe vAtavAtamAM kahyuM hatuM ke jyotiSanA AdhAre indirA gAMdhI karatAM pote vadhu jIvavAnA che. indirA gAMdhI tyAre pharIthI vaDApradhAna thayAM hatAM. indirA gAMdhInI hatyA thaI ane teo morArajIbhAI karatAM vahelAM vidAya thayAM, paraMtu e hatyA na thaI hota topaNa indirA gAMdhInuM AyuSya lAMbuM nathI evuM morArajIbhAI mAnatA hatA. eka vakhata vAtacItamAM emaNe indirA gAMdhIno nirdeza karatAM kahyuM ke, indirA gAMdhI potAne thayelA koI gaMbhIra roganI jAherAta thavA detAM nathI, paraMtu teo niyamita vadhu pramANamAM korTijhanano Dojha le che. te parathI lAge che ke emanuM zarIra vadhu samaya TakI zakaze nahi. alabatta, indirA gAMdhInI hatyA thaI eTale emanA svAthya vizenI A vAtanI to mAtra aTakaLa ja karavAnI rahe che. morArajIbhAIne kizorAvasthAthI ja nisargopacAramAM zraddhA hatI. teo javalle ja mAMdA paDyA haze. temaNe kyAreya elopathInI davAo lIdhI nahotI. temaNe kyAreya baLiyA-achabaDA mATe rasI mukAvI nahotI. e vakhate AkhI duniyAmAM koI deza rasI mukAvyA vagaranI game tevI moTI vyakti hoya to paNa tene potAnA dezamAM praveza ApatI nahotI te vakhate paNa morArajIbhAI rasI mukAvyA vagara duniyAnA ghaNA dezomAM jaI AvyA hatA. emanA pratyenA mAnanA kAraNe AvI chUTa emane apAtI hatI. morArajIbhAIne zivAbumAM ghaNI zraddhA hatI. jIvanabhara emaNe e prayoga karyo. temaNe yuvAna vayathI brahmacaryavrata aMgIkAra karI lIdhuM hatuM, ethI paNa emanuM svAthya sAruM rahetuM hatuM. teo game tevI paristhitimAM asvastha thatA nahi. sadAcArI haMmezAM nirbhaya hoya che. morArajIbhAInA jIvanamAM evI nirbhayatA hatI. morArajIbhAI potAnAM dainika kAryomAM niyamitatA cIvaTapUrvaka rAkhatA. roja savAranA cAra vAge UThI jatA. vyAyAma ke yogAsano karatA, snAna mATe teo sAbuno upayoga karatA nahIM, paNa zarIra barAbara coLI-ghasIne snAna karatA. emanA paga paNa atyaMta svaccha rahetA. nevuM varSanI uMmare paNa emanA paganA nakha lAla lAla rahetA. jema snAnanI bAbatamAM tema bhojananI bAbatamAM paNa teo niyamita hatA. savAre dasanA Takore teo jamavA besatA. game tyAre game te prasaMge javAnuM morArajI desAI - 103

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hoya, teo potAnA jamavAnA samayanI spaSTatA karatA. je koI e samaya sAcavI zake tenuM ja nimaMtraNa svIkAratA. ghATakoparamAM eka vakhata emanA pramukhapade sabhA yojAI hatI. sabhA pachI zrI durlabhajI khetANIne tyAM emane jamavAnuM hatuM. durlabhajIbhAIe cImanalAla cakubhAIne tathA mane nimaMtraNa ApyuM hatuM. sabhAmAM pahelA be-traNa vaktAo lAMbuM bolyA, paraMtu morArajIbhAIe to potAno samaya thayo eTale bIjA vaktAone paDatA mUkI potAnuM vaktavya cAlu karI dIdhuM ane tarata sabhA pUrI karIne durlabhajIne tyAM pahoMcI gayA hatA. AhAramAM morajIbhAI lasaNa niyamita letA. roja lasaNanI dasabAra kAcI kaLI teo khAtA, ethI potAnuM svAthya sAruM rahe che ema kahetA. teo dUdha gAyanuM pItA, mAkhaNa gAyanA dUdhanuM khAtA. pote sattA para pradhAna ke vaDApradhAna pade rahyA hatA tyAre emanA maMtrI dareka sthaLe agAuthI sUcanA ApI sthAnika kAryakartAo pAse A badhI sagavaDa karAvatA. mane yAda che ke eka vakhata naDiyAdamAM eka kAryakramamAM morArajIbhAI AvavAnA hatA tyAre AgalA divase rAtre agiyAra vAge kAryakartAone yAda AvatAM gAyanA dUdhanA mAkhaNa mATe doDAdoDa karI mUkI hatI. morArajIbhAI kyAreka AkarA svabhAvanA banI jatA. kyAreka haThIlA ane utAvaLiyA paNa banatA. ema chatAM lokomAM ane khAsa karIne gujarAtanA gujarAtIomAM temane mATe mAnabharyuM sthAna hatuM. temane mATe "sarvocca' zabda rUDha thaI gayo hato. paraMtu jUnA muMbaI rAjyamAM jyAre gujarAta ane mahArASTra sAthe hatAM tyAre DAMganA praznanI bAbatamAM morArajIbhAIe abhiprAya ApavAnI je utAvaLa karI hatI tene lIdhe gujarAtanI prajA nArAja thaI hatI. muMbaI rAjyamAM jyAre bI. jI. khera mukhyamaMtrI hatA ane morArajIbhAI nAyaba mukhya maMtrI hatA e vakhate kheranI sAthe morArajIbhAIe DAMga jillAnI UDatI mulAkAta lIdhI ane be-cAra gAma pAsethI jIpamAM pasAra thatA loko sAthe vAtacIta karI ane te loko marAThImAM bolyA eTale morArajIbhAIe muMbaImAM AvIne jAherAta karI ke DAMganI bhASA marAThI che. morArajIbhAInI A jAherAta utAvaLI ane abhyAsa vagaranI hatI. ene lIdhe muMbaI rAjyanA vibhAjana vakhate gujarAtane ThIka ThIka sahana karavuM paDyuM hatuM. DAMga jillAnA netAo sva. choTubhAI nAyaka ane bIjAo sAthe DAMgamAM jaIne meM A aMge vAtacIta karI hatI tyAre kherasAhebanA adhikArIoe loko pAse marAThImAM bolAvavAnuM kevI rIte nATaka goThavyuM hatuM tenI badhI vigata jANavA maLI hatI. DAMga mahArASTramAM jAya nahi te mATe teone keTalo badho pratikAra karavo paDyo hato ane gAmegAma jaIne pracAra karavo paDyo hato tenI kaDIbaddha vigato 1ja A caritradarzana

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jANavA maLI hatI. morArajIbhAI muMbaI rAjyanA mukhya pradhAna banyA tyAre emanI kIrtino madhyAhana jhaLahaLato hato. paraMtu emanA AkhAbolA svabhAvane kAraNe keTalAMka vartuLomAM teo aLakhAmaNA thayA hatA. bIjI bAju, morArajIbhAI pote svaccha hovA chatAM emanA nAmano durupayoga thavA lAgyo hato. thoDeghaNe aMze morArajIbhAI pote paNa e vize jANatA haze. AvI vAto rAjadvArI vartuLomAM prasaryA vagara rahe nahi. potAnAM sagAMsaMbaMdhIo dvArA uThAvAtA sattAnA geralAbho keTalIka vAra gerakAyadesaranA nathI hotA, paraMtu ethI netAnI pratibhAne jhAMkhapa to lAge ja che ane lAMbe gALe evI vAto netAnI pragatine rUMdhe che. morArajIbhAInA jIvanamAM paNa evI vAdaLI AvIne pasAra thaI gaI hatI ema manAya che. morArajIbhAInI zakti jotAM naherue 1956mAM emane kendramAM pradhAna banAvyA hatA. tyAre siniyoriTImAM emano naMbara cotho hato. naheru pachI maulAnA AjhAda ane goviMda vallabha paMta hatA ane cothe sthAne morArajIbhAI hatA. maulAnA AjhAda ane goviMda vallabha paMtanAM avasAna thatAM morArajIbhAI bIje naMbare AvyA. naherune e gamyuM nahi, kAraNa ke pote na hoya tyAre morArajIbhAI vaDApradhAna bane. naherunI icchA potAnI gAdI indirAne soMpavAnI hatI. eTale naherue kAmarAja yojanAnI cAlabAjI UbhI karI ane pakSanA saMgaThana mATe pote sattA parathI nivRtta thAya che evo daMbha karI pote sattA para rahyA ane morArajIbhAIne dUra karyA. tyArathI morArajIbhAInAM vaLatAM pANI jaNAyAM. pachI to lAlabahAdura zAstrI ane chAndarA gAMdhI vaDApradhAna banyAM. chevaTe morArajIbhAIe nAyaba vaDApradhAnanuM pada svIkAryuM. paraMtu gAMdhIjInI janmazatAbdI prasaMge harijanane rASTrapati banAvavA ane e pada jagajIvanarAmane ApavuM evo Agraha indirA gAMdhIno hato ane enI sAme morArajIbhAIno virodha hato ke gajIvanarAma dasa varSathI potAno Inkama Teksa bharatA nathI. evI vyaktine rASTrapati banAvavAmAM bhAratanI lokazAhIne lAMchana lAgaze, mATe saMjIva reDIne rASTrapati banAvavA joIe. A muddA upara chevaTe kaoNMgresamAM bhaMgANa paDyuM. morArajIbhAInuM nANAkhAtuM indirA gAMdhIe chInavI lIdhuM ane chevaTe morArajIbhAIe nAyaba vaDApradhAnanuM pada choDyuM. A jhaghaDAmAM rASTrapatinA pada mATe phAvI gayA vI. vI. gIrI. morArajIbhAI svastha rahetA. potAne mATe jAgela game tevA vivAda vakhate paNa teo potAnI samatulA gumAvatA nahi. paraMtu potAnA e ja saguNane teo kyAreka niSpharatAnI koTi sudhI laI jatA tyAre lokomAM tenA gherA pratyAghAta paDatA. morArajI desAI - 105

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saMyukta mahArASTranA AMdolana vakhate ke mahArASTra ane gujarAtanA vibhAjana vakhate ke suvarNadhArAnA virodha sAme sonIoe karelA AMdolana vakhate morArajIbhAInI samatulA niSThuratAmAM pariNamI hatI evo je AkSepa thAya che emAM vajUda nathI ema nahi kahI zakAya. kaTokaTI vakhate mo2A2jIbhAIne jelamAM pUravAmAM AvyA. jelamAM jatAMnI sAthe ja jelanA sattAvALA AgaLa temaNe potAno nirNaya jAhera karI dIdho ke pote phaLAhAra sivAya bIjo kazo AhAra leze nahi. annAhAra choDIne phaLAhAra tarapha vaLavAno vicAra to temanA manamAM ghaNAM varSothI cAlato hato. paraMtu te amalamAM mukAto na hato. kaTokaTI daramiyAna jela nivAsamAM e vicArane amalamAM mUkavAnI sArI taka maLI gaI. Ama to annAhAra choDI phLAhAra tarapha vaLavAnI ghaTanA bahu moTI na gaNAya. paraMtu tenI pAchaLa bIjo hetu paNa rahelo hato. indirA gAMdhIe kokaTI jAhera karI ane jya prakAzajI jevA lokanetAne paNa jelamAM pUryAM. temanI sattAlolupatA ane kaThoratA keTalI badhI hatI te jaNAI AvatI hatI. potAnI sattA TakAvI rAkhavA mATe je vyakti AvuM kare te kaI hada sudhI na jAya e kahI zakAya nahi. eTale morArajIbhAIe annAhAra choDI phaLAhAra svIkAryo. e nirNaya samayocita hato, kAraNa ke phLAhAra mATe morArajIbhAIe evo nirNaya karyo hato ke potAne mATe lAvavAmAM AvatAM phLa barAbara sArI rIte jAte ja dhovAM. charI paNa be vakhata jAte ja ghasIghasIne dhovI. phaLa jAte ja sudhAravAM ane pahelAM eka nAnI kaTakI cAkhI jovI ane pachI ja khAvuM. A badhuM emanI agamacetI ja sUcavatI hatI. morArajIbhAI rAjakAraNanA puruSa hatA. sakriya rAjakAraNamAM jemaNe saphaLa thavuM hoya temaNe duniyAbharamAM banatI ghaTanAothI rojeroja paricita rahevuM joIe. e mATenuM mukhya sAdhana te vartamAnapatro che. morArajIbhAIe jIvanabha2 roja savAre dainika chApAMo vigatavAra vAMcI javAnI potAnI pravRttine kyAreya choDI na hatI. briTiza zAsana daramiyAna jelamAM paNa teo chApAMo niyamita vAMcatA. indirA gAMdhInA kaTokaTIkALa daramiyAna paNa temaNe chApAMo vAMcavA mATe Agraha rAkhyo hato ane jo potAne chApAMo ApavAmAM nahi Ave to te pote upavAsa 52 Utaraze evI dhamakI paNa ApI hatI ane tarata chApAMo cAlu karAvyAM hatAM. morArajIbhAI A pravRttine lIdhe ja haMmezAM mAhitIthI susajja rahetA. ene lIdhe ja rAjakAraNamAM koI vyakti emanI pAsethI geralAbha laI zakatI nahi. AkhA jagatanA rAjakAraNa vize teo vAMcatA paraMtu temAM nirNaya ke abhiprAya svataMtra 106 * caritradarzana

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rIte vicArIne ja ApatA. AthI ja dezamAM ke videzamAM patrakAra pariSada bhAI hoya tyAre patrakAro morArajIbhAIne haMphAve enA karatAM morArajIbhAI patrakArone haMphAve evI ghaTanA vadhu banatI. patrakAra pariSadamAM paNa morArajIbhAInI pratipraznanI zailI vadhu jANItI hatI. patrakArane sIdho uttara ApavAne badale e viSaya ane bAbatane aMge teo patrakA2ne sAmo evo prazna pUchatA ke patrakArane cUpa thaI javuM paDatuM. A sajjatA kaMI jevItevI nahotI. vigatonI mAhitI to hovI joIe. paraMtu dareka prazna aMge potAnI vicakSaNa buddhithI kareluM ciMtana paNa hovuM joIe. AthI ja morArajIbhAI sAthe patrakAronI pariSada yAdagAra banI jatI. kaTokaTI pachI teo bhAratanA vaDApradhAna banyA ane amerikAnI mulAkAte gayA hatA tyAre tyAM AgaLa patrakAronI samakSa ane bIjA rAjadvArI puruSo samakSa emaNe je udbodhana karyuM hatuM te eTaluM badhuM sacoTa, mArmika ane gauravavALuM hatuM ke jayaprakAza nArAyaNe emane bhAratamAMthI phona karIne kahyuM hatuM ke, tamArA jevA bhAratanA vaDApradhAnane mATe ame kharekhara bahu gaurava anubhavIe chIe.' jyaprakAza nArAyaNa jevI taTastha, dezabhakta mahAna vyaktie morArajIbhAI mATe uccArelA AvA zabdo morArajIbhAI mATenA eka moTA pramANapatra jevA banI rahe che. morArajIbhAI vaDApradhAna hatA ane e vakhate muMbaI AvyA hatA tyAre sva. cImanalAla cakubhAI emane maLavA javAnA hatA. cImanabhAI mane paNa sAthe laI gayA hatA. dasa miniTano samaya Apyo hato. khAsa koI kAma nahotuM. mAtra aupacArika maLavAnuM ja hatuM. ame morArajIbhAInA nivAsasthAne gayA. AgaLanA mulAkAtI bahAra nIkaLyA eTale amane bolAvyA. vaDApradhAna pada upara ArUDha thayA te pachI morArajIbhAIne pahelI vAra cImanabhAI maLatA hatA. cImanabhAIe mAro paricaya karAvyo. pachI rAjakAraNanI vAto cAlI. caraNasiMha, rAjanArAyaNa, jyaoNrja pharnAnDisa vagere vize bolatAM morArajIbhAI nikhAlasa chatAM sAvadha rahetA jaNAyA hatA. mAre to kazuM bolavAnuM hatuM ja nahi, be moTA mANasanI vAtacItano dora kevI rIte cAle che te ja huM to joyA karato hato. samaya thayo eTale ame UbhA thayA. morArajIbhAI rUmanA bAraNA sudhI vaLAvavA AvyA, kA2Na ke cImanabhAI ane teo jUnA mitra hatA. cImanabhAIe agAu 'janmabhUmi'mAM, 'prabuddha jIvana'mAM morArajIbhAInI ghaNI TIkA karI hatI. paNa morArajIbhAInI vAtamAM eno aNasAra sudhdhAM nahoto. bahAra nIkaLIne cImanabhAIe mane kahyuM, 'tame joyuM, morArajIbhAInI AMkho keTalI badhI zArpa che ? emanI AMkhomAM eka prakAranuM maeNgneTijhama che evuM mane haMmezAM lAgyA karyuM che.' morArajIbhAInI vedhaka dRSTi emanA vyaktitvamAM umero ? morArajI desAI 107

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karatI hatI e tyAre jovA maLyuM hatuM. I. sa. 1979nA julAI mahinAmAM brAjhilanA rIo-DI-jAneromAM AMtararASTrIya lekhaka piraSadamAM bhAga laIne huM mArAM patnI sAthe ArjenTInAnA pATanagara bonojha AirisamAM hato, tyAre eka mitrane tyAM jamavA ame gayAM hatAM. ame pahoMcyuM tyAre e mitre tarata ja kahyuM ke, 'DaoN. zAha ! tamArA dezanA eka AghAtajanaka samAcAra che. tamArA vaDApradhAna morArajIbhAI desAIe vaDApradhAna tarIke rAjInAmuM ApyuM che.' ame A samAcAra sAcA mAnI na zakyAM, kAraNa ke lokasabhAmAM janatA pakSanI bahumatI hatI. paraMtu amArA yajamAne jyAre chApuM vaMcAvyuM tyAre e sAcA samAcAra svIkAravA paDyA. amane e vAta jANIne duHkha thayuM. bhAratanI A eka kamanasIba ghaTanA che evuM amAre yajamAnane kahevuM paDyuM. ame emane tyAM jamavA gayAM hatAM, paraMtu amane jamavAnuM bhAvyuM na hatuM. bhAratanA vaDApradhAna banyA pachI janatA pakSamAM vadhatI jatI khaTapaTone kAraNe caraNasiMha ane rAjanArAyaNanI bAbatamAM morArajIbhAI jevI aDaga vyaktie paNa jyAre namatuM jokhyuM tyAre morArajIbhAI pahelAM karatAM have kaMIka kUNA paDyA che evI chApa lokomAM paDI hatI. ane e chApa sAcI hatI. khuda morArajIbhAIe pote paNa e vAtano svIkAra karyo hato. vaDApradhAnanA padano tyAga karyA pachI teo muMbaI AvyA hatA, ane paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM vyAkhyAna ApavA mATe padhAryA hatA tyAre temaNe pote ja potAnA vaktavyamAM kahyuM hatuM ke 'satyakathananI bAbatamAM pahelAM huM jeTalo Akaro hato teTalo have huM rahyo nathI. mArA potAnA svabhAvamAM paNa have keTaluMka parivartana AvyuM che. anubhave te mane zikhavADyuM che. keTalIka bAbatomAM satyakathana karatAM mauna vadhAre upayogI ane asarakAraka jaNAyuM che.' morArajIbhAI jyAM sudhI sattA upara hatA tyAM sudhI satya kaDavuM hoya topaNa te bolavAnA AgrahI hatA. ethI vakhatovakhata ghaNA lokone emaNe dubhAvyA hatA. paraMtu vicAro ane anubhavanI paripakvatAthI emane samajAyuM hatuM ke kaTu satya jeTaluM hita kare che tenA karatAM ahita vadhAre kare che. jaina yuvaka saMghanI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM vyAkhyAna ApatAM emaNe potAnI A bhUlano ekarAra karyo hato. What life has taught me' nAmanA potAnA lakhANamAM emaNe Avo ekarAra karatAM lakhyuM che, "I had first a notion that truth cannot always be said pleasantly and did not act up to this advice of the sages, as I thought it was not possible to do so. About 18 years ago I realised that the sages who had prescribed or who had given 108 * citradarzana

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this advice were much wiser than me and this realisation made me think about how to act on the dictum." morArajIbhAImAM satya vizenI A dRSTi moDI moDI paNa AvI tethI emanAM chellAM ghaNAM varSo zAMti ane samatvanA puruSArtharUpa banI rahyAM. A daSTi emanA tapatA madhyAhunakALamAM khIlI hota to morArajIbhAI mATe je keTalAka vivAdo sarjAyA te na sarjAyA hota ane temanA mATenI lokacAhanA ghaNI vadhu hota. - indirA gAMdhInA zAsanakALa daramiyAna emanA putra saMjaya gAMdhI vagara hoddAe sarakArI sattAnAM sUtro potAnA hAthamAM letA hatA te pratye morArajIbhAI potAnI nApasaMdagI darzAvatA hatA ane kahetA hatA ke jo Ama ja cAlyA karaze to saMjaya gAMdhIne aMkuzamAM rAkhavAnuM indirA mATe bhAre thaI paDaze. saMjaya gAMdhInuM vimAnI akasmAtamAM mRtyu thayuM tyAre indirA gAMdhIe te sthaLe pahoMcIne tarata saMjayanI ghaDiyALa ane cAvI mATe tapAsa karI hatI ane te potAnA kabajAmAM laI lIdhI hatI. meM morArajIbhAIne e vize pUchyuM hatuM tyAre emaNe kahyuM hatuM ke, "evI vAta AvI che ke saMjayanI ghaDiyALamAM nAnuM TeparekorDara che ane enI aMdara svisa baeNnkanA ekAunTanA koDavarDa rAkhelA che. eTalA mATe indirA gAMdhIe te koInA hAthamAM na jAya tenI cIvaTa rAkhI hatI, paNa A mArI pAse AvelI vAta che. sAcuM zuM che te koNa kahI zake? muMbaImAM amArA zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha taraphathI yojAtI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM eka vakhata morArajIbhAI padhAryA hatA. tyAre meM emane mAruM pAsaporTanI pAMkhe' nAmanuM pustaka bheTa ApyuM hatuM. temaNe pustaka svIkAratAM kahyuM hatuM ke, "tame pustaka bheTa ApyuM che te svIkAruM chuM, paNa huM te kaMI vAMcavAno nathI. mane eTalo TAIma paNa nahi maLe. meM kahyuM ke, "ApanA jevA ATalI badhI javAbadArI ane ATalA badhA kAmavALA mANasane mAruM pustaka vAMcavAno samaya na maLe te huM samajuM chuM tema chatAM ApanI pAse mAruM pustaka hoya eTalI paNa mArA mATe AnaMda ane saMtoSanI vAta che.' - tyAra bAda keTalAka vakhata pachI morArajIbhAIne maLavA javAnuM banyuM. huM gharamAM aMdara gayo tyAre temaNe kahyuM ke, huM tamAruM pustaka "pAsaporTanI pAMkhe' vAMcI rahyo chuM. Ama to vAMcavuM nahotuM paNa tame AmAM "gAtAM phaLa' nAmano prasaMga lakhyo che te vize jijJAsA thaI. te vAMcyA pachI mane rasa paDyo ane ema karatAM karatAM aDadhuM pustaka to vaMcAI gayuM. have te vAMcI pUruM karIza." morArajIbhAI jevI vyakti mAruM pustaka rasapUrvaka vAMce e vAta ja mArA morArajI desAI - 109

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mATe dhanyatAno anubhava karAve evI hatI. morArajIbhAI zistapAlananA kaDaka AgrahI hatA. huM to koMgresano sainika chuM' evuM teo tyAre ghaNI vAra kahetA. pote sattA para hatA tyAre samayanI pAbaMdhI emane pALavI paDatI. paraMtu vaDApradhAnanA padethI nivRtta thayA pachI muMbaImAM potAnA nivAsasthAne rahetA hatA tyAre emane maLavA sahelAIthI jaI zakAtuM. paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM nimaMtraNa ApavAne nimitte, viSaya, tArIkha vagere nakkI karavA mATe mAre emane maLavA javAnuM thatuM. teo kahetA ke "e mATe mulAkAtano samaya nakkI karavAnI AvazyakatA nathI. game tyAre ghare AvI zako cho. huM Akho divasa gharamAM ja houM chuM." AvA moTA netAno vadhu samaya ApaNe na bagADavo joIe ema samajI huM UThavAnI utAvaLa koI vAra karato to teo kahetA ke "tamAre kAma hoya to jajo. paraMtu mArA samayanI ciMtA karIne utAvaLa karavAnI jarUra nathI. temanI sAthe aneka viSayonI vAtacIta thaI zakatI, kAraNa ke temanuM vAcana ghaNuM vizALa hatuM. eka vakhata muMbaImAM vyAkhyAnamALAmAM biralA kIDA kendranA haoNlamAM mAruM ane morArajIbhAInuM ema be vyAkhyAno sAthe hatAM. mAruM vyAkhyAna zarU thavAne vAra hatI. morArajIbhAI haju AvyA nahotA. bhaktisaMgIta zarU thaI gayuM hatuM. evAmAM maMca upara acAnaka mane beThAM beThAM cakkara AvI gayAM. rAtanA ujAgarAnI asara haze. vyAkhyAnamALAnA AyojananI ciMtA paNa kharI. vaLI morArajIbhAIno samaya sAcavavAnI javAbadArI paNa hatI. tarata huM bhAnamAM Avyo. mane bahAra laI javAmAM Avyo. kophI pIdhI ane svastha thayo. pachI mAruM vyAkhyAna ApyuM. daramiyAna morArajIbhAI maMca upara niyata samaye AvI pahoMcyA. koIke emane mane cakkara AvyAnI vAta karI. morArajIbhAIe mane pUchyuM, kema zuM thayuM ? kema cakkara AvyAM ?" meM hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM, 'tamArI bIkane lIdhe cakkara AvyAM. emaNe kahyuM, "mArI ATalI bIka lAge che ? huM kaMI eTalo bihAmaNo nathI. AvuM khoTuM na bolo.' morArajIbhAInA vyaktitvanAM vividha pAsAM che. emanI rAjakIya kArakirdImAM UjaLI ane nabaLI ema beya bAju che. He is the most misunderstood politician evuM paNa kahevAyuM che. tema chatAM emanI kahelI ane karelI bAbato keTalI sAcI hatI e to samaya ja puravAra karI zakaze. bhAvi itihAsakAra morArajIbhAIne vadhu sAro nyAya ApI zakaze. morArajIbhAInA yatkiMcit saMparkamAM AvavAnuM mAre thayuM ane huM mAruM sadbhAgya samajuM chuM. emanA puNyAtmAne zraddhAMjali arpI chuM. (vaMdanIya hRdayasparzamAMthI) 110 caritradarzana

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G8 paramAnaMdabhAI kApaDiyA zrI paramAnaMda kuMvarajI kApaDiyAe zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanA mukhya sUtradhAra tarIke pacIsa karatAM vadhu varSa sudhI kArya karyuM hatuM. teo eka pratibhAzALI ciMtanazIla lekhaka ane samAjasudhAraka hatA. 78 varSanI uMmare muMbaImAM temanuM avasAna thayuM hatuM. paramAnaMdabhAInuM sahaja smaraNa thatAM ja najara sAme khilakhilATa hasato eka prasana, praphullita cahero taravare che. paramAnaMdabhAInuM vyaktitva ja eTaluM badhuM tejasvI ane prabhAvazALI hatuM ke emanA saMparkamAM AvanAra vyakti temane bhUlI na zake. paramAnaMdabhAI eTale AjIvana saudaryopAsaka. jIvanamAM ane prakRtimAM jyAM jyAM suMdaratA dekhAya tyAM tyAM paramAnaMdabhAI tenI kadara karyA vagara rahI na zake. prakRtinAM vividha sauMdaryasthaLo najare nihALavAno temane bhAre zokha hato. bIjI bAju jIvanamAM paNa nAnA bALakathI mAMDIne koImAM paNa saguNanI suMdaratA jaNAya tyAM paramAnaMdabhAI teno svIkAra-prazaMsA mATe haMmezAM atyaMta utsuka hoya. paramAnaMdabhAI potAnI yuvAnInA divasomAM ja mahAtmA gAMdhIjInA nikaTanA saMparkamAM AvelA. eTale emanA samagra jIvana upara gAMdhIjInI prabaLa asara paDelI. gAMdhIjI sAthe kyAreka temane patra-vyavahAra paNa. thayelo. gAMdhIjI uparAMta kAkA kAlelakara ane paMDita sukhalAlajI sAthe paNa temane ghaniSTha saMbaMdha hato ane e baMne tattvaciMtakonI jIvanalakSI vicArasaraNInI prabaLa asara paNa paramAnaMdabhAInAM jIvana ane kArya upara paDelI. kAkA kAlelakaranA sUcanathI ja paramAnaMdabhAIe jaina yuvaka saMghanA mukhapatra "prabuddha jenanuM nAma badalIne "prabuddha jIvana' rAkheluM ane paramAnaMdabhAI kApaDiyA para 111

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jaina yuvaka saMgha sAmpradAyika, saMkucita DhAMcAmAM na rahe ane vyApaka udAra daSTivALo banI rahe te mATe saMghanuM sabhyapada jainetaro mATe paNa temaNe khulluM mUkyuM hatuM. paramAnaMdabhAIe Ama te samayanI yuvaka saMghanI mukhya be pravRtti prabuddha jIvana' ane paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALA dvArA ApaNA saMskArakSetre AgavuM pradAna karyuM hatuM. huM kaoNlejamAM abhyAsa karato hato tyAre emanA saMparkamAM Avelo. seMTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM adhyApaka thayo tyAra pachI yuvaka saMghanI kAryavAhaka samitinI sabhya thayA pachI emanA vizeSa gADha paricayamAM AvavAnuM banyuM. paramAnaMdabhAIno mArA pratye snehapUrvaka pakSapAta raheto. joke mArI badhI ja vAta sAthe teo saMmata thatA nahi. I. sa. 1955mAM sva. pU. puNyavijayajI mahArAjanA saMparkamAM AvyA pachI emanI preraNAthI meM maMdire darzana-pUjA karavA mATe javAnuM cAlu karyuM. vaLI tyArathI sAdhu-mahAtmAo pAse upAzrayamAM javAnuM paNa cAlu thayuM. paramAnaMdabhAIne kriyAkAMDa pratye thoDI aruci hatI, topaNa mArI te pratyenI ruci tarapha Adara darzAvatA hatA. kyAreka vaLI e vize mArI sAthe vicAravinimaya paNa karatA. koIka vakhata ame sAthe kyAMka jatAM hoIe ane rastAmAM maMdira Ave to teo maMdiramAM javA mATe mane Agraha karatA ane eTalo vakhata pote bahAra UbhA rahetA. koIka suMdara kalAtmaka maMdira hoya to temAM javAnuM temane mana thatuM, paraMtu jyAM bhIDa ane ghoMghATa hoya tyAM teo tA nahi. sAdhAraNa kriyAkAMDI sAdhuo pAse javAnuM temane gamatuM nahi. paraMtu koI tejasvI, vicArazIla, vastRtva chaTAvALA sAdhu pAse upAzrayamAM javuM hoya to teo mane sAthe laI jatA. paramAnaMdabhAIne pratimAno virodha na hato. potAnA gharamAM darzanane mATe eka suMdara pratimAM temaNe rAkhI hatI. paraMtu jaDa, aMdha, gatAnugatika rUDhAcAra pratye temane bhAre aNagamo hato. jaina yuvaka saMghe bALadIkSAno virodha karyo hato. "saMghanI sthApanAnA mULamAM paNa bALadIkSAnI vAta rahelI hatIparaMtu te divasomAM khAdI na paheratA jaina sAdhuo pratye gAMdhIjInA raMge raMgAyelA evA keTalAka kAryakartAone pUrvagraha baMdhAI gayo hato. A paristhitimAM AjhAdI pachInA samayamAM mArA jevo koI sabhya sAdhuonA saMparkamAM rahe e keTalAka vaDIla sabhyone na game tevI bAbata hatI. have to paristhiti ghaNI badalAI gaI che. khuda paramAnaMdabhAInA samayathI temAM parivartana AvavuM cAlu thaI gayeluM. paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM pU. puNyavijayajI mahArAja, pU. nagarAjajI mahArAja, pU. ujvaLakumArIjI jevAM vidvAna sAdhu-sAdhvIone vyAkhyAna mATe temaNe nimaMtraNa ApelAM. paramAnaMdabhAInI eka khAsiyata te vahelI savAre pharavA nIkaLyA pachI koIka 112 caritradarzana

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mitra ke saMbaMdhInA gharanI mulAkAta levAnI hatI. ghaNA mitrone kahetAM sAMbhaLyA che ke paramAnaMdabhAI savAre poNA sAta vAge acAnaka temanA ghare jaI caDyA hoya. aneka vakhata amane paNa emanI mulAkAtano lAbha maLyo che. vahelI savAre javAthI mANasa acUka maLe che. ane savArano samaya hovAthI jhAjhuM besavAnuM na hoya. e rIte paramAnaMdabhAI savAranA samaye potAnA sAmAjika saMbaMdho vinamra bhAve sAcavatA. emanAmAM koI moTAI na hatI. pote jAya che mATe sAmI vyaktie potAnA ghare AvavuM ja joIe evI badalAnI koI apekSA paNa teo rAkhatA nahi. mAre ane mArAM patnIe kaoNlejamAM bhaNAvavA mATe ATha vAge gharethI nIkaLI javAnuM hoya. paraMtu paramAnaMdabhAI amArA ghare Ave te amane bahu ja gamatuM ane emanI sAthe eka kalAkano je samaya maLe temAM ghaNI vAtacIta thatI. eka rIte joIe to paramAnaMdabhAIe judI judI pravRtti vize ane bAbato vize pratyakSa vinimaya karavA mATe A eka sArI rasama apanAvI hatI. eka divasa savAramAM paramAnaMdabhAI amArA ghera AvI caDyA. te divase emanA caherA para smita na hatuM. jotAM ja ame pUchyuM, "Aje kema bahu praphullita jaNAtA nathI ?" tarata temaNe kahyuM, "tamArI vAta sAcI che. gaIkAlathI huM bahu ciMtAmAM chuM. mArI moTI dIkarI madhurInI tabiyata sArI nathI. mAthAmAM kaMI gAMTha hoya tema jaNAya che. DaoNkTare kahyuM ke oparezana karAvavuM paDaze. tevA bhAre jokhamakAraka oparezana mATe bhAratamAM sagavaDa ke dAktaro nathI. laMDana javuM paDaze. madhurI mArI sauthI moTI dIkarI che. mane enA mATe vizeSa lAgaNI che. eTale mane bahu ciMtA rahe che." bolatAM bolatAM teo gaLagaLA thaI gayA. tyAra pachI thoDA divasamAM ja madhurIbahenane laMDana laI javAmAM AvyAM. oparezana thayuM. saphaLa nIvaDyuM, paraMtu eTalA divasomAM dara bIje divase savAre paramAnaMdabhAI amArA ghare AvI potAnI ciMtA vyakta karatA. emanA vatsala pitRhRdayanI tyAre savizeSa pratIti thayelI. I. sa. 1954nI sAla haze. prabuddha jIvanane 25 varSa pUrAM thayAM. yuvaka saMgha taraphathI bahu moTA pAyA upara A prasaMga UjavavAnuM nakkI thayuM hatuM. te divasomAM mArA sasarA sva. dIpacaMdabhAI nAdurasta tabiyatanA kAraNe harakisanadAsa haoNspiTalamAM hatA. dIpacaMdabhAI sAta varSa sudhI yuvaka saMghanA maMtrI rahyA hatA. paramAnaMdabhAInA te jUnA sAthIdAra. paramAnaMdabhAI hospiTalamAM thoDe thoDe divase emanI khabara jovA AvatA. eka divasa paramAnaMdabhAIe kahyuM, "dIpacaMdabhAI, paramAnaMdabhAI kApaDiyA 113

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prabuddha jIvanane 25 varSa pUrAM thayAM enI rajata yaMtInA kAryakramanuM sarasa Ayojana ApaNe karyuM che. A prasaMge bIjI paNa eka AnaMdanI vAta cAle che. keTalAka mitro mArI pAse AvyA hatA. teoe evo vicAra vyakta karyo che ke rUpiyA pacIsa hajAra ekaThA karavA ane prabuddha jIvana'nA taMtrI tarIke meM je kArya karyuM che tenI kadararUpe e thelI mane arpaNa karavI. huM e thelI rAkhIza nahi, paNa jaina yuvaka saMghane arpaNa karI daIza. tamane A vicAra kema lAge che ?" dIpacaMdabhAIe kahyuM, "paramAnaMdabhAI! mane A vicAra barAbara lAgato nathI. jaina yuvaka saMghanA itihAsamAM hoddA paranI vyaktine sabhyo thelI arpaNa kare evI ghaTanA haju banI nathI. eka vakhata jo ema banaze to khoTI ane TIkApAtra paraMparA cAlu thaze." paramAnaMdabhAIe kahyuM, "A thelInI rakama mAre potAne to levAnI che ja nahi. e rakama huM "saMghane arpaNa karI devA icchuM chuM. mitrone e mATe meM saMmati paNa ApI dIdhI che. samitinA bIjA keTalAka sabhyoe paNa e mATe potAnI anumati jaNAvI che. paraMtu tame prAmANikapaNe tamAro judo vicAra darzAvyo tethI AnaMda thayo. mAre e bAbatamAM pharIthI vicAra karavo ja joIe." dIpacaMdabhAIe kahyuM, "tame to nikhAlasatAthI badhAne sAcI vAta karI zako. tema cho. tame thelI na lo e tamArA ane saMsthAnA hitamAM che ema mane lAge che. pachI to tamane badhAne jema yogya lAge tema karo.' bIje divase sAMje paramAnaMdabhAI hospiTalamAM pharI pAchA AvyA ane dIpacaMdabhAIne kahyuM: "gaI kAlanI vAtanuM meM bahu manana karyuM che. mane ema lAgyuM che ke tamAro abhiprAya sAco che. meM badhA mitrone jaNAvI dIdhuM che ke huM kAMI svIkAravAno nathI mATe thelInI vAta have paDatI mUkI devI joIe. jemane rakama ApavI hoya te sIdhI yuvaka saMghanA rajata jayaMtI phaMDamAM Ape." paramAnaMdabhAIe A rIte bahu ja nikhAlasatAthI sabhyone Agraha karIne thelI arpaNa karavAno vicAra mAMDI vaLAvyo hato. paramAnaMdabhAIne navI navI vyaktione maLavAno bhAre zokha hato. dainika chApAMomAM ke koI sAmayikamAM koI navI vyaktino paricaya Avyo hoya to paramAnaMdabhAI koIkano saMparka karI te vyakti vize tapAsa karAvI tene maLavA pahoMcI jatA. adhyApaka hoya ke vijJAnI hoya, arthazAstrI hoya ke rAjanetA hoya, samAjasevaka hoya ke sAdhu-saMnyAsI hoya, paramAnaMdabhAI tene maLavA utsuka rahetA. sAthe mitrone paNa laI jatA. evI rIte potAne aparicita evI vyaktine maLavA 114 - caritradarzana

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javAmAM teo pote vinamra ane guNagrAhI hatA. tema chatAM daMbhI ke abhimAnI vyaktithI aMjAI jAya tevA teo nahotA. vyakti sattvazIla lAge to 'saMgha'nA kAryAlayamAM teno vArtAlApa goThave. vArtAlApa sAro lAge to paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM paNa tenuM vyAkhyAna goThave. eka divasa RSabhadAsa rAMkAno phona Avyo : jabalapurathI eka prophesara AvyA che. maLavA jevA che.'" paramAnaMdabhAIe mane vAta karI. seMTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM prophesara tarIke huM bhaNAvato hato eTale paramAnaMdabhAIe mane sAthe laI javAnuM vicAryuM. samaya nakkI thayo eTale saMdezo Avyo. emanI sAthe RSabhadAsa rAMkAne ghera ame pahoMcyA. UMcA, AchA zyAmavarNA, dADhIvALA, mastake saheja TAlavALA, khAdInAM kaphanI ane pAyajAmo paherelA bahu tejasvI mukhamudrAvALA e prophesarano paricaya karAvatAM zaMkAjIe kahyuM, ''A prophesara rajanIza che. jabalapuramAM philosaoNphInA prophesara che. bhagavAna mahAvIra vize sAruM bole che. ApaNe tyAM bolAvavA jevA che.' pro. rajanIza sAthe judA judA viSayo upara amAre kalAkeka vAtacIta thaI. bahAra nIkaLI paramAnaMdabhAIe kahyuM, "mANasa jANakAra ane maulika vicAravALA lAge che. bhArata jaina mahAmaMDaLe emanuM vyAkhyAna goThavyuM che. ApaNe pahelAM emane sAMbhaLavA joIe. sAthe tame Avajo.'' ame rajanIzane sAMbhaLavA gayA. emanI maulika vAdhArAthI prabhAvita thayA. AgAmI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALA mATe 52mAnaMdabhAIe emane nimaMtraNa ApyuM. pachI to pro. rajanIzanuM vyAkhyAna paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM vAraMvAra goThavAtuM gayuM. paramAnaMdabhAI rajanIza 52 ApharIna hatA. temanI keTalIka zibiromAM paNa teo gayA hatA. tulasIzyAmanI zibiramAM mane paNa sAthe letA gayA hatA. AvyA pachI e zibiranA pratibhAvarUpe 'prabuddha jIvana'mAM eka lekha meM lakhelo. emAM rajanIzajInA vicAromAM rahelI keTalIka asaMgatino meM nirdeza karelo te paramAnaMdabhAIne gameluM nahi. paraMtu tyAra pachI thoDA samayamAM rajanIze paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM prema' (saMbhoga-samAdhi) vize vyAkhyAna ApIne paramAnaMdabhAI sahita badhAMne coMkAvI nAkhelAM. tyArathI paramAnaMdabhAIe paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM rajanIzanAM vyAkhyAno upara paDado pADI dIdhelo. paramAnaMdabhAImAM nikhAlasatAnI sAthe nIDataratA paNa hatI. emaNe tarata ja prabuddha jIvanamAM rajanIza vize lekha lakhIne potAnA bhrama-nirasananI vAta karI hatI. paramAnaMdabhAInA muMbaInA jAhera jIvanathI aneka loko suparicita hatA. teo jyAM jAya tyAM ghaNA badhA piricata loko sAthe emanI vAtacIta cAlatI. eka divasa 52mAnaMdabhAIno phona Avyo. kahyuM, "eka AryasamAjI bhAIe potAnA paramAnaMdabhAI kApaDiyA 115

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koI sAmAjika prasaMge AvavA mATe mane bahu ja Agraha karyo che. javAnI mArI icchA nathI, kAraNa ke emanA vartuLanA ke emanI jJAtinA lokomAMthI khAsa koIne huM oLakhato nathI, paraMtu Agraha eTalo badho che ke gayA vagara chUTako nathI. mArI icchA che ke tame sAthe cAlo." - ame baMne gayA. paricita yajamAne amane sAro AvakAra Apyo. paraMtu emaNe potAnI jJAtinA je je AgevAno sAthe paramAnaMdabhAIno paricaya karAvyo te koI paramAnaMdabhAIne nAmathI paNa oLakhatA nahotA. emanI sAthe vAtano dora paramAnaMdabhAI cAlu rAkhe, paraMtu pelI ajANI vyaktione koI vAtamAM rasa paDe nahi ane koI viSayanI teone jANakArI paNa nahi, eTale vAta ghaDIkamAM aTakI paDe. AthI yajamAnane paNa kSobha thato, paraMtu paramAnaMdabhAIe kahyuM, "bhAI, tame amArI ciMtA karazo nahi. ame amArI meLe badhI ja vyavasthA karI laIzuM." pachI huM ane paramAnaMdabhAI eka bAju besIne amArI vAtoe vaLagyA. paramAnaMdabhAIe kahyuM, "huM tamane mArI sAthe eTalA mATe ja lAvyo, kAraNa ke ApaNuM koI paricita vartuLa nathI. ahIM AvanArAM badhAM mANaso ane emanI jJAtinA AgevAno nokariyAta varganA ane sAmAnya kakSAnA lAge che. ApaNA koI viSayamAM emane rasa paDe nahi eTale emanI sAthe ApaNI vAta jhAjhI cAlI na zake." thoDI vAra pachI jamavAnuM patyuM eTale ame tarata tyAMthI vidAya thaI gayA. koI paNa kAryakramanuM Ayojana sArAmAM sAruM kaI rIte karavuM tenI maulika sUjha paramAnaMdabhAImAM hatI. judA judA kSetranI pratiSThita vyaktione sAmethI maLavA jaIne temanI sAthe vicAravinimaya karavAnI utsukatA temanI rahetI. tevI rIte vibhinna saMsthAo taraphathI vakhatovakhata yojAtA jAhera kAryakramomAM hAjara rahIne tenA Ayojana ane rajUAtamAMthI paNa kazuMka navuM grahaNa karavAnI vRtti paNa temane haMmezAM rahetI. paramAnaMdabhAInA aneka mitro aneka sAthIo hatA. ane kyAMka javuM hoya tyAre athavA potAnA ghare koI viziSTa mahemAna padhAravAnA hoya tyAre mitro ane saMbaMdhIone teo AgrahapUrvaka bolAvatA. sArI vastuno AnaMda pote ekalA na mANatAM, bIjAM ghaNAMne temAM sahabhAgI banAvavA teo haMmezAM tatpara rahetA. paramAnaMdabhAIne pravAsano zokha ghaNo hato. yuvaka saMgha taraphathI vakhatovakhata ekAda nAno-moTo pravAsa emaNe jarUra goThavyo hoya. potAnA vizALa saMparkanA kAraNe pravAsanuM Ayojana paNa teo sarasa, sagavaDabharyuM, sabhyane poSAya tevuM karatA. cIMcavaDa hoya ke kAzamIra, mAtherAna hoya ke kaccha, lonAvalA hoya ke vajezvarI, 116 eka caritradarzana

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paramAnaMdabhAI sAthe pravAsa karavAnI judI ja majA Ave. emanA saraLa, nikhAlasa, nirdabha vyaktitvano anero paricaya thAya. nAnAM-moTAM saunI sAthe haLImaLIne teo nirAMte vAto kare. pravAsamAM paNa prAsaMgika pravacano ityAdi goThavIne, bharacaka kAryakramo yojIne pravAsane teo madhura, saMsmaraNIya banAvatA. pachInA divasomAM moMghavArInA kAraNe pravAsanA kAryakrama jaladI goThavAtA nahi, teno raMja yuvaka saMghanI samitimAM teo vyakta karatA. paramAnaMdabhAInI sAthe emanAM patnI vijayAbahenanuM acUka smaraNa thAya. paramAnaMdabhAInA jAhera jIvanane kAraNe ghare mahemAnono dhasAro niraMtara cAlyA karato hoya. e badhAMnI AgatAsvAgatA karavAmAM vijayAbahena haMmezAM tatpara rahetAM. teo suzikSita hatAM ane badhA ja viSayomAM rasa letAM. kyAreka emanA ghare gayA hoIe ane paramAnaMdabhAI na maLe to vijayAbahenanI sAthe vAtacIta karatAM kalAka kyAM vItI jAya tenI khabara paDatI nahi. vijayAbahena vyavahArakuzaLa ane daSTisaMpanna hatAM. paramAnaMdabhAInA jIvana-vikAsamAM vijayAbahenano phALo ghaNo moTo hato. paramAnaMdabhAI eTale bahumukhI vyaktitva. paramAnaMdabhAI eTale satyanA ane sauMdaryanA pUjArI. paramAnaMdabhAI eTale prasannatA, vicArazIlatA, guNagrAhakatA, svasthatA, kalArasikatA, saMniSThA, udAratA, matAMtarakSamA, nirdabhatA, nirbhIkatA, vatsalatA vagerethI dhabakatuM jIvana. emanuM vyaktitva evuM cetanavaMtuM hatuM ke hajIye emanI sAthenA keTakeTalA prasaMgo jIvaMta banIne najara sAme taravare che. paramAnaMdabhAI kApaDiyA 117

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14 cImanalAla cakubhAI zAha zrI cImanalAla cakubhAI zAha eTale ApaNA rASTrastha vIromAMnA eka. teo bhAratanA svAtaMtryasaMgrAmanA eka senAnI, bhAratanA baMdhAraNanA ghaDanArAomAMnA eka, bhAratanI lokasabhAnA sabhya, jaina samAjanA eka agragaNya netA, eka nAmAMkita solisiTara, aneka sAmAjika-zaikSaNika ane dhArmika saMsthAonA sUtradhAra, gujarAtI sAhitya pariSadanA varSo sudhI maMtrI, pIDha patrakAra, vicArazIla lekhaka ane samartha tattvaciMtaka hatA. cImanabhAI eTale selpha meIDa mena, emanuM jIvana eTale zUnyamAMthI sarjana. emanuM jIvana eTale prabaLa puruSArthanI gauravagAthA. cImanabhAIno janma saurASTramAM lIMbaDI pAse pANazINA gAmamAM I. sa. 1902nA mArcanI 11mI tArIkhe sthAnakavAsI jaina komamAM thayo hato. emanA pitA cakubhAI gulAbacaMdanI Arthika sthiti sArI nahi eTale I. sa. 1900mAM teo muMbaImAM nokarI karavA gayelA. muMbaImAM jhaverI bajAramAM suthAracAlamAM eka nAnakaDI oraDImAM teo rahetA hatA ane davA bajAramAM davAnI eka dukAne nokarI karatA. bALaka cImanabhAI be varSanA thavA AvyA tyAM emanI mAtAnuM avasAna thayuM. pitA cakubhAI bharayuvAna vaye vidhura thayA. bIjAM lagna karyA. apara mAtA raMbhAbahene bALaka cImanabhAIne potAnI janmadAtrI mAtA judI che evI khabara sudhdhAM paDavA dIdhI nahi. potAnA ja saMtAnanI jema ucheryAM - eTale badhI sArI rIte ke cImanabhAIne raMbhAbahenane potAnuM koI saMtAna thayuM nahi ethI paNa emanuM samagra vAtsalya cImanabhAI para varasyuM hatuM. prAthamika zikSaNa pANazINAmAM ane mAdhyamika zikSaNa muMbaInI bAbu 118 caritradarzana

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pannAlAla hAIskUlamAM tathA bharaDA hAIskUlamAM laIne cImanabhAIe tejasvI kArakirdI sAthe maeNTrikanI parIkSA 1919mAM amadAvAdamAM ApI hatI. e jamAnAmAM meTrika sudhIno abhyAsa ocho na gaNAto. paraMtu cImanabhAInI icchA kaoNlejamAM abhyAsa karavAnI hatI. nabaLI Arthika sthitine kAraNe pitAzrInI icchA emane nokarIe besADavAnI hatI. chevaTe eka varSa mATe elphinsTana kaoNlejamAM dAkhala thayA. kaoNlejamAM ziSyavRtti maLatAM kuTuMba upara bhaNavAno Arthika bojo nahoto eTale abhyAsa karavAnI maryAdA laMbAvAI. ema karatAM teo bI.e, ema.e. ne elaela.bI. thayA. ghaNuMkharuM pahelo naMbara meLavatA. temaNe telaMga suvarNacaMdraka tathA bIjA caMdrako paNa meLavyA hatA. e divasomAM suzikSitomAM ekabIjAne nAmanA AdyAkSarathI bolAvavAnI paddhati vizeSa pracalita hatI. cImanalAla cakubhAI eTale "sI.sI." elphinsTanamAM emanI sAthe bIjA paNa eka sI.sI. hatA, te ApaNA jANItA kavi ane nATyakAra caMdravadana cImanalAla mahetA. emanAM varSomAM emanI sAthenA bIjA tejasvI vidyArthIomAM azoka mahetA, yusupha maheraalI, mInu masANI, sIravAI (eDavokeTa janarala), kavi bhAnuzaMkara vyAsa (bAdarAyaNa), kavi suMdarajI beTAI, kavi amIdAsa kANakiyA vagere hatA. vidyArthIkALe cImanabhAIno svabhAva saMkocazIla hato. tenuM mukhya kAraNa e hatuM ke bolatI vakhate temanI jIbha totaDAtI hatI. bIjuM kAraNa nabaLI Arthika sthiti hatI. paraMtu temanAmAM gajabano AtmavizvAsa hato. temaNe daDha saMkalpa karyo hato ke totaDApaNA upara vijaya meLavavo ane DomosthinisanI jema sArA vaktA thavuM tathA prabaLa puruSArtha karI Arthika sthiti sudhAravI. bI.e. ane ema.e.mAM emaNe mukhya viSaya tattvajJAnano lIdho hato. pleTo, sokreTisa, erisToTala, kenTa, hegala vagerenAM lakhANonI emanA jIvana upara moTI asara paDI ane tarkayukta vicAraNAnI Teva paDI hatI. elaela.bI.nA abhyAsathI dareka paristhitino bArIkAIthI vicAra karavAnI ane zabdezabda toLItoLIne bolavA-lakhavAnI Teva paDI hatI. abhyAsanA satata parizramane lIdhe 1928mAM solisiTara thatAM sudhImAM to cImanabhAIne AMtaraDAno kSayano roga lAgu paDyo hato. oparezana karAvavuM paDyuM ane DaoNkTaroe muMbaI choDavAnI salAha ApI. paNa muMbaI sivAya solisiTarano vyavasAya cAle nahi, eTale game te saMjogomAM muMbaImAM rahevAno ja nizcaya karyo. evA nabaLA zarIra pAsethI paNa majabUta manathI emaNe kAma lIdhA karyuM. kolejamAM hatA tyArathI ja cImanabhAIne jAhera jIvananI pravRttimAM rasa hato. cImanalAla cakubhAI zAha 119

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potAne paDyAM tevAM kaSTo bIjAone na paDe te mATe vividha sAmAjika pravRttio thavI joIe evI emanI bhAvanA hatI ane e mATe dhagazapUrvaka kAma karavA teo utsuka hatA. 1930nI sAlathI emaNe kaoNMgresanI laDatomAM bhAga levo zarU karyo hato. emanI Socialism in India ane Lawless Limbdi nAmanI pustikAoe javAharalAla naheru, saradAra paTela, jayaprakAza nArAyaNa vagerenuM dhyAna kheMcyuM hatuM ane ethI tatkAlIna bhAratanA sarvocca netAonA saMparkamAM yuvAna vaye ja teo AvyA hatA ane cImanabhAInA kAryathI teo prabhAvita thayA hatA. eka dhArAzAstrI tarIke cImanabhAInI khyAti ghaNI moTI hatI. temaNe briTiza sarakAranA prathama hiMdI solisiTara tarIke paNa kArya karyuM hatuM. AthI ja 1948mAM baMdhAraNa sabhA (Constituent Assembly)nI jyAre racanA thaI tyAre tenA eka sabhya tarIke cImanabhAInI nimaNUka thaI hatI. baMdhAraNa sabhAmAM emanA kAryanI javAharalAla, DhebarabhAI, dAdAsAheba mAvalaMkara vageree prazaMsA karI eTaluM ja nahi, lokasabhAnI cUMTaNInA umedavAra tarIke emanI je pasaMdagI karI temAM paNa teo saphLa thayA ane tyAM temanI zaktino saune savizeSa paricaya thayo hato. I. sa. 1950mAM nyUjhIlaeNnDamAM kaoNmanaveltha pArlAmenTarI kaoNnpharansa thaI temAM bhAratIya pratinidhi maMDaLanA eka sabhya tarIke temanI pasaMdagI thaI. tyAra pachI 1953mAM vaoNziMgTanamAM inTarapArlAmenTarI yuniyananuM adhivezana yojAyuM temAM paNa cImanabhAInI niyukti thaI. vaLI e ja varSe saMyukta rASTrasaMghanI beThakamAM bhAratIya pratinidhimaMDaLa mokalavAnuM hatuM. e pratinidhimaMDaLamAM paNa cImanabhAIne levAmAM AvyA. Ama, 1948thI 1957 sudhI cImanabhAIe dilhImAM rI kendra sarakAranI kAmagIrImAM potAno yazasvI phALo Apyo. 1937mAM cImanabhAI kanaiyAlAla munazInA prathama saMparkamAM AvyA. emanI lekhanazakti tathA maulika ciMtanazaktithI prabhAvita thayelA munazIe emane gujarAtI sAhitya pariSadanI kArobArI samitimAM lIdhA ane 1939thI 1951 sudhI ema satata bAra varSa sudhI cImanabhAIe gujarAtI sAhitya pariSadanA maMtrI tarIke sevAo ApI hatI. cImanabhAI saurASTra TrasTa, presa TrasTa oNpha inDiyA, jaina klinika, muMbaI sthAnakavAsI jaina mahAsaMgha, jaina keLavaNI maMDaLa, muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha, saMyukta jaina vidyArthIgRha, bhArata jaina mahAmaMDaLa, bhagavAna mahAvI2 25mA nirvANa mahotsava samiti vagere pacIsathI vadhu saMsthAomAM pramukha, upapramukha, maMtrI ke 120 caritradarzana

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TrasTIno hoddo dharAvatA hatA. ATalI badhI saMsthAonAM kAmane teo ekale hAthe kevI rIte pahoMcI vaLatA haze evo prazna thAya. eno javAba e che ke cImanabhAI atyaMta kuzaLa vahIvaTakatAM hatA. teo dareka bAbatano pukhta ane jhINavaTabharyo vicAra karatA, paraMtu nirNaya tvarita letA. potAnA hAtha nIcenA mANasomAM pUrNa vizvAsa mUkI temanI pAsethI hoMzathI kAma letA. game tevI viSama paristhitimAM teo potAnA magajanI samatulA ane svasthatA gumAvatA nahi. cImanabhAI jema ciMtanazIla lekhaka hatA tema kuzaLa vaktA ane vyAkhyAtA hatA. lekhanamAM tema vaknatvamAM gujarAtI temaja aMgrejI e baMne bhASA para teo asAdhAraNa prabhutva dharAvatA hatA. zrI muMbaI jena yuvaka saMgha taraphathI prati varSa yojAtI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM dara varSe teo koI eka viSaya upara mananIya vyAkhyAna ApatA. emanA vaktavyamAM haMmezAM gahanatA, maulikatA, navo abhigama ane tAjagI rahetAM. temanI vANI spaSTa ne sacoTa hatI. zrotAo para teno UMDo prabhAva paDato. sva. paramAnaMda kApaDiyAnA avasAna pachI prabuddha jIvananA taMtrIpadanI javAbadArI cImanabhAInA mAthe AvI paDI. ethI moTo lAbha e thayo ke vartamAna bhAratIya ane AMtararASTrIya rAjadvArI ne Itara ghaTanAo vizenA temanA vicAro, prabuddha jIvananA vizALa vAcaka vargane sulabha thayA hatA. cImanabhAI sAtheno mAro paricaya vizeSa gADha thayo zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAnA pramukha tarIke mane javAbadArI emaNe soMpI tyArathI. te pahelAM yuvaka saMghanI kAryavAhaka samitinI beThakomAM ane anya kAryakramomAM emane maLavAnuM thatuM, paraMtu tyAre ghaNuMkharuM aupacArika vAto thatI. jyArathI emanA nikaTanA paricayamAM AvavAnuM thayuM tyArathI emanA vyaktitvanAM vividha suMdara pAsAMonuM darzana thatuM gayuM hatuM. keTalIka vAra emanI sAthe pravAsa karavAnuM paNa thayuM hatuM. chellAM keTalAMka varSathI emanI ja bhalAmaNathI emanI pADozamAM amane ghara maLyuM hatuM, eTale vAraMvAra maLavAnuM ane sAthe bahAra javAnuM banatuM. jaina dharmanA vividha viSayonI emanI sAthe carcA thatI. teo sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyanA mukhya AgevAna hatA, paraMtu saMkucita saMpradAyaparastI emanAmAMthI nIkaLI gaI hatI. ethI ja emaNe laMDananA jainone maMdira bAMdhavA mATe khAsa bhalAmaNa karI hatI ane amArI sAthe zatruMjayanI yAtrAe AvavAnI IcchA darzAvI hatI. emanA sAnidhyamAM amane apAra vAtsalya anubhavavA maLatuM. cImanabhAIno aMtakALa eka bahuzruta tattvaciMtakane zobhe tevo hato. pote cImanalAla cakubhAI zAha - 121

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haoNspiTalamAM dAkhala thayA, oparezana karAvyuM. ghare pAchA AvyA ane deha choDyo tyAM sudhInA lagabhaga pacAsa divasanA gALAnA emanA jIvanane vAraMvAra najIkathI nihALavAnuM mAre banyuM hatuM ane teno prabhAva cittamAM sudaDhapaNe aMkita thayo hato. cImanabhAI sAcA arthamAM tattvaciMtaka hatA tenI pratIti emanA A aMtakALamAM vizeSapaNe thaI hatI. chellAM keTalAMka varSathI cImanabhAI jAhera sabhAomAM, khAsa karIne emanA janmadinanI ujavaNInA prasaMge, vakhatovakhata ema kahetA : "mane mRtyuno bhaya nathI. A paLe Ave topaNa huM te mATe sajja chuM." pote uccAreluM A kathana emaNe potAnA aMtakALamAM caritArtha karI batAvyuM. chellAM doDheka varSathI cImanabhAInI paDozamAM rahevAne kAraNe mAre vAraMvAra sAMjanA samaye emane maLavAnuM thatuM. huM maLe tyAre jaDa ane cetana tattva, jIva ane AtmA, vizvanuM svarUpa ane vyavasthA vize ghaNI vAra carcA cAlatI. chellA divasomAM teo "zrImad rAjacaMdra graMthanI bRhad AvRtti niyamita vAMcatA. deha ane AtmAnI bhinnatA ane dehanI anityatA vizenAM zrImad rAjacaMdranAM ghaNAM mArmika vacano teo mane vaMcAvatA ane e badhAM vize pote kaMIka lakhavA icche che ema vAraMvAra kahetA. emAMnA ekAda viSaya para emaNe eka lekha lakhIne prabuddha jIvanamAM pragaTa paNa karyo hato. - cImanabhAInuM Arogya TheTha bAlyakALathI bahu sukharUpa rahyuM na hatuM. temane peTanI takalIpha vAraMvAra thatI hatI. ene kAraNe potAnA jAhera jIvanamAM haravApharavAnI dRSTie emaNe keTalIka maryAdAo svIkArI lIdhI hatI. teo prakRtie eTalA svastha ane zAMta hatA ke temane hRdayarogano humalo thAya evo saMbhava na hato. temanuM cittataMtra paNa atyaMta sUkSma AMdolana jhIlI samajI zake thavuM svaccha, zAMta, nirmaLa ane sukumAra hatuM. eTale cittAvegane kAraNe thatA koI rogano temane bhaya nahoto. teo koI vakhata kahetA, "huM jaIza to peTanI bImArIne kAraNe jaIza." 198ranA 11mI mArcanA roja zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha taraphathI temanI 81mI varSagAMTha saMghanA paramAnaMda kApaDiyA haoNlamAM UjavavAmAM AvI hatI. te divase sAMje kAryakrama pachI sAthe ghare pAchA pharatAM emaNe mane kahyuM, "huM bahArathI jeTalo svastha dekhAuM chuM teTalo aMdarathI svastha nathI. AI phIla a lampa ina mAya sTamaka. huM have bahu lAMbu jIvavAno nathI. mAro aMtakALa najIka AvI rahyo che." emanA jevI vyakti svaratApUrvaka potAnA vize AvI vAta kare to te mAnavI rahI, paraMtu teo savArathI sAMja sudhI ghare ane ophise je rIte kAma karatA te jotAM 122 caritradarzana

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tathA bolavAmAM, lakhavAmAM, vicAravAmAM, yAda rAkhavAmAM, TaTTAra cAlavAmAM teo je phurti dAkhavatA te jotAM temanI zakti kSINa thatI jAya che tevuM jarA paNa lAge nahi. chellAM keTalAMka varSothI teo muMbaI bahAra bahu ochuM tA, paraMtu muMbaImAM aneka sabhAomAM teo samayasara pahoMcI jatA ane potAnuM sacoTa vaktavya rajU karatA. temanI smaraNazakti tIvra hatI ane aneka vyaktio vize, graMtho vize, solisiTara tarIkenA potAnA vyavasAyanI bAbato vize ghaNIbadhI vAto smRtine AdhAre tarata kahI zakatA. teo potAnAM rokANo mATe koI noMdha rAkhatA nahi; paraMtu cAra-cha mahinA sudhImAM potAnAM rokANonI tArIkho temane sahaja rIte yAda rahetI. evuM kyAreya sAMbhaLyuM nathI ke cImanabhAIe smRtidoSane kAraNe eka ja divase ane samaye be rokANo svIkArI lIdhAM hoya, athavA koI sthaLe javAnuM bhUlI gayA hoya. jIvananA aMtima samaya sudhI emanI smRtizaktine kazI ja asara pahoMcI nahotI. eka divasa rAtre huM emane ghare maLavA gayo hato, paraMtu teo rojanI jema sophA para besI vAMcatA nahotA, pathArImAM sUI gayA hatA. meM pUchyuM to kahyuM. peTamAM bahu ja duHkhe che. kazuM khavAyuM nathI. UlaTI thAya evuM thayA kare che. DaoNkTarane bolAvyA che. Aje sAMje eka kAryakramamAM mananI pUrI svasthatAthI bolyo, paraMtu Akho vakhata peTamAM satata dukhyA karatuM hatuM." huM beTho hato tyAM DaoNkTara AvyA. emane tapAsIne DaoNkTare kahyuM ke haoNspiTalamAM jaIne nidAna karAvavAnI jarUra che. be divasa pachI haoNspiTalamAM teo dAkhala thayA. cImanabhAI gharanAM svajanone keTaloka samaya pahelAMthI kahetA rahyA hatA : "mane hamaNAM hamaNAM peTamAM vAraMvAra je dukhAvo thayA kare che te kensarano ja hovo joIe ane A kensarane kAraNe thoDA samayamAM mAruM jIvana pUruM thaze." AvuM kahetI vakhate emanA caherA upara ke emanI vANImAM ciMtA ke gabharATano jarAsarakho paNa aMza jaNAto nahi. nidAna mATe teo jena klinikamAM dAkhala thayA ane tyAra pachI peTanuM oparezana thayuM tyAM sudhInA divaso daramiyAna teo savArathI sAMja sudhI hospiTalamAM temanI khabara jovA AvanAra aneka lokone maLatA, vAto karatA ane potAnI jIvanalIlA have pUrI thavAmAM che evAM garbhita sUcano paNa karatA. haoNspiTalamAM paNa kyAreka teo khATalA para sUvAne badale bahAra lobImAM sophA para beThA hoya ane badhAnI sAthe hasIne vAto karatA hoya. eka vakhata meM kahyuM paNa kharuM, "kAkA, atyAre tame pote koI daradI jevA lAgatA nathI, paraMtu jANe cImanalAla cakubhAI zAha - 123

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daradInI khabara jovA AvyA ho evA lAgo cho." oparezana thayuM tyAra pachI emanA jIvanano eka navo tabakko cAlu thayo. kensaranI gAMTha che ane te ghaNI prasarI gaI che e prakAranuM nidAna thayA pachI ane bAyapAsa sarjarI thayA pachI cImanabhAIne asahya pIDA thavA lAgI. kyAreka emane rAhata maLe te mATe ghenanAM ijekzana paNa apAyAM. teo ghaNuMkharuM pathArImAM sUtA hoya ane UMghatA hoya athavA ardhajAgrata dazAmAM hoya. have ekasAthe vadhAre samaya besavAnI ke vAta karavAnI emanI zakti ghaTatI javA lAgI. je bole temAM paNa vAkya pUruM thatAM ThIka ThIka vAra lAgatI. eve samaye paNa emaNe prabuddha jIvana' mATe lekha lakhAvyo. A divaso daramiyAna emanuM dharmaciMtana savizeSapaNe cAlyuM. dharma pratye teo pUrI AsthAvALA hatA. paraMtu teo buddhizALI hatA tethI tarkasaMgata vAta svIkAravAnuM temane vadhAre gamatuM. paraMtu have teo kaMI vizeSa bhAvArdra banyA hatA. A vizvanAM tamAma gUDha rahasyono tAga meLavavAnuM gajuM manuSyanI buddhimAM nathI ane ethI parama tattva pratyenI zaraNAgatino bhAva ja mahattvano che, e vAta upara teo bhAra mUkavA lAgyA hatA. teo judAM judAM dharmastotronuM raTaNa karatA hatA, paraMtu te yaMtravat banI jAya tyAre baMdha karI detA hatA. oparezana pachI cImanabhAI mAtra pravAhI khorAka ja laI zakatA ane te paNa alpa pramANamAM. pariNAme temanuM zarIra divase divase kSINa thavA lAgyuM. cahero paNa karamAvA lAgyo. temane ghare lAvavAmAM AvyA, jethI vAtAvaraNa thoDuM badalAya. temane kensara che evI DaoNkTaroe jANa karI dIdhI hatI ane cImanabhAI pote paNa maLavA AvanArAone pUrI svasthatApUrvaka kahetA, "mane kensara che. A have mArA aMtima divaso che." divALIne divase sAMje azakti hovA chatAM bahAranA rUmamAM AvIne sophA para teo beThA hatA. prabuddha jIvanano chello aMka vAMcatA hatA. huM temane maLavA gayo tyAre emane bahAra beThelA joIne ghaNo harSa thayo ane ema thayuM ke A rIte jo tabiyata sudharatI jAya to be-cAra mahinA kazo ja vAMdho nahi Ave. e divase teo vadhAre sArI rIte bolI zakatA hatA. alabatta, teo vAta karatAM karatAM ghaDI ghaDI bhAvArda banI jatA hatA. AMkhamAM AMsu AvI jatAM hatAM. emaNe kahyuM, "jema jema mRtyu pAse Ave che tema tema A saMsAra asAra che, badhuM ja mithyA che evo bhAsa daDha thato jAya che. Ama chatAM manuSya saMsAramAM ATalo badho Asakta kema rahyA kare che e eka moTo koyaDo che !" divALIne divase rAtre emane lohInI UlaTI thaI. DokTaronI daSTie e 124 caritradarzana

