Mukt Gulam

Author(s): Usha Maru
Publisher: Hansraj C Maru
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/009269/1

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mukta gulAma FREE PRISONER FREE PRISONER "Free Prisoner" is a collection of poems and thoughts in English, Hindi, and Gujarati, dedicated to Pujya Gurudev Kanjiswami on his 125 birth anniversary. I would love to hear from readers, please post your comments on my blog at your free will: freeprisoner.org USHA MARU

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mukta gulAma FREE PRISONER FREE PRISONER "Free Prisoner is a collection of poems and thoughts in English, Hindi, and Gujarati, dedicated to Pujya Gurudev kanjiswami on his 125" birth anniversary. I would love to hear from readers: please post your comments on my blog at your free will: freeprisoner.org USHA MARU

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Free Prisoner (uta IMIA) Free eternal spirit in this body prison I am the prisoner (GT) of Gurudev who showed me my eternal, blissful freedom

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FREE PRISONER First Edition : 2014 Published by: Hansraj C. Maru Sheela. Duncan, Anand, Umed Vivek, Tania, Luka Chintan Printed by : Jayant Printery Girgaon Road, Thakurdwar, 352/54, Murlidhar Mandir Compound, Mumbai - 400 002. (India) Tel. : +022 4366 7171 Email : jayantprintery@gmail.com 100% recycled paper No Copyright, 2014

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T Dedicated to Pujya Gurudev Kanjiswami I have never met Pujya Gurudev in person, but listening to him, meditating on his words, I feel that I have always been with him. This feeling is inexpressible for me. I read about Gurudev from many scholars and fans, but my innermost feelings came pouring out when I read his lectures on Paramaagams. Gurudev is my Guru, my Dev, my inspiration, and my life. Gurudev has shown me the truth of my soul in a miraculously simple way. I have been a student of science all my life. As a scientist one understands the pure and applied science of matter and its practical fruits. Gurudev has taught the purest science of soul within me, the applied science of matter around me, and the eternal fruit of experiencing the soul by separating both (s). He has explained these concepts with depth and clarity; I am forever indebted to him. Gurudev has explained the true meaning of the knower (5), the knowledge (5), and the knowing (T). I the knower am full of knowledge, and knowing occurs within me. I am not what I know, who I know, or what is good and bad in what I know. The right and wrong changes constantly with many perspectives. I, the knower, am constant, eternal, and blissful. 03

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This collection of poems is dedicated to Pujya Gurudev on his 125th birth anniversary. He preached at a pivotal time in India's history. India was in turmoil to achieve liberation from the British Raj of 300 years. The country's leaders were trying to convince Indians to unite against the British for our own free country. At the same time, Pujya Gurudev was inspiring people to ask who they really are. You are not Indians but humans. You are not just this body but have a soul. All of your feelings of injustice, unity, betrayal, and pride are temporary. Pure blissful feelings are true and eternal. Gandhi used one Jain concept, ahimsa, and succeeded in rallying Indians for peaceful liberation of the country. However, ahimsa was only a small part of Mahaveer's message. Pujya Gurudev was able to give us the complete message which is incomprehensible to most. In the din of our country's struggle for independence, Pujya Gurudev's call resonated clearly: you are an everlasting liberated soul. I bow, salute, and respect Pujya Gurudev. Do not conclude that I am the poet and these are my poems. These are my thoughts, which came freely pouring out when my mind was inspired by Pujya Gurudev's lectures. In this collection, what is good and right belongs to Gurudev, and what is not, is mine.

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Contents prabhu tujha saMga prabhu bhajana prabhu zraddhA ho merI bhAvoM kA khela maryAdA mA~ aura beTA Dedication Contents Gulam gulAma gulAma First Black President I Am Running Mahaveer Jayanti 2013 My Son Share Our Thoughts: A Eulogy Sheela Today icchAyeM insAna hUM yA bhagavAna upakAra sadA eka bAra mAna to karmoM kA khela kalAkArI gAMdhIjI ke tIna baMdara caMdanabAlA cAritra jIva kahe kyA karanA hai jJAtA - dRSTA dAne dAne para likhA hai divAlI par3osI puruSArtha meghadhanuSa maiM yahI aparAdha vedana sajI bhI to maiM hI hUM samaya supara baoNla hamArI kamajoriyAM umeda che kartA gurUkRpA ghaDIyAla jInavANIno rAgI paryuSaNa parva pratikramaNa Avazyaka prabhu tujamaya thAje bheda vijJAna

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prIta 132 134 prema 136 138 100 baoNla ona da vAla mithyAtva kA visphoTa mithyAtva mukta jIva aura pudgala maiM tujhameM tU hI mujhameM maiM hUM mujha meM maiMne mujha se pyAra kiyA hai jitanA yaha 60 sAla bitAye haiM kisane? saMgIta kI mahaphila 143 145 101 102 103 104 106 107 147 149 satya saMyoga che he prabhu Mukt mukta bhuta 100 Beliefs Born in a Jain Family I Am The Knower When I Get Dirty na jiMdagI hai na mauta jaina dharma eka acaraja Atama bhAvanA bhAvatA AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM khuda se khuda pada gaMDU rAjA ghara se bulAvA AyA hai chupanevAle jinavANI mA~ jIva jJAyaka dila eka maMdira hai pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA pahalA ratna pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA dUjA ratna pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA tIjA ratna pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA cauthA ratna pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA pA~cavA ratna 150 152 154 108 110 112 113 115 117 119 svIkAra jamAno mArAthI che aMtara mAruM AtmA / jIvA juko pAM vaTe AyA nimitta/upAdAnA nirAvalaMbI AtmA parama pAriNAmika bhAva vartamAna jJAnanI paryAya samaya huM AtmA chuM javuM zarIra nathI Why Mukt Gulam? 165 122 128 130 06

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T First Black President Friday July 19th 2013, President Obama spoke for 20 minutes After one week the Jury rendered a verdict of "not guilty". Trayvon Martin, a 17 year young black boy was shot a year ago. Our first black president looked concerned, bit tired. In the cage of presidency: White collar shirt, dark blue suit, a tie appeared to be A uniform caging Obama's free spirit. Obama standing in this cage could not create everlasting, Ever-vibrating sound: "I have a dream". And young black boys, you too have a dream. We can forget "history and bad past experiences". They are past; create a society of no hate, no guns, no sounds of shootings. Obama talked "soul searching," but appeared without free spirit. Gandhi abolished the British Raj of 300 years, Kindled hope in Indians to free themselves From British prison that had become a way of life. Slavery predates written records, still Martin Luther King, With his free spirit dreamed, inspired youth to dream big Dreams, unreal to most, Transcend "history and bad past experiences". 09

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10 I Am Running I am running, I am running I am running from the past, I am running to the future, I am running, I am running Guru tells me, you will get tired, running to and from. Stay in the present, calm and collected. But what is that present? I am running, I am running My past is there, I just experienced it. I can run from it. My future appears to be here, I can think about the future and experience it now and here, I am running, I am running Then what is present? Is this my body which is running? My breath which I can feel? Is it my mind which keeps thinking? Is it my sweat? I am running, I am running Is it the birds singing or no birds at all? Is it the fresh soothing air or the lack of it? Is it the clear blue sky or the foggy grey? I can experience it all. Is this the present? I am running, I am running |

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T Guru says: all of this but more. Experience your free spirit, Soul. It is also there. Don't just get caught up in the past, future, or immediate present, I am running, I am running Experience yourself, your indestructible soul, joy, your own permanence. One day all the outside experiences will either wean or change, I am running, I am running Experience yourself, the "Knower," who knows and experiences the past, present, and the future. That is what you are-forever, I am running, I am running *** 11

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12 Mahaveer Jayanti 2013 One morning under the blue sky, thousands of people from around the world came together in Boston for running, running with each other. Lot of us, in thousands, also got together to cheer. We had water, oranges, claps, and smiles on our faces. What a sight! People have been doing this for years, but this year something very different occurred. Two young boys, raised and educated in this same city, exploded bombs. Three people had to face death prematurely. Thousands got hurt, some lost their limbs. Suddenly the whole atmosphere changed under the same blue sky! Lot of us cried, grieved, and blamed the two boys for this horrible act. Thought came to mind that these boys in reality also had the pure perfect soul within them, full of love, bliss, and peace. The thought of a perfect soul in a person who can perform such a horrible act: Is this possible? We all do small small acts of love and hate day and night in our thoughts, actions, and speech. Somehow we justify them. We believe that it is ok to do small bad to live good and/or comfortable life. Do we realize that all of the thoughts of day and night, good or bad, can accumulate, multiply and grow within us? These thoughts dictate our actions and hide our true nature. They can make us into a respectable human being, or one who gets removed from his own home, society, city and even country. |

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On the occasion of Mahaveer's 2612th birthday celebration, we all should think of his teachings. Mahaveer said: think deep, within. Watch those thoughts, words, and actions. Observe and realize your pure soul within- full of love, bliss. Separate from worldly feelings. The soul, like the gold in mines, is mixed with dirt and stones. Pure gold looks altogether different from the dirt it originated in. The same way our pure soul is different from our outside circumstances and is within us to experience. With profound experiences of his own soul, Mahaveer was able to love Chandanbala, a soft-hearted slave, Chandkoshio, a poisonous violent snake, and Gautam, a learned noble man. Mahaveer saw the same blissful soul in all. Let us pray for bliss and peace for all victims, including the two young boys.

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My Son I am a young, able, handsome, healthy boy. I have my love, my life, my house and also my cause. Some time ago, I used to wonder: Would I ever be able to achieve all of these? But I have. I have done it all. I am living my cause, living with my love, living in my house and working in the whole world. My own capacity, ability to dream and do, amaze me. Now something even more precious, evermore important, unbelievable, has happened to me. I am going to have my own son, dearest, lovable. How this happens! Even science is amazed. Thoughts are running through me. I am cleaning the house, so my son will be able to play. I am saving, so my son will be able to dress, study, live the best possible. I am living life for my son. I have been thinking of this world, world's problems, world's concerns. Pain in this world and happiness hidden behind the suffering, sorrow, and tears. Feelings of a father and his own son, like an ocean. 14

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Now I have come to my house, and thinking about my home, my love, my son. Smiling and crying. Laughter and change of diapers. Awake full nights but sound asleep, full of dreams. Doing it all together. Someone came to me. Spoke in my ears. Son, your Son is also an independent variable. Reminded me of a science project I did in 7th grade with my father. He will live his own personal independent successful life. Learn to love him but also let him go. World is like that, we love the world, but it revolves on its own. I am the knower: pure, free, peaceful, blissful, keep knowing it all. Nothing to do either or to worry! Do not say now, but problems exist! People cry and suffer. Every human has one's own destiny in this world. But also has this blissful knower within him, to experience. Son, know it all, live it all by knowing it all and be free of all.

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T Share Our Thoughts: A Eulogy We are here to share our thoughts, condolences with his family and his Soul. We are all Souls and do know that Souls are eternal. The great saint Anandghanji has said: I became eternal and will never die. I do believe that his Soul is also eternal with profound bliss, purity, and happiness. With that deep in our mind we know that he made his journey of this life in the best possible way one could and will also try to do his best in the future. He and his eternal Soul are telling all of us and reminding all of us today that we too need to look within. We too need to live a life realizing that our physical body could end any minute and within our blissful Soul is eternal. We too have to love every Soul and our own also. We cannot live merely for this body and the relations we have because of this body. His Soul is reminding us to wake up and think beyond this body. We all have this body for a finite time. The time of this present life, as a human being, is very precious and dear to us. Utilize this time to see, feel, and observe, beyond this body. Do we feel something eternal within us? If so, then learn, think, meditate, and realize that. Today, it is very clear that our life's purpose, ultimate goal, and duty is to remember the eternal, pray about the eternal, study the eternal and also realize the eternal within us. I am reminded of a couplet by saint Kabir: 16 |

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nadIyAMgaharInAva purAnI, kisavidha pAra tuMhovere, kahata kabIrA, suno bhAI sAdho, vyAja dhokhe mULamatakhovere Today we and the immediate family have to put effort into remembering the eternal and take solace in the eternal. Our own eternal Soul is the only boat which takes us far from these worldly sorrows and reminds us of our own bliss and purity. This is not an easy, but a great path. It is a path that takes us to our own base and not appearances only. It is a path that is divine and we can all do it with each other's help, togetherness, and strength from the eternal.

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Sheela Sheela: the word means a person with character, love, beauty, and cool. True to her name, always smiling during this intense training of four years. Born like a gift of love from God, she came to our lives after a sad timeWe had lost our son Anand. Thanks to Sheela, we now have two, Anand and Umed. Anand means happiness and Umed means hope. With them and Sheela's cool nature, you can imagine the life of love, devotion, and peace. We live together, as one big family. We moved from rural Connecticut to the city of Boston. Left the house we lived in for 20 years and the town we called our own for 30. Left friends and came to Boston, so Sheela could become a fine Lady Doctor. Our two boys Vivek and Chintan and daughter-in-law Tania have made several trips to Boston to be with us, and have given us a support that we will cherish for years to come. Today we reflect on this unforgettable journey of four years. Throughout their training, Sheela and Duncan rode bikes to work in all weathers--in sun, shade, rain, snow, or even ice.

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T We had the opportunity to combine as a family under one roof, to be able to look deeper within, not outside. Because these four years, who had the time to look outside? Sheela and Duncan's love for each other and their drive to serve the sick has helped them develop an unshakable bond. We all have also found ourselves, our paths, our souls. We gained training and we found a love within to last forever. Living together, we found our own individual strengths and we thank Boston Medical Center family for all of this and more. Now we all are ready to move forward with love, commitment, and indestructible will, riding our bikes all days of our lives. It will not matter if it is sun, shade, rain, snow or even ice. *** 19

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Today I feel like a living wonder of the 21st century on this earth. I woke up in the city of Boston, in a warm house. Outside the temperature is about 18 degrees Fahrenheit and white snow covers the grounds. I freshen up, pick up the phone and dial. I could hear an hour-long lecture by Pujya gyani pandit "Yugal Kishore Ji" of Kota, Rajasthan, India. He spoke on the greatest shashtra of Jain darshan available today: "Shree Samaysar." He was explaining gatha 100 from the chapter "Karta Karm Adhikar." I felt as heavenly as I could. This adhikar challenges a deep belief of being able to help or do for others. Gatha 100 explains how a human being has suffered for ages by always thinking, doing, speaking, and thus living for others and not for one's own ever-free blissful soul. Most of us do not even hear the word soul in the whole day; forget a lecture on pure soul. I am blessed with an entire lecture every day. Thus I am ever indebted to and grateful to Jain darshan, our acharyas, our gurus, our pandits and gyanis, and groups who are doing their best to propagate this invaluable knowledge. These lectures and my study of shashtras have evoked an unshakable desire in me to see, search, learn, enjoy, observe, immerse, and celebrate my own soul.

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- icchAyeM icchAoM ko pUrI kareM to jaise pAvaka meM ghI jitanI kareM icchAyeM pUrI utanI hI bar3hatI jAyeM icchAyeM roke na rUkeM dabAne se zakti hI pAyeM phUTeM ve to samaya dekha kara jaise jvAlAmukhI maiM zuddha pahacAnatA avazya icchAoM ko para hUM inase bhinna hI atIndriya AnaMda rUpa khuda se hI, khuda meM hI, sadaiva hUM tRpta rUpa kyA icchAyeM ? kaisI icchAyeM ? ye mere se to dUra isI taraha maiM hUM vijayI sadaiva sukha zAMta rUpa zubhAzubha bhAvoM ko jAnatA unase bhinna zuddha svarUpa maiM hUM caitanya zAzvata, trikAla, nirvikArI rUpa saccidAnaMda, puNya pApa se bhI pare, jJAna zAMta rUpa. *** 21

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22 insAna hUM yA bhagavAna sabhI hUM aura bhagavAna bhI hUM. sAtha sAtha hI hUM kaise hai yaha asaMbhava saMbhava, yahI to guru ne samajhAyA hai mere pUjya paMca parameSThiyoM ne anubhava karake yathArtha rUpa se pratIti kara hI to mujhe bhI karuNA se batalAyA hai insAna hUM to karmoM se, mana-vacana-kAyA kA eka putalA hUM isI putale meM hI to bhagavAna jJAyaka bhI hai basA karmoM kA bhI udaya vilaya hai vartatA, aura yaha putalA isakA hI kartA-bhoktA bana baiThatA, para bhagavAna to jJAtA hI hai basa karma cetanA bhI hai aura karmaphala cetanA bhI yahI to insAna kA anubhava bhI hai, para sAtha sAtha ina sabako jAnane vAlA prabhu bhagavAna bhI hai hI maiM jAnane vAlA bhagavAna hI hUM, yaha putalA nahIM |

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yaha insAna kA putalA saMsAra meM bhale jiye, karmoM kA bhoktA bhI bane, para maiM to sirpha jAnatA hI hUM. maiM to jJAyaka karma cetanA, aura karmaphala cetanA donoM ko bhI jAnUM aura jAnane vAle jJAyaka ko bhI jAnUM jAnanA hI to merA kAma hai, jJAtA draSTA hI maiM hUM jJAnadarzana upayoga hI mere haiM, jJAnadarzana cetanA hI maiM hUM basa jAnate jAnate svayaM ko, svayaM ke hI vaibhava ko maiM insAna chor3a bhagavAna hI bana baiThatA hUM, bhagavAna hI hUM

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upakAra sadA maiM mAnUM upakAra terA sadaiva hI, hamezA hI phira bhI aNumAtra bhI kabhI bhI na ho sakA kisI kA mA~ ne janma diyA to bar3A hone ke liye aura phira mA~ se bhI alaga ho, phira bhI mAnUM upakAra sadA isa zarIra ko khAnapAna milA, svasthatA bhI yauvana milA, milIM jaga kI suvidhAyeM bhI para jaba zarIra hI merA nahIM, to phira kaise ho suvidhAyeM merI, maiM pRthak, phira bhI mAnUM upakAra sadA deva gurU zAstra mile, inhIM se to satajJAna bhI milA inhIM kA saMga huA, sahArA ho gayA, sadA mere pUjya mujhe to mere hI nija pada ko jAnanA, mAnanA, anubhavanA maiM paripUrNa, pRthak phira bhI mAnUM anaMta upakAra sadA

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mA~ bhI hai, zarIra bhI haiM, sata deva gurU zAstra bhI haiM zubhAzubha bhAva bhI haiM, upakAra ke bhAva bhI haiM ina sabase gahare mere nija zAzvata, apariNAmI bhAva bhI hai, maiM akelA hI nirbhaya, sukha zAMtimaya hI maiM hUM maiM mAnUM upakAra terA sadaiva hI, hamezA hI phira bhI aNumAtra bhI kabhI bhI na ho sakA kisIkA aisA svataMtra, trikAlI, akelA, kRta-kRtya tattva hUM maiM svayaM hI, isa jagata se bhinna, nirAlA tattva hUM 25

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eka bAra mAna to isa rAga aura puNya ke vikalpa meM bhagavAna sArA dravya par3A hai. eka samaya kI paryAya, vyakta dazA, usake upara merI ruci hai. to dravya dikhatA nahIM, dravya to kabhI bhI chupA hI nahIM, to phira vyakta kaise hove. hamezA hI makta jJAnAnaMda jJAyaka vyaktahI hai. dravya ke astitva ko eka bAra mAna to maiM to hamezA mukta hI hUM, to phira ye sAre baMdhana kyA? yaha baMdha mana-vacana-kAyA, karmo kA yoga hai, jo badalatA hI rahatA hai. rAga-dveSabhAvoM se saMyoga viyoga haiM, vo bhI badalate hI to rahate haiM. tU to zuddha svarUpa ina saMyogoM kA jJAyaka hI hai. karma vyakta bhI haiM, evaM sattA rUpa bhI haiM. aba maine merA zuddha svarUpa mAnA hai, isIlie maiM, ina karmoM se jur3atA nahIM. eka bAra maiMne mujhako ina karmoM se bhinna mAnA to phira maiM kaise to ina karmoM kA kartA evaM bhoktA bana bhI sakU~ maiM jJAyaka hI hUM. karma iSTa hoM to ve sukha nahIM, sabhI hI karmoM ke udaya meM, zubhAzubha bhAvoM meM, puNya-pApa meM, du:kha kA hI to vedana hai, sabhI meM baMdha hI hai. maiM to pUrNa rUpa se mukta, sirpha jJAna mAtra, svataMtra, svAvalaMbI cidAnaMdI, avinAzI, akhaMDa, abheda, sukha zAMtimaya jJAyaka hI hUM. jIva tU sadaiva karmoM se bhinna hI hai, eka bAra mAna to merA prabhu jJAyaka, pAriNAmika bhAva, acala, aDola, anupama bhI sattA rUpa hI hai, vo hI to maiM hUM, vartamAna jJAna kI paryAya meM jo paryAya mere jJAyaka kI hI hai, svayaM ko hI to jAnatA hUM svayaM hI anaMta guNoM se bharapUra sukha zAMtimaya maiM jJAyaka hI hUM. 26

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jJAna to jJAna hI hai, yaha jJAna thor3e hI karmoM para AdhArita hai. jJAna to jAnane vAlA svayaM kI hI yogyatA se jAnatA hai kaise bhI hoM karmoM ke udaya, jJAna ko isa karmoM ke udaya se koI vAstA hI nahIM. jJAna to sirpha sabhI ko jAnatA jJAyaka hI hai zubhAzubha saMyoga hoM, bhAva hoM, lekina ve to maiM nahIM, mere nahIM ina sabako jAnane vAlI jJAna kI paryAya, vyakta paryAya merI hai. jo saMyoga mere haiM hI nahIM, to phira unase saMbaMdha bhI kaise ? yaha saMbaMdha sAre he kRtrima, kSaNika. maiM to sukha zAMtimaya jJAyaka hI hUM jIva tU to jIva, eka mahA padArtha hI hai, eka bAra mAna to caitanya, jIva dravya rAga-dveSa, puNya-pApa, zubhAzubha bhAvoM se bhinna hI hai. jIva ina sabake sAtha rahatA huA bhI prathaka hI svayaM se, svayaMmeM paripUrNa hI hai. sAre ke sAre saMbaMdha to upacAra hI raha jAte haiM, maiM to asaMgI, akartA, vItarAga bhAva, vIryavAna jJAyaka hI hUM mArga to, mokSa kA, mukti kA eka hI hai tIna kAla meM, evaM tInoM loka meM, yaha zuddha buddha jIva kabhI bhI kisIse bhI koI bhI prakAra kA ekatva, mamatva karatA nahIM, kara sakatA nahIM. svayaM meM hI paripUrNa jJAnAnaMda kaise ho kartA aura bhoktA? maiM jJAyaka hI hUM jIva tU eka bAra mAna to cakravartI saMpadA aura indra sarIkhA bhoga, kAgaviSTa sama mAnata haiM, samyagadraSTi loga indora ke kAMca maMdira meM likhA hai.

