Bhramcharya Uttaradh

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Dada Bhagwan Foundation
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008847/1

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are, AvuM to na jANyuM kadi ! "lokone abrahmamarcanI vAtamAM zuM nukasAna ane zuM phAyado, tathA enI keTalI badhI javAbadArIo che, e samajamAM Ave ane brahmacarya pALe, eTalA mATe ja brahmacarya upara ame bolyA chIe, enuM A 'pustaka' banyuM che. badhAM e evuM kahyuM che ke "abrahmacarya khoTuM che, brahmacarya pALavuM joIe' 'alyA bhaI, kevI rIte abrahmacarya baMdha thAya ?' eno rasto ja batADyo nathI. mATe A 'pustaka'mAM badho rasto ja che. te loko vAMcIne vicAre ke ATaluM badhuM AmAM nukasAna thAya che ?! are, AvuM to ApaNe jANatA ja na hatA !'' -dAdAzrI ---- ----- EIEI bhagavAna kacita sa ma ja thI prA neo pta bra (uttarArdha) dAdA bhagavAna kathita samajathI prApta brahmacarya (uttarArdha)

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samarpaNa vikarALa viSayAgnimAM dinarAta jalatA; arere ! avadazA to ya temAM ja vicaratA! saMsAranAM paribhramaNane saharSa svIkAratA; ne pariNAme duHkha anaMta bhogavatA! dAvAo karArI, mizracetana-saMge cUkavatA; anaMta Atmasukhane, viSayabhoge vimukhatA! viSaya ajJAna TaLe, jJAnI 'jJAna' patharAtAM; 'draSTi' nirmaLatA taNI kUMcIo arpatAM! mokSagAmI' kAje - brahmacArI ke pariNatA; zIlanI samaja thakI mokSapathane pamADatA! aho ! nigraMthajJAnInI vANI taNI adbhutatA; anubhavInAM vacano nigraMthapadane pamADatAM! mokSapaMthe vicaratA, 'zIlapadane bhAvatA; vItarAga cAritryanA bIjAMkura khIlavatAM! aho ! brahmacaryanI sAdhanA kAje nIsaratA; AMtar bAhya mUMjhavaNe sat ukela darzAvatA! jJAnaveNonI saMkalanA, 'samaja brahmacaryanI karAvatA; AtmakalyANArtha 'A', mahAgraMtha jagacaraNe samarpitA!

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saMpAdakIya pAMca ja viSayo chatAM ya tenI pakaDa kevIka te avagADha ke anaMtakALathI eno Aro ja nathI Avato ?! kAraNa ke pratyeka viSayanA anaMta anaMta paryAyo pAchAM ! e pratyeka paryAyamAMthI mukta thAya tyAre viSayamAMthI chUTe ne mokSa thAya. paNa viSaya, 'AtmajJAna' vinA savAze nirmaLa thAya ja zI rIte ? ne 'AtmajJAnanI prApti sarvakALa sulabha kyAMthI hoya ? pachI anaMtakALa vahI jAya to ya Ano 'enDa' Ave kharo ?! e to pratyakSa 'jJAnI puruSa' bheTe ane temanA thakI saMprApta 'AtmajJAne' karIne ja A viSaya-ghaDabhAMjano aMta Ave ! je viSayane jItavA prAcIna kALanA RSimunio ghora tapazcaryA karatAM-chatAM je duSkara banatuM hatuM, te brahmacarya Aje A kALamAM adbhuta 'akrama vijJAna' dvArA zIvratAe sahaja sAdhya bane che !!! A "akrama vijJAna' eka evuM ajAyaba vijJAna che ke je mokSamArgamAM pariNItAne paNa 'emiTa' kare che. eTaluM ja nahIM paNa e mArgamAM TheTha pUrNAhuti sudhI pahoMcADe che ! hA, paraNelAoe mAtra 'A' vijJAna 'jema che tema samajI levAnuM rahe che ! tamAma zAstroe, tamAma jJAnI puruSoe mokSamArgamAM vicaravA-AtmasvarUpanI anubhUtinA dvAre pahoMcavA tathA jagatanAM sarva baMdhanothI mukta thavA kAje "sarva saMga parityAga'nI anivAryatA sUcavI, paNa A 'akrama vijJAna' eka navo ja abhigama sajaryo che ke strIno saMga-prasaMga hovA chatAM paNa asaMga Atmaanubhava karI zakAya tema che ! pariNIto paNa puruSArtha ne parAkrama dvArA mokSamArge jAgRtinI parAkASTAe A 'akrama vijJAna'nI UMDI samaja thakI pahoMcI zake tema che ! viralAo ja siddhi siddha karI zake, evuM hovA chatAM A kALamAM keTalAMya pariNIto pragaTa 'jJAnI puruSa' parama pUjya dAdAzrInA satsaMga ne sAnnidhyathI 'samaja' pAmI AtmAnA spaSTavedananI anubhUti prApta karavAnA paMthe prayANa karI rahyAM che ! saMsAramAM lakSmI-strI-putrAdi sAthenA sarva vyavahAro pUrvavat rahe chatAM AtmajJAnamAM rahI AtmAnA aspaSTavedanamAMthI spaSTavedana taraphano puruSArtha 'pratyeka svarUpa jJAnI'ne icchavA yogya che ! ane A 'akrama vijJAna' dvArA te mahAna siddhi sAdhya thAya tema che. evo A sIdho sAdo ne saraLa akrama mArga jene mahA mahA puNyodaye prApta thayo hoya, teNe to A eka avatAra pUrNAhuti karI levA mATe ja kADhavo ghaTe. anyathA eMsI hajAra varSa sudhI mokSamArga to zuM paNa rIleTiva dharma paNa jyAM rUMdhAI javAno che, tyAM mokSanI AzA te keTalIka rakhAya ?! strI parigraha ne strI pariSaha hoya chatAM paNa tenAthI aparigrahI ne pariSahamukta banI zakAya e arthe parama pUjya dAdAzrIe sahelI, saraLa ne sarvasAdhya dizA dekhADI che. e 'dizA'ne 'pholo' karanArane mATe e dizAnA pratyeka 'mAIla sTona'ne prastuta prakAzana dvArA spaSTa karI dekhADyA che ke jethI mokSapathika kyAMya bhUlo nA paDe ! pragaTa 'jJAnI puruSa'nuM 'akrama vijJAna' viSayane choDI do ema kahetuM nathI, paraMtu nirvikAra-anAsakta svabhAvI AtmasvarUpa pratyenI draSTi prApta thaye pariNAme 'potAne' viSayathI virakta banAvI daI svabhAva dazAmAM ramaNatA karAvanAruM bane che ! TUMko ne Taca, sahelo ne ati ati ati saraLa mArga AvAM duSamakALanA jIvone mATe chellI tAraka 'liphaTa' A kALane vize 'jJAnI puruSa'nA sAnnidhya udayamAM AvI che. anaMta vAra viSaya-kIcaDamAM alpasukhanI lAlace labadAyo, kharaDAyo ne UMDo garakyo chatAM emAMthI bahAra nIkaLavAnuM mana thatuM nathI e ya eka ajAyabI (!) che ne ! je kharekhara A kIcaDamAMthI bahAra nIkaLavA mAge che, paNa mArga nahIM maLavAne kAraNe parANe phasAI paDyAM che ! tevAMo ke jemane chUTavAnI ja ekameva jhaMkhanA che, temane to 'jJAnI puruSa'nuM A 'darzana' navI ja draSTi ApI sarva phasAmaNamAMthI choDAvanAruM banI jAya che ! mana-vacana-kAyAnI tamAma saMgI kriyAomAM tadana asaMgatAnA

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anubhavanuM pramANa akrama vijJAna pAmanArA pariNItoe siddha karyuM che. pariNIto paNa mokSamArgane pAmI AtyaMtika kalyANa sAdhI zake che. 'gRhasthAzramamAM mokSa !!!" e virodhAtmaka bhAsita karanAruM lAge, chatAM saiddhAMtika vijJAna dvArA pariNIto paNa mArgane pAmyA che, evI hakIkata pramANabhUta sAkAra banI che. arthAt 'gRhasthatA mokSamArgamAM bAdhaka nathI ! (?!)" enuM pramANa to hazene ? e pramANane prakAzita karanArI vANI uttarArthanA khaMDa : 1mAM AvarI levAI che. 'jJAnI puruSa' thakI 'svarUpajJAna prApti thayelAM pariNIto kAje ke je viSaya-vikAra pariNAma ane AtmapariNAmanA sAMdhA para jAgRtinA puruSArthamAM che emane, jJAnI puruSanI vijJAnamaya vANIthI viSayanAM jokhamo sAme satata jAgRti, viSaya sAme kheda, kheda ne kheda, temaja pratikramaNa rUpI puruSArtha, AkarSaNanA ovArethI DULyA viNa bahAra nIkaLI javAnI jAgRti ApatI samajanA siddhAMto ke jemAM 'AtmAnuM sUkSmatama svarUpa, teno akartA-abhoktA svabhAva' temaja 'vikAra pariNAma konuM? viSayano bhoktA koNa ? ne bhogavyAnuM mAthe laI lenAra koNa ?" e sarva rahasyono phoDa ke je kyAMya khullo thayo nathI, te atre sAdI, saraLa ne soMsaravI UtarI jAya tevI zailImAM rajU thayo che. ke je samajanI saheja paNa zaratacUke sonAnI kaTArasama banI bese, tenAM jokhamo temaja nirbhayatA pragaTa karatI vANI atre uttarArthanA khaMDa : ramAM prastuta thAya che. sarva saMyogothI apratibaddhapaNe vicaratA, mahAmuktadazA mANatA jJAnI puruSe kevuM vijJAna nihALyuM !! jagatanA lokoe mIThI mAnyatAthI viSayamAM sukha mANyuM, teonI draSTi kevI rIte khIlavavAthI viSaya saMbaMdhI sarve avaLI mAnyatAo mUkAya ne mahAmuktadazAnuM mULa kAraNa svarUpa evAM 'bhAva brahmacaryanuM vAstavika svarUpa samajanA UMDANe phITa thAya, viSayamukti kAje karavApaNAnI sarva bhrAMti tUTe temaja jJAnI puruSe pote je joyo che, jANyo che ne anubhavyo che, e 'vaijJAnika akrama mArga'nuM brahmacarya saMbaMdhInuM adbhata rahasya A graMthamAM visphoTatAne pAmyuM che ! A saMsAranA mULane jaDamULathI ukheDanAruM, AtmAnI anaMta samAdhimAM ramaNatA karAvanAruM nigraMtha-vItarAgadazAne pamADanAruM, vItarAgoe prApta karI anyone bodheluM e akhaMDa triyogI zuddha brahmacarya nice mokSa pamADanAruM ja che ! AvA duSamakALe "akrama vijJAna'nI upalabdhi thaye AjIvanapaNe mana-vacana-kAyAthI zuddha brahmacarya sacavAI gayuM, tene ekAvatArI pada nizca karIne prApta thAya tema che ! aMtamAM, AvA duSamakALamAM ke jyAM samagra jagatamAM vAtAvaraNa ja viSayAgninuM phelAI gayuM che, tevA saMjogomAM brahmacarya saMbaMdhI 'pragaTa vijJAnane sparzani nIkaLelI 'jJAnI puruSa'nI adbhuta vANIne saMkalita karI viSaya-mohathI chUTI brahmacaryanI sAdhanAmAM rahI, akhaMDa zuddha brahmacaryanA polanArthe sujJavAcakanA hAthamAM A 'samajathI prApta bahmacaryagraMtha svarUpe mUkavAmAM Ave che. viSaya jokhamothI chUTavA mATe, chatAM gRhasthatAmAM rahI sarva vyavahAra nirbhayatAthI pUro karavA kAje temaja mokSamArga niraMtarAyapaNe vartAya, te mATe 'jema che tema' vAstavikatA rajU karavA jatAM sonAnI kaTAra svarUpe kahevAmAM AvelI 'samaja'ne alpa paNa viparItatA bhaNI na laI jatAM, samyak prakAre ja upayoga karAya evI pratyeka sujJa vAcakane atyaMta bhAvapUrvakanI vinaMtI ! 'jJAnI puruSa'nI tAttvika-nizcaya-vANI to trikALa satya avirodhAbhAsa saiddhAMtika ja nIkaLatI hoya; jyAre vyavahAra vANI nimittAdhIna, saMjogAdhIna temaja dravya-kSetra-kALa ne bhAvAdhInapaNe rahelI hoya, tethI te vANImAM sujJa vAcakane kyAMya bhAsita bhUmsa kSatirUpe vaMcAya to te saMkalanAnI ja khAmI hoI zake, paNa tene kSamya gaNI mokSamArge yathAyogya pUrNAhuti kAje A mahAgraMthanuM upayogapUrvaka ArAdhana kare e ja abhyarthanA ! DaoN. nIrubahena amInanA jaya saccidAnaMda

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upoddhAta DaoN. nIrubahena amIta khaMDa : 1 paraNito mATe brahmacaryanI cAvIo... 1. viSaya nahIM, paNa niDaratAM e viSaya ? jagatanA tamAma brahmacaryanA upadezakoe viSayane ja viSa kahyuM. jyAre "akrama vijJAne' 'viSayo viSa nathI, viSayomAM nIDaratA e viSa che, mATe viSayothI Daro' ema kahyuM !! 'viSayano mane vAMdho nathI, huM phAve tema vatuM' e nIDaratA ja viSa che ! viSayathI DaranAro-viSayasevanamAM kheda, kheda ne kheda karanAro e doSathI chUTI jAya che. arthAt hakkanA viSayanI 'jJAnI puruSa' chUTa to nathI ja mUkI, viSaya bhale viSa nathI paNa viSayamAM nIDaratA to nA ja hovI ghaTe. kAraNa ke nIDaratAne ja 'jJAnI puruSa' viSa kahyuM che ! ane viSayamAM nIDara to TheTha sudhI nathI ja thavAnuM. 'jJAnI puruSa' hakkanA viSaya mATe zuM kahevA mAge che ke e 'davA' mIThI che, mATe roja roja nA pIvAya, e 'davA svarUpa che ane te 'tAva" Ave - bemAMthI ekane nahIM paNa bannene tAva Ave, ne te asahya thaI paDe to ja 'davA' pIvAya, nahIM to mIThI che mATe pI pI kare to e davA ja poIjhana thaI jaze. emAM pachI 'DaoNkaTara' javAbadAra nathI ! vaLI polIsavALo pakaDIne laI jAya ne cAra dahADA bhUkhyA rAkhI daMDA mArIne mAMsAhAra karAve, te vakhate je rIte parANe-nAchUTake cIDhapUrvaka mAMsAhAra kare, tevI rIte viSayasevana thavuM joIe. nahIM to viSaya mIThAzanI mAnyatA evI pharI vaLe ke jAgRti-dhyAna-zAna badhuM UDI jAya ne bahu puNyayoge gRhasthAvasthAmAM maLela mokSamArgIya vijJAnane paNa dhakko mArI de ! 2. draSTi doSatAM jokhamo ! opana bajAramAM badhA keTalAM sodA karI nAkhe ? sAMje pacce vIsapacIsa sodA thaI ja gayA hoya ! ane lagnamAM gayA hoya Ama to ? jovAthI ja sodA paDI jAya ! jJAna hoya to zuddhAtmA jue, eTale sodA nA paDe. AkarSaNavALuM dekhe eTale draSTi kheMcAI ja jAya. A to AMkhanA ja camakArA che ne ? AMkha dekhe ne citta coMTe ! AmAM kono guno ? AMkhano ? manano ? ke ApaNo ? guno 'ApaNo' ja ! AmAM AMkhano zuM doSa ? emAM maracuM nAkhavAthI draSTi kheMcAvAnI baMdha thAya ? mana game tevuM batADe paNa ApaNe sahI nA karIe to ? A to pADAne vAMke pakhAlIne DAma ? draSTi jarAka kheMcAya to tenuM Akho divasa pratikramaNa kara kara karavuM paDe ! vyavahAramAM strI-puruSa ekabIjAne mAna Ape teno vAMdho nahIM, paNa draSTi nIcI rAkhIne vAta karavI. kAraNa ke mAnamAM to tarata ja draSTi bagaDe. keTalAMkane mAnanI gAMThanA AdhAre viSaya hoya che ane keTalAMkane viSayanA AdhAre ya mAnanI gAMTha hoya che ! eTale eno AdhAra nirAdhAra thAya ke peluM UDyuM. jeno AdhAra viSaya che, tenuM mAna jatAM viSaya jAya ne jeno AdhAra mAna che, tenuM mAna jatAM viSaya jAya ! AjakAla mAnelA bhAI-bahena ke kajhInsa vacce viSaya bahu cAle che. mATe tyAM cetavuM. strI-puruSa vacce bilakula lappana chappana nahIM rAkhavAnI ! game teTaluM zuddhAtmA bhAve jovAya, paNa draSTi to nA ja maMDAvI joIe ! be zabda mIThAM koI bole ke draSTi slipa thayA vagara nA rahe. vyavahAramAM sAdhAraNa mAna calAvI levAya paNa jarAka vizeSa vadhAre paDatuM ApavA mAMDe tyAM slipa thayA vagara rahe ja nahIM. jenI joDe draSTi bagaDe tyAM bIjA bhave javuM ja paDe. pachI harijanavAsa hoya to ya ! atyAre to Thera Thera draSTi bagaDe che ! AnAM pariNAmanI khabara nathI eTale loko bhayaMkara khoTa khAI ja jAya che. ApaNe saapa ne mekaapa karI karIne koIne AkarSIe, emAM ApaNI ja javAbadArI. eTale vItarAgoe kahyuM ApaNAthI sAmAne ApaNA nimitte moha nA thaI jAya, duHkhI nA thAya, tenI jAgRti ApaNe rAkhavI paDe. tethI loca karavAnuM tIrthaMkaroe apanAveluM. Aja kAla rUpa ja

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kyAM che ? A to mekaapane lIdhe ThIka lAge ane ahaMkArathI kadarUpo vadhAre lAge. rUpALI cAmaDIvALAne moha vadhAre hoya ane te vadhAre bhogavAI jAya ! tIrthaMkaro rUpALA nA hoya paNa lAvaNyamaya hoya ! bahu ja ghATIlA ne aMga-upAMga sapramANa hoya ! nirahaMkArInuM, brahmacaryanuM teja abhUta hoya ! zAstrakAroe viSaya sukhane darAjanA dardarUpa sukha varNavyuM che. emAM zuM svAda ? pahelAMnA RSimunio eka putradAna pUrato ja viSaya sevatA. pachI AkhI jiMdagImAM ya nahIM ! pachI to ekabIjAnA mokSamArganA sAthI tarIke ne ekabIjAnA pUraka tarIke jIvatA ! sAthe maLI sAdhanAo, bhakti vi. AtmA mATe ja karatA ! zrImad rAjacaMdra to tyAM sudhI kahyuM ke vamana karavAne paNa yogya nahIM evuM sthAna viSaya bhoganuM che, tamAma prakAranI jugupsA upajAve evuM emAM rahyuM che ! zAstromAM strIne narkanI khANa kahyuM che, khUba ja vagoNuM karyuM che. mokSamArgamAM AvuM nA hoya. strI to devI che. puruSanI nabaLAI javAbadAra che lapasavAmAM, nahIM ke strI ! A to jeTalAM paraNyA teTalAMo 'paraNavAmAM kevI majhA che !" evI havA phelAvI che. bhamarInA galamAM eke DaMkha khAdho, te cUpa besI badhAMne DaMkha khavaDAve, enAM jevI vAta che ! 3. aNahakkanI gunegArI ! saMsArI hoya eNe to hakkanAM ja viSaya bhogavavAM. aNahakkano to vicAre ya pApa che ane tyAgI hoya ene to prazna ja nathI, viSaya mATeno. hakkanuM ane aNahakkanuM vacce bhedarekhA kaI ? paraNelAM e ja hakkanA, e sivAyanuM badhuM aNahakkanuM gaNAya. coradAnata ja aNahakka tarapha DhasaDI jAya che. koInI choDI para draSTi bagaDe, to ApaNI choDI para koI draSTi bagADe. to zuM thAya ? aNahakkanuM bhogave tenAM khUba khUba pratikramaNa kare to sajA halakI thAya. aNahakkanAM viSayomAM to pAMce ya mahAvratono bhaMga thAya che. hakkanI to sahu koI svIkAre, aNahakkanuM nahIM. cAritrabhraSTatA to AtmAnA mArge to zuM paNa narke ja laI jAya ! viSayamAM zuM sukha che ? A jAnavarone ya game nahIM. e to sijhanala uzkerATa hoya emane, sijhana pUrI thAya pachI emane kaMI ja nA hoya evuM ! | viSayabhoganI kevI gati che ? A avatAranI patnI ke rakhAta AvatAM avatAramAM potAnI ja dIkarI thaIne Ave ! aNahakkanuM khAdhuM, pIdhuM ke bhogavyuM hoya teno khUba khUba pratikramaNa karavAM. to ja kaMI chUTavAno mArga maLaze. 4. eka patnI eTale ja brahmacarya ! Ama potAnI paraNelI eTale ke hakkanI strInA viSayabhogano vAMdho nathI uThAvyo paraMtu mana-vacana-kAyAthI eka patnIvratadhArI je haze, tene A kALamAM akrama zAnIe 'brahmacArI' kahyo. tenA brahmacaryanI gerenTI pote lIdhI ! hakkanI strI sAthenA viSayasevana mATe paNa "jJAnI puruSa' pAse AjJA laIne bAMdhelI niyamamaryAdA mujabanuM ja (mahinAmAM be-pAMca ke sAta dahADAnuM) hoya, tyAre dhIme dhIme viSaya ocho thatAM thatAM mULathI jAya. 5. aNahakkatA viSayabhogo, tarkatuM kAraNa ! akrama vijJAna'mAM pariNIto mATe eka ja jokhama 'jJAnI puruSa' mUke che ke je lokamAnya che, evAM hakkanA viSayane akramamArgamAM nikAlI bAbata tarIke mAnya karyo che, paNa aNahakkanA viSayanA sevanano - parastrI

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ke parapuruSagamanano savAze niSedha che. aNahakkanA viSayasevanathI TheTha narkagatino adhikArI thaI jAya. kAraNa ke vakIla guno kare to te bhayaMkara daMDane pAtra Thare che, tema "svarUpa jJAnanI prApti pachI 'mahAtmA' banelo te aNahakkanA viSayasevanathI narkagatine paNa pAtra bane che. vakhate e doSa thaI jAya to tenuM 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse pratyakSamAM AlocanApratikramaNa-pratyAkhyAna thAya to jokhamadArI kaMIka halakI thAya ne chUTI javAya. e doSa pachI manathI ke draSTithI paNa thaI jAya to ya te nA ja calAvI levAya, chatAM tema bane to "jJAnI puruSe Apela "zuTa oNna sAITa' pratikramaNa thavuM Avazyaka che ane joDe joDe te doSa thayo mATe aMtarathI pazcAttApapUrvaka kheda, kheda ne kheda vartavo ghaTe ! 6. viSaya baMdha tyAM DakhADakhI baMdha patnI sAthenA kalezamaya, kakaLATamaya vyavahAranuM mULa kAraNa viSaya ja che. emAM strI e puruSane vaza nathI karatI, puruSanI viSaya lolupatA ja puruSane paravaza banAve che. strI sAtheno vItarAgI vyavahAra tyAre ja zakya bane ke jyAre puruSa viSayAsaktimAMthI chUTe che ! kharo puruSa to kyAre ya strI pAse viSayanI yAcanA nA kare. je puruSa strI pAse viSayanI yAcanA kare to teno vakkara strI pAse kyAreya nA paDe. saMsAra vyavahAranI garaja karatAM viSayanI garaja puruSane abaLA banAvI de che. eka viSaya kAje strI pAse abaLA thaI javuM, tenAM karatAM viSayane ja pULo nA mUkI daIe ?! emAM pachI ahaMkAre karIne paNa e viSayamAMthI chUTAya. e ahaMkArathI bhale karma baMdhAya, paNa te sarvopAdhimAMthI choDAvanAro hovAthI parabhavamAM jabarajasta vaibhava apAvanAruM puNyakarma tarIke phalita thAya che. ane evo ahaMkAra karelo hoya to te ahaMkAra ke tenA pariNAmathI chUTI zakAya che, paNa viSayamoha ke tenA pariNAmathI chUTavuM ati ati duSkara che ! mATe eka phero ahaMkAra karI nAkhavo ke 'game te bhoge game te thAya, paNa viSaya-viSane to nahIM ja aDuM to ya teno ukela AvI jAya athavA to jene 'viSayanI paravazatAthI chUTavuM che, te potAnA hRdayano gUMcavADo 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse ThAlavI de, to 'jJAnI puruSa' sva-para hitakArI mArgadarzana ApI AtyaMtika kalyANa sadhAve che ! viSaya e AkarSaNamAMthI janme che ane AkarSaNa pachI niyamathI vikarSaNa thAya ja, ne temAM pachI vera baMdhAya. veranA 'phAunDezana" para A saMsAra Ubho rahyo che, TakI rahyo che ! temAM A viSayanuM vera atyaMta jherIluM hoya che, anaMtakALa bagADI nAkhe tevuM bhayaMkara che ! 7. viSaya e pAzavatA ja ! pahelAMnA vakhatamAM, AjathI sittera-eMsI varSa pahelAM sekaDe pAMcasAta TakA loko viSayamAM bagaDatA. aNahakkamAM to rAMDelI khoLI kADhe. bIjuM nahIM. paMdara varasa sudhI to badhI chokarI tarapha bahenanI ja draSTi hoya. dasa-agiyAra varSanA hoya tyAM sudhI zerImAM ya digaMbarI thaIne pharatA ! mA-bApanI koI jAtanI sikrasI traNa varSanA chokarAe ya nA joI hoya kadi ! bApa meDe ne mAM nIce suve. eka beDarUma ke DabalabeDa jevuM kaMI hatuM ja nahIM tyAre ! tyAre to kahevata hatI ke je puruSa AkhI rAta strI joDe sUI jAya e AvatA bhave strI thaI jAya !!! enAM paryAyo aDe ! eka varasa divasa jo akhataro karo, saMgathI judApaNAno, to suMdara pragati thaI jAya ! viSaya kevI vastu che ? kapaTavALI. rAtre aMdhArAmAM thAya. sUryanI hAjarImAM kare to hArTapheIla ne blaDaprezara thaI jAya. AkhA brahmAMDane dhrujAve evuM manuSyapaNuM, chatAM viSayamAM lapaTAIne jAnavara jevo banI gayo che ! ghaNAM brahmacaryano virodha kare che ne kahe che ke abrahmacarya e to kudaratI che, emAM khoTuM zuM che ? brahmacarya pALavuM e akudaratI che ? nA, brahmacarya kudaratI che. A jAnavaro ya brahmacarya ja pALatA hoya che. temane abrahmacarya amuka sijhana pUratuM ja, paMdara-vIsa divasa ja hoya varasamAM. pachI kazuM ja nA hoya. eka jaNe pUjya dAdAzrIne pUchayuM ke brahmacarya vyApI jaze to manuSyonI vastI ghaTe jaze jagatamAM. tyAre pUjyazrIe kahyuM, 'saMtati niyamanonAM ATalA badhA oparezanano thAya che to ya vastI vadhe ja jAya che ! jAnavaro ya viSaya kare che paNa te kudaratI che. sijhanala ja che ane 15

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A to savAra-sAMja A ja dhaMdho. viSayanI bhIkha mAge ?! zarama nA Ave ? pati-patnImAM jyAM viSaya vadhAre tyAM kleza-kaMkAsa bahu thAya. je brahmacaryamAM AvI gayo, te devasthitimAM Avyo. manuSyamAM deva ! zIlavAna thayo. 8. brahmacaryanI kimata, spaSTavedata Atmasukha jyAre hakkanI strI sAtheno viSayavyavahAra chUTavA mAMDe tyAre Atma vijJAna sUkSmatAe samajAya che. pariNAme jAgRti vardhamAnapaNAne pAmI atyaMta nirboja muktadazA anubhavAya ane tyAre potAno sva-AtmAnaMda spaSTa anubhavamAM niraMtara rahyA kare ! paNa 'viSayamAM sukha che' evo anAdino abhyAsa to tyAre ja tUTe ke jyAre e sukhathI caDhiyAtuM Atmasukha cAkhe ! tyAre cittavRtti bahAra viSayamAM sukha khoLatI aTake ne nijagharamAM pAchI vaLI nija sukhamAM lIna bane ! e AtmasukhaAtmAnuM spaSTavedana 'svarUpa jJAnaprApti' pachI aMtarAyuM che zAthI ? svayaM kriyAkArI vijJAna prApta thayuM hovA chatAM AtmAnI anaMta samAdhino anubhava zIdane aTakayo che ? eka viSayadoSane kAraNe ja ! eka A viSaya aMtarAyo, to sarva aMtarAya tUTe, pariNItAne 'spaSTavedana' sudhInA sarva aMtarAya tUTe evA prayogo 'jJAnI puruSa' dekhADI de che ! jyAM sudhI pudgalamAMthI kaMI sukha levAnI dAnata paDI che, tyAM sudhI Atmasukha sparzI zakato nathI. ane jyAre viSayamAMthI sukha levAnuM sadaMtara baMdha thAya tyAre AtmasukhanuM spaSTa vedana anubhavAya. 'A AtmAnuM ja sukha che' evuM spaSTa vedana thavA mATe cha mahinA paNa pariNIto mATe viSaya-baMdha jarUrI che ane e mATe 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse cha mahinAnI 'vratavidhi' karAvI levI. cha mahinA AjJApUrvaka viSaya-baMdha thAya, to vRttio ke je viSaya pratye vaLelI, tene avakAza sAMpaDe che, svasukha bhaNI vaLavAno ! ane eka phero svasukha cAkhe pachI vRttio viSaya taraphathI pAchI pharI jAya che ! paNa vRttione avakAza kyAreya sAMpaDyo che ? kyA avatAramAM viSaya nathI bhogavyo ?! 9. le vatato TrAyala ! AtmajJAna pachI AtmAnuM sukha spaSTapaNe anubhavavuM hoya to brahmacarya jarUrI che. sukha viSayanuM che ke AtmAnuM che, e benuM DimArkezana thAya. bheLaseLIyuM sukha nA cAle. grahastha jIvanamAM paNa brahmacarya paLAya. banne samajIne jJAnI pAse vrata laI le, to zuM nA thAya ? brahmacaryanI A bhave bhAvanA kara kara kare, to AvatAM bhave sahajapaNe brahmacarya paLAya. bhAvanA e bIja che ne amala e pariNAma che ! pUjyazrI pAsethI brahmacarya vrata pAmIne je anubhavo thayA che mokSArthIna, enuM varNana thAya tema nathI. e to jAte anusare to ja khabara paDe ! brahmacarya pALavAnuM nakkI kare, tyAMthI ja vIryanuM udghakaraNa cAlu thaI jAya che. viSaya mATe ja 'bIvera-bIvera'nAM borDa marAyAM, eka varasa dahADo brahmacarya vrata laI jue to anubhava thAya. e to vidhi ApanAranI zakti ja kAma kare che ! paNa jo jJAnInI AjJApUrvakanuM hovuM joIe. brahmacaryamAM pratikramaNathI TesTeDa thaI jAya. brahmacarya ke abrahmacaryano jene abhiprAya nathI, tene brahmacarya vrata vartAyuM kahevAya. jene abrahmacarya yAde ya nA Ave, tene brahmacarya mahAvrata valuM kahevAya ! kaTake kaTake karIne, eTale ke cha mahinA viSaya-baMdha karIne pAchuM bAra mahinA mATe AjJApUrvaka baMdha rAkhe, pachI pAchuM thoDo vakhata rahIne be varasa mATe vrata le, ema karatAM karatAM cAra-pAMca vakhata varasa-be varasa mATe viSaya-baMdha rahe, teno viSaya sadaMtara chUTI jAya. kAraNa ke jema jema viSayathI cheTo rahyo, eno paricaya chUTyo ke tema tema viSaya visAre paDato jAya evo che. arthAt paricaya prasaMga ja chUTavo Avazyaka che. paNa tene mATe hiMmata karIne eka phero AmAM draDha nizcayapUrvaka jhaMpalAvavuM paDe, pachI 16

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'jJAnI puruSa'nI vacanasiddhino anubhava thAya tevuM che. pachI AtmAnuM spaSTa vedana paNa anubhavAya tevuM che ! eka viSayane tyajatAM sAme badalAmAM kevI moTI siddhi sAMpaDe che ! nahIM to ya anaMta avatAra viSaya ArAdhyA, chatAM pariNAma zuM AvyuM ? viSaye to AtmavIrya hasyAM ne dehanAM nUre ya nIcovI lIdhAM !! moTAmAM moTA Atmazatrane soDamAM tAvyo, A te kevI bhayaMkara bhUla ?!! A bhUlane bhAMgavA eka vAra pati-patnI bannee 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse pratyakSamAM brahmacarya vrata, bhale mudatI levAya to mudatI levuM. paNa samajIne vrata laI le to pAchA vaLavAno cAnsa rahe che, nahIM to viSaya TheTha sudhI chUTe evo ja nathI. vrata lIdhA pachI vratanA rakSaNa mATe prathamathI ja jAgRti rAkhavI hitAvaha che, ekAMta zaiyAsana, temaja sparzadoSathI paNa rahita vyavahAra, A vratanuM rakSaNa karyA kare che, temaja 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse brahmacarya vratamAM rahevAnI dasa-paMdara miniTa zaktio mAMgatA rahevAthI baLa maLyA kare che ! potAno nizcaya ane "jJAnI puruSa'nuM vacanabaLa, temanI vidhi, temanA AzIrvAda, ke je kalpanAtIta zaktio pragaTAvanArA che ! AmAM potAno to mAtra draDha nizcaya ane nizcaya pratyene sinsIyAriTI, bAkInuM bIjuM badhuM 'jJAnI puruSa'nuM vacanabaLa kAma karI le che ! e ajAyaba 'vrata-vidhi'nAM pariNAma to, jeNe 'vrata-vidhi' meLavI hoya te ja jANe !! 10. AlocatAthI ja jokhama TaLe vratabhaMgatAM ! saMjogavazAt koIthI vratabhaMga thaI jAya to ? enuM bhayaMkara jokhama che, bhayaMkara narkagatinA jokhama kheDAya ! jANI karIne, dAnata khorI karI tethI ja to vratabhaMga thAya ne !! chatAM karuNALuM 'jJAnI' to AvAM vratabhaMgIne paNa sAcA dilathI turata ja karelI AlocanA, pratikramaNa ne pratyAkhyAnathI vratabhaMga doSathI choDAve che. paNa tethI karIne vratabhaMganI chUTa levAnI koIne hotI nathI. A to saMpUrNa vratarakSAnI sAvacetI pachI 'eksiDanTa' thAya to ja upAya karAya. bAkI jANI-joIne TakarAya tene zuM karAya ? ane 'jJAnI' paNa pAtra joIne ja mAphI Ape ne ?!. hRdayapUrvakano pazcAttApa ne draDhatAe punaH nizcaya karI potAnI bhUla bhAMgavAno eno puruSArtha, temaja tenI cokhkhI dAnata joIne ja 'jJAnI" pharI 'vidhi' karI ApI tene doSamAMthI choDAve che ! je koI cIjanA kartA nathI, evA 'jJAnI puruSa' cAhe so karI zake !! | 'akrama vijJAna" ekAvatArI ke be avatArI pada lAvanAra hovAthI, viSaya saMpUrNa nA chUTe to chevaTe viSayathI savAMze chUTavuM ja che evI satata bhAvanA bhAva bhAva kare, pratyeka doSano khUba khUba pastAvo le, hakkanA viSayanA ya niraMtara pratikramaNa kara kara kare to AvatA bhavamAM strI parigrahathI muktadazAno udaya Ave. ane jene AvAM ajAyaba "akrama vijJAnano saMpUrNa lAbha uThAvI A ja bhavamAM AtmAnA spaSTa vedana sudhInI dazA prApta karavI hoya teNe to pachI 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse samajapUrvaka brahmacaryavratanI AjJA-vidhi prApta karI levI paDe ! potAno draDha nizcaya ane 'jJAnI puruSa'nuM vacanabaLa, A be bhegAM thAya tyAM avazya nirvinne siddhi sare ja ! mAtra potAnA nizcayane draDhapaNe 'sInsiyara' rahevuM paDe, emAM jarA ya pola nA cAle ! A to nizcaya thavAmAM ja pola vAge che ke ''A badhAM to akrama jJAnamAM rahe che te viSaya paNa bhogave che, to AmAM zuM vAMdho ? ApaNe zA mATe vratanI jarUra ? 'jJAna' to maLI gayuM che, ukela to AvI ja jazene, pachI viSayano zuM vAMdho che ? viSaya to 'DiscArja che ne, eTale chUTe ja nahIM ne ! chellA avatAramAM brahmacarya pALIzuM to ya mokSa kaMI aTakavAno che ? ApaNe sthULa viSaya bhale nA chUTe, paNa ApaNI bhAvanA to brahmacarya pALavAnI che ne ? pachI vAMdho nahIM Ave !" Ama buddhi mahIM jAta jAtanAM 'pola' dekhADa dekhADa karIne potAnI pragatine rUMdhanArA AvaraNa UbhAM karAvI nAkhe che. mATe buddhinuM eka akSare ya sAMbhaLyA vinA 'jJAnI puruSa' kaI draSTie vAtane samajAvavA mAMge che, te 'ekkekTanesa'mAM samajI sAcI rIte potAnA nizcayane aDagapaNe 'sInsiyara' rahe to ja viSayane jItI zake, ne to ja 'jJAnI puruSa' maLyA temAM potAnuM kAma nIkaLI jAya ! have, eka ja phero kareluM viSayanuM sevana mahinAo sudhI dhyAna ke ekAgratAnI sthiratAne bAdhakakartA nIvaDe che, to jene pudgaladhyAnathI chUTI AtmadhyAnamAM ja lIna thavuM che, tene viSayasevana mAtra moTAmAM moTuM bAdhaka che ane jene mokSa sivAya kAMI ja khapatuM nathI, evo ekameva dhyeya

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nizcaya varte che, tene viSaya ke je pudgala spRhA-pudgala ramaNatA ja che, te moTAmAM moTo aMtarAya svarUpe thaI paDe che ! eTale bhAvanA brahmacaryanI hoya, dhyeya zuddhAtmAno ne niyANuM mokSanuM hoya to pachI tene mokSe jatA sudhI niraMtarAyapada saheje ya varte, tevAM ja saMyogo maLe ! bAkI viSayane vaza to anaMta avatAra vartyA, emAM eka ja bhava svarUpajJAna jAgRti sameta, viSayathI chUTavAmAM vIte to anaMta avatAranuM sATuM vaLI jAya !!! lokasaMjJAmAM vartatA jagatane priya evAM A viSaya, emAM ja anaMta avatAra khUMpI, enI gAravatAmAM moja mANI. paNa pariNAme nija Atmaaizvarya, Atmavaibhava ane Atmasiddhi khoI, ATaluM ja bhavonA saravaiyAmAM sAMpaDe. pachI viSaya pratye vairAgya lAvavAnAM zAstronuM paThana ke viSaya jItavAnI vyartha kasarato karavAnI rahetI nathI. mAtra anaMta avatAranuM saravaiyuM 'jema che tema' dekhAI jAya to saheje viSaya pratye vairAgya varte !! saMsAranuM mULa bIja viSaya che, jenuM nirmUlana thatAM saMsAra AthamI jAya che. eka viSaya jItAtAM pAMce ya mahAvrato saheje ya siddha thAya che. saMsAra vadhAranArAM tema ja saMsAramAM khUpAvI rAkhanArAM nimitto 'brahmacarya'thI saheje UDI jAya che, pariNAme aparigrahI dazA sAdhI zakAya che. viSayamAM kapaTa, asatya, corI temaja viSaya thakI thatI bhayaMkara jIvahiMsA - zuddha brahmacaryanA pAlana thakI e sarva jokhamadArIthI saheje ya mukta thaI javAya che ! AvI adbhuta brahmacaryanI siddhi samajyA pachI koNa e bhelADI de ! 11. cAritryano prabhAva ! kramikamArgamAM ke pachI akramamArgamAM, paNa cAritrano pAyo e ja mokSapaMthano AdhAra che. je cAritrano sTroMga thayo, te jagata jItI gayo. nahIM to viSayathI je jitAyo, te jagata hAryo ! eTale brahmacarya sAdhavA mATe to brahmacaryanuM pariNAma, abrahmacaryanA jokhama mAtra samajavAnAM ja che ! 'cAritra'mAM lAvavA kazuM karavAnuM nathI. 'cAritra' saMbaMdhInuM jJAna cogaradamathI samajamAM 'phITa' karI levAnuM che, pariNAme pachI teno nizcaya ja te vastune vartanAmAM lAve che ! ane e jJAnanI geDa to pratyakSa 'jJAnI 20 puruSa' ja besADI zake ! jene saMsAranAM sarva baMdhanothI chUTavuM ja che. mokSe ja javuM che, teNe sarva baMdhanothI chUTatAM chUTatAM viSaya baMdhana ke je saMsAranAM sarva baMdhanonuM mULa che, temAMthI chUTavuM ja paDe. be prakRti kyAreya eka thAya nahIM. pudgalanuM AkarSaNa pudgala taraphathI AtmA tarapha kyAreya paNa javA nA de ! AtmAe karIne aikyatA-abhedatA sAdhIne anaMtAtmAo mokSane pAmyA. kiMtu daihika ekatA sAdhIne koI kaMI alpa paNa siddhi sAdhI zakyuM hoya evuM kyAreya zakya nathI ! vItarAgoe cIMdhelA ekAMta zaiyAsananA paMthe ja vicAravA jevuM che, evo bhAva, evo nizcaya eka di' vItarAgatva avazya pragaTa karAvaze ! khaMDa : 2 AtmajAgRtithI brahmacaryato mArga ! 1. viSayI-spaMdata, mAtra jokhama ! jema jema viSayanuM svarUpa saMpUrNa samajAya, tenAM jokhamI paravazatAmaya pariNAmo samajAya, tenAthI thatI Atmika, AdhyAtmika khoTa anubhavAya tyAre viSayathI pAchAM pharavAnI taiyArI thAya. pachI 'viSayamAM sukha che' e abhiprAya tUTyo tyArathI ja viSayamAMthI chUTavAnI bhAvanAo jAge ne 'viSayamAMthI pote chUTavuM ja che' evo draDha nizcaya thAya, eTale pachI dizA nakkI thAya ane viSaya-doSa sAme chUTavAnI jAgRti vadhatI jAya. e jAgRti niraMtara viSaya-vikAra pariNAma sAme jhajhUmatI rahe ne viSayanA eke eka vicArane ukheDIne pheMkI de. be pAMdaDI sudhI vadhatAM pahelAM ja pratyeka kUMpaNane ukheDIne pheMkI devAmAM Ave to ja viSayabIjanuM sarvAMze nirmUlana thAya ! nahIM to be pAMdaDe cUMTAya nahIM to te pachI kAbUmAM rahetuM pachI te vadhI jaIne jhADa thaI jatAM vAra lAgatI nathI ne tenAM phaLa ke je asaMkhya bIja naMkhAya tevAM che, tevAM asaMkhya jokhamo UbhAM thaI jAya che ! mATe viSaya-kUMpaNane be pAMdaDI thatAM pahelAM ja cUMTI nAkhavI paDe. eTale zuM ke viSayano vicAra Ave ke draSTi saheja kheMcAya ke draSTi bagaDavA mAMDe, te pahelAM ja jAgRti hAjara rAkhIne temaja 'zrI vijhana'nA upayoge 21

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karIne tathA sAmAnA zuddhAtmA darzanathI 'dekhata bhUlI' TALavAno puruSArtha mAMDavAno che. mana ane vRttione doSa thayo te ghaDIe ja svaccha rAkhavAno 'jJAnI puruSa'no Apelo pratikramaNano adbhuta prayoga sadA jAgRta rAkhavo paDe ! ane te te doSone, ne viSayagraMthine pachI pAchaLathI dahADAmAM game tyAre sAmAyika-pratikramaNanA prayogathI cokhkhI karatAM karatAM pariNAme nigraMtha dazA utpanna thAya, evuM A "akrama vijJAna che !! akrama vijJAna'thI utpanna thatI, jAgRtipUrvakanA 'zrI vijhana'nI draSTithI jotAM ja mohadraSTi vilaya pAme che. emAM pharsTa vijhane nekeDa dekhAya, bIjI ja sekanDe sekanDa vijhanamAM tvacA rahita aMgo dekhAya ne tarata pachInI sekanDe kapAyelo cirAyelo deha dekhAya-hADa, mAMsa, kApelAM AMtaraDAM ne maLa-lohI badhuM dekhAvA mAMDe. tyAM pachI mohadraSTi eka kSaNa thobhe kharI ? 2. viSaya bhUkhatI bhayAnakatA ! akrama vijJAnanI jemane prApti thaI che, teone to "dekhata bhUlI' TALavAno rasto khullo thayo che. draSTi bagaDatAM ja pratikramaNa ne zuddha upayogathI cokhkhuM karI nAkhavAnuM che, nahIM to koI kALamAM upalabdha nA thAya evAM A ajAyaba "akrama vijJAnane paNa kSaNamAM halAvI nAkhe tevo A 'dekhata bhUlI'no doSa che. mATe tyAM atyaMta sAvadha rahevAnuM che. kiMcitmAtra paNa gAphelapaNe tyAM nA calAvI levAya. bAkI poIjhananAM pArakhAM te nA ja hoya ! ene pItAM pahelAM pheMkI dIdhe ja chUTakAro maLe ! kramikamArganuM brahmacarya ane akrama mArganuM brahmacarya, emAM kramikamArgamAM navAvADamAM kaDaka pAlana sAthe lakSmI-gRha-strI-putrAdino tyAga karI, ahaMkAre karI karIne viSayomAMthI vRttione vALavAnI prakriyA ! jyAre akramamArgamAM kazAno nirodha nathI, manano paNa nahIM, mAtra "akrama vijJAne' karIne mananAM sarva vikArI paramANuone vizuddhimAM vipariNamana thavA devAnAM che. A mArgamAM mukhya lAbha to e maLI ja rahe che ke "pote' 'Atmapadane prApta thaye ahaMkAra bhAva chUTI jAya che pachI mana-vacana-kAyAnI sarve azuddhione jJAna karIne ogALavAnI rahe che ! ahaMkAre karIne paLAyeluM brahmacarya atyaMta upakArI che chatAM e vaijJAnika DhabanuM nA kahevAya. kAraNa ke emAM brahmacarya pALanAro 'pote' ja che. jyAre vaijJAnika rIte to "pote' riyala svarUpe rahe, jJAtA-draSTA rahe ane 'rileTiva' bhAga brahmacarya kevuM pALe che e 'pote' 'jANe' ! akrama mArgamAM A vijJAnamaya draSTi khUlelI hovAthI brahmacarya yathArthapaNe paLAya ne 'pote potAnA sva-svabhAvamAM paNa ekkekTa rahI zake ! AtmajJAna sAthenuM saMpUrNa zuddha brahmacarya ja AtyaMtika kalyANakArI nIvaDe ! - parama pUjaya dAdAzrInA eka kalAkanA jJAna-prayogamAM jJAnAgni thakI tamAma pApo bhasmIbhUta thaI vRttio nijaghara pAchI vaLe che. azuddha citta zuddhatAne pAmya, pote 'zuddha-cidrupa" zuddhAtmA bane che. pachI je 'viSaya" rahe che, te 'DiscArja' bhAgano che. pUrve je avaLI mAnyatA hatI ke 'viSayamAM sukha che' tene kAraNe UbhAM thayelA abhiprAyane AdhAre e Asakti TakI rahe che ! paNa jalebI khAdhA pachI cA moLI lAge, tema 'jJAnI puruSa" pAse 'svarUpa jJAna' prApti pachI viSaya sukho moLAM lAge che. paNa viSaya saMbaMdhanI 'roMga bilipha' savAze nahIM uDavA kAraNe viSaya TakI rahe che. "jJAnI puruSa'nAM veNa ja e avaLI mAnyatA uDADavA ekameva jabaruM hathiyAra che ke je vinA avaLI mAnyatAo tuTI javI azakya che. roMga bilIpha' uDe ke abhiprAya paNa uDavA mAMDe. ne jema jema abhiprAya uDe eTale mana paNa viSayathI virakata thatuM jAya. mAnasika doSo paNa AjJApUrvakanA pratikramaNathI cokhkhA thatA jAya ne citta nirmaLa ne mukta rahevA mAMDe. jAgRti utpanna thaI vardhamAna thatI jAya, jethI karIne viSaya vicAra ke cittanA doSa pakaDAya ne pratikramaNa vaDe te zuddhimAM pariName ! viSaya-doSa sAme tIvra jAgRti utpanna thavI, e 'akrama vijJAna'nI ajAyaba 'gIphaTa' che ! abrahmacaryano abhiprAya ja abrahmacaryamAM jakaDI rAkhe che. 'jJAnI puruSa'nA paricaye karIne sUkSmAtisUkSmapaNe abrahmacaryano abhiprAya uDe ne brahmacaryano abhiprAya phITa thAya. jyAre brahmacaryano nizcaya yathArthapaNe pakaDAI jAya tyArathI gajabanuM sukha ubharAvA mAMDe, e sukha ja viSayasukhanI avaLI mAnyatAo choDAvI nAkhanAruM banI jAya che. temAM 72 23

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AvIne Ubho rahe ! rAgathI vIMTyuM, SathI ukale ne naryuM vera bAMdhe ! mATe je vyakti joDe mana baMdhAyuM hoya enAM khUba pratikramaNa karo ane enAM ja zuddhAtmA pAse brahmacaryanI zakti mAMga mAMga karavI ke viSayathI mukta karo. ya 'jJAnI puruSa' dekhADelI brahmacaryanI cAvIo puruSArtha kAje vAparI jANe tenI sarva rIte 'sepha sAIDa' zakya bane che. evI sarva cAvIo sthaLa prasaMgothI mAMDIne AMtarika sUkSma udayomAMthI kaI rIte nirlepa rahI nIkaLI javuM, tema ja dhyeyane vaLagI rahevuM eTaluM ja nahIM, paNa dhyeyasvarUpa thaI javA kAjenI sarva vijJAnamaya vANI ane saMkalita thaI che ! 'viSayamAM sukha che' e roMga bIlipha eTalI gADha thayelI che ke tenAM nimitta bhegAM thatAM ja e 'roMga bIlipha' hAjara thaI jAya che ane temAM tanmayAkAra banAvI de che. 'viSayamAM sukha che tenI roMga bIlipha jyAM jyAM jevI jevI rIte beThI hoya, tenAM sAdhano mATe jevI rIte roMga bilipha beThI hoya-te te sarvane, ekeekane jAgRtipUrvaka mULamAMthI oLakhI 'sAmAyika prayogamAM laI jJAna karIne, zrI vijhana jAgRtie karIne pheravavAnI che. jyAM sudhI A 'roMga bIlipha" mULathI nA jAya tyAM sudhI viSayanuM AkarSaNa sahaja rahevAnuM. mATe AkarSaNa' khalAsa thavA tenAM 'rUTa kaoNjha' rUpe biliphane ja savAze nirmUlana karavAmAM puruSArtha rAkhavo Avazyaka rahe che ! viSayathI vera baMdhAya ne vadhyA ja kare, bhavobhava sudhI. bIjA bI paDyA ja kare, paDyA ja kare. ene rokavAnI cAvI jANe, to ja chUTAM ya. bIja kevI rIte zekAya ? pratikramaNathI, viSayanuM sukha je je lIdhuM. te lona para levAya che. ene rIpe karavuM ja paDe ane rIpe karatI vakhate du:kha bhogavavuM ja paDe. mATe AtmAmAMthI ja sukha levA jevuM che evI bilipha to phITa karI do ! 4. viSaya bhoga, tathI tikAlI ! 3. viSaya sukhamAM dAvA ataMta ! jagata AkhuM viSayamAM sukha mAne che ! mAtra brahmacArIo ane samakitI devo viSayamAM mAnatA nathI. khAvA-pIvAmAM bIjA kazAmAM sukha khoLe te calAvAya, paNa viSayamAM to naryo gaMdavADo ja che, emAM zuM sukha ? ATaluM ja choDavA jevuM che. nahIM to e 'phAIla" rUpa thaI mokSe jatAM AMtaraze ! viSaya e jIvato parigraha che. mizracetana pachI dAvo mAMDe. vera hau bAMdhe. mATe ceto, AkhI jiMdagI enA gulAma thaI javuM paDe ! bemana ekAkAra nA ja thaI zake. eTale sAmasAmA dAvA, apekSAo vi. cAlu thaI ja jAya ! eka ja phero jenI joDe viSaya karyo hoya ene peTe janma levo paDe. jalebI dAvo mAMDe, jo ene baMdha karI daIe to ? viSaya bhogave rAgathI ne jyAre enuM pariNAma Ave tyAre dveSa akramajJAna meLavyA pachI ekAvatArI thavuM hoya to mahIM cokkasa rahevuM paDe. 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM' e niraMtara jenA lakSamAM rahe che e moTAmAM moTuM brahmacarya che. viSaya e zokhanI vastu nathI, nikAla karavA jevI cIja che ! brahmacarya vrata hoya to jaldI ukela Ave. ekAvatArI thavuM hoya teNe viSayamAM senTa paNa ruci nA joIe. polIsavALo mArI ThokIne mAMsa khavaDAve tevuM ghaTe. jJAnI jagataniSThAmAMthI, brahmaniSThAmAM besADI de. te mATe jJAna prApta karavuM paDe jJAnI pAsethI, kharo AnaMda to sAcuM brahmacarya hoya to ja thAya. paraNelAM hoya to bannenI marajIpUrvakanuM brahmacarya hovuM joIe, nahIM ke tarachoDa mArIne ! udayakarmathI viSaya bhogavyo evuM kyAre kahevAya ? polIsavALo traNa dA'Do bhUkhyA rAkhIne mAMsa khavaDAve, mArI ThokIne, tene udayakarma kahyuM. A to rAjIkhuzIthI viSaya bhogave, tene udayakarma kevI rIte kahevAya ? ene pola kahevAya. tyAM karma cArja thAya ja.. je je viSayanI gAMTha tUTe, te te viSaya para khulleAma vyAkhyAna karI zake. ahIM sTeja paNa pola nA cAle. nahIM to enAthI potAnuM ne bIjA badhAMyanuM bagaDe. 24. 25

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eka phero viSaya kare to traNa divasa sudhI mANasa dhyAnamAM sthira nA rahI zake ! vItarAgono dharma e vilAsIono dharma nathI. DiscArja kayA bhAgane kahevAya ? gADImAMthI paDI jaIe ene ! brahmacarya saMbaMdhInuM jJAna jANI rAkhavuM. pachI te jyAre bilIphamAM Ave pachI viSaya UDI jAya ! akrama vijJAnamAM hakkanA viSayonI chUTa ApI che. kAraNa ke eka avatAranuM badhuM DiscArja che. paNa pachI bIje draSTi bagaDavI nA joIe. bIje bagaDe to cArja thaI ja jAya. bhagavAnanA tAbAmAM rahevAnuM choDIne viSayanA tAbAmAM kyAMka phasAI to nathI gayA ne ?! viSayamAMthI chUTyA pachI zuddhAtmA padamAM vadhu rahevAya. hakkanA viSayano vAMdho nathI, paNa te ya niyamathI hovuM joIe. 5. saMsAravRkSanuM mULa viSaya ! jyAM viSaya che tyAM kapAyo, athaDAmaNo, dveSa che. viSaya ane kaSAyamAM mULa phera zuM ? viSaya e gayA avatAranuM pariNAma che ane kaSAya e AvatAM bhavanuM kAraNa che. kramikamAM vicAra karIne AtmA pAme. ekadhArI niraMtara vicAradhArA rahe, jenAthI karmo khape, ene vicAra jJAnAkSepakavaMta hoya che. viSayane no-kaSAya(nahIM jevA kaSAya)mAM mUkyuM. kAraNa viSayamAM krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha nathI AvatAM. chatAM brahmacaryane mahAvratamAM mUkyuM che ! kaSAya e kaoNjhIjha che ne viSaya e IphekTa che. mATe moTo doSa kayAyano che. 6. AtmA akartA-abhoktA ! vaijJAnika draSTie AtmA sUkSmatama che ane viSaya sthaLa che. sUkSmatama sthaLane kevI rIte bhogavI zake ? mATe AtmAe viSaya kyAreya bhogavyo nathI. ahaMkAra sUkSma che ne viSaya sthaLa che, mATe ahaMkAra paNa viSayane bhogavI zakato nathI. ahaMkAra phakta bhrAMtithI mAne che ke meM viSaya bhogavyo ! teno bhayaMkara bhogavaTo Ave che ! gItAmAM kahyuM che, 'viSayo viSayone bhogave che ! jyAre AtmA to trikALa zuddha ja che ! 7. AkarSaNa - vikarSaNano siddhAMta AkarSaNa thAya che pudgalanuM, te lohacuMbaka ne TAMkaNI jevuM. bAkI AtmAe kyAreya viSaya bhogavyo ja nathI. viSayomAM nIDara eTale svacchaMdI. dAdAnuM mane jJAna maLyuM che, have viSayo naDanAra nathI kahyuM ke bhayaMkara rIte gabaDyo. A ja nIDaratA thaI ne A ja viSa thayuM. mATe durupayoga thayo. akrama vijJAna badhI rIte nirbhaya karanAruM che. paNa viSayamAM nirbhaya nathI thavAnuM, tyAM jAgRta rahevAnuM che ! hakkanA viSayanI ja chUTa che, bIje nahIM. viSayamAM kapaTa karavuM bIjuM badhuM karavuM, e viSa ja che ne ? parama pUjaya dAdAzrI atyaMta karuNAthI kahe che, "AvuM jJAna maLyA pachI tame mukta nA thAo, to kyAre chUTAze ? A badhuM che ne temAMthI chUTavAnuM che. mATe kAma kADhI lo.' ame tamAruM kAma kaDhAvavA mATe beThA chIe ! jJAnI pAse besIne jJAnI jevA nA thavAya, emAM kono vAMka ? jJAnI puruSa niraMtara dravya-kSetra-kALa-bhAvathI apratibaddhapaNe vicare che ! emane joIne zIkhavAnuM che. | 'akrama vijJAna' strI-puruSanA AkarSaNane zuM kahe che ? lohacuMbaka lokhaMDane AkarSe ja, evo paramANuono svabhAva che ! tema strI-puruSanA paramANuo ekabIjAne AkarSe. pote nahIM kheMcAvAnuM nakkI karyuM hoya chatAM ya kheMcAya, to e zuM sUcave che ke AmAM have 'potAnuM' calaNa nathI, koI parasattA-megneTika phorsa kheMcI rahyo che. pUrvanA 'cArja thayelAM paramANuone kAraNe strI ne puruSa sAmasAmA 'philDa'mAM Ave tyAre paramANuo kheMcAya. tyAre pote mAne che ke, 'huM kheMcAyo. mane hajI AkarSaNa rahyA kare che." 26 27

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AmAM kharekhara paramANuo kheMcAya che. temAM jo 'huM' tanmayAkAra nA thAya, to paramANuo 'iphekTa' ApI sahaja svabhAve 'DiscArja' thaIne nirjarI jAya che. paNa vijJAnanI AvI vAstavikatA nahIM samajAvAthI 'potAne' mAnyatAnI AMTI rahyuM; temaja mIThAzanI lAlacathI, pote iphekTamAM bhaLyA vinA raheto nathI. pariNAme navuM cArja'kare che. temAM ya jo 'AtmajJAna"nI jAgRti hoya, te turta ja pratikramaNa karI pAcho AtmabhAvamAM AvI jAya to paramANuonI asarothI chUTe, ne pachI prakRtinAM pariNAmono jokhamadAra 'pote' raheto nathI. avasthA draSTithI AkarSaNa udbhave che ne tattvadraSTithI vItarAgatA utpanna thAya. avasthAmAM tanmayAkAra thaye ja mahIM cuMbakatva utpanna thAya ne tenuM pachI svabhAvathI ja AkarSaNa thavA mAMDe, eTale 'draSTi' badalAya to ja cuMbakatva uDe ne AkarSaNa aTake. eTale 'pote' AtmasvabhAvamAM rahe ne paramANuonI pratyeka kriyAne mAtra joyA-jANyA kare, paramANuo graMthisvarUpe phUTe tyAre pote temAM tanmayAkAra nA thAya, tenI asaronI noMdha kare, eka kSaNa paNa e asarane potAnI nA mAne, para-pariNAmane para jANe ne potAnA sva-pariNAmanI yathArtha samaja varte, to viSaya viSayarUpa na thatAM zeya banI nirjarA pAmI jAya che. AvI jAgRti to, sarva sthULa doSo thatAM aTake, sUkSmamAM paNa ghaNuM badhuM cokhkhuM thAya ne 'vijJAna'nI samaja yathArtha varte tyAre ja pariName ! 8. vaijJAtika 'gAIDa' brahArya mATe ! brahmacarya upara ATalAM badhAM jhINavaTabharyA, vaijJAnika phoDa kyAMya khullAM nathI thayAM. parama pUjya dAdAzrIe khUba ja saraLa rIte tamAma rahasyo khullAM karyA che. jenAM pustako khUba ja kAma lAge evAM che sAdhakone ! keTalAMya sAdhako dAdAnuM pustaka vAMcIne brahmacarya siddha karI le che. emanI brahmacaryanuM mahatva batADatI sacoTa vANI ane viSayanAM pariNAmonI bhayaMkaratA khullI karatI vANI sujJa vAcakane UbhAM ja karI de che. aMdarathI jAgRta karI de che ne brahmacaryamAM vALI de che ! AvI vANI vAMcIne ja brahmacarya paLAya. - jaya saccidAnaMda. 28

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anukramaNika 37 14 khaMDa: 1 kRpALudeve kahyuM strI viSe... paraNito mATe brahmacaryanI cAvIo buddhithI paNa chUTe viSaya ! eke DaMkha khAdho, khavaDAvyo badhAne ! 1. viSaya tahIM, paNa tiDaratA e viSa? che. aNahakkanI gunegArI ! ceto, viSayanI niDaratAthI ! aNahakkathI nA cetAya to... strIno nahIM, vAMka potAno ! 2 aNahakkamAM bhaMga pAMceya mahAvrata ! patnI sAthe mokSa, eka zarate ! harayA DhoranI zuM gati ? davA kyAre pIvAya ? ....taraphaDAya tyAre ! 7 zrI vijhananI jAgRti javalle ja ! 43 AvI saraLatA mokSArthIni kyAre ? 7 aNahakkanuM laI jAya narka.... che DiscArja, chatAM mAMge jAgRti ! hakkanA ja hadamAM, tenI geranTI ! 45 zarU karo AjathI ja. 11 lokasaMjJAthI phasAyo viyamAM ! 4. eka patI eTale ja brahmacarya ! akrama sivAya AvI chUTa maLe ?! 15 lokaniMgha nahIM, te ja lokapUjaya ! 48 2. draSTi doSatAM jokhamo ! eka patnIvrata' A kALanuM brahmacarya ja ! 49 paro cAra, paNa temane ja sinsIyara ! pa0 AMkhano te zo guno ? khape sUkSmathI paNa eka patnIvrata ! pa3 pADAne vAMke pakhAlIne DAma hakkanuM paNa normAliTImAM ! na milAvo draSTi kadi... tArI tAkAta pramANe paiNa ! papa draSTi bagaDe tyAM bhava joDAya ! kiMmata rUpALI cAmaDInI ! 5. aNahakkatA viSayabhogo, tarkatuM kAraNa ! rUpALAM bhogavAya vadhu ! khUlyu rUpALAnuM rahasya ! ra6 parapuruSa-parastrI nakanuM kAraNa ! 58 tapAso viSayanuM pRthakkaraNa !! ziyaLa lUMTanArA, narnAdhikArI ! darAja khaMjavALe evuM sukha ! bhayaMkara jokhamI, aNahakkanAM viSayo ! viSayanuM vivaraNa rAjacaMdranI draSTie.... 3) dAdA choDAve narka gatithI ! enAM jokhamo to khyAlamAM rAkho ! dura 7. viSaya e pAzavatA ja ! beu sahamata to ya jokhama ! brahmacaryanAM icchAvAnane ugAre jJAna ! - daza varSa sudhI to digaMbara ! 104 aNahakkanAM viSayathI strIpaNuM nA chUTe ! 66. mA-bApa ja kusaMskAre viSayamAM ! 105 satI thaye, mokSa pAko ! strIsaMga chUTe, te thAya bhagavAna ! 106 sarvakALe zaMkA jokhamI ja ! DabalabeDe bevaDo viSaya ! 107 aMdhArAmAM, Akho kyAM sudhI tANavI? sUve DelAmAM pati ne oraDAmAM patnI ! 108 mokSe janArAone ! na yAda Ave AtmA beDarUmamAM ! 110 cAritra saMbaMdhI 'sephasAIDa' ! A viSayabhoganAM pariNAma te kevAM ?! 111 kevI dagAkhorI A !! keTaluM zarama bhareluM? 113 zaMkAnI parAkASTAe samAdhAna ! buddhizALI paNa bairI AgaLa budhdha ! 114 kevA hatA RSimunio !!! 116 6. viSaya baMdha tyAM DakhADakhI baMdha brahmacArI eTale manuSyamAM deva ja ! 117 mukhamAM jJAna ne vartanamAM kleza ! 80 8. brahmacaryanI kimata, spaSTa vedatarAga-dveSanAM mULamAM rahyo che viSaya ! 81 Atmasukha chatAM na Ave vairAgya !! patnI to kyAre vaza thAya ? akrama mArgamAM brahmacaryanuM sthAna keTaluM ? 119 viSayanAM bhikhArI, juo saMyama vIrane ! jJAnIonuM brahmacarya ! enAthI ja athaDAmaNa ! pote bhogave ke bhoktA ! 123 ne lAlacamAMthI lAcArI ! viSayarasa gAravatA ! 124 lAlacathI bhayaMkara AvaraNa ! viSayo vedarUpa bhUkha maTADavA, nahIM ke... 127 viSayathI chUTyA bAda saMbodhyA 'bA' !. viSayasukha cAkhe, tyAM sudhI Atmasukha... 128 e kahevAya popaTamastI ! emAM gaMdavADo dekhAya to e jAya ! 129 viSaya baMdha to kleza baMdha ! ekAMta zaiyAsana ! cha mahinA karo akhataro ! pheravo bilipha viSayanI ! kapaTathI siMhane banAve uMdaraDI ! viSayathI TaLe jJAna ne dhyAna ! vasUle bhAIsA'ba karAvIne ! na bujhAya e pyAsa kadi... lAlaca to dhyeya cUkAve ! to ja maLe AtmAnuM sukha ! viSayanI lAlaca, kevI hIna dazA ! 102 nirAlaMba AnaMda ora ! 122. gAma - 29 30

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samajavI brahmacaryanI anivAryatA ! 135 khaMDa H 2 aMte ya lejo brahmacarya vrata ! 137 AtmajAgRtithI brahmacaryato mArga brahmacarya vinA nathI pUrNAhuti ! 137 spaSTa vedana aTakyuM viSaya baMdhanathI ! 138 1. viSayI spaMdata, mAtra jokhama ! 247 be taraphInAM sukho mAMDe dAvo ! 213 bhogave rAgathI, cUkave dveSathI ! 214 kAma kADhI lo ! 215 viSayathI vera vadhe ! 216 viSaya bIja zekAya Ama ! 218 veranuM kArakhAnuM ! 219 na maLe AdhInatAmAM rahe evI ! 219 viSaya sukha rIpe karavuM paDe ! 220 4. viSaya bhoga, tathI tikAlI ! 25O. 193 9. le vatatI TrAyala ! viSayathI vItarAgo ya DarelAM ! 182 AtmA sadA brahmacArI ! 183 brahmacarya pachI AtmAno... anubhava ! 140 mahIM nAca to nAcanArI hAjara ! 185 niyamamAM Ave to ya ghaNuM ! viSayanI phasAmaNa to juo ! 186 gRhasthAzramamAM brahmacarya ! bInAM DUDA AvatA bhave ! moTAmAM moTA aTakaNa viSaya saMbaMdhI ! 188 dekhata bhUlI jo TaLe to.... 189 alyA, A to durupayoga thayo ! 146 * vijJAnathI viSaya para vijaya ! 10 bApa anusaryA dIkarAne ! 147 jokhamonuM jokhama...viSayaroganuM mULiyuM ! 192 nakkI karyuM tyAMthI ja urdhvIkaraNa ! ahIM ja bIveranAM marAyA borDa ! 149 kheda chUTAya viSayathI ! vicAra ja baMdha vrata pachI ! 15ra satsaMgathI kATa kapAya ! 194 abhiprAya to brahmacaryano ja ! 153 2, viSaya bhUkhatI bhayAtakatA ! 10. AlocatAthI ja jokhama TaLe asaMtoSanI bhUkha, have kyAre chUTaze ?! 196 vatabhaMgatAM ! darzana mohathI khaDo saMsAra ! 198 vratabhaMge mithyAtvanI jIta! 154 strI-puruSanAM draSTiroganI davA zI ? raLa ahaMkAra karIne paNa viSayathI chaTAya ! 163 dAdA sivAya na aDAya koIthI ! 201 jAgRtimAM dekhe, garbhathI paiDI sudhI ! ra0ra 11. cAritryano prabhAva ! 3. viSaya sukhamAM dAvA ataMta ! cAritryano pAyo, mokSapaMthe AdhAra ! 168 'zIlavAna' dekhIne 'prabhAva pAme ja ! 171 apavAde brahmacArIo. kevAM lakSaNo zIlavAnanAM ! 174 choDo mAtra viSayane ! zIla sarpa na AbhaDe ! 175 viSayathI baMdha karAze.... ekAMta zaiyAsana ! 178 'mizracetana' to dAvo mAMDe ja ! ra10 viSaya mukti, tyAM caDhe dasamA guMThANe... 180 be-mana na thAya kadi eka ! kramikamAM vicAra karIne pragati ! 245 kaI apekSAe viSaya baMdhana-svarUpa ? 246, viSayane kahyo, no kaSAya ! moTo doSa, viSaya karatAM kaSAyano ! 248 viSaya e che IphekTa ! che kudaratI paNa lImITamAM ghaTe ! 251 6. AtmA akartA-abhoktA vijJAna draSTie viSayano bhoktA koNa ? ra53 sUkSmatama', 'sthaLa'ne bhogavI zake ? 257 jJAnInA zabdo sonAnI kaTAra 258 na levAdevA AtmAne AmAM ! 259 cetajo, na thAya kyAMya durupayoga ! ra60 viSayamAM kapaTa e ya viSa ! ra61 jJAnI puruSa maLe, jo kadi bhUla nA. 263 7. AkarSaNa - vikarSaNano siddhAMta AkarSaNa zuM che ? e samajAya to.... ra6pa paramANumAM pUrAyo pAvara ra67 tyAM tattva draSTithI ja mukti ! ra69 AkarSaNa tyAM pratikramaNa khape ! 27) 8. vaijJAtika 'gAIDa' brahmacarya mATe! khulyAM rahasyo brahmacarya taNAM ! 27ra jJAnI viNa viSaya roga koNa kADhe ? 273 kharo brahmacArI ja bole brahmacarya para ! 274 pustaka vAMcIne ya paLAya brahmacarya ! 278 dAdA kare jIrNoddhAra... zAsana taNuM ! 279 viSaya bhogane 'nikAlI" koNa kahI... 225 ene maLe ekAvatArI bonDa ! 226 brahmaniSThA besADe jJAnI ! udayakama karIne pola ! 227 nirviSayI thavuM ja paDe ! 229 na cAle mahIM pola ! 23, cArja-DiscArjanI bhedarekhA ! 231 baLatarAno mAryo viSaya khoLe ! ahaMkAranI mAnyatAnuM sukha ! 234 A jJAnane rAkho jANI ! 235 akrama vijJAne ApI chUTa ! 236 bhagavAnane tAbe ke strIne tAbe ! 237 akrama vijJAna to zuM kahe che ? ra39 viSaya dUra karAve AtmAnubhava ! 240 5. saMsAravRkSanuM mULa viSaya ! kaoNmanasensathI TaLe athaDAmaNo ! 242 phera viSaya-kaSAya taNa..... 243 doSa che ajJAnatAno !. 244 233 *** 31

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khaMDa : 1 paraNito mATe brahmacaryanI cAvIo. viSaya nahIM, paNa niDaratAM e viSa ! ceto, viSayanI nIDaratAthI ! viSayo e viSa nathI, viSayamAM nIDaratA e viSa che. mATe gabharAzo nahIM. badhAM zAstroe buma pADI ke viSayo e viSa che. zAnuM viSa che ? viSaya e viSa to hoto haze ? viSayamAM nIDaratA e viSa che. viSaya jo viSa hotane, to pachI tame badhA ghera rahetAM hota ane tamAre mokSe javuM hoya to mAre tamane hAMkIne mokalavA paDe ke jAva apAsare, ahIM ghera nA paDI rahezo. evuM hAMkIne mokalavuM paDe ke nA mokalavuM paDe ? paNa mAre koIne hAMkavA paDe che ? ame to kahIe chIe ke jAva, ghera jaIne nirAMte palaMgamAM sUI jAva. viSayo vagaranA brahmacArI to keTalAM haze A duniyAmAM ? eTale pAMca-dasa hajAra hoya, vakhate vIsa-paccIsa hajAra hoya. paNa to ya A sADAcAra abaja mANaso to viSa pIdhA kare che. viSayane viSarUpa lakhyA, tenI mANasane manamAM zI asara thAya ? 'viSayo viSa che', A zabdo paiNelAone saMbhaLAya to zuM thAya ? paiNelA AgaLa A zabda bolavo ja nA joIe ane je Avo zabda Ape, tene kahIe ke alyA, jo kadI samajathI prApta brahmacarya AvuM viSayo ja viSa hoya to pachI paiNavAnuM zene mATe hatuM ? A to thoDAka ja manuSyo paiNyA vagaranA pharyA kare che. bIjuM, AkhuM jagata to paiNeluM hoya che. mATe jo khoTuM hoya to AkhuM jagata paiNe ja kema karIne ? A je paiNyA vagaranA pharyA kare che, e to kasaratazALAmAM gayA che, ke strI vagara jivAya che ke nahIM ? eTale e to kasaratazALA che. bAkI tamAre 'TesTa ekjhAminezana'mAMthI pasAra thavuM paDaze, ne ahIM AgaLa strInI sAthe ja, bairI-chokarAM sAthe ja vItarAga thavuM paDaze. tyAM himAlayamAM nAsI jaIne, vItarAga thaIe (!) ne 'hamaku kyA, hamaku kyA ?" ema karyA kare, e cAle nahIM. - strI vaDhe ane rAte e gharamAM rahevuM, e to moTAmAM moTI TesTa ekjhAminezana che ! eTale strI sAthe mokSa hovo joIe. strInI gALo khAya ane samatA rahe evo mokSa thavo joIe. bhagavAne AtmAnA be bheda pADyA ; eka saMsArI ne bIjA siddha. je mokSe gayelA che te siddha kahevAya che ne bIjA badhA ya saMsArI. eTale tame jo tyAgI ho to ya saMsArI cho ne A gRhastha paNa saMsArI ja che. mATe tame manamAM kazuM rAkhazo nahIM. saMsAra nathI naDato, viSaya nathI naDatA, kazuM naDatuM nathI, ajJAna naDe che. eTalA mATe to meM pustakamAM lakhyuM ke viSayo viSa nathI, viSayomAM nIDaratA e viSa che. bairI-chokarAM sAthe ja mokSane mATe ame A rasto batAvyo che. A ahIMthI sIdho moNa nathI, A ekAvatArI pada che. vItarAgonI vAta tadana sAcI che ke sIdhuM ja mokSe javAnuM hoya to to bairI-chokarAM A chellA avatAramAM choDavAM paDe. paNa A to eka avatArIpada che. mokSane ne saMsArane zI levAdevA ? eke ya karma nA baMdhAya, enI ame geranTI ApIe chIe. strI-chokarAM sAthe ya karma nA baMdhAya. strIno tahIM, vAMka potAno ! 'viSayo viSa nathI' evuM ekaluM kahevAmAM Ave, to keTalAMya tyAgIo joDe matabheda paDI jAya ke tame AvuM kaho cho ? nA, huM viSayane

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya samajathI prApta brahmacarya viSa kahevA mAgato ja nathI. huM viSayamAM nIDaratAne viSa kahuM chuM. tame viSayone viSa kaho cho, e huM kabUla karato nathI. je nA paiNelo hoya ane e jo brahmacArI tarIke rahevA mAgato hoya to huM bahu khuza chuM. paiNelo hoya tene zuM ema kahevuM ke bAyaDI choDIne nAsI jA tuM ?! chatAM bAyaDI choDIne nAsI gayo hoya ane eno mokSa thAya evuM kyAre ya paNa bane ? evuM koInA mAnyAmAM Ave che ? tyAre paiNyo'to zuM karavA ? zarama nathI AvatI ? koIne dago devAya nahIM. A duniyAmAM koI jIvane kiMcitmAtra duHkha ApyuM haze to paNa mokSa nahIM thAya. eTale ame A saraLa rasto khoLI kADhayo. nahIM to A badhAM paiNelAo kahe che ke ame mokSe javAnAM, te zAthI ema kahe che ? potAne ema lAgyuM ke ame mokSamAM javAne mATe Ama jaI rahyA chIe. keTalAM mAIla upara hatA ne te have senTrala kyAM sudhI AvyuM evuM tamane lAge che ? praznakartA : najadIka che. dAdAzrI : strI-chokarAM sAthe che, chokarAM bhaNAve che, badhuM kare che. strI mokSane vAMdho karatI nathI. tamArA vAMke moTA aTake che. vAMka tamAro che, strIno vAMka nathI. strI naDatI nathI, tamArI ajJAnatA naDe che. evuM che ne, manuSyoe viSayanuM to pRthakkaraNa karI joyuM nathI. jo mAnavadharma tarIke viSayanuM pRthakkaraNa kare, jema ke koI vastunuM ApaNe pRthakkaraNa karIe ne emAM zuM zuM vastuo bhaLelI che ema juduM pADIe. evI rIte viSayanuM jo pRthakkaraNa kare to mANasa viSaya koI dahADo pharI kare nahIM. be dahADAthI vadhArAnuM vAsI bhajiyuM khavAya ja nahIM, chatAM ya paNa traNa mahinAnAM vAsI bhajiyAM khAdhAM hoya to ya e jIvato raheze. paNa viSaya kare to e jIvato nahIM rahe. viSaya e evI vastu che, enuM pRthakkaraNa kare to potAne vairAga ja rahyA kare. jo viSayo viSa hota to bhagavAna mahAvIra tIrthaMkara ja nA thAta. bhagavAna mahAvIrane ya dIkarI hatI. eTale viSayomAM nIDaratA e viSa che. have mane kaMI naDavAnuM nathI, evuM thayuM e viSa che. praznakartA : nIDaratA e bedarakArI kahevAya ne ? dAdAzrI : nIDaratA zabda eTalA mATe meM Apelo che ke viSayamAM Dare, nAchUTake viSayamAM paDe. eTale viSayothI Daro, ema kahIe chIe. kAraNa ke bhagavAna hau DaratA hatA, moTA moTA jJAnIo ya DaryA hatA, to tame evAM kevAM cho ke viSayathI Daro nahIM ?! mane kaMI have naDavAnuM nathI, e viSa che. mATe viSayathI Daro. viSaya bhogavo kharAM paNa viSayathI Do. jema suMdara rasoI AvI hoya, rasa-roTalIne e badhuM bhogavo kharAM paNa DarIne bhogavo. DarIne zA mATe ke vadhu khAzo to upAdhI thaI paDaze, eTalAM mATe Daro. eka bAvo khoLI lAvo ke jene Aja paiNAvIe ApaNe ane mahino jo ghara mAMDe to sAcuM ! A to trIjo ja dA'De nAsI jAya laMke ! A phalANuM laI Avo, phalANuM laI Avo kahyuM ke bhAgI jAya. ane A lokone herAna kare 'have tamAruM zuM thaze' kaheze, eTale mAre A bhAre zabdo lakhavA paDyA, ke 'viSayo viSa nathI, jAva bhaDakazo nahIM.' kahyuM. huM tamAro bhaDakATa kADhavA mATe Avyo chuM. sahaja bhAve viSayo bhogavone ! sahaja hovuM joIe. sahaja bhAve jo viSaya bhogave to viSaya viSayone ja bhogave che. A to sahaja bhAve bhogavatAM AvaDatuM nathI ne ! praznakartA eTale viSayomAM je khUMpe che, emAM enI kaMI hiMmata nathI kAma karatI, e to enI Asakti karAve che. dAdAzrI : nA, ApaNane teno ya vAMdho nathI. vAMdho nIDaratAno che. eTale ke 'have mane kaMI naDavAnuM nathI. huM game tema viSayo bhogavuM to mane kazuM thAya nahIM." evuM bephAmapaNuM thAya, te bephAmapaNAne ApaNe nIDaratA kahIe chIe. A lokoe viSayone 'ekAMtika viSa" kahyuM che. eTale saMsArIo 'Diskareja' thaI gayA. eTale pachI A saMsArIone viSa ja pIdhA karavAnuM ne ? A tyAgIo ekalAne ja viSa nahIM pIvAnuM? A strI-viSaya ekalo ja viSaya nathI. tyAgIonA ya badhA viSayo hoya che ane A saMsArIone ya badhA viSayo hoya che. paNa A zAstromAM ekalA strI viSayane mATe AvuM badhuM jhera samAna kahyuM che. paNa ethI lokone gabharAvI mAryA che ke ApaNe to saMsArI mANasa, viSayo viSa

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya jevA che, to ya karavA to paDe che ne ! eTale e pachI emane khUMcyA kare. e gUMca kADhI nAkhavA jevI che ne kheMcyA kare e du:kha kahevAya. praznakartA : viSayomAM nIDaratA e viSa che. to nIDaratA utpanna thAya che, e zAmAM Ave ? - dAdAzrI : pote nIDaratA rAkhe to rahe. e ahaMkAramAM Ave ke viSayamAM jItI gayo, have vAMdho nathI Ave evo." enuM nAma nIDaratA. e ahaMkAra kahevAya. jo nIDara rahyo to e viSa thaI gayuM. A viSayamAM nIDara to TheTha sudhI nathI thavAnuM. polIsavALAnA pakaDyA vagara koI jelamAM nA jAya ne ? polIsa pakaDIne jelamAM laI jAya to ja jAvane ? polIsavALAnA laI gayA vagara jelamAM jAya to nA samajIe ke e nIDara thaI gayo che ? polIsavALo pakaDIne jelamAM laI jAya to eno guno nathI, evuM A viSayamAM saMjogo ene khADAmAM pADe to eno vAMdho nathI. abrahmacaryanI gAMTha ogaLe to to badhuM jAya. A saMsAra badho enA upara ja Ubho rahyo che. rUTa kaoNjha ja A che. A lokonAM duHkha kADhavA mATe, lokonA manamAMthI bhAra nIkaLI jAya eTalA mATe A jJAnI puruSa ema kahe che ke viSayo e viSa nathI. te tamane thAya ke cAlo, ATalI to nirAMta thaI !!! patnI sAthe mokSa, eka zarate ! praznakartA : zuddhAtmA svarUpa thayA pachI saMsAramAM patnI joDeno saMsAra vyavahAra karavo ke nahIM ? ane te kevA bhAve ? ahIM samabhAve nikAla kevI rIte karavo ? dAdAzrI : A vyavahAra to, tamAre patnI hoya to patnI joDe baMnene samAdhAnapUrvaka vyavahAra rAkhajo. tamAruM samAdhAna ne emanuM samAdhAna thatuM hoya evo vyavahAra rAkhajo. emane asamAdhAna thatuM hoya ne tamAruM samAdhAna thatuM hoya e vyavahAra baMdha karajo. ane ApaNAthI strIne kaMI duHkha na thavuM joIe. tamane kema lAge che ? kevo vyavahAra karavAno ? ene du:kha na thAya tevo. banI zake ke nA banI zake ? hA, strI paiNelAM che te saMsAra vyavahAra mATe che, nahIM ke bAvA thavA mATe. ane strI pAchI samajathI prApta brahmacarya mane gALo na de ke, "A dAdAe mAro saMsAra bagADyo !" huM evuM nathI kahevA mAMgato. huM tamane kahuM chuM ke A je 'davA" (viSayasaMbaMdha) che e gaLapaNavALI davA che mATe davA haMmezAM jema pramANathI laIe chIe, evI rIte pramANathI lejo. gaLI lAge eTale pI pI karavI evuM kaMI karAya ? jarA to vicAra karo. zuM nukazAna thAya che ? tyAre kahe che ke, je khorAka badho khAya che enuM blaDa thAya che, bIjuM badhuM thatAM thatAM chevaTe enuM raja ane vIryarUpe thaI khalAsa thaI jAya che. lagnajIvana dIpe kyAre ? ke tAva bannene caDhe ane e davA pIve tyAre. tAva vagara davA pIve ke nahIM ? ekane tAva vagara davA pIve, e lagnajIvana dIpe nahIM. bannene tAva caDhe tyAre ja davA pIve. dhIsa Ijha dha onlI meDisina. meDisina gaLI hoya tethI kaMI roja pIvA jevI nA hoya. lagnajIvana dIpAvavuM hoya, to saMyamInI jarUra che. A badhAM jAnavaro asaMyamI kahevAya. ApaNe to saMyamI jIvana joIe ! A badhAM je AgaLa rAma-sItA ne e badhAM thaI gayA, te badhAM saMyamavALA. strI sAthe saMyamI ! tyAre A asaMyama e kaMI daivI guNa che ? nA. e pAzavI gaNa che. manuSyamAM AvAM nA hoya. manuSya asaMyamI nA hovo joIe. jagatane samaja ja nathI ke viSaya zuM che ! eka viSayamAM karoDo jIva marI jAya che, vana TAImamAM to, samajaNa nahIM hovAthI ahIMyA majA mANe che. samajatAM nathI ne ! na chUTake jIva mare evuM hovuM joIe. paNa samajaNa nA hoya tyAre zuM thAya ? eTale ame kahyuM ke strIno vAMdho nathI. paNa evI zarate beune. saMpa ane samajapUrvaka karo. DokaTare kahI hoya eTalAM vakhata pIvAnI. e to roja be-be traNa vakhata davA pIe, enA jevuM A lokoe karI nAkhyuM che ne ? ane kharekhara e davA e gaLI nathI. praznakartA: A paNa ATalI ja davA pIvI, e kaMI ApaNA kAbUmAM che ? e Dojha kAbUmAM raheto nA hoya to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : nA kAbUmAM hoya evI vastu ja nathI hotI A duniyAmAM.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 9 davA kyAre pIvAya ? tAvamAM taraphaDAya tyAre ! A 'akrama vijJAna' che. paiNavAthI ya mokSa jAya evo nathI. tame badhA saMsArI cho ne eka avatArI thavuM che, to teno guNAkAra kyAMya maLato nathI. A jainazAstro cokhkhuM nA pADe che, AcAryo paNa nA pADe che. chatAM ApaNane zI rIte guNAkAra maLI gayo ? tyAre meM kahyuM ke, strInI sAthe raho, paNa mArI zarata zuM che ke tame game te khAjo-pIjo, paNa A strI viSaya saMbaMdhamAM to bannene tAva caDhe to ja davA pIjo. A davA mIThI che, tethI zokhane mATe pIzo nahIM. nahIM to A saMsArIone ekAvatArI to zuM, paNa samakita ja jaladI nA thAya ne ! ane A to badhAne kSAyaka samakita varte che. phakta ATalI ja bhUla rahe che. jagata AkhuM ya, mIThuM eTale pIve ja basa, tAva hoya ke nA hoya. eTale ApaNAM lokone to A anAdithI ja Avo adhyAsa thayelo, tethI amAre vAre vAre kahevuM paDe che ! badhA dharmoe gUMcavADo Ubho karyo ke strIone choDI do. alyA, strIne choDI dauM to huM kyAM jAuM ? mane khAvAnuM koNa karI Ape ? huM A mAro vepAra karuM ke ghera cUlo karuM ? have bAyaDI choDI do to mokSa maLaze evuM kahe. to bAIDIe zuM guno karyo che ? praznakartA : ane bAIDIo ya ema kahe ne, ke amAre ya mokSa joIe, amAre tame nathI joItA. dAdAzrI : hA, evuM ja bolene ! ApaNo ne A bAIno, beuno sahiyAro vepAra. eTale AmAM strImAM doSa nathI, tAvamAM doSa nathI, tAva nA caDhyo hoya ne davA pIo teno doSa che. eTale A badhI jokhamadArI samajajo. ApaNI vAta bAMyadharIpUrvakanI che ane tarata anubhavamAM Ave evI vAta che ! AvI saraLatA mokSArthIne kyAMthI ? davA niyamathI levAmAM Ave to ja ene AjJAmAM rahyo kahevAya. samajathI prApta brahmacarya viSayanI limiTa hovI joIe. strI-puruSano viSaya kyAM sudhI hovo joIe ? parastrI nA hovI joIe ane parapuruSa nA hovo joIe. ane vakhate eno vicAra Ave to, ene pratikramaNathI dhoI nAkhavA joIe. moTAmAM moTuM jokhama hoya to ATaluM ja, parastrI ane parapuruSa ! potAnI strI e jokhama nathI. have amArI AmAM kazI kyAMya bhUla che ? ame vaDhIe chIe koI rIte ? emAM kazo guno che ? A amArI sAyanTiphika zodhakhoLa che ke keTalethI, kyAM AgaLa karma nahIM coMTe, evI zodhakhoLa che ! nahIM to sAdhuone eTale sudhI kahyuM che ke strInI lAkaDAnI pUtaLI hoya tene paNa jozo nahIM, strI beThI hoya e jagyAe besazo nahIM. paNa meM Avo tevo Dakho nathI karyone ? ane AvuM saheluM hoya to pALavuM joIe ne ? ke emAM kazo vAMdho Ave che ? 8 praznakartA : amAre UMce caDhavuM che, mATe pALavuM ja che ! dAdAzrI : tAva caDhe to pIjo. e to DAhyA mANasanuM ja kAma hoya ne ? eTale A amAruM tharmomiTara maLyuM che. eTale ame kahIe chIe ne, ke strI sAthe mokSa Apyo che ! AvI saraLatA koIe nathI ApI ! bahu saraLa ane sIdho mArga mUkelo che. have tamAre jevo sadupayoga karavo hoya e karajo ! atizaya saraLa ! AvuM banyuM nathI ! A nirmaLa mArga che, bhagavAna paNa eksepTa kare evo mArga che !! koI mANasane sajA thayelI hoya ne ene jelamAM ghAle, to e tyAM AgaLa jaIne jamIna lIMpato hoya to ApaNe zuM samajIe ? ene lIMpavAno zokha che ? pelo polIsane kAlAvAlA karIne kaheze 'jarA pANI lAvI Apane.' te lIMpavA mATe kAlAvAlA ya kare. zAthI ? ke ene sUtAM nathI phAvatuM. eTale ene zokha nathI, kyAre chUTuM, evuM ene manamAM hoya ja ! chatAM e lIMpe che ! to zuM A virodhAbhAsa nathI ? nA, A virodhAbhAsa nathI. A to kAmacalAu joIze ke nahIM ? nahIM to keDo tUTI jAya. evuM ApaNe kahIe chIe ke tame A davA pIjo, paNa 'AmAMthI kyAre chUTAya ?" e to cUkAya ja nahIM ne ? e jAgRti nA hoya to zuM kAmanI ?