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nizAnI bahu sArI na gaNAya. eTale ke jIvanano aMta dhAryA karatAM have ghaNI jhaDapathI pAse AvI rahyo che. kensara peTamAM vadhAre prasaratuM jatuM hatuM. bIjA divasathI emanI mAMdagI ghaNI vadhI gaI. pravAhI AhAra paNa ghaTavA lAgyo, jAte UThavA-besavAnI zakti kSINa thaI gaI. dharmazravaNa mATenI utsukatA vadhavA lAgI. bAjunA upAzrayamAMthI pU. dharmazIlAzrIjI mahAsatIjI tathA anya mahAsatIjI savAra-sAMja AvIne stotro ItyAdi saMbhaLAvavA lAgyAM. cImanabhAI paNa mahAsatIjI sAthe te stotro bolavA lAgyA. yaMtravat thAya topaNa raTaNa karavAnuM have temane rucavA lAgyuM. vaLI, "he arihaMta bhagavAna, huM tamAre zaraNe chuM." evuM raTaNa paNa teo vAraMvAra karavA lAgyA. kArataka suda cothanI rAtre huM temanI pAse Ubho hato. hAtha-paga potAnI meLe UMcAnIcA karI zake eTalI zakti paNa have temanA zarIramAM rahI na hatI. AMkho saheja kholatA, paraMtu nihALavAnI zakti ghaNI ochI thaI gaI hatI. hajI teo sAMbhaLI zakatA hatA ane kaMI pUchIe to thoDI vAre dhIme dhIme uttara ApatA hatA. bIje divase savAre huM temanI pAse gayo tyAre teo moM AkhuM kholIne je rIte lAMbA zvAsa laI rahyA hatA te jotAM emanI aMtima paLa pAse AvI rahI che ema lAgyuM. pU. mahAsatIjI zrI dharmazIlAe "sahajAnaMdI zuddhasvarUpI avinAzI huM AtmA chuM." e padanuM raTaNa cAlu karyuM hatuM. pU. mahAsatIjIe emane kahyuM, cImanabhAI! tamane badhAM paccakhANa sAthe saMthAro levaDAvuM ?" e vakhate cImanabhAIe saMmati darzAvI ane potAnI meLe be hAtha UMcA joDyA ane pathArImAM beThA thaI gayA. ATalI badhI tAkAta emanA zarIramAM acAnaka kyAMthI AvI gaI e navAI pamADe tevuM dRzya hatuM. mahAsatIjIe saMthAro uccAryo te pachI cImanabhAInA caherA para nirdoSa prasannatA ane asAdhAraNa teja patharAI gayAM. A eka camatkRti-bharelI ghaTanA banI gaI. manuSyane dharmanA tattvamAM zraddhA prere evI e ghaTanA hatI. tyAra pachI thoDI vAre temaNe potAno deha choDyo. avasAna pachI cImanabhAInA zarIramAM dhIme dhIme teja vadhavA lAgyuM. have emanI AMkho potAnI meLe khullI rahevA lAgI. DaoNkTaranA baMdha karavA chatAM te baMdha rahetI nahotI. emanA caherA upara svasthatA ane zAMti patharAyelAM dekhAtAM hatAM. cImanabhAInA laukika jIvanano A rIte aMta Avyo. eka mahAna vibhUtinI jIvanalIlA A rIte pUrNa thaI. chellI mAMdagI daramiyAna cImanabhAInI dharmatattvanI khoja vizeSapaNe cAlI. potAne je anubhavo thatA gayA te temaNe prabuddha jIvananA chellA traNa aMkomAM cImanalAla cakubhAI zAha e 125

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pragaTa karyA. paraMtu emAM jeTaluM lakhAyuM teTaluM ja temane kahevAnuM hatuM ema na kahI zakAya. te pachInA chellA pAMca-sAta divasamAM emane je anubhUti thayA karI tene teo zabdamAM vyakta na karI zakyA, paraMtu teo jo kaMI lakhAvI zakyA hota to eka vizeSa anubhUtino prakAza ApaNane sAMpaDyo hota. mRtyunA saMdarbhamAM prajJAzIla manuSyanI jIvanadaSTi uttarottara kevI parimApti thatI jAya che tenuM nidarzana cImanabhAIno aMtakALa banI rahe che. cImanabhAInuM jIvana mArA jevA anekane mATe preraNAstrota samAna rahyuM che. chellAM keTalAMka varSomAM emanA atyaMta nikaTanA saMparkamAM AvavAnuM banyuM. emanA nirmaLa, vAtsalyapUrNa aMtaraMga jIvanano paricaya thayo. teo haMmezAM kAryarata, svastha ane prasanna rahetA. anAsakta bhAve teo ghaNI saMsthAo dvArA ghaNI pravRttio karatA. emano prabhAva evo moTo hato ke emanA kahevA-mAtrathI keTalAya loko vividha pravRttio mATe puSkaLa dAna ApatA. lokono emanA upara apAra vizvAsa ane prema hato. cImanabhAI dRSTisaMpanna mahApuruSa hatA. emanI vicAraNA haMmezAM vizada ane tarkapUta rahetI. teo saMyamI ane mitabhASI hatA. vividha pravRttio aMge ghaNI vyaktione ghaNI bAbatomAM sUcanA ke mArgadarzana teo ApatA. teo tvarita nirNaya letA ane vastu, vyakti ke paristhitine eTalI jhaDapathI samajI letA ke sAmAnya rIte emano nirNaya kyAreya khoTo Tharato nahi. cImanabhAI jema uttama vaktA hatA tema uttama lekhaka paNa hatA. uMmara thatAM, smaraNazakti zithila thatAM ke anya prakRtigata kSatio uddabhavatAM keTalAya sArA vaktAo moTI uMmare nirarthaka lAMbuM ane aprastuta bolatA thaI jAya che. cImanabhAI 81 varSanI uMmare paNa samayAnusAra potAnA vicAro kramabaddha, tarkasaMgata, abhinava maulika dRSTithI sacoTa rIte asmalita vANImAM vyakta karatA. emanAM lakhANonI zailI paNa saraLa, nirADaMbara, pAradarzaka hatI. keTalIka vAra gAMdhIjInI zailInI yAda apAve evI te rahetI. zikSaNa hoya ke rAjakAraNa, dharma hoya ke sAmAjika bAbata - e dareka vize emanuM maulika ciMtana preraka bane mArgadarzaka banI rahetuM. gAMdhIjIe kahyuM hatuM ke "mAruM jIvana e mAro saMdezo che." mahApuruSonAM jIvana varSo sudhI anekane mATe preraNArUpa banI rahe che. sva. cImanabhAInA jIvanakArya ane saguNono jyAre vicAra karIe tyAre ApaNane temAMthI kaMI navI ja preraNA sAMpaDI rahe che. emanuM samagra jIvana preraNAstrota samuM hatuM. ("vaMdanIya hRdayasparzamAMthI) 126 caritradarzana

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15 umAzaMkara jozI umAzaMkara jozI eTale gujarAta ane gujarAtI sAhityanuM nAma AMta2bhAratIya ane AMtararASTrIya kSetre sukhyAta banAvanAra ApaNA lADIlA kavi, vivecaka ane saMskArapuruSa. gAMdhIjI ane kAkA kAlelakaranI chatrachAyA heThaLa jIvana-ghaDatara karanAra, brAhmaNatvanA zreSTha saMskAra dharAvanAra, veda ane upaniSadakALanA RSinI yAda apAvanAra sva. umAzaMkara jozIe eka gujarAtI kavi ke sAhityakAra tarIke jIvanamAM je siddhio meLavI te ghaNI moTI hatI. raNajitarAma suvarNacaMdraka, gujarAtI sAhitya pariSadanuM pramukhasthAna, gujarAta yunivarsiTInA kulapatinuM pada, jJAnapIThano evaoNrDa, sAhitya akAdamInuM pramukhasthAna, kendranI rAjyasabhAnuM sabhyapada, vizvabhAratI vizvavidyAlayanuM upakulapatipada jevI mAnabharI siddhio meLavavA teo sadbhAgI banyA hatA. A badhI ja siddhio AyAsa ke khaTapaTa karIne nahi, paraMtu kevaLa potAnI guNavattAne dhoraNe temaNe prApta karI hatI. teo satya, nyAya, nIti ane prAmANikatAnA jIvanabhara upAsaka rahyA hatA. 'Rta' emanA jIvanano maMtra hato. temanI RtanI upAsanA akhaMDa hatI. asatya ke daMbhano Azraya laI AyAsapUrvaka kazuMka prApta karI levAnuM ke potAno bacAva karavAnuM temaNe kadI vicAryuM nahotuM. emanA aMtaramAM eka bAju jema kAryasiddhinI AkAMkSA rahI hatI tema bIjI bAju anAsakti paNa rahelI hatI. potAnI bhautika eSaNAone teo kyAreya vAcA ApatA nahi. yathAzakya teo niHspRha ke udAsIna rahetA. saMbaMdho bAMdhIne kazuMka meLavI levAnI jhaMkhanA teo kyAreya rAkhatA nahi. jema patravyavahAranI bAbatamAM tema mitro sAthenA saMbaMdhonI bAbatamAM paNa, jUja apavAda sivAya, teo umAzaMkara jozI * 127

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sAmethI bahu utkaMThA darzAvatA nahi. sahaja rIte thAya teTaluM thavA detA. jAhera jIvanamAM anya lokonA akAraNa dveSa ke IrSAne pAtra thavAnuM thAya, paraMtu tyAre paNa umAzaMkara samabhAva ane udAsInatA dharAvatA. temanI pAse agAdha jJAna hatuM ane viziSTa jIvanadarzana hatuM. temanI smRti paNa eTalI ja sateja hatI. ene lIdhe temanI pAse anaupacArika rIte zAMtithI beThA hoIe tyAre prAcInakALanA koI ucca pratibhAsaMpanna RSimuninI pAse, koI GeniusnI pAse beThA hoIe tevo anubhava thato. umAzaMkaranI vividha siddhione lakSamAM rAkhIne emane vividha birudo ApavAmAM AvyAM che. paraMtu "topAsaka RSi" tarIke emane oLakhAvavAmAM emane apAyelAM ghaNAM birudono samAveza thaI jAya che. kavitA, nATaka, vArtA, vivecana, saMzodhana-saMpAdana ItyAdi vividha kSetre emanI bahumukhI ane bahuzruta pratibhAe pAMca dAyakAthI adhika samaya sudhI satata yogadAna ApyA karyuM. emanuM sattvazIla jIvanalakSI vipula sAhitya cirakALa sudhI anekane preraNA ApatuM raheze. emanuM jIvana paNa evuM ja preraNAma hatuM. emanA nikaTa saMbaMdhamAM AvavAnuM amane sadbhAgya sAMpaDyuM hatuM. ahIM thoDAMka smaraNo tAjAM karuM chuM. zALA ane kolejanAM pAThyapustakomAM umAzaMkaranI kavitA bhaNavAnI AvI hatI tyArathI eTale ke kizorAvasthAthI ja umAzaMkaranA nAmathI huM suparicita thayo hato. muMbaImAM senTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM prathama varSamAM hato tyAre amArA adhyApako bAdarAyaNa ane pro. gaurIprasAda alAe umAzaMkara jozInuM gujarAtI kavitAnI AvatI kAla" e viSaya upara vyAkhyAna goThavyuM hatuM. e divase umAzaMkarane pahelI vAra joyelA. umAzaMkare vyAkhyAnanI zarUAtamAM kaheluM te Aje paNa yAda che. temaNe kahyuM hatuM ke, "mArI aTaka jozI che. huM mAnuM chuM ke mArI aTaka joIne AvatI kAlanI gujarAtI kavitA vize mane bolavAnuM nahi kahyuM hoya. AvatI kAlanI kavitA vize huM je kahIza te jyotiSI tarIke nahi, paNa kavitAnA pravAhamAM paDelA kavi tarIke kahIza." e divase umAzaMkarane sAMbhaLyA tyAre eka tejasvI kavi ane madhurarasika vidvAna vaktAne sAMbhaLavAno AnaMda anubhavyo. pachIthI to muMbaImAM jeTalI vAra temanAM vyAkhyAnono ke kAvyavAcanano kAryakrama hoya teTalI vAra temAM javAnuM acUka rAkhato. 1948mAM B.A. thayA pachI mArA pArasI mitra zrI mInu desAI sAthe gujarAtI saoNneTonuM saMpAdana manISA' nAmathI karavAnuM ame vicAryuM. te vakhate umAzaMkara sAthe mAre patravyavahAra thayo hato. patrano javAba na lakhavAnI umAzaMkaranI prakRti tyAre 128 caritradarzana

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haju vikasI na hatI, eTale patrano tarata javAba ApatA ane vigate salAha-sUcano ApatA, kAraNa ke saoNneTa emano eka priya kAvyaprakAra hato. e patravyavahArathI umAzaMkara sAthe paricaya thayo hato, paraMtu rUbarU maLIne vAto karavAno prasaMga haju tyAre sAMpaDyo nahoto. umAzaMkara sAthe mAre vyaktigata aMgata paricaya to vaDodarAmAM maLelA lekhakamilana vakhate I. sa. 1950mAM thayo hato. muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM gujarAtI viSaya sAthe huM prathama naMbare Avelo ane te pachIthI khabara paDelI ke amArA parIkSakomAM viSNuprasAda trivedI ane vijyarAya vaidya sAthe umAzaMkara jozI paNa hatA. lekhakamilanamAM meM mAro paricaya Apyo tyAre parIkSAnA pariNAmanI emaNe ja vAta kADhelI ane lekhamilananA kAryakramanA chellA divase cAMdodamAM rAtre nadIkinAre maLelI sabhAmAM badhAno paricaya umAzaMkare karAvyo te vakhate navA ema.e. thayelA yuvAnomAM niraMjana bhagata ane mAro paricaya karAvelo. e vakhate so-savAso jeTalA lekhakono umAzaMkare vigate paricaya karAvyo hato. te uparathI temanI adbhuta smaraNazaktinI pratyakSa prIti badhAne thaI hatI. vaDodarAnA saMmelana pachI umAzaMkarane muMbaImAM ane amadAvAdamAM vAraMvAra maLavAnuM thatuM. muMbaImAM paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM vyAkhyAna ApavA AvelA ane paramAnaMdabhAI kApaDiyAne tyAM UtarelA tyAre emanI sAthe gADha paricaya thayelo. mArAM patnIe tyAre sophiyA kaoNlejamAM emanuM vyAkhyAna paNa goThaveluM. sAhitya pariSadanA naDiyAdanA saMmelana vakhate, munazI pAsethI sAhitya pariSada levAnA AMdolana vakhate munazI sAthenI vATAghATamAM umAzaMkara vadhu paDato gusso karI beThelA e tyAM carcAno viSaya thaI gayelo. emanA gussA vize pachIthI mitroe Takora karelI. umAzaMkaranI yuvAnIno e Akroza sAhitya pariSadane choDAvavA mATeno hato. naDiyAdamAM sadbhAgye jyotsnAbahenanI sAthe eka ja rUmamAM mArAM patnI tArAbahenane utAro maLyo hato. ethI jyotsnAbahena sAthe ghaNI aMgata vAto thayelI. umAzaMkarane nAnI uMmare kSayaroganI asara thayelI ane te mATe umAzaMkare keTalI badhI kALajI rAkhIne e roga maTADelo tenI vAta jyotsnAbahene kahelI. vaLI ci. svAtinA janma pachI umAzaMkare AjIvana brahmacaryavrata svIkAreluM tenI vAta paNa jyoAbahene karelI. potAnAM AMtarajJAtIya premalagna hatAM te sAme emanAM sagAMsaMbaMdhIono keTalo virodha hato ane potAne keTaluM sahana karavuM paDeluM tenI vAta paNa karI hatI. 'sakhI meM kalpI'tI' kAvyanA racayitA ane 'manuja muja zI' tathA 'madhuratara umAzaMkara jozI * 129

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haiyAMnI racanA" kahenAra kavi umAzaMkara ane jyosnAbahenanuM dAmpatyajIvana atyaMta snehapUrNa ane prasanna hatuM. umAzaMkara jyotnAbahenanI saMbhALa bahu rAkhatA. umAzaMkaranA prema ane pratyutpannamatinAM udAharaNa tarIke jyotnAbahene kahelo eka prasaMga yAda Ave che. teo baMnene khAdI ke svadezI vastro paheravAno niyama hato. baMnee sAdAIthI jIvana jIvavAnuM nakkI kareluM. vaLI jyotnAbahene manathI evo niyama rAkhelo ke vadhumAM vadhu trIsa rUpiyA sudhInI sADI kharIdavI. eka vakhata jyotnAbahenane eka sADI bahu gamelI ane levAnuM nakkI karyuM, paraMtu enI kiMmata pUchatAM sADatrIsa rUpiyA che ema jANyuM eTale pote te levAnuM mAMDI vALyuM. sADI bahu sarasa che ane gamI gaI che eTale umAzaMkare te levAno Agraha karyo, paNa jyotnAbahene nA pADI. umAzaMkare kAraNa pUchyuM, eTale jyotmAbahene kahyuM ke vadhumAM vadhu trIsa rUpiyA sudhIno niyama che ane A sADInI kiMmata sADatrIsa rUpiyA che, mATe te levI nathI. umAzaMkara jyotnAbahenanI mUMjhavaNa samajI gayA. paraMtu sADI apAvavAnI emanI icchA prabaLa hatI. vaLI jyotnAbahenanI A koI aphara pratijJA nahotI. sAdAIthI ghara calAvavA mATe dhAraNa karelo sAmAnya niyama hato. eTale umAzaMkare vacalo mArga kADhI jyotnAbahenane samajAvatA kahyuM ke, "tamArA niyama pramANe A sADI laI zakAya ema che. vadhumAM vadhu trIsa rUpiyA sudhI eTale ke trIsa zabdanI sAthe je vadhumAM vadhu rakama Ave tyAM sudhI laI zakAya. 31thI. 38 sudhInI rakamomAM trIsa zabda Ave che eTale sADatrIsa ja nahi, ADatrIsa rUpiyA sudhI laI zakAya. ogaNacAlIsanI sADI na levAya.' Ama anukULa artha karI ane vizeSa to premapUrvaka khUba Agraha karI umAzaMkare jyosnAbahenane e sADI apAvelI. 1955mAM amadAvAdanI senTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM mAre gujarAtInA adhyApaka tarIke eka varSa bhaNAvavAnuM thayuM hatuM. amadAvAdamAM eka varSanA te nivAsa daramiyAna umAzaMkarane maLavA emanA AMbAvADInA nivAsasthAne ghaNI vAra jato. tyAre umAzaMkara eTalA vyasta nahotA. vaLI huM roja sAMje 5. sukhalAlajI pAse emane je kaMI vAMcavuM hoya te vAMcI ApavA mATe jato. umAzaMkara paNa emane maLavA mATe vakhatovakhata AvatA. ane e rIte emanI sAthe sArI sAhityagoSThi thatI. gujarAtI sAhitya pariSada munazI pAsethI laI levA mATe je AMdolana thayeluM temAM pahelI sahI paM. sukhalAlajInI hatI. te samaye paMDitajInA sAMnidhyamAM ghaNI vATAghATo thatI tathA pariSada munazI pAsethI levAyA pachI tenA navA baMdhAraNanI carcAo paMDitajInI hAjarImAM thatI. e vakhate umAzaMkara, jhINAbhAI, yazavaMta zukla, jayaMtI dalAla 10 ki caritradarzana

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vagerenI vicAradhArA kevI che teno pratyakSa paricaya thayelo. tyAre haju umAzaMkare gujarAta yunivarsiTImAM koI sthAna svIkAreluM nahi. bho. je. vidyAbhavanamAM mAnAI adhyApaka tarIke teo kAma karatA ane ekaMdare teo "saMskRti' calAvavAmAM ane sAhityalekhanamAM potAno badho samaya upayogamAM letA. umAzaMkare pAritoSika-evorDa vagere svIkAryo che ane tenA samAraMbhomAM hAjarI ApI che, paraMtu potAnAM pacAsa, sATha ke paMcotera varSa nimitte janma mahotsava UjavavAnI saMmati kyAreya ApI nathI. temane 50 varSa pUrAM thayAM tyAre, sATha varSa pUrAM thayAM tyAre, sittera varSa pUrAM thayAM tyAre ane chelle paMcotera varSa pUrAM thayAM tyAre dareka vakhate te te UjavavA mATe darakhAsta laIne keTalAka sAhityakAro temanI pAse gayA hatA, paraMtu teno temaNe kyAreya svIkAra karyo nahoto. emano e nirdhAra emanA abhijAta saMskArano dyotaka che. vaLI teo anya lekhako mATenI evA prakAranI mAtra uMmara sAthe saMkaLAyelI ujavaNInA kAryakramamAM koI sthAna svIkArIne bhAga letA nahi. (apavAdarUpa candravadana mahetAno amRta mahotsava.) keTalAMya varSa pahelAM muMbaInA eka sAhityakArane pacAsa varSa pUrAM thayAM tyAre temanI ujavaNInA kAryakramamAM pramukha tarIke umAzaMkara padhAraze evI jAherAta thaI hatI. e divasomAM mAre mAunTa Abu javAnuM thayuM hatuM. tyAM eka divasa basa sTenDa pAse umAzaMkara acAnaka maLI gayA. thoDI vAtacIta thaI. chUTA paDatI vakhate meM emane kahyuM, "have muMbaImAM nI 50 varSanI ujavaNI prasaMge tame pramukha tarIke AvavAnA cho tyAre maLIzuM." emaNe kahyuM, "e lokoe mAruM nAma jAhera karI dIdhuM che. paraMtu meM saMmati ApI nathI. meM spaSTa nA lakhI dIdhI che ane huM muMbaI javAno nathI. munazInI SaSTipUrtimAM jo meM bhAga na lIdho hoya to nI suvarNa jayaMtImAM bhAga levAnI zakyatA ja kyAMthI hoya? huM AvI ujavaNImAM mAnato nathI ane bIjAonI tevI ujavaNImAM zakya hoya tyAM sudhI bhAga paNa nathI leto." A bAbatamAM, khAsa karIne AtmazlAghAthI para rahevAnI bAbatamAM, temanI viziSTa dRSTi hatI. umAzaMkara sAhitya pariSadanA adhivezanomAM avazya upasthita rahetA ane nAnAmoTA aneka sAhityakAronI sAhityapravRttithI paricita rahetA. porabaMdaramAM gujarAtI sAhitya pariSadanA adhivezana vakhate mAro utAro bIjA badhA pratinidhio sAthe hato ane umAzaMkarano utAro eka gesTa hAusamAM hato. te vakhate umAzaMkare sthAnika kAryakartAone sUcanA ApIne mAro utAe potAnI sAthe gesTa hAusamAM rakhAvyo hato. be divasa satata sAthe rahevAnuM thayuM. mArA pIeca.DI.nA abhyAsaviSaya "naLadamayaMtInI kathAmAM emane paNa bahu rasa hato. te vakhate kavi umAzaMkara jozI 131

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bhAlaNanA kahevAtA bIjA naLAkhyAna'nI banAvaTa kevI rIte thaI che tenI sAbitIo meM jyAre emane batAvI tyAre teo khUba rAjI thayA hatA. umAzaMkara jyAre koI kAryakrama mATe muMbaImAM Ave tyAre emane maLavA mATe samayanI ghaNI kheMca rahe. keTalIka vAra to jAhera kAryakramane aMte emane maLavA eTalA badhA sAhityakAro, mitro, cAhako hoya ke mAMDa be miniTa paNa vAta karavAnI taka maLe to maLe. paraMtu emane nirAMte maLavAno eka upAya te sTezana upara jaI TrenanA DabAmAM maLavAno hato. teo amadAvAda pAchA pharatA hoya tyAre bombe senTrala upara TrenanA kampArTamenTamAM aDadhA kalAka pahelAM teo pote ghaNuMkharuM ekalA beThA hoya. AvI rIte bombe senTrala sTezana para temane keTalIya vAra maLyo chuM. eka vakhata e rIte temane maLavA mATe gayo hato tyAre saMskRtanA adhyApaka paMDita zrI narmadAzaMkara zAstrI paNa tyAM AvelA. temanI sAthe umAzaMkara saMskRtamAM vAtacIta karatA. te vakhate umAzaMkare mane bhalAmaNa karatAM kahyuM ke have to muMbaImAM skUlakaoNlejamAMthI saMskRta bhASA nIkaLatI jAya che. tame tamArAM baMne bALakone atyArathI ja saMskRta bhASA zIkhavavAnuM cAlu karI do. vaLI e zIkhavavA mATe tarata emaNe emanA vatananA mitra narmadAzaMkara zAstrIne bhalAmaNa karI. e samayathI zAstrIjI niyamita amArAM baMne saMtAnone saMskRta bhaNAvavA mATe ghare AvavA lAgyA ane traNeka varSamAM to amArI putrI ci. zailajA saMskRta bhASAmAM vAtacIta ane bhASaNa paNa karavA lAgI hatI. enI A pragati joI umAzaMkarane ghaNo harSa thayo hato. temaNe zailajAne saMskRtano mahAvaro cAlu rAkhavAnI bhalAmaNa karelI ane dAkhalo ApatAM kaheluM ke potAnI putrI svAti speniza bhASA sarasa zIkhI hatI, paNa have bhAratamAM mahAvaro rahyo nathI eTale bhUlavA lAgI che. teo zailajAne kyAreka saMskRtamAM zlokarUpe patra lakhatA. zailajA iMglenDa, yuropanA pravAsethI pAchI AvI tyAre emaNe lakhyuM hatuM ? satputri zailaje devabhASAvidyA vibhUSite / tanme kathaya yat prAptaM tatrAGladezadarzane / ci. zailajA muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM InTara A bhadhyamA)nI parIkSAmAM vIsa hajAra vidyArthIomAM prathama naMbare AvI e samAcAra jANIne potAno AnaMda nIcenA zlokamAM vyakta karato patra emaNe ci. zailajAne lakhyo hato : prathamA madhyamAyAM tvaM parIkSAyAM tu rAjase / sadApriyA sarasvatyAH saMprasAdaM samApnuhi // mumbApuryAM vasiSyAmi kAMzcid vai divasAnaham / pUjyAM mAtAmahIM vatse pitarau bhrAtaraM tathA // 13ra ja caritradarzana

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bhadre kathaya bhavatAM dazanArthaM kvacid gRham / AgamiSyAmi, na punara nivAsayeti zailaje // gurave tava sanmitranarmadAzaMkarAya ca 1 sneha-sohArdapUrNo'yaM namaskAro vidhIyate // vaDodarAnI mahArAjA sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTImAM gujarAtI vibhAga thayo te vakhate prophesaranA hoddA mATe gujarAtamAMthI koNa yogya che tenI vicAraNA cAlelI ane haMsAbahena mahetA tathA ramaNalAla vasaMtalAla desAInI icchA evI hatI ke e sthAne umAzaMkara Ave to sAruM. paraMtu umAzaMkare kaheluM ke pote arajI nahi kare. potAne nimaMtraNa ApavAmAM Ave to kadAca teo svIkAre. yunivarsiTInA niyama anusAra arajI karavI anivArya hatI, paraMtu umAzaMkare arajI karI nahi ane mahArAjA sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTImAM umAzaMkara joDAyA nahi. paraMtu tyAra pachI keTalAMka varSe gujarAta yunivarsiTImAM jyAre gujarAtInA prophesaranI posTa jAhera karavAmAM AvI te vakhate ghaNA mitro ane vaDIlonA dabANane vaza thaI umAzaMkare gujarAta yunivarsiTImAM arajI karI hatI. teo yunivarsiTImAM joDAyA ane gujarAtInA adhyApaka ane vibhAganA adhyakSa tarIke ghaNAM varSo sudhI kAma karyuM ane tyAra pachI e yunivarsiTImAM kulapati tarIke paNa temaNe sevA ApI. yunivarsiTImAM e sthAne AvyA pachI umAzaMkaranI javAbadArIo, saMparko, pravRttio eTalAM badhAM vadhI gayAM ke pachIthI emane nirAMte maLavAnuM durlabha thavA lAgyuM. ghaNe ThekANe hAjarI ApavAnI hoya, samaya sAcavavAno hoya ane kAmo karavAnAM hoya eTale icchA hovA chatAM paNa pote badhAMnI sAthe pahelAMnI jema mukta manathI haLImaLI zakatA nahotA. amRtasa2mAM pI.I.ena.nA saMmelanamAM teo nirAMte maLyA tyAre e vize meM emanuM dhyAna doreluM. muMbaImAM amAre ghare UtaravA mATe jyotsnAbahene ApelA vacananI yAda apAvelI ane pote vacana jarUra pALaze evI khAtarI ApelI. muMbaImAM umAzaMkara Ave tyAre umedabhAI maNiyAra, vADIlAla DagalI ke anya koInA ghare Utare. amArA ghare UtaravA mATe agAuthI ame patra lakhatA tyAre traNeka vAra teo amArA ghare UtarelA. "amAruM ghara nAnuM che eTale agavaDa to nahi paDe ne ?'' ema ame pUcheluM tyAre emaNe kaheluM ke "mANasane sUvA mATe cha phUTanI jagyA joIe. eTalI jagA maLI rahe tyAM game te sthaLe UtarI zakAya. umedabhAInA ghare jo huM UtarI zakuM to tamArA ghare UtaravAmAM koI prazna ja na hoya." sAdAIthI jIvana jIvavAnI emanI pAse sarasa kaLA hatI. chelle umAzaMkara amAre tyAM AvelA tyAre ziyALAmAM dilhIthI AvelA umAzaMkara jozI * 133

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hovAthI garama lAMbo koTa ane bUTamojAM paherIne AvelA. paraMtu muMbaImAM jarA paNa ThaMDI nahi. paMkhA cAle. be divasa rokAyA pachI umAzaMkara amadAvAda vimAnamAM javAnA hatA. ame eraporTa upara mUkavA mATe nIkaLyA. thoDe gayA tyAM emane yAda AvyuM ke garama koTa ane bUTamojAM ghare bhulAI gayAM che. samaya to haju hAthamAM hato eTale ame pAchA pharyA ane koTa tathA bUTamojAM laI lIdhAM. tyAre umAzaMkare kaheluM ke "have vRddhAvasthAnA kAraNe smRti upara asara thavA lAgI che. joke emaNe kahyuM hatuM topaNa emanI smRti to jIvananA aMtima divaso sudhI eTalI ja sateja rahI hatI. umAzaMkara ghaNuMkharuM patronA javAba lakhatA nahi paraMtu patra lakhanAra betraNa varSe paNa koI sabhAmAM ke bIje kyAMya maLI jAya to e patranI vigata emane yAda hoya. keTalAM badhAM kuTuMbonAM badhAM ja sabhyonAM nAma temane yAda rahetAM. emanI smRti mAtra graMtho pUratI ja nahi, vyakti ane prasaMgo mATe paNa eTalI ja tAjI rahetI. eka vakhata umAzaMkara amArA ghare AvyA tyAre eTalA prasanna na hatA. thoDI vAra vAtacIta thayA pachI meM kahyuM, "A vakhate tame bahu prasanna dekhAtA nathI." tyAre emaNe kahyuM, "sAcI vAta che. mane svAtinI ciMtA che, e dilhImAM ekalI rahe che. thoDA divasa pahelAM e bhaNAvavA gaI hatI tyAre enA gharamAM corI thaI. emAM enI keTalIka sArI managamatI sADIo paNa corAI gaI che. corInI A ghaTanAthI svAti asvastha thaI gaI che. mAre amadAvAda jaI tarata dilhI javuM che." meM kahyuM, "tame have rAjyasabhAmAMthI nivRtta thayA eTale tamAre dilhI rahevAnuM khAsa kAraNa rahyuM nahi. naMdinI amadAvAdamAM tamArI sAthe che, to svAtine paNa amadAvAda bolAvI lo ne !" emaNe kahyuM, "paNa e mATe svAtine amadAvAdamAM ene yogya nokarI maLavI joIe ne ?" kahyuM, "tame dhAro to svAtine amadAvAdamAM koI paNa sArI jagyAe yogya nokarI apAvI zako. tamAruM kAma karavA sau koI rAjI hoya." paraMtu umAzaMkara niruttara rahyA. emanA mananA bhAvane huM samajI zakyo. potAnA kAma mATe koIne kazuM ja na kahevuM evI potAnI prakRtine teo choDavA IcchatA na hatA. meM kahyuM, "ame keTalAka mitro A bAbatamAM e javAbadArI upADI laIe ?" paraMtu te mATe paNa temaNe bahu utsAha darzAvyo nahi. Avo koI AyAsa temane game paNa nahi. khumArIbharyuM jIvana teo zA mATe choDe ? - umAzaMkara prAmANikatA ane vyavahArazuddhinA AgrahI hatA. muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM Thakkara vasanajI mAdhavajI vyAkhyAno ApelAM tyAre te lekhita svarUpe nahotAM ApyAM eTale emaNe puraskAra levAno inkAra karelo. pachI jyAre rekTara 14 eka caritradarzana

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jI. DI. parIkhe batAvyuM ke yunivarsiTInA niyamomAM lekhita vyAkhyAno ApavAnuM koI baMdhana nathI tyAre temaNe e puraskAra svIkArelo. eka vakhata mAre ghare hatA tyAre koI saMsthAe emane ghaNAMbadhAM pustako bheTa ApyAM. moTAM baMDalo thayAM. amadAvAda javAnA hatA tyAre mane kahyuM, "ramaNabhAI! ApaNe sTezane aDadho kalAka vahelA pahoMcavuM che. sAmAnanuM vajana karAvavuM che." meM kahyuM, "pharsTa klAsamAM ATalo sAmAna to laI jaI zakAze." emaNe kahyuM, "chatAM zaMkAmAM na rahevuM. eka kilo jeTaluM vajana vadhAre hoya to bhale koI ApaNane kaMI na pUche; paNa ajANatAM ApaNe manathI to gunegAra thaIe. mATe vajana karAvIne ja javuM che." umAzaMkara jyAre maLe tyAre pravAsanI ghaNI vAto nIkaLe. teo dareka vakhate mane Takora kare ke pravAsanAM anubhavo-saMsmaraNo tarata lakhI levAM joIe. pravAsaanubhavo lakhavAnI bAbatamAM potAno ja dAkhalo ApatAM temaNe kahyuM ke "juone ! mArA potAnA pravAsanAM saMsmaraNo lakhavAnuM keTalAM badhAM varSothI ThelAtuM jAya che !" yuropanA pravAsethI huM ane mArAM patnI pAchAM pharyA hatAM ane tyAra pachI emanI ja bhalAmaNathI mAre oNsTreliyA javAnuM thayuM hatuM. tyAre emaNe tarata mane tA. 167-'77nA patramAM lakhyuM hatuM ke "prabuddha jIvanamAM tamArA sukharUpa pAchA pharyAnA vigate samAcAra vAMcI prasannatA thaI. badhAM khUba khUba tAjAM, manathI ne cittathI thayAM hazo ! tame to tarata pUrva tarapha pravAse cAlyA. pravAsavarNano TUMko paNa tarata lakhI devAM sArAM. pachI rahI jAya che, ghaNI vAra to navA pravAsa kheDavAmAM." pAsaporTanI pAMkhe ane pradeza jayavijayanA" e be mArAM pravAsa-pustakonA lekhanamAM A rIte umAzaMkaranI preraNA rahelI che. eka vakhata huM umedabhAI maNiyArane maLavA gayo tyAre "saMskRtinI vAta nIkaLI. temaNe mane kahyuM, ""saMskRti baMdha karavAno vicAra umAzaMkara kare che, kAraNa ke grAhako bahu ja ochA che. "saMskRti mATe ApaNe muMbaIthI baso-traNaso navA grAhako jo karI ApIe to "saMskRtine vAMdho na Ave." e mATe mArAthI banatI sahAya karavAnuM ane bAra mahinAmAM keTalAka sakhAvatI bhAIonI sahAyathI baso jeTalA navA grAhakonuM lavAjama bharAvI ApavAnuM meM vacana ApyuM ane e dizAmAM keTaluMka kAma paNa karyuM. tyAra pachI umAzaMkara jyAre muMbaI AvyA tyAre mArA ghare emanI pAse meM ane umedabhAIe te mATe prastAva mUkyo. umAzaMkare te mATe spaSTa nA kahI. temaNe kahyuM, " "saMskRtine mAre AvI rIte jivADavuM nathI. "saMskRti potAnuM bhAgya haze tyAM sudhI cAlaze. "saMskRti' baMdha thAya tethI mane kaMI kSobha thaze nahi. umAzaMkara jozI -ka 135

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meM ghaNAM varSa sudhI ekale hAthe calAvyuM che. jIvananA aMta sudhI e calAvavuM ja joIe evo Agraha zA mATe rAkhavo ? "saMskRti' e Mass mATenuM nahi, paNa Class mATenuM sAmayika che. eTale enA grAhako ochA ja hovAnA e to pahelethI ja, e zarU karyuM tyArathI ja nakkI hatuM. eTale saMskRti' baMdha thAya te mATe aphasosa karavAno na hoya." "saMskRti calAvavA mATenA temanA AvA nispRha ane mamatvamukta vicAro jANyA pachI amAre vizeSa kaMI kahevAnuM rahyuM nahi. saMskRtinA navA grAhako banAvavAnI yojanA meM ane umedabhAIe umAzaMkaranA kahevAthI paDatI mUkI hatI. muMbaImAM Ave tyAre umAzaMkara game teTalAM rokANomAM vyasta hoya topaNa umedabhAI maNiyArane maLavA mATe acUka samaya kADhe. eka vakhata mArA ghare jyAre UtaryA hatA tyAre eka kAryakramamAMthI pAchAM pharatAM amane lagabhaga rAtanA agiyAra vAgI gayA hatA. rastAmAM temaNe mane kahyuM, "ApaNe umedabhAInA ghare jaIzuM ? tamane moDuM to nathI thatuM ne ?" meM kahyuM, "nA, mane moDuM nathI thatuM. paraMtu agiyAra vAgI gayA che ane emanA ghare pahoMcatAM sADA agiyAra thaze. teo sUI gayA haze." umAzaMkare kahyuM, "umedabhAI sAmAnya rIte vahelA sUtA nathI. ane sUI gayA haze to ApaNe emane uThADIzuM. mitra tarIke eTalo ApaNane hakka che." ame umedabhAInA ghare pahoMcyA tyAre teo pathArImAM ADA paDyA hatA. jAgatA hatA. gharanI lAiTa cAlu hatI. umAzaMkarane joIne umedabhAI tarata beThA thayA. utsAhamAM AvI gayA. paraspara vAto cAlI. vidyAbahene amArA mATe cA mUkI. lagabhaga doDha kalAka vItI gayo. miniTe miniTe khaDakhaDATa hasavAnuM thAya e to kharuM ja, paraMtu umedabhAI ane umAzaMkara baMne potAnA taddana nikhAlasa abhiprAyo paNa vyakta kare, jANe baMnene potAnA mananI vAta kazI ja chupAvavAnI na hoya. kaTAkSa paNa kare. A be mitronuM AvuM nikhAlasa milana mArA mATe navuM hatuM. baMne vaDIlo sAthe pUrI AtmIyatA hatI. eTale temanI spaSTa vAtacItamAM mArI upasthitino temane kazo ja vAMdho nahoto. teoe uccArelA abhiprAyo mArI pAsethI kyAMya jaze nahi tenI paNa temane khAtarI hatI. pAchAM pharatAM umAzaMkare kahyuM, "huM muMbaI AvuM tyAre mana haLavuM karavA umedabhAIne acUka maLe. keTalIka vAra jAheramAM ke bIjI koI vyakti pAse koI ghaTanA ke vyakti vize je koI abhiprAya ke koI mAhitI uccArI na zakAya te huM umedabhAI AgaLa avazya rajU karuM. mArI pravRttio vize ke lakhANo vize bIjA saunA prazaMsAtmaka abhiprAyo ja hoya. umedabhAI mane sAcI Takora karI zake. te 136 1 caritradarzana

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jANavAne mATe paNa huM utsuka houM. umedabhAI yAda rAkhIne badhI ja vAto kare. sAhityajagatanA ke sAmAjika jAhera jIvananA Under Currents umedabhAI pAsethI jANavA maLe tyAre vastusthiti upara vadhu prakAza paDe." imarajansI vakhate umAzaMkara bahu vyAkuLa rahetA. muMbaImAM jaina yuvaka saMghanA upakrame traNa vyAkhyAno ApavA mATe emaNe mane saMmati paNa ApI hatI ane tArIkho paNa chapAI gaI hatI. paraMtu imarajansI jAhera thayA pachI umAzaMkare e kAryakrama mATe nA pADI hatI ane kahyuM hatuM ke, jyAM sudhI imarajansI che tyAM sudhI huM jAheramAM bolavAnuM TALuM chuM, kAraNa ke mukta manathI bolI zakAtuM nathI. mArA vaktavyamAM sarakAra viruddha vAta AvavAnI che evuM nathI, paraMtu vANI upara jANe bhAra hoya tevuM lAge che." te samaye emaNe rAjyasabhAmAM paNa potAno Akroza. vyakta karyo hato. e divasomAM umAzaMkara keTalA badhA saMvedanazIla hatA teno eka prasaMga umedabhAI maNiyAre kahyo hato. umAzaMkara ane umedabhAI vAlakezvaranA rastA uparathI cAlyA jatA hatA, evAmAM sAIrana vAgI ane khabara paDI ke indirA gAMdhI e rastethI pasAra thaI rahyAM che. e samAcAra jANatAM ja umAzaMkara jhaDapathI mukhya rastAthI thoDA dUra cAlyA gayA. e joI umedabhAI to vicAramAM paDI gayA. indirA gAMdhInI moTaragADI pasAra thaI gaI eTale umAzaMkara pAchA AvyA. umedabhAIe pUchayuM ke "tame kema Ama karyuM?" umAzaMkare kahyuM, "je bAIe AkhA dezanI buddhimattAnuM apamAna karyuM che, te bAIno cahero paNa ApaNI najare zA mATe paDavA daIe ?' umAzaMkaranI imarajansInA vakhatanI cUla ane sUkSma vyAkuLatA kevI hatI te A prasaMga darzAve che. umAzaMkara jozInuM 19mI Disembara 1988nA roja, 77 varSanI uMmare muMbaImAM kensaranI bImArIthI avasAna thayuM. avasAnanA thoDA divasa pahelAM haoNspiTalamAM ame gharanAM badhAM emanI khabara kADhavA gayAM hatAM. teo eTalA ja svastha hatA. emanI smRti paNa eTalI ja sateja hatI. amArA baMne saMtAno ci. zailajA ane ci. amitAbhane, amAre ghare pote UtaratA te samayanA prasaMgo sahita yAda karyA hatAM. emanI sAthenuM e chelluM yAdagAra milana hatuM. - umAzaMkara ane jyotmAbahena baMne muMbaImAM avasAna pAmyAM. baMnee potAnA dAmpatyajIvananI ane kArakirdInI zarUAta muMbaIthI karelI. pachI amadAvAdamAM kAyamano nivAsa karyo. paNa baMnee aMtima zvAsa muMbaInI bhUmimAM lIdho. emAM paNa koI yogAnuyoga ja haze ! umAzaMkara jozI - 137

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umAzaMkara sAthe emanAM kuTuMbIjano, sagAMsaMbaMdhIo, mitro vagere aneka vyaktio karatAM amAro saMbaMdha keTalo badho ocho hato. tema chatAM umAzaMkaranA Ama, keTalA badhA prasaMgo najara sAme taravare che ! satata paribhramaNazIla rahenAra ane satata aneka vyaktionA saMparkamAM AvanAra, satata tAgIsabhara evA emanA vyaktitvanAM vividha pAsAMno paricaya ke anubhava anekane thayo haze ! emanA preraka ane prabhAvaka jIvanamAMthI amArI jema anekane preraNA maLatI raheze ! ('vaMdanIya hRdayasparzamAMthI) 138 caritradarzana

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16 caMdravadana mahetA suprasiddha nATyakAra zrI caMdravadana cImanalAla mahetAnuM vaDodarAmAM tA. 4thI me, 1991nA roja nevuM varSanI uMmare avasAna thayuM. emanA avasAnathI eka samartha sAhityasvAmI ane uSmAbharyA vaDIla svajana gumAvyAnuM duHkha anubhavyuM. ilAkAvyo'nA kavi, 'AgagADI', 'nAgAbAvA', "mUMgI strI' vagere nATyakRtionA lekhaka, bAMdha gaThariyAM', "choDa gaThariyAM', "saphara gaThariyAM', reDiyo gaThariyAM' vagere gaThariyAMonA sarjaka, bhAratamAM ane videzomAM keTakeTalI pariSadomAM pramukhasthAna dharAvanAra, ola InDiyA reDiyonA DAyarekTara, raNajitarAma suvarNacaMdraka ane evA bIjA caMdrako ane pAritoSika meLavanAra, AjhAdInI laDatamAM satyAgrahI tarIke bhAga lenAra. gAMdhIjInA 'navajIvanamAM saMpAdakIya kAryavAhI karanAra, padmazrIno IlkAba dharAvanAra, keTalIka yunivarsiTIomAM vijhiTiMga prophesaranuM nimaMtraNa meLavanAra, mAnAha DokTareTanI padavI prApta karanAra, satata pravAsa karanAra, aneka kuTuMbo sAthe gharobo dharAvanAra, tarakhATavALA, mijAje kaDaka ane dilathI komaLa evA caMdravadana mahetA sarvatomukhI pratibhA dharAvanAra "jiniyasa' hatA. umAzaMkara jozI, sundaramsneharazminA avasAna pachI caMdravadananI vidAyathI gAMdhIyuganA trIsInA sarjaka kavilekhakono yuga have AthamI gayo hoya tevuM bhAse che. caMdravadana mahetAne meM pahelavahelA joyA amArI jheviyarsa kolejamAM 1944mAM. amArA prAdhyApaka kavi bAdarAyaNa emane vyAkhyAna mATe amArA vargamAM laI AvyA hatA. bAdarAyaNa (bhAnuzaMkara vyAsa) ane caMdravadana mahetA elphinsTana kaoNlejamAM kavivivecaka narasiMharAvanA vidyArthI hatA ane ethI emanI vacce gADha maitrI hatI. eTale candravadana vyAkhyAna ApavAnA che e jANIne mane bahu AnaMda caMdravadana mahetA : 139

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thayo hato. sAhityamAM mane rasa hato ane kaoNlejakALamAM je nATako bahu rasathI meM vAMcyAM hatAM temAM caMdravadananAM nATako vadhu rasathI meM vAMcyAM hatAM. eTale vargamAM teo jyAre AvyA tyAre "AgagADI', 'nAgAbAvA', "mUMgI strI' vagerenA lekhaka tarIke te mane pahelI vAra maLyA. temanuM vaktavya spaSTa ane dhAradAra, kyAreka kaTAkSamaya hatuM. beparavAIno raNako temAM sAMbhaLavA maLe. nATakanA saMvAdo abhinaya sAthe teo bolatA. vyAkhyAna pUruM thayA pachI amArA vidyArthI mitromAM vAta sAMbhaLavA maLI ke caMdravadane potAnI patnI sAthe chUTAcheDA lIdhA che. e divasomAM AvA samAcAra bahu AghAtajanaka gaNAtA. AvA sarasa lekhaka sAthe emanI patnIne kema nahi banyuM hoya tevo prazna amArA vidyArthI mAnasane satAvato rahyo hato. pachIthI teo emanA vicchinna dAmpatyajIvananI ane caMdravadananI kheladilInI ghaNI vAto jANavA maLI hatI. keTalIka vAto to tyAra pachI emanA mukhethI paNa sAMbhaLI hatI. - caMdravadana sAthe patravyavahArano prasaMga mATe 1948mAM thayo hato. huM "sAMja vartamAna'nA taMtrI vibhAgamAM patrakAra tarIke kAma karato. mArA mitra zrI mInu desAI sAthe manISA' nAmanA soneTasaMgrahanuM saMpAdana huM karato hato. e vakhate soneTa chApavA mATe anumati meLavavA gujarAtanA kavione ame patro lakhelA. emAM sauthI umaLakAbharyo sahakAra caMdravadana taraphathI maLelo. keTalAke puraskAranI nAnI rakamano vAMdho pADelo, keTalAke jAtajAtanI zarato karelI. paraMtu caMdravadane lakheluM ke 'tamAre mArAM je soneTa chApavAM hoya te chApo. mAre puraskAranI rakama joItI nathI. tame yuvAna cho, utsAhI cho, binaanubhavI cho ane gAMThanA paisA kharacIne saMpAdana chapAvavAnA cho. eTale huM puraskAra levAno nathI. emanA uSmAbharyA uttarathI amane bahu ja AnaMda thayo. tyAra pachI pustaka chapAI jatAM tenI nakala ApavA ame vaDodarA gayA hatA ane emane rUbarU maLyA hatA. te vakhate paNa eTalI ja uSmAthI emaNe amane AvakAra Apyo hato ane amArI sAthe sAhityajagatanI ghaNI vAto karI hatI. alabatta, A alpa samayanI eka aupacArika mulAkAta hatI. caMdravadanane muMbaImAM sabhAomAM ane reDiyo upara aneka vAra sAMbhaLyA hatA. paraMtu amAro paraspara nikaTano paricaya khAsa thayo na hato. mArA karatAM uMmaramAM teo pacIsa varSa moTA eTale e aMtara to hatuM ja, paraMtu kudaratI rIte ja emanI sAthe I. sa. 1970 sudhI mAre vizeSa aMgata paricayamAM AvavAnuM thayuM na hatuM. eka vakhata phArbasa gujarAtI sabhAmAM kAryAlaya maMtrI tarIke joDAyelA zrI bhRgurAya aMjAriyAe mane kahyuM hatuM ke "caMdravadana tamane maLavA mAge che. e sAMbhaLIne mane bahu ja AnaMda thayo hato. caMdravadana pharatA phare. vaDodarAmAM vadhAre 140 - caritradarzana

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rahe ane muMbaImAM miTiMga ke kAryakrama hoya tyAre Ave. eTale emanA eka kAryakramanA aMte zrI bhRgurAye mArA mATe maLavAnuM goThavyuM hatuM. maLyA tyAre caMdravadane kahyuM ke 'jhAlAsAheba ane manasukhalAla jhaverI pAsethI tamAruM nAma to ghaNAM varSothI sAMbhaLyuM che, paraMtu paricaya bahu thayo nathI." pachI mukhya vAta karatAM emaNe kahyuM ke, "gujarAtI sAhityanA saMzodhanakSetramAM tame kAma karo cho ane muMbaI yunivarsiTInA gujarAtI vibhAganA adhyakSa cho. eTale mArI icchA tamane phArbasa gujarAtI sabhAnI samitimAM levAnI che." meM kahyuM: "paNa huM to phArbasano sabhya nathI." to tarata emaNe AjJA karI ke "tarata sabhya thaI jAva." pachI bhRgurAyane e mATe tarata sUcanA ApI dIdhI. huM phArbasano sabhya thayo ane pachI samitimAM joDAyo. tyAra pachI caMdravadanane aneka vAra maLavAnuM thayuM. samaya jatAM emanI sAthe majAka-mazkarI karI zakAya evI eka prakAranI atyaMta nikaTanI AtmIyatA sadhAI gaI. phArbasa samitimAM joDAyA pachI caMdravadanane niyamita maLavAnuM thatuM gayuM. dareka miTiMgamAM pachInI miTiMganI tArIkha nakkI thaI jAya, kAraNa ke caMdravadana aneka ThekANe pharatA phare. emanI DAyarI traNa-cAra mahinA agAuthI bharAyelI hoya. keTalIka vAra to cha-ATha mahinA pachInI emanI tArIkha koIka saMsthAe ke yunivarsiTIe emanI pAse nakkI karAvI lIdhI hoya. phArbasanI amArI miTiMga pUrI thAya eTale caMdravadana DAyarI kADhe. tArIkha vicArAya. koIka tArIkha ane sUcavIe to teo nA pADe. ame pUchIe ke "tame rokAyelA cho e divase ?" to kahe "nA, rokAyelo nathI, paNa e divase amAsa che. divasa sAro nathI." caMdravadana jyotiSanA jANakAra hatA ane zubhAzubha divasa ke coghaDiyAno agAuthI vicAra karatA. Ama chatAM teo vahemI nahotA. phArbasanI amArI miTiMgamAM jyotIndra dave maMtrI hatA. caMdravadana ane jyotIndra baMne samavayaska. bALapaNa baMnenuM suratamAM vIteluM. baMne nirAMte maLe eTale suratanAM ghaNAM saMsmaraNo vAgoLe. suratanA eka jUnI peDhInA prakAzaka baMnenAM pustako vagarapUche chApI nAkhe ane royalTInI rakama Ape nahi. e mATe jyotIndra potAnuM duHkha vyakta kare, paNa saujanyazIla svabhAvane kAraNe lakhe nahi ke ugharANI kare nahi. caMdravadana royalTInI bAbatamAM bephikara, paNa khijAya to prakAzakane dhadhaDAvIne kAgaLa lakhe. caMdravadana ane jyotIndranAM ghaNAM smaraNo A rIte amArI miTiMgamAM tAjAM thAya. miTiMganA samaya karatAM aDadho kalAka ke kalAka vahelAM AvIne baMne beThA hoya. emanA anubhavo sAMbhaLavA maLe eTale huM paNa vahelo pahoMcyo houM. baMnene keTalAye caMdravadana mahetA - 141

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jAhera kAryakramomAM satata javAnuM hoya eTale emanI vAto anubhavasiddha hoya. baMne kheladila paNa eTalA ja. emano eka lAkSaNika anubhava bhulAya evo nathI. eka vakhata suratanI koI eka saMsthAe eka kAryakrama mATe pramukha tarIke jyotIndra davene nimaMtraNa ApyuM. saMsthAnA bIjA koI kAryakartAe e ja kAryakrama mATe bhUlathI caMdravadana mahetAne pramukha tarIke padhAravA mATe nimaMtraNa ApeluM. kAryakramamAM baMne pahoMcyA tyAre khabara paDI ke kaMIka goTALo thayelo che. kAryakartAo mUMjhAyA. jyotIndra ane caMdravadana kheladila eTale gusso na karyo. baMnee toDa kADhyo ke kAryakramamAM eka pramukhane badale be pramukha rahe. pramukha tarIke aDadhuM vAkya caMdravadana bole ane te vAkya jyotIndra pUruM kare. pachI aDadhuM vAkya jyotIndra bole ane te caMdravadana pUruM kare. Ama sabhAnA pramukha be, paNa bhASaNa eka rahe. A rIte aDadho kalAka baMnee vArApharatI bolIne kAryakramane vadhu rasika, saphaLa ane yAdagAra banAvyo. phArbasamAMthI bhRgurAya aMjAriyA chUTA thayA pachI samitimAM paNa thoDA pheraphAro thayA. samitinA ghaNA sabhyo muMbaInA koTa vistAramAM kAma kare ane sAMjane samaye phArbasa sudhI pahoMcavAnuM agharuM paDe. eTale miTiMga paNa koTa vistAramAM bolAvAtI. aDadho kalAka ke kalAka vahelA AvavAne TevAyelA caMdravadana ekalA beThA mUMjhAya. eka vakhata mane kahe : "saMsthAnI miTiMga saMsthAnA kAryAlayamAM hoya emAM ja enuM gaurava che. bIje miTiMga thAya che te mane pasaMda nathI." phArbasanuM pramukhapada AjIvana hoya che. agAunA pramukho A rIte AjIvana rahelA. caMdravadane phArbasamAMthI pramukha tarIke rAjInAmuM ApyuM. uMmarane kAraNe haze ema meM mAnyuM. e pramukhasthAnanI javAbadArI mAre mAthe AvI. meM emane AzIrvAda mATe patra lakhyo. emaNe patramAM zubhAziSa sAthe potAnA duHkhanI vAta karI. chUTA thavAmAM uMmaranuM koI kAraNa nathI, kAraNa ke haju AkhI duniyAmAM pote doDAdoDa kare che, paraMtu phArbasamAM potAne rasa rahe evuM have vAtAvaraNa nathI. anya paNa keTalAMka kAraNo emaNe patramAM lakhyAM ane rUbarU maLyA tyAre paNa jaNAvyAM. caMdravadana ekalA ane vaLI pharatA rAma. AthI teo aneka lokonA aMgata saMparkamAM AvelA hoya. emanI yAdazakti paNa sArI. badhAnA svabhAvathI paNa paricita hoya. caMdravadanane maLIe eTale jUnA vakhatanA aneka anubhavonI vAta paNa sAMbhaLavA maLe. caMdravadana nATakanA kSetranA mahArathI. jUnI raMgabhUmi upara bhajavAyelAM nATako paNa emaNe lagabhaga badhAM ja joyelAM. muMbaImAM AMkhanA niSNAta DaoN. DI. jI. vyAsa saMgIta ane nATyakalAnA premI hatA. teo paNa jUnI raMgabhUmi para bhajavAtAM nATakonA zokhIna ane sArA abhyAsI hatA. keTalAMye nATakonA saMvAdo 14ra : caritradarzana

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tene moDhe rahetA. temano kaMTha paNa madhura hato. teo bhAratIya ane pAzcAtya saMgItanI sArI jANakArI dharAve. nATakonAM gItonI keTalIye paMktio paNa temane kaMThastha rahetI. teo ane caMdravadana maLe eTale nATakanI duniyAnI ghaNI vAto nIkaLe. saMvAdo bolAya, gIto lalakArAya. samaya kyAM pasAra thaI jAya tenI khabara nA rahe. eka vakhata caMdravadananI AMkhanuM oparezana Do. DI. jI. vyAsa karavAnA hatA. oparezana Tebala para oparezana karatAM karatAM Do. vyAse caMdravadana sAthe koIka nATakanI vAta kADhI. caMdravadana oparezana Tebala paranA pezanTa che e teo bhUlI gayA. caMdravadana kahetA te pramANe DaoNkTara sAhebe to raMgamAM AvI jaIne eka nATakanA saMvAda bolavAnuM cAlu karyuM. AMkhamAM cIpiyo bharAvelo. pachIthI DaoNkTara hAthamAM ojAro sAthe gIta lalakAravA lAgyA. thoDI vAra to DaoNkTarane kahevuM ke na kahevuM tenA vicAramAM caMdravadana paDI gayA. paNa chevaTe caMdravadanane Takora karavI paDI ke "DaoNkTarasAheba, pahelAM oparezana pUruM karo. pachI nATakanI vAta karIzuM." caMdravadana sabhAsaMcAlanamAM aupacArikatAnA khUba AgrahI hatA. ApaNe tyAM bhAratamAM sabhAsaMcAlananI bAbatamAM aupacArikatA sAcavavA aMge ghaNI zithilatA pravarte che. keTalAMka saMcAlano to DhaMgadhaDA vagaranAM thatAM hoya che. pramukhasthAne beThelI vyaktine chellI be miniTa bolavA maLe to maLe. phAlatu vaktAo mAIka jaladI choDe nahi. pramukha ke maMtrInI kAryavAhI temane pUchyA vagara trIjA ja koI kAryakartA karI nAkhe. pramukhane badale bIjA ja koI mANaso maMca upara AvI pramukhe karavAnI jAherAto karI nAkhe. jemanuM sthAna maMca upara hovuM na ghaTe tevI vyaktione sabhAmAMthI loko ke kAryakartAo Agraha karIne maMca upara laI Ave ane besADe. AvA ghaNAkharA prasaMgomAM aupacArikatAno bhaMga thato hovAnuM jANatA hovA chatAM pramukha ke maMtrI saujanyazIla rahIne mauna sevatA hoya che. paraMtu caMdravadana e bAbatamAM hiMmezAM spaSTavaktA rahetA. koIne mAThuM lAge to tenI paravA karatA nahi. eka vakhata gujarAtanA eka nagaramAM caMdravadana mahetAnA pramukhasthAne gujarAtInA adhyApakonuM saMmelana yojavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. huM paNa emAM upasthita hato. sabhAnI kAryavAhI pramukha tarIke caMdravadana saMbhALatA hatA. emanI bAjumAM saMmelana mATe nimaMtraNa ApanAra kaoNlejanA AcArya beThA hatA. eka viSayanI carcA cAlatI hatI. carcA lAMbI cAlI ane jamavAnuM moDuM thatuM hatuM eTale AcAryazrIe UbhA thaI kahyuM: "A carcA ApaNe ahIM pUrI karIe chIe." tarata caMdravadane UbhA thaI AcAryazrIne kaDaka avAje pUchyuM : "sabhAnA pramukha tame cho ke huM chuM ? tame AvI jAherAta kevI rIte karI zako?" pachI sabhAne temaNe kahyuM, "ApaNI caMdravadana mahetA kA 143

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carcA cAlu rahe che. huM kahIza tyAre baMdha thaze.'' madrAsamAM yojAyelA gujarAtI pariSadanA saMmelanamAM paNa caMdravadananA aupacArikatAnA Agrahano paricaya thayelo. emanA pramukhasthAne eka beThaka cAlatI hatI. tyAM sabhAnA gavarnara AvI pahoMcyA. keTalAka kAryakartAo gavarnarane maMca upara besADavA mATe laI AvyA. gavarnare TUMkuM bhASaNa ApyuM tyAre caMdravadana eTalo vakhata maMca uparathI UtarIne nIce zrotAomAM besI gayA hatA. gavarnaranA gayA pachI emaNe maMca upara AvIne A prakAranI kAryavAhInA pote sakhata virodhI che evo spaSTa sUra darzAvyo hato. caMdravadane nivRtta thayA tyAM sudhI reDiyonI nokarI karelI. reDiyonA kAryakramo ghaDiyALanA miniTanA ane sekanDanA kAMTA pramANe cAle. reDiyonI A zista briTiza adhikArIoe dAkhala karelI. tyArathI e zista sacavAI rahI che. reDiyomAM kAma ka2vAne lIdhe ane potAnI paNa evI ja prakRtine kAraNe caMdravadana samayapAlananA custa AgrahI hatA. koI paNa sabhAmAM javAnuM hoya to teo niyata samaya karatAM vahelA ja pahoMcyA hoya. sabhAnuM saMcAlana jo pote ka2vAnuM hoya to ghaDiyALanA Takore kare, pachI bhale game teTalI ochI hAjarI hoya. koI sabhAmAM temanuM vyAkhyAna rAkhavAmAM AvyuM hoya ane khabara paDe ke kAryakartAoe AgaLa-pAchaLa ghaNuMbadhuM bharI dIdhuM che to teo mukhya kAryakartAne eTaluM ja kahetA ke tamAre je rIte kAryakrama calAvavo hoya tema calAvo, paraMtu mAro samaya thaze eTale huM haoNla choDIne jato rahIza. pachI bhale mAro bolavAno vAro Ave ke na Ave.' caMdravadana evI kaDaka rIte kahetA ke sabhAnA kAryakarone te vAtane gaMbhI25Ne laIne AyojanamAM pheraphAra karavA paDatA. caMdravadana aupacArikatAnA AgrahI hatA teno bIjo paNa eka prasaMga yAda Ave che. sAhityanAM keTalAMka pustako prakAzita karanAra eka TrasTa taraphathI 'kumAra'nA taMtrI zrI bacubhAI rAvatanuM abhivAdana karavAno eka kAryakrama muMbaImAM caMdravadananA pramukhasthAne yojavAmAM Avyo hato. caMdravadana e kAryakrama mATe muMbaImAM be divasa agAu AvI gayA hatA, paraMtu kAryakramamAM teo aupacArikatA na sacavAyAne kA2Ne upasthita rahyA na hatA. muMbaImAM teo AvyA ke tarata ja meM emano saMparka sAdhyo hato ane bacubhAInA kAryakramanI vAta nIkaLI hatI. temaNe kahyuM ke '"hA, kAryakramanA nimaMtraNa-kArDamAM mAruM nAma pramukha tarIke chapAyuM che. paraMtu huM temAM AvavAno nathI.' e sAMbhaLI mane Azcarya thayuM. kAraNa pUchyuM to kahe ke "Ayojake traNeka mahinA pahelAM amastAM kyAMka ame maLyA tyAre mArI maukhika saMmati lIdhI hatI, paraMtu meM spaSTa kahyuM hatuM ke 'tamAro lekhita niyaMtraNa-patra Avaze eTale huM tamane lakhIne 144 caritradarzana

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saMmati jaNAvIza.' paraMtu Aja divasa sudhI temano koI patra Avyo nathI ke temaNe mAro koI saMparka sAdhyo nathI. kAryakrama mATe teo kyAre kyAM mane teDavA Avaze tenI kazI ja vAta thaI nathI. temaNe mAnI lIdhuM lAge che ke huM zodhato zodhato haoNlamAM pahoMcI jaIza. paNa huM A kAryakramamAM hAjara rahevAno nathI. ApaNA gujarAtI Ayojakone Ayojana aMge potAnI zI zI javAbadArI hoya che enI paNa pUrI samaja hotI nathI." koI sabhAmAM jarUra jaNAya to caMdravadana potAnA vaktavyano samaya pahelAM jaNAvI de ane pachI barAbara eTalI ja miniTa bole. koI sabhAmAM pote pramukha hoya ane koI vaktA ApelI samayamaryAdA karatAM vadhAre lAMbuM bolavA jAya to caMdravadana UbhA thaI vaktAnI pAse jaIne UbhA rahe. eTale sabhAne to khabara paDI ja jAya ke vaktAno samaya pUro thaI gayo che ane vaktA paNa samajI jAya. koI vaktA na samaje to teo spaSTa zabdomAM pUruM karavAnuM kahe. Ave prasaMge caMdravadana koI zarama na rAkhe. sabhAmAM caMdravadana niyata karatAM vadhAre na bole. ApelA samaya jeTalI taiyArI acUka karIne lAvyA hoya. pUrva taiyArI vagara caMdravadana bolavA na jAya. eka vakhata amArA zrI muMbaI jena yuvaka saMgha taraphathI caMdravadanane paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM vyAkhyAna ApavA nimaMtraNa ApeluM. pacAsa miniTanuM vyAkhyAna hatuM. sabhAnA pramukha tarIke meM emano paricaya Apyo ane kahyuM ke "caMdravadanabhAI samayanuM custa pAlana karanArA che. paraMtu toye Aje dasa-paMdara miniTa vadhAre leze to paNa amane gamaze..." caMdravadane potAnuM vyAkhyAna cAlu karyuM, paNa aDadhA kalAkamAM pUruM karIne besI gayA. alabatta, viSayane pUro nyAya Apyo. paNa ocho samaya lIdho ethI mane Azcarya thayuM. sabhA pUrI thaI pachI meM emane pUchyuM, "kema ATalo ocho samaya lIdho? temaNe kahyuM, "kAraNa koIne kahevAya evuM nathI. koIne kahIe to gAMDA gaNe. paNa tamane kahevAmAM vAMdho nathI. gaI kAle vaDodarAthI nIkaLIne savAre muMbaI Avyo ane cA-nAsto karavA beTho tyAre khabara paDI ke dAMtanuM cokaThuM to vaDodarA bhUlI gayo chuM. mane ema ke cokaThA vagara kalAka bolavAmAM vAMdho nahi Ave, paNa vIsa miniTa bolyo tyAM to jaDabAM dukhavA AvyAM. bolavAnI majhA nahotI AvatI. eTale kahevuM hatuM to ghaNuM, paNa pachI tarata pUruM karI nAkhyuM." caMdravadana sAthe vAta karavAmAM aupacArika rahIe to te temane game nahi. caMdravadanabhAI' kahIe topaNa laDhe. mitra tarIke ja teo vAta karavA cAhe. teo mArA karatAM uMmaramAM pacIsa varSa moTA hatA. paricaya thayA pachI zarUzarUmAM meM emane caMdravadana mahetA 145

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eka patra lakhyo hato ane saMbodhana tarIke 'pitAtulya zrI caMdravadanabhAI ema lakhyuM hatuM. emaNe e patrano javAba na Apyo..maLyA tyAre mane dhadhaDAvyo. mArA upara ciDAIne kahe: AvuM kema lakho cho ? ApaNe to mitro chIe." meM kahyuM ke "Apa vaDIla cho ane pitAtulya cho. mATe ema lakhavuM te mAruM kartavya che." emaNe kahyuM : "AvuM badhuM dhatiMga choDo. dostInA dAve patra lakhazo to ja javAba ApIza.' pachI vAtane majAkano vaLAMka ApIne emaNe kahyuM ke "ramaNabhAI, tame AvuM zuM kAma lakhyuM che tenI mane gaMdha AvI gaI che. tamArI dAnata mArA dIkarA thaIne mArI pacIsa-pacAsa lAkha rUpiyAnI je milakata che te vArasA tarIke tame paDAvI levA iccho cho. paNa huM tamane mArI milakata levA nahi dauM." meM kahyuM, "tamArI milakata keTalI che te huM jANuM chuM. tame paisAnI jarUra paDI tyAre tamAro raNajitarAma suvarNacaMdraka vecI dIdho che. tamArI pAsethI vArasAmAM pacIsa-pacAsa lAkha nahi, pAMca-paMdara hajAranI AzA rAkhavI e paNa vyartha che." caMdravadana sAthe AvI nikhAlasa majAka karI zakAtI. caMdravadananI patra lakhavAnI eka judI zailI hatI. teo keTalIya vAra posTakArDa lakhe to teno AgaLano bhAga koro rAkhe ane saranAmAnI DAbI bAju eka-be lITI lakhI hoya. teo ghaNI vAra tAranI bhASAmAM patra lakhatA. patramAM teo tArIkha, potAnuM saranAmuM ke saMbodhana ke bIjuM kazuM lakhatA nahi ane chelle potAnuM nAma paNa lakhatA nahi. ajANyAne khabara na paDe ke A kono patra che. koI vAra emanuM kArDa mArA upara AvyuM hoya. AkhA kArDamAM mAtra eTaluM ja lakhyuM hoya : "maMgaLavAra : cAra : phArbasa." to samajI levAnuM ke maMgaLavAre cAra vAge phArbasa para mAre temane maLavAnuM che. caMdravadane muMbaInI elphinsTana kaoNlejamAM abhyAsa karyo hato. teo kavi narasiMharAvanA vidyArthI hatA. narasiMharAva pAse abhyAsa karanArA tevI vidyArthIomAM caMdravadananA samayamAM kavi bAdarAyaNa, suMdarajI beTAI, amIdAsa kANakiyA, gaurIprasAda jhAlA, ramaNa vakIla vagere hatA. A badhAmAM caMdravadana siniyara hatA. emanI sAthe gujarAtI viSaya na lenAra varganA bIjA tejasvI vidyArthIomAM cImanalAla cakubhAI zAha, mInu masANI vagere hatA. e divasomAM kaoNlejanA vidyArthIo ekabIjAne nAmanA TUMkA akSare bolAvatA. caMdravadana cImanalAlane badhA sI.sI. kahetA. tevI ja rIte cImanalAla cakubhAIne paNa badhA sI.sI. kahetA. ethI teo baMne vacce ghaNI vAra nAmano goTALo thato. eka vakhata cImanalAla cakubhAIne caMdravadanane maLavAnI icchA thaI. tyAre huM caMdravadanane laIne temanA ghare gayo hato. dAkhala thatAM ja caMdravadana bolyA ke ghaNAM varSe sI.sI. sI.sI.ne maLe che. ame 146 rana caritradarzana

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beThA te daramiyAna teo baMne vacce potAnA kaoNlejakALanAM keTalAMye saMsmaraNo tAjAM thayAM. teo baMne tyAre eMzInI uMmara vaTAvI cUkyA hatA eTale potAnA samakAlIna keTalAya vidyArthImitronI vAta thatI tyAre temAM koNa kyAre kyAM kevI rIte gujarI gayA tenI vAta nIkaLatI. potAnA samakAlIna eka mAtra mInu masANI hayAta che evuM tyAre jANavA maLyuM hatuM. cImanabhAIe pUchyuM ke "eMsInI uMmare tame ATalI badhI doDAdoDI kevI rIte karI zako cho ? huM to kyAMya jaI zakato nathI." caMdravadane kahyuM, "mAre AgaLapAchaLanI kazI ciMtA nathI. gharabAra nathI. mAla-milakata nathI. Akho divasa lakhuM chuM, vAMcuM chuM. kyAMthI kyAM jAuM chuM. paNa zarIra sAruM rahevAnuM eka mukhya kAraNa e che ke bhAve evuM mApasara khAuM chuM. koInA Agrahane vaza thato nathI. ane varSothI roja niyamita triphaLA lauM chuM." varSothI ekalA rahevAne kAraNe caMdravadanane jAte rasoI karavAno mahAvaro ghaNo sAro thaI gayo hato. chellAM keTalAMya varSathI teo sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTInI hosTelamAM manubhAI mahetA haoNlamAM) bIje mALe rahetA hatA. hosTelanA rasoDe jamavuM hoya to emane jamavAnI chUTa yunivarsiTI taraphathI maLelI hatI. chatAM teo pote potAnA rUmamAM hAthe rasoI karIne jamatA. alabatta, temane mitro-saMbaMdhIonA gharethI jamavAnAM ghaNAM nimaMtraNa maLatAM rahetAM. eTale keTalIya vAra hAthe rasoI karavAnuM rahetuM nahi. Ama chatAM rasoInI temane ALasa nahotI. emanA hAthanI rasoI jamavAnA prasaMgo mAre keTalIka vAra AvyA che. vaDodarA yunivarsiTInI koI miTiMga mATe ke zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayanA kAmakAja mATe ke koI sAhityika kAryakrama mATe mAre vaDodarA javAnuM thayuM hoya to manubhAI mahetA hola para jaIne zrI caMdravadanabhAIne acUka maLavAnuM rAkhato. keTalIka vAra patra lakhIne agAuthI jaNAvato, to keTalIka vAra acAnaka jaI caDato. koI koI vAra muMbaIthI rAtanI gADImAM besI bIje divase paroDhiye vaDodarA Utarato to sIdho caMdravadana pAse pahoMcI jato. teo cA banAve ane ame sAthe pItA. temano svabhAva eTalo kaDaka ane Agraha chatAM eTalo ja premabharyo raheto ke teo cA banAvatA hoya ke rasoI karatA hoya ane huM emanI pAse jaIne kahyuM "lAvo kaMI madada karuM to teo gussAmAM kahetA, "chAnAmAnA khurazImAM besI jAva, mAre tamArI madadanI kaMI ja jarUra nathI." emanA avAjamAM Agrabharyo raNako evo raheto ke tarata khurazImAM besI javuM paDatuM. nevuM varSanI uMmare paNa caMdravadana jema ekalA badhe pravAsa karatA tema hAthe rasoI karatA ane te zokhathI karatA. gujarAtI sAhityakAronA aMgata jIvananI A eka advitIya ghaTanA che. chelle chelle hosTelamAM jyAre emane maLyo tyAre sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTInI kathaLelI sthiti, vidyArthIonI haDatAlo, tophAno, caMdravadana mahetA 147