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karmoM kA khela karmoM kA ye khela hai, isase bhAva hote haiM isame racanA pacanA nahIM,inase to tU dUra hai karmoM kA ye khela hai tU to zuddha caitanyamaya, AnaMda se bharapUra hai jJAna kA tU piMDa hai, aura tU hI merA apanA hai karmoM kA ye khela hai karmoM se hI zarIra hai, indriyAM aura mana buddhi hai inake vicAroM se anokhA kahIM, tU bhI mere saMga hai karmoM kA ye khela hai karma tere sAtha haiM, tU to inase dUra hI hai karma to ajIva haiM, tU to caitanya hai karmoM kA ye khela hai isa khela ko jAnate hue, khela ko pahacAnate hue mujhe to tujhako jAnanA hai, mujhe to tujhako pahacAnanA hai karmoM kA ye khela hai

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mujhe to tujhameM racanA hai, tujha hI meM to samAnA hai maiM aura tU to eka haiM, ina karmoM se to dUra hai karmoM kA ye khela hai ye khela to vinAzI hai, maiM aura tU to avinAzI haiM terA merA saMga hameza, ina karmoM se asaMgI haiM karmoM kA ye khela hai

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30 kalAkArI koI bhI kalA hai to vaha apane bhAvoM, rAgoM kA eka na eka mAdhyama se pradarzana hI hai yaha sArI kI sArI kalAeM, gAnA, likhanA citrakalA aura bhI aneka kalAeM apane hI aneka bhAvoM ko alaga alaga mAdhyama se darzAtI hai isIlie kalAoM ko dekhane, sIkhane kA mana hotA hai kyoMki mAnava ke hI mana se, rAga kA pradarzana hai rAgI mAnava ko use dekhane, sunane meM acchA lagatA hai aise mAnava ke bhAvoM ko eka nae tarIke se samAyA ho isIlie kalA sabhI ko pasaMda bhI A jAtI hai aba yadi maiM AtmA hUM to ye zubhAzubha bhAva mujhameM hote hue mere zubha bhAvoM se to alaga hI haiM ina bhAvoM meM haMsanA hai, ronA bhI hai, mere zuddhabhAvoM to eka gaMbhIra, gahana sukha-zAMti kA anubhava hai |

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to ina kalAoM ko dekhate dekhate ina zubhAzubha bhAvoM ko hI nihArate kucha gaharAI meM jA, ye bhAva kahAM utpanna ho rahe haiM, vahIM zuddha bhAva bhI maujUda hI haiM jIva zuddha ko pakar3a, ina zubhAzubha ke raMgoM meM na raMgA ina sArI kalAoM kI gaharAI meM mere hI zubhAzubha bhAvoM ke pIche hI, samIpa hI, zuddha bhAva bhI haiM unakI ora bhI draSTi kara, jevaroM kI kalAkArI nahIM parantu sonA dekha, sirpha camaka nahIM saccA hIrA hI dekha

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32 gAMdhIjI ke tIna baMdara gAMdhIjI ke tIna baMdara the, burA na dekheM, burA na sune, burA na boleM jaina darzana ke bhI tIna bola haiM, para ko na dekheM, na suneM, na boleM phira to para kA athavA para se kucha kara sakanA asaMbhava ! yaha para hai kyA ? maiM bhagavAna AtmA ko chor3a sArI duniyA bhara ke jIva-ajIva hI hai jIvadravya, mujhe hI dekha, mujhe hI suna ke jAna, mujha se hI bola ke jAna maiM jIva svayaM hI, svayaM se hI, svayaM meM hI pUrNa jJAnAnaMda, sukha zAMtimaya hUM mujhe para dravya meM dekhanA nahIM, para kA sunanA nahIM, para se bolanA nahIM maiM isa para se saMyoga ajJAna vaza hI kara kara ke to duHkhI hI hotA hU~ cAra gatiyoM kA kAraNa yahI ajJAna aura para meM jhAMkane kA kAraNa bhI jitanA para se ekatva, mamatva, kartRtva, aura bhoktRtva hai utanA hI dukha dukha kA kAraNa, dukha kI tIvratA aura dukha kA hI anubhava hai vAstava meM to maiM mujha meM hI pUrNa jJAnAnaMda, sukha zAMtimaya hUM |

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para mujha jJAnAnaMda meM jaNA avazya jAtA hai, yaha to mere hI jJAna kI zuddhatA jaNA jAye isaliye para merA to ho nahIM jAtA, ho nahIM sakatA saMyoga kA matalaba hI to pRthak hai na! pRthak thA isaliye hI saMyoga kahalAyA yaha saMsAra jIva-ajIva kA saMyoga hI hai, vAstava meM sadaiva pRthak hI khuda khuda meM paripUrNa dravya haiM. jaina darzana kA sata kaho, kudarata kA bhI sata hai yahI hamAre paMca parameSThiyoM kI anupama dena hai, maiM pUrNa jJAnAnaMda, sukha zAMtimaya hUM yaha anAdi kA darzana hI aise pUrNa sata ko itanI spaSTatA se, gaharAI se samajhA kara mAnava ko hI bhagavAna banAtA hai, mAnava terA saccA svarUpa hI siddharUpa hI hai. kyoM tU ina kSaNika saMyogoM ko apanA mAna, jAna isa saMsAra meM hI bhaTaka rahA hai. aba to tujhe jJAna milA hai, jAga, uTha khar3A ho svayaM ko saMyogoM se pRthak jAna kara eka bAra vizvAsa se kaha bhI de maiM para meM na dekhU, para ko na sunUM,para se na bolUM, maiM pUrNa jJAnAnaMda, sukha zAMtimaya hUM

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caMdanabAlA mahAvIra ke zAsana ke jainoM, pahacAno satI caMdanabAlA ko vo mahAvIra kI pyArI thI, unakI prathama ziSyA thIM mahAvIra ke zAsana kI, jina vANI kI vo pratIka haiM caMdanabAlA to janma se rAjakumArI aura apAra vaibhava dhArI karmoM ke udaya se, bikanA par3A use bAjAra meM mahAvIra taba use bacAne nahIM Aye aura use to bikanA hI par3A phira karmoM kA udaya dekho, eka seTha kI najara par3I aura seTha ne use kharIda liyA, ghara lAyA eka dAsI taraha banI caMdanabAlA rAjakumArI se dAsI taba kyA mahAvIra usake sAtha the, jinavANI kA saMga thA phira par3I najara usakI sundaratA para seThAnIjI kI hathakaDiyAM lagIM, aMdhiyAre meM baMda rahI vahI caMdanabAlA taba phira seTha A pahuMce aura dete haiM use kaThora, sUkhe bAkur3e khAne ko, bhUkha bujhAne ko aise, aise ghora kaSToM meM, pratikUla vAtAvaraNa meM bhI na bhUlI caMdanabAlA mahAvIra ko, na bhUlI jinavANI ko 34

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- usane pukArA muni ko, aura mahAvIra A pahuMce Akara bhI phira lauTe, taba vaha ho gaIM bhAva vibhora aura usane sva ko pA liyA, paribhramaNa kA nAza kiyA to phira mahAvIra ke jainoM karmoM kA udaya to hogA hI acche hoMge, bure hoMge, kaise bhI ve to hoMge hI na bhUlanA mahAvIra ko, na bhUlanA jinavANI ko yAda kara lo mahAvIra ko, bhAvoM meM basA lo jinavANI ko tabhI tuma taira pAoge, paribhramaNa ko kama kara pAoge karmoM se na Daro, aura na hI phaMso anukUlatAoM meM tuma to basa bhaja lo, basA lo mahAvIra ko sva meM va AtmA meM DUba jAo, sva ko aMdhiyAre se haTAo aura usa uSA kI lAlimA, sadaiva ke lie lAkara ina dukhoM ko, paribhramaNa ko, sadA ke lie khatma karo. *** 35

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cAritra cAritra kImahImA tomAnava ne sadA hI kI hai. rAmacaritamAnasa kyA rAma aura sItA ke hI cAritra kI bAta nahIM? sadAcAra se jInA, satya hI sunanA,bolanA,aura kahanA kyA hamArA dharma nahIM? saMyama se jInA, saMyama se khAnA, saMyama se jo dhana daulata pAI use kharacanA. saMyamI jIva hamAre samAja meM pUjanIya. baccoM ko bhI hama saMyama bacapana se hI sikhAte haiM. kyA yahI hamArA cAritra nahIM? maiM AtmA aura mere tIna ratna haiM, ratnatraya, samyakzraddhA, samyakjJAna, evaM samyakcAritra samyak matalaba pUrA saccA. jaisA hai vaisA hI zraddhA meM lAnA, jJAna meM jAnanA evaM cAritra meM apanAnA. yahI ratnatraya to hamArA dharma hai, jIva jaba svayaM ko, jJAnasvarUpa ko, jJAyaka ko, jAnatA hai to kahate haiM ki duniyA ke jJAna se hote,rAga se bhinna, svayaM ke jJAna ko, svasaMvedanase jAnatA hai. isa rAga evaM svabhAva bIca hI to hai sukSma saMdhi, samyakjJAna hI isa saMdhi ko cheda detA hai. maiM rAga kA anubhava nahIM, svabhAva kA anubhava karatA hUM. rAga, cAritraguNa kA doSa, eka samaya ke liye huA dUra. samyakzraddhA, isa jagata ke vastusvarUpa kI saccI zraddhA se merA jJAna, jJAyaka, nirmalatA se pariNamA isa rAga, cAritraguNa ke doSa ko chor3a svabhAva kA anubhava! eka samaya ke liye prabhUtere darzana ho gaye. yahI to cAritra hai, samyakzraddhA meM Tika jAnA hI cAritra hai, taba bAhara se zarIra kI avasthA bAhara kA cAritra kahalAtA hai. svabhAva, jJAyaka bhAva, AtmabhAva kA anubhava hI cAritra hai.jJAnAnaMda bhI yahI hai.

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jIva kahe kyA karanA hai jIva kahe kyA karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai hara pala, hara kSaNa, jinavANI ko samajha, aMtara meM vizvAsa hI to karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai jIva kahe kyA karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai hara pala, hara kSaNa, para dravya se, para dravya ke bhAva ko hI mujhase parAyA karanA hai. jIva kahe kyA karanA hai jIva kahe kyA karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai hara pala, hara kSaNa hote bhAvoM meM ajJAna ko jAna nija jJAnasvarUpa ko hI jAnanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai jIva kahe kyA karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai hara pala, hara kSaNa, sAta tattvoM kA jaise haiM vaise hI mAna sahI zraddhAna hI to karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai

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jIva kahe kyA karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai hara pala, hara kSaNa, maiM deha nahIM, na hUM saMyoga yahI to mAnanA jAnanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai jIva kahe kyA karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai mujhameM hote rAgAdi bhAvoM se bhinna hI mujha caitanya ko jAna usameM hI ahaM karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai jIva kahe kyA karanA hai, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai maiM hUM hI zuddha buddha jIva, yahI jAna liyA, mAna liyA to phira karanA hI kyA mujhameM hI to ramaNa karanA hai jIva kahe kyA karanA haiM, jIva kahe kyA karanA hai

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- jJAtA - dRSTA sabhI kahate haiM ki AtmArthI bananA hai, mokSa mArga para calanA hai to jJAtA-dRSTA bana, tU jJAtA - dRSTA bana, kisakA jJAtA - dRSTA ? kaise jJAtA - dRSTA? aura Age phira kauna banatA hai jJAtA - dRSTA ? ye sArI duniyA jo lagatI hai mujhe lubhAvanI, dekhane yogya, jAnane yogya maiM isako jAnUM, acchI taraha jAnUM, phira dekhUM, kyA yaha hai jJAtA - dRSTA ? mere zarIra ko bhI jAnUM pahacAnUM, saMvAruM, usakA dhyAna rakhUM phira nihArUM bhI mere ghara parivAra saMbaMdhI aura mitroMko bhI jAnUM, pahacAnUM yAda karUM mere khudake vicAroM, bhAvoM, mana, buddhi kI mAnyatAoM ko bhI jAnUM phira isa saMsAra meM to haiM anaMta vidyAeM, inameM se thor3I bahuta pasaMda karake unheM jAnUM, pahacAnUM, unameM pAraMgata banane kA prayAsa karUM, taba to itane sabake jJAtA-dRSTA banane ke lie to ye jiMdagI bhI kama hI par3egI. bhale maiM kahUM maiM to sirpha jAna hI rahI hUM, kucha bhI badalane kA to merA maksada hI nahIM 39

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- 40 AtmArthI tujhe to duniyA nahIM, nija AtmA ko jAnanA hai, usakA anubhava karanA hai mAnA duniyA hai raMgabiraMgI badalane vAlI, para terA Atmatattva bhI hai na dhruva, avinAzI, AnaMda se bharapUra, zAMta aura ramaNIya use jAnakara to dekha, usakA AnaMda eka kSaNa kyA, eka samaya ke liye to cakha, phira hI tU vAstava meM, sacce rUpa meM isa duniyA ko jAna pAyegA ye duniyA to aise hI anAdi anaMta calatI rahegI Atmatattva terA Atmatattva bhI zuddha, cidAnaMdI zAzvata hai isa duniyA kA sahI jJAtA - dRSTA hai, jo jJAnAnaMdI kahalAtA hai *** |

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dAne dAne para likhA hai duniyA kahatI hai, dAne dAne para likhA hai khAne vAle kA nAma, aura aisA mAnatI bhI hai to phira kyA isa dAne ko khAne kI kriyA aura khAte khAte hotA bhAva bhI likhe hI haiM na! rAga-dveSa ke bhAva to hote hI haiM, ho hI jAte haiM na! ina rAga-dveSa ke bhAvoM ke garajate bAdaloM ke pIche zveta sUrya kI rauzanI bhI hai ina bhAvoM ko jAnane pahacAnane vAlA bhI hai inhIM bhAvoM ke pIche jJAna bhAva, vItarAga bhAva zAzvata hai, saumya hai, zAMta aura gaMbhIra bhI hai sadA ke liye ekasA hI rahatA hai aisA yaha bhAva sthira stambha sA AdhAra hai, yaha maiM hUM, merA hai isI paMcama bhAva meM mujhe sukha, caina, sukUna milatA hai, zAMti, niDaratA kA bhI anubhava hai isI bhAva ko guru ne batAyA, samajhAyA hai isI bhAva se bharapUra umar3atI maiM hUM, maiM hI hUM

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divAlI divAlI AI mahAvIra kI yAda hai lAI, mahAvIra ke guNoM ko yAda kara, Atama diyA pragaTAyeM svayaM ke guNoM ko jAnakara, jIvana meM prakAza lAyeM Aja kA dina hai maMgalakArI, zubha aura AnaMdI Aja kA dina to kitanA anokhA, mahAvIra ne paMcama gati hai pAI, gautama ne paMcama jJAna pAyA aura sudharmA svAmI bane zruta kevalI. kaisA to anokhA hai yaha avasara, kare sabako zuddha bhAvoM meM vibhora apane bhI bhAgya ko toleM to itanA bhArI ki tolA hI nA jAya mahAvIrane gautama ko AtmA hai isakA anubhava karAyA gautamane sudharmA svAmI ko samajhAyA hama bhI to isa guru ziSya paramparA meM haiM, aura yahI paraMparA hai guruoM kI, vItarAgatA aura jJAna kI vaMzAvalI sadaguruoM ne utkRSTha puruSArtha kara, svayaM kI AtmA ko pAyA aura hameM bhI samajhAyA

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I guruoM ke puruSArtha ke hI to ye die haiM, inhI ke puruSArtha kA hI to zrRMgAra hai, diye jalAyeM aura sva puruSArtha ko pragaTAyeM karmoM ko jalAyeM aura svataMtratA ko pAyeM, guruoM kA upakAra kabhI na bhUleM, guruoM kA anamola sAtha kabhI na chor3eM kitane haiM hama bhAgyazAlI ki mile haiM hamako vItarAgI guru aura vItarAgI jinavANI aba to guruoM ke saMga raha roja jinavANI ko sunanA hai svAtmA ko avazya hI pahacAna roja divAlI manAnA hai *** 43

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T par3osI ghara ho to aisA ki par3osI bhI acche hoM, pAsa meM raheM samaya para madada kareM, acche svabhAva ke hoM roja roja kI khaTakhaTa na ho, ghar3I ghar3I daravAje para Akara khar3e na ho jAyeM, mujhe merI svataMtratA bhI deM ghara bhI zAMta, sUrya ke prakAza se ujjavalita, khulA, kisI bhI prakAra kI takalIphoM se alaga ho prabhu mujhe to donoM hI jaise cAhie the vaise hI mile, lekina pAgala maiM merI samajha meM hI gar3abar3a ho gaI prabhu maiM to par3osI ke ghara ko hI merA samajha baiThA, roja usIkI ciMtA, usIkI saphAI aura usIse pyAra karane lagA. aba to vo ThaharA Akhira par3osI, kabhI bigar3a jAya, to kabhI mujhe parezAna kara DAle par3osI kI to bAta hI kyA karUM? vo to mujhe hara do ghaMTe kucha na kucha ke lie bulAye maiM bhI usIkA vicAratA, usIkI prazaMsA karatA. yahAM taka ki gaurava bhI to maiM usIkA karane lagA galatI bhI merI hI hai, jaba maiM hI usake ghara meM rahane lagA to vo bicArA kyA kare ? mere khudake zAMta prakAzamAna, ujjavalita, AnaMdI ghara ko pUrA hI bhUla gayA. merA ghara bhI hai, usakA bhI mujhe bhAsa nahIM isa par3osI kI parezAniyAM ghaTatIM bar3hatI, merI to becainI, AkulatA, kabhI ronA, kabhI haMsanA jArI rahatA eka dina acAnaka maiM mere eka bahuta hI purAne sacce acche mitra se milA, usane kahA bhAI ye kyA ho gayA ? tumhArA to itanA sundara ghara thA. kahAM gayA? ye kisake ghara meM raha rahe ho ? vo to bar3e Azcarya se mujhe bahuta samajhAne lagA. use lagA ki maiM to pAgala ho gayA hUM, mujhe merA hI ghara mAlUma nahIM mere dosta mujhe bar3e hI gusse ke sAtha pyAra aura utsAha se samajhAyA 44

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I aba mujhe thor3A thor3A khyAla AyA hai. maiM mere par3osIse thoDA thoDA svataMtra ho rahA hUM mere khuda ke ghara ko yAda kara, usake guNoM ko yAda kara, usIkA dhyAna kara rahA hUM mitra, maiM avazya eka dina mere khuda ke hI ghara lauTUMgA aura phira sadaiva ke liye vahAM hI rahUMgA yaha anitya, vinAzI mujhe parezAniyoM se pAgala kara de aura maiM use parezAna karatA rahUM aise par3osI ko avazya hI dUra karUMgA vo par3osa meM bhale raheM para maiM to mere hI ghara meM rahUMgA aba par3osI bhI khuza aura svataMtra ; maiM bhI AnaMdI aura svataMtra. aba maiM par3osI ko par3osI kI taraha saMbhAlatA hUM, para rahatA to mere khuda ke hI ghara meM, prabhu khuda ke hI ghara meM *** 45

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puruSArtha puruSArtha kise kaheM? kaise kareM? kyA kareM? kitane prazna uThate haiM vo bhI isa caMcala mana meM aura mithyAtvI buddhi meM. guruvANI to milI hai lekina sAmane guru nahIM jisase pUcha sakeM, sAtha samAgama kara sakeM, jise apanA guru kaha sakeM tIrthaMkaroM kI Adi se A rahI ye paramparA aura sAtha meM jinavANI, vairAgya kI vANI Atmadharma kI vANI, ise par3hate A rahe, samajhate A rahe, isIkA samAgama karate A rahe "maiM AtmA hUM", isa zarIra se alaga, mana buddhi se pare, eka tatva hUM isako mAnanA, jAnanA, isI meM vizvAsa, zraddhA draDha karanA hI to dharma hai isameM samAyeM sArI mAnyatAyeM, lagatA hai sAre praznoM ke uttara maiM AtmA hUM aura sAre jIva bhI merI hI taraha AtmAyeM haiM isIse to ahiMsA, aparigraha, aura prakRti ke prati sammAna hai, isImeM pUrA vairAgya, apAra karuNA aura asIma pyAra hai isa zarIra meM rahanA hai aura azarIrI jo sAtha sAtha hai use jAnanA hai isIlie to puruSArtha karanA hai aura isIko puruSArtha kahate haiM sAre ajIva ko ajIva kI taraha hI jAnanA hai, mAnanA hai, pahacAnanA hai jIva ke guNoM ko bhI jAnanA hai, unakA anubhava bhI karanA hai inhIM indriyoM se, isa mana buddhi se, aura dhIre dhIre sAre rAga dveSa mere nahIM, mere ho sakate nahIM, unakA bhI anubhava karanA hai.

