Aptavani 09

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Mahavideh Foundation

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pride, deceit and greed, leave and you become straight, then you will attain moksha. Obstinacy during the early years of Ambalal
Patel (Dadashri's relative self) Back in the old days, there was a saying:
"Duniya diwani kahevashe re, bhoondi bhito ma bhatkashe.
paap ey enu jyare praga thashe, tyare bhuva-jati gher jashe
Meaning when one's demerit karmas come into fruition, he will resort to all kinds of solutions, he will seek help of the exorcists, voodooist, black magicians etc. So a person looks for an exorcist, a saint, or others for help when his demerit karma expresses its effect. Some poet has sung something like that.
Questioner: Dada, when did you read this pad (poetic hymn)?
Dadashri: It is about fifty-five years old, it is not very old. It is not a two or five thousand years old saying.
Questioner: But how can you remember it all?
Dadashri: 'We' do not remember anything. 'We do not even remember whether today is Monday or Tuesday!
Questioner: Then where did all this come from, Dada?
Dadashri: 'We can see it all. If 'we' turn one way, 'we' can immediately see everything and therefore 'we' speak. If 'we' see anything beneficial, then we will say it. Why would 'we' try to commit anything to memory? 'We' continue to see all the way back to when I was young. 'We' can see all the phases... it was like this... it was like that... 'we' used to enter the classroom only after the school bell rang: 'we' can see all
that.' The teacher used to get very upset. He could not say anything but he would be aggravated from within
Questioner: Why did you go only after the bell?
Dadashri: It was a kind of a pomp: kind of a show-off. It was just a false pride (khumari)! I suffered because of that; I did not straighten up. A straight person would go and sit in the class before the bell.
Questioner: Is showing off not a wrong path?
Dadashri: It is a wrong path indeed. This fellow (A. M. Patel - Dadashri's relative self) would come into the classroom after the bell had rung; the teacher would already be in the classroom. It is acceptable for the teacher to be late but as a rule should the students not be in time? This is the obstinacy. On top of that, he (A. M. Patel) would say, 'Who does the teacher think he is?' Hey you! Look here! Do you want to learn at school or do you want confrontations? He would reply, "No, first is the confrontation. That is called looking for a confrontation.
Questioner: So the teacher could not say anything to you?
Dadashri: He could and yet he would not: he dare not because he was afraid of the retaliation of being beaten up outside the school!
Questioner: Dada, were you so mischievous ?
Dadashri: Yes, mischievous indeed. The entire baggage was nothing but that of a troublemaker and obstinacy.
Questioner: And amidst all that such a Gnan expressed! That is great
Dadashri: The Gnan came to be. This is because of the purity within. There was no attachment (mamata). The problem verily was of this ego. The lack of attachment led to this state of the Gnani. There was no trace of attachment or greed-laden