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vaDodarAnAM ramakhANo e badhAM mATe tathA samagra dezanI paristhiti mATe teo baLApo kADhatA. muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM gujarAtI vibhAganA adhyakSa tarIke mArI nimaNUka thayA pachI caMdravadane Thakkara vasanajI mAdhavajI vyAkhyAnamALAmAM sarasa vyAkhyAno ApelAM. e vyAkhyAno emane tarata chapAvavAM hatAM. mane kahe : "tamArI muMbaI yunivarsiTI potAno kaoNpIrAiTa hovAthI vyAkhyAno bIje chApavA mATe vyAkhyAtAne saMmati ApatI nathI ane ghaNAM varSothI pote koInAM vyAkhyAno chApatI nathI. huM marI jAuM pachI mArAM vyAkhyAno chApavAmAM kone rasa paDavAno che ? mATe huM to e vyAkhyAno chapAvI nAkhavAno chuM. kaoNpIrAiTanA bhaMga mATe yunivarsiTIne je pagalAM levAM hoya te bhale le. mane teno Dara nathI. huM kyAM paisA kamAvA mATe vyAkhyAno chapAvavAno chuM ?" temane kahyuM ke "muMbaI yunivarsiTIno kopIrAiTa che, paNa te mATe teno Agraha nathI. vyAkhyAnonI sAmagrImAM tamAre Ama paNa ghaNA sudhArA-vadhArA karavA ja che to pachI navA nAmathI vyAkhyAnonuM saMvardhita lakhANa chapAvazo to kaoNpIrAITano koI prazna Ubho nahi thAya ane tamAruM pustaka veLAsara chapAI jaze." caMdravadane e pramANe e vyAkhyAnomAM ghaNA sudhArA-vadhArA karIne navesarathI navA nAme pustaka chapAvyuM hatuM. joke tyAra pachI muMbaI yunivarsiTIe vyAkhyAno bIje chapAvavA mATe saMmati ApavAnuM cAlu karyuM hatuM.) caMdravadana patravyavahAramAM bahu ja niyamita. patra lakhyo hoya to tarata javAba Avyo hoya. vaLI navuM navuM vAMce, vicAre ane lakhe. "prabuddha jIvana mATe jyAre jyAre lekha lakhavA meM emane patra lakhyo tyAre thoDA divasamAM ja emano lekha Avyo hato. dareka vakhate koI navo ja viSaya emaNe lIdho hato. caMdravadanane mArA mATe eTalI badhI lAgaNI ke jyAre paNa ghare AvavAnuM kahyuM hoya tyAre AvyA ja hoya. ghare UtaravA mATe kahuM to kahe, "padhAne tyAM mane vadhu phAve. emano jUno nokara varSothI mArI badhI Teva jANe. eTale khAvApIvAnuM. nahAvAnuM, sUvAnuM badhuM vyavasthita goThavAI jAya che." padmAbahena ane emanA pati vasaMtabhAI bahAragAma hoya ane gharamAM phakta nokara hoya topaNa caMdravadana emane tyAM ja Utare. padmAbahena caMdravadananAM dIkarI jevAM, paraMtu caMdravadana padmAbahenane potAnI mAtA tarIke oLakhAve. e vize 'kumAra'mAM emaNe lakheluM paNa kharuM.) padmAbahena jyAre caMdravadana sAthe vAta kare tyAre "cAMdAmAmA' tarIke saMbodhana kare. caMdravadanane mAre eka pustaka arpaNa karavuM hatuM. paNa huM rahyo saMzodhananA kSetrano mANasa. saMzodhananA viSayanuM pustaka teo vAMce kena vAMce topaNa mAruM dhanA-zAlibhadra 148 caritradarzana

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copAI' pustaka meM emane arpaNa ka2vAnuM nakkI karyuM. emaNe nA pADI, chatAM e arpaNa karyuM ane enA arpaNapRSThamAM meM emane mATe nIcenI kAvyapaMktio lakhI : caMdravadana ne cAMdAmAmA, caM.cI. ne vaLI sI.sI. jI rakhe na vAMco evo tamane graMtha arpaNa karato jI.' mane zeM arpaNa, ramaNabhAI ? huM nathI zAlibhaddara jI, zIlabhadra ke zIlAbhadra ke nathI. huM vaLI dhannA jI.' bhale na ho tame zAlibhadra, ke vaLI ho na dhanAjI, graMtha arpaNa karIne tamane thAto huM kaMI dhannA (dhana) jI. nATako bahu lakhyAM, joyAM ne rmAM dezavideze jI, gaThariyAMo bAMdhI bahu ne choDI kaMIka anerI jI. dhanAzAli jevuM kathAnaka joyuM haze na kaze jI; nATaka enuM lakhazo tame to thAze mane prasanna jI.' mane ema hatuM ke jUnI gujarAtI bhASAnuM AvuM pustaka caMdravadana kadAca nahi vAMce. paNa sukhada Azcarya sAthe mAre kahevuM joIe ke caMdravadana Akho graMtha vAMcI gayA ane mane kahe ke "A to sarasa jaina kathA che. nATyAtmaka aMzothI bharapUra che.'" tyAra pachI eka vakhata emaNe patra lakhelo ke " dhannA zAlibhadra'nuM nATaka lakhAI gayuM che.' emaNe lakheluM A nATaka jovA maLe te pahelAM to teo vidAya thaI gayA. caMdravadana vaDodarAnA. emanA pitAzrIe relavemAM nokarI karelI. eTale bAlyakALathI ja caMdravadanane relavenI musApharInI Adata paDI gayelI. relavenI emanI jANakArI paNa eTalI badhI. keTalAMka varSa pahelAM emaNe eka vartamAnapatramAM relavee samayapatrakamAM ane anya sudhArA kevA kevA ka2vA jevA che te vize roja eka navuM carcApatra lakhavAnuM cAlu kareluM. jo temane bhAratanA relavepradhAna banAvyA hota to bhAratanI relave kharekhara AdhunikatAthI susajja ane karakasaravALI hota ! vaDodarAmAM jyAre tyAM sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTInI sthApanA thaI tyAre tenA prathama vAisa cAnselara tathA lekhikA zrImatI haMsAbahena mahetAne vaDodarAnA navalakathAkAra ramaNalAla va. desAI tathA umAzaMkara jozIe bhalAmaNa karI hatI ke koIthI na baMdhAya evA A bhaTakatA alagArI zaktizALI lekhaka caMdravadana mahetAne emanI zarate tame yunivarsiTInA khIle bAMdhazo' to gujarAtI sAhityane ethI ghaNo lAbha thaze.'' haMsAbahene e sUcana svIkArI lIdhuM. yunivarsiTImAM eka khAsa TharAva karAvIne caMdravadana jIve tyAM sudhI yunivarsiTInI haoNsTelamAM rahI zake ane vijhiTiMga prophesa2 caMdravadana mahetA 149

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tarIke kAma karI zake ema nakkI karAvyuM. AthI caMdravadanane eka mathaka maLI gayuM ane ethI ja teo chellA cAra dAyakAmAM ATaluM badhuM lekhanakArya karI zakyA. caMdravadana haMsAbahenano upakAra bhUle nahi. muMbaI Ave tyAre haMsAbahenane vakhatovakhata maLI Ave. ekAda vakhate huM paNa emanI sAthe haMsAbahenane ghare gayelo. caMdravadana kyAre mijAja gumAvaze e kahI zakAya nahi, jamavA beThA hoya ane koI AgrahapUrvaka temanA bhANAmAM premathI vadhAre pI2se to caMdravadana ciDAIne UbhA thaI jAya. hAtha dhoI nAkhe. emanA mijAjane umAzaMka2 barAbara jANe ane chatAM teo caMdravadana pratye eTalo ja prema dharAve. eka vakhata caMdravadana, umAzaMkara ane suMdarajI beTAI mAre ghare jamavAnA hatA. umAzaMkarane pUraNapoLI bahu bhAve. caMdravadanane sUkI taLelI guvArasiMga bahu bhAve. beTAI maracAM vinAnuM khAya. caMdravadanano paheraveza vakhatovakhata judo judo raheto. pahelAM to teo kasavALuM keDiyuM paheratA. koI vAra teo Tarkiza TuvAlamAMthI banAveluM aDadhI bAMyanuM zarTa paheratA. te divase meM caMdravadanane pUchyuM ke, "tame gaLAmAM AvI vakIla jevI paTTI kema pahero cho ?"' teo kaMI javAba Ape te pahelAM umAzaMkara kahe, "keTalAka loko gaLAmAM eka TAI pahere che, paNa caMdravadana be TAI pahere che.' pachI tarata ja umAzaMkare be lITI joDI kADhI : caMdravadana mahetA pahere che be TAI, paNa suMdarajInA nAmamAM rahe che beTAI. tarata caMdravadane umAzaMkarane kahyuM, "tamArA nAmamAM paNa umA ane zaMka2 e benI TAI (tie) thayelI che." moTA lekhako paNa zabdonI kevI gammata kare teno tyAre pratyakSa anubhava thayo hato. caMdravadana vidAya thayA, paNa emanA jIvananAM keTalAM badhAM saMsmaraNo mUkatA gayA ! temanuM nevuM varSanuM jIvana keTaluM badhuM pravRttizIla ane pragatizIla, sakriya, sabhara ane siddhiothI jhaLahaLatuM ! teo avasAna pAmyA che evuM mAnavAne mana nA pADe. jANe nepathyamAM bIjo veza paheravA gayA che evuM lAge. ajaMpAthI bharelA emanA AtmAne jaMpa hajo ! 150 * caritradarzana (vaMdanIya hRdayasparza'mAMthI)

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17 jyotIndra dave gujarAtanA advitIya hAsyarasika lekhaka zrI jyotIndra ha. davenuM 79 varSanI vaye avasAna thayuM hatuM. game teTalI moTI uMmare mANasa videha thAya tyAre teno viyoga svajanone vasamo lAgato hoya che. zrI jyotIndra davenI tabiyata asvastha to rahetI hatI, paraMtu teo ATalA vahelA cAlyA jaze evI kalpanA nahotI. alabatta, sva. jyotIndra dave ATaluM lAMbuM jIvana kevI rIte jIvI zakyA e ja ghaNAMne moTI AzcaryanI vAta lAgatI hatI. kizorAvasthAthI te yauvana ane vRddhAvasthAmAM kAyama trIsa-pAMtrIsa kilogrAma vajana dharAvatA durbaLa zarIravALA jyotIndra davene pahelI vAra jonArane ema lAge ke teo mAMdagImAMthI beThA thayA haze. deha mAro dAtaNa rikhaDo ane mana markaTanA samuM' ema kahenAra jyotIndrane janmathI ja nabaLo deha sAMpaDyo hato. 'A chokaro bahu jIvaze nahIM' ema emanI tabiyata joIne jude jude samaye kahenAra sAta DaoNkTaro cAlyA gayA, paNa pote haju jIve che ema teo ghaNI vAra sabhAmAM kahetA. pote lAMbuM jIvyA enuM kAraNa temanuM hAsya to kharuM ja, paNa nAnI vayathI ja nabaLI tabiyatane kAraNe temaNe potAnA zarIrane barAbara pArakhI lIdhuM hatuM ane tene TakAvavA mATe kevI kevI auSadhinI jarUra che e temaNe samajI lIdhuM hatuM. roganuM nidAna ane auSadhopacAra vizenI temanI jANakArI eTalI badhI hatI ke koIka vaida ke DaoNkTarane paNa zaramAve. Ayurveda, homiyopathI, yunAnI ane elopathI badhA vize teo jANe, te vize ghaNAM pustako vAMce tathA dAktaro sAthe carcA kare. potAnI tabiyata mATe teo satata upacAra paNa karatA rahetA ane koIka vakhata majAkamAM kahetA ke, "mArA zarIramAM khAvAnuM jeTaluM jAya che ethI vadhAre davAo jAya che.'' jyotIndra dave 151

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jyotIndra davee potAnI kArakirdInI zarUAta karI adhyApaka tarIke, muMbaInI kabIbAI skUlamAM ane suratanI kaoNlejamAM, paraMtu te choDI muMbaImAM AvIne. thoDo vakhata kanaiyAlAla munazI sAthe emanA lekhanakAryamAM madadanIza tarIke kAma karyA pachI orienTala TrAnsaleTaranI oNphisamAM joDAyA. sarakAranA orienTala TrAnsaleTara tarIke nivRtta thayA te pachI pharI emaNe kaoNlejanA adhyApaka tarIke muMbaImAM ane mAMDavI(kaccha)mAM kArya karyuM. jyotIndrane gaMbhIra vAMcavuM ane vicAravuM bahu game, paraMtu gaMbhIra bolavAnuM emanI prakRtine ochuM ce. pachI to emanA vyaktitvanI havA ja evI jAmI gayelI ke e bolavA UbhA thAya ane loko hasI paDe to tarata pote Takora karatA, "zokasabhA che, jokasabhA nathI." ane loko pharI pAchA hasI paDatA. kaoNlejanA vargamAM paNa teo gaMbhIra banIne bhaNAve tyAre vidyArthIo emane joka kahevA kahe ane agaMbhIra jyotIndra hasyA vagara rahI na zake. hAsyarasa virala gaNAyo che. temAM paNa lekhanamAM ane vaktavyamAM, baMnemAM hAsyarasa bahu ochA lekhako siddha karI zake che. "svairavihArI'nA upanAmathI hAsyarasika lekho lakhanAra vidvAna lekhaka sva. rAmanArAyaNa pAThaka lekhanamAM haLavA thaI zakatA, paNa koI sabhAone bhAgye ja hasAvatA. sva. navalarAma trivedI sabhAone khaDakhaDATa hasAvyA kare, paNa lekhanamAM eTalA haLavA nahotA thaI zakatA. paraMtu jyotIndranI kalama ane jihuvA baMne hAsyarasathI sabhara hatI. e baMne upara emanuM prabhutva asAdhAraNa hatuM. koI UMghamAMthI uThADI jAhera sabhAmAM emane bolavA laI jAya to sabhAmAM ApelA viSaya upara jyotIndra be kalAka sudhI satata hasAvI zake. koI lekha levA Ave ane be kalAkamAM lekha joIto hoya to jyotIndra lakhI ApI zake. zIghralekhana ane zIghravaktatva e baMne jyotIndrane sArI rIte varelAM hatAM. emaNe "guptAnI noMdhapothI' dvArA gujarAtI vAcakavarganuM dhyAna kheMcyuM. paNa teo vadhu prasiddhi pAmyA "raMgataraMganA hAsyarasika lekho dvArA ane dhanasukhalAla mahetA sAthe lakhelI navalakathA "ame badhAM' dvArA. "raMgataraMga'nA pAMca bhAga uparAMta emaNe bIjA keTalAka lekhasaMgraho ApyA, paNa je camaka raMgataraMga'nA pAMca bhAganA lekhomAM jovA maLI te pachI eTalI jovA na maLI. paraMtu ekaMdare hAsyarasika, haLavA nibaMdhonA kSetre emaNe jeTalI siddhi dAkhavI che eTalI emanA koI purogAmI lekhakamAM jovA maLatI nathI. emanA pachI paNa vartamAna samayamAM haLavA nibaMdhanA kSetre eTaluM cirasthAyI ane saMgIna kArya haju jovA maLatuM nathI. zALAmAM huM abhyAsa karato hato tyAre mArA be priya nibaMdhakAro hatA. eka 15ra na caritradarzana

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kAkA kAlelakara ane bIjA jyotIndra dave. kaoNlejamAM Avyo tyAre prathama varSamAM jyotIndra davenA "raMgataraMga'no pahelo bhAga amAre pAThyapustaka tarIke bhaNavAno hato. emanA mitra kavi bAdarAyaNa adhyApaka tarIke jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM amane rasathI bhaNAve. eka divasa teo vargamAM jyotIndra davene laI AvyA. tyAre meM emane pahelI vAra joyelA. jyotIndrano paricaya ApatAM bAdarAyaNe majAka karatAM kahyuM, jyotIndrane jotAM ApaNane ema thAya ke kyAMka dukALa paDyo haze tevI jagyAethI teo AvyA lAge che." pachI javAbamAM jyotIndra kahyuM, "bAdarAyaNanI vAta sAcI che. huM dukALavALA pradezamAMthI Avyo houM evo lAguM chuM, paraMtu tyAM dukALa paDavAnuM kAraNa bAdarAyaNa pote che e tame emanA UMcA, paDachaMda bharAvadAra zarIra parathI samajI zakazo." pachI to je koI jAhera sabhAmAM bAdarAyaNa ane jyotIndra sAthe hoya tyAM A emanI peTanTa ramUja rajU thatI. muMbaInA jAhera jIvanamAM jyotIndrane vaktA tarIke AgavuM sthAna maLyuM hatuM. emane jovA ane sAMbhaLavA loko ToLe maLatA. kyAreka navarAtrinA divasomAM hAsyarasika eka kAryakramamAMthI bIjA kAryakramamAM jatAM emane moDuM thatuM to loko rAtre becAra kalAka paNa emanI rAha joIne besI rahetA. kavi-saMmelano ane muzAyarAonuM saMcAlana teo saphaLatApUrvaka karatA. emanI rasika vANIthI sAdhAraNa janasamudAya ane vidvaddavarga baMne prasanna thatA. - rAtanA kAryakramomAM vAraMvAra javAne lIdhe moDI rAta sudhI jAgavAnI jyotIndrane Teva paDI gaI hatI. eka vakhata eka kAryakrama mATe ame emane nimaMtraNa ApavA gayelA tyAre savAre agiyAra vAge paNa teo UThyA nahotA. vyavasAyamAMthI nivRtta thayA pachI to savAranA bAra vAgye UThavAno emano rojano kAryakrama thaI gayo hato. eka vakhata eka kAryakrama mATe suratamAM ame sAthe hatA ane hoTelamAM emane utAro ApavAmAM Avyo hato, paraMtu maccharanA trAsane lIdhe mane bilakula UMgha na AvI. savAre meM temane pUchyuM, "rAtre macchara kevAka karaDyA?" emaNe kahyuM, "mane karaDyA ja nathI, huM rAtanA UMghI jAuM to karaDene ? savAre cAra-pAMca vAgyA sudhI mane UMgha AvatI ja nathI. huM cha vAge UMghI gayo tyAre maccharono javAno yaIma thaI gayo hato." rAtre anidrAnI Teva pachI to emane vyAdhi jevI thaI gaI hatI. eka vakhata meM emane pUchayuM ke "AkhI rAte tame zuM karo ?" to kahe, "beTho beTho ke sUto sUto vAMcyA karuM. vAMcavAnuM na hoya to cena na paDe. je hAthamAM Ave te vAMcuM, paNa zikArakathAo hoya to mane vadhAre majhA paDe." jyotIndra dave 153

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jyotIndra sAthe mAre ghaniSTha paricaya thayo phArbasa gujarAtI sabhAne nimitte. caMdravadana mahetA phArbasa sabhAnA pramukha ane jyotIndra maMtrI hatA. amArI samitinI beThakamAM teo baMnenI hAjarI acUka hoya. sarasa vAtAvaraNa jAme. ghaNI navI vAto jANavA maLe. baMne samayavaska mitro ekabIjA upara kaTAkSa kare te mANavA maLe. beThakanA samaya karatAM aDadhA kalAka vahelA baMne murabbIo AvI gayA hoya. gharethI phArbasa para pahoMcavA sIdhI koI basa maLe nahi eTale jyotIndra gharethI cAlatA Ave ane cAlatA pAchA jAya. pAchA pharatI vakhate ghaNI vAra huM emanI sAthe cAlato ghara sudhI mUkavA jato. gADI ke TaeNksInI teo nA pADatA ane kahetA ke ATaluM cAlavAnuM maLe che te sAruM che. ATaluM nahi cAlu to gharamAM AMTA mAravA paDaze. chelle to phArbasanI beThaka sivAya emane bahAra javAnuM khAsa bahu thatuM nahi. tabiyata paNa eTalI anukULa rahetI nahi topaNa phArbasanI miTiMgamAM avazya Ave. koI koI vakhata potAnA dIkarAonI bhAvi pragati vize ciMtA vyakta che. jyotIndrano svabhAva saraLa ane nirabhimAnI hato. koI paNa kAryakrama mATe temane nimaMtraNa maLe ane jo anukULa hoya to tarata svIkAre. emAM kyAreya akkaDa ke vAMkA na bane. bahAragAma bolAvanAra saMsthAe sarakhI sagavaDa na karI hoya to te vAtane hasI kADhe. koI vakhata koI saMsthAe AyojanamAM garabaDa karI hoya to Thapako na Ape, paNa vAtane avaLavANImAM uDAvI de. eka vakhata suratanI eka saMsthAe eka kAryakrama mATe pramukha tarIke jyotIndrane nimaMtraNa ApyuM. saMsthAnA bIjA koI kAryakartA e ja kAryakrama mATe bhUlathI caMdravadana mahetAne pramukha tarIke padhAravA nimaMtraNa ApI AvelA. baMne kAryakramamAM pahoMcyA tyAre goTALAnI khabara paDI. kAryakartAo mUMjhAyA. jyotIndra ane caMdravadane gusso karI kAryakartAone Thapako ApavAne badale navI tarAhano toDa kADhyo ke aDadhuM vAkya caMdravadana bole ane bAkInuM pUruM kare jyotIndra. pachI jyotIndra aDadhuM vAkya bole ane caMdravadana pUruM kare. A rIte aDadho kalAka pramukha tarIke baMnee bolIne lokone khaDakhaDATa hasAvyA karIne kAryakramane vadhu rasika banAvyo. Avo ja bIjo eka prasaMga paNa mane yAda che jemAM huM hAjara hato. e kAryakramamAM strIpuruSa vize eka vivAdasabhAnuM Ayojana thayuM hatuM. sabhAmAM prastAvanI tarapheNamAM jyotIndrane bolavAnuM hatuM ane viruddhamAM bIjA eka lekhakane bolavAnuM hatuM. paraMtu e lekhaka AvyA nahi. ethI kAryakartAo mUMjhAyA. paNa jyotIndra teno rasto kADhyo. jyotIndra prathama tarapheNamAM bolyA. pachI bIjI bAju jaI mAIka uparathI e prastAvanI viruddhamAM bolyA. pote prathama karelI dalIlone viruddhamAM bolIne 154 * caritradarzana

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evI sarasa rIte uDAvI ke zrotAone ema thayuM ke sAruM thayuM ke pelA lekhaka AvyA nahi, AvyA hota to eTalI majhA Avata nahi. jyotIndra bahu buddhizALI ane pratyutpannamativALA hatA. zabdo paranuM emanuM prabhutva eTaluM sarasa hatuM ke bIjAnA game te zabdamAMthI te hAsya nipajAvI zakatA. jyotIndranA hAsyamAM deza ke dveSanI gaMdha na Ave. teo potAnI jAta upara sauthI vadhu hasatA. potAne mAthe akALe paDelI TAla, kharabacaDI dADhI, nabaLuM zarIra, zaradI vagere rogo, A badhAMne teo upahAsapAtra banAvatA. jAhera kAryakramomAM paNa teo dveSapUrvaka koInA bhoge bIjAne hasAve evuM banatuM nahi. emanAmAM eka prakAranI ajAtazatrutA paNa hatI. pote koI vADAbaMdhI, jUthabaMdhI, bIjAno bahiSkAra vageremAM mAnatA nahi. ene lIdhe badhAMne emanA pratye Adara raheto, gujarAtI sAhitya pariSadanuM sukAna kanaiyAlAla munazInA hAthamAMthI laI levA mATe gujarAtabharamAM lekhakonI sahI meLavavA mATe jhuMbeza cAlI tyAre jyotIndra emAM sahI ApI nahotI. lekhakonI sabhAo thatI ane konI konI sahI bAkI che ema puchAtuM, tyAre jyotIndranuM nAma nIkaLatAM vaDIla lekhako ema bolatA ke, "jyotIndrane ApaNe dabANa na karavuM joIe. emanI sahI nathI, paNa e ApaNI sAthe ja che." jyotIndra pratye bIjA lekhakone keTalo Adara hato tenI tyAre pratIti thatI. jyotIndra aMdarathI gaMbhIra prakRtinA hatA. teo haLavuM lakhatA paNa temane gamatuM gaMbhIra vAMcavAnuM. saMskRta bhASA, vyAkaraNa ane chaMda, dhvani ane rasa vagere vize temano abhyAsa gahana hato ane temane e vize kazuMka mArmika kahevAnuM rahetuM. muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM rasasiddhAnta vize emaNe ApelAM Thakkara vasanajI vyAkhyAno enAM sacoTa udAharaNarUpa che. temanI vivecakadaSTi paNa eTalI ja kuzAgra hatI. paraMtu ekaMdare jAmelI hAsyakAra tarIkenI havAmAM emanI gaMbhIra vidvattApUrNa vAto visarAI jatI. ('vaMdanIya hRdayasparzamAMthI) jyotIndra dave - 155

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bacubhAI rAvatA kumAra'nA taMtrIzrI bacubhAI rAvata ApaNA eka saMniSTha saMskArapuruSa hatA. kumAra" mAsika dvArA aradhI sadI karatAM vadhu samaya sudhI gujarAtanA saMskAraghaDataramAM emaNe viziSTa yogadAna ApyuM. 82 varSanI vaye amadAvAdamAM teo avasAna pAmyA hatA. bacubhAI AjIvana kumArane varelA hatA. 'kumAra'nA paryAyarUpa teo banI gayA hatA. emaNe potAnI samagra zakti "kumArane ApI. 'kumArane bhoge emaNe bIjI koI prasiddhi ke arthaprApti mATenI pravRtti AdarI nahotI. moTAM pralobhano jatAM karyA hatAM. pariNAme "kumAra' mAtra mAsika na rahyuM, ApaNI eka saMskArasaMsthA jevuM banI gayuM. ApaNAM sAmayikonA itihAsamAM kumAranuM sthAna advitIya che. ene advitIya banAvavAmAM bacubhAInuM svArpaNa raheluM che. bacubhAInA atyaMta nikaTanA saMparkamAM AvavAnI mane taka maLI ene huM mAruM parama saddabhAgya samajuM chuM. emano pArthiva deha vilIna thayo, paNa najara sAme haju emanuM citra A pramANe taravare che : - savAre samaya thatAM kumAra kAryAlayamAM haLave pagale teo dAkhala thAya che. potAnI beThaka pAse pahoMcI lAiTa ane paMkho cAlu kare che. khAdIno lAMbo koTa ane TopI utArI khIMTIe bherave che. rivolDiMga khurazImAM besI Deska khole che. AvelI TapAla jue che. pensila ane cappa le che. potAnA paheraNano cheDo pahoLo karI khoLAmAM chotarAM paDe e rIte pensila chole che. sarasa dhAra kADhe che. cIvaTapUrvaka badhAM chotarAM ekaThAM karI laI, kacarAnI TopalImAM nAkhe che. "kumAra' mATe AvelI sAmagrI vAMcavAnuM, prUpha tapAsavAnuM, TapAlanA javAba lakhavAnuM kAma cAlu thAya che. 156 caritradarzana

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bacubhAInA kAryAlayamAM divasa cAlu thAya che. kAryAlayamAM AvatAM pahelAM keTaluMka kArya gharethI savAre taiyAra karIne teo lAvyA hoya che. pathArIvaza thayA tyAM sudhI bacubhAIe kAryAlayamAM javAnuM cAlu rAkhyuM hatuM. chellAM pAMca-sAta varSamAM vRddhAvasthAne kAraNe, tabiyatane kAraNe prathama temaNe rAtanA besavAnuM baMdha karyuM. pachI aDadho divasa besavAnuM rAkhyuM. pachI aThavADiyAmAM traNa divasa, be ke eka divasa javAnuM rAkhyuM. jIvananA aMta sudhI temaNe kAryAlayamAM javAnuM cAlu rAkhyuM. ane ghare rahIne paNa Akho vakhata 'kumA2'nuM kArya karyA karyuM. bacubhAInI kumAra-niSThA ajoDa hatI. emaNe 'kumAra'no 100mo, 200mo, 300mo, 400mo, 500mo, 600mo aMka viziSTa dRSTithI taiyAra karyA hatA. 'kumA2'no 679mo aMka chapAvo zarU thayo hato. ema hatuM ke pathArIvaza thavA chatAM bacubhAI 900mo aMka joIne jaze, paraMtu te pahelAM emaNe deha choDyo. kudaratanI lIlA akaLa che. 'kumAra' pragaTa thatuM hatuM tyAre zALA ane kaoNlejamAMthI pasAra thayelo bhAgye ja koI evo gujarAtI yuvAna haze jeNe eka vA2 'kumAra' vAMcyuM na hoya. 'kumA2' bhinna rucivALA vAcakonI rasavRttine poSI ane saMskArI che. kavitA, vArtA, nibaMdha, nATikA, jIvanacaritra, itihAsa, purANa, zilpa, sthApatya, citrakalA, phoTogrAphI, zarIravijJAna, TikiTa ane sikkA, prANIo ane vanaspati, yoga ane Ayurveda, ramatagamata ane AkAzadarzana - keTakeTalA vibhAgo 'kumA2'nA pratyeka aMkamAM jovA maLe. 'kumAra'nA TAipa jhINA ane sthaLanI karakasara. hAthamAM sIdho jhAlIne Akho 'kumAra'no aMka vaMcAya nahi; pUro vAMcavA mATe ADo, UMdho karavo paDe. jhINA TAipathI AMkho bagaDe nahi paNa sudhare e vaijJAnika satyanI pratIti pachI ja 'kumAre' jhINA TAipamAM vadhumAM vadhu sAmagrI ApavA mATe cAlu karelA. 'kumAra'nA prUpha bacubhAI pote badhAM vAMcI jAya ane eka paNa mudraNadoSa, bhASAdoSa na rahe tenI jAte kALajI rAkhe. 'kumA2' mATe AvelAM lakhANo pote vAMcI jAya, pasaMda kare, sudhAre ane 'kumAra'nA dhoraNane jALavI rAkhe. sattAvana varSa sudhI 'kumAra'mAM kyAreya evuM kaMI chapAyuM nathI ke bacubhAIe pote pahelAM e vAMcyuM na hoya. eTale to 'kumA2'no aMka pastImAM vecAto jovA na maLe. jUnA aMko mATe kharIdanArAonI hAra lAge. 'kumAra'nuM dho2Na jALavI rAkhavA mATe bacubhAI haMmezAM bahu cIvaTa rAkhatA. game tevA moTA lekhakanuM nabaLuM lakhANa AvyuM hoya to te tarata parata karatA. pote yuvAna hatA tyAre te samayanA vaDIla gaNAtA lekhakonI nabaLI kRtio pAchI mokalatAM teo acakAtA nahi. eka vakhata baLavaMtarAya ThAkoranI kavitA emaNe bacubhAI rAvata 157

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pAchI mokalI eTale baLavaMtarAya amadAvAda AvyA tyAre dhUMApUMA thatA "kumAra kAryAlayamAM gayA. bacubhAIe emane zAMta pADyA ane nabaLI kavitA na chApavI e "kumAra'nA tathA baLavaMtarAyanA hitanI vAta che ema premathI samajAvyuM. AvuM to bIjA keTalAye lekhakonI bAbatamAM banyuM che. cunIlAla maDiyAnI eka vAta bacubhAIe pAchI mokalAvI to maDiyAe "kumAramAM vArtA lakhavAnuM baMdha karyuM. eka vakhata bIjA eka pratiSThita vArtAkAranI vArtA pAchI gaI eTale emaNe potAnA mitra dvArA dhamakI ApI ke, "ame lekhako 'kumArano bahiSkAra karIzuM." bacubhAI pAse A vAta AvI tyAre emaNe kahyuM, "tamArA mitrane kahejo ke huM koI dveSa. ISa ke jUthabaMdhIne kAraNe kRti pAchI mokalAvato nathI. kumAranA dhoraNane anurUpa na hoya evI kati game tevA moTA kavi-lekhakanI hoya topaNa te pAchI mokalAvuM chuM. tema chatAM bahiSkAra karavo hoya to jarUra kare; ekale hAthe AkhI jiMdagI "kumAra" niyamita calAvI zakuM eTalo mArAmAM mane vizvAsa che." bacubhAI pote paNa 'kumAra'mAM lakhatA. zarUAtamAM teo potAnA nAmathI lakhatA. pachI upanAma "I.ta.'thI lakhatA - bacubhAIno chello akSara "I' ane rAvatano chello akSara ta. pachIthI I.ta." upanAma paNa mUkavAnuM temaNe choDI dIdhuM. kumAra"mAM nAma vagaranuM je lakhANa hoya te bacubhAInuM rahetuM. bacubhAIe navA navA lekhako, kavio, citrakAro vagere taiyAra karavAmAM keTalo badho phALo Apyo che ! kAcAM lakhANo sudhArI-maThArIne taiyAra karavAmAM taMtrI tarIke bacubhAIe jeTaluM kArya karyuM che eTaluM bhAgye ja koIe karyuM haze! pariNAme keTalA badhA kavi-lekhakoe potAnuM pustaka bacubhAIne arpaNa karyuM che! sAdhanasAmagrInI pasaMdagImAM ATalA badhA kaDaka chatAM sAmayikanA koI eka taMtrIne vadhumAM vadhu pustako arpaNa thayAM hoya to te bacubhAIne ! gujarAtanA kavi-lekhakonI traNa peDhIne taiyAra karavAmAM bacubhAIno hisso ghaNo moTo che. taMtrIne badale mAtra lekhaka banyA hoya to bacubhAI pAsethI vividha viSayonAM saMkhyAbaMdha pustako maLyAM hota. keTalA badhA viSayonI bacubhAI pramANabhUta jANakArI dharAve ! abhyAsa to meTrika sudhIno hato. paNa vAcanano bhAre zokha. pustako vasAve ane vAMce. pachI to 'kumArane nimitte paNa ghaNA graMtho ane sAmayiko dezavidezanAM vAMce. emanI asAdhAraNa jANakArIne lIdhe to emane keTalAka vokiMga ensAIklopIDiyA' tarIke oLakhatA. bacubhAI eTale jANe pote ja eka zaikSaNika saMsthA - vana-mena insTiTyUzana jevA ! meTrika thayA pachI bacubhAI 'sastuM sAhityavardhaka kAryAlayamAM joDAyA. tyAM 158 ja caritradarzana

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vividha prakAranI kAmagIrI bajAvI. nAma-saranAmAM karI, pustakonAM pArasalo taiyAra karI, khabhe UMcakIne pahoMcADavAnuM kArya paNa temaNe kareluM. "kumAra"mAM taMtrInI javAbadArI uparAMta pAchaLathI emaNe vahIvaTI javAbadArI paNa saMbhALI. ghaNA ochA vetanathI emaNe kAma karyuM. bIje gayA hoya to "kumAre' ApyuM ethI ghaNuM badhuM vetana meLavI zakyA hota. paNa 'kumAra' sAthenI emanI premanI gAMTha evI hatI ke bIje javAno kyAreya vicAra sudhdhAM nathI karyo. pote karakasarathI kuTuMbajIvana nabhAvatA ane eTalA ja nispRha rahetA. arthaprApti mATe bacubhAIe kyAMya nabaLAI darzAvI nathI. pacIsa varSa pahelAMno eka prasaMga mane yAda che. nyUyorkamAM yunAITeDa nezansamAM kAma karatAM "kumAra" ane bacubhAInA cAhaka eka gujarAtI yuvAna emane ghare maLavA AvelA. huM te vakhate bacubhAI pAse beThelo. e yuvAne bacubhAIne doDhaso DaoNlaranI kupana ApI, jethI potAnI IcchA pramANe bacubhAI amerikAthI pustako maMgAvI zake. bacubhAIe eno premathI asvIkAra karyo. kumAra kAryAlayamAM bacubhAIno ghaNokharo samaya vahIvaTI kArya ane mulAkAtomAM pUro thaI jato. emanuM kharuM kAma sAMjanA sAta pachI cAlu thatuM. badhA karmacArIo cAlyA jAya ane kAryAlayano DahelA jevo moTo daravAjo baMdha thAya te pachI bacubhAI pote ekalA kAryAlayamAM beThAM beThAM rAtanA dasa ke agiyAra sudhI kAma karatA hoya. kAma pate eTale daravAjAnI DokAbArImAMthI sAIkala UMcakI bahAra kADhe. bacubhAIne sAIkalanA peDala upara paga mUkI sAIkala upara savAra thavAnuM AvaDatuM nahi, phAvatuM nahi. pAchalA paiDAnI dharI upara paga mUkIne teo savAra thatA. nIkaLatAM pahelAM teo sAIkalano lepa saLagAvI letA. khissAmAM dIvAsaLInI peTI rAkhe. rastAmAM lempa olavAI jAya to nIce UtarIne pAcho saLagAvI le. koI vakhata dIvAsaLInI peTI bhUlI gayA hoya ane tela khUTI jatAM lempa olavAI jAya to sAIkala parathI nIce UtarI jAya ane be hAthe sAIkala pakaDI cAlatAM cAlatAM pAlaDI pAsenA ghare pahoMce. koI vakhata AvuM bane ane elisabrija pAse pharaja parano polIsa pUche, "kema sAheba, paMkyara paDyuM che ?" bacubhAI kahe, "nA bhAI, A to lema olavAI gayo che eTale cAlato jAuM chuM." polIsa kahe, "kazo vAMdho nahi, sAheba. have besI jAo. huM rajA ApuM chuM." bacubhAI kahe, "nA bhAI! tamArI maherabAnI, paNa mArAthI ema besAya nahi. kAyadAne pUrepUruM mAna ApavuM joIe." AvatI kAlanA nAgarikonuM ghaDatara karavA bhekha lenAra bacubhAInI A prakRti hatA. kAryAlayamAM pote rAtre kAma karatA temAMthI eka divasa eTale ke budhavArano bacubhAI rAvata : 159

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divasa bacubhAI kavione ApatA. sAMjanA sAtathI agiyAra sudhI navI navI kavitAnuM vAcana thAya ane pachI enA upara carcA cAle. vakhata jatAM A kAvyagoSThInI beThakanuM nAma ja "budhasabhA' paDI gayuM. pUrI niyamitatAthI bacubhAI haMmezAM beThA hoya. ziyALAnI kaDakaDatI ThaMDI hoya ane koI ja kavi AvyA na hoya tyAre paNa bacubhAI sagaDI saLagAvIne tyAM ekalA beThA hoya ane vakhata thAya eTale ghare jAya. - 1955mAM huM eka varSa mATe amadAvAdamAM rahyo hato tyAre huM budhasabhAmAM niyamita jato. koI vAra mArI pAse sAIkala na hoya to bacubhAI kahe, "cAlo, ApaNe cAlatAM cAlatAM ghare jaIzuM." huM temane AgrahapUrvaka vinaMtI karuM, "tame to vaDIla cho ane haju tamAre ghare jaIne jamavAnuM bAkI che. tame jaladI sAIkala upara ghare pahoMco." paraMtu koI paNa vakhata mane ekalo mUkIne bacubhAI ghare vahelA pahoMcyA nathI. bacubhAInAM dharmapatnI emanI rAha jotAM rAtre gharamAM ekalAM jAgatAM beThAM hoya. chokarAMo kyAranAM UMghI gayAM hoya. bacubhAI ghare pahoMcIne jamI le te pachI ja emanAM patnI jamavA bese. bacubhAI emane "bAI' kahIne bolAvatA. bAInI patiparAyaNatA Arya nArIne gaurava apAve evI hatI. lagabhaga sitteranI uMmara sudhI bacubhAI sAIkala upara kAryAlayamAM jatA. pachI basamAM athavA kyAreka rikSAmAM javAnuM cAlu karyuM. rAyapurathI rAtre chellI basa pakaDavAnI hoya eTale budhasabhAno kAryakrama tyAM sudhI cAlato. koI vAra basa cUkI jAya to ghare cAlatA pahoMce, jo sAthe kavimitro hoya to. nahi to rikSAmAM jatA. bharaunALAnA dhakhatA tApamAM paNa teo niSThApUrvaka kAryAlayathI ghare ke gharethI kAryAlaya jatA. 'kumAra' mATe emanI tapazcaryA ghaNI AkarI hatI. bacubhAInA nikaTa saMparkamAM AvavAnI mane vadhu taka maLI jyAre teo muMbaInI lejisleTiva kAunsilanA sabhya tarIke niyukta thayA ane vakhatovakhata muMbaI AvatA tyAre. koIka vakhata mAre ghare paNa UtaratA. amadAvAda pAchA pharatA hoya tyAre bombe senTralanA sTezana upara gADI UpaDatAM pahelAM eka kalAka acUka maLavAnuM goThavAtuM. lekhana mATe preraNA ane mArgadarzana mane emanI pAsethI satata maLatAM. amArA kuTuMba mATe teo vatsala vaDIla hatA. emanA pratyeka posTakArDamAM kuTuMbanA badhA sabhyonI pravRtti-pragati mATe pRcchA rahetI. bacubhAIne jyotiSamAM zraddhA ghaNI hatI. paraMtu ene kAraNe thoDo vakhata emane veThavuM paNa paDeluM. koI sArA joSIe emanI kuMDaLI joIne keTalIka AgAhI karelI. emAMnI ghaNI sAcI paDI hatI eTale e joSInA bhaviSyakathana upara emane vizvAsa 160 caritradarzana

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besI gayo hato. varSo pahelAM e joSIe emane kaheluM ke "tamAruM AyuSya 64 varSanuM che." 64mA varSane to haju ghaNI vAra hatI eTale kaMI phikara nahotI paraMtu bAsaThamA varSathI bacubhAI potAnA mRtyu viSe vadhu paDatA sabhAna banI gayA hatA. 64muM AkhuM varSa citAmAM kADhyuM. alabatta, kAma to badhuM barAbara roja karatA, paNa mAthe bhAra raheto. pariNAme tabiyata paNa thoDI bagaDI. aMte 64muM varSa pUruM thayuM tyAre emanI ciMtA TaLI. pachI to e ja utsAhathI emanuM kAma cAlyuM. bacubhAIne videza javAnI taka maLI. e emanA jIvanano anerA ullAsano prasaMga hato. je je sthaLo, myujhiyamo, kalAkRtio vize varSothI pote "kumAra"mAM paricaya ApatA rahyA hatA e badhuM najare jovAnI emane taka sAMpaDI. ene pariNAme ghaNI badhI navI sAmagrI teo 'kumAra' mATe tyAMthI letA AvyA. 1977mAM bIjI vAra teo laMDana gayA tyAre huM tyAM emane maLyo hato. paraMtu uMmara, ThaMDI ane avarajavaranI parataMtratAne kAraNe pahelA jevI bIjI vAranA pravAsamAM emane majA AvI nahotI. eka vakhata amadAvAda thaIne pAlItANA zatruMjayanI jAtrAe huM jato hato. bacubhAIne maLavA gayo. vAta nIkaLI. zatruMjayanAM maMdiro pote haju joyAM nathI ema kahyuM. zatruMjaya vize "kumAramAM ATaluM badhuM lakhanAra enA kalAmarmajJa taMtrIne amadAvAdathI ATaluM pAse hovA chatAM tyAM javAnI taka nahotI maLI. meM tyAM laI javA mATe darakhAsta mUkI, emaNe nA pADI, kAraNa kahyuM ke potAne prosTeTa glAnDanI takalIpha che. eTale vAraMvAra pezAba karavA javuM paDe. pravAsamAM e phAve nahi. vaLI ThaMDI paNa sakhata hatI. vAta mulatavI rahI. bIjI vAra mArAM patnI sAthe huM amadAvAda gayo hato tyAre khAsa gADInI vyavasthA karI bacubhAIne ane emanAM patnIne zatruMjayanI yAtrA karAvI. emane bahu AnaMda thayo. pAchAM pharatAM vAta nIkaLI. emane mahuDInA ghaMTAkarNa vIramAM ghaNI zraddhA hatI. paNa ghaNAM varSathI tyAM javAnI taka maLI nathI. ane have tabiyatane kAraNe khAsa vyavasthA hoya to ja tyAM jaI zakAya. bIjI vakhata ame khAsa gADInI vyavasthA karAvIne sAthe laI jaI mahuDInI jAtrA paNa emane karAvI. jAtrA pachI bacubhAIe mane patramAM jaNAvyuM, "mahuDInI jAtrA mane to sarasa phaLI che. ghaNAbadhA aNadhAryA lAbha thayA che. ghaMTAkarNa deve ATalI badhI mane aNadhArI sahAya karI che eTale pharI darzana karavA javAnI bhAvanA che." patra maLyo eTale bIjI vAra emane mahuDI laI javAnI goThavaNa karI. huM muMbaIthI amadAvAda Avyo ane emane maLyo. teo pathArIvaza hatA. pravAsa na karavAnI DaoNkTare salAha ApI hatI. paraMtu nakkI karyuM hatuM eTale meM eka rasto sUcavyo. bacubhAI rAvata - 16 1

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emanA baMne putro mArI sAthe mahuDI Ave. barAbara savAranA agiyAranA Takore amAre sukhaDIno thALa dharAvavo ane e ja samaye bacubhAIe pathArImAM sUtAM sUtAM ghaMTAkarNa vIrane manamAM page lAgavuM. e pramANe ame kAryakrama sArI rIte pAra pADyo. bacubhAIne ethI bahu ja saMtoSa thayo hato. bacubhAInAM aMtima varSomAM eTaluM kartavya karyAMno amane saMtoSa thayo. bacubhAI vize lakhatAM emanA jIvananA keTalA badhA prasaMgo najara sAme taravare che ! zALAmAM bacubhAI abhyAsa karatA hatA tyAre emane vAMcavAmAM eka aMgrejI vAkya AvyuM hatuM : badhA mANaso mahAna nathI thaI zakatA, paNa badhAM mANaso sajjana jarUra thaI zake che. bacubhAIe A vAkyane potAnA jIvananA eka Adarza tarIke svIkArI laIne sajjana banavAno puruSArtha kheDyo hato. bacubhAI sajjana thayA ane jIvanabhara rahyA, paNa sAthe sAthe mahAna paNa thayA. pariNAme ApaNane eka mahAna-sajjana' sAMpaDyA. (vaMdanIya hRdayasparza'mAMthI) 162 * caritradarzana

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19 haMsAbahena mahetA zrImatI haMsAbahena jIvarAja mahetAnuM budhavAra, tA. 4thI eprila, 1995nA roja 98 varSanI uMmare muMbaImAM avasAna thayuM. emanA avasAnanI noMdha akhabAromAM jeTalI levAvI joItI hatI teTalI levAI nathI evI phariyAda thaI che. joke Ama banavuM svAbhAvika che. vyakti vaDApradhAna ke rASTranA pramukhapade hoya te vakhate temanuM avasAna thAya tyAre temane topa phoDavA sAthe salAmInuM mAna maLe teTaluM mAna nivRtta thaIne taratanA kALamAM avasAna pAme tyAre na maLe. jAhera jIvanamAM atyaMta sakriya rahelI ane vividha siddhio dharAvatI vyakti jAhera jIvanamAMthI nivRtta thAya ane nAdurasta tabiyatane kAraNe varSo sudhI jAhera jIvanathI alipta rahe, lokasaMparkamAM rahe nahi to tevI vyaktinuM smaraNa lokomAM ochuM ne ochuM thatuM jAya te svAbhAvika che. vyakti esI-nevuMnI uMmara vaTAvI jAya ane potAnI hAranA jAhera jIvananA sahakAryakaromAMthI lagabhaga ghaNAkharAe vidAya laI lIdhI hoya tyAre AvuM lokavismaraNa sahaja che. kyAreka to lokone pUchavuM paDe ke phalANA bhAI ke bahena haju hayAta che ? trIsa ke cAlIsanI uMmare pahoMcelA te te kSetranA yuvAno mATe to gata jamAnAnI AvI mahAna vyakti eka bhUtakAlIna ghaTanA jevI banI rahe che. samAja ekaMdare to vartamAna samayamAM sakriya rahetI jAhera jIvananI vyaktiomAM ja vizeSa rasa dharAvato rahe che. zrImatI haMsAbahena mahetA sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTInA vAisa cAnselaranA hodethI nivRtta thayAM ane muMbaImAM AvIne sthAyI thayAM e pachI koI jAhera kAryakramamAM teo upasthita rahetAM nahotAM ke emanI kalamano prasAda vartamAnapatro ke sAmayiko dvArA kazo ja maLato nahoto. AthI loko sAtheno, khAsa hiMsAbahena mahetA kA 163

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karIne zaikSaNika ane sAhityajagata sAtheno emano saMparka rahyo na hato. AuTa oNpha sAiTa, AuTa opha mAinDa jevI paristhiti tyAre pravartavA lAge. paraMtu AvI paristhiti nivAravAnuM kArya guNagrAhI samAja karyA vagara rahe nahi. - sva. haMsAbahena mahetAne muMbaImAM emanA ghare huM maLavA gayo hato e vAtane paNa sAteka varSa thayAM haze ! traNa vyaktio muMbaI mArA ghare Utare tyAre koIka koIka vAra temanI sAthe haMsAbahenane maLavA javAnuM mAre thatuM : (1) caMdravadana cI. mahetA (2) DaoN. bhogIlAla sAMDesarA ane (3) kavi umAzaMkara jozI. emAM paNa umAzaMkara jozI karatAM DaoN. bhogIlAla sAMDesarA ane caMdravadana mahetA haMsAbahenane maLavA mATe vadhu jatA, kAraNa ke haMsAbahena mahetA jyAre sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTInA vAisa cAnselara hatAM tyAre e yunivarsiTImAM prophesara tarIke Do. sAMDesarA ane caMdravadana mahetAe kArya karyuM hatuM. baMne upara haMsAbahenano upakAra moTo hato. caMdravadana mahetA ane haMsAbahena mahetA lagabhaga samayavaska hatAM. baMneno janma suratamAM ane uchera vaDodarAmAM. haMsAbahena sAthe caMdravadananI nikhAlasapaNe bedhaDaka bolavAnI rIta paNa kharI. paraMtu DaoN. sAMDesarA haMsAbahena karatAM vIseka varSa nAnA hatA. eTale emane haMsAbahena mATe AdarabhAva ghaNo hato. hiMsAbahena amArA vAIsa cAnselara che. sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTImAM mArI nimaNUka karanAra haMsAbahena che." evuM bolatAM sAMDesarAnI chAtI phulAtI. chellAM keTalAMka varSothI haMsAbahena azakta rahetAM eTale ame jyAre emane maLavA jaIe tyAre potAnI rUmamAMthI beThakanA khaMDamAM AvatAM paMdara-vIsa miniTa nIkaLI jatI. nokarANI bAI hAtha pakaDIne emane beThakanA khaMDamAM lAvatI. teo svasthapaNe vAta karatAM. yunivarsiTInA keTalAka yAdagAra prasaMgo vAgoLatAM. keTalIka vAtothI teo prasanna thatAM to potAnI yunivarsiTImAM cAlatA rAjakAraNanI vAto sAMbhaLI kheda anubhavatAM. ekaMdare yunivarsiTInI ja vAto nIkaLatI. paraMtu teo ghaNuM ochuM bolatAM. kyAreka koIkanA samAcAra pUchatAM. eTale vAtano dora vadhu cAlato nahi. caMdravadana, DaoN. sAMDesarA ke umAzaMkara jozI mAtra AdarabhAvathI prerAIne, haMsAbahenane phakta vaMdana karavAnA ane khabara jovAnA AzayathI jatA. huM to traNe karatAM vayamAM ghaNo nAno hato. eTale huM to mAtra sAtha ApavA jato. ane emanI vAtacItano sAkSI banIne zAMta besI raheto. vaLI haMsAbahena mane oLakhe paNa nahi. dara vakhate mAre mATe pUche, "A bhAI koNa che ?' vRddhAvasthAne lIdhe yAda na rahe evuM banavuM svAbhAvika hatuM. emanI vismRtithI mane kSobha thato nahi. chelle chelle to caMdravadana mahetA kahetA ke haMsAbahenane maLavA javAnI icchA thatI nathI, kAraNa ke maLavA javAthI emane ghaNI takalIpha paDe che. haMsAbahena keTalAMka 164 caritradarzana

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varSathI pathArIvaza to hatAM, paraMtu tyAra pachI emaNe AMkhonuM teja paNa gumAvI dIdhuM hatuM. AMkhonuM teja cAlyA gayA pachI temanI parAdhInatA vadhI gaI hatI. jyAM sudhI AMkho cAlI tyAM sudhI teo kaMIka ne kaMIka vAMcatAM rahetAM, kAraNa ke temano vAcanano zokha ghaNo hato. temane reDiyo para AvatI krikeTanI komenTarI sAMbhaLavAno rasa paNa ghaNo hato, paraMtu chellAM varSomAM temanA jIvanadIpanuM teja naisargika rIte paNa ochuM thatuM jatuM hatuM. haMsAbahena mahetA eTale jAjvalyamAna nArI. emane tejasvitA vArasAmAM maLI hatI. teo vaDodarA rAjyanA dIvAna sara manubhAI mahetAnAM putrI. sayAjIrAvanA rAjyakALamAM sara manubhAI dIvAne rAjyanI pragatimAM ghaNo mahattvano phALo Apyo hato. sara manubhAI mahetA pote paNa gujarAtanA prathama navalakathAkAra 'karaNaghelo'nA kartA suratanA zrI naMdazaMkara tuLajAzaMkara mahetAnA putra. bhAratanAM dezI rAjyomAM sayAjIrAva gAyakavADanuM vaDodarA rAjya ghaNuM pragatizIla rAjya gaNAtuM. e rAjyanA dIvAnanA gharamAM jeno uchera thayo hoya e saMtAnane janmathI ja keTalAka vizeSa lAbha maLe ane enI buddhi-pratibhA khIle e kudaratI che. hiMsAbahena emanA jamAnAmAM bI.e. ane ema.e. thayelAM. e jamAnAmAM chokarAomAM paNa meTrika thayelA chokarAMo koIka ja jovA maLe. AkhA IlAkAmAM phakta be-traNa kaoNlejo hoya e jamAnAmAM kaoNlejamAM jaI abhyAsa karavo e chokarI mATe navAInI vAta hatI. vaLI keTalIka jJAtimAM niSiddha jevI vAta paNa hatI ane rUDhicusta samAjamAM krAMtikAraka ghaTanA jevI lekhAtI hatI. leDI vidyAbahena nIlakaMTha, saudAminI mahetA, zAradAbahena mahetA vagerenAM nAmo pachI haMsAbahena mahetAnuM nAma paNa bolAtuM. yunivarsiTInA zikSaNamAM nAgara komanI yuvatIo jeTalI mokhare hatI teTalI anya komanI nahotI. haMsAbahena nIlakaMTha prathama mahilA grejyueTa hatAM. haMsAbahena mahetA prathama ema. e. thanAra mahilA hatAM. - haMsAbahenano janma suratamAM vaDanagarA nAgara jJAtimAM trIjI julAI 1897nA roja thayo hato. bAlyakALathI ja teo khUba hoziyAra hatAM. temanI smaraNazakti ghaNI sArI hatI. 1913mAM teo meTrika thayAM tyAre "ceTaphilDa prAijha', nArAyaNa paramAnaMda prAIjha' vagere meLavelAM. maeNTrika pachI vaDodarA kaoNlejamAM teo dAkhala thayAM tyAre tyAM vidyArthI samAja, vastRtva maMDaLI vagerenI sthApanAmAM temaNe sakriya rasa lIdhelo. - haMsAbahenane saMskRta ane iMgliza bhASAnA viSayamAM ghaNo rasa hato. (kolejakakSAe gujarAtI viSaya tyAre haju dAkhala thayo nahoto.) teTalo ja rasa hiMsAbahena mahetA 165

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tattvajJAnamAM raheto. haMsAbahene muMbaI yunivarsiTInI bI.e.nI parIkSA philosophInA viSaya sAthe sArA mArksa pAsa karI. te pachI teo vadhu abhyAsa arthe iMglenDa gayAM. temaNe tyAM rahIne laMDana yunivarsiTImAM samAjazAstra ane patrakAratvanA viSayano abhyAsa karyo. iMglenDamAM A be varSanA abhyAsa daramiyAna temane suprasiddha bhAratIya kavayitrI zrImatI sarojinI nAyaDuno paricaya thayo hato. 1920mAM jinIvAmAM inTaranezanala vimensa konpharansa yojAI hatI temAM bhAga levA mATe teo sarojinI nAyaDu sAthe jinIvA gayAM hatAM. je divasomAM pravAsIo mATe vimAnavyavahAra nahoto e divasomAM teo sTImaramAM iMglenDa gayAM hatAM. iMglenDamAM be varSa abhyAsa karyA pachI 1922mAM teo vadhu abhyAsa arthe amerikA gayAM hatAM. 1923mAM sAna phrAMsiskomAM yojAyelI AMtararASTrIya keLavaNI pariSadamAM temaNe bhAga lIdho hato. A rIte yuvAna vaye ja temaNe potAnI tejasvitA AMtararASTrIya kSetre dAkhavI hatI. 1923mAM haMsAbahena videzamAM abhyAsa karIne vaDodarA pAchAM pharyA te vakhate temanI uMmara pacIseka varSanI hatI. e jamAnAmAM eka kaoNlejakanyA tarIke ATalI badhI pragati karanAra ane eTalI tejasvI kArakirdI dharAvanAra yuvatIno joTo maLe nahi. e divasomAM sAmAjika rUDhionAM baMdhano hatAM. je jamAnAmAM moTA bhAganI chokarIo hAIskUlamAM abhyAsa karavA jatI na hatI, tathA javalle ja koIka chokarI meTrika sudhI pahoMcatI hatI ane paMdara-sattara varSe chokarIonAM lagna thaI jatAM e jamAnAmAM yunivarsiTInI DigrI meLavyA pachI videza jaI ucca abhyAsa karIne pAchAM AvavuM e eka kaoNlejakanyA mATe virala ghaTanA hatI. paraMtu bIjI bAju emAM sAmAjika samasyA UbhI thatI ke AvI kanyAo mATe potAnI jJAtimAM yogya umedavAra hoya nahi ane anya jJAtimAM lagna thaI zake nahIM. jJAtinAM baMdhano Aje jeTalAM zithila che teTalAM tyAre nahotAM. jJAtimAMthI bahiSkata thavuM e ghaNI moTI sajA gaNAtI hatI. e divasomAM haMsAbahena mahetA mATe potAnI vaDanagarA nAgara jJAtimAM koI yogya yuvAna hato nahi. sara manubhAI dIvAnanuM kuTuMba pragatizIla hatuM. chatAM jJAtinAM baMdhano toDavA jeTaluM sAhasa karavAnI hiMmata temanAmAM hatI ke kema te prazna che. e vakhate vaDodarA rAjyamAM cIpha meDikala ophisara tarIke kAma karanAra tejasvI yuvAna DaoN. jIvarAja mahetA hatA. teo amarelInA vatanI hatA ane amarelI vaDodarA rAjyanuM zahera hatuM. eTale gAyakavADI rAjyamAM tenA prajAjano tarIke DaoN. jIvarAja mahetAne sayAjIrAva gAyakavADe moTI padavI ApI hatI. Do. jIvarAja mahetA kapoLa jJAtinA hatA. haMsAbahena mATe te yogya umedavAra hatA. temanI sAthe haMsAbahenanAM lagna thAya evI sayAjIrAvanI icchA ane saMmati 166 = caritradarzana

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hatI. paraMtu jJAti bahAra lagna karavAno prazna ghaNo vikaTa hato. I. sa. 1924mAM hiMsAbahene DaoN. jIvarAja mahetA sAthe premalagna karyA. tyAre e AMtarajJAtiya lagna mATe emanAM kuTuMbIjanoe paNa jabaro virodha karyo. mosALa pakSe to temano bahiSkAra karyo hato. mAtra vaDodarA rAjyamAM ja nahi, samagra gujarAtamAM te samaye ghaNo moTo khaLabhaLATa macI gayo hato. e vakhate chApAMo ochAM nIkaLatAM hatAM, paNa patrikAo ghaNI nIkaLatI hatI. evI patrikAo ghera ghera lokone vaheMcavAmAM AvatI. ThIka ThIka lAMbA samaya sudhI AvI patrikAo nIkaLyA karI hatI. hAla 1995mAM vaDodarA zaheranI nevuM varSanI uparanI uMmaranI je vyaktio hayAta haze tevI vyaktine e samayanuM khaLabhaLATanuM vAstavika citra najara sAme taravaraze. mArA pitAzrI hAla 99 varSanI uMmaranA che. teone paNa A prasaMganI smRti tAjI che.) e samaye bAlayogInA upanAmathI koIka ghaNI patrikAo kADhatuM hatuM. evI patrikAomAM bephAmapaNe lakhAtuM. sara manubhAI potAnI putrInI A ghaTanA mATe, aMgata mAnyatA ane jAhera abhiprAya judAM judAM dharAvatA. - vaDodarAmAM je jAtanuM khaLabhaLATabharyuM vAtAvaraNa hatuM te jotAM tyAM vadhu samaya rahevAnuM game evuM nahotuM. ethI haMsAbahena ane DaoN. jIvarAja mahetA muMbaI AvyAM. DaoN. jIvarAja mahetA ke. I. ema. hospiTalamAM DIna tarIke joDAyA. haMsAbahena paNa bhaginI samAja ane bIjI keTalIka saMsthAomAM sakriya kArya karavA lAgyAM. teo myunisipala skUla kamiTImAM paNa sabhya tarIke sevA ApavA lAgyAM hatAM. sAhitya ane zikSaNa e be emanA rasanAM kSetra rahyAM hatAM. leDI tAtAe "dha nezanala kAunsila opha vimena ina inDiyAnA maMtrI tarIke emanI niyukti karI hatI. muMbaI AvIne sthira thavAnuM bIjuM paNa eka prayojana hatuM. e divasomAM gAMdhIjIe cAlu karelI asahakAra ane satyAgrahanI caLavaLa vega pakaDatI jatI hatI. briTiza hakUmata ane dezI rAjyonI bhedarekhA tyAre vadhAre sudaDha hatI. gAyakavADI rAjyamAM rahIne briTiza sarakAra sAmenA AMdolanamAM bhAga levo ane te paNa rAjyanA dIvAnanI putrIe, emAM keTalIka samasyAo rahelI hatI. muMbaIthI evI pravRtti karavAmAM anukULatA hatI haMsAbahene 1930mAM dAMDIkUcamAM bhAga lIdho hato. teo traNeka vAra jelamAM jaI AvyAM hatAM. teo gAMdhIjInA gADha saMparkamAM AvyAM hatAM. gAMdhIjIe temane tADI-dArUnI dukAno ane videzI kApaDanI dukAno pAse pikeTiMga karavAnuM kAma soMpyuM hatuM. temaNe e kArya perInabahena kepTana sAthe maLIne karyuM hatuM. haMsAbahena, perInabahena kepTana, sophiyA khAna, vijayAbahena kAnugA vageree maLIne muMbaImAM dezasevikA saMgha'nI sthApanA karI hatI. muMbaImAM briTiza sarakAra sAme je laData cAlI temAM saraghasanuM netRtva saMbhALavA mATe perInabahenanI hiMsAbahena mahetA kA 167

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dharapakaDa thaI. te pachI haMsAbahene e netRtva saMbhALyuM tyAre emanI paNa dharapakaDa thaI hatI ane emane kArAvAsa bhogavavo paDyo hato. haMsAbahene eka suzikSita sannArI tarIke tyAre mAtra gujarAtamAM ja nahi, samagra bhAratamAM mahattvanuM sthAna prApta karI lIdhuM hatuM. 1934mAM hiMsAbahena muMbaI kaoNMgresa samitinAM adhyakSa banyAM hatAM. 1937mAM briTiza zAsana daramiyAna muMbaI dhArAsabhAnI cUMTaNImAM haMsAbahena cUMTAI AvyAM hatAM. kherasAhebanA pradhAnamaMDaLamAM teo zikSaNa khAtAnA nAyabapradhAna thayAM hatAM. e batAve che ke haMsAbahena keTalAM lokapriya hatAM ane vahIvaTI kSetre keTalAM badhAM kAryadakSa hatAM. haMsAbahenano jIva sAhityakArano hato. kaoNlejamAM abhyAsa karatAM hatAM tyArathI ja emanI lekhanapravRtti cAlu thaI gaI hatI. bALasAhityamAM temane vizeSa rasa hato. emaNe "bALa vArtAvali', "aruNanuM adbhuta svapna vagere kRtio uparAMta nATakanA kSetre traNa nATako', himAlaya svarUpa ane bIjAM nATako' jevI maulika kRtio racI hatI. taduparAMta moliyeranA nATaka uparathI bAvalAnAM parAkramonI racanA karI hatI tathA zeksapiyaranA nATaka "hemleTa' ane 'venisano vepArI'nA anuvAda jevI racanAo ApI hatI. taduparAMta emaNe rAmAyaNanA arayakAMDa, yuddhakAMDa ane suMdarakAMDa uparathI paNa anuvAdo karyA hatA. yunivarsiTInA vahIvaTI kSetramAM joDAyA pachI haMsAbahenanI lekhanapravRtti sthagita thaI gaI hatI je jIvananA aMta sudhI pharI pAchI cAlu thaI nahotI. bhAratane AjhAdI maLI tyAre 1947nI paMdaramI ogasTe (14mI oNgasTe rAtanA bAra vAge) svAtaMtrya-parvanI ujavaNI vakhate bhAratanI mahilAo vatI rASTrane rASTradhvaja arpaNa karavAnuM sadabhAgya haMsAbahenane prApta thayuM hatuM. svataMtra bhAratanuM baMdhAraNa ghaDavA mATe baMdhAraNa sabhAnI (Constituent Assembly)nI racanA thaI tyAre tenA eka sabhya tarIke temanI varaNI thaI hatI. svataMtra bhAratamAM mahilAone samAna haka ane samAna taka maLe e mATe emaNe eka Avedanapatra baMdhAraNa sabhAmAM rajU karyuM hatuM. yunAITeDa nezansa taraphathI mAnavahakonuM jAheranAmuM (Charter of Human Rights) ghaDavA mATe paMcanI racanA thaI tyAre bhAratanAM mahilA pratinidhi tarIke haMsAbahenanI nimaNUka thaI hatI. haMsAbahene e paMcanA sabhya tarIke pAMca varSa kArya karyuM hatuM ane temAM chellA varSamAM to teo paMcanAM pramukha thayAM hatAM. yuneskonI samitinA sabhya tarIke paNa temanI varaNI thaI hatI. emanI siddhio darzAve che ke buddhizakti, viSayanI jANakArI, maulika ciMtana vageremAM teo kevAM tejasvI hatAM ! 168 caritradarzana

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haMsAbahenamAM mahilAonA haka mATenI jAgRti pUrepUrI hatI. tema chatAM mAtra mahilAonA pakSakAra jevI temanAmAM saMkucitatA nahotI ke mahilAone sadA anyAya thayA kare che evA bhUtanuM vaLagaNa nahotuM. teo mahilAonA prazno vize paNa svataMtra, svastha, taTastha, samatola ane udAramatavAdI vicAraNA dharAvanArAM hatAM. haMsAbahenanA pitAzrI sara manubhAI dIvAne vaDodarA rAjyanI ghaNI moTI sevA karI hatI. vaDodarAmAM yunivarsiTInI sthApanA karavAnuM svapna mahArAjA sayAjIrAva gAyakavADe seveluM hatuM ane e mATe moTI rakama anAmata rAkhelI hatI, paraMtu emanA jIvanakALa daramiyAna yunivarsiTInI sthApanA thaI zakI nahi. bhAratane AjhAdI maLyA pachI vaDodarAmAM "mahArAjA sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTInI sthApanA thaI zakI ane e yunivarsiTInA prathama vAIsa cAnselara thavAnuM mAna ane sadbhAgya zrImatI haMsAbahena mahetAne prApta thayuM hatuM e paNa suMdara suyoga gaNI zakAya. haMsAbahene bhAratanI yunivarsiTIomAM prathama mahilA vAIsa cAnselara thavAnuM mAna paNa prApta karyuM. potAnA pitAnuM ane potAnA mahArAjAnuM kAryakSetra prApta thatAM haMsAbahene niSThApUrvaka ane kAryadakSatApUrvaka nava varSa sudhI yunivarsiTInA vAisa cAnselara tarIke ghaNI mahattvanI sevA ApIne e yunivarsiTIne bhAratanI agragaNya yunivarsiTIomAM sthAna apAvyuM ane videzamAM paNa ene ghaNI moTI khyAti apAvI. emaNe gRhavijJAna Home Science)no vibhAga zarU karAvyo ane bIjA paNa keTalAka navA viSayo yunivarsiTImAM dAkhala karAvyA. haMsAbahene A rIte zikSaNa ane sAhityanA kSetre je mahattvanI kAmagIrI bajAvI tenI kadararUpe alhAbAda yunivarsiTIe ane sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTIe temane DI.liTa.nI mAnada padavI ApI hatI. taduparAMta bhArata sarakAre temane 1959nA varSamAM prajAsattAka dine pavabhUSaNa'no IlkAba Apyo hato. haMsAbahene sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTInA vAIsa cAnselara tarIke eka mahattvanuM kAma e karyuM ke caMdravadana mahetAne vijhiTiMga prophesara tarIke nimaNUka ApI. caMdravadana mahetA ola inDiyA reDiyomAMthI nivRtta thayA hatA. teo ekalA, taraMgI svabhAvanA ane rakhaDatA rAma hatA ! nATakanA e jiniyasa hatA. lekhana uparAMta vAcana, pravAsa ane anubhavanI dRSTie teo ghaNA samRddha hatA. AvI vyaktiono samAjane, sAhitya ane zikSaNanA kSetrane lAbha vadhu maLe e daSTie emane koIka yunivarsiTImAM kaMIka sthAna ApavuM joIe. paraMtu satata bhramaNazIla svabhAvanA caMdravadana ema kAyamane mATe eka sthaLe baMdhAI jAya evA nahotA. ramaNalAla desAI ane umAzaMkare haMsAbahenane kaheluM ke "caMdravadanane tamAre kAyama mATe khIle bAMdhavAnI jarUra che. tamArI haMsAbahena mahetA e 169

