Vipashyana

Author(s): Chandraprabhsagar
Publisher: Jityasha Foundation
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/003871/1

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zrI candraprabha The - vipazyanA svayaM se sAkSAtkAra kA divya mArga For Personal & Private Use Only

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buddhatva kA kamala rivale For Personal & Private Use Only

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saujanya-saMvibhAga zrI motIlAla-caMdrakalA sakalecA kI smRti meM vIrendra sakalecA tilaka nagara, iMdaura For Personal & Private Use Only

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The vipazyanA svayaM se sAkSAtkAra kA divya mArga zrI candraprabha For Personal & Private Use Only

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da vipazyanA zrI candraprabha saMpAdaka zrImatI latA bhaMDArI 'mIrA' prakAzana-varSa : janavarI, 2013 prakAzaka : zrI jitayazA phAuMDezana bI-7, anukampA dvitIya, ema. AI. roDa, jayapura (rAja.) azISa : gaNivara zrI mahimAprabha sAgara jI ma. mudraka : babalU oNphaseTa, jodhapura mUlya : 40/ For Personal & Private Use Only

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praveza bhagavAna buddha ne jIvana ke satya ko samajhane ke uparAnta madhyama mArga kI sthApanA kii| unhoMne jitanA ugra tapa kiyA zAyada hI kisI anya ne utanA zarIra ko sukhA dene vAlA tapa kiyA ho / lekina itanI tapasyA karake bhI unhoMne jAnA ki ve usa satya se sAkSAtkAra nahIM kara sake haiM, jisake lie unhoMne rAjamahala aura sAMsArika vaibhava kA tyAga kiyA thaa| sUkhakara kA~TA ho cuke azakta zarIra vAle siddhArtha ne jaise hI ugra tapa kA Alambana chor3A, unhoMne tana-mana kI zAMti meM vaha pA liyA, jisakI khoja meM ve nikale the| unake bhItara buddhatva kA kamala khila gayA, buddhatva ke prakAza se unakA tana-mana bhIga gyaa| pUjya zrI candraprabhajI ne usa satya ke sAkSAtkAra se naz2areM milAI haiM aura buddhatva ke kamala kA apane bhItara Ananda liyA hai| ve usa Ananda ko sAdhakoM ke sAtha bA~Tate haiN| saMbodhi-sAdhanA-zivira meM sAdhakoM se mukhAtiba hote hue unhoMne bhagavAna buddha kI viziSTa sAdhanA-paddhati 'vipazyanA' para kucha AdhyAtmika saMvAda kie haiN| ye saMvAda prastuta pustaka meM bahuta hI AtmIya DhaMga se vyakta kie gae haiN| inameM avagAhana karate hue aisA pratIta hotA hai mAno hama usa zivira ke hI eka aMga haiN| eka-eka zabda anubhava se niHsRta hotA huA hamAre bhItara utaratA hai| ina saMvAdoM ko pAkara Apa nizcaya hI dhanya aura AnaMdavibhora ho uttheNge| 15 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ye saMvAda saMbodhi-dhAma kI pahAr3I para bane nayanAbhirAma 'saMbodhisabhAgAra' meM hue haiN| pUjyazrI kA maMtavya hai jaise pahAr3a pRthvI ke dharAtala se Upara hote haiM, ThIka usI taraha saMsAra se Upara uThakara Atmonnati meM rata sAdhakasAdhikAoM ko diyA gayA mArgadarzana bhI unheM U~cAiyoM para le jAtA hai| ve kahate haiM AdhyAtmika jJAna kI carcA jana-samudAya ke madhya nahIM, apitu cuniMdA logoM ke madhya hI ho sakatI hai aura jJAna-carcA jaba adhyAtma stara para ho, taba vaha kisI sarovara ke taTa para yA pahAr3I ke zikhara para athavA kisI madhura cA~danI kI rAta meM kI jAe to usakA Ananda anerA aura adabhuta hotA hai| bhagavAna buddha ne bhI aisI hI kinhIM sthitiyoM meM samaya-samaya para apane ziSyoM se saMvAda kie the| pUjyazrI ne bhI hamAre sAtha aisI hI rasabhInI mIThI-madhura jJAna-carcA kI hai| 'vipazyanA' dhyAna kI viziSTa vidhi hai, jisakA anuzIlana kara sAdhakoM ne svayaM ke satya se sAkSAtkAra kiyA hai, jIvana ke duHkha-daurmanasya kA vinAza kiyA hai aura mahAparinirvANa ko upalabdha hae haiN| zrI candraprabha kahate haiM; vipazyanA para kI gaI carcA se ve svayaM bhI pulakita, AnaMdita aura satya ke rasa se abhibhUta haiN| tabhI to ve isameM DUba-DUbakara hameM bhI Dubote haiM aura bhItara ke vikAroM tathA dvandvoM se utArate haiN| - gurudeva kahate haiM hameM svayaM ko tapasvI aura ghara ko tapovana banA lenA caahie| unakI sadA yaha preraNA rahatI hai ki Apako kahIM jAne kI z2arUrata nahIM hai| Apa jahA~ haiM, jaise haiM, vahIM zAMti va mauna kA AcaraNa kara leM, svayaM kI anupazyanA karane lageM, divya prakAza kI kiraNa dhIre-dhIre svataH bhItara utarane lgegii| apane hRdaya meM hama prema aura zAMti kA bIja aMkurita hone deM, hameM sArI sRSTi zAnta aura premamaya dikhAI degii| ve kahate haiM tana ko nahIM mana ko tapAne kI z2arUrata hai| yaha prajJA banI rahe ki bhItara kI zAMti aura nirmalatA hI mere dhyAna kA lakSya hai| gurudeva ne punaH-punaH bahuta hI bArIkI se vipazyanA/anupazyanA ke sambandha meM samajhAyA hai| usameM AI zabdAvalI kA isa taraha vivecana kiyA hai ki eka-eka bAta gaharAI se bhItara utaratI jAtI hai| vizva meM pracalita vibhinna sAdhanA-paddhatiyoM kA ullekha karate hue ve batAte haiM ki antataH to svayaM kI vipazyanA karake hI, svayaM kI manaHsthiti ko jAnakara hI, svayaM kI deha evaM mana kI sthitiyoM ko samajhakara hI, unake prati sacetana aura jAgrata hokara hI unase | 6 | For Personal & Private Use Only

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nivRtta ho sakate haiM aura usa satya kA anubhava kara sakate haiM jisake lie hama saba chaTapaTAte haiN| AtmA-paramAtmA ke sambandha meM bahuta kahA gayA hai, lekina anubhavajanya kathana aura pAMDityapUrNa kathana meM bheda hai / pUjyazrI ke mukha se sunakara aisA lagatA hai ki ve nahIM, unake anubhava jihvA kA anugamana kara rahe haiN| jaba ve zvAsa aura bhItara kI saccAI ke bAre meM bAta karate haiM to pUrI taraha usameM DUba jAte haiM, anupazyanA kA anubhava unako divya garimA pradAna karatA hai| ve cAhate haiM ki pratyeka sAdhaka aise anubhavoM se guz2arakara apane jIvana ko adhyAtmamaya banAe / yaha AdhyAtmikatA use antaramana kI zAMti evaM Ananda ke sarovara se paripUrita kara degii| ve kahate haiM dharma carcA kA nahIM, jIne kA AdhAra hai aura isake lie anupazyanA eka behatara aura svarNima mArga hai| ___pUjyazrI ne bhagavAna buddha ke 'mahAsatipaTTAna-sutta' kA khUbasUrata vizleSaNa kara use sahaja-sarala bhASA meM hamAre sAmane prastuta kiyA hai| zrI candraprabha kI vizeSatA unakI saMvAdamaya zailI hai, jo choTI-choTI kahAniyoM, udAharaNoM se bodhagamya ho jAtI hai| pUjyazrI jhena kahAnI ho yA buddha-mahAvIra ke jIvana kI ghaTanA athavA jIsasa aura muhammada sAhaba ke jIvana se jur3I ghaTanA, sahajatA se uddhRta kara saMvAdoM ko sIdhe hamAre hRdaya meM utAra dete haiN| sacamuca, ye pravacana hamAre lie mIla ke patthara aura prakAzamayI dIpa-zikhA kA kAma karate haiN| prastuta pustaka meM sAdhaka ko kina-kina bAtoM kI sAvadhAnI rakhanI cAhie aura sAdhanA kI gaharAI meM kaise utarA jAe isakA sahI-sundara mArgadarzana hai| pratyeka zabda, pratyeka vicAra apane-Apa meM vilakSaNa aura adbhuta hai| hama pustaka ke hara zabda ke sAtha laharoM kI taraha bahate jAe~, apane-Apa hamArI jIvana-naukA pAra lagatI jaaegii| aba hama sIdhe rUbarU ho jAte haiM jIvana kI una bAtoM se jinheM hama jAnate to haiM, para pahacAnate nhiiN| jinake bAre meM sunA-par3hA to hai, para avagAhana nahIM kiyaa| vipazyanA para itanI sundara pustaka pAkara Apa sacamuca mugdha ho uttheNge| prabhuzrI ke caraNoM meM ahobhAva bhare praNAma ! - mIrA For Personal & Private Use Only

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anukramaNikA 1. svayaM ke prati jagAe~ hoza aura bodha 2. paMcazIla : Akhira Avazyaka kyoM ? 3. vipazyanA : Akhira kyA hai ? 4. vipazyanA meM cAhie sacetanatA, nirantaratA 5. AnApAna-yoga : samAdhi kA praveza-dvAra 6. calate-phirate kaise kareM anupazyanA 7. AsaktiyoM ko kaise kATeM 8. vAsanA ke cakravyUha se kaise nikaleM 9. vipazyanA se pAe~ vilakSaNa phala 10. kaise kareM citta kI anupazyanA 11. antardvandva se mukti 107 124 140 ~~~~gave~~~~ For Personal & Private Use Only

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1 svayaM ke prati jagAe~ hoza aura bodha sAdhanA kA mArga zAMti kA mArga hai| yaha hoza aura bodhapUrvaka jIne kA mArga hai, rAga-dveSa aura duHkha - daurmanasya se mukti pAne kA mArga hai / hama pUre utsAha aura UrjA ke sAtha isa mArga para apane qadama bar3hA rahe haiM / buddha ne sAdhanA kI eka qhAsa dRSTi dI hai / buddha adbhuta hue AsamAna meM uge sUraja kI taraha, mAnasarovara meM khile kamala kI taraha, a~dhere meM jalate dIpaka kI trh| maiM buddha kA prazaMsaka huuN| mujha para buddha kA prabhAva rahA hai| unakA madhyama mArga jIvana jIne kA vyAvahArika aura vaijJAnika mArga hai / bhoga aura yoga meM, kAmanA aura sAdhanA meM santulana biThAne kA kAma madhyama mArga karatA hai / Aja kI tArIqha meM, jaba iMsAna Izvara aura naitikatA meM to vizvAsa rakhatA hai, para apanA nijI jIvana pUre sukha-sAdhana se jInA cAhatA hai / aisI sthiti meM donoM ke bIca santulana biThAne kA kAma madhyama mArga karatA hai / madhyama mArga koI siddhAnta nahIM hai, yaha eka vijJAna hai, jIvana jIne kA tarIkA hai, zAMti aura sahajatA kA 9 - For Personal & Private Use Only

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patha hai| ativAda kA tyAga karanA hI madhyama mArga hai / maiM svayaM madhyama mArga ko jItA hU~ / jIvana vINA ke tAroM kI taraha hai| inheM na to z2yAdA kaso, na z2yAdA DhIlA chodd'o| inheM santulana ke siddhAnta se sAdho / jIvana ko vINA ke tAroM kI taraha isa taraha sAdhA jAe ki jIvana kA hara lamhA hameM saMgIta kA sukUna de, zAMti kA tarAnA cher3e, AnaMda ke gIta sarasAe / hama hiMsA kA tyAga kareM, jhUTha aura corI ke pApa se baceM, vyasana aura vyabhicAra se svayaM ko dUSita na hone deN| hama zAMti ke anuyAyI hoM, satya, ahiMsA aura bhAIcAre ko prAthamikatA deM, pavitratA aura muskAna hamArI pahacAna ho| hama svayaM ko lAphiMga buddhA banAe~, ha~satA - muskurAtA buddh| hoza aura bodhapUrvaka jIne vAlA saMbuddha puruSa / vipazyanA eka divya patha hai- svayaM ke satya se sAkSAtkAra karane kA patha / hamAre lie z2arUrI hai ki hama apanI mUrcchAoM ko samajheM, mUrcchAoM ke jAla se bAhara nikaleM, jIvana kI haqIqatoM se paricita hoM aura phira apanA sahajasacetana jIvana jieN| maiM saMbodhi meM vizvAsa rakhatA hU~ / saMbodhi yAnI hoza aura bodhapUrvaka jIvana jIne kI dRSTi / eka mahAtmA ne eka satsaMgI yuvaka ko samajhAyA - 'duniyA meM kevala bhagavAna hI apanA hai, bAkI koI kisI kA nahIM hai| mAtA-pitA kI sevA aura patnI-baccoM kA pAlana karttavya samajhakara kareM, na ki unameM mUrcchita yA Asakta hokara / ' yuvaka ne kahA- 'magara bhagavan ! mere mAtA-pitA mujhase itanA pyAra karate haiM ki eka dina ghara na jAU~, to unakI bhUkha-pyAsa mara jAtI hai, nIMda ur3a jAtI hai aura merI bIvI to mere bag2aira z2indA hI nahIM raha sakatI / ' mahAtmA ne yuvaka ko parIkSA karane kA tarIkA samajhAyA / tadanusAra yuvaka ghara jAkara palaMga para cupacApa leTa gayA / prANAyAma ke dvArA sA~soM ko mastaka meM car3hAkara vaha nizceSTa ho gyaa| gharavAloM ne use marA samajhakara ronA-dhonA zurU kara diyaa| Asa-par3osa ke loga aura parijana ikaTThe ho gae / usI samaya mahAtmAjI A phuNce| unhoMne kahA- 'maiM ise z2indA kara sakatA huuN| eka kaTorA pAnI lAo / ' 10 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ghara ke loga mahAtmAjI ke kadamoM meM loTane lge| mahAtmAjI ne pAnI ke kaTore meM kucha mantra par3hA aura yuvaka ke Upara tIna bAra ghumAkara kahane lage, isa pAnI ko koI pI jaae| pIne vAlA to mara jAegA, para yaha yuvaka z2indA ho jaaegaa| yaha sunate hI saba hakke-bakke raha ge| aba mare kauna ? saba eka-dUsare kA mu~ha dekhane lge| sabane bahAne banAne zurU kara die| mAtA-pitA ne kahA'hamAre koI eka baccA to hai nahIM, jo isake lie mreN|' patnI ne kahA- 'marane vAle ke pIche koI marA to nahIM jaataa|' Aqhira mahAtmAjI ne kahA - 'to phira maiM pI lU~ yaha pAnI ?' __saba gharavAle eka svara se bola uThe- 'Apa dhanya haiM prabhu ! ApakA to jIvana hI paropakAra ke lie hai| Apa kRpA kreN| Apa to mukta-puruSa haiN| Apake lie jIvana-maraNa saba samAna haiN|' yuvaka ko aba kucha dekhanA-sunanA nahIM thaa| usane prANAyAma pUrA kiyA aura baiThate hae bolA- 'bhagavan ! aba Apako yaha pAnI pIne kI z2arUrata nahIM hai| Apane mujhe isa pAnI ke z2ariye jIvana kA saccA bodha pradAna kara diyA, saMbuddha jIvana kA bodh|' yuvaka ne jIvana jInA sIkha liyaa| kyA hama apane jIvana ke satya se rUbarU honA cAheMge ? atIta meM buddha aura mahAvIra jaise mahApuruSoM ne kabhI kisI caitya-vihAra meM, kahIM kisI azoka vRkSa kI chAyA meM, campA kI cahakatI-mahakatI kaliyoM ke bIca baiThakara bhikSuoM evaM muniyoM ke sAtha Atma-saMvAda kie hoNge| unhoMne sAdhakoM evaM mumukSuoM ko apane AdhyAtmika jJAna se prakAzita kiyA hogaa| Aja ve mahApuruSa hamAre bIca sazarIra nahIM haiM, lekina unheM prema aura divyabhAva se yAda karane para ve hamAre hRdaya meM sAkAra hone lagate haiN| yadi hama apane manamandira meM mahAvIra ko yAda kareMge to unakI sUrata aura mUrata ubharakara Ane lagegI, vahIM yadi buddha ko yAda kareMge to buddhatva kA bodha, buddhatva kA kamala khilane lgegaa| dhyAna meM utarakara AkAza ko yAda karane se, usa para dhyAna karane se antaramana meM AkAza, AkAza ke bAdala, usakI nIlimA, vahA~ ke sUraja, cA~da-sitAre, dhIre-dhIre saba hamAre antaramana meM sAkAra hone lagate haiN| For Personal & Private Use Only

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Aja jaba hama buddha ke jJAna-prakAza meM baiThakara Atma-cintana aura manana karane ke lie svayaM ko tatpara kara rahe haiM to nizcaya hI hamAre bhItara aisA koI kamala, aisI koI prakAza-rekhA vaise hI sAkAra hone laga sakatI hai, jaise phUloM ke smaraNa se phUla, duzmana kI yAda se duzmana aura mitra kI smRti se mitra kI chavi sAkAra hotI hai| bhale hI devatAoM ke smaraNa se ve hamAre samakSa pragaTa na hote hoM, lekina smaraNa se unakI daivIya chavi hamAre bhItara avazya sAkAra hone lagatI hai| __ hama AtApI, smRtimAna aura sacetana bneN| AtApI yAnI tpsvii| AtmA kI smRti meM, divyatA kI smRti meM nimagna rahane vAlA AtApI hai, tapasvI hai| yahA~ tapa kA sambandha bhUkhe rahane se nahIM hai| tapa kA sambandha vINA ke tAroM kI taraha tana-mana-AtmA ko sAdhane se hai| hama sabhI tapasvI bneN| aise tapasvI jo apane-Apa ke pAsa hoN| aise tapasvI jo sAdhanA meM zramazIla hoM, jinakI indriyA~ unake apane vaza meM A cukI hoN| hamAre bhItara saMkalpa aura vikalpoM ke rUpa meM, vikAra aura saMvedanAoM ke rUpa meM, saMskAra aura prakRti ke rUpa meM jo karma ke bIja boe jA cuke haiM aura nitya-prati bote rahate haiM, kriyAoM ke rUpa meM boe jAne vAle bIja to haiM hI, para mana-hI-mana vicAra aura vikalpa, hiMsA-pratihiMsA, vaira-virodha, rAga-dveSa ke jo karma bIja bote haiM, una sabako hama dhunane meM, ukhAr3ane meM, kATane meM tatpara hoN| hamameM se hara vyakti svayaM ko tapasvI aura ghara ko tapovana banA le / hamAre sAmane jIvana kA lakSya spaSTa honA cAhie ki hama jIvana meM bhavacakra se nivRtti cAhate haiM yA bhavacakra meM pravRtti cAhate haiN| jo saMsAra meM pravRtti cAhate haiM, unake lie sAmAnya stara kI bAteM huA karatI haiM, para jo saMsAra se Upara uThakara bodha aura jJAnapUrvaka prakAza-patha ke anuyAyI honA cAhate haiM, amRta-putra kI taraha jInA aura svayaM ko amRta banAnA cAhate haiM, unheM zAMta-citta aura AtmabhAva se khuda ko tapAnA caahie| binA svayaM ko tapAye, binA indriyoM ko vaza meM kie koI bhI vyakti AdhyAtmika patha para pragati nahIM kara sktaa| svayaM kA jitendriya honA buddhatva kI anivArya zarta hai| jo loga dharmaadhyAtma para korI carcA karate rahate haiM, maiM unheM kaha denA cAhatA hU~ ki dharma aura adhyAtma kI carcA karanA, dhArmika pustakoM kA paThana-pAThana karanA, pravacana denA yA pravacana sunanA bilkula alaga cIjeM haiM, para usa dharma aura adhyAtma ko jIne | 12] For Personal & Private Use Only

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ke lie svayaM ko tatpara karanA jJAna kI saccI kasauTI hai| yaha eka zreSTha tapa hai| hamAre lie svayaM ko tapasvI banAnA jarUrI hai| jo sAdhanA-mArga para cala rahA hai, vaha tapasvI hai| hama apane mana ko, apanI indriyoM evaM apanI kAyA ko saMyamita karane ke lie prayatnazIla hoN| merA to sujhAva hai ki jaise pahAr3a aura parvata sAmAnya z2amIna se Upara hote haiM, jaise kamala ke phUla sarovara ke sAmAnya jala se Upara huA karate haiM, vaise hI sAdhakoM ko kamala ke phUla kI taraha apanI antarAtmA.meM jInA cAhie anAsakta yogI kI trh| anAsakta yogI kA dharatI para jInA dharatI kA saubhAgya hai, lekina bhogI aura rogI kA jInA dharatI ke lie bhAra aura bojha bana jAtA hai| buddhatva ke bodha aura mahAvIra ke mahAmauna ke mArga para calane ke lie antaramana kA tapasvI honA pahalI anivAryatA hai| yahA~ jo buddha ke mArga se calate haiM, ve bodha pAte haiN| jo mahAvIra ke mArga para calate haiM, ve mokSa pAte haiM, para jo yayAti ke rAste calate haiM, ve bhoga ke cakravyUha meM ulajha jAte haiM, ve baMdhana pAte haiN| ve lokacakra meM aTaka jAte haiN| buddha aura mahAvIra inakA mArga to hoza aura bodhapUrvaka jIne kA mArga hai| yaha mukti aura mahAparinirvANa kA mArga hai / duHkha-daurmanasya aura vaira-vaimanasya se chuTakArA pAne kA mArga hai| isake lie hameM mukti kA lakSya nirdhArita karanA hogA, smRtimAna honA hogA, AtApI aura tapasvI honA hogaa| __ atIta meM bhI jinhoMne svayaM ko tapasvI banAyA ve upalabdha ho ske| mahAvIra mahAtapasvI bane / sthUla dRSTi se dekhane para to hama yahI jAna sakate haiM ki ve kitane dina bhUkhe rahe aura kitane dina khAnA khAyA, lekina aisA karane para hama kevala mahAvIra kI kAyA ko upalabdha ho sakate haiN| kAyA ke andara chipe kAyanAta ko chU bhI na paaeNge| mahAvIra ke anuyAyI garva ke sAtha ullekha karate haiM ki mahAvIra ne apane sAr3he bAraha varSa ke sAdhanA kAla meM kevala sAr3he tIna sau dina khAnA khAyA, zeSa dinoM meM ve bhUkhe rahe / yaha to haThayogiyoM kI sAdhanA ho gaI aura unake anuyAyI bhI agara isI bAta ko prAthamikatA dete haiM to ve bhI mahAvIra ke kalevara para hI dhyAna de rahe haiN| isa tapa ke andara chipe eka sacce tapasvI ko ve bhUla rahe haiN| Apa yaha na samajheM ki bhojana se AdhyAtmika tapa kA koI vizeSa sambandha hai| bhojana karate hue bhI parama AdhyAtmikatA ko upalabdha huA jA sakatA hai| mahAvIra sAdhAraNa gRhastha kI bhA~ti nahIM haiM, ve viziSTa jJAnI haiM, Atma-jJAnI haiN| ve kevala kAyA ko tapAne meM vizvAsa nahIM rkhte| ve apane mana | 13 For Personal & Private Use Only

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aura indriyoM ko tapAne, sa~vArane, sudhArane, apane aMkuza meM lAne kA prayatna karate haiN| isa kriyA meM daihika tapa apane-Apa phalIbhUta ho jAtA hai| hamArA antaramana kisI koyale kI taraha hai| koyalA na pAnI se dhulatA hai, na sAbuna se| koyale ko ujjvala karanA hai to koyale ko jalAnA hogaa| koyalA jalakara hI sapheda hotA hai| daihika tapa koyale ko jalAne kI taraha hai| vAstava meM to hameM mana ko nirmala aura ujjvala banAnA hotA hai| mana ko zAMta manas' aura AnandapUrNa dazA meM le jAnA hogaa| rUpa. rasa. gaMdha, sparza ke bahAne hamArI indriyA~ bAra-bAra bAhya sukha sAdhanoM ke prati AkarSita hotI haiM, bandara kI taraha macalatI haiM, sA~pa ke phana kI taraha phailatI rahatI haiN| ina avijita indriyoM aura mana ko jItane meM. inheM dhone aura dhunane meM jisane athaka prayatna kiyA, usa puruSArtha kA nAma hI vAstava meM mahAvIra hai| hamArA mana karmabIjoM kA nirmANa karatA rahatA hai| aisA nahIM hai ki hamane kevala atIta meM karmoM ke bIja boe haiM aura na hI kevala kriyAoM ke dvArA karmabIja bote haiM. apita mana ke vikAroM, ahaMkAroM, vAsanAoM aura mana ke ajJAna dvArA karma ke bIja adhika boe jAte haiN| mana kI soca, vikalpa, citta ke saMskAroM dvArA hama karma ke bIja adhika bote rahate haiN| kisI gA~Tha ko bA~dhane meM eka pala lagatA hai, lekina use kholane meM lambA arsA guz2ara jAtA hai / ghAva karane meM kSaNabhara lagatA hai, para ghAva bharane meM lambA samaya vyatIta ho jAtA hai| mana ke ye karmabIja kabhI hama rAga aura kabhI dveSa ke rUpa meM, kabhI duHkha, daurmanasya aura kabhI roga, zoka, cintA, krodha ke rUpa meM boyA karate haiN| ina bIjoM ko dhonA aura dhunanA hI AdhyAtmika tapasyA hai| mahApuruSoM ne, buddha aura mahAvIra ne bhI svayaM ko tapasvI banAyA, svayaM ko bhItara hI bhItara tpaayaa| pahale unhoMne khuda ko tana se bhI tpaayaa| lekina jaise-jaise tana ko tapAyA unheM samajha AtI gaI ki tana ko tapAne kI z2arUrata nahIM hai, mana ke bhItara samAe sUkSma mana kI jar3oM ko tapAne aura kATane kI z2arUrata hai| isa samajha ke Ate hI unhoMne kAyA ko tapAnA kama kara diyA aura mAnA ki tapasyA ke lie kAyA praveza-dvAra kI taraha hai| zeSa to apane mana, citta aura AtmA ko tapAnA hI saccI tapasyA hai| Aja se hama eka viziSTa mArga kI ora apane qadama bar3hA rahe haiM / yaha mArga hai vipazyanA kA / yaha hoza aura bodhapUrvaka jIne kA mArga hai| yaha vaha pavitra mArga hai, jo vyakti ko svayaM se, | 14 For Personal & Private Use Only

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svayaM ke parama satya se sAkSAtkAra karavAtA hai / isa mArga meM kisI prakAra kA AropaNa nahIM hai, balki apanI hI prakRti se gaharAIpUrvaka mulAkAta karane kA tarIkA hai| sambhava hai vibhinna sAdhanA paddhatiyoM meM Izvara, svarga-narka, AtmA jaisI cIz2oM kA bAra-bAra ullekha hotA ho lekina vipazyanA aisA mArga hai, jisameM kisI prakAra kA AropaNa nahIM hai / kahIM koI atirikta cIz2a samAviSTa nahIM hai / vipazyanA arthAt khuda se khuda kI prakRti kI mulAqAta / apane meM jo hai, usase mulAqAta karo, jo hai usakA sAkSI honA, jo hai usakA mAtra jJAna kara lenA, jo hai usakA mAtra darzana kara lenA, jo hai usakA hI tapasvI honA, jo hai usake prati prajJAzIla honA, jo hai usakI pratyakSa anubhUti karanA hI vipazyanA hai / prajJAzIla hone kA artha hai jo hameM anubhUti meM A rahA hai, usake prati pUrNa jAgarUka aura sacetana honA / jagata meM DheroM sAdhanA paddhatiyA~ haiM / kuNDalinI aura SaT-cakra jAgaraNa ke nAma se eka gaharI sAdhanA paddhati bhArata ne duniyA ko dI hai, lekina kuNDalinI aura SaT-cakra vyakti ko pratyakSa anubhUti meM nahIM Ate varan sAdhanA kI gaharAI meM jAte-jAte kabhI kisI kA inase samparka jur3atA hogA, inakI UrjA upalabdha hotI hogii| maiM mAnatA hU~ ki adRzya para jAne se pahale vyakti ko dRzya para g2aura karanA caahie| maMdira meM prabhu - mUrti dekhane se pahale maMdira ke bAhara baiThe bhikhAriyoM meM bhI prabhu ko dekhane kA najariyA prApta kara lenA cAhie / jaba taka koI apanI mA~, patnI, bhAI, bahana, pitA se prema nahIM kara pAyA to hama kaise jAneM ki vaha par3osI se mohabbata kara paaegaa| jaba ghara ke logoM ko hI pyAra na kara sake to dUsaroM ko kyA pyAra karoge / jo tumheM dikhAI detA hai, usakA hI sAkSAtkAra na kara pAe, ThIka DhaMga se usakI anubhUti na kara pAe, usakA samyak jJAna aura samyak darzana na kara pAe to usa adRzya kA jo siddha-buddha - mukta hai, darzana kaise kara pAe~ge, kaise sAkSAtkAra kara pAe~ge ? sambhava hai Apa varSoM se prabhu kI bhakti kara rahe hoMge, lekina kyA batA sakate haiM ki prabhujI kitanI bAra mile ? kyA prApta kiyA ? apane satya ko kitanA samajhA ? jo adRzya hai usake prati to hama AsthAvAna ho gae lekina jo dRzya hai - hamArI kAyA - ise hamane kitanA samajhA ? isake vikAroM ko samajhane ke lie kitanA samaya diyA ? apanI indriyoM para vijaya prApta karane ke lie For Personal & Private Use Only 15

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kitanA bodha aura kitanI jAgarUkatA kAyama kI ? yU~ to hama ghaMToM taka prabhubhakti kara lete haiM, para kyA svayaM ko jAnane aura samajhane ke lie pratidina dasa miniTa kA samaya bhI nikAla pAe haiM ? jo svayaM ko nahIM samajha pAyA, vaha auroM ko kyA samajha pAegA ? jisane svayaM ko nahIM jAnA, svayaM ko vaza meM nahIM kiyA, vaha dUsaroM ko kaise vaza meM karegA ? eka sajjana ne mujhase pUchA ki unakA mana unake vaza meM nahIM rahatA, vaha kyA kare ?' maiMne kahA- 'abhI maiM vyasta hU~, Apa eka ghaMTA rukeM, taba maiM Apako javAba de skuuNgaa|' thor3I dera bAda acAnaka maiMne unase prazna kiyA, 'ApakI patnI to Apake vaza meM hogI ?' ve bole, 'are kahA~, agara vahI vaza meM hotI to parezAnI kA koI sababa na hotaa|' maiMne kahA, 'koI bAta nahIM, beTA to Apake vaza meM hogA ?' ve bole, 'kahA~ sAhaba, vaha to apanI manamAnI karatA hai|' maiMne phira pUchA, 'ApakA parivAra to z2arUra hI Apake vaza meM hogA ?' unhoMne batAyA, 'koI bhI unake vaza meM nahIM hai|' maiMne samajhAyA, 'Apa dUsaroM ko vaza meM karanA cAhate haiM aura mujhase pUchate ho - mana merA vaza meM nahIM hai kyA karU~ ? jaba Apa svayaM ko hI vaza meM na kara pAe to dUsaroM ko kaise vaza meM kroge|' sabhI ko apane mana se dikkata hai| sabhI kahate mila jAe~ge ki mana bigaDaila hai, vikRta ho jAtA hai, krodha kara letA hai, kabhI bhI kAma-bhoga-vAsanA kI taraMgeM paidA ho jAtI haiN| jo insAna apane bhItara se pAgala hai, vikSipta hai, ghAyala hai, vaha isa mana ko sa~vArane ke lie, sudhArane ke lie vakta nahIM detA hai| kahate z2arUra haiM ki mana ko vaza meM karanA cAhate haiM, para isake lie zAMti kI sAdhanA nahIM karate, antaramana kI vipazyanA aura antaramana se sAkSAtkAra nahIM krte| antaramana se sAkSAtkAra karanA sabase bar3A tapa hai| jaba koI tapa ke mArga para cala par3atA hai, taba usakI bhakti bhI tapane lagatI hai| sAdhanA bhI tapane laga jAtI hai, jJAna bhI tapane lagatA hai| zeSa to pustakoM ko par3hakara jJAnI nahIM ho sakate / anubhava se hI jJAna prakaTa hotA hai| kitAbeM par3hakara buddhimAna ho sakate haiM, sUcanAe~ ekatrita kara sakate haiM, buddhi ke vikAsa ke rAste khula sakate haiM, lekina samyak jJAna ke, samyak prajJA ke mAlika nahIM ho sakate / prajJA kI paripakvatA ke lie jiMdagI meM lagane vAlI ThokaroM se 16 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sIkhanA hotA hai, bAra-bAra ciMtana-manana karanA hotA hai, apanI prajJA ko vastu, vyakti aura vicAra ke prati jAgarUka aura sacetana karanA par3atA hai, taba kahIM hamArA jJAna pakatA hai, paripakva hotA hai| dhyAna pakane aura pakAne kI cIz2a hai| kAyA, mana aura indriyA~ tapane aura tapAne kI cIjeM haiN| tana-mana kI Antarika sthiti vikAroM, upadravoM aura bhogajanita saMskAroM tathA kaSAyoM se ghirI huI hai| choTe-choTe nimitta hameM krodhita kara dete haiM, ciMtita aura vikRta kara dete haiN| kahane ke nAma para apana saba zAMta aura nirmala dikhAI dete haiM, para yaha saba tabhI taka hai, jaba taka nimitta na Ae / gussA mAno nAka para hI car3hA baiThA hai| kisI kI choTI-sI upekSA bardAzta nahIM kara pAte / lAkhoM kA ghATA laga jAne para use kyA bardAzta kareMge, ghara se bAhara gayA beTA agara eka ghaMTA leTa Ae, to hama becaina ho jAte haiM, Arta-dhyAna, raudra-dhyAna karane laga jAte haiM, hamArI zAMti to giravI rakhI huI hai| 'vipazyanA' eka divya sAdhanA hai- tana ko sAdhane kI sAdhanA, mana ko sAdhane kI sAdhanA / svayaM ke satya se sAkSAtkAra karane kI saadhnaa| vipazyanA yAnI dekhanA - svayaM ko dekhanA. svayaM kI sA~soM ko dekhanA, zarIra, zarIra ke aMga, zarIra kI saMvedanAoM ko dekhanA, zarIra kI parivartanazIlatA aura nazvaratA ko dekhanA, antaramana kI sthiti, prakRti aura vikRtiyoM ko dekhnaa| sabako AtApI banakara, smRtimAna banakara, sacetana hokara, prajJApUrvaka, bodhapUrvaka dekhnaa| svayaM ke satya se sAkSAtkAra karane kA yahI tarIkA hai - pahale sthUla, phira sUkSma / pahale bhItara kI azAMtiyoM ko dekhanA, bhItara kI uthala-puthala ko zAMta karanA aura phira svayaM kI zAMti meM praveza krnaa| jaba hama vipazyanA ko samajha rahe haiM, to apane-Apa ko tamAma AropaNoM se mukta kara leN| atIta ke samasta saMskAroM se svayaM ko mukta kara leN| paMtha, paramparA, sampradAya, guru una sabase apane-Apako mukta kara leM, kevala eka hI bodha rahe ki aba maiM khuda ko jAnane ke lie tatpara ho rahA huuN| maiM jaisA bhI hU~, jo bhI hU~, basa svayaM ko jAnanA hai| hamArI Adata svayaM ko acchA prastuta karane kI hotI hai| bhItara se bhale hI vaha khoTA ho, lekina khare ke rUpa meM peza karanA cAhate haiN| bAhara kA phoTo khiMcavAoge to kalarDa AegA, para bhItara kA eksa-re karAoge to blaika eNDa vhAiTa AegA / hama jo bhItara se blaika eNDa vhAiTa haiM, vipazyanA aura anupazyanA dvArA use jAnanA hai| 17 For Personal & Private Use Only

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'vipazyanA' buddha kA zabda hai aura 'anupazyanA' mahAvIra kA zabda hai| donoM meM koI pharka nahIM hai| jyoM-jyoM hama gaharAI meM jAe~ge, ina zabdoM ke artha samajheMge / hama jo svayaM ko bAhara se paoNlizDa rUpa meM prastuta karate haiM, jarA bhItara se svayaM ko digambara kara ddaaleN| bhItara se apane-Apako kholakara khulI DAyarI banA leM ki yaha 'maiM' huuN| jo tuma the, use bhUla jAo, kyA hooge bhUla jaao| jo ho' usa bodha ko bhItara jor3ane kA prayatna karo / duniyA meM khare-khoTe donoM sikke calate haiN| eka mahilA apane pati para cillA rahI thI ki duniyA bahuta khoTI ho gaI hai| vaha kaha rahI thI ki usane dasa rupae kI sabjI kharIdI aura sabjIvAlA aThannI khoTI dekara calA gyaa| pati ne kahA - bhAgavAna, kyoM itanA cillA rahI hai, de gayA to de gyaa| vaha aThannI mujhe de de maiM tujhe badalakara de detA huuN| patnI ne kahA - kahA~ se de dUM, jaba sArI duniyA hI aisI ho gaI hai to jo subaha dUdhavAlA AyA thA, use maiMne calA dii| yahA~ sabhI khoTA de jAne para gAliyA~ nikAlate haiM aura khuda ke pAsa jo khoTApana hai vaha dUsaroM ko Age calAte haiN| yahA~ sabhI eka-dUsare ko calAne meM, bevakUfa banAne meM mazagUla haiN| kisI samaya 'banAne kA artha nirmANa, sRjana huA karatA thA lekina aba 'banAne' kA artha mUrkha yA bevakUfa banAnA hai| kabhI maiMne eka kahAnI par3hI thI - koI saMta sabjI becane kA kArya karate the| unheM kama dikhAI detA thaa| loga Ate sabjiyA~ kharIdate aura kucha sikke khare aura kucha khoTe sikke de jAte / saMta sikke dekhate, pahacAna jAte, para kucha bolate nhiiN| khoTe sikke apane pAsa rakha lete aura sabjiyA~ de dete / isI taraha unakI jiMdagI guz2ara gii| unake pAsa Dhera sAre khoTe sikke ikaTThe ho ge| eka dina saMta ko ahasAsa huA ki jitanA use jInA thA, jI liyA, aba use prabhu ke mArga para jAnA caahie| vaha prabhu kI bhakti meM lIna honA cAhatA thaa| apanI jhopar3I meM pahu~cakara usane sAre khoTe sikke ikaTThe kara lie aura saMdhyAkAla meM eka darI para bichA die| ghuTane Tekakara vaha apane prabhu ko yAda karane lagA, usakI bhakti meM DUbane lgaa| vaha apanI prArthanA meM yahI gunagunA rahA thA- prabhu merI umra aba pUrI ho cukI hai, mere pAsa jIne ke lie samaya nahIM hai, aba to tere pAsa Ane kA hI vaqta bacA hai| maiM jAnatA hU~ ki jIvana meM maiMne bahata dharma nahIM kiyA hai ki maiM tere pAsa Ane kA hakadAra bnuuN| mujhe mAlUma hai ki maiM eka khoTA sikkA hU~, para bhagavan ! maiM tumhAre pAsa A rahA huuN| isa AzA ke sAtha ki tuma | 18 For Personal & Private Use Only

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khoTe sikke ko lauTAoge nahIM, kyoMki jIvana-bhara logoM ne mujhe haz2AroM khoTe sikke die haiM, para maiMne kisI bhI khoTe sikke ko lene se inkAra nahIM kiyA hai| maiM bhI eka khoTA sikkA hU~ aura Apake zrI caraNoM meM samarpita ho rahA huuN| kRpA karake Apa bhI mujhe asvIkAra na kreN| mujhe yaha kahAnI priya hai| maiM mAnatA hU~ ki hama sabhI khoTe sikkoM kI taraha haiN| prabhu to karuNAvatAra haiM, kRpAsiMdhu haiM / ve apane viruda ko avazya nibhaaeNge| mujhe svayaM ke khoTepana kA ahasAsa hai| kharA sikkA banane kI koziza karate haiM, phira bhI aneka dafA khoTA sikkA sAbita ho jAte haiN| mujhe mAlUma hai mere pAsa bhI aneka loga khoTe sikkoM kI taraha Ate haiM, maiM unheM inkAra nahIM karatA / khare sikke bAjAra meM calate haiM aura khoTe sikke mandira ke gullaka meM / khoTe sikkoM para TrasTI bhI naz2ara nahIM DAlate, ve mandira ke gullaka kI zobhA bar3hAte rahate haiN| vipazyanA yAnI svayaM ko pahacAnane kA eka tarIkA ki hama khoTe sikke haiN| hAlAMki hameM na cAhate hue bhI yaha vizvAsa ho jAtA hai ki maiM kharA sikkA, maiM styvaadii| hama sabhI svayaM ko mahAna mAnate rahate haiN| dUsaroM se to apekSA rakhate haiM ki ve jhUTha na boleM, kintu svayaM kitanA jhUTha bolate haiM, patA hI nahIM cltaa| svayaM kI sthiti to talahaTI para bhI naz2ara nahIM AegI, zikhara aura pahAr3a kI bAta to bahuta dUra hai| jo jAge so pAve / jo prajJAzIla hai, jo svayaM ke prati, apane adhyAtma ke prati haqIqata meM sacetana hotA hai, vahI apane karma ke bIjoM ko dho sakatA hai| bAtoM se nahIM, karane se karma kaTate haiN| hama atIta meM boe gae karma-bIjoM ko kATane ke prati jAgarUka nahIM hote| kabhI kisI tithi kA upavAsa kara lete haiM, kabhI pratikramaNa ke sUtroM ko doharA lete haiM, kabhI kisI mandira meM matthA Teka Ate haiN| isase adhika aura kyA kara lete haiM hama loga / adhika se adhika thor3A bahuta dAna kara lete hoNge| hamAre bhItara rAga-dveSa kI jo antaradhArAe~ haiM, jo usake saMskAra hamAre bhItara vyApta rahate haiM, unheM kATane ke lie kitanA prayatna karate haiM ? hama jo kathita dhArmika kahalAte haiM, hamako eka pala lagatA hai gussA Ane meM, eka pala lagatA hai tamatamAne meN| bAhara se ThaMDe-ThaMDe dikhAI dete haiM, para eka pala lagatA hai garama hone meM / hama eka pala meM mAcisa kI tIlI bana baiThate haiM aura sulaga jAte haiM / hama khuda ko phcaaneN| hama kisakI vipazyanA aura anupazyanA kara rahe haiM ? | 19 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hamAre bhItara jo vikAra aura vikSiptatAe~ bharI huI haiM kyA hama unakI vipazyanA kara rahe haiM ? bhItara ke tattva taka koI nahIM utara rahA hai, saba kucha bAhara-bAhara / dharma bhI bAhara, bhItara kA dharma bacA hI nahIM hai| kucha dina pahale, Upara svarga meM, baikuMTha aura siddhazilA para sAre bhagavAna- rAmajI, kRSNajI, mahAvIrajI, buddhajI, jIsasajI- sAre 'jI', sAre mahAna logoM ne Upara baiThaka kI ki hama loga jaba taka jie duniyA ne hamArI kadra nahIM kii| kisI ke kAnoM meM kIla ThokI gaI, kisI ko sUlI para car3hAyA gayA, kisI ko z2ahara diyA gayA, kisI ko vanavAsa jhelanA par3A- jaba taka dharatI para rahe koI ijz2ata nahIM thI aura aba to sArI duniyA apanI khUba pUjA karatI hai| karor3oM jaina haiM, hindU haiM, musalamAna haiM aura IsAI haiM - apane nAma para DheroM maMdira haiM, masz2ida haiM, carca haiM, apanI bahuta pUcha-parakha hai| jaba taka ve sazarIra the aura jie, taba patA nahIM kitanoM ne pUchA aura kitanoM ne latAr3A, lekina aba to unake nAma para lAkhoM ke car3hAve bole jAte haiN| maMdira nirmita hote haiM, maMdiroM kI pratiSThAe~ hotI haiM, dhvajArohaNa hotA hai, lAkhoM loga unake nAma kI mAlAe~ japate haiN| aisA vicAra kara sAre bhagavAna apane-apane anuyAiyoM ke bIca pahu~ce / rAmajI apane anuyAiyoM ke bIca aae| unhoMne dekhA ki amuka nagara meM joradAra pratiSThA ho rahI hai, hailIkaoNpTara se phUla barasAe jA rahe haiM, loga unakI patthara kI mUrti ko biThAne ke lie pA~ca karor3a rupae kA car3hAvA le rahe haiM aura maMdira ke zikhara para eka kapar3e kI dhvajA car3hAne ke lie savA karor3a rupae kA car3hAvA bola rahe haiM / rAmajI to khuza ho gae ki unakI to jabardasta pUcha ho gii| jIte jI itanI pUcha na thI / jIte jI to gAliyA~ hI milatI haiN| agara jIsasa salIba para na TaMge hote to kyA itane vizvavikhyAta ho sakate the ? mahAvIra ke kAnoM meM kIleM na Thukate aura unhoMne itanI samatA aura sahanazIlatA na dikhalAI hotI to kyA ve Aja isa taraha pUje jAte? bhagavAna rAma Upara se nIce Ae aura bhIr3a meM zAmila ho ge| rAma aura mahAvIra sAtha hI Ae the| jaise hI kisI ne unako dekhA loga cillAe- A bhaI, bahurUpiyA aa| ise bhI eka rupayA de do| logoM ko vaha bahurUpiyA naz2ara AyA, unheM lagA ki usane bahuta acchA svAMga racAyA hai| mahAvIrajI ko dekhakara to logoM kI hAlata hI kharAba ho gaI, ve to digambara haiN| unheM dekhakara loga lAThiyA~ bhA~jane lage ki yaha kyA tarIkA hai, maMgala kArya meM yaha amaMgala 20 For Personal & Private Use Only

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AdamI kahA~ se A gyaa| yaha kauna pAgala hai| mahAvIra svAmI ghabarAe / unhoMne kahA- itanI pUjA karake, itane maMtra bolakara, rAtabhara merA AhvAna kara rahe ho, itanI pUjA-AratI kI hai, to maiM Upara se pragaTa hokara AyA huuN| logoM ne kahA oha, yaha kevala nirvastra hI nahIM, balki dimAga se bhI DhIlA hai| mahAvIrajI socane lage ki maiM kyA socakara AyA thA aura yahA~ ke loga kaise nikala ge| taba unhoMne kahA- tuma loga mujhe nahIM pahacAnate, lekina vaha jo bhItara pratiSThA karavA rahA hai, candraprabha, use pakar3akara le aao| vaha mujhe pahacAna jAegA, loga kahate haiM, vaha dhyAna vagairaha karatA hai| loga mere pAsa daur3akara Ae aura batAyA ki eka AdhA pAgala-sA AdamI isa taraha kI bAteM kara rahA hai| maiM bAhara AyA, unakI sevA meM prastuta huA, dUra se unakA divya AbhAmaMDala dikhAI diyA, maiM unako pahacAna gayA ki prabhu Aja bar3I kRpA kI hai ki isa A~gana meM padhAre haiN| maiMne unake pAsa jAkara kahA- padhArie, bar3I kRpA huii| ve bole- kyA kRpA huI, ye mere sAre anuyAyI to kucha aura hI bAteM kara rahe haiN| maiMne kahA- Apa mere sAtha aaie| maiM unheM kamare meM le gayA aura kahAprabhujI, isa duniyA kA yahI satya hai ki jaba mahApuruSa jIvanta hote haiM, taba koI Apako salIba para car3hAtA hai, koI z2ahara kA pyAlA detA hai, koI kAnoM meM kIleM ThokatA hai aura Aja jaba Apa svayaM ko pragaTa karake le Ae~ge to Aja bhI Apake sAtha vahI hAlAta, vahI vyavahAra hone vAle haiN| yaha duniyA sacce satya ko pUjane vAlI nahIM hai| yaha bAhya satya ko hI pUjatI hai| Apane mujhe darzana die, maiM ApakI divya kRpA se kRtajJa huA, para Apa kRpA karake punaH Upara padhAra jAe~ aura apanA divya sthAna grahaNa kara leN| vipazyanA, anupazyanA arthAt apane-Apako lagAtAra vizeSa rUpa se dekhanA / hamane jina satyoM ko apane mana para or3ha rakhA hai, unheM darakinAra karanA hogA aura usa satya se rUbarU honA hogA, jo vAstavika rUpa se hamArI anubhUti meM abhI isI kSaNa A sakatA hai| usa satya se mulAkAta kareMge, usa satya ke naz2adIka jaaeNge| sAdhanA kA mArga satya kA mArga hai, svayaM ke cInhane kA, svayaM ko jAnane aura pahacAnane kA mArga hai| dUsaroM se bahuta mila cuke, aba khuda se milanA hai| dUsaroM kA darzana khUba kara liyA, aba khuda kA darzana karanA hai| bhale yA bure jaise bhI haiM, svayaM se mulAkAta kreNge| hamane usa pahAr3a kI ora kadama bar3hAne kA sAhasa kiyA hai, jo sAdhAraNa z2amIna se Upara hai| aba hama svayaM ko 21 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kholakara dekheMge ki maiM bhItara se kauna hU~, maiM kyA hU~, maiM kahA~ se AyA hU~, merA vAstavika svarUpa kyA hai, merI cetanA kahA~ ulajhI huI hai, mere kaunase vikAra haiM, merI kaunasI kamajoriyA~ haiM, merI kyA vizeSatAe~ haiM- dhIre-dhIre hama apane ko kholakara apanI AtmakathA pddh'eNge| vipazyanA isameM hamArI madada kregii| Aja ke lie itanA hI; namaskAra / 122 For Personal & Private Use Only

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paMcazIla: Akhira Avazyaka kyoM ? hama loga aise mArga para cala rahe haiM, jahA~ buddhatva kA kamala aura saMbodhi kA prakAza hai| vaha mArga jahA~ sundara upavana aura rAste haiN| isa mArga para Age bar3hane ke lie mahApuruSoM kA jyotirmaya sAnnidhya bhI hai| yaha vipazyanA kA mArga hai| vipazyanA kA artha hai- satya ko, apane-Apako, apanI prakRti ko bhalIbhA~ti vizeSa rUpa se pUrI jAgarUkatA ke sAtha dekhanA, pahacAnanA aura jaannaa| koI bhI agara satya ke rAste para qadama bar3hAtA hai, taba satya ko isa bAta se koI sarokAra nahIM hotA ki vaha strIliMga hai yA pulliMga, ucca kula kA hai yA madhyama athavA sAmAnya kula kA hai| vipazyanA kA mArga sabake lie khulA hai| cAhe vaha bAlavaya kA ho yA yuvA athavA vRddha ho / satya ke isa mArga para calane vAle kA sambandha kevala isa bAta se hai ki usakI isake prati kitanI zraddhA hai, pyAsa hai aura ise kitanA aMgIkAra karane ko taiyAra hai| vipazyanA kA mArga vizuddha rUpa se sAdhanA kA mArga hai| svayaM ko jAnane 23 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kA, saMsAra meM hoza aura bodhapUrvaka jIvana jIne kA mArga hai| yaha mArga jIvana meM kisI bhI prakAra kA virodhAbhAsa khar3A nahIM krtaa| yaha vyakti ko samAja se vimukha nahIM krtaa| kArya aura vyApAra se bhI dUra nahIM le jAtA / yaha to pratyeka kArya ko jAgarUkatApUrvaka karane kI preraNA detA hai| Aja jaba hama sAdhanA ke patha para qadama bar3hAne ko tatpara ho rahe haiM to hameM isakI pUrva bhUmikA avazya jAna lenI cAhie kyoMki qadama Age bar3hAne ke lie majabUta dharAtala kI AvazyakatA hotI hai anyathA vaha Age ke ajJAta rAstoM para calane meM asamartha rhegaa| vyakti ke vicAra, vacana aura vyavahAra ke sAtha pahale se hI maryAdAe~, aMkuza, saMyama lAgU ho jAnA caahie| isI ke lie mahAvIra ne vrata kI preraNA dI, buddha ne zIla kI aura pataMjali ne yama kii| vrata, zIla aura yama kahane ko to alaga-alaga zabda haiM, para tInoM ke bIca meM kahIM koI virodha yA dUrI nahIM hai| mahAvIra ne pA~ca vrata die, vahI pA~ca vrata lagabhaga milate-julate buddha ne paMcazIla ke rUpa meM kahe / vahI paMcazIla thor3e parivartana ke sAtha pataMjali ne yama ke rUpa meM pratipAdita kie| pataMjali ne yama, niyama, Asana, prANAyAma, pratyAhAra, dhAraNA, dhyAna aura samAdhi ke nAma se yoga ke ATha aMga yA caraNa die| yAda rakhie jaba hama kisI mahApuruSa kI amRtavANI para cintana karate haiM, taba mahApuruSoM ke nAma badala sakate haiM, unake zabda badala sakate haiM. abhivyakti kI zailI alaga ho sakatI hai, para satya meM koI parivartana nahIM AtA hai| satya sadA sabhI prANiyoM ke lie eka-sA rahatA hai| jaise- sUraja sabako apanI rozanI detA hai, cA~da sabako apanI zItalatA pradAna karatA hai, havA sabhI ko sukUna detI hai, Aga sabhI kI roTiyA~ pakAyA karatI hai, ThIka aise hI mahApuruSoM kA satya aura amRtavANI sArvabhauma kalyANakArI hai, hitakArI aura maMgalakArI hai| vaha atIta meM bhI kalyANakArI thI, Aja bhI hai aura bhaviSya meM bhI rhegii| ___ agara hama mahAvIra ke sUtroM para cintana karate haiM to yaha na samajheM ki hamane buddha ko chor3a diyA hai| buddha para cintana-manana karate samaya mahAvIra ko darakinAra nahIM karate / satya to yaha hai ki sAre bheda Upara-Upara ke haiN| miTTI ke dIye bhale hI alaga hoM, para sabhI dIyoM kI jyoti to eka hI hotI hai| isalie mahApuruSoM kI vANI eka hI satya ko pratipAdita karatI hai| jaba hama jJAna ke patha para Age bar3ha rahe haiM to jIvana meM paMcavrata yA paMcazIla yA paMcayamoM kA pAlana 24 For Personal & Private Use Only

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avazya honA cAhie / zIla jIvana kI AvazyakatA hai, vrata hai, dharma hai, maryAdA hai| zIla vaha mArga hai, jahA~ sArI pagaDaMDiyA~ Akara mila jAtI haiN| isalie zIla sabhI vratoM kA vrata hai, sabhI AzramoM kA Azrama hai, samasta maMtroM kA maMtra hai| sabhI dharmoM kA dharma hai| zIla arthAt sadAcAra / zIla arthAt jIvana ko pavitratA aura maryAdA ke sAtha jIne kA saMkalpa / zIla jIvana kI sugandha hai, zIla jIvana kI jyoti hai| dina meM sUraja aura rAta meM cA~da camakatA hai, lekina zIla vaha camaka hai, jo dina meM bhI vidyamAna rahatI hai aura rAta ke ghuppa aMdhakAra meM bhI zIla aura vrata kI jyoti barakarAra rahatI hai| hamane na jAne kitanI prakAra kI sugandhoM kA anubhava kiyA hai| alaga-alaga dizA se Ane vAlI havA vibhinna prakAra kI sugandha lekara AtI hai, lekina zIla vaha sugandha hai, jo hara dizA se Ane vAlI havA ke sAtha hameM mahakAtI hai| kahate haiM : bhagavAna zrI buddha ke parama ziSya, buddhatva ke prakAza ko upalabdha, arihaMta ke tulya mahAkAzyapa muni ko AhAra dene ke lie svayaM indrANI phuNcii| jaba unhoMne AhAra denA cAhA to mahAkAzyapa unheM pahacAna gae aura bhojana lene se yaha kahate hue inkAra kara diyA ki ve deva-pradatta AhAra svIkAra nahIM krte| indrANI ne devendra se saba bAta kahI to devendra ke mana meM AyA ki agara vaha nahIM de pAI to kyA huA, ve svayaM jAkara AhAra deNge| yaha socakara devendra nIce Ate haiM aura eka gRhastha ke ghara meM praveza karate haiN| apanA rUpa bhI gRhastha kA banA lete haiN| jaba vaha gRhastha mahAkAzyapa ko AhAra dene lagate haiM, taba devendra bhI apane sAtha lAyA huA atyanta sugaMdhita aura uttama koTi kA AhAra mahAkAzyapa ke pAtra meM samarpita kara dete haiM / mahAkAzyapa ne dekhA ki ve to sAdhAraNa se gRhastha ke ghara Ae the| yaha uttama koTi kA AhAra kisane ddaalaa| divya dRSTi se unhoMne pahacAnA ki unheM uttama AhAra dene vAlA svayaM devendra hai| mahAkAzyapa ne kahA- vatsa, yaha tumane acchA nahIM kiyaa| aba pAtra meM bhojana A gayA hai, to ise svIkAra karanA hI hogaa| muni usa AhAra ko lekara bhagavAna buddha ke pAsa pahuMce aura kahAbhagavan, Aja mujhe indra ne AhAra pradAna kiyA hai| mere dvArA indrANI ko manA kie jAne ke bAda svayaM devendra aae| Aja yaha ucita nahIM huaa| bhagavAna ne kahA- mahAkAzyapa devendra ne AhAra dekara atyadhika puNya kA arjana kiyA hai| 250 For Personal & Private Use Only

