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437 ) दुक्करं = दुष्करम् (महता प्रयासेन) with very great difficulty. Cf. दुक्करं जियसि in st. 281.
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438) Hala 178. Weber (1870 (p. 134) reads the stanza as follows: णाहं दूई ण तुमं पिओ न्ति को अम्ह अत्थ वावारो । सा मरइ तुझ विरहे, तेण अधम्मक्खरं भणिमो ॥ The last quarter means according to Weber : saying these words full of impropriety (that you should go to her even if you do not yield to her). In the 1881 edition (p. 64) Weber reads the stanza as follows: णाहं दूई ण तुमं पिओ त्ति, को अम्ह एत्थ वावारो । सा मर तुज्झ अअसो, एएं धम्मक्खरं भणिमो ॥ In the Sāhityadarpana X, the stanza is read as follows : बालअ णाहं दूई तीइ पिओ सित्तिण मह वावारो । सा मरइ तुझ अअसो एअ धम्मक्खरं भणिमो ॥ "Oh young man (boy), I am not a messenger, nor am I undertaking this mission because you are dear to her (or because she loves you). She will die 'or she is dying) and discredit will accrue to you. Hence I am saying this righteous (disinterested, self-less. well-intentioned) advice".
, I am not her messenger, I do not come here to plead on her behalf, i.e. she has not sent me and I am entirely indifferent and impartial. fq, you are not dear to her (so far as I know) i.e. I do not know that you are dear to her. It would be better to read: ggf fa, (I know) she is not dear to you i.e. you do not love her (though of course she loves you). , such being the case, where is there any scope or occasion for intercession on my part? But I am prompted to utter these words (urging you to visit her) as righteous, disinterested and wellintentioned advice, only in order to save her life and to spare you the disgrace of being the cause of the death of a poor, innocent woman. The coinmentator Ratnadeva seems to have read तुज्झ अजसुत्ति ( = तव अयशउक्तिः scandalous talk about you ). According to Weber (1881), p. 184, we are concerned here with the tenth and last stage of love-sickness (दशमी कामावस्था) viz. मरण or impend - ing death. The commentator on Hala as quoted by Weber (188!), p. 184 says on the third and fourth quarters of the stanza as follows: सा पुनम्रियते ते विरहेण तव च स्त्रीवधादपयश इति । तेन धर्माक्षरम् उभयहितं धर्महेतु संक्षिप्तं भणामः । तवायशस्तस्याश्च मरणं मा भूदिति भावः ।
439)
Hala 198. For
see note on st. 308.
(your words) entrusted to me, sent as a message with me. न सुयं
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