Jindgi Imtihan Leti Hai

Author(s): Bhadraguptasuri
Publisher: Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra Koba
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/009633/1

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai AcAryadevazrI vijaya bhutyuptasUrIzvarajI mahArAja For Private And Personal Use Only

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jindagI imtihAna letI hai! (72 preraNAdAyI patroM kA saMkalana) zrI priyadarzana [AcArya zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrijI mahArAja] For Private And Personal Use Only

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punaH saMpAdana jJAnatIrtha-kobA dvitIya bhAvRtti vi.saM.2067, 31 agasta-2009 __ maMgala prasaMga rASTrasaMta zrutoddhAraka AcAryadevazrI padmasAgarasUrijI kA 77vA~ janmadivasa tithi : bhAdra, suda-11 di. 31-8-2009, sAMtAkrUja, muMbaI mUlya pakkI jilda : rU. 147-00 kaccI jilda : rU. 67-00 bhArthika saujanya zeTha zrI niraMjana narottamabhAI ke smaraNArtha ha. zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra prakAzaka zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira kobA, tA. ji. gAMdhInagara - 382007 phona naM. (079) 23176104, 23176171 email : gyanmandir@kobatirth.org website : www.kobatirth.org mudraka : navaprabhAta prinTarsa, amadAvAda - 9825598855 TAITala DIjAina : Arya grAphIksa - 9925801910 For Private And Personal Use Only

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prakAzakIya pUjya AcArya zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrijI mahArAja (zrI priyadarzana) dvArA likhita aura vizvakalyANa prakAzana, mahesANA se prakAzita sAhitya, jaina samAja meM hI nahIM apitu jainetara samAja meM bhI bar3I utsukatA aura manoyoga se par3hA jAne vAlA lokapriya sAhitya hai. __ pUjyazrI ne 19 navambara, 1999 ke dina ahamadAbAda meM kAladharma prApta kiyA. isake bAda vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa ko visarjita kara unake prakAzanoM kA punaH prakAzana banda karane ke nirNaya kI bAta sunakara hamAre TrasTiyoM kI bhAvanA huI ki pUjya AcArya zrI kA utkRSTa sAhitya janasamudAya ko hamezA prApta hotA rahe, isake liye kucha karanA cAhie. pUjya rASTrasaMta AcArya zrI padmasAgarasUrijI mahArAja ko vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTamaMDala ke sadasyoM ke nirNaya se avagata karAyA gayA. donoM pUjya AcAryazrIyoM kI ghaniSTha mitratA thI. antima dinoM meM divaMgata AcAryazrI ne rASTrasaMta AcAryazrI se milane kI hArdika icchA bhI vyakta kI thI. pUjya AcAryazrI ne isa kArya hetu vyakti, vyaktittva aura kRtittva ke AdhAra para saharSa apanI sahamatI pradAna kI. unakA AzIrvAda prApta kara kobAtIrtha ke TrasTiyoM ne isa kArya ko Age cAlU rakhane hetu vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa ke sAmane prastAva rakhA. vizvakalyANa prakAzana TrasTa ke TrasTiyoM ne bhI kobAtIrtha ke TrasTiyoM kI divaMgata AcAryazrI priyadarzana ke sAhitya ke pracAra-prasAra kI utkRSTa bhAvanA ko dhyAna meM lekara zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobAtIrtha ko apane TrasTa dvArA prakAzita sAhitya ke punaH prakAzana kA sarvAdhikAra saharSa sauMpa diyA - isake bAda zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA ne saMsthA dvArA saMcAlita zrutasaritA (jaina buka sTaoNla) ke mAdhyama se zrI priyadarzanajI ke lokapriya sAhitya ke vitaraNa kA kArya samAja ke hita meM prArambha kara diyA. zrI priyadarzana ke anupalabdha sAhitya ke punaH prakAzana karane kI zRMkhalA meM jindagI imtihAna letI hai! graMtha ko prakAzita kara Apake kara kamaloM meM prastuta kiyA jA rahA hai. For Private And Personal Use Only

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zeTha zrI saMvegabhAI lAlabhAI ke saujanya se isa prakAzana ke liye zrI niraMjana narottamabhAI ke smaraNArtha, haste zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra kI ora se udAratA pUrvaka Arthika sahayoga prApta huA hai, isaliye hama zeTha zrI narottamabhAI lAlabhAI parivAra ke RNI haiM tathA unakA hArdika AbhAra mAnate haiM. AzA hai ki bhaviSya meM bhI unakI ora se sadaiva udAratA pUrNa sahayoga prApta hotA rahegA. isa AvRtti kA prUphariDiMga karane vAle DaoN. hemanta kumAra tathA aMtima prUpha karane hetu paMDitavarya zrI manojabhAI jaina kA hama hRdaya se AbhAra mAnate haiM. saMsthA ke kampyUTara vibhAga meM kAryarata zrI ketanabhAI zAha, zrI saMjayabhAI gurjara va zrI bAlasaMga ThAkora ke hama hRdaya se AbhArI haiM jinhoMne isa pustaka kA suMdara kampojiMga kara chapAI hetu baTara priMTa nikAlA. Apase hamArA vinamra anurodha hai ki Apa apane mitroM va svajanoM meM isa preraNAdAyaka satsAhitya ko vitarita kareM. zrutajJAna ke pracAra-prasAra meM ApakA laghu yogadAna bhI Apake liye lAbhadAyaka siddha hogA. punaH prakAzana ke samaya graMthakArazrI ke Azaya va jinAjJA ke viruddha koI bAta raha gayI ho to micchAmi dukkar3am. vidvAna pAThakoM se nivedana hai ki ve isa ora hamArA dhyAna AkRSTa kareM. anta meM naye AvaraNa tathA sAja-sajjA ke sAtha prastuta graMtha ApakI jIvanayAtrA kA mArga prazasta karane meM nimitta bane aura viSamatAoM meM bhI samarasatA kA lAbha karAye aisI zubhakAmanAoM ke sAtha... TrasTIgaNa zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA For Private And Personal Use Only

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pUjya AcArya bhagavaMta zrI vijayabhadraguptasUrIzvarajI zrAvaNa zuklA 12, vi.saM. 1989 ke dina pudagAma mahesANA (gujarAta) meM maNIbhAI evaM hIrAbahana ke kuladIpaka ke rUpa meM janme mUlacandabhAI, juhIM kI kalI kI bhAMti khilatIkhulatI javAnI meM 18 barasa kI umra meM vi.saM. 2007, mahAvada 5 ke dina rANapura (saurASTra) meM AcArya zrImad vijayapremasUrIzvarajI mahArAjA ke karamakamaloM dvArA dIkSita hokara pU. bhuvanabhAnusUrIzvarajI ke ziSya bane. muni zrI bhadraguptavijayajI kI dIkSAjIvana ke prAraMbha kAla se hI adhyayana adhyApana kI sudIrgha yAtrA prAraMbha ho cukI thI.45 AgamoM ke saTIka adhyayanoparAMta dArzanika, bhAratIya evaM pAzcAtya tatvajJAna, kAvya-sAhitya vagairaha ke 'milasTona' pAra karatI huI vaha yAtrA sarjanAtmaka kSitija kI tarapha mur3a gaI. 'mahApaMthano yAtrI' se 20 sAla kI umra meM zuru huI lekhanayAtrA aMta samaya taka athaka evaM anavarata calI. taraha-taraha kA maulika sAhitya, tatvajJAna, vivecanA, dIrgha kathAe~, laghu kathAe~, kAvyagIta, patroM ke jariye svaccha va svastha mArgadarzana paraka sAhitya sarjana dvArA unakA jIvana saphara dina-ba-dina bharApUrA banA rahatA thA. premabharA ha~samukha svabhAva, prasanna va mRdu AMtara-bAhya vyaktitva evaM bahujana-hitAya bahujana-sukhAya pravRttiyA~ unake jIvana ke mahattva capUrNa aMgarUpa thI. saMgha-zAsana vizeSa karake yuvA pIr3hI. taruNa pIDhI evaM ziza-saMsAra ke jIvana nirmANa kI prakiyA meM unheM rUci thI... aura isI se unheM saMtuSTi milatI thI. pravacana, vArtAlApa, saMskAra zibira, jApa-dhyAna, anuSThAna evaM paramAtma bhakti ke viziSTa AyojanoM ke mAdhyama se unakA sahiSNu vyaktitva bhI utanA hI unnata evaM ujjvala banA rahA. pUjyazrI jAnane yogya vyaktitva va mahasUsa karane yogya astitva se sarAbora the. kolhApura meM tA.4-5-1987 ke dina gurudeva ne unheM AcArya pada se vibhUSita kiyA.jIvana ke aMta samaya meM lambe arase taka ve aneka vyAdhiyoM kA sAmanA karate hue aura aise meM bhI satata sAhitya sarjana karate hue dinAMka 19-11-1999 ko zyAmala, ahamadAbAda meM kAladharma ko prApta hue. For Private And Personal Use Only

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saMpAdakIya mAnava jIvana taraha-taraha kI vizeSatAoM kA melA hai| sukha kI khoja meM khuda hI kho gaye AdamI kI A~kheM nama ho jAtI haiM... to kabhI kabhAra bevajaha haMsI-muskAna kI phulavArI khila jAtI hai, usake cehare ke bagIce meM! to kabhI udAsI kI badalI astitva ko sameTa letI hai, apane sAye meM aura phira A~suoM kI barasAta thamane kA nAma nahIM letI! parezAnI, samasyA, prazna, ulajhana ye saba aba zabdakoza meM nahIM varan jindagI ke sAtha jur3e hue zabda haiM! jindagI akasara samasyAoM ke sulagate-jhulasate registAna-sI ho jAtI hai... praznoM aura savAloM ke zikaMje meM jakar3e hue AdamI kA jIvana dubhara aura bojhila bana jAtA hai, yadi usake pAsa sahI samajhadArI aura saMtulita vyaktitva na ho to! duniyA kI rAha para phUloM se jyAdA kAMTe bikhare paDe haiM - phira bhI tAjuba to isa bAta kA hai ki AdamI ke dila ko kAMToM se bhI jyAdA phUla cubhate haiM! phUloM ke ghAva bar3e gahare hote haiM...! ve jakhma jaldI nahIM bharateM! saMbaMdhoM ke phUla khilAne kI khvAhiza meM kadama-kadama para saMgharSa ke zUla cubhate haiM... TUTana... pIr3A aura saMtrAsa kA khUna risatA hai! jindagI kI jalatI registAnI yAtrA meM yaha kitAba sacamuca 'svITa' aura 'sinsIyara' dosta kA kAma karegI! saMbaMdhoM ke jagata ko vana na banAte hue upavana banAe~... yahI isa kitAba kA kahanA hai! _ hAlA~ki jIvana hai to savAloM kA silasilA calatA hI rahatA hai...| agara savAla nahIM hoteM... samasyAe~ nahIM hotI to jindagI isa kadara raMgabiraMgI aura vividhatA bharI nahIM hotI! savAla hai to savAla kA javAba bhI hogA hI! vyaktigata-pArasparika aura sAmAjika jIvana kI rAha para yaha pustaka jarura mArgadarzaka bnegii| - bhadrabAhuvijaya For Private And Personal Use Only

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dharma kalA va zruta-sAdhanA kA AhlAdaka dhAma zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA tIrtha ahamadAbAda-gAMdhInagara rAjamArga para sthita sAbaramatI nadI ke samIpa suramya vRkSoM kI ghaTAoM se ghirA huA yaha kobA tIrtha prAkRtika zAntipUrNa vAtAvaraNa kA anubhava karAtA hai . gacchAdhipati, mahAna jainAcArya zrImat kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. kI divya kRpA va yugadraSTA rASTrasaMta AcArya pravara zrImat padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI ke zubhAzIrvAda se zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra kI sthApanA 26 disambara 1980 ke dina kI gaI thI. AcAryazrI kI yaha icchA thI ki yahA~ para dharma, ArAdhanA aura jJAna-sAdhanA kI koI ekAdha pravRtti hI nahIM varan anekavidha jJAna aura dharma-pravRttiyoM kA mahAsaMgama ho. etadartha AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI kI mahAna bhAvanArUpa AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira kA khAsa taura para nirmANa kiyA gayA. zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra anekavidha pravRttiyoM meM apanI nimnalikhita zAkhAoM ke satprayAsoM ke sAtha dharmazAsana kI sevA meM tatpara hai. (1) mahAvIrAlaya : hRdaya meM alaukika dharmollAsa jagAne vAlA carama tIrthaMkara zrI mahAvIrasvAmI kA zilpakalA yukta bhavya prAsAda 'mahAvIrAlaya' darzanIya hai. prathama tala para garbhagRha meM mUlanAyaka mahAvIrasvAmI Adi 13 pratimAoM ke darzana alaga-alaga deriyoM meM hote haiM tathA bhUmi tala para AdIzvara bhagavAna kI bhavya pratimA, mANibhadravIra tathA bhagavatI padmAvatI sahita pAMca pratimAoM ke darzana hote haiM. sabhI pratimAe~ itanI mohaka evaM cumbakIya AkarSaNa rakhatI haiM ki lagatA hai sAmane hI baiThe raheM. ___ maMdira ko paraMparAgata zailI meM zilpAMkanoM dvArA rocaka paddhati se alaMkRta kiyA gayA hai, jisase sIDhiyoM se lekara zikhara ke guMbaja taka tathA raMgamaMDapa se garbhagRha kA hara pradeza jaina zilpa kalA ko Adhunika yuga meM punaH jAgRta karatA dRSTigocara hotA hai. dvAroM para utkIrNa bhagavAna mahAvIra deva ke prasaMga 24 yakSa, 24 yakSiNiyoM, 16 mahAvidyAoM, vividha svarUpoM meM apsarA, deva, kinnara, pazu-pakSI sahita vela-vallarI Adi isa maMdira ko jaina zilpa evaM sthApatya ke kSetra meM eka apratima udAharaNa ke rUpa meM saphalatApUrvaka prastuta karate haiM. mahAvIrAlaya kI viziSTatA yaha hai ki AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI For Private And Personal Use Only

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ma.sA. ke antima saMskAra ke samaya prativarSa 22 maI ko dupahara 2 bajakara 7 minaTa para mahAvIrAlaya ke zikhara meM se hokara sUrya kiraNeM zrI mahAvIrasvAmI ke lalATa ko sUryatilaka se dedIpyamAna kare aisI anupama evaM advitIya vyavasthA kI gaI hai. prati varSa isa AhlAdaka ghaTanA kA darzana bar3I saMkhyA meM janamedanI bhAvavibhora hokara karatI hai. (2) AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri smRti maMdira (guru maMdira) : pUjya gacchAdhipati AcAryadeva prazAntamUrti zrImat kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI ke puNya deha ke antima saMskAra sthala para pUjyazrI kI puNya-smRti meM saMgamaramara kA nayanaramya kalAtmaka guru maMdira nirmita kiyA gayA hai. sphaTika ratna se nirmita anantalabdhinidhAna zrI gautamasvAmIjI kI manohara mUrti tathA sphaTika se hI nirmita guru caraNa-pAdukA vAstava meM darzanIya haiM. (3) AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamandira (jJAnatIrtha) : vizva meM jainadharma evaM bhAratIya saMskRti ke vizAlatama adyatana sAdhanoM se susajja zodha saMsthAna ke rUpa meM apanA sthAna banA cukA yaha jJAnatIrtha zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra kI AtmA hai. jJAnatIrtha svayaM apane Apa meM eka labdhapratiSTha saMsthA hai. AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira ke antargata nimnalikhita vibhAga kAryarata haiM : (i) devarddhigaNi kSamAzramaNa hastaprata bhAMDAgAra (ii) Arya sudharmAsvAmI zrutAgAra (mudrita pustakoM kA graMthAlaya) (iii) AryarakSitasUri zodhasAgara (kampyUTara kendra sahita) (iv) samrATa samprati saMgrahAlaya : isa kalAdIrghA-myUjIyama meM purAtattva-adhyetAoM aura jijJAsu darzakoM ke lie prAcIna bhAratIya zilpa kalA paramparA ke gauravamaya darzana isa sthala para hote haiM. pASANa va dhAtu mUrtiyoM, tAr3apatra va kAgaja para citrita pANDulipiyoM, laghucitra, paTTa, vijJaptipatra, kASTha tathA hastidaMta se banI prAcIna evaM arvAcIna advitIya kalAkRtiyoM tathA anyAnya purAvastuoM ko bahuta hI AkarSaka evaM prabhAvotpAdaka DhaMga se dhArmika va sAMskRtika gaurava ke anurUpa pradarzita kI gaI hai. (v) zahara zAkhA : pUjya sAdhu-sAdhvIjI bhagavaMta evaM zrAvaka-zrAvikAoM ko svAdhyAya, ciMtana aura manana hetu jainadharma ki pustakeM najadika meM hI upalabdha ho sake isalie bahusaMkhya jaina bastIvAle ahamadAbAda (pAlaDI-Tolakanagara) vistAra meM AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira kI eka zahara zAkhA kA I. saM. 1999 meM prAraMbha kiyA gayA thA. jo Aja caturvidha saMgha ke zrutajJAna ke adhyayana hetu niraMtara apanI sevAeM de rahI hai. For Private And Personal Use Only

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(4) ArAdhanA bhavana : ArAdhaka yahA~ dharmArAdhanA kara sakeM isake lie ArAdhanA bhavana kA nirmANa kiyA gayA hai. prAkRtika havA evaM rozanI se bharapUra isa ArAdhanA bhavana meM muni bhagavaMta sthiratA kara apanI saMyama ArAdhanA ke sAtha-sAtha viziSTa jJAnAbhyAsa, dhyAna, svAdhyAya Adi kA yoga prApta karate haiM. (5) dharmazAlA : isa tIrtha meM AnevAle yAtriyoM evaM mahemAnoM ko Thaharane ke lie Adhunika suvidhA saMpanna yAtrikabhavana evaM atithibhavana kA nirmANa kiyA gayA hai. dharmazAlA meM vAtAnukulita evaM sAmAnya milakara 46 kamare upalabdha hai. prakRti kI goda meM zAMta aura suramya vAtAvaraNa meM isa tIrtha kA varSa bhara meM hajAroM yAtrI lAbha lete haiM. (6) bhojanazAlA va alpAhAra gRha : tIrtha meM padhAranevAle zrAvakoM, darzanArthiyoM, mumukSuoM, vidvAnoM evaM yAtriyoM kI suvidhA hetu jaina siddhAntoM ke anurUpa sAttvika upahAra upalabdha karAne kI vizAla bhojanazAlA va alpAhAra gRha meM sundara vyavasthA hai. (7) zruta saritA : isa buka sTAla meM ucita mUlya para utkRSTa jaina sAhitya, ArAdhanA sAmagrI, dhArmika upakaraNa, kaiseTasa evaM sI.DI. Adi upalabdha kiye jAte haiM. yahIM para esa.TI.DI TelIphona bUtha bhI hai. vizvamaitrI dhAma - borIjatIrtha, gAMdhInagara : yoganiSTha AcArya zrImad buddhisAgarasUrijI mahArAja kI sAdhanAsthalI borIjatIrtha kA punaruddhAra parama pUjya AcAryadeva zrI padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma.sA. kI preraNA evaM zubhAzIrvAda se zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra saMlagna vizvamaitrI dhAma ke tattvAvadhAna meM navanirmita 108 phITa u~ce vizAlatama mahAlaya meM 81.25 IMca ke padmAsanastha zrI varddhamAna svAmI prabhu pratiSThita kiye gaye haiM. jJAtavya ho ki vartamAna mandira meM isI sthAna para jamIna meM se nikalI bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmI Adi pratimAoM kI pratiSThA yoganiSTha AcArya zrImad buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAja dvArA huI thI. navIna mandira sthApatya evaM zilpa donoM hI dRSTi se darzanIya hai. yahA~ para mahimApura (pazcimabaMgAla) meM jagatazeTha zrI mANikacaMdajI dvArA 18vI sadI meM kasauTI paththara se nirmita bhavya aura aitihAsika jinAlaya kA punaruddhAra kiyA gayA hai. vartamAna meM ise jainasaMgha kI aitihAsika dharohara mAnA jAtA hai. nissaMdeha isase isa tIrtha parisara meM pUrva va pazcima bhArata ke jainazilpa kA abhUtapUrva saMgama huA hai. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AcArya zrI bhadraguptasUri (priyadarzana) racita va sarjita sAhitya aura vizvakalyANa prakAzana, mahesANA dvArA prakAzita upalabdha pustakeM (aba zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobAtIrtha se upalabdha va prakAzyamAna) hindI pustakeM pravacana 1. parva pravacanamAlA 25.00 2-4. zrAvakajIvana (bhAga 2, 3, 4) 150.00 5. zAMtasudhArasa (bhAga 1) 50.00 kathA-kahAniyA~ zodha-pratizodha (samarAditya : bhava-1) 30.00 dveSa-adveSa (samarAditya : bhava-2) 30.00 vizvAsaghAta (samarAditya : bhava-3) 30.00 vaira vikAra (samarAditya : bhava-4) 50.00 sneha saMdeha (samarAditya : bhava-6) 50.00 saMsAra sAgara hai 30.00 *prIta kiye duHkha hoya DI.-195.00/ja.-90.00 vratakathA 15.00 kathAdIpa 10.00 phUlapattI 8.00 choTI sI bAta 8.00 12. *kalikAla sarvajJa DI.-120.00/ja.-55.00 hisAba kitAba 15.00 14. naina bahe dina raina 30.00 15. sabase U~cI prema sagAI 30.00 tattvajJAna jJAnasAra (saMpUrNa) 50.00 *samAdhAna 50.00 mAraga sAcA kauna batAve 30.00 *pIo anubhava rasa pyAlA DI.-101.00/ja.-42.00 zAnta sudhArasa (artha sahita) 12.00 motI kI khetI 5.00 prazamarati (bhAga - 2) 25.00 nibaMdha : maulika ciMtana 1. svAdhyAya 30.00 2. ciMtana kI cA~danI 30.00 11. 13. 10 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai (r) jIvana jIne ke liye dRSTi ko badalanA anivArya hai| auroM ko svArthI, matalabI aura tuccha mAnakara apane Apa ko 'supara' batAne kI manovRtti ghaTiyA evaM khataranAka hai| (r) mA~ to bhAvamaMgala hai! mA~ ke AzIrvAda duniyA kI sabase z2yAdA kImatI upalabdhi hai| (r) jo hameM na to citta kI prasannatA de... na vAtAvaraNa ko prema va madhuratA se bhara de... vaisI jIvana-vyavasthA kA kyA mahattva hai? (r) sukhI banane kI koziza meM tar3apane ke bajAya sukhoM ko bikherane kA, sukhoM ko bA~Tane kA AnaMda lenA cAhie! (r) maitrI kI prathama zarta hai - auroM ke hita kA vicAra! ADVAN patra : 1 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra milA, patra par3hakara prasannatA huI, paramAtmA jinezvara kI acintya kRpA se yahA~ kuzalatA hai| tU ne patra meM likhA ki 'mAtA-pitA, bhAI-bahana, patnI-parivAra vagairaha saba svArthI haiM... kabhI-kabhI una saba ke sAtha saMgharSa ho jAtA hai... mujhe ina saba ke prati ghRNA sI ho gaI hai... ityAdi / pahalI bAta to yaha hai ki tujhe apanI dRSTi badalanI pdd'egii| upakArI... mahAna upakArI aise mAtA-pitA ko tU 've svArthI haiM' kI dRSTi se dekhatA hai... kaisI azuddha-malina hai, yaha dRSTi? tU mAtA ko 'svArthI' dekhatA hai, phira, jaba-jaba usake sAmane tU AtA hogA, usake prati vinaya, usakI sevA-bhakti aura usake prati ucita kartavyoM kA pAlana to hotA hI nahIM hogA! tU isI vajaha se azAMta hai, tU apanI jananI ko zAMti nahIM detA hai! tere jIvana meM isI vajaha se itane saMkaTa Ate haiM, tUne mAtA ko bhAvamaMgala nahIM mAnA hai aura usake vAtsalyapUrNa AzIrvAda nahIM pAe haiM! tU isI vajaha se parezAna hai, cU~ki tUne kabhI mAtA ke upakAroM ko yAda hI nahIM kiyA...! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai jisako upakArI samajhanA hai, jo vAstava meM mahAna upakArI haiM - usako 'svArthI' mAnanA, kitanA bar3A pApa hai? upakArI ke upakAroM ko bhUla jAnevAlA manuSya, mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA kara hI nahIM sakatA, dharmakSetra meM usako praveza hI nahIM milatA, dharma karane kA adhikAra hI nahIM hai usko| __ eka bAta batAyegA mujhe? 'mAtA-pitA vagairaha svArthI haiM - yaha bAta tUne kahA~ sunI? kahA~ par3hI? apane hI svArthoM ko siddha karane kI icchAvAloM ne, jaba unakI svArthasiddhi huI nahIM, svArthasiddhi ke mArga meM unhoMne mAtA-pitA yA kisI bhI svajana ko avarodha-rUpa meM dekhA, ve cillA uThe - 'ye saba svArthI haiM! ye saba matalabI haiM!' hAlAMki cillAnevAle svayaM svArthI haiM, svayaM matalabI haiM, parantu usakA svArtha mAtA ne, pitA ne, bhAI ne, bahina ne, patnI ne, putra ne, mitra ne... kisI ne pUrNa nahIM kiyA aura vaha nirAza ho gayA / una saba snehI ke prati usake mana meM dveSa paidA ho gayA, aura vaha cillAyA - 'ye saba svArthI haiM!' / saca bAta kaha dU~? manuSya kI svArtha dRSTi hI dUsaroM ko svArthI dekhatI hai! terA koI svArtha hai, tere mana meM koI sukha pAne kA svArtha chipA huA hai - vaha svArtha - vaha vAsanA, tere mAtA-pitA vagairaha pUrNa nahIM kara rahe haiM - isalie ve terI dRSTi meM 'svArthI' laga rahe haiM, unake prati tere mana meM ghRNA ho gaI hai aura isalie unake sAtha avinaya-aviveka aura saMgharSa hotA rahatA hai! dRSTi badala de| aisI dRSTi kisa kAma kI jo hameM cita prasannatA nahIM detI, jo hameM maitrIbhAva ke pavitra jala meM snAna nahIM karane detI, jo hameM vAstavika mokSamArga nahIM dekhane detI? dRSTi badala jAyegI phira mAtA svArthI nahIM dikhegI varan upakArI dikhegI! mAtA guNahIna nahIM dikhegI, balki guNabhaMDAra dikhegii| tU apane sukhoM ke lie mAtA kA tiraskAra kara ke usakA tyAga nahIM karegA, mAtA ke sukha ke lie tU apane sukhoM kA tyAga karegA! vaha sukhoM kA tyAga terA paramasukha bana jaaegaa| ___ maiM samajhatA hU~ - kaI pArivArika samasyAe~ tere sAmane haiM, terI una saba samasyAoM kA to nahIM, parantu mere se ho sake utanI z2yAdA se z2yAdA samasyAoM kA samAdhAna karane kA maiM prayatna kruuNgaa| para yadi tU dRSTijIvanadRSTi badala degA, to terI saba samasyAoM kA samAdhAna tU svayaM hI kara legaa| tujhe karanA bhI nahIM par3egA, svataH samAdhAna ho jAegA.. dRSTi badalane para samasyA rahatI hI nahIM! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai mAtA-pitA ityAdi parivAra se sukha pAne kI dRSTi, arthAta 'saba parivAra vAloM ko mere sukha kA, merI zAMti kA vicAra karanA cAhie, mujhe sukha denA cAhie..' aisA vicAra hI bhayaMkara hai| tU kahegA : 'kyA manuSya sukha nahIM cAhatA? sukha ke binA jIvana jI sakegA?' terI bAta saca hai, pratyeka manuSya sukha cAhatA hai aura jIvana sukhamaya ho - yaha icchA bhI svAbhAvika hai| parantu eka satya-eka siddhAMta tU apanI DAyarI meM likha kara rakha le : sukha milanA apane puNya ke AdhIna hai, sukha denA apane guNoM ke AdhIna hai! __ tU sukha pAne kI icchA nahIM karegA to bhI sukha milegA - yadi tere 'puNyakarma' zubha - prArabdha udaya meM Ae~ge to| sukha dene kI bhAvanA to rakhanI hI pdd'egii| sukha dene meM tU svataMtra hai, sukha pAne meM nhiiN| sukha milane kA kendra' dUsarA hai, tU sukha lene ke lie dekhatA hai parivAra kI tarapha! merA to yaha kahanA hai ki tU aba sukha pAne kI - sukhI ho jAne kI icchA chor3a de, tere se ho sake itanA dUsare jIvoM ko sukha dene kA kArya prAraMbha kara de| svArtha kA visarjana karanA hI pdd'egaa| tujhe koI svArtha nahIM hogA, phira terI dRSTi meM mAtA-pitA vagairaha svArthI nahIM dikheMge, tU unake hI sukha kA vicAra karegA, unake sukha ke lie tU apane sukhoM kA bhI tyAga kara de! rAjA dazaratha kA duHkha dekhakara zrI rAma ne apane sukhoM kA tyAga nahIM kara diyA thA? kaikeyI ne apane putra bharata ke lie ayodhyA kA rAjasiMhAsana mA~ga liyA, dazaratha dvidhA meM par3a gae, rAjya para adhikAra rAma kA hai, mA~ga liyA kaikeyI ne...! dazaratha kaikeyI ke sAtha vacanabaddha the... zrI rAma ne pitA kI ulajhana ko samajhA, unhoMne kSaNa kA bhI vilaMba kie binA, vanavAsa svIkAra kara liyA, apane sukhoM kA vicAra taka nahIM kiyA, pitA kI ulajhana kA hI vicAra kiyA! zrI rAma ne vahA~ : 'mAtA kaikeyI svArthI hai, adhama hai... anyAyI hai... aisA kucha nahIM kahA! are, aisA kucha socA bhI nahIM thA! pitA ke prati bhI zrI rAma ne koI anucita vicAra nahIM kiyA thaa| yadi zrI rAma apane sukhoM ke bAre meM hI socate, to rAmAyaNa koI dUsarI taraha kI hI hotI nA? apane hI sukhoM kA vicAra karate to rAma apane pitA dazaratha se lar3ate! mAtA kaikeyI se jhagar3ate! rAjya kA ba~TavArA hotA... athavA gRhakalaha ho jAtA... | zrI rAma ke hRdaya meM mahArAjA dazaratha ke prati athavA mAtA kaikeyI ke prati kisI bhI taraha kA dveSa yA durbhAva paidA hI nahIM huaa| unhoMne to apanA hI kartavya socA / 'aisI paristhiti meM pitAjI ke prati merA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai kyA kartavya hai?' itanA hI socA / 'pitAjI kA kyA kartavya hai - pitAjI ko kyA karanA cAhie,' yaha nahIM socA | unhoMne apane sukhoM kA tyAga kara diyaa| __ 'duniyA svArthI hai,' aisA mata soco, 'duniyA ke saba jIva mere mitra haiM, aisA soco| mitratA kI zarta hai - parahita kA vicAra! saba jIvoM ke hita kA, kalyANa kA vicAra hI to mitratA hai| 'vizva kA kalyANa ho' vizva ke jIvamAtra kA kalyANa ho - isa pavitratama prArthanA se apane prANoM ko plAvita kro| zAMti se, svastha citta se patra par3hanA, do-tIna bAra par3hanA, mana meM kisI bhI taraha kI jijJAsA jAgRta ho, mujhe avazya likhanA, jaya vItarAga! bhIvaMDI, 1 akTUbara 1975 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai (r) jahA~ para prema hotA hai... bhItarI lagAva hotA hai... vahA~ para vaicArika yA __vyAvahArika matabhedoM ko tanika bhI jagaha nahIM hotI hai| @ zraddhAyogya, bhaktiyogya evaM prItiyogya pAtroM ke sAtha kabhI bhI vAda-vivAda yA arthahIna carcA meM nahIM utaranA caahie| (r) jo hamAre vicAroM se sahamata nahIM bhI ho... unake prati tiraskAra yA anAdara rakhanA ucita nahIM hai| (r) sahajIvana ke lie vaicArika sahiSNutA atyaMta Avazyaka hotI hai| (r) bAharI rUpa-raMga kI cakAcauMdha asthAyI hotI hai... jIvana kI yAtrA meM bAharI sAmaMjasya se kahIM z2yAdA bhItarI saMvAditA jarUrI hai| patra : 20 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, manuSya kA yaha svabhAva hai ki laMbI pratIkSA ke bAda kucha milatA hai, to manuSya z2yAdA AnaMda anubhava karatA hai| terA patra kitanI pratIkSA ke pazcAta milA! paraMtu milA isalie AnaMda! terA patra par3hatA gayA... mAno aisA lagA ki tU pragAr3ha nirAzA se AkrAnta ho gayA hai| maiM nahIM jAnatA ki tU itanA vikala kyoM hai? tere andara itanI pIr3A kyoM hai? kyoM tU yaha vyathA... yaha udAsI... yaha viSAda apane mana meM sa~joe hue haiM? mumukSu! kyA tU mere Upara vizvAsa karegA? yadi maiM tere dila para chAI huI vyathA aura udAsI kI ghanaghora ghaTA ko bikherane meM sahAyatA karU~ to! maiM tere komala hRdaya ko zAMti, prasannatA aura pavitratA se bharanA cAhatA huuN| tere isa patra se maiM itanA jAna sakA hU~ ki tere parivAra ke bar3oM ke sAtha tere vaicArika matabheda ugra banate jA rahe haiN| tU apane vicAroM ko satya mAnatA hai, tere mAtA-pitA apane vicAroM ko satya mAnate haiN| ____ mere priya mumukSu! tU mujhe eka bAta sahI-sahI batAegA? kyA tU tere parivAra meM se kisI kA bhI prema cAhatA hai? tUne apane citta meM nirNaya kara liyA hai na ki 'ghara meM se kisI kA bhI prema nahIM milegA to calegA...' usa vyakti kA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai prema milanA cAhie.. aura mila rahA hai...' parivAra ke sAtha vaicArika matabheda kI bhI yahI jar3a hai na? saccI bAta to yaha hai ki jahA~ se manuSya prema cAhatA hai, vahA~ koI bhI vaicArika yA vyAvahArika matabheda Tika hI nahIM sktaa| kyA tU mAtA-pitA aura bhAI-bahana ko isalie ThukarAnA cAhatA hai ki ve tere AdhyAtmika vikAsa meM vighnabhUta banate haiM? terI dhArmika bhAvanAoM ko ve kucalate haiM? nahIM na? maiM jAnatA hU~ tere parivAra ko| vaha parivAra kabhI bhI dhArmika yA AdhyAtmika vikAsa meM ror3A bana hI nahIM sktaa| zAyada terI mAtA to yaha cAhatI hogI ki tU mokSamArga kA pathika bne| ___ maiM yaha anumAna karatA hU~ ki tU tere Atmahita ko nahIM samajhate hue koI ahitakArI pravRtti karatA hogA, tujhe vaha pravRtti hitakArI-sukhakArI lagatI hogI... tere pitAjI aura mAtAjI ko vaha pravRtti ahitakara lagatI hogI... aura ve aisI pravRtti kA tyAga karane ke lie kahate hoMge... sahI bAta hai na? unakI bAta sunanA bhI tujhe aba pasanda nahIM lagatA, sahI bAta hai-yauvanakAla hI aisA hai...| tU tere mAtA-pitA kI dRSTi ko samajhane kA prayatna karegA? ve tere lie jo kucha soca rahe haiM - kyA tujhe duHkhI karane kA unakA irAdA hai? nahIM, tU jo kadama uThAnA cAhatA hai, usameM ve tere ko duHkhI dekha rahe haiM, ve nahIM cAhate ki tU duHkhI bne| unake hRdaya meM tere prati sneha hai, sneha kabhI duHkhI karane kA soca hI nahIM sktaa| terI mAtA ke pAsa to jJAnadRSTi bhI hai| vaha to tere vartamAna jIvana kA hI nahIM, terI AtmA kA bhI vicAra karatI hoNgii| tU unakI vicAradhArA ko zAMta citta se socanA apane sukha aura kalyANa kI kAmanA karane vAloM ke prati ghRNA kabhI nahIM krnaa| ho sakatA hai, unake saba vicAra hamako pasaMda na bhI ho| jaba vaha vyakti... jise tUne prema kiyA ho, vaha tiraskAra karane lagatA hai taba? vaha ThukarAne lagatA hai taba? dila ke Tukar3e ho jAte haiM na? jisa dina terA janma huA thA, terI mamatAmayI mAtA ne tujha se pyAra kiyA thA.... Aja dina taka vaha pyAra karatI A rahI hai... hA~, tU bhI usase pyAra karatA thA, usake binA eka kSaNa bhI akelA nahIM raha sakatA thA... yAda kara una dinoM ko| Aja tU eka anajAna vyakti ke pyAra meM baha kara, usa nirmala pyAra dene vAlI mAtA ko ThukarA rahA hai... kyA hotA hogA usa mAtRhRdaya ko? mAtRhRdaya For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai ke zmazAna meM tU priyatamA ke pyAra kA mahala banAnA cAhatA hai? usa mahala meM kyA tU sukha pAegA? AnaMda pAegA? kyA terI mAtA ne tere sukha kI pratipala cintA nahIM kI hai? terI hara suvidhA kA khyAla nahIM kiyA hai? prema kI nizAnI aura kyA hotI hai? tU terI mAtA ko vinaya se, bhakti se... prema se tere vicAroM meM sahamata banA le athavA tU unake vicAroM kA svIkAra kara le| acchA, mAna le ki tUne usake sAtha (terI manapasaMda vyakti se) zAdI kara lI, kyA usake sAtha kabhI bhI vaicArika matabheda paidA hI nahIM hoMge? usa samaya tU usakA bhI tyAga kara degA kyA? usake vicAroM se asahamata raha kara jIvana vyatIta karegA? bola, tU kyA karegA usa samaya? priya mumukSu! jIvana kI vAstavikatA ko mukta mana se svIkAra kara lenA cAhie | mukha para muskarAhaTa aura A~khoM meM sneha ke sAtha dUsaroM ke vicAroM kA svAgata karo - jinake sAtha prema karanA hai, jinake sAtha jIvana vyatIta karanA hai, zraddhApAtra, bhaktipAtra aura premapAtra vyaktiyoM ke sAtha kabhI bhI vAda-vivAda mata kro| hAlA~ki vahA~ vAda-vivAda ho hI nahIM sakatA, yadi hotA ho to vaha vyakti zraddhApAtra, bhaktipAtra yA premapAtra nahIM rhegaa| ___ mAtA kA prema eka asAdhAraNa vastu hai, usakA mUlyAMkana karanA Avazyaka hai| maiM jAnatA hU~ terI karuNAmUrti mAtA ko| koI prazAMta rAtri meM... jaba sArA saMsAra nidrAmagna ho, cAroM aura nIravatA ho, taba terI usa mAtA ke snehasikta nayanoM ko kalpanA kI dRSTi se jarA dekhnaa| itanI bhAvAtmaka bhUmikA banAkara, bauddhika bhUmikA para, isa viSaya meM kucha bAteM kruuNgaa| patra meM kitanA likhU? likhate-likhate kabhI thaka bhI jAtA hU~... taba ananta AkAza kI tarapha dekha letA hU~... A~kheM baMda ho jAtI haiM... ananta saMsArayAtrA ke vicAroM meM DUba jAtA hU~.... parantu AkAza meM bijalI camakatI hai aura patra Age bar3hatA hai... patra kucha lambA to ho hI gayA hai... tuma ko pasanda AegA na? pasanda nahIM Ae to likha denA, maiM burA nahIM mAnU~gA | kyA batAU~? laMbe patra likhane kA maiM AdI nahIM hU~... phira bhI tumhe jaba likhane baiThatA hU~... likhatA hI rahatA huuN...| yaha bhI tere prati mere prema kI hI preraNA kA pariNAma hogA! 1. kyA tere mAtA-pitA ko tere se koI svArtha hai? yadi svArtha hotA to ve tujhe tyAga ke mArga para jAne ke lie preraNA nahIM karate / arthAta ve niHsvArtha haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 2. unakA yaha bhI Agraha nahIM ki tU tyAgI hI bana jAye, yadi tyAgI nahIM bana sakatA to vaisA bhogI bhI nahIM banAnA cAhate ki terI AtmA durgati meM bhaTaka jAe gRhastha jIvana meM bhI tU yathocita tyAga aura saMyama ke sAtha jie vaisA ve cAhate haiN| 3. ve tere vicAroM se sahamata nahIM hote haiM - isalie unake prati tiraskAra karanA ucita nahIM hai| tere vicAra hI sahI haiM, aisA Agraha rakhanA kyA ucita hai? 4. yadi vaicArika sahiSNutA nahIM hogI jIvana meM, to kisI bhI vyakti ke sAtha terA sneha saMbaMdha akhaMDa nahIM raha paaegaa| sundaratA ke AkarSaNa kSaNajIvI hote haiM, jIvana kI yAtrA meM jIvanasAthI sundara hone mAtra se kAma nahIM cltaa| jJAnI, sahiSNu, udAra aura gaMbhIra honA bhI jarUrI hai| z2yAdA kyA likhU? pArivArika kleza zAMta ho jAnA caahie| sabake mana prasanna aura maitrIbhAva se bharapUra ho jAne caahie| jIvamaitrI ke binA koI bhI dharmakriyA 'amRta kriyA' nahIM bana sakatI hai| saba jIvoM ke prati maitrI kI bhAvanA dRr3ha banAnI cAhie | upakArI ke prati to 'pramodabhAva' bhI honA cAhie | saba jIvoM ke sAtha maitrIbhAvanA rakhane vAlA manuSya apane upakArI aura hitakArI mAtA-pitA ke prati dveSa, ghRNA yA tiraskAra kara sakatA hai kyA? terA pratyuttara zIghra milegA na? jaya vItarAga! bhIvaMDI, 1 navambara 1975 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai vartamAna meM jo sukha-suvidhA ke sAdhana hamAre pAsa hai, sahajatayA upalabdha hai, unakA mUlyAMkana karanA caahie| (r) sarvaguNa saMpanna vyakti isa duniyA meM milanA saMbhava nahIM hai... are, hama khuda bhI to vaise guNa saMpanna kahA~ hai? (r) jo nahIM hai... jo nahIM milA hai... usake gile-zikave meM sisakane kI bajAya jo milA hai... jitanA milA hai... jaisA milA hai... usake lie paramAtmA kA zakra adA karanA siikheN| (r) jo vyakti pratyakSa rUpa se prema-sneha va sadbhAva dene vAloM kA Adara yA mUlyAMkana nahIM kara sakatA hai... vaha parokSa tattva paramAtmA yA dharma kA mUlya samajhegA bhI to kaise? (r) kalpanA ke jagata se vAstavika duniyA kA phAsalA bar3A bhArI hotA hai| patra : 3 priya gumukssu| dharmalAbha, terA patra mila gayA thA, pratyuttara vilaMba se de rahA hU~, kucha paristhitivaza! terA patra par3hakara mujhe ati prasannatA huii| patra meM saralatA hai, svAbhAvikatA hai... sAhajikatA hai| nahIM hai daMbha, nahIM hai AkSepa, nahIM hai bhASA kA ADaMbara... tUne apanA hRdaya kholakara mere sAmane rakha diyA hai... cintA nahIM karanA, tere komala hRdaya ko koI AghAta nahIM hogaa| terI vedanAoM ke prati merI saMvedanAe~ haiM... terA aura merA kisI eka sUkSma bhUmikA para saMbaMdha sthApita ho gayA hai| yahI to preraka tattva hai isa patralekhana meM! ___ tere vicAroM ke anukUla vAtAvaraNa tU cAhatA hai na? vaisA vAtAvaraNa nahIM mila rahA hai - isalie tU azAMti anubhava kara rahA hai na? duHkha anubhava kara rahA hai na? isakA artha yaha hai ki tU mAnasika stara para duHkhI hai| vartamAna meM tU aise mAnasika duHkhoM kI smRti meM aura bhaviSyakAlIna sukhoM kI kalpanA meM khoyA huA hai| isase terA vartamAna bhI duHkhamaya ho gayA hai| tere pAsa sukha ke aneka sAdhana upalabdha hone para bhI, tU una sAdhanoM se sukhAnubhava nahIM kara rahA hai| eka bAta mata bhUla jAnA ki sukha ke jo sAdhana sahaja rUpa se tere pAsa For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 10 haiM, unake abhAva meM, terI kalpanA kA pAtra mila bhI gayA, tU sukhAnubhava nahIM kara sakegA, terI kalpanA kA svarga adRzya ho jaaegaa| mere kahane kA tAtparya yaha hai ki tere pAsa vartamAna meM jo aura jitane sukha ke sAdhana haiM- tU una sAdhanoM kA mUlyAMkana kara, una sAdhanoM ko upalabdha karAne vAloM kA mUlyAMkana kara | ___ eka rocaka prasaMga yAda A gyaa| sokreTIsa ke jIvana kA prasaMga hai| sokreTIsa kA 15 sAla kA lar3akA apanI mA~ se parezAna thA, sokreTIsa ke pAsa Akara kahatA hai : mujhe merI mA~ ke sAtha nahIM rahanA hai...| sokreTIsa ne pUchA : 'kyoM?' 'lar3ake ne kahA : 'merI mA~ mujhe parezAna karatI hai... mere se lar3atI hai...' sokreTIsa ne kahA : 'terI mA~ kA yaha to svabhAva ho gayA hai... beTA, maiM kitane varSoM se yaha svabhAva nibhAtA rahA hU~... tujhe bhI nibhAnA cAhie | tU yAda kara : jaba tU bImAra ho gayA thA, usa samaya dina-rAta tere pAsa kauna baiThA rahA thA? terI mA~ na? tujhe samaya para davAI kauna detA thA? terI mA~ na? tere sira para 'AIsa bega' kauna rakhatA thA? terI mA~ na? tere zarIra ko 'spaMja' kauna karatA thA? terI mA~ na? maiMne to kucha bhI sevA nahIM kI thI? aisI mA~ ke prati tU napharata karatA hai? aisI mA~ se tU dUra rahanA cAhatA hai? lar3ake kI dRSTi meM mA~ kI kalpanA badala gayI! mA~ ke prati Adara aura bahumAna paidA ho gayA usake mana meN| kyA kiyA sokreTIsa ne? lar3ake ko svAbhAvika rUpa se jo mAtA kI sevA mila rahI thI, jisakA mUlyAMkana lar3akA nahIM kara rahA thA, sokreTIsa ne mUlyAMkana kara btaayaa| hA~, aisA koI niyama nahIM hai ki eka vyakti meM hama cAheM vaisI sabhI prakAra kI yogyatA ho! saba prakAra ke guNa hoM! hama bhI vaise sarvaguNa saMpanna haiM kyA? jo apekSA hama apane snehI-svajana aura mitroM se rakhate haiM, kyA una sabakI apekSAe~ hama pUrNa kara sakate haiM? ___ mere pyAre mitra, merI yaha spaSTa rAya hai ki tere pAsa Aja jo bhI sukha ke sAdhana haiM, unakA mUlyAMkana kara aura saMtuSTa bana! vizAla vizva ke asaMkhya mAnavoM kI tarapha to jarA dekha... tere pAsa jitane sukha ke sAdhana haiM, kitane mAnavoM ko ye upalabdha haiM? tere pAsa makAna hai... karor3oM manuSya beghara haiN| tere pAsa bhara peTa khAne ko bhojana haiM... karor3oM manuSya bhUkhe peTa so jAte haiM! tere pAsa pahanane ko kitane kapar3e haiM? jabaki karor3oM manuSya naMge bhaTaka rahe haiM! tere For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 11 pAsa mamatAmayI mAtA, snehapUrNa pitA... bhAI... bahana ityAdi svajana haiM, lAkhoM lar3ake-lar3akiyA~ svajana vihIna dazA meM idhara-udhara bhaTaka rahe haiM ! tujhe kitane acche mitra mile haiM? karor3oM manuSya aise haiM, jinako acchA mitra nahIM milA hai aura isalie ve becaina haiM! tujhe kitanA mAna-sammAna mila rahA hai? karor3oM manuSya aise haiM jo logoM kI ghRNA - tiraskAra aura nindA kA zikAra bana rahe haiM ! terA zarIra kitanA nirogI hai! jaba ki vizva meM karor3oM manuSya rugNa avasthA meM vyathita haiM ? tere tana-mana kI cintA karane vAle kitane haiM? saMsAra meM itanI cintA karane vAle kitane ko mile haiM? tUne kitanI acchI zikSA pAI hai aura zikSA prApta karane ke kitane anukUla saMyoga prApta hue haiM ? duniyA meM dekha, karor3oM manuSya azikSita haiM, karor3oM ko zikSA prApta karane ke sAdhana hI nahIM mile haiM! maiM yaha kisalie likha rahA hU~ ? tU merI ina bAtoM para gaharAI meM jAkara soceM / tujhe jo kucha acchA milA hai, usakA mUlyAMkana kre| kitanA-kitanA milA hai hameM ? karor3oM manuSyoM ko jo nahIM mila pAyA hai, vaha hameM mila gayA hai! kaise mila gayA? yaha saba jo milA hai, kyA tere puruSArtha se milA hai? kyA kisI kI karuNA se, kisI ke upakAra se, kisI ke prema se nahIM milA? hai, kadradAnI usa karuNA kI? hai, mUlyAMkana usa upakAra kA ? hai, saMvedanA usa prema kI ? mujhe kabhI-kabhI yaha vicAra AtA hai ki jo manuSya pratyakSa karuNA karane vAloM kA aura pratyakSa prema karane vAloM kA bhI mUlyAMkana nahIM kara sakatA hai, kadradAnI nahIM kara sakatA hai... to phira parokSa rUpa se karuNAvaMta paramAtmA kA, paramopakArI gurujanoM kA aura premapUrNa kalyANa mitroM kA mUlyAMkana kaise kara sakatA hai? aura yadi isa prakAra mUlyAMkana nahIM karatA hai to zraddhAvAna aura jJAnavAna kaise bana sakatA hai ? zraddhA aura jJAna ke abhAva meM vaha saccaritrI kaise bana sakatA hai? zraddhA, jJAna aura saccaritra ke abhAva meM vaha Antarika prasannatA, Atmika AnaMda... paramAnaMda kaise pA sakatA hai? parantu abhI jAne do isa bAta ko, kabhI isa viSaya para vistAra se likhU~gA / isa patra meM to maiM tere ciMtita mana ko... vyathita hRdaya ko... aisA kucha denA cAhatA hU~... ki jisase terA bhArI-bhArI mana halkApana anubhava kare, vyathita hRdaya kI vyathAe~ vidIrNa ho jAye ! parantu yaha kaba ho sakegA? jo maiM denA cAhatA hU~ - tU usako grahaNa karegA, taba ! mere priya AtmIyajana! mujhe pUrNa vizvAsa hai ki tU merI bheMTa kA svIkAra karegA hI! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 12 mAnasika du:khoM se mukti pAne kA upAya kyA hai? svastha mana se cintana kiyA hai? socA hai? apanI kalpanA ke anurUpa paristhitiyoM kA nirmANa karanA, apane basa kI bAta nahIM hai | kaviyoM kI kavitA kI duniyA vAstavikatA se hajAroM kilomITara dUra hai| calacitroM kI duniyA vAstavikatA se lAkhoMkaror3oM mIla dUra hai| tU yadi una kavitAoM kI duniyA ko athavA calacitroM kI duniyA ko terI kalpanA kI duniyA banAnA cAhatA hai... apane bhAvI jIvana kI sRSTi karanA cAhatA hai, to tU gaMbhIra bhUla kara rahA hai| tere vicAra yadi una kavitAoM se, una upanyAsoM se, una calacitroM se nirmita haiM - aura tU una vicAroM kA AgrahI hai, to mere khyAla se isa duniyA meM... jo ki vAstavika duniyA hai, usameM kisI se terA vaicArika yA vyAvahArika saMvAda sthApita nahIM ho skegaa| vaicArika-visaMvAditA aura vyAvahArika saMgharSa sadaiva banA rhegaa| vaicArika-Agraha meM jAne se pUrva, vicAroM kA saMzodhana ho jAnA caahie| ___ 'yaha vicAra sva-para ke lie hitakArI hai yA nahIM? yaha vicAra tarkasaMgata hai yA nahIM? yaha vicAra zAMti samatA aura samAdhi kI tarapha le jAne vAlA hai yA nahIM? isa vicAra kA vyAvahArika rUpa sundara, sarala aura saMvAdI hai yA nahIM? itanA socanA anivArya hotA hai| itanA bhI soce binA yadi vaicArika Agraha meM pha~sa gayA to vaha Agraha durAgraha bana jAegA aura rAhu se bhI bhayaMkara graha-dazA meM pha~sa jaaegaa| eka kAma karegA? abhI kucha samaya tU apane bhaviSya kI kalpanAe~ karanA chor3a de| kalpanA kI svarga-racanA karanA chor3a de| jaba acchA 'maTIrIyala' nahIM milatA ho, IMTa, 'simenTa' lohA, lakar3I... vagairaha acchA nahIM milatA ho, taba bhavananirmANa nahIM karanA cAhie, yadi kara diyA to dhvasta hone meM dera nahIM lgegii| vaise jaba taka acche vicAra-jJAna-zuddha vicAra nahIM hoM vahA~ taka bhaviSya kI kalpanAoM kA mahala nahIM banAnA cAhie | bhUtakAla kI aisI smRtiyoM meM mata DUba jA ki jisase vedanAe~ ubhara Ae, mana vyathita ho jAye aura vartamAna kSaNa duHkhamaya bana jAe! ___ vartamAna kSaNa ko sukhamaya, zAMtimaya aura AnaMdamaya banAne kA puruSArtha zurU kara de| vaha puruSArtha kaisA hotA hai - Age kabhI likhUgA.. isa bAre meM, tU cAhegA taba! isa patra ke pratyuttara kI pratIkSA karU~gA... tere zArIrika-mAnasika svAsthya kI kAmanA karatA huuN| - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 13 8 tIrthayAtrA kI saphalatA-sArthakatA hamAre bhItara meM socI huI anaMta-asIma Atmazakti ko udghATita karane meM hI samAhita hai| (r) apane Apa ko jAnanA jarUrI hai...| yahI to tamAma upadezoM kA sAra hai! svayaM ko nahIM jAnA to phira saMsAra ko jAnane se kyA? svayaM ko pahacAna liyA phira saMsAra kI pahacAna kyA kAma kI? (r) apane bhItara meM pravAhita asmitA meM DUba jAnA hai...| (r) AtmaniSThA, AtmazraddhA aura AtmajAgRti ke bagaira saMbaMdhoM meM sAmaMjasya sthApita karanA saMbhava nahIM hai| (r) icchAoM aura AkAMkSAoM ke bIhar3a vana meM bhaTakanevAlA AdamI parAdhInatA ke alAvA socegA bhI kyA? patra : 4 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra milA! hama eka pavitra tIrtha meM... bhagavAna munisuvrata svAmI ke tIrtha 'agAsI' meM Ae haiN| tIrthaMkara munisuvrata svAmI kA bhAvaloka bAdala banakara mere hRdayAkAza meM chA jAtA hai, merI cetanA-mayUrI sacamuca harSavibhora banakara nRtya karane lagatI hai| aise tIrthasthAna yadi atIndriya Atmika anubhavoM kI prayogazAlA (leboreTarI) bana jAe~ to! mujhe lagatA hai ki jIvana aura mukti kI koI acUka naI rAha mila jaaye| anyathA aise tIrthoM kA kyA mUlya hai? tIrthayAtrA kI saphalatA aparAjeya Atmazakti ke udaghATana meM, naI AtmacetanA kI jAgRti meM aura asaMkhya AMtarika-ulajhanoM ke nirAkaraNa meM hai| terA patra dhyAna se par3hA | mujhe Azcarya isa bAta kA hotA hai ki tere jaisA naujavAna nirAza hai| bezaka, Aja manuSya prAyaH dizAzUnya ho gayA hai| parantu Antarika kAma, krodha Adi AsurI paribaloM se parAjita honA aura parAjaya ke karuNa gIta gAte rahanA... ananta Atmazakti kA anAdara nahIM hai kyA? saccI aura sahI bAta to yaha hai ki hameM apanI Antara-bAhya durbalatAoM aura ulajhanoM se Upara uThakara Atmazakti kA svAmitva prApta karanA hI hogaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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14 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai mujhe to Aja tujhe yahI likhanA hai : 'AtmAnaM viddhi| upaniSada ke RSi kA yaha vacana kitanA yathArtha hai| AtmA ke ajJAna meM se hI saba duHkha janme haiN| apane ko hama jAneM / apane ko jAne binA dUsaroM ko kaise jAna pAe~ge? asala rUpa meM nahIM hI jAna paaeNge| terI yaha samasyA... athavA to mAnyatA Aja bhI himAlaya kI taraha aDiga hai ki 'mujhe... mere vyaktitva ko koI nahIM samajhatA hai... merI icchAoM ko... merI abhilASAoM ko koI jAnanA bhI nahIM cAhatA hai...|' manuSya apanI mAnyatA meM aDiga rahe-raha sakatA hai... cUMki vaha svataMtra hai| parantu mAnyatA usakI samyak hai yA mithyA-isakA nirNaya bhI to honA caahie| sabakI sabhI mAnyatAe~ samyak hI hotI haiM - aisA to tU nahIM mAna baiThA hai na? mujhe to aisA lagatA hai ki tujhe terI isa mAnyatA kA punarvicAra karanA cAhie | usa punarvicAra kA prAraMbha 'AtmAnaM viddhi se honA cAhie / 'no dhAya selpha' se honA cAhie / 'appa dIpo bhava' se honA caahie| dUsarI bAta : yaha divya punarvicAra karegA kauna? tU karegA? 'tU' kauna? 'tU' jo abhI apane Apako samajha rahA hai vaha nahIM, 'tU' yAnI AtmA! AtmabhAva meM hI AtmA ko jAnA jA sakatA hai| 'AtmA AtmAnaM vetti' AtmA AtmA ko jAnatI hai... dekhatI hai| AtmA ko jAne binA kisI samasyA kA sthAI.. zAzvata samAdhAna nahIM milegA... koI avinAzI prakAza prApta nahIM hogA, koI tana-mana ke duHkhoM kA anta nahIM aaegaa| isalie kahatA hU~ : AtmA ko jAna... jo tU svayaM hai| tU apane Apako... ananta caitanya zakti ke svAmI ko jAna le| basa, tere vyaktitva ko dUsare jAna leNge| aura, jaba tU tere bhItarI sAmrAjya meM vicaraNa karane lagegA taba phira koI icchA, abhilASA... vAsanA nahIM bcegii| mere priya Atman! apane bhItara eka dhruva... zAzvata.. akhaMDa asmitA hai.... usake sAtha samarasa ho jAnA hai| phira pala-pala parivartanazIla mAnasika vicAroM se, tamAma bAharI hAlAtoM se, utthAna-patana se evaM vedanAoM se uttIrNa ho jaaeNge| sukhI aura nArAjagI, harSa aura zoka ityAdi bhAvadvandvoM se aspRzya rheNge| hama mAtra jJAtA aura draSTA bane rheNge| ___ apanI jIvana vyavasthA kitanI visaMvAdI bana gaI hai? apane bhItara kI duniyA malina ho gaI hai! jo kucha ho rahA hai daihika aura mAnasika stara se! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 15 ki jo bhUmikA ajJAna se AvRta hai| nahIM rahA hai jJAtAbhAva, nahIM rahA hai drssttaabhaav| kartAbhAva aura bhoktAbhAva meM hama burI taraha se pha~sa gae haiM / pratipakSI yadi ahaMkArI hai, hamArA javAba bhI ahaMkAra hai / pratipakSI yadi rAgI-dveSI hai, hamArA pratyuttara bhI rAga-dveSa hai / pratipakSI atyAcArI hai, hamArA uttara bhI atyAcAra hai / ye hI hamArI kriyAe~ aura pratikriyAe~ haiM / ye hI hamAre AghAta aura pratyAghAta haiN| isameM kahA~ hai Atma-jJAna ? akhaMDa aura aTUTa AtmaniSThA... AtmazraddhA ke binA, pratikSaNa AtmajAgRti ke binA vyakti vyakti ke bIca saMvAditA .... sambandhoM kI samyak sthApanA nahIM ho sakatI hai| isa buniyAdI bAta ko chor3akara, isase bhinna jJAna - vijJAna ke dvArA nirdhArita pArivArika, sAmAjika yA rASTrIya vyavasthA, daMbhapUrNa aura svArthapUrNa vyavasthA kA zikAra hI hogii| eka bAta bIca meM kara dU~? mere isa patra se tU mujhase nArAja nahIM honA / mujha para bhI terI vaha mAnyatA 'mujhe koI nahIM samajhatA...' mata thopanA / maiM tujhe samajhatA hU~... bhalIbhA~ti samajhakara hI tujhe samajhAne kA prayatna karatA huuN| maiM terI paristhitiyoM se anabhijJa bhI nahIM hU~ / mere dila kI gaharAiyoM meM tere prati maitrI aura karuNA kI gaMgA anavarata pravAhita hai... mAtra tere prati hI nahIM, jIvamAtra ke prati / AyuSyamAna ! nirIhabhAva se jIvana vyatIta kro| abhISTa svataH hI A milegaa| mana kI asaMkhya icchAoM ko bAdhaka mata banAo / icchAoM se mukta .... sahaja aura svAbhAvika jIvana jIo | asaMbhava nahIM hai yaha bAta / jaba rAmacandrajI ne vanavAsa meM jAne kA nirNaya kiyA thA... ve sahajarUpa se cale gae the| sItAjI bhI sahajabhAva se hI unake pIche calI gaI thI... par3hA hai, unakA vanavAsa kA jIvana ? kitane nirIha bhAva se unhoMne jIvana vyatIta kiyA thA / aura lakSmaNa ne? na to thI unako apane sukhoM kI spRhA ... na thA unako apane svataMtra vyaktitva ko ubhArane kI kAmanA ! niSkAma vRtti se lakSmaNa rAmacandrajI kA anusaraNa kara rahe the| kyA apane lie yaha saMbhava nahIM hai ? tU kaha degA : 'hA~' mere lie to saMbhava nhiiN...|' koI bAta nhiiN| icchAoM ke... vAsanAoM ke jaMgala meM bhUlA par3A huA manuSya... dUsarA soca bhI kyA sakatA hai ? phira tU ho, maiM hU~ yA koI bhI aura ho / For Private And Personal Use Only