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isIlie khUba cetAvanI se, khUba dhagasa se, jora zora se, pUrI himmata aura nirbhayatA se puruSArtha karanA hai, kucha bhI ho mujhe DaranA nahIM, maiM to zuddha Atmatattva hUM mujhe to koI AMca bhI na de pAe, so pUrI nirbhayatA se puruSArtha karanA hai jinavANI milI, guruvANI milI, to phira guru bhI haiM mile, isa vizvAsa ke sAtha Age hI Age bar3hanA hai. usa nirvikalpa, saccidAnaMdI, zuddha svarUpI tarapha hI prasthAna karanA hai maiM hUM hI pUrNa, jJAnAnaMda, zuddha svarUpI to prasthAna bhI kyA ? puruSArtha bhI kyA ? AnA nahIM, jAnA nahIM, pUrNa akartA, apariNAmI, svataMtra, zuddha use karanA hI kyA? jo hai, vahI hai, basa eka bAra mAna le tU sata ko, phira to dekhe sadaiva tU sata ko

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prabhu tujha saMga prabhu tujha saMga tujha saMga hI mujhe rahanA hai, isa duniyA meM merA koI gharAnA nahIM yahAM merA koI ThikAnA nahIM, isa duniyA meM merA koI visAmA nahIM prabhu tujha saMga tujha saMga hI mujhe rahanA hai, isa zarIra meM mujhe rahanA nahIM ye ghara makAna merA ThikAnA nahIM, parivAra mitroMmeM merA visAmA nahIM prabhu tujha saMga tujha saMga hI mujhe rahanA hai, isa zarIra se mujhe kucha jAnanA nahIM indriyoMse mujhe kucha pahacAnanA nahIM, atIndriya jJAnakA to jJAyaka tU prabhu tujha saMga tujha saMga hI mujhe rahanA hai, duniyAke du:kha sukha mere nahIM zubha azubha bhAva bhI mere nahIM, zuddha nirmala AnaMdakA to AnaMdI tU prabhu tujha saMga tujha saMga hI mujhe rahanA hai 48

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I prabhu bhajana prabhu tujhe roja bhajate haiM, lekina prabhu tU kauna jAnA hI nahIM isa vANI se bhajate haiM, vo to karmaraja, prabhu tU to caitanya hai isa zarIra se namate haiM, vo to jar3a, prabhu tU to jJAnamaya hai rAga bhAvoM se jUM tujhe, prabhu tU to vItarAgI hai prabhu tujhe bhajUM taba eka kSaNa to tere zuddha svarUpa ko bhajUM tUne ye svarUpa manuSya bhava meM hI pAkara batAyA, use to yAda kara, praNAma kara, bhaja kara, vahI svarUpa mujha meM hI nihAru tere nirmala, zuddha, isa saMsAra se bhinna ko bhI bhaja lUM prabhu tujhe bhajUM taba tere apAra, asImita jJAna ko bhajUM tUne kaise to isa jJAna ko pragaTa kara batAyA vo jAnUM tU jaisA jJAyaka hai, Aja pragaTa meM, tujhe pUrI duniyA hai bhaje vaijJAya chupA hai mujhameM, use bhI to yAda kara lUM prabhu tujhe bhajUM taba tere cidAnaMdI, AnaMda hI AnaMda ko bhajUM tU prabhu AnaMdI aura maiM vyAkula, becaina, aura hUM dukhiyArA phira jaba yAda karUM tujhe, lage merA bhI to dukha hai bhAgA isa AnaMda ko hI grahaNa kara lUM, hara kSaNa tujhe hI bhaja lUM 49

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prabhu tujhe bhajUM taba dikhe terA vItarAgI, zuddha, jJAyaka, cidAnaMdI svarUpa tUne pragaTa kiyA terA sarva svarUpa utkRSTa puruSArthase, tUne to isa asaMbhava ko kara batAyA hai saMbhava, usa puruSArtha ko bhajUM maiM bhI terese prerita ho jagA lUM mere puruSArtha ko prabhu mere puruSArtha ko prabhu tujhe bhajUM taba dekhU tujhe svaAtma tattva meM lIna isa sArI duniyA se dUra dUra prakAza hI prakAza meM tUne hI batAyA hai, ki bhajate bhajate honA mujhe bhI lIna mere svayaM ke Atma tattva meM, hoUM maiM lIna eka kSaNa ko prabhu tujhe bhajUM maiM, saca bhajUM maiM, merA bhajana saphala karUM maiM usa dina jaba pAUM tujhe mujhameM, duniyA sArI bhUla zarIra-ghara-parivAra, bhUla lIna hoUM tujha-mujha zuddha tattva meM usI dina bhajanA merA saphala ho aura bhajUM maiM saca meM 50

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prabhu zraddhA ho merI prabhu zraddhA ho merI sva meM tujha taraha, to pAUM maiM svacAritra, banUM maiM vimukha dukhoM se, AkulatA aura vyAkulatA se, aura pAUM maiM atIndriya sukha nirAkulatA kA / banI hai ye merI dazA anaMtAnaMta samaya se, viparIta rahI hai zraddhA evaM cAritra bhavoM se prabhu zraddhA ho merI sva meM tujha taraha, to pAUM maiM svacAritra, banUM maiM vimukha dukhoM se prabhu bhaTaka rahA hUM, maiM jaba se nikalA nigoda se, phira maiMne bitAyA anaMtA anaMta samaya ina cAroM gatiyoM meM, prabhu bhaTakA hUM maiM tInoM loka aura unake sAre kSetroM meM banI hai ye merI dazA kyoMki viparIta rahI zraddhA aura cAritra merA, jJAna ne to jAnA sva ko aura para ko lekina maiMne to para ko hI jAnA merA, aura usI meM merA hita mAnA phira merA upayoga bhI laga sake sirpha para ke hI jJAna meM, jJAna hai merA viparIta aura hai parAdhIna indriyoM kA isIlie prabhu maiM bhUlatA rahA sva ko, aura mere atIndriya zAzvata sukha ko prabhu zraddhA ho merI sva meM tujha taraha, to pAUM maiM svacAritra, banUM maiM vimukha dukhoM se prabhu tUne to kaisA ajAyaba puruSArtha kiyA, DhUMr3ha nikAlA sva ko aise apAra saMsAra meM se saMsAra to hai kitanA bar3A, kitanA dilacaspa, bhUlatA hai aura lubhAtA hai isa jIva ko kSaNa kSaNa meM tUne to jahAM najara DAlI, dekhA sva ko, pahacAnA sva ko, vRddha ko dekhA to zarIra kI anityatA ko jAnA, rogI ko dekhA to akartA pane kA Atma guNa pahacAnA, murde ko dekhA to isa zarIra se alaga sva AtmA ko pA liyA aura pA liyA zAzvata sadaiva kA parama sukha prabhu zraddhA ho merI sva meM tujha taraha, to pAUM maiM svacAritra, banUM maiM vimukha dukhoM se

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bhAvoM kA khela mana meM azubha bhAva A hI jAte haiM, to phira mana meM dukha hotA hai, jIva tU aisA kaise vicAratA hai itanA jinavANI, guruvANI, vItarAgatA ko par3hatA hai phira bhI azubha bhAva ! aura jIva azubha ko yAda kara dukhI hotA hai guruvANI to milI hai tere zuddha jJAyaka bhAva ko bhAvane ke liye usa para ekAgra hone ke liye azubha bhAva A gaye to unake kAraNa the bAhara, kAraNoM ko bhI tU nahIM haTA sakatA aura apane bhAvoM ko bhI tU roka nahIM sakatA, badala nahIM sakatA jIva tU terA svayaM kA hI puruSArtha kara, ki tU svayaM to ina bhAvoM se bhinna, alaga, jJAyaka bhAva hI hai tU to ina bhAvoM ke khela ko sirpha, kevala, jAna hI sakatA hai, dekha hI sakatA hai ye azubha bhAva tere nahIM, tU inheM kara bhI nahIM sakatA to bhI hote haiM na? kyoM hote haiM? kyoM ye mujhe satAte haiM? kyoM dukha dete haiM ? to guruvANI ko yAda kara, ina bhAvoM se svayaM ko bhinna dekha, alaga dekha svayaM ko zuddha, nirmala, kevala, jAnane vAlA hI dekha. ina bhAvoM ke khela meM hI tU na par3a zubha bhAva to aura bhI kaThina haiM. ve to acche, aMtaraMga meM mIThe lagate haiM sArI duniyA bhI unheM saMvAratI hai. unhIMko mAna sammAna detI hai. jIva tU to sAvadhAna ho le ina zubha bhAvoM ko bhI apane svayaM ke na mAna. inake kAraNa bhI bAhara hI haiM

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I are tU to ina bhAvoM kA khela hI chor3a, inameM kahIM bhI jIta hI nahIM, hAra hI hAra hai tujhe khela meM jItanA hai to isa khela ke jJAyaka bhAva ko, isa jJAna kI dhArA ko pakar3a le tU hai, yaha jJAyaka bhAva, sirpha jAnane vAlA hI to tU hai guruvANI suna, bhakti pUjA kara, inameM bhI lIna ho jA. lIna ho jA matalaba tere jJAyakabhAva meM hI to lIna honA hai. guruvANI tere svayaM ke jJAyaka ko hI samajhAtI hai vahI to terI bhakti hai. isI bhAva meM lIna siddha prabhu hI to tere pUjya haiM, tere dhyeya haiM kara le milana isa jJAyaka bhAva se, jIta le tU ina bhAvoM ke khela ko. jJAyaka bhAva hI tU hai yahI terA svayaM kA hai, isake kAraNa bhI tujhameM hI haiM. isI para terA svAmitva hai, yahI terA jJAna hai yahI terA svayaM kA darzana hai, sukha hai, AdhAra hai| jJAyaka bhAva, jJAyaka bhAva hI mere jIne kA AsarA hai, merI mAnyatA kA sahArA hai mujhe aMtarmukha hone ke liye, mere prabhu se milana karane ke liye, yahI merA dhyAna hai, dhyeya hai sukha hai, merA svayaM kA hai, merA hI hai merA *** 53

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T maryAdA bacapanase hI mA~-bApane sikhAyA maryAdAse rahanA cAhiye, maryAdAse uThanA baiThanA, maryAdAvAle kapar3e pahananA, maryAdAse hI bAtacIta karanA, jInA hI maryAdAse taba to isa lokamaryAdA kA artha hI yahI samajhe the ki samAja meM samAjavAle, jise, jisa tarahake vyavahAra, kapar3e Adi ko ucita samajheM vaise hI yadi hama raheM, to hama maryAdAse jI raheM haiM samAja meM qhuzI se, sabhI kI AMkhomeM acche bana rahane kA yahI eka tarIkA hai. sabake saMga, milajhula kara rahanA hI saccA rahanA hai isameM kabhI kabhI samajhaute ke liye thor3A jhUTha yA corI bhI huI to kyA jinazAsanakA adhyayana zurU kiyA to bar3A Azcarya hI huA saccI maryAdA kyA hai, maryAdA se, maryAdA meM kaise jIyeM ? jinazAsana to kahatA hai, samAjako, aura samAja jo ucita samajhatA hai, use chor3a samAja to badalatA hI rahatA hai, tU to tere sva meM zAzvata ko pahacAna yadi tU khudako pahacAne bagaira samAja jaise jItA hai, vaise jie to yaha terI maryAdA kA bhaMga hai| tU to khuda ke vasUloM ko bhI bhUla baiThegA, sata se bhI dUra ho jAyegA 54

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jinazAsana kI maryAdA eka eka dravya taka jAtI hai jIva aura ajIva donoM dravya hI svayaM ke hI kSetra, kAla aura bhAva meM hI maryAdita haiM. jIva, jIva meM hI pUrNa aura ajIva, ajIva meM aisI lokottara maryAdA ko samajha to lokamaryAdA bhI samajha meM AyegI jIva tU samAja meM bhI kisI bhI aura kA curAye binA svayaM meM hI svayaM ke hI vizvAsa se rahegA to isa bhava meM sukhI hogA terA hI sata jJAna tujhe sata bhare jIvana jIne kI zakti degA lokottara maryAdA ko gaharAiyoM se samajhegA to bhavobhava sudhAra legA isa bhava meM bhI khuza aura bhavobhava meM bhI khuzahAla hI rahegA tU nirbhaya, niDara, nizcinta bana svayaM meM hI, svayaM se hI khuzahAla ho uThegA duniyA to hamezA se hai, aura rahegI. tU to ina sabase alaga tujha AtmA ko pahacAna tere hI zAzvata tatva ko jAna, mAna, aura dekha bhI sakegA

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mA~ aura beTA eka mA~ nanhe bacce ko khuda kA hI dUdha pilAtI hai bAhara kA kucha bhI use nahIM detI so baccA svastha rahe acche se bar3A hove vaise hI jinavANI mA~ bhI apane baccoM se kahatI hai dharma sIkho, namo arihaMtANaM ko yAda karo aura acche se bar3e ho baccA jaise bar3A hotA hai, mA~ use bAhara kA sikhAtI hai. khelane, bar3hane, bAhara skUla bagairaha lekara jAtI hai. dhIre dhIre duniyA kA jJAna karatI hai. jinavANI mA~ bhI kahatI hai jaya jineMdra sIkho tIrthaMkaroM ko jAno. inake cAritra ko, inake bhavoM ko, inake puruSArtha ko par3ho, jAno, pahacAno baccA aura bhI bar3A hotA hai, mA~ bApa use Age par3hane ke liye paradeza bhI bhejate haiM. duniyA dekhe acchI skUloM meM par3he, honahAra bane. jinavANI mA~ bhI use sAre azubha se pare rakhatI hai use zubha sikhAtI hai. dayA, dAna, vrata, tapa, pUjA Adi kA muhAvarA karAtI hai bacce ne aba par3ha liyA, ghara Aneko taiyAra hai, taba phira mA~ bApa kahate haiM, use samajhAte haiM beTA ghara aura ghara ke dhaMdhe to haiM hI, tU thoDA bAhara kA bhI anubhava le kaise ye duniyA calatI hai sIkha le, jinavANI mA~ bhI kahatI hai, bhavya jIva tU isa duniyA ko gaura se dekha. isakI anityatA ko pahacAna, isameM bhare dukhoM ko bhI samajha aura jo tujhe sukha lagate haiM ve bhI kitane kSaNika haiM, tere prabhu jaise to nahIM 56

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I aba baccA javAna, duniyA dekha parakha ghara Ane ko taiyAra ho gayA hai. mA~ bApa usake liye ghara bAra sajA usake svAgata kI taiyArI meM haiM. unheM lagatA hai beTA ghara AyegA, ghara meM to jaise jAna A jAegI jinavANI mA~ bhI kahatI hai bhavya jIva aba tU tere sva ko jAnane pahacAnane taiyAra hai. tU isa saMsAra se bhinna aisA jIva tatva hai. jar3a zarIra nahIM caitanyamaya hai, ghara parivAra se baMdhA nahIM svataMtra hai tU to tere prabhu jaisA hI prakAzamAna, cidAnaMdI, ajara, amara, aDola, nirbhaya, isa saMsAra se pare isa saMsAra kA jJAnI, jJAnasvarUpa jJAyaka hI hai| jinavANI mA~ use sva, nija kA ghara, nija kA pada, nija kI mahAnatA batAtI hai, samajhAtI hai anubhava karAtI hai. aura bhavya jIva prasthAna karatA hai. isa saMsAra se pare siddhatva kI ora prasthAna karatA hai. khuda ke mukta hone ke mArga para mokSa ke mArga para, isa avinAzI jIva meM hI tanmaya hone avinAzI AnaMda aura 1 sampUrNa jJAna kI tarapha hI jAtA hai dekho isI taraha bhavya jIva khudake vinAzI nahIM avinAzI ghara jAtA hai vo to ghara bAra aura saMsAra meM nahIM saMsAra se pare nija ghara jAtA hai zubha azubha bhAvoM se bhI bhinna zuddha bhAvoM meM hI tanmaya ho jAtA hai svayaM ke Atmatattva meM lIna, jJAnamaya, AnaMdamaya, prabhumaya ho jAtA hai| *** 57

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merI bhI eka mA~ hai pyArI pyArI sabase nyArI behada dulArI mA~ jisane janma mujhe diyA, kaI kaSTa sahe aura dUdha pilAyA bar3A kiyA, par3hAyA, sabhI cIjoM meM pAraMgata banAne kA prayAsa kiyA, kyA kyA nahIM kiyA mA~ bApa ne mere liye, sArI duniyA kA jJAna sikhAyA duniyA meM svamAna se khar3I ho sakU, acche pati, acchA kula kA nAma le sakU saphala banUM maiM, sabase nyArI banUM maiM, usake lie dina rAta to eka kiye sAtha sAtha jaina dharma bhI sikhAyA guru ne sikhAyA ki saccI mA~ to jinavANI hai, vohI tuje terA saccA svarUpa batAtI hai tU ye zarIra nahIM, AtmA hai, sikhalAtI hai, vo bhI kaisI AtmA, paramAtmA bhI hai tujhameM hI chipA dekho to acaraja! eka mA~ jisane saMvArA baDA kiyA aura eka mA~, jisane AtmA aura paramAtmA taka kA rahasya samajhAyA eka mA~ jisane duniyAdArI meM pAraMgata banAyA, aura eka mA~ jisane duniyA ko hI anitya samajhAyA eka mA~ jisane duniyA ke sAre sukha nyochAvara kiye, aura eka mA~ jisane siddhoM kA sukha samajhAyA eka mA~ jisane ghara, kuTuMba aura samAja meM svamAna aura mitratA se jInA sikhalAyA aura eka mA~ jisane saccA AtmA kA saMga sikhAyA aura kahA, vahI to avinAzI satsaMga hai, vahI karane yogya hai 58

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dekho to kitanI bhAgyazAlI maiM eka mA~ jisane ye durlabha manuSya bhava diyA, isI bhava meM to milI jinavANI mA~ donoM mA~ se jJAna milA, pyAra milA, upakArI rahUM maiM donoM kI sadA aura hUM upakArI usa guru kI jisane samajhAI jinavANI mA~ duniyA jAnI, usakI anityatA hai jAnI, arihaMta, siddha jAne, unase hai prIta baMdhAnI maiMne saccA sAtha hai pAyA, aura ye sAtha aba to janma janmAntara kA hai, mA~, merA sAtha nA chor3anA, mujhe bhUlane nA denA, jIva hUM maiM, jIva ke sAtha hI rahUMgI. sabhI ajIva se pare tujha saMgAtha hI rahUMgI 59

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meghadhanuSa sUraja to zveta, zuddha, urjA se bharapUra hai, lekina usakI kiraNoM meM, varSA meM raMgIna, sAta raMgoM se ramaNIya,dhanuSa najara AtA hai, hamArI najara usa dhanuSa para par3atI hai, hama use bahuta hI dhyAna se dekhate haiM, kyoM ki mAlUma hai thor3I kSaNoM meM ye lupta ho jAyegA. dhanuSa ke sAta raMga, raMgoM meM raMga, itane lobhAyamAna dilacaspa hote haiM ki hama to saba kucha bhUla, kucha samaya usameM hI lIna ho jAte haiM hama isa saMsAra meM, isakI badalatI paryAyoM meM, isake raMgoM meM, aise to lupta ho jAte haiM ki bhavoMbhava taka sArI jiMdagI ise hI jAnane, isakI anaMta badalatI paryAyoM ko jAnane ina paryAyoM ke badalate raMga ko dekhane, una raMgoM ke AnaMda kA anubhava karane, itane to vyasta rahate haiM, ki eka jindagI to bahuta hI kama lagatI hai. isIlie mAnava ke pAsa samaya kaba hai ? kahAM hai? vo to itanA vyasta mana se, tana se, vacana se ki samaya hI nahIM

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aba eka AtmaprApta sadguru haiM, vo to sirpha zveta, zuddha, urjA se paripUrNa sUrya ko hI dekhate haiM, unheM varSA ke bAdala nahIM dikhate, unheM bUMdeM nahIM bhigAtIM, meghadhanuSa nahIM dikhatA dhanuSa ke sAta raMga, una raMgoM kI anaMta paryAyeM bhI nahIM dikhatI, nahIM lubhAtI nahIM romAMcita karatIM, unake jJAna meM bhI, raMgoM kI aura unakI paryAyoM kI jAnane, samajhane pahacAnane kI utsukatA nahIM hotI. vo to jaise una sabase pare sUrya kI zvetatA meM zuddhatA meM, urjA meM hI lIna rahate haiM. use hI jAnate haiM, usIkA anubhava karate haiM usa jJAnI ke pAsa samaya hotA hai, vo zuddhatA ko pAtA hai, phira sAre raMga usake jJAna meM jhalakate haiM, aura vo ina sAre raMgoM ko, unakI anaMta paryAyoM ko bhI dekhatA hai, jAnatA hai svayaM to sUrya meM hI ramaNa karatA hai, usIkI urjA kA anubhava karatA hai, AnaMdita rahatA hai

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maiM yahI aparAdha maiM yahI aparAdha hara bAra karatA hUM AtmA hUM AdamI se pyAra karatA hUM isa pyAra meM aMdhA hI rahatA hUM AtmA hUM AdamI se pyAra karatA hUM pyAra bhI eka nazA hai, jisake rUpa aneka, naze meM hI DUbA rahatA hUM AtmA hUM AdamI se pyAra karatA hUM maiM yahI aparAdha hara bAra karatA hUM AtmA hUM AdamI se pyAra karatA hUM pyAra kA rAga banAtA aMdhA mujhe, AtmA hUM AdamI se pyAra karatA hUM pyAra ke mulAyama gaddoM se hI maiM khuda hI AtmA ko DhAMke rakhatA hUM AtmA hUM AdamI se pyAra karatA hUM eka bAra maiM pyAra se bhI upara uTha, mujha AtmA ko hI dekhatA hUM AtmA hUM eka bAra bhagavAna bana, AtmA se pyAra karatA hUM aba yaha aparAdha na kara, maiM mujhameM hI ajara amara sukha pAtA hUM AtmA hUM AtmA se pyAra karatA hUM

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I vedana manuSya ko vicAra Ate haiM, bhAva Ate haiM, vedana hotA hai yaha saba hI vartamAna kI paryAya meM hI to hotA hai cAhe vedana purAnI yAdoM kA hove, athavA bhaviSya ke vicAroM kA athavA vartamAna kI paristhiti kA vedana zarIra kA hove, zarIra ke saMbaMdhoM kA ho to ve sAre padArtha to jaise haiM vaise hI rahate haiM. svayaM ke guNoM meM hI rahate haiM. zarIra bacapana se bUr3hA hI hotA hai bhale hama usake bAre meM hamezA javAnI hI vicAreM zarIra jar3a hai, to sar3atA galatA hI hai, bhale hama use sundara banA kara kitanA bhI TikAeM. Akhira to zmazAna hI jAtA hai. isI taraha caitanya sadaiva avinAzI, cidAnaMdI, vIryavAna, zAMtimaya hI hai vartamAna meM hamArI dRSTi jisa aura hotI hai vahI anubhava, vedana hama kara hI lete haiM. zarIra aura para padArthoM kI ora dRSTi hai, to vedana bhI kSaNika sukha athavA AkulatA-vyAkulatA aura dukha kA hI hai 63