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yunivarsiTImAM tamAre e kevI rIte karavuM teno rasto tame zodhI kADho." haMsAbahene evo sarasa upAya zodhI kADhyo ke caMdravadana jIvananA aMta sudhI sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTInA thaIne rahyA. haMsAbahene caMdravadanane vijhiTiMga prophesara tarIke nimaNUka ApI. yunivarsiTInI hosTelamAM manubhAI mahetA holamAM (A manubhAI mahetA haoNla te haMsAbahena mahetAnA pitAzrInI yAdamAM hosTelane apAyeluM nAma) uparanA mALe eka svataMtra, alAyado khaMDa ApavAmAM Avyo ane yunivarsiTImAM evI rItano TharAva thayo ke caMdravadana mahetA jIve tyAM sudhI e rUmamAM rahI zake. vaLI emanA adhyApanakArya mATe paNa samayanuM koI baMdhana rAkhavAmAM AvyuM nahi. jyAre icchA thAya tyAre agAuthI jANa karIne varga laI zake. pIeca.DI.nA vidyArthIone mArgadarzana ApI zake. bahAragAma ke videza javA mATe temane koI rajA-arajI karavAnI rahe nahi, kAraNa ke vijhiTiMga prophesara tarIkenI emane nimaNUka ApavAmAM AvI hatI. Ama haMsAbahene je rasto kADhyo ethI caMdravadanane potAne, sayAjIrAva yunivarsiTIne ane gujarAtI sAhityane ghaNo lAbha thayo. A bAju DaoN. jIvarAja mahetA gAMdhIjInA aMgata tabIba banyA hatA. emaNe gAMdhIjInI varSo sudhI sevA karI hatI. jIvananI uttarAvasthAmAM Do. jIvarAja mahetA tabIbI vyavasAya karatAM sakriya rAjakAraNamAM vadhu rasa levA lAgyA hatA. 1960mAM jyAre gujarAtanA svataMtra rAjyanuM nirmANa thayuM tyAre enA prathama mukhyamaMtrI Do. jIvarAja mahetA thayA hatA. emaNe e pada upara rahI potAnI vahIvaTI kuzaLatAthI gujarAta rAjyanI ghaNI sArI sevA karI hatI. 1987mAM emanuM avasAna thayuM te pachI haMsAbahena muMbaImAM AvIne potAnAM saMtAno sAthe rahyAM tyAre eMsInI uMmare pahoMcelAM haMsAbahena jAhera jIvana ane jAhera saMparka sameTI laI ekAMtapriya banI vAcana-mananamAM potAno samaya pasAra karavA lAgyAM. pachIthI to tabiyatanI pratikULatA paNa rahevA lAgI. haMsAbahenanA jIvanamAM aMtima varSo zAMtimAM pasAra thayAM hatAM. zakti anusAra prApta thatA jAhera jIvanano jema AnaMda che tema jAhera jIvanamAMthI sadaMtara nivRtta thaI zAMta, ekAMtapriya jIvana jIvavAno paNa eka vizeSa prakArano AnaMda hoya che. haMsAbahene ubhaya prakAranA AnaMdano saMtarpaka anubhava karyo hato. bhAratanAM A suvikhyAta sannArInA jIvanamAMthI ghaNAMne preraNA maLI rahe ema che. ('vaMdanIya hRdayasparza'mAMthI) 17) caritradarzana

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20 amArA pUjya zrI dozIkAkA dhoyelAM svaccha paNa istrI vagaranAM khAdIno jhabhbho, baMDI ane pAyajAmo paherelA, khabhe khAdIno AchA raMgano thelo bharAvelA, gAmaThI caMpalavALA nIcuM joIne cAlatA sittera-eMsI varSanA koI kAkA ANaMdathI amadAvAdanI ke gAMdhInaga2 jatI basamAM caDe ane jagyA hoya to bese, nahi to dAMDo jhAlIne UbhA UbhA pravAsa kare emane tame juo to samajo ke e cikhodarAnI AMkhanI hospiTalavALA DaoN. ramaNIkalAla dozI-dozIkAkA che. amadAvAda-gAMdhInagaranI basamAM ja nahi, bIjI koI basamAM paNa tame emane joI zako. gujarAtanI basomAM seMkaDo vAra emaNe pravAsa karyo haze. gAMdhIjI ane ravizaMkara mahArAja dAdAnA prabhAva nIce AvelA, ane lokasevAno bhekha dhAraNa karelA DaoN. dozIkAkAne Aje 89-90nI uMmare e ja taravarATathI kAma karatA tame joI zako ! emanA paricayamAM Avo to tamane emanI mahattAno khyAla Ave. e cAlyA jatA hoya to emanA paheraveza parathI koI ajANyA mANasane khyAla na Ave ke A DaoNkTara che, AMkhanA moTAmAM moTA DaoNkTara che. eka vakhata kAkAne ame pUchyuM ke, 'kAkA, tamArI pAse saMsthAnI pAMca gADI che, to tame saMsthAnA kAma mATe amadAvAda ke gAMdhInagara basamAM kema jAva cho ?' kAkAe kahyuM, "jo mAre ekalAe javAnuM hoya ane samaya hoya to huM jIpa nathI vAparato. bIjA eka-be vadhAre hoya to huM jIpamAM jAuM chuM. amArI saMsthAnI badhI jIpa Akho vakhata kAma mATe kyAMthI kyAM jatI hoya che. koI vAra eka ja DaoNkTara hoya ane jIpa laI jAya che. paraMtu A niyama to meM mAre mATe rAkhyo che. ethI amArA pUjya zrI dozIkAkA 171

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saMsthAnuM peTrola bace che. jyAM sudhI mArAthI basamAM javAya che tyAM sudhI basamAM jAuM chuM. amArI saMsthA zakya eTalI karakasarathI ame calAvIe chIe.' kAkA TrenanA pravAsamAM sAdA bIjA vargamAM bese che. teo kahe, 'rijharvezana'nA paisA bace eTale saMsthAnA paisA bace. sAdA bIjA vargamAM besavAnI jagyA maLI jAya. na maLe to vacce nIce besI jAuM chuM. mane beThAM beThAM sArI UMgha AvI jAya che. kyAreya khIsuM kapAyuM nathI. mAro dekhAva joIne ja koI khIsuM kApavA na lalacAya. javA-AvavAnI TikiTa hoya pachI vadhAre paisA rAkhato nathI. keTalAMye zaheromAM sTezanathI rikSA ke TaeNksI, anivArya na hoya to karato nathI. sTezanathI cAlI nAkhuM chuM.' gujarAtamAM aneka gAmomAM netrayajJa karavAne kAraNe basa ke TrenamAM kAkAne oLakhanA2 koIka ne koIka to nIkaLe ja ane jagyA ApavA taiyAra hoya ja. vaLI kAkA kahe ke 'A rIte pravAsa karavAthI janatAnI vacce ApaNane rahevAnuM maLe. ApaNAmAM moTAI AvI na jAya.' pUjya dozIkAkAnuM nAma to mu. maphatakAkA ane anya keTalAka dvArA sAMbhaLyuM hatuM. paNa emane maLavAno saMyoga prApta thayo nahoto. 1984 daramiyAna eka divasa amArA vaDIla, amArA rekhA bilDiMgamAM rahetA bhUdAna kAryakartA zrI kIrtanabhAI dhAriyAno phona Avyo ke, dozIkAkA atyAre amAre ghare AvyA che. tamane anukULatA hoya to ame maLavA AvIe.' meM kahyuM, jarUra Avo, gharamAM ja chuM.' zrI kIrtanabhAI ane dozIkAkA padhAryAM. kIrtanabhAIe emanI kSayanivAraNa ane cikhodarAnI AMkhanI haoNspiTalano paricaya Apyo. vAtavAtamAM kAkAe kahyuM, 'koI vAra samaya kADhIne amArI AMkhanI haoNspiTala jovA Avo.' meM kahyuM, 'hamaNAM huM kapaDavaMja pAse utkaMThezvara AvavAno chuM. paraMtu tyAMthI cikhodarA AvavAno samaya nahi rahe, kAraNa ke tyAMthI pAMca vAge basamAM nIkaLI amadAvAdathI Trena pakaDavAno chuM.' kAkAe kahyuM, tamane anukULa hoya to tame bhojana karI lo pachI sADA bAre utkaMThezvara tamAre mATe jIpa mokaluM. tyAMthI aDhI kalAkamAM cikhodarA AvI jAva. pachI cikhodarA haoNspiTala joI ane jamIne cha vAge nIkaLo to amArI jIpa tamane nava vAge amadAvAda sTezane pahoMcADe. tamArI Trena rAtanA dasa vAgyAnI che. tamane zrama na lAgato hoya to A rIte goThavo.' 172 caritradarzana

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meM kahyuM. "tame ATalI badhI sagavaDa karI Apo cho to pachI kema na phAve ?' A goThavaNa pramANe kAkAnA DrAivara ramezabhAI barAbara sADAbAranA Takore levA AvyA. ame - huM, mArAM patnI ane nirubahena (saMghanAM maMtrI) taiyAra hatAM. ame jIpamAM besI cikhodarA pahoMcyAM. cikhodarA pahoMcIne hospiTalanI mulAkAta lIdhI. dozIkAkAe amAruM bhAvabhInuM svAgata karyuM. haoNspiTalamAM sarasa atithigRha hatuM. eTale bIjA mitrone laI AvIe to sagavaDa sArI maLe. nIrava zAMta vAtAvaraNa, vRkSo, moranA TahukA vagerene kAraNe upavana jevuM lAgatuM hatuM. hospiTala paNa ame joI. sAMje bhojana vakhate kAkAnAM dharmapatnI mu. bhAnubahene paNa bhAvathI pIrasyuM. amane eka sarasa Worth repeating, anubhava thayo. jIpa amane amadAvAda sTezane samayasara pahoMcADI gaI. amane ema thayuM ke paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALA daramiyAna A saMsthAne sahAya karavAnI apIla karavA jevI che. - tyAra pachI bIjA keTalAka sabhyo paNa cikhodarA jaI AvyA. ame yuvaka saMghanI kAryavAhaka samitimAM kAkAnI hospiTalane sahAya karavAno nirNaya karyo. e mATe ghaNI sArI rakama ekatra thaI. e rakama ApavAno kAryakrama cikhodarAmAM yojAyo. eno je pratisAda sAMpaDyo ane pariNAme dozIkAkA sAthe evo gADha nAto baMdhAyo ke varasamAM cAra-pAMca vakhata cikhodarA na jaIe tyAM sudhI game nahi. dozIkAkA ane bhAnubahena sAthe vaDIla svajana hoya evo saMbaMdha baMdhAI gayo. - tyAra pachI amArA yuvaka saMghanA upakrame cikhodarAnI hospiTala dvArA varSamAM cAra-pAMca vakhata netrayajJa yojAvA lAgyA. e mATe dAtAo taraphathI maLelI rakama ame hospiTalane pahoMcADIe chIe. taduparAMta bIjI rakamo mokalAvatA rahIe chIe. netrayajJanI tArIkho be mahinA agAu nakkI thAya. kAkA sthaLa jaNAve ane sAthe pUche ke "A vakhate kayA tIrthanI jAtrAe jazo?' muMbaIthI ame AThadasa sabhyo cikhodarA jaIe ane tyAMthI netrayajJanA sthaLe jaIe. A rIte bAvIsa varSa daramiyAna amArA sitterathI vadhu pravAsa thayA haze ane eTalI ja tIrthayAtrA thaI haze. amArA jaina yuvaka saMgha taraphathI A rIte ANaMda, paMcamahAla, vaDodarA ane surata jillAmAM ghaNuM pharavAnuM thayuM hatuM. ame ThAsarA, borasada, vaDavA, vaDatAla, bocAsaNa, dhoLakA, veDachI, nArezvara, sarabhoNa, sAgatALA, dhoLI DuMgarI, rAjapIpaLA, jhaghaDiyA, maMgalabhAratI, bAMdhaNI, kapaDavaMja, mAtara, godharA, dAhoda, amArA pUjya zrI dozIkAkA e 173

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devagaDha bAriyA, boDelI vagere sthaLoe dozIkAkAnI AMkhanI hospiTala dvArA netrayajJanuM Ayojana karyuM hatuM. keTaleka sthaLe eka karatAM vadhAre vAra netrayajJo yojAyA hatA. dareka netrayajJano judo ja anubhava thato. vaLI kAkAnI sAthe satata pravAsa daramiyAna kAkAnA vividha anubhavonI vAta nIkaLe. koI vAra gAMdhIjI, koI vAra ravizaMkaradAdAnI, koI vAra gaMgAbAnI preraka vAto jANavA maLe. koI vAra najIkamAM koI jovA jevI saMsthA hoya te batAve. koI vAra najIkamAM hoya evAM kabIra vaDa, mAlasara, aMgArezvara, manana Azrama, bahAI maMdira, nArezvara, garuDezvara, narmadA Dema, vaNAkaborI Dema, agAsa Azrama, vaDavA, bAMdhaNI, veDachIno Azrama, bAjumAM zabarIzALA, vAtsalyadhAma, pAvAgaDha vagere amane batAvyAM hatAM. kAkAne kheDA (ANaMda sahita) jillAmAM ane paMcamahAla jillAmAM gAmegAma keTalAya kAryakaro oLakhe. kAkAnI saraLa, nirabhimAnI, prAmANika, sevAbhAvI prakRtine kAraNe kAkAnuM kAma sau koI karavA taiyAra. AthI ja kAkA gAmegAma netrayajJonuM Ayojana kare tyAre badhA sthAnika kAryakartAonI TIma vyavasthAnI badhI javAbadArI upADI le. pratyeka aThavADiye kAkAnA netrayajJo cAlatA ja hoya. cikhodarA hospiTalano sTApha khATalA, gAdalAM, anAja, oparezana thiyeTaranI sAmagrI, caramAM vagere mATe darekane soMpavAmAM AvelI javAbadArI teo barAbara saMbhALe. sTApha paNa atyaMta vinayI. kyAreka koI prazna Ubho thayo hoya to chevaTano nirNaya kAkAno raheto. dozIkAkA sAthenA amArA anubhavanA keTalAka prasaMgo varNavatAM pahelAM dozIkAkAnA jIvananI ahIM TUMkI rUparekhA ApI che. zrI Ara.ke. desAIe karmayogI zrI ramaNIkabhAI dozI' nAmanI pustikA lakhI che jemAM dozIkAkAnA jIvananI vistRta rUparekhA ApI che. dozIkAkAno janma I. sa. 1916nI bIjI sapTembaranA roja rAjakoTamAM thayo hato. emanA pitAzrI sva. rAmajIbhAI dozI rAjakoTa rAjyanA dIvAna hatA. teo kAryadakSa, satyaniSTha, prAmANika, daDhasaMkalpa, dhIragaMbhIra svabhAvanA ane pragatizIla vicAra dharAvanAra hatA. eTale rAjakoTanA nareza lAkhAjIrAja para emano ghaNo sAro prabhAva hato. teo pote suzikSita hatA eTale saMtAnone paNa ucca zikSaNa apAvavAnI dRSTivALA hatA. teo eTalA prAmANika hatA ke rAjyanA kArabhAra mATe pena judI rAkhatA ane aMgata vaparAzanI judI rAkhatA. rAjya taraphathI maLela Teliphonano upayoga teo aMgata kAma mATe vAparatA nahi. rAmajIbhAIe be vAra 174 4 caritradarzana

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lagna karyAM hatAM ane emane sAta dIkarA ane eka dIkarI ema ATha saMtAna hatAM. rAmajIbhAIe potAnA keTalAka dIkarAone abhyAsa mATe karAMcI mokalyA hatA. eTale dozIkAkAe paNa thoDo vakhata karAMcImAM abhyAsa karyo hato. e divasomAM bahu ochA vidyArthIo dAktarI vidyAno abhyAsa karI DaoNkTara thatA. rAmajIbhAInA pAMca dIkarA DaoNkTara thayA hatA. dozIkAkA amadAvAdamAM ela.sI.pI.esa. thayA ane muMbaImAM DI.o.ema.esa. thayA. emaNe kacchanA bhacAumAM tathA pAnelI, jAmajodhapura vagere sthaLe dAktara tarIke ane naDiyAdamAM te viSayonA prAdhyApaka tarIke sevAo ApI hatI. dozIkAkAnAM dharmapatnI bhAnubahena kAkAnA dareka kAryamAM sahayoga ApatAM rahe che. jUnAgaDhanAM vatanI, paraMtu raMgUnamAM UcharelAM bhAnubahena bIjA vizvayuddha pachI potAnAM mAtApitA sAthe jUnAgaDha pAchAM pharyAM hatAM. rAjakoTa DaoN. 2maNIkalAla dozI sAthe emanAM lagna thayAM. dozI-daMpatIne saMtAna nahi, paNa teoe potAnAM bhAIonAM saMtAnone ghare rAkhI potAnAM saMtAnonI jema sArI rIte ucheryAM. bhAnubahena zrImaMtAImAM UcharyAM hatAM, paNa kAkA sAthe lagna pachI emaNe kAkAnI sAdAI, sevA ane samarpaNanI bhAvanAne AtmasAt karI lIdhI hatI. ame vaDodarA jaIe to keTalIye vA2 tyAM bhAnubahenanI sAthe emanA bhAInuM paNa Atithya mANyuM che. haoNspiTalamAM bhAnubahena rasoDAnuM dhyAna rAkhe. dozIkAkA bahAragAma hoya to DaoN. choTubhAI ane aMbAlAla dhyAna rAkhe, paNa bhAnubahena paNa hospiTalanuM dhyAna rAkhe. videzathI AvelA kapaDAMnuM garIbomAM vitaraNa kare. bhAnubahena savAranAM AMgaNAmAM pakSIone caNa nAkhe tyAre mora, popaTa, kabUtara, kAbara, cakalI vagere pakSIo ekasAthe maLIne caNe e raMgaberaMgI manohara dazya raLiyAmaNuM ane zAMtipreraka lAge. ANaMdamAM upAzraya baMdhAvavA mATe phaMDa ekatra karavAmAM bhAnubahene ghaNe ghare pharIne sArI mahenata karI hatI. Ama kAkAnI ardhAMginI tarIke bhAnubahene paNa potAnA jIvanane sArthaka karyuM che ane zobhAvyuM che. tyAra pachI dozIkAkAe amadAvAdamAM rIlipha roDa upara eka DaoNkTara mitranI bhAgIdArImAM 'hiMda mizana haoNspiTala' zarU karI. A haoNspiTalamAM phakta eka rUpiyo phI laIne dardIne AMkhanI sAravAra karI ApavAmAM AvatI. daramiyAna dozIkAkA pU. ravizaMka2 dAdAnA gADha paricayamAM AvatA gayA. 1943mAM AjhAdI pUrve dAdAe rAdhanapuramAM netrayajJa yojyo hato ane emAM dozIkAkAne sevA ApavA mATe nimaMtraNa amArA pUjya zrI dozIkAkA 175

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ApavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. dozIkAkAne A vakhate dAdAnI sAthe rahevAnI ane emanI kAma karavAnI kunehanAM darzana thayAM. dardIonI sTrecara ravizaMkara mahArAja pote paNa upADatA. dAdAe dozIkAkAne zahe2ne badale gAmaDAmAM jaIne lokonI sevA karavAnI bhalAmaNa karI. eTale dozIkAkA amadAvAdathI ANaMda ane bocAsaNa sevA ApavA javA lAgyA. pachIthI to amadAvAda choDIne ANaMdamAM davAkhAnuM karyuM. pachI teo dara zani, ravi bocAsaNamAM netrazibira yojatA. emAM eka paNa dardIne pAcho mokalatA nahi. Ama dozIkAkAnI maphata netrayajJonI pravRtti vadhatI cAlI. 100mo netrayajJa vyArAmAM thayo. tyAra pachI dozIkAkAe potAnI ANaMdanI haoNspiTala, TrasTa banAvI TrasTane soMpI dIdhI. have potAnI aMgata milakata rahI nahi, kAkAnI pAse potAnI mAlikInuM makAna, jamIna, milakata, beMkamAM khAtuM vagere kazuM ja nathI. kAkAne inkamaTeksa bharavAno hoto nathI. kAkAe potAnuM jIvana samAjane samarpita karI dIdhuM. dozIkAkAne gAMdhIjI, vinobAjI, ravizaMkara mahArAja, babalabhAI mahetA, pU. moTA svAmI saccidAnaMdajI, gaMgAbA, dAMDIyAtrAvALA zrI kRSNajI vagere pAsethI lokasevAnI preraNA maLI che. DaoN. choTubhAI paTela, zrI goradhanabhAI Thakkara, DaoN. pro. bhAnuprasAda cokasI, ravizaMkara mahArAjanA putra paMDita meghavrata, DaoN. caMpakabhAI mahetA, DaoN. narendrabhAI mahetA vagereno sarasa sahakAra sAMpaDyo che. ahIM to thoDAMka ja nAma ApyAM che. dozIkAkAno nityakrama te vahelI savAre UThI sIdhA sAmayikamAM besI javuM ane logassano jApa karavo. pachI dUdha pIne (cA to kAkAe jiMdagImAM kyAreya cAkhI nathI.) haoNspiTalamAM oNparezana kare ane tyAra pachI ANaMdanA davAkhAnAmAM jAya. dozIkAkA sAMje jamIne bhAnubahena sAthe sArA graMthonuM vAcana kare. rAtre dozIkAkA oNphisamAM Tebala 52 mAtra cAdara pAtharI, Teliphona pAse rAkhI sUI jAya. sUtAM ja UMgha AvI jAya. rAtre koIno phona Ave to dozIkAkA tarata upADe. pachI jo UMgha UDI jAya to tarata sAmAyikamAM besI jAya. dozIkAkAe pAMca dAyakA karatAM vadhAre samayathI kSayanivAraNa ane aMdhatvanivAraNanA kSetre saMgIna, saMniSTha, sevAbhAvI kArya karyuM che. eTale emanI e kSetranI siddhionI kadararUpe vakhatovakhata judI judI saMsthA ke sarakAra taraphathI evaoNrDa, 176 caritradarzana

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sanmAnapatra vagere ghaNAM maLyAM che. amerikA, iMglenDa, svinjharalenDa, svIDana, jarmanI vagere dezo taraphathI emane sahAya maLI che. dozIkAkAe keTalIye saMsthAmAM pramukha, mAnad maMtrI, TrasTI, samitinA sabhya tarIke kArya karyuM che. sarakAranI samitiomAM paNa kArya karyuM che. A badhAMnI vigato ApavAmAM Ave to eka moTI yAdI thAya. dozIkAkAe jyArathI maphata netrayajJanuM kAma upADI lIdhuM tyAra pachI cikhodarA hospiTala dvArA dara aThavADiye gujarAtanAM judAM judAM gAmomAM netrayajJo thavA lAgyA. te mATe mahinA agAuthI nakkI karelAM gAmomAM sarve karavA mATe TIma rojeroja ravAnA thatI. dozIkAkAne keTalAye sevAbhAvI AMkhanA DaoNkTaronI sevA maLavA lAgI. Ama atyAra sudhImAM 800thI vadhu jeTalA netrayajJonuM dozIkAkAe Ayojana karyuM che. dareka netrayajJamAM dozIkAkA pote hAra hoya ja. cikhodarAnI hospiTalamAM agAu dozIkAkA oparezana karatA. hAla 89 varSanI uMmara thaI, paNa koI DaoNkTara na AvyA hoya to dozIkAkA pote oparezana kare. atyAra sudhImAM aDhI lAkhathI vadhu maphata oparezana thayAM che. kudaratanI maherabAnI kevI che ke 8990 varSanI uMmare kAkAne potAne haju motiyo Avyo nathI. sAptAhika netrayajJa uparAMta gAMdhI parivAra taraphathI jamazedapuramAM ane rAjasthAnamAM jayapura najIka jUnajUna jillAmAM eka sthaLe aMbujA simenTa taraphathI ATha-dasa divasano moTo netrayajJa yojAya che. kAkA emAM paNa samayasara pahoMcI jAya che. AMkhanA davAkhAnAmAM roja savArathI ja ghaNA mANaso AMkha batAvavA AvI jAya. dozIkAkA uparAMta AMkha tapAsanArA bIjA DaoNkTaro paNa hoya. paNa ghaNA dardIo potAnI AMkha dozIkAkAne ja batAvavAno Agraha rAkhe. eTale emane mATe ghaNI moTI lAIna thAya. eTale kAkAnA sahakAryakartAomAMthI koIke sUcana karyuM ke kAkA, tamane batAvavAno Agraha rAkhanAra dardI pAse ApaNe pAMca ke dasa rUpiyAnI phi rAkhIe to kema ? ethI thoDo bojo ocho thaze, vinA kAraNa Agraha rAkhanArA nIkaLI jaze ane saMsthAne Avaka thaze !' kAkAe thoDI vAra pachI hasatAM kahyuM, bhAI, daridranArAyaNa pAse phInI vAta karavI e mane yogya lAgatuM nathI. dardI e ApaNA deva jevo che. enuM darda dUra karIe e ja ApaNuM dhyeya hovuM joIe.' eka vakhata eka netrayajJamAM eka bApa potAnA nAnA dIkarAne laIne AvyA hatA. tenI baMne AMkha sadaMtara gaI hatI. kAkAe kahyuM tyAre bApa kAkAnA paga pakaDI karagaravA lAgyA. kAkAne kaDavuM satya kahevuM paDyuM. paNa e kahetAM kahetAM kAkA amArA pUjya zrI dozIkAkA 177

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pote raDI paDyA. tyAra pachI kAkAe poSaNanA abhAve bALakanI AMkha na jAya e mATe bALakone khavaDAvavA mATe sukhaDI karI ane gAmegAma jaI vaheMcavAno aMdhatvanivAraNano kAryakrama upADyo. I. sa. 1984thI 2004 sudhImAM jaina yuvaka saMgha taraphathI dAtAonA dAnathI cikhodarAnI 'ravizaMkara mahArAja' AMkhanI haoNspiTala dvArA gujarAtamAM keTalAMye sthaLe netrayajJa thayA che. pahelI-bIjI vakhatanA anubhavathI amane ema thayuM ke netrayajJamAM avazya javuM ane garIba dardIo mATe thatI maphata AMkhanI zastrakriyA jAte nihALavI. gujarAtanI garIbIno ethI vAstavika khyAla maLe che. keTalAye garIba dardIo pAse netrayajJa sudhI AvavAnuM becAra rUpiyA jeTaluM paNa basabhADuM na hoya. eTale A netrayajJomAM ame garIbone bIjI paNa sahAya karatA. dozIkAkAnA judI judI saMsthAo ta2phathI thatA netrayajJo AkhuM varasa cAlatA hoya eTale ame amArA netrayajJanI tArIkha traNa mahinA agAu nakkI karI letA. amArA saMghanI samitimAM sAta-ATha sabhyo evA che ke je avazya netrayajJamAM Ave. vaLI AraMbhathI ja kAkAne khAtarI thaI hatI ke jyAM netrayajJa hoya tyAM najIkamAM je koI tIrthaM hoya enI ame yAtrA karatA. eTale A bAvIsa varSa daramiyAna saMgha dvArA sittera jeTalA netrayajJa yojAyA haze ane eTalI ja ame tIrthayAtrA karI haze. dozIkAkA sAthe Ave ane pahelethI puchAve ke A vakhate tamAre yAtrA karavA kaI bAju javuM che ? dozIkAkA eTale AMkhanuM mobAila davAkhAnuM. meM keTalIye vAra joyuM che ke ame cAlyA jatA hoIe tyAM sAmethI Avato koIka mANasa kahe, "dozIkAkA, rAmarAma.' kAkA oLakhe nahi, paNa vAta karavA premathI UbhA rahe. tyAM AvanAra vyakti kahe, 'kAkA, mArI AMkha joI Apone, motiyo to nathI Avatone ?" kAkA ema na kahe ke bhAI atyAre TAima nathI. davAkhAne batAvavA Avaje.' teo tarata thelImAMthI baeNTarI kADhe ane bilorI kAca kADhe. pelAnI baMne AMkha vArApharatI pahoLI karI, TaoNrca mArIne ane jarUra paDe to kAcano upayoga karIne jue ane saMtoSakAraka javAba Ape. AvuM kAma ka2vAmAM kAkAne kyAreya moDuM na thAya. kAkAne mana dardI eTale daridranArAyaNa. kAkAe hajAro mANasonI AMkha rastAmAM ja barAbara dhyAnathI joI ApI haze. koI vAra evuM bane ke AMkha joyA pachI kAkA kahe, "bhAI, tamArI AMkha mazInamAM jovI paDaze. davAkhAne Avajo.' ame yuvaka saMghanA ATha-dasa sabhyo netrayajJa mATe jyAre cikhodarA jaIe tyAre koIkane AMkha batAvavAnI hoya, naMbara kaDhAvavAno hoya to kAkA davAkhAnAmAM 178 caritradarzana

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badhAMnI AMkho joI Ape. kAkA naMbara kaDhAvavA mATe lAiTa karIne nAnAmoTA akSaronA cArTamAM amane akSaro vaMcAve. emAM nIce jhINA akSaronI lITI Ave. la na ga ka 2. amArA eka mitre bhUlathI vAMcyuM lagana kara' eTale hasAhasa thaI paDI. tyArathI AMkho batAvavI hoya to ame kahIe, "kAkA, lagana kara." eTale kAkA tarata samajI jAya ane badhAMnI AMkho joI Ape. cazamAMno naMbara kADhI Ape. eka vakhata ame gujarAtanA eka nagaramAM eka navI thayelI hospiTalanI mulAkAte gayA hatA. haoNspiTala Adhunika sAdhanothI sajja hatI ane DokTaro paNa sevAbhAvI hatA. haoNspiTalamAM bIje hoya enA karatAM paMcotera TakA cArja ocho hato. je mATe bIjI hospiTalamAM so rUpiyA kharca thAya te mATe A haoNspiTalamAM pacIsa rUpiyA kharca thAya. ekaMdare madhyamavarganA lokone sAro lAbha maLI zake. hospiTalanI mulAkAta pachI utAre ame AvyA tyAre dozIkAkAne abhiprAya pUchyo. emaNe kahyuM, "hospiTala ghaNI ja sArI che ane madhyamavarganA loko mATe ghaNI ja rAhatarUpa che. A vistAranA ghaNA lokone eno lAbha maLaze. paNa.." kAkA bolatAM aTakI gayA. ame kahyuM, "kAkA, paNa zuM?" kAkAe kahyuM, paNa mAre karavAnI hoya to AvI hospiTala na karatAM garIba loko lAbha le evI hospiTala karuM. mAruM kSetra juduM che. amerikA ke yuropanA dezomAM lokonI Arthika sthiti evI che ke koIne rAhata ApavAno vicAra thato nathI. ravizaMkara mahArAjanA hAthe tAlIma pAmelA ame loko gAMdhIjIe je raskinano. vicAra apanAvyo Un to this last eTale ame sAva chevADAnA garIba mANasono vicAra karIe. A haoNspiTalamAM sone badale pacIsa rUpiyA cArja che. paraMtu jenI pAse pacIsa' rUpiyA na hoya, are hospiTala sudhI AvavAnA basabhADAnA rUpiyA nathI evA loko mATe kAma karavuM e amAruM kSetra che. zaheromAM nahi, paNa dUra dUranAM gAmaDAmAM ame jaIe tyAre cIMtharehAla dazAmAM jIvatA lokone joI amane dayA Ave.' tyAre amane lAgyuM ke kharekhara, dozIkAkA eTale garIbonA belI. eka vakhata kAkA mAre tyAM jamavA padhAryA hatA. unALAno samaya hato. kAkA savAranA jamavAmAM pAMca vAnagI le e amane khabara hatI. ame amAre mATe paNa pAMca vAnagI banAvI hatI. unALAmAM kerInI mosama hatI eTale jamavA beThA tyAre kAkAne paNa rasa pIrasyo hato. badhA besI gayA ane "sAthe ramIe, sAthe ja jamIe." e prArthanA karyA pachI jamavAnuM cAlu karyuM tyAre kAkAe rasanI vATakI bahAra mUkI. ame pUchyuM, "kAkA, kerInI bAdhA che ?" emaNe kahyuM, "nA, paNa kerI amArA pUjya zrI dozIkAkA ke 179

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khAvI nathI.' 'kema ?" to kahyuM, pachI vAta !' ame pAMcamI vAnagI tarIke bIjI koI vAnagI ApavAnuM kahyuM to te mATe paNa amane nA pADI. kAkAe rasa lIdho nahi eTale ame rasanI vATakI bahAra mUkatAM hatAM to amane AgrahapUrvaka aTakAvyAM. jamyA pachI ame kAkAne kA2Na pUchyuM to emaNe kahyuM, "moTAM zaheromAM badhe kerI cAlu thaI gaI che, paNa amArAM gAmaDAMomAM garIba lokone tyAM haju cAlu nathI thaI. kerI thoDA divasamAM sastI thaze ane emane tyAM cAlu thaze, pachI huM kerI khAIza.' kAkAnI garIbo mATe keTalI badhI sahAnubhUti che eno tyAre khyAla Avyo. gAMdhIjInI jema vyavahAramAM karakasara karavI e dozIkAkAnuM paNa jIvananuM mukhya lakSa. dareka viSayamAM karakasarapUrvaka vicAra kare. be joDa khAdInAM kapaDAM AkhuM varSa calAve. phATe to sAMdhI le. sAMdheluM kapaDuM paheravAmAM zarama nahi. dozIkAkA pAse eka ga2ma koTa che. chellAM bAvIsa varSathI ame jotA AvyA chIe ke kAkAe ziyALAmAM bahAragAma javuM hoya to A eka ja koTa paheryo hoya. kAkA kakasara kare, paNa manathI dicchatA nahi. jarU2 paDe, anivArya hoya to game teTaluM moTuM kharca karatAM acakAya nahi. dozIkAkA vaizAkha mahinAmAM oNphisamAM bapore eka divasa kAma karatA hatA ane bhayaMkara garamI paDatI hatI. e vakhate eka zrImaMta bhAI potAnI e.sI. kAramAMthI UtarIne kAkAne maLavA AvyA. emanAthI garamI sahana thatI nahotI. emaNe kahyuM, kAkA, AvI garamImAM tame kevI rIte kAma karI zako cho ?" kAkAe kahyuM, 'huM garamIthI TevAI gayo chuM.' pelA zrImaMte kahyuM, 'kAkA, oNphisamAM mArA kharce e.sI. nakhAvI ApuM chuM, enA vIjaLInA bilanI javAbadArI paNa mArI.' kAkAe kahyuM, 'bhAI, tamArI darakhAsta mATe AbhAra. paNa e.sI.vALI oNphisa mane na zobhe.' netrayajJanI sabhAomAM kAkA ghaNI vAra kahetA ke AvA yajJanuM Ayojana traNa nArAyaNa ekatra thAya tyAre thAya. dardIo te daridranArAyaNa, dAktaro ane bIjA kAryakartAo e sevAnArAyaNa ane yajJa mATe dAna ApanAra, te lakSmInArAyaNa. kAkAnA vaktavyamAM A traNa nArAyaNa to hoya ja, paNa koI vAra prasaMgAnusAra kAkA bIjA ekabe nArAyaNa joDI detA. koI vAra lakSmInI vAta nIkaLe to kahetA ke lakSmI traNa prakAranI che, zubha lakSmI, azubha lakSmI ane mahAlakSmI. pApa karIne, chetarapiMDI karIne je dhana kamAya te azubha lakSmI. pramANikapaNe je kamANI thAya te zubha lakSmI ane lokasevAnAM kAryo je kare tenI lakSmI te mahAlakSmI. azubha 180 * ciratradarzana

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ane zubha lakSmI avazya nAza pAme. mahAlakSmI to kyAreya nAza na pAme. te bhavAMtaramAM paNa sAthe Ave. jyAM netrayajJa hoya tyAM kAkA sthAnika kAryakartAone eka nAnakaDI sabhA yojavAnuM kahe. dardI ane emanA baradAsIo tathA DaoNkTaro, kAryakartAo, sthAnika loko e amAro zrotAgaNa. aDadho kalAka kAryakrama cAle. amArAmAMnA koI kAryakartAone A sabhAo dvArA jAheramAM bolavAno mahAvaro thayo hato. eka vakhata eka sabhyane bolatAM bIjuM kaMI AvaDyuM nahi to emaNe dozIkAkAnA traNa nArAyaNanI ja vAta karI. eTale dozIkAkAne te divase bIjo viSaya levo paDyo hato. dareka netrayajJamAM sabhA pachI bhojananuM nimaMtraNa sthAnika kAryakartAo ta2phathI hoya ja. AraMbhanAM varSomAM netrayajJamAM 700-800 dardIo AvatA. kAkAnI suvAsa evI ke dardIone jamADavA mATe anAja vagere sAmagrI gAmanAM zreSThIo taraphathI maLatI. baLataNa mATe lAkaDuM dareka gharethI eka eka Ave. eTale kazI muzkelI na rahe. kAkAmAM kuzaLa vahIvaTI zakti ane sUjha che. netrayajJa eTale AkhA gAmano utsava. kAkA savAranA pAMca vAgyAthI rAtanA bAra sudhI kAma kare. koIka vakhata to teo eka divasamAM 125thI vadhu oNparezana kare, chatAM thAkanuM nAma nahi. pahelAM sarakArI niyama evo hato ke je netrayajJamAM so ke tethI vadhu dardIo thayA hoya to te netrayajJa mATe sarakAra sahAya kare. eka vakhata eka netrayajJamAM badhuM maLIne navvANuM dardIo thayA. kAryakartAoe kahyuM, 'kAkA, koI eka mANasanI AMkha joIne pachI enuM nAma-saranAmuM copaDAmAM lakhI daIe to so dardI thaI jAya ane ApaNane sarakArI grAnTa maLe." paraMtu kAkAe kahyuM, 'evI rIte khoTuM ApaNAthI na karAya.' kAryakartAono Agraha chatAM kAkA makkama rahyA hatA. mahIkAMThAnA hiralAlabhAI be AMkhe varSothI sadaMtara aMdha hatA. eka vakhata ANaMdanI kaoNlejanA sevAbhAvI prophesara DaoN. bhAnuprasAda coksI emane kAkA pAse laI AvyA. kAkAe kahyuM ke kadAca oNparezanathI pacIseka TakA teja Ave. e rIte oNparezana thayuM ane hiralAlabhAI thoDuMka dekhatA thayA. teone jANe ke navI jiMdagI maLI. dozIkAkAnI teo roja sAMje eka mALA - dozIkAkA, dozIkAkA' e nAmathI mALA japatA. eka vakhata amAro netrayajJa paMcamahAlamAM devagaDha bAriyA pAse sAgatALA amAA pUjya zrI dozIkAkA 181

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nAmanA gAmamAM hato. jaMgala vistAra pAse AveluM A gAma che. amAro utAro gUla vibhAganA gesTa hAusamAM hato. netrayajJa pachI bIje divase ame alirAjapura pAse madhyapradezamAM AvelA lakSmaNI tIrthanI jAtrAe gayA. kAkAe A tIrtha joyuM nahotuM. amArAmAMnA bIjA paNa ghaNAkharA pahelI vAra AvatA hatA. Akho rasto kharabacaDo. ao pahoMcI, pUjA karI, bhojana ane ArAma karI pAchA AvavA nIkaLyAM. paNa tyAM to rastAmAM dhodhamAra varasAda cAlu thayo. aMdhAruM thaI gayuM hatuM. eMsI kilomITarano rasto vaTAvatAM ghaNI vAra lAgI. rastAmAM thAkelA hovAthI koI jholAM khAtA to koI vAta karatA. eka kalAka pachI kAkAe gIta upADyuM; AMkho pavitra rAkha, sAcuM tuM bola, Izvara dekhAze tane premaLano kola, satya e ja paramezvara, bApuno bola tAramAM Izvara che ke nahi khola.' badhAMe kAkAnuM gIta jhIlyuM. pAMca kalAka pachI ame sAgatALA AvyA. bIje divase kAkAe kahyuM, "tamane khabara che, kAle ApaNe keTaluM jokhama kheDyuM? A bhIla vistAra che. rAtanA koI vAhana Ave to bhIlo jarUra lUMTI le. mane thayuM ke hemakhema pAchA pahoMcI jaIe to sAruM. Akhe raste huM manamAM bhaktAmara stotra bolato rahyo hato. vacce 'AMkho pavitra rAkhanuM gIta jhilAvyuM ke jethI tamane Darano vicAra na Ave." eka vakhata amArA saMgha taraphathI ThAsarAmAM netrayajJa hato. pacAsa jeTalA dardIonAM oparezana hatAM. ame muMbaIthI saMghanA sAteka sabhyo cikhodarA pahoMcyA. ogasTa mahino hato ane varasAdanA divaso hatA. cikhodarAmAM snAnAdi vagerethI paravArI, ame jIpamAM beThA tyAre kAkAe kahyuM ke kAle rAtanA bahu varasAda paDyo che ane joradAra pavana phUMkAyo che eTale dardIo ochA Avaze evo saMbhava che. ame ThAsarA netrayajJanA sthAne pahoMcI gayA. oparezana mATe dAktaro AvI gayA hatA. khATalA patharAI gayA hatA. oparezana thiyeTara taiyAra thaI gayuM hatuM. paraMtu nava vAgyA topaNa koI dardI Avyo nahoto. rAha jovAtI gaI, samaya pasAra thato gayo. ema karatAM agiyAra vAgyA topaNa koI dardI AvyA nahi. ame badhA besIne mAMhomAMhe gapATA mAratA rahyA. amArA mATe bhojananI vyavasthA tyAM ja thaI hatI eTale bAra vAge jamavA beThA. sADA bAra sudhI koI dardI na Avyo eTale eka vAge netrayajJa baMdha jAhera karavAmAM Avyo. kAkAe kahyuM, atyAra sudhI ATalA badhA 182 caritradarzana

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netrayajJo karyA, paNa dardI vagarano A pahelo thayo, tenuM kAraNa dhodhamAra varasAda ane vAvAjhoDuM che. dozIkAkA ane bhAnubahena eka vakhata amerikA javAnAM hatAM tyAre amArA yuvaka saMgha taraphathI ame vidAyamAnano kAryakrama yojyo hato. ATalI moTI uMmare tamane phAvaze ke kema ema ame pUchyuM tyAre kAkAe kahyuM hatuM ke mArA bhatrIjAo tyAM rahe che ane eraporTathI eraporTa amane eTalA badhA sAcave che ke amane jarAya takalIpha paDatI nathI.' A bhatrIjAo nAnA hatA tyAre kAkAe ane bhAnubahene potAne ghare rAkhIne sAcavyA hatA ane taiyAra karyA hatA. A amerikA javAnA prasaMge mArAM dharmapatnI tArAbahene kAkAne khAdInI garama zAla bheTa ApI to kAkAe kahyuM ke mArI pAse eka zAla che ane ekathI vadhAre na rAkhavAno mAro niyama che. eTale tamArI zAla huM to ja svIkAruM ke mane jyAre yogya lAge tyAre koI yogya vyaktine huM ApI dauM, e mATe tamArI maMjUrI hoya to ja lauM.' A zarata ame maMjUra rAkhIne ame kAkAne zAla bheTa ApI. dozIkAkA ane emanAM dharmapatnI bhAnubahena amerikA traNeka vAra gayAM che. temanA bhatrIjAone tyAM rahe che. kAkA jAya tyAre haoNspiTala mATe kaMIka phaMDa laIne Ave. chelle gayA tyAre kAkAnI uMmara 87 ane bhAnubahenanI 83, vRddhAvasthAne lIdhe koI paNa temane amerikA javAnI salAha na Ape. paNa teo baMne manathI dRDha hatAM. vaLI ArogyamAM koI khAmI nahotI. bhAnubahenanuM zarIra bhAre, paNa teo kahe, amAre to badhA ja eraporTa 52 vhIlace2 maLavAnI che.' amerikA jatA hatA tyAre bhAnubahene kAkAne kahyuM, 'tamArAM caMpala ghaNAM ghasAI gayAM che. amerikAmAM tUTaze to bahu muzkelI thaze. mATe tame navI joDa laI lo.' paNa kAkA jUnAM caMpala paherIne javAmAM makkama hatA. temano niyama hato ke eka caMpala ghasAIne tUTI jAya tyAre ja navAM caMpala kharIdavAM. eTale kAkAe kahyuM, caMpala tUTI jaze to tyAM ughADA page cAlIza. nahi vAMdho Ave. badhe gADImAM pharavAnuM che. vaLI tyAMno unALo che.' dozIkAkAmAM AtmavizvAsa ghaNo. pAchA pharyA tyAMsudhI caMpalane vAMdho Avyo nahi. AvyA pachI jUnAM caMpala ghasAI gayAM tyAre navAM caMpala lIdhAM. eka vakhata ame netrayajJa pachI eka tIrthanI yAtrAe gayA hatA. rAtano mukAma hato. thAkelA hatA eTale huM ane dozIkAkA sUI gayA ane mitrane 52vA2tAM thoDI vA2 hatI. savAre vahelA UThI snAnAdithI paravArIne ame taiyAra thayA. bahAra jatAM dozIkAkAe kahyuM, "mArAM caMpala kyAM gayAM ?' to mitre tarata emanAM caMpala batAvyAM. amArA pUjya zrI dozIkAkA 183

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kAkAe kahyuM, "A mArAM caMpala nathI." mitre phoDa pADatAM kahyuM, "kAkA, rAtanA mArA bUTa pAliza karato hato tyAM pachI vicAra Avyo ke tamArA baMnenAM caMpalane paNa pAliza karI lauM." kAkAe kahyuM, "mane pUchyA vagara tame mArA caMpalane pAliza karyuM te barAbara na kahevAya. pAlizavALA caMpala mane zobhe nahi. have pAliza kADhI nAkho." mitra lUgaDA vaDe pAliza kADhavA prayatna karyo, paNa pAliza bahu ochI thaI nahi. tyAM bahAra jaI kAkA mUThI dhULa bharIne lAvyA ane caMpala para nAkhI eTale caMpala kaMIka barAbara thayAM. apaMga kanyAo mATe gujarAtamAM kalola pAse AvelI saMsthA "maMthanane mATe ame paryuSaNa parva daramiyAna sahAya mATe zrotAone apIla karI hatI ane ekatra thayela rakama saMsthAne arpaNa karavAno kAryakrama ame goThavyo hato. e mATe kAkAne paNa padhAravAnuM nimaMtraNa ame ApyuM hatuM. kAkAe "maMthana' saMsthA joI nahotI ane kyAMthI javAya e teo jANatA nahotA. eTale ame emane amadAvAdathI amArI sAthe basamAM joDAI javA kahyuM hatuM. amadAvAda sTezane "InkavAyarI'nI bArI pAse teo UbhA rahevAnA hatA. paraMtu te divase TrenamAM amAro Dabbo ghaNo AgaLa Avyo eTale ame badhA pArsalanA phATakamAMthI nIkaLyA ke jethI tarata sAme basa pAse pahoMcAya. savAranI utAvaLamAM ame je bhAIne kAkAne laIne AvavAnuM soMpyuM hatuM te bhUlI gayA ane bIjA paNa bhUlI gayA. ame zerisA pahoMcyA tyAre khabara paDI ke kAkAne levAnuM rahI gayuM che. zerisA snAnapUjA karI ame maMthanamAM pahoMcyA to kAkA tyAM AvIne beThA hatA. ame kAkAnI mAphI mAgI, paNa temanI vANImAM jarA paNa Thapako nahoto. emaNe hasatAM kahyuM, 'tame bhUlI gayA to sAruM thayuM. eTale tamArA karatAM huM vahelo ahIM AvI gayo." pachI kAkAe kahyuM ke "badhA pesenjaro nIkaLI gayA ane koI mArI pAse AvyuM nahi eTale thayuM ke tame nIkaLI gayA hazo. pachI nimaMtraNa patrikA joI ane emAMnA eka sabhyane phona karyo. teo haju nIkaLyA nahotA. eTale emanA ghare pahoMcI emanI sAthe gADImAM ahIM AvI gayo chuM. amArI bhUla mATe emaNe jarAye Thapako Apyo nahi. emanI samatA ane prasannatA mATe mAna thayuM. emaNe hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM, "tame bhUlI gayA to sAruM thayuM. mane gADImAM tamArA karatAM vahelA AvavA maLyuM.' sAyalAnA zrI rAjasobhAga AzramamAM muMbaInI ratnavidhi TrasTa nAmanI saMsthA dvArA vikalAMgo mATe eka kempanuM Ayojana thayuM hatuM. emAM dozIkAkAne paNa nimaMtraNa ApyuM. sAmAnya rIte maMca para besavAnuM dozIkAkA DhaLe ane AgaLanI hAramAM 14 = caritradarzana

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besavAnuM paNa TALe. dozIkAkA thoDA pAchaLa beThA hatA. AgaLa AvavAno Agraha karyo tyAre kahyuM ke teo nizcita samaye nIkaLIne cikhodarA pahoMcavA icche che. sAyalAthI amadAvAda basamAM ane amadAvAdathI basa badalIne teo ANaMda javAnA hatA. sabhAmAM eka sajjana padhAryA hatA. teo kAryakrama pachI potAnI gADImAM ANaMda javAnA hatA. eTale meM temanI sAthe gADImAM javAnuM sUcana karyuM. paraMtu dozIkAkAe kahyuM "mane ema koInI gADImAM javAnuM nahi phAve. koIne moDuM-vaheluM thAya. basa tarata maLI jAya che eTale mAre moDuM nahi thAya." ame bahu Agraha karyo tyAre kahyuM, "bhale joIzuM." paraMtu kAryakrama pUro thayo tyAre dozIkAkA to nIkaLI gayA hatA. dozIkAkAne zrImaMto pratye elarjI che evuM nathI, paNa temane AmajanatA vacce AmajanatAnA thaIne, jANe ke koI potAne oLakhatuM nathI evA thaIne rahevuM game che. emanA vigalita thayelA mAnakaSAyanuM A pariNAma che. eka vakhata amAre AgaloDa ane mahuDInI yAtrAe javuM hatuM. kAkA kahe 'amArI jIpa laI jAva." ame kahyuM, 'paNa kAkA, tamAre gAMdhInagara javuM che to tame ja jIpa laI jAva. ame bIjI vyavasthA karI laIzuM.' kAkA kahe, "jIpa to tame ja laI jAva, huM basamAM ja jaIza." bahu Agraha karatAM kAkA kahe, "ema karo, mAruM kAma patAvI huM mahuDI AvIza ane vaLatAM tamArI sAthe pAcho AvI jaIza.' kAryakramanI vigato nakkI thaI. mahuDI pahoMcavAno amAro samaya paNa nakkI thayo. paraMtu cikhodarAthI nIkaLyA pachI tarata amArAmAMnA eka mitre bIjuM paNa eka sthaLa samAvI levAno Agraha karyo ane cikhodarAthI pahelAM e sthaLe javuM ane pachI ja AgaloDa ane mahuDI javuM. paNa e sthaLano rasto lAMbo hato. eTale ema karatAM amArI basa sAMjanA sAta vAge mahuDI pahoMcI. pahoMcatAM ja tyAMnA eka karmacArIbhAIe kahyuM, "dozIkAkA to tamArI be kalAka rAha joIne basamAM cikhodarA gayA." A sAMbhaLIne amane bahu aphasosa thayo. jemanI jIpa che te basamAM jAya ! amAre emanI jIpamAM javAnuM? vaLI emane be kalAka rAha jovI paDI. cikhodarA ame pahoMcyA to kAkAe pUchyuM, "kema moDuM thayuM ?" ame emanI kSamA mAgI paNa emaNe e vAtane sahaja gaNI, jarA paNa ciDAyA nahi ke na Thapako Apyo. balake teo hasatAM hasatAM amArI sarabharAmAM lAgI gayA. dezIkAkAnI samatAnuM tyAre darzana thayuM. dozIkAkAnI bhojananI pravRtti atyaMta zAMta ane saMyamita. savAre teo cAra amArA pUjya zrI dozIkAkA e 185

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ke pAMca vAnagI le. AkhA divasamAM ATha vAnagI le. jarUra paDye dALa ane zAkanuM mizraNa kare. pachI Akho divasa vacamAM kazuM na le. covihAra kare ane temAM phakta traNa vAnagI le. pravAsamAM ame hoIe ane sAMja paDavA Ave paNa pote kazuM bole nahi. DrAivara yAda rAkhe. sUkI traNa vAnagIono bhAnubahene Dabbo bAMdhI Apyo hoya to te Ape. cAlu pravAse ja teo AhAra le. e mATe gADI thobhAve nahi. koI vakhata veLAsara haoNspiTalamAM pahoMcI javAnI dhAraNA hoya eTale bhAnubahene kazuM baMdhAvyuM na hoya, paNa moDuM thAya to DrAivara kahe ke bhAnubahene kazuM ApyuM nathI. pachI pote ja rastAmAM koI keLAMnI lArI UbhI hoya to keLAM lAve. temAMthI dozIkAkA eka athavA be le. koI vAra rastAmAM keLAM na maLe to kAkA bhUkhyA rahe, paNa koIne kahe nahi, koInI bhUla na kADhe ke koIne Toke nahi. mahemAnonuM premabharyuM svAgata karavuM, temane atithigRhamAM utAro ApI temanAM bhojanAdinI sagavaDa karavI, temanI sevAmAM karmacArIone judA judAM kAma soMpavAM, gADImAM besADIne teone AsapAsa pheravavA ityAdi pravRttiomAM dozI-daMpatInA utsAhanI ApaNane pratIti thAya. kAkA ane mu. bhAnubahena atithigRhamAM AvI badhI vastunuM barAbara dhyAna rAkhe. koI divasa evo na hoya ke mAtra kAkA ane bhAnubahena - ema be jaNe sAthe bhojana lIdhuM hoya. atithi bAre mAsa hoya ane temane utsAhathI jamADe. mahemAna vagara khAvAnuM na bhAve. cikhodarAnI haoNspiTalane AMta2rASTrIya khyAti maLelI che eTale dezavidezathI mulAkAte AvanA2 mahemAnonI avarajavara AkhuM varSa rahe, chatAM nahi thAka ke nahi kacavATanuM nAmanizAna. teo kAma ka2vAmAM cokkasa, paNa nokaracAkaranI kaMI bhUla thaI hoya chatAM dozI-daMpatIe kyAreya gusso karyo hoya, barADA pADyA hoya evuM kyAreya na bane. samatAno guNa temanA jIvanamAM vaNAI gayo che. zrI Ara. ke. desAIe emanA jIvanavRttAMtamAM lakhyuM che : dozIkAkAmAM krodha karamAI gayo che, gusso gAyaba thaI gayo che. badhAM kAma premathI ja karavAnAM. adharAta-madharAta game tyAre game te kAma mATe emane maLI zakAya. temanI samakSa koI gusso laIne AvyuM to tarata ja AvanAra vyakti barapha banI jato. bhayaMkara gaNAtI kSatine paNa mApha ja karavAnI vRtti. sau sAthe premabhAvano dhodha ja vaheto jaNAze. koInA pratye zatrutA nathI, ve2 nathI ke kaDavAza nathI. zithilatA darzAvanAra vyaktio pratye AkarA thavAnI vRtti nathI. narI zItaLatA, caMdrathI paNa vizeSa zItaLatA. saunuM vizrAmasthAna eTale dozIkAkA; thAkyApAkyanuM e vizrAmasthAna che. 186 caritradarzana

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emane maLatAMnI sAthe ja boja haLavo bane che. teo AbAlavRddha saunA vAtsalyamUrti che. teo gheghUra vaTavRkSa samI zItaLa chAyA pradAna ka2nA2 che. dozIkAkA eTale gAMdhIyuganA chellA avazeSomAMnA eka. emanI keTalIka vAto, bhaviSyamAM loko jaladI mAnaze nahi. jemanI pAse potAnI mAlikInuM ghara nathI, jamIna nathI, milakata nathI, beMkamAM khAtuM nathI evA A lokasevake bharayuvAnImAM ravizaMkaradAdAnA prabhAva heThaLa AvI sevAno bhekha lIdho. teo sAcA vaiSNavajana che, sAcA zrAvaka che. emane gItAnI paribhASAmAM karmayogI tarIke oLakhAvavA te yogya ja che. bhAnubahena ane dozIkAkA pAse ame hoIe to jANe mAtApitA pAse hoIe evuM apAra vAtsalya anubhavyuM che. jANe ke janmAntarano saMbaMdha na hoya ! pU. DaoN. dozIkAkA ane mu. bhAnubahenane bhAvapUrvaka vaMdana karuM chuM ane emanA zatAyu mATe prArthanA karuM chuM. ('vaMdanIya hRdayasparza'mAMthI) amAca pUjya zrI dozIkAkA * 187

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21 mArA pitAzrI mArA pUjya pitAzrI cImanalAla amRtalAla zAha vi. saM. 205ranA mahA vada amAsanA divase (tA. 18mI phebruArI, 1996nA rojI 100mA varSamAM praveza karyo. cittanI svasthatA ane samatA, nirvyasanIpaNuM, kAyama uNodarI vrata ane prabhubhakti e emanA dIghAyunuM rahasya che. A uMmare paNa teo gharamAM lAkaDInA TekA vagara cAle che. jarUra paDe to bhIMtano Teko le che. Akho divasa satata beThelA rahe che. divase UMghatA nathI. pustako ane chApAMo niyamita vAMce che. (naivuM varSanI umara pachI temane baMne AMkhe motiyo Avelo te UtarAvI lIdho hato. temane kAne barAbara saMbhaLAya che. mAthe yala paDI nathI. keTalAka vakhata pahelAM koI koI vALa pAchA kALA thayA hatA. temanA badhA dAMta prauDhAvasthAmAM gayelA. cokaThuM karAveluM paNa paheryuM nahi. vagara dAMte, peDhAM majabUta thaI gayAM hovAthI khAI zake che. pAcanakriyA barAbara cAle che. rAtanA sUI jAya ke tarata UMgha AvI jAya che. rAtanA pezAba karavA UThavuM paDatuM nathI. saMjogavazAt rAtre moDA sUvAnuM thAya topaNa vahelI savAre samayasara UThI jAya che. temane zarIramAM koI bImArI nathI. hArTa Trabala, DAyAbiTIsa, blaDaprezara, pAIlsa, asthamA ke evo koI roga nathI. cAlIseka varSanI uMmare damano vyAdhi lAgu paDyo hato. te vakhate kyAreka to e roganA jIvaleNa humalA AvyA hatA. paraMtu bhAre puruSArtha karI emaNe e rogane evo to nirmaLa karyo ke jiMdagImAM bIjI vAra te thayo nathI. e vakhate bhAyakhalAmAM davAkhAnuM dharAvatA eka bhalA pArasI DaoNkTara dArUvAlAnI davA emane mAphaka AvI gaI hatI. roja savAre sADA pAMca ke cha vAge UThatAMnI sAthe pathArImAM beThAM beThAM ja teo kalAka ucca svare prabhustuti kare che. AtmarakSAmaMtra, navakAramaMtrano chaMda, gautama 188 9 caritradarzana

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svAmIno chaMda, ratnAkara-pacIsI, keTalAMka pado tathA stavano teo roja bole che. pahelA tIrthakara RSabhadevathI covIsamA tIrthakara mahAvIra svAmI sudhI roja anukrame eka tIrthaMkaranAM ochAmAM ochAM pAMca stavano gAya che : be ke traNa stavano yazovijayajInAM, eka AnaMghanajInuM, eka devacaMdrajInuM ane eka mohanavijayajInuM. A uparAMta paNa koI jANItuM stavana hoya to te bole che. pachI Akho divasa je tIrthakara bhagavAnanAM savAre bolelAM stavano hoya te emanA manamAM guMjyAM kare che. agAu temane doDhasothI vadhu stavano kaMThastha hatAM. chellAM keTalAMka varSathI koI koI stavanamAM bhUla paDe che. eTale jIvananI copaDI have pAse rAkhe che. savAre cA-pANI laI, snAna karI, zuddha vastra paherI teo navasmaraNa bole che. navasmaraNa emane kaMThastha che paNa have temAM paNa bhUla paDatI hovAthI pAse copaDI rAkhe che. savAre bhojana pachI teo Akho divasa judA judA maMtranA jApa tathA logassa sUtranuM raTaNa kare che. sarerAza baso vakhata logassa bolAto haze. divasa daramiyAna bapore chApAM, sAmayiko ke pustakonuM yatheccha vAcana kare che. pote je je vAMcyuM hoya temAM pensilathI lITI karI nizAnI rAkhe che ke jethI bhUlathI pharIthI e vAMcavAmAM na Ave. koI maLavA AvyuM hoya to teTalo samaya vAtacItamAM pasAra thAya che. A uMmare paNa smRti ghaNI ja sArI che. varSo pahelAMnI ghaTanAo ane nAmo badhuM smRtimAM tAjuM che. - pitAzrIno janma I. sa. 1897mAM pAdarAmAM thayo hato. potAnI janmasAlA yAda rAkhavA mATe teo kahe che ke je varSe gAyakavADa sarakAre vizvAmitrI sTezanathI pAdarA sudhInI nerogeja relavelAIna nAkhI te varSe potAno janma thayo hato. pAdarAnA relave sTezanane e rIte so varSa thavA AvyAM. ghaNAM varSo sudhI relave pAdarA sudhI rahI. pachI ene mAsara roDa sudhI laMbAvavAmAM AvI ane pachI jaMbusara sudhI laI javAmAM AvI - pitAzrIe zikSaNa pAdarAnI zALAmAM lIdhuM hatuM. e vakhate emanA sahAdhyAyIomAMnA eka te gacchAdhipati vijayarAmacaMdrasUri hatA. emanuM nAma tyAre tribhuvana hatuM. tribhuvane vanakyulara zALAmAM chaThThA dhoraNa sudhIno abhyAsa karyo hato. tyAra pachI emaNe dIkSA lIdhI hatI. pitAzrIe varnAkyulara zALAmAM cAra dhoraNa karyA pachI hAIskUlamAM aMgrejI pAMca dhoraNa sudhIno abhyAsa karyo hato. haju AgaLa bhaNavAnI emanI IcchA hatI. meTrika thayuM hatuM. bhaNavAmAM paNa hoziyAra hatA. paraMtu gharano vepAradhaMdho moTA pAye cAlato hato eTale bhaNavAnuM choDI nAnI vaye vepAradhaMdhAmAM lAgI gayA hatA. sAMjane vakhate teo pAThazALAmAM dhArmika mArA pitAzrI : 189

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abhyAsa karatA. emanA vakhatamAM pAThazALAmAM zikSaka tarIke coTIlAthI AvelA UjamazI mAstara saMgItanA sArA jANakAra hatA. bulaMda svare hAmoMniyama sAthe stavano gAtA ane zIkhavatA. pitAzrIne e rIte paMca pratikramaNa, navasmaraNa, jIvavicAra, navatattva vagerenI gAthAo tathA doDhaso jeTalAM stavano kaMThastha thayAM te A UjamazI mAstaranA pratApe. e UjamazIbhAIe pachI pU. nItisUri pAse dIkSA lIdhI hatI ane muni udayavijayajI ane pachI udayasUri thayA hatA. (zAsanasamrATa pU. nemisUrinA ziSya udayasUri te judA). te samaye pAdarAmAM jainonI vastI mukhyatve navagharI, derAsarI, lAla bAvAno lImaDo, UMDuM phaLiyuM vagere zerIomAM hatI. pAse kaMTiyAruM nAmanuM taLAva che. sAtaATha dAyakA pahelAMnI pAdarAnI jAhojalAlInI vAta kaMIka judI che. gAyakavADI rAjyamAM vaDodarAnI najIka AveluM pAdarA e tAlukAnuM mukhya mathaka. enA tAbAmAM ekasothI vadhu gAma hatAM. eka aitihAsika sthaLa tarIke tathA eka saMskArakendra tarIke pAdarAnuM nAma tyAre ghaNuM moTuM hatuM. vaDodarAthI bAreka kilomITara dUra AveluM pAdarA gAma aitihAsika che. aMgrejo sAme 1857nA baLavAmAM bhAga lenAra krAMtivIromAMnA eka tAtyA TopenI e janmabhUmi che. eka bAju vizvAmitrI nadI ane bIjI bAju mahIsAgara nadInI pAse pAdarA AveluM che. 1957mAM jyAre 1857nA baLavAnI zatAbdI UjavavAmAM AvI hatI tyAre pAdarAnA kavi maNilAla mohanalAla pAdarAkare puNyabhUmi pAdarA' nAmanI paMdareka pAnAMnI nAnI pustikA pragaTa karI hatI ane temAM tAtyA TopenA jIvanano paricaya ApavA sAthe pAdarAnI bhUtakALanI paristhitinuM zabdacitra paNa doryuM hatuM. pitAzrInA yauvanakALanA samayanuM ane te pUrvenuM pAdarA kevuM hatuM tenuM viSayAMtara thavA chatAM saMkSepamAM ahIM vihaMgAvalokana karIzuM. doDhaso varSa pahelAM pAdarAnuM mULa nAma TaMkaNapura hatuM. tyAre to e sAva nAnuM gAmaDuM hatuM. ene vikasAvyuM dalA desAI nAmanA pATIdAre. teo dalA pAdarIA tarIke oLakhAtA. eTale emanA nAma parathI TaMkaNapuranuM nAma pAdarA thaI gayuM. teo bhAre parAkramI hatA. e jamAnAmAM mogala saltanatane AgaLa vadhatI aTakAvavAmAM marAThAoe ghaNI bahAdurI batAvI. zivAjI mahArAjanA avasAna pachI keTalAka zUravIro thayA temAM khaMDerAva dAbhADee pAdarAnI sarahada saMbhALI hatI. emane madada karanArAomAM A dalA desAI hatA. dalA desAIe potAnA bhIla bhAIbaMdha cUDAmaNi sAthe maLIne mogala sUbAone amadAvAda sudhI mArI haThAvyA 10 caritradarzana

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hatA. dAmAjI gAyakavADe vaDodarAmAM hiMdupata pAdazAhIno jhaMDo pharakAvyo hato. tyAra pachI aMgrejo sAmenA 1857nA baLavAmAM malhArarAva gAyakavADe pAdarAmAM rahIne viplavakArIone sahAya karI hatI. pAdarAmAM tyAre tAtyA Tope thaI gayo. pacAsa yuvAna sAthIdArone laIne e nAnAsAheba pezvAnI sAthe joDAyo hato. teo aMgrejonI sAme AgaLa vadhyA. temanI senAmAM bharatI thavA lAgI. rANI lakSmIbAI, bAlAsAheba vagere sAthe dilhI, kAnapura, lakhanaumAM teoe potAnAM kendro sthApyAM. aMgrejonA gherAmAMthI bahAdurIpUrvaka chaTakI janAra tAtyA Tope potAnA sAthIdAra mAnasiMganA vizvAsaghAtathI alvara najIka pakaDAI gayo hato. inAma tarIke moTI jAgIra maLavAnI lAlace mAnasiMge tAtyA TopenI chUpI bAtamI ApI dIdhI hatI. 1859nA eprilanI 18mI tArIkhe tAtyA Topene jAheramAM phAMsI ApavAmAM AvI. e phAMsI jovA dUradUranI TekarIo upara hajAro mANaso ekatra thayA hatA. tAtyA TopenI bahAdurIthI aMgrejo paNa prabhAvita thaI gayA hatA. tAtyA TopenuM zaba phAMsIne mAMcaDe laTakatuM hatuM tyAre enI yAdagIrI potAnI pAse rAkhavA mATe keTalAye aMgrejo enA mAthAnA vALa toDIne laI gayA hatA. Ama tAtyA Tope, khaMDerAva dAbhADe, malhArarAva gAyakavADa, bAlAsAheba, dalA desAI, zAmaLabhAI desAI, bAvA bhikhArIdAsa vagere 1857nA baLavAnA krAMtivIronI aitihAsika bhUmi tarIke pAdarAnuM nAma itihAsamAM noMdhAyeluM che. gata zatakanA pUrvArdhamAM pAdarA vividha pravRttiothI gAjatuM hatuM. pAdarAnI bhUmi khetIvADInI daSTie phaLadrupa che. pAdarAnI tuveranI dALa haju paNa vakhaNAya che. pAdarAnI bAjarI ane bIjuM anAja paNa bahAragAma vecAvA jAya che. hiMga ane chIMkaNI kharIdavA loko pAdarA AvatA. jAmaphaLa ane sItAphaLanI ghaNI vADIo A vistAramAM hatI. pAdarAnI AsapAsa tyAre cAraso jeTalI judI judI vADIo hatI ane pAdarAnAM zAkabhAjI eka bAju TheTha muMbaI ane bIjI bAju amadAvAda ane Abu roDa sudhI jatAM. kheDUto eka varasamAM traNa pAka letA. Aje paNa pAdarA khetIvADInA kSetre mokhare che. jUnA vakhatamAM pAdarAno eka mukhya udyoga te DoTI gajiyA jAtanI khAdIno hato. enuM vaNATakAma pAdarAmAM ghaNuM sarasa thatuM. jyAre milanAM kApaDa haju AvyAM nahotAM tyAre padarAnI DoTI gajiyA khAdInI mAMga ghaNI rahetI. vaDodarAmAM sayAjIrAva gAyakavADanA rAjamahela mATe paNa pAdarAnI khAdI ja kharIdAtI, eTaluM ja nahi paNa samagra gAyakavADI rAjyanI judI judI kacerIo ane bIjI saMsthAo mATe paNa pAdarAnI khAdI vAparavAno ja rAjya taraphathI hukama hato. pAdarAnuM mArA pitAzrI : 191

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raMgATIkAma paNa prazaMsApAtra baneluM. raMgATIkAma karanAra chIpA ane bhAvasAra lokonI aDhIso jeTalI bhaThThIo ane ethI vadhu kuMDo tyAre pAdarAmAM hatAM. DoTI gajiyAnA vaNATakAmanA vepAramAM te vakhate vrajalAla sAkaracaMda ane vanamALI sAkaracaMdanI peDhI tathA lallubhAI gulAbacaMdanI peDhI jANItI hatI. kApaDanI sAthe pAdarAnuM darajInuM kAma paNa vakhaNAtuM. te eTalI hada sudhI ke khuda sayAjIrAva gAyakavADa pote zarUAtanA e divasomAM potAnAM aMgarakhAM sIvavA mATe pAdarAthI darajIone rAjamahelamAM bolAvatA. pAdarAnuM mIThuM pANI ArogyanI dRSTie sAruM gaNAtuM. malhArarAva gAyakavADa haMmezAM pAdarAnA amuka kUvAnuM ja pANI pItA. teo madrAsa gayA hatA tyAre paNa pAdarAnA e kUvAnuM pANI maMgAvIne pItA. pAdarA pAse DabakA nAmanuM gAma AveluM che. tyAM jaMgala jevI gIca jhADImAM vAgha, varu jevAM hiMsaka prANIo rahetAM. DabakAmAM mukAma karI sayAjIrAva zikAra mATe galamAM jatA. eTalA mATe DabakAmAM emaNe mahela baMdhAvelo tathA zikArakhAnuM rAkheluM. emanI savArI jyAre vaDodarAthI DabakA javAnI hoya tyAre te pAdarA thaIne jatI. koI koI vAra teo pAdarAmAM thoDA kalAka ArAma karatA. pAdarAnA zAmaLabhAI desAI (dalA desAInA bhAI)ne sayAjIrAva sAthe gADha paricaya thayelo. zikAra karatI vakhate teo bahAdura zAmaLabhAIne potAnI sAthe laI jatA. zAmaLabhAIe jaMgalamAM sayAjIrAvano jAna traNeka vakhata bacAvelo. ethI zAmaLabhAIne ghare mukAma karavAno ane kyAreka pApaDI-UMdhiyuM khAvAno rivAja paDI gayelo. sayAjIrAva kyAreka aMgreja mahemAnone paNa DabakA laI jatA. iMglenDanA rAjA sAtamA eDavarDa bhAratamAM AvelA tyAre zikAra mATe sayAjIrAva emane DabakA laI gayelA. te vakhate teo baMnee pAdarAmAM zAmaLabhAInA ghare aDadho divasa ArAma karelo. kalAnA kSetramAM paNa saMgIta, citra ane kavitAracanAnA rasika pAdarAmAM ghaNA hatA. zAstrIya saMgItanA vargo cAlatA. bAla gAMdhInuM nAma tyAre citrakAra tarIke samagra bhAratamAM mazahUra hatuM. gulAmInA baMdhanamAM paDelI bhAratamAtAnuM citra jhaMkhanAno dIvo' nAmathI emaNe doreluM, jenI chApelI nakalo samagra bhAratamAM e vakhate pahoMcI gaI hatI. teo kavitAnI racanA paNa karatA. bIjA eka citrakAra aMbAlAla jozI kavi tarIke paNa prakhyAta hatA. moTe bhAge chaMdobaddha geya kavitA lakhAtI ke geya dezIomAM racanA thatI. yuvAna kaviomAM sauthI moTuM nAma kavi maNilAla mohanalAlanuM hatuM. teo pAdarAkara'nA upanAmathI kavitAo lakhatA. teo 192 caritradarzana