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16 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai jarA suna le bhItara kI cItkAra ko| tU jaba taka cillAtA rahegA, bhItara kI cItkAra tU nahIM suna sakegA, ruka jA, cillAnA baMda kara | suna, sthira banakara suna... apane bhItara se uThatI AvAja ko! ___ 'o puruSa, mujhe kyoM bhUla gayA... mujhe jAna le... mujhe dekha le... maiM hI terI vallabhA hU~... cetanA hU~... zAzvata sahacarI hU~... mujhe chor3akara tU kahA~ bhaTaka rahA hai... tujhe kyA cAhie? A, mere pAsa A, tujhe maiM prema dUMgI, sneha dU~gI.. maiM hI tumhArI hU~... tumhArI prakRti huuN| tumhArI mukti yahA~ hai... tumhArI pUrNatA yahA~ hai...!' sunI hai AvAja bhItara kI? pAnA hai, jo bhItara hai usako? AtmA kI pukAra AtmA nahIM suna rahI hai| jar3a indriyoM kI pukAreM sunane meM... indriyoM ko tRpta karane meM aura indriyoM kI mAyA-mamatA meM 'puruSa' kho gayA hai| AtmabhAva ke Aloka meM kabhI bhI tU apane Apako dekhnaa| AtmapariNati ke prakAza meM tU terI icchAoM ko dekhnaa| ve icchAe~ samyaka haiM yA mithyA haiM, spaSTa dikhAI degaa| Aja z2yAdA nahIM likhatA huuN| kaI tIrtha yAtrIka yahA~ Ae haiM... unake AtmabhAvoM ko bhI TaTolanA hai| isa patra ke bAre meM terI pratikriyA mujhe avazya likhnaa| agAsI (mahArASTra) jaya vItarAga! - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 17 (r) jarA apane baMdhe-baMdhAye sImita dAyaroM kI dakiyAnUsI se bAhara Akara dekho! jindagI ko itanI choTI, itanI chichalI banAkara mata jiyo| (r) jaba taka moha evaM ajJAna ke AvaraNa se AtmA AvRta hai, taba taka du:khoM kA aMta kahA~? Beka hI vyakti ke khAtira yA do cAra logoM kI khAtira jInA aura bAta hai... jabaki jinakA koI nahIM hai, una sabake hokara jInA dUsarI bAta hai! OM sUraja kI kiraNeM bhI jinheM chUne se katarAtI hai, aise khaMDaharoM meM dIpa jalAnA bhI to jarUrI hai! (r) jahA~ phUla khilane se pahale hI kalI murajhA jAtI hai... aise meM bhI upavana lagAnA hogA! vaha bhI khilA-khilA upavana! patra : 5 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra pddh'aa| mujhe aisI hI anubhUti ho rahI thI ki tU aisA hI kucha likhegA... merI anubhUti saca siddha huI isalie AnaMda huaa| tU tere sukha ke lie, tere vikAsa ke lie... aisA vyakti, aisA pAtra khoja rahA hai... jisake saMyoga meM tujhe sukha, AnaMda aura prasannatA prApta ho! terA manacAhA vikAsa ho! terI yaha bhI bhAvanA hai ki usa vyakti ko bhI tere sAtha sukha-AnaMda aura prasannatA mile| ___ khaira, merI bhI yahI kAmanA hai ki tU sukhI bane, tU prasanna rahe aura terI unnati ho! parantu itane mAtra se mujhe jIvana kI yathArthatA pratIta nahIM hotii| aisI icchA svayaM sukhI hone kI icchA-do tIna svajanoM ko sukhI karane kI icchA-koI vizeSa mahattva nahIM rakhatI! aisI icchA to pazuoM meM bhI dikhAI detI hai| tU kyA terA prema, terA sneha, terI karuNA... saba kucha eka yA do vyakti ko hI de degA? kyA tU terI vyathA ko... terI hI pIr3A ko dekhegA? kisI dInadaridra kI jhopar3I meM bilakhate baccoM ko nahIM dekhegA? hai kahIM koI usakA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 18 sahArA? eka buddhimAna aura jAgRta yuvA hokara, una karor3oM manuSyoM kI, jo ki ananta abhAva meM bhUkha pyAsa, roga-zoka, Adhi-vyAdhi aura Akranda meM jIvana jIne ko majabUra haiM, tarapha nahIM dekhegA? itanA svArthI banegA? kyA una karor3oM dIna-anAtha-asahAya manuSyoM ke A~sU tU nahIM poMchegA? unake lie tU A~sU nahIM bahAyegA? itanA hI nahIM, terI dRSTi ko caudaha rAjaloka-vyApI banA de| asaMkhya pazuoM ko, nArakI ke asaMkhya jIvoM ko bhI dekha le| unakI bhayaMkara pIr3A ko to dekha | naraka kI vaitaraNI meM jo apane hI khUna se ubalatI kar3AhI meM tale jA rahe haiM... kitane asahAya? kitanI tar3apana? kitanI yantraNA aura kitanA santrAsa? ___ aura, una sUkSmatama nigoda ke jIvoM ko to dekha jarA, eka sA~sa meM aThAraha bAra janma aura mRtyu... kitanA bhayAnaka kaSTa? mere priyajana! A~kheM banda kara jarA dekho... hamane bhI anantakAla taka antahIna kaSTa jhele haiM ina durgatiyoM meN| kyA ina asaMkhya-ananta jIvAtmAoM ko isa vedanA-trAsa aura mRtyu meM jIte tU dekha sakegA? jIvamAtra kI isa ghora yaMtraNA ko dekhate hue bhI tU apanI sukhazayyA meM so sakegA? ____ merA mana to vyathita ho jAtA hai, jaba saMsAra ke jIvoM kI ghora yantraNAoM ko, prapIr3ana ko aura saMtrAsa ko dekhatA huuN| jaba inakI jar3oM meM utaratA hU~ - moha aura ajJAna kI ghora tamisrA dekhatA hU~... jaba taka jIvAtmAe~ moha aura ajJAna se AvRta haiM, taba taka unake duHkhoM kA anta nhiiN| mana meM hotA hai: moha aura ajJAna ke andhakAra ko kATa dUM.. karmapAzoM ko toDUM aura apanI tamAma zakti ekatra kara viSaya-kaSAya ke bandhanoM para prahAra kara duuN| aba maiM jIvoM ko bilakhate, chaTapaTAte... karAhate nahIM dekha sakatA huuN...| maiMne apane antaHkaraNa meM mAnA hai ki mere jIvana kA parama kartavya yahI hai... mujhe apane sukhoM kA vicAra taka nahIM karanA hai| __ yaha to maiMne mere mana kI bAta kara dii| tujhe maiM vaisI yathArtha dRSTi denA cAhatA hU~ ki jisa se tU AtmAnaMda kA anubhava kara ske| eka hI vyakti yA do-cAra vyakti ke lie hI jIvana jInA... gatAnugatikatA hI hai| yaha jIvana to jIva mAtra ko prema... sneha aura karuNA pradAna karane ke lie hai| AtmacetanA kI jAgRti aura urvIkaraNa karane ke lie hai| sthUla meM se sUkSma meM jAne ke lie hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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19 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai DaoN. brekeTa ke jIvana kA eka adbhuta prasaMga maiMne par3hA thaa| DaoN. brekeTa ko eka bAra eka jJAnI saMta puruSa kA samAgama huaa| usane DaoNkTara ko yahI bAta kahI thI, jo maiM Aja tujhe kaha rahA hU~! yaha jIvana Atmazakti-caitanyazakti ko prApta karane ke lie hai... samagra caitanya sRSTi ke sukha-duHkhoM kI samavedanA anubhava karane ke lie hai|' ___ DaoNkTara kI umra jaba 30 varSa kI thI, kumArI kromavela kA paricaya huA aura prema bhI ho gyaa| donoM ne zAdI kara lene kA nirNaya kara liyaa| eka rAta ko brekeTa aura kromavela, apane bhAvI-jIvana ke svapnaloka meM vicara rahe the, rAta ke 10 bajane jA rahe the, itane meM ghaMTI bjii| DaoNkTara ne makAna kA dvAra kholaa| DaoNkTara ne eka habazI aurata ko dekhA / aurata kI A~khoM meM A~sU aura anunaya thA, vaha bolI : 'DaoNkTara sAba, merA ikalautA beTA bahuta bImAra hai... AkhirI zvAsa le rahA hai... asahAya hU~... merA koI nahIM... yadi Apa turaMta hI padhAra jAye to baccA zAyada baca sakatA hai...|' usa anajAna aurata kI tar3apana... rudana.. A~sU, DaoNkTara nahIM dekha ske| unakA hRdaya dravita ho gyaa| DaoNkTara ne apanI bhAvI patnI rUpasundarI kromavela ko kahA : 'priye, tU yahA~ do ghaMTA baiThanA, maiM jA kara AtA huuN|' kromavela ko bAta pasanda nahIM aayii| rIsa aura roSa se usane kaha diyA : 'tere binA maiM akelI yahA~ baiThakara kyA karU~? mere prema se bhI tere lie dardI kyA z2yAdA mUlyavAna hai? You have a date with me.....!' DaoNkTara brekeTa ne zAMti se kromavela ko kahA : 'jaise prema divya hai, vaise prema kA anubhava karane vAlA caitanya bhI divya hai! jisa prakAra maiM tere prema kA svAgata karatA hU~, usI prakAra isa mAtA ke putra prema ko kaise ThukarA sakatA hU~?' DaoNkTara ne apanI baiga uThAI aura habazI aurata ke sAtha kAra meM baiThakara ravAnA ho ge| kromavela bhI gusse meM tamatamA kara vahA~ se calI gii| sadbhAgya se usa aurata kA lar3akA baca gyaa| rAta ko cAra baje DaoNkTara vApasa apane ghara phuNce| dUsare dina kromavela kA phona AyA, usane kahA : 'DaoNkTara, terA aura merA sambandha nahIM jamegA, tujhe merI koI kadra nahIM hai, mere prema kA tU mUlyAMkana nahIM kara sakatA...' DaoNkTara ne kahA : 'kromavela! maiM mAnavamAtra se prema karatA hU~| cU~ki maiM mAnavatA kA mUlyAMkana karatA hU~, For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 20 mAnavamAtra ke prati merA jo prema hai, usakA balidAna dekara maiM kisI eka hI vyakti ko prasanna karanA nahIM cAhU~gA... khaira, merA jIvana ekAkI jIne ke lie nirmita hogA... alavidA...!' DaoNkTara brekeTa ne kabhI zAdI nahIM kI / kromavela jaisI rUpasundarI se to nahIM, dUsarI bhI kisI strI se nahIM kI / 70 varSa kI umra taka DaoNkTara janasevA karate rahe, apanA prema, apanA sneha, apanI karuNA unhoMne haz2AroM manuSyoM ko dii....| jaba unakI mRtyu huI... sArA gA~va royA... DaoNkTara kI samAdhi para gA~va ke logoM ne stUpa banAyA / parantu usa stUpa ke Upara likhanA kyA ? kisI ko kucha bhI samajha meM nahIM AyA... samaya vyatIta hotA hai / eka dina usa habazI aurata kA vaha lar3akA... jo aba javAna ho gayA thA, DaoNkTara ke aspatAla ke pAsa se gujarA, usane vahA~ eka borDa par3hA : 'DaoNkTara brekeTa kA aspatAla Upara hai / ' usa lar3ake ne palabhara kucha socA aura usa borDa ko vahA~ se uThAyA / jAkara DaoNkTara brekeTa kI samAdhi ke pAsa rakha diyaa| dUsare dina logoM ne samAdhi ke pAsa borDa par3hA : 'DaoNkTara brekeTa kA aspatAla Upara hai / ' logoM ke mu~ha se nikala par3A : 'vAkaI vaMDaraphUla! adbhuta! jIvana jIne kI yaha eka divya dRSTi hai| apane prema ko nirbaMdhana rakho / bandhanarahita prema ko jIvamAtra ke prati bahane do... nirantara bahane do| yahI prema hai, saccI jIvamaitrI hai, saccI jIva karuNA hai / jaba prema eka hI vyakti meM bandha jAtA hai, dUsare ananta jIvoM ke prati baha nahIM sktaa| vaha prema vAsanA bana jAtA hai| vaha prema sApekSa bana jAtA hai / jisa vyakti meM bandha jAtA hai usake prema ko hama hamAre sAtha bA~dhanA cAhate haiM : 'tuma mere se hI prema karo, dUsare kisI se nhiiN| cU~ki maiM tuma se hI prema karatA huuN|' kromavela bhI to brekeTa se yahI cAhatI thii| DaoNkTara ko - DaoNkTara ke prema ko bA~dha lenA cAhatI thii| jaba vaha bA~dha na sakI, to DaoNkTara se napharata karane lagI / parantu DaoNkTara ke hRdaya meM kromavela ke prati kabhI napharata paidA nahIM huI / isI saMdarbha meM eka dUsarI bAta bhI batA detA hU~ : tU yadi kisI eka vyakti ke sAtha prema-sambandha se bandha jAnA cAhatA hai, mAna le, vaha vyakti tere sAtha prema kA bandhana nahIM nibhA sakA to kyA tU bandhA huA raha sakegA ? nahIM raha sakegA, tU nirAza ho jaaegaa| vaha nirAzA tere jIvana ko andhakAra se bhara degI... tU jIvana ke AnaMda ko kho degA / isalie tujhe kahatA hU~ ki tere prema For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 21 ko nirbaMdhana rakha, sakala vizva ke sarva jIvoM ke prati usa prema ko bahane de / usa prema kI gaMgA meM jo bhI DubakI lagAnA cAhe, lagAne de, zItala aura nirmala hone de| jIvoM kA tApa aura mala tU dUra karatA rahe / tU bhI gaMgA kI taraha vandanIyapUjanIya bana jaaegaa| tU ne zAyada apane viSaya meM socA hI nahIM hogaa| tere Antarika vyaktitva ko parakhane kI ceSTA hI nahIM kI hogii| aisA bhI hotA hai kaI bAra manuSya ke jIvana meM | maiMne tere vyaktitva ke viSaya meM socA hai, tumhAre bAhya-Antarika vyaktitva ko parakhA bhI haiN| mujhe aisA lagatA hai ki yadi tU sarva jIvoM ke lie jIvana jio to hajAroM-lAkhoM manuSyoM ko zItalatA mila sakatI hai| tujhe to aisA apUrva AnaMda prApta hogA ki... kyA batAU~ ? tU hI bhaviSya meM anubhava kara pAegA! manuSya ke pAsa uccatama vyaktitva hone para bhI, usa vyaktitva ke vikAsa ke lie upayukta vAtAvaraNa milanA cAhie, upayukta kSetra milanA cAhie, upayukta mArgadarzana milanA caahie| tujhe vAtAvaraNa, kSetra aura mArgadarzaka mile haiM na? aba cAhie terI svayaM kI tamannA | tamannA eka bahuta bar3A tattva hai| prabala saMkalpa-zakti se kauna-sA kArya siddha nahIM hotA hai? priya Atman! mUr3hatA tyAga de, hRdaya ko nirmohI banA aura sneha kI saritA bahA de sarva jIvoM ke lie| isa divya dRSTi se jIvana kA abhinava sarjana kr| ___ z2yAdA kyA likhU? jo kucha bhI tujhe likhatA hU~ - aisA mata mAnanA kI korA upadeza hI de rahA huuN| mere jIvana ke anubhavoM para AdhArita aura tattvajJAna se parizuddha vicAradhArA tere sAmane pravAhita kara rahA hU~ | abhI-abhI, bhinna-bhinna mAnava jIvana ke staroM para kAphI maMthana cala rahA hai| socane ke lie nahIM socatA hU~... socA jAtA hai... nayA-nayA prakAza milatA hai... usa ujAle meM sva-para jIvana kA mArga Alokita karanA cAhatA huuN| terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| tere mAtA-pitA vagairaha parivAra ko 'dharmalAbha' sUcita krnaa| mere sahavartI sabhI munivara svastha haiM, prasanna haiN| patrottara kI pratIkSA meM - 15-2-76 zAhapura [mahArASTra] - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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22 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai (r) uttaradAyitva yA jimmedArI kA udbhava karuNA meM se hotA hai| (r) samAdhAna ko khojanevAlA mana svastha, zAMta evaM anuddhigna honA caahie| (r) jaba taka AtmA kamoM ke parAdhIna hai, taba taka aneka prazna paidA hoMge hii| samasyAe~ banI raheMgI hii| @ nirAzA meM DUbA huA mana saMkalpazakti kI divya anubhUti ko ujAgara nahIM kara sakatA hai| (r) prabala saMkalpazakti ke sAmane koI bhI samasyA bAdhA bana nahIM sakatI! (r) zraddhA, zaraNAgati aura samarpaNa ke dvArA hI paramAtmatattva kA naikaTya pAyA jA sakatA hai| ONR patra : 6 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra par3hakara prasannatA kA anubhava kiyaa| roja aneka patra Ate haiM, par3hatA hU~ aura aneka patra likhatA bhI hU~, parantu utanI prasannatA nahIM, utanA ullAsa nahIM, jo prasannatA aura ullAsa tere patra par3hane meM aura tujhe patra likhane meM anubhava karatA huuN| isa bAra patra likhane meM vilamba ho gyaa| tU mere patra kA kitanA intajAra karatA hogA... jAnatA hU~, paraMtu vilamba honA thA, ho gayA! maiM terI jijJAsA 'kyoM?'ko atRpta nahIM rakhUgA | merI Antarika abhiruci-pravRtti nahIM hai, nivRtti hai| kabhI-kabhI pravRtti se... adhika pravRtti se... bhale vaha zubha pravRtti ho, mana virakta ho jAtA hai| jaba virakti AtmA para hAvI ho jAtI hai, taba mauna ho jAtA hU~, zUnyatA meM calA jAtA hU~, phira par3hanA... aura likhanA, kucha bhI nahIM hotaa| __parantu jaba uttaradAyitva kA vicAra AtA hai, pravRtti kA bhAva prabala bana jAtA hai| pravRtti kA preraNAsrota hotA hai maitrI athavA karuNA | maitrI aura karuNA hI to uttaradAyitva kA bodha karAtI hai| yadi kisI ke pAsa jala hai aura vaha vyakti kisI tRSAtura atithi ko jala dene se inakAra kara de tathA usa pyAse For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 23 vyakti ko tar3apa-tar3apa kara marate dekhatA hai, to yaha samajha lenA ki vaha bahuta bar3A pApa kara rahA hai| terI gaMbhIra samasyAoM kI dRSTi se merA uttaradAyitva bahuta bar3A hai| priya AtmIya! yadi samasyAoM kA samAdhAna pAnA hai, to kabhI bhI asvastha, azAMta aura udvigna nahIM honaa| hara samasyA kA samAdhAna hai| samAdhAna DhU~r3hane vAlA mana svastha, zAMta aura anudvigna honA caahie| apane jIvana meM to aisI jaTila samasyA hI kauna sI hai? jisakA uttara hI na mile? aise prazna hI kauna se haiM? aisI ghora samasyA to thI svajanoM se parityaktA usa garbhavatI satI aMjanA aura satI sItA ke jIvana meM, jo asahAya... anAtha sI jaMgaloM meM bhaTaka rahI thii| jIvana hai, svAdhIna nahIM, parAdhIna jIvana hai| ananta-ananta karmoM ke baMdhana haiN| parAdhInatA meM prazna raheMge, parAdhInatA meM samasyAe~ raheMgI hii| isa satya ko svIkAra karanA hI hogaa| kAma eka hI karanA hai| apane mana ko una asaMkhya samasyAoM meM ulajhane nahIM denaa| bhale hamAre dvAra para ve asaMkhya prazna khar3e hoM khar3e rahane do, hamAre mana ko una praznoM se mukta rakho, hamAre mana ko una samasyAoM se mukta rkho| una praznoM ko apane mana para 'hAvI' na hone deN| itanA to hama kara sakate haiN| ___maiMne pichale patra meM eka bAta likhI thI : nirAzA se mukta ho / saMkalpa-zakti se yukta ho / tU ne likhA : 'kyA saMkalpa (nizcayAtmaka vicAra) karane se siddhi prApta hotI hai?' hA~, saMkalpa se siddhi milatI hai, parantu dhairya rakhanA hogaa| saMkalpa kI siddhi hotI hai, parantu kaba ho, hama nahIM jAna skte| isa jIvana meM nahIM ho, dUsare jIvana meM ho! jIvana meM nahIM ho, mRtyu ke bAda ho! amarIkA ke prasiddha nATaka-abhinetA 'cArlsa kAlgana' ke jIvana kI usa ghaTanA ko jAnatA hai? cArlsa kAlgana kA janma huA thA kanADA meM aura jIvana bitA amarIkA meN| vaha bar3A lokapriya abhinetA thaa| loga usake pIche pAgala the| sabhI ko cArlsa kahatA : 'tumheM yadi mujha para saccA prema hai, to mujhe mere vatana kanADA ke 'prinsa dvIpa' meM gAr3anA, mere mRta deha ko mere vatana meM gaadd'naa...|' loga usakI isa bAta para ha~sate the| cArlsa kI yaha kAmanA thii| cArlsa kA yaha dRr3ha saMkalpa thA / 'TeksAsa' ke loga cArlsa kI isa manokAmanA se paricita the| pacapana varSa kI Ayu meM cArlsa kI mRtyu ho gii| 'TeksAsa' meM usakI mRtyu For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 24 huii| loga asamaMjasa meM par3a gae | TeksAsa se cArlsa kA vatana do hajAra mIla dUra thA, usakA mRta deha, vahA~ kaise le jAe~? logoM ne eka lakar3e kI peTI meM cArlsa kA mRta deha rakha diyaa| peTI para cA~dI kI paTTI lagA dii| peTI para cArlsa kA pUrA nAma aura usakI abhilASA, usakA saMkalpa likha diyA gayA aura TeksAsa ke kabrastAna meM 'kophina' ko gAr3a diyaa| ___ do mahIne vyatIta ho ge| TeksAsa meM acAnaka ghora mUsalAdhAra varSA huii| samudra tUfAnI ho gyaa| TeksAsa meM pAnI hI pAnI ho gayA, hajAroM makAna gira gae... kabrastAna kI kabeM bhI pAnI meM baha gii| gAr3e hue murde ke kophina bhI samudra meM baha gae | cArlsa kAlgana kA 'kophina' bahatA huA kanADA pahu~cA... ATha mahIne ke bAda prinsa eDavarDa dvIpa para pahu~ca gayA / kanADAvAsioM ne usa bakse ko dekhA, usa para likhA huA cArlsa kAlgana kA nAma par3hA usakA saMkalpa par3hA, loga khuza ho ge| cArlsa kI vaha janmabhUmi thii| jahA~ cArlsa apanI kabra cAhatA thA! logoM ne prinsa dvIpa para cArlsa kI kabra bnaaii| jAnatA hai, kahA~-kahA~ se bahatA huA vaha baoNksa kanADA pahuMcA thA? phloriDA prAnta ke cAra sau mIla ke dvIpa se meksiko ke samudra meM, vahA~ se aTalAnTika sAgara meM... vahA~ se seMTa lorensa ke samudra meM aura vahA~ se kAlgana ke vatana prinsa dvIpa para! cArlsa kAlgana kA saMkalpa siddha huA, mRtyu ke pazcAta ATha mahInoM ke bAda! gujarAta ke mahAmaMtrI udayana ne saMkalpa kiyA thA, zatrujaya girirAja para yugAdinAtha kA bhavya mandira banAne kaa| ve na banA sake apane jIvana meM, parantu mandira bana gayA eka dina | mahAmaMtrI ke suputra bAhar3a maMtrI ne bhavya mandira kA nirmANa kiyaa| saMkalpa siddha huaa| nirAzA se grasta manuSya saMkalpa zakti kI divya mahimA nahIM samajha sakatA hai| nirAzA se mukta ho| saMkalpazakti ko jAgRta kara | svastha, zAMta aura anudvigna mana meM se saMkalpazakti jAgRta hotI hai| prabala saMkalpazakti ke sAmane koI samasyA, koI prazna Thahara nahIM sakatA hai| saMkalpazakti jAgRta ho jAe aura jIvana kA dhyeya nirdhArita ho jAe basa, phira jIvana yAtrA meM AnaMda hI AnaMda hai| tU kahegA : 'mana svastha, zAMta aura prasanna nahIM rahatA hai| jaba bhI koI For Private And Personal Use Only

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25 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai pratikUla ghaTanA banatI hai, apriya prasaMga banatA hai, taba mana asvastha ho hI jAtA hai| mana meM azAMti ubhara AtI hai|' saca hai terA khnaa| aisI paristhiti meM se maiM bhI gujarA huuN| jIvana meM aisA bhI samaya AyA thA, jaba pratikUlatAoM ne cAroM ora se mujhe ghera liyA thA... mana asvastha ho gayA thA, azAMta ho gayA thaa| kaI dinoM taka, kaI mahInoM taka mana udAsInatA meM DUbA rahA thA / mana apriya se mukta hone ko tar3apa rahA thaa| priya se milane ko tatpara ho rahA thA, parantu kucha takadIra hI aisI thI... ekado varSa bIta gae the aisI udvignatA meN| asahAya sA... azaraNa sA nirAza bhaTaka rahA thA, gA~va-nagaroM meM! parantu mere mana meM eka dina eka divya vicAra ubhara AyA thA... yAda hai mujhe vaha dina... vaha rAta... maiM kitanA praphullita ho gayA thA usa samaya! maiMne kitanA apUrva AnaMda anubhava kiyA thA! vaha divya vicAra thA, paramAtmA kI zaraNAgati kA | usa dina hI mujhe paramAtmA kI ora vAstavika sneha huA thaa| yoM to bacapana se hI mandira meM jAyA karatA thA... darzana-pUjana-stavana ityAdi karatA hI thA / parantu paramAtmA kI smRti... snehapUrNa smRti kabhI bhI nahIM ho AI thii| usa rAta meM.... jo ki merI vyathApUrNa rAta thI, paramAtmA kI smRti ho AI, vyathA dUra calI gaI aura prasannatA se hRdaya bhara gyaa| 'arihaMte saraNaM pavajjAmi.... arihaMte-saraNaM pavajjAmi... kaba taka yaha nAda calatA rahA thA... patA nahIM, parantu usa rAta ke bAda merA mana svastha bana gyaa| zAMta bana gayA, prasanna ho gyaa| taba se paramAtmadarzana meM, paramAtmA kI stavanA meM mujhe adhika AnaMda prApta hone lgaa| apriya kA saMyoga thA, phira bhI akharatA nahIM thA! priya kA viyoga thA, phira bhI udvignatA nahIM thii| eka dina aisA AyA ki apriya dUra ho gayA, priya mila gayA | paramAtmazaraNa meM jAne ke pazcAta saMkalpa kI siddhi svataH ho jAtI hai| apanA kartavya hotA hai, paramAtmA kI zaraNa meM rahane kA aura paramAtmA ke prati samarpaNa bhAva bar3hAne kA | cAhe mana zAMta ho yA azAMta, svastha ho yA asvastha, dina meM tIna bAra to zaraNAgati svIkAra karane kI hii| jaba mana azAMta ho taba to punaH punaH paramAtmA kI bhAvapUrNa antaHkaraNa se zaraNAgati svIkAra karatA huuN| bAhya jagata se mana kA sambandha TUTa jAtA hai, taba mana meM zAMti aura svasthatA kI sthApanA hotI hai| merA yaha anubhava hai| tU bhI yaha prayoga karegA? zraddhA, zaraNAgati aura samarpaNa-paramAtmA ke prati ye tIna bAteM A jAe For Private And Personal Use Only

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26 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai apane jIvana meM, mere khayAla se koI azAMti, koI saMtApa nahIM Tika sakatA apane mana meM | yadi tU likhegA to isa viSaya meM vistAra se likhuugaa| paraMtu kitanA likhUgA? tU svayaM yadi kucha dinoM ke lie yahA~ A jAe to? jo bAteM pratyakSa meM hotI haiM... bhAvoM kI abhivyakti jo pratyakSa meM hotI hai... patrAcAra rUpa parokSa meM kaise ho sakatI hai? aba to patrAcAra meM bhI bAdhA A sakatI hai! baMbaI hai na! likhane kA itanA samaya... nIra zAMti kA samaya hI kahA~ milatA hai? dainika aura prAsaMgika kArya __ bhI itane A jAte haiM... samaya calA jAtA hai| phira bhI merA prayatna patra likhane kA to rahegA hii| terA patra AtA hai, tabhI se pratyuttara likhane kA socatA huuN| abhI yaha patra samApta karatA huuN| kuzala rahe! prasanna rahe! 28 mArca, 1976 baMbaI - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 27 (r) manuSya ke tamAma prazna, tamAma ulajhaneM dharma evaM adhyAtma ke mAdhyama se sulajha sakatI hai... para isake lie svaccha pAradarzI prajJA evaM nirmala buddhi kA honA Avazyaka hai| (r) zraddhA ke sAtha prajJA kA puTa milatA hai, taba phira AdamI dIna-hIna aura vyAkula nahIM ho uThatA hai| (r) du:khoM se Dara kara yA sukhoM se lalacA kara kI gaI prArthanA vAstava meM prArthanA nahIM hotI... vaha to yAcanA patra hai! * kevala dikhAve kI zraddhA kyA kAma kI? zraddhA cAhie bhItara kI, aMta:karaNa kI! (r) zraddhAvAna zuSka nahIM hotA... usakA jIvana rasamaya hotA hai| vaha sadA prasanna evaM praphullita rahatA hai| patra : 7 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, do mahIne vyatIta ho gae, patra nahIM likha skaa| maI meM yahA~ jJAna stara kA Ayojana huA, usameM vyastatA rhii| kAphI AnaMda milA, 10 jUna ko hamane yahA~ bhAyakhalA meM varSAkAlIna sthiratA hetu praveza kara diyA hai| aba kArtika pUrNimA taka yahA~ sthiratA hogii| tere do patra mile| dharma aura adhyAtma ke viSaya meM terI abhiruci jAgRta huI- isase merA mana prasanna huA / 'sAyansa' aura 'TeknolojI' ke isa yuga meM dharma-cintana aura adhyAtma-parizIlana kitane loga karate haiM? mujhe pUrNa vizvAsa hai ki manuSya ke sAre prazna, saba samasyAe~ dharma aura adhyAtma ke mAdhyama se hI sulajha sakatI haiN| bhautika aura mAnasika, pArivArika aura sAmAjika, rASTrIya aura vaizvika... sabhI praznoM kA samAdhAna, vAstavika samAdhAna dharma ciMtana aura adhyAtma ke parizIlana se prApta ho sakatA hai| parantu cAhie sUkSma... nirmala prajJA aura avicala zraddhA / prajJA aura zraddhA ke sahAre jIvana-yApana karanA caahie| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 28 sukha ke abhAva meM aura du:khoM kI upasthiti meM terI svasthatA calI to nahIM jAtI hai nA? tU dInatA-hInatA kI gaharI khAI meM to gira nahIM jAtA hai nA? zoka-saMtApa aura rudana kI karuNatA to tere mukha para nahIM chA jAtI hai nA? prajJAvAna aura zraddhAvAna sadaiva svastha-prasanna, dhIra-vIra aura sAhasika hotA hai| mujhe romana sAmrAjya kA vIra puruSa 'egrIpInasa' yAda AtA hai| romana samrATa nIro julmI samrATa thaa| egrIpInasa para koI saccA yA galata Aropa mar3hA gayA aura samrATa ne egrIpInasa ko deza nikAle kI sajA de dii| samrATa ke sainika egrIpInasa ke ghara ge| egrIpInasa bhojana karane baiThA hI thaa| sainikoM ne kahA : 'samrATa ne Apako sajA dI hai|' __ 'kauna sI sajA? mauta kI yA deza nikAle kI?' khuba svasthatA se egrIpInasa ne puuchaa| 'deza nikAle kI,' sainikoM ne khaa| 'Izvara kI kRpA!' egrIpInasa Izvara ke prati pUrNa zraddhAvAna thaa| vaha mAnatA thA ki IzvarecchA ke adhIna hone meM jo sukha milatA hai, vaisA sukha kahIM se bhI nahIM miltaa| 'acchA, tuma loga kucha samaya ke lie Thaharo, maiM apane mitroM ke sAtha bhojana kara lU~...!' 'kSamA kare, samrATa ne Apako abhI-isI vakta aphrIkA ke lie ravAnA ho jAne kA hukma kiyA hai|' ___ 'acchA, calo! aphrIkA jAkara bhojana kareMge! Izvara kI vaisI icchA hogI!' mukha para smita aura hRdaya meM svasthatA ke sAtha egrIpInasa bolA aura vahA~ se cala diyaa| __ egrIpInasa zraddhAvAna thA, prajJAvAna thA / usakI zraddhA aura prajJA ne acAnaka Ae duHkha meM dIna nahIM hone diyA, durdhyAna nahIM karane diyaa| samrATa ke prati usako gussA nahIM AyA, apane sukha cale jAne se ronA nahIM aayaa| samasyA kA isase bar3hakara kauna-sA samAdhAna cAhie? usane Izvara se prArthanA bhI nahIM kI ki 'he prabho, merA saMkaTa dUra kara do...|' duHkhoM se Dara kara yA sukhoM se lalacA kara kI huI prArthanA, prArthanA nahIM hai, mAtra svArthapUrti kI yAcanA hai| prArthanA duHkhoM ke bhaya se mukta aura sukhoM kI lAlasA se mukta honI caahie| duHkha to jIvana meM Ae~ge hii| isa samaya sukha se z2yAdA duHkha hoMge manuSya For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 29 ke jIvana meN| nizcita bAta hai yaha / paramAtmazraddhA ke sahAre vIratA aura dhIratA se una du:khoM ko sahane kI zakti hameM prApta karanI hai| duHkhoM ko jaba jAnA hogA, jAe~ge, jaba taka rahanA hogA, raheMge, isakI koI cintA hameM nahIM karanI hai| sukha mile yA nahIM mile, sukha kI koI abhilASA nahIM rakhanI hai| yaha Atmasthiti paramAtmazraddhA se avazya prApta hotI hai| seTha sudarzana para rAnI abhayA ne jhUThA Aropa lagAyA thA na? rAjA ne sajA bhI sunA dI thI zUlI para car3hAne kii| sudarzana donoM samaya svastha rahe the| na zoka kiyA thA, na rudana kiyA thaa| sudarzana prajJAvaMta the, zraddhAvanta the| akele nahIM the, ghara meM patnI thI, putra the| phira bhI pArivArika cintA unako nahIM thii| patnI manoramA bhI usa vikaTa paristhiti meM rone nahIM lagI thii| paramAtmA ke dhyAna meM lIna ho gaI thii| yaha mAtra vyaktigata saMkaTa nahIM thA, pArivArika saMkaTa bhI thA, cUMki sudarzana ghara ke kartA-dhartA the| una para saMkaTa AyA thA yAnI ghara para hI saMkaTa thaa| sudarzana aura manoramA ne dharma aura adhyAtma ke dvArA hI samAdhAna DhU~r3hA thaa| pati-patnI donoM ke mana azAMta nahIM bane, udvigna nahIM bane, yahI dharma ciMtana kA phala thaa| adhyAtma dazA kI pragati thii| kyA sudarzana ne cAhA thA ki zUlI kA siMhAsana bana jAe? nahIM, zUlI pe car3hane se ve Dare nahIM the| unakI nirmala prajJA ne AtmA kI amaratA aura zarIra kI nazvaratA samajhI thii| paramAtmazraddhA ne abhaya aura adveSa pradAna kiyA thaa| mithyA Aropa mar3hane vAlI rAnI abhayA para unako dveSa nahIM thA aura zUlI kA unako bhaya nahIM thA! sudarzana nirdoSa ghoSita hue aura pArivArika saMkaTa Tala gyaa| __ aise eka-do udAharaNa nahIM hai, mAtra prAcIna kAla ke hI udAharaNa nahIM haiM, saiMkar3oM udAharaNa milate haiM vartamAna kAla meM bhii| dUsare udAharaNa DhU~r3hane se kyA? hama hI udAharaNa bana jAyeM! bhaya aura lAlaca se mukta honA sarvaprathama Avazyaka hai| tabhI prajJA nirmala banegI, pavitra bnegii| eka mullAjI the| bAdazAha ne namAja par3hane ke lie mullAjI ko bulaayaa| mullAjI rAjI ho ge| bAdazAha se kucha milane kI kalpanA ne mullAjI ko khuza kara diyaa| bhojana bhI nahIM kiyA aura mullAjI cala diye| rAjamahala phuNce| bAdazAha khuza ho jAye, vaisI acchI namAja pddh'ii| namAja ke bAda bhojana samAraMbha thaa| bhojana samAraMbha meM dUsare rAjA, rAjakumAra, navAbajAde vagairaha nimaMtrita the, ve loga thor3A-thor3A khAkara khar3e ho gye| sabake sAtha mullAjI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 30 ko bhI thor3A hI khAkara uThanA pdd'aa| bhUkhe hI ghara aaye| apanI bIbI se kahA : 'bhUkha lagI hai, roTI banA denA / ' 'kyoM? bhojana samAraMbha meM khAyA nahIM ?' bIbI ne pUchA / 'samAraMbha meM to mAtra bhojana karane kA dikhAvA kiyA jAtA hai, isase peTa nahIM bharA jAtA / ' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 'ThIka bAta hai ApakI / bAdazAha ko khuza karane ke lie kI gaI namAz2a se khudA ko khuza nahIM kiyA jA sakatA... vaha bhI dikhAvA hI thA / isalie namAz2a bhI phira se pddh'o| yadi bhojana phira se karanA hai to / ' bIbI ne mullAjI ko phira se namAz2a par3havAI | dikhAvA mAtra kI zraddhA apekSita nahIM hai / 'hama paramAtmA ke maMdira meM jAte haiM, isalie zraddhAvAn haiM' - 'aisA nahIM, 'hameM paramAtmA ke prati prema aura zraddhA hai, isalie hama maMdira jAte haiM,' zraddhA kI yaha saccI abhivyakti hai / 'hameM duHkha miTAne haiM aura sukha juTAne haiM,' yaha prajJA nahIM hai, 'hameM duHkha samatA se va dhIratA se sahane haiM aura sukhoM kA tyAga karanA hai,' yaha nirmala prajJA kI sudRr3ha pratijJA hai / maiM Aja tujhe paramAtmazraddhA kA svarUpa batAnA cAhatA huuN| cU~ki maiM cAhatA hU~ ki tU zraddhAvAna bane / mAtra zraddhAvAna nahIM, prajJAvaMta vaisA zraddhAvAna ! paramAtmA ke prati zraddhAvAna hue binA paramAtmA kI zaraNAgati svIkRta nahIM hogI / paramAtmA kI zaraNa meM gae binA, samarpaNa kA divya bhAva jAgRta nahIM hogA / zraddhA, zaraNAgati aura samarpaNa kI kramika vikAsa yAtrA ke binA paramAnaMda, AtmAnaMda kI saccI anubhUti nahIM hogii| rAstA sarala hai| sarala hI nahIM, sarasa hai| isa mArga meM rasa kI anubhUti hotI hai| rasAnubhUti ke binA to maiM tujhe yaha mArga hI nahIM batAtA ! merA yaha vizvAsa ki koI bhI AcaraNa rasAnubhUti ke binA dIrgha samaya nahIM Tika sktaa| zraddhA rasa kI jananI hai, mAtA hai ! zraddhAvAna zuSka nahIM hotA, rasika hotA hai| zraddhAvAna mUr3ha (mUDalesa) nahIM hotA, vaha to sadaiva prasanna aura cetana hotA hai| hA~, dikhAve kI zraddhA se yaha saMbhava nahIM / AtmA meM se AvirbhUta guNa svarUpa zraddhA cAhie / jaba paramAtmazraddhA kA AvirbhAva hotA hai taba 1. paramAtmA kA punaH punaH smaraNa - For Private And Personal Use Only

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31 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 2. paramAtmA kA bAra-bAra darzana 3. paramAtmA kA sparzana 4. paramAtmA kA guNakIrtana ye cAra bAteM svAbhAvika rUpa se A hI jAtI haiN| paramAtmA hI nahIM, kisI bhI vyakti ke prati premamUlaka zraddhA utpanna hotI hai, taba ye cAra bAteM Ae~gI hI! paramAtmazraddhA prItimUlaka cAhie | are, prIti ke binA zraddhA ho nahIM sktii| koI tujhe kahe ki 'mujhe Apake prati zraddhA hai, parantu prema nahIM hai| 'to tU kyA kahegA? 'prema ke binA zraddhA meM zeSa kyA raha jAtA hai?' prIti-prema-sneha... kA svarUpa kyA mujhe samajhAnA par3egA? acchA, samajhAU~gA, paraMtu Aja nhiiN| agale patra meM likhuugaa| paramAtmA kI parama kRpA se merA svAsthya aba ThIka hai| sahavartI muni vRMda kuzala haiN| tere pitAjI-mAtAjI... vagairaha ko dharmalAbha sUcita krnaa| 16-6-76 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 32 (r) nIravatA, khAmozI, janazUnyatA ke Aloka meM uThatI saMvedanAe~, bhItarI ___ AnaMda va prasannatA se chalachalAtI hotI hai| (r) saMyama kA rAga, cAritra kA prema uttama guNa ke rUpa meM batAyA gayA hai, zAstroM meM! @ AnaMdaghanajI jaise uccakakSA ke yogIpuruSa ne paramAtmA RSabhadeva kI stavanA ke mAdhyama se prematattva kA gaharA evaM adbhuta vizleSaNa-vivecana kiyA hai| (r) prema ke vAstavika rUpa-svarUpa ko samajhe bagaira, Ajakala prema ke nAma para vAsanA ke nATaka khele jA rahe haiN| (r) zoSaNa aura svArtha ke saMkIrNa dAyare meM prema ke phUla khila pAnA mumakina kaise hogA? COM patra : 8 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra pAkara AtmA prasanna huii| yU~ bhI ina dinoM meM merI antaHprasannatA bar3hatI jA rahI hai, aisA anubhava kara rahA huuN| ASAr3ha ke bAdala ghira Ae haiN| sArA nagara bAdaloM kI chAyA meM stabdha hai| apUrva nIravatA hai| zUnya kA sparza bhI kitanA acchA lagatA hai| mere suSupta prANoM ko jagA die haiN...| isa ghanIbhUta ekAnta meM maiM apane hI Amane-sAmane ho gayA huuN| dekha rahA hU~ apane ko! jo maiM hU~- zuddha Atmadravya! mukta Atmadravya! buddha Atmadravya! saccidAnaMda pUrNa Atmadravya! asIma aura virATa prakRti mAno ki hai hI nahIM! dikhatI hai loka ke zIrSa para ardhacandrAkAra siddhazilA / prakRti ke sAre bandhanoM se mukta hokara usa siddha bhUmi para AsIna ho gayA hU~! pUrNajJAnasvarUpa ho gayA huuN| pUrNAnaMda hI pUrNAnaMda hai yhaaN|| ___ parantu acAnaka yaha kyA hone lagA? ghanaghora bAdala garajane lge| avani aura AkAza ko vidIrNa karatI huI bijaliyA~ kar3akane lgii| digantoM se uThatI huI vRSTi-dhArA meM nagara calAyamAna hone lgaa| punaH prakRti kI tarapha dekhane lgaa| cAroM ora nihArA / oha! pAsa meM terA zveta patra par3A hai...usa For Private And Personal Use Only

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33 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai patra meM kyA likhA hai - yaha to bAda meM jaba par3hA patra, taba jJAta huA, parantu patra dekhate hI patra likhane vAlA, kalpanA meM sAkAra ho aayaa| aba tU mere sAmane hI hai... terI nirdoSa aura snehapUrNa mukhamudrA dekhatA hU~, prasannatA anubhava karatA hU~| Aja jaba tU kalpanA ke Aloka meM mere sAmane Akara baiTha gayA hai, to Aja maiM apanI saMvedanA hI vyakta karU~gA, Aja maiM apanA hI hRdaya kholU~gA tere sAmane / dekha, bAdaloM kA aura bijaliyoM kA tUphAna zAMta ho calA hai| vRSTi kA vega bhI kucha kama huA hai| svAbhAvika rUpa se hI mere mana meM Aja antartama saMvedana phUTa rahA hai| 'kaI varSoM se maiM prema ke viSaya meM socA karatA thaa| Aja bhI socatA hU~| parantu pahale, varSoM taka, anizcita aura saMdigdha vicAroM meM ulajhA rhaa| aneka tarkoM se aura aneka manovaijJAnika vizleSaNoM se 'prema' kA svarUpa samajhane kI ceSTA kii| prema kA svarUpa ajJAta hI rhaa| zAstroM kA... dharmagranthoM kA jJAtA banatA calA, prema svarUpa kA a-jJAtA hI banA rhaa| tU jAnatA hai na ki maiM eka zramaNa hU~, jaina muni hU~? vairAgya to muni-jIvana meM anivArya rUpa se honA caahie| bAta bhI sahI hai - saMsAra ke prati vairAgya jAgRta ho jAne se to maiM muni bnaa| parantu kyA munijIvana mAtra vairAgya se hI maiMne grahaNa kiyA thA? apane mere usa atIta ko ttttolaa| usa samaya ke mere manobhAvoM ko TaTolA / avazya, saMsAra ke prati virakti kA bhAva thA mana meN| sAtha hI; saMyama ke prati, saMyamI mahAtmAoM ke prati rAga bhI paidA huA thA mere mana meM | usa rAga ko upAdeya mAnA gayA hai| kartavyarUpa mAnA gayA hai| usako 'prazastarAga' kahA gayA hai| saMyamarAga, saMyamaprema, saMyamasneha ko uttama guNa mAnA gayA hai | saMyama kA artha hai cAritra, sAdhutA, mokSamArga vgairh| vaise, paramAtmA ke prati bhI prema karanA Avazyaka mAnA gayA hai| paramAtmaprIti, paramAtmabhakti mahAna dharma kahA gayA hai| paramAtmA ke sAmane premapUrNa milana ke va viraha ke gIta bhI gAye gae haiM, yogIpuruSoM ne bhI gAye haiN| arthAt paramAtmA se prema karane kA mArga avaruddha nahIM hai| pratyeka dharmakriyA, dharmAnuSThAna premapUrvaka karane kA upadeza diyA gayA hai, dharmagranthoM meN| dharmagranthoM meM maiMne ye sArI bAteM par3hI haiN| itanA hI nahIM, sarva jIvoM ke sAtha bhI mitratA kA prema sthApita karane ko kahA gayA hai| jIvamAtra ke sAtha prema! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 34 parantu 'prema kA svarUpa kyA honA cAhie ?' yaha prazna sulajhA nahIM / jisako bhI pUchA, apanI kalpanA se uttara diyaa| isase saMtoSa nahIM huA..... kaise hotA saMtoSa? jinhoMne prema kA svarUpa pAyA nahIM ho, ve kaise dUsaroM ko saMtuSTa kara sakate haiM? mujhe isa bAta kA bhI bar3A Azcarya huA ki prakANDa vidvAna aise AcAryoM ne bhI 'prema' ke viSaya meM mauna hI dhAraNa kiyA hai! 'prema kA spaSTa svarUpa unhoMne samajhAyA nhiiN| hA~, eka yogIpuruSa AnaMdaghanajI ne paramAtmA kI stavanA meM prema, prIti kA svarUpa samajhAne kA prayatna kiyA hai| unhoMne prema ko 'nirupAdhika' btaayaa| sopAdhika prema, prema nahIM hai / 'nirupAdhika' kA artha hotA hai kAmanArahita / jisase hamArA prema ho, usase kucha pAne kI kAmanA hamAre mana meM nahIM honI cAhie / dUsarI bAta unhoMne yaha kahI ki 'raMjana dhAtumilApa' yAnI prema kA artha hai dhAtuoM kA milana | zArIrika dhAtuoM ke milana kI bAta yahA~ nahIM hai, yahA~ 'dhAtu' zabda kA artha 'vicAra' hI karanA ucita lagatA hai| yAnI paraspara ke vicAroM kA milana prema kA dUsarA svarUpa hai| jisase hamArA prema huA, unake vicAroM ke sAtha hamAre vicAroM kA maila baiTha jAye, vicArabheda nahIM rheN| unake prema kA pAtra hai, paramAtmA / paramAtmA se 'dhAtumilApa' kaise ho? hai na aTapaTI yaha bAta ? maiM to itanA samajha gayA hU~ ki paramAtmA ke Adeza aura upadeza hI hamArA jIvana bana jAye - vaha dhAtumilApa / kisI eka pAtra ko lakSya banAkara prema kI paribhASA jaba kI jAtI hai, paribhASA apUrNa hI rhegii| hameM koI bhI pAtra sAmane rakhe binA prema kA svarUpa samajhanA hogaa| usI svarUpa vAlA prema phira apane koI bhI pAtra ke sAtha kara sakeM, nirbhaya aura nizciMta banakara | prema karane para athavA prema ho jAne para yadi koI bhayagraMthI hamAre mana ko bhrAnta karatI hai, koI cintA yadi hamAre mana ko ciMtita kara detI hai, to vaha prema nahIM kahA jA sktaa| vaha vAsanA hI hai / tU zAyada kahegA: prema ke viSaya meM itanA cintana kyoM karanA cAhie? kyA jIvana meM prematatva itanA anivArya hai ? hA~! jIvana meM prema Avazyaka hI nahIM, anivArya hai! baccA ho, taruNa ho, yuvA ho yA vRddha ho - jIvana kI sabhI avasthAoM meM prema cAhie / strI ho yA puruSa ho, bhogI ho yA tyAgI ho, saMta ho yA zaitAna ho - saba prema cAhate haiM ! paraMtu jo loga prema kA svarUpa nahIM jAnate haiM, ve prema kI jagaha vAsanAoM meM pha~sa jAte haiM / vAsanA ko prema mAna lete haiM / For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 35 mAtA apane bacce se prema karatI hai, paraMtu prema kA svarUpa nahIM jAnatI hai| patnI apane pati se prema karatI hai, paraMtu prema kA svarUpa nahIM jAnatI hai / bahana apane bhAI se pyAra karatI hai, paraMtu vaha prema kA svarUpa nahIM jAnatI hai| isalie prema saccA hotA nahIM, ho jAtA hai to dIrghakAla TikatA nahIM! TikatA hai to bar3hatA nhiiN| are dharmaguru apane ziSyoM se, apane anuyAyiyoM se prema karate haiM... vaise ziSya aura anuyAyI dharmaguru se prema karate haiM - paraMtu yadi ve prema kA sahI svarUpa nahIM jAnate haiM, to prema, prema nahIM raha jAtA / prema kA svarUpa hI vikRta ho jAtA hai| hama logoM ne prema kA svarUpa samajhane kI aura samajhAne kI koI ceSTA hI nahIM kii| dUsaroM kA prema cAhate haiM aura dUsaroM se prema karate haiM jarUra, paraMtu 'prema' kaisA hotA hai ? prema kA vAstavika svarUpa kyA hai ? jAnane kI jijJAsA taka paidA nahIM hotI hai| aisI hai mUr3hatA hamArI / prema kA vAstavika svarUpa samajhanA hogA aura dUsaroM ko samajhAnA hogaa| tabhI prema kA amRta hamArI mRtaprAya antaHcetanA ko nava-jIvana pradAna kregaa| hamArI dRSTi nirmala aura snigdha bnegii| hamArI vANI sudhArasa kI vRSTi kregii| hamAre prema ke mAnasarovara meM hajAroM AtmahaMsa nirbhaya aura nizcita banakara tairate raheMge, svacchaMda krIr3A kreNge| apUrva AnaMda pAe~ge / prema kI paribhASA mujhe sabase z2yAdA pasaMda AI, nArada ke bhaktisUtra kI / itanI buddhigamya, tarkagamya aura hRdayasparzI paribhASA kI gaI hai ki merI buddhi saMtuSTa ho gaI hai / merA hRdaya nRtya karane lagA hai| mujhe tAjjuba to yaha hotA hai ki saiMkar3oM varSa pUrva eka RSi-muni ne 'prema' kI itanI spaSTa paribhASA gaharAI meM jAkara kI hai| kitanA gahana cintana-manana kiyA hogA usa avadhUta yogI ne / Ajakala to aisA dikhane meM AtA hai ki apane Apako virakta aura vairAgI mAnane vAle, tyAgI aura tapasvI mAnane vAle loga 'prema' zabda se hI bhar3akate haiN| hA~, aise loga dUsaroM kA prema cAhate haiM, paraMtu dUsare manuSyoM ko prema dene meM pApa mAnate haiN| ziSyoM kA, bhaktoM kA prema ve cAhate haiM, usameM ve loga pApa nahIM mAnate! becAre ye loga prema kA svarUpa hI nahIM samajha pAe haiM / rAga ko prema samajha liyA hai, prema ko rAga samajha liyA hai / nArada ke bhaktisUtra meM prema kI kAphI spaSTa paribhASA mere sAmane AI, maiM kyA batAU~, merA roma-roma vikasvara ho gayA thaa| mujhe aisA hI lagA jaise yaha jinavacana hI ho| jaise bhagavAna mahAvIra kI hI vANI ho! For Private And Personal Use Only

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36 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai guNarahitaM, kAmanArahitaM, prtikssnnvrdhmaanm| avicchinnaM sUkSmataraM anubhavarUpam / / [nA0 bha0 sU0 : 54] prema kA svarUpa (1) guNarahita (2) kAmanArahita (3) pratikSaNa bar3hatA huA (4) sAtatyasahita (5) ati sUkSma aura (6) anubhavAtmaka hai| ___ maiM tujhe kyA kahU~? kyA batAU~? kucha varSa pUrva... apane ko... apane sAdhaka jIvana ko svastha rakhanA asahya ho gayA thA, una dinoM meM | apanI tyAgavairAgya kI upalabdhi maiM khotA hI calA gayA thaa| apane Apako khAlI mahasUsa kara rahA thaa| AtmabhAva meM rahakara isa rukSa vairAgya ko jInA aura usa para vizvAsa karanA saMbhava nahIM ho pA rahA thA / eka nigUr3ha viSAda ne mujhe ghera liyA thaa| maiM- merA antarmana cAhatA thA kucha aisA hI prema! saMsAra meM to aisA prema mile hI kahA~? jahA~ svArtha aura zoSaNa ke alAvA dUsarA kucha hai hI nhiiN| paraMtu sAdhakoM ke, mokSamArga ke pathika kahalAne vAloM kI sRSTi meM bhI aisA prema nahIM dekhA, nahIM paayaa,| yahA~ para bhI vahI svArtha aura vahI zoSaNa! maiM bhI unhIM meM se hI hU~ na! jo guNavAna dikheM, una se hI prema kiyA jAtA hai| ataH prema pAne ke lie guNavAna dikhane kA daMbha kiyA jAtA hai| yadi mujha meM unako guNa nahIM dikheMge, mere sAtha ve loga prema nahIM kreNge| yadi una logoM kI kucha kAmanAe~.. icchAe~ mere se pUrNa hotI hogI, to hI ve mujha se prema kareMge! jaba taka unakI icchAe~ maiM pUrNa karatA rahU~gA, unakA prema bar3hatA jAegA, paraMtu jaise hI maiMne unakI icchA pUrti karanA baMda kiyA ki unakA prema ghaTatA jaaegaa| kabhI prema, kabhI dveSa! satata prema kI dhArA to bahatI dikhe hI nahIM! phira prema kI sUkSma bhUmikA aura prema kA anubhava to ho hI kaise? nArada ne jaisA prema kA svarUpa batAyA hai, vaisA svarUpavAlA prema dUsaroM se mile yA nahIM mile, hamako dUsaroM se prema karanA hai, to aisA hI prema karanA cAhie - yaha bAta maiMne nizcita kara lii| mere mana kA viSAda dUra ho gyaa| maiMne apanI AtmasAdhanA meM naI sphUrti pAI aura vairAgya bhAvanA vizeSa rUpa se jJAnapUta bnii| Aja to maiMne apanA hI manomaMthana likha diyA / zAyada tujhe par3hane meM AnaMda For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 37 AegA yA nahIM... yaha vicAra maiMne kiyA hI nahIM... mujhe likhane, meM AnaMda AtA gayA...likhatA gayA! svAdhyAya, tattvaciMtana aura sAmAyika meM AnaMda AtA hogA? paramAtmadarzana meM lInatA AtI hogI? likhanA, mukta mana se likhanA / kuzala rahe -yahI zubha kaamnaa| bambaI 3 agasta, 1976 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 38 * prema ke bAre meM kucha bhI likhanA bar3A kaThina hai| prema karanA utanA muzkila nahIM! cU~ki anubhUti kI yAtrA ko zabdoM se siMgAranA yA akSaroM meM utAranA sahaja nahIM hai! Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir * doSarahita prema ke bAre meM to sunA hogA... para 'prema guNarahita honA cAhie ....' yaha bAta jarA ajIba sI lagatI hai nA? para vAstavikatA vahI hai ! * AkarSaNa hamezA alpajIvI hotA hai... use prema kA mAdhyama banAyA to prema vahama meM badala jaaegaa| * kAmanAoM se kuMThita mana prema nahIM kara pAtA ! prema kAmanA se rahita honA cAhie / priya mumukSu, * jarA bhItara ko TaTolane kI AvazyakatA hai...| prema ke nAma para hama kyA kara rahe haiM? kahIM amRta ke lebala tale jahara ke ghU~Ta to nahIM pI rahe hai nA? patra : 9 dharmalAbha, tere pratyuttara kI apekSA thI, terA patra nahIM AyA, phira bhI maiM patra likha rahA huuN| kabhI aisA ho jAtA hai...! kabhI kisI kA patra Ane para bhI do-do mahIne taka pratyuttara nahIM likhA jAtA hai, zAMti se vistRta patra likhU~gA, abhI samaya nahIM hai... likhane kA 'mUDa' nahIM hai...' isa prakAra socate-socate samaya nikala jAtA hai| kabhI binA intajAra kie pratyuttara kA patra likhane baiTha jAtA hU~ / 'prema' ke viSaya meM likhanA itanA muzkila hai, jitanA prema karanA muzkila nahIM! parantu likhanA isalie sarala bana gayA hai, cU~ki nArada ke 'bhaktisUtra' kA AdhAra mila gayA! isa RSi ne 'prema' kI paribhASA kara prema kI sRSTi ko divya banA diyA hai| prema kI duniyA meM divyatA ke darzana karAe haiN| prema 'rAga' nahIM hai, prema 'moha' nahIM hai| prema koI 'Asakti' nahIM hai| prema koI 'kAma' yA 'vAsanA' nahIM hai| tU kahegA 'aisA prema kyA isa saMsAra meM saMbhava hai ? kyA kisI vyakti meM aisA prema saMbhava hai?' hA~, saMbhava hai, aisA prema ho sakatA hai| yadi aisA prema asaMbhavita hotA to eka maharSi kyoM batAte vaisA prema ? azakya aura asaMbhava bAta batAnA For Private And Personal Use Only

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39 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai maharSi ke lie ucita nahIM hotaa| mujhe usa bhAratIya niSkAma maharSi ke prati pUrNa vizvAsa hai ki unhoMne prema kA svarUpa jaba batAyA hai, to aisA saMbhavita ho sakatA hai| hA~, sabhI manuSyoM ke lie saMbhava nahIM ho sktaa| jo mUrkha haiM, ajJAnI haiM, vicAra zUnya aura vivekahIna haiM, aise manuSya prema ko samajha hI nahIM sakate, phira prema karanA to saMbhava hI kaise ho sakatA hai unake lie? prema guNa-rahita hotA hai! kabhI sunI hai aisI paribhASA? prema doSa-rahita hotA hai-aisA kahate to hama turaMta mana lete, samajha lete! inhoMne kahA prema guNarahita hotA hai! nArada kahate haiM dUsare jIvAtmA ke guNa dekhakara, guNa jAnakara yadi Apa usase prIti karate haiM, prIti ho jAtI hai-to vaha prema nahIM hai! prema kA AdhAra vyakti kA guNa nahIM honA caahie| maiM kahU~ ki 'tere meM acche guNa haiM - tU vinayI hai, tU sevAbhAvI hai, tU udAra hai isalie mujhe tere prati prema hai|' to merA yaha prema, prema nahIM hai, prema kA AbhAsa hI hai| cUMki mere prema kA AdhAra tere guNa bane! tere ye guNa jaba taka tujha meM hoMge taba taka hI merA prema TikegA... jyoM ve guNa cale gae, merA prema bhI calA jAegA! are, tujha meM guNa haiM, cale nahIM gae haiM - paraMtu mujhe ve guNa nahIM dikhate haiM, tumhAre prati merA prema nahIM TikegA! prema TUTa jAegA! __jo TUTa jAya vaha prema nahIM! prema akhaNDa tattva hai| avicchinna tattva hai| hama bolate haiM 'merA unase prema TUTa gayA....' are bhaiyA, vaha prema hI nahIM thA, vaha kucha dUsarA hI tattva thA, jo akhaNDa nahIM thA, avicchinna nahIM thaa| prema kA AdhAra guNa nahIM ho sakatA, cU~ki saMsArI prANI ke guNa kAyama nahIM ttikte| Aja eka vyakti meM udAratA dikhatI hai - kala usameM udAratA na bhI ho! kRpaNatA A sakatI hai| hamane prema kA AdhAra udAratA ko banAyA to vaha prema premAbhAsa bana jAegA, cUMki usa vyakti kI udAratA jaba calI jAegI taba ApakA mAnA huA prema bhI calA jAegA! koI bhI guNa ho, kaisA bhI guNa ho, kisI kA bhI guNa ho- saMsAra meM koI guNa zAzvata nahIM hai| koI guNa avinAzI yA aparivartanIya nahIM hai| udAratA ho, gaMbhIratA ho, satyavAditA ho... dAna-zIla aura tapa ho- koI bhI guNa zAzvata nahIM! usa vyakti meM guNa hamezA rahegA hI- aisA nizcita nahIM haiN| kSaNa bhara mAna lo ki usameM se guNa calA nahIM gayA hai - guNa hai usameM, parantu hamArI dRSTi badala gaI, dekhane kA manobhAva badala gayA, to hameM vaha guNa nahIM dikhegaa| usameM hai guNa, phira bhI hameM nahIM dikhegA! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 40 samajha gayA na 'guNarahita prema' kahane kA tAtparya? hamArA prema isIlie badala jAtA hai, hamane prema kA AdhAra hI parivartanIya banAyA hai| guNa parivartanazIla hai| AdhAra parivartanazIla hogA to Adheya kahA~ se sthira rahegA? loTA hilegA, to loTe meM rahA huA pAnI bhI hilegA hI! makAna gira par3egA, to makAna meM rahe manuSya kaise salAmata raheMge? nArada kahate haiM ki guNoM ko prema kA AdhAra mata banAie / doSa to prema kA AdhAra kabhI bana hI nahIM sakatA, isalie doSa ko AdhAra nahIM banAne kI bAta karanI anAvazyaka hai| dUsare ke doSa dekhakara, g2alatiyA~ dekhakara kabhI usase prema huA hai? kabhI nhiiN| prema kA AdhAra guNa hI banatA hai aura hama banAte Ae haiN| isalie prema bhaMga hotA hai aura hama rote haiN| nirAza ho jAte haiN| vilApa karate haiN| guNoM kI do gati hai! yA to guNa naSTa ho jAegA athavA hameM guNa, guNa rUpa dikhegA nahIM! yA to guNa badala jAegA yA to hamArI dRSTi badala jaaegii| isakA pariNAma prema kA visarjana, prema kA dveSa meM parivartana | vAstava meM vaha prema hI nahIM hotA hai - jo naSTa ho jAtA hai| jo badala jAtA hai| prema avinAzI tattva hai| tumhAre mana meM eka zaMkA paidA ho sakatI hai : 'to kyA prema nirAdhAra ho sakatA hai?' hA~, ho sakatA hai| ho sakatA hai- isalie to nArada ne batAyA hai! tU kahegA : 'hama to dUsare manuSya kA guNa dekhate haiM - usase prema ho jAtA hai|' vaha prema nahIM hotA hai, AkarSaNa hotA hai! AkarSaNa prema nahIM hai| AkarSaNa hamezA kSaNika hotA hai| rabar3a khIMcA jAtA hai, parantu khIMcA huA rahanA usakA svabhAva nahIM, khIMcane vAlA chor3a degA rabar3a ko, kaisA ho jAegA? jaisA thA, vaisA! kisI kA guNa yA zakti dekhakara manuSya usake prati AkarSita jAtA hai... vaha AkarSaNa sthAI nahIM hotA, kSaNika hotA hai| aba dUsarI dRSTi se soceM guNarahita premasvarUpa ke bAre meM | guNa dekhakara prema hotA hai, to doSa dekhakara dveSa avazya hogaa| prema kA AdhAra yadi guNa ko banAyA to dveSa kA AdhAra, doSa bana hI jaaegaa| kyA hara iMsAna meM, hara prANI meM guNa hI hote haiM? doSa hote hI nahIM? pratyeka saMsArI jIva meM guNa aura doSadonoM hote haiN| isase kyA hotA hai- tU jAnatA hai? apane jIvana meM yaha ho rahA hai- guNoM kI jagaha doSa hI dekhane ke hama AdI bana gae haiN| tumhArA mere prati prema hai, isalie ki tU mujha meM guNa dekhatA hai| basa, eka For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 41 dina aisA AegA ki terA prema naSTa ho jaaegaa| mere meM Aja jo guNa haiM, saMbhava hai kala nahIM bhI hoN| Aja terI guNa dRSTi hai, saMbhava hai kala terI dRSTi, doSa dRSTi bana jAyeM! prema nahIM ttikegaa| ___ 'guNarahita prema' karane kA abhyAsa (prekTIsa) karanA par3egA! usa abhyAsa ke lie 'mUrti' hai 'pratimA' hai| svarNa kI ho yA pASANa kI ho vaha pratimA, usameM koI guNa nahIM, koI doSa nahIM! usa mUrti se prema karane ko kahA hai, premarasapAraMgata paramarSiyoM ne! paramAtmA kI usa pASANa-pratimA ko dekhate hI romAMca ho jAnA cAhie... A~khoM meM harSa ke A~sU umar3ane cAhie... ityaadi| kahA gayA hai na aisA? pASANa se prema karanA sIkhoge to AtmA se, paramAtmA se prema karanA aaegaa| guNarahita mUrti se prema karanA sIkho! 'usa mUrti meM AkAra to hotA hai na? saundarya to hotA hai na? isalie prema hotA hai| vahA~ bhI prema kA AdhAra saundarya kA guNa banatA hai!' aisI zaMkA tere mana meM ho sakatI hai| bAta bhI ThIka hai| jar3a padArthoM meM bhI hama guNa dekhate haiM aura prema karate haiN| parantu hamAre prazikSaka jAnate the isa bAta ko, isalie binA AkAra ke, binA saundarya ke pattharoM se prema karane ko kahA! kahA hai na? loga aise pattharoM se bhI prema karate haiM na? 'guNarahita prema' kA abhyAsa aise pattharoM se prema karane se zuru hotA hai| ___ 'AkArarahita, AkRtirahita pattharoM se jo guNarahita haiM, unase prema karanA sikhanA par3egA | zatrujaya ke pahAr3a ke pattharoM se prema karate haiM na? una pattharoM meM kauna-sA saundarya hai? kauna-sA rUpa hai? phira bhI prema karanA hai| __parantu... hamArA mana to vicitra hai| jahA~ usa mana ko guNa nahIM dikhegA vahA~ vaha koI na koI kAmanA-abhilASA ko lekara prema karane laga jAtA hai| 'isa patthara ko pUjane se patthara para sira lagAne se dhana milatA hai, bacce milate haiM, mana kI AzAe~ pUrNa hotI haiM athavA puNya kamAyA jAtA hai....' turaMta hI mana usa AkRtihIna, saundaryahIna, guNarahita patthara se prema karane laga jAtA hai| nAradajI ko mana kI isa Adata kA bhI jJAna thaa| ve jAnate the ki manuSya guNarahita pattharoM se aura guNarahita mAnavoM se bhI prema karane laga jAegA, yadi usakI manokAmanAeM pUrNa - unase pUrNa hotI hogii| ataH unhoMne kahA, 'prema kAmanArahita' caahie| mAtra guNarahita hI nahIM, kAmanArahita bhI caahie| ___ aisA kyoM kahA nAradajI ne? kucha bhI pAne kI icchA se jo manuSya kisI se bhI prema karegA, usakA prema akhaMDa nahIM rhegaa| jaba usakI icchA pUrNa nahIM hogI, taba prema naSTa ho jaaegaa| aisA hI ho rahA hai saMsAra meM | hara manuSya For Private And Personal Use Only

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42 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai kisI na kisI icchA-abhilASA ko lekara prema kara rahA hai dUsaroM se | mAnatA hai ki 'maiM prema karatA hU~,' vAstava meM vaha prema nahIM hotA, svArthasAdhakatA hotI hai| prema kA dikhAvA mAtra hotA hai| ___ hamako apane svayaM kA antarnirIkSaNa karanA hogaa| 'prema' kI bar3I-bar3I bAteM karane vAle hama, kahA~ bhaTaka rahe haiM? kaisI ghora bhramaNAoM se bhramita ho rahe haiM? botala para 'lebala' hai, amRta kA aura pI rahe haiM, halAhala viSa | mAnate haiM ki prema kara rahe haiM - aura karate haiM, icchAoM kI pUrti kI sAdhanA! __ jisase hamArI icchAe~ pUrNa na hotI hoM kyA hama unameM prema karate haiM? jisameM guNa nahIM, doSa dikhate hoM- kyA usase hama prema karate haiM? mAtA kA apane baccoM se jo prema hotA hai, use 'prema' isalie kahA gayA hai cUMki bacce se usakI koI kAmanA pUrNa na hotI ho, phira bhI mAtA kA prema usako milatA rahe | isase bacce ke doSa dUra hote haiM / doSa dekhakara mAtA ghRNA karane laga jAye to bacce meM doSa z2yAdA bar3hate jaaeNge| baccA AvArA bana jaaegaa| baccA prema se jaldI samajha jaaegaa| ghRNA se, tiraskAra se athavA tAr3anA se vaha nahIM samajhegA, nahIM sudhregaa| kabhI bhaya se bhale vaha galatI nahIM karegA, paraMtu usakA galatI karane kA mana nahIM sudhregaa| prema se - guNarahita aura kAmanArahita prema se usakA mAnasa-parivartana ho jaaegaa| vaise hI patnI kA prema | pati ke prati usakA prema guNarahita aura kAmanArahita hogA, to hI, vahI patnI, pati kI dharmapatnI-sahadharmiNI bana kara, prema kI devI bana skegii| kisI kA bhI, kisI ke bhI prati prema yadi guNarahita aura kAmanArahita hogA, to hI vaha prema saccA prema, divya prema khlaaegaa| anyathA vaha mAtra moha vAsanA hI banI rhegii| priya mumukSu! 'kAmanArahita' prema kA vizeSa gambhIra cintana maiM Age patra meM liluuNgaa| mana to karatA hai, likhatA hI calU~.. paraMtu samaya ke baMdhana meM jakar3A huA hU~| kAlAtIta aura kSetrAtIta kaba banUMgA..? nahIM jAnatA hU~ | paramAnaMda aura parama-prema kI anaMta anubhUti to tabhI ho skegii| yahA~ prasannatA hai| terI citta prasannatA sadaiva banI rahe - yahI maMgala kAmanA - 3 agasta, 1976 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 43 (r) prema ko khojane va mA~gane kI bajAya, khuda ke prema ko luTAnA siikheN| denA sIkheM! (r) prema na to dekhane kI cIja hai... na cakhane-sUMghane kii| yaha to mahasUsa karane kI cIja hai... anubhUti kA AsvAda hai! (r) kAmanA bhare hRdaya se kI gaI dharmakriyAe~ bhI jahara bana kara AtmA ko janama-janama taka mAratI haiM! 8 icchA hI sabase bar3A jahara hai... yaha hRdaya kI pavitratA ko naSTa kara detI hai! (r) rUpa-saundarya aura javAnI ke AkarSaNa meM aiMThanevAlA vyakti, prema kI gaharAI ko kaise chU sakatA hai? patra : 108 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, terA patra nahIM AyA parantu eka dUsare vyakti kA patra aayaa| usane to agasta aura sitambara ke patra par3ha kara itanA harSa vyakta kiyA hai ki usakA patra par3hate-par3hate maiM gadgada ho gyaa| use to nayA jIvana hI mila gayA hai| __ maiMne batAyA na ki maharSi nArada ne adbhuta premasvarUpa batAyA hai| prema kA svarUpa nirguNa aura niSkAma btaayaa| hA~, tU saMsAra meM aisA prema khojane jAegA, saMbhava hai, tU nirAza lauttegaa| dUsare manuSyoM meM aisA prema khojane ke bajAya tU apane jIvana meM aisA prema tatva prApta kare, yaha merA uddezya hai| tU dUsare manuSyoM meM kisa prakAra khojegA prema ko? prema A~khoM se dekhane kI vastu to hai nhiiN| kAnoM se sunane kI bAta nhiiN| dUsare manuSya meM aisA prema hogA, to bhI tU nahIM jAna paaegaa| tU kisI vyakti se isa prakAra prema karake anubhava kara | guNarahita aura doSarahita vyakti kahA~ milegA? saMsAra kA pratyeka manuSya guNa-doSa sahita hI hotA hai| manuSya meM guNa-doSa hote hue bhI hamAre prema kA AdhAra, prema kA mAdhyama guNa-doSa nahIM bane, aisI dRSTi honI cAhie | rUpa, lAvaNya, saundarya, yauvana... ye bhI guNa haiN| hamAre prema ke AdhAra, ye guNa bhI nahIM banane cAhie! dUsare zarta haiM, niSkAmavRtti kii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 44 niSkAma bhakti, niSkAma prema, niSkAma karma....Adi bAteM to tUne bahuta sunI hogii| sakAma bhakti aura sakAma prema kI heyatA bhI sunI hogii| kisI spRhA, icchA, abhilASA... kAmanA se hameM paramAtmabhakti athavA gurusevA nahIM karanI caahie| koI bhI dharmakriyA nahIM karanI caahie| yadi hama koI ihalaukika phala kI abhilASA se paramAtmA kA pUjana karate haiM, gurusevA karate haiM, dAna dete haiM, zIla kA pAlana karate haiM athavA tapazcaryA karate haiM, to sabhI kriyAe~ viSa kriyAe~ bana jaaeNgii| viSa yAnI jahara | jahara mAratA hai, ye kriyAe~ bhI bhale dharma kriyAe~ dikhatI ho, jIva ko mAratI haiN| 'yaha camatkArika bhagavAna hai, maiM unakA pUjana karU~gA to mujhe Dhera sArA dhana milegA... merI Apatti dUra ho jAegI..' isa icchA se yadi manuSya pUjana karatA hai, isakA paramAtma prema aura pUjana kI kriyA, viSamaya bana gii| isa guru kI ArAdhanA karane se mujhe putra prApti hogI, kesa meM merI jIta hogI...' isa prakAra ke vicAroM se prerita hokara yadi manuSya guru se prema karatA hai, guru sevA kI kriyA karatA hai, to vaha prema viSailA bana jAtA hai, vaha dharma kriyA viSailI bana jAtI hai| 'maiM dAna dUMgA to apanI ijjata bar3hegI, mujhe z2yAdA dhana kI prApti hogI, maiM zIla kA pAlana karU~gA, to apanA zarIra svastha rahegA, nirogI rahegA, maiM tapazcaryA karU~gA, to apanI kIrti phailegI, merA prabhAva bar3ha jAegA..' ye sAre ke sAre vicAra pavitra dharma kriyAoM ko jaharIlI banA dete haiN| isameM koI saccA dharmaprema nahIM hai| prema niSkAma cAhie | koI icchA nahIM, koI kAmanA nhiiN| kisI bImAra vyakti kI sevA kI athavA kisI duHkhI vyakti ko arthasahAyatA dI, yadi pratyupakAra kI apekSA hai mana meM- to vaha sevA aura sahAyatA viSamizrita ho gaI! kAmanA hI viSa hai| icchA hI viSa hai| yaha viSa hRdaya kI pavitratA ko, nirmalatA ko mAratA hai| yaha viSa prema kI pratimA ko naSTa kara detA hai| prema kI vRddhi nahIM hotI hai| prema kA lakSya hai, pratikSaNa vRddhi / ___ mAtra bhautika dhana-saMpatti aura yaza-kIrti kamAne ke lie bhaTakatA huA manuSya niSkAma prema kaise kara sakatA hai? vaha kisI kA bhI saccA premI nahIM bana sakatA | mAtra rUpa-saundarya aura yauvana ko DhU~r3hatA huA manuSya prema to nahIM karatA hai, prema kA ghora upahAsa karatA hai| kahA~ hai, paramAtmaprema? kahA~ haiM, guru prema aura kahA~ hai, mAnava prema? svArtha siddhi aura zoSaNakhorI ke alAvA kyA hai isa saMsAra meM? maiMne eka kissA par3hA thA : eka maMdira thaa| maMdira meM camatkArika zivamUrti thii| jaMgala meM thA vaha For Private And Personal Use Only

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45 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai maMdira | parantu camatkArI bhagavAna the na maMdira meM! loga kaI prakAra kI kAmanAe~ hRdaya meM bharakara Ate the| eka bhIla hI mAtra aisA AtA thA, jisakA hRdaya niSkAma thaa| zaMkara se vaha khUba pyAra karatA thaa| eka dina eka seTha zaMkara kI pUjA kara dhyAna lagAe baiThe the, udhara vaha bhIla AyA / mu~ha meM pAnI bhara ke lAyA thA, hAtha meM jaMgala ke phUla lAyA thaa| pAnI se zaMkara ko snAna karAyA aura phUloM se zaMkara ko sjaayaa| 'kaise ho zaMkara?' usane pUchA aura zaMkara kI pratimA bolI : 'mere pyAre bhakta! tU kuzala hai na? tujhe jo cAhie so mA~ga! bhIla ne kahA : 'zaMkara! tU hI merA hai, mujhe aura kyA cAhie?' kaha kara bhIla calA gayA... parantu vaha seTha to dekhatA hI raha gayA! 'yaha zaMkara bhI kaisA hai? usa ga~vAra bhIla para prasanna hokara bAta karatA hai... aura maiM kitanI bhAvabhakti karatA hU~... kaise bar3hiyA phala car3hAtA hU~... miThAI car3hAtA hU~... mujha para prasanna hI nahIM ho rahA hai... jaisA usakA bhakta, vaisA hI yaha bhagavAna lagatA seTha niHsaMtAna thaa| putraprApti kI kAmanA se vaha niraMtara isa maMdira meM AtA thaa| dUsarI bAra, jaba seTha maMdira meM AyA, usane dekhA to zaMkara kI eka A~kha nahIM thI! koI ukhAr3a kara le gayA thaa| seTha ne usa cora ko do-cAra gAliyA~ sunAI mana hI mana aura kahA : 'kala bAjAra se kA~ca kI A~kha lAkara lagA duuNgaa|' itane meM vaha bhIla aayaa| Ate hI usane mu~ha meM se pAnI kI picakArI lagAI zaMkara para aura phUla bhI caraNoM meM rakha die / zaMkara kI mUrti kI ora dekhA aura cakita raha gayA : 'are zaMkara, terI A~kha kahA~ calI gaI? merI do A~kheM aura tujhe eka? yaha kaise ho sakatA hai, zaMkara? le, merI eka A~kha tujhe detA hU~... bolate-bolate hI apane tIra se eka A~kha nikAla kara zaMkara ko lagA dI! A~kha meM se khUna kI dhArA bahane lgii| seTha dekhatA hI raha gyaa| ghabarA gayA thA seTha / itane meM zaMkara kI mUrti bolI : 'seTha, dekhA mere bhakta kA prema? vaha lene nahIM AtA, dene AtA hai! tU lene AtA hai| tU detA bhI hai...isase bahuta z2yAdA lene ke lie | tU mujha se prema nahIM karatA, tujhe cAhie putra! isa bhIla ko kucha nahIM cAhie... mujhe niSkAma premI hI pasaMda AtA hai!' nirakSara bhIla ke pAsa vizuddha prema kA amRta thA | buddhimAna seTha kI bhakti kAmanA ke halAhala viSa se viSailI bana gaI thii| hA~, prema kA sambandha koI vidvattA se yA buddhimattA se hI nahIM hai| prema kA sambandha sattA aura saMpatti se nahIM hotA hai| prema kA sambandha hai, kAmanArahita hRdaya se! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 46 zrI hemacandrasUrijI ne rAvaNa ko paramAtmA kA niSkAma bhakta batAyA hai| rAvaNa niSkAma premI thA paramAtmA kA / rAvaNa kI adbhuta paramAtmabhakti se eka bAra nAgarAja dharaNendra rAvaNa para prasanna ho gayA thA / dharaNendra ne rAvaNa ko kahA : 'rAvaNa! terI paramAtmabhakti se maiM tere Upara prasanna ho gayA hU~, tU mujhase kucha mA~ga le...jo tujhe cAhie ! deva kA darzana niSphala nahIM jAtA, maiM nAgarAja dharaNendra huuN|' rAvaNa ne kyA kahA dharaNendra ko ? usane kahA : 'paramAtmabhakti se Apa kA prasanna honA svAbhAvika hai, cU~ki Apa bhI paramAtmabhakta haiM! eka bhakta ko dUsarA bhakta pyArA hI lagatA hai / parantu mujhe Apa se kucha bhI nahIM cAhie ! paramAtmabhakti se mujhe jo milanA thA... mila gayA hai, vaha apUrva AnaMda! mila gaI hai, vaha adbhuta prasannatA... nAgarAja! dUsarA kyA cAhie?' rAvaNa kI niSkAma bhAvanA se dharaNendra atyadhika khuza ho gayA aura rAvaNa kI bahuta prazaMsA kI / rAvaNa kA paramAtmaprema dina-prati-dina bar3hatA hI gayA thaa| rAvaNa saccA paramAtmapremI thA / tU kahegA : paramAtmA ke prati to niSkAma prema... kAmanArahita prema ho sakatA hai, parantu manuSyoM ke sAtha niSkAma prema karanA asaMbhava sA lagatA hai ! kAmanAvAloM ke sAtha kAmanArahita prema kaise kiyA jAye ? kiyA jA sakatA hai! niSkAma premI se niSkAma prema karanA to sarala hai! kAmanA vAloM ke sAtha niSkAma prema karanA, vizeSa bAta hai! kiyA thA aisA prema eka sannArI ne| mayaNAsundarI ne kor3hI uMbara rAnA se / AcArya zrI ratnazekharasUrijI ne mayaNAsundarI kA pAtra niSkAma premamUrti kA hI pAtra batAyA hai / yadi usakA prema niSkAma nahIM hotA, to vaha prema akhaMDa nahIM rahatA, khaMDa-khaMDa hokara bikhara jaataa| jaba zrIpAla dUsarI rAjakanyAoM ko patniyA~ banA kara le AyA thA, usa samaya mayaNA sundarI kA prema havA bana kara ur3a jAtA AkAza meN| IrSyA, dveSa aura tiraskAra se bhara jAtI mayaNA / yadi mayaNA kA zrIpAla ke prati prema vizuddha nahIM hotA, to jaba zrIpAla paradeza meM thA usa samaya usake lie mayaNA sadaiva zubhakAmanAe~ nahIM krtii| usakI sukha-zAMti ke lie prArthanA nahIM krtii| zrIpAla ke prati mayaNA kA prema bar3hatA hI gayA hai| isakA artha yaha hai ki niSkAma prema ho sakatA hai| niSkAma prema kA dUsarA eka pahalU hai / ihalaukika sukha-vaibhava yA kIrti For Private And Personal Use Only