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mahAkAzyapa ne kahA- 'lekina prabhu, Apa hI to kahate haiM devoM dvArA pradatta AhAra nahIM lenA cAhie aura Aja Apa hI kaha rahe haiM ki use atyanta puNya arjana huA hai, aisA kyoM ?' devendra ne jo kiyA usakI pratikriyA meM buddha ne kahA- mahAkAzyapa yaha saba isalie huA kyoMki tumhAre zIla kI, paMcazIla-pAlana kI sugandha devaloka taka pahu~ca cukI hai, isalie devendra svayaM tumheM AhAra pradAna karane aae| devendra ke bhAvoM kI nirmalatA aura tumhAre paMcazIla kI sugandha ne use prabhAvita kiyaa| ataH yaha AhAra svIkArya hai| hama sabhI jo sAdhanA ke mArga para cala par3e haiM, hamAre lie jarUrI hai ki hama paMcazIla yA paMcavratoM ke pAlana kA pUrNa hoza aura bodha banAe rkheN| agara hamane aisA na kiyA to ho sakatA hai ki vipazyanA kA pavitra mArga jo hameM hamAre satya se mulAkAta karavAegA, hamArI apanI prakRti se paricita karavAegA, jo hameM batAegA ki hamAre bhItara vikSiptatAe~ haiM yA ekAgratAe~ haiM, yaha mArga jo hameM citta ke saMskAroM se milavAegA, usa samaya vicitra taraMgoM kA anubhava ho, dUSita saMskAroM kA udaya ho, taba sambhava hai hama vicalita ho jAe~ aura taba hama vipazyanA, anupazyanA yA saMbodhi sAdhanA ke mArga se svayaM ko alaga kara leN| isalie z2arUrI hai ki nIMva ke rUpa meM hamAre sAtha zIla-sambandha jur3a jAnA caahie| yAda kIjie usa rAjakumAra ko jisake jIvana meM prabala vairAgya udita huaa| Apa soca sakate haiM ki jisa rAjakumAra ke mana meM vairAgya bhAva Ae, usane kitanA adhika tyAga kiyA hogaa| dharma ke prati usake bhItara atyadhika zraddhA jagI hogI, taba kahIM koI rAjakumAra dIkSA lene kI soca sakatA hai| rAjakamAra ne saMnyAsa le liyA. lekina hajAroM saMnyAsI the| use jahA~ rahane ko jagaha mila pAI, vahA~ pahale se hI saikar3oM saMnyAsI the| nayA saMta thA, to bilkula daravAje ke pAsa sone kI jagaha milii| dUsare saMtoM kA AnA-jAnA jArI thaa| koI laghuzaMkA ke lie jA rahA thA, koI rAtri meM sAdhanA karane bAhara jA rahA thaa| isa taraha Ate-jAte saMtoM kI Thokara se, padacApa se vaha parezAna ho gayA, rAtabhara ThIka se so na sakA aura socane lagA subaha uThate hI vApasa apane rAjamahala calA jaauuNgaa| vaha vicalita ho gayA ki pahalI rAta meM itanA kucha jhelanA par3a rahA hai to jIvanabhara na jAne kitanA kucha jhelanA pdd'egaa| subaha uThakara jaise hI vaha jAne ko udyata haA, tabhI usake guru bhagavAna mahAvIra ne usase 26 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kahA- 'vatsa, kyA bAta hai, eka hI rAta meM itanA vicalita ho ge|' vaha cauMkA ki inheM kaise patA claa| mahAvIra ne kahA- 'vatsa, apane usa atIta ko yAda karo, jahA~ tuma eka hAthI the| jaMgala meM bhayAnaka Aga laga gaI thii| tumane sAre vanacaroM ko bacAne ke lie eka khAsa sthAna ke per3a-paudhe ukhAr3a die the tAki jagala ke prANI vahA~ Akara apanI rakSA kara ske| tuma bhI vahA~ the| acAnaka tumheM khujalI huI aura tumane eka pA~va Upara uThAyA aura tabhI eka kharagoza usa sthAna para Akara baiTha gyaa| tumheM lagA aho, maiMne sAre prANiyoM ke kalyANa ke lie unake prati karuNA aura dayA se prerita hokara sabako jagaha dI, phira kyoM na isa kharagoza ko bhI Azraya mila jaae| yaha socakara tumane pA~va Upara hI rkhaa| tIna dina-tIna rAta taka jaMgala jalatA rahA / jaise-taise Aga zAMta huI jaMgala ke prANI vApasa jaMgala meM cale ge| tIna dina Upara rahane ke kAraNa pA~va akar3a gyaa| jaise hI tumane pA~va nIce rakhA, tuma gira par3e aura mRtyu ko prApta hue / lekina usa karuNA ke prabhAva se tuma rAjakula meM utpanna hue| usa samaya jAnavara ke rUpa meM tumane itanI pIr3A sahana kara lI aura Aja tuma saMta hokara itanI bhI pIr3A bardAzta na kara paae|' taba usa saMta rAjakumAra ne mahAvIra kI vANI se udbodhita hokara punaH saMkalpa liyA ki aba cAhe jaisI sthitiyA~ kyoM na utpanna ho jAe~, maiM apane sAdhanA mArga se vicalita nahIM houuNgaa| ye mahAna rAjakumAra the 'megh'| __ yaba saba kahane kA tAtparya yaha hai ki hama apane jIvana meM sabase pahale zIloM kA pAlana karanA siikheN| sAdhanA kA dharAtala pakkA bana jAnA cAhie, tAki sAdhanA ke daurAna Ane vAlI bAdhAoM se vicalita na ho skeN| eka sAdhaka ko, eka AtApI tapasvI ko kaI taraha ke zIla aura vratoM kA pAlana karanA hotA hai, kyoMki jaba taka hama apane jIvana ko vrata-niyamoM ke aMkuza meM nahIM DAleMge, taba taka hamArA tana aura mana ucchRkhala sA~Da kI taraha idhara-udhara bhaTakatA rhegaa| jo svayaM ko nirvANa aura mokSa kI ora, nirvikAra dazA kI ora le jAnA cAhatA hai, svayaM ko indriyoM ke viSayoM se, indriyoM ke guNadharmoM se mukta karake karmabIjoM ko kATane meM tatpara ho rahA hai, use kaI taraha ke zIla, vrata, niyama-upaniyamoM ke aMkuza ke antargata rahanA hogaa| sAdhakoM ko surakSita rUpa se sAdhanA mArga para Age bar3hane ke lie inheM apanAnA hI hogaa| smaraNa rakheM, agara Apa bIsa dina mauna rakhakara sAdhanA kara rahe haiM, lekina ikkIsaveM dina | 27 For Personal & Private Use Only

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agara do miniTa kA bhI krodha kara liyA to ApakI sArI sAdhanA vyartha ho gii| jisane mahAvIra kI samiti-gupti ko, buddha ke zIla ko samajha liyA, use jIvana meM utAra liyA to vizvAsa karate haiM ki jIvana meM pratikUlatAoM ke Ane para vaha vicalita nahIM hogA, kyoMki pratikUlatAe~ to AtI hI haiM, hAniyoM kA sAmanA karanA hI par3egA, yahA~ koI bhI dutkAra sakatA hai| isalie zIloM kA pAlana ho| pahalA zIla hai - hiMsA kA tyAga / mana, vacana aura kAyA ke dvArA na to dravya hiMsA ho aura na hI bhAva hiMsA arthAt mana ke saMkalpa-vikalpa dvArA kisI kI hatyA nahIM karU~gA, kisI kA burA nahIM cAhU~gA / aisI vANI bolane se paraheja rakheMge, jisase dUsaroM ko Thesa pahu~catI ho| karkaza aura kaTu vANI kA upayoga nahIM kreNge| kisI kI nindA-AlocanA meM rasa nahIM leNge| kisI guru ke pAsa eka vyakti pahu~cA aura usane pUchA - prabhu, Atmazuddhi kA kyA mArga hai ? Atmasiddhi aura AtmajJAna prApta karane kA mArga btaaeN| taba guru ne kevala itanA hI kahA - aMdhA bana, baharA bana, gUMgA bana, laMgar3A bana, yahA~ se jA, basa itanA-sA hI mArga hai| vaha vyakti cauMkA, yaha kaisA mArga huaa| vaha guru ke bhI guru ke pAsa pahu~cA aura saba bAta khii| mahAguru ne kahA- mere ziSya ne tumheM sAdhanA kA sahI aura saTIka mArga samajhA diyA hai| maiMne jo jJAna use diyA thA, usane cAra zabdoM meM piro liyA hai| eka taraha se usane inheM jIvana kA zIla banA liyA hai| yuvaka ko samajha meM nahIM AyA, to mahAguru ne kahA- aMdhA bana arthAt dUsaroM ke doSoM ko mata dekha, parAI strI para galata naz2ara mata DAla / baharA bana arthAt dUsaroM kI nindA aura AlocanA mata suna, usameM rasa mata le aura svayaM kI prazaMsA sunane kI Adata jIvana se haTA de| dUsaroM kI nindA aura AlocanA sunane se tumhArA mana dUSita hogA aura prazaMsA sunane se ahaMkAra bar3hegA, ataH baharA bana / jabAna se gUMgA bana arthAt asatya mata bola, jihvA se karkaza vANI kA upayoga mata kr| laMgar3A bana arthAt g2alata jagaha para mata jA, kisI madirAlaya yA vezyAlaya jaise g2alata sthAna para jAne se bc| __ koI mujhase zIla ko jIne kA sAra pUche to maiM yahI kahU~gA- aMdhA bana, baharA bana, gUMgA bana aura laMgar3A bana / isa vAkya meM duniyAbhara ke zAstroM kA sAra aura navanIta samA gayA hai| z2yAdA jAnane aura par3hane kI z2arUrata hI nahIM hai| basa 28 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ina zabdoM ko apane hRdaya meM basA leM aura AcaraNa meM utAra leN| ina cAra zabdoM meM cAra veda, cAra Azrama aura saMyama kI cAra dizAe~ chipI haiN| buddha pahalA zIla kahate haiM hiMsA kA tyAga kareM / mana ke dvArA bure saMkalpavikalpa karane se paraheja rkheN| vANI ko saMyamita DhaMga se bolane kI koziza kreN| jo bAta taiza meM Akara bolate haiM, hama koziza kareM ki usI bAta ko premapUrvaka, zAMtipUrvaka kaha skeN| taba hamAre jIvana se krodha aura hiMsA kA saphAyA ho skegaa| mana, vacana aura kAyA ke dvArA hiMsA kA tyAga / agara hama hiMsA ke tyAga kA viveka rakheMge to vaira-virodha ke tyAga kA bhI saMkalpa rakha skeNge| anyathA hiMsA hI nahIM chUTI to vaira-virodha kahA~ se chUTa skegaa| kahane ko duniyA meM lAkhoM loga ahiMsA meM vizvAsa rakhate hoMge para lAkhoM meM zAyada ekAdha hI aisA hotA hogA, jo vaira-virodha na rakhatA ho / vaira-virodha rakhanA hI sabase bar3I hiMsA hai aura vaira-virodha kA tyAga karanA hI sabase bar3I ahiMsA hai| dhammapada meM buddha kA yaha prasiddha vacana hai- na hi vairaiNa vairANi sammati dha kudAcana, avaireNa ca sammaMti, esa dhammo sanaMtanoM / buddha kahate haiM- vaira se kabhI vaira zAMta nahIM hotA, avaira se, prema aura kSamA se hI vaira ko zAMta kiyA jA sakatA haiyahI sanAtana dharma hai| sanAtana dharma kI jaya bolane se koI dharma kI jaya nahIM hotI / sanAtana dharma yaha ki hama apane jIvana meM se vaira-virodha kI gA~Tha kholeN| hamAre kAraNa agara kisI ke vaira-virodha ke bhAva bana gae haiM to 'saoNrI' kaha deM, mAphI mA~ga leN| avasara DhU~Dha leM, jaise ki zAdI kA avasara, rAkhI kA avasara, varSItapa kA pAraNe kA avasara- inheM bhunA lo| isa artha meM ki Atma-zuddhi kA, parivAra ke milana kA maukA milA hai lAbha uThAo ki agara Apake dvArA kisI ke prati vaira-virodha haA hai to kSamA mA~ga lo aura apane yahA~ suavasara para Ane kA AmaMtraNa do| smaraNa rahe, do par3osiyoM ke makAna pAsa-pAsa ho sakate haiM, lekina z2arUrI nahIM hai ki unake mana bhI pAsa-pAsa hoN| donoM ke bIca meM bahuta dUrI ho sakatI hai| kinhIM kAraNoM se sambhava hai, donoM ke bIca TakarAva ho gayA ho, dUriyA~ bana gaI hoM, lekina kisI bhI avasara ke Ate hI jaise divAlI, holI yA paryuSaNa parva para ApasI gile-zikave miTAe jA sakate haiN| dekhA jAe to ye parva-tyauhAra hote hI isIlie haiM ki varSa bIta gayA, vyakti ko apane jIvana meM prema-sambandhoM ko phira se jor3a lenA caahie| agara hama vaira rakheMge to 29 For Personal & Private Use Only

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yaha Age ke janmoM taka bhI saMcArita rhegaa| do sautana mahilAe~ thiiN| unakA Apasa meM jabaradasta vaira-virodha thA / janmoM-janmoM taka donoM eka-dUsare ko nukasAna pahu~cAtI rahIM, unakA vaira miTatA hI na thaa| unameM se eka kisI janma meM yakSiNI bana gaI aura dUsarI kulakanyA ke rUpa meM janmI / bar3e hone para kulakanyA kI zAdI ho gii| usake santAna huI / taba usa yakSiNI ne apane jJAna se jAnA ki usakA kisase vaira-virodha rahA hai| use yAda A gayA, usane kulakanyA ko pahacAna liyaa| vaha vahA~ pahu~ca gaI aura usane bacce ko khA liyaa| kulakanyA ko bahuta pIr3A huI, vaha bhI pahacAna gii| yakSiNI ne kahA- maiM vahI hU~, jo sAta janmoM se terA pIchA karatI A rahI huuN| yAda rakha maiM tujhe kisI bhI hAlata meM zAMti se nahIM jIne duuNgii| kulakanyA ko dUsarI saMtAna huI, para vaha yakSiNI AI aura use bhI khA gii| tIsarI saMtAna kA bhI bhakSaNa kara liyaa| isa taraha krama calatA rhaa| taba pati-patnI ne nirNaya liyA ki isa bAra kI prasUti kulakanyA ke pIhara meM krvaaeNge| vaha pIhara calI gaI, baccA huA / baccA eka-do varSa kA ho gayA, taba usane socA aba to baccA bar3A ho gayA hai to koI dikkata nahIM hai| vaha cala par3I, rAste meM bacce ko dUdha pilAne ke lie baiThI to dekhA ki vahI yakSiNI A rahI hai| usane bacce ko goda meM uThAyA aura bhaagii| daur3ate-daur3ate bhagavAna buddha ke caitya-vihAra meM jA pahu~cI aura jAte hI apanA baccA unake zrIcaraNoM meM car3hA diyaa| A~khoM meM A~sU bharakara bolI- prabhu, mere bacce ko jIvanadAna diijie| vaha pretAtmA yakSiNI buddha ke caitya-vihAra meM praviSTa na ho sakI, kyoMki deva-deviyoM dvArA rakSita usa vihAra ke dvAra para hI yakSiNI ko roka diyA gyaa| jaba bhagavAna buddha ko patA calA to unhoMne kahA- yakSiNI ko andara bulAyA jaae| yakSiNI buddha ke sammukha upasthita huii| buddha ne kahA - bahina, soco isa taraha tuma kitane janma-janmAMtaroM taka vaira-virodha karatI rhogii| agara isa janma meM bhI tuma donoM ne eka-dUsare ko kSamA nahIM kiyA to ye sAta janma nahIM, agale sattara janma bhI gujAra loge| taba bhI eka-dUsare kA burA hI burA karate rhoge| agara tuma eka-dUsare kA bhalA karanA zurU kara do to isI janma meM tumhArA kalyANa ho sakatA hai| anyathA burA karate hue tumhArI AtmAoM kA uddhAra nahIM ho paaegaa| soco tuma apane lie kyA cAhate ho| taba buddha ne yaha gAthA kahI thii| unhoMne kahA- bahanoM. yahI | 30| For Personal & Private Use Only

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sanAtana dharma hai ki vaira se kabhI vaira zAMta aura samApta nahIM hotA, avaira se hI hama apane vaira-virodha ko dUra kara sakate haiN| isa bAta kI pratIkSA na karo ki sAmane vAlA hamase mAphI mA~ge / smaraNa rahe mAphI dene vAlA nahIM, mAphI mA~gane vAlA bar3A hotA hai| tuma Age bar3ho, z2arUrI nahIM hai ki tuma jisase kSamA mA~gane jA rahe ho, vaha bhI tumhArI vicAradhArA se mela rakhatA ho| tumhAre bhItara dayA, karuNA, prajJA jAgI, sacetanatA AI, maMgalabhAvanA uThI, lekina z2arUrI nahIM hai ki jo mitra-bhAva tumhAre bhItara uThA hai, vaha usake bhItara bhI jaage| apanI bhAvadazAoM meM zubha bhAvadhArA laao| zatru kA bhI bhalA caaho| Apake vicAroM meM A rahI nirmalatA se ApakA AbhAmaMDala bhI nirmala hogA aura isa taraha hama sAmane vAle ke bhAvoM ko nirmala karane meM avazya saphala hoNge| taya hai agara Apa Age bar3hate haiM to sAmane vAlA bhI Age bar3hane ko udyata ho sakatA hai| jo jhukatA hai, vahI duniyA ko jhukA sakatA hai| avasaroM ke upasthita hone para jarA bhI dera na kareM apane virodhiyoM ko nimaMtraNa dene meN| phira cAhe vaha vivAha kA maukA ho yA tapasyA kA avasara / jaba Apake nimaMtraNa para virodhI A jAe to samajha lenA ki tapasyA phalita ho gii| acchA vyavahAra karake hama dUsaroM ko bhI acchA karane kA maukA de dete haiN| sikaMdara vizva-vijaya kI bhAvanA se yUnAna se niklaa| z2Ahira hai, jise vizva-vijaya karanI hai, vaha hatyAe~ aura narasaMhAra karatA huA Age bar3ha rahA thaa| isI krama meM vaha bhArata ke takSazilA rAjya ke pAsa phuNcaa| jaba vaha takSazilA para AkramaNa karane ke lie udyata huA to vahA~ ke tatkAlIna rAjA ne yuddha ke bajAya dostI kA hAtha bar3hAnA caahaa| usane socA ki videza se AyA huA rAjA jo vizva-vijaya kI tamannA rakhatA hai to nizcaya hI vaha zaktizAlI hogA aura samajhadArI isI meM hai ki apane se adhika zaktizAlI se yuddha karane kI apekSA dostI kA saMdeza bhejeN| taba nareza sikaMdara ke sammukha upasthita hue aura pUchA ki tuma yahA~ khUna-kharAbA karane Ae ho yA sampatti adhigrahita karane / uttara milA ki sampatti lene / taba unhoMne kahA ki phira sampatti hI lo na, narasaMhAra karane kI kahA~ z2arUrata hai| sikaMdara ne kahA- bAta to ThIka hai| taba nareza ne kahA- eka lAkha svarNa mudrAoM ke sAtha maiM Apase dostI kA hAtha bar3hAtA huuN| sikaMdara cakita ho gayA- dostI ke sAtha eka lAkha svarNa mudrAe~ bhii| | 31 For Personal & Private Use Only

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taba sikaMdara ne mitratA kA hAtha bar3hAte hue nareza ko apanI ora se do lAkha svarNa-mudrAe~ arpita kIM aura jIvana kA pahalA pATha sIkhA ki jIvana meM sampatti se bhI adhika mUlyavAna mitratA hai| usane kahA- mAnA ki vaha lUTapATa karake dhana cAhatA hai, vizva - vijaya kI kAmanA karatA hai, para itanA kamajora bhI nahIM hai, mana kA itanA daridra bhI nahIM hai ki mitratA ke bar3he hue hAtha kI upekSA kara de yA dhana ke lAlaca meM hatyA karatA rhe| sikaMdara ne kahA- maiM mitratA z2arUra karU~gA aura eka lAkha svarNa mudrAoM ke badale do gunA upahAra lauTAU~gA / yaha thI mitratA kI pariNati / hama bhI mitratA ke hAtha bar3hAe~ / Aja nahIM to kala, zatru bhI mitratA ke lie taiyAra hoNge| hameM yAda rakhanA cAhie ki agara hama acchA vyavahAra kareMge to acchA vyavahAra lauTakara AegA / mitratA ke bhAva rakhane para punaH mitratA hI milegI / hiMsA ke tyAga se hI prema, karuNA, dayA bhAva, bhAIcAre kI bhAvanA udita hogI / anyathA sAdhanA bhI karate rahoge aura AcaraNa bhI ThIka nahIM karoge, to vaha sAdhanA kaba panapegI, jisase jIsasa kA vaha vacana phalita ho sake ki - 'koI tumhAre eka gAla para cA~TA mAre to dUsarA gAla bhI usake sAmane kara do|' hiMsA kA tyAga karake kyA hama isa taraha kI udAratA, karuNA kI bhAvanA lA sakeMge / gAlI dene vAle ko agara gIta lauTA sakeM to sAdhanA saphala huI anyathA sAdhanA ke nAma para mahaja TAimapAsa huA / kaha maiMne par3hA hai ki sikkhoM meM guru- vAkya aMtima hotA hai / agara guru ne diyA arthAt vaha brahma-vAkya ho gyaa| aisA huA ki eka guru ne apane do ziSyoM se kisI sthAna para cabUtarA banAne ke lie khaa| donoM ne milakara cabUtarA taiyAra kara diyA, para guru ko pasaMda na aayaa| unhoMne tor3akara punaH banAyA, lekina taba bhI guru ko pasaMda na aayaa| isa taraha nau-dasa bAra huA, taba eka ziSya ne kahA bhagavan ! Apa ThIka-ThIka batA dIjie ki cabUtarA kaisA banAnA hai| taba guru ne unheM batAyA ki aisA - aisA, amuka prakAra kA cabUtarA banAyA jaae| unake kahe anusAra donoM ziSyoM ne phira cabUtarA banAyA, lekina guru taba bhI saMtuSTa na hue| isa bAra to eka ziSya se rahA nahIM gayA / usane kahAlagatA hai Apa bUr3he ho gae haiM, jo bilkula Apake kahe anusAra cabUtarA banAne para bhI Apa ThIka se dekha nahIM pA rahe haiN| guru muskurAe / tabhI dUsare ziSya ne kahA- bhagavan ! Apane to acchI taraha samajhAyA thA, lagatA hai hamase hI kahIM 32 For Personal & Private Use Only

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cUka ho gaI hai| guru ne usakI pITha thapathapAI aura kahA- 'mujhe apanA uttarAdhikArI ghoSita karanA thA, maiM dekhanA cAhatA thA ki tuma donoM meM se kauna hai, jo sikkhoM kI guru-paramparA ko thAmane kA sAmarthya rakhatA hai / maiM tumheM apanA uttarAdhikArI ghoSita karatA hU~ / ' zAyada yaha kahAnI cauthe guru rAmadAsajI se sambandhita hai / vAstava meM ve dhairya kI kasauTI para, parIkSA meM khare utare aura uttarAdhikArI bana sake | isI taraha hama svayaM ko tauleM ki hamameM kitanA dhairya hai / hama sAdhanA - mArga ke pathika haiM, lekina hama kitane sahanazIla aura udAtta bhAva se bhare haiM, yaha dekheM / sAdhanA-mArga ke pathika ke lie dhairya hI ekamAtra saMbala hai / jIvana ke kisI bhI kSetra meM dhAraNa kiyA gayA pA~ca miniTa kA dhairya pacAsa miniTa kI azAMti se bacA letA hai| jaba dUsaroM ko acchA vyavahAra denA hai to dhairya bahuta jarUrI hai| eka dina kA jIvana jIne ke lie vyakti ko dinabhara meM na jAne kitanI taraha kI hiMsA karanI par3atI hai / eka samaya kA bhojana banAne meM bhI kaI taraha kI hiMsA karanI par3atI hai, lekina yaha mAnate hue ki yaha jIvana ke lie Avazyaka hiMsA hai, karanI hI par3atI hai, lekina jo anAvazyaka hai, vaha hiMsA kyoM kI jAe ? vaise bhI maiM kisI aupacArikatA ke lie hiMsA ke tyAga kI bAta nahIM kara rahA huuN| maiM insAniyata ke lie mAnavatA kA svarUpa kucha behatara ho sake, isalie hiMsA ke tyAga kI bAta kara rahA hU~ / Apa loga vaira-virodha, niMdA-AlocanA jaisI hiMsA se bhI bceN| kaTu vANI bolanA galata hai, to niMdA - AlocanA bhI nahIM kI jAnI caahie| jIvana meM adhika se adhika prema, zAMti, kSamA ke phUla khilAe~ / svayaM ko paMcazIla kI ora bar3hAne ke lie sAdhaka bhAI - bahanoM se anurodha karU~gA ki 'ahiMsA' unakA maz2abUta pAyA bane / ahiMsA se jiyeMge, ahiMsA hI ApakI chAyA ho aura ahiMsA hI ApakI AbhA / pUrA hoza, bodha aura viveka rahe ki vaira-virodha aura dveSa na ho / mahAvIra kA saMdeza hai ki pratyeka vyakti vItarAga, vItamoha aura vItadveSa bane / hama vItarAga yA vItamoha nahIM bana sakate to koI dikkata nahIM, kama se kama vItadveSa to avazya baneM / maiM apane bAre meM hI batAnA cAhU~gA ki jaba maiMne sAdhanA mArga para qadama bar3hAe to svayaM ko taulA ki maiM pUrI taraha se vItarAgI jIvana nahIM jI pAU~gA, kyoMki mere antarhRdaya meM prema z2yAdA hai| prema mere lie Izvara hai, prema hI prArthanA 33 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hai, prema svayaM sAdhanA hai| merI antara-sAdhanA ne mere bhItara prema ke hI phUla khilaae| maiM prema kA nirjhara banA / vItarAgatA-vItamoha honA prema se Upara uThane kI bAta karatA hai| mujhe lagA - maiM vItarAga-vItamoha nahIM ho sakatA, para vItadveSa hone kI sAdhanA kara sakatA huuN| yAnI kisI ke prati, kisI bhI paristhiti meM dveSa kI kaTAra nahIM calane deNge| agara lagA ki kisI ke mana meM hamArI vajaha se Thesa pahuMca gaI hai dasa bAra nahIM, sau bAra bhI 'saoNrI' kahanA par3e to majhe takalIfa nahIM hogii| kisI bhI paristhiti meM vaira-virodha nahIM paaleNge| choTe-choTe jIvoM ko bhale hI na bacA pAe~ lekina apanI AtmA ko girane se to bacA sakate haiM ! vaira-virodha na pAlane kA bhAva to pUrA AsthA ke sAtha svIkAra kara sakate haiN| sabhI ke sAtha prema se mileN| zaMkA, saMdeha, avizvAsa na rakheM, anyathA ApakA vizvAsa aura bharosA TUTatA jaaegaa| zraddhA rkheN| prema ke badale meM prema lauTatA hai aura vidveSa ke badale meM vidveSa hI lauTatA hai| havAe~ agara sIdhI caleMgI to phUloM kI khuzabU bhI sIdhI ora bhegii| havA agara ulTI calegI to phUloM kI khuzabU bhI viparIta dizA meM jaaegii| hamAre pAsa agara ahiMsA kA, prema kA zIla hogA to viparIta dizAoM meM bhI hamAre vyavahAra kI suvAsa aaegii| calane vAle rAhagIra ke hAtha meM agara eka dIpaka ho, taba bhI aMdhakAra kama hotA hai| dIpaka bar3hate gae to aMdhakAra dUra, bahUta dUra calA jaaegaa| hama paMcazIloM ko apanAkara apane jIvana ko prakAzita kara sakeM / isI maMgalabhAvanA ke sAtha premapUrNa namaskAra ! 34 w

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vipazyanA : Akhira kyA hai ? 'vipazyanA' jIvana kI Antarika aura AdhyAtmika saccAiyoM se mulAkAta karane kA sAdhanAmUlaka mArga hai| yaha svAnubhUti kA mArga hai| 'vipazyanA' zabda kA artha hai vizeSa rUpa se kisI bhI satya ko bhalIbhA~ti dekhanA aura jaannaa| 'pazya' kA artha hai dekhanA aura 'vipazya' arthAt vizeSa prakAra se dekhnaa| haz2AroM varSa pUrva bhagavAna mahAvIra aura bhagavAna buddha ne aneka bAra isa zabda kA prayoga kiyA hai| mahAvIra jise 'anupazyanA' kahate haiM, usI ko buddha 'vipazyanA' kahate haiN| 'anupazyanA' arthAt lagAtAra dekhanA aura 'vipazyanA' arthAt vizeSa rUpa se dekhanA / isa mArga para calakara aneka logoM ne saMbodhi kA prakAza upalabdha kiyA hai, apane jIvana meM 'arhatA' ko prApta kiyA hai, aneka loga siddha, buddha, mukta aura arihaMta hue haiN| mujhe yaha mArga vizva kI sabase sarala paddhatiyoM meM pratIta hotA hai| samajha meM Ane para isase sarala anya koI mArga nahIM ho sktaa| 'vipazyanA' vaha mArga hai, jise baccA, yuvaka yA bujurga sabhI apanA sakate haiN| isa mArga meM hama una ajJAta | 35 For Personal & Private Use Only

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yA adRzya vastuoM se nahIM jur3ate haiM, jinheM abhI dekhA yA jAnA nahIM hai| yaha mArga hameM aise tattvoM se jor3atA hai, jo hameM apane satya se mulAkAta karavAtA hai| yaha mArga hameM apane vartamAna satya se mukhAtiba karavAtA hai| jinakI pratyakSa anubhUti ho sakatI hai, una tattvoM se yaha mArga hameM jor3atA hai| yaha mArga satya se sAkSAtkAra karane kA mArga hai| cAhe pataMjali kA rAjayoga ho, mahAvIra kI anupazyanA ho yA buddha kI vipazyanA- ye sAre mArga iMsAna ko usake vAstavika satya se mulAkAta karavAte haiM, AdhyAtmika satya se| yU~ to sAre dharmazAstra AtmA aura paramAtmA kI bAteM karate haiM, insAna ko jitendriya hone kI preraNA dete haiM, hamAre dvArA saMcita karmoM se chuTakArA pAne kI bAta karate haiM, lekina hama apane karma-mala ko kaise dhoe~, apanI indriyoM ke guNadharmoM se kaise uparata hoM, hama apanI kAyA aura kAyA ke upadravoM se kaise mukta hoM, hamAre jIvana ke astitvagata mUla tattva kyA haiM, una satyoM se kaise vAqifa hoM, isake lie aisA vaijJAnika mArga talAzanA hogA jo tarka ke bhI anurUpa ho, hamArI pratyakSa anubhUti meM bhI A sakatA ho- aisA mArga 'vipazyanA' kA hai| yaha mArga hameM sabase pahale apanI sA~soM se jor3atA hai| sA~soM se jor3akara hameM hamA: andara vyApta cAra prakAra kI mukhya saccAiyoM se pratyakSa anubhUtipUrvaka mulAkAta karavAtA hai| sA~sa se zurU huI yAtrA sabase pahale hameM hamArI kAyA se milavAtI hai| dUsare- hamArI kAyA ke bhItara jo alaga-alaga taraha ke upadrava uThate haiM- cAhe ve bhUkha, bhoga, vAyu, kapha, pitta ke vikAra hoM yA sukha-duHkhamUlaka saMvedanA yA ahasAsa hoM / inake prati sAkSI, jJAtA, dRSTA hone kA mArga vipazyanA se milatA hai| dUsarI saccAI yaha hai ki hamAre bhItara uThane aura vilIna hone vAle sukhaduHkha, anukUla aura pratikUla saMvedana rahate haiN| vipazyanA inakA sAkSI banAtA hai| tIsarI saccAI hai- antaramana, citta, citta ke saMskAra, inakI dhArAe~, mana ke bhItara uThane vAle udvega aura saMvega, vibhinna prakAra kI kalpanAe~, smRtiyA~, rAga-dveSa ke saMskAra - vipazyanA hameM isa tIsare satya se mulAkAta karavAtA hai, kyoMki isI se hama apane jIvana kI samasta gatividhiyA~ saMcAlita karate haiN| cauthA satya jisase mukhAtiba hote haiM, vaha hai- hamAre jIvana ke maulika dharma, anukUla dharma, pratikUla dharma, vAsanAmUlaka dharma, karuNAmUlaka dharma / kucha dharma to hameM virAsata meM milate haiM, kucha zAstroM se milate haiM, lekina vipazyanA kA 36 For Personal & Private Use Only

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mArga hameM jIvana ke vAstavika dharma se paricita karAtA hai| vipazyanA kA mArga sthUla se sUkSma kI ora, bAhara se bhItara kI ora le jAne vAlA mArga hai| bAhara kI azAMti ko miTAkara bhItara kI zAMti ko udaya karane vAlA mArga hai| hoza aura bodhapUrvaka bodhilAbha ke sAtha apane jIvana ko jIne kA mArga hai| jaba hama isa mArga para calane ke lie tatpara ho rahe haiM to hameM bAhara kI smRtiyoM ko, bAhara ke sambandhoM ko, bAhara kI mulAkAtoM ko, bAhara ke rasa, raMga, rAga ko kama karane ke prati jAgarUka ho jAnA cAhie, kyoMki yaha mArga vizuddha rUpa se svayaM se sAkSAtkAra karane kA mArga hai / yaha hamAre bhItara palane vAle duHkha-daurmanasya ke avasAna kA mArga hai| hamAre bhItara rahe hue vaira-virodha ke samAptikaraNa kA mArga hai| yaha hameM bAhara ke bhaTakAvoM se haTAkara antaryAtrA ke lie tatpara karatA hai| yadi hama loga bAhara ke rasa, raMga, rAga meM ruci lete rahe to apane vAstavika satya se mulAkAta nahIM kara paaeNge| hameM bAhara ke AkarSaNa se mukta hokara bhItara ke AkarSaNa meM jAnA hai| vipazyanA- palakoM ko jhukAkara yA palakoM ko kholakara bhI kI jA sakatI hai| dUsare mArgoM meM virodhAbhAsa bhI ho sakatA hai, lekina maiM ise bilkula sIdhA sarala mArga mAnatA huuN| isa sAdhanA-paddhati meM kahIM koI bAdhA nahIM hai, jo hai basa use jAna rahe haiM, usake prati jAga rahe haiM, smRtimAna ho rahe haiN| basa, yahI isa mArga kI sabase bar3I vizeSatA hai| jo hai, jaba isase apanI pratyakSa anubhUti jor3a rahe haiM, usa daurAna citta meM koI avarodha A gayA, citta bhaTaka gayA, taba bhI yaha mArga yaha nahIM kahatA ki tumhArA citta bhaTaka gayA hai to ise bAra-bAra kaMTrola kro| yaha mArga batAtA hai ki tuma kevala sA~soM para dhyAna dharo / isa bIca agara koI tattva AkarSita kara le to yaha mata samajho ki tuma bhaTaka gae ho, balki yaha dekho ki tumhArA citta kisa tattva ke prati AkarSita huaa| jisane bhI tumhAre citta ko AkarSita kiyA hai, usa tattva ke prati aba tuma jAga jaao| tuma taba taka jage hue raho jaba taka ki tumhArA dhyAna, tumhArI jAgarUkatA punaH svataH hI zvAsoM para kendrita na ho jaae| yaha mArga ekAgratA kA mArga nahIM hai| yaha to sIdhe tarIke se jo kucha ho rahA hai, usakI pratyakSa anubhUti karane kI salAha detA hai| jIvana meM na kucha acchA hai, na kucha burA hai, na kucha ucita hai aura na kucha anucita hai| yaha mArga hameM batAtA hai ki anukUlatA meM rAga aura pratikUlatA meM dveSa mata karo, kyoMki donoM hI do pala kI alaga-alaga paristhitiyA~ haiM / yahA~ to 37 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hara pala parivartanazIla hai| vyakti, vicAra, zabda, paristhitiyA~, khAnA-pInA, bhoga, deha, vyavasthAe~, prakRti, jagata - yahA~ to sabhI parivartanazIla haiN| isa parivartanazIlatA kA hameM pratyakSa anubhUti meM jJAtA honA hai| parivartanazIlatA kA guNadharma samajha meM A gayA to samajho adhyAtma kI bAjI jIta lii| samatA aura samarasatA svataH A gaI / isalie yaha mArga koI Agraha yA durAgraha nahIM krtaa| basa jo hai, usase mulAkAta karavAtA hai| jo hameM pratyakSa anubhUti meM A rahA hai, usase mulAkAta karanA hai| usake prati svayaM ko jAgarUka karanA hotA hai| satya jaisA hai, tattva jaisA hai, prakRti jaisI hai, use hoza aura bodhapUrvaka jAnate rahanA hai| AtyaMtika rUpa se jAnanA hai| vipazyanA tIna caraNoM meM kI jA sakatI hai - eka- hama apane jIvana kI dainika gatividhiyoM ko, jaise- khAte-pIte, calate-phirate, saMcAlita karate hue vipazyanA kara sakate haiN| mAnA ki hama khAnA khA rahe haiM to jAgarUkatApUrvaka, bhalIbhA~ti use dekhate hue khA rahe haiM, to vaha bhojana karanA bhI vipazyanA hI khlaaegaa| abhI to hama kaise khAte haiM, Apa jAnate haiN| sAmane thAlI rakhI hai, SaTrasa vyaMjana haiM, para khAne ke sAtha gappeM cala rahI haiM, vyApAra ho rahA hai, phonamobAila sune jA rahe haiM, TI.vI. ke Age baiTha gae haiM, krikeTa maica ho rahA hai, koI sIriyala dekhA jA rahA hai aura sAtha meM bhojana bhI ho rahA hai| patnI ne bar3e mana se ApakI pasaMda kA bhojana banAyA hai, para Apako kucha patA nahIM cala rahA / jaisetaise peTa meM ur3ela rahe haiN| yaha bhI koI bhojana karanA huA / na svAda kA Ananda, na bhojana ke prati hoza aura bodha / agara Apa cala rahe haiM aura pratyeka kadama ko jAgarUkatApUrvaka rakha rahe haiM to kaha sakate haiM ki vipazyanA kI jA rahI hai| taba ApakA manoyoga, kAyayoga, prajJA, buddhi aura jAgarUkatA bhI usase jur3I huI hogii| kabhI-kabhI apane hAtha meM eka gilAsa jUsa yA zarbata yA dUdha le lo aura kahIM ekAMta meM baiTha jAo aura pandraha miniTa taka dhIre-dhIre use piio| usakA eka-eka bUMTa bar3I madhuratA aura svAda ke sAtha vipazyanA karate hue piyo / isa sevana karane kI, grahaNa karane kI vipazyanA meM pahalI bAra Apako rasa aura vastu kI vAstavika sthiti kA patA cala paaegaa| pahale pahala Apako gilAsa, pyAlA aura drava dikhAI degaa| Apako piMDa naz2ara AegA, lekina jyoM-jyoM vipazyanA gaharI hogI, astittva kA sArA sambandha usameM naz2ara Ane lgegaa| jaba pyAlA hoMThoM se lagAyA to drava 38 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kI USNatA yA zItalatA mahasUsa hogI aura anukUla yA pratikUla saMvedana kA anubhava hogaa| saMvedanA kI gahanatA se hameM patA calegA ki yaha drava kisa padArtha kA hai| taba usameM vanaspati kI gaMdha, sambandha anubhava hogA / vanaspati ke jIvana kA tattva naz2ara AegA aura taba eka AtmIya bhAva umar3egA aura jaba mu~ha meM eka chUTa rakheMge, taba hamAre bhItara ke pratyeka aNu meM usa svAda kI anubhUtiyA~ mahasUsa hoNgii| yaha gaharI vipazyanA kI pariNati hogii| vipazyanA kA eka dUsarA rUpa hai - vipazyanA caMkramaNa / caMkramaNa kA artha hai calanA arthAt calate hue vipazyanA krnaa| vizeSa rUpa se jisa dina pUrNimA kI rAta ho Apa usa dina kisI ekAMta pagaDaMDI yA ghara kI chata kA cayana kara leM aura cA~da kI rozanI meM vipazyanA caMkramaNa kreN| bIsa se tIsa miniTa taka vahA~ TahaleM / isa Tahalate samaya hama jo pA~va z2amIna para rakha rahe haiM, usa pA~va ke z2amIna se ho rahe sparza ko mahasUsa kreN| hama apanA pA~va AhistA se rakheM aura AhistA se uThAte hue Age bar3he ki hameM z2amIna ke sparza kA bhI anubhava ho / pA~va meM hone vAlI viziSTa saMvedanAoM kA bhI anubhava ho| yaha A~kha kholakara kI jAne vAlI vipazyanA hai| isameM hama apanI sacetanatA ko jor3a rahe haiN| mahAvIra ne ise hI samiti aura gupti kahA, buddha ise vipazyanA caMkramaNa kahate haiM / sAdhanA meM aise hI gaharAI AtI hai, basa layalIna hone kI, svayaM ko tallIna karane kI z2arUrata hai| maiMne sunA hai, haidarAbAda ke niz2Ama ke mana meM yaha icchA jAgrata huI ki vaha lakhanaU ke prasiddha saMgItakAra kA saMgIta sune| usane unheM AmaMtrita kiyA, lekina saMgItakAra ne zarta rakhI ki vaha A to jAegA, lekina usakA saMgIta sunate hue koI bhI tAlI na bajAe aura na hI sira hilaae| agara kisI ne aisA kiyA to usakA sira kalama karanA hogaa| niz2Ama ke mana meM bAra-bAra tamannA uThatI thI ki vaha usa saMgItakAra kA saMgIta sune / niz2Ama ne usakI zarta kabUla kara lI aura ghoSaNA bhI karavA dI ki jo bhI vyakti saMgIta sunane Ae vaha usa saMgItakAra kI zarta para hI Ae anyathA ise rAjAjJA kA ullaMghana mAnA jAegA aura usakA sira dhar3a se alaga kara diyA jaaegaa| kaI loga jo usakA saMgIta sunane meM ruci rakhate the, phira bhI marane ke Dara se na Ae / lekina kucha rasika zrotA phira bhI Ae aura aise baiTha gae mAno mandira meM mUrti ho / saMgIta zurU huaa| loga patthara ke buta kI taraha baiThe rahe, hile bhI 139 For Personal & Private Use Only

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nhiiN| saMgIta gahana hotA gayA, yahA~ taka ki logoM kI zvAsa ruka gaI aura tabhI acAnaka saMgIta banda ho gyaa| usane naz2ara uThAI aura dekhA ki loga butoM kI taraha baiThe haiM, phira bhI kucha logoM kI gardana dhIre-dhIre hila rahI hai| saMgIta ke rukate hI rAjA ne bhI logoM kI ora dekhA use bhI vahI naz2ArA dikhAI diyaa| kucha loga tallIna ho gae haiM, mastI le rahe haiM aura gardana bhI hilA rahe haiN| saMgItakAra ne kahA ye jo kucha loga haiM, inheM alaga le jAyA jaae| una logoM kA dhyAna TUTA, ve cauMke, are ! hamane yaha kyA kara diyaa| zeSa logoM ko ravAnA kara diyaa| sabhI vicalita ho gae ki rAjAjJA to hama bhUla hI gae, aba hamArI gardana alaga kara dI jaaegii| jaise hI gardana alaga karane ke lie sainika AyA, saMgItakAra ne kahAThaharo / usane batAyA ki maiMne kahA thA ki jo loga sira hilAe~ unake sira kalama kara die jAe~ phira Apa logoM ne sira kyoM hilaae| una logoM ne batAyA- hama soca kara baiThe the ki kisI bhI hAlata meM apanI gardana nahIM hilAe~ge, lekina saMgIta kI gaharAI meM, usakI madhuratA meM itane tallIna ho gae ki hameM patA bhI na calA ki kaba gardana hilane lgii| pUchA gayA ki ve rAjAjJA ko bhI bhUla ge| uttara milA ki rAjAjJA kA bhI koI bodha na rahA, hama to saMgIta meM itane DUba gae ki saba kucha bhulA baitthe| rAjA ne kahA- ina logoM kI gardana ur3A dI jaae| saMgItakAra ne kahA- Thaharo ! rAjan ye hI ve pAtra haiM, jo mere saMgIta ko sunane kI vAstavika kSamatA rakhate haiN| are vaha saMgIta hI kyA jise sunakara vyakti duniyA ko na bhulA sake, jisa saMgIta ko sunakara vyakti apane prANadaMDa kI rAjAjJA hI bhulA de| saMgIta vahI sArthaka hai, jisameM layalIna hokara vyakti saba kucha bhUla jaae| aisA saMgIta sunane kA hakadAra bhI vahI vyakti hai, jise kucha bhI sudha-budha na rhe| kahate haiM taba usa saMgItajJa ne anya logoM ko vidA kara diyA aura ina cuniMdA logoM ke lie apanA sarvazreSTha saMgIta prastuta kiyaa| vipazyanA bhI eka aisA hI mArga hai, jisameM svayaM ko saMgIta kI taraha layalIna kara lenA hogaa| vipazyanA kI jAgarUkatA meM, sAdhanA meM, svayaM kI AtmasmRti meM jo layalIna ho gayA ki jise anya kisI bAta kI sudhabudha hI nahIM rahI, vahI vAstava meM isa mArga kA saccA pathika ho skegaa| yaha vaha mArga hai, jisameM svayaM kI AdhyAtmika unnati ke lie, svayaM kI saccAiyoM se muqhAtiba hone ke lie, svayaM kI pratyakSa anubhUti ke lie apane ko lagAnA 1401 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hogaa| svayaM meM datta-citta karanA hogaa| phira yaha kArya cAhe A~kheM kholakara kareM yA banda krke| agara A~kheM kholakara karate haiM to jAgarUkatApUrvaka pratyeka gatividhi ko saMcAlita karanA hogaa| palakeM jhukAkara agara bhItara kI vipazyanA kareMge to svayaM ke prati jAgarUka aura sacetana honA hogA, kyoMki svayaM se mulAkAta karanI hai| dhairyapUrvaka svayaM se jur3anA hogaa| jo jAge so pAve, jo sove so khove / jo svayaM ke prati jAgrata hotA hai, vahI svayaM ko prApta karatA hai| dhyAna karate hae agara eka pala kA bhI pramAda A gayA to ApakI vipazyanA vyartha ho gii| aisI dazA meM Apa khar3e ho jAe~ aura apane pramAda ko, behozI ko dUra kareM aura svayaM ko dekheM ki Apa kahA~ laTaka ge| sAdhaka kI pahalI tAkata, pahalI baisAkhI, pahalI zakti, pahalI A~kha aura pahalA guru apramAda hai| pramAda ke sAtha koI bhI sAdhanA ke rAste para Age nahIM bar3ha sakatA hai| apramAda sAdhanA kA anivArya tattva hai| mAnA ki sAdhaka ke bhItara lakSya hai, adhyAtma ke prati rasaraMga hai, svayaM ke satya ko jAnane ke prati gaharI pyAsa, gaharI mumukSA hai, lekina inase bhI adhika z2arUrI hai hamArA apramAda / smaraNa rahe, Alasya, pramAda, mUrchA yA behozI ke sAtha sAdhanA karane para nirantara jAgarUkatA na raha sakegI aura hamArA citta kahIM aura bhaTaka jaaegaa| vipazyanA kA artha hI hai - bhalIbhA~ti, jAgarUkatApUrvaka dekhanA, dekha-dekhakara punaH punaH dekhanA, apane-Apa se apanI anubhUti ko jodd'naa| jaba Apa AinA dekha rahe haiM, usameM svayaM ko nihAra rahe haiM, ki tabhI acAnaka Apake mana meM zRMgAra karane kA bhAva A jAe to Apake citta kI dhArA svataH zRMgAra kI ora baha jaaegii| taba bhale hI Apa darpaNa ke sAmane hoM, para zRMgAra ke bhAva uThane lgeNge| vipazyanA meM hamArI kAyA nahIM, citta yA mana hI vizrAma karatA hai| aise meM agara mana bhaTakane lage to vizrAma nahIM ho paataa| soceM vipazyanA soe-soe hogI yA jAgakara ? sAmAnya rUpa se dekhane ke lie bhI A~kha lagAnI hotI hai aura vizeSa rUpa se dekhane ke lie to pUrI jAgarUkatA rakhanI hotI hai| jaba kA~TA cubha jAe, taba bhI pUrA dhyAna lagAkara hameM dekhanA par3atA hai to hamAre andara jo upadrava uThate haiM, rAga-dveSa ke saMskAra, saMkalpavikalpa ke vicAra uThate haiM, unheM dekhane ke lie, jAnane aura bAhara nikAlane ke lie bAhya jAgarUkatA se kaI gunA adhika bhItara kI jAgarUkatA ke lie tatpara honA hogaa| apane prati datta-citta hokara jAgarUka hue binA vipazyanA na ho 41 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sakegI, dhyAna bhI na hogaa| taba Apake lie pUjA, prArthanA, bhakti, japa, jApa kA mArga hI ucita rhegaa| vipazyanA tabhI pariNAma degI, jaba hama apane citta ko, apanI antarAtmA ko, apanI buddhi aura apanI prajJA ko jAgarUkatA aura hozapUrvaka usake sAtha jor3eMge, ekarUpa kareMge, ekalaya kreNge| hama loga dIpaka aura TaoNrca ke bAre meM jAnate haiN| dIpaka kA prakAza cAroM ora phailatA hai aura TaoNrca kA prakAza eka bindu ko prakAzita karatA hai| jaba hameM kisI bArIka cIja ko DhU~DhanA hotA hai to hama TaoNrca kA upayoga karate haiN| mAnA ki dIpaka kA prakAza cAroM ora prakAzita hotA hai, lekina agara hameM vipazyanA karanI hai to hameM apanI sacetanatA aura jAgarUkatA ko TaoNrca kI taraha, kisI prakAza-rekhA kI taraha upayoga karanA hogA, hoza aura bodha ko kendrita karanA hogaa| vipazyanA karate hue hameM svayaM ko svayaM meM pratiSThita karanA hai| vipazyanA pala-pala jAgane kA mArga hai| jAgarUkatA aura bhaTakAva sAthasAtha nahIM cala skte| sAgara meM lahareM aura citta meM saMskAra uThanA sahaja prakRti hai, lekina isase parezAna hone kI z2arUrata nahIM hai| ise bhI pratyakSa anubhUti meM lAnA hai, ise jAnanA hai binA pratirodha ke, tabhI hama isase mukta ho skeNge| bAdhA DAlane se yaha bAra-bAra AMdolita hogaa| isalie binA vicalita hue apanI hara dhArA ke prati jaageN| yahI vipazyanA hai| vipazyanA Apako vartamAna meM udayavilaya kA sAkSI banAtI hai| na bhUta, na bhaviSya, jo hai, vaha Aja abhI isa vartamAna kSaNa meM hai| vipazyanA meM vyakti jo ho rahA hai, usake prati apane sAkSI bhAva ko vikasita karane kA abhyAsa karatA hai| prayAsa nahIM, abhyAsa ! kyoMki bAta eka hI dina meM nahIM sdhegii| mahAvIra prabhu ko bhI sAr3he bAraha varSa meM apanI anupazyanA-vipazyanA kA pariNAma prApta huA thaa| bhagavAna buddha bhI chaH varSa meM vipazyanA kI pariNati pA sake the| khUba tapAyA svayaM ko, bhUkhe rahe, atyanta aparigraha aura tyAga ko jiyA, taba bhI sAr3he chaH varSa laga ge| hama loga jo tapa-tyAga karate haiM, vaha kevala svayaM ko sAMtvanA denA hai| hama to upavAsa ekAsana meM mana ko rAjI kara lete haiM ki Aja hamArA vrata hai| jarA una tapasviyoM ke bAre meM soceM, jinhoMne gahana tapasyAe~ kI aura khAne ko kyA milA ? ur3ada ke bAkule ! bhagavAna mahAvIra ko sAr3he pA~ca mAha kI tapasyA ke bAda yahI to khAne ko milA thA n ! aura hama jIbha ke svAda ke pIche bhAge jAte haiN| ___ aisA na soceM ki Aja vipazyanA prArambha kI aura kala hama siddha-buddha ho 42|| For Personal & Private Use Only

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jaaeNge| isa gafalata meM na rheN| bIja bote hI per3a nahIM ugtaa| hameM bIja bonA hogA, sIMcanA hogA, rakhavAlI karanI hogii| hamAre bhItara rAga-dveSa kI itanI gaharI patharIlI parte jamI huI haiM ki unheM dhIre-dhIre samajhakara ughAr3anA hogaa| eka dina meM hI saba kucha nahIM hone vAlA hai| dhIre-dhIre svayaM se mulAkAta kareMge aura vipazyanA ke arthabodha ko jagAe rkheNge| yahA~ sAdhaka ko AtApI honA hogA, sAdhanA kI gaharAiyoM meM tapanA hogaa| apanI smRti ko, bodha ko lagAtAra svayaM ke sAtha jor3anA hogaa| duHkhadaurmanasya, vikAra-vAsanAe~ sabhI zAnta aura vilIna hote jAe~ge- jaise-jaise hama zAnta aura antara-vilIna hote jaaeNge| yadi sAdhaka ke citta meM inake upadrava uThate haiM, to isakA matalaba hai, hama abhI taka zAMti ko gaharAI taka nahIM sAdha pAe, gaharAI taka nahIM utAra paae| jaise-jaise saMkalpa-vikalpoM kI havAe~ zAnta hoMgI, bhItara meM taraMgAyita hone vAlI krodha, vikAra, bhoga kI lahareM bhI zAnta hotI jaaeNgii| yaha dhIraja kA mArga hai, yaha zamana kA mArga hai, zAnti kA mArga hai| yaha hoza aura bodhapUrvaka jIne kA mArga hai| basa, AtApI bano, eka hI bodha rakho ki maiM zAnta ho rahA hU~, zAnti meM praveza kara rahA hU~, citta ko zAnta kara rahA huuN| upazamana kA bhAva gaharA hote hI saba kucha zAnta ho jaaegaa| taba sahaja svAnubhUti kA vAtAvaraNa taiyAra ho jaaegaa| kahate haiM- buddha ne apane priya ziSya se kahA, 'Ananda ! z2arA amuka jhIla se pAnI le jAo, grahaNa kreNge|' Ananda jhIla para gayA, para jhIla se abhIabhI bailagAr3I gujarakara gaI thI, so pAnI gaMdalA thaa| vaha vApasa lauTa aayaa| usane kahA, 'bhagavan ! kyA dUsare sarovara se pAnI le AU~ ?' buddha ne kahA, 'pAnI usI se lAnA hai| thor3I dera bAda le aanaa|' Ananda vApasa gayA, para use lagA pAnI itanA nirmala nahIM hai ki bhagavAna kI sevA meM samarpita kiyA jA ske| vaha punaH lauTa aayaa| buddha ne saMdhyAkAla meM phira Ananda se kahA, 'z2arA punaH jAo aura jala le aao|' Ananda isa bAra jala lekara AyA, kyoMki pAnI aba taka pUrNa nirmala ho cukA thaa| pAnI pIte hue buddha ne kahA, 'kyA kucha samajhe ?' ziSya ne kahA - 'matalaba ?' buddha ne javAba diyA, 'vatsa ! jhIla kI taraha hI hamArA mana hai, citta hai, yaha bhI bhItara-bAhara gujaratI bailagAr3iyoM ke kAraNa dUSita hai, para yadi vipazyI sAdhaka bhItara kA dhyAna karate hue dhairya dhAraNa 43 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kara le to jala kI taraha yaha bhI nirmala aura grAhya ho jAtA hai|' hamameM se hara kisI ko yaha preraka dRSTAnta yAda rakhanA cAhie aura dhairyapUrvaka svayaM se mulAkAta karanI caahie| Ao, hama buddha ke sAnnidhya meM vipazyanA kA Ananda lete haiN| kahate haiM - hajAroM varSa pahale bhagavAna buddha kisI pUrNimA ke dina apane sAdhaka-sAdhikAoM, bhikSuoM aura zrAvakoM ko ekatrita kie hue azoka-vRkSa kI pAvana aura zItala chAyA meM baiThe hae the| sarovara kI ThaMDI havAe~ aura laharoM kI dhvani A rahI thI, kahIM-kahIM juganU camaka rahe the, cir3iyoM kI cahacahAhaTa sunAI de rahI thI, usa samaya bhagavAna buddha ne vipazyanA ke sambandha meM mahAna udbodhana diyA thA, jisameM vipazyanA kA sArA marma chipA huA thaa| ___ bhagavAna buddha ne 'mahAsati paTTAna sutta' ke nAma se jo pAvana upadeza diyA thA, usameM vipazyanA kA sArA mArga aura rAz2a chipA huA hai| vaha upadeza kuru nAmaka pradeza meM diyA gyaa| kahA jAtA hai ki eka samaya bhagavAna kuru pradeza meM karmAsa dharma nAma ke kuruoM ke nigama meM vihAra karate the| vahA~ bhagavAna ne bhikSuoM ko AmaMtrita kiyA aura kahA- he bhikSuo ! he sAdhako ! taba una bhikSuoM aura sAdhakoM ne bhagavAna ko pratyuttara diyA- bhadanta AjJA diijie| taba bhagavAna ne kahA- he bhikSuo, he sAdhaka bhAiyo ! ye jo cAra smati-prasthAna haiM. ve satvoM kI zuddhi, zoka aura kraMdana kA vinAza, duHkha aura daurmanasya kA avasAna, satya kI prApti aura nirvANa kA sAkSAtkAra ina sabake lie akelA mArga hai| jaba koI kevala jJAnI apanI taraMga meM kucha kahanA cAhatA hai to apane sAdhakoM ko ekatrita karatA hai aura unheM jIvana kA saMdeza detA hai| aisA rojaroja nahIM hotaa| yaha ghaTanA to kabhI-kabhI ghaTatI hai ki vaha apane pAe hue satya ko dUsare ke sAmane udghATita kara unheM bhI satya se sAkSAtkAra karane kA AmaMtraNa detA hai| vaha usa mArga ko batAtA hai, jisa para calakara iMsAna apane astittva kI vizuddhi prApta karatA hai, zoka aura kraMdana kA vinAza karatA hai, antaramana meM palane vAle duHkha aura daurmanasya kA avasAna karatA hai, apane vAstavika satya kI prApti karate hue mahAparinirvANa, mahAmokSa ko upalabdha hotA hai| buddha kahate haiM cAra smRti / prasthAna haiM - kAyA kI anupazyanA, vedanA kI anupazyanA, citta kI anupazyanA aura dharma kI anupazyanA / arthAt anupazyanA ke ye cAra caraNa haiN| z2arUrI nahIM hai ki pratidina cAroM hI tattvoM kI vipazyanA For Personal & Private Use Only