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prasaMgAnusAra varNanAtmaka racanA zIghra kavinI jema karI zakatA. potAnuM nAma maNilAla hovAthI teo dareka kAvyamAM chellI paMktiomAM, jUnI zailI pramANe potAnuM nAma zleSathI gUMthI laI "maNimaya' zabda prayojatA. kavi nAnAlAla potAnAM patnI sAthe pAdarAkaranA atithi tarIke rahevA AvelA. kavi suMdarame "arvAcIna kavitAmAM kavi pAdarakaranI kavitAno paricaya karAvyo che. pAdarAnA haradAsa kathAkAranuM nAma paNa paMkAyuM hatuM. teo mANabhaTTa kathAkAranI zailIe kathA karatA ane teone gujarAta, saurASTra uparAMta dakSiNamAM cheka madrAsa sudhInuM nimaMtraNa maLatuM. jyAre relave nahotI tyAre teo pagapALA ke gADAmAM jatA. teo jAte paNa kavi hovAthI kathA karatI vakhate kAvyapaMktio joDatA. pAdarA tyAre vividha hunnarakaLAmAM prakhyAta hatuM, pAdarAnAM havApANI taMdurastI mATe vikhyAta hatAM eTaluM ja nahi paNa pAdarAnA vaidyo paNa eTalA ja suprasiddha hatA. nADI parIkSA ane auSadhonA sArA jANakAra evA vaidyone tyAM dUradUrathI dardIo davAnI paDIkIo levA AvatA ane keTalAye yuvAno vaidakazAstra zIkhavA AvatA. pAdarAmAM jyotiSavidyAnA niSNAta jozIo paNa hatA. pAdarAmAM eka yatijI zrI pratApavijayajI thaI gayA. teo jyotiSanA niSNAta hatA. emaNe malhArarAva gAyakavADane kaheluM ke temane gAdI kayA divase ane keTalA kalAke maLaze ane te pramANe te sAcuM paDeluM. vaLI emaNe malhArarAvane kaheluM ke emanA bhAgyamAM sADAtraNa varSa ane sAta divasano kArAvAsa lakhAyelo che. barAbara e ja pramANe thayeluM. dhArmika pravRttiomAM paNa tyAre pAdarA mokhare hatuM. pAdarAmAM zAntinAtha ane saMbhavanAthanAM jina maMdiro che. acaLezvara mahAdevanuM maMdira che, vaiSNava maMdiro che, svAminArAyaNanuM maMdira che ane masjida paNa che. jaina sAdhuonuM vihAra ane cAturmAsanuM moTuM kSetra tyAre pAdarA gaNAtuM hatuM. tyAre pAMca dAyakAmAM pacAsathI vadhu vyaktioe pAdarAmAMthI dIkSA lIdhI hatI. gAyakavADI gAma vijApuranA vatanI paTela bahecarabhAI, pachIthI ravisAgara mahArAjanA ziSya sukhasAgara mahArAja pAse dIkSA laI buddhisAgarasUri thayA hatA. gujarAta tathA gujarAta bahAra yoganiSTha AcArya tarIke emanuM nAma paMkAyeluM. buddhisAgarasUrinA vihAra ane cAturmAsanAM priya gAmomAM pAdarAnuM nAma paNa Ave. buddhisAgarasUrinA tejasvI prabhAvazALI vyaktitvathI aMjAyelA sayAjIrAvane potAnA rAjyanA A panotA nAgarika mATe ghaNo ahobhAva hato. emaNe buddhisAgarasUrinuM vyAkhyAna potAnA rAjamahelamAM rAkheluM ane emanA upadezathI ja sayAjIrAve pAchalAM varSomAM zikAranI pravRtti choDI dIdhI hatI. samagra pAdarA mArA pitAzrI : 193

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buddhisAgarasUrinuM anurAgI hatuM. pAdarAnA vakIla mohanalAla hImacaMda zAha buddhisAgarasUrinA parama bhakta hatA. emanA tamAma graMthonuM saMkalana, saMpAdana. prakAzana, adhyAtmajJAna prasAraka maMDaLanA upakrame vakIla mohanalAla hamacaMda karatA. emanA putra kavi maNilAla pAdarAkare pAdarA mATe nIcenI sarasa paMktio lakhI muja janmabhUmi vatana jenAM dhULa-mATI pavitra che. ene caraNa vaMdana karoDo, amara raho zirachatra e. e nagaranAM naranArIo jyAM zaurya-saMskAre bhaya jaLa anna lIluDI vADIo, kavitA kRSi nUra nathI. jyAM bAla gAMdhI, dalA desAI, janma tAtyA Tepe jyAM, te krAMtikArI vIra yuvako sattAvana baLave dharyA. itihAsa ujvaLa nagarano, dharma-saMskRti jyAM jharyA, naravuM nagara e pAdarA yazalekha maNimaya kota.' e jamAnAmAM rU ane anAjanA vepAramAM pAdarAne bhAratanA nakazAmAM mahattvanuM sthAna apAvanAra amRtalAla vanamALIdAsa, eTale ke mArA pitAzrInA pitA hatA. amRtalAla bApAe potAnA pitAnA khAdIvaNATanA vepArane vikasAvyo. pAdarAmAM kApaDanI dukAna cAlatI hatI. paraMtu te uparAMta rUnA vepAramAM emaNe jhaMpalAvyuM. emano e vyavasAya vikasato gayo ane tevAmAM bharUcanA pArasI vepArI rUstamajI vakhArIAnA saMparkamAM teo AvyA. rUstamajI zeThe bhAgamAM vepAra karavAnI darakhAsta karI ane bhAgIdArImAM zarU thayelo vepAra jotajotAmAM ghaNo badho vadhI gayo. bhAIlI, mAsara roDa, bhIlupurI, iMTolA, miyAgAma, pAleja, jaMbusara, bharUca, aMkalezvara vagere gAmomAM jiniMga phekTarIomAM rUnI gAMsaDIo taiyAra thavA lAgI. sAthe kapAsiyAMno vepAra paNa cAlu thayo. jotajotAmAM to teo ghaNuM dhana kamAyA. AkhA pAdarA tAlukAmAM prathama naMbaranA zrImaMta teo banI gayA. je jamAnAmAM sAmAnya loko pAse be-pAMca tolA ghareNAM hoya te jamAnAmAM emanA kuTuMbamAM strIo vividha ghareNAM uparAMta chokarAMo paNa vIMTI, kaMThI, kaDAM ane sonAnA kaMdorA paheratAM thaI gayAM hatAM. moTA trAjave tolAya eTaluM sonuM emanI pAse hatuM. muMbaInA bajAramAM navI nIkaLelI cIjavastuo emane tyAM tarata AvI jatI. e jamAnAmAM benkonI vyavasthA thaI nahotI. zarAphI peDhIo cAlatI. paraMtu amRtalAla bApAne tyAM loko parANe vyAje rakama mUkI jatA. badhAMne niyamita vyAja cUkavAtuM. teo garIbone ane sAdhAraNa sthitinAM mANasone ghaNI Arthika sahAya gupta rIte karatA rahetA. koI mANasa mukelImAM hoya ane emanI pAse Avyo hoya te khAlI hAthe 194 caritradarzana

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pAcho phare ja nahi. devAdAronAM devAM teo mApha karI detA, ane koIne khabara paDavA detA nahi. vyAje rakama mUkavA AvanAra keTalAyane teo ADakatarI rIte tenI muddala rakamathI paNa vadhu sahAya karatA ke jethI teo nizciMta rahI zake. AthI ja temanuM nAma 'laherI zeTha' paDI gayuM hatuM. loko vAtacItamAM paNa emanA nAmano ullekha karavAne badale laherI zeTha' bolatA. laherI zeTha khavaDAvavAmAM ghaNA udAra hatA. mahemAnonI avarajavara satata cAlu rahetI. te uparAMta e divasomAM laherI zeThanI cA pIvA gAmanA ghaNA mANaso AvatA. cAno pracAra tyAre haju thayo nahoto. thoDA zrImaMtonA ghare cA AvI hatI. khAsa muMbaIthI cA maMgAvavAmAM AvatI. kaparakAbI nahotAM. chAliyAmAM cA ApavAmAM AvatI. maLavA AvelA loko gharanI bahAra rAkhavAmAM AvelI moTI pATa para besatA ane cA pIne ravAnA thatA. laherI zeTha eTalA badhA bhalA ane dayALu hatA ane emanuM jIvana evuM pavitra hatuM ke teo sAmA maLe tene loko zukana mAnatA. sArA zukana mATe loko temanA nIkaLavAnI rAha jotA. jJAtinA AgevAna tarIke temanuM ghaNuM mAna rahetuM. dareka bAbatamAM teo tana, mana, dhanathI ghasAvA taiyAra rahetA. temanI pratiSThA ghaNI moTI hatI. vepAra-dhaMdhAnA bahoLA anubhavane lIdhe tathA aneka vyaktionA piracayamAM AvavAne lIdhe teo potAnI kuzAgra buddhi ane dIrghadRSTithI koI paNa samasyAno ukela zodhI zakatA. temanI sUjha, satyaprIti ane nyAyabuddhine lIdhe bhAIbhAI vacce, sagAMsaMbaMdhIo vacce, jJAtinAM be jUtho vacce jhaghaDo thAya tyAre lavAda tarIke temanI nimaNUka thatI ane teo potAnI AgavI sUjhathI na ka2elo evo sarasa ukela batAvatA ke je baMne pakSane saharSa maMjUra hoya. amRtalAla bApAnA vaDavAo rAjasthAnamAM oziyAMthI kacchamAM thaI gujarAtamAM AvelA. vizA ozavALa emanI jJAti. vahANavaTI zikotarI mAtA te kuLadevI. emanI peDhI A rIte gaNAvAya che H amRtalAla-vanamALIdAsa-sAkaracaMdabhAIcaMda-vasaMtacaMda-lakSmIcaMda-jasAjI. amRtalAla bApAne cAra dIkarA-somAlAla, cImanalAla, jamanAdAsa ane nagInadAsa ane dIkarI caMpAbahena. e pAMce tathA emanAM saMtAno maLIne pacAseka sabhyonuM kuTuMba thayuM hatuM. badhAM emane 'bApA' kahIne saMbodhatAM. mArA pitAzrInAM mAtuzrI eTale ke mArAM dAdImAnuM nAma amathIbahena hatuM. teo pAdarA pAse DabhAsA gAmanAM vatanI hatAM. teo jAjvalyamAna hatAM. amathIbAe jIvanamAM ghaNI jAhojalAlI joI hatI. teo ghaNI vAra muMbaI AvatAM ane pAchAM pAdarA Ave tyAre paDozamAMthI ghaNI baheno emanI muMbaInI vAto mArA pitAzrI. 195

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sAMbhaLavA rAtre ekaThI maLatI. e divasomAM sAmAnya mANaso mATe muMbaI e svapna samAna hatuM. gAmamAMthI koIka ja muMbaI sudhInuM relavebhADuM kharcI zake. amathIbA ghaNAM hoziyAra, prabhAvazALI vyaktitva dharAvanAra ane paragaju hatAM. pAdarAmAM bALapaNamAM meM emanI sAthe daseka varSa gALelAM, e divaso ane muMbaI kAyama mATe AvI rahyAM e divaso najara sAme taravare che. amathIbAne ghaNI vidyAo AvaDe. sApa ke vIMchI karaDyo hoya, AdhAzIzI thaI hoya ke nAnAM chokarAMone tAva Avyo hoya ke uTATiyuM thayuM hoya - e badhuM utAravAnI maMtravidyAo temane AvaDatI. emanI e vidyAthI ghaNAMne lAbha thato ane gAmanA lokone emanAmAM ghaNI zraddhA hatI. divasa ke rAta daramiyAna game tyAre game te vyakti AvI hoya, paNa amathIbAnA moDhAmAMthI koIne nA kahevAI hoya ke pachIthI Avajo' evuM paNa kahevAyuM hoya evuM banyuM nahotuM. macakoDa utAravA mATe teo "kAMkarA' bharaDiyA)no upayoga karatAM. AMkha AvI hoya te vyaktine potAnI sAme besADatAM. vacce pANI bharelI thALI rAkhatAM ane kAThI saLagAvI hAthamAM rAkhI te goLa goLa pheravyuM jatAM. enuM pratibiMba thALImAM paDatuM. teo maMtra bhaNatAM ane pachI jorajorathI moTA avAja sAthe potAne bagAsAM cAlu thAya tyAM sudhI te maMtra bhaNatAM. A badhAM dazyo bALapaNamAM meM najare nihALelAM che. temane chIMkaNI banAvatAM sarasa AvaDatuM. thoDe thoDe vakhate chIMkaNI banAvIne AsapAsanAM bairAMone maphata DabbI bharI ApatAM. tevI ja rIte dhupela paNa sarasa banAvatAM. mane barAbara e da2ya yAda che ke jyAre te AvI rIte moTI sagaDI upara dhupela banAvatAM hatAM tyAre telamAM moTo bhaDako thayo hato ane tarata te olavI nAkhyo hato. ame nAnA hatA tyAre amathIbAne kahetA ke "tamArI maMtravidyAo amane zikhavADo." tyAre teo kahetAM ke potAnAM gurae e game tene ApavAnI nA pADI che ane yogya pAtra jaNAya tene kALI caudasanI rAtre bAra vAge nAhIdhoIne zuddha thayA pachI ja ApI zakAya. jIvananA aMta sudhI temaNe e vidyAo koIne ApI nahotI. amRtalAla bApAne bhAIomAM be nAnA bhAI hatA. emAM vaceTa bhAIlAla nAnI uMmaramAM gujarI gayelA. sauthI nAnA bhAInuM nAma DAhyAbhAI. baMne bhAInAM saMtAnomAM teo "DAhyAkAkA' tarIke ja jANItA hatA. badhAM DAhyAkAkAnuM nAma premathI saMbhAre che. teo bahu buddhicAturyavALA, anubhavI ane ramUjI svabhAvanA hatA. vepArArthe teo satata musApharI karatA rahetA ane dara vakhate ekAda-be bhatrIjAne sAthe laI jatA. mArA pitAzrIne vIsa-pacIsa varSanI uMmare DAhyAkAkA sAthe samagra gujarAta uparAMta rAjasthAna ane uttara bhAratamAM dareka moTA zaheramAM javAnuM thatuM. 196 9 caritradarzana

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rU, kapAsa, anAja ane biyAraNanA chUTaka tathA jaththAbaMdha vepArI hovAne nAte kAM to kharIdI karavAnI hoya athavA mAla vecavAno hoya. te vakhate mAlanI heraphera mATe relavenI guDjha Trena e eka ja vyavasthA upalabdha hatI. gAmamAMthI pAdarAnA relave sTezane dararoja ekAda AMTo to hoya ja. relavetaMtra tyAre atyaMta vyavasthita, niyamita ane sudaDha hatuM. vepArArthe gAmegAma ADatiyA rahetA ane pote jAya tyAre ADatiyAnA mahemAna banavAnuM rahetuM. AgatAsvAgatA sArI rahetI. zaheranA agragaNya vepArIono paricaya thato. pAdarAmAM pote hoya tyAre rojano TapAlavyavahAra ghaNo raheto. pitAzrInA akSara sarasa maroDadAra eTale TapAlavyavahAra teo saMbhALatA ne nAmuM lakhatA. posTa dvArA ja namUnAo mokalatA. AthI pitAzrIne DAhyAkAkAnA hAtha nIce tAlIma sArI maLI hatI ane koI paNa gAmanuM nAma bolAya ke tarata tyAMnA mukhya ADatiyA ane vepArIonAM nAma bolAya. pitAzrIne so varSanI umare paNa evAM aneka nAmo haju moDhe che) DAhyAkAkAne emanA vAtoDiyA svabhAvane kAraNe tathA vAraMvAra musApharIne kAraNe ghaNI vAtonI jANakArI rahetI. vaLI temane kahevato paNa ghaNI AvaDatI. taduparAMta prasaMgAnusAra prAsayukta lITIo joDatAM paNa temane AvaDatI. jema ke e jamAnAmAM popaTa nAmanA eka chokarAnI mA bIjA koIka puruSa sAthe nAsI gaI hatI. eTale e kuTuMba vagovAyuM hatuM. ethI vANiyA popaTe jJAtimAMthI kanyA na maLatAM bahAragAma jaI paisA ApI koIka bAreyA jJAtinI kanyAne lAvIne gharamAM besADI hatI. e prasaMge DAhyAkAkAe lIMTIo joDI hatI : kuLa gayuM kAzI ane mA gaI nAzI, popaTa lAvyo bAreyaNa, e vAta moTI khAssI." evI rIte bIjI eka ghaTanAmAM eka bhAIne tyAM lagnanA jamaNavAra prasaMge rasoImAM ekAda vAnagI khUTI paDI ane bumarANa macI gaI. loko game tema bolavA lAgyA. ethI pelA bhAI ciDAI gayA. loko ATalI nAnI vAtamAM TIkA karavA maMDI gayA, to e loko kaMI khavaDAvavAne lAyaka ja nathI. have khavaDAvIzuM topaNa TIkA karavAnA che ane nahi khavaDAvIe topaNa TIkA karavAnA che ema mAnIne emaNe emanA dIkarA maMgaLane hukama karyo ke rasoDAnA oraDAne tALuM mArI de. e prasaMge DAhyAkAkAe lITIo joDI hatI: Ame kALuM ane teme kALuM, mAra maMgaLiyA oraDe tALuM.' A DAhyAkAkA pAsethI badhAM chokarAMone ghaNI kahevato jANavA ane kaMThastha karavA maLI hatI. jUnA jamAnAnI e pracalita kahevato hatI, jema ke - mArA pitAzrI : 197

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sarate (najara meLavavAthI) karaDe kUtaro, binasarate karaDe vAgha, vizvAse karaDe vANiyo, caMpAyo karaDe nAga.' lagabhaga pAMceka dAyakAthI cAlatA AvA dhamadhokAra vepAramAM I. sa. 1920mAM acAnaka palaTo Avyo. IMTolAnuM jina tyAMnA vepArI kAlidAsa nAraNabhAInuM hatuM. e jinamAM acAnaka moTI Aga lAgI ane emAM amRtalAla bApAnI mAlikInI rUnI be hajAra gAMsaDI baLI gaI tathA bIjuM ghaNuM nukasAna thayuM. bhAre moTI AghAtajanaka ghaTanA banI. rUnA vepAramAM vImo UtarAvavo ja joIe. paNa e vImo kAlidAsa nAraNabhAInA nAmano hato. Azare traNa lAkha rUpiyAnuM nukasAna e varasomAM thayuM. vImA kaMpanI ATalo moTo vImo cUkavavA icchatI nahotI. ghaNA vAMdhA pADyA ane ghaNI takalIpha pachI thoDIka kama kAlidAsane cUkavI. kAlidAsanI Arthika sthiti nabaLI thaI gaI hatI. emanI dAnata bagaDI. vImAnI AvelI rakamamAMthI emaNe eka rUpiyo paNa Apyo nahi. dhaMdhAnI khoTa ane sAthe sAthe vizvAsaghAtano anubhava thayo. AphatanAM jANe vAdaLAM UmaTI AvyAM. AvaDA bahoLA vepArane traNa lAkhanI khoTanI dRSTie sarabhara karavAmAM vAra to lAge ane te paNa kadAca zakya banI zakyuM hota, paraMtu AvI ghaTanA bane tyAre vyAje paisA mUkelA hoya e badhA leNadAro ekasAthe paisA mATe doDe. eTale muzkelIno pAra na rahyo. bIjI bAju garajanA vakhate vepArIo paNa sastAmAM mAla paDAvI jAya. vepAradhaMdhA saMkelAvA lAgyA. devAM cUkta thavA lAgyAM. jino, jamIno, khetaro, dukAno, sonAnAM ghareNAM badhuM vecAtuM gayuM. cAra-pAMca varSamAM to hAthepage thaI javAyuM. keTalAka vepArIonAM devAM pUrepUrAM cUkate thayAM, paraMtu sagAMsaMbaMdhIoe tathA bIjAM ghaNAMe potAnI rakama levAnI nA pADIne kahyuM, tame amArA upara ghaNo badho upakAra karyo che. amArA paisA e koI moTI vAta nathI.' thoDAM varSamAM badhuM ja vecAI gayuM. ekamAtra rahevAnuM ghara bacyuM. hatuM. eka sthAnika bhAIe korTamAM dAvo karyo ane chevaTe e gharanI aMdara amRtalAla bApA jIve tyAM sudhI rahevAno hUka maLyo, paNa gharanI mAlikI badalAI gaI. bIjA be-traNa jaNe paNa korTamAM dAvA karyA. amRtalAla bApAe e badhAno samatApUrvaka sAmano karyo. eka vakhata korTanA nyAyAdhIze Takora karI ke UlaTatapAsamAM phariyAdI traNa vAra jUThuM bolatAM pakaDAyA che ane prativAdI amRtalAlane mAthe ATalI badhI upAdhi AvI paDI che chatAM eka paNa vakhata teo jUThuM bolyA nathI.' 198 * caritradarzana

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amRtalAla bApAe paristhitinI vAstavikatAno svIkAra karI lIdho. sAdAI ane karakasarabharyuM jIvana cAlu thaI gayuM. je jamAnAmAM sAdhAraNa sthitinA mANaso varase-be varase pAdarAthI ekAda vakhata amadAvAda koI prasaMge jAya te jamAnAmAM emanA dIkarAo vepAra arthe rojeroja amadAvAda, bharUca, aMkalezvara savAranA jaIne sAMje pAchA pharatA hatA. paraMtu Apatti AvyA pachI sAta mAIla dUra vaDodarA javAnuM paNa svapna jevuM thaI gayuM. eka bAju aneka lokonI svArthI manovRttino paricaya thaI gayo to bIjA keTalAka evA mitro nIkaLyA ke jeoe roja ghare AvIne besavAno potAno niyama choDyo nahi ane ghaNI hUMpha ApyA karI. jyAre AvI moTI Arthika Apatti AvI gaI tyAre amRtalAla bApAe dIkarAone salAha ApI ke have tame badhA trIsa-cAlIsanI uMmare pahoMcyA cho. atyAra sudhI tame moTA zeThanI jema gAmamAM rahyA cho. have kuTuMbanuM gujarAna calAvavAno prazna sauthI gaMbhIra che. huM to vRddhAvasthAe pahoMcyo chuM. paNa tamArI ciMtA che. A gAmamAM rahIne tame nAnI-moTI nokarI karazo ke hATaDI mAMDazo to temAM AbarU nahi rahe. anekanAM maheNAM-ToNAMno bhoga banazo. jIvana jIravAze nahi. devayoge je paristhiti AvI paDI che teno svIkAra karI lejo. bahAragAma jaI nokarI-dhaMdho karajo, anIti AcaratA nahi ane svamAnathI rahejo." vepAradhaMdhAmAM moTI nukasAnI AvI ane devAdAra thaI gayA pachI DAhyAkAkAnuM citta asvastha rahyA karatuM hatuM. vaLI emane pAMca dIkarIo hatI, paNa dIkaro nahoto ane pote vidhura thaI gayA hatA. A saMjogomAM emanI mAnasika vyagratA vadhI gaI hatI. aDasaThanI uMmare teo pahoMcavA AvyA hatA. yuvAnImAM ghaNI jAhojalAlI ane TheraThera mAnapAna joyAM pachI pAchalAM thoDAM varSomAM potAnA RNa taLe AvelA mANaso, jJAtibaMdhuo ane sagAMone vimukha thaI gayelA joIne DAhyAkAkAne jIvatara khAruM jhera jevuM lAgavA mAMDyuM hatuM. pariNAme mAnasika samatulA gumAvI emaNe kUvAmAM paDatuM mUkI ApaghAta karavA prayatna karelo. paraMtu jevI khabara paDI ke tarata betraNa bAhoza mANasoe kUvAmAM UtarI emane bacAvI lIdhA hatA. DAhyAkAkA thoDo vakhata svastha rahyA hatA. paraMtu keTalAka mahinA pachI emaNe bIjI vAra ghara pAse AvelA lAla kUvA tarIke jANItA moTA kUvAmAM paDatuM mUkyuM. A vakhate vahelI paroDhe teo kUvAmAM paDyA ke jethI koInI avarajavara na hoya ane bacAvavA koI doDe nahi. savAra paDatAM panihArIo kUve gaI tyAre emaNe DAhyAkAkAnuM zaba pANImAM taratuM joyuM. vaDIla baMdhu amRtalAla mATe A ghaTanA bahu AghAtajanaka hatI. enI asara emanI tabiyata upara paDI ane teo sAjA mArA pitAzrI : 199

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mAMdA rahevA lAgyA. teo zarIre paNa azakta thaI gayA. have dareka dIkarAne potAnI meLe kamAvA mATe puruSArtha karavAno hato. nAnA be bhAIo muMbaI nokarI-dhaMdhA mATe pahoMcI gayA. mArA pitAzrIe pAdarA pAse mobhA nAmanA gAmamAM anAja-kariyANAnI dukAna karI. te vakhate ame bhAIbahenomAMthI mane ane mArI nAnI bahenane pitAzrI mobhA sAthe laI gayA hatA. tyAre mArI uMmara pAMca varSanI hatI. ame eka varSa mobhA rahyAM hoIzuM. paraMtu e samayanuM badhuM ja citra Aje paNa najara sAme tAdaza che. I. sa. 1932mAM amRtalAla bApA pAdare mAMdA paDyA eTale mobhAnI dukAna saMkelIne pAdarA pAchA AvI javuM paDyuM. amRtalAla bApAnI tabiyata divase divase bagaDatI gaI ane ema karatAM I. sa. 1932mAM boMtera varSanI vaye emaNe deha choDyo. emanA avasAnanA samaya sudhI amathIbA pAdarA rahyAM ane tyAra pachI muMbaI AvIne dIkarAone tyAM rahyAM. mArA pitAzrIe keTaloka vakhata beMglora jaIne nokarI karI. keTaloka vakhata gujarAtamAM dhanasurAmAM jaIne nokarI karI paNa bahu phAvyuM nahi. evAmAM vaDodarAmAM Arya naitika nATaka kaMpanI nATakanA khela mATe AvelI. e kaMpanI pachI muMbaI javAnI hatI. kaMpanIne koI hoziyAra munImanI jarUra hatI. koIke kaMpanInA mAlika nakubhAIne pitAzrInA nAmanI bhalAmaNa karI. pitAzrIe e javAbadArI svIkArI ane teo ekalA muMbaI AvyA. nATaka kaMpanImAM thiyeTaramAM rahevAnuM ane khAvAnuM. thoDA mahinA e nokarI karI paNa pAra niyamita maLe nahi. daramiyAna muMbaImAM svadezI mArakeTamAM eka kApaDanA vepArIne tyAM nokarI maLI gaI. eTale pitAzrIe khetavADI vistAramAM eka rUma bhADe rAkhI ane kuTuMbane muMbaI teDAvyuM. I. sa. 1936nI e vAta. be varSa kuTuMbanuM gujarAna sarakhI rIte cAlyuM. tyAM mArakeTanI baMdhiyAra havAne lIdhe pitAzrIne damano vyAdhi lAgu paDyo. nokarI choDavI paDI. AvakanuM koI sAdhana rahyuM nahi. muMbaI choDIne pAchA pAdarA javuM paDe evA saMjogo UbhA thayA. te vakhate pitAzrInAM phoInA dIkarA caMdulAla jesaMgalAla dalAle emane hUMpha ApI ane Arthika madada karI. caMdubhAI pote zeTha kIkAbhAI premacaMdanA gADha mitra emaNe zeTha kIkAbhAIne pitAzrInI takalIphanI vAta karI. kIkAbhAIe potAnA TrasTamAMthI dara mahine Arthika sahAya ghera beThAM manIorDarathI maLI jAya evI vyavasthA karI ApI. caMdubhAIe pitAzrIne nAnAM chokarAMone bhaNAvavAnAM betraNa TyUzana baMdhAvI ApyAM ke jethI tabiyata sAcavIne kAma karI zakAya. mAtA revAbAe kapaDAM, vAsaNa vagere badhuM ja gharakAma hAthe karavAnuM cAlu karI dIdhuM. ane ema karatAM kuTuMba muMbaImAM TakI gayuM. dasa bAya vIsanI rUmamAM kuTuMbanAM ame dasa sabhyo rahetAM. ra0 2 caritradarzana *

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ame bhAIbaheno kAgaLanI kothaLI banAvavI, kelenDaramAM citro coMTADavAM vagere prakAranAM paracUraNa kAmo meLavI lAvI nAnI rakama kamAtA ane ethI kuTuMbamAM rAhata thatI. eka dAyako AvI sakhata hADamArIno pasAra thayo. moTA be bhAIoe bhaNavAnuM choDI cauda-paMdara varSanI nAnI uMmare nokarI cAlu karI dIdhI. bIjA vizvayuddha vakhate muMbaI khAlI thayuM tyAre kuTuMba eka varSa mATe pAdarA gayuM. pitAzrI sAthe ame be bhAIo muMbaImAM rahyA. tyAre mArI uMmara paMdareka varSanI haze. ame hAthe rasoI karIne khAtA. pitAzrI nokarIe jatA ane ame zALAmAM bhaNavA jatA. vizvayuddhano muMbaI parano bhaya haLavo banyo ane kuTuMba pAchuM muMbaI AvIne rahevA lAgyuM. I. sa. 1936 thI 1948 sudhI ema bAra varSa sudhI pitAzrI ane mArA be vaDIla baMdhuonI nokarInI AvakamAMthI kuTuMbanuM gujarAna cAlyA karyuM. 1948mAM ame bIjA be bhAIo yunivarsiTImAM DigrInI parIkSA pAsa karIne tarata nokarIe lAgI gayA. pachI kaMIka Arthika rAhata anubhavAvA lAgI. krame krame Avaka vadhatI gaI. eka pachI eka bhAIonAM lagna thatAM gayAM, ghara maMDAtAM gayAM ane ema pAcho kuTuMbano utkarSa thato gayo. mAtA revAbAnuM avasAna 1975mAM thayuM. pitAzrI ane ame cha bhAI ane be bahenonA parivAranA sabhyonI saMkhyA have so upara nIkaLI gaI. trIjI peDhInAM saMtAno paNa have vyavasAye lAgI gayAM. pitAzrI kahe che ke khetavADInA eka rUmamAMthI have amerikA, siMgApura, muMbaI, vaDodarA, amadAvAda vagere deza-videzomAM AvelAM kuTuMbanAM ghaNAM moTAM moTAM ghara thaI gayAM. pharI pAcho pahelAMthI paNa adhika vaLato divasa jovA maLyo. Ama chatAM pitAzrIe ghaNAM varSothI apanAvelI sAdAI pramANe emanI pAse to be joDa vastrathI vadhu parigraha hoto nathI. saMtAno svataMtra thayA pachI lagabhaga paMcAvananI uMmare dhana kamAvAmAMthI emaNe rasa choDI dIdho hato. potAnA nAme benkamAM khAtuM ke milakata nathI ke nathI temaNe ghaNAM varSothI koIne prazna karyo ke, "tame zo vyavasAya karo cho ane tamArI zI Avaka che? teo satata dharmamaya jIvana jIve che. sAdhu mahArAja jeTalo parigraha teo rAkhe che. upakArInA upakAranuM vismaraNa na karavuM ane dharmamAM zraddhA rAkhavI e mATe vAraMvAra bhalAmaNa kare che. pitAzrInuM jIvana eTale caDatI-paDatI ane pAchI caDatInA divasonuM jIvana. paNa e dareka tabakkAmAM emaNe svasthatA ane samatApUrvaka dharmane Adarza tarIke rAkhyo che. emanA saraLa, nirabhimAnI, niHspRha, dharmamaya zAMta prasanna jIvanamAMthI amane haMmezAM satata preraNA maLatI rahI che. ('vaMdanIya hRdayasparzamAMthI) mArA pitAzrI 201

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22 mArAM mAtuzrI sva. revAbA jIvananI uttarAvasthAmAM bAlyakALanAM ane kizoravayanAM saMsmaraNo vadhu tAjA thAya che. e saMsmaraNomAM mahattvanAM pAtro te mAtApitA, dAdAdAdI, bhAIbahena, paDozIo, mitro, zikSako vagere hoya che. keTalAMka varSa pahelAM prabuddha jIvanamAM mArA pitAzrI vize meM lakhyuM hatuM. have mAtuzrI sva. revAbA vize lakhavAno bhAva thayo che. eka abhaNa paNa dharmaparAyaNa, saMskArI, kuTuMbavatsala strIe sukhanA divaso to sArI rIte mANyA hatA, paNa duHkhanA kaparA divasomAM paNa kevI samatA ane dhIraja dhAraNa karI hatI te mane mArAM mAtuzrInA jIvanamAM jovA maLyuM hatuM. revAbAno janma I. sa. 1900mAM ANaMda jillAmAM nAvalI nAmanA gAme thayo hato. nAvalI pramANamAM moTuM gAma hatuM. revAbAe zALAnuM zikSaNa cAra copaDI sudhI lIdheluM ane te paNa jevuMtevuM, kAraNa ke e divasomAM strIkeLavaNIno mahimA nahoto. revAbAnA pitA zeTha cunIlAla sUracaMda zrImaMta hatA ane nAvalImAM emanuM potAnuM ghaNuM moTuM ghara hatuM. emanAM mAtA IcchAbahene potAnI DAhI, revA ane maNi e traNe dIkarIone gharakAmanI sArI tAlIma ApI hatI. emane ghare ekabe bheMsa kAyama bAMdhelI rahetI ane traNa bahenone bheMsane carAvavA, taLAve nahAvA laI jatAM, bheMsa dohatAM ane dUdhamAMthI dahIM, mAkhaNa ane ghI banAvatAM sArI rIte AvaDatuM. IcchAbA dara bIje ke trIje divase savAre valoNuM karatAM ane gAmanA lokone maphata chAza ApatAM. icchAbAe jIvyA tyAM sudhI ghare bheMsa bAMdhelI, bheMsanI sAthe lADathI vAto karatAM ame temane nAnapaNamAM ghaNI vAra joyAM che. emanI badhI vAto bheMsa samajatI ane te pramANe teo kahetAM ke Dhora (bheMsa) vagaranuM jIvana 202 caritradarzana

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e Dhora jevuM jIvana kahevAya. e divasomAM jJAtinAM baMdhano atyaMta kaDaka hatAM. jJAti bahAra koI lagna karI na zake. vaLI gAmamAM ne gAmamAM lagna karavAnuM iSTa manAtuM nahi. jAnamAM javAnuM maLe eno AnaMda judo hato. pacIsa-pacAsa gADAM joDAya, rastAmAM mukAma thAya ane lagnanA sthaLe sAta divasa jAna rokAya. revAbAnI sagAI pAdarAnA zrImaMta zeTha amRtalAla vanamALIdAsa ane amathIbahenanA bIjA putra cImanalAla mArA pitAzrI) sAthe thaI hatI. aDhAra varSanI uMmare emanAM lagna levAyAM, pAdarAthI jAna nAvalI AvI ane paraNIne teo pAdarA sAsare AvyAM. bA jyAre paraNIne sAsare AvyAM tyAre te moTA gharanI vahu tarIke AvyAM hatAM. emanA sasarA (mArA dAdA) zeTha zrI amRtalAlano rU-kapAsano dhamadhokAra dhaMdho cAlato hato. bharUca, iMTolA, miyAMgAma, bhAyalI vagere cha gAmomAM emanI jiniMga phekTarI hatI. AkhA tAlukAmAM prathama naMbaranA dhanavAnamAM temanI gaNanA thatI hatI. emano keTaloka vepAra te vakhatanA bharUcanA prakhyAta pA2sI vakhArIA kuTuMba sAthe hato. e jamAnAmAM zrImaMta gharanI strIo badhuM ja gharakAma hAthe karatI, paNa teone nokaracAkaranI madada maLatI. tyAre bajAramAM kharIdI karavA, zAkabhAjI lAvavA strIo jatI nahi. gharanA puruSavarga dvArA tathA nokaracAkara dvArA AvuM kAma thatuM. bAnAM sAsu amathIbahena eka gorAM, dekhAvaDAM, jAjvalyamAna strI hatAM. teo dharmapremI, saMskArI, udAra mananAM ane maMtrataMtranAM sAdhaka hatAM. sAbu, dhUpela, tapakhIra vagere teo hAthe banAvatAM ane ghaNAMne premathI maphata ApatAM. bAne eka jeThANI, be derANI ane eka naNaMda hatAM. amRtalAlabhAInuM eka moTuM pacAsa mANasanuM saMyukta kuTuMba hatuM. dasa to nokaracAka2 hatA. keTalAMkane golA' kahetA. revAbAnAM ame ATha saMtAno, cha bhAI ane be bahena. mArA be moTA bhAI te vIcaMdabhAI ane jyaMtIbhAIno janma piyaramAM nAvalImAM thayo hato. mArA trIjA moTA bhAI navInabhAIno janma paNa piyaramAM oDa pAse kaNabhAIparAmAM thayo hato, kAraNa ke mArAM nAnA-nAnI nAvalI choDIne dIkarIo pAse oDa tathA pAse kaNabhAIparAmAM rahevA AvyAM hatAM. mAro tathA bIjA be bhAI pramodabhAI ane bharatabhAIno ane be bahena prabhAvatIbahena tathA indirAbahenano janma pAdarAmAM thayo hato. mAro janma bAnA cothA dIkarA tarIke vi. saM. 1983mAM kArataka vada 13nA divase (3-12-1926) thayelo. A vakhate bA piyara gayA nahi, eTale mAro janma mArca mAtuzrI sva. revAbA * 203

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pAdarAmAM thayo hato. e divasomAM amArA gAyakavADI rAjyamAM evo niyama hato ke dara varSe tAlukAnA mukhya gAmamAM tAlukAnAM bALako mATe taMdurastInI spardhA yojavAmAM AvatI. amAruM pAdarA tAlukAnuM mukhya gAma hatuM. eTale pAdarAmAM rAmajI maMdiramAM spardhA thatI. A spardhA eka varasanI aMdaranAM bALakonI taMdurastInI hatI. bALakanuM vajana karavAmAM Ave, UMcAI mApavAmAM Ave, chAtInuM mApa levAya. hAtha, paga, AMkha, nAka, kAna vagere tapAsavAmAM Ave ane e badhAmAM sauthI vadhu mArksa meLavanAra traNa bALakone inAma ApavAmAM Ave. bA-bApujI A prasaMge mane sarasa kapaDAM paherAvIne laI gayAM hatAM. e mATe tAlukAmAMthI lagabhaga savAso bALakone spardhA mATe emanAM mAtApitA lAvyAM hatAM. A spardhAmAM DaMko vagADIne jAhera thayelAM inAmomAM mAro pahelo naMbara Avyo hato. A pariNAma jANIne bA-bApujIne, dAdA-dAdIne tathA samagra kuTuMbane bahu AnaMda thayo hato ane dAdAe amArI jJAtimAM peMDA vaheMcyA hatA. bA-bApujI A prasaMga haMmezAM yAda karIne rAjI thatAM. bA sAthenA mArA prasaMgomAM sauthI pahelo hajI paNa smaraNamAM che. bA mane teDIne phaLiyAmAM sAmenA ghare rahetA goradhanakAkA ane kAkIne ghare gayAM hatAM. bA ane kAkI sAmasAmI pATa upara besIne kaMIka sIvatAM hatAM. huM bAnA khoLAmAM sUto hato ane bA zuM sAMdhe che te joto hato. vaLI dIvAlo upara TAMgelA phoTA joto hato. te vakhate kAkI bolyA, 'A chokaro Tagara Tagara zuM joyA kare che ? bAe kahyuM, "jANe badhuM samajato hoya tema UMco thaI thaIne cAre bAju jovAnI ene Teva che." (AmAM zabdo kadAca judA haze paNa eno bhAva barAbara e che.) huM cAlatAM ane bolatAM pramANamAM vaheluM zIkhyo hato. bAne "revAne badale DIA' kaheto. eTale bA keTalIka vAra TokatAM DIA, DauvA zuM kare che ? "revA bola..mane dAMta vahelA AvyA hatA ane khAtAM jaladI zIkhyo hato. nAnA bALakanI zaucakriyA mATe lAkSaNika rIta hatI. dareka ghare oTalA rahetA. mA oTalA upara pATalo nAkhIne bese. pachI baMne paganI sAmasAmI eDIo bhegI karIne polANa jevuM (AjanI poTI) banAve. paMjA para bALakane besADe ane sisakAro karyA kare eTale bALakane zauca thAya. tyAra pachI bALakane dhovaDAvI mA oTalA nIce UtarI maLa upara dhULa nAkhe ane oTalAnI bhIMtamAM karelA gokhalAmAM be laMbacorasa patarAM rAkhyAM hoya tenA vaDe maLa eka patarAmAM laI jyAM nakhAto hoya tyAM nAkhI Ave. huM cAlatAM zIkhyo tyAre zaucakriyA mATe bA mane phaLiyA bahAra laI javA lAgI. bA jyAre zauca mATe LiyA bahAra laI jAya ane eka makAnanI zauca 24 na caritradarzana

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mATe vaparAtI bhIMta AgaLa besADe pachI bA UbhI rahe. paNa koIka vAra huM ramata ja karyA karato houM ane zaucakriyA bhUlI jAuM tyAre bA ciDAtI. koI vAra betraNa chokarAM bhegAM thaI gayAM hoya to ramata karatAM. gAmaDAgAmamAM rAtane vakhate zerIomAM ghAsanA dIvA rahetA. eno nahi jevo prakAza paDe. aMdhAruM hoya tyAre bA nasa laIne UbhI rahe. dara kalAke rAmajI maMdiramAM pahelAM nagAruM vAge ane pachI DaMkA vAge. koI vAra bA kahe, "jaladI kara, jo AThanA DaMkA thayA." traNathI pAMca varSa sudhI mArI savAranA gALAmAM mukhya pravRtti te bA kUve pANI bharavA jAya tyAre temanI AMgaLiye javAnI, bapore bA sAthe taLAve kapaDAM dhovA javAnI ane sAMje derAsare AratI-maMgaLadIvo karavAnI hatI. pANI bharIne pAchAM pharatAM khabhe rAkhelAM bhInA doraDAthI bAnAM kapaDAM bhIMjAI jatAM. phaLiyAmAM dAkhala thatAM bA bUma mAratI "e..ghaDo UtarAvajo." eTale gharamAMthI koIka bA nIcAM name eTale ghaDo utArI letAM. pachI beDuM bA jAte utAratAM. baporanA vakhate taDakAmAM bA sapATa paherI, mAthe dhovAnAM kapaDAM bhareluM moTuM celiyuM caDAvatAM. enA upara lAkaDAno pAyo dhoko) mUke ane hAthe banAvelA sAbuno moTo goLo (daDA jevo) mUke. (tyAre sAbu goLa AvatA) taLAve jaI mane eka jhADa nIce besADe. bA eka zilA upara kapaDAM ghase, dhokA mAre ane pachI kachoTo vALI ghUMTaNa sudhInA pANImAM jAya ane kapaDAM palALI, nicovI, khabhe mUkIne pAchA phare ane nicovelI gaDavALAM kapaDAM celiyAmAM mUke. e samaya daramiyAna huM jhADa nIce besIne badhAMne kapaDAM dhotAM joto, paNa mane vizeSa AnaMda to pavana sAthe hiloLA letA pANInA suryanuM pratibiMba paDatAM ane badalAtAM joto. ene okaLiyo kahetA. cakacakatI hajAro okaLiyo jotAM huM dharAto nahi. sAMje derAsaramAM AratI sAthe nagAruM vAge te sAMbhaLavAmAM vadhu AnaMda Avato. nagAruM UMce hatuM eTale AratI-maMgaLadIvo pUro thatAM bA mane UMco karI nagAruM vagaDAvatAM. cAreka varSanI uMmare eka divasa sAMje huM acAnaka vedanAnI bhayaMkara cIso pADavA lAgyo. phAnasanA ajavALe bAe joyuM to tyAM vIMchI hato. sApa DaMkha mArIne bhAgI jAya. vIMchI eTalAmAM ja pharato rahe. UMcI pUMchaDIne kAraNe pakaDavAnuM paNa saheluM. tarata pitAjIe cIpiyAthI vIMchI pakaDIne tapelImAM mUkI dIdho. tapelImAM vIMchI AMTA mAryA kare, paNa bahAra nIkaLI na zake. tapelI DhAMkIne pitAjI vIMchIne dUra vagaDAmAM nAkhI AvyA. huM cIso pADato sUI rahyo. amathIbAne maMtra bhaNI vIMchI utAratAM AvaDe. emanA maMtrathI mane thoDI rAhata thaI, paNa darda cAlu hatuM. mArca mAtuzrI sva. revAbA = 205

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evAmAM bAne vicAra mUkyo. teo upAzraye gayAM. sAdhu mahArAjane vinaMtI karI eTale mahArAja kAmaLI oDhIne ghare AvyA. jyAM mane darda thatuM hatuM tyAM hAtha mUkIne maMtra bhaNyA. pachI emaNe mane kahyuM, "tuM UMgha Ave tyAM sudhI "vItarAga namo jiNANuM' bolyA karaje. tane jarUra maTI jaze." pathArImAM sUtAM sUtAM meM raTaNa cAlu karyuM. bA mane paMpALatI rahI ane kahetI rahI ke hamaNAM maTI jaze." ema karatAM thoDI vAramAM ja huM UMghI gayo. savAra paDatAM to kaMI thayuM ja na hoya ema lAgyuM. bIjI eka vakhata paNa mane vIMchI karaDyo hato. A vakhate moTo vIMchI nahi paNa vIMchInuM bacyuM hatuM. savAre nAhIne meM skUla javA mATe vaLagaNI parathI khamIsa utAryuM. paheravA jatAM bAMyamAM rahelA vIMchIe hAtha para DaMkha mAryo. meM cIsAcIsa cAlu karI. bAe dhamakAvyo, "kema ATalI badhI bUmAbUma kare che ?" tyAM to bAe khamIsa jhApaTuM to nIce vIMchI paDyo. gharamAM eka jaNa vIMchI pakaDavA rokAyuM. pitAjI bahAragAma hatA. eTale bA mane amArA eka vaDIla nAthAkAkAne tyAM laI gayAM. nAthAkAkA mane UMcakIne bajAramAM laI gayA. bAthI (strIothI bajAramAM javAya nahi. kAkA mane eka moTaravALA pAse laI gayA ane vIMchI karaDyAnI vAta karI. eNe moTaranuM boneTa kholI beTarInA be vAyara mArA be hAthamAM pakaDAvyA ane kahyuM 'bilakula sahana na thAya tyAre ja hAtha choDI deje. traNacAra vakhata karIzuM.' moTaranuM enjina cAlu karatAM mane hAthe dhaDadhaDa thavA lAgyuM. (haLavo zoka lAgavA mAMDyo. sahana thatuM nahotuM chatAM hiMmata rAkhI. cAra vakhata ema karyuM ane kahyuM, jA, maTI gayuM che. have raDato nahi." mArI pIDA cAlI gaI. ghare AvIne kapaDAM paherIne huM skUle gayo. vIMchI karaDavAnA banAvo tyAre gAmaDAomAM vAraMvAra thatA. e maTADavA mATe vividha gAmaThI upacAro thatA. amRtalAla dAdAne rUnA vepAramAM moTI khoTa AvI ane mAthe devuM thaI gayuM tyAre emaNe potAnA cAre dIkarAone gAma choDIne bIje jaI nokarIdhaMdho karavAnI bhalAmaNa karI. tyAre cAre bhAIo dvArA pAdarA anAja, kApaDa vagerenI prakIrNa cIjavastuonI dukAna karavAno vicAra karyo. e mATe cAre bhAIoe tyAM dukAna bhADe rAkhI. mArA pitAzrIe e mATe pahela karI ane revAbA sAthe mane ane mArI nAnI bahena prabhAvatIne laI gayA. tyAre mane pAMcamuM varSa beThuM hatuM. paraMtu pitAzrInA bIjA koI bhAIo AvyA nahi, mobhAmAM ame eka varSa rahyAM, paNa saMtoSakAraka kamANI na thatAM ane dAdAnI tabiyata bagaDatAM pAchA pAdare AvyAM. mobhAmAM amArA gharanI pAchaLa ja vagaDo ane khetaro hatAM. vagaDAmAM thoDe 206 caritradarzana

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sudhI ame ramavA jatAM. AgaLa jatAM Dara lAgato. tyAre zAka bajAramAMthI vecAtuM lAvavAnuM nahi kAraNa ke evuM bajAra jyAM tyAM nahotuM. gharanI pAchaLanA vaMDAmAM badhA loko zAka ugADIne khAtA. bhIMDA, gavAra vagerenA choDa ane turiyA tathA galakAM vagerenA velA vAvelA te haju yAda che. choDa upara tyAM zvaka Uge te bAne batAvIe. emAM khAsa to comAsAnI RtumAM thatA kaMTolA vINI lAvavAnI bahu majhA paDatI. bAe kaheluM ke kaMTolA to varasAda paDyA pachI ja Uge. e vAkya Aje paNa bhulAyuM nathI. bA kaMTolA vINavA amane vagaDAmAM laI jatI. koI vAra varasAda bahu paDI gayo hoya to vacce khADAomAM pANI bharAI gayuM hoya. bA to khAbociyuM DahoLatI AgaLa cAle, paNa huM Ubho rahI jAuM. bA kahe, "ema bIe che zuM ? bahu pANI nathI." pANI mArI chAtI sudhI Ave. kapaDAM to paheryA na hoya, paNa pANImAM jatA Dara lAge. khAbociyAnA bIjA cheDe pahoMce tyAre salAmatIno AnaMda thato. khAbociyAmAM varasAdanuM tAjuM pANI hoya ane sUryaprakAza nIkaLe tyAre pANI dudhiyA raMganuM dekhAya. evA pANInI jIvaMtatA ja judI bhAse. vaLI pavanamAM varasAdanuM tAjuM pANI hiloLA letuM hoya e jovAnuM game. mobhAmAM eka divasa eka bAvo amArA ghare mAgavA Avyo. bAe ene loTa ane cokhA ApyA. bAnI udAratA joI eNe bhojananI mAgaNI karI. bAe nA kahI topaNa gharamAM koI puruSa nathI e joIne eNe haTha lIdhI ane eTale beTho. betraNa vAra kahevA chatAM e khasyo nahi. bAvo badamAza jevo lAgyo. bApujI gharamAM hatA nahi eTale bAe samayasUcakatA vAparI mane pAchale bAraNethI alIkAkAne bolAvavA mokalyo. musalamAna alIkAkA amArA gharanI najIka rahetA hatA. meM doDatA jaIne alIkAkAne vAta karI. teo hAthamAM lAkaDI laIne AvI pahoMcyA. emaNe lAkaDI ugAmI bAvAne gAma bahAra bhagADyo. eka vAra mobhAmAM rAtanA ATha-nava vAge "sApa Avyo, sApa Avyo' evI bUma paDI. badhAM gharanI bahAra nIkaLI gayAM. pAMca-cha ghara dUra sApa dekhAyo hato. badhA lAkaDI laI bahAra doDyA. koIka sApa pakaDavAno lAkaDAno lAMbo sANaso laI AvyuM. aMdhAruM hatuM eTale sApa kyAM bharAI gayo te dekhAyuM nahi. sApa lapAto lapAto bAjuvALA pADozInA gharamAM bharAyo te dekhAyo. tyAMthI sApane bhagADatAM pAchale bAraNethI nIkaLI gayo, paNa pachI tyAMthI amArA gharamAM bharAyo. phAnasanA ajavALe te dekhAyo. paNa bhagADavA jatAM te mobha upara caDI gayo ane eka bakholamAM bharAyo. tyAMthI ghaNA prayatno karavA chatAM te Utaryo nahi. chevaTe nakkI mArca mAtuzrI sva. revAbA = 207

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karyuM ke badhAe phaLiyAmAM khATalA DhALIne sUI javuM. thoDAka puruSo lAkaDI sAthe jAgatA rahe. bAe amane-bhAIbahenane khATalAmAM suvADyAM. ane pote jAgatAM rahIne navakAramaMtranuM raTaNa karyuM. pitAjI paNa jAgatA rahyA. bIkane lIdhe AkhI rAta sApa nIkaLyo nahi paNa savAra thatAM gharanI bahAra nIkaLyo te ame badhAMe joyuM paNa ene koI pakaDe te pahelAM to te jhaDapathI vagaDAmAM pahoMcI gayo. mobhAmAM sTezananI pAse ja amAruM ghara hatuM. eTale sTezana para ame keTalAMka chokarAM ramavA jatAM. sTezana mAstarane paNa e gamatuM, kAraNa ke emane amArI uMmarano eka dIkaro hato. AkhA divasamAM eka gADI Ave ane eka jAya. pachI mAstarane kaMI kAma nahi. tyAre ame pATA para samatolapaNuM rAkhIne cAlavAnI harIphAI karatA. signalathI kevI rIte pATA chUTA paDe te tathA enjinanuM moDhuM badalavuM hoya to te mATenA kUvAnA pATA kevI rIte pheravavA tathA kyAre keTalA DaMkA vagADavA te mAstarano madadanIza amane samajAvato. mobhAmAM eka varSa rahI dukAna saMkelI pitAjIne pAdarA pAchA pharavuM paDyuM. mArA amRtalAladAdAnA chellA mAMdagInA divasonuM ane emanA avasAnanA divasanuM citra haju najaramAM taravare che. mAMdagInA vakhate uparanA mALe bheDA upa2) emane suvADyA hatA. teo zaucAdi mATe gharabahAra jaI zake ema nahotA eTale emane mATe pATa maMgAvavAmAM AvI hatI. ame emane jovA jaIe to tarata nIce javAnuM kahevAmAM AvatuM. teo gujarI gayA te vakhate amane badhAM chokarAMone bAjunA eka makAnamAM pUravAmAM AvyAM hatAM jyAMthI ame joI zakIe. dAdAnI ThAThaDI UMcakIne laI gayA pachI amane choDyAM hatAM. dAdAnA gujarI gayA pachI amuka divasa sudhI roja savAre phaLiyAmAM rovA-kUTavAnuM rAkhavAmAM AvatuM. e mATe sagAMsaMbaMdhInI strIone kaheNa mokalAtuM. najIkanI zerImAM rahetA be hIjaDAo maraziyA gavaDAvatA. keTalIka strIo chAtI kUTavAmAM mAtra be hAthano abhinaya karatI. dAdImA amathIbA tathA cAre vahuo jorathI kUTatI ane chAtI lAlaghUma karatI. ame chokarAMo e vartuLanI bahAra UbhAM rahIne nihALatAM. revAbA jyAre bahu kUTatAM ane lAlaghUma chAtImAM lohInI Tazaro phUTatI tyAre e dazya joIne ame chokarAMo raDatAM. tyAre amathIbA paNa revAbAne aTakAvatAM. eka divasa to taDakAmAM chAtI kUTatAM revAbA bebhAna paNa thaI gayAM hatAM. pArake ghera phUTavA javAnuM hoya topaNa revAbA potAnuM ghara hoya tema samajI jorathI chAtI kUTatAM. amRtalAladAdAnA avasAna pachI ekAda varSe mArA pitAzrI ane emanA bhAIoe milakatanI vaheMcaNI karI e divaso mArI najara samakSa atyAre paNa 28 caritradarzana

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tAdaza che. pitAzrInA pitAzrI amRtalAla zeThane dhaMdhAmAM bhAre khoTa AvI hatI. eka jamAnAnA AkhA pAdarA tAlukAnA prathama naMbaranA sauthI moTA saMpattivAna gaNAtA amRtalAla zeTha potAnA rU-kapAsanA vepAramAM AgamAM 900 jeTalI gAMsaDI baLI jatAM thayelA nukasAnane kAraNe rAtorAta devAdAra thaI gayA hatA. pachInA divaso emanA vaLatA pANInA zAMta divaso hatA. gharanI bahAra javAnuM emane game nahi. gharanuM ghara vecAI gayuM hatuM, paraMtu emAM pote pati-patnI jIve tyAM sudhI rahevAnI adAlate chUTa ApI hatI. 1933mAM emanuM avasAna thayuM te pachI pitAzrI ane emanA bIjA traNe bhAIo-ema cAra jaNa vacce vaheMcavAnuM hoya to te mAtra gharavakharI ja hatI. pitAzrInAM mAtuzrI amathIbA amArI sAthe rahe ema nakkI thayuM hatuM. milakatamAM rokaDa to kaMI hatI nahi. amRtalAla zeThe - bApAe cAre dIkarAone lakhANa karI kAyadesara phAragatI ApI dIdhI hatI ke jethI potAnA devA mATe dIkarAone koI satAve nahi. vaheMcaNImAM mAtra gharavakharI hatI, paraMtu moTuM ghara eTale gharavakharI ghaNI hatI. emAM tapelAM-tapelI, thALI-vATakA vagere, tAMbA-pittaLanAM vAsaNo, gAdalAM, ozIkAM, cAdaro, khATalA, DAmaciyA, ghaMTI, baMbA, sagaDIo, athANAMnI kAcanI baraNIo, goLa ane corasa phAnaso, cImanIo, hIMcakA, pATa, lAkaDAnI khurazIo, mATInAM mATalAM, ghaDA ityAdi. ghara hoya eTale seMkaDo vastuo hoya. sUcanA pramANe roja thoDI thoDI sarakhI sarakhI vastuo gharamAMthI bahAra phaLiyAmAM ame chokarAMo. lAvIne mUkIe. vaDIlo enA bhAga pADe. ane dareka potAno bhAga potAne ghare laI jAya. e vakhate pitAzrI potAnI prakRti anusAra kazuM mAge nahi ke kazA mATe Agraha rAkhe nahi. je Ave te svIkArI le. e vakhate ghare gayA pachI revAbA pitAzrIne DhIlA sAde kahe, "tame kema kaMI bolatA nathI ? badhI sArI sArI vastuo bIjA bhAIo laI jAya che ane tUTelI nakAmI vastuo ApaNA bhAgamAM Ave pitAjI kahetA, "ApaNe moTuM mana rAkhavuM. sArI sArI vastuo laI jaIne jo teo rAjI thatA hoya to bhale thAya. koI cIjavastu mATe jhaghaDA thAya evuM mane gamatuM nathI. ApaNane anyAya thAya che e huM samajuM chuM. paNa mane je maLe emAM saMtoSa che." Aje ATale varSe paNa e dazyo mArI najara samakSa taravare che. pitAjI kazuM bole nahi, je bhAgamAM Ave te zAMtithI laI le ane pachI ekAMta maLatAM bA mArAM mAtuzrI sva. revAbA 209

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bApujInI samAdhAnabharI vAto sAMbhaLavA maLe. ame nAnA hatA tyAre IrAnIonI bahu bIka rahetI. ame judA rahevA lAgyA tyAre eka vakhata pAdarAmAM IrAnIo AvI caDyA. gAmane pAdare taMbu tANIne rahe ane potapotAnA TopalA sAthe bajAramAM charI, capsa, kAtara vagere ojAro vecavA besatA. hoziyAra jabarA. mANaso barAbara bhAvatAla karIne vastu kharIdatA, paNa nabaLA mANasone kharIdavA bolAvI, lobhAvIne chetarI letA. ekaMdare temanI chApa kharAba hatI. IrAnIo gorA ane temAM puruSo pATalUna ane strIo phroka paheratI. ane be coTalA vALI AgaLa be nAnI laTa rAkhatI. puruSo karatAM strI bahu jabarI hoya. gAmamAM IrAnIo Ave to temane aTakAvI zakAya nahi, paNa koI khAsa kharIdI na kare to teo betraNa divasamAM ja bIje gAma cAlyA jAya. gAma bahAra koI ekaladokala maLe to lUMTI letA. eka vakhata gAmamAM addA UDI ke eka IrAnI nAnA chokarAne kothaLAmAM nAkhIne upADI gayo. tyArathI AkhuM gAma sAvadha banI gayuM. e vakhate huM pAdarAmAM TAvaravALI skUlamAM bhaNato. AkhI bAMyanuM khamIsa, aDadhuM pATalUna ane mAthe sapheda TopI paherIne ughADA page khabhA pAchaLa daphataranI thelI rAkhI AgaLa enA nAkAmAM hAtha bharAvI badhA vidyArthIo bhaNavA AvatA. roja savAre nAhIne pahelAM kapaDAM hoya te bIje divase savAre UtaratAM. zALAmAM bhaNavA taLAvanA kinAre thaIne, TUMkA nirjana raste ame jatA. IrAnIonI vAta AvI eTale bAe kaDaka sUcanA ApI dIdhI ke taLAva bAjuthI nahi paNa gAmamAM thaIne jhaMDA bajAranA raste ghare AvavuM. koI IrAnI dekhAya to doDI javuM. bAnI A sUcanA divaso sudhI ame pALI hatI. zALAmAM bhaNatA thayA pachI bA dara varSe unALAnI rajAmAM amane chokarAMone laIne potAnA piyaramAM oDa gAme jatI. tyAM emanI be baheno rahetI. vaLI tyAMthI najIkanA gAma kaNabhAIparAmAM emanAM mAtApitA-icchAbA ane cunIlAla bApA rahetAM. e divasomAM page cAlIne ja pAdarA sTezane javAno rivAja hato. sAmAnamAM loDhAno Treka vajanadAra hoya eTale bA mAthe mUkIne cAlatI. emAM koI lajjA gaNAtI nahi. ame pAdarAthI vizvAmitrI jaI tyAMthI moTI gADImAM besI ANaMda UtaratAM ane tyAMthI gADI badalI godharAvALI gADImAM besI oDa UtaratAM athavA sIdhA kaNabhAIparA javAnuM hoya to bhAleja sTezane UtaratAM. bhAlejathI cAlatA ja amAre mosALanA ghare javAnuM rahetuM. te mATe agAuthI jaNAvavAno rivAja nahoto. relavemAM paNa DabbA aDadhA khAlI hoya. jyAM sArA mANaso hoya ane bArI pAsenI beThaka maLe e Dabbo pasaMda karAto ke jethI mahI nadInAM darzana thAya. bA mahIsAgaramAM 210 caritradarzana

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paiso nAkhavAnuM amane acUka kahetAM. TrenamAMthI nIce nadInA paTamAM cAlatA mANaso keTalA nAnA lAge te bA amane batAvatAM. e dazya haju paNa yAda che. mosALamAM jaIe tyAre khetaromAM jaIne AMbalI, rAyaNAM, jAMbu, jAmaphaLa, kAcI kerI vagere paththarathI pADIne ame khAtAM. ghara mATe tuvaranI sIMgo toDI lAvatA. koI vAra mahInA kotaromAM thaIne nadIe nAhavA jatA. tyAM nadInA paTamAM vAvelA velA parathI utArelAM cIbhaDAM kharIdIne khAtA. bAnI samayasUcakatAno eka prasaMga yAda Ave che. eka vakhata bA sAthe ame pAdarAthI oDa jatAM hatAM. emAM amuka aMtara basamAM kApavAnuM hatuM ane pachI Trena pakaDavAnI hatI. rastAmAM eka ThekANe basa UbhI rahI eTale ame UtaryA. paNa tyAM koI vasati nahotI. paraMtu bAnI najara gaI. ghaNe dUra IrAnIonuM ToLuM hatuM. bAe joyuM. eTalAmAM keTalAMka IrAnI strIpuruSo mAthe TopalA laI amArI bAju AvavA lAgyAM. amane choDIne basa cAlavA lAgI hatI tyAM to bAe jorathI basavALAne bUma pADI, "basavALA bhAI, basa UbhI rAkho, UbhI rAkho. basa tarata UbhI rahI gaI. bAe amane kahyuM, "alyA doDo, basamAM pAchA besI jaIe." ame doDatAMkane basamAM besI gayAM. amane pAchA basamAM besatAM joI IrAnIo tyAM ja UbhA rahI gayA. basavALo bolyo, "mAjI ! mane thayuM ke tame kema ahIM Utaro cho ?' "ochuM cAlavuM paDe eTale UtaryA, paNa pachI khabara paDI ke ahIM to IrAnIo che. sAruM thayuM tame mArI hAMka sAMbhaLI ane UbhI rAkhI. nahi to Aje IrAnIoe mArI sonAnI baMgaDIo paDAvI lIdhI hota." huM ATheka varSano hato tyAre pAdarAmAM AsapAsanA phaLiyAnAM chokarAMo kaMTiyArA taLAva pAse ramavA jatAM. unALAnI rajAnA divasomAM pANI ochuM thAya ane kinArAnI mATI sukAvA lAge tyAre evI pocI cIkaNI mATI kADhI ane enAM ramakaDAM banAvI taDakAmAM sukAvA mUkatAM. sukAyelAM ramakaDAM ghare lAvatA. koI vAra mATImAMthI kANAMvALo polo pAvo banAvatA ane e sukAya tyAre vagADatA. koI vAra mATInI pena banAvI, ghare lAvI cUlAmAM zekatA ane lAla thayelI penathI pATImAM lakhatA. AvAM ramakaDAM banAvatAM eka vakhata keTalAMka chokarAMone AMgaLIe gUmaDAM thavA lAgyAM. mane paNa thayAM. e pAke eTale emAMthI rasI nIkaLatI. e cepI rasIthI AjubAjunI AMgaLIone cepa lAgato, paNa maTI jatuM. eka vakhata mane e rIte dasa AMgaLIe cepa lAgyo. have hAthathI khavAya nahi. bA khavaDAve athavA camacAthI khAuM. A vakhate jaladI maTuM nahi eTale bA ciMtAtura thaI. evAmAM pAsenA paDozI mArAM mAtuzrI sva. revAbA ra 211

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jeThAlAlanA ghare emanA koI sagA AvyA hatA. teo vaiduM karatA. bAe emane mArI AMgaLIo batAvI. vaide kahyuM cepa ghaNo vadhI gayo che eTale have barAbara upacAra nahi karo to AMgaLIo kapAvavI paDaze. have cAlu malamapaTTIthI nahi maTe. e vakhate emaNe upacAra batAvyo. loDhAnA celiyAmAM gaMdhaka, pAro ane kaNajInuM tela bheLavIne barAbara lasoTavuM. evI rIte je malama thAya e badhI AMgaLIe lagADI pATo bAMdhI levo. vaide batAvelA A upacArathI thoDA divasamAM AMgaLIomAM rUjha AvI gaI. ane ema karatAM sadaMtara maTI gayuM. ATale varSe paNa e ghaTanA. ane upacAra mane yAda che. bAne roja savAre nAhIne derAsara darzana-pUjAno niyama hato. zrImaMta hatA tyAre vasAvelI cAMdInI DabbImAM cokhA vagere bharIne laI jAya. pAchA pharatAM teo roja pAsenI zerI navagharamAM AvelA maNibhadranA sthAnakamAM jaI dIvo karI page lAgatAM. temane maNibhadra devamAM ghaNI zraddhA hatI. huM zALAmAM bhaNato thayo tyAre emaNe mane roja maNibhadranA sthAnake jaI dIvo karavAnI Teva pADI hatI. navagharImAM A jUnuM sthAnaka have rahyuM nathI. derAsaramAM navuM sthAna thayuM che.) pitAzrI mATe pAdarAmAM gujarAna calAvavAnuM pachI vadhu kaThina banyuM hatuM. teo nAmuM lakhavAmAM bahu hoziyAra hatA ane emanA akSara paNa maroDadAra hatA. evAmAM vaDodarAmAM "Aryanitika nATaka samAja nAmanI nATaka kaMpanImAM eka mitranI bhalAmaNathI nAmuM lakhavAnI nokarI maLI gaI. eka mahinA pachI te nATaka kaMpanI muMbaI gaI eTale pitAjIne muMbaI javuM paDyuM. nATaka kaMpanI tyAM be varSa rokAvAnI hatI eTale pitAjI muMbaImAM vyavasthA karI amane teDavA AvyA. amAruM kuTuMba 1937mAM muMbaImAM AvIne vasyuM. khetavADI vistAramAM eka cAlImAM eka rUma pitAzrIe bhADe rAkhI hatI. muMbaImAM AvatAM bApujIe amane eka khAsa sUcanA ApI. amArA pradezamAM mAne nAmathI bolAvavAno rivAja hato. eTale ame badhAM "revA' kahetAM. muMbaImAM bApujIe kahyuM ke have "revA nahi kahevAnuM, "bA' kahevAnuM. rastAmAM tame revA kahIne vAta karatAM ho to phAlatu mANaso paNa nAma jANI jAya. pachI teo nAmanI bUma pADI saMtAI jAya. ahIM mavAlIo paNa ghaNA hoya che. eTale ame badhAe "bA' kahevAnuM cAlu karyuM. muMbaI AvIne bA bahu rAjI thayAM. temaNe kahyuM, pAdarA karatAM ahIM ochI mahenata. pAdarAmAM to bapore taDakAmAM taLAve kapaDAM dhovA jatI. ahIM muMbaImAM to gharamAM naLamAM pANI Ave eTale vAra na lAge. nAnI hatI ane oDamAM UMDA 212 ja caritradarzana