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47 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai prazaMsA kI kAmanA nahIM ho, parantu pAralaukika daivI divya sukhoM kI kAmanA hRdaya meM bharakara, paramAtmA se prema karane kA pradarzana kareM! guruprema kI bAteM kareM, dharmaprema kA dikhAvA kreN| isalie paramAtmA kI bhakti karatA hai, tAki devaloka ke sukha mile| isalie vrata-niyama kA pAlana karatA hai, tAki divya vaibhava aura divya zarIra-saMpatti mile! ___ yaha paramAtmaprema yA dharmaprema nahIM hai, yaha bhI 'slo poijana' Poison hai! dhImA jahara hai| yaha jahara dhIre-dhIre mAratA hai| dikhatA hai, niSkAma prema para hotA hai, sakAma prema! prema kI Ar3a meM yadi kucha bhI pAne kI kAmanA hai, yahA~ pAne kI yA kahIM aura jagaha para kucha pAne kI kAmanA hai, to vaha prema kAmanA sahita prema hai| isalie maiM hamezA kahA karatA hU~ ki vahI prema saccA hai, jahA~ hameM pAne kI kAmanA nahIM hotI varana dene kI... samarpaNa kI hI bhAvanA rahatI hai| prema samarpaNa karavAtA hai| svArtha prApti ke lie prerita karatA hai| ___ priya mumukSa! prema kI paribhASAoM meM ulajhanA nahIM hai| ulajhanoM ke lie yaha nahIM likha rahA hU~, mana kI samasyAoM ko sulajhAne ke lie likhatA hU~ | mana kA samAdhAna hI to paramabrahma kI magnatA meM hetu hai| svabhAvasukha kI anubhUti, mana kA samAdhAna kie binA ho nahIM sktaa| mana kA samAdhAna karate hI rahanA hogaa| isa varSAkAla meM saMtoSajanaka cintana-manana calatA rahA hai| lekhana bhI tRpti kA anubhava karAtA rahA hai| 'jJAnasAra' graMtha para anuprekSA ho rahI hai aura 'prazamarati' grantha para vivecana bhI likhatA jA rahA hU~ | sAtha-sAtha eka upanyAsa bhI likha rahA hU~! udhara pratidina 'zAMtasudhArasa' grantha para pravacana bhI de rahA hU~ | aura 'yogabindu' grantha kA adhyayana karA rahA hU~ | koI kheda nahIM, kleza nahIM aura saMtApa nahIM! mujhe aisA lagatA hai ki nirguNa aura niSkAma prema hI isakA mUla strota nahIM hogA kyA? jIva mAtra ke prati jaba kabhI aise prema kI Antara anubhUti hotI hai, apUrva AnaMda pAtA huuN...| tU bhI aisA AnaMda anubhava kare, yahI merI zubha kAmanA hai| tere prati merI yaha kAmanA bhI kyA niSkAma prema nahIM hai? kuzala rheN| - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 48 (r) 'prema' zabda kA prayoga isa kadara vikRta ho gayA hai ki jaise rAga-moha___ Asakti ye saba prema ke paryAya mAne jAne lage haiM! (r) jo TUTa jAe, vaha prema nahIM hai! jo bar3hatA-ghaTatA hai, vaha prema nahIM hai! jo mahasUsa nahIM hotA, vaha prema nahIM hai! jo pradarzana cAhatA hai, vaha prema nahIM hai! (r) duniyA kI hAni-lAbha kI hisAbI dRSTi meM prema jaise apArthiva tattva kA mUlyAMkana ho kaise sakatA hai? (r) svayaM svArtha ke zikaMje meM subakate AdamI hI anya para svArthI hone kA Aropa mar3hate haiN| (r) binA kisI apekSA AkAMkSA se prema ke phUla khilAne vAlA vyakti hI sahI artha meM AtmajJAnI kahA jA sakatA hai! korI zAstrajJatA anubhUti kI UMcAiyoM ko chU nahIM pAtI! patra : 11 priya gumukssu| dharmalAbha, terA patra milA! prasannatA huii| dUsare patra bhI mile haiN| prema ke viSaya meM kucha logoM ne gaharI abhirUcI lI hai aura ve isa viSaya meM vizeSa gaharAI meM jAnA cAhate haiN| acchA hai, gaharAI meM gaye binA rahasyabhUta tattva pAyA nahIM jA sktaa| 'prema' zabda kA prayoga itanA sAmAnya ho gayA hai ki sAmAnya buddhi vAlA manuSya asamaMjasa meM par3a jAtA hai| rAga aura moha se bhinna 'prema' eka divya tattva hai, yaha bAta maiM isalie vizeSa spaSTa kara rahA huuN| jahA~ guNa aura kAmanA mAdhyama banate haiM, vahA~ prema nahIM hotaa| jahA~ nirantara vRddhi nahIM hotI, kabhI vRddhi, kabhI hAni hotI hai, vahA~ prema nahIM hotA! jo TUTa jAtA hai, akhaMDa nahIM rahatA hai, vaha prema nahIM hai| jo pradarzana cAhatA hai, vaha prema nahIM hai| jisakI gahana anubhUti nahIM hotI hai, vaha prema nahIM hai| vaha rAga ho sakatA hai, moha ho sakatA hai| koI kahatA hai : 'maiMne to guNavAna samajha kara prema kiyA thA, parantu paricaya For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 49 hone se mAlUma huA ki usameM to aneka doSa haiM... usake prati prema nahIM rahA!' kaise rahatA? vaha prema hI nahIM thA! ___ koI kahatA hai : 'merA usake prati atyaMta prema thA, usako maiMne kyA nahIM diyA? parantu usako merI koI kadradAnI nahIM... merA prema ghaTatA jAtA hai|' prema hotA to nahIM ghaTatA! vaha prema nahIM thA, rAga thA! ___ koI kahatA hai : 'merA usake prati prema duniyA jAnatI hai!' duniyA tumhAre prema ko kaise jAnegI? prema sthUla nahIM hai, sUkSma hai! sUkSma tattva ko duniyA nahIM jAna sktii| duniyA kI dRSTi meM prema tattva A hI nahIM sktaa| rAga A sakatA hai, moha A sakatA hai| koI kahatA hai : 'mujhe to koI saccA prema karane vAlA manuSya hI nahIM milA hai| saba svArtha ke premI haiN....|' jaba taka apanA svArtha siddha hotA ho, taba taka prem...| sahI bAta kahI isane! usako saba loga svArthI najara Ae! kyoM, jAnatA hai? usakA svayaM kA svArtha kisI vyakti ne pUrNa nahIM kiyA, isalie! svayaM jo svArthI hote haiM yAnI koI na koI icchA, kAmanA, abhilASA lie phirate haiM aura ve icchAe~ apUrNa rahatI haiM... taba vaha dUsaroM para 'svArthI' kA Aropa mar3ha dete haiN| kyA tU kisI kA niHsvArtha premI banA hai? binA svArtha kA prema kisI ko diyA hai? to phira tujhe niHsvArtha prema kahA~ se milegA? prema sadaiva niHsvArtha hI hotA hai| svArtha vAlA to rAga hotA hai| eka bhAI ne mujhe kahA : 'duniyA meM saba svArthI haiM isalie maiM to kisI se prema nahIM krtaa| maiM to paramAtmA se prema karatA hU~, basa!' maiMne usako pUchA : paramAtmA ko tumase koI svArtha nahIM hai, parantu tumheM paramAtmA se koI svArtha hai yA nahIM?' 'paramAtmA se to svArtha hai mujhe!' 'isakA artha yaha huA ki tumase svArtha rakhane vAle svArthI aura tuma paramAtmA se svArtha rakho vaha niHsvArtha? yU~ kaho ki tumheM kucha bhI dUsaroM ko denA nahIM hai, dUsaroM se lenA hai! jo tumheM dete nahIM ve svArthI lagate haiM! yadi paramAtmA ne bhI tumhArI icchA pUrNa nahIM kI to eka dina tuma paramAtmA ko bhI svArthI kaha doge! paramAtmA ko chor3a doge!' For Private And Personal Use Only

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50 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai jisakI tarapha se hameM kucha bhI nahIM milatA ho, usake prati prema karanA prema hai| aisA prema AtmadRSTi prApta hue binA sambhava nhiiN| zuddha AtmadRSTi cAhie | saccidAnaMdapUrNa AtmadRSTi hI aise divya prema kA mAdhyama hai| AtmajJAnI manuSya hI aisA premI ho sakatA hai| athavA yU~ kaho ki aisA premI hI AtmajJAnI kahA jA sakatA hai| korA zAstrajJAnI kabhI bhI aisA premI nahIM kahA jA sktaa| eka prakANDa zAstrajJAnI ne mujhe kahA : 'maiMne apane ziSyoM ko par3hAye, vidvAna banAe, parantu unakA mere prati koI bhaktibhAva nahIM, samarpaNabhAva nahIM... saba svArthI bana gae..!' unako apane hI ziSya svArthI najara Ae! yAnI ziSyoM para prema nahIM rhaa| kaise rahatA? prema hotA to rahatA | prema hI nhiiN| ziSyoM se bhaktibhAva kI kAmanA thI! prema kAmanArahita hotA hai! unheM zAstroM kA zabdajJAna thA, parantu AtmA kI anubhUti nahIM thii| ve prema pAnA cAhate the, prema denA nahIM cAhate the| jo unase prema kare ve unake prati prema kara sakate haiM! paraMtu usako prema kaise kahA jAye? vaha to rAga hI hai| rAga apavitra hai| ___ AtmajJAnI honA pdd'egaa| saccidAnaMdapUrNa AtmA kI anubhUti karanI hogii| jagata ko pUrNa dekhanA hogaa| jaba taka apUrNatA najara AegI, saccA Atmaprema prakaTa hI nahIM hogaa| 'saccidAnaMdapUrNena pUrNaM jgdvekssyte|' 'jJAnasAra' kA yaha pratipAdana bahuta hI arthapUrNa hai| jagata ko pUrNa dekhanA hogaa| isalie saccidAnaMda se pUrNa bananA pdd'egaa| thor3I kSaNoM ke lie bhI aisA bananA pdd'egaa| isalie pratidina - ___'zuddhAtmadravyamevAhaM zuddhajJAnaM guNo mm|' 'maiM zuddha Atmadravya hU~, zuddhajJAna merA guNa hai!' isa sUtra ko raTanA pdd'egaa| isa bhAva meM bahanA pdd'egaa| zuddha AtmasvarUpa ke bhAva meM bahate rahoge, jagata pUrNa pratIta hogaa| pUrNa ke prati anubhavAtmaka, sUkSmatara prema jAgRta hogaa| usakA pradarzana nahIM hogaa| tumhAre usa prema ko duniyA najaraaMdAja nahIM kara skegii| duniyA ko apane prema kI pratIti karAnA Avazyaka bhI nahIM hai| jaba taka AtmasvarUpa kA ajJAna hai, taba taka prematattva pAyA nahIM jA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 51 sakatA / ajJAnI prema kara hI nahIM sktaa| vaha rAga kara sakatA hai, mohita ho sakatA hai, prema nahIM kara sktaa| bhale hajAroM zAstroM kA jJAna ho parantu AtmasvarUpa kA jJAna na ho, AtmAnubhUti na ho, vaha ajJAnI hI khlaaegaa| AtmajJAnarahita, adhyAtmarahita zAstrajJAnI prematattva ko samajha hI nahIM sktaa| prema kI gaharI anubhUti kara hI nahIM sktaa| tU aisA prematattva pAnA cAhatA hai? to tujhe AtmajJAnI bananA hogaa| tujhe aisA prema dUsaroM se cAhie? to AtmajJAnI mahApuruSoM se milegaa| aise AtmajJAnI mahApuruSa virala haiM isa saMsAra meN| parantu haiM jarUra! AtmadraSTA niSkAma yogI puruSa kisa rUpa meM, kisa veza meM mile, yaha maiM nahIM batA sakatA...! maiM to yaha kahatA hU~ ki tU aisA bana jA! AtmadraSTA bana jaa| niSkAma yogI bana jA! tere lie kaThina nahIM hai| kaThina mAnanA bhI nhiiN| kar3A saMkalpa kara aura kartavyamArga para calatA rahe / tU premamaya bana jaaegaa| ananta sukha, ananta AnaMda pA legaa| jIvoM ke guNa-doSoM kA darzana karate raheMge... usameM hI ulajhe raheMge to prematattva kI anubhUti kabhI nahIM hogii| rAga-dveSa ke viSacakra meM kucalate rheNge| guNadoSoM kA darzana rAga-dveSa paidA karatA hai| paradravya ke guNa-doSa dekho hI mata | paradravya ko dekhanA hI kyoM? dekhanA yAnI vicAra karanA! paradravyoM kA vicAra hI kyoM karanA? tU kahegA : 'saMsAra meM rahate haiM to vicAra to A hI jAte haiM! paradravyoM ke AdhAra para to jIvana jI rahe haiM!' aisA kyoM hotA hai, jAnatA hai? janma-janmAntara se aise hI karate Ae haiM, aisA hI abhyAsa ho gayA hai, isalie | dUsarA abhyAsa zurU karanA hogaa| maiM paradravyoM kA vicAra kie binA bhI jIvana jI sakatA hU~, aisA mAnasika saMkalpa karanA hogaa| paradravyoM kA upayoga karanA alaga bAta hai, unake guNa-doSoM kA vicAra karanA alaga bAta hai| jisa vastu kA upayoga karanA par3e usakA vicAra karanA hI par3e, usake guNadoSoM kA cintana karanA hI par3e, aisA niyama nahIM hai| 'mujhe akhaMDa... avicchinna aura sUkSmatara prema kI anubhUti karanI hai', aisA dRr3ha saMkalpa karane para mArga spaSTa aura sarala bana jaaegaa| mAtra vicAra yA icchA se kArya siddha nahIM hotA hai| saMkalpa ke caraNoM meM siddhi namana karatI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 52 rAga-dveSa ke dvaMdvoM meM ghora becainI huI hogI, to yaha saMkalpa zIghra ho jaaegaa| rAga-dveSa ke dvaMdva priya lagate hoMge, to yaha saMkalpa nahIM ho skegaa| rAga-dveSa kartavya rUpa lageMge, taba taka prematattva kI pipAsA hI nahIM jgegii| priya mamakSa! parAyI cintAoM se mukta kara de mana ko| apane zuddha AtmasvarUpa kA... nirvikAra AtmasvarUpa ke cintana meM jor3a de mana ko / 'zAMtasudhArasa' kI ve do paMkti mere hRdaya ko bar3I acchI lagatI hai...| 'parihara paracintAparivAram / cintaya nijamavikAram re!' AtmajJAnI banane kI yaha anivArya zarta hai| paradravyoM kI cintAoM se mana ko mukta karanA! mukta mana nijAnaMda kI mastI anubhava kregaa| premarasa kA pyAlA bhara-bhara kara piyegA aura dUsaroM ko pilaayegaa| ___ varSAvAsa pUrNa ho rahA hai| anekavidha pravRttiyoM meM cAra mAsa vyatIta ho gaye... samaya daur3atA hI rahatA hai...! anAdi aura ananta! AtmA ko kAlAtIta honA hogaa| samayAtIta honA hogaa| deza aura kAla ke baMdhanoM se mukta AtmA hI parama premarasa kI anubhUti kara sakatA hai na! pratyuttara degA na? isa viSaya meM tU kahA~ taka pahu~ca sakatA hai, likhanA / terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| 1-11-76 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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53 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai| (r) vizuddha hRdaya kI gaharAiyoM meM hI sacce prema kA udbhava ho sakatA hai| OM vyAvahArika aura hArdika prema meM gaharA aMtara hai! duniyA meM adhikAMza loga vyAvahArika prema ko hI prema mAna lete haiN| (r) prema meM yadi zikAyata yA phariyAda kA daura AtA hai, to samajha lenA cAhie ki prema kA sahI rUpa kho gayA hai! (r) hRdaya ko vizuddha banAne ke lie maitrI, pramoda, karuNA va mAdhyasthya bhAvanAoM ko apanAnA hI hogaa| @ maitrI ke lie zatrutA nahIM honA, itanA hI paryApta nahIM hai... varan sabhI jIvoM ke sAtha bhItarI sneha kA nAtA bhI jur3A honA jarUrI hai! vaha sneha bhI ni:svArtha aura akAraNa honA caahie| patra : 12 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, merI kalpanA ke anusAra hI terA patra aayaa| nirAzA se bharapUra aura zikAyatoM se bharapUra! zikAyatoM se to mujhe AnaMda huA, paraMtu nirAzA se kucha glAni huii| aisA prema ki jisakA maiM varNana kara rahA hU~, nArada ke bhakti sUtra kara rahe haiM, vaisA prema karanA tujhe saMbhava nahIM lagatA, isalie tU nirAza ho gyaa| aisA prema tujhe kahIM se bhI nahIM mila rahA hai - isakI zikAyateM tUne kI... acchA hai, isa bahAne bhI dila to khula gayA terA! ____ maiM jisa prema kI bAta likha rahA hU~, usa prema kA udbhava sthAna hai, vizuddha hRdaya / jyoM-jyoM hRdaya zuddha banatA jAegA, tyoM-tyoM prema bhI vizuddha banatA jaaegaa| azuddha hRdaya se zuddha prema pragaTa nahIM ho sakatA | azuddha hRdaya bAhya rUpa, guNa Adi kI ora AkRSTa hotA hai| zuddha hRdaya sahajabhAva se dUsarI AtmAoM ke prati pravRtta hotA hai| ___ saMsAra meM prema kI AvazyakatA kyoM hai? manuSya yadi prema kI AvazyakatA samajhatA hai to isalie ki usako doSa aura duHkhoM se bacanA hai| prema meM vaha zakti hai, isalie jIvAtmA prema cAhatA hai| svayaM ko doSa aura duHkhoM se bacAne For Private And Personal Use Only

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54 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai kI bhAvanA se dUsaroM ke prema kI apekSA karanA- azuddha prema hai| dUsaroM ko doSa aura duHkhoM se bacAne kI bhAvanA se prema karanA zuddha prema hai| svArtha kI bhAvanA azuddha hRdaya hai| paramArtha kI bhAvanA zuddha hRdaya hai| prema kI bAteM karane vAloM ko dekhanA / apane doSoM ko, apanI bhUloM ko jo sahana kara le, duniyA ke sAmane pragaTa na kare, apane duHkhoM ko jo dUra kare athavA sahAnubhUti pragaTa kare... isalie z2yAdAtara loga prema cAhate haiM! ___ eka yuvA mere pAsa aayaa| usane kahA : 'merI mAtA kA mere Upara bahuta prema hai|' maiMne pUchA : 'mA~ kyA karatI hai?' usane kahA : 'merI mAtA, maiM kitanA bhI kharca kara dU~, mujhe kucha kahatI nahIM hai| maiM rAta ko kitane bhI baje ghara para jAtA hU~, mAtA mujhe pUchatI nahIM hai ki 'tU kyoM itanI derI se AyA... kahA~ gayA thA....' kucha bhI pUchatI nahIM hai| merI koI galatI ho jAye, mA~ dekha bhI le, pitAjI ko kahatI nahIM hai| ____mA~ kA aisA prema cAhatA hai putra! vyAvahArika prema! tumhAre hRdaya meM kucha bhI ho, sneha ho yA zatrutA ho, tuma vyavahAra acchA karate ho, ho gayA prema! aura, tumhAre hRdaya meM vAstavika prema ho, paraMtu yadi usake sAtha usakA manacAhA vyavahAra nahIM kiyA, to vaha mAna legA 'mere prati prema nahIM hai!' jo manuSya buddhimAna nahIM hai, jo sthiracitta nahIM hai, jo jJAnI nahIM haiM, aisA manuSya vyAvahArika prema ko hI prema mAnatA hai| vaha vAstavika prema nahIM hotA hai| kAryasAdhaka dRSTi se kiyA gayA prema, prema kA AbhAsamAtra hotA hai| eka lar3ake ne kahA : 'mere pitAjI kA mere prati prema nahIM hai| ve mujhe paisA nahIM dete| ve merI burAI karate haiN|' aise usane kaI kAraNa btaae| yadi usa lar3ake ko pitA khUba paisA detA aura usakI prazaMsA karatA hotA to lar3akA kahatA ki 'mere pitA kA mere prati khUba prema hai!' eka lar3akA aisA hai ki jisako maiM jAnatA hU~, vaha apane gharavAloM se napharata karatA hai| vaha kahatA hai ki 'mere mAtA-pitA, bhAI-bahana... bhAbhI... kisI kA mere prati prema nhiiN| saba mere doSa dekhate haiM, merI galatiyA~ batAte haiM...' ityAdi bAteM btaaii| yuvA hote hue ye bhAIsAhaba koI kAma nahIM karate, koI par3hAI nahIM krte| sukhI-saMpanna parivAra hai isalie dUsarI takalIpheM usako haiM nhiiN| unako ve loga acche aura premI lagate haiM, jo usase mIThI-mIThI bAteM karate haiM! jo usako priya zabdoM se bhare patra likhate haiN| jina logoM kA isake jIvananirmANa meM koI yogadAna nahIM hai, ve loga isako priya lagate haiN| maiM isa lar3ake ke mAtA-pitA ko jAnatA huuN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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55 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai lar3ake ke prati unako kitanA prema hai, yaha bhI maiM jAnatA hU~ | lar3akA yaha mAnane ko taiyAra nahIM! maiMne usake mAtA-pitA ko kahA : 'isako Apa karuNA bhAvanA se, ghara se mukta kro| usako una logoM ke pAsa jAne do, jinako yaha 'premapUrNa' mAna rahA hai| vahA~ unake saMga rahane do| isa AvArAgardI se vaha vahA~ kaba taka Tika sakatA hai aura ve premI loga kaba taka isako khilAte-pilAte haiM, anubhava karane do isko|' ___ paraMtu ve mAtA-pitA the na! unakA hRdaya premapUrNa thaa| unakI A~kheM DabaDabA gii| isa lar3ake kA jIvana barbAda na ho jAye... durlabha mAnava jIvana vyartha calA na jAye... durvyasana aura duSTasaMgati se jIvana pApamaya na bana jAye...' aisI bAteM prema ke binA kauna karatA bhalA? paraMtu usa lar3ake ko samajhAnA muzkila thA! ___ vyAvahArika prema aura hArdika prema meM bahuta bar3A antara hai| saMsAra meM z2yAdAtara loga vyAvahArika prema ko hI prema mAnate haiN| vizuddha hRdaya ke zuddha prema ko kauna jAnatA hai? nArada bhaktisUtra ke mAdhyama se isa zuddha prema ko samajhAte haiN| prema guNarahita, kAmanArahita honA caahie| pratikSaNa bar3hatA rahanA cAhie | avicchinna, sUkSmatara aura anubhavasvarUpa honA caahie| isa prakAra kA prema hI saccA prema hai| mere khayAla se terI zikAyatoM kA samAdhAna ho jaaegaa| jisake bhI mana meM vyAvahArika prema kI kalpanAe~ hotI haiM, ve loga isa prakAra kI zikAyata karate hI rahate haiN| vizuddha prema kI paribhASA isIlie to maiM samajhA rahA huuN| nirAza hone kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| 'aisA vizuddha prema to nahIM ho sktaa|' isa vicAra ko dimAga se bAhara pheMka de| azakya kA kartavyarUpa pratipAdana maharSi nahIM krte| zakya hai, aisA hRdaya banAnA aura aisA premarasa pragaTa krnaa| hA~, tU dUsaroM se aise prema kI apekSA karatA rahegA to aisA prema tujhe kahIM para bhI nahIM dikhAI degA | cU~ki yaha prema dekhA nahIM jA sktaa| yaha to anubhava kI bAta hai| tU svayaM anubhava kara skegaa| hRdaya ko vizuddha karane ke lie maitrI, pramoda, karuNA aura mAdhyasthya ina cAra bhAvanAoM se tere mana ko bhAvita kara de| jaba taka eka jIvAtmA ke prati bhI zatrutA kA bhAva rahegA, hRdaya vizuddha nahIM banegA / 'merA koI zatru nahIM hai| saba jIva mere mitra haiN| isa prakAra samagra jIvasRSTi ke prati mitratA kI snigdha For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 56 dRSTi banI rahanI cAhie / mitratA kyA hai ? sneha ! prema ! eka jJAnI puruSa ne mitratA kI paribhASA isa prakAra kI hai : snehapariNAmo maitrI | zatrutA nahIM honA, itanA hI paryApta nahIM hai, sneha honA anivArya hai / sabhI jIvoM ke prati sneha! hama eka jIva se zatrutA nahIM karate haiM, ThIka hai, paraMtu sneha nahIM karate, yaha aparAdha hai ! yaha sneha vyAvahArika nahIM hogA, hArdika hogA / vizuddha hRdaya kA prema hogA / vizuddha hRdaya ke prema ke pAtra saba jIva hoNge| svarga aura narka meM rahe hue, nigoda meM rahe hue, avyavahAra rAzi meM rahe hue ... tiryaMcagati aura manuSyagati meM rahe hue saba jIva ! isa viSaya meM maiM Age likhU~gA / vizuddha prema kA AdhAra hai, vizuddha hRdaya / hRdaya ko vizuddha karane kA amogha upAya hai, maitrI Adi cAra bhAvanAoM kA satata smrnn| Aja isa patra meM itanA hI likhatA hU~ / hama agAzI tIrtha meM Ae haiM / paramAtmA munisuvratasvAmI kI zyAma pratimA mana ko moha letI hai| udyAnoM kA hI yaha gA~va hai| zAMti hai, svasthatA hai / upadhAna tapa kI 47 dina kI dharmaArAdhanA ho rahI hai| kar3I tapazcaryA hai upadhAna kii| choTe bacce bhI haiM, yuvA haiM aura vRddha bhI haiN| do mahIne bIta jAe~ge yahA~ para / terA svAsthya acchA hogA / ciMtAe~ nahIM karanA / ciMtana karanA / mana kI nirogitA kI davAI hai, tattvaciMtana ! phAlatU vicAroM se mana ko azakta aura rogI nahIM banAnA cAhie / prasannatA banI rahe - yahI zubha kAmanA / For Private And Personal Use Only - priyadarzana

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57 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai @ jIvana jIne ke lie soca-samajhakara Ayojana karanA caahie| svayaM yadi na banA sake to kisI zraddheya vyakti ko apanA mArgadarzaka cuna lenA caahie| (r) jIvana saMsArI kA ho yA sAdhu kA, yadi AnaMda va prasannatA kI mastI meM jhUmate hue jInA hai, to hRdaya ko anAsakta, alipta evaM virakta banAnA hI hogaa| (r) jindagI kyA hai? abhinaya mAtra! jInA aise hai jaise abhinaya kara rahe haiM... aura abhinaya bhI jAnadAra karanA hai... abhinaya karane vAle ghaTanAoM kI galiyoM meM ghUmate jarUra hai... bhaTaka nahIM jAte! (r) duniyA meM 'AtmA' ke alAvA vAstavika hai kyA? kucha bhI nahIM! 'brahma satyaM jaganmithyA' yahA~ para satya lagatA hai! patra : 13 priya mumukssu| dharmalAbha, do mahIne dhArmika mahotsava meM vyatIta ho ge| patra likhane kA vicAra to kaI bAra AyA parantu nahIM likha skaa| do mahInoM meM manomaMthana to khUba huA, kaI divya vicAra bhI Ae.. abhivyakti to samaya milane para hI ho sakatI hai| ___ manuSya ko sarvaprathama yaha nirNaya karanA cAhie ki usako kaisA jIvana jInA hai| yadi svayaM nirNaya karane kI buddhi-zakti ho to svayaM nirNaya kareM, yadi vaisI buddhi-zakti nahIM hai, to apane zraddheya vyakti ke nirNaya ko mAnya kara lenA cAhie | yA to svayaM gAr3I calAnA sIkho athavA DrAivara ko gAr3I sauMpa do| dvidhA meM nahIM rahanA caahie| __ jIvana kA mArga spaSTa hone para maiM tujhe spaSTa mArgadarzana de sakatA huuN| phira bhI eka bAta kaha dUM ki jIvana saMsArI kA hoM yA sAdhu kA, yadi prasannatApUrvaka AnaMdapUrNa jIvana vyatIta karanA ho to hRdaya ko nirmama niHsaMga banAnA hogaa| paradravya kA saMga aura mamatva hI to bhayaMkara azuddhi hai! ___ bAhya jIvana meM para dravyoM kA saMga rahegA hii| mamatva bhI dikhAnA pdd'egaa| pA~ca indriyoM ke aneka viSayoM kA saMparka hotA rahatA hai, indriyoM se bhale saMparka For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 58 ho, hRdaya se saMparka nahIM honA caahie| priya viSayoM kI icchAoM se hRdaya bhara gayA to azAMti, kleza aura saMtApa se bhara jAoge! ___ kahIM bhI hRdaya se baMdhanA nahIM! nirbaMdhana raho / bAhyadRSTi se bhale baMdhana dikhe duniyA ko, hama ko nirbaMdhana rahane kA! azakya nahIM hai yaha bAta / Antarika puruSArtha se saMbhavita hai, zakya hai| mithilA ke rAjA janaka kA eka prasaMga yAda AtA hai| janaka 'videha' kahalAte the| dehadhArI the, phira bhI 'videha' kahalAte the| isakA artha samajhA tU? duniyA unako dehadhArI dekhatI thI, janaka svayaM 'yaha deha maiM nahIM hU~, deha se bhinna saccidAnaMda svarUpa AtmA hU~ maiN|' aisA mAnate the, samajhate the| unako AtmAnubhUti huI thii| isako 'bhedajJAna' kahate haiN| janaka rAjA the, rAjya ko saMbhAlate the, prajA kA pAlana karate the, apane sabhI kartavyoM kA bhI pAlana karate the| parantu unakA hRdaya thA nirlepa aura niHsNg| eka bAra mithilA meM eka vidvAna saMtapuruSa aae| saMta acche prabhAvazAlI pravaktA the| hajAroM nagarajana unakA pravacana sunane jAte the| saMtapuruSa kI eka vizeSatA yaha thI ki ve pravacana denA taba zurU karate the, jaba mahArAjA janaka padhArate the! yadi janaka derI se Ate to pravacana derI se zurU hotA, yadi samaya para Ate to pravacana samaya para zurU ho jaataa| dUsare zrotAoM ko yaha paddhati akharatI thii| Apasa meM loga saMtapuruSa kI isa Adata kI AlocanA bhI karate the| saMta ko zrotAoM kI manaHsthiti kA jJAna thA / eka dina kI bAta hai| saMta kA prabhAvazAlI pravacana ho rahA thA, mahArAjA janaka aura nagaravAsI hajAroM loga jJAnagaMgA meM nimagna the| acAnaka do AdamI daur3ate hue pravacana maMDapa meM ghusa gae aura jora se cillAe : 'daur3o...daur3o... nagara meM bhayaMkara Aga lagI hai! mahArAjA ke aMtaHpura meM bhI Aga lagI hai...!' sabhI loga ghabarAe aura uTha-uThakara bhAgane lge| sArA pravacana maMDapa khAlI ho gayA...mAtra mahArAjA janaka baiThe rahe, ve nahIM ge| saMta kA pravacana calatA rhaa| loga saba apane-apane muhalle meM phuNce| dekhA to Aga kA nAmonizAna nahIM thA! logoM ne socA ki 'una do puruSoM ne apanA upahAsa kiyaa...|' dhIre-dhIre loga pravacana maMDapa meM Ane lge| jaba pravacana pUrNa huA, saMta ne janaka ko pUchA : 'Aga lagane ke samAcAra sunakara ye saba loga cale gae, Apa kyoM nahIM gae? Apa ke antaHpura meM bhI Aga lagane ke samAcAra die the una puruSoM ne|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai mahArAjA janaka ne pratyuttara diyA : 'he mahAtman, jaba maiM yahA~ AtA hU~, jUtA bAhara utAra kara AtA hU~, vaise mamatA bhI bAhara utAra kara AtA huuN| kisakA mahala? kisakA antaHpura? kisakA parivAra? maiM jo hU~ isa pArthiva duniyA se bhinna huuN| isa zarIra se bhI bhinna huuN| gurudeva, jo merA nahIM hai, jo maiM nahIM hU~, vaha jala bhI jAe to mujhe kyA? merA kucha bhI jalatA nahIM hai| phira maiM kyoM jAU~ yahA~ se?' saMta prasanna ho ge| unhoMne dUsare zrotAoM ko kahA : 'aba Apa loga samajha gae hoMge ki maiM, mahArAjA janaka ke Ane ke bAda hI pravacana kyoM zurU karatA huuN|' loga natamastaka ho ge| janaka ne apanA hRdaya kaisA niHsaMga banAyA hogA? hama ko apanA hRdaya vaisA niHsaMga aura nirlepa banAnA hogA, tabhI zAMti, svasthatA aura prasannatA kA anubhava kara skeNge| janaka kI bAta yadi bahuta purAnI lagatI ho aura aMtarAtmA ko sparza nahIM karatI ho to dUsarA udAharaNa tere sAmane hai| sinemA aura nATaka meM kAma karane vAle abhinetA aura abhinetriyA~ hotI hai na? maMca para ve loga saba prakAra kA abhinaya karate haiM, parantu unakA hRdaya bilkula nirlepa rahatA hai! ve loga ha~sate haiM aura rote haiM, kyA unakA hRdaya ha~satA hai? rotA hai? nahIM, ha~sane kA mAtra abhinaya! rone kA mAtra abhinaya! ve loga 'maMca' para zAdI bhI karate haiM aura mara bhI jAte haiM! kyA ve hRdaya se zAdI karate haiM? mRtyu kI vedanA hRdaya anubhava karatA hai kyA? nahIM, zAdI kA mAtra abhinaya! marane kA bhI abhinaya! dekhane vAloM ke hRdaya para bhale AghAta ho, abhinetA ke hRdaya para koI AghAta nahIM! yaha saMsAra eka raMgamaMca hai, 'sTeja' hai| usa para hama bhinna-bhinna prakAra ke abhinaya kara rahe haiM! janma-jIvana aura mRtyu... saba abhinaya hai| vAstavikatA kucha nahIM! upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI ne 'jJAnasAra' meM kahA hai : ____ pazyanneva paradravyanATakaM prtipaattkN| bhavacakrapurastho'pi nAmUr3ha: parikhidyate / / 'saMsAra kI galI-galI meM paradravyoM kA nATaka dekho! dekhate hI raho! darzaka bane raho! Apako kleza nahIM hogA!' For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 60 mujhe yaha tattvajJAna itanA acchA aura vAstavika lagA hai ki maiM tujhe kina zabdoM meM likhU~ ? isakI prazaMsA ke zabda mere pAsa nahIM haiN| mujhe batA, yaha saMsAra eka nATaka nahIM hai to kyA hai? eka abhinetA apane jIvana meM jitane abhinaya karatA hai, usase aneka z2yAdA abhinaya jIvAtmA karatA hai| pharka itanA hai ki jIvAtmA ko jJAna nahIM hai ki vaha abhinaya kara rahA hai / abhinetA ko jJAna hotA hai ki vaha abhinaya kara rahA hai| jIvAtmA jo kucha karatA hai vAstavika mAna, kara karatA hai / saMsAra meM kyA vAstavika hai ? AtmA ke alAvA saba mithyA hai, asat hai, kAlpanika hai| 'brahma satyaM jaganmithyA !' vedAnta kA yaha sUtra isa saMdarbha meM kitanA satya aura paripUrNa hai / jagat ko mithyA samajho, asat smjho| eka abhinetA samrATa azoka banakara nATaka ke raMgamaMca para AtA hai, darzakoM kI dRSTi meM vaha samrATa azoka hotA hai, parantu vaha svayaM apane Apako samajhatA hai ki vaha kauna hai | vaha apane Apako 'samrATa azoka' satyarUpa meM nahIM mAnatA hai, isalie parade ke bhItara jaba vaha jAtA hai, to binA hicakicAhaTa ke samrATa kI vezabhUSA utAra detA hai / yadi usako bAda meM bhikhArI kA abhinaya karanA hotA hai, to vaha bhikhArI banakara raMgamaMca para jaaegaa| usake dila meM koI raMja nahIM hogA / hama to saccidAnaMda svarUpa AtmA haiM / hama mAnavarUpa meM abhinaya kara rahe haiM, dUsare jIva, koI pazurUpa meM, koI nArakarUpa meM, koI devarUpa meM abhinaya kara rahe haiN| apane meM se koI pitA kA, koI mAtA kA, koI putra kA, koI pati kA, koI patnI kA ... abhinaya kara rahA hai| koI dhanavAna kA, koI garIba kA, koI balavAna kA, koI nirbala kA... abhinaya kara rahA hai| saca kucha bhI nahIM hai, saca hai mAtra AtmA ! yadi yaha dRSTi khula jAye to hI hRdaya nirlepa aura niHsaMga raha sakegA / hRdaya se nirlepa aura niHsaMga rahane ke lie yaha cintana satata karanA hogA / bana gayA hRdaya nirlepa, basa, phira duniyA meM kucha bhI ho jAe ! kaisA bhI khUnakharAbA pikcara meM Ae, hama ko kyA hotA hai ? kucha nahIM / vaise duniyA meM kucha bhI ho jAye, apane zarIra ko koI jalA bhI de, apanA sArA parivAra naSTa ho jAye, sArI sampatti calI jAye, kucha bhI ho jAye, nirlepa aura niHsaMga hRdaya duHkhI nahIM hogA / azuddha hRdaya, jar3asaMgI aura viSavAsanA se lipta hRdaya hI duHkhI aura For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 61 azAMta banatA hai| priya Atman! Aja maiMne naI hI bAta tujhe likhI hai| tere prazna ke anusandhAna meM jo maitrI, pramoda, karuNA aura mAdhyasthya, ina bhAvoM para likhanA hai, so Age likhuugaa| likhane kA 'mUDa' bhI aba dhIre-dhIre A rahA hai| cintana khUba cala rahA hai| abhI kucha samaya sAgara kinAre ke ramaNIya pradeza meM AlAdaka vAtAvaraNa meM vyatIta ho rahA hai| terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| 16-2-77 - zrI priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 62 * ni:saMga, nirlepa aura anAsakta hRdaya meM zuSkatA yA rukSatA nahIM hotI... vahA~ para karuNA kI ArdratA rahatI hai...sneha kI siktatA rahatI hai! (r) eSaNA aura etarAjI hamezA svArtha va zoSaNa kA tAnA-bAnA bunate rahate haiM! (r) maitrI kA artha hai, auroM ke hita kI cintA krnaa| dUsaroM kI bhalAI ke bAre __ meM mAtra socanA hI nahIM... varan prayatna bhI krnaa| (r) sahanazIlatA evaM samarpaNa kI sudRr3ha nIMva para hI maitrI kA mahala sthira raha sakatA hai| @ kAmanArahita, spRhArahita aura icchArahita hRdaya se hI maitrI kA riztA racAnA saMbhava ho skegaa| patra : 14 priya mumukssu| dharmalAbha, terA patra milaa| gatAnugatika jIvana vyatIta karane vAloM ke lie yaha mArgadarzana nahIM hai| mAtra vaiSayika aura kASAyika jIvanayApana karane meM AnaMda mAnane vAloM ke lie yaha preraNA-srota nahIM hai| niHsaMga aura nirlepa jIvana ke viSaya meM eka bhramaNA phailI hai ki 'vaisA jIvana zuSka hotA hai, vaise jIvana meM koI AnaMda nahIM hotaa|' yaha mAtra bhramaNA hai, mithyA kalpanA hai| niHsaMga aura nirlepa hRdaya meM zuSkatA nahIM hotI hai, paraMtu karuNA hotI hai, ArdratA hotI hai| vahA~ nirAzA nahIM hotI hai, paraMtu jIvamaitrI kA divya AnaMda hotA hai| tU sthira citta se gaharAI meM jAkara socegA to hI yaha bAta samajha meM aaegii| acchA, kSaNabhara mAna leM ki niHsaMga aura nirlepa jIvana meM majA nahIM AtA hai, to kyA rAgapUrNa aura Asakti pUrNa jIvana meM majA AtA hai? rAga aura Asakti kitanA mAnasika tanAva paidA karatI hai, kyA mujhe batAnA par3egA? duniyA kyoM duHkhI hai? kyoM hara vyakti duHkha aura azAMti kI zikAyata karatA hai? sukhoM ke prati rAga hai, prApta sukhoM meM pragAr3ha Asakti hai| duHkhoM ke prati dveSa hai aura duHkhoM kI kalpanA kA bhaya hai| isI se manuSya For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai duHkhI hai| mAnanA hI pdd'egaa| isalie niHsaMga aura nirlepa hRdaya se jIvana vyatIta karane ko kahatA huuN| ___saMsAra ke jIvoM ke prati maitrI, pramoda, karuNA aura mAdhyasthya bhAva bhI aise hI hRdaya meM jAgRta hote haiN| ni:saMga aura nirlepa hRdaya meM hI dUsare jIvoM ke hita kA, sukha kA vicAra A sakatA hai| cUMki unakA svayaM kA koI svArtha nahIM hotA, svayaM kI koI eSaNA nahIM hotii| jisako svayaM kA hita sAdhanA hotA hai, vaha dUsare jIvoM kA hita-vicAra nahIM kara sktaa| maitrI kI anivArya zarta hai, parahitacintA / dUsare jIvoM kA ahita na ho, yaha bhI hitacintA hI hai| 'mere se kisI bhI jIva kA ahita na ho,' yaha bhAvanA nirmohI aura asaMgI AtmA meM hI jAgRta ho sakatI hai| mohAndha aura pudgalasaMgI jIva to apane hI sukhoM kA vicAra karatA hai| apane hI svArtha sAdhane kA socatA hai| isakA artha yaha hai ki maitrIbhAva... saccA maitrIbhAva nirmohI aura asaMgI hRdaya meM hI jAgRta hotA hai| zreSThI sudarzana kA hRdaya aisA hI honA cAhie, anyathA rAnI abhayA ko bacAne ke lie kalaMka aura sajA apane para nahIM lete| abhayA ne sudarzana ko saMkaTa meM DAla diyA thaa| sudarzana kA apaharaNa karavAyA thA aura apane mahala meM, rAtri ke samaya abhayA ne sudarzana se kAmakrIr3A kI prArthanA kI thii| jaba sudarzana mauna rahe, nirvikAra rahe, abhayA ne strIcaritra AjamAyA... ho-hallA kara diyA aura sudarzana ko sainikoM se pakar3avA diyaa| sAre nagara meM sudarzana zreSThI kA nAma thaa| nagara meM sudarzana kI nindA hone lgii| sudarzana ko rAjasabhA meM rAjA ke sAmane khar3e kara die ge| rAjA ne kahA : 'sudarzana, Apa mahAna zrAvaka haiN| Apa ke prati mere hRdaya meM sneha aura zraddhA hai| Apa kabhI asatya nahIM bolte| kahie, isa bAta meM satya kyA hai| Apa jo kaheMge, maiM use hI satya maanuuNgaa|' sudarzana ne socA : yadi maiM satya bAta kaha dU~gA to rAnI aparAdhinI siddha hogii| kAmavAsanA-paravaza rAnI ne saba kucha kiyA hai... mohavAsanA meM jIva andhA ho jAtA hai| andhA manuSya kabhI bhI gira jAtA hai... usameM jJAna bhI nahIM hai| rAjA rAnI ko zUlI pe laTakA degA... ArtadhyAna aura raudradhyAna meM rAnI maregI... mara kara durgati meM calI jAegI.. duHkhI-duHkhI ho jaaegii..| nahIM, nahIM, maiM usakA nAma nahIM dUMgA.. aparAdha ko mauna svIkAra kara lU~gA... sudarzana kA hRdaya niHsaMga aura nirlepa thA, isalie unako apane jIvana kA, apanI patnI kA, putroM kA vicAra nahIM AyA... aparAdhinI rAnI kA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 64 vicAra AyA! 'vaha marakara durgati meM na calI jAye... 'rAnI kA ahita na ho'yaha vicAra aayaa| yadi hRdaya meM apane sukhoM kI mamatA hotI, apane jIvana ke prati moha hotA to unako dUsarA hI vicAra AtA! 'rAjA pUchatA hai to mujhe saca-saca batA denI cAhie... maiM kyoM jhUTha bolU~? rAnI ne mere sAtha ghora anyAya kiyA hai... maiM nirdoSa hU~... mere Upara jhUThA kalaMka mar3ha diyA...bhale vaha apane pApa kA phala bhoge... car3hane do zUlI pe...|' aisA eka bhI vicAra sudarzana ko nahIM aayaa| kaise AtA? niHsaMga aura nirlepa hRdaya vAle manuSyoM ke vicAra divya hote haiM, nirAle hote haiN| usakI maitrI advitIya aura pavitratama hotI hai| sahanazIlatA aura samarpaNa kI sudRr3ha nIMva para maitrI kA mahala Tika sakatA hai| khar3A raha sakatA hai| sudarzana kI sahanazIlatA kitanI apUrva thI? unakA samarpaNa kitanA bhavya thA? abhayA ke hita kA vicAra unake eka-eka Atmapradeza meM vyApta ho gayA thaa| rAjA ne zUlI para car3hane kI sajA sunAI.. sudarzana zUlI para car3hane cala diye... usa dRzya ko kalpanA meM lAkara dekho to sahI... unake hRdaya meM maitrIbhAva kA mahAsAgara hilore le rahA hogA... unake mukha para teja camaka rahA hogA... unake eka-eka kadama meM dRr3hatA aura vIratA pratIta hotI hogii| aparAdhinI aisI rAnI ke prati aisA maitrIbhAva? niraparAdhI ke prati apane hRdaya meM aisA maitrIbhAva prakaTa hotA hai? dUsare jIvoM kA ahita na ho, aisA vicAra AtA hai? jIvamAtra ke prati prema jAgRta hue binA maitrI kaisI hogI? kisI kA bhI mitra banane kA dAvA karane se pUrva apane hRdaya ko ttttolnaa| hRdaya spRhArahita, kAmanArahita, mamatArahita banA hai? yadi aisA hRdaya nahIM hai, to tU dUsaroM ko mitra ke rUpa meM dhokhA hI degaa| jahA~ tujhe terA hita nahIM dikhegA, terA koI svArtha naSTa hotA huA dekhegA, mitratA havA bana kara AkAza meM ur3a jaaegii| mitra banAne kI bhI yaha dRSTi apnaanaa| asaMkhya kAmanAoM se aura spRhAoM se bhare hue manuSyoM ko yadi mitra banAe aura vizvAsa kara liyA to burI taraha phaMsa jaaegaa| paraMtu tU bhI kisI na kisI svArtha se prerita hokara mitratA cAhatA hai na? terA hRdaya niHsvArtha kahA~ hai? hai hRdaya niHsvArtha? terI icchAe~, terI vAsanAe~ jo pUrNa karate haiM, ve mitra! jisako 'prema' kahA jAtA hai, vaha prema nirmohI aura niHsaMga hRdaya meM hI ho sakatA hai| prema kA eka rUpa hai maitrI, dUsarA rUpa hai karuNA, tIsarA rUpa hai pramoda aura cauthA rUpa hai mAdhyastha / ye cAroM bhAva prema ke hI vibhinna rUpa haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 65 prema ke binA ye cAroM meM se eka bhI bhAva Tika nahIM sakatA / prema virATa hai / koI eka-do yA pA~ca-pacAsa vyakti meM sImita nahIM raha sakatA / jIva mAtra ke prati prema phailatA hai| prema kA kSetra hai, saMpUrNa brahmAMDa, paripUrNa jIva raashi| saurASTra meM 'mastarAma' nAma ke eka saMta ho ge| unake zarIra meM eka phor3A huaa| phor3e meM asaMkhya kIr3e par3a ge| unako vedanA hotI thI parantu z2yAdA cintA hotI thI una asaMkhya kIr3oM kI / ' ye becAre bhUkhe mara jAe~ge..' isalie ve besana-cane kA ATA lAkara usa phor3e meM bharate the / mastarAmajI kI jJAnadRSTi una kIr3oM meM bhI 'AtmA' kA darzana karatI thI / una kIr3oM ke prati prema thA / usa prema meM ve apanI zArIrika vedanA bhUla gae ! vedanA kI anubhUti hone para sahanazIlatA kA sahArA lete| koI auSadha upacAra nahIM krvaayaa| kisI bhakta ko phor3A batAyA bhI nahIM / parantu bhAvanagara ke mahArAjA takhtasiMhajI mastarAmajI ke parama bhakta the| unhoMne aMgreja sarjana ke dvArA, mastarAmajI ko behoza karake, phor3e kA oNparezana karavA diyA ! jaba mastarAmajI hoza meM Ae.. aura unako mAlUma huA ki phor3e ko kATa diyA gayA hai aura saba kIr3e mAra die gae haiM... unako itanA gaharA AghAta lagA ki turanta hI unakI mRtyu ho gaI / jinake prati saccI maitrI yA karuNA hotI hai, unake duHkha se duHkhI hue binA nahIM raha sktaa| unakA duHkha dUra karane kA prayatna hue binA nahIM rahatA / svayaM duHkha sahana karake bhI dUsaroM kA duHkha dUra karane kA prayatna ho hI jAtA hai! prema karavAtA hai vaha prayatna / caitanya ke prati prema, jIvatva ke prati prema tere hRdaya ko AnaMda se paripUrNa kara degA, prayoga karake dekhanA / hRdaya ko niHsaMga aura nirmohI banAne kA prayatna karegA? usa prayatna meM anitya, azaraNa, ekatva, anyatva aura azuci Adi bAraha bhAvanAoM kA pratidina ciMtana karanA / isa ciMtana meM 'zAMta sudhArasa' nAma kA saMskRta geya mahAkAvya tere lie upayogI bnegaa| isakA gujarAtI evaM hindI bhASA meM anuvAda - vivecana bhI chapa gaye haiN| svAsthya anukUla hai| ina dinoM meM paramAtmatattva ke prati vizeSa AkarSaNa aura zaraNabhAva pragaTa ho rahA hai| mana kI prasannatA bar3hatI jAtI hai| terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| 9-3-77 For Private And Personal Use Only priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai (r) du:khoM se Darakara palAyana kara jAnA... koI buddhimattA yA sujJatA nahIM hai... samatAbhAva meM racapaca kara du:khoM kA aura pratikUla paristhitiyoM kA sAmanA karanA, yahI vIratA kI nizAnI hai| @ kalpanAoM kA hI nahIM varan vAstavika svarga bhI to alpajIvI hotA hai... phira usakA bhI AkarSaNa kyA? * aksara pratikUla sthiti meM prANa paramAtmA kA naikaTya pAne ke lie pUrI taraha vihvala ho uThate haiM! (r) nirvaira bhAva kI sAdhanA-ArAdhanA anivArya hai isa jIvana meM! isake binA maitrI kA bhAva sthira bananA asaMbhava hai| (r) paramAtmA ke acintya anugraha ke lie aMta:karaNa se prArthanA karate rahanA... yahI eka sahArA hai, duniyAdArI ke jalate registAna meM jIne ke lie! patra : 15 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, terA patra milaa| patra likhane meM vilaMba ho hI gayA! terI zikAyata ucita hai... mujhe patralekhana meM vilaMba nahIM karanA cAhie, maiM mAnatA huuN| aba merA yaha prayatna rahegA ki vilaMba na ho| patra likhate-likhate terI nirdoSa aura sneha pUrNa mukhAkRti mere sAmane sAkAra bana jAtI hai, hRdaya prasannatA se bhara jAtA hai| tere sAmane apAra pArivArika samasyAe~ haiM, phira bhI tU udAsIna bhAva meM apane kartavyoM kA pAlana kara rahA hai aura paramAtmatattva ke prati bhaktipUrNa banatA jA rahA hai... yaha jAnakara maiM prasanna ho gyaa| terI jJAnapUta sahanazIlatA kI kitanI sarAhanA karU~? terA patra par3hate-par3hate merA mana tIvra udvega se bhara gayA thA aura 'ghara chor3akara mere pAsa cale Ane kA' likhane kI prabala icchA ho AyI thI, parantu maiMne socA ki isa prakAra duHkha-bhaya se bhAganA ucita nhiiN| isameM buddhimattA nahIM, jJAna kA mArga nhiiN| duHkhoM se dUra bhAgane kI icchA hI kamajorI hai| duHkhoM ko samatAbhAva se sahana karane meM vIratA hai| sacamuca tUne vIratA kI mujhe pratIti karA hI dI! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 67 tU likhatA hai ki 'usake prati aba maitrIbhAva jAgRta nahIM hotA hai... kabhIkabhI mana meM usake prati ghRNA ho jAtI hai...|' manuSya svabhAva meM yaha saba honA svAbhAvika hai| apane prati tiraskAra karane vAloM ke prati, apanA tejovadha karane vAloM ke prati, apanI kaTu AlocanA karane vAloM ke prati maitrI kA, prema kA bhAva TikanA ati muzkila hai| unake prati ghora ghRNA honA bhI asvAbhAvika nhiiN| unake sAtha jIvana vyatIta karanA bhI yAtanApUrNa lagatA hai| tere prati vAtsalya aura sneha hone se, tujhe isa prakAra kI yAtanAoM se mukta karane kI prabala icchA ho jAtI hai / parantu jaba maiMne thor3e dina pUrva socA to mere mana meM vicAra AyA ki 'kyA maiM usako apane pAsa bulA lU~ to usakI yAtanAoM kA anta A jAegA? mAnasika vedanAoM se maiM usako mukta kara sakU~gA? usake ujar3ate jIvana ko harAbharA banA sakU~gA? yadi hA~, to yahA~ kyA kabhI bhI usake mana meM vikalpa paidA nahIM hoMge ? yahA~ kabhI bhI mAnasika vyathA paidA nahIM hogI? yadi hogI to phira vaha kahA~ jAegA?' aise to aneka vicAra Ae ! khaira, tU yadi mere pAsa A jAye to maiM vizeSa rUpa se sahayogI bana sakU~gA aura terI mAnasika duniyA ko badala bhI dU~gA.. parantu abhI kyA yaha saMbhava hai? ThIka hai, thor3e dinoM ke lie tU A sakatA hai, phira bhI vahA~ jAnA par3egA na? na cAhate hue bhI jAnA par3egA na ? manuSya ke jIvana meM aisA hotA hI rahatA hai / tU jAnatA hai ki vaha abhI sudharane vAlA nahIM hai| usakA svabhAva bhI sudharane vAlA nahIM hai| tere prati usakI jo doSadRSTi banI huI hai, vaha miTane vAlI nahIM hai| usakI burI AdateM sudharane vAlI nahIM haiM... aisI paristhiti meM tujhe jIvana jInA hai! tU jIvana jI rahA hai ! lAkha lAkha dhanyavAda hai tujhe ! terA kahanA yathArtha hai ki 'rahane ko bar3A baMgalA hai, do-do kAra, kharca karane ko paise haiM, manacAhe vastra mila sakate haiM... ghara meM naukara haiM ... yaha saba hote hue bhI maiM apane Apako duHkhI aura azAMta mahasUsa karatA hU~... mujhe yaha vaibhava nahIM milatA to koI aphasosa nahIM hotA ... manavAMchita sneha aura sadbhAva, tyAga aura samarpaNa mila jAtA to...' to kyA hotA? tujhe svarga mila jAtA, zAyada ? parantu mokSa nahIM milatA / svarga bhI to kSaNika hai na! svarga zAzvata nahIM ! mokSa-mukti zAzvata hai| jaba taka baMdhanoM meM sukha kI kalpanA banI huI hai taba taka mukti priya nahIM lagatI / tU yaha vicAra kara ki yadi tere parivAra ke sadasyoM kA prema tujhe milatA to tU paramAtmA ke prema ko pAne kA itanA prayatna karatA ? paramAtmabhakti meM itanI T For Private And Personal Use Only

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68 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai lInatA AtI? Aja tU jisa prakAra dardapUrNa hRdaya se aura azrupUrNa nayanoM se paramAtmA ko pukAratA hai, kyA yaha saMbhava hotA? usake prati ghRNA nahIM, vaira nahIM, parantu nirvairabhAva banAe rakhanA hai| bhale maitrI yA sneha jAgRta na ho, nirvairabhAva jAgRta kara le| 'mujhe usake prati koI roSa nahIM hai, zikAyata nahIM hai, vaha bhI karmAdhIna manuSya hai| vaha karmaprerita hokara bhUla kara rahA hai, usakI AtmA kA koI doSa nahIM hai| kyA mere pApakarmoM kA udaya to usakI bhUloM meM nimitta nahIM hogA? mere mana meM usake prati koI vairabhAvanA nahIM caahie|' isa prakAra kI vicAradhArA tere AtmabhAva ko nirmala banA degii| usa mahAsatI aMjanA kA jIvanacaritra tUne par3hA hai na? bAIsa-bAIsa varSa taka pati pavanaMjaya kA viraha sahana karane vAlI usa aMjanA ke hRdaya meM pavanaMjaya ke prati koI roSa nahIM huA! pavanaMjaya ke hRdaya meM aMjanA ke prati ghora ghRNA thI, tiraskAra thA, parantu aMjanA kA hRdaya nirvaira thaa| aMjanA bhI mAnava strI thI na? vaha bhI saMsArI nArI thii| saMsAra ke vaiSayika sukhoM kI kAmanA se to usane pavanaMjaya se zAdI kI thI, yAnI vaha koI virakta sAdhvI nahIM thii| aisI rAjakumArI aMjanA ne, usakA tyAga kara dene vAle pati ke prati 22-22 varSa taka koI zikAyata nahIM kI thI, koI dveSa nahIM kiyA thaa| __yaha saMbhavita bAta hai, asaMbhavita bAta nahIM hai| jJAnadRSTi khulane para yaha saMbhava hai| nirvairabhAva kI ArAdhanA jIvana meM ati Avazyaka hai| jIvana meM tapa hai, tyAga hai, zIla hai, zAstrajJAna hai parantu nirvairabhAva nahIM hai to bhavasAra meM DUba jaaeNge| durgatiyoM meM cale jaaeNge| tapa-tyAga aura saMyama hameM bacA nahIM skegaa| dAna-zIla hamArI rakSA nahIM kara skegaa| usa samarAdityakevalI caritra meM agnizarmA kA pAtra AtA hai na? itanA ugra tapa karane vAlA, indriyanigraha karanevAlA, aneka vrataniyama dhAraNa karane vAlA vaha agnizarmA kyoM bhavasAgara meM DUba gayA? vairabhAva ne usako durgati meM paTaka diyaa| rAjA guNasena ke prati vairabhAva jAgRta ho gayA, guNasena ko vaha kSamA nahIM de sakA, bhaTaka gayA saMsAra ke bIhar3a jaMgala meN| __hA~, apanI koI bhUla nahIM hai, sAmane vAle kI bhUla hai, phira bhI usake prati vairabhAva nahIM rakhanA hai| vairabhAva kI bhUla nahIM ho jAye, isa bAta kI pratipala jAgRti rahanI cAhie | usake prati bhale prema na ho, bhale maitrI na ho, parantu nirvairabhAva to cAhie hii| aparAdhI kA hama hita nahIM kara sakeM, calegA, ahita to nahIM kreN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 69 rAjA guNasena jAgRta thA, usako khayAla thA ki agnizarmA usake prati ghora dveSa dhAraNa kie baiThA hai, phira bhI guNasena ne usake prati dveSa nahIM kiyA / isase guNasena AtmavikAsa karate rahe aura nauveM bhava meM sarvajJa - vItarAga bana gae! bhavasAgara ko taira gae / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir priya mumukSu, terI vartamAna paristhiti meM itanI jAgRti honA ati Avazyaka hai| terI sahanazIlatA nirvairabhAva se z2yAdA dRr3ha - nizcala banegI / terI mAnasika duniyA sukhapUrNa bnegii| mere isa patra kA artha yaha mata samajhanA ki maiM tujhe apane pAsa rakhanA nahIM caahtaa| maiM to cAhatA hU~ ki tU mere pAsa hI rhe| mere pAsa rahane se mujhe bahuta prasannatA rahegI, aura jaba paramAtmA kA acintya anugraha hogA taba tU mere pAsa A hI jAegA ! tujhe koI nahIM roka sakegA / tU jaba cAhe taba mere pAsa A sakatA hai / mere hRdaya ke dvAra tere lie khule hI haiN| 24-4-77, jhagaDIyA tIrtha tere pAsa samaya hai, tU samaya kA sadupayoga kr| kucha tattvajJAna kI pustaka par3ha le| kucha likhanA bhI cAlU kara / tU 'grejyueTa' hai, acchA likha sakatA hai| tere vicAroM ko likha kara mere pAsa bhejatA rahe / usa vyakti ke vicAra hI nahIM Ae~ge tere mana meN| acchA, tU to gIta bhI likhatA hai na? paramAtmabhakti ke kitane acche gIta likhe haiM tU ne ? mere pAsa bhejanA ve gIta, maiM bhI gAU~gA una gItoM ko| terA banAyA huA gIta maiMne eka bhAI ke kaMTha se sunA hai ! bahuta pyArA lagA thA vaha gIta / terI prasannatA banI rahe, yahI merI hArdika kAmanA / For Private And Personal Use Only - priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 70 (r) jindagI kabhI bhI bojha na bane... tanAva yA khicAva kA zikAra na bane... isa taraha apane Apako samajhA lenA caahie| jIvana kA rasa sUkhanA nahIM cAhie... jIvana ekAdha pala bhI nIrasa yA zuSka nahIM ho jAnA caahie| jIvana kA hara eka pala rasAnubhUti se sarAbora rahe yaha z2arUrI hai! (r) kisI bhI prakAra kA vyasana nahIM caahie| vyasanoM kI gulAmI meM phaMsa kara AdamI apane Apako duHkhI evaM azAMta banA DAlate haiM! (r) kisI ke bhI sAtha bAtacIta karate samaya vAdavivAda meM nahIM ulajhanA cAhie! saMvAda meM majA hai... isake lie apanI hI bAta kA Agraha khatarA bana jAtA hai| patra : 16 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, vahA~ pahu~cane ke pazcAta terA likhA huA patra milA | merA svAsthya acchA hai, vihArayAtrA nirAbAdha rahI hai| tU mere pAsa AyA aura calA gayA... terI udvigna AtmA prazAMta banI, terA saMtapta mana zItala banA, basa, maiM yahI cAhatA huuN| jIvana bojhila nahIM bananA cAhie, bhArarUpa nahIM bananA cAhie | koI tanAva nahIM! koI tIvratA nahIM! tere jAne ke bAda eka sAdhaka puruSa mile| karIbana 20 varSa se unhoMne saMsAra tyAga kara, tyAgamaya jIvana jInA prArambha kiyaa| ve tyAgI haiM, ve vairAgI bhI haiM, ve tapasvI bhI haiM...parantu jaba unase merI bAta huI...rAta ke do baje taka hama bAteM karate rahe, unakA hRdaya bhArI-bhArI thA! unakA mana saMtapta thA! unako aneka zikAyateM thIM, unakI apanI kaI AkAMkSAe~ thI, jo, apUrNa thI'...isase ve behada azAMta the! jIvana... tyAgamaya jIvana bhI unako bhAra rUpa bana gayA thA! mujhe lagA ki ve jIvana ko ghasITa rahe the... unakA jIvana svAbhAvika nahIM thA, asvAbhAvikatA ko ve banAe rakhanA cAhate the| unake pAsa raTe hue kucha granthoM kA jJAna thA parantu anuprekSA se AtmasAta kiyA huA jJAna nahIM thaa| ve mAnate the ki unake pAsa samyagdarzana hai parantu ve kisI ko bhI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 71 samyagdRSTi se dekha nahIM sakate the! ve kisI vyakti ke viSaya meM guNadRSTi se soca nahIM sakate the / sahavartI sAdhakoM kI bAhyakriyAoM ke AdhAra para, bAhya kAryakalApoM para ve apanI dhAraNA nizcita kara lete the| sarvatra burAI hI burAI unako najara AtI thii| maiMne unako eka kissA sunAyA Apane makkA aura madInA kA nAma sunA hogA / madInA meM husena basarAI nAma kA phakIra prasiddha thA / pahu~cA huA phakIra thaa| eka bAra husena phirate hue eka nadI ke kinAre pahu~ce / nadI ke kinAre eka yuvA baiThA thA, usake pAsa eka praur3hA strI baiThI thii| yuvaka ke pAsa eka botala thI, botala vaha pI rahA thA / husena ekaTaka usa puruSa ko dekha rahe the, unake mukha para ghRNA ke bhAva A ge| 'yaha svayaM zarAba pItA hai aura mahilA ko bhI zAyada pilaaegaa...|' husena phakIra the, unako zarAba aura zarAbI ke prati ghRNA honA svAbhAvika thA / itane meM dUsarI ghaTanA banI nadI ke pravAha meN| eka nAva meM sAta vyakti baiThakara nadI pAra kara rahe the, mArga meM nAva ulaTa gii| sAtoM vyakti DUbane lge| usa yuvaka ne isa karuNa dRzya ko dekhA / usakA hRdaya dravita ho gyaa| vaha pAnI meM kUda par3A, tairatA huA Age bddh'aa| DUbate hue una sAta manuSyoM meM se chaH manuSyoM ko usane bacA liyA / : phakIra husena dekhate raha gae ! itane meM usa yuvaka ne Akara husena ko kahA o mahApuruSa, tuma bar3e AdamI ho na? jAo sAtaveM puruSa ko tuma bacA lo.... kUda par3o pAnI meM! tuma apane Apako bahuta ucca puruSa mAnate ho...dUsaroM ko halkI dRSTi se dekhate ho... tumane mujhe zarAbI samajhA hai na? phakIra, isa botala meM zarAba nahIM parantu nadI kA pAnI hai aura yaha aurata dUsarI koI nahIM hai, merI mA~ hai! tuma bhUla gae phakIra, ki tumheM apane Apako ucca nahIM parantu nimnastara kA mAnanA caahie| tuma acche nahIM the isalie phakIra bane ho na ? acche hI hote to phakIra banane kI jarUrata hI nahIM thI / ' husena natamastaka ho ge| usa yuvaka ke caraNoM meM gira ge| apanI doSadRSTi kA unako khyAla A gayA / jo manuSya apane Apako saMta, mahAtmA, jJAnI... mAnatA hai, ve dUsaroM ke prati hIna dRSTi se dekhatA hai... isase usakA 'ahaM' hI puSTa hotA hai| vaha giratA hai / maiMne jaba yaha kissA sunAyA, ve vicAra meM par3a ge| parantu mujhe koI parivartana kI AzA nahIM hai| ye mahAtmA to kucha sarala hRdaya ke the parantu gUr3ha hRdaya vAle kaI aise 'mahAtmA' haiM ki jo bolate kucha nahIM... parantu unakA jIvana bojhila hotA hai / ve sahaja-svAbhAvika jIvana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 72 jInA pasaMda hI nahIM karate! aise kaI dUsare strI-puruSa bhI dikhAI deNge| jaba dimAga para asahya bhAra A jAtA hai, taba aise loga 'pAgala' bana jAte haiM yA 'brena hemareja' ke zikAra bana jAte haiN| usa mahAtmA kI bAta to prAsaMgika tujhe likha dI, tere jAne ke bAda turanta vaha ghaTanA ghaTI thI isalie likha dii| tujhe apane hRdaya ko, mana ko, mastiSka ko nirbojha rakhanA hai, isalie maiMne jo-jo upAya batAe haiM, una upAyoM ko bhUlanA mt| jIvana kA rasa sUkhanA nahIM caahie| pratikUlatAoM se bharA huA jIvana bhI nIrasa nahIM bane, to mAnanA ki jJAnadRSTi prApta huI hai| sAdhu jIvana svIkAra karane meM jo aneka prakAra kI yogyatAe~ apekSita hotI haiM, una yogyatAoM meM yaha bhI eka mahatvapUrNa yogyatA apekSita hai! pratikUla paristhitiyoM meM bhI jIvana nIrasa nahIM lge| khAlI... khAlI nahIM lge| parantu vaha sarasatA bhI vAsanAjanya nahIM honI cAhie, kaSAyajanya nahIM honI caahie| apane zramaNajIvana ke zaizavakAla meM maiMne eka mahAtmA aise dekhe the... unako dUsaroM kI nindA karane meM bharapUra rasa milatA thaa| jaba dekho taba doSadarzana aura doSakathana! 'paravRttAntAndhamUkabadhiraH' nahIM the ve, ve to svavRttAntAndhamUkabadhira the| jJAnI puruSoM ne dUsaroM ke lie andha, mUka aura badhira bane rahane ko kahA hai, ve apane hI viSaya meM andha, mUka aura badhira bane rahate the! parantu jIvana unakA sarasa thA! vaha rasa thA nindA kA! doSadarzana kA! maiM aisA sarasa jIvana banAne ko nahIM kaha rahA hU~ | guNadarzana kA rasa caahie| AtmaguNoM kA rasa cAhie | jo rasa azubha karmabandha nahIM karAe vaisA rasa cAhie | sAdhaka yadi jAgRta nahIM hotA hai to vikathAoM kA rasa use khUba pasanda A jAtA hai| vikathAoM ko to tU jAnatA hai na? strI-kathA, bhojanakathA, dezakathA aura rAjakathA / Age calakara bhaktakathA, upAzrayakathA... vagairaha aneka prakAra kI bAteM calatI rahatI haiN| bAteM karane kA bhI eka majedAra rasa hai | parantu yaha rasa azubha karmoM kA aisA pragAr3ha baMdha karavAtA hai ki AtmA kA bhaviSya duHkhamaya bana jAye | yaha rasa jJAnopAsanA kA rasa paidA nahIM hone detA hai | dhyAna meM bAdhaka bana jAtA hai| jisa kisI manuSya ko jJAna aura dhyAna meM lIna honA hai, usameM se rasAnubhUti karanA hai usako ina phAlatU bAtoM meM, apanA samaya nahIM bigAr3anA cAhie, vikathAoM se dUra rahanA caahie| citta meM aneka vikalpa paidA karane vAlI bAtoM se alipta rahanA cAhie / tU saMsArI hai, tere lie yaha bAta thor3I sI muzkila rhegii| saMsAra meM jahA~ bhI jAo.. 'vikathA' sAmAnya hotI hai| 'vikathA' koI burI bAta hai - yaha koI nahIM For Private And Personal Use Only

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73 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai mAnatA! jAnatA bhI hai to yaha niyama to sAdhupuruSoM ke lie hai'- aisA socakara maje se vikathA kA rasa lUTate haiN| phira jaba vikathAyeM karane vAlI 'kampanI' nahIM milatI hai taba vaha 'nIrasa' bana jAtA hai| bAteM karane vAlA koI nahIM milatA hai taba vo Uba jAtA hai| isalie isa vikathA ke vyasana meM mata pha~sanA / vyasanoM ke sahAre rasavRtti kA poSaNa karane vAle apane Apako du:khI aura azAMta karate haiN| tAza khelane kA rasa, sinemA dekhane kA rasa... vagairaha bure vyasana haiN| sAttvika pravRtti meM rasAnubhUti honI cAhie | mAno ki nivRtti meM majA nahIM AtA hai to satpravRtti meM majA lo| kriyAtmaka dharma kA kSetra bhI vizAla hai| tere pAsa to gItaracanA kI bhI pravRtti hai| paramAtmabhakti ke bhAvapUrNa gItoM kI racanA kara, una gItoM ko paramAtmamaMdira meM madhura kaMTha se gAtA rahe! khUba majA aaegaa| jaba-jaba phurasata mile, kAvya kI duniyA meM cale jAnA! AtmasaMvedana ke bhI aneka kAvya tU banA sakatA hai| tere hRdaya ke bhAvoM ko isa prakAra abhivyakti kara sakatA hai| vaise dUsarI pravRtti hai - acche tAttvika AdhyAtmika granthoM kA adhyayana karane kI / bhAratIya darzana ke hajAroM grantha haiN| hara viSaya ke grantha haiN| tujhe to philosophI meM rasa hai| adhyayana ke bAda rojAnA 'noTsa' bhI likha sakatA hai| jaba kisI sAttvika prakRti ke vidvAna kA saMyoga mile taba unake pAsa jAkara vinamratA se terI jijJAsAe~ bhI saMtuSTa kara sakatA hai| Age bar3hakara kucha mitroM ko ekatra kara tAttvika carcA kara sakate haiN| jaise, navatattvoM meM se eka-eka tattva lekara usa para carcA kara sakate ho| isa carcA meM eka sAvadhAnI baratane kI hotI hai : vivAda meM nahIM ulajhanA, vivAda kA svarUpa A jAye ki carcA banda kara denaa| vivAdAspada bAta noTa kara lenA aura kisI vidvAna se samAdhAna pA lenA | isase mitratA akhaMDa rahegI aura mitroM ko tattvarasika banAe jaaeNge| terA jIvana rasamaya banatA jaaegaa| ___ jaba dIrgha samaya kA avakAza mile taba tIrthayAtrA karane nikala jaanaa| prAkRtika saundarya se bharapUra aise kaI pavitra tIrthadhAma haiM, cale jAnA udhara aura mana ko sAttvika AnaMda se bhara denaa| AbU-delavAr3A, acalagar3ha, rANakapura, tAraMgAjI, nAkoDAjI... ityAdi tIrthadhAma aise haiM ki vahA~ mana... AtmA...AnaMda se bhara jAte haiN| tIrthayAtrA ke viSaya meM kabhI likhUgA vistAra se| phira bhI mana nahIM mAne to mere pAsa cale AnA / ThIka hai na? yahA~ to terA tana-mana praphullita ho hI jAtA hai| jIvana ko mithyA kalpita vikalpoM se For Private And Personal Use Only