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anupazyanA kreN| bhagavAna ne hameM cAra dharAtala batA die, hameM apane lie jo anukUla lage usa dharAtala ko apane sAtha jor3a leN| __ prathama abhyAsa ke lie kramazaH caraNa svIkAra kreN| pahale sthUla kI anupazyanA, pahale sthUla kA dhyAna, sthUla kA jJAna, sthUla para sacetanatA, phira sUkSma para sacetanatA / sthUla, jo anubhava meM A rahA hai, jaba usI para pUre sacetana nahIM ho pAte, to sUkSma para kaise sacetana hoMge, use kaise pakar3eMge ? hama kramazaH anupazyanA saadhe| pahalI hai- kAyAnupazyanA arthAt apane dehapiMDa ke prati bhalIbhA~ti jAgarUka honA, use bhalIbhA~ti bhItara aura bAhara se dekhanA, samajhanA, usakA bodha prApta krnaa| vedanAoM kI anupazyanA arthAt zarIra meM jagane vAle anukUla-pratikUla saMvedana aura ahasAsoM ke prati jAgarUka honaa| hamAre isa dehapiMDa meM jo sukhada yA duHkhada udaya-vilaya ho rahe haiM, unheM bhalIbhA~ti dekhanA, jAgarUka honA aura unakA bodha prApta karanA / unakI prakRti ko samajhakara unakA nivAraNa karanA / kAyAnupazyanA karate hue hama jAnane lagate haiM ki yaha tvacA hai, yaha mAMsapiMDa hai, yaha haDDiyA~ haiM, yaha vAyu, kapha, pitta, mala-mUtra, pasInA hai, yaha A~khoM kA maila hai, vaha ina cIz2oM kI ThIka-ThIka pahacAna karatA hai ki yaha hai| kisI kA janma dekhA to jAnA ki yaha hai kAyA, kisI kI mRtyu dekhI to bhI jAnA ki yaha hai kaayaa| kisI zava ko jalate hue, rAkha hote hue dekhA to jAnA ki yaha hai kaayaa| kisI jAnavara kI mRta deha ke mAMsa ke lothar3e bikhare dekhakara jAnA ki yaha hai kAyA / athavA deha meM udvega uThe, kAmavAsanA ke taMtu jAge, iMsAna phar3akane lagA, galata kAma karane lagA, bhogoM meM lipta ho gayA, lekina inameM bhI jAgarUkatA rakhane vAlA jAnegA ki yaha hai kAyA aura ye isa kAyA ke udvega haiN| jo bhI ho rahA hai, basa ho rahA hai, koI AropaNa nahIM karanA hai, nikSepa yA jabaradastI cintana-manana nahIM karanA hai, jo hai use dekhanA hai / soceMge to usI ke bAre meM socate raha sakate haiN| socanA nahIM hai, karanA bhI kucha nahIM hai, kevala svayaM ke prati jAganA hai aura jo kucha bhI ho rahA hai, usake sAkSI ho jAnA hai| kAyA aura usake sukha-duHkha kI saMvedanAoM ke prati bhalIbhA~ti jAgarUka ho jAnA hai| athavA citta kI anupazyanA karane vAlA, citta ko jAnane vAlA, citta-dazAoM ke prati jAgarUka sAdhaka jAna rahA hotA hai ki ye saMskAra haiM, rAga-dveSa kI vRttiyoM kI smRtiyA~ haiM, moha kA aMdhakAra hai, lobha kI AkAMkSA 145 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hai, amuka tattva kA ahaMkAra hai, bhItara meM tRSNA hai yA isa prakAra kI koI vikSiptatA hai, maiM bhItara se pAgala huuN| hama sunate haiM ki 'maiM AtmA hU~', 'ahaM brahmAsmi', lekina vipazyanA karane vAlA kahatA hai ki maiM AtmA kahA~ / maiM brahma bhI kahA~, maiM to tRSNA meM ulajhI huI cetanA huuN| maiM to vAsanA meM, vikAroM meM, rAga-dveSa meM ulajhI huI cetanA huuN| kahA~ hai AtmA, kahA~ hai paramAtmA ? merA satya kyA hai ? paramAtmA duniyA kA, brahmANDa kA satya hai, para merA satya kyA hai ? merA satya to mere citta kI vartamAna dazAe~ haiN| anupazyanA ke cAra caraNa haiM- (1) kAyA, (2) kAyA ke saMvedana, (3) citta aura (4) hamAre mUlabhUta dharma / zuruAta sA~soM se hai, AnApAna se hai, AtI-jAtI sA~soM para sacetana hone se hai| isa mArga para na maMtra hai, na mUrti hai, na koI AropaNa hai, na Alambana / yahA~ na paMtha hai, na paramparA / na veza hai, na gaNaveza hai| basa, tIna hI AdhAra haiM, tIna hI mAdhyama haiM- (1) ekAnta, (2) mauna aura (3) dhyAna / zAnta, ekAnta meM baiTho tAki bAhara kA zoragula, bAhara ke nimitta prabhAvita na kreN| mauna rakho tAki bAharI saMvAda, bAharI sambandhoM para aMkuza lage aura hama apane svayaM ke ekatva ke prati adhika jAgarUka hoN| dhyAna dhareM arthAt AtApI, smRtimAna aura sacetana hokara pUre manoyoga se vipazyanA kareM, khuda ko dekheM, khuda ko jAneM, khuda ke sAtha ekarasa, ekalaya, ekAkAra hote jaaeN| banda dvAra khuda khuleMge, sUraja khuda ugegA, svayaM meM chipe mandira svataH sAkAra hoNge| hama pahale sthUla ko jAneMge, phira dhIre-dhIre sUkSma kI ora prayANa kreNge| bAhara se bhItara kI ora jAne kA prayAsa kareMge / tattva ko samajhane para bAhara aura bhItara kI jAgarUkatA bddh'egii| vipazyanA deharI kA dIpa banakara hama sabake bAhya aura antara ko prakAzita kare, isI maMgalabhAvanA ke sAtha namaskAra / 146 For Personal & Private Use Only

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4 vipazyanA meM cAhie sacetanatA, nirantaratA pratyeka iMsAna ke antaramana meM kisI-na-kisI prakAra kA krodha, roSa, cintA, tanAva, avasAda hAvI rahate hI haiN| thor3I-sI viparItatA Ate hI hama apanA ApA kho dete haiN| z2arA-sI viphalatA se tanAvagrasta ho jAte haiM / nukasAna ho jAne para cintA kA cakravyUha raca jAtA hai| mAnA ki hama sabhI ko prema aura zAMtimaya jIvana kA svAmI honA cAhie, sabake prati karuNA aura kSamA kA sadbhAva rakhanA cAhie, yaha to jIvana kA Adarza hai, lekina krodha aura roSa, duHkha aura daurmanasya, vaira aura virodha hamAre jIvana meM jaba-taba uTha jAte haiM, saccAI hai| saccAI aura AdarzoM meM farqa hotA hai| hameM krodha AtA hai, yaha saccAI hai| hameM premapUrNa rahanA cAhie, yaha Adarza hai| Adarza vaha jo hameM prApta karanA hai aura saccAI vaha jisase hama apane vartamAna meM gujara rahe haiN| prazna hai jina haqIqatoM se hama ghire hue haiM kyA ve hamAre jIvana meM yU~ hI banI raheMgI yA inheM apane jIvana se haTAne meM hama saphala ho sakate haiM yA haTAne ke lie koI rAstA talAza sakate haiM ? atIta meM janmoM-janmoM se krodha karate rahe, kAmAtura bane rahe, yaha 47 For Personal & Private Use Only

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1 apane ahaMkAra kA poSaNa karate rahe, rAga-dveSa meM ulajhate rahe, apanI indriyoM ke vikAroM se grasta rahe / ina AdatoM ko jinheM atIta meM jiyA hai, kyA ina AdatoM ko apane sAtha hI banAe rakhanA cAhate haiM yA inameM parivartana kI dizA dhAraNa karanA cAhate haiM ? I saubhAgyazAlI hI apane jIvana kI kamiyoM aura doSoM para gaura kara pAte haiN| aura unheM haTAne ke lie jAgarUka hote haiM, anyathA kaI to amRta ke gaDDhe meM girakara bhI kIcar3a hI cATate rahate haiM / lekina ve saubhAgyazAlI haiM, jinakA janma, yauvana, jIvana, poSaNa bhale hI kIcar3a ke gaDDhe meM kyoM na huA ho, phira bhI ve apanI A~khoM meM sadA prakAza kI kiraNa talAzate rahate haiM / usa amRta kI talAza karate haiM, jisakA pAna kara mukti kA kamala khila ske| sabhI ke jIvana meM mukti kA mAdhurya phUTa sake, aisI sambhAvanAe~ talAzate haiM / kucha loga kIcar3a meM janma lete haiM aura vahIM samApta ho jAte haiM / kucha kIcar3a meM janma lekara amRta kI ora apane kadama bar3hAte haiM / kucha to aise bhI hote haiM, jo janma to amRta meM lete haiM, lekina apanI naz2ara aura nig2AhoM meM kIcar3a ko basA lete haiN| bhavya jIva ve hote haiM, jo amRta meM hI janma lete haiM, amRtapatha ke hI anuyAyI hote haiM aura apane lakSya meM bhI amRta ko hI basAyA karate haiM / hamAre jIvana kA yathArtha kyA hai, yaha to vyakti-vyakti para nirbhara karatA hai| jIvana kI haqIqateM kucha aura hotI haiM aura jubAna para Adarza kI bAteM kucha aura huA karatI haiN| acchI bAteM kahanA alaga bindu hai aura svayaM kA mUlyAMkana karanA yaha bilkula alaga bAta hai / sAmAnya taura para jIvana meM koI bhI svayaM ko galata rUpa meM peza nahIM karanA cAhatA / hareka vyakti apanI chavi ko acchIbehatara - garimAmaya banAe rakhanA pasanda karegA, lekina hama sabhI jAnate haiM ki phoTogrAphika ceharA bhI eksa-re meM kaisA najara AtA hai| yaha hama sabhI ke jIvana kI haqIqata hai| janmoM-janmoM se hamAre sAtha aisI AdateM lagI huI haiM, kaSAyoM kI aisI dhArAe~ bahatI rahI haiM, saMskAroM kA aisA pravAha calatA rahA hai, indriyavikAroM ke dharma hama para aise hAvI rahate haiM ki inake sAmane hamArA sArA jJAna, bodha, saMyama, veza, vrata, saMkalpa sabhI kucha bahuta baune naz2ara Ate haiN| bAhara kA ujalApana bhItara kI kAlimA ke sAmane choTA par3a jAtA hai / yaha to koI sUraja uge to prakAza ho sakatA hai nahIM to kyA tAroM se duniyA rozana ho sakatI hai ! hama sabhI ke bhItara vaha tamannA cAhie, vaha tapiza cAhie, vaha jAgarUkatA cAhie 48 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ki hamAre bhItara vAstavika rUpa se buddhatva kA kamala, samyak jJAna, samyak dRSTi kA kamala khila ske| jinake bhItara apane kalyANa kI kAmanA hai, ve buddhatva ke isa mArga para aaeN| jo apane bhItara ke duHkha aura daurmanasya kA nAza karanA cAhate haiM, ve loga isa pavitra mArga para apane qadama bar3hAe~ / jinheM vAstava meM apane satya se sAkSAtkAra karane kI cAhata hai, ve isa patha para pragati kareM / jo haqIqata meM mahAparinirvANa kA svAda cakhanA cAhate haiM, nirvANa aura mokSa ko upalabdha karanA cAhate haiM, unake lie buddha aura mahAvIra kA yaha mArga nizcita hI kalyANakArI ho sakatA hai / yaha mArga unake lie hai, jo isa para calakara pariNAma prApta karanA cAhate haiM / jo vyakti dina-rAta, saca-jhUTha karake dhanArjana karatA hai, usake lie mahAvIra ke mokSa mArga kI koI upayogitA nahIM hai / vaha vyakti jo pApa aura vyabhicAra ke daladala meM gar3A huA hai, aisA vyakti rAma ke mArga ko apane jIvana meM kaise jI skegaa| jInA to hama buddha kI zAMti aura karuNA ke mArga ko cAhate haiM, lekina eka kasAI buddha ke mArga ko samajhakara bhI kyA kara legaa| eka bhogI bhoga ke rAste yoga ke dvAra kaise khola sakegA / vyakti ke bhItara jaba taka adhyAtma kI gahana pipAsA na hogI, cAhata na hogI, taba taka vyakti use samajha to sakatA hai, bola bhI sakatA hai, para jI nahIM sakatA, apane jIvana kA hissA nahIM banA sakatA / 1 jIvana meM kucha mArga vAstavika rUpa se iMsAna ke kalyANa se, AdhyAtmika kalyANa se jur3e hote haiM / ye koI aise mArga nahIM haiM, jo svarga de deM yA narka se bacA leN| saca pUcho to svarga aura narka pratIkAtmaka haiM, bAkI inheM kisane dekhA hai / pAtAla ke narka aura AkAza ke svarga, ye saba bar3e rahasyamayI haiM / kitanI vicitra bAta hai, jisa svarga ko hamane dekhA nahIM, use pAnA cAhate haiM aura isI taraha jisa narka ko dekhA nahIM, usase bacanA cAhate haiM / jahA~ taka merA khyAla hai, svarga aura narka kisI bhaugolika vyavasthA ke antargata nahIM haiM / merI dRSTi meM to ye donoM A~khoM kI taraha haiM, jisameM eka meM A~sU aura dUsarI meM khuziyA~ hotI haiN| jaise ki do hAtha aura do pA~va jisameM eka pA~va aura hAtha meM nikammApana samAyA rahatA hai, dUsare pA~va aura hAtha meM karmayoga aura saphalatA ke gura chipe rahate haiM / svarga aura narka hamArI hI pariNatiyA~ haiM, agara Aja krodha kiyA to narka meM gae aura prema kiyA to svarga meM rheNge| svarga aura narka eka sikke ke do pahalU haiM, jo sAthasAtha calate haiN| dharma kI isa bhASA ko badalanA cAhie ki krodha karane se narka meM 49 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jAoge, mere lie to krodha karanA narka meM hI honA hai| prema karane se svarga milegA- aisA nahIM hai| mere lie to prema karanA svarga meM honA hI hai| arthAt aisA karane se aisA hogA, yaha bhASA kahane kI bajAya hama kaheMge aisA karane se aisA hotA hai / yaha hamArA yathArtha hai| krodha kiyA arthAt dila jalA, dimAga kamajora huA, A~kheM lAla huIM, tana kI tAjagI kaTI arthAt jitane pratizata krodha kiyA, utane pratizata narka kA phala upalabdha ho gayA aura jitane logoM se miThAsa ke sAtha peza Ae, jitane logoM ke sAtha Atithya-satkAra kA bhAva rakhA, jitane logoM ko praNAma kara AzIrvAda lie, utane-utane pratizata svarga kA Ananda svayaM ne bhI liyA aura dUsaroM ko bhI hamase milaa| mere lie to yahI svarga aura narka hai| hama kisI pAtAla meM bane narka se bacane kI bajAya hamAre andara krodha, roSa, bhoga. vikAra-vAsanA ke rUpa meM jo narka pala rahA hai, usameM bahane se baceM, usameM jalane se bceN| hama to nandanavana kI taiyArI kreN| aisA nandanavana, jahA~ mahAvIra ne saMnyAsa liyA thA, jise svarga ke upavanoM kI upamA dI gii| usa vana meM praviSTa ho jAe~, jahA~ mahAvIra kI hI taraha saMnyAsI hone kI preraNA mila ske| jisa rAste para calane se AdhyAtmika kalyANa kA rAstA khula sake, vahI vana nandanavana ho jaaegaa| iMgliza kA zabda hai 'vana' (One) arthAt ek| vipazyanA yahI to sikhAtI hai ki ekalA calo re / yaha akele hokara calane kA rAstA hai| koI sAtha cale to svAgata aura na bhI cale to ekalA calo re| 'yadi tore DAka sune koI na Ase to ekalA calo re|' ravIndranAtha Taigora kI ye prasiddha paMktiyA~ haiM ki agara tumhArI pukAra sunakara bhI koI tumhAre sAtha calane ko taiyAra na ho to cintA mata karo, tuma akele hI cala pdd'o| ho sakatA hai, Aja tuma akele ho, lekina Ane vAle kala kA sUraja tumhArA sAtha de sakatA hai| pUre jyotirmaya saMgha kA nirmANa ho sakatA hai| yaha mArga jo 'mahAsati paTThAna' kA hai- bhagavAna buddha dvArA diyA gayA mahAna saMdeza hai| bhagavAna buddha ne apane sAdhakoM aura zrAvakoM ko vipazyanA ke sandarbha meM jo upadeza diyA hama bhI ina sUtroM meM DUbeMge, inakA Ananda leMge, inameM se apane lie koI rasadhAra nikaaleNge| jaise hajAroM varSa pUrva sAdhakoM ne isa mArga para calakara parama satya se sAkSAtkAra kiyA thA, apane duHkha aura daurmanasya kA avasAna kiyA thA, svayaM ko vikAramukta kiyA, aise hI hama loga bhI mukta ho 50 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sakate haiN| hama bhUla jAe~ ki kauna yahA~ baiThA hai aura kauna kisase kyA kaha rahA hai| hama basa yAda rakheM, usa zarada kI rAtri ko, manda bayAra ko aura buddha ke mukha se jharate vacanoM ko, jo jIvana-kalyANa ke AtmasaMvAda hamAre sAtha ho rahe haiN| jaise zarada kI cA~danI sabako suhAtI hai, vaise hI yaha mArga bhI hama sabako suhaaegaa| loga to pati-patnI ke sAhacarya ko hanImUna samajhate haiM, para maiM kahatA hU~ kabhI kisI buddha ke sAtha, kisI mahAvIra ke sAtha, kisI guru yA sadguru ke sAtha baiThakara bhI hanImUna mnaao| taba patA calegA eka zahada TapakAtA cA~da, jJAna kA zahada TapakAtA cA~da hamAre jIvana meM adbhuta miThAsa, adbhuta rasa, adbhuta prema aura adbhuta antardRSTi saMcArita kara rahA hai| yaha mArga thor3A kaThina avazya hai, para duruha nahIM hai| mujhe loga batAte haiM ki kabhI-kabhI to sAdhanA kI bhUmikA bahuta gaharI ho jAtI hai aura kabhI khuda hI ThaMDe paDa jAte haiN| maiM samajhatA hU~. aise ThaMDe logoM ke lie hI ye bAteM haiN| jo loga bhItara se garama ho cuke haiM, yaha vANI unheM ThaMDA karegI aura jo bhItara se ThaMDe ho cuke haiM, yaha vANI unakI soI huI cetanA ko, AtmA ko jgaaegii| utsAha kI naI UrjA jgaaegii| hama jAnate haiM gautama ne saMnyAsa svayaM grahaNa kara liyA aura jaMgaloM meM pratidina cAvala kA eka dAnA khAkara apane dina vyatIta karane lge| unhoMne itanI saghana tapasyA kI ki asthiyoM kA DhA~cA mAtra raha ge| vyaktigata rUpa se maiM isa taraha kI tapasyA meM vizvAsa nahIM karatA ki jisameM vyakti apane tana ko sukhAne meM hI tatpara kare / merA mAnanA hai ki tapa kA uddezya apane antaramana ko tapAnA hai| apane indriya-dvAroM ko tapAnA, mana meM rahane vAle kaSAyoM ko tapAnA hI saccI tapasyA hai| hamAre bhItara jo karma-bIja banate rahate haiM, unheM bhUna (jalA) DAlanA- isakA nAma tapasyA hai| lekina hama loga mana kI tapasyA nahIM, tana kI tapasyA karate rahate haiN| jaba maiM kisI sAdhaka ko tana kI tapasyA karate hue dekhatA hU~ to mana meM bhAva uThate haiM ki Izvara ise sadbuddhi de ki vaha kevala tana ko nahIM apane mana ko, apanI AtmA ko tapAkara dikhAe / tana to sAdhana hai, lekina asalI tapasyA to mana kI karanI hai| __maiM amuka dina 24 ghaMTe taka krodha nahIM karU~gA, yaha mana kI tapasyA huii| cAhe to Apa bhI kara sakate haiM ki maiM hara amAvasa aura pUrNimA ko upavAsa karU~gA, para upavAsa bhojana ke tyAga kA nahIM, krodha ke tyAga kA / bhojana ke tyAga kA upavAsa hara koI nahIM kara sakatA, para krodha ke tyAga kA upavAsa hara 51 For Personal & Private Use Only

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koI kara sakatA hai| tapasyA kA uddezya hai, tana-mana para lagAma lagAnA, bhItara kI zuddhi krnaa| isI taraha Apa cAheM to zIla dharma ke pAlana kA upavAsa kara sakate haiN| jaise maiM hara mahIne kI 1, 5, 11, 15, 21, 25 aura 31 tArIkha ko zIla-dharma kA pAlana karU~gA, agara Apa aisA karate haiM to Apako 1 mahIne meM 7 upavAsa kA lAbha ho gyaa| ye saba mana ke upavAsa haiN| jaise agara Apa eka mahilA haiM to Apake pAsa 100 sAr3iyA~ hoMgI, Apa aparigraha kA upavAsa kara sakatI haiN| mAnA Apase sAr3iyoM kA moha nahIM chUTatA, koI bAta nahIM, bhale hI hara mahIne naI sAr3I kharIdo, para eka mAnasikatA taiyAra kara lo ki maiM naI sAr3I kharIdate hI purAnI sAr3iyoM meM se 1 sAr3I kisI garIba ko yA ghara meM kAma karane vAlI bAI ko de duuNgii| yaha bhI apane-Apa meM tapa ho gyaa| buddha kahate haiM hama tapasvI baneM, AtApI bneN| mahaja 8-8 dina yA 30-30 dina bhUkhe rahane ko tapasyA na mAneM / tapasyA mana kI bhI ho, tapasyA jIvana kI ho| vINA ke tAroM ko hamezA yAda rakhie aura jIvana ko vINA ke tAroM kI taraha sAdhe aura isa taraha jIvana kA Ananda leN| siddhArtha ko tapasyA karate hue pA~ca-sAr3he pA~ca varSa bIta ge| jaisA ki usa samaya calana thA, saghana tapasyA karate cale ge| lekina eka dina mahasUsa huA ki bahuta tapasyA kara lI, lekina hAsila kucha na huA / na AtmA milI, na Atmadarzana huA, na hI kisI trikAlika satya kA bodha ho paayaa| socA chor3o, bahuta ho gaI sAdhanA / patnI ko chor3A, bacce ko chor3A, rAjamahaloM ko chor3A aura nirjana ekAkI vanoM meM jAkara tapasyA kara itane varSa vyatIta kara die, akhaMDa mauna rahA, tana-mana ko tapAyA, dhyAna-sAdhanA kI. phira bhI saMtoSa na huaa| arhatA, arihaMta pada, buddhatva yA saMbodhi unheM upalabdha na ho skii| taba ve ina sabako chor3akara bAhara nikala aae| dUra dekhA to tAlAba, jhIla thii| vahA~ jAkara snAna karane kA vicAra kiyaa| gautama jhIla ke pAsa pahu~ce, snAna kiyA, kucha tAz2agI aaii| snAna kara jaba jhIla se bAhara nikale to unakI naz2ara eka gilaharI para gii| unhoMne dekhA ki vaha gilaharI jhIla meM jAtI hai, pU~cha ko DubotI hai aura bAhara Akara pU~cha jhaTakatI hai, usameM se kucha bUMdeM pAnI kI Tapaka jAtI haiN| use bAra-bAra isI kriyA ko doharAte dekhakara unheM vismaya huA aura unhoMne gilaharI se pUchA- eka bAta batAogI ? gilaharI ne kahA- pUchie mahAtman ! gautama ne kahA- mere mana meM jijJAsA uTha rahI hai ki tuma bAra-bAra pAnI meM jAtI 52 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ho, pU~cha DubAtI ho aura bAhara Akara jhaTaka detI ho, Akhira tuma aisA kyoM kara rahI ho ? gilaharI ne kahA- mahAtman, bAta yaha hai ki ye jhIla bahuta duSTa hai| gautama bole- duSTa kaise ? gilaharI ne kahA- isa rUpa meM duSTa hai ki do dina pUrva isane mere aMDoM ko apane pAnI ke bahAva meM bahA ddaalaa| ve aMDe phUTa gae aura mere bacce mara ge| yaha vaha jhIla hai, jisane mere baccoM kI hatyA kI hai, maiM isa jhIla ko sukhA ddaaluuNgii| unhoMne pUchA- kaise sukhAegI? maiMne nirNaya kara liyA hai ki isa jhIla meM pU~cha DubAU~gI aura bAhara Akara pAnI ke chIMTe girAU~gI, gilaharI ne batAyA / gautama muskurAe aura bole- yaha to ThIka hai, lekina jhIla itanI bar3I hai aura tumhArI pU~cha itanI choTI hai, binA bartanoM ke tuma isa jhIla ko kaise khAlI kara sakogI ? jarA soco, isa jhIla ko khAlI karane meM tumheM kitane janma laga jaaeNge| gilaharI ne kahA- mahatvapUrNa yaha nahIM hai ki isa jhIla ko khAlI karane meM kitane janma lageMge, mahatvapUrNa yaha hai ki maiM isa jhIla ko khAlI karake hI rahU~gI, isake lie bhale hI mujhe sau janma kyoM na lene pdd'e| jaba taka mere zarIra meM prANa haiM, isa jhIla ko sukhAne kA prayatna karatI rhuuNgii| buddha muskurAe aura gilaharI ko dhanyavAda dete hue kahA- bahana, tumheM bahuta-bahuta sAdhuvAda hai, kyoMki tumane merI bhaTakatI huI cetanA ko rAstA dikhAyA hai| maiM to ThaMDA ho cukA thA ki aba kucha hone vAlA nahIM hai, lekina tumane merI ThaMDI ho cukI cetanA ko phira se jagA diyA hai| kahate haiM taba buddha punaH kaMdarAoM kI ora mur3a gae aura dugune utsAha se sAdhanArata ho ge| mahAvIra aura buddha ke aise hI koI guru bana jAte haiM, jo unheM preraNA de jAte haiN| kevala hama hI nahIM buddha, mahAvIra, rAma bhI apane patha se bhaTaka sakate haiM, taba isI taraha koI gilaharI, koI sA~Da, koI anya unake patha-pradarzaka bana jAte haiN| hama nahIM jAnate jIvana meM kaba kauna guru bana jAtA hai aura gurutva kI bhUmikA adA 1537 For Personal & Private Use Only

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karate hue soI huI cetanA ko jagA detA hai, bhaTakI huI cetanA ko phira se samyak mArga pradAna kara jAtA hai| jinheM cetanA kI pyAsa hai, unheM isa mArga para Ane kA AmaMtraNa hai| 'mahAsati paTThAna sutta' meM bhagavAna buddha ne apane sAdhakoM se isI pyAsa ko bujhAne vAle saMdeza kahe the| yaha atyanta choTA zAstra hai| lekina isameM sAdhanA kI vaha gaharI paddhati dI gaI hai, jo hameM pratyeka dina ke, pratyeka kSaNa ke vartamAna satya se muqhAtiba karavAtI hai| isa paddhati meM U~cI yA lambI-caur3I bAteM nahIM haiM, varan khuda se khuda kI mulAqAta hai| Aie, hama loga buddha ke naz2adIka jAkara apane antara-kamala ko unake zrIcaraNoM meM isa sadbhAva ke sAtha samarpita karate haiM ki unake buddhatva kI kiraNa hameM bhI rozana kare, hameM bhI sugaMdhamaya banAe, hameM bhI khilane kA avasara pradAna kare / buddha ne pavitra vANI kahI- 'yahA~ koI sAdhaka sAr3he tIna hAtha ke kAyArUpI loka meM, rAga aura dveSa ko dUra kara, AtApI, smRtimAna aura saMprajJAnI bana kAyA meM kAyAnupazyI hokara vihAra karatA hai, vaha rAga aura dveSa ko dUra kara AtApI, smRtimAna aura saMprajJAnI bana vedanAoM meM vedanAnupazyI hokara vihAra karatA hai, rAga aura dveSa ko dUra kara AtApI, smRtimAna aura saMprajJAnI bana citta meM cittAnupazyI hokara vihAra karatA hai aura vaha rAga aura dveSa ko dUra kara AtApI, smRtimAna aura saMprajJAnI bana dharmoM meM dharmAnupazyI hokara vihAra karatA hai|' bhASA purAnI hai, lekina isake bhAvoM meM sAdhanA kI Dhera sArI bArIkiyA~ samAI huI haiN| sAdhaka ke sAmane cAra satya haiM, pahalA satya hai- usakI kAyA, dUsarA satya hai- kAyA meM uThane vAlI vedanA aura saMvedanA arthAt kAyA meM uThane vAle upadrava, kAyA ke prpNc| sAdhaka ke sAmane tIsarA satya hai- usakA antaramana, usakA citta, cauthA satya hai- bhItara kA dharma / jaba koI sAdhaka ina cAra satyoM se sAkSAtkAra karatA hai, taba inase vaha apane mUla astitva aura apanI antarAtmA se setu sambandha sthApita karatA hai| kAyA sthUla tattva hai| jaba isase sUkSma kI ora jAte haiM, taba kAyA kI vedanAoM kA anubhava jJAna meM AtA hai| adhika gaharAI meM jAne para citta se paricita hote haiM, jisase prerita hokara kAyA samasta vyApAra kiyA karatI hai| citta kI preraNA se hI kAyA kI samasta gatividhiyA~ saMcAlita hotI haiN| citta se hI 154 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hamArI indriyA~ bhI prerita aura prabhAvita hotI haiN| cauthA satya dharma hai| mUla zabda hai anupazyanA' / buddha aura mahAvIra ne isa zabda kA khUba prayoga kiyA hai| buddha ne sAr3he cha: varSa taka aura mahAvIra ne sAr3he bAraha varSa taka jaMgaloM meM kyA kiyA ? usa sArI sthiti ko eka hI zabda meM piroyA jA sakatA hai aura vaha hai 'anupshynaa'| ___'anupazyanA' arthAt vizeSa rUpa se dekhanA, lagAtAra dekhanA, apanI prakRti ke sAtha apanI mulAkAta krnaa| svayaM se mulAkAta kaThina hotI hai, kyoMki hamArA citta bAhara se mulAkAta karane ke lie tatpara ho jAtA hai aura hama bAhara cale bhI jAte haiM, lekina phira-phira mana ko, citta ko apane meM lAte haiM aura svayaM se mulAkAta karane meM tatpara hote haiN| hamArI indriyoM ke rAste bAhara kI ora khalate haiN| mana kI gatividhiyA~ bAhara calatI haiN| ina indriyoM ko svayaM se jor3ane ke lie, apane bhaTakate hue caMcala citta ko andara lAne ke lie svayaM se pratikramaNa karanA hogA, svayaM meM lauTanA hogaa| lagAtAra' zabda bahuta mUlyavAna hai| vidyArthI ko vidyArjana karane ke lie lagAtAra adhyayana karanA hogaa| lagAtAra lage rahane para maMdabuddhi aura jar3abuddhi bhI mahAkavi kAlIdAsa aura udbhaTa vidvAna bana sakatA hai| paisA kamAnA bhI koI sarala kAma nahIM hai, lekina vyApArI lagAtAra subaha se rAta taka lagA rahatA aura kamAI kara pAtA hai| kevala buddhi yA lakSya nirdhArita kara lene se hI kamAI nahIM ho jaatii| isake lie 'lagAtAra' mehanata karanI hotI hai| kevala Atma-vizvAsa jagAne se saphala nahIM huA jA sakatA, na hI kArya-yojanA banA lene se saphalatA milatI hai| saphalatA kA AdhAra bindu hai 'lagAtAra' lage rhnaa| vyApArI saphala hogA lagAtAra tatpara hone se, vidyArthI saphala hogA lagAtAra vidyAdhyayana karane se / jamIna meM chipe hue pAnI ko nikAlane ke lie lagAtAra gaDDhA khodanA hogaa| patthara bhI naz2ara Ae~ge, usake uparAnta bhI khodate rahane para hI pAnI niklegaa| sAdhanA ke lie bhI lagAtAra zabda pahale / agara hama lagAtAra karane ke lie taiyAra nahIM haiM to kabhI bhI AtApI, smRtimAna aura saMprajJAzIla nahIM bana paaeNge| ghaMTebhara ke lie saMprajJAzIla hokara ghaMTebhara jitanA hI pariNAma nikAla paaeNge| AdhA ghaMTA dhyAna kara lene para kucha khAsa hAsila nahIM ho paaegaa| kuA~ khodanA hai to lagAtAra khodanA hI pdd'egaa| 'lagAtAra' kI cAbI pakar3a lene para kadama-dara-kadama Age bar3hate jaaeNge| 155 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jaise-jaise hama apane bhItara sAkSI hote haiM, tyoM-tyoM bhItara meM zAnti AtI calI jAtI hai| jisakA udaya hai, usakA vilaya avazya hotA hai aura taba taka sAdhaka jAna letA hai ki saba kucha yahA~ anitya hai| na vo thA, na yaha hai, na vo rahegA, yahA~ saba kucha badala rahA hai| hama hI rAga-dveSa ke nimitta khar3e karate haiM, bAkI to yahA~ saba kucha badala rahA hai| vyakti badala rahe haiM, vicAra badala rahe haiM, zabda badala rahe haiM, vANI badala rahI hai, vyavahAra badala rahA hai, AdateM badala rahI haiM, caritra badala rahA hai, jIne ke taura-tarIke badala rahe haiM, bhItara meM uThane vAlI taraMgeM badala rahI haiM, bhItara ke upadrava badala rahe haiM, bhItara ke udvega, kaSAya, saMskAra saba kucha yahA~ badala rahe haiN| ina badalate hue tattvoM kI anupazyanA karate hue sAdhaka bhalIbhA~ti jAnatA hai ki yahA~ saba anitya hai, parivartanazIla hai| taba rAga-dveSa ko dUra karake anupazyanA karane vAlA sAdhaka AtApI, smRtimAna aura saMprajJAzIla banA haA vihAra karatA hai, apanA sahaja jIvana jItA hai, svayaM ke prati jAgarUka hokara jIvana aura jagata meM ghaTane vAlI ghaTanAoM ke prati jAgarUka hokara satya se sAkSAtkAra kA lakSya rakhatA hai, nirvANa, duHkha-daurmanasya ke avasAna se sAkSAtkAra ke prati lagA huA rahatA hai| taba vaha jItA hai, vihAra karatA hai, Anandita rahatA hai| taba vaha mukta hokara bAhara aura bhItara se jIvana jItA hai| sAdhaka ko AtApI, smRtimAna aura saMprajJAzIla ho jAnA cAhie, tAki rAga-dveSa hamAre jIvana se miTa sakeM aura hama vAstavika satya se jur3a skeN| AtApI, smRtimAna, saMprajJAzIla arthAt sacetanatA- ye tIna zabda yAda rakheM, inheM AtmasAt kara leM / ye zabda nahIM haiM, sAdhaka ke tIna netra haiN| hama sAdhanA meM tapeM, AtmasmRti se paripUrNa baneM, hara naisargika-anaisargika kriyA ko sacetanatA se kreN| vipazyanA eka dvAra hai, basa qadama uThAne kI jarUrata hai| 30

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AnApAna-yoga : samAdhi kA praveza-dvAra jIvana ko bodha aura jAgarUkatA ke sAtha jInA, jIne kI AdhyAtmika kalA hai| abodha aura pramAda-dazA ke sAtha jInA, jIvana jIne kI nakArAtmaka zailI hai| bhagavAna buddha aura mahAvIra ke dvArA pratipAdita anupazyanA kA siddhAnta vizuddha rUpa se jIvana ko jAgarUkatApUrvaka kaise jiyA jA sake, isakA pavitra rAstA detA hai| isa daurAna vyakti krodha ko dabA jAegA aura dabI huI cIz2a Aja nahIM to kala pragaTa hogii| spriMga ko jitanA dabAyA jAegA, chor3ane para utanI hI uchalakara aaegii| jIvana meM uThane vAle bhItarI upadrava spriMga kI taraha hote haiM, unheM jitanA dabAyA jAegA, unakI tAqata bar3hatI jaaegii| taba dUsarA rAstA hai ki vyakti apane vikAra, krodha, kaSAya, bhoga Adi ko pragaTa kare / hama dekhate haiM ki pragaTa karane kI bhI koI sImA nahIM hotii| assI varSa kA vyakti aura saMnyAsI bhI tAumra krodha karate naz2ara A jAte haiN| dIrgha samaya taka sAdhu-jIvana bitA lene ke bAda bhI agara vaha apane krodha ko nahIM jIta pAyA to kyA ummIda kI jA sakatI hai ki vaha apane bAkI vikAroM [57 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ko jIta pAyA hogA / sambhava hai krodha ko dabAtA rahA ho, aisA bhI ho sakatA hai ki krodha to vaha pragaTa kara detA rahA ho, lekina anya vikAroM ko bhItara-hIbhItara dabAtA rahA ho| aisI sthiti meM sAdhaka ke sAmane prazna hai ki vaha bhoga kA rAstA aqhtiyAra kare yA apanI mukti aura nirvANa ke lie vikAroM ke zamana aura nirjarA ke lie anya kisI mArga kA cayana kare / anupazyanA ke mArga para calakara hama apane andara uThane vAlI vRttiyoM ke udaya, unakI prakRti, svabhAva ko samajheM, kyoMki vaisA hamArA svabhAva hotA nahIM hai, kevala vaha svabhAva se jur3a jAtA hai| hara samaya eka hI cIz2a hama para hAvI nahIM rahatI hai| na to hara samaya krodha hotA hai, na hI bhoga, na hI IrSyA, na kAmanAe~, na vaasnaaeN| lekina samayasamaya para ye hamAre andara uThatI rahatI haiM, kyoMki inakI prakRti hamAre bhItara dabI huI hai / nimitta pAkara prakRti udaya meM A jAtI hai / isakI jar3eM hamAre andara vyApta haiM, isalie hameM apanI prakRti ko samajhanA caahie| ise hama anupazyanA ke dvArA jAna sakate haiM / mAnA ki hamAre andara krodha kI prakRti hai, lekina use pragaTa nahIM kara pAte haiM, to vaha pragAr3ha ho jAtI hai / taba isa taraMga se bAhara kaise nikaleM ? bodhidharma cIna kI yAtrA para the| vahA~ ke samrATa ne unase kahA ki use krodha bahuta AtA hai, citta udvigna ho jAtA hai / bodhidharma ne pUchA- tuma isa samaya krodha meM ho ? samrATa ne kahA- nhiiN| kyA citta abhI udvigna hai ? uttara milA- nhiiN| taba bodhidharma ne kahA- yaha tumhArI prakRti nahIM hai / tumhArA mUla svabhAva nahIM hai / jo cIz2a sadA banI rahe vaha prakRti hai / ye to taraMgeM haiM, jo nimitta pAkara ujAgara ho jAtI haiM aura inase chUTane kA mArga anupazyanA hai / 1 anupazyanA meM vyakti dhairyapUrvaka apane citta kI, kAyA kI, vedanA aura saMvedanAoM ko dekhe, vaha dRSTA bane, svayaM kA sAkSI bane aura samajhane tathA jAnane kA prayatna kare ki usake bhItara yaha kyA hai / hamane atIta meM na jAne kitanI bAra krodha kiyA, aba bhI kara rahe haiM, kyA bhaviSya meM bhI isI kI punarAvRtti hotI rhegii| jaba vyakti apanI prakRti ko tAtvika dRSTi se, sAkSI hokara, prajJAzIla aura jAgarUka hokara dekhanA aura samajhanA zurU kara detA hai taba vaha apane vikAroM kA zamana aura recana karane meM dhIre-dhIre saphala hone lagatA hai / jyoM-jyoM bodha gaharA hotA hai, tyoM-tyoM apane-Apa hI hamAre Antarika 58 For Personal & Private Use Only

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upadrava, prapaMca (krodha, mAna, mAyA, lobha, rAga-dveSa, bhoga, vAsanA) apaneApa hI zAnta hone lagate haiN| yahI to anupazyanA kA mArga hai| koI bhI maMtra jApa bahuta dera taka nahIM kara sakate / citta bhaTaka hI jAtA hai| aisI sthiti meM kisI maMtra kA jApa yA smaraNa karane kI bajAya anupazyanA meM vyakti khuda se hI mulAkAta karatA hai| jo bhItara ho rahA hai, vaha usI kA jJAtAdRSTA hone kA abhyAsa karatA hai, jJAtA-dRSTA hone kA prayAsa karatA hai| yaha atyanta vaijJAnika mArga hai, kyoMki isameM kucha bhI AropaNa nahIM hai, jo hai, jaisA hai, usake sAkSI hone kI bAta karatA hai| bhItara meM agara krodha hai, kAmanAe~ hai, to kucha g2alata yA burA nahIM hai, kyoMki ye hamAre apane haiN| vyakti inheM jAgarUkatApUrvaka dekhatA hai| pahale caraNa meM ghanIbhUta piMDa kA sAkSIkaraNa hotA hai, dhIre-dhIre piMDa meM sthita ghanatva kA sAkSIkaraNa hotA hai| dhIre-dhIre yaha ghanatva bhI bikharane lagatA hai aura eka-eka aNu, eka-eka pudgala paramANu, sUkSma se sUkSma avasthA kA bhI vaha sAkSI hotA jAtA hai| dekhatA hai, kevala dekhatA hai aura jAnatA hai| isa kSaNa 'yaha hai'| ___ isa kSaNa zarIra meM sukha ke bhoga kI anubhUti hai yA isa kSaNa duHkha ke bhoga kI anubhUti hai yA isa samaya citta zAMtimaya hai athavA lagatA hai citta meM bahuta vikSiptatA A gaI hai, citta vicalita hai| dhyAna karane aura na karane kI donoM avasthAoM meM citta udvigna bana rahA hai| arthAt citta kA vartamAna kSaNa bhItara se pAgala banA huA hai| sAdhaka ke pAsa eka hI bodha honA cAhie ki vaha kucha karatA nahIM hai, kevala jAgarUkatApUrvaka dekha rahA hai, jAgarUkatA ko sAdha rahA hai aura isa jAgarUkatA ke daurAna jaba, jahA~, jo cIz2a hamArA dhyAna AkarSita karatI hai, hamArA dhyAna vahA~ jAtA hai| do sthitiyoM meM dhyAna jAtA hai- eka to pramAda avasthA meM / bhItara kyA ho rahA hai, isakA kucha patA nahIM calatA, lekina hotA rahatA hai, dUsare meM vyakti apramatta hokara, apramAda dazA ke sAtha pUrNa sacetana hai to zarIra meM hone vAle pratyeka udaya-vilaya ko anubhava karatA hai| sA~sa calatI hai, dila kI dhar3akana hotI hai, zarIra meM jaba jahA~ jo ho rahA hai, prayAsapUrvaka dhyAna kendrita karane se hara taraha kA udaya-vilApa anubhava meM AtA hai| eka to hama kAyA meM prayAsapUrvaka dhyAna le jAte haiM, dUsarA anAyAsa dhyAna sAdhanA hai| prayAsapUrvaka kiyA gayA dhyAna ekAgratA hai aura anAyAsa hone vAlI ekAgratA dhyAna hai| 59 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hamAre bhItara hara samaya kucha-na-kucha ho rahA hai| prakRti mauna nahIM rahatI, kucha-na-kucha calatA rahatA hai, prakRti nirantara vikAsamAna hai| deha meM bhI eka kA udaya, eka kA vilaya jArI rahatA hai| hama eka udaya ke vilaya ko dekha bhI nahIM pAte ki acAnaka citta kI kisI anya dhArA meM bahane laga jAte haiM, citta ke sAkSI bana pAe~ isake pahale hI bAhara meM AvAz2a hotI hai aura hamArA dhyAna udhara ba~Ta jAtA hai| anupazyanA karane vAlA vyakti usake bhItara-bAhara jo ghaTa rahA hai, usakA adhika se adhika sAkSI dazA ko sAdhatA rahatA hai| isIlie tIna khAsa zabdoM para jora diyA gayA- AtApI, saMprajJAzIla aura smRtimAna / anupazyanA aura ina tInoM zabdoM ko eka sAtha jor3a lenA caahie| eka sikke ke do pahaluoM kI taraha dhyAna rakheM agara inameM se koI bhI eka zabda haTA diyA to bace hue zabda bekAra ho jaaeNge| AtApI- tapane vAlA, parizrama karane vaalaa| sAdhaka svayaM ke lie parizramI nahIM hogA to anupazyanA kaise hogii| AtApI svayaM ke prati honA hai| sUraja meM nahIM tapanA hai aura na hI paMcAgni tapa karanA hai| AtApI vaha jo dhairyapUrvaka svayaM ke prati parizrama kre| jo hamAre bhItara ho rahA hai, use sAkSI hokara dekhanA / caubIsa ghaMTe hama eka hI bhAva yA kriyA meM sthira nahIM raha skte| samaya-samaya para citta badalatA rahatA hai| AtApI vyakti usa samaya dekhatA aura jAnatA hai ki 'yaha hai' jo udaya aura vilaya meM A rahA hai| apamAna aura sammAna kI prakRti kA udaya hone para hameM hAkocu kI kahAnI yAda rakhanI cAhieIs that so ! oha, to aisA hai ! ThIka hai| hokoju para lAMchana lagAyA gayA ki amuka yuvatI ke garbha meM usakA baccA hai, jo paidA hone para use rakhanA hogA / hokoju ne apane karma kI gati jAnakara isa apamAna ko yaha kahate hue svIkAra kara liyA ki acchA aisA hai (Is that so) ThIka hai| kucha varSoM bAda jaba logoM ko patA calatA hai ki ve galata the, unase bhUla ho gaI, taba ve punaH hokoju ke pAsa jAte haiM aura kahate haiM Apake pAsa jo baccA hai, vaha ApakA nahIM apitu kisI machalI vyApArI kA hai, kRpayA Apa use vApasa de diijie| taba bhI hokoju yahI kahate haiM- acchA aisA hai| ThIka hai| isa samaya karma kI amuka prakRti kA udaya hai to ThIka hai| yahI to mukti kA mArga hai| isa mArga meM kabhI kAyA kI prakRti, kabhI citta, kabhI karma, kabhI jagata kI prakRti udaya meM AtI rahatI hai| varSoM varSa buddha 60 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ne yahI to kiyA prakRti ko jAnate, samajhate rhe| taba jJAnI logoM ne cAra anuprekSAe~ dI thIM- anitya, azaraNa, ekatva aura anytv| pratyeka padArtha anitya hai- yaha zAzvata bodha hameM ho jAnA cAhie / yahA~ koI bhI zaraNabhUta nahIM hai| hama sabhI yahA~ saMyogAdhIna haiN| Aja hamArA saMyoga hai, to hama yahA~ haiM, kala ho sakatA hai saMyoga TUTa jAe aura hama cale jaaeN| hamameM se kisI kA saMyoga sanAtana nahIM hai| hama sabhI kA jIvana cir3iyA ke nIr3a ke tinakoM ke svarUpa kI taraha hai, jo Apasa meM guthe hue haiM, lekina kaba kaunasA tinakA bikhara jAe yA gira jAe koI nahIM jaantaa| isalie anupazyanA kA sAdhaka yaha bhalIbhA~ti jAna-samajha letA hai ki prakRti kI isa vyavasthA meM sabhI kucha parivartanazIla hai| anitya hai| buddha kA zAzvata vAkya hai- anniccN| sabhI kucha anitya hai| mahala khaMDahara ho jAte haiM, khaMDahara phira mahala bana jAte haiN| yahA~ rAjA ko raMka aura raMka ko rAjA banate dekhA jAtA hai| duniyA to pahie kI taraha hai, kaba kauna-sI tUlI Upara A jAe aura kaba kaunasI nIcI calI jAe, patA nahIM cltaa| yahA~ saba kucha anitya hai| kala jisa ghara meM bacce ke janmane para thAlI baja rahI thI, Aja vahIM para kisI kA janAz2A nikalane para zoka-krandana hai| jisa zarIra para kala taka gumAna kara rahe the, Aja vahI perAlisisa ke kAraNa laTakA par3A hai| isIlie buddha kahate haiM- aNiccaM / yahA~ saba kucha anitya hai, kucha bhI zAzvata nhiiN| sAdhaka ko AtApI honA cAhie, use apane bhItara adhika se adhika sAkSI dazA ko vikasita karane kA prayatna aura abhyAsa karanA cAhie / mokSa kI prApti ke lie hameM AtApI honA hai| agara hama sA~sa bhI le rahe haiM to usake prathama chora se antima chora taka jAgRta honA hai| zvAsa lene ke aura chor3ane ke madhya hone vAle parivartanoM kA sAkSI honA hai| zvAsa ke udaya aura vilaya ke bIca usake saMvedana, usake svarUpa, AkAra, prakRti, nityatA aura anityatA kA bodha inake prati sAdhaka kI prajJA kA jAganA saMprajJAzIlatA kahalAtI hai| hama anityatA ke bodha se rUbarU hoN| sAkSI dazA kA udaya tabhI hogA, moha aura mUrchAe~ tabhI ttuutteNgii| zvAsa ke prati jAgRti dhIre-dhIre jIvana meM pratyeka kArya, avasthA ke prati jAgRti lAtI hai| hamArI aveyaranesa jIvana meM bar3hatI jAtI hai| anya kucha ho rahA 161 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ho yA na ho rahA ho zvAsa kA udaya-vilaya to hara samaya ghaTita hotA hI rahatA hai| hama sA~soM para dhyAna dharakara, sA~soM para sacetana hokara, sA~soM meM DUbakara apane Apa meM DUba sakate haiN| cetanA svayaM sA~sa letI hai| sA~sa svayaM cetanA taka pahu~cane kA patha hai| hama sA~sa kI hara lahara para, hara AvAgamana meM sthira hoM, saMprajJAzIla hoN| Atmadarzana ke dvAra svataH khulane lgeNge| kahate haiM- santa bAlazema pratidina nadI kinAre jAyA karate the, vahA~ dhyAna karate / rAta meM gyAraha-bAraha baje vahA~ paha~cate aura tIna-cAra baje vApasa apanI kuTiyA meM lauTa aate| rAste meM jaMgala bhI AtA, vahA~ eka rAjamahala thaa| rAjamahala ke bAhara paharedAra caukIdArI kiyA karate / eka caukIdAra ne socA yaha kauna vyakti hai, jo roja rAta ko nadI kI ora jAtA hai| eka rAta usane unakA pIchA kiyA ki yaha kauna hai, kyA karatA hai, corI-chipe koI gar3abar3a to nahIM krtaa| usane dekhA ki bAlazema to kucha karate hI nhiiN| basa nadI kinAre jAkara baiTha ge| do-cAra ghaMTe, jaba taka unakA mana karatA hai, vahA~ baiThate haiM aura phira vApasa A jAte haiN| usane paMdraha-bIsa dina taka yahI dekhA aura eka dina saMta ko roka hI liyA, kahA- mahArAja, jarA Thaharo / batAe~ Apa kauna haiM, kyA karate haiM? bAlazema cauMke, ruke aura bole- maiM apanA paricaya dUM, isase pahale tuma apanA paricaya de do ki tuma kauna ho| usane kahA- maiM to eka paharedAra hU~, caukIdArI karatA hU~, para tuma kauna ho / bAlazema ne kahA- tumane ThIka pahacAna dii| maiM bhI aba taka DhU~Dha rahA thA- maiM kauna hU~, para tumane ThIka pahacAna dii| tuma bhI paharedAra ho aura maiM bhI eka paharedAra huuN| usane kahA- tuma bhI paharedAra ho, kahA~ kI caukIdArI karate ho / bAlazema ne kahA- tuma kisakA paharA dete ho yaha batA do| vaha bolA- maiM to rAjamahala kA paharA detA huuN| kauna bhItara jAtA hai, kauna bAhara AtA hai, isakA khyAla rakhatA huuN| ThIka DhaMga se caukIdArI karatA huuN| bAlazema ne kahA- yahI merA bhI paricaya hai, maiM bhI aisA hI paharedAra hU~, aisI hI caukIdArI karatA hU~ aura dekhatA hU~ kauna mere bhItara jA rahA hai aura kauna bhItara se bAhara taka A rahA hai| maiM bhI apane isa kAyA ke rAjamahala kI caukIdArI karatA huuN| taba paharedAra ne pUchA- maiM jo caukIdArI karatA hU~, isake badale meM mujhe paise milate haiM, tumheM kyA milatA hai ? bAlazema ne kahA- mujhe jo milatA hai, use 62 For Personal & Private Use Only