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya che DiscArja, chatAM mAMge jAgRti ! ApaNuM A "akrama vijJAna" zuM kahe che ? cArjane "cArja' kahe che ne DiscArjane 'DiscArja' kahe che. DiscArja eTale ApaNe koI tyAga karavAno kahyo nathI. A jJAna ApyuM eTale tamAre je tyAga karavAnuM hatuM, te ahaMkAra ane mamatA e beuno tyAga thaI gayo ane grahaNa karavAnuM potAnuM svarUpa 'zuddhAtmA', te grahaNa thaI gayuM. eTale tyAga karavAnI vastu tyAga thaI gaI ane grahaNa karavAnI vastu grahaNa thaI gaI ! eTale grahaNa-tyAganI kaDAkUTo rahI nahIM, ke mAre A grahaNa karavuM che ke A tyAga karavuM che evuM ! bIjuM, ekalo have nikAla rahyo. kAraNa ke ame amArA jJAnathI zodhakhoLa karelI ke A badhuM DiscArja che. have che DiscArja chatAM ya atyAranAM mANasone jarA amAre cetavavAM paDe che, strI-puruSanA viSaya saMbaMdhamAM cetavavA paDe che. eka mahAtmA che ne te pachI evuM mAnI beThA ke A badhuM DiscArja ja che. tyAre meM emane samajaNa pADI ke DiscArjano artha zo ? ke tamane tAva caDhayo hoya pachI benane pUchIe ke tamane tAva caDhayo che ? bannene tAva caDhe to davA pI levI. eka ne tAva caDhyo hoya paNa pelIne tAva nA caDhe tyAM sudhI ApaNe pIvI nahIM ane banne ne tAva caDhe tyAre pIvI. A to roja pIve che. mIThI che ne, pharsTakalAsa beu... eTale huM AvuM kahuM chuM emane. nahIM to zarIra kevAM dekhAya Ama ! have e ajJAnatAmAM pahelAM duHkha hatuM, baLatarA ja hatI Akho dahADo eTale tuM Akho dahADo che te A dhaMdho laI beThelo paNa have nathI baLatarA. have saheja pAMsaro marane ! baLatarA hoya tyAM sudhI huM vaTuM nahIM koIne. huM jANuM ke baLato mANasa zuM nA kare ? ane akhaMDa AnaMdavALA banAvI ApyA che meM tamane, have A zuM karavA pI-pI karo che ?! vagara tAvamAM mUA davA pIo cho ! koI vagara tAve davA pIe kharo ? jarUriyAta ja nahIM zarIrane. ema ne ema AnaMdamAM che ! samajavA jevI vAta che. ane e je che e zarIrane nukasAnakAraka vastu che. A je tame khAo cho, pIo cho enuM ekasTrekTa thatuM thatuM je vIrya, e Akho sAra 10 samajathI prApta brahmacarya che eTale te ya IkonomIkalI sTeja hovA joIe. game tema lADuM vAparavAnuM nathI. huM ! eTale ApaNe to caMdubhAIne kahevAnuM ke bhaI Ama nA cAle. 'lAphA nA thavAya' ApaNe to viSayI chIe ja nahIM. ApaNane lAgatuM-vaLagatuM nathI paNa ApaNe caMdubhAIne kahevuM joIe. nahIM to pAchA caMdubhAI mAMdA paDe to ApaNe upAdhi kharIne ? eTale cetatA rahIe to emAM zuM khoTuM ? nahIM to e nirvIrya thAyane zarIra to A kaheze, he..... gayuM, e gayuM, A gayuM. mera cakkara ! tyAre pahelA dAdAnuM kahyuM mAnyuM nahIM ne have gayuM. gayuM karyA kare che. pAMtrIsa varSe to eka bhaIne pakSAghAta thaI gayo bahu AsaktivALA hatA. Ama dharma sAro pALe badho. pachI meM emane kahyuM A tame Asakti moLI hotI karatAM paNa have to moLI karavI paDaze ne ! tyAre kahe, "moLI zuM AkhI ja gaIne. have kyAM Asakti rahI ?" tyAre meM kahyuM "pahelethI samajyA hota to A bhAMjagaDa nA hota ne ! Ama jelamAM pUrAva cho tyAre sIdhA pAMsarA thAva cho. tyAre mukta rahevAmAM zuM vAMdho che ?" paNa muktimAM nA rahe, nahIM ? jelamAM jaIzuM, tyAre rahIzuM pAsarA ! eTale pachI A mArga akrama nIkaLyo ke bhaI, nA evuM tevuM nathI. bannene tAva caDhyo hoya to pIjo bA davA. tAva sAthe AkhI rAta hUDa..... hUDa.... besI rahevuM enA karatAM pIjone ! evuM akrama vijJAna nIkaLyuM. eTale chevaTe meM zuM kahyuM? A loko kAcA che, eTale mAre A navuM vAkya mUkavuM paDyuM. jo thoDAka pAkA hota, cAreka AnI kAcA hoya ne bAra AnI pAkA thayelA hota to mAre e ya nA kahevuM paData. A eka apavAda mUkavo paDelo ! have enAthI A jJAna kaMI jatuM rahetuM nathI, paNa ene potAne e gUMcavI nAkhe. davA to levI jarUrI ja che, kAraNa ke 'mereja' thayelA che. paNa strI-puruSano je saMbaMdha che te meM tamane enAthI chUTA nathI pADyo. paNa kAyado zuM kahe che ke jo mokSe javuM hoya, to khAvAnuM zene mATe ? bhUkha maTADavA mATe khAvAnuM che. evuM davA to tAva caDhe to ja pIvAnI ne ? tamane samajAyuM ke tAva kone caDhyo kahevAya ne kone nA caDhyo kahevAya ? have ATalo ja eka nAno amatho kAyado pALavAno kahuM chuM. AmAM

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 11 kaMI bahu agharI vastu che? te ya jo tame sAyanTisTa mANaso ho, to tamane kahevAnI jarUra nathI. A badhA sAyanTisTa nahIM ne ? A davA to ghaNI sarasa che, sugaMdhIdAra che, mATe pIone, kaheze ! alyA, e davA kahevAya. davAno zokha nA hoya ! davAno te zokha hoto haze ? davA eTale upAya kahevAya. praznakartA : zokha zeno rAkhavAno ? dAdAzrI : AnaMdano, kAyama AnaMda rahe eno zokha rAkhavAno ane je thALImAM AvyuM hoya, te khAvuM-pIvuM ne moja karavI. enI kaMI nA nathI. ane brahmacarya paLAya to enA jevuM to sukha, e sukhanI to maryAdA ja nathI, eTaluM badhuM sukha che ! amaryAda sukha che !! e meM joyeluM che ne anubhaveluM che ! tethI amane Akho dahADo ya AnaMda rahene ! evo AnaMda hoya to pachI viSaya sAMbhare ja nahIM. viSaya yAda ja nA Ave to pachI bhAMjagaDa kyAM rahI ? zarU karo AjathI ja.... tamane 'tAva caDhe to davA pIje' e mArI vAta gamI ke nA gamI ? praznakartA : gamI ne ! dAdAzrI : evuM ! gamyuM hoya to AjathI zarU karI devuM. nA gamatuM hoya to thoDA dahADA pachI, ApaNe utAvaLa zI che ? paccIsa varSa pachI !! AnI kaMI ochI jabarajastI che ? bAkI moTAmAM moTI jokhamadArI to A viSayanI jokhamadArI che ! chatAM ame kahyuM ke tAva caDhe to ja davA pIje. to amArI jokhamadArI ne tamane mokSamArgamAM vAMdho nahIM Ave. A ATalI badhI jokhamadArI levA chatAM tame kaho cho ke amane barobara pUrI chUTa nathI ApatA, to te tamArI bhUla ja che ne ? tamane kevuM lAge che ? ApaNuM A 'akrama vijJAna' che ! strI sAthe rahejo. Aje badhAM zAstroe strI sAthe rahevAnI ja nA pADI che, tyAre ame rahevAnuM kahIe chIe. paNa joDe A tharmomiTara ApIe chIe eTale strIne duHkha nA thAya evI rIte viSayano vyavahAra rAkhavo. samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : e tAva caDhato baMdha thAya ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : nA, e to pharI pAcho caDhe. praznakartA to ene baMdha kevI rIte karavo ? dAdAzrI : e baMdha nA karazo. bannene tAva Ave ne davA pIo to jokhamadArI tamArI nahIM, pachI mArI jokhamadArI. jo zokhanI khAtarI davA pItA ho to tamArI jokhamadArI. huM jANuM chuM ke tame badhA paiNelA cho, eTale badhAne kaMI ema ne ema jJAna nathI ApyuM ! paNa joDe joDe akramanI A javAbadArI lIdhI che ke ATale sudhI kAyadAmAM ho to jokhamadAra huM chuM. praznakartA : vAIphanI IcchA nA hoya ane hasabaMDanA phorsathI pIvI paDe davA, to zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : paNa e to zuM kare ? koNe kahyuM'tuM, paiNa ? praznakartA : bhogave tenI bhUla. paNa dAdA kaMIka evuM batAvo ne, evI kaMIka davA batAvo ke jethI karIne sAmA mANasanuM pratikramaNa karIe, kazuM karIe to ochuM thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : e to A samajavAthI, vAta samajaNa pADavAthI ke dAdAe kahyuM che, ke A to pI pI karavA jevI cIja nathI. jarA pAMsarA cAlo ne, eTale cha-ATha dahADA mahinAmAM davA pIvI joIe. ApaNuM zarIra sAruM rahe, magaja sAruM rahe to phAIlano nikAla thAya. nahIM to Diphorma thaI jAya. praznakartA H tAva caDhe ja nahIM evuM kaMIka karI Apo ! dAdAzrI : evuM ja karI ApyuM che. paNa tamane haju.... praznakartA : nizcaya kAco che. dAdAzrI : nizcaya kAco che. A to IphekTa che, A DiscArja che,

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14 samajathI prApta brahmacarya samajathI prApta brahmacarya ema karIne nizcaya kAco thaI jAya che. praznakartA : samajamAM Ave eTale vartanamAM Ave ja ne ? dAdAzrI : samajamAM to AvyuM nathI. A buddhipUrvakanuM sukha nathI. evuM samajamAM ja nathI AvyuM. meM jalebI khAvAnI chUTa ApI. dUdhapAka khAvAnI chUTa ApI. A dArUmAM sukha Ave che, e buddhipUrvakanuM sukha nA kahevAya. sIgAreTamAM sukha Ave che, e buddhipUrvakanuM sukha nA kahevAya. Ama dekhAdekhIthI ja che. eka phero jANI levAnI ja jarUra che ke tAva Ave to ja davA pIvAya. pachI e bAjunuM nakkI thaI gayuM, to mana pachI evuM nakkI rAkhe che. kAraNa ke ene Atmasukha to maLyuM ne ! jene koI prakAranuM sukha ja nA hoya, tene to pachI e viSaya sukha che ja, ene to ApaNe vALIe ja nahIM ane ene to vALI zakIe paNa nahIM. jyAre A to AtmA taraphanuM sukha maLyuM che, tethI potAnA A sukhamAM vaLI jAya che ane pAchuM mana jyAre kyAMya saheja TakarAya to te vakhate pAchuM bahAra pelI viSaya bAju nahIM vaLatAM AtmA bAju mahIM vaLI jAya che. paNa jene A jJAna nA maLyuM hoya, tene zuM thAya ? A mokSano mArga che. eTale ahIM ATaluM ja samajajo jarA. tamane A vAta gamI ke ? A 'akrama jJAna' sAcuM che ne ? praznakartA : hA, sAcuM che. dAdAzrI : viSayanI hAjarImAM ya mokSa thAya evuM A "jJAna" che ne ?! A amArI zodhakhoLa che. bahu UMcI jAtanI zodhakhoLa che ! tamane lADavA-jalebI badhuM ja khAvAnI chUTa ApI che. kRpALudeve to zuM kaheluM ke, 'bhAvatI thALI Ave to bIjAne ApI dejo." te koIe, bIjAne ApI dIdhI ? eke ya evo pAkyo ke jeNe bhAvatI thALI bIjAne ApI dIdhI ? A koI ApI de evAM che? e to eka "jJAnI puruSa' ekalAM ja evuM kare. jyAre meM to tamane kahyuM ke, "bhAvatI thALI khAjo, nirAMte ! kerIo khAjo, rasa khAjo.' koIe AvI chUTa ApI nathI. atyAra sudhI koI zAstra evuM nathI kahetuM ke saMsArIveSe Ama thAya. A to badhAM zAstroe 'strIthI cheTA bhAgo,' evuM kaheluM che. paNa ame A navI zodhakhoLa karI che ! mArI A navI vaijJAnika zodhakhoLa che. covIsa tIrthaMkaronuM bheguM vijJAna che A !! ahIM ApaNe potAnI strI ke potAnA puruSa pUratI ja viSayanI chUTa ApIe chIe, emAM evI javAbadArI rahetI nathI. ethI ame chUTa ApI che. bAkI zAstrakAroe to A hapuruM uDADI ja melyuM ke "e ya strIne choDI do' ema kahI dIdhuM. paNa A to ApaNuM vijJAna che, eTale eka bAju zAMti rahe evuM che ane eTale AjJAmAM rahevA taiyAra thAya che. bAkI chUTa ApI che, eno jo UMdho artha kare to to AmAM mAra khAI jAya ne ? lokasaMjJAthI phasAyo viSayamAM bAkI viSaya to lokasaMjJA che. khAlI vicAryA vagaranI vAta che. kRpALudeve to enuM bahu kharAba rIte varNana karyuM che. ene to 'ghUMkavA yogya paNa e bhUmikA nathI,' ema kahyuM che. tenAM para loka TIkA kare ! jagata che ne ! jagatane A vAta game nahIM ne? duniyAmAM to sahu sahunI draSTi ja judI hoya. eTale eka jaNanuM kaheluM sAcuM mAnavAnuM ja nA hoya. praznakartA : paNa e 'vyavasthita'nA kSetramAM viSaya kharo ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : kharuM ne ! paNa te tAva Ave to 'vyavasthita'nA kSetramAM, nahIM to 'vyavasthita'no durupayoga karIe chIe. tAva caDhe to TIkaDI lIdhI hoya teno vAMdho nahIM. roja tAva caDhato hoya to roja TIkaDI levI, paNa tAva caDhato hoya to ja levAya. nahIM to nA levAya. tamane A vAta gamI ke ? praznakartA : gajabanI vAta che dAdA ! dAdAzrI : ema ?! juo ame kazo vAMdho uThAvyo che ? nahIM to eka vakhata paNa strIno saMyoga, te zAstrakAro nA pADe che. e to zuM kahe che ke, "jhera khAje, maje, paNa strI saMyoga nA karIza." jyAre ame to tamArI javAbadArI lIdhI che. kAraNa ke tame AtmA mATe niHzaMka thayelA cho. phakta ATaluM ja kahyuM che ne ke, tAva caDhe to ja davA pIjo. bAkI

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16 samajathI prApta brahmacarya ne, ke AtmA kevo che ? mULa AtmA kevo che ? ke, "mana-vacana-kAyAnI tamAma saMgI kriyAomAM paNa asaMga che." ane e ja svarUpa ame tamane ApeluM che. saMgI kriyAomAM paNa pote asaMga che. pote saMgI kriyAno jANanAra che. have ATalI badhI jAgRti tamane rahe nahIM ne ! praznakartA : mana-vacana-kAyAnI tamAma saMgI kriyAomAM tadana asaMga che, evuM eja AvatuM haze ne ? dAdAzrI : Ave. te koI kSaNa Ave, dareka kSaNa nA Ave. A jJAna che eTale pharyA kare kharuM. koI kSaNa Ave. ApaNe ahIM roja sUryagrahaNa hoya che ?! enA jevuM che ! ame eTalA badhA jJAna vAkyo ApyA che ke tamane dareka prasaMgamAM elarTanesa rahe. te eTalI badhI jAgRti rahevI joIe. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 15 jagatamAM to badhA viSaya ja che, A strI viSaya te ekalo ja viSaya nathI. strI choDI to ya naryA viSaya ja che. viSaya vagarano manuSya thaI zakato nathI. jyAM sudhI draSTi badalAya nahIM, tyAM sudhI viSaya ja che. draSTi badalAya, te ya samyak draSTi thAya, tyAre viSaya ochA thAya. paNa viSaya jAya nahIM. e to sAte ya sAta prakRti jAya tyAre viSaya jAya. akrama sivAya, AvI chUTa maLe ? eTale ame akrama vijJAnamAM to potAnI strI sAthenAM abrahmacaryanAM vyavahArane ame brahmacarya kahIe chIe. paNa te vinaya pUrvakano ane bahAra koI strInA para draSTi nA bagaDavI joIe ane draSTi bagaDI hoya to tarata bhUMsI nAkhavI joIe. to ene A kALamAM ame brahmacArI kahIe chIe. bIjI jagyAe draSTi nathI bagaDatI, mATe brahmacArI kahIe chIe. Ane kaMI jevuM tevuM pada kahevAya ? ane pachI lAMbe gALe ene samajAya ke AmAM ya bahu bhUla che tyAre hakkanuM paNa choDI de. ghaNAM e choDI dIdheluM. A to bahu moTAmAM moTuM ahitakArI vastu hoya, strI to A viSaya ekalo ja che, A jagatamAM. eTale A badhuM samajavuM paDe. ema ne ema gaDuM cAlatuM haze ? kevo bAbo ne bebI che, have zuM kAma ApaNe... sArA saMpIne phrenDazIpathI rahIe. ane prArabdhamAM udaya hoya to, beu jaNane tAva caDhyo hoya to davA pIvo, evuM kahuM chuM huM. huM khoTuM kahuM chuM ke tamAro virodhI chuM huM kaMI ? badhuM vicArIne lakheluM che ne meM. praznakartA : barAbara che. sAcI vAta che. khAvA-pIvAmAM to kyAM ApaNe kazo vAMdho uThAvyo che, ke A nA khAzo ne te nA khAzo ?! tyAre kapaDAM paheravAmAM vAMdho uThAvyo che ? cAra godaDAM pAtharo to ya kazo vAMdho che ? bIjI kazI bhAMjagaDa nathI. ahIM AgaLa tame kAnamAM attara ghAlIne Avo to ya amane kazo vAMdho nathI. eka phakta A viSayasaMbaMdhIno ja jokhamavALo mAla che. eTale ame dhImethI samajAvIe. kAraNa ke amArA zabda yathArtha jAgRtimAM rahe nahIM

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18 samajathI prApta brahmacarya kheMcAI ja jAya. emAM strIone ya evuM ne puruSone ya evuM, AkarSaNavALuM dekhe ke sodo thaI ja jAya ! jema ApaNe mArkeTamAMthI zAka AkarSaNavALuM hoya to sAMje laIne ja AvIe chIe ne ?! nA levuM hoya to ya le che ne ?! kaheze, 'bahu sarasa zAka dekhAyuM eTale laIne Avyo !! kerIo AkarSaNavALI nahIM lAvatA loka ? sarasa rUpALI dekhAtI hoya to ? rUpALI dekhI to sodo karI nAkhe che ne ? pachI kApyA pachI moTuM khATuM thAya tyAre kaheze ke paisA chUTI paDyA ! AvuM che A jagata ! A to badhA AMkhanA camakArA che ! AMkha dekhe che ane citta coMTe che !! AmAM AMkhano zo guno ? guno kono ? praznakartA : manano ? [2] draSTi doSatA jokhamo ! AMkhato te zo guno ? atyAre to badhuM opana bajAra ja thaI gayuM che ne ? eTale sAMja paDyuM dekhAya ke kazo ya sodo ja nathI karyo, paNa ema ne ema bAra sodA lakhI nAkhyA hoya. Ama jovAthI ja sodA thaI jAya ! bIjA sodA to thavAnA haze te thaze, paNa A to jovAmAtrathI ja sodA thaI jAya ! ApaNuM jJAna hoya to evuM nA thAya. strI jatI hoya to enI mahIM tamane zuddhAtmA dekhAya, paNa bIjA lokone zI rIte zuddhAtmA dekhAya ? jovAthI tane sodo thAya che have ? nathI thato ne ? ne jJAna pahelAM to keTalAM thatAM'tAM sAMja dAdAzrI : manano ya zo guno ? guno ApaNo ke ApaNe kAcA paDyA, tyAre mana caDhI beThuM ne ?! guno ApaNo ja ! pahelAM to evo ya vicAra karatA hatA ke ahIM ApaNAthI nA javAya, A to bahena thAya, A to mAmAnI dIkarI thAya, phalANuM thAya. atyAre to kazuM jovAmAM bAkI ja nathI rAkhatA ne ? A to badhI pAzavatA kahevAya ! thoDuM-ghaNuM viveka jevuM kazuM nA hoya ? draSTino jarA viccheda nA thavo joIe. koInI pratye ApaNI draSTi kheMcAya to Akho dahADo pratikramaNa karavuM paDe. te kevaDuM moTuM bIja nAkheluM ke ApaNI draSTi kheMcAyA kare ! eka saMte to draSTi kheMcAtI hatI, tethI temaNe AMkhamAM maracuM nAkhyuM. paNa ApaNe evuM karavAnuM nathI kahetA. ApaNe maracuM nA nAkhazo ema kahIe chIe. ApaNe to pratikramaNa karyA karavuM. emaNe maracuM zAthI nAkhyuM haze ? ke AMkhano doSa che eTale maracuM nAkhyuM, AMkhane daMDa do, ema kahe che. alyA, doSa tAro che. AMkhane daMDa zuM kAma kahe che ? pADAne vAMke pakhAlIne DAma de che. pADAne vAMke pakhAlIne DAma... bhagavAne kaheluM ke, eka bhUla nA karazo. kono vAMka che tyAM DAma dejo ! pADAno vAMka ane pakhAlIno vAMka banneno vAMka jojo ane pachI sudhImAM ? praznakartA : dasa-paMdara thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : ane koInA laganamAM jauM to ? koIne tyAM laganamAM gayA hoIe, te dahADe to ApaNe bahu badhuM joIe ne ? soeka sodA thaI jAya ne ? eTale evuM che A badhuM ! e tAro doSa nathI ! badhA manuSyamAtrane evuM thaI ja jAya. kAraNa ke AkarSaNavALuM dekhe eTale draSTi

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19 samajathI prApta brahmacarya DAma dejo ! paNa A jagatanA loko to pADAnA vAMke pakhAlIne DAma de. che ! 'A guno kono che ?" evI tapAsa to karavI ja joIe ne ? Ama to kahe che ke "mAre brahmacarya pALavuM che' ne pachI kahe che ke "mAre nathI icchA chatAM deha Ama kheMcAya che.' to te upAya zo karyo ? to kaheze, 'dehamAM khAvAnuM ochuM nAkhyuM che !' alyA, pADAne vAMke pakhAlIne DAma zuM kAma ApuM chuM? paNa A vAta ene zI rIte samajAya ? vicAra karane ke mArI icchA nathI, to A deha kheMce che koNa ? A deha to TAMkaNI jevo che. jo lohacuMbaka sAmuM dharazo to to TAMkaNI hAlyA karaze ! A dehamAM 'ilekTrikala baoNDI' che. te sarakhe sarakhA paramANu maLI Ave to 'baoNDI' kheMcAya. paNa A to kaheze, 'kAlathI have dehane khAvAnuM nathI ApavuM, A dehane have bhUkhyo rAkhIza !" alyA, bhUla khoLI kADhane ! A to pUraNa-galana che. te pUraNa karyuM che, to galana thaze ja. mATe mULa 'rUTa kaoNjha' khoLI kADhe. paNa 'rUTa kaoNjha' potAne potAnI meLe zI rIte jaDe ? e to jJAnI puruSa jaNAvI zake. mATe jJAnIne khoLa ! ne jJAnI to ko'ka phero hoya, e to ati ati durlabha che ! koIka strI bahAra zAkabhAjI levA nIkaLe, te koIka puruSane dekhIne enuM citta tyAM coMTe. A citta coMTavAthI bIja paDe. te AvatA jatA AvA paccIsa-pacAsa puruSa joDe bIja paDe. Ama roja bane, te pAra vagaranA puruSo joDe bIja paDe. evuM puruSane strIo sAme thAya. have jo jJAna hAjara hoya to bIja paDavAnuM aTakI jAya, chatAM pratikramaNa kare to ja ukela Ave. A bIja to mizracetana joDe paDe. mizracetana pachI dAvo mAMDe. mizracetana to kevuM hoya ke bannenI marajInA Dipharansa, bannenAM saMcAlana judAM. tyAM potAnI icchA nA hoya to ya sAmAne sukha bhogavavA joIe, to zuM thAya? emAMthI pachI rAga-dveSanAM kArakhAnAM thAya. ApaNI pAse to jJAna che, to zuddhAtmA joIne coMTa dhoI nAkhavAnI. nahIM to A citta coMTe to, enuM phaLa be-pAMca hajAra varSe ya Ave ! strI-puruSomAM A kaLiyuganA AdhAre sAmasAmI asara thAya che. baMnene saMtoSa hoya to ya bahAra kaMIka jue che, to draSTi maMDAI jAya che. e moTAmAM moTuM bhaya signala che. A draSTimAM mIThAza varte te ya bahu samajathI prApta brahmacarya moTuM jokhama. tame mAnI ho, to tamane koI strI mAna Ape to tamArI draSTi kheMcAI jAya, lobhI hoya to tene lobha Ape to ya draSTi kheMcAI jAya. pachI badhuM jIvana khedAnamedAna karI nAkhe ! eTale cetavAnuM zuM ke strIe puruSathI ne puruSa strIthI, bilakula lappana-chappana nahIM rAkhavI joIe, nahIM to e bhayaMkara roga che ! e vicArathI ja mANasane bebhAnapaNuM rahe che ! to pachI AtmAnI jAgRti kyAre thAya ? eTale ATaluM cetavAnuM che ! AmAM zuM agharuM che kazuM ? praznakartA : tyAM sAvaceta rahevuM joIe. dAdAzrI : eTalethI ja cheTuM rahevA jevuM che. bIjI badhI bAbato ame choDI devaDAvIe, rasto karIe paNa ahIM to cetana mizrita thayuM ne ? eTale strI-puruSoe bannee cetavA jevuM. bhayaMkara jokhama che !!! haMmezAM nIcuM ja jovuM, bIjo koI bAdha ApaNA mArgamAM nathI. ghere ya AnI A ja vAtacIta karavI. te pachI gharanAM badhAM samajI jAya ke draSTi UMcI karavA jevI ja nathI. 'verAITijha opha pekiMgsa" che ! Ano pAra Ave evo nathI, paNa eTalI badhI jAgRti ya rahetI nathI. eTale nakkI ja karavuM ke je thavAnuM hoya te thAya, paNa draSTi mAMDavI ja nathI. nahIM to bIja to bahu moTAM paDI jAya, te Avato bhava khalAsa karI nAkhe !! pelI jyAM jAya tyAM Ane javuM paDe ane pachI khalAsa thaI jAya. ta milAvo draSTi kadi. praznakartA : vyavahAramAM ekabIjAne mAna ApavuM e to kaMI kharAba nA kahevAya ne ? dAdAzrI : mAna ApavuM, paNa draSTi nIcI rAkhIne, draSTi bagaDe ke tarata khabara paDI jAya. mAnamAM to tarata draSTi bagaDe. ATaluM ja jokhama che, bIjuM kazuM jokhama nathI. tamane badhuM kAma lAgaze ke ?

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samajathI prApta brAhmacarya keTalAMkane kevuM hoya ke mAnanI gAMTha viSayane mATe ja rakSA karatI hoya. eTale eno viSaya gayo ke mAnanI gAMTha chUTI javAnI. keTalAMkane pahelI mAnanI gAMTha hoya ne pachI viSaya hoya che, eTale mAnanI gAMThanA AdhAre viSaya hoya che ane keTalAMkane viSayanA AdhAre ya mAnanI gAMTha hoya che ! eTale eno AdhAra nirAdhAra thAya ke peluM UDyuM. praznakartA: koI strIne ApaNe bahena tarIke mAnIe, dIkarI tarIke mAnIe ke mAtA tarIke mAnIe, to pachI tenA mATe ApaNane kharAba bhAva nA thAyane ? dAdAzrI : mAnavAthI kazuM phaLa maLe nahIM. mAneluM rahe ja nahIM ne ! loko to sagI bahena joDe hau 'vyavahAra' kare che ! evAM ghaNAM dAkhalA huM jANuM chuM. mATe mAneluM kazuM rahe nahIM. praznakartA eTale eno artha e ke dareka bAbatamAM cetatA rahevuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : bahu ja cetatA rahevuM joIe ane A to dAdAnI AjJA che ne ? te A AjJA to khAsa badhAne ApelI ja che ! jene jItavuM che, tene amArI A moTAmAM moTI AjJA pALavAnI che. bAkI, mAneluM kazuM rahe nahIM. praznakartA : zuddhAtmA bhAvathI jotA ho, to pachI vAMdho ja nA Avene ? dAdAzrI : zuddhAtmA bhAvathI to joI levAnuM che. paNa draSTi to nA ja maMDAvI joIe. tamane koI je je kare ane be zabda sArA bole to tarata tamArI draSTi enAM para mIThAzavALI mukAze ane pelInI draSTi tamAre mATe pachI bagaDaze. eTale mAna Ape tyAMthI tene duzmana mAnI levuM. vyavahAramAM sAdhAraNa mAna Ape to to vAMdho nathI, paNa jo bIjA prakAranuM mAna Ape, tyAMthI ApaNe jANavuM ke A ApaNA duzmana che, ApaNane khADAmAM laI jaze ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya mAneluM kazuM rahe nahIM. AvuM tame kaMIthI lAvyA mAneluM ? praznakartA : nA, e to A prazna nIkaLyo ke koIne bhAI-bahena e draSTithI jotAM hoya to kevuM? dAdAzrI : nA, e draSTithI jovAya ja nahIM ne ! e draSTi to have rahI ja nathI ne ! eTale e draSTithI jovAmAM 'sephasAIDa' rahI nathI. tamane zI khabara paDe ke A prajA kevI che ? sagA kAkAnI dIkarI upare ya draSTi bagaDe ! A to ghera-ghera badho Avo mAla thaI gayo che ! kaLiyuga to badhe phelAI gayo che. draSTi bagaDe tyAM bhava joDAya ! praznakartA : brahmacarya saMbaMdhI bahAra koI bolatuM ja nathI. dAdAzrI : "merI bhI cUpa aura terI bhI cUpa' evuM polaMpola cAlyuM che. huM brahmacaryasaMbaMdhI vAta karuM chuM tyAre moTA moTA AcArya-mahArAjone Azcarya thAya che ke, 'A kALamAM AvuM nA hoya, to mANasa na jaze, kAraNa pahelAM to lokonI ekAda jagyAe draSTi bagaDatI. Aje to Thera Thera draSTi bagaDe che ! te pachI hisAba cUkavavA javuM ja paDe. eTale e jyAM jAya, halakI nAtamAM jAya to ApaNe paNa halakI nAtamAM javuM paDe. e harijanavAsamAM jAya to ApaNe paNa harijanavAsa levo paDe. chUTako ja nahIM. hisAba cUkavavo ja paDe. have A badhA bicArAne AnI khabara ja nA hoya ne ! ke AnI javAbadArI zuM che ? tame jANo ke A loko AvuM kare che ? te ApaNe ya evuM karIe chIe, vIMchI jo DaMkha mAre to tarata kema cheTA raho cho ? 'AmAM DaMkha mAranAruM che' ema koI dekhADanAra nathI ne ?! nIcI nAtamAM UMcA puruSone zA mATe janmavuM paDe che ? viSaya vikAranA roga jene lAgu thayA che, e badhA ya nIcI nAtomAM janma pAme che, eka ja AdhAre. viSaya-vikAra jene ochAM hoya, te UMcI nAtamAM UMcA kULa ane ucca gotramAM hoya. viSayadoSa ocho eTale ! draSTi ja phera thavAthI e jyAM jAya tyAM javuM paDe. eTale cetavAnuM che. potAnI strI sivAya bIje draSTi ja nA bagaDavI joIe. bIje draSTi bagaDI to khalAsa moTAmAM moTuM jokhama ja A che, bIjuM koI jokhama ja nathI. bAkI,

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 23 thaI gayuM. huM zuM kahuM chuM ke bIjI koI strIne joIza nahIM, kudaratI rIte tAre bhAge AvelI hoya, tene tuM bhogava. ko'kanI strI upara najara kare to te corI karyA barAbara che. ApaNI strI upara koI najara kare to tamane sAruM lAge kharuM ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : evuM ApaNe paNa kAyadesara rahevuM joIe. game evI dekhAvaDI hoya to ya chokarI para najara jAya nahIM, ATaluM sAcavavAnuM kahyuM che. praznakartA : pavitra rahevAnuM. dAdAzrI : hA, pavitra rahevAnuM che. pavitra rahevA chatAM kyAMka AMkha kheMcAI jAya ane kaMIka jarA bhUla thaI gaI hoya to ame sAbu Apelo che, tenAthI tarata ja DAgha dhoI nAkhajo. tarata dhoI nA nAkhe to kapaDuM meluM thayA kare. A chokarAone bicArAne draSTi bagaDe. tamAre moTI uMmaranAne paNa sAbu Apavo paDe. kAraNa ke A AMkha to kyAre bagaDaze, te kahevAya nahIM. ame A strI sAthe mokSa Apelo che. tamane huM kahuM ke strI mUkIne ahIM AvatA raho ne ene manamAM du:kha thayuM, to pachI tame koI dahADo mokSe jaI zako ? ane huM tamane bolAvuM to huM ya mokSa jauM kharo ? tamane beune rakhaDAvI mAya, temAM mAro ya mokSa thAya kharo ?! vAMdho phakta strI-puruSo be sAmasAme bhegA thAya che tyAM AgaLa mULa draSTino roga che. te draSTi bagaDe to pratikramaNa karI levuM. basa, eTalo ja vAMdho ! bIjo koI vAMdho nathI. kAraNa ke zAstrakAroe kahyuM che, jagate kahyuM che ke peTrola ane agni e be joDe nA mUkAya. chatAM, ApaNe ahIM joDe bane che. to ATaluM cetIne cAlavAnuM ke dIvAsaLI nA paDavI joIe. ahIM A strIone, puruSone darekane pratikramaNanuM sAdhana ApyuM che. draSTi bagaDI ke tarata pratikramaNa karavuM, pachI jokhamadArI mArI. kAraNa ke tame pratikramaNa karyuM. mArI AjJA pALI eTale jokhamadArI badhI mArI. pachI Apane zuM joIe ? jokhamadArI dAdA letA hoya, pachI zo vAMdho che ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya ApaNAM jJAnathI bahAra to draSTi bese ja nahIM ane bese to ukheDIne pAchuM pratikramaNa karI le. bese kharI pahelAMno mAla bharelo eTale. paNa ukheDIne pratikramaNa kare. praznakartA: draSTi nA bagaDe, mana cokhkhuM rahe, enAM mATe to keTalI badhI jAgRti rAkhavI paDe ? dAdAzrI : ohoho, to enI to jAgRti nA rAkhe, tyAre to pachI karavAnuM zuM tyAre ?! e to phAIlo haju AvatAM bhavamAM ya coMTe pAchI. gayA avatAranI coMTelI, te A jJAna karIne ukhADI nAkhavAnI che. navI coMTe nahIM e ja jovAnuM ne ! kimata rUpALI cAmaDItI ! ApaNe rUpALAM kapaDAM paheyAM hoya, to koIne moha thAya ne ? e kono guno kahevAya ? eTale ApaNA para koIne moha thayo, to e ApaNo ja guno che !!tethI vItarAgo kahe che ke, 'nAsI chuTo. ApaNAthI sAmAne moha thaI jAya to te bicAro du:khI thAya, te ApaNA nimitte ja ne !' tyAre A vItarAgonuM vijJAna kevuM haze ? tyAre vItarAgo kevA DAhyA haze ? tamane kevA lAge che ? DAhyA nathI lAgatA ? sAmAne duHkha nA thAya, eTalA mATe potAnA vALa cUMTI kADhe. pahelAM sAdhu-AcArya mahArAja rUpALA hoya, to ya te mAthe vALa vadhArIne, rUpanAM chUMdaNA nA kare, rUpa kevI rIte dabAya evuM khoLa khoLa kare. dADhIo vadhAre, loca kare, Ama kare, tema kare ! paNa e loko bahu jAgRtipUrvaka rahevAnA. kAraNa ke "mArA rUpathI koIne duHkha thaze' ema e praznakartA : koIne sukha paNa thAya che ? dAdAzrI : jene sukha thayuM hoya, tenuM pariNAma duHkha AvavAnuM ja. kAraNa ke enuM pariNAma duHkhadAyI che. eTale enAthI sukha thAya to ya tenuM pariNAma duHkhadAyI che !

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : Avo AkarSaNavALo mAla zAnA AdhAre hoya ? dAdAzrI : moha vadhAre hoya eTale pachI e AkarSaka mAla thAya. ene mUrzita kahevAya. moha ocho thayA pachI aMga badhuM ghATIluM hoya, paNa cAmaDI AkarSaka nA hoya. ghATIlA hoya eTale ene rUpALA kahevAya. cAmaDI AkarSaka hoya, e rUpa nA kahevAya. e to eka jAtano bajArU mAla kahevAya. jenI le-veca, le-veca thayA ja kare. A badhAne kerIo levA mokalIe to, te kevI lAve ? uparathI rUpALI dekhAtI hoya e lAve. pachI mahIMthI e khATI nIkaLaze ke kevI, e to pachI bhagavAna jANe ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya atyAre to mANasomAM evAM rUpa, evo lAvaNyabhAva nA hoya eTale e vALa nA rAkhe ke dADhI rAkhe to to mAMdA mANasa jevo dekhAya, dADhI vadhI hoya eTale zarIra bhalene jADuM hoya paNa loko tene "kema tabiyata bagaDI che ke zuM? zuM thayuM che?" ema pUchaze. atyAre to mANasone rUpa ja nathI hotuM. je thoDuMghaNuM rUpa hoya che, te pachI ahaMkArane laIne kadarUpo dekhAya ! e rUpa, e lAvaNyatAnI to vAta judI ja hoya ! aMgaupAMga badhAM sarakhAM hoya. aMga-upAMga lAMbA-TUMkAM hoya, ene rUpa ja kema kahevAya ? e to badhuM sarakhuM, 'regyulara sTeja'mAM hovuM joIe. evI lAvaNyatA A kALamAM hoya nahIM ne ! rUpa, lAvaNyatAno AdhAra zA zA vicAro dharAve che, tenA para che. rUpALAM, bhogavAya vadhu ! praznakartA : moha kone vadhAre thAya ? rUpALI cAmaDIvALAne ke kALI cAmaDIvALAne ? dAdAzrI : rUpALI cAmaDIvALAne. jenI rUpALI cAmaDI hoya to jANavuM ke lokonA hAthe e vadhAre bhogavAI jaze. praznakartA : je rUpALI cAmaDIvALo hoya, tenA pudgalamAM zuM moha vadhAre bharelo hoya ? dAdAzrI : hA, tyAre ja rUpALI cAmaDI hoya ne ! evuM che, rUpALI cAmaDI eTale gorI cAmaDIne nathI gaNAtI. ghauMraMgI cAmaDIne 'besTa gaNelI che, ApaNA hindustAnane mATe. mAro ne tamAro raMga ghauMraMga kahevAya. ene 'besTa' raMga kahyo che ane e ja chellAmAM chello raMga che. rUpALI cAmaDIvALA to gorAgaba jevA hoya, te mohI vadhAre hoya. tethI e vadhAre bhogavAI jAya. evuM A badhA kudaratanA niyama che. ApaNane to have A 'jJAna' hAjara rahevuM joIe. je je AkarSaNavALo mAla hoya, AkarSaka mAla hoya, te badho vecAI jAya. chokarA-chokarIo badhuM ja vecAI jAya ! | khUlyuM rUpALAnuM rahasya ! praznakartA : hamaNAM ja ApaNuM che e nikAlI che, e barobara che. paNa Avato bhava je thaze, emAM badhuM ghATIluM, suMdara ane bhavya haze ne ? dAdAzrI : e to enAM aMga-upAMga badhAM ghATIlAM hoya, paNa cAmaDI evI AkarSaka nA hoya. cAmaDI AkarSaka to halakI nAtanI hoya, je mohI jAta hoya, bhogavAI javAnAM hoya tyAM ja cAmaDI AkarSaka hoya. jyAre pelAne to cAmaDI AkarSaka nA hoya. ghATa bahu suMdara hoya, AMkha suMdara hoya, nAka suMdara hoya, kAna suMdara hoya, kapALa badhuM suMdara hoya, e badhuM ghATIluM hoya. prabhAvazALI hoya, tene jotAM ja prabhAva thAya eTale ke ApaNo bhAva pharI jAya, jyAre pelAne jotAM evAM bhAva thAya ke adhogatimAM laI jAya. bolo, tyAre jotAM ja je mAla adhogatie laI jAya, te mAla kevo haze ?! tethI ApaNA loko kahe che ke bhaI, prabhAvazALIne maLajo. jethI ApaNA bhAva AgaLa vadhe, prabhAva kare. ane pelAne jotAnI sAthe ja jJAna hoya te ya jatuM rahe. praznakartA : dAdA, ApaNo A je bharelo mAla che, te A ja bhavamAM badalAI jaze ne ? dAdAzrI : e to badhuM badalAI jAya. ApaNe pheravavA dhAyuM eTale

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya samajathI prApta brahmacarya badhuM badalAI ja javAnuM ne ! A to badhI jUnI khoTa. have e dhaMdho baMdha karI dIdho. tIrthaMkara bhagavAna mahAvIranI cAmaDI AkarSaka nahotI. bhagavAna ghATIlA hoya. emanAmAM mohanI prakRti ja nahIM ne ! moha prakRti e ja AkarSaka cAmaDI che. moha prakRtivALAnI AMkho ya vikArI hoya. ene pAchA AjanAM jIvaDAM zuM mAne che ke huM kevo rUpALo chuM ? alyA, tArI kiMmata ja nathI duniyAmAM ! prabhAva nA thAya. UlaTuM, jotAMnI sAthe ja bhAva evo thAya ke adhogatie laI jAya ne jJAna hoya te ya jatuM rahe. puruSo chokarIone jue che, to jotAMnI sAthe ja jJAna jatuM rahe. A chokarIo puruSone jue, to jotAMnI sAthe ja jJAna jatuM rahe. eTale A mAla jovo ja nahIM. jenAthI prabhAva utpanna thAya, ApaNA bhAva phare, vicAra phare, e mAla juo. A to badho kacaro mAla, 'rabIza', vecANIo mAla ! AvuM jagatamAM koI kahe ja nahIM ne ? AvI vAta ja ughADI pADelI nA hoyane ! jagata jANatuM ja nathI A ! loko ema samaje che ke kevo dehakarmI che A ! alyA, dehakarmIni zuM topane bAre caDhAvavAno che ? enAthI to lokonI adhogati thAya che ! manuSya to kevo hoya ? prabhAvazALI hoya ke jene Ama jotAM ja ApaNA mananA vicAro sarasa Ave, ApaNe saMsAra bhUllI jaIe. tethI to ApaNA loko prabhAvazALIne vakhANatA. cAmaDInI kiMmata tane samajAI ne ? praznakartA : 'jhIro velyuezana'. dAdAzrI : A rezamI cAdarathI bAMdhelo mAla che. emAM mAMsa, lohI, paru, badho ya gaMdavADo che. gaTara ne e badhuM ya AmAM che. A to bebhAnapaNe loko, bhAna vagara cAle che. A mAla cAdara bAMdhyA vagara Ape to keTalAM loko khuza thaI jAya ? praznakartA : koI aDe ja nahIM. dAdAzrI : are ! jue nahIM. Ama jue to ya tarata bahAra thUke ! alyA, tyAre A tArA peTamAM zuM che ? A to pAcho hAthe ya pherava pherava kare ane pachI viSayanI ArAdhanAo cAle. tapAso viSayanuM pRthakkaraNa ! eka bhAIne vairAga nahoto Avato. tethI meM ene 'zrI vijhana' ApyAM. pachI evuM zrI vijhane joyuM, to ene bahu sarasa vairAga AvI gayo. tAre evuM jovuM paDe kharuM ? praznakartA : hA. evo upayoga karavo paDe. dAdAzrI : ema ? eTale haju moha kharo ne ? praznakartA : hA, hajue Ama ko'ka vakhata moha caDhe. dhAro ke bairI sarasa kapaDAM paherIne Ama cAle to, pachI mahIM mUrchA utpanna thAya. dAdAzrI : ema ? tyAre pelA jApAnIjha pUtaLAne sarasa kapaDAM paherAve che, tyAM kema moha nathI thato ?! strInuM maDaduM hoya ane tene sArAM kapaDAM paherAve to moha thAya ? praznakartA : nA thAya. dAdAzrI : kema nA thAya ? to A badhAne zeno moha thAya che ? strI che, kapaDAM sArAM paheryA che, pachI maDaduM hoya ne mahIM AtmA nathI tenI upara moha thAya ? to zenI upara moha thAya che ? A vicAryuM nathI ne ? AtmA nA hoya evI strI joDe moha kare koI ? praznakartA : nA kare. dAdAzrI : to enuM zuM kAraNa ? to e zuM AtmA joDe moha kare che? tArI je bairI che ne, enI upara gayA avatAranI tArI draSTi coMTI gayelI, tenuM A phaLa AvyuM che. praznakartA: mArA vicAro brahmacarya levAnA che ne eno evo vicAra nathI, tethI e evI bagaDI che ne ! dAdAzrI : e ja paravazatA ne ! keTalI badhI paravazatA !

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya u0 samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : gadheDA jevo ! dAdAzrI : ema ? zuM vAta kare che ? e to A manuSyane zobhe ? viSayanuM vivaraNa 'rAjacaMdra'nI draSTie.. pahelAnA RSimunio eka putradAna mATe ja viSaya karatA, pachI AkhI jiMdagImAM nahIM. praznakartA : ane ene to UlaTuM Azcarya lAge che ke tamane mArA para AkarSaNa kema thatuM nathI ? dAdAzrI : ene ema kahevuM ke tuM Ama saMDAsamAM aMdara jAya che, to ya mane bahAra rahIne dekhAya che eTale AkarSaNa thatuM nathI. praznakartA : to to e bhaDakI jAya. dAdAzrI : nahIM, paNa ene samajaNa paDe ke saMDAsa jauM evuM dekhAya to to AkarSaNa ja kema thAya ? e kevuM kharAba dekhAya ?! paNa A ya bomba phATe evuM thaI jAya ne ? to Ame ya phasAmaNa thaI gaI ne ? lakkaDakA lADu khAyA vo bhI pastAyA, nahIM khAyA vo bhI pastAyA. darAja khaMjavALe evuM sukha ! praznakartA : dAdA, kharuM kahuM ne to hajI viSayamAM mane potAne ko'ka vakhata svAda AvI jAya che. dAdAzrI : e svAda tane choDato nathI ? paNa AmAM svAda jevuM che ja kyAM ? naryo gaMdavADo ! A gaMdavADAne cUsavA jaIe to ya emAM eTalI badhI gaMdha che, ohoho eTalI badhI gaMdha che !! keTalI gaMdha haze ? pAra vagaranI gaMdha che ! kRpALudeve zuM lakhyuM che ? te vAMcyuM che ? emaNe enuM varNana karyuM che te ApaNane cItarI caDhe. praznakartA : chatAM ya paNa A indriyane emAM svAda AvI jAya che ne ? praznakartA : AkhI jiMdagImAM nahIM ? dAdAzrI : nahIM, A zAne mATe paiNavAnuM che ?! paraspara sAmasAmI saMsArakALa pUro karavA mATe, ke 'bhaI, tAre ATaluM kAma karavAnuM ne mAre ATaluM kAma karavAnuM.' ane strIne bho nA lAge ane puruSane jarA hUMpha rahe. praznakartA: to RSio AkhI jiMdagI zuM kare ? dAdAzrI : Ama joDe rahe ne khAvA-pIvAnuM badhuM ya, paNa sAdhanAo ja karyA karavAnI. bhagavAnanI bhakti kare, AtmAne mATe ja badhuM karavAnuM ! paiNavAnuM e to madadane mATe paiNavAnuM hoya che, ke saMsAramAM helDiMga thAya ! ekalo hoya, te zuM kare ? kamAvA jAya ke khAvAnuM kare ? paNa A to chokarAnAM kArakhAnAM kADhyAM ! cAra-ATha thAya, koIne Dejhane ya thAya ! chokarAMnI jarUra nA hoya to ya viSaya kare che. alyA, chokarAMnI jarUra nathI, have tAre viSaya zuM karavo che ? paNa emAM ene TesTa Ave che ! viSayamAM te vaLI kayuM sukha che ? zrImad rAjacaMdra to kahyuM ke A to vamana karavAne yogya paNa bhUmikA nathI. ghUMkavAnuM kahe to ya game nahIM. bIjI jagyAe ghUMkAya, paNa ahIM to ApaNane ghUMkatAM ya zarama Ave. loko kevuM mAnI beThA che ? badhuM UMdhuM ja mAnI beThA che ne ?! kRpALudeve kahyuM strI viSe... kRpALudevanA patramAM zuM lakhyuM che ? "strInA saMbaMdhamAM mArA vicAra." dAdAzrI : svAda kazo nathI Avato. e svAda to darAja thaI hoya ne valUre, te evo svAda Ave che ! e valure tyAre ApaNe kahIe 'have baMdha rAkhato ?" to paNa eno evo svAda Ave che, te choDato nathI. pachI lhAya baLe che tyAre pAchuM kharAba lAge ! lhAya to baLe ja ne ? kRpALudeve A sukhanI sarakhAmaNI darAja valUre enA jevuM sukha kahyuM. mANasa viSaya karato hoya to te ghaDIe eno phoTo pADIe to kevo dekhAya ?

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya tyAM pharI AtmA na ja kheMcAya e viveka karavA tenuM sahaja sUcavana karyuM che. strImAM doSa nathI, paNa (vyavahAra) AtmAmAM doSa che ane te doSa javAthI AtmA je jue che te adbhuta AnaMdamaya ja che, mATe e doSathI rahita thavuM e ja parama jijJAsA che." strIno doSa nathI, ApaNI bhUlano doSa che, ApaNI samajaNano doSa che. strIno zo doSa ? jo strImAM doSa hoya to to pachI A bheMso ke strI ja che ne ? kema tyAM loko nathI kheMcAtA ? ApaNI avaLI samajaNa che eTale kheMcAIe chIe. e avaLI samajaNa kADhIe eTale badhuM nIkaLI jAya ane jyAre tyAre to A avaLI samajaNa kADhyA vagara chUTako ja nathI. A gaMdavADo che, eTalo badho gaMdavADo che ke mane to e cIDha ja nathI jatI ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya 31 ati ati svastha vicAraNAthI ema siddha thayuM che ke zuddhajJAnane Azraye nirAbAdha sukha rahyuM che tathA tyAM ja parama samAdhi rahI che. strI e saMsAranuM sarvottama sukha mAtra AvaraNika draSTithI kalpAyuM che. paNa te tema nathI ja. strIthI je saMyoga sukha bhogavAnuM cihna te vivekathI draSTigocara karatAM vamana karavAne yogya bhUmikAne paNa yogya rahetuM nathI." kapALudeva zuM kahe che ke vamana karavAne yogya paNa e sthAna nathI. mATe bIjI sArI jagyAe UlaTI karajo. vaLI AgaLa zuM kahe che ke, je je padArtho para jugupsA rahI che, te te padArtho to tenA zarIramAM rahyA che ane tenI te janmabhUmikA che." janmabhUmikA zAthI kahI ke A janmabhUmikA evA ne evAM badhA kacarAne ja janma Ape che ! praznakartA : jugupsA eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : jugupsA eTale cIDha. jenI para cIDha rahI che, e badhI ja cIjo emAM ja che ne ! alyA, rezamI cAdara bAMdhI eTale badhuM sAruM thaI gayuM ? kRpALudeve to bahu bahu lakhyuM che, paNa loko zuM samaje bicArA ? "vaLI, e sukha kSaNika, kheda ane khasanA darada rUpa ja che. te veLAno dekhAva hRdayamAM citarAI rahI hasAve che ke A zI bhulavaNI ? TUMkamAM kahevAnuM ke temAM kaMI paNa sukha nathI ane sukha hoya to tene apariccheda rUpe varNavI juo." eTale A viSayanuM bahu vivaraNa karI karIne tapAsa karI juo, ema kRpALudeva kahevA mAge che. enI sugaMdhI jovI hoya to, e jagyA soDI to jo, tane kevuM lAge che ? vaLI ughADI AMkhe dhoLe dahADe jue. to e jagyA rUpALI dekhAya ?! badhI ja rItathI enI cIDha caDhe ! eTale mAtra mohadazAne lIdhe, tema mAnyatA thaI che ema ja jaNAze. ahIM huM strInA avayavAdi bhAgano viveka karavA beTho nathI. paNa praznakartA : paNa enA badale strIone zuddhasvarUpe, zaktirUpe, AtmArUpe joIe to ? dAdAzrI : zuddharUpe juo to bahu suMdara kahevAya ! ame strIone zuddhasvarUpe joIe chIe, te amane bahu AnaMda thAya. zuddhasvarUpe jovA jaIe to strI e to khokhuM che, pekiMga che. emAM e bicArIno zo doSa ? ApaNI ja bhAMjagaDa che, ApaNI draSTi avaLI che. ApaNe draSTi pheravIe to ApaNane kazuM aDatuM nathI. ApaNI draSTi avaLI che te bhUla che. temAM koIno zo doSa ? "zuddha upayoganI jo prApti thaI, to pachI te samaye-samaye pUrvopArjita mohanIyane bhasmIbhUta karI zakaze, A anubhavagamya pravacana che !" hA, zuddha upayoganI prApti thaI jAya, pachI e moha khalAsa karI nAkhe ! "paNa pUrvopArjita haju sudhI mane varte che, tyAM sudhI mArI zI dazAthI zAMti thAya ? e vicAratAM mane nIce pramANe samAdhAna thayuM." strIne sadAcArI jJAna ApavuM. eka satsaMgI tene gaNavI. tenAthI

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34 samajathI prApta brahmacarya dharmabahenano saMbaMdha rAkhavo. aMtaHkaraNathI koI paNa prakAre mA, bahena ane temAM aMtara nA rAkhavuM, tenA zArIrika bhAgano koI paNa rIte mohakarmane vaze upabhoga levAya che tyAM yoganI smRti rAkhI, 'A che to huM kevuM sukha anubhavuM chuM ?" e bhUlI javuM. mitre, mitranI jema sAdhAraNa cIjano paraspara upabhoga laIe chIe tema e vastu levA (vi)no sakheda upabhoga laI pUrvabaMdhanathI chUTI javuM. tenAthI jema bane tema nirvikArI vAta karavI." praznakartA : yoganI smRti rAkhavI eTale zuM ? dAdAzrI : yoga eTale AtmayoganI. pote 'zuddhAtmA che' enI smRti rAkhavI ane "A che to, huM kevuM sukha anubhavuM chuM" te bhUlI javuM. enAmAM zuddhAtmA joIne A sukha bhUlI javuM. AtmA joIe to kazo vAMdho nathI. strInI joDe bhAIbaMdhanI joDe rahIe e rIte rahevuM. strInA saMbaMdhamAM koI paNa rAga-dveSa rAkhavA mArI aMza mAtra icchA nathI. paNa pUrvopArjanathI icchAnA pravartanamAM aTakayo chuM.' paNa te A badhuM ema ne ema thAya evuM nathI. bahu bahu vicAre to A chUTe. paNa evuM bahu vicAryuM ya paNa thAkI jAya evuM che. mATe koI evA mANasane jo maLI gayA hoya ke ApaNe emanI joDe rahIe to emanA pramANe ApaNe thaI jaIe, ema ne ema ja evA thaI jaIe, emano prabhAva paDyA kare ApaNI para ane ApaNe te rUpa thatAM jaIe. eTale vastusthitimAM bIjo koI upAya nathI. amane badhI gUMco AgaLa dekhAyelI ! dhULa bhAga badho vicAra karIne ne sUkSma bhAga badho darzanathI joI nAkhelo ! tethI to jagatanI badhI gUMco ukelI nAkhIe chIene ?! samajathI prApta brahmacarya eka-be chokarAM utpanna thAya eTalA pUrato ja viSaya hoya, bAkI bilakula viSaya ja nahIM. viSayamAM e loko paDe ja nahIM. e lokone lAkha rUpiyA Apo to ya viSaya karavA taiyAra nA hoya. eTalI enI jAgRti hoya ke huM viSaya karuM to phoTo kevo paDe ! jyAre Aje to pAMca hajAra ApIne viSaya kare ne ?! kazuM bhAna ja nathI A lokone !! tane evuM lAgyuM ne ? ApaNe A badhuM UMdhuM bolatA nathI ne ? praznakartA : ekkekTa che dAdA, hajheDa parasenTa karekTa che. dAdAzrI : tyAre lokone kema AvuM paheluM cAlatuM haze ? kazuM bhAna ja nathI ke kyAM jaI rahyA che. jJAnI puruSa'nI pAse viSayanI vAto sAMbhaLI nathI, nahIM to viSaya rahe ja nahIM, UDI ja jAya ! praznakartA : viSayanI viruddha bolIe, to UlaTuM A jagatanA loko gAMDA kahe ke A "olDa mAInDeDa' che. dAdAzrI : evuM bolAya nahIM ne evo kAyado ya nahIM ne ! ane A viSaya che to laganavALA che, A vAMjAvALA che, A mAMDavAvALA che. eTale A che to bIjuM badhuM che, eTale kazuM bolAya nahIM. A to jene mokSe javuM hoya, tene jANavA jevuM. bIjAne kahyuM AvuM jANavAnI jarUra ja nathI ne ! A viSayo buddhithI dUra thaI jAya tema che. meM viSayo buddhithI ja dUra karelA. jJAna nA hoya to ya viSayo buddhithI dUra thAya. A to ochI buddhivALA che, tethI viSaya rahelA che. praznakartA : A buddhizALIo paNa viSayonuM 'verIphikezana' karatA nathI ? buddhithI paNa chUTe viSaya ! praznakartA : zAstromAM paNa strInA rUpanuM varNana bahu karyuM che. dAdAzrI : zAstromAM strInA rUpanuM je varNana che, e zAstro judI jAtanAM che. mokSamArgamAM strInuM varNana AvuM nA hoya. strI to devI che. e to pahelAM to rivAja hato ke paiNatI vakhate zarata eTalI ja hoya ke dAdAzrI : nA, buddhizALIoe viSayanuM 'verIphikezana' karyuM ja nathI. UlaTAM buddhizALIo ja viSayomAM vadhAre UMDA UtaryA che. are, A 'marIna DrAIva" ne badhe tyAM AgaLa jaIne jouM to emanA viSayane joIne tuM ema ja samajuM ke A to mANasa che ke pazuo che ?! TabanI aMdara nahAya

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 35 ne pAchA attara ghasIne ! haMmezAM jyAM durgadha hoya, tyAM zuM karavuM paDe ? praznakartA: hA, attara ghasavuM paDe. paNa pAchalAM keTalA samayathI koIe evo rasto ja nathI batAvyo ke A viSayothI paNa bahAra kaMIka sukha che. dAdAzrI : A mahAvIra bhagavAne rasto batADyo, paNa koIe mAnyo nahIM ne ! A buddhizALI lokoe ja lakhyuM che ke jagatamAM viSayasukha badhAM sukhomAM sarvazreSTha samAna che. vaLI, buddhizALIoe to eTale sudhI lakhyuM ke keLa hoya evAM enAM paga che. jAMgho to AvI che, phalANI AvI che, ne Ama badhuM strInuM varNana kareluM che. eTale pachI loka gAMDA banyA. paNa koIe ema lakhyuM ke strI saMDAsa jAya che tyAre kevI dekhAya ?! je saMDAsa jato hoya, tenI joDe viSaya ja kema karAya ? ene aDAya ja kema ? A kerI jo saMDAsa jatI hoya, to ApaNAthI kerI khavAya ja nahIM ne ? paNa kerI to cokhkhI hoya che, tethI kerI khavAya ne ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : paNa A saMsAranA loko to, pote emAM sukha mAnya che. eTale badhAne pakaDIne kahe che, ke AmAM ja majA che, cAlo ! dAdAzrI : A lokoe to viSayanI jAherAto chApI ane badhA lokone e bAjue vALyA ane chatAM ya jo baLatarA, jo baLatarA, tuM muMbaImAM jA to kharo ! nAgA nAcagAna jue che, to ya baLatarA ! atyAre to badhuM e ja tophAna cAlI rahyuM che ne ?! ne tethI baLatarA paNa pAra vagaranI UbhI thaI che. evI baLatarA UbhI thaI che ke dArU paNa pIvo paDe. strI rAkhavI paDe. badhuM ya Ape to ya ene zAMti thAya nahIM eTale pachI ene manamAM ema thAya ke ApaghAta karI nAMkhIe. pachI Akho dahADo e pI pI karyA kare. pachI jo rAta-dahADo baLatarA-baLatarA ane baLatarA !! evuM thAya pachI ! praznakartA: rasto ja nahIM jaDato hoya to zuM kare ?! dAdAzrI : rasto dekhADanAra koI che ja nahIM. sau koI viSayano mArga dekhADe. mA-bApa paNa kaheze ke paiNa bA, ame ekalAM to phasAyAM chIe, tamane paNa phasAvyA vagara ame rahIe ja nahIM ne !! praznakartA emAM jo koI brahmacarya tarapha jAya, tenA to badhA virodhI thaI jAya. eke DaMkha khAdho, khavaDAvyo badhAMte ! dAdAzrI : hA. lokone nAmanA kADhavI che, "mArA chokarAnA ya chokarAe nAma kADhayuM." kaheze ! pachI enI phasAmaNa je thavAnI hoya te thAya, paNa "mAruM nAma to nIkaLe', kaheze ! A to tamane samajaNa pADavA mATe kahIe ke jethI tamane saMtoSa thAya ke ApaNe mArga lIdho che e sAco che. bAkI viSayamAM sukha nathI ja evuM to koI kahe ja nahIM ne ? badhA to viSayanA sukhanuM ja zIkhavADe. evuM che, ke eka mANasane AMgaLImAM kaMIka darada thayuM haze, tyAre koIe kahyuM ke bhamarIno gala copaDe to maTI jAya. eTale e bhamarIno gala levA mATe bIjA eka jaNe gokhalAmAM hAtha nAMkhyo, paNa tyAM eka vIMchI besI rahelo haze. teNe pelAne DaMkha mAryo eTale pelAthI gala lavAyo nahIM ne uparathI e zuM kahe che ke, mArAthI tUTyuM nahIM. eTale bIjo kahe, 'tArAthI nA tUTayuM, lAva huM toDI nAkhuM." pachI bIjAe mahIM hAtha nAMkhyo. to ene ya DaMkha mAryo. eTale pelo samajI gayo ke ANe DaMkha kahyo nahIM, mATe ApaNe ya kahevuM nathI. eNe e DaMkha kahyo nahIM. pachI trIjo gayo. tene ya DaMkha mAryo. evuM vIMchI badhAne DaMkha mAramAra kare che, paNa koI kahetuM nathI.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya A mAruM ne A pArakuM, e tarata badhAM samajI jAya. mArI pathArI kaI, mAruM ozIkuM karyuM, e badhuM nAnuM chokaruM ya samajI jAya. mArI jamavAnI thALI Ave to, huM mArI meLe mahIM je mUkyuM hoya te badhuM khAuM, te hakkanuM kahevAya. to koI buma nA pADe, koI vAMdho nA kare, koI dAvo nA kare. ApaNAmAM lagna karAve che, te lagna karAve eTale A tamArA beunuM hakkanuM che. eno bhagavAnane vAMdho nathI, paNa aNahakkanuM haze to vAMdho che. kAraNa ke aNahakkanuM eTale bIjAnA hakkanuM eNe lUMTI lIdhuM. cora to sArA ke lakSmI ja lUMTI jAya, paNa A to bIjI ja vastuo lUMTI jAya. pachI kaheze, mAre mokSe javuM che." alyA, mokSe javAno A mArga ja na hoya. A UMdho ja rasto lIdhelo che. aNahakkanuM bhogavI le che ke nathI bhogavatA ? bhogave che ane pAchA corIchUpIthI nahIM, rophathI bhogave che. praznakartA : jANe che chatAM ya aNahakkanuM bhogavavAno prayatna kare [3] aNahakkanI gunegArI ! aNahakkathI tA cetAya to.... jo tuM saMsArI houM to tArA hakkano viSaya bhogavaje, paNa aNahakkano viSaya to nA ja bhogavIza. kAraNa ke AnuM phaLa bhayaMkara che ane tuM tyAgI houM to tArI viSaya tarapha draSTi ja nA javI joIe ! aNahakkanuM laI levuM, aNahakkanI icchA karavI, aNahakanA viSaya bhogavavAnI bhAvanA karavI, e badhI pAzavatA kahevAya. hakka ane aNahakka, e be vacce lAIna opha DImArkazana to hovI joIe ne ? ane e DImArkezana lAInanI bahAra nIkaLAya ja nahIM ! to ya paNa loka DImArkezana lAInanI bahAra nIkaLyA che ne ?! ene ja pAzavatA kahevAya. hakkanuM bhogavavAno vAMdho nathI. bhagavAna mahAvIre ya potAnA hakkanuM bhogavatA hatA. e kaMI thALI pheMkI nahotA detA. je hakkanuM bhogave, ene ciMtA nA thAya. praznakartA : paNa hakkanuM kone kahevuM ane aNahakkanuM kone kahevuM ? dAdAzrI : ApaNA potAnA hakkanI cIja to dareka mANasa samaje. dAdAzrI : tethI ja A du:kha che ne ! tethI ja A saMsAra Ubho rahyo che. saMsAramAM sukha joItuM hoya to aNahakkanuM bhogavazo nahIM. aNahakkanuM bhogave, emAM 'huM sukhI chuM' ema manathI mAne eTaluM ja che. bAkI, emAM 'sephasAIDa' nathI ane huM je vAta karuM chuM, e to kAyamane mATenI 'sephasAIDa' che. praznakartA : aNahakkanuM bhogavavA kaI vRtti DhasaDI jAya che ? dAdAzrI : ApaNI dAnata cora che, te vRtti. praznakartA: nA, paNa tame kaho cho ke tame jo aNahakkathI bhogavavA nA gayA hoya to ya tamane je maLavAnuM che, te maLavAnuM ja che. paNa levA javAmAM navAM pariNAma UbhAM thAya che ne ? dAdAzrI : A zeThanuM khetara amArI joDe hatuM ne eka kAkAnuM joDe khetara hatuM. temAM jyAM galakuM dekhAya, te ame toDI lAvatA hatA. tyAre e hakkanuM kahevAya ? ApaNe kahevuM joIe ke huM tamArA khetaramAMthI galakuM toDI lAvIza agara to toDI lAvyA pachI paNa mAre kahevuM joIe. paNa

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya aNahakkanuM to nA ja levAya. lokoe aNahakkanuM khAdhuM ne pIdhuM, aNahakkanuM to badhuM ja karyuM; kaMI karavAmAM bAkI nathI rAkhyuM ne ! saMsAra eTale 'hakkanuM bhogavo' ema kahe che ane hakkanuM bhogavavAno vAMdho nathI. strI paNa paiNe to, eka tamane poSAtI nA hoya to be paiNajo. bAkI, ApaNe tyAM to teraso hau paiNelA ! te ya che te strI-puruSa hakkanuM hoya, mAlikInuM hoya to teno vAMdho nathI. hakkanuM kone kahevAya ? Akho samAja kabUbsa kare. paiNAve, te ghaDIe badhA jAnamAM hau Ave. paNa aNahakkI hoya to bhAMjagaDa che. ghera hakkanI hoya to paNa bahAra bIje draSTi bagADe che pAchI ! hakkanuM bhogavane ! bIje aNahakka para draSTi ja kema jAya ? potAne je paraNelI che, te sivAya bIje badhe AkhI jiMdagI draSTi bagaDavI ja nA joIe ! hakkanuM choDIne bIjI jagyAe 'prasaMga' thAya, to e strI jyAM jAya, tyAM ApaNe avatAra levo paDe. e adhogatimAM jAya to ApaNe tyAM javuM paDe. AjakAla bahAra to badhe evuM ja thAya che. 'kyAM avatAra thaze ?" tenuM ThekANuM ja nathI. aNahakkanA viSaya jeNe bhogavyA, tene to bhayaMkara yAtanAo bhogavavI paDe. tenI choDI paNa ekAda avatAramAM cAritrahIna thAya. niyama kevo che ke jenI joDe aNahakkanA viSaya bhogavyA hoya te ja pachI mA thAya ke choDI thAya. aNahakkanuM lIdhuM, tyArathI ja manuSyapaNuM jAya. aNahakkano viSaya e to bhayaMkara doSa kahevAya. ApaNe ko'kanuM bhogavI laIe eTale potAnI choDIo ko'ka bhogave, tenI ciMtA ja nathI ne ! eno artha e ja thayone ? ane evuM ja thAya che ne !? potAnI choDIo loko bhogave ja che ne !! A bahu nAlAyakI kahevAya, 'TopamosTa' nAlAyakI kahevAya. potAne ghera choDIo hoya to paNa bIjAnI choDIo jue che ? zarama nathI AvatI ? 'mAre ghera paNa choDIo che' evuM bhAna rahevuM joIe ke nA rahevuM joIe ? ApaNe corI karIe to koI bIjo corI karyA vagara rahe ja nahIM ne ? jyAM aNahakkanA viSaya hoya, tyAM te koI raste sukhI nA thAya. pArakuM ApaNAthI levAya ja kema karIne ? lokoe viSayonI lUMTabAjI karI che. ApaNe badhAne nathI kahetA. 40 samajathI prApta brahmacarya kAraNa ke 'eksezana kesa' badhAmAM hoya ja. paNa ghaNo kharo evo mAla thaI gayo che ke viSayomAM lUMTabAjI ane aNahakkanA viSayo bhogave che. hakkanA viSayanI to bhagavAne ya nA nathI pADI. bhagavAna nA pADe to bhagavAna gunegAra gaNAya. aNahakkanuM to nA pADe. jo pastAvo kare to paNa chUTe. paNa A to aNahakkanuM AnaMdathI bhogave che, tethI ghoDAgAMTha mAre. te keTalAMya avatAra bagADe. paNa pastAvo kare to ghoDAgAMTha DhIlI thAya ne chUTavA mATe avasara maLe. - jema potAnI strI hoya, evI darekane potAnI strI hoya. dareka chokarIo ko'kanI strI thavA mATe ja janmelI hoya che, e pArako mAla kahevAya. koInI strIne bIjI rIte joI zakAya nahIM, bhUlathI jovAI jAya pAchalA saMskArane lIdhe, to pratikramaNa karavuM joIe. ATaluM ja sAcavavAnI jarUra che. bIjuM kazuM sAcavavAnI jarUra nathI. aNahakkamAM bhaMga pAMceya mahAvrata ! eTale potAnA gharamAM badhA mANaso para bilakula kaMTrola rAkhavo joIe, nahIM to pachI nAkakaTTo thaze tyAre bUmAbUma karaze. pote zIlavAna hoya to chokarIo zIlavAna thAya, nahIM to potAnuM ja ThekANuM nA hoya to chokarIo to bagaDI ja jAyane pachI. phAdharano vyavahAra evo nA dekhAvo joIe ke chokarIonAM manamAM phAdharano saheje ya doSa dekhAya. chokarIone phAdharano eka paNa doSa nA dekhAya evI rIte phAdhare jIvana jIvavuM joIe. A to kaMI phAdhara che ? A to aDadhA jAnavara ja che !! phAdhara to kevA hoya ke chokarAMone emanI saheja paNa khAnagI bAbata mAlama nA paDe. praznakartA : pahelAM to sAmAjIka bhayo paNa bahu hatA ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, e sAmAjIka bhayanI jarUra hatI. e bhayathI ja loko sIdhA rahetA hatA. amArA vakhatamAM to vicAre ya nahotA AvatA. e choDIo-chokarAMo badhAM phare to ya vicAro ja nahIM. e jAtanA saMskAro ja nahIM.

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kara samajathI prApta brahmacarya 41 koInI chokarI jatI hoya ane enA upara draSTi bagaDe, to te ghaDIe tarata ja ApaNane vicAra nA Avavo joIe ? ke bhaI. mArI chokarInI upara draSTi koI bagADe to keTaluM mane kharAba lAge ?! evo vicAra nA Avavo joIe ? praznakartA : Ave ja che ! dAdAzrI : evo vicAra Ave to ja e manuSya che ane bIjAnI para draSTi bagADe, ene manuSya ja kema kahevAya ? te badhuM aNahakkanuM je hoya vastu, tenI para draSTi nA bagADAya ne ? potAnI hakkanI strI hoya, tenAM mATe koI jAtano vAMdho nahIM. saMsAranA loko ya kahe ke nA bhaI, A to sAruM che, potAnI strI che. khabhe hAtha nAkhIne jato hoya to ya loko pAchaLa amathA TIkA kare. paNa pachI kaheze, 'bhaI, enI strI che." to eno vAMdho nathI, paNa aNahakkanuM to loko TIkA ya kare, nIMdA ya kare. kare ke nA kare ? ane jagata nIMdA kare ne, tyAM ApaNo badho, badhAM doSa pharI vaLe. mATe aNahakkanuM bahu nukasAnakAraka ne ? kAgaLa lakhyo ane jyAM sudhI nAkhyo nathI mahIM posTamAM, tyAM sudhI nIce lAIna lakhAya ke AgaLa ame tamane gALo bhAMDI che kAgaLamAM paNa enI ame mAphI mAMgIe chIe, ema nIce vAkya lakhAya. praznakartA : te uparanuM badhuM bhUMsAI jAya. dAdAzrI : bhUMsAI jAya. eno artha savaLo thaI jAya. eTale Aja kalAka pratikramaNa karo barobara. praznakartA : cAritra bhraSTatA, e AtmAnA mArge jatAM roke ? dAdAzrI : e to narka javAnI nizAnI che A. tamane hakka keTalo che ke je strI paiNyA, te strInI joDe tame jatAM hoya to koI AMgaLI nA kare ne para-strI joDe jatAM hoya to saMsAranA loko ya AMgaLIo kare. to jyAM kaMI paNa AMgaLI thAya tamArI pAchaLa, tyAM narkagati che. ane tamArI draSTi bagaDI to aNahakkanuM, ane samajathI prApta brahmacarya aNahakkanuM tame bhogavavAnI IcchA karI, mATe tyAM AgaLa jAnavara gati. praznakartA: Ape evuM kahyuM che ne, aNahakkanA viSayo narka laI jAya. e zAthI ? dAdAzrI : aNahakkanA viSayamAM haMmezAM kaSAyo hoya, ne kaSAyo hoya eTale narkamAM javuM paDe. paNa A khabara paDe nahIM lokone. eTale pachI bItAM nathI, bhaDake ya nathI lAgatI koI jAtanI. atyAre A manuSyabhava to, gayA avatAre sAruM kareluM tenuM phaLa che. praznakartA svarga ke narka, be ahIM ja che? e ahIM ja bhogavavAnuM? dAdAzrI : nA, ahIM nathI. ahIM to narka jevI vastu ja nathI. narkanuM to huM varNana karuM ne e mANasa sAMbhaLe, to sAMbhaLatAM ja marI jAya eTalAM du:kho che ! tyAM to jeNe bhayaMkara gunA karyA hoya, tene pesavA de ! ahIM svarga-narka jevuM kazuM che nahIM. ahIM to ochuM puNyavALAne ochuM sukha ane vadhu puNyavALAne vadhAre sukha. koIne pApa hoya tyAre ene du:kha hoya. aNahakkamAM to pAMce pAMca mahAvratono doSa AvI jAya che. emAM hiMsA thaI jAya che, jUThuM thaI jAya che, corI to, A ughADI corI kahevAya. aNahakkanuM eTale ughADI corI kahevAya. pachI abrahmacarya to che ja ane pAMcamuM parigraha, te A moTAmAM moTo parigraha che. hakkanA viSayavALAne mokSa che paNa aNahakkanA viSayavALAne mokSa nathI, ema bhagavAne kahyuM che ! potAnA hakkanA viSaya hoya to bhogavajo. aNahakkano vicAra nA Avavo joIe. hakkanA viSaya hoya to hakkanuM, ame beune vidhi mUkI ApIe. ene abaMdhabhAvanI vidhi mUkI ApIe. te hakkanuM paNa potAnI rAjIkhuzIthI nA hovuM joIe. jema polIsavALo pakaDIne mAMsAhAra karAvaDAve, tenA jevuM hovuM joIe. praznakartA: eTale potAnA udayakarma pramANe ? dAdAzrI : nA. udayakarmamAM to aNahakkanA ya hoya, paNa aNahakkanuM nA hovuM joIe. hakkanuM eTale jagatanA loko eksepTa kare,

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 43 loko niMdA kare nahIM evuM hoya ane te paNa potAnI strI joDenuM ja hovuM joIe, lokamAnya hovuM joIe. te potAne paNa khUMce nahIM, bhaya nA lAge. nahIM to aNahakkanuM bhaya lAge, kAMkaro khUMce ema khUMcyA kare. haraiyA DhoratI zuM gati ? A lokone to pAchuM kazuM bhAna nA hoya ne ! ane haraiyA jevA hoya. haraiyA eTale tame samajyA ne ? tame haraiyA koIne joyelA ? haraiyuM eTale jenuM hAthamAM Ave, tenuM khAI jAya. A bheMsa-baMdhune tame oLakho ke ? e badhAM khetaronuM cokhkhuM ja karI Ape. Ama A haraiyA pADA jevuM jagata che. alyA, mUA tane vicAra nA Avyo ke tAre ya bahena, dIkarI che. tuM bIjI jagyAe le che, to tenA phaLa rUpe tAruM A jaze. tame jevo dhakko mAro cho, tevuM pariNAma UbhuM thaze. A jagata bagADavA jevuM che nahIM. bagaDI gayuM hoya to ene sahana karI levuM. pharI navesarathI bagADavuM nahIM. A to haraiyA Dhora ne je AvyuM te khAI jAya eTale loka pachI potAnI choDIone khAI jAya. enI lokane kaMI paDelI nathI. AvuM jo badhA haraiyA thAya to zuM rahyuM ? bahu jUja mANaso che ke jene kaMIka AmAM mahattvatA samajAyelI che. bAkI maLyuM nathI tyAM sudhI haraiyA nathI ! maLyuM ke haraiyA thaI jatAM vAra nA lAge. A zobhe nahIM ApaNane ! ApaNAM hindustAnanI, kevI Devalapa prajA ! ApaNe to mokSe javAnuM che !! pahelAMnA kALamAM manuSyo kevAM haze ? pArakI bahena-dIkarI hoya te ya potAnI gaNe ane potAnI ya potAnI. kevuM suMdara vAtAvaraNa ! A to badhuM 'phrekcara' thaI gayuM. pachI sukha kevI rIte Ave ? sAMsArika sukha to AmAM hoya ja nahIM. thI vijhananI jAgRti javalle ja ! aNahakkanuM hoya to badhA mAravA pharI vaLe, zAthI ? aNahakkanI dhADa pADI tethI ! aNahakkanI dhADa jANI-joIne pADe che ? nA, e to samajathI prApta brahmacarya draSTi evI thaI gaI che. lokonI draSTi to jAta jAtanI hoya. te tamArI draSTi Ama sIdhI hoya to ya pelI tArI draSTi kheMcI le. eTale tyAM pachI 44 sAmuM joIe tyAre bhAMjagaDa thAya ne ! jJAnI puruSane to game tenI sAme jovAno vAMdho nahIM. kAraNa ke emanI pAse to badhI ja jAtanA 'loka enDa kI' hoya, koInuM emanI pAse cAle nahIM. paNa badhI jAtanA 'loka enDa kI' kyAre thAya ke viSaya baMdha thAya pachI. eTale jJAnI puruSane viSaya ja nA hoya, tyAre emane evo vyavahAra ja nA Ave ne ! viSaya kyAre jAya ? e viSaya to jAgRtithI jAya. viSaya ema ne ema jAya evo nathI. chello viSaya, eka hakkano viSaya paNa tUTe kyAre ? jAgRti hoya to. jAgRti konuM nAma kahevAya ke Ama strI-puruSa kapaDAM paherelAM chatAM nAgA dekhAya, pachI 'sekanDa vijhane' cAmaDI khasI gayelAM dekhAya ane 'tharDa vijhane' aMdara badhuM cUMthAI gayelo badho mAla hoya evuM dekhAya. A traNa vijhana 'eTa e TAIma' eka miniTanI aMdara ja thaI jAya. have eTalI jAgRti hoya tyAre chellA sTezanamAM pahoMcAya. AkhI duniyAmAM jAgRtivALA keTalAM ? so-baso mANasa haze ne ? koI kALe eka jAgRtivALo hoto nathI. A kALamAM ja A huM ekalo chuM. AvAM jAgRtivALA to hotAM haze ? pote dehadhArI thaI ane AvI jAgRti to hotI haze ? moTo sAyanTisTa hoya ke mAnasazAstrI hoya, paNa AvI jAgRti ja nA hoya ne !! praznakartA : ApanA jJAna pachI, A jANyA pachI thoDAMka mahAtmAone evI jAgRti thaI gaI hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : evuM thoDA thoDA pramANamAM thayeluM hoya, paNa vadhAre nA thAya ne ! 'jyAM sudhI e prayoga che, tyAM sudhI e jAgRta che.' evuM nA kahevAya. ane jo jAgRta che to e kAdavamAM hAtha ja ghAle nahIM. ne A eMThavADAmAM hAtha ghAle che to e jAgRta ja nathI, bebhAna che. aNahakkatuM laI jAya tarko.... niraMtara AjJAmAM rahevAya, niraMtara samAdhimAM rahevAya, saraLa ane samabhAvI pAcho evo ApaNo mArga che. kerIo badhuM khAvAnI chUTa ApI

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46 samajathI prApta brAhmacarya 45 che. phakta eka viSaya ekalo ja, potAnI strI ke potAnA puruSa sivAya anya viSaya na hovo joIe ane viSaya, je aNahakkanA viSaya che, enAthI to adhogati notaravAnuM thAya. ane viSayamAM to kayuM sukha che ? A jAnavarone ya emAM sukha nathI dekhAtuM. jAnavaro ya sIjhana pUratAM phakta viSayamAM paDe che, te ya sIjhanano uzkerATa che. jAnavarone ya A game nahIM. tethI to A badhA brahmacarya vrata laIne beThA che. A viSayamAM kyAMya sukha nA dekhAyuM. jenAM moDhAM gaMdhAya, je zarIramAMthI rAta-dahADo naryo gaMdavADo ja nIkaLato hoya, tenI upara viSaya kema utpanna thAya ? A to AjJA pALavAnI goThavaNI karI de, to rAge paDI jAya. potAnI strI sivAya bIje anya aNahakkanA viSayo bhogavavA jatAM to narkagatinI nizAnI sAme Ave ! praznakartA : A jJAna maLyuM ane AvuM aNahakkanuM thAya eTale jokhamadArI vadhI jAya ne ? dAdAzrI : bhayaMkara. pachI ja jokhamadArI vadhe ne ! nahIM to ya pahelAM jokhamadAra hato ja, javAno ja hato jAnavaramAM. ene kazI paDelI ja nahotI ne ! have sArA mArge AvyA pachI jo kadI AvI bhUla thayA kare to zuM thAya ? AjJA bane eTalI pALavI, AjJA upara AvI javuM. brahmacarya AvyuM ane A jJAna che, eTale pachI sukha khUTe ja nahIM. abrahmacarya to evuM ke A avatAramAM strI thayelI hoya, agara to bIjI rakhAta hoya to AvatAM avatAramAM potAnI chokarI thaIne UbhI rahe evI A saMsAranI vicitratA che. tethI DAhyA puruSo brahmacarya pALIne mokSe gayelAne ! hakkatA ja hadamAM, tenI gerenTI ! praznakartA : nAnapaNathI ja chokarIomAM bahu ja rasa che. dAdAzrI : chokarIone jovAno ke chokarIomAM ? praznakartA : badhuM ya che. pahelAM jovAmAM hato pachI.. samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : e ja roga che. e ja pola che. huM e ja pUchuM chuM kyAM AgaLa ? ahIM mUA nathI, tyAM to mUA cho ne ! emAM keTaluM dhAreluM saphaLa thayuM chokarIomAM ? praznakartA : A bAbatamAM atyAra sudhI mane koIe kaMI jANakArI ApI ja nathI. dAdAzrI : pArakI strI ke pArakI chokarI sAthe kaMI paNa draSTi bagaDe to bhayaMkara pApa che. tArI potAnI strI hoya to vAMdho nathI. paNa pArakI ane pachI ahIM to hareyo rahyo paNa tyAM ya pUchaDAM sAthe hareyo kUde, kUdAkUda, kUdAkUda. A manakho jato raheze. mahAparANe maLeluM A mANasapaNuM jatuM raheze. mATe ceta jarA. eTale to tulasIdAsane AkhuM zAstra lakhavAno vakhata nA Avyo paNa be ja akSara bolyA, 'paradhana paththara mAnIe, parastrI mAta samAna. Itane se hari nA mile, to tulasI jamAna." kahe che. kRpALudeva to jamAna thayA che ane A bIjA jamAna. hakkanuM khAya to manuSyamAM Ave, aNahakkanuM khAya to jAnavaramAM jAya. praznakartA H ame aNahakkanuM to khAdhuM che. dAdAzrI : khAdhuM che to haju pratikramaNa karo ne, haju bhagavAna bacAvaze. haju derAsaramAM jaIne pazcAttApa karo. haju jIvatA cho. A dehamAM cho tyAM sudhI pazcAtApa karo. praznakartA : khAlI pazcAttApa karavAthI zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : e tamane samajaNa hoya to karo. jJAnI puruSanuM mAnavuM hoya to mAno. nA mAnavuM hoya to tamArI marajInI vAta che. e tamAre nA mAnavuM hoya to eno koI upAya che nahIM. haju pazcAttApa karazo to gAMTho DhIlI thaI jaze ane uparathI rAjIkhuzI thaI te kareluM che. te