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T 64 isI taraha yadi hamArI dRSTi, caitanya kI ora jhukatI hai to hamAre amUlya Atmatattva kA hI vedana hai hamAre prabhu ke darzana hote haiM. zAzvata AnaMda, zAMti, vIrya kA vedana hotA hai. aMtara to prakAzita ho jAtA hai to phira mAnava tujha para hI hai tU kaise anubhava kare vicAra kare, vedana kare . tujha nija pada kA vicAre samajhe, Atmatattva kI mahimA lA usakI ora jhuke to tU AtmA kA hI vedana kara zAzvata sukha hI pAye ***

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sajI bhI to maiM hI hUM maiM to puruSArtha hI karatI hUM, dina rAta hI karatI hUM vicAra mere bhAva mere, anekAnta meM kho jAyeM to phira samyaka ekAMta ko hI DhUMDha nikAlatI hUM maiM to puruSArtha hI karatI hUM, dina rAta hI karatI hUM anAdi kI mAnyatA yahI kahane lagatI hai mujhe ki yaha ghar3A hai pAnI kA to miTTI kA hI manavAtI haiM maiMne mAna liyA saca meM hI ghar3A to hai miTTI kA hI to isa sata kA aTUTa vizvAsa hI pakkA karatI hUM maiM to puruSArtha hI karatI hUM, dina rAta hI karatI hUM vicAra mere bhAva mere, anekAnta meM kho jAyeM to phira samyaka ekAMta ko hI DhUMDha nikAlatI hUM maiM to puruSArtha hI karatI hUM, dina rAta hI karatI hUM vicAra mere bhAva mere mujha indriyoM meM yadi kho jAyeM to bahirmukha indriyoM ko mujha ghara hI lAtI hUM mujha ghara AI indriyoM meM ghara kA hI sukha caina ghara ke AnaMda kA hI rasapAna hI to karatI hUM

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maiM to puruSArtha hI karatI hUM, dina rAta hI karatI hUM vicAra mere bhAva mere, anekAnta meM kho jAyeM to phira samyaka ekAMta ko hI DhUMDha nikAlatI hUM maiM to puruSArtha hI karatI hUM, dina rAta hI karatI hUM maiMne jo pAyA mujhameM hai amUlya vo mujha ko hI usako pakaDUM bhI kaise merA hI to hai vaha pUrA mere hI caitanya kA rasapAna hara jagaha karatI hUM bhaTakI bhI maiM, saMvarI bhI maiM, sajI bhI to maiM hI haM maiM to puruSArtha hI karatI hUM, dina rAta hI karatI hUM vicAra mere bhAva mere, anekAnta meM kho jAyeM to phira samyaka ekAMta ko hI DhUMDha nikAlatI hUM maiM to puruSArtha hI karatI hUM, dina rAta hI karatI hUM

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| samaya samaya kI hai bAta, ye to samaya kI hai bAta dekhUM cAroM aura to dikhe saba jIva vyasta koI daur3e kAma se, to koI daur3e daur3ana kAja koI daur3e puNya se to koI daur3e pApana hAtha daur3eM to saba jIva hI aura rahe saba vyasta nahIM samaya kisIke pAsa, samaya kI hai bAta pazu pakSI aura prANI daur3eM, daur3eM bhojana kAja ghara banAveM, ghara chipAveM, zatru dekha ghara se hI bhAgeM aMDe bacAveM, bAlaka bacAveM, daur3eM unakI rakSA kAja ThaMDa se bhAgeM, garmI se bhAgeM, bhAgeM dina aura rAta nahIM samaya kisIke pAsa, samaya kI hai bAta bacapana meM saba mAnava daur3eM, kheleM kUdeM haseM aura royeM sabhI, khuda jarUrata kAja jaise jaise bacce bar3e hote jAyeM ve daur3e khuda ke lie aura ghara mitra ke kAja nahIM samaya kisIke pAsa, samaya kI hai bAta 67

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Aja ke javAna to daur3eM, lie pUrI duniyA kA bhAra muMha se boleM kucha, suneM kucha, likheM kucha aura dekheM kucha vo to itane vyasta, ki kareM cAra cAra kAja sAtha unakI to bAta nirAlI, vo to daur3eM teja ke sAtha nahIM samaya kisI ke pAsa, samaya kI hai bAta zarIra to ho jAya vRddha, daur3a na pAyeM pAMva / to bhI to dekho, mana daur3e aura indriyAM daur3eM vyasana ke kAja maMdira jAve, tIrtha bhI jAve, jAve ghUmane kAja gIta sune ve, pravacana sune, sune pUre saMsAra kI bAta nahIM samaya kisI ke pAsa, samaya kI hai bAta samaya to hai eka dravya, koI na jAne vo to anAdi anaMta, koI na pahacAne ye zuddha jIva to usakA jAnane vAlA vo to svayaM meM rame aura samaya ko vo jAne nahIM samaya kisI ke pAsa, samaya kI hai bAta

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ye jIva aura samaya kA to hai gaharA sambaMdha vo to dono anAdi anaMta,jIva to jAnane vAlA manuSya bhava hai milA, isIko to jAnane pahacAnane yahI manuSya kartavya hai, daur3e to ise jAnane nahIM samaya kisI ke pAsa, samaya kI hai bAta saccA jJAna, pUrNa jJAna, yA kaho kevala jJAna vo jAne, bItA kala, aura Ane vAlA kala jo sabhI samaya meM jAne, sabhI dravyoM ke guNa aura paryAya vo jAne sabhI dravyoM ko, unake lakSaNoM ko, zuddha aura svataMtra to phira samaya kaise hove kisIke pAsa, samaya kI hai bAta

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suparabaoNla Aja ravivAra kA dina hai aura Aja hI suparabaoNla kI gema hai pUre USA meM Ajakala to sArI duniyA meM yaha gema dikhAI jAyegI aura lAkhoM se AdamI dekheMge bhI aba hamArI Boston meM jaina seMTara kI pAThazAlA bhI subaha meM thI aura hama sabane karIbana 100 logoMne prabhU prArthanA kI, svAdhyAya kiyA, sabase mile jhUle aura dina pUrA huA phira mana meM vicAra cale, suparabaoNla kheleMge kitane aura dekheMge kitane. kaI logoM ko to ina gemoM ke bAre meM itanA jJAna hotA hai zAyada khelane vAloM ko bhI mAlUma nahIM isa taraha hamAre isa Are meM, pUre Are meM 24 tIrthaMkara aura kitane AdamI, kitane bhakta, kitane dharma ko par3hane vAle, bhajana gAne vAle, pUjA pATha kI kriyAeM karanevAle dharmI kahalAnevAle kitane jinhoMne baoNla ko uThAke roja roja khelA, subaha zAma, dina rAta khelA yA to usIkA vicArA ki kaise acchA khela sakeM vo hI kiyA aura meM jaisA hUM vaisA hI mujhe samajhuM to phira maiM mere sva ko pAUM aura anubhava karUM taba mujhe merA AnaMdI, zuddha, buddha, paripUrNa amUlya, camatkArI AtmA kA milApa hogA maiM taba khuda ko, khuda se, khuda meM pAkara hI khuda se khudA, dukhI se sukhI bana jAUMgA

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hamArI kamajoriyAM mujhe mAlUma hai miThAI khAnA mere liye acchA nahIM para sundara miThAI hI bacapana se acchI samajhakara khAI hai usImeM AnaMda pAyA hai aura vahI acchI lagatI hai. to jaise hI sundara manapasaMda miThAI sAmane AI ki docAra khA hI lete haiM, yahAM merI manapasaMda miThAI kI mAnyatA, miThAI nahIM khAnI cAhiye yA kama khAnI cAhiye, usase adhika prabala hai mAlUma hai zarIra ke liye roja kasarata karanI cAhiye lekina subaha hote hI aisA lagatA hai zAmako kara leMge, zAma taka to zarIra hI aisA thaka jAtA hai aisA lagatA hai, kala to avazya hI kara leMge. ArAma acchA lagatA hai khAnA-pInA, bAteM karanA, vyAyAma se kahIM jyAdA acchA hI lagatA hai isa lie kasarata karate to haiM, lekina jitanI karanI cAhiye, jisa niyamitatA se karanI cAhiye vaisI nahIM kara pAte, usakA afasosa bhI hai

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| 72 isI taraha bacapana se sunA hai, maMdira jAnA cAhiye, namokAra maMtra sIkhanA cAhiye to kabhI kabhI to karate haiM. jaba apane kAmoM se thakate haiM aura koI pArTI bhI nahIM hotI to phira avazya maMdira jAte haiM. phira prabhu ko jAnane ki ke ve kaise prabhu bane utsukatA hai hI kahAM ? prabhu jaisA hI zuddha, cidAnaMdI AtmA isa zarIra meM bhI maujUda hai aisA to vicAra bhI kahAM ? itanA to isa saMsAra aura hamArI kamajoriyoMse prabhAvita haiM ki prabhu mujhameM ho bhI sakatA hai, isa bAtapara vizvAsa hI kahAM ? hamAre paMca parameSThI, hamAre guru, hamAre jinazAstra kahate haiM kamajoriyoMko dhyAna se dekho, itane sAloMse jina mAnyatAoMse jI rahe ho parakho tabhI ina karmoM kI rajakaNoMmeM chipA amUlya hIrA tumhArA hI hai, tumhAre hI pAsa hai mAna pAoge, samajha pAoge, aura phira apanI mAnyatAoMko sahI kara unameM dRr3hatA lA, eka aisA anokhA puruSArtha kara use DhUMDha nikAloge, DhUMDha nikAloge ***

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umeda che umeda che umeda aMdarathI huM rAga tyajIne vItarAgane vadhAvuM chuM umeda che umeda aMdarathI huM mithyAtva tyajIne sabhyattvane vadhAvuM chuM umeda che umeda aMdarathI huM krodha tyajIne premane vadhAvuM chuM umeda che umeda aMdarathI huM saMsAra tyajIne muktine vadhAvuM chuM umeda che umeda aMdarathI huM ajJAna tyajIne jJAnane vadhAvuM chuM umeda che umeda aMdarathI huM AsaktiothI muMjAIne puruSArthane vadhAvuM chuM

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T 74 umeda che umeda aMdarathI huM Arta-raudra tyajIne dharmadhyAnane vadhAvuM chuM umeda che umeda aMdarathI huM saMsAranA parvone tyajIne Atmaparvane vadhAvuM chuM umeda che umeda aMdarathI ***

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/ huM kartA chuM, huM kartA chuM, huM eka mAnavI chuM huM nAnapaNathI mA-bApanI zikhAmaNa heThe kartA sArUM khAvuM, sArUM pIvuM, sArUM paheravuM, sArUM vAMcana sArA mitro, sArI ramato, sAro abhyAsa sAro dIkaro/dIkarI banI khuzI khuzI e badhI vastuono kartA thAuM chuM, huM kartA thAuM chuM thoDo moTo thato jAuM chuM, duniyAne samajato jAuM chuM mA-bApanI jImmedArIo. mitronI gapazapa, moja-majAne jANato jAuM chuM pachI e badhuM karavAnuM mana thAya che, kyAre kAma to kyAre gapazapa. e badhuM ja karatAM karatAM A badhAno kartA thAuM chuM, kartA thAuM chuM hajI moTo thAuM chuM, tyAre mAruM potAnuM ghara potAnuM kAma, potAno parivAra, eTale to bahu ja vyasta thai, mArI jimmedArI samajI dhyAna ApI, mArI pharajo bajAvI, A badhA ja kAmo, bahu ja khaMtathI karatAM karatAM AmAM ja sukha mAnatAM, kartA thAuM chuM, kartA thAuM chuM 75

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hajI paNa moTo thAuM chuM, ne derAsara, pravacano niyamita sAMbhaLato thAuM chuM, ene paNa huM bahu ja kALajIthI, dhyAnathI karuM chuM. emAM koI parivAra jana dvidhA Ape to mAro gusso. to jovA jevo. A badhI ja kriyAono paNa zarIra ne manathI prasanna thai, kartA thAuM chuM. A mArca mahinAnA eka vIkenDamAM mArA ahobhAgyathI jJAnI sAthe samAgama thayo jJAnIe uThADyA, jagADyA, ne kahyuM, mUrNa tuM zuM kare che? kyAM jaI rahyo che? tane A saMsArathI mukta thavuM che? tane A saMsArathI alaga evuM svAdhIna, akhaMDa, avyAbAdha sukha joIe che? to tuM samaja, samaja kevI rIte A saMsAra cAle che. tuM kevI rIte dIkaro-dIkarI, vidyArthI, pati-patnI mA-bApa thai A saMsAramAM lepAI, sAruM thAya. to khuza ne kharAba thAya to duHkhI thai, badhAno kartA thai, karmonuM AvaraNa, potAnA zuddha svarUpa para caDAvato jAya che. zuM tuM kartA thato jAya che?

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kriyAo to dravyamAM, potAnAmAM, potAnAthI, potAnA upAdAnathI thAya che. tuM kema badhI vastuomAM mAro mAro karI, rAga dveSa karI, potAne kartA samajI dukhI thato jAya che. A dravyane samajavAnA badale tuM to tArA zarIrane tAro samajI A badhAmAM ja karmabaMdhana vadhArato jAya che samaja tuM samaja tuM to zuddha svarUpa, siddho jevo AtmA cho. anaMta sukha,vIrya, jJAnano tuM dhaNI cho potAnAmAM, potAnA ja zuddha bhAvono tuM kartA cho. tAruM sAcuM kartApaNuM samaja, to tane saMsAranA dukho. enI kSaNikatA-parAdhInatA paNa dekhAze ane tuM avazya eka dI zuddha, svAdhIna, akhaMDa sukhane pAmaze.

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gurUkRpA. gurunI kRpA na hoya, gurunI vANI na hoya to A laukika saMsAramAM ja huM gothAM khAyA ja karuM gothAM khAtAM khAtAM thAkIe, tyAM to thai gai che sAMja guru vagara laukikamAM aMte duHkha che, kyAM paDe che khabara alaukikanI kalpanAmAM ja jIvana thai jAya che pasAra aMta samayamAM jIva, duHkhI ne hatAza, jue che cAre kora guruno prema na hoya, anaMta karuNAthI rojanI pukAra na hoya. to jIvane kevI rIte paDe khabara ke A saMsAramAM ja tuM cho. saMsArathI bhinna tuM tArAmAM ja pUrNa, alaukika sukhamaya cho gurunI vANIno raNakAra kAnomAM guMjato na hoya to A jIva svAbhimAnI, aDola, nirbhaya, kevI rIte ne kyAre bane ne potAno ja zAzvata, trikALa sukhamaya ne kema pAme

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I guruonI paramparA ne paMcaparameSThiono Avo khajAno maLyo che jIva tane, ene kholato jA, tattvajJAnamAM DUbato jA aMtaramAM ja tuM potAne khojI laiza ne pUrNa thai jaiza guruonI vANI ne jinavANI batAve che sAco mArga A vANInAM ciMtavanamAM DUbI zodhI le nija mukta svarUpa tuM thaiza jJAnAnaMda alaukika, ne rahI jaze laukika dUra *** 79

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T 80 ghaDIyAla ghaDIyAlamAM kAMTA hoya che phUla nathI, jethI loko pUche che keTalA vAgyA? e kAMTA ApaNane vAgIne kahe che keTalo samaya gayo, ne keTalo bacyo? huM trikALI ghaDIyAla chuM, pharato chuM, paNa mArAmAM kAMTAo ja nathI mArAmAM to je thaI rahyuM che e ja mArA phUlo che, kAMTA kyAM? huM trikALI, badhA ja samayamAM, badhA ja saMjogomAM, badhAne jANato anaMta guNothI jaDita pote ja suMdara, sugaMdhI, nyAro phUla chuM

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I jInavANIno rAgI huM rAgI nathI paNa jInavANIno rAgI chuM jInabhaktimAM prabhu rome rome raMgAyo chuM huM dveSI nathI paNa premano to dariyo chuM jInabhaktimAM prabhu rome rome raMgAyo chuM prabhu gautama tAro rAgI hato e ja mAre thAvuM che gautama sAco ziSya hato e ja mAre banavuM che huM rAgI nathI paNa jInavANIno rAgI chuM jInabhaktimAM prabhu rome rome raMgAyo chuM prabhu saMsAramAM kAMI mAruM nathI huM paNa tAro chuM tArI yAdamAM tArI mUrtimAM huM potAne zodhuM chuM huM rAgI nathI paNa jInavANIno rAgI chuM jInabhaktimAM prabhu rome rome raMgAyo chuM tArI ja divyadhvanimAM huM zodhI zodhIne tArI saumya mUrtimAM potAne pAmuM chuM huM rAgI nathI paNa jInavANIno rAgI chuM jInabhaktimAM prabhu rome rome raMgAyo chuM 81

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prabhu gautama sirpha tAro ja hato mane paNa thAvuM che gautama tAro saMgI hato mane paNa banavuM che huM rAgI nathI paNa jInavANIno rAgI chuM janabhaktimAM prabhu rome rome raMgAyo chuM prabhu gautamane AtmA jaNAvyo mane paNa jANavo che gautamane Atmadarzana karAvyA mane paNa karavA che huM rAgI nathI paNa jInavANIno rAgI chuM janabhaktimAM prabhu rome rome raMgAyo chuM prabhu gautamane teM ja pamADyo mAre paNa pAmavo che AvI utkRSTha IcchA paNa tArAthI ja karAya che huM rAgI nathI paNa jInavANIno rAgI chuM janabhaktimAM prabhu rome rome raMgAyo chuM

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paryuSaNa parva rUDA paryuSaNa parva padhAre che prabhu A parva to ujavAya che prabhumaya thavA mATe prabhu kahIM A parva paNa A zarIra mATe ja na ujavAi jAya eka pala prabhumAM ja vAsa thAya rUDA paryuSaNa parva padhAre che prabhu A parva to ujavAya che prabhumaya thavA mATe prabhu kahIM A parva paNa kuTuMbane samAja mATe nA ujavAi jAya eka pala prabhumAM ja vAsa thAya rUDA paryuSaNa parva padhAre che prabhu A parva to ujavAya che prabhumaya thavA mATe prabhu kahIM A parva paNa rAga dveSamAM ja na ujavAi jAya eka pala prabhumAM ja vAsa thAya

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rUDA paryuSaNa parva padhAre che prabhu A parva to ujavAya che prabhumaya thavA mATe prabhu kahIM A parva paNa bAhyamAM thatI bhUlonI kSamAmAM ja nA ujavAi jAya eka pala prabhumAM ja vAsa thAya rUDA paryuSaNa parva padhAre che prabhu A parva to ujavAya che prabhumaya thavA mATe prabhu kahIM A parva paNa kSaNika AnaMdanI laheromAM ja nA ujavAi jAya eka pala prabhumAM vAsa thAya.