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paisoM meM nahIM taulA jA sktaa| mujhe astitva ke Ananda kA puraskAra milatA hai| mujhe satya se saMvAda karane kA, usake sAnnidhya meM jIne kA jo avasara milatA hai, use dhana se taulA nahIM jA sakatA, vaha to amUlya hai| vaha paharedAra bAlazema kI bAtoM se atyadhika prabhAvita huA aura pUchA- kyA maiM bhI aisI caukIdArI kara sakatA hU~ ? bAlazema ne kahA- z2arUra, balki tuma to mujha se bhI acchI caukIdArI kara sakate ho, kyoMki mujhe to apanI caukIdArI ko sAdhanA par3A hai aura tumheM to yaha pahale se hI AtI hai| basa farka yaha hai ki abhI taka tumane A~kheM kholakara caukIdArI kI, aba palakeM jhukAkara apane bhItara kI caukIdArI karanI hogI aura pala-pala jAgakara dekhanA hogA ki kauna bhItara A rahA hai aura kauna bhItara se bAhara jA rahA hai| kaba kahA~ kisa cIz2a kA udaya ho rahA hai aura kaba kahA~ kisa cIz2a kA vilaya ho rahA hai| svayaM ke prati jAgarUka honA hogaa| ___ yaha sacetanatA hai| smRtimAna honA hai| pratyakSa anubhUtiyoM ke prati jAgarUkatA hai| sar3aka para cala rahe haiM to jAgarUka hokara calane meM hI DhaMga se cala pAe~ge anyathA durghaTanA ghaTa sakatI hai| jAgarUkatApUrvaka khAnA khAne para hI apane gAloM ko bacAyA jA sakatA hai| jAgarUkatApUrvaka bolane se hI lar3AI-jhagar3e se baca skeNge| aise hI jAgarUkatApUrvaka karane para hI hama dhyAna DhaMga se kara paaeNge| pramAda aura jAgarUkatA donoM Apasa meM virodhI haiM, duzmana haiN| sAdhanA kA praveza-dvAra apramAda-dazA hai| isIlie pahale jinheM sAdhanA karanI hotI thI, ve ghara-gRhasthI tyAga kara saMnyAsI bana jAte the, kyoMki gRhasthI meM rahakara bAhara ke nimittoM se aprabhAvita rahanA muzkila hai| gRhasthI ke nimitta hamArI AtmasAdhanA meM bAdhaka bana jAte haiN| saMprajJAzIlatA meM bAra-bAra avarodha utpanna hotA hai| isIlie dhyAna rakheM ki jaba sAdhanA-zivira meM Ae~ taba ghara ko bilkula hI bhulA deN| aise raheM mAno Apake lie ve aura unake lie Apa haiM hI nhiiN| tabhI to guru gorakhanAtha ne kahA- marau he jogI marau / maroge, tabhI amRta ko upalabdha kara pAoge / jaba taka prapaMcoM meM ulajhe rahoge, taba taka svayaM se vaMcita hI rhoge| rAga-dveSa se mukta hokara apanI sAdhanA meM lIna honA hai| rAga-dveSa se mukta hone kA artha hI yahI hai ki aba na koI vyApAra, na patnI, na pati, na mAtA-pitA, na ghara, na z2amIna-jAyadAda / hamArI eka sAdhikA bahana haiM, ve hamAre pAsa AI huI thiiN| unhoMne Ate hI batA diyA thA ki ve sAta dina hamAre pAsa rheNgii| AThaveM dina vApasI kA 163 For Personal & Private Use Only

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TikaTa hai| hamane kahA svAgata hai| saMyoga se tIsare dina hI unake bhAI kA phona AyA ki ghara meM corI ho gaI hai| sArA mAla asabAba calA gayA hai| kahane lagIM- maiM kyA karU~, jo tumheM vahA~ ucita lage, kro| mere pAsa bhI saMdezA AyA hai ki aisA ho gayA hai. Apa unheM bhijavA diijie| merA farz2a banA ki agara aisI sthiti hai to kaha~ ki Apa cale jaaie| maiMne kahA to unhoMne turanta kahA- Apa aura kahate haiM ki cale jaaie| maiM cauNkaa| ve phira bolIM- are prabhu, Apa bhI kyA bAta karate haiM, jo jAnA thA so calA gyaa| maiM vahA~ rahatI to bhI jA sakatA thA, abhI to maiM jisa uddezya ke lie AI hU~, prANapaNa se usI ke lie samarpita rhuuNgii| vaha sAdhikA vApasa nahIM gii| sAta dina bAda jaba vaha jAne lagI taba kevala yahI kahA- prabhu, kucha cIjeM aisI thIM, jinakA moha maiM nahIM chor3a pAI, maiM usa cora kI AbhArI hU~ ki vaha jo kucha bhI le gayA, usake kAraNa merA parigraha thor3A halkA ho gyaa| aise bhAva sabhI ke nahIM hote| vyakti AtApI, saMprajJAzIla aura smRtimAna hokara sAdhanA-mArga para aae| tabhI vaha sAdhanA pariNAma degI, kisI saccAI taka pahu~cAegI, sAdhAraNa prakRtiyoM se Upara uThAkara asAdhAraNa cetanA kA svAmI bnaaegii| anyathA vahI purAnI smRtiyA~ umar3atI rheNgii| tyAga vaha nahIM hai, jo kaha-sunakara kiyA jAtA hai| svayaM ke bodha se kiyA gayA tyAga vAstavika aura sArthaka tyAga hai| isa taraha kI anupazyanA hamAre lie kalyANakArI sAbita hotI hai| rAga-dveSa se mukta hokara, vItarAgI, vItadveSa hokara jIne vAloM kI tamannAe~, ArajU, bhAvanAe~, kucha alaga hotI haiN| unakA naz2ariyA, unakI titikSAe~ kucha alaga hotI haiN| zrI bhagavAna hameM AtApI, saMprajJAzIla aura smRtimAna banAkara hameM sAdhanA meM praveza dilAnA cAhate haiN| sAdhanA meM kisa taraha Age qadama bar3hAte hue hameM le jAe~ge, Aja hama agalA sUtra lete haiM- 'yahA~ koI araNya meM vRkSa tale yA zUnyAgAra meM jAkara zarIra ko sIdhA rakha, mukha ke UparI bhAga para smRti pratiSThApita kara, pAlathI mArakara baiThatA hai| vaha smRtimAna ho sA~sa letA hai, smRtimAna ho sA~sa chor3atA hai| vaha lambA sA~sa lete hue bhalI prakAra jAnatA hai ki maiM lambA sA~sa letA hU~ aura lambA sA~sa chor3ate hue bhalI prakAra jAnatA hai ki maiM lambA sA~sa chor3atA huuN| vaha odhA sA~sa lete hue bhalI prakAra jAnatA hai ki maiM 164 For Personal & Private Use Only

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odhA sA~sa letA hU~ aura odhA sA~sa chor3ate hue bhalI prakAra jAnatA hai ki maiM odhA sA~sa chor3atA huuN| vaha sIkhatA hai ki maiM sArI kAyA ke prati saMvedanazIla hokara sA~sa lU~gA, maiM sArI kAyA ke prati saMvedanazIla hokara sA~sa chodduuNgaa| vaha sIkhatA hai ki maiM kAyA ke saMskAra ko prazrabdha arthAt zAMta karake sA~sa lU~gA, maiM kAyA ke saMskAroM ko prazrabdha arthAt zAMta karake sA~sa chodduuNgaa|' ___sAdhanA aura samAdhi kA praveza dvAra hai- AnApAna-satI / satI arthAt smRti aura AnApAna hai- AnA aura apAna yAnI jAnA / sA~soM ke Ane aura jAne ke prati apanI smRti aura sacetanatA ko punaH-punaH lagAtAra sAdhane kA nAma hI 'AnApAna-satI' hai| apanI bhASA meM hama ise 'AnApAna-yoga' kaha sakate haiM arthAt AtI-jAtI zvAsoM ke prati Atma-jAgarUka hokara dhyAna karanA 'AnApAna-yoga' hai / hama bIsa miniTa ke sAtha apane AnApAna kI sAdhanA zurU kareM aura aba buddha ke isa kathana ke rahasya ko smjheN| pahalI bAta- sAdhaka svayaM ko araNya meM, zUnyAgAra meM yA vRkSa tale le jAkara baiThe arthAt vyakti svayaM ko ekAnta meM le jaae| dUsarI bAta- zarIra ko sIdhA rakhakara merudaMDa, kamara, gardana sIdhI rakhakara baitthe| anyathA nidrAvasthA hAvI ho sakatI hai| ataH jaba taka jAgarUkatA raha sakatI hai taba taka anupazyanA kIjie / jaba zithilatA mahasUsa ho to dhyAna kA ADambara na kareM aura khar3e ho jaaeN| anupazyanA karate hue zarIra meM halana-calana na ho, deha kA koI bhI aMga hile-Dule nhiiN| jaba hameM citta ko sthira karanA hai to pahale kAyA ko sthira kreN| prazna hai kyoM na hile-DuleM, kyoMki hamAre zarIra meM, kAyA ke loka meM kaba, kahA~, kaunasI prakRti kA udaya hogA, hameM usake prati jAganA hai, usakA sAkSI honA hai| hilane-Dulane para usa udayazIla prakRti ko samajha nahIM pAeMge aura anupazyanA ThIka se sAdha nahIM paaeNge| jaba hameM lage ki ghuTane Upara uThanA cAhate haiM, taba vahI kSaNa hotA hai ki vahA~ pratikUlatA kA vedanA kA, duHkhada ahasAsoM kA ghanatva jahA~ huA, vahA~ usakI pratyakSa anubhUti kareM, para usase pahale hamane hilanA-DulanA zurU kara diyaa| aba dhyAna ba~Ta gayA, anupazyanA ba~Ta gaI, pariNAma se hama phira dUra ho ge| tIsarI bAta- mukha ke UparI bhAga para smRti pratiSThApita kreN| anupazyanA kahA~ kareM- yU~ to hama zarIra ke kisI bhI aMga para- peTa (nAbhi), hRdaya, nAr3iyA~ kahIM bhI dhyAna kara sakate haiM, lekina hamAre mana aura buddhi ke sabase nikaTa 165 For Personal & Private Use Only

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AtI-jAtI zvAsa hai / zvAsoM ko mana aura buddhi saralatA aura zIghratA se pakar3a sakate haiN| mukha kA UparI pradeza nAsikA hai aura nAsApuTa madhya kSetra haiM arthAt AtI-jAtI zvAsoM para apanA dhyAna, apanI jAgarUkatA aura sacetanatA sthApita karane kA prayatna kreN| cauthI bAta- pAlathI lagAkara baitthe| zArIrika asvasthatA ke kAraNa Apa kursI para baiTha sakate haiM, lekina svastha vyakti pAlathI lagAkara baitthe| zarIra meM hone vAle satya ko samajhane ke lie zarIra ko sthira karake pAlathI lagAkara, merudaMDa sIdhA rakhakara, ekAnta meM mauna hokara baittheN| kisI bhI prakAra kA AropaNa na kareM, kinhIM cIz2oM ko yAda na kreN| hara cIz2a se mukta hokara arthAt rAga-dveSa se rahita hokara anupazyanA karane ke lie tatpara hoN| tabhI hama apane bhItara hone vAle udayoM ko samajha sakeMge, varanA idhara-udhara bhaTakate raheMge, bAhara ke vAtAvaraNa prabhAvita karate rheNge| hameM bAhara kI ghaTanAoM kA bhI sAkSI honA hai, jo ho rahA hai, use hone deN| sAdhaka taya kara le ki use sAmAjika svarUpa ko barakarAra rakhanA hai yA apane nirvANa svarUpa kI prApti ke lie prayAsarata rahanA hai| hameM kyA cAhie, do nAvoM kI savArI yA lakSya kI upalabdhi ? do nAvoM para savAra hokara hama kahIM bhI na pahu~ca sakeMge na mAyA milegI aura na hI rAma / __hamArI hAlata yaha hai ki na to saMsAra meM DUba pAte haiM, na hI sAdhanA kI gaharAI meM utara pAte haiN| donoM jagaha uthale-uthale cala rahe haiN| hama sAdhanA meM to bar3hanA cAhate haiM, para saMsAra kA moha chor3a nahIM paate| agara Age bar3hanA hai, to donoM qadama eka sAtha cleNge| dasa qadama kI dUrI taya karane ke lie eka pA~va se nahIM calA jA sktaa| sAdhanA saMsAra se dasa qadama Age bar3hAnA hai| hama eka qadama to uThA lete haiM, para dUsarA qadama uThAne kA sAhasa apane bhItara nahIM juTA paate| hama sabhI pahale aura dUsare qadama ke bIca hI aTake raha jAte haiN| dUsarA qadama bar3he tabhI tIsarA qadama sArthaka hogaa| jo chor3anA hai, vaha to chor3a nahIM pAte aura cAhate haiM nirvANa, mukti / sAdhaka apanA naz2ariyA spaSTa kara le ki vaha kyA pAnA cAhatA hai| isIlie kahate haiM- marau he jogI marau / pahale maranA hogA- kisI kA celA bana jAnA saMnyAsa nahIM hai, saMnyAsa vaha hai, jisameM Apake lie saMsAra nA-kucha ho gayA hai| usake pahale saMnyAsa AtA hI nahIM hai / saMnyAsa kA veza z2arUra A jAtA 66 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hai, para bhItara saMnyAsa avatarita nahIM hotA / saMnyAsI ke lie duniyA mara gii| vaha kevala usI ke lie, prabhu ke lie hI samarpita ho jAtA hai| isIlie maiM kahatA hU~ saMnyAsI honA atyanta durdhara tapasyA hai| janmoM-janmoM meM kisI prabala puNyodaya se koI vAstavika saMnyAsI bana pAtA hai| zeSa to veza-parivartana se kyA farka par3atA hai, phira saMsAra meM raho ki saMnyAsa meN|| zrI bhagavAna kahate haiM pAlathI mArakara baiTho, mukha ke Upara bhAga para apanI smRti ko, apanI sacetanatA ko pratiSThApita kro| kevala sthApita hI na kareM, 'pratiSThApita' kareM / pratiSThA yAnI jise aba hilA bhI na sakeM / maMdira meM mUrti kI pratiSThA karate haiM to bAda meM vaha hilAte bhI nahIM haiM aura agara hila jAe yA haTa jAe to kahate haiM AzAtanA ho gii| isI taraha jaba hamArA dhyAna haTa jAe to use kyA kaheMge ? asala meM to hama usa para gaura hI nahIM krte| pratiSThA kA artha huA- apane prANoM ko, svayaM ko vahA~ pratiSThita kara diyA, prANapaNa se apanI jAgarUkatA ko, sacetanatA ko mukha ke Upara bhAga para pratiSThApita karanA hai| jaba koI sAdhaka isa bAhya dazA kA, bAhya svarUpa kA nirmANa kara letA hai, tabhI vaha sAdhanA ke lie taiyAra ho pAtA hai, usakI bhUmikA, usakA dharAtala bana jAtA hai aura taba vaha bhalIbhA~ti AtI huI sA~sa ko bhI jAna legA aura jAtI huI sA~sa ko jAnane meM bhI saphala ho jaaegaa| koI vyakti agara sAdhanA ke mArga para pahalA qadama rakha rahA hai, to usake lie maiM sujhAva dUMgA ki vaha eka mAlA hAtha meM rakha le| zuruAtI daura meM mAlA upayogI bana sakatI hai| yaha salAha buddha ne nahIM dI hai, maiM de rahA huuN| anyathA patA hI nahIM calegA ki bIsa minaTa hue yA nhiiN| sA~sa + dhArA para thor3I-sI sacetanatA sadhate hI mAlA chor3a deN| kevala dasa dina ke lie hameM yaha mAlA tIna bAra phirAnI hai| koI maMtra nahIM, koI jApa nahIM karanA hai| jJAna mudrA dhAraNa kareM aura eka manakA ghumAe~, lambI gaharI sA~sa leM aura lambI gaharI sA~sa chodd'eN| abhI hama dhyAna nahIM kara rahe haiM, abhI zvAsa-prazvAsa kA abhyAsa kara rahe haiM / yaha sacetana prANAyAma hai| citta bhaTaka sakatA hai, lekina cintA na kreN| punaH use lauTA lAe~ aura abhyAsa jArI rkheN| samAdhi kA pahalA dvAra hai- aanaapaan-yog| apanI AtI-jAtI zvAsoM para apanI smRti ko, sacetanatA ko sthApita krnaa| apane mana ke ghor3e ko sA~soM ke rAste para lgaanaa| abhI sA~soM kI anupazyanA nahIM ho rahI hai, sA~soM 167] For Personal & Private Use Only

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kA marma samajha meM nahIM AyA hai, abhI to hama sA~soM ko pakar3ane kA abhyAsa kara rahe haiN| yaha eka mAlA pUrI huii| pahalI mAlA meM lambI sA~sa leM, to dUsarI mAlA meM zvAsa kI gati ko manda karate hue lambe zvAsa le rahe haiM aura lambe-lambe manda zvAsa chor3a rahe haiN| sAmAnya taura para hama eka miniTa meM paMdraha zvAsa lete haiM, lekina lambe gahare dasa zvAsa lie jAte haiM aura mandagati ke lambe-gahare zvAsa chaH-sAta hI lie jAte haiN| eka mAlA aba manda gati ke zvAsa-prazvAsa kI kareM / yaha thor3A kaThina hogA, lekina mahAvIra ne kahA- jaba tuma dhyAna karo to manda-manda zvAsozvAsa para mana ko sAdho / sAdhanA se pahale manda-manda zvAsaprazvAsa kreN| hama zvAsa ko jAna rahe haiM, usI kA pratyakSa anubhava kara rahe haiM / zvAsa ko jAnane kA hI prayAsa aura puruSArtha kara rahe haiN| tIsarI mAlA meM AtIjAtI sahaja sA~soM kI anupazyanA kreN| aba prayAsa miTa gayA hai, hAtha meM kevala mAlA kA maNiyA cala rahA hai aura zvAsoM kI anupazyanA ho rahI hai| dasa dina bIsa miniTa taka ye tIna mAlA zvAsa kI sAdha lIjie aura dasa dina bAda isa mAlA kA tyAga kara dIjie aura lambI, manda aura sahaja zvAsa dhArAoM para svayaM ko jagAe~, inakI anupazyanA kreN| ___zvAsoM para jAgRti Apake kAyika loka para bhI jAgRti paidA kregii| zvAsoM ke prati jaise-jaise jAgarUkatA sadhatI hai, vaise-vaise hamAre kAyA ke loka meM jo-jo upadrava udaya meM Ae~ge, hama unako pakar3ane meM, jAnane meM, samajhane meM, unakI prakRti ke sAkSI hone meM saphala hote jaaeNge| sAdhaka jAnatA hai ki kaba zvAsa lambI cala rahI hai, kaba manda hai, kaba sahaja hai aura kaba nahIM cala rahI hai| aisI sthiti bhI banatI hai, jaba sA~sa ochI calatI hai arthAt zvAsa itanI dhImI aura manda calatI hai ki patA nahIM calatA ki zvAsa cala bhI rahI hai-- ise kahate haiM zvAsa kA prazrabdha honA, zAnta honA / jaba zvAsa itanI zAnta ho jAegI to hamArI kAyA bhI zAnta ho jAtI hai| pahale caraNa meM zvAsoM ke prati jAganA hai aura zvAsoM ko jAnate hue kAyA ke prati saMvedanazIla honA hai| taba vaha sira se lekara pA~va taka pratyeka aMga kI anupazyanA karane lagatA hai aura tatvataH apanI kAyA ko samajhane lagatA hai| jIvana kA sArA marma aura rahasya isa sAr3he tIna hAtha kI kAyA meM samAhita hai| __ dhyAna ke anya sabhI mArga hameM adRzya se jor3ane kI preraNA dete haiM, para anupazyanA kA mArga hameM hamAre bhItara vartamAna kSaNa meM, kSaNa-kSaNa meM jo-jo 68 For Personal & Private Use Only

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udaya aura vilaya meM A rahA hai, usa prakRti ke prati sAkSI hone kA mArga detA hai| hameM kevala darzana karanA hai, kevala jJAna karanA hai arthAt darzana mAtra rahe, jJAna mAtra rahe, zeSa saba prazrabdha zAnta hotA jaae| Apa sabhI AnApAna-yoga meM praveza kreN| namaskAra / 69 For Personal & Private Use Only

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6 calate-phirate kaise kareM anupazyanA - AnApAna - yoga sAdhanA aura samAdhi kA praveza dvAra hai| AtI-jAtI zvAsadhArA ko binA kisI hastakSepa ke, sacetanatApUrvaka jAnanA, usakA bodha karanA, usake udaya aura vilaya ko samajhanA hI AnApAna - yoga hai / zvAsadhArA jaisI bhI cala rahI ho, use yathAbhUta jAnanA hotA hai, usameM kisI prakAra kA AropaNa nahIM karanA hotA hai| na kisI mUrata kA, na sUrata kA, na maMtra yA zabda yA RcA kA / koI AropaNa kie binA jaisI bhI hamArI sA~sa A-jA rahI hai, use hozapUrvaka jAnate rahanA hI AnApAna - yoga hai / agara zvAsa gaharI cala rahI hai yA ochI cala rahI hai, lambI hai yA choTI to anupazyanA karane vAlA sAdhaka bhalIbhA~ti jAnatA hai ki zvAsa kisa prakAra kI cala rahI hai / sAmAnya aura sAdhAraNa zvAsa kA bhI vaha dRSTA bana jAtA hai| jaise suthAra jAnatA hai ki use apane aujAroM ko kitane pratizata taka Age yA pIche calAnA hai| jaise vaha apane aujAra aura usake pariNAma ke prati saceta aura jAgarUka rahatA hai, ThIka usI taraha anupazyanA karane vAlA sAdhaka bhI apanI zvAsoM kI sthiti ko jAnatA hai / 70 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hamAre isa kAyA ke loka meM zvAsa kA AnA-jAnA asAdhAraNa aura alaukika hai, kyoMki yaha vaha prANa-vAyu aura prANa-cetanA hai, jisase hamAre zarIra aura citta kI samasta gatividhiyA~ prerita aura prabhAvita hotI haiM / zvAsoM ke AvAgamana se hamArA zvasana taMtra kArya karatA hai / zvasana taMtra ke saMcAlana se hRdaya kAma karatA hai| hRdaya ke kArya karane se usameM rakta ke parivahana se mastiSka kAma karane lagatA hai| zarIra ke pratyeka nAr3I-taMtra meM, raga-raga meM rakta pravAha, deha kI saMvedanAe~, sAre ahasAsa antataH zvAsadhArA se jAkara hI jur3ate haiN| isa taraha zvAsa hamAre jIvana kA mahatvapUrNa aMga hai| hama apanI zvAsa sAdhAraNataH svayaM banda nahIM kara sakate / jaba koI tAlAba yA nadI meM DubakI lagAtA hai to jaba taka vaha apanI zvAsa ko rokane meM saphala hotA hai, tabhI taka vaha pAnI meM raha sakatA hai aura jaise hI use zvAsa lene kI AvazyakatA par3atI hai, vaha tatkAla bAhara A jAtA hai, kyoMki zarIra aura isakI vyavasthAe~ vAyu ke AdhAra para saMcAlita hotI haiN| jaba hameM apane jIvana kI saccAI kA sAkSAtkAra karanA hai to zvAsadhArA ke bIca meM kisI bhI prakAra kA hastakSepa nahIM karanA caahie| jo jaisA ho rahA hai, hama use vaisA hI yathAvat jAnane kA prayatna kara rahe haiM, abhyAsa kara rahe haiN| hamArI deha meM zvAsoM ke AvAgamana ke sAtha hI aneka prakAra kI saMvedanAe~ bhI hotI haiN| mRta zarIra zvAsa nahIM letA, isalie usameM kisI prakAra kI saMvedanAe~ nahIM utthtiiN| zvAsa lene vAlI deha meM aneka-aneka prakAra ke saMvedana ahasAsa udita hote haiN| yaha bhI taya hai ki ye saMvedana sthAyI nahIM hote, thor3e-thor3e samaya meM badalate rahate haiM, yaha hama sabhI mahasUsa karate haiN| kabhI bhUkha kA saMvedana jagatA hai, kabhI nInda kA ahasAsa hone lagatA hai, kabhI nivRtti kI zaMkA hone lagatI hai| ye saMvedanA hara samaya nahIM hotIM, para isa deha ke andara-hI-andara sArI vyavasthAe~ calatI rahatI haiN| isa kAyA meM alaga-alaga saMvedanoM kA udaya aura vilaya hotA rahatA hai| jaba ve pragAr3ha ho jAte haiM to hamArI sAdhAraNa buddhi aura mana ke dvArA bhI grahaNa kara lie jAte haiM, lekina anupazyanA karane vAlA sAdhaka apane jIvana, zarIra, vANI arthAt samasta gatividhiyoM kA saMprajJAna, unakA bodha karane vAlA apane pala-pala ke udaya aura vilaya kA bhI sAkSI hotA jAtA hai| sAdhaka jaba dhyAna meM utarakara apane saMvedanoM para jAgarUka hone lagatA hai, unheM samajhane lagatA hai to ve pratyakSa anubhUti meM Ane lagate haiN| hamArI sacetanatA | 71 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kabhI sthUla aura kabhI sUkSma ho jAtI hai| zvAsa para pragAr3hatA sadhane para tIsare pariNAma ke rUpa meM bhItara kI anupazyanA hone lagatI hai| cauthe pariNAma ke rUpa meM kahA jA sakatA hai ki vaha bAhara kI bhI anupazyanA karane lagatA hai| pA~caveM pariNAma ke rUpa meM bhItara aura bAhara donoM ke prati eka sAtha sacetana hotA hai| donoM kA saMprajJAna aura pratyakSa anubhUti hotI hai| zarIra ke kisI bhI hisse meM, pudgala-paramANuoM ke ghanatva meM jo bhI udaya ho rahA hai, vaha jAnane lagatA hai ki vartamAna kSaNa meM kAyA meM amuka prakAra kA udaya hai| kabhI darda ke rUpa meM, jakar3ana ke rUpa meM yA sukhada aura duHkhada ahasAsa ke rUpa meM sUkSma saMvedana bhI udita hote rahate haiN| ahasAsoM kA honA z2arUrI nahIM hai| ahasAsa na hone para bhI sahaja sAkSI ho jAnA hai| agara udaya hai to citta svataH usa ora AkarSita ho jAegA, koI AropaNa aura hastakSepa ke binA sAdhaka usa vRtti ko jaanegaa| jaise tAlAba meM budabudA uThatA hai to hama use roka nahIM skte| bAhara se kisI prakAra roka bhI diyA jAe, taba bhI andara to uThatA hI rahatA hai| isa taraha chaThe pariNAma ke rUpa meM udaya ko jAnane lagatA hai aura sAtaveM pariNAma ke rUpa meM vilaya ko bhI jAnane lagatA hai ki aba saba kucha prazrabdha ho gayA hai, saba zAnta aura upazAMta ho gayA hai, aba mauna hai| AThaveM pariNAma ke rUpa meM udaya aura vilaya donoM ko eka sAtha jAnane lagatA hai| krodha-mAna-mAyA kI udita hotI pravRttiyoM ko jAna rahA hotA hai, sAtha-sAtha unake vilaya ko bhI pahacAna rahA hotA hai| nauveM pariNAma ke rUpa meM vaha jAna jAtA hai ki yaha kAyA hai| isakA yaha dharma hai, yaha prakRti hai aura vaha yaha kAyA nahIM hai| sAdhaka jo pratyakSa anubhUti meM lagA huA hai, apanI saccAI se mulAkAta kara rahA hai, svayaM ke prati sacetana hone kA abhyAsa kara rahA hai, khuda ke lie AtApI hai, jo sAdhanA ke lie parizrama, udyama kara rahA hai, vaha bhalIbhA~ti apanI kAyA ke bAre meM jAnane lagatA hai| aisI sthiti meM sAdhaka ko bodha hone lagatA hai ki maiM kAyA nahIM huuN| aba prazna uThatA hai ki maiM kAyA kyoM nahIM hU~ ? duniyA ke sAre dharmazAstra yahI kahate haiM ki maiM kAyA nahIM, AtmA huuN| lekina hamArI anubhUti meM pahale kAyA hI AtI hai| hama abhI AtmA zabda ko nahIM lA rahe haiM, kisI bhI prakAra kA AropaNa nahIM kara rahe haiN| abhI to hameM kAyA, zvAsa aura isase hone vAle saMvedanoM kA hI saMprajJAna ho rahA hai| abhI hameM nitya tattva, Atma yA paramAtma 72 For Personal & Private Use Only

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tattva kI anubhUti nahIM ho rahI hai| na hI inakA AropaNa aura nikSepa kreNge| taba kAyA meM rahakara bhI yaha kaise jAneMge ki maiM kAyA nahIM haiM, kyoMki hamAre sAre anubhava to kAyA ke hI haiN| hamArI kAyA meM hara kSaNa parivartana hote rahate haiM, bhale hI hameM patA na calatA ho, lekina parivartanazIla hote hI haiM, jo samaya-samaya para hameM naz2ara bhI A jAte haiN| jo parivartanazIla haiM, pala-pala badalatA hai, vaha 'maiM' kaise ho sakatA hai, kyoMki saMvedanA kA udaya aura vilaya ho rahA hai| agara 'maiM' saMvedanA hU~ to mujhe bhI miTa jAnA cAhie thA, lekina maiM' miTA nahIM huuN| isalie 'maiM' haiN| jo udaya haA, vaha kAyA meM thA aura vilaya bhI kAyA meM hI haa| isalie 'maiM' kAyA nahIM huuN| ___'maiM' aura 'merA'- na to 'maiM' kAyA hU~ aura na hI 'merI' kAyA hai| abhI hama buddhi ke tala para samajha rahe haiN| lekina sAdhanAzIla apanI vAstavika anubhUti meM isako jAna rahA hotA hai| zAbdika rUpa se bhASA meM buddhi ke tala para samajhanA kevala cintana-manana hai, lekina pratyakSa anubhUti se jAnanA isameM bahuta bheda hai| buddhi se jAnanA aura buddha ho jAnA isameM gaharA farka hai| abhI to hama buddhi se cintana-manana kara rahe haiM, lekina jaba Apa ekAnta meM rahakara svayaM kI anupazyanA kareMge, taba pratyakSa anubhUti kara pAe~ge, Thosa dharAtala ke rUpa meN| yU~ to hama sabhI jAnate haiM ki zarIra anitya hai, lekina yaha jAnanA kevala buddhi ke tala para hai| Thosa anubhUti ke rUpa meM nahIM jAnate haiN| agara Thosa anubhUti ke rUpa meM jAnate to isa kAyA kA itanA zRMgAra nahIM karate, isakA bhoga-upabhoga nahIM karate, AhAra-pAnI ke dvArA itanA poSaNa na krte| hama yaha saba isalie karate haiM, kyoMki hama buddhi ke stara para jAnate haiM ki kAyA anitya hai| bodha ke stara para nahIM jAnate / jIvana-maraNa saba jAnate haiM, lekina vyavahAra meM, anubhUti ke rUpa meM kucha nahIM patA hai| mahAvIra ne mAtA-pitA kI arthiyoM ko dekhA thaa| unakI jalatI huI citAoM ko dekhA, dekhate-dekhate ve antarlIna ho ge| mahAvIra ko lagA ki ye arthiyA~ mAtA-pitA kI nahIM, unakI apanI haiN| mahAvIra kA deha-moha jala gyaa| ve Atma-jAgRta ho ge| unhoMne videha kI khoja ke lie abhiniSkramaNa kA qadama bar3hA diyaa| buddha ne bhI rAja-patha para zava-yAtrA dekhI thii| unhoMne sArathI se pUchA- loga isa vyakti ko sulAkara kaMdhe para uThAe kyoM cale jA rahe haiM ? sArathI ne TippaNI kI- yaha vyakti mara cukA hai| mRtyu avazyaMbhAvI hai, 73 73 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sabako AtI hai| mujhe bhI, Apako bhI / buddha ko lagA agara mRtyu sabake khAte meM hai, to mRtyu ke pAra kyA hai ? amRta kyA hai ? buddha ko janma, jarA, roga aura mRtyu jaise tattvoM ne Andolita kara diyaa| ve patnI-bacce ko chor3akara nikala ge| parama tyAga ke patha para, parama satya kI talAza meN| rAjacandra kI AtmA bhI aise hI jagI thii| ghara meM kisI bar3e-bujurga kI mRtyu ho gaI thii| dUra per3a para baiThe unakI citA ko jalate dekhaa| citA ko kyA dekhA, citA ko dekhakara unakI khuda kI cetanA jaga gii| jaba bhI koI tathya anubhUti aura bodha kI gaharAI meM utara jAtA hai, to jIvana meM svataH saMbodhi kA prakAza sAkAra ho jAtA hai| __ abhI to jaba hama zmazAna meM jAte haiM kisI kA dAha-saMskAra karane, taba hI patA calatA hai ki kAyA anitya hai, para dUsare dina use bhulA bhI baiThate haiM, kyoMki aba vaha bodha rahA hI nhiiN| hama to use yAda karane meM bhI Darate haiM, kyoMki taba apanI hI mauta dikhAI dene lagatI hai| jabaki yahI sahI samaya hai jAgane kA, anupazyanA karane kaa| asthi-kalaza ApakI soI huI cetanA ko jhakajhora sakatA hai ki yaha hai kAyA- cAra muTThI rAkha aura cAra Tukar3e haDDiyA~ / pratyakSa anubhUti deha se videha banAtI hai, dehAtIta banAtI hai, jIvanamukti kA rAstA kholatI hai| saMprajJAnI honA kyA hai- apanI buddhi ke sAtha sacetanatA kA upayoga karate hue pratyakSa anubhUti krnaa| ___ jAnanA pA~ca prakAra kA hotA hai- eka hai kevala jAnanA, dUsarA haiprajJApUrvaka jAnanA aura tIsarA hai- samyak rUpa se jAnanA, cauthA hai- apanI paridhi se bhI bAhara nikalakara jAnanA, pA~cavA~ hai- sarvajJa kI bhA~ti jAnanA, samagra prakAra se kisI bhI pahalU ko, tattva ko, vastu ko, vyakti ko jAnanA, svayaM ko jAnanA / jaba hama jAna lete haiM, to A~kha khula jAtI hai| samyaka jJAna kA pariNAma hai samyak darzana / ajJAna tabhI taka hai, jaba taka hama bhalIbhA~ti nahIM jAnate haiN| moha bhI tabhI taka rahatA hai, mUrchA bhI taba taka hai, jaba taka hama ThIka prakAra se nahIM jAnate- kevala jAnate haiM, Upara-Upara jAnate haiN| jaba taka kevala jAnanA hai, taba taka ajJAna, moha, mUrchA, ahaMkAra, kaSAya, vikAra-vAsanAe~ hAvI rahatI haiN| abhI hama Upara-Upara, bAharI taura para hI jAnate haiN| dhyAna bhItara taka jAnane kA upakrama hai| smaraNa kareM- rAjA bhartRhari ko, jinheM kisI ne amRta phala diyA / rAjA ne 74] For Personal & Private Use Only

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socA ki ve ise khAkara kyA kareMge, unhoMne use apanI patnI ko de diyaa| patnI mahAvata se jur3I huI thI, usane vaha phala mahAvata ko de diyaa| mahAvata kisI gaNikA ke prema meM thA, usane vaha phala use de diyaa| vaha gaNikA rAjA se prema rakhatI thii| so usane socA yaha phala to rAjA ke pAsa honA caahie| vaha phala lauTakara rAjA ke pAsa A gyaa| bhartRhari jAnate to pahale se hI the, lekina UparI-UparI taura para hI jAnate the| aba unheM dhakkA lgaa| unhoMne bhalIbhA~ti taba samyak rUpa se jaanaa| patnI ne pahale bhI latAr3A to hogA hI, lekina bhartRhari nahIM jAge, kyoMki taba pahale caraNa kA hI jAnanA thA, lekina Aja jo jAnane ko milA vaha prajJApUrvaka, samyak rUpa se, paridhi se cAra qadama Age nikalakara samagra rUpa se jAnanA ho gayA ! jaba vaha phala hAtha meM AyA taba usa phala ko dekhakara bhartRhari kI soI huI AtmA jAga gaI / moha-vikAra, rAga-dveSa meM ulajhI unakI cetanA jAga gii| unhoMne kahA- 'are !' aura tabhI vairAgya-zataka ke pahale zloka kI racanA huI- 'yAM cintayAmi satatam mayI sA viraktA' - jisake lie maiM rAta-dina itanA tar3apatA rahA hU~, maiM nahIM jAnatA thA ki vaha to mujhase itanI virakta hai| bhartRhari taba rAjA na rahe, rAjarSi ho ge| nikala gae rAja-pATa chor3akara / Thokara lagI, to cetanA jaga gii| jIvana kA saccA jJAna ho gyaa| hamAre dvArA bhalIbhA~ti jAnA gayA jJAna, bhalIbhA~ti prApta huA bodha hI saMprajJAna kahalAtA hai| isI se hamArI mukti kA rAstA khulatA hai| eka sAdhaka jo bhItara uThane vAlI pravRtti ke udaya-vilaya kA pala-pala darzana kara rahA hai, usI ke bhItara anAsakti kA phUla khilatA hai, buddhatva kA kamala khilatA hai| isI tarIke se anaginata loga tIrthaMkara hue aura anaginata loga buddha bane haiN| inhoMne pala-pala satya ko samajhA aura jAnA 'yaha hai / isI se 'maiM' aura 'mere' kA bhAva TUTatA hai| eka bAra bhalIbhA~ti jAna leN| tattvataH jAna leM, bodhapUrvaka jAna leN| __ anupazyanA yAnI kSaNa-kSaNa, pala-pala kI anupazyanA / jo bhI ho rahA hai, kara rahe haiM- sabakI anupazyanA / jIvana meM jo bhI ghaTa rahA hai usa sabakI anupshynaa| kitane hI prakAra kI anupazyanA / basa dekhanA ki 'yaha hai / koI nikSepa yA AropaNa nhiiN| hamArI buddhi, hamArI anubhUti khuda jAna rahI hai, khuda caika-apa kara rahI hai| jaise hI hama jAnane lageMge ki bhojana kA antima pariNAma 75 For Personal & Private Use Only

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Apa mala hI hai, taba usake prati rahane vAlI Asakti, lipsA, apanetRSNA kama hone lgegii| anyathA assI varSa kA bUr3hA bhI bhojana ke lie lAlAyita rahatA hai| sattara varSIya bAbA bhI tIsarI zAdI meM ruci rakhate haiM / arthAt insAna kA mana atRpta rahatA hai / tRpti aura anAsakti, vItarAga dazA, vItadveSa aura vItamoha dazA tabhI AegI, jaba hama saccAI se vAqipha hoNge| jo hamAre bhItara udita ho rahA hai, hameM usakI saccAI se vAqifa honA hai| kisI bhI cIz2a kA udaya honA mahattvapUrNa nahIM hai, balki udaya aura vilaya ke prati sacetanatA hI mahattvapUrNa hai| dhyAna rakho, sacetanatA hI sAdhanA hai / sacetanatA hI hameM Asakti ke pAra le jAtI hai| sacetanatA se hI mukti kA kamala khilatA hai / isalie khAo, to bhI sacetanatA se, calo to bhI sacetanatA se, bolo to bhI sacetanatA se, kapar3e kholo aura pahano taba bhI sacetanatA se, mala-mUtra kA tyAga karo taba bhI sacetanatA se / binA sacetanatA ke agara zeviMga kI to sAvadhAna ! bleDa kA kaTa laga sakatA hai, khAnA khAyA, to gAla dA~ta meM A sakate haiM, kapar3e pahane to caina banda karanA bhUla sakate haiM, sar3aka para cale to Thokara khA sakate haiM aura sIr3hiyA~ utare to phisala sakate haiM / isIlie kahate haiM, sAvadhAnI haTI ki durghaTanA ghttii| - sacetanatA khuda hI eka sAdhanA hai, hara kArya ko pUrNatA dene kA sAdhana sacetanatA hI hai| jaise gatividhi ke prati sacetanatA cAhie, aise hI janma, roga, bur3hApA, mRtyu ke prati bhI sacetanatA rhe| subaha leTrina jAo to visarjita tattva prati bhI sacetanatA rakheM aura jAneM- to yaha hai pariNAma / isI se bhojana aura svAda ke prati rahane vAlI mUrcchA, lAlasA kama hogii| kisI ko vamana ho taba bhI jAneM ki yaha hai pariNAma / zarIra kA dharma hI hai bananA, bigar3anA, sar3anAgalanA / subaha bhale hI kAkha yA bagala meM spre chir3ako, para dopahara meM gaura karoge to bagala se badabU hI AtI naz2ara aaegii| kula milAkara, sacetanatA apanAe~, sacetanatA kA dIpa jalAe~ / buddha kahate haiM- appa dIpo bhava / apane dIpa tuma svayaM bano / prazna hai khuda ke dIpaka banane kA tarIkA kyA hai, to javAba hogA - sacetanatA / kahate haiM eka rAjakumAra bahuta bImAra hotA hai / rAjavaidya, cikitsaka sabhI sAre prayatna kara hAra cuke haiN| rAjA atyanta vyathita hai, vaha tIna dina aura tIna 76 For Personal & Private Use Only

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rAta se rAjakumAra kI zaiyA ke nikaTa hI baiThA hai ki acAnaka use nIMda kI jhapakI laga jAtI hai aura eka sapanA AtA hai ki usake sAta rAjamahala haiM, sAta rAniyA~ haiM aura hara rAnI ke eka-eka rAjakumAra haiN| unake sAtha vaha sukhapUrvaka raha rahA hai, sabhI rAjaputra usakA sammAna karate haiM / eka dina rAjakumAra khelakUda kara apane rAjamahaloM kI ora lauTa rahe the ki rAjA sAmane dikha jAte haiN| sabhI rAjakumAra apane- apane ghor3oM se nIce utara jAte haiM aura rAjA ke pA~va chUne lagate haiN| rAjA apane baccoM ke prati prema se bhara jAtA hai, usake hRdaya meM vAtsalya umar3a AtA hai, vaha Age bar3hakara apane sAre rAjakumAroM ko gale lagAnA cAhatA hai / jaise hI vaha gale lagAnA cAhatA hai, utane meM hI bImAra rAjakumAra kI mRtyu ho jAtI hai| rAjarAnI kI cIkha nikalatI hai- 'beTA, cala bsaa|' cIkha sunate hI rAjA kI A~kha khula jAtI hai| rAnI punaH kahatI hai, 'hamArA beTA nahIM rahA / ' rAjA hataprabha hai, vaha kyA kare ? usake sAmane do dRzya haiM - eka sAmane rakhA huA zava aura eka vaha svapna jo vaha abhI-abhI dekha rahA thA / rAjA gumasuma ho gyaa| usase kucha kahate-bolate nahIM bana rahA thA / rAjamAtA ne bhI rAjA se kahA- tuma kucha suna rahe ho yA nahIM, tumhArA beTA isa duniyA ko chor3akara calA gyaa| rAjA ne kahA- hA~, mA~ maiM suna rahA hU~ / to aise cupacApa kyoM baiThe ho ? apane putra ke lie kucha to vilApa kara / rAjamAtA ne kahA- tujhe A~sU kyoM nahIM A rahe, terA putra nahIM rahA, kyA tU vikSipta ho gayA hai, jo aise gU~ge jaisA baiThA hai / yaha sunate hI rAjA ha~sa par3A / mA~ ko lagA ki sacamuca hI rAjA putra - bichoha se pAgala ho gayA hai| tabhI rAjA ne kahA- mA~, batAo maiM kisake lie roU~ aura kisake lie hNsuuN| mA~ ne pUchAkyA matalaba, kyA kahanA cAhate ho ? mA~, maiM una sAta rAjakumAroM ke lie roU~ yA isa rAjakumAra ke lie roU~- rAjA ne kahA / mAtA ne pUchA- kyA tumane koI sapanA dekhA thA ? rAjA ne kahA- 'hA~ mA~, sapanA hI dekhA thA / basa, farqa yaha thA ki eka sapanA banda A~khoM se dekhA thA aura eka khulI huI A~khoM se dekha rahA huuN| saMsAra eka sapanA hI to hai, khulI huI A~kha kA sapanA ! yaha anubhUti, yaha saMprajJAna hI anupazyanA hai| jisakI isa saccAI se mulAkAta ho jAtI hai ki yaha hai anityatA, anAtma aura duHkha, taba apane-Apa hI bhItara meM anAsakti kA phUla khila jAtA hai / For Personal & Private Use Only 77

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akhila brahmAMDa ke loka kI taraha hI hamArA deha rUpI loka hai| isa kAyA rUpI loka ke prati hameM jaganA hotA hai, isakI sAdhanA karanI hotI hai| isakI sAdhanA ke lie zrI bhagavAna jo sUtra kahate haiM, vaha IryA patha se jur3A hai| buddha kahate haiM- 'koI calatA huA sAdhaka bhalI prakAra jAnatA hai ki maiM calatA hU~, ThaharA huA bhalI prakAra jAnatA hai ki maiM ThaharA hU~, baiThA huA bhalI prakAra se jAnatA hai ki maiM baiThA hU~ aura leTA huA sAdhaka bhalI prakAra jAnatA hai ki maiM leTA huuN|' anupazyanA kucha vizeSa samaya ke lie nahIM hotii| yaha to caubIsoM ghaMTe hamArI jIvana kI sahacarI ho jAtI hai| hameM apane hoza aura bodha ko khAtepIte, uThate-baiThate, sote-jAgate barakarAra rakhanA hotA hai, saMprajJAna rakhanA hotA hai| vaha jo bhI kriyA karatA hai, jAnatA hai ki yaha kriyA mere dvArA ho rahI hai| sambhavataH vizva meM ekamAtra buddha kI pratimAe~ hI aisI haiM, jo leTI huI avasthA meM upalabdha haiN| hA~, viSNujI kI pratimA bhI milatI hai, lekina unameM ve lakSmIjI ke sAtha kSIrasAgara meM ArAma pharamA rahe hote haiN| lekina buddha leTe hue bhI dhyAna kI sthiti meM hote haiN| mahAvIra kI baiThI huI pratimAe~ hI dikhAI jAtI haiM arthAt mahAvIra ko sampUrNataH apramatta dikhAyA jAtA hai, jabaki mahAvIra bhI leTate hoMge, ve bhI cale hoMge, unhoMne bhI kucha-na-kucha khAyA-pIyA hogA, mala-mUtra kA tyAga bhI kiyA hogA, lekina jaba hama kisI ko Adarza banA lete haiM to usakI zreSTha cIjoM ko hI dikhAnA cAhate haiM, zeSa saba gauNa kara dete haiN| mahAvIra ko bhI leTe hue dikhAnA cAhie, kyoMki sAdhaka aharniza, sapane meM bhI anupazyanA karatA hai| svapna meM bhI usakI anupazyanA jArI rahatI hai, kyoMki usakI sacetanatA kabhI khaMDita nahIM hotii| isIlie kahate haiM ki rAta meM sote hae jaba vaha karavaTa badale taba use karavaTa badalane kA bhI bodha ho, usakA bhI saMprajJAna kare, use bhI bhalIbhA~ti jAne / taba kaha sakate haiM ki isakI prajJAzIlatA sadha rahI hai, bhItara meM jAgarUkatA sadhI hai| tabhI to hama jhena ke DaMDe kI kahAnI yAda rakhate haiN| kahAnI yaha hai : eka rAjA jhena phakIra ke pAsa pahu~catA hai aura kahatA hai ki use samAdhi prApta karanI hai, isake lie kitane sAla laga jAe~ge ? guru ne kahA- tIsa saal| ___ rAjA ne kahA- tIsa sAla ! ye to bahuta haiM, mere pAsa itanA samaya nahIM hai| 78 For Personal & Private Use Only

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guru ne kahA- taba pandraha sAla meM kAma karavA deMge / pandraha sAla bhI adhika haiN| rAjA ne kahA * ThIka hai dasa sAla / dasa sAla bhI z2yAdA haiM / - acchA pA~ca sAla / * are nahIM ye bhI z2yAdA haiN| - tIna sAla / ye bhI z2yAdA laga rahe haiM / taba isase kama meM kAma nahIM ho sakatA hai / yaha antima samayasImA hai, isameM jo milanA hogA, mila jAegA / rAjA ne vicAra kiyA / usake mana meM Atma-jJAna prApta karane kI pyAsa thI / isalie vaha taiyAra ho gayA / taba guru ne kahA- tU ruka to gayA hai, para sAvadhAna ! ina tIna varSoM meM tU kisI bhI prakAra kA prazna nahIM uThA sakegA, pratikriyA nahIM kara sakegA, jaisA maiM kahU~gA, vaisA hI karanA hogA / rAjA bolaabilkul| jo Apa kaheMge, vahI karU~gA, kucha bhI na kahU~gA / rAjA ruka gyaa| eka sAla bIta gyaa| isa daurAna guru ne na to jJAna kI bAta kI, na sAdhanA kI bAta kii| balki kabhI usase jhAr3U lagavAte, kabhI poMchA lagavAte, kabhI lakar3iyA~ kaTavAte, kabhI bhojana pakavAte, kabhI dUra-dUra se pAnI ma~gavAte / kevala mehanata karavAte / rAjA ne socA kahIM yaha guru mujhe bevakUfa to nahIM banA rahA, roz2a mujhase kAma to karavAtA hai, para sAdhanA kI koI bAta hI nahIM karatA / para pUchUM bhI to kaise, z2abAna se ba~dhA huA hU~ / rAjA to burA pha~sa gayA, kyoMki jA bhI nahIM sakatA aura rahane kI icchA bhI na thii| tabhI guru ne kahA- Aja pAnI pAsa vAle kue~ se na laanaa| sudUra vAlA kuA~, jo vahA~ se pA~ca kilomITara thA, vahA~ se pAnI lAne ko kahA / rAjA ne socA yaha to parezAna karatA hI jA rahA hai| jJAna kI, dhyAna kI to koI bAta hI nahIM karatA / maratA kyA na karatA, z2abAna se jo ba~dhA thA, lAyA paanii| pAnI lAkara rakhA hI thA ki pITha para DaMDA par3A / usane pUchA- 'kyA huA gurujI ?' guru bole- pAnI ThIka lAyA na, to rakha de 1 rAjA to parezAna ho gayA ki itanI dUra se pAnI lAyA aura pITha para DaMDA bhI par3a gayA yaha kaisI sAdhanA aura kaunasI samAdhi kA rAstA hai, Atma-jJAna prApta karane kA yaha kaunasA tarIkA huA ! lekina bole bhI to kyA ? aba to yaha - For Personal & Private Use Only 79

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roz2a kA hI krama ho gyaa| rAjA ghabarAne lagA ki yaha maiMne kyA kiyA, kahA~ Akara pha~sa gayA ? sevA to karo hI, DaMDe bhI khaao| rAjya meM rahatA to DaMDA khAnA to dUra koI a~gulI bhI uThA detA to usakI aMgulI hI hAtha se alaga kara dI jaatii| aura yahA~ yaha guru DaMDoM kI barasAta kara rahA hai aura maiM kucha bhI nahIM kara pA rahA huuN| eka dina guru ne dekhA ki jaise hI vaha DaMDA mArane ko tatpara huA rAjA ne pIche se DaMDA pakar3a liyA / guru muskurAe / aba to ve hara kAma ke samaya rAjA ko DaMDA mArane lge| jhAr3a lagAe~, khAnA banAe~, pAnI lAe~, jaba-taba guru DaMDA TikA dete| dhIre-dhIre jAgarUkatA sadhane lgii| gurujI DaMDA mAra hI nahIM pAte, usase pahale vaha DaMDA pakar3a letaa| eka dina rAjA soyA huA thA ki guru ne DaMDe se prahAra kiyaa| rAjA cauMkA ki aba to hada ho gii| yaha guru na to dina meM jIne detA hai aura na hI rAta meM sone detA hai / rAjA kI hAlata kharAba ho gaI, DaMDe par3ate rahe / para eka rAta jaba guru DaMDA mArane ke lie kakSa meM ghuse ki unakI padacApa, Ane kI AhaTa se hI rAjA caukannA ho gyaa| vaha uThakara baiTha gyaa| guru usa dina DaMDA na mAra paae| dUsare dina bhI vahI huaa| sAta dina bIta gae, para guru DaMDA na mAra pAe / guru kakSa meM Ae ki rAjA uThakara baiTha jaae| sAtaveM dina guru ne usakI pITha thapathapAte hue kahA- dhanya hai tumheM, tuma samAdhi ke rAste ko upalabdha ho gae, tumane AtmajJAna kA mUla tattva arjita kara liyaa| rAjA socane lagA aura bolA- kaunasA tattva arjita kara liyA ? koI jJAna-dhyAna kI bAta bhI na huI bhagavan aura Apa kahate haiM mUla tattva arjita kara liyaa| kyA DaMDe khAnA hI samAdhi kA dvAra thA ? guru ne kahA- hA~ beTA, sacetanatA ko sAdhanA hI samAdhi kA dvAra thaa| tumane pahale apanI kAyA ko tapAyA, kAyA se mehanata kI, tuma AtApI bane / tumhAre bhItara jo lalaka paidA huI, usase tumhArI smRti kAyA ke prati kAyama ho gaI aura jaba maiMne DaMDe mArane zurU kie to tuma sacetana hote cale gae aura aMtataH maiM DaMDA nahIM mAra pAtA thaa| tumhArI sacetanatA itanI sadha gaI ki tuma AtApI, smRtimAna aura saMprajJAzIla ho gae aura ina tIna tattvoM ko sAdhanA hI samAdhi kA dvAra hai| ___ yaha bahuta hI prItikara kahAnI hai / smaraNa rahe sAdhanA aura samAdhi ke lie pA~ca bAteM cAhie- (1) prakhara anupazyanA, (2) AtApI ho jAnA, (3) saMprajJAzIla honA (pratyakSa anubhUti ko jor3anA), (4) sacetana smRtimAna honA, (5) rAga-dveSa se mukta hokara sAdhanA karanA / ina pA~coM ko sAdha lene se 80 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sAdhanA karanI nahIM par3atI, sAdhanA apane-Apa hone lagatI hai| inheM sAdhane se pariNAma apane-Apa AegA, mukti apane-Apa upalabdha hogii| jaldabAjI se mukti ko nahIM pAyA jA sakatA, phUla apane-Apa khilatA hai| jaba ye pA~ca bAteM hamAre sAtha raheMgI to bhagavAna ne jo yaha IryApatha parva' kahA, isakI sAdhanA dhanya aura sArthaka ho jaaegii| jaba hama AnApAna-yoga kareM, taba ina pA~ca bAtoM kA bodha rakheM / jaba sAdhaka cale to use bodha rahe ki vaha cala rahA hai, Thaharane kA bodha rahe, leTane kA, baiThane kA bodha rhe| kAyA kI ye cAra gatividhiyA~ hI sacetanatApUrvaka sampAdita karanA hai| calate hue bhI hama kaise dhyAna kareM, isake lie buddha ne zabda diyA 'vipazyanA caMkramaNa' / caMkramaNa kA artha hai calanA / calate hue vipazyanA karanA arthAt calate samaya hamArA pA~va jamIna para rakhA jA rahA hai, uThAyA jA rahA hai, isakA bodha hotA rhe| pA~va rakhane aura uThAne kI kriyA meM anya kisI kA hastakSepa, nikSepa nahIM ho, isakA hoza banA rahe / caMkramaNa kI vipazyanA meM kevala calane para dhyAna ho, idhara-udhara kI na soceM, na boleM, na dekheM / yaha vipazyanA bhI hamAre lie sAdhanA hogI arthAt ha~sibA khelibA dharibA dhyAnam' / pratidina kI hara kriyA dhyAna ho sakatI hai, basa z2arUrata hai, sacetanatA kii| do zabdoM ko yAda rakheM. bhalIbhA~ti aura lagAtAra / jahA~ ye do zabda milate haiM, vahA~ sAdhaka AtApI bhI hotA hai, saMprajJAzIla bhI hotA hai aura sacetanatA ko prakharatA se sAdhA karatA hai| ___ hama kAyA kI anupazyanA ko samajhate hue ise apane jIvana meM caritArtha kareM, ise jIne kA abhyAsa kareM, prayAsa kareM, isI zubha-bhAvanA ke saath| namaskAra ! 81 For Personal & Private Use Only

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7 AsaktiyoM ko kaise kATeM Asakti saMsAra hai aura anAsakti mukti hai| nirvANa aura mokSa kA dvAra anAsakti ke rAjamArga se khulatA hai| jabaki saMsAra kA AdhAra prANimAtra ke mana meM palane vAlI Asakti hai / Asakti saMsAra kA patha hai aura anAsakti nirvANa kaa| Asakti mUrcchA aura mRtyu kI ora le jAtI hai, to anAsakti AtmajAgarUkatA aura mukti kI ora bar3hAtI hai / jIvana meM kisI ko strI ke prati Asakti hotI hai, to kisI ko puruSa ke prati / koI santAna yA apanI jamInajAyadAda ke prati rAgAsakta hotA hai, to koI dhana, sampatti yA pada-pratiSThA ke prati lAlAyita rahatA hai| kaI loga choTI-sI bAta se khinna ho jAte haiM to kucha loga thor3I-sI prazaMsA sunakara ahaMkAra se bhara jAte haiM / pratikUlatAe~ insAna ke mana meM Arta-dhyAna aura raudra - dhyAna karavAtI haiM, vahIM anukUlatAe~ rAga paidA karatI haiN| pratikUlatA aura anukUlatA kI pratikriyAe~ rAga-dveSa mUlaka ho jAtI haiM / kaI loga krodhI svabhAva ke hote haiM, to kaI loga kAmAsakta hote haiN| logoM ke mana meM moha, mUrcchA, kAmAsakti, bhogAsakti itanI adhika hotI hai ki unakI deha to maMdira meM hotI hai, muha~ meM bola prabhu ke hote haiM, hAtha mAlA bhI hotI hai, lekina antaramana meM vahI bhoga kI dhArA pravAhamAna rahatI hai | kAmanA 82 For Personal & Private Use Only