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 47 narkagatinuM bAMdhI kADhyuM che. aNahakkanuM khAdhuM to kharuM, paNa rAjIkhuzIthI kare, to narkagatimAM jAya ane jo pazcAtApa kare to jAnavaramAM Ave. bhayaMkara narkagati bhogavavAnI che. mATe jo aNahakkanuM haju jeTaluM khAvuM hoya eTaluM khAjo lokonuM. praznakartA : A badhAmAMthI chUTavAno zreSTha upAya zuM ? dAdAzrI : aNahakkanuM khAdhuM hoya teno pazcAtApa karo. aNahakkanuM khAvAnA vicAra Ave to ya pazcAtApa karo. Akho dahADo pazcAtApamAM ja raho. AvuM na khavAya. mAre to hakkanuM hoya to ja mArA kAmanuM. potAnA hakkanI strI hoya, potAnA hakkanAM chokarAM hoya, ghara-makAna badhuM ApaNuM hoya, paNa pArakAMnA hakkanuM kema levAya ? e pachI jAnavara thaye chUTako nathI, narkagatinA adhikArI thayAM che. bhayaMkara du:khomAM sapaDAyA. haju cetavuM hoya to cetajo. A jJAnI puruSa zuM kahe che ke tamane pazcAtAparUpI hathiyAra ApyuM che. pratikramaNa karyA karo. 'he bhagavAna ! aNasamajaNathI, kharAba buddhithI, kaSAyothI prerAIne paNa A je meM doSo karyA che, bhayaMkara doSo karyA che. enI kSamA mAguM chuM.' kaSAyonI preraNAthI karyA che, tame tamArI jAte nathI karyA. haju karavuM hoya to karajo, nA karavuM hoya to tamArI marajInI vAta che. [4] eka patnIvrata eTale ja brahmacarya ! lokaTiMdha nahIM, te ja lokapUjaya ! kaLiyugamAM eka phakta gRhasthIne vikAra keTalo ghaTe ke enI strI pUrato ja. gRhasthadharma che eTale enI strI pUrato ja vikAra hoya, to bhagavAne ene eksepTa kareluM che. eka patnIvratanI bhagavAne chUTa ApI che ke bIje draSTi paNa nA bagaDe. bahAra jAya, game tyAM jAya paNa draSTi nA bagaDe. vicAra paNa nA Ave, ne vicAra Ave to kSamA mAMgI le evuM eka patnIvrata hoya to bhagavAnane vAMdho nathI ! e to zuM kahe che, ke A kALamAM eka patnIvratane ame brahmacarya kahIzuM ane je lokaniMdya nathI, mATe tene ame lokapujya kahIzuM. bhagavAna kevA DAhyA che !! A kALamAM jyAM ne tyAM badhe lokonI narI niMdAo ja thaI rahI che ane loko niMdyakarma ja karI rahyA che ne ? vepAramAM ya ane dharmamAM ya, badhe dhaMdho ja A mAMDyo che ne ? emAM ya koI apavAda haze. apavAda to hoya ja haMmezAM. chatAM hiMdustAnamAM to Aje sAttvika vicAranA mANaso thavA mAMDyA che. eTale AgaLa upara sAruM thavAnuM che.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 49 eka patnIvrata' A kALatuM brahmacarya ja ! jeNe lagna kareluM che, tene to eka ja kAyado ame karI Apelo ke tAre bIjI koI strI tarapha draSTi bagADavAnI nahIM. ane vakhate draSTi evI thaI jAya to pratikramaNa vidhi karavAnI ane nakkI karavAnuM ke AvuM have pharI nahIM karuM. potAnI strI sivAya bIjI strIne joto nathI, bIjI strI para jenI draSTi rahetI nathI, draSTi jAya chatAM enA manamAM vikArI bhAva thato nathI, vikArI bhAva thAya to pote khUba pastAvo kare che, ene A kALamAM eka strI che chatAM ya brahmacarya kahevAya. AjathI traNa hajAra varSa pahelAM hindustAnamAM somAMthI nevuM mANaso eka patnIvrata pALatA hatA. eka patnIvrata ane eka pativrata; kevA sArA mANaso kahevAya e ! jyAre Aje bhAgye ja hajAramAM eka haze ! A kALamAM jene parastrIno vicAra paNa nA Ave ane eka ja strI sAthe rahe to ya tene ame brahmacarya kahIe chIe. ene svarUpanuM jJAna nA hoya to ya te devagatimAM jAya. bolo, tyAre A devagativALAoe keTalI badhI sagavaDo karI ! bIjuM, AIskrIma khAvAnI Teva haze eno vAMdho nahIM Ave, sinemA jovAnI Teva haze eno vAMdho nahIM Ave, paNa A strI-puruSanA viSaya saMbaMdhano moTo guno che. temAM ya lagna kareluM hoya teTalAM pUratAno vAMdho nahIM Ave. kAraNa ke 'bAunDrI' che, 'bAunDrI' cUkayAno vAMdho che. kAraNa ke tame saMsArI cho, eTale 'bAunDrI' hovI joIe. 'bAunDrI'mAM mana paNa nA cUkavuM joIe, vANI paNa nA cUkavI joIe, vicAra paNa nA cUkavo joIe. eka patnIvratanA 'sarkalamAMthI vicAra bahAra nA javo joIe, ne jAya to vicAra pAcho bolAvI levAno. A kALa vicitra che, mATe 'bAunDrI'nI bahAra nA javuM joIe. je koI A kALamAM eka patnIvratavALo hoya to ya bahu uttama. tene huM kahuM ke, 'bhAI, tAre jJAne ya levAnI jarUra nathI. bIjI strI saMbaMdhI tane vicAre ya nathI Avato, draSTi ya nathI mAMDato ane tArA svapnAmAM paNa bIjI strI nathI AvatI, to jA tAre jJAna levAnI jarUra nathI." ame eka ja vAra AzIrvAda ApIe ke jethI trIje avatAre mokSe jato rahe ! 50 samajathI prApta brahmacarya vagara jJAne !!! eka patnIvrata e kaMI jevI tevI vastu che ?! eka patnIvrata hoya, tene A kALamAM brahmacArI ja kahevAya che. A kALamAM mANasa eka patnIvrata rahI zake ja nahIM. hindustAnamAM paccIsa-pacAsa mANasa evAM nIkaLe paNa te ya pAchAM jaDabhAvavALA hoya, buddhipUrvakanA nahIM, abuddhipUrvakanA ane te huM temanI puNyanA AdhAre hoya. paraNo cAra, paNa temane ja sinsIyara ! A to nAchUTake paiNavAnuM kahyuM che ane paiNuM to eka patnIvrata pALaje, kahe che. eka patnIvrata pALato hoya ane A duSamakALa hoya ane jo bIjI jagyAe draSTi nA bagaDatI hoya, to ene brahmacarya kahyuM. praznakartA : dhAro ke be vAIpha hoya to, e zA mATe kharAba ? dAdAzrI : karone be vAIpha. karavAmAM vAMdho nathI. pAMca vAIpha karo to ya vAMdho nathI. paNa bIjI upara draSTi bagADe, bIjI strI jatI hoya, tenI para draSTi bagADe to kharAba kahevAya. kaMI nIti-niyama to hovAM joIe ne ? praznakartA: mArI pAse koI prinsipalsa nathI. dAdAzrI : to jAnavaranI peTha rAkhavAnI jarUra che? jAnavaranI peTha rAkhIe to chUTuM ja hoya. tamAre jyAM AgaLa anukULa Ave tema karo. A manuSyoe potAno mAnavadharma sacavAya eTalA mATe A vyavasthA karelI che. nahIM to jAnavaramAM ja gayo ne pachI to ! pachI e jAnavaramAM ja khapI jAya ne ? kAraNa ke ko'kanI bena-dIkarI hoya evI ApaNI benadIkarI hoya, to ApaNe eTalAM mATe sephasAIDa jovI joIe ne ? ApaNI bena-dIkarI evI ko'kanI bena-dIkarI. pharI paiNavA mATe vAMdho nathI. musalamAnomAM eka kAyado kADhyo ke bahAra draSTi nA bagADavI joIe. bahAra koIne chaMcheDavuM nA joIe. paNa tamane eka strIthI nA poSAtuM hoya to be karo. e lokoe kAyado rAkhyo ke cAra sudhI tamane chUTa che ! ane ApaNane poSAtI hoya to cAra karo

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 51 ne ? koNa nA pADe che ? cho loko bUmo pADe ! paNa pelI bAIne duHkha na hovuM joIe. praznakartA : e bAIne to necaralI duHkha hoya ja. dAdAzrI : to paNa koIne duHkha thAya evuM vartana na hovuM joIe. ane te potAnI strIne duHkha nA thAya, e paheluM ja jovuM joIe. kAraNa ke ApaNe ene vizvAsa ApIne lAvyA chIe. ApaNe lagnathI baMdhAyA chIe. promIsa ApeluM che. promIsa ApyA pachI ja dago daIe to pachI ApaNe hindustAnanI Arya prajA to nA kahevAIe, paNa anADI to kahevAIe ne !! praznakartA : to cAra patnI kema kare che ? dAdAzrI : musalamAnone emanA kurAnamAM lakhyuM, kurAnano kAyado che ke musalamAna dArU pIve nahIM. dArUno chAMTo paDyo hoya to eTalI jagyA kApI nAkhe, kharo musalamAna AvI hoya. kharo musalamAna kevo hoya, koI strI tarapha draSTi bagADe nahIM ane jarUra hoya to bIjI paiNe, trIjI paiNe, cAra kare paNa draSTi nA bagADe. keTaluM suMdara baMdhAraNa che enuM. paNa zuM thAya have, A loko to thaI gayA evAM ! eTale jyAM ne tyAM draSTi bagADe che. praznakartA : cAra patnI karavAthI draSTi sudharaze evuM kaMI khAtarI kharI ? dAdAzrI : nA, e zuM kahevA mAMge che. te draSTi bagADIza nahIM. tuM cAra patnI kara eTale pachI pote nakkI kareluM hoya ke mAre ATalAmAM ja rahevAnuM che. ane A to ene nakkI thaI gayuM, eka ja che ne mAre ! eTale bIje bahAra draSTi bagADavAnI chuTa thaI gaI ene. A bahAra draSTi bagADavAthI zuM thAya che, ke e kaMI kArya thatuM nathI, paNa draSTi bagaDavAthI bIja paDe che ane e bIjamAMthI vRkSa thAya che. mATe ame A badhAne kahI dIdheluM ke tamArI draSTi bagaDe to tame pratikramaNa karajo eTale tamane bIja nahIM paDe. draSTi bagaDatAMnI sAthe pratikramaNa karo. para samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : emano dharma ema kahe che ke cAra strI paraNo paNa draSTi na bagADo. paNa draSTi bagADavI-na bagADavI e enA hAthamAM che ne ! dAdAzrI : A bhavamAM atyAramAM sAMbhaLyuM hoya e jJAna, to AvatA bhavamAM phITa thaIne ja Avyo hoya. pachI bahAra draSTi nA bagaDe. praznakartA : khAlI sAMbhaLyuM hoya e ? dAdAzrI : hA, jJAna jo eNe sAMbhaLyuM hoya A, ke AvuM ja karavAnuM che to A bhavamAM bagaDe vakhate, gayA avatAramAM sAMbhaLyuM nathI eTale. paNa A to AvatA bhavamAM phITa thaI jAya. praznakartA : paNa chatAM A bhavamAM je karma baMdhana karyA, e to bhogavavA ja paDe ne pachI ? dAdAzrI : e to bhogavavA paDe, paNa bIjuM.... bIjuM nahIM bhogavavuM paDe. eno aMta AvI jAya. paNa A hisAba to ya AvI jAya. paNa e lokone cokhkhuM kahyuM che. cAra sudhI bhogavajo, paNa tame bahAra draSTi nA bagADazo ane te ya che te, enuM Arogya nidAna che. draSTi bagADavI e Arogya upara bAdhaka che. e kAyado musalamAnono bahu game che amane. musalamAnono kAyado, bahu sAro kAyado ! musalamAnonAM zAstromAM ya evAM sarasa kAyadA che ke bhAI, tAre paiNavuM hoya to cAra paiNaje, paNa draSTi nA bagADIza koInI upara. A emano kAyado sarasa che ne ? tane kevo lAge che ? vadhAre guno to draSTi bagADavAno che, strIo rAkhyAno nathI. draSTi bagADyAno guno bahu che. bIjI badhI strIo tarapha draSTi kare to, te sAruM kahevAya ? mATe potAnuM je che, e bhogavavAnuM che. bhagavAne zuM kahyuM che ? tuM bhogava, paNa tAruM hakkanuM je che te bhogava. aNahakkanuM nA bhogavIza. amathA aNahakkanA bhogavavAnA cALA karIe, tenAM to bhavobhava badhA bagaDI jAya. have tArI draSTi bIjI jagyAe nahIM jAyane ? koI dahADo ya nahIM jAyane ? A kALamAM AnI kiMmata vadhAre aMkAI che. kasoTIno kALa che eTale draSTi paNa badalAvI nA joIe. ane badalAI hoya to pratikramaNa ApeluM che,

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53 samajathI prApta brahmacarya enAthI cokhkhuM karI nAkhavAnuM. khape sUkSmathI paNa eka patnIvrata ! A kALamAM eka patnIvratane ame brahmacarya kahIe chIe ane tIrthaMkara bhagavAnanA vakhatamAM je brahmacaryanuM phaLa maLatuM hatuM, te ja phaLa pAmaze, enI ame gerenTI ApIe chIe. praznakartA : eka patnIvrata kahyuM, te sUkSmathI ke ekaluM dhULa ? mana to jAya evuM che ne ? - dAdAzrI : sUkSmathI paNa hovuM joIe ane vakhate mana jAya to manathI chUTuM rahevuM joIe. ane enA pratikramaNa kara kara karavAM paDe. mokSa javAnI limiTa kaI ? eka patnIvrata ane eka pativrata. eka patnIvrata ke eka pativratano kAyado hoya, e limiTa kahevAya. have AkhI jiMdagI bIje mana nA bagaDyuM, to tAruM gADuM sAruM jaze. nahIM to pachI.... praznakartA: barAbara, Ape kahyuM e pramANe eka patnIvrata ja, enI sivAya bIjuM kAMI nahIM. dAdAzrI : bIje to draSTi paNa nA bagaDavI joIe ane bagaDe to tarata pratikramaNa karaje. anaMta avatAra chUTI jaIne mokSe javAnuM e kaMI sahelI vastu nathI ane peluM brahmacarya hoya to to vAta ja judI che ne ! praznakartA : hamaNAM to lagna karuM chuM, paNa amuka varSo pachI to brahmacarya laI zakAya ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, beu jaNa levA taiyAra hoya to levAya. banne ya taiyAra hoya to pAMca varSa pachI paNa levAya. praznakartA : paNa A brahmacArIo jevuM to rIjhalTa Ave nahIM ne ? dAdAzrI : e to bhUtane joDe pheravavuM ja paDe ne ! ane pelI baI pa4 samajathI prApta brahmacarya jANe ke A bhUtane mAre pheravavo paDe che. eTale A upAdhi to kharI ja ne ! eka phero sahIsikkA thaI gayelA eTale karAra tuTe nahIM ne ! jyAre brahmacArIne to koI nAma daI zake nahIM ne ? koI dAvo ja nA mAMDe ne ? eTale enA jevuM to eke ya nahIM. praznakartA : to sinsIyaralI eka patnIvrata pALIe to vAMdho nA Ave ne ? dAdAzrI : pachI ApaNI A pAMca AjJA paLAya to mokSa thAya. A pAMca AjJA pALavI joIe phakta ane eka patnIvrata pALe eTale bahu sAruM kahevAya, brahmacarya jevuM ja phaLa Ape. praznakartA : paNa ATalo vakhata brahmacaryanI je bhAvanA karI che. brahmacaryanAM je bIja nAkhyAM che, to AvatA bhavamAM to dIkSA maLaze ne ? dAdAzrI : enI ciMtA karIne ApaNe zuM kAma che ? atyAre to ApaNe atyAranI bhAMjagaDa karavI. AvatAM bhavanI bhAMjagaDa atyAre karIe to zuM thAya ? atyAre to ApaNI zI sthiti che ? atyAre ApaNA doSa dekhAya che ne ? lokonA doSa nA dekhAvA joIe. potAnA doSa dekhAvA joIe. koInA doSa dekhAtA hoya to pratikramaNa karavuM paDe. evuM badhuM jovuM. bIjuM, AvatA bhavanI bhAMjagaDa to enI meLe thaI raheze. e to parIkSA jevI ApIe, vAMcyuM haze evuM thaze. Avato avatAra to mArka che. hatuM paNa normAliTImAM ! praznakartA : eka patnIvratane hakkano viSaya kahevAya, te paNa normAliTImAM hoya tyAM sudhI hakka gaNAya. ne ebova normala thAya to ? dAdAzrI : to ya hakkano ja kahevAya paNa aNahakka jevuM, ene kharAba kahevAya nahIM ne ? praznakartA: have bIjI strI che, te enAM rAjIpAthI ApaNane kheMcatI hoya ane beunA rAjIpAno sodo hoya, to e hakkano viSaya thayo ke nahIM ?

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55 pa6 samajathI prApta brahmacarya samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : nA, tyAM ja cokaDI mArI che ne ! ane A rAjIpAthI ja badhuM bagaDyuM che ne !!! A rAjIpAthI AgaLa gayA eTale badhuM bhayaMkara adhogatimAM javAnI nizAnIo thaI ! pachI e adhogatimAM ja jAya. bAkI potAne ghera normAliTI rAkhe to e deva kahevAya, manuSyamAM paNa deva kahevAya. ane potAne ghera ebova normala thayo, e badhuM jAnavarapaNuM kahevAya. paNa e potAnuM khUe, bIjuM kazuM nahIM, potAnI dukAna badhI khAlI thaI jAya, paNa pelA aNahakkanA jevuM jokhama nA kahevAya. A hakkavALAne to pharI manuSyapaNuM ya maLe ne e mokSanI najIka ya jAya. eka patnIvrata e chellI limiTa che, pelAM badhAM karatAM uttama. AvI carcA hindustAnamAM koI jagyAe thatI nathI. tArI tAkAta pramANe paiNa ! praznakartA : ApaNA dharmamAM eka ja patnIno phAyado che, paNa ApaNe tyAM keTalAMka rAjAne traNa patnIo kema hatI ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, keTalAMka to traNa patnI rAkhatA. ane RSabhadeva bhagavAnanA putra bharata cakravartI hatA, emane teraso rANIo hatI. eTale ApaNuM dharmazAstra zuM kahe che ke lagna karajo. paNa draSTi nA bagADazo. ane eka lagnathI tamane saMtoSa na raheto hoya ane bIjI koI strI para draSTi jatI hoya to bIjI paiNajo. trIjI para draSTi jatI hoya to trIjI paiNajo. paNa draSTi nA bagaDelI rAkhajo. A draSTi bagaDavAthI bhayaMkara rogo UbhA thAya che. praznakartA : ApaNAmAM to eka ja kahyuM che ane pahelAM to traNatraNa evuM kema che ? dAdAzrI : tamane ya kahuM chuM ke, tamArI zakti joIe. ekanI joDe to vaDhavaDhA karo cho eTale pachI eka jaNa to hato, te pachI bIjI paiNI lAvyo. te meM ene pUchayuM ke, 'bhAI, have zuM karo cho tame ? be vAIpha ane tuM zuM karuM chuM ? A to cAlIsa varSa pahelAMnI vAta karuM chuM huM. AjanI nahIM. tyAre e kahe, 'navI kare roTalA ane jUnI kare dALa, baMdA beThA kaDhI halAve, traNeva hArahAra " zakti hoya to karone, niveDavAnI zakti joIe. ekane na pahoMcI vaLe ne Ama bUmo pADe pachI ! - eka patnIvrata pALazo ne ? tyAre kahe 'pALIza.' to tamAro mokSa che ne bIjI strIno saheja vicAra Avyo, tyAMthI mokSa gayo. kAraNa ke e aNahakkanuM che. hakkanuM tyAM mokSa ane aNahakkanuM tyAM jAnavarapaNuM. ane ApaNAM RSimunio to eka strI rAkhatA hatA, ne te ya varasamAM ekAda vakhata ThIka che, ekAda vakhate putradAna ApavA pUratA paiNatA hatA. praznakartA : mAruM pUchavAnuM ke mana-vacana-kAyAthI brahmacArI jagatamAM pAkelAM koI ? dAdAzrI : atyAre hoya nahIM. praznakartA : pahelAM kharAM ? dAdAzrI : pahelAM to kharo ja ne ! ApaNe tyAM mahAsatIo thatI e eka pativratA. A RSimunio badhA eka patnIvratavALA. praznakartA : mahAsatIne pati to kharo ja ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, paNa pativratavALI, pativratano niyama bilakula bhaMga nahIM thavA devAnAM ane pelA RSimunio to saMpUrNa brahmacarya vratavALA. praznakartA : paNa e to evuM saheje laIne AvelA hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : e to evo mAla bharelo ane atyAre A lokoe Avo mAla bharyo, te evo nIkaLe che. paNa have navesarathI kevo bharavo, te potAnA Adhina kharuM ne ? praznakartA : devomAM eka patnIvrata haze? dAdAzrI : eka patnIvrata eTale kevuM ke AkhI jiMdagI eka ja devI joDe pasAra karavAnI. paNa jyAre bIjAnI devI dekhe ke manamAM evAM bhAva

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya pa7 thAya ke 'ApaNAM karatAM pelI sArI che" evuM thAya kharuM, paNa je che emAM kazo pheraphAra thAya nahIM. praznakartA: A devagatimAM putrano savAla nathI, chatAM ya tyAM viSaya to bhogave ja che ne ? dAdAzrI : tyAM Avo viSaya nA hoya. A to gaMdavADo naryo. deva to ahIM UbhA ya nA rahe. tyAM emano viSaya kevo hoya che ? khAlI devI Ave ke ene jue, eTale emano viSaya pUro thaI gayo, basa ! keTalAMka devalokane to evuM hoya che ke beu Ama hAtha aDADe ke sAmasAmI beu jaNA hAtha dabAvI rAkhe to e viSaya pUro thaI jAya. devaloko ya jema jema UMce caDhe, tema tema viSaya ocho thato jAya. keTalAMka to vAtacIta kare ke viSaya pUro thaI gayo. jene strIno sahavAsa game che evAM ya devaloko che ane jene khAlI strI amathI eka kalAka bhegI thAya eTale bahu AnaMda thAya evAM ya devaloko che ane keTalAMka evAM devaloko ya che ke jemane strInI jarUra ja nathI hotI. eTale badhI jAtanA devaloko che. evAM ya keTalAMka manuSyo che, jemane saMDAsamAM besavAnuM gamatuM nathI. ene A gaMdha ja nA gamatI hoya. to emane mATe devalokonI bhUmikA che. aNahakkanA viSayabhogo, tarkanuM kAraNa ! parapuruSa-parastrI tarkatuM kAraNa ! A viSayane jhera jANyuM ja nathI, AnuM jokhama jANyuM ja nathI ne narka javAya evuM thaI gayuM che. mATe kaMIka pAchAM phare to narkagati bace. - parastrI ane parapuruSa eTale pratyakSa narkanuM kAraNa che. narka javuM hoya to tyAM javAno vicAra karo. amAre eno vAMdho nathI. tamAre anukULa hoya to e narkanA duHkhanuM varNana karuM, te sAMbhaLatA ja tAva caDhI jaze to tyAM e bhogavatAM tArI zI dazA thaze ? bAkI potAnI strIno to koI vAMdho nathI. praznakartA : paNa e banne pati-patnI hoya to ? dAdAzrI : pati-patnIne kudarate eksepTa kareluM che. temAM jo kadI vizeSabhAva nA thAya to vAMdho nahIM. kudarate eTaluM cAlavA dIdhuM che. eTaluM pAparahita pariNAma kahevAya. tyAre AmAM bIjAM pApa badhAM bahu che. eka ja phero viSaya karavAthI karoDo jIva marI jAya che. e kaMI ochAM pApa che ?! paNa to ya e parastrI jevuM moTuM pApa nA kahevAya.

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60 samajathI prApta brahmacarya pa9 praznakartA : chatAM emAM pApa to kharuM ne ? dAdAzrI : kharuM. tethI A lokoe niSpApI rahevA mATe zodhakhoLa karelI ne ? ke niSThApI rahevA mATe zo upAya ? brahmacaryamAM AvavuM joIe. ahIM jo strI-puruSanuM brahmacarya paLAya, to to devaloko jevuM sukha Ave. pachI to saMsAra devaloka jevo lAge. draSTi nA mAMDe e jItyo. draSTi mAMDI ke khalAsa thaI gayuM. draSTi to mAMDavI ja nA joIe. praznakartA : Ape je parapuruSa ne parastrIgamananuM bhaya signala batAvyuM, enuM 'kejyuala kanekzana' zuM che ? dAdAzrI : ApaNA ahIM jJAna lIdhA pachI AvA doSavALo to sIdho narkamAM jAya. kAraNa ke jJAna lIdhA pachI to dago kahevAya. jJAnIne dago kahevAya ane satsaMgane dago kahevAya. bhayaMkara dago kahevAya, eTale narkano adhikArI thaI jAya. eTalA mATe ame cetava cetava karIe. atyAranA lokone je viSayo che, e to jAnavarone ya nA hoya. A to kaLiyuganI nizAnI che. bicArA baLatarAmAM ne baLatarAmAM Akho dahADo mahenata kare ane pachI bhAna nA rahe ne ?! ane A mAla kaMI pharI manuSyamAM Ave evo mAla nathI. A to rakhaDI maravAno badho mAla che. pahelAno jUno mAla hato, e to eka patnIvratavALo. kAraNa ke jUno mAla to cAritrane samajato hato ke mArI choDI evI nA thAya, evuM badhuM e jANe ke huM ko'kane tyAM nukasAna karuM to ko'ka mAre tyAM nukasAna kare ane pachI potAnI chokarI evI ja thAya. ziyaLa lUMTatArA, tarnAdhikArI ! praznakartA : narkamAM khAsa koNa vadhAre jAya ? dAdAzrI : ziyaLa lUMTanArAne sAtamI narka che. jeTalI mIThAza AvI hatI, enAthI anekagaNI kaDavAza anubhave tyAre e nakkI kare ke have tyAM narka nathI javuM. eTale A jagatamAM kaMI paNa nA karavA jevuM hoya to te koInuM ziyaLa nA lUMTavuM. kayAreya paNa draSTi nA bagaDavA daIza. samajathI prApta brahmacarya ziyaLa lUTe pachI narkamAM jAya ne mAra khA khA kare. A duniyAmAM ziyaLa jevI uttama koI cIja ja nathI. A jagatamAM zIlavAna jevI uttama vastu koI ja nathI. praznakartA : A kALamAM ziyaLanuM koIne mahattva ja nathI, to pachI ziyaLa lUMTAyA jevuM koIne lAge ja nahIM ? dAdAzrI : A kALamAM lokone pahelAMnA kALa jevuM ziyaLe ya lUMTatA nathI AvaDatuM ne ! tethI bahu tyAre pahelI, bIjI, trIjI ke cothI narka jAya. atyAre A kALamAM cAra narka khullI che, te tyAM sudhI jAya. ethI AgaLanI baMdha thaI gayelI che. AgaLanI to A kALanA loko mATe hoya nahIMne ! A coLiyAM jevAM jIvo. AgaLanI narkamAM janArA to prakhara puruSa ane A to coLiyAM bicArAM te, "bena, bena' kahIne ziyaLa lUTe evAM loka, A loka to 'bena' kahIne dagophaTakA rAkhe. pelAM loka AvAM dagophaTakA nA kare. praznakartA : dagophaTako duniyA joDe ke vyakti joDe ? dAdAzrI : duniyA ne vyakti badhA ya joDe. A kALanA loko je che ne, te to potAnI jAtane hau dago de. ApaNe ahIM A satsaMgamAM evo dagophaTakAno vicAra Ave to huM boluM ke A mInIMgalesa vAta che. ahIM evo vyavahAra kiMcitmAtra nA cAle ane evo vyavahAra cAle che evuM mArA lakSamAM AvyuM to huM bALI melIza, bhayaMkara bALI melIza. A jagyAe kiMcitmAtra evuM nA cAle, A saMgha evo nA hoya, ahIM evI bhUla karAya nahIM. ame to ghaNAM evA mANaso joyA che ke banevI hoya chatAM sagI benane "paiNelo' hoya che. pachI che te banevIne tyAM roja jAya. are, banevIne tyAM ja mukAma. evAM to ghaNAM kesa joyelA. huM ene kahuM paNa kharo ke "alyA, zuM dhaMdho mAMDayo che ? kayA avatAre chaTIza tuM ? mArI pAse Ava, jo pharI AvuM nA karavAno hoya to huM tane cokhkho karI ApIza.' A varlDamAM game tevAM gunA karyA hoya, game tevAM gunA laIne

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya Ave to ya, jo pharI jiMdagImAM nA karavAno hoya, to badhI rIte cokhkho huM karI ApuM. A lokoe kevA bhayaMkara gunA karyA che. 'bena, bena' karIne paiNelA. paNa A lokone sAtamI narka nA hoya. bahu tyAre pahelI, bIjI, trIjI ke cothI narkamAM jAya. bhayaMkara jokhamI, aNahakkatA viSayo ! A duniyAmAM koI cIja baMdhana karatI nathI. lakSmI ke bIjI koI cIja baMdhana karatI nathI. phakta parastrI ekalI ja baMdhana kare che. jyAM parastrInI lUMTa cAle che, tyAM baMdhana che. bIje koI jagyAe duHkha che ja nahIM. ApaNuM A jJAna evuM che, bIje badhethI choDAvaDAve, paNa parastrImAM je phasAyo, te narakano adhikArI thaI jAya. mATe tenAthI chUTavA mATe ahIM 'vidhi' karI levI paDe. mANasa che e bhUlacUka to kare ja ne have ! eTale ahIM jokhama ATaluM ja che. koInI ya emAM bhUlacUka thatI hoya to mArI pAse mAphI mAMgI choDAvI javuM. tenI huM vidhi karI ApIza. A jJAna maLyA pachI jAtajAtanAM karmo laIne AvyA hoya, emAM koNa kevo baMdhAyelo hoya, te zI khabara paDe ? tuM lakSmIthI baMdhAyelo hoya teno vAMdho nahIM, e daMDa tane mApha karAvI daIza. paNa A parastrIno ekalo ja moTo daMDa che. te paNa mArI pAse mApha karAvavAnA kAyadA che. mArI pAse badhuM ya sAdhana che. dAdA choDAve tarkagatithI ! mAnavatAno adhikAra keTalo ? ke je potAnI paraNata hoya, adhikAranuM hoya eTaluM ja potAnuM ane bIjuM pArakuM levAya nahIM. mAruM e mAruM ane tAruM e tAruM. tAruM mAre joIe nahIM, mAruM tane ApuM nahIM, enuM nAma mAnavatA ! jene parastrIno tyAga thayo, te bhagavAna thavA mAMDe. parastrI e roga moTo haze ke nahIM ? bahu moTo kahevAya ! ethI ja jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. e gAyo-bheMsone cAle, tyAM to corI ya nathI ne brAhmaNe ya nathI. gAyobheMsomAM corI hoya ? tyAM brAhmaNane besADe nahIM ne ? A to manuSyamAM samajathI prApta brahmacarya to viveka karavAmAM Ave che ane kudaratanuM baMdhana ja evuM che. manuSyamAM Avyo te baMdhana ja hoya, mahAmuzkelI ! tane kaMI pastAvo thAya A sAMbhaLIne ! praznakartA : bahu ja thAya che. dAdAzrI : pastAvAmAM baLe to ya pApo khalAsa thaI jAya. be-cAra jaNa A vAta sAMbhaLIne mane evuM kahe ke, "amAruM zuM thaze ?" meM kahyuM, 'alyA, bhAI, huM tane badhuM samuM karI ApIza. tuM AjathI DAhyo thaI jA." jAgyA tyArathI savAra. enI narkagati uDADI mukuM. kAraNa ke mArI pAse badhA rastA che. huM kartA nathI eTale. jo huM kartA thAuM to mane baMdhana thAya. huM tamane ja dekhADuM ke Ama karo have. te pachI badhuM UDI jAya ane ema bIjI keTalIka vidhio karIe. etAM jokhamo to khyAlamAM rAkho ! eTale kharuM jokhama jANavuM joIe ke nA jANavuM joIe ? jokhama yAda raheze ke tane ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : have bhUlAya nahIM ne ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : AkhI jiMdagI ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : chokarAone bicArAne to muzkelI ne ? haju paiNyAM nA hoya. AvuM jokhama saMbaMdhI koI upadeza ApatuM nA hoya ! koI Ape che ? nA. kAraNa ke loka viSayI che. pote viSayI mANasa, e viSayo saMbaMdhI upadeza kema ApI zake ? pote corI karato hoya, te 'corI nA karavI" evo upadeza kevI rIte ApI zake ? jokhama to samajavuM nA paDe ?

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64 samajathI prApta brahmacarya nAtanI hoya, mA nIcI nAtamAM jAya ane dIkaro UMcI nAtamAMthI nIcI nAtamAM pAcho Ave. jo bhayaMkara jokhamo !! gayA avatAre je strI hoya, te A avatAre mA thAya. ne A avatAre mA hoya, to AvatAM avatAre strI thAya. evuM A jokhamavALuM jagata che ! vAtane TUMkAmAM samajI jajo !! prakRti viSayI nathI, e vAta meM bIjI rIte kahelI. paNa A to ame pahelethI kahetA AvyA chIe ke A ekaluM jokhama che. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 63 jagatamAM koI A jokhama kahe nahIM. loko to 'tame bahu sarasa cho, bahu sarasa cho.' ema kaheze. A loka to sAruM. sAruM ja kahene ! konA bApAnI divALI ?! caMdubhAI pAsethI pAMcaso rUpiyA joItA hoya to, 'caMdubhAI saMta puruSa thaI gayA,' kahe. eTale pAMcaso rUpiyAno ceka lakhI Ape. pArakI strI joDe pharIe to loko AMgaLI kare ne ? eTale A samAjavirodhaka che ane bIjuM to aMdara bahu jAtanI upAdhi thAya che. narkanI vedanAo eTale ilekTika gesamAM ghaNAM kALa sudhI baLyA karavAnuM ! eka ilekTrika garamInI vedanAvALI narka che ane bIjI ThaMDInI vedanAvALI narka che. tyAM eTalI badhI ThaMDI che ke ApaNe pAvAgaDha parvata nAkhIe to eno patharo AvaDo moTo nA rahe, paNa enA kaNekaNa chUTA paDI jAya ! eTalI badhI ThaMDI che. paNa tyAM atyAre to e chellI traNa narko baMdha thaI gaI che. ThaMDIvALuM jokhama baMdha thaI gayuM che. A garamIvALuM jokhama haju cAlu che. atyAre evA pApa karanAra koI che ja nahIM. A jIvaDAM zuM pApa karI zake bicArAM ! rezana ane bheLaseLavALo mAla lAvIne khAya, te keTalAM pApa karI zake ?! eTale chellI traNa narkamAM javAya evAM pApa karanArA janmatAM ja nathI. bAkI A nAnA prakAranA pApa karanArA e badhA pahelI cAra narka jAya. emAM e ahIM bahu moTo zUravIra (!) hoya, tyAre enA mATe e narka UghaDe. pApa karatAM AvaDe nahIM, tene zuM thAya ? A to badhA mahIM aMdara ne aMdara mAramAra kare, bahAra mArato nathI. praznakartA : paNa prakRti viSayI nathI, e kevI rIte ? dAdAzrI : prakRti viSayI nathI, e to eka parastrI sivAya. A loka to avaLuM jhAlI pADe. mArA zabdone tArI bhASAmAM avaLuM laI javuM hoya, to tane vAra lAge kharI ? pachI jo tame parastrI ne bIjuM badhuM jokhama avaLuM laI paDo, to to pachI duniyAmAM tamane phAve tema cAlavAnuM thaI gayuM ! paNa parastrInA jokhamamAM to keTalAM keTalAM jokhama UbhAM rahyAM che ! e jyAM jAya tyAM tamAre javuM paDaze, ene mA karavI paDaze ! Aje ghaNAM ya evA dIkarA che ke je enI pUrvabhavanI rakhAtane peTe janmelA che. e mArA jJAnamAM hau AveluM. dIkaro UMcI nAtano hoya ane mAM nIcI beu sahamata to ya jokhama ! praznakartA banne pArTIne saMmata hoya to jokhama kharuM ? dAdAzrI : saMmati hoya to ya jokhama che. banne sAmasAme khuzI hoya emAM zuM dahADo vaLyo ? e jyAM javAnI hoya tyAM ApaNe javuM paDe. ApaNe mokSe javuM che ne enA dhaMdhA AvAM che. to ApaNI zI dazA thAya ? guNAkAra kyAre maLe ? eTalAM mATe dareka zAstrakAroe dareka zAstramAM vivekane mATe kaheluM che ke paiNajo. nahIM to A rakhaDela Dhora hoya to kone ghera sAvadhAnI rahe ? pachI 'sephasAIDa' ja zuM rahe ? kaI jAtanI sephasAIDa rahe ? tuM kema bolato nathI ? pAchalI ciMtAmAM paDI gayo ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : huM tane dhoI ApIza. amAre to eTaluM joIe che ke atyAre amane bhegA thayA pachI koI Dakhala nathI ne ? pAchalI Dakhala hoya, to tene choDavA mATe amArI pAse bahu jAtanA AMkaDA che. tAre mane khAnagImAM kahI devAnuM. huM tane tarata dhoI ApIza. kaLiyugamAM mANasanI zuM bhUla nA thAya ! kaLiyuga che ane bhUla nA thAya, evuM bane ja nahIM ne ?! brahmacaryatA IcchAvAtane ugAre jJAta ! tArI icchA tUTI gaI che ke ? praznakartA : hA, dAdA.

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65 samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : to huM tAro kacaro kADhI nAkhIza. jenI icchA nA tUTI hoya, teno kacaro zI rIte kaDhAya ?! praznakartA : maratAM sudhI icchA nA jAya to zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : zenI icchA che ? praznakartA: koI paNa icchA hoya. dAdAzrI : bIjI badhI icchA thaze teno vAMdho nathI, paNa viSaya saMbaMdhI nA hovI joIe. ekanI joDe DAyavorsa laIne bIjI joDe lagna karavAnI icchA haze teno vAMdho nathI, paNa lagna hovuM joIe. eTale enI bAunDrI hovI joIe, 'vidhAuTa enI bAunDrI" eTale harayA Dhora kahevAya. pachI emAM ane manuSyamAM phera nathI. praznakartA : 2khAta rAkhI hoya to ? dAdAzrI : rakhAta rAkhI hoya, paNa te rajisTarDa hovuM joIe. pachI bIjI nA hovI joIe. praznakartA : emAM rajisTara karAya nahIM, kare to milakatamAM bhAga mAMge, aneka lapharAM thAya. dAdAzrI : milakata to ApavI paDe, jo ApaNane svAda joIto hoya to ! pAMsarA rahone eka avatAra, Ama zuM karavAne karo cho ? anaMta avatAra sudhI AvuM ne AvuM karyuM ! eka avatAra pAMsarA rahone ! pAMsaruM thayA vagara chUTako nathI. sApe ya daramAM pesatI vakhate sIdho thAya ke vAMko cAle ? praznakartA sIdho cAle. have parastrImAM jokhama che, e khoTuM che evuM Aje ja samajAya che. atyAra sudhI to AmAM zuM khoTuM che ? evuM ja rahetuM hatuM. dAdAzrI : tamane koI avatAramAM koIe 'A khoTuM che' evo anubhava nathI karAvyo, nahIM to A gaMdavADamAM koNa paDe ? pAchI narkanI javAbadArI Ave ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : ane narkamAM javAnuM thAya, e to kharAba ja ne ? dAdAzrI : A vAta ja evI che, A haraiyuM kAma che ne, e badhuM narke ja laI jAya. ApaNuM A vijJAna maLyA pachI hArTilI pastAvo kare to ya badhAM pApo baLI jAya. bIjA lokonAM paNa pApo baLI jAya, paNa AkhuM nA baLI jAya. ApaNe to AvuM vijJAna maLyA pachI, e viSaya upara khUba pastAvo rAkhyA kare, to pachI pAra nIkaLI jAya ! A ekalo ja roga evo che ke narkamAM laI janAro che ane narkamAM gayo ke pachI pharI jJAnI puruSa bhegA nA thAya, A satsaMga bhego nA thAya ! mokSamArga hAthamAMthI jato rahe ! eTale parastrIgamana, parastrIvicAra e narkamAM laI janArA che ! A cAdara kADhI nAkhe to ? koI hAtha nA aDADe ! eTale emAM zuM jovA jevuM che ? eno to vicAra sarakho ya nA Avavo joIe ! tethI ja ame bUmo pADIe chIe ne ! atyAre dahIMvaDAM badhuM ja khAvA daIe chIe ne ! paNa moTAmAM moTuM jokhama A che ! narkamAM jatAM ya ThekANuM nahIM paDe ! saMsArI loka to ThagAI gayelA, bicArAne khabara nathI ! ane ahIM to AnI jo khabara hoya ane pachI jo kadI mAra khAya to bahu khoTuM kahevAya ne ?! atyAra sudhI rajhaLI maryA che, tenuM kAraNa ja A viSaya che ne ! te nA hovuM joIe ane hoya to tene ekadama choDI nA devAya, paNa enAM to tarata pratikramaNa karavAM paDe. viSaya, te kaMI Ama ne Ama choDyuM chUTI jAya evuM che ? A to anaMta avatArathI vaLageluM che, te jaladI chUTe nahIM ! rAta-divasa eka viSayanA ja niraMtara pratikramaNa karyA karavA paDe, ane te ya draSTi bagaDyA pahelAM pratikramaNa karI nAkhavAM paDe. aNahakkatA viSayathI strIpaNuM to chUTe ! praznakartA : vacamAM je pelI vAta thayelI. puruSe uttejana ApyuM che,

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya samajathI prApta brahmacarya kapaTa karavA mATe, to emAM puruSa mukhya kAraNarUpa che. amAro je jIvanavyavahAra ane emanuM je kapaTa, emanI je gAMTha, emAM jo huM kaMI javAbadAra houM to e mATe vidhi karI Apajo ke huM emane choDI zakuM. dAdAzrI : hA, vidhi karI ApIzuM. emane kapaTa vadhyuM, te ene mATe ApaNe puruSo risponsibala chIe. e ghaNAM puruSone A javAbadArInuM bhAna bahu ochuM hoya che. e jo badhI rIte mArI AjJA pALato hoya to paNa strIne bhogavavA mATe puruSa strIne zuM samajAve ? strIne kaheze ke have AmAM kazo vAMdho nathI. eTale strI bicArI bhUla-thApa khaI jAya. ene davA nA pIvI hoya.... ane nA ja pIvAnI hoya. chatAM prakRti pIvAvALI kharI ne ! prakRti te ghaDIe khuza thaI jAya. paNa e uttejana koNe ApyuM ? to ApaNe enAM javAbadAra. jema ajJAnI mANasa hoya ne te sIdho raheto nA hoya koInI joDe. koI strIo hoMziyAra thayelI hoya bicArI. ene pelo mANasa zuM kahe ? tuM to bahu ja akkalavALI chuM. khUba enAM vakhANa kare che. eTale enI IcchA nA hoya to ya e puruSa joInTa thaI jAya. have mANaso strIne potAnuM gamatuM che te bole, to e strI ene vaza thaI jAya. potAne gamatuM koI puruSa bole, badhI bAbatamAM kahe ne, 'karekTa, bahu sAruM.' ane eno dhaNI jarA vAMko hoya ane bIjo puruSa che to pachI AvuM mIThuM bole, to avaLuM thAya kharuM ? praznakartA: thAya, dAdA. dAdAzrI : A badhI strIo enA lIdhe ja slipa thayelI. koI mIThuM lagADe ke tyAM thaI jAya. A bahu jhINI vAta che. samajAya evuM nathI. tamane bIjo eka dAkhalo ApuM. ApaNe ghara chokarA hoya, te avaLuM kare tyAre vaDhIe, mArIe. e risAIne jato raheto hoya. evuM pAMca-sAtadasa vakhata ghaDAyuM hoya, to thoDuM kaMTALe to kharo ne ? praznakartA: hA, kaMTALe. dAdAzrI : mA-bApane kAma letAM nA AvaDe eTale. AjanA badhA chokarA pAse mA-bApane kAma letAM ya nathI AvaDatuM. e chokaro kaMTALI jAya ne ! have paDozI zuM kahe ? e ya bAbA, Aya bA. te Ave. alyA, lAvo mahIMthI jarA, pelo nAsto lAvo. eTale pachI bhaIne pachI je kahe e karI Ape ke nahIM ene ? praznakartA : karI Ape ane mA-bApo mATe dhRNA utpanna thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : ane AnAM upara ? praznakartA : enA mATe prema utpanna thAya. e kahe e badhuM karavA taiyAra thAya. dAdAzrI : evI rIte strIne potAnA dhaNIthI dhRNA utpanna thAya eTale pachI. kAraNa ke ene viSaya game che ane pelo puruSa che te sAruM bolavA mAMDyo. eTale e rUpALo dekhAto jAya. ene enkareja kare. enuM kAma kADhI levA mATe enkareja kare Ane ane e jANe ke ohoho.... mAre akkala nathI, chatAM ATalI badhI akkala thaI gaI A, ema kahe che. eTale lapaTAyA kare. koIne samajAya evI vAta che A ? praznakartA : samajAya che. satI thaye, mokSa pAko ! dAdAzrI : game tevuM bane, dhaNI nA hoya, dhaNI jato rahelo hoya, to ya paNa bIjA pAse jAya nahIM. e jo game tevo hoya, khuda bhagavAna puruSa thaIne Avyo hoya, paNa nA. 'mane mAro dhaNI che, dhaNIvALI chuM.' e satI kahevAya. atyAre satIpaNuM kahevAya, evuM che A lokonuM? kAyama nathI evuM, nahIM ? jamAno judI jAtano che ne ! satyugamAM evo TAIma praznakartA : samajAya, dAdA. dAdAzrI : have puruSa to peluM svArtha kADhavA mATe kare che ane pelIne roga pesI jAya, kAyamano. ane puruSa to svArthI nIkaLe, eTale cAlyuM. e tAMbAno loTo nIkaLyo A. dhoI nAkhyo eTale sApha paNa pelIne caDhyo kATa. eno kapaTano svabhAva baMdhAI jAya. ene InTaresTa Ave eTale pachI strIno svabhAva baMdhAI jAya.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 69 ko'ka phero Ave che, satIone mATe ja. tethI satIonuM nAma le chene ApaNAM loka !! praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : e satI thavAnI IcchAthI. enuM nAma lIdhuM hoya to ko'ka dahADo satI thAya ane viSaya to baMgaDIonA bhAvathI vecAya che. evuM tame jANo ? e samajyA nahIM mAruM kahevAnuM ? praznakartA : hA, baMgaDIonA bhAvathI vecAya che. dAdAzrI : kayA bajAramAM ? kolejomAM ! kayA bhAvathI vecAya che ? sonAnA bhAve baMgaDIo vecAya. pelI hIrAnA bhAve baMgaDIo vecAya ! badhe evo maLI Ave nahIM. badhe evuM nathI. keTalIka to sonuM Ape to ya nA le. game tevuM Apo to ya nA le ! paNa bIjI to vecAya kharI, AjanI strIo. sonAnA bhAve nA hoya to bIjAnA bhAve paNa vecAya ! ane mAMsAhAra kyAreya nA karato hoya. paNa be-traNa dahADAno bhUkhyo hoya, to marI javA taiyAra thAya ke mAMsAhAra kare ? mAMsAhAra kare ja nahIM, game tevuM thAya, ane bole ya kharo, marI jaIza paNa karuM nahIM, koI dahADo nA karuM. bhUkhe marI javAya to bhale. paNa ene be-traNa dahADA thAya ne bhUkhamAM marI javAya evuM lAge to ? koI dekhADe to ? praznakartA : to karI nAkhe kadAca, jIvavA mATe. dAdAzrI : karI ja nAkhe. ane tyAM nA kare, e satI kahevAya. moDhe bole to evuM ja hoya ene, marI javAya to ya nA karuM. eTale A viSayane laIne strI thayo che. phakta ekalAM ja viSayathI ja ane puruSa bhogavI levA mATe ene enkareja karI ane bicArIne bagADI. barakata nA hoya to ya enAmAM barakata hoyane evuM manamAM mAnI le. tyAre kaheze, zAthI mAnI lIdhuM ? zI rIte mAne ? puruSoe kahe kahe karyuM ja. eTale e jANe ke A kahe che, emAM khoTuM zuM che ?" enAM meLe mAnI lIdheluM nA hoya. tame kahyuM hoya, 'tuM bahu sarasa che. tArA jevI to strI hotI ja nathI.' ene kahIe ke 'tuM rUpALI chuM.' to e rUpALI mAnI samajathI prApta brahmacarya le. A puruSoe strIone strI tarIke rAkhI. ane strI manamAM jANe ke huM puruSone banAvuM chuM. mUrkha banAvuM chuM. Ama karIne puruSo bhogavIne chUTA thaI jAya che. enI joDe bhogavI le, jANe ke A raste bhaTakavuM hoya.... bahu samajAtuM nahIM ne ?! thoDuM thoDuM ? de praznakartA : samajAya che, kamplITa. pahelAM puruSono kaMI vAMka nathI evI rIte satsaMgo cAlatA hatA. paNa Aje vAta nIkaLI tyAre lAgyuM ke puruSa paNa A rIte javAbadAra bahu moTo banI jAya che. dAdAzrI : puruSa ja javAbadAra che. strIne strI tarIke rAkhavAmAM puruSa ja javAbadAra che. praznakartA : hA. eTale evuM nathI ke strI je che e lAMbA janma sudhI strInA avatAramAM raheze evuM nakkI nathI. paNa e lokone khabara paDatI nathI eTale eno upAya thato nathI. dAdAzrI : upAya thAya to strI, puruSa ja che. e gAMThane jANatA ja nathI bicArA. ane tyAM AgaLa InTaresTa Ave che. tyAM majA Ave che eTale paDI rahe che ane koI rasto AvuM jANe nahIM, eTale dekhADe nahIM. e phakta satI strIo ekalI jANe, satIone enAM dhaNI, e eka dhaNI sivAya bIjA koIno vicAra ja nA kare ane e kyAreya paNa nahIM, eno dhaNI tarata opha thaI jAya, jato rahe to ya nahIM. e ja dhaNIne dhaNI jANe. have e strIonuM badhuM kapaTa ogaLI jAya. konuM kapaTa ogaLI jAya ? praznakartA : satI strIonuM. dAdAzrI : je strI bilakula satI tarIke kAma kare che, enAM badhA roga maTI jAya. praznakartA : atyAre ame tamArA jJAnathI ane amArA doSo Apane batAvIne, amArAthI paNa satI thavAya ne ? dAdAzrI : satI to pahelethI thayA nA hoya ane bagaDI gayA pachI e paNa satI thavAya. jyArathI nizcaya karyo tyArathI satI thaI zake.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 31 praznakartA : ane jema e satIpaNuM sAcavIe tema tema kapaTa ogaLatuM jaze ? dAdAzrI : satIpaNuM to karyuM eTale kapaTa to javA ja mAMDe enI meLe ja. tamAre kazuM kahevuM nA paDe. to pelI mULa satI e janmathI satI hoya eTale ene kazuM pahelAMno DAgha hoya nahIM. ane tamAre pahelAMnAM DAgha rahI jAya ane pharI pAchAM puruSa thAva. satIpaNAthI badhuM khalAsa thaI jAya. jeTalI satIo thayelI, enuM badhuM khalAsa thaI jAya ane e mokSe jAya. samajAya che thoDuM ? mokSe jatAM satI thavuM paDaze. hA, jeTalI satIo thaI e mokSe gaI, nahIM to puruSa thavuM paDe. sarvakALe zaMkA jokhamI ja ! A choDIo bahAra jatI hoya, bhaNavA jatI hoya to ya Ama zaMkA. 'vAIpha' upare ya zaMkA. evo badho dago ! gharamAM ya dago ja che ne, atyAre ! A kaLiyugamAM potAnA gharamAM ja dago hoya. kaLiyuga eTale dagAno kALa. kapaTa ne dago, kapaTa ne dago, kapaTa ne dago ! emAM zuM sukhane mATe kare che ? te ya bhAna vagara bebhAnapaNe ! buddhizALI mANasane dago ne kapaTa nA hoya. nirmaLa buddhivALAne tyAM kapaTa ne dago nA hoya. A to 'phUliza' mANasane tyAM atyAre dago ne kapaTa hoya. kaLiyuga eTale 'phUliza' ja bhegAM thayAM che ne ! praznakartA : paNa A je dago ne kapaTa thAya, emAM paNa rAga ane dveSa kAma kare ne ? dAdAzrI : e rAga-dveSa hoya to ja A badhuM kAma thAya ne ! nahIM to rAga-dveSa nathI, tene to kazuM che ja nahIM ne ! rAga-dveSa nA hoya to je kare, e kapaTa kare to vAMdho nathI ne sAruM kare to ya vAMdho nathI. kAraNa ke e dhULamAM rame che kharo, paNa tela copaDeluM nathI ane pelo tela copaDIne dhULamAM rame che. praznakartA : paNa A dago ne kapaTa karavAmAM buddhino phALo kharo ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, sArI buddhi, e kapaTa ne dago kADhI nAkhe. buddhi samajathI prApta brahmacarya A kapaTa ne dago to ra 'sephasAIDa' nAkhe. eka to zaMkA mArI nAkhe, pachI hoya ja ane pAchAM potAnA sukhamAM ja dareka rAcatAM hoya. praznakartA : paNa potAnA sukhamAM rahevA mATe buddhinA upayogathI dago ne kapaTa ramI zake ne ? dAdAzrI : jyAM potAnI jAtanuM sukha khoLavuM tyAM sArI buddhi hoya ja nahIM ne ! sArI buddhi to sAmudAyika sukha khoLe ke AkhuM mAruM ghara sukhI thAya. paNa A to chokaro potAnuM sukha khoLato hoya, bairI potAnuM sukha khoLatI hoya, choDI potAnuM sukha khoLatI hoya, bApa potAnuM sukha khoLato hoya, dareka potapotAnAM sukha khoLe che. A to UghADuM kare ne, to gharanAM mANaso bhegAM rahe nahIM. paNa A to badhA ya bhegAM rahe che ne khAya che ne pIve che ! DhAMkeluM te ja sAruM. bAkI zaMkA rAkhavA jevI cIja ja nathI, koI prakAre. e zaMkA ja mANasane mArI nAkhe. A badhAM zaMkAne laIne marI ja rahyAM che ne ! eTale A duniyAmAM moTAmAM moTuM bhUta hoya to zaMkAnuM bhUta che. moTAmAM moTuM bhUta ! jagatamAM kaMIka lokone khaI gayelI, bharakhI gayelI ! mATe zaMkA UbhI ja nA thavA devI. zaMkA janmatAM ja mAravI. game tevI zaMkA UbhI thAya to janmatAM ja ene mAravI, eno velo vadhavA nA devo. nahIM to jaMpIne nahIM besavA de zaMkA, e koIne jaMpIne nA besavA de. zaMkAe to lokone mArI nAkhelA. moTA moTA rAjAone, cakravartIone paNa zaMkAe mArI nAkhelA. lokoe kahyuM hoya 'A nAlAyaka mANasa che.' to ya ApaNe ene lAyaka kahevo. kAraNa ke vakhate nAlAyaka nA paNa hoya. ne ene nAlAyaka kahezo to bahu doSa besaze. satI hoya ne jo vezyA kahevAI gaI to bhayaMkara guno, tenuM keTalAMya avatAra sudhI bhogavyA karavuM paDaze. mATe koInA ya cAritra-saMbaMdhamAM bolazo nahIM. kAraNa ke e khoTuM nIkaLe to ? lokanA kahevAthI ApaNe ya kahevA lAgIe to emAM ApaNI zI kiMmata rahI ? ame to evuM koI dahADo ya koInuM ya bolIe nahIM, ne koIne ya bolyo nathI. huM to hAtha ja nA ghAluM ne ! e javAbadArI koNa le ?

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya koInAM cAritrya-saMbaMdhI zaMkA nA karAya. bahu moTuM jokhama che. zaMkA to ame kyAreya lAvIe nahIM. jokhama ApaNe zuM karavA laIe ? aMdhArAmAM, AMkho kyAM sudhI tANavI ?! praznakartA : paNa zaMkAthI jovAnI mananI graMthi paDI gaI hoya to tyAM kayuM 'eDajasTamenTa' levuM? dAdAzrI : A tamane dekhAya che ke AnuM cAritra kharAba che, te zuM tevuM pUrve nahotuM ? A to ociMtuM kaMI utpanna thaI gayeluM che ? eTale samajI levA jevuM cheA jagata, ke A to Ama ja hoya. A kALamAM cAritryasaMbaMdhI koIne jovuM ja nahIM. A kALamAM to badhe evuM ja hoya. ughADuM nA hoya, paNa mana to bagaDe ja. emAM strIcAritrya to navuM kapaTa ane mohanuM ja saMgrahasthAna, tethI to strIno avatAra Ave. AmAM sahuthI sArAmAM sAruM che ke je viSayathI chUTyA hoya. praznakartA : A cAritryamAM to Ama ja hoya e jANIe. chatAM ya mana zaMkA dekhADe tyAre tanmayAkAra thaI javAya. tyAM kyuM "eDajasTamenTa' levuM ? dAdAzrI : AtmA thayA pachI bIjAmAM paDavuM ja nahIM. A badhuM 'phorena DIpArTamenTa'nuM che. ApaNe 'homa'mAM rahevuM. AtmAmAM rahone ! AvuM 'jJAna' pharI pharI maLe evuM nathI, mATe kAma kADhI lo. eka jaNane enI 'vAIpha' para zaMkA AvyA kare. tene meM kahyuM ke zaMkA zene lIdhe thAya che ? meM joyuM, tene lIdhe zaMkA thAya che ? zuM nahotuM joyuM tyAre nahotuM banatuM AvuM ? ApaNAM loka to pakaDAya, tene cora kahe. paNa pakaDAyo nathI, te badhA mahIMthI cora ja che. paNa A to pakaDAyo, tene cora kahe che. alyA, ene zuM karavA cora kahe che ? e to suMvALo hato. ochI corI karI che tethI pakaDAyo. vadhAre corI karanArAM pakaDAtAM haze ? praznakartA : paNa pakaDAya tyAre cora kahevAya ne? dAdAzrI : nA. ochI corIo kare, te pakaDAya. ane pakaDAya eTale samajathI prApta brahmacarya loka, ene cora kahe. alyA, cora to A nathI pakaDAtA, te che. paNa jagata to AvuM ja che. eTale e bhAI mAruM vijJAna ApyuM samajI gayo. pachI e mane kahe che ke, "mArI vAIpha upara have bIjA koIno hAtha phare, to ya huM bhaDakuM nahIM.' hA, AvuM joIe. mokSe javuM hoya to Ama che. nahIM to laDhavADa karyA karo tamArI meLe. tamArI 'vAIpha' ke tamArI strI, A duSamakALamAM tamArI thAya nahIM ane evI khoTI AzA rAkhavI ya phogaTa che. A duSamakALa che, eTale A duSamakALamAM to jeTalAM dahADA ApaNane roTalA khavaDAve che eTalA dahADA ApaNI ane nahIM to bIjAne khavaDAve to enI. eTale badhA 'mahAtmA'one kahI dIdheluM ke zaMkA nA rAkhazo. nahIM to ya mAruM kahevAnuM, ke joyuM nA hoya tyAM sudhI tene satya mAno cho ja zA mATe, A kaLiyugamAM ? A che ja polamapola ! je meM joyuM che, tenuM tamane varNana karuM to badhAM mANasa jIvatAM ja nA rahe, to have evAM kALamAM ekalA paDI rahevuM mastImAM ane AvuM "jJAna" joDe hoya, enAM jevuM to ekuMya nahIM. mATe kAma kADhI levA jevuM che atyAre. tethI ame kahIe chIe ne, ke kAma kADhI lo, kAma kADhI lo ! e kahevAno bhAvArtha eTalo ja che ke AvuM koI kALe AvatuM nathI ane AvyuM che, to mAthuM melIne kAma kADhI lo !! eTale tamane samajAyuM ne? ke nA joyuM to kazuM thAta nahIM. A to dekhyAnuM jhera che ! praznakartA : hA, dekhAyuM eTale ja evuM thAya che. dAdAzrI : A badhuM jagata aMdhArAmAM polampola ja cAlI rahyuM che. amane A badhuM 'jJAna'mAM dekhAyuM. ane tamane jovAmAM nA AvyuM eTale tame juo ane bhaDako ! alyA, bhaDako cho zuM ? badhuM AmAM A to Ama ja cAlI rahyuM che, paNa tamane dekhAtuM nathI. AmAM bhaDakavA jevuM che.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 75 ja zuM? tame AtmA cho, to bhaDakavA jevuM kyAM rahyuM ? A to badhuM je 'cArja thaI gayeluM, tenuM ja 'DiscArja' che ! jagata cokhkhuM 'DiscArja'maya che. 'DiscArjanI bahAra A jagata nathI. eTale ame kahIe chIe ne, 'DiscArja'maya che eTale koI gunegAra nathI. praznakartA : eTale emAM ya karmano siddhAMta kAma kare ne ? dAdAzrI : hA. karmano siddhAMta ja kAma karI rahyo che, bIjuM kazuM nahIM. mANasano doSa nathI, A karma ja bhamAve che bicArAne. paNa emAM zaMkA rAkhe ne, to pelo marI jAya vagara kAmano. mokSe janArAone ! dehAdhyAsa chUTe to jANavuM ke mokSe javAnI taiyArI thaI. dehAdhyAsa eTale dehamAM Atmabuddhi ! e badhuM dehAdhyAsa kahevAya. koI gALa bhAMDe, mAre, ApaNI 'vAIpha'ne ApaNI rUbarU uThAvI jAya to ya mahIM rAgavaiSa nA thAya to jANavuM ke vItarAgano mArga pakaDAyo che ! loka to pachI potAnI nabaLAIne laIne uThAvI javA de che ne ! pelo jabaro hoya to 'vAIphane uThAvI javA de che ne ?! eTale A kazuM potAnuM che ja nahIM. A badhuM ja pArakuM che. mATe vyavahAramAM rahevuM hoya to vyavahAramAM majabUta thA ne mokSe javuM hoya to mokSane lAyaka thA ! jyAM A deha paNa potAno nathI, tyAM strI potAnI zI rIte thAya ? choDI potAnI zI rIte thAya ? eTale tamAre to badhI jAtanuM vicArI nAkhavuM joIe, ke strI uThAvI jAya to zuM karavuM ?! je banavAnuM che temAM pheraphAra thAya evuM nathI, evuM 'vyavasthita' che. mATe bhaDakazo nahIM. eTale ema kahyuM che ke 'vyavasthita" che nA jovAmAM Ave tyAre kaheze, 'mArI vahu' ane joyuM eTale phaphaDATa ! alyA, pahelethI hatuM ja AvuM. AmAM navuM khoLazo ja nahIM. praznakartA : paNa 'dAdA'e bahu DhIluM mUkI dIdhuM. dAdAzrI : mAruM kahevAnuM ke duSamakALamAM ApaNe khoTI AzA samajathI prApta brahmacarya rAkhIe, eno artha ja nathI ne ! ane A sarakAre paNa 'DAyavorsa'no kAyado kADhI Apyo. sarakAra pahelethI jANe ke AvuM thavAnuM che. mATe kAyado pahelo nIkaLe. eTale haMmezAM davAno choDavo pahelo pAke, tyAra pachI roga utpanna thAya. evI rIte A kAyado pahelo nIkaLe, tyAra pachI ahIM lokonA evAM banAva bane ! cAci saMbaMdhI "sephasAIDa' ! mATe jene bairInA cAritrya saMbaMdhI zAMti joItI hoya, to teNe raMge ekadama kALI chUMdaNAvALI bairI lAvavI ke jethI jenuM koI gharAka ja nA thAya, koI ene saMghare ja nahIM. ane e ja ema kahe ke, "mane koI saMgharanArA nathI. A eka dhaNI maLyA e ja saMghare che." eTale e tamane 'sinsIyara' rahe, bahu 'sinsIyara' rahe. bAkI, rUpALI hoya tene to loka bhogave ja. rUpALI hoya eTale lokonI draSTi bagaDavAnI ja ! koI rUpALI vahu lAve to amane e ja vicAra Ave ke AnI zI dazA thaze ! kALI chUMdaNAvALI hoya to ja 'sephasAIDa' rahe. vahu bahu rUpALI hoya tyAre pelo bhagavAna bhUle ne ?! ane dhaNI bahu rUpALo hoya to e baI ye bhagavAna bhUle ! mATe rItasara badhuM sAruM. ApaNA gheDiyA to evuM kahetA ke "khetara rAkhavuM copATa ane bairuM rAkhavuM kobADa.' AvuM zAnA mATe kahetAM ke jo vahu bahu rUpALI haze to ko'ka najara bagADaze. enAM karatAM A vahu jarA kadarUpI sArI, jethI koI najara bagADe nahIM ne ! A vaiDiyA bIjI rIte kahetA hatA, e dharmanI rIte nahotA kahetA. huM dharmanI rIte kahevA mAguM chuM. vahu kadarUpI hoya to ApaNane koI bho ja nahIM ne ! gherathI bahAra nIkaLyA to ya koI najara bagADe ja nahIM ne ! ApaNA daiDiyAM to bahu pAkA hatAM. paNa huM je kahevA mAguM chuM, te evuM nathI. e juduM che. e kadarUpI hoya ne, te ApaNA manane bahu herAna nA kare, bhUta thaIne vaLage nahIM. kevI dagAkhorI A !! A loka to kevAM che ? ke jyAM 'hoTala' dekhe, tyAM "jame.' mATe

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78 samajathI prApta brahmacarya ApaNe ema ja samajI levAnuM ke ene huM paiNelo chuM ane e mArI bhADUtI che ! basa, ATaluM manamAM samajI rAkhavAnuM. pachI to bIjAM game tenI joDe pharatI hoya to ya ApaNe zaMkA nA karavI. ApaNe kAma sAthe kAma che ne ? ApaNane saMDAsanI jarUra hoya to saMDAsa jaI AvavuM ! gayA vagara cAle nahIM, enuM nAma saMDAsa. tethI to jJAnIo cokhkhuM kahe che ne, ke saMsAra e dago che. praznakartA : dago nathI lAgato, e zA kAraNe ? dAdAzrI : mohane laIne ! ane koI kahenAra paNa maLyo nathI ne ! paNa lAla vAvaTo dhare to gADI UbhI rahe, nahIM to gADI jaIne nIce paDe. zaMkAtI parAkASThAe samAdhAta ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya zaMkA rAkhavA jevuM jagata nathI. zaMkA ja duHkhadAyI che. have jyAM hoTala dekhe tyAM jame, emAM puruSe ya evuM kare che ne strI paNa evuM kare che. pAchuM sAme puruSane evuM nathI ke mArI strI zuM karatI haze ? e to ema ja jANe ke mArI strI to sArI che. paNa enI strI to ene pATho bhaNAvatI hoya ! puruSo paNa strIne pATha bhaNAve ane strIo paNa puruSone pATho bhaNAve !! to paNa strIo jIte che. kema ke A puruSone kapaTa nahIM ne ! tethI puruSo strIothI chetarAI jAya !! eTale jayAM sudhI 'sinsIyAriTI-morAliTI' che, tyAM sudhI saMsAra bhogavavA jevo hato. atyAre to bhayaMkara dagAkhorI che. A darekane enI 'vAIpha'nI vAta kahI dauM, to koI potAnI 'vAIpha' pAse jAya nahIM. huM badhAnuM jANuM, paNa kazuM ya kahuM-karuM nahIM. jo ke puruSe ya dagAkhorImAM kaMI ocho nathI. paNa strI to naryuM kapaTanuM ja kArakhAnuM ! kapaTanuM saMgrahasthAna, bIje kyAMya nA hoya, eka strImAM ja hoya. A saMDAsa hoya che, temAM sahu koI loko jAya ne ? ke eka ja mANasa jAya ? praznakartA : badhAM ja jAya. dAdAzrI : to badhAM jemAM jAya, e saMDAsa kahevAya che. eTale jyAM AgaLa bahu loka jAya ne, enuM nAma saMDAsa ! jyAM sudhI eka patnIvrata ane eka pativrata hoya, tyAM sudhI e UMcAmAM UMcI vastu kahevAya. tyAM sudhI cAritra kahevAya, nahIM to pachI saMDAsa kahevAya. tamAre tyAM saMDAsamAM keTalo mANasa jatAM haze ? praznakartA : gharanAM badhAM ja jAya. dAdAzrI : eka ja jaNa nA jAya ne ? eTale pachI be jAya ke badhAM ja jAya, paNa e saMDAsa kahevAya. A to hoTala AvI tyAM jame. are, khAya-pIve hauM ! mATe zaMkA kADhI nAkhajo. zaMkAthI to hAthamAM Avelo mokSa paNa jato rahe. eTale eTale zaMkAthI ja jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. je jhADane sUkavavAnuM che. tene ja zaMkA karIne pANI chAMTe che, ne tenAthI vadhAre UbhuM thAya che. eTale koI jAtanI zaMkA karavA jevuM A jagata nathI. have tamane bIjI koI saMsAranI zaMkA paDe che ? tamArI 'vAIpha' bIjA koInI joDe bAMkaDe beThI hoya ane te cheTethI tamane jovAmAM Ave, to tamane zuM thAya ? praznakartA H have kazuM nA thAya. thoDI Ama 'iphekTa' thAya, pachI kazuM nA thAya. pachI to 'vyavasthita' che ane e RNAnubaMdha che, ema khyAla AvI jAya. dAdAzrI : kevA pAkAM che ! guNAkAra keTalo badho che ! ane zaMkA to nA thAya ne ? praznakartA : nA thAya. dAdAzrI : ane A loka to 'vAIpha' saheja moDI Ave to ya zaMkA karyA kare. zaMkA karavA jevI nathI. RNAnubaMdhanI bahAra kazuM ja thavAnuM nathI. e ghera Ave eTale ene samaja pADavI, paNa zaMkA karavI nahIM. zaMkA

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 79 to UlaTuM pANI vadhAre chAMTe. hA, cetavavuM kharuM. paNa zaMkA kazI rAkhavI nahIM. zaMkA rAkhanAra mokSa khoI bese che. eTale ApaNe jo chUTavuM hoya, mokSe javuM hoya to ApaNe zaMkA karavI nahIM. koI bIjo mANasa tamArI 'vAIpha'nA gaLe hAtha nAkhIne pharato hoya ne e tamArA jovAmAM AvyuM, to zuM ApaNe jhera khAvuM ! praznakartA : nA, evuM zuM karavA karuM ! dAdAzrI : to pachI zuM karavuM ? praznakartA : thoDuM nATaka karavuM paDe, pachI samajAvavuM. pachI to je kare te 'vyavasthita'. dAdAzrI : hA, barobara che. tamArI vAIpha' uparane, gharamAM koInI upare ya tamane zaMkA have bilakula thAya nahIM ne ?! kAraNa ke A badhI 'phAIlo' che. emAM zaMkA karavA jevuM zuM che ? je hisAba haze, je RNAnubaMdha haze, e pramANe phAIlo bhaTakaze ane ApaNe to mokSe javuM che !!

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[6] viSaya baMdha, tyAM DakhADakhI baMdha ! mukhamAM jJAta te vartatamAM kleSa ! praznakartA : meM ghaNAM sArA mahAtmAo joyA che, moTI moTI jJAnanI vAto kare che paNa emano sthULa kleza nathI jato. sUkSma kleza to vakhate hoya, e nA jAya, paNa sthULa kleza ApaNAMthI kema nA jAya ? dAdAzrI : evuM. A badhAnuM mULa che viSaya. ane A moTAmAM moTI phasAmaNa duniyAmAM hoya to viSaya ane emAM kazuM ya sukha nathI, baLyuM! sukhamAM kazuM ya nathI ane enA jhaghaDA pAra vagaranA UbhA thAya che ! DakhADakha zAthI gharamAM thAya che ? beu viSayI hoya, jAnavara jevA viSayI hoya, pachI Akho dahADo athaDAmaNa thayA kare. praznakartA : paNa mane e samajaNa paDatI nathI ke kleza ane viSayane meLa kemano khAto haze ? jhaghaDo ane viSaya, e bene meLa kemano khAya ? e mArA magajamAM nathI UtaratuM. mArajhUDa sudhIno kleza ane viSaya, e bene meLa khAya ? zuM mANasa tyAre AMdhaLo banI jato haze ? dAdAzrI : are, sAmasAmI mATe. samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : hA, paNa viSayanA paramANu UbhA thAya tyAre AMdhaLo banI jato haze ? ene mahIM yAda nahIM AvatuM hoya ke ApaNe mArAmArI karatA hatA ? 81 dAdAzrI : A mArAmArI kare ne, tyAre to viSayanI majhA Ave emane ! pAchuM svamAna jevuM kazuM nahIM. pelI Ane dhola mAre, tyAre A pelIne dhola mAre. pAcho dhaNI amane AvIne kahI jAya ke mane mArI bairI mAre che ! tyAre huM kahuM ya kharo ke haiM, tAre to AvI maLI ? to to tAruM kalyANa thaI jAya. (!) praznakartA : A badho DheDaphajeto sAMbhaLatAM ja Ama trAsa thaI jAya ke A loko kevI rIte jIvatAM haze ? dAdAzrI : chatAM ya jIve che ne ! duniyA teM joI ne !! ane nA jIve to zuM kare ? tyAre kaMI marI javAya che ? praznakartA : paNa ApaNane A badhuM joIne kaMpArI chUTI jAya. pAchuM ema thAya ke roja ne roja AvA ja jhaghaDA cAlyA kare, chatAM dhaNI-bairIne Ano ukela lAvavAnuM mana nA thAya, e ajAyabI che ne ? dAdAzrI : e to keTalAMya varSothI paiNyA tyArathI AvuM cAle che. paiNyA tyArathI eka bAju jhaghaDAM ya cAlu che ane eka bAju viSaye cAlu che ! tethI to ame kahyuM ke tame banne brahmacarya vrata laI lo, to uttama lAIpha thaI jAya. eTale A badhI vaDhavADa potAnI garajanA mAryA kare che. pelI jANe ke e chevaTe kyAM javAnA che ?! pelo ya jANe ke e kyAM javAnI che ? Ama sAmasAmI garajathI UbhuM rahyuM che. rAga-dveSatA mULamAM rahyo che viSaya ! praznakartA : Ape kahyuM ne ke rAga-dveSanuM mULa sthAna ja A che ? dAdAzrI : hA, jagatanuM badhAnuM mULa ahIMthI ja UbhuM thayuM che ! ne paiNyA pachI pelo mAre ane enAM mAratAM pahelAM pelI ya mAre ! eTale beu joradAra ne majabUta bane !!

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : badhAnI vacce Avo DheDaphajeto thAya, to gharanI bahAra ApaNAthI kevI rIte, zuM moM laIne nIkaLAya ? dAdAzrI : tyAre zuM kare ? gharamAM besI rahe ? pAchAM emanI buddhi tarata zuM zIkhavADe ke ghera ghera badhe evuM ja che ! kakaLATa zene lIdhe thAya che ? abrahmacaryathI. viSayano kaMTrola nahIM hovAthI kakaLATa che A badho. nahIM to strI-puruSone kakaLATa kevI rIte thAya ?! viSayanA kAbUvALAne kakaLATa hoya nahIM duniyAmAM, tamane lAge che evuM vicAratA ? viSayamAM sukha karatAM viSayathI paravazatAnA duHkha vizeSa che ! evuM jyAre samajAya tyAre pachI viSayano moha chUTe ane to ja strI jAti para prabhAva pADI zake ane e prabhAva tyAra pachI niraMtara pratApamAM pariName. nahIM to A jagatamAM moTA moTA mahAna puruSoe paNa strI jAtithI mAra khAdhelo. vItarAgo ja vAtane samajI gayelA ! eTale emanA pratApathI ja strIo dUra rahetI ! nahIM to strI jAti to evI che ke game te puruSane jotajotAmAM laTTa banAvI de, evI e zakti dharAve che. ene ja strI caritra kahyuM ne ! strIthI to cheTA ja rahevuM. ene koI paNa prakAranA ghATamAM nA levI, nahIM to tame pote ja enA ghATamAM AvI jazo. ane AnI A ja bhAMjagaDa keTalAMya avatArathI thaI che ne ! vadhAremAM vadhAre viSayI strI hoya. tenAthI napuMsaka bahu ja viSayI hoya ane puruSa to strIthI paNa ocho viSayI hoya. viSaya utpanna thayA pachI vahelo kaMTrolamAM karI zake e ocho viSayI kahevAya. puruSa vahelo kaMTrola karI zake che. strI kaMTrola karI zakatI nathI ! jeTalo viSathI vadhAre eTalI sthiratA vadhAre, jeTalo viSayI ocho eTalI sthiratA ochI. A badhA kudaratanA niyama che. zAstrakAroe to kahyuM che ke napuMsaka liMga hoya te dasa kalAka eka jagyAe sUI rahe to ya potAnA viSayanA bhAva vyakta na kare, strI paNa viSayanA bhAva vyakta nA kare ane puruSa to kalAkamAM ja bhAva vyakta karI de ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya 83 chatAM na Ave vairAgya !! A to vairAgya ja nathI Avato ! alyA, A viSaya priya che ke tane A gALo priya che ? mane to eka gALa koIe dIdhI hoya to pharI saMbaMdha ja enI joDe kaTa karI dauM, pachI bahArano saMbaMdha rAkhuM paNa AMtarika saMbaMdha kaTa ! kaMI gALo khAvA mATe A avatAra che ? tamAre gharamAM rojanI DakhADakha nA pasaMda hoya, to pachI enI joDe vikArI saMbaMdha ja baMdha karI devo. pAzavatA baMdha karI devI. viSaya to haDahaDatI pAzavatA che. mATe A pAzavatA baMdha karI devI. buddhizALI samajaNavALo hoya, tene vicAra nA Ave ? phoTo le to kevo dekhAya ? to ya zarama nA Ave ? meM AvuM kahyuM tyAre vicAra Ave, nahIM to Avo vicAra kyAMthI Ave ? ane jyAM sudhI tamAre vikAra saMbaMdha che, tyAM sudhI A DakhADakha rahevAnI ja. eTale ame tamArI DakhADakhamAM vacce paDIe ja nahIM. ame jANIe ke vikAra baMdha thaze, tyAre enI joDa Dakho baMdha thaI ja jAya. eka phero enI joDe vikAra baMdha karI dIdhone, pachI to A emane mAre to ya e kazuM nA bole. kAraNa ke e jANe ke have mArI dazA besI jaze ! mATe ApaNI bhUlathI A badhuM UbhuM che. ApaNI bhUle ja A badhAM duHkho che. vItarAgo kevA DAhyA ! bhagavAna mahAvIra to trIsa varSe chuTAM thaI ne he...ya... mastImAM pharatA hatA ! eka bebIne mUkIne ThaMDyA ! enI joDe viSaya baMdha karyA sivAya bIjo upAya ja nathI. A duniyAmAM koIne A sivAya bIjo upAya jaDyo ja nathI. kAraNa ke A jagatamAM rAga-dveSanuM mULa kAraNa ja A che, maulika kAraNa ja A che. ahIMthI ja badho rAga-dveSa Ubho thayo. saMsAra badho ahIMthI ja Ubho thayo che. eTale saMsAra baMdha karavo hoya to ahIMthI ja baMdha karI devo paDe. pachI kerIo khAva, phAve e khAvane ! bAra rUpiye DajhanavALI kerIo khAvane, koI pUchanAra nathI. kAraNa ke kerIo sAmo dAvo nahIM mAMDe. tame ene nA khAvane, to e kaMI kakaLATa nahIM kare ane A saMbaMdhamAM to tame kahezo ke "mAre nathI joItuM.' tyAre e kaheze ke, "nA, mAre to joIe ja che.' e kaheze ke, "mAre sinemA jovA javuM che... tyAre tame na jAva to kakaLATa !!

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 85 samajathI prApta brahmacarya AvI ja banyuM jANe ! kAraNa ke sAmo mizracetana che ane e karArI che, eTale dAvo mAMDe ! praznakartA : e karAra phADI nAkhavo ? dAdAzrI : e karAra phADI nAkho, to pachI kazuM du:kha rahetuM ja nathI ! patnI to, kyAre vaza thAya ? vAIpha dhaNInI bhakti kare to manuSyapaNuM maLe vAIphane ane puruSa jo vAIphanI bhakti kare to pAzavatA maLe. cAra paga ne pUchaDuM vadhArAnuM. kUdAkUda kara ne tArI meLe, koI pUchanAra ja nathI pachI. A to badhuM dhULadhANI thaI gayuM, tethI A kALanA lagabhaga paMcyAsI TakA manuSyo to jAnavaramAM ja javAnA che bicArAM ! huM khulle khulluM kahuM chuM ! eTale A viSayanuM mULiyuM kApI nAkhyuM ke pachI jhADa-chADa badhuM enI meLe sUkAI jAya. bAkI Avo DheDaphajeto koNa kare te ? eTale amArI pAse beu jaNe brahmacaryavrata levAnuM. to bhAMjagaDa ja maTI jAyane ! tamAre vrata levAnI garaja che ke nathI ? emane paNa garaja che ? to tamAre ? eTale bannee ja brahmacaryavrata laI levAnuM, eTale kAyamanI bhAMjagaDa ja maTI gaI. pachI e zuM Dakho kare ? eka akSare ya Dakho ja nA karene ?! strIo dhaNIne dabaDAve che, enuM zuM kAraNa ? puruSa bahu viSayI hoya, eTale dabaDAve. A strIo jamavAnuM jamADe che tethI dabaDAvatI nathI, viSayathI dabaDAve che ! jo puruSa viSayI nA hoya to koI strI dabaDAve ja nahIM ! nabaLAIno ja lAbha le, paNa jo nabaLAI nA hoya to strI kazuM nAma ja nA de. strI jAti bahu kapaTavALI che ane ApaNe bhoLA ! eTale ApaNe be-be, cAra-cAra mahinAno kaMTrola rAkhavo paDe, to pachI e enI meLe thAkI jAya. te ene pachI kaMTrola rahe nahIM. - strI jAti vaza kyAre thAya ? ApaNe viSayamAM bahu sensiTiva hoIe to, e ApaNane vaza karI nAkhe ! paNa ApaNe viSayI hoIe paNa emAM sensiTiva nA thaIe to e vaza thAya ! jo e 'jamavA' bolAve to tame kaho ke hamaNAM nahIM, be-traNa divasa pachI, to e tamArA vaza rahe ! nahIM to tame vaza thAo ! A vAta huM paMdara varSe samajI gayo hato. keTalAMka to viSayanI bhIkha mAge ke "Ajano divasa ' alyA, viSayanI bhIkha maMgAya ? pachI tArI zI dazA thAya ? strI zuM kare ? caDhI bese ! sinemA jovA jAo to kaheze, 'chokaruM UMcakI lo.' ApaNAM mahAtmAone viSaya hoya, paNa viSayanI bhIkha nA hoya !! viSaya ane viSayanI bhIkha, e be vastu judI che ! jayAM mAna, kIrti, viSayonI bhIkha nA hoya, tyAM bhagavAna hoya ! viSayamAM bahu senTimenTala nA hoya to chUTI javAya. viSayanI bhIkha nA mAMgavI. keTalAMka to viSayanI bhIkha mAMge. are, page hala lAge ! keTalAMka to mane evuM hau kahI gayelA ke, 'mArI strI to viSayane mATe nA pADe, to have huM zuM karuM ?" meM kahyuM ke, 'bA kaheje, eTale hA pADaze." maracakkara, tane zarama nathI AvatI ?! nA Ape to zuM tene bA kahevI ? to mela pULo, mAre joItuM ya nathI, kahIe. A to pote mAgaNIo karyA kare pachI strI dabaDAvyA ja kare ne ? ane e nA pADe che, te to sAruM UlaTuM ! 'bhaluM thayuM bhAMgI jaMjALa', eka vakhata eNe nA pADI eTale ApaNe phAvyA. pachI e mAgaNI kare, to eno 'dAvo' ja nA sAMbhaLIe. pharI kahIe, 'teM nA pADI eTale meM baMdha karI dIdhuM, tALuM ja vAsI dIdhuM. ne tALAne cAvI mArI dIdhI.' paNa mUo DhIlo hoya che eTale zuM thAya ? atyAre to mane keTalAMya kahI jAya che ApaNA mahAtmAo, ke 'mane kAlAMvAlAM karAvaDAve.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'mUA, tAro vakkara jato rahyo, zuM karAvaDAve tyAre ? samaja ne haju, haju yogI thaI jA ne !" have Ane kyAM pahoMcI vaLAya ? A duniyAne kaMI pahoMcI vaLAya ?! eka strI enA dhaNIne cAra vakhata sASTAMga karAvaDAve che, tyAre eka vakhata aDavA de che. tyAre mUo, enA karatAM A samAdhi leto hoya to zuM khoTuM ?! dariyAmAM samAdhi le, to sIdho dariyo to kharo, bhAMjagaDa to nahIM ! A hAruM, cAra vakhata sASTAMga ! eka mANasa to mane phariyAda karavA Avyo muMbaImAM, ane kahe

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : paNa saMyama kevI rIte rAkhavo ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe ko'kane ghera gayA hoya ane bahu bhUkhyA hoya, tame kaho ke, bhAI sAheba, Apo jamavAnuM ! paNa e kaheze, ahIM tamane jamavAnuM nahIM maLe. to tame zuM karo ? e je thavAnuM haze, e thaze paNa atyAre cAlyA jAva ne ? vaTavALA hoya ne ! sAva kaMI vaTa vagaranA kUtarA jevA cho kaMI ?! pachI jamavA mATe Ubho hoya pachI ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya che ke pAMca vakhata phAIla na. bene page lAgyo tyAre mAro saMtoSa thayelo. mUA, enA karatAM. A kaI jAtano mANasa, jAnavara chuM ke zuM mUA ! zuM joIne mane kahevA Avyo tuM ! viSayanI bhIkha maMgAtI haze ? tamane kema lAge che ? alyA mUA, pAMca vakhata ! have mane sIdhuM DirekTa kahevA Avyo to mAre vaDhavuM paDyuM. pachI mane kahe che, have rasto dekhADo. tyAre meM kahyuM, have A chUTI jAya te pachI rasto dekhADAya ! dhIme dhIme e sIdhuM thaI gayuM. UMdhuM cAle tyAra pachI zuM thAya ? viSayatA bhikhArI, juo saMyamI vIra te ! mane evuM kahI gayo ke mAre viSayanI bhIkha mAMgavI paDe che. alyA, mUA viSayonI bhIkha mAgo cho ! kaMI jAtanA cho ? jAnavara karatAM ya bhUMDA cho ! viSayanI bhIkha maMgAtI haze ?! khAvAnI bhIkha nA maMgAya, bhukhyA thayA ho to kaI bhIkha maMgAtI haze ! kaI zuravIrapaNuM joIe ke nA joIe ?! have ATaluM badhuM asaMyamapaNe kema poSAya te ?! tame nA samajyA meM vAta karI te ? praznakatA : nA. dAdAzrI : hai, te evuM A badhuM kaI vaTa to hoya ke nA hoya baLyo ! svamAna phrekacara thavA devuM ke viSaya phrekacara thavA devuM? kayuM phrekacara thavA devu joIe ? game tevo viSaya hoya te paNa svamAnane phrekacara kare, te kAmano zuM che ? badhe evuM thaI gayuM che, tamArA upara nahIM, badhe AnuM Aja thaI gayuM che. UMgha Ave mANasane sArI rIte, pote potAnuM svataMtra jIvana hoya, jIvana potAnA kaMTrolamAM hoya. je saMyamI puruSo che ne, slIpIMga rUma judI hoya. haM.. judI, pahelethI judI rAkhatA, nahIM to pachI manobaLa lapaTuM paDI jAya. pachI pelAne apamAna-svamAnanuM ThekANuM rahe nahIM. zAstrakAroe to eTale sudhI kahyuM che ke jo tamAre saMyama sAcavavo hoya to A puruSa beTho hoya te jagyAe strIe besavuM paNa nahIM. ane strI beThI hoya tyAre puruSe besavuM nahIM. kaMIka niyama to khoLI kADhavo paDaze ne ! jIvana jIvavAnI kaLA to joIe ke nA joIe ! praznakartA : hA samajI gayo. praznakartA : joIe. dAdAzrI : Ama je je hala kare mAMgatI vakhate. baLyuM, tArI mAMga ! pAcho dhaNI kahe che huM dhaNI thauM ! alyA muA, Avo dhaNI hoto haze ? ayukta lAgatuM nathI tamane ? A yukta vastu che ? zobhe mANasane ? eTale thoDuM ghaNuM saMyama hovo joIe, badhuM hovuM joIe. mANase saMyamI rahevuM ja joIe. saMyamathI to mANasanI zobhA che. saMyamanA mATe zAstrakAroe nAnAmAM nAno saMyama e kahyo, ke mahinAmAM dasa dahADA sudhI ene leTa go kare. ane moTo saMyama e kahyo ke mahinAmAM cAra ja vakhata jAya. eno kaMIka niyama to hovo joIe ke nA hovo joIe ? A mahinAmAM keTalA dahADA rajA maLe che ? praznakartA : ATha divasa. dAdAzrI : hAM, te evuM kaMIka niyama hoya ke nahIM ?! dAdAzrI : keTalI sarasa nokarI karo cho, keTaluM sarasa bhaNyA cho, zuM bAkI rahI jAya che ? nathI corI karatA, nathI luccAI karatA, nathI kALA bajAra karatA to ya paNa mahIM zAMti nahIM ne, jIvana jIvana nahIM ne ! praznakartA : zAMti nathI, rAITa ! dAdAzrI : e jIvana jIvavA mATe nathI. e tamane ahIM badhuM batADI daIzuM. A vakhate tamAruM kamplITa pUrepUruM so TakA pUruM karavuM che ne !