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74 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai bojhila mata bnaanaa| praphullita hRdaya se jIvana ke kSaNa rasamaya bnaanaa| hama bar3audA Ae haiM, yahA~ dasa dina ke 'zivira' kA Ayojana kiyA gayA hai| yuvAvarga kA utsAha sarAhanIya hai| yuvAvarga meM tattvajijJAsA jAgRta honA ujjvala bhaviSya ke prati izArA nahIM hai? terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| bar3audA, 26-5-77 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 75 (r) mAnava mana kI yaha kitanI bar3I kamajorI hai : jo sukha usake pAsa hai... usako vaha mahasUsa nahIM karatA...aura jo sukha yA sukha ke sAdhana usakI pahu~ca ke bAhara haiM...usa para apanI nigAheM jamAe rakhatA hai...aura mana hI mana duHkhI rahatA hai| (r) jindagI meM banatI-bigaDatI ghaTanAoM ko bar3I kaThoratA se nahIM lenA caahie| * aneka kA~ToM ke bIca khilA huA eka gulAba hamArI A~khoM meM prasannatA bhara sakatA hai... para anekoM ke prema ke bIca ekAdha kA durvyavahAra hameM pIr3A kA zikAra banA DAlatA hai...kitanI vicitratA hai yaha! (r) atRpti hameM nae-nae sukhoM ke pIche bhaTakAtI hai aura Asakti mile hue sukhoM meM pAgala banAtI hai.../ patra : 17 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, jaba terA patra milA taba AkAza meM se udAsI Tapaka rahI thI, rAjamArga bhI kucha becaina se lagate the aura sAmane hI eka nirAzA meM DUbA huA AdamI baiThA thA, jo vAtAvaraNa ko vedanAmaya banA rahA thaa| jaba terA patra par3hA... mujhe lagA ki vaha dina bhI vaisA hI viSAdagrasta thA! terA citta vedanA se kitanA karAha rahA hogA... isakI kalpanA karake merA hRdaya bhara gayA hai| kaisA saMsAra hai! sarvajJa paramAtmA ne saMsAra ko jaisA duHkhamaya batAyA hai, vaisA hI vyAdhi-vedanAoM se duHkhapUrNa hai| saMsAra ke sukhoM se bhI duHkhoM kI zakti apAra hai! manuSya ke pAsa sau sukha hoM aura eka duHkha ho, to bhI manuSya apane Apako duHkhI mAnatA hai! hA~, sau sukha hone para bhI vaha apane Apako sukhI nahIM mAnatA! sau sukhoM meM se eka sukha calA jAtA hai... manuSya rone lagatA hai! 99 sukha pAsa hote hue bhI vaha rotA hai... bilakhatA hai! mAtra eka sukha calA gayA... phira bhI! ___manuSya mana kI kaisI Adata hai yaha! jo sukha manuSya ke pAsa hotA hai, usase vaha santuSTa nahIM rhtaa| jo sukha usake pAsa nahIM hotA hai, vaha sukha pAne ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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76 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai lie sadaiva cintAgrasta rahatA hai! jo sukha calA gayA usako yAda karatA huA rotA hai! bar3e-bar3e loga royeM haiM! bhagavAna ajitanAtha ke bhrAtA sagara cakravartI kA eka sukha calA gayA thA... putrasukha calA gayA thA... taba ve kitane becaina bana gae the? zrI rAma kA citta kaisA vibhrAnta ho gayA thA, jaba lakSmaNajI kI mRtyu ho gaI thii| mahAsatI sItA ne kaisA kalpAnta kiyA thA, jaba rAvaNa usakA apaharaNa karake le jA rahA thaa| eka-eka sukha kA abhAva manuSya ko duHkhI kara detA hai| abhI-abhI thor3e dina pahale eka bhAI mere pAsa Ae the, mere paricita the| usake mukha para glAni thii| kucha aupacArika bAteM hone ke bAda unhoMne kahA : 'mahArAja sAhaba, abhI ina dinoM meM bahuta azAMti hai... kucha upAya btaaie|' maiMne pUchA : 'kisa bAta kI azAMti hai Apako?' maiM jAnatA thA ki unake pAsa cAra-pA~ca lAkha rUpaye haiM, baMgalA hai, kAra hai, mArkeTa meM dukAna hai, do lar3ake haiM... patnI hai... ijjata hai... phira bhI vaha mahAnubhAva azAMti kI zikAyata le kara Ae the! unhoMne kahA : 'dUsarA to koI du:kha nahIM hai, para lar3ake aba merA kahA nahIM mAnate! merA tiraskAra kara dete haiM... mujhe ghora duHkha hotA hai|' usa pacapana sAla ke praur3ha puruSa kI A~kheM gIlI ho gaI... bAta krte-krte| __'Apa kyoM isa bAta ko itanI Hard and Fast lete haiM? mana para itanA bhAra kyoM Dhote ho? ApakI dharmapatnI to ApakA kahA mAnatI hai na? ApakA naukara ApakA apamAna nahIM karate haiM na? samAja ke loga ApakI ijjata karate haiM na? to phira Apa kyoM azAMta banate ho? do lar3ake bhale ApakA kahA na mAneM! Apa una donoM se bAta hI mata kro| jo loga Apase acchA vyavahAra karate haiM unase bAteM karo, ha~so aura mana ko halkA kro|' 'parantu mahArAja sAhaba, kyA batAU~ Apako... jaba ve lar3ake mere sAmane Ate haiM...mere sAmane dekhate haiM...mujhe lagatA hai ki unakI viSailI A~kheM merA...' ve ro par3e / maiMne unako rone diyaa| do tIna minaTa maiM mauna rhaa| unhoMne ronA baMda kiyA taba maiMne kahA : / 'Apa kyoM bhUla jAte ho ki Apake pAsa kitane sukha haiM! Apa una sukhoM kA acchA upayoga kreN| eka sukha nahIM hai to koI paravAha nahIM, dUsare aneka sukha haiM, Apa isa puNyodaya kA upayoga kreN| hA~, eka bAta hai, Apa AtmanirIkSaNa kareM, yadi Apako apanI koI galatI mAlUma par3e to usa galatI ko dUra karane kA prayatna kreN|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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77 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai phira to eka ghanTe taka vArtA calatI rhii| ve hRdaya meM nayA ullAsa aura naI umaMge bhara kara ge| dharmapravRtti meM unakA mana sthira hone lgaa| ghara meM dUsaroM ke mana bhI prasanna rahane lge| jo sukha hamAre pAsa nahIM, usa sukha kA abhAva hamAre Upara itanA 'hAvI' nahIM ho jAnA cAhie ki hama zUnyamanaska bana jAe~! hamArA mana azAMti se jalatA rhe| mAnasika tanAvoM se hama hataprabha ho jaayeN| terI sthiti bhI kucha aisI hI ho rahI hai, nahIM? eka vyakti ke durvyavahAra se tU taMga A gayA hai aura ghora parezAnI anubhava kara rahA hai| tU vicAra kara ki usa vyakti ke alAvA dUsare kitane manuSyoM kA tumhAre prati sneha aura sadbhAva hai| anekoM kA sneha aura sadbhAva tere hRdaya ko prasanna nahIM kara sakatA, eka vyakti kA durvyavahAra tumhAre mana ko parezAna kara rahA hai| isa parezAnI se mukti ke lie tujhe prayatna karanA caahie| paristhiti badala sakatI hai| aisI hI paristhiti kAyama rahane vAlI nahIM hai| 'kaba taka aisI parezAniyA~ sahana karatA rahU~gA?' aisA vicAra nahIM karanA caahie| tRpti aura anAsakti kA sahArA lekara jIvanakAla ko AnaMda se vyatIta karanA hai| atRpti aura Asakti hI apane mana ko vyathita karatI hai| tU sthira citta se socegA to yaha bAta terI samajha meM A jaaegii| aisA bhI nahIM hai ki atRpti aura Asakti se chuTakArA nahIM mila sktaa| mila sakatA hai chuTakArA | apanA saMkalpa cAhie chuTakArA pAne kA / tere lie yaha kArya kaThina nahIM hai| bAharI pratikUla saMyogoM se chuTakArA pAne kI bajAya antaraMga atRpti aura Asakti se chuTakArA pA lenA z2yAdA zreyaskara hai| jitane sukha hai apane pAsa, una sukhoM meM tRpti aura una sukhoM meM anAsakti! ___ atRpti nae-nae sukhoM ke prati AkarSaNa paidA karatI hai aura Asakti prApta sukhoM meM sudha-budha kho detI hai| basa, manuSya isameM ulajha jAtA hai| isameM ulajhA huA manuSya phira dharma kriyAe~ bhI kare, usakA mana dharma kriyAoM meM sthiratA aura prasannatA nahIM pAtA hai| dharma kriyAe~ nahIM, dUsarI bhI saMsAra kI kriyAe~ vaha sthiratA se nahIM kara pAtA hai| kucha na kucha galatI kara detA hai| rAvaNa kA patana kyoM huA thA? hajAroM rUparAniyA~ usake antaHpura meM thIM, phira bhI tRpta nahIM huA, sItAjI kA apaharaNa karake le AyA laMkA meN| sItA ke rUpa meM vaha itanA Asakta bana gayA thA ki vibhISaNa tathA maMtrimaMDala ke samajhAne para bhI usane sItA ko vApasa nahIM lauTAyA | rAvaNa itanA caMcala ho gayA thA ki rAjyakArya meM bhI usakA mana lagatA nahIM thaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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78 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai eka bAta tU antaHkaraNa meM biThA le ki tU isa saMsAra meM asahAya nahIM hai| asahAyatA kI kalpanA dUra pheMka de| eka vyakti tere prati acchA vyavahAra nahIM karatA hai, isase kyA ho gayA? dUsare kitane acche AdamI tere prati sneha aura sadabhAva dhAraNa karate haiM, unakA vicAra kara | tU tRpta bnegaa| divya dRSTi se dekhegA to ananta siddha paramAtmA tujhe prati samaya dekha rahe haiM! tujhe jAna rahe haiM! tU unakI tarapha dekha to sahI! ve zuddha-buddha-mukta AtmAe~ nirantara apanI ora dekha rahI haiM aura hama ko bulA rahI haiM... kitanI uttama AtmAe~ haiM ve! kaisA hai, manuSya mana kA svabhAva / eka rAgI, dveSI aura ajJAnI manuSya apanI tarapha nahIM dekhatA hai, usakA du:kha anubhava karate haiM aura vItarAga sarvajJa paramAtmA jo nirantara apanI ora dekhate haiM, unakI ora dekhane kI bhI hameM phurasata nahIM! z2yAdAtara logoM ko yaha jJAna hI nahIM hotA ki ananta-ananta zuddha, buddha AtmAe~ hameM dekha rahI haiM! una ananta muktAtmAoM kI ora dekhane kA prayatna karanA, tujhe AnaMda aaegaa| isake lie tujhe 'dhyAna' meM jAnA pdd'egaa| thor3I kSaNoM ke lie indriyoM ko bAhya duniyA se khIMca lenA aura mana ko samajhA kara apane pAsa rakha lenaa| kalpanA ke Aloka meM sphaTika ratna kI vizAla siddhazilA dikhAI degii| vahA~ koI sthUla AkRti nahIM dikhAI degI... parantu ananta-ananta jyoti ke darzana hoMge... usa jyoti meM pUrNa caitanya kA AvirbhAva dikhAI degA... basa, dekhate hI rahanA... tU apUrva AnaMda kA anubhava kregaa| agama agocara pradeza meM vicaraNa karane kA kaisA divyAnaMda hotA hai... tujhe usakA anubhava hogaa| isa prakAra pratidina 4-5 miniTa bhI dhyAna karatA rahegA to usakA gaharA asara tere hRdaya para hogaa| kaI pApakarmoM ke baMdhana TUTa jAe~ge, kaI divya guNa AtmA meM jAgRta hoNge| tere mukha para aisI AbhA chA jAegI ki hiMsaka pazu bhI tuma se pyAra karane lgeNge| tere hRdaya se hiMsA palAyana ho gaI hogI... na hogA dveSa aura na hogI vaira bhAvanA / terI dRSTi karuNA kA amRta bahAtI hogii| terI vANI samatA kI vRSTi karatI hogii| tU dUsaroM kI dayA-karuNA kI yAcanA nahIM karegA, tU saMsAra ke jIvoM ko dayA-karuNA pradAna kregaa| ___ kyA merI bAta pasanda AI? kyoM pasanda nahIM AegI? tumhArI mere prati jo agAdha zraddhA hai, divya samarpaNa hai, ye zraddhA aura samarpaNa merI eka-eka bAta tere antaHkaraNa meM pahu~cAte haiN| pUrNAnandI AtmAoM ke sAtha 'dhyAna' meM milana hone se terI AtmA bhI pUrNAnaMda ke mahodadhi meM tairane lgegii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 79 __ eka dUsarI bAta yAda A gaI! tU jaba mere pAsa AyA thA, tUne mujhe eka bAta kahI thI : 'merA mana Apake pAsa rahatA hai aura merA tana ghara meM... isase hRdaya kitanI vyathA anubhava karatA hai... Apako kaise batAU~? isalie yA to Apa mujhe apane pAsa rakha lo, athavA mujhe paraloka yAtrA karane do!' kahA thA na? hAlA~ki usa samaya tU bhAvAveza meM bola rahA thaa| zAyada tujhe tere zabda yAda nahIM hoNge| tere hRdaya ke ve zabda the| maiM tujhe apane pAsa kyoM na bulA lU~? mere hRdaya meM tere prati pUrNa sadbhAva hai, maiM tere AtmavikAsa meM pUrNarUpeNa sahAyaka bana sakatA hU~, parantu tU jAnatA hai na ki yadi tU mere pAsa A jAegA to usakI pratikriyA kyA A sakatI hai| tere AsapAsa ke loga kitanA ghora virodha kareMge aura arthahIna bavaMDara paidA kreNge| kyA tU usa samaya tUphAna ke lie taiyAra hai? rAgiyoM ko virAga kA mArga pasanda nahIM! bhogI ko tyAga kA patha pasanda nahIM! yadi terI pUrI taiyArI ho, dRr3ha manobala ho to tU patra milate hI mere pAsa cale AnA / maiM to aise bavaMDaroM se kabhI nahIM DarA | rAga-virAga kA, bhoga-tyAga kA yuddha calatA hI rahatA hai! paraloka-yAtrA kA vicAra phAlatU hai| tU aisA vicAra karegA? sahanazIlatA kA pUrA paricaya denA cAhie | gharavAloM ke sAtha thor3A sA 'ko-oparezana' kara lenA caahie| aisA karane se una logoM kA vyavahAra kucha badala sakatA hai| yadi parivartana nahIM AtA hai, to phira soceNge| tU cintA nahIM krnaa| merA sahayoga kisI bhI samaya tujhe milegA hii| aba to varSAkAla A gayA hai | pA~ca mahIne yahA~ DabhoI meM hI hamArI sthiratA hai| jaba anukUla saMyoga mile tU yahA~ A jAnA kucha dinoM ke lie | varSAkAla ke pUrva eka mahInA vaDodarA meM ruke the| 15 divasIya sthAnika jJAnasatra kA vahA~ Ayojana huA thaa| khUba AnaMda AyA / yuvAvarga meM dharmatatva ke viSaya meM gaharI jijJAsA paaii| prAtaH 6 baje pA~ca sau yuvaka-yuvatI upasthita ho jAte the| zAMti se sunate the| anuzAsana kA custa pAlana karate the| noTsa bhI likhate the| skUla kaoNlejoM kI koI burAI vahA~ nahIM dikhAI dii| jApa aura dhyAna bhI eka dina karAyA... sabane kiyA! isa jJAnasatra meM DaoNkTara, vakIla, iMjIniyara, grejyueTsa vagairaha acchI tAdAta meM the| merA aura sahavartI munivaroM kA svAsthya acchA hai| dainika kAryakrama sucArU rUpa se cala rahA hai| tere tana-mana kI prasannatA cAhatA hU~| 20-6-77 DabhoI [gujarAta] - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 80 (r) jharanA kitanI sahajatA se bahatA rahatA hai... patthara kI caTTAnoM se gujaratA hai... to reta ke TIloM ko bhI lA~gha jAtA hai... para bahatA rahatA hai... hameM bhI vaise hI jInA hai! jharane kI bhA~ti! (r) svayaM kI koI mAnyatA nahIM...koI Agraha yA durAgraha nahIM... jo kucha sahajatA se sAmane AtA hai... use svIkAra kara lenA! (r) svIkAra meM zAMti hai... sahajatA meM prasannatA hai.. inkAra meM azAMti hai... Agraha meM vyathA hai... (r) sahaja rUpa se paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM apane Apa ko pUrI taraha samarpita kara do... paramAtmA kA acintya anugraha svata: barasane lgegaa| OM paramAtmasamarpaNa hameM sAhajika banAtA hai... jindagI ko sahajatA se jInA hI sabase bar3I sAdhanA hai| patra : 18 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha! tujhe mAlUma bhI nahIM hogA ki terA patra mujhe 4 agasta ko milegA! yaha bhI tU nahIM jAnatA hogA ki 4 agasta merA janma dina hai| kaisA acchA yogAnuyoga banA? khUba prasannatA huii| isa patra meM tUne likhA ki : 'aba to paramAtmA kI pUrNa jJAnadRSTi meM jIvana jInA hai! usa parama karuNAnidhAna ke sahAre hI jIvana jInA hai|' kitanI acchI bAta likha dI tUne! paramAtmA ke prati saMpUrNa samarpaNa kara diyA tUne | samarpaNa ke divya dIpaka kI jyoti hai, sahajatA / koI tanAva nahIM, koI dabAva nahIM... sahajatA se bahatA nirjhara kA salila | basa, bahate raho nirantara! rAste meM patthara Ae, to patthara ke Upara se baha jAo, rAste meM gaDDhA Ae, to gaDDhe meM se hote hue baha jaao....| apane gantavya ke prati bahate rho| paramAtmasamarpaNa se sahajatA AtI hI hai| apanI nijI koI Agraha nahIM, apanA svayaM kA koI durAgraha nahIM, adhikAra nhiiN| kitanI sahajatA se sItAjI ne vanavAsa meM zrI rAma kA anusaraNa kiyA thaa| sItAjI ne zrI rAma For Private And Personal Use Only

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81 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai ko Agraha nahIM kiyA thA ki 'Apa vana meM mata jAie, Apa ayodhyA meM hI raheM, rAjya kA apanA adhikAra mata chodd'eN|' samarpita hRdaya meM aise vikalpa paidA hI nahIM hote| sahajatA meM koI zikAyata nahIM hotI hai| jahA~ svIkAra hotA hai vahA~ zikAyata kaise ho sakatI hai? zikAyateM azAMti meM se utpanna hotI haiM, svIkAra meM azAMti hotI hI nhiiN| svIkAra meM to apUrva zAMti kA AsvAda hotA hai| sItAjI ne vanavAsa meM zrI rAma ke sAmane kaikeyI ke viruddha yA dazaratha ke viruddha koI zikAyata nahIM kI thii| jaMgala ke kaSToM ko lekara bhI koI zikAyata nahIM kI thii| hara paristhiti kA svIkAra | hara saMyoga kA svIkAra | aisI sahajatA samarpaNa ke binA nahIM A sakatI hai| samarpaNabhAva pragaTa hote hI sahajatA A jAtI hai| sahajatA ke sAtha hI saba zikAyateM zAMta ho jAtI haiN| yadi tere hRdaya meM paramAtmA ke prati samarpaNa bhAva jAgRta ho gayA hai, to aisA samatva avazya tere mana meM A jaaegaa| __ jaba hara paristhiti meM sahajatA AtI hai, taba duHkha sahana karane kI zakti svataH jAgRta hotI hai| zikAyata ke binA sahajatA se manuSya duHkha sahana kara letA hai| 'maiM sahana kara rahA hU~,' aisA bhI vicAra unako nahIM AtA hai| tU anubhava karegA ki pUrvajIvana meM jina duHkhoM meM tU becainI aura saMtrAsa anubhava karatA thA, una duHkhoM meM aba tU becaina nahIM bnegaa| saMtrasta nahIM hogaa| hA~, dUsare jIvoM ke duHkha dekhakara tujhe duHkha hogA, karuNA kA bhAva tujhe dUsaroM ke duHkhoM se duHkhI karegA, becaina banAegA, parantu apane duHkhoM se tU kabhI azAMta nahIM hogaa| tU soca sakatA hai ki 'saMsAra meM aisA jIvana saMbhava ho sakatA hai?' hA~, ho sakatA hai| samarpaNabhAva ke vikAsa ke sAtha yaha saba svataH saMbhava hotA jaaegaa| tujhe saMbhava banAnA nahIM hogA, saMbhava bana jaaegaa| jaba tere mana meM yaha saMkalpa ho gayA hai ki 'aba mujhe paramAtmA ke sahAre hI jIvana vyatIta karanA hai aura AnaMda pAnA hai|' taba Antarika vikAsa kA prArambha ho hI gayA samajhanA | aba tujhe kucha nahIM karanA hai, usa paramazakti ko tere Upara kAma karane de| samarpita AtmA paramAtmA ke prati abhimukha banatI hai| abhimukha AtmA meM paramAtma-anugraha avatarita hotA hai| paramAtma anugraha bhI kAma karatA hai| tU usakA kAma karane denA / sUrya AkAza meM prakAzita hai, tU apanA makAna khulA For Private And Personal Use Only

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82 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai rakhegA to sUrya kA prakAza tere makAna meM AegA aura makAna ko garmI se bhara degaa| makAna baMda rakhegA to sUrya kA prakAza prApta nahIM hogaa| tUne apanA hRdaya paramAtmA ke sAmane khola diyA hai, to paramAtmA kI acintya kRpA tere hRdaya meM barasegI hI aura vaha kRpA kAma kregii| karane denA jo kucha karanA ho usa divya cetanA ko! tU to anubhUti karate rahanA / jo naI-naI paristhitiyA~ paidA ho, usameM se sahajatA se gujaranA | parivartana meM naI paristhitiyA~ paidA hotI hI haiN| ghabarAnA mata | yaha tere lie abhinava anubhava hogaa| nae pradeza meM paira rakhate hI jaisA romAMca hotA hai, jaisA avyakta AnaMda hotA hai... vaisA hI romAMca aura AnaMda isa anubhava meM hogaa| __ paramAtma samarpaNa kA tattva hI anUThA hai| paramAtmaprIti aura paramAtmabhakti se bharapUra paramAtmapremI paramAtmA ke caraNoM meM mana-vacana kAyA se samarpita ho jAtA hai| sahanazIlatA bhI sahaja ho jaaegii| sahanazIlatA svabhAvabhUta bana jaaegii| usake sAtha-sAtha gaMbhIratA aura udAratA bhI jIvana-sahacarI bana jaaegii| vartamAna jIvana ke sabhI kartavyoM kA pAlana karate hue bhI isa prakAra kA jIvana bana jaaegaa| jIvana ke sabhI kartavyoM ke pAlana meM tumhArI sahaja-svAbhAvika sahanazIlatA, gaMbhIratA aura udAratA udbhAsita hogii| sItAjI kI sahaja sahanazIlatA kA darzana vanavAsa meM hotA hai, to unakI svAbhAvika gaMbhIratA apane putroM ke sAmane abhivyakta hotI hai| kabhI bhI unhoMne lava-kuza ke sAmane zrI rAma ke viruddha eka zabda bhI nahIM bolA | cU~ki unake hRdaya meM zrI rAma ke prati koI roSa hI nahIM thaa| jo kucha bhI unake jIvana meM ghaTa rahA thA, vaha sahajatA se svIkAra karate calI thii| putroM ke sAmane zrI rAma ke viruddha bolane kI caMcalatA AegI hI kahA~ se? ___ jaba zrI rAma ne sItAjI ko 'divya' karake apane satItva kI pratIti, ayodhyA kI prajA ko karAnI cAhI, taba bhI sItAjI ne svIkAra kara liyaa| svAbhAvikatA se svIkAra kara liyA thaa| zrI rAma ke sAtha koI bahasa nahIM, koI bAta nhiiN| itanA bhI nahIM kahA ki aba kyA satItva kI parIkSA le rahe ho? jaba jaMgala meM tyAga karavA diyA, dhokhA dekara, usa samaya parIkSA lete to buddhimattA thI...' nahIM, kucha bhI nahIM bolI siitaajii| bhar3abhar3a Aga meM kUda par3ane meM koI hicakicAhaTa nahIM, koI bhaya nahIM, jIvana kA koI moha nhiiN| pUrNa gaMbhIratA! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 83 itanA hI nahIM, agni kI khAI pAnI kA sarovara bana gayA aura satItva siddha ho gayA, bAda meM jaba zrI rAma kSamA mA~gane lage, to kSamA bhI eka kSaNa meM de dii| kucha bhI kahe binA... sahajatA se kSamA de dI aura saMsAra tyAga kara cala par3I cAritra patha para | pati, devara, putra vagairaha ke prati koI mamatva nahIM rahA... mamatva ke baMdhana bhI sahajatA se tor3a die! aisI sahajatA... svAbhAvikatA A jAe jIvana meM, to kAma ho jaae| svAbhAvika gaMbhIratA, svAbhAvika udaartaa| koI kRtrimatA nahIM... koI daMbha nahIM, dikhAvA nhiiN| koI bhaya nahIM, jIvana kA koI moha nhiiN| jahara kA pyAlA bhI sahajatA se pI jAyeM... vaisA jIvana jIne kA majA hai| tere mana meM jo apUrva pavitra bhAva jAgRta huA hai paramAtma-samarpaNa kA, usa pavitra bhAva ko sudRr3ha banAe rakhanA / usa bhAva ko prabuddha karate rahanA / vaha bhAva maMda na ho jAye, naSTa na ho jAye, usakA pUrA dhyAna rkhnaa| bhAvoM ko, sadbhAvoM ko TikAnA aura bar3hAnA sarala nahIM haiN| lAkhoM karor3oM kI saMpatti ko TikAnA sarala hai, pavitra bhAvoM ko surakSita rakhanA muzkila hai| tujhe jo samarpaNa kA apUrva bhAva milA hai, cintAmaNi ratna kI taraha usako surakSita rkhnaa| isake lie paramAtma-nAma kA smaraNa, paramAtma-pratimA kA darzana-pUjana aura paramAtmaguNoM kA kIrtana karate rhnaa| isase samarpaNa bhAva ko anukUla vAtAvaraNa mila jaaegaa| zubha bhAvoM ko yadi anukUla vAtAvaraNa mila jAe to zubha bhAva Tikate haiN| viruddha vAtAvaraNa meM sAmAnya manuSya zubha bhAvoM ko TikA nahIM skte| paramAtmasamarpaNa kI mAnyatA kA virodha karane vAloM kA saMparka nahIM rakhanA, anyathA kabhI bhI terA samarpaNa khaMDita ho sakatA hai| samarpaNabhAva ko puSTa karane hetu tU paramAtmA kI hI bAteM karate rhnaa| paramAtmA kI kathAe~ sunate rhnaa| tujhe paramAtma viSayaka bAteM sunane meM bar3A AnaMda aaegaa| hA~, kabhI koI paramAtmA kI nindA bhI kare, unake prati bhI dveSa mata krnaa| usake prati bhI dayA bhAva rakhanA / 'becArA paramAtmA kI nindA kara ghora pApakarma bA~dhatA hai, jaba ve karma udaya meM Ae~ge.. kitane duHkha bhogane par3eMge isko|' nindaka ke sAtha ulajhanA mt| jhagar3anA mata / itanI sAvadhAniyA~ brtnaa| terA paramAtmasamarpaNa kA zubha bhAva bar3hatA jaaegaa| __ choTI sI jindagI meM... anizcita jindagI meM yadi itanI upalabdhi bhI ho jAye to jIvana saphala bana jAye... paralokayAtrA kA prayANa bhI prasannatApUrvaka For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 84 ho jaaye| paramAtmA kA sahArA kabhI nahIM chor3anA / janama-janama unake caraNoM kI sevA milatI rahe... yahI manokAmanA karanA / 10-8-77 DabhoI yahA~ kuzalatA hai| kaI dinoM se AkAza bAdaloM se chAyA huA hai| barasAta hI barasAta hai| tapazcaryA karane vAle maje se tapazcaryA kara rahe haiM... anukUla vAtAvaraNa mila gayA hai na? terI kuzalatA cAhatA hU~ / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir C For Private And Personal Use Only priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai jaba taka apanI AtmA deha ke baMdhana se Abaddha hai... taba taka paramAtmA kI jyoti meM apanI Atmajyoti nahIM mila sakatI! paramAtmA videha hai... unameM samA jAne ke lie hameM bhI videha honA pdd'egaa| (r) mukti ke lie pratyeka AtmA ko apanA nijI puruSArtha karanA hotA hai| auroM se mArgadarzana mila sakatA hai... para prayatna to svayaM ko hI karanA par3atA hai| (r) cAroM tarapha baMdhana hI baMdhana hai... kucha baMdhana to priya lagane laga gae haiN| jaise baMdhana, baMdhana hI nahIM lagate! baMdhanoM kI duniyA meM mukti-nirvANa jaise kI vismRti ke sAgara meM kho gae haiM! (r) arthahIna paraMparAe~ aura zAstra vihIna rar3hiyoM ko tor3anA hI hogA! patra : 19 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, paramAtmA kI parama kRpA se yahA~ kuzalatA hai, prasannatA hai| terA patra milA hai| 'arihaMta' kA udhara acchA pracAra ho rahA hai, jAnakara prasannatA huii| hindIbhASI pradezoM meM jahA~-jahA~ 'arihaMta' jAtA hai, loga kAphI jijJAsA se par3hate haiN| zubha prayatna kI saphalatA ke sandeza sunane se zubha prayatnoM meM utsAha bar3ha jAtA hai| varSAkAla pUrNa hone jA rahA hai| kidhara jAnA hogA... kucha nizcita nahIM! uttara aura dakSiNa donoM kA Agraha hai| abhI to usa viSaya kA koI vicAra hI nahIM AtA hai| kala rAta paramAtmA mahAvIra prabhu ke nirvANa-cintana meM vyatIta huii| AnaMda kI anubhUti huii| tU jAnatA hai na ki dIpAvalI kA pavitra dina paramAtmA kA nirvANa kalyANaka kA dina hai? kArtika amAvasyA kI madhyarAtri kA samaya nirvANa kA samaya thaa| sadeha tIrthaMkara videha ho gae usa rAta meN...| unake prati antaraMga prItivAle hajAroM sAdhu-sAdhvI, lAkhoM zrAvaka-zrAvikA aura karor3oM anuyAyI.... jinako-jinako mahAvIra ke nirvANa ke samAcAra mile the, ghora udAsI meM DUba gae the| phUTa-phUTa kara roe the| saba jAnate the ki For Private And Personal Use Only

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86 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai mahAvIra kI AtmA kI mRtyu nahIM huI hai, AtmA to siddha-buddha aura mukta bana kara ananta-ananta meM rama rahI hai| parantu duniyA unako dekha nahIM sakatI! duniyA unako suna nahIM sakatI! varSoM taka mahAvIra ko dekhe the... varSoM taka mahAvIra ko sune the... aba duniyA kabhI bhI mahAvIra ko dekha nahIM sakegI... suna nahIM skegii| jo AtmA videha bana jAtI hai, zarIra ke bandhanoM se saMpUrNa mukta bana jAtI hai, vaha AtmA punaH sadeha nahIM banatI hai| sadeha mahAvIra ke darzana hamako nahIM hoMge! hA~, jaba hamako kevalajJAna hogA, kevalajJAna ke pUrNa prakAza meM... bhUtakAlIna paryAya ke rUpa meM darzana hogA! jaba hama bhI deha ke baMdhana se mukta baneMge taba paramAtmA kI jyoti meM apanI jyoti abhedabhAva se mila jaaegii| phira kabhI bhI viyoga nahIM hogaa| 2500 varSa pUrva zramaNa paramAtmA mahAvIra deva kA nirvANa ho gyaa| mAtra 72 varSa kI Ayu meM hI ve dehamukta ho gae | 'antarAyakarma' ke kSaya se ananta vIrya, ananta zakti kA AvirbhAva ho gayA thA, paraMtu ve apanA AyuSya bar3hA nahIM sake! cU~ki ve vItarAga the, isalie AyuSya bar3hAne kI yA kama karane kI icchA unameM nahIM thI, parantu sarvajIvahitAya bhI unhoMne AyuSya nahIM bar3hAyA! jaba indra ne prabhu se prArthanA kI thI : 'bhagavaMta, thor3A AyuSya bar3hA dene kI kRpA kareM, tAki 'bhasmarAzi' nAma ke graha kA asara Apake dharmazAsana para z2yAdA nahIM rahe / ' paramAtmA ne spaSTa kaha diyA thA : 'indra, AyuSya karma samApta hone para koI bhI use bar3hA nahIM sakatA, maiM bhI nahIM bar3hA sktaa|' nirvANa ho gayA bhagavaMta kaa| aba kabhI bhI unakA janma nahIM hogA isa saMsAra meN| paramAtmA anantajJAna, anantadarzana, vItarAga aura anantavIryasaMpanna to the hI, nirvANa hone para ve arUpI ho gae | janma-mRtyu se pare ho gae | ananta avyAbAdha sukha pA liyA unhoMne / ucca-nIca se para 'agurulaghu' bana ge| ___ priya mumukSu, sarva duHkhoM kA anta hai, nirvANa meN| jaba taka nirvANa nahIM hogA apanA, hama duHkhoM se mukta nahIM rheNge| zreSTha puNyakarma kA udaya hone para bhI koI na koI duHkha to rahegA hI saMsAra meN| sarvotkRSTa puNyakarma kA bhI anta hI aaegaa| anAdikAlIna yaha viSacakra calatA hI rahA hai| tor3anA hogA isa viSacakra ko| zramaNa paramAtmA mahAvIra ne 2500 varSa pUrva tor3a diyA yaha viSacakra... aura ve amRtamaya bana ge| unako pUchA hogA kisI ziSya ne : 'bhagavaMta! Apa ananta zakti ke mAlika haiM, hamArA bhI saMsAra cakra tor3a do! hamako bhI muktipada dilA do... itanI kRpA kara do...|' For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 87 bhagavaMta ne kahA : 'he bhikkhu! yadi aisA ho sakatA hotA to mere pUrva ke tIrthaMkaroM ne saba jIvoM ko mokSa meM bheja diyA hotA! cU~ki guNa, jJAna, aura zakti meM sabhI tIrthaMkara samAna hote haiN| parantu vizvavyavasthA meM aisA ho hI nahIM sakatA hai ki eka AtmA dUsarI AtmA ke karmabandhana tor3e aura usako muktipada dilA de! hara AtmA ko apane vyaktigata puruSArtha se hI mukti milatI hai| maiM to puruSArtha meM mArgadarzaka bana sakatA hU~ | mukti kA jJAna de sakatA huuN|' kitanA nirAza ho gayA hogA vaha zramaNa? nahIM, bhagavaMta ne usako nirAza nahIM kiyA thA, puruSArtha ke lie prerita kiyA thaa| parAvalaMbana ko chor3akara svAvalaMbI banane hetu utsAhita kiyA thaa| isase to usa zramaNa kI paramAtmA ke prati prIti aura bhakti khUba bar3ha gaI hogii| muktipatha kI ArAdhanA meM vaha puruSArthazIla bana gayA hogaa| __mukti kI bAta likha rahA hU~... nirvANa kI bAta likha rahA hU~... parantu hRdaya meM eka prazna uThatA hai... 'tujhe baMdhana priya haiM, yA mukti? tujhe jIvana priya hai, yA nirvANa?' maiM apanI bAta batAtA hU~ tujhe / gahana cintana meM jaba-jaba DUba jAtA hU~, taba mukti... nirvANa priya lagatA hai| jaba bAhya duniyA ke samparka meM mana aura indriyA~ AtI hai, taba baMdhana priya lagate haiN| kitanI-kitanI jar3a-cetana vastuoM se baMdha gayA hai mana!! kyA batAU~ tujhe? hA~, kabhI-kabhI ina sAre baMdhanoM ko tor3a koI nIrava... nirjana jaMgala meM... yA koI zAMta.... prazAMta guphA meM jAkara zeSa jIvana vyatIta karane kI tIvra tamannA jAga uThatI hai| parantu koI na koI bandhana rokatA rahA hai....| Aja hamArA jIvana bhI z2yAdA sAmAjika bana gayA hai| sAdhu ko sAmAjika prANI nahIM bananA cAhie, sAdhu ko to sadaiva AdhyAtmika banA rahanA caahie| parantu Aja vaisI vyavasthA bhI nahIM ki sAdhu sadaiva AdhyAtmika vAtAvaraNa meM palatA rahe aura bar3hatA rhe| hara bAta vizeSakara sAmAjika dRSTi se socI jA rahI hai| bandhana hI bandhana! lakSya mukti kA diyA jA rahA hai... jIvana bandhanoM meM jakar3A jA rahA hai! kucha baMdhana to bahuta priya bana gae haiN| kucha baMdhanoM ko anivArya mAna liyA gayA hai| anivArya baMdhanoM se pyAra ho jAtA hai| isa ulajhana meM mukti aura nirvANa, vismRti ke sAgara meM DUba gae haiM! Aja jo nirvANa kI bAta likha rahA hU~... vaha to paramAtmA kA nirvANakalyANaka kArtika-amAvasyA ko A rahA hai... isalie yAda A gayA! anyathA nirvANa meM prANa ramate hI kahA~ haiM!' For Private And Personal Use Only

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88 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai saca kahatA hU~, kabhI-kabhI mana ugra vidroha se bidakatA hai| arthahIna aura zAstroM se viparIta bandhanoM ko tor3a DAlane kI ati AvazyakatA hai| galata paramparAoM kI pAipa-lAineM, ki jinameM gaMdA pAnI baha rahA hai, tor3a DAlanI caahie| ___ kucha bandhanoM ko sAmAjika pratiSThA mila gaI hai! jitanI pratiSThA nirvANa ko nahIM milI hai, usase z2yAdA pratiSThA baMdhanoM ko! samAja aisA hI hai| samAja meM z2yAdA loga jJAnaprakAza se rahita haiN| samAja ke loga tattvadRSTi se soca hI nahIM sakate! sAdhaka jIvana meM tattvadRSTi kA hI cintana cAhie! yaha bar3A virodhAbhAsa hai| jAne do ina bAtoM ko / araNyarudana jaisI ye bAteM haiM! __ paramAtmA mahAvIra svAmI ke nirvANakalyANaka kI acche bhAva se ArAdhanA karanA / nirvANa kI rAta usa paramakRpAnidhi paramAtmA ke nAmasmaraNa meM vyatIta krnaa| nirvANa kI divya jyota kA darzana krnaa| kama se kama usa rAta ko to paramAtmA kI smRti meM... bhAvasalila se Ardra smRti meM vyatIta karanA hii| tere lie yaha kAma sarala bhI hai| abhI-abhI terA mana paramAtmabhakti meM vizeSa tallIna banA hai na! bhakta bana gayA hai tU! acchA hai, niSkAma bhakti kA phala adbhuta hotA hai| terI niSkAma bhakti tere AdhyAtmika vikAsa meM pUrNarUpeNa sahAyaka bnegii| bAhya avarodha... rukAvaTeM bhI dUra ho jaayeNgii| Aja z2yAdA nahIM likhuugaa| Ajakala eka upanyAsa likha rahA huuN| prAcIna kathAvastu para AdhArita hai| eka RSi kanyA ke AsapAsa sArI kahAnI phailI hai| __ parivAra ko dharmalAbha sUcita krnaa| tUne 'kArya sevA' batAne ko likhA, parantu abhI koI vizeSa kArya nahIM hai| aisA kArya upasthita hone para liluuNgaa| yahA~ hama sabhI kuzala haiM, prasanna haiN| DabhoI 1-11-77 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 89 * viparita paristhitiyoM meM svastha evaM saMtulita rahane ke lie 'bhedajJAna' yAnI AtmA evaM anya padArthoM kA bhinnatva samajha lenA, samajha kara usako svIkAra kara lenA Avazyaka hai| (r) saMsAra meM rahakara bhI sAMsArika ulajhanoM se alaga jInA, duniyA meM rahakara bhI duniyAdArI se Upara uThakara jInA koI mAmUlI bAta nahIM hai... para asaMbhava bhI nahIM hai! (r) vyavahAra kI vidhi meM visaMvAda kI vyathA gheregI hI! (r) 'ekatvabhAva' evaM 'anyatvabhAva' kA gaharA ciMtana AtmA ko viraha evaM viyoga kI kSaNoM meM svastha rakha sakatA hai| (r) hRdaya ko kisI bhI vyakti yA padArtha se bAMdhanA nahIM! nibaMdhana hokara jIte rhnaa| patra : 20 priya gumukSu, dharmalAbha, terA patra milA, mana prasanna huaa| DabhoI se vihAra kara bar3audA Ae haiN| yahA~ pratidina pravacana hote haiN| abhI kucha dina yahA~ sthiratA hogii| ___ do dina pUrva eka vRddha puruSa mere pAsa Ae / yahA~ pratidina ve pravacana suna rahe haiN| unhoMne eka prazna puuchaa| prazna kyA thA, hRdaya kI gaharI vedanA thii| unakI umra hai 77 varSa kI / tIna mahIne pUrva unakI 73 varSIya patnI kA svargavAsa ho gayA hai| pati-patnI do hI the, aba ye akele ho gae haiN| unakI vedanA yaha hai ki unako patnI kI smRti bAra-bAra AtI hai! patnI kA viraha unako vyathita kara rahA hai| haiM, ye vRddha sajjana paramAtmA ke bhakta / pratidina paramAtmA kA pUjana karate haiM aura dUsarI bhI dharmakriyAe~ karate haiN| maiMne unako bar3e prema se AzvAsana diyA aura viraha vyathA se mukta hone ke upAya bhI batAe~, parantu mere mana meM kucha prazna paidA ho gae! usa rAta ko isa bAta para cintana bhI kiyaa| '77 varSa kI vRddhAvasthA meM patnI ke viraha kI vedanA? paramAtmapUjana vagairaha dharmakriyAe~ karane vAle ke hRdaya meM vyathA? kyA dharmakriyAe~ manuSya ke hRdaya ko aisI paristhiti meM vyathArahita nahIM rakha For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai sakatI?' aise-aise prazna mana meM uThane lage... vahA~ mere eka mitra muni kI kahI huI eka bAta yAda A gaI! eka prasiddha vidvAna AcArya ke eka ziSya hRdaya roga se svargavAsI ho gae the... priya ziSya thA, ziSya kI mRtyu hone para AcArya phUTa-phUTa kara ro par3e the! saMsAra ke tyAgI aura dharmagraMthoM ke abhyAsI AcArya bhI ro par3e the! jaba yaha ghaTanA smRtipaTala para AI taba usa vRddha sajjana ke prati sahAnubhUti bar3ha gaI! saMsAratyAgI sAdhu yadi priyajana ke viraha se vyAkula bana jAtA hai, to phira saMsArI ajJAnI jIvoM kI to bAta hI kyA karanA? parantu aisA kyoM banatA hai? pacAsa-pacAsa varSoM kI dharmaArAdhanA manuSya ke hRdaya ko anAsakta nahIM banA sakatI? saMsAra kI Asakti miTA nahIM sakatI? priya mumukSu! usa vRddha sajjana ke prati mere hRdaya meM khUba sahAnubhUti hai aura unakI vRddhAvasthA meM unakI samatA-samAdhi banI rahe, aisI merI zubhakAmanA hai, parantu unakI bAta ne mujhe gambhIra cintana kI ora prerita kara diyA hai| yaha saMsAra hai, saMsAra meM svajanaviyoga, parijanaviyoga, vaibhavaviyoga aura zarIraviyoga... honA svAbhAvika hai| saMsAra meM aise viyoga hote rahate haiM, isakA asara manuSya para hotA hai...manuSya vyathita ho jAtA hai, becaina ho jAtA hai, virahavyathA se vyAkula ho jAtA hai| aisI vyathA aura vyAkulatA kA zikAra kauna banatA hai? ajJAnI manuSya! jJAnI jo hogA, nahIM bnegaa| saccA jJAnI hogA to nahIM banegA | mAtra zAstroM kA jJAnI nahIM, zAstroM ke upadeza ko AtmasAta karane vAlA jJAnI! mAtra dharmakriyAe~ karane vAlA manuSya vyathA aura vedanA kA zikAra bana jAegA, yadi vaha bhAvanA jJAna se bhAvita hai, to nahIM banegA! mAtra tapazcaryA karane vAlA duHkhI ho jAegA, yadi vaha AtmajJAnI hai, to duHkhI nahIM bnegaa| ___ jo manuSya samajhatA hai ki 'maiM svajanoM se, parijanoM se, vaibhava se aura zarIra se bhinna hU~,' vaha manuSya kabhI bhI zokAkrAnta nahIM bnegaa| yaha samajha AtmasAta ho jAnI cAhie, arthAta pratidina isa vicAra ko, isa satya ko yAda kara cintana karanA cAhie | isako 'bhedajJAna' kahate haiN| apanI AtmA se yaha sArA saMsAra bhinna hai, saMsAra ke kisI bhI padArtha kA saMyoga zAzvata nahIM hai, isa satya ko apane vicAroM meM otaprota kara denA caahie| yadi nahIM kiyA jAe to viyoga kI vedanA sahana karanI hI pdd'egii| saMsAra meM rahanA, saMsAra meM jInA aura hRdaya ko saMsAra se alipta rakhanA, For Private And Personal Use Only

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91 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai sarala kAma to nahIM hai, parantu asambhava kAma bhI nahIM hai| saMsAra se hRdaya ko alipta rakhane kA mArga jJAnI puruSoM ne batAyA hai| aneka upAya batAe haiM... parantu hamako alipta hone kI tamannA cAhie! liptatA meM jaba taka AnaMda mAnA hai, sukha mAnA hai, taba taka aliptatA priya kaise lagegI? saMsAra ke aneka padArthoM ke sAtha hRdaya ko bA~dha liyA hai| vyavahAra ko satya mAna kara hRdaya se saMsAra ko jor3a diyA hai| saMsAra mithyA hai, vaise saMsAra ke sAre vyavahAra bhI mithyA haiM! vyavahAra to mAtra vyavasthA ke lie hai| vyavasthA taMtra kA hRdaya ke sAtha koI saMbaMdha nahIM hai| isalie to tIrthaMkara bhagavantoM ne 'nizcaya' kA mArga batAyA hai| nizcaya dRSTi se Atma svarUpa ko samajhAyA hai| isa dRSTi ke binA hRdaya alipta, anAsakta, nirAkula nahIM bana skegaa| tU gRhastha hai na? tujhe jaise vyavahAramArga kA jJAna honA cAhie vaise nizcaya mArga kA bhI jJAna honA caahie| nizcaya kA mArga AtmazAMti kA mArga hai| nizcaya dRSTi nahIM hai aura mAtra vyavahAra dRSTi hai, to phira AtmazAMti nahIM milegii| kyoMki vyavahAra meM visaMvAda raheMge hii| vyavahAra meM dvandva raheMge hii| ina dvandvoM kA, visaMvAdoM kA tere hRdaya para prabhAva par3egA hI, yadi tere pAsa nizcaya dRSTi nahIM hogI to! durbhAgya hai Aja apanA...| manuSya Aja aisA jJAna prApta karanA hI nahIM cAhatA / antarAtmA kI zAMti, samatA aura prasannatA pradAna karane vAlA jJAna prApta karanA hI nahIM caahtaa| Aja to manuSya ko cAhie artha prApti karAne vAlA jJAna! tuccha manoraMjana dene vAlA jJAna! kSaNika AnaMda denevAlA jJAna! duniyA kI kucha jAnakArI dene vAlA jJAna! kauna cAhatA hai, nizcaya aura vyavahAra kA jJAna? kauna cAhatA hai 'utsarga' aura 'apavAda' kA jJAna? jIvana arthapradhAna aura kAmapradhAna bana gayA hai| z2yAdA se z2yAdA paisA kamAnA aura z2yAdA se z2yAdA viSayasukha bhoganA! ___ dharmakriyAe~ karanevAle bhI Aja z2yAdAtara arthapradhAna aura kAmapradhAna dikhate haiN| dharmakriyA karate haiM, parantu mokSasukha pAne ke lie nahIM, saMsArasukha pAne ke lie! phira unako antarAtmA kI zAMti kaise mile? citta kI prasannatA kaise mile? saMsArI ho yA sAdhu ho, jJAnadRSTi ke binA samatA-samAdhi nahIM mila sktii| jisa vRddha puruSa kI bAta kara rahA hU~, usa vRddha puruSa ne kabhI aisA bhedajJAna pAyA hI nahIM hai! nizcaya-vyavahAra kA jJAna prApta kiyA hI nahIM hai... phira patnI kA viraha unako vyathita nahIM karegA to kyA karegA? For Private And Personal Use Only

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92 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai jIvana kI uttarAvasthA... vRddhAvasthA to samatA-samAdhi meM vyatIta honI hI cAhie na? yU~ bhI Ajakala manuSya kI vRddhAvasthA z2yAdA duHkharUpa bana rahI hai| vRddhoM ke prati unake parivAroM kA sneha, sadbhAva ghaTatA jA rahA hai| amarIkA U.S.A. meM to vRddhoM kI durdazA khUba bar3ha gaI hai| vahA~ 'ekatva' kA bhAvanAjJAna nahIM hai aura ekatva meM jInA aparihArya bana gayA hai| bahuta se vRddha to AtmahatyA kara lete haiN| hA~, bAhya sukha-suvidhA hone para bhI una vRddhoM ke citta meM ghora azAMti hotI hai| vahA~ ke vRddhoM ko koI cAhatA nahIM, vRddhoM se koI prema karatA nahIM! vRddhoM ne apane mana ko anAsakta banAyA nahIM hotA hai| __'ekatvabhAvanA' aura 'anyatvabhAvanA' se antarAtmA ko aisA bhAvita kara lenA cAhie ki akelA bhI rahanA par3e, jInA par3e, to mana meM koI vyathA na ho, vedanA na ho| sabake sAtha jIvana jIne kA aura sabase apanA hRdaya alipta rakhane kA! hRdaya ko kisI bhI jar3a-cetana se bA~dhane kA nhiiN| nibaMdhana rakhanA hRdaya ko| nibaMdhana hRdaya hI samatA-samAdhi kA amRta anubhava kara sakatA hai| priya mumukSu! Aja jaba pArivArika, sAmAjika aura rASTrIya paristhitiyA~ badala rahI haiM, mAnavatA, naitikatA, dhArmikatA aura AdhyAtmikatA ke mUlyAMkana badala rahe haiM, sneha, sadbhAva, vAtsalya aura karuNA jaise jIvanarasa ko paripuSTa karanevAle tattva vilIna hote jA rahe haiM... taba samajhadAra... buddhimAna manuSya ko apanI Antarika paristhiti sudRr3ha banA lenI cAhie | Antarika AnaMda mAtra bAhya sukha-sAdhana para nirbhara nahIM hai, yaha bAta samajha lenaa| ___puNyakarma aura pApakarma ke adhIna jIvAtmA, yadi thor3I bhI apanI svAdhInatA prApta nahIM karegA, to karmasattA usako kucala ddaalegii| aisA kucha svAdhIna sukha, svAdhIna AnaMda honA cAhie ki kaisI bhI paristhiti meM azAMta, kleza aura santApa hameM satAe nhiiN| tere praznoM kA uttara Aja nahIM likhatA hU~... Aja to mere mana kI bAteM... abhI-abhI kiyA huA cintana hI likha diyA! tere praznoM ke uttara avazya likhuugaa| tere mana kI prasannatA cAhatA huuN| yahA~ hama saba kuzala haiM, svastha haiN| terA dharmadhyAna nirantara calatA rahe, yahI maMgala kAmanA...| bar3audA 20-12-77 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 93 (r) ghaTanAe~ to banatI rahatI haiM... paristhitiyA~ tabdIla hotI hI rahatI haiM... unameM kaise socanA... kaise vicAranA... yaha kalA hameM hastagata kara lenI cAhie, tAki vyartha ke saMgharSoM se bacA jA ske| (r) vicAroM meM yadi krodha-mAna-mAyA aura lobha kA puTa nahIM milA hai, to karmabaMdha itanA sakhta yA pragAr3ha nahIM hogaa| (r) hamArA darzana jaba vAstavika nahIM hotA hai, taba vaha nirA pradarzana bana kara raha jAtA hai| vastu kA yathA svarUpa darzana hI hameM rAgadveSa se bacA sakatA hai| * kabhI kisI kA doSa nigAhoM meM A jAe to bhI socanA ki doSa AtmA ke nahIM haiM... doSa to zarIra ke haiM... aura zarIra to jar3a hai! (r) AtmA kI vibhAvadazA kI jAnakArI ke sAtha-sAtha svabhAvadazA kI jAnakArI bhI jarUrI hai| patra : 21 priya gumukSu, dharmalAbha, bar3audA, ANaMda vagairaha gA~va-zaharoM meM do mAsa paribhramaNa kara hama vApasa yahA~ DabhoI meM A gae haiN| yahA~ Ate hI terA patra milA thA, paraMtu turaMta hI pratyuttara nahIM likha skaa| tere pUrvapatra meM tUne tIna prazna pUche haiM, Aja to una praznoM kA hI pratyuttara likha rahA hU~, dUsarI bAteM bhI likhanI haiM, paraMtu Aja nahIM likhuugaa| Aja to tere tIna praznoM ke uttara bhI saMpUrNa likha sakU~ to bahuta hai! / terA pahalA prazna : pratidina aneka prakAra ke prasaMga, aneka ghaTanAe~ mere Asa-pAsa ghaTatI haiM, una ghaTanAoM para maiM kaise-kaise vicAra karU~ ki jisase pApakarmoM kA baMdha na ho| terA prazna mahatvapUrNa hai| kisa prasaMga meM hameM kyA socanA cAhie, kisa ghaTanA meM hameM kauna se vicAra karane cAhie-yaha socane kI kalA hastagata... manogata ho jAye to pApakarma kA bandhana to ruka jAye, pApa-karmoM kI nirjarA (nAza) bhI hotI rhe| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 94 prasaMga eka hI hotA hai, bhinna-bhinna vyakti bhinna-bhinna dRSTi se usako dekhate haiM aura socate haiN| eka pApakarma bAMdhatA hai, dUsarA pApa-karma tor3atA hai! eka mana ko bojhila banAtA hai, dUsarA mana ko halakA banAtA hai| eka hRdaya ko gandA karatA hai, dUsarA hRdaya ko pavitra banAtA hai ! pahale eka bAta spaSTa kara dU~ : duniyA meM do prakAra kI ghaTanAe~ ghaTatI haiM : 1. apane jIvana ko sparza karane vAlI 2. dUsaroM ke jIvana ko chUne vAlI / eka ghaTanA jaba apane jIvana ko chUtI ho, usa samaya jo vicAra kiyA jAtA hai, vahI ghaTanA dUsare ke jIvana ko chUtI ho taba vaisA vicAra nahIM kiyA jAtA, dUsarA hI vicAra kiyA jAtA hai| eka udAharaNa se samajhAtA hU~ : rAste para eka manuSya dUsare ko mAra rahA hai, tU dekha rahA hai, yaha ghaTanA tere jIvana ko chUtI nahIM hai, yadi tU aisA socegA ki : acchI lar3AI ho rahI hai... dekhane meM majA A rahA hai... athavA 'isa duSTa ko mAranA hI cAhie... ThIka mAra khA rahA hai... usake pApakarma ke phala usako bhogane do...' tU vyartha hI pApakarma baaNdhegaa| paraMtu yadi tU socegA ki : oho... kaSAyoM kI kaisI prabalatA hai ...? kaSAya paravaza jIva, kaisI jIvahiMsA kara detA hai? eka samaya ye donoM mitra the... Aja zatru bana gae ... saMsAra meM kauna kAyama mitra rahatA hai? merA cale to jAkara donoM ko zAMta karU~.. kaSAya se bacA lU~.. / ' aise vicAroM se tU karmanirjarA karegA, puNyakarma kA baMdha kregaa| mAnoM ki tU svayaM rAste se gujara rahA hai, aura kisI ne tumako gAlI bola dI, apazabda bola die, usa samaya tU kyA socegA ? tU balavAna hai, gAlI bolane vAlA nirbala hai, tU kyA karegA? yadi tUne dUsare ajJAnI logoM kI taraha socA : 'kaisA nAlAyaka hai ... abhI eka cAMTA mAra dU~gA to battIsI bAhara A jAegI..' to pApakarma hI baMdhege / aise prasaMga para isa prakAra socanA cAhie ki : 'becArA apanI vacanazakti kA durupayoga kara rahA hai... usakI gAlI mujhe cipakatI nahIM hai... yadi maiM binA dveSa kie suna letA hU~, to merI karmanirjarA hotI hai... mujhe kSamAdharma kA pAlana karane kA yaha avasara detA hai...|' yadi apane vicAroM meM krodha nahIM hai, abhimAna nahIM milA hai, mAyA-kapaTa kI milAvaTa nahIM hai, lobha ghulA - milA nahIM hai, to pApakarmoM kA baMdha nahIM hogA / apane vicAroM meM jIvamAtra ke prati maitrI, karuNA, pramoda aura mAdhyasthya bhAva otaprota kara do| jisa vicAra meM ina cAra bhAvoM meM se eka bhI bhAva hogA, vicAra zuddha khlaaegaa| vicAra pavitra kahalAegA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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95 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai terA dUsarA prazna : samagra vizva meM... jar3a-cetana saba padArthoM meM AtmA kaise dekhI jAye? yadi sarvatra Atmadarzana ho jAye to mana meM parama zAMti sthApita hogI na? ___ jo jar3a padArtha haiM, unameM caitanya kA darzana kaise hogA? jar3a meM jar3a dekhanA aura cetana meM caitanya dekhanA vAstavika darzana hai| hAlAMki pRthvI, jala, teja vAyu aura vanaspati dikhate haiM jar3a, paraMtu haiM cetana! ina pRthvI vagairaha meM caitanya kA darzana kiyA jAtA hai| vaise jo pazu, pakSI aura mAnava haiM, unameM Atmavata darzana karane se apanA mana divya zAMti kA anubhava kara sakatA hai| paraMtu caitanya kA darzana karoge kaise? zabdoM meM bolanA sarala hai, vyavahAra meM lAnA itanA sarala nahIM hai| pratyeka jIvAtmA meM vizuddha AtmasvarUpa kA darzana karane kI Adata DAlanI pdd'egii| isalie eka acchA upAya hai : guNadarzana kaa| guNadarzana, Atmadarzana hai| doSadarzana, dehadarzana hai! jaba taka deha hai, taba taka doSa hai| jaba deha nahIM rahegI, doSa bhI nahIM rheNge| zuddha AtmasvarUpa meM eka bhI doSa nahIM hai| zuddhAtmA guNasvarUpa hai| jIvAtmA meM guNa dekhA yAnI Atmadarzana kiyA! jainadarzana guNa aura guNI ko apekSA se abhinna mAnatA hai| mAtra mAnyatA hI nahIM, vAstavikatA hai| saba jIvoM meM vizuddha Atmadarzana karane kA yaha 'prekTIkala' upAya hai| pratidina... pratikSaNa isa upAya ko AjamAyA jA sakatA hai| isakA prArambha karanA tere parivAra se| jisa parivAra ke sAtha tU rahatA hai, usa parivAra ke eka-eka sadasya ke koI na koI guNa dekhane kA prayatna karanA | yAda rakhanA, pratyeka jIvAtmA meM guNa hote hI haiN| apane pAsa guNadRSTi hogI to guNa dikheMge hii| kisI ke doSa dRSTipatha meM A jAye to socanA ki 'doSa deha ke haiM, AtmA ke nahIM!' doSoM ko mahatva nahIM denA / doSa dUra karane kA prayatna avazya karanA, paraMtu doSoM ke prati dveSa nahIM karanA yAnI doSita vyakti ke prati vidveSa nahIM krnaa| parivAra ke pratyeka sadasya ke viziSTa guNa yAda rakhanA / usake bAda mitra evaM snehIjanoM ke guNa dekhanA / guNadarzana se terA mana praphullita rhegaa| sAtha-sAtha vizuddha AtmasvarUpa kA, karmarahita zuddhAtmA kA dhyAna karanA / zuddha Atmadravya kA svarUpa to jAnatA hai na? maulika ATha guNoM kA jJAna to hai na? una guNoM ke mAdhyama se Atmadravya kA dhyAna karanA caahie| terA tIsarA prazna : 'merI AtmA hI paramAtmA hai,' aisA vicAra kara sakate For Private And Personal Use Only

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26 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai haiM? aisA vicAra karane se abhimAna nahIM AtA? mujhe aisA vicAra karanA cAhie kyA? merI manaHsthiti se Apa paricita haiN| vicAra acchA to hai paraMtu apUrNa hai! mUla svarUpa meM merI AtmA paramAtmA hai, vartamAna meM... anAdikAla se merI AtmA karmoM ke baMdhanoM se malIna hai... yadi maiM karmoM ke baMdhana tor3a dU~ to paramAtma-svarUpa pragaTa ho sakatA hai| 'jJAnasAra' grantha meM kahA gayA hai ki 'zuddhAtmadravyamevAha' maiM zuddha Atmadravya hU~ - isa vicAra se punaH-punaH bhAvita honA cAhie | apane mUla - 'orijinala svarUpa kA jJAna apane dharmapuruSArtha meM preraka banatA hai| ___ apane logoM meM AtmA kI vibhAvadazA kA jJAna to hai, svabhAva dazA kA itanA hI ajJAna hai! vibhAvadazA kA jJAna karmagranthoM ke adhyayana se prApta hotA hai aura kucha loga prApta karate bhI haiM, paraMtu svabhAvadazA kA jJAna jina granthoM meM se milatA hai, ve grantha loga par3hate hI nahIM! 'merA vAstavika svarUpa aisA jJAnamaya hai, aisA guNamaya hai', yaha jAnane se vaisA svarUpa prApta karane kI tamannA paidA hotI hai| karmajanya sukhoM se AtmA kA apanA sukha bahuta z2yAdA hai, zAzvata hai, avinAzI hai-yaha jAnane se anitya aura nAzavaMta sukhoM kI tRSNA kama hotI hai| tU zuddha AtmasvarUpa kA dhyAna kara sakatA hai| karmarahita zuddha Atmadravya kA cintana karane se terI AdhyAtmika pragati acchI hogii| Antara AnaMda meM abhivRddhi hogii| paraMtu zuddha AtmasvarUpa kA jJAna acchI taraha prApta kara lenaa| jJAna ke binA dhyAna nahIM ho sakatA | zuddha AtmasvarUpa kA jJAna gaharAI meM prApta karanA hogaa| kaise prApta kregaa| yadi thor3A samaya nikAla kara mere pAsa A jAye to? abhI kucha dina yahA~ rukane kA hai | yadi tU AtA ho to dUsare jijJAsu bhI yahA~ A sakate haiM aura sabako isa viSaya meM mArgadarzana mila sakatA hai| ___ abhI to yahA~ aMjanazalAkA-pratiSThA kA mahotsava zurU hogaa| paramAtmabhakti kA khUba acchA Ayojana huA hai| aneka sAdhu puruSa bhI yahA~ padhAre haiN| mahotsava meM AegA to prabhubhakti kA avasara milegA, bAda meM anukUlatA ho to bAda meM bhI A sakatA hai| tere tIna praznoM kA saMkSipta pratyuttara likhA hai| AtmA meM paramAtmasvarUpa kA dhyAna karane kI prakriyA, maiM rUbarU btaauuNgaa| prakriyA bahuta acchI hai, tU kara skegaa| __ svAsthya acchA hai| sAre kAryakalApa sucAru rUpa se cala rahe haiN| terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 97 (r) prema kI yathArtha abhivyakti paramAtmA ke prati samarpaNa meM hI samAhita hai| 8 jyoM-jyoM AtmA kA paramAtmA ke sAtha tAdAtmya bar3hatA hai... tyoM-tyoM divya anubhUtiyoM kA Aloka utarane lagatA hai, AtmA kI avani para! (r) kabhI zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra ke sAtha ghaTI gvAle ke dvArA kAnoM meM kIla ThoMkane kI ghaTanA ke bAre meM gaharAI se socA hai? usa pIr3A kI anubhUti mahasUsa kI hai? gaharAI meM utarane para yaha saMbhava ho sakatA hai| OM paramAtma-samarpaNa kA rAstA jitanA bhAvuka evaM bhAvanAzIla hRdaya ke lie hai... utanA tarka-vitarka kI jAla meM phaMse hue buddhijIviyoM ke lie nahIM hai! (r) dhyAna khaMDa meM, bhAvoM ke Aloka meM paramAtmA se milana zakya hotA hai! ThIka hai, zurU-zurU meM vaha milana bijalI ke kauMdhane jaisA hI kyoM na ho? para hotA jarUra hai| patra : 22 CA priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra par3hate-par3hate hRdaya gadagada ho gyaa| paramAtma-milana kI tIvra abhIpsA se terI cetanA kA UrcIkaraNa ho rahA hai| paramAtmaprIti hI prema kI yathArtha abhivyakti hai| 'prema' vizva kI zAzvata yathArthatA hai| mAnava ne usa 'prema' ke svarUpa ko vikRta karake rakha diyA hai| prema meM saMkIrNatA, kSaNikatA, kSullakatA aura mohAndhatA kI vikRtiyA~ praviSTa ho gaI haiN| ina vikRtiyoM se mukta 'prema' vizva meM bahuta-bahuta kama logoM meM pAyA jA sakatA hai| ___ samagratA se paramAtmA ke prati prema kara lenA jarUrI hai| paramAtmA ke lie hI jIvana hai... paramAtmA ke lie hI apanA hRdaya hai, paramAtmA ke lie hI apane tana-mana haiM, yaha nirNaya kara lenA cAhie / 'prema kA vizuddhIkaraNa karanA hogA | jyoM-jyoM prema kA vizuddhIkaraNa hotA jAegA, tyoM-tyoM usakA UrvIkaraNa hotA calegA, sAtha-sAtha cetanA kA bhI UrcIkaraNa hotA jaaegaa| upAsya se upAsaka kA, ArAdhya se ArAdhaka kA jyoM-jyoM tAdAtmya bar3hatA jAtA hai, tyoM-tyoM upAsaka agama-agocara divya anubhUtiyA~ karatA hai! usakI For Private And Personal Use Only

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98 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai manaHsRSTi divya bana jAtI hai 'sAyakolaoNjI oNpha rilIjana' ke lekhaka 'zrI thUlesa' ne 'senTa kaitharAina' kA prAmANika vivaraNa diyA hai| jaba kaitharAina IzumasIha se tAdAtmya pAtI thI, usake zarIra ke vibhinna bhAgoM meM vaisI hI pIr3A hotI thI, jaisI pIr3A IzumasIha ko kraoNsa para kIla se ThoMkate samaya huI thI! aisI avasthA meM eka DaoNkTara ko unakI dekhabhAla karanI par3atI thii| DaoNkTarI jA~ca meM pAyA gayA ki kaitharAina kI pIr3A vAstavika thii| priya mumakSu! yadi apanA aisA tAdAtmya bhagavAna mahAvIra se ho jAye... aura manaHsRSTi meM vaha ghaTanA... gvAle ne bhagavAna mahAvIra ke kAna meM kIla Thoke the... A jAye... pragAr3ha tAdAtmya ho jAe to hama ko bhI vaisI hI pIr3A kI anubhUti ho sakatI hai | vaisI vibhinna anubhUtiyA~ ho sakatI haiM | bhagavAna mahAvIra kA upadeza bhI vaise sunA jA sakatA hai! zuddha caitanya kA paramAtmA ke sAtha vaisA pragAr3ha tAdAtmya sthApita honA cAhie! paraMtu kaba hogA vaisA tAdAtmya... patA nhiiN| jaba kabhI kSaNika tAdAtmya bhI haA hai, maiMne aisI divya anubhUti kI hai| vaha anubhUti kSaNika hotI hai... kabhI-kabhAra hotI hai, paraMtu maiMne apUrva AnaMda pAyA hai| senTa kaitharAina jaisI pragAr3ha aura dIrghakAlIna anubhUti kaba hogI, nahIM jAnatA hU~ | cAhatA avazya hU~... lekina mAtra cAha se kyA hotA hai? __ paramAtmA ke aise pragAr3ha dhyAna meM lIna ho jAnA hai ki merI deha ke aNuaNu meM paramAtmA pratibiMbita ho jAye! koI merI A~khoM meM dekhe to usako paramAtmA ke hI darzana ho! yaha asaMbhava to nahIM hai! abhI-abhI maiMne eka amarIkI nAgarika 'TeDa seriyama' kA kissA par3hA hai| TeDa seriyama meM aisI cetanA vikasita huI hai ki vaha kaimare ke lensa meM dRSTi kara detA hai, phira vaha jisa vastu kI kalpanA, dhyAna karatA hai 'klika' karane para kaimare meM vahI phoTo A jAtA hai! yaha koI dhokhA yA cAlabAjI nahIM hai| manovaijJAnika DaoN. jUle AisenaveDa kI eka kamiTI ne aneka parIkSaNa kie aura upalabdha pramANa 'dI varlDa oNpha TeDa seriyama' ke nAma se 1967 meM prakAzita kraayaa| alaga-alaga kaimare, pleTeM aura usake cAroM ora loha-AvaraNa khar3e karake bhI citra khiMcavAe gae, jo sarvathA vAstavika mile| ina phoToM ko vizva prasiddha patrikA 'lAipha' meM prakAzita kiyA gayA tathA amarIkA ke atirikta aneka dezoM ke Telivijana kAryakramoM meM bhI ye dikhAe ge| For Private And Personal Use Only

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99 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai ___ kucha vaijJAnikoM ne to aise vyavadhAna khar3e kie ki reDiyo-taraMgeM bhI praveza na kara sake, taba bhI TeDa seriyama ne mAnasika kalpanA ke citra utAra die! unakI zailI dhyAna kI hai| kisI vastu kA vaha tanmayatA tathA pragAr3ha ekAgratA se dhyAna karatA hai, usa sthiti meM kaimare ko unakI A~khoM meM 'phokasa' kara citra liyA jAtA hai, to phoTo unake cehare yA A~khoM kA na Akara, usI vastu kA AtA hai, vaha jisakA dhyAna karatA hai! vaijJAnika mAna gae haiM ki TeDa kI ImAnadArI saMdigdhatA se pare hai| yaha bAta nahIM samajha pAe haiM ki yaha kaise hotA hai! AdhyAtmika cetanA kI jA~ca bhautika vijJAnazAstrI kaise kara pAe~ge? / ___ 'TeDa seriyama' jaisI tanmayatA aura pragAr3hatA apane dhyAna meM A jAye to!! paramAtmatattva kI divya anubhUtiyA~ hue binA na rheN| apane dharmagranthoM meM jahA~ 'dhyAna' kI carcA kI gaI hai, likhA hai ki jisa samaya manuSya samagratA se jisa vastu kA dhyAna karatA hai, usa samaya vaha usa vastu jaisA bana jAtA hai| bhAva-dhyAna meM dhyeya ke sAtha dhyAtA kA abheda ho jAtA hai| dhyAtA dhyeya rUpa bana jAtA hai! dhyAna meM jitanI pragAr3hatA utanA tAdAtmya prabala hotA hai| Aja vaijJAnika taura para yaha bAta sahI siddha ho gaI hai| sahI siddha hone se hamako kyA lAbha? usa dizA meM hama pUrNa lagana se Age bar3he aura sahAnubhUti karane lageM, to lAbha hai| tere lie cetanA ke UrcIkaraNa kA mArga sarala bana sakatA hai| paramAtmaprIti aura paramAtmabhakti ke kSetra meM terA praveza ho gayA hai| aba paramAtmadhyAna kI divya sRSTi meM praveza pAne kA bharasaka prayatna zurU kara de| terA hRdaya itanA komala hai, sarala hai, bhAvuka hai ki tU isa dizA meM pragati kara sakatA hai| paramAtmasamarpaNa kA mArga jitanA buddhimAnoM kA nahIM hai, utanA bhAvanAzIloM kA hai| jitanA tarka-vitarka kA nahIM hai, utanA zraddhA kA hai| jitanA vANI kA nahIM hai, utanA hRdaya kA hai| basa, isa mArga meM eka hI bhayasthAna hai, saMsAra kI mAyA-mamatA aura mRgajala kA! saMsAra kI sarvathA bhrAnta mAyA-mamatA kI chalanA meM yadi mana ulajha gayA, bhrAnti ko vAstavikatA mAna lene kI bhUla ho gaI, to mArgabhraSTa hone meM derI nahIM hogii| bhrAnti meM visaMvAda ho yA saMvAda ho, isase kyA? bhrAnti meM sundaratA ho yA kurUpatA ho, to bhI kyA? bhrAnti meM anukUlatA kyA aura pratikUlatA kyA? For Private And Personal Use Only