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saMsAra kI aura prArthanA nirvANa kI, bar3I vicitra dazA hai yh| prazna hai : yaha Asakti kaise TUTe ? Asakti se mukta hone ke lie hI loga satsaMga meM jAte haiM, ArAdhanA aura tapasyA karate haiN| para prazna yahI hai ki kyA yaha saba karane se AsaktiyA~ TUTa jAtI haiM ? parva-tithiyoM ko loga vrata karate haiM- vrata karanA acchI bAta hai, lekina prazna yahI hai ki vrata karane se mana meM rahane vAle kaSAya ke udvega aura bhoga kI taraMgeM, bhoga ke antara-pravAha kyA kaTate haiM, TUTate haiM yA vaise ke vaise barakarAra raha jAte haiM ? kahane ko to sabako patA hai ki gussA riztoM ko khatma kara detA hai, parAI strI ko g2alata nigAhoM se dekhanA g2alata hai, sigareTa, tambAkU, zarAba, guTakA svAsthya ke duzmana haiM, mRtyu ke bAda koI bhI insAna apane sAtha daulata to kyA do muTThI ATA bhI nahIM le jAtA, saba bAtoM kA patA hai, phira bhI mUcrchA itanI prabala hai, Asakti aura lAlasA itanI gaharI hai ki jAna rI apanA koI vajUda nahIM rakha pAtI aura isa taraha hama loga vicAra, vacana aura vyavahAra - tInoM se hI g2alata, nakArAtmaka AcaraNa karanA zurU kara dete haiN| tAle kA niyama hai ki usameM cAbI dAIM ora ghumAI jAe to banda tAlA khula jAtA hai, para agara bAIM ora ghumA dI jAe, to khulA tAlA bhI banda ho jAtA hai| basa, z2arUrata hai cAbI ko kisa tarapha ghumAyA jAe, isake jJAna kii| tAlA kidhara se khulegA, Apa yaha tarIkA jAna sakate haiM, para agara koI khAlanA hI na cAhe, to usakA kyA kiyA jaae| kahate haiM : eka bAra nArada ne prabhu se kahA- prabhu duniyA meM itane pIr3ita loga haiM aura Apa uddhAraka kahalAte haiM to pIDitoM kA uddhAra kyoM nahIM kara dete ! bhagavAna ne nArada se hI kaha diyA ki merI Ara se tuma hI cale jAo aura unakA uddhAra kara do| nAradajI pRthvI para Ae to unheM sUara sabase pIr3ita najara aayaa| socA ki isa sUara kA uddhAra karatA huuN| nAradajI sUara kA uddhAra karane ke lie use lekara cale to sUara ne kahA- Thaharo, tuma kauna ho ? nArada ne kahA- maiM brahmaloka se AyA huA, vahA~ kA devarSi, rAjarSi huuN| sUara ne pUchA- jo bhI ho, para tuma mujhe kahA~ le jA rahe ho ? nArada ne batAyA- 'svarga meN'| sUara bolAkisalie? nArada ne kahA- tuma bahuta pIr3ita ho, tumhArA uddhAra karane ke lie svarga le jA rahA huuN| sUara ne kahA- merA uddhAra hI hai, tuma kaunasA uddhAra karane 83 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jA rahe ho ? nArada bole- tuma kitane pIr3ita ho, kIcar3a meM rahate ho, viSThA khAte ho, gaMdagI meM par3e rahate ho, yaha koI jIvana hai, calo svarga meM calo / sUara ne kahA- vahA~ kyA hogA ? nArada ne batAyA- vahA~ sabhI sukha-sAdhana, aizvarya haiN| sUara ne pUchA- vahA~ saba kucha hai ? nArada bole- haaN| taba vahA~ kA svarUpa batAo- sUara ne jijJAsA kii| nArada ne vahA~ ke vaibhava kA varNana kiyA, rAjasI ThATha ke bAre meM btaayaa| sUara ne khAna-pAna, rahana-sahana ke bAre meM jAnanA cAhA to nArada ne batAyA ki vahA~ ina sabakI z2arUrata hI nahIM hotii| vahA~ to kevala rahanA hai, karanA-dharanA kucha nhiiN| basa, ArAma kI jiMdagI basara karanA hai| taba sUara ne kahA- are vahA~ to kucha bhI nahIM hai| nAradajI tuma vApasa jAo, mujhe aisA uddhAra nahIM karavAnA hai, tuma jaao| tuma tumhAre sukhI raho, hama hamAre sukhI haiN| prANI jo Asakta hai, use vahIM apanA sArA sukha naz2ara AtA hai, jahA~ jisa ora usakI Asakti hotI hai| anaginata loga satsaMga sunate haiM, para prabhAva kitanoM para hotA hai ? kabhI paramAtmA ke anugraha se, guru-kRpA se kabhI prabala puNya kA udaya hai, taba kahIM koI saMnyAsa kI ora, prabhu mArga kI tarapha, kalyANa-patha para apane qadama bar3hAtA hai| anyathA saMsAra meM hI ramA raha jAtA hai| kahate avazya haiM ki pati-patnI saMtAna se parezAna haiM, para chor3a nahIM pAte / ina sabakI vaz2aha Asakti hai| isalie Aja jisa sUtra ko hama leMge vaha saMsAra ke prapaMcoM se mukta karane kA rAstA detA hai| anAsakti kA artha mukti kI prApti nahIM hai| anAsakti kA artha hai, jahA~ hama cipake hue the, vahA~ se do qadama Upara utthnaa| abhI hama do qadama bAhara to nikleN| jisa vyakti ne pAnI meM DubakI lagA dI hai, vaha pAnI se bAhara nikalegA, tabhI to AsamAna ko dekhegaa| jo tAlAba meM se nikalane ko hI taiyAra nahIM hai, usake lie mukti kA artha hI kyA hogaa| hama cAra qadama sUraja kI ora bar3he to shii| __ anAsakti mukti kI ora le jAne kA rAstA kholatI hai| jaba Asakti TUTatI hai, eka-eka qadama Age bar3hate haiM, taba Age kI maMjila qarIba AnI zurU hotI hai| hamAre bhItara kI AsaktiyA~ hI hameM bA~dhatI haiN| Asakti hI baMdhana hai| zarIra kI Asakti, vicAroM kI Asakti, vastuoM kI Asakti, bhogoM kI Asakti, merI-terI kI Asakti / Asakti ke sau ruup| jahA~ se bhI cipake, jo bhI cIz2a mana para hAvI huI, vaha cIz2a aaskti| jise pAne ke lie mana 84 For Personal & Private Use Only

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tar3apatA hai, jisakA viyoga ho jAne para rAtoM kI nInda harAma ho jAtI hai, vaha hara cIz2a Asakti kA hissA bnii| kaI bAra ThokareM lagIM, phira bhI Asakti nahIM ttuuttii| kaI bAra upekSA jhelI, para mana phira bhI ulajhA hI rahA / kucha AsaktiyA~ aisI hotI haiM, jo jaldI nahIM ttuutttiiN| jaise- mohamUlaka Asakti- bAra-bAra vahI yAda AtA rahatA hai / dUsarI hai - bhogamUlaka Asakti, kAmAsakti ki prabhu kA smaraNa karate hue bhI vahI saba dhArAe~ bhItara meM calatI rahatI haiN| kAma-bhoga kI dhArAoM kA pravAha hamAre mana kA sabase nicalA stara hai ki hama do pala bhI prabhu kA dhyAna nahIM kara pAte aura saMsAra kI dhArA kA jo nimnatama stara hai, usameM ulajha jAte haiM / aisA isalie hotA hai, kyoMki hamAre bhItara jo AsaktiyoM kI jar3eM haiM, unameM ye saba cIjeM vyApta rahatI haiM / anupazyanA kA lakSya aura uddezya tathA pariNAma bhI inhIM cIz2oM se jur3A hai ki vyakti apane bhItara kI isa taraha kI vAsanAoM kA ucchedana kisa taraha kare / hama soceM ki Aqhira hama kaba taka ye sUgale kAma karate raheMge ? kaba taka yoM hI ulajhe raheMge ? gRhasthI ko jio para Aqhira kabhI-na-kabhI to usa para virAma lagAo ? marate dama taka hama gRhasthI hI raheMge yA vAnaprastha ko bhI jie~ge ? maiM dAmpatya kA virodhI nahIM hU~, para bhogoM kA ye aMdhA silasilA kaba taka jArI rahegA ? hama loga kyA mukti kI bAteM hI karate raheMge yA mukti kI rozanI bhI apane dila meM utaareNge| hamAre deza meM dharma-karma kI bAteM bahuta ho gaI, bAtoM se bhalA nahIM hone vaalaa| AcaraNa se bhalA hogA / jio, mukti ko jio / vaise karo, jisase hama cAra qadama ThAkurajI kI tarapha bar3heM, prabhujI kI tarapha bar3heM, nirvANa kI ora bar3heM | kucha prabandha yaha satya hai ki apana logoM ke bhItara bhoga, rAga, moha, krodha, dveSa Adi kI dhArAe~, inakI kriyA-pratikriyAe~ calatI rahatI haiM, lekina hameM isI bAta para gaura karanA hai ki inase mukta kaise huA jAe / yaha kriyA-pratikriyA hai, jo mana meM uThatI haiM, inakA hamAre zarIra para bhI prabhAva ho jAtA hai, hama kahIM aura baha jAte haiN| baiThate to haiM dhyAna karane ke lie, lekina mana-hI-mana vAsanA bhoga aura kAma ke pravAha meM cale jAte haiM aura itane nicale stara para cale jAte haiM ki hamArA uddhAra kaise ho ? eka bha~vare ne gobara ke kIr3e se, jise gugaciyA kahate haiM, kahA- tuma yahA~ kyA gobara meM, gandagI meM par3e rahate ho ? Ao mere sAtha calo maiM tumheM phUloM ke For Personal & Private Use Only 85

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bagIce kI saira karavAtA huuN| vahA~ qhuzabU-hI-qhuzabU hai, vahA~ Ananda-hIAnanda hai. vahA~ kitanA parAga hai / bha~varA roja use yahI bAta kahatA to gugaciye ne socA calo cale hI jAte haiM / eka dina gugaciyA bolA- Aja maiM taiyAra hU~ clo| donoM cale, bagIce kI saira kI, sugaMdhita phUla khile hue the, khUba parAga bhI thaa| ghUmate hue kAfI samaya bIta gayA to gugaciye ne bha~vare se kahA- tuma to kahate the, bahuta acchI qhuzabU AtI hai, khUba parAga hai, bahuta Ananda hai, lekina mujhe to yahA~ kucha bhI nahIM milA, na sugaMdha, na parAga / mujhe to vahI durgandha mila rahI hai, jo vahA~ thii| bha~varA bolA- aisA kaise ho sakatA hai ? mujhe to qhuzabU A rahI hai aura tujhe nahIM A rahI / vaha use anya aura sugaMdhita paudhoM ke pAsa lekara gayA, lekina gugaciye ko qhuzabU AI hI nhiiN| taba bha~vare ne kahA- ruka, tU apanA mu~ha aura nAka khola / dekhA to vahA~ gobara bharA huA thaa| bha~varA bolA- are, tU jaba taka apane pahale vAle kacare ko nikAlakara nahIM AegA, taba taka tujhe isa mokSa aura nirvANa ke udyAna kI sugaMdha aura Ananda kaise upalabdha ho sakeMge ? jaba taka hama citta kI antazuddhi ke prati jAgarUka nahIM hoMge, anupazyanA karane ke lie tatpara nahIM hoMge, taba taka kevala maMdira jAne se kyA ho jAegA ? kevala dharma kI kitAboM ko par3hane se kyA hogA ? hameM apane bhItara kI zuddhi ke prati jAgarUka honA hai| apanI AsaktiyoM ko, kamaz2oriyoM ko, karma ke bIjoM ko, karma kI prakRti ko samajhakara apanI vartamAna sthiti ko jAnanA hai| bAhara se to sAdhaka naz2ara A sakate haiM, lekina bhItara to vahI vAsanA kA gandA nAlA bahatA rahatA hai| lekina isake prati sajaga ho jAne para hama ina dhArAoM se dhIredhIre mukta hote jAte haiN| yaha sajagatA aura sacetanatA hI cAhie, yahI to sAdhanA hai| hama loga 'mahAsati paTThAna sutta' ke kucha sUtroM para vicAra kara rahe haiM, paTThAna sutta arthAt bhItara meM praveza dilavAne vAlA sUtra / yaha sUtra isIlie hamAre lie upayogI hai ki hama svayaM ko samajha skeN| aba hama zrI bhagavAna ke usa sUtra meM praveza karate haiM, jo hameM bhoga, vAsanA aura moha kI AsaktiyoM ko kama karane kA tarIkA batA ske| bhoga, moha aura vAsanA kI jar3eM hamAre bhItara bahata gaharI haiN| bAhara se hama insAna z2arUra dikhAI dete haiM, lekina abhI taka bhItara se insAna ke svarUpa ko upalabdha nahIM hue| sambhava hai hamAre bhItara abhI taka vahI pazutA sakriya ho / hAlAMki DArvina ne vikAsavAda kA siddhAnta diyA aura kahA ki 861 For Personal & Private Use Only

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manuSya kA vikAsa pazu se huA hai| bandara, vanamAnuSa manuSya ke pUrvaja mAne gae, isalie abhI taka manuSya ke andara pazu jindA hai| ___hama kampyUTara yuga meM pahuMca gae haiN| mAnava samAja ne nizcita hI bauddhika aura vaijJAnika stara para Azcaryajanaka aura vilakSaNa DhaMga se vikAsa kiyA hai, lekina bhItarI citta ke vikAra aura vAsanAoM ko kama karane meM kisI prakAra kI tarakkI nahIM kI hai| bacce ke janma ko to vaha bhrUNa hatyA karake roka detA hai, lekina antaramana meM calane vAle vikAroM, mAnasika vikAroM ko kATane kA rAstA abhI ThIka DhaMga se apane hAtha meM prApta nahIM kara paayaa| adhyAtma kA isIlie upayoga hai ki yaha insAna ke bhItara ke vikAroM ko kATane kA mArga detA hai, una para vijaya prApta karane kA rAstA detA hai| isalie adhyAtma cAbI hai, mAnava samAja ke lie kalyANakArI cAbI / isI se manuSya kA maMgala hogaa| bhItara ke baMda tAle khuleNge| anupazyanA kA mArga hameM bhItara se zuddha kara rahA hai| lAlaTena ke Upara kA~ca kA golA hotA hai, agara yaha bhItara se sApha ho jAe to cimanI meM rahane vAlA prakAza bAhara Ane laga jaaegaa| jaba taka bhItara kI zuddhi na ho, taba taka saba vyartha hai| 'ra' se rAma bhI hotA hai aura rAvaNa bhI, 'ka' se kRSNa bhI hotA hai aura kaMsa bhI, 'ga' se gA~dhI bhI hotA hai aura goDase bhii| lekina hama sabhI ina logoM kI pravRttiyoM ko jAnate haiN| ye hI loga badala bhI sakate haiN| jo svayaM kI prakRti ko sa~vArane ke lie prayatnazIla ho jAtA hai, vahI rAma, kRSNa aura gA~dhI bana jAtA hai| eka vyakti vikRta thA svayaM ko saMskArita na kara paayaa| eka vyakti saMskArI thA para usane vikRti ko apanA liyA / zrAvaka sA~pa bana gayA aura sA~pa sudharakara santa bana gyaa| eka santa krodha meM marA, to marakara caMDakauzika sA~pa huaa| sA~pa ne zAMti dhAraNa kara lI to marakara bhadrakauzika deva huaa| mahatva yoni kA nahIM hai, mahattva bhAvadazAoM kA hai, cittadazAoM kA hai| yaha bAta agara samajha meM A jAtI hai to hama apane krodha-moha-vikAroM ko kATane meM saphala ho sakate haiN| __maiM punaH doharA rahA hU~ ki sAdhaka ko pA~ca bAtoM kA smaraNa hara samaya rakhanA cAhie- anupazyanA, AtApI, saMprajJAzIlatA, smRtimAna honA arthAt pratipala jAgarUka honA aura rAga-dveSa se mukti / agara inameM se eka bhI cUka gayA, kisI eka kI bhI upekSA kara dI to kamI raha hI jaaegii| 187 For Personal & Private Use Only

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citrahastha nAmaka eka bauddha bhikSu hue| dIkSA ke pahale vaha sAdhAraNa-sA nirdhana caravAhA thaa| eka dina jaba vaha pazuoM ko carA rahA thA, to rAste meM kucha saMta muni - bhikSu mila ge| vaha bhUkhA thA to usane bhikSuoM se khAne ke lie bhojana maaNgaa| bhikSuoM ne apane pAtra meM se thor3A khAnA use bhI de diyA / khAnA khAkara use Ananda A gayA / usane socA bhikSu banane meM bar3A phAyadA hai, binA kucha kie hI itanA acchA khAnA mila jAtA hai / vaha ghara gayA, lekina use vahI khAnA yAda Ane lgaa| dUsare dina vaha phira una muniyoM ke pAsa pahu~cA aura bolA- mujhe to dIkSA de dIjie, maiM bhI mahArAja bananA cAhatA huuN| kucha dina to unake sAtha rahA, lekina phira bacce aura patnI yAda Ane lage / saMsAra aura vAsanA kI taraMgeM uThane lgiiN| vApasa ghara lauTa aayaa| usane bhikSu-jIvana kA tyAga kara diyaa| kucha samaya to ThIka rahA, phira vahI khAnA yAda Ane lagA / aba phira ghara-gRhasthI chor3a bhikSuoM ke pAsa calA gyaa| saMtoM ne kahA- pahale bhI tuma Ae the aura saba chor3akara yahA~ se bhAga gae the| usane kahA- nahIM, aba nahIM jaauuNgaa| mujhe bhikSu banA dIjie, aba nahIM bhAgU~gA, Apa logoM ke pAsa hI rhuuNgaa| use punaH dIkSA de dI gii| rahA thor3e dinoM taka, khUba acchA khAyApiyA, lekina phira vahI ghara - patnI yAda Ane lge| phira bhAga gyaa| kahate haiM isa taraha vaha chaH bAra saMnyAsI banA aura saMsAra meM bhaagaa| sAtavIM bAra jaba vaha AyA to saMtoM ne inkAra kara diyA- nahIM, aba nahIM / tere kAraNa hamAre dharma kI avahelanA hotI hai, aba tujhe bhikSu nahIM banAe~ge / lekina vaha vApasa nahIM gayA / bhikSuoM ke sAtha unake pIche-pIche calatA rahA / bahuta dina bIta gae, unheM bhI dayA A gaI aura punaH bhikSu banA diyA / 1 I do-tIna varSa bIta gae / isa bAra vaha ghara nahIM gayA to bhikSuoM ne pUchAkyA bAta hai, isa bAra tU ghara nahIM gayA / citrahastha ne kahA- prabhu ! kSamA kareM, aba mujhe ghara-gRhasthI kI Asakti nahIM rahI, aba mujhe usakI AvazyakatA nahIM hai bhikSuoM ko Azcarya huA / taba ve bhagavAna ke pAsa gae aura kahA- vaha citrahastha chaH bAra jA cukA thA, sAtavIM bAra saMnyAsI banA aura kahatA hai, mujhe jAne kI z2arUrata nahIM hai, ghara-gRhasthI kI Asakti nahIM rahI hai / yaha kyA ho gayA hai, hama samajha nahIM paae| bhagavAna ne kahA- citrahastha ne apane jIvana meM Atma-zuddhi ko prApta kara liyA hai| citrahastha aba saMbodhi ko upalabdha ho gayA hai| aba vaha arihaMta ke samAna ho gayA hai| bhikSuoM ne pUchA- bhagavan Apa 88 For Personal & Private Use Only

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yaha kyA kaha rahe haiM ? hA~, jaba taka Asakti hotI hai, taba taka iMsAna kA mana kabhI saMnyAsa aura kabhI gRhasthI kI ora DolatA rahatA hai| lekina jaba bhItara anAsakti ghaTita ho gaI to vaha Atma-jAgRti ko upalabdha ho gyaa| vaha smRtimAna ho gayA, vaha saMprajJAnI bana gayA / pariNAmataH isa bAra jaba vaha vApasa AyA to lauTakara ghara na gayA aura anAsakta hokara svayaM arihaMta ke samAna hotA calA gayA- bhagavAna ne khaa| jaba taka hama apanI AsaktiyoM ko, vikAroM ko, bhItarI pravAhoM ko nahIM samajheMge, taba taka mukta na ho skeNge| isalie hama jo bhI kareM, usakA saMprajJAna rakheM, bhalIbhA~ti usakA pratyakSa anubhava kareM, sacetanatA ke sAtha usakA bhoga aura upabhoga kreN| sacetanatA hI mukta karatI hai| yaha to vaha bindu hai, jisakA laukika jagata meM bhI prayoga kiyA jAe to yaha saphalatA kA AdhAra bana jAtI hai| sajagatA ko sAdhakara koI bhI nRtyAMganA rassI para bhI nRtya kara sakatI hai| sajagatA- dhArmika, sAmAjika aura AdhyAtmika- tInoM jagaha kalyANakArI bana sakatI hai| jaba hama cintana aura manana karate hue Thosa anubhUti ke dharAtala para pahu~ceMge, taba yaha saMprajJAna AdhyAtmika pariNAma dene meM bhI saphala hogaa| zrI bhagavAna kahate haiM- koI sAdhaka kAyA ko pA~va ke talave se Upara kI ora aura keza vAle sira se nIce kI ora tvacAparyaMta nAnA prakAra kI gaMdagiyoM se bharA huA jAna vivecana karatA hai| isa kAyA meM hai- keza, roma, nakha, dA~ta, tvacA, mA~sa, naseM, haDDI, majjA, gurdA, hRdaya, yakRta, phuphphusa, plIhA, phephar3e, A~ta, AMtrayojinI, AmAzaya, pAkhAnA, pitta, kapha, pIpa, lahU, pasInA, carbI, A~sU, vasA, lAra, nAka kA seDA, lAra aura mUtra / sAdhaka jo anupazyanA ke lie, sAdhanA ke lie tatpara huA hai, dhyAna meM tatpara ho rahA hai, vaha AnApAna karane ke lie AtI-jAtI zvAsoM ko dekhane ke lie, kAyA ke saMvedanoM ko jAnane ke lie, kAyA ke upadravoM ko zAMta karane ke lie baiTha to gayA hai, lekina yaha saba ho nahIM pA rhaa| jaise hI usakA citta thor3A-sA ekAgra hotA hai, kAyAnupazyanA kA jJAna to nahIM hotA, usake antaramana meM dhArAe~ calanI zurU ho jAtI haiN| pUrva meM bhoge gae bhogoM kI, rasa, raMga, rUpa viSayoM kI alaga-alaga dhArAe~ usake bhItara bahane laga jAtI haiN| vaha bhItara ke makar3ajAla meM ulajha jAtA hai| kahate haiM svayaM bhagavAna buddha kA bhatIjA jisakA nAma bhI siddhArtha thA, vaha bhI bhagavAna buddha kI preraNA se saMta bana gyaa| 1897 For Personal & Private Use Only

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lekina bIsa varSoM taka saMnyAsI bane rahane ke bAvajUda pUrva meM bhoge gae bhogoM ke jaMjAla se mukta nahIM ho paayaa| jaba usane saMnyAsa liyA thA to usake sAtha ghaTanA yaha ghaTI thI ki buddha AhAracaryA ke lie rAjamahala meM Ae the| bhagavAna mahala meM Ae the, ataH use bhI Atithya-satkAra ke lie jAnA pdd'aa| AhAra ke bAda bhagavAna ke sAtha kucha dUra taka jAne kI bhI paramparA thI, so patnI se rajA cAhI ki prabhu ko kucha dUra taka chor3a aauuN| patnI ne kahA- tuma jAo, lekina mere bAla sUkhane se pahale lauTa aanaa| jaba buddha rAjamahala meM Ae the, taba siddhArtha patnI ke gIle bAloM ko sahalA rahA thA, vaha usI samaya snAna karake AI thii| acAnaka buddha A gae the, unakI AhAracaryA karavAI, unheM chor3ane kucha dUra taka jAne lagA, taba patnI ne kaha diyA- tuma bhale hI chor3ane jAo, priye, para vApasa jaldI lauTa AnA, mere bAla sUkheM isase pahale A jAnA / vaha jAtA hai| buddha use apanA bhikSApAtra thamA dete haiN| usakI himmata nahIM hotI ki manA kara sake aura kahe ki prabhu apanA pAtra vApasa lIjie, mujhe apanI patnI ke pAsa jAnA hai| buddha ke pIche calate-calate vihAra taka A gyaa| vahA~ buddha ne upadeza diyA, use sunakara aneka loga khar3e ho gae aura bhikSu banane ko tatpara ho ge| ve apane Atma-kalyANa ke lie saMnyAsI bana ge| buddha ne siddhArtha se pUchA- tumhArI kyA icchA hai, tuma khar3e nahIM hue| hA~, hA~, prabhu maiM bhI- adhika kucha na bola pAyA, bar3oM ke sAmane inkAra karane kA sAhasa na huA aura vaha bhI bhikSu ho gyaa| bhikSu to bana gayA, dharma-ArAdhanA bhI kara rahA hai, buddhaM zaraNaM gacchAmi, dhammaM zaraNaM gacchAmi, saMgha zaraNaM gacchAmi bhI bola rahA hai, lekina raha-rahakara vahI patnI kI bAteM yAda AtI rahatI haiM- aho, mere bAla sUkhane se pahale tuma lauTa aanaa| anupazyanA isIlie z2arUrI hai ki hamAre bhItara isI taraha ke mAyAjAla, mohajAla, vAsanAjAla banate rahate haiN| patA nahIM kaba kisakA kaunasA zabda hameM bAra-bAra yAda AtA rahatA hai| atIta kI kaunasI smRti A jAe aura hama para hAvI ho jaae| aisI sthiti meM hama kyA kareM ? mahAvIra ne kahA thA isa sthiti meM cAra cIjoM kI anuprekSA kareM, punaH-punaH ciMtana kareM, punaH-punaH usakI Thosa anubhUti kareM / buddha aura mahAvIra alaga-alaga dIpaka bhale hI hoM, para sAdhanA ke mArga para alaga-alaga dIyoM meM eka hI jyoti hai| isIlie donoM eka hI bAta kahate haiM ki tuma apanI Thosa anubhUti, Thosa ciMtana aura manana karanA / dUsarI 90 For Personal & Private Use Only

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bAta Thosa anabhUti ke AdhAra para nirNaya karanA ki yaha jo ulajhe ho, kyA vaha ThIka hai ? mahAvIra ne cAra anuprekSAe~ dIM- anitya, azaraNa, ekatva aura anytv| aNiccaM- saba kucha yahA~ anitya hai| soco apane sAtha kyA lAe aura kyA sAtha le jaaoge| gItA meM bhagavAna kRSNa bhI yahI kahate haiN| khAlI hAtha Ae the, khAlI hAtha jAnA hai, phira kyoM itanI mArAmArI hai| buddha kI to zAzvata anubhUti hai ki yahA~ saba kucha anitya hai, saba kucha pratipala badala rahA hai, mahala khaMDahara ho rahe haiM, amIra garIba ho rahe haiN| rAvaNa jisake mukuTa AkAza chuA karate the, ve hI dhUla-dhUsarita ho jAte haiN| yahA~ kucha bhI zAzvata nahIM hai, saba kucha anitya, parivartanazIla hai| baccA javAna hotA hai, javAna bUr3hA hotA hai aura bUr3hA mara jAtA hai- saba anitya / hama bacce paidA karate haiM, para beTe ko bahU le jAtI hai aura beTI ko jNvaaii| zarIra eka dina zmazAna calA jAtA hai, yAnI saba kucha, sAre sambandha anitya / Aja jisake ghara divAlI naz2ara AtI hai, kala usI ke ghara dIvAlA nikala jAtA hai| rAvaNa jisa zakti para ghamaMDa karatA thA, vakta Ane para vahI zakti use dagA de jAtI hai| sabhI kucha anitya / sabhI kucha ashrnn| azaraNa yAnI yahA~ koI zaraNabhUta nahIM hai| lagatA hai ye merA sahArA baneMge athavA ve merA sahArA bneNge| para jaba taka hama-Apa samartha haiM, taba taka eka-dUsare kA sahArA bane hue haiN| jaba hama asamartha ho jAe~ge, mRtyu ke dvAra para khar3e hoMge, taba kauna hamArA sahArA bnegaa| koI sAtha na AnevAlA hai, na jAnevAlA hai| sanane vAloM sano dhyAna se. sAre Aja garIba amiir| sabakI hI tasvIra rahegI, nahIM rahegA sadA shriir| pIche kyA bacegA ? kevala tasvIra / zarIra to sabakA nazvara hai / jaba taka hai, taba taka hai, kaba kisako lakavA mAra jAe, kaba kisako hArTa-aTaika ho jAe, kaba kauna lur3haka jAe, koI bhaviSyavANI nahIM kI jA sakatI hai| isIlie mahAvIra kahate haiM- 'ashrnn'| anAthI muni kI kahAnI Apako yAda hogii| rAjA zreNika anAthI muni ke pAsa jAkara kahatA hai- aho ! mitra, bharI javAnI meM, tumhArA mukha-maMDala itanA sundara hai, phira bhI tumane kisa kAraNa se saMnyAsa le liyaa| muni ne kahA 191] For Personal & Private Use Only

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kyoMki maiM anAtha hN| rAjA ne kahA- agara tuma anAtha ho to maiM tumhArA nAtha banane ke lie taiyAra huuN| muni ha~se aura bole- jo khuda hI anAtha hai, vaha merA nAtha kyA hogA ? rAjA ne kahA- kyA kahate ho, mere pAsa rAjamahala hai, rAjakoSa hai, rAjasenA hai aura tuma kahate ho ki maiM anAtha huuN| muni ne kahA- jo galatI tuma kara rahe ho, vahI galatI maiMne bhI kI thii| isI taraha mere pAsa bhI rAjasainika the, rAjamahala the, rAjarAniyA~ thiiN| maiM bImAra par3a gayA, socatA thA, saba mere sahAyaka haiN| para eka dina aisA AyA, jaba rAjavaidyoM ne javAba de diyaa| maiM mRtyu ke nikaTa pahu~ca gyaa| mujhe lagA yahA~ koI kisI kA nAtha nahIM, koI kisI ke lie zaraNabhUta nhiiN| maiMne mana meM ThAna liyA, kyoMki vaidyoM ke anusAra to dUsare dina kA sUraja bhI dekhanA mere nasIba meM na thaa| maiMne ThAna liyA ki agara dUsare dina kA sUraja uga gayA to maiM apane jIvana ke a~dhere ko dUra kara duuNgaa| janma-janma ke a~dhere ko dUra karane ke lie saMnyAsa dhAraNa kara luuNgaa| mere saMkalpa kI zakti samajho yA prabhu kI vyavasthA, agalA dina bhI AyA, sUraja bhI ugaa| isake sAtha hI maiMne rAjamahala chor3a diyA, isa bodha ke sAtha ki yahA~ koI kisI kA zaraNabhUta nahIM hai| koI kisI kA nAtha, svAmI aura mAlika nahIM hai| tabhI se maiMne apanA nAma bhI 'anAthI' rakha liyaa| sAdhaka bAra-bAra isa bAta kA cintana-manana aura anuprekSA kre| vaha anubhUti ke AdhAra para samajhe / buddhi ke tala para bhI samajhe ki jIva akelA AtA hai aura akelA hI jAtA hai| vaha apane zarIra ko bhI apane se bhinna samajhatA hai, bhinna dekhatA hai| khuda ke bhItara rahane vAlI azucitAe~, apavitratAe~, gaMdagiyoM ko samajhatA hai| vaha samajhane lagatA hai ki deha ke kinakina aMgoM ke prati vaha kitanA mohita hai, jabaki yaha sArA zarIra to gaMdagiyoM se bharA par3A hai| buddha ne battIsa prakAra kI gaMdagiyA~ batAI haiM, jinase yaha zarIra bharA huA hai| jaba vAsanA kA pravAha citta meM uThe, taba sAdhaka ciMtana aura manana kare, pratyakSa anubhUti kare ki zarIra meM nakha se lekara zikha taka maila aura gaMdagI bharI par3I hai| isa deha meM kucha bhI DAlo, bAhara kucha bhI lgaao| sabakA pariNAma antataH durgaMdha aura gaMdagI hI hai| deha ko acche se acchA khAnA khilAo, pilAo, pariNati mala-mUtra meM hI hone vAlI hai| deha ke Upara kitane bhI sugaMdhita dravyoM kA upayoga karo, saba pasIne meM baha jAne vAle haiM aura anta meM pasIne kI hI gandha Ane vAlI hai| isakA artha yaha nahIM hai ki hama khAnA-pInA 192 For Personal & Private Use Only

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yA sajanA-sa~varanA chor3a deM, balki inakA upayoga karate hue sacetanatA banI rahe, inakI nirarthakatA kA mAna rahe / bhoga-vilAsa meM ulajhA rahane vAlA prANI, jihvA indriya ke svAda meM lolupa-lipta vyakti isake vilaya ke prati bhI jAgrata rahe / nivRtti ke daurAna jo azuci hai, kyoMki khAyA taba to pavitra thA, aba ATha ghaMTe bAda apavitra kaise ho gyaa| isalie vaha ciMtana-manana karate hue bhalIbhA~ti jAne- aho ! isa kAyA meM yaha kyA hai| mala-mUtra, pIpa-mavAda- isa zarIra meM yahI saba to bharA par3A hai| jainoM ke caubIsa tIrthaMkaroM meM eka tIrthaMkara hue haiM, 'malli'- yaha mahilA tIrthaMkara haiN| duniyA meM jitane bhI paigambara hue, avatAra hue, zAyada unameM se ekamAtra jainoM meM itanI himmata A sakI ki unhoMne strI ko tIrthaMkara mAnanA svIkAra kara liyaa| anyathA yaha to puruSa pradhAnatA vAlA deza hai| maiM to Aja taka nahIM samajha pAyA ki kala kA saMta aura kisI sAdhvI kA assI sAla kA saMnyAsa paryAya hai, phira bhI vaha usa saMta ko praNAma kregii| vyaktigata taura para maiM isa vyavasthA kA himAyatI nahIM hU~ aura mAnatA hU~ ki yaha puruSa pradhAnatA vAlI bAta hai| kevala isalie sAdhvI sAdhu ko praNAma kare ki vaha puruSa hai, to maiM mAnU~gA ki yaha vyavasthA galata hai| phira to liMga mahattvapUrNa ho gayA- strIliMga, pulliNg| phira caritra kahA~ mahattvapUrNa huaa| isalie maiM to sAdhviyoM ko hAtha jor3akara abhivAdana karatA huuN| maiM to pUrva pravrajita vyakti phira cAhe vaha strI ho yA puruSa, unheM praNAma karanA pasaMda karatA huuN| Akhira vyakti kA mUlya hai, vyaktitva kA mUlya hai, guNoM kA mUlya hai, unake AcaraNa, caritra aura guNoM kA sammAna hai, phira guNa cAhe choTe kA ho yA bar3e kA, AdaraNIya hai| hA~, to aba malli kI bAta para Ate haiM- kahate haiM ki cha:-chaH rAjakumAra eka sAtha unase vivAha karane ke lie Atura ho ge| nagara ke bAhara tambU tana ge| sabhI ne vahA~ apanA DerA jamA liyaa| nagara koTa ke paToM-daravAjoM ko ghera liyaa| hara daravAje para eka-eka rAjakumAra ne apanI senA jamA lii| malli ke pitA ne socA ki vaha inase kaise mukAbalA kare- mauta sAmane najara Ane lgii| kise hraae| eka sAtha cha: rAjya AkramaNa ko tatpara / malli se salAha lI gii| usane kahA- pitAzrI Apa cintA na kareM, maiM samhAla luuNgii| Apa sabako kahalavA dIjie ki eka mAha bAda mujhase milane Ae~ / rAjA ne kahA- ThIka hai beTA, patA nahIM tU kyA karanA cAhatI hai| malli ne kahA- pitAjI, Apa eka 93 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kAma kareM Apa hU-ba-hU merI svarNa pratimA banavA diijie| eka mahIne taka usa svarNa pratimA ko maiM apane pAsa rkhuugii| __eka mAha bAda chahoM rAjakumAroM ko alaga-alaga daravAjoM se mahala meM ekatrita kiyA gyaa| ve cauMka par3e / chaH rAjakumAra / to kyA malli ne unake sAtha dhokhA kiyA ? vaha kisake sAtha zAdI karanA cAhatI hai| khaira, jaise hI ve kakSa meM praviSTa hue dekhA sAmane svarNa-pratimA khar3I huI hai| dekhakara mugdha ho jAte haiM ki kyA sundaratA hai, svarNa kI taraha camaka rahI hai| aisA raMga-rUpa to na kabhI dekhA, na sunA / ve usa pratimA para mohita ho rahe the ki tabhI asalI malli andara AtI hai aura andara Ate hI pratimA kA Dhakkana khola detI hai| sar3AMdha kA bhabhakA pUre kakSa meM phaila jAtA hai| rAjakumAra nAka-bhauMha sikor3ate hue nAka banda karate haiN| tabhI malli kahatI hai- kyA haA rAjakumAro ! tuma isI malli ke prati mohita the| isI pratimA ko dekhakara tuma loga kaha rahe the, kyA sundara nayanAbhirAma rUpa hai, jo na dekhA na sunaa| rAjakumAroM, jo khAnA eka mahIne ke daurAna maiMne khAyA hai, vahI utanA kA utanA khAnA isa mUrti meM bhI DAlA hai aura pariNAma yaha dargaMdha hai| merI yaha kAyA bhI isI svarNa pratimA kI taraha hai, jisameM keza, roma, nakha, mala, mUtra, kapha, vAyu, pitta, mavAda, khUna ke alAvA aura kucha nahIM hai| tuma loga vyartha hI isake prati mohita ho rahe ho| malli kI bAteM sunakara rAjakumAroM kI vikAra-vAsanAe~ badalane lagatI haiM / aisI Thosa pratyakSa anubhUti hotI hai ki ve virakta ho jAte haiN| usake bAda usa kakSa se sAta saMnyAsI bAhara nikalate haiN| eka svayaM malli aura cha: rAjakumAra / jinheM svarNa-pratimA ko dekhakara aura malli kI bAtoM ko sunakara kisI pUrva janma kI smRti ho AtI hai aura usI se prerita hokara ve saMnyAsI bana jAte haiM aura AdhyAtmika sAdhanA karane ke lie tatpara hote haiM / ve saccI anupazyanA karate hue apane jIvana meM buddhatva kA kamala, tIrthaMkara aura arihaMta kI zreNI ko prApta hote haiN| ve usa ucca pada ko upalabdha karate haiM, jise hama mokSa aura mahAparinirvANa kahate haiN| dhanya haiM ve loga jinhoMne jIvana kI dhanyatA prApta kI, apane AdhyAtmika kalyANa ko upalabdha hue| isakA rAstA nikalatA hai anupazyanA se| kAyA meM rahI huI azucitA ko bhalIbhA~ti dekhane se, jAnane se, usake bAre meM ciMtana-manana karane se / dhyAna, anupazyanA, ciMtana-manana sabhI mArga haiN| jaba kaI pagaDaMDiyA~ 194 For Personal & Private Use Only

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milatI haiM to rAjamArga kA nirmANa hotA hai| vaha rAjamArga jo hameM pavitratA, mukti de rahA hai, bhItara se kamala kI taraha Upara uThA rahA hai, anAsakti pradAna kara rahA hai / vahI saccA mArga hai| jyoM-jyoM anupazyanA gaharI hogI, tyoM-tyoM AsaktiyA~ bhI z2arUra ttuutteNgii| Asakti saMsAra aura mRtyu kA mArga hai aura anAsakti amRta kA, mahAparinirvANa kA mArga hai / hama sabhI isa mArga ke adhyetA baneM, isI maMgala bhAvanA ke sAtha - namaskAra / 2~~~~ For Personal & Private Use Only 95

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8 cakravyUha se kaise nikaleM vAsanA ke eka bAlaka apanI kakSA meM baiThA huA kisI khAsa viSaya para ciMtana kara rahA thaa| usa samaya deza kA mAhaula Az2AdI ke junUna se bharA huA thaa| bAlaka vicAramagna thA ki kakSA- adhyApaka usake pAsa pahu~ce aura bole- kyA bAta hai beTA, kisa bAta para vicAra kara rahe ho| bacce ne kahA- aise hI kisI khAsa viSaya para soca rahA huuN| adhyApaka ne kahA- kyA tuma Az2AdI ke bAre meM soca rahe ho ? baccA cauMkA aura hAmI bharate hue unakI bAta svIkAra kI / adhyApaka ne kahA - lekina kyA Az2AdI milanA itanA AsAna hai ? bAlaka khar3A ho gayA aura bolA- Az2AdI milanA AsAna to nahIM hai lekina Az2AdI milane ke rAste ko AsAna z2arUra banAyA jA sakatA hai| yaha ghaTanA zahIda bhagatasiMha ke jIvana se saMbaMdhita hai jo batAtI hai ki Az2AdI milanA AsAna bhale hI na ho, usake rAstoM ko AsAna z2arUra banAyA jA sakatA hai| para kisI bhI vyakti ke lie mukti, nirvANa yA satya se sAkSAtkAra karanA itanA sarala kAma nahIM hai jitanA ki samajhA jAtA hai / bhale hI yaha kaThina ho 96 For Personal & Private Use Only

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lekina jo isake prati gaMbhIra hai, jo isa rAste para gaMbhIratA se cala par3atA hai vaha apanI zAMti, mukti aura saccidAnaMda svarUpa kI prApti kA prayatna avazya kara sakatA hai, vaha saphala avazya ho sakatA hai| kevala dila meM cAhata caahie| Aga to dila meM hai hI, kevala use jagAne kI z2arUrata hai| insAna ke sAmane rAstA spaSTa ho jAnA cAhie ki vaha apane jIvana meM kyA lakSya rakhatA hai aura ise prApta karane ke lie kyA prayAsa kara rahA hai| agara hamAre sAmane rAstA ho aura lakSya na ho to hama usa rAste para cala hI na paaeNge| lakSya ho aura use prApta karane kA tarIkA mAlUma na ho taba bhI hama lakSya ko upalabdha na kara paaeNge| sAdhaka ke sAmane vastu-sthiti aura paristhiti spaSTa ho jAnI cAhie / mIna kI A~kha kI taraha arjuna ke sAmane spaSTa lakSya thA aura usane zara-saMdhAna kiyaa| ___bhagavAna buddha mAnava mAtra kI mukti kA paigAma de rahe haiN| ve svayaM bhI mukta ho cuke haiM aura prANImAtra kI mukti kA hI sapanA dekhate haiM, ve sabakI mukti kI hI maMgala kAmanA karate haiN| ve hameM batAte haiM ki insAna ko kina cIjoM se mukta honA hai, vaha kina cIjoM se ba~dhA huA hai| saMsAra meM vyakti mukhya rUpa se do hI cIjoM se ba~dhA hai| pahalA hai- moha aura dUsarA hai- antaramana meM calane vAlI kAma vAsanA kI vRtti / jaba taka ye do tattva haiM taba taka hama saMsAra meM haiN| ina do tattvoM se Upara uTha jAe~ to hama mokSa aura nirvANa kI ora haiN| jaba taka hamAre mana meM mukti kA bhAva utpanna nahIM hogA taba taka hama isa kIcar3a meM se na nikala skeNge| saMsAra kA rasa-raMga, saMsAra kA moha, mAnava zarIra ke vikAra hama para itane hAvI haiM ki ina vikAroM se nirvikAra hone kA, moha se nirmoha yA vItamoha hone kA mAnasa hI nahIM banAte / hama isa bAre meM socate bhI nahIM haiN| hA~, agara koI nirNaya kara le, nizcaya kara le to vaha nizcita hI Age-Age bar3hatA jaaegaa| zrI bhagavAna kahate haiM ki insAna bhogoM meM aMdhA banA huA hai| sAre dharmazAstra yahI kahate haiM ki pratyeka sAdhaka ke lie zIla aura brahmacarya anivArya rUpa se pAlana karane yogya hotA hai| lekina dharmazAstra meM likha dene mAtra se kyA koI sAdhaka zIlavatI yA brahmacArI ho hI jAegA ? sambhava hai saMnyAsa lene se vaha apane tana ko to kAbU meM rakha le, para mana meM uThane vAlI taraMgoM, dUSita bhAvoM ko vaha kaise rokegA ? inakA pariSkAra kaise karegA ? brahmacarya aura zIlavrata ko dhAraNa karanA unhIM ke lie saMbhava hotA hai jo kisI gajarAja kI taraha balavAna 197 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hote haiN| unakA manobala aura Atmabala pUrA prakhara hotA hai, ve hI mana, vacana, kAyA se zIla aura brahmacarya kA pAlana kara pAte haiN| zeSa to kAma vAsanA ke pravAha meM bahate cale jAte haiN| kitane loga to aise hote haiM jinameM kinAre lagane ke bhAva hI nahIM uThate / kucha ke bhAva uTha jAte haiM to kinArA nahIM miltaa| kucha ko kinArA mila jAtA hai to nadI kA pravAha unheM AkarSita karatA hai aura ve vApasa jAkara usameM DU jAte haiN| isalie jo bhI bhogoM ke ina pravAhoM ko samajhegA vahI inase bAhara nikalane kI thor3I-sI icchA, thor3I-sI AdhyAtmika antarabhAvanA paidA kara sakegA / manuSya ke aMdara bhoga kI tIna zreNiyA~ hotI haiM- sAmAnya prANI jinameM bhoga kI bhI sAmAnya tamannAe~ jagA karatI haiN| mAnavIya prakRti ke anurUpa kyoMki hama jo anna-jala grahaNa karate haiM usase kevala zArIrika bala hI nahIM milatA apitu bhoga - pradhAna bala bhI milatA hai / dUsare hote haiM jinameM tIvra bhoga lAlasA rahatI hai / idhara ciMgArI uThI udhara zolA bhar3akA / inake bhItara bhoga kI tamannA itanI adhika hotI hai ki ve hara samaya vAsanA ke pravAha meM bahate rahate haiM / aise loga maMdira meM jAkara bhI bhoga kI taraMgoM meM DUbe rahate haiM / pUjA, vrata, ArAdhanA ke samaya bhI vahI bhoga kI taraMgeM uThatI rahatI haiN| dhyAna ke samaya bhI pUrva meM bhoge gae bhogoM kA smaraNa yA aura bhoga bhogane haiM usakI taraMga / yayAti kI taraha unake bhItara isa taraha kI kAmanAe~ uThatI rahatI haiM / ye kabhI zAMta hI nahIM hotiiN| tIsare prakAra ke bhogiyoM ko maiM atyadhika pragAr3ha bhogI kahatA hU~ / vAsanA ke, kAma ke aMdhe jo vyabhicArI hote haiM / aise logoM ke bhItara vezyAlaya jAne kI tamannA rahatI hai| parAI strI aura sva- strI kA koI viveka nahIM rahatA / unake lie nArI mAtra deha hotI hai / ve kAmAndha bane mA~ - bahina, putrI taka ko nahIM chor3ate / 1 hama svayaM kI antardazA ko dekheM / bhItara ke pravAha ko jAneM jisase prerita hokara manuSya saMsAra meM jItA hai, praveza karatA hai / hameM khuda hI apanA mUlyAMkana karanA hogA / kisa dazA meM hama jI rahe haiM / sAmAnya dazA vAloM ke mana meM to gurujanoM kA satsaMga sunakara, unake sAnnidhya meM baiThakara, dharmazAstroM kA zravaNa karake hI nirmalatA, pavitratA aura ujjvalatA sAkAra hone lagatI hai / unheM brahmacarya pAlana karane meM, zIlavrata dhAraNa karane meM bahuta adhika hujjata nahIM karanA pdd'tii| dUsare kisma ke logoM ke mana meM bAta utaratI hI nahIM / lekina 1 98 For Personal & Private Use Only

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samajhAne para, niyama Adi dilavAne para thoDe rAjI ho jAte haiN| lekina tIsarI kisma kI prakRti ke loga to dharma kI zaraNa meM jAe~ge hI nhiiN| agara cale bhI gae to maMdira meM jAkara devI pratimA ko dekhakara unake bhItara daivIya bhAva jAgrata nahIM hoMge, balki dUSita, kutsita bhAva hI uThate haiN| ___ purAnI dhArmika kahAnI hai rAjula aura rathanemi kI / hama sabhI jAnate haiM ki nemikumAra yA ariSTanemI jaba zAdI karane ke lie bArAta lekara jA rahe the tabhI unhoMne pazuoM kI karuNa cItkAra sunii| pUchane para jJAta huA ki bArAtiyoM ko jo bhojana parosA jAegA vaha inhIM pazuoM ke mAMsa se bnegaa| isIlie ve cItkAra kara rahe haiN| nemikumAra usa cItkAra ko sunakara itane dravita ho gae ki unhoMne kahA- maiM aisA vivAha nahIM karU~gA jisameM mere kAraNa hajAroM pazuoM kA vadha kiyA jaae| apane vivAha ko tyAga kara nemikumAra giranAra kI ora nikala jAte haiN| unake pIche rAjula bhI isI bhAvanA se cala detI hai ki mana se usane nemi kA varaNa kara liyA hai| ataH aba vaha vivAha nahIM kregii| nemikumAra muni bana ge| jisa dina unheM kevala jJAna huA, rAjula ne bhI dIkSA le lii| zveta vastra dhAraNa kie hue rAjula va anya sAdhviyA~ unake pAsa jAne ko udyata huIM ki rAste meM acAnaka teja bAriza hone lgii| sAre vastra bhIga ge| sabhI sAdhviyA~ bAriza se bacane ke lie idhara-udhara kI guphAoM meM zaraNa letI haiN| rAjula bhI eka guphA meM ghusa jAtI hai / gIle vastroM kA pAnI nicor3ane ke lie vaha vastra utAratI hai ki tabhI bijalI camakatI hai| vahA~ guphA meM eka anya vyakti sAdhanA ke lie baiThA thaa| vaha anya koI nahIM, nemikumAra kA cacerA bhAI rathanemi hotA hai| rizte meM vaha rAjula kA devara ho gyaa| jaise hI usane rAjula ko dekhA, mana meM vicAra uThA mere bar3e bhAI to saMta bana gae aura maiM bhI sAdhanA meM laga gayA hU~ lekina sAmane yaha kyA adbhuta rUpa hai, saundarya hai, nUra hai| rAjula ke nirvastra rUpa ko dekhakara rathanemi kA citta vicalita ho gyaa| vaha udvigna hokara, sAdhanA chor3akara rAjula ke sAmane Ane lagatA hai / pA~voM kI AhaTa sunakara rAjula cauMka jAtI hai ki guphA meM dUsarA kauna hai / vaha jaldI se vastra lapeTatI hai ki rathanemi usakA hAtha bIca meM hI pakar3akara praNaya-yAcanA karane lagatA hai| kahatA hai- yahA~ koI dekhane vAlA nahIM hai, Ao rAjula ! hama unmukta bhogoM kA Ananda lete haiN| abhI to javAnI hai, bAda meM saMnyAsa le leMge jIvana kA kalyANa kara leNge| rAjula ne use pahacAna liyA ki vaha usakA devara rathanemi hai| vaha kahatI 99 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hai- dhikkAra hai tumheM / tuma mere devara hokara isa taraha kI kutsita, galata, dUSita, vyabhicArapUrNa bAta rakhate ho ? soco, tumhAre bar3e bhAI ne to merA tyAga kara diyA aura tuma tyAgI huI cIja ko punaH grahaNa karane ko Atura ho rahe ho? eka kuttA hI svayaM kA yA dUsare kA vamana kiyA huA grahaNa karatA hai / tuma mere devara ho yA saMta ho yA usa zvAna kI zreNI meM ho ? phira bhI rathanemi punaH anunaya-vinaya karatA hai| rAjula kahatI hai- rathanemi tuma usa nikRSTa sA~pa kI taraha ho, jo apanA yA dUsare kA viSa bhI dubArA grahaNa kara letA hai| tumheM to usa viSagaMdhA sarpa kI taraha bananA cAhie jo kisI bhI sthiti meM apane yA dUsare ke dvArA chor3e gae viSa ko grahaNa nahIM karatA cAhe maranA hI kyoM na par3a jaae| rAjula ke vacanoM ko sunakara rathanemi stabdha raha jAtA hai| rAjula kahatI calI jAtI hai- rathanemi, apane bar3e bhAI ko dekho jo giranAra kI goda meM kisI zikhara para baiThakara sAdhanArata hai aura tuma jo saMta bana cuke ho aura kyA karane jA rahe ho ! maiM tumhAre bhAI kI dAsI, unakI sevA karane jA rahI hU~ aura tuma guphAoM ke saghana aMdhakAra meM bhI apane mana ko ThIka nahIM kara pAe ! soco yaha to maiM tumhArI bhAbhI nikalI, anya koI hotI to ? jaise kue~ para rahaTa sthira nahIM rahatA usI taraha agara tumhArA citta sthira na rahA to tuma sAdhanA kaise kara pAoge ? rAjula ke vacanoM ko sunakara rathanemi Atma-jAgrata ho jAtA hai| bhAbhI ke sAmane prAyazcita karatA hai aura bhAbhI ke sAtha apane bar3e bhAI ke pAsa jAtA hai aura apane dvArA kie gae kRta, kArita aura anumodita zabda tathA bhAvadhArAoM ke lie prAyazcita karatA hai aura apanI mukta tathA kaivalya dazA ko upalabdha karatA hai| isa taraha kucha loga sAmAnya bhoga vAsanAoM se grasita hote haiM, kucha unase adhika grasta rahate haiM lekina kucha atyadhika pragAr3ha dUSita mAnasikatA vAle hote haiM jo kisI bhI galata kArya ko karate hue hicakicAte nahIM haiN| unake lie, niyama, saMyama, maryAdA ke koI mAyane nahIM hote, na hI pavitratA kA koI artha hotA hai| eka Adarza sthiti hotI hai ki nahIM giranA cAhie, lekina dUsarI sthiti hotI hai yathArtha jisameM insAna bAra-bAra gira jAtA hai / sAdhaka jo sAdhanA ke lie tatpara haiM unameM se kucha kI dhArAe~ pahale se hI nirmala hotI haiN| isa kAraNa ve zIghra hI apane udaya aura vilaya se sAkSAtkAra karane lagate haiN| lekina kucha loga apane zarIra ke guNadharmoM kI anupazyanA nahIM kara pAte / ve AnApAna nahIM 1000 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kara pAte, jaise hI ve zAMti se baiThate haiM unake bha~varajAla uThane lagate haiN| usakI purAnI yAdeM, usake bhoga, usakI vAsanAe~, usakI tRSNA saba cakkara lagAne lagatI haiN| sAmAnya zreNI ke logoM ke lie zrI bhagavAna kahate haiM- vaha vyakti bhalIbhA~ti apane-Apa meM jAne, bhalIbhA~ti apane-Apa meM ciMtana kare, bhalIbhA~ti jagata ke padArthoM ko samajhate hue dekhe ki isa kAyA meM kyA hai| isa kAyA meM hai pRthvI dhAtu, jala dhAtu, agni dhAtu, vAyu dhAtu / aura isa kAyA meM kyA hai / jinameM sAmAnya moha aura bhoga kI vAsanA hotI hai, ve bhalIbhA~ti socate bhI haiM, ciMtana bhI karate haiM aura dekhate bhI haiN| hamArA zarIra paMcatattvoM se banA hai, tulasIdAsajI kahate haiM kSiti, jala, pAvaka, gagana, samIrA, paMcabhUta racita adhama shriiraa| sAdhaka ina pA~ca tattvoM ko dekhatA hai ki ye kyA hai ? haDDiyA~ hamAre zarIra kA Thosa padArtha haiM- yaha pRthvI dhAtu hai| zarIra meM bahatA huA rakta, mUtra-jala dhAtu hai| kabhI hameM garmI kA to kabhI zItalatA kA ahasAsa hotA hai, aura to aura agara hama apanI zvAsa para dhyAna deM to pAeMge ki dAe~ nAsApuTa se calane vAlI zvAsa garma hotI hai aura bAIM nAsikA se calane vAlI zvAsa ThaMDI hotI hai| USNatA aura zItalatA kA ahasAsa agni dhAtu hai| jaise bijalI se hITara bhI calatA hai aura e.sI. bhI, donoM ke pIche eka hI UrjA kArya karatI hai| hamAre zarIra kI agni-dhAtu kabhI hameM sardI kA aura kabhI garmI kA ahasAsa detI hai| bhojana pacane kI vyavasthA bhI agni kA kArya hai, jaTharAgni bhI agni dhAtu hai| cauthI dhAtu vAyu hai| hamArA zvasana taMtra vAyu se saMcAlita hotA hai| hamAre zarIra meM pA~ca prakAra kI vAyu hotI hai- pAna, apAna, samAna, vyAna aura udAna / eka vAyu hamArI chAtI meM, hRdaya meM bharI rahatI hai, dUsarI hamAre peTa meM maladvAra kI ora bharI rahatI hai, tIsarI vAyu chAtI se Upara mastaka ke bhAga taka vyApta rahatI hai, cauthI vAyu sUkSma rUpa se hamAre pUre zarIra meM vyApta hotI hai| sAdhanA meM utarane vAlA vyakti kAyAnupazyanA karatA huA jAnatA hai ki usakI kAyA meM cAra prakAra kI dhAtu vyApta hai aura vaha ina dhAtuoM ke bAre meM bhalIbhA~ti ciMtana aura manana bhI karatA hai| vaha dekhatA bhI hai aura svayaM meM anubhava bhI karatA hai| caubIsoM ghaTena hama ciMtana kara sakate haiM, na dekha sakate haiM, na hI samajha sakate haiN| isIlie jaba dhyAna meM utarate haiM taba 101 For Personal & Private Use Only