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya to svamAna rAkhavuM joIe ke nA rAkhavuM joIe ? sasarAne tyAM mila hoya kApaDanI ane ApaNane joba chUTI gaI hoya, tyAre zuM sasarAne tyAM jaIne Ama Ama karIne besI rahevuM ? e kazuM bole nahIM ne tame mAMgaNI karo kharA ke mane joba Apo ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : jANe che to ya bolato nathI sasaro. mela pULo tyAre, huM to mAre ghera jauM chuM. kaMIka to svamAna hoya ke nA hoya, baLyuM ! kyAM sudhI Ama jAnavaranuM jIvana jIvavuM !! 88 eka phero tamane ghasI nAkhe eTale thaI rahyuM, khalAsa thaI gayuM. ghasI nAkhe to tyAM sudhI nahIM javuM. e zenAthI ghasI nAkhe che ? viSayonI lAlacane laIne. tyAre e to bahu yogI jevuM rahevuM joIe. viSaya eTale zuM ? ke thALI e paNa viSaya. jamaNa AvyuM, have e mUkyuM ApaNe ane A gaI kAle Akho dahADo upavAsa karyo'to, ne atyAre jamavAnuM agiyAra vAge mUkyuM ane sarasa kerI ne badhuM ya hoya pachI tarata laI le. have jamyA ya nahIM ne tyAra pahelAM to uThAvI le. to te ghaDIe mahIM pariNAma nA badalAya tyAre jANavuM ke ApaNane A viSayano vAMdho nathI. viSaya yAcakapaNuM nA thavuM joIe. lAcArI nA hovI joIe. e zabda samajAya evo che ? A bAunDrI tamane batAvuM. koI paNa vastumAM yAcakapaNuM nA joIe. nahIM maLe to kaheze, jalebI lAvo ne thoDIka, jalebI lAvo. melane mUA, anaMta avatAra jalebIo khAdhI to ya haju yAcakapaNuM rAkho cho ? jene lAlasA hoyane tene yAcakapaNuM thAya. yAcakapaNuM e lAcArI che, eka jAtanI ! A to viSayanI bhIkha mAMge che eTale e badhA jAnavara karatAM ya bhUMDA ja kahevAya ne ! khAvAnI bhIkha maMgAya. paNa khAvAnI bhIkha mAMgatA nathI, traNa dahADA thAya to ya. evAM khAnadAna mANasa viSayanI bhIkha mAMge che. meM kahyuM, jANe amerikAmAM nahIM mAMgatA hoya ? to kahe che, e vAta ja javA do, ahIM badhuM bahu che, vadhAre pramANa che. samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : puruSone viSayanI bhIkha hoya ema strIone paNa viSayanI bhIkha hoya che ne ? te dAdAzrI : hA, eTaluM puruSane jo AvaDI jAya ne, to puruSa jItI jAya jagata. jIte nahIM to puruSa yujhalesa thaI jAya. puruSa, puruSa kyAM sudhI kahevAya ? strI enI pAse viSayanI bhIkha mAMge tyAM sudhI ! vadhu viSayI strI che. chatAM puruSa mUrkhA banI jAya che e ya ajAyabI che ne ! AvuM sAMbhaLyuM ya nathI. AmAM bhUla thaI che, te ya jANatA nathI. bhIkha mAMge che, te bhUla thaI che, te ya khabara nathI. praznakartA : evI bhUla to kadi khabara paDatI ja nathI mANasane. nahIM to bhUlanI to khabara paDe to pharIthI e kare nahIM. hA, dAdAzrI : paDatI ja nathI. bisTa, vAIlTa bisTa kahuM chuM huM to ! kSatriyaputra koNa ? ke AvI bhIkha mAMgavAno avasara Ave, te pahelAM to bilakula baMdha ja karI de, kare ja nahIM kAyamane mATe, paramenanTa baMdha. sTopa phora evara. kAraNa ke A dAnata che mATe e strI, strI ja nA gaNAya. ene strI kahevAya ja kema karIne ? e to mArkeTa maTiriyala kahevAya. hindustAnanI strIo, strI rUpe hovI joIe ! zuM jAnavarapaNuM AvyuM che ? juone, mAre ThapakAM ApavA paDe che ! etAthI ja athaDAmaNa ! praznakartA : viSayanI lAlacamAM pote saphaLa na thAya tyAre zaMkA ne e badhuM pachI kare che ne ? dAdAzrI : saphaLa nA thAya eTale badhuM ya kare. zaMkAo kare, kuzaMkAo kare badhI, badhI jAtanA veza kare e pachI. yA allAha, paravaradigAra thAya pachI ! eTale lAcAra hau thAya pachI paNa e ja ene pAchuM phajeta kare te juduM. enA kabajAmAM gayA eTale phajeta karyA vagara rahe nahIM ne ! praznakartA : paNa viSaya hoya to ja dhaNIpaNuM karato hoya ne !

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : dhaNIpaNuM eTale zuM ke dabaDAvIne bhogavavuM. paNa pachI AvatA bhavano hisAba AvI jAya ne ?! praznakartA : e zuM thAya ? dAdAzrI : vera baMdhAya ! koI AtmA dabAyelo raheto haze ghaDIvAra ? bahu athaDAmaNa thAya ne, pachI kaheze, "moTuM tobarA jevuM laIne zuM pharo cho ?" to tobaro pachI vadhAre caDhe. pachI e rIsa rAkhe. pelI kahe, mArA ghATamAM Ave tyAre huM enuM tela kADhIza.' te rIsa rAkhyA vagara rahe nahIM ne ! A jIvamAtra rIsa rAkhe, tame chaMcheDo eTalI vAra ! koI koIno dabAyelo nathI. koI koIne levAdevA nathI. A to badhuM bhrAMtithI mAruM dekhAya che, mAruM-tAruM ! A to nAchUTake samAjanI AbarUne lIdhe Ama dhaNInA dabAyelA rahe. paNa pachI Avate bhava tela kADhI nAkhe. are, sApaNa thaIne keDe hau ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya che. ne pelAne mAMkaDAnI peTha nacAve. pachI enAM "rIekzana' to Ave ne ? pelo ya vera rAkhe pachI ke "tArA lAgamAM Avyo, tyAre te mAro veSa karyo ne mArI AbarU lIdhI. tuM lAgamAM Ave eTalI vAra che ke te pachI laI le AbarU, ghaDIvAramAM dhULadhANI karI nAkhe pachI. lAlacu ne to koI baI viSaya nA Ape ne, to ene "bA" kahe, evAM bebhAna mANaso che ! mAruM zuM kahevAnuM ke Atmasukha cAkhyA pachI pelA sukhanI jarUra ja kyAM rahI ?! ApaNuM 'jJAna' zuM kahe che? jagatamAM bhogavavA jevuM che zuM? tuM amatho AnI mahIM phAMphA mAre che. bhogavavA jevo to AtmA che ! praznakartA : ene A lAlacomAMthI chUTavuM hoya, to te zI rIte chUTe ? dAdAzrI : e jo eno nizcaya kare to badhuM chUTe. lAlacathI chUTavuM to joIe ja ne ! potAnAM hitane mATe che ne ! nizcaya karyA pachI, chUTyA pachI pelI bAju sukha ja lAgaze. e to vadhAre sukha lAgaze, nirAMta lAgaze UlaTI. A to ene bhaya che ke A sukha mAruM jatuM raheze. paNa e chUTyA pachI to vadhAre sukha lAgaze ! lAlacathI bhayaMkara AvaraNa ! jeTalI cIja lalacAvanArI hoya e badhI ja bAjue mUkI de, ene yAda nA kare, yAda Ave to pratikramaNa kare, to e chUTe. bAkI zAstrakAroe eno kaMI upAya batAvyo nathI, badhAno upAya hoya, lAlacano upAya nahIM. lobhano upAya che. lobhiyA mANasane to moTI khoTa Ave ne, tyAre lobha guNa jato rahe, haDahaDATa ! praznakartA : pharI 'jJAnamAM bese to lAlaca nIkaLe ? dAdAzrI : nA nIkaLe. 'jJAnamAM besavAthI kaMI ochuM nIkaLe che ? A to pote AjJAmAM rahevAno prayatna kare ne niraMtara AjJAmAM rahevuM ja che, evuM nakkI kare ne AjJAbhaMga thAya to pratikramaNa kare, tyAre dahADo vaLe. te lAlacamAMthI lAcArImAM ! eka strI enA dhaNIne cAra vakhata sASTAMga karAvaDAve tyAre eka vakhata aDavA de ! tyAre enA karatAM A dariyAmAM samAdhi leto hoya te zuM khoTuM ? zA hAruM A cAra vakhata sASTAMga ?! praznakartA : AmAM strI zAthI AvuM kare che ? dAdAzrI : e eka prakArano ahaMkAra che. praznakartA : paNa ene pachI zuM phaLa maLe ? dAdAzrI : kazo phAyado nahIM. paNa Ama ahaMkAra ke "joyuM ne, A kevo sIdho karI nAkhyo !" ane pelo bicAro lAlacathI kare ya evuM ! paNa strIne pachI phaLa bhogavavuM to paDe ne ? praznakartA : emAM strIpaNAno bacAva kare che pote ? dAdAzrI : nA. strIpaNAno bacAva nahIM. e ahaMkAra ja, ropha mATe

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya A jagatamAM laDhavADa kyAM hoya ? jyAM Asakti hoya tyAM ja. phakta jhaghaDA kyAM sudhI hoya ? eka viSaya che tyAM sudhI ! pachI 'mArItArI' karavA mAMDe, 'A bega tArI uThAvI le ahIMthI. mArI begamAM sADIo kema mUkI ?" e jhaghaDA viSayamAM eka che tyAM sudhI. ane chUTAM thayA pachI ApaNI begamAM muke to ya vAMdho nathI. e jhaghaDA nA thAyane, pachI ? pachI koI jhaghaDo nahIM ne ? keTalAM varSathI brahmacarya vrata lIdhuM? praznakartA : Ama nava varSa thayAM. dAdAzrI : eTale tyAra pachI jhaghaDI-baghaDA nahIM ! kazI bhAMjagaDa ja nahIM ! ane saMsAra cAlyA kare ! praznakartA : cAle ja che ne, dAdA. dAdAzrI : choDIo paiNI, chokarA paiNAvyA badhuM paiNe..... praznakartA : gharamAM ya nathI thatuM have kazuM ya..... dAdAzrI : ema ? saMsAramAM sarasa rahe evuM A vijJAna ! hA, choDIo-chokarA paiNAve. mahIM aDe nahIM, nirlepa rahe. ane duHkha to joyuM ja nathI. ciMtA-biMtA joyelI nahIM, nahIM ? bilakula nahIM. nava varSathI ciMtA nahIM joyelI ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya devaloka nahIM joIe, A saMsAra nahIM joIe, sukha vartAyuM pachI bIjI kyAM bhAMjagaDamAM paDe ! dAdAzrI : hA, ane gADI tyAM ja jaI rahI che. bhale surata sTezane thoDIvAra UbhI rahe vakhate, paNa bombe senTrala ja jaI rahI che ! cAlo bahu sAruM ! AvuM huM pUchuM ane pachI e emanAM taraphanuM kahe mane to mane jarAM lAge ke nA, ApaNI mahenata phaLI ! mahenata phaLI, enI to AzA rAkhe ne ? viSaya chUTyA bAda, saMbodhyAM "bA" !! jyAre hIrAbAnI sAthe viSaya mAro baMdha thayelo haze tyArathI huM 'hIrAbA' kahuM chuM emane. tyAra pachI amAre kaMI khAsa aDacaNa AvI nathI. ane pahelAM je hatI te viSayanI sAthamAM, sobatamAM to athaDAmaNa thAya thoDI ghaNI. paNa jyAM sudhI viSayano DaMkha che, tyAM sudhI e jAya nahIM. e DaMkha chUTo thAya tyAre jAya. amAro jAta-anubhava kahIe chIe. A to ApaNuM jJAna che. tene laIne ThIka che. nahIM to jJAna nA hoya to to DaMkha mAryA ja kare. tyAre to ahaMkAra hoyane, emAM ahaMkArano eka bhoga bhAga hoya ke emaNe mane bhogavI lIdhI. ane A kaheze, 'eNe mane bhogavI lIdho.' ane ahIM AgaLa (A jJAna pachI) nikAla kare che e, to ya paNa pelI DiscArja kacakaca to kharI ja, paNa te ya amAre nahotI, evo matabheda nahoto, koI jAtano. vijJAna to juo ! jagata joDe jhaghaDA ja baMdha thaI jAya. bairI joDe to jhaghaDA nahIM, paNa AkhA jagata joDe jhaghaDA baMdha thaI jAya. A vijJAna ja evuM ane jhaghaDA baMdha thAya eTale chUTyo. koI paNa jAtano sAhajIka emAM vAMdho nathI. sAhajIka eTale sahamatapUrvaka. ApaNane dADhI karavAno bhAva thayo ane pelo bhAI AvIne Ubho rahyo, to kahe, 'Avo ! cAlo beso bA !' evAM saMjoga bAjhatA hovA joIe. bhIkha mAgavAnI hada hoya ke nA hoya ? keTalI hada hoya ? eka phero kahe ke A taiyArI karo. tyAre kahe, e ya nahIM. to kahIe, praznakartA: Ama upAdhi Ave to ghaNI, paNa aDe nahIM. dAdAzrI : Ave kharI, e to barobara, saMsAramAM che eTale Ave to kharuM. aDe nahIM, eTaluM ja pAchuM naDe ya nahIM kaMI paNa. sephasAIDa, kAyama sephasAIDa. ahIM beThA ja mokSa thaI gayo, pachI have rahyuM zuM ? praznakartA : huM to kahuM chuM ke ahIM ja mokSanAM sukha vartAvA joIe. to ja enI majhA ! dAdAzrI : to ja sAco mokSa ahIM vartAvo joIe. praznakartA ane ahIMyA vartAya che eTale ja kahe che ne ! have

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 94 A heMDyA. nathI joItuM, baMdha have ! A to evAM lAcAra, thaI gayAM che badhAM. mANasa kevo pAvaravALo hovo joIe ! AkhI jiMdagIno niyama levAvALA, brahmacaryano ! abrahmacarya saMbaMdhI vicAre ya nA Ave evI pratijJAo le. eTale gaMdavADo ja che A badhuM jagata. koI A rIte gaMdavADo kahe, koI A rIte gaMdavADo kahe. vahune paiNavAmAM vairAgya nathI Avato, enuM zuM kAraNa ? ke apamAna khAvAnI Teva che eTale. apamAna gaLI javAnI Teva che ! kharo puruSa to gaLe nahIM ne ! e kahevAya popaTamastI ! praznakartA : badhI phAIlo to jANe ke dALamAM nAkhIne vadhAra karIne khaI zakIe evAM che, paNa be naMbaranI phAIlano kaMI dALamAM vadhAra karavo ? dAdAzrI : be naMbaranI phAIlane nA cAle. be naMbaranI phAIla to jJAna lIdheluM mANasa hoya ane te jyAre athaDAmaNa thAya tyAre 'vyavasthita' samaje. koNa athaDAya te jANe, tyAre chUTo thAya. praznakartA : e to e samajIe chIe, ke A karma athaDAya che. paNa eno rasto to kADhavo paDe ne ? solyuzana to zodhavuM paDe ne ? dAdAzrI : enuM solyuzana to hoya che, paNa loko che te, lokonAM manobaLa kAcAM hoya che ne ! manobaLa kAcAM hoya eTale zuM thAya, bicAro ? solyuzana, ene to tame amuka bhAga che te baMdha karI do ke tarata che te cUpa thaI jAya badhuM. paNa manobaLa kAcAM hoya, to zuM kare ? praznakartA : e batADone kyo bhAga baMdha karI devo ? dAdAzrI : vikArI bhAga baMdha karI devAno. to enI meLe ja badhuM baMdha thaI jAya. ene laIne A kAyama cAlyA kare kakaLATa. praznakartA : pahelAM to ame ema samajatA'tA ke A gharanAM kAmakAja samajathI prApta brahmacarya 5 bAbatamAM athaDAmaNa thatI haze. te gharanAM kAmamAM helpa karavA besIe, to ye athaDAmaNa. dAdAzrI : e badhI athaDAmaNo thavAnI ja. A jyAM sudhI vikArI bAbata che, saMbaMdha che tyAM sudhI athaDAmaNa thavAnI. athaDAmaNanuM mULa ja A che. jeNe viSaya jItyo, tene koI harAvI zake nahIM, koI enuM nAme ya nA de. eno prabhAva paDe. praznakartA : viSaya nathI jItAto eTale to ame tamArA zaraNe AvyA. dAdAzrI : keTalA varSathI viSaya..... gharaDAM thavAM AvyAM to ya viSaya ? jyAre juo tyAre viSaya, viSaya ne viSaya ! praznakartA : A viSayo baMdha karavA chatAM athaDAmaNa nA TaLatI hoya eTale to ame tamArA caraNe AvyA. dAdAzrI : thAya ja nahIM. viSaya jyAM baMdha che te meM joyuM, jeTalAM jeTalAM puruSo majabUta mananAM che tene strI to bilakula Ama kahyAmAM rahe che. praznakartA : vyavahAramAM je aham rahe che koI vakhata, to ene lIdhe taNakhA bahu jhare. dAdAzrI : e to ahamnA taNakhA jharatAM nathI. e dekhAya che ahamUnA taNakhA paNa viSayanA AdhIna thaIne e hoya che. viSaya nA hoya tyAre A nA hoya. viSaya baMdha thAya tyAre pachI e itihAsa ja baMdha thaI jAya. eTale jo brahmacarya vrata laIne rahe varasa dahADA mATe, to emane huM pUchuM chuM. tyAre kaheze, 'taNakhA ekuMya nahIM, kacakaca nahIM, khaTapaTa nahIM, kazuM ja nahIM sTenDa sTIla !' huM pUchuM pAcho, huM jANuM AvuM thaI jAya have. eTale e viSayane lIdhe hoya che. praznakartA : e to laDAI to paraNe tyArathI ja zarU thAya che.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : hA, paNa tyArathI zarU thAya. e laDAI ne ApaNA anubhavIoe nAma ApyuM che, popaTa mastI. e sAcI laDAI nathI. A sAcI laDAImAM to bIje dahADe judo thAya. A popaTa mastI che. ApaNe jANIe ke popaTa hamaNAM ene mArI nAkhaze, mArI nAkhaze, paNa nA mAre. bacakAM bhare, cAMco mAre, badhuM kare. eTale A popaTa mastI kahI. bIje dahADe kazuM ya nA hoya. dUdha phATI nA gayuM hoya, cA thAya. praznakartA : cA Ape paNa pachADIne Ape, tenuM zuM ? dAdAzrI : hA, kapa pachADIne Ape paNa phATI nA jAya. e kapa pachADIne Ape to ApaNe nA pachADIe to e baMdha thaI jAya. praznakartA : paNa laI baMdha nA thAya. dAdAzrI : laDAI to A viSaya jAya to ja baMdha thAya. kaMI paNa le mela karI ke laDAI. jJAna sivAya bIjI vastunuM levAdevA karyuM e laDAI ane badhA sukha lIdhelAM, e lIdhelAM che te ene zuM karavuM paDaze ? rIpe(repay) karavA (cUkavavA) paDaze. dAMtathI lIdhelAM sukha dAMtanA 2Ipe karavA paDaze. darekanA sukha lIdhelA rIpe karavA paDe. strIthI sukha lIdhelAM rIpe karavAM paDe. e atyAre roja rIpe karyA kare che. sukha hoya nahIM ne, pudgalamAM sukha hoya nahIM. sukha AtmAmAM ja hoya, ke je rIpe karavuM nA paDe. viSaya baMdha to kleza baMdha ! 96 jene kleza karavo nathI, je klezano pakSa kheMcato nathI, ene kleza thAya paNa dhIme dhIme bahu ocho thato jAya. A to kleza karavo ja joIe ema mAne che tyAM sudhI kleza vadhAre thAya. klezanA pakSakAra ApaNe nA banavuM joIe. 'kleza nathI ja karavo' evo jeno nizcaya che, tene kleza ochAmAM ocho AvIne paDe che ane jyAM kleza che, tyAM bhagavAna to UbhAM ja nA rahe ne ! ane A saMsAramAM jo viSaya nA hota to, kleza ja nA hota. viSaya che tethI kleza che, nahIM to kleza ja hota nahIM ! viSayane ekajhekTa samajathI prApta brahmacarya nyAya buddhithI juene to pharI viSaya karavAnuM mANasane mana ja nA thAya. praznakartA : paNa viSaya cIja ja evI che ke te nyAya buddhi jovA na de. 97 dAdAzrI : A viSaya evI vastu che ke eka phero aMdha thayo pachI nA jovA de. sauthI bhAremAM bhAre aMdha eTale lobhAMdha ane enAthI sekanDa naMbara hoya to viSayoMdha. praznakartA : lobhAMdhane vadhAre kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : are, lobhAMdhanI to duniyAmAM vAta ja judI che ne ! lobhAMdha ane duniyAno eka navI ja jAtano rAjA. viSayavALA to mokSe javAne mATe prayatna kare. kAraNa ke viSayavALAne to kleza thAya ne ! eTale pachI kaMTALe. jyAre lobhAMdhane to kleza paNa nA thAya. e to enI lakSmInI ja pAchaLa paDelo hoya, lakSmI kaMI bagaDatI nathIne e ja joyA kare ane emAM ja e khuza. chokarAMne ghera chokarAM hoya, to ya ene lakSmInI ja paDelI hoya. ane lakSmIne sAcavavA Avato bhava tyAM sApa thaIne bagADe. cha mahitA karo akhataro ! bahu ADA svabhAvanI bairI maLI hoya to zuM thAya ? adhogatie laI jAya ! eTale emAMthI chUTavA to zuM karavuM paDe ? enI joDe viSaya bilakula baMdha karI devo paDe, nahIM to ekadama ocho karI nAMkhavo paDe to gADuM pAMsaruM thAya ne rAge paDe ! A duniyAmAM kSayanAM jaMtunI davA hoya che, paNa manuSyarUpI jIvAto e to kSayanAM jaMtuo karatAM paNa bhayaMkara che. enI to davA ja nA maLene ! praznakartA : dAdA, mArI brahmacarya pALavAnI ghaNI icchA che paNa mArI bairI nA pADe che. enA kAraNe e mane satsaMgamAM na AvavA mATe khUba dhamapachADA kare che. to mAre tyAM zuM karavuM ? dAdAzrI : A puruSo jarA DhIlA hoya che, tethI teno lAbha strIo uThAve che. jyAM sudhI puruSone strI pAsethI viSayanI yAcanA haze, tyAM

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya sudhI strI kyAre ya paNa kAbUmAM nahIM Ave. cAra-cha mahinA sudhI tuM viSaya baMdha karI jo. e kAlAvAlA karaze. pachI strI kAbUmAM Avaze. ApaNe to enuM hau kalyANa thAya evuM jovuM joIe. e bicArInuM avaLuM cAle to te kyAM jAya ?! e ApaNuM kharAba karavA mAMge to ya ApaNe enuM sAruM karavuM joIe. enI to aNasamajaNa che, paNa ApaNe to samajaNavALA kharA ke nahIM ? cha mahinA tArAthI kaMTrola raheze ke nahIM ? cha mahinAmAM to e narama gheMsa thaI jaze. cha mahinAmAM tane camatkAra lAgaze. eka jaNane to traNa mahinAmAM ja vahu namatI AvI gaI ane dhaNIne kahevA lAgI ke tame kahezo tema karIza. eno vikArI svabhAva che ke moLo che ? praznakartA : jarA kharo. dAdAzrI : to e tarata kAbUmAM AvI jaze. ApaNe enuM evuM rAge pADI daIe ke enuM ya sAruM thAya ane ApaNuM ya sAruM thAya. vahu jo bahu upAdhi karAvatI hoya to tene kahIe ke mAro brahmacarya levAno vicAra che. bahu kAlAvAlA kare to tene kahIe ke haju be mahinA pachI, tuM badalAI gayA pachI, ema karIne ApaNe tene game tema karIne vaza karavI. e vikAramAM AvatI hoya tyAre tane khuza karavA prayatna kare ke nA kare ? te vakhate e tarapha dhyAna nahIM rAkhavAnuM. have ema chetarAIza nahIM. ApaNane zuddhAtmAnuM jJAna che eTale saMyama rAkhI zakIe. saMyama nA hoya to dabAI ja jAya. ApaNuM mana bagADavA nA devuM. ApaNe enI joDe kAma sAthe kAma rAkhavuM. badhuM bagaDe nahIM, e jovAnuM. e ajJAnI mANasa eTale UMdhuM kare. jJAnI UMdhuM nA kare. ane chevaTe to vijaya satyanA pakSamAM ja hoya che ne ? A vaza karavAno upAya che. bIjo upAya nathI. 98 chUTelA hoya, te choDAvaDAve. baMdhAyelA zuM choDAve ? ghera ghera AnuM A ja ramakhANa hoya. A kaMI eka ja ghera hoya ? tArA jevuM to bahu ghaNAM mANasone tyAM baneluM. keTalAMka mANasone to viSaya chUTI gayA. keTalAMka haju nIkaLI jaze. keTalAMkane jitAya evuM nathI, tyAre meM ene choDI devAnuM kahyuM ne bIjA rastA dekhADayA ! jyAre tyAre to viSayane jItavo samajathI prApta brahmacarya ja paDazene ? brahmacaryanuM baLa nathI, tethI mANasone strIo joDe bhAMjagaDa paDe che. brahmacaryanuM baLa hoya to strIo nAma nA de ! bAra mahinA nahIM to cha mahinA, paNa cha mahinA tAruM sIdhuM cAlaze ne ? pachI pharI cha mahinA laI levAnuM ne pachI to e pote ya kabUla karaze ke nA, tame eka-be varSa khamI jAva, be varSa pachI ApaNe beu sAthe brahmacarya vrata laIe. kharekharuM evuM thaI jAya to bahu sAruM paDe. bannenuM Ama rAge paDe, pachI ame vidhi karI ApIe e bahu sAruM kahevAya. puruSa mAyAvI nA kahevAya, strI jAti mAyAvI kahevAya. jyAre pratApa nAmano guNa pragaTe che, tyAre ja strI jAti te guNa upara ApharIna thAya che ane tyAre ja strInI kapaTanI bArI baMdha thaI jAya. e sivAya strIonI kapaTanI bArI baMdha thavAno, bIjo koI Aro ja nathI. ce A tamArI jagata kalyANanI bhAvanA che, te ja tamane viSaya jitADaze. saMyama evI cIja che ke AkhuM jagata page lAge, sAco saMyamadhArI hoya to. kapaTathI siMhane batAve uMdaraDI ! ApaNe Ama kahIe tyAre e vaLI Ama kahe. vAda upara vivAda sarje cIkaNI phAIla. praznakartA : e phAIla naMbara Tu. dAdAzrI : hA. dhaNInuM mAne nahIM. Ama uMdaraDo rAtre pyAlo khakhaDAve to bhaDake ane dhaNIthI nA bhaDake, moTo siMha jevo hoya to ya. praznakartA : enI pAchaLa kAraNa zuM hoya che ? viSayanI lAlaca ? dAdAzrI : pI gaI hoya che. e mUMo pIvA de che ne. pelo ya pI javA de che ne ! evI strIo hoya ke nA hoya ? pI jAya evI ? zI rIte pI jAya ? chata joI le pachI pI jAya. mahIM chata nathI ne vagara kAmano kUdAkUda kare. pachI pI jAya.

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1O 101 samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : A gharSaNanuM Ape peluM kAraNa kahyuMne, eTale viSaya nA hoya to athaDAmaNa ja nA hota ! dAdAzrI : viSaya nA hoya ne mArga maLyo, te mokSa thaI jAya. nahIMtara mArga nA maLyo to e ya rakhaDI mare. viSaya nA hoya to saraLa mokSa pAcho. kazuM aDacaNa vagarano ! praznakartA : eTale saMsAra jyAMthI zarU thayo hoya, tyAMthI baMdha karavo paDe to baMdha thaI jAya. viSayamAMthI Ubho thayo che ne ? dAdAzrI : sUkSma kAraNa to bIjAM che, sthULa kAraNa A che. praznakartA : A cULa kAraNamAM jAya ? dAdAzrI : A baMdha kare to dIvA jevuM thaI jAya, pharsTa kalAsa. AvuM koIe hindustAnamAM kahyuM nathI haju, zIla upara to badhAe DhAMkI dIdhuM che. lokone Ano ja svAda che. TesTa ja Ano che. jyAM aneka jAtanA jhaghaDA, vigraha ne saMgharSa UbhuM thAya che, tyAM ja A jIvo phasAya che. phasAmaNa chUTe nahIM ane anaMta avatAro thAya che, kAraNa ke vera vALyA ja kare pachI, strI vera vALyA ja kare. puruSa to bhoLo bicAro, bhagavAnano AdamI ! AmanAmAM bhalIvAra zuM ?! paMjAmAMthI choDe nahIM ne pachI, eka phero, kAbUmAM AvI gayo khalAsa, emAM strIone ya paNa nukasAna to thAyane ke nA thAya ? vasule bhAIsA'ba karAvIne eka bahene to mane kahyuM hatuM 'paiNI tyAre e bahu loMTa (jabarA) hatA.' kahyuM, 'have ?" tyAre kahe, 'dAdA, tame badhuM strI-cAritra badhuM samajo cho, mArI pAse zuM kahevaDAvo cho ?" mArI pAse koI sukha joItuM hoya emane, tyAre huM ene kahyuM, bhaIsA'ba kaho." eTale bhaIsA'ba kahevaDAvuM tyAre ! emAM mAro zuM vAMka ? pahelAM e mane bhaIsA'ba kahevaDAvatA hatA ane have huM bhaIsA'ba kahevaDAvuM chuM. samajathI prApta brahmacarya tethI huM lokone pUchuM, ghera AvI bhAMjagaDa nathIne ? nA dAdA, evuM nathI. hoya to, e mane kaheje, haM, pAMsarI karI nAkhIe. eka mahinAmAM to pAMsarI karI nAkhuM. praznakartA : to evI lAlaconuM kAraNa zuM ? kaI rIte A lAlaco Ave che ? dAdAzrI : jemAM ne temAMthI sukha prApta karavuM, ne jenuM ne tenuM paDAvI levuM. eTale pachI 'laoN'-kAyado ke kazuM nahIM ane te lokaniMdya hoya to ya kazI paDelI nA hoya. ane te lokaniMdya ja hoya A badhuM. eTale pachI lAlaca AvAM kAma karAve, mANasane mANasa jAtamAM nA rAkhe. lAlaca to dhyeya cUkAve ! kUtarAne eka pUrI dekhADI ne, emAM to enI badhI 'phemIlI'ne paNa bhUlI jAya. chokarAM, kurakuriyAM, badhAyane bhUlI jAya ane AkhuM potAnuM sthAna che, je lattAmAM raheto hoya te ya bhUthvI jAya ane kyAMya jaIne Ubho rahe che. lAlacanI hAru pUMchaDI paTapaTAvato hoya, eka pUrIne mATe ! lAlaca, jeno huM 'sTroMga' virodhI chuM. lokomAM huM lAlaca dekhuM tyAre mane thAya, AvI lAlaca badhI ?! 'opana poIjhana' che ! maLI Ave e khAvuM. paNa lAlaca nA hovI joIe. praznakartA : lAlaca vagara rahevAthI maLI paNa rahe che. dAdAzrI : eTale A lAlacune ja A bhAMjagaDa che. nahIM to badhuM maLI rahe, ghera beThAM maLe. A ame kazI IcchA paNa nathI karatAM to ya badhI cIja maLe che ne ! lAlaca to nathI, paNa IcchA ya nathI karatA ! praznakartA : lAlaca ane IcchA, e bemAM zo phera ? dAdAzrI : IcchA rAkhavAnI chUTa che badhAne. badhI ya jAtanI, IcchAno vAMdho nathI. lAlacu to, A kUtarAne eka pUrI dharI, te kyAMno kyAM jAya, ene lAlaca peThI ne !

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103 102 samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : eTale lAlacamAM sArA-narasAno viveka nahIM raheto hoya. dAdAzrI : lAlaca to, jAnavara ja kahI do ne ene ! manuSyarUpe jAnavara ja pharyA kare che. thoDI ghaNI lAlaca to badhAne hoya, paNa e lAlaca nabhAvI levAnI. paNa lAlacu ja jene kahevAmAM Ave che, ene to kaMI jAnavara ja joI lo ne, manuSyarUpe ! eka mANasane, koI khAvAnI sarasa UMcI vastu lAvyA. have pelA mANasane e vastu bahu ja bhAve che, to e lAlaca sAruM besI rahe. betraNa-cAra kalAka besI rahe. thoDuMka ene ApIe tyAra pachI ja e jaze. paNa e lAlaca hAruM besI rahe che ane je ahaMkArI che e to kahe, 'mela paiDa tArI, enA karatAM ApaNAM ghera javA do ne !' e lAlacu nA hoya. eTale lAlacothI A jagata baMdhAyeluM che. alyA, kUtarA-gadheDAne lAlaca hoya. paNa ApaNane lAlaca kema hoya ? lAlaca te hotI haze ?! A uMdara pAMjarAmAM kyAre Ave che ? pAMjarAmAM kyAre jhaDapAI jAya samajathI prApta brahmacarya pIdheluM nA hoya ?! praznakartA : e to kaMpArI chUTe ke ATalA badhA duHkho A loko sahana kare che, ATalAM sukhane mATe ! dAdAzrI : e ja lAlaca che ne, A viSaya bhogavavAnI ! pachI e to narkagatinuM duHkha tyAM bhogave che, tyAre khabara paDe ke zuM svAda cAkhavAno che. AmAM !! ne viSayanI lAlaca e to jAnavara ja kahI do ne ! viSayamAM dhRNA utpanna thAya to ja viSaya baMdha thAya. nahIM to viSaya zI rIte baMdha thAya ? praznakartA : lAlaca hoya tyAre. dAdAzrI : hA, DhebarAnI sugaMdha AvI ane DhebaruM khAvA gayo ke mahIM tarata phasAya. pAMjarAnI mahIM DhebaruM dekhyuM ke bahAra rahyo e talapApaDa thayA kare ke 'kyAre peluM ? kyAre peluM ?" pachI mahIM pesI jAya eTale peluM oTomeTika vasAI jAya. manuSyone A 'oTomeTika' AvaDe badhuM. eTale enI meLe ja vasAI jAya. eTale sarva duHkhanuM mULa lAlaca che. viSayanI lAlaca, kevI hIta dazA ! praznakartA: have A viSayamAM sukha lIdhuM, enA pariNAme pelA jhaghaDA ne kleza badhuM thAya ne ? dAdAzrI : badhuM A viSayamAMthI ja UbhuM thayuM che ane sukha kazuM ya nahIM pAchuM. savAranA pahoramAM divela pIdhA jevuM moTuM hoya. jANe divela

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[9] viSaya e pAzavatA ja ! dasa varSa sudhI to digaMbara ! paNa amArA vakhatanI e prajA eka bAbatamAM bahu sArI hatI. viSaya vicAra nahIM. koI strI tarapha kharAba draSTi nahIM. hoya, sekaDe pAMcasAta TakA mANasa evA hoya kharAM. te phakta rAMDelIo ja khoLI kADhe. bIjuM kazuM nahIM. je ghare koI rahetuM nA hoya tyAM. rAMDelI eTale vara vagaranuM ghara ema kahevAya. ame cauda-paMdara varSanAM thayAM, tyAM sudhI chokarIo jue to bena kahIe. bahu cheTenI hoya to ya. e vAtAvaraNa evuM hoya. kAraNa ke dasa-agiyAra varSanAM hoya tyAM sudhI to digaMbarI pharatA ! dasa varSanAM hoya to ya digaMbara pharato hoya. digaMbara eTale samajyA ? praznakartA : hA, hA. khyAla AvI gayo. dAdAzrI : ane e ghaDIe mA kahe paNa kharI, 'raDyA, digaMbara, lUgaDuM pahera, payagaMbara jevo.' digaMbara eTale dizAo rUpI lUgaDAM. eTale viSayano vicAra ja nA Ave. eTale bhAMjagaDa nahIM. te viSayanI jAgRti ja nahIM. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 105 praznakartA : eTale samAjanuM eka jAtanuM prezara eTale ? dAdAzrI : nA, samAjanuM prezara nahIM. mA-bApanuM valaNa, saMskAra ! traNa varSanuM chokaruM e nA jANatuM hoya ke mArAM mA-bApane Avo kaMI saMbaMdha che. eTalI badhI suMdara sikrasI hoya ! ane evuM hoya te dahADe chokarAM bIjA rUmamAM sUtAM hoya. e mA-bApanAM saMskAra. atyAre to peNe beDarUma ne peNe beDarUma. pAchAM DabalabeDa hoya che ne ? ane koI puruSa te dahADe eka pathArImAM strI joDe sUve nahIM. koI nA sUve. te dahADe to kahevata hatI ke strI sAthe AkhI rAta sUI jAya to te strI thaI jAya, enA paryAya aDe. te koI AvuM nA kare. A to ko'ka akkalavALAe zodhakhoLa karI. te DabalabeDa vecAyA ja kare ! eTale prajA thaI gaI DAuna. DAuna thavAmAM phAyado zo thayo ? pelA tiraskAra badhA jatA rahyA. have DAuna thayelAMne caDhAvatAM vAra nahIM lAge. mA bApa ja kusaMskAre viSayamAM alyA, A DabalabeDa te hiMdustAnamAM hotAM haze ? kaI jAtanA jAnavaro che ? hindustAnanA strI-puruSo koI dahADo bhegA eka rUmamAM hotAM ja nahI ! haMmezA judI ja rUmamAM rahetA hatA ! tene badale A jo to kharAM !! atyAre A bApa ja beDarUma karI Ape, DabalabeDa ! te pelAM samajI gayAM ke A duniyA AvI ja cAlyA kare che. e badhuM meM joyeluM A. ekaMdara sAruM che, A chokarA badhA yujhalesa nIkaLyAM che ne ! sAva jUTho mAla, taddana jUTho mAla. paNa emane kahyuM hoya ke A holamAM paccIsa jaNa sUI jAva, to tarata badhA sUI javAnA. ane ene bApa zIkhavADe ke jAva, DabalabeDa laI Ava. eTale pAchuM evuM ya zIkhI jAya bicArA. emane evuM kaMI nathI. Aja DabalabeDa hoya to tevuM, ahIM AgaLa bIje dahADe Ame ya hoya. evuM kazuM nathI. A to bApa vAMkA che, barakata nathI. evo UMdhe raste caDhAve che. ke mA-bApo ja atyAre vyavasthA kare che. aDhAra varSano thAya eTale kaheze, enI rUma bAMdhyA pachI che te paiNAvIe ene ApaNe. alyA, rUma bAMdhIne jogavAI karI Ape che. pAcho Dabala palaMga

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106 samajathI prApta brahmacarya lAve che. pelo ema ja jANe ke mAre vArasAmAM ATaluM ja karavA jevuM che. mA-bApane ja bhAna nathI bicArAne. mA-bApane ja kazuM bhAna nathI, kevI rIte cAlavuM te. eTale chokaro Ano kAyado ja jANato nathI ne ! e to ema ja jANe, chokaro nAno hoya tyArathI ja ema jANe, 'tArA pappA kyAM suI jAya che ?" tyAre kahe, 'A DabalabeDavALI rUmamAM ane huM to pelI rUmamAM sUI jauM chuM.' e samaje ke DabalabeDa cAlu pahelethI che ! praznakartA: A je sAthe sUvAnI prathA che, e amuka prathAo ja khoTI che ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya 107 sAyansa haze ? sAyanTiphika kAraNa che AnI pAchaLa. varasa dahADo chUTA rahIne pachI tame eka pathArImAM suI jAvane, to je dahADe e bahArathI bahu ja Akho dahADo tapIne Avyo hoya ne, te pasIno soDhaze tamane. ane A baIne ya pasIno soDhaze. gaMdha utpanna thaze. pelI gaMdha nA khabara paDe. nAka, A indriya khovAI jAya. DuMgarI roja khAnArAne DuMgarI che, te AkhA gharamAM bharelI hoya to ya ene gaMdha nA Ave. ane DuMgarI nA khAto hoya, tene ahIMthI baso phUTa che te DuMgarI hoya to ene gaMdha Ave. eTale A suI jAya eTale nAkanI indriya badhI khalAsa thaI jAya. nahIM to joDe sUvAtuM haze ! A DuMgarInI vAta samajaNa paDI tamane ? praznakartA : paDI gaI, barAbara. dAdAzrI : AvuM jJAne ya mAre ApavAnuM ?! tamAre badhAe jANavuM joIe AvuM jJAna to ! A to mAre kaMI jaNAvI ApavuM paDe ?! praznakartA : jyAM sudhI tame bolo nahIM tyAM sudhI e AvaraNa khase nahIM. game eTaluM jANe to ya. vacanabaLathI ja khase badhAne. Dabala beDe bevaDo viSaya ! dAdAzrI : e badhI prathAo khoTI che. A to samajaNavALI prajA nahIM ne, te UMdhuM ghAlI dIdhuM che badhuM ! pachI chokarA-chokarIo ema ja mAnI le che ke A pramANe hoya ja, A ja mukhya vastu che. te ya jo strIne enA dhaNImAM ja citta kAyama rahetuM hoya to vAMdho nathI. praznakartA : paNa te kAyama rahetuM nathI ne ? dAdAzrI : are, bIjuM jue che tyAre pAcho bIjo Dakho kare che. eTale bhAMjagaDa che. e mULamAMthI uDADI devA jevI vastu che. enAthI ja badho saMsAra Ubho rahyo che. strIsaMga chUTe te thAya bhagavAna ! e strIono saMga jo paMdara dahADA manuSya choDene, manuSya paMdara dahADA cheTo rahe, to bhagavAna jevo thaI jAya. praznakartA: paMdara dahADA bairAthI dUra jatAM rahIe to bairAo pachI vahema khAya amArA upara. dAdAzrI : e game te kaho, e badhI vakIlAta kahevAya. e game eTalI vakIlAta karo to cAle vakIlAtamAM, jIto kharA, paNa ekkekTa purAvA nathI e. ame kahIe chIe, ekalAM judA rUmamAM sUI javAnuM, emAM zuM dAdAzrI : ane eka pathArI to koI dahADo ya ame joyelI nahIM. ane atyAre to AjanA jamAnAnA badhA bhaNelA lokoe, Dabala beDa lAvI Alo bAbAne. mecakkara, atyArathI AvuM zIkhavADuM chuM ?! Dabala beDa hoto haze mUA ?! e to vAIlDanesa pesI gaI. je brahmacArIono deza, vAnaprasthAzramane pUjanAro deza ! Dabala beDano artha samajI gayAne tame? praznakartA: hA. dAdAzrI : paiNAvatAM pahelA Dabala beDa vecAtuM maMgAve. bApo maMgAve eTale pelA chokarA ema jANe ke ApaNA bApa-dAdA emane laI ApatA haze. evuM ApaNane laI Ape. vArasAgatathI rivAja che A zuM ? A keTalI badhI hiMsA ?! A to ApaNA mahAtmAone kahevAya, bahAra to bolAya nahIM. bahAra to je pravAha cAlI rahyo che e pravAhanA avaLA

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108 samajathI prApta brahmacarya cAlIe e guno che. kudaratI pravAha che. A to mahAtmAo pUratI vAta che. A sApekSa vAta che. A kaMI nirapekSa vAta nathI. e DAhyA thaI zake evA che tenA puratI, bahAra to vAta kahevAya ja nahIMne ! A to duniyA kaMI pharavAnI che? duniyA to enA raMgerAge ja cAlyA karavAnI che. Dabala beDa ja vecAtuM lAve. huM bUma pADuM ne bahAra to gAMDA kahe, huM pADuM ja nahIM ne mane gAMDA kahe evuM kahyuM ke nahIM. UlTo e pUchavA Ave ke A Dabala beDa lAvIe chIe, emAM Apane vAMdho ? to kahuM nA bA, mane koI vAMdho nathI. zrI beDa rAkho ne sAthe. vAMdho zo che ?! e to jene A prApti thaI che, tenA mATe vAta che. A bAbatamAM vicAryuM ja nathI ne ! A koIe kahyuM nathI, AmAM to Thapakoe nahIM Apyo koIe, samajaNa ja pADI nathI. UlTI Ane uttejanA ApyA karI ke Dabala beDa joIe. Ama joIe, tema joIe. Dabala beDanI sisTama baMdha karo ne siMgala beDanI sisTama rAkho. pahelAM hindustAnamAM koI mANasa AvI rIte sUto nathI. koI paNa kSatriya nahIM. kSatriya to bahu kaDaka hoya paNa vaizya ya nahIM. brAhmaNo ya AvI rIte nahIM sUve, eka paNa mANasa nahIM ! jo kALa kevo vicitra Avyo? ApaNe tyAM to gharamAM judI rUma nahotA ApatAM pahelAM. pahelA to ko'ka dahADo vahu bhegI thaI te thaI. nahIM to rAma tArI mAyA ! kuTuMba moTAM hoya eTale saMyukta kuTuMba te. ane atyAre to rUma judI te judI paNa beDa paNa svataMtra, Dabala beDa. A to bahu jhINI vAta nIkaLe che. suve DelAmAM pati te oraDAmAM patnI ! praznakartA : ApanuM vAkya nIkaLeluMne ke puruSa bairA joDe sUI ne ATalAM moTA marada mANasa bairA jevA thaI jAya. dAdAzrI : thaI jAyane ! alyA mUA, eka pathArImAM sUvAtuM haze ! alyA, kaI jAtanuM mANasa che te ?! e strInI ya zakti uDI jAya ane samajathI prApta brahmacarya 109 bIjI enI zakti, bannenI zakti Diphorma thaI jAya che. amerikAvALAne mATe barobara che, paNa emanuM joIne ApaNe ya lAvyA Dabala beDa, kiMga beDa ! kharA puruSo kevA hoya ! amArA gAmanI vAta karuM. brahmacaryanI vAta nIkaLI tyAre mane sArA-sArA mANaso bhegA thayelA, nAnapaNathI ja evA saMyogo laIne Avelo. te eka puruSa sittera varSanA dekhAvaDA hatA. emanI yAdazakti suMdara, moDhAM upara nUra keTaluM badhuM. meM kahyuM, A dekhAvaDA zI rIte haze ? AmAM kaMI jJAna-bAna haze ? jJAnI dekhAvaDo hoya ke kAM to brahmacArI dekhAvaDo thoDo hoya ! eTale meM kahyuM, A pATIdAramAM kaMI jJAna hoya nahIM, mATe ApaNI badhI tapAsa karo. ke zuM kAraNa che AnI pAchaLa ? te amArA sagA thatA hatA. ne mArI sattara varSanI uMmara ! A paTela AvA dekhAya che. bIjA paTela badhA AvA dekhAya che. A pahelamAM kaMI ajAyabI che. enAM chokarAM kaMI rUpALA ! eka dA'Do huM emanA tyAM gayo. tyAre meM kahyuM, 'kAkA, huM ghera jaI AvuM ?" e DelAmAM besI rahe. ghare ya kharuM ne, DeluM ya kharuM besavAnuM. beThakano rUma, navuM juduM. tyAM baso-traNaso phUTa cheTe gharathI. pachI, 'besane, have ahIM cA maMgAvuM chuM. tuM besa ahIM, cA mArI Avaze. tuM cA thoDI pIje.' tyAre mane gamyuM. mAre emanI joDe vAta koI paNa raste karavI'tI. eTale pachI meM kahyuM, 'kAkA kyAM sUI jAva cho tame ?" tyAre kahe, "mAre ahIM suI javAnuM." meM kahyuM, 'keTalA varSathI ?" tyAre, "jayArathI paiNyo tyArathI ahIM.' 'hai', huM to camakyo. meM kahyuM, 'A zuM !" tyAre huM vadhAre UMDo utaryo. 'kAkA, mane AmAM InTaresTa che. thoDI vAta karone. A kAkI koI dA'Do ahIM Ave che ?" tyAre kahe, "mahinAmAM be dA'DA bolAvavAnA, basa." meM kahyuM, A hAro caLakATa ! A ajavALuM zenuM ? kyAMthI lAyA ? tame pATIdAra juo !" tyAre meM kahyuM, "zuM karo cho ?' tyAre kahe che, "koI dA'Do eka pathArImAM sUI gayo nathI ane pAMtrIsa varSathI vAnaprasthAzramamAM ja chuM. eka pathArImAM jo be jaNa sUe to beu strIo thaI gaI. eno saMga lAgyo ane saMga mane lAgyo nathI ?" dhanya che kAkA, A uMmaramAM ! huM to sajjaDa thaI gayo. tyArathI mane e cepa lAgI gayo badho. pachI pathArI judI samajato thayo. ane atyAre to bApa

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110 samajathI prApta brahmacarya dikarAne kahe che, 'jA, DabalabeDa laI Ava, bhale traNaso Dolara letAM hoya." eTale pelo jANato ja nathI ke bApA ya DabalabeDamAM hatA, emanA dAdA ya Dabala beDamAM haze. eTale muA, dAdAne hato ja nahIM Avo Dabala beDa ! AvuM nA bolavuM joIe chatAM jo boluM chuM ne ! AvuM nA bolavuM joIe ne ? praznakartA : zA mATe nahIM ? dAdAzrI : koIne duHkha thAya ne ! AvI rIte bolIe paNa ame to jJAnI puruSa eTale koIne duHkha nA thAya. huM game tevu boluM to ya amane jJAnI puruSane aMdara vItarAgatA hoya ane rAga-dveSa nA hoya. amane koInI para cIDa nA hoya. eTale ame bolI zakIe. paNa A tame samajyA ne ? A brahmacaryanuM pUchayuM tyAre mAre A ughADuM kahevuM paDyuM nahIM to huM kahuM nahIM AvuM. praznakartA chUTavAnuM jJAna che ne ! pachI e zaktino upayoga thAya ne bIjAmAM. samajathI prApta brahmacarya ane sUI javuM paDatuM hoya. tyAre hisAba cUkate thayA. paNa game che ke nahIM eTaluM to pUchI levuM. praznakartA : potAne game, paNa mahIMthI prajJAzakti athavA samaja cetave che. dAdAzrI : manane to bhale game, paNa ApaNane game ? tamane samajAyuM ne, A bhUla kyAM che, kevI thayelI che ? ane bhUla to bhAMgavI paDaze ne ? prArabdhamAM hoya te bhogavavAnuM, paNa bhUla to bhAMgavI ja paDe ne ? bhUla bhAMgavI nA paDe ? alyA, 'beDarUma nA karAya. e to eka rUma hoya, te badhAM bhegAM sUI rahevAnuM ne pelI to saMsArI jaMjALa ! A to 'beDarUma karIne AkhI rAta saMsAranI jaMjALamAM paDyo hoya. AtmAnI vAta to kyAMthI yAda Ave ? 'beDarUmamAM AtmAnI vAta yAda AvatI haze ?! manuSyapaNuM khoI nAkhe che. AkhA brahmAMDane dhrujAve evAM loka, juone, A dazA to juo ! A hIna dazA juo. tame samajyA mArI vAta ? A viSayabhogatAM ohoho ! pariNAma te kevAM ?' AtmAmAM keTalI zakti haze ? anaMta zaktio che AtmAmAM. paNa badhI zaktio AvarelI paDelI che. jayAre 'jJAnI puruSa' pAse jAva tyAre e AvaraNa kADhI Ape ne ApaNI zaktio khIlI UThe. mahIM sukhe ya pAra vagaranuM paDayuM che. chatAM viSayomAM sukha khoLe che. are, viSayamAM sukha hotuM haze ? A kUtarAne ya khAvA-pIvAnuM ApyuM hoya ne to te ya bahAra nA nIkaLe. A to bhUkhane lIdhe bicArAM bahAra pharyA kare che. A manuSyo Akho dahADo khAIne pharyA kare che. eTale manuSyone bhUkhanuM du:kha maTayuM che, tyAre A lokone viSayonI bhUkha lAgI che. manuSyamAMthI pazu thavAno hoya tyAM sudhI ja viSaya che. paNa manuSya paramAtmA thavAno hoya to ene viSaya nA hoya. viSaya e to jAnavaronI koDa leMgvaja che, pAzavatA che, 'phUllI pAzavatA che. eTale e to hovI ja nA joIe. dAdAzrI : hA mATe. mATe kaMI niyama rAkhajo. A badhAMne ? zuM kahuM ! ta yAda Ave AtmA beDarUmamAM ! praznakartA : huM to mArI vAta karuM chuM ke jJAna lIdhAM pachI, satata kevaLa A bhAva karuM chuM chatAM nathI chUTatuM. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa e to pahelAMno hisAba che ne ! eTale chUTako ja nA thAya. praznakartA : viSaya nathI, paNa hUMphane mATe. ema thAya ke nA, sAthe sUvuM ja chuM. dAdAzrI : nA, ema nahIM paNa e to e je A hisAba che ne, te hisAba badho cUkate thAya che. hA, e cUkate hisAba thayo kyAre kahevAya, sAthe sUI jatAM hoya ane nA gamatuM hoya e badhuM, aMdara gamatuM nA hoya

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112 samajathI prApta brahmacarya 113 samajathI prApta brahmacarya vastu che, chUpuM rAkhavuM paDe. koIne kahevAya paNa nahIM. chatAMya zAstrakAroe elAu karyuM che ke badhAnI rUbarU paiNo cho, mATe hakkadAra cho. keTaluM zarama bhareluM ? praznakartA : dAdA brahmacarya upara vadhAre bhAra Ape che ane ema ke abrahmacarya pratye tiraskAra dAkhave che. paNa Ama karIe to sRSTi uparathI mAnavonI saMkhyA paNa ghaTaze, to A bAbatamAM Apano zo abhiprAya che ? dAdAzrI : ATalAM badhA oparezana karavAthI saMsAra ghaTato nathI, te brahmacarya pALavAthI zuM ghaTaze ?! e saMsAra ghaTADavA mATe to oparezana kare che paNa to ya ghaTato nathI ne ! brahmacarya to moTuM sAdhana che. praznakartA : viSayadoSathI karmanuM baMdhana thAya che, e kevA svarUpanuM hoya che ? dAdAzrI : jAnavaranA svarUpanuM. viSayapada ja jAnavara pada che. pahelAM to hindustAnamAM nirviSayI-viSaya hato. eTale ke eka putradAna pUrato ja viSaya hato. eTale A moha che, bebhAnapaNuM che. A to ame vAta karIe, bAkI AvI vAta koI kare nahIM ne ?! AvuM kahe tyAre to vairAga Ave lokone !! praznakartA : vairAga Take evo koI niyama che ? dAdAzrI : vairAga Take to to kAma ja kADhI nAkhe. vairAga vicAra vagara Take nahIM. satata vicArazIla hoya tene ja vairAga Take. 'huM bhogavuM chuM' kahe. alyA, AmAM zuM bhogavavAnuM che ? jAnavarone ya zarama Ave AmAM to ! bhogavavAthI ja A badhuM bhUlI jAya che pachI. kartA-bhoktA thayo ke badho upadeza bhUlI jAya. kartA-bhoktA nA thayo to badho upadeza ene khyAlamAM rahyA kare. to ja vairAga rahe ne ? nahIM to vairAga rahe ja nahIM ne ! AkhI duniyA brahmacaryane 'eksepTa' kare che. jenAthI pachI brahmacarya nathI pALI zakAtuM e judI vAta che. abrahmacarya e manuSyamAM rahelI pAzavatA che. hareka jagyAe abrahmacaryane pAzavatA gaNI che. tethI to abrahmacaryanI divase nA pADI che. kAraNa ke e pAzavI upacAra che. mATe rAtre aMdhAruM thAya tyAre koI dekhe nahIM, jANe nahIM, ApaNI AMkha paNa dekhe nahIM, e rIte karavAmAM Ave che. manuSyone to A badhuM zobhe ? tethI ja to ApaNA lokoe goThaveluM ke rAtre aMdhArAmAM ja viSaya sevavAnuM rAkhavuM. sUryanArAyaNanI hAjarImAM jo viSaya sevana karazo to hArTapheIlanA bhaNakArA vAgaze, hAI blaDaprezara thAya ke lo blaDaprezara thAya ane hArTapheIla thaI jaze. eTale viSaya e aMdhArAmAM sevana karavAnI vastu che. lakhyuM che ne, ke "chUpAM rAkhavAM paDe che je kAma." eTale A viSaya kevI praznakartA : paNa e tiraskAra thayo nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : tiraskAra nA kahevAya. praznakartA : A necarala je prosesa che, e pratye ApaNe tiraskAra karIe chIe evuM nA kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : necarala prosesa che nahIM, A to pAzavatA che. necarala prosesa che nahIM, mANasamAM jo necarala prosesa hoya to brahmacarya pALavAnuM hoya ja nahIM ne ! A jAnavara brahmacarya pALe che bicArA, pachI amuka sijhana pUratAM ja paMdara-vIsa dahADA viSaya, pachI kazuM ja nahIM. A to kAyama viSaya, to pazu ja che ne, manuSya pazu ja thaI gayA che ne ! eTale A kahevuM paDe che ne mAre ! tyAre ja che te A oparezana karavAno vakhata Avyo ne, koI gAya-bheMsanuM oparezana karavAno vakhata Ave che ? Amane to vastI nA vadhe. eTalA sAruM Amane khasI karavA mAMDyA manuSyone. pahelAM baLadane khasI karatAM hatA, Aja manuSyone khasI karI rahyA che. keTalI zarama AvavA jevI vAta kahevAya ! A khasI karAve chene te khoTuM kahevAya. khasI karAve che loko ?

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 115 ne ?! bIjA kazAmAM jAnavara nathI thato, dArUmAM ya e jAnavara nathI thato. chatAM strI upara tiraskAra karavAno nathI, strIno doSa nathI, A to tamArI vAsanAono doSa che. strI upara tiraskAra karAya nahIM. strI to devIo che. viSaya upara tiraskAra nathI, vAsanA upara tiraskAra che ane A vAsanA dekhAdekhIthI che pAchI ! praznakartA : paza to bhoga pradhAna che eTale kare che, paNa mANasa to vicAra karanAro che, to paNa A sthiti che ! 114 samajathI prApta brahmacarya sarakAra zuM kahe che, khasI karo ? praznakartA : hA, karo ane jAte jaIne loko karAve che. dAdAzrI : sarakAra kahe che eka, do ne traNa, eka-be ame, bIjuM badhuM khasI ! ApaNe zuM kahIe chIe, bhaI cAra chokarA thAya to ya paNa pharI A brahmacarya pALane ane saMsAramAM strI sAthe rahuM to ya brahmacarya. eTale zuM ? ke mahinAmAM cAra dahADA ke pAMca dahADA ThIka che, te bAra mahine bAra pacA sAMTha divasa thAya. paNa A to savAra thaI, sAMja thaI, dhaMdho ja A. te bIbI caDhI vAge pachI. bIbI bA kahevaDAve keTalAMka lokone. pelA mAMgaNI kare, viSayanI bhIkha mAMge che A hindustAnanA loko, RSimunionA putro, zarama Ave evI cIja che. viSayanI bhIkha mAMge che, tamane nathI lAgatuM ? A zarama bharyuM lAgatuM nathI ?! praznakartA zarama bharyuM che ja. buddhizALI paNa bairI AgaLa badhuM ! dAdAzrI : ane A to roja jhaghaDe mUA. roja viSayamAM, jANe kUtaruM thaI gayuM ane keTalAMka to mAMgaNI kare che, bIbI tame mane Apo A. alyA mUA, bIbI pAse mAMgaNI karI ?! te A kevI zodhakhoLa karI ? juone, A jAnavarapaNA thaI gayA che. bilakula moTA moTA ophisaro. te badhuM jAnavarapaNuM thaI gayuM che. AvuM zobhe ApaNane ane viSaya karatI vakhate koI mANasa, hamaNe moTo sAheba viSaya karatA hoya, te ghaDIe phoTo le to, phoTo kevo dekhAya ? moTA sAhebane dekhADIe to ? praznakartA : dhRNA Ave evo. dAdAzrI : to pachI AvI zarama nathI AvatI. potAno phoTo nA dekhAya ApaNane ke mAruM sAluM A. huM kUtarA jevo chuM ke gadheDA jevo chuM ?! evI zarama nA Ave potAne ? Ama parsanAliTIvALo ophisara hoya, bahAra badhA thA, thA, the, the karatA hoya, paNa viSaya bhogavatI vakhate to e jAnavara ja thaI jAya dAdAzrI : paNa pazunA jevAM ya guNa nathI rahyA, pazu to niyamamAM hoya. kudaratanA jyAre saMjoga bAjhe che, tyAre pazumAM pAzavatA utpanna thAya che. paNa A manuSyane to rojanI pAzavatA che. manuSyane manuSyapaNuM ja kyAM rahyuM che ? ane pazumAM to dago-phaTako kazuM nahIM ne, A to niraMtara dagA-phaTakAmAM ja sapaDAvAnuM, niraMtara dago-phaTako. e strI-puruSanA bhoga hatA, e amuka che te satyuga-dvApara, thoDo kALa tretAno ya kharo, pachI khalAsa thaI gayA che, siyAriTI gona. praznakartA : eTale e kALano prabhAva ? dAdAzrI : kALano prabhAva. praznakartA : to mANasa emAM zuM kare pachI to ? dAdAzrI : mANasa zuM kare, eTale ?! eTale mANase samajavuM joIe. praznakartA: e samajaNanI draSTi ughADI ApanAra ko'ka joIene ? dAdAzrI : joIe. viSaya saMbaMdhamAM koIe vicAra ja karyo nathI, loka saMjJAthI. e pachI emAM zuM zuM doSa che, te joyA ja nathI koI jagyAe. duniyAmAM koI cIjamAM doSa nA hoya eTalo doSa abrahmacaryamAM che. paNa jo ke jANatAM nathI eTale zuM thAya ? lokasaMjJA AnI A ja cAlI che,

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117 samajathI prApta brahmacarya eTale bIcArAM eno kALa Ave che eTalA pUrato ja che te uzkerATa anubhave, ene te ya kudaratanI preraNAthI pAchuM, e potAnI preraNA hoya ja nahIM ! 116 samajathI prApta brahmacarya pAzavatAnI ja. pazumAM nathI hotuM, te mANasanI lIlA joIne ajAyabI ja thAya ne ! dakSiNamAM AMbA che bAramAsI kerIonA, kerAlAmAM. te bAra mahinA, eka A DALa che te A mahinAmAM, A DALa A mahinAmAM, A DALa A mahinAmAM kerI ApyA kare. evuM A lokoe bAramAsI che ne abrahmacaryamAM ! pazuo jevo mahinA pUratA che ke paMdara dahADA pUratA !? praznakartA : Ano vicAra ja koIe karyo nathI. dAdAzrI : bhAna ja nathI e vastuno. chatAM prakRti baMdhAyelI hoya to lagna karavuM ane lagna pachI ya mahinAmAM be-traNa vakhata hoya. ATalo ja TAIma, RSimunio jevuM hovuM joIe. pachI AkhI jiMdagI mitrAcArIthI rahe. eka pahelAM zarUAtamAM lagna thatAMnI sAthe betraNa varSamAM jarA paricaya rahe, te ya paricaya keTaluM ? manthalI korsa pachI pAMca ja divasa Akho mahinAmAM, te pachI nahIM. dareka manthalI korsane, temAM eka-be putra ke putrI thaI gayAM. pachI kAyama mATe baMdha. pachI e draSTi ja nahIM. kevAM hatA RSimunio !!! putradAna to A avazya jarUriyAta che, jene moha hoya tene. khoTuM nathI, cIDha rAkhavA jevI vastu nathI. paNa je AmAM sukha mAnI beThAM che, e eka pAzavatA che. pazu koI dahADo AmAM sukha mAnatA nathI. nahIM to emane tyAM kyAM polIsavALA che ke koI bAdhaka che ?! koI nA pADe che? paNa che kaMI ene kazuM bhAMjagaDa ? joDe hare-phare, paNa bhAMjagaDa nathI ne ? A to manuSyamAM AvyA ne jaMgalI rahyA. hindustAnamAM te AvAM pAzavI karma hotA haze ? kevA RSimunIono deza ! AkhI jiMndagImAM eka prajA Ape, te ya bhIkSA Ape, patnI bhIkSA mAMge ne e Ape basa. eTalI eka ja prajA ! juvo, emanI dazA to juo ! rAta-dA'Do e ja vicAra AvyA kare ! RSimunIo kevAM haze ? DAhyAM nahIM hoya ? emane viSaya gamato nahIM hoya ? viSaya to jAnavarone gamato nathI. viSaya-vikAra to jAnavaromAM kharo. e pachI bhrAMti nathI, e kAyadesarano. eno TAIma thAya tyAre ja. bAkI A manuSya to jAnavara karatAM bhUMDA. e rojanuM ene dhamAla ja A. dAnata ja AnI A. have viSayavikAra eTale zuM che ? ke je viSayathI chokarAM utpanna nA thAya. e viSaya saMDAsa kahevAya che. brahmacArI eTale manuSyamAM deva ja ! praznakartA : te emAMthI mukti kevI rIte meLavavI ? dAdAzrI : tamAre mukti karavI hoya to huM karI ApIza. paNa bIjA lokone mATe to kudarata taiyArI karI rahI che. e vALyA na vaLe ne, e zenAthI vaLe ? te hAryA vaLaze. e sAMdhA toDI nAkhaze. kudarata to thoDo vakhatamAM evA sAMdhA toDI nAkhaze, ahIM jo mArA vALyA vaLyA to ThIka che, nahIM to sAMdhA toDanArA to che ja taiyAra pAchaLa. A brahmacaryanI kiMmata haze kharI ? abrahmacarya e zuM guno che, e lokonA khyAlamAM ja nathI. ane huM kaMI bAvA thavAnuM nathI kaheto. saMsArI thaIne brahmacarya pALo. ane saMsArI thaIne je brahmacarya nathI pALatA e pAzavatA ja che, ughADI khullI pAzavatA che, opana pAzavatA ! A to khAlI roMga mAnyatAthI ja A badhuM pesI gayuM che. bAkI, eka-be bALakanI ja AzAo rAkhe eTalAM ja pUratuM ja che A. nahIM to viSaya manuSyamAM nA hoya te ya UMcI nAtomAM. halakI nAtamAM hoya, jyAM mahenata-majUrI karavAnI che, jyAM trAsa che, tyAM hoya. UMcI nAtamAM to saMyama hovo joIe. viSayano vicAra ja nA Avavo joIe. jyAM sudhI pAzavatA che tyAM sudhI viSayanA vicAra AvyA vagara rahe nahIM. manuSyamAM pazupaNuM che,

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118 samajathI prApta brahmacarya tyAM sudhI vicAra Ave. pazupaNuM gayuM ke vicAra jato rahyo. brahmacarya to, jyAM juo tyAM ene brahmacarya hoya. viSaya saMbaMdhI vicAra ja nA Ave. brahmacaryamAM Avyo eTale devasthitimAM Avyo. manuSyamAM deva ! kAraNa ke pAzavatA gaI. e pachI pAzavatA jAya eTale deva jevI sthiti UbhI thAya. jyAM sudhI brahmacarya AvyuM nathI tyAM sudhI pAzavatA che. nAnA prakAranI, manuSyamAM ja pAzavatA. viSaya gayo to zIlavAna kahevAya. eTale A vyavasthA karelI, paNa teno A artha badho bagaDI gayo. jo eka ja putradAna ApyuM hoya, eno je prema che, te AkhI jIMdagI sudhI Take. apaDAuna thayA sivAyano ! ane A ya lokone eka bAbo ne bebI, be ja hoya che. paNa A loko to oparezana nAmanuM eka thIyeTara kholI kADhyuM che. te thIyeTaramAM ja ramyA kare che eTale RSimunione pachI laDhavADa-baDhavADa kazuM nahIM. mitrAcArI. bAbA-bebI uchere, mitrAcArIne peTha ! ane Amane A kAyamanuM. have kAyamanAmAM zuM thAya bhAMjagaDa ? ke ekane bhUkha lAgI che ne ekane nathI lAgI. have nathI lAgI kahe che ke mAre nahIM phAve. pelo kahe, mAre bhUkha lAgI che. mAra ThokAThoka, enI A laDhavADo che badhI. nahIM to AkhI jiMdagI mitrAcArImAM evuM suMdara rahe. ekabIjAne sinsIyara rahe. Akho dahADo kakaLATa nahIM, kacakaca nahIM. A kacakaca viSayane lIdhe che.

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120 samajathI prApta brahmacarya abrahmacarya cAlu hoya ane bIjI bAju jJAnI puruSane game teTalo deha arpaNa karyo hoya, paNa strInA deha para rAga che eTale potAnA deha para paNa eTalo ja rAga che, eTale eTalI arpaNatA kAcI ja rahe. madhara, phAdhara, bhAI, bahena paranA rAgane ame rAga nathI kahetA. kAraNa ke rAgamAM evo tanmayAkAra thato nathI. jyAre strI viSayamAM to eTalo badho tanmayAkAra thaI jAya che. eTale mahIMthI eTalo badho khovAI gayelo hoya ke halAvo to ya khabara nA paDe. bAkI sAcuM brahmacarya eTale AtmacaryAmAM ja ApaNo upayoga ane pagala-viSayacaryAmAM upayoga nahIM. eTale kevaLa AtmaramaNatA, pudgala ramaNatA nahIM. bIjI pudgalaramaNatA eTalI bAdhaka nathI paNa viSaya pudgalaramaNatA to TheTha AtmAno anubhava paNa karavA detuM nathI. praznakartA : philosopharo ema kahe che ke seksane dabAvavAthI vikRta bane che. seksa Arogya mATe jarUrI che. [8] brahmacaryanI kiMmata spaSTa vedata Atmasukha akramamArgamAM brahmacaryanuM sthAna keTaluM? praznakartA : A jJAna maLyA pachI, dAdAnuM jJAna maLyA pachI brahmacaryanI AvazyakatA kharI ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : brahmacaryanI AvazyakatA to je pALI zake, tene mATe kharI ne nA pALI zake, tene mATe nahIM. jo AvazyakatA ja hoya to to brahmacarya nA pALanArA mANasone AkhI rAta UMgha ja nA Ave, ke A to have ApaNo mokSa jato raheze. abrahmacaryane khoTuM che, evuM jANe to ya bahu thaI gayuM. evuM che ne, A vAtano khulAso Aje kahI dIdho. brahmacarya ane abrahmacaryamAM Avazyaka zuM che ? enuM rUTa kaoNjha zuM che ? e koIne jaDe nahIM evI vastu che. te A rUTa kaoNjha meM tamane kahI dIdhuM. A rUTa kaoNjha je che, e maulika kahevAya. praznakartA : bauddhika viSayonI ramaNatA to rahe ja ne ? dAdAzrI : ame strIsaMbaMdhI ramaNatAno vAMdho uThAvIe chIe. dAdAzrI : enI vAta sAcI che, paNa ajJAnIne seksanI jarUra che. nahIM to zarIra upara AghAta paDaze. je brahmacaryanI vAtane samaje che, tene seksanI jarUra nathI ane ajJAnI mANasane jo kadI A bAMdhIe to zarIra tUTI jAya, khalAsa thaI jAya. praznakartA : paNa jene samakita nathI, ene paNa brahmacaryanuM jo mahatva samajato hoya to vAMdho nahIM ne ? dAdAzrI : e brahmacaryanuM mahatva jJAnI sivAya ke zAstranA koI AdhAra sivAya samajI zake ja nahIM. praznakartA: to A badhA sAdhuo brahmacarya pALe che e ? dAdAzrI : tyAM ene zAstrano AdhAra che. e koI paNa AdhAra hovo joIe. eTale A bahAranA lokone jo kadI evuM karavA jAya, dabAvavAthI to vikRta thAya. e brahmacarya hitakArI che - kevI rIte, kaI draSTie, e pUruM saMpUrNa samajI levuM paDe. nahIM ke eno artha dabAvavAno. nahIM to Arogya

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 121 bagaDe, bIjuM kazuM nahIM, paNa Arogya badhuM khalAsa thaI jAya ! praznakartA : seksa na dabAvavo joIe nahIM to roga thAya che. dAdAzrI : roga thAya che, vAta sAcI che. e dabAvavAnuM evuM nahIM. upavAsa rAjIkhuzIthI karavA mATe vAMdho nathI, bhUkhane dabAvavAno vAMdho che. haThAgraha karavAno vAMdho che. praznakartA : to abrahmacarya e ya necaranA kAyadAnI viruddha che ne ? dAdAzrI : abrahmacarya necaranI viruddha nathI. abrahmacaryanI normAliTI joIe pAchI. abrahmacaryanI normAliTI cUke pachI necaranI viruddha kahevAya. abrahmacaryanI normAliTI kone kahevAya ? eka patnIvrata hovuM joIe. vaLI enuM pramANa pAchuM kevuM hovuM joIe ke mahinAmAM ATha dahADA ke cAra dahADA, e enuM pramANa. pachI tamane phaLa tarata maLe. necara tamArI sAmI nA thAya. praznakartA: necaranI viruddha gayAno dAkhalo Apo ne ? dAdAzrI : A rasanI kerI ApaNe khAIe chIe, te necarala che. paNa jo pramANamAM vadhAre khavAI jAya to te annecarala che. nA khAva to te ya annecarala che !!! pramANathI vadhAre khAva to e badhuM poIjhana che. enuM pramANa sacavAvuM joIe. necara pramANane sAcavavA mAge che. praznakartA : pazuone to kudaratI helpa che ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, emanuM calaNa ja kudaratI che. emanuM potAnuM calaNa ja nathI. A to ApaNA lokone A kazuM bhAna nathI. A kaLiyuganA mANaso karatAM jAnavaro ya sArAM hoya ke niyamamAM rahe che. kaLiyuganA mANasone niyama ja nahIM ne ! praznakartA : evuM kema thayuM ke jAnavaro niyamamAM ane manuSyo niyamamAM nahIM ? dAdAzrI : jAnavarone to kudaratI kharuM ne ! eTale niyamamAM ja 122 samajathI prApta brahmacarya hoya. A manuSyo ekalAM ja buddhizALI. eTale emaNe ja badhI A zodhakhoLa karelI. pachI attaro copaDe, sugaMdhI laIne dugaMdhIne TALe. paNa dugaMdha te ema kaMI jatI haze ? A jAnavaro ya duSyAritravALA nathI hotAM. jAnavaro ya cAritravALA hoya che. praznakartA : e kevI rIte ? dAdAzrI : jAnavarone to amuka ja sIjhanamAM viSaya hoya ane A manuSyone to sIjhana-bIjhananuM ThekANuM ja nahIM. jAnavaro karatAM ya manuSyo bhUMDA che, jAnavaromAM to kazo avaguNa che ja nahIM. badhA avaguNonuM khoLiyuM hoya to A manuSyo. cAritra mukhya vastu che. cAritranA AdhAre to manuSya paNa deva kahevAya che. loka kahe che ne, ke A deva jevA mANasa che ?! jJAtIo'tuM brahmacarya ! praznakartA H to brahmacarya necaranI viruddha thayuM ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, brahmacarya to necaranI viruddha ja che ne ! praznakartA : to pachI jagatamAM brahmacarya le che, apAya che, te zA mATe ? dAdAzrI : e to pUrva bhave bhAva karelA, tenuM phaLa che. praznakartA : e zI rIte khabara paDe ke ApaNe pUrve bhAva karelA che ? dAdAzrI : e to ko'ka ja mANasa hoya, karoDomAM ekAda jaNa hoya, bahu hoya nahIM ne ! A sAdhu-mahArAjone zAthI vairAga Avato haze ? praznakartA : pUrve bhAveluM hoya tyAre. dAdAzrI : eTale ame zuM kahevA mAMgIe chIe ke karAMjIne brahmacarya nA pALIza. brahmacaryanI bhAvanA bhAvo, brahmacarya e to bhAvanAnuM phaLa che. bAkI A sAdhu brahmacarya pALe che, e bhAvanAnAM phaLarUpe che. emAM enI jAgRti nA gaNAya. jAgRti to, jJAnI puruSoe pUrve bhAvanA bhAvI

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 123 nA hoya to ya te abrahmacaryanA sAgaramAM pote brahmacarya rAkhI zake. e jAgRti kahevAya. devatAmAM hAtha ghAlavo ne dajhAvuM nahIM, enA jevuM jJAnI puruSanuM brahmacarya kahevAya. A tyAgIonuM brahmacarya e to bhAvanAnuM phaLa che. kharI rIte to bhagavAne e ja kahyuM che ke badhuM bhAvanAnuM ja phaLa che. paNa chevaTe jAgRti to joIze ja ! jAgRta thayA vagara cAle nahIM. pote bhogave ke bhokatA ! jayAM koI paNa UparI nathI, jayAM koI paNa aMDarahenDa nathI, enuM nAma mokSa. jayAM koI paNa jAtanI kharAba iphekTa nathI, paramAnaMda, niraMtara paramAnaMda, sanAtana sukhamAM rahevuM, enuM nAma mokSa. Ane to sukha kahevAya ja nahIM. A to dArUDiyo mANasa ema kahe ke huM AkhA hindustAnano rAjA chuM, to ApaNe nA samajIe ke A to dArUnA amalathI bole che ? evuM A bhrAMtine laIne ene AmAM sukha lAge che. viSayamAM to sukha hotuM haze ? sukha to mahIM che, paNa A to bahAra bIjAnAmAM Aropa kare che tethI tyAM sukha lAge che. bhrAMtirasathI A badhuM UbhuM thayuM che. bhrAMtirasa eTale zuM ke A kUtaruM jema hADakAMne cUse che, te tame joyeluM ? hADakAM upara thoDuMghaNuM mAMsa hoya te to jANe ke maLI jAya, paNa have pachI zuM karavA cUsacUsa kare che ? pachI khUba dabAvene, te hADakuM to Ama lokhaMDa jevuM hoya. te zuM thAya ke enA piDhiyAM dabAya ne emAMthI pachI lohI nIkaLe. lohIne e jANe ke hADakAMmAMthI nIkaLyuM. eTale pAchuM khUba cAvI cAvIne hADakuM khAya. alyA, tAruM ja lohI tuM cUse che. evI rIte A saMsAra cAlI rahyo che. evuM A loko hADakAM ja cUsI rahyA che ne potAnuM ja lohI badhuM cAkhI rahyA che. bolo, have keTalI badhI muzkelI che !! evI rIte jagata AkhuM viSayamAMthI sukha khoLI rahyuM che. kUtarAnI peTha viSayamAMthI sukha khoLI rahyuM che. te kema karIne e sukha jaDe ? sAcI vastu hoya temAMthI sukha jaDe. A to badhu kalpita sukha che, Aropita sukha che. tApamAM bahu thAkelA mANasane bAvaLiyA nIce chAyaDAmAM besene, to kaheze, mane bahu ja AnaMda Avyo'to. eTale viSaya sukha e badho evo AnaMda che. AnaMda nirupAdhi 124 samajathI prApta brahmacarya padano joIe. A badhA AnaMda apekSAe che. mANasa thAkelo hoya, tApamAM bahu tapelo hoya, te pachI ene kahIe bAvaLiyA nIce phAvaze ? to kaheze bahu sarasa phAvaze. have A AnaMdane AnaMda kahevAya ja kema ? lokoe viSayamAM sukha mAnyuM che. evuM pote ya AmAM sukha mAnyuM che. emAM bilakule ya sukha mAnavA jevuM nathI. jJAnInI saMjJAthI jue to emAM tadana duHkha che. eTale enI to vAta ja nathI karavA jevI, enI vAta kare to ya mANasa vairAga laI le. 'jJAnI puruSa'nI pAse jo kadI A brahmacarya saMbaMdhI vAta sAMbhaLe to vairAga laI le. viSayanuM saMpUrNa pramANe varNana karavAmAM Ave to mANasa sAMbhaLatA gAMDo thaI jAya, eTaluM badhuM e jokhama che. jene AMtarika sukha hoya te abrahmacarya kare ja nahIM. A to AMtarika du:khane laIne abrahmacarya kare che. jagatanA lokoe kahyuM, 'paraspara devo bhavaH' alyA, paNa kayAM sudhI paraspara ? eTale nirAlaMba je sukha che, te ya vAta ja judI ne !! are, zuddhAtmAnuM sukha che, te ya vAta ja judI ne !! 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM' kahyuM ke bahArano vicAra badho kharI paDe. jene 'zuddhAtmAmAM ja sukha che' evuM yathArthapaNe samajAI jAya, tene viSayamAM sukha nA rahe. puNyathI indriyonAM sukha badhAM bhegAM thAya. emAM pachI kapaTa UbhuM thAya, bhogavavAnI lAlasA mATe kapaTa UbhuM thAya ne kapaTathI saMsAra Ubho rahyo che. jayAM sudhI viSaya che, tyAM sudhI A Atmasukha ane A paudgalika sukha e bheda samajavA nahIM de. viSaya-rasa gAravatA ! jagata AkhuM gAravatAmAM re, prabhu rahyuM che phasI ?' have ApaNA loko gAravatA zene kahe che ? praznakartA : ahaMkArarUpI gAravatA ? dAdAzrI : e gAravatA nA kahevAya. ahaMkAravALo to, hiTalara jevAM ya karma kare ane dharmAdAnAM badhAM UMcAM kAma ya kare. paNa A gAravatA

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 125 eTale zuM ke jayAM AkhA manuSyapaNAno badho TAIma ja nirarthaka khoI nAkhavo. e gAravatA tame nahIM joyelI ? gAravatA eTale zuM ke koI mila AgaLa rastA pAse taLAva jevuM khAbaDuM paDayuM hoya ne, temAM pANI bharAI rahevAnuM. e gaMdavADAvALuM pANI pachI naryuM gaMdhAyA kare. A pANI Ama kAyama bharAI rahevAnuM, eTale pANInI mahIM ATalo ATalo babbe, traNa traNa phUTano kAdava hoya. to unALAne dahADe bheMsa zuM kare ? bheMsano svabhAva bahu garama, te enAthI A baporanI garamI sahana thAya nahIM. eTale pachI A khAbaDuM jue eTale tyAM mahIM pesI ane dhabdha karIne bese. bese tenI sAthe badho kAdava enA AkhA zarIre pharI vaLe. pachI e bheMsa zuM kare ke enuM moTuM ekaluM pANInI bahAra rAkhe ane A kAdavathI bhareluM emAM AkhuM zarIra garakI jAya evuM rAkhe. te A kAdavanI mahIM ene phrIjha jevuM lAgyA kare. have emAM, gaMdhanI to ene samajaNa ja nathI. Ama sArI-khoTI ene samajaNa to kharI ja, paNa ene gaMdhanI kaMI paDelI nathI. e to basa, kAdavanI ThaMDakanI mahIMthI khase ja nahIM. have dhaNIne bapore traNa vAge jarUra hoya, eTale dhaNI che te AvIne kahe ke, "le, le, Ava.' paNa te nA Ave. pachI ghAsano pULo lAvyo. e dhare to ya bheMsa Ama kAna halAvIne jue kharI, paNa pAchuM kazuM ya nahIM. AvuM phrIjha mUkIne e kaMI bahAra AvatI haze ? pachI pelo dhaNI samajI jAya ke Ane lAlaca kaMI mUko to Avaze. nahIM to nahIM Ave, ene ThaMDaka thaI gaI che eTale have e UThe nahIM. eTale pelo kapAsiyAno Topalo laI Ave, bIjuM badhuM nAkheluM hoya ne bheMsane dekhADIne kaheze ke, 'le, le, le.' pelI Ama jue to ya ene TopalAnI kazI paDelI ja nathI. AvI phrIjhanI ThaMDaka ene kayAM maLe ?! evuM A, jagatanA loko viSayonI phrIjha jevI ThaMDakamAM paDI rahyA che. viSayarUpI gAravatA che, temAM paDI rahyA che. e kAdava naryo gaMdhAya che, pelo sAruM khAvAnuM TopalAmAM dhare che to ya ene tyAM AgaLa A khAvAnuM nathI gamatuM. A gAravAmAM AkhuM jagata phasAyuM che. bhale phasAyA hoya, phasAyA teno savAla nathI. keTalI mudata mATe phasAyA teno ya savAla nathI, paNa AjathI nakkI to karavuM joIe ne ? ke have A nA joIe 126 samajathI prApta brahmacarya kayAre ya paNa. enA virodhI to kAyama rahevuM joIe ne ? nahIM to jo, be ekamata thaI gayuM. aMdara-bahAra ekamata thaI gayuM ke khalAsa thaI gayuM. tamAre keTaluM ekamata thAya che ? ke juduM rahe che ? praznakartA : juduM rahe che. dAdAzrI : kAyama ? mane nathI lAgatuM ke A zuravIro (!) judA rahe evA che ! A zuravIronAM te gajA zAM ?! jene jAgRti maMda thayelI che !! nahIM to viSaya to Ubho ja nA thAya ne ! ane thAya to vakhate pUrva prayoga hoya to. paNa tyAre potAnI draSTi mIThAzavALI nA hoya, narI kaMTALelI draSTi hoya ! jema nA bhAvatuM khAya che ne, tyAre enuM moTuM kevuM hoya ? khuzamAM hoya ? moTuM paNa UtarI gayeluM hoya ne ! paNa khAdhA vagara chUTako nathI, bhUkhanA mAryA khAvuM paDe che. eTale nA bhAvatuM che ene ! jagata evI gAravatAmAM paDI raheluM che. chatAM ya pUrva prayogI hoya, to baMdhAyelA che, tyAM chUTako ja nathI. paNa to ya enA tarapha niraMtara dAjha, dAjha ne dAjha ja rahevI joIe ane manamAM ema thayA kare ke A mane kayAM bheguM thayuM pAchuM ? evI jAgRti ja kayAM che te ? badhI Dalanesa che ! gAravatAmAM phasI rahyuM che, te zI rIte nIkaLe ? parANe khAvuM paDe te moTuM khuzamAM hoya ke ? paNa A to UtarI gayelAM moDhAM ja nathI hotA. jANe badhA bagIcAmAM pharavA nIkaLyA hoya evAM to moDhAM dekhAya che ! nahIM to amArA zabdo noMdhIne jo e pramANe cAle ne, to pAchalA doSa badhA nIkaLI jAya. bAkI purva prayoga to che ja, emAM amArAthI nA kahevAya nahIM ne ! A khAvuM paDe e pUrva prayoganA AdhAre. paNa ApaNe moTuM UtarI gayeluM hovuM joIe. pelo kahe ke "jamavA beso. tyAre pote parANe, kheMcAtA mane jamavA bese. evuM kheMcAtA mane koI dahADo ya khAdheluM kharuM ? emAM bahu majA Ave ? eTale Ano kAyado jo samaje ke AnI upara dAjha, dAjha ne dAjha ja rahevI joIe. paNa A to talAvaDI dIThI ke bheMsa khuza ! phrIjha AvyuM ! have zuM thAya ane te ?! eTale A badhuM gAravatAmAM phasAI gayeluM che, tethI prabhune vinaMtI kare

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 127 che he prabhu, rahyuM che phasI ! have A gAravatAmAMthI chUTe to ukela Ave. e gaMdha, e phoTo ya kevo paDe ? evuM badhuM rAta-dahADo manamAM kaiDyA kare. paNa A to cAnI peTha pIve che. jayAre cA pIvI hoya tyAre kaheze ke cA banAvo joIe. pachI cA banAvIne nIrAMte pIve ! evuM kema cAle ?! chatAM kaMIka vicAre to ya uttama che. bAkI ame to cetava, cetava karIe ke jema tema karIne bacI jAya to sAruM. pachI bIjuM zuM karIe ? ame ene ochAM mArIe ? bAkI jJAnI maLyA ne nA bace tyAre pachI enI ja bhUla che ne ! viSayo vedarUpa bhUkha maTADavA, nahIM ke zokharUpa ! AyuSya e zvAsocchvAsanI upara AdhAra rAkhe che. juvAna mANasa, normala veITa, nIrogI hoya evA mANasanA covIsa kalAkanA zvAsocchvAsa gaNIne te parathI so varSanuM AyuSya kADhayuM. jema zvAsocchvAsa vadhAre vaparAya tema AyuSya ochuM thAya. zvAsocchvAsa zemAM vadhAre vaparAya ? bhayamAM, krodhamAM, lobhamAM, kapaTamAM ane ethI ya vadhAre strI saMgamAM. ghaTita strI saMgamAM to ekadama vadhAre vaparAya, paNa ethI ya khUba vadhAre aghaTita strI saMgamAM vaparAya. jANe ke garagaDI ja ekadama ukalI jAya !! eTale A kudaratanI ramatamAM traNa veda ja nA hota to saMsAra jItI javAta. A traNa veda nA hota to zuM bagaDI jAta ? paNa badhuM bahu che AnAthI to. ohoho ! eTalI badhI ramaNatA chene enAthI to !! A viSayane veda tarIke nA rAkhyo hota, eka kArya tarIke, jema A khorAka khAIe chIe, e rIte kArya tarIke rAkhyo hota to vAMdho nahoto. paNa A to veda tarIke rAkhyo, vedanIya tarIke rAkhyo. A Dakho ja badho traNa vedano che. bhUkha zamAvavA mATe khAvAnuM che. lAgelI bhUkha zamAvo. jayAM pUraNa karavAnuM e badhI bhUkha kahevAya. bhUkha e vedanA zamAvavAno upAya che. ema badhA viSayo vedanA zamAvavAnA upAya che. jayAre A lokone viSayano zokha thaI gayo. alyA, zokhIna nA thaI jaIza. tyAM limiTa khoLI kADhaje ne normAliTImAM raheje. praznakartA : veda tarIke nahIM levAnuM, e tame zuM kahevA mAMgo cho? samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : loko vede che eTale TesTa cAkhe che. TesTa cAkhavuM, TesTane mATe khAvuM e bhUkha nA kahevAya. bhUkha maTADavA roTalo ne zAka khAvAnuM che, TesTane mATe nahIM. TesTa mATe khAvA jazo to roTalo ane zAka tamane bhAvaze ja nahIM. TesTa levA gayo mATe veda thaI gayo che. 'bhUkha'ne mATe ja 'khAya', eTalo tuM DAhyo thaI jA. to pachI mAre tane kazuM kahevuM ja nA paDe ne ! traNa vedathI A badhuM jagata saDe che, paDe che. 128 praznakartA : A traNa vedanuM solyuzana to AkhuM jagata zodhI rahyuM che ane jema jema solyuzana karavA jAya che tema tema vadhAre gUMcAya che. dAdAzrI : hA, eTale solyuzana mATenA rastAo, e badhA gUMcArA vadhAre che. AjubAjuvALAne pUchIe ke, 'A bhAI kevA che ? tyAre badhA kahe ke, 'bahu sukhiyA che.' ane emane pUchIe tyAre kahe, 'bahu dukhiyo chuM.' A vedane laIne che badhuM. Akho dahADo baLatarA, baLatarA...... A badhI baLatarA vedane laIne che. nahIM to manuSyane baLatarA hoya nahIM. jeNe veda jItyo, tenuM kAma thaI gayuM. A jagatamAM jItavA jevuM zuM che ? tyAre kahe ke veda. vedane tuM samajI gayo chuM ? e traNa veda kayA ? puruSa veda, strI veda ane napuMsaka veda. viSayasukha cAkhe, tyAM sudhI Atmasukha kema cakhAya ? AtmAnuM kharuM sukha to A brahmacArIo ja cAkhI zake. je strI rahita puruSo che, te ja cAkhI zake. pachI emane 'sTaDI' jaladI thaI jAya. kAraNa ke je paraNelAo che emanI pAse A sAcuM sukha ke peluM, e benI ke tulanAtmaka draSTi nathI. chatAM ya cAlavA do ne gADuM ApaNe ! je paraNelA che, ene amArAthI evuM ochuM kahevAya ke tuM kuMvAro thaI jA ! eTale ame ene 'samabhAve nikAla' karavAnuM kahyuM che. paNa vAtane samajo ema paNa kahIe chIe. viSayamAM to maravA jevuM du:kha thatuM hoya che. viSaya haMmezAM pariNAme kaDavo che. zarUAtamAM ene evuM lAge che ke A viSaya sukhadAyI che, paNa pariNAme to e kaDavo ja che. eno vipAke ya kaDavo che. pachI mANasa thoDIvAra to maDadAla thaI jAya che ! paNa e ya chUTako nathI ne ? e ya pharajiyAta che. have tame kaI bAju jazo ? Ama karavA

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130 samajathI prApta brahmacarya to konuM nAma kahevAya ke paravazapaNe karavuM paDe. dravya-kSetra-kALa ne bhAvanA AdhAre paravazapaNe karavuM paDe. te A jAnavarone bicArAne hoya che. praznakartA : to pachI paravazatAthI nA kare to Asakti kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : Asakti ja kahevAya ne ! A to zokhathI ja kare che. be palaMga vecAtA lAve che ne joDe mUke che, ne maccharadAnI eka AkhI lAve che. alyA, A te kaMI dhaMdho che ?! mokSe javuM hoya to mokSe javAnA cALA hovAM joIe ! mokSe javAnA cALA kevo hoya ? ekAMta zaiyAsananA. zaiyA ne Asana ekAMta hoya. - jyAM sudhI je bAbatamAM aMdha che, te bAbatamAM tyAM sudhI draSTi khIle ja nahIM ne UlaTo vadhAre ne vadhAre aMdha thato jAya. enAthI dUra rahe, tyAra pachI chuTo thAya. tyAre enI draSTi khIlatI jAya, pachI samajAtuM jAya. ekAMta zaiyAsata ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya 129 jazo to ya pharajiyAta che ne tema karavA jazo to ya pharajiyAta che. eTale mAruM kahevAnuM e ke pharajiyAtane pharajiyAta jANI ane emAM marajiyAta paNuM choDI do, emAM ApaNI marajI che e choDI do. cha-bAra mahinA viSayasukha choDI de to samajAya ke AtmAnuM sukha kyAMthI Ave che ! A to viSaya rahyo che eTale tyAM sudhI ene AmAM sAcuM sukha kayuM, eno khyAla nathI Avato ! tethI ame kahIe chIe ne, viSayamAMthI jarA khasI to juo, to sAcA sukhanI khabara paDaze ! viSayamAM sukhanuM hovApaNuM che ja nahIM ! viSayamAM to sukha hotuM haze ? darAja thayelI hoya ane Ama ghasa ghasa karyA kare, darAja valUra valUra kare ne bahu mIThuM lAge. paNa pachI ene lhAya baLe, enA jevuM che ! praznakartA H emAM sAcuM sukha nathI, paNa ekadama limiTeDa TAIma mATe to che, chatAM ya e chUTatuM nathI ne ! dAdAzrI : nA, emAM sukha ja nathI ! e to mAnyatA ja che khAlI ! e to mUrakha mANasonI mAnyatA ja che ! A to hAthane hAtha ghasIe to. sukha paDe to jANIe ke A cokhe cokhkhuM sukha che, paNa A viSaya to naryo gaMdavADo ja che ! jo koI buddhizALI mANasa e gaMdavADAno hisAba kADhe to e gaMdavADA bhaNI jAya ja nahIM ! hamaNAM keLAM khAvAnAM hoya to emAM gaMdavADo nathI ane e khAvAthI sukha kharuM, paNa A to naryA gaMdavADAne ja sukha mAnyuM che. zA hisAbe mAne che, te ya samajAtuM nathI ! emAM gaMdavADo dekhAya to e jAya ! praznakartA : to A viSayathI kevI rIte khasAya ? dAdAzrI : eka vAra evuM samaje ke A gaMdavADo che, to khasAya. bAkI A to gaMdavADo che, evuM ya samajyo ja nathI ! eTale evI pahelAM samaja AvavI joIe. amane jJAnIone to badhuM 'opana' dekhAya. emAM zuM zuM haze, te mati tarata ja cogaradama badhe pharI vaLe. mahIM kevo gaMdavADo che ne zuM zuM kevuM che, te badhuM dekhADI de ! jyAre A to viSayo ja nathI. viSayo to jAnavarone hoya. A to khAlI Asakti ja che. bAkI viSaya praznakartA: Ape ekAMta zaiyAsana kIdhuM, te emAM paNa aMdarathI to ekAMtamAM ya gAMTho to phUTe ne ? dAdAzrI : ekAMta zaiyAsana eTale zuM ? ke zaiyAmAM koI joDe nahIM ne AsanamAM ya koI joDe nahIM. saMyogI 'phAIlono koI jAtano sparza nahIM. e zAstrakAro to eTale sudhI mAnatA hatA ke je Asana para A parajAti beThI, te Asana upara tuM besIza to tane eno sparza thaze, vicAro Avaze. evI badhI mAnyatAo hatI. atyAre e jhINavaTabharI mAnyatAnI vAta karIe to eno artha nathI. atyAre to evuM cAlyA ja kare ne ! A to saMpUrNa mohano kALa che ! A mohanIya kALa nathI, mahA mohanIya kALa che !! praznakartA: enAM Asana para besavAthI paNa asara thAya che, enAM karatAM vadhu asara to aMdaranuM che, tenAthI che ne ? bahAranuM to badhuM bahu sthaLamAM gayuM ne ? enA karatAM aMdaranuM je phUTe, to e jarA vadhAre jora mAre ne ?