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I pratikramaNa Avazyaka prabhu huM roja pratikramaNa karuM chuM huM mArA sadagurune zata zata vaMdana karuM chuM mArA guru AtmajJAnI mane mArA AtmAnuM sAcuM svarUpa samajAve che huM namIja jAuM chuM prabhu huM roja pratikramaNa karuM chuM huM mArA tIrthaMkarone zata zata vaMdana karuM chuM mArA tIrthaMkaro A ja saMsAramAM rahIne potAno zuddha ciMtAmaNI pada pAmI paramAtmA banyA che prabhu huM roja pratikramaNa karuM chuM mArI anAdinI mithyA mAnyatAone, mithyA jJAnane guruvANI jinavANIthI samajIne enAthI pAchI pharuM chuM jema jema mithyA jJAna jaNAya che pratikramaNa thAya che prabhu huM roja pratikramaNa karuM chuM huM A zarIramAM ja zarIrathI bhinna mArA ciMtAmaNI Atmatattvano ciMtavana karuM chuM. mAruM jIvana zarIrathI nahIM, enAM saMbaMdho thI paNa nahIM. AtmA ja chuM 85

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prabhu huM roja pratikramaNa karuM chuM mAre hRdayathI hara kSaNano pratyAkhAna che huM mArA mithyAtvane, enI UMDANane, gahanatAne samajuM mithyAtva chedIne bhedajJAnathI samyagdarzana pAmuM prabhu huM roja pratikramaNa karuM chuM mAre eka divasa avazya ja eka samaya mATe paNa sAmayika thaze. mArA potAnA zuddha aDola, avinAzI AtmatattvamAM rahI anubhava paNa karI laiza prabhu huM roja pratikramaNa karuM chuM A ja bhAvomAM jIvuM chuM e ja mAro puruSArtha che, ane kartavya paNa che. A ja mArA jIvanano uddezya che. eka samaya mATe paNa sAmAyikamAM ja rahevAnuM che

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prabhu tujamaya thAje prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re kaMI nathI mAravuM, kaMI nathI tAruM, tAruM mAruM badhuM choDI. prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re,prabhu tujamaya thAje re A karavAnuM, A na karavAnuM, badhuM karatAM karatAM prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re kaMI joIe, kaMI nathI joItuM, badhuM choDI, jotAM jotAM prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re A huM jANuM, A na jANuM, svane jANatAM jANatAM prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re A zarIra, ne A saMsAra, tujane oLakhatAM oLakhatAM prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re A sAcuM, ne A khoTuM, badhuM choDI jJAtA daSya thai prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re

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A sukha Ape, A duHkha Ape, badhuM bhUlI, AnaMdamAM prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re zuM AkuLa, ne zuM vyAkuLa, pUro nirAkuLa thai prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re A puNya che ne A pApa, badhuM choDI zuddhatAmAM prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re A jJAna che ne A vijJAna, badhuM choDI, jJAyaka bhAve prabhu tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje, tujamaya thAje re, prabhu tujamaya thAje re 88

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bheda vijJAna bheda vijJAna zuM che?zAnAthI che? zA mATe che? huM chuM AtmA ane A zarIrathI bheda pADavo che ne huM chuM AtmA ane A zarIrI saMbaMdhothI paNa to bheda ja pADavo che ne, bhedane samajavo che ne yadi A zarIra ne zarIranAM saMbaMdhothI paNa huM bheda pADavA nIkaLyo to pachI gharabAra saMpatti, nAma, kuLa, AyuSya e to mArA koi paNa rIte koi paNa saMjogomAM che ja nahIM to pachI mArA anubhavamAM mArA jJAnamAM to che ne? kyAM jatA thoDI rahe che? huM mArA zarIra sAthe ja to anubhavamAM AvuM chuM, niMdrAmAM paNa A zarIrano anubhava to sAthe ja ne sAthe che jJAnIo kahe che tArI vAta paNa sAcI che A ja to tArA potAnAM jIvatattvano camatkAra che jJAna, jJAyaka ja sva ne para banne prakAzI zake che jema dIvo ghaTa-paTa ane potAne paNa prakAze che

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90 to have tArA jJAnamAM tuM tArA Atmatattvane ja viSaya banAva. A zarIra, vibhAvo, rAga-dveSanAM anubhavo ne para jANa, kAraNa ke e to tArA hoi ja nathI zakatA ne potAnAM che ja nahIM dukhamaya che A badhIja lAgaNIo, anubhavothI bheda vijJAna kara huM to jJAnamAtra potAne ja, mArA jJAnane ja, mArI jANana zaktine ja jANuM chuM, ne e ja chuM, tyAre A bhedavijJAna saphaLa thaze, ne tuM to tuM ja rahI jaiza *** |

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I saMyoga che huM chuM jIva, mAro saMyoga che ajIva sAthe kSaNika banne dravya che anAdi anaMta ane pUrNa svataMtra bannenAM che potAnAM kSetra ane anaMta bhAvo eka che rUpI ne eka arUpI, huM to chuM arUpI jANanAra paNa huM ja chuM, huM mane oLakhI laiza basa ekavAra barobara oLakhAi jAya pachI huM mArI svataMtratAne pAmIza, svataMtra dravya chuM ne A saMyoga sArA paNa hoya, paNa che saMyoga huM jANanAra ne mAro svabhAva che. paNa saMyogI bhAvothI mAro svabhAva che bhinna. huM mArA potAnAM ja svabhAvamAM potAthI ja paripUrNa ne saMyogI bhAvothI bhinna, zuddha zAMtimaya dravya ja chuM 91

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huM chuM sukhamaya ne A kSaNika saMyogo AvI kSaNikatA ne kAraNe mAre che dukhamaya, mane mArI svataMtratA ja game che ne huM chuM ja asaMgI zAzvata, lAge kSaNika e huM nathI. AvI ja rIte huM saMsAra, A zarIrane A zarIrathI baMdhAyelA kRtrima saMbaMdhothI potAne bhinna, alaga jANI potAnAmAM, potAne ja potAthI khovAyelI evI riddhiyone bheTuM chuM huM jIva svataMtra, cidAnaMda, jJAnasvarUpI, ajara amara A saMyogomAM khovAyo hato. A saMyogI bhAvothI gurukRpAthI mArAthI bhinna jANI mane zubhAzubha bhAvothI bhinna evo zuddha anubhavuM chuM.

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I heprabhu he prabhu he prabhu gAtI jAuM chuM ne kyAre A saMsAramAM guMthAI jAuM chuM prabhu tArI bhakti karatI jAuM chuM ne kyAre rAgadveSamAM utarI jAuM chuM prabhu tuM mAro sAthI kahetI jAuM chuM ne kyAre mArA-tArAmAM paDI jAuM chuM prabhu Atama Atama gAtI jAuM chuM ne kyAre A zarIramAM aTavAuM chuM he prabhu he prabhu gAtI jAuM chuM ne kyAre A saMsAramAM guMthAI jAuM chuM prabhu anaMta doSothI bharapUra chuM ne tArA para vizvAsa rAkhI cAluM chuM prabhu tArI yAdamAM tArI pukAramAM rahI tuja guNone yAda karatI jAuM chuM prabhu tArI mUrtimAM vItarAgatA dekhuM chuM ne mArAmAM rAga ja dekhAya che he prabhu he prabhu gAtI jAuM chuM ne kyAre A saMsAramAM guMthAI jAuM chuM prabhu huM tane mArAmAM zodhuM chuM ne tArA guNone yAda karatI jAuM chuM prabhu eka dI, jarUra tane sAcA dilathI yAda karI tArAmAM samAI jAuM chuM prabhu tArA guNone mArAmAM zodhI zodhIne tArI banatI jAuM chuM he prabhu he prabhu gAtI jAuM chuM ne kyAre A saMsAramAM guMthAI jAuM chuM *** 93

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Her body lived to be 100. Her soul is and was eternal. So is ours, if we take time to know, understand, and pursue the soul, the know-er (31TCHT, FT1405). As a knower, one can experience the eternity even as we live our life to its fullest. Then only can we celebrate, appreciate every moment of life, every aspect of this eternal life. Then birth and death of the body will remain of the body only and not of the soul.

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Beliefs One believes old is gold, old culture, values should be preserved, Yet one believes new is progress. Can both be true? One likes sweet, soft, and one likes savory, hot and spicy Yet one says, well, it depends. Can all be true? One believes save and consume with caution, precaution Yet one says, things or even ideas rot if preserved and not refreshed! One believes patience and love are important virtues to do good work Yet one says if you love fully and patiently, how will the work get done? Is desire or need the root cause of all new inventions? Or is this yet another belief? One lives according to one's beliefs, works according to one's beliefs. Rich with money may live like poor and poor may live like rich! One is known by one's beliefs, creates a world and identity around them, Yet one living within this world rejects them all! One is bound by one's beliefs, and lives in the world Tied to one's own systems to either understand or change! One is a slave of one's own beliefs. Yet one is totally free, Eternally happy, peaceful without any beliefs at all!

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T Born in a Jain Family Born in a Jain family, we try to understand the word Jain. Is it the way of life, or the way we think about life? Do we live a life according to what we think about? Jain, the word, says who we are really. Jain Agams say the universe is eternal, neither created nor destroyed. Our blissful, peaceful Soul is also eternal and cannot be destroyed. Our body and our Soul, independent of each other, change constantly Coexist with ease and fool us so cleverly. "Parmanu" (smallest unit) is free, unites as matter, becomes body, Soul in the body is free and their coexistence is temporary. Body changes forms, can disintegrate into Parmanu and unites again. Soul, once free, never can be fooled as one with body so cleverly. Chakravarti king Bharat looking in the mirror thinks about the missing ring. Thinks is my beauty in jewels? Realizing the real beauty and strength of his soul He was able to walk away from the kingdom Become muni, was able to live Jain muni life happily. Once human, the knower thinks as a free soul and not the body. A Jain can live as soul and derive energy from the eternal source, the soul. Thinking as Jain gives clear, everlasting, fearless vision of oneself as Pure, constant, happy, eternal, peaceful and blissful, freely. 99

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I Am Every flower has its own colors, fragrances, shapes and also feel. Every flower also has its own time to be a bud and to be a flower. I am also just like a flower, not a mold and cannot be molded. Not only a thing, whose company can be enjoyed, I am with my own identity. I flourish in my own identity, I die in the molds made for me by culture, society, and this world even die in the mold of my own body. I am a completely free individual flourishing in my own fragrance, shape, feel, and do have my own time to flourish and bloom in this world. I may appear bonded, but am not may appear molded, but am not Am totally free, the knower, know my freedom and my bonds, am knowing myself. 100

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The Knower Whenever I accomplish, get good grades, receive degrees, acquire posts, positions, I feel good, happy, accomplished, proud of myself. I can do it... I did it. Sometimes I have failures. Things don't happen my way, no matter how hard I try, I feel lost, failed, frustrated, and blame circumstances, friends, or even God. Accomplishments or failures, my attention is on physical and Mental strengths, circumstances, degrees, family and friends. I never think about my free spirit, the Soul, which is always with me Soul is joy, bliss and is the "Knower," without any accomplishments or failures. I get so involved in feeling good, accomplished, failed, or Just in my present, that I never experience my soul. Soul is there with blissful feelings, is stable, indestructible. Just experience, and be happy, peaceful, the "Knower". Soul is the real "Knower," and knows without connecting with objects Like a lamp, is a light itself. It may brighten the objects we connect to. One can be the "Knower" and still perform required activities without any expectations or failures. Just full of joy, bliss, and peace. The happiness comes from within, not from acquired posts, positions, accomplishments. I, the "Knower," full of joy, bliss, and peace, will know whatever there is to know. 101

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When I Get Dirty When I get dirty, oily, or sweaty, I feel dirty. But deep within, I believe that a shower with clean water and a little soap will do. No need to scratch the dirt away. I can get clean, feel clean as if I never even got dirty. Can my pure, blissful, peaceful soul be dirty? It appears to be dirty temporarily, but is and can be felt pure and blissful. Just as dirt and this body are different from each other, the body and the soul are different from each other. Can my soul be rich, poor, greedy, angry? Could this be just like dirt on the body? It may make me feel sad, happy or unhappy temporarily, but always is different from the soul. Soul always remains pure, blissful, peaceful. Right knowledge of the Soul and this changing world is the clean water and soap. Right knowledge helps me differentiate the Soul from my current circumstances. Helps me differentiate ephemeral feelings from eternal feelings generated by the soul. My family house, my great grand-father also lived in, is quite old. Every year for generations on Diwali we apply white clay on the brick walls, and they shine. Till today the clay has remained as clay and wall is wall. Don't be fooled by the brightness of the shine, the dirt remains within. 102

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na jiMdagI hai na mauta na dIna hai na dayAla na insAna hai na bhagavAna maiM hUM mujhe jiMdagI bhI svIkAra hai, aura svIkAra hai mauta mujhe garIbI bhI svIkAra aura svIkAra dayA bhAva mujhe rAga-dveSa kaho, kaho insAna, athavA kaho bhAvarUpa yaha bhI svIkAra hai, mere hI prakAza se, jJAna se jo ho rahA pratikSaNa svayaM hI hara dravya meM vahI to jAna rahA hUM mere jJAna meM kucha badalane ke vikalpa kI bhI jahAM na ho guMjAIza aisA nirvikalpa, trikAla, zuddha, caitanya, ujjavala, jJAyaka hI hUM maiM 103

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jaina dharma eka acaraja duniyA to duniyA ke acaraja hI batAtI hai, tAjamahala, pirAmiDa. hamAre guruoM, jaina sAdhuoM ne to svayaM ke zarIra meM hI paramAtmA ko jAna, anubhava kara hama sabako batAyA, samajhAyA. kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja ? jaina muni to kahate haiM, mAnava tU mAna yA mata mAna hama to pratyakSa anubhava karake hI, tU saca meM hai kauna yahI tujhe batA rahe haiM. karuNA hai muniyoM kI jo hameM mokSa mArga batAyA. kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja ? isI zarIra meM, jo dina-ba-dina bacce se javAna aura phira ho jAye bUr3hA, kaise ho sakatA hai ajara, amara, avinAzI tatva AtmA ? rUpI zarIra meM hI hama bhUle svayaM arupI ko. kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja ? ina indriyoM aura zarIra kA to kyA kahanA ! prAtaH kAla meM hI kaiyoM ko cAhie bIr3I to kaiyoM ko cAya. kisa na kisa naze meM mAnava kare isa zarIra kI kriyA ora isImeM base bhagavAna. kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja ? zarIra ko lage garmI yA ThaMDI sahana hI na hove. daur3e vo ThaMDe pAnI, garma kapar3e kAja. garma yA ThaMDe gharoM meM. jaina muni nagna avasthA, vicare jaMgaloM meM, mAlUma hI nahIM ThaMDI-garmI kyA ? kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja ? zarIra ko pyAsa lage, bhUkha lage. khAnapAna bagaira to jaise mara jAye. maiM jItA hI hUM roTI kapar3e, makAna ke liye. jaina muni, jinheM roTI, kapar3e, makAna kA to vikalpa bhI na Ave . kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja ? 104 |

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javAno ko lagatA hai, maiM to yogiyoM kI taraha, mere zarIra ko aisA kara lUMgA svastha, ki bhUkha, pyAsa, ThaMDI, garmI kA jaise anubhava hI nahIM jaina muni karate nahIM parizrama yogiyoM kI taraha, ve to svayaM ke nija pada ko jAna, pahacAna, usI meM sahajatA se karate haiM ramaNa. yogiyoM kI tapasyA mAnaviyoM ko asAdhAraNa lage para hai kSaNika. jaina muniyoM kA sahaja tapahI hai zAzvata. kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja ? jaina muniyoM ne ajIva zarIra aura jIva caitanya kA saMyoga jAnA. donoM tatvoM ko bhinna bhinna bhIjAnA. saMyoga se saMsAra aura bhinnazuddha caitanya meMhI svayaM kI zuddhadazA kopAyA. kyA yaha nahIM haiacaraja? jIva pudgala ke eka aNu kI zakti ko mAnane taiyAra hai. jIva kudarata ko bhI svIkAra karatA hai. para svayaM ke nija pada, svayaM meM hI paMca parameSThI pada ko mAnane nahIM hai taiyAra. kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja ? jIva haiM to anaMta, parantu zuddha jIva mAnava kA hI hai amUlya ratna. pUrI duniyA meM isa ratna kI tulanA hI nahIM. phira mAnava hI ise pAnA to kyA, samajhanA bhI nAmumakina mAnatA hai. kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja ? mAnavahI banatA haipApI, puNyazAlI, rAgI, dveSI, DaoNkTara, vakIla aura iMjiniyara para nahIM banatAvItarAgI. isIlie mAnava rahatA dukhI isa saMsAra meM aura jaina muni zAzvata sukha meM. kyA yaha nahIM hai acaraja 105

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Atama bhAvanA bhAvatA gurune kahA Atama bhAvanA bhAvatA jIva lahe kevala jJAna re kahA ziSya se ise tU yAda kara, isIkI mAlA phera, isIkA dhyAna dhara ye kaise to bhAva haiM jo jIva meM kevala jJAna pragaTa kara deveM kyA ye bhAva dayA, zAMti, kSamA ke, ki ye bhAva pUjA, pATha, tapa, vrata ke bhAva to avazya hoMgeM maMdira jAne ke, svaccha ho, zrRMgAra kara maiM maMdira jAUM vahAM jina darzana kara maMtroccAra karUM, candana, kesara, nava aMga pUjA karUM maMdira jAte dikhatI hai gaMdagI aura garIbI, bhAva haiM saphAI ke aura nyAya ke maMdira jAte dikhate haiM bahuta prANI, khuda khuda kI zarIra kriyA meM ota prota ina sabase alaga haiM kyA Atama bhAva? ziSya vicAre kaise hote haiM ye Atama bhAva bhAva hoteM haiM kucha karane ke, kucha pAne ke, bhAva hoteM heM pyAsa ke aura tRpta hone ke ina sabase alaga haiM kyA Atama bhAva ? bhAva hote haiM pAMca indriyoM ke viSaya ke bhAva hoteM haiM mana buddhise, bhAva hoteM haiM sukha-duHkha ke, ki hAsya zoka ke ina sabase alaga haiM kyA Atama bhAva? AtmA to jJAna aura AnaMda se bharapUra AtmA to zraddhA aura darzana se ota prota, AtmA to bharI he zAMta aura nirvikalpa dazA se AtmA meM to hai kevala jJAna, AtmA meM to siddhoM jaisA AnaMda aura sthiratA AtmA meM to arihaMtoM kI vIryatA aura vItarAgatA, AtmA to zaktiyoM kA bhaMDAra aise hI AtmA ko tU yAda kara, aise hI AtmajJAna meM ramaNa kara, AtmAnaMda jIva tU khuda hai usI AnaMda meM tU kho jA. aura phira dhyAna kara ki kyA guru ne kahA, svayaM kI Atma kA bhAva, Atma guNoM kA vicAra, sva Atma kA AnaMda aura sva Atma meM lIna ho, aura usI dhyAna meM jIva lahe kevala jJAna re 106

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AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM eka tAla ho yA do tAla,maiM to sadaiva tAla se bhinna, tAla kA jJAnI AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM ThaMDI ho yA garmI ho, maiM to sadaiva azarIrI, RtuoM kA jJAnI, AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM kAlA, safeda yA ho raMgIna, maiM to sabhI raMgoM se nirAlA, sabhI raMgoM kA jJAnI, AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM ghanaghora ho aMdhiyArA yA ujAlA, maiM to sadaiva jJAnI svayaM hI ujAlA, sabhI dravyoM kA jJAnI, AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM jIva hoM ekendriya yA paMcendriya, aura hoM corAsI lAkha yoniyoM meM, maiM to zuddha caitanya jJAnI, AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM janma ho yA ho maraNa, maiM to avinAzI, sadaiva dhruva, akhaMDa aura aDola, jJAnAnaMdI. AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM svarga ho yA naraka, yA ho pRthvIloka, maiM to trikAlI sabhI lokoM kA jJAnI, AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM tAla ho surIlI yA ho besurI, drazya ho ramaNIya yA ho na dekhane yogya, maiM to sabakA jJAnI, AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM mere lie na koI iSTa yA aniSTa, maiM to sabakA saba prakAra se, paripUrNa jJAnI, AnaMda hI AnaMda hUM 107

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khuda se khuda pada zarIra meM to du:kha kA anubhava hotA hai maiM to jJAna svarUpI, zAMtimaya, AnaMda hUM zarIra ke sAre sambaMdhoM meM to du:kha sA anubhava hotA hai maiM to AnaMda hUM, AnaMda hUM indriyoM ke viSayoM meM bhI duHkha hI najara AtA hai unheM pA leM yA na pAyeM sabhI meM duHkha kA hI anubhava hotA hai. kSaNika samaya ke liye lubhAvanA lage magara duHkha hI hai zarIra, indriyAM, mana, buddhi, du:kha hI to deteM hai, lekina ve haiM, to unheM pAlatA hai kauna? isa du:kha ko pahacAnatA hai kauna ? jJAna svarUpI to maiM AtmA hI hUM na aura koi kaise jAna sake, anubhava kara sake jitanA maiM isa zarIra, zarIra ke saMbaMdha, indriyoM se ekatva karatA hU~ utanA hI jyAdA du:kha kA anubhava hotA hai 108

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aba ina sabase khuda ko, alaga hI samajhU alaga hI to hUM, mere mithyAtva ko choDUM phira to sAre siddhAMtoM ko svayaM meM dekhanA hai nau tattvoM ko khud meM anubhavanA hai aura sva tattva ko jAna, pahacAna, sArI duniyA meM jIva, khuda ko khuda meM hI paripUrNa pAnA hai isI taraha jaina darzana kI, sata deva-guru-zAstra kI mahimA AtI hai, zraddhA jAgatI hai, arpaNatA hotI hai jIva samarpaNa hokara svayaM ko, caitanya ko pA letA hai aura khuda se khuda caitanya pada hI bana jAtA hai 109

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gaMDU rAjA eka kahAnI sunI thI bacapana meM hamane ki, eka thI aMdherI nagarI aura usakA thA gaMDU rAjA usake rAja meM kahate haiM, thA Take sera bhAjI aura Take sera khAjA kahate haiM kaisA to pAgala thA, na jAne kImata vo bhAjI kI aura khAje kI kaise rAja kara sake prajA para aisA rAjA, na prajA bana sake sukhI usake rAja meM aura nahIM prajA use mAne rAjA, vo to samajhe pAgala hai ye rAjA lekina jaba par3hI, sunI aura samajhI jinavANI, una vItarAga guruoM se jinhoMne pAyA svaAtmA ko, tabhI to apanA pAgalapana bhI samajha AyA paradravya to paradravya hI hai, cAhe vo ho bhAjI yA khAjA, khAje ke svAda meM lalacA ke, detA hai jIva bar3e bar3e dAma, bar3hAtA hai paribhramaNa ko aura dukhI hotA hai bhavobhava kImata to sva kI na pahacAnI, na jAnI, pAgalapana to dekho ki khudake jevarAta chor3a pIche par3e isa gharabAra ke aura meve aura bhAjI ke, na ye mere the, na hoMge,aura na kabhI ho sakeM mere, pApa puNya ke cakkara meM ve lalacAteM haiM mujhe aura maiM bhI pAgala lalacA jAtA hUM aura karatA hUM dina rAta eka unhIM ke lie eka, sva ko chor3a, sva ke guNoM ko chor3a, sva kI vIryatA, aura vinAzI AnaMda ko chor3a, pIche par3a gayA maiM ina saMsArI cIjoM ke, pAgala to hUM hIM maiM kitanA vo to Aja kucha samajha AyA 110

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gaMDU rAjA to thA vidvAna, usane to samajhA thA nava tattvoM kA jJAna, usake lie to the bhAjI aura mAvA saba eka dAma isIlie guruoM ne samajhAyA, ziSya tU na bana pAgala ina ajIva dravyoM para, na lalacA jA ina para aura andara se hI apanI mAnyatA ko badala, aura sva ko pahacAna, usako jAna, aura usakI kImata ko jAna, use sirpha jAnegA, aMtaraMga se mAnegA, to phira to basa eka bhava hoM yA paMdraha, tU bhI pAyegA vo avinAzI mokSa pada, jisakI kImata saMsAra meM ho hI na sake tU to basa sadaiva AnaMda vibhora, aura sukhI, tabhI to tU miTAe terI aMdherI nagarI aura ho jAye sadaiva ke lie sva para prakAzI, kabhI bhI na car3he usa sUlI para aura jIye hamezA, hameza

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112 ghara se bulAvA AyA hai ghara se bulAvA AyA hai, prabhu ghara se bulAvA AyA hai, aba ho jAUM taiyAra bhaTaka rahI maiM arasoM se, prabhu aba to thakI bahuta, ghara se bulAvA AyA hai, prabhu ghara se bulAvA AyA hai, aba ho jAUM taiyAra rAga dveSa kI galiyoM meM to bhUla gaI thI merA ghara bahuta banAye jhUThe ghara, prabhu bahuta banAye jhUThe ghara ghara se bulAvA AyA hai, prabhu ghara se bulAvA AyA hai, aba ho jAUM taiyAra zubhAzubha bhAvoM meM to ho gaI maiM bilakula vibhora bhUla gaI merI zuddhatA ko, prabhu bhUla gaI merI zuddhatA ko ghara se bulAvA AyA hai, prabhu ghara se bulAvA AyA hai, aba ho jAUM taiyAra *** |