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100 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai / yadi aisA cintana-manana calatA rahe... saMsAra kI arthahInatA se hRdaya paricita ho jAye... to paramAtmaprIti kA, paramAtmazakti kA mArga sarala bana jAye! tU jAnatA hai na ki kSaNa-pratikSaNa saMsAra vedanAmaya hotA jA rahA hai? azAMtimaya hotA jA rahA hai? pArivArika jIvana aura sAmAjika jIvana kitanA asta-vyasta evaM klezapUrNa bana rahA hai? rASTrIya jIvana aura vaizvika jIvana kitanA bhayAnaka bana rahA hai? cAroM ora bhaya aura trAsa kA AtaMka phailatA jA rahA hai| isa paristhiti meM zAMti-samatA kA AsvAda kahA~ se milegA? paramAtma-samarpaNa hI zAMti-samatA kA AsvAda karA sakatA hai| dUsarA koI mArga nahIM hai, dUsarA koI upAya nahIM hai| paramAtmA ke smaraNa, darzana, stavana, pUjana ke sAtha paramAtmA kA dhyAna bhI atyanta Avazyaka hai| 'dhyAnakhaMDa' meM paramAtmA se milana hotA hai| bhAvAloka meM milana hotA hai| bhale, abhI vaha milana kSaNika ho... vidyuta ke camaka jaisI ho, parantu vaha kSaNa jIvana ko, prANa ko... hRdaya ko AnaMda se bhara detA hai| __ Ajakala dhyAnamArga kI apane saMgha meM upekSA ho rahI hai| dhyAnamArga kI upekSA kA pariNAma hai, citta kI caMcalatA aura vikssipttaa| bhale hI manuSya darzana-pUjana kare, tapa-tyAga kare, zAstroM kA adhyayana kare, paraMtu paramAtmadhyAna nahIM karatA hai to usakA mana zAMta, prazAMta nahIM bana sakatA hai| tujhe jJAna hai ki kaI aise tyAgI-tapasvI loga bhI zikAyata karate haiM ki 'hamArA mana sthira nahIM rahatA, mana meM zAMti nahIM mila rhii...|' kaI zAstravettAoM kI manaHsthiti bhI aisI hI hai| dhyAna kakSa meM ve pahu~cate hI nahIM! dhyAna kakSa meM hI paramAtmatattva se milana hotA hai! ___ tU pratidina dhyAna kakSa meM jAnA, thor3I kSaNoM ke lie bhI jAnA! tU jA sakegA, cU~ki tere prANoM meM paramAtma-cAha jagI huI hai| jhUThe saMsAra ke prati terI jJAnadRSTi khulI huI hai| saMsAra ke sukha tere pAsa bharapUra hone para bhI saMsAra ke prati tere hRdaya meM koI prabala AkarSaNa nahIM hai| isalie kahatA hU~ ki tU dhyAna khaMDa meM praveza kara sakegA aura paramAtmA se terA sukhada milana ho jaayegaa| duniyA kI bhramaNAoM meM ulajhanA mata | yadi jAgRta nahIM rahA to ulajhane meM derI nahIM lgegii| ulajhate hue kaiyoM ko dekhatA huuN| tyAgI-tapasvI bhI ulajha jAte haiM...! bhramaNAoM meM kho jAte haiM... taba hRdaya sAvadhAna ho jAtA hai... 'kahIM maiM na ulajha jAU~!' For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 101 dainika jIvanacaryA sucAru rUpa se cala rahI hai| 'yogodvahana' prasannatA se ho rahA hai| zArIrika aura mAnasika svasthatA hai| abhI-abhI kucha varSoM se kudarata hI Antara maMthana kI ora prerita kara rahI ho, aisA lagatA hai| Antara AnaMda kI yAtrA prArambha ho rahI hai! aisA lagatA hai| terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| DabhoI 1 mArca, 1978 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 102 (r) tattvajJAna ke prakAza meM aneka mAnasika gutthiyA~ sulajha jAtI haiM... aura _ phira apUrva AnaMda kI bhItarI duniyA Alokita hone lagatI hai| (r) sacce evaM samarpita hRdaya se kI gaI paramAtmA kI prArthanA kabhI niSphala nahIM jAtI! @ paramAtmA kI AjJA kA samucita pAlana unakI kRpA ke sahAre hI zakya hotA hai| (r) pApa auroM ke nahIM varana svayaM ke dekho... tAki pazcAttApa kA jharanA phUTa nikale bhItara meM! duHkha dekhanA ho to auroM ke dekho tAki karuNA kI gaMgA bahatI rahe aMta:karaNa meM! (r) saMbaMdhoM ko bojha mata banane do| tAllukAta yadi sakhta ho jAeMge to diladimAga bhI taMga rheNge| saMbaMdhoM ko mulAyama rakho... patharIle mata hone do| patra : 23 d priya gumukSu, dharmalAbha, terI kuzalatA ke samAcAra mile, prasannatA huii| maiM bhI prasanna hU~| tU jAnatA hai ki mujha se tapazcaryA nahIM hotI hai aura abhI 'yogodvahana' meM maiM tapazcaryA kara rahA hU~, isalie tujhe cintA honA svAbhAvika hai| parantu cintA mata karanA, kisI prakAra kI zArIrika-mAnasika vyathA ke binA aura tana-mana kI praphullatA ke sAtha tapazcaryA ho rahI hai / 'yogodvahana' kI viziSTa kriyAe~ bhI sucAru rUpa se ho rahI haiN| __ prAtaHkAla, madhyAhna aura sAyaMkAla... prasannatA ke puSpa khilate rahate haiN| dInatA, udAsInatA... vikalatA... mAno palAyana hI ho gae haiM! usa kavi ne kahA hai na... avadhU! sadA magana meM rahanA! abhI maganatA hai| jJAnamagnatA hai| kucha aisI gutthiyA~ sulajha rahI hai mana kI, kucha aisA tattvaprakAza prApta ho rahA hai... isa se apUrva Antara AnaMda, anubhava kara rahA huuN| jisa taraha prAkRtika dRzya sUraja kI rozanI ke anusAra For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 103 apanA rUpa grahaNa karate haiM, usI taraha hamArA Antara AnaMda bhI tattvaprakAza se vRddhi pAtA hai| bAhya padArtha aura bAhya vyakti para aba AnaMda nirbhara nahIM rhaa| priya-apriya aura anukUla-pratikUla para aba AnaMda AdhArita nahIM rhaa| varSoM taka yaha merI ulajhana banI rhii| priya aura anukUla ke saMyoga meM AnaMda anubhava karatA thA, apriya aura pratikUla ke saMyoga meM viSAda hotA thaa| priya ke viyoga meM udAsInatA ghera letI thii| isase... udAsInatA se mukti pAne ko mana varSoM se tar3apatA thA / priya-apriya meM sama sthiti cAhatA thA citta kii| tapa-tyAga aura jJAna-dhyAna se bhI maiM yahI sama sthiti prApta karanA cAhatA thA... paraMtu asaphala rahA! priya aura anukUla sthiti ne mujhe jahA~ ha~sAyA thA... apriya aura pratikUla sthiti ne mujhe rulAyA bhI hai| maiM hamezA merI yaha kamajorI mAnatA rhaa| merI vivazatA samajhatA rahA... paraMtu 'jJAnasAra' ke anuciMtana ne merI kamajorI ko miTA diyA hai| merI vivazatA naSTa kara dI hai| paramAtmA ne mAno ki merI pukAra suna lI hai| paramAtmA kI acintya kRpA ke binA mAtra cintana-anucintana se merI dInatA... udAsInatA dUra nahIM ho sakatI thii| maiM kaI varSoM taka paramAtmA se prArthanA karatA rahA huuN| merI prArthanA mAno ki suna lI gaI hai| mujhe isase atyaMta prasannatA hai| sacce hRdaya se kI huI paramAtma-prArthanA niSphala nahIM jAtI hai, isakA mujhe anubhava hai| dera ho sakatI hai, parantu galata nahIM hai| paramAtmA se unakI hI AjJAoM kA pAlana karane kI kSamatA prApta karane kI prArthanA karanA sarvathA ucita hai| citta ko samasthiti meM rakhanA, unakI hI AjJA hai| unakI parama kRpA se usa AjJA kA pAlana saMbhava hai| isalie tujhe bhI maiM yahI kahatA hU~ ki tU prArthanA ke dvArA apanI cittasthiti ko sama banAne kA prayatna kara | ___ abhI... abhI... thor3e dina pUrva eka prazna kA svayaMbhU samAdhAna prApta huaa| manuSya kI eka bahuta purAnI Adata hai ki vaha dUsaroM ke pApa dekhatA hai aura apane duHkha dekhatA hai| dUsaroM ke pApa dekhakara unake prati dveSa, tiraskAra aura dhikkAra jaisI manovRtti dhAraNa karatA hai aura apane duHkhoM ko rotA phiratA hai| apane du:khoM ko dUra karane ke lie aneka pApAcaraNa bhI karatA hai... phira bhI vaha pApa to dUsare manuSyoM ke hI dekhatA hai| isase vaha sadaiva azAMta, asvastha aura vyAkula banA rahatA hai| __yadi manuSya ko zAMti, svasthatA aura prasannatA se jIvana vyatIta karanA hai, to usako yaha Adata badalanI hogii| usako pApa apane svayaM ke dekhane hoMge For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 104 aura duHkha dUsaroM ke dekhane hoNge| dUsaroM ke pApa dekhe nahIM aura apane duHkhoM ko dekhe nahIM, to zAMti kA mArga mila jaaye| dharma kA mArga mila jaaye| dUsaroM ke duHkha dekhane se usake hRdaya meM dayA aura karuNA ubhar3egI / apane pApa dekhane se pazcAttApa hogA aura pApamukta hone ke vicAra aaeNge| ___ paraMtu yahA~ eka prazna paidA hotA hai| dUsaroM ko... jinakI hamAre Upara jimmedArI hotI hai, unake pApa nahIM dekheM to unako kaise sudhAreMge? unako pApoM se kaise bacAe~ge? yadi unako nahIM bacAe~ to jimmedArI kA pAlana nahIM hogaa|' __ AzritoM ke pApa dekhe jA sakate haiM, paraMtu unake prati dveSa nahIM honA caahie| bImAra ko DaoNkTara dekhatA hai... paraMtu bImAra ke prati roSa nahIM karatA hai| prema se usakA nidAna karatA hai aura davAI detA hai| roga zarIra ke haiM, to pApa AtmA ke haiN| zarIra se rogI ke prati karuNA karate haiM, to AtmA se pApI ke prati karuNA kyoM nahIM? karuNA se usako samajhAyA jAye aura pApamukta karane ke upAya batAe jaayeN| upAya vaha kare to acchA hai, nahIM kareM to bhI usake prati dhikkAra kI bhAvanA mata rkho| kisI kI bhI jimmedArI itanI sakhta rUpa se apane sira pe mata le lo ki jisase Apa vyAkula bana jaao| vAstava meM hara manuSya kI jimmedArI usakI svayaM kI hai| hama to phAlatU hI sArI duniyA kI jimmedArI sira pe car3hAe phirate haiN| 'saba jIva pApamukta ho jAye', vaisI bhAvanA rakhanA ucita hai, paraMtu jo pApamukta nahIM banate haiM, unake prati roSa yA krodha karanA anucita hai| duniyA ke sAre saMbaMdha eka nATaka ke saMbaMdha jaise to haiN| nATaka meM jo saMbaMdha dikhAe jAte haiM... kyA ve saca hote haiM? nhiiN| vaise, isa bhavanATaka ke saMbaMdha bhI saca nahIM hote| yaha to mAtra vyavahAra dazA hai| nizcaya se to AtmA nirbaMdha hai aura alipta hai| isa vicAra ko hRdaya meM surakSita rakhakara jIvana vyatIta karanA Avazyaka hai| mujhe to merI manaHzAMti meM isa tattvavicAra ne acchA sahayoga diyA hai| saMbaMdhoM ke vyApaka baMdhana aura jimmedAriyoM ne manuSya ko itanA mUr3ha banA diyA hai ki vaha apane Apako kho baiThA hai| jaise usakA svayaM kA koI astitva hI na ho| jo hai, vaha saMbaMdha hai| jo hai, vaha duniyA hai| paraMtu samajha lenA cAhie ki saMbaMdhoM ke lie hama nahIM hai, apane lie saMbaMdha hai| duniyA ke lie hama nahIM haiM, apane lie duniyA hai| apane Apako kho diyA... to phira saMbaMdha kisalie? For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 105 jIvana jIne kI kalA prApta kara le| kucha aise vicAroM kA parivartana kara le| duHkhapUrNa saMsAra meM bhI jJAnI puruSa AnaMda se jI sakatA hai| usako duHkha hotA hai, to dUsaroM ko duHkhI dekha kara | sukhI jIvana jIne ke upAya... mArga hone para bhI jo jIva usa mArga para nahIM cala rahe haiM aura duHkhI hote haiM, unako dekhakara jJAnI puruSoM kA hRdaya duHkhI hotA hai| unako apane svayaM ke koI duHkha nahIM hote| ve mAnasika sRSTi ke svarga meM jIte haiN| ___ jo manuSya apane Apako duHkhI nahIM mAnatA hai, vaha svarga meM hI jItA hai| jo manuSya apane Apako duHkhI mAnatA hai, vaha naraka meM jItA hai| kyoM jAnabUjhakara naraka meM jInA? svarga meM jInA sIkha lo| tattvajJAna se hI yaha saMbhava hai| paramAtmakRpA se hI yaha saMbhava hai| kyA likhanA thA aura kyA likha diyA! tere patra ke pratyuttara to sabake saba raha ge| aura maiMne merI bAteM hI likha dii| yU~ to terA patra Ane se pUrva hI yaha saba likhanA thA, paraMtu 'paramAtma-pratimA-pratiSThA' mahotsava meM vyasta hone se nahIM likha skaa| tere praznoM ke uttara likhUgA, paraMtu Aja nahIM... Age likhuugaa| 'yogodvahana' meM eka 'kAlagrahaNa' kI viziSTa kriyA karane kI hotI hai| zAstra-adhyayana meM 'kAlazuddhi' ko kitanA mahattva diyA hai jJAnI puruSoM ne! 'kAlazuddhi' na ho to zAstrAdhyayana nahIM ho sakatA hai| bhAvazuddhi meM 'kAlazuddhi' prabala nimitta mAnA hai| isa viSaya meM bhI ciMtana ho rahA hai| zramaNajIvana meM zAstraadhyayana kA kitanA mahatvapUrNa sthAna hai| zAstraadhyayana ke lie tapa karanA par3atA hai, yaugika kriyAe~ karanI par3atI haiM, kAlazuddhi dekhanI par3atI hai| kabhI tU yahA~ AegA taba isa viSaya meM bAta kruuNgaa| hai yaha thor3I gaharI bAta, paraMtu tU samajha skegaa| terI citta prasannatA cAhatA huuN| DabhoI, 1 apraila 78 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 106 (r) vairAgya kevala sAdhu jIvana meM hI nahIM varana gRhasthajIvana meM bhI utanA hI jarUrI evaM upayogI hai| para yaha bAjAra se kharIdI jA sake, vaisI cIja nahIM hai! (r) vairAgya sahaja svAbhAvika guNa hai| jaba AtmA kI vikAsa yAtrA yoga sAdhanA ke kSetra meM se gujaratI hai... taba svata: vairAgya kA AvirbhAva hone lagatA hai| OM kabhI bhI bAharI AcaraNa yA kriyAkalApa se vyakti ke vyaktitva kA mUlyAMkana karane kI galatI mata krnaa| (r) jar3a-cetana padArthoM kA upayoga karanA eka bAta hai aura usase lagAva banAe rakhanA alaga bAta hai| * vairAgya ke sAtha-sAtha saMyama sAdhanA kA utsAha evaM umaMga bhI sAdhaka jIvana meM jarUrI hai| patra : 24 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, __ patra milA, terI kuzalatA, prasannatA se merI antarAtmA prasanna bnii| isa patra meM tUne eka mahatvapUrNa prazna pUcha liyA hai, isalie pahale tere prazna kA pratyuttara denA ucita lagatA hai, anyathA tujhe apane mana kI bAteM kucha likha detA! Ajakala mana meM kucha samasyAoM kA samAdhAna tAtvika dRSTi se khoja rahA huuN| samAdhAna mila bhI rahe haiM aura Antara-zAMti kA prazasta-patha Alokita ho rahA hai| ___ Aja tere prazna kA uttara likhatA huuN| terA prazna hai : saMyamajIvana-sAdhu jIvana meM mAtra vairAgya hI apekSita hai yA dUsarI bhI bAteM apekSita haiM? haiM, to kauna-kauna sI? priya mumukSu! vairAgya mAtra sAdhu jIvana meM hI nahIM, gRhasthajIvana meM bhI itanA hI Avazyaka hai| paraMtu vairAgya aisI vastu nahIM hai ki bAjAra se kharIda le Ae~! vairAgya sahaja-svAbhAvika guNa hai| jaba AtmA kI vikAsa yAtrA yoga kSetra meM praveza karatI hai, AtmA meM sahaja bhAva se vairAgya kA AvirbhAva ho jAtA hai| gRhastha manuSya kA yoga ke kSetra meM praveza ho sakatA hai| jisako hama 'mithyAdRSTi' For Private And Personal Use Only

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107 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai kahate haiM, unakA bhI yogakSetra meM praveza ho sakatA hai| unameM vairAgya jAgRta ho hI jAtA hai| tU 'vairAgya' kA arthaghaTana kyA karatA hai? vairAgya kA sambandha jitanA bAhya AcaraNa ke sAtha nahIM hai, utanA manuSya ke hRdaya ke sAtha hai| virakta hRdaya kA kabhI to bAhya-AcaraNa meM pratibimba dikhatA hai, kabhI pratibimba nahIM bhI dikhe| apanI Adata hai, bAhya-AcaraNa se manuSya ko nApane kI! yaha apanI eka bahuta bar3I bhramaNA hai| bAhya AcaraNa se usakA hRdaya bhinna ho sakatA hai| hRdaya se bhinna usakA bAhya AcaraNa ho sakatA hai| bAhya AcaraNa meM rAgapracuratA dikhe, aura hRdaya meM vairAgya ho sakatA hai! vaise, bAhya jIvana vyavahAra meM vairAgya dikhe para hRdaya meM rAga kI Aga jalatI ho sakatI hai| dUsare manuSyoM meM vairAgya kA nirNaya karanA apane lie muzkila hai| hama to apane hI viSaya meM nirNaya kara sakate haiM ki hama meM vairAgya hai yA nhiiN| zAMtipUrNa, prasannatApUrNa jIvana vyatIta karane ke lie 'vairAgya' anivArya hai| kisI bhI jar3a-cetana padArtha se apanA lagAva nahIM rahanA cAhie, yahI vairAgya hai| jar3a-cetana padArtha kA upayoga karanA eka bAta hai, lagAva honA dUsarI bAta hai| virakta manuSya jar3a-cetana padArtha kA upayoga to karatA hai, paraMtu una padArthoM se usakA lagAva nahIM hotA hai| ___ saMyamajIvana meM vairAgya to Avazyaka hai hI, vairAgya ke alAvA dUsarI bahuta sI bAteM apekSita haiN| sacce hRdaya se, mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA karane kI lagana se yadi saMyamajIvana yAnI sAdhu jIvana svIkArA jAtA ho to vairAgya ke alAvA dUsarI aneka yogyatAe~ apekSita haiN| ___ eka yuvaka ne eka bAra mujhe pUchA thA : 'vairAgya meM kyA vaha AnaMda, vaha khuzI, vaha mastI hotI hai, jo rAga meM hotI hai?' maiMne usako kahA thA : 'tUne rAga meM hI AnaMda aura mastI kA anubhava kiyA hai, maiMne donoM kA anubhava kiyA hai! saMsAra meM maiMne rAgajanya mastI kA anubhava kiyA hai aura zramaNajIvana meM vairAgya kI mastI kA bhI anubhava kiyA hai| rAgajanya mastI se vairAgyajanya mastI... AnaMda... khuzI kitanI apUrva hotI hai... maiM zabdoM meM kaise batAU~? tU anubhava karake dekha! bhartRhari ko piMgalA rAnI ke saMga meM jo khuzI, jo mastI kA anubhava huA thA, isase z2yAdA mastI kA anubhava jaMgaloM meM paramAtmA ke dhyAna meM huA hogaa| nirjana vanoM meM ekAkI paribhramaNa kI bhI eka adbhuta mastI hotI hai| 4040 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 108 eka bAta samajha lenA ki vairAgya meM nIrasatA nahIM hai| vairAgya meM rasapracuratA hai| vairAgya meM zAMti... antaHkaraNa kI parama zAMti hai| aisI zAMti aura zAMti ke kSaNoM meM hI saMyamajIvana kI viziSTa ArAdhanA ho sakatI hai| vairAgya ke sAtha-sAtha cAhie sAdhanA-ArAdhanA kA utsAha aura umaMga! vairAgya hai, paraMtu jJAnaprApti kA utsAha na ho, tapazcaryA karane kA ullAsa na ho, Avazyaka dharmAnuSThAnoM kA umaMga na ho, to vairAgya dIrghakAla nahIM ttikegaa| kSaNajIvI bana jaayegaa| bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ne 'sUtrakRtAMga' sUtra meM yaha bAta saMkSepa meM kaha dI hai| unhoMne kahA hai ki saMyamajIvana meM 'udyamavIrya' honA cAhie / 'udyamavIrya' kA artha yahI hai, jJAna-tapazcaraNa Adi meM satata utsAha se pravRtti krnaa| ___ jaba kabhI koI sAdhu yA sAdhvI kahate haiM ki 'hameM adhyayana meM majA nahIM AtA, dharmagranthoM ko par3hane meM utsAha nahIM bar3hatA' ityAdi... to mujhe bar3A Azcarya hotA hai| jJAna... abhinava jJAna prApta karane meM, dhArmika-AdhyAtmika jJAna prApta karane meM sAdhaka kA utsAha-umaMga bar3hatA jAnA cAhie | tapazcaryA evaM vividha dharmAnuSThAna karane meM harSollAsa bar3hatA jAnA caahie| vairAgya ko dIrghajIvI banAne ke lie, udyamavIrya anivAryarUpa se honA cAhie | maiMne aise do-cAra yuvaka evaM taruNa ko isalie dIkSA nahIM dI, kyoMki unameM yaha 'udyamavIrya' maiMne nahIM dekhA / vairAgya ho jAne se saMsAra to chor3a denA sarala hai, paraMtu udyamavIrya ke abhAva meM vairAgya ko sthira karanA saMbhava nahIM hai| sAdhu jIvana yAnI sAdhaka jIvana! sAdhanA ke jIvana meM jJAnAnaMda hI bar3A AnaMda hai| jJAnAnaMda nahIM hogA to phira mana viSayAnaMda prApta karane ko daudd'egaa| sAdhaka sAdhanApatha se gira jaaegaa| vairAgya ke sAtha jaise 'udyamavIrya' cAhie vaisA dUsarA 'dhRtivIrya' caahie| dhRtivIrya kA artha hotA hai, cittasamAdhAna | saMyamamArga meM sthiratA! sAdhanA ke jIvana meM bhI prazna to paidA hoMge hii| mana hai nA! mana tarka-vitarka karatA rahatA hai| AtmA jAgRta hotI hai to una tarka-vitarkoM kA samAdhAna karatI rahatI hai| mana ke tarka vitarkoM kA samAdhAna karanA... punaH-punaH samAdhAna karanA Avazyaka bana jAtA hai| jinake pAsa AtmajJAna hotA hai, zAstrajJAna hotA hai, ve apane mana kA samAdhAna svayaM hI kara lete haiN| mAnasika samAdhAna meM hI sthiratA, samatA aura prasannatA banI rahatI hai| mana ke vikalpoM meM hI asthiratA, viSamatA aura vikalatA vikasita hotI hai| vairAgI ko apane mana kA samAdhAna svayaM hI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 109 karane caahie| yadi svayaM samAdhAna nahIM kara sakatA hai, to gurujanoM ke prati pUrNa samarpaNa karade, gurudevoM se samAdhAna prApta kara, sthiratA prApta karanI cAhie / Ajakala saMsAra meM vyApakarUpa se manuSyoM meM citta kI caMcalatA aura vikalatA dikhAI de rahI hai| isameM bhI taruNa aura taruNI, yuvaka va yuvatI vizeSa rUpa se caMcala aura vikala pAe jA rahe haiN| asaMkhya vikalpoM se unakA mana becaina hai| unake pAsa sahI samAdhAna DhU~r3hane kA jJAna nahIM hai| skUlakaoNlejoM meM aisA jJAna diyA nahIM jAtA aura jahA~ se aisA AtmajJAna mila sakatA hai, vahA~ unase jAyA nahIM jAtA ! pariNAma svarUpa, karor3oM yuvakayuvatiyoM kA mAnasika-vaicArika stara gira gayA hai / ve apane svayaM ke, parivAra ke, samAja ke, prazna sulajhA nahIM sakate haiN| sulajhAne jAte haiM aura ulajha jAte haiM! unakA jIvana aneka vyasanoM se evaM visaMvAdoM se bhara jAtA hai| ve dizAzUnya evaM zUnyamanaska bhaTaka rahe haiN| eka bAta yAda rakhanA ki hara manuSya meM vairAgya kA bIja to hotA hI hai / usa bIja ko aMkurita hone ke lie, vikasita hone ke lie cAhie anukUla vAtAvaraNa! anukUla zikSA aura dIkSA ! vairAgya ko panapane kA Aja vAtAvaraNa hI kahA~ hai? rAga-dveSa ko uttejita karane kA hI vAtAvaraNa bana gayA hai| vairAgya kA bIja bhItara hI bhItara sar3a jAegA athavA bIjarUpa hI par3A rhegaa| vairAgya ke binA jIvana ke praznoM kA saccA samAdhAna milane vAlA nhiiN| gRhasthajIvana meM bhI mana kA viraktabhAva atyaMta Avazyaka hai ! 'vairAgya to sAdhusAdhvI meM hI cAhie', aisI bhramaNA yadi mana meM ho to nikAla denA / jisa kisI ko cittazAMti cAhie, mana kI svasthatA cAhie, AtmA kA UrdhvakaraNa cAhie, usako vairAgyabhAvanA kA vikAsa karanA hI hogaa| eka bAta jarUrI nahIM hai ki vairAgya ho to tyAga karanA hI par3e ! saMsAra ke viSayasukha bhogane vAle bhI vairAgI ho sakate haiM! vairAgI hone se viSayopabhoga meM manuSya pAgala nahIM bana jAtA / usakI cittavRttiyA~ asaMyamI nahIM bana jAtI / vairAgya ke vikAsa meM manuSya, pApa ho jAne para bhI, pazcAttApa karatA hai / 'maiMne yaha kAma acchA nahIM kiyA, maiMne burA kAma kiyA... aisA vicAra usake mana meM A jAtA hai| aise vicAroM se bure kAryoM para niyaMtraNa A jAtA hai / tUne to sAdhu jIvana meM vairAgya kI AvazyakatA batAI hai, maiM kahatA hU~ ki gRhasthajIvana meM bhI vairAgyamaya antaHkaraNa cAhie ! sAdhu jIvana meM to anivArya For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 110 rUpa se vairAgya cAhie | tyAga ho, paraMtu vairAgya nahIM ho to tyAga bhI patana hI karavAtA hai| vairAgyarahita tyAga se abhimAna hI bar3hatA hai| ahaMkAra aura tiraskAra bar3hatA hai| svayaM ke tyAga kA ahaMkAra aura dUsaroM ke prati tiraskAra bar3hatA hai| jIvana burAiyoM se bhara jAtA hai| vairAgyarahita tyAgI kabhI-kabhI dekhane meM A jAte haiM... to unake jIvana meM ye bAteM pratyakSa rUpa se pAI jAtI haiM! unakA patana hote bhI dekhA jAtA hai| ___ sAdhu jIvana kA artha hI hai vairAgya sahita tyAgamaya jIvana! sAdhu jIvana kA kartavya bhI vairAgya bhAvanA ko puSTa karane kA hotA hai| kyoMki vairAgya ke vikAsa ke sAtha-sAtha AtmAnaMda kI, jJAnAnaMda kI, saccidAnaMda kI vRddhi hotI vairAgya ke sAtha-sAtha udyamavIrya aura dhRtivIrya caahie| vaise, tIsarA dhIratAvIrya cAhie | dhIratAvIrya kA artha hai, akSobha! duHkhoM meM, kaSToM meM vikSubdhatA nhiiN| sAdhu jIvana ko svIkAra karane vAle yaha samajhakara hI svIkAra karate haiM ki 'isa jIvana meM mujhe jAnabUjha kara duHkha evaM kaSToM ko sahana karane haiN| duHkha sahana karane kI kSamatA mere meM honI hI caahie|' aisA samajhakara jo sAdhusAdhvI banate haiM, ve duHkha yA kaSTa Ane para nArAja nahIM hote, prasanna hote haiM! unameM 'dhIratAvIrya' hotA hai| mana vikSubdha nahIM banatA, prasanna banatA hai| 'vairAgya' ke sAtha yadi yaha 'dhIratAvIrya' ho to vaha bhagavAna mahAvIra kI bhA~ti akSubdhatA ke sAtha kaSToM ko sahana kara apanI AtmA ko ujjvala banA sakatA hai| mahAna gRhastha aise zrAvaka-zrAvikAoM ke jIvana meM bhI 'dhIratAvIrya' dekhane ko milatA hai! pUrvakAla meM zreSThi suvrata, zreSThi sudarzana, mahAsatI sItA, aMjanA, manoramA vagairaha ke jIvana meM yaha 'dhIratAvIrya' thaa| tIvra koTi ke kaSTa Ane para bhI ve vicalita nahIM hue the, vikSubdha nahIM bane the| gRhasthajIvana meM 'dhIratAvIrya' kA kucha vikAsa huA ho aura sAdhu jIvana ko svIkAra kareM, to usakA sAdhu jIvana vizeSa saphala banatA hai| athavA sAdhu jIvana kA svIkAra isa dRr3ha saMkalpa ke sAtha kiyA ho ki 'mujhe sAdhu jIvana meM, kaSTa Ane para bhI kSubhita nahIM honA hai, caMcalacitta nahIM bananA hai, kaSToM se dUra nahIM jAnA hai...' to bhI vaha sAdhu jIvana kA AnaMda pA sakatA hai| samatA sahita avicala citta se kaSTa sahana karane kI kSamatA 'dhIratAvIrya' hai| 'zrI sUtrakRtAMgasUtra' meM gyAraha prakAra ke vIrya batAe haiN| zeSa ATha prakAra ke vIrya Age ke patra meM ligA / aba DabhoI se vihAra kI taiyAriyA~ cala rahI haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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C 111 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai saurASTra kI puNyabhUmi kI ora jA rahe haiM / varSAkAla lIMbaDI meM vyatIta hogA / svAsthya ThIka cala rahA hai / tapazcaryA kA asara zarIra para hotA hI hai... paraMtu mere sAre kAryakalApa sucAru rUpa se cala rahe haiN| tU kahA~ milegA ? lIMbaDI meM? tere tana-mana kI prasannatA cAhatA hU~ / DabhoI, 1-5-78 600 C priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 112 (r) jIvana kI yAtrA meM rAstA hamezA sIdhA yA eka sA nahIM rahatA hai... kabhI Ter3hA-mer3hA... kabhI Ubar3a-khAbar3a... bhI rAstA AtA hai... para yAtrA ko roke bagaira gatizIla rahanA hai| (r) apane acche evaM adbhuta kAryoM kI prasiddhi kA moha bhI khataranAka hai! 'ahaM' kI Aga isase bar3hatI hai... aura 'ahaM' kI upasthiti meM 'ahaM' kI upAsanA zakya nahIM hai| (r) zarIrazakti kA tanika bhI apavyaya sAdhaka ke lie ucita nahIM hai| zarIrazakti, vacanazakti evaM vicArazakti kA saMgraha karanA caahie| (r) sAdhanA kI rAha meM pratipala jAgRta rahakara AtmA ko pramAda se bacAnA hai| (r) bAharI tyAga, tapa ke sAtha-sAtha bhItarI anAsakti bhI ati Avazyaka hai| patra : 26 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, mana kI akSuNNa prasannatA jIvanayAtrA meM sahacarI bana rahI hai| kabhI jIvanapatha sIdhA AtA hai... kabhI Ter3hA bhI AtA hai! kahIM para mor3a bhI AtA hai... paraMtu yAtrA abAdhita gati se ho rahI hai| yAtrI apane gantavya ke prati pragati kara rahA haiN| isa jIvana yAtrA meM kucha sahayAtrI apanA patha badala lete haiM, to kucha nae yAtrI sAthI bana jAte haiM... yAtrA hai na! bahuta laMbI yAtrA hai| laMbI yAtrA meM saba yAtrI samAna dhairyavAle nahIM hote haiN| kucha yAtrI adhIra bana jAte haiM : 'itanA calane para bhI abhI taka gA~va nahIM AyA...? hama to thaka gae haiM... hamane galata rAstA le liyA hai... hameM Age nahIM bar3hanA hai... hama to yahA~ hI ruka jAe~ge.. vApisa lauTa jaaeNge..|' yAtrA meM aisI dhvani aksara sunAI detI hai| aise adhIra yAtrI apanI yAtrA pUrNa nahIM kara paate| DabhoI se bar3audA hote hue khaMbhAta pahuMce the| khaMbhAta gujarAta kA aitihAsika prAcIna nagara hai| 'staMbhana pArzvanAtha' bhagavaMta kI prabhAvazAlI nayanaramya pratimA hai| darzanIya jinAlaya hai| vaise to yahA~ karIbana 70 jinamaMdira haiM aura vizAlakAya upAzraya hai| dasa varSa pUrva isI nagara meM mere parama gurudeva zrI kA svargavAsa ho gayA thaa| una mahApuruSa kA puNya nAma thA AcAryadeva zrI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 113 vijayapremasUrIzvarajI mahArAja / maiMne unake hI pAvana caraNoM meM zramaNa jIvana svIkAra kiyA thaa| dIkSA aura zikSA donoM, una parama karuNAvaMta parama gurudeva zrI se pAI thI / ve jaina-Agama granthoM ke praur3ha vidvAna the / 'karma-philaoNsaoNphI' ke aneka granthoM kA unhoMne talasparzI adhyayana kiyA thA aura aneka sAdhuoM ko adhyApana karAyA thaa| saMyama jIvana kI mahAyAtrA ke ve apramatta, sadaiva jAgRta yAtrI the| kitanA unakA vAtsalyapUrNa hRdaya thA! mahAna AcArya hote hue bhI ve vinamra the / koI abhimAna nahIM, koI sammAnalipsA nahIM / cAritradharma unako AtmasAta ho gayA thaa| hajAroM strI-puruSoM ko unhoMne cAritradharma ke cAhaka aura ArAdhaka banAe the| unameM mAnasika aura zArIrika apUrva sahanazIlatA thii| maiMne unake jIvana meM itanI vizeSatAe~ pAI haiM ki una vizeSatAoM kA varNana likhane baiThUM to kaI varSa nikala jAya! jaba hama khaMbhAta meM the, tabhI unakI 10 vIM svargArohaNa tithi AI thI / vaizAkha vada : 11 ( rAjasthAnI jeTha vada 11) unakI svargavAsa tithi hai / T unhoMne Adhunika zikSA nahIM pAI thI, phira bhI Adhunika zikSA pAne vAle aneka yuvaka unake ziSya bne| aneka saMpanna parivAra ke yuvakoM ne aura praur3hoM ne unake caraNoM meM jIvana samarpaNa kiyA thaa| unakA jIvana tapomaya thA, phira bhI unakI mukhAkRti ugratA kI vikRti se mukta thii| ve utane hI udAra, sahanazIla aura gaMbhIra prakRti ke mahApuruSa the| maiMne tujhe gata patra meM 'sUtrakRtAGgasUtra' ke anusAra 11 prakAra ke 'vIrya' ke viSaya meM likhA thA na? isa mahApuruSa ke jIvana meM ye gyAraha prakAra ke 'vIrya' ullasita the| aisA pratIta hotA thA / tIna prakAra ke vIrya gata patra meM batAe the : 1. udyamavIrya, 2 . dhRtivIrya, 3 . dhIratAvIrya / jisa kisI ko AtmasAdhanA ke patha para agrasara honA hai, unameM ye vIrya avazya hone hI caahie| isake binA vaha AtmakalyANa ke mArga para pragati nahIM kara sakatA / cauthA vIrya hai, zauNDIrya vIrya / isakA sIdhA artha hotA hai, tyAga-saMpannatA / usakA hRdaya tyAgapriya ho / bhogalAlasA naSTa ho gaI ho, athavA upazAMta ho gaI ho| zauNDIrya-vIrya kA dUsarA artha hai, Apatti meM adInatA ! Apatti meM kheda nahIM, glAni nahIM, dInatA nahIM / kaisA bhI vikaTa kartavya upasthita ho, jisa manuSya meM zauNDIrya-vIrya hogA, vaha harSa se, ullAsa se vikaTa kartavya kA bhI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 114 pAlana kregaa| yaha vIrya kAyara aura dIna-hIna manuSya meM nahIM ho sakatA hai| kAyara aura sukhazIla manuSya viSama... vikaTa kartavya se dUra bhAgatA hai| parAkramI puruSa kaThina... duSkara kArya ko saharSa grahaNa karatA hai aura pUrNa lagana se usa kArya ko pUrA karane kA puruSArtha karatA hai| pA~cavA~ vIrya hai, kssmaa-viiry| jisa mahAmAnava meM yaha kSamAvIrya hotA hai, usake prati koI kitanA bhI Akroza kare, apamAna kare, apakIrti kare, phira bhI unake mana meM thor3A sA bhI kSobha nahIM hotA hai| jarA sI bhI glAni nahIM hotI hai| Akroza karane vAle ke prati, apamAna karane vAle ke prati roSa nahIM hotA hai| usakA mana nirvikArI banA rahatA hai| priya mumukSu! mAtra sAdhu jIvana meM hI nahIM, gRhasthajIvana meM bhI yadi saphala jIvana vyatIta karanA hai to ye bAteM gRhasthajIvana meM bhI kAphI Avazyaka haiN| ina bAtoM kA abhAva, jIvana meM acchAiyoM kA abhAva paidA kara detA hai| hara manuSya ke jIvana meM kucha pratikUla paristhitiyA~ AtI haiM, una paristhitiyoM meM jo manuSya apane manomastiSka ko nirAkula banAye rakhatA hai, avyathita banAye rakhatA hai, vaha, manuSya kI jIvanayAtrA ko AnaMdapUrNa banA sakatA hai| jaise dUsare logoM ke Akroza hone para bhI apane mana meM vikSubdhatA nahIM AnI cAhie vaise hama kitanA bhI camatkArika kArya kareM phira bhI apane meM auddhatya nahIM AnA caahie| isako kahate haiM gAmbhIryavIrya! apane adabhuta kAryoM kI prasiddhi kA moha nahIM cAhie! 'maiMne aise-aise acche kArya kie haiM... mere jaisA camatkArika kArya koI nahIM kara sakatA... isa prakAra garva karanA vyartha hai| apane acche kAryoM ke AdhAra para garva karanA, auddhatya hai| gaMbhIra manuSya kabhI bhI apane mahAna kAryoM para garva nahIM karegA, auddhatya nahIM kregaa| gAmbhIrya eka prakAra kA vIrya hai, yAnI parAkrama hai| ___ sAdhaka manuSya meM gAmbhIrya honA hI caahie| viziSTa jJAna kI prApti meM gAmbhIrya anivArya mAnA gayA hai| zrI sthUlabhadrajI jaise kAmavijetA mahAmuni ne alpa kSaNoM ke lie gAmbhIrya kho diyA thA... apanI bhaginI-sAdhvIoM ko apanI viziSTa jJAnazakti se cakita kara dene kI bhAvanA jagI... aura siMha kA rUpa banAkara baiTha gae..! 'merI bhaginI-sAdhviyoM ko jJAta ho ki maiMne kaisI jJAna zakti... maMtra zakti prApta kI hai!' isa auddhatya se gurudeva bhadrabAhu svAmI ne unako Age vizeSajJAna nahIM diyA! eka ziSya ne sAdhanA karate-karate pAnI para calane kI evaM manacAhI vastu prApta For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 115 karane kI siddhi prApta kara lii| vaha guru ke pAsa gayA aura garva se bolA : 'gurudeva ! maiM pAnI para cala sakatA hU~ aura jo cAhU~ vaha vastu prApta kara sakatA huuN|' gurudeva bole : 'yaha koI bar3I bAta nahIM hai| pAnI para calA dene kA kAma to nAvika bhI kucha paise lekara kara detA hai aura vastue~ banAne kA jahA~ taka prazna hai, mAmUlI se jAdUgara bhI rupayA phala, puSpa... banAte rahate haiM ! kyA itanI sArI tapasyA va sAdhanA kA uddezya isa taraha kI tuccha zaktiyoM kI prApti ke lie hI thA ? tapasyA va sAdhanA kA dhyeya to paramAtma-prApti hI honA cAhie, AtmA aura paramAtmA kA abhinna saMbaMdha sthApita karane ke lie hI honA caahie|' sAtavA~ vIrya hai, upayogavIrya / dravya-kSetra - kAla aura bhAva ke jJAnasAdhaka ko, AtmasAdhaka honA caahie| AtmasAdhaka jJAnI honA caahie| usakA pratyeka kArya jJAnadRSTi se honA cAhie / dravya - kSetra - kAla aura bhAva kA jJAnI aura hara kArya meM usa jJAna kA upayoga ! isako kahate haiM, upayoga vIrya / upayoga ke mukhya do bheda batAe gae haiM : sAkAra aura anAkAra / sAkAropayoga ke ATha prakAra haiM aura anAkAra upayoga ke cAra prakAra haiM / prastuta meM una bhedaprabhedoM kI carcA nahIM karanA hai / mujhe to yaha batAnA hai ki mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA karane vAle ArAdhaka meM pratipala jAgRti cAhie ! upayoga yAnI jAgRti ! AThavA~ vIrya hai, yogavIrya / jaina paribhASA meM 'pravRtti' ko bhI yoga kahA gayA hai / mana kI pravRtti ko manoyoga, vacana kI pravRtti ko vacanayoga aura kAyA kI pravRtti ko kAyayoga / azubha pravRtti ko azubhayoga aura zubha pravRtti ko zubhayoga kahA gayA hai| isI saMdarbha meM yahA~ tIna prakAra ke yogavIrya batAe gae haiN| manovIrya, vacanavIrya aura kAyavIrya / citta kI, mana kI azubha, apavitra vRttiyoM kA virodha karanA, manovIrya hai / vaise, zubha aura pavitra vicAroM meM mana ko pravRtta karanA bhI manovIrya hai| vacanavIrya kA artha hai, niSpApa vacana bolanA, punaruktirahita vacana bolanA / karkaza, ahitakArI aura asatya nahIM bolanA / priya, pathya aura satya vacana hotA hai, vacanavIrya | kAyavIrya kA artha hai, kAyasaMkoca / niSprayojana apane hAtha-pairoM kA prasAraNasaMkucana nahIM krnaa| kUrma kI taraha kAyA kA saMgopana karanA / zarIrazakti kA tanika bhI apavyaya nahIM karanA, sAdhaka jIvana ke lie anivArya hai | vicArazakti For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 116 kA, vacana kI zakti kA aura kAyA ke zakti kA durvyaya nahIM karanA, sadvyaya karanA sAdhaka manuSya ke lie anivArya zarta hai| nauvA~ vIrya hai, tapovIrya | bAhya aura Antara tapazcaryA ke bAraha prakAra haiN| AtmA kI vizuddhi ke lakSya se jo sAdhaka sAdhanApatha para calatA hai, usake jIvana meM ullAsapUrvaka yaha bAraha prakAra kI tapazcaryA dekhane ko milegI hii| Antara tapazcaryA kA lakSya banAkara bAhya tapazcaryA vaha karatA hI rhegaa| dasavA~ vIrya hai, saMyamavIrya / pA~ca iMdriyoM kA nigraha, pA~ca AzravoM se virati, cAra kaSAyoM para vijaya aura mana-vacana-kAyA kI azubha pravRtti kA tyAga- yaha hai 17 prakAra kA saMyama | aise saMyama meM sAdhaka apanI pUrI tAkata lagA detA hai, cU~ki yahI usakI sAdhanA hai, isI sAdhanA ke lie usane apanA jIvana samarpita kiyA hotA hai| jarA bhI mana ko zithila kie binA saMyama-ArAdhanA meM sAdhaka tallIna rahatA hai| gyArahavA~ vIrya hai, adhyAtmavIrya | adhyAtma kI paribhASA yahA~ gajaba kI gaI hai! 'merI saMyama ArAdhanA meM koI bhI doSa nahIM lage, aisI sAvadhAnI kA nAma hai, adhyAtma! aisA adhyAtmavIrya jisa sAdhaka kI AtmA meM ullasita ho vaha sAdhaka kaisA mahAna yogI bana sakatA hai| niraticAra saMyamadharma kA pAlaka hI to mahAna yogI puruSa hotA hai| __ priya mumukSu! sAdhu jIvana meM vairAgya ke sAtha ye sArI bAteM apekSita haiN| tUne kaisA prazna pUcha liyA!! maiMne bhI kitanA laMbA uttara likha diyA! tU ina 11 prakAra ke 'vIrya' ke viSaya meM manana krnaa| kucha bAteM tU zAyada nahIM samajha paaegaa| jaba tU yahA~ AegA, vistAra se smjhaauuNgaa| hama liMbaDI meM A gae haiN| varSAkAla yahA~ vyatIta karane kA hai| nagara choTAsA hai, paraMtu svaccha aura suMdara hai| tIna AkarSaka jinamaMdira haiN| upAzraya, dharmazAlA aura AyaMbila bhavana bhI hai| 600 karIbana jaina parivAra haiN| mUrtipUjaka aura sthAnakavAsI-donoM samAja meM durbhAvanA nahIM hai, kleza nahIM hai| hamArA upAzraya bhI aisA hai ki svAdhyAya dhyAna bar3I zAMti se ho rahA hai| pravacana meM loga acchI tAdAda meM lAbha le rahe haiN| Atma vizuddhi kI ArAdhanA meM terI pragati hotI rahe, yahI maMgala kAmanA / 14-6-78, liMbaDI (saurASTra) - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 117 (r) jaba taka auroM se labAlaba prema kI apekSA banI rahegI taba taka vyathA aura vedanA bhI bar3hatI rhegii| (r) duniyA ke logoM se akhaMDa va aTUTa prema kI apekSA rakhanA yAnI babUla ke per3a se Ama ke phala kI icchA rkhnaa| (r) prema dene kA tatva hai... lene kA yA mAMgane kA nahIM! pAne kI lAlasA hRdaya ko pratipala jalAtI rhegii| (r) prema karanA hI hai, to pahale hRdaya ko anAsakta evaM virakta banAnA jarUrI hai| to hI sahI artha meM prema kara skoge| (r) svakendrita vicAradhArA ko samaSTi ke kalyANa kI bhAvanA meM parivartita karanA hogaa| patra : 26 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra milA, terI Antara vedanA ne mere antaHkaraNa ko sparza kiyA / maiM jAnatA hU~, terI vedanA dravyAzrita nahIM hai, terI vedanA bhAvAzrita hai| dravyAzrita vedanA tujhe kaise hogI? tujhe jitane aura jaise dravya cAhie, mila gae haiM! tere manapasaMda dravya mila gaye haiM, isalie dravyAbhAvajanya vedanA saMbhava nahIM hai| aba tujhe cAhie hRdaya ke bhAva! dUsaroM ke hRdaya ke bhAva / premapUrNa bhAva caahie| vaise bhAva nahIM mila rahe haiM, isalie tU vyathita hai| ___ terI yaha vyathA... yaha vedanA banI rhegii| jaba taka tU dUsaroM ke prema se labAlaba bhAvoM kI apekSA rakhegA taba taka tere jIvana meM vyathA aura vedanA rahegI hii| maiMne tujhe pahale bhI likhA thA ki saMsAra ke kisI bhI vyakti ke sAtha prema akhaMDa nahIM raha sktaa| kaisA bhI prema ho, eka dina TUTegA hii| isa prema kA svabhAva hI hai TUTane kA! tU duniyA ke logoM se akhaMDa prema kI apekSA rakhatA hai| terI yaha apekSA kabhI paripUrNa honevAlI nahIM hai| babUla ke vRkSa se Amraphala kI apekSA rakhane vAloM ko kyA kahanA? phira bhI tujhe karanA ho to kara le prema! para yaha samajha lenA ki vaha prema TUTegA avazya | samajha kara Age bar3hanA / jaba saMsAra meM cAroM ora se tumhArA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 118 premabhaMga hogA tabhI terA prema paramAtmA ke prati 'bhakti' banakara bhegaa| jaba taka tujhe saMsAra se prema karanA ho, kara le| sarva dizAoM se sAre prema saMbaMdha khatma hone para hI tU parama divya tattva ke prati abhimukha bnegaa| tU aisA vyakti cAhatA haiM ki jo tujhe samagratA se cAhe / tere hara vicAra ko samajhe / terI hara icchA ke anukUla bane / tere prati kabhI bhI nArAja na bane / tere alAvA isa duniyA meM vaha kisI se bhI sneha na kre| tujhe hI vaha paramAtmA mAne... bhagavAna mAne aura terI upAsanA karatA rhe| usake manomaMdira ke siMhAsana para terI hI mUrti sthApita kre| __ maiM terI manaHsthiti kA anumAna lagA sakatA hU~| para sApekSa bhAvoM kI terI lAlasA se maiM suparicita huuN| priya mumukSu, tU kaba taka svapnoM kI duniyA meM ur3atA rahegA? prema ke svapna mAtra svapna hI haiM, vAstavikatA kucha bhI nhiiN| jo vAstavikatA hai - usase prema kara le / hara paristhiti ko sahajatA se svIkAra kara le| kisI se tiraskAra na kara, napharata na kr| kisI ke prati Akroza na kara | jaba tU mere pAsa AyA thA, maiMne tumase kahA thA, yAda hai? prema pAne kA tattva nahIM hai, prema pradAna karane kA tattva hai | tU svArtharahita prema kA pradAna karatA rahe | jisako tU tere nirmala hRdaya kA prema detA hai, usase tU prema kI apekSA mata rakha / kahA thA na maiMne? zAyada tU merI bAta bhUla gayA hai, anyathA terI zikAyata na hotii| prema pAne kI lAlasA hRdaya ko jalAtI rahatI hai| terA hRdaya jala rahA hai| jalane meM majA AtA ho to merA virodha nahIM hai| kyA kahU~ tujhe? tere dimAga para prema kA bhUta savAra ho gayA hai| tUne kitane pAtra badale? abhI taka eka bhI pAtra tujhe aisA nahIM milA, jaisA tU cAhatA hai| cUMki tU hI vaisA pAtra nahIM banA hai na / prema ke nAma para tU apanI rAgadazA ko hI puSTa kara rahA hai| terI mohadazA ko hI bar3hAvA de rahA hai| hA~, maiM prematattva kA virodhI nahIM hU~, merA virodha rAga se hai, merA virodha moha se hai| maiM to virAgI banakara prema karane ko kahatA hU~ | anAsakta banakara prema karane ko kahatA hU~ | hRdaya ko pahale virakta aura anAsakta banAnA anivArya mAnatA huuN| vaisA hRdaya hI saccA prema kara sakatA hai| jisakA aisA virakta hRdaya ho, usase prema karane meM bhI majA AtA hai| aise vyakti hI prematattva ko samajhate haiN| nirapekSa prema aise hI manuSya kara sakate haiN| tU eka kAma kara : yA to virakta bana jA, anAsakta bana jA / athavA aise virakta evaM anAsakta manuSya ko khoja le aura usase prema kara! yadi tujhe prema karanA hI hai to! apAra rAga aura ananta Asakti se bhare logoM se prema karanA bhayAnaka For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 119 khatarA hai| aise loga yadi prema karane Ae~ to bhI nahIM karanA ! prema kyA, paricaya bhI nahIM karanA cAhie aise logoM se / yadi merI bAta tujhe ja~ca jAya to acchA hai| terI vyathA, terI vedanA dUra ho jAye, yahI merI manokAmanA hai| tU kyA antarnirIkSaNa karegA ? svastha banakara socegA ? tujhe kahA~ jAnA hai ? kyA pAnA hai? Aja tU kahA~ jA rahA hai ? kahA~ pahu~ca gayA hai ? tere dila meM Aga dhadhaka rahI hai aura terI A~kheM A~sU barasA rahI haiN| tU akelA tar3apa rahA hai...| terI isa vivazatA para merA hRdaya tIvra saMvedanA anubhava karatA hai| lauTa jA apane sahI rAste para apanI AtmA ko samhAla le| apane mahAna kartavyoM kA pAlana karane hetu tatpara bana jA / terI jo sUkSma buddhi hai, terI jo kAryakuzalatA hai, terI jo mohaka pratibhA hai usakA viniyoga kara de samaSTi ke kalyANa meN| viniyoga kara de jIva mAtra ke hita meM / tU bhUla jA tere svayaM ke vyaktitva ko aura bhUla jA svayaM ke astitva ko / terA svataMtra koI astitva nahIM hai, svataMtra koI vyaktitva nahIM hai| tU hai, mAtra ananta jIvasRSTi kA eka kaNa ! vicAroM ko vyApaka banA le| svakendrita vicAradhArA ko badalanA hI hogaa| jaba taka svakendrita banA rahegA, terI Antarika vyathA kA aMta nahIM AegA / terI vedanA kI Aga nahIM bujhegI / tU pratidina, thor3I kSaNoM ke lie 'ahaM' se mukta hokara, 'mama' se mukta hokara ciMtanazIla bana / terI samasyAoM kA samAdhAna tU svayaM pA legA / tere praznoM ke uttara tujhe svayaM prApta ho jAe~ge / Aja tujhe z2yAdA nahIM likhU~gA / likhanA to bahuta hai, paraMtu Aja nahIM / atyaMta kAryavyasta huuN| abhI-abhI gaNipada - mahotsava ho gyaa| bAhara gA~voM se paricita-aparicita logoM kA AnA-jAnA jArI hai / patravarSA bhI nirantara cAlU hai / pratyuttara denA Avazyaka mAnatA huuN| priya mumukSu ! kyA-kyA likhU~, kyA-kyA na likhU~ ? tU yadi yahA~ para A jAye to bahuta bAteM karanI haiN| yahA~ saba suvidhA hai| saurASTra ke Atithya kA bhI madhura anubhava hogaa| alpakSaNoM ke lie bhI vyathAmukta bana kara merI bAtoM para ciMtana karake patra likhanA / yadi tU mere prati pragAr3ha zraddhA rakhatA hai to isI kSaNa se tU vedanArahita bana jaa| mana ko vedanA se mukta kara de| mana meM paramAtmA kI pAvanakArI pratiSThA kara de| 20-7-78, lIMbaDI (saurASTra) For Private And Personal Use Only priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 120 * jo manuSya nirapekSa prema ke tatva ko samajha nahIM pAtA hai, vaha kabhI bhI vizvavyApI cetanA ke sAtha tAdAtmya kI anubhUti nahIM kara pAtA hai| (r) apane ko du:kha denevAloM ke prati, apanA bigAr3ane vAloM ke prati bhI tiraskAra yA durbhAva kI bhAvanA nahIM rakhanA hai| (r) aparAdhI ke aparAdhoM ko bhUlakara jaba karuNA kI paramapAvanI gaMgA manuSya ke hRdayagiri se bahatI hai, taba vaha gaMgA se bhI z2yAdA pavitra hotI hai| (r) mohadRSTi se to jIvoM ke prati anyAya evaM anAcAra hI hogaa| mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA meM jJAnadRSTi anivArya hai| (r) mohadRSTi se kI gaI dharmaArAdhanA, ArAdhanA nahIM, apitu virAdhanA bana jAtI hai| patra : 27 priya gumukSu, dharmalAbha, tU mere patra kI pratIkSA karate-karate adhIra bana gayA hogaa| kaI dinoM se socatA hU~ ki 'Aja to patra likhanA hI hai, paraMtu koI na koI vikSepa A hI jAtA hai! terI smRti banI rahatI hai, cUMki tU merI vismRti nahIM kara sakatA hai! kabhI tU merI vismRti kara bhI degA, to bhI mere hRdaya meM terI smRti banI hI rhegii| tU merI bAta nahIM mAnegA to bhI tere prati mere hRdaya meM sneha banA rhegaa| tU vizvAsa karanA, merI ora se tere komala bhAvoM ko kSati nahIM phuNcegii| nirapekSa sneha, nirapekSa prema vizva meM sarvopari tattva hai| jo manuSya isa tattva ko nahIM pAtA hai, vaha vizvavyApI caitanya ke sAtha tAdAtmya nahIM pA sakatA hai| sarvAtmA ke sAtha ekatva kI madhura anubhUti nahIM kara sakatA hai| bhAvAtmaka bhUmikA para jo jIvatva ke sAtha ekatva sthApita nahIM kara sakatA hai, vaha siddhazilA para, dravyAtmaka bhUmikA para zuddha caitanya ke sAtha abheda kaise pA sakatA hai? mokSa pAne kI bAteM karane vAle loga, 'hameM mokSa cAhie', aisI bAteM karane vAle loga apane jIvana meM kyA jIvatva ke sAtha prema ke mAdhyama se, nirapekSa sneha ke mAdhyama se ekattva sthApita kara rahe haiM? nahIM, sApekSa prema athavA durdAnta dveSa karate hue ve loga mokSa kI ora nahIM, narka kI ora Age bar3ha rahe haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 121 priya mumukSu ! dharma kA mUlabhUta tattva nirapekSa prema hai| kisI bhI jIvAtmA ke prati dveSa nahIM, tiraskAra nahIM! kabhI ho jAya dveSa, to zIghra hI kSamAyAcanA kara, dveSa kI Aga ko bujhA denA / tujhe duHkha dene vAloM ke prati, terA vinAza karane vAloM ke prati bhI apane hRdaya meM dveSa nahIM rakhanA / yadi terI cetanA thor3I bhI jAgRta hai, to terA hRdaya dveSamukta banegA hii| abhI thor3e dina pUrva maiMne eka raziyana kavi 'yevatuzenko' dvArA likhI gaI eka ghaTanA pddh'ii| dUsare vizvayuddha ke samaya kI vaha ghaTanA hai / kavi yevatuzenko ke zabdoM meM hI yaha ghaTanA likhatA hU~ : 'mujhe vaha purAnI bAta yAda A gaI / taba maiM 7-8 sAla kA baccA thA / usa samaya merI mA~ 'phranTa' para nahIM gaI thii| yaha zAyada 1941 kI bAta hai| una dinoM meM jaba maiM jarmana sainikoM ke mauta ke samAcAra sunatA thA taba mujhe bar3I khuzI hotI thI, paraMtu eka dina maiMne karIbana 20 hajAra jarmana kaidI sainikoM ko lAina meM 'maoNsko' kI sar3aka para gujarate dekhaa| ve jarmana kaidI hamAre raziyana sainikoM ke ghere meM cala rahe the| rAjamArga ke donoM ora darzakoM kI bhIr3a jama gaI thii| darzakoM meM z2yAdAtara raziyana mahilAe~ hI thI / ina mahilAoM ke hAtha thake hue the| yuddha ke bhAra se aura duHkha se unakI kamareM jhukI huI thii| siMgAra to ve bhUla hI gaI thii| varSoM se una mahilAoM ne apane hoThoM para 'lipasTika' bhI nahIM lagAI thI / kisI ke pitA, kisI kA putra, kisI kA pati, ina jarmana sainikoM ke hAthoM mArA gayA thA / ve saba aurateM krodha aura bhayaMkara ghRNA se jala rahI thI / ve saba jarmana sainikoM para gAliyA~ barasA rahI thii| sabase Age raziyana sainika cala rahe the, unake bAda jaba jarmana sainika gujarate the, kyA patA ... raziyana mahilAoM meM ekAeka kaisA parivartana A gayA! jarmana sainikoM ko dekhate-dekhate ve saba mauna ho gii| sAre rAjamArga para stabdhatA chA gii| mere deza kI mAtAoM ne aura bahanoM ne taba dekhA ki jarmana sainikoM kI dAr3hI bar3ha gaI thI... ve saba dubale-patale ho gae the| ve saba ghAyala bane hue the / unake vastra phaTe hue the| zarma se unake cehare laTaka gae the| sivAya unake bUTa kI AvAja, sAre rAjamArga para sannATA chA gayA thaa| itane meM maiMne dekhA eka rUsI mahilA, raziyana sainikoM kA gherA tor3akara, eka jarmana sainika ke pAsa pahu~ca gii| usane apane sundara rUmAla meM baMdhA huA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 122 eka baMDala nikAlA, usako kholA, usameM se eka 'breDa' nikAlI aura usa jarmana sainika kI jeba meM DAla dii| usa aurata ne yaha 'breDa' apane lie kharIdI thii| vaha jarmana sainika azakti se lar3akhar3AtA huA cala rahA thaa| isa raziyana mahilA ko dekhakara, cAroM ora se hajAroM raziyana mahilAyeM jarmana sainikoM ke pAsa pahu~ca gaI aura unako roTI, sigareTa vagairaha dene lagI! yaha dekhakara mujhe usa vakta aisA lagA ki ve jarmana sainika duzmana nahIM rahe the, ve insAna the! mAtra ve insAna the!' raziyana kavi ne nirapekSa sneha ke bhavya vijaya kI kaisI adbhuta ghaTanA likhI hai? yadi vaha dRzya mujhe dekhane ko milatA... to merI A~khoM se avirata azrudhArA bahatI! aparAdhI ke aparAdhoM ko bhUla kara unake duHkhoM se dravita hokara, unake duHkha miTAne vAlI karuNA jaba manuSya ke hRdayagiri se bahatI hai... vaha karuNA gaMgA se bhI z2yAdA pavitra hotI hai| nirvyAja aura nirapekSa prema kA mUlyAMkana karanA / aisA prema amUlya aura durlabha hotA hai| jahA~ se bhI aisA prema milatA ho, usa mAnava ko mahAmAnava maannaa| usa mAnava ko mahAtmA samajhanA / yAda rakhanA tapa karane vAle, tyAga karane vAle, vidvAna aura paMDita to bahuta mila jAe~ge, paraMtu aisA adbhuta prema dene vAle bahuta hI kama mileMge / yadi tUne aisA prema dene vAloM ko parakhA nahIM aura ThukarA diyA, to jIvana kI akSamya gaMbhIra bhUla hogii| tere aneka aparAdhoM ko jinhoMne sahana kie haiM, terI aneka galatiyoM ko jinhoMne khUba prema se sudhArane kI kRpA kI hai, tere avinaya, auddhatya aura anaudArya kI jinhoMne 'noTa, nahIM kI hai... sadaiva tere prati sneha aura mamatA se bhInI dRSTi se hI dekhA hai... tU unako kyA samajhatA hai ? tUne unako kisa dRSTi se dekhA hai ? tere hRdaya meM unako kaisA sthAna diyA hai ? mujhe yaha batA ki tUne apane jIvana meM kabhI kisI ke aparAdha sahana kie haiM? tere sAtha durvyavahAra karane vAloM ke prati ha~sate mu~ha kSamA pradAna kI hai ? terI burAI karane vAloM ke prati terA sneha akhaMDa rahA hai? to phira terI AdarzavAditA kahA~ rahI? terI supAtratA kahA~ rahI? tU antarAtmA se socanA yaha bAta / paryuSaNA - parva nikaTa hai / jIvasRSTi ke sAtha jJAnadRSTi se madhura saMbaMdha sthApita karane kA yaha mahAparva hai| mohadRSTi se to jIvasRSTi ke sAtha anyAya aura anAcAra hI hogA / jJAnadRSTi anivArya hai, mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA meM / For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 123 mohadRSTi se kI huI ArAdhanA, ArAdhanA nahIM virAdhanA hai| maiM cAhatA hU~ ki paryuSaNaparva ke dinoM meM tU mere pAsa A jaae| yahA~ tere saMtapta hRdaya ko zAMti milegI, tRpti hogii| merA svAsthya acchA hai| sAre kAryakalApa sucAru rUpa se cala rahe haiN| 20-8-78 lIMbaDI (saurASTra) - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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124 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai * sUkSmaciMtana kI gaharAiyoM meM ba~galA aura jhopar3I, donoM meM z2yAdA aMtara pratIta nahIM hotA hai| donoM kA rupa mUlabhUta rUpa se eka sA lagatA hai| * isa vizva meM suMdaratA, kurUpatA kA upahAsa karatI najara AtI hai| suMdaratA kI A~khoM meM kurupatA ke lie tiraskAra bharA bhAva dikhAI detA hai| (r) saMsAra kI sukha-suvidhAoM kA tyAga karanA sarala hai, bhojana kA tyAga karanA bhI itanA muzkila nahIM hai... jitanA ki apanI viziSTatA kA tyAga karanA, apane vyaktitva ko tyaagnaa| (r) vyaktitva kA vaiziSTya eka taraha kI mohajAla hai aura antaryAtrA meM yaha mohajAla bAdhaka banatI hai| OM duniyA apanI viziSTatA jAne yA nahIM... isase kyA pharka par3atA hai? paramAtmA to jAna hI rahe haiN| patra : 28 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, pratyuttara likhane meM asahya vilamba ho hI gayA! nArAja mata honaa| kucha zArIrika, kucha sAmAjika aura kucha Antarika pratikUlatA ne do mahIne se kucha likhane hI nahIM diyA hai| kucha zArIrika svasthatA pAne aura kucha mAnasika prasannatA pAne, nagara ke bAhyapradeza meM AyA huuN| idhara hama eka ba~gale meM raha rahe haiN| yahA~ ekAnta hai, samRddhi hai aura cAroM tarapha prasannatA kA vAtAvaraNa hai| ba~gale ke bahuta pAsa, pakkI sar3aka ke kinAre ujar3e sthAna para eka jhopar3I hai| pratidina usa jhopar3I kA dainya, dAridrya aura kaSTa sApha-sApha dikhatA hai| hAlA~ki sUkSmaciMtana ke kSetra meM ba~gale aura jhopar3I meM bahuta antara pratIta nahIM hotA hai| donoM kI sundaratA aura kurUpatA mAnoM eka-dUsare ko samajha rahI hai| ___ abhI AkAza svaccha hai, nirabhra hai| koI choTA sA megha-zizu bhI AkAzapatha para dikhAI nahIM detA hai / vRkSa niHstabdha haiM | mana kucha viziSTa ciMtana meM DUba rahA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 125 isa vizva meM jahA~ dekho vahA~ sundaratA, kurUpatA kA upahAsa karatI dikhAI de rahI hai| kurUpatA, sundaratA se IrSyA karatI dikhAI de rahI hai / sundaratA kI A~khoM meM upahAsa ke unmatta bhAva bhare haiM, to kurUpatA kI A~khoM meM IrSyA kI Aga sulaga rahI hai| donoM azAMta haiM, donoM becaina haiM, donoM saMtrasta haiN| saundarya manuSya ko isalie pasanda hai, bhAtA hai, cU~ki saundarya manuSya ko viziSTatA pradAna karatA hai / manuSya apanA vaiziSTya cAhatA hI hai| vaiziSTya 'ahaM' kI khurAka hai ! manuSya apanI viziSTatA bar3hAne ke lie kucha na kucha karatA hI rahatA hai / athavA manuSya jo kucha karatA hai, usameM apanI viziSTatA ko ubhArane kI vRtti banI rahatI hai| isa prakAra ahaMkAra puSTa banatA jAtA hai| yadi manuSya jAgRta na ho to usakA ahaMkAra itanA bar3ha jAtA hai ki vaha paramAtmA ko bhI tuccha mAnane lagatA hai| saMsAra kI sukha-suvidhAoM kA tyAga karanA sarala hai| snehI-svajanoM kA tyAga karanA AsAna hai, kucha samaya ke lie bhojana kA tyAga karanA bhI muzkila nahIM hai... paraMtu apanI viziSTatA kA tyAga karanA bar3A muzkila kArya hai| rAjyavaibhava chor3A jA sakatA hai, viziSTatA kA vaibhava chor3anA sarala kAma nahIM hai| jaba bhartRhari rAjya kA tyAga kara saMnyAsa lene sadguru ke pAsa pahu~ce, gurudeva se vinamra zabdoM meM prArthanA kI, 'gurudeva, mujhe saMnyAsa - dIkSA dene kI kRpA kreN|' gurudeva jAnate the ki 'yaha rAjA bhartRhari hai| rAjya kA bhoga-sukhoM kA tyAga kara rahA hai| saMnyAsa meM mAtra bAhya bhautika sukhoM kA hI tyAga apekSita nahIM hai, cAhie apanI mahatvAkAMkSAoM kA tyAga / cAhie apane viziSTa-vaibhavoM kA tyaag| saMnyAsa lene ke pazcAta usako yaha qhyAla nahIM AnA cAhie ki 'maiM dUsare saMnyAsiyoM se zreSTha hU~, cU~ki maiMne rAjya kA tyAga kiyA hai| dUsaroM se bar3hakara maiMne tyAga kiyA hai... maiM ina saba saMnyAsiyoM meM viziSTa hU~... zreSTha hU~ / ' gurudeva ne bhartRhari ko kahA : 'abhI tuma isa Azrama meM raho, yogya samaya Ane para tumheM saMnyAsa - dIkSA milegI / ' bhartRhari ne guru kI AjJA zirodhArya kii| guru yahI dekhanA cAhate the ki bhartRhari apanA vaiziSTya kaba bhUlate haiM? 'maiM rAjA hU~', yaha rAjApane kA vaiziSTya jaba taka vaha nahIM bhUle, taba taka usameM saccI vinamratA nahIM A sakatI aura vinamratA ke binA saMnyAsa koI mahatva nahIM rakhatA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 126 ____ guru ne bhartRhari kI kucha parIkSA lii| jaba bhartRhari parIkSA meM uttIrNa huA taba guru ne unako saMnyAsa dIkSA dii| taba bhartRhari meM 'maiM saMnyAsI hU~' vaiziSTyakalpanA bhI nahIM bacI thii| priya mumukSu! apane vaiziSTya kA saundarya hamako itanA pyArA hai ki hamako Aja paramAtmA kA saundarya bhI dekhanA pasanda nahIM hai / 'merI vizeSatA duniyA dekhe, mere vaiziSTya kI duniyA prazaMsA kare, merI viziSTatAoM kI carcA gharaghara meM hone lge|' yaha eka aisI mAnavIya vAsanA hai ki usako hRdaya se nikAlanA AsAna kAma nahIM hai| isa vAsanA ko nikAle binA AdhyAtmika vikAsa bhI saMbhava nahIM hai| dharma kI Antara-ArAdhanA meM vikAsa pAnA hai to 'viziSTa vyaktitva' ke mohajAla ko tor3anA hI hogaa| antaryAtrA meM yaha mohajAla bAdhaka hai| itanI vyApaka hai yaha mohajAla ki bar3e-bar3e tapasvI bhI isa jAla meM pha~sa jAte haiN| bar3e-bar3e jJAnI bhI isa jAla meM ulajha gae haiN| priya mumukSu! tU jAnatA hai na ki siMhaguphAvAsI muni jaise mahAna tapasvI muni kyoM kozA vezyA ke yahA~ varSAvAsa karane gae the? unake mana meM yahI bAta khaTakI thI ki 'gurudeva ne merI vizeSatA kA pUrA-pUrA mUlyAMkana nahIM kiyaa| sthUlabhadrajI kI vizeSatA ko jitanI badhAiyA~ dI gaI, merI vizeSatA ko utanI badhAiyA~ nahIM dI gii|' IrSyA aura dveSa se jalane lge| muni the, tapasvI the, phira bhI apane vaiziSTya kI prazasti sunane kI tIvra icchA prabala thii| sthUlabhadrajI jaise kAmavijetA mahAmuni ke hRdaya meM bhI apane vaiziSTya ke pradarzana kI evaM apanI bahina-sAdhviyoM ke mu~ha se apanI prazaMsA sunane kI tIvra icchA salAmata thii| gurudeva bhadrabAhusvAmI ne isa vaiziSTya-pradarzana kI vAsanA meM, zreSThajJAna-prApti kI apAtratA dekhii| nahIM diyA vaha zreSTha jnyaan| priya AtmIya mumukSu! saMsAra ke kSetra meM Aja sva-vaiziSTya kA pradarzana karanA, apane mu~ha se apanI vizeSatAoM ke gIta gAnA, apane saundarya kI svayaM prazaMsA karanA, sAmAnya ho gayA hai| apanI saMskRti meM yaha bAta burI mAnI gaI hai| cUMki dharma evaM adhyAtma ke sAtha isa bAta kA samanvaya nahIM ho sktaa| antarvikAsa meM rukAvaTeM A jAtI haiN| mana azAMta evaM atRpta banA rahatA hai| apane vaiziSTya kA pradarzana karane meM evaM prazaMsAzravaNa meM mana ulajhA huA rahatA hai| atRpti hI atRpti banI rahatI hai| isalie tujhe kahatA hU~ ki tU isa vAsanA ke pAza meM mata pha~sanA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 127 terI vizeSatAe~ duniyA nahIM jAnegI, terI prazaMsA nahIM hogI... tU jarA bhI asvastha nahIM honA / terI vizeSatAoM kA pratibiMba anantajJAnI paramAtmAoM meM par3a rahA hai... ve tujhe dekha rahe haiM, unakI jJAnadRSTi meM terA mUlyAMkana ho rahA hai... yaha jAnakara tU saMtuSTa rahanA / dUsaroM ke vaiziSTya kI prazaMsA sunakara tU vicalita mata honaa| dUsaroM ke saundarya kI 'vAhavAha' sunakara tU apanI 'vAhavAhI' ke lie lAlAyita mata honA / z2yAdA nahIM likhatA hU~ Aja / dAhine hAtha kA aMgUThA duHkha rahA hai .... likhane meM rukAvaTa kara rahA hai... phira bhI dhIre-dhIre likhatA jAtA hU~ / mana jaba likhane ko prerita karatA hai, DaoNkTara kI AjJA kA ullaMghana ho hI jAtA hai| isa patra ke sAtha 'arihaMta' kA tIsarA varSa samApta ho jAegA / caturtha varSa kA navambara se prArambha ho jaaegaa| 'jIvanadRSTi' koI nae pradeza kA darzana kara rahI hai... saMbhavataH usa nae pradeza kA darzana karAnA cAhatA hU~ agale patroM meN...| terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| jaya vItarAga ! 2-10-78 For Private And Personal Use Only priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 128 (r) atIta ke sukhoM kI smRti aura duHkhoM kI kar3avAhaTa manuSya ke mana ko du:khI banA DAlatI hai| (r) auroM ke sAmane apane duHkha kA ronA rone se ThIka hai... thor3I zabdoM kI sAMtvanA mila jAtI hai... para vaha kSaNika hotI hai! (r) sukhoM kI yAda meM 'TempararI svITanesa' milatI hogI para usa madhuratA ke pIche ___ kar3avAhaTa kI laMbI jalana chipI rahatI hai| (r) sukhoM kI yAda nahIM... aura du:khoM kI phariyAda nahIM! (r) du:khoM kA Dara hI to phariyAda karatA-karavAtA hai! para duHkhoM se DaranA kyoM? (r) du:khoM ke sAtha samajhautA kara lene para phariyAda karane kA mana nahIM hogA! patra : 29 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, varSAvAsa ke cAra mahIne pUrNa ho gae aura hamane lIMbaDI chor3a bhI diyA! saMgha aura samAja ke hajAroM strI-puruSoM ne zraddhA, sneha aura sadbhAva se vidA kiyA / unako... unake hRdaya meM viraha kI vyathA thI, A~khoM meM vyathA ke sAkSI A~sU the| hAlA~ki aise dRzya prativarSa... cAturmAsa pUrNa kara, vihAra karate samaya dekhate Ae haiN| saMyoga-viyoga kI vyathApUrNa kathA to maiMne hajAroM bAra mere pravacanoM meM kahI hai, paraMtu aise prasaMgoM meM anubhava bhI karatA rahA huuN| maiMne apane lIMbaDI ke antima pravacana meM apanA antima saMdeza diyA : 'sukhoM ko yAda mata karo, duHkhoM kI phariyAda mata kro|' bhUtakAlIna sukhoM kI yAda karate rahane se aura duHkhoM kI phariyAda karate rahane se hI manuSya duHkhI banatA hai, azAMta banatA hai, becaina banatA hai| jisa manuSya ke pAsa bhUtakAla meM khUba saMpatti thI, vaibhava thA, putra-patnI-parivAra thA, ijjata thI, sattA thI, Aja kucha nahIM hai! saba kucha calA gayA hai... Aja vaha akelA hai... Upara AkAza hai, nIce dharatI hai...| yadi yaha manuSya apane bhUtakAlIna sukha-vaibhavoM ko yAda karatA rahe to? kyA isa yAda se usako zAMti milatI hai? svasthatA milatI hai? For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 129 kisI mitra ke sAmane yA snehI-svajana ke pAsa apane bhUtakAlIna sukha vaibhavoM kI kathA karane se kyA milatA hai? tU kahegA ki 'kucha AzvAsana milatA hai!' ThIka bAta hai, paraMtu vaha AzvAsana kSaNika hotA hai| ve snehIsvajana Apake prati thor3I sI hamadardI dikhA kara cale jAe~ge.. phira vaha yAda Apako asvastha banAe rkhegii| saMsAra meM z2yAdAtara logoM ko yaha Adata hotI hai, dUsare ke sAmane apane purAne sukhoM kI kahAnI sunAne kI! jo sukha Aja unake pAsa nahIM hai| kyA patA, duniyA aise logoM ke prati ijjata se dekhatI hai, yA karuNA se? acchA to Apake pAsa dasa lAkha rupaye the? Apa sarakArI aphasara the? Apake aisI sundara aura snehapUrNa patnI thI? Apake aise acche lar3ake the? oha! sArI bAta bigar3a gaI... saba kucha calA gayA ApakA... Apa bahuta duHkhI ho ge..|' aise zabda sunane se duHkhI manuSya ko kSaNika sAntvanA to milatI hai, paraMtu bAda meM mAnasika jalana hI paidA hotI hai| sukhoM kI yAda meM 'TempararI svITanesa' hotI hai, paraMtu dIrghakAlIna to kar3avAhaTa hI hotI hai| ___ saba sukhoM kI yAda nahIM, koI eka sukha ko yAda kara rone vAloM ko maiMne dekhe haiM! mere pAsa Akara aise loga rote haiM! jo sukha bhUtakAla meM thA, Aja nahIM hai, usako yAda kara rote haiN| manuSya kI yaha eka kamajorI hai| paraMtu aisI kamajorI nahIM hai ki jisako miTA nahIM sake | isa kamajorI ko miTA sakate haiN| miTAnI hai yaha kamajorI? 'mujhe mere purAne sukha yAda nahIM karane haiM, aisA saMkalpa kara lo| manuSya-mana kA aisA svabhAva hai ki vaha (mana) kucha na kucha yAda karatA rahatA hai| kucha na kucha naI kalpanA karatA rahatA hai, aramAna karatA rahatA hai| kucha na kucha phariyAdeM karatA rahatA hai| karane do yAda aura phariyAda! viSaya badala do! __yAda karanI hai? paramAtmA kI yAda karate raho! sadguruoM ko yAda karate raho / tIrtha sthAnoM kI yAda karate rho| jJAnadRSTi ho to apane ananta janmoM kI yAda karate raho! apanI AtmA ne bhUtakAla meM kaise-kaise janma pAe.. yAda karate rho| aisI yAdeM manuSya ko prasanna aura praphullita banAtI haiN| aisI yAdeM mana ko zAMta aura svastha banAtI haiN| priya mumukSu! dUsarI eka apekSA se kahU~ to tujhe tere una bhUtakAlIna sukhoM For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 130 ko yAda karane cAhie, jina sukhoM kA tUne jAnabUjha kara tyAga kara diyA thA! jo sukha tere pAsa the, una sukhoM se bar3hakara dUsare kAlpanika sukha tujhe z2yAdA acche lage, tUne apane vAstavika sukhoM kA tyAga kara diyA... kAlpanika sukha pAne ke lie tU daur3A... nahIM mile ve sukha / tU yAda kara tere ve svarga se bhI bar3ha kara sukha ke dina! isalie yAda karane ko kahatA hU~, cU~ki tU punaH ve vAstavika sukha pAne ke lie tatpara bneN| kAlpanika vaiSayika sukha ke pIche bhaTakanA chor3a de| jo yAda hameM satkArya ke prati prerita kare, vaha yAda karane meM koI harja nahIM / jo yAda hameM mAtra parezAna hI karatI ho, vaha yAda karane meM koI majA nahIM / jaba tUne svayaM Akara tere ve purAne sukhamaya, sAdhanAmaya aura AnaMdamaya dinoM kI yAda sunAI, merA mana bhI praphullita ho gayA / jisa sukhamaya jIvana ko duHkhamaya mAnakara tUne tyAga diyA thA, Aja tujhe apanI vaha bhUla samajha meM A gaI aura terI vaha yAda tujhe vAstavikatA kI ora prerita karane vAlI banI, isase mujhe behada khuzI huI / jaise sukhoM kI yAda nahIM, vaise duHkhoM kI phariyAda nahIM ! kisake sAmane duHkhoM kI phariyAda! jo svayaM duHkhI haiM, unake sAmane duHkhoM kI phariyAda karane se kyA ? duHkhoM kI phariyAda karate rahane se duHkha bar3hate haiM yA ghaTate haiN| yadi duHkha ghaTate hoM to karate raho phariyAda / phariyAda karane mAtra se duHkha ghaTate hoM to maiM duniyA ko kahU~gA ki duHkhoM kI phariyAda karate raho / priya mumukSu, duHkhoM kI phariyAda karane se mana kitanA azAMta banA rahatA hai, kitanA asvastha aura caMcala banA rahatA hai, yaha koI kahane kI bAta hai ? duHkhoM kA bhaya duHkhoM kI phariyAda karavAtA hai / duHkhoM se kyoM DaranA ? apane hI kie hue pApoM ke phalasvarUpa duHkha Ate haiM, unako binA phariyAda kie bhogate raho! duHkhoM ko svasthatA se, samAdhi se bhogate hue duHkhoM kA nAza kro| dUsare kisI ke sAmane apane duHkhoM ko rone se Apake duHkha bar3ha jAe~ge / Apa azAMta bana jAoge / tU kahegA : dUsaroM ke sAmane apane duHkhoM kI bAta karane se mana kucha halkApana mahasUsa karatA hai, mana kA bhAra kama hotA hai| merA kahanA hai ki mana kA bhAra bar3hatA hai! duHkhoM kI satata smRti hI to ghora azAMti paidA karatI hai ! mahAsatI sItA ne apane yuvA putra lava aura kuza ke sAmane bhI apane duHkha kI bAta nahIM kahI thI ? rAmacandrajI ke prati Akroza nahIM kiyA thaa| na to mithilA- ayodhyA ke sukhoM ko yAda kie the, na to For Private And Personal Use Only