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 131 dAdAzrI : aMdaranuM phUTe ke bahArathI phUTe. paNa badhuM jJAyaka svabhAvanI bahAra che ane bIjuM badhuM ya zeya che. pachI ApaNane zuM aDyuM ? praznakartA : jJAna lIdhA pachI nirAkuLatA vartAya che. chatAM ya viSayamAM Asakti kema rahI jAya che ? dAdAzrI : mahIM evo mAla bharyo che, te hajI enA manamAM zraddhA che ke emAM sukha che. pheravo bilipha viSayatI ! praznakartA : eTale jJAna pachI khAlI ekalI 'bilipha' ja pheravavAnI che ? dAdAzrI : hA, paNa evuM che ne, rAITa zraddhA pUrI kyAre beThI kahevAya ke roMga zraddhA badhI ja UDI jAya tyAre ! have mULa roMga bilipha ame uDADI paNa A viSayamAM to ame thoDI-ghaNI rIMga zraddhA phrekacara karI ApIe ! bAkI badhuM ame kaMI phekacara karavA navarA chIe ? eTale viSayamAMthI rasa kyAre nirmULa thAya ke paheluM to potAne ema lAge ke A maracuM khAuM chuM e mane naDe che, AvI rIte nukasAna kare che. evuM ene samajAvuM joIe. jene maracAMno zokha hoya, te tene jyAre guNa-avaguNa samajAI jAya ne khAtarI thAya ke mane nukasAna ja kare che to e zokha jAya. have ApaNane 'zuddhAtmAmAM ja sukha che" evuM yathArthapaNe samajAI jAya to viSayamAM sukha ja nA rahe. chatAM ya viSayamAM sukha lAge che, e pahelAMnuM rIekzana che ! praznakartA : viSayamAM sukha che, e 'bilipha' paDI che, te kevI rIte nIkaLe ? dAdAzrI : ApaNane A cA sarasa mIThI lAge che, e ApaNo rojano anubhava che. paNa jalebI khAdhA pachI kevI lAge ? praznakartA: moLI lAge. 132 samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : eTale te dahADe ApaNane samajaNa paDI gaI, bilipha besI gaI ke jalebI khAdhI hoya to cA moLI lAge. evI rIte AtmAnuM sukha hoya che, tyAre bIjuM badhuM moLuM lAge. viSayathI TaLe jJAta te dhyAta ! A viSaya vastu evI che ke eka ja dahADAno viSaya traNa dahADA sudhI koI paNa prakAranI ekAgratA nA thavA de, ekAgratAmAM hAlama-Dolama thayA kare. jyAre mahinA sudhI viSaya nA seve, to enI ekAgratAmAM hAlama-Dolama nA thAya. AtmAnuM sukha tamane varte che, tenA AdhAre tame ahIM AvyA karo cho. tamArI draSTi ahIM ja hoya che, chatAM ya paNa tamane A sukha AtmAnuM che ke viSayanuM che e bheda mAluma nA paDe. ajANyA mANasane pahelAM jalebI khavaDAvIe ne pachI cA pIvaDAvIe to ? evuM jalebIne lIdhe cA moLI lAge, evuM AmAM bheda mAluma nA paDe ! ta bujhAya e pyAsa kadi... jo sukha kyAMya jaDatuM nathI ! ATalA paisA che, to ya paisAmAM sukha paDatuM nathI, bairI che emAM ya sukha paDatuM nathI ! eTale vaLI pAchAM boTala maMgAvIne, jarA pIne sUI jAya che ! sukha to mANase joyuM ja nathI ne ! jIvamAtra zuM khoLe che ? sukhane ja khoLe che. kAraNa ke eno svabhAva ja sukhano che. cittavRtti sukha ja khoLe che ke AmAM sukha Avaze, jalebImAM sukha Avaze, attaramAM sukha Avaze, sinemAmAM sukha Avaze. e cAkhyA pachI pote nakkI kare ke AmAM kaMI ja sukha nathI. pachI pote e badhuM choDa choDa karyA kare ne AgaLa navuM khoLatuM ja jAya, paNa ene tRpti nA thAya. saMtoSa thAya paNa tRpti nA thAya. saMtoSa enuM nAma ke icchA pUrI thAya eTale saMtoSa thAya. jamavAnI icchA thaI, pachI ApaNe jamyA eTale saMtoSa thAya paNa tRpti nA thAya. tRpti eTale ene pharI icchA ja nA thAya. praznakartA : koI icchA ApaNe karI hoya ne ApaNane te vastu nA maLI, eTale mahIM baLatarA zarU thAya ne ? dAdAzrI : icchA e ja agni che. icchA thaI eTale dIvAsaLI

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 133 saLagAvIne cAMpavI. e pachI olavAya nahIM, tyAM sudhI baLatarA rahyA kare. kaDaka icchA ke narama icchA hoya tenA para baLatarAno AdhAra rahe che. bahu kaDaka icchA hoya to bahu baLatarA UbhI thAya. A viSayanI icchA to bahu baLatarA Ape, jabarajasta baLatarA Ape. tethI ema kahyuM che ne, ke viSayamAM paDazo ja nahIM, bahu baLatarA Ape che. praznakartA : AvuM to koIe kIdheluM ja nahIM ne ! dAdAzrI : lokone poluM badhuM joIe che. eTale koI kahe ja nahIM ne ! loka pote gunegAra che, eTale e bole nahIM ne ! binagunegAra hoya te bole. kAraNa ke eka ja pherAno viSaya, te keTalA dahADA sudhI mANasane bhrAMti chUTavA nA de ! bhrAMti eTale DisIjhana nA Ave ke A AtmAnuM sukha ke A peluM sukha, evuM bhAna thavA nA de ! A jJAna sAthe jo brahmacaryavrata lIdhuM pachI mAthAkUTa ja nahIM ne ! upAdhimAM ya sukha varSA kare ! A loko mAMsanI pUtaLI che, evuM zAthI bhUlI jatAM haze ? evuM che ne, mUrchAthI e emAMthI jema jema sukha le, tema tema enI para mUrchA Ave che ane jo cha-bAra mahinA emAMthI sukha le nahIM to pachI enI mUrchA jAya. eTale pAchuM ene rezamI cAdare vIMTeluM mAMsa ja dekhAya ! to ja maLe AtmAtuM sukha ! cAlIsa rUpiye kilonA bhAvanI cA hoya paNa TesTa nA Ave to enuM zuM kAraNa ? ke eka bAju cA pIto hoya, bIjI bAju dADama khAto hoya, jAmaphaLa khAto hoya te pachI cAno TesTa mAlUma paDe ? to cAno TesTa kyAre mAlUma paDe ke bIjuM badhuM khAvAnuM baMdha karI daIe ne moDhuMboDhuM sApha karIne pachI cA pIe to samajaNa paDe ke A cAlIsa rUpiye kilonA bhAvanI cA bahu sarasa che ! tyAre cAno anubhava thAya ! evuM AtmAno anubhava A badhI vastuomAM zI rIte mAlUma paDe ? bhAna rahe nahIM ne ? eTalI jAgRti mANasane hoya nahIM ne ! eTale Avo prayoga karIe, cha-bAra mahinAnuM brahmacaryanuM vrata lIdhuM hoya to pachI A anubhava samajAya ! cAno anubhava lAvavA bIjuM baMdha karavuM paDe ke nA karavuM paDe ? evuM AtmAno anubhava evI vastu che ke bIjA TesTa badhA AghAMpAchAM 134 samajathI prApta brahmacarya thAya tyAre A TesTa samajAya. tyAM sudhI samajAya nahIM ne ! eTale ahIM roja doDadhAma karIne zAthI Ave che ? kAraNa ke ene TesTa to roja Ave che, paNa ene bhAna thatuM nathI ke kyAMthI Ave che ? e adabada rahe che. eTale jyAre brahmacarya ekaluM ja hoya, cha-bAra mahinAnuM brahmacaryavrata ApyuM hoya to ene khabara paDI jAya ke kharo AnaMda to A che. pelo viSaya nathI to ya ATalo badho AnaMda rahe che ! UlaTo, A AnaMda to vadhe che ! pachI ene ja oLakhAya ke AtmAno AnaMda kevo hoya ! nahIM to tyAM sudhI samajAtuM ja nathI ke A kayo AnaMda ? AnaMda Ave che e nakkI che, paNa A pudgalano AnaMda ke AtmAno AnaMda e ekjhekTa samajAya nahIM ne ! have A kALamAM mana to sAruM nA rahe, tethI mananuM pratyAkhyAna karavuM ane vANIthI ya bolAvuM na joIe ane kAyAthI to rahevuM ja joIe. Ama mana-vacana-kAyAthI cha-bAra mahinA brahmacarya rahe to 'ekjhekTa' anubhava thaI jAya. A jJAna ApeluM che, eTale anubhava to thAya che. paNa jJAnano jevo joIe tevo sarvAza anubhava thato nathI. anubhavanI tIvra jijJAsA hoya te A rIte kare to kAma thAya, nahIM to ya vIryanI ikonomI to karavI ja joIe. tirAlaMba AnaMda ora ! moTAmAM moTI harakata to bahAra badhe draSTi kharAba rAkhavI te che. bIjuM, ethI AgaLa AmAM zuM karavuM paDe ke A jema varasamAM skUlamAM doDha mahino rajA paDe che evuM A viSayamAM jo evI cha mahinA rajA laI le to ene khabara paDI jAya ke A sukha kyAMthI Ave che ? eTale A to tene sukha Ave che e cokkasa, paNa parIkSA thatI nathI ke sAcuM sukha AmAM kyuM ? amane juone, covIse ya kalAka ekalA rUmamAM besADI rAkhene, to ya e ja AnaMda hoya, joDe koI ekAda mANasa hoya to ya e ja AnaMda hoya ane lAkho mANasa hoya to ya e ja AnaMda hoya. enuM kAraNa zuM ? amAre nirAlaMba sukha utpanna thAya, avalaMbana joIe nahIM. jagata AkhuM ya, jIvamAtra paraspara che, eTale ekabIjAnuM avalaMbana joIe. tethI to A lokoe lagnanI zodhakhoLa karelI ke lagna karo pachI sAmasAmI avalaMbana maLI rahe !

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 135 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM' e zabdanuM avalaMbana che ! paNa e lIlI jhaMDInuM praveza che ! ane chellAmAM chelluM nirAlaMba AtmA, ene zabdanuM ke koI avalaMbana nahIM, evo nirAlaMba AtmA ! tyAM sudhI have gADI cAle ! paNa eka phero zabdAvalaMbanathI gADI cAlavI joIe ane e zabdAvalaMbanavALo zuddhAtmA anubhava hau Ape ! eTale pUchavA jevuM kazuM nathI. AtmA ekalo ja jANavA jevo che. je lakSamAM Avyo, e AtmA jANavA jevo che. A mArga saraLa che, sahaja che, sugama che. potAnI jAtane lakSamAM rAkhI badhuM pUchavuM, pudgalanuM dhyAna rAkhavAnI jarUra nathI. AtmA tamArI pAse rahyo, tenuM dhyAna rAkhavAnuM che. AtmAno spaSTa anubhava karavo hoya to viSaya chebAra mahinA baMdha karavA. A badhA anubhava to thayA kare che, paNa baMne joDe rahe to khabara na paDe ke "sugaMdhI" kyAMthI Ave che ? amArI AjJAno amala karyA pachI pratikramaNa karavAnI zarUAta karo. pachI ja e viSaya chUTaze. amAruM A jJAna, A je je vAta karIe chIe ne, e badhAno amala karyA pachI mahino mahino doSonAM pratikramaNa karo. eTale ApaNane potAne khAtarI thaI jAya ke A ja sAcuM che. AtmAnI anaMta zakti che. keTalAMkane brahmacaryavrata lIdhA pachI camatkAra thAya che. pachI bahu suMdara pariNatIo rahe che ane pachI manamAM viSayanA vicAro ja baMdha thaI jAya che. pachI viSaya ene game ja nahIM ! mANasane sukha ja joIe che. te sukha maLatuM hoya to pachI kAdavamAM hAtha ghAlavA koI taiyAra nA thAya. A to bahAra tApa lAge che eTale kAdavamAM hAtha ghAle che, ThaMDaka lAge eTalA mATe, nahIM to kAdavamAM koI hAtha ghAlatuM haze ?! paNa zuM thAya ? have tamane eka phero anubhavathI samajAyuM ke A jJAnamAM viSaya sivAya bahu suMdara sukha rahe che, eTale pachI tamane viSayo gamatAM baMdha thaI jAya. A jJAna evuM che ke viSaya sivAya paNa bahu suMdara sukha rahe che. eTale pachI badhA viSayo enI meLe ApoApa chUTI jAya, badhA kharI paDe, paNa e badho anubhava karI karIne geDa paDe tyAre ! samajavI brahmacaryanI anivAryatA ! 136 samajathI prApta brahmacarya che ne loko ?! kaMI nathI pALatA evuM nathI, paNa e vaijJAnika DhabathI nathI. ahaMkArI DhabathI che. ahaMkArathI thaI zake, paNa te vaijJAnika Dhaba jevuM nA hoya. e nirbaLa hoya. jyAre nirahaMkArI DhabathI to 'pote' jJAtAdraSTA rahe, 'caMdubhAI' brahmacarya kevuM pALe che, e 'pote jANe ane ahaMkArI DhabamAM to pote ja brahmacarya pALanAro, e vaijJAnika nathI. brahmacarya to jagate ya pALe che, paNa te vaijJAnika nathI. ApaNI pAse "akrama mArgamAM vaijJAnika Dhaba che, mana-vacana-kAyAthI che. mana kUde to jagatanA loko pAse tenI sAme kazI davA nathI. jyAre ApaNI pAse davA che. ApaNuM brahmacarya to devaloko ya jovA Ave ! - abrahmacarya ane dArU, e to jJAnane bahu AvaraNa lAvanArI vastu che. mATe bahu ja jAgRta rahevuM. dArU to evuM che ne, "caMdubhAI chuM' e ja bhAna bhUlI jAya che ne ! to pachI AtmA to bhUlI ja javAya ne ! AthI bhagavAne DaravAnuM kahyuM che. jene saMpUrNa anubhavajJAna thAya, ene nA aDe, chatAM bhagavAnanA jJAnane ya ukhADIne bahAra nAkhI de ! eTaluM badhuM emAM jokhama che ! ekAda jo pALavA jevo kAyado hoya to huM kahuM ke brahmacarya pALaje ! icchAo viramI jAya to aMtarano vaibhava pragaTa thAya. AtmA to brahmacArI ja che. meM Apelo AtmA brahmacArI ja che. have 'tamAre' caMdubhAIne kahevAnuM ke, "bhaI, tabiyata sArI rAkhavI hoya, saMsAra dhIme rahIne pUro karavo hoya to cha-bAra mahinAnA brahmacaryavrata bane tyAM sudhI levAya to sArI vAta che. enAthI zarIranuM baMdhAraNa sAruM rahe." A to baMdhAraNa 'lujha" thaI gayuM che. brahmacarya vrata laIne toDavuM e guno che. enA karatAM levuM nahIM ane ApaNI meLe mahIM upazama karyA karIe to UlaTuM sAruM. pote ghera ne ghera badhA prayoga karI zakAya che. jene mokSe ja javuM hoya te potAno rasto cUke nahIM, tenuM nAma ja jJAnI kahevAya ! game teTalI bahArathI lAlaco Ave to paNa potAno rasto cUke nahIM !!! brahmacarya to bahu moTI vastu kahevAya ! hindustAnamAM brahmacarya pALe

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 137 aMte ya lejo brahmacarya vrata ! javAnImAM ja brahmacarya joIe evo pAcho niyama nathI. javAnInuM brahmacarya e to bahu UMcI vastu che. paNa huM kahuM chuM ke game tyAre le. are, caiDapaNa hoya ne maravAnA dasa dahADA agAu brahmacarya vrata le to ya kalyANa kADhI nAkhe ane te ya jJAnInA hAthe brahmacarya vrata hovuM joIe. je sarvAMga brahmacArI che evA jJAnInA hAthe ja vrata apAvavuM joIe. AmAM evuM nathI pAchuM ke A vrata laI ja levuM joIe, AmAM phakta ApaNI bhAvanA joIe. karavuM joIe kahIe paNa karye thatuM nathI. ApaNe ema kahIe Aje ke mAre ya brahmacaryavrata levuM che, paNa tevuM thaI zake nahIM. bhAvanA karyA karavI joIe to kyAreka udayamAM Avaze ne udayamAM hoya tyAre brahmacarya vrata levuM. bhAvanA karI che, to udaya enI meLe TAIme AvIne Ubho rahe ja ! eTale ame cetavaNI ApIe ke A DhALa upara caDhavuM hoya to A rasto che, nahIM to pelo DhALa to che ja, bhaI ! ane A DhALa upara caDhavuM hoya to lokonuM kAme ya kADhI nAkhe evuM che ! kAraNa ke brahmacarya vrata sivAya to koI dahADo kazuM banI zake evuM nathI. jagatanuM kalyANa thavAmAM brahmacarya vrata sivAya kazuM vaLe nahIM, bAkI potAnuM kalyANa karI zake. eTale A brahmacarya vrata to moTAmAM moTuM vrata che. brahmacarya vitA tathI pUrNAhUti ! jene saMpUrNa thavuM hoya, tene to viSaya hovo ja nA joIe ane te ya evo niyama nathI. e to chellA avatAramAM chellAM paMdara varSa chUTI gayuM hoya, to basa thaI gayuM. AnI kaMI bhavobhava kasarata karavAnI jarUra nathI ke tyAga levAnI ya jarUra nathI. tyAga sahaja hovo joIe ke enI meLe ja chUTI jAya ! niyANuM evuM rAkhavuM ke mokSe jatAM sudhI je be-cAra avatAra thAya, te paiNyA vagaranA jAya to sAruM. enAM jevuM ekeya nahIM. niyANuM ja evuM rAkhavuM te ! pachI je thAya te dekha leMge ! ane jo A eka bojo gayone to badhA ya bojA gayA ! A eka che to badhuM ya che ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya A jJAna lIdhuM eTale dAdAnA pratApe svacchaMda rokAyo ! eTale A mahAtmAone avazya mokSanuM sAdhana thaI gayuM. paNa pAchI A eka bhAMjagaDa kAcI rahe che ! keTalAka to paiNelA kharAne, e A badhI vAtacIta thAya to AnI jokhamadArI samajI gayA ! eTale pachI vRttio vALI le. jJAnI puruSanI ApelI AjJA pALe to jabarajasta nUra utpanna thAya. AjJA pALavAmAM jeTaluM sAcuM dila ane sAco ullAsa teTaluM phaLa Ave. vratanI AjJA pALo tyAre amAre joDe hAjara thavuM paDe. A AjJAmAM to amAruM vacanabaLa, cAritrabaLa vaparAya. 138 praznakartA : dharovALuM khetara hoya tyAM baLadanuM kAma nathI, e to TrekaTaranuM ja kAma che. tamArA jevuM TrekaTara joIe, dAdA !! dAdAzrI : hA, paNa ukheDI nAkhavAnuM che. brahmacarya to UMcAmAM UMcI vastu che. lagna karyA pachI brahmacarya le, to e brahmacarya ghaNuM sAruM paLAya. saMsArano svAda cAkhI lIdhA pachI ene ghaNuM kharuM upazama thaI gayeluM hoya. tyAra pachI brahmacaryavrata le che, je ame ghaNAMne ApIe chIe, te bahu suMdara pALe che. A sAdhvIjIo je thAya che te to paiNyA pachI cALIsa varSanAM thAya, chokarAM traNa thayA pachI dIkSA le che, to ya te mahAsatI kahevAya. kAraNa ke brahmacarya chellAM paMdara varSa pALe to ya bahu thaI gayuM. bhagavAna mahAvIre chellAM betALIsa varSa brahmacarya pALyuM hatuM. trIsa varSe emane choDI(dikarI) hatI. paNa e badhA puruSo to UrdhvagAmI, UrdhvaretA hoya. temanAM magaja evAM pAvaraphula hoya, eTalI badhI jAgRti hoya ! emanI vANI to ora ja jAtanI hoya !! jagatamAM koI divasa nIkaLyuM ja nathI, evuM A vijJAna che ! kAyama samAdhimAM rAkhanAruM che ! AvuM brahmacarya pALe to ya samAdhi ane brahmacarya nA pALe ne bairI paiNe to ya samAdhi !! eTale Ano lAbha uThAvajo. spaSTa vedata aTakayuM viSaya baMdhatathI ! A jJAna game tevAM karmone dhULadhANI karI nAkhe, mahIM je che e bALIne bhasmIbhUta karI nAkhe evuM che.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 139 praznakartA : hA, e barobara che. paNa koI spaSTavedana nathI, AtmAnA sukhanuM ? dAdAzrI : have e spaSTavedana kyAM sudhI nA thAya ? jyAM sudhI A viSaya-vikAra nA jAya, tyAM sudhI spaSTavedana nA thAya. eTale A AtmAnuM sukha che ke A kayuM sukha che, te 'ekjhekTa' nA samajAya. brahmacarya hoya to 'ona dhI momenTa' samajAI jAya. spaSTavedana thAya eTale e paramAtmA ja thaI gayo kahevAya ! jene sAMsArika duHkhano abhAva varte, kapaTa jatuM rahe eTale mahIM spaSTa anubhava thavA mAMDe ! kapaTane laIne anubhava aspaSTa rahe che ! je jeTalAM pramANamAM amArI pAse khulluM kare te teTalo amArI sAthe abheda thayo, ne jeTalo abheda thayo eTalo spaSTa anubhava thAya ! ApaNane AtmA prApta thayo che, eTale ApaNe satsaMgamAM paDI rahevuM joIe. satsaMga eTale AtmAno saMga ! ahIMthI jo pAcho kusaMgamAM peTho ke A raMga UtarI jAya. kusaMganuM eTaluM badhuM jora che ke kusaMgamAM saheja vAra javuM nahIM ane ghara mATe to kRpALudeve kevo kusaMga lakhyo che ? ke e 'kAjaLa koTaDI' kahI ! have gharamAM rahevuM ane asaMga rahevuM, e to jAgRti rAkhavI paDe. amArA zabdonI jAgRti rAkhavI paDe, amArI AjJA pALavI joIe to gharamAM rahI zakAya ! athavA to asara kyAre nA thAya ? spaSTavedana thAya tyAre asara nA thAya ane spaSTavedana kyAre thAya ke 'saMsArI saMga' 'prasaMga' nA thAya tyAre ! 'saMsArI saMga'no vAMdho nathI, paNa 'prasaMga'no vAMdho che. tyAM sudhI 'spaSTavedana' nA thAya. saMga to A zarIrano che, baLyo ! paNa pAcho prasaMga to ekalAM Ama nirAMte besI rahevuM hoya to ya nA rahevAya. amane to A saMga ja bhAre paDI gayo che. te pAchAM prasaMga karavA kyAM jaIe ? A saMga ja mahIMthI bUma pADe, aDhI vAgI gayA, hajI cA nathI AvI ! che pote asaMga ane paDyo che saMgaprasaMgamAM ! ////////// [9] lo vratato TrAyala ! brahmacarya pachI ja AtmAto spaSTa anubhava ! praznakartA : mULa prazna ema che ke evuM kaMIka mAnasika rIlIjha batAvo ke jethI karIne avalaMbana lokonAM tUTI jAya. tyAre emAM halakA thaIne paNa rahI zake. dAdAzrI : hA. evuM ja ame badhAne batAvIe chIe. e anubhava kone thAya ke jene strIno saMjoga nathI, tene eno anubhava rahyA kare. bIjA badhAne anubhava thAya kharo paNa strInA saMyogane lIdhe ene bAdhA rahyA kare. eka ja phero strIno saMjoga hoya to traNa dahADA sudhI to mana ekAgra nA thavA de. eTale e bAdhaka che. eTale A ApaNA brahmacArIo emane A jaldI anubhava thaI jAya ne tenAM AdhAre ja e brahmacarya pALI zake che. viSaya e to eka prakArano roga che. praznakartA : moTo roga, bahu moTo, kensara jevo. dAdAzrI : bahu moTo, kensara to sAruM, baLyuM ! e to eka ja

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 141 avatAra mAre. A to anaMta avatAra mArI nAkhe. A to anaMta avatArathI A ja mAra paDe che ne, baLyo ! tamane nahIM lAgatuM A roga kahevAya ? haiM ! badhA ya samaje che aMdarakhAne paNa zuM thAya ? nIkaLAtuM nA hoya to ? chatAM ya huM vidhi karI ApuM to chUTI jAya. brahmacaryane ApaNe jANIe to e kaMTrolebala thAya. viSayamAM je doSo rahelA che ne e jANIe to kaMTrolebala thAya. eka bhaI kahe che, 'dAdAjI, AnaMda AtmAno che ke A viSayano AnaMda che e samajaNa nathI paDatI, enuM zuM karavuM ? A AnaMda to mane varte che paNa A viSayano che ke AtmAno che, e bemAM samajaNa phera nathI paDato mArAthI.' tyAre meM kahyuM, 'ApaNe cA ne bhUsuM sAthe khaIe, te svAda cAmAMthI Ave che ke bhUsAmAMthI Ave che e khabara nA paDe. te eka baMdha karavuM paDe bemAMthI. ane AtmAno AnaMda tame baMdha karI zako nahIM. eTale viSayano AnaMda tame baMdha karo, to e tamane AnaMdanI anubhUti thAya. AjathI dhAro ke baMdha nA thAya. sahu sahunA gajA pramANe. paNa e baMdha karo tyAre samajaNa paDe. nahIM to bhUsuM ne cA be, joDe joDe khAdhA karIe, to emAM kono svAda Ave, e zuM khabara paDe ? eTale pachI e mANase mane zuM kahyuM ? ke mAre kyAre baMdha karavuM kahe ? meM kahyuM, 'ame amerikA jaIe, te dA'De tAre baMdha karavuM ane amerikAthI pAchA AvIe, te dA'DAthI cAlu.' cAra ja mahinA mATe vAMdho kharo emAM ? khabara nA paDe cAra mahinAmAM ? tamane khabara paDe ke A kyAMthI AnaMda Ave che ? haju loko gothA khAya che. haju A jJAna pachI to badho AnaMda Ave ja che, paNa ene ema samajAI jAya che ke pahelAM Avato hato, tevo ja che ne ! meM kahyuM, 'nA. e tuM jyAre judo thaIza tyAre. bhUsuM ne cA be joDe nahIM phAkuM tyAre khabara paDaze tane. ke kAM to cA pI le, kAM to bhUsuM khAI le. eTale cAnAM spesIphIkezana khabara paDaze ! viSayamAM duHkha to AmAM samajatA ja nathI. no Tenzana jevI sthiti, eno artha evo nahIM ke jabarajastI karavI, paNa ko'ka phero pAMca dahADA samajathI prApta brahmacarya TrAyala levAmAM vAMdho zo ? be dahADA che, pAMca dahADA nA levAya to, jAnavaro to nava mahinA le, paNa manuSya be dahADA-cAra dahADA to laI zake, to TrAyala le ne ! 142 e to ame A ghaNAM vakhata kaheluM hoya paNa zuM thAya ene ? ame tamane cetava cetava karIe. paNa cetavuM bahu saheluM nathI bA ! chatAM amathA akhatarA karatA hoya ne, ke A mahinAmAM traNa dahADA ke pAMca dahADA ane jo aThavADiyuM kare to to bahu suMdara potAne khabara paDe, aThavADiyAnA vacalA divase to eTalo badho AnaMda Ave ! AtmAnuM sukha ne svAda Ave, kevuM sukha che te ! tiyamamAM Ave to ya ghaNuM ! jamavA besADyA pachI jarA bhAta moDuM thAya to zuM thAya ? dALamAM hAtha nA ghAle to zAkamAM hAtha ghAle, caTaNImAM hAtha ghAle. niyamamAM nA rahI zake ane jene A niyama rAkhatA AvaDyo, enuM kalyANa thaI jaze ! ame upavAsa nathI karatA, paNa niyamamAM rahI zakIe ke bhaI ATaluM ja, pachI baMdha. have e karI lAve che pelAM DhokaLAM, te ame AthI cAra gaNA khavAya ema che, bhAve che ya eTalAM sarasa, paNa 'nA'. praznakartA H to e niyama jAgRtinA AdhAre rahe ? dAdAzrI : jAgRti to hoya ja badhAne, paNa pelo je svAdathI je raMgAI gayelo che ne, tyAM kaMTrola rahI zake nahIM. muzkela che kaMTrola rahevAnuM, e jyAre khuda AtmArUpa jeTalo thAya, eTalAmAM kaMTrola Avato jAya. keTalAMka mANaso kahe che, viSaya Ama mane chUTato nathI. meM kahyuM, emAM zuM gAMDA kare che, thoDo thoDo niyama le ne ! e niyamamAM, pachI niyama choDIza nahIM. A kALamAM to niyama nA kare e to cAle ja nahIM ne ! thoDAMka hola to rAkhavAM ja paDe. nA rAkhavA paDe ? praznakartA : rAkhavA paDe. dAdAzrI : bleka hola kahe che ne, ene. ema to sAva saccIo

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144 samajathI prApta brahmacarya jANavuM e yama kahevAya, satya bolavuM e jANavuM e yama kahevAya, corI nahIM karavI e jANavuM e yama kahevAya, parigraha nahIM rAkhavo joIe e yama kahevAya. hiMsA nahIM karavI joIe e yama kahevAya. A jANyuM eTale tame yamamAM AvyA. jANyA pachI nakkI karyuM ke ApaNe koI niyama AvavuM, te ghaDIe niyamamAM Avyo ane niyama rAkhyA pachI tame ejhekTa pALo tyAre saMyamamAM AvyA. grahasthAzramamAM brahmacarya ! cAra Azramo kayA kayA goThavyA'tA ? praznakartA : brahmacaryAzrama, gRhasthAzrama, vAnaprasthAzrama ane saMnyastAzrama. pAchAM dareka paccIsa varSanA. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 143 (sAco) thaIne besIza, to mUA mAra khaI khaIne marI jaIza ane pachI jUTho thaI jAya. eka phero jUTho thayo, eTale jUTho thaI javuM ? nA, e ja niyamamAM rAkhe. meM tane brahmacarya pALavAnuM kahyuM hoya ane brahmacarya chUTI gayuM eTale hapuruM khalAsa karI nAkhavAnuM ? nA, pAchuM enuM niyama para Ava. cha mahinA sudhI nathI paLAtuM to ApaNe mahinAmAM be divasa rAkho, cAlo. bAkI badhA divasa amAruM brahmacarya che. amArI pAse kAyado karAvI javo pachI. Avo sarasa rasto kADhI Apyo che meM badho ! praznakartA H tame dareka vastunI aMdara ke koI paNa vyavahArika kAryanI aMdara paNa, evo sacoTa ukela Apelo che. dAdAzrI : ukela badhA suMdara ! atyAra sudhI to, A badhe brahmacArI koIne kahyAM ja nahIM, paNelo che ne ! alyA mUA, tethI ja meM pustakamAM lakhyuM ke alyA, tame paNelA cho. te huM tamane bhAva brahmacarya kahuM chuM, kudaratane nA kahevuM haze to nA kaheze, paNa huM to kahuM chuM ne ! Ama mArI javAbadArI para ! tyAre kahe, 'zI rIte ame brahmacArI kahevAIe ?" meM kahyuM, 'bIjI strIne joto nathI ne bIjI strIno vicAra hapuco nathI karato, e brahmacArI che ! bIjI strIne joto nathI ane e kheMcANa thAya to pratikramaNa kare che, e brahmacArI che." eka patnIvrata, ene ame A kALamAM brahmacarya kahIe chIe. bolo, tIrthakaronI jokhamadArI laIne bolIe chIe. mArA jevuM bolAya nahIM, eka akSare ya bolAya nahIM, navo kAyado sudhArA ya nahIM, paNa chatAM huM javAbadArI lauM chuM. kAraNa ke A kALamAM eka patnIvrata rahevuM ane draSTi bagADavI nahIM, e to bahu moTAmAM moTuM kahevAya. bAvAo paiNyA nathI, bAvAoe tALuM mArI dIdheluM. emAM to zuM navI dhADa mArI ? dhADa to ApaNe khullAM tALAoe mArI kahevAya. A tamane samajAya ? koNe dhADa mArI kahevAya? khullAM tALAoe, e paNa ame jJAna ApIe to ! bIjA koIthI bane nahIM, ImposIbala ! badhI ja jAtanI chUTa ApavA taiyAra chuM tamane to, koI paNa niyamamAM AvavA mAMgo to badhI jAtanI chUTa ApavA taiyAra chuM. kAraNa ke niyama ja momAM laI jAya. yama eTale zuM ? brahmacarya pALavAnuM jJAna dAdAzrI : A to so varSa jIvatA hatA, tyAranI vAta che. baMdhAraNa kevuM suMdara che ! ane e baMdhAraNa zabda zuM kare che ? e mana upara IphekTa kare eTale mana e bAju vaLI jAya. atyAre gavarnamenTa orDara karI nAkhe, nava vAgyA pachI badhAe UMghI javuM evuM sakhta orDara thAya be-cAra vakhata, to pachI e bAju mana vaLI jAya. manano svabhAva ke orDara zuM che ? mana DIsorDaravALuM nathI, orDara hovuM joIe. praznakartA : saMsArI jIvanamAM brahmacarya paLAya kharuM ? dAdAzrI : hA, bahu suMdara pALanArA hoya che. pahelAM RSimunio brahmacarya ja pALatAM hatAM badhA. strI ne puruSa beu. paiNelA hau pALe che. be joDI hoya che, te ya badhA pALe che. ame vidhine e AvuM brahmacarya vrata hau ApeluM che. keTalAMkane ! praznakartA : hA. paNa banne jaNAM eka thaIne Ave tyAre thaI zake. dAdAzrI : hA.. praznakartA : paNa puruSanI icchA brahmacarya pALavAnI hoya ane sAme pakSe strInI na hoya to zuM karavAnuM ?

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146 samajathI prApta brahmacarya samajathI prApta brahmacarya 145 dAdAzrI : nA hoya to ene zuM vAMdho che te ?! samajAvI devAnuM. praznakartA: kevI rIte samajAvavuM ? dAdAzrI : e to samajAvatAM samajAvatAM rAge paDe dhIme dhIme, ekadama baMdha nA thAya. samajAvatAM, samajAvatAM. beu samAdhAnapUrvaka mArga lo ne ! AmAM zuM nukasAna che e badhI vAto karIe ne evA vicAro karIe. praznakartA : puruSa jJAna lIdhuM che, strIe jJAna lIdhuM nathI. puruSane khabara che ke A brahmacarya.... dAdAzrI : e cAle nahIM, paNa strIne paNa jJAna levaDAvuM joIe. paiNyo hato zuM karavA ? praznakartA : paNa strIne jJAna levaDAvuM, e puruSanI bhAvanA hovA chatAM evuM zakya banatuM nathI. dAdAzrI : evuM nA bane to ApaNe saMjogo samajavAnA ! tyAM sudhI saMjogonA AdhAre rahevuM paDene thoDo vakhata ! bInAM kUMDA Avate bhave ! praznakartA H abrahmacaryano mAla bharelo hoya, ene pote pherava pherava kare, eTale Akho je puruSArtha kare, enuM phaLa Ave ne ? dAdAzrI : enuM phaLa Avate bhavamAM Ave. Avate bhave enuM phaLa vagara mahenate brahmacarya prApta thAya. brahmacarya maLe, ene mahenata nA karavI paDe. tyAM pheravI pherava karavuM nA paDe ane A bhavamAM jeTaluM paLAya eTaluM A bhavamAM zarIra sAruM rahe, mana sAruM rahe. nahIM to mana DhIluM thaI jAya. mana sAruM rahe e ocho phAyado nA kahevAya ne?! ne phAIlo badhI chUTI raheje !! praznakartA brahmacaryanI bhAvanA karIe to pachI amalamAM Ave ne? dAdAzrI : hA, bhAvanA e bIja che ane amala e pariNAma che. bhale Aje amalamAM nA AvyuM to bIja nathI nAkhyuM, mATe have bIja nAkho to amalamAM Avaze. sAMbhaLyuM ja nhotuM, to bIja nAkhe zI rIte te ? brahmacarya jevI vastu ja sAMbhaLI nA hoya ne ! alyA, A to durupayoga thayo ! eka cha-bAra mahinA strI viSayathI cheTAM thAya ne to ja bhAna Ave, A to bhAna ja nahIM. Akho dahADo enuM ghena caDhyA kare ne ghenamAM ne ghenamAM pharyA kare. eTale mahAtmAone kahIe chIe ke cha mahinA ke bAra mahinA kaMIka karI ne kaMIka ! tamAre zuM vAMdho che? thoDA-ghaNAMe evuM manamAM nakkI karyuM, ne vratane TrAyalamAM mUkyuM ya, te badhA ya mUke to kAma thaI jAya ne ! atyAre A mokSanuM sAdhana maLyuM che, bIjuM badhuM khAvA-pIvAnI badhI chUTa. A ekaluM ja nahIM. enuM varNana bhagavAne karyuM che ne ! te varNana jo kadI karavA jAya ne, AkhuM varNana sAMbhaLe to marI jAya mANasa. jAnavaro sArA, baLyA ! ene kaMI niyama-bAdhA hoya. A to jAnavaro ja joI lo ne ! kAraNa ke haju ghenamAM ne ghenamAM rahyA kare che. alyA mUA, parama divase be-cAra-pAMca mahAtmAoe kahyuM, to e vAta kahevAmAM huM to e thaI gayo ke, 'alyA, AvAM haju mANaso che mUA !" kema zobhe ApaNane ? bIjuM badhuM karo ne badhA viSayo chaTa che. A viSaya baMdhanakAraka che. sAmI phAIla che, kleIma che A to. trIsa varSa sudhI badhA phorsa hoya to ThIka che ane phorsa hoya to ya, paNa jeno draDha nizcaya che, ene zuM thavAnuM ? badhuM khAvA-pIvAnI chUTa badhI. chatAM paNa khAvAmAM ya harakata nahIM rAkho to e nukasAna karaze pachI. eno phorsa tyAM jAya ne ! mokSe javuM hoya to viSaya kADhavo paDaze. hajAreka mahAtmAo che, varSa varSa dahADAnuM vrata le che. 'varSa dahADAnuM mane Apajo vrata.' kahe che. varSa dahADAmAM ene khabara paDI jAya. abrahmacarya e anizcaya che. anizcaya che e udayAdhIna nathI. A to badhuM khAlI bhAna vagaranuM, te jAnavaranI peTha jIvI rahyA che. e strIoe samajavuM joIe ane puruSoe samajavuM joIe. mokSe javuM hoya

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 147 to sukha to mokSamAM che. ane e viSaya nA hoya te dahADe tuM sukha to jo ! eka varSa dahADAnuM baMdha karIne juo ! anubhava karo tyAre thAya. parama dahADe cAra-pAMca jaNa AvyA hatA ne meM to UbhuM pUchyuM to mane to arerATI chUTI gaI ke AvAM mANaso che haju ! huM to jANuM ke viSayamAM DAhyA thaI gayA haze ! tyAre vadhu viSayI thayA. A to koNa pUchanAra che, have to dAdA che ne mAthe ! alyA mUA, AvuM thayuM ?! bIjuM badhuM meM chUTa ApI che. bIjA cAra viSayo AMkhanA karo, bIjA karo, paNa A nahIM. A sAmuM kleImavALuM che, egrImenTavALuM che, bhayaMkara. e jyAM jaze tyAM laI jaze. huM to cAra-pAMca jaNane pUchIne to sajjaDa thaI gayo. meM kahyuM, bhaI, AvI pola to nA cAle, anizcaya che A to. e to kADhavI ja paDe. brahmacarya to paheluM joIe. Ama nizcayathI tame brahmacArI ja cho paNa vyavahArathI nA thavuM joIe ? vyavahArathI thavuM joIe ke nA thavuM joIe ? bApa anusaryA dIkarAte ! AvI vAta karavAmAM AbarU nA jatI rahe ? praznakartA : nA, AbarU jatI rahe nahIM. paNa roga nIkaLe che. dAdAzrI : roga nIkaLe che, nahIM ? thoDo nIkaLyo ? praznakartA : bahu. dAdAzrI : tyAre sAruM. tyAre roga ne amAre kaMI levAdevA che kaMI ? gurupUrNimA pachI Avo, brahmacaryavrata ApI daIe, jo majhA 2heze. sukha pachI ja Ave ! eka bhAI zuM kahevA mAMDyA'tA ? mArA chokarAne meM AnaMdamAM ja dIThAM, te mAre brahmacaryavrata levuM che. paNa lIdhuM pachI to, jo AnaMda jAme. eTale eksaTenzana karAvyA kare che pachI. jAme eTale pachI ! pahelI to bhaDaka lAge, zuM thaze, zuM thaze ? zuM thavAnuM che paNa te ? A zuM gaMdavADAthI cheTA rahIne zuddhAtmA joIe. eTale bahu nirAMta thaI gaI ! ApaNuM jJAna hoya to brahmacarya paLAya, nahIM to paLAya nahIM. mana bagaDyA ja kare. draSTi bagaDyA ja kare. A to ApaNI draSTimAM zuddhAtmA 148 samajathI prApta brahmacarya dekhAya ne ! kazo vicAra ja nA Ave. jarUra nahIM paDe. evuM mahIMthI AnaMda thaze. e bhAI kahetA'tAne bahu AnaMda chUTyo ?! badhA ya jeNe brahmacarya vrata lIdhAM ne ! haju trIsa-trIsa varSanI uMmaranA mANaso Ave che, beu sAthe ! ame A brahmacaryanI copaDI vAMcI ne have amAre brahmacarya vrata levuM che ! AvAM badhA duHkho ? meM kahyuM, 'tame jANatA nahotAM ?" tyAre kahe, "nA, koIe kahyuM ja nahIM ne ?' badhAM e kahyuM ke, kharuM sukha AmAM che. eTale ame ya mAnI lIdhuM. A to tame kahyuM eTale amArA AtmAe kabUla karyuM. pAchuM eka sTrokamAM to keTalAMya jIvo marI jAya che ? te zA sukha maLavAnAM, te ATalAM jIva mArIne ? ne sukha emAM kazuM ya che nahIM ! bahAra lokone jJAnapUrvakanuM nahIM ne ! jJAnapUrvakanuM brahmacarya hoya tyAre bahu asara thAya ! bAMdhIne upavAsa karAvIe, enA karatAM upavAsa samajIne karIe to to enI vAta ja judIne !! takkI karyuM tyAMthI ja urdhvakaraNa ! zIla urdhvakaraNanI zarUAta karavI hoya to thAya. brahmacarya vrata laIne nakkI karyuM tyAMthI ja urdhvakaraNa. keTalA AnaMdamAM rahe che ! A to ApaNA AtmAno AnaMda nathI raheto. baLyuM, AmAM ne AmAM khovAI jaIe. moMDhA paNa paDI gayelA hoya badhuM. Akho dahADo lAlacamAM ne lAlacamAM ! have ATalAM varSa thayA, mANasa nA samaje ?! cetIne cAlavuM sAruM have. ane kaMTrola pelo e rAkhavo ja paDe. kaMTrola rAkhe nahIM ne, to mANasane e kaMTrolanA vicAre ya chUTA thaI jAya pachI. badhuM khulluM ja thaI jAya e badhuM. eTale ghaNAM mANasa to kaMTrola rAkhIne, te thAya doSo paNa te doSonI kSamA mAMgI le, basa. paNa A kaMTrola UDI jAya ne, to kazuM rahe ja nahIM. eTale hamaNAM varSa-be varSa tame chUTuM rAkho. tame abhyAsa karI juo emAM kaMI phAyado jo sArI rIte thAya to. nahIM to pachI A pramANe levuM. darekanI rIta judI hoya pAchI. evuM ke kAyado amuka ja nA hoya badhAMne. rasto e sAro che A kaLiyugamAM, A duSamakALamAM. kAraNa ke dAdA yAda Ave ane dAdA pharI yAda rahyA che ne ! tethI koIne bhaya ja nahIM ne ! jema gharamAM ya koI kahenAra

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 149 hoya, to chokarAM sArA rahe ke nA rahe ? praznakartA : ekadama. dAdAzrI : pachI kahenAra bhale ne be dA'DA bahAragAma gayA hoya paNa Avaze tyAre zuM kaheze ? tenA jevI vAta che ! eTale hamaNAM tame tamArI meLe ja juo. tamArA vicAro sArA che, eTale pachI vaLI chUTuM karAvIe. tamAre potAne ja bhAvanA nathI evI, moharUpI bhAva nathI ne A to bIjuM dabANarUpI bhAva che. moha chUTI gayelo che. AvAM sajoDe badhAM bahu AvelA ghaNAM ! kAraNa ke A to, khAlI ApaNuM pustaka ja vAMce ne, e vAMcIne ja pachI je vairAga chUTe che, te gamatuM ja nathI. viSaya ja gamato nathI. pachI e loko nAnI uMmaramAM, bolo, e niyama le che. to meM kahyuM, 'tame A musIbatamAM mUkAI jazo.' 'nA, gamatuM ja nathI have.' baMne rAjIkhuzIthI le. chatAM ya bhUla be-traNa vakhata thaI jAya. kAraNa duSamakALanA jIvo che ne ! cogaradama bAjhelAM jIvo. zI rIte AkhI rAta UMgha Ave e rIte ? evuM che A ! AmAM so gharomAM be ghara potAne ghera kakaLATa nA thAya evAM mANaso haze. paNa te ya ene upAdhi to hoya ne, pADozIvALA laDatA hoya eTale sAMbhaLyA ja karavAnuM ne ! eTale e to naryo duSamakALa kahevAya. A to jJAnI puruSa pAse AvyA eTale DAhyA thayA, nahIM to DAhyA ya zAnAM ? gAMDAmAM ya gaNatarI nA karAya. gAMDA ya kaMIka niyamavALA hoya. Amane to niyama ja nahIM koI jAtano ? ahIM ja "bIvera'nAM marAyA borDa ! 150 samajathI prApta brahmacarya joIe ! kahevuM paDe A to, zUravIra che A to badhA. meM jANyuM ke nahIM gamatuM hoya. gamyA vagara AMgaLI UMcI kare nahIM ne koI ! mArI vAta game che e vAta cokkasa. eTale pelI khuMce che e vAte ya cokkasa ne ! have eno koI upAya dhIme dhIme kare. cetavaNI ApuM chuM A. bIvera-bIvera, borDa mAre che ne ' bira opha thIsa' evuM A meM bIvera kahyuM. ceto ceto. haju jIvatA chIe tyAM sudhI thaze. chellAM dasa varSa sArA jaze to ya bahu thaI gayuM. vadhAre nA jAya to chellAM dasa-paMdara-vIsa varSa sArA jAya to ya bahu thaI gayuM. atyAra sudhI gayA e gaI khoTa ane dAdAnI AjJAthI zarU. vadhAre nA thAya to eka varSa dahADAno akhataro karI juo, TrAyela. TrAyala ja ApuM chuM. kAraNa ke bicArA e thaI jAya to ! pachI pAcho pharI esTenzana karyA kare. ekadama utAvaLa nathI, haju vicArIne AgaLa vadhajo. A kUvAmAM paDavA jevI cIja nathI. vicArIne karavAnuM, A lAMbo vicAra karavo. e paNa A to vicArajo kaMI, vicAryA vagara ema ne ema pAse paDI rahe. eno artha zuM che ? devuM caDhyA ja kare che niraMtara. vicAro, meM tamane chUTa ApI che evuM nathI. A kaMIka rAge paDe A thoDuM to sAruM ! A jJAna pharI maLatuM nathI AvuM ! AtmA judo thaI gayo che, haMDreDa parasenTa ne rAtadahADo mahIM sAkSI pUre che ane cetavaNI ApyA ja kare che ! e ochI sAkSI kahevAya ?! mATe ceto have, bahu dahADA thayA !! praznakartA : baMneno bhAva thoDo thoDo thaI gayo che. dAdAzrI : bahu sAruM. A naryo gaMdavADo che. naryuM duHkha. dekhatA gaMdha ne aDatA gaMdha. badhAmAM gaMdha, gaMdha ne gaMdha. saMDAsa ja che ne e to ! gaMdavADo game nahIM paNa chUTako ja nahIM ne ! bhAva kare to vAMdho nahIM. praznakartA : paNa emanI IcchA ema che ke, dAdA pAse mAMgyA vagara chUTI javuM joIe. dAdAzrI : e uttama vastu. khoTa khAvAnI Teva paDI hoya to e chUTI jAya ke nA chUTI jAya, mane pUchyA vagara ? ke mane pUchIne chUTI jAya ? A jJAna maLyA pachI to have cokhkhuM mana thaI gayuM, nahIM ? mATe AjathI vicAra karajo bhaIo ! bahu vicAravA jevuM che, ame kahIe nahIM, koI dahADo tamane Thapako ja nahIM Apyo ane Thapako ApavA mATe amAre navarAza ja nathI. A to tamane samajAvIe chIe. bhUla kyAM thaI rahI che te. kema pragati nathI thatI ? jabarajasta puruSArtha thaI zake, jJAna ApyuM che mATe, nahIM to vAta karAya ja nahIM. nahIM to bicArA enI zakti zuM dhAraNa karavAnI ? A sAdhAraNa gamyuM hoya to AMgaLI UMcI karo

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 151 praznakartA : chUTI jAya. dAdAzrI : te A badhI khoTa khAvAnI choDI do to sAruM. mane jaNAvavAnI zuM jarurata ? anubhava karavA mATe ame A cha mahinA tamane 'upavAsa' karavAnuM kahIe ane pachIthI to varSa dA'Do esTezana karAvI le che A loko to. praznakartA : rinyu. dAdAzrI : hA. dara eka sAlanuM ApuM chuM. mana nabaLuM paDI jAya to vacce be mahinAnuM e rasto karI ApuM ne pachI pAchuM che te vidhi karI ApuM. nabaLuM hoya evuM. koI jANI-joIne nabaLuM pADe nahIM ne ! paNa muzkelI UbhI thaI, tyAre zuM thAya mANasanuM !! praznakartA : brahmacarya vidhi karatI vakhate zuM bolavAnuM mAre ? dAdAzrI : kazuM nahIM. tuM 'zuddhAtmA' bolyA kara ne mAre badhuM bolavAnuM. praznakartA ne akhaMDa brahmacarya pALavAnI mane zakti Apo, niraMtara nirvikAra rahevAnI zakti Apo. dAdAzrI : e badhuM nahIM, e badhuM emAM mAre karavAnuM. tAre to bhAvanA thAya ne pragaTa karI ke mAre brahmacarya pALavuM, mane zakti Apo, eTale ApavAnI amAre. 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM' bolyA karavAnuM. brahmacaryavratamAM AvuM sukha che evuM joyuM ?! praznakartA : brahmacarya e to duSkaradrata karavuM ne ? dAdAzrI : duSkara to che brahmacarya vrata paNa A AvuM paddhatisara hoyane to brahmacarya vrata bahu suMdara rahe. e to Ama tALA mAravA hoya to brahmacarya vrata duSkara che. moDhe tALuM mArIe pachI kaMI khavAya ja nahIM ne, svAda Ave ja zAno te ?! e kAmanuM nahIM, e to eno artha, mana bagaDI jAya. khulluM rAkhIne, zAnathI uDADavuM joIe. jJAnathI pALavuM 152 samajathI prApta brahmacarya joIe brahmacarya vrata. vicAra ja baMdha vrata pachI ! Amane to vrata lIdhAM pachI camatkAra thayo, pachI bahu suMdara. enuM kAraNa che ke 'kyAMthI sukha Ave che tenuM bhAna nathI ane A vrata lIdhAM pachI je sukha Ave che ne, pachI che te manamAM viSayanA vicAra ja baMdha thaI jAya. viSaya game nahIM. mANasane sukha ja joIe che. te sukha maLatuM hoya to bIjuM kazuM jANI-joIne kAdavamAM hAtha ghAlavA taiyAra nA thAya. paNa A bahAra tApa lAge che. eTale kAdavamAM hAtha ghAle che ThaMDaka lAge eTalAM mATe, nahIM to kIcaDamAM koI hAtha ghAlatuM haze ? koNa ghAle ? paNa zuM thAya ? bahAra garamI lAge che. have tamane eka phero anubhavathI samajAyuM ke A jJAnathI viSaya sivAya bahu suMdara sukha rahe che. eTale pachI tamane viSayo gamatA baMdha thaI jAya. A jJAna evuM che ke badhAM viSayo enI meLe ApoApa chUTI jAya. kharI paDe badhAM, paNa anubhava karI karIne e karo tyAre sukha ja maLe che ne sukha maLI gayuM ke pachI kazuM rahyuM nathI. | viSayamAM to bahu baLatarA hoya, kazuM jJAna nA hoya. baLatarA hoya samakita nA hoya, tyAre baLatarAvALo mANasa viSayamAM hAtha ghAle, nahIM to viSayamAM to hAtha ja koNa ghAle ? atyAre hAtha ghAlavAnI IcchA nA hoya chatAM ghAlavuM paDe. kAraNa ke DiscArja svarUpe che. paNa te ya mANasa mAMgatAvALAne paisA Ape che te ghaDIe, bahu rAjIkhuzIthI thaIne Ape che? evuM viSayanuM ArAdhana karavAnuM evI draSTithI e zokhano viSaya nathI. mAMgatAvALA Ave ne, ene paisA ApIe e zokhano viSaya nathI. meM cauda varSathI joyA che, beu sarasa brahmacarya pALe che. beu Ama joDe ne joDe phare ne evuM. badhuM cauda varSathI. pUchyuM tyAre kahe, 'jarAya DAgha nathI kahe che... pahelAM pahelAM be-traNa varSamAM jarAya DacakAM khAtuM'tuM. pachI rAge paDI gayuM. pratikramaNathI sudhare che. pratikramaNathI dho dho karatAM karatAM rAge paDI jAya. praznakartA : paraNelo brahmacArI hoya to e vela TesTeDa hoya ne !

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 153 dAdAzrI : TesTeDa hoya. pelAM ya TesTeDa to thAya che. emAM be mata nahIM. paNa be-traNa varSa bhaNe che, pachI brahmacarya TesTeDa ! kAraNa ke pratikramaNanuM hathiyAra sarasane ! e pratikramaNanA hathiyAra vAparyA kare eTale ema karatAM karatAM zuddha thaI jAya. zuddhikaraNamAM peTho ke zuddha thaI jAya. abhiprAya to brahmacaryano ja ! brahmacarya e jJAnI puruSanI AjJApUrvakanuM hovuM joIe. e AnaMdanI to vAta ja judI ne ! AtmA prApta thayA pachI AnaMda mahIMthI nIkaLyA ja kare. paNa e AnaMdane AMtare che koNa ? to kahe, saMsArano bhAga ene khaI jAya che. ApaNane e AnaMda bhogavavA deto nathI. viSaya sAMbharavAnA baMdha thAya, pachI paramAnaMda pAra vagarano rahe. - brahmacaryano ane abrahmacaryano jene abhiprAya nathI, tene brahmacarya vrata vartAyuM kahevAya. AtmAmAM niraMtara rahevuM, e amAruM brahmacarya che. chatAM ame A bahAranA brahmacaryano svIkAra nathI karatA evuM nathI. tame saMsArI cho eTale mAre kahevuM paDe ke abrahmacaryano vAMdho nathI, paNa abrahmacaryano abhiprAya to na ja hovo joIe. abhiprAya to brahmacaryano ja hovo joIe. abrahmacarya e ApaNane nikAlI 'phAIla" che. paNa haju emAM abhiprAya varte che ane e abhiprAyathI 'jema che tema' ArapAra joI zakAtuM nathI, mukta AnaMda anubhavAto nathI. kAraNa e abhiprAyanuM AvaraNa naDe che. abhiprAya to brahmacaryano ja rAkhavo joIe. vrata kone kahevAya ? varte ene vrata kahevAya. brahmacarya mahAvrata varta kone kahevAya ? ke jene abrahmacarya yAda ja nA Ave, ene brahmacarya mahAvrata varte che ema kahevAya.

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155 [10] AlocatAthI ja jokhama TaLe vratabhaMgatAM ! vrata bhaMge mithyAtvatI jIta! samajathI prApta brahmacarya pazcAttApa karaje. praznakartA: UMdhe raste eTalo badho jorathI phorsa Ave che, te badhI jAtanA vicAro paNa Ave. badhI jAtanI Trikasa, badhI jAtanuM sAme lAvIne mUkI de. dAdAzrI : jo thoDo vakhata bhUla nA kahI hota ne ema ne ema haju cAlavA dIdhuM hota to AkhuM jJAna badhuM ukheDIne pheMkI deta ! paNa te thoDA vakhatamAM ja kahI dIdhuM eTale pakkaDamAM AvI gayuM. nahIM to peluM to pachI hullaDa macAve. tenA karatAM vrata levuM nahIM ne vrata levuM hoya to pUrI rIte pALavuM ! e jyAre nA paLAya ema thAya to amane badhuM kahI devuM. A to hindustAnamAM rahevuM ane pAkistAnane madada karavI, tenA jevI vAta che badhI ! viSaya ghaTADavA mATe to bAra AnI khorAka ocho karI nAkhavo, pahelAM sthULa dabANa ochuM karI nAkhavuM paDe. pachI sUkSma dabANa ochuM karavuM. A sthaLa dabANa ochuM thaI jAya pachI pelA sUkSma dabANa ochAM thaI zake. kAraNa ke ghULamAM ja jo dabANa ochuM nA thAya to pachI sUkSmamAM zuM thAya ? A vicAro TakavAnA nathI evuM mane lAge che ? pahelAM je tArA vicAra hatA, te tane ema ja lAgatuM hatuM ke have A mArA vicAra khasavAnA nathI, paNa huM e jANuM chuM pAcho ke AnA A vicAro pAchAM pharaze. amane atyAre ya tArA vicAro TempararI lAge ! eTale tuM AnI para goThavaNI karyA kare, paNa e badhI tArI mahenata nakAmI jAya. te dahADe bahu sTroMga vicAro hatA, paNa e vicAro pAchA pharyA ! kAraNa ke jevo mAla bharelo tevo nIkaLyA kare. praznakartA : bharelAM mAlane to have joyA karIe, paNa navA bhAva pAchA pharyA karIe to ? Apa jJAnI puruSa cho eTale joI zako, zuM thAya che, paNa mane evI khAtarI thatI nathI ke mArA vicAro badalAze ! dAdAzrI : nA, nA, e to pahelAM ya tane ema lAgatuM hatuM ke mArA bhagavAne zuM kahyuM che ke vrata to tuM jAte toDuM to tUTe. koI zuM toDAvI zake ? ema koInA toDAvAthI vrata tUTI jatuM nathI. vrata lIdhA pachI vratano bhaMga thAya to AtmA haka jato rahe. tAre vrata lIdhA pachI vratabhaMga thayo che ane e jokhamadArInA A badhAM pariNAma AvyAM che, te to tAre sahana karavAM ja paDaze. vrata lIdhuM hoya to teno bhaMga ApaNAthI nA karI zakAya. ane bhaMga thAya to kahI devuM joIe ke have mAruM calaNa UDI gayuM che. praznakartA : meM Apane vAta karI hatI ke vrata have pAchuM levuM paDaze. dAdAzrI : te vAta karI hatI paNa te amuka TAIma pachI badhI vAta thayelI. eTale emAM to bahu jokhama. ene lIdhe to AkhuM lazkara sajIva thaI gayuM. mithyAtva lakara cogaradamathI sajIva thaI gayuM, te have caDhI beThuM che. te hamaNe thoDo ghaNo TAIma daMDa leje. pAchuM pharIthI badhuM goThavavuM paDaze. daMDamAM to zuM ? have ravivArane dahADe eka ja vakhata dudha pIne upavAsa karavAnuM rAkhaje ane te divase vadhu TAIma sAmAyika karaje, pratikramaNa ne

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156 samajathI prApta brahmacarya vicAro badalAvAnA nathI. te mane kaheluM hau ke, 'have A brahmacarya ja joIe, e sivAya bIjuM nahIM !" paNa pachI badalAyuM ! te dahADe tAre zArIrika vicitratA hatI. teNe tane viSaya rokavA mATe helpa karI hatI. zarIra ja evuM ke viSayamAM tane vairAga Ave ne viSaya na game. atyAre zarIrano cenja thaI gayo, te pAchuM pelI bAju ja vaLI gayo. jevo zarIramAM phorsa Ave, tAkAta Ave to pAchuM viSaya bhaNI mana doDe. chatAM A zarIra vastu judI che ane ApaNe judA chIe. praznakartA: bhAva karanArA ApaNe chIe ne ? zarIra nathI ne ? nizcaya karanAro vibhAga potAno che ne ? to kema pelI bAju viSaya bAju jatuM rahevAya ? dAdAzrI : hamaNAM traNa mahinA koI mANasa mAMdo paDe ne bahu viSaya-vikArI vicAro rahetA hoya to ene e vicAra hapucA khalAsa thaI jAya. UlaTo ema kahe, 'have A koI divasa joItuM ja nathI.' eTale zarIra upara badho AdhAra rAkhe che ! praznakartA : ApanA jJAna pahelAM manobaLa ja Devalapa nahIM thayeluM ne ! atyAre have manobaLa utpanna thatuM jAya che. dAdAzrI : e utpanna thAya paNa manobaLa A baoNDI upara AdhAra rAkhe che, "DIpensa apona baoNDI'! tamAruM A manobaLa tadana svataMtra nathI. tadana svataMtra manobaLa e judI vastu che. e to tadana 'vIka baoNDI' hoya to ya manobaLa tenuM te ja hoya. praznakartA : paNa evAM manobaLa Devalapa thAya ne ? dAdAzrI : nA thAya. A tamArA manobaLa to baoNDIne AdhIna. mahIM je zArIrika darda hatuM, enA AdhAre mananA vicAro badhA beka mAryA gayelA hoya ane tethI te dahADe dhAryo kaMTrola rahI zakato hato ne tethI pachI tane vicAra karavAno vakhata maLyo ke viSaya zuM che te ? te dahADe viSaya eTalI badhI kharAba vastu che, e badhuM Ama pikacaranI peTha hAjara rahevA mAMDyuM. ne e pramANe thayuM, paNa pachI A zarIre cenja mAryo eTale pachI vicAroe samajathI prApta brahmacarya 157 palaTo mAryo ! viSaya saMbaMdhI moLuM paDe te keTalIka vAra zarIra nabaLuM paDe eTale, pAchI davA thAya eTale pAcho viSaya jora kare. te tAruM palaTAyeluM joIne huM samajI gayo ke A zAthI palaTAyuM che ! huM jANuM ke A davA thaI ne davAthI evuM thayuM che. haju A tArA vicAro pharI jaze. tuM tArI meLe joyA kara ne ! tane pahelAM je tArA brahmacarya saMbaMdhI vicAro "sTroMga lAgatA hatA. tyAre mane manamAM thatuM ke AnI A sthiti kAyama raheze nahIM, chatAM rahI zake to uttama ! zarIrano badho pheraphAra thaze, eTale A pAcho Amano pharaze. te pachI pharyo paNa kharo. tyAra pachI ame samajI gayA, eTale pahelethI ame kazuM kahIe ja nahIM ne ! ame jANIe ke A bhalo AdamI zarIranA AdhIna enA nizcayamAMthI phare che. emAM eno doSa nathI. eTale ame Thapako to kazo ApIe nahIM. bAkI brahmacarya saMbaMdhI virodhI vicAra AvavA e ThapakAne pAtra kahevAya ! eTale A vicAro zenA AdhIna phare che e badhuM ApaNe joyA karavuM. hamaNAM tuM kazA bhAva karIza nahIM. badhuM joyA kara ke kemanuM 'seTiMga" le che ! tArA bhAva brahmacarya mATe eTale UMce sudhI pahoMcyA hatA, ke lokonuM kalyANa karI nAkhe evuM hatuM ! brahmacaryanA vicAra jene Ave, e prabhAvazALI kahevAya ! deva ja kahevAya !! ane abrahmacaryanA vicAro Ave eTale sAdhAraNa mAnava ja gaNAya ne ? pazuthI sAdhAraNa mAnava sudhInAM badhAMne abrahmacaryanA vicAra Ave. abrahmacaryanA vicAra e khullI pAzavatA che. jene samajadArI nathI, te abrahmacaryamAM paDe che. tene potAne ya te dahADe A samajAyuM hatuM, paNa A zArIrika sthitie manane pheravyuM. A to tuM ema jANe ke mAruM mana hiMmatavAna thayuM haze. paNa mana hiMmatavAna tyAre ja kahevAya ke brahmacarya sAthe hoya ! brahmacarya toDe, ene hiMmatavAna koI kahI zake nahIM ! brahmacarya mATe vicAra thAya, te zarIra upara keTalIka vAra "DIpenDa' thAya che. vacce tArI bahu puNya jAgI hatI ke zarIranI vikanesa AvI zarIranI vikanesane A kALamAM bhagavAne moTAmAM moTI puNya gaNI che. te adhogatimAMthI bacI jAya, jJAna nA hoya to ya te adhogatimAMthI bacI jAya. paNa zarIra jo majabUta thayuM, eTale talAvaDuM phATe te ghaDIe joI

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158 samajathI prApta brahmacarya lo pachI ! tethI A nAnAM chokarAone bahu magasa ne mIThAIo ApavAnI nA pADuM chuM. alyA, chokarAone magasa nA apAya. A te kaI jAtanA loka che ke chokarAne magasa ne guMdarapAka Ape che ! emane to ekalAM dALabhAta Ape che to ya ATaluM badhuM lohI vadhI jAya, pachI chokarAone mIThAIo vagere Ape to zuM thAya ? paMdara varSe ja naryA doSamAM ja paDI jAya badhAM ! pachI kharAbI ja thaI jAya ne ? uttejanA thAya evo khorAka nA Apavo joIe. A brahmacArIone uttejanA thAya evo khorAka Ape to zuM thAya ? mana-bana badhuM pheravAI jAya ! khorAkanA AdhAre ja badhuM mana che, te Akho mahela kaDaDabhUsa toDI pADe ! eTale zuM kahyuM che badho khorAka lo, paNa halako lo. zArIrika taMdurastI khalAsa nA thavI joIe. praznakartA : ApaNe viSayamAM lapasyA temAM jokhama to kharuM, paNa temAM ApaNI sattA keTalI ? ApaNe na karavuM hoya, to emAM ApaNI sattA keTalI ? dAdAzrI : badhI ya sattA che. 'eksiDaMTa' to ko'ka dahADo hoya, roja nA thAya. eTale roja karo cho e potAnA 'vila pAvara'thI thAya che. bAkI 'eksiDaMTa' to cha mahine-bAra mahine ekAda dahADo hoya ane tene 'vyavasthita' kahevAya, roja 'eksiDaMTa' thAya, tene 'vyavasthita' kaho to, te 'vyavasthita'no durupayoga thayo kahevAya. praznakartA : e kevI rIte 'vyavasthita'no durupayoga thayo kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : eno durupayoga thaI ja jAya che, avaLI mAnyatA mAno eTale. te ya tamane chUTa ApavAmAM Ave che, ke vicAra Ave ne tamArI draSTi malina thAya, teno vAMdho nathI; ene dhoI nAkhajo ane A amArI pAMca AjJA paLAtI hovI joIe. A to pAMca AjJA paLAtI nathI eTale mAre bIjI bAjuno skrU kaDaka karavo paDe che. praznakartA : nA, tyAM ya AjJA to paLAya che, chUTuM rahevAya che. dAdAzrI : e AjJA nA kahevAya. e to eka jAtanI lAlaca pesI samajathI prApta brahmacarya gaI eTale lAlacu thaI jAya pachI. A chokarAe enA doSanuM pratikramaNa karyuM hatuM, pachI meM ene AjJA ApI, pachI ene ekuMya doSa thato nathI. kAraNa ke eNe nakkI karyuM che ke mAre have e bAju draSTi ja karavI nathI, mAre bagaDavuM ja nathI, mAre viSayanA vicAro ja nathI karavA ane meM ene AjJA ApI. have ene kazuM bagaDatuM nathI. he..... niraMtara samAdhimAM rahe che !!! ApaNI dAnata kharAba hoya tyAre badhuM bagaDe. eka bAbatamAM 'sTroMga' rahevuM ja paDe ne ? A bAbatamAM AgaLa saMta puruSoe jhera khAdhelAM. kAraNa ke e jhera khAdheluM to eka avatAra mAre ane A viSaya to anaMta avatAranuM maraNa thayuM !!! 159 je aNahakkanA viSaya bhogave che, te to durAcArano phelAvo kare che, durAcAranI jAherAta kare che. potAnA hakkanuM loko bhogavI jaze teno tene vicAra Avato nathI. je aNahakkanuM bhogavatA nathI, ene ghere ya koI bhogave nahIM evuM sacavAya, evo kudaratano niyama che. e niyama toDI nAkhe e bhAna vagaranuM, badhuM bebhAnapaNuM kahevAya. ApaNuM A niraMtara samAdhimAM rAkhe evuM vijJAna che. pachI e bhautika sukhanI icchA ja nA rAkhe ne ? praznakartA : koIne viSayanA sukhanI graMthi hoya ne ? dAdAzrI : evuM kazuM hotuM nathI. graMthio hoya to teno cheda karI zakAya che. praznakartA : bAkI ApanuM jJAna, ApanuM sukha je che, te kharekhara A badhAM karatAM UMcuM che e vAta samajAya che. dAdAzrI : UMcuM nahIM, A jJAna to evuM che ke varlDamAM koI dahADo banyuM ja nathI. A navesarathI jJAna UbhuM thayuM che. praznakartA : hA, paNa e samajAya che ke vAta sAcI che paNa e vartanamAM nathI AvatuM.

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160 samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : vartanamAM bahu suMdara Ave evuM che ! vartanamAM eTaluM badhuM suMdara Ave evuM che ke na pUcho vAta. praznakartA: jyAre jJAna lIdhuM, tyAre paheluM doDha varasa gajabanuM AvI gayuM, tyAre vartanamAM paNa gajabanuM AvyuM hatuM. dAdAzrI : e to pachI dAnata bagaDI, dAnata navuM navuM khoLe pachI. manano svabhAva verAITIjha khoLavAno che. eTale zarUAtamAM to eTaluM sarasa AveluM ke mane kaheto hato A viSaya mane nahIM phAve, mAre kAyamane mATe A brahmacarya ja laI levuM che, temAM to kaI UMdhI bAju cAlyuM ?! praznakartA: to, AmAM to potAnI ja nabaLAI che ne ? dAdAzrI : nabaLAI eTale pAra vagaranI nabaLAI ! A to mANasane mArI nAkhe. tArI dAnata bagaDI tyArathI bhagavAnanI kRpA ochI thavA mAMDI evuM mane khabara paDe ne ! dAnata cora che eTale pachI khalAsa thaI gayuM ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya 161 tamAre pAMca AjJA pALavAnI zakti ja nathI. pAMca AjJA pALavAnI hoya to ya huM eksezana nA ApuM koIne ya ! kAraNa ke A viSaya to tamane kyAMya slipa karIne khalAsa karI nAkhe. eTale A eka ja viSaya jo kadI oLaMgI gayo to khalAsa thaI gayuM. enI sephasAIDa thaI jAya ! amArI AjJAmAM raho to tamane saheje kRpA maLe. dAdAne kazuM levuM nathI ne devuM ya nathI. AjJAmAM tame raho to ame jANIe ke A lokoe AjJAmAM rahIne dIpAvyuM ! | koI mANasa pAMca-sAta dahADAno bhUkhyo hoya, to te laDavA jAya kharo ? nA, zAthI ? enuM mana ogaLI gayuM hoya, evuM A viSayamAM che. mana ogaLI jAya, eTale TADhuM Tapa ! praznakartA : paNa dAdA, upavAsa karuM chuM, te dahADe mArAthI skUTara paNa barAbara upADI nA zakAya evuM lAge. dAdAzrI : A badhI vakIlAta kahevAya. ahIM AgaLa vakIlAta karavAnI hoya nahIM. A to bacAva kahevAya. ahIM bacAva karavAno nA hoya ne ? praznakartA : to have eno upAya zuM ? bhagavAnanI kRpA jo ochI thavA lAge to pachI to patI ja gayuM ne ? dAdAzrI : te pachI A dAnata corI choDI devI joIe. e tarapha draSTi ja kema javI joIe ? eTale badhI mIniMgalesa vAto che. A to tAre draSTi keLavavI joIe ke kapaDAM sAthe Ama ArapAra dekhAya eTale ke paherela kapaDe kapaDAM rahita dekhAya, pachI cAmaDI rahita dekhAya, evI draSTi keLavavI paDe tyAre potAnI sephasAIDa thAya ne ?! A zAthI boluM chuM ? mANasane moha zAthI thAya che ? kapaDAM paherelAM dekhe che ne moha thAya che ! paNa amArA jevI ArapAra draSTi thaI jAya, pachI moha ja utpanna nA thAya ne ? praznakartA H vacce thoDA vakhata evuM rahetuM. pachI pharI evuM rahyuM nahIM. dAdAzrI : eTale dAnata cora che. dAnata ja khoTI hatI ! ane viSaya evI vastu che ke tyAM AgaLa eksezana ja nA hoya. A to praznakartA : nA, A huM bacAva karato nathI, paNa tamArI AgaLa khulluM karuM chuM. dAdAzrI : paNa A badhA bacAva kahevAya. ahIM bacAva karavAno nA hoya. ahIM AgaLa kyAM jelamAM ghAlI devAnAM che ? potAnA manamAM ema ghUsI jAya ke have upavAsa thayo eTale AvuM thaI jaze, Ama thaI jaze, tema thaI jaze, to evuM thAya. upavAsa to bahu zakti Ape. A to mana tane chetare che. UMdhe pATe caDhAve che. A je tamane ApyuM che te eTaluM badhuM sukhadAyI che ke bIjuM sukha tamane moLuM paDI gayeluM lAge. eTale game ja nahIM, eTaluM badhuM e sukhadAyI che ! parama sukhadAyI che, parama sukhanuM dhAma che !! eTale bIjuM badhuM to moLuM lAge, game ja nahIM, UlaTuM cItarI caDhe !

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162 samajathI prApta brahmacarya A to vakIlAta karIne arthano anartha karI nAkhe ke A badhuM 'vyavasthita' ja che ne ! paNa jokhama keTaluM badhuM che ?! aNahakkanA viSaya eTale ke vaDuM moTuM jokhama kahevAya ! tame je strI paiNo e ja tamArA hakkano viSaya. bIjo hakkano viSaya tamane lAgu nA thAya, vicAre ya na karAya, draSTi ya nA karAya, tyAre ApaNuM sAyansa khule che !!! ApaNuM sAyansa to AnAM AdhAra para, AnAM bejhamenTa upara badhuM raheluM che ! praznakartA : mAre to bIje draSTi jAya che. dAdAzrI : e draSTi bIje jAya che e tAruM puza ona vastu che, ne A enI vakIlAta karI ane pelo niyama toDyo. AjJA toDIne ? eTale A badhuM jokhama AvyuM che. nizcaya tUTe nahIM ane tUTe tyAM sudhImAM cetI nA jaIe to nizcaya bIjI bAju pharI jAya. AtmAnA saMbaMdhamAM nizcaya che, te nizcaya je bAju jaIe, te bAjuno ja pharI jAya ! A jagatanA hokAyaMtrathI ApaNe uttaramAM javAnuM nathI. jJAnInA hokAyaMtrathI uttaramAM javAnuM che. jagatanuM hokAyaMtra to dakSiNamAM jAya che tene uttara kahe che. khoTAne khoTo jANo tyArathI sAcA bhaNI javA mAMDo. A sUkSma jhera che ane A davA che, udharasa maTADavAnI. beu dhoLI hoya. paNa jenA para poIjhana lakheluM hoya tene ApaNe rahevA daIe. kAraNa ke marI javAya. jANyA pachI choDI daIe ke nahIM ? atyAre jagata polaMpola cAlI rahyuM che. paisA ya aNahakkanA ne evAM ja badhA Ave che. eTale ApaNe emAM hAtha ghAlatA nathI. atyAre A viSaya ekalAMnI ja nA kahIe chIe. kAraNa ke paisA e jaDa vastu che ane A to beu cetana, te kyAre dAvo mAMDaze te kahevAya nahIM. ApaNe baMdha karIe to ya e dAvo mAMDe ne ? praznakartA : A to aMdara zuM thaI gayuM, e kaMI samajAtuM nathI. draSTi bagaDe tyAM pratikramaNa kare ne, pAchuM draSTi bagADavAnuM cAlu rAkhe che. dAdAzrI : enuM nAma ja 'vyavasthita' (!) ne ? avaLuM samajIne samajathI prApta brahmacarya 163 goThavI devuM te 'vyavasthita'(!) ne ? na hoya te vyavasthita ! A to potAnI samajaNathI goThavI dIdhuM ke pratikramaNa karIe eTale khAsa vAMdho Ave nahIM, pachI AnuM Ama nahIM ne tenuM tema nahIM. mANase 'sTroMga" rahevuM joIe. pote paramAtmA ja che ! paramAtmA kema dekhAtA nathI ? AvAM badhAM UMdhAM lakhkhaNa thayAM che tethI. have tAre jarA vadhAre jAgRtithI kAma levuM ane vadhAre to manane pakaDavAnuM che. mana lapaTuM paDI gayuM che. pahelAM mana nahotuM bagaDyuM. atyAre to mana bagaDI gayuM che. pahelAM zarIra bagaDeluM hatuM, tyAre mana sudhareluM hatuM. A davAe karIne zarIra taMdurasta thayuM. te jo pAchuM nukasAnakAraka thaI paDyuM. pahelAM AvuM nahotuM. meM badho hisAba kADhyo hato. viSayo pharI vaLe pachI AgaLanuM kazuM dekhAya nahIM. e mANasane aMdha banAve. hitAhitanuM bhAna nA rahe. jagatane 'AvatA bhave zuM thaze ?" enuM bhAna ja nathI. hitAhitanuM bhAna ja kyAM che te ? ahaMkAra karIne paNa, viSayathI chUTAya ! atiparicayAt avajJA'. A pAMca viSayonA anAdikALathI avagADha paricaya hovA chatAM avajJA thatI nathI, e ya Azcarya che ne ! kAraNa ke eka eka viSayanA anaMta paryAyo che ! emAM jenAM jeTalAM paryAyanA anubhava thayA eTalAMnI avajJA thaIne teTalAM chaTyA ! paryAya anaMta hovAthI anaMtakALa sudhI bhaTakavuM paDaze ane paryAyo anaMtA hovAthI pAre ya nahIM Ave ! A to jJAna sivAya AmAMthI chUTAya nahIM. ApaNo mArga badhI rIte sAhajika che, paNa Ane mATe sAhajika nathI. A viSayane to igoijhama zarU karIne paNa uDADI devAno che ! kAraNa ke A carama zarIrI nathI ! eTale ahaMkAra karIne paNa AjJAmAM rahevuM. bhale ahaMkAranuM karma baMdhAya, paNa akrama vijJAnamAM ATaluM sAcavavA jevuM che ! zarIra uparathI cAmaDI ukhADI nAMkhe ne pachI tyAM paruM thayuM hoya, ne koI tamane kahe ke A cATI jAo, nahIM to kAlathI mAre tyAM AvavAnuM

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164 nahIM, to zuM karo ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya praznakartA : 'jAva, nahIM AvuM.' ema kahuM. dAdAzrI : 'nahIM AvuM' ja kahene ? juo, have eka ATalI nAnI bAbata mATe AkhuM choDI de che, cArTa nahIM ne ! tamane kema lAge che ? tamane koI kahe ke paruM cATI jAva, nahIM to kAlathI mAre tyAM nathI AvavAnuM to ? praznakartA : atyArathI nahIM AvuM, kAlathI zuM kAma ? dAdAzrI : juo, AvI nAnI bAbata che ne, to ApaNane vAtane pakaDatAM nA AvaDe ?! kevI ajAyabI che ne ! khAlI paruM thayuM hoya, emAM ahaMkAra kare che ke have nahIM AvuM ane jemAM hajAro jokhama che evAM viSayamAM ahaMkAra kare ne ke, "AvuM tuM mArI pAse karAve che ? to huM AvIza ja nahIM !' praznakartA H karma bAMdhIne Avyo eTale bhogavavuM ja paDe ne ? pachI enI sattAmAM nathI ne ? dAdAzrI : bhogavavuM paDe che e vastu judI che ane bhogave che te vastu judI che. A to badhA bhogavI rahyA che, bhogavavuM paDe e to ko'ka ja mANasa hoya. bhogavavuM paDanAro mANasa to Akho dahADo upAdhimAM upAdhimAM ja rahyA kare. jyAre A to bhogavIne saMtoSavALuM moDhuM ya dekhAya che. Ane mANasa ja kema kahevAya te ? ApaNA keTalAMka mahAtmAo evA che ke ahaMkAre karIne paNa viSaya choDI dIdho che. ahaMkAra karyo ke je thavAnuM hoya te thAya paNa viSaya baMdha, have viSaya nahIM ja joIe. jo viSaya Ave to marI javuM, ema ahaMkAre karIne choDI dIdhuM. tenuM eka karma vadhAre baMdhAya. A ahaMkArathI puNyakarma vadhAre baMdhAya. atyAra sudhI aNasamajaNathI doravAyA kharA ! paNa A jJAna lIdhA pachI to keTalI samajaNa UbhI thAya. eTale samajaNapUrvaka hoya to vairAga samajathI prApta brahmacarya 165 Ave ne pachI toDI phADIne viSayanA dhAgA kADhI nAkhe. karma pharatAM ja nathI, evo koI niyama nathI. karma pharI zake che. A ajJAnIne karma kevI rIte phare ? hamaNAM ko'ka mAMgavAvALo Avyo hoya, eTale e karmano udaya to Avyo, ene patAvI to devuM paDe ne ? paNa e pADozI pAsethI pacAsa rUpiyA le ane pelAne pachI pistALIsa rUpiyA Ape ne pAMca potAnI pAse rAkhe. eTale eka karma patyuM ne bIjuM karma UbhuM karyuM. evI rIte navuM karma UbhuM kare. eTale peluM jUnuM karma to patI jAya. A saMsArIo e ja rIte badhAM karma patAve che. paNa A karma badhAM cUkate kare che ? nA, A to navo ovaraDrAphaTa laIne cUkavI de che ! praznakartA : ona ekAunTa pUrA kare che. dAdAzrI : hA, paNa AnAthI AvatA bhavanI javAbadArInuM ene bhAna nathI. e pachI ahIMthI jAnavaramAM jatAM rahe. paNa ATaluM sudharyuM eTale ja bahu sAruM thayuM ne, kAraNa ke je cAlu AcAra che e amuka hada sudhInA calAvI zakAya evA che, paNa eka viSaya saMbaMdhI ekalAMne nA calAvAya. bIjuM badhuM calAvI levAya. tethI bIjuM badhuM ame calAvI laIe. A dArU pIto hoya to vakhate calAvI laIe chIe, paNa tamAre eTaluM samajavuM joIe ke dAdA A calAvI le che ! paNa tamAre zuM karavuM joIe ? rAta-dahADo 'A bahu khoTI vastu che, bahu khoTI vastu che' evAM jApa karavA joIe. praznakartA : eTale enA pratye kheda ja thavo joIe. dAdAzrI : niraMtara kheda rahevo joIe to e amAruM kaheluM, calAvI lIdheluM tamane kAmanuM lAge, nahIM to dAdA elAu kare che eno artha evo nathI ke kazo vAMdho nathI. jyAre viSaya saMbaMdhamAM to ahaMkAra karIne paNa toDI nAMkhavuM. be-cAra jaNane meM ema evI rIte toDI naMkhAveluM ! ahaMkAra karIne, mArIne toDa-phADa karI nAMkhe !!! pachI te ahaMkAra karyo, enuM karma baMdhAya to bhale baMdhAya, paNa pelo viSaya to badhuM toDI nAMkhe ne ! haMmezAM A badhAM karmo evAM che ke ekane badale bIjuM Apo to enAM badale chUTe. viSaya ekaluM ahaMkAre karIne paNa chUTI javuM joIe, nahIM to A viSaya

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 167 ne tArAthI ? tArI potAnI AmAM bilakula icchA ja nathIne ? aMdara moLI icchA kharI ke 'vyavasthita che, Amatema, evuMtevuM evI pola kharI ke ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : bAkI poluM hAMke, "vyavasthita' che ne, ema kahe ! poluM hAMkavuM hoya to haMkAya ne ?! poluM hAMke to tenI bahu javAbadArI ne ? e to naraka gatimAM laI jAya. eTale ame cetavIe ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya to mArI nAMkhe ! pahelAM to cAritranI sthiratA AvI atyAra jevI nahIM. A atyAre to bebhAna mANaso che. A to jJAna lIdhA pachI jo viSayanI ArAdhanA thAya to zuM thAya ? satsaMgane dago dIdho ane jJAnIne dago dIdho, te ahIMthI narke jaIza. ahIM vadhAre daMDa maLe, tenuM zuM kAraNa haze ? praznakartA : javAbadArI che ne ? dAdAzrI : nA, A satsaMgane dago dIdho, jJAnIne dago dIdho. dagAkhora kahevAya moTo. AvuM te hotuM haze ? zuM pote samajato nathI ke A khoTuM che evuM ? A to jANI joIne calAvI le ke kaMI vAMdho nahIM, nahIM to 'samabhAve nikAla karavAno durupayoga kare, nahIM to 'vyavasthita che' karIne durupayoga kare. AvuM badhuM tame sAMbhaLeluM nahIM ne, pahelAM ? praznakartA : AvuM to sAMbhaLeluM nahIM. dAdAzrI : have tamane badhuM lakSamAM raheze ke chaTakI jaze ? ApaNane nA hovuM joIe. A to moTuM dekhADAya nahIM, evI vastu banI jAya. zobhe nahIM ApaNane. ahaMkAre karIne je thayuM hoya te ATaluM karma baMdhAI jAya ke "ovara DrAphaTa' eTalo lIdho. paNa viSaya to nA joIe, ema hovuM joIe. je bahAra viSaya ArAdhato hoya ene potAnI bairI-chokarI game tyAM jAya to vAMdho nA hoya. eTale ene nAgo ja kahevAya ne ? ene cAritranI kiMmata ja nathI ne ! have badhuM goThavI do. chevaTe ya to, kAle deha chUTI jAya, to enI meLe ja viSaya chUTI javAno ja che ne ?! te jIvatAM karIe e zuM khoTuM ? mArI ThokIne kudarata karAvaDAve, enA karatAM jIvatAM ApaNe jAte karyuM hoya to chUTyA AmAMthI ! A viSayanuM karma eNe aTakAvyuM, te badala bIjuM karma ane baMdhAyuM pAchuM. bhale e sahajabhAva nA kahevAya ! ane eTale bIjuM devuM UbhuM karyuM. A bIjuM devuM sAruM paNa A viSayanuM devuM to bahu ja khoTuM ! viSayano vicAra Ave ke tarata pratikramaNa karavuM. pratikramaNa thAya che

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[11] cAritryano prabhAva ! cAritryano pAyo, mokSapaMthe AdhAra ! khAva-pIvo, majhA karo. badhI bahu cIjo khAvAnI che. eka jaNane kaMIka vikArI kaTeva hatI. te kaTeva choDAvavA mATe meM zuM kahyuM ? A gaMdavADAmAM zuM paDe che ? bIjI badhI cIja vAparone ? seMTa, attara, badhuM rAkhI mukone ! A tamane nahIM game ? to kahe, 'A mane gamaze.' eTale Ama karIne A manane aTAvI-paTAvIne kAma kADhI levAnuM che. A goLI nA hoya to bIjI goLI ApavI, ne bIjI nA phAve to trIjI, ema jAtajAtanI goLIo batAvI che te ApavI. game te goLIne mana vaLagyuM eTale cAlyuM. pachI pelA gaMdavADAmAMthI chUTI jAyane ! cAritryano sTroMga thaI gayo, eTale jagata jitAI jaze. jagata jItavA mATe cAritrano sTroMga eTaluM ja joIze. game te kapaDAM paheratAM hoya, te vAMdho nathI. vyavahAra cAritrane ane kapaDAMne kaMI levAdevA nathI. kapaDAmAM to ekano evo mata che, bilakula kapaDuM nA joIe. koI ekano evo mata che ke dhoLuM kapaDuM vIMTavuM joIe. paNa tame koTa-pATalUna pahero to ya vAMdho nathI. e badhA mata vyavahAranA che. khAvAnI vastu kaMI brAMti samajathI prApta brahmacarya 169 jevI vastu nathI. moTA mANasane ya jalebI moDhAmAM mUke to gaLI lAge ne ? nA lAge ? eTale ekaluM "cAritra' jitAyuM ke AkhuM jagata jItI gayA. bAkI khAva, pIo teno mane vAMdho nathI. vadhAre ochuM khAva to koI vAMdho nA uThAve ne ? tame attara nAkhatA ho to loka vAMdho uThAve ? ane AvaDI AvaDI mucho rAkho, thobhiyA rAkho to ya jagata vAMdho nA uThAve. jagata to jyAM vAMdho che tyAM ja vAMdho uThAve. jagatane A bIjI badhI vastuomAM vAMdho ja nathI. ane A aNahakkamAM to jokhamadArI bahu ja che, bhayaMkara adhogatimAM pheMkI de che !!! jagata to arIsA svarUpa che, te ApaNane dekhADe che, ApaNuM rUpa dekhADe che. je je Takora karanArA che ne, e ApaNo ja arIso che. kharekhara to, viSayamAM sukha nathI ja. je sukha mAnyuM che ne, te sAva roMga biliphanI ya roMga bilipha che. A jalebImAM sukha lAge che. have kokane jalebI nA bhAvatI hoya to ene zikhaMDa to bhAve, eTale A vastuo ya sukhadAyI lAge che. jyAre viSaya e to darAja valure enA jevuM che. e vastu nathI chatAM emAM sukha Ave che ne ?! eTale viSaya e roMga bIliphanI ye roMga bIlipha che. ane e pAchuM jagatamAM cAlyuM e cAlyuM pachI. sAcI samajaNa ja nathI ne ! huM A badhAne eTalA mATe brahmacaryanI samaja pADuM chuM. kAraNa ke cAritranA pAyA upara mokSamArga Ubho rahyo che. ApaNe khAvuM pIvuM haze teno vAMdho nathI. eka dArU ke mAMsAhAra nahIM karavAno. bIjuM badhuM bhajiyAMjalebI khAvAM hoya to khAjo, eno ukela lAvI ApIza. have ATalI badhI chUTa ApavA chatAM ya tame AjJAmAM sArI rIte nA rahI zako to zuM thAya ? kRpALudeve eTale sudhI kaheluM ke tArI bhAvatI thALI bIjAne ApI deje. ApaNe ahIM to zuM karavAnuM kahyuM che ke tane zAMti zenAthI Ave che, te tuM kara. tuM bhAvatI thALI bIjAne nA ApI daIza, nirAMte khAje. ApaNe to cAritrano pAyo majabUta rAkhavo. mokSe javAmAM e ekalI ja vastu mULa vastu che. ApaNe ahIM jJAna lIdhA pachI krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha thAya nahIM.