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- chupanevAle chupane vAle sAmane A chupa chupake yUM na jalA, sUrajase kiraNa, bAdalase pavana, kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A maiM to tarasA janmoMse, abato A ke pyAsa bujhA, tujhako DhUMDhUM maiM arasoMse taka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA tUto chipA mujhameM hI arasoMse, maiM DhUMDhUM tujhe bAhara hI, chupachupa na jalA kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA jaba tU mujhameM hai, maiM tujhameM hUM, taba kaise tU alaga raha sakatA mujhase kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA nA maiM kAlA tU ujiyArA, maiM aMdhiyArA aura tU ujAlA phira bhI kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA tU bhAjya, maiM hUM bhagata, tU prema, maiM hUM premI, kabataka dekhUM rAha kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA tU avinAzI, maiM hUM vinAzI, maiM to dekhUM terI rAha bhavobhava sadA kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA 113

Page #116
114 maiM dukhiyArA tU cidAnaMdI, maiM hUM karmose ghirA, zuddha svarUpI kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA kabataka sUraja chipa sakatA, kabataka tU mujhase alaga raha sakatA kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA dekha rahA hUM terA prakAza mere taka AyA huA, aba tU mujhase alaga aisA na mAna kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA maiM tujhe, mujhameM hI dekhUM, jAnUM aura anubhavaM phira kaise tU mujhase alaga kabataka chupegA, ye to batA, chupanevAle sAmane A, chupa chupake yUM na jalA *** |

Page #117
- jinavANI mA~ jinavANI mA~ tUne hI mujhako merA sata hai batAyA mujhako hI mere jJAnAnaMda sata se hai milavAyA jinavANI mA~ tUne hI mujhako merA sata hai batAyA maiM hUM isa sAre saMsAra se alaga yahA nyAya se, dhIraja se, pyAra se tUne hI hai batAI jinavANI mA~ tUne hI mujhako merA sata hai batAyA maiM nahIM isa saMsAra, deza, samAja, gharabAra meM aura nahIM isa zarIra, mAnyatAyeM, rAga-dveSa-moha meM jinavANI mA~ tUne hI mujhako merA sata hai batAyA sAre saMbaMdhoM se mukta hI mere svataMtra caitanya nija vaibhava se hI vaibhavazAlI svarUpa hai batalAyA jinavANI mA~ tUne hI mujhako merA sata hai batAyA 115

Page #118
sabhI jIvoM kA hai mArga isa saMsAra meM calane ko maiM bhI abhI taka kA saMsArI mArga hI calA jinavANI mA~ tUne hI mujhako merA sata hai batAyA aba to maiMne hI merA mukta nirmala svarUpa hai jAnA use hI dekhU usI meM hI maiM to aba basa gayA jinavANI mA~ tUne hI mujhako merA sata hai batAyA 116

Page #119
- jIva sabere maiM uThatI hUM, kisane kahA maiM uThatI hUM ye zarIra hI to uThatA hai aura zarIra kI kriyA Arambha ho jAtI hai isa bIca jIva, jIvako yAda karale, svayaMkI yAdameM raha svayaM sukhamaya rahe bhUkha bhI to zarIra ko lage, peTa bhI zarIra kA bhare pyAsa bhI zarIra ko lage aura tRpta bhI to zarIra hI hove jIva to ina sabase nirAlA, sadaiva bharapUra aura tRpta hai acchA burA bhI to bAhara hI hove, usake kAraNa bhI bAhara karmoMke udayase icchA jAge, pUrI hoya to acchA lAge bAharake kAraNoM se becenI hove, idhara udhara bhaTakanA hove jIva to zuddha jJAnamaya, sadaiva zAMta aura aDola hai manako to sadaiva kucha karanA hove, jAgate khvAba, sote sapane dekhe zarIra ko daur3Aye, buddhi ko daur3Aye, sadaiva iSTa aniSTa kA cakkara calAye duniyA meM to sabhI jisa taraha hai, jisa prakAra hai vahI iSTa jIva to sabhI meM iSTa samajhe aura nirvikalpa hai 117

Page #120
dina bhI aisA pUrA hove, zarIra ko thakAna lAge, zarIra sove, karavaTa badale, sapane dekhe jIva to kabhI thake nahI aura cetanya hai jIva aura zarIra sAtha hI sAtha, bhUla jAve kI haiM alaga alaga zarIra to bacapanase bUr3hA hove, use to rUpa, sparza, rasa, gaMdhase jAne, phira sar3e to smazAna meM jalAve jIva to zuddha sukhI cetanyamaya, arupI, avinAzI aura jJAnamaya svako jAne, zarIrako jAne, phirabhI sabase nirAlA, asaMgI, aura vIryavAna hai maiM to jIva sadaiva jAgRta, na sovU aura na uDhUM, na baccI, na javAna, na jAvU zmazAna na iSTa, na aniSTa, sadaiva rahUM sthira svameM, jJAnamaya, sukhamaya, aDola, aura avinAzI 118

Page #121
jJAyaka maiM to jJAyaka hUM prabhu jJAyaka hUMjJAyaka hI hUM mujhe jo jJAna meM A rahA hai, vo to sadiyoM se hI dekha rahA hUM usImeM hI to ekatva, mamatva kara prabhu maiM isa saMsAra meM bhaTaka bhaTaka dukhI hI ho rahA hUM maiM to jJAyaka hUM prabhu jJAyaka hUM jJAyaka hI hUM isa sAre jJAna meM jo sadiyoM se jAna rahA hUM maiM aba thakA hUM isa jJAna meM to tarka-vitarka kara, saMkalpa-vikalpa kara AkulatA-vyAkulatA se aba maiM thakA maiM to nirvikalpa, nirAkula, nirAkArI hI hUM maiM to jJAyaka hUM prabhu jJAyaka hUM jJAyaka hI hUM yaha sArA jJAna mujhe khaMDa khaMDa meM hI khaMDita hI milatA hai yaha to adhUrA hara samaya hara dina naye raMga lAtA hai ina raMgoM se, rAgoM se, aba to maiM bahuta hI thakA hUM merA jJAna to zveta, akhaMDa, vItarAgI, sampUrNa hI hai maiM to jJAyaka hUM prabhu jJAyaka hUMjJAyaka hI hUM 119

Page #122
isa sAre jJAna meM to aba maiM udAsa ho gayA hUM maiM to aMtarmukha mere jJAyaka meM hI cidAnaMdI hUM ye bAhara kA prakAza sUraja ke teja meM lagatA hai aMdhiyArA maiM to mere aMtara kI jhar3ahar3a jyota se hI svayaM hI prakAza hUM maiM to jJAyaka hUM prabhu jJAyaka hUM jJAyaka hI hUM yaha bAhara kA vIrya prabhu sirpha dikhAvA hI hai. yaha zarIra bhI to kucha samaya ke liye hI merA paharAvA hI hai yaha merI saccI pahacAna hI nahIM, maiM to ajara, amara, avinAzI, arupI, vIryavAna hI hUM maiM to jJAyaka hUM prabhu jJAyaka hUM jJAyaka hI hUM isa saMsAra meM to dina rAta saphAI kara kara ke thakA hUM yahA~ to vikAroM kA, kaSAyoM kA jaise aMta hI nahIM maiM to zuddha, buddha, svaccha, svayaM meM hI pUrI taraha sampUrNa hUM maiM to jJAyaka hUM prabhu jJAyaka hUM jJAyaka hI hUM hara samaya, hara kSaNa ke bhinna bhinna anubhavoM se bhI aba to maiM thakA hUM ye badalate anubhava mujhe haMsAte-rulAte, acche-bUre lagate, lAbha-hAni vAle lagate maiM to sadaiva hI AnaMdI, dhruva, acala, aDola, mujha meM hI hUM maiM to jJAyaka hUM prabhu jJAyaka hUMjJAyaka hI hUM 120

Page #123
dila eka maMdira hai dila eka maMdira hai, svaAtmA kI jisameM hotI hai pUjA, yahI merA ghara hai dila eka maMdira hai jAne vAle to sadA haiM parAye, svaghara kI yAda hI mairI hai (2) dila eka maMdira hai ...... hara dhar3akana (khyAla)meM hotI hai mukti,AMkha jo mIMcI, ho jAye darzana (2) mauta miTA de ye pudgala hastI, AtmA to ... amara hai (2) dila eka maMdira hai. hama isa pudgala ke baMdhana ko bhUla, nija Atma jyota jalAeM (2) sAMsa (jJAna) kI hara pala (kSaNa) pukAre, yaha paramAtmA kA ghara hai (2) dila eka maMdira hai ......... 121

Page #124
pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA pahalA ratna eka dravya anya dravya kA kucha bhI nahIM kara sakatA zarIra hai jar3a aura merA caitanya rAjA to isase alaga zarIra mere caitanya rAjA kA na kucha kara sake aura na hI maiM caitanya isa zarIra kA, kucha bhI banA sakU yA bigAr3a maiM caitanya hI to jJAna svarUpa aura yaha saba jAna sakU~ isa becAre zarIra ko kyA khabara, isake to guNa hI haiM sar3anA aura galanA. vo hI to isa meM hotA rahe hara pala maiM caitanya kucha bhI na karate, sirpha jAnUM maiM jJAna svarUpa anaMta nija nidhiyoM se hUM bharapUra isa zarIra meM hI raha, isa saMsAra meM hI jI, sirpha hI sabako jAnUM. duniyA samajhe maiM rahatA isa saMsAra meM para maiM to nija svabhAva meM, nija guNoM saMga hI hUM isIliye yaha jAnanA, mAnanA, anubhava meM bhI lAnA ki eka dravya anya dravya kA kucha bhI nahIM kara sakatA saMsAra kA aisA mahAna ratna, ki bhUlA huA maiM sadiyoM se phira svayaM ko nija nidhiyoM saMga jAna sakU, dekha sakU 122

Page #125
eka bAra jAnA, mAnA, pahacAnA mujha caitanya ciMtAmaNI ko sAre dravyoM se bhinna, asaMgI, pUrNa akartA aura sAtha sAtha meM kI pratIta, kiyA anubhava ki maiM caitanya to hUM hI svayaM meM, svayaM se, paripUrNa, cidAnaMdI, jJAnasvarUpa jAnanA hI to hai, mAnanA hI to hai, mujha aMtara meM mujha caitanya kA, AnaMda kA, sukha zAMti kA hI anubhava hai isameM na to denA zarIra ko kaSTa, aura na hI hai koI moha na to bananA paMDita, aura na hI kasanA mana buddhi ko basa yAda kara le pUjya gurudeva kA mahA ratna dina-rAta ho jAye saphala terA manuSya jIvana, bana asaMgI, akartA isa saMsAra meM koI tAkata nahIM, kara sake vo tujhe dukhI tU to svayaM hI hai cidAnaMdI, jJAnasvarupI, mokSasvarUpa 123

Page #126
pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA dUjA ratna dUjA mahA ratna hai pUjya gurudeva kA: kramabaddha paryAya jo dravya kI, jo paryAya, jisa samaya, jisa kSetra meM jisa vidhi se, jaisI hotI hai, isameM narendra aura jinendra bhI kucha pheraphAra nahIM kara sakate isa duniyA ke chaha dravya, svayaM kI hI zakti se svayaM meM hI, svataMtratA se pariNamana kara rahe haiM maiM jJAyaka jIva kA bhI bhinna bhinna avasthAoM meM pariNamana mere hI paryAyoM meM, majha zakti se hotA hai aba paryAyeM badalatI raheM usase bhI mujhe kyA karanA maiM jIva dhruva acala, aDola, sthira merI hI anaMta zaktiyoM se suzobhita svayaM meM hI paripUrNa hUM paryAyeM raheM evaM badaleM, maiM mujhameM hI paripUrNa hUM 124

Page #127
merA svayaM kA paripUrNa vItarAga jJAna hI to mujhe batA rahA hai tU caitanya rAjA sabhI anya dravyoM kA jJAtA sAre dravyoM ke pariNamana kA bhI jJAtA, aura svayaM ko, svayaM meM, svayaM se hI pariNamate jAna rahA hai na aisA vItarAgI, sarvajJa, jJAnasvarUpa maiM yaha dekhate jAnate ki sabhI svayaM meM hI, svayaM se hI pariNama rahe haiM to phira kucha pheraphAra kA vicAra bhI kaisA? yaha mahAratna hI merA svayaM kA jJAnasvarUpa hI hai na vItarAgI nirgrantha guru, maiM isa manuSya paryAya meM terA anaMta upakArI. tUne hI to mujhe jagAyA aura batAyA merA svayaM kA bhUlA sarvajJa cidAnaMdI,akartA, zAzvata svarUpa dhanya guru, dhanya vItarAgI jina svarUpa, dhanya merI vItarAgatA! 125

Page #128
pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA tIjA ratna tIjA mahA ratna: utpAda, vyaya, dhruva kI svataMtratA utpAda, dhruva evaM vyaya kI apekSA hI nahIM rakhatA vyaya, dhruva evaM utpAda kI bhI apekSA nahIM rakhatA aura dhruva, utpAda evaM vyaya kI apekSA nahIM rakhatA tInoM pUrNatA se hI, nirapekSa hI pariNamate haiM yahI to merA svayaM kA pUrNa rUpa se pariNamatA jJAna hI hai kaise to nikalatA maiM nigoda se evaM vahI jIva jo thA nigoda meM, pariNama jAtA svayaM kI hI siddha dazA meM isa mahA ratna para kaI paMDita evaM jJAnI bhI kabhI kabhI khA jAte mAta, pUjya gurudeva hI, bhAvI tIrthaMkara hI, hama ziSyoM ko samajhA sake yaha bAta kahate haiM gurudeva yAda rakha tU hI hai prabhu kabhI nahIM nigoda kA jIva 126

Page #129
yahI to gurudeva kA nAda hai, gUMjatA ina kAnoM meM, jIva terI sArI kI sArI bAhya avasthAyeM, paryAyeM, to tujhase haiM bhinna, evaM pariNama rahIM svayaM ke hI SaTakAraka se, tU to pUrNa cidAnaMdI, jJAnasvarUpa, mokSasvarUpa paryAyeM hotI haiM, terI hI haiM. utpAda ho, to vyaya hI hone ke liye, inhIM paryAyoM se hI to tU ghUmA sArA saMsAra hai, aura tUne bhrama kiyA sukhI-du:khI hone kA tU to hamezA hI pUrNa, nirapekSa, svataMtra dhruva jJAyaka hai yaha paryAyeM kramase hI A, simaTa jAyeM tujhameM basa tU to caitanya rAjA, jJAyaka, jAnatA hI sabhI ko tU tInoM lokakA nAtha, svayaM hI sarvajJa jJAtA draSTA, jAne tU to sabako, aura pariName sabhI svayaM ke krama se 127

Page #130
pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA cauthA ratna cauthA mahA ratna hai gurudeva kA, ki nimitta hote haiM avazya, para kara sakate kucha bhI nahIM. nimittoM kI hAjarI bagaira bhI kucha hotA hI nahIM, evaM nimitta kabhI bhI, kahAM bhI,kucha bhI kara sakate hI nahIM saMsAra banA cha dravyoM kA, sAre ke sAre anaMta jIva aura anaMtAnaMta pudgala khuda khuda ke hI upAdAna se isa loka meM pariNamate hI rahate haiM. svayaM hI khuda kA siddhapanA bhI svayaM ke hI upAdAna se pAte haiM. maiM jIva jJAyaka hI jAna sakatA hUM abhI merA pragaTa jJAna hai alpajJa, mere anaMta puNyoM se mujhe gurudeva jaise sarvotkRSTha nimitta haiM mile, mujha sarvajJa ko merI hI mUrchA se jagA rahe haiM. nimitta kaha rahe haiM, ziSya chor3a mujhe, svayaM ke upAdAna meM tU jA, vahIM para hai tU svayaM pUrNa 128

Page #131
jaba gurudeva ne kahA svayaM meM hI, svayaM se hI, svayaM meM jA. to ziSya kahe, ye sAre duniyA ke nimittoM kA kyA ? yaha ghara, zarIra, saMbaMdha, dhana-daulata kisI bhI kAma ke hI nahIM ye saba to duHkhakArI, kSaNika, maiM to svayaM meM hI hUM zAzvata isI taraha isa saMsAra se hote sAre zubhAzubha bhAva mere nahIM ve hoveM mujha meM, para mere nahIM, maiM to svayaM hI, svayaM se hI paramapAriNAmika, aDola. nitya, jJAnAnaMda nija bhAva hI hUM zuddha caitanya, zAMtimaya, nimittoMse pare, nija upAdAna hI haiM 129

Page #132
pUjya zrI gurudeva kA diyA pA~cavA ratna gurudeva kA pAMcavA ratna thA ki isameM dharma kahAM? jo pariNAma svataMtratA se para tarapha jhukA hai vahI pariNAma svataMtratA se sva tarapha jhuke to dharma kI dazA pragaTa ho jAye. dekho to gurudeva kA kamAla kara diyA Aja mujhe to mAlAmAla, batA diyA ki maiM to svayaM hI zuddha-buddha paripUrNa mokSasvarUpa hI hUM aba paryAya meM pragaTa anubhava svataMtratA se hI hogA dazA to avazya pragaTa hI hogI aura maiM svayaM hI mere svayaM ke upAdAna jJAna meM hI ahaM karUMgA maiM hUM akartA, asaMgI, apariNAmI, aDola gurudeva ke batAye eka nahIM pAMcoM ratnoM para dina-rAta dhyAna kara mere svayaM meM hI jhAMkaMgA 130

Page #133
yaha pAMcoM ratna mujha bhaTake, bhUle ziSya ko svayaM kA nija ghara, nija jJAna svabhAva, nija vaibhava kA hI bhAna karAte haiM, Age kahate haiM ziSya bhaTakanA chor3a, tU svayaM hI svayaM kA sAdhana hai, sAdhya hai, svayaM hI hai dhyeya svayaM hI hai jJAna, jJAtA evaM sAre ke sAre jJeya bhI tU svayaM hI svayaM ko pAyegA aura nija nidhiyoM meM hI sadA ke liye sukha-zAMtimaya hI jAnegA. dhanya hai svayaM kA upAdAna, svayaM se, sAre nimittoM se svataMtra aba isa zarIra kA gulAma to kyA, hUM to pUrNa mukta 131

Page #134
prIta prIta hai merI maiMne chupAI, aisI dabAI ki pahacAnI bhI na jAi pahale chupAI mA~ ke AMcala meM, maiMne phira chupAI gharabAra hI meM mA~ bApa lage pyAre aura lage pyAre bhAI bahana bhI jaise jaise samaya bItA dosta baMdhu bhI lage mujhe pyAre aise bhI to pala haiM Aye ki mA~ bApa se bhI jyAdA kahIM dosta baMdhu laga gaye mujhe pyAre, dekho to aba kaise maiMne merI hI prIta chupAI aura dabA lI ina badalate hI raMgoM meM, riztoM meM, saMbaMdhoM meM, rAga ke ina bhAvoM meM aura bhI samaya jo nikalA prIta ke saMbaMdha bhI bana hI gaye majabUta, rAga bhI merA huA gaharA, prIta banI pati-patnI kI aura bAla-baccoM kI aura aba to aisA hI lage, yaha prIta hai merI sadA ke liye 132

Page #135
kitanI thI maiM galata isakA bhI khyAla avazya hI AyA acchA saccA dosta banakara, eka sadgurU kA saMdeza AyA jUTha saca kA rAz2a bhI samajhA, saMbaMdhoM meM kyA hai saccA aura kyA hai mAyA yaha bhI to kucha samajha meM AyA aba dikhI saccI prIta hai kaisI aura isa hasane rone ke pIche zAzvata aisA zuddha AnaMda aura zAMti bhI hai kyA merA khudakA aTUTa, alaukika, anupama saMbaMdha hai kyA maiM to mujhameM hI hUM pUrNa mujhase hI hai prIta aura saMbaMdha bhI mujhameM hI merA nijapada mila gayA, zAzvata pada bhI nija bhAvoM meM hI pragaTA jJAyaka AnaMda bhAva bhI jhara gaye ve sAre jUThe saMbaMdha, khila uThA aMtara kamala zAMti ke jharane jhare, mahaka uThI merI zAzvata prIta bhI 133

Page #136
prema jaina darzana prema kA darzana hai, gurU ziSya se pUchate haiM tUne kabhI bhI kisase, khuda se bhI adhika, jyAdA pyAra kiyA hai ? ziSya kahatA hai maiM kisIko bhI batAtA nahIM, para maiMne merI bheMsa se prema kiyA hai to gurU kahate haiM, basa to phira saba ThIka hai, tU tere Atma tatva ko bhI pA sakatA hai. tU jaina, vijayI bana sakatA hai basa tujhe prema akSara kA sirpha jJAna hI nahIM, kriyA hI nahIM usakA aMtaraMga meM anubhava hai, tUne prema kiyA hai terA prema sirpha jJAna, kriyA aura vAsanAoM se ghirA hai saccA prema aMdhA hai, aMtara meM, svaccha, zuddha hai, apekSAoM ke bagaira, svayaM meM hI paripUrNa hai tosa tU to tujha meM hI birAjamAna aise Atmatattva se prema kara le yahAM AnaMda hI AnaMda hai deha kI apekSA chor3a, deha meM to dukha hI dukha hai anitya hai, roga hai, rAga hai, dveSa hai, kaSAyoM se bharapUra hai te prema ko tU gurUoM kA AkAra de, tIrthaMkaroM kI mUrtiyoM kA AkAra de basa unakA saccA premI bana vahAM tarka-vitarka nahIM, kahAM, kaise, kyoM bhI nahIM maiM aura tU bhI nahIM, basa prema hI hai nyArA 134 |