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kUvAmAMthI pANI kheMcatAM dama nIkaLI jato. kUvethI pANI bharI lAvavAnuM kAma oDa ane pAdarAmAM bahu varSo karyuM che, eTale muMbaImAM gharamAM naLa e to amAre mana sAhyabI kahevAya. vaLI pAdarAmAM lAkaDAM mUkI, phUMka mArI cUlo saLagAvavo paDato. ahIM sagaDI ane prAyamasa saLagAvavAmAM keTalI rAhata che! pachIthI gharamAM gesa Avyo tyAre to bA bahu rAjI thaI hatI.) e divasomAM ghATI mahine eka rUpiyAmAM vAsaNa mAMjato ane eka rUpiyAmAM kapaDAM dhoto. paNa eTalA paisA bacAvavA bA hAthe vAsaNa mAMjatAM ane kapaDAM dhotAM. bAmAM khaDatalapaNuM hatuM eTale savArathI rAta sudhI dasa mANasanI rasoI karavI, badhAMne jamADavA, vAsaNa mAMjavAM, kapaDAM dhovAM vageremAM jarA paNa thAka lAgato nahi. ATalAM kAma vacce paNa devadarzana, sAmAyika vagere cUkatAM nahi. bA hAthe kAma karatAM chatAM AkhA makAnamAM bA mATe saune mAna hatuM. makAnanI sarva strIo bAne "mAsIbA' kahIne bolAvatI. nAnAM chokarAMomAM paNa bA bahu priya hatAM. bAno kAyama niyama hato ke dara zukravAre makAnanAM badhAM chokarAMne vATakI bharIne caNA ApavA. e makAna ame choDyuM tyAM sudhI A niyama cAlu rahyo hato. bAnI evI pratiSThA hatI ke paDozI-paDozI vacce jhaghaDo thAya tyAre lavAda tarIke bAnI nimaNUka thatI. teo potAnI koThAsUjhathI evo ukela batAvatAM ke baMne pakSane rAjIkhuzIthI mAnya hoya. varSa kAma karI 'Arya naitika nATaka kaMpanIe amadAvAda javAnuM nakkI karyuM. bApujIne have badhAne laIne amadAvAda javAnuM phAvyuM nahi. eTale e nokarI choDI dIdhI. paNa bIjI nokarI maLatAM vakhata lAgyo. ema divaso pasAra thayA ane gharamAM takalIpha vadhavA lAgI. dasa sabhyonA kuTuMbano nibhAva karavAnuM bahu kaparuM banI gayuM hatuM. bAnA pairyano jyAre vicAra karuM chuM tyAre eka prasaMga tarata najara sAme taravare che. tyAre mArI umara tera varSanI haze. e kaparA divasomAM sauthI moTA bhAI kApaDanI mArakeTamAM mahine dasa rUpiyAnA pagAranI nokarI kare. bIjA naMbaranA bhAI amadAvAda nokarI karavA gayelA. pitAjI svadezI mArakeTamAM mahine cAlIsa rUpiyAnA pagAre nokarI kare. ame cAra bhAIbahena skUlamAM bhaNIe. bIjAM be nAnAM hatAM. ATalI AvakamAMthI gharanuM gujarAna thatuM nahotuM. thoDuM devuM paNa thaI gayeluM. evAmAM pitAjInI nokarI chUTI gaI. teo nirAza thaI gayA. pachI roja bajAramAM nokarI mATe AMTo mArIne Ave paNa koI nokarI maLe nahi. ema karatAM be mahinA thaI gayA. mArAM mAtuzrI sva. revAbA 213

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eka divasa bapore bApujI bajAramAMthI AvI nirAza thaI ArAmakhurazImAM beThA hatA tyAre huM gharamAM eka bAju besI lezana karato hato. bApujIne joI bAe pUchyuM, 'kema Ama sUnamUna beThA cho ?" bApujIe kahyuM, 'koI nokarI maLatI nathI eTale ciMtA thAya che ke gharanuM pUruM kevI rIte karIzuM ? mAthe devuM paNa thayuM che.' bAe kahyuM, 'bhagavAna kasoTI kare che, paNa badhuM sAruM thaI jaze.' daramiyAna bAnA manamAM paNa kaMIka manomaMthana cAlyuM haze. pachI emaNe potAno TUMka kholI (tyAre gharamAM kabATa nahotAM) eka DabbI kADhI ane emAMthI sonAnI be baMgaDI kADhI bApujInA hAthamAM mUkatAM bolyA, 'A have vecI Avo.' baMgaDI sAme bApujI joI rahyA ane pachI thoDI vAre bolyA, A kema vecAya ? A to tArA piyaranI che. pachI koI lagana prasaMge zuM paherIza ?' bAe kahyuM, 'piyaranI bhale hoya, have vecI devI joIe. lagana prasaMge huM kacakaDAnI baMgaDI paherIza. mane zarama nahi lAge.' bAe dhairyathI bApujIne kahyuM, paNa bApujI asvastha thaI gayA. emanI AMkhamAMthI daDadaDa AMsu paDyAM. bAe pharIthI kahyuM, 'tame mana makkama karIne vecI Avo, huM kahuM chuM ne ! atyAre ja UpaDo, pachI pAcho tamAro vicAra badalAze.' bApujI bajAramAM jaIne AvyA. bAnA hAthamAM paisA mUkatAM kahyuM, vecI nathI, paNa cAra mahinA mATe gIro mUkI che.' je karyuM te bhale karyuM, ApaNe have pahoMcI vaLIzuM.' tyAra pachI bAe derAsare jatAM thoDIka bahenone kahyuM ke ghare kaMI kAma karavAnuM maLe to apAvajo.' evAmAM traNeka mahinA pachI divALI AvatI hatI. bAne oLakhANathI kaeNlenDaro banAvavAnuM kAma maLI gayuM. presavALAne tyAMthI kaeNlenDaranAM pUThAM ane citro vagere laI AvIe. ghare enA u52 kaMpanInAM nAmano kAgaLa, lakSmIjI, sarasvatI, zrIgaNeza, zivajI vagerenAM citro oNrDara pramANe lAhIthI coMTADIe ane tithi-tArIkhano DaTTo kANAmAM bharAvI TAiTa karI nAkhIe. upara kANAMmAM lAla dorI bharAvI gAMTha mArIe. divALI sudhI A kAma cAlyuM. gharanAM badhAM kAma ka2vA besI jAya. rojanAM so-doDhaso kaeNlenDara taiyAra thAya. kaeNlenDara pate pachI kAgaLanI kothaLIo banAvavAnuM kAma bA meLavI lAve ane emAM paNa ame te karavAmAM lAgI jatAM. rAtanA ujAgarA paNa karatA, paNa ema karatAM Avaka thatI gaI. bAnI icchA evI hatI ke kaSTa paDe topaNa potAnAM saMtAnone bhaNAvavAM. huM meTrikamAM hato tyAre vAMcavA mATe jAgato hato. bA mArI pAse jAgatAM besI 214 caritradarzana

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rahetAM ke jethI mane ALasa na Ave. meTrika pachI ame be bhAIo zrI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayamAM rahevA gayA to bA be-traNa divasa kazuMka khAvAnuM banAvIne lAvatAM ane kahetAM ke dostArone paNa khavaDAvajo. bI.e. pachI ema.e.nA abhyAsa mATe pATaNa jaina maMDaLanI hosTelamAM rahevA gayo to bA roja mAre mATe Tiphina laIne Ave ke jethI mAre ghare javA-AvavAmAM samaya na bagaDe. ema.e.mAM huM pahelo Avyo ane suvarNacaMdraka maLyo tyAre bAne kaheto ke "A caMdraka tamAre lIdhe maLyo che." saMtAnone bhaNAvavAnI bAnI hoMza eTalI badhI ke pAMca saMtAno Dabala grejyueTa thayAM ane te paNa AvA kaparA saMjogomAM. Ama chatAM bA amArAM koI bhAIbahenanI koleja jovA AvyAM nathI. mArI jheviyarsa kaoNlejanuM nAma paNa bAne na AvaDe. kahe ke mAre nAma zIkhIne zuM kAma che ? koI pUche to kahe ke dhobItaLAva para AvelI kaoNlejamAM bhaNe che. 1944nA gALAmAM amArI Arthika sthiti sudharavA lAgI, mAthe koI devuM rahyuM nahi. pitAjInI nokarI uparAMta moTA be bhAIo nokarIe lAgI gayA. ema gharamAM traNa jaNano pagAra AvavA lAgyo. vaLI meTrika pachI ame be bhAIo bhaNavA mATe TyUzana karavA lAgyA ane grejyueTa thayA pachI nokarIe caDyA. ema karatAM pAMca jaNano pagAra AvavA lAgyo eTale revAbAne koI ciMtA rahI nahi. gharamAM sagavaDa mATe keTalAka pheraphAra karAvyA. pachI to Arthika sthiti uttarottara sudharatI gaI. 1948 pachI eka pachI eka bhAInAM lagna thayAM ane teo nAnI rUma choDIne svataMtra rahevA lAgyA. ema karavAnI bA-bApujIe saMmati ApI. bAne have ghaNI ja rAhata lAgI ane saMtAnonI caDatI joIne bahu AnaMda thayo. Ama chatAM khetavADInI cAlInuM ghara e amAruM kendrasthAna rahyuM. bAne tapazcaryAmAM sArI zraddhA hatI. ekAsaNuM, AyaMbila, upavAsa emanAM cAlatAM hoya. AyaMbilanI oLI teo karatAM. paryuSaNanA divasomAM emaNe eka vakhata aThThAI karelI. paryuSaNanA ATha divasamAMthI pahelA cAra ane chellA traNa ema sAta upavAsa ghaNI vAra karyA hatA. eka vakhata bAne upadhAna karavAnI bhAvanA thaI hatI. lAlabAga mAdhavabAga) upAzraye nAma paNa teo noMdhAvI AvyAM hatAM. tyAM be divasa agAu koIka bahena ghare maLavA AvyAM. vAta nIkaLatAM temaNe kahyuM, revAbahena, tamArAthI upadhAna na thAya. tamane kyAM badhI vidhi AvaDe che !' AthI bA nAsIpAsa thayAM ane upadhAnamAM joDAyAM nahi. thoDA divasa pachI derAsaramAM koIka anubhavI bahena maLyAM. bAe upadhAnamAM na joDAvAnuM kAraNa kahyuM. emaNe kahyuM, "badhI vidhi badhAMne na AvaDe, paNa emaNe upadhAna na choDAya. na AvaDe mArAM mAtuzrI sva. revAbA 215

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to sAdhu mahArAja badhI vidhi karAve, tame bhUla karI.' A sAMbhaLI bA bahu nirAza thayAM. upadhAnanI eka vakhata taka cUkyAM, te pachIthI pharIthI kyAreya upadhAna karavAnI anukULatA maLI nahi. paNa dIkarI indirAne upadhAna karAvIne AnaMda anubhavyo. ATha chokarAM ucheranAra bAnI pAse bALakanA manane jItavAnI vAtsalyabharI kaLA hatI. e divasomAM Teliphona koIkane tyAM ja hatA. eTale ame amArAM baMne nAnAM saMtAnone - zailajA tathA amitAbhane laIne aThavADiyAmAM ekabe vAra bAne maLavA jatAM. baMne saMtAnone zikhaMDa bilakula bhAvato nahi. bAne thayuM ke nAnAM chokarAMone zikhaMDa bahu ja bhAve. na bhAve te barAbara na kahevAya. eka vAra ame bAne ghare gayAM to bAe zikhaMDa banAvyo hato. bAe pUchyuM to baMnee zikhaMDanI nA pADI. bAe kahyuM, 'Aje tamArA pappAnI varasagAMTha che ane tame zikhaMDa na khAva te mane gamatuM nathI.' pachI bAe vahAlathI kahyuM, "eka nAnI camacI jeTalo ApuM chuM. jarAka jIbhe aDADI lejo.' pachI bAe baMnene sAva nAnI camacI jeTalo zikhaMDa Apyo. baMnene bhAvyo. eTale bAe eka bIjI camacI bharIne Apyo ane pAse baMne mATe vADakI bharIne mUkI. baMne badho zikhaMDa khAI gayA ane vadhu zikhaMDa mAgyo ane dharAIne khAdho. tyArathI baMne bALakoe 'zikhaMDavALAM bA' evuM bAnuM nAma pADyuM ane emane mATe e kAyamanuM thaI gayuM. pachI jyAre bAne ghare javAnuM hoya tyAre zikhaMDa banAvavAnuM teo acUka kahevaDAvatAM. eka divasa sAMje ame gharamAM beThAM hatAM. bApujI oNphisethI haju AvyA nahotA. te vakhate bA palaMga para beThAM hatAM tyAM acAnaka kaMI asaMbaddha bolavA lAgyAM. avAja moTo thaI gayo. AMkho pahoLI thaI gaI. ame vicAramAM paDI gayAM. thayuM ke bAne mAthe garamI caDI gaI che. zuM karavuM te sUjhatuM nahotuM. DaoNkTarane bolavavAno vicAra karIe chIe tyAM mArA nAnA bhAI pramodabhAIe pANI bharelo ghaDo lAvI bAne mAthe DhoLI dIdho. bAnAM kapaDAM palaLyAM ane pathArI paNa palaLI. AvuM karAya ?" evo ame pramodabhAIne Thapako ApavA lAgyA, tyAM to bA dhIme dhIme svastha thaI gayAM ane amane Thapako ApavA lAgyAM ke ene vaDho nahi. eNe mAre mAthe pANI reDyuM eTale mane TADhaka thaI gaI. have sAruM lAge che. mane mAthe garamI caDhI gaI hatI.' amane thayuM ke saMbhava che ke bAnuM blaDaprezara vadhI gayuM haze; paraMtu e divasomAM tarata blaDaprezara mapAvavAno vicAra Avato nahi. vaLI bAne evuM pachI keTalAMka varSa sudhI thayuM nahotuM, eTale tyAre e ciMtAno viSaya nahoto. amAruM kuTuMba sAdhAraNa sthitinuM hatuM. eTale bA-bApujIne ciMtAno sauthI moTo viSaya te dIkarAonI sagAIno hato. jJAtimAMthI kanyA maLe nahi ane jJAti 216 caritradarzana

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bahAranI maLe paNa te levAya nahi. e divasomAM 18-20 varSanI uMmare lagna thatAM. amArAM sagAMomAM badhAnAM dIkarA-dIkarInAM lagna thaI gayAM, paNa sauthI moTA bhAI 22-23 varSanA thayA, paNa haju sagAInI koI vAta AvatI nahi. AthI bAne vadhAre ciMtA thatI. aDadhI rAte paNa pathArImAM beThAM vicAra karatAM hoya. chevaTe 26 varSanI vaye sauthI moTA bhAInAM lagna thayAM. eka vakhata lAina cAlu thaI eTale pachI cAlavA lAgI. amArA traNa bhAInAM sagAI-lagna thaI gayAM. mArAM lagna vakhate paristhiti UlaTI thaI. meM ema.e. sudhIno abhyAsa karyo ane muMbaInI jheviyarsa kolejamAM adhyApaka tarIke kAma karavA lAgyo. have jJAtimAMthI vAraMvAra kanyAnI vAta AvatI paNa bAne te yogya lAgatI nahi. chevaTe mArAM lagna jJAti bahAra karavAno nirNaya thayo. ema thAya to amane jJAtibahAra mUkavAmAM Ave, paNa have jJAtinAM baMdhano zithila thayAM hatAM. eTale mArAM lagna mATe anya jaina jJAtinAM ane kaoNlejamAM sahAdhyAyinI, muMbaInI sosAyA kolejanAM adhyApikA tArAbahenanI emanA pitA taraphathI darakhAsta AvI tyAre bAe ane kuTuMbanA sarvee e saharSa svIkArI lIdhI. bAno ullAsa eTalo badho hato ke amArAM lagnanA divase teo dAdara UtaratAM paDI gayAM ane vAgyuM topaNa samagra vidhi ane satkArasamAraMbha daramiyAna koIne jaNAvA dIdhuM nahotuM. vaLI tyAre sophAyA kaoNlejanAM prinsipAla madhara vorDane page lAgavA ame gayAM to teo sAthe AvyAM hatAM. A rIte emaNe sophAyA kaoNleja paNa joI. tyAra pachI keTalAMka varSa bAne sAruM rahyuM. teo zatruMjaya, zaMkhezvara, mahuDI, mAtara, jhaghaDiyA, kAvI vagere sthaLe keTalIka vAra jAtrA karI AvyAM. vaLI teo speziyala TrenamAM 45 divasanI zikharajInI yAtrA karI AvyAM, jemAM dilhI, AgrA tathA uttara, bihAra, madhyapradeza ane AMdhra sahita ghaNAM badhAM tIrthono samAveza thayo hato. tyAra pachI bAne 68 varSanI uMmare lakavAno humalo Avyo. tarata haoNspiTalamAM dAkhala karyA ane aThavADiyAmAM sArAM thaIne ghare AvyAM. tyAra pachI ame bAbApujIne vimAnamAM bhAvanagara laI jaI zatruMjayanI jAtrA karAvI AvyAM. vimAnamAM besavAno emano pahelo anubhava hato. ethI emaNe khUba AnaMda anubhavyo. lakavAmAMthI bA sAAM thayAM ane haratAMpharatAM thayAM. keTalIka jAtrAo paNa karI AvyAM. paNa pachI AMkhe motiyo Avyo ane tapAsa karAvatAM DAyAbiTIsa paNa nIkaLyo. eTale motiyAnuM oparezana karavAnI dAktaroe nA pADI. pariNAme bAne AMkhe jhAMkhapa vadhatI gaI. sAva najIka mANasa Ave tyAre oLakhAya. motiyAne mArAM mAtuzrI sva. revAbA 217

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lIdhe pachI to gharanI bahAra javA-AvavAnuM baMdha thayuM. bahena IndirA rasoI uparAMta bAnI badhI cAkarI karatI. cAre bhAI ane eka bahenanAM lagna thatAM khetavADInI cAlInI rUmamAM have bA-bApujI sAthe be bhAI ane eka bahena rahyAM. have gujarAtanI ciMtA nahotI. badhA bhAIone tyAMthI rakama AvatI. have bAno hAtha chUTo rahyo. pitAjI nokarI choDI nivRtta thayA. bIjA be bhAInAM lagna thatAM bA-bApujI ane bahena indirA vAlakezvara moTA gharamAM rahevA AvyAM. cAlInI rUma pachI choDI dIdhI. daramiyAna pramodabhAIe paNa juduM ghara lIdhuM, indirAbahenanAM paNa lagna thayAM ane bharatabhAIe paNa moTuM ghara lIdhuM. jIvananA aMta sudhI bA-bApujI bharatabhAIne tyAM rahyAM. - sitteranI uMmare dAMta gayA pachI bAne AMkhe motiyo pAkavA Avyo tyAre ame kahyuM, "bA, tame oparezana karAvo to barAbara dekhAze." e divasomAM oparezana e moTI vAta hatI. motiyAnA oparezanamAM cAreka divasa hospiTalamAM rahevuM paDatuM. bAe kahyuM, "mAre oparezana karAvavuM nathI. nahi dekhAya to mAre koIne paNa zuM kAma che ? huM mAre zAMtithI rahevA mAguM chuM. pachI to bAne DAyAbiTIsanI takalIpha cAlu thaI eTale DaoNkTare ja oparezananI nA pADI. pariNAme bAne taddana jhAMkhuM dekhAtuM sAva pAse koI Ave to aNasAra Ave. avAjathI ja badhAMne oLakhe. AMkhanA aMdhApA sAthe bAnI zArIrika azakti paNa vadhI gaI. teo Akho divasa palaMgamAM besatAM ke sUtAM. pitAzrI paNa Akho divasa bA pAse besatA ane navakAramaMtra, stavanAdi saMbhaLAvatA. bA amArA sauthI nAnAbhAI bharatabhAIne tyAM rahetAM. emaNe tathA emanAM patnI jyAbahene chellAM varSomAM bAne navaDAvavAmAM, khavaDAvavAmAM, zaucAdi kriyA karAvavAmAM ghaNI sArI sevAcAkarI karI hatI. ema karatAM poSa suda 7, vi. saM. 2021nA divase I. sa. 1975mAM 75 varSanI vaye bAe madharAte hRdayarogano humalo thatAM zAMtithI deha choDyo. eka uttama AtmAe jIvanalIlA saMkelI lIdhI. e vakhate tattvanA jANakAra pitAzrIe sArI svasthatA ane samatA dhAraNa karI hatI ane amane paNa svastha rahevA kahyuM hatuM. bAnuM jIvana eTale samaviSama saMjogothI sabhara dharmamaya samatAmaya jIvana. bAnI kUkhe amane janma maLyo e amArA jIvananI dhanyatA che. emanA puNyAtmAne koTi koTi vaMdana. ('vaMdanIya hRdayasparzamAMthI) 218 caritradarzana

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23 padmavibhUSaNa DaoN. uSAbahena mahetA bhArata sarakAre DaoN. uSAbahena mahetAne padmavibhUSaNano ilakAba svataMtratAnI savarNajayaMtI prasaMge ApIne emanuM yogya gaurava to karyuM ja che, paNa sAthe sAthe sarakAre pote potAne paNa gaurava apAvyuM che. DaoN. uSAbahena mahetAne svataMtratAnI suvarNa jayaMtInA avasare A ilakAba maLyo che te samayocita ane gauravapUrNa gaNAya. uSAbahene AjhAdI pUrve jelajIvana bhogavyuM hatuM ane pachIthI paNa rASTrabhaktinA kAryamAM saMniSThAthI lAgelAM rahyAM che e paNa eTalA ja AnaMda ane gauravanI vAta che. sarakAre pacAsa varSe paNa kadara karI e moTA saMtoSanI vAta che. mArI jema keTalAkane ema avazya lAgyuM haze ke uSAbahenane A IlakAba ghaNo vahelo maLavo joIto hato. sarakAra sArA avasaranI rAha jotI hatI ema kahevA karatAM uSAbahene e mATe kaMI prayatno nathI karyA ema kahevuM ja vadhu yogya che. uSAbahenanuM e sadbhAgya che ke svataMtratAnI suvarNajayaMtI jovA teo vidyamAna rahyAM che. uSAbahenanI saraLa, niHsvArtha, nirdabha, niSThAvAna prakRtino paricaya emAMthI maLI rahe che. AvuM sanmAna maLe toya zuM ane na maLe toya zuM? - evo ja udAra, samatvayukta pratibhAva emano rahyo che. huM evA keTalAka mitrone oLakhuM chuM ke jeoe potAnA jIvanano ghaNo moTo bhoga dezanI AjhAdI mATe Apyo hovA chatAM svAtaMtrya sainikanuM pramANapatra meLavavA mATe paNa teoe arajI karI nathI, to te mATenA bhaththAnI ke relavemAM erakaMDizana klAsamAM mitrane sAthe laIne maphata pravAsa karavAnI ke tevA pravAsa karAvavA dvArA kamANI karavAnI) to vAta ja zI ? "koI paNa prakAranA badalAnI apekSA vinA ame mAtRbhUmi mATe balidAna ApyuM hatuM. eno AnaMda e ja amAre mATe padmavibhUSaNa DaoN. uSAbahena mahetA 219

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ilakAbarUpa che." AvuM evA svAtaMtrya sainiko pAsethI sAMbhaLIe chIe tyAre harSaromAMca anubhavIe chIe ane tyAre ema lAge ke gAMdhIjIno AtmA haju paNa keTalAMkanAM haiyAMmAM vaselo che. DaoN. uSAbahena mahetAnuM nAma to meM 1942nI laData vakhate pahelI vAra sAMbhaLyuM hatuM. koMgresa reDiyo para emano avAja sAMbhaLyo hato. teo pakaDAyAM ane emane sajA thaI e samAcAra tyAre chApAmAM vAMcyA hatA. paraMtu uSAbahenane rUbarU maLavAnuM to 1948mAM emanA ghare thayeluM. emanA vaDIlabaMdhu DaoN. caMdrakAnta mahetA gujarAtI viSayanA adhyApaka. 1948mAM bI.e.nI parIkSAmAM uttIrNa thaI meM gujarAtI viSaya sAthe ema.e.no abhyAsa cAlu karyo tyAre Do. candrakAnta mahetA paNa bIjA adhyApako sAthe amArA varga letA. te vakhate vidyArthIne kaMI mArgadarzana joItuM hoya to teo potAne ghera bolAvatA. operA hAusa pAse lakSmI bilDiMgamAM emanuM saMyukta kuTuMba rahe. e vakhate uSAbahenane maLavAno prasaMga prApta thato. 1970mAM muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM gujarAtI vibhAganI sthApanA thaI. e vibhAganA adhyakSa tarIke yunivarsiTIe mArI nimaNUka karI hatI. e vakhate meM rajisTrAra zrI cidambaramune pUchyuM: mAre kayA rUmamAM besavAnuM che ? to emaNe jaNAvyuM ke "tamAre DaoN. uSAbahena mahetAnA rUmamAM besavAnuM che, kAraNa ke uSAbahenano DipArTamenTa have sAMtAkrujha khAte kAlinA kempasamAM khaseDavAmAM Avyo che. Ama, muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM joDAtAM ja uSAbahenanA rUmamAM besavAnuM maLyuM ethI mane ghaNo AnaMda thayo. ene huM mAruM sadbhAgya mAnuM chuM. pachI to uSAbahenane yunivarsiTInI ghaNI miTiMgomAM maLavAnuM thatuM. sAthe kAma karavAnuM thatuM. uSAbahena sAtheno paricaya yunivarsiTIne nimite vadhu gADha thayo. pachI to aMgata rIte paNa teo amArA kuTuMbanA sarva sabhyo sAthe vaDIla svajana jevAM banI rahyAM. uSAbahena mahetAno janma 1920nA mArcamAM surata jillAmAM sarasa nAmanA gAmamAM thayo hato. emanA pitA hariprasAda mahetA nyAyAdhIza eTale sarakArI karmacArI. emanAthI AjhAdInI laDatamAM bhAga na levAya. paNa kuTuMbanAM badhAM sabhyo laDatanA raMge raMgAyelAM hatAM. sarasa eTale dariyAkinArA taraphanuM gAma. jyAre aMgreja hakUmate mIThA para karavero nAkhyo tyAre gAMdhIjIe dAMDIyAtrA kADhelI ane e kAyadAno bhaMga karelo. uSAbahenanAM dAdImAe dariyAnuM pANI hAMDAmAM lAvI, cUle garama karI emAMthI mIThuM pakAvI, pote sarakArI kALA kAyadAno bhaMga karyo e vAte anahada AnaMda anubhavelo. AvuM vAtAvaraNa A kuTuMbanuM hatuM. 220 ka caritradarzana

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lokajAgRti mATe gAMdhIjIe surata jillAmAM eka gAmamAM eka zibira yojelI. tyAre kizorI uSAbahena gAMdhIjIne maLavA gayelAM. satyAgrahamAM emane bhAga levo hato. paraMtu gAMdhIjI emanI sAthe bolyA nahi, kAraNa ke maunavAra hato. paNa hAthanA izArAthI gAMdhIjIe nA pADI, kAraNa ke uSAbahene khAdI paherelI nahi. pachI bIje divase khAdInAM vastro dhAraNa karIne uSAbahena gayAM tyAre gAMdhIjIe emanI sAthe sarasa vAta karI hatI. satyAgrahamAM joDAvuM hoya to gAMdhIjIe zarata mUkI ke AjIvana brahmacarya pALavuM paDaze; apariNIta rahevuM paDaze. uSAbahene e zarata kabUla karelI. A chokarIo bahu nAnI che - emane evuM AkaruM vrata na apAya, ema gAMdhIjIne kahevAmAM AvyuM tyAre gAMdhIjIe tevuM vrata na ApatAM lagna karavAnI chUTa ApelI, paNa e zarate ke pati khAdI paherato hoya ane lagnamAM koI dAyajo le nahi. paraMtu uSAbahena to pote lIdhelA brahmacaryanA vratamAM ja aDaga rahyAM. teo AjIvana apariNIta rahyAM. gAMdhIjInI bhAvanAne temaNe zobhAvI. gAMdhIjInI dezabhakti ane dharmabhAvanA sAthe teo otaprota banI rahyAM. uSAbahenanI zaikSaNika kArakirdI atyaMta tejasvI hatI. emanA pitA nyAyAdhIza hatA ane emanI badalI thatI, eTale uSAbahene prAthamika ane mAdhyamika zALAnuM zikSaNa kheDA, bharuca, muMbaI vagere sthaLe lIdhuM hatuM. kolejanuM zikSaNa emaNe muMbaInI vilarAna kaoNlejamAM lIdhuM hatuM. temaNe bI.e.mAM tattvajJAnano viSaya lIdho hato ane 1939mAM muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM prathama naMbare pAsa thayAM hatAM. tyAra pachI emaNe kAyadAzAstrano abhyAsa karyo ane 1941mAM teo elaela.bI. thayAM. emanA pitA nyAyAdhIza hatA eTale emanAM saMtAnone kAyadAzAstramAM rasa paDe e svAbhAvika che. uSAbahena bharUcanI zALAmAM abhyAsa karatAM hatAM tyAre koMgresamAM svayaMsevikA tarIke paNa joDAyAM hatAM. choTA saradAra tarIke jANItA bharUcanA zrI caMdulAla desAInI AgevAnI heThaLa prabhAtapherI, jhaMDAvaMdana, saraghasa, satyAgraha vagere je pravRttio cAlatI temAM bAlikA tarIke uSAbahena paNa sakriya bhAga letAM hatAM. emaNe potAnAM saMsmaraNomAM noMdhyuM che ke polIsano lAThImAra thAya topaNa dhvajane nIce paDavA na devAya. jhaMDA UMcA rahe hamArA" athavA "calAva lAThI, calAva IMDA, jhUka na sakerA hamArA jhaMDA jevA pokAro karatAM karatAM teo dareka potAnA jhaMDA sAthe AgaLa vadhatAM. eka vakhata eka chokarI behoza banIne paDI gaI ane hAthamAMno jhaMDo nIce paDI gayo. emAM to jhaMDAnuM apamAna ane polIsano vijaya thayo kahevAya. ema na thavA devuM hoya to have zuM karavuM? padmavibhUSaNa DaoN. uSAbahena mahetA kA 221

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uSAbahene caMdubhAIne upAya sUcavyo ke hAthamAM jhaMDA rAkhavAne badale amAro gaNaveza ja jhaMDAnA raMgano karI nAkho. tarata khAdInA tAkA levAyA. sapheda, kesarI ane lIlA raMganI khAdImAMthI vastro evI rIte banAvAyAM ke te jhaMDA jevAM lAge. have lAThImAra thAya topaNa polIsa jhUMTavI nahi zake ke pheMkI nahi de. e samayanA laData mATenA utsAhanI bharatI kizora-kizorIomAM paNa keTalI badhI hatI te A prasaMga batAve che. laData mATe caMdulAla desAIe chokarAonI vAnarasenA taiyAra karI to uSAbahenanI bhalAmaNathI chokarIonI mAMjArasenA' paNa taiyAra karI. chokarA polIsane hUpa hUpa kare to chokarIo myAMu myAMu kare. ekasAthe aneka chokarAMchokarI laData laDavAnA bhAvathI AvA pokAro karatAM haze tyAre e dRzya hAsyajanaka nahi paNa zUratApreraka banI jatuM haze ! bI. e. thayA pachI uSAbahene ema. e.no abhyAsa muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM rAjyazAstra-Political scienceno viSaya laIne cAlu karyo hato, paraMtu te daramiyAna svataMtratAnI caLavaLa jora pakaDatI jatI hatI eTale emaNe abhyAsa choDI laDatamAM sakriya bhAga levAnuM cAlu karyuM. 1942nI 'hiMda choDo'nI laDatamAM uSAbahenanuM mahattvanuM kArya te gupta rIte 'kaoNMgresa reDiyo"nI pravRtti calAvavAnuM hatuM. 1942nI caLavaLamAM gAMdhIjI, saradAra, naheru, maulAnA vagerene jelamAM pUravAmAM AvyA te vakhate bIjI-trIjI haroLanA ghaNA netAo bhUgarbhamAM cAlyA gayA. e badhAMnI pravRttinA ahevAla ekabIjAne pahoMcADavA mATe gupta patrikAo roja nIkaLatI ane ghare ghare pahoMcatI karavAmAM AvatI. enI sAthe A vAyaralesa TrAnsamizananI pravRtti paNa cAlu thaI. eka bhAIe vAya2lesa seTa banAvI Apyo. A kAryamAM DaoN. rAmamanohara lohiyA, acyuta paTavardhana vagere paNa joDAyA. roja sAMje nizcita samaye reDiyo vAgato : This is Congress Radio, speaking somewhere in India from 42.34 meter.' amArI kizorAvasthAmAM ame patrikAo vaheMcavA jatA ane rAtanA reDiyo paNa sAMbhaLatA. yaravaDAnI jelamAM bApu sAthe rahelA mahAdevabhAI desAI jyAre avasAna pAmyA, tyAre briTiza sarakAre e samAcAra dabAvI dIdhA. chApAmAM e vize kazuM AvyuM nahi paNa kaoNMgresa reDiyoe e samAcAra meLavIne prasArita karyA tyAre chApAMvALAone khabara paDI hatI. pachI e samAcAra chApAMomAM chapAyA hatA. 222 caritradarzana

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reDiyonI A pravRttimAM bAbubhAI, viThThalabhAI, caMdrakAntabhAI, moTavAnI vagere joDAyA hatA. dara dasa-paMdara divase teo jagyA badalatA ke jethI polIsa pakaDI na zake. chevaTe pArekhavADImAMthI emane pakaDavAmAM AvyAM hatAM. emAM uSAbahenane cAra varSanI ane emanA moTA bhAI caMdrakAntabhAIne eka varSanI sajA thaI hatI. emane pUnAnI yaravaDA jelamAM rAkhavAmAM AvyAM. A badhA anubhavo romaharSaNa hatA. bhAratamAtA mATe ullAsapUrvaka bhoga ApavAnI tamannA gAMdhIjIe dezanA karoDo lokomAM gAvI hatI. uSAbahene potAnA jelanA anubhavo paNa noMdhyA che. pote pAMjarAmAM saMtAIne jelanA adhikArIone kedIonI gaNatarImAM kevI thApa khavaDAvI hatI enuM paNa rasika bayAna emAM vAMcavA maLe che. uSAbahena cAra varSa jelamAM gALIne chUTyAM ane ghare AvyAM tyAre emane joIne emanAM bA raDI paDyAM hatAM. cAra varSa jelamAM kAMkarIvALA roTalA khAIne uSAbahenanI tabiyata khalAsa thaI gaI. emanuM zarIra gaLI gayuM hatuM. emanI pAcanazakti bagaDI gaI hatI. "AvuM pAtaLuM nAjuka zarIra e to briTiza sarakAranI bheTa che' ema teo haLavI rIte kahe che. emanuM zarIra pharI kyAreya vaLyuM nahi. kRzakAya uSAbahenanuM naitika baLa eTaluM moTuM che ke AvI kAyA chatAM temaNe sevAnuM satata kArya niSThApUrvaka karyA karyuM. 1946mAM uSAbahena jelamAMthI chUTyAM. dezane AjhAdI maLI te pachI emaNe potAnuM lakSa adhyayana-adhyApana tarapha rAkhyuM. teo ema. e. thayAM ane muMbaImAM vilasana kaoNlejamAM tattvajJAna ane tarkazAstranAM adhyApikA tarIke kAma zarU karyuM. 1947thI 1949 sudhI e kArya karyA pachI eka varSa mATe teo rAjakoTanI dharmendrasiMhajI kaoNlejamAM adhyApikA tarIke kAma karI AvyAM. muMbaI pAchAM AvIne emaNe "mahAtmA gAMdhIjInI sAmAjika ane rAjakIya vicArasaraNI' e viSaya para pIeca.DI.nI DigrI mATe mahAnibaMdha lakhyo. tyAra pachI teo muMbaI yunivarsiTInA rAjyazAstranA vibhAgamAM adhyApikA tarIke joDAyAM. ahIM emanA vibhAganAM DaoN. Alubahena dastura sAthe gADha paricaya thayo. pachI to Alabahena ane uSAbahena baMne ghaNI yunivarsiTIonI ane yunivarsiTI grAnTrasa kamizananI samitiomAM sAthe ja hoya. yunivarsiTInA kSetre traNa dAyakA jeTaluM emanuM adhyApanakArya bahu saMgIna rahyuM che. muMbaI yunivarsiTI uparAMta anya yunivarsiTIomAM paNa teo pIeca.DI.nAM mArgadarzaka tarIke kArya karatAM rahyAM hatAM. muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM adhyApikA tarIke joDAyA pachI amerikAmAM abhyAsa padmavibhUSaNa DaoN. uSAbahena mahetA kA 223

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karavA mATe 1953-54nI phula brAITa ziSyavRtti mATe temanI pasaMdagI thaI hatI. temaNe e varSomAM amerikAnI kornela yunivarsiTImAM rAjyazAstrano abhyAsa karyo hato. gAMdhIjInI bhAvanAne custapaNe anusaranAra alpasaMkhya vidyamAna vyaktiomAM uSAbahena eka mukhya gaNAya. temanI gAMdhIsmAraka nidhinA pramukhapade varaNI thaI e sarvathA yogya ja thayuM. teo niyamita maNibhuvanamAM jaI potAnI sevA ApatAM rahyAM. emane potAne managamatuM kArya maLI gayuM. eka mizanarInI jema teo A kArya karatAM rahyAM. uSAbahenanA gharamAM zuddha gujarAtI bhASAnuM vAtAvaraNa. emanA vaDIla baMdhu DaoN. caMdrakAntabhAI gujarAtI viSayanA adhyApaka. eTale zuddha saMskArI gujarAtImAM bolavuM, lakhavuM emanA kuTuMba mATe sahaja. uSAbahena rASTrabhASA pracAra samitinA kAryamAM joDAyelAM. hiMdImAM kovidanI parIkSA prathama naMbare pasAra karelI. eTale hiMdI upara paNa emanuM eTaluM ja prabhutva. hiMdI sAhityanA vAcanano emane zokha paNa kharo. vaLI vilasana kaoNleja ane yunivarsiTImAM adhyApikA tarIke aMgrejImAM vargo levAnA eTale iMgliza bhASA para emanuM eTaluM ja prabhutva. Ama lekhanakArya karavA mATe tathA vyAkhyAna ApavA mATenuM traNa bhASA upara prabhutva bahu ochI vyaktiomAM jovA maLe. uSAbahena jarA paNa AyAsa vinA, sahaja rIte A traNe bhASAmAM bolatAM-lakhatAM rahyAM che e emanA bhASA-sAmarthyanI pratIti karAve che. paheraveza, khAnapAna, raheNIkaraNImAM sAdAI ane svabhAvamAM saraLatA, laghutA ane nikhAlasatA e uSAbahenanAM vyaktitvanAM lakSaNo thoDA paricaye paNa mANasane jaNAyA vagara rahe nahi. teo haMmezAM khAdInI sapheda sADI ja paheratAM rahyAM che. uSAbahenane basamAM jatAM, TaeNksImAM jatAM, kyAMka page cAlIne pahoMcI jatAM koI saMkoca nahi. koI kAryakrama mATe nimaMtraNa maLyuM hoya to potAne teDI javA mATeno Agraha nahi. potAnI meLe paNa pahoMcI jAya. sabhAmAM maMca para sthAna meLavavA ke AgalI haroLamAM besavA mATe Agraha nahi, tevI vRtti paNa nahi. pAchaLa besavAmAM koI kSobha nahi. badhuM saraLa ane sahaja. e mATe mAThuM lAge nahi, to pachI koI vyavasthApakane Thapako ApavAno ke kaTAkSa karavAno prazna ja kyAMthI hoya ? A badhA guNo gAMdhIjInI vicArasaraNIthI raMgAyelI vyaktinA jIvanamAM svAbhAvika rIte vikaselA hoya ja. zAstrIya saMgIta uSAbahenanI eka zokhanI pravRtti rahI che. teo rAgarAgiNInAM jANakAra che ane have joke mahAvaro ghaNo ocho thaI gayo che topaNa 224 2 caritradarzana

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sitAravAdana e emanI eka priya pravRtti rahI che. uSAbahene ThIka ThIka lekhanakArya paNa karyuM che. emaNe potAnA adhyayanaadhyApananA viSayone lakSamAM rAkhI lokazAhI zA mATe ?', pakSo zA mATe ?", bhAratanA rAjakIya pakSo', "rASTrapatinI kAmagIrI vagere vize paricaya-pustikAo lakhI che. A uparAMta emaNe "gavarmenTa enDa dha gavanDa', "koMgresa rUla Ina bombe', kauTilya ane tenuM arthazAstra', 'amara zahIdo', 'gAMdhIjI', "vizvanI mahAna vibhUtio' jevAM pustako paNa lakhyAM che je aitihAsika dRSTie khUba mahattvanAM uSAbahenanI anekavidha saMniSTha, sabhara sevAbhAvI pravRttio ane emanuM samagra jIvanakArya anekane mATe preraNArUpa banI rahe evuM che. AvI vyaktiothI samAja ujvaLa rahe che ane ApaNe dhanyatA anubhavI zakIe chIe. ('vaMdanIya hRdayasparzamAMthI) padmavibhUSaNa DaoN. uSAbahena mahetA 225

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S4 vijaya maracanTa zrI vijaya maracanTanuM maMgaLavAra, tA. 27mI okTobara 1987nA roja avasAna thatAM krikeTanA kSetranI ane samAjasevAnA kSetranI eka tejasvI vyaktinI ApaNane khoTa paDI che. emanI ciravidAyathI mane samAjasevAnA kSetre eka murabbImArgadarzakanI khoTa paDI che. zALA ane kaoNlejanA abhyAsakALa daramiyAna krikeTa mArI priya ramatomAMnI eka hatI eTale muMbaImAM ramAtI krikeTameca jovA ame mitro jatA tyAre vijaya maracanTa amArA priya khelADI hatA. gujarAtI, marAThI, madrAsI ke hiMdu, musalamAna, pArasI jevA prAdezika, bhASAkIya ke komI bhedo tyAre na hatA joke briTiza rAjya daramiyAna hiMdu, musalamAna, pArasI ema komavAra TesTameca dara varSe ramAtI) topaNa vijaya maracanTa gujarAtI khelADI che enuM amane gaurava thatuM. vijayabhAInA nikaTanA saMparkamAM AvavAnuM mAre samAjasevAnA nimitte banyuM. krikeTanA kSetre nivRtta thayA pachI vijayabhAIe muMbaImAM mAnavatAnuM, samAjasevAnuM kArya vegathI upADyuM. aneka duHkhI lokonA saMparkamAM teo AvyA ane temanA jIvanamAM sukhazAMti kevI rIte ANI zakAya e mATenI vividha yojanAo teo ghaDavA lAgyA. emano anubhava paNa divase divase samRddha banavA lAgyo. emanI pAse sAMbhaLatAM khUTe nahi eTalA jAtaanubhavanA kissAo garIba lokonA duHkhanA hatA. amArA jaina yuvaka saMghanA upakrame cAlatI paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM vyAkhyAna ApavA mATe vinaMtI karavA huM vijayabhAInI ophisamAM keTalAMka varSa pahelAM gayo hato. eka garbhazrImaMta, sukhI, tejasvI mANasa, vaLI krikeTanA kSetranI nAmAMkita vyakti garIba lokonA duHkhamAM sAcA dilathI rasa laI kaMIka karI chUTavA icche 226 9 caritradarzana

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che e jANIne AnaMda thayo hato. keTalAya zrImaMtono ane ramatagamatanA kSetranI nAmAMkita vyaktiono nivRttikALa klaba ane pArTIomAM vItato hoya che. jeNe jAte garIbI veThI na hoya tevI vyaktine garIbonI yAtanAono vAstavika khyAla ocho Ave che. kyAreka to vicAra sudhdhAM paNa Avato nathI. vijayabhAI pAse emanAM sevAkAryanI thoDIka jhalaka sAMbhaLIne emanA pratye bahu Adara thayo. teo potAnI ophisamAM potAnuM kAma karatA jAya ane amArI sAthe vAtano dora paNa cAlu rAkhe. Tebala para AvatA-jatA kAgaLo ane phAIlo upara najara pheravatA jAya ane potAnA anubhavo varNavatA jAya. vAMcavA mATe betALAM camAM joIe ane vAtacIta karavA mATe cazamAMnI jarUra rahe nahi. eTale kAM to ghaDIe ghaDIe cazamAM utAravAM paDe athavA bAyaphokala cazamAM paheravAM paDe. vijayabhAI evA cazamAM paheratA ke jemAM nIcenA ardhA bhAgamAM vAMcavA mATeno kAca hoya ane uparano ardho bhAga khAlI hoya eTale teo jyAre Tebala para besIne kAma karatA amArI sAthe vAta karatA hoya tyAre cazamAMnI phremamAMthI uparanA aDadhA khAlI bhAgamAMthI narI AMkhe nihALatA. emanI e lAkSaNika mudrA cirAMkita banI gaI hatI. vijayabhAI nezanala esosiezana phora blAInDa nAmanI saMsthAmAM pramukha hatA. emanI bhalAmaNathI amArA saMghanA upakrame aMdha ane apaMga lokone Arthika rIte pagabhara banavA mATe sTola, Teliphona bUtha, sIvavAnA saMcA vagere ApavAnI yojanA hAtha dharavAmAM AvI hatI. e yojanA mATe paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAmAM vijayabhAInA preraka uddabodhana pachI amane dAtAo taraphathI amArI apekSA karatAM ghaNobadho sAro sahakAra maLyo hato. tyAra pachI e yojanAnusAra jyAre paNa aMdha ke apaMga vyaktine sTola ke Teliphona bUtha karAvI ApavAno prasaMga Ave tyAre vijayabhAI te mATe khAsa kAryakrama goThavatA ane dAtAone hAthe tenuM udghATana karAvatA. evA ghaNAbadhA kAryakramomAM saMghanA hoddedAro ane anya sabhyo vijayabhAIne maLatA. AvA kAryakramo vakhate vijayabhAIno AnaMda samAto nahoto. emanA vyaktitva ane vaktavyamAMthI e spaSTa jaNAI AvatuM. eka mizanarInI Dhabe emaNe A kAma upADyuM hatuM. garIbo mATenI yojanAo vize vicAraNA karavA mATe vijayabhAIne maLavA mATe muMbaImAM carcageTa khAte sI.sI.AI. klabamAM miTiMga goThavAtI. vijayabhAIe 'nAsioha' nAmanI saMsthAnI sthApanAmAM sakriya kArya karyuM. cembaramAM AvelI e saMsthAnI mulAkAta levA mATe vijayabhAIe amArA saMghane nimaMtraNa ApyuM hatuM. apaMgone tAlIma ApI svAzrayI ane pagabhara karavA mATenI A eka pratiSThita vijaya maracanTa 227

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saMsthAne rAjya ane kendra sarakAra taraphathI tathA videzI saMsthAo taraphathI ghaNo sAro Arthika sahakAra sAMpaDyo hato. saMghanA upakrame apaMgone Arthika sahAya ApavAnI yojanA karavAmAM AvI hatI ane e nimitte paNa vijayabhAIne maLavAnuM ghaNI vAra banyuM hatuM. dukhI lokonuM duHkha haLavuM karavA mATe teo keTalo jabaro puruSArtha karI rahyA che te joI harSa thato hato. vijayabhAInI samAjasevAnuM kSetra aMdha ane apaMgone pagabhara karavA mAtramAM sImita rahyuM nahotuM. evI vyaktionI yogyatAno vicAra karIne kyAreka teo evAM be pAtronAM lagna paNa goThavI ApatA. koI strIne dhaNIno trAsa hoya ke koI dukhI strI-puruSane ghara ke jamInano prazna hoya, koIne chUTAcheDA levA hoya to tevA garIba mANasone paragaju vijayabhAI vakIlanI maphata sevA meLavI ApI korTanA kAmakAjamAM paNa sahAya karatA. ATaluM badhuM kAma karanArI vyaktine mAthe patra dvArA ke Teliphona dvArA ke rUbarU mulAkAta dvArA samaya phALavavAno Ave to tene kyAreka thAka paNa lAge, paraMtu vijayabhAI dukhI vyakti potAnI ekanI eka vAta vAraMvAra kahe topaNa kaMTALatA nahi. balake samabhAva ane sahAnubhUtithI pUro samaya ApI vAta sAMbhaLatA ane yogya mArgadarzana ke salAha-sUcana ApatA. ATaluM badhuM kAma karatA hovA chatAM emanAM vANI ane vartanamAM, emanA khAnadAna bhATiyA kuTuMbanI svAbhAvika vinamratA Dagale ne pagale dekhAtI. krikeTanA khelADI tarIke vijayabhAInI pratibhA ane pratiSThA anokhI hatI. krikeTamAM paNa teo kheladila ane siddhAMtavAdI hatA. eka bAju khelADI tarIke potAnI pratiSThAnuM hita hoya ane bIjI bAju AkhI TImanuM hita hoya to teo TImanA hitane khAtara potAnI aMgata siddhine jatI karatA. TImane khAtara sadI-seMcarI karavAnI taka maLI hoya to te paNa teo jatI karatA. krikeTanI TesTamecomAM opaniMga baeNTUTsamena tarIke vijayabhAInI khyAti ghaNI moTI hatI. teo daDha vizvAsapUrvaka ghaNA rana karI zakatA. krikeTanA itihAsamAM rananI sarerAzanI dRSTie beDamena pachI vijayabhAInuM nAma gaNAya che. legakaTanA prakAranA phaTakA mAravAnI emanI zailI AMtararASTrIya khyAti pAmelI hatI. kaoNmenTeTara tAtyArakhAna ene vijulA-kaTa' tarIke oLakhAvatA. kuneha tathA tAkAtathI jarA paNa saMkSobha pAmyA vagara pUrI svasthatAthI ramavAnI emanI paddhatie krikeTanA kSetramAM emane ghaNI moTI siddhi apAvI hatI. pratiSThAnI Toce hatA tyAre ja vijayabhAI krikeTamAMthI nivRtta thaI gayA. teo kahetA ke sArA khelADIe pratiSThAnI Toce pahoMcatAM ja nivRtta thaI javuM joIe. koI paNa sthAnane jhAjho vakhata vaLagI rahIne jhAMkhuM pADavuM te yogya nathI. emanI e sUjha 228 caritradarzana

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ane samaja Adarane pAtra gaNAI hatI. vijyabhAInI mukhya kArakirdI to krikeTanA khelADI tarIkenI hatI, paraMtu samAjasevAnA kSetre jhaMpalAvyA pachI teo kahetA ke krikeTa e jo mArA jIvananI pahelI iniMga che, to samAjasevA e bIjI iniMga che. uparavALo chello baoNla nAkhaze eTale ApaNe AuTa thaI jaIzuM.' samAjasevAnuM kArya karavAnI sAthe sAthe vijyabhAIno krikeTano rasa sAdyaMta jaLavAI rahyo hato. ghaNAM varSo sudhI emaNe reDiyo u52thI TesTamaeNcanI raniMga kaoNmenTarI ApI hatI. spaSTa bulaMda avAje pUrI samaja sAthe apAtI emanI kaoNmenTarI sAMbhaLavI e paNa eka lahAvo hato. reDiyo upara cahero dekhAvAno prazna na hoya, mAtra avAja ja saMbhaLAya. e avAja ane zailIthI tarata ja khabara paDe ke A kaoNmenTarI vijayabhAInI che. TI.vI. upa2 maeNcanuM prasAraNa zarU thayA pachI videzamAM ramAtI maeNca jovA mATe aDadhI rAte jAgIne teo potAnA ghare TI.vI. cAlu karatA. duniyAbharanI krikeTanI pravRttithI teo jIvananA aMtima samaya sudhI pUrepUrA ane satata mAhitagAra rahyA hatA ane te mATenI vividha samitiomAM sakriya sabhya tarIke temaNe potAnI sevA ApI hatI. chellAM keTalAMka varSomAM uMmara ane kAmanA bojAne kAraNe vijayabhAInI tabiyata u52 asara pahoMcI hatI. hradayaroganA gaMbhIra humalAno bhoga teo traNa vAra banyA hatA. paraMtu ethI emanI sevAnI laganI ochI thaI na hatI. eka vA2 vAta nIkaLI tyAre temaNe kaheluM ke, mArA zarIrano bahu bharoso nathI; paraMtu keTalAMka varSothI meM muMbaInI bahAra javAnuM baMdha karI dIdhuM che. muMbaImAM bhale game tyAM houM, hRdayaroganI kaMI paNa takalIpha thAya to thoDI vAramAM ja dAktarI sAravAra maLI zake ke jethI karIne roga ugra na banI jAya. khAvApIvAmAM ane savAre cAlavAmAM eTalo ja niyamita rahuM chuM. traNa traNa humalA pachI paNa huM ATaluM kAma karI zakuM chuM tenuM kAraNa mArI cIvaTa che.' teo kahetA ke khAvApIvAmAM paNa teo bahu niyamita thaI gayA che. keTalAka samayathI dAktaranI salAha anusAra pANI pIvAnuM paNa temaNe baMdha karI dIdhuM hatuM. zarIrane jarUrI eTaluM pANI phaLa ane dahIMmAMthI teo meLavI letA. gharethI bahAra jatI vakhate TiphinamAM papaiyuM ane dahIM sAthe ja rAkhelAM hoya. jyAre jarUra paDe tyAre laI letA. sva. vijayabhAInAM aneka saMsmaraNo najara sAme taravare che. teo potAnA jIvanane samRddha ane sArthaka banAvIne gayA. (vaMdanIya hRdayasparza'mAMthI) vijya maracanTa 229

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25 brigeDiyara dArUvAlA oNphisaro mATeno riphrezara korsa karavA cha aThavADiyA mATe mAre daherAdUna javAnuM hatuM. samagra bhAratamAMthI lagabhaga savAso jeTalA ena.sI.sI.nA oNphisaro AvyA hatA. ophisaro judAM judAM rAjyonAM yuniTomAMthI AvatA hovAthI amArA riphrezara kempamAM vAtAvaraNa pacaraMgI lAgatuM hatuM. A korsa mATe bhAratanI badhI ja bhASAo bolanArA oNphisara ekatra thayA hatA. hindI ane aMgrejI bhASA mukhya mAdhyama tarIke hatI. badhA ophisaro kaoNlejanI kakSAe bhaNAvatA adhyApako hatA. eTale amArI vacce anubhavonI sArI Apa-le thatI hatI. "amArA yuniTamAM to Ama thAya che; tamArA yuniTamAM zuM thAya che?" evI vAtacIta sAmAnya hatI. emAM paNa pagAro ane pravAsabhaththAMnI rakamanI sarakhAmaNInI vAto vizeSa thatI. amuka lAbha potAnI kaoNlejamAM ke potAnA ena.sI.sI. yuniTamAM na maLato hoya to aphasosa vyakta thato. e meLavavA mATenA upAyo vicArAtA, sUcavAtA, tarakIbo batAvAtI. ena.sI.sI.nA sToramAM kaI kaI navI cIjavastuo AvI che ke je badalI levAya athavA miliTarI kenTInamAMthI lakaranA mANasone maLatI Teksarahita vastuonI kevI rIte kharIdI karI zakAya enA rastA paNa batAvAtA. jyAM khAnapAnanI judI judI paddhativALuM moTuM jUthe AkhA dezamAMthI bheguM thAya tyAM khAvAnI bAbatamAM thoDIghaNI phariyAda haMmezAM rahyA kare. amAro korsa uttara bhAratamAM hato eTale paMjAbI ane uttara bhAratIya prakAranI rasoI thatI. te pratye dakSiNa bhAratanA ophisarone asaMtoSa vadhu rahyA karato. alabatta, pareDa-grAunDa upara amArI lazkarI tAlIma to saMtoSakAraka rIte cAlatI hatI ema kahI zakAya. lakaramAM ekanA eka prakAranI jUnI ghareDanI tAlIma varSo sudhI cAlI na 230 ra caritradarzana

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zake; calAvI paNa na levI joIe. navAM zastro, navAM sAdhano vagerene lIdhe keTalAka pheraphAro to karavA khAtara paNa karavAmAM AvyA hoya, jethI lazkarI zikSakomAM ane sainikomAM jAgRti rahyA kare. teo navI tAlImamAM utsAhathI rasa le. ethI tAlIma paNa tAjagIbharI rahyA kare. pAMceka varSe ame riphrezara korsa karavA jaIe to insTrakTaro keTalIka bAbatamAM to avazya kahe, "nahi sAhaba, aba e badalI ho gayA hai.' eTalA mATe lakaramAM be-pAMca varSe badhI ja kakSAnA sainikoe riphrezara korsa karatAM rahevuM paDe ane navI tAlImathI sajja rahevuM joIe. daherAdUnamAM amAro kaDaka, zistabaddha riphrezara korsa samayapatraka pramANe barAbara AgaLa cAlavA lAgyo hato. korsa ghaNo kaThina ane thakavanAro hato. eTale somavAranI pareDathI ja ravivAranI rajAnI ame rAha jotA rahetA. ravivAre ame keTalAka ophisaro daherAdUnanI AsapAsa masUrI, haradvAra, gucchapAnI vagere sthaLe mukta vAtAvaraNamAM pharI AvatA ane tAlImano thAka utAratA. daherAdUnamAM miliTarI ekeDemI (nezanala Diphensa ekeDemI) che. tyAM dezanA cunaMdA navayuvAnone lazkarI oNphisara tarIke tAlIma apAya che. zistanuM, AjJAMkitatAnuM, zArIrika sudaDhatAnuM, vyaktitvanI tejasvitAnuM, zakti ane skUrtinuM ucca dhoraNa ApaNane tyAM jovA maLe. je divase teonI pAsiMga AuTa pareDa hatI te divase amAre mATe tyAM khAsa mulAkAta goThavavAmAM AvI hatI. AvI pAsiMga AuTa pareDa amane jovA maLI e paNa eka sarasa anubhava hato. vaLI, daherAdUnamAM te vakhate regyulara ArmI yuniTomAM sevantha DogarA rejimenTa hatI. enA kamAnDiMga ophisara karnala premacaMda hatA. eka divasa e rejimenTanI mulAkAta amArA mATe goThavAI hatI. e mulAkAta vakhate amArA riphrezara korsanA kamAnDiMga ophisara karnala anaMtasiMghane karnala premacaMde vAta karI hatI ke thoDA divasa pachI e rejimenTanuM Inspekzana che. brigeDanA kamAnDiMga ophisara brigeDiyara dArUvAlA inspekzana mATe AvavAnA che. rejimenTala inspekzana kevuM hoya che teno jAtaanubhava levA mATe amArAmAMthI pAMca ena.sI.sI. ophisarone eka aThavADiyA mATe mokalavA amArA kamAnDiMga ophisare sUcana karyuM. te karnala premacaMde saharSa svIkAryuM hatuM. alabatta, tyAM kAma sakhata karavuM paDe, paNa anubhava paNa eTalo ja sarasa maLe evo hato. evo anubhava levA huM utsuka hato. sadbhAgye emAM mAro naMbara paNa lAgI gayo. ame pAMca ena.sI.sI. ophisaro judA judA rAjyanA hatA. amArAmAM sauthI siniyara hatA brigeDiyara dharUvAlA - 231

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kaeNpTana saksenA. teo udayapuranI kaoNlejamAM adhyApaka hatA. bIjA hatA patiyAlAnA kaeNpTana kapUra; trIjA kalakattAnA kaeNpTana ceTarajI; cothA dhAravADanA lephTenanTa pATila ane muMbaIthI huM hato. pAMcamo huM sauthI juniyara oNphisara hato. amArAmAM huM ane kaeNpTana saksenA zuddha zAkAhArI ane zarAba-sigAreTa na pInAra hatA. DogarA rejimenTa sAthe amArA eka aThavADiyAnA eTecamenTa' daramiyAna regyulara ArmInA jIvanano amane sarasa anubhava maLyo. amAre rahevAnuM tathA jamavAnuM oNphisarsa maeNsamAM hatuM. oNphisarsa maeNsanI eka judI ja duniyA hoya che. vAte vAte maeNsa eTikeTa' sAcavavAmAM amAre bahu dhyAna rAkhavuM paDatuM. bhUla thAya to tarata Thapako maLe. kazuM calAvI na levAya. zarTanuM ekAda baTana baMdha karavAnuM rahI gayuM hoya, bUTanI dorI DhIlI bAMdhI hoya, kamarano paTTo vAMko vaLI gayo hoya, maeNsamAM dAkhala thatAM siniyara oNphisa2ne wish karavAnuM cUkI javAyuM hoya, besatI vakhate khurazI khaseDavAno avAja thayo hoya, charIkAMTA khoTA hAthamAM pakaDyA hoya, khAtAMpItAM moDhAno avAja thayo hoya to tarata TokavAmAM Ave, jarUra paDe to zikSA paNa thAya. khAtI vakhate koI bhAvatI peya vAnagInA sabaDakA to Dinara Tebala para levAya ja nahi. divasa daramiyAna amAre savAre pareDa upa2 javAnuM rahetuM. tyAra pachI rejimenTala senTa2mAM jyAM jyAM pharaja bajAvavAnI kahevAmAM Ave tyAM tyAM javuM paDatuM. sAMjanAM cArathI sADA pAMca sudhI phUTabaoNla, hokI, vaoNlibaoNla vageremAMthI je koI ramata samayapatraka pramANe rejimenTamAM cAlatI hoya temAM pharajiyAta bhAga levAno raheto. koI divasa korTa mArzala hoya ane aparAdhI sainikane zikSA karavAmAM AvatI hoya to tenI rItarasama jovAnI rahetI. amArA A DogarA rejimenTanA inspekzana mATe dilhIthI brigeDiyara dArUvAlA TrenamAM AvavAnA hatA. eTale inspekzananI taDAmAra taiyArIo cAlatI hatI. svacchatA ane suzobhana mATe sainiko cUno ane geruno Dabbo laIne pharatA ja hoya. jyAM jarA paNa DAgho lAge tyAM pIMchI pheravatA ja hoya. niyata divase ane samaye brigeDiyara rejimenTamAM AvI pahoMcyA. emanA AgamananA samAcAra tarata AkhA senTaramAM prasarI gayA rejimenTanA badhA oNphiso ane sainiko sajAga to hatA ja, have vadhu sajAga banI gayA. kvArTara gArDanI salAmI laI brigeDiyara amArI kaoNnpharansa rUmamAM AvI pahoMcyA. emaNe praveza karyo ke tarata ja lazkarI rItabhAta pramANe badhA oNphisaro UbhA thaI eTenzana pojhizana'mAM AvIne 'guDa morniMga, sa2' bolyA. lazkaramAM 232 caritradarzana *

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buddhizALI, tejasvI, cabarAka, dakSa, dekhAve prabhAvazALI, bolavAnI chaTAvALI vyakti hoya te ja uparanA hoddA upara pahoMcI zake. brigeDiyara AvatAM ja kharekhara koI prabhAvazALI vyakti AvI che tevI tarata pratIti thaI. brigeDiyara pArasI hatA. teo gorA, UMcA ane kadAvara hatA. temano yuniphaoNrma, temanI TopI (kepa) paNa judI lAla paTTIvALI ane bIjA upara chApa pADe evI hatI. temanA caMdrakonI paTTIo uparathI jaNAtuM hatuM ke temaNe ghaNI judI judI kAmagIrI bajAvI hatI. brigeDiyara kharekhara tejasvI lAgatA hatA. amArA DogarA rejimenTanA kamAnDiMga ophisara karnala premacaMda ane bIjA mejaro tathA kepTano atyAra sudhI je amane caDiyAtA ophisara jevA lAgatA hatA te ophisaro paNa brigeDiyara pAse have jhAMkhA lAgavA mAMDyA hatA. atyAra sudhI je ophisaro mijAjathI hukamo calAvatA hatA te paNa brigeDiyara pAse vasa, sara ! yasa sara !" kahIne AjJAMkitapaNe vinayathI vAto karavA lAgyA hatA. lazakarI zistanuM A rahasya che. brigeDiyaranuM nAma ke emanI bhASA vize koIne kazuM kahevAmAM na Ave to jonAra jarUra mAnI le ke teo koI briTiza ophisara che. goro varNa, mAMjarI AMkho. saheja bhUkharA vALa, bharAvadAra mUcho. laMbagoLa cahero vagerene kAraNe temanA vyaktitvanI eka viziSTa chApa paDatI hatI. vaLI jANavA maLyuM hatuM ke temaNe te samayanA senTaharTa, vilasana, DeviDa vagere jANItA briTiza lazkarI ophisaronA hAtha nIce tAlIma lIdhI hatI. bIjA vizvayuddhamAM iTalIne morace teo thoDo vakhata pharaja bajAvI AvyA hatA. karnala premacaMde DogarA rejimenTanA potAnA ophisarono brigeDiyarane paricaya karAvyo. tyAra pachI amAro ena.sI.sI. ophisarono paricaya karAvavAmAM Avyo. lazkaranI paricayavidhimAM sAmAnya rIte to dareka vyaktie pote ja potAnA nAmollekha sAthe TUMko paricaya ApavAno hoya. brigeDiyara dArUvAlAne mAro paricaya ApatAM meM kahyuM, "huM lephaTananTa zAha chuM, pharsTa bombe beTeliyanamAMthI AvuM chuM." e sAMbhaLI brigeDiyare pUchyuM. "oha! Ara yu phroma bombe ? zAha, gujarAtI cho ?' basa, sara.' meM kahyuM. brigeDiyara mArI sAthe gujarAtImAM bolyA ethI mane bahu Azcarya thayuM. AnaMda paNa thayo. emaNe pharI pUchyuM, "baniyA cho ?' yasa sara.' brigeDiyare mArI sAthe gujarAtImAM vAta cAlu rAkhI ethI karnala ane bIjA brigeDiyara dharUvAlA 233

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oNphisaro Azcaryacakita thaIne joI rahyA. brigeDiyare pUchyuM, kaI kaoNlejamAM bhaNAvo cho ?" senTa jheviyarsa kaoNleja, sara!' oha! dheTsa mAya kaoNleja, AI sTaDiDa ina jheviyarsa, phAdhara peleziyo vojha avara prinsipAla. hamaNAM koNa che prinsipAla ?" phAdhara bAlage2, sara !' phAdhara phela che ke ?' yasa, sara.' iMgliza ane phrenca bhaNAvatA tathA ramatamagatano vibhAga saMbhALatA phAdhara phela tyAre vidyArthIomAM bahu jANItA hatA. brigeDiyara pArasI hatA ane muMbaInA ghaNAkharA pArasIo e divasomAM jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM ja dAkhala thatA. brigeDiyaranI ane mArI eka kolejane kAraNe ane eka bhASAne kAraNe emane maLyAno mane vizeSa AnaMda thayo. ATalA badhA ophisaro vacce mArA jevA eka sAva juniyara oNphisara sAthe brigeDiyara jevA ucca oNphisare ATalI vAtacIta karI e paNa mAre mATe ghaNI AnaMdanI ane gauravanI vAta gaNAya. brigeDiyara sAthe badhAnI paricayavidhi ane prAthamika aupacArika vAtacIta pachI cA-biskiTa laI ame chUTA paDyA. sau potapotAnI pharaja upara gayA. brigeDiyara Akho divasa pharIne rejimenTanI ekeeka vastu cakAsatA rahyA hatA. te divase rAtre ATha vAgye rejimenTala Dinara nAITa hatI. rejimenTanA badhA ophisaro uparAMta bahAranA paNa keTalAka ophisaro mahemAna tarIke padhAryA hatA. vaLI ame pAMca ena.sI.sI. ophisaro paNa hatA. ophisarsa maeNsanuM sthAna vizALa hatuM. svaccha ane zAMta vAtAvaraNa hatuM. lakaranA mesamAM, kvArTara gArDamAM, sToramAM ke bIje koI sthaLe kAyama badhuM svaccha, vyavasthita ane cakacakita hovuM ja joIe. temAM paNa brigeDiyara jevA koI uparI ophisara jyAre Inspekzana mATe AvavAnA hoya tyAre to pUchavuM ja zuM? beraroe ane mesanA sTAphanA mANasoe kyAMya jarA sarakho DAgha jovA na maLe eTaluM suMdara ne vyavasthita badhuM goThavyuM hatuM. badhA ophisaro istrIbaMdha yuniphorma tathA cakacakita bUTa, paTTo, bakala vagere sAthe mesamAM AvyA hatA. badhA potAnI siniyoriTI pramANe goThavAI gayA hatA. vAtacIto thatI paNa te maMda svare. bheMsanA ghaDiyALamAM AThano DaMko vAgyo eTale mesa havAladAra lAla paTTA sahita sarasa zveta yuniphorma paherIne mArca karIne brigeDiyara 24 na caritradarzana

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pAse AvyA. salAma karIne kahyuM, "sA'ba, khAnA taiyAra he !" pachI eka DagaluM pAchaLa haThI pharI salAma karI ebAuTa Tarna karIne mesamAM dAkhala thaI gayo. lazkaramAM badhA sainikonAM ane ophisaronAM peTa pAtaLAM hoya che ane hovAM joIe. paraMtu mesa havAladAranuM peTa sAmAnya rIte moTuM thaI jAya che, kAraNa ke emane marajI mujaba nirAMte khAvAnuM maLe, vividha vAnagIo maLe, zILI chAyAmAM kAmakaravAnuM maLe ane jamyA pachI pUrato ArAma maLe. DAIniMga haoNlamAM ophisaroe TebalanI AsapAsa kyAM besavuM eno cArTa enTirUmamAM mUkavAmAM Avyo hato. DAiniMga holamAM pravezI pote jamaNI bAju javAnuM che ke DAbI bAju tenI gaNatarI karI levAnI. potAnI khurazI kyAM che ane potAnI jamaNI tathA DAbI bAju kayA kayA oNphisaro che te manamAM noMdhI levAnuM. badhA ja oNphisaroe cArTamAM joI lIdhuM hatuM ke pote kyAM besavAnuM che. cAlIsathI vadhu ophisaro hatA. DAiniMga holanuM phloriMga lAkaDAnuM hatuM. paraMtu haoNlamAM jatAM bUTano ke khurazI khaseDavAno jarA paNa avAja na Avavo joIe. potAnI khurazI sudhI pahoMcavAmAM moDuM thAya ke koIne potAnI khurazI zodhavAmAM phAMphAM mAravAM paDe to pAchaLathI karnalano ke mesa ophisarano Thapako maLe ja. eNsa Tebala upara ame badhA goThavAyA. ghaNuM lAMbuM Tebala hatuM. brigeDiyaranI beya bAju nava nava ophisaro hatA. emanI sAmenI hAramAM vacamAM karnala premacaMda hatA. huM sAva juniyara hato. chatAM kramAnusAra besatAM brigeDiyarathI cothe naMbare beTho hato. bhojana pIrasavAnuM cAlu thayuM. pahelo korsa Avyo. rejimenTanuM benDa paNa A Dinara nAiTa mATe AvI gayuM hatuM. brigeDiyaranI AjJA laI benDa-mAsTare benDa vagADavAnuM cAlu karyuM. emAM mukhyatve begapAIpa vagADanArA hatA. teo lAMbA zvAsa letA jAya, gAlamAM havA bharatA jAya, bega-pAipa phulAvIne enA kANA upara rAkhelI AMgaLIonAM TeravAM UMcAnIcAM karI madhura avAja kADhatA jAya. miliTarInuM benDa hoya eTale pachI pUchavAnuM ja zuM ? benDa-mAsTara subedAra hatA. DinaranA bIjA korsa sudhI teo pAIpa vagADatA gayA ane Dinara TebalanI pharate teo badhA tAlabaddha rIte rAunDa mAratA gayA. benDanA madhura dhvanithI saue prasannatA anubhavI. brigeDiyare subedArane kahyuM, "zAbAza, zAbAza, bahota acchA...bahota acchA!' pachI emaNe IzAro karyo eTale subedAra brigeDiyara pAse AvIne salAma bharIne UbhA rahyA. te vakhate eka berara rivAja pramANe rama (Rum) nAmanA dArUnI eka boTala laI Avyo. temAMthI brigeDiyara dArUvAlA 235