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170 samajathI prApta brahmacarya eTale A vyavahAra cAritra bahu UMcuM kahevAya. je krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha thAya che e nikAlI bAbatamAM thAya che, e nirjIva che. eTale kharekhara krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha nathI. mATe A vyavahAra cAritra bahu UMcuM kahevAya, paNa A brahmacarya barobara nahIM sacavAvAthI badhuM cAritra kAcuM paDI jAya. have brahmacaryane mATe evuM jora karIne, tANIne lAvavA jevuM nathI. brahmacarya enI meLe saheje udayamAM Ave to kAmanuM che. ApaNo bhAva brahmacaryane mATe hovo joIe. jyAM sudhI brahmacarya barobara sacavAtuM nathI, tyAM sudhI A paugalika sukha ane Atmasukha ema beno bheda samajavA nahIM de. - vyavahAra cAritra eTale koI strIne du:kha ja nA thAya tema varte, koI strI tarapha draSTi nA bagADe. mudatabaMdhI cAritra to sAruM kahevAya. abhyAsa to thAya ne !! cAritra lIdhuM eTale bhAMjagaDa ja maTI jAya ne ! pachI e vicAro evuM jANe ke Amane apamAna lAgaze, eTale jANIjoIne ochAM Ave. 'jJAnI puruSa'nA AdhAre cAritra e to moTAmAM moTI vastu che. jyAre 'jJAnI puruSa'nuM cAritra to bahu ja UMcuM hoya, mana paNa koI dahADo bagaDe nahIM. viSayano vicAra paNa Avavo nA joIe ane vicAra Avyo to tene dhoI nAkhavo. viSayano manamAM bhAva ekalo ja utpanna thAya, paNa vANImAM nA hoya, vartanamAM nA hoya, vicAramAM nA hoya ane ko'ka vakhata saheja vicAra manamAM Ave to tenuM pratikramaNa karI nAkhavuM. Ane vyavahAra cAritra kahevAya. nizcaya cAritramAM to bhagavAna thaI gayo. nizcaya cAritra e ja bhagavAna. kevaLajJAna sivAya nizcaya cAritra saMpUrNa nA hoya, pUrNa dazAe nA hoya. vyavahAra cAritra eTale pudgala cAritra, AMkhe dekhAya evuM cAritra ane peluM nizcaya cAritra utpanna thayuM ke bhagavAna thayo kahevAya. atyAre to tamAre badhAne 'darzana' che, pachI jJAnamAM Ave paNa cAritra utpanna thatAM vAra lAge. chatAM akrama che ne, eTale cAritra zarU thAya kharuM, paNa e tamane samajavuM muzkela che. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 171 praznakartA : enAM lakSaNa zAM hoya emAM ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, e nizcaya cAritra bahu jUja pramANamAM thAya. jene A AMkhothI jovuM-jANavuM te ya cAritra nA kahevAya, buddhithI jovuMjANavuM te ya cAritra nA kahevAya. emAM to AMkha nA vaparAya, mana nA vaparAya, buddhi nA vaparAya. pachI je jue-jANe, te nizcaya cAritra. paNa AnI utAvaLa karavA jevuM nathI. A 'darzana' pahoMcyuM che te ya bahu thaI gayuM ne ! potAnA doSa dekhAya ne e badhAnAM pratikramaNa thAya eTale bahu thaI gayuM ! praznakartA : vyavahAra cAritra mATe bIjuM vizeSa zuM karavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : kazuM nahIM. A vyavahAra cAritra mATe to bIjuM zuM karavAnuM ? jJAnInI AjJAmAM rahevuM e vyavahAra cAritra ane temAM jo kadI A brahmacaryano umero thAya to bahu uttama ane to ja kharuM cAritra kahevAya. tyAM sudhI vyavahAra cAritra pUrepUruM kahevAtuM nathI, vyavahAra cAritranI pUrNAhuti thatI nathI. jyAre brahmacaryavrata Ave, tyAre 'vyavahAra cAritra'nI pUrNAhuti thAya. "zIlavAta' dekhIte jagata "prabhAva' pAme ja ! je lokone cAritra nA hoya e loko cAritravAnane jue, to tyAM tarata ja prabhAvita thaI jAya. jemAM pote kharAba hoya tyAM sAmAno sAro mAla jue ke prabhAvita thaI jAya. krodhI mANasa bIjA koI zAMta puruSane jue to paNa prabhAvita thaI jAya. A jagatamAM tamAro prabhAva paDavA mAMDyo, tyAM tame viSaya khoLo to pachI zuM thAya ? A mAstara chokarA pAse zAka maMgAve, bIjuM maMgAve to pachI prabhAva rahe ? Ane ja viSaya kahyo che. zIlavAnano evo prabhAva paDe ke koI gALo ApavAnuM nakkI karIne Avyo hoya to paNa sAme Ave ke enI jIbha sivAI jAya. evo AtmAno prabhAva che. prabhAva eTale zuM ke ene jovAthI ja lokonA bhAva UMcA thAya. A jJAna pachI prabhAva vadhe. prabhAva e AgaLa upara cAritra kahevAya che. bahu UMco prabhAva thAya tyAre cAritravAna kahevAya.

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samajathI prApta brAhmacarya 173 vicAro, bhAva, vartana joIe ane cAritra bahu UMcuM hovuM joIe. jagata jItavA mATe eka ja cAvI kahuM chuM ke viSaya viSayarUpa nA thAya to AkhuM jagata jItI jAya. kAraNa ke e pachI zIlavAnamAM gaNAya. jagatanuM parivartana karI zakAya. tamAruM zIla joIne ja sAmAmAM parivartana thAya. tamArAmAM jeTaluM zIla eTaluM sAmAmAM parivartana thaI zake, nahIM to koI parivartanane pAme ja nahIM. UlaTuM avaLuM thAya. atyAre zIla ja badhuM khalAsa thaI gayeluM che ne ! praznakartA : cAritrahIna mANasa hoya pahelAM, e zIlavAna thaI zake ? 172 samajathI prApta brahmacarya manuSyanuM cAritrabaLa enAM jevI koI kIMmatI vastu ja nathI, paNa enI kIMmata ja samajato nathI ne ! A to manuSyanuM cAritrabaLa ! jenAthI vAgha paNa bhaDake ! paNa samajaNa ja nA hoya to zuM thAya ? praznakartA : zIlavAna eTale kayA guNo khAsa hoya ? dAdAzrI : zIlavAna, te Ama cAritryavAna bhaNI jAya. ane cAritravAna ekalo nahIM, bIjA badhA bahu guNo bhegA thAya tyAre zIlavAna kahevAya. eTale zIlavAnathI mANaso badhA enI pAse regyulara hoya che e badhAM. evo zIlavAnano to bahu prabhAva ane cAritrya badhuM UMcuM hoya enuM ! cAritra to brahmacarya ekalAne nathI kahevAtuM. cAritra to zIlavAna hoya tyAre cAritra kahevAya. eTale zIlanuM to bahu mahAbhya che. zIlamAM to brahmacarya aMdara AvI gayuM kharuM, paNa brahmacarya sahita ATalAM guNo hovA joIe. eTale ke jenI vANIthI koIne duHkha nA thAya, jenA vartanathI koIne kiMcitmAtra duHkha nA thAya. jenuM mana koIne mATe kharAba vicAre nahIM, evo zIlavAna mANasa hoya. cAritravAna kone kahevAya ? je koIne krodhathI paNa duHkha karato nathI, koIne lobhe karIne duHkha karato nathI, koIne mAne karIne tiraskAra karato nathI, koIne kapaTa karIne duHkha Apato nathI, e cAritravAna kahevAya. cAritravAnanI to bahu kiMmata ! paNa A to pote potAnI badhI nAdArI kADhI che ane enuM du:kha che. nAdArI kADhe che ne mANaso ? krodha karIne, lobhe karIne, kapaTa karIne, mAne karIne nAdArI kADhe che. eTale pachI cAritra khalAsa thaI jAya. nAdArI koI rIte nIkaLe nahIM to te cAritravAna kahevAya, zIlavAna kahevAya. zIlavAna mANasane jotAM ja AnaMda thAya. atyAre to navuM kuzIlanuM ja vAtAvaraNa thayeluM che. paNa zIlavAna thavuM paDaze, sAcA thavuM paDaze, badhI rIte olarAITa thavuM paDaze. bIjuM khAvapIvo, attara ghAlo e badhAno pablikane vAMdho nathI, vAMdho phakta kuzIlapaNAno che. koIne saheje ya kiMcitmAtra duHkha na kare evA ApaNA dAdAzrI : hA, kema nahIM. jyArathI A devuM, eka vAra devALo thaI gayo hoya, pachI devuM ApuMne, pachI devA gayA ane pachI e zarAphe ya thaI zake ne ! jIvato hoya tyAM sudhI thaI zake ane mudata hoya eTalI. paNa zIlavAna nA thAya ekadama. praznakartA : kharAba kAmanuM devuM kevI rIte vaLe ? dAdAzrI : devA e to thaI gayo. paNa have navesarathI e badhuM goThavaNI kare che ne. praznakartA : pazcAttApathI thAya. dAdAzrI : ane navesarathI goThavaNI karI de ne ! eTale zIlavAna thavA mATe ja ApaNe A satsaMga karAvIe chIe ne ! mokSanI zI utAvaLa che ? zene mATe mokSanI utAvaLa hoya ? ApaNe mokSa svarUpa ja chIe ane A to zIlavAna puruSa kahevAya. eTale potAne kAyama ja sukha hoya ane potAne dekhatAM ja lokono pheraphAra thAya eTalI ja jarUra che ApaNane. bAkI upadeza ApavAthI pheraphAra thAya nahIM. zIlavAna to bahu UMcI vastu che. AtmA mokSasvarUpa ja che. jyArathI e riyalAIjha thayo, tyArathI mokSasvarUpa ja che. paNa paheluM

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174 samajathI prApta brahmacarya zIlavAna thavuM paDe, enAM guNo utpanna thavA joIe. pote zIlavAna thayo ke pachI jagatanA badhA ene nimitte pheraphAra thaI jAya. je mazInarI UMdhI cAlatI hatI, te badhI chatI thaI jAya. kevAM lakSaNo zIlavAtatAM ! praznakartA : zIlavAnanA zA zA lakSaNa che, e jANavA che. dAdAzrI : zIlavAnamAM morAliTI, sInsIyAriTI, brahmacarya e badhuM hoya pachI sahaja namratA hoya. sahaja eTale namratA karavI nA paDe. saheja ja sAmAnAM AgaLa namra thaIne ja bole. pachI sahaja saraLatA hoya. saraLatA karavI nA paDe. jema vALo tema vaLe. eno saMtoSa sahaja hoya. ATalo ja bhAta ne kaDhI ApaNe dharIene to e UMcuM jue nahIM. sahaja saMtoSa ! enI kSamA paNa sahaja hoya. emano aparigraha-parigraha bane sahaja hoya. eTale A badhI keTalI cIjo evI sahaja hoya tyAre jANavuM ke A bhaI zIlavAnamAM AyAM ! praznakartA : paNa e zIlavAna puruSa mokSe jAya kharo ? dAdAzrI : e ja mokSa bIjAne ApI zake ! praznakartA : to pachI A guNa grahavAnI je vAta che, vRtti uparano kaMTrola e to, ahaMkAre karIne thayuM. dAdAzrI : e ahaMkAre karIne thAya te kAmanuM nahIM, sahaja thavuM joIe. te enuM nAma zIlavAna kahevAya. vRttio upara kanTrola karyA. e to ahaMkAra Ubho rahyo che. tyAga karo e ahaMkAra che ane grahaNa te ya ahaMkAra che. sahaja, sahaja AgaLa koI tyAge ya nathI ane atyAge ya nathI. tethI zrImad rAjacaMdra kahyuM ke jJAnIne tyAgAtyAga na saMbhave. tyAge ya saMbhave nahIM ne atyAge ya saMbhave nahIM. kAraNa ke e pote udayAdhIna varte che. eTale poTaluM jema laI jAya ne, ema muMbaI ya jAya ne poTalAnI peTha Ave ya kharAM pAchAM. praznakartA : tame je e kIdhuM ne, sahaja kSamA. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 175 dAdAzrI : sahaja kSamA, e sAmo dhola mAre ne, to ya enAM tarapha jue to, kSamA bharelI AMkha dekhAya ApaNane.. praznakartA : e to jJAna vagara saMbhave ja nahIM. to to zIla paNa jJAna vagara to saMbhavI ja nA zake ne ! dAdAzrI : e badhuM eka ja che ne vastu paNa judI pADe tyAre Ama. praznakartA : sahaja kSamA. have huM kSamA karuM chuM. dAdAzrI : e kAmanI nahIM. moTA kSamA karavAvALA AyA ! sahaja hovI joIe ! ApaNe dhola mArIe ane pachI enI AMkha jue to ApaNane kSamA ApatI hoya tyAre enuM nAma sahajakSamA. 'mane kSamA joIe che? evuM kahevuM nA paDe. ApaNe dhola mArIe ne enAM AMkhamAM sApolIyA nA rame ! khabara nA paDe ke sApolIyA rame che AnI AMkhamAM ?! tame A IphekTane zuM jANo ? ame kojhIjhane ya jANIe ane IphekTane ya jANIe. beu, kojhIjhanuM jJAna che ane A IphekTanuM jJAna, banne jJAna che amane. to sahaja kSamA rahI zake ! praznakartA : have zIla zabda che emAM morAliTI, sInsIyAriTI e uparAMta bIjA pAMca sAta guNo hovA joIe, e badhA kaho ! dAdAzrI : aMgrejImAM to A be ja kahevAya. to badhuM sArI rIte samaje. e zIlavALAne strIno vicAra paNa nA Ave, viSayano vicAra Avyo mATe zIlamAM kacAza che haju. paNa chatAM ya ApaNe vicAra AvelAne kahIe chIe. 'bhaI enuM che thoDA kALamAM A vicAra jatAM raheze ne e zIlavAna ja che ! ApaNe kojhIjhane kArya kahIe chIe. ghaNA vakhate kojhIjhane kArya kahIe chIe eTale zuM ? A bhAI kahe che, huM, huM ahIMthI have amadAvAda jauM chuM. to ahIMthI nIkaLyo. pelAM pachI pUche,

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176 samajathI prApta brahmacarya ke pelo kyAM gayo bhaI, pUchato'to ne ? tyAre kahe, 'e to amadAvAda gayo.' have e phekTa vastu che kaMI ? chatAM e amadAvAda gayo, ema kaho ke nA kaho ? ApaNAM jagatano niyama ja evo che ApaNo vyavahAra ja Avo che ke e amadAvAda gayo. have tyAre kaMI khoTo, A vyavahAra kaMI khoTo che ? tyAre kahe, 'nA. khoTo kema kahevAya ?" kAraNa ke ApaNA loko kAraNane kAryamAM Arope che. e amadAvAda jaI rahyo che mATe amadAvAda javAno che, mATe e amadAvAda gayo che kahe che evI rIte AmAM ya te zIlamAM keTalAM kharAba vicAra AvatAM hoya, to paNa ene zIlamAM javAno che, mATe ApaNe ene kAryano Aropa karIe chIe. praznakartA : A zIla eka vastu evI che ke emAM ghaNAM sArAM sArAM badhA guNo che. badhAM, e badhuM ja maLIne eno samuha je thAya te zIlamAM jAya. dAdAzrI : e zIla to mahAna mahAna guNa che. jene, koI sAthe sarakhAvI nA zakAya evo guNa che ! koI amuka kALamAM evAM be cAra pAMca hoya. paNa atyAre to eno abhAva che. zIle sarpa ta AbhaDe ! "zIle sarpa na AbhaDe, zIle zItala Aga, zIle, arI, karI, kesarI, saba jAve bhAga.'' zIlavAnane jotAM hAthI, siMha badhA bhAgI jAya. A jagatano eka niyama eTalo badho suMdara che ke AkhA ya rUmamAM sApa pAtharelA hoya. eka iMca jagyA korI nA hoya, chatAM tenI mahIM aMdhArAmAM zIlavAna pese to zIlavAnane sApa aDe nahIM. eTaluM badhuM goThavaNIvALuM A jagata che. kAraNa ke sApane zIlano tApa eTalo badho lAge ke dasa phUTa dUrathI ja sApa badhA AghApAchA thaI jAya ne uparAchAparI caDhI jAya !!! eTale zIlavAnane sApa paNa aDe nahIM. enI hAjarIthI samajathI prApta brahmacarya 177 vAtAvaraNa ja evuM UbhuM thAya ke sApa paNa khasI jAya. saheja jo kadI sApa aDI gayo to sApane baLatarA thAya ne marI jAya. eTalo badho zIlavAnano tApa hoya. eTale potAne baLatarA nA thAya, duHkha nA thAya, eTalA mATe tyAMthI khasI jAya. eTale zIlano prabhAva evo che ke koI vastu enuM nAma nA de. zIlavAna e to moTAmAM moTuM ratna kahevAya. evo zIlavAna huM ya nahoto ane atyAre ya nathI. zIlavAna to vyavahAra cAritranuM UMcAmAM UMcuM pada che. zIlavAna A kALamAM nathI. A kALamAM zIlavAna hota ne, eka ja zIlavAna A duniyAmAM hota to Aje AkhI duniyAmAM bahu ja sukha hota. praznakartA : pahelAMnA kALamAM koI zIlavAna puruSa hoya, teno dAkhalo Apone ? dAdAzrI : zIlavAna e aitihAsika vastu nathI. ko'ka phero ko'ka ekAda thatA hatA. koI ATha AnI zIlavAna, koI bAra AnI zIlavAna hoya. bAkI, pUrepUro soLa AnI zIlavAna to ko'ka ja hoya. soLa AnI zIlavAna to, sarpa jyAre AghAMpAchAM khasI jAya, tene kahevAya. vItarAgo saMpUrNa zIlavAna kahevAya. tyAre emane zIlavAna jevuM vizeSaNa hoya nahIM. zIlavAna eTale nirbhaya. bhagavAna paNa pachI ene pUchI zake nahIM. bolo, bhagavAna paNa pUche nahIM tyAre pachI kevI sthiti ? mATe kaMIka have ukela lAvo. anAdithI mAra khA khA karyo che ane emAM baLyuM zuM sukha che ? sAttvika rUpe tapAsa nA karIe ke AmAM kazuM sukha dekhAtuM nathI ?! UlaTuM mUrkhAI thAya che, phUlizanesa thAya che. viSayamAM aTakayo to bhagavAna thaIne Ubho rahe ane jo viSayamAM laTakyo to adhogatimAM narse jatAM ye pAra nahIM Ave, evuM ame jJAnathI joyeluM che. have tamane khAtarI thaI gaI ne ? Aje tamane A khoTuM thayuM che, evuM jJAna thaI gayuM ne ? A kaMI jevuM tevuM jJAna nA kahevAya. 'A khoTuM che'

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178 samajathI prApta brahmacarya evuM jJAna thayuM, enuM nAma ja ame 'jJAna' kahIe chIe. pAcho pharavA mAMDyo eTale pote kAma kADhI nAMkhe. A to koI dIvo dharanAra joIe. dIvo dharanAra nA hoya to zuM thAya ? ekAMta zaiyAsata ! covIse ya tIrthaMkaro bolyA ke ekAMta zaiyAsana ! AvuM kema bolyA ? be prakRti bhegI thaI, te zaiyAsana mATe kAmanuM ja nathI. kAraNa ke be prakRti ekAkAra saMpUrNa 'eDajasTebala' hoya nahIM. tethI 'DIsUeDajasTa' thayA karavAnI ane tethI saMsAra Ubho thavAno. eTale bhagavAne zodhakhoLa karelI ke ekAMta zaiyA ane Asana. koI dahADo be eka nA thAya. game teTaluM karIe to ya eka thAya ? jyAre pAchAM chUTA thAya tyAre be nA rahe ? pachI huM ne tuM karyA kare ne ? 'huM ja chuM, huM ja chuM" evuM nA kare ? tethI 'jJAnI puruSo" ekAMta zaiyAsana khoLe. koI dahADo benA eka thaI jaze paNa kAyamI eka rahevAtuM nathI ane pAcho Dakho thaze, enA karatAM eka siMgala godaDI pAtharI do ke bhAMjagaDa ja maTI jAya ! ane jo koIne 'jela' hoya, to 'jela' to pUrI karavI ja paDaze ne ? paccIsa varasanI TIpa hoya to paccIsa varSa, ne cALIsa varSanI hoya to cALIsa varSa, purAM to karavAM ja paDe ne ? paNa bhAvanA kevI rAkhavI joIe ? ekAMta zaiyAsananI ! zaiyA ane Asana ekAMta, e jJAnIoe pasaMda karelo mArga ke bemAM majhA nathI. benuM eka thAya che kharuM, paNa ekanuM pAchuM benA be ja thaI jAya che. eTale A joDe che eTalo vakhata jela mAnavAnI. jelamAM chUTako ja nahIM ne ! polIsavALo kahe ema karavuM paDe. bhagavAnanI ahiMsAvALo kevo hoya ? ekAMta zaiyAsanavALo hoya. bhale badhA joDe UThe-bese, paNa ekAMta zaiyAsana hoya. ekAMta zaiyAsukha guNa utpanna thayA pachI ja sAcuM sukha utpanna thAya. jyAre sAmI vyaktine ArapAra jotAM AvaDe tyAre ekAMta zaiyAsukha nAmano guNa utpanna thAya. pachI tene ekalAM ja rahevAnuM ane ekAMta ja vadhAre sukhakara lAge. pachI ene sAcI mastI utpanna thAya. mahIM sukha samajathI prApta brahmacarya 179 to bharapaTTe paDyuM che, te pragaTa thAya. enI vANI je je bole, te pachI zAstra ja gaNAya. ekAMta zaiyAsana. eka Asana ane eka zaiyA thAya tyAre parama sukhiyo thayo, je amAro ghaNAM varSothI rivAja che. ne vItarAgI mastI anubhavIe chIe. A dAdAnuM pada jo tamane eka ja kalAka maLI jAya to kAyamano mArA jevI sukhiyo thaI jAya. bAkI strI hoya tyAM sudhI koIe mokSanI to AzA ja rAkhavI nahIM. 'viSaya hoya tyAM sudhI AtmA ja jANyo nathI' ema kahevAya. strInA upara draSTi thatI hoya to eNe AtmA saheje ya, aMze ya jANyo nathI. teNe Atmasukha anubhavyuM nathI !! nahIM to Atmasukha to kevuM hoya ?! ATaluM ja jItavAnuM che, strI-viSaya ! eTale strI taraphanI draSTi thaI, e taraphano vicAra paNa Avyo ke khalAsa thaI gayo. mokSano pAyo ja UDI gayo ane vicAra jo Ave to tame zuM karo ? praznakartA : pratikramaNa, 'zUTa ona sAITa'! dAdAzrI : A viSaya ekaluM choDI do ne ! viSaya choDazo to jyAre tyAre enuM phaLa Avaze. bIjA badhAno vAMdho nathI. bIjuM badhuM ApaNe 'leTa go' karIe. jo rajhaLavuM nA hoya to bIjA badhAno vAMdho ja nathI. paNa rajhaLavuM hoya pachI to ughADuM ja che ne ? je karavuM hoya te karo !! paNa eno bhayaMkara guno che. jyAM sudhI viSaya hoya tyAM sudhI AtmAno sparza ja nA thAya, koI dahADo ya sparza nA thAya. eTaluM ja cetavAnuM kahIe chIe. A kaMI bahu agharuM che ? agharuM lAge che ? paNa jo mokSe javuM hoya to pachI sAMdha sAMdha karavuM paDaze ne ? kyAM sudhI AvuM ne AvuM cAlaze, polampola ThokAThoka ? jo eka viSayano vicAra Ave to ene ukheDIne toDI nAkhajo. je evuM toDI nAkhe che, enI ame geranTI laIe ane enI geranTI ApI ja che. amArI geranTI che, jo amAruM A "jJAna" pALazo to ekAvatAranI geranTI che !!! paNa viSaya to nA hovo joIe. bIjuM badhuM karo. khAvA-pIvo, majhA karo. viSaya kema hoya ? viSaya to

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180 samajathI prApta brahmacarya narkagatimAM laI janAro che. tamane A badhI vAta game ke nahIM ? praznakartA : game ne dAdA, bahu game. dAdAzrI : eTale ApaNA jJAnamAM ATaluM ja cetavAnuM che. bIjuM badhuM cetavAnuM nathI. viSaya mukti, tyAM caDhe dasama guMThANe.. jemAM strI "parigraha' gaNAya che e navamuM guMThAthuM oLaMge eTale pachI ene koI javAbadArI nA rahI. navamuM guMThANuM oLaMge eTale kAma thaI gayuM !!strIno parigraha, mana, vacana kAyAthI baMdha thAya tyAre vyavahAramAM dasamuM guNasthAna UbhuM thAya. jyAM sudhI strI parigraha oLaMgyo nathI tyAM sudhI navamuM ye oLaMgyuM kahevAya nahIM. strIno vicAra Ave to ya navamuM nA oLaMge, viSayano vicAra Ave to ya navamuM oLaMgI zake nahIM, eTale vyavahAra to tamAre UMco lAvavo ja paDaze ne ? nizcaya joDe vyavahArane ya uThAvI levAno che. strI parigraha che tyAM sudhI vyavahAra guMThANuM AThamAMthI AgaLa khase nahIM. e pachI brahmacaryavrata pALe tyAra pachI navamuM guMThANuM oLaMge. praznakartA : brahmacaryamAM AvyA pachI bArame guThANe javAya ? dAdAzrI : nA. bAramA guThANAmAM na javAya. A kALamAM huM ja dasamA guThANA sudhI pahoMcyo chuM ne ? amAre nizcayathI bAramuM ane vyavahArathI dasamuM che. praznakartA : strInI joDe puruSa hoya to strInuM guMThAthuM UMce caDhe kharuM? dAdAzrI : nA caDhe ! ApaNe caDhAvIne kAme ya nathI. emane to A che, e barobara che. emane to kahIe ATaluM karo ne eTaluM e karyA kare to bahu thaI gayuM. bAkI rasto emane batADyo che. emane kaMI AvuM kUdAkUda karAvavAnI jarUra nathI, nahIM to kAle savAre dhaNIne kADhI mele ke bhaI, mAre tamAruM kAma nathI. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 181 strI naDatI nathI, ajJAna naDe che. strI to phakta keTalI naDe che ? je avatAramAM mokSe javAnuM hoya te chelle dasa, paMdara ke paccIsa varSa strInI gerahAjarI hovI joIe. to ja e guNasthAnaka caDhe, nahIM to e guNasthAnaka caDhe nahIM. navamuM guNasthAnaka kyAre caDhe ? ke strI jene tyAM hoya nahIM tene, agara to strI bhale hoya paNa strInA vicAra nA Ave, vicAra, vartana nA hoya. strI joDe vAMdho nathI. strI kaMI naDatI nathI. paNa strInA vicAra, vartana nA hoya to te navamuM guThANuM caDhI dasamAmAM Ave. A kALamAM 'vyavahAra' dasamA guMThANAthI AgaLa jaI nA zake. ane 'nizcaya" bAramA guMdANA sudhI jaI zake !!! akrama mArgamAM tamAre bIjA pariSaho to hoya nahIM, paNa tamane strI pariSaha hoya ne baLyo ! strI pariSadamAM nATakIya zI rIte rahevAya ? A "jJAna" to nATakIya rAkhe evuM che. rAja calAvatAM hoya to ya nATakIya rAkhe. paNa strI pariSaha e moTAmAM moTo pariSaha, e nATakIya nA thavA de. vepAra dhaMdhA naDatA nathI, strI pariSaha naDe che. strIo naDatI nathI, strI pariSaha naDe che. strIo to AtmA ja che. vikArI bhAva e pariSaha kahevAya, strIo badhI AtmA ja che ne ?! jJAnI puruSa'ne kevuM sarasa dekhAtuM haze ! badhe zuddhAtmA ja dekhAya. ame navamA guThANAmAMthI dasamA guMdANAmAM jyAre khasyA, tyArathI e ya pAra vagaranuM sukha anubhavyuM !! e sukhano eka chAMTo jo bahAra paDe ne mANasa e cAkhe to varasa dahADA sudhI te parama sukhiyo thaI jAya !!! A viSayane lIdhe ja badhI rIte aMtarAyuM che, ne. A ja mahAroga che !!!

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praznakartA : badhA ja avatAro pariNata hatA. dAdAzrI : hA, lagabhaga hatA ja. mokSane ne paraNavAne levA-devA nathI. paraNavuM to ene bhogAvalI bAkI hoya to paraNe ane nA bhogAvalI bAkI hoya to nA paraNe. kAraNa ke mokSe janArAnI ! sillakamAM bhAvakarma AvuM na hoya ke mAre AvuM abrahmacarya joIe ja che. praznakartA : pachI eka vidvAna hatA ene meM kahyuM, emaNe kahyuM ke e pUrva janmanI aMdara koI paNa strI sAthe ApaNe koIka draSTi maLI gaI, to e karmano kSaya karavA mATe paNa tIrthaMkara avatAramAM emane paraNavuM paDe. dAdAzrI : hA paNa e je baMdhAyeluM ne e chUTavA mATe che. ajJAnI je brahmacarya pALe che ne emAM pakaDa hoya che ahaMkarAnI te asara thAya pachI zarIra upara ahaMkAranI vALelI koI cIja kAmanI nahIM. paNa jJAnathI vaLelI kAmanI. eTale ame badhAne kahIe chIe ke sahaja thAva, sahaja thAva, sahaja thAva, sahaja thAva. tethI ame vAMdho ya nahIM uThAvatAne koI paiNelA mahAtmAono ! ahaMkAre karIne dabAya dabAya kare che. draSTithI hoya to ya te dabAvavuM nA paDe. heDIMga praznakartA : eTale ahaMkArathI che mATe brahmacaryanI je praphullitA moMDhA para je AvavI joIe tene badale karacalIo AvI jAya che. dAdAzrI : ne karamAI gayelA dekhAya nahIM to je brahmacArI mANasa hoya e kevo dekhAya te ! gulAbanuM phUla sAruM dekhAya, paNa mAmasa sAro nA dekhAya. praznakartA : kAraNa ke emaNe brahmacarya sthUlanI draSTie pama pALyuM che. dAdAzrI : e samajatAM ja nathI, brahmacarya e zuM che ? te ja samajatA nathI. kema brahmacarya nathI paLAtuM te ya samajatA nathI. brahmacarya ane abrahmacarya zuM che ane brahmacarya zuM enuM bhAna nahIM hovAthI Aja sAdhuonA moDhA para nUra nathI dekhAtuM. praznakartA : nUra to nathI, paNa kheMcI-kheMcIne brahmacarya pALe che. dAdAzrI : chatAM e pUrvabhavamAM bhAva karelo ne, tethI tevA saMjogo beThA, tyAga thayo, badhuM e gayuM, paNa brahmacarya pALavuM e zI rIte pALavuM enuM jJAna lIdhuM nathI. e saMjogothI Ama aTakI gayA che. dekhAya che, paNa e kharekhara brahmacarya hotuM nathI. brahmacArI to judI jAtano dekhAya, brahmacArInI vANI kevI hoya ! enuM vartana kevuM hoya ! AvuM hotuM haze A to jema bApajI cAlatA hoya to ApaNe ahIM kazuM.... huM jarA eka miniTamAM AvuM chuM tyAre pelA to be phalAMga cAlI gayA hoya. phUDa phUDa, phUDa, phUDa. jANe uDayuM pAdaDuM uDayuM. tame cAlatA joyelA munine ? praznakartA : hA, joyelA, bahu raghavATamAM hoya. dAdAzrI : e raghavATa, raghavATa, raghavATa, raghavATa ! brahmacArI Avo nA hoya. ThaMDo nA hoya, raghavATavALo nA hoya, kevo DAhyo hoya ! heDIMga loko dharma samajatA nathI ane pachI brahmacarya pALe che te naryA khoTAM brahmacarya pALe che ! te pachI ahIMthI marIne tyAM jAnavaramAM jAya. cAra paga laIne pAcho taiyAra ! cAra pagamAM nA jAya to A lokonI bhoMya koNa kheDe ? A jo dharma sAro samaje ne to to A baLada eya rahe ja nahIM ! paNa juo baLada janme che ne ane khetara nirAMte kheDI Ape che ne ?! A baLada tame jANo cho brahmacArI hoya che ! A bAvAo ye brahmacarya pALe che ! ane pharI baLada thAya to ya brahmacArI ja rahe ! khoTAM karyA hoya ne tene cAra pagamAM javAnuM ne tyAM ye brahmacArya cAluM ane sArA kAryo hoya to UMcI gatimAM jAya !

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agara to niraMtara viSayI rahevAthI to ya baLadano avatAra Ave, ane tyAM jAnavaramAM nirviSaya rahevuM paDe eTale ene brahmacArI rahevuM paDe, palsa-mAInasa tame jeTaluM AmAM vadhAre paDatuM viSayamAM paDyA e viSaya nirviSaya tamAre bhogavavo paDaze. eTale A kudaratano niyama che, A badhe ekazana enDa rIekazana AghAta-pratyAghAta eTale pachI baLada che te brahmacarya pALe che ke nathI. pALato AkhI jiMdagI ? tame jANo ke nA jANo ? parANe pALe che ke jANI joIne ? praznakartA : parANe. dAdAzrI : parANe kAraNa ke eNe viSaya AkhI jiMdagI, viSaya ja bhoga bhoga karyA manuSyamAM, ane enuM phaLa AvyuM A ! heDIMga AThaso pAnAnuM brahmacaryanuM pustaka lakhyuM che, te tame vAMcyuM ? vaMDara opha dhI varlDa' (duniyAnI ajAyabI) kahe che. brahmacarya rAkhavuM hoya to sAdhana ja ApyuM che. bIjuM koI sAdhana nathI. kAraNa ke e badhu vaMDara che. koI dahADo brahmacarya upara A hindustAnamAM pustaka ja chapAyuM nathI. koNa chApe ? je brahmacaryavALA hatA e navarA nahotA ane navarA hatA te brahmacaryamAM hatA nahIM mUA. moDhe dekhADavA sAruM brahmacarya, nahIM to khetaramAM brahmacArI phare enA jevA hoya mahIM keTalAMka to ! khetaramAM brahmacArI joyelA tame ? are ya baLada bicArA brahmacArI che ne. sAcuM brahmacarya zuM hoya ke tALAM-baLAM mAravAM nA paDe. A to tALAM mArelAM evo A deha che te ApaNane hau dekhADe ke jo tALuM mAreluM che. mUMA tALuM zuM karavA hoya ? kaI jAtano mANasa chuM ? heDIMga A ApaNA brahmacArI juo ane A beno brahmacaryavALI juo. keTalo badho teja lAge che. A ApaNA brahmacArI, mana-vacana-kAyAthI brahmacarya pALe che badhA. teja nahIM dekhAto ? praznakartA : teja to kharuM ja ! dAdAzrI : zAthI ? brahmacaryanuM teja dekhAya che ? pUrva bhavanI bhAvanA che zuM bhAva karyo, tethI ja A Amane utpanna thayuM. nahIM to brahmacarya utpanna ja nA thAya ne ! e saMyoga ja bAjhe nahIM. emane ATaluM sarasa jAmyuM che, te A brahmacaryano bhAva pUrva bhave karyo che ane A jJAnInI pAse rahe che eTale eTaluM badhuM jAmyuM che. moDhA upara lAITa to AvavuM ja joIe ne ! brahmacaryanuM jo lAITa nA AvatuM hoya to brahmacarya kahevAya ja kema karIne ? vANI suMdara vANI sukomaLa thavI joIe. badhuM hovuM joIe, sugaMdhI AvavI joIe. Amane ghera rahevuM paDe che. haMmezA ghare rahevAmAM brahmacarya barAbara pALI zakAya nahIM. enuM vAtAvaraNa joIe evuM. amAre tyAM so eka chokarA che AvAM paNa bheguM rahevAnuM thaze tyAre e lokone kharekharuM tapaze. mArI joDe rahe, paNa brahmacarya eTale brahmacarya, vicAra nA Avavo joIe. viSayano vicAra utpanna thayo to tarata ene bhUMsI nAkhavo joIe. rabara rAkhavo joIe ! hindustAnanI Arya strIo brahmacarya kevuM suMdara pALI zake ! heDIMga praznakartA : A je abrahmacaryanAM je vicAra mAtra phUTe to e zuM che ? haju bharelo mAla che ? dAdAzrI : brahmacaryavALAne mAla phUTe ja nahIM. praznakartA : paNa ame loko hajI saMsAramAM chIe ane hajI sAva ekadama saMpUrNa rIte nathI, AvI gayA. so TakA. dAdAzrI : brahmacaryavALAne mAla phUTe ja nahIM. mana majabUta thayeluM hoya ta kUde ja nahIM. peluM hArI jAya. hArI jAya eTale phUTe.

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praznakartA : eTale jyAre vicAra mAtra enAM nAbUda thaI jAya. tyAre pUrNa samajavuM. dAdAzrI : pelA mAtra nahIM Ave kharA, paNa amuka amuka moTI moTI jAtamAM amathA bIvaDAve ne evA badhA ajaMpo karAve evA nA Ave ! ane brahmacarya ke ramezabhAI pALe che ne ? je abrahmacArI hatA tene ? brahmacArI hatA te brahmacArI thayAM ke abrahmacArI hatA te brahmacArI thayA ? praznakartA : banne. dAdAzrI : banne hoya nahIM. brahmacArI pharI brahmacArI thAya nahIM. praznakartA : aMdaranA zuddhAtmA e brahmacArI ja hatA. A mana-vacanakAyA pudgala brahmacArI thayuM. dAdAzrI : ene brahmacArI kahevAnuM che, nahIM ? abrahmacArI hatA eTale ene brahmacArI banAvyA ! evuM ja ne ? to pachI brahmacArI karyA pachI to keTalAM sTezana bAkI rahyA bhagavAnanuM che te vAta sAMbhaLavA mATe.

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khaMDa : 2 Atma jAgRtithI brahmacaryato mArga ! [1] viSayI-spaMdata, mAtra jokhama ! viSayothI vItarAgo ya DarelAM ! AtmA ne saMjogo, be ja che. trIjuM koI bhUta AmAM vacce nathI. AtmA zAzvata che. saMyogo viyogI svabhAvanA che. have tamAre jema karavuM hoya tema karo ane viSayI e 'caMdubhAI' che. emAM 'tamAre'zuM levAdevA ? 'tame' enI joDe yArI nA karazo ke le A 'kaoNla' Apyo, evuM karavAno bhAva nA thAya e jAgRti rAkhavAnI. viSayothI bhagavAna paNa DaryA che. vItarAgo koI vastuthI DaryA nahotA, paNa eka viSayathI e DarelA. DaryA eTale zuM ke jema sApa Ave che, te dareka mANasa paga UMco laI le ke nA laI le ! praznakartA : laI le. dAdAzrI : emAM potAnuM hita nathI evuM jANe che, tethI laI le che ne ? praznakartA : hA. dAdAzrI : evuM vItarAgo eTaluM samajyA ke AmAM hita nathI, A samajathI prApta brahmacarya 183 tAtkAlika iphekTiva che, mATe ahIM AgaLa A dArUkhAnAthI bahu cheTA rahevA jevuM che. ATalo to Dara rAkhavo joIe ne ? ApaNA loko viSayothI nA Dare ane sApathI Dare. alyA, sApathI kema Dare che ? sApa AgaLa hitAhita jue che, to ahIM viSayamAM kema hitAhita nathI jotA ? Ama viSayomAM bephAma nA thaI javuM joIe. polIsavALo pakaDIne karAve, enA jevuM hovuM joIe. A ahIM viSayonuM sAyansa samajI levAnuM che. A pratyakSa jhera che evuM jJAna hAjara rahevuM joIe. AtmA sadA brahmacArI have bIjI zI kacAza lAge che, e kaho. praznakartA : A SaDarIpuomAM kAma jItavo muzkela che. dAdAzrI : hA. kAma jItavAno nathI. kAmane harAvavAno ya nathI ne jItavAno ya nathI. praznakartA : tyAre ene zuM karavAnuM hoya che ? dAdAzrI : tame to brahmacArI ja cho. A to caMdubhAImAM je DiscArja bhAva che, je mAla bharelo che, eno nikAla karI nAkhavAno. ApaNe eka TAMkImAM mAla bharyo hoya ane pachI ApaNane nikAla to karI nAkhavo paDe ke nA karI nAkhavo paDe !? praznakartA H karI nAkhavo paDe. dAdAzrI : jevo bharyo hoya, DAmara jevo bharyo hoya to DAmara jevo. cokhkhuM pANI hoya to cokhkhuM pANI, dUdha bharyuM hoya to dUdha. jevuM bharyuM hoya e nikAla to karI nAkhavo paDe ne ! praznakartA : to A saiddhAMtika rIte joIe to, A brahmacarya paNa e nikAlI bAbatamAM jaze ? dAdAzrI : AtmA niraMtara brahmacArI ja che, AtmAne abrahmacarya

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184 samajathI prApta brahmacarya thayuM ja nathI. brahmacarya to pudgalanI ja bhAMjagaDa che. te caMdubhAIne tame brahmacArI banAvazo, te dA'De tamAre niveDo Avaze. nahIM to chUTavA nA de ane brahmacArI to kevuM ? strI hovA chatAM brahmacArI rahevuM. to ene bahu ciMtA nathI. e brahmacarya bhAva che ne, e to chellAM avatAramAM badhA ya bhAva chUTI jAya, kaMI e pahelethI so-baso avatArathI kasarata karavAnI hotI nathI. chellA avatAramAM chuTI jAya badhuM. paNa jene chuTavuM hoya tene e vizvAsa rAkhavA jevo che nahIM. enI meLe oTomeTIka khasatuM hoya te, sArI vAta che. kAraNa ke e kaMI nathI pudgalanI jarUriyAta vastu ke nathI AtmAnI jarUriyAta vastu. kalpita UbhI thayelI che vastu A ! te ApaNe caMdubhAIne kahe kahe ryA karavAnuM. ApaNe koI dahADo ya te rUpa mAthe nA levuM. ApaNe caMdubhAIne kahe kahe karavuM ke, "A poIjhana che ! tamane jema anukULa Ave tema karo." ApaNe upadezadAtA thavAnuM che. ApaNe pote to "brahmacArI' ja chIe, paNa have A je chUTo pADelo bhAga che, te evo che ke tene ApaNe kahevuM paDe ke A poIjhana che. ApaNA jJAnamAM je bhAva che, te A prajJA tarata pakaDI le che. A prajJA tarata pakaDIne amalamAM le che. bIjuM badhuM cAle evuM che. kAraNa ke viSayane bhagavAne 'raudradhyAna' kahyuM che. paraNelA hoya, miyAMbIbI rAjI hoya, tene bhagavAne roga nathI kahyo. kAraNa ke temAM guno kyAM Avyo ? kone du:kha dIdhuM ? beu rAjI hoya tyAM AgaLa sarakAre ya hAtha ghAlatI nathI ane A necare ya hAtha ghAlatI nathI. necarane kazI levAdevA nathI. phakta emAM eka ja pherAmAM anaMtA jIva marI jAya che, tenI javAbadArI pAchI Ave eTale ene "raudradhyAna' kahyuM. viSayanA spaMdana UbhAM thayA, e spaMdanamAMthI pAchAM paramANu bhogavavAM paDe. bAkI, AmAM koI koIne sAmasAme duHkha deto ja nathI. be ya AnaMdane pAme che. koIne du:kha de to ja tene necarala guno kahevAmAM Ave che. koIe AvuM phoDavAra kahyuM nathI, paNa jo phoDavAra kahe to loko pAchAM eno durupayoga kare evAM che. eTale viSayanI phakta niMdA ja karI che. niMdA eTale ke viSayane A rIte javAbadArI rIte mUkelo che. viSayanuM samajathI prApta brahmacarya 185 spaMdana je karyuM hoya, tenuM phaLa to AvyA vagara rahevAnuM ja nahIM ne ? tame dariyAmAM eka phero DhekhALo nAkhyo eTale kuMDALAM UbhAM thayAM ja kare ! eTale viSaya bahu rogiSTa vastu che. mahIM nAca to bahAra nAcatArI hAjara ! savAranA pahoramAM pAMca vakhata bolavuM ke, "A jagatamAM koI vinAzI cIja mane khapatI nathI.' mane eTale "huM zuddhAtmA chuM" e rIte ane je khape che te "caMdubhAIne khape che ane caMdubhAI 'vyavasthita'nA AdhIna che. je 'vyavasthita'mAM ho te bhale ho ane 'vyavasthita'mAM nA ho te paNa bhale ho. ATaluM hoya ne, to ApaNane mahIM koI rasa Ubho thayo che ke nahIM, te mAluma paDe. khAsa karIne bIjA rasa UbhAM thAya evAM nathI, paNa A kALanuM vAtAvaraNa eTaluM badhuM dUSita thayeluM che ke strIe puruSone jotAM ane puruSa strIone jotAM AMkha mAMDelI nA rAkhavI joIe. nahIM to bIjI khAsa koI doSa Ubho thAya evo nathI. agara to savAranA upara pramANe bolIne karavuM, kAraNa ke tamAre vairAga evo nA hoya. tamArI jAgRti kharI, paNa saMpUrNa pramANamAM je badhI jAgRti joIe te rahetI nathI kAraNa ke haju pRthakkaraNa thayuM nathI. jAgRti to tene kahevAya ke eka strI joIe ke puruSa joIe, game te joIe to rAga thatAM pahelAM e Akho ja badho eno hisAba dekhAI jAya. A cAmaDIne lIdhe badhuM rUpALuM dekhAya che ane A cAmaDI kADhI nAkhe to kevuM dekhAya ? A gAMsaDI bAMdhelI che, tene A uparathI kapaDuM choDI nAkhe to kevuM dekhAya ? e jAgRtane to tevuM ja dekhAya badhuM. saMpUrNa jAgRti kyAre kahevAya ? A badhuM ene evuM ja dekhAya. paNa A kALanuM vakrapaNuM evuM che ke e jAgRtine TakavA nA de, mATe cetatA rahevuM joIe. nahIM to savAranA pahoramAM bolavuM ane ene 'sinsIyara' rahevuM. cothA ArAmAM jo meM A jJAna ApyuM hota to mAre AvAM cetavavA nA paData. A pAMcamo Aro bahu kaThaNa Aro che, bahu vakra Aro che, bahu vakratAvALo che. vakratA eTale kapaTa, kapaTanuM saMgrahasthAna ja kahone !

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186, samajathI prApta brahmacarya eTale ApaNe zuM kahIe chIe ke strInuM bheguM thavuM e jokhama nathI. paNa AMkhanuM kheMcANa e jokhama che. mATe tyAM pratikramaNa karIne kesa UMco mUkI do. zAstrakAro paNa kahe che AMkho DhALIne cAlo. praznakartA : viSayanI je coMTa hoya che, AkarSaNanI je coMTa hoya che, e pakaDe che ke e mIkenikala kriyA pakaDe che ? dAdAzrI : e coMTa pakaDe che, kriyA pakaDatI nathI. eTale ja ApaNe kahIe chIe ne paiNelI che, tyAM nikAla kara. teno vAMdho nathI, paNa coMTa che to te pakaDe che. tethI ame kahyuM che ke viSaya viSa nathI, viSayomAM nIDaratA e viSa che. haMmezAM "khoTuM thayuM che' evuM manamAM to rahevuM ja joIe. bAkI nikAla karone ! nikAla karavAno vAMdho nathI, paNa coMTa to rahevI ja nA joIe. coMTanA pratikramaNa-pratyAkhyAna karo. niyama kevo che, ke mahIM je paramANu hoya, te ja bahAra bhegAM thAya. mahIM ApaNAmAM nAca cAlu thaI jAya, tyAra pachI nAcavALI dekhAya. eTale pahelAM ApaNAmAM ja zarU thaI jAya, tyAra pachI badhe dekhAya. ema ne ema to thAya ja nahIM ne ? pahelo ApaNAmAM mAla bharelo che to ja bheguM thAya, nahIM to bheguM thAya ja nahIM ne ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya 187 jeTalA hisAba bAMdhavA hoya eTalA bAMdhajo. jeTalI majabUtI hoya eTalAM hisAba bAMdhajo, bAkI bhogavatI vakhate sahana nA thAya ne raDAraDa kare, enAM karatAM pahelethI ja cetIne hisAba bAMdhajo. e badhA hisAba choDavA to paDaze ne ? viSayanI vedanA karatAM narkanI vedanA sArI. A viSaya to bIja nAMkhe pAchuM. narkamAM bIja paDe nahIM, narkamAM bhogavavAnuM ekaluM ja, DebiTa pUrI thaI gaI. ane kreDiTa hoya to tyAM devagatimAM pUrI thAya che. jyAre viSayamAM to navAM bIja paDyA vagara rahe ja nahIM. A to amane bahu nAnapaNamAMthI vicAro AvatA, badhA bahu vicAro karI nAkhelA. | 'gaNe kASTanI pUtaLI, te bhagavAna samAna.' have kASTanI pUtaLI zI rIte gaNe ?! gaNavuM te kaMI saheluM che ? A loka to sAce ja kASTanI pUtaLI lAvI ApIe to ya Ama bAthamAM ghAla ghAla kare evAM che ! have ahIM dekhe ne vairAga Ave, te to bhagavAna ja kahevAya ! hADakAM, mAMsa, lohIthI bharelo A deha enA jevo jagatamAM koI gaMdavADo nathI. jayAre A deha ja mokSanuM kAma kADhe to enAM jevuM koI bIjuM uttama nathI ! manuSya deha che, enAMthI jemanuM kAma kADhavuM hoya temanuM thAya evuM che. brahmacaryathI to manane saMskArI karavAnuM che ne jJAna samajavAnuM che ke kyAMya kheMcANa nA thAya. amane A strI-puruSo kevAM dekhAya ? pahelAM tadana nAgAM dekhAya, pachI cAmaDI kADhI nAkhelAM dekhAya eTale pachI vairAga ja rahe ne ?! vairAga te kaMI mArI-ThokIne nA Ave, e to jJAnathI Ave ? praznakartA : A to bahu gUDha kahevAya. dAdAzrI : A samajavA bese to bahu UMDuM che, paNa chatAM saheluM che. kyAMya virodhAbhAsa na Ubho thAya. A saiddhAMtika jJAna che ane sabaLa anubhavapUrvakanuM jJAna che. A to ApaNo akrama mArga, tethI ApaNe khAvA-pIvAnI chUTa mUkI, badhA prakAranI chUTa mUkI, paNa ApaNe viSaya sAme cetavAnuM kahIe chIe ! bAkI, viSayathI to bhagavAna paNa DaryA hatA. ApaNe to sinemAnI paNa chUTa ApI. kAraNa ke sinemAmAM evo tanmayAkAra nA thAya, jyAre viSayamAM to bhAre tanmayAkAra thAya che. viSayanI phasAmaNa to juo ! A kerI jhADa upara dekhAtI hoya ne lokoe dekhI to rAtre AvIne laI jAya. tevuM A strI koIne gamI hoya to, tene rAtre AvIne uThAvI jAya. te A ya badhI kerIo ja che ne ? je bhogavAI jAya te badhI ja kerIo. A UMcI jAtanI hAphusanI kerIo hoya, paNa bhogavAI jAya pachI goTalo paDI rahe ane AmAM maratI vakhate goTalo laIne joDe jAya. | viSaya jo nAchUTake bhogavavo paDe to e viSa nathI. tuM paisA chUTathI vApare ke nAchUTake ? A to paisAnI ja vAta che, paNa A eka ja vakhatanA viSayamAM to abajo-abajonuM nukasAna che, bhayaMkara hiMsA che. A paisAnI bahu kiMmata nathI, paiso to pharI Ave. A badhA hisAba bhogavavA paDaze.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya manuSyano svabhAva haraiyo che. haraiyo eTale jyAM dekhe tyAM coMTe, jyAM dekhe tyAM coMTe. bIjI badhI vastumAM rUpa jovAnuM che, AmAM rUpa che ja kyAM, te jovAnuM ? A to uparathI ja rUpALAM dekhAya che. pelI kerI to aMdara kAcI hoya to ya svAda lAge ne durgaMdhe ya nA Ave ane Ane kApo to ? durgaMdhano pAra nA hoya. 188 eTale A ahIM ja mAyA che. AkhA jagatanI mAyA ahIM ja bharelI che. strIonI mAyA puruSomAM che ne puruSonI mAyA strIomAM che. praznakartA : tethI ja badhuM aTakyuM che ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, tethI ja aTakyuM che. moTAmAM moTI aTakaNa viSaya saMbaMdhI ! kRpALudevane lallujI mahArAje suratathI kAgaLa lakhelo ke amAre tamArAM darzana karavA muMbaI AvavuM che. tyAre kRpALudeve kahyuM ke muMbaI e mohamayI nagarI che, sAdhu-AcAryone mATe e kAmanI nathI. ahIM to jyAMthI tyAMthI moha garI jaze. tamArA moDhethI nahIM pesI jAya to kAnathI pesI jaze, AMkhathI pesI jaze. chevaTe A havA javAnAM chidro che, temAMthI ya moha pesI jaze !!! mATe ahIM AvavAmAM phAyado nathI. AnuM nAma kRpALudeve zuM pADyuM, mohamayI nagarI. emAM meM tamane A 'jJAna' ApyuM che. have zuM e mohamayI kaMI UDI gaI ? kaMI bI-o-ema-bI-e-vAya baoNmbe thaI gayuM ? nA, mohamayI ja che. eTale ame tamane kahIe ke bIjA pAMca indriyonA viSayanA nahIM, paNa strIone ne puruSone eka ja kahIe ke jyAM AgaLa strI-viSaya ke puruSa-viSaya saMbaMdhI vicAra Avyo ke tarata ja tyAM ne tyAM tamAre pratikramaNa karI nAkhavAM. 'oNna dha spoTa' to karI ja nAkhavuM. paNa pachI pAchAM enAM so-baso pratikramaNo karI nAkhavAM. vakhate hoTalamAM nAsto karavA gayA ho ne tenuM pratikramaNa nahIM karyuM hoya to cAlaze. huM tenuM pratikramaNa karAvI laIza. paNa A viSaya saMbaMdhI roga nA ghUsI jAya. A to bhAre roga che. A roga kADhavAnuM auSadha zuM ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya 189 tyAre kahe ke dareka mANasane jyAM aTakaNa hoya, tyAM AgaLa A roga hoya. amuka puruSane, amuka strI jatI hoya to ene e jue ne tarata ene mahIM vAtAvaraNa pheraphAra thaI jAya. have A badhA Ama che to taDabUcAM ja, paNa eNe to vigatavAra enuM rUpa khoLI kADheluM hoya che. A cIbhaDAnA DhagalAM upara ene kaMI rAga thAya che ? paNa manuSyo che eTale ene rUpa upara pahelethI Adata che, 'A AMkha kevI sarasa che, AvaDI AvaDI AMkha che' ema kahe che. 'alyA, AvaDI AvaDI sarasa AMkha to pelA bheMsanA bhAIne ya hoya che, kema tyAM rAga nathI thato tane ? tyAre kahe ke e to pADo che, ne A to manuSya che. alyA, A to phasAmaNanI jagAo che. dekhata bhUlI jo TaLe to.... akrama vijJAna zuM kahe che ke pharsTa kalAsa hAphusa kerI jovAno vAMdho nathI. tane sugaMdha AvI teno ya vAMdho nathI, paNa bhogavavAnI vAta nA karIza. jJAnIo paNa kerIone jue che, soDe che ! eTale A viSayo je bhogavAya che, e to 'vyavasthita'nA hisAbe bhogavAya che. e to 'vyavasthita' che ja ! paNa vagara kAmanuM bahA2 AkarSaNa thAyane, teno zo artha ? je kerIo ghera AvavAnI nA hoya, tenI para AkarSaNa rahe, e jokhama che badhuM. tenAthI karma baMdhAya ! zrImad rAjacaMdre kahyuM che ke, 'dekhata bhUlI TaLe to sarva duHkhano kSaya thAya.' zAstromAM vAMcIe chIe ke strI para rAga nA karavo ane pAchAM strIne joIe chIe ne bhUlI javAya che, tene dekhata bhUlI kahevAya. meM to tamane evuM jJAna ApyuM che ke have tamane dekhata bhUlI ya rahI nahIM, tamane zuddhAtmA dekhAya, bahAranuM pekiMga game tevuM hoya to ya pekiMga joDe ApaNane zI levAdevA ? pekiMga to saDI javAnuM che, baLI javAnuM che, pekiMgamAM zuM kADhavAnuM che ? eTalA mATe jJAna ApeluM che ke ApaNe zuddhAtmA juo, eTale dekhata bhUlI TaLe ! dekhata bhUlI TaLe eTale zuM ke A mithyA draSTi che. e draSTi phare ane samyak draSTi thAya to badhA duHkhono kSaya thAya ! pachI e bhUla nA thavA de, draSTi kheMcAya nahIM. ApaNe to sAmI vyaktimAM zuddhAtmA ja joIe, pachI ApaNane

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190 samajathI prApta brahmacarya bIjo bhAva kema utpanna thAya ?! nahIM to mANasane kUtarAM pare ya rAga thAya, bahu sAruM rUpALuM hoya to enI para rAga thAya. paNa ApaNe zuddhAtmA joIe to rAga thAya ? eTale ApaNe zuddhAtmA ja jovuM. A dekhata bhUlI TaLe evI che nahIM. ane jo TaLe to sarva duHkhono kSaya thAya. jo divyacakSu hoya to dekhata bhUlI TaLe, nahIM to zI rIte TaLe ? vijJAtathI viSaya para vijaya ! praznakartA : eno artha e ke rAga paNa nA thavo joIe ne bhUlI javuM joIe ? dAdAzrI : ApaNuM A jJAna evuM che ke rAga to thAya evo ja nathI. paNa AkarSaNa thAya te ghaDIe enA zuddhAtmA juo to AkarSaNa nA thAya. dekhata bhUlI eTale joIe ne bhUla khaIe. joyuM nA hoya tyAM sudhI kazuM bhUla nA thAya ane dekhyuM ke, bhUla thAya. jyAM sudhI ApaNe oraDAmAM besI rahyA hoIe, tyAM sudhI kazuM nA thAya. paNa laganamAM gayAne joyuM ke pachI bhUlo thAya pAchI. tyAM ApaNe zuddhAtmA jo jo karIe to bIjo kazo bhAva utpanna nA thAya, ne bhAva utpanna thaI gayo hoya, enAM pUrvakarmanA dhakkAthI, to enuM pratikramaNa karI nAkhavuM, A upAya che. ahIM gharamAM beThA hoya tyAM sudhI kazuM ya manamAM kharAba vicAra nahotA AvatA. ne laganamAM gayA ke viSayanA vicAro UbhAM thayA. saMyoga bhego thayo ke vicAra UbhAM thAya. A 'dekhata bhUlI' ekalA divyacakSuthI ja TaLe ema che. divyacakSu sivAya TaLe nahIM. praznakartA : A to saMyogone TALavAnI vAta thaIne ? eTale eka ThekANe besI rahevuM ? dAdAzrI : nA. ApaNuM vijJAna to judI ja jAtanuM che, ApaNe to vyavasthitamAM je ho te bhale ho.' paNa tyAM AgaLa AjJAmAM rahevuM joIe. jyAM devatA hoya, tyAM AjJAmAM nathI rahetAM ? devatAne bhUlacUkathI aDatA nathI ne ? evuM eNe ahIM viSayomAM paNa sAcavavuM joIe ke A devatA che, pragaTa agni che. AkarSaNavALI vastu A jagatamAM je che, te pragaTa samajathI prApta brahmacarya agni che. tyAM cetavuM joIe. praznakartA : eno artha e ke ApaNe je joIe chIe, te ApaNuM nathI chatAM tyAM jo bhAva thAya, te na thavo joIe ema ? 191 dAdAzrI : ApaNuM te che ja nahIM. pudgala ApaNuM hoya ja nahIM. A ApaNuM pudgala ApaNuM nathI, to enuM pudgala ApaNuM kema hoya ? AkarSaNa e pragaTa agni che. bhagavAne AkarSaNane to moha kahyo che. mohanuM mULiyuM ja AkarSaNa che. evuM badhuM jANIne lakSamAM rAkhavuM joIe ne ? ApaNe davA to jANI rAkhavI joIe ne ke AnI zI davA che ? A vijJAna che. saMpUrNabhAve vijJAna che. devatAne kema aDatA nathI ? tyAM kema cokkasa rahe che ? kAraNa ke enuM phaLa tarata ja maLe che ane viSayamAM to pahelI lAlaca thAya che. eTale lAlacathI phasAya che. A devatA aDelo sAro. teno upAya che. pachI game te copaDIe to ThaMDuM paDI jAya. paNa peluM to atyAre lAlacamAM phasAvI ane pAcho Avato bhava dekhADe. A to ApaNA jJAnane ya dhakko mAranAruM che, AvuM moTuM vijJAna che, ene ya dhakko mAre evuM che !! mATe cetavuM ! 'dekhata bhUlI'no artha zo ? ke mithyA darzana ! paNa bIjuM badhuM 'dekhata bhUlI' thAya teno vAMdho nahIM, paNa A viSaya saMbaMdhamAM 'dekhata bhUlI'nI bahu moTAmAM moTI jokhamadArI che. have tyAM 'dekhata bhUlI'no upAya zo ? ApaNane jJAna maLyuM hoya to potAne bhUla khabara paDe ke ahIM AgaLa A bhUla khAdhI, ahIM mArI draSTi bagaDI hatI, tyAM pAchuM pote AlocanA-pratikramaNa-pratyAkhyAna karIne paNa dhoI nAkhe. paNa jene A jJAna nA maLyuM hoya, te zuM kare bicAro ? tene to bhayaMkara khoTI vastune kharI mAnIne cAlavuM paDe, A ajAyabI che ne ?! draSTithI navuM dIThuM ne AMkha kheMcAI, to tarata pratikramaNa karI nAkhajo. anAdi kALathI AMkho ja kheMcAkheMca thaI che ne ? navo mAla dITho ke AMkha kheMcAya. paNa alyA, navo che ja nahIM. A to enuM e ja lohI, paruM, hADakAM, e ja mAla che. phakta cAdaro phera che. koInI bleka

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 193 samajaNa paDe ke A bIja mahIM paDeluM che eTale A to bahu jokhama che. A viSaya to bahu jokhamavALI vastu che. jyAM jayAM sAmI vyakti jAya tyAM ApaNe javuM paDe. ane sAmI vyakti pAcho potAno chokaro thaIne UbhI rahe. eTale AvuM badhuM jokhama UbhuM thAya. eTale viSayane mATe ApaNe ahIM bahu kaDaka tethI rahIe chIene ! bIjuM badhuM calAvI levAya, paNa viSaya calAvAya nahIM.. 192 samajathI prApta brahmacarya koTana'nI, koI 'hAITa koTana'nI, koInI 'yallo koTana'nI. cAdaro badhI judI judI jAtanI che. AmAM kazuM jovA jevuM che ja nahIM, mahIM eno e ja mAla che ! A rezamI cAdaramAM bAMdheluM che ane rezamI cAdara bAMdhyA vagaranuM hoya to ene cItarI caDhe ! amane to AmAM enuM e ja dekhAya ne tame to cAdaro jo jo karyA karo cho, paNa mahIM mAla juone ! mAla to mahIM eno e ja che ne ? mATe A ekaluM ja ahIM AgaLa je maLyuM hoya, 'phAIla hoya eTaluM saMtoSa rAkhIne kAma levAnuM ane bIjuM je khAvuM hoya, dahIMvaDAM-baTAkAvaDAM, jeTalAM khAvAM hoya eTalAM khAI lejo ! ATalo A viSaya ja jItavAno che. game te raste, bIjuM kazuM ya nahIM. bIjuM to khAva-pIo, majhA karo ne ! jokhamonuM paNa jokhama eTale ja viSayaroganuM mULiyuM ! jema ApaNe tamAku vAvI hoya ane joDe bIjo koI choDa Uge, to te UgatAM pahelAM samajI javuM ke A tamAku na hoya, eTale ene UkheDIne pheMkI devuM joIe, nahIM to choDa moTo thaI jAya. A kALanAM to khetaro nayAM bagaDI ja gayelAM hoya che. nahIM to 'A' 'vijJAna' kAma kADhI nAkhe evuM che. eke ekane bhAvi tIrthakara banAve evuM che A vijJAna !!! bAkI viSaya AgaLa to jainadharme zuM kahyuM che ke jhera khAIne marI jaje, paNa viSaya nA karIza. brahmacarya ja nA tUTavuM joIe, evuM jainadharma kahe che. paNa ApaNe ahIM akramamArgamAM ene bAda ApyuM, ke bhaI, strI hoya to ghera raheje ane bIje draSTi bagADIza nahIM. ane strI nA hoya to pratikramaNa karyA kare. kAraNa ke pachI vIrya che te adhogAmI jatuM hoya, te UrdhvagAmI jaI zake che. vIrya niraMtara adhogAmI svabhAvanuM che. ene AMtaro, vidhi karo ane pratikramaNa karo, eTale ema karatAM badhuM UrdhvagAmI caDhI jAya. bahAra, kaMIka joyuM ane AMkha kheMcAI jAya. eTale jANavuM ke A pahelAnuM bIja paDeluM che, te bIja UgyuM, tyAM tame zuM karo ? praznakartA : tyAM pratikramaNa thaI ja jAya che. dAdAzrI : enA to niraMtara pratikramaNa kara kara karavAM paDe. ApaNane A to akrama vijJAna che. tethI ATaluM ja jokhama rAkhyuM. bAkI jainadharma to bIjuM badhuM ya jokhama ja kahyuM che. badhAne jokhama kahIe to kyAre pAra Ave ?! to loka zuM kaheze pachI ke 'mAre tamArI joDe dhaMdho ja nathI karavo, sodo ja karavo nathI." paNa eka bAbata hoya to kaheze ke 'badhuM ja sahana karI laIza paNa A eka ja bAbata che ne, to to ene sAcavIza." ane to ene vijJAnano lAbha maLe ne ! eTale ApaNe to A eka ja bAbata kahI che. khedathI chUTAya viSayathI ! saheje caMcaLatA utpanna thavI ja nA joIe. viSayanI caMcaLatA e ja anaMta avatAranuM duHkhanuM mULiyuM che. dahADe dahADe du:kho ja UbhAM thayAM kare, nahIM to AtmA prApta thayA pachI duHkha kema UbhuM thAya ? A to bhayaMkara doSa kahevAya. nahIM to du:kha hoya to jatuM rahe ne sukha Ave. badhI sArI vastu UbhI thAya. AtmA prApta thayo eTale badhI sagavaDa saraLa hoya, paddhatisara hoya. ema ne ema gaDuM cAle nahIM ne ! A to vItarAgonuM vijJAna che ! sAcuM sukha maLyuM nathI eTale A badhA viSayo bhogave che, nahIM to viSayo zA mATe bhogave ? AtmA viSayI che ja nahIM, AtmA nirviSayI che. paNa A to karmonA pratApathI du:kha thAya che, e sahana nahIM thavAthI, AvuM badhuM gaTaramAM hAtha ghAle che. gaTaramAM moTuM ghAlIne gaTara pIe che. jJAna hatuM nahIM eTale sahana thatuM na hatuM. eTale have A jJAna ApyuM che. eTale tamane sahana karavAnI zakti utpanna thaI che. tamane judApaNAno bhAva rahI zake che. to pachI zene mATe viSayo hovA joIe ? ane chatAM

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194 samajathI prApta brahmacarya ya pariNAma koI badalI nA zake. kAraNa ke e pudgala pariNAma che. ane e to rijhalTa che. rijhalTa badalI nA zakAya, paNa rijhalTa upara kheda, kheda ne kheda rahyo eTale tame chUTA. tamane jo kheda che, to tame chUTA cho ane rijhalTamAM ekAkAra cho to baMdhana che. A vijJAna ATaluM badhuM suMdara che ! atyAra sudhI koIe A phoDa pADyo nathI ke A mANase veDhamI khAdhI, teno e gunegAra kharo ? tyAre ApaNe zuM kahIe chIe ke nA, e gunegAra nathI, chatAM jagate ene gunegAra mAnyo che. enuM kAraNa che, ke enI pAchaLa ene veDhamI khAdhAnA bhAva paDe che ke veDhamI bahu sarasa che, agara to bahu kharAba che. tethI A loko veDhamI khAvA nathI detA. jo aMdarathI bhAva palaTo khAya nahIM to viSayono kazo ya vAMdho nathI. ane evuM ame jJAna ApyuM che. A jJAnathI aMdara bhAva palaTo khAya nahIM, mATe bahArano vAMdho ame rAkhyo nathI. tame veDhamI khAI zako ane aMdara tame tamArA zuddhAtmAmAM rahI zako, joyA karo. evuM A vijJAna che. veDhamImAM tanmayAkAra thayA vagara rahe nahIM. jo bhagata hoya to "zuM kAma veDhamI banAve che ?' ema dveSa karyA karato hoya, eTale 'AvuM nA banAvavuM joIe,' emAM citta pesI jAya ane jagata AkhuM rAga karyA karatuM hoya ke veDhamI to bahu suMdara che, ne banAve to sAruM, emAM citta rahyA kare ! satsaMgathI kATa kapAya ! tethI ame halakuM karI ApyuM. A jagate je mAnyuM che ne, sthaLa bhAgane ja dharmanI zarUAta mAnI che. paNa ame kahyuM ke sthULa bhAgane ja uDADI mUko ! A kaLiyugamAM sthULa bhAgane pakaDavA gayA teno to badho mAra che ne ! cULa bhAga to roga ja che ane kaLiyugamAM sthaLa bhAga je rUpakamAM che te to ekeya rAITa nathI, eTale ame kahyuM ke jyAM nAdArI ja che te bahAranuM pheMkI do, kaTa opha karI nAMkho ane e to rijhalTa che. ene have leTa go karo. praznakartA : Aje satsaMga bahu sarasa maLyo. dAdAzrI : hA, brahmacarya para vAta nIkaLI ne ! kATa caDhI gayo hoya samajathI prApta brahmacarya 195 te khaMkheravuM to paDaze ne? jUnA gunA jeTalA thayA hoya tene mApha karI ApavA taiyAra chuM, paNa navuM have ema kaMI cAlaze nahIM. have tamane sAcuM sukha maLyuM. jyAM sudhI sAcuM sukha nA hoya tyAM sudhI Aropita sukha bhogavo. paNa have potAnuM sukha paramasukha ke je tame jyAre mAMgo tyAre maLe evuM che, to pachI have tamAre zene mATe AvuM badhuM joIe ! koI kahe ke pAchaluM karma naDe che. te evuM naDe kharuM paNa konuM nAma karma naDyuM kahevAya ? ke mANasa kUvAmAM ajANathI paDI jAya ne, tene pAchaluM karma naDyuM kahevAya. bAkI Ama jo nizcaya hoya ke mAre nathI ja paDavuM. evI rIte viSayanA kUvAmAM nathI ja paDavuM evo nizcaya hovo joIe. pachI paDI javAya to teno guno mApha karIe chIe. have jANIne pachI pelA kuvAmAM paDe eno guno mApha nathI karatA. paNa ApaNe tyAM to huM badhA gunA mApha karuM chuM. pachI have keTalIka mAphI ApIe ?! jyAM jokhama nA hoya tyAM chUTa ApIe ja chIe ne, badhuM ja khAvA-pIvAnI chUTa ApIe ja chIe ne ! kaMI nathI ApI badhI chUTa ? A to kALanI ajAyabI che. A to agiyAramuM Azcarya che ! mANasa strI sAthe rahIne jagatanAM du:khano abhAva anubhave e baneluM nathI ! jagata AkhuM duHkhI che, tyAM saMsAranAM du:khono abhAva e to moTAmAM moTo puruSArtha kahevAya ! - have tamAre A pUruM thayuM kyAre gaNAze ? jyAre tamane joIne sAmAne samAdhi thAya, tamane joIne sAmo duHkha bhUle tyAre pUruM thayuM gaNAya ! tamAruM hAsya evuM dekhAya, tamAro AnaMda evo dekhAya ke badhAne hAsya UbhuM thAya tyAre jANavuM ke A duHkha potAnuM badhuM gayuM ! tamane badhAne hajI Tenzana rahe che ane te "Tenzana' ya amArI AjJAmAM nahIM rahevAthI che. AjJA eTalI badhI suMdara che ne bahu sahelI che. paNa have keTaluMka amuka bhogavavAnuM hoya te chUTako thAya nahIM ne ! ane emAM amArAthI hAtha ghalAya nahIM ne ?! paNa jyAre tyAre AmAMthI nIkaLI javAze. kAraNa ke jyAre sAco rasto jaDyo pachI koI mANasa mArga ke nahIM ne !