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vAstavika rUpa se anupazyanA karate haiM aura apanI dhAtuoM ko, saMvedanoM ko, zItala-USNa ahasAsoM ko dekhate haiM, vicAra aura ciMtana-manana bhI karate haiN| Thosa anubhUti prApta karane ke lie ina sabase gujaranA hotA hai| tabhI Thosa satya se sAkSAtkAra hotA hai| jinake bhItara sAmAnya se adhika moha kA, bhoga kA bhAva hai unake lie zrI bhagavAna kahate haiM- aise vyakti punaH punaH ciMtana, manana, anupazyanA kareM, punaH punaH Thosa satya ko samajhane kA prayatna kareM ki isa zarIra meM kyA hai ! vaha ciMtana kare ki isa zarIra meM azucitA hai, gaMdagI hai, mala-mUtra, mavAda, mA~sa-majArudhira Adi bharA huA hai| patA nahIM kyoM, hameM prabhu jitane priya hote haiM, usase adhika azucitAe~, gaMdagiyA~ pasaMda hotI haiN| hameM apanI bAhya deha to dikhAI detI hai, para isake aMdara kyA-kyA bharA hai, vaha naz2ara nahIM aataa| hamArA janma jisa mA~ kI kokha se hotA hai, vahA~ bhI gaMdagI hI hotI hai| prajanana-prakriyA bhI gaMdagI kA hI milApa hai| hamAre bhAva bhI gaMdagI ke hI rahate haiN| gaMdagI meM hI jIte haiM aura gaMdagI meM hI mara jAnA pasaMda karate haiN| hameM to marate samaya bhI bhagavAna yAda nahIM aate| taba bhI pati yA patnI hI yAda AtI hai| mA~-pitA bhI yAda nahIM Ate, bacce yAda Ate haiM, bhAiyoM ko to kauna pUche ! yaha jIvana kI saccAI hai| insAna ke jIvana meM jo dUsarI sthiti banatI hai, aise logoM ke lie zrI bhagavAna kahate haiM unheM ciMtana aura manana karanA cAhie, unheM bAra-bAra socanA cAhie-sahajAtma svarUpa paramaguru- AtmA kA sahaja svarUpa hI merA parama guru hai, mujhe aba Atma-uddhAra ke lie laga jAnA caahie| mere lie kyA parivAra, kyA pati, kyA patnI ! ___mauta Ae usase pahale eka bAra mara jAnA hai| mauta AI to hameM pUrI taraha mArakara calI jaaegii| lekina isase pahale apanI duniyAdArI se mara jAoge to sacamuca apanI mukti kA prabaMdha kara sakoge, prabhu ko saccA prema kara skoge| nahIM to vahI saMsAra aura usake bhoga yAda Ate rheNge| guru gorakhanAtha kahate haiM : 'maro he jogI mro|' moha kI dhArA ko tor3o, nahIM to yaha bahuta kaSTa degA, bahuta rulaaegaa| dUsare kisma ke loga jo jyAdA moha meM, vAsanA meM par3e haiM, bhagavAna unake lie kahate haiM tuma soco, vicAra karo aura dekho ki isa kAyA meM kyA hai ! mahApuruSoM kI kAyA meM aura hamArI kAyA meM koI farka nahIM hai| sabhI kI kAyA eka jaisI hai| sabakI kAyA annadharmA, rogadharmA, bhogadharmA, maraNadharmA hai| Aja hama jo 102 For Personal & Private Use Only

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rAma, kRSNa yA mahAvIra kI pUjA karate haiM to kyA unakI kAyA kI pUjA karate haiM ? nhiiN| hama to unakI AtmA kI, unake tyAga kI, unake mahAna sadkarmoM kI, mahAkaruNA aura maryAdAoM kI pUjA karate haiN| jaba Apa mere pAsa Ate haiM aura mujhe namana karate haiM to kyA Apa isa kAyA ko, isa veza ko namana karate haiM ? are kAyA meM kyA hai ? veza meM bhI kyA rakhA hai ? vyakti ke guNoM ko namana kiyA jAnA cAhie, usake aMdara jo tAkata hai usakA abhinaMdana ho ! zeSa to sabhI kI kAyA eka jaisI hai| pati ne patnI se kahA- hara roja kyoM itanI lipisTika lagAtI ho ? AdhI to tumhAre peTa meM hI calI jAtI hogI ! patnI ne jhaTa se kicoTI bharate hae kahA- kyoM ToMTa kasate ho ? cauthAI to Apake peTa meM bhI jAtI hogii| saba eka jaise haiN| sabakI aisI hI milatI-julatI kahAnI hai| hameM saMyama kI ora vizvAsa ke qadama bar3hAne caahie| mukta rahanA yA mukta honA acchI bAta hai, para agara abhI mukta ho hI nahIM pA rahe, to koI bAta nahIM, z2iMdagI meM eka umra nirdhArita kara lo ki amuka umra ke bAda zAMti dhAraNa kara leMge, amuka umra ke bAda pavitratA se raheMge, pavitratA ko jieNge| bhale hI vaha umra 50 kI karo, 60 kI karo, 70 kI karo, para kara lo| pahale z2amAne meM 100 kI umra hotI thI, to loga 50 kI umra meM phrI ho jAte the| gRhasthI meM qadama rakhA hai to kyA marate dama taka bhoga kI hI khir3akiyA~ kholate raheMge ? aba ausata umra 70 kI mAneM to 35 chor3o, 50 chor3o, 60 meM to phrI hone kA saMkalpa dhAraNa kara lo| koI yayAti-AtmA hai, to 60 ko bhI haTAo, 65-70 kI umra meM to mukta ho hI jaao| kyA batAe~, dA~ta gira gae, para bhoga ke bhAva nahIM gire / bAla sapheda ho gae, magara dila abhI bhI kAlA hai| mRtyu hameM mukta karane jA rahI hai, para hama mukta hone kA nAma hI nahIM lete| jo cIz2a hameM 36 meM pA lenI cAhie, hama 63 meM bhI use nahIM pA rahe haiN| soco, soca-socakara soco ki jo mana 36 sAla meM, 63 sAla meM tRpta na huA, kyA vo aba ho pAegA ? abhI se abhyAsa meM lenA zurU kara deN| zAma ko rasagulle-rAjabhoga khAe, bar3e caTakAre-le-lekara, para savere vAlI gAr3I se kyA nikalA ? azucitA para gaura kareM aura isa taraha Atma-manana karake svayaM ko bhojana aura bhogoM ke prati rahane vAlI lipsA se mukta kreN| bhojana ke bAre meM saMyama-dina meM 2 bAra yA cAra bAra se z2yAdA mu~ha jUThA nahIM kreNge| eka bAra ke 103 For Personal & Private Use Only

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bhojana meM 10 dravyoM se jyAdA grahaNa nahIM kreNge| yaha jihvA kA saMyama huaa| vrata-upavAsa nahIM hote, para AhAra-saMyama to ho hI sakatA hai| bhoga kI dahalIja para qadama rakheM to agale sAta dina ke lie saMyama rkhuugaa| pahale saptAha-saptAha kA saMyama rakheM, phira pakhavAr3A aura mahIne kaa| jaba lage, hama varSabhara saMyama se jIne meM saphala ho gae, to ghara meM rahate hue bhI saMnyAsI bana jaaeN| mahAvIra aura buddha bana jaaeN|| hameM aise sthAnoM para jAne se bacanA cAhie jahA~ jAkara mana meM vikAroM kI prabalatA bar3hatI hai| vivAha ke bAda nava-vivAhita ghUmane ke lie hila sTezanoM para jAte haiN| merA mAnanA hai ki sadvicAra vAle logoM ko aise sthAnoM para nahIM jAnA caahie| vahA~ ke hoTaloM meM jAkara dUSita bhAvanA hI utpanna hotI hai| saiksI vAtAvaraNa meM jAoge, to saiksa aura bhar3akegA hii| Apa dharma sthAnoM para tIrthayAtrA ke lie parivAra ke sAtha jAe~, ApakA bhAvI jIvana nirmala rahegA, sukha-zAMti, prema aura dharmamaya rhegaa| tIsarI kisma ke logoM kA mana aura unakI kAyA atyadhika dUSita vicAroM, saMskAroM, saMvedanAoM se bharI hotI hai ki unheM maMdira meM bhI madirAlaya naz2ara AtA hai| aise logoM ko gahana cikitsA kI AvazyakatA hai| unake lie choTI-moTI sAdhanA-paddhatiyA~ kAma nahIM aatii| unakA mokSa aura nirvANa bhI eka bar3I tapasyA hai| unake lie bhagavAna ne jo kahA vaha sAdhanA zmazAna-parva se jur3I haI hai| arthAt aise sAdhaka ko zmazAna meM jAnA cAhie aura vahA~ baiThakara apanI sAdhanA karanI caahie| hAlAMki vaha vahA~ bhI itanI jaldI sAdhanA na kara paaegaa| vahA~ bhI usake andara kucha aura calane lagegA / vaha sabase pahale to yahI socegA ki kahA~ A gayA ? aise logoM ke lie zrI bhagavAna kahate haiM- vaha zmazAna meM jAe, eka dina rahe, do dina rahe, pA~ca dina rahe, dasa dina rahe, AvazyakatA hone para do mahIne taka lagAtAra rahe aura apane sAmane par3I huI eka dina purAnI lAza ko dekhe, do dina purAnI lAza ko dekhe, tIna dina purAnI lAzoM ko dekhe, phUlI haI lAzoM ko dekhe, sar3e hae mariyala kuttoM ko dekhe| jina jAnavaroM ke zarIra phUla cuke haiM, unako dekhe| aisI lAzeM jinheM koI jalAne vAlA nahIM hai, una lAzoM ko vaha dekhe| unake zarIra meM ho cake ghAvoM ko dekhe| kutte aura gIdaDa dvArA noce gae ghAvoM ko dekhe aura bhalIbhA~ti ciMtana, manana, vicAra kare, dekhe, jAne aura Thosa anubhUti kare ki jaisA hAla isa kAyA kA ho 104 For Personal & Private Use Only

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rahA hai vaisA hI merI kAyA kA bhI ho sakatA hai| merA zarIra, merI AtmA, cetanA, prANoM ke nikala jAne para jaise eka dina purAnI lAza dikhAI de rahI hai, vaisI mere zarIra kI dazA hogii| padayAtrA karate hue, sar3aka para calate hue hama logoM ne kaI bAra kitane hI pazuoM ko marA par3A dekhA hai| usakA peTa phUla rahA hai, A~teM phaTa jAtI haiN| kutte, cIla, giddha, kaue usa lAza ko nocate haiN| aisI sthiti meM sAdhaka nAka-bhauMha na sikor3e balki do miniTa vahA~ khar3A rahakara use bhalIbhA~ti dekhe, samajhe, ciMtana kare aura jAne ki yaha hai kAyA ! yaha AtmA kA bar3A oNparezana hai| aise logoM ko kevala satsaMga kAma nahIM AtA, guruvANI kAma nahIM aatii| jo dUSita, kutsita aura kuMThita mana ke haiM unheM to zmazAna meM jAkara baiThanA caahie| aise logoM ke lie maMdira, masjida kisI kAma ke nahIM haiM / devI ke maMdira meM bhI unakI manodazAe~ ...... ! giddha AkAza meM kitanI adhika U~cAI para ur3atA hai, para usakI naz2ara z2amIna para par3e mA~sa ke lothaDe, lAzoM ko hI dekhatI rahatI hai| vyabhicArI bhI giddha ke samAna hote haiN| cora kI naz2areM corI para, juArI kI naz2areM jae para aura vyabhicArI kI najareM strI yA puruSoM para lagI rahatI haiN| zrI bhagavAna kahate haiM aise logoM ko zmazAna meM do-do mahIne rahanA caahie| ___ hamAre deza meM hindU samAja kI eka paramparA hai ki mRta deha ko jalAne ke bAda usakI asthiyA~ ekatrita kara kisI pavitra nadI yA samudra meM pravAhita kara dI jAtI haiN| yaha eka zreSTha paramparA hai lekina isakA AdhyAtmika artha samajheM / jaba zmazAna jAe~ to samajheM ki yaha hai kaayaa| hama apane parijanoM ko kitanA pyAra karate haiM lekina lAza ko dekhakara jAneM ki vyartha hI pyAra karatA thaa| yaha to jalakara rAkha meM pariNata ho gyaa| jalatI huI lAza ko dekhakara vahA~ dhyAna kreN| jIvana meM sAdhanA karane ke lie, dhyAna dharane ke lie, anupazyanA karane ke lie, satya se sAkSAtkAra karane ke lie jalatI huI lAza se behatara aura bar3hiyA, sAdhana nahIM hai| use dekheM aura smjheN| samyak darzana kareM, samyak jJAna kreN| isI se mukti-patha prazasta hogaa| zrImad rAjacaMdra, jinheM gA~dhIjI ne bhI apanA guru mAnA, unakI adhyAtma-sAdhanA kI zuruAta aise hI huii| unake kAkA kA nidhana ho gyaa| parivAra ke loga unheM jalAne ke lie le jAne lge| bAlaka rAjacaMdra ne socA inhoMne hamAre kAkA ko rassiyoM se kyoM bA~dhA hai, lakar3iyoM para kyoM liTAyA hai, [105 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kapar3e se kyoM DhaMkA hai, ye loga inheM kahA~ le jA rahe haiM ? pIche-pIche vaha bhI calA, zmazAna pahu~cA / vahA~ para vaha eka per3a para car3hakara dekhane lagA ki yaha saba kyA ho rahA hai| lAza ko citA para car3hAkara Aga lagA dI jAtI hai, ghI DAlA jAtA hai, lAza dhUM-dhUM kara jala uThatI hai| vaha per3a para baiThA-baiThA sArA dRzya dekhatA rahatA hai| jalatI citA ko dekhanA satya se sAkSAtkAra karane kA mahAna yajJa hai| loga cale jAte haiM, baccA phira bhI vahIM baiThA rahatA hai| ciMtana karatA hai, use samajha meM AtA hai ki yaha hai kAyA ! yaha hai jIvana aura jIvana kI anityatA vahIM baiThe hue bAlaka ko apane pUrva janma kA smaraNa ho AtA hai, viziSTa jJAna prApta ho jAtA hai, bodhi-lAbha arjita ho jAtA hai| sAdhaka apanI kAyA ke tattvoM ko samajhe, usameM hone vAle upadravoM ko bhI samajhe, kAyA ke prapaMcoM ko, vartamAna kamajoriyoM ko samajhe aura dekhe ki vaha apanI kAyA, sA~sa, AnApAna kI kisa taraha se sAdhanA kara sakatA hai| hameM adhika se adhika sAkSI bhAva ko vikasita karanA hotA hai| sabhI ko zmazAna jAne kI z2arUrata nahIM hai / zmazAna-parva kevala unhIM ke lie hai, jinake mana kI avasthAe~ atyanta dUSita haiN| anyathA sahaja hI sAdhanA aura anupazyanA ho jAtI hai| hameM anupazyanA, AnApAna aura Atma-sAdhanA hI karanA hai| samAdhi hama prApta nahIM kara pAte kyoMki citta ke dUSita tattva prabhAvita karate rahate haiN| ina dUSita tattvoM se mukta honA pahalI anivAryatA hai| jaise hI lage ki vicAra zAMta ho gae haiM, punaH AnApAna aura sAkSIbhAva Ane lagatA hai| jo bhItara kA sAkSI nahIM ho pAtA use hI alaga-alaga prakAra ke dhyAna karane hote haiN| jinheM sahaja meM hI Ananda hai, zAMti, mauna, muktadazA hai unheM inameM se kisI bhI cIz2a ko karane kI z2arUrata nahIM hotii| lekina abhI hama isa avasthA taka nahIM pahu~ce haiM aura hameM dhyAna-sAdhanA kI AvazyakatA hai| kise kauna-sI paddhati upayukta hai, yaha usakI citta kI avasthA ko dekhakara hI jAnA jA sakatA hai| sAdhaka ko sAkSI bhAva adhika se adhika vikasita karanA hotA hai aura apane bhItara ke duHkhadaurmanasya kA avasAna karanA hotA hai aura apanI moha-vAsanAoM se Upara uThanA hotA hai| Apa sabhI apane-apane satya se sAkSAtkAra kara sakeM isI maMgalabhAvanA ke sAtha- namaskAra ! 106 For Personal & Private Use Only

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9 vipazyanA se pAe~ vilakSaNa phala bhagavAna buddha rAjagRhI ke rAjamArga se jA rahe the| rAjagRhI nagara parvatamAlAoM ke madhya basA huA thA / bhagavAna buddha ke parivAra kA eka sadasya thA devadatta, jo unakA cacerA bhAI thA / vaha unase atyadhika zatrutA rakhatA thA / usane zrI bhagavAna kA ziSyatva bhI grahaNa kiyA thA, lekina usakI cAhata thI ki jisa taraha gautama buddha kA vistRta prabhAva hai usI taraha usakA prabhAva bhI phaile aura unhIM kI taraha usake bhI hajAroM ziSya hoM / isI mahatvAkAMkSA ke kAraNa usane bhagavAna ke ziSyoM ke madhya phUTa DAlane kI bhI koziza kI, lekina saphala na ho skaa| kahate haiM taba vaha rAjagRhI kI parvatamAlAoM para car3ha gayA aura intaz2Ara karane lagA ki kaba buddha una parvatamAlAoM ke nIce se gujareM / jaba bhagavAna una parvatamAlAoM ke nIce se gujara rahe the ki usane eka bar3I zilA uThAI aura bhagavAna ke Upara pheNkii| kahA jAtA hai na ki 'jAko rAkhe sAiyA~, mAra sakai na koya' - patthara, bhagavAna ke dasa iMca Age girA / patthara bahuta bar3A thA so bhale hI bhagavAna usase baca gae hoM para eka Tukar3A usameM se TUTA aura uchalakara buddha ke 107 For Personal & Private Use Only

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pA~va para gira pdd'aa| bhagavAna ke pA~va se khUna bahane lgaa| pIr3A bhI huI hogii| tatkAla ziSya daur3e Upara dekhA to pAyA ki devadatta ne yaha kAranAmA kiyA hai| lekina devadatta vahA~ se bhAga niklaa| ziSya devadatta kA pIchA karanA cAhate the, para buddha ne manA kara diyaa| ziSya buddha ko uThAkara caitya-vihAra meM le aae| z2akhma itanA gaharA thA ki khUna ruka hI nahIM rahA thaa| ziSya usa samaya ke prasiddha vaidya jIvaka ke pAsa phuNce| jIvaka saMtoM aura muniyoM kI atyaMta bhakti bhAva se sevA karatA, unakA upacAra karatA / jIvaka ne ghAva kI gaharAI dekhakara teja davA bA~dha dI, tAki rudhira jaldI ruka jaae| jIvaka ko dUsare sthAna para jAnA thA ataH usane kahA- maiM sA~jha taka vApasa lauTa AU~gA, yaha davA bahuta teja hai| ataH isakA rAtabhara ba~dhe rahanA ThIka nahIM hai| maiM zAma ko paTTI ityAdi khola duuNgaa| aisA kahakara jIvaka calA gyaa| ittiphAka kI bAta sA~jha hone A gaI, vaidya dUsare gA~va se lauTa na paayaa| jaba vaha nagara koTa taka pahu~cA taba taka rAta ho gaI aura nagara ke daravAje baMda ho gae the| jIvaka ko prAyazcita hone lagA ki usane bhagavAna ko itanI teja davA bA~dha dI hai ki bhagavAna ko rAtabhara nIMda bhI na aaegii| isa avahelanA, AzAtanA, upekSA, vedanA kA AdhAra vaha svayaM hI hogaa| vahIM baiThe-baiThe usane zrI bhagavAna se kahA- prabhu, mujhe kSamA kareM maiMne Apako teja davA kI paTTI to bA~dha dI lekina kholane ke lie maiM samaya para nahIM pahuMca paayaa| dUsare dina subaha jIvaka vaidya gautama buddha ke pAsa pahu~ce, kSamA prArthanA kara kahane lage- maiM samaya para na pahu~ca pAyA, mujhe kSamA kara deN| buddha ne muskurAte hue kahA- nizcaya hI tuma na pahu~ca pAe, para tumhArA saMdeza mujha taka pahu~ca gayA thaa| nagara ke dvAra para baiThakara tumane jo prArthanA kI thI vaha mujha taka pahuMca gaI aura maiMne paTTI khulavA lii| jIvaka ne kahA- acchA kiyA bhagavan, para dina bhara to Apako bahuta vedanA huI hogI, kaSTa huA hogaa| taba buddha ne jIvaka se do paMktiyA~ kahIM- he vaidya, buddha ke kaSTa to usI dina samApta ho gae the jisa dina bodhi-vRkSa ke nIce use bodhi-lAbha arjita huA thaa| insAna ke jIvana meM tabhI taka kaSTa rahate haiM jaba taka usake jIvana meM ajJAna, abodha dazA, asatya kA, mithyAtva kA prabhAva hotA hai| jaba vyakti jIvana aura jagata ke marma ko samajha le ki kyA nitya hai aura kyA anitya hai, 108 For Personal & Private Use Only

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vaha Atma jJAnI kaSTa aura vedanAoM se Upara uTha jAtA hai / jo zarIra aura AtmA, jIva aura nirjIva ko ekarUpa mAnatA rahatA hai, usake jIvana aura citta para vedanA tathA kaSTa prabhAvI rahate haiM / lekina jaise haMsa nIra-kSIra viveka rakhatA hai vaise hI bheda-vijJAnI, Atma-jJAnI zarIra aura AtmA ko bhinna-bhinna jAnane meM samartha ho jAtA hai| aisA vyakti apane zarIra ko vedanA, kaSTa, khiMcAva, tanAva, dabAva, pratikUlatAe~, duHkhada saMvedanAe~ - inase prabhAvita nahIM ho pAtA / maiMne apane jIvana meM kucha varSoM pUrva Atma - yoginI sAdhvI vicakSaNa zrI jI ko dekhA thaa| unakI chAtI meM kaiMsara ho gayA thA / unake eka stana meM se hara samaya mavAda risatA rahatA thA / haz2AroM logoM ne dekhA vaha sAdhvI mahilA aisI sthiti meM bhI apane hAtha meM hara samaya eka mAlA thAmeM rahatIM aura prabhu ke dhyAna meM lIna rhtiiN| taba logoM ne jAnA ki 'tana meM vyAdhi aura mana meM samAdhi' - ise kahate haiM / usa sAdhvI ne yaha tattva, yaha marma, yaha bodha arjita kara liyA thA ki zarIra alaga hai, maiM alaga hU~ / 'maiM' aura 'merA' donoM hI zarIra ke sAtha Aropita karanA prANimAtra kA ajJAna hotA hai, abodha dazA hai / jala - hAr3a-mA~sa, paMca mahAbhUta aura cAra dhAtuoM se banI huI hamArI yaha kAyA patA nahIM calatA kaba taka hai aura kaba nahIM hai / bAhara se sApha, sundara, salonI dikhAI dene vAlI kAyA meM kaba TUTa-phUTa ho jAe, - jhulasa jAe, apaMgatA A jAe, patA nahIM calatA hai / jaise isa kAyA meM DAle gae hara bhojana kA pariNAma azucitApUrNa hotA hai vaise hI hamArI kAyA isI guNa-dharma se prabhAvita hai| kyoMki jo bhItara hai vahI to bAhara hogaa| sar3anA, galanA, bananA, miTanA yahI saba isa kAyA ke guNa-dharma haiM / ajJAnatA kI dazA meM hama isa kAyA ke bhoga ke prati, indriyoM ke sukhoM ke prati lAlAyita, Atura aura tRSArta rahate haiM / lekina Atma-jJAnI jisane jIva aura jar3a ko alaga-alaga jAna liyA hai vaha isa jar3a ke dvArA hone vAle prabhAvoM se aprabhAvita rahatA hai / vaha nirapekSa rahatA hai kyoMki vaha zuddha rUpa se sAkSI ho jAtA hai / Atma- dRSTA hone kA artha hI yahI hai ki vaha zuddha sAkSI ho gyaa| I duniyA meM do taraha ke loga hote haiM- eka jo talahaTI para haiM, dUsare ve jo zikhara para hote haiN| talahaTI para rahane vAle loga z2amInI tUfAnoM se, z2amInI dhUla se parezAna rahate haiM, lekina jo zikhara para pahu~ca cuke haiM aise loga taTastha bhAva se 109 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jamIna para jo kucha hotA rahatA hai, use dekha lete haiM, para usase prabhAvita nahIM hote / ve na to use grahaNa karate haiM aura na hI yaha samajhate haiM ki amuka tattva grahaNa karane yogya nahIM hai| hamArI pA~coM indriyoM ke guNa-dharma hameM lAlAyita, prerita aura AkarSita karate rahate haiN| jaise sA~pa aura kutte kI jIbha lapalapAtI hai vaise hI hamArI indriyA~ bAhya sukha ke lie lapalapAtI haiN| hamAre Upara jaba taka ajJAna hAvI hai, zarIra aura AtmA bhinna hai| yaha samyaktva, yaha bodha, yaha jJAna hAsila nahIM ho jAtA taba taka hama bhI indriyoM ke isI taraha ke anukUla guNadharmoM ke prati aise hI AkarSita hote rheNge| pratikUlatAe~ hameM jhelanI par3atI hai lekina anukUlatAoM ke prati hamArA citta, hamArA antaramana AkarSita hotA rahatA hai| thor3A-sA aura mila jAe, thor3A kahIM aura cale jAe~, thor3e gahanekapar3e aura mila jAe~, thor3A-sA bhojana aura svAdiSTa mila jAe, thor3e se bhoga ke sAdhana aura mila jaaeN| arthAt aura-aura kI kAmanAe~ ajJAna kA hI pariNAma hai| sAkSI, taTastha, AtmabhAva meM sthita rahane vAlA vyakti ina cIjoM ke lie macalatA nahIM hai| milA to ThIka, na bhI milA to AnaMda bhAva / mujhase kisI ne pUchA ki saMta kI paribhASA kyA hai ? to maiMne kahA- Apa hI batA deM ki saMta kI saccI paribhASA kyA hai| ve AhAracaryA ke lie jA rahe the| unhoMne kahA- mila gayA to khA liyA aura na milA to saMtoSa kara liyA yahI saMta kI paribhASA hai| maiMne kahA- yaha to ThIka hai lekina isameM thor3A-sA sakArAtmaka dRSTikoNa ho ki mila gayA to bA~Takara khAyA aura na milA to yaha sadbhAva rakhA ki Aja prabhu ne kRpA kI ki Aja mujhe upavAsa karane kA puNya arjita huaa| kahate haiM eka saMta kisI jaMgala meM apanI kuTiyA banAkara rhtaa| bar3A anUThA, auliyA saMta / sardI hotI to kuTiyA ke bhItara rahatA, garmI hotI to kuTiyA ke bAhara per3a kI chAyA meM AnaMdita rhtaa| vaha bhojana banAtA bhI nahIM thA aura bhikSAcaryA ke lie gA~va meM bhI nahIM jaataa| dopahara ke 12 baje bhojana krtaa| rAha calatA jo rAhagIra usakI thAlI meM DAla detA, vaha use prabhu kA prasAda samajhakara grahaNa kara letaa| eka dina rAjA usa saMta kI usa sAdhukkar3I ko dekhane ke lie per3a kI oTa meM chipakara baiTha gyaa| vaha dekhane lagA ki binA mA~ge usakI roTI kI vyavasthA kaise hotI hai| vaha ThIka 12 bajate hI bhojana ke lie taiyAra haa| 110 For Personal & Private Use Only

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usane thAlI nikAlI aura kahane lagA- prabhu, saba terI meharabAnI hai| tU sabakA khyAla rakhatA hai| saMta aisA kucha bola rahA thA ki acAnaka usI jaMgala se eka rAhagIra gujraa| usane saMta ko baiThe dekhA to usane apanI poTalI meM se do roTI nikAlI aura saMta kI thAlI meM DAla dii| rAhagIra Age bar3ha gyaa| saMta muskurAyA aura punaH kahane lagA- prabhu terI bar3I rahamata hai, tU sabakA khyAla rakhatA hai| saMta ne khAnA khAne ke lie hAtha dhoe, prabhu kI prArthanA karane ke lie A~kheM baMda kiiN| saMta mana-hI-mana prArthanA kara rahA thA ki tabhI eka kuttA aayaa| saMta kI thAlI meM se roTI uThAI aura bhAga niklaa| saMta ne A~kha kholI to roTI gAyaba! saMta vyAkula na huA, kutte ke pIche na daudd'aa| saMta ne punaH yaha kahate hue thAlI apanI jholI meM DAla lI ki prabhu ! terI rahamateM bar3I haiN| tU kabhI-kabhI mujhe khuda hI upavAsa karane kA saubhAgya de detA hai| saMta kA itanA kahanA thA ki rAjA per3a kI oTa se bAhara nikala aayaa| usane saMta ke caraNa-sparza kie| unakI zAMti-samatA-samarasatA kA abhinaMdana kiyaa| rAjA ne kahA- prabhu, maiM apanI jiMdagI meM agara kabhI saMta banU~ to mujhe bhI Apa jaisI hI yaha taTasthatA prApta ho / sacamuca, aisA sadbhAva Ane se hamAre mana meM vedanA nahIM hogI, dabAva nahIM hogA, tanAva aura khiMcAva bhI nahIM hogaa| asahajatA nahIM hogI, duHkhada vedanA aura saMvedanA nahIM hogI ki he bhagavAna ! tujhe itanA yAda karatA hU~ phira bhI bhUkhA rakha diyaa| sAdhaka zikAyata bhAva se Upara uTha jaae| jo hai, jaisA hai, usameM AnaMdita rahane kA nAma hI sAdhanA hai| jo nahIM hai, usake prati lAlAyita hone kA nAma hI virAdhanA hai| sAdhaka sahaja rahe, hara utAra-car3hAva meM sahaja rhe| paristhiti ko khuda para hAvI na hone de| paristhitiyoM kA svayaM ko gulAma na hone de| paristhitiyA~ to badalatI rahatI haiN| ve eka-sI nahIM rhtiiN| kabhI lAbha kA nimitta A jAtA hai, to citta lobhita ho uThatA hai| kabhI hAni kA nimitta A jAtA hai, to citta udvigna ho jAtA hai| nimitta banate rahate haiM, badalate rahate haiN| hama agara nimitta pradhAna jiMdagI jIte rahe, to ho gaI saadhnaa| eka preraka kahAnI rAjA bhartRhari se jur3I huI hai ki ve saMnyasta hokara jaMgaloM meM cale gae aura pahAr3oM kI guphAoM meM baiThakara dhyAna-sAdhanA karane lge| eka dina jahA~ ve baiThe the ThIka usake sAmane talahaTI para unheM eka adbhuta For Personal & Private Use Only

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anamola hIrA naz2ara AyA / eka pala ke lie antarbhAva uThe ki vAha kyA adbhuta hIrA hai, aisA hIrA to maiMne apane rAjakoSa meM bhI nahIM dekhA thaa| dhyAna meM baiThe the lekina ........ ! vyakti nimitta dekha letA hai to apane-Apa bahane lagatA hai, citta taraMgita ho jAtA hai| mana meM kAmanA uTha AI ki jAkara uThA hI letA huuN| ve soca hI rahe the ki khar3A hoU~, jAU~, tabhI dekhA ki pUraba dizA se eka subhaTa ghor3e para daur3atA A rahA hai aura pazcima dizA se bhI eka subhaTa ghor3e para daur3A calA A rahA hai| donoM tarapha se daur3a lagI huI hai| donoM eka-dUsare ke sAmane A rahe the, bhartRhari ne socA are dekhU, ye loga kyA kara rahe haiM ? tabhI patA calA ki donoM ora se kucha anya subhaTa bhI hIre vAle sthala para pahuMca cuke the| talavAreM tana gaIM, donoM hIre para apanA dAvA jatAne lge| talavAreM cala par3IM, sabhI lahUluhAna ho gae, sabakI lAzeM gira pdd'ii| hIrA muskurAtA vahIM raha gayA, AsapAsa lAzeM bicha giiN| bhartRhari ko jIvana kA jJAna, adhyAtma kA sAra, adhyAtma kI cAbI mila gaI ki jo taTastha hai vahI sukhI hai aura jo kabhI rAga aura kabhI dveSa kI tarapha ghar3I ke penDulama kI taraha apane citta meM idhara-udhara DolatA hai vaha sadA duHkhI rahatA hai| ThIka vaise hI jaise isa eka hIre ke lie itane sipAhI aura subhaTa mara ge| hIrA vahIM kA vahIM aura vahI kA vhii| hama hI lezyAoM se ghirate haiN| moha-mUrchA ke makar3ajAla racate haiN| Aja hama zrI bhagavAna ke jina sUtroM kA ciMtana aura manana kareMge vaha vyakti ke mana ko taTastha bhAva, sAkSI-bhAva kI ora le jAtA hai| pratyeka sAdhaka ko bhalIbhA~ti samajha lenA cAhie ki sAdhanA kI kuMjI sAkSI bhAva hai| sAdhanA kI AtmA, Atma-jJAna kI cAbI, anAsakti aura mukti kA dvAra sAkSI-bhAva se khulatA hai| isa sAkSI-bhAva ko vikasita karane ke lie jJAnIjanoM ne anupazyanA kA mArga diyaa| anupazyanA ko sAdhane ke lie buddha ne, mahAvIra ne, pataMjali ne jo rAstA dikhAyA vaha hai AtI-jAtI zvAsoM para apanI sacetanatA ko sAdhanA, usakA saMprajJAna karanA, usakA bhalIbhA~ti tattvadarzana aura bodha karanA, usakI pratyakSa anubhUti karanA / jo sAdhaka zvAsa-dhArA ke prati jAgarUka nahIM hogA vaha tIna miniTa pazcAt apane citta kI vaz2aha se vicalita ho jaaegaa| isalie AnApAna-yoga ko sAdhanA apanI saccAI ke darzana ke lie, apane vikAroM ke virecana ke lie jarUrI hai| duniyAbhara ke sAdhanAmArga hameM paramAtmA se, maMtra se, dharma aura dharma kI paMktiyoM se jor3a sakate haiM 112 For Personal & Private Use Only

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lekina svayaM se nhiiN| svayaM se jur3ane kA ekamAtra mArga AnApAna-yoga hai| AnApAna-yoga karate hue sAdhaka apanI kAyA kI anupazyanA karane meM bhI saphala hotA hai| sAmAnyataH AnApAna karate hue sAdhaka ke sAmane do rAste prakaTa hote haiM(1) dhyAna (2) anupazyanA / ina donoM meM pharka hai| dhyAna kA artha hai- citta kI ekAgratA aura anupazyanA kA artha hai- svayaM ke bhItara jo bhI udaya-vilaya ho rahA hai usakA sAkSI honA, usakA lagAtAra darzana karanA aura bhalIbhA~ti jAnanA / dhyAna meM jo ho rahA hai usa para gaura nahIM kiyA jAtA, varan use jo honA hai usa lakSya kI ora svayaM ko tatpara karatA hai| dhyAna meM apane citta ko aise tattva ke prati kendrita karanA hai jo hamArA lakSya hai| jaise- prabhu kI mUrata para dhyAna karanA, zvAsozvAsa ke sAtha 'OM' kA dhyAna karanA, apane hI jJAna pradeza, hRdaya pradeza yA nAbhikendra para dhyAna karanA arthAt apane citta ko sthira aura ekAgra karane kA prayatna karanA- yaha dhyAna kA abhyAsa haA aura anupazyanA meM citta ko prayAsapUrvaka kendrita nahIM kiyA jAtA balki jo udaya yA vilaya ho rahA hai usakA vaha sAkSI hotA hai| vyakti ke sAmane spaSTa honA cAhie ki vaha dhyAna kara rahA hai yA anupazyanA / vaha apane bhItara uThane vAle vikAra, kaSAya, vedana, saMvedanoM para apanI anupazyanA karanA cAhatA hai, unheM bhalIbhA~ti jAnanA cAhatA hai yA dhyAna karanA cAhatA hai| kyoMki dhyAna meM AropaNa bhI ho sakatA hai lekina anupazyanA meM AropaNa nahIM hotA jo sahaja udaya meM hai usakA sAkSI hotA hai| hama vedanA yA saMvedanA utpanna nahIM kara sakate / anupazyanA vartamAna kSaNa meM jIne kA tarIkA hai, satya se sAkSAtkAra karane kA tarIkA hai| phira vaha satya cAhe kAyA kA ho, vedanA kA ho, citta yA citta ke saMskAroM kA ho| pahale dina, pahale caraNa meM sAdhaka ko na to DhaMga se AnApAna hotA hai, aura na hI kAyA kI anupazyanA / lekina sahaja satat prayatna karane se saphalatA mila jAtI hai| jaba Apa sAdhanA ke lie baiThe to pahale bIsa lambe gahare zvAsa, phira bIsa sahaja zvAsa, phira bIsa maMda-maMda zvAsa leN| bIsa minaTa taka isa krama ko doharAte rheN| pahalI baiThaka meM sA~sa thor3I-thor3I pakar3a meM AegI, citta jyAdA bhttkegaa| dUsarI baiThaka meM sA~sa thor3I pakar3a meM Ane lgegii| tIsarI baiThaka meM citta itanA bhaTakegA ki sA~sa para TikegA hI nhiiN| lekina jaise-jaise zvAsozvAsa para jAgarUka hote haiM, AnApAna karate haiM, apanI smRti ko, 113 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sacetanatA ko bhalIbhA~ti sthApita karane lagate haiM to mahasUsa karate haiM ki pratyeka zvAsozvAsa para hamArI pratyakSa anubhUti hone lagI hai| taba zvAsozvAsa ke udaya-vilaya kA bodha hote hI kAyA kI anupazyanA hone lagatI hai| hameM kAyA meM uThane vAle guNadharmoM kA bodha, isameM uThane vAlI vedanAe~, saMskAroM ke apaneApa sAkSI hone lagate haiM, jAgarUka hone lagate haiN| jo dhyAna karate haiM ve saceSTa hokara kuNDalinI-pradeza para dhyAna sthApita kareMge yA SaTcakroM para dhyAna sthApita kreNge| Ajakala rAjayoga, bhAvAtItadhyAna yA anya jo bhI paddhatiyA~ cala rahI haiM yA prekSA dhyAna inameM sabhI SaTcakroM para dhyAna dharane kI bAta kahate haiN| lekina maiM kahanA cAhatA hU~ ki SaTcakroM kI prekSA kabhI nahIM hotii| SaTcakroM para dhyAna kendrita kiyA jA sakatA hai, usakI prekSA kabhI nahIM ho sktii| prekSA kA artha hai anupazyanA arthAt usa kendra para jo bhI udaya ho rahA hai usake hama sAkSI ho rahe haiN| jabaki dhyAna kA artha hai hama vahA~ apane bikhare hae citta ko kendrita kara vahA~ kI UrjA ke ghanatva ke sAtha svayaM ko jor3a rahe haiN| kaThopaniSada kI bhASA meM kaheM to vahA~ para AnApAna karane ke bAda ve hRdaya para yA buddhi rUpI guphA para dhyAna dharane kI bAta kahate haiN| lekina yaha to dhyAna kI bAta hai| lekina hama yahA~ anupazyanA ko samajha raheM haiM, dhyAna nhiiN| anupazyanA yA vipazyanA arthAt vizeSa rUpa se pUrNa jAgarUkatA ke sAtha dekhanA / ___ pUrNa jAgarUkatA ke sAtha dekhane para hama dekhate haiM ki AnApAna sadhane ke bAda pratyakSa anubhUti hogI ki hameM apanI kAyA kA bhI anubhava hone lagA hai| isakI bArIkiyoM se qhuda-ba-qhuda jur3ane lage haiN| isake andara hone vAle sahaja udaya-vilaya ko pakar3ane meM bhI saphala hone lage haiN| sAmAnya rUpa se to jaba zarIra meM koI cIz2a atyaMta pragAr3ha hogI taba hI hameM anubhava meM AegI lekina anupazyanA karate hue bArIka se bArIka cIz2a bhI pakar3a meM Ane lgegii| jaise sAgara meM lahareM uThatI haiM yA pAnI ke budabude uThate haiM aise hI hamArI kAyA meM bhI alaga-alaga prakRti ke udaya aura vilaya calate rahate haiN| lekina yaha saba pahale dina hI pakar3a meM nahIM AegA para agara AnApAna sadha jAe to hameM bodha hone lagatA hai ki hara sA~sa anitya hai aura dUsarA bodha yaha ki hara sA~sa akhaMDa hai. tIsarA bodha yaha ki hara sA~sa meM tAz2agI hai, hara sA~sa naI hai| hama koI bhI sA~sa purAnI nahIM lete, na hI purAnA jIvana jIte haiN| kala rAta jo jIvana jiyA thA kyA aba bhI vahI jIvana jI rahe haiM ? hara zvAsa hara pala naI hai, tAz2agIbharI hai| 114] For Personal & Private Use Only

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AnApAna meM hama karate kucha nahIM haiM balki jo cala rahA hai, jo ho rahA hai usake prati bhalIbhA~ti jAgarUka hote haiN| anupazyanA kriyA nahIM hai aura na hI dhyAna kriyA hai| ye donoM hameM akriyA meM praveza dilAte haiN| dhyAna hameM ekAgratA to detA hai, Atma-cetanA ke sAtha bhI jor3atA hai, Atma-jJAna ke dvAra bhI kholatA hai, bhItara ke prakAza kA darzana bhI karavAtA hai, lekina zarIra aura citta ke vikAroM se hameM mukta nahIM krvaataa| kAyA ke saMskAra, upadrava, prapaMcoM se dhyAna mukta nahIM krvaataa| dhyAna inase uparata karavA sakatA hai, para mukta nhiiN| dhyAna meM hama 'OM' para, prabhu pratimA para, AtmA para, maMtra para, paramAtma-cetanA para, kisI bhI sAkAra svarUpa para citta ko kendrita karate haiM, lekina hamAre bhItara dabe hue saMskAroM kA kyA hogA, bhoga kI vAsanAoM kA kyA hogaa| janma-janmAntaroM se citta meM par3e kaSAyoM kA kyA hogA ? isake lie hI anupazyanA kA rAstA hai| mahAvIra aura buddha donoM ne isa mArga para bahuta z2ora diyA hai kyoMki vyakti jo hai usakI saccAI se sAkSAtkAra kre| dhyAna hamAre lie samAdhi kA, paramAtma tattva kI ora bar3hane kA mArga hai lekina anupazyanA kA mArga hamAre citta ke vikAroM, saMskAroM, bhItara ke duHkhadaurmanasya se mukta hone kA rAstA kholatA hai| maiMne prArambha meM hI kahA thA ki buddha ne jIvaka se kahA thA ki he vaidya ! buddha ke kaSTa to usI dina samApta ho gae the jisa dina bodhi-vRkSa ke nIce use bodhi-lAbha arjita huA thaa| jaba vyakti kAyA se hI mukta ho gayA, kAyA ke prabhAvoM se hI mukta ho gayA, unako anitya, anitya, anitya mAnate hue, usakI parivartanazIlatA ko samajhate hue mUla tattva aura mUla marma taka hI pahu~ca gayA taba use kAyA ke prabhAva kaise prabhAvita kreNge| svayaM mahAvIra prabhu ko bhI atisAra kA roga ho gayA thA, kucha loga ghabarA bhI gae the, para mahAvIra vicalita nahIM hue| ve kAyA ke marma ko samajha gae the| isIlie ve dehAtIta mahApuruSa bne| anupazyanA aura anuprekSA kA zabdArtha eka ho sakatA hai lekina mahAvIra kI paramparA ke logoM ne anuprekSA ko bhAvanA ke artha meM DAla diyA hai| bhAvanA ke artha meM DAlakara ve kahate haiM ki anitya, azaraNa, ekatva, anyatva jaisI bhAvanAe~ bhAI jaaeN| smaraNa rahe anupazyanA aura anuprekSA do tala para hotI haiM [115 For Personal & Private Use Only

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eka hai ciMtana aura manana ke tala para aura dUsarA hotA hai usakI Thosa anubhUti ke tala para / ciMtana-manana meM hama kahate haiM- isa zarIra meM, kAyA meM kyA hai ? - keza, roma, nakha, haDDI, vIrya, majjA, khUna, kapha, pitta yahI saba gaMdagiyA~ bharI par3I haiN| isa taraha kI battIsa prakAra kI gaMdagiyA~ hamArI kAyA meM bharI paDI haiMyaha ciMtana-manana hai, isakA vicAra karanA hai| lekina Thosa anubhUti anupazyanA aura anuprekSA se hotI hai| ciMtana-manana se 20% lAbha hotA hai lekina asalI lAbha to apanI Thosa anubhUti para hI hogaa| jaise ki kahA jAe- kafa ! koI prabhAva hotA hai ? nhiiN| tabhI eka chIMka A jAe aura nAka se seDA nikala AyA / sAmane baiThA huA vyakti kyA dekhegA ? (yaha bhI anupazyanA ho rahI hai) vaha vicikitsA karegA, ghRNA karegA- ar-r-r-gNdgii| aba bodha AyA to yaha anupazyanA huI, sAmane dekhA gayA to satya kA bodha huaa| vaha apane bhItara Thosa anubhUti karatA hai ki yahI saba to merI kAyA ke bhItara bhI hai| anupazyanA aura anuprekSA ko hama ciMtana aura Thosa anubhUti donoM dharAtaloM para dekhate haiN| bAhara kI gatividhiyoM meM hama inakA saMprajJAna karate haiM lekina sAdhanA meM inakI Thosa anubhUti karane kA prayatna aura abhyAsa karate haiN| koI tIna dina meM kAyAnupazyanA upalabdha nahIM hotI aura na hI sira se pA~va taka kramika rUpa se ise kiyA jAe, aisA z2arUrI nahIM hai / tattva ko, mArga ko samajhakara kahIM se bhI zurU kiyA jA sakatA hai| jaba mArga samajha meM A jAe ki- zmazAna parva hai, ki IryA patha parva hai yA pratikUla manasIkAra parva hai- mahAsati paTThAna sUtta meM ye jo alaga-alaga parva Ae, adhyAya Ae- hama loga inameM kahIM se bhI zurU kara sakate haiN| sIdhe citta kI anupazyanA bhI kara sakate haiN| z2arUrI nahIM hai ki kAyAnupazyanA bhI ho| lekina kAyAnupazyanA isalie karavAte haiM ki kAyA sthUla hai, citta para lagAtAra kendrita nahIM raha sakate, usake udaya-vilaya para pUrI taraha sacetana nahIM raha sakate / kAyA hamArI pakar3a meM, anubhUti meM, samajha meM A rahI hai| hama isa para jAgarUka ho sakate haiN| jaba kAyAnupazyanA sadha jAegI taba calanA to Age hI hai| mAtra kAyAnupazyanA se mukti nahIM milane vAlI aura na hI isase koI buddhatva kA kamala khilegaa| karanI to cittAnupazyanA hI hai, lekina pahale caraNa meM yaha ho nahIM sktii| isIlie kahate haiM sabase pahale AnApAna ko sAdho, phira kAyAnupazyanA ko sAdho, phira vedanAnupazyanA ko sAdho, usake bAda cittAnupazyanA ko sAdho / agara kAyAnupazyanA para pakar3a bana gaI hai to hama sIdhe 116 For Personal & Private Use Only

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hI citta kI dhArAoM ke prati smRtimAna aura saMprajJAna kara sakate haiM, taba kAyAnupazyanA kI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| jaisA ki kahA jAtA hai sabase jyAdA vicAra hI Ate haiM, isIlie Ate haiM ki hama sthUla para hI sajaga nahIM ho pAe, sIdhe sUkSma se hI lar3ane laga gae / are, sAmane jo senA khaDI hai, usase to laDa hI nahIM pA rahe haiM aura jo aMdara meM chipI huI senA hai usase bhir3ane kI soca rahe haiN| citta zarIra kI bahuta bArIka cIz2a hai| hama to sthUla kAyA ke vedana-saMvedanoM ke prati hI sajaga nahIM ho rahe haiM, usI ko nahIM pakar3a pA rahe haiM, usake udaya-vilaya ko hI nahIM samajha pA rahe haiM to citta ke udaya aura vilaya ko sAkSI bhAva se kaise samajha pAe~ge ! sAkSItva rahegA hI nahIM, hama vicAroM meM baha jAe~ge aura sAkSItva bhI ThaMDA ho jaaegaa| sAdhanA meM to baiThe, para bhava-bhramaNa kiyA, citta ko ghumAte rhe| tumheM lagatA hogA tumane dhyAna kiyA lekina jo tumhAre citta kI dazAoM ko samajhatA hogA vaha jAnatA hai kucha nahIM kara rahA, kevala bhaTaka rahA hai| bAhara se lagatA hai yaha kAyA maMdira hai, nizcita hI maMdira hogI, para isameM bhagavAna kI mUrata nahIM dikhAI degii| maMdira to bahuta suMdara hai, para bhagavAna nahIM hai| saMsAra meM bahuta se suMdara maMdira haiM, unameM mUrata ho sakatI hai, para bhagavAna nahIM haiN| kAyAnupazyanA saceta karatI hai ki pahale sthUla para jAgrata hone kI koziza karo taba citta ke udaya-vilaya para sacetanatA lAo, kyoMki sAkSItva sAdhanA par3egA, jAgarUkatA sAdhanI par3egI, gaharI zAMti ko sAkAra karanA hogaa| abhI taka to kAyA kI vedanA, saMvedanA hI pakar3a meM nahIM A rahI hai| jaba taka kAyA ke upadrava pakar3a meM nahIM Ae~ge hama citta ke upadravoM ko kaise pkdd'eNge| kAyA ke upadrava; bhUkha lagI, kucha mahasUsa to haa| ki nIMda A rahI hai kucha mahasUsa to hogA, para citta meM jo pravAha cala rahe haiM ve kaise pakar3a meM Ae~ge, unheM kaise mahasUsa kreNge| ___ anupazyanA kI sAdhanA jo bhI bAhara-bhItara uTha rahA hai, usakA virodha nahIM kara rahI hai| kevala sAkSI ho jAtI hai| vicAra hama lA nahIM rahe haiM, zarIra ke sukhada-duHkhada saMvedana hama lA nahIM rahe haiM- apane-Apa ho rahA hai| basa jo ho rahA hai usake prati sacetana ho rahe haiN| z2arUrI nahIM hai ki vicAra lagAtAra uThate rheN| ho sakatA hai- bIca meM kamara darda uTha jAe taba hamArA dhyAna kamara kI ora calA jaae| dhyAna ba~TatA rahatA hai| nidrA, taMdrA, mUrchA A gaI isI ke lie 117 For Personal & Private Use Only

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z2arUrI hai ki sAdhaka ArAmadAyaka avasthA meM na baiThe / sAdhaka ko pahalA zabda yAda rahe- AtApI / agara hama AtApI, sacetana aura saMprajJAnI nahIM hoMge to ina tInoM meM se eka kI bhI upekSA anupazyanA nahIM karane degii| anupazyanA huI bhI to kamaz2ora hogI aura kamaz2ora anupazyanA se vilakSaNa phaloM kI AzA nahIM kI jA sktii| vilakSaNa phaloM kI prApti ke lie sAdhaka ko AtApI, tapasvI honA caahie| AtApI hI na hue to saMprajJAnI aura sacetana kaise hooge / pahale hI caraNa meM pramAda ne, mUrcchA aura moha ne ghera liyA hai to sacetanatA to gaI bahuta dUra / agara sAdhaka ko baiThane se taMdrA, nidrA AtI hai to khar3e hokara dhyAna karo, apanI anupazyanA karo / sAdhaka ko sAdhanA karate samaya pala-pala smaraNa rakhanA cAhie ki vaha kyA kara rahA hai / hamArA citta hameM tabhI bhaTakAegA jaba hama apanI smRti ko, sacetanatA ko bhUla gae hoN| jaba hama apane saMkalpa ko, hama kyA karane ke lie udyata haiM yaha bhUla jAe~ge taba hI citta bhaTakegA / hameM pala-pala smaraNa ho ki maiM AtApI hU~, svayaM ko tapA rahA hU~, maiM zuddhi karane ke lie baiThA hU~, svayaM ko jAnane ke lie, apane bhItara udaya hone vAlI hara saccAI ke sAkSAtkAra ke lie baiThA huuN| jaba hamAre bhItara isa prakAra kA pragAr3ha bodha hogA tabhI hama saMprajJAna kara sakeMge, apane bhItara pUrI taraha sacetana ho skeNge| kyA hama duniyA ko dikhAne ke lie sAdhanA kara rahe haiN| kyA hama sAdhanA ko kisI taraha kI Adata banA liyA hai ki subaha uThakara baiThanA hI hai| AdhA-eka ghaMTA ? kyoM baiTha rahe haiM ? agara baiTha rahe haiM to hamAre pAsa kyA taiyArI honI cAhie ? agara maiM tapa nahIM rahA hU~ to eka ghaMTA baiThakara kyA karU~gA ? sAdhaka jaba sAdhanA kara rahA hai taba svayaM ko AtApI banA cukA hai| sAdhaka bodha rakhatA hai ki zarIra aura citta ko sthira karake isameM sahaja udita saccAiyoM kA sAkSAtkAra kruuNgaa| anupazyanA kA mArga koI virodha nahIM karatA / na vikAroM kA, na sadvicAroM kA ! yaha palAyana kA mArga nahIM detA / A~sU bhI nahIM DhulakAtA ki are mere bhItara yaha saba kyA-kyA ho rahA hai| jo hai vaha svayaM kA hai / samyak prakAra se, prajJApUrvaka, jJAnapUrvaka, prakRSTa jJAnapUrvaka zreSTha buddhi kA istemAla karate hue khuda ke prati jAgarUka ho rahA hai| usane apanI smRti ko svayaM ke sAtha lagA rakhA hai| citta meM koI bhAva A jAe to zAMta, vicAra zAMta, abhI maiM AtApI hU~, abhI maiM sAdhanA meM baiThA hU~ / acAnaka baiThe-baiThe ghara kI yAda bhI A sakatI hai, 118 For Personal & Private Use Only

