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Awareness (Jagruti) : The desire to be
worshipped Do not rush to answer questions about Gnan
You will have to attain the understanding through the understanding (samjan) of the Gnani Purush': "parallel to parallel". Otherwise, the 'railway line' will be lost. You do not have to apply your own understanding. There is no understanding whatsoever within, is there? Not even an iota of understanding is within. You are not to apply your own understanding in all this anyway. You do not have any understanding at all. You would have become God if you had.
Questioner: If people ask questions and we give answers and clarifications, what is wrong in doing that?
Dadashri: To give clarification to a question is a different thing. The awareness (agruti) has yet to come, then that awareness has to take hold within, as an experience (parinaam). After the awareness has taken hold, and you have gained the experience, then a long time after that, the clarifications (khulasa) you give will be helpful. Otherwise those clarifications will become mis clarifications, and your Gnan will go down. It will become intellectual (buddhigamya) in nature.
Before you even attempt to answer any questions, all forms of egoism within you must vanish. This means the 'dramatic ego', i.e. the residual ego, also known as the discharge ego, must also be gone. The ego should not be apparent to the world. At the moment, all the 'functions' are still very weak (one has not become free from kashaya), they are
not strong enough. Until all those functions are completed (free from kashaya), the speech will not be syadvaad. Syadvaad speech is egoless speech; it does not hurt any living being Instead, it is better that you do not say anything. Otherwise you will incur a liability (dosh). As all these facets go down, as the intellect goes down, as the egoism starts to diminish, the speech will become syadvaad. For the time being, do not get involved with answering questions. Otherwise you will be serving something that is 'half cooked'. It will mislead you, your spiritual progress will be hampered and it will be difficult to turn things around once the damage is done.
Therefore, there must not be the 'taste' of sweetness in it by the egoism and the intellect. In addition, in that process, there should be repulsion (abhaav) towards any involvement of the ego or the intellect. And this should become an established internal study (abhyaas), only then is it useful and worthy! Until then it is better to wait and be patient.
On the path of full enlightenment...
Do you ever talk and discuss things with people? Do not get into any discussions anywhere, because people will listen but what will become of you? People will listen with one ear and let it out the other, but You too will become sucked into its false sweetness. This happens because the egoism, the tendency for the intellect and ego to take over, is still present and they (anger, pride, deceit and greed) are all just ready and hungry waiting with anticipation, 'when will I get something to eat... when will I get something to eat?' And so slowly they get the nourishment they need.
Why do you go around discussing Gnan when the ego and all the rest within have not yet diminished? No body benefits even two cents worth and you keep blowing your horn unnecessarily! Everyone will find the words very pleasing, people will even say 'I really like what you said', but during that