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[2] viSaya bhUkhatI bhayAnakatA ! asaMtoSatI bhUkha, have kyAre chUTaze ?! koI puruSathI strIo sAmuM jo jo nA karAya ane koI strIthI puruSa sAmuM jo jo nA karAya. potAnuM je hoya te ja chUTa che. halavAInI dukAne loko jo jo nathI karatA. kAraNa ke e jANe che ke ApaNuM na hoya. paNa A puruSo strIone joyA kare che ane strIo puruSone joyA kare che. alyA AmAM zuM jovAnuM te ? A to taDabUcAM jAya che badhA. emAM zuM jovAnuM che ? AvuM koI kahetuM nathI ! saba calane do, evuM bolyA kare ne ! paNa A to bhayaMkara jokhamadArI che. potAnA hakkanuM bhogavo. potAnI paiNelI strI hoya, to e strInAM mA-bApa hau paiNAve che ene, gAmavALAo paiNAve che, eTale badhA loko 'ekasepTa' kare che ne ? e hakkano vAMdho nathI, paNa bIjuM to jovAya nahIM. bIje kyAMya draSTi bagADAya nahIM. paNa Avo upadeza koIe Apyo nahIM. AvuM ne AvuM pola cAlavA dIdhuM, te gADuM UMdhuM cAlyuM. A to jagata che. zuM driSTa nA bagaDe ? kAraNa ke jAta jAtanI samajathI prApta brahmacarya 193 kerIonuM A to saMgrahasthAna. hAphusanI kerI hoya, ratnAgirinI, bIjI hoya, trIjI hoya, te mANasa bicAro zuM kare ? eTalo badho 'kaMTrola' zI rIte Ave ? A jJAna lIdhuM hoya to 'kaMTrola' rAkhI zake. bAkI aNahakkanuM bhogavavAnA vicAra AvyA, tyArathI jAnavara gatimAM jAya. ApaNA manamAM ema thAya ke ApaNuM zuM thavAnuM che. eTale loka bhaya nathI rAkhatA. paNa A jagata to badhuM bhayanuM ja kArakhAnuM che. mATe cetIne cAlo. bhayaMkara kaLiyuga che. divase divase 'DAuna' kALa AvyA kare che, vicAro ne badhuM kharAba bagaDatA ja javAnA. mATe mokSe javAnI vAta karazo to kaMIka dahADo vaLaze. keTalAMka mANaso evA hoya che ke sarasa majAnI mIThAI ke pharasANa jue to paNa ene bhAva ke abhAva nA thAya. evA paMdara TakA mANaso kharA. paNa A strI-puruSa che, te to jovAthI ja bhAva ke abhAva utpanna thAya che. emAM be TakA mANaso bAda karo, paNa bAkI badhAnA mana bagaDyA vagara rahe ja nahIM. A to kAkAno chokaro hoya to paNa chokarInuM mana bagaDe ane kAkAnI chokarI hoya to paNa chokarAnuM mana bagaDe. mIThAImAM zAthI nathI bagaDatuM ? kAraNa ke tyAM ene saMtoSa che. paNa viSayamAM to asaMtoSa che ne ? paNa AmAM asaMtoSa jevuM che ja zuM te ? A paNa kerIyuM ja che ne ? jene khAdhAmAM asaMtoSa che enuM citta khorAkamAM jAya ane jyAM hoTala dekhe tyAM coMTI jAya, paNa khAvAno ekalo ja kaMI viSaya che ? A to pAMca indriya ane temAM keTalAMya viSaya kahevAya. khAvAno asaMtoSa hoya tenuM citta khAvAmAM coMTe. tema jene jovAno asaMtoSa hoya te jyAM ne tyAM AMkho pherava pherava karato hoya. puruSane strIno asaMtoSa hoya ne strIne puruSano asaMtoSa hoya eTale pachI tyAM citta coMTe. Ane bhagavAne moha kahyo. dekhatAMnI sAthe ja coMTe. strI dekhI ke citta coMTI jAya. A loka pAMsarA rahetA haze ? A to kyAMya sukha paDatuM nathI tethI valakhAM ja mAre che. ko'ka puNyazALI hoya te valakhAM nA mArato hoya, tyAre e lobhamAM paDyo hoya. ko'ka mANasa bahu bhUkhyo thayo hoya to kapaDAMnI dukAna sAmuM jue ? nA, e to mIThAInI dukAna jue, nahIM to hoTala jue. jyAre dehanI bhUkha

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 199 thaI gayo. A jagata ughADI AMkhe jovA jevuM che ja nahIM. temAM ya kaLiyugamAM to bhayaMkara asaro kare. A AMkhamAMthI bahu saMsAra Ubho thaI jAya che. 198 samajathI prApta brahmacarya nA hoya tyAre mananI bhUkha UbhI thAya. A banne bhUkhe nA hoya tyAre vANInI bhUkha UbhI thAya. evuM loka bole che ne, ke pelAne to huM kahyA vagara rahuM ja nahIM ? e ja vANInI bhUkha. ghera ApaNe kazuM khAtA hoIe ne bhikhArI Ave to ApaNA daiDiyA nathI kahetAM, alyA, sAcavajo najara nA lAgI jAya ?! A najara lAge eTale zuM ke jenI bhUkha lAge temAM citta coMTe che. strIne puruSanI bhUkha hoya to strInuM citta puruSamAM coMTI jAya. strInI bhUkha hoya to strIne dekhe to puruSanuM citta strImAM coMTI jAya. Ama najaruM lAgavAthI bagaDyuM che badhuM. 'jJAnI puruSa' ekalAne ja koInI najara nA caDhe. koI Ama AMkha mAMDe to paNa 'jJAnI puruSa' enA zuddhAtmA ja jue, eTale kazuM aDe nahIM. A nAnAM chokarAM rUpALAM hoya che, te gharanAM loko ene kapALe kALI TIlI coDe. kAraNa ke najara nA lAge ! koI bhUkhyo ene jue to paNa citta nA coMTe, tethI kALI TIlI kare. darzana mohathI khaDo saMsAra ! anaMta avatArathI darzanamohane lIdhe UbhI thayelI A saMsAra jaMjALa che, te samyakdarzana thAya tyAre darzanamoha tUTe, jagata zAthI UbhuM rahyuM che ? darzanamohathI. ATaATaluM karavA chatAM muktine kema nathI pAmatAM ? darzanamoha naDe che. koI mANasa rAte jamyo hoya, paNa savAre pAchI kakaDIne bhUkha lAgI hoya, to e sonAnI dukAna ke sADInI dukAna nA jue. paNa ene to kaMdoInI dukAna ja dekhAya. zAthI ? enuM citta khAvA mATe ja bhaTakyA karatuM hoya ? dehamAM bhUkhanI 'iphekTa' thaI eTale khAvAno moha thayA kare, enuM nAma darzanamoha. dehane viSayanI bhUkha lAge to strIno moha jAge. eTale A darzanamohathI to AvatA avatAranAM bIja nAkhe che ne ? tethI AvatA avatArano saMsAra Ubho kare che. vItarAgane eka najara nA lAge. mATe saMsArathI chUTavuM hoya to vItarAga thA. paNa vItarAga kevI rIte thAya ? darzanamoha tuTe evI koI rIta kara ! darzanamohathI saMsAra Ubho rahyo che. ApaNe kaMIka sArA bhIMDA joyA to ApaNI AMkha tyAM coMTI jAya. kaMIka sAruM joyuM tyAM najara coMTI jAya. najara coMTI eTale saMsAra Ubho A jagatamAM to badhI bhramita kare evI ja cIja che ne ? jyAM mana ja kAcuM che, tyAM zuM thAya ? AmAM jovA jevuM che ja zuM che ? A to jovAnI Teva kahevAya. je dekhAya che enI para moha thAya che. A to mANasane badhA paryAyanuM jJAna hoya nahIM ! A khAdheluM UlaTI thaI jAya. pachI UlaTI thaI, e bhAga peluM khAdheluM che, eno ja bhAga che evuM eTae-TAIma lakSamAM nA rahe ne ? jema A kerI hoya che, te mora Ave, pachI phaLa bese, nAnI nAnI kerIo Ave. e tUrI lAge, pachI khATI thatI jAya, pachI mIThI thAya, e ja pAchI kahovAI jAya, bagaDI jAya, gaMdhAI UThe, saDI jAya. e badhA ja paryAya eTa-e-TAIma hAjara rahe pachI kerI para moha ja nA thAya ne? khAvA jevuM, jovA jevuM to satyugamAM hatuM. AjanI strIo jovA jevI nathI dekhAtI, puruSo jovA jevo nathI dekhAtA. A to UtarI gayelI kerIyuM jevA dekhAya che. alyA, A UtarI gayelA mAla para zuM jovA jevuM lAge che tane ? strI e puruSanuM saMDAsa che ane puruSa e strInuM saMDAsa che. jene mokSe javuM hoya teNe strI jAti upara ke strIe puruSa jAti upara draSTi ja mAMDavAnI baMdha karavI. nahIM to Ano ukela ja nahIM Ave. A cAmaDI kADhI nAkhe to zuM dekhAya ? paNa A mANaso to Ame ya evA gaMdhAya che ke ema thAya ke A to kaI jAtanA mANasa che ! pahelAMnA kALamAM evI strIo hatI padminI-strIo, te sugaMdha Ave, bAjumAM beThI hoya to paNa ahIM sugaMdha AvyA kare. atyAre to A puruSomAM barakata ja nathI, ne strIomAM paNa barakata nathI. badho pheMkI devAno mAla, kADhI nAkhavAno mAla kahevAya, rabIza maTIriyalsa. emAM pAcho moha coMTADe. alyA, emAM kazuM moha rAkhavA jevuM tane lAgyuM ? kema dhoLI cAmaDI hoya tethI ? sIlabaMdha peTrolanA DabbA hoya, havA paNa nA nIkaLe evA hoya, chatAM A rUmamAM koI bIDI pIve to ya DabbA saLagI jAya. mATe strI

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 200 puruSoe 'bIvera opha peTrola' evuM borDa mAravuM. strI-puruSatA draSTirogatI davA zI ? A jagatamAM strIne puruSanuM ane puruSane strInuM eTrekazana amuka uMmara sudhI rahyA ja kare. te jovAthI ja kaoNjhIjha utpanna thAya. loka kahe jovAthI zuM thAya ? alyA, jovAthI to naryA kaoNjhIjha utpanna thAya ja, paNa jo 'draSTi' ApI hoya to jovAthI kaoNjhIjha utpanna nA thAya. jagata AkhuM vyupoInTathI jue che. jyAre jJAnI ja 'phUla' draSTithI jue che. A loka to zuM kahe che ke mane strI mATenA kharAba vicAra Ave che. alyA ! tuM jouM chuM tyAre ja philama paDI jAya che. enuM pachI rUpakamAM Ave che, tyAre have enI bUmo pADe che ke Ama kema thAya che ? philama e kaoNjhIjha che ane rUpaka e IphekTa che. amane kaoNjhIjha ja nA paDe. jene kaoNjhIjha ja nA paDe ene dehadhArI paramAtmA ja kahevAya. strI e to eka jAtanI AtmA upara IphekTa che. strI e IphekTa che, puruSa e IphekTa che. AnI IphekTa ApaNI upara nA paDe tyAre kharuM. have strIne AtmA rUpe juo, pudgalane zuM jovAnuM ? A kerIo rUpALI paNa hoya ane saDI paNa jAya, temAM zuM jovAnuM ? je saDe nahIM, kahovAya nahIM te AtmA che, tene jovAno che. amane to strI bhAva, puruSa bhAva ja nahIM. ame e bajAramAM ja pesavAnA nahIM. 'A strI che' ema jue che. e puruSano mahIM roga hoya to ja strI dekhAya, nahIM to AtmA ja dekhAya ane 'A puruSa che' ema jue che, e eno strIno roga che. nIrogI thAya to mokSa thAya. atyAre amArI nIrogI avasthA che. te mane evo vicAra ja nA Ave. phakta khokhAM judAM che evuM rahe, e svAbhAvika che, paNa evuM lakSa rahe ke A strI che ne A puruSa che, evI badhI bhAMjagaDa nahIM. e to mahIM e roga hoya tyAM sudhI ja evuM dekhADe che. jyAM sudhI e roga che tyAM sudhI ApaNe parejImAM zuM karavuM joIe ? ke upayoga jAgRta rAkhavo. AvuM dekhAya ke tarata ja zuddhAtmA juo. A bhUla khavaDAvI ene dekhata bhUlI kahevAya che. puruSane samajathI prApta brahmacarya 201 puruSano roga nA hoya to A strI che evuM nA dekhAya ane strIne strIno roga nA hoya to A puruSa che evuM nA dekhAya. badhAmAM AtmA dekhAya. praznakartA : eTalI badhI jAgRti nA rahe ne ? dAdAzrI : jAgRti nA rahe to mAra ja khAvAno. A brahmacarya to jene bahu jAgRti rahe tene kAmanuM. kramikamArgamAM to strIne pAse rAkhe ja nahIM. kAraNa ke e mahAna jokhama che. strI e puruSane mATe jokhama che. puruSa e strIne mATe jokhama che. paNa huM kahuM chuM ke AmAM strIno doSa nathI, strI to AtmA che, doSa tArA svabhAvano che. dAdA sivAya na aDAya koIthI ame to tame je mAMgo e ApIe. kAraNa ke amArAmAM, ame akhaMDa brahmacArI chIe. jene koI dA'Do vicAra ja nahIM Avyo Aja aThThAvIsa varSathI jJAna thayA pachI. eTale ame strIone aDI zakIene. nahIM to strIne nA aDAya. pacAsa hajAra mANaso che ApaNAmAM paNa ekuya ne evI chUTa nahIM ke strIone tame aDo. kAraNa ke e sparzano guNa eTalo badho vasamo che. badhAM evA hoya che, evuM nahIM. paNa banatA sudhI emAM hAtha ghAlavo nahIM joIe. amane chUTa. kAraNa ke ame to koI jAtimAM nA hoIe. ke meskayulIna ke phImela ke evu koI jAtimAM nA hoya. ame jAtinI bahAra nIkaLI gayelA hoIe. strI puruSoe ekabIjAne aDAya nahIM, bahu jokhama che. jyAM sudhI pUrNa thayAM nathI tyAM sudhI aDAya nahIM. nahIM to eka paramANu paNa viSayanuM mahIM pese to keTalAMya bhava bagADI nAkhe. amArAmAM to viSayanuM paramANu ja nA hoya. eka paramANu paNa bagaDe to tarata ja pratikramaNa karavuM paDe. pratikramaNa kare to sAmAne bhAva utpanna nA thAya. strIne aDavAno adhikAra koIne ya nathI. kAraNa ke strIne aDe to paramANunI asara thayA vagara rahe nahIM. parastrIne saheja aDyA hoya, to

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203 202 samajathI prApta brahmacarya kalAka sudhI dhovuM paDe. 'jJAnI puruSa' ekalAne ja caraNe aDIne strIo vidhi kare. 'jJAnI puruSa' to viSayanA badhAM bIja ukheDIne pheMkI dIdhAM hoya. emanAmAM viSayanuM bIja ja nA hoya. aDavAno adhikAra kone ? navamuM guThANuM oLaMgI gayelo hoya tene. kAraNa ke ene to viSaya saMbaMdhI vicAra ja nA Ave ne ? e vicAro ja baMdha ne ? evuM thAya pachI to ene magajamAM badhA Urdhva ja vicAro thAya, badhI zaktio Urdhva ja jAya. A jJAna thayA pachI amane koI divasa viSayano vicAra Avyo nathI. viSayano vicAra Avyo nA hoya, jenuM manobaLa jabarajasta jJAnapUrvaka thaI gayuM hoya, pachI tene vAMdho nahIM. tethI amane strIo Ama caraNe aDIne vidhi karI zake ne ? paNa bIjA koIne ya strIone eDavAnI chaTa nahIM ane strIoe paNa koIne ya aDavAnI chUTa nahIM, aDAya ja nahIM. bIjAne to strI aDatAM pahelAM ja viSaya vicAra Ubho thAya. amane to "zrI vijhana'thI eka ja seMkaDamAM badhuM ArapAra dekhAya che. amAruM eTaluM badhuM UMcuM darzana hoya, pachI zI rIte roga Ubho thAya ? ane amane pula upara rAga ja nahIM ne ! A mArA ja pudgala upara amane rAga nahIM. pudgalathI huM tadana chUTo rahuM chuM. potAnA pudgala upara jene rAga hoya tene bIjAnA pudgala upara rAga thAya. anaMta avatArathI AnuM A ja bhogavyuM to paNa chUTatuM nathI. e ajAyabI ja che ne ! keTalAMya avatArathI viSayasukhano virodhI thayelo hoya, viSayasukhane AvaraNika draSTi rahita khUba khUba vicAryuM hoya, jabarajasta vairAga utpanna thayelo hoya to e chUTe. vairAga kyAre utpanna thAya ? ene mahIM jevuM che tevuM dekhAya tyAre. jAgRtimAM dekhe, garbhathI paiDI sudhI ! vItarAgo eTaluM ja jotA hatA ke mANasanI prAkRtika zakti utpanna thavI, vyaya thavI ane AjanI zakti, e badhI zaktione trikALa jJAnathI jotA hatA. utpanna, vyaya badhuM saMpUrNapaNe jANatA hatA eTale emane rAga utpanna nA thAya pachI. A rAga utpanna thavo e to ekalA samajathI prApta brahmacarya vartamAnakALanA jJAnathI thAya che. eka to potAnA svarUpanuM ajJAna ane vartamAnakALanuM jJAna, te pachI ene rAga utpanna thAya. bAkI jo ene ema samajAya ke A garbhamAM hatI to AvI dekhAtI hatI, janmI tyAre AvI dekhAtI hatI, nAnI bebI thaI tyAre AvI dekhAtI hatI, pachI AvI dekhAtI hatI, atyAre AvI dekhAya che, pachI AvI dekhAze, paiDI thaze tyAre AvI dekhAze, pakSAghAta thaze tyAre AvI dekhAze, nanAmI kADhaze tyAre AvI dekhAze, AvI badhI avasthAo jene lakSamAM che, ene vairAga zIkhavavAno nA hoya ! A to je AjanuM dekhAya che te dekhIne ja mUrthita thaI jAya che. ene vairAga zIkhavAno che. vItarAgo bahu DAhyA hatA. koI paNa vastu AvI to emane mUrchA utpanna nA karAve kAraNa ke e vastune vItarAgo traNe ya kALathI joI zakatA hatA. A vastu che enI kaI avasthA UbhI thaI, eTale mATImAMthI utpanna thayuM. emAMthI have ghaDo karyo, have AvI avasthA thaI, AvI avasthA thaI. pachI che te have pAcho vinAzane paMthe jaze. te badhI avasthAo kahI Ape, chevaTe mATI thaIne UbhI raheze. praznakartA : te badhI avasthAonuM jJAna ekI vakhate ja hoya ? dAdAzrI : ekI vakhate ja ! eTale peluM meM kahyuM ne ke mANasane moha kema utpanna thAya che ? tyAre kahe beu juvAna hoya che tethI ane te ghaDIe bhAna nahIM rahetu tyAM AgaLa ke A moha TakAu che ke TempararI che ? pachI Ava ja atyAre je che ne evuM ja enuM kalpanA kAyama mATe khoLe. have pachI ghaDapaNamAM zuM thAya ? kalpanA kevI thAya ? praznakartA : te vakhate ene kaMTALo Ave. dAdAzrI : A lokone zuM thaI rahyuM che te huM jANuM chuM. e I I.... game nahIM paNa kone kahe have ? kAraNa ke buddhi to A svabhAva dekhADe. eTale A janmatA pahelA kevuM hatuM ! bAbo ke bebI jamyA pachI kevA che ? te evaDI hatI tyAre kema moha utpanna thato nahato, pachIthI jarA moTI thaI kema moha nathI thato ? eTale A badhI avasthAone e khyAla

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204 samajathI prApta brahmacarya rAkhe che ane moha utpanna thAya che. e avasthAne ya khyAla rAkhe pachI. tethI AgaLanI avasthA, proDha avasthA, pachI e ghaDapaNa avasthA, pachI lakavAnI avasthA, badhAmAM zuM sthiti thaI ? ne pachI ThAThaDI kADhatI vakhatanI avasthA, bALatI vakhate avasthA. A bALatI vakhate avasthA joI hoya ne te ghaDIe prema karavAno kahyo hoya to ? eTale A to paiNyA pachI murakha bane che paNa have kahe kone ? badhA ya murakha tyAM ! beno ya mUrkhAI e samaje che, ke AvI mUrkhAI che A !! dhaNI joIne khoLyA ane have dhaNI lAvIne e moMDhA utarI jAyane, DAcA paDI jAyane, AmathI tema thAya, AMkho jatI rahI hoya, kAne saMbhaLAya nahIM ne ! ane jene khyAla hoya A badhu tene vairAga hoya ! tene vairAga zikhavADavo nA paDe ! avasthAo jenA lakSamAM rahe che, jeTalI lakhI che ne eTalI avasthA amane lakSamAM rahe eTa-e-TAIma. A vAta bahAra nA hoya. AvI vAta ahIM ja hoya ! loko to gapoTI jAya AvI vAta. ema vairAganA vicAra lAve tyAre vaLe; nahIM to dA'Do vaLe nahIM. mULa vAtane, vairAganA mULa kaoNjhIjhane nAza na karavAmAM Ave tyAM sudhI vairAga zenA Ave ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya 205 ne buddhinI, potAnuM to kaMI rahyuM ja nahIM ! potAnuM DisIjhana nahIM. mana, buddhinI salAha mAne, mana to saMkora saMkora kare. praznakartA H tame amane e jaDIbuTTI batAvo ke jethI karIne ame kahI zakIe ke 'bhAI covIzame varSe A vicAra yAda rAkhaje.' dAdAzrI : eTalI badhI avasthAonI tamane jAgRtti nA Ave. peluM ame zrI vijhana ApIe chIe ne te jo vicAra kara kara kare to zrI vijhana utpanna thaI jAya. e vicAro utpanna thaI jAya ne enAthI ghaNAM bace che. mane kAgaLamAM lakhe ke 'tamArA zrI vijhane to mAruM ghaNuM kAma kADhI nAkhyuM." pelI badhI avasthAo nA Ave, A to huM kahuM eTaluM ja che ! mArA kahelA upara vicAra Ave ke hA, A vAta kharI ! praznakartA: juvAnImAM je moha utpanna thAya che, te moha utpanna kevI rIte na thAya, eTa-e-TAIma badhI jo avasthAo jue, to... dAdAzrI : to moha nA thAya paNa eTa-e-TAIma to avasthAo to kevI rIte joI zake ! mANasanuM gaja nahIM ne ! eTalI badhI zakti nA hoya, dALabhAta-roTalI-zAka khAnAro ke mAMsAhAra karanArAonuM koInuM gaju nahIM A. koI apavAda ja hoya. bAkI AmAM koI hoya nahIM. enuM gamatuM dekhADe eTale moha utpanna thAya ja. praznakartA : je sAMTha varSe je bolIe te eka vAta che ane pacIsame varSe je bolIe te eka vAta che, tyAre e jAgRti rahevI joIe. dAdAzrI : jAgRti judI vAta che. pacIsame varSe bolavuM e jevI tevI, lADavA khAvAnI vAta nathI. tyAre to mohano aMdha thayelo hoya. mohAMdha' eTale te ghaDIe jotI vakhate pAcho salAha konI mAne ? mananI

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 207 dAdAzrI : te bhagavAne kahyuM hatuM ke je sukha khoLe tyAM sukha khoLazo ja nahIM kahe che. je sukha khoLato hoya pote, tyAM sukha khoLazo nahIM, sukha nA khoLe tyAM AgaLa sukha khoLo, kahe che. eTale sukha khoLato hoya e bhikhArI ne tyAM ApaNe sukha levA jaIe to zuM vaLe ? eTale bhUmikA ja hoya, A to eka jAtanI eka kAlpanika phigara che A khAlI. kalpanA ubhI karelI che A to. sukha nA khoLe tenI joDe vAMdho nA Ave ne koI jAtano ? praznakartA : nA ja Ave. [3] viSaya sukhamAM dAvA ataMta ! dAdAzrI : pachI moMghA bhAvanI kerIo sarasa Ave che, badhI ja cIjo Ave che, kevI kevI mIThAIo hoya che badhI ! jovAnI kevI kevI cIjo hoya che ! ane eMThavADAmAM sukha khoLe che pelo to. AkhA gAmano eMThavADo kahevAya. ane pAcho sukhane e ya khoLatI hoya. ApaNe enI pAse sukha khoLIe ane e ApaNI pAse sukha khoLe, tyAM ApaNe e benuM tAla kyAre khAya ? ApaNe che te krikeTa jovA javuM hoya ane e kahe sinemA jovA javuM che, ApaNo jhaghaDo kyAre pUro thAya ? apavAde brahmacArIo..... praznakartA : nA thAya. viSayamAM sukha to AkhuM jagata, jIvamAtra mAnI rahyAM che. eka phakta ahIM AgaLa tyAgIo che, ane tyAM devomAM samakitI devo che. A be ja loko che te viSayasukhamAM mAnatA nathI. jAnavaro ya viSayane sukha mAne che. paNa e jAnavaro te bicArAM, e che te karmanAM AdhIna bhogave che. emane evuM kaMI e nathI ke amAre kAyamane mATe AvuM joIe ja. ane manuSyo to kAyamane mATe ja. dhaNI paradeza gayo hoya to vahane nA game. vahu che te piyaramAM gaI hoya che bAra mahinA to veSa thaI paDe kAraNa ke sukha eNe mAnyuM che emAM. zemAM mAnyuM che ? A tyAgIone zAthI emAM duHkha lAgyuM haze ? zuM emAM sukha nathI ? evuM che ne ke A ghauM, cokhA, bAjarI, jalebI, lADavA, e badhA sukha khoLatA nathI. A phUTa badhA hoya che e sukha khoLe koI phUTa ? A dUdha-bUdha badhuM, dahIM, ghI, badhuM sukha khoLe ? praznakartA : nA khoLe. dAdAzrI : evuM che agara tamAre jo sukhI thavuM hoya to A jagatamAM badhI cIja bhogavajo zuM ? jene sAmuM bhogavavAnI icchA nA hoya, e pote bhogavavAnI IcchAvALuM nA hoya, tene bhogavajo. jalebI ne bhogavavAnI IcchA kharI, jalebIne ? praznakartA : nA. dAdAzrI : to ApaNe jalebI khAvane. bIjI badhI cIjo khAvAnI chUTa. sAmAnI IcchAvALuM hoya to to pachI ApaNe mAryA ja jaIe ne. praznakartA : je sukha khoLato hoya tyAM sukha nA khoLAya. dAdAzrI : hA, tyAM sukha nA khoLAya. eTale A bIjI badhI cIja sivAya eka ja A strI viSaya ekaluM ja evuM che ke e pote sukhanI

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208 samajathI prApta brahmacarya IcchAvALI che ane ApaNe ya icchAvALA eTale benuM kyAre meLa paDe. praznakartA : nA meLa paDe. choDo mAtra viSayane ! praznakartA : jyAre, atyAre saMsAramAM badhe, A choDo, A kaMTrola karo, A khAvAnuM, A nahIM khAvAnuM evuM cAlyuM che ! dAdAzrI : are, khAvA-pIvAnuM to melone pULo ! badhuM khAva nirAMte !! paNa A ekaluM choDI done !!! A ekalAmAM hAtha ghAlo nahIM. khAvAmAM sAmI phariyAda nathI. A strI to sAmI phariyAda kare, anaMta avatAranuM vera bAMdhI de. e choDe nahIM pachI. A cAra indriyonA viSayo koI herAna karatuM nathI ane A pAMcamo je viSaya che, sparza viSaya che. te to sAmI jIvaMta vyakti joDe che ! e dAvo mAMDe evI che, eTale A ekalI strI viSayano ja vAMdho che. A to jIvatI 'phAIla" kahevAya. ApaNe kahIe ke have mAre viSaya baMdha karavo che tyAre e kahe ke e nahIM cAle. tyAre paiNyA'tA zuM karavA ? eTale e jIvatI 'phAIla" to dAvo mAMDe ne dAvo mAMDe to poSAya ja kema karIne ? eTale jIvatA joDe viSaya ja nA karavo. dAvo to mAMDe paNa pachI dabaDAve ne ApaNuM tela kADhI nAkhe. ApaNe bhagavAnanA dabAI rahevA nathI mAMgatA, te AvuM bairInA dabAyelA rahevAya ? zuM sukha che emAM ? ne ApaNe zuM sukhI thaI gayA ! ane zuM jADA thaI gayA ? UlaTuM teja haNAI jAya che ! AmAM zuM kADhavAnuM ? Akho pudgalano sAra UDI jAya che ! e sAra mahIM zarIramAM rahe tyAre mahIM magaja khIle, vANI kevI bolAya ! jAgRti kevI rahe ! e vAta to judI ja ne ? e sAra pachI khoI nAkhe che ne pachI zuM thAya ? jAgRti kevI rahe ! viSayathI baMdhAya karAro.. A jhaghaDAnA lIdhe badhA dAvA mAMDe. pelAno pUro thAya tyAM sudhImAM pelI dAvo mAMDe, pAcho pelo dAvo mAMDe. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 209 A eka viSaya evo che ke je strIno ane puruSano je viSaya che emAM ApaNe kahIe ke nA bhaI, have mAre nathI IcchA, tyAre kahe, nA cAle. tyAM to dAvo mAMDaze. A eka ja evuM che ke sAmo dAvo mAMDe evuM che. mATe ahIM sAcavIne kAma kADhI levuM. tamane samajAyuM dAvo mAMDe evuM ? eno ja A badho gUMcavADo Ubho thayo che. mATe e ekalo ja bhoga evo che ke bahu duHkhadAyI che. A jIvato parigraha che. eTale AmAM dAvo mAMDe, vera hau bAMdhe. ghaNA puruSoe strIone saLagAvI melI che. strIo paNa ghaNA puruSone kaMIka jhera ApI de che. A badhuM vera bAMdhe. praznakartA : kramikamArgamAM bahAra badhe viSayonA tyAgane paheluM sthAna kema Ape che ? dAdAzrI : A viSayo ekalAnI ja bhAMjagaDa che, bIjA badhAnI bahu bhAMjagaDa nathI. tenuM zuM kAraNa ? ApaNe game teTalA moMghA bhAvanAM bhajiyAM lIdhAM, pachI ApaNane jeTalAM khAvAM hoya teTalAM khAIe. bAkInAM nA khAvAM hoya to ko'kane ApI daIe to e bhajiyAM ApaNA para dAvo mAMDe nahIM ! e dAvo mAMDe ? praznakartA : nA mAMDe. dAdAzrI : A attaranuM pUmaDuM Ama kAnamAM ghAlyuM ne pachI ApaNe koIne te ApI daIe to e attara kaMI dAvo mAMDe ? A philama jovA gayA, temAM philama jeTalI joI teTalI joI ne jarA UMgha Ave te UMdhI gayA to e philama dAvo mAMDe ApaNA upara ? ke kema te mane nA joI? TikiTa lIdhI mATe tAre mane jovI ja paDaze evo dAvo koI nA mAMDe. TADha paDe to cAmaDIne TADha lAge tyAre oDhIne besIe to kaMI TADha dAvo nA mAMDe ane A viSaya ekalo ja sAmo cetana che mATe dAvo mAMDe. ApaNe kahIe ke mAre have A tyAga karavo che to te kahe ke A nA cAle, zuM karavA paiNyA hatA ? mATe A kaMI bhajiyAM jevuM nathI. mahAna jokhamadArI che ! jo bhajiyAM jevuM hoya to te ame tamane chUTa ApI ke

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210 samajathI prApta brahmacarya bhaI, tame AvA je viSaya karavA hoya te karajo, paNa A strI viSayane tame jarA sAcavajo. kAraNa ke e dAvo to evo mAMDe, ke jyAM enI gati jAya tyAM ApaNane laI jAya. kAraNa ke enI joDe dAvo maMDAyo pachI zuM thAya ? kerAlAvALAne tyAM gayA ho tyAre pAMcaso rUpiyA lIdhA hoya ne pachI te nA Apo to eno dAvo e kyAM mAMDe ? are, e to pachI kerAlAnI doDadhAmamAM, bhADAmAM ja pAMcaso jatA rahe ! ane pAchuM tyAM jaIne cUkavavA paDe e judA. eTale dAvo mAMDe to e jyAM hoya tyAM pAchuM ApaNe javuM paDe, evuM che. mATe, A dAvo maMDAya nahIM e jojo. bahu jokhamadArI che !! ane jeTalI phAIlo hoya tenI jhaTapaTa patAvaTa karI dejo ne navI phAIla UbhI karazo nahIM, saheluM che ke agharuM che A ? praznakartA : pratikramaNa karyA karIe to saheluM thaI jAya ? dAdAzrI : hA, saheluM thaI jAya. ame tamane mokSa hAthamAM Apyo che, have tamane jeTalo mokSa bhogavatAM AvaDe eTalo tamAro. AmAM dAvo kare evI 'phAIla' che, tethI kramikamArgamAM Ane mATe bahu kaDaka kahyuM che. ane ApaNe ahIM paNa Ane mATe kaDaka rahevAnuM kahIe ja chIe ke ahIM cetatA rahejo. 'mizracetata' to dAvo mAMDe ja strI e mizracetana che. cetanane paiNaje, tyAre A to mizracetanane paiNe che. mA-bApane khabara ja nathI ne, bhAna ja nathI rAkhatA ne ke chokaro kyA mAIle che ne ene zI baLatarA che ? mA-bApa mA-bApanI baLatarAmAM ne chokaro chokarAnI baLatarAmAM ! A mizracetana to dAvo mAMDe ! emane sinemA jovA javuM hoya ne tamane gamatuM nA hoya to ya e kahe ke 'tamAre AvavuM paDaze." to tamAre javuM paDe ! eTaluM ja nahIM paNa, 'tamAre chokaro UMcakI levo paDaze.' evuM ya kahe, alyA, chokarAM ya UMcakAvaDAyAM mArI pAse ? hA. paNa zuM thAya ? jo babUcaka thavuM hoya to paiNavuM A kALamAM !!! praznakartA : paNa have je paiNelo hoya e zuM kare ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya 2 11 dAdAzrI : ApaNuM dhAreluM ochuM thAya che ? 'vyavasthita'nI je philama che e choDe nahIM ne ene ? pahelAM to eTaluM sAruM hatuM ke game tevI bIbI levA jAya, to bahu tyAre bIbInI be-traNa zarato hoya. 'pANIkI maTakI kabUla' ? tyAre e kahe, 'kabUla'. 'lakaDekI bhArI kabUla' ? tyAre dhaNI kahe, "kabula'. nakAba paDhatI vakhate ATalI zarato karAvaDAve. pANI bharI lAve. jaMgalamAMthI lAkaDAM laI Ave e sAruM. paNa AjanI vahuo to zuM kaheze ? "A TAIme sinemAmAM AvavuM paDaze, nahIM to tamArA bhAIbaMdha joDe koI dahADo jatA joyA che, to tamArI vAta che !!! "are, huM tane paiNyo ke tuM mane paiNI ?' AmAM koNa kone paiyuM ? paNa A to mizracetana, jyAre A to bhaNelIo pAchI. te emane jo 'tuM nA samajuM', evuM kahyuM hoya to to tamAruM tela kADhI nAkhe ! AmAM sukha ja nathI. A to 'phAIla' vadhe che. e 'phAIlo' joDe pachI kakaLATa thAya, pachI gharanI hoya ke bahAranI ! eTale mizracetana joDe hisAba nA mAMDo, nahIM to e kaleIma mAMDaze ! A pathArI para nA sUI jaIe ne patharA para sUI jaIe to pathArI kaMI dAvo mAMDe ke kema amane choDIne patharA para sUI jAo cho ? ane mizracetana to dAvo mAMDe ke kema Aje chUTA paDyA ? choDe nahIM. khaseDavA jAva to vaLage UlaTuM ! eTale mizracetana joDe bhAMjagaDa nA pADazo ! baTAkA joDe bhAMjagaDa hoya ne baTAkA nA lAvyA hoya to baTAkA bUmo nahIM pADe ne nA khAIe to ya kazuM bole nahIM ! paNa mizracetana to evI AMTI mAre ke anaMta avatAre ya e chUTe nahIM. ethI bhagavAne kaheluM ke mizracetanathI cheTA rahejo ! strIthI cheTA rahejo !! nahIM to mizracetana to mokSe jatA rokI rAkhe evuM che !!! A pAna-bIDI e ya lapharAM ja kahevAya. paNa A lapharAM to ema mAno ne, ke ko'ka dahADo chUTe, paNa pelAM lapharAM to nA chUTe. jIvatAM lapharAM ne ! ame lapharuM jIvatAne kahIe chIe. pelAM lapharAM to calAvI levAya. e to maDadAla ja che ne ? ApaNI ekalI ja phariyAda che ne ? ApaNe phariyAda karIe chIe tyAM sudhI ne ? bAkI enI koI jAtanI phariyAda

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212 samajathI prApta brahmacarya nathI ne ! ApaNe choDI daIe tyAre pharajiyAta che kaMI ? ane jIvatAM lapharAM joDe to kazI muzkelI thaI to dAvo mAMDe. tame dAvo kADhI nAkho tyAre e dAvo mAMDe. e ja bahu muzkelI che ! be-mata na thAya kadi eka ! be mana ekAkAra thaI zake ja nahIM. eTale dAvA ja cAlu thAya. A viSaya sivAya bIjA badhA viSayamAM eka mana che, eka pakSe che. tethI sAmo dAvo nA mAMDe ! jyAre manavALA joDe to jokhama che. eka ja phero jenI joDe viSaya karyo hoya to ene peTe janma levo paDe, nahIM to e jyAM gaI hoya tyAM javuM paDe ! mizracetana joDe zAdI karI pachI zuM thAya ? mizracetananA dAvAnI to upAdhi bahu ! ApaNane tadana paravaza karI nAkhe. eTale mizracetananuM khAtuM ja rAkhavA jevuM nahIM. chatAM hoya tene zuM karavAnuM? pachI e khAtAno samabhAve nikAla karI nAkhavAno. khAtuM ochuM phADI nakhAya che? pheMkI daIe to to e vadhAre coTe. eTale niraMtara jAgRta rahI eno nikAla karI nAkhavAno. paNe eno vAMdho nathI. paNa haMmezAM bannenuM mana juduM hoya ane tyAM ja vyApAra karavA jaIe eTale dveSa thayA vagara rahe nahIM. e pachI game te vyApAra karo ne ! pachI tyAM game teTalo puruSArtha karone to ya bheda paDyA vagara rahe nahIM ne ! judA manavALAnI ekatA kema hoya ? e to vyApAranA svAda pUratI thoDI vAra bannenA mananI ekatA thAya ! paNa e svAda nA sacavAyo to cAlyuM tophAna pAchuM. eTale bheda paDyA vagara rahe nahIM ne ! kAraNa e 'phAIla' che eTale dAvo mAMDI zake. tame kaho, mAre tyAga levo che, tyAre e kaheze, nA nahIM javA dauM. A jagata AkhuM mizracetanathI ja lapaTAyeluM che. jo mizracetana samajavAmAM Ave to to A jagata lapaTAyeluM nathI. A bIjA badhA zokha lapeTe evA nathI hotA. A mizracetanamAM to sAmasAme dAvA maMDAya che. eka vAra jALamAM AvyA pachI nIkaLavuM muzkela che. e bhaMgajALamAM peThA pachI emAMthI koI chaTakelo nahIM. A amAruM vijJAna evuM che ke bannene samajathI prApta brahmacarya 213 jJAna ApIe eTale beu samabhAve nikAla karatAM zIkhI jAya ane ukela AvI jAya. nahIM to lAkho avatAra choDe nahIM. ApaNe choDavAnI icchA hoya tyAre e ApaNane choDe nahIM ane ene choDavAnI icchA thAya tyAre ApaNe ene choDIe nahIM. eTale koI dahADo beuno TAImiMga maLe nahIM ane eMjina mokSa bhaNI cAle ya nahIM, evuM che A mizracetana ! khAvApIvAmAM harakata nathI. cAra veDhamI khAIne sUI jajo. dAdAnuM nAma laIne e bhoga bhogavajo, paNa A mizracetana te mahA jokhama che ! saMsAranuM bIja ja A che. eka rAjA jitAyo to enuM daLa ApaNA kAbUmAM AvI gayuM, enuM pura paNa ApaNA kAbUmAM AvI gayuM. kRpALudeve A kaMTALI kaMTALIne gAyuM che. saMsAramAM je laTakAvanAruM che, tenA para temaNe jabarajasta bhAra dIdho ke zuM AvI gati ! e pote kahetA hatA ke, "saMsArathI to ghaNo kALa thayo, ghaNA avatAra thayA kaMTALyo hato, paNa chevaTe emaNe kApI nAkhyuM. AmathI kApyuM, temathI kApyuM ne saDasaDATa uDADI mUkyuM. gajabanA puruSa hatA, jJAnI puruSa hatA ! e to cAhe so kare !! viSaya e to jIvanuM jokhama che. bIjAM badhAM jokhama to marelAM kahevAya. A to bahu puNyazALI mANasa te badhAM jokhama UDI gayAM ne pote pAra nIkaLI gayA ane vera baMdhAyAM nahIM. be taraphImAM sukho mAMDe dAvo ! viSayasukha be taraphI che. bIjA Indriyasukha eka taraphI che. ane A be taraphInuM to dAvo mAMDaze. e kahe ke sinemA jovA haMDo ne tyAre tame kaho ke nA Aje mAre khAsa kAma che. te e dAvo mAMDe. bane ke nA bane evuM? praznakartA : e ja bane. ethI ja AvuM thAya che ne ! dAdAzrI : have jo strI pahelethI samajatI hoya ke emanAM karmanAM udaye nA pADI to DahApaNapUrvaka cAle. paNa evuM bhAna che nahIM. e to kaheze emaNe karyuM ja nahIM. praznakartA : moha badho pharI vaLe.

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215 samajathI prApta brahmacarya ane jAgRti rahI, pachI zuM joIe ApaNane ? A nA gamatuM che e vAta nakkI thaI gaI. A to karArI bAbata, kudaratanA karAra ApaNI sahamatithI thayelA che. have e karAra bhaMga karIe to cAle ja nahIM ne ? polIsavALo pakaDIne laI jAya che evI rIte thAya che ? praznakartA : hA. 214 samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : moha pharI vaLe. ane kare che koNa te potAne khabara nathI. e ema jANe ke A ja kare che. nathI, e ja nathI AvatA. emanI ja IcchA nathI AvavAnI. praznakartA : A pikacara, nATaka, sADI, ghara, pharnicara eno moha hoya che eno vAMdho nahIM ne ? dAdAzrI : enuM kazuM nahIM, eno tamane bahu tyAre mAra paDe. 'A' sukha AvavA nA de, paNa e sAmo dAvo mAMDanAra nahIM ne ? ane peluM to 'kaleIma" mAMDe, mATe ceto ! bhogave rAgathI cUkave dveSathI ! praznakartA : viSaya rAgathI bhogave che ke dveSathI ? dAdAzrI : rAgathI, e rAgamAMthI dveSa utpanna thAya che. A mizracetana to 'phAIla' kahevAya. paNa pUrvabhavano hisAba baMdhAI gayelo hoya, 'dekhata bhUlphI'no hisAba thaI gayo eTale ene chUTako ja nahIM ne ! enI icchA nA hoya, Aje nakkI karyuM hoya to ya pAcho sAMje jato rahe, chUTako ja nahIM. e AkarSaNathI kheMcAya che. ahIMthI e AkarSaNa thAya che ane pote jANe ke "gayo'. nA javuM hoya to ya javAya che enuM zuM kAraNa ? ke te AkarSaNathI kheMcAI jAya che. praznakartA : mizracetana saMbaMdhI phAIla hoya che. emAM eka bAju jAgRti paNa rahe che, eka bAju manane amuka mIThAza paNa vartAya che, bIjI bAju e gamatuM nathI, jJAna nA pADe che ke A badhuM yogya nathI. enA mATe dvidhA rahyA kare che. dAdAzrI : e nathI gamatuM te ja e chUTe che ne ! nA game to ya e karAra pUro karavo joIe ne ? je nA gamatuM hoya te pachI vaLage ja nahIM. jJAna pragaTa thayA pachI nA gamatuM vaLage ja nahIM. mahIM jarA gamatuM hoya to ja vaLage. nA gamatuM vaLage ya nahIM ne Take ya nahIM bahu dahADA. e be varSe, pAMca varSe paNa pachI ukela AvI jAya. mATe kazo vAMdho nahIM dAdAzrI : polIsavALo pakaDI jAya to emAM ApaNo jarA ya guno nahIM. rAjI khuzInA sodAmAM bhUla gaNAya. jyAM sudhI svarUpanuM jJAna nA hoya tyAM to polIsavALo pakaDI jAya to ya guno che. ene je karma nA game, tyAM ene 'nA game" enA karma baMdhAya ane je karma game to tyAM 'gamyAM'nAM karma baMdhAya. 'nA gamyAmAM' vaiSanAM karma baMdhAya, vaiSanAM pariNAma thAya. A "jJAna" nA hoya to tene zuM thAya ? praznakartA : draSanAM pariNAma thatAM karma UlaTAM vadhAre baMdhAya ne ? dAdAzrI : navuM vera ja bAMdhe, eTale jJAna nA hoya tene nA gamatuM hoya to ya karma baMdhAya ane gamatuM hoya to ya karma baMdhAya, ane "jJAna" hoya to tene koI jAtanuM karma baMdhAya nahIM. kAma' kADhI lo. mATe jyAM jyAM je je dukAne ApaNuM mana gUMcAya e dukAnanI mahIM je zuddhAtmA che te ja ApaNane choDAvanAra che. eTale emanI pAse mAgaNI karavI ke mane A abrahmacarya viSayathI mukta karo. bIje badhethI emane ema chUTavA mATe tame phAMphA mAro e cAle nahIM. e ja dukAnanA zuddhAtmA ApaNane A viSayathI choDAvanAra che. have AvI ApaNane bahu dukAno nA hoya. thoDI ja dukAno hoya che. jene bahu dukAno hoya tene vadhAre puruSArtha mAMDavo paDe. bAkI jene thoDI hoya teNe to cokhkhuM karI 'ejhekTalI' karI levuM. khAvA-pIvAmAM kazo vAMdho nathI. paNa A viSayano vAMdho che. strIviSaya ane puruSaviSaya e

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 217 2 16 samajathI prApta brahmacarya be verane UbhuM karanArAM kArakhAnAM che. mATe jema tema karIne ukela lAvavo. praznakartA H Ane ja tame kAma kADhI levAnuM kaho cho ? dAdAzrI : tyAre bIjuM zuM che ? A badhA ja rogo che te kADhI nAkhavA. AmAnuM huM tamane kazuM ja karavAnuM kaheto nathI. khAlI jANavAnuM ja kahuM chuM. A jJAna" jANavA yogya che, karavA yogya nathI. je jJAna jANyuM te pariNAmamAM AvyA vagara rahe ja nahIM. eTale tamAre kazuM karavAnuM nathI. bhagavAna mahAvIre kahyuM hatuM ke vItarAga dharmamAM karomi, karosi ne karoti nA hoya. viSayathI vera vadhe ! mizracetana joDe vyavahAra karavA jevo che ja nahIM ane karavo paDe to pharajiyAta rIte karavo paDe. e to chUTako ja nathI. saMsArI che to pharajiyAta rIte vyavahAra to karavo ja paDe. jema jelamAM gayelo mANasa mahIM aMdara potAnI jagyA sApha karIne lIMpato hoya to ApaNe ema jANIe ke ene jelano zokha haze eTale lIMpato haze ?! nA, ene jela gamatI to nathI. paNa ahIM AgaLa Avyo che, have phasAI gayo che, to ahIM have sUvA sAdhana to joIze ne ? paNa ene jelanI ruci nA hoya. e jagyA lIMpe kharo, paNa tyAM enI icchA nathI. tyAM AgaLa jelano zokha lAgyo nathI ene. evuM A viSayano zokha bahu vicAra karIne uDADI devA jevo che. viSaya e moTAmAM moTo roga che. AkhuM jagata AnAthI ja laTakayuM che, eka viSayathI ja vera UbhAM thAya che ne verathI saMsAra cAlu rahyo che. vera badhAM AsaktimAMthI UbhAM thAya che. praznakartA : eTale evuM ja thayuM ne ke viSayathI ja A badho saMsAra Ubho thaI jAya che ? dAdAzrI : viSayo e AsaktithI utpanna thAya che, ne pachI emAMthI vikarSaNa thAya che. vikarSaNa thAya eTale vera baMdhAya che ane veranA 'phAunDezana" para A jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. kerIo joDe vera nathI, ne baTAkA joDe vera nathI. e baTAkAnA jIvo che, badhA bahu jIvo che, paNa vara rAkhatA nathI. e phakta nukasAna zuM kare ke tamane magajanuM jarA dekhAtuM ochuM thaI jAya, AvaraNa vadhAre. bIjuM vera rAkhe nahIM. vera to A manuSyamAM Avelo jIva rAkhe. A manuSya jAtimAM ja vera baMdhAyeluM hoya che. ahIMthI tyAM sApa thAya ne pachI karaDe. vIMchI thaIne karaDe. vera baMdhAyA sivAya koI dahADo kazuM bane nahIM. praznakartA : atyAre dekhIto viSaya saMbaMdha nA hoya, paNa koI eka bIjAne vera UbhuM thatuM hoya, to e pUrve kaMIka viSaya thayelo hovo joIe ? dAdAzrI : ramAtra pUrvabhavanA udayathI ja hoya. praznakartA : paNa e viSayane lIdhe ke viSaya vagara paNa hoya ? dAdAzrI : hA, viSaya vagara paNa hoya. bIjA badhA aneka kAraNo hoya che. lakSmI uparathI vera baMdhAya che, ahaMkAra uparathI vera baMdhAya che, paNa A viSayanuM vera bahu jherI hoya che. bahu jherImAM jherI A viSayanuM vera che. bIjA paisAnuM, lakSmInuM, ahaMkAranuM vera baMdhAyeluM hoya te ya bahu jherI hoya che baLyuM ! praznakartA : keTalAM bhava sudhI cAle ? dAdAzrI : anaMta avatArathI bhaTakyA kare. bIjamAMthI bIja paDe, bIjamAMthI bIja paDe. bIjamAMthI bIja paDe ane e zekavAnuM jANe nahIM ne ! zenAthI zakAya evuM jANe nahIM ne !! praznakartA : jyAM sudhI zekavAnuM jANe nahIM, tyAM sudhI cAlyA ja karavAnuM? dAdAzrI : hA, basa bIja paDyA ja kare. praznakartA : evuM paNa Ape kaheluM ke cAritramoha keTalAMka evA

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2 19 2 18 samajathI prApta brahmacarya prakAranA hoya che ke jJAnane paNa uDADI mele. to te kyA prakArano cAritramoha ? dAdAzrI : e viSayamAMthI Ubho thayelo cAritramoha. e pachI jJAnane ne badhAne uDADI mele, eTale atyAra sudhI viSayathI ja A badhuM aTakyuM che. muLa viSaya che ane temAMthI A lakSmI upara rAga beTho, ane teno ahaMkAra che. eTale mULa viya jo jato rahe, to badhuM jatuM rahe. viSayabIja zekAya Ama ! praznakartA : to bIjane zekI nAkhatAM AvaDavuM joIe, paNa te kevI rIte zekavAnuM ? dAdAzrI : e to ApaNuM A pratikramaNathI. AlocanA pratikramaNa, pratyAkhyAnathI. praznakartA : e ja. bIjo upAya nahIM ? dAdAzrI : bIjo koI upAya nathI, tapa karavAthI to puNya baMdhAya, samaja paDIne ? ane bIjane zekavAthI ukela Ave. A saMsAra abrahmacaryathI Ubho rahyo che ane AvuM kaMI keTalAMya kALa sudhI cAlyA karaze. je nikAcIta du:kho che e abrahmacaryanAM che. nikAcIta duHkho eTale sahana karatAM khase nahIM, game eTalA upAya karIe to ya khase nahIM. bIjAM badhAM duHkho to sahejAsaheja jatA rahe. jyAre nikAcItamAM to bIjA mANasano kaleIma rahe che. bIjI badhI vastuo kaleIma nA mAMDe, paNa A viSayamAM to tame 'prasaMga' choDI do to ya e dAvo mAMDe, agara to tamArI upara vera bAMdhe. e kaleIma ja UbhA thAya pachI ! praznakartA : eTale eka patnI sivAyano viSaya hoya che ? dAdAzrI : nA, eka patnI joDe hoya to ya, eka ja viSayasukhamAM be jaNa pArTanara hoya che ne ? eTale ApaNe "kaMTALyA' kahIe, tyAre e kaheze, 'huM nathI kaMTALI' tyAre zuM thAya ? samajathI prApta brahamacarya A 'samabhAve nikAla' karavAno kAyado zuM kahe che, te game te raste enI joDe vera nA baMdhAya evI rIte karI nAkha, verathI mukta thaI jA. veratuM kArakhAnuM ! ApaNe ahIM to eka ja karavA jevuM che ke vera nA vadhe ane vera vadhAravAnuM mukhya kArakhAnuM kayuM che ? A strIviSaya ane puruSaviSaya ! praznakartA : emAM vera kevI rIte baMdhAya ? anaMta kALanuM vera bIja paDe che e kevI rIte ? dAdAzrI : evuM che ne ke A marelA puruSa ke marelI strI hoya to ema mAno ne ke emAM koI davAo bharI ane puruSa puruSa jevo ja raheto hoya ne strI strI jevI ja rahetI hoya to vAMdho nahIM, enI joDe vera nahIM baMdhAya. kAraNa ke e jIvatuM nathI. ane A to jIvatuM che, tyAM vera baMdhAya che. praznakartA : te zAthI baMdhAya che ? dAdAzrI : abhiprAya 'Dipharansa' che tethI. tame kaho ke, "mAre atyAre sinemA jovA javuM che. tyAre e kaheze ke, "nA, Aja to mAre nATaka jovA javuM che." eTale TAimiMga nahIM maLI rahe. jo ekkekTa TAImiMge TAImiMga maLI rahe to ja paiNaje. praznakartA : chatAM ko'ka evo hoya ke e kahe evuM thAya paNa kharuM. dAdAzrI : e to koI gajabanA puNyazALI hoya to enI strI niraMtara ene AdhIna rahe. e strIne pachI bIjuM kazuM potAnuM nA hoya, potAno abhiprAya ja nA hoya, e niraMtara AdhIna ja rahe. ta maLe AdhItatAmAM rahe evI ! evuM che, A saMsArIone jJAna ApyuM che. kaMI bAvA thavAnuM meM nathI kahyuM, paNa je 'phAIlo' hoya eno 'samabhAve nikAla' karI kahyuM che !

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2 1 220 samajathI prApta brahmacarya ane pratikramaNa karo. A be upAya batAvyA che. A be karazo to tamArI dazAne koI gUMcavanAra che nahIM. upAya nA batAvyA hoya to kinArA para UbhuM rahevAya ja nahIM ne ? kinArA para jokhama che. tamAre vAIpha joDe matabheda paDato hato te ghaDIe rAga thato hato praznakartA : e to banne vArApharatI thAya, ApaNane 'syuTebala' hoya to rAga thAya ne 'opojhiTa' hoya to Sa thAya. samajathI prApta brahmacarya vastuonAM, mananAM bhAvo e have choDavAnA che ? dAdAzrI : e to enI meLe ja chUTI jAya. praznakartA chatAM paNa amArA bhAvamAMthI chUTatuM nathI. ema lAgyA kare, A sAruM che, A khoTuM che. pAchuM emAM sukha UbhuM thAya. ema lAge ke A ja avalaMbananuM mULa kAraNa che. eTale A avalaMbano amArA jatAM nathI. - dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, A avalaMbananuM jeTaluM sukha ApaNe lIdhuM e badhuM uchInuM lIdheluM sukha che, 'lona' upara. ane 'lona' eTale "rIpe" (Repay) karavI paDe che. jyAre 'lona' 'rIpethaI jAya, pachI tamAre kazI bhAMjagaDa hotI nathI. tamane vastuo bhegI thAya che te vastumAMthI sukha nathI AvatuM. tame e sukha lo eTale e 'lona' lIdhA barAbara che. e 'lona" tamAre 'rIpe" karavI paDaze. praznakartA : paNa A Akho vyavahAra to ekabIjAnA avalaMbanathI cAle che ne ? dAdAzrI : eTale e badhuM rAga-dveSane AdhIna che. abhiprAya ekAkAra thAya nahIM ne ! ko'ka ja evo puNyazALI hoya ke jenI strI kaheze, 'huM tamAre AdhIna rahIza. game tyAM jazo, citAmAM jazo to ye AdhIna rahIza.' e to dhanya bhAgye ja kahevAya ne ! paNa evuM ko'kane hoya. eTale AmAM majhA nathI. ApaNe kaMI navo saMsAra Ubho nathI karavo. have mokSe ja javuM che jema tema karIne. khoTa-naphAnAM badhAM khAtAM nikAla karIne, mAMDavALa karIne ukela lAvI nAkhavAno che. A kharekhara mokSano mArga che. koI kALe koI nAma nA de evuM A jJAna ApeluM che, paNa jo tame jANI joIne UMdhuM karo to pachI bagaDe. to ya amuka kALe ukela lAvI ja nAkhaze. eTale eka phero A prApta thayuM che e choDavA jevuM nathI. viSaya sukha, rIpe karavuM paDe ! kevaLajJAna eTale 'ebsolyuTa', ene gujarAtImAM kahevuM hoya to nirAlaMba kahevAya. amane koI jAtanA avalaMbananI jarUra nathI. eTale amane koI vastu aDe nahIM, e amAruM svarUpa ! tamAre 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM'nuM bhAna thayuM eTale mokSano 'vIsA maLI gayo ane tamArI gADI zarU thaI gaI, paNa e zabdarUpa bhAna thayeluM che. e TheTha nirAlaMba sudhI jyAre pahoMce, tyAre e kevaLajJAna kahevAya che. praznakartA : eTale amArAM je avalaMbano che e vyavahAranAM, dAdAzrI : hA, e to badhuM evuM ja cAle che. pAchuM dhakela pacAM doDhaso evo che vyavahAra badho. praznakartA : to A avalaMbano choDavA mATe zo puruSArtha karavo joIe ? dAdAzrI : kazuM choDavAnuM che ja nahIM. A duniyAmAM choDavAnuM kazuM hotuM haze ? choDavAnuM to, phakta 'roMga bilIpho' ja choDavAnI che. paNa te jAte tamArAthI chUTe nahIM. kAraNa ke tame 'roMga bilIpha' UbhI karI che. e jema choDavA jAva, tema vadhAre 'roMga bilIpho UbhI thatI jAya. e to 'jJAnI puSa' 'rAITa bilIpha" besADI Ape eTale 'roMga bilIpha" chUTI jAya. AtmA pAse sukha nathI bhogavatA ane pudgala pAse sukha mAMgyuM tame ! AtmAnuM sukha hoya to vAMdho ja nathI, paNa pudgala pAse bhIkha mAMgelI te ApavuM paDaze. e 'lona' che. jeTalI mIThAza paDe che, eTalI ja emAMthI kaDavAza bhogavavI paDaze. kAraNa ke pudgala pAse 'lona' lIdhelI

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222 samajathI prApta brahmacarya che. te ene 'rIpe' karatI vakhate eTalI ja kaDavAza Avaze. pudgala pAsethI lIdheluM hoya eTale pudgalane ja 'rIpe' karavAnuM. praznakartA : ame rUpiyA lIdhA to rUpiyA ya pAchA ApavA paDe ne ? to pachI ame enI pAse mIThAza lIdhI to ame mIThAza zuM karavA pAchI nA ApIe ? evo saMbaMdha kema nathI Avato ? kaDavAza ja kema Ave ? dAdAzrI : evuM hotuM haze ? 'lona' lIdhI e pAchI ApavAnI. rUpiyA lIdhA te rUpiyA pAchA ApavAnA. have mIThAza e ApavuM nA kahevAya. evuM che ne, sonuM lIdheluM te ghaDIe ApaNane sAruM lAge, paNa sonuM 'rIpe' karavA jAva to kaDavAza ja varte. je kaMI paNa lIdheluM pAchuM Apo to te ghaDIe ApaNane kaDavAza varte, evo niyama che ane ApyA vagara pAcho chUTako ja nahIM ne ! praznakartA : paNa loko premathI pAchI nahIM ApatA hoya ? dAdAzrI : je vastu jeNe lIdhI che e choDavAnI to ene potAne game ja nahIM. eTale dareka vastu 'rIpe' karavAmAM bhayaMkara du:kha hoya. praznakartA : AmAM sukha lIdhuM enuM pariNAme pelA jhaghaDA ne kaleza. dAdAzrI : AmAMthI ja UbhuM thayuM che A badhuM. ane sukha kazuM ya nahIM. pAchuM savAranA pahoramAM dIvela pIdhA jevuM moTuM hoya. jANe dIvela pIdhelo hoya !! e to vicAratAM ya cItarI caDhe ! praznakartA : ane nahIM to ya lokonAM du:khonAM pariNAmo eTalAM badhAM vicitra che te e kyAre chUTe ! ATalAM badhAM duHkho sahana kare che, A loko ATalA sukhane mATe ! dAdAzrI : e ja lAlaca AnI ne keTalAM duHkho bhogavavAnAM !! praznakartA : AkhI lAIpha khalAsa karI nAkhe che emAM. AkhuM jIvana roja enA e ja heriMga, enI e ja athaDAmaNa. praznakartA : rIpe karatI vakhate je du:kha UbhuM thAya e to tamArI samajathI prApta brahmacarya keTalI Asakti che ke lobha che enA upara AdhAra rAkhe ne ? dAdAzrI : e to jeTalI vadhAre Asakti eTalI vadhAre moTI upAdhi. ochI Asakti hoya to ochuM du:kha thAya. e badhuM Asakti para AdhAra rAkhe che ne ?! 223 tane koI dahADo darAja thayelI ? te pachI valUre tema bahu majhA Avene ? have e sukha tame konI pAsethI lo cho ? pudgala pAsethI. benuM 'rabiMga' karIne, ghasI ghasIne, 'iciMga' karIne, sukha khoLo cho. pachI saravALe hAtha baMdha thayo ke lAya baLavAnI zarU thaI jAya che. jo pudgala ene tarata ja duHkha Ape che ne ? pudgala zuM kahe che ke amArI pAse zuM sukha khoLo cho ? tamArI pAse to sukha che ne ?! ahIM amArI pAse sukha laIza to tamAre 'rIpe' karavuM paDaze. darAjano anubhava tane nahIM thayelo ? eTale badhuM 'rIpe' karavAnI cIjo che. A darAjamAM bahu majhA AvatI hoya ne ? e valUrato hoya te ghaDIe enuM moDhuM keTaluM AnaMdamAM AvI gayuM hoya ne ? te sAmA mANasane ema thAya ke he bhagavAna, mane paNa darAja Apo. evuM kare ke nahIM loka ? praznakartA : evuM valUravAmAM kyAMthI AnaMda Ave ? dAdAzrI : nA, nA, enuM moDhuM valUratI ghaDIe khUba AnaMdamAM hoya che. te sAmA mANasanA manamAM ema thAya ke A loka to AnaMda bhogavI le che ne ApaNe rahI gayA. te bhagavAna pAse mAMge ke mane kaMIka Apajo. praznakartA : evuM koI thoDuM mAMge ? A to UlaTo ja vicAra Ave ke A gaMdavADo ja che. dAdAzrI : A viSaya paNa e ja che. valUravA jevuM ja che A. khAlI gharSaNa che. te gharSaNamAMthI 'ilekTrisiTI' utpanna thAya che. pachI enuM je pAchuM Ave che, 'beka' mAre che, e sAMdhA toDI nAMkhe che. emAM te sukha hotuM haze ? emAM kaMI AtmA hoto nathI. emAM cetana paNa nathI hotuM. cetana to phakta eno nirIkSaka ekalo ja che. eTale A to viparIta dazAne pote sukha mAne che.

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224 samajathI prApta brahmacarya A jJAna to bahu sarasa che, paNa have pelo cetaka majabUta karI levAno che. viSayamAM sukha che, tyAM "cetaka' besADavAnI jarUra che. A viSayanuM ArAdhana e polIsavALo parANe karAve evuM hovuM joIe. A cetaka ame tamane besADI dIdho che, paNa A cetakane eTalo majabUta karI levAno che ke polIsavALAnI ya sAmo thAya. paNa jo e cetanuM gaNakArIe nahIM to cetaka nirmAlya thaI jAya. ApaNe e cetakane mAnatAna ApIe, ene khorAka ApIe to ene puSTi maLe ! ApaNe e cetakanA jJAtA-draSTA ane cetaka e 'caMdubhAIne ceta, ceta cetavyA kare, 'caMdubhAI" cetakanuM gaNakAre che ke nahIM e ApaNe jovAnuM. sukhanI 'bilipha' to svarUpamAM ja rahevI joIe. viSayamAM sukha che e 'bilIpha'mAM ja nA rahevuM joIe. e to kevaLadarzananI peTha svarUpamAM ja sukha che evuM 'bilipha'mAM rahevuM joIe. evI rIte ApaNe cetaka majabUta karI lIdho hoya, pachI vAMdho nahIM.

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[4] viSaya bhoga, nathI nikAlI viSaya bhogave 'tikAlI bAbata' koNa kahI zake ?' 226 samajathI prApta brahmacarya eTale jyAM sudhI saMsArIpaNuM che, strI viSaya che tyAM sudhI e ahiMsAno ghAtaka ja che. A dehanI sAthe viSayo che, tethI puruSArthamAM kAco paDe che. nahIM to je dahADe jJAna ApuM chuM tyAre kharekharo AnaMda anubhave che. paNa bIje dahADe pAcho sagaDImAM hAtha ghAle che. kAraNa anAdino paricaya che ne ?! sagaDImAM hAtha ghAle teno ya vAMdho nathI, paNa navI philama cItare che, teno vAMdho che. praznakartA: to pachI A viSaya-vikAra kema thaI jAya che ? dAdAzrI : e to thaI jAya ane tamArI vAta judI che. tame to lagna karIne AvelA cho. tamAre to 'samabhAve nikAla' karavAno hoya. Amane paNa paiNe to to pachI 'samabhAve nikAla' karavAno, nahIM to vahune du:kha thAya. paNa jene brahmacaryavrata levuM hoya to temAM rahI zakAya evuM che. ApaNuM jJAna evuM che. 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM' e niraMtara, jenA lakSamAM rahe che e moTAmAM moTuM brahmacarya. paNa jene vyavahAramAM 'cAritra' levAnI icchA che, tene bahAranA brahmacaryanI jarUra che. A jJAna evuM che ke ekAvatArI kare, paNa cokkasa rahevuM joIe ne manamAM saheja paNa dago nahIM rAkhavo joIe. viSaya e zokha karavA jevI cIja nathI, nikAla karavA jevI cIja che. ete maLe ekAvatArI boDa! praznakartA : paNa dAdA, eka avatAramAM ja mokSe javuM che, to zuM karavuM ? e to kahone ! e ja Aje ApaNe nakkI karIe. dAdAzrI : eka jaina hoya, tene polIsavALo pakaDIne traNa dahADA bhUkhyo rAkhe ane pachI mAMsa khAvA Ape ke A ja tAre khAvuM paDaze ne pachI pelo khAya, to e baMdhanamAM Avato nathI. e polIsavALAnA dabANathI che, enI potAnI icchApUrvakanuM nathI. evI rIte ja mANasa viSaya bhogavaze to e ekAvatArI thavAno che, eno bIjo avatAra nathI 'A' jJAna lIdhA pachI viSaya sivAya koI cIja naDatI nathI ane je ahaMkAra naDe che, te ahaMkAra ame laI lIdho che. have AmAM viSaya ekalo ja ko'ka phero mAra khavaDAvI de evI vastu che. viSaya to baLatarA zamAvavA mATenuM eka jAtanuM sAdhana che. ApaNane to nirALakUtA utpanna thaI, eTale A sukhanI jarUra ja kyAM rahI ?! ApaNe to have AtmA prApta karyo che. paNa haju manamAM ghusyuM nathI, jokhamanI khabara ja nathI ne ! hisAba ja kADhyo nathI ne ! nahIM to AvI hiMsA koNa kare ? bhagavAna jo kadI viSayanI hiMsAnuM varNana kare to mANasa marI jAya. loka jANe ke AmAM zuM hiMsA che ? ApaNe koIne vaDhatA nathI. paNa bhagavAnanI draSTie jue to hiMsA ne Asakti be bhegA thayA che, tene lIdhe pAMce ya mahAvrata tUTe che. ane tenAthI bahu doSo bese che, eka ja pheronA viSayathI lAkho jIvo marI jAya che. teno doSa bese che. eTale icchA nA hoya chatAM emAM bhayaMkara hiMsA che. eTale raudra svarUpa thaI jAya che. nahIM to A jJAna ApyA pachI to niraMtara samAdhi rahe evuM A jJAna che.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya thavAno. e svAdhIna nA hovuM joIe. polIsavALAne AdhIna, bhUkhane AdhIna thaIne mAMsAhAra karo to tame gunegAra banatA nathI. evuM A viSayamAM thAya to e ekAvatArI avazya thAya. praznakartA: A AjJA tamArI pALIzuM, have tame ekAvatArIpada lakhI Apo. dAdAzrI : ATaluM ja amAruM pALe to ame ekAvatArI bonDa lakhI ApIzuM. ekAvatArI thavuM hoya to A eka ja vastu sAcavavAnI che. bIjA dhaMdhA-vepArano vAMdho nathI. brahmaniSThA besADe jJAtI ! viSayono svabhAva kevo che? AjathI dasa dahADA viSaya baMdha evuM nakkI karIe to te pramANe cAlyA kare ne trIje dahADethI ja AnaMda vadhe, paNa jo viSayamAM paDyo to phasAyo. pachI bahAra nA nIkaLAya. viSayanI bAbata nirNayAtmaka hovI joIe. niSThA potAnI jAte nA bese, e to jJAnI puruSa besADI zake. jagatanI niSThA uThAvavA ane brahmanI niSThA besADavA amAre jJAna ApavuM paDe che. praznakartA : tame brahmanI niSThA besADo cho, to brahmacaryanI niSThA kema nathI besADatA ? dAdAzrI : paiNelA hoya temAM huM hAtha ghAluM ? e to AvIne ahIM mAgaNI kare to ame ApIe. A jJAna hoya chatAM paNa ekkekTa Atmaanubhava to brahmacarya vagara nA thAya. kharo AnaMda, amArA jevuM pada e badhuM joItuM hoya to saMpUrNa brahmacarya joIe ane TheTha chelle to viSaya para cIDhe ya nahIM ane rAtre ya nahIM evuM hoya tyAre kharo anubhava thAya. paNa pahelAM to viSayo para cIDha utpanna thavI joIe. eTale pachI citta vadhAre zodhakhoLa kare ane ema ema citta chUTatuM jAya, pachI chelle cIDhe ya nA rahe. udayakarma karIne pola ! praznakartA: amArA jevAM paiNelA hoya, tene viSayamAM koIvAra paDavuM 228 samajathI prApta brahmacarya paDe, paNa mahIM jarA ya gamatuM nA hoya to ya AtmAno anubhava nA thAya ? dAdAzrI : amuka aMzanuM thAya, paNa amArA jevuM nA thAya. praznakartA: mArI icchA nA hoya ne 'phAIla naMbara Tu'nI icchAthI khADAmAM paDavuM paDe, to zuM karavuM ? phAIlano samabhAve nikAla karavo ? dAdAzrI : phAIlano samabhAve nikAla karavo ja paDe ne ! jyAM sudhI no-ojekazana sarTiphikeTa nA maLe, tyAM sudhI zuM thAya ? je parANe karavuM paDe, e prakRti nAza thAya. pahelAM laganamAM jatA hatA, te rAjIkhuzIthI jatA hatA, ne atyAre have parANe laganamAM javuM paDe, to tyAM jaIe eTale pahelAMnI prakRti nAza thAya. eTale Ama viSayanuM badhI rIte pRthakkaraNa karIe ne pachI evI sTeja Ave che ke A vijhanathI thoDI thoDI jAgRti utpanna thAya. pachI, vijhana eTale Ama jhAMkhA vijhanathI, ene viSaya rahe kharo, paNa potAne nA gamatuM hoya. jema bhukha lAgI hoya ne khAvuM paDe, bhAvatuM nA hoya to ya pachI khAya, evo kaMTALIne bhogavaTo hoya. jyAre pelo rAjIkhuzIthI bhogavaTo hoya, e to bahu mUrchApUrvakanA bhogavaTA hoya. e bhogavaTo to pachI aneka sTepsa pasAra thAya, tyAra pachI chello bhogavaTo to ene bilakula kaMTALo Ave. bhogavaTo ya be prakArano hoya. eka icchApurvakano ane eka icchA nA hovA chatAM karmanA udayathI. udayakarma pUruM nA thayuM hoya tyAre zuM thAya ? udayakarma pUruM thAya tyAre ja chUTe, paNa tyAM sudhI ene bhogavavuM to paDe, to zuM thAya ? aNagamo utpanna thayA kare. eka A viSaya pUratI ja ame maryAdA rAkhIe chIe. maryAdA nA mUkIe to udayakarma kahIne durupayoga kare. 'udayakarma mane naDe che evuM kaheto hoya, to kharekhara udayakarma kone kahevAya ? udayane AdhIna, potAnI icchA ja nA hoya ! praznakartA : pahelAMnuM cArja karIne lAvyo hoya ne samajIne samabhAve nikAla kare to ? dAdAzrI : samajIne ja samabhAve nikAla kare che, chatAM hajI tene

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 229 mahIM AmAM sukha che evo abhiprAya rahyA kare che. A to pote ja vakIla, pote ja jaja ne pote ja AropI. te pachI jajamenTa potAnA tarapha kheMcI jAya. ame abhiprAya-brahmacaryane brahmacarya kahIe chIe. tirviSayI thavuM ja paDe ! nirviSayI thavuM paDaze. viSayanI vAta ja koI kADhatuM nathI ne ? kAraNa ke e loko vepArI thaI gayA che. viSayanI vAta kADhavI joIe, kaSAyonI vAta kADhavI joIe. viSaya kaSAyane laIne ja mokSe jato nathI. krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha jenI pAse silaka hoya tyAM sudhI emane kADhavAnI vAta karI zakAya ja nahIM ne ! potAnI pAse pAra vagaranI silaka hoya tyAM sudhI bIjAne koIne kahe ya nahIM. potAnI pAse silaka nA hoya to ja sAmAne tenI vAta karI zakAya. praznakartA : viSaya saMbaMdhI AvI vAto bIje kyAMya nIkaLI ja nathI. dAdAzrI : viSaya loko DhAMkavA phare che. pote gunegAra che, eTale DhAMke che. kapALudeva pote kahetA hatA ke 'A viSaya gamato nathI, chatAM huM bhogavuM chuM" ane tyAre kevuM sarasa pada nIkaLyuM ! have e padamAM AvuM badhuM vAMce eTale lokonA manamAM ema thAya ke A bairI-chokarAM choDI devAnI vAto che. eTale A loka kaMTALI jAya. te loko pachI vAMceluM bAjue mUkI rAkhe che ne pAchAM kaheze, A emaNe lakhyuM che, e to chone lakhe, paNa e chatAM ya emane tyAM chokarIo hatI. eTale vastusthitimAM AvuM che. loko che te bahAranuM jue che ke "kRpALudeva to paiNelA hatA, te emane choDIo hatI." chatAM emaNe pote ja kahyuM che ke "A khoTuM che, chatAM huM bhogavuM chuM.' praznakartA : je je bhUla thaIne e thaI gayuM e pharI nathI AvavAnuM, paNa have to evuM rahe ke A zI bhUla thaI ? A to bahu khoTuM che ! dAdAzrI : kAraNa ke koI hitakArI evA jJAnI puruSe vAta samajaNa pADI nathI tyAM sudhI AvuM UMdhuM cAlyA kare, paNa jyAre samajaNa paDe tyAre potAne khAtarI thAya ke vAta to kharI A ja che ane ApaNe je karyuM 230 samajathI prApta brahmacarya te khoTuM karyuM. praznakartA : koI paNa sAdhu-saMto je hoya che, te bhajana-kIrtana zIkhavADe kharAM, paNa bhautika sukha upara ja laI jAya che ne ? dAdAzrI : e to emanI dAnata ja evI hoya eTale pachI zuM thAya ? haMmezAM je jeTalo cokhkho hoya eTaluM cokhkhuM bole. have cAritra saMbaMdhI, viSaya saMbaMdhI kema nathI bolatA ? tyAre kema cUpa ? kAraNa ke jeTalo cokhkho che, eTaluM ja cokhkhuM bole. te cAle mahIM pola! eka mahArAja hatA, e vyAkhyAnamAM viSaya mATe badhuM bahu bolatA, paNa lobhanI vAta Ave tyAM nA bole. ko'ka vicakSaNa samajI gayo ke A lobhanI vAta koI dahADo kema nathI karatA ? badhI vAta bole che, viSayanI vAta paNa bole che. pachI e mahArAja pAse gayo ane khAnagImAM emanI poTalI ughADI joI. tyAre e pustakanI aMdara sonAnI gInI mUkelI hatI, te pelAe kADhI lIdhI ne jato rahyo. pachI mahArAje poTalI jyAre ughADI to gInI na maLe. gInIne bahu zodhI, paNa te nA jaDI. bIje divase mahArAje vyAkhyAnamAM lobhanI upara vAta mukavA mAMDI ke lobha nA karavo joIe. gInI hatI to, lobhanI vAta nahotI nIkaLatI. potAnA manamAM ATaluM kapaTa che eTale pachI pelI vAta bolAya ja nahIM ne ! jo pelA mANase khoLI ApyuM ! evo ene aThaMga maLI gayo ke mahArAjano lobha tarata nIkaLI gayo. eNe jANyuM ke AnI pAchaLa kaMIka kapaTa che. have tame jo viSayanI lAInamAM bolatA thAva to tamArI e lAIna hoya to ya tUTI jAya. kAraNa ke tame mananA virodhI thaI gayA. mananuM voTiMga juduM ne tamAruM voTiMga juduM thaI gayuM. mana samajI jAya ke "A to ApaNAthI virodhI thaI gayA, have ApaNo voTa nA cAle.' paNa mahIM kapaTa che ethI loko bolatA nathI ane e bolavuM evuM saheluM nathI ne !pablikane jo sAcuM zIkhavADe to pablika to badhuM ja samaje evI che. kAraNa ke ahIM AtmA che ne ?! eTale vAra nA lAge. paNa koI kahetuM nathI ne ?! paNa e zI rIte

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 231 kahe ? kAraNa emane mahIM paNa pola hoya ne ? huM bIDI pIto houM ne tamane ema kahuM ke bIDI na pIvAya to mAro prabhAva kema karIne paDe ? mAruM bilakula sTroMga hoya, cokhkhuM hoya to ja mAro prabhAva paDe. eka ja mANasa jo cokhkho hoya to keTalAMya mANasanuM kAma nIkaLI jAya. eTale potAnI pyaoNriTI joIe. tame saMsArI ho ke tyAgI ho, bhagavAnane kazuM levAdevA nathI, tyAM to pyaoNriTI joIe. ImpyaoNra golDa tyAM kAma lAge nahIM. bhagavAM hoya ke dhoLAM hoya, paNa impyaoNra cho tyAM sudhI kAma nahIM lAge. tamAro prabhAva ja nahIM paDe ne ?! zIlavAna thavuM joIe. cArja-DiscArjatI bhedarekhA ! A ApaNuM vijJAna evuM che ke kAma kADhI nAkhe ! paNa jo ene sinsIyara rahe ane amArA kahyA pramANe rahe to viSayanI nivRtti thAya, nahIM to viSayano svabhAva ja evo che ke eka ja vakhata viSaya thayelo hoya to mANasa traNa dahADA sudhI koI paNa prakAre dhyAna nA karI zake ! eka ja pherAnA viSayathI traNa dahADA sudhI mANasathI dhyAna phITa thaI zake nahIM, dhyAna coMTe ja nahIM ne ! sthira thAya nahIM ne ! pachI mANasa zuM kare ? keTaluMka kare ? tethI A jainanA AcAryo badhA tyAga laIne beThelA ne !! A vItarAgono dharma e vilAsIono dharma nathI ! viSaya hoya to to samajaNapUrvaka chUTI javuM joIe. viSaya to zI rIte game che, te ja mane ajAyabI lAge che ! viSaya game che, teno artha e ke samajaNa ja nathI. praznakartA : viSaya-kaSAyanI baLatarA thAya ne ? dAdAzrI : baLatarA to lAkho maNa thAya, teno savAla nathI. baLatarA to pudgalane thAya che. praznakartA : viSaya-kaSAyanI baLatarAnuM varNana, maraNa karatAM ya vadhAre kahyuM che. eTale enA karatAM mANasa maravuM pasaMda kare. dAdAzrI : nA. eNe to maravAnI kiMmata ja nathI rAkhI. eNe to anaMta avatArathI A ja karyuM che, pAzavatA ja karI che, bIjuM kazuM karyuM nathI. 232 samajathI prApta brahmacarya paNa maraNa to sAruM kahevAya. maraNa to svAbhAvika vastu che ane A to vibhAvika vastu che. samajadArane viSaya zobhe nahIM. eka bAju lAkha rUpiyA maLatAM hoya ne sAme viSayano prasaMga hoya to lAkha jatA kare, paNa viSaya na seve. viSaya ja saMsAranuM mULa kAraNa che, jagatanuM kaoNjhIjha ja e che ne ?! ApaNe to A viSayanI chUTa eTalAM mATe ApelI ke, nahIM to A mArgane koI pAmata ja nahIM. eTale ApaNe A akrama vijJAna DiscArja ane cArja rUpe samajAvyuM che. A viSaya e DiscArja che, evuM samajavAnI zakti nahIM ne badhAnI ?! AmanuM gajuM zuM ? nahIM to amAro je zabda chene 'DiscArja', te viSaya e DiscArja svarUpa ja che. paNa A vAta samajavAnuM eTaluM gajuM ja nahIM ne ! kAraNa ke rAta-dahADo viSayanI baLatarAvALA. nahIM to A cArja ane DiscArja ame je mUkeluM che te ekjhekTalI ema ja che. A to bahu UMco mArga batAvyo che, nahIM to AmAMthI koI dharma ja nA pAmata ne ! A bairI chokarAMvALAM zI rIte dharma pAmata ? praznakartA : ghaNAM ema samaje che ke 'akrama'mAM brahmacaryanuM kaMI mahattva ja nathI. e to DiscArja ja che ne ! dAdAzrI : akramano evo artha thato ja nathI. evo artha kare te 'akrama mArga' samajyo ja nathI. jo samajyo hoya to mAre tene viSaya saMbaMdhI pharI kahevAnuM hoya nahIM. akrama mArga eTale zuM ke DiscArjane DiscArja gaNavAmAM Ave che. paNa A lokone DiscArja ja nathI. A to hajI lAlaco hoya che mahIM ! A to badhA rAjIkhuzIthI kare che. DiscArjane koI samajyuM che ? nahIM to ame je mArga mUkelo che, temAM brahmacarya saMbaMdhI pharI kazuM kahevAnuM ja nA hoya !!! A to potAnI bhASAmAM baMdhabesatA artha kare pachI ! jamelA mANasane ApaNe pharI jamavA besADIe to te bahu zaramAya, paNa pachI jame kharo. paNa te zuM kare ? sAcuM jame e ? evuM viSayamAM hovuM joIe. viSaya-vikAra to dekhyo ja nA game, vicAratAM ja arerATI thaI jAya !! UlaTI thAya vicAratAM ja ! evuM hovuM joIe. 'DiscArja' kayA bhAgane kahevAya, te loka samajatuM nathI. ane

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233 samajathI prApta brahmacarya 'DiscArja'no artha potAnI bhASAmAM kare che. praznakartA: 'DiscArja kyA bhAgane kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : ApaNe gADImAMthI keTalI vakhata paDI jaIe ? gADImAMthI tuM paDI jAya to e 'DiscArja kahevAya. tyAM te gunegAra nathI, paNa koI jANI-joIne paDe kharo ? tyAM enI jarA ya icchA hoya ? tamane A vAtanI samaja paDI ? vAta samajI javA jevI che ne ? praznakartA : barAbara sajajaDa samajAI gaI. dAdAzrI : kAnabuTTI pakaDIne kaho cho ke ? nahIM to 'DiscArjanI vAtamAM to aMdara poluM hAMke, A ekalI viSayanI ja bAbatamAM poluM hAMkavA jevuM nathI. praznakartA : poluM kevI rIte hAMke ? dAdAzrI : jema gADImAMthI paDI jAya, ene ApaNe 'DiscArja kahIe chIe, evo potAne ghera paNa niyama to hovo joIe ne ? A to evuM che ne, ke potAnA hakkanI strI joDeno viSaya, e ajUgatuM nathI. chatAM ya paNa joDe joDe eTaluM samajavuM paDe ke emAM ghaNAM badhAM "jarsI' marI jAya che. eTale akAraNa to AvuM nA ja hovuM joIe ne? kAraNa hoya to vAta judI che. vIryamAM 'jarmsa" ja hoya che ane te mAnavabIjanAM hoya che. eTale bane tyAM sudhI AmAM sAcavavuM. A ame tamane TUMkAmAM kahIe, bAkI Ano pAra Ave nahIM ne ! baLatasato mAryo viSaya khoLe ! A to jene Atmika saMbaMdhI koI jAtanuM sukha nA AvatuM hoya tene to A saMsAramAM viSaya sivAya bIjuM zuM hoya ? kAraNa ke ATalI badhI baLatarA, baLatarA... sayugamAM, dvAparamAM paNa AvAM vikAra na hatA. A to kaLiyuganI baLatarAne lIdhe bicArA viSayamAM paDe che, zuM thAya te ?' ne Akho dahADo baLyA kare, "Ama khoTa gaI, pelAe gALo bhAMDI, pelAe Ama karyuM." AvI badhI baLatarA hoya, koI bAjunuM sukha nathI 234 samajathI prApta brahmacarya AvatuM, tene lIdhe bicAro nAchUTake A khADAmAM paDe che. have A AtmAnuM sukha AvyA pachI, A viSaya ene game ja kevI rIte ? AtmAnuM sukha nA AvatuM hoya tyAM sudhI ApaNe ene evuM to nA kahevAya ke 'bhAI, tame Ama kema karo cho ?" e kyAM jAya bicArA ? jo pazu hoya to e niyamamAM hoya, A manuSyane to buddhi che, pazuone to nAchUTakAnuM, emane 'DiscArja' kahevAya ! "cArja-DiscArjano bheda samajavo joIe ke nA joIe ? A to bheda samajyA vagara ThokAThoka kare. A jJAna jo pUrepUruM samaje ane A DiscArja pUrepUruM samaje to mane pharIthI kahevA ja nA Ave ! "DiscArja je che e cAritra mohanIya che ane cAritra mohanIyane je jue che e samyak cAritra che ! ahaMkAranI mAnyatAnuM sukha! viSaya sAme to huM keTaluM bola bola karuM chuM, to ya lokone geDamAM besatuM nathI, tyAre ApaNe zuM karIe ? paMpa mArI mArIne mAla bharI lAyA che, jarA ya "skopa nathI Apyo, avakAza ja nathI Apyo ne ? jANe viSaya nahIM hoya to jIvAze ja nahIM, evuM mAnI lAvyA che ! viSayane je jIte, tenAM para traNa lokanA nAtha rAjI thAya. AmAM che ja nahIM kazuM ya, paNa lokoe evI roMga mAnyatA karI nAkhI che ! bAkI AmAM kazuM sukha ja nathI, jalebImAM sukha che, paiDAmAM sukha che, cevaDAmAM sukha che, paNa AmAM sukha nathI. jalebImAM sugaMdhI bahu Ave, sparza ya Ave, svAde ya Ave, AMkhathI dekhavI ya game, moDhAmAM khaIe te ghaDIe kaDakaDa bole, e kAnamAM sAMbhaLavAnuM ya game. A tAjI tAjI jalebI khAvAmAM pAMce ya Indriyone sAruM lAge ane A viSayamAM to badhI indriyo kAma levA jAya, to pAchI pharI jAya. AMkhathI jovA jAya to gabharAmaNa chUTI jAya. nAkathI soDavA jAya to ya gabharAmaNa chUTI jAya, jIbhathI cAkhavA jAya to ya gabharAmaNa chUTI jAya ! praznakartA: AmAM 'emyualI" je AnaMda levAya che, te ahaMkAra

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 235 ja le che ne ? - dAdAzrI : sukha mAneluM che tethI ! emAM roMga bIlipha che khAlI ! tane koI dahADo darAja thayelI ? darAja valUra valUra kare ne, evuM che A ! pAchuM koI beThuM hoya tyAre manamAM gabharAya ke valUrIza to kharAba dekhAze, eTale pachI te baMdha rAkhe ane koI nA hoya tyAre tuM ene valUre, enI mIThAza lAge tane ! kRpALudeve viSayanA sukhane darAja valUravA jevuM sukha kahyuM che. praznakartA : viSayasukhathI dUra rahevA mATe je prayatna karavAmAM Ave che, tene puruSArtha kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : hA. paNa e sukha ja nathI, e khAlI mAnyatA ja che, 'roMga bIlipho' ja che. vyavahAramAM lokone A vAta kahevAya nahIM, jagata vyavahAra mATe A kAmanuM ja nathI. A vAta jagata vyavahAranA lokone karIe to temane duHkha thAya. kAraNa ke A sukha ekaluM ja avalaMbana che, te ya bicArAnuM ApaNe laI lIdhuM ! A to jene jJAna hoya tene vAta karAya, nahIM to vAta ja nA karAya. hA, koIne sukhane mATe nahIM, paNa chokarA mATe viSaya hoya to vAta judI che. putraSaNA zamAvavA pUratuM hoya to ThIka che. paNa A to nirarthaka, 'yujhalesa' hoya che, je kUtarA-kUtarIne ya zobhe nahIM evuM ! A jJAtate rAkho jANI ! jJAna evI vastu che ke jene jANI rAkhavAnI jarUra che. jJAnane jANI rAkhavAnuM. jJAna jANavAnuM che ne e jANeluM jyAre darzanamAM Ave che, 'bIliphamAM Ave che, tyAre viSaya badhA UDI jAya. A to ApaNe viSayasaMbaMdhI bahu UMDI carcA nathI karatA, enuM zuM kAraNa ke A loko bahAranI draSTi choDe, to ya bahu UMcI vastu che. bahAranI draSTi eTale, bahAra je dekhata bhUlI" thAya che te nA thAya, to ya bahu thaI gayuM. eTale ApaNe kahyuM ke bahAra draSTi bagaDI ke tarata ja 236 samajathI prApta brahmacarya pratikramaNa karajo. ene potAnA hakkano viSaya choDavAnuM nathI kahetA. kAraNa ke ene hakkano viSaya choDavAnuM kahIe, to enuM bahAra pAchuM bagaDI jAya. akrama vijJAne ApI chUTa... praznakartA : paNa je loko viSayasukha bhogave che, emane eTalI khoTa to javAnI ne ? dAdAzrI : jeTaluM jeTaluM 'cArja thayeluM che, eno to ApaNe vAMdho nA rAkhIe. praznakartA : paNa e "cArja thayeluM che ema kahevAya ja kevI rIte ? e to gharamAM strI sAthe rahetA hoIe eTale A viSaya to sahaja thaI gayelo hoya che ne ghaNI vakhata thAya che to ya e "cArja thayeluM ja kahevAya ? dAdAzrI : 'cArja thayelAnI bahAra nahIM thavAnuM. je 'cArja thayeluM che, tenI bahAra thAya evuM nathI. tethI to ame Ama viSayo mATe chUTa mUkIe ne ! nahIM to chUTa mUkIe ke ? e to javAbadArI che ane koIe AvI chUTa ApI paNa nathI ne ?!! praznakartA : koIe chUTa nathI ApI. AmAM to bahu 'sTrIkTa' che. dAdAzrI : e "sTrIkTa' che eTale loko pAmatAM nathI. satya hakIkata nahIM jANavAthI AmAM 'sTrIkTa thAya che. tethI loka pAmatAM nathI. saMsArIo to ema ja kahe che ke, "bhaI, ApaNe to saMsArI, ApaNe to kalyANa thAya ja nahIM ne ?!" evuM A loka potAnI jAta mATe mAnI beThA che. eTale e 'sTrIkTapaNuM" khoTuM che. "ame jJAnathI judI jAtanuM joIe chIe ! praznakartA: jeTalo vakhata 'DiscArja thAya, te eTaluM AvaraNa vadhe nahIM ?