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parivAra-patnI-bacce yAda A sakate haiM taba sAvadhAna ho jAie / tIna tattvoM meM se eka bhI kamaz2ora par3A to anupazyanA bhI kamajora ho jaaegii| taba vilakSaNa phaloM ko na pAyA jA skegaa| svayaM kI bArIkiyoM ko upalabdha nahIM kiyA jA skegaa| isIlie kahate haiM ki sira se lekara pA~va ke aMgUThe taka eka-eka aMga para jAgarUka bno| eka-eka aMga para sajaga hone kI koziza kro| hamezA eka-eka aMga para jAganA z2arUrI nahIM hai| kabhI kisI viziSTa aMga kA bhI saMprajJAna kara sakate haiM aura kabhI sira se er3I taka kA sampUrNa saMprajJAna bhI kara sakate haiN| bhalIbhA~ti usakA anubhava kara sakate haiN| kabhI sira se gardana taka, kabhI gardana se hRdaya kI ora, hAtha kI ora, peTa kI ora, nAbhi kI ora, per3a kI ora, pA~voM kI ora- eka-eka aMga para bhI saMprajJAna kara sakate haiN| sAdhanA meM eka bAra, do bAra, tIna bAra, jitanI bAra, jitanI dera hama saMprajJAna karanA cAheM kara sakate haiM kyoMki udaya aura vilaya to pala-pala hotA hai| jitanI bAra baiThoge, jitanI bAra karoge kucha-na-kucha pakar3a meM aaegaa| kucha-na-kucha samajha meM AegA ki jo kAyA hameM prabhAvita karatI hai, jise hamane thAmA hai, jisameM hama rahate haiM, vaha kAyA Akhira kyA hai ? isameM bAra-bAra upadrava kyoM uThate haiM ? guptAMgoM kI anupazyanA calAkara nahIM karanI cAhie, lekina vahA~ koI upadrava uTha gayA hai to vizeSa rUpa se sacetana hokara, vizeSa rUpa se saMprajJAna ke bhAva lAte hue, vizeSa rUpa se AtApI hone ke bhAva lAkara hameM vahA~ kI anupazyanA karanI cAhie yaha mAnakara ki yaha bhI kAyA kA upadrava hai| yAda rahe agara hama bhalI-bhA~ti saMprajJAna nahIM kareMge to bhoga ke bhAva bar3ha sakate haiN| isIlie AnApAna sAdhanA z2arUrI hai| agara AnApAna sadhatA hai to kAyAnupazyanA sadhatI hai| kAyAnupazyanA kA koI taya mArga nahIM hai| yaha to vyakti-vyakti para nirbhara hai ki usake kAyA ke upadrava kisa stara ke haiN| kucha logoM kI kAyA atyaMta zAMta, saumya hotI hai aura kucha atyaMta bhoga ke bhAva se bhare rahate haiN| jo zAMta haiM, saumya haiM unheM zmazAna jAne kI z2arUrata hI nahIM hai| yaha to alaga-alaga prakAra kI kAyA hai ki kisameM durguNa jyAdA haiM aura kisameM sdgunn| Aja aba hama vedanAnupazyanA para carcA karate haiM arthAt zarIra meM hone vAlI vedanAoM kA saMprajJAna karanA, unako bhalIbhA~ti sacetana hokara jAnanA, 119 For Personal & Private Use Only

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unakI pratyakSa anubhUti karanA, unake prati sAkSIkaraNa karanA / mahAvIra ne kabhI kahA thA ki manuSya aura pazu zarIra ke bhItara cAra prakAra kI kriyAe~ calatI rahatI haiM- AhAra, nidrA, bhaya aura maithun| ina saba kI taraMgeM calatI rahatI haiMprANImAtra ke bhItara / koI isase achUtA nahIM hai| bhUkha- AhAra saMjJA, nidrArojAnA nIMda AtI hai, thor3A-sA Dara lage ki hamArI cetanA hila jAtI hai, maithuna kI prakRti- kisI kizora ko seksa aura bhoga ke bAre meM batAnA nahIM pdd'taa| kAyA meM ye saba upadrava uThane zurU ho jAte haiN| agara kisI ko lagatA hai ki AhAra, nidrA, bhaya yA maithuna meM se koI prakRti adhika hai to apane Apa meM ghRNA, napharata, prAyazcita ke bhAva na lAe balki use apane zarIra kI sahaja vyavasthA samajhe / prANImAtra kA yaha guNadharma hai| jo pattA per3a para lagatA hai eka dina jhar3atA bhI hai yaha usakI prakRti hai, koI qhAsa bAta nahIM hai| na hI isase nirAza hone kI z2arUrata hai yaha to prakRti hai| lekina buddha ne kucha aura zarIra kI prakRtiyoM ko samajhAyA hai| ise bhI hama apane sAtha jor3a lete haiM aura ve kahate haiM ki hamAre bhItara tIna taraha kI vedanAe~ hotI haiM, vedanA arthAt anubhUti / yahA~ vedanA kA artha pIr3A nahIM hai| bhAratIya saMskRti ke sabase prAcIna zAstra veda haiM- yahA~ bhI veda kA artha pIr3A nahIM hai- veda kA artha hai pratyakSa jJAna, pratyakSa anubhUti / anubhava karake jo bAta kahI gaI hai vaha hai veda / yahA~ bhI vedanA kA artha pratikUla vedanA se nahIM hai| buddha kahate haiM- sukhada vedanA, duHkhada vedanA aura asukhada, aduHkhada vednaa| sukhada vedanA arthAt sukha dene vAlA ahasAsa, duHkhada vedanA arthAt pIr3A, tanAva khiMcAva kA anubhava karAne vAlA ahasAsa aura tIsarI sthiti hai asukhada-aduHkhada- jisameM bhItara na sukha kI sthiti hai aura na duHkha kI sthiti hai| yaha viziSTa sthiti anAsakti kI hai, bhedavijJAna kI hai jisameM vyakti kAyA ke guNadharmoM se Upara uTha gyaa| isa asukhada-aduHkhada sthiti se hI vyakti ke bhItara buddhatva kA prakAza phailatA hai, usa ora aura Age bar3hatA hai| hamAre kAyArUpI loka meM kabhI sukha kA ahasAsa hone lagatA hai aura kabhI duHkha kA ahasAsa hone lagatA hai| hamAre zarIra meM kabhI tanAva, kabhI khiMcAva, kabhI darda ye saba duHkhada vedanAe~ haiN| kabhI kAyA meM mastI, tAz2agI, Ananda kI anubhUti hotI hai- ye sukhada vedanAe~ haiM / kAyAnupazyanA bhI vedanA ke AdhAra para hI hotI hai| vedanAnupazyanA karate hue hI kAyAnupazyanA kareMge aura 120 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kAyAnupazyanA karate hue hI vedanAnupazyanA bhI hogii| donoM sAtha-sAtha calate haiN| lekina jaba gaharAI meM kAyAnupazyanA hone lagatI hai usa samaya sAdhaka pUrI taraha sacetana ho cukA hai, smRtimAna aura AtApI hai aisI sthiti meM vaha apane zarIra meM uThane vAlI bArIka-bArIka sUkSma saMvedanAoM kA bhI saMprajJAna karane lagatA hai aura usa samaya hone vAlI sukhada aura duHkhada vedanA kI alaga-alaga pahacAna kara letA hai / athavA dhIre-dhIre vaha dekhatA hai sukhada vedanAe~ bhI zAMta ho gaIM, duHkhada vedanAe~ bhI aba zAMta ho gaIM, donoM kA udaya aura vilaya bhI aba zAMta ho gayA hai, uThatA huA, bhar3akatA huA sarovara zAMta ho gayA hai, dhadhakatI huI jvAlAe~ bhI aba pUrI taraha zAMta ho cukI haiM taba vaha pAtA hai ki kAyA meM aba na sukhada vedanA hai, na duHkhada vedanA hai| lekina phira bhI ahasAsa to kAyama hai taba kahA jAtA hai asukhada-aduHkhada vednaa| prazna hai ki sAkSI bhAva AtmA kA guNadharma hai yA buddhi kA guNadharma ? abhI maiM yahI kahanA cAhU~gA ki abhI hama apanI ora se Aropita bhAvoM ko bilkula gauNa kara deN| jo Thosa anubhUti meM lA sakate haiM usakI ora dhyAna deN| sAkSI arthAt dekhane vAlA, dRSTA, anubhava karane vaalaa| kyoMki abhI jo bhI uttara hogA vaha Aropita hogaa| anupazyanA kisI bhI prakAra ke AropaNa ko svIkAra nahIM krtii| jo hai jaisA hai khuda hI jAneM, kauna hai anubhava karane vAlA khuda hI pahacAneM / buddhi sAkSI bana rahI hai yA AtmA athavA cetanA sAkSI bana rahI hai| abhI to AtmA nAmaka cIz2a AI hI nahIM hai, abhI to hama kAyA kI anupazyanA kara rahe haiM, vedanAoM kI anupazyanA kara rahe haiN| saMbhava hai vaha mAnasika tala para ho yA bauddhika tala para ho yA caitanya tala para ho| jitanI bArIkI se hamArI pakar3a meM AegI hama utanA hI samajha paaeNge| __ Apa pUcha rahe haiM ki AtApI kA artha hai jo bhI pIr3A-darda uTha rahe haiM use sahana karate hue Age bar3hanA ! aisA nahIM hai| sAdhanA kabhI nahIM kahatI tuma duHkhoM ko sahana karo, darda ko sahana kro| sAdhanA batAtI hai tuma AtApI bana jaao| jaise hI tuma kAyAnupazyanA karane lagoge tumhAre zarIra ke darda apane-Apa hI miTane laga jaaeNge| agara ApakI kamara meM darda ho rahA hai to vahA~ anupazyanA kIjie aura taTastha bhAva se jAnie ki isa samaya yahA~ kAyA meM vedanA kA udaya hai| maiMne svayaM ne kaI-kaI bAra vedanAnupazyanA karate hue bhalIbhA~ti yaha jAnA hai, yaha pAyA hai 121 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ki vaha vedanA jo hameM prabhAvita kara rahI thI vilIna ho cukI hai| ho sakatA hai aMdara meM par3I huI ho, phira bhI banI rahe taba bhI usa samaya usake prabhAva vilIna ho cuke hote haiM aura usameM se Ananda dazA, sukhada dazA kA udaya hone lagatA hai / usa samaya hama dekhate haiM aba sukhada vedanAoM kA ahasAsa ho rahA hai| dhIre-dhIre dekhate haiM aba na sukhada hai na duHkhada hai, kevala mauna sAkSI hai, mauna taTastha hai, mauna jJAtA dRSTA hai| taba kevala darzana aura kevala jJAna raha jAtA hai / yahA~ para kevala darzana aura kevala jJAna vAlA vaha siddhAMta bIca meM na lAe~ jisakA matalaba hai sarvajJa ho jaanaa| bhUta, vartamAna, bhaviSya ko jAnane vAlA, sRSTi ke pratyeka rahasya ko jAnane vAlA ho gayA, aisA nahIM hai kevala darzana arthAt aba svayaM kA kevala darzana mAtra raha gayA hai, kevala jJAna arthAt aba kevala jJAna ho rahA hai, pratIti ho rahI hai na sukhada kI na duHkhada kii| jo hai asukhada-aduHkhada usakA jJAna ho rahA hai| mahAvIra kI paramparA meM to kevala darzana aura kevala jJAna ko bahuta ucca zreNI meM le jAyA gayA hai| lekina jaba hama ise apane sahaja sAdhanA mArga meM jor3ate haiM to kevala arthAt maatr| mAtra darzana aura mAtra jJAna hI aba hamAre bhItara zeSa hai / isI sAkSItva kI dazA se hI adRzya satya, astitva ke ajJAta rahasyoM ko jAnane kA rAstA khulatA hai| Age ke rAste kaise khuleMge vaha to vahA~ taka pahu~cane vAle sAdhaka ko patA clegaa| apUrvakaraNa kI jo sthiti hamAre bhItara ghaTita hogI, AThaveM guNa sthAna taka jaba sAdhaka pahu~cegA tabhI yaha bAta sadhegI / mahAvIra ne bhI apramatta guNa sthAna para jora diyA hai| Age kI ghaTanAe~ hI taba ghaTeMgI jaba tuma apramatta banoge, apane pramAdoM kA, apanI mUrcchAoM kA tyAga kroge| usa apramatta dazA ko AtApI hokara, saMprajJAnI hokara, sacetana smRtimAna hokara sAdhA jAe / usI se yaha guNa sthAna sdhegaa| zurU meM to abhyAsa karanA hI hogA, lekina jyoM hI abhyAsa gaharA hogA - cIz2a pakar3a meM A jaaegii| anupazyanA pahale caraNa meM abhyAsa hai, dUsare caraNa meM saMprajJAna hai / vedanAnupazyanA meM vedanA zuddha bhI hotI hai aura azuddha bhI / azuddha vedanAoM kA saMvedana hone para sAdhaka unheM bhalIbhA~ti jAnatA hai ki isa samaya kAyA meM azuddha vedanAoM kA udaya ho rahA hai yA isa samaya zuddha vedanAoM kA udaya ho rahA hai| zarIra meM hara samaya na to duHkhada aura azuddha vedanAoM kA udaya hotA hai aura na hI sukhada aura zuddha vedanAoM kA udaya hotA hai / jaisA ki abhI pUchA gayA thA 122 For Personal & Private Use Only

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guptAMgoM kI anupazyanA karanI cAhie yA nahIM ? to Apa jAnate haiM guptAMgoM meM hara samaya to vikAra nahIM rahA karatA / yaha to kabhI jaba usameM vikAroM kI pragAr3hatA hotI hai, taba patA calatA hai| hara samaya azuddha vedanAe~ hI nahIM hotIM zarIra meM zuddha vedanAe~ bhI hotI haiN| maiMne pahale hI kaha diyA hai ki guptAMgoM kI anupazyanA karanA ThIka nahIM hai, phira bhI agara ho jAtI hai, agara vahA~ dhyAna calA hI jAtA hai, vaha AkarSita kara hI letA hai taba use kevala eka aMga mAnakara anupazyanA kareM / deha ke anya aMgoM kI taraha vaha bhI eka aMga hI hai| usakI lahara meM baha na jaaeN| kabhI aisA bhI hotA hai jaba hama azuddha aura zuddha donoM se mukta ho jAte haiM, basa zuddha darzana ho rahA hai, zuddha jJAna ho rahA hai| vedanAnupazyI na kucha grahaNa karatA hai aura na hI kisI ko na grahaNa karane yogya samajhatA hai| vaha apanA sahaja jIvana jItA hai| saMsAra meM vihAra karatA hai, vedanAoM ke udaya-vilaya ko jAnatA hai| jo kAyAnupazyanA aura vedanAnupazyanA meM pAraMgata ho jAtA hai taba vaha cittAnupazyanA kI ora bar3hatA hai| citta ke sUkSma se sUkSma saMskAroM kA sAkSI honA zurU hogaa| pahale hama kAyA ke sthUla guNadharmoM se Upara uThe taba citta ke sUkSma guNadharmoM se uparata hone meM saphala ho paaeNge| Age hama dekheMge ki zrI prabhu hamAre sAmane cittAnupazyanA ke kaunase gUr3ha dvAra kholanA caaheNge| hama apanI anupazyanA ko dhIre-dhIre aura z2yAdA gaharI karate cale jaaeNge| Aja apanI ora se itanA hI nivedana hai| namaskAra! 123 Sain Education international For Personal Private leve ons For Personal & Private Use Only

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10 kaise kareM citta kI anupazyanA vigata kucha dinoM se hama vipazyanA ke, anupazyanA ke pavitra mArga kA avagAhana kara rahe haiN| anupazyanA ke marma ko samajhate hue ise apane jIvana ke sAtha sAdhate hue isake Thosa pariNAmoM ko upalabdha karane kA abhyAsa bhI kara rahe haiM, prayAsa aura puruSArtha bhI jArI hai| isI ke antargata AnApAna-yoga ko samajhane kA prayatna kiyA arthAt AtI-jAtI sahaja va naisargika zvAsoM para svayaM ko sacetana karane kA, samyak prakAra se usakA bodha karane kA, udaya aura vilaya ke marma ko samajhane kA prayAsa kiyaa| isake bAda anupazyanA kI gaharAI ko samajhate hue kAyAnupazyanA ke dvAra para pahu~ce arthAt kAyA meM hone vAle vividha prakAra ke upadrava, prapaMca aura isakI vibhinna sthitiyoM se vAqifa hone kA prayatna kiyaa| yaha bhI bhalIbhA~ti jAnane kI koziza kI ki yaha kAyA hai| 'maiM' na kAyA ha~, na 'merI' kAyA hai| kAyA ke sAtha hama logoM ne kevala taTastha, sAkSI bhAva aura dRSTA-bhAva ko prAthamikatA dene kA prayatna kiyaa| hamane kAyA ke sAtha 'maiM' aura 'mere' kA bhAva haTAte hue taTastha bhAva se use 124 For Personal & Private Use Only

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samajhane kA, use bhalIbhA~ti jAnane kA, bhalIbhA~ti saMprajJAna karane kA abhyAsa kiyaa| sAdhaka ko kisI bhI pariNAma taka pahu~cane ke lie, kisI bhI vilakSaNa phala ko prApta karane ke lie kevala dasa dina kI anupazyanA kara lene bhara se sAre pariNAma upalabdha nahIM ho jAte haiN| kyoMki hama sabhI ke bhItara janma-janmAMtara ke aise saMskAra haiM jo dasa dina kI anupazyanA meM samApta nahIM ho jAte / kucha sAdhaka apanI sAdhanA ke dvArA mAtra nau mAha meM apane pariNAma upalabdha kara lete haiM, kucha sAdhakoM ko savA varSa laga jAtA hai, kucha sAdhakoM ko pA~ca, sAta varSa laga jAte haiN| para eka bAta taya hai koI bhI sAdhaka lagAtAra sAta varSoM taka anupazyanA ke rAste para cala rahA hai to nizcita hI vaha apane mana aura kAyA ke vikAroM se, citta ke duHkha-daurmanasya se, vaira-virodha se mukta ho jaaegaa| vaha satya se sAkSAtkAra karegA, aura mukti tathA nirvANa tattva ke atyaMta nikaTa pahu~ca jaaegaa| hamane kAyA kI anupazyanA karate hue mana aura kAyA ke vikAroM ko zAMta aura samApta karane ke lie, unase uparata hone ke lie, unakI nirjarA karane ke lie kAyA kI alaga-alaga gaMdagiyoM ko bhI samajhane kA prayatna kiyaa| kucha sAdhaka aise haiM jo kAyA kI gaMdagiyoM ko samajhane mAtra se kAyA ke moha aura vikAroM se mukta nahIM ho pAe unake lie zmazAna taka kI sAdhanA bhI sahayogI bana jAtI hai, hamane yaha jAnA / hama sAmane jalatI huI lAzoM ko dekhakara kAyA ke marma ko samajha leN| hama sabhI gajasukumAla ke isa prasaMga se vAqifa haiM ki gajasukumAla saMnyAsa lete haiN| zmazAna meM cale jAte haiM aura vahA~ jalatI huI lAzoM ko dekhakara unheM apanI kAyA kI nazvaratA aura anityatA kA bodha hone lagatA hai| ve yaha saMkalpa karate haiM ki maiM Aja rAtabhara zmazAna meM khar3e rahakara sAdhanA karU~gA aura isa bIca cAhe jaise kaSTa A jAe, cAhe jaise upadrava ho jAe, cAhe jina prapaMcoM se gujaranA par3e, lekina apanI sAdhanA ko khaMDita nahIM hone duuNgaa| ___ gajasukumAla ne bhikSu-pratimA dhAraNa karate hue, aisI pratimA jisameM sAdhaka vicalita nahIM hogA cAhe usakI camar3I hI kyoM na udher3a dI jaae| jaise bAbA pharIda ne kabhI gAyA thA kAgA, yaha tana khAiyo cuna-cuna khAiyo mAMsa / do nainA mata khAiyo, piyA milana kI aas|| 125 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kyA patA aMtima ghar3I meM hI prabhu se milana ho jAe / to he kaue, tuma saba khA lenA para ina do A~khoM ko chor3a denA / prabhu mila jAe~ge to merA yaha balidAna bhI sArthaka ho jaaegaa| aisI sthiti usI vyakti ke jIvana meM ghaTita ho sakatI hai jisane apanI kAyA kI prakRti ko samajhA, usake guNa-dharmoM ko jAnA, kAyA kI nazvaratA ko jAnA aura antataH ve kAyA se mukta hue| deha meM rahate hue bhI jo dehAtIta rahate haiM ve hI sacce sAdhaka aura AtmajJAnI kahalAte haiM / pharIda jaise loga deha meM rahate hue bhI videha-sthiti ko sparza kara gae tabhI ve kauoM ke dvArA apanI deha ko cithar3e-cithar3e karavAne ko taiyAra ho ge| isI taraha gajasukumAla bhI saMkalpa lekara zmazAna meM khar3e ho gae ki kisI bhI sthiti-paristhiti meM vicalita nahIM hoNge| jaba gajasukumAla ne bhagavAna se isa prakAra kI anumati mA~gI to bhagavAna ne kahA thA- gajasukumAla ! Aja kI rAta tere jIvana kI kasauTI kI rAta hai| agara Aja rAta tuma saphala ho gae to kala kA prabhAta tumhAre jIvana ke samasta aMdhakAroM ko dUra kara degaa| muni gajasukumAla ne kahA- prabhu maiM ApakA ziSya hU~ aura aba cAhe jaisI paristhiti bana jAe maiM vicalita nahIM houuNgaa| duniyA meM duzmanoM kI kamI nahIM hai| gajasukumAla ke sira para miTTI kI pAla bA~dha dI jAtI hai| zmazAna meM aura kyA milegA, so vahA~ se jalate hue aMgAre uThAe aura sira para pAla meM rakha die / soceM vaha rAta kaisI bItI hogii| hamAre sAmane agara macchara A jAe yA cIMTI kATane lage to hama vicalita ho jAte haiN| kATane kI pIr3A bardAzta hI na hogI, turanta macchara ko ur3Ae~ge aura cIMTI ko httaaeNge| para ve rAta bhara jalate hae aMgAroM ko bardAzta karate rhe| khopar3I dhak-dhakkara jalane lagI, dhIre-dhIre pUrA zarIra jalane lgaa| rAtabhara gIdar3a, siyAra, bhAlU unakI deha ko nocane lage kyoMki ve to zava ke samAna khar3e hue the| sira para aMgIThI jala rahI thI, pA~voM ko pazu noca rahe the para vaha amara AtmA, kAyA ke upadravoM ko aMtima zreNI taka bardAzta karate rhe| vaha taba taka khar3e rahe jaba taka haDDiyoM kA DhA~cA apane Apa na gira gyaa| kAyA ke upadravoM ko aMtima zreNI taka sahana karanA, sahanazIlatA kI, sAmAyika kI parAkASThA hai| kAyA ko to eka-na-eka dina giranA hI hai yaha to maraNadharmA hai, para isa 126 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sthiti meM praveza pAne ke lie vyakti ko sAdhanA se gujaranA par3egA aura yaha sAdhanA hai - kAyAnupazyanA / pahale kAyA kI bhItara - bAhara kI avasthAoM ko samajheM, isake upadravoM ko samajheM aura mukti kA, mahAparinirvANa kA lakSya rakheM / tabhI to mahAvIra aura buddha jaise loga apane jIvana kI laukika, daivIya yA anya kisI prakAra kI bAdhA ko sahana kara pAte haiM / mukti kI pyAsa hone para behatara tarIke se saMprajJAna hogA, AtApI baneMge aura smRtimAna tathA sacetana hokara apanI sAdhanA meM gati aura pragati kara sakeMge / mukti ke premI hamane, karmoM se lar3ate dekhe| makhamala para sone vAle, kA~ToM para calate dekhe || sarasoM kA dAnA jinake, bistara meM bhI cubhatA thA / kAyA kI sudha nahIM, gIdar3a tana khAte dekhe / seTha sudarzana pyArA, rAnI ne phaMdA DAlA / zIla ko nAhIM chor3A, zUlI para car3hate dekhe || mahaloM meM rahate the jo, rAjA harizcandra vo / satya ko nAhIM chor3A, maraghaTa para bikate dekhe || ayodhyA nagara sajA thA, rAjyAbhiSeka racA thA / aise samaya zrI rAma, jaMgala meM jAte dekhe || aba to kucha soca le prANI, bItI jAe j'iNdgaanii| yauvana Ane se pahale, arthI para car3hate dekhe || karmoM se vahI lar3ate haiM, jo mukti ke premI haiM / mukti kI pyAsa ho, to paMkha khuda uga jAte haiM aura hama mukti ke AkAza meM ur3a jAte haiM / kAyAnupazyanA jamInI rAga ko, kAyA kI AsaktiyoM ko haTAne kA upakrama hai| aba hama kAyAnupazyanA se Age ke par3Ava pAra karate haiM / kAyAnupazyanA ke sAtha hama vedanAnupazyanA ko bhI samajha cuke haiM- sukhada vedanA, duHkhada vedanA, asukhada yA aduHkhada vedanA | vedanA arthAt ahasAsa | vedanA kA artha kevala pIr3A hI nahIM hai| vedanA kA artha hai anubhUti aura saMprajJAna kA artha hotA hai pratyakSa anubhUti krnaa| hama sabhI jAnate haiM ki jagata, kAyA, mana saba maraNadharmA haiM, eka-naeka dina sAre saMbaMdha TUTa jAne vAle haiM, phira bhI hama saMbaMdhoM ko nibhAte haiN| kyoM nibhAte haiM ? kahate to sabhI haiM - brahma satyaM jagata mithyA / lekina kahane vAle loga kyA haqIqata meM jagata ko mithyA mAna pAte haiM ? kyA brahma ko satya rUpa meM jIvana 1 For Personal & Private Use Only 127

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meM sthApita kara pAte haiM ? nahIM kara pAte ! kyoMki hama sabhI kevala zabdoM ke tala para hI jIte haiM aura bolane meM zAstroM ke vacanoM ko bolate haiN| saMprajJAna isIlie z2arUrI hai ki hama pratyakSa anubhUti meM jAneM ki kyA vAstava meM yaha jagata mithyA hai aura brahma satya hai| yU~ to sabhI jAnate haiM ki kAyA maraNadharmA hai, agara isa kAyA kI camar3I ko utAra diyA jAe to sabhI ke eka hI rUpa hote haiN| kahate haiM ki kAyA ko jalA diyA jAe to muTThIbhara rAkha hI milatI hai phira bhI jIvanabhara hara AtmavAdI, adhyAtmavAdI, brahmavAdI sabhI isa kAyA kA poSaNa karate rahate haiM. ise sa~vArate haiM, isake sukha ko sukha mAnate haiM, isI ke bhoga ko apane jIvana kA Ananda mAnate haiN| isIlie zrI prabhu kahate haiM AtApI honA jarUrI hai, saMprajJAna karanA z2arUrI hai| vAstavika rUpa se isa kAyA ke prati, isameM hone vAlI vedanAoM ke prati sacetana aura smRtimAna honA z2arUrI hai| jaba taka koI bAta Thosa anubhUti meM nahIM jAegI taba taka sArI bAteM Upara-Upara haiN| buddhimAna vyakti anupazyanA ke bAre meM bola to sakatA hai, samajhadAra aura buddhimAna anupazyanA ke bAre meM suna to sakatA hai lekina buddha meM aura buddhimAna meM farka hai| buddhimAna anupazyanA ke bAre meM kevala bolegA, socegA, lekina buddha usakI Thosa anubhUti kregaa| vyakti kA jJAna jaba taka Thosa anubhUti ke dharAtala se na guz2are taba taka jJAna kI sugaMdha na phailegii| __ dharma ke nAma para adhyAtma kI aura zAstroM kI jo U~cI-U~cI bAteM kI jAtI haiM, agara unameM se do pratizata bhI Thosa anubhUti nahIM huI to una kitAboM ko paDhakara rakhane kA koI matalaba nahIM hai| munijana aura saMtajana dhArmika sthaloM para baiThakara unakI carcA kara sakate haiM, pravacana de sakate haiM, para anubhUti ke nAma para zUnya / unake pAsa koI anubhava nahIM hai| maiMne sunA hai ki prAcInakAla ke sadguru ziSya ke jIvana ko badala diyA karate the| Aja kI tArIkha meM gurujana apane ziSya ko nahIM badala pAte / hA~, ve acche zabda kahakara, vairAgya kI bAteM karake eka vyakti ko saMta z2arUra banA sakate haiM, para usa saMta ko siddha banAnA unake vaza meM nahIM hai| kisI ko saMta banAnA AsAna hai, lekina siddha banAnA ? buddha ko buddhimAna banAnA AsAna hai, lekina buddhimAna ko buddha banAnA eka bar3I tapasyA hai, sAdhanA hai, cunautI hai| buddhi ke levala para U~cA uThAnA prophesara kA acchA kAma ho sakatA hai, eka philaoNsaoNphara bhI yaha kAma kara sakatA hai| para buddha banAnA tabhI saMbhava hai jaba svayaM sAdhaka, svayaM saMta, svayaM zramaNa, svayaM bhikSu usakI Thosa anubhUti kara cukA hai| 128 For Personal & Private Use Only

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vedanAnupazyanA Thosa anubhUti ke lie hai ki hama dhairya aura zAMtipUrvaka kAyA meM hone vAlI sukhada vedanA yA duHkhada vedanAoM ko bhalIbhA~ti samajheM aura saMprajJAna kreN| kisI ne pUchA hai ki kamara aura ghuTanoM meM hone vAlI saMvedanAoM kA ahasAsa to hotA hai, bAkI kA nahIM hotaa| yAda rahe zarIra meM kaI prakAra kI vedanAe~ uThatI haiM- tanAva, khiMcAva, dabAva, darda Adi kaI taraha kI duHkhada vedanAoM kA udaya hotA hai / isI taraha kabhI hamAre bhItara sukhada saMvedanAoM kA bhI udaya hotA hai, taba lagatA hai- Aja tana meM bahuta svasthatA hai, tAz2agI hai, Aja to kitane bhI kAma karane hoM, taiyAra haiN| jaba hamAre mana meM anukUla paristhitiyA~ hotI haiM hama rAgamUlaka pratikriyA karate haiM aura tanAva, ciMtA, krodha Adi ke samaya dveSamUlaka pratikriyA hotI hai| abhI taka hamane citta ko kAyA kI anupazyanA karane ke lie pUrNa sacetana nahIM kiyA, isalie hameM patA nahIM cala paataa| agara kAyAnupazyanA ko sAdhane kA pUrNa manoyoga se prayatna karate haiM to mAtra tIna dina meM hI pratyeka vedanA kA ahasAsa aura anubhava hone lagatA hai / cAra-pA~ca dina meM to sukhada - duHkhada ahasAsa ( feelings) spaSTa rUpa se hamArI anubhUti meM Ane lagate haiN| behatara hogA, hama mauna rakheM aura adhika se adhika kAyAnupazyanA-vedanAnupazyanA kareM - anubhUti ke dharAtala para utareM / yA ko hama anubhUti ke AdhAra para hI samajha sakate haiM / kAyA meM bhoga kI pravRtti paidA huI, kisake AdhAra para jAnA ? anubhUti ke dvArA hI jAnA jAtA hai / vikAramUlaka vedanA uThI ki nirvikAra vedanA uThI / vedanA hai to ahasAsa bhI hogA aura vedanA nahIM hai to ahasAsa bhI nahIM hogaa| ho sakatA hai zurU meM kisI vedanA kI Thosa anubhUti na ho, to yaha na samajhanA ki hamAre bhItara kisI taraha kI koI vedanA nahIM hai yA hama nirveda ho gae, nirvikalpa ho ge| abhI to hama pakar3a hI nahIM pAe haiN| lekina jaba hama sukhada aura duHkhada vedanAoM kI anubhUti karane laga jAte haiM to donoM ke prati apanA dRSTA - bhAva aura sAkSIbhAva sAdhane lagate haiM / dRSTA - bhAva bahuta mahattvapUrNa hai / sAdhaka ko apanI sAdhanA meM jisa eka cIz2a ko sAdhanA hai vaha hai- dRSTA bhAva / kyoM ? kyoMki hamAre bhItara rAgadveSa kI pratikriyA calatI rahatI hai hara samaya / jaise- bahuta garmI ho aura Apa sAdhanA kara rahe hoM to kisI sAdhaka-sAdhikA ke mana meM AtA hai - kAza, kUlara hotA / yaha kyA hai ? yaha rAga-dveSa mUlaka pratikriyA hai bhItara kI / hamArA mana, citta sakriya huA, vaha hameM preraNA de rahA hai ki kUlara kI ThaMDI havAoM kI 1 For Personal & Private Use Only 129

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vyavasthA kreN| yaha rAga-dveSa kI pravRtti paidA huI, mana ne pratikriyA de dii| yahIM se karma ke bIja utpanna hote haiN| ye pratikriyAe~ karma-bIja haiN| pratikriyA kahA~ se AtI hai- rAga-dveSa se / pala-pala hamAre bhItara rAga aura dveSa kI pravRttiyA~ paidA hotI rahatI haiN| rAga-dveSa ke binA to koI kriyA hI na hogI, gatividhi hI na hogI, kArya karane kI preraNA hI na jgegii| hama loga apane bhItara chipe hue rAgoM aura dveSoM ko samajheM / naisargika rUpa se rAga-dveSa panapate rahate haiN| rAga-dveSa se pratikriyA paidA hogI aura pratikriyA ke dvArA karma ke bIja bo die jAte haiN| isIlie z2arUrI hai ki sAdhaka dRSTA-bhAva ko prAthamikatA de| jaba vaha apanI kAyA ke bhItara saMvedanA kI, vedanA kI anubhUti aura anupazyanA kara rahA hai taba vaha rAga-dveSa se rahita hokara sacetana ke sAtha jAna rahA hotA hai ki kahA~ kyA ho rahA hai| sAdhanA ke anya mArga kisI AropaNa se jor3a sakate haiM, para yahA~ jo hai, jaisA hai usameM koI avarodha nahIM / jo hai, jaisA hai, vyakti usake prati sacetana, jAgarUka hotA hai aura unakA bhalIbhA~ti saMprajJAna karatA hai, samyak prakAra se unakA bodha prApta karatA hai aura jAnatA hai ki usakI kAyA aura citta kI kyA dazA hai| rAga-dveSa yA svayaM ke prati glAni nahIM kara rahA hai ki mere bhItara ye kaise ajIba aura vicitra se bhAva kyoM A rahe haiN| vaha svayaM ko zAMta, aura zAMta, aura sahaja banAne ke bhAva rakhatA hai| apane saMkalpoM ko aura maz2abUta karegA, apane saMprajJAna ko adhika-se-adhika gaharA karane kA prayatna karegA, dRSTA-bhAva ko pragAr3ha bnaaegaa| agara dRSTA-bhAva pragAr3ha nahIM hogA to anupazyanA ThIka se na ho paaegii| vedanAnupazyanA, kAyAnupazyanA karate hue hama idhara-udhara ho gae, vicAroM meM bhaTaka gae to sAdhaka jAna rahA hogA ki anupazyanA kara rahA thA aura yaha khaMDita ho gii| jo maiM svayaM ko jAna rahA thA vaha mere citta ke kisI saMskAravaza, kAyA ke kisI pratikUla upadrava ke kAraNa vaha anupazyanA bIca meM khaMDita ho gii| punaH punaH anupazyanA karU~gA, svayaM ko sahaja zAMti meM lAte hue phira se AnApAna-yoga karate hue apane citta ke hara saMskAra, hara upadrava, hara udayavilaya kA sAkSI hoU~gA / dRzyamAna kAyA meM hone vAle sUkSma-sUkSma zarIroM ke udaya, sUkSma-sUkSma saMskAroM ke udaya-vilaya ko vyakti dhIre-dhIre jAnane laga jAtA hai| na kevala jAnane lagatA hai balki usakI prakRti ko samajhate hue usakA sAkSI bhI hone lagatA hai| sAkSI hone ke sAtha-sAtha kAyA ke guNadharmoM se nirapekSa 130 For Personal & Private Use Only

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bhI ho jAtA hai aura mukta bhI ho jAtA hai / vedanAnupazyanA karate hue Aja hama jisa biMdu kI ora jA rahe haiM vaha aura thor3A- -sA bArIka rAstA ho gayA hai i pahale hamane sIdhe sar3aka para qadama rakhA thA, thor3I dera bAda bhItara kI galiyoM kI ora qadama rakhA thA, aba to hama lakar3I kI sIr3hI para A gae haiN| aba aura bArIka ho rahe haiN| pahalI thI kAyAnupazyanA, dUsarI thI vedanAnupazyanA aura tIsarI sIr3hI hai cittAnupazyanA / arthAt apane citta, apane mana kI anupazyanA karanA ! apane mana kA saMprajJAna karanA, bhalIbhA~ti apane citta kA darzana karanA / rAga-dveSa ke bhAva se mukta hokara, jo jaisA citta meM udaya hotA hai vaisA apane citta kA samyak darzana karanA / pahale caraNa meM hI koI sAdhaka apane citta kA darzana nahIM kara pAegA / do-tIna miniTa meM hI vaha apane mana ke pravAhoM meM bahakara kahIM aura pahu~ca jaaegaa| isIlie z2arUrI hai ki pahale vaha kAyAnupazyanA aura vedanAnupazyanA ko sAdhe / isalie sAdhe ki kAyA aura cit alaga-alaga nahIM haiN| citta meM uThatA hai, kAyA meM prakaTa hotA hai / citta meM koI taraMga paidA hotI hai aura kAyA meM usakI anubhUti hotI hai| bhUkha kise lagatI hai ? kAyA ko yA hamAre citta ko ? donoM tarapha se anubhUti prakaTa hotI hai / kAyA ko anubhUti hotI hai to vaha citta ke dvArA prakaTa hotI hai / aura citta meM koI cIz2a udaya hotI hai to vaha kAyA ke dvArA pragaTa hotI hai| citta aura kAyA eka-dUsare ke pUraka aura jur3e hue pahalU haiM / citta kI anupazyanA karake bhI hama kAyA aura vedanA kI hI anupazyanA kara rahe haiM / kAyA aura vedanA kI anupazyanA karate hue hama citta kI hI anupazyanA karane ke lie taiyAra ho rahe haiN| citta ke pudgala paramANu pUre zarIra meM vyApta haiM / mastiSka usakA kendra hai lekina prabhAva pUrI kAyA meM vyApta hai| isIlie zrI bhagavAna citta kI anupazyanA karane kI preraNA dete haiM / yaha tIsarA dharAtala hai| z2arUrI nahIM hai ki pahale Apa kAyAnupazyanA hI kareM, vedanAnupazyanA hI kreN| yadi Apa apane mana meM sahaja nirmalatA zAMti, saumyatA, saralatA mahasUsa karate haiM, kAyA ke satya ke bAre meM pahale se hI vAqifa ho cuke haiM to sIdhe citta kI anupazyanA kara sakate haiN| lekina agara aisA sambhava nahIM ho pA rahA hai to sAdhaka ko pahale sthUla tattva para jAgrata, sacetana, smRtimAna hokara usakA saMprajJAna karanA cAhie, usake bAda use bArIkI kI ora, sUkSmatA kI ora bar3hanA cAhie / citta hamArI kAyA kI sUkSma sthiti hai | For Personal & Private Use Only 131

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citta kI lagAtAra hone vAlI Thosa anubhUti kA nAma cittAnupazyanA hai| zrI bhagavAna kahate haiM jaba koI sAdhaka apane citta kI anupazyanA karane lagatA hai taba vaha dhIre-dhIre dhairyapUrvaka jAnane lagatA hai ki merA citta isa samaya rAgayukta hai athavA rAgayukta na hone para vaha bhalIbhA~ti jAnatA hai ki isa samaya citta vItarAga hai| citta ko jAnate hue vaha bhalI prakAra jAnatA hai ki citta dveSayukta hai aura dveSa ke na hone para vaha bhalIbhA~ti jAnane lagatA hai ki citta vItadveSa hai| jaba citta meM kalpanAe~ uThane lagatI haiM taba sAdhaka bhalIbhA~ti jAnane kA prayatna karatA hai yA jAnatA hai ki merA citta atikalpanAzIla hai athavA jaba citta zAMta lagatA hai taba vaha bhalIbhA~ti jAnatA hai ki citta saMkSipta hai, zAMta hai, sahaja hai, mauna hai| jaba citta vikSipta hotA hai taba sAdhaka bhalIbhA~ti jAnatA hai ki yaha citta kyA hai, eka pAgalapana hai, rAta-dina uThatA aura ghumar3atA rahatA hai| citta merA vikSipta hai| ___cittAnupazyanA karate hue lagatA hai ki 'merA' citta vikSipta hai, lekina jyoM-jyoM sAkSI bhAva pragAr3ha hotA hai, dRSTA-bhAva pragaTa hone lagatA hai, tyoM-tyoM lagatA hai 'citta' vikSipta hai| pahale to lagatA hai 'merA' citta vikSipta hai| pahale to 'merA' 'merI' kA bhAva prabala hotA hai, 'maiM' ko sukhada-duHkhada ahasAsoM kA anubhava hotA hai| lekina jaise-jaise dRSTA-bhAva pragAr3ha aura prakhara hotA jAtA hai taba lagatA hai yaha kAyA sukhada athavA duHkhada ahasAsoM se bharI huI hai| 'maiM' aura 'merA' donoM haTa jAte haiN| donoM hI lupta ho jAte haiN| pahale jAnane vAlI khuda kAyA hotI hai, citta yA antaramana hotA hai, lekina jyoM-jyoM dRSTA-bhAva pragaTa hotA hai, 'maiM' aura 'mere' kA bhAva bikhara jAtA hai| taba vaha dRSTA aura sAkSIbhAva se taTastha hokara kAyA ko kAyA ke rUpa meM jAnatA hai| anupazyanA kI vilakSaNa phalAnubhUti hai sAkSI-bhAva, dRSTA-bhAva / jaba taka dekhane vAlA alaga aura dRzya alaga nahIM hotA taba taka bAra-bAra anupazyanA karanI hotI hai| 'mere' bhItara nahIM, citta meM rAga kA udaya hotA hai kyoMki dRSTA ne dekha liyA, dRSTA ne citta ko jAna liyaa| 'maiM' citta nahIM kyoMki yaha jo pala-pala badalane vAlA hai kyA vahI 'maiM' hU~ ? agara yaha badalane vAlA 'maiM' ha~ taba to baMdara ho gayA, uchalakUda karatA rahatA hU~, palabhara bhI TikatA nahIM huuN| to phira 'maiM' kauna ha~ ? pahale-pahala to yahI lagatA hai ki pala-pala jo mana, citta, vicAroM ke nAma para badala rahA hai yahI maiM huuN| jyoM-jyoM dRSTA-bhAva, anupazyanA gaharI hotI hai tyoM-tyoM citta, mana aura vicAroM ko jAnane lagate haiN| 132 For Personal & Private Use Only

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patA calatA hai ki 'maiM' bhogI nahIM haiM, maiM yaha saMskAra nahIM haiM, krodhI nahIM haiM, ye saba to janma-janma ke saMskAra haiM, citta ke guNadharma haiN| roTI kI bhUkha lagatI hai to 'maiM' nahIM khAtA, yaha to kAyA meM AhAra nAmaka saMjJA kA udaya ho rahA hai| kAyA meM prabhAva uThegA tabhI citta meM aaegaa| lekina hama loga yaha jAnane kI koziza kara rahe haiM ki kAyA aura citta alaga-alaga nahIM haiN| kabhI citta kAyA ko prabhAvita karatA hai, kabhI kAyA citta ko prabhAvita karatI hai, donoM eka-dUsare se jur3e hue haiN| jaise ki pA~va meM kA~TA gar3A hai to hamArA dimAga vahA~ taka gayA nahIM hai, yaha to pUrA vyApta hai| jaise bijalI kA kanekzana hotA hai| svica kahIM cAlU karate haiM, balba kahIM aura jalatA hai| plaga meM agara galata tAra DAla diyA jAe to balba phyUz2a ho jaaegaa| senTara ko baMda kara deMge to yahA~ balba nahIM jlegaa| donoM eka-dUsare se jur3e hue haiN| isI taraha kAyA aura citta ekadUsare se jur3e haiN| kAyA citta kI qhabara detI hai to citta kAyA kii| ____ kAyAnupazyanA aura cittAnupazyanA karate hue jahA~ jo bhAva Ate haiM dUsarA usakI qhabara lAtA hai| cittAnupazyanA karane vAlA apane citta kI gatizIlatA aura zAMta sthitiyoM ko jAnane lagatA hai| citta samasyAoM se ghirA huA hai yA samAdhAnoM ko bhI sameTe hue hai| citta baMdhanayukta hai yA baMdhanamukta ? jaba taka dRSTA-bhAva nahIM AtA hama loga vicAroM ke dharAtala para calate rahate haiN| dRSTAbhAva ke Ate hI 'maiM' aura 'mere' kI Asakti bikhara jAtI hai aura anAsakti ke dharAtala se kaivalya kA, buddhatva ke kamala kA bIja aMkurita hone lagatA hai| Atmadarzana kI, buddhatva kI zuruAta kaba hogI, saMbodhi kA prArambha kaba hogA ? jaba anupazyanA karate hue anupazyanA karane vAlA pragaTa ho jAegA, taba kucha ho skegaa| tIna cIjeM haiM- jJAtA, jJAna aura jJeya / dRSTA, darzana aura dRzya / eka to jAnane vAlA hai, dUsarA vaha jise jAnA jA rahA hai, inake bIca meM tIsarA hai jJAna, jo anubhava ho rahA hai| dRSTA jo dekha rahA hai, dRzya jo dekhA jA rahA hai aura darzana ! dRSTA aura dRzya ke bIca kA jo saMbaMdha hai vaha darzana hai| jJAtA aura jJeya ke bIca meM jo anubhUti kA dharAtala A rahA hai vahI jJAna hai| citta kI anupazyanA karate hue apane mana ko bhalIbhA~ti samajhane kA prayatna karanA caahie| koI bhI mana se sApha svaccha yA kaheM ki dUdha kA dhulA nahIM hai| hama apane sArvajanika cehare ko (pablika phesa ko) kabhI kharAba nahIM hone deMge lekina bhItara se sAdhaka ko ImAnadAra rahanA cAhie aura apane citta kI dazA ko svIkAra bhI 133 For Personal & Private Use Only

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karanA caahie| jo hai so hai| isa sandarbha meM yaha punaH punaH anubhava kiyA jAnA cAhie jaba taka vaha vAstavika rUpa se dRSTA na ho jaae| hotA aisA hai ki vyakti sAkSI-bhAva ko Aropita kara letA hai| yaha mana ke tala para dekhanA hotA hai, buddhi ke tala para hotA hai| lekina jaba bhItara meM duHkhada aura sukhada donoM hI anubhUtiyA~ zAMta ho gaI haiM, aduHkhada aura asukhada vedanA vAlI sthiti A gaI hai, taba vyakti citta ke dharAtala para nahIM vAstavika rUpa se cittAnupazyI hotA hai| taba kisI bhI prakAra kA udaya-vilaya nahIM hotA aura vaha sAkSI-bhAva meM sthira ho jAtA hai| jaba taka maiM' aura 'mere' kA bhAva anubhUti ke dharAtala para AtA rahe taba taka sAkSI-bhAva ko Aropita sAkSI-bhAva samajhanA, lekina isa bhAva ke vilupta hote hI sAkSItva jagane lagatA hai| citta kI anupazyanA karane para, usakA avabodhana karane para citta apane-Apa hI zAMta ho jAtA hai, samAhita, sauttara, vimukta ho jAtA hai| rAga-dveSa yukta sthiti citta meM udaya ho sakatI hai, udaya hote hue dekhate bhI haiM, lekina citta ke dharma, isakI prakRti, isakI vyavasthAoM ko samajhakara inase prabhAvita aura prerita nahIM hote / vaha to citta ke saMprajJAna kI ora smRti rakhatA hai aura dhIre-dhIre zAMti AtI jAtI hai| isa bIca agara sAdhaka ko lage ki cittAnupazyanA karate hue citta bAra-bAra rAga-dveSa yukta pratikriyAe~ karane lagA hai, vicAradhArAe~, saMkalpa-vikalpa prabhAvita kara rahe haiM usa sthiti meM dasa-bIsa-pacAsa gaharI laMbI zvAsa lenI aura chor3anI caahie| taba zvAsoM ko maMda-mauna karate hue punaH cittAnupazyanA karane lgeN| dRSTA-bhAva itanA AsAna nahIM hai bhItara pragaTa honaa| dRSTA-bhAva ko pragaTa karane ke pUrva anupazyanA ko sAdhane ke lie dattacitta honA hogaa| anupazyanA ke na hone para dRSTA-bhAva Aropita ho sakatA hai| jo ho rahA hai usake prati sacetana hokara saMprajJAna kara rahe haiN| AropaNa nahIM kevala scetntaa| saMbhava hai yaha sacetanatA pahale mana ke tala para ho yA pahale citta ke tala para ho, yA pahale buddhi ke tala para ho ! merA anurodha hai yaha jisa tala para ho rahA hai, usI tala para hone diijie| Age kI cIz2oM ko zabdoM meM mata lAie, use khuda hI apane bhItara pragaTa hone diijie| jo hai, sAdhaka use svayaM jAne / kyoMki bauddha kahate haiM AtmA nahIM hai, jaina kahate haiM AtmA hai, veda kahate haiM saba kucha brahma hai| aba hama kisako mAneM ? kisakI bAta ko satya mAneM ? maiM to kahU~gA ki kisI kI bhI bAta 134 For Personal & Private Use Only

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ko satya aura asatya ke bIca meM mata laao| na satya hai, na asatya hai| satya isalie nahIM hai ki abhI hamane tInoM dharAtaloM ko nahIM jaanaa| aura asatya isalie nahIM hai ki abhI taka hama usa anubhUti taka pahu~ce hI nahIM haiN| isalie hama aba apane bhItara hI jAneMge ki kyA ho rahA hai, kisa dharAtala para sAkSI aura dRSTA ho rahe haiN| AtmA ke tala taka yA prabhu ke tala taka yA parAmana kI sthiti taka pahuMca rahe haiM ? citta ke tIna tala haiM- sAdhAraNa citta, avacetana citta aura parA citta yAnI sAdhAraNa mana, avacetana mana aura parA mana- ina tInoM alaga-alaga sthitiyoM meM hamArI gati kahA~ taka hai| yaha to satya se sAkSAtkAra kA mArga hai| isakA artha yaha nahIM hai ki hama kisI aura ke batAe rAste para caleM / satya se sAkSAtkAra ke lie to svayaM ko hI calanA hotA hai, bhItara Thosa anubhUti karanI hotI hai| kisI kI bhI vANI ko bIca meM nahIM lAnA hai| yaha bolanA aura batAnA to dIpa jalAne kI taraha hai / aisA kisI ne jAnA aura tuma bhI apane bhItara utaro, apane-Apa se mulAkAta karo aura apanI-apanI saccAiyoM se sAkSAtkAra kro| isIlie maiM punaH kahatA hU~ ki z2arUrI nahIM hai Apa ina saba bAtoM ko jie~ / jo hamAre anukUla hai, hamArI prajJA, hamArI pratijJA, hamArI medhA, hamArI buddhi meM jo bAta pakar3a meM A rahI hai, hama usI para kendrita ho paaeNge| jo bAta pakar3a meM hI nahIM A rahI, hama usa para kaise sthApita ho pAe~ge ? hama kevala apane mana aura citta ko smjheN| jIvana kI samasta gatividhiyoM kA AdhAra vyakti kA antaramana hai| usakI preraNA se hI hama samasta gatividhiyoM ko saMcAlita karate haiN| isalie z2arUrI hai ki vyakti ke mana kI dazA pariSkRta, sAtvika va nirmala ho| agara mana dUSita hai to preraNAe~ bhI dUSita uThegI aura kAma bhI dUSita kareMge / gA~dhIjI ke tIna baMdara sabako yAda haiM- burA mata dekho, burA mata suno, burA mata bolo, jabaki caMdraprabha ke cAra baMdara haiM aura yaha cauthA baMdara kahatA hai- burA mata soco| socane meM khoTa hogI to Age saba cIjeM khoTI hotI calI jaaeNgii| agara mana pariSkRta nahIM hai to jIvana kI sArI gatividhiyA~ bigar3atI calI jaaeNgii| mana kI ejeMsI ThIka honI caahie| indriyoM ke rAste taba ThIka se kAma kara skeNge| AdhAra mana hai| eka saMta hue : cakSupAla / aise mahAna saMta jinake lie kahA jAtA hai ki ve 135 For Personal & Private Use Only

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arhat avasthA ko upalabdha hue the| janmAMdha hone ke kAraNa unheM cakSupAla nAma milA / netrahIna cakSupAla rAste para cala rahe the, usI rAste se kucha cIMTiyA~ bhI cala rahI thiiN| unameM se eka cIMTI cakSupAla ke pA~va ke nIce Akara mara gii| ziSyoM ne bhagavAna se pUchA- bhagavan jaba cakSupAla ke pA~voM se cIMTiyA~ maratI haiM taba kyA unheM isakA doSa nahIM lagatA / jabaki ve to arhat kahalAte haiN| bhagavAna ne kahA- vatsa, hiMsA kA doSa mana ke AdhAra para lagatA hai| cU~ki arhat vyakti kA citta zAMta ho cukA hai, vimukta ho cukA hai, isalie citta ke pariNAma jaba taka hiMsA ke sAtha jur3e hue nahIM hoMge taba taka kisI bhI vyakti ko hiMsA kA doSa nahIM lgegaa| ziSyoM ne phira bhagavAna se pUchA- jaba cakSupAla ke bhItara arhat hone kI kSamatA hai taba yaha vyakti netrahIna kyoM hai ? bhagavAna ne kahA- yaha vyakti isalie netrahIna hai kyoMki isane apane pichale janma meM jaba vaha vaidya thA taba jAnabUjhakara eka strI kI A~kheM phor3a DAlI thiiN| usI karma ke udaya se Aja yaha netrahIna hai| sAdhakoM, smaraNa rakhanA jisa taraha bailagAr3I ke cakke baila kA anusaraNa karate haiM ThIka usI prakAra vyakti ke pUrva janmakRta karma usakA anusaraNa karate rahate haiN| bhale hI usa vyakti meM arhata hone kI kSamatA bhI ho ! cakke bailoM ko chor3akara kahIM aTakate nahIM haiM, kyoMki gAr3I bailoM se ba~dhI hai aura cakke gAr3I se ba~dhe haiN| kula milAkara saba eka-dUsare se ba~dhe hue haiN| mana hI samasta pravRttiyoM kA purodhA hai, aguA hai, vahI preraka hai| jaisI usase preraNA milegI vyakti vaisA hI kAma kregaa| isIlie mana jaba mAyUsa hotA hai to hamArI gatividhiyA~ bhI mAyUsI se bharI hoNgii| mana meM jaba gussA hotA hai to utsAha kAphUra ho jAtA hai, jaise-taise kAma karate haiM, isalie z2arUrI hai ki vyakti ke mana kI sthiti pariSkRta ho, zuddha aura sAtvika ho| jIvana meM mana ko daSita karane se baDhakara koI pApa nahIM hai aura mana ko saMskArita aura pariSkRta karane se bar3A koI dharma aura adhyAtma nahIM hai| mana ko nirmala karanA jIvana kI sabase bar3I tIrtha yAtrA hai| sAdhakoM kI ora se prazna pUchA jA rahA hai ki mana ko jar3a mAnA jAtA hai to use samasta pravRttiyoM kA AdhAra kaise mAnA jAegA? 136 For Personal & Private Use Only