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eka glAsamAM thoDo dArU kADhavAmAM Avyo. pANI ke soDA bheLavyA vagaranA cokhkhA (Neat) dArUno glAsa baeNnDa mAsTara subedArane zAbAzI sAthe inAma tarIke ApavA mATe brigeDiyare hAtha laMbAvyo. subedAre salAma bharI eka DagaluM AgaLa AvI glAsa lIdho. glAsa UMce dharI, moDhuM UMcuM karI, AkhuM kholI temAM dArU reDI dIdho. eka ja ghUMTaDe teo dArU gaTagaTAvI gayA. badhA ja Azcaryamugdha banIne te joI rahyA. ATalo jarAka jeTalo dArU pIvAmAM zI navAI ema mArA jevA binaanubhavIne lAgyuM haze, paNa mArI bAjumAM beThelA oNphisare kahyuM, "ATalo 2ma bharapUra soDA sAthe dhIme dhIme pItAM amane doDha-be kalAka thAya. utAvaLa karIe to nazo caDe ke UlaTI thAya. baeNnDa mAsTaranA hoddA upara je vyakti pahoMce e vyaktie AvI rIte cokhkho dArU pIvAnI Teva pADavI joIe. vaLI teo tenA mAraNa tarIke kazuMka khAI le athavA pIdhA pachI bahAra jaI thoDI vAre UlaTI karI nAkhe. jo tema na kare to eNsiDa jevA dArUthI peTamAM cAMduM paDe ane enuM livara khalAsa thaI jAya paNa rejimenTala Dinara nAiTamAM brigeDiyara hoya ke mejara janarala hoya, je oNphisa2 hoya teNe jyAre inAma tarIke ramano glAsa Ape tyAre eka ghUMTaDe gaTagaTAvI javo paDe. briTiza oNphisaroe lazkaramAM cAlu karelI A rasama che. ema na kare to inAma ApanA2nuM apamAna lekhAya; AjJAno bhaMga gaNAya. Ama paNa uparI oNphisa2no hukama thAya to sainikoe ma2vA taiyAra rahevAnuM hoya che. eTale game te bAbatamAM AjJAbhaMga to na ja thAya. 2mano ghUMTaDo laI baeNnDa mAsTare potAnA baeNnDa sAthe bega-pAipa vagADatAM vagADatAM ane tAlabaddha rIte kadama milAvatAM Dinara TebalanA traNa rAunDa mArIne vidAya lIdhI. Dinara pUruM thayuM. brigeDiyara UbhA thayA. tenI sAthe to sau oNphiso potAnA sthAnethI UbhA thayA. DAiniMga haoNlamAMthI sau prathama brigeDiyara nIkaLyA. temanI pAchaLa sau oNphisaro siniyoriTI pramANe nIkaLyA. enTi rUmamAM badhAne mATe kaoNphI AvI. te pIdhA pachI brigeDiyare vidAya lIdhI. sau chUTA paDyA. ame potapotAnI rUmamAM jaI nidrAdhIna thaI gayA, kAraNa ke AkhA divasano bahu thAka lAgyo hato ane bIjA divase vahelI savAre pareDa upara pAchuM hAjara rahevAnuM hatuM. paraMtu brigeDiyara ane karnala moDI rAta sudhI Secret DocumentsnI cakAsaNI mATe besavAnA hatA. bIje divase paNa vahelI savArathI Akho divasa inspekzananuM kAma satata 236 tridarzana

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joradAra cAlyA karyuM. lazkaranuM inspekzana e cA-nAsto laI, ToLaTappA karI chUTA paDyA jevuM na hoya. ekeeka vastu jhINavaTathI zarama-saMkoca rAkhyA vagara cakAsAya. te rAtre oNphisarsa mesamAM rejimenTala gesTa nAiTa hatI. rejimenTamAM sahakuTuMba rahetA ophisarone sajoDe jamavAnuM nimaMtraNa hatuM. A rAtri manoraMjananI mahephila jevI hatI. AgalI rAta jevuM gaMbhIra, kaDaka vAtAvaraNa nahotuM. sainiko mATe paNa AjanI rAta baDA khAnAnI hatI. sAMjanA snAnAdithI paravArI, yuniphorma badalI, niyata samaya karatAM vahelAM ame ophisarsa mesamAM pahoMcI gayA. brigeDiyara samayasara AvI pahoMcyA. AnaMdanuM vAtAvaraNa jAmI gayuM. zarAba pInArAone jeTalo pIvo hoya teTalo pIvAnI chUTa hatI. samaya thayo eTale buphe bhojana laIne sahu pAchA enTi rUmamAM besI gayA. have manoraMjana kAryakrama cAlu thayo. gIto, TUcakA, viziSTa anubhavo, jAtajAtanI ramatagamato ema cAlavA lAgyAM. ujAgaro thato hato. paraMtu bIje divase rajA hatI. eTale badhA oNphisarone nirAMta hatI. badhA ja AnaMdollAsanA vAtAvaraNamAM AvI gayA hatA. ame ena.sI.sI. ophisaro paNa teonI ramatagamatomAM bhAga laIne kAryakramano pUro AnaMda mANatA hatA. brigeDiyara pArasI hatA. pArasI lokomAM rahelI majAka-mazkarI karavAnI kudaratI vRtti brigeDiyara dArUvAlAmAM paNa jovA maLI. temaNe potAnI lazkarI jIvananA gammatabharyA prasaMgo kahyA. briTiza ophisaromAM paNa kyAreka sAmAnya buddhi na hoya evA prasaMgo paNa varNavyA. vaLI lazkarI jIvananA keTalAka sarasa TUcakAo kahyA. vAte vAte teo hasAvatA hatA. gaI kAlanA kaDaka brigeDiyara Aje eTalA badhA haLavA, anaupacArika, milanasAra ane khuzamijAjI lAgatA hatA. teo pote badhI ramatamAM bhAga letA ane badhA sAthe samAna dhoraNe bhaLI jatA. lazkaranA ophisaromAM paraspara bhinna evAM be nirALAM pAsAM Ave prasaMge ApaNane jovA maLe. manoraMjananA kAryakrama daramiyAna brigeDiyare pote eka ramata rajU karavAnuM jAhera karyuM. brigeDiyara kahe eTale lakarI zirastA pramANe badhA e darakhAsta saharSa svIkArI ja le. tarata tALIonA gagaDATa thayA. brigeDiyare kahyuM, "mArI ramatanuM nAma che Judging the weight." temaNe kahyuM ke koI paNa vyaktine UMcakIne pote tenuM vajana (weight) kahI Apaze. brigeDiyara kadAvara hatA. vaLI koI paNa vyaktine UMcakavAnuM sainyanA dareka sainikane AvaDavuM joIe. eTalI enAmAM tAkAta brigeDiyara dharUvAlA - 237

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paNa hovI ja joIe. brigeDiyare A ramata mATe dasa jaNa pasaMda karyA. emAM ame pAMca to ena.sI.sI. ophisaro hatA. amane dase jaNane eka hAramAM UbhA rAkhavAmAM AvyA. ame badhA A ramatathI aparicita hatA. brigeDiyare pachI eka khurazI maMgAvI. potAnI sAme te mukAvI. madada mATe bIjA eka ophisarane bolAvI lIdhA. pachI brigeDiyare kahyuM, "eka pachI eka ophisara Ave. khurazImAM bese. khurazImAMthI pote ophisarane be hAthe adhdhara UMcakaze. oNphisare tyAre potAnA be paganI AMTI brigeDiyaranI kamare bharAvI devAnI. keTaluM vajana che tenuM brigeDiyara manamAM anumAna karI leze. jemano vAro AvI jAya te te oNphisaro eka bAju hArabaMdha prekSako sAme UbhA raheze. chellA ophisarano vAro AvI jAya te pachI teo badhAnuM eka sAthe vajana kaheze. brigeDiyaranI A ramata jovA sau utsuka banI gayA hatA. ramata cAlu thaI. eka pachI eka ophisara khurazImAM bese. brigeDiyara vAMkA vaLI potAnA be hAtha vaDe tene UMcakI le ane pachI tene bIjI bAju mUkI de. dase ophisarono vAro e rIte pUro thayo. prekSako sAme ame badhA hArabaMdha UbhA rahyA. tyAra pachI brigeDiyare kahyuM, "Ladies and gentlemen ! My game is judging the weight. Now you will see whether they are all weighed or not.' pachI emaNe amane ophisarone kahyuM, "Officer, now please about turn." ame badhA ebAuTa Tarna thayA e thatAM ja sabhAmAM badhA khaDakhaDATa hasI paDyA. zuM thayuM tenI khabara paDI nahi, paNa brigeDiyara kahyuM, 'Ladies and gentlemen, do you see that they are all weighed (wet) ?' badhA ja khaDakhaDATa hasatAM bolI UThyA, "Yes, they are all wet.' amane paNa A majAkabharI ramatanuM rahasya tarata samajAI gayuM. amArA badhAnAM penTa pAchaLathI bhInAM thayAM hatAM. ramatano bheda paNa khullo paDI gayo. brigeDiyaranI ramata Judging the weight nahotI, Judging the wet hatI. pratyeka oNphisara khurazI para besavA jAya te pahelAM brigeDiyarano sAthIdAra ophisara eka bATalImAMthI thoDuMka pANI khurazI para evI rIte reDI deto ke bIjAne dekhAya nahi. besanAra ophisaranuM kapaDuM bhInuM thAya, paNa yuniphormanuM kApaDa jADuM hovAthI ane ramatamAM dhyAna hovAthI koIne tarata khabara na paDe brigeDiyara dArUvAlAnI A majAkabharI ramate mahephIlamAM hasAhasanuM 238 ni caritradarzana

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vAtAva2Na jamAvI dIdhuM. manoraMjanano kAryakrama to sarasa hato paNa rAtanA be vAgI gayA hatA. thAkelA ane vahelAM sUvA TevAyelA amArAmAMnA be-eka oNphisaro bagAsAM khAtAM eka khUNAmAM besI gayA hatA. kyAre kAryakrama pUro thAya ane kyAre chUTIe enI rAha jovAtI hatI. paraMtu kAryakrama pUro thavAnAM koI cihno jaNAtAM nahotAM. eka lazkarI oNphisa2 AgaLa A ujAgarAnI cIDa amArAmAMnA eke vyakta karI tyAre potAno pratibhAva jaNAvatAM emaNe kahyuM, yuddhamorace duzmananI goLIo tamArA 52 chUTatI hoya tyAre UMgha to cAra cAra divasa sudhI kyAMya bhAgI jAya. lazkaranA sainikone to evI tAlIma hovI joIe. A ujAgaro to kaMI ja nathI.' tyAra pachI bIjI eka ramata amane evI ramADavAmAM AvI ke jemAM badhA oNphisaronA ane mahemAnonA baMne page phulAvelA phuggA bAMdhavAmAM AvyA. dareke potAnA phuggAne bacAvavAno ane bIjAno phuggo potAnA pagathI phoDI nAkhavAno prayatna karavAno hato. jenA phuggA phUTI jAya te AuTa thAya. ema karatAM chevaTe jenA phuggA bace te vijayI thAya. sisoTI vAgI ke tarata dhamAlabharI ramata cAlu thaI. phuggA phUTavAnA avAjo phaTAphaTa AvavA lAgyA. khuda brigeDiyare paNa emAM bhAga lIdho. eTaluM ja nahi A ramatanuM inAma teo jItI gayA. amAro manoraMjanano kAryakrama to rAtanA cAra vAgyA sudhI cAlyA karyo. paraMtu lazkarI zista pramANe koIthI khasAya nahi. brigeDiyare jAherAta karatAM kahyuM ke 'sADA cAre ApaNo kAryakrama pUro karIzuM.' e sAMbhaLI amane rAhata thaI. gammatabharI bIjI keTalIka ramato cAlI. barAbara sADAcAranA Takore brigeDiyare UbhA thaI ghaMTanAda karI, badhAne zAMta thavA kahyuM. pachI teo bolyA, mArA vahAlA oNphisaro, ApaNo A kAryakrama pUro thAya che. mAre have eka bahu sarasa jAherAta karavAnI che. bolo, huM zI jAherAta karavAno hoIza ?" AvatI kAlanI chuTTInI jAherAta.' amArAmAMthI ghaNAkharA harSabhera bolyA. brigeDiyare kahyuM, 'tamAruM anumAna eka rIte khoTuM nathI. AvI mahephila pachI rajA maLavI joIe. huM jANuM chuM ke inspekzananA ghaNA divasanI taiyArIno tamane thAka lAgyo haze. vaLI AjanI AkhI rAtano tamane ujAgaro thayo haze. tamArI sAthe be divasathI Akho vakhata meM paNa kAma karyuM che. gaI kAlanI ane AjanI A AkhI rAta huM ane karnala premacaMda jAgyA chIe. paNa mAre have jAherAta e ka2vAnI che ke Aje have rajAno divasa nathI, kAmano divasa che. pareDano divasa che. hAtha-moM dhoIne tathA pareDano Dresa paherIne taiyAra thavA mATe aDadho kalAkano brigeDiyara dArUvAlA 239

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samaya huM ApuM chuM. huM paNa tamArI jema taiyAra thaIne pareDa-grAunDa upara tamArI kAmagIrI jovA AvI pahoMcuM chuM. meM sainikone paNa agAuthI sUcanA mokalAvI dIdhI che ke Aje 2jA nathI paNa pareDa cAlu che.' brigeDiyare pUchyuM, 'sUcanA barAbara che ? mAre e jovuM che ke tame sUcanA kevI rIte vadhAvI lo cho.' tarata ja badhA oNphisaroe tALIonA gaDagaDATathI brigeDiyaranI sUcanA vadhAvI lIdhI. badhAe zrI cIyarsa phora brigeDiyara dArUvAlA' ema traNa vAra ullAsapUrvaka pokAra karyA. brigeDiyare pUchyuM, 'ApaNA ena.sI.sI. oNphisaro zuM karavA icche che ?" ame pAMca oNphisaroe tarata brigeDiyarane harSapUrvaka kahyuM, 'ame paNa pareDa 52 AvIe chIe. A amArI tAlIma che.' brigeDiyara ethI rAjI thayA. teo bolyA, zAbAza...dhIsa ijha kaoNlDa miliTarI spiriTa.' emaNe enI jAherAta karatAM kahyuM, "enDa thrI cIyarsa phora ena.sI.sI. oNphisarsa.' pharI cIyarsanA harSanAda thayA. ame utsAhamAM AvI gayA. tarata taiyA2 thaI pareDa upara pahoMcyA. eka vakhata svecchAe, utsAhapUrvaka nirNaya lIdho eTale UMgha to kyAMya bhAgI gaI. pareDa upa2 amane jarA paNa thAka lAgyo nahi, balake badhAne rojanI jema utsAhapUrvaka pareDa karatA joIne amAro utsAha vadhI gayo. te divase sAMje brigeDiyare kvArTara gArDanI salAmI laI DogarA rejimenTanI vidAya lIdhI. eka moTA dariyAI mojAnI jema teo AvyA ane cAlyA gayA, paNa darekanA manamAM lazkarI suvAsanuM sumadhura smaraNa mUkatA gayA. manoraMjanane jIvanamAM bharapUra mANavA sAthe mANasa prasanna citte kartavyaniSTha ane satata kartavyarata rahIne potAnI zArIrika ane mAnasika tAkAta keTalI badhI khIlavI zake che tenuM pratyakSa udAharaNa te divase brigeDiyara dArUvAlAmAM amane jovA maLyuM. (be22thI brigeDiyara'mAMthI) 240 caritradarzana

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zrI muMbai jaina yuvaka saMgha. sva.maMgaLajI jhaveracaMda mahetA prerita CHICAGO RADIO zrI caMdravadana mahetA zrI jyotIndra dave oral org For Private & Personal use only

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zrI umAzaMkara joSI zrI bacubhAI rAvatA

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zrI gaurIprasAda jhAlA zrI vijaya marcanTa

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lAkno mukitadAtA prabhAvaka rathaviro prabhAva sthaviro ramaNalAla zAhu rAjakatA rahI. zAha gulAmono muktidAtA DaoN. ramaNabhAInAM caritra viSayaka keTalAMka pustako [GIvaheNa dAmi varasAra mArAma vaMdanIya hadayasparza vaMt ofIya tiviheNa vaMdAmi 12nalAla cAM zAka,

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26 jamAdAra bile. I. sa. 1952mAM amArI seMTa jheviyarsa kaoNleja muMbaI) taraphathI mane belagAmamAM marAThA lAiTa inphanTrI baTeliyanamAM zastronI tAlIma mATe mokalavAmAM Avyo hato. kaoNlejamAM gujarAtI viSayanA adhyApaka uparAMta huM ena.sI.sI.mAM ophisara paNa hato. mahArASTranI judI judI kaoNlejonA maLIne ame lagabhaga trIseka adhyApako zastronI khAsa tAlIma levA mATe belagAmamAM samayasara pahoMcI gayA hatA. inphanTrI baTeliyana taraphathI amane zastronI pAkI tAlIma ApavA mATe cha aThavADiyAMno korsa yojavAmAM Avyo hato. belagAmamAM rAIphala, mazInagana, sTenagana, pistola, be iMcanI nAnI topa, henDa greneDa, rAIphala greneDa, beroneTanI laDAI vagere viSayonI amArI tAlIma pahelA divasathI ja kaDaka lazkarI zista sAthe cAlu thaI gaI hatI. roja savAranA cha vAgyAthI bapore eka vAgyA sudhI ane be vAgyAthI sAMjanA sADA cAra vAgyA sudhI unALAnA bhara taDakAmAM khullA pareDa-grAunDa upara A tAlIma apAtI hatI. amAre adhyApakone mATe AvI tAlIma bahu thakavanArI hatI. AraMbhanA divasomAM to savAranA sADA dasa ke agiyAra pachInA piriyaDomAM sakhata garamI ane thAkane lIdhe tAlIma levA mATe amArAmAM koI utsAha raheto nahi. amane judA judA lazkarI juniyara aphasaro tAlIma ApatA hatA. emAM mukhyatve hatA havAladAra nimbAlakara. ame temanA rojerojanA satata saMparkamAM hatA tethI teo amArI muzkelI kaMIka sahAnubhUtipUrvaka samajatA. teo kyAreka vacce thoDI thoDI miniTa amane ArAma paNa ApatA. jamAghara bile eka 241

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amArI A tAlImanA uparI hatA jamAdAra bile. teo pUrA lazkarI mijAjanA hatA. roja pareDa-grAunDa upara be-traNa vAra rAunDa mArI jatA. amAro varga jyAM cAlato tyAMthI thoDe dUra UbhA rahI, thoDIka miniTa nirIkSaNa karI, becAra jaNane bhUlacUka ke zistanI zithilatA mATe bahu kaDaka zabdomAM dhamakAvI teo cAlyA jatA. temane dUrathI AvatA joIne amArA mukha 52nA bhAva pharI jatA. lazkarI oNphisaronA kaDaka mijAjathI to ame TevAI gayA hatA, paraMtu temAM jamAdAra bilenI bhASA amane bahu tochaDI ane apamAnajanaka lAgatI hatI. ame badhA kaoNlejanA adhyApako hatA. amArAmAMnA eka to kaoNlejanA AcArya hatA. amane badhAne thatuM ke kyAM kaoNlejamAM vidyArthIo sAthenI saumya ane saMskArI bhASA ane kyAM ahIM jamAdAra bilenI tochaDI ane jaMgalI bhASA ! eka to kaparI tAlImano thAka ane temAM sAMbhaLavI paDatI AvI kaDaka mijAjI bhASA. ene kAraNe ame manamAM samasamI UThatA, paraMtu lazkaranI zista pramANe amArAthI kazuM bolI zakAya ema nahotuM. ekAda aThavADiyuM thayuM haze tyAM to eka divasa savAranA pahelA piriyaDamAM ja eka adhyApakanI najIvI bhUlane mATe Thapako ApatAM jamAdAra bile barADI UThyA : gadhe kI mAphaka kyuM aisI galatI karate ho ?" vaLI bIjAne kahyuM : ? muradekI mAphaka kyuM susta baiThe ho ! sInA nikAlakara barAbara sIdhA baiTho.' kaoNlejanA adhyApako mATe badhAnI vacce jamAdAra bilee 'gadheDA' jevo ane muDadA' jevo zabda vAparyo ethI ame coMkI UThyA. varga daramiyAna ame badhA cUpa rahyA, paNa risesamAM bahu carcA thaI. kaoNlejanA je AcArya hatA emaNe kahyuM ke huM to Aje ja tAlIma lIdhA vagara pAcho cAlyo javAno chuM.' bIjA keTalAka adhyApakono evo mata paDyo ke ApaNe badhAe bhegA thaI baTeliyananA kamAnDiMga oNphisa2 karnala zekhane phariyAda ka2vI. sAMje ame badhAM karnala zekha pAse pahoMcyA; paraMtu emaNe to UlaTAnA sAmA dhadhaDAvyA ane kahyuM, 'tame tAlIma levA AvyA cho ke majhA karavA ? lazkaramAM AvI bhASA ghaNI vAra vaparAtI hoya che. tAlIma levAnI garaja hoya to tamAre evI bhASAthI TevAI javuM paDaze. huM jANuM chuM ke bIjA karatAM jamAdAra bile svabhAvanA bahu tIkhA che ane puSkaLa gusso kare che. paraMtu ene lIdhe ja amArI zista ghaNI sArI rahe che. alabatta, eTaluM huM jarUra kahuM ke jamAdAra bile bhUlacUka vagara tamane jarA paNa nahi Toke ane aMgata verabhAvathI teo kazuM ja nahi bole. jamAdAra 242 caritradarzana

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bile amArA AkhA baTeliyanamAM badhA ja prakAranI tAlIma ApavAmAM prathama kakSAnA gaNAya che. AvaData, hoziyArI, zista, netAgIrI, dezabhakti, svArpaNa vagere guNo emanAmAM uttama koTinA che. emanA konphiDenzayala riporTa badhA ja sArAmAM sArA che. alabatta, tame phariyAda karI che mATe huM jarUra emanuM dhyAna kheMcIza. paraMtu huM tamane kazI khAtarI nathI Apato. emanI vANImAM kaMI pharaka na paDe to te mATe phariyAda karavA AvatA nahi. tame badhA kaoNlejanA adhyApako cho mATe meM tamArI ATalI phariyAda sAMbhaLI. lakaranA mANaso AvI phariyAda karavA AvyA hoya to huM temane e ghaDIe ja hAMkI kADhuM, ATaluM ja nahi paNa e mATe temane zikSA paNa karuM.' karnala zekhe jamAdAra bilene amArI phariyAdanI vAta karI. paraMtu tenuM pariNAma UlaTuM AvyuM. bIje divase savAre pareDa-grAunDa upara amAro varga cAlato hato tyAre teo acAnaka AvI pahoMcyA. vargazikSaka havAladAra nimbAlakarane vacce aTakAvI temaNe amArI phariyAda vize potAno roSa ThAlavavA mAMDyo. bolatAM bolatAM to temano krodha bhabhUkI UThyo. temaNe kahyuM, 'tame karnalasAhebane mATe vize phariyAda karI che, paraMtu A mArI bhASA che ane pareDa-grAunDa para e pramANe ja vaparAze. tamAre tAlIma levI hoya to lo ane nahi to jAo hannamamAM. tamane sArI tAlIma ApavA mATe ja AvI bhASA vaparAya che. yAda rAkhajo ke lazkaramAM pareDa-grAunDa upara kyAreya oLakhANa ke bhAIbaMdhI hotI nathI. ahIM to kaDaka zista hoya che ane te pramANe ja badhuM thaze. dezanA rakSaNanI javAbadArInAM bIja pareDa-grAunDanI tAlImamAM rahelAM hoya che. A tAlIma jo DhIlI ke mulAyama thaI to AkhA dezanuM saMrakSaNa DhIluM thaI gayuM samajavuM. paDozI duzamana deza nAno hoya topaNa evA DhIlA dezane ghaDIkamAM hajama karI jAya.' jamAdAra bilene ApavA mATe amArI pAse bIjo koI uttara na hato. sainyanI zista amane kaMI uttara ApavA paNa na de. ame cUpa rahyA. jamAdAra gayA. varga pUro thatAM ame badhA mAMhomAMhe carcA karavA lAgyA. ghaNAno abhiprAya eka ja hato ke jamAdAranI bhASA pratye ApaNe bahu lakSya ApavuM nahi. pelA AcArya ane bIjA be adhyApako tAlIma choDI cAlyA gayA. daseka divasamAM jamAdAranI bhASAthI ame TevAI gayA. vaLI jema amArI tAlIma sudharatI gaI tema jamAdAranI jabAna paNa kAbUmAM rahevA lAgI. thoDA divasa pachI amArA koI koI piriyaDa jamAdAra pote levA AvavA lAgyA. enI zIkhavavAnI Dhaba anokhI hatI. teo atyaMta capaLa, rtivALA jamAdAra bile 243

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ane buddhizALI hatA. kaDaka mijAja vaDe teo vargamAM zista paNa sArI jALavatA. lakarI tAlImamAM dareka piriyaDane aMte "koI zaka yA savAla pUchavAnI paddhati hoya ja. evA savAlajavAbamAM jamAdAra keTalA badhA nipuNa hatA tenI amane pratIti thatI. rAiphala, mazInagana ane sTenagananI tAlIma pUrI thayA pachI amane henDa greneDa (hAthathI pheMkavAno bomba)nI tAlIma apAvI zarU thaI. bombanI racanA ane te kevI rIte phUTe che tenI samajaNa apAyA pachI te pheMkavAnI amane prekTisa karAvavAmAM AvI. te mATe amane DamI henDa greneDa ApavAmAM AvyA. mUThImAM aDadhA samAya tevA, lagabhaga pAMcaso grAmanA lokhaMDanA laMbagoLa daDA vaDe ame prekTisa karavA lAgyA. prathama baMne paga pahoLA karI, pachI DAbo paga AgaLa rAkhI, UbhA rahI chAtI pAse baMne hAtha bhegA rAkhI. jamaNA hAthamAM rAkhelA bombanI sephTI pina DAbA hAtha vaDe kheMcI kADhIne jamaNo hAtha pUro pAchaLa laI jaIne krikeTanI boliMganI jema te bomba pheMkavAno hoya che. cAlIseka phUTa Aghe beDaminTananI neTa jevI UMcI neTa bAMdhavAmAM Ave che ane tenI pelI bAju sittera phUTa karatAM vadhAre dUra bomba paDavo joIe. jema vadhAre dUra paDe tema vadhAre sAruM. nAkhatI vakhate potAnA manathI nizAna dhAravAnuM hoya che, ane jo barAbara nizAna pramANe tyAM bomba paDe to te sainika bomba pheMkavAne lAyaka che ema gaNAya. jenAthI jyAM sudhI neTanI pelI bAju bomba satata pheMkI na zakAya tene tyAM sudhI sAco bomba phoDavAnI prekTisa apAtI nathI, kAraNa ke temAM jAnanuM jokhama raheluM hoya che. sephTI pina kADhI nAkhyA pachI mUThImAM greneDanI klipa AMgaLIo vaDe barAbara dabAvI rAkhavAnI hoya che. hukama maLatAM jevo mUThImAMthI UMce havAmAM bomba chUTe eTale tenI klipa UMcI thAya. ethI aMdaranI spriMga chUTe ane te greneDa aMdara DiToneTara sAthe TakarAya. e TakarAtAM taNakho thAya ane aMdara bharelA dArUgoLAmAM tarata Aga lAge. ethI greneDa phUTe ane enA asaMkhya jhINA dhAradAra lokhaMDanA garama garama TukaDAo cAre bAju pacIseka phUTanA vistAramAM jorathI UDe. jene e TukaDo vAge te tarata ghAyala thaI jAya. vadhAre IjA thaI hoya to mANasa mRtyu pAme. bomba phUTavAnA dasa phUTanA vistAramAM mANasa Ubho hoya to eTalo badho ghAyala thAya ke acUka mRtyu pAme. jyAM bomba phUTyo hoya tyAM tarata Aga lAge. yuddhamAM dumananI najIka pahoMcatAM tarata temanA upara sainiko hAtha-bombano mAro calAvatA hoya che, jethI temanI khuvArI vadhu thAya. hAthamAMthI greneDa choDyA pachI dUra mIna upara paDatAM lagabhaga be sekanDa 24 caritradarzana

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lAge ane paDyA pachI bIjI be sekanDamAM te phUTe. jyAre amane DamI greneDa vaDe prekTisa karAvavAmAM AvatI hatI tyAre krikeTanI boliMganI jema hoMzabhera ame te karatA hatA, paraMtu sAcA greneDa phoDavA mATe amane jyAre najIkanI eka TekarI AgaLa khullA medAnamAM laI javAmAM AvyA tyAre jiMdagImAM pahelI vAra Avo bomba phoDavAno prasaMga hovAthI ame badhA ja narvasa thaI gayA hatA. rAiphala, mazInagana ke sTenagana phoDavAmAM bahu jokhama nathI. paraMtu henDagreneDamAM to ghaNuM jokhama hoya che. sephTI pina kADhI nAkhyA pachI hAthamAM ja greneDanI klipa jo jarAka DhIlI thaI jAya to hAthamAM ne hAthamAM ja greneDa phUTI jAya ane mANasa tarata mRtyu pAme. greneDa phoDavAnA medAnamAM be bAju surakSita bhoMyarAM hatAM. eka bhoMyarAmAM amane besADavAmAM AvyA. bIjA bhoMyarAmAM lakaranA cAreka sainikone greneDa taiyAra karavA besADavAmAM AvyA. bhoMyarA pAse be phUTa UMcI eka majabUta saMrakSaka pALI hatI. e pALI pAse UbhA rahIne eka pachI eka ema dareka greneDa phoDavAnA hatA. amane bhoMyarAmAMthI eka pachI eka bolAvavAmAM AvyA. pALI pAse pahoMcyA pachI eka sainika pina bharAvelo baoNmba ApI jAya. eka bAju thoDe dUra UbhA rahI havAladAra nimbAlakara bomba pheMkavA mATe tAlIma pramANe kramazaH hukama ApatA jAya ane bIjI bAju thoDe cheTe UbhA rahI jamAdAra bile barAbara dhyAna rAkhe. "phAyara'no chello hukama Ave eTale bomba pheMkavAno. pheMkAya pachI te kyAM paDe che te joIne tatkSaNa nIcA namI pALInI othe besI javAnuM. havAladAra ane jamAdAra paNa potAnI jagyAe pALI pAse besI jAya. bIjI doDha-be sekanDe bombano moTo dhaDAko thAya. cAre bAju lokhaMDanA TukaDAo UDIne paDe teno avAja paNa saMbhaLAya. koI koI TukaDAo amArI uparathI Uce pasAra thAya te dekhAya. greneDa phAyariMga vakhate phAyariMga karanAra sainikanI bAjumAM phAyariMgano hukama ApanAra tAlIma-zikSaka uparAMta bIjA eka ophisarane paNa hAjara rAkhavAmAM Ave che. e ophisara bahu ja capaLa hovA joIe, kAraNa ke greneDa pheMkanAra vyakti jo gabharAI jAya ane hAthamAMthI greneDa paDI jAya ane phUTe to tyAM UbhelA badhA mRtyu pAme. paraMtu hAthamAMthI greneDa paDI jAya te pachI tene phUTatAM be-traNa sekanDa lAge. eTalI vAramAM dekharekha rAkhanAra oNphisara tarata te greneDa UMcakI laIne dUra medAnamAM pheMkI de. eTalI samayasUcakatA ane capaLatA na rahe to koI vakhata akasmAta thaI jAya. koI vakhata hAthamAM ja bomba phUTI jAya. AvI dekharekha rAkhavA mATe amArI sAthe jamAdAra bile pote AvyA hatA. ame badhAe bomba pheMkavAno pahelo rAunDa pUro karyo. jiMdagIno eka navo jamAdAra bile tA 245

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ja romAMcaka anubhava thayo. baoNmba pheMkavAthI keTalAka narvasa thaI gayA hatA, to keTalAke asAdhAraNa AtmavizvAsa paNa batAvyo hato. dareka baoNmba pheMkAya ane phUTI jAya te pachI te keTalA aMtare paDyo hato tenuM mejharaTepa vaDe mApa levAmAM AvatuM. pahelA rAunDamAM sitterathI vadhu phUTa Aghe baoNmba pheMkanArA traNa jaNamAM mAro naMbara paNa hato. jamAdAra bilee amane khUba zAbAzI ApI. A pramANe bIjo, trIjo ane cotho rAunDa paNa pUro thayo. jenA jenA baoNmba Aghe paDatA temane zAbAzI maLatI. cAra vakhata baoNmba pheMkavAne kA2Ne amArAmAM have AtmavizvAsa vadhI gayo hato. pAMcamo rAunDa cAlu thayo. be vakhata zAbAzI maLavAne kAraNe huM utsAhita thaI gayo hato. mAro vAro Avyo. baoNmba ApavAmAM Avyo. mane thayuM ke A chello baoNmba che eTale zakya teTaluM vadhu jora karIne sauthI Aghe huM pheMkuM. e mATe krikeTanI baoNliMganI jema meM mAro hAtha vadhu paDato ghumAvyo ane baoNmba pheMkyo, paraMtu baoNmba kyAM paDyo te dekhAyo nahi. paNa e mATe vadhu samaya UbhA rahI zakAya ema nahotuM. tarata huM niyama pramANe pALInI ADaze vAMko vaLIne besI gayo. jevo beTho ke tarata ja jamAdAra bile barADI UThyA, zAbAza zAhasAheba ! Apane baoNmba kahAM pheMkA ?" ATaluM bolatAMmAM to teo mArA upara ekadama kUdI paDyA. huM gUMcavaNamAM paDyo. teo mArI pITha u52 vIMTaLAI vaLyA. jora karIne mane vadhAre nIce dabAvyo, be hAtha vaDe mArI AMkho ane moDhuM dabAvI dIdhAM. zuM thayuM tenI mane samaja paDI nahi, paraMtu teo gussAmAM hatA evuM lAgyuM. paraMtu te mATe AvI rIte vartavAnI temanI rIta mane jaMgalI jevI lAgI. be sekanDamAM mArA manamAM ghaNA vicAra pasAra thaI gayA. samaya thatAM baoNmba phATyo. paNa eno dhaDAko ghaNo ja moTo saMbhaLAyo, jANe sAva pAse ja baoNmba phUTyo hoya ! pALI paNa dhaNadhaNI UThI. thoDI sekanDa pachI jamAdA2 bile mArI pITha uparathI UtaryA ane pharI barADyA. Apane kahAM baoNmba pheMkA, mAlUma hai ?" huM to eTalo badho mUDha thaI gayo hato ke kaMI samaja na paDI. mane hatuM ke baoNmba sauthI Aghe pheMkAyo haze. paraMtu jamAdAre baoNmba phUTavAnI jagyA batAvI kahyuM, 'tame hAtha eTalo vadhu paDato ghumAvyo ke Aghe paDavAne badale ahIM pAse ATha-dasa phUTanA aMtare te paDyo. ATalA aMtare baoNmba paDe to ahIM UbhelA ApaNe badhA jakhamI thaI jaIe. kadAca A pALI paNa tUTI jAya. ahIM juo ke baoNmbanI keTalI badhI karaco UDIne ApaNI bAju AvIne paDI che. A badhI ApaNA mAthA u52thI pasAra thaI gaI. tame ghAyala na thAva eTalA mATe tamArA u52 kUdIne tamAruM zarI2 nIce dabAvI dIdhuM ane tamAruM moDhuM DhAMkI dIdhuM. sadbhAgye mane kazI UjA 246 caritradarzana

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thaI nathI. ApaNe bacI gayA." A banAvathI huM bahu DhIlo thaI gayo. potAnA jAnanA jokhame mane bacAvavA mATe jamAdAra bileno meM khUba khUba AbhAra mAnyo. rAunDa pUro thatAM A vAta amArA badhAmAM prasarI gaI. je jamAdAranuM vartana tochaDAIbharyuM ane jaMgalI jevuM amane badhAne lAgatuM hatuM te jamAdAra bile pratye amane badhAne bahu AdarabhAva thayo. sainyanA mANasomAM sAthIone ane dezane bacAvavA mATe svArpaNanI je bhAvanA rahelI hoya che tenuM pratyakSa udAharaNa jamAdAra bilemAM amane jovA maLyuM. (berarathI brigeDiyaramAMthI) jamAdyara bile ja 247

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27 berara dhonDI kaoNlejanA adhyApakoe ena.sI.sI.mAM oNphisa2 tarIke joDAvuM hoya to te mATe temaNe traNa mahinAnI lazkarI tAlIma pharajiyAta levAnI hoya che. vaLI tAlImane aMte levAtI ghaNI kaDaka parIkSAmAM pAsa thavAnuM rahe che. amArA vakhatamAM eTale ke I. sa. 1950mAM evI tAlIma lazkaranA koI regyulara TreniMga senTaramAM jaIne levAnI rahetI. traNa mahinAnI e prakAranI 'pri-kamizana' tAlIma mATe amAre belagAma javAnuM hatuM. mArI sAthe muMbaInI eka kaoNlejanA adhyApaka-mitra paNa hatA. muMbaIthI nIkaLI nizcita divase belagAmanA miliTarI senTaranA oNphisarsa maeNsamAM amArA mATenA kvATarsamAM ame sUcanA mujaba pahoMcI gayA. maeNsanI bAjumAM ja amane rUma ApavAmAM Avyo hato. mahArASTramAMthI kula dasa adhyApako tAlIma levA AvyA hatA. dareka rUmamAM be adhyApakone rAkhavAnI vyavasthA thaI hatI. rUmadITha eka nokara (be22) paNa ApavAmAM hato. gherA zyAma varNano, UMco, TUMkA dhoLA vALavALo ane eka AMkha vagarano kANo evo amAro be22 joI mArA rUma-pArTanara adhyApaka mitre potAno aNagamo turata ja vyakta karyo. paraMtu amAre tene svIkArya sivAya chUTako nahoto. maeNsa sekreTarIe be22 nakkI karyA hatA. amArI pasaMdagIne koI avakAza na hato. garIbaDA dekhAtA e be22nuM nAma hatuM dhonDI. rUmamAM sAmAna mUkI ame maeNsamAM cApANI mATe dAkhala thavA gayA tyAM ja saMtrIe amane aTakAvyA. kahyuM, yuniphorma paheryAM vaga2 koI maeNsamAM dAkhala thaI zake nahIM.' ame haju oNphisa2 thayA na hatA; oNphisara thavA mATenI tAlIma levA 248 caritradarzana

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AvyA hatA. eTale amArI pAse yuniphorma mATenAM kapaDAM, bUTa vagere nahotAM. eTalAmAM amAro berara dhonDI amArI pAse doDato Avyo. eNe kahyuM, "sara, tame mArI sAthe cAlo. tamane kyAMthI yuniphorma maLaze te batAvuM.' ema kahIne te amane thoDe dUra AvelA kvArTara-mAsTaranA sToramAM laI gayo. ame tAlIma levA mATe AvyA chIe ema kvArTara-mAsTara kepTana mahADakarane ame jaNAvyuM eTale amane amArA mApa pramANe lazkarI gaNaveza-zarTa, TrAujhara, bUTa, TopI, paTTo, billo vagerenI traNa joDI ApavAmAM AvI. rUmamAM AvI yuniphorma paherI ame mesamAM adhikArapUrvaka dAkhala thayA. mesanA presiDanTa mejara vizvanAthane amane AvakAra Apyo. ame cA pIdhI. laMcane haju thoDI vAra hatI. daramiyAna pareDa parathI jema jema eka pachI eka lazkarI oNphisaro AvatA gayA tema tema amane teono paricaya karAvato gayo. te samaye mejara vizvanAthana uparAMta kepTana mahADakara, kepTana kalaMga, kepTana viliyamsA (teo aMgreja hatA, paraMtu AjhAdI pachI temaNe iMglenDa pAchA na jatAM bhAratamAM ja rahevAnuM pasaMda karyuM hatuM), kepTana varmA vagere oNphisaro hatA ane oNphisarsa maeNsanA kvATarsamAM rahetA hatA. be-traNa divasamAM amane teonA phaujI asahiSNu mijAjano paricaya thaI gayo. lazkaramAM badhe ja upara oNphisarono mijAja evo ja hoya. nIcenI renkanA mANaso sAthe AjJAkArI avAje ja vAtacIta thAya. koI paNa lazkarI mathakanuM oNphisarsa maeNsa eTale jANe eka judI ja duniyA. covIse kalAka sikyoriTI gArsa tenI kaDaka cokI kare. paravAnagI vagara bahAranA koI nAgarika temAM dAkhala na thaI zake. kampAunDamAM dAkhala thatAM ja svacchatA ane raMgaberaMgI phUlajhADanI ramaNIyatA tarata ApaNuM dhyAna kheMce. sadya anubhavAya tevI tyAM zAMti hoya. ghAMTA pADIne tyAM vAta na thAya. bUma pADIne koIne bolAvAya nahIM. uparIo sAthe dhImA sAde vinayavivekapUrvaka vAta thAya. zistano kaMI sumAra nahIM; lazakarI eTikeTano to kaMI pAra nahi. je siniyara ophisara beThA hoya temane samayAnusAra "guDa morniMga' ke 'guDa ivaniMga ema kahyA vagara mesanA beThakanA khaMDamAM dAkhala thavAya nahIM. jeTalA beThA hoya tenAthI koI vadhu siniyara oNphisara dhakhala thAya to badhAe UbhA thaIne 'guDa morniMga', 'guDa ivaniMga' ityAdi samayAnusAra zubhecchA darzAvavI paDe. maeNsa presiDanTa mATe amuka ja khurazI ke sophA nizcita hoya. maeNsa sekreTarI mATe paNa. tyAM bIjAthI besAya nahIM. koNa konI jamaNI bAju bese, koNa konI DAbI bAju bese enA paNa niyamo hoya. beThaka-khaMDa (enTi rUma)mAMthI DAyaniMga haoNlamAM bhojana mATe dAkhala thavAnuM hoya tyAre sauthI pahelAM mesa presiDanTa berara dhoDI 249

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dAkhala thAya. tyAra pachI siniyoriTI pramANe kramAnusAra lAInabaMdha eka pachI eka ophisara dAkhala thAya. dareka potAno krama jANe. darekanI khurazI nizcita hoya. khurazImAM tarata dhaDa daIne besAya nahIM. mesa presiDanTa pahelAM bese pachI ja bIjAthI besAya. besatI vakhate khurazI khaseDavAno ke bUTa caMpala to paherAya nahIM, mesamAM e niSiddha gaNAya)no jarA paNa avAja na thAya tenI kALajI rAkhavI paDe. beraro khabhA pAchaLa UbhA rahI DAbI bAjuthI pIrase. ekasAmaTuM vadhAre paDatuM levAya nahIM. badhAne pIrasAI jAya enuM dhyAna kheMsa presiDanTa rAkhe. e pote khAvA mATe hAthamAM camaco ke charI-kAMTA le tyAra pachI ja bIjA badhAthI camaco ke charIkAMTA hAthamAM levAya. presiDanTa je kSaNe potAnuM khAvAnuM pUruM karI camaco ke charIkAMTA pleTamAM mUkI de te ja kSaNe potAnuM khAvAnuM pUruM thayuM hoya ke na thayuM hoya topaNa badhA ophisaroe camaco ke charI-kAMTA mUkI devAM paDe. camaco, charI-kAMTA, mAkhaNanI charI vagere kayA hAthe kema pakaDavAM, sUpa ke porIja pUruM karavA mATe DAbA hAthe pleTa pakaDI kaI bAjuthI UMcI karavI tenuM AkhuM zAstra hoya. potAnuM khAvAnuM haju cAlu che te darzAvavA, potAne haju kaMIka joIe che te sUcavavA athavA potAnuM khAvAnuM pUruM karI lIdhuM che te jaNAvavA pleTamAM charI-kAMTA amuka rIte ja mUkavAnAM hoya. bera2 pAchaLa UbhA UbhA enA upara satata dhyAna rAkhe ane te pramANe varte. kyAreka khAtAM khAtAM bhUla thaI jAya to pleTa UpaDI jAya. pAchI maMgAya nahIM ke bolAya nahIM. eka korsa pUro thatAM badhI pleTo jhaDapathI upADI levAya. bIjI pleTo Ave. bIjo korsa zarU thAya. keTalA korsanuM Dinara che e bahAra noTisa-borDa para lakhyuM hoya, Tebala para paNa thoDe thoDe aMtare kArDa mUkyAM hoya tene lakSamAM rAkhIne jamavAnuM rahe. kyAreka pAMca korsanuM Dinara hoya, kyAreka sAta korsanuM to moTI DinaranAiTa vakhate vaLI nava korsanuM paNa hoya. ATalA badhA oNphisaro jamatA hoya topaNa camacAno pleTa sAthe khakhaDavAno jarA sarakho avAja na thAya. jamatA jamatAM sabaDakA na levAya; bUcakArA na bolAvAya; oDakAra na khavAya. cAvatAM cAvatAM jarA sarakho paNa avAja na thavo joIe. chIMka ke bagAsuM na AvavAM joIe ! Ave to tarata "sorI' kahI mAphI mAgavI joIe. be-traNa divasa uparAuparI chIMka Ave to mesa presiDanTano tarata Thapako maLe. DAyaniMga haoNlamAM jamavAnuM baMdha thAya. daMDa thAya. rUmamAM berara khAvAnuM ApI jAya te khAI levAnuM rahe. jamatAM jamatAM AjubAjumAM potAnI aMgata judI vAta na thAya. maeNsa presiDanTa je viSayanI vAta karatA hoya temAM ja rasa ane bhAga levAya. jyAM sudhI koI paNa 250 = caritradarzana

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siniyara ophisara bolatA hoya tyAM sudhI juniyara ophisarathI vacce bolAya nahIM. strIkathA, dharmakathA ane rAjakathA (arthAtu rAjakAraNa, e traNa DAyaniMga Tebala para niSiddha gaNAya. presiDanTa khAvAmAM utAvaLA hoya to pote paNa utAvaLa rAkhavI paDe. dhImA oNphisarone kyAreka bhUkhyA rahevAno vAro Ave. teve vakhate koI kazI vAtamAM bhAga na le; khAvAmAM ja dhyAna rAkhe. bhojanane aMte presiDanTa UbhA thAya te pachI ja bIjAthI UbhA thavAya. tyAre paNa khurazI khaseDavAno avAja na thavo joIe. bhojanakhaMDamAMthI bahAra nIkaLatI vakhate paNa siniyoriTI pramANe ja cAlavuM paDe. siniyoriTInI khabara na hoya to ekabIjAnA khabhA uparanI renkanI paTTI joI levI joIe. mesamAM koInI kaMI paNa bhUlacUka thaI hoya to te jatI karAya nahIM. presiDanTa tarata saunI vacce tochaDAIthI avazya Toke ja. vadhAre gaMbhIra bhUla hoya to daMDa athavA zikSA paNa kare. ATaluM badhuM kaDaka vAtAvaraNa ophisarsa maeNsamAM hoya. ame to e vAtAvaraNamAM pravezatAM pahele divase ja hebatAI gayA. amArA presiDanTa mejara vizvanAthana ghaNA kaDaka hatA, paraMtu ame badhA kaoNlejanA adhyApako chIe ema samajIne amArA pratye AraMbhanA be-traNa divasa thoDA narama rahyA. alabatta, zarUAtanA thoDA divasa lagabhaga roja ja koIka ne koIka adhyApakanI maeNsa eTikeTane lagatI kaMIka bhUla thatI ane te mATe teo amane badhAne tarata judA bolAvIne Thapako ke sUcanA ApatA. miliTarI mesa eTikeTa vizenI keTalIka sUcanAo amane jema mesa presiDanTa taraphathI maLatI tema amArA nokara-berara dhonDI taraphathI paNa maLatI. enI vAta karavAnI rIta parathI pahele divase ja amane lAgyuM ke te zAMta, narama, anubhavI ane kAmamAM ghaNo hoziyAra che. paNa ene mATenuM viziSTa pramANapatra to mejara vizvanAthananA zabdomAM ja hatuM. temaNe kahyuM, pro. zAha, tame bahu nasIbadAra cho ke tamArA bhAge berara tarIke dhoDI Avyo che. A mesamAM te jUnAmAM jUno berara che. aMgrejI ophisaronA hAthe tAlIma pAmelo che. aMgrejo sAthe te bhAratamAM ane bhArata bahAra ghaNuM rahelo che." amAro berara dhoDI abhaNa che. chatAM dezavidezamAM aMgrejo sAthe ghaNuM pharelo che e jANIne enA pratyeno amAro aNagamo ocho thaI gayo. miliTarI paeNsamAM berarane paNa khAsa tAlIma ApavAmAM Ave che. ophisaronuM savAranA pAMca vAgyAthI rAtanA dasa-agiyAra vAgyA sudhI "berara loga' satata dhyAna rAkhatA hoya che. sAro berara maLe to kazuM ja jovuM na paDe e svAnubhave amane samajAyuM. berara dhonDI ka 251

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ame pahele divase pareDa grAunDa upara gayA tyAre amArI rUmane tALuM mArIne gayA. paNa pachI ame joyuM ke miliTarI mesa kvATarsanA koI miliTarI ophisara potAnA rUmane tALuM mArIne jatA nathI. beraro upara vizvAsa rAkhavAno ja hoya. eTale ame adhyApakoe paNa tALuM mAravAnuM baMdha karyuM. ame jevA pareDa uparathI AvIe ke berara dhonDI amArI sAme nIce jamIna upara besI amArA bUTanI dorI choDI Ape. pagamAM paherelAM mojAM kADhI Ape. pahele divase ame yuniphaoNrmanuM zarTa jAte paherI lIdhuM (ema ja karavAnuM hoya ne !) paraMtu bIjA divasathI dhoDI amAruM zarTa khullu karI hAthamAM laIne evI rIte Ubho hoya ke amAre to mAtra be bAMyamAM be hAtha bharAvavAnA ja rahe. baTana paNa e ja bIDI Ape. mojAM, bUTa ane kamarapaTTo e ja paherAve. paTTAnA balone poliza karIne eNe taiyAra rAkhyAM ja hoya. judA judA Dresa sAthe paheravAnAM judI judI jAtanAM ane raMganAM bUTa, zUjha, caMpala vagere eNe divasa daramiyAna vakhatovakhata poliza karIne yogya jagyAe vyavasthita goThavI rAkhelAM ja hoya. eTaluM ja nahIM, rUmamAMthI jevA bahAra nIkaLIe ke tarata amArA bUTa upara te vagara kahe braza ane lUgaDuM pheravI Ape. eTalI vAramAM kazuM meluM thayuM na hoya, paraMtu vastu svaccha ane cakacakita rAkhavAnI evI miliTarI rasama hoya. rojeroja kayA kayA samaye kayo Dresa paheravAno che tenI amane sUcanA maLI hoya, paraMtu amArA karatAM dhonDI e barAbara jANe; te pramANe taiyAra rAkhe. te pramANe dhobIne dhovA Ape. te pramANe istrI karAvI lAve. nAnA bALakanuM mAtA dhyAna rAkhe tethI vizeSa dhyAna dhoDI amAruM rAkhe. savAre pAMca vAgye te rUmamAM cA laIne Ave. hajAmata mATe garama pANI laI Ave. hajAmata thaI gayA bAda hajAmatano sAmAna te dhoI nAkhe. nahAvAnA samaye nahAvAnuM garama pANI, TuvAla, sAbu vagere badhuM bAtharUmamAM vyavasthita goThavI rAkhe. pareDa para javA mATe sAikala barAbara che ke nahi te cakAsI rAkhe. kadAca koI TAyaramAM havA ochI hoya to te paMpa vaDe tarata pUrI le. ame pareDa para jaIe ke tarata te amAro palaMga, pathArI, maccharadAnI, cIjavastuo badhuM vyavasthita goThavI de. Ama savArathI sAMja sudhI eka paNa kAma evuM na hoya ke ApaNe sAmethI dhonDIne kahevuM ke pUchavuM paDe. badhuM ja vyavasthita, svacchatApUrvaka ane samayasara thaI gayuM hoya. dhoDI amArI sAthe rUmamAM hoya tyAre eNe sapheda zarTa ane sapheda pAyajAmo paherelAM hoya. enAM kapaDAM paNa svaccha ane IstrIvALAM hoya. rojeroja hajAmata teNe upara na caritradarzana

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karelI ja hoya. lazakaramAM badhAne mATe savAre hajAmata karavAno pharajiyAta kaDaka niyama hoya che. tela nAkhIne mAthuM oLeluM hoya; kyAMya DAgha sarakho paDavA dIdho na hoya. A dhonDI savAra-sAMja mesamAM amane pIrasavA Avato, paraMtu ame mesamAM ene be divasa sudhI to oLakhI zakelA nahIM, kAraNa ke teNe berara yuniphaoNrma paherelo hoya. sapheda Dagalo, nIce sapheda penTa, kammare gherA lAla raMgano jADo paTTo, mAthe lAlapILA raMganI AkarSaka moTI pAghaDI vagere sarasa paheryA hoya. DagalA upara DAbI bAjunA khabhA nIce caMdrakanI paTTIo lagADelI hoya. A badhuM eNe evI sarasa rIte paheryuM hoya ane pAghaDI paNa kANI AMkha DhaMgAya evI rIte paherI hoya ke e amAro dhonDI che evo khyAla paNa na Ave. jamavAmAM eTikeTanI daSTie amArI roja zI zI bhUla thAya che tenI eNe trIje divase jyAre vAta karI tyAre khabara paDI ke mesamAM te pIrasavA Ave che. eNe ja amane samajAveluM ke berara amArA DAbA khabhA pAse bAula laIne pIrasavA Ubho rahe tyAre ja temAMthI levAya, jamaNA khabhA pAse Ubho hoya tyAre nahIM. divase divase berara dhonDI sAthenI amArI nikaTatA vadhatI gaI. pachI to enAmAM amane eTalo badho vizvAsa besI gayo ke amArA TUMkanI cAvIo paNa ame ene soMpI dIdhI. amArA paisAnAM pAkITa paNa e saMbhALato ane paisAno hisAba paNa e rAkhato. jyAre ame amArA TUMka ane rUmane tALuM mArIne cAvI amArI pAse rAkhatA tyAre dhonDI rUmanI bahAra besI raheto, paNa tenA caherA upara kyAreya te mATenI nArAjagI jovA maLI nahotI. pachI jyAre ame ene TUMkanI cAvI, pAkITa ane paisA soMpyA tyAre tenA caherA upara acAnaka AnaMda pragaTyo hoya tevuM paNa nahotuM. A bAbatamAM dhoDI jANe sthitaprajJa hoya tevo lAgato. dhoDInA hAthe koI paNa vastu AghIpAchI thaI na hoya ke teno durupayoga paNa thayo na hoya. UMcI pAyarInA aMgreja ophisaronA hAthe tAlIma pAmelo dhoDI eka Adarza berara jevo hato. te zAMta hato. yasa sara' ane 'no sara' jevA becAra zabdo sivAya te bhAgye ja kazuM bolato. paraMtu eka divasa phurasadanA samaye ame ene pUchyuM tyAre teNe thoDI potAnI aMgata vAta karI hatI. dhonDI kahe, "sara, mane maeNsamAMthI berara tarIke pagAra maLe che, khAvAnuM paNa maLe che. mAre mATe e pUratuM che. mane koI vyasana nathI. bIjA keTalAka beraro ophisaronI DrinkiMga pArTI patI gayA pachI vadhelo zarAba pI jatA hoya che, kyAreka rAtanA bahAra rakhaDavA jatA hoya che; mane to e kazuM gamatuM nathI. mesanI AjJA pramANe "oNphisara loganuM huM barAbara kAma karuM emAM ja mane saMtoSa che.' berara dhoDI ka 253

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meM pUchyuM, 'tuM ATaluM sAruM kAma kare che, to A nokarI choDIne bahAra bIjuM koI kAma kare to? dhAro ke tane vadhAre paisA maLe to game ke nahIM?" eNe kahyuM, "sara, huM jANuM chuM ke mArA nasIbamAM paisA nathI, eTale A kAma choDI huM bIje javAno nathI." meM kahyuM, 'tuM kevI rIte kahI zake ke tArA nasIbamAM paisA nathI ?" sara, eka ja dAkhalo ApuM. ghaNAM varSa pahelAM, laDAI pahelAM A yuniTanA kamAnDara hatA karnala cAlyuM. huM emano orDaralI hato. teo riTAyarDa thaIne iMglenDa javAnA hatA. nIkaLatI vakhate miliTarI kAramAM besatAM pahelAM emaNe mane bolAvyo. kahyuM, "dhonDI ! tuM kharekhara eka bahu sAro oNrDaralI che. huM tArA para bahota khuza chuM. iMglenDa jatAM pahelAM mAre tane sArI bakSisa ApavI che. paraMtu mAre e jovuM che ke tArA nasIbamAM keTalI bakSisa che. meM paherela A yuniphormamAM baMne moTAM khissAmAM paisA mUkelA che. tArI marajI mujaba koI paNa eka khissAmAM hAtha nAkhIne emAMthI badhA ja paisA tuM laI le.' sAhebanA khissAmAM hAtha nAkhatAM mane saMkoca thayo, paraMtu emano oNrDara thayo eTale e pramANe meM eka khissAmAM hAtha nAkhyo. emAM puSkaLa paisA hatA. karnale te badhA ja laI levA kahyuM. meM lIdhA. karnale AjJA karI eTale gaNI joyA. badhA sikkA maLIne mane kula pAMca rUpiyA maLyA. ATalI badhI bakSisathI kharekhara mane bahu ja AnaMda thayo; jiMdagImAM eTalI bakSisa kyAreya maLI nahotI. paraMtu karnala cArlse kahyuM, "dhoDI, tArA nasIbamAM jhAjhA paisA nathI. jo teM A bIjA khissAmAM hAtha nAkhyo hota to tane pAMcaso rUpiyA maLata." ema kahI karnale pAMcaso rUpiyAnI noTonI thappI kADhIne batAvI. e joI mane ghaNo aphasosa thayo. paNa pachI to meM mana manAvI lIdhuM ke mArA nasIbamAM paisA ja nathI." to e karnale tane pAMcaso rUpiyA na ApyA ?" nA. e briTiza karnala hatA to bahu bhalA. paNa je bolyA te bolyA. boleluM badhuM pALe. niyama eTale niyama. rUpiyA na Ape te na ja Ape. paraMtu e ja karnala mArI AMkhanA oNparezana mATe ghaNI mahenata lIdhI hatI. paraMtu mAruM nasIba ja vAMkuM, AMkha sArI na thaI te na ja thaI." zuM thayuM hatuM AMkhe ?" "A mArI eka AMkha meM laDAImAM gumAvI che. amArA eka ophisara mejara hanTa sAthe ITalInA morace huM gayo hato. te vakhate mejara sAhebanuM eka arjanTa kAma karavA mATe huM mArI sAIkala bahu jhaDapathI doDAvI rahyo hato. evAmAM eka ra54 caritradarzana WWW.jainelibrary.org

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paththara sAthe sAIkala bhaTakAI. huM paDyo. paDatAM ja sAikalanI bekano dAMDo mArI AMkhamAM ghUsI gayo. AMkha phUTI gaI. puSkaLa lohI nIkaLyuM. tarata mane haoNspiTalamAM dAkhala karyo. oNparezana karyuM. paNa AMkhe dekhAtuM na thayuM te na ja thayuM. laDAImAMthI huM pAcho A senTaramAM Avyo. yuniTa kamAnDara tarIke tyAra pachI A belagAmanA senTaramAM traNa briTiza karnala AvI gayA. pachI AvyA pelA karnala cArlsa. emaNe mane pUnAnI miliTarI haoNspiTalamAM laI jaIne AMkhanuM pharIthI oparezana karAvI ApyuM topaNa e AMkhe dekhAtuM thayuM nahIM." tuM keTalI laDAImAM gayo che ? judA judA oNphisaro sAthe huM yuropa, AphrikA, barmA, siMgApora vagere ghaNI jagyAe gayo chuM. sara, huM ghaNuM badhuM pharyo chuM. have mane bahAra javAnI koI icchA thatI nathI. "ophisara loganI nokarI karatAM karatAM mArI jiMdagI pUrI karavI, basa eTalI ja icchA che." dhoDI, tAruM vatana kyAM ? sara, huM haidrAbAdano chuM. tyAM mAruM koI nathI. nAnapaNamAM mAbApa gumAvelAM, anAtha hato. lazkaramAM sainika tarIke bharatI thavA Avelo. tAlIma lIdhI, paNa AgaLa vadhI na zakyo. ethI nirAza thayo. paNa chevaTe oNrDaralI tarIke mArI khAvApIvAnI ciMtA TaLI. tArI patnI, bALako kaMI che ?" "nA sara, laDAImAMthI pAchA AvyA pachI mAre paraNavuM hatuM, paNa tyAM eka AMkha gaI eTale mane koNa paraNe ? eka orata taiyAra thaI hatI, paNa te paNa mArA paisA laIne bhAgI gaI. bIje paraNI gaI. eTale mane thayuM ke jo mArA nasIbamAM orata ja na hoya to nakAmAM phAMphAM zuM mAravAM? ahIM ghaNI zAMti che, huM bahu sukhI chuM." anubhava-samRddha, kAryadakSa, AjJAMkita, vaphAdAra, prAmANika ane nispRha berara dhonDInI jIvavA mATenI potAnI eka prakAranI nasIbavAdI philasUphI hatI, ane te pramANe te potAnuM zAMta jIvana jIvato hato. bhAratanAM ghaNAM judAM judAM lazkarI mathakomAM rahevAnuM mAre thayuM che. emAM ApaNuM prakIrNa kAma karanArA ane vakhatovakhata badalAtA azikSita beraro tarapha ApaNuM khAsa kazuM lakSa na jAya, paraMtu bera2 dhonDI eka evI viziSTa koTino berara hato ke jenA vyaktitvanI chApa cittamAM cirakALane mATe aMkita thaI gaI che. (berarathI brigeDiyara'mAMthI) berara dhonDI 255

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28 kaeNDeTa AndrAde pUnAthI lagabhaga cauda mAIla dUra khaDakavAsalA pAse eka TekarI che. tyAM amAro ena. sI. sI. kaeNmpa yojavAmAM Avyo hato. ziyALAnI kaDakaDatI ThaMDInA divaso hatA. Disembara-jAnyuArImAM cauda divasa mATe yojAyelA amArA A kaeNmpanA kamAnDiMga oNphisara hatA mejara kolAbAvAlA. dakSiNa muMbaInI elphinsTana, jheviyarsa, vilsana ane siddhArtha ema cAra kaoNlejonA maLIne Azare sADA cAraso jeTalA kaeNDeTa A kaeNmpamAM tAlIma mATe AvyA hatA. dareka kaoNlejamAMthI ena. sI. sI.mAM tyAre doDhaso kaeNDeTonI bharatI thatI. tenI eka kaMpanI gaNAtI. e rIte amArI beTeliyanamAM kula cAra kaMpanI hatI. dareka kaoNleja pAse eka kaMpanI rahetI. tene 'e' bI' 'sI' ane 'DI' ema cAra nAma ApavAmAM AvyAM hatAM. amArI jheviyarsa kaoNlejanI kaMpanI bI' hatI. amArI kaMpanInA cAra oNphisomAM huM sauthI nAno hato. mArI renka tyAre sekanDa lephaTenanTanI hatI. A cAreya kaMpanIo vacce tIvra rasAkasIbharI spardhA thatI. dara varSe ena. sI. sI. kaeNmpamAM spardhAone aMte je kaMpanI sarvazreSTha jAhera thAya te kaMpanIne te mATenI TrophI maLatI. kaoNleja mATe te bahu gauravano viSaya gaNAto. uparAuparI traNa varSa sudhI AvI TrophI meLavI jAya te kaMpanIne beTeliyana taraphathI vizeSa mAnanI TrophI paNa maLatI. paraMtu haju sudhI koI kaMpanIe evuM vizeSa mAna meLavyuM na hatuM. ena. sI. sI. kaeNmpamAM ame jaIe eTale pahelA divasathI ja vividha spardhAo mATe jorajorathI taiyArIo karavA lAgIe. kaeNDeTonI pareDa uparanI hAjarInI TakAvArI, pheDeToe potAnA taMbumAM savAre potAnI cIjavastuonI karelI goThavaNI 256 caritradarzana

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(lAIna DresiMga), taMbumAM ane taMbu bahAra svacchatA ane sughaDatA, mAMdA paDatA keDeTonI ochAmAM ochI TakAvArI, kvArTara gArDajha mATe cUMTelA keDeTonI capaLatA, vividha lazkarI viSayonI tAlIma lIdhA pachI keDeToe ApelI parIkSAnA pariNAmo - vagere prakAranA mArkasanI gaNatarI thatI uparAMta vArSika ramata-gamatanI ghaNIbadhI spardhAo kempanA chellA be-traNa divasamAM thatI. A badhI bAbatomAM je kaMpanI saravALe vadhumAM vadhu mArkasa meLavI jAya te kaMpanIne zreSTha kaMpanI tarIke kaeNmpanA vArSika dinanA meLAvaDAmAM jAhera karAtI ane tene meLAvaDAnA mukhya mahemAnanA haste TrophI apAtI. amArI bI' kaMpanInA keDeTo A badhI spardhAomAMthI koIkamAM AgaLa rahetA, to koIkamAM pAchaLa, paraMtu be varSathI ramatagamatanI vividha spardhAomAM ame ghaNAbadhA mArkasa meLavI jatA. ene lIdhe zreSTha kaMpanI' tarIkenI TrophI uparAuparI be varSa amArI kaMpanIe meLavI hatI. A TrophI meLavavAmAM amArA eka keDeTa oNlivara AndrAno ghaNo moTo phALo hato. AndrAde govAno vatanI hato. muMbaImAM vAMdrAmAM raheto hato. nAnI uMmaramAM pitA gumAvyA hatA. enI mAtAno te ekano eka dIkaro hato. ene ramatagamatamAM jeTalo rasa hato teTalo bhaNavAmAM nahoto. paNa dara varSe te jematema karIne pAsa jarUra thaI jato. te zarIre khaDatala, svabhAve hasamukho ane dilano bhoLo hato. zALAmAM hato tyArathI ja doDavAmAM ene rasa paDyo hato. so mITara, baso mITara, AThaso mITara, hajAra mITara vagere TUMkAM ane lAMbA aMtaronI doDavAnI badhI spardhAomAM tathA rIle ane krosakanTrInA prakAranI vividha harIphAIomAM olivara AdrAde bIjA badhA keDeTo karatAM ghaNobadho AgaLa nIkaLI jato. AdrAde lagabhaga cha phUTa UMco, ghauMvarNo, moTI AMkhovALo, bharAvadAra zarIrano hato. te jyAre doDato tyAre chalAMgo mArIne, lAMbAM DagalAM bharIne doDato hoya tevuM lAge. tenA doDavAmAM gamI jAya evAM laya, chaTA ane tAla jovA maLe. ame badhA ophisaro tene kahetA : "AndrAde tuM to ghoDAnI jema thAkyA vagara doDe che. eka divasa jarUra tuM merethona resamAM paNa prathama naMbare Avaze." ramatagamatanAM pariNAmomAM bIjI kaMpanIone AdrAde eTalI badhI pAchaLa pADI deto ke bIjA lazkarI viSayonI spardhAomAM amArI kaMpanI thoDI nabaLI hoya topaNa "zreSTha kaMpanInI TrophI ame ja meLavI jatA. A khaDakavAsalAno kempa nakkI thayo te vakhate amane pUrepUrI khAtarI hatI ke "zreSTha kaMpanI mATenI TrophI trIjI vAra paNa ame ja meLavIzuM, eTaluM ja nahi keDeTa AnnAde 257

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paNa uparAuparI traNa varSa TrophI meLavavA mATe vizeSa mAnanI TrophI paNa ame prApta karIzuM. paraMtu kempa mATe ame muMbaIthI pUnA javA mATe nIkaLavAnA hatA tene Agale divase AndrAde amArI pAse gamagIna cahere Avyo. eNe kahyuM, "sara, sorI ! huM kempamAM AvI zakuM tema nathI. mArI mAtAnI tabiyata sArI nathI. tAva Avyo che. Utarato nathI. DaoNkTaranA kahevA pramANe mAre ghare rokAvuM jarUrI che.' AdrAdenI vAta sAMbhaLatAM ja ame nirAza thaI gayA. trIjI vAranI TrophI meLavavAnI eka sarasa taka hAthamAMthI jANe cAlI jatI hoya ema lAgyuM. amane aphasosa thayo. paraMtu AnnAdenI mAtAnI tabiyatano prazna vadhu mahattvano hato. eTale ame ene kempamAM gerahAjara rahevA mATe paravAnagI ApI. kaeNmpa mATe ame muMbaIthI rAtanI speziyala TrenamAM nIkaLI savAre pUnA pahoMcyA. pUnAthI cauda mAIla badhA keDeTone lazkaranA sainikonI jema mArca karAvIne ame khaDakavAsalA laI gayA. A pahele divase pahoMcIne keDeToe tarata ja potAnA taMbu lagAvavAnA hatA, paraMtu bhAre bUTa paherI, hAthamAM rAiphala rAkhI cauda mAIlanI lazakarI kUca lagabhaga badhA keDeToe jiMdagImAM pahelI vAra karI hatI. pariNAme aDadhAthI vadhu keDeTonA page DaMkha paDI gayA hatA. eTale kempamAM amAro pahelo divasa aDadho ArAmamAM, haLavAM kAryomAM pasAra thayo. nizcita saMkhyAmAM taMbuo taiyAra na thayA. je thayA te paNa jevAtevA, pharIthI sarakhA karavA paDe evA thayA hatA. emAM paNa amArI kaMpanInA keDeTo vadhAre susta thaI gayA hatA. temanA kAmamAM koI dama dekhAto nahoto, kAraNa ke AnnAde na AvavAne kAraNe TrophI meLavavAnI koI AzA rahI nahotI. keDeTomAM nirAzA vyApe e sAruM nahi ema samajI ame ophisaro amArA keDeTone utsAhita karavA mATe prayatno karatA rahyA hatA, joke tenuM pariNAma dhAryuM AvatuM na hatuM. be divasa A rIte pasAra thayA. tyAM trIje divase sAMje amArI kaMpanI-sArjanTa mejara (sI. esa. ema.) doDato Avyo. kahe, "sara, khuza khabara ! AndrAde AvI gayo che." eTalI vAramAM AdrAde paNa amArI pAse AvI pahoMcyo. ame rAjI rAjI thaI gayA. ame tarata pUchyuM, "AndrAde tuM AvI gayo ? bahu sAruM karyuM. tArI khoTa varatAtI hatI. tArI mAtAne have kema che ?" "sAruM che, sara ! sAdhAraNa tAva Avyo hato. kaMI ciMtA karavA jevuM have rahyuM na hatuM. tAva UtarI gayo ane DokTare kempamAM AvavA mATe mane hA paNa pADI. eTale vahelAmAM vahelI Trena pakaDavAnuM meM nakkI karyuM. huM nIkaLyo tyAre mArI mAtA 258 caritradarzana