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238 samajathI prApta brahmacarya 237 dAdAzrI : ApaNA 'jJAna'vALAne AvaraNa nA vadhe, amArI AjJA hoya ne ! ame hakkanA viSayanI nA kahI ja nathI ne ! nA kahyuM hoya to A badhAMne ghera zuM thAya ? praznakartA : tame jo enI nA kahI hoya to bahu moTuM tophAna thaI jAya ! dAdAzrI : paNa ame evuM kahIe ja nahIM. koIne ya duHkha thAya evuM varNana ja nA karIe ne ! praznakartA : atyAra sudhI huM A kaMDhamAM ja hato. mane ema lAgatuM hatuM ke viSayathI AvaraNa Ave. dAdAzrI : paNa jagate joyuM haze, tenAM karatAM meM navI ja jAtanuM joyeluM che ane to ja huM A AjJA ApuM, nahIM to AkhuM ja nahIM ne ! A to jokhamadArI kahevAya ! meM evuM vijJAna joyuM che. tyAre meM tamane chUTa ApI che, nahIM to chUTa nA apAya. meM tamane chUTa kevI rIte ApI che ? ame hakkanA viSayanI chUTa ApI che, jethI bahAra draSTi pachI bagaDe nahIM ne bagaDI hoya te sudhArI lejo. paNa hakkanI jagyAnuM eka ja sthAna nakkI thaI gayuM eTale pachI tamane 'elAu' karIe. paNa A to phakta Atmasukha che ke bIjuM kayuM sukha che ? te jANavA mATe tamane kahIe chIe ke cha mahinA mATe viSaya choDIne to juo ! phakta tapAsa karavA mATe ja, A sukha AtmAmAMthI AvyuM ke viSayamAMthI AvyuM ? praznakartA : e to khabara paDe che ke viSayathI sAcA sukhanI khabara nathI paDatI, chatAM e thaI jAya che. dAdAzrI : thAya teno vAMdho nathI. A 'akrama vijJAna' che, bahu judI jAtanuM vijJAna che. nahIM to eka ja 'DiscArja tyAM kramikamAM cAlavA nA de. ame to AkhI jiMdagInAM 'DiscArja calAvI lIdhAM che. A to 'akrama vijJAna' che ! vijJAna eTale zuM, ke ene koI nA pahoMcI vaLe ! bhagavAtane tAbe ke strIte ? tethI ame kahyuM che ne, ke bhaI, AkhA jagate viSaya e viSa che, samajathI prApta brahmacarya ema kahyuM che. tene ame kahIe chIe ke, viSaya e viSa nathI. sAdhuo jANe ke ame tarI gayA ane A saMsArIo DUbI gayA. alyA, koI bApo ya taryo nathI ane tuM DULyo ya nathI. tuM zuM kAma bhaDake che ? vahu jo DUbADatI hoya, to bhagavAna paiNata ja nahIM ne ! vahu DUbADatI nathI, tArI aNasamajaNa DUbADe che. tAre kevI rIte ArAdhanA karavI, kevI rIte nikAla karavo, te tuM jANato nathI. mahAvIra bhagavAna trIsa varSa sudhI strI sAthe rahyA ne choDI hala thaI ane chevaTe mahAvIrane ya chUTuM thavuM paDyuM. chellAM betALIsa varSa strI vagara ema ne ema rahyA. ApaNe to chellAM paMdara ja varSa strI vagara nIkaLe; mana-vacana-kAyAthI A chUTI jAya to ya bahu thaI gayuM, evuM kahIe chIe. nahIM to chello dasako ja nIkaLe to ya bahu thaI gayuM. nahIM to ya paNa chelle AvuM brahmacarya hovuM joIe. have e udaya kyAre Ave ? jyAre enuM jJAna sAMbhaLo tyAre udaya Ave. haMmezAM jJAna sAMbhaLyA vagara darzana thAya nahIM ane darzana thAya nahIM tyAM sudhI 'roMga bIlipha' tUTe nahIM. brahmacarya e to bahu sArI vastu che, paNa e jo udayamAM AvyuM to, enAM jevuM bIjuM koI pada ja nathI ! A 'phAIlo' to paravazatA lAve. kAraNa ke dravya-kSetra-kALa ane bhAva bannenA judAM ja hoya ne ? eka dhaNI mane kaheto hato, 'mArI bairI mane evuM kahetI hatI ke tame mane gamatA nathI. tame mane aDazo nahIM.' AnuM zuM thAya ? A gADI kaye gAma pahoMce have ? enA karatAM A brahmacArIone kazI upAdhi ja nahIM ne ! emane koI karAra ja nahIM ne e kahe che ke amAre karAra karavo yu nathI ane jeNe karAra karyA che, tene kahuM chuM ke pUrA karo. praznakartA : 'karAra nathI karavA' evuM je kahe e aTakAyata nathI ? dAdAzrI : jANI-joIne koI khADAmAM paDe ? ughADo khADo dekhAya che, temAM pachI koNa paDe ?! ApaNane have evI garamI nathI lAgatI. garamI lAgatI hoya to ThaMDaka khoLavA kAdavanA khADAmAM paDo. A brahmacArIone 'phAIla' nathI eTale kharekharuM sukha varte ! 'phAIla' to

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya ApaNane kaheze ke atyAre tamAre bhaIbaMdhane tyAM nathI javAnuM, to tyAM ApaNuM zuM thAya ? vaLI, bhagavAnanA tAbAmAMthI tArA tAbAmAM rahevAno vakhata mAre Avyo ?! praznakartA : karAra karyA che. dAdAzrI : hA, karAra karyA che. eTale eno kazo vAMdho nahIM. draSTi bagADIza nahIM. bahAra jovAmAM bahu jokhamadArI che. e haraiyo Dhora kahevAya. haraiyA Dhora thavA karatAM huM kahuM ke paiNa. mArI rUbarU paiNa, huM tane AzIrvAda ApIza !' huM khoTuM kahuM chuM ? AvI chUTa koIe ApI che ? ATalI chUTa ApI che ? ane tyAra vagara mANasa bicAro zI rIte mokSamArge jAya ? A rogathI to bharelo che, te zI rIte jAya ? A to vijJAna che, tethI 'sephasAIDa' karI Ape che ! 239 akrama vijJAta to, zuM kahe che ? pudgalanuM jora ochuM thAya evA saMjoga ja kyAM che atyAre ? eTale jJAnI puruSa A jJAna Ape, AtmA lakSamAM Ape, te ghaDIe pudgalanuM jora ekadama ochuM karI nAMkhe che. lakSa besADI de, ne pachI pAchuM pudgalanuM jora vadhe che. paNa eka phero lakSa besI gayuM ke pachI e chUTe nahIM ne lakSa beThA pachI pudgala jhapATAbaMdha ogaLI jAya. peluM to roja pudgalanI kamANI hatI ne roja kharco hato. te have kamANI baMdha thaI gaI ne kharco ekalo ja rahyo. eTale A pudgalanuM jora bahu maMda thaI jaze. have A 'jJAna' pachI koI pudgala naDatuM nathI. AmAM jovA jAya to koI kriyA naDatI nathI, paNa amuka amuka kriyAo bahu 'phorsa'vALI che, eTale tyAM vAMdho Ave che. temAM vadhAremAM vadhAre 'phorsa'vALI hoya to cAritra. duScAritra to vaLI ethI ya bahu ja 'phorsa'vALuM che ane sucAritra ochA 'phorsa'vALuM che. paNa 'phorsa'vALuM to beu che ja. bIjuM kazuM A khAvApIvAnuM tamAre je khAvuM hoya te khAjo. e naDatuM nathI. vALa jemanAM kapAvavA hoya emanAM kapAvajo, tela nAkhavuM hoya to nAkhajo, 'senTa' nAkhavuM hoya to nAkhajo, sinemA jovA jajo. eno mane koI jAtano 240 samajathI prApta brahmacarya vAMdho nathI. e pudgala bahu nukasAnakartA nathI. e 'phorsa'vALuM nathI, paNa duScAritra to bahu ja phorsavALuM che. sucAritra paNa phorsavALuM che, paNa e sucAritrano ya Aste Aste nikAla karavo ja rahyo ne ?! nikAla konuM nAma kahevAya ke uparathI AvI paDeluM kAma hoya ane Ama bajAramAM khoLavA nA javuM paDe. ene nikAla kahevAya. chUTako ja nA thAya evuM hoya, ApaNI icchA ja nA hoya, enuM nAma AvI paDeluM kAma kahevAya. eTale AtmA judo ja che, paNa judo anubhavamAM kema nathI Avato ? pudgalano phorsa jabarajasta che tethI eTalo badho phorsa che ke AtmA hAthamAM Ave evo ja nathI. AtmA kevo che e paNa loka jANatAM nathI. e to jJAnI puruSa jyAre AtmajJAna Ape tyAre, A AtmA Avo che ne Avo nathI, evuM be vibhAjana karI Ape tyAre lakSa bese, nahIM to AtmAnuM lakSa ja nA bese ne ! praznakartA : sucAritra ane duScAritranI vyAkhyA barobara karo ne ! dAdAzrI : sucAritra eTale ApaNA hakkanuM bhogavavuM, hakkanA cAritra bhogavavA ane kucAritra eTale aNahakkanuM bhogavavuM. te aNahakkanuM to muMbaImAM vaparAtuM ja nathI ne ? praznakartA : aNahakka vagarano to koI rasto ja nathI dekhAto ! dAdAzrI : ghaNokharo mAla ja evo bharelo che. A mANasa hoTalamAM jaIne mAMsAhAra kare che ane A mANasane polIsavALAe pakaDyo che ane ene mArIne kahe che mAMsAhAra khAvuM ja paDaze ne eNe khAdhuM, to e bemAM thoDoghaNo phera kharo ? to bhagavAne kahyuM ke polIsavALAno pakaDelo evuM ArAdhana karaze teno amAre vAMdho ja nathI. cAritra enuM e ja, paNa polIsavALAno pakaDelo che, to bhagavAna bilakule ya vAMdho nathI letA. viSaya dUra karAve AtmAnubhava ! meM AtmA to tamane Apelo che, paNa kaI vastu tamane enI asara thavA detI nathI ? viSaya ! A viSaya kaMI roja roja hotA nathI. ko'ka

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 241 dahADo hoya. paNa tenI pachI asara bahu herAna kare che ane viSayano abhiprAya bahu mAra khavaDAve che. brahmacaryano bhaMga thayo mATe jaMtunI asara thaI ne ? evo bhaMga hoya ja nahIM to to kevuM sarasa rahe ! A jaMtunI sUkSma asaro eTalI badhI kharAba paDe che ke ghaDIvAra jaMpavA ja nA de. praznakartA : zuddhAtmA padamAM rahevA mATe mukhya vastu kaI joIe ? dAdAzrI : A viSayamAMthI chUTyo eTale pachI zuddhAtmAmAM rahevAya. bairI paiNelo hoya teno amane vAMdho nathI, paNa hareyAno vAMdho che. paiNelI joDe pAMcamAMthI eka mahAvratano, brahmacaryano bhaMga thAya che ane kaLiyugamAM to evA jaMtuo ekabIjAmAM hoya che ke temane pachI jaMpavA ja nathI detA. kAraNa ke A bahAra rakhaDanArAone jarmsa bahu ja nukasAna kare che. tenI potAne khabara nA paDe. tethI huM kahuM chuM ne ke ekane paiNa. kAraNa ke A tane nesesarI vastu che. pote pUrvajanmamAM brahmacaryanA bhAva nA karelA hoya tethI paiNavuM paDe che. potAnI strI joDenA viSayamAM pAcho niyama hovo joIe. kRpALudeve kahyuM che ke mahinAmAM be divasa, pAMca divasa ke sAta divasanuM tuM jJAnI puruSa pAse nakkI karaje, to pachI e jJAnI puruSa A javAbadArI potAnI mAthe laI le. ne pachI ame vidhi karI ApIe. amArI AjJA thaI to vAMdho nahIM. amArI pAse AjJApUrvakanuM hoya, tene koI bAdhA nA Ave. praznakartA : A jJAna vagara e lakSa besavuM bahu muzkela paDe che ! saMsAravRkSanuM mULa, viSaya ! kaoNmatasensathI TaLe athaDAmaNo ! anaMta avatArathI paiNe che, chatAM strIno moha jAya che ? dareka avatAramAM baccAM pedA karyA chatAM baccAMno moha jAya che ? alyA, kayA avatAramAM baccAM nathI thayAM ? praznakartA : A athaDAmaNo-kaSAyo thAya che, enuM mULa viSaya ja ne ? dAdAzrI : A jJAna vagara phITa ja nA thAya ne ! chatAM paNa A sAdhuo che emane phITa thAya che. enuM zuM kAraNa che ? ke AgalA avatAromAM viSaya nathI bhogavavA evI emaNe bhAvanA bhAva bhAva karelI hoya, tethI enuM phaLa Avela che. ane emane e bheguM ya nA thAya, emane e game paNa nahIM. dAdAzrI : hA, badhuM viSayane laIne ja che. e viSayamAM eksaparTa thaI gayelo hoya. viSayamAM 'TesTaphUla' thayelo che, eTale mahIM svArtha hoya ane svArthane laIne athaDAmaNa thAya. svArthamaya pariNAma hoya tyAM koI dahADo kazuM dekhAya nahIM. svArthI haMmezAM AMdhaLo hoya. svArthI, lobhI, lAlacu badhA AMdhaLA hoya. A duniyAno badho AdhAra pAMca viSaya upara ja che. jene viSaya nathI, tene athaDAmaNa nathI. praznakartA: potAne viSaya nathI, paNa enA lIdhe bIjAne athaDAmaNa UbhI thaI zake ?

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 243 dAdAzrI : bIjAne zA mATe thAya ? hA, ko'kane thAya to, te enI bhUla che. nyAyapUrvaka hoya tene duHkha nA thAya, paNa pachI potAnI jAte mAnIne duHkha vahorI le, tenuM zuM thAya ? banatAM sudhI jo tene vALI letAM AvaDe to sAruM kahevAya. praznakartA : jJAna joDe hoya to tarata 'breka' mArI zake ? dAdAzrI : kazuM kahevAya nahIM, pharI lapasI ya paDe. jJAnavALA paNa slipa thaI jAya. A to komanasensavALo hoya. komanasensa eTale zuM ke evarI hera eplikebala, evo koI hoya e mArga kADhI Ape. badhAM tALAM ughADIne mArga kADhI Ape. athaDAmaNamAMthI rasto kADhe, paNa e eksaparTa nA hoya. praznakartA : ene, komanasensavALAne baLatarA hoya ? dAdAzrI : nA, jo baLatarA hoya to komanasensa utpanna thAya ja nahIM. baLatarA viSayavALAne hoya. baLatarA che tyAM sudhI viSaya Ubho rahelo che ane viSaya hoya tyAM sudhI baLatarA UbhI rahI che. phera viSaya-kaSAya taNo.... praznakartA : viSaya ane kaSAya, e bemAM mULabhUta pharaka zuM che ? dAdAzrI : kaSAya e AvatAM bhavanuM kAraNa che ane viSaya e gayA bhavanuM pariNAma che. eTale A bemAM to bahu phera che. praznakartA : e jarA vigatavAra samajAvo. dAdAzrI : A badhA jeTalA viSayo che, e gayA avatAranA pariNAma che. tethI ame vaDhatAM nathI ke tamane mokSa joIto hoya to jAva ekalAM paDI raho, gherathI hAMka hAMka nA karIe ? paNa ame amArA jJAnathI joyuM che ke viSaya e gayA avatAranuM pariNAma che. eTale kahyuM ke jAva ghera jaIne sUI jAva, nirAMte phAIlono nikAla karo. ame AvatAM bhavanuM kAraNa toDI nAkhIe ane je gayA avatAranuM pariNAma che e amArAthI 244 samajathI prApta brahmacarya chedAya nahIM, koIthI ya chedAya nahIM, mahAvIra bhagavAnathI ya nA chedAya. kAraNa ke bhagavAnane ya trIsa varSa sudhI saMsAramAM rahevuM paDyuM hatuM ne bebI thaI. viSaya ane kaSAyano artha kharekhara A thAya, paNa enI lokone kazuM khabara ja nA paDe ne ?! e to bhagavAna mahAvIra ekalA ja jANe ke Ano zuM artha thAya. praznakartA : paNa viSaya AvyA, to kaSAya UbhAM thAya ne ? dAdAzrI : nA. badhA viSaya viSaya ja che, paNa viSayamAM ajJAnatA hoya tyAre kaSAya UbhAM thAya ane jJAna hoya to kaSAya nA thAya. kaSAya kyAMthI janmyA ? tyAre kahe, viSayamAMthI. eTale A badhA kaSAya UbhA thayA che te badhA viSayamAMthI UbhAM thayelA che. paNa AmAM viSayano doSa nathI, ajJAnatAno doSa che. rUTa kaoNjha zuM che ? ajJAnatA. kramikamArgamAM viSayo pahelAM baMdha karavA paDe, to ja kaSAya baMdha thAya. tethI to badhA viSayono tyAga karI karIne dATAM mArI devAnA ne ! te ya evAM pecavALA dATAM ke enI meLe khUlI nA jAya. evA dATAM hoya nahIM to dATAM lapaTAM paDI jAya. khAvAnuM badhuM bheguM karIne khAvAnuM jethI jIbhano viSaya coMTe nahIM, ema AMkhano viSaya coMTe nahIM, kAnano viSaya coMTe nahIM, nAkano viSaya coMTe nahIM, sparzano viSaya coMTe nahIM, evA pecavALA dATo mAravAnA. doSa che ajJAnatAno ! praznakartA : je je viSaya coMTatA hoya ane e viSayomAM sAthe jJAna paNa rahetuM hoya ke AnuM pariNAma A Avaze, to ene nA coMTe ne ? dAdAzrI : 'pariNAma A Avaze' e nahIM jovAnuM. e to badhuM coMTe ja. viSayanuM ArAdhana eTale ja coMTa, ajJAnatAthI e coMTI paDe A amAruM sAyansa navI ja zodhakhoLa che, ajAyaba zodhakhoLa che ! kramikamArgamAM pAMce ya indriyone dATAM mAratAM mAratAM karoDo avatAra thAya. are, eka ja dATo mAratAM karoDo avatAra thAya ne ! tame jo samatimAM raho to viSaya tamAro naDato nathI. kAraNa ke viSaya e gayA bhavanuM pariNAma che, A bhavanuM nathI e. samakitamAM raho

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246 samajathI prApta brahmacarya kramikamArgavALA zI rIte 'eksepTa' kare ?! praznakartA : e zAthI ? dAdAzrI : emanI jANakArI evI thaI gayelI che ke viSayamAMthI ja kaSAya UbhAM thAya che, mATe viSaya baMdha thaI javA joIe. e loko to jue ke jo viSaya baMdha thAya che ? to vAta emanI sAcI che ane viSaya baMdha nathI thayA to 'rahevA do, tamArI vAta gappAM che ema kaheze. tame saMsAramAM rahetA ho ne tamArA ArtadhyAna ane raudradhyAna baMdha thayAM che evuM tame kaho to emanA manamAM thAya ke, 'A bahu doDha DAhyo lAge che. ArtadhyAna-raudradhyAna baMdha thAya evuM bane ja nahIM ne ! A to samajyA vagaranI vAta kare che." paNa e jANato nA hoya ke A kayuM vijJAna che ! varlDanI ajAyabI che !! agiyAramuM Azcarya che !!! mane bhego thayo tenuM kalyANa thaI jAya, paNa bhego thavo joIe. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 245 ne kaSAya, e be sAthe nA bane. kaSAya to parabhavanuM kAraNa che. AvuM jo kaSAya ane viSayane juduM pADyuM hota to loko viSayathI ATalAM badhA bhaDakata nahIM, paNa e to kaheze ke AvuM bane ja nahIM ne ! viSaya to nA hovo joIe ne ?! viSayano jo doSa hota to to A jAnavaro badhAMne kaSAya UbhAM thaI jAya. eTale ajJAnatAno doSa che. A jAnavarone kaMI ajJAnatA gaI nathI. emane ajJAnatA che, paNa emanAM viSayo limiTeDa che. eTale kaSAya thAya ja nahIM, kaSAya vadhe ja nahIM ane ApaNA lokonA kaSAya to anUlimiTeDa thAya. kramikamAM vicAra karIne pragati ! praznakartA : ekAvatAramAM karmo khapAvI kADhavAM hoya to, te kevI rIte khape ? dAdAzrI : jJAnI puruSa to badhuM ya kare, akrama vijJAnI cAhe so kare ! pelA kramikanA jJAnIo nA khapAvI zake. pelA jJAnIo to potAnuM nA khapAve ane sAmAnuM ya nA khapAve. potAnuM to phakta keTaluM khapAve ? ke vicAra karIne jeTalAM karmo khapAvI zakAya eTalAM karmo khapAvI de. kAraNa ke emane vicAra jJAnAnkSepakavaMta hoya che. eTale enAM jevuM lagabhaga, AkhuM nahIM, paNa vicAradhArA niraMtara cAlu ja hoya, paNa te AtmA na hoya. AtmA to, vicAradhArAnI AgaLa nirvicArapada che ane nirvicArapadanI ya AgaLanuM sTezana AtmA che. vicAradhArA e AtmA na hoya, paNa 'kramikamArgamAM AtmA prApta karavAnuM sAdhana eTaluM ja che. bIjuM koI sAdhana nathI. praznakartA: 'kara vicAra to pAma' evuM kahe che ne ! dAdAzrI : hA, eTaluM ja sAdhana che. ame kahIe ke, 'A loko saMsAramAM strI sAthe rahe che, chatAM Amane ArtadhyAna ne raudradhyAna baMdha thaI gayAM che." evI vAta kaI apekSAe viSaya baMdhata-svarUpa ? praznakartA : kAmavAsanAne nokaSAyamAM kema mUkyuM che ? dAdAzrI : nahIM to tene zemAM mUke tyAre ? kaSAyamAM mUke to to mUkanAro mAra khAya, zAstra khoTuM Thare. emAM krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha nathI, paNa jJAnIne nathI ne ajJAnIne che. mATe ene nokaSAyamAM mUkyuM. e kaSAya nathI. tuM vAMko chuM to A vAMkuM thaze, tuM sIdho thaze to A sIdhuM ja che. praznakartA : chatAM brahmacaryane mahAvratamAM mUkyuM che ane viSayane nokaSAyamAM mUkyA che, to Ama kema ? dAdAzrI : brahmacarya to mahAvratamAM mUkavuM paDe ne viSayane nokaSAyamAM mUkavA paDe. kAraNa AmAM krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha nathI. paNa pachI krodhI hoya ke mAnI hoya, tene tenI asara pAme. praznakartA : paNa kAmavAsanA e rAga to kharo ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, paNa ene jJAnInI sthitimAM cAritramoha kahevAya.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 247 ane saMsAranA loko mATe to badho rAga ja che ne ! eTale bhagavAne gaNavAnuM kevuM kahyuM che ? saMsArI mATe Ama gaNI zakAya ane jJAnI mATe Ama gaNI zakAya. praznakartA : to ene ema kahevAnuM ke A kaSAyamAM nathI ? dAdAzrI : no kaSAya eTale nahIM jevA kaSAya, nahIMvat. kAraNa ke ene emAM parANe paDavuM paDe che. jema gADImAMthI paDI jAya, evI rIte karavuM paDe che. gADImAMthI jANI-joIne koI paDatuM haze ? bhaya che ne ene, paNa no kaSAya kahyuM. kAraNa ke bhaya lAge ne zarIra dhrUjI jAya. paNa e saMgIcetanAno bhaya che, AtmAno bhaya nathI. evuM viSaya e saMgIcetanAnuM che. jJAnIone mATe e badhuM judI jAtanuM che, e nirjarAnuM kAraNa che. ajJAnIne viSaya baMdhanuM kAraNa che ane jJAnIne viSaya nirjarAnuM kAraNa thAya che. mATe ene no kaSAyamAM gaNavuM paDaze. praznakartA : A vAta to jJAnI mATe ja ne ? jJAnI sivAya bIjA badhA mATe nahIM ? 248 samajathI prApta brahmacarya kaSAya kahelAM che eTale nahIM jevA. ane bIjA soLa kaSAya, e to bahu 'sTroMga" kahevAya. praznakartA : hAsyane ya no kaSAya kahyuM che, hAsya to Ave, paNa jyAre tyAre chelle ene kADhI nAkhavuM paDaze ne ? dAdAzrI : koIne ya kADhavAnuM nathI. enI meLe nirjarA thaI javAnI. 'A' jJAna maLyA pachI have tame kartA nathI, eTale kADhavAnuM rahyuM nahIM ne ? kartA hoya to kADhavAnuM hoya. ApaNe ahIM to enI meLe nirjarA thayA ja kare. hAsya, viSaya badhuM nirjarA thayA kare ane vakhate cAritra mohanIya thoDI rahI haze, e eka avatAramAM khAlI thaI javAnI. viSayano durupayoga nA kare ethI zAstrakAroe kahyuM che ke je viSaya ajJAnIne baMdhanuM kAraNa che, te ja viSaya jJAnIne nirjarAnuM kAraNa che. paNa jo eno avaLo artha nA kare to ! pachI ema jANe ke "heMDo, A to ApaNane sikko mArI dIdhI. mATe have AmAM vAMdho nathI.' evuM nA cAle. Ano durupayoga nA karAya. ethI A vAtane khullI nA karAya ne ? AvuM khulluM nA karavuM joIe chatAM ya paNa vAta nIkaLI, te khulluM thaI jAya che ne ? je zarIrathI jhame che ne, e badhuM nokaSAya che. zarIrathI jhame che, manathI jhame che, vANIthI jhame che, e traNe ya bhAga kharI rIte to nokaSAya ja che. ane A zarIra to AkhuM nokaSAya ja che, nokarma ja kahevAya ene ! moTo doSa, viSaya karatAM kaSAyato ! praznakartA : viSayadoSa ja moTo doSa gaNavo kharo ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : tame atyAre 'caMdulAla' ho to doSa gaNavo joIe. ane zuddhAtmA' ho to gaNazo nahIM. e kyAM besI rahIe pAchAM enI pAse ! ApaNe to ApaNuM kAma karIe ke pAchuM doSa sIva sIva karIe ? doSita doSa karyA karaze ane tame tamAruM kAma karyA karo. jema khAnAro khAya ane doSita doSa karyA kare. dAdAzrI : jJAnI koNa ? jene A jJAna prApta thayuM che e paNa jJAnI kahevAya ane e sivAya to bIjAne nA kaSAya jevuM hotuM ja nathI. emane to paccIse ya prakAranA kaSAya che, tyAM to AkhI dukAna ja moTI ne ! A jJAna pachI tamane to krodha-mAna-mAyA-lobha nathI ema kahevuM hoya to kahI zakAya. viSayate kahyo, to kaSAya ! kharI rIte jovA jAya to manuSyane viSayanI jarUra ja nathI. je badhA loko kahe che, te to ajJAnInI apekSAe che. bAkI jJAna apekSAe manuSyane viSayanI jarUra che ja nahIM. ane ajJAna apekSAe viSaya sivAya cAle evuM nathI. paNa e paddhatisara ene goThavatAM nA AvaDe to tyAM sudhI badhuM kAcuM paDI jAya. jJAnIne to cAritra mohanIya evI hoya tethI, nahIM to jJAnIne viSaya joIe ja evuM nathI. nava prakAranA no

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250 samajathI prApta brahmacarya jojo, basa. ane viSaya eTale zuM ? thALI e paNa viSaya. jamaNa AvyuM, e viSaya nahIM ? have e jamaNa mUkyuM ane ApaNe A gaIkAle Akho dahADo upavAsa karyo hato, ne atyAre bhUkhyA hoya, te agiyAra vAge jamavAnuM mUkyuM ane sarasa kerI ne badhuM ya hoya ane tarata thALI laI le. have jamyA ya nahIM ne tyAra pahelAM to thALI uThAvI le, to te ghaDIe mahIM pariNAma nA badalAya. tyAre jANavuM ke, Ano vAMdho nathI. ane viSayano eTalo badho vAMdho che ne ke viSayanuM yAcakapaNuM nA thavuM joIe. lAcArI ke yAcakapaNuM nA hovuM joIe. tame zuddhAtmA thayA have ! yAcakapaNuM e zabda samajAya evo che ne ? praznakartA : hA.. samajathI prApta brahmacarya 249 praznakartA: paNa 'caMdulAla'ne kayA doSa moTAM che, e samajavuM to rahyuM ne ? dAdAzrI : hA. 'caMdulAla'ne samajavuM paDaze, e 'caMdulAla'ne kahevuM ke, 'samajo, Ama nahIM cAle. hA, nahIM to dAdAne kahI daIza." evuM kahevuM. praznakartA : ane e kharuM ke nahIM ke moTA doSa viSayanA hoya che, kaSAya karatAM paNa ? dAdAzrI : nA, doSa viSayanA hoya, paNa viSaya evI vastu che ne, ke viSaya e IphekTiva che, kaSAya e kaoNjhIjha che. eTale iphekTa e to enI badhI iphekTa ApIne jato raheze. A jeTalAM viSaya che ne, e mAtra iphekTiva che ane kaSAya kaoNjha che. eTale kaSAya ja duHkhadAyI che ane kaSAyathI ja saMsAra Ubho rahyo che. paNa e samajavAnI jarUra che ke e kevI rIte iphekTiva che. eTale enuM bahu mahattva nA rAkhavuM. e caMdubhAIne kahIe, 'Ama na thAya to sAruM !' evuM kahevuM eka dahADe, be-traNa dahADe, te amathuM kahevuM ja, jarA khAlI, phrenDalI TonamAM ! praznakartA : vadhAre kahevAnI jarUra ja na paDe ? dAdAzrI : vagara kAmanA bicArAM ApaNI joDe rahe, pADozamAM. have nA eno koI AdhAra rahyo. AdhAra hato, te e ya nirAdhAra thaI gayo, nodhAro thaI gayo. eTale koI phero kaMTALI gayA hoya ane DIpreza thaI jAya to, ApaNe arIsA sAmuM laI jaIne khabho thAbaDavo ne kahevuM ke 'ame chIe tArI joDa, gabharAIza nahIM, bA." pachI kahevuM paNa phrenDalI TonamAM kahevuM ke, 'Ama zA hAruM ? have zAnA hAruM ? zo phAyado che ? ne dAdA jANe to sAruM dekhAya ?" evuM kahevuM. praznakartA : paNa e evI gAMTho jaladI jatI na hoya to koI dI kAMI na karavuM paDe ? dAdAzrI : enI bhAMjagaDamAM paDazo nahIM, rAga-dveSa nA thAya e dAdAzrI : 'A tamane bAunDrI batAvuM chuM." koI paNa vastunuM yAcakapaNuM eTale zuM ke jalebI nahIM maLe to, jalebI lAvone ! thoDIka 'jalebI lAvo' kare ! melane mUA, anaMta avatAra jalebIo khAdhI to ya haju yAcakapaNuM rAkho cho ? jenI lAlasA hoya ne tenuM yAcakapaNuM thAya mANasane ! e yAcakapaNuM nahIM hovuM joIe. bIjuM badhuM khA-pI badhuM karajo. paNa te vAcakapaNuM nahIM. yAcakapaNuM e lAcArI che eka jAtanI ! viSaya e che IphekTa ! praznakartA : e vadhAre samajAvo ke A badhA viSaya e IphekTa che. dAdAzrI : viSaya e IphekTa ja che. kAyamane mATe e IphekTa ja che. paNa kaoNjhIjha jyAM sudhI samajAyA nathI tyAM sudhI viSaya paNa kaoNjhIjha svarUpe che. evuM che ne, A vAta khullI bahAra nA kahevAya ke viSaya e kaoNjhIjha nathI, IphekTa ja che ekalI. je kaoNjhIjhane kaoNjhIjha jANe che, tene viSaya IphekTa che. praznakartA : dAdA, tamArI pAse 'jJAna' maLyA pachI amAre e samajamAM rAkhavuM paDaze ? dAdAzrI : hA, rAkhavAnuM ke A IphekTa ja che.

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samajathI prApta brAhmacarya 251 praznakartA: AvAM badhA phoDa paDe eTalAM mATe ahIMyA besIe ane vAta pUchIe. 252 samajathI prApta brAhmacarya pachI A janmamAM zuM kare che ? dAdAzrI : eNe A janmamAM pharI navesarathI ne samajavuM joIe ke A brahmacaryano mAla pUrve bharyo nathI, have navesarathI A bharavo joIe. pAchaluM zuM galana thaI rahyuM che, te pharI UbhuM nA thavuM joIe. jJAna maLyA pachI A badhI vyavahArika ciMtA karyA karatAM mULa svabhAvanuM bhAna rAkhavuM. vyavahAranI bhAMjagaDa ja kyAM karavAM jaIe ? praznakartA svabhAvanuM bhAna rAkhavuM eTale ? dAdAzrI : 'huM zuddhAtmA chuM' ane A pAMca vAkyomAM dhyAna rAkhavuM. ane peluM badhuM vyavahAranI khoTa Avaze, je thavAnuM haze te thaze, eno je daMDa haze, te joI laIzuM, daMDa bharI daIzuM. enI ciMtAmAM paDe to A mULa vastu rahI jAya. jene nA maLyuM hoya, tene ciMtAo badhI karavAnI hoya. pAMca AjJAmAM rahyA eTale badhuM AvI. dAdAzrI : eTalAM sAruM ahIM besIne phoDa pADIne joI jAva. badhI vAta, evuM kahIe ne ! koI kAnamAM attaranAM be pUmaDAM ghAlIne Avyo. mane loka kaheze, 'juo, A moja-zokha keTalAM kare che ?? huM kahuM ke, "bhaI, karavA dene, e kaI mokSe jatAM AMtaratA nathI. enuM pUmaDuM kADhI le ane jo ene dveSa thAya to e dreSa mokSe jatAM AMtare che.' che kudaratI, paNa limiTamAM ghaTe ! praznakartA : A viSaya e to kudaratI avasthA che ne ! dAdAzrI : paNa temAM ApaNe evuM karI zakIe ke kudaratI avasthAmAM ya paNa enI eka limiTa hoya che koI jAtanI ! eTale ApaNe jo dhArIe, eTalo puruSArtha mAMDIe. AtmA e puruSa thayo ne puruSArtha mAMDe to pheravI zake Ama, e ukela lAvI zake ! jamavA beThA eTale khA khA karavuM evuM kaMI che ? praznakartA : nA, jarA ya nahIM. dAdAzrI : ApaNe joDe rahIe, paNa ApaNe kahevuM ke, 'caMdubhAI zuM zuM lezo ?" tyAre kahe, 'zAka, roTalI ne ATalo bhAta !' tyAre ApaNe kahIe, 'nA. Aja A traNa lo ne ! Aja dAdAnI pAse sAMbhaLavA javAnuM che ne ?" ema karI aTAvI-paTAvIne kAma laI levuM. te pAchAM evuM leze, emane evuM kaMI nathI ! Amane to kahenAra joIe. salAha ApanAra joIe. ane ApaNane vAMdho ya zo che ? kaMI khoTa javAnI che ! kaye dahADe khAdhuM nahIM hoya ? AvyA tyArathI khA khA ja karIe chIe ne !! ne kaMI bIjuM navuM mAMDyuM che A ?! havethI ceto.... praznakartA : abrahmacaryano mAla pUrveno bharI lAvelo che ne ? to

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254 samajathI prApta kAhmacarya [6] AtmA akartA-abhoktA ! vijJAna draSTie viSayato bhoktA koNa ? khAva-pIo, viSaya bhogavo paNa badhuM pramANa hovuM joIe. normAliTIthI badhAmAM raho ne ? viSayo bhogavavAnI bhagavAne nA nathI pADI. viSayanI joDe bhagavAnane jhaghaDo nahoto. bhagavAna paNa trIsa varSa sudhI ghera rahelA. eTale viSayano ja jo jhaghaDo hoya to to pahelethI choDI kema nA dIdho ? evuM nathI. viSayane ane AtmAne lAgatuM-vaLagatuM nathI. AtmA koI dahADo ya viSayI thayo nathI ane jo viSayI thayo hota to enuM rUpAMtara judI ja jAtanuM thaI gayuM hota ! enAM guNadharma ja badalAI gayA hota ! e to paramAtmA ne paramAtmA ja rahyo che ! ATalI badhI yonimAM gayo, chatAM potAnuM paramAtmapada choDyuM nathI e ya ajAyabI che. ne ! potAnA guNadharma badalyA nathI, AtmA ane anAtmA kampAunDa svarUpe thayuM nathI. AtmA-anAtmA, te banne tela ane pANInI jema milcara svarUpe che. jJAnI puruSa eno evo rasto karI Ape ke tela tela nIkaLI jAya ane pANI pANI juduM nIkaLI jAya. kAraNa ke jJAnIo AtmAne oLakhe che mATe karI zake. A tela-pANImAM to be ja vastuo che. jyAre AmAM to AtmA ne bIjI pAMca vastuo che. 'AtmAnuM kriyAvAdapaNuM ajJAnatAne laIne che." tyAre loko kahe che ke AtmAe A karyuM, AtmAe te karyuM. paNa AtmA atyaMta sUkSmatama vastu che. viSayo ekadama sthaLa che. AMkhe dekhAya evAM viSayo che, sparzathI anubhavamAM Ave evAM viSayo che. have viSayo e ekadama sthaLa che. nAnA chokarA ya samajI jAya ke A viSayamAM mane AnaMda Avyo. te alyA, dhULane ne sUkSmatamane meLa zI rIte paDe ? e bene koI dahADo ya meLa paDe ja nahIM ane meLa paDyo ja nathI. viSayano svabhAva judo, AtmAno svabhAva judo. AtmAe pAMca indriyonA viSayo kazuM koI dahADo ya bhogavyA ja nathI. tyAre loko kahe che ke mArA AtmAe viSaya bhogavyo !!! alyA, AtmA te bhogavato haze ?! tethI kRSNa bhagavAne kahyuM ke, 'viSayo viSayomAM varte che' ema kahyuM to ya lokone samajaNa paDI nahIM. ane A to kahe che, 'huM ja bhogavuM chuM.' nahIM to loka to kaheze ke 'viSayo viSayamAM varte che, AtmA to sUkSma che.' mATe bhogavo evo teno ya durupayoga karI nAkhe. A zabdano durupayoga kare to to mArI ja nAkhe eTale A lokoe vADo karelI ke koI durupayoga nA kare. AtmAe koI dahADo viSaya bhogavyo ja nathI. mane loko kahe che ke, "AvuM kahIne tame AkhuM zAstra uDADo cho ?" tyAre meM kahyuM, nA, zAstra nathI uDADato.' tame je kaho cho ke meM viSaya bhogavyo, e tamArI roMga bIlipha che, e roMga bIlipha ja tamane herAna kare che. bAkI AtmAe viSaya koI dahADo ya bhogavyo nathI. paNa tamane je "meM viSaya bhogavyo' e mahIM khaTake che, e duHkha kADhI nAkhavA mATe jJAnI puruSa tamArI roMga bilipha phrekacara karI Ape che. bIjuM kazuM che nahIM. praznakartA: 'meM bhogavyuM' e paNa igoIjhama che ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, khAlI igoIjhama che. "meM Ama karyuM ne meM nathI karyuM' e badho igoIjhama che. praznakartA : have A vAta du5yoga thaI jAya ne ? jANe lAIsansa

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 255 maLI gayuM ema durupayoga karI nAkhe. - dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, A vAta to kevI che ? sonAnI kaTAra hoya che ne, te kevI rIte vAparavI eno eka niyama ja hoya che. have eno koI du5yoga kare ne peTamAM mAre to tene ApaNe kema karIne nA kahevAya ? kAraNa je savaLuM kAma kare, te avaLuM ya kAma kare. paNa huM to sAyansa kahuM chuM, je vijJAna che te kahuM chuM ke AtmAe kyAre ya paNa viSaya bhogavyo nathI. khAlI igoIjhama ja che ke "meM A karyuM." e kartAbhAva huM choDAvI dauM chuM ke bhaI, tuM kartA nathI. A to 'vyavasthita kartA che. huM tamane samajAya evI rIte samaja besADuM chuM ane ejhekTa 'vyavasthita ja kartA che. kharekhara 'vyavasthita' ja kriyA kare che. A to tame AropaNa karyuM che ke meM karyuM ane te IgoIjhama tarIke tamane phaLa maLe che. praznakartA H AropaNa kare eTale ja AvaraNa Ave che ne ? AropaNano bhAva e ja AvaraNa ? dAdAzrI : bIjuM kyuM AvaraNa ? e ja AvaraNa ane e ja AvatA bhavanuM bIja ! jo AropaNa nathI, to AvatA bhavanuM bIja ja nathI, to tame mukta ja cho. muktapaNAnI vyAkhyA samajavI paDe. tame mukta ja cho. atyAre ya tame mukta cho. paNa 'eNe' je bIliphamAM mAneluM che ke "huM baMdhAyelo chuM eTale baMdhanapaNuM lAge che. e baMdhanavALI bIlipha phrekacara thaI jAya ne "mukta kevI rIte chuM" e bhAna thaI jAya, to tame mukta ja 256 samajathI prApta brahmacarya kaMTALI jAta. ene to tame jyAre juo tyAre navaro ne navaro ja dekhAya. bhogavyuM hoya tene bhAMjagaDa che ne ? ane A gaMdavADAmAM e hAtha ghAle ja nahIM ne ? AtmAne kazuM aDe ja nahIM, eTale ene nirlepa kahyo. 'jJAnI puruSa' AtmA joyo hoya, anubhavyo hoya, eTale e 'jJAnI puruSa' pachI jyAMthI vANI bole, te cokhkhuM ja hoya badhuM ! AtmAne jANavA mATe A badhuM che ne ! AtmA jANI lIdho eTale ApaNuM kAma pUruM thaI gayuM. eTale jyAre tyAre to AtmA jANyA vagara chUTako ja nathI. tyAre loka kahe che, "ame Aje chIe to bhogavI laIe." are, paNa tuM kazuM bhogavato ja nathI. tuM UMdhuM mAnI beTho chuM, ke A meM bhogavyuM. tuM ahaMkAra ja kare che. pelAM 'meM A nathI bhogavyuM' evo ahaMkAra kare che. khAlI ahaMkAra ja kare che, bIjuM kazuM karato nathI. kAraNa ke AtmA sUkSmAtisUkSma che eTale sUkSmatama kahe to cAlI zake ane A viSayo sUkSmatara che, sUkSma che, sthULa che. e beno meLa zI rIte paDI zake ? eTale evuM kazuM AtmAe bhogavyuM ja nathI. A viSaya to bahu UMDA Utarone, to te sUkSma hoya, pachI sUkSmatara thAya. sUkSmatara badhA anaMga hoya. praznakartA : A sAMdhA sudhInA to badhA joI lIdhA. dAdAzrI : e to badhA sthaLa kahevAya. praznakartA : to sUkSmatara tame kone kaho cho ? dAdAzrI : e to jAta jAtanA anaMga viSayo hoya che. sthaLa viSayo to Ama pratyakSa dekhAya. sUkSmanuM vadana thAya ane sUkSmataramAM e badhuM aMdara anaMga bhAvo thavAnAM. paNa te AtmAne aDI zake ema nathI. pachI tame Ama mAthAkUTa karo ke game te karo. meM je AtmA Apyo che, ene viSaya aDI zake ema nathI. paNa tamArI jAgRti nahIM hovAthI tamane A baMdhana mUkIe chIe. tame saMpUrNa zuddha upayoga rAkhI zako ema cho nahIM ane pAMca AjJAmAM tame saMpUrNa rahI zako ema cho nahIM. mATe tamane A baMdhana mUkavAM paDe che, cetavavA paDe che. nahIM to cetavavA nA paDe, eka eTale A pahelI vakhata ame pustakamAM lakhyuM che ke viSayo viSa nathI. paNa viSayomAM nIDaratA e viSa che. nIDaratA eTale zuM ke keTalAMka mANaso kahe ke, 'dAdAe mane jJAna ApyuM che, to have mane koI viSaya naDe nahIM. mAre to bhogavavAno vAMdho ja nahIM ne ?" to khalAsa thaI gayo. mATe vAtane samajo. ATalAM badhA avatAra thayA, paNa ekuMya viSaya AtmAe bhogavyo ja nathI, eNe viSaya bhogavyo hota to atyAra sudhI e kyArano ya

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 257 akSare ya kahevo nA paDe. A vijJAna to bahu judI jAtanuM che. sUkSmatama', 'zULa'te bhogavI zake? keTalAMka manamAM ema gUMcAya ke meM ATalAM badhA viSayo bhogavyA che, mAruM zuM thaze ? tyAre e A manamAMthI kADhI nAkhe eTalA mATe mAre bolavuM paDe che ke viSayo AtmAne aDatA ja nathI. beu bAjunuM bolavuM paDe ne ? bAkI ame viSaya saMbaMdhI vAta ja koIne nA karIe, eka akSare ya nA kahIe. A havA che te game evI sUkSma che, to ya ene asara thaI jAya. atyAre ahIM saLagAvyuM hoya to upara havA garama thaI jAya ane AtmA badhethI, agnimAMthI nIkaLe, pANImAMthI nIkaLe to ya koI jagyAe, ene kazuM aDe nahIM. kAraNa ke sUkSmatama che. are, AtmA A dIvAlanI ya ArapAra nIkaLI jAya ! AtmA viSayo bhogavato ja nathI, e bhogavI zake ema che ja nahIM. e eTalo badho sUkSmatama bhAvamAM che ke bIjI vastune bhogavI zake ja nahIM. viSayathI to AtmA bahu vegaLo che. A viSayomAM AtmA pote che ja nahIM. AtmA to khAlI jANyA ja kare che. phakta jANyA ja kare che ke Ano svAda Avo che ne Ano svAda Avo che. e bhogavato ja nathI. A to ahaMkAra kahe che ke "meM viSaya bhogavyo' ane kharekhara te ahaMkAre ya nathI bhogavato. ahaMkAre ya sukSma che ane A viSayo sthaLa che, to pachI koNa bhogave che ? 'viSayo viSayone ja bhogave che' ane ahaMkAra emAMthI ropha mAre che ke "meM bhogavyo'. praznakartA : eTale ahaMkAre ya bhogavato nathI ema ? dAdAzrI : ahaMkAra bhogavato hota to to e dharAI gayo hota, paNa A bhogavato nathI, tenuM to A duHkha che. praznakartA : A to navI ja vAta kADhI ! dAdAzrI : navuM nahIM, A 'ejhekTa' ema ja che. jo bhogavato hota to to ahaMkAra dharAI jAta, paNa A to bhUkhyo ne bhUkhyo ja rahe 258 samajathI prApta brahmacarya che. enuM nAma ja zuM ? ahamU-kAra. ko'ke karyuM ne 'meM karyuM' ema pote kahe che, enuM nAma ahaMkAra. 'duHkhe ya meM bhogavyuM evuM ahaMkAra kahe. alyA, du:khe ya indriyo bhogave che, tuM kyAM bhogave che ? ahaMkAre ya sUkSma che. ahaMkAra kaMI jevI tevI vastu nathI. jo ke sthaLa ahaMkAra to zarIramAM che ja, paNa pote mULa svarUpe sUkSma che ane sUkSmamAMthI sthULa thAya che ane e sthaLa, 'pelA' bhogavavAmAM taiyAra thAya che. sthULa joDe teyAra thAya che, paNa mULa svabhAva sukSma che ane eTale pote sthaLane bhogavI ja nA zake. AtmA to AmAM khAlI jANe, eTaluM ja che. A to 'AtmA viSaya bhogave che" evI bhUla peThI. bhUla peThI che te karoDo avatAranI bhUla bhAMgatI ja nathI ! e ya ajAyabI ja che ne ! juone, vagara kAmano mAra khAya che ne ? bhogave che koNa ? e tame khoLI kADhyo ne ! koNa bhogavI jAya che ? e ahaMkAra bhogave che. roja bhogavato hoya ne eka dahADo nA bhogave ne, to ya kahe, 'meM bhogavyuM che." to ene evI tRpti vaLe ne ? eTale nA bhogavyuM hoya to ya bole "meM bhogavyuM" to ene tRpti vaLe. kAraNa ke ahaMkAra ja karyA kare che, bIjuM kazuM karato nathI. have joDe joDe e pote ya pAcho kahe che ke "meM bhogavyuM" ema AropaNa kare che. eTale pharI pAchuM navI upAdhi thAya che, chatAM e mAne che ke "meM bhogavyuM.' tethI ene saMtoSa paNa thAya che. kAraNa ke enI icchA hatI ne ! bAkI e pote bhogavato ja nathI. AtmA to zuddha ja che ane viSayo viSayomAM varte che. A to vagara kAmano 'igoIjhama' kare che. have 'igoIjhama" jAya nahIM tyAM sudhI igoIjhama karyA vagara rahe nahIM ne ! 'igoIjhama' kyAre jAya ? eno AdhAra jAya tyAre. eno zo AdhAra che ? ajJAna ! ajJAna kyAre jAya ? tyAre kahe, 'jJAnI hoya tyAM !!!" jJAtInA zabdo solAtI kaTAra !!! A to 'bIlipha' ja 'roMga' hatI. bAkI AtmA rAgI ya na hato ne dveSI ya na hato. rAga-dveSa AtmAmAM che ja nahIM. AtmAmAM e guNa

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 259 ja nathI. A badhA Aropita bhAvo che. Aropita bhAvo kevA che ? vyavahAranA che. eTale tamArI 'bIlipha' ekalI ja roMga che ke A mane rAga thAya che, ne mane dveSa thAya che. e 'roMga bIlipha' ukhADI Ape, te 'jJAnI". e 'bIlipha' ukhaDe evI nathI. tamArI e "roMga bIlipha' ame ukhADI ApI che. praznakartA : e jarA vistArathI samajAvone ke 'bIlipha roMga' che ane 'jJAnI puruSa' bIliphane ukhADI de che. dAdAzrI : ame zuM kahIe chIe ke AtmA aguru-ladhu svabhAvano che ane rAga-dveSa guru-laghu svabhAvanA che. mATe e bannene sATuM ya na hatuM ne sahiyAruM ya na hatuM. A to Aropita bhAva che ke AtmAne rAga thAya che ne vaiSa thAya che, e vyavahAranA bhAvo che. loko ema kahe che. ke mane AmanI joDe rAga che. have kharekhara tamAre paugalika AkarSaNa hoya ! kAraNa ke tamane meM jJAna ApyuM eTale tamAre AtmA chUTo thaI gayo che, tyAre have zuM rahyuM ? paulika AkarSaNa rahyuM. pudgalamAM AkarSaNa nAmano guNa che ane vikarSaNa nAmano guNa che. have ApaNA loka e AkarSaNane rAga kahe che ne vikarSaNane dveSa kahe che. ApaNo paga gaMdavADAmAM paDe ne cIDha caDhe, tethI kaMI ene jJAna jatuM rahyuM nathI ! jJAnIne ya vakhate moDhA upara asara dekhAya tethI karIne kaMI jJAna jatuM rahyuM nathI. jJAna, jJAna ja che. phakta A pudgalano vikarSaNa nAmano guNa che. tethI cIDha caDhI, te moDhA para asara thaI ! tathI levAdevA AtmAne emAM ! praznakartA : AtmAne sparze nahIM e ? pudgala pUratuM ja rahe, e ? dAdAzrI : AtmAne kazI levA devA ja nathI. je AtmA ApIe chIe te nirlepa ne asaMga ja ApIe chIe. koI kahe ke strIo sAthe zI rIte AtmA asaMga rahI zake ? tyAre ame kahIe chIe ke AtmA sukSma che bilakula ! ane A viSayo je che te sthaLa svabhAvanA che ! bannene koI dahADo ya meLa paDyo ja nathI. A vAta jJAnI puruSa jANe 260 samajathI prApta brahmacarya ane tIrthaMkaro paNa jANe. paNa tIrthaMkaro eno phoDa pADe nahIM. kAraNa ke tIrthaMkaro jo phoDa pADe to loka eno durupayoga kare. tIrthaMkaro phoDa nA pADe. ame phoDa pADIe, e paNa gupta rIte, ATalA amuka ja mANaso mATe, nahIM to pachI eno durupayoga cAle ke AtmA to sUkSma svabhAvano che ne viSayane ane AtmAne kazuM levAdevA ja nathI, mATe have to kazo vAMdho nathI. ne vAMdho nathI kahyuM eTale bhUta peThuM ! karmonA dabANathI A kriyA thayA kare che. temAM A sthaLa kriyA che, tame sUkSma cho. paNa A jJAna tamArA manamAM rahe ke AtmAne to kazuM aDatuM ja nathI, mATe vAMdho nathI. to e UMdhuM karI nAkhe. eTale ame AvuM bahAra ja nA pADIe ke AtmA sUkSma-svabhAvI che. ame to ema kahIe ke viSayothI Do. viSayo e viSa nathI paNa viSayamAM nIDaratA e viSa che. nIDaratA eTale zuM ke mane kaMI vAMdho nathI have. paNa saMpUrNa jJAnI thayA pachI ane saMpUrNa anubhavajJAna thAya tyAra pachI ja AtmAne kazuM aDatuM nathI, evuM kahI zake. A bIjuM badhuM to ame tamane phoDa pADavA samajaNa pADIe. cetajo, na thAya kyAMya durupayoga ! praznakartA : nIDaratA Ave eTale pachI svacchaMdIpaNuM AvI jAya ne ? dAdAzrI : svacchaMdIpaNuM Ave te ghaDIe ja mAra khavaDAvI de. eTalAM mATe ame A bahAra nA pADIe. nahIM to A javAniyA chokarAomAM UMdhuM thaI jAya. A to tamArA jevA kinAre AvelA hoya temane A vAta karIe. javAniyA to pAchuM kaMIka UMdhuM bAphe ! paNa teo jo 'yathArtha jJAna' samaje ane e jJAnamAM e raheto hoya to kazuM aDe evuM nathI, paNa e jJAna eTaluM badhuM rahe nahIM ne ? mANasanuM evuM gajuM nahIM ne ? anubhava thayA sivAya kAma nahIM. jyAM sudhI anubhava nA thAya tyAM sudhI AjJAmAM rahejo. A to koIne manamAM ema zaMkA paDatI hoya ke, "saMsAramAM rahIe chIe ne viSayo to che, to kemanuM che A.' to ame tamane zaMkA nA rahe eTalA mATe vAta karIe. nahIM to ApaNA loko to durupayoga kare.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 261 AjanA lokone to A gamatuM ja hoya eTale durupayoga karI nAkhe. kAraNa ke viparIta buddhi mahIM taiyAra ja hoya. chatAM A jJAna ApyuM che, e ora ja jAtanuM vijJAna che ! badhI rIte e rakSaNa kare evuM che, paNa jo e jANI-joIne bagaDavA dhAre to bagaDI jAya, badhuM khalAsa karI nAkhe ! eTale ame kahyuM che ke A amArI AjJAmAM raho, ame tamane eTale badhe UMce teDI gayA chIe ke ahIMthI uparathI jo tame gabaDyA to pachI hADakuM ya jaDe evuM nathI. mATe sIdhA cAlajo ne saheja paNa svaccheda karazo nahIM. svachaMda to AmAM cAlaze ja nahIM ! "mane dAdAnuM jJAna maLyuM che, mane kaMI naDanAra nathI.' e to bhayaMkara roga kahevAya. to to A viSa samAna thaI paDaze. bAkI viSayo e viSa nathI, viSayomAM nIDaratA e viSa che. A jJAna durupayoga karavA jevuM nathI ! praznakartA : AmAM eka vastu to sIdhI che ke Ape to kahyuM ke bhagavAnane to A sAcuM che ke A khoTuM che e hotuM ja nathI. eTale zuM sAruM, zuM khoTuM e prazna ja pachI Ubho thato nathI, e prazna to gauNa thaI jAya che ne ? samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : evuM che ne, huM zuM kahuM chuM ? eka A viSayamAM ja badhA jAgRta rahejo. potAnI strI agara to potAno puruSa, e ekalAM ja viSayanI tamane chUTa ApI che. eTalI meM chUTa ApI che. paNa bIjI jo koI hoya to amane kahI, amArI pAse maMjUrI levI ane ame tane maMjUrI ApIzuM paNa kharAM, mATe vAMdho nA rAkhazo. paNa ene cetavIzuM ke AvI rIte A raste cAlavAnuM che. maMjUrI nA ApIe to cAle ja nahIM ne ! paNa phakta potAnI eka "strI-puruSa'nuM hoya, to amArI maMjUrI levAnI jarUra nathI ! ApaNA 'jJAna'thI be-cAra avatAramAM vahelo moDo paNa mokSe jAya, paMdara avatAra sudhImAM ya mokSe jAya. teno vAMdho nathI. paNa AmAMthI je laTake te to eMsI hajAra varSa sudhI laTake ane to ya ThekANuM nA paDe ! eMsI hajAra varSa sudhI bahu baLatarAvALo kALa AvavAno che. eTale AmAMthI laTake nahIM evuM ApaNe jovAnuM. praznakartA : dAdA, zemAMthI laTake nahIM ? AmAMthI eTale zemAMthI ? dAdAzrI : A 'jJAnamAMthI. A "jJAna" lIdhA pachI jANI joIne UMdhuM kare tyAra pachI zuM thAya ? praznakartA : "jJAna" lIdhA pachI mANasa UMdhuM kare kharo ? dAdAzrI : hA, karI zake ne ! tamArA ghara AgaLa jhADavAM ropyAM hoya, bagIco jAte tame banAvyo hoya, ane tamAre khodI nAkhavo hoya to koI nA kahe ? praznakartA paNa dAdA, jJAna lIdhA pachI ene evuM karavAno vicAra Ave ?. dAdAzrI : ko'ka ko'ka hoya evA, badhA nA hoya. tene ApaNe cetavIe to e kaMIka pAcho phare ! A bephAma paDavA jevI cIja na hoya ! A bephAma to mArI nAkhe !! tethI ame kahIene ke viSayo e viSa nathI, viSayomAM nIDaratA dAdAzrI : nA, paNa e bhagavAnanI draSTimAM che ane ApaNe bhagavAna thayA nathI tyAM sudhI ApaNe gunegAra chIe ! mATe khoTuM thayuM to kheda thavo joIe ! A huM je boluM chuM e zabdo durupayoga karavA mATe nathI bolato. tamane bodharezana nA rahe eTalA mATe boluM chuM. koInA manamAM ema nA thAya ke mane karma baMdhAtuM haze. eTalA mATe chUTathI boluM chuM. nahIM to cALI-cALIne nA boluM ke 'bhAI, karma to baMdhAze, jo kadI tame A karo cho to.' paNa huM tamane nirbhaya banAvI dauM chuM, nirbhaya nathI banAvato ? viSayamAM kapaTa e ya viSa ! praznakartA : e to ekadama nirbhaya banAvI ja do cho, badhA nirbhaya thaI jAya che pachI eno durupayoga thaI jAya che. enI to vAta che ne ? mukhya mudo tyAM ja che.

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 263 e viSa che. viSayamAM kapaTa karavuM, bIjuM badhuM karavuM e badhuM viSa kahevAya. e ja mArI nAkhe ane evuM thatuM hoya to naryo kheda, kheda ne kheda hovo joIe. niraMtara kheda vagara game nahIM, to jANavuM ke A roga jato raheze. nahIM to ukhADI nAkhavAnI sattA to potAnI kharIne ? bilakula sattA vagarano thAya che evuM banatuM nathI. sattA to TheTha kevaLajJAna' thatAM sudhI ene sattA rahe che. pachI UMdhuM karavAnI ke sIdhuM karavAnI, paNa sattA to rahe che !!! jJAtI puruSa maLye, jo kadI bhUla tA bhAMgI to.... je vAstavikavALuM jagata lokonA lakSamAM ja nathI AvyuM, koI kALe lakSamAM ja nathI AvyuM. jyAre evAM jJAnIo thaI gayA tyAre lakSamAM AveluM. paNa te jJAnIonA lakSamAM AveluM. jJAnIoe je badhA lokone kahyuM, te lokonA lakSamAM nathI AvyuM. amuka mANaso mokSe gayA te jJAnInI kRpAthI mokSe gayA, paNa vAta samajAI nathI. A kudaratano gahana koyaDo che, te AmAMthI koI chUTeluM nahIM. je chUTyA te kahevA rahelA nahIM. huM ekalo chUTyA pachI kahevA rahyo. nApAsa thayo tyAre huM kahevA rahyo. mATe saMbhALIne kAma kADhI lo. ame to tamAruM kAma kaDhAvavA mATe beThA chIe. A jJAna ja tamane evuM ApyuM che ke kazAnI jarUra ja nA paDe. dAdA joDe besIne dAdA jevA nA thavAya to te ApaNo ja doSa che ne ? A jJAna to kriyAkArI che. niraMtara aMdara kAma karyA kare che. tamAre aMdara kaMI karavuM paDe che ke ? praznakartA : enI meLe thayA kare che. dAdAzrI : have AvuM kriyAkArI jJAna thayA pachI, jo mokSa nA thAya to ApaNI ja bhUla che ne ? mokSa to ahIM ja thaI gayelo hovo joIe. mokSa kaMI levA javAno nathI. mokSa eTale ApaNo muktabhAva. A badhuM hovA chatAM paNa ApaNe mukta ane A badhuM nA hovApaNuM kyAreya banavAnuM nathI, mATe pahelethI cetI jAo. A badhAnI hAjarImAM ja mukta thavuM paDaze. 264 samajathI prApta brahmacarya baMdhana hoya to ja muktabhAva anubhavI zakone ? baMdhana nA hoya to ja muktabhAvane zI rIte anubhavI zako ? muktabhAva koNe anubhavavAno che ? je baMdhanamAM Avelo che, teNe anubhavavAno che. ahIM tamane AMkhe pATA bAMdhI thAMbhalA joDe doraDethI jabarajasta bAMdhyA hoya, pachI chAtI AgaLanA doraDAno eka AMTo huM bleDa mUkIne kApI nAkhuM, to tamane mahIM khabara paDe kharI ? tamane ahIM AgaLathI e doraDuM chUTyuM e potAne anubhava thAya. eka vakhata e samajI gayo ke huM mukta thayo eTale kAma thaI gayuM. evuM, mANasane muktapaNAnuM bhAna thavuM joIe. e mokSabhAva kahevAya. mane niraMtara muktapaNAnuM bhAna rahe che, 'enI vhera', 'enI TAIma'. dravya-kSetra-kALa-bhAva koI mane pratibaMdha kare nahIM. vastu pratibaMdha karanArI nathI. A to pADAne vAMke pakhAlIne DAma de de karyA kare che. praznakartA : to pachI pratibaMdha koNa kare che ? dAdAzrI : svarUpanuM ajJAna pratibaMdha karanAruM che. huM e ja kahevA mAguM chuM ke tame A vikAromAM nirvikAra rahI zako cho. A vikAra, e vikAra nathI. A to draSTiphera che. A pratibaddha karanArI vastu ja nathI. tamArI draSTi vAMkI che, to ja pratibaddha kare che. //////////

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[7] AkarSaNa-vikarSaNano siddhAMta AkarSaNa zuM che ? e samajAya to cetAya ! AkarSaNathI ja A badhuM jagata UbhuM rahyuM che. AmAM bhagavAnane karavAnI jarUra paDI nathI, khAlI AkarSaNa ja che ! A strI-puruSanuM je che ne, te ya AkarSaNa ja che khAlI. TAMkaNI ne lohacuMbakanuM jevuM AkarSaNa che evuM A strI-puruSanuM AkarSaNa che. kaMI badhI strIo joDe AkarSaNa nA thAya. eka ja paramANu maLatA AvatA hoya to e strI upara AkarSaNa thAya. AkarSaNa thayA pachI pote nakkI karyuM hoya ke mAre nathI kheMcAvuM to ya kheMcAI jAya. tyAM vicAravuM nA joIe ke ApaNe AkarSAvuM nathI, chatAM AkarSaNa kema utpanna thAya che ? mATe "dhera Ara sI kaoNjhIjha' e 'megneTika kaoNjhIjha' che ! praznakartA e pUrvajanmanAM hoI zake ? dAdAzrI : e AkarSaNa ApaNI icchA nathI to ya thAya che, enuM nAma ja pUrvajanma. Ane ya megneTika thayeluM che ne pelIne ya megneTika thayeluM che. pUrvajanmamAM sUkSma rUpe hoya che ane ahIM sthULa rUpe thAya che. eTale 266 samajathI prApta brahmacarya pachI svAbhAvika rIte kheMcANa thAya ja. have kheMcANa thAya tethI karIne tamArA manamAM ema lAge ke huM kheMcAyo. paNa jyAre tamAruM svarUpa tame jANazo tyAra pachI tamane ema lAgaze ke 'caMdubhAI kheMcAyA. praznakartA : A AkarSaNa je thAya che, e karmane AdhIna kharuM ke nahIM ? dAdAzrI : karmane AdhIna to AkhuM jagata ja che, paNa sAmAnA paramANu ne ApaNA paramANu eka hoya to ja AkarSaNa thAya. praznakartA : paNa emAM karmano udaya to kharo ja ne ? dAdAzrI : karmanA udayathI to AkhuM jagata che. e eka phekaTaramAM to badhuM AvI ja gayuM, paNa ene DIvAIDa karo to A rIte juduM thAya ke ApaNA paramANu joDe sAmAnA paramANu maLatA hoya to ja kheMcAya, nahIM to kheMcAya nahIM. eka mANase jADI chaMdaNAvALI bairI pAsa karI, tyAre meM jANyuM ke A mANase AvI bairI zI rIte pAsa karI haze ! e paramANu maLatA AvyA ne tarata kheMcANa thAya. A loka kahe che, huM chokarIne Ama joIza, tema joIza. Ama pharo, Ama pharo. paNa paramANu mahIM kheMcAya to ja hisAba besaze, nahIM to besaze ja nahIM. praznakartA : e pUrvanuM RNAnubaMdha thayuM ne ? dAdAzrI : RNAnubaMdha kahIe ne, to jagata badhuM RNAnubaMdha ja kahevAya. paNa kheMcANa thavuM e vastu evI che ne ke paramANuno sAmasAmI hisAba che ene, tethI kheMcAya che ! atyAre je rAga utpanna thAya che, te kharekhara rAga nathI. A lohacuMbaka ane TAMkaNI hoya, te lohacuMbaka Ama pherave to TAMkaNI AghIpAchI thAya. te bannemAM kaMI jIva nathI. chatAM lohacuMbakanA guNane lIdhe bannene khAlI AkarSaNa rahe che. evuM A dehane sarakhA paramANu hoya ne, tyAre tenI ja joDe ene AkarSaNa thAya. pelAmAM lohacuMbaka che. AmAM ilekTrikala boDI che ! paNa jema lohacuMbaka lokhaMDane kheMce, bIjI koI dhAtune kheMcatuM nathI. evI rIte potAnI dhAtuvALuM hoya to ja kheMcAya, evI rIte tamAre mahIM badhuM kheMcANa-AkarSaNa thAya che. paNa

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya tyAM jAgRti rahevI joIe, nahIM to mAra khAI jAya. AkarSaNa jo ekaluM thatuM hoya to tene ApaNe pasaMda karIe, paNa pAchuM vikarSaNa thavAnuM. ghaDImAM sAruM lAge, pAchuM kaDavuM lAge. bhaI game evA rUpALA hoya, paNa bahenane be avaLA zabdo bolyA ke 'tuM akkala vagaranI che', to pachI bahenane ema thAya ke, 'mane akkala vagaranI kahI ?" te pAchuM kaDavuM lAge. eTale ekaluM AkarSaNa paNa nathI A jagatamAM. AkarSaNa ne vikarSaNa beu che, A dvandva rUpa che ! A jagata ja dvandva rUpa che. eTale ekaluM AkarSaNa nA hoya. vikarSaNa hoya ja. vikarSaNa nA hoya to pharI AkarSaNa thAya ja nahIM ane jo ekaluM AkarSaNa hoya, to ya badhA loka kaMTALI jAya. paramANumAM purAyo pAvara ! 267 praznakartA : A badhuM cetanamAM kyAMthI pesI gayuM ? ema kema cAlu thaI gayuM ?! dAdAzrI : ene evuM bhAna thayuM ke 'A sAlu, huM kheMcAu chuM.' ane jo samajaNa hoya ke A pUtaLuM pelA pUtaLA pAse, e bemAM IlekTrisiTIne laIne beu kheMcAya che. tene 'huM jANanAra chuM' evuM bhAna rahyuM nahIM ene. IlekTrikala eDajasTamenTane laIne lohacuMbakatA utpanna thAya che. eTale mAre nahIM kheMcAvuM chatAM kheMcAya che. eTale samajAya evuM che ke A pote nathI kheMcAto. nakkI karyuM hoya ke, pathArImAMthI AghAMpAchAM thavuM nathI.' te pAcho aDadhA kalAka pachI UThe ! eTale manamAM ema thAya ke 'huM ja chuM DhIlo.' 'nakkI karyuM hatuM ne ? to DhIlo zAno tuM thaI gayo ? A to mahIM bIjuM bhUta peThuM che.' eTale pachI mane lokoe pUchyuM, mane kahe che ke 'A zuM thAya che ?' meM kahyuM, 'A to IlekTrikala eDajasTamenTane laIne lohacuMbakatA thAya che eTale lohacuMbaka TAMkaNIne halAve temAM bene sagAI che. e lohacuMbakapaNuM che. tyAre A to kaheze, 'huM gayo, huM nirbaLa thaI gayo chuM.' e pachI nirbaLa thato ja jAya. 'huM' gayo ja nathI. 'huM' kema karIne jaI zakuM ? mAro nizcaya che pachI 'huM' gayo kevI rIte ? paNa kaheze, 'huM ja DhIlo. A huM ja chuM' evuM mAnI beTho che ne. eTale evuM UMdhuM mAnI beTho che. paNa koNe zIkhavADayuM UMdhuM A ?! tyAre enA phAdhare kahyuM, 'tuM 268 samajathI prApta brahmacarya ja chuM, tuM ja caMdu chuM' pachI vahue kahyuM, ke 'tame mArA dhaNI.' ane pAchI cAlatI jAya. tyAre mUI dhaNI zuM karavA kahe che ? paNa pachI Ape pAchI !! vAta game che ke kakarI lAge che jarAM ? praznakartA : bahu game che. badho nikAla karavAno che eTale badhuM jANavuM che, haju ghaNuM jANavuM che ? dAdAzrI : paNa loko zuM samaje che, 'huM kheMcAyo, IcchA nahotI to ya. mAruM vrata paLAyuM nahIM. mAruM vrata bhAMgI gayuM.' alyA, nathI bhAMgI gayuM. tane bhramaNAM che eka jAtanI. A vijJAna to jANa ke, 'koNa kheMce che ?" tAre nathI kheMcAvuM, to koNa tane kheMcI gayo ? bIjo koNa mAlika che, te vacce kheMcI gayo ? tyAre kahe che, 'huM kheMcAI gayo, mAruM mana bagaDI gayuM. mana nirbaLa thaI gayuM.' alyA, tAruM mana tane zAnuM kheMce ? mana ne tAre levAdevA zuM che ? e mikenikala eDajasTamenTa juduM, tuM judo. have bolo, AkhI duniyA mAra khAI jAya ne ! A to IlekTrisiTIne lIdhe paramANu badhA pAvaravALA thAya che ane tethI paramANu kheMcAya che. jema TAMkaNI ane lohacuMbakamAM kazuM koI vacce peThuM mahIM ? TAMkaNIne ApaNe zIkhavADyuM'tuM ? tuM UMcI-nIcI thaje ? praznakartA : ene IlekTrisiTI aDe nahIM evuM nA thAya ? ene kaMTrola nA karAya ? dAdAzrI : ApaNAthI kaMTrola thAya nahIM. haMmezAM IlekTrikala vastune kaMTrola karI zakAya nahIM. kaMTrola to, ene eDajasTamenTa karatAM pahelA kaMTrola karI zakAya. pachI eDajasTamenTa nakkI thayA pachI nA thAya. eTale A deha to AkhuM vijJAna che. vijJAnathI A badhuM cAle che. have kheMcANa thAya tene loka kahe ke mane rAga thayo.' alyA, AtmAne rAga to thato haze ? AtmA to vItarAga che ! AtmAne rAge ya hoya nahIM ne dveSe ya hoya nahIM. A to beu pote kalpelA che. ene bhrAMti kahevAya. bhrAMti cAlI jAya to kazuM che ja nahIM.

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270 samajathI prApta brahmacarya ne ko'ka phero bhaTakAvI mAre. mATe emAM bahu ja jAgRti rAkhavI. eTalAM mATe ahIM to keTalAka kAyamanuM vrata ja laI le che ane ame ApIe paNa kharA. agara to koI eka varasa dahADAnI TrAyala le. pachI ema karatAM karatAM khUba zakti vadhI jAya. A viSaya ja evo che ke bhaTakAvI mAre. AtmA ame je Apyo che te ya pheMkI devaDAve. samajathI prApta brAhmacarya 269 pAchuM A eka prakAranuM AkarSaNa nathI. chokarA para paNa AkarSaNa hoya che. eTale A eka prakAranI ilekTrisiTIthI A badhA paramANu lohacuMbakanI jema thaI gayA hoya che, te jo sAmAnA maLatAM paramANu Ave to tyAM kheMcANa thAya, bIje kheMcANa thAya nahIM. lohacuMbakano to ApaNane anubhava che ne ? temAM koNa kone rAga kare che ? ane ahIM to tame rAga karatA nathI ne, koIne ? peluM lohacuMbaka jevuM svAbhAvika che, tevuM A ya svAbhAvika che. paNa AmAM zuM kahe ke, "meM karyuM, 'huM karuM chuM' kahyuM ke vaLagyuM pAchuM ! nahIM to kaheze 'mArAthI AvuM thaI gayuM" ! alyA, zuM karavA phasAya che !!! AkarSaNa thAya tene pAchuM "A mAruM, ATaluM mAruM' karyA kare. alyA, na hoya tAruM. A mUDI ya tArI nathI ane A milkata ya tArI nathI. tuM zuM kAma vagara kAmano phasAya che ? paiNyo tyArathI 'mArI vAIpha, mArI vAIpha' kare. paNa paiNyA nahotA te ghaDIe ? tyAre kaheze. 'tyAra pahelAM to mArI nahotI !" paiNyA tyArathI doraDAthI bAMdha bAMdha kare, mArI', 'mArI' kare. pachI marI jAya tyAre raDe. paiNI nahotI tyAre mArI nahotI to A "mArI' pesI zI rIte gayuM ? 'have na hoya mArI, na hoya mArI" kara to ApaNuM vIMTeluM che, te chUTI jAya ! loka zuM kaheze, mAyAne teM pakaDI che, to choDI de. paNa zI rIte chUTI jAya ? eTale jJAnI puruSa badhuM choDAvI de. jJAnI puruSa pote chUTelA hoya e badhAne choDAvI de. emanI sAyanTiphika rItathI e rasto batAve ke Ama chUTAya, nahIM to bIjo chUTavAno rasto nathI. eTale mokSamArga samajavAno che khAlI samaja samaja karavAno che ! A badhI avasthA draSTithI jovAthI ja tenI asaro thAya che. avasthA draSTithI ja AkarSaNa-vikarSaNa che, tattva draSTithI nahIM. avasthAmAM tanmayAkAra thAya ke tarata ja aMdara lohacuMbakapaNuM utpanna thAya ane tenuM pachI AkarSaNa zarU thAya. praznakartA : lohacuMbaka ane TAMkaNI banne sAmasAmAM Ave che tyAre AkarSaNa thAya che. have e AkarSaNa nAbUda kyAre thaI jAya ? dAdAzrI : e to kAyama rahevAnuM ja. jyAM sudhI lokhaMDa lokhaMDanA bhAvamAM che tyAM sudhI rahevAnuM. lohacuMbakatva UtarI jAya to AkarSaNa jatuM rahe. AkarSaNa tyAM pratikramaNa khape ! jyAM AkarSaNa tyAM moha. jyAM ApaNI AMkho kheMcAya, jyAM AkarSaNa aMdara bahu thayA kare tyAM moha hoya ja. tethI zAstrakAroe bahu cetavyA che ke AkarSaNavALI jagyAe upayoga rAkho, zuddha upayoga rAkho to e jagyA tamane herAna nahIM kare. nahIM to e AkarSaNavALI jagyA che. jema ApaNe lapasaNI jagyA hoya to zuM karIe chIe ! praznakartA : tyAM cetIne cAlIe. dAdAzrI : tyAM tame jAgRti nathI rAkhatA ? ne loko bUmo hau pADe, are, caMdubhAI lapasI paDazo, jarA sAcavIne Avajo.' evuM A moTuM lapasaNuM AkarSaNa che. eTale ahIM AgaLa jAgRti bahu ja joIe. ahIM zuddha upayoga goThavo. jyAM AkarSaNa thAya, tyAM zuddhAtmA joIne, pratikramaNa vidhi badhuM karIne e badhuM cokhkhuM karI nAkhavuM. badhe kAMI AkarSaNa hotuM nathI. tyAM tatva draSTithI ja mukti ! akrama eTale zuM ? ke karma khapAvyA sivAya jJAna prApta thayuM che. haju koI paNa jAtanAM karma khapAvyAM nathI, eTale vAtane samajI levAnI che. AmAM bIjuM kazuM bAdhaka nathI ! ne A viSaya eka evI vastu che ke A jJAnane UMdhuM nAkhI de. A viSaya ekalo ja evo che. bIjuM badhuM cho ne rahyuM, jIbhanA viSaya e badhA sAmo dAvo nA mAMDe. e cetana joDe nathI. e acetana che ane A to mizracetana che. te A viSayamAM to ApaNane icchA nA hoya to ya vaza thavuM paDe, nahIM to e dAvo mAMDe

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 271 praznakartA : AkarSaNanuM pratikramaNa karavuM paDe ? dAdAzrI : hAsto ne ! AkarSaNa-vikarSaNa A zarIrane thatuM hoya to ApaNe caMdubhAIne kahevuM paDe ke, 'he caMdubhAI, ahIM AkarSaNa thAya che to pratikramaNa karo.' to AkarSaNa baMdha thaI jAya. AkarSaNa-vikarSaNa beu che te ApaNane rajhaLAvanArAM che. A pudgala zuM kahe ke, 'tame zuddhAtmA thaI gayA eno mane vAMdho nathI, paNa tamAro mokSa kyAre thaze ? ame to zuddha paramANu rUpe hatA, paNa tame ja amane bagADyA che. mATe amane zuddha karI nAkho. jevA hatA tevA karI nAkho to tame chUTazo. jyAM sudhI amane zuddha karazo nahIM tyAM sudhI tame chUTazo nahIM'. A pudgalano nikAla nA thAya tyAM sudhI e choDe nahIM. tethI ApaNe A badhI phAIlono samabhAve nikAla karavAnuM kahyuM; te paramANu zuddha thavA mATe kaheluM che. - pudgalanI potAnI evI judI judI zaktio che ke AtmAne AkarSaNa kare che. e zaktithI ja pote mAra khAdho che ne ! AtmA che. te pudgalanI zakti jANavA nIkaLyo ke A zuM che ? A kaI zakti che ? have emAM e pote ja phasAyo ! have zI rIte chUTe ?! potAnAM svarUpanuM bhAna thAya to chUTe !

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[8] vaijJAtika 'gAIDa' brahmacarya mATe ! khulyAM rahasyo brahmacarya taNAM ! dAdAzrI : brahmacaryanI jarUriyAta kharI ke nahIM ? praznakartA : kharI. dAdAzrI : keTalI jarUriyAta ? praznakartA : ghaNI vadhAre che. dAdAzrI : eTale brahmacarya eTale rIta eka batAvuM Apane ke AkhA hindustAnamAM badhA brahmacArI thaI jAya to, rahe zuM ? hindustAnamAM zuM rahe ? UlaTuM hindustAnanuM kharAba karyuM kahevAya, nahIM ? hindustAnamAM badhA brahmacArI hoya to ! karavuM zuM ? evuM nathI kahevA mAMgato. mahIM thoDA ghaNAM brahmacArI thAya ane bIjAM lagnavALA hoya. prauDhAvasthAmAM, saMsAra avasthAmAM brahmacarya pALavAne mATe rasto hovo joIe. tene mATe pustaka lakhAyeluM che. kAraNa ke kazuM brahmacarya vagara A dezanI dazA to juo zI che ? nahIM to brahmacarya baLavALo magajanI sthiratA kevI suMdara hoya, manobaLa keTaluM suMdara hoya ! samajathI prApta brahmacarya 273 praznakartA : tame sAco brahmacArI joyo che ? dAdAzrI : sAco brahmacArI A kaLiyugamAM hoto haze ?! Anu nAma kaLiyuga ! eTale A hindustAnamAM RSimunionA vakhatamAM ja brahmacarya paLAtA'tA. pachI dhIme dhIme ochAM thatA gayA, jema yuga badalAtA gayA ema. eTale pachI pustako-pustako badho nAza thaI gayo ane tyAra pachI brahmacaryanuM pustaka ja nathI. eTale loka jANe ke A to mULathI rivAja hato. A viSaya bhogavavAno kAyamano rivAja ja che. bIjA navA rivAja paDyA paNa A kAyamano rivAja. eTale brahmacaryanI vAta upara be pustako banyA, uttarArdha ane pUrvArdha. mahAvIra bhagavAna pachI paccIso varSamAM brahmacarya saMbaMdhI pustaka nathI nIkaLyA. koNa brahmacaryanI vAta kare A kALamAM ? jyAM ne tyAM mana to thoDuM-ghaNuM bagaDeluM ja hoya. jyAM sudhI potAnuM bagaDeluM hoya tyAM sudhI brahmacarya saMbaMdhI bolAya nahIM. vANI ja nIkaLe nahIM ne ! jJAtI viNa viSaya roga koNa kADhe ?! loko viSaya saMbaMdhI upadeza ApatA ja nathI, enuM zuM kAraNa ? praznakartA : e loko upadeza Ape to paNa asara thAya ja nahIM ne ? dAdAzrI : hA, asara thAya. jo kadI emane potAne viSaya saMbaMdhI cAritra hoya. bhale temane AtmAnuM jJAna nA hoya ne upadeza Ape to te phaLe. cAritra vagara badhuM nakAmuM che. praznakartA : laukika brahmacaryanI e loko bAdhA Ape che te ? dAdAzrI : bAdhA ApavAnI jarUra nathI, brahmacarya kema rakhAya, tenAM kAraNo dekhADavAM joIe. nahIM to bAdhA rAkhe to ya tevo ne tevo thaI jAya ! praznakartA : keTalAMka loko viSayane choDavAno upadeza Ape che.

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274 samajathI prApta brahmacarya dAdAzrI : evA upadezane zuM karavAnA ? e upadeza ja nA kahevAya ne ? upadezaka to, evo bola bole ne, to ApaNane viSaya upara vairAga Ave ke AvuM hoya !?! viSaya to jo saMbhArane, to e to jIvatuM narka che. viSayane jo jJAnI puruSa pAse samajI le, ke ohoho, AkhA jagatanI dugaMdha emAM che ! AkhA jagatanuM du:kha emAM che !! AkhA jagatanI badhI muzkelIo emAM che !!! A to kazuM loka jANatA ja nathI. tethI mUrkhAIne laIne A badhuM UMdhuM cAlyA kare che. upadezaka be jAtanA hovA joIe. kAM to jJAnI hovo joIe ne ajJAnI hoya, paNa zIlavAna hoya to cAle ! zIla nA hoya to to kazuM koIno dahADo ya nA vaLe. UlaTAM emane maLavAthI du:kha vadhI jAya. saMpUrNa cAritra to kone kahevAya ? zIlane cAritra kahevAya. zIla eTale viSayano vicAra nA Ave. amane viSayano eka paNa vicAra nA Ave. amAruM cAritra e cAritra kahevAya. saMyama pariNAmI ene kahevAya ke jene viSayano vicAra ja nA Ave ! kharo brahmacArI ja bole brahmacarya para ! praznakartA : keTalAMka mahApuruSoe brahmacarya para khUba bhAra mUkyo che. dAdAzrI : bhAra mUkelo kharo paNa pustaka nahIM lakheluM. upAya batAvelA nahIM. upAya zI rIte jANe ? jyAM sudhI pote brahmacarya saMpUrNa pALyuM nathI. samajathI prApta brAhmacarya 275 abrahmacaryanI javAbadArI samaje, tyAre brahmacarya pALe mANasa. keTalI badhI javAbadArIo che evuM jyAre samaje, ene bhAna ja nathI ke abrahmacarya zuM che te, ane e bhAnavALuM eka pustaka nathI hindustAnamAM jemAM bhAna batAvyuM hoya ! badhAe evuM kahyuM, ke abrahmacarya khoTuM che, brahmacarya pALavuM joIe, paNa alyA bhaI. kevI rIte abrahmacarya baMdha thAya evo koI rasto batAvyo nathI. mATe A pustakamAM badho rasto ja che. evuM che ke, lokone abrahmacaryanI vAtamAM zuM nukasAna ane zuM phAyado, e samajamAM Ave eTalA mATe ja bolyA chIe. enuM A pustaka banyuM che ! te vAMcIne loko have vicArene ke 'ATaluM badhuM nukasAna thAya che ?! are AvuM to jANatA ja nahotAM !!" nathI paiNavuM nakkI karyuM eTale nathI paiNavuM e sAIDamAM javuM ane paiNavuM che e nakkI karyuM to e sAIDamAM javuM. ApaNe evuM nathI ke Ama ja karo. praznakartA : samajaNa vagara le, to kahe ke bIjA bhavamAM bairI bairI karato janma. dAdAzrI : nA, paNa e to evuM kAmanuM ya nahIM. hA. samaja to AvavI joIe. ame samaja mATe to pustaka lakhelA che. praznakartA : kharI vAta che. dAdAzrI : tame zI rIte jANo evuM ! buddhine ya samajaNa paDe evI vAta che ! ApaNe tyAM eTalAM mATe to brahmacaryanuM pustaka chapAya che, hindustAnamAM pahelAmAM paheluM ! eTale AvaraNIka draSTithI A manAyuM che sukha. kevuM ? A sukha mAnavAmAM AvyuM che eTale huM e chedI kADhavA mAMguM chuM. te ghaNAM lokonAM vicAro badalAI gayA. loko badhA samajI gayA. keTalAM bhayaMkara doSo AnI mahIM, e to jarA vicAra karato thAya ne mANasa !! praznakartA : paNa e pustaka jo vAMce ane vAMcIne jo thoDuM ghaNuM jo praznakartA : e brahmacArI ja hatA. dAdAzrI : e brahmacArI hoya, to ya paNa upAya nA batAvyA tyAM sudhI pustaka thAya nahIM. abhiprAya Ape ke brahmacarya pALavuM joIe, paNa e kaMI paLAI zake nahIM eTale e yujhaphula nathI. helpaphula nathI. je vANI ApaNane brahmacarya paLAvaDAve, pALavA mATe helpa(madada) kare, te kAma lAge. e to eka Azaya thayo, ke brahmacarya pALavuM joIe, evuM emane helpa kare, paNa ene kevI rIte pALavuM have, to enA mATe sAdhana to joIe ne !

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samajathI prApta brahmacarya 276 samaje to mANasa barAbara pUrI lAIna para AvI jAya. dAdAzrI : brahmacarya levA mArI pAse Ave ja che ne, joDe brahmacarya levA Ave che ghaNAM. eTale A pahelI vakhata viSaya upara A lakhavAmAM AvyuM che. pahelI vakhata ane viSayanuM tAdrazya svarUpa batAvyuM che. praznakartA : Ape je phoDa pADyA che, evAM phoDa hajI sudhI paDyA ja nathI. dAdAzrI : phoDa zI rIte paDe paNa, A pote bebhAna ? AmAM ne AmAM paDI rahyA hoya, tyAre to A samajatAM nathI ke A viSaya zuM che cIja ?! eTale sIkresI che te, mATe brahmacaryanI vAta nathI nIkaLatI. eTale mAre kahevuM paDe che bAvAo mATe, ke kema e taraphanI sIkresI kADhatAM nathI ? A lokone hajAro varSa sudhI A pustako kAma karaze. brahmacaryanuM koIe kahyuM ja nahIM ne brahmacaryanI vAta ja koIe ughADI karI nahIM. A copaDI vAMcIne pALa. copaDIne vAMcyA vagara koI pALe to artha vagaranuM che. samajaNa vagaranuM kare ne e nakAmuM che, samajaNapUrvaka hovuM joIe. vAMco A pustakamAM lakheluM che ne e enI meLe ja brahmacarya pALavAnuM mana thAya. ta karI vAta koI bApe ! tArA bApAe samajaNa to pADelI ne tane ? praznakartA : nhotI pADI evI badhI. AjakAla koI bApA ke koI samajaNa pADe nahIM AvI koI ! dAdAzrI : nA vAta kare, nahIM ? koI brahmacaryanI vAta koI puruSa bolato nathI, koI strI pAse. enuM zuM kAraNa che ke dAnata mahIM cora che badhAnI, ane mA-bApa kema nahIM kADhatA ? tyAre kahe che ke emane zarama Ave che. pote nA pALatA hoya to kevI rIte bole ? eTale brahmacaryanI samajathI prApta brahmacarya 277 vAta kare to mANasa DAhyo thAya ! brahmacarya zabda ja sAMbhaLyo nathI. ane brahmacarya upara to be pustaka lakhAyA che, te mANasa brahmacarya nA pALato hoya to ya pALavAnI zaruAta karI de ! brahmacaryanuM to koI dahADe mUMkhe ya nA joyuM hoya te ya brahmacarya pALavAnuM zaru karI de. te pAMtrIsa varSanA beu jaNa AvyA. te mane kahe che, amAre che te brahmacarya levuM che. tyAre meM kahyuM, kema ATalI nAnI uMmaramAM banne jaNa.... tyAre kahe, 'tamAruM brahmacaryanuM pustaka vAMcyuM eTale amane javAbadArI samajAI gaI, have amAre peluM badhuM nA joIe.' A pustake bahu jaNane pheravyA. bhAna ja nahIM ne ? A badhA loka karatAM AvyA, pADozI karatAM AvyA, presiDanTa kare, vaDopradhAna AvuM kare, bIjA badhA AvuM kare. sAdhu AcAryo mahIM keTalAka uMdhA chatAM karyA kare. te pachI lokoe jANyuM ke A ja mukhya vastu che, A jagatamAM. eTale eno vicAra ja nathI karyo koIe. AmAM sukha nathI. A vAMcyuM tyArathI khabara paDI gaI ke AvuM jANatA ja nhotA, nahIM to paiNata ja nahIM ne ! A ya jANI gayA ApaNe. kharAM varSo ema ne ema kADhyA zIladarzaka vagara. have kahe che 'huM phAvI gayo !' A to ghaNuM sukha varte, loko keTalAMka mANasone to eTaluM badhuM sukha varte che ! A pustaka vAMcyA pachI samajAyuM ke ATaluM badhuM jokhama ne ATaluM badhuM pApa ne ATalo badho doSa hovA chatAM ya ame AmAM paDI rahyA chIe. A lokasaMjJAthI, loka AmAM paDyuM che. eTale AmAM paDyA chIe. jAnavaro paDyA, mANaso paDyA. koI mANasa rahyuM ja kyAM che ? bIjA cAra viSayono vAMdho nathI, A ja viSayanI bhAMjagaDa che. eTale nahIM samajaNathI A badhuM UMdhuM cAlyuM che badhuM ! A pustaka vAMcyA pachI evA anubhava thAya che ke viSayanA vicAra ja nathI AvatA, baMdha thaI gayA ! 'gAIDa' vAparI thayAM pAsa... eka bhaI to pustaka vAMcIne AvelA. bahu vedanAM karatAM'tA. meM

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278 samajathI prApta brahmacarya kahyuM, 'zA duHkha AvI paDyAM ?" tyAre kahe, 'tamAruM pustaka vAMcyuM tethI A duHkha AvI paDyuM' 'kyuM pustaka vAMcyuM? tamane duHkha thayuM, tyAre kahe brahmacaryanuM pustaka vAMcyuM pachI mane bahu duHkha thayuM 'are, huM ATalo nAlAyaka, huM ATalo jAnavara jevo ja,' meM kahyuM, 'e to tamAre mApavAnuM. mAre kaMI e mApIne zuM kAma che ? pustaka tamane zuM kahe che ! pustaka tamane jAnavara jevA nathI kahetuM. tyAre kahe, "mane bahu have A du:kha thAya che. AvuM kema thAya che ?" "A pApo zI rIte dhovAze.' meM kahyuM, haju jeTaluM A khulluM karune to ya nIveDo AvI jaze, e pustaka AkhuM vAMcI gayA? tyAre kahe, AkhuM zabda zabda vAMcyone. mahIM cirAyA, tirADa paDI gayA badhAM.' meM kahyuM 'have zuM karazo tyAre ?" tyAre kahe 'tame kaho !" tyAre meM kahyuM 'pharI vAMco." brahmacarya saMbaMdhI jJAna ja hindustAnamAM nA apAyune ! te A hindustAnamAM RSimunionAM putro te pAzavatAmAM peThA. pazuyoni jevAM thaI gayA. e pAchA pharene, to bahu kAma nIkaLI jAya. chate raste rAITa ve upara hoya mANasa to dhImo dhImo cAle e sAIDa. enAM karatAM roMga ve upara cAlato pharIne pAcho Avyo hoya, to bahu ja spIDI hoya. manamAM e thaI gayuM hoya ke have A pAra ke pelI pAra, pelo dhIme dhImevALo to cA pANI pIto jAya. A pustaka brahmacaryanuM vAMcyuMne mahIM Aje ne Aje ja cIThThI ApI che amane. bene che te brahmacarya vrata Apo. amane bahu duHkha thAya che, kahe che. kAraNa ke enuM koI kahenAra ja malyo nathI ke AmAM AvA AvA gunA che ke AvA doSo che ! sau koI kalIyara hoya to ja lakhI zake, nahIM to brahmacarya upara koI lakhI zake nahIM. eTale AkhuM pustaka ja nahIM koI evuM klIyara ekuM pustaka ja nathI koI. pustaka vAMcIne ya paLAya brahmacarya brahmacarya to kolejamAM viSaya rAkhavA jevo che. ane AvuM pustaka hindustAnamAM thayuM nathI. hindustAnamAM AvuM pustaka khoLaze, to brahmacaryanuM nahIM maLe. kAraNa ke je kharA brahmacArI thayA te kahevA nathI rahyA. ne nathI brahmacArI te kahevA rahyA che ne lakhyuM nathI emaNe. brahmacArI nA hoya te samajathI prApta brahmacarya 279 zI rIte lakhe ? potAnAmAM je doSo hoya, te uparathI kazuM lakhAya nahIM vivecana, eTale brahmacArI te kahevA rahyA nathI, je kharA brahmacArI hatA te covIsa tIrthaMkara ! kRpALu deve paNa thoDuM ghaNuM kahyuM che. dAdA kare jIrNoddhAra mahAvIra zAsata taNuM ! kaDavuM lAge che ke thoDuM thoDuM ? praznakartA: nA, nA. kSatriya che te AnuM maMDANa karyuM hatuM bhagavAna mahAvIre, emanA zAsanamAM ane kSatriya chIe te Ano jIrNodhdhAra karI rahyA chIe ! bIjA koInuM kAma nahIM jIrNodhdhAra karavAnuM. jIrNodhdhAra to thavo ja joIe ne ! A to brahmacAryanuM ApaNuM pustaka vAMcyuM hoya tene ja brahmacarya paLAya, nahIM to brahmacarya pALavuM kaMI sahelI vastu che ? mAre to 'opana Tu skAya' jevuM che. eka vALa jeTalI paNa cIja gupta rAkhelI nathI. A jJAna thayA pachI abrahmacaryanuM manathI paNa koI dahADo meM sevana nathI karyuM. viSaya mane vicAra sarakho ya nathI Avato. strIono dekhIne mane viSaya utpanna nA thAya. kAraNa ke mane AtmA ja dekhAya. nirvicAra dazA, nirIcchaka dazA, koI paNa prakAranI IcchA ja jene nachI. Aja aThThAvIsa varSathI amane vicAra ja nahIM Avelo. nirvikArI dazA, nirvikalpa dazA, koI vikalpa ja nahIM. A to jagatanuM kalyANa karI nAkhaze. - jaya saccidAnaMda