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stage. In the vyavahar (worldly life), one falls before reaching the eleventh stage. All of a sudden one reaches the eleventh stage and then falls again. Therefore, the eleventh gunthanu is applicable to the worldly life and here there is upsham - the inner kashayas are latent, like the smoldering coals.
So it will not work, until everything within is destroyed. Nothing will work until all the vyavahar comes to an end. Hey! One cannot even get past the ninth stage! As long as one continues to have sensual thoughts, he will not be able to cross the ninth. So if he ever tries to talk about Gnan, he will find himself in a predicament. There is grave danger in it, grave danger, because the diseases are still latent within; they have not been destroyed. They will have to go. They will have to be destroyed first. It is like a smoldering fire, there is no telling when it will ignite again.
Partiality towards the self veils the reign of the Self
One is still partial towards the relative self. There is complete partiality towards the relative self. When you stop being partial to the self, you can discover your mistakes. Do you understand what is meant by partiality? The belief and the awareness of 'I am Chandulal' is no longer in existent, it is gone, but when karmas come into fruition, you become one with the karma (udaya-swaroop). The moment you become udayaswaroop, the awareness (jagruti) is shrouded and hence you cannot see the mistakes. This old tendency of becoming udayaswaroop becomes weak when you continue attending satsangs and the awareness of the Self (upayog) becomes firm. Lack of satsang leads to the shrouding of the awareness as the Self.
If a thief enters your home, you will be able to know right away because of the presence of the Soul (the Self) within. But why is it that you are not able to know? Because there is a partiality and a belief within of 'Nothing will happen to us' and
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so this leads to that aspect being veiled and shrouded and therefore it does not let You 'know'. Otherwise it is easy to 'know' and understand.
Upon hearing the question, 'Whose ring is beautiful?' one will immediately raise his hand, because there is partiality of 'my ring is beautiful' towards his ring.
Similarly one is partial to one's self, and that partiality will inevitably render one deluded (moorchhit). The delusion is such that it will not allow him to know that there is partiality. 'We' have destroyed your belief of 'I am Chandulal', and the Self that you have received remains as the Self too, but in the dizzy turn of the udayakarma i.e. karma unfolding, you lose awareness of 'what mistakes am I making and where do my mistakes lie?'
Everything is governed entirely by mistakes and because of this, your realm and domain of the Self is veiled. 'We' have given you the Self, but its realm, power and energy (satta) is completely veiled. This is why the energy of speech (vachanbud) and the energy of the mind (manobud) do not blossom. Otherwise, how well the energy of speech blossoms! Even now one is partial to sexuality (vishaya), deceit (kapat), and the ego (ahamkar). Therefore maintain upayog; maintain jagruti - the applied awareness as the Self- and keep the force of attendance in satsang. Then your mistakes in your worldly interactions (vyavahar) will become evident and the light of the Self will travel far and wide. What happens if you do not attend satsang? The upayog (application of awareness) will be halted. Why is that? It is because of the partiality towards the relative self! And you will not even know that this has taken place.
Awareness (jagruti) is not Gnan. Awareness is simply awareness. Gnan is a different thing. Awareness means to awaken from sleep (to be awakened from the ignorance of who am I? It is to awaken to the knowledge of the Self). Now You are awake. Now there is no longer ignorance of your real Self. Gnan is a very great thing.