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khayAla rahe, jaba taka jIvana meM cetana kA saMyoga hai taba taka koI bhI cIz2a jar3a nahIM hai| cetanA se alaga ho jAne para use hama jar3a kaha sakate haiN| koI paramparA ise jar3a mAnatI hai aura koI paramparA ise jar3a nahIM mAnatI, nirjIva nahIM maantii| yaha alaga-alaga paramparAoM kA khela hai| maiM kahanA cAhU~gA ki jaba hama anupazyanA aura satya kI Thosa anubhUti ke dharAtala para A gae haiM to sArI paramparAoM ko haTA deN| kauna kyA kahatA hai ise bhUla jAo aura khuda samajho, khuda jaano| agara maiM abhI bola rahA hU~ to vahI bolane kA prayatna kara rahA hU~ jo apane bhItara jAna rahA huuN| jo maiM kaha rahA hU~ use bhI Apa apanI anubhUti ke dharAtala para dekheM / Apa jo kara rahe haiM usakI preraNA Apako kahA~ se milatI haimana se yA kisI kitAba se ? kahA~ se milatI hai ? khuda kI anubhUti se jAno aura mAno, nahIM to pare haTA do / satya ke mArga para Aropita satya kA anukaraNa nahIM hotaa| satya ko isa bAta se koI sarokAra nahIM hotA ki tuma kisa mAnyatA ke ho, satya ko kevala satya se sarokAra hai| zAstra to kahate haiM- kartA-dhartA bhoktA saba AtmA hai| abhI to hama AtmA ko lA hI nahIM rhe| abhI to AtmA kA atA-patA hI nahIM hai| abhI to mana ke dharAtala ko samajha rahe haiM aura mana kI prakRtiyoM ko jAna rahe haiN| isalie mana para, citta para bola rahA huuN| hama isakI anupazyanA kara sakate haiN| AtmA kI anupazyanA kaise karoge ? jisakI anubhUti hI nahIM hai usakI anupazyanA kaise hogI ! AtmA arthAt hamAre bhItara jo caitanya tattva hai vaha prakaTa hogA taba patA calegA, yaha dRSTA-bhAva vAstavika taura para caitanya bhAva hai| Apa loga mana ko gauNa na kreN| mana kA zuddha honA isalie z2arUrI hai kyoMki hamArA pahalA satya mana meM hI chipA hotA hai, sArI preraNAe~ isI meM chipI rahatI haiN| isIlie mana kA ThIka honA z2arUrI hai| niyama, vrata, pratijJAe~ kitanI bhI le lI jAe~, lekina mana rAjI na ho to ? mana kI khoTa hI pratijJA lene ko prerita karatI hai varanA pratijJA kI kyA z2arUrata hai ? tapasyA karane vAloM se unake mana kI sthiti pUcho- kyA unakA krodha calA gayA ? mana kI khoTa jaba taka dUra nahIM hogI, taba taka kevala tana ko tapAnA hI huaa| tana dhoyA mana rahA achUtA- isa mana ko samajhane ke lie hI cittAnupazyanA kara rahe haiN| 'mahAsati paTThAna sutta' ke z2arie hama kisI bauddha zAstra kA pArAyaNa nahIM 137 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kara rahe haiN| hama loga koI bauddha nahIM haiM, jo isa zAstra kA ciMtana- -manana kara rahe haiN| balki guNAnurAgI banakara zAstra meM se kucha DhU~Dha nikAlane kI koziza kara rahe haiN| jisameM satya taka pahu~cane kA rAstA chipA hai, usameM se dasa pratizata bhI agara hama AtmasAta kara sakate haiM to vaha kisI bhI paMtha yA paramparA kA kyoM na ho, hama use dhAraNa kareMge, usakA anuzIlana kreNge| hA~, hama kisI kA aMdhasamarthana bhI nahIM kreNge| khuda jAneMge, khuda samajheMge aura Thosa anubhUti kareMge / anubhUti ke AdhAra para jo AegA svIkAra hai, jo nahIM AegA use iMkAra bhI kara deNge| sAra-sAra ko gahi rahe, thothA deya ur3Aya, saMbhava hai mahAsati paTThAna sutta meM bhI koI thothA ho aura ho sakatA hai isameM bahuta bar3A satya chipA huA ho / kaI bAra lakar3I kevala lakar3I lagatI hai lekina gharSaNa karane para usameM se bhI Aga sulaga jAtI hai / kAlA koyalA bhI hameM rozanI de detA hai, agni de detA hai, bhojana pakA detA hai / sakArAtmaka dekheN| agara hamArA mana nakArAtmaka hai to jIvana ke sAre pariNAma nakArAtmaka hoNge| aura mana ke sakArAtmaka hone para jIvana ke sAre pariNAma sakArAtmaka Ae~ge / citta meM prasannatA banAe rkheN| dUsaroM ke nimittoM ke AdhAra para apane citta ko prabhAvita na hone deN| jo ho rahA hai use hone deM, use lekara apane citta ko mAyUsa na kreN| kyoMki citta ke mAyUsa hote hI jIvana kI anya gatividhiyA~ bhI usase prabhAvita hone lagatI haiN| eka bAra aisA huA 1 eka mahA kaMjUsa vyakti kA beTA bImAra ho gayA / pitA itanA kaMjUsa ki usane apane beTe para kharcA nahIM kiyaa| beTA aura adhika bImAra hotA gayA, maraNAsanna ho gyaa| logoM ne kaha diyA ki aba yaha marane vAlA hai, ise palaMga se nIce utAra do / kaMjUsa ne socA ki mara gayA to ghara ke bartana, bistara saba dhone par3eMge to ghara ke bAhara le AyA, caukI para liTA diyaa| vaha tar3apa rahA thA / itane meM hI usane dekhA ki zrI bhagavAna AhAracaryA ke lie udhara se jA rahe haiM / unake zAMta tejasvI mukhamaMDala ko dekhakara vaha prabhAvita huA, A~kheM milIM, mana meM prasannatA chA gii| vaha socane lagA, 'maiM marane vAlA hU~ lekina prabhu terI kitanI kRpA ho gaI ki marane se pahale tumane mujhe eka mahAna satguru ke darzana karavA die / ' citta meM prasannatA chA gii| usake mana kI bhAva-dazAe~ atyanta nirmala ho gaIM aura isI bhAva - dazA ke sAtha usane apanI kAyA chor3a dI / 138 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kahate haiM kAyA chor3akara vaha Rddhi-siddhi sampanna devatA bana gyaa| devatA banakara vaha zrI bhagavAna kI sabhA meM upasthita huA aura vaha kRpaNa bhI; cU~ki usakA beTA mara gayA thA ataH vaha apane mana kI avasthAoM ko ThIka karane ke lie, bhagavAna ke pAsa phuNcaa| vahA~ usa Rddhi-siddhi sampanna vyakti ko dekhakara usane pUchA ki yaha kauna hai| patA calA ki usakA hI putra thaa| 'merA beTA, are usane to kabhI sau sonaiyoM kA bhI dAna nahIM kiyA, maiMne kabhI use eka paisA bhI dAna dene ke lie nahIM diyA, vaha marakara itanA mahAna devatA kaise bana gyaa| bhagavAna ne kahA- marane se pahale isake citta kI jo prasanna avasthA thI, sadguru ko dekhakara usake mana jo utkRSTa bhAvadazA banI thI vahI isake itane Rddhi-siddhi sampanna devatA banane meM sahAyaka huii| sAdhaka samajheM ki agara hama prasannacitta raheMge to sukha aura divyatA hamArA chAyA kI bhA~ti anusaraNa kreNge| hama mana ko pariSkRta kreN| isake lie cittAnupazyanA parama sahAyaka hai| Apa sabhI apane-apane citta ko bhalIbhA~ti samajheM aura ise pariSkRta, nirmala, saMskArita aura zuddha karane ke lie prayatnazIla ho sakeM, isI zubha bhAvanA ke sAtha namaskAra ! 139 For Personal & Private Use Only

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11 antardvandva se mukti svayaM se sAkSAtkAra karate hue jaise-jaise hama bhItara kI anupazyanA karate haiM vaise-vaise apanI isa kAyA kI saccAiyoM se vAqifa hote jAte haiN| sAdhanA kA majedAra kArya vyakti ko apanI isa sAr3he tIna hAtha kI kAyA meM hI karanA hotA hai| maMdira, masjida, gaMgAsnAna yA tIrthayAtrA ke lie jAnA ho to hameM kahIM bAhara jAnA hotA hai, kucha karanA hotA hai| lekina anupazyanA vaha sAdhanA hai jisake lie hameM kahIM jAnA nahIM, kucha karanA nahIM hai| varan hama jo jaise haiM, jahA~ haiM vahIM para svayaM se mukhAtiba honA hotA hai| jaise hama AinA dekhate haiM to svayaM ko hI dekhate haiM, khuda se hI muqhAtiba hote haiM vaise hI anupazyanA karane vAlA sAdhaka apane Apa se rUbarU hotA hai| basa sahaja avasthA meM apanI kamara aura rIr3ha ko sIdhI rakhakara baiThatA hai, apanI smRti ko apanI nAsikA pradeza para kendrita karatA hai aura apane zvAsozvAsa para dhyAna karate hue apanI kAyA aura jIvana ke prati jAgarUka hotA hai, sacetana aura prajJAzIla hotA hai| apanI buddhi, medhA, pratibhA aura jAgarUkatA ko apane sAtha lagAtA hai| 140 For Personal & Private Use Only

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jaba zrI bhagavAna kAyA kI bAta karate haiM to mAnakara caleM ki yaha kAyA hI hamArA jagata hai, jIvana kA AdhAra hai| hamAre sAre adhyAtma kA rahasya isa kAyA rUpI loka meM hI vyApta hai| isa kAyA ke alAvA hamArA koI astitva nahIM hai| mAnA ki kAyA anitya hai, asthira hai, nAzavAna hai para isa nAzavAna ke bhItara hI to avinAzI rahatA hai, anitya ke bhItara hI nitya rahatA hai / taba jIvana kyA haiyaha zarIra aura AtmA kA khela hai, nazvara ke bhItara virAjita anazvara kA khela hai| jaise ghar3I hotI hai| ghar3I eka tattva hai aura ghar3I ke bhItara pratipala jo dhar3akana cala rahI hai, gati ho rahI hai, jo parivartana ho rahA hai, jo sakriyatA dikhAI de rahI hai, phira bhI hara pala vakta Age se Age bar3hatA jA rahA hai| aisA hI hama sabhI ke jIvana meM ho rahA hai| sA~sa cala rahI hai, dila kI dhar3akana cala rahI hai| isI tarIke se samaya bhI Age jA rahA hai| zarIra aura AtmA do bhinna aura do abhinna tattva haiN| jaise ghar3I aura isameM calane vAlI vyavasthA do bhinna tattva bhI haiM aura abhinna tattva bhI haiN| hama unheM alaga kara nahIM skte| sAdhaka apanI bheda-vijJAna kI dRSTi se ki zarIra alaga aura AtmA alaga, jAna sakatA hai, samajha sakatA hai| ____ hamane abhI taka anupazyanA ke siddhAMta ko samajhate hue, anupazyanA kI sAdhanA ko samajhate hue zvAsa para dhyAna kiyA hai, isa para smRtimAna aura jAgarUka hone kA abhyAsa kiyA hai| kAyAnupazyanA ke dvArA hamane kAyA ke vibhinna guNadharmoM para sacetana banane kA abhyAsa aura prayAsa kiyA hai| sAtha hI kAyA meM hone vAlI viziSTa vedanA aura saMvedanAoM para, usake qhAsa-qhAsa ahasAsoM para svayaM ko jAgarUka karane kA abhyAsa kiyA hai| vedanA aura saMvedanA ke AdhAra para hI hama kAyA kI aura kAyA ke aMgoM kI anubhUti karate haiN| ye saba abhinna, eka-dUsare se jur3e hue tattva haiN| vedanA arthAt kAyA kI jo phIliMgsa haiM unakI Thosa anubhUti karate haiN| kAyA kI anupazyanA karate hue jaba hama kAyA ko samajhate haiM, usakI bArIkiyoM ko samajhakara hI kAyA meM uThane vAlI vedanA, isakI jIvanI-zakti, kAyA kI UrjA, saMvedanA, anukUlapratikUla guNadharmoM ke AdhAra para hI hama kAyA ko jAnate haiN| jaba hama yaha saba kara rahe hote haiM taba eka aura tattva hotA hai jo inakI anubhUti karatA hai, inake sAtha lagA rahatA hai, inakA sahayogI hotA hai vaha hai hamArA citta, hamArA mana / pahale pahala sIdhe-sIdhe rUpa meM koI bhI vyakti apane citta se mukhAtiba nahIM ho 141 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sakatA hai kyoMki citta pakar3a meM hI nahIM aataa| jaise AsamAna meM calane vAlI havAe~ pakar3a meM nahIM AtIM phira bhI hameM anubhUti hotI hai| sAgara meM uThane vAlI lahareM hameM dikhAI to detI haiM para koI lahara pakar3a meM nahIM AtIM, aise hI hamAre citta kI dhArAe~ bhI sIdhI hamArI pakar3a meM nahIM aatiiN| lekina kisI bhI sAdhaka ko citta ke darzana karane hoM, citta ke prabhAvoM ko samajhanA ho ki kisa taraha hamArA citta udvelita karatA hai, to hameM sIdhe citta se mukhAtiba hone ke bajAya apanI kAyA se mukhAtiba honA caahie| jaba hama sthUla meM hone vAlI vedanAsaMvedanA ko samajheMge, unake sAkSI ho jAeMge, unake prati sacetana ho jAe~ge taba hI citta ke prati jAgarUka aura sacetana hone kA avasara aaegaa| prArambha meM sIdhA citta se mukhAtiba hone para asaphalatA hAtha laga sakatI hai| isIlie citta taka pahu~cane ke lie do paddhatiyA~ calatI haiM- eka hai- kAyA, kAyA ke aMga, kAyA kI vedanAoM para jAgarUka honA aura dUsarI hai- kAyA meM sthita SaTcakroM (mUlAdhAra, svAdhiSThAna, maNIpura, anAhata, vizuddhi aura AjJA-cakra) para vyakti svayaM ko sacetana kare, jAgarUka kre| ina chaH cakroM ko jAnate hue, samajhate hue, bhalIbhA~ti Thosa anubhUti karate hue jaba vaha chaThe cakra para pahu~catA hai taba kaha sakate haiM ki aba vaha apane citta se mukhAtiba ho sakatA hai, vahA~ kI anupazyanA kara sakatA hai| isake atirikta anya koI sAdhanA paddhati ho hI nahIM sakatI hai, phira cAhe usakA nAma kucha bhI kyoM na ho| yA to sAdhaka kAyA kI vedanA-saMvedanA, kAyA ke aMga, kAyA meM hone vAle anukUla-pratikUla guNadharmoM ke prati jAge yA phira zarIra meM sthita SaTcakroM para jAge / antataH to hameM citta kI anupazyanA hI karanA hai / pahu~canA bhI citta-zuddhi kI ora hI hai| citta kI zuddhi, antaramana kI zuddhi, antaramana se sAkSAtkAra, antaramana ke satya se sAkSAtkAra sAdhaka ke lie bahuta sahaja yA AsAna nahIM hai| mahAvIra ko, buddha ko varSoM-varSa tapasyA karanI par3I, jaMgaloM meM rahanA par3A to isIlie ki ve apane citta kI anupazyanA, citta kI zuddhi, citta se sAkSAtkAra ke lie hI prayatna karate rhe| dhyAna rahe unhoMne bhI sIdhe-sIdhe citta se sAkSAtkAra nahIM kiyA hogaa| unhoMne citta para Tikane ke lie kinhIM aura biMduoM ko bhI mAdhyama banAyA hogaa| mahAvIra kabhI nadI kinAre, kabhI jharane ke pAsa jAkara baiTha jAte the aura vahA~ calatI-phiratI, uThatI-giratI laharoM para dhyAna dharate the| kabhI per3a ke pattoM para trATaka karate, kabhI dIvAra para ekaTaka dekhane lagate / vyakti ko jitanI 142 For Personal & Private Use Only

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samajha sAdhanA kI hotI hai utanI paddhatiyA~ vaha apane jIvana ke sAtha jor3atA hai| ye bAhara ke trATaka ekAgratA banAne ke lie haiN| antataH to vyakti ko apane bhItara hI utaranA par3atA hai| apanI-apanI sthApanA ke lie sAdhanA-paddhati ke alaga-alaga nAma die jAte haiM, anyathA AkhirakAra yaha kAyA hI hai jisake mAdhyama se, jisa para dhyAna kiyA jAtA hai| phira cAhe SaTcakroM para dhyAna ho ki pUrI kAyA para ki hRdaya para yA AjJA cakra para yA o'ma, so'ma para dhyAna kara lo, kula milAkara calanA-phiranA isa kAyA meM hI hai| sAr3he tIna hAtha kI isa kAyA meM hI hamArA sArA satya samAhita hai| hamAre sAmane yaha satya sthApita ho jAnA cAhie ki- terA tero pAsa hai apane mAMhI TaTola / kabIra ne kahA thA- maiM to tere pAsa meM- jo kucha hai vaha tumhAre hI pAsa hai yahA~ taka ki prabhujI tumhAre hI pAsa meM hai| isIlie ve kahate haiM- kastUrI kuNDala basai, mRga DhU~Dhe vana mAhI- saba tumhAre hI pAsa hai| isa kAyA ke aMdara hI, bAhara kahIM bhaTakane kI z2arUrata nahIM hai| hamArI jo bhI z2iMdagI hai cAhe zAstra use nazvara yA anazvara kahe, cAhe koI hameM krodhI kahe yA bhogI, hamAre jo bhI guNa-durguNa-sadguNa haiM sAre isa kAyA ke irda-girda hI vyApta haiN| hamArA samAja, saMbaMdha, patnI, mA~-bApa, bhAI-bahana ye saba kyA haiM, isI kAyA se jur3e hue rizte haiN| kAyA arthAt jIvana ! jIvana kA eka aMga kAyA bhI hai, citta bhI hai| citta se sAkSAtkAra karane ke lie kAyA se sAkSAtkAra karanA z2arUrI hai| citta aura kAyA alaga-alaga nahIM haiN| citta hamAre jIvana kA abhinna aMga hai| yaha mastiSka kA hI eka hissA hai, mastiSka kI UrjA hai, vidyuta taraMga hai| yaha citta mastiSka meM hI rahatA hai aura mastiSka kAyA meM rahatA hai| isalie citta aura mana kAyA se bhinna nahIM hai aura na hI hamArI kAyA mana se bhinna hai| jo citta meM uThegA vaha kAyA meM bhI utthegaa| jaba citta aura cetanA kI bAta uThatI hai to jAna leM ki citta kAyA kA hissA hai aura cetanA hamArI kAyA ko UrjA detI hai| citta, cetanA, kAyA saba eka-dUsare se ghule-mile tattva haiN| aise hI jaise indradhanuSa ke rNg| citta, mana, buddhi, kAyA, ahaMkAra Adi indradhanuSa ke raMgoM kI taraha saba eka-dUsare se ghule-mile haiM, koI kisI se svataMtra nahIM hai, saba eka-dUsare ko prabhAvita karate haiM / kAyA AtmA ko prabhAvita karatI hai, AtmA kAyA ko prabhAvita karatI hai| hama to svayaM se mukhAtiba hoM, bAkI sAre zabdoM ko haTA deN| aura dekheM ki kyA haiM hama ! kyA hU~ maiM ! 143 For Personal & Private Use Only

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kAyA kI anupazyanA karane vAlA vyakti citta kI anupazyanA karane meM bhI saphala hotA hai / jo zvAsa para sacetana nahIM ho pAtA vaha kAyA para kaise jaga paaegaa| jo kAyA meM nahIM jaga sakatA, vaha isameM hone vAlI vedanA-saMvedanAoM para kaise jaga sakegA, unheM vaha kaise pahacAna sakegA, kaise pakar3a skegaa| jo sthUla para hI sacetana nahIM ho sakatA vaha apane antaramana kA sAkSAtkAra kaise kara pAegA ? kyoMki hamAre citta ke vicitra dharma haiN| kAyA to kAlI yA gorI jaisI bhI hai jIvana bhara vaisI hI dikhAI degI, lekina hamArA citta, hamArA mana ? mana lobhI mana lAlacI mana caMcala citacora / mana ke mata calie nahIM, palaka-palaka mana aur|| hama isa mana ke anusAra na caleM / yaha to pala-pala meM badalatA rahatA hai| yaha citta bahuta vicitra hai| kahate haiM zrI bhagavAna pUrNimA ke dina Tahalane ke lie nikle| unake sAtha megha nAmaka ziSya bhI calA / bauddha zAstroM meM use meghIya ke nAma se jAnA jAtA hai| sAtha meM Tahala hI rahe the ki meghIya ne kahA- merI icchA kahIM aura Tahalane kI hai, isalie maiM jAtA hai| bhagavAna ne kahA- tumhArI jAne kI icchA hai, tuma cale jAnA, lekina abhI maiM akelA hU~, jaba koI anya bhikSu A jAe taba tuma cale jaanaa| nahIM prabhu, maiM to abhI jAU~gA- meghIya ne khaa| bhagavAna ke manA karane ke bAvajUda agara vaha jAnA jAhe to jaae| bhagavAna ne punaH kahA ki ucita yahI hai ki koI dUsarA bhikSu A jAe taba tuma cale jaanaa| para usane nahIM sunI aura vaha calA gyaa| sA~jha ke samaya jaba lauTakara AyA to kahane lagA- Aja merA citta nahIM lgaa| jaba maiM yahA~ thA taba bhI nahIM laga rahA thA aura jahA~ calA gayA vahA~ bhI merA citta nahIM lgaa| taba bhagavAna ne bhikSuoM se kahA- icchAcArI nahIM honA cAhie / sAdhakoM ! citta caMcala hai, citta kSaNika hai, isakA damana hI sukhadAyaka hai| isakA bhoga kabhI bhI sukhadAyaka nahIM hotA / isalie tuma apane citta para vijaya prApta karo aura icchAdhArI banane kI bajAya anuzAsanacArI banane kA prayatna kro|| jo vyakti apane mana ke anusAra hI calatA-phiratA rahatA hai, vaha kahIM bhI nahIM pahu~ca sakatA / isIlie jIvana meM guru kI AvazyakatA hai| citta ke damana ke lie, citta ke zamana, anuzAsana, citta para vijaya prApta karane ke lie guru sahAyaka hai| guru vyakti ko svecchAcArI nahIM banane detaa| samaya-samaya para vaha 144 For Personal & Private Use Only

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aMkuza lagAtA rahatA hai, tAki ziSya maryAdA meM rahe, niyaMtraNa meM rhe| jarA soceM ki jo vyakti bAhara meM hI niyaMtraNa meM nahIM raha sakatA vaha citta ko apane niyaMtraNa meM kaise rakha pAegA ! jaba hama apane vacana, vicAra aura vyavahAra ko hI apane niyaMtraNa meM nahIM rakha sakate taba sAdhanA-mArga kA kyA artha ? kabhI rAjula ne rathanemi se kahA thA- he rathanemi, agara hama loga rahaTa kI taraha (kue~ para rahaTa jisa para rassI calatI hai) yU~ hI asthira bane raheMge to sAdhanA-mArga para kaise sthira ho paaeNge| abhI kucha khAne ko cAhie, ki abhI kahIM jAne ko cAhie, abhI kucha bhogane ko cAhie, abhI kucha aura prApta karane ko cAhie, isI taraha aura-aura kI cAhata meM mana ko bhaTakAte raheMge, citta ko idhara-udhara DolAte raheMge to apane citta ko kaise sAdhege ? isa para kaise vijaya prApta kareMge ? auroM para vijaya prApta karanA AsAna hotA hai para svayaM para vijaya prApta karanA atyaMta kaThina hai| haz2AroM-haz2Ara yoddhAoM para vijaya prApta karane kI apekSA eka apane para vijaya prApta karanA adhika zreSTha hai| jo nirvANa kA sAkSAtkAra karanA cAhatA hai, satya se sAkSAtkAra karanA cAhatA hai, jo apane citta meM calane vAlI rAga-dveSa kI pratikriyAoM se mukta honA cAhatA hai, aise hara sAdhaka svayaM ke prati apanI jAgarUkatA ko sAdhe, svayaM ke prati svayaM ko sacetana kre| phira cAhe vaha kAyA ke aMga-pratyaMga para yA kAyA kI vedanA-saMvedanAoM para yA kAyA ke SaTcakroM para svayaM ko sacetana aura kendrita kare / cAhe jisa rUpa meM kare, para kAyA meM utarakara vaha svayaM se hI sAkSAtkAra kara rahA hai| kAyA ke bAda usake sAmane sabase bar3A tattva 'citta' A khar3A hogA / kyoMki vaha jo bhI karatA hai citta se prerita hokara hI karatA hai| jIvana ke samAdhAna bhI citta se hI prerita hote haiN| vyakti svayaM hI samasyA hai aura samAdhAna bhI hai| anupazyI sAdhaka apane citta kI sthitiyoM ko pahacAnane lagatA hai ki yaha zAMta hai athavA azAMta, vikSipta hai yA saMkSipta, moha meM pha~sA hai yA nirmohI hai, samasyAoM ke makar3ajAla meM ulajhA hai yA sahaja saumya zAMta samAdhAna meM hai| vaha jAnane lagatA hai ki usakA citta baMdhanoM se ghirA hai yA mukta hai, udvelanoM se bharA hai yA zAMta hai, sarovara kI bhA~ti hai yA sAgara jaisI uttAla taraMgoM se taraMgita hai| jo sAdhaka bhalIbhA~ti apane citta kI sthiti jAnatA hai vaha na to kucha grahaNa karatA hai aura na hI kisI ko tyAga karane yogya samajhatA hai, jo kucha hotA hai usakA sAkSI, dRSTA hotA hai| 145 For Personal & Private Use Only

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sAkSI-bhAva ke, dRSTA-bhAva ke gahana hone se kAyA ke prabhAva apane-Apa zAMta, vilIna hote jAte haiM aura sAkSI dRSTA kAyA ke prabhAvoM se mukta ho jAtA hai| kAyA ke, citta ke guNadharmoM se mukta honA sahaja nahIM hai| kyA krodha karake Aja taka koI krodha se mukta ho pAyA hai, bhoga karake kyA koI bhogoM se mukta ho pAyA hai ? krodha karane se vyakti marakara caNDakauzika banatA hai aura bhogoM se gujarakara vyakti yayAti bana jAtA hai lekina taba bhI mukta nahIM ho paataa| jaba vyakti sAkSI-bhAva ko, dRSTA-bhAva ko sAdhane lagatA hai taba vaha dhIre-dhIre kAyA aura citta ke guNadharmoM ko dhIre-dhIre bArIkI se samajhane lagatA hai| taba usakA eka hI bhAva, eka hI lakSya, eka hI dhAraNA hotI hai ki maiM kevala sAkSI ha~, apane dRSTA-bhAva ko sAdha rahA hU~ aura jAna rahA hai ki jo udaya meM A rahA hai vaha kAyA kA dharma hai, citta kA dharma hai| vaha merA dharma nahIM, vaha maiM nahIM huuN| anAsakti carcAoM meM nahIM sadhatI, pravacanoM se, zAstroM ko par3hane se nahIM sdhtii| anAsakti ke phUla taba khilate haiM jaba sAdhaka svayaM kI vastusthitiyoM se vAkifa hotA hai aura svayaM ko jAnane lagatA hai| merA moha kinase aura kahA~ hai, kahA~ ulajhA hU~, kina cIjoM se mukta hU~, maiM kauna hU~, maiM kahA~ se AyA hU~, maiM kahA~ jAU~gA, maiM jinase ba~dhA hU~ unake baMdhana kyA mere lie ucita haiM, kauna-se baMdhana mujhe rakhane haiM aura kina baMdhanoM kA mujhe tyAga karanA hai| sAdhaka hI ina cIz2oM kA nirNaya kara sakatA hai| hara vyakti roja apane nae saMbaMdha banA rahA hai| jo sAdhaka haiM aura sAdhanA mArga para cala rahe haiM unheM socanA hogA ki ve kina saMbaMdhoM ko banAe rakheM aura kina saMbaMdhoM ko tyaageN| saMbaMdha bhI eka parigraha hai| agara mahAvIra kahate haiM ki aparigraha kA aMkuza hara vyakti ke jIvana meM honA cAhie to hameM yAda rahe ki paricaya bhI eka parigraha hai| jaise adhika sAmAna kA, vastuoM kA, dhana, z2amIna, z2AyadAda kA parigraha vyakti kI AtmA ke lie bojha hai vaise hI ati paricaya bhI parigraha hai, bojha hai, thakAne vAlA hai| isalie vyakti kisI vyakti ke sAtha maitrI na sAdhe, kisI vastu ke sAtha maitrI na sAdhe, vaha vizva-maitrI sAdhe / perA prema sabake lie hai jo sAmane A gayA ve sabhI mere prema ke pAtra haiN| vyakti se kiyA gayA prema rAga ho jAtA hai, moha bana jAtA hai| isalie sAdhaka jo citta ke rAga-dveSa se mukta honA cAhatA hai vaha vyakti ke rAga se Upara uThakara vizva-maitrI ko apane jIvana kA dharma bnaae| vizva-prema yAnI sabase prema, sabakI sevaa| aisA nahIM ki kevala 146 For Personal & Private Use Only

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mAtA-pitA kI sevA, pati yA patnI, baccoM kI sevA balki jise bhI AvazyakatA hai sabakI sevaa| naMdISeNa muni kI taraha vaha sabakI sevA kregaa| madara TeresA kI taraha vaha sabake kalyANa kI prArthanA kregaa| agara hama TeresA ko mA~ kahate haiM to vaha kisI vyakti vizeSa kI mA~ to nhiiN| vaha to hajAroM-lAkhoM logoM kI mA~ bana gii| unhoMne vizva-maitrI ko sAdha liyaa| sabake lie sukha zAMti kI prArthanA hai, sabake kalyANa kI prArthanA hai| 'sabase prema, sabakI sevA' acchA siddhAMta hai| moha, vikAra, dveSadaurmanasya se Upara uThane ke lie yaha eka divya siddhAMta hai| hama apane antaramana kI sthiti smjheN| hamArI buddhi, ahaMbhAva, 'maiM' aura 'mere' kA mamatva sabhI isI citta se jur3e haiN| mastiSka kAyA kA vizeSa hissA hai, citta bhI isI kA eka hissA hai, eka ilekTrIsiTI hai| buddhi bhI isI kA hissA hai, mana, vicAra, krodha, bhoga ke bhAva, udvelana aura zAMti sabhI isameM sAkAra hote haiN| dhyAna karate hue jaba svayaM ko sujhAva dete haiM ki maiM apane citta ko zAMta kara rahA hU~, ....zAMta kara rahA hU~, rilaiksa kara rahA hU~ taba hama kevala kAyA ko hI rilaiksa nahIM karate, kAyA ke sAtha-sAtha hamAre citta kA, buddhi kA, mana kA bhI rilaiksezana hotA hai| ve bhI ArAmamaya ho rahe haiM, ve bhI tanAvamukta ho rahe haiN| kAyA aura citta yA kAyA aura mana alaga-alaga nahIM haiN| jaise zarIra ke anya aMga haiM vaise hI mastiSka bhI kAyA kA eka aMga hai| hama sabhI apane citta/mana ko dekheM aura isameM bharI huI vicAradhArAoM se khinna na hoM, varan svayaM ko samajheM aura dhairyapUrvaka ise jAnane kI koziza kreN| sAdhaka ko kevala dhairya rakhanA hogA tabhI citta kI anupazyanA kI jA sakegI, tabhI kAyA ko bhItara hI bhItara samajha skeNge| adhIra hone se kAma na clegaa| dhairya, sahanazIlatA z2arUrI hai| hamArI jitanI kSamatA hai usase kahIM adhika dhairya kI AvazyakatA hai| citta kyA hai ? buddha kahate haiM- citta kSaNika hai, isakA damana hI sukhadAyaka hai| citta kyoM kSaNika hai ? kyoMki yaha kabhI sthira nahIM rhtaa| kSaNa meM yahA~ aura kSaNa meM vahA~ ho jAtA hai, patA bhI nahIM calatA kaba yaha gulAMce lagAne lagatA hai| yaha dhyAna meM baiThA-baiThA na jAne kahA~-kahA~ calA jAtA hai| loga kahate haiM ki kAyA kSaNabhaMgura hai| phira bhI cAlIsa-pacAsa sAla to Tika hI jAtI hai para mana kSaNa-kSaNa meM badalatA rahatA hai| isalie citta sarvAdhika nAzavAna hai| isalie kabhI isake anuyAyI na baneM / kabhI bhI citta ke pravAha meM na bahate rheN| 147 For Personal & Private Use Only

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yaha kabhI krodha karatA hai, kabhI rAga isalie isakI bAtoM meM na aaeN| pala meM prema karatA hai aura pala meM nirmoha ho jAtA hai- isakA kucha patA nahIM ki isakA kaba kyA rUpa hogaa| yaha giragiTa kI taraha hai- raMga badalatA rahatA hai| eka jhena kahAnI hai- eka guru ke do vidyArthI kisI maMdira ke bAhara baiThe the ki eka kI naz2ara maMdira ke zikhara para calI gii| usane dUsare se kahA- dekho, dekho jhaMDA hila rahA hai, maMdira kI dhvajA Dola rahI hai| dUsare ne kahA- nahIM bhAI, dhvajA nahIM havAe~ Dola rahI haiN| maMdira kA jhaMDA nahIM, havAe~ hila rahI haiM, isalie jhaMDA hila rahA hai| tabhI unake guru A ge| unhoMne kahA- vatsa, na to jhaMDA hila rahA hai aura na hI havA Dola rahI hai, saccAI yaha hai ki citta Dola rahA hai, jo kabhI yaha aura kabhI vaha kahatA hai| citta kA dharma hI caMcalatA hai| isalie citta kA zamana sukhadAyaka hai, citta para vijaya prApta karanA hI sukhadAyI hai, citta ko zAMta karanA hI maMgalamaya aura kalyANakArI hai| to pahalI bAta haI ki citta kSaNika hai| dUsarI bAta yaha ki citta kA dharma kyA hai ? yaha parivartanazIla hai| yaha kabhI eka jaise rUpa ko lie hue nahIM rhtaa| yaha kSaNika hai, isIlie parivartanazIla hai| jaise prakRti parivartanazIla hai ki pattA sadA harA nahIM rahatA, phUla sadA khilA huA nahIM rahatA, havAe~ sadA eka jaisI nahIM bahatIM, lahareM kabhI eka samAna pravAhazIla nahIM rahatIM, usI taraha citta bhI parivartanazIla hai| jisane prakRti kI isa parivartanazIlatA ko samajha liyA vaha jIvana meM Ane vAle uThApaTaka ke pravAhoM se nirapekSa raha skegaa| taba vaha jAnegA ki prakRti aura vyavasthAe~ parivartanazIla haiN| z2arUrI nahIM hai ki jo abhI anukUla hai vaha kala bhI anukUla rahegI, yA pratikUlatA meM mana meM gilTI phIla nahIM hogii| hAni-lAbha, jIvana-maraNa, yaza-apayaza, saMyoga-viyoga, udaya-vilaya saba sahajatA se calate rahate haiN| kisI ke janma para sAdhaka khuza nahIM hotA aura na hI maraNa para duHkhI, kyoMki vaha jAnatA hai ki yahA~ saba parivartanazIla hai| mRtyu para duHkhI mata honA kyoMki isa jarjara deha ko kaba taka Dhote rahoge ? maraNa se hI to agalI yAtrA zurU hogii| Age kA jIvana jIne ke lie deha kI keMculI ke mamatva kA tyAga karanA hI hogaa| kaba taka isa kAyA ke sAtha jioge / jinheM hama mahApuruSa kahate haiM, rAma, kRSNa, buddha, mahAvIra- sabhI cale gae, phira apana kauna se hamezA yahA~ rahane vAle haiN| jAnA to hai hI, koI Aja koI kala / isalie mRtyu kA gama na 148 For Personal & Private Use Only

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mnaao| yaha to vyavasthA hai| janma aura maraNa donoM hI eka vyavasthA hai| ajJAnI/azakta eka meM khuza hotA hai, eka meM A~sU DhulakAtA hai / jJAnI donoM meM hI sahaja rahatA hai| jaise prakRti parivartanazIla hai vaise hI mana kI avasthA hai| sAdhaka bodha rakhe ki koI TeDhA zabda bola de to use mana meM lekara na baiThe kyoMki agara Aja ulTA nikala gayA to kala vApasa sIdhA kara leNge| mana meM lagAne se hama krodhita hoMge, udvigna hoMge, khinna aura duHkhI hoNge| jo jaisA karanA cAhe, use vaisA karane kI Az2AdI do, svayaM ko usameM mata ddaalo| prakRti jaba jo karatI hai taba vo karatI hai, kisI kA hastakSepa pasaMda nahIM krtii| isalie jo jaisA karatA hai use karane do| agara Apako lagatA hai ki vaha ThIka nahIM kara rahA to eka bAra sAvadhAna avazya kara do usake bAda bhI vaha karanA cAhatA hai to use usa para chor3a do / svayaM ko bA~dho mata aura na hI citta ko udvigna karo / usake duSpariNAmoM kA jimmedAra vaha svayaM hogA / hameM to apane citta kI parivartanazIlatA ko bhalIbhA~ti samajhate rahanA hai| ___jaba bhI dhyAna kareM, anupazyanA kareM taba dekhate raheM do miniTa pahale kucha aura bhAva the aba ve bhAva nahIM haiN| citta badala gyaa| sAdhanA kA lakSya lekara baiThe the lekina aba vaha sAdhanA kA bhAva nahIM hai, aba phira citta badala gayAyaha hI to satya se sAkSAtkAra hai, citta ke satya se sAkSAtkAra ! jIvana meM jo kucha hai usakA bhalIbhA~ti pratyakSa anubhUti ke AdhAra para jAnanA hI satya se sAkSAtkAra hai| citta kI parivartanazIlatA ko jAnane vAlA vyakti isameM uThane vAle udvegoM, saMvegoM se prabhAvita nahIM hogaa| citta ke guNadharmoM ko pahacAnakara usake prabhAvoM se mukta rhegaa| deha meM kAmabhoga ke bhAva uThate haiM, citta prabhAvita hotA hai lekina usakI anupazyanA karane para ve vilIna ho jAte haiM, sadA nahIM rahate / eka ghaMTe taka bhI nahIM / sA~sa bhI AtI hai jAtI hai, kAyA meM bhI vedanAsaMvedanA kA udaya hotA hai, vilaya hotA hai| ThIka isI taraha vyakti ke citta meM, taraMgeM uThatI haiM aura giratI bhI haiN| uThanA-giranA sAgara kI laharoM kI taraha hotA hai jo pala-pala badalatI rahatI haiN| isake uparAnta bhI jo sAdhaka punaH punaH anupazyanA karatA hai vaha apane citta ko zAMtimaya banAne meM saphala hotA hai| citta kI anupazyanA karane meM bhI saphala hotA hai| apane citta ko Anandamaya banAne meM bhI saphala hotA hai| yaha mana jise apane vaza meM karanA kaThina hotA hai, phira bhI 149 For Personal & Private Use Only

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prabhu kI tarapha lagAkara, sAdhAraNa mana aura citta se Upara uThAkara asAdhAraNa cetanA kA svAmI banatA hai| dasa-pandraha dina kA abhyAsa bhI hameM yaha pariNAma de sakatA hai| ___ bAkI, hamArA citta to usa baMdara kI taraha hai jisane zarAba bhI pI lI hai| pahale hI citta baMdara hai jise sudha-budha aura akla nahIM hai. Upara se kisI ne ghamaMDa kI, kisI ne moha kI, kisI ne bhoga-vAsanA kI. kisI ne z2amInaz2AyadAda kI zarAba pI lI hai aura usa para bicchU ne bhI kATa liyA hai ki pati pIche par3a gae, patnI pIche par3a gaI, bacce bhI pIche par3a ge| batAie usa baMdara kI kyA hAlata hogI jo apane svabhAva se, prakRti se hI baMdara hai, uchala-kUda kara rahA hai, Upara se zarAba pI lI hai, bicchU ne kATa liyA hai ? aise citta rUpI baMdara ko kaise TikAyA jAe ! aise baMdara ko bhI madArI yena-kena-prakAreNa aise sAdha letA hai ki baMdara lakar3I kI char3I aura DamarU ke izAre para nAcane ko maz2abUra ho jAtA hai, vaza meM ho jAtA hai| aise hI isa baMdara kahalAne vAle citta meM jisameM Dhera sAre vikAra, krodha, kaSAya, ananta-ananta kAma-vAsanA ke taMtu bhare par3e haiM aise citta, aise mana ko jahA~ janma-janmAMtara ke saMskAra bhare par3e haiM, hama zAMta kara sakate haiM, zikSita kara sakate haiM, divya bhAva se bhara sakate haiN| hAlAMki Aja hameM lagatA hai, hama zAMta haiM, bahuta zAMta haiM, nirmala haiM lekina kaba kahA~ jvAra-bhATA A jAtA hai, jvAlAmukhI bhar3aka uThe koI patA nahIM cltaa| isa mana kI sthiti aisI hI hai| isameM kaba, kahA~, kauna se paramANu macalane lageMge patA nahIM cltaa| hama dhyAna meM baittheN| apramattabhAva se baiTheM, dhyAna kI zAMti, ekalayatA, ekAgratA lie hue baiThe / zvAsa para dhyAna karate raheM, gahare zvAsa lete raheM, dhIredhIre zvAsa, zarIra aura sArI gatividhiyoM ko zAMta karate jaaeN| bhItara-bAhara se pUrNa mauna ho jaaeN| antaramana meM adhikatama zAMti ko sAkAra karate jaaeN| bhItara meM eka hI samyak smRti rakheM, eka hI dhAraNA rakheM- maiM zAMta ho rahA hU~, mauna ho rahA hU~, svAnubhUti meM, AtmAnubhUti meM sthira ho rahA huuN| hama zAMti-prazAMti ko bhItara meM gaharA karate jaaeN| zAMti kI gaharAI se hI saMbodhi kA udaya hogaa| pahale zvAsoM meM zAMti, phira dimAga meM, phira dhIre-dhIre gale meM zAMti vistAra karate raheM, phira vakSasthala meM, dhIre-dhIre udara, nAbhi-pradeza kI ora zAMti ko gaharA karate jaaeN| zAMti meM isa taraha DUbeM mAno zAMti hI bhagavAna ho / zAMti ko mitra banAe~ aura zAMta-zAMta-zAMta hote rheN| bhItara meM kevala zAMti kA cainala 150 For Personal & Private Use Only

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claaeN| zAMti-prazAMti ko gaharA hone deN| zAMti meM hI svAnubhUti kA satya samAhita hai| zAMti meM hI mukti kA bIjAMkuraNa hotA hai| basa, hama isa bhAva ko, isa manodazA ko gaharI karate jAe~- antardvandva se svataH chuTakArA milatA jaaegaa| vaira-vaimanasya, duHkha-daurmanasya kA avasAna hotA jaaegaa| Apa saMbodhi kI ora bar3hate jaaeNge| hama basa, ArAma se baiTheM, ArAma se apane-Apa ko dekhate raheM, dekhate raheM, DUbate jaaeN| koI vizleSaNa na kreN| hara vicAra ko dUra karate rheN| basa, sukha aura zAMtipUrvaka dekhate raheM, DUbate raheM dekhate raheM, DUbate raheM svayaM kI AdhyAtmika saccAiyoM se rUbarU hote rheN| zvAsa se zarIra, zarIra se dimAga, dimAga se jJAna aura jJAna se svayaM kI ora bar3hate rheN| dhyAna rakheM samyak anupazyanA ke lie jaba baiTheM taba apanI sArI harakatoM ko mauna kara deM jaise zarIra kA hilanA, dekhanA, bolanA aura socnaa| hAlAMki dhyAna yA anupazyanA ke daurAna bahata se vicAra hamAre mana meM ubharate rahate haiN| jaba vicAra Ate haiM, to kaI jAne-anajAne prazna bhI uTha khar3e hote haiN| mana aura citta ko, yA mana aura buddhi ko bhAvAtIta karane ke lie hama apanI naisargika sA~soM para dhyAna deN| vicAra, savAla uThe to unase cipaka mata jaaie| punaH prAkRtika sA~soM para dhyAna diijie| aise karane se khuda-ba-khuda hamArI prajJA jAgRta ho jaaegii| hama prakAzita hote jaaeNge| hama nirmala sthiti ko prApta kreNge| hameM viziSTa zakti, viziSTa sukha, viziSTa zAMti, viziSTa AnaMda kI anubhUti hogii| taba hama eka adbhuta svAsthya, zAMti, jJAna, saubhAgya aura samajha-bUjha ke dhanI hoNge| apanI antaryAtrA ke lie abhI kucha dera pahale eka suMdara-sI kavitA par3ha rahA thaa| usake usake suMdara adhyAtma-bhAva ko bhI bhItara utarane deN| re mana ho jA kucha pala mauna / dekha sakU~ maiM jo hai jaisA, samajha sakU~ maiM kauna ! yaha mana hara samaya calAyamAna hai| dina meM dina ke sapane dekhatA hai, rAta meM rAta ke sapane dekhatA hai| dina meM zekhacillI to rAta meM yayAti bana jAtA hai| yaha hara samaya kucha-na-kucha karatA rahatA hai| hAtha ko to phira bhI bA~dha kara rakha sakate haiM lekina mana ko bA~dhakara nahIM rakha sakate / kAyA ko sthira karake dhyAna meM baiTha sakate haiM, para citta ko sthira karake dhyAna meM nahIM baiThA jA sktaa| use to dhIre-dhIre sAdhanA par3atA hai| jyoM-jyoM hama satya se sAkSAtkAra kareMge tyoM-tyoM 151 For Personal & Private Use Only

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citta ko bhI zAMta, kendrita, sacetana karane meM saphala hote cale jAe~ge / jyoM-jyoM anupazyanA lagAtAra karate jAe~ge, tyoM-tyoM apane citta kI dhArAoM ko, kArAoM ko bhI kATane meM saphala hote jAe~ge / citta ke kaSAya, citta ke prabhAva, citta ke udvegoM se bhI mukta hone meM saphala hote cale jAe~ge / jaise deha se vyakti dehAtIta ho jAtA hai, vicAroM se vicArAtIta ho jAtA hai, vedanAoM se vedanAtIta ho jAtA hai| vaise hI citta se cittAtIta ho jAtA hai, citta mukta ho jAtA hai| mana bhar3akIlI, caMcala prakRti kA hai use isa gIta kI paMktiyA~ z2arUra gunagunAnI cAhie re mana ho jA kucha pala mauna / dekha sakU~ maiM jo hai jaisA, samajha sakU~ maiM kauna ! re mana ! kucha paloM ke lie, kucha kSaNoM ke lie zAMta ho jA, tAki maiM suna sakU~, dekha sakU~ ki vAstava meM bhItara baiThA huA maiM kauna huuN| tere bhItara to taraMgeM calatI rahatI haiM, tU mujhe bhaTakatA rahatA hai, AinA hilatA rahatA hai to maiM jAna nahIM pAtA ki maiM kauna hU~, kahA~ se AyA hU~, yahA~ se kahA~ jAnA hai / maiM dekha nahIM pA rahA hU~ ki mujhe kaunase saMbaMdha banAe rakhanA haiM aura kina saMbaMdhoM kA tyAga kara denA hai| para maiM samajha jAU~gA basa, mana tU do pala ke lie zAMta, ThaMDA ho jA / jisa taraha mAtA-pitA apane bacce ko samajhAte haiM hameM bhI apane mana ko samajhAnA zAMta / bahuta bhaTaka lie aba thor3A zAMta / aba mauna / aba sacetanatA meM antaralInatA / dhyAna meM eka jAgarUkatA z2arUra banAe rakheM ki gaharI sA~sa leM aura gaharI sA~sa chor3eM aura ina zvAsoM kI anupazyanA karate raheM / sA~soM para sacetana hone se kAyA kI sacetanatA bhI apane-Apa sadhane laga jAegI / citta bhI zAMta hotA calA jaaegaa| jaise hI hama bhaTake, citta kahIM gayA phira vahI gaharI sA~sa lenA, gaharI sA~sa chor3anA / sacetana prANAyAma kareM / citta ke idhara-udhara jAte hI zvAsa para punaH punaH sacetana ho jAe~, kAyA kI anupazyanA bhI satata kareM / dinoMmahInoM taka- jaba taka cIz2a hAtha nahIM lagatI sAdhanA, anupazyanA karate raheM / jitanI hamAre bhItara lagana hogI, tanmayatA hogI, bAta Age banatI calI jaaegii| isalie mahAvIra aura buddha kahate haiM- lagAtAra dekho, lagAtAra jAgo, apanI ora se lagAtAra anupazyanA karate raho / abhI eka philma AI thI - lage raho munnA bhAI - sAdhanA ke lie bhI 152 For Personal & Private Use Only

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yaha maMtra apanA leM- lage raho, lage rho| lagana se| yaha maMtra kisI bhI kSetra ke lie apanAyA jA sakatA hai- vyApAra karanA ho, rAjanIti karanI ho, par3hAI karanI ho / saphalatA ke lie eka hI maMtra hai- lage raho munnAbhAI lagana se / hameM laganA pdd'egaa| lagane se, ghisane se to patthara bhI gola ho jAtA hai taba sAdhatesAdhate hama svayaM ko kyoM nahIM sAdha skte| hAlAMki yaha saca hai ki kisI patthara ko tor3ane ke lie hama hathaur3e calAe~, pahalI coTa se na TUTA, dUsarI bAra phira hathaur3A mArA, para bekAra / tIsarI, cauthI, pA~cavIM bAra bhI mArA, para Aqhira dasavIM coTa meM patthara TUTA / kahane ko to yahI kahA jAegA ki dasavIM coTa ne patthara tor3A, jabaki saccAI kucha aura hai| hara coTa ne patthara tor3A, hara coTa ne patthara ko kamajora kiyA, dasavIM coTa ne to pariNAma diyaa| hama dhyAna ke sAtha isa bAta ko pUrI taraha lAgU kara leN| isIlie kahate haiM re mana, ho jA kucha pala mauna / dekha sakU~ maiM jo hai jaisA, samajha sakU~ maiM kauna / phUla dekha phUlA na samAtA, rUpa dekha usameM rama jaataa| yaha pA lU~ maiM vaha mila jAtA, ApAdhApI meM grmaataa| saba kucha ho jAtA mana maNDita, saccAI ho jAtI khaMDita rAga-dveSa se hokara raMjita, ho jAte hama sukha se vaMcita / jo jaisA hai vaisA dekho bIca meM kATa-chA~Ta mata kro| AkSepa, AropaNa, nirUpaNa mata kro| jo jaisA hai use vaisA hI samajhane kA prayAsa kro| artha lagAe to kucha-kA-kucha samajha jaaoge| isalie sAdhaka bIca meM buddhi nahIM lagAtA, kisI pratimA ko mana meM sthApita nahIM krtaa| jo hai jaisA hai, jAna rahA hai| jo jaisA hai vaisA dekho, mAnava ko basa mAnava dekho| nAma rUpa kA bheda bhedakara, ho pAe to samatA dekho| re mana, tUne mujhako khUba nacAyA, viSayoM ke pIche daur3AyA, ciMtA ciMtana samaya ga~vAyA, maiM kyA hU~ yaha soca na paayaa| kisameM samaya vyartha jAyA kiyaa| ciMtA ko vyartha mAnate rahe aura ciMtana ko sArthaka mAnakara donoM meM ulajhe rhe| donoM hI vyartha haiN| sAdhaka na ciMtA kara rahA hai na ciMtana, vaha jo jaisA hai usako vaisA hI dekhatA hai- prayAsa nhiiN| jo hai 153 For Personal & Private Use Only

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vaha kevala sacetanatA hai| prayAsa aura abhyAsa to pUrva bhUmikA kI taraha haiM, praveza dvAra kI taraha haiN| lekina satya se sAkSAtkAra ke lie ciMtA aura ciMtana se mukta honA Avazyaka hai| ciMtA ciMtana samaya ga~vAyA, maiM kyA hU~ yaha soca na paayaa| vaha pustakoM ke AdhAra para nahIM svayaM ke anubhava se jAnatA hai ki yaha nitya hai aura yaha anitya, kyA hai bhogane aura tyAgane yogya / kaunasA patha anugamana karane yogya aura kaunasA tyAgane yogya hai| vaha AropaNa nahIM karatA, usakI antarAtmA jo dekhatI hai vaha vaisA hI karatA hai| sAdhaka kA koI niyamaupaniyama nahIM hotA vaha sahajamArgI hotA hai| bhItara se jo sahaja meM preraNA milatI hai vaha vaisA hI karatA hai| kAraNa, kArya aura pariNAma tInoM ko bhalIbhA~ti jAnatA hai| tUne mujhako khUba nacAyA, viSayoM ke pIche daudd'aayaa| ciMtA ciMtana samaya ga~vAyA, maiM kyA hU~ yaha soca na paayaa| dUsaroM para to khUba gaura kiyA, lekina svayaM ko na dekha paae| kyA kisake lie kiyA yaha to yAda hai, dUsare ne hamase kyA kucha kaha diyA aisI bekAra kI bAtoM ko jIvana bhara Dhote rahate haiM lekina kyA kabhI ekAMta meM baiThakara yaha socA hai, ciMtana kiyA yA jAnane kA prayatna kiyA ki maiM kyA hU~, kauna hU~, merI cetanA kisameM ulajhI hai, isa jIvana kI kyA sArthakatA hai, gaMdagI se bharI huI kAyA kI kisameM dhanyatA hai| kyA mujhe inhIM bhogoM meM rahanA hai, krodha-kaSAya karate rahanA hai, isI taraha khAte-khAte jIte rahanA hai| hama loga nahIM soca pAte haiN| koI-sA hI bar3abhAgI hotA hai, koI-sA hI aisA yogI hotA hai, koI-sA hI aisA zrAvaka hotA hai, koI-sA hI aisA saMta hotA hai jo ekAMta meM baiThakara apane bAre meM socane kA prayatna aura puruSArtha karatA hai| isa kAyA meM jo jIte-marate haiM kyA vahI maiM hU~ yA isake alAvA bhI merA koI svarUpa hai, merA koI astitva hai ? hamArI sthiti usa gadhe jaisI hai jo ghara se ghATa aura ghATa se ghara ke bIca meM DolatA rahatA hai| kabhI bIca meM samajha A jAtI hai, to vrata, upavAsa, niyama kara lete haiM lekina phira vahIM ke vhiiN| kabhI kucha sunate rahe, kabhI kucha sunAte raheghANI ke baila kI taraha vahIM cakkara lagAte rahate haiM, jI rahe haiM, cala rahe haiN| kyoMki mare nahIM hai, aTake yA ruke nahIM haiN| 154 For Personal & Private Use Only

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aba taka tUne rAja kiyA hai ........ re mana tU abhI taka apane mana kI karatA rahA, lekina aba maiM samajha gayA hU~, sa~bhala gayA hU~ aba taka tUne rAja kiyA hai, anucara mujhako banA diyA hai| aba maiM tujha para rAja karU~gA, yaha maiMne saMkalpa liyA hai| re mana, ho jA kucha pala maun| dekha sakU~ maiM jo hai jaisA, samajha sakU~ maiM kauna ! he mere mAnava-mana, aba tU thor3A zAMta ho, thor3A dhIraja dhara, sahanazIlatA se AtApI banakara apanA aura khuda ko dekhane kA prayatna kara ki 'maiM' kauna hU~ ! abhI to hamArA dharma vaha hai jo hameM dharma kI kitAbeM batAtI haiN| phira hamArA dharma vaha hogA jo hameM hamArI antarAtmA preraNA degii| saccA dharma, sacce prabhu bAtoM meM nahIM hote, prArthanAoM ke pAThoM meM nahIM hote| bhItara kI pratyakSa anubhUti meM prabhu kA nivAsa hotA hai| abhI to hamAre hAtha meM na AtmA hai aura na prmaatmaa| abhI to kAyA, kAyA kI vedanAe~, zvAsa yA hamArA citta, hamArA antaramana, usameM uThane vAlI taraMgeM, usameM sthita yAdeM yA hamAre bhItara uThane vAle saMskAra, krodha, kAmanAe~, icchAe~, tRSNAe~ yahI saba hamArI anubhUti meM Ate haiN| hama sabhI anubhava meM Ane vAlI ina sabhI cIjoM ke marma ko samajheM aura bArIkI ke sAtha anupazyanA karane kA bhagIratha prayAsa kreN| jaba citta ke uThA-paTaka zAMta ho jAe~ge, kAyA ke prabhAva aura duSprabhAva se mukta ho jAe~ge, taba hamAre sAmane jo adhyAtma ke dvAra khuleMge, cetanA kA jo prakAza hogA, antarAtmA kA jo kamala khilegA, anAsakti kA jo phUla khilegA, buddhatva kA jo prakAza aura Aloka udaya hogA vaha anirvacanIya hogaa| 'appa dIvo bhava' / apane dIpa svayaM bno| ____ Apa sabhI isa adbhuta-vilakSaNa Ananda kI, apUrvakaraNa kI dazA ko upalabdha hoM, isI maMgala-bhAvanA ke sAtha ApakI nirantara ujjvala ho rahI antara-dazA ko namaskAra ! 155 For Personal & Private Use Only

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pUjya zrI candraprabha ne satya ke sAkSAtkAra se naz2areM milAI haiM aura buddhatva ke kamala kA apane bhItara Ananda liyA hai| ve usa Ananda ko sAdhakoM ke sAtha bA~Tate haiN| saMbodhi-sAdhanA-zivira meM sAdhakoM se mukhAtiba hote hue unhoMne bhagavAna buddha kI viziSTa sAdhanA-paddhati 'vipazyanA' para kucha AdhyAtmika saMvAda kie haiN| ye saMvAda prastuta pustaka meM bahuta hI AtmIya DhaMga se vyakta kie gae haiN| inameM avagAhana karate hue aisA pratIta hotA hai mAno hama zivira ke hI eka aMga haiN| eka-eka zabda anubhava se niHsRta hotA huA hamAre bhItara utaratA hai| ina saMvAdoM ko pAkara Apa nizcaya hI dhanya aura AnaMdavibhora ho uttheNge| isa pustaka kA pratyeka zabda, pratyeka vicAra apane-Apa meM vilakSaNa evaM adbhuta hai |aap pustaka ke hara zabda ke sAtha laharoM kI taraha bahate jAe~, ApakI jIvana-naukA apane-Apa pAra lgtiijaaegii| GhevipazyanA For Personal & Private Use Only