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gharamAM haratIpharatI thaI gaI hatI.' AntAdenA AgamananA samAcAra vAyuvege amArA AkhA kaeNmpamAM prasarI gayA. amArI kaMpanInA kaeNDeTomAM ekadama utsAhanuM mojuM pharI vaLyuM. pachI to ramatagamata uparAMta bIjI bAju spardhAo mATe paNa taDAmAra taiyArIo cAlavA mAMDI. bIjI bAju AntAdenA AgamanathI anya kaMpanIonA kaeNDeTomAM nirAzAnI thoDI lAgaNI vyApI gaI. emanI taiyArIo kaMIka ThaMDI paDavA lAgI. eka pachI eka divasa pasAra thavA lAgyA. rojerojanI vividha harIphAIonAM pariNAmo jAhera thatAM gayAM. amArA mArksa umerAtA cAlyA. keTalIka spardhAomAM bIjI kaMpanIo karatAM ame AgaLa nIkaLI gayA hatA. TrophI mATe have ame sAva nizcita banI gayA hatA, kAraNa ke ramatagamatanI ghaNI spardhAomAM AntAde pahele naMbare AvI puSkaLa mArksa meLavI ApavAno hato. vArSika dinanI spardhAnA be divasa agAu ramatagamata sivAyanAM badhAM pariNAmo AvI gayAM. TrophI mATe bIjI kaMpanIonA oNphisaro amane agAuthI abhinaMdana ApavA lAgyA. paraMtu te divase rAtre lagabhaga be vAge amArA sI. esa. ema.e AvIne amane gADyA. sAthe kaeNDeTa AnnAde paNa hato. enI AMkhamAM AMsu hatAM. sI. esa. ema.e amArA hAthamAM tAra mUkyo. AntAde u52 e Avelo hato. lakhyuM hatuM : "madhara verI siriyasa, kama imiDIeTalI.' tAra vAMcatAM ja amane UMDo AghAta lAgyo. ena. sI. sI. kaeNmpanI kaparI tAlImamAMthI ane hADamArIomAMthI chaTakavA mATe kyAreka keDeTo gharethI koIka svajananI gaMbhIra mAMdagI che evA khoTA tAra magAvatA hoya che; paraMtu te to zarUAtanA divasomAM. AnvAdeno kisso judo hato. te to UlaTAno jAte hADamArI veThIne kaeNmpamAM AvI pahoMcyo hato. vaLI kaeNmpa pUro thavA Avyo hato. eTale eno tAra khoTo hovAno koI prazna ja nahoto. ene ghare pAchA javA mATe amAre rajA ApavI ja joIe. eka tarapha kaMpanInI TrophI ane bIjI tarapha eka kaeNDeTanI mAtAnI mAMdagI - e bemAMthI kaMpanInI TrophIne vadhu mahattva na ja apAya. bIje divase savAre AndrArdane kaeNmpamAMthI ghare javA mATenI lekhita paravAnagI ApavAmAM AvI. khaDakavAsalAthI pUnA, pUnAthI dAdara ane dAdarathI tenA ghare vAMdrA pahoMcatAM rAta paDI javAnI hatI. Akho rasto AntAde ciMtAmAM ekalo pasAra karavAno hato. enA jevA eka sArA kaeNDeTanI asvastha avasthAe amane paNa kaeNDeTa AndrAde 259

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asvastha karI mUkyA. AkhA kempamAM AndrAde gayAnA samAcAra pharI vaLyA. spardhAmAM prathama AvI TrophI meLavavAnI amArI AzA upara pANI pharI vaLyuM. spardhAmAM bIje naMbare AvavAnI zakyatAvALI kaMpanInA keDeTo prathama AvavA mATe pharI pAchA utsAhamAM AvI gayA. vAtAvaraNa palaTAI gayuM. e divasa pasAra thaI gayo. bIje divase baporanA aDhI vAgyAthI ramatagamatanI badhI spardhAo cAlu thavAnI hatI. dareka kaMpanInA spardhaka keDeTonAM nAmonI yAdI badhAne ApavAmAM AvI hatI. AnnAdenuM emAM nAma hatuM, paraMtu te to have gerahAjara rahevAno hato. enI gyAe bhAga levA mATe bIjA eka keDeTane ame taiyAra karyo hato, paraMtu te to mAtra spardhAmAM bhAga levA khAtara ja. AdrAde jeTalI zakti enAmAM nahotI e sau jANatA hatA. amArA A vArSika dinanI ujavaNI prasaMge mukhya mahemAna tarIke ena. sI. sI.nA DAyarekTara janarala mejara, janarala vIrendra siMgha dilhIthI padhAravAnA hatA. teo savAre kempamAM AvI gayA hatA. kempanuM Inspekzana karI laMca mATe teo mesamAM AvyA. tyAre A spardhAonI ane AdrAnI vAta nIkaLI. temaNe paNa AdrAde mATe ane amArI kaMpanI mATe aphasosa vyakta karyo. laMca pachI ame badhA ophisaro vArSika dinanA kAryakrama mATeno yuniphorma paherI pareDa-grAunDa para pahoMcI gayA. ophisaro mATe khAsa zamiyANo bAMdhavAmAM Avyo hato. medAnanI sAmenI bAju potapotAnI kaMpanI pramANe keDeTo goThavAI gayA hatA. judI judI spardhAo mATe AkhA medAnamAM cUnAthI paTTA pADavAmAM AvyA hatA. medAnane eka cheDe ramatagamatanA niyAmaka ophisara blenka rAunDavALI pistola laIne UbhA rahyA hatA. temanI pAse pahelI spardhAmAM bhAga lenArA keDeTo utsukatAthI thanaganI rahyA hatA. "geTa seTa (Get Set)nI sUcanA apAI. pistolano dhaDAko thayo. keDeTo doDavA lAgyA. eka spardhA pUrI thaI. mApa levAyAM. kAgaLamAM lakhAIne oNphisaranI sahI sAthe pariNAmo AvyAM. tenI jAherAta karanAra ophisare mAIkamAMthI jAherAta karI. tALIonA gaDagaDATa thayA. amArI "bI" kaMpanInA ophisarone ke keDeTone A pariNAmomAM have bahu rasa rahyo na hato, kAraNa ke amane TrophI maLavAnI na hatI. alabatta, kheladilI batAvavA ame e spardhA jItanAra kaMpanIne vadhAvI lIdhI. enA ophisarone mubArakabAdI paNa ApI. pistolano bIjo dhaDAko thayo. doDavAnI bIjI spardhA cAlu thaI. keDeTo doDavA ra60 caritradarzana

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lAgyA. paraMtu jovA beThelA keDeTomAM acAnaka moTo gaNagaNATa cAlu thaI gayo. amArA er3ayUTanTa oNphisare te badhAne cUpa rahevA mATe kaDaka zabdomAM vAraMvAra kahyuM. topaNa gaNagaNATa zamyo nahIM. eTalAmAM doDavAnI spardhAmAM bhAga lenAra keDeTo doDatA doDatA amArA zamiyANA najIka AvavA lAgyA. UMcAI ane lAMbI chalAMga jotAM ja amane thayuM ke AmAM AnnAde jevA ja koI keDeTe bhAga lIdho lAge che. amArI sAme TrekamAM e badhA keDeTo doDatA pasAra thayA tyAre amane Azcarya thayuM. ame mAnI na zakyA ke emAM AnnAde kevI rIte hoI zake. eTalAmAM amAro sI. esa. ema. doDato AvIne samAcAra ApI gayo, "sara, khuza khabara! AndrA AvI gayo che. spardhAmAM joDAI gayo che." ame sAnaMdAzcaryamAM garakAva thaI gayA. kema Ama banyuM haze tenA vicAramAM paDI gayA. bIjA ophisaro paNa potAnI beThaka parathI UbhA thaI amane e vize pUchI gayA, paraMtu amArI pAse pUrI mAhitI nahotI. AkhuM vAtAvaraNa pharI pAchuM palaTAI gayuM. eka pachI eka spardhAomAM AdrAde bhAga levA lAgyo ane prathama naMbare AvavA lAgyo. amArA mArkasa jhaDapathI vadhatA cAlyA. spardhAo pUrI thaI. ramatagamatamAM amArI kaMpanIe sauthI vadhu mArkasa meLavyA ane zreSTha kaMpanI mATenI TrophI meLavavA uparAMta satata trIjI vAra TrophI meLavI javA mATe vizeSa mAna'nI TrophI paNa ame meLavI. amArI kaMpanInA itihAsamAM ane amArI beTeliyananA itihAsamAM eka navo vikrama sarjAyo. amArI kaoNleja mATe eka gauravarUpa ghaTanA banI. judAM judAM InAmonI mejara janaralanA hAthe vaheMcaNI thaI. zreSTha kaMpanInI TrophI levA mATe to sI. esa. ema. ja Ave, paraMtu mejara janarale sUcanA karI ke sAthe AnnAde paNa Ave ja. baMne AvyA. salAma bharI. TrophI lIdhI. badhAe emane tALIonA gaDagaDATathI vadhAvI lIdhA. AnnAdenI AMkhamAM AMsu AvI gayAM. amArA badhAnI paNa AMkha bhInI thaI gaI. kAryakrama pUro thatAM TrophI laI amArI kaMpanInA badhA keDeTa nAcavAkUdavA lAgyA. keTalAka to AnnAdene khabhA para UMcakI gIto gAtA pheravavA lAgyA. keTalIka vAre A nAcagAna zAMta thayuM eTale ame AnnAdene bolAvyo. AvatAM ja te raDI paDyo. bolyo, "sara, tAra khoTo hato ! mArI mAtAne kaMI na hatuM. mane ema lAge che ke ApaNane harAvavA bIjI koI kaMpanIvALAe IrSyA ane dveSathI Avo tAra muMbaIthI koInI pAse karAvyo hovo joIe.' keDeTa AnnAde 261

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amane paNa e vahema sAco hovAno saMbhava jaNAyo. AnnAdee pachI badhI vAta mAMDIne kahI. e sAMbhaLIne AnnAde pratye amane anahada mAna thayuM. kempamAMthI nIkaLyo tyAre AdrAde Akhe raste potAnI mAtAnI tabiyata vize ciMtAmAM hato. TrenamAM ene kazuM khAvAnuM ke pANI pIvAnuM sudhdhAM gamyuM nahIM. rAte dAdara sTezanethI TeksI karIne ghera pahoMcyo tyAre ene Azcarya thayuM, kAraNa ke tenI mAtA to sAjIsamI ane haratIpharatI hatI. AnnAde pAseno tAra vAMcIne e paNa raDI paDI. mAtAnI tabiyata sArI ja che eno AnaMda anubhavatAM ja AndrAdee dasa miniTamAM nirNaya karI lIdho ke jo kaeNmpamAM tarata pAchA pahoMcI zakAtuM hoya to pahoMcI javuM. tapAsa karI to haju rAtanI pesenjara Trena maLe ema hatI. TeksI karIne te dAdara pahoMcyo. TrenamAM giradI ghaNI hatI. AkhI rAta UbhA UbhA pravAsa karyo. savAre pUnA sTezane te AvI pahoMcyo. basasTenDa para jaI tapAsa karI to khaDakavAsalA koI basa sAMjanA cAra vAgyA sudhI javAnI na hatI. bIjuM koI vAhana paNa maLe tema na hatuM. tarata nirNaya karyo ke khaDakavAsalA cAlatAM javuM. rasto pUchatAM pUchatAM eNe jhaDapathI cAlavA mAMDyuM. dasa mAIla cAlyA pachI ghaDiyALamAM joyuM to lAgyuM ke have jo ramatagamatamAM bhAga levA pahoMcavuM hoya to doDyA sivAya chUTako nathI. eTale chellA cAreka mAIla te satata doDato rahyo. jhaDapathI TekarI caDIne kempamAM pareDa-grAunDa pAse pahoMcyo. spardhA cAlu thaI gaI hatI eTale potAnA taMbumAM paNa gayA vinA te bIjA eka keDeTanAM sporTsanAM kapaDAM paherIne jhaDapathI bIjI spardhAmAM joDAI gayo. emAM prathama Avyo. tyAra pachI doDavA mATenI eka pachI eka ema badhI ja spardhAomAM, thAka ane ujAgarAnI paravA karyA vagara, khUba hiMmata, AtmavizvAsa ane jussAthI eNe bhAga lIdho, ane darekamAM prathama naMbare Avyo. ame AnnAdene kahyuM, "teM Aje kaMpanInuM gaurava vadhAryuM che, eTaluM ja nahi paNa te bIjAone preraNA maLe evuM kharekhara udAtta parAkrama karyuM che. te mATe tane khUba khUba abhinaMdana ghaTe che." AdrAdenI badhI vAta ame bIjA oNphisarone kahI. kamAnDiMga ophisara mejara kolAbAvAlAne ane mejara janarala vIrendra siMghane paNa e vAta karI. temane paNa AnnAde mATe ghaNuM mAna thayuM. sAMje mesamAM ame badhA oNphisaro ekatra thayA ke tarata mejara janarale mesa sekreTarIne AjJA karI ke 'Dinara TebalamAM eka vadhu khurazInI vyavasthA karAvo." 262 ki caritradarzana

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vaLI emaNe amArA kaMpanI-kamAnDarane sUcanA karI ke "AnnAdene bolAvI lAvavA mATe saMdezo mokalo. Aje te ApaNI sAthe - badhA ophisaronI sAthe Dinara leze !' saMdezo maLatAM AnnAde yuniphorma paherIne Avyo. mejara janaralane salAma karI. mejara janarale enI sAthe hAtha milAvI khuzI vyakta karI. AndrAnA anubhavanI vAto thaI. samaya thayo eTale amArI sAthe DinaramAM te joDAyo. eka keDeTane mejara janaralanA hAthe maLeluM A mAna lakaranI dRSTie jevuMtevuM na gaNAya. AdrAdee paNa ethI bahu dhanyatA anubhavI. muMbaI jatAM mAnI tabiyatanI satata ciMtA, pAchAM pharatAM AkhI rAtano ujAgaro, pravAsano thAka, kempamAM pahoMcavA mATenI ciMtA, mArgano zrama, spardhAmAM prathama AvavA mATe vAparelI tAkAta ane sAMjanuM bhAre bhojana chatAM AnnAdenI AMkhomAM UMgha nahotI. parizrama saphaLa thayAnA saMtoSanI, siddhi hAMsala karyAnA AnaMdanI, mejara janaralanI bAjumAM besI bhojana lIdhAnA gauravanI viziSTa tAjhagIbharI camaka enA caherA upara varatAtI hatI. keDeTa AnnAde ka 263

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29 kaoNrporala bArazI julAI mahino zarU thayo. amArI kaoNlejanA navA vidyArthIone ena.sI.sI.mAM dAkhala ka2vAnI kAryavAhI pUrI thaI. sAMjanI pAMca vAgyAnI pareDa cAlu thavAnI hatI. pareDanA aDadhA kalAka pahelAM huM sI.esa.ema. (kaMpanI sArjanTa mejara) sAthe amArI ena.sI.sI.nI oNphise pahoMcyo. tALuM kholI dAkhala thayo ke tarata kazIka tIvra durgaMdha AvavA lAgI, jANe ke marelA uMdaranI vAsa na AvatI hoya ! zAnI vAsa Ave che tenI tapAsa karavA mATe huM haju amArA sI.esa.ema.ne sUcanA ApuM chuM eTalAmAM to eka kaeNDeTa potAno rola-naMbara pUchavA oNphisamAM AvI caDhyo ane tarata bolyo : sara, tamane kaMI kharAba vAsa AvatI nathI ?" navo kaeNDeTa hato eTale enI sAthe kaMpanI-kamAnDara tarIke lazkarI zista pramANe aMtara rAkhavA meM irAdApUrvaka javAba ApavAnuM TALyuM. sI.esa.ema. dvArA ene kahevaDAvyuM ke rola-naMbara mATe e potAnA pleTUna sArjanTane maLe. paraMtu e kaeNDeTa pharIthI bolyo : 'sara, kaho na kaho paNa bahu ja kharAba vAsa Ave che. sahana thatI nathI. jANe koI uMdara marI gayo na hoya !' ema kahI nAke rUmAla dabAvI te nIce namyo ane tarata bolI UThyo : sAcI vAta che, sa2 ! A kabATa nIce eka marelo uMdara paDyo che.' nIcA vaLI meM kabATa nIce joyuM. enI vAta sAcI hatI. kabATa nIce marelo uMdara paDyo hato. te pheMkI AvavA mATe hamAlane huM sUcanA ApuM te pahelAM to e keDeTe uMdarane pUMchaDathI pakaDyo ane kahyuM, 'sara, huM pote ja pheMkI AvuM chuM. hamAlane bolAvavAnI jarUra nathI.' uMdarane pheMkI te pAcho Avyo. cItarI caDe evuM kAma karavA mATenI enI 264 caritradarzana

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tatparatA joI mane enA pratye mAna thayuM. kaoNlejamAM navo dAkhala thayelo muMbaIno vidyArthI AvuM kAma tarata na kare. eTale teno AtmavizvAsa jabaro lAgyo. lazkaramAM to game tyAre game te prakAranuM kAma karavAnuM AvI paDe. koI kAma halakuM nathI. koI kAma karavAmAM kazI zarama na hovI joIe. eTale AvI kAmagIrI karanAra keDeTa lazkarI jIvanane-ena.sI.sI.ne anurUpa lAgyo. thoDI vAra pachI e keDeTa pharI ophisamAM Avyo. enA eka hAthamAM pANI bharelI bAladI hatI. bIjA hAthamAM lUgaDuM hatuM. tarata eNe pANIthI ophisamAM potuM karI nAkhyuM. paMkho phAsTa calAvyo. thoDI vAramAM durgadha nIkaLI gaI. ene. pUchyuM, "tAruM nAma zuM ?' bArazI, sara !" bhale, AbhAra tAro, bArazI!" pachI ghaDiyALa sAme joI meM kahyuM, "have bArazI ! pareDano TAima thaI gayo che. pareDamAM tuM moDo na paDavo joIe. jA, jaladI jA.' enA gayA pachI meM amArA sI.esa.ema.ne e keDeTa vize pUchyuM, paraMtu ene bArazIno barAbara paricaya nahoto; varSanI haju zarUAta hatI; keDeTa navo hato. * mane bArazInA vyaktitvamAM rasa paDyo. ena.sI.sI.nI kaMpanImAM Avo hiMmatavALo hoziyAra vidyArthI hoya to zista ane vahIvaTanI daSTie ghaNo upayogI thaI paDe. bIjA chokarAone te sAro dAkhalo besADe. UMco, ekadama kALo, laMbagoLa caherAvALo, moTI AMkhovALo ane hase tyAre kALA hoTha vacce sapheda dAMta cakacake evo A keDeTa bIjA badhAmAM judo tarI Avato hato. daramiyAna sI.esa.ema. tapAsa karI lAvyo ke te sArjanTa kRSNasvAmInA pleTUnamAM che. cAreka vAra sArjanTane maLyo haze, paraMtu eTalA samayamAM ja enI kAma karavAnI tatparatA joIne sArjanTa kRSNasvAmI paNa enAthI prabhAvita thaI gayA hatA. bArazI sarerAza chokarAo karatAM vadhu lAMbo ane ghaNo tagaDo hato, eTale enA mApanAM kapaDAM yuniphorma amArA sToramAM nahotAM. ene mATe darajI pAse penTa kholAvIne zakya teTaluM lAMbu karAvI ApyuM, paNa bArazIne te pachI paNa ghaNuM TUMkuM paDyuM. evuM pagethI UMcuM penTa (enA mApa pramANe yuniphorma na banAvAya tyAM sudhI) paheryA sivAya chUTako na hato. pahoLuM karAvela zarTa paNa bArazIne bhIMsAtuM hatuM. eTale bIjA badhA keDeTomAM bArazI enA mApa vagaranA yuniphaoNrmathI paNa judo tarI koparala bArazI 265

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Avato hato. kaoNlejanA pahelA-bIjA varSanA kaeNDeTone mUcha-dADhI jhAjhAM UgyAM na hoya, paraMtu bArazIne, vadhAre paDato te pukhta hoya eTalAM mUcha-dADhI UgyAM hatAM. jANe zALAmAM be-traNa varSa nApAsa thaIne Avelo vidyArthI hoya evo te lAgato hato. ena.sI.sI.mAM dAkhala thavA mATenA enA phaoNrmamAM noMdhAvelI janmatArIkhanI meM jyAre tapAsa karAvI tyAre te vAta sAcI jaNAI. kaoNlejanA prathama varSanA vidyArthI tarIke sattara-aDhAranI uMmara hovAne badale bArazI ekavIsa varSano hato. bIjA kaeNDeTo dvArA jANavA maLyuM ke bArazI vargamAM bhaNavAmAM bahu hoziyAra nahoto. paNa te ocho buddhizALI ke ocho anubhavI che ema enI sAthenI vAtacIta parathI na lAge. keTalAka vidyArthIone bhaNavAmAM bahu rasa na paDe, paraMtu teo ramatagamata, lazkarI tAlIma ane itara pravRttiomAM bahu hoziyAra hoya. bArazI evo hato. vaLI game tevuM kAma karavAmAM te bahu utsAhI, niHsaMkoca ane capaLa hato. sAmethI kAma te mAgI le. kyAreka to vagara bolAvye ke vaNapUlye te kAma ka2vA lAgI jato. ethI thoDA samayamAM bArazI badhA kaeNDeTomAM bahu mAnIto thaI paDyo hato. baMne satranI ena.sI.sI.nI tAlIma pUrI thayA pachI pAkI tAlIma mATeno amAro vArSika kaeNmpa nAsika zaherathI thoDA mAIla dUra godAvarI-taTe yojavAnuM nakkI thayuM. kaeNmpamAM jatAM pahelAM keTalIka khAlI paDelI renka mATe keDeTone baDhatI ApavAnI hatI. sAmAnya rIte pahelA varSanA kaeNDeTane lAnsa korporala ke kaoNrporalanI raeNnka apAya nahi, paraMtu pleTUna sArjanTa kRSNasvAmIe khUba vakhANa sAthe bA2zInA nAmanI bhalAmaNa karI ane bA2zI jevA dakSa ane kAmagarA kaeNDeTane bhale kaoNrporalanI UMcI raeNnka apAya ema vicArI meM maMjUrI ApI eTale bArazI kaoNrporala banyo. raeNnka maLatAM ja bArazI AnaMdamAM AvI gayo. potAnA kharce navo yuniphaoNrma karAvI, bAMya upara kaoNrporalanI raeNnkanI nizAnI tarIkenI be sapheda paTTI lagADI kaeNmpamAM te AvI pahoMcyo. bArazIno jANe have vaTa paDavA mAMDyo. raeNnka maLatAM potAnA hAtha nIcenA kaeNDeTo upara hukama calAvavAnuM paNa eNe tarata cAlu karI dIdhuM. Ama paNa te uMmaramAM ane zarIre bIjAo karatAM moTo ane tAkAtavALo hato, eTale navA badhA keDeTone e dabaDAvato hato. temAM sattA maLI eTale te vadhu jabaro thayo. lazkarI dRSTie e sAruM thayuM gaNAya. bArazI potAnA hAtha nIcenA kaeNDeTone barAbara kaMTrolamAM rAkhe che ane sArI zista jALave che e joI amane AnaMda thato. bIje varSe sArjanTa, trIje varSe sI.esa.ema. ane cothe varSe aMDaraoNphisaranI raeNnka bArazI mATe amArA manamAM agAuthI anAmata thaI gaI. sArI 266 caritradarzana

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raeNnka mATe sArA chokarAo maLe to kaMpanInI kAmagIrI ane pragati mATe jovAnuM na rahe. kaeNmpamAM pahele divase sAMje bArazI mArI pAse Avyo. bolyo, sara, tame mane pAMca rUpiyA uchInA ApI zakazo ? mAre thoDI kharIdI karavI che. mArA mitra pAsethI mArA paisA AvI jaze eTale huM tamane tarata pAchA ApI jaIza.' meM pAMca rUpiyA ApyA. bIje divase sAMje nizcita samaye bArazI vacana pramANe pAMca rUpiyA barAbara pAchA ApI gayo. enI niyamitatA ane niSThAnI sArI chApa paDI. bArazIe potAnA kharce yuniphaoNrma karAvyo te parathI lAgyuM ke kadAca te sukhI gha2no haze. paraMtu enA vistAranA paricita eka kaeNDeTa dvArA jANavA maLyuM ke bArazI taddana sAdhAraNa sthitino che. te jAte khristI che. tenI mA musalamAna che. tenA pitA moTara mikenika tarIke nokarI karatA hatA. thoDA samaya pahelAM gujarI gayA che. enI mA sAdhAraNa nokarI kare che. parAnI eka nAnakaDI oraDImAM te rahe che; AvI sthiti chatAM bArazIe gAMThanA paisA kharcIne potAnA mApa pramANe navo yuniphaoNrma karAvyo te parathI ena.sI.sI. mATe teno utsAha keTalo badho che te amane samajAyuM. trIje divase sAMje bArazI maLavA Avyo. vaLato divasa ravivArano hato. savAranI pareDamAMthI ene chuTTI joItI hatI. zaheramAM khristI devaLamAM jaI te savAranA 'mAsa'mAM hAjara rahevA icchato hato. tenI sAthe bIjA keTalAka khristI kaeNDeTo paNa hatA. badhAne chuTTI apAI. bArazInI dharmazraddhA gamI gaI. zahe2mAM eNe badhA mitrone mIThAI khavarAvI e jANIne paNa AnaMda thayo. sthiti sAdhAraNa hovA chatAM bArazI udAra jaNAyo. kaeNmpamAM kaeNDeTone lazkarI tAlIma ApavAnuM kAma jorazorathI cAlavA lAgyuM. judI judI kaMpanIo vacce spardhAo thavA lAgI. paraMtu sAthe sAthe AvA kaeNmpomAM jema sAmAnya rIte bane che tema nAsikanA amArA e kaeNmpamAM paNa banavA lAgyuM. keDeTonA paisAnI ane cIjavastuonI ghaNI corI thavA lAgI. khullA taMbuomAM tALA-kUMcI vagarano kaeNDeTono sAmAna bistaro ane kiTabaeNga) hoya. eTale corI karavI sahelI ane pakaDavI agharI. koI paNa kiTabaeNga enI dorI choDIne game tyAre kholI zakAya. koInI vaoNTara baoNTala, koIno kammarapaTTo, koInA kenavAsanA joDA to koInI mAthe paherAvanI TopI (berI) corAI jAya to bahu khabara na paDe, kAraNa ke A badhI vastuo badhAnI ekasarakhI ja hoya. koIe potAnI kaMI nizAnI karI hoya ke nAma lakhyuM hoya to pArakhI zakAya, te sivAya nahi. AvI corI kaoNrporala bArazI 267

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corInA irAdAthI ochI thAya. ekanI khovAya eTale te bIjAnI upADIM le ane ema cakra cAle. kaeNmpa pUro thavA Ave tyAre darekanA sAmAnanI badhI vastuo kholAvIne cekiMga karAya. te vakhate ghaNAnI ghaNI vastuo pAchI maLI jAya, kAraNa ke koInI pAse eka karatAM vadhAre hoya to te moTe bhAge bIjAnI ja hoya. paNa kaeNmpamAM koInA paisA corAyA hoya to te pAchA meLavavAnuM kAma lagabhaga azakya, sivAya ke corI karatI vakhate ja te coranA2 pakaDAI jAya. kaeNmpamAM corI na thAya e mATe pahelA divasathI ja baMdobasta karavAmAM Ave. pareDanA samaya daramiyAna jyAre badhA kaeNDeTo pareDa-grAunDamAM hoya tyAre taMbuomAM rakhevALuM karavA mATe pharaja upara keTalAka kaeNDeTone 'lAina senTrI' tarIke mUkavAmAM Ave. jeo mAMdA hoya athavA jemaNe rAtanI DyuTI bajAvI hoya athavA bIjAM koI kA2Nosa2 jemane pareDamAM javAnuM na hoya tevA kaeNDeTonI lAina senTrI tarIke sAmAnya rIte pasaMdagI thAya. e kaeNDeTone te divasa pUratI pareDamAMthI mukti maLe. pareDa para gayelA badhA kaeNDeTonA bistarA ane kiTabaeNga barAbara mApasara hArabaMdha goThavavAnI (lAina DresiMganI) javAbadArI temane soMpAya. koInI kiTabaeNga vyavasthita na hoya to e kholIne pharI goThavavAnI sattA paNa lAina senTrIne apAya. kyAreka lAina senTrI cA-nAstA mATe ke kudaratI hAjata mATe taMbu choDIne jAya tyAre tenI gerahAjarImAM corI thaI jAya. kyAreka AvI corImAM kaeNmpanA jhADuvALA, rasoiyA ke bIjA nokarono hAtha paNa hoya. nAsikanA amArA kaeNmpamAM cIja-vastuonI corI karatAM paisAnI corInuM pramANa ghaNuM vadhI gayuM. roja keTakeTalI phariyAdo AvavA lAgI. meM ane mArA bIjA madadanIza oNphisaroe pareDa-grAunDamAMthI cUpacApa AvIne taMbuonI acAnaka jhaDatI levAnuM cAlu karyuM, paNa koI cora pakaDAto na hato. sI.esa.ema. ane sArjanTone bolAvIne khAnagImAM pUchI lIdhuM, tamane koI kaeNDeTa u52 vahema Ave che ?" temaNe kahyuM, 'kaoNrporala bArazI kaheto hato ke pharnAnDijha kadAca A corI karato hovo joIe evo tene vahema che.' tapAsa karatAM e paNa jANavA maLyuM ke kaeNDeTa pharnAnDijha mAMdagInA bahAne lAina senTrI tarIke cAra-pAMca vAra rahyo hato. eka vakhata acAnaka huM taMbumAM jaI caDhyo tyAre kaoNrporala bArazI tyAM beTho beTho sigAreTa phUMkato hato. mane jotAM ja eNe sigAreTa nAkhI dIdhI. meM pUchyuM, "kema bArazI, tuM ahIM zA mATe che ?" 'sara, huM hamaNAM ja Avyo. lAina senTrI pharnAnDijhane brekaphAsTa mATe javuM hatuM eTale sI.esa.ema.e mane mokalyo che. kaeNDeTa pharnAnDijha Ave eTale huM tarata 268 caritradarzana

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pareDa para pAcho jAuM chuM.' tuM sigAreTa kema pIto hato ?" sorI, sara ! kvArTara-mAsTara havAladAre mane ophara karI eTale mArAthI nA na pADI zakAI.' taMbumAM sigAreTa pIvAnI manAI che, e to tane khabara che ne ?' "sorI sara, mArI bhUla thaI gaI. have evuM nahi karuM.' bArazI sAro chokaro hato, paraMtu sigAreTa pIto hato te mane na gamyuM. bhUla mATe eNe mAphI mAgI ethI huM rAjI thayo. paisAnI corI pakaDavA mATe ane pharnAnDijhanI hilacAla para najara rAkhavA mATe meM ene khAnagI sUcanA ApI. bIjI eka vakhata huM acAnaka taMbumAM jaI caDhyo tyAre bIjA eka lAIna senTrI sAthe bArazI paNa hato. bArazIe yuniphorma paheryo na hato. meM pUchyuM, "bArazI, tuM kema ahIM che ?" sara, mAro yuniphorma dhobIne Apyo che te haju Avyo nathI.' tArI pAse bIjo yuniphaoNrma nathI ?' che, paNa te TUMko yuniphaoNrma che. te paherIne pareDa para AvavAnuM gamatuM nathI. badhA keDeTo mazkarI kare che.' bArazInuM e kAraNa zistanI dRSTie mane bahu vAjabI na lAgyuM. yuniphorma paherI tarata pareDa para javA meM hukama karyo, eTale TUMko yuniphorma paherI bArazI tarata pareDa para pahoMcI gayo. meM be sArjanTone paNa pharnAnDijhanI avarajavara upara chUpI najara rAkhavA sUcanA ApI. vaLI DokTara ene mAMdagIne kAraNe pareDamAMthI mukti Ape che te barAbara che ke nahi tenI tapAsa rAkhavAnuM kahyuM, kAraNa ke peTano ane mAthAno dukhAvo evI bAbata che ke jene DaoNkTaro paNa pakaDI zake nahIM. kempamAM paisA coranAra jo koI keDeTa hoya to te kAM to e paisA koI jagyAe saMtADI rAkhe, kAM to potAnA khissAmAM rAkhe; kadAca tarata kharca paNa nAkhe. kempamAM paisA kharcavAnI jagyA te eka mAtra kenTIna hatI. kenTInamAM koNa vadhAre paisA kharce che tenI bAtamI meLavavA meM prayatna karyo. riporTa maLyo ke pareDa pachI pharnAnDijha ane bArazI ghaNI vAra tyAM khAtA-pItA hoya che ane tyAM Akho vakhata sigAreTa phUMkatA hoya che. pharnAnDijha pAsethI vAta kaDhAvavA bArazIe enI sAthe dostI bAMdhI che ane khAvApIvAmAM kaMpanI Ape che evuM eka sArjanTa dvArA jANavA maLyuM. paraMtu corI vize haju sudhI pAkI bAtamI korporala bArazI 269

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maLatI na hatI. eka sAMje acAnaka huM kenTInanA vizALa taMbumAM jaI caDyo. ghaNA kaeNDeTo cA ke kolDaDriMka pItA hatA. keTalAka gapATA mAratA beThA hatA. eka khUNAmAM eka Tebala pAse raMgata jAmI hatI. temAM bArazI ane pharnAnDijha paNa hatA. pAnAM ramatA hatA. huM tyAM pahoMcyo eTale bArazI Ubho thaI gayo. sigAreTa tarata pheMkI dIdhI. mane salAma bharI. bIjA kaeNDeTo UbhA thaI gayA. meM temanI ramata cAlu rAkhavA kahyuM. badhA beThA. huM cAlyo. taMbumAMthI bahAra nIkaLato hato tyAM bA2zI AvIne mane kahI gayo ke pharnAnDijha pAsethI vAta kaDhAvavA te A badhA khelamAM sAtha Ape che. corIonI phariyAdo vadhatI gaI. eTale pakaDavA mATe keDeTonA bistarA ane kiTabaeNganI badhI cIjavastuo kholAvIne traNeka vakhata saraprAIjha cekiMga karyuM, paraMtu koInI pAsethI kazuM nIkaLyuM nahi. pharnAnDijhanI kiTabaeNgamAMthI paNa kazuM maLyuM nahi. pharnAnDijhane pakaDavAnuM kAma bArazIne soMpAyuM hatuM, paraMtu te paNa temAM haju saphaLa thayo na hato. kaeNmpa pUro thavAne have be divasa rahyA hatA, paraMtu haju koI cora pakaDAyo nahoto. bIje divase savAre ame oNphisaroe nakkI karyuM ke keDeTo savAranA UThe te pahelAM taMbuomAM pahoMcI javuM. teo taiyAra thaI pareDa-grAunDa upara jAya tyAM sudhI temanI sAthe ja rahevuM. temanI hilacAla cUpacApa nihALavI. huM vahelI savA2mAM keDeTonA taMbuomAM pahoMcI gayo. badhA taiyAra thayA. lAina senTrI besADavAmAM AvyA. kaMpanInA oNphisaro ane sI.esa.ema. AkhI kaMpanInA lagabhaga doDhaso kaeNDeTone laI pareDa-grAunDa tarapha mArca karatA cAlyA. sAthesAthe huM paNa gayo. rastAmAM adhavacce meM kaMpanI UbhI rakhAvI. opana phAila karAvI ke jethI badhA kaeNDeTo ekabIjAthI AghA AghA UbhA rahe ane koI ekabIjAne kazuM ApI na de. eTenzanamAM hoya eTale ekabIjA sAthe vAta karavAnI hoya ja kyAMthI ? tarata jAhera karyuM ke paisAnI corInI ghaNI badhI phariyAdo AvI che. eTale atyAre ja acAnaka badhAnAM khissAM tapAsavAmAM Avaze. jenI pAse pacIsathI vadhAre rUpiyA hoya teNe pahelethI hAtha UMco karI jaNAvI devuM. pachIthI jenI pAsethI vadhAre paisA nIkaLaze teNe kadAca corI karI haze tevuM mAnavAmAM Avaze ane sajA thaze. koIe koInI pAsethI uchInA lIdhA hoya ke koIne uchInA ApyA hoya to te paNa jaNAvI devuM.' sUcanA traNa vakhata pharIpharIne jorathI jAhera karavAmAM AvI, jethI potAne samajAyuM nathI ema kahIne dalIla koI kare nahi. paraMtu koIno hAtha UMco thayo nahi. koInI pAse vadhu paisA hatA nahi, kAraNa ke kaeNmpanA chellA divaso hovAthI 20 caritradarzana

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ghaNAnA to kharcAI gayA hatA. bIjA ghaNAyanA corAI gayA hatA. kaoNlejanA vidyArthIonAM khissAM tapAsAya te yogya na gaNAya, paraMtu lazkarI zista pramANe temAM kazuM ayogya paNa na manAya. keDeTone kharAba na lAge eTalA mATe meM kahyuM ke khuda sI.esa.ema.nAM ane sArjanTanAM khissAM paNa tapAsavAmAM Avaze. sI.esa.ema. ane sArjanTone bolAvIne khAnagImAM kahI dIdhuM hatuM ke corane pakaDavA mATe A nATaka karavuM paDaze. meM sI.esa.ema.nAM khissAM tapAsyAM. pachI sI.esa.ema. ane traNe sArjanTonAM khissAM tapAsavAno temaja traNe sArjanTone potapotAnA pleTUnanA kaeNDeTonAM khissAM tapAsavAno hukama karyo. tyAM to utsAhI ane jabarA kaoNrporala bArazIe vagara hukame potAnA sekzananA kaeNDeTonAM khissAM tapAsavAnuM zarU karyuM. mane enuM A doDha DahApaNa gamyuM nahi, kAraNa ke kaoNrporala bArazI vinA kAraNa keDeTone bahu dabaDAvyA kare che evI phariyAda to hatI ja. meM ta2ta bArazIne potAnI jagyAe UbhA rahevA mATe kaDaka avAje AjJA karI. vaLI meM kahyuM, phakta sI.esa.ema. ane sArjanTo ja badhA kaoNrporala, lAnsa kaoNrporala tathA kaeNDeTonAM khissAM tapAsaze, bIjA koI nahi.' tapAsa cAlu thaI eTalAmAM kaoNrporala bArazI lAina toDI mane kazuMka kahevA mATe Avato jaNAyo. paraMtu zista khAtara meM tene potAnI jagyAe ja UbhA rahevA mATe sUcanA karI. jenA u52 ghaNo vahema hato te kaeNDeTa pharnAnDijhano vAro Avyo, paraMtu enI pAsethI pAMca-sAta rUpiyA jeTalI rakamathI vadhu kazuM nIkaLyuM nahi. lagabhaga ghaNAkharAnAM khissAM tapAsAI javA AvyAM hatAM. kaoNrporala bA2zIno vAro Avyo. te potAnA sArjanTa sAthe rakajhaka karavA lAgyo paraMtu bArazI pratye huM pakSapAta karuM chuM tevuM kaeNDeTone na lAge te mATe meM pharIthI AjJA karI ke badhA sArjanToe kaoNrporala ane lAnsa kaoNrporalanAM khissAM paNa barAbara tapAsavAM ane ssiAM tapAsatAM ja bArazInuM moDhuM paDI gayuM. enA khissAmAMthI kADhelA pAkiTamAM ghaNI badhI noTo hatI. eTale te laIne sArjanTa tarata mArI pAse Avyo. badhAnI samakSa paisA gaNI joyA. chaso sittera jeTalA rUpiyA nIkaLyA. bA2zIe jAtajAtanAM bahAnAM kADhavAno prayatna karyo, paraMtu te mAtra bahAnAM ja hatAM. pharnAnDijhane bolAvI dabaDAvyo to eNe kabUla karI dIdhuM ke kenTInamAM paisA bArazI cUkavato hato. jugAra ramavA mATe bA2zI ja Agraha karato. taMbumAM jaI bArazInI kiTabaeNga tapAsatAM temAMthI bIjA kaeNDeTonI keTalIka vastuo maLI AvI. vaLI dArUnI eka bATalI paNa temAMthI nIkaLI. bA2zI cora hato e to have puravAra thaI gayuM. pakaDAI jatAM bA2zIno cahero ugra banavA kaoNrporala bArazI 271

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lAgyo. enI bhASAmAMthI mRdutA cAlI gaI. pakaDanAra sArjanTane te dabaDAvavA lAgyo paraMtu lazkarI zista AgaLa tenuM kazuM cAlyuM nahIM. kaeNmpa kamAnDanTa pAse tarata lekhita phariyAda thaI. bArazInI kaoNrporalanI renka pAchI levAI gaI. enA zarTa para lagADela renkanI paTTI kapAI gaI. bArazIne kempamAMthI baratarapha karavAmAM Avyo. baporanI gADImAM ene muMbaI ravAnA karI devAyo. pachI to bArazInI viraddha ghaNIbadhI vAto AvI. zALAmAM eNe karelI corIo mATe ene zikSA thaI hatI tenI paNa sAbitI maLI. amArI ena.sI.sI.nI ophisamAM pareDanA pahelA divase uMdara mArIne bArImAMthI nAkhanAra paNa bArazI hato e paNa puravAra thayuM. oNphisarono vizvAsa jItI levA mATe eNe kevI yukti ajamAvI hatI! kempamAMthI pAchA AvyA pachI bArazI mATe prinsipAlane phariyAda thaI. pachI to kaoNlejanA vidyArthIonAM kImatI pustako, pAkiTa vagerenI keTalIka corIomAM bArazI hovAnI sAbitIo maLI. corelA paisA chUTathI kharcA, dostI bAMdhI, vizvAsa jItI laI, na pakaDAya evI siphatathI corI karavAnI kalAmAM te ghaNo nipuNa thaI gayo hato. enI sAme zistanAM pagalAM levAyAM. kaoNlejamAMthI tene jyAre Disamisa karavAmAM Avyo tyAre enI mA kaoNlejamAM AvIne prinsipAla pAse ghaNuM raDI. paraMtu caherA para aphasosanI koI rekhA dekhAtI na hatI, kAraNa ke tenuM vartana eka rIDhA gunegAra jevuM zALAnA divasothI thaI gayuM hatuM. ghaNuM kAma karI ApIne bIjAno sAro evo prema ane vizvAsa jItI levAnI kaLA phaLadrupa buddhi vaDe bArazIe sArI rIte hastagata karI lIdhI hatI, paraMtu corI, jugAra, dArU ane bIjAM vyasanoe yuvAnImAM pravezatAM ja enI jiMdagIne barAbara karI nAkhI hatI. ("berarathI brigeDiyaramAMthI) ra7ra ja caritradarzana

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DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha jIvanajharamara 1926 pitAzrI zrI cImanalAla amRtalAla zAha, mAtA revAbahena cImanalAla zAha. janmasthaLa pAdarA, vaDodarA jillo. janma trIjI Disembara 1926, kArataka vada 13, 1983 1927 tAlukAnA mukhya gAma pAdarAnA taMdurasta bALakanI spardhAmAM prathama AvavA badala inAma maLyuM. 1930 pAdarAnI zALAmAM bhaNavAnI zarUAta. 1937 pAdarAthI muMbaI rahevA AvyA. pharAmajI skUlamAM bhaNavAnuM cAlu karyuM. 1941 muMbaImAM bAbu pannAlAla hAIskulamAM dAkhala thayA. 1942 citrakalAmAM rasa rAhulaka2 sa2nA vargo bharI saphaLatA meLavI. sarakAra dvArA levAtI elImenTarI ane inTaramiDiyeTa banne parIkSAmAM prathama naMbare AvI pAritoSiko meLavyAM. 1943 rASTrIya caLavaLane lagatI patrikAo chUpI rIte ghare ghare pahoMcADavAnA kAryamAM bhAga lIdho. - 1944 meTrikanI parIkSAmAM pharsTaklAsa maLyo. 1945 gaNita ane vijJAnamAM ghaNA sArA mArksa chatAM senTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM ArTsamAM eDimezana meLavyuM svapna sArA lekhaka thavAnuM. gharachoDI mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayanI haoNsTelamAM rahevA gayA. 1946 mahAvIra jaina vidyAlayamAM nibaMdhalekhana, vaktRtvaspardhA, nATakalekhana ane abhinayamAM bhAga laI saphLatA prApta karI. 1947 inTara ArTsamAM pharsTa klAsa. bI.e.mAM gujarAtI ane saMskRtanA viSayo DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha jIvanajharamara # 273

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lIdhA. 1948 bI.e.mAM gujarAtI ane saMskRtamAM pharsTa klAsa, gujarAtI viSayamAM prathama AvyA. 48-49 senTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM phelo tarIke nimaNUka. 48-49 pATaNa jaina hosTelamAM rahevA gayA. 1949 ema.e. gujarAtI viSaya sAthe. abhyAsa cAlu "sAMjavartamAna patramAM patrakAra tarIke kAma karyuM. 1950 M.A.mAM yunivarsiTInI parIkSAmAM First Class First AvyA. muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM baLavaMtarAya kalyANarAma ThAkora golDa meDala, kezavalAla harSadarAya dhruva pAritoSika ane jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAM ema.e. ane ema.esasI - sarvamAM prathama AvavA badala "senTa phrAnsisa meDala maLyo. 1951 jUnamAM senTa jheviyarsamAM gujarAtInA adhyApaka tarIke joDAyA. ena.sI.sI. nezanala keDeTa kora)mAM vidyArthIone lazkarI tAlIma ApavA ophisara tarIke joDAyA. ena.sI.sI.mAM 1951thI 54 sekanDa lephTananTa, 1954thI pa7 lephTananTa, 1958thI 65 kepTana, 1965thI 70 mejara ane chelle beTeliyana kamAnDanTa ane kempa kamAnDanTa tarIkenI javAbadArI saMbhALI. manISA (saoNneTa saMpAdana, zrI mInu desAI sAthe - 1951 1952 dhrAMgadhrA nivAsI dIpacaMda tribhovanadAsa zAhanI putrI ane muMbaInI sophAyA kaoNlejanA gujarAtInAM adhyApikA tArAbahena zAha sAthe vevizALa thayuM. zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanA membara banyA. 1953 tA. 18 phebruArI 1953, phAgaNa suda pAMcama tArAbahena sAthe lagna. zrI muMbaI jena yuvaka saMghanI kArobArImAM sabhya. gujarAtI sAhityanuM rekhAdarzana' pro. manasukhalAla jhaverI sAthe 19pa3. 1954 ena.sI.sI.nA oNphisara sAthe himAlayamAM, keTaleka sthaLe pagapALA pravAsa karyo. badarInAtha - kedAranAthanAM darzana. 1955 1955thI 26 jUna eka varSa mATe amadAvAdanI jheviyarsa kaoNleja zarU karavA gujarAtInA adhyApaka tarIke ane ena.sI.sI.nA jophisara tarIke muMbaInI jheviyarsa kaoNleje mokalyA. "evaresTanuM ArohaNa pustaka pragaTa thayuM. (evaresTanAM romAMcaka sAhasonI aitihAsika kathA) 1955. 1956 56 jUnathI muMbaI AvI gayA. 'naLa damayaMtInI kathAno vikAsa' viSaya 274 na caritradarzana

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para pro. manasukhalAla jhaverInA mArgadarzana sAthe kAma zarU gulAmono muktidAtA pramukha abrAhama liMkananI jIvanakathA) 1957 (1) samayasuMdarakRta 'naLadamayaMtI rAsa' pragaTa. pro. manasukhalAla jhaverI sAthe "gujarAtI sAhitya'nuM rekhAdarzana pragaTa. (2) "zreSTha nibaMdhikAo' 1957 saMpAdana cInu desAI sAthe. 1958 tA. 20 navembara 1958 kArataka suda dasamanA dine putrI zailajAno janma. 1959 muMbaI - senTa jheviyarsa kolejamAM gujarAtI vibhAganA adhyakSa thayA. TI.jI. zAha ane caMcaLabahenanA jIvana para AdhArita jIvana darpaNa" pragaTa thayuM. 1960 tA. 3 navembara 1960, kArataka suda pUrNimAne divase putra amitAbhano janma. pIeca.DI.nI thIsisa taiyAra karI yuni.ne mokalI pIeca.DI.nI DigrI maLI. zrI bacubhAI rAvatanI preraNAthI 'uttaradhruvanI zodha sapharanI lekhamALA 'kumAra' mAsikamAM zarU. 1961 upAdhyAya yazovijayajIkRta "jiMbusvAmI rAsa' pragaTa thayo." 1962 "gujarAtI sAhitya sabhA' taraphathI "196 2nuM graMthastha vAMmaya' - pustakonuM avalokana zarU. 1963 21, devaprakAza, copATI rahevA gayA. muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM pIeca.DI.nA mArgadarzaka nimAyA. pAMca vidyArthIo mArgadarzana mATe rajisTara thayA. adhyAtma prasAraka maMDaLanA maMtrI banyA. sarayUbahena mahetA Ph.d, mATe rajisTara thayA. "sarasvatIcaMdra bhAga-1 pahelA bhAgano pAThya saMkSepa pragaTa thayo. 1965 'kuvalayamALA' udyotanasUrikRta prAkRta mahAkathAnuM saMzodhana saMpAdana 196 5 196 6 '196 ranuM graMthAlaya vAMmaya pragaTa thayuM. kumAra mAsikamAM lakhAyelI ekAMkI "zyAma raMga samIpe' - nATikA saMgraha pragaTa thayo. 1967 jApAnano pravAsa. zrI yehAna gumATAnA AmaMtraNathI boddhadharmanI saMsthA mATe vyAkhyAno ApavA gayA. 1968 jApAna, amerikA ane malayeziyAno pravAsa. 1970 senTa jheviyarsa kaoNlejamAMthI chUTA thayA. muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM gujarAtI vibhAganA adhyakSa tarIke joDAyA. 1970mAM madrAsamAM, madrAsa yunivarsiTImAM tAmila mahAgraMtha "tirukurala' vize aMgrejImAM vyAkhyAna Do. ramaNalAla cI. zAha jIvanajharamara = 275

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ApyuM. seminAramAM bhAga lIdho. 'akhila bhAratIya tirukurala saMzodhana kendra'nI sthApanA thaI. ramaNabhAInI upAdhyakSa tarIke varaNI thaI. yuropa ane siMgAporano pravAsa. 1971 AcArya buddhisAgarajIe sthApelI saMsthA adhyAtmaprasAdaka maMDaLanA pramukha tarIke varaNI. 1972 zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMgha saMcAlita paryuSaNa vyAkhyAnamALAnA pramukha tarIke pasaMdagI. 'evaresTanA ArohaNa'nI bIjI AvRtti pragaTa thaI. 1973 14mI Disembara - tArAbahenanA pitAzrI zrI dIpacaMdabhAI tri. zAhano svargavAsa. 1974 bhagavAna mahAvIranA pacIsomA nirvANa mahotsava nimitte pUrva AphrikAmAM keniyAmAM mombAsA saMghanA AmaMtraNathI vyAkhyAno ApavA tArAbahena sAthe gayA. keniyAnAM mahattvanAM zahero nAyarobI, thIma, elDIreTa, kisumu uparAMta TAnjhAniyAmAM dAresalAma, TAMgA vagere sthaLe jainadharma, bhagavAna mahAvI2 52 vaktavyo ApyAM. Jainism and Shraman Bhagawan Mahavir pustaka pragaTa thayuM. IthopiyAno pravAsa 1975 pU. mAtuzrI revAbAno svargavAsa. poSa suda 7 vi. saM. 2021. 1976 zrI laMkAno pravAsa. narasiMha pUrvenuM sAhitya' jAnyuArI 1976 jainadharma bIjI AvRtti - paricaya TrasTa jainadharma - marAThI AvRtti paricaya TrasTa -- 1977 ci. zailajA inTara ArTsanI plAmAM muMbaI yunivarsiTImAM pahelI AvI. mahAvIra jaina vidyAlaya yojita jaina sAhitya samAroha' pahelo ke. kA. zAstrInA pramukhapade muMbaImAM yojAyo, Ayojana ramaNabhAIe karyuM. osTreliyA - sIDanImAM P.E.N.nI inTaranezanala konpharansamAM bhAratanA pratinidhi tarIke gayA. vaktavya ApyuM. hoMgakoMga, sIMgApora gayA. U.K.mAM caMdariyA phAunDezananA adhyakSa zrI devacaMdabhAI caMdariyAnA AmaMtraNathI yu.ke.mAM jainadharma ane gujarAtI sAhitya 52 vyAkhyAno ApavA tArAbahena ane putrI zailajA sAthe be mahinA mATe gayA. U.K. uparAMta yuropamAM jude jude sthaLe vyAkhyAno ApyAM. sAthe sAthe phrAnsa, iTalI, osTriyA, nedharalenDa, beljima, sviTjharlenDa vagere dezono pravAsa karyo. - 276 caritradarzana

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jainadharma - hiMdI AvRtti paricaya phasTa bahAra paDI. 1978 osTreliyA, nyujhIlenDa, phIjI, hoMgakoMga, inDoneziyA, philipAinsa, sAutha koriyA, thAIlenDano pravAsa. 1979 Buddhism An Introdnction, 'samayasuMdara', 'paDIlehA', 'ApaNAM phAgukAvyo' pragaTa thayAM jaina sAhitya samAroha' bIjo mahuvAmAM zrI bhAyANIsAhebanA pramukhapade mahuvAmAM thayo. sAutha amerikA brAjhIlamAM rIo DI jAnero'mAM bharAyelI P.E.N. International Conference'mAM bhAratanA pratinidhi tarIke patipatnI bannee bhAga lIdho. temAM vaktavya ApyuM. brAjhilanAM judAM judAM zahero brAjhiliyA, sArvo-pAulo uparAMta TrInIDADa, panAmA, kurAsAva, ArjenTInA, peru vagere joyA perumAM macchupIcchumAM inkA saMskRtinA avazeSo joyAM pAchA pharatA zikAgo, nyUyorka vagere amerikAmAM keTaleka sthaLe gayA. - 1980 raziyAno pravAsa : 1. samayasuMdaskRta thAvarcIA sutariSi copAI'2. nihavavAda 3. naLadamayaMtInI kathAno vikAsa 4. naLadamayaMtI prabaMdha (guNavinayakRta) 5. hemacaMdrAcArya 6. uttaradhruvanI zodhasaphara - pragaTa thayAM. jaina sAhitya samAroha (3) suratamAM thayo. 1981 copATI - devaprakAzanuM nivAsa sthaLa choDI 21-22, rekhA naM. 1mAM rahevA - gayA. muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanA mukhapatra prabuddhajIvananA sahataMtrI banyA. ci. zailajA M.A. With PsychologymAM first Class first AvI. muMbaI yuni.no K. T. Telang suvarNacaMdraka maLyo. zrI zaileza mahAdeviyA sAthe bhArata, tibeTa, nepALanI sarahada para 6pa00 phUTanI UMcAIe nArAyaNasvAmIe sthApelo nArAyaNa Azrama jovA gayA. tyAM svAmI tadrupAnaMdajInI mulAkAta thaI. AlmoDA najIka khAlI esTeTamAM navInabhAI ane prasannAbahena sAthe rahyAM ane kausInI jovA gayAM. RSivardhanakRta 'nalarAya davadaMtI ciratra' phebru. 81mAM pragaTa. 1982 zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanA pramukha zrI cImanalAla cakubhAI zAhano svargavAsa thatAM zrI muMbaI jaina yuvaka saMghanA pramukha ane prabuddhajIvananA taMtrI tarIke sarvAnumate pasaMdagI thaI. putrI. ci. zailajAnA bhAvanagara DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha jIvanajharamara 277 -

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nivAsI, muluMDamAM rahetA zrI ramaNIkabhAI jhaveracaMda zAhanA putra cetanabhAI sAthe tA. 21 Disembara 1982nA dine lagna thayAM. sonagaDhamAM jainasAhitya samArohanuM Ayojana 'kritikA' pustaka pragaTa thayuM. 1983 suratamAM jaina sAhitya samAroha pravAsa pustaka pAsaporTanI pAMkhe - bhAga-1 mArca 83mAM AvRtti 2 guNa vinayakRta "dhannAzAlibhadra copAI - Dise. 83mAM pragaTa. 1984 jaina sAhityanA lekhana, saMzodhana ane saMpAdana mATe bhAvanagaranI saMsthA taraphathI upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI suvarNacaMdraka zrI zreNikabhAInA haste amadAvAdamAM enAyata thayo. umAzaMkarabhAInA pramukhasthAne.... umAzaMkarabhAIe vaktavya ApyuM. - jaina sAhitya samAroha - kaccha - mAMDavImAM thayo. - be laghu rAsakRtio, pradeze jayavijayanA" - pAsaporTanI pAMkhe - bhAga 1 AvRtti 3jI - dohitrI gArgIno janma 8 sapTembara 1984mAM thayo. - yu.ke.mAM lesTaramAM tyAMnA jaina saMghe, ane DaoN. naTubhAI zAhe navA jaina maMdiranA nirmANa mATe onararI DirekTara tarIke AmaMtraNa ApyuM. tyAM maMdiranuM kAma saMbhALyuM. patipatnI bannee yu.ke.nA judAjudA sthaLe jainadharma para vyAkhyAno ApyAM. 1985 6ThTho jaina sAhitya samAroha - khaMbhAtamAM thayo. jinatattva bhAga-1, jaina sAhitya samAroha-guccha 1 pragaTa thayo. 1986 jaina sAhitya samAroha - pAlaNapuramAM thayo. moreziyasano pravAsa. 1987 caMdariyA phAunDezananA AmaMtraNathI amerikA ane keneDAmAM ramaNabhAI ane tArAbahene jainadharma para lekTara ApyAM. - keneDAmAM vejiTeriyana konpharansamAM vaktavya ApavAnuM AmaMtraNa - jainadharma ane zAkAhAra para vaktavya ApyuM. - bauddhadharma mATe puchAyelA savAlonA javAba ApyA. jaina sAhitya samAroha-guccha bIjo pragaTa thayo. jaina sAhitya samAroha - sameta zikharamAM yojAyo dohitra kevalyano janma 8 phebruArI 1987nA dine. 1988 muMbaI yunivarsiTInA gujarAtI vibhAganA adhyakSanA padethI be varSa pahelA chUTA thayA. putra amitAbhanA jAmanagaranivAsI zrI nagInabhAI padamazI zeThanI putrI surabhi sAthe tA. 21 jAnyuArI 1988nA dine lagna thayAM. 278 caritradarzana

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soviyeTa yuniyanano pravAsa - olimpiksa jovA mATe karyo. 10mo sAhitya samAroha -- boMtera jinAlaya - kacchamAM karyo. mohanalAlajI mahArAja pustikA eprila 1988, jinatattva bhAga-2 phebruArI 88, upAdhyAya yazovijayajI julAI, prabhAvaka sthaviro' bhAga- julAI 89, yuke.mAM lesTaramAM nirmANa thayelA jaina maMdiranI pratiSThAmAM bhAga lIdho. yu.ke.mAM keTalAka jaina senTaranI mulAkAta. 1989 sAhitya samAroha cArUpa tIrthamAM pU. munizrI jaMbuvijayajI pATaNa pAse) mahArAjanI prabhAvaka sthaviro, bhAga. jinatattva sAMprata sahaciMtana bhAga 1 Dise. 89 bhAga 2, bhAga 3. 1990 putra amitAbhane kornela yunivarsiTI taraphathI Ph.D.nI DigrI maLI. tArAbahenanAM mAtuzrI dhIrajabahena dIpacaMda zAhano trIjI jUna 1990 svargavAsa thayo. vaMdanIya hRdayasparza bhAga-1, mArca-90, "zeTha motIzA" pragaTa thayA. akhila bhAratIya patrakAra pariSadamAM vaktavya ApyuM - dhoLakA. 1991 putra amitAbhane tyAM amerikAmAM bosTana pAse enTana banne jaNa gayAM. tA. 17 mArca 1991, caitra suda 1 guDIpaDavAne dine pautra ci. arcitano janma thayo. zeTha motIzA - bIjI AvRtti-1991. tAo darzana-91, prabhAvaka sthaviro-91mAM pragaTa thayA. 1992 amerikA, yuke ane AIsalenDano pravAsa. abhayabhAI ane maMgaLAbahena sAthe AIsalenDano pravAsa enTanamAM pautrI acirAno 27 navembara, 92nA roja janma thayo. jinatattva -bhAga-5, vaMdanIya hRdayasparza bhAga2, abhiciMtanA - jAnyu. 92, zeTha motIzA berarathI brigeDiyara jAnyu. 92, prabhAvaka sthaviro okTo. 92 pragaTa thayA. 1993 "tiviheNa vaMdAmi mArca-93, "rANakapura tIrtha jAnyu. prabhAvaka sthaviro - oNgasTa 93. "sAMprata sahaciMtana - bhAga-4 "jinatattva" bhAga-1 bIjI AvRtti. 1994 12 jaina sAhitya samAroha - botera jinAlaya-kaccha sAMprata sahaciMtana bhAga-5 jUna 94 phebruArI 94mAM zrI rAkezabhAI jhaverIe zrI Atmasiddhi zAstra' para thIsisa - mahAnibaMdha - DaoN. ramaNabhAI zAhanA mArgadarzana sAthe lakhavA muMbaI yuni.mAM rajisTara karAvyuM. DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha jIvanajharamara 4 279

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1995 13mo jaina sAhitya samAroha - zaMkhezvaramAM vijayazekharakata naLadamayaMtI prabaMdha - phebru. 95 Jin-Vachan phebruArI 95, bIjI AvRtti ogasTa 95 sAMprata sahaciMtana phebruArI 95. 1996 pitAzrI cImanabhAIno 100mA varSamAM praveza 14mo jainasAhitya samAroha, godharA-kaccha kophyusiyasano nItidharma ogasTa 96 jinatattva, bhAga-6 phebruArI 96 1997 15mo jaina sAhitya samAroha-ijipta, grIsa ane turkastAnano pravAsa sAMprata sahaciMtana bhAga-9 adhyAtmasAra bhAga-1 - 97 osTreliyA-97 prabhAvaka sthaviro jUna-97 2-12-98nA divase konvokezana - rAkezabhAIne Ph.D.nI DIgrI maLI. 1998 norve svIDanano pravAsa. abhayabhAI mahetA sAthe pAsaporTanI pAMkhe bhAga 1nI trIjI AvRtti - mArca 98, pAsaporTanI pAMkhe uttarAlekhana (bhAga 2) okTo. 98. sAMprata sahaciMtana bhAga-10 1999 yunAITeDa Araba emireTasa' dubAI, maskata, zAhajahA abudhAbIno pravAsa ramaNabhAI, tArAbahena, yuvaka saMghanA pramukha rasikalAla laheracaMda sAthe karyo. jena sozyala grUpa' uparAMta judA judA ghare - khAsa karIne rajanIbhAI zAha, bharatabhAI zAha, navInabhAI zAha vagerene tyAM AmaMtrito vacce jainadharma ane sAhitya para pravacano. "maskatamAM dilIpabhAI zAha taraphathI vizeSa sabhAmAM ramaNIkalAla zAhanA pramukhasthAne gUrjara phAgusAhitya-99 sAMpratasahaciMtana' bhAga-11 me. 99 jaina lagnavidhi bIjI AvRtti-99 oNsTreliyA - nyujhIlenDano pravAsa. pU. rAkezabhAI sAthe siMgApora, osTreliyA ane nyujhIlenDano pravAsa. siMgAporanA jaina saMghanA AmaMtraNathI zrotAjano samakSa tArAbahena ane ramaNabhAI bannee vaktavyo ApyAM. 2000 21 sapTembara 2000, bhAdaravA vada 8nA dine pitAzrI pU. cImanalAla amRtalAla zAhano 104 varSanI vaye svargavAsa. Comfort Trave, mahAsukhabhAI TuramAM sAutha AphrikAno pravAsa eka divasa nAyarobI gayA. vIprabhunAM vacano bhAga-1 jainadharma - mArca, sAMprata sahaciMtana bhAga-12, sapTembara adhyAtmasAra bhAga-2 Disembara, vaMdanIya hRdayasparza jUna. 280 caritradarzana

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2001 jaina sAhitya samAroha - mallinAtha, tIrtha, dahANu vIraprabhunAM vacano bhAga-1 sAMprata sahaciMtana bhAga-13 adhyAtmasAra bhAga-3 navembara-2001 AcArya vijayazIlacakrasUri Ayojita 'avadhUta AnaMdaghananI AdhyAtmika zabdacetanA' mere ghaTa gyAna bhAnu bhayo bhoga. - saMgoSThi - suratamAM adhyakSa ane mukhya vaktA tarIke bhAga lIdho - 13 oNkTo. 2001. 2002 moTA bhAI jayaMtIbhAInuM 80muM ane ramaNabhAInuM 75muM varSa. zailajAe muluMDamAM - golDana svAnamAM kuTuMba-milana yojyuM. ramaNabhAI tArAbahenanA lagnanuM 50muM varSa - mitra mahendrabhAI khUmacaMda ane puSpAbahena sAthe nAgezvara tIrthayAtrA karI. madhyapradezanA mahattvanAM digaMbara tIrthonI yAtrA karI. mahendrabhAI ane AzAbahene 50 varSanI khuzAlImAM zaMkhezvaratIrthamAM vikalAMgone sAdhana ApavAno kaeNmpa karyo. jinatattva bhAga-7, oNgasTa 2002, prabhAvaka sthaviro - bhA. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 eka pustakarUpe chApyA. jinatattva 1thI 5 bhAga sAthe chApyA. okTo. 2002 2003 jAnyuArImAM jainasAhitya ane dharmanA lekhana, saMzodhana, saMpAdana mATe zrI bAbulAla amRtalAla ceriTebala TrasTa taraphathI 'samadarzI hirabhadrasUri suvarNacaMdraka zrI zreNikabhAI kasturabhAI zeThanA pramukhapade ane zrI bhoLAbhAI paTelanA haste, amadAvAdamAM .... haoNlamAM apAyo. 17mo jaina sAhitya samAroha, lAyajA kacchamAM yojAyo. paMDita sukhalAlajI' Disembara-3 'sAMprata sahaciMtana' bhAga-14 oNkTo. adhyAtmasAra bhAga 3 nave. 2004 oNkTobara 1lIe 21-22, rekhA-1 vAlakezvaranA gharethI 301, trideva, muluMDa vesTamAM rahevA AvyA. adhyAtmasAra saMpUrNa (traNa bhAga bhegA chapAyA 2004) sAMprata sahaciMtana 15 oNkTo. 2004 jinatattva bhAga8 me. 2004 jainadharmanA puSpaguccha, bipinacaMdra kApaDiyA sAthe nave. 2004 2005 upAdhyAya yazovijayajIkRta jJAnasAra saMpUrNanuM vimocana 4 mArca2005. sAyalA AzramamAM pU. AtmAnaMdajInA haste thayuM. 'vaMdanIya hRdayasparza' sAthe chapAyelA pAMca bhAgamAM eka bhAga umerIne chapAvyo. ramaNabhAIne nabaLAI vadhatI gaI. 22mIe rAtre bokahArTa DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAha jIvanajharamara : 281

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haoNspiTala, muluMDamAM dAkhala karyA. 26mIe tabiyata sudharI ra4mIe brAhma muhUrta samAdhimRtyu thayuM. amitAbha 24mIe rAtre Avyo. rapamIe agnisaMskAra karyA. 27mIe pATakara holamAM prArthanAsabhA yojAI. temanI pAvana smRtimAM jaina yuvaka saMghe zrI dhanavaMtabhAInA taMtrIpade navembarano prabuddhajIvanano aMka zraddhAMjaliaMka tarIke ane jAnyuArI 2006no daLadAra aMka smaraNAMjali aMka tarIke prasiddha karyA. 282 2 caritradarzana

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DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAhanAM pustako nibaMdha ekAMkIsaMgraha pAsaporTanI pAMkhe - uttarAlekhana 2yAma raMga samIpe pAsaporTanI pAMkhe - bhAga trIjo jIvanacaritra-rekhAcitra-saMsmaraNa gulAmono muktidAtA | sAMprata sahaciMtana, bhAga 1thI 15 hemacaMdrAcArya abhiciMtanA vaMdanIya hRdayasparza sAhityavivecana prabhAvakasthaviro, bhAga 1thI 6. | gujarAtI sAhityanuM rekhAdarzana (anya sAthe) tiviheNa vaMdAmi | narasiMha pUrvenuM gujarAtI sAhitya upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI | baMgAku-zumi zrI mohanalAlajI mahArAja | kritikA zeTha motIzAha naLa-damayaMtInI kathAno vikAsa berarathI brigeDiyara samayasuMdara paMDita sukhalAlajI paDilehA pravAsa-zodha-saphara 196 ranuM graMthastha vADumaya evaresTanuM ArohaNa gUrjara phAgusAhitya rANakapura tIrtha saMzodhana-saMpAdana uttaradhruvanI zodha-saphara nala-devadatI rAsa (samayasuMdarakRta) nyUjhIlenDa jaMbusvAmI rAsa (yazovijayakRta) pradeze jaya-vijayanA kuvalayamALA (udyotanasUrikRta) osTreliyA mRgAvatIcaritra copAI (samayasuMdarakRta) pAsaporTanI pAMkhe nala-davadaMtI prabaMdha guNavinayakRta) | DaoN. ramaNalAla cI. zAhanAM pustako - 283

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thAvaccAsuta riSi copAI (samayasuMdarakRta) nalarAya-davadaMtI ciratra (RSivardhanasUriSkRta) dhannA-zAlibhadra copAI (guNavinayakRta) be laghu rAsakRtio (jJAnasAgarakRta ane kSamAkalyANakRta) nala-davadaMtI prabaMdha (vijayazekharaskRta) dharma-tattvajJAna jainadharma (chaThThI AvRtti) jainadharma (marAThI AvRtti) nasAra jinatattva, bhAga 1thI 8 kanphyUziyasano nItidharma vIra prabhunAM vacano bhAga 1-2 Buddhism An Introduction Shraman Bhagwan Mahavir & Jainism jainadharma (hindI AvRtti) bauddhadharma ninavavAda tAo darzana - adhyAtmasAra, bhAga 1-2-3 adhyAtmasAra (saMpUrNa) saMkSepa sarasvatIcaMdra, bhAga 1 (pAThyasaMkSepa) anuvAda rAhula sAMkRtyAyana (sAhitya akAdamI, dilhI) bhAratanI rASTrIya saMskRti (nezanala buka TrasTa, dilhI) saMpAdana (anya sAthe) manISA ciMtanayAtrA avagAhana samayaciMtana mahattarA zrI mRgAvatIzrIjI jaina sAhitya samAroha, guccha 1-2-3-4 zrI vijyAnaMdasUri svargArohaNa zatAbdI graMtha |zrI yatIndrasUri dIkSAzatAbdI graMtha zreSTha nibaMdhikAo nIrAjanA jIvanadarpaNa tattvavicAra ane abhivaMdanA zabdaloka akSarA kavitAlaharI ena. sI. sI. jaina lagnavidhi 284 * caritradarzana prakIrNa

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DaoN. pravINa darajI DaoN. pravINa darajI (23-81944 janma). mahelola, (paMcamahAla) gujarAtamAM janma. atyaMta tejasvI zaikSaNika kArakirdI . AjanA agraNI kavi, vivecaka, nibaMdhakAra, saMzodhaka, saMpAdaka, anuvAdaka. nevuM jeTalAM pustakonA sarjaka. gujarAta ane gujarAtanI bahAra vividha yunivarsiTIomAM temanAM vividha pustako snAtakaa ! !AtA ka ka phA! o abhyAsakramamAM . gujarAtI vAcanamALA dho.7thI 12 kakSAe paNa avAranavAra temanI kRtio pasaMda pAmatI rahI che. gujarAta sAhitya akAdamI, gAMdhInagara, gujarAtI sAhitya pariSada, amadAvAda, gujarAta sAhityasabhA ane anya aneka saMsthAonA maLelA suvarNa caMdrako, evorjha va. | gujarAtI lalita nibaMdhane temanA saMgrahoe eka navo vaLAMka Apyo che. temanA siddhAMtaniSTha vivecana graMtho vidvAno dvArA vyApaka svIkRti pAmyA che. gujarAtI ane gujarAta bahAranAM pratiSThita dainikomAM varSothI teo sajanAtmaka - cinAtmaka kaTAranA lekhaka rahyA che. gujarAta ane gujarAtanI bahAra, temaja videzamAM temanA gujarAta vAcakono - prazaMsakono bahoLo varga rahyo che. For Privat & Personal Use Only www.jainelibrary.one Jain Education ite na inal

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ramaNabhAinI kalA racanA (1941)