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dulArA, atIndriya, samAyA na jAya, aisA prema hI hai, prema meM hI DUba prema meM iSTa-aniSTa bhI nahIM, aise prema ko duniyA to samajhe nahIM vo to bhajana gAye para mIrA aura tulasI jaisA prema na kare basa tU to prema meM par3a jA, prema hI kara le, sabhI prazna samAdhAna hote haiM prema meM duniyA bhale AMsU dekhe, para AnaMda hI AnaMda kA anubhava hai prema meM nirvikalpa, nirAkArI, zuddha, buddha, hai ye prema prema hI hai kRSNa, budhdha, mahAvIra yA rAma, prema hI hai paripUrNa Atma tattva prema hI hai bhajana, pUjana, svAdhyAya yA pATha prema meM hI, premI aura merA prema aisA vibhAga hI nahIM prema hI guNa hai, zakti hai, zuddha sAdhana bhI yahI hai sacce prema meM rAga nahIM, dveSa nahIM, usameM to sAre raMga mila sapheda cAMdanI hI hai, prema hI pUjA, prema hI pUjya, prema hI zaraNA hai premI ko tU jAna le, chu le, pUjA, abhiSeka bhI kara le lekina yadi tU pyAra nahIM karatA, svayaM premI nahIM banatA, to tU jaina nahIM banatA vijayI nahIM banatA. basa sabako chor3a yA pakar3a, basa tU to premI hI bana 135

Page #138
baoNla ona da vAla Aja kI eka bAta batAUM maiM, merA hI eka khyAla batAUM maiM rahatI hUM maiM Tenisa korTsa ke sAmane, sabhI kahate haiM ki khela tU Tenisa maiMne bhI eka TIcara DhUMDhA aura khelane lagI maiM Tenisa Aja ke dina bAdala ghire the, dhUpa bilakula bhI nahIM thI gayI maiM Tenisa kI prekTisa ke lie, akelI thI maiM, aura khelane lagI maiM divAla ke sAtha baoNla ko rekeTa ke sAtha pUrA sviMga kara pheMkU maiM divAla para vApisa Aye, aura phira maiM pheMkU dAeM se pheMkU, bAeM se pheMkU, pheMkU maiM pUre jora zora se phira vicAra calA ki karatI AI maiM,yahI to bhava bhAvAntara se janmo janama se baoNla haiM pheMkeM, apane karmoM ke nimitta se karmoM ko hI saba kucha mAnA usI meM racapaca kara pheMkeM maiMne baoNla dAeM se aura bAeM se, khuza hui yadi baoNla jaisA cAhA thA vaisA hI par3A dukhI hui yA hui nArAja yadi baoNla vaisA hI nahIM par3A 136

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bhrama hai mujhe ki maiM sIkhane calI, kaho kyA to maiM sIkhane calI? milA hai ye rekeTa, ye Tenisa baoNla, ye Tenisa korTa mile haiM ye hAtha aura zarIra, sabhI karmoM se kyA maiM karmoM kI kaThaputalI hUM? kyA maiM yahI sIkhane janmI hUM? nahIM, maiM to puruSa hUM, puruSa hUM, maiM to AtmA hUM AtmA hUM maiM to AtmaciMtana hI karUMgI Tenisa kyA, aura baoNla kyA. mere bhavoM ko bhI nihArUMgI jaura se mArUM, dAeM se mArUM, bAeM se mArUM, pUrI hI himmata se mArUM baoNla ko hI nihArate nihArate zuddha caitanya AtmA ko nihArUM eka dina ye baoNla bhI calA jAyegA, karmoM kA khela bhI qhatama ho jAegA maiM to svataMtra, svaAnaMda meM jhUlUMgI dAyAM kyA aura bAyAM kyA, sIdhe hI siddha bana jAuMgI 137

Page #140
mithyAtva kA visphoTa pahADoM ko banate sAloM, arasoM lagate haiM, tabhI ve itane bar3e prabhAvazAlI zaktizAlI pahAr3a bana pAte haiM apanA mithyAtva, AtmA kA ulTA galata jJAna bhI arasoM purAnA hai jaise ki anAdi kA hI ho. hama isa lokAloka meM paribhramaNa karate karate itane arasoM se nija AtmA ko, asalI khuda ko isa saMsAra ke raMgoM meM, indriyoM ke viSayoM meM aise to bhUla gaye haiM ki jaise mithyAtva kA pahAr3a hI banA liyA ho svayaM jIva kA galata jJAna, kyA hai merA-parAyA bhUla jAnA, sAre ajIva dravyoM ko apanA mAna unameM hI dukhIsukhI honA, zarIra aura zarIra ke saMbaMdhoM ko apanA mAnanA jaise ye sAre patthara eka dUsare se jur3a aise to zaktizAlI pahAr3a banA dete haiM ki maiM, merA saccA svarUpa isa pahAr3a meM dikhA hI nahIM detAjAnA hI nahIM jAtA pahAr3a meM se upayoga meM lA sakeM aise patthara cAhiyeM to hama pahADoM meM suraMga lagA visphoTa kara dete haiM. guru kahate haiM, hamArA jinazAsana kahatA hai, hamAre zAstra kahate haiM AtmArthI, yadi tujhe terA nija pada DhUMDha nikAlanA hai, tere cidAnaMdI, zuddha svarUpI ko pahacAnanA hai to phira tU bhI bheda vijJAna kI suraMga lagA isa mithyAtva ke pahAr3a kA visphoTa kara DAla, sArI jUThI mAnyatAoM ko bikhera DAla,apane nija se alaga hI haiM, dUra kara DAla. yahI terI saccI tapasyA hai, terA tapa hai, terI pUjA hai. paMcaparameSThiyoM ne apanA sabase bar3A doSa isIko batAyA hai, aura kahA hai, tUpahale mithyAtva ko hI dUra kara, dUra kara phira AtmArthI apane mArga meM Age bar3ha sakegA,jinazAsana kAyaroM kA nahIM,kSatriyoM kA hai,sAre tIrthaMkara kSatriya kula meM hI janma lete haiM. AtmArthI, tU to niDara bana, nirbhayatA se isa mithyAtva kA visphoTa kara DAla, visphoTa kara DAla 138

Page #141
mithyAtva merA bhI eka bagIcA hai. bahuta hI harA phalA, phUlA, itanA sundara, lobhAyamAna ___ khuzabU aura raMgoMse bharapUra. usameM vIDsa nahIM cAhiye, nahI acche lageM paudhoM ke bIcabIcameM A hI jAte haiM. unako meM nikAla DAlUM, aura nikAlUM bhI to jaDa se, nahIM to A hI jAte haiM. mere pUre bagIce ko ghera lete haiM, mere manacAhe paudhoMko phalane, phUlane nahIM dete, mere manacAhe paudhoMse pAnI dhUpa miTTIkI khurAka, sabhI chIna lete haiM, chIna lete haiM kahIM merA mana cAhA paudhA sUkha na jAye, mara na jAye isIliye maiM to ojAra lekara roja roja subaha zAma ina vIGsako, nikAlane kA prayAsa karatI hUM ekadina yadi eka dina maiM vyasta ho gaI to dUsare dina to jaise duganA nahIM, cAragunA nahIM, cAlIsagunA kAma lagatA hai mere bagIce meM vIGsa na hoM isake lie to jaba mere manacAhe paudhoMko bouM usase pahale bhI miTTI ke upara eka moTA plAsTika DAla detI hUM. miTTImeM aisA mizraNa DAlatI hUM jo vIGsako na de ugane para mere manacAhe paudhoMko ugane de use bar3A hone de. phirabhI mujhe subaha zAma bagIce meM jAkara sAre vIDsa nikAlane par3ate haiM. sabhI orase jar3a se nikAlane par3ate haiM 139

Page #142
taba guru kahate haiM yadi tujhe mithyAtva dUra karanA hai, saccA mumukSu AtmArthI bananA hai to isa mithyAtvako palane na de. ise to tU jar3ase nikAla. ye to phira uga hI AyegA. yahAM-vahAM, khayAloMmeM, vicAroMmeM, phira pAMca indriyoMkI kriyAoM meM uga hI AyegA, uga hI AyegA tU to bhakti, jJAna, svAdhyAya, guruupadeza, AjJA, sAreke sAre ojAra le dina aura rAta isImeM laga jA. guruoMne ise nikAla bhagAyA hai, tU bhI avazya kara sakegA. isI zraddhA dhIraja se tU to pIche laga jA, terA puruSArtha kara le terA svayaMkA pada, terA khudakA nitya, cidAnaMdI paudhA terI hI khuda kI bagiyA meM phUla uThegA, mahaka uThegA 140

Page #143
mukta jIva aura pudgala maiM hI merI hI mithyAmAnyatAoM kA kaidI aura yaha zarIra saMbaMdha hI merI jaila vaise to maiM caitanya sadA se hI mukta aura jaila rUpa pudgala bhI to mukta mujha kaidI ne hI svayaM ko kaidI samajhA kyA maiM isa kaida meM hI svayaM ko svataMtra mAna, jAna, pahacAna, samajha sakatA makta hI pratIta evaM anubhava kara sakatA maiM kaidI bhI mukta aura jaila bhI mukta maiM saMsArI aura jaila sArI hI pudgala maiM mere krama meM aura pudgala svayaM ke hI krama meM jaisA kevalI gamya, pariNamatA 141

Page #144
vAstava meM to maiM kabhI kaidI banA nahIM aura jaila bhI kabhI thI hI nahIM, are yaha sArI merI mithyA kalpanA hI thI aura aba to hama svataMtra haiM, the, aura raheMge pariNamatA saMsArI kaidI aura jaila hai saMbaMdha mukta siddha avasthA caitanya hI paripUrNa pudgala bhI svayaM me hI paripUrNa aura isa taraha jIva aura pudgala donoM svataMtra 142

Page #145
- maiM tujhameM tU hI mujhameM paMcaparameSThI tU hI merA saMga hai, pUjya bhI hai tujhameM hI merA rUpa hai, tujhameM hI maiM jaNAtA hUM tujhe dekhate, tujhe hI pUjate hI mujhe merA hI tujhameM pratibhAsa hotA hai, mujha caitanya anaMta guNoM sahita hI merA hI svarUpa mujhe jaNAtA hai| he paMcaparameSThI tujha hI ko isa saMsAra se mukta pudgaloM se bhinna aura aprabhAvita dekhakara maiM bhI mujhako isa saMsAra se mukta aura sAre saMyogI pudgaloM se bhI mukta dekha pAtI hUM tujhe pudgaloM se aprabhAvita dekha prabhAvita ho jAtI hUM he paMcaparameSThI terA saumya, apariNAmI, sthira rUpa dekha hI mujhameM bhI aisI hI zakti hai, jAnatI hUM isI zakti ko jAna, mAna, pahacAna meM bhI mujhe hI sAre pudgaloM se aprabhAvita karatI hUM mujha amaryAdita zakti kA bhI bhAna karatI hUM 143

Page #146
/ 144 he paMcaparameSThI terA saumya, apariNAmI, sthira rUpa hI mujhe bhI merA apariNAmI sthira rUpa dikhAtA hai vahI pariNamatA jJAna isa ajJAna ko bhI jAnatA hai dekhatA hai, tabhI to maiM isa ajJAna rUpa ko mujha se bhinna jAna mAna svayaM meM hI Thahara sakatA hUM he paMcaparameSThI tabhI maiM bhI merA khudakA saumya rUpa jAna, mAna, pahacAna mere tere hI saMga se dhIre dhIre pUrNa taya tere jaise hI jJAnamaya jJAyaka bhAvarUpa audAyika, kSayopazama, upazama, kSAyika se bhinna hI paramapAriNAmika bhAva svarUpa ho letA hUM *** |

Page #147
- maiM hUM mujha meM mujhameM pUrA kaise banUM maiM terA, terA tU hai tujha meM pUrA, kyoM banUM maiM terA, terA maiM jAnUM tujhako mujhako maiM jAnanahArA maiM hUM mujha meM pUrA, kaise banUM maiM terA, terA maiM jiyA tere liye, hai to merA pAgalapana maiM pAgalapana kara hI anAdise banA rogI maiM hUM maiM, tU to merA saMyoga nahIM haiM eka jaise dUdha na banatA pAnI, pAnI na bane dUdha maiM hUM mujha meM pUrA kaise banUM maiM terA, terA 1 maiM dukhI ho letA, jaba svabhAva se sukhamaya maiM akarttA, karane kA, aMjAma hI dukhamaya maiM mujhameM zAzvata, tU hai tujhameM, yahI jAna maiM mere svabhAva meM rahatA trikAlI sukhamaya maiM hUM mujha meM pUrA, kaise banUM maiM terA, terA 145

Page #148
mere guNa haiM mujhameM, tere sAre guNa tujhameM mere guNa to anaMta, jAnUM dekhU hI mukhya tere rasa, varNa, gaMdha, sparza, kitane haiM bhinna maiM arUpI, tU rUpI, sAthI bane saMyoga se maiM hUM mujha meM pUrA, kaise banUM maiM terA, terA maiM karUM merA, tU terA, donoM haiM svAdhIna kaise maiMne mAnA ki tU ho sake merA maiM akelA ayogI, yahI bhAva kartA - hartA ke banA rahe mujhe hI terA saMyogI aura saMsArI maiM hUM mujha meM pUrA, kaise banUM maiM terA, terA mujhe gurU ne merI hI mUrchA se hai uThAyA svarUpa batA merA hI viveka hai jagAyA maiM hUM aDola, apariNAmI, nizcinta, nirbhAra zAMta sukhamaya jJAnAnaMdI yahI hai batAyA maiM hUM mujha meM pUrA, kaise banUM maiM terA, terA 146

Page #149
- maiMne mujha se pyAra kiyA hai jitanA maiM mujhase pyAra kiyA hai jitanA kauna karegA itanA, . kauna karegA itanA merA caitanya jJAnamaya hai alaga hI, merI sAMsoM aura dhaDakanoM se mere aMtara kA saba kucha merA, mujhameM hote mere hI haiM bhAva sAre maiM mujhase pyAra kiyA hai jitanA kauna karegA itanA, kauna karegA itanA maiM hI merA vaidya, aura veduM bhI mujhako hI, davAI bhI to hUM maiM merI maiM to mujhameM hI sampUrNa, mujhase hI maiM hUM mujha meM, mujhase, merA hI maiM mujhase pyAra kiyA hai jitanA kauna karegA itanA, kauna karegA itanA 1 merA jJAna mujhe hI to jAnatA, mujhameM hotI hara halacala ko pahacAnatA merA sukha bhI mujhameM aura hai dukha bhI mujhameM, hotA sukhAbhAsa bhI mujhameM mujhase pyAra kiyA hai jitanA kauna karegA itanA, kauna karegA itanA bAhara se hUM udAsa para aMtara hai umar3atA, anaMta meM chipA eka hI hai dikhatA kucha bhI karUM nahIM, kucha karane ko nahIM hai dikhatA, basa jAnatA hI jAnatA maiM mujhase pyAra kiyA hai jitanA kauna karegA itanA, kauna karegA itanA 147

Page #150
bAhara se kucha hotA hai, aMtara meM to kucha kA kucha ho hI jAtA hai maiM to aMtara, bAhara jaisA hUM, vaisA hI to eka hI dikhAtA hUM maiMne mujhase pyAra kiyA hai jitanA, kauna karegA itanA, kauna karegA itanA bAhara saba kucha kramabaddha hai, aMtara meM to akrama hI ullAsa hai maiM eka bAhara-aMtara, krama-akrama anubhavatA eka hI to jIva hUM maiMne mujhase pyAra kiyA hai jitanA, kauna karegA itanA, kauna karegA itanA mere aMtara meM koI bhI Dara nahIM aura nahIM hai mujhe kisIkI ciMtA maiM zAMti se hUM bharapUra aura hUM prema kI eka akhaMDa dhArA maiMne mujhase pyAra kiyA hai jitanA, kauna karegA itanA, kauna karegA itanA 148

Page #151
yaha 60 sAla bitAye haiM kisane? This poem is to remind us the truth we have forgotten and are trying very hard to remember. Realize our own eternal, blissful true nature. yaha 60 sAla bitAye haiM kisane? isa jIva ne yA zarIra ne? ina 60 sAloM kI purAnI yAdoM ke yaha 60 liphAphe ? kyA eka eka liphAphA isa zarIra kI aura isa zarIra ke hI sambandhoM kI yAdoM ko tAjA karane, yAdoM meM DUbane hI ikaTThe kiye gaye haiM? parantu kyA ye yAdeM aba tAjA ho sakeMgI? mujhe hI, mere hI zarIra kI isa yAtrA kI ye yAdeM, mujhe hI pahacAna sakeMgI? Aja mujha jIva ko to yaha saba kucha alaga, bhinna, pRthak hI laga rahA hai. jaise ki ina yAdoM meM maiM hI nahIM! ye merI bhI nahIM merI yAdadAsta ko kucha bhI nahIM huA. yaha sArI ghaTanAeM bhI to bilakula saca hI haiM. ina yAdoM meM dikhalAye saMbaMdho? inako hI aba maiM kucha alaga jAna gayA hUM, chipe trikAla sata ko jAna gayA hUM maiM jIva to kabhI bhI badalA hI nahIM, saba jAnatA hI rahA hUM? dekho maiM sATha sAla kA nahIM, kucha to galatI ho gaI hai? yaha to zarIra hI haiM. maiM koI bhI saMbaMdhoM se baMdhA bhI nahIM. maiM to svataMtra, paripUrNa,zAMtimaya, AnaMdamaya, vIryavAna hI hUM. dekho jo gayA so gayA maiM jIva ajara, amara, avinAzI,ayogI, abaddha, jJAnAnaMda hI hUM. 49

Page #152
saMgIta kI mahaphila saMgIta kI mahaphila jamI thI bahuta sAre kalAkAra ekatrita hue the, tabaloM ke tAla the, sitAroM ke sura, hAramoniyama kI dhuna aura kalAkAroM kI madhura AvAz2a hAtha aura uMgaliyAM to tabaloM para nRtya hI kara rahI thIM 150 mahaphila raMgIna thI, kAnoM ko madhura laga rahI thI, vAtAvaraNa suroM se bharA kalAkAroM ke rAga se raMga gayA thA, thor3I dera to maiM bhI isI meM raMga gayI phira vicAra calA ki kaise yaha mahaphila banI ? jaina darzana to kahatA hai ki sAre dravya svayaM ke guNoM aura paryAyoM se yukta khuda meM khuda se hI hai koI dravya yA dravya kA paramANu bhI kisI ora ke lie kabhI bhI kucha bhI nahIM kara sakatA to phira kaise yaha mahaphila mumakina hai ? ye sAre vAjaMtra, ye hAtha, uMgaliyAM, AvAja, sabhI to alaga alaga paramANuoM se bane pudgala haiM uMgaliyAM yA hAtha tabalA bajAnA to kyA use chUte taka nahIM sabhI svayaMmeM svataMtra haiM maiM caitanya jAna rahI hUM, yaha bhI to hama vyavahAra se kahate haiM, vAstava meM to maiM caitanya khuda ko hI jAna sakatI hUM aura ye sAre para jJeya to mere jJAna meM A jAte haiM. jJeya haiM isalie nahIM ye to jJAna kI hI vizeSatA hai |

Page #153
- tabhI aisA lagA ki isI taraha hI ye sArA saMsAra bhI to cala rahA hai na isakA na koI kartA aura na koI saMcAlaka, sAre dravya svayaMmeM svayaMse svayaMke hI guNa pariNamana karate haiM aura ina nimittanaimittika saMbaMdhoM se yaha saMsAra apane Apa hI cala rahA hai saMsAra meM rAga hai, raMga hai, kSamA hai, krodha hai, kaliyAM haiM, aura haiM phUla. rAta ke bAda saberA, ThaMDI ke bAda vasaMta Rtu aura saMsAra to jArI hI hai. sArA saMsAra mahaphila kI taraha svayaM hI calatA rahatA hai. isa saba bIca maiM to caitanya jJAna svarUpa svataMtra hUM, jAnanahAra hUM svayaM se hI hUM Aja mujhe akartApane kA, dravya kI svataMtratA kA aura sAre dravyoM kI pariNamanazIlatA kA jaise pratyakSa hI anubhava huA. AMkhoM ke sAmane jaise sabhI vAjiMtra baja rahe haiM, sura hai aura tAla hai phira bhI sabhI svataMtra rUpa se pariNamana karate hue bhI saMgIta bhI hai aise hI cha dravyoM se ye pUrA saMsAra hai isameM na koI iSTa na aniSTa, na choTA na bar3A, aura nahIM koI kisIkA. sAre dravya svayaM se, svayaM meM, guNoM se yukta svataMtra aura maiM jIva caitanya bhI svataMtra, jJAnasvarUpa cidAnaMdI hI hUM *** 151

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satya gAMdhIjI kI satya kI paribhASA aura sabhI logoM se jyAdA gahana thI saca bolanA, sunanA, aura satya hI dekhanA. dUsare kI cIja hama leM aura hamArI cIja koI dUsarA le, unheM maMjUra nahIM thA. isIliye satya ke bala para to unhoMne pUrI lar3AI jItI. pUre hidustAna ko svataMtra kiyA aMgreja hamAre hI ghara meM hameM gulAma banAeM, hamArA Apasa meM hI jhagar3A karA hameM kamajora kara DAleM, ye unheM dikhAI diyA, isIliye vo eka laMgoTI pahana unheM kaha sake ki hama hamAre hI ghara meM isa taraha gulAma nahIM baneMge hama tumhAre banAye kapar3e, tumhArI bhASA,saMskRti ko jAneMge parantu apanAyeMge nahIM AtmA kA dharma,jinazAsana bhI hameM saccAI se rahane aura svayaM kI svataMtratA samajhAtA hai merI to zuddha, cidAnaMdI, jJAnasvarupI AtmA hai.bAkI to saba hI mere nahIM dUsaroM kA paisA, jAyadAda, cIjeM hamArI nahIM aura unake bAre meM socanA bhI galata hI hai dUsaroM kI cIjoM ke bhAvoM meM, vicAroM meM maiM kaise magna ho sakatA hUM? jaise gAMdhIjI ne aMgrejoM ko parAyA samajhA vaise hI jaina muni bhI sAre parake bhAvoM ko bhI parAyA samajhate haiM evaM mAnate bhI haiM. ve to khuda meM hI,khuda se hI pUrI svataMtratA se jIte haiM aura isIlie pUrNa svataMtra pada, mokSa pada, evaM sadA ke liye parama AnaMda ko pAte haiM 152