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131 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai vanavAsa ke aura niSkAsana ke duHkhoM kI phariyAda kI thii| kisI ke sAmane nahIM! sItA ke satItva kA yahI to rahasya thaa| duHkhoM ke sAtha samajhautA hone ke bAda phariyAda nahIM hogii| jIvana jIne meM AnaMda aaegaa| duniyA tujhe du:khI mAnegI, yA dekhegI, tU svayaM apane Apako sukhI mAnegA! tere mana meM kisI bhI jIvAtmA ke prati durbhAva nahIM ubharegA, roSa prajvalita nahIM hogaa| yadi phariyAda karanI hI hai to duHkha kI phariyAda nahIM karanA, pApoM kI phariyAda karanA, tere apane pApoM kI phariyAda krnaa| ___ kabhI kI hai pApoM kI phariyAda? hA~, dUsaroM ke pApoM kI phariyAda aura apane du:khoM kI phariyAda? manuSya kI Adata bana gaI hai| isa Adata ko miTAnA hai, isa mAnava jIvana meN| apane pApoM kI phariyAda karo, dUsaroM ke duHkhoM kI phariyAda kro| lIMbaDI se vihAra kara diyA hai| yaha patra tere pAsa pahu~cegA, taba to hama iDara meM hoNge| iDara to terA dekhA huA hai| mere sAtha hI to thA tU... jaba hama iDara ke pahAr3oM meM ghUme the| pahAr3a ke Upara kitanA bhavya aura sundara jinAlaya hai| kaisI-kaisI guphAe~ haiM! dhyAnasAdhanA aura yogasAdhanA ke lie aise sthAna bahuta hI upayogI banate haiN| sAdhana to bahuta hai... paraMtu sAdhaka kahA~ haiM! kyA tU aisI sAdhanA pasanda kregaa| AtmasAdhaka bananA hai yA dharmapracAraka bananA hai? __ padayAtrA AnaMdaprada ho rahI hai| sabhI munivara prasannatA se pulakita haiM, apane-apane kartavyoM meM sajaga haiN| terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| zArada (saurASTra) 21-11-78 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 132 (r)samaya ke tIvra pravAha meM saba kucha baha jAtA hai... raha jAtA hai, mAtra bItI bAtoM kI yAdoM kA laMbA kAravAM! aura phira mana yAdoM ke khaMDahara meM bhaTakatA hai, bAvarA sA hokara! (r) sAdhaka jIvana meM ati janasaMparka, sAmAjika jIvana vagairaha bahirmukhI vRtti pravRttiyA~ bAdhaka banatI haiN| (r) jJAnasAdhanA evaM dhyAnasAdhanA kI prAcIna paraMparA Aja to luptaprAya: ho cukI hai| (r) Aja kA sAdhu-jIvana bhI adhikatara sAmAjika kAryakalApoM kA zikAra bana cukA hai! samAja kA satata saMparka sAdhu jIvana kI mastI ko phIkI banA DAlatA hai| patra : 30 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, terA patra milaa| terI saMvedanAoM ne mere hRdaya ko sparza kiyaa| kAla kI askhalita gati meM hama sabhI baha rahe haiN| avasthAoM kA parivartana hotA hI rahatA hai| jJAtA banakara, draSTA banakara dekhate raho parivartanoM kI duniyA ko / abhI hama iDara meM dasa dina rhe| iDara aitihAsika jagaha hai| prAcInatA jagaha-jagaha bikharI par3I hai| kAla kI avirata gati ke sAtha bahuta kucha baha gayA hai, paraMtu jo kucha zeSa hai, vaha bhI adbhuta hai| pahale bhI maiM isa zahara meM AyA thA, paraMtu usa samaya merI abhiruci mAtra adhyayana kI thii| maiMne eka bar3A zAstra yahA~ par3ha DAlA thaa| isa samaya mahotsava thA / mahotsava pUrNa hone para maiM aura mere sAthI munivarahama saba iDara ke kile para gye| thor3e sopAna car3he aura hamAre sAmane rAjamahala aayaa| bar3A rAjamahala hai, paraMtu Aja usakI durdazA hai| rAjAoM kI durdazA se bhI z2yAdA durdazA isa mahala kI hai| eka samaya thA ki isa mahala meM rAjaparivAra kI cahalapahala rahI hogii| mahala ke cAroM ora sainika khar3e rahate hoNge| mahala kA konA-konA rozanI se Alokita hogaa| vaibhava-saMpatti isa mahala meM yatheccha krIr3A karatI hogii| bar3e-bar3e rAjadarabAra yahA~ bhare jAte For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 133 hoNge| Aja yahA~ isameM se kucha nahIM hai| kAla ke bhISaNa pravAha meM saba kucha baha gayA hai... khar3A hai, mAtra mahala kA jarjarita khaMDahara | hama loga isa khaMDahara meM se hI nikle| Age bar3he... dUra do bhavya jinAlaya dRSTipatha meM aae| hAlA~ki musalamAnoM ne bhI yahA~ eka kabra banA rakhI hai! brAhmaNoM ne 1-2 maTha banA rakhe haiM, paraMtu inameM koI AkarSaNa nahIM hai| jinAlayoM kI bhavyatA yAtriyoM ko AkarSita kiye binA nahIM rhtii| eka hai, digambara jaina maMdira aura dUsarA hai, zvetAmbara maMdira | zvetAmbara maMdira bAvana jinAlayavAlA virATakAya maMdira hai| solahaveM tIrthaMkara paramAtmA zAMtinAtha kI nayanaramya pratimA mUla garbhagRha meM birAjamAna hai| maMdira jitanA bhavya hai, utanA hI svaccha aura darzanIya hai| paramAtmA kI stuti-bhakti kara, hama loga iDara ke isa pahAr3a ke dUsare zikhara kI ora cala par3e | usa zikhara kA nAma hai, raNamala caukI / hamAre sAtha mere pUrvaparicita munirAja, jo ki usa pahAr3a para jo upAzraya hai, usameM rahe hue the, hamAre sAtha ho gaye | bar3e sarala aura nirabhimAnI sAdhupuruSa haiN| unhoMne kahA : 'yahA~ rAste meM eka guphA hai, vahA~ eka bayAsI sAla kI bur3hiyA cAlIsa sAla se akelI rahatI hai| yadi hama vahA~ caleM to vaha bahuta prasanna hogii| hama logoM ko bar3A Azcarya huaa| akelI mahilA cAlIsa sAla se guphA meM rahatI hai! hama loga gaye usa guphA meM | usa bur3hiyA ne hamArA madhura zabdoM se svAgata kiyA, harSa vyakta kiyaa| sAdhu-saMtoM ke prati usakI apAra zraddhA dekhane ko milii| isase bhI z2yAdA usa vRddhA meM maiMne apUrva Atmabala, prasannatA aura sadAbahAra mijAja paayaa| vahA~ se hama cala par3e raNamala caukI kI trph| kucha U~cAI para hamane eka jIrNa-zIrNa maMdira dekhA | hama loga pahu~ca gaye usa maMdira ke pAsa | yahI raNamala caukI thii| yahA~ se pUrA iDara zahara dikhAI detA hai| iDara kA koI bhI manuSya apane ghara ke chappara para se isa jagaha ko dekha sakatA hai| raNamala caukI kA yaha maMdira jaina maMdira hai| bhagavAna nemanAtha kI yahA~ bar3I mUrti thI, Aja nahIM hai| sunA hai ki musalamAnoM ke AkramaNa ke samaya mUrti tor3a dI gaI thI aura maMdira ko bhI tor3A gayA thaa| phira bhI maMdira ke garbhagRha ke dvAra para paramAtmA jinezvaradeva kI maMgalamUrti Aja bhI hai| kucha bahuta suMdara zilpayukta deva-deviyoM kI bhI mUrtiyA~ yahA~ para hai| aisA prAmANika itihAsa prApta hotA hai ki yaha maMdira bArahavIM zatAbdI meM banA thaa| jaba vaha banA hogA, kitanI cahalapahala For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 134 hotI hogI, udhara! hajAroM... lAkhoM bhaktajana yahA~ Ate hoMge... aura AntaraprasannatA kA anubhava karate hoNge| Aja to vaha jagaha... vaha maMdira sUnA par3A hai| kucha kSaNa A~kheM mUMdakara bhagavAna nemanAtha kI smRti kI... bhAva vaMdanA kI... aura vahA~ se cala par3e eka guphA kI ora | pAsa meM hI vaha guphA hai| eka hindu saMnyAsI kI vaha guphA hai| kucha varSa vaha saMnyAsI yahA~ rahA thA, Aja to vaha guphA khAlI par3I hai| guphA meM kucha suvidhAyeM bhI thii| dasa-paMdraha minaTa hama vahA~ baiThe aura paricita munizrI ne isa guphA ke kucha anubhava bhI sunaaye| usa saMnyAsI ke viSaya meM bhI kucha bAteM btaayii| vahA~ se hama aba hama nIce utarane lge| rAste meM kucha choTI-choTI guphAyeM dekhate hue apane sthAna para pahu~ce / zvetAmbara maMdira ke pIche bhI eka bar3I acchI guphA hai| guphA meM kucha marammata karAI gaI hai| tAki usameM baiThakara zAMti se dhyAna karane vAlA dhyAna kara sake | nIrava zAMti! pavitra vAtAvaraNa aura cAroM ora divyatA! __ paricita munizrI ne isa guphA ke bhI svayaM kiye hue anubhava sunAye / AhArapAnI se nivRtta hokara kucha samaya vizrAma kiyA aura madhyAhna ke bAda cAra baje hamane pahAr3a utaranA zurU kiyaa| mana meM aba aneka vicAra ubharane lge| prAcIna kAla meM aneka satvazIla munivara cAra-cAra mahIne aise pahAr3oM meM... guphAoM meM dhyAnamagna rahate the... kucha munivara to cAra mahIne ke upavAsa karake rahate the| kucha munivara mahIne-mahIne ke upavAsa karake rahate the... zAstroM ke aise kaI udAharaNa smRti meM ubharane lge| sukozala muni aura unake pitA-muni smRti meM Ae aura siMhaguphAvAsI muni bhI smRti meM aae| rAmAyaNa kAla ke aneka muni yAda Ae evaM 'samarAdityakevalI-caritra' meM zrI haribhadrasUrijI ne jo guphAvAsI muniyoM kA jikra kiyA hai, ve bhI yAda Ae! kaisA uccatama hogA unakA sAdhaka jIvana! kaisI uttama hogI unakI dhyAnamagnatA! kaisI hogI unakI zreSTha yogasAdhanA! kaisA apUrva AtmAnaMda anubhava karate hoMge ve tapasvI munivara...!! koI janasaMparka nahIM, koI sAmAjika jIvana nahIM... koI parigraha nahIM... koI bhautika padArthoM kI rasavRtti nhiiN...| ___ mana meM ghora aphasosa ho rahA thA... apane jIvana ko dekhakara | sAdhu jIvana kI vaha mastI hI kahA~ hai? jJAnasAdhanA aura dhyAnasAdhanA kI vaha prAcIna paramparA hI apane yahA~ naSTaprAyaH ho gaI hai| Aja to hamArA jIvana z2yAdAtara sAmAjika bana gayA hai| sAdhu sAmAjika prANI bana gayA hai| samAja ke satata For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 135 saMparka se aneka sAmAjika dUSaNa hamAre jIvana meM praviSTa ho gae haiN| bahuta adhika janasaMparka ne hamArA dhyAnamArga avaruddha kara diyA hai| mAtra thor3A-sA zAstrajJAna pAkara hI hama logoM ne kRtakRtyatA mAna lI hai| kahA~ hai AtmajJAna? kahA~ hai anubhavajJAna aura kahA~ hai tattvapariNati jJAna? jJAna hI nahIM hai to dhyAna meM praveza hogA kaise? he paramAtman! kaba aisA zramaNajIvana milegA ki jisa jIvana ko maiM aisI guphAoM meM... dhyAnamagna banakara... divya AtmAnubhUti karU~? aisI guphAoM meM niHsaMga aura anAsakta bana kara paramAnaMda kA agocara anubhava karU~? isa duniyA se saMpUrNa nirapekSa banakara... saMpUrNa jIvana nirmala cAritra kI ArAdhanA meM vyatIta karU~? priya mumukSu! nIce upAzraya meM Ane ke bAda... zAma ko aura rAta ko... basa, ye hI vicAra dimAga meM ghUmate rhe| isI jIvana meM kabhI na kabhI kucha samaya aisI giri-guphAoM meM vyatIta kara, AtmadhyAna kI ArAdhanA karane kI Antara bhAvanA to kaI varSoM se banI huI thI... isameM iDara ke pahAr3oM kI saphara ne usa bhAvanA ko uttejita kara dii| merA dRr3ha vizvAsa hai ki dhyAna ke azva para ArUr3ha hue binA tIvra aura zIghra gati se nirvANa kI ora Age nahIM bar3hA jA skegaa| iDara kI yaha yAtrA smRti meM aisI aMkita ho gaI hai ki kabhI bhUla nahIM skuuNgaa| iDara se hama vaDAlI Ae haiM | vaDAlI se hI yaha patra likha rahA hU~| kucha dina yahA~ sthiratA kara, kheDabrahmA, moTApozInA hote hue kuMbhAriyAjI tIrtha meM pahu~cane kI bhAvanA hai| usa prAcIna bhavya tIrthabhUmi meM kucha dina rukane kI bhAvanA hai aura vahA~ se rAjasthAna kI dharatI ko sparza karane ko mana cAhatA hai... Age jaisI kSetrasparzanA! vaDAlI 24-12-78 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 136 (r) jIvamAtra ke prati sneha ko svIkAra karanA caahie| hA~... kabhI jarUrI lage to usa sneha ko chAna lenA cAhie tAki vAsanA yA svArtha kA kacarA bhItara na raha jAye! (r) jaba taka dila meM kisI ke prati prema surakSita rahatA hai... taba taka usa vyakti ke prati dveSa yA abhAva nahIM jagatA hai| (r) bar3e zaharoM kI jindagI... baiThI hai! rUpa aura rupayoM JAAAA AA AAA kI cakAcauMdha meM sa / rahA hai! (r) gA~voM kI jindagI meM kR nA! vahA~ sahaja svAbhAvika bhAva milate haiN| (r) gA~voM meM Aja bhI ko / kUja gUMjatI hai... subahazAma maMdiroM meM madhura vetoM aura khalihAnoM meM bA~surI ke sUra sunAI patra : 31 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha! cira pratIkSA ke pazcAta terA saMkSipta patra milA / yadi merI apekSA pUrNa hotI to saMkSipta patra bhI mere hRdaya ko Anandita kara detA, paraMtu apekSA apUrNa hI rahI? phira bhI tU merI ora se nizciMta rhegaa| tere prati mere hRdaya meM jo sneha aura sadbhAva hai, vaha surakSita rahegA, akhaMDa rhegaa| cUMki maiM sneha kA saMgraha karatA huuN| yoM bhI jIvamAtra ke prati sneha ko svIkAra karatA hI hU~, to phira tere sneha ko kaise tiraskRta kara sakatA hU~? hA~, maiM to yaha mAnatA rahA hU~ ki durjanoM ke bhI sneha ko svIkAra karanA caahie| sneha ko svIkAra karate samaya avazya usa sneha ko chAna lenA cAhie, tAki usameM svArtha yA vAsanA kA kacarA na A jaae| pAnI ko hama chAna kara hI pIte haiM na? kabhI dUdha ko bhI chAnanA par3atA hai| yadi yaha lage ki isa sneha meM svArtha yA vAsanA par3I huI hai, to chAna lenA sneha ko! sneha kA tyAga nahIM kara denaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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137 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai ___ kabhI koI snehI, usakA svArtha siddha nahIM hone se, usakI koI manokAmanA pUrNa nahIM hone se, merA tyAga kara calA bhI gayA hogA, to bhI maiMne, usa vyakti se prApta sneha ko gaTara meM nahIM bahA diyA hai, maiMne mere hRdaya meM usa sneha ko surakSita rakhA hai| kabhI kisI ko merI ora se naitika-dhArmika yA AdhyAtmika mArgadarzana nahIM milA, jo mArgadarzana usako apekSita thA, vaha mujhe chor3a kara calA gayA hogA, to bhI maiMne usa vyakti se prApta sneha ko mere hRdaya meM saMgRhIta kara diyA hai| isase mujhe eka bahuta bar3A phAyadA huA hai| merA hRdaya adveSI banA rahatA hai| mere eka samaya ke jo mitra the, Aja ve bhale mujhe mitra nahIM mAnate haiM, unake prati bhI mere hRdaya meM dveSa nahIM hai| cUMki unakA sneha jo mujhe pahale milA thA, mere hRdaya meM jamA hai| surakSita hai| vaha prema... vaha sneha mujhe unake prati dveSI nahIM banane detA hai| yaha bAta maiM tere sAmane isalie spaSTa kara rahA hU~, jisase tU merI ora se Azvasta ho jaae| Aja dina taka terI ora se mujhe jo sneha milA hai, vaha sneha mere hRdaya meM jamA rahane vAlA hai| tU cAheM taba Akara vaha sneha pA sakatA hai| terA sneha hai, tU kabhI bhI le sakatA hai| jI cAhe taba cale aanaa| __ tU mujhe vahA~ bulA rahA hai... paraMtu vahA~ AnA abhI saMbhava nahIM hai, cUMki mana hI nahIM mAna rahA hai| saca kahU~ to mere mana ko vahA~ kI jiMdagI hI pasanda nahIM hai| vahA~ kI duniyA hai, rUpa aura rupaye kI! vahA~ kI duniyA meM hai, mAtra kRtrimtaa| manuSya kA sneha bhI kRtrima ho gayA hai| mAnavatA ke mRta kalevaroM para sajjanatA zRMgAra sajAkara baiThI hai| kyA hai vahA~? hA~, vahA~ prasiddhi mila sakatI hai, yaza mila sakatA hai... aura rupaye bhI Dhera sAre mila sakate haiM | rUpa aura rupaye kI to vaha nagarI hai| ___ dharma pracAra aura dharma prabhAvanA kI terI bAta kucha aMzoM meM satya hai, paraMtu vaha kAma to maiM jahA~-jahA~ jAtA hU~, vahA~-vahA~ hotA hI rahatA hai| dUsarI bAta, maiM AtmazAMti ko vizeSa mahatva detA huuN| naisargika jIvana mujhe z2yAdA pyArA hai| vaisA jIvana aura vaisI AtmazAMti vahA~ saMbhava hai kyA? merA bhI anubhava hai nA vahA~ ke jIvana kA? abhI-abhI hama jina-jina zaharoM meM se aura gA~voM meM se gujara rahe haiM... kucha nae-nae sukhada anubhava ho rahe haiN| yahA~ kI janatA meM... apane jaina saMgha ke strI-puruSoM meM zraddhA, sneha aura sadbhAva ke suMdara dIpaka jalate dikhAI de rahe For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 138 haiN| koI dikhAvA nahIM... koI 'ArTIphisiyAlITI' nahIM! gA~voM meM zraddhA aura sneha kI AvAja sunAI detI hai, jaMgaloM meM koyala kI AvAja sunAI detI hai! gA~voM meM bhakti aura prema ke puSpa najara Ate haiM, jaMgaloM meM jUhI aura gulAba ke phUla najara Ate haiN| gA~voM meM sauhArda aura saralatA kA saMgIta sunAI detA hai, to khetoM meM bA~surI ke sura sunAI par3ate haiN| prajA kitanI sarala aura vivekI hai! koI phAlatU bAteM nhiiN| koI vyartha vAda-vivAda nhiiN| sAdhu-saMtoM kI bhAvapUrNa bhakti karanA aura dharma kA upadeza zAMti se sunanA / abhI eka choTe se gA~va meM gae the| jainasaMgha ke 15 ghara haiN| svAgata meM sabhI strI-puruSa upasthita the| pravacana meM to ajaina loga bhI Ae the| logoM ne kahA : 'mahArAja zrI, hamAre gA~va meM bahuta kama sAdhu-munirAja padhArate haiM, padhArate haiM to subaha Ae aura zAma ko rvaanaa| Apa do-cAra dina yahA~ sthiratA karane kI kRpA kreN|' hama do dina usa gA~va meM rahe, do dina pravacana die| AnaMda anubhava kiyaa| abhI iDara se to vihAra bhI dhIre-dhIre ho rahA hai| hara gA~va meM do-cAra dina rukate-rukate Age bar3ha rahe haiN| cUMki koI vizeSa kAryakrama... yA mahotsava sAmane nahIM hai| koI vizeSa lakSya banAkara nahIM cala rahe haiN| yaha patra tere pAsa pahu~cegA taba hama eka prAcIna tIrtha 'kuMbhAriyA' meM hoNge| yaha tIrtha aitihAsika tIrtha hai| ramaNIyatA aura naisargika saundarya to hai hii| yahA~ ke jinamaMdira kalA samRddha haiN| vizAla maidAna, aneka vRkSa... aura dharmazAlAbhojanazAlA kI suvidhA yahA~ upalabdha hai| gujarAta ke prasiddha sthala aMbAjI se mAtra do kilomITara kI dUrI para yaha tIrtha basA huA hai| isa tIrtha meM yAtriyoM kI z2yAdA bhIr3a nahIM hotI hai, isalie yahA~ zAMti se paramAtmabhakti hotI hai, zAMti se jApa-dhyAna hotA hai aura mauna kI mahAna sAdhanA ho sakatI hai| jaba kabhI tujhe samaya kI anukUlatA ho, tU isa tIrtha meM Akara tIna-cAra dina rhnaa| paramAtmA ke bhavya maMdira meM... nayanaramya pratimA ke sAmane baiTha jAnA... nAma smaraNa karanA, jApa karanA, dhyAna karanA, stavana karanA... tujhe apUrva AtmazAMti milegii| naI AdhyAtmika sphUrti prApta hogii| tU nayA ullAsa lekara ghara lauttegaa| ___ bhautika sukha vaibhavoM ke bIca kabhI-kabhI tU becainI mahasUsa karatA hai na? aise tIrtha sthAnoM meM kucha samaya rahane se becainI dUra hotI hai aura AnaMda, ullAsa se hRdaya bhara jAtA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 139 phira se tujhe kahatA hU~ ki maiM udhara tere pAsa... tere zahara meM nahIM A sakatA hU~... tujhe mere pAsa AnA cAhie | zAyada tU nahIM AegA.. maiM jAnatA hU~ tere svabhAva ko... paraMtu mujhe tere prati koI abhAva nahIM hogA | cU~ki terA diyA huA vipula sneha mere pAsa jamA hai na? 14-1-79 pozInA - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 140 (r) bAriza ke dinoM meM bacce gIlI miTTI meM paira rakhakara ghara banAte haiM... phira jaba ve TUTa jAte haiM yA bikhara jAte haiM, to ve bacce rote haiM... bilakhate haiM... jaise ki unakA sacamuca kA ghara TUTa gayA ho! (r) saMdhyA ke samaya kSitija para aneka raMga ubharate haiN| aneka AkRtiyoM kA zAmiyAnA tana jAtA hai| para pala do pala kA sArA khela...! aura phira rAta kI syAha cAdara tale saba kucha lupta ho jAtA hai! (r) sinemA ke parde para zera kI garjanA saccI hote hue bhI vAstavikatA se pare hotI hai| usa garjanA se koI ghabarA uThatA hai yA bhayabhIta ho uThatA hai, to use hama kyA kaheMge? bacapanA aura nAdAnI hI nA? (r) zAstra jJAna ke mAdhyama se samyag jJAnadRSTi ko prApta kara lenA caahie| phira hara eka ghaTanA kA samyagdarzana ho skegaa| Kan patra : 32 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, terA patra milA | itanA viSAda kyoM? itanI antarvedanA kyoM? maiM cAhatA hU~ ki tU avilaMba viSAdamukta banajA, vedanArahita bnjaa| jAnatA hai, tere andara meM itanA viSAda kyoM ubhara AyA hai? itanI ghora vedanA kyoM paidA huI hai? asat ko sat mAna liyA hai! kAlpanika ko vAstavika mAna liyA hai! __ varSA kAla thaa| barasAta barasane se jamIna gIlI ho gaI thii| rAste kI miTTI se choTe bacce ghara-ghara khela rahe the| apane choTe-choTe pairoM para miTTI car3hAkara unhoMne choTe-choTe ghara banAe the| 'yaha merA ghara... yaha merA ghara...' bolate nAca rahe the| itane meM do gadhe daur3ate Ae aura baccoM ke ghara tor3ate hue cale gae.. bacce rone lage... 'gadhoM ne hamAre ghara tor3a ddaale...|' baccoM kA rudana sunakara mAtAe~ ghara se bAhara aaii| baccoM ko pUchA : 'kyA huA? kyoM rote ho?' baccoM ne rote-rote kahA : 'hamAre ghara gadhoM ne tor3a diye...' mAtAe~ ha~sane lagI! sinemA ke parde para khUkhAra zera dikhAI diyA aura usakI bhayAnaka garjanA thieTara meM gUMja uThI... baccA ghabarA gayA... mA~ se cipaka gayA aura kahane lagA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 141 : 'mA~, yaha jAnavara khA jaaegaa..|' mA~ ha~satI hai ! bacce ke sara ko sahalAtI huI kahatI hai : yaha to parde kA zera hai ... apane pAsa nahIM A sakatA... saccA zera nahIM hai! saMdhyA ke samaya kSitija para aneka raMga ubhara Ate haiM... aneka prakAra kI AkRtiyA~ dikhAI detI haiN| bar3A nagara bhI dikhAI detA hai aura adbhuta kalarameciMga bhI dikhAI detA hai... paraMtu thor3e kSaNoM ke bAda aMdhakAra chA jAtA hai .... koI AkRti nahIM rahatI... koI raMga nahIM rhtaa...| yaha dekhakara kabhI tU nirAzA meM DUbA hai? nahIM nA ? to phira isa samaya kyoM nirAzA ke samaMdara meM DUba gayA hai ? kyA tU isa saMsAra ko vAstavika mAna rahA hai ? isa saMsAra kI ghaTanAoM ko, parivartanoM ko vAstavika mAna rahA hai ? hA~, tU vAstavika mAna rahA hai, isalie to ro rahA hai| ajJAna - abodha bacce kI taraha ro rahA hai| tU saca-saca batA, kyA tujhe saMsAra kI ghaTanAe~ baccoM ke 'ghara-ghara' ke khela jaisI avAstavika lagatI haiM ? kyA tujhe duniyA kI bAteM sinemA ke zera kI garjanA jaisI asat pratIta hotI haiM ? kyA tujhe saMsAra ke sAre sukha saMdhyAkAlIna AkAza ke raMga jaise kSaNika aura jAdUgara kI mAyA jaise kAlpanika lage haiM? tere pAsa tattvajJAna hai na? tUne kucha dharmagraMthoM kA to adhyayana kiyA hai na? dharmaguruoM kA thor3A-sA upadeza to sunA hai na? yAnI tere pAsa thor3A-sA bhI zAstrajJAna hai, yaha maiM jAnatA hU~ / aba tujhe eka kAma karanA cAhie ... tU zAstrajJAna ke mAdhyama se 'jJAnadRSTi' prApta kara le| usa jJAnadRSTi se tU saMsAra kA samyagdarzana kara skegaa| jJAnadRSTi se hI saMsAra kA, saMsAra kI hara ghaTanA kA, saMsAra kI pratyeka vyakti kA, saMsAra kI hara bAta kA tU saccA darzana kara sakegA, vAstavika darzana kara skegaa| saMsAra tujhe baccoM ke saMsAra tujhe saMdhyA ke saMsAra tujhe sinemA ke maiM tujhe mAtra AzvAsana dene ke lie ye bAteM nahIM likha rahA huuN| maiM yaha cAha rahA hU~ ki tU aba sadA ke lie prasanna banA rahe ! sarvadA AnaMdapUrNa banA rahe / tU kabhI viSAdamagna na ho, tU kabhI vedanAgrasta na ho| isakA eka hI upAya hai : saMsAra kA samyagdarzana! jJAnadRSTi se saMsAra kA saccA darzana krnaa| miTTI ke ghara ke khela jaisA lgegaa| raMgoM jaisA lgegaa| parde ke dRzyoM jaisA lagegA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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142 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai vAstava meM saMsAra mAtra kalpanA hai| saMsAra mAtra bhramaNA hai| saMsAra mAtra avAstavikatA hai| vAstavika hai, mAtra apanI AtmA! zuddha,buddha, mukta AtmA hI vAstavikatA hai| priya mumukSu! mAtra buddhi se mata socanA | mAtra buddhi ke sahAre jo kucha socA jAtA hai, galata socA jAtA hai| isase aneka viSamatAe~ paidA hotI haiM, aneka anartha paidA hote haiN| mAtra indriyoM ke mAdhyama se buddhi socatI hai| aba zAstrajJAna ke sahAre socanA hogaa| buddhi kA saMbaMdha zAstrajJAna se jor3anA hogaa| isalie tujhe apanA zAstrajJAna kucha bar3hAnA hogaa| 'AtmajJAna' aura 'karmajJAna' vistRta karanA hogaa| isalie tU mere pAsa Aoge to maiM sahAyaka bana skuuNgaa| tere pAsa buddhi to hai, zAstrajJAna bhI tU pA sakegA, paraMtu yadi sammoha se mukta nahIM ho pAyA, to zAstrajJAna vyartha bana jAegA, koI kAma kA nahIM rahegA terA zAstrajJAna aura terI tIkSNa buddhi / sammoha nahIM caahie| yadi saMsAra ko jJAnadRSTi se dekhegA aura socegA to sammoha nahIM rhegaa| sammoha calA gayA ki tujhe apUrva AtmAnaMda kI anubhUti hone lgegii| tUne jisa ghaTanA ko apane viSAda kA kAraNa batAyA hai, vaha ghaTanA kAlpanika saMsAra kI mAtra eka kAlpanika ghaTanA hai| aisA kyoM banA?' aisA tU pUchatA hai na? saMsAra meM aisA saba kucha bana sakatA hai| saMsAra meM kyA nahIM bana sakatA hai, tU batAegA? tUne usa ghaTanA ko durghaTanA mAna lI aura vAstavika mAna lI, isalie terA mana viSAda se bhara gayA hai| saMsAra kI aisI ghaTanAoM ko Hard & Fast mata liyA kara| khUba sahajatA se socatA raha | jJAnadRSTi se vicAroM meM sahajatA aaegii| apane vicAra aise hone cAhae ki jina vicAroM se hama azAMta na hoM, parezAna na hoN| AtmalakSI zAstrajJAna se vicAroM meM avazya parivartana AtA hai| tujhe bAra-bAra 'jJAnadRSTi' ke viSaya meM likhatA hU~, kyoM? jAnatA hai? jJAnadRSTi se Antara AnaMda banA rahatA hai| jJAnadRSTi se hI A~kheM karuNA se Ardra banI rahatI haiN| jJAnadRSTi se hI hRdaya guNa puSpoM kI saurabha se suvAsita banA rahatA hai| maiM mAnatA hU~ ki aba jo terA patra AegA, usameM terI bhItarI prasannatA kI abhivyakti hogii| hamArI vihArayAtrA kI dizA hI badala gii| kuMbhAriyA se jAnA thA For Private And Personal Use Only

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143 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai rAjasthAna kI ora, A gae uttara gujarAta meN| gujarAta ke prasiddha tIrtha tAraMgAjI ke pAsa 'vAva' gA~va meM prabhubhakti kA mahotsava thA, usa prasaMga para jAnA anivArya bana gayA thaa| vahA~ se tAraMgAjI tIrtha meM Ae haiN| isa puNyabhUmi ke sAtha aneka varSoM kI madhura smRtiyA~ jur3I huI haiN| isa manabhAvana tIrtha kI antarAtmA ko AnaMda se, prasannatA se bhara de aisI aneka bAteM haiM... lilU~gA Age patra meM... Aja to abhI hI patra pUrNa karatA huuN| hama sabhI kuzala haiM, terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| tAraMgAjI tIrtha 12-2-79 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 144 BantaryAtrA ko lakSya meM rakhakara yadi tIrthayAtrA kI jAye to vaha sArthaka evaM saphala hotI hai| (r) tIrthoM kI dharatI ke paramANu Aja bhI utane hI prabhAvI evaM zaktizAlI haiM... vahA~ para Aja bhI vidyuta cuMbakIya kSetra bana jAtA hai... para anubhUtiyoM kI gaharAI meM utaranA jarUrI hotA hai| (r) paristhitiyA~ baneM yA bigar3e... apanI jAgarukatA ko yathAvata rkhnaa| rAga dveSa se bace rhnaa| (r) jJAtAbhAva evaM draSTAbhAva ko hara hAlata meM banAe rkhnaa| saphalatA prApta karane meM samaya laga sakatA hai... para nirAza hone kI kataI AvazyakatA nahIM hai! (r) sattvazIla bana kara jInA hogaa| patra : 33 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra nahIM milA hai| __ hamArI vihAra yAtrA sukhapUrvaka ho rahI hai| isa bAra vihAra ugra nahIM hai, zAMti se paribhramaNa ho rahA hai| tAraMgA tIrtha kI yAtrA AnaMda pUrNa rhii| tAraNagiri para AyA huA yaha tIrtha jitanA bhavya hai, utanA hI AlAdaka hai| maiM isa tIrtha meM bacapana meM bhI kaI bAra AyA huuN| priya mumukSu! arAvalI ke ina pahAr3oM meM jaba kumArapAla besahArA bhaTaka rahA thA, gurjarezvara siddharAja ke bhaya se vyAkulacitta kumArapAla jaba ina pahAr3oM meM chupa rahA thA, usa samaya usako kalpanA bhI nahIM hogI ki usake dvArA isa pahAr3a para eka bhavya jinamaMdira kA nirmANa hogaa| ___ bArahavIM zatAbdI kA vaha samaya thaa| gujarAta kA rAjA thA siddharAja | siddharAja niHsaMtAna thaa| jaba usako jJAta huA ki 'merA uttarAdhikArI kumArapAla hone vAlA hai, vaha jhuMjhalA uThA | usane kumArapAla ko pakar3ane ke lie, usakI hatyA karane ke lie bharasaka prayatna zurU kie| kumArapAla For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 145 sAvadhAna thaa| apanA gA~va vanasthalI chor3a kara vaha bhAga niklaa| aneka gA~va, jaMgala aura pahAr3oM meM bhaTakane lgaa| aneka kaSTa sahana kie | bhaTakatA huA kumArapAla arAvalI ke pahAr3oM meM phuNcaa| bhUkhA pyAsA vaha eka vRkSa kI chAyA meM vizrAma kara rahA hai| sAmane eka vRkSa ke nIce usane eka ajIba dRzya dekhaa| eka cUhA apane bila se nikalA, eka sonA muhara usake pAsa thI, bAhara chor3akara punaH apane bila meM gayA, dUsarI sonA muhara le AyA! phira bila meM gayA, tIsarI sonA muhara le AyA... isa prakAra battIsa sonA muhara le AyA... aura nAcane lagA! kumArapAla isa dRzya ko dekhatA hai | usake mana meM vicAra AyA : 'ye sonA muhare isa cUhe ke lie kisa kAma kI? mujhe abhI sakhta AvazyakatA hai...' usane taba sonA muhare uThA lI, jaba cUhA apane bila meM gayA thaa| cUhA vApasa bAhara AyA, usane apanI sonA muhare nahIM dekhI... sara paTakane lagA... aura caMda kSaNoM meM vaha sara paTaka-paTaka kara mara gyaa| kumArapAla to stabdha raha gayA... usake hRdaya meM gaharA duHkha huaa| cUhe ko bhI dhana-saMpatti kI kitanI mamatA? kitanA pragAr3ha rAga? samagra jIvasRSTi para mamatA kaisI chAI huI hai| mamatA se hI saMsAra meM jIva du:khI hai, mamatAparavazatA se hI jIva durgatiyoM meM bhaTakate rahate haiN| kumArapAla vahA~ se cala diyA, paraMtu cUhe kI karuNa mRtyu jo usake nimitta huI thI, bhUla nahIM sakA | jaba siddharAja kI mRtyu huI aura kumArapAla gujarAta kA rAjA banA, taba bhI cUhe ko nahIM bhUlA | usane gurudeva hemacandrasUrIzvarajI ko vaha ghaTanA sunAI aura pUchA : 'gurudeva, mere hRdaya meM Aja bhI vaha duSkRtya khaTakatA hai, mere usa pApa kA prAyazcitta dene kI kRpA kreN| zrI hemacandrasUrijI ne kumArapAla ko usa jagaha ki jahA~ cUhe kI mRtyu huI thI, bhavya jinamaMdira banAne kA prAyazcitta diyA / kumArapAla ne prAyazcitta ko svIkAra kiyA aura isa uttuMga kalAtmaka jinamaMdira kA nirmANa ho gayA / AsamAna se bAta karate hue jinamaMdira se jaba hama mauna bAteM karate haiM, taba yaha maMdira bahuta bAteM kahatA hai| ___ bhavya jinamaMdira aura bhavya jinapratimA! dUsare tIrthaMkara bhagavAna ajitanAtha kI vizAlakAya pratimA bhakta hRdaya ko bhI khUba bhA jAtI hai| maMdira kA bAhya pradeza bhI vizAla hai| itanA bar3A cauka kisI jagaha dekhane ko nahIM milA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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146 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai svacchatA, bhavyatA aura ramaNIyatA se yaha tIrtha sacamuca zAMtipriya jIvoM kA svarga hai| yAtriyoM ke lie yahA~ eka bar3I purAnI dharmazAlA hai| eka bhojanAlaya bhI hai| kucha nae 'blaoNksa' bhI bane hue haiN| tIrtha kI vyavasthA ANaMdajI kalyANajI per3hI kara rahI hai| paraMtu avyavasthA kI sImA nahIM hai| yahA~ digambara sampradAya kA bhI maMdira hai, dharmazAlA hai| najadIka hI eka pahAr3I para 'koTizilA' nAmaka darzanIya sthAna hai| dUsarI eka pahAr3I para 'siddhazilA' nAmaka darzanIya sthAna hai| 'puNya-pApa kI bArI' nAmaka eka tIsarA ramaNIya-darzanIya sthAna hai| ___ eka dina hama logoM ne eka Azcaryajanaka dRzya dekhA | maMdira ke bAhya cauka ke eka bhAga meM per3hI kI ora se pakSiyoM ke lie anna DAlA jAtA hai, udhara kucha bandara aura kucha kabUtara sAtha meM dAne cuga rahe the| kabUtara bandaroM se nirbhaya the, bandara kabUtara ko koI harakata nahIM kara rahe the| yoM bhI isa tIrtha meM bandaroM kI AbAdI z2yAdA hai| cUMki yahA~ bandara nirbhaya haiN| yahA~ kisI bhI pazu-pakSI kA zikAra nahIM hotA hai| yAtrI bhI bandaroM ke sAtha khelane laga jAte haiM! kabhI koI zarAratI lar3ake A jAte haiM... to bandaroM ko hairAna bhI karate haiM! Aja se karIbana 15 varSa pUrva, jaba maiM isa tIrtha meM AyA thA, 24 tIrthaMkara bhagavaMtoM kI bhakti ke 24 geya kAvya banAne kA prAraMbha kiyA thaa| 24 kAvya bana gae the aura 'vaMdana ho vItarAga' nAma kA gujarAtI kAvyasaMgraha prakAzita bhI ho gayA thaa| __ nau sAla pUrva isI tIrthabhUmi meM eka grISmakAlIna jJAnasatra kA Ayojana huA thaa| 21 dina kA vaha Ayojana thaa| skUla-kAleja ke 125 chAtra usa jJAnasatra meM sammilita hue the| unako naitika-dhArmika aura AdhyAtmika zikSA dI gaI thii| vaha jJAnasatra hara dRSTi se saphala rahA thaa| isa pahAr3a para koI gA~va basA huA nahIM hai| nau sAla se pahAr3a para sar3aka bana jAne se baseM maMdira ke dvAra taka pahu~catI haiN| yAtriyoM kI cahala-pahala banI rahatI hai| 'tAraMgA hila' sTezana hai| sTezana para bhI jaina dharmazAlA hai aura dharmazAlA meM choTA-sA maMdira hai| uttara gujarAta meM AyA huA yaha bhArata ke zreSTha jaina tIrthoM meM se eka tIrtha hai| isa tIrtha meM isa samaya ATha dina rukane kA dhanya avasara milA | paramAtma For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 147 bhakti... AdhyAtmika vAcana - parizIlana... jIvanasparzI vArtAlApa... jApa aura dhyAna... majA A gyaa| kucha likhane kA kAma bhI kiyA / paramAtmA ajitanAtha kI zItala chAyA meM apUrva AnaMda kI anubhUti huI / kSetra ke bhI apane prabhAva hote haiM, isa bAta kI pratIti aise sthAnoM meM hotI hai| pavitra kSetra meM rahane se vicAroM meM bhI pavitratA banI rahatI hai, yaha bAta avizvasanIya nahIM hai| hAlA~ki manuSya kI dRSTi para sArI bAta nirbhara hotI hai, phira bhI tIrthakSetra kA prabhAva to mAnanA hI par3egA / antaryAtrA ke lakSya se tIrthayAtrA ho, to AtmAnaMda kA anubhava ho sakatA hai| antaryAtrA sthagita nahIM honI caahie| terI antaryAtrA cala rahI hogI? kaI dinoM se terA patra nahIM hai - kyoM ? saMsAra kI koI ulajhana paidA ho gaI hai kyA ? zarIra ne koI duzmanI nahIM kI hai na? kucha bhI ho, koI bhI bAhya paristhiti apane mana para hAvI nahIM ho jAnI caahie| jJAtA bane raho! draSTA bane raho! rAga-dveSa se bacane kA bharasaka paryatna jArI rkho| dhIratA se prayatna karanA hogaa| saphalatA prApta karane meM samaya lgegaa| nirAza nahIM bananA / sattvazIla banakara jIvana jInA hogA / aba merA rAjasthAna jAnA saMbhava nahIM lagatA hai / cAturmAsa gujarAta meM hone kI saMbhAvanA lagatI hai / parivAra ko 'dharmalAbha' sUcita karanA / vaDanagara (gujarAta) 28-2-79 For Private And Personal Use Only priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 148 * tattvadRSTi se, jJAnadRSTi se paristhitiyoM kA mUlyAMkana karane se mana ko samAdhAna mila jAtA hai| * tattvajJAna kevala kitAba yA dimAga meM bhara kara rakhane ke lie nahIM hai, ise jIvana ke vyavahAra meM utAranA cAhie / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir * paramAtmA kI sahI evaM samyaka pahacAna ke binA zraddhA paidA kaise hogI? zraddhA kI vRddhi kaise hogI? * paramAtmA para kI gaI zraddhA bhI yadi vAstavika hai... samyaka hai... to vaha zraddhA bhI, apane mana ke praznoM kA samAdhAna kara sakatI hai| priya mumukSu ! * kahAnI bhI yadi usake hArda ko pahacAnate hue par3hI jAe to abhinava dRSTikoNa mila sakatA hai| patra : 34 dharmalAbha, terA patra hAtha meM AyA, abhI liphAphA kholA bhI nahIM thA... aura mana prasannatA se pulakita ho uThA / liphAphA kholA... patra par3hatA gayA... jo-jo bAteM par3hI, hRdaya ko sparza kara gii| tUne jo manaHsamAdhAna pAyA, jo AtmaparitoSa pAyA, mere lie parama saMtoSa kA kAraNa bana gayA / terA mana kitanA halkApana mahasUsa karatA hogA ! terI AtmA kitanI zItalatA anubhava karatI hogI! hajAroM Tana vajana vAle tere prazna- pahAr3a tere sara se utara gae..! mujhe vizeSa prasannatA to isalie ho rahI hai ki tUne tattvajJAna ke mAdhyama se apane mana ko samajhA diyA! paristhiti to vahI kI vahI hai... saMyoga vahI kA vahI hai... tUne tattvadRSTi se una paristhitiyoM kA ... una saMyogoM kA mUlyAMkana kiyA aura mana kA samAdhAna ho gayA / uttejita mana prazAMta ho gayA / vihvala citta zAMta ho gayA / udvigna AtmA ullAsamaya ho gii| saMyoga pratikUla hai, paristhiti bhI pratikUla hai... paraMtu terI dRSTi meM aba pratikUlatA kA darzana nahIM hai ! tUne sahajatA se - svAbhAvikatA se svIkAra kara For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 149 liyA hara paristhiti ko ! hara saMyoga ko ! dhanyavAda die binA nahIM raha sakatA, priya mumukSu ! isa prakAra tattvajJAna ko jIvanopayogI banAnA caahie| mAnasika tanAvoM ko, praznoM ko, samasyAoM ko tattvajJAna se dUra kiyA jA sakatA hai| abhIabhI eka mahAzaya mile the, acche tattvajJAnI the, vidvAna the aura upadezaka bhI! unase merI bahuta bAteM huI / yoM bhI mere purAne paricita haiM ve| unhoMne apanI kucha Antarika bAteM mukta mana se kI, kucha bAteM aspaSTa aura saMdigdha bhI khii| ve vyAkula the, kucha cintAoM se vyagra the ... kucha pratikUla saMyogoM meM ve ghire hue the| maiMne sahAnubhUti se unakI bAteM sunI ... / jo kucha mujhe kahanA thA, maiMne kahA bhI sahI... bahuta thor3I bAteM kahI... z2yAdA to kyA khuuN| ve svayaM tattvajJAnI haiM! mere mana meM aneka vicAra Ae / tattvajJAnI ko pratikUla saMyoga ... pratikUla paristhiti azAMta kara sakatI hai kyA? to phira tattvajJAna kisalie ? pAsa meM sAbuna hai... pAnI hai... phira bhI vastra gaMde kyoM ? pAsa meM bhojana haiM... pAnI hai phira bhI bhUkhe kyoM! pyAse kyoM ? tattvajJAna ko jIvanasparzI banAne kI dRSTi kA abhAva! apane praznoM ko tattvajJAna ke mAdhyama se sulajhAne kI kSamatA kA abhAva ! paramAtmazraddhA bhI, yadi vAstava meM zraddhA hai, to mana kA samAdhAna kara sakatI hai| mana kI zAMti-svasthatA ko akhaMDa rakha sakatI hai / cAhie hArdika aura vAstavika shrddhaa| mAtra maMdira meM jAne se aisI zraddhA nahIM A jAtI hai| zraddhA kA janma aura zraddhA kI vRddhi maMdira meM ho sakatI hai, paraMtu paramAtmA kI sahI pahacAna ke binA na to zraddhA kA janma ho sakatA hai, na zraddhA kI vRddhi ho sakatI hai| apanI jaina paraMparA meM eka kathAgraMtha hai, nAma hai zrIpAla kathA / prAkRta bhASA meM isako 'sirivAla kahA' kahate haiN| bahuta hI acchI kahAnI hai| isameM mukhya do pAtra haiM, zrIpAla aura usakI patnI mayanAsundarI / zrIpAla rAjakumAra thA / mayanA rAjakumArI thii| donoM ke jIvana saMgharSamaya the| kahAnI to bahuta bar3I hai, kabhI tU AegA mere pAsa, samaya milA to kahU~gA ... / Aja to maiM yaha batAnA cAhatA hU~ ki mayanA sundarI ne zraddhAbala aura jJAnabala ke sahAre, usake jIvana meM paidA hue gaMbhIra prazna ko hala kara diyA thA jarA sI bhI ghabarAhaTa ke binA, jarA sI bhI dInatA kie binA ! pitA- rAjA ne anajAna aura kuSTharoga se grasta yuvAka ke sAtha mayanA kI zAdI kara dI... phira bhI mayanA ke mana meM koI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 150 tUphAna khar3A nahIM huA, koI bhaya... cintA yA roSa paidA nahIM huA! cUMki paramAtmazraddhA usake hRdaya meM thii| tattvajJAna usake hRdaya meM thaa| zraddhA evaM jJAna ke sahAre usane pratikUla paristhiti ko svIkAra kara liyA aura zAMta mana se upacAra bhI kara liyA! paristhiti canda dinoM meM badala gaI! jahA~ duHkha kA hutAzana sulagatA thA vahA~ sukha kA sAgara laharAne lgaa| yaha kahAnI apane jaina samAja meM suparicita hai| isa kahAnI kA eka mahAkAvya gujarAtI bhASA meM bhI hai! 'zrIpAlarAsa' ke nAma se prasiddha hai| manuSya ke saMgharSamaya jIvana meM aisI kahAniyA~ atyaMta mArgadarzaka aura sattvapreraka bana sakatI haiN| paraMtu isa dRSTi se par3he to na! mAtra manoraMjana ke lie par3hane se abhinava dRSTi prApta nahIM hotI hai| yadi phurasata kA samaya vyatIta karane kI dRSTi se par3heM, to bhI kahAnI kA hArda aura kathanIya tattva hAtha nahIM lagatA hai| kisI bhI dharmagrantha kA adhyayana, cintanarahita aura anuprekSArahita hotA hai, to mAtra zAbdika jJAna prApta hotA hai, usakA rahasya prApta nahIM hotA hai, usakA tattva prApta nahIM hotA hai| hAlA~ki Ajakala samAja meM dharmagranthoM kA adhyayana bahuta hI kama loga karate haiN| rAga-dveSa aura moha kI uttejanA paidA karane vAlI kitAboM kA dhar3alle se paThana ho rahA hai| tujhe tattvajJAna kA rasa hai| nayA-nayA tattvajJAna pAne kA prayatna karate rhnaa| mana kI aura tana kI duvidhAe~ samApta ho jaaeNgii| mana svastha banA rahegA, prazamabhAva meM lIna banA rahegA / anukUla-pratikUla saMyogoM meM 'kAryakAraNabhAva' kA jJAna hotA rahegA, isase mAnasika samAdhAna milatA rhegaa| / isa varSa tIrthasthAnoM meM sthiratA karane ke suavasara milate rahe haiN| yaha patra maiM metrANA tIrtha se likha rahA huuN| eka saptAha kI sthiratA yahA~ ho gaI! bhagavAna AdinAtha kA yaha prAcIna tIrtha hai| yahA~ zAMti hai, svacchatA hai aura suvidhAe~ haiM! yAtriyoM kA AvAgamana bahuta hI kama hai| adhyayana-adhyApana aura lekhana-kArya acchA huA | mana nahIM karatA yahA~ se jAne kA! phira bhI vihAra to karanA hI hogaa| 'caitrI olI' ke nau dina 'DIsA' meM bitaaeNge| vaizAkha zuklapakSa meM pAlanapura meM 'jaina dhArmika jJAnasatra' lgegaa| isalie pAlanapura jAnA hogA | jJAnasatra meM taruNoM kA aura yuvakoM kA uttama jIvananirmANa hotA hai| jaina dharma ke siddhAntoM kI rUparekhA vidyArthiyoM ko dI jAtI hai| sAtha For Private And Personal Use Only

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151 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai hI sAtha prayogAtmaka rUpa se jJAna-bhakti aura cAritra kI zikSA dI jAtI hai| yadi tU jJAnasatra meM A sake to tujhe bahuta khuzI hogii| par3hane ke lie nahIM sahI, dekhane ke lie to AnA! svAsthya acchA hai| sAre kArya sucArurUpa se cala rahe haiN| parivAra ko 'dharmalAbha' sUcita karanA / metrANA 30-3-79 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 152 * yA to akele jIne kI kalA sIkha lenI cAhie yA phira sahajIvanasamUhajIvana jIne kA tarIkA samajha lenA cAhie / Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir * ekatva bhAvanA va anyatva bhAvanA ko dRr3ha banAe bagaira akele jInA... prasannatA se jInA saMbhava nahIM hai! * paraspara eka dUsare ko samajhe bagaira, eka dUje ko sahe bagaira sahajIvana saMbhavita nahIM hai ! * jaba hama svayaM kisI kI icchA ke mutAbika nahIM jI sakate phira auroM se yaha apekSA kyoM rakhanI cAhie ki ve hamArI icchA ke mutAbika jieM? priya gumukSu, * AgrahI svabhAva, durAgrahI vartana jindagI ko bhramaNAoM meM bhramita kara DAlatA hai! na kisI kI sahAnubhUti TikatI hai... na koI saMbaMdha banatA hai ! patra : 35 dharmalAbha ! terA patra jaba mere hAtha meM AyA taba AkAza prakAzarahita thA / dizAyeM udAsa thI aura vRkSoM para pakSI cuppI sAdhe baiThe the / tere patra meM jaba tujhe dekhA, tujhe sunA to merA mana bhI kSubdha ho gyaa| hAlA~ki merI kSubdhatA bAdaloM jaisI kSaNika thii| maiMne terI bAtoM para gaharAI se socA / priya mumukSu ! tujhe Aja kucha saca - saca bAteM batA denA ucita mAnatA hU~ / pahalI bAta to yaha hai ki tU saMsAra meM jIne kI kalA abhI taka sIkhA nahIM hai| yA to tU akelA jIne kI kalA prApta kara le athavA kisI ke sAtha jIne kI paddhati sIkha le| svastha citta se tU nirNaya kara le | nirNaya dRr3ha karanA / mana kI caMcalatA nirNaya ko dRr3ha nahIM hone detI hai, isalie caMcalatA to miTAnI hI hogii| yadi akelA jInA hai to tU akelA jI sakatA hai, paraMtu isake lie tujhe ekatva bhAvanA se bhAvita honA par3egA / akelApana akharanA nahIM cAhie / 'merA koI nahIM hai,' yaha dInatA kabhI bhI tere mana meM nahIM AnI caahie| yadi mana meM kisI ko apanA banAne kI icchA hai, to tujhe kisI kA bananA hogA ! tU yadi For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 153 kisI kA banegA, niSkAma bhAva se kisI kA banegA to koI terA bana sakatA hai| tU soca le, Aja dina taka tU kisI kA banA hai? mAtra mIThI-mIThI bAteM karane se kisI kA nahIM banA jaataa| kisI kA banane ke liye... tujhe apane sukha kA vicAra nahIM karanA hogaa| usake sukha kA vicAra karanA hogaa| usake sukha ke liye tujhe kucha duHkha bhI sahana karane hoNge| yadi tujhe kisI kI jarUrata nahIM hai, sampUrNatayA paranirapekSa jIvana jIne kI terI kSamatA hai to tujhe kisI ke liye duHkha sahana karane kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| kisI ke viSaya meM socane kI jarUrata nahIM hai| paraMtu aisA jIvana jInA hogA to sAdhu bananA hogA! sAdhu hI aisA jIvana jI sakatA hai! ekatva kI sAdhanA hI sAdhu jIvana hai| paraMtu isameM bhI eka bar3A bhayasthAna hai... vaha hai svArthavRtti! ekatva kI sAdhanA svArthasAdhanA na bana jAya, yaha dhyAna rakhanA! kara sakegA ekatva kI sAdhanA? prabala AtmazraddhA ke sahAre prasannatApUrNa jIvana jI sakegA? hai, aisA AtmavizvAsa? yadi AtmavizvAsa ho to akelA masta jIvana jIne kA bhI majA hai! jaba taka zarIra svastha hai, jaba taka paisA kamAne kI kSamatA hai, jaba taka dUsaroM kI apekSA rakhe binA jIne kA joza hai taba taka to majA hai, paraMtu jaba zarIra rogagrasta banA, jaba paisA kamAne kI kSamatA nahIM rahI... taba vaha majA bhApa bana kara AkAza meM ur3a jAyegI! jahA~ taka maiM socatA hU~, akelA jIne kI terI kSamatA nahIM hai| sAdhujIvana meM bhI tU akelA nahIM jI sktaa| koI na koI sAthI-sahayogI cAhie hI! sAthI aura sahayogI kaise milatA hai, tU jAnatA hai? tU kaise jAnatA hogA? tU kisI kA sAthI banA hI nahIM hai! tU kisI kA jIvana-sahayogI banA hI nahIM hai| yadi Aja tU mAtA-pitA ke sAtha nahIM jI sakatA hai, bhAI-bahana ke sAtha nahIM jI sakatA hai... kala tU patnI ke sAtha bhI nahIM jI skegaa| tU aisA cAhatA hai ki terI icchA ke anusAra saba cale! terI harakateM saba sahana kare! tU kisI kI bhI koI harakata nahIM sahana karanA caahtaa| jarA soca to sahI, duniyA meM kahIM para bhI yaha saMbhava hai? paraspara eka dUsare ko samajhe binA, eka dUsare ko sahana kiye binA, sahajIvana nahIM jiyA jaataa| tU kisI kI icchAnusAra jIvana jI sakatA hai kyA? abhI taka vaisA jIvana tUne jiyA hai kyA? nahIM na? to phira tU vaisI icchA kaise kara sakatA hai ki apanI icchA ke anusAra dUsarA jIvana jiye? asambhava hai bhaiyA! yadi jIvana ko vyartha gaMvAnA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 154 nahIM ho to aise phAlatU vicAra chor3a de| arthahIna... sArahIna vicAra karake dimAga ko bigAr3a mt| Agraha chor3a de| mana ko nirAgrahI banA de| terA svabhAva AgrahI bana gayA hai| tU apanI icchAoM ke anusAra saba kucha tIvratA se cAhatA hai, yaha tIvratA tujhe azAnta banAye rakhatI hai| isa tIvratA ne tujhe kaI bAra parezAna kara DAlA hai... jAnatA hai na? AgrahI-durAgrahI svabhAva tujhe kahIM para bhI zAnti se nahIM jIne degA | tU bhava kI bhramaNA meM bhaTaka jAyegA | hAlA~ki Aja bhI tU bhramaNAoM meM bhramita hI hai| merI yaha bAta tere hRdaya ko duHkha pahu~cAyegI... paraMtu kyA karU~? spaSTa bAta likhe binA aba dUsarA koI cArA nahIM hai| kitanI bIhar3a vikalpajAla meM tu pha~sa gayA hai - jarA to tu soc| kitane acche saMyoga tujhe mile haiM? kitanA pavitra vAtAvaraNa tujhe milA hai? AtmavikAsa karane kA kitanA unmukta kSetra tujhe milA hai? kyA tU isakA mUlyAMkana nahIM karegA? choTI sI jindagI aise hI bitA degA? terI bhUloM ko tU kabhI svIkAra nahIM karegA? tUne kabhI apanI bhUloM kA svIkAra kiyA hai? hamezA dUsaroM kI hI bhUleM tU dekhatA rahA hai| kyA pAyA tUne? kauna-sI saMpatti tUne pA lI? tU soca : tere apane kauna haiM? tere prati hArdika sneha rakhane vAle kauna haiM? tUne vaise snehIjanoM ko bhI ThukarA diye! terI AgrahavRtti ne kitane-kitane nukasAna kiye haiM - jAnatA hai na? zAyada tU yaha patra par3hakara likhegA : 'maiM aba jInA hI nahIM cAhatA hU~!' to kahA~ jAyegA? mRtyu ke bAda dUsarA jIvana milegA... vaha jIvana jInA par3egA! jIvana to jInA hI par3egA... yaha jIvana nahIM to dUsarA koI jIvana! aura tU kyA yaha mAnatA hai ki AtmahatyA karane vAle ko isa mAnava jIvana se bar3hiyA dUsarA jIvana milegA? bhramaNA meM mata rhnaa| dussAhasa mata krnaa| tere prati hArdika sneha hone se hI ye sArI bAteM likhI hai| terA jIvanamahala miTTI meM Dhaha na jAya, tU ghora duHkha aura azAnti se mukta bane, isI pavitra bhAvanA se yaha patra likhA hai| mere hRdaya ke pavitra Azaya para jarA sA bhI avizvAsa tU nahIM karegA-isa zraddhA se ye bAteM likhI haiN| varSAkAla nikaTa A rahA hai| cAturmAsa DIsA meM vyatIta hogaa| yadi terI anukUlatA ho aura tU DIsA Aye to pratyakSa bahuta sArI bAteM ho sakatI hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 155 hAlAMki bAteM to pahale bhI bahuta huI haiM, tU una bAtoM para svastha mana se soce, to tere mana kA samAdhAna ho sakatA hai| ___ priya mumukSu! jyAdA to kyA likhU? buddhimAna ko jyAdA likhanA nahIM cAhie, jyAdA upadeza denA nahIM cAhie, jyAdA upAlaMbha bhI nahIM denA cAhie | itanA bhI jo tujhe likhA hai, vaha terA patra par3hane se mere mana meM jo vyathA huI, tere prati jo tIvra sahAnubhUti prakaTa huI- isase likhA gayA hai| phira bhI, yadi mere isa patra se tere hRdaya ko duHkha huA ho- to kSamA cAhatA huuN| 5-5-76 pAlanapura - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 156 (r) saMsAra meM sabhI savAloM ke javAba nahIM milate! kucha savAla hamezA-hamezA ke liye bejavAba rahate haiN| (r)mokSa meM jAnevAle jIvoM ko 'bhavya' kahA jAtA hai... jabaki jo jIva kabhI bhI mokSa meM nahIM jAe~ge unheM 'abhavya' kahate haiM! koI 'abhavya' kyoM? isakA koI samAdhAna nahIM milatA! (r) abhavya AtmA kI kabhI bhI mukti nahIM hogI! kisa gunAha kI itanI bar3I saz2A? koI gunAha nahIM... koI saz2A nahIM, yaha to saMsAra kI eka vAstavikatA mAtra hai| B AtmanirIkSaNa ke binA adhyAtma ke rAste para eka kadama bhI Age nahIM bar3hA jA sakatA! (r) zAMta mana se apane bhItara ko dekho! apane vicAroM ko, apane vyavahAroM ko jaaNco| aura isa taraha svayaM kA nirIkSaNa karate rho| patra : 36 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra nahIM mila rahA hai| acchA hai, ina dinoM meM maiM atyanta vyasta hU~, tere patroM kA ThIka samaya para pratyuttara nahIM de paataa| pAlanapura se yahA~ taka kI padayAtrA meM kucha antaHsparzI vicAraspaMdanoM kI sukhada anubhUti huii| ye sAre vicAra bAhya anukUla-pratikUla saMyogoM para AdhArita nahIM hai, bAhya kSaNika evaM parivartanazIla paristhitiyoM ke sandarbha meM bhI nahIM hai| yaha vicAradhArA pravAhita huI hai, mere hI antaHstala para! merI hI mAnasika bhUmi para! vicArayAtrA kA prArambha huA 'abhavya' jIvoM se! tIrthaMkara bhagavaMtoM ne do prakAra ke jIva batAye haiM : bhavya aura abhavya / jo jIva kabhI na kabhI mukti pAyeMge, ve jIva bhavya kahalAte haiM aura jo jIva kabhI bhI mukti nahIM pAyeMge, ve jIva abhavya kahalAte haiN| donoM prakAra ke jIva ananta-ananta haiM! bhavya jIva ananta haiM, vaise abhavya jIva bhI ananta haiM! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 157 'ananta jIvoM meM abhavyatA kyoM ? ananta jIva mukti se... mokSa se vaMcita kyoM raheMge?' isa prazna kA koI bhI samAdhAna nahIM hai! ananta jIva saMsAra kI cAra gatiyoM meM paribhramaNa karate raheMge! ve kabhI bhI apane karmoM kA nAza nahIM kara pAyeMge... kabhI pUrNa AtmasvarUpa prApta nahIM kara pAyeMge! kisa aparAdha kI yaha sajA hotI hai? koI aparAdha nahIM ! niraparAdhI ko yaha kitanI bar3I sajA hai ? vizva kA eka sarvamAnya siddhAnta hai, kArya-kAraNabhAva kA [Cause & effect] yAnI ki koI bhI kArya binA kAraNa nahIM bntaa| yaha siddhAnta 'abhavyatva' ke sAmane natamastaka ho jAtA hai ! 'abhavyatva' kA koI kAraNa hI nahIM! abhavyatva koI aparAdha kI sajA nahIM hai, koI galatI kA pariNAma nahIM hai| yadi koI abhavya jIvAtmA, jisako mAlUma ho gayA ho ki maiM abhavya hU~, vaha pUcha le tIrthaMkara paramAtmA ko ki : bhagavan, maiM abhavya kyoM? maiM bhI eka caitanyamaya AtmA hU~... maiM bhavya kyoM nahIM ? isakA pratyuttara usako kyA mile ? yaha bhI saMsAra kI eka vAstavikatA hai ki binA aparAdha ... sajA ho sakatI hai! svIkAra kara lenA cAhie isa vAstavikatA ko ! isa bAta ko svIkAra kara lene se mana kI eka gaMbhIra ulajhana sulajha jAtI hai| hAlAMki apane jIvana meM sukha-duHkha kI jo ghaTanA ghaTatI hai, vaha sakAraNa hI ghaTatI hai, paraMtu kabhI hama kAraNa samajha nahIM pAte haiM, isalie hama mAna lete haiM ki 'yaha niSkAraNa duHkha maiM begunAha thA aura mujhe sajA huI... / ' pAyA... priya mumukSu ! tU svasthatA se - gaMbhIratA se socanA ki una abhavya jIvoM kI kaisI karuNAspada sthiti hotI hai / ve jIva kabhI bhI karmoM se mukta nahIM baneMge..... kabhI bhI vItarAga nahIM bana pAyeMge... kabhI bhI sarvajJa nahIM bana pAyeMge! AtmA kA svayaM pUrNAnanda nahIM pA sakeMge! cUMki ve abhavya haiM! tU bAhya AcaraNa se yA vicAroM se nirNaya nahIM kara sakegA ki yaha jIva bhavya hai yA abhavya hai! yaha nirNaya karanA apanI buddhi-zakti se pare hai| dUsare manuSyoM ke viSaya meM kisI bhI taraha kA nirNaya, unake bAhya AcaraNa se karane jAyegA to sahI nirNaya karanA saMbhava nahIM hai / bAhya AcaraNa sAdhu jaisA ho aura hRdaya DAkU kA ho sakatA hai / bAhya AcaraNa DAkU jaisA ho aura hRdaya sAdhu kA ho sakatA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 158 dUsare manuSyoM kA nahIM, apane svayaM ke viSaya meM bhI, gahana AtmanirIkSaNa ke binA, sahI nirNaya honA saMbhava nahIM hai| apane svayaM ke guNa-doSoM ko jAnanA, vAstavika rUpa meM jAnanA AsAna bAta nahIM hai| AtmanirIkSaNa bahuta bar3I bAta hai| hara koI manuSya AtmanirIkSaNa nahIM kara sakatA! aura, jo manuSya AtmanirIkSaNa nahIM kara sakatA, vaha manuSya para-parIkSaNa kaise kara sakatA hai? __mumukSu! AtmanirIkSaNa adhyAtma mArga meM to anivArya hai hI, saMsAra ke hara kSetra meM Avazyaka hai| zAnta mana se, svastha citta se apane Apa ko bhItara se dekho| apane vicAroM ko dekho, vicAroM kI sthiratA-asthiratA ko dekho| pragaTa aura pracchanna doSoM ko dekho | bhUtakAlIna saphalatA-niSphalatA ke kAraNoM kA samyak Alocana kro| isa prakAra AtmanirIkSaNa karane se manuSya kA bhaviSya vizeSa ujjvala bana sakatA hai| paraMtu AtmanirIkSaNa kareM kaise? para-nirIkSaNa aura para-parIkSaNa karane meM manuSya itanA ulajha gayA hai ki AtmanirIkSaNa kA samaya hI nahIM milatA! dina-rAta para-nirIkSaNa aura para-cintA meM nimagna manuSya apane Apako hI bhUla baiThA hai| isa bAra khUba AtmanirIkSaNa hotA rahA hai| virakti kI tIvra anubhUti bhI huii| vAstava meM saMsAra svapna samAna lagA| saMsAra ke sAre saMbaMdha vAyu samAna caMcala lge| sAtha-sAtha paramAtmacaraNoM meM tRpti kI anubhUti huii| antaryAtrA ke Ananda kA anubhava kiyaa| priya mumukSu! svapnavat jIvana kI svapna samAna ulajhanoM meM pha~sanA mata / ulajhanoM se hRdaya ko alipta rakhanA / nirlepa rkhnaa| hAlAMki muzkila hai yaha kAma, phira bhI karanA atyanta Avazyaka hai| apane AsapAsa jo-jo ghaTanAyeM ghaTatI haiM, jo-jo bAteM banatI haiM... kyA hama mAtra usake jJAtA aura draSTA bana sakeMge? rAga-dveSa se alipta raha sakeMge? kaba vaise dina AyeMge? ___ mujhe to lagatA hai ki yadi 'paravRttAnta-andha-mUka-badhira' nahIM baneMge to jIvana meM kabhI bhI zAnti-samatA aura samAdhi kI anubhUti nahIM hogI? paravRttAnta ke prati aMdhApana A jAnA caahie| dUsaroM kI ora, parapadArtha kI ora dekhanA hI nhiiN| parapadArtha, paradravya ke viSaya meM bolanA hI nahIM aura parapadArtha kI bAtoM ko sunanA hI nahIM! yaha bhI eka sAdhanA hai! AtmavikAsa kI sAdhanA hai| AtmazAMti pAne kI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 159 sAdhanA hai| kucha aMzoM meM, gRhastha bhI yaha sAdhanA kara sakatA hai / sAdhujIvana meM yadi sAdhu cAhe to yaha sAdhanA acchI taraha kara sakatA hai| yadi sAdhu ke pAsa isa AMtara sAdhanA kI dRSTi ho to sAdhujIvana meM vaha adbhuta zAMti kA anubhava kara sakatA hai / Aja to maiMne merI bAteM likha dI hai / terI AMtara prasannatA banAye rakhanA / hAlAMki isa bhayAnaka saMsAra meM svasthatA aura prasannatA bahuta durlabha hai| pAlanapura meM jJAnasatra pUrNa ho gayA ! Ayojana bhI acchA rahA / jJAnasatra pUrNa hote hI hamane vahA~ se vihAra kara diyA thA / mahotsava ke prasaMga para hama lIMca (mehasAnA ke pAsa) Aye hue haiN| jeTha zukla pakSa yahA~ vyatIta hogA / ASAr3ha zukla pakSa meM DIsA meM cAturmAsa praveza karane kI bhAvanA hai| sabhI jIvoM kA kalyANa ho, yahI kAmanA lIMca 1-6-79 For Private And Personal Use Only priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 160 (r) prAcInakAla kI zramaNasaMskRti kitanI lubhAvanI pratIta hotI hai, kabhI kabhI! parvatIya upatyakAoM meM rahane kA! guphAoM meM jIne kA! nirjana gRhoM meM rahane kA! ni:saMga bana kara! nirmama bana kara! (r) paradravya ke sahAre 'sva' ko pUrNa banAne kI aMdhI daur3a meM AtmasattA ko bhulA diyA gayA hai| (r) sukha pAne ke liye aura duHkha se pIchA chur3Ane ke liye sArA saMsAra daur3adhUpa macA rahA hai| (r) dUsaroM ke kartavyoM kI chAnabIna meM ulajhane kI bajAya hameM hamAre kartavyoM ko jAnanA-pahacAnanA jarUrI hai| (r) jahA~ apanI jimmedArI nahIM yA lenA-denA nahIM, vahA~ apanI adhikAravAdI manodazA kA pradarzana karane se kyA? patra : 37 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra mila gayA thA, hamArI padayAtrA cala rahI thI, aba DIsA pahu~ca gaye haiM, padayAtrA sthagita ho gaI, cAturmAsa-kAla ati nikaTa hai... varSA kA prAraMbha ho gayA hai, vaise cAturmAsa ke kArya-kalApoM kA bhI prAraMbha ho rahA hai| prAcInakAla kI zramaNa saMskRti kabhI-kabhI bahuta AkarSita karatI hai! varSAkAla meM sArI bAhya pravRttiyoM se mukta bana, nirjana gRhoM meM... parvatIya gufAoM meM jAkara munivRnda tapazcaryA ke sAtha dhyAna meM nimagna ho jAte the! nijAnanda kI mastI kA anubhava karate the... kaisA adbhuta hogA unakA AMtara Ananda! advaita kI kaisI divya anubhUtiyA~ hotI hogii| koI sAmAjika pravRttiyA~ nahIM! koI janasaMparka nahIM! pratipala jAgRti, pratikSaNa apramattatA! parabrahma meM nimagnatA! koI viSayAntara nahIM! vaha thI mokSaprApti kI adamya AMkAkSA... vaha thI AtmaprApti kI akhaMDa ArAdhanA / Aja kahA~ hai vaha zramaNasaMskRti kI paramparA? kahA~ hai vaha advaita kI ArAdhanA? Aja to dvaita ke asaMkhya dvandva! Aja to hai paradravya ke sahAre pUrNatA pAne For Private And Personal Use Only

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161 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai kI mithyA daur3adhUpa! paradravya ko svadravya banAne kI satata pravRtti meM bhUla gaye haiM, vizuddha AtmasattA ko| sukha pAne ke liye aura duHkha se bacane ke liye cala rahA hai, bhramaNApUrNa puruSArtha / tere patra meM tumhArI samasyA ko pddh'aa| jaba taka tU vAstavikatA se ajJAta rahegA, vastusthiti se aparicita rahegA, terI koI na koI mAnasika samasyA banI hI rahegI / tU likhatA hai ki 'saba kucha merI icchAoM ke pratikUla ho rahA hai! koI merI icchAoM kI paravAha nahIM krtaa...|' ___ priya mumukSu! apane ghara meM tU akelA to hai nahIM, tere pitAjI haiM, bhAI hai, bahana hai, mA~ hai... una sabakI bhI icchAyeM hotI haiM na? kisakI icchA cale aura kisakI icchA nahIM cale? yadi koI aisA Agraha rakhe ki 'merI hI icchA ke anusAra saba kucha honA cAhie', to ghara meM saMgharSa ho jaayegaa| mAna le kSaNabhara ki ghara meM terI icchAnusAra saba kucha hotA hai, kyA tere bhAI ke mana meM samasyA paidA nahIM hogI? 'ghara meM merI icchA se pratikUla ho rahA hai... merI eka bhI bAta nahIM cltii|' vaise tere pitAjI ke mana meM bhI kucha ulajhaneM paidA nahIM hogI kyA? ___ mujhe to aisA lagatA hai ki jo manuSya apanI icchAoM ke anusAra hI saba kucha hone kA Agraha rakhatA hai, vaha manuSya 'ahaM' kI kalpanA se utpIr3ita hotA hai| 'maiM hI saba kucha hU~,' yaha vicAra manuSya ke mastiSka ko vikRta kara detA hai| vikRta mastiSka apanI icchAoM ko saphala banAne kA AgrahI hotA hai| jaba icchAyeM saphala nahIM hotI taba vaha roSa aura Akroza se bhara jAtA hai| dInatA se karAhatA hai| dUsaroM ke prati durbhAvavAlA bana jAtA hai| tU socanA, AMtara nirIkSaNa karanA / yadi AgrahoM ko chor3akara socegA to sahI dizA prApta hogii| mujhe to yaha vicAra AtA hai ki tere durAgrahoM se terA parivAra kitanA trasta hogaa| maiM jAnatA hU~ ki tere mAtA-pitA ko tumhAre prati gaharA sneha hai, jaba unake prati terA Akroza ve dekhate hoMge taba unake hRdaya meM kitanI vedanA hotI hogI? tujhe samajhanA cAhie ki tere pitAjI aura bar3e bhAI ke Upara kitanI jimmedAriyA~ haiN| unako sabakA khayAla kara nirNaya karane hote haiN| tujhe abhI jimmedAriyA~ nibhAne kA anubhava nahIM hai| tU apanA hI vicAra karatA hai| ve sApekSa dRSTi se socate haiM aura nirNaya karate haiM, tU nirapekSa dRSTi se socatA hai aura nirNaya karatA hai| tU yadi apanI jimmedArI samajhe to apane vicAroM meM bhI parivartana A sakatA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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162 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai ___ mahAnubhAva! tU apane bAhya-AMtarika vikAsa kI rUparekhA banAkara usa dizA meM Age bar3hatA raha | dUsaroM ke prati apane kartavyoM kA pAlana karatA raha / dUsaroM ke tere prati kyA kartavya haiM, usa vicAra meM ulajhanA nhiiN| dUsare kyA karate haiM, yaha tU kyoM dekhatA hai? tU apane kartavyoM kA pAlana karatA cala / apanI icchAoM ke anusAra calane ke liye dUsaroM ko majabUra karane kA prayatna chor3a de| terA mana zAnta ho jaayegaa| tujhe mAnasika zAnti prApta hogii| jisa-jisa para terA adhikAra nahIM hai, jinakI tujha para jimmedArI nahIM hai, unakI cintA karanA chor3a de| kyoM cintA karanA? ve loga nahIM cAhate haiM ki tU unakI cintA kare! ve loga terI rAya nahIM cAhate haiM, tU kyoM unakI cintA karatA hai? tU kyoM unako rAya dene jAtA hai? mAnegA merI bAta? isase tujhe koI hAni honevAlI nahIM hai| isase terA koI avamUlyana honevAlA nahIM hai| bambaI meM eka lar3akA mere pAsa AyA thaa| kaoNleja meM par3hatA thaa| usake pitA the, mA~ thI, bhAI the, bhAbhI thI... saMpanna parivAra thaa| isa lar3ake kI basa yahI zikAyata thI 'merI bAta koI sunatA nahIM hai...|' ___ jaba usake mAtA-pitA mere pAsa Aye, unhoMne kahA : 'Apa kRpA kara usako samajhAiye ki vaha apane bhAiyoM ko aura bhAbhI ko hara bAta meM rAya na deM... vaha yaha samajhatA hai ki vahI samajhadAra hai... usameM hI akla hai... isase usake bhAI-bhAbhI vagairaha nArAz2a haiM, hamArA to beTA hai, isalie usakI harakateM sahana kara lete haiM... parantu Ajakala ke bhAI-bhAbhI kaise sahana kareMge?' vaha lar3akA abhI par3hAI karatA thA... usake donoM bar3e bhAI par3he-likhe aura sajjana the| dukAna calAte the| isako khAne-pIne aura pahanane ke liye saba kucha milatA thaa| usakI AvazyakatAyeM pUrI hotI thii| parantu ye bhAIsAba to cAhate the ki usake donoM bar3e bhAI usakI rAya liyA kareM! bhAbhI to usake kahe anusAra hI kAma kare! isa manodazA ke kAraNa vaha apane ghara meM apriya bana gayA thaa| maiMne usako samajhAne kI bharasaka koziza kI... thor3e dina ThIka calA, phira vahI-kutte kI duma Ter3hI kI Ter3hI! tU anAgrahI bana jaa| isa vizva meM jo honevAlA hotA hai, vahI hotA hai| jisa manuSya kI jaisI bhavitavyatA hotI hai, vaisA hI banatA hai| tU ciMtA mata kara | tU apane hI kartavyoM kA vicAra kara | bar3e-bar3e mahApuruSoM kI bhI sabhI icchAyeM pUrNa nahIM ho pAtI haiM... to phira terI-merI sabhI icchAyeM kaise pUrNa For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 163 hogI? tere svayaM ke AtmavikAsa kI icchA ko pUrNa karane kA prayatna karatA raha! AMtarika guNoM kA vikAsa karatA cala, Antara doSoM kA vinAza karatA cala! mAnavajIvana meM itanA kAma ho jAyegA to bahuta bar3A kAma ho gayA, aisA maannaa| varSAkAla hai, AtmasAdhanA kA acchA samaya hai| kucha vizeSa dhArmikaAdhyAtmika adhyayana krnaa| tapazcaryA to tU karegA hI! hRdaya ko anAgrahI banAne kI ArAdhanA karanA! karegA na? terI citta-prasannatA banI rahe, yahI maMgala kaamnaa| 1-7-79, DIsA - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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164 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai * jaba aksara ghaTanevAlI vinAzalIlA ko dekhate haiM... par3hate haiM, jAnate haiM.... taba lagatA hai... 'sarvaM kSaNikam' yA 'sarvaM anityam' kA siddhAMta kitanA saccA hai? Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir * karuNa ghaTanAoM ko dekha - jAnakara bhI yadi hama apane jIvana kI anityatA, asthiratA aura caMcalatA ke bAre meM nahIM socate haiM, to phira apanI jAnakArI kA matalaba kyA? priya mumukSu, * jindagI kitanI kSaNika hai? pala do pala ke bulabule-sI jindagI meM sukhaduHkha kI mAyAjAla ke liye kitanA kucha acchA-burA hama karate rahate haiM? * parvoM kA Ayojana paraspara ke premabhAva ko pravRddha karane ke liye, sakhAbhAva ko saMvardhita karane ke liye kiyA gayA hai| patra : 38 dharmalAbha, terA patra milA thA, pratyuttara likhane meM vilaMba huA hai| kucha mahattvapUrNa kAryoM meM jyAdA vyastatA rhii| hAlAMki, tujhe pratyuttara likhanA vaha bhI mahattvapUrNa kArya hI hai, parantu jaba koI Akasmika ghaTanA banatI hai taba vahI mahattvapUrNa kArya bana jAtA hai| di. 13, agasta ke dina samAcAra mile ki morabI (saurASTra-gujarAta) zahara ke pAsa AyA huA pAnI kA bA~dha TUTa gayA hai aura madhyAhna tIna baje bA~dha kA pAnI morabI zahara meM A gayA... sArA zahara tahasanahasa ho gayA... pAnI to tIna-cAra ghaMTe hI rahA... parantu sarvanAza kara diyA / morabI ke pAsa macchU nadI bahatI hai| isa nadI ke Upara do bA~dha bA~dhe gaye haiN| morabI ke pAsa jo bA~dha hai, vaha kaccA hai| pAnI ke tIvra Avega se bA~dha TUTa gayA aura mAtra 6 ki.mI. dUrI para AyA huA morabI zahara 20 se 25 phITa pAnI ke nIce A gyaa| hajAroM strI-puruSa aura bacce pAnI meM baha gaye / hajAroM pazu bhI usa pracaMDa bAr3ha meM baha gye| hajAroM makAna dharAzAyI ho gye| karIbana eka araba rUpayoM kA nukasAna ho gyaa| kyA apane kevalAloka meM aisA hI saba dekhakara bhagavAna mahAvIra ne kahA hogA... ki 'sarvaM anityam !' bhagavAna buddha ne saMsAra kI aisI hI saMhAralIlA dekhakara kahA hogA 'sarvaM kSaNikam !' For Private And Personal Use Only

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165 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai __ jalapralaya ke samAcAra vizva meM phaila gaye haiN| hajAroM nirAdhAra bane strIpuruSa rAjakoTa cale gaye haiM, hajAroM anAtha loga apane snehI-svajanoM ke gA~va cale gaye haiM... hajAroM strI-puruSa mauta kI goda meM samA gaye haiN| 80 hajAra kI AbAdIvAlA morabI zahara Aja virAna ho gayA hai| hAlAMki pAnI kI bAr3ha ke bAda aba sahAyatA kI bAr3ha A gaI hai| dhvasta morabI ko svastha banAne ke liye sarakArI taMtra ke alAvA aneka sevAbhAvI saMsthAyeM aura hajAroM svayaMsevaka morabI meM kAryarata haiN| yahA~ se bhI hajAroM rUpaye kI sahAyatA pahu~cAI gaI hai| samagra deza meM se karor3oM rUpaye kI sahAyatA pahu~cegI... parantu jinhoMne svajanoM ko kho diyA hai... snehI aura mitroM ko ga~vA diyA hai, unakI kSatipUrti kauna karegA? TUTe hue makAna naye banavA diye jAyeMge... logoM ko khAdya sAmagrI aura dUsarI jIvanopayogI sAmagrI dI jAyegI... parantu jo snehI-svajana mauta kI goda meM samA gaye, unako kauna vApasa lauTAyegA? ___ jIvana kI kSaNabhaMguratA kA isase bar3hakara kauna-sA udAharaNa cAhie? priyajanoM ke saMyoga-viyoga kI karuNa kathA, isase bar3hakara kauna-sI cAhie? vaibhava aura saMpatti kI anityatA ko samajhane ke lie isase bar3hakara kauna-sI ghaTanA cAhie? vaiSayika sukhoM kI Asakti ko miTAne ke lie isase bar3hakara kauna-sA upadeza cAhie? yauvana aura jIvana kI kSaNikatA AtmasAt karane ke lie isase bar3hakara kauna-se karuNa dRzya cAhie? galiyoM meM... rAjamArgoM para par3I huI aneka yuvakoM kI... yuvatiyoM kI cetanAhIna dehoM ko dekhakara bhI vairAgya na ho to vairAgya ke dUsare kauna-se kAraNa cAhie? __ alpakAlIna jIvana ke tuccha sukha-duHkhoM ke lie nirantara jhagar3ane vAle loga kyA aisI pratyakSa durghaTanAoM se koI bodha grahaNa kareMge? hara ghaTanA ko dekhane kI eka divyadRSTi caahie| hara ghaTanA para socane kI jJAnadRSTi cAhie | jaba jindagI itanI kSaNika hai, anitya hai... to phira usa jindagI ke sukha-duHkhoM ke lie jhagar3anA kyA? kisI sukha ko pAne kI tatparatA kyoM? kisI duHkha se chUTane kI tIvecchA kyoM? priya mumukSu! tana-mana ke sAre dvandva sukha-duHkha ke AgrahoM meM se utpanna hote haiM aura Agraha hotA hai sukhoM ke rAga se, duHkhoM ke dveSa se / kSaNika sukhoM ke prati rAga? kSaNika duHkhoM ke prati dveSa? kyoM? ye rAga-dveSa karate raheMge aura jIvana hI samApta ho jAyegA to? rAga-dveSa karate rahe aura yauvana hI calA gayA to? kisI aprApta sukhoM kI icchA karane jaisI nahIM hai, prApta sukhoM kI mamatA For Private And Personal Use Only

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166 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai karane jaisI nahIM hai| icchA nahIM, tRSNA nahIM, abhilASA nhiiN| vaise, kisI ke prati roSa karane jaisA nahIM hai| roSa nahIM, IrSyA nahIM, dveSa nahIM, doSadarzana nahIM, nindA nhiiN| kSaNabhaMgura jindagI meM ye rAga-dveSa kara AtmA ko malIna karane meM buddhimattA nahIM hai| buddhimattA hai, AtmabhAva ko nirmala banAne meN| buddhimattA hai, vairAgya ko, prazama ko sthira karane meN| __abhI yahA~ 'prazamarati' grantha para pravacana ho rahe haiN| 'prazamarati' para jaba bolo taba nayA hI lagatA hai| 'prazamarati' para jaba likho, nayA hI lagatA hai| Antara zAnti, Antara prasannatA pAne ke lie isa grantha kA cintana-manana atyaMta upayogI siddha huA hai| ananta viSamatAoM se bhare hue saMsAra meM prazamarasa kI anubhUti kitanI durlabha hai, kitanI mUlyavAna hai... vaha to socane para jJAta hotA hai| yadi tU Antara prasannatA kA sadaiva AsvAda karanA cAhatA hai aura mana ko bAhya paristhitiyoM ke prabhAva se mukta rakhanA cAhatA hai... to tU 'prazamarati' kA adhyayana kara, punaH-punaH cintana-manana kr| __ 'prazamarati' para vivecana likhatA jA rahA huuN| likhane meM bhI Atma-prasannatA kA anubhava hotA hai| par3hane vAloM ko to AtmazAnti milegI taba milegI... mujhe to aise Ananda kI anubhUti hotI hai... ki patra meM likha nahIM sakatA, usa Ananda ko zabdoM meM bA~dha nahIM sktaa| ___ paryuSaNa mahAparva kA prAraMbha ho gayA hai| hRdayazuddhi kA aura paramAtmA zrI mahAvIra svAmI kI madhura smRti kA yaha mahAparva hai| jaina zAsana kA yaha parva vizva meM advitIya hai| nirvaira vRtti aura maitrI pUrNa pravRtti kA yaha parva hara dRSTi se zreSTha lagatA hai| parva ko manAne kI bhI dRSTi cAhie! hRdaya meM jalatI huI dveSa kI Aga ko bujhA denA aura jIva maitrI ke puSpoM ko vikasita karanA-isa parva kI phalazruti hai| tapazcaryA se, dharmakriyAoM se evaM pravacana zravaNa se vairavRtti ko naSTa kara denA hai| sabhI jIvoM ke hita kI kAmanA karate hue, kisI kA bhI ahita nahIM karane kA dRr3ha saMkalpa karanA hai| paryuSaNa mahAparva ke dUsare dina yaha patra likha rahA huuN| samagra varSa meM jAnateanajAnate tere hRdaya ko duHkha pahu~cAyA ho to kSamA kara denA / antaHkaraNa se kSamA cAhatA huuN| AtmIyatA meM kabhI tIvratA A jAtI hai to AtmIya vyakti ko duHkha ho jAya vaisA likha diyA jAtA hai, bola diyA jAtA hai| terA AtmabhAva prasanna rahe yahI maMgalakAmanA / DIsA, 21-8-79 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 167 (r) pAnI kI bAr3ha se bhI jyAdA khataranAka bAr3ha hai, samaya kI! saba kucha isa kadara khIMca le jAtA hai samaya... ki pIche nAmonizA bhI nahIM bacatA! (r) saba kucha baha jAyegA ika dina! yaha mahala Dhaha jAyegA ika dina! OM yaha samajhakara AdamI yadi jiye to use sukhoM meM Asakti nahIM hogI! jaba bhI jarUrata hogI... vaha apane sukhoM ko bikhera degA! bA~Ta degA! (r) sukhoM ko bAMTane kA, bikherane kA bhI eka adbhuta AnaMda hai! apanI khuzI ke phUloM kI khuzabU ko luTAne kA majA bhI anUThA hotA hai| 8 sukhoM ko mahasUsa karanA eka cIz2a hai... jabaki usameM Asakta hokara jInA alaga cIz2a hai| patra : 39 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, saMvedanAoM se saMsikta terA patra milA, mana prasanna huaa| terI saMvedanazIlatA ne mere hRdaya ko prabhAvita kiyA / cU~ki morabI kA jalapralaya abhI bhI vismRta nahIM huA hai| jo hajAroM mAnava evaM pazu jalapravAha meM baha gaye... mara gaye... unake viSaya meM 'mRtyu' hI cintana bana gayA hai| jo baca gaye haiM thor3e-bahuta manuSya... ve beghara, nirAdhAra aura vedanAgrasta haiN| una logoM kA sukha baha gayA... isalie ve duHkhI, azAMta aura vedanAgrasta haiN| ve nahIM cAhate the ki unake sukha jalapravAha meM baha jAye... phira bhI baha gaye... isalie ve duHkhI haiM, azAMta haiN| paraMtu mAnava nahIM jAnatA hai ki jalapravAha se bhI jyAdA... bahuta jyAdA bhayAnaka hai, kAlapravAha! kAlapravAha meM saba kucha baha rahA hai| hama bhI kAlapravAha meM baha rahe haiN| kAlapravAha meM devadevendra baha gaye haiM... rAjA-mahArAjA baha gaye haiM... bar3e-bar3e nagara baha gaye haiM... sarvabhakSI hai, yaha kAlapravAha | jAgRta manuSya ko yaha samajhakara jInA cAhie ki 'maiM aura mere sukha kAlapravAha meM baha jAnevAle haiN|' yadi isa samajhadArI ke sAtha manuSya jiye to usako apane Apa para mamatA nahIM rahegI, apane sukhoM para mamatA nahIM rhegii| vaha apane ApakA visarjana cAhegA... vaha svayaM apane sukhoM ko bikhera degaa| sukhoM kA tyAga kara degaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 168 apane ApakA visarjana yAnI apane dehAbhimAna kA visarjana! apane rUpAbhimAna kA, balAbhimAna kA visarjana! apane vyaktitva ke vyAmoha kA visarjana! manuSya apane vyaktitva se moha karatA hai| jaba kisI ke dvArA usake vyaktitva kA khaMDana hotA hai, vaha duHkhI hotA hai| jaba kisI ke dvArA usake vyaktitva kA abhinandana nahIM hotA hai, vaha atRpti kI vedanA anubhava karatA hai| apane vyaktitva kI prazaMsA ko vaha sukha mAnatA hai| yaha sukha kitanA kSaNika hai aura kitanA du:khadAyI hai, yaha bAta tujhe acchI taraha samajhanI hogI aura usa sukha kA visarjana karanA hogaa| sukha ke visarjana se tujhe apUrva AtmaprasannatA kA anubhava hogaa| AtmaprasannatA usa sukhAnubhava se bahuta hI jyAdA AnaMdaprada hogaa| cU~ki AtmaprasannatA meM nirbhayatA hotI hai| nizcitatA aura svAdhInatA hotI hai| tumhAre bAhya vyaktitva kA lopa hone para bhI tumheM koI duHkha sparza nahIM kara skegaa| AntarazAnti, AntaraprasannatA... paramAnanda anubhava karane ke lie bAhya bhautika-vaiSayika sukhoM kA visarjana karanA hI hogaa| athavA, paramAnanda ke anubhava kI tIvra abhilASA jAgane para vaiSayika sukha svayaM bikhara hI jAyeMge! una sukhoM ko pakar3a kara rakhane kI ceSTA nahIM hogii| tU svecchA se sukhoM kA tyAga kara, anubhava karanA ki tujhe kitanA aura kaisA Ananda huA / anicchA se sukha cale jAne para duHkha hogA, svecchA se sukha kA tyAga karane para Ananda hogaa| priya mumukSu, mokSayAtrA meM tIvra gati tabhI AyegI jaba sukhoM kA visarjana hogaa| jIvanayAtrA tabhI Anandaprada banegI jaba tU sukhoM ko bikheratA clegaa| sukhoM kA saMgraha nahIM karanA hai, sukhoM ke parigrahI nahIM bananA hai, sukhoM ko niraMtara bikherate rahanA hai| zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra ne sabhI sukha bikhera diye the na? zarIra para eka vastra bhI nahIM rakhA thA... bhojana ke liye eka pAtra bhI nahIM rakhA thaa| eka utkRSTa Adarza prasthApita kara diyA bhagavaMta ne| usa Adarza taka pahu~cane ke liye apanI tatparatA hai? sukhoM kA tyAga karane se pUrva, sukhoM kI Asakti kA tyAga karanA Avazyaka hotA hai| bhinna-bhinna sukhoM kI Asakti-mamatA tor3anA anivArya hai, yadi mokSayAtrA karanI hai to| karanI hai mokSayAtrA? jAnA hai mokSa meM? yadi bhautika-vaiSayika sukha priya lagate haiM aura ve sukha pAne kI hI tamannA banI rahatI hai to kaise mAnA jAye ki mokSa pyArA lagA hai! dina-rAta vaiSayika sukhoM kI hI kAmanA karane For Private And Personal Use Only

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169 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai vAle bola hI nahIM sakate ki 'hameM mokSa pyArA hai!' jisako mokSa pyArA lagA usako vaiSayika sukha pyAre kaise laga sakate haiM? vaiSayika sukhoM kA upabhoga karanA eka bAta hai, vaiSayika sukhoM kA anurAga honA dUsarI bAta hai| binA anurAga bhI upabhoga ho sakatA hai| Antara nirIkSaNa yaha karanA ki vaiSayika sukhoM kA upabhoga kaise hotA hai| anurAga se hotA hai yA binA anurAga hotA hai / 'mujhe vaiSayika sukha nahIM cAhie...' yaha nirNaya ho jAne para vaiSayika sukhoM ke prati anurAga nahIM ho sakatA hai | __ paraMtu yaha to huI siddhAnta kI bAta! apanI kyA sthiti hai? pA~ca indriyoM ke viSayasukha pyAre lagate haiM! koI apanI prazaMsA karatA hai to khuzI hotI hai na? koI zreSTha... uttama rUpa sAmane Aye to dekhane meM khuzI hotI hai na? priya bhojana milane para prasannatA hotI hai na? mulAyama sparza kA sukha milane para prasannatA hotI hai na? hRdaya meM vaiSayika sukhoM kA anurAga banA huA hai! isa anurAga ko tor3anA anivArya hai... cUMki sAre mAnasika du:khoM kA kAraNa hai vaha anurAga | eka sukha kA anurAga bhI jIva ko duHkhI kara detA hai | jo sukha priya hai, vaha sukha nahIM milatA hai to duHkha hotA hai, vaise vaha sukha calA jAtA hai to bhI duHkha hotA hai| jIvanayAtrA meM aise aneka anubhava tUjhe bhI hue hoNge| isalie yadi duHkhoM se mukta honA hai to sukhoM kA aura sukhoM kI kAmanAoM kA visarjana karanA hI hogaa| dhIre-dhIre sukhoM ke binA jIvana jIne kI Adata DAlanI pdd'egii| kama se kama sukhoM kA upayoga-upabhoga karanA hogaa| binA mA~ge sukha sAmane Aye to bhI svIkAra nahIM karanA hogaa| tU kahegA 'gRhastha jIvana meM aisA karanA muzkila hai|' nahIM, dRr3ha saMkalpa karane para muzkila nahIM hai | cAhie dRr3ha saMkalpa bala!' eka siddhAnta mAna lene para muzkila kArya bhI sarala bana jAtA hai| vaha siddhAnta hai, puNya-pApa kA siddhAnta! puNyakarma ke udaya se jIvAtmA ko sukhasamRddhi prApta hotI hai, jaba puNyakarma samApta ho jAtA hai, sukha-samRddhi calI jAtI hai... patA nahIM lagatA ki puNyakarma kaba samApta ho jAyegA... puNyakarma samApta hone para sukha calA jAya, isase to yaha acchA ki puNyakarma hote hue hama sukhoM kA tyAga kara deN| yaha tyAga tabhI saMbhava hai ki hama sukhoM ke anurAgI nahIM rheN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 170 __tujhe lagegA ki Aja maiMne upadeza hI de diyA! koI prAsaMgika ghaTanA nahIM likhI! saca hai, prAsaMgika ghaTanAyeM anukUla-pratikUla ghaTatI hI rahatI hai... una ghaTanAoM ko lekara rAga-dveSamUlaka ciMtana nahIM karanA cAhie parantu aisA ciMtana karanA cAhie kI rAga-dveSa kI jar3eM hI kaTa jAya | Aja maiMne jo sukhoM ke visarjana ke bAre meM likhA hai, yaha aisA hI eka ciMtana hai| hara prAsaMgika ghaTanA ke sAtha jor3A jA sakatA hai yaha ciNtn| paryuSaNa mahAparva Aye aura gaye! aba A rahe haiM, bAhara gA~va ke yAtrI! paryuSaNa ke pazcAt pravacana bhI zurU ho gaye haiN| 'prazamarati' vivecana likhane kA kArya bhI zurU ho gayA hai| pravacana bhI 'prazamarati' grantha para hI cala rahe haiN| kabhI-kabhI prazamabhAva meM DUbane kA-tairane kA majA bhI A jAtA hai| ___ eka bAta nizcita hai ki AtmAnanda... paramAnanda anubhava karane ke lie bAhya ghaTanAoM se mana ko mukta rakhanA hI hogaa| bAhya ghaTanAoM ko vizeSa mahattva nahIM denaa| sukha-duHkha ke vicAroM se zIghra mukti pA lenI cAhie | maiM cAhatA hU~ ki terA mana sadaiva prazamabhAva meM nimagna rahe aura tU AtmAnanda kI anubhUti karatA rhe| 9-9-79, DIsA - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 171 sthati-paristhiti mile... jaba bhI manacAhe saMyoga mile... ___ jo kucha karanA hai, kara lenA cAhie! (r) AtmakalyANa ke irAde ko kala para rakha denA buddhimattA nahIM hai...! (r) saMsAra kI alpakAlIna chichalI samasyAoM meM svayaM ko ulajhA kara AtmA ___ ko bhulA denA sabase bar3I bhUla hogii| (r) jIvana sAdhu kA ho yA gRhastha kA, jIne kA dRSTikoNa to cAhie hii| yadi tAttvika jIvanadRSTi kA abhAva hai, to sAdhujIvana bhI kaluSita ho utthegaa| (r) saMsAra to dAvAnala hai... use bujhAnA mumakina nahIM hai... apane Apako bacA lenA apane hAtha kI bAta hai! patra : 40 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, terA patra milA, Ananda huaa| tU isa cAturmAsa meM yahA~ nahIM A sakA aura nahIM A sakegA, isa bAta kA tere hRdaya meM duHkha honA svAbhAvika hai| saMyoga, paristhiti, manuSya kI icchAoM kI saphalatA-niSphalatA kA AdhAra hai| isalie jaba sAnukUla saMyoga-paristhiti hoM taba apanI samyak icchAoM ko saphala banAne kA puruSArtha kara lenA caahie| sAnukUla paristhiti meM dharmapuruSArtha kara lene kA jJAnIpuruSa upadeza dete haiN| jaba taka apanA zarIra svastha evaM nIrogI hai, jaba taka apanI pA~coM indriyA~ kAryakSama haiM, jaba taka apanA mana sthira aura svastha hai, taba taka dharmapuruSArtha kA avasara hai| Arthika, pArivArika evaM sAmAjika paristhitiyA~ jaba taka sAnukUla haiM, taba taka AtmakalyANa kA puruSArtha kara lenA hai| jIvana kA bhI to koI bharosA nahIM hai n| ___ manuSya kA jIvana aura usa jIvana ke irda-girda saba kucha asthira, caMcala aura vinAzI hai| ina saba asthira... caMcala aura vinAzI cIjoM ke bIca sthira aura avinAzI hai ekamAtra AtmA! usa AtmA kI surakSA kara lenA AtmA ko pApoM se bacA lenA... AtmA meM susaMskAroM ke bIja bo denA... yahI apanA lakSa bana jAnA caahie| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 172 saMsAra ke kSaNika praznoM meM, alpakAlIna samasyAoM meM ulajhanA nahIM hai| mana para ye prazna... ye samasyAe~ 'hAvI' nahIM ho jAnI caahie| jaba taka jIvAtmA acche-bure karmoM se AkrAnta hai, taba taka jIvana meM choTe-bar3e prazna paidA ho sakate haiM... phira vaha gRhastha ho yA gRhatyAgI ho! kSullaka vyavahAra kI bAtoM ko mahattva nahIM denA caahie| eka zrImaMta sadgRhastha kI AMtarika paristhiti jAnane ko milii| Aja to usake pAsa karor3oM rupaye haiM, baMgale haiM, acchA parivAra hai paraMtu usane batAyA ki eka dina aisA AyA thA usake jIvana meM ki eka ora usakI patnI kI mRtyu ho gaI, dUsarI ora usakI saMpatti naSTa ho gaI... mitra- svajana vagairaha vimukha ho gaye parantu isa parivartana kA usake mana para koI burA asara nahIM huA! cU~ki jJAnIpuruSoM ke paricaya se aura zreSTha dharmagranthoM ke adhyayanaparizIlana se saMsAra kI parivartanazIlatA kA use jJAna thA / usane apanA gA~va chor3a diyA...' loga kyA kaheMge, merI nindA hogI...' vagairaha vikalpa usane nahIM kiye| vaha calA gayA... usane apanI dharma-ArAdhanA nahIM chodd'ii| mauna dhAraNa karake vaha apanI AjIvikA kamAne lagA... | mana meM saMsAra ke svarUpa kA cintana karatA hai... paramAtma svarUpa kA dhyAna karatA hai| phira eka dina bhAgyodaya huaa| eka zrImaMta vyApArI ne isako kAma diyaa...| dhIre-dhIre usane lAkhoM rupaye kamA liye... punaH vaha apane gA~va aayaa| eka suzIla kanyA se usakI zAdI huI aura nagara kA pratiSThita nAgarika bana gyaa| punaH zrImaMta hone para bhI usane apanA dharmapuruSArtha nahIM chor3A hai| dharmagranthoM kA adhyayana-manana-cintana karatA rahatA hai / Aja sAre saMyoga anukUla haiM phira bhI vaha jAgRta hai! AtmA kA vizuddha svarUpa prApta karane ke liye usakA prayatna cAlU hai| priya mumukSu ! jIvana jIne kI yaha divya dRSTi hai| anukUla-pratikUla paristhiti meM apane Apa svastha rahanA... koI vyAkulatA nahIM... koI phariyAda nahIM.... koI rUdana nahIM-vilApa nahIM / gRhasthajIvana ho yA sAdhujIvana ho, yaha jIvanadRSTi honA sabhI ke liye anivArya hai, yadi mokSamArga para calanA hai to ! yadi prasanna aura pavitra jIvana jInA hai to ! jinake pAsa yaha divya jIvanadRSTi nahIM hai, vaise kaI gRhastha... jo ki maMdira meM jAte haiM, dharmaguruoM kA upadeza sunate haiM, ghora azAnti aura tIvra For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 173 saMtApa anubhava karate hue jIvana vyatIta kara rahe haiM! sAdhu bana jAne ke bAda bhI yadi unake pAsa yaha tAttvika jIvanadRSTi nahIM hai, ve sAdhu bhI ArtadhyAna meM apane Antara vyaktitva ko kaluSita karate haiM, mAnasika azAnti bhogate haiN| tapasvI ho yA vidvAna ho... divyadRSTi ke abhAva meM kleza aura saMtApa hI anubhava karane pdd'eNge| ___ maiM tujhe jyAdA to kyA likhU? paraMtu merI yaha rAya hai ki saMsAra ke vyavahAra kI tuccha bAtoM meM ulajhanA nhiiN| duniyA ke kisI prazna ko, kisI samasyA ko apane hRdaya para 'hAvI' mata hone denaa| itanI terI sAvadhAnI rahegI to terI AtmasAdhanA pragatizIla banI rhegii| tU AMtaraprasannatA kA madhura anubhava kregaa| isake alAvA aura kyA cAhie? jisa prakAra sarvajJa bhagavaMtoM ne saMsAra kA svarUpa batAyA hai, usI prakAra saMsAra ko jAna lenA cAhie... phira, saMsAra kI kisI bhI acchI yA burI ghaTanA ko lekara Ananda-udvega nahIM hogA / aMtarAtmA meM divya jJAna kA dIpaka jalatA rahe, mokSamArga ko prakAzita karatA rahe, isalie jAgRta bane rhnaa| aneka Antaradvandva aura bAhyadvandvoM ke bIca jIvana jInA hai aura jJAna-dIpaka ko prajvalita rakhanA hai| kyA karegA tU? 'jJAnasAra' aura 'prazamarati' kA svAdhyAya calatA hogA? ciMtanamanana karatA hogA? kaSAyajanya udvega zAnta ho jAtA hai na? viSayoM kA AkarSaNa kama hotA jA rahA hai na? vaiSayika sukhoM kI prabala icchAyeM prazAnta karane kI haiN| vAtAvaraNa dina-pratidina jyAdA vilAsI banatA jA rahA hai| pA~ca indriyoM ko uttejita karane ke nimitta bar3hate hI jA rahe haiN| dhana-saMpatti aura vaibhava kA vyAmoha, manuSya ke mana para 'hAvI' ho gayA hai| vikathAyeM vyApaka bana gayI haiN| tattvacarcA aura AtmaciMtana bhulAyA jA rahA hai| dharmakriyAoM ke prati manuSya nIrasa banatA jA rahA hai| aisI viSama paristhiti meM jJAnadRSTi ko salAmata rakhanA azakya to nahIM, muzkila jarUra hai| vaiSayika sukha-sAdhanoM ke prabala AkarSaNa ne manuSya ko pathabhraSTa kara diyA hai| dizAzUnya banA huA manuSya sukhoM ke irda-girda bhaTaka rahA hai| giratA hai... rotA hai... ha~satA hai... daur3atA hai... aura eka dina rogAkrAnta banakara mauta kI goda meM samA jAtA hai | araboM manuSyoM kI yaha avadazA hai | kaise inako bacAyA jAye? kaise inako sahI rAste lAyA jAye? bahuta gaMbhIra prazna hai| kabhI-kabhI mana kahatA hai : chor3o saba cintA aura calo hama apane rAste Age bar3ha jAyeM! For Private And Personal Use Only

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174 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai saMsAra dAvAnala hai, usako bujhAyA nahIM jA sakatA, hama usa dAvAnala se bacakara nikala sakate haiM! pavitra navapadajI kI olI ke dina haiM, nau dina kA jinendrabhakti kA mahotsava cala rahA hai| dIpAvalI ke dina sAmane haiM... zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI kA nirvANa kalyANa AyegA... aura kArtika pUrNimA ko cAturmAsa pUrNa ho jaayegaa| samaya niyamita hai... nirantara gati kara rahA hai| 'arihaMta' bhI cauthA varSa pUrNa kara rahA hai... navambara se pA~cave varSa meM praveza kregaa| 'arihaMta' ke mAdhyama se tujhe ye patra likha rahA huuN| aneka mumukSu AtmAoM ke praznoM ko lekara ye patra likhatA huuN| mana kA samAdhAna honA mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA meM ati Avazyaka hai| mana ko ArtadhyAna se bacA lenA anivArya hai| terI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| 1-10-76 DIsA - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 175 (r) duniyAbhara kI ulajhane paidA hotI hai, vyavahAradazA ke dRr3ha evaM haThIle AgrahoM se| yaha satya samajha lenA cAhie... svIkAra lenA caahie| (r) vyavahAra ke asaMkhya vidhiniSedhoM meM ulajha kara manuSya apane 'Atmatattva' ko vismRti ke bIhar3a vana meM bhUla gayA hai| (r) spaSTavAditA yadi kaTutA se mukta raha sakatI hai... taba to vaha svIkArya ho sakatI hai... yadi kaTutA se hI spaSTavAditA ubharatI hai to vaha nukasAnakAraka hotI hai| (r) satya bhI priya evaM madhura honA jarUrI hai, to hI vaha svIkArya banatA hai| (r) satya kI abhivyakti jaba Aveza va Avega kA zikAra banatI hai, phira usakA saundarya sUkha jAtA hai| patra : 415 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, tere donoM patra mila gaye the, pratyuttara likhane meM vilaMba ho gayA hai, phira bhI likha pAyA hU~... isa bAta kI khuzI hai! cAturmAsa ke aMtima dinoM meM atyadhika vyastatA rahatI hai| DIsA se vihAra kara diyA hai aura isa pradeza ke eka prAcIna tIrtha bhIlar3IyAjI meM Aye haiN| kucha dina yahA~ sthiratA kreNge| tere aneka prazna haiM aura una praznoM kA samAdhAna tU cAhatA hai, avazya tere praznoM ke samAdhAna karane kA prayatna karU~gA, tere mana ko, antaHkaraNa kI zAnti, samatA aura prasannatA mile, yahI merI AntaraabhilASA hai| yaha koI upakAravRtti se nahIM likha rahA hU~, AMtaraprIti se likha rahA huuN| terI prasannatA merI prasannatA bana jAtI hai... isaliye likha rahA huuN| sArI ulajhaneM vyavahAradazA ke dRr3ha AgrahoM se paidA hotI hai, yaha bAta tujhe acchI taraha samajha lenI hogii| loka-vyavahAra... kuTumba-vyavahAra, samAjavyavahAra... aura dharmakSetra meM bhI vyavahAra! vyavahAra ke asaMkhya niyama aura ba~dhana! ina niyamoM ke aura ba~dhanoM ke tIvra tanAva anubhava karatA huA manuSya apane 'Atmatatva' ko bhUla hI gayA hai! Atmatatva vismRti kI gaharI khAI meM DUba gayA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 176 kucha vyavahAroM kA pAlana karanA Avazyaka ho sakatA hai, paraMtu vyavahArapAlana kA Agraha koI mahattva nahIM rakhatA hai| tUne likhA ki 'Apane mujhe madhurabhASI banane kI preraNA dI paraMtu vyavahAra meM madhurabhASI bane rahanA muzkila hai... vyavahAra meM to spaSTabhASI bananA hI par3atA hai...|' tU spaSTabhASI banA rahe, isase mujhe koI nArAjagI nahIM hai, paraMtu terI spaSTabhASitA ne tere vyaktitva ko kaTu to nahIM banA diyA hai na? 'maiM spaSTabhASI hU~, kisI kI zarma mujhe nahIM chUtI hai... isa prakAra kA ahaMkAra to tere Upara savAra nahIM huA hai na? tU svasthatA se AntaranirIkSaNa krnaa| spaSTa bAta karanA yA aspaSTa bAta karanA, yaha mahattvapUrNa nahIM hai, mahattvapUrNa bAta to hai dUsare ko apanI acchI bAta samajhA denA! apanI bAta dUsare ke mana meM U~cA denA! yadi aspaSTa bAta karane se yAnI 'inaDAyarekTa' bAta karane se dUsare ko bAta jaMca jAtI hai to spaSTa bAta karane se kyA phAyadA? dUsarI bAta, spaSTa bAta karate samaya terI AvAja meM kaTutA yA ugratA to nahIM AtI hai na? yadi kaTutA aura ugratA ke binA spaSTa bAta... sApha-sApha bAta kara sakatA hai to khuzI ke sAtha spaSTa bAta karanA! paraMtu tere liye yaha asaMbhava bAta hai| terI choTI bahana kahatI thI ki bar3e bhaiyA to mammI ko bhI sApha-sApha sunA diyA karate haiM... mammI cupa ho jAtI hai... aura chipakara ro letI hai| bhaiyA kI bAta sahI hotI hai, paraMtu isa prakAra ve bAta karate haiM... ki kisI ko unakI bAta pasanda nahIM aatii|' tU yaha mata samajhanA ki terI choTI bahana zikAyata kara rahI thI! tU jAnatA hai ki usakA tumhAre prati kitanA apAra sneha hai! vaha yaha cAhatI hai ki ghara meM bar3e bhaiyA ke prati saba ke mana meM Adara ho- prema ho! yadi tU spaSTavAditA kA Agraha chor3a de aura terI bhASA meM mRdutA aura namratA ko milA de, to tU parivAra meM Adara pAyegA, samAja meM sammAnanIya bnegaa| terI acchI bAteM saba loga prema se suneNge| maiM jAnatA hU~ ki kucha loga terI prazaMsA karate haiM / 'yaha saba bAta sApha-sApha karatA hai| kisI kI lAga-lapeTa nahIM rakhatA hai... khUba spaSTabhASI hai|' tU bhI kabhI apanI prasaMsA sunakara khuza hotA hogA! tU kyA, hamAre eka munirAja bhI isa bAta ko lekara khuza hote the! Aja bhI khuza hote hoMge! sabhI bAteM sApha-sApha kaha dene kI unakI Adata hai! aura garva bhI hai ki 'maiM spaSTa bhASI huuN| kisI kI paravAha nahIM karatA!' pariNAma kyA? kucha ziSya unako chor3akara cale gaye! saMgha-samAja meM unakA koI AdarapAtra viziSTa For Private And Personal Use Only