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- aba soceMge, ye kaisI bAta hai, khudakA zarIra bhI parAyA, to jiyeM hI kaise ? jaba gAMdhIjI ne pahale pahala bhArata Akara bhAratIyoM ko kahA ki apana to apane hI ghara meM kaida haiM, to sabhI ko lagA ki abhI-abhI bAhara se AyA javAna kyA to kaha rahA dhIre dhIre bhAratIya samajhe isI taraha hamAre muni, AcAryoM kI bAteM yadi hama vicAreM gahanatA se unakI mahattA samajheM to hameM samajha AyegA ki kaise hamAre AtmA ko hamane, hamAre hI zarIra meM, para bhAvoM, zubhAzubha bhAvoM meM kaida kara rakhA hai usakI svataMtratA para usake nija svabhAva para jaMjIreM pahanAI haiN| jaise gAMdhIjI satya ke bala se nirbhaya the, vaise hI jaina muni bhI nirbhaya niDara, aDola hote haiM. unheM yaha duniyA prabhAvita nahIM karatI gAMdhI kI ahiMsaka lar3AI duniyA ke liye eka misAla thI hamAre muniyoM kA AtmapuruSArtha mAnavatA ko sata ke anubhava ke liye eka cunautI hai mAnatuMga AcArya ko mAnyatAyeM badalanA bhI kaida jaisA lagA. rAjA AcArya ko jaMjIroM se baMdhavAte haiM, aura AcArya svayaM kI Atma zakti se sArI jaMjIroM ko eka eka kara aisI tor3ate haiM ki rAjA aura prajA Azcarya ko pAte haiM *** 153

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svIkAra mere bhUtakAla meM jo kucha bhI huA, jabhI huA jaisA bhI huA, sabhIkA svIkAra hai, svIkAra hai mujhe mare hue bhUta se kucha sIkhanA nahIM, bhUtakAla to bhUta hI hai vo gayA, jaisA thA mujhe svIkAra hai kala ke sapaneM mujhe dekhane nahIM, isa saMsAra meM, mere zarIra meM mere zarIra ke sAre saMbaMdhoM meM, kala kyA hogA? __ kaise hogA? mujhe mAlUma karanA nahIM maiM usameM kahIM bhI kucha kara sakatA hI nahIM huM pAmara zuMkarI zakuM ovo nathI viveka ? prabhu jo bhI hogA, jahAM bhI hogA, jaisA hogA mujhe svIkAra hai, svIkAra hai, mujhe svIkAra hai prabhu icchA, kRSNa lIlA, rAma lIlA, svIkAra hai, svIkAra hai aba rahatA hai abhI kA samaya. isa kSaNa isa samaya jo kucha bhI ho rahA hai, maiM mahasUsa to karatA hUM para usameM iSTa-aniSTa, acchA-burA, sukha-dukha nahIM dekhatA. ina bhAvoM ko mahasUsa bhI nahIM karatA 154

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basa jo ho rahA hai, usameM prazna kare binA, jaisA ho rahA hai usakA sabakA jJAtA-draSTA bana maiM to mere svayaM avinAzI Atma tatva meM hI hUM use hI mahasUsa kara rahA hUM. usImeM hI hUM, AtmA hI hUM jo bhI ho rahA hai, svIkAra hai, maiM hUM jJAnasvarUpa jo bhI ho rahA hai, svIkAra hai, maiM hUM cidAnaMdI jo bhI ho rahA hai, svIkAra hai, meM hUM zAMtasvarUpa jo bhI ho rahA hai, svIkAra hai, maiM to sirpha eka jJAyaka hI hUM mere vIrya se, zaktioM se, guNoM se, maiM mujhako svayaM ko hI TikAye hue sva anubhava meM rahatA hUM, rahatA rahUMgA, sadaiva hI rahUMgA. sRSTi svIkAra, duniyA svIkAra, paristhitiyAM svIkAra, saba svIkAra 155

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jamAno mArAthI che, huM jamAnAthI nahIM zarIra jIvathI che, jIva zarIrathI nahIM huM jIva chuM A zarIra ne saMsAra to nahIM huM ja jANanAra e, jANI zakuM chuM e ja 156

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aMtara mAruM aMtara mAruM, aMtara mAruM, sau sukhono dariyo che aMtara mAruM nidhiyono bhaMDAra mAro potAno che e ja mAro prema che, e ja mArI huMpha che, emAM ja huM pAmuM muja premane, aDola evo AdhAra che aMtara mAruM, aMtara mAruM, sau sukhono dariyo che e ja mAruM sAnnidhya che, e ja mAro sakhA che huM pAmuM muja mitrane, acala evo AdhAra che aMtara mAruM, aMtara mAruM, sau sukhono dariyo che e ja mAruM sarvasva che, e ja mArI pUMjI che huM pAsuM nija dhanane, akSaya evo AdhAra che aMtara mAruM, aMtara mAruM, sau sukhono dariyo che e ja mAruM jJAna che, e ja mArI mana-buddhino prANa che e to pote jJAna-svarUpa evo AdhAra che 157

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aMtara mAruM, aMtara mAruM, sau sukhono dariyo che e ja mArI zAMti che, e ja mAro AnaMda che huM pAmuM muja zAMtine, zAMtimaya evo AdhAra che aMtara mAruM, aMtara mAruM, sau sukhono dariyo che e ja mAruM darzana che, emAM ja mAruM maMgaLa che. huM pAmuM mArI nidhiyo, evo avinAzI AdhAra che aMtara mAruM, aMtara mAruM, sau sukhono dariyo che aMtara mAruM nidhiyono bhaMDAra mAro potAno che 158.

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AtmA / jIvA e mAro che, ne mAro hato, mAro ja rahevAno che e to guruonI amI draSTithI bhIMjelo che e to vItarAgI prabhunI pUjAnA bhAvothI bhAvita che e mAro che, ne mAro hato, mAro ja rahevAno che e to guruvANIthI prabhAvita thai emAM DUbyo che e to parathI bhinna, parathI anero evo dravya che e mAro che, ne mAro hato, mAro ja rahevAno che e to vItarAgano rAgI, guruvANIno sAthI che pAMce dravyathI bhinna, e to paMca parameSThImAMya che e mAro che, ne mAro hato, mAro ja rahevAno che e to saunA saMgAthe che paNa sauthI alipta che e to sauno sAthI paNa potAmAM ja gupta che e mAro che, ne mAro hato, mAro ja rahevAno che e to gurunA caraNo, prabhunA caraNomAM ja che gurubhakti ne prabhubhaktino ja rasIo che e mAro che, ne mAro hato, mAro ja rahevAno che 159

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160 e to zAMta, rasamaya, AnaMdI ne svataMtra che, e to nirbhaya, suMdara, avinAzI evo ratna che e mAro che, ne mAro hato, mAro ja rahevAno che huM ene kema bhUlyo, kyAM bhUlyo e Azcarya che, have to mane jaDyo ne kadI paNa mArAthI alaga nathI e mAro che, ne mAro hato, mAro ja rahevAno che huM e chuM, ne e huM che, emAM kAMI navAi nathI, huM ne e banne ekabIjAmAM ekameka chIe e mAro che, ne mAro hato, mAro ja rahevAno che guruvANInI sAthe, prabhubhaktinAM saMgAthe, huM je pAmyo chuM e to sau ratnothI mulyavAna che e to uSA che, ujIyAro che, mAro potAno nija pada che e to uSA che, ujIyAro che, mAro potAno mokSa pada che *** |

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jako pAM vaTe AyA written in Kachchhi language juko pAMjo ve ne pAM vATe ve bhA hUja miNIthI kuTaro ve pAMjo ghara bhale nIMDhaDo ve ne zarIra bharlo vaDo na ve pAMjo kuTuMba bhaleM vaDo ve ne pAke miNIthI virANuM khape pAM vaTe bhA~ borA paisA na leM ne bArajA ThAThamATha na veM juko pAMjo ve ne pAM vaTe ve bhA hU ja miNIthI kuTaro ve. pAMmeM bhalaeNkhAmIyuM reMne miNIke pAM sArA paNa na lakhyuM pAM varI bhaNelA paNa na voM ne bhale na jANuM sAstara paNa pAM borA phirayA paNa na voM ne na jANuM pAM duniyA ke juko pAMjo ve ne pAM vaTe ve bhA hUja miNIthI kuTaro ve pAMjo AtamA pAMgyAja ve ne kIMpAM hinake bhUlI vinoMtA. AtamA pAMjo pAMlA miDe ja Aya ne hinameM ja pAMjo parama sukha pAMjo AtamA piMDhameMpUro hinake kiDAM koyajI jarUra juko pAMjo ve ne pAM vaTe ve bhA hUja miNIthI kuTaro ve. juko sukha DemiNI suoM thI amola heDo ja tatva Aya hameza jo sukha dIMghala ne hI tAM Aya hameza jo sAthI hIja ta halagho bhego ne bhava bhava jo Aya hI sAthI juko pAMjo ve ne pAM vaTe ve bhA hUja miNIthI kuTaro ve 161

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162 nimitta/upAdAna paga tUTI jAya to lAkaDI joIe, enA vagara calAya nahIM lAkaDI Amatema thai jAya to, huM ciMtita thai jAuM, lAkaDI kyAM gaI? eka lAkaDI vadhArAnI rAkhI laIe. jevA ja sArA thai jaIe, doDatA thai jaIe to pachI enA AnaMdamAM lAkaDI to kyAM yAda Ave! vAMcavAne cazmA joIe to cazmA sAthe ja rAkhavA paDe, Amatema na rahI jAya, enA mATe gaLAmAM ja paherI laIe, enA vagara to jANe AMkho ja nathI, eka DokaTara lejhara sarjarIthI AMkhone ekadama sArI karI de, to pachI enA AnaMdamAM cazmA kyAM yAda Ave ! nAnAbALanemA vagara cAle ja nahIM, mA ja joIe. UMghamAMthI uThe ne jo mAne badale bIjokoIupADetoevoraDe, evo raDe ne mAmA ja pukAre, jema jema moTo thato jAya pachI to potAnA saMsAramAM evo to vyasta thai jAya, ke mA ne paNa bhUlI javAya ! juo to e ja jInavANImA samajAve che ke AtmArthI tuM mane vAMca, samaja, tane potAne samaja, tArA prabhune samaja, jinabhakti kara, paNa sAthe sAthe tuM tArA zuddha svarUpane yAda karI le emAM ja lIna thai jA pachI enA AnaMdamAM, prakAzamAM, tuM mane paNa bhUlI jaIza! |

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nirAvalaMbI AtmA nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane paisA, gharabAra, sagA saMbaMdha, mitrono AdhAra nathI. koInuM paNa AlaMbana nathI nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane A zarIra, pAMca Indriyo ne mana buddhinuM paNa AlaMbana nathI nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane saMjJI paMcendriya kahevAya che paNa e to sAtha Ape, jayAre huM enuM AlaMbana choDuM nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane mArI pAMca indriyo to bahirmukha ja banAve che. paNa huM to aMtarmukha bahirmukhatAne choDuM chuM nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane karyo ane karmaphaLa cetanA mArAmAM ja anubhavAtI, enuM paNa AlaMbana nathI nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane vartamAna avasthAo jaNAtI ja nathI, pariNamatI avasthAonuM AlaMbana nathI nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane sudeva, suguru, suzAstrano paNa AdhAra nathI. koInuM paNa AlaMbana nathI 163

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nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane deva, guru, zAstra mArA nirAvalaMbInI dezanA Ape. emane samajIne huM emanuM AlaMbana choDuM nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane upakAra deva, zAstra, guruno che, ne emanI kRpAthI ja bhakti nija AtmapadanI che nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM mane deva, guru, zAstra to jANe mArA prANa che, paNa huM prANI to nirAvalaMbI ja chuM nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM dhanya che e devane,jemaNe mArAmAM ja mAro deva batAvyo, enuM bhaktibharyuM darzana karAvyuM nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM dhanya che e zAstrane, jemaNe mArAmAM ja mAro deva batAvyo, enuM mahAbhya che gAyuM nirAvalaMbI tattva chuM huM, jIva kaho, AtmA kaho, tattva chuM huM dhanya che e gurune, jemaNe mArAmAM ja mAro deva batAvyo, anubhava karAvyuM 164

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parama pariNAmika bhAva AtmAno ja paMcama bhAva, audAyika, kSayopazama, upazama, ane kSAyika bhAvothI bhinna parama pAriNAmika bhAva e ja to huM chuM, emAM ja magna chuM mArA bhAvomAM koIpaNa taraMgo nathI, mojAM nathI ne samudramAM AvatI bharatI ne oTa paNa nathI parama pAriNAmika bhAva e ja to huM chuM, emAM ja magna chuM potAmAM ja paripUrNa chuM, AnaMdita chuM, zAMtimaya chuM ne mArA potAnAM ja vIryathI sadAya chuM parama pAriNAmika bhAva e ja to huM chuM, emAM ja magna chuM A bhAvomAM AkhI duniyAmAM paNa pariNAmika bhAva ja dekhAya che chae dravya potapotAnAM pariNAmika bhAvamAM ja dekhAya che bIjI to pUrI duniyA, pudgala ne jIva nA pariNamana, kSaNika ja dekhAya che parama pAriNAmika bhAva e ja to huM chuM, emAM ja magna chuM pariNamana duHkhathI bharelo, sadaiva badalAto kSaNika ja dekhAya che huM to ajara, amara, avinAzI, aDola ja dekhAuM chuM e ja mArA pariNAmika bhAva che 165

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parama pAriNAmika bhAva e ja to huM chuM, emAM ja magna chuM A dukhadAI saMsArathI, sadeva pariNamatA saMsArathI, kSaNika raMgothI raMgAyelA saMsArathI, huM to bhinna chuM, alaga chuM e ja mArA pariNAmika bhAva che parama pAriNAmika bhAva e ja to huM chuM, emAM ja magna chuM huM to potAne ja jANuM chuM, huM to potAne ja anubhavuM chuM huM to potAmAM ja potAthI ja chuM, huM ja paMca parameSThImAMya chuM e ja mArA pariNAmika bhAva che 166

Page #169
/ vartamAna jJAnanI paryAya vartamAna paryAyamAM jJAna zAnuM che? bhAna zAnuM che? pratibhAsa zAno che? anubhava zAno che? A jJAna, jANa, pratibhAsa, anubhava zAnAthI thAya che? zarIranuM vijJAna kahe che, ke jarA sAkara khAdhI ne zarIramAM insulIna hAramona rilIjha thAya che. bIjA risepTarsa e hAramonane grahaNa paNa karI le che zuM ApaNane enuM bhAna ke jANa paNa thAya che? nahIM to ApaNane zAnuM jJAna, jANa ke bhAna thAya che? mananAM vicAro jaNAya che? ke jevA vicAra AvyA e pramANe kaMI kriyA zaru karI, bIjA vicAre mana caDI jAya che ne pahelo vicAra to bhUlAI paNa jAya che. zarIranuM paNa evuM ja kaMi che, kyAM dukhatuM hoya paNa jo vicAra bIje ja caDI jAya to e samaya mATe e duHkha paNa bhUlAI jAya che mAruM zuddha jJAna, A paranAM vicAro, mananI caMcaLatA, zarIra-IndriyonAM jJAnamAM dhuMdhaLuM thai jAya che. jyAM upayoga jAya che, eja tyAre jaNAya che, ne bIjuM bhUlI javAya che A dhummasane cokakhuM karatAM karatAM, rAga-dveSamAMthI bahAra nIkaLatAM nIkaLatAM Atma tattvanA vicAromAM, manamAM, buddhimAM, AtmAnI mahattA samajAtAM, zuddha AtmAno aMze avazya anubhava thaze Atma tattvanI mahattA vadhArI, udAsIna ne nirbhaya bhAvothI zuddhasvarUpa, akhaMDita dravyano anubhava thaze. AnaMdano anubhava thaze. 167

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guruone thayAM che ne mane paNa avazya thaze. A manuSya bhavanI A paryAyanI AbhArI chuM guruonAM niHspRha upadezo ne zAstronI AbhArI chuM prabhu teMto A AkhuM rahasya bahAra kADhyuM, darzAvyuM, tAro, tArA bhakta guruonI bhakta chuM, dAsa chuM, prabhu A ja bhaktimAM, vartamAna paryAyamAM tuM jaNAze mulAkAta Apaze, muja saMpUrNa ne mArAthI tRpta karaze, muja prakAzamAnane ja darzAvaze. pUjaya AnaMdaghanajI lakhe cheH gaganamanDalameM adhabIca kuA, vahAM hai amikA vAsA sugurA hoya so bhara bhara pIve, nagarA jAve pyAsA 168

Page #171
samaya samaya to samaya ja che, vahyA ja kare koNa roke ene, koNa badale ene mAro potAno paNa svasamaya che e to mAro pariNAmano samaya che ene paNa koNa badale, koNa roke, koNa saMbhALe huM to badhAno jANanAra jJAyaka ja chuM svasamayamAM ja vaheto, parasamayane paNa jANI, joi zakuM chuM, mane kAMi sthira thavAnI jarUra nathI. mArI anaMta zaktio to vahetI ja nityapaNe, vahetAne joi jANI zake huM vaheto svasamaya, vahetA parasamayathI bhinna, pRthapha, alaga chuM, paNa jANI zakuM chuM jANavuM mAruM potAnI guNa-zakti che, e to parasamaya vaheto che eTale nahIM, e to mArI potAnI sahaja zakti vaDe jANuM chuM 169

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evo huM svasamayamAM jANanAra, svakSetra ne svabhAvamAM ja rahenAra chuM. zuddha bhAve anaMtA guNo zaktiono svAmI jANanAra chuM A jagatamAM jagatathI nyAro paripUrNa chuM zAzvata, cidAnaMda, jJAnasvarUpa ja chuM zAzvata trikALI chuM eTale sukI nathI gayo vaheto chuM eTale mAruM zAzvatapaNuM ja nathI ema paNa to nathI, zAzvata rahIne vaheto chuM mArA ja svasamayamAM pariNamato, parasamayane paNa jANato, svamAM ja zAzvata jJAnAnaMda chuM 170

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huM AtmA chuM javuM zarIra nathI huM AtmA chuM ja zarIra nathI, vikArI bhAvono mArAmAM aMza nathI. bhAvono bhale Ave tuphAna, athavA vahe enA vegathI huM to bhAvothI alaga, anero, zAMta, huM AtmA chuM jaDa zarIra nathI, vikArI bhAvono mArAmAM aMza nathI karmonAM udayathI je saMsArika sukha duHkha thAya che, e to huM nathI ne karmothI parAdhIna nathI. huM AtmA chuM jaDa zarIra nathI, vikArI bhAvono mArAmAM aMza nathI huM to jJAnano piMDa ne guNothI bharapUra evo zAMta, rasamaya, zAzvata, AnaMdathI vibhora chuM, huM AtmA chuM ja zarIra nathI, vikArI bhAvono mArAmAM aMza nathI. huM to koInAM nimittathI nathI ne koInAM Azare nathI. huM to koInA kAraNe nathI, ne koIthI nathI, huM AtmA chuM ja zarIra nathI, vikArI bhAvono mArAmAM aMza nathI. 111

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172 huM to svataMtra, svaguNothI zobhita, potAnA paryAyathI paNa bhinna, evo svAdhIna caitanya chuM, huM AtmA chuM jar3a zarIra nathI, vikArI bhAvono mArAmAM aMza nathI huM to ekadama zuddha, anaMta guNothI bharapUra svaparaprakAzita ujvalita, niraMjana, ratnono ratana chuM, huM AtmA chuM jar3a zarIra nathI, vikArI bhAvono mArAmAM aMza nathI *** |

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Why Mukt Gulam? Why this book? Why Mukt Gulam? In Hindi, gulam means slave. But the gulam in this book refers to the prisoner confined by the walls of a prison, or one who is a slave to a system of beliefs. I was born and raised in a Jain family, in quite a free-thinking environment. I had friends from Buddhist, Muslim, and Hindu backgrounds. My mother would go to college every day as I would go to high school. My dad would read aloud to us at dinner. We would discuss with him all aspects of society, from ethics to business to politics. After finishing high school at the age of 15, college at 18, and getting married at 19, I left my small town in India and came to the USA. At the time, I only knew the foundational Jain prayer, Namokar Mantra. As a child, I felt lucky to have so many chances to learn and grow, but I always felt dependent on my parents. My parents were everything to me. As an adult, I was driven by a desire to prove myself--as a mother, a wife, and a professional. The United States offered extraordinary opportunities, and I strived to take advantage of them. The more goals I pursued, the more these goals consumed my life. Yet, achieving such goals only provided a temporary satisfaction. Along the way, I did find some time to begin a spiritual life. In 1979, my husband and I helped start a Jain Center in Connecticut, and 173

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started conducting a pathshala, a program of religious education. We loved listening to visiting Jain scholars, many of them stayed in our home. I was moved by Jin Chandra Maharaj's ninety lectures on "Shant Sudharas" granth. The "Twelve Facets of Reality" (12 bhavnas) helped me to cope with the stresses of work and home. I also studied with the Brahma Kumaris, completed an eleven-day course on Vipassana meditation, and attended week-long shibirs by Jain scholars such as Dr. Ujwala Shah, Dr. Bharill, Pandit Abhaya Kumarji and Pandit Dhirubhai. As I retired from my professional career, I discovered Pujya Gurudev's lectures. It felt like a culmination of all the searching that had come before, and also like a new beginning. I often read his lectures until 2AM. I began questioning the roots of my beliefs and digging toward the true nature of the world within. My prior feelings of obligation and my desire to prove myself diminished. This is when I began to go from a state of gulam to a state of freedom. Gurudev has given me a new vision. I have discovered something so profound, so beautiful, and so steadfast within me. Something that will last forever. The thoughts offered here arrived in the form of pictures as I conversed, read, listened, or just contemplated. Each poem came to me in one of three languages English, Hindi, or Gujarati. I am sharing this book in the hope that readers will find these reflections useful, or reassuring, or provocative as they undertake their own spiritual journeys. *** 174