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177 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai sthAna nahIM rhaa| unakA upadeza sunane vAle kama ho gye| kauna-sA lAbha pA liyA unhoMne? hA~, kabhI koI vizeSa prasaMga meM spaSTabhASI bananA par3atA hai, paraMtu usameM bhI namratA aura madhuratA anivArya hai| nahIM cAhie roSa, nahIM cAhie Aveza! roSa aura Aveza meM jAgRti nahIM rhtii| roSa aura Aveza meM namratA nahIM rhtii| isase satya kA zRMgAra naSTa ho jAtA hai| satya kA saundarya Ahata ho jAtA hai| eka bAta nahIM bhUlanA ki duniyA jaise nagna manuSya ko pasanda nahIM karatI hai, vaise nagna satya ko bhI pasanda nahIM karatI hai| satya sundara honA cAhie | duniyA saundarya se prema karatI hai| satya bAta kA saundarya hai, namratA aura mdhurtaa| jisa satya para namratA aura madhuratA kA zRMgAra nahIM hotA hai, usa satya se duniyA prema nahIM kregii| tU jAnatA hai ki zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra hamezA 'mAlakoza' rAga meM upadeza diyA karate the! kyoM unhoMne 'mAlakoza' rAga meM upadeza denA pasanda kiyA hogA? mAlakoza rAga ke Aroha-avaroha meM kahIM para bhI kaTutA... karkazatA athavA abhimAna abhivyakta nahIM ho sakatA hai! isa rAga meM madhuratA hI madhuratA TapakatI hai| bhagavAna mahAvIra ke upadeza meM kahIM para bhI roSa nahIM thA, Aveza nahIM thA! to sabhI loga khUba prema se unakA upadeza ghaMToM taka sunate rahate the| satya ko svIkAra karate the| kaI bAteM unhoMne bhI sApha-sApha sunA dI hai, paraMtu koI kaTutA nahIM hai, koI roSa nahIM hai... koI ahaMkAra kI abhivyakti nahIM hai| __ Aja taka tUne kaTu spaSTabhASitA ke lAbha soce haiM, aba tU nukasAna kA vicAra krnaa| madhura evaM vinamra spaSTabhASitA ke lAbhoM kA vicAra karanA / 'maiM sApha-sApha bAta nahIM sunA dUMgA to kAma bigar3a jAyegA... athavA merI bAta koI mAnegA nahIM, aise bhaya ko tere mana se nikAla denaa| dUsarI bAteM Age ke patra meM likhuugaa| parivAra meM sabhI ko 'dharmalAbha' sUcita karanA / sadaiva kuzala rahe, yahI zubhakAmanA 15-11-76 bhIlar3iyA tIrtha (gujarAta) - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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178 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai (r) hArdika saMbaMdhoM kI duniyA meM buddhivAditA ko tanika bhI jagaha nahIM hai| (r) dila kI duniyA meM dalIleM dIvAra bana jAtI hai| (r) saMbaMdhoM kI namratA ko banAye rakhane ke liye tarka-vitarka ko tyAganA hI hogaa| (r) samaya, sAdhana evaM saMpatti kA jaise durupayoga nahIM karanA hai... vaise hI apanI buddhimattA kA bhI durupayoga nahIM karanA caahie| (r) jarUrata se jyAdA buddhivAditA ne aneka parivAroM ko tor3A hai, samAja ko klezamaya banAyA hai aura jIvana ko badasUrata banA DAlA hai| patra : 42 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha! __ bhIlar3iyA-tIrtha se vihAra kara kaccha ke vAgar3a pradeza meM praveza kiyA hai| aba 10-15 dinoM meM bhadrezvara tIrtha meM pahu~cane kI saMbhAvanA hai| terA patra mila gayA thA, parantu kucha svAsthya kI pratikUlatA se zIghra pratyuttara nahIM likha pAyA / isa prakAra to bhAI, pArivArika saMgharSa calatA hI rhegaa| kabhI bhI zAnti sthApita nahIM hogI aura tU vairAgya kI bhASA meM cillAtA rahegA ki saMsAra meM kahIM para bhI zAnti nahIM hai! jIvana jIne kI dRSTi ke abhAva meM hI jyAdAtara kleza aura saMtApa bar3hate rahate haiN| __ merI samajha meM nahIM AtA hai ki tU kyoM apanI mAtA se bAta-bAta meM jhagar3atA hai! tU apane pitA se kyoM TakarAtA rahatA hai? mujhe lagatA hai ki tU hara jagaha apanI buddhi kA hada se jyAdA upayoga karatA hai! maiM mAnatA hU~ ki tere pAsa bahuta buddhi hai! kabhI-kabhI terI buddhi kI mere mana meM bhI IrSyA ho AtI hai! tU bhI apanI buddhi-zakti ko jAnatA hai! ghara meM hara bAta ko tU bauddhikabhUmikA se nApane kA prayatna karatA hai| hara bAta meM tU tarka-vitarka karatA rahA tU apanI yaha bhUla mahasUsa karegA kyA? hArdika saMbaMdhoM meM tarka-vitarka kabhI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 179 nahIM karane cAhie, isa satya ko svIkAra karegA kyA? tU mAnatA hai na ki mAtA-pitA kA saMbaMdha, bhAI-bahana kA saMbaMdha, pati-patnI kA saMbaMdha, pitA-putra kA saMbaMdha... hArdika... hRdaya kA saMbaMdha hotA hai| nikaTa ke mitroM kA saMbaMdha bhI hRdaya kA saMbaMdha hotA hai| aise vyaktiyoM ke sAtha buddhivAda nahIM caahie| hamako hRdaya se cAhanevAloM ke sAtha tarkavAda nahIM caahie| ___ usa dina mere sAmane hI tUne apanI mAtA ke sAtha kitanA vAda-vivAda kara diyA thA... yAda hai na? mAtA ko tarka-vitarka se parAjita karake tU kitanA prasanna ho gayA thA? usa samaya terI mAtA ne gaMbhIratA se... prasannatA se aura udAratA se apanA parAjaya svIkAra kara liyA thA...! tere vijaya se terI mAtA kA parAjaya jyAdA mahAn thA! maiM to usa samaya mauna hI rahA thA, paraMtu usa samaya terA buddhivAda mujhe jarA sA bhI pasaMda nahIM AyA thaa| ___ maiM jAnatA hU~ aura mAnatA hU~ ki tere ghara meM tere jaisA buddhimAna koI bhI vyakti nahIM hai... parantu sAtha hI, tere jaisA hRdayahIna manuSya bhI tere ghara meM dUsarA nahIM hai | burA mata mAnanA, tU zAnta dimAga se socanA ki tU kabhI dUsare snehI-svajanoM kI hArdika bhAvanA ko samajhA hai? una snehI-svajanoM ke hRdaya para bauddhika prahAra karate samaya hicakicAyA hai kabhI? tU ghara ko kyA mAnatA hai? ghara koI hoTala hai kyA? ghara koI musAphirakhAnA hai? ghara ke snehI-svajana kyA tere naukara haiM? kaI varSoM se terI aneka harakateM gharavAle sahana karate Aye haiM... aura phira bhI tU unake prati phariyAdeM hI karatA rahA hai! terA Akroza abhI taka zAnta nahIM huA hai| jisa prakAra dhana-saMpatti kA durupayoga nahIM karanA cAhie, jisa prakAra samaya aura sAdhanoM kA durupayoga nahIM karanA cAhie, usI prakAra buddhi kA bhI durupayoga nahIM karanA cAhie | jahA~ buddhi kA upayoga karane kI AvazyakatA na ho, vahA~ upayoga karanA, yaha durupayoga hai| jahA~ buddhi kA alpa upayoga karane se kAma cala jAtA ho vahA~ atyadhika upayoga karanA, durupayoga hai| aisA durupayoga nahIM honA caahie| buddhi ke durupayoga se aneka parivAra naSTa hue haiM, buddhi ke durupayoga se samAja meM aneka upadrava paidA hue haiM, buddhi ke durupayoga se dharmakSetra meM aneka vivAda paidA hue haiM, aura aneka paMtha nikale haiN| jAne de ina bAtoM ko, prastuta meM hai terI bAta! tu dUsaroM ke hRdaya ko samajhane kA prayatna kara | dUsaroM kI tere prati jo zubhakAmanAyeM haiM, una zubhakAmanAoM kA mUlyAMkana kara | tere jo snehI-svajana haiM, jinako maiM bhI jAnatA hU~, unakI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 180 zubhecchAoM ke prati zaMkAzIla mata bana | jIvana meM rasAnubhUti tabhI hogI jaba tU dUsaroM ke jIvana meM rasavRtti paidA kregaa| tU yaha satya mata bhUlanA ki buddhi se - tarka se bhAvanA-bhAvukatA mahAn hai| jinake pAsa jyAdA tarka-vitarka karane kI kSamatA nahI hai aise bhAvuka jIva jisa prasannatA se jIvana jI rahe haiM, utanI prasannatA se buddhivAdI loga nahIM jI rahe haiN| buddhi kA sadupayoga karanA hai? to eka mArga batAtA huuN| tU bhAratIya darzanoM kA adhyayana kara! nyAyadarzana kA adhyayana karake sarvaprathama jainadarzana ke nayapramANagarbhita granthoM kA adhyayana kr| jaba tU jainatarkabhASA, syAdvAdamaMjarI, ratnAkara-avatArikA, syAdvAdaratnAkara, anekAntajayapatAkA aura saMmatitarka jaise granthoM kA adhyayana karegA, terI buddhi parimArjita aura kuzAgra bana jaayegii| itanA adhyayana karane ke bAda tU sarvadarzana saMgraha, vedAntaparibhASA, nyAyabindu, sAMkhya-tattvakaumudI, zAMkarabhASya jaise jainetara granthoM kA adhyayana-parizIlana karanA / __ tarka aura pratitarka kaise kiye jAte haiM, yaha bhI sIkhanA Avazyaka hai| aise dArzanika granthoM ke adhyayana se tere jJAna meM abhivRtti hogI aura buddhi meM sthiratA aayegii| duniyA kI phAlatU bAtoM meM mana jAyegA nhiiN| tattvaciMtana meM buddhi kA sadupayoga hogaa| ___ mahAnubhAva! kitanI choTI sI yaha jiMdagI hai! kitanI alpa apanI buddhi aura zakti hai! jIvana meM kitanI anizcitatA hai? phira kyoM niSprayojana vivAdoM meM ulajhanA? kyoM asaMtoSa aura paritApa kI Aga meM sulaganA? tU buddhimAna hai, apanI buddhi kA tattvaciMtana meM viniyoga kara denA AnandaprApti kA zreSTha upAya hai| tattvaciMtana meM eka bAra rasAnubhUti ho gaI, basa! phira kAma bana gayA samajha! terI-merI AtmIyatA pragAr3ha hone se isa patra meM kucha tujhe apriya lage vaisI bAteM likha dI gaI hai...| AtmIyajana ko hI aisA likhA jA sakatA hai| merI yaha abhilASA hai ki tU ghara meM, snehI-svajanoM meM, aura mitroM meM buddhivAda ko chor3a de| hara prazna kA javAba dene kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| kabhI-kabhI mauna bhI zreyaskara banatA hai| kabhI muskarAkara hI javAba de diyA jA sakatA hai| kabhI cuppI sAdhe, dUsaroM kI bAteM suna liyA kara! dUsaroM ko kabhI-kabhI vijayI banane For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 181 kaccha ke vAgar3a-pradeza meM se gujara rahe haiN| hAlA~ki kaccha gujarAta kA hI eka bhAga hai, parantu aneka bAtoM meM bhinnatA dikhAI detI hai| pradeza harA-bharA hai| jisako kaccha kA choTA-sA registAna kahate haiM, vaha bhI pAnI se bharA huA sAgara sA dikhAI diyA! isa pradeza ke choTe-choTe gA~voM meM jaina saMgha kA snehaAdara aura bhaktibhAva dikhAyI diyA! hAlAMki hama to pahalI bAra hI isa pradeza meM Aye haiM, yAnI yahA~ ke logoM meM aparicita haiM, phira bhI logoM kA sneha hRdaya ko Anandita kara detA hai| terA pratyuttara aba bhadrezvara tIrtha meM milegA? kaTAriyA 20-12-79 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 182 (r) zA~ti pAne kI tIvra cAha ho, prasannatA pAne kI adamya utkaMThA ho, pavitratA pAne kI asIma abhIpsA ho, tabhI manuSya vAtAvaraNa kA phAyadA uThA sakatA hai| (r) jIvana ko dekhane-parakhane kI dRSTi ke abhAva meM Aja vyakti bAhara se to bhaTaka gayA hai... bhItara se bhI vaha bhaTaka gayA hai! (r) auroM kI galatiyA~ hI dekhane kI Adata AdamI ko jIvana kI gaharAiyoM meM utarane nahIM detI hai! (r) mana ke vicAroM ko mor3a denA, bhItara meM uThate bhAvoM ko yogya dizA denA ati Avazyaka hai| (r) samatAlIna mana hI tamAma sukha kA srota hai| patra : 43 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra kucha dina pUrva milA thaa| hama kaccha ke bhavya tIrtha bhadrezvara meM kucha samaya ruukeNge| yahA~ aisA vAtAvaraNa hai ki manuSya saralatA se zAnti pA sakatA hai| prasannatA se apane prANoM ko pulakita banA sakatA hai| apanI antarAtmA ko pavitratA se bhara sakatA hai...! yaha kArya tabhI ho sakatA hai, jaba manuSya ke pAsa jIvana jIne kI dRSTi ho| zAnti pAne kI tIvra cAha ho| prasannatA kI anubhUti karane kI prabala bhAvanA ho... pavitratA kA tIvra AkarSaNa ho| yadi yaha nahIM hotA hai, to suyogya vAtAvaraNa milane para bhI manuSya vaisA azAnta, udvigna aura malina banA rahatA jIvana-dRSTi ke abhAva meM manuSya bhaTakatA rahatA hai, bhItara kA bhaTakAva aura bAhara kA bhI bhaTakAva! tere isa patra se maiM yaha samajhatA hU~ ki tUne abhI bhI AntarasthiratA nahIM pAyI hai| terA mana udvigna hai... aura tU ArtadhyAna meM pha~sa gayA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 183 tU kaba bAhya darzana kI burI Adata se mukta hogA? bAhara kI duniyA kA hI darzana-ciMtana kara tU parezAna ho rahA hai| tU hamezA dUsaroM ko hI dekha rahA hai... dUsaroM ke guNa-doSa dekha rahA hai... aura azAnta ho rahA hai| jo loga tere guNadoSa nahIM dekhate haiM... unake bhI guNa-doSa tU dekhatA hai aura nindA karatA rahatA hai| jIvana kI niSphalatA kA yaha eka pramukha kAraNa hai| jinake sAtha terA koI vizeSa prayojana nahIM hai, jo loga tere prati durbhAva nahIM rakhate haiM... unake guNa-doSa dekhakara tU vyartha hI udvigna banatA hai| yaha phAlatU paracintana kyoM karanA cAhie? isa Adata kI vajaha se tU aise suramya, prazAnta aura pavitra sthAnoM meM jAne para bhI zAnti nahIM pAtA hai| tU saca-saca batA, kyA pAvApurI jaise pavitra sthAna meM bhI tUne zAnti pAyI? vahA~ se tU prasannatA ke sadaiva surabhita puSpa le AyA? vahA~ se Ane ke bAda terA mana, tere nayana Anandita ho pAye? ___aba tU kahA~ jAyegA sukha-zAnti pAne ke liye? bAhya duniyA meM tu jahA~ bhI jAyegA, terI paradarzana kI Adata tujhe parezAna karatI rhegii| tU kahIM para bhI svasthatA-sthiratA nahIM pA skegaa| tU apane gata jIvana para eka dRSTipAta kara, jahA~-jahA~ tU niSphala gayA, jahA~-jahA~ tU parezAna huA... tU vAstavika kAraNoM kI khoja kara | tU apanI galatI khoja nikaalnaa| ___ jaba taka tU dUsaroM kI galatiyA~ dekhatA rahegA, terI parezAnI miTane vAlI nahIM hai| cUMki apanA mana dUsaroM kI galatiyA~ dekhane kA AdI hai| dUsaroM kI galatiyA~ miTAne kI apanI kSamatA nahIM hai| eka vyakti kI galatI miTAne para dUsare vyakti kI galatI dikhAI degI! dUsare kI galatI miTAne para tIsare vyakti kI galatI dikhAyI degI! kabhI anta nahIM aayegaa| tU dUsaroM ke sAmane dekhanA baMda kara sakegA? tU apane Apako dekha, tU apane kAryoM meM laga jA, tere kAryakSetra meM vikAsa karatA jA | saphalatA pAne kA yahI vAstavika mArga hai| maiMne eka sAdhu ko jIvanaparyaMta paradarzana meM ulajhA huA dekhaa| jIvana meM vaha sAdhu koI viziSTa saphalatA pA nahIM skaa| jIvana meM AntarazAnti aura AntaratRpti bhI nahIM pA skaa| dUsare eka sAdhu puruSa ko maiM varSoM se dekha rahA hU~... ve nirantara apane dhArmika kSetra meM vikAsa karate Age bar3ha rahe haiN| jaba dekho taba unake mukha para prasannatA hI prasannatA! jaba unase bAteM karo, amRta hI piyA karo! kisI kI niMdA nahIM, koI paraciMtA nahIM... kisI kI phariyAda nahIM! maiMne unako tRpta dekhA! hAlAMki unake pAsa rahane vAle sabhI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 184 sAdhu unakI icchAnusAra calane vAle nahIM haiM, sabhI prakAra kI anukUlatAyeM bhI nahIM haiN| kisI vyakti ko unake prati durbhAva bhI ho sakatA hai... paraMtu hRdaya meM kisI ke prati durbhAva nahIM! hara paristhiti meM samatA aura saMtoSa! jIvana kI yahI to zreSTha upalabdhi hai! tapa-jJAna aura bhakti ke sAtha-sAtha socane aura samajhane kI dRSTi honA jIvana meM ati Avazyaka hai| mana ke vicAroM ko mor3a denA anivArya hai| bAhara ke to koI duHkha abhI tere AsapAsa nahIM hai? jo koI duHkha hai, azAnti hai, mAnasika hai na? mana ke vicAra hI to parezAna kara rahe haiM? una vicAroM ko badalanA ati Avazyaka hai| ___ mAna le ki tere jIvana meM koI duHkha hai, tU usa duHkha se bacane ke liye sthAnAntara karegA... dUsare sthAna meM calA jAyegA, kyA vahA~ para koI duHkha nahIM hogA? dUsare sthAna meM kyA terI icchAoM ke anusAra saba kucha milegA? vahA~ tere mana ko kisI prakAra kI azAMti nahIM hogI? sthAnAntara karane se kucha kSaNoM ke liye tU sukha-zAnti pA sakatA hai, sthAyI zAnti nahIM pA skegaa| sthAyI zAnti to svastha aura samakAlIna mana meM se hI prApta hogii| tU apane udvigna mana ko upazAnta karane kA prayatna kara | aise dharmagraMthoM kA, adhyAtma ke graMthoM kA adhyayana-parizIlana karake mana ko upazAnta kara | paramAtmA kI stavanA-prArthanA aura dhyAna karake mana ko upazAMta kara | jyoM-jyoM mana upazAnta hotA jAyegA, terI praphullatA bar3hatI jaayegii| terA AntaraAnanda bar3hatA jaayegaa| mana kI tIvra icchAoM ko, prabala kAmanAoM ko nirbala banA denI hogii| ___ mahAnubhAva, choTI sI isa jiMdagI meM kyoM AntaraAtmAnanda kA anubhava nahIM kara letA hai? duniyA ko unakI rAhoM para calane de, tU apane mokSamArga para calatA rahe! antarmukha banakara calatA rahe nirbhaya aura nizciMta hokara calatA rahe! nirbhayatA, nizcitatA aura antarmukhatA kI prApti ke liye aise tIrthoM meM jAkara puruSArtha karanA cAhie | samyagjJAna ke sAtha paramAtmabhakti karane se terA puruSArtha saphalatA prApta kregaa| tU svastha-citta bana jA! tujhe maiM kucha Antara anubhUti kI bAteM likhanA cAhatA huuN| kucha aisI bAteM haiM ki jo tere jIvana meM upayogI bana sakatI haiN| parantu terA mana svastha aura nirAkula honA anivArya hai... anyathA merI likhI huI bAteM tere palle nahIM pdd'egii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 185 ___ kaccha pradeza meM pahalI bAra hI Aye haiN| kaccha kA romAMcaka itihAsa hai| kaccha kI saMskRti, kaccha kI prajA, kaccha ke maMdira... vagairaha ke viSaya meM bahuta kucha par3hA hai... aba pratyakSa dekhane kA avasara AyA hai| prasannatApUrNa jIvana banA rahe terA, isI maMgala kAmanA ke sAtha - bhadrezvara (kaccha) 3-1-80 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 186 (r) AdhyAtmika yAtrA meM anya yogyatAoM ke sAtha-sAtha eka jarUrI guNa hai, saralatA! (r) ahaM kendrita vyaktitva sarala nahIM ho sakatA! saralatA ke abhAva meM sAhajika jIvana jIyA nahIM jA sakatA! 8 jahA~ apanA koI saMbaMdha na ho... vahA~ para apanI saccI rAya bhI upekSA kA zikAra banatI hai| * citta kI caMcalatA aura mana kI asthiratA ke rahate dharmatattva kI prApti yA Atmatattva kI anubhUti asaMbhava hai| * ghara meM rahanA hai to mehamAna banakara rahanA sIkho! apanA koI Agraha nahIM... apanI pasaMdagInA pasaMdagI kI koI jidda nahIM! taba jIne kA majA hai! patra : 44 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, terA patra milA, merA svAsthya acchA hai, kacchadeza meM hamArA vihAra sukhamaya ho rahA hai| yahA~ ke lokamAnasa kA adhyayana bhI acchA ho rahA hai| AdhyAtmika vikAsa meM anivArya rUpa se Avazyaka 'saralatA' guNa maiMne yahA~ ke logoM meM dekhaa| terA patra dhyAna se pddh'aa| mujhe lagatA hai ki tere pAsa phAlatU samaya bahuta jyAdA hai! usa samaya kA upayoga tU jisa prakAra kara rahA hai, yahI terI mAnasika azAMti kA mUla srota hai| sAre dina meM kaoNleja ke tIna ghaMTe ke alAvA tU kyA karatA hai? parivAra ke sabhyoM kA avalokana aura AlocanapratyAlocana! cU~ki tU apane ghara meM akelA hI buddhimAna hai! ki tU eka-do dharmakriyA karatA hai! tU samajha sakegA kyA... ki tU galata rAste para cala rahA hai? pahalI bAta to yaha hai ki abhI tU jisa ghara meM rahatA hai, usa ghara meM terI jimmedArI kitanI hai? kisa-kisa kI jimmedArI tere sara para hai? kisI kI bhI jimmedArI tere sara para nahIM hai na? terI jimmedArI tere mAtA-pitA para hai! tere bar3e bhAiyoM For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 187 para hai| ve tujhe par3hA rahe haiM aura terI sabhI AvazyakatAoM ko pUrNa kara rahe haiN| ve tujhe saba kucha dete haiM, tU unako kyA detA hai? __tU yaha cAhatA hai ki tere kahe anusAra tere bhAI-bhAbhI jIvana jIyeM! terI icchA ke anusAra saba kucha ghara meM hotA rahe! terI pasaMdagI-nApasaMdagI kA sabhI ghara vAle khayAla kareM! terA bhASaNa sabhI sunate raheM! ghara vAle sabhI loga terI prazaMsA kareM! tere do-cAra patroM se maiM yahI niSkarSa nikAla pAyA hU~ ki tU vizeSa rUpa se ahaM kendrita hotA jA rahA hai| ___ghora niSphalatA kI rAha para tU cala rahA hai, kyA tU samajhegA? jo jimmedAriyA~ terI nahIM haiM, una jimmedAriyoM ke viSaya meM tU socatA rahatA hai aura jo loga terI bAteM sunanA nahIM cAhate unako tU terI bAteM sunAtA rahatA hai| yaha saphala jIvana jIne kA tarIkA nahIM hai| tU dina-pratidina apane hI ghara meM apriya banatA jA rahA hai| hAlAMki tU ghara meM sabase choTA hai isaliye aura terI mAtAjI ko duHkha na ho isaliye sabhI loga terI harakateM sahana karate jA rahe haiN| paraMtu tU socanA, pahale tere donoM bar3e bhAI tere sAmane kitane prema se dekhate the? aba? pahale terI donoM bhAbhI tere sAtha kitanA vAtsalyapUrNa vyavahAra karatI thI? aba? eka jagaha tere bar3e bhAI mujhe acAnaka mila gaye the... maiMne tere viSaya meM kucha pUchA... to unake mu~ha se nikala gayA ki vaha apane Apa ko bar3A buddhimAna samajhatA hai... bar3A dharmAtmA mAnatA hai... hama logoM ko pApI mAnatA hai... ThIka hai, usakI par3hAI pUrNa ho jAya... bAda meM saMsAra kI vAstavikatA kA paricaya hogA!' ve jyAdA nahIM bole paraMtu maiMne dekhA ki ve tumhAre prati atyanta nArAja haiN| ___ mahAnubhAva, tU eka satya kA svIkAra kara le ki manuSya ko dUsaroM ke jIvana meM anadhikRta hastakSepa nahIM karanA caahie| dUsaroM ke guNa-doSoM kA vicAra nahIM karanA caahie| svayaM ke bAhya-AMtarika vikAsa ke viSaya meM ciMtana-manana karanA caahie| tU jitanA apane mAtA-pitA ke viSaya meM aura bhAI-bhAbhI ke viSaya meM socatA hai, utanA apane svayaM ke AtmavikAsa ke viSaya meM socatA hai kyA? kyA tU pUrNatA ke zikhara para pahu~ca gayA hai? tU kyA pUrNa jJAnI aura vItarAga bana gayA hai? tU likhatA hai ki 'jina ke sAtha dina-rAta rahate haiM unake AcAra-vicAra dekhatA hU~, sunatA hU~ to unake vicAra A hI jAte haiN|' merA kahanA yaha hai ki tU aba bAlaka nahIM hai, yuvaka hai, tU kyoM ghara meM baiThA rahatA hai? bhojana ke For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 188 alAvA ghara meM tujhe kyA kAma hai ! tU maMdira meM jA sakatA hai, upAzraya meM jJAnIpuruSoM kA satsaMga kara sakatA hai, oNphisa meM tere bhAiyoM ko sahAyaka bana sakatA hai| dukAna para tere pitAjI ko upayogI bana sakatA hai... athavA dukAna meM baiThakara acchI kitAbeM par3ha sakatA hai / kyoM ghara kI bAteM sunatA rahatA hai ? bhAI-bhAbhI kI bAteM unakI parsanala bAteM haiM, tU kyoM bIca meM kUda par3atA hai ? bar3e bhAI aura pitAjI kI bAta unakI apanI bAteM hotI haiM, tU kyoM bIca meM bhASaNa dene lagatA hai? aisA karane se terA apamAna hI hogA ! una logoM kI nigAhoM meM tU Overwise bana gayA hai| mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA ke mArga se tU kitanA dUra cala rahA hai, yaha bAta maiM tujhe kaise samajhAU~? mAtra maMdira meM jAkara pUjA-pATha kara liyA aura dharmasthAna meM jAkara sAdhupuruSa kA pravacana suna liyA, athavA kabhIkabhAra sAmAyikapratikramaNa kara liyA, isa se mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA pUrI nahIM ho jAtI hai| yaha saba karate samaya terA mana kahA~ bhaTakatA hai ? terI cittavRttiyA~ kitanI caMcala banI rahatI haiM ? citta kI caMcalatA miTAye binA, mana kA ArtadhyAna miTAye binA kyA manuSya dharma ko pA sakatA hai ? yadi terI AntaraabhilASA Atmavizuddhi ke mArga para calane kI hai, yadi terI manaHkAmanA isa alpakAlIna jIvana meM koI zAzvat tattva ko pA lene kI hai, yadi terI antaHcetanA yoga aura adhyAtma kI gaharAI meM jAne kI hai to tujhe tatkAla pArivArika jhaMjhaToM se mukta ho jAnA cAhie / parivAra ke prati tere kartavyoM kA pAlana karate hue mAtra 'mehamAna' banakara ghara meM rahanA cAhie / gharavAloM kI bAteM sunanA nahIM, gharavAloM ke guNa-doSa dekhanA nahIM! eka dina jaba parivAra kA tyAga kara nikala jAnA hai, sAre sneha ke baMdhana tor3ane haiM, to phira gharelU bAtoM se itanA lagAva kyoM ? mAna le ki kisI pratibaMdhaka karma ke udaya se gRhavAsa kA tyAga na ho sakA, to bhI AdhyAtmika vikAsa ke liye nirarthaka gharelU bAtoM kA tyAga karanA anivArya hogA / AtmazAMti aura cittaprasannatA ko akhaMDa banAye rakhane ke liye tujhe antarmukha bananA hogaa| saMsAra to ananta burAiyoM se bharA huA hai... tU kitanI burAiyA~ dekhegA? aura dUsaroM kI burAiyA~ dekhatA rahegA to terI apanI burAiyoM ko kaba dekhegA? kaba dUra karegA ? yaha Adata bahuta hI gandI hai! isaliye kahatA hU~ ki tU bahirmukha nirIkSaNa chor3a de aura antarmukha darzana karanA zurU kara de / antarmukha cintana aura antarmukha darzana sAdhujIvana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 189 meM bhI atyanta upayogI hai| munijIvana vAstava meM antarmukha jIvana hI hai| antarmukha jIvana jInevAlA muni hI vAstavika Antara Ananda kI anubhUti kara sakatA hai| muni bhI yadi bahirmukha cintana-darzana meM DUba jAtA hai to usakA AdhyAtmika patana hotA hai| ___ maiM samajhatA hU~ ki tu zAnta aura svastha mana se ina bAtoM para vicAra kregaa| socane kI aura dekhane kI dRSTi ko badalane kA prayatna kregaa| tu anubhava karegA ki apanI Antarika prasannatA bar3ha gaI hai! tere AsapAsa kA vAtAvaraNa badala gayA hai! terI Antara-bAhya kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| 4-2-80 vithona (kaccha) - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 190 (r) saMsAra kA koI bhI saMbaMdha, phira vaha kitanA bhI gaharA ho, nikaTa kA ho, sadA-sarvadA kA nahIM ho sakatA! usameM darAra par3ane kI! usameM durAva Ane kA! usameM utAra-car3hAva Ane ke! (r) saMbaMdhoM kI sArthakatA hai 'sva' ko bhulA dene meM! 'ahaM' ko jalA dene meM! 'mama' ko miTA dene meM! (r) apane kartavyoM kA pAlana pUrI niSThA se karanA hai... auroM kI tarapha se kucha bhI apekSA rakhe bagaira! (r) auroM ko aparAdhI siddha karake svayaM ko niraparAdhI karAra denA, bahuta burI bAta hai| (r) duniyA kI nigAhoM meM zAyada niraparAdhI siddha ho bhI gaye to kyA? paramAtmA kI nigAhoM kA khayAla kiyA hai? patra : 45 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra milA! kaccha ke 'paMcatIrtha' ke nAma se prasiddha bhavya jinamaMdiroM kI sparzanA huii| tIrthAdhipati paramAtmA ke darzana-vaMdana-stavana se AtmA praphullita huii| terA, naliyA, jakhau, koThArA aura sutharI-paMcatIrtha ke ye pA~ca gA~va haiN| maMdiroM kI bhavyatA, jinapratimAoM kI manojJatA aura tIrthoM kI vyavasthA... saba kucha Ananda se bhara de vaisA hai| ___ mAMDavI pahu~ca gaye haiM, 'caitrI-olI' yahIM para hogI, isalie caitrI pUnama taka yahA~ sthiratA hogii| mAMDavI kaccha kA choTA parantu acchA nagara hai / aitihAsika zahara hai! prajA meM bhAvukatA aura snehArdratA dikhAI detI hai| terA patra tIna bAra par3hA | pArasparika sambandhoM ko lekara tU khUba udvigna hai| udvigna honA svAbhAvika hai| tune tumhAre donoM ke sambandha ko abhedya aura avicchedya mAna liyA thA n...| bhaiyA mere, saMsAra kA koI bhI sambandha abhedya aura acchedya ho sakatA hai? koI bhI jJAnI puruSa ne saMsAra ke kisI bhI sambandha ko abhedya... acchedya batAyA hai kyA? to phira tuma donoM ne kyoM For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 191 avAstavika ko vAstavika mAna liyA ? aura yadi vAstavika mAna bhI liyA hai to vAstavika kara dikhaao| de do apane 'ahaM' kA balidAna! de do apane svArtha kA tarpaNa! hai taiyArI ? jaba itane varSoM se sneha-sambandha banAye rakhA hai to jIvanaparyaMta nibhA lo / yadi saccA prema hotA hai to kabhI bhI viccheda hotA nahIM / saccA prema ghaTatA to nahIM, pravardhamAna hotA rahatA hai| tuma donoM sAdhaka ho! sAMsArika koI svArtha tuma donoM ko nahIM hai / tuma apanA AntaranirIkSaNa karo / karoge? yadi pArasparika roSa kama nahIM huA hogA to AntaranirIkSaNa saMbhava nahIM hai / roSa kI upasthiti meM AtmanirIkSaNa saMbhava hI nahIM! roSa AtmanirIkSaNa nahIM karane detA, vaha to paradoSadarzana hI karavAtA hai| AtmanirIkSaNa meM tuma donoM ko apane doSa dikhAI deNge| tU kahegA 'merI galatI hai', vaha kahegA 'nahIM, merA doSa hai|' aura samAdhAna ho jaayegaa| lar3AI karavAtA hai Agraha ! durAgraha ! sAdhaka kA mana durAgrahoM se mukta honA caahiye| AgrahoM se jakar3A huA mana kleza aura azAMti se bhara jAtA hai / mana ko nirAgrahI banA de / Atmasneha aura AtmamaitrI nirAgrahI mana meM sthAyI banatI hai| tU bhUla... galatI... doSa... honA chadmastha jIva ke jIvana meM svAbhAvika hai / kyoM bhUla jAtA hai ki hama saba chadmastha haiM / saMsArI haiM / karmoM ke baMdhanoM se baddha haiN| phira bhI, dUsare jIvAtmAoM se hama kucha to Upara uThe hue haiM na? kucha sAdhanAmArga pAyA hai, kucha tattvajJAna pAyA hai, kucha satsamAgama pAyA hai| phira, dUsare apane jaise hI chadmastha jIvoM se aisI apekSA kyoM rakhanI cAhie ki 'usako aisI galatI nahIM karanI cAhie !' galatiyA~ hotI rahegI aura kSamAdAna dete rahanA hai! dUsaroM kI galatiyoM kI smRti bhI zeSa nahIM rakhanI hai| priya mumukSu! aba carmadRSTi se dekhanA nahIM hai, socanA nahIM hai aura vyavahAra karanA nahIM hai| aba to jJAnadRSTi ke Aloka meM dekhanA aura socanA hai| vyavahAra bhI jJAnadRSTi-mUlaka banAnA hai| hRdaya meM vizuddha prema, mukha para prasannatA aura vyavahAra meM udAratA se jIvana ko rasapUrNa banAnA hai| kisI se kucha pAnA nahIM hai, sabhI ko kucha na kucha sundara aura zAzvat denA hai| dUsaroM se koI apekSA nahIM aura dUsaroM ke prati apane kartavyoM kA niSThA se pAlana karanA hai| maiM tumhArA aisA jIvana dekhanA cAhatA hU~ / 'kisakI galatI hai-' isakA nyAya nahIM karanA hai| mere pAsa aisA nyAya karavAne kI icchA mata karanA / aisA nyAya karane meM prAyaH anyAya hI ho jAtA For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 192 hai| dUsare ko aparAdhI siddha karanA aura apane Apako niraparAdhI siddha karane kI Adata bahuta burI hai| mUrkha, ajJAnI aura mahattvAkAMkSI manuSyoM kI aisI Adata hotI hai, mumukSuoM kI, paramapaMtha ke yAtriyoM kI aisI Adata nahIM honI cAhie | jaba taka jIvAtmA hai... saMsArI hai, taba taka hama aparAdhI hI haiN| ThIka hai, duniyA kI nigAhoM meM kabhI hama niraparAdhI bana sakate haiM, parantu AntaranirIkSaNa karane para dikhAI degA ki hama aparAdhI haiN| isalie kabhI Apasa meM yA dUsaroM ke sAmane kauna aparAdhI hai, kisakI galatI hai-isa viSaya kI carcA karanA hI nhiiN| dUsare kA aparAdha siddha karane meM apanI mahAnatA siddha nahIM hotI, apanA ahaMkAra avazya puSTa hotA hai| tuma donoM meM socane kI kSamatA hai| tuma donoM acche adhyayanazIla ho! tuma donoM para dUsaroM kI jimmedAriyA~ bhI hai| kitane varSoM se tuma donoM ke bIca pragAr3ha sneha-sambandha hai! jaba se maiMne tuma donoM ko dekhA hai taba se... karIbana 30 varSoM se tuma donoM kI ghaniSTatA maiMne dekhI hai! eka sAvadhAnI to anivArya hai - Apasa kA matabheda yA manabheda vyavahAra meM abhivyakta nahIM honA caahie| tuma donoM ke sAtha aura Asa-pAsa aneka dUsare mumukSu haiM... sabhI paripakva buddhi ke nahIM hai| tuma donoM kA Apasa kA vyavahAra yadi ve loga viparIta pAyeMge to galata kalpanAyeM kareMge aura nindA-vivAda meM pha~sa jaayeNge| parantu yaha AsAna kAma nahIM hai| manabheda kA pratibiMba vyavahAra para nahIM par3ane denA, yaha kAma azakya nahIM hai to bhI muzkila avazya hai | muzkila kArya bhI kabhI karanA par3atA hai nA? yaha samaya aisA A gayA hai... tuma donoM ko muzkila kArya karane haiN| pravRttimArga hI aisA hai! bhale zubha pravRtti kA mArga ho, dvandva ubharate rheNge| visaMvAda paidA hote rheNge| jaba taka dUsaroM se kAma lenA hogA, jaba taka parasApekSatA banI rahegI taba taka vivAda-visaMvAda ubharate rheNge| aisI paristhiti meM udAra... vizAla mana se samAdhAna karate rahanA par3atA hai| jaba koI vivAda paidA ho, zIghra hI samAdhAna kara lo| pahale apane mana kA samAdhAna kara lo! jJAnadRSTi se samAdhAna kara lo | samAdhAna meM zAnti hai, samAdhAna meM samatA aura prasannatA hai| vrata hai, niyama hai, tapa hai, tyAga hai, jJAna hai aura japa-dhyAna hai... phira bhI hRdaya meM upazamarasa nahIM hai... phira bhI mana praphullita nahIM hai... phira bhI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 193 vicAroM meM saMvAditA nahIM AtI hai... to kitanI gaMbhIra yaha samasyA banI hai-yaha soca sakate ho? vrata-niyamoM ke pAlana se aura tapa-tyAga kI ArAdhanA se 'upazamarasa' kI prApti honI hI cAhie, kyoM nahIM hotI hai, kahA~ para truTi hai, khoja nikAlanA! svAsthya acchA hai nA? hama mA~DavI meM sabhI svastha haiM, kuzala haiN| patra kA pratyuttara maoNDavI likha skoge| mA~DavI (kaccha) 10-3-80 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 194 * mAnava mana kitanA gahana hai! vaicArika Agraha manuSya ko viSAda ke raMgoM se raMga DAlatA hai| Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir * kabhI-kabhI buddhizAlI kahalAne vAle loga bhI aise vaicArika durAgrahoM ke kAraNa asaMkhya parezAniyoM meM apane Apako ulajhA dete haiN| usI kI upekSA hotI hai jo svayaM auroM kI upekSA karatA hai| * jo khuda auroM kA khayAla nahIM karatA... vaha kaise apekSA rakha sakatA hai ki auroM kI tarapha se use upekSA nahIM milanI cAhie / priya mumukSu, * mana ko parasApekSatA ke viSavartula meM se bAhara nikAla denA caahie| mana badalA ki pUrI duniyA badala jAyegI ! patra : 46 dharmalAbha, terA patra milaa| Ananda huA | Ananda hai, mAtra pratyuttara pAne kA ! patra kA viSaya to viSAda kare vaisA hai...! mAnava mana kI vicitra gatividhiyA~ haiM ! vaicArika Agraha manuSya ko azAnta banA dete haiM ! buddhimAna kahalAne vAle loga hI jyAdAtara aise durAgrahoM meM pha~se hue dikhAI dete haiN| 'ghara meM merI upekSA hotI rahI hai!' yaha to hai terI phariyAda ! jo loga terI upekSA kara rahe haiM unase terI apekSAyeM kitanI haiM ? tU yaha cAhatA hai ki apanI sArI apekSAyeM pUrNa honI cAhiye - sahI hai nA? jarA AsapAsa jA~ca karake dekhanA ki kisa vyakti kI sArI apekSAyeM pUrNa hotI haiM ! kaba taka pUrNa hotI rahI haiM ? merA aisA anumAna hai ki tUne kisI aise vyakti ko dekhA hai ki jisakI apekSAyeM vizeSarUpa se pUrNa hotI hoM! usake ghara meM usakI upekSA nahIM hotI ho! parivAra ke loga usakA mahattva samajhate hoM aura yaha dekhakara usase tUne tulanA kI ho ! 'usake ghara meM usakI kitanI mahattA rahatI hai! koI usakI upekSA nahIM karatA hai... aura mere ghara meM koI merI mahattA hI nahIM samajhatA hai... hara bAta meM merI upekSA hotI hai...!' For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 195 'usakI hara apekSA pUrNa hotI hai, mAtA usakI apekSA ko pUrNa karatI hai, bhAI-bahana bhI usakI apekSA ko samajhate haiM aura vaisA vyavahAra karate haiM, mere ghara meM koI bhI vyakti merI apekSAoM ko samajhatA hI nahIM... phira apekSA pUrNa karane kI to bAta hI kahA~?' Ate haiM na aise vicAra tere mana meM? aise hIna vicAroM se mana bhara gayA hai na? aba kyA karanA hai? ghara se bhAga jAnA hai? kahA~ jAnA hai? tU jahA~ jAne ko socatA hai, vahA~ terI upekSA nahIM hogI nA? hai na pUrA vizvAsa? vahA~ terI hara apekSA kA sammAna hogA na? hai na pUrNa zraddhA? khUba soca vicAra karake kadama uThAnA / yadi bhrama ko satya mAnakara calegA to nayI Aphata meM pha~sa jaayegaa| mujhe to aisA lagatA hai ki terI apekSAyeM kahIM para bhI pUrNa nahIM hogI! eka satya ko svIkAra karanA hogA-vahI manuSya upekSita hotA hai ki jo dUsaroM kI upekSA karatA hai! jo manuSya dUsaroM kI apekSAoM kA vicAra nahIM karatA hai, vaha dUsaroM se apanI apekSAoM ko pUrNa hone kI AzA nahIM rakha sktaa| jo manuSya dUsaroM kI upekSA nahIM karatA hai, phira bhI upekSita hotA hai to samajhanA cAhie ki usake pApakarmoM kA udaya hai! dUsaroM kI upekSA nahIM karanevAlA aura dUsaroM ke prati apane kartavyoM kA khayAla karanevAlA manuSya yaha socatA hI nahIM ki 'maiM upekSita ho rahA hU~!' jo manuSya dina-rAta apane kartavyoM meM hI pravRtta rahatA hai vaha kabhI socatA hI nahIM hai ki merI upekSA ho rahI hai yA merI mahattA bar3ha rahI hai| dIrghakAla taka kartavyapAlana karate rahane se svataH mahattA bar3ha jAtI hai! phira bhI usa mahAnubhAva ko mahattA kI koI apekSA nahIM hotI hai| 'dUsare loga merI sevAoM kI prazaMsA kareM,' aisI manokAmanA hI nahIM! itanA hI nahIM, jaba samaya mile taba dUsaroM ke satkAryoM kI prazaMsA karatA rahatA hai| jisakI vaha prazaMsA karatA hai, saMbhava hai ki vaha vyakti isakI nindA karatA ho! 'vaha merI nindA karatA hai, isakA artha yaha nahIM hai ki maiM usakI prazaMsA na karU~! saMbhava hai ki merI nindA karane kA irAdA dUsarA hI ho! vaha mujhe AtmanirIkSaNa kA avasara denA cAhatA ho aura yaha irAdA to acchA hai|' priya mumukSu! tU duHkhI na ho, mata soca ki 'merI upekSA ho rahI hai|' tU sAvadhAna rahanA ki tuma se kisI kI upekSA na ho jAya | kabhI bhI pratizodha kI For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 196 bhAvanA se nahIM socanA ki 'vaha merI upekSA karatA hai karane do, mere bhI dina AyeMge... taba maiM usakI ghora upekSA karU~gA / / ' aise vicAra karane se terA mana azAnta banegA, udvigna rahegA, saMtapta rhegaa| aisA kyoM karanA cAhie ? kabhI-kabhI to aisA dekhA jAtA hai ki koI apanI upekSA nahIM karatA ho, phira bhI aisA lagatA hai ki 'vaha merI upekSA kara rahA hai ! vaha mere prati durlakSa kara rahA hai|' yaha hai mAnasika roga ! mAnasika vikRta vicAroM ke kucakra meM pha~se jIvoM kI durdazA hotI hai / ve zArIrika rogoM ko bhI AmaMtraNa dete haiM! samajhAne para bhI nahIM samajhane vAloM ko niyati kA hI doSa dekhanA par3egA ! dUsarI bAta : yadi tU dUsaroM kI apekSAoM ke prati durlakSa karatA hai to dUsaroM se tU kaise apekSApUrti kI AzA rakha sakatA hai? Adarza to yaha honA cAhie ki hama jina logoM kI apekSApUrti karate hoM ve loga apanI eka bhI apekSA pUrNa na karate hoM to bhI unake prati durbhAvanA nahIM karanI cAhie ! majA aise AdarzoM ko jIne meM hai / kyA dUsaroM se apekSA rakhe binA AnandapUrNa jIvana nahIM jI sakate? jIvanapaddhati meM parivartana nahIM kara sakate ? parasApekSa jIvana duHkhI jIvana hotA hai| parasApekSatA duHkhadAyinI hotI hai| merI rAya yadi mAne to dhIre-dhIre parasApekSatA ke viSavartula meM se bAhara nikala jA ! mana ko badalane kI hI bAta hai! mana badalA ki duniyA badala gaI samajhanA ! yadi mana nahIM badalA to tU kahIM para bhI jAyegA tujhe zAMti, prasannatA nahIM milegii| duniyA meM kauna aisA phAlatU baiThA hai ki jo terI apekSAoM ko pUrNa karatA rahegA? kauna terI prazaMsA karatA rahegA? kauna terI mahattA ko gAtA rahegA? phira tU kahA~ jAyegA ? duniyA ko kosatA rahegA! jIva sRSTi ke prati ghRNA karatA rahegA aura mAnasika asthiratA kA zikAra bana jAyegA / yadi tU apanI upekSA nahIM cAhatA hai to tere vyaktitva ko guNoM se suvAsita banAne kA prayatna kr| tU apanI upayogitA aisI siddha kara de ki tere binA dUsaroM kA kArya sthagita ho jAya! terI anupasthiti meM dUsaroM ko abhAva... abhAva lage! tere AsapAsa ke logoM kI apekSAoM ko tU pUrNa karane kA prayatna karatA rahe... ve loga terI upekSA kara hI nahIM sakeMge ! terI zikAyata svataH dUra ho jAyegI! 'sabhI loga merI upekSA kara rahe haiM,' isa vicAra ne tere mana ko kSubdha kara diyA hai| terI mukhAkRti ko udvega se pota diyA hai| terI vANI meM kaTutA aura For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 197 nirAzA bhara dI hai| tere vyavahAra ko chinna-bhinna kara diyA hai| eka durvicAra ne tumhAre mohaka vyaktitva kA hanana kara DAlA hai| mere mitra, zIghra hI usa durvicAra ko dimAga se nikAla de| ___ maoNDavI meM 25 dina rhe| niyamita pravacana hote rhe| aba aMjAra kI ora vihAra kara diyA hai| aMjAra meM kucha samaya sthiratA karane kI bhAvanA hai| terA patra aMjAra meM milegA? tere tana-mana kI svasthatA cAhatA huuN| nAnI khAkhara (kaccha) 5-4-80 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 198 (r) jaba bhI prAcIna granthoM kA adhyayana kareM... anuzIlana- parizIlana kareM... taba una granthoM ke rahasyoM kI gaharAI meM jAne kI koziza karanI caahie| (r) saMsAra kI yahI to vicitratA hai... samajhadAra loga bhI kabhI-kabhI galatiyoM ko doharAte haiN| @ vyaktitva kA abhimAna jaba ubharane lagatA hai... taba phira AdamI bhale-bure ko nahIM samajha paataa| (r) Ajakala kI ugatI pIr3hI ko na jAne kauna-sA roga laga gayA hai? na koI lakSya... nA koI dhyeya... na koI Adarza... na kucha jIvana kA Ayojana! (r) yuvA pIr3hI ko bigAr3anevAle-barabAda karanevAle aneka paribaloM meM eka paribala hai, Aja ke svArthAndha rAjanetA! patra : 47 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra mila gayA, tere mana ke visaMvAda dUra hue, jAnakara khUba prasannatA huii| paraMtu jaba taka tU svayaM apane mana ke praznoM kA, samasyAoM kA, ulajhanoM kA samAdhAna nahIM karane lagegA taba taka maiM nizcita kaise banU~gA? isaliye, tU 'jJAnasAra' kA puna:-punaH parizIlana karatA rahe! 'jJAnasAra' meM tujhe hara prazna kA uttara milegA! hara samasyA kA samAdhAna milegaa| terA mana apUrva Ananda kI anubhUti karegA | zurU karegA na 'jJAnasAra' kA adhyayana-parizIlana? eka-eka zloka para... eka-eka zabda para ciMtana karanA! __ tUne apane mitra ke viSaya meM ciMtA vyakta kI, svAbhAvika hai| mitra ke prati sneha honA sahaja hai| sneha se prerita hokara tUne usako samajhAne kA prayatna kiyA, karanA hI cAhie | paraMtu, niSphalatA milane para viSAda nahIM karanA caahie| abhI-abhI vaha apanI purAnI bhUla ko doharA rahA hai... ki jisa bhUla ne usako bhUtakAla meM kaTu anubhava karAye haiM, isakA artha to yaha hotA hai ki usako pahale bhI apanI bhUla mahasUsa nahIM huI hogii| athavA, usake mana kI durbalatA honI cAhie ki usa galata kAma ko vaha chor3a nahIM sakatA! hotA hai saMsAra meM aisA! samajhadAra loga bhI punaH-punaH eka hI bhUla karate For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 199 rahate haiM ! bAra-bAra kaTu pariNAma bhogate rahate haiM... samajhAne para bhI nahIM samajhate! aise jIvoM kI niyati hI vaisI hotI hai| usake prati tU roSa mata karanA, usakA tiraskAra bhI mata krnaa...| hAlAMki usake prati terA prema hai, isaliye tU duHkhI to hogA hI ! prema duHkhI karegA hI! tU usake bhaviSya ko aMdhakAramaya dekhatA hai, duHkhapUrNa dekhatA hai, isaliye tujhe duHkha hogA | jisake prati prema hotA hai, usako manuSya duHkhI nahIM dekha sakatA / premI ke duHkha dUra karane kI hI icchA banI rahatI hai| tU apane usa mitra ke vyaktitva kI prazaMsA likhatA hai, hogA vaisA vyaktitva! rUpavAna honA, kalAkAra honA, kavi honA, mohaka honA... eka vyakti meM ye sArI bAteM ikaTThI hotI haiM, taba usakA vyaktitva prabhAvazAlI banatA hai, paraMtu yaha vyaktitva bAharI hotA hai ! bhItara kA vyaktitva dUsarA bhI ho sakatA hai ! tUne usake Abhyantara-Antarika vyaktitva ko parakhA hai ? rUpavAna vyakti guNavAna hI ho, aisA niyama nahIM hai| bAharI kalAoM meM nipuNa vyakti jIvanakalA meM nipuNa na bhI ho ! prakRti ke kAvyoM kI racanA karane vAlA adhyAtma ke gItoM se anabhijJa ho sakatA hai| bAharI mohakatA se AkRSTa vyakti, nikaTa Ane para nirAza bhI ho sakatA hai ! apane bAhya vyaktitva ke prati vaha saceSTa hogA! usa vyaktitva para use vizvAsa hogA! usa vyaktitva ke sahAre nirbhaya hogA ! aura isa vizvAsa ne usako galata rAste para calane meM 'himmata' baMdhAI hai ! 'maiM kisI se DaratA nahIM hU~... mujhe kisI kI paravAha nahIM hai...' aisA bolatA bhI hogA ! vyaktitva kA abhimAna usa para 'hAvI' ho gayA hai| isa samaya tU use nahIM samajhA sakegA ! eka bAra to usakA vaha abhimAna barpha kI taraha pAnI-pAnI ho gayA thA na? barpha kitane dina taka barpha banA rahegA? eka dina pAnI hogA hI! koI durghaTanA hI usako samajhA sakegI! athavA koI 'sadguru' kI bAta jaba usakI AtmA ko sparza kara degI... taba vaha hoza meM AyegA / 'veTa eMDa sI' ! hI tU usake viSaya meM soca hI mata ! usase milanA bhI chor3a de ! thor3e dina meM tU svastha bnegaa| vartamAnakAlIna usakI pravRttiyA~ jaba tere mana meM udvega hI paidA karatI hai, saMtApa paidA karatI hai... taba usase dUra rahanA hI ucita hogA / saMbhava hai ki usake prati terA Antarika rAga, usase milane ke liye, usase bAteM karane ke liye tujhe prerita karegA ! paraMtu tujhe apane rAga para saMyama rakhanA hogA! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 200 Ajakala yuvA pIr3hI ko kyA ho gayA hai, samajha meM nahIM AtA! na unako svayaM sUjha hai, jIvana nirmANa kI aura na ve kisI jIvanazilpI kA mArgadarzana lete haiM! na koI dhyeya, na koI Adarza, na koI vyavasthita Ayojana! rAjakIya netA loga apane svArthoM kI siddhi meM yuvakoM kA upayoga kara rahe haiN| hiMsA ko bar3hAvA de rahe haiN| anuzAsanahInatA ko uttejita kara rahe haiN| kauna bacAyegA yuvA pIr3hI ko? bar3I ciMtA kA viSaya bana gayA hai| __ pArivArika jIvana meM yuvaka-yuvatiyA~ 'apaseTa' ho rahe haiN| mAtA-pitA ke sAtha ve seTa nahIM ho rahe, bhAiyoM ke sAtha seTa nahIM ho rahe! manazciMtA bahuta bar3ha rahI hai| abhI thor3e mahIne pahale eka paricita bhAI mere pAsa Aye the... ikkIsa-bAIsa sAla kA lar3akA hai unakA | bahuta parezAna hai lar3ake ke viSaya meN| na karatA hai sarvisa, nahIM detA hai pitA ko sahayoga! AvArA banakara bhaTakatA rahatA hai! khAnA-pInA, acche, kapar3e pahananA aura AvArA-TAIpa lar3ake-lar3akiyoM ke sAtha bhaTakanA / manacAhA kharca karanA aura kabhI-kabhI paise kI corI karanA...! pitA kI eka bAta nahIM sunatA hai, mAtA kI to ginatI hI nahIM karatA hai! ___ pitA kitanA parezAna hogA? ijjata kA Dara hai, isaliye lar3ake ko ghara se nikAla bhI nahIM sakatA hai... putra-sneha kI vajaha se duHkhI ho rahA hai| aise eka pitA nahIM, hajAroM... lAkhoM pitA parezAna haiM! lAkhoM mAtAe~ saMtapta haiN| nikaTa ke bhaviSya meM koI AzA nahIM dikhatI hai| yuvA pIr3hI ke prati udAsInatA dhAraNa karanA hI ThIka lagatA hai| hA~, jina yuvaka-yuvatiyoM meM jIvana nirmANa kI tamannA ho, mArgadarzana cAhate hoM... unake prati audAsInya nahIM honA cAhie, unake prati sneha aura sadbhAva honA cAhie, aura samucita mArgadarzana denA caahie| zraddhA, namratA aura samarpaNa ke binA na to mArgadarzana denA, na upadeza denA! anyathA terA svayaM kA ahita hogA! mahAnubhAva, isa viSaya meM kabhI-kabhI bahuta socatA hU~... kucha upAya bhI mila jAte haiM... paraMtu sAre upAya parasApekSa hote haiM! jaba taka zikSA meM AmUlacUla parivartana na ho taba taka paristhiti sudharane vAlI nahIM hai| bAlamaMdira se kaoNleja taka, zikSApaddhati meM parivartana Avazyaka hai| paraMtu yaha parivartana ho - vaisA deza-kAla nahIM dikhtaa| artha aura kAma kendrabiMdu bana gaye haiM zikSA ke! aisI zikSA mAtra bhArata meM hI hai, vaisA nahIM, vizvavyApI bana gaI hai aisI shikssaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 201 yadi jaina saMgha, jaina saMskRti ke anurUpa, gA~va-gA~va meM aura nagara-nagara meM apanI svataMtra zikSApaddhati kI zAlAyeM zuru kara deM, bAlamaMdira se lekara kaoNleja taka svataMtra zikSApaddhati calatI rahe, to hI yuvApIr3hI meM apekSita yogyatA panapa sakatI hai, dUsare koI upAya kAragara nahIM bana skte| kyoM hara saMgha kA apanA jaina bAlamaMdira na ho? jaina saMgha ke dAnavIra jaba zikSA kSetra meM karor3oM rupaye 'DoneTa' karate haiM, taba saMgha kI apanI svataMtra zAlAoM kA nirmANa aura saMcAlana kyoM na ho? jainasaMgha yadi yaha Adarza prasthApita karegA to anya samAja bhI anusaraNa kareMge! bhAratIya saMskRti aura sabhyatA ke anurUpa, bhAratIya jIvanapaddhati meM upayogI zikSApaddhati kA pracalana hone lgegaa| yadi abhI yaha yojanA kAryAnvita ho, to kucha varSoM ke bAda isakA apUrva pariNAma dekhane ko milegaa| tU patra kA pratyuttara yahA~ hI denA | jUna 10 taka to saMbhavataH yahIM aMjAra meM rukanA hogaa| bhuja meM cAturmAsa praveza julAI meM hone vAlA hai| terI kuzalatA cAhatA hU~ - aMjAra (kaccha) 25-5-80 - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 202 (r) vizvAsabhaMga sabase bar3A pApa hai| @ AvazyakatA samApta ho jAne para kisI se nAtA tor3a denA yA mu~ha mor3a lenA, yaha svArtha nahIM hai to kyA hai? (r) jiMdagI meM kisI kI vizvasanIyatA ko sahejakara rakhanA, samhAla kara rakhanA bhI bahuta bar3I tapazcaryA hai! (r) apanI galatiyoM ko DhaMkane ke liye auroM kI galatiyoM ko udghATita karanA durjanatA hai| * choTI sI jiMdagI meM kyA samajhadArI, samatA aura sahiSNutA ke phUloM ko khilAkara nahIM jI sakate? (r) parapIr3ana meM Ananda mahasUsa karanA', bahuta bar3I vikRti hai| ghinaunI evaM gaMdI manovRtti hai| patra : 48 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, ___ terA patra nahIM milA hai, likhA ho to mile na! aba, donoM patra kA pratyuttara sAtha hI likhnaa| terA mitra yahA~ AyA thA, thor3e dina mere pAsa rahA, usane apanI bahuta sI Antarika bAteM khiiN| sunate-sunate kabhI khuzI, kabhI udvega, kabhI Azcarya aura kabhI viSAda ubhara aayaa| tere liye aneka vicAra mere mana meM ubharate rhe| tU jAnatA hai ki usane tere sAtha kaisA abheda bhAva se saMbaMdha rakhA? tumhArI mitratA kaisI adabhuta hai? eka dRSTi se dekhA jAya to tere Upara usake aneka upakAra haiN| tUne svayaM apane mu~ha se usake upakAra gAye haiM, yAda hai na? jabajaba tere jIvana meM musIbateM AyI tU usake pAsa gayA hai aura usane apane sukhaduHkha kI cintA kiye binA tujhe sahayoga diyA hai| usane tere sAtha koI paradA nahIM rakhA hai| __parantu tUne kyA kiyA? bAhya vyavahAra kI bAta nahIM karatA, bAhya vyavahAra to tUne acchA hI rakhA hai, maiM jAnatA hU~, parantu apane dUsare mitroM ke Age tUne For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 203 usake liye kaisI-kaisI bAteM kI hai aura kara rahA hai, yaha jAnakara mujhe bahuta Azcarya ho rahA hai| tere viSaya meM merI dhAraNAyeM bhI galata siddha huii| vizvAsabhaMga jaisA pApa tere jIvana meM praviSTa ho jAyegA athavA pahale se hogA, yaha maiM nahIM jAnatA thaa| tU zAyada aisA mAnatA hogA ki 'aba mujhe usa mitra kI koI AvazyakatA nahIM hai...' mAnatA hU~ ki tujhe usakI AvazyakatA nahIM rahI hogI, parantu kyA mitratA kA sambandha AvazyakatA ke sAtha hai? jaba taka AvazyakatA ho taba taka hI mitratA? kyA vaha mitratA hotI hai yA svArtha-sAdhakatA? tUne mAtra apanA svArtha dekhA hai| tU aisA mata mAnanA ki usako terI koI AvazyakatA hai, tere binA vaha nirAdhAra ho gayA hai! tere binA usako koI nukasAna nahIM hai| usake binA tujhe nukasAna hone kI mujhe AzaMkA hai! tU nahIM mAnegA, cUMki tU vartamAnakAlIna apanI sudRr3ha sthiti para Azvasta ho gayA hai| terI bAtoM meM kitanA virodhAbhAsa hai! tujhe yAda hai kyA ki jaba tU pArivArika Apatti meM pha~sA thA, tU usake pAsa gayA thA zaraNa lene! usane apane parivAra kI nArAjagI hone para bhI tujhe sahayoga diyA thA! tere liye usane apane parivAra kA tyAga kara diyA thA! usake mahAna tyAga para tU ro par3A thA... aura mere sAmane bolA thA : 'kucha bhI ho jAya, duniyA bhale badala jAya... parantu maiM jIvanaparyaMta usakA sAtha nahIM choTUMgA!' aura vahI tU kyA bola rahA hai? 'usane mere liye koI tyAga nahIM kiyA thA, merA to mAtra nimitta thA, usane apane hI nijI kAraNoM se tyAga kiyA thA... maiM usakI Antarika sArI bAteM jAnatA hU~!' aisA bola rahA hai na tU? kyA terI Antarika bAteM vaha nahIM jAnatA hai? phira bhI, mere sAmane tere liye eka bhI bAta nahIM kI hai usne| dUsaroM ke sAmane to aisI bAteM karegA hI kaise? ___ upakArI ke upakAroM ko bhUla jAnA, upakArI ke prati apakAra karanA... kyA mumukSutA kA lakSaNa hai? mAnavatA kA lakSaNa hai? tU kyA kara rahA hai... ekAnta meM zAnta citta se socegA kyA? aise mitra kA vizvAsaghAta karanA, bar3A pApa hai| isa pApa kA phala, bhaviSya ke janmoM meM to milane vAlA hogA vaha milegA, parantu vartamAnakAlIna janma meM bhI milegaa| tU avizvanIya bana jaayegaa| tU kisI kA bhI vizvAsapAtra nahIM rhegaa| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 204 ___ maiM jAnatA hU~ ki isa patra se tU nArAja hogA, roSAyamAna hogA aura merI bAtoM kA inkAra karegA | tUne apanI galatiyoM ko svIkAra karanA sIkhA hI nahIM hai| tU hamezA dUsaroM kI galatiyA~ dekhatA rahA hai, dUsaroM ke dUSaNa dekhanA, dUsaroM ke gupta rahasyoM ko jAnanA aura svarakSA ke lie usakA upayoga karanA... tere svabhAva meM bharA hai| __maiM jAnatA hU~ ki terA mere prati sneha hai, Adara hai, bhakti hai, isaliye itanA kaTu satya likha rahA huuN| tumhAre prati maiM apanA eka kartavya samajha kara likha rahA hU~ | tU jAnatA hai ki maiM niSprayojana aura phAlatU bAteM karatA hI nahIM hU~| na mujhe tuma se koI svArtha hai| tU mere prati nArAja ho jAyegA, to bhI mujhe gama nahIM hogaa| kaTu satya bahuta thor3e jIvoM ko hI priya lagatA hai| ___ maiM yaha bhI jAna cukA hU~ ki tu usa nirmala maitrI ko tor3ane ke liye kyoM tatpara banA hai! aba usa mitra se dUra rahanA kyoM pasanda karatA hai| tU usase dUra rahe, usakI mujhe ciMtA nahIM hai| paraMtu tU usakA drohI bane, yaha bAta kSamya nahIM hai| usane terA kucha bhI bigAr3A nahIM hai, tere prati koI durbhAvanA nahIM kI hai, aura tU usake prati durbhAvanA rakhatA hai, yaha bAta acchI nahIM hai| eka bAta tU samajha lenA ki tU usakA kucha bigAr3a nahIM skegaa| jaba taka manuSya kA puNyodaya hotA hai, usakA koI kucha bigAr3a nahIM sktaa| jaba manuSya kA pApodaya hotA hai, usakA koI kucha sudhAra nahIM sktaa| tU apanI galatiyoM ko Dhakane ke liye, usakI galatiyoM ko prakAzita karane kI galata pravRtti kara rahA hai, yaha bahuta bar3I durjanatA hai| apane kucha zrImanta mitroM ke sahAre aura kucha 25/50 hajAra rupayoM kI kamAI ke bala para, tU apane Apako nizcita aura nirbhaya mAnakara cala rahA hai, yaha maiM jAnatA huuN| kyA aisA nahIM hogA ki ve mitra kabhI tere sAtha vizvAsaghAta kareM? 'ekzana-riekzana' kA niyama to tU jAnatA hai na? tUne vizvAsaghAta kiyA hai, to tere sAtha vizvAsaghAta hogA! usa samaya tU kahA~ jAyegA? kyA karegA? bAhya tapa-tyAga aura dUsarI dharmakriyAyeM kyA tujhe vizvAsaghAta kA lAyaseMsa detI haiM? 'maiM tapa karatA hU~, maiM tyAga karatA hU~, maiM acchI tattvacarcA karatA hU~... maiM dharmakriyAyeM karatA hU~... isaliye maiM vizvAsaghAta karU~ to bhI mujhe pApa nahIM lagatA!' aisA mAna liyA hai kyA? For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 205 bhramaNAoM meM bhaTaka rahA hai| merI bAta para gaMbhIratA se socnaa| itanA svArthI nahIM bananA... ki niHsvArtha mitra kA vizvAsaghAtI bane / aba bhI ruka jA / pratyupakAra kI tumase koI apekSA nahIM hai... apakAra se nivRtta ho jAyegA to bhI mujhe saMtoSa hogA / choTI sI jiMdagI, kyA zAnti se, samatA se aura sahiSNutA se basara nahIM ho sakatI? paropakAra na ho sake to, svAntaH sukhAya kyA nahIM jI sakate? parapIr3ana meM Anandita honA, mahApApa hai / terI kuzalatA cAhatA hU~ / paramAtmA ke acintya anugraha se tujhe sadbuddhi mile... yahI maMgala kAmanA / nayA aMjAra (kaccha) 3-6-80 For Private And Personal Use Only - priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 206 @ svayaM ko hIna mAnane-samajhane kI vRtti jaise acchI nahIM hai... vaise hI apane __ Apa ko mahAna samajhane kI gurutAgraMthi bhI bar3I khataranAka hotI hai! (r) manuSya kA vyaktigata jIvana sAmAjika jIvana se pUrNatayA alipta yA alaga nahIM raha sakatA hai! @ sAmAjika pratikriyAoM kA taba taka to khayAla rakhanA hI hogA, jaba taka samAja ke bIca meM jInA hai| (r) jaba pAralaukika dRSTi kA hI abhAva hai phira mAnasika vicAradhArA kaluSita banI rahe yA vikRta bana jAye, isameM tAjjUbI kyA? (r) mAnasika tanAva jaba jarUrata se jyAdA bar3hate haiM, taba ve zarIra para bhI apanA asara dikhAte haiN| patra : 49 priya mumukssu| dharmalAbha, _patra milA, itanA vistRta patra prathama bAra hI milA / zAnti se par3hA, tere patra ke mAdhyama se terI mAnasika sthiti kA bhI anumAna kiyaa| sthitaprajJadazA se bahuta dUra-dUra rahA huA vyakti aisI paristhiti meM bhaya, bhrAnti aura bhramaNAoM meM ulajha jAya, yaha svAbhAvika hai| terI mAnasika tanAvapUrNa sthiti 'naoNrmala' ho jAnI caahie| tujhe zIghra nirbhaya ho jAnA cAhie | gurutAgranthi se mukta bana jAnA caahie| ___ terA patra to bAda meM milA, isase pUrva vaha bhAI... mere pAsa AyA thA, usane tere viSaya meM bahuta sI bAteM btaayii| tUne to usako manA kara diyA thA... parantu tere prati usako AtmIyasneha hai na! usakA dila mere pAsa khula hI gayA aura usane sArI bAteM kaha dii| maiM sunatA rahA... socatA rahA...| jo kucha bhI banA hai, honA nizcita thA, mujhe koI Azcarya nahIM huA hai| mujhe kaise Azcarya hotA? merI to pahale se hI dhAraNA thI ki aisA pariNAma aayegaa| ___ vyaktigata jIvana aura sAmAjika jIvana saMpUrNatayA alipta nahIM raha skte| manuSya jaise eka vyakti hai, vaise vaha eka sAmAjika prANI bhI hai| jaba taka samAjasApekSa jIvana hai, sAmAjika pratikriyAe~ jaba taka mana-mastiSka para For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 207 asara karatI rahatI haiM, taba taka sAmAjika mUlyAMkanoM kA apalApa nahIM kiyA jA sktaa| tU jAnatA hai, terA anubhava bhI hai ki sAmAjika pratyAghAtoM kA kitanA asara tere mana para hotA hai| ___ eka bAta sunakara mujhe duHkha huA...! dUsarA koI anapar3ha aura IrSyAgrasta manuSya aisI bAta karatA to duHkha nahIM hotA parantu tujhe maiM anapar3ha nahIM mAnatA, tU dharmagranthoM kA abhyAsI hai, kucha yoga-adhyAtma ke mArga meM terI abhiruci hai... phira bhI tU apanI galatiyoM ko chipAne hetu apane gurujanoM kI galatiyoM ko prakaTa karatA hai!' maiM hI aisA karatA hU~ kyA? mere ve... ve... gurujana bhI aisA karate haiN...|' aisA bolate samaya tU apanI surakSA kA hI vicAra karatA hai| parantu kabhI nahIM bhUlanA ki dUsaroM ke doSoM kA prakAzana kara, kabhI bhI tU apanI surakSA nahIM kara paayegaa| - isakA artha to yaha hotA hai ki tU jo kucha kara rahA hai-isase tU bhayabhIta hai! tU jaisA hai vaisA duniyA ke sAmane peza Ane kI terI himmata nahIM hai| 'dUsare loga aisA AcaraNa karate haiM, isaliye maiM bhI aisA karatA hU~' yaha tarka terI nirdoSatA ko siddha nahIM kara skegaa| tU apanI ijjata ko bacAne ke liye, apanA gaurava akhaMDita rakhane ke liye, 'vizvAsaghAta' jaisA pApa karane ko tatpara banA hai, yaha to atyaMta zocanIya bAta hai| kyA terA yaha vizvAsa hai ki vizvAsaghAta karake tU apane Apako surakSita rakha pAyegA? tere pApa prakAzita nahIM hoMge? tU apane usa mitra kA aniSTa kara sakegA? nahIM kara sakegA tU usakA kucha bhI aniSTa! tU bhramaNA meM bhaTaka rahA hai| tU svayaM bahuta bar3I Aphata meM pha~sa jAyegA... terI ujjvala pratibhA khaMDita ho jaayegii| yadi merI rAya mAna le to isa patra ke milate hI tU ruka jaa| sAvadhAna ho jaa| galata rAste se vApasa lauTa jaa| parantu mujhe lagatA hai ki tU vApasa nahIM lauTegA! cU~ki tU kucha samaya se jisa vyakti ke ghaniSTa paricaya meM AyA hai, kadama-kadama para tU jisakI rAya letA rahatA hai, kisI bhI pralobhana se vaha vyakti tujhe acche-bure kAryoM meM sahayogI banA rahA hai... vaha vyakti aba tujhe kahA~ le jAyegA... maiM kalpanA nahIM kara sktaa| maiM jAnatA hU~ ki tujhe kahA~ taka usane 'karapTeDa' banA diyA hai! cU~ki usako jo cAhie vaha tere paricaya se mila rahA hai! vaha aba tujhe nahIM chor3egA! lekina eka dina vahI terA zatru banegA aura terI burAI karegA! Aja tU merI yaha bAta nahIM mAnegA... maiM jAnatA hU~ aura tU mujhase saMparka bhI kama karane kA soca rahA hai, vaha bhI maiM jAnatA hU~! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 208 khaira, jaisI bhavitavyatA! jisako jaisA bananA hai, banake rahegA ! usako koI nahIM roka pAtA! tumhAre prati mere hRdaya meM jo sneha kA jharanA baha rahA hai, usase plAvita hokara hI yaha patra likha rahA huuN| jaba taka mujhe vizvAsa hai ki mere patra se tU prasanna hotA hai, tujhe mere patra kI apekSA hai, cAha hai, taba taka likhatA rhuuNgaa...| parantu jaba vaha vizvAsa nahIM rahegA, likhanA svataH baMda ho jAyegA / jaba aisI-aisI bAteM sunatA hU~, par3hatA hU~... taba mUla kAraNa khojane lagatA huuN| terA patra par3hakara maiM kucha dinoM taka socatA rhaa| mujhe lagA ki pAralaukika dRSTi ke abhAva meM hI aisI mAnasika kaluSitatAyeM paidA hotI haiN| Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir mAtra vartamAnakAlIna sukha - duHkha ke vicAra, mana meM asaMkhya vikAra paidA kara dete haiN| pAralaukika vicAradhArA yadi hRdayagiri meM nahIM bahatI rahatI hai to asthiratA, caMcalatA aura dizAzUnyatA se jIvana bhara jAtA hai| tU socanA, zAnti se socanA, kyA kabhI tujhe pAralaukika vicAroM kA sparza hotA hai ? vartamAna jIvana kI kSaNikatA ne kabhI tujhe vicAramagna kara diyA hai ? ThIka hai, tujhe jaisA jIvana pasanda ho, tU jI sakatA hai| tU kisI kA bhI niyaMtraNa cAhatA nahIM hai, yaha maiM jAnatA hU~ / niyaMtraNa nahIM mArgadarzana bhI zAyada tujhe pasanda nahIM A rahA hai! terI gurutAgranthi, tujhe kisI kI bhI salAhamArgadarzana lene se rokatI hai ! mere isa patra ko zAnti se par3hanA / dimAga se socanA... / bhaviSya kA vicAra krnaa| terA koI mitra nahIM rahegA to bhI calegA na ? soca lenA / tU apane prati niHsvArtha sneha rakhanevAle mitroM ke prati bhI vizvAsabhaMga karegA, to tere kauna mitra baneMge? tere prati kauna vizvAsa karegA, vagairaha bAteM svasthatA se socanA / yadi ucita lage to socanA ! merA Agraha nahIM hai / hama sabhI kuzala haiM nayA aMjAra (kaccha) 1-7-80 terA svAsthya kaisA hai ? mAnasika tanAva zarIra para asara karate haiM, isaliye svAsthya kA khayAla karanA / paricitoM ko dharmalAbha sUcita karanA / yaha patra tujhe milegA usake pahale bhUja meM hamArA cAturmAsa praveza ho gayA hogA! aMjAra meM dhAraNA se jyAdA rukanA huaa| jagaha acchI hai| likhane kA, par3hane kA kAma acchA huA / pravacanoM se janatA ko to acchA lAbha huA hai ! - For Private And Personal Use Only - priyadarzana

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 209 @ eka AdamI hI nahIM, varan sArI sRSTi, samagra jIvasRSTi sukha kI AzA meM, __ sukha kI khoja meM jI rahI hai| (r) sukha ke bAre meM hara eka AdamI kI apanI-apanI dhAraNAe~ hotI haiM, apanI apanI kalpanAe~ hotI haiN| (r) sukha ko pAne ke lie saba lAlAyita haiM, para apane sukhoM ko koI bA~Tane yA bikherane kI bAta nahIM socatA hai! (r) jaba taka sukhoM kA AkarSaNa kama nahIM hogA taba taka sukhoM kA tyAga sahaja-svAbhAvika nahIM hogaa| (r) alpa ra vidhAoM meM jIne kI kalA sIkha lenI caahie| patra : 50 priya mumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra milA, sArI paristhitiyoM se paricita huaa| tere prati merI saMvedanAyeM haiN...| terI parezAniyA~ dUra hoM... tere zoka-saMtApa upazAMta hoM, paramAtmA se yahI prArthanA karatA huuN| mahAnubhAva, Aja tujhe kucha aisI bAteM likhanA cAhatA hU~, jo kucha gambhIra haiM, kucha aTapaTI bhI! terA patra Ane ke pazcAt maiMne zAnta citta se socA / mujhe lagatA hai ki mAtra tU hI nahIM, karIbana sArA vizva kucha na kucha sukhoM kI apekSAe~ lekara jItA hai| 'yaha sukha to honA cAhie, itanA sukha to honA cAhie... isa sukha ke binA to kaise cala sakatA hai?' aisI kucha dhAraNAe~ manuSya bA~dhakara calatA hai| aura isI vajaha se manuSya duHkhI hai, saMtapta aura azAnta hai| Aja dina taka isa prakAra jIvana jItA rahA hai na? itane varSoM taka, isa prakAra jIvana jIne se tU saMtuSTa nahIM hai na? tU tRpta nahIM hai na? aba eka nayA prayoga kara le! kucha bAhya sukhoM kA tyAga kara de aura kucha mAnasika sukhoM ko bikhera de! hA~, mana kI kalpanAoM ke sukhoM kA tyAga kara de| eka bhAI mere pAsa Aye the, thor3e dina phle| unhoMne kahA : 'mahArAja For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 210 sAhaba, mujhe saba prakAra ke sukha mile haiM... koI du:kha nahIM hai... parantu maiM isalie azAnta rahatA hU~ ki merA eka lar3akA merI eka bAta bhI mAnatA nahIM hai| usake prati mujhe rAga hai... parantu usakA mere prati koI lagAva nahIM hai| na vaha mere sAtha prema se bAta karatA hai, na vaha oNphisa meM Akara mere kArya meM sahayoga detA hai| mere mana meM basa, usa lar3ake kI harakateM hI AtI rahatI haiN| acchA phleTa hai, kAra hai, patnI hai... saba kucha hai, parantu mana meM zAnti nahIM hai|' isa puruSa ke pAsa, saMsAra meM jo sukha manuSya ke pAsa hone cAhie... saba haiN| eka sukha nahIM hai... putra-prema kA! aura eka sukha ke abhAva meM vaha itanA becaina hai ki zAyada vaha apanA 'belensa oNpha mAinDa' ga~vA degaa| vaha eka sukha kA tyAga nahIM kara pA rahA hai| maiMne kahA usako : bhaiyA, putra-sukha ko bikhera do!' yaha merA putra hai... maiMne usako khUba pyAra diyA hai... usakA mere prati prema honA caahie...|' isa vicAra ko 'vesTa pepara baoNskeTa' meM DAla do| usane kahA : 'mahArAja sAhaba, hameM to saMsAra meM jInA hai... yadi lar3akA sIdhA nahIM cale, AvArA bana jAe... to merI ijjt...|' ijjata kA sukha! jo ijjata duniyA se saMbaMdhita hotI hai... usa ijjata kA sukha banAye rakhane kI icchA hI to duHkha hai| duniyA kyA kahegI? duniyA kI nigAhoM meM hameM acche banakara rahanA cAhie...| yaha vicAra kitanA galata hai| duniyA ne kabhI acche puruSoM kI prazaMsA 'ye acche haiM', aisA mAnakara nahIM kI hai, duniyA meM una puruSoM kI prazaMsA hotI hai ki jinakA 'yasa nAmakarma' nAma kA puNya karma udaya meM hotA hai| maiMne usa mahAnubhAva ko dharma kA siddhAnta samajhAyA / 'ijjata mile yA nahIM mile, cintA usakI mata karo, cintA karo tumhAre mana kI, tumhArI AtmA kii|' ijjata ke sukha kI kalpanA manuSya ke mana para hAvI ho jAtI hai taba ijjata milane para bhI vo sukhI nahIM hotA hai| sadaiva ijjata ko banAye rakhane kI phikra satAyA karatI hai| jahA~ phikra vahA~ duHkha | vahA~ azAnti! jIvana paryaMta, isa prakAra kaI manuSya ijjata kI phikra meM azAnta bane rahate haiM / ijjata kI kalpanA kA sukha bikhera denA cAhie... tyAga kara denA caahie| __ muzkila to hai yaha kAma / ijjata aura pratiSThA mAdhyama bane hue haiM, dUsare sukhoM ko pAne meM! phira bhI yaha kAma karanA Avazyaka hai| sukhoM kI kAmanAoM kA visarjana karanA anivArya hai| hAlAMki, cAroM ora sukha pAne kI bhagadar3a For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 211 macI huI hai... virATa vizva meM jahA~ dekho vahA~ sukha pAne kI aura duHkhoM se chuTakArA pAne kI hI cahala-pahala dikhatI hai| tere AsapAsa... tere parivAra meM bhI tU sukha- visarjana kI bAta karegA to loga terI majAka ur3AyeMge...! nayI bAta hai na! priya mumukSu, jIvana ke kaI praznoM se, kaI samasyAoM se tU mukti pA legA.... yadi dRr3hatA ke sAtha tU sukhoM kA visarjana karegA to ! pahale to mana ko sukhavAsanA se mukta karanA hogA / sukhoM kI vAsanA se mukta karanA hai mana ko, to sukhoM kI vaiSayika sukhoM kI niHsAratA kA punaH punaH cintana karanA / sabhI vaiSayika-bhautika sukha anitya-vinAzI hai, bhayAkrAnta hai aura parAdhIna hai .... ina tIna pahaluoM ke mAdhyama se niHsAratA kI pratIti karanI hogii| sukhoM ke prati virakti bar3hane para, tU sahajabhAva se sukhoM kA tyAga kara skegaa| tere mana meM sukhoM kA AkarSaNa nahIM rhegaa| isase tU apUrva manaHzAnti paayegaa| adbhuta cittaprasannatA kI anubhUti karegA / bAhya sukhoM kA tyAga tujhe Antara sukhoM kI advitIya bheMTa degaa| sItAjI ke jIvana kI eka ghaTanA ke prati terA cintana huA hai ? jaba sItAjI puMDarIka nagara meM, rAjA vajrajaMgha ke Azraya meM rahI thI... aura jahA~ unhoMne lava-kuza ko janma diyA thA ... vahA~ hI lava-kuza bar3e hue the| lava-kuza rUpavAna aura guNavAna lar3ake the... / aise putroM ke prati sneha honA mAtA ke lie svAbhAvika hotA hai| parantu sItAjI ne putroM ke sAtha hArdika sneha kA saMbaMdha nahIM bA~dhA thaa| saMsAra ke sabhI sukhoM ke visarjana kI prakriyA puMDarIkanagara meM hI zurU huI thii| vaha prakriyA saMpUrNa huI agniparIkSA ke bAda turaMta ! saMsAra ke sabhI sukhoM kA tyAga kara sItAjI mahAtyAga ke patha para cala dI thii| putroM kA lAlana-pAlana karate the, unako zikSA dilAte the... unakI zAdI bhI kI thI... parantu jo kucha kiyA, mAtra kartavya ke nAte ! mAtRtva kA vAtsalya hote hue bhI mamatva ke baMdhana se baMdhe nahIM / viraktabhAva ko bar3hAne kA kArya ve karatI hI rahI / ati alpa sukha-sAdhanoM se jIvana-yApana karane kI paddhati ko samajha lenaa| tujhe vipula sukha sAmagrI mila sakatI hai, phira bhI tU svIkAra nahIM karanA / bahuta thor3I AvazyakatA honI cAhie / parivAra ko bhI isI prakAra jIvana jIne kI kalA batA denA! dhIre-dhIre sabhI anukUla banate jaayeNge| yadi anukUla nahIM baneM to unakA bhI tyAga karanA Avazyaka bana jAyegA / For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 212 ___ mahAnubhAva! yahA~ varSAkAla, dharmadhyAna aura dharmArAdhanA meM vyatIta ho rahA hai| zrI zAntisUrikRta 'dharmaratna' grantha para dainika pravacana ho rahe haiN| madhyAhna meM, upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI kI eka kRti 'savA so gAthAnuM stavana' usa para svAdhyAya calatA hai| 'prazamarati' vivecana kA dUsarA bhAga likhane kA kAma bhI calatA hai... zAyada paryuSaNaparva ke pUrva taka pUrA ho jaayegaa| svAsthya ya~ to acchA hI hai, phira bhI 'azAtAvedanIya' karma kabhI-kabhI apanA prabhAva batA jAtA hai! cintA nahIM hai... AtmA-zarIra kA bhedajJAna puSTa karane kA avasara milatA hai! kuzala raho-yahI kaamnaa| 12-8-80 bhuja (kaccha) - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 213 (r) dharmakSetra meM bhI Aja nirNAyakatA hone ke kAraNa kitanI taraha kI vikRtiyA~ praviSTa ho gaI haiM! sabhI apanI-apanI DaphalI para apanA-apanA rAga AlApate (r) svayaM ko bilkula begunAha mAnanA aura dUsaroM ko aparAdhI mAnanA mana kI bar3I kamajorI hai| (r) sabhI jIvAtmAoM ke sAtha saMpUrNa nirvairabhAva ko vikasita kiye bagaira AtmA kI zuddhi-vizuddhi saMbhavita nahIM hai| (r) apane bar3appana kI bhrAmika kalpanAoM ko jalAnA hogaa| OM maitrI yAnI sakhyabhAva, sakhyabhAva meM sneha hotA hai, saMdeha nahIM! sakhyabhAva meM pyAra rahatA hai... takarAra yA tiraskAra nahIM! patra : 51 priya gumukSu! dharmalAbha, terA patra milA thaa| pratyuttara likhane meM vilamba avazya huA hai, paraMtu likhane kI icchA sadaiva banI rahI hai| mahAparva paryuSaNoM ke dinoM meM aura bAda meM bhI atyadhika vyastatA ke kAraNa, zAnta-prazAnta citta se likhane kA samaya hI nahIM milaa| thor3A samaya milA thA paraMtu vaha samaya, kaccha ke dainika-patra 'kacchamitra' meM paryuSaNaparva viSayaka lekhamAlA likhane meM vyaya ho gayA! __ pahale... bahuta purAne jamAne meM yaha mAtra zramaNa aura zramaNiyoM kA nivRttimaya ArAdhanaparva thaa| 'eka jagaha rahanA, yaha artha hotA thA paryuSaNa kA | sAdhu evaM sAdhvI, bhAdrapada zuklA paMcamI se eka gA~va meM 70 dina taka raha jAte the| dUsare gA~va meM vihAra nahIM karate the| eka jagaha 70 dina kI sthiratA kara, jJAna-dhyAna aura tapa-tyAga meM lIna banate the| isa 70 divasIya 'kempa' ke prAraMbha meM maMgalanimitta zrI 'kalpasUtra' kA adhyayana karate the, saadhu-saadhvii| sAdhu puruSa par3hate the, sAdhvI sunatI thii| yaha thA paryuSaNaparva kA mUla svarUpa! ___ Aja yaha parva caturvidha saMgha kA ho gayA hai! zramaNa bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmI ke nirvANa ke pazcAt 900 varSa vyatIta ho jAne ke bAda, paryuSaNa caturvidha saMgha kA parva banA hai| yAnI sAdhu-sAdhvI-zrAvaka aura zrAvikA isa parva ko manAte For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 214 __ haiN| dhIre-dhIre isa mahAparva kA rUpa bhI badalatA jA rahA hai| isa mahAparva ke pavitra dinoM meM jahA~, sAdhu puruSoM ke mukha se 'kalpasUtra' ke pravacana sunane the... kucha jagaha kucha saMpradAyoM meM dUsare hI pravacana sune-sunAye jAte haiM! kucha jagaha, bhinna-bhinna viSayoM para gRhastha loga hI pravacana dete haiN| viSaya dhArmika ke alAvA sAmAjika aura rAjakIya bhI hote haiM! duHkha kI bAta yaha hai ki Aja koI kisI ko kahane vAlA nahIM hai| hara vyakti manacAhA kara letA hai| isase bahuta sI vikRtiyA~ dharmakSetra meM praviSTa ho gayI haiM aura ho rahI haiN| __priya mumukSu, sAvadhAna rahanA! dharmakSetra meM, dharma ke nAma se koI adharma jIvana meM praviSTa na ho jAya / paryuSaNaparva meM tUne tapazcaryA acchI kI hai| pravacana bhI sune haiN| dharmakriyAe~ bhI kI haiN| paraMtu sabhI jIvoM se kSamAyAcanA kaise kI, vaha tUne patra meM nahIM likhA hai| vartamAna jIvana meM, Aja dina taka, jina-jina ke sAtha vaira-virodha huA ho unake pAsa jAkara, vinaya aura namratA se tUne kSamAyAcanA kI hogI? choTe-bar3e kA khayAla kiye binA, nirabhimAnI banakara tUne apane aparAdhoM kA pazcAttApa kiyA hogA? dUsare jIvoM ko hI aparAdhI mAnane kI manovRtti bahuta hI vighAtaka hotI hai| hara bAta meM dUsare kI hI galatI dekhanA, dUsare ko hI aparAdhI mAnanA, bahuta hI kharAba Adata hai| apane Apako niraparAdhI mAnanA, begunAha mAnanA, yahI bar3I bhUla hai, ajJAnatA hai | jIvana ke bhinna-bhinna vyavahAroM meM apane Apako nirdoSa siddha karanA aura dUsaroM ko hI doSita siddha karanA- upAdeya mAnA gayA hai! mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA meM yaha bAta sarvathA heya mAnI gaI hai| dUsare jIvoM ke sAtha saMpUrNatayA nirvairavRtti Aye binA, AtmA kI paripUrNa vizuddhi saMbhava nahIM hai| ahaMkAra aura tiraskAra vairavRtti ko puSTa karate rahate haiN| priya mumukSu, tujhe yadi vAstavika mokSamArga kI ArAdhanA karanI hai, to ahaMkAra ke himAlaya ko pAnI banAkara bahA de! 'maiM bar3A hU~, maiM jJAnI hU~, maiM samajhadAra hU~, maiM dharmAtmA hU~...' aisI-aisI ahaMkArajanya kalpanAe~ hRdaya se nikAlanI hI hogii| ahaMkAra kA mUlyAMkana hI nahIM honA caahie| ahaMkAra, dUsare jIvoM kA tiraskAra karavAtA hai| ahaMkArI manuSya kisI kA bhI mitra nahIM bana sakatA hai| kaise bana sakatA hai mitra? mitratA yAnI sakhyabhAva! sakhyabhAva meM ahaMkAra ko sthAna nahIM hotA aura tiraskAra kI to For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 215 parachAI bhI nahIM par3a sktii| sabhI jIvoM kA mitra banane ke liye ahaMkAra aura tiraskAra ko hRdaya se nikAla dene hoNge| paryuSaNaparva meM yaha kAma kiyA jAnA cAhie thaa| jinake-jinake sAtha tUne durvyavahAra kiyA thA, jinake viSayoM meM tUne kaTutApUrNa vicAra kiye the, unake pAsa jAkara tUne kSamAyAcanA kI thI? nahIM kI ho to aba bhI kara lenaa| dUsarI saMvatsarI kI rAha mata dekhanA / hRdayazuddhi karane ke lie hara kSaNa mahAparva hai| vaha kSaNa, vaha dina mahAparva bana jAtA hai, jisa kSaNa... jisa dina manuSya apane hRdaya ko nirmala... niSpApa banAtA hai| kabhI aisA bhI saMsAra meM anubhava hotA hai ki jisa vyakti ke prati apanA koI vaira-virodha nahIM ho, koI durbhAvanA nahIM ho, phira bhI vaha vyakti apanI ora virodha bhAvanA rakhatA ho| aise prasaMgoM meM apanA mana kahatA hai : 'maiMne to usakA koI burA kiyA nahIM hai, usake viSaya meM burA vicAra bhI nahIM kiyA hai, phira bhI vaha mere prati roSa rakhe... to rakhane do... maiM kyA karU~?' __aisA nahIM socanA caahie| socanA cAhie ki : 'maiMne pUrvajanmoM meM kabhI na kabhI usa jIva kA aparAdha kiyA hogA... jAne-anajAne usakA kucha bhI burA kiyA hogA... anyathA vaha mere prati durbhAva kyoM rakhe? maiM usake liye bhI zubha kAmanA karatA hU~ ki usake hRdaya meM kisI bhI jIvAtmA ke liye durbhAvanA nahIM rhe| mana ko, citta ko, aMtaHkaraNa kI prasannatA se pulakita rakhanA hai to kSamAdharma kA avalambana lenA hI hogaa| hamAre liye to kSamAdharma kI ArAdhanA anivArya hai, tumhAre zramaNopAsakoM ke liye bhI kSamAdharma kA pAlana ati Avazyaka hai| pArivArika jIvana meM aura sAmAjika jIvana meM tabhI zAnti aura aikyatA akhaMDa raha sakatI hai, jaba kSamAdharma kA samucita pAlana hogaa| kSamAyAcanA karo aura kSamAdAna dete raho! koI aparAdhI manuSya kSamA mA~gane Aye to prema se kSamA dete raho! kisI ke bhI aparAdhoM ko bhUloM ko dimAga kI DAyarI meM likha kara mata rkho| yahA~ bhuja meM cAturmAsakAla khUba prasannatA se evaM vividha dharmArAdhana meM vyatIta ho rahA hai| saMgha kA aura nagara kA vAtAvaraNa praphullita aura ullasita hai| paryuSaNaparva kI ArAdhanA abhUtapUrva huI hai| aba kala se hI prabhubhakti kA ATha dina kA mahotsava zurU ho rahA hai| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 216 ___ atyadhika pravRtti meM bhI svAsthya sAnukUla rahA, yaha to paramAtmA jinezvara deva kI aura gurujanoM kI kRpA hI mAnanI pdd'egii| tIna-tIna aura cAra-cAra ghaMToM taka pravacana diye, to bhI svAsthya sucArU rahA! sabhI munivara svastha-prasanna haiM, saba kI ora se kSamApanA jAneM / pratipala prasannacitta rahe yahI maMgala kAmanA 20-9-80 bhuja (kaccha) - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 217 (r) acchI bAtoM para ciMtana-manana karate-karate apane vicAra bhI tadrUpa bana jAne caahie| (r) sukha prApta karane kI vRtti hI tamAma saMgharSoM kI jar3a hai| isa bAta ko dila va dimAga kI dIvAra para nakza kara denA caahie| @ mile hue sukhoM kA anubhava kara lenA eka bAta hai aura jyAdA se jyAdA sukha pAne kI kalpanA ke naze meM behoza rahanA aura bAta hai| (r) sukha-du:kha ke bAre meM mana ko nirAgrahI va nirAkula banAnA hogaa| nirAzaMsa banAye rakhanA hogaa| (r) jaba sahana karanA hI hai... taba phira prasannatA se, ha~sate mu~ha aura khelatekhilate-khulate hue kyoM nahIM jInA! patra : 528 priya mumukSu, dharmalAbha, bahuta dinoM se terA patra nahIM hai| tere tana-mana kI kuzalatA cAhatA huuN| cAturmAsa-kAla prasannatA se vyatIta ho rahA hai| lekhana-pravacana-adhyApana Adi nityakrama sucAru rUpa se cala rahA hai| ___ mumukSu, saMbhavataH tere liye merA yaha patra aMtima hogaa| jisa viSaya para pA~ca varSa se tujhe likha rahA hU~, paryApta likhA hai, aisA lagatA hai| aba kucha varSa tU ina patroM para cintana-manana karatA rahegA to mujhe prasannatA hogii| cintana-manana karate-karate tere mana ke vicAra hI cintana ke anurUpa bana jAyeM, to jIvana jIne kA apUrva Ananda tU pA skegaa| kucha dinoM se manovRttiyoM ke vizleSaNa meM dilacaspI bar3ha gaI hai| isa vizleSaNa meM maiMne pAyA ki sukha pAne kI, sukhAnubhava karane kI manovRtti hI sabhI pApoM kA mUla hai| sabhI burAiyoM kI jar3a hai| vaiSayika sukhoM kA rasAsvAda karane kI icchAe~ paidA hotI haiM aura azAnti kA prArambha hotA hai| koI docAra sukha pA lene se icchAe~ samApta nahIM hotii| nayI-nayI sukhecchAe~ paidA hotI rahatI haiN| For Private And Personal Use Only

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218 jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai Avazyaka sukhoM kA bhoga-upabhoga karanA eka bAta hai, aura sukha pAne kI evaM sukhopabhoga kI kalpanAe~ karate rahanA, dUsarI bAta hai| koI artha nahIM hai aisI kalpanAe~ karane kaa| tU bhI socanA, tere jIvana ko kendra meM rakhakara socanA ki aisI kalpanAe~ karane kA hai koI vizeSa artha? tU AntaramaMthana karegA to tujhe spaSTa dikhAI degA ki bhinna-bhinna aneka sukhoM kI kalpanAe~ karanA vyartha hai, nirarthaka hai| ina kalpanAoM se mana ko mukta karanA hogA! ho sakatA hai mana mukta! cAhie dRr3ha saMkalpa aura vAstavika upAya! isa viSaya para maiMne pahale bhI patroM meM likhA hai| sukhoM kA tyAga, sukhecchAoM kA tyAga aura sukhabhoga kI smRtiyoM kA tyAga... jyoM-jyoM hotA jAyegA tyoM-tyoM manaHprasannatA bar3hatI jAyegI, tyoMtyoM dharmaArAdhanA meM sthiratA bhI bar3hatI jaayegii| yaha aisA jIvana hai ki jisameM duHkha hI jyAdA hai| zArIrika aura mAnasika asaMkhya duHkhoM se ghirA huA hai yaha jIvana / aise jIvana meM sukhoM kI kalpanAoM meM ulajhe rahanA buddhimattA nahIM hai| vaise duHkhoM kA rUdana karanA bhI ucita nahIM hai| sahana karane hI haiM duHkha, sahana kiye binA jaba chuTakArA hI nahIM hai, phira prasanna citta se aura prasanna mukha se sahana kyoM na kiye jAyeM? sukha-duHkha ke viSaya meM mana nirAgrahI bana jAnA cAhie / 'duHkha nahIM Ane cAhie, sukha hI milane cAhie, rahane cAhie...' aisA Agraha chor3a denA cAhie | sukha ko AnA ho to sukha Aye, duHkha ko AnA ho to duHkha Aye, koI Agraha nahIM! basa, karttavya kI bhUmikA ko nibhAte calo aura paramAtmA ke patha para calate rho| mana ke praznoM kA samAdhAna DhUMr3hane ke aneka rAste ina patroM meM batAye haiM, basa, mana kA samAdhAna karate rho| praznoM meM mana ko ulajhA huA mata rkho| ulajhanoM se mana ko mukta rkho| yadi isa kArya meM mere patra tumhAre kAma A jAyeMge to mujhe Ananda hogaa| jIvana kI bhinna-bhinna ghaTanAoM ke saMdarbha meM kaise vicAra karanA, kaisA abhigama banAnA aura kaisA vyavahAra karanA, ina bAtoM ko batAne kA zakya prayAsa maiMne kiyA hai| terA jIvana nirApada aura nirAkula banA rahe, terI jIvanayAtrA mukti kI ora Age bar3hatI rahe, yahI merI maMgala kAmanA hai aura rhegii| isI maMgala kAmanA ne mujhe prerita kiyA hai, ina patroM ko likhane ke liye! For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 219 tumhAre prati sadbhAvapUrNa kAmanAe~ nirantara bahatI raheMgI...! tere prati hI nahIM, samagra jIvanasRSTi ke prati mere hRdaya kI maMgala kAmanAe~ nirantara bahatI rahe... kisI bhI jIvAtmA ke prati durbhAvanA paidA na ho... aisI merI hArdika abhilASA banI huI hai | paramAtmA se merI yahI AntaraprArthanA hotI hai ki samagra jIvasRSTi ke sAtha merA sadaiva snehapUrNa sambandha banA rhe| priya mumukSu, terA-merA pratyakSa saMbaMdha rahA hai aura parokSa sambandha bhI ina patroM dvArA rahA hai| kalyANayAtrA meM banA huA yaha sambandha hai| tUne pUrNa vinaya, namratA aura sadbhAvanAoM se usa sambandha ko sArthaka kiyA hai| maiMne kabhI ugra zabdoM meM, kabhI kaTutApUrNa zabdoM meM tere sAtha vyavahAra kiyA hogA... tUne kabhI mere prati mana meM bhI durbhAvanA nahIM lAyI hai| merA Akroza bhI tujhe priya lagA hai| merI kaTutA ko bhI tUne amRta mAnakara pI lI hai...| tere prati khUba sadbhAva bar3hane kA yahI mUlabhUta hetu hai| hAlAMki patra ke mAdhyama se aba kucha varSa isa taraha milanA nahIM hogA parantu pratyakSa milanA to avasara-avasara para hotA rahegA hii| jaba kabhI tere mana meM milane kI utsukatA bar3ha jAya, tU A sakatA hai mere paas| tere mana meM prazna paidA hogA ki 'arihaMta' meM kyA maiM aba 'jIvanadRSTi' nahIM likhUgA / 'jIvanadRSTi' jaise merA priya cintana kA viSaya rahA hai, vaise 'guNadRSTi' bhI merA priya cintana kA viSaya rahA hai| eka bahuta prAcIna jainAcArya zrI zAMtisUrijI ne apane 'dharmaratna' nAma ke grantha meM, manuSya ko dhArmika banane se pUrva 'guNavAna' bananA anivArya batAyA hai| karIbana 20 varSa pUrva jaba maiMne yaha grantha par3hA thA tabhI se mere mana meM 'guNadRSTi' ke viSaya meM cintana-manana calatA rahA hai| Aja 20 varSa ke bAda punaH maiM usa 'dharmaratna' grantha para pravacana yahA~ 'bhuja' meM de rahA hU~ | khUba Ananda pAtA hU~ isa grantha para vivecanA krte-krte| aba vaha Ananda jIvoM ko bA~Ta denA hai| cUMki Ananda baoNTane se bar3hatA hai| Aja dina taka 'arihaMta' meM jitane patra chape haiM, sabhI kA anuvAda gujarAtI bhASA meM ho gayA hai| 18 patroM kA saMgraha 'tArA duHkhane khaMkherI nAMkha' kitAba meM prakAzita huA aura usake do saMskaraNa prakAzita ho gye| zeSa 34 patroM kA saMgraha 'tArA sukhane vikherI nAMkha' pustaka meM prakAzita ho rahA hai| 34 patroM kA anuvAda bahuta hI rasapUrNa bhASA meM huA hai| 'tArA duHkhane khaMkherI nAMkha' kitAba kA aMgrejI anuvAda ho gayA hai, kucha dinoM meM presa meM chapane jaayegii| For Private And Personal Use Only

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jiMdagI imtihAna letI hai 220 merA svAsthya acchA hai| sabhI kArya sucArU rUpa se ho rahe haiN| tU AtmaprasannatA kA anubhava karatA rahe, yahI maMgala kaamnaa| parivAra ko 'dharmalAbha' sUcita krnaa| kuzala rahe! 10-10-80, bhuja (kaccha) - priyadarzana For Private And Personal Use Only

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AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUri jJAnamaMdira kobA tIrtha Acharya Sri Kailasasagarsuri Gyanmandir Sri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra Koba Tirth, Gandhinagar-382 007 (Guj.) INDIA Website : www.kobatirth.org E-mail: gyanmandir@kobatirth.org ISBN: 978-81-89177-12-6 For Private And Personal Use Only