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The 'we-ness' is gone completely. For too long 'we' have lived with this 'we-ness. 'We' did not have any 'my-ness' - mamata from the beginning and therefore there was no problem
It is like this, I am subservient (aadhin) to everyone. What is the reason behind this? It is because there is no 'I-ness' (potapanu). Therefore, I am absolutely subservient to the circumstances. I am also subservient to all of you. Subservient means a completely egoless state! To be subservient (aadhinta) is a very good thing. 'We' do whatever the person who is with 'us' tells 'us' to do. 'We' do not have any opinions. If 'we' feel that there is weakness in what he is saying, 'we' will tell him, 'brother, do it this way.' After that, 'we' remain subservient. Naturalness is attained synchronously as the last remnant of the ego leaves
This is 'our' naturalness (sahajikata). There is never any problem in the state of naturalness. There is never any interference, of any kind at all. If you say it is this way, then so be it and if you say it is that way, then so be it. There is no remnant of potapanu (last traces of discharge ego). And you on the other hand are not the kind to let go of this 'potapanu', are you? To me if someone says, 'we are going by car' then it is fine and again tomorrow if he says, 'we will have to go by train,' then that is fine too. There is never a 'no'. 'We' (referring to the Gnani Purush and the fully enlightened Lord within) have no objection at all. 'We' have no opinion. This is naturalness. Naturalness is to follow the lead of the opinion of others; it is to do according to the wishes of others.
'We' are always in the state of naturalness. This naturalness is continuous. There is not a single moment out of naturalness. 'We' remain as nature keeps 'us', because the egoless state has been attained. How can you become spontaneous (sahaj) with even the slightest existence of 'I-ness'? When one
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gives up the last remnants of the ego (potapanu) he becomes natural. When one attains naturalness (sahaj state) he can continuously remain in the awareness as the Self (atma upayog).
Drama begins when 'I-ness' decreases
Potapanu ('I-ness') is a very big word. There is not even a trace of 'I-ness' in 'us'. Yet 'we' make Hiraba sit next to 'us'. People ask 'us', 'Who is this?' and 'we' would tell them, 'This is my wife.' 'We' will say all that. 'We' will even tell Hiraba, 'I do not like to be without you. How good she must feel when 'we' tell her that!
But with 'us', it is all 'dramatic' (like acting in a play). One man tells me, 'Can you bless my land by gracing it with your footsteps?' I told him, 'Why should I have any problems?' 'We' would also ask him about his land, such as when he made the deal, how much he paid for it, etc. Some people may even think that Dada has become a land broker!
If a person gets a benign white spot on his body but he keeps showing it to me, I would gently rub my hand over it just to satisfy him.
Questioner: That too is a drama, is it not?
Dadashri: It is all a drama. The whole day is a drama for 'us'. All my actions of the entire day are a drama. If you take 'us' to your home for darshan, that too is as a drama. If it were not a drama, then the 'I-ness' (potapanu) would be there. Because there is no 'I-ness'; the drama is exact. Otherwise, it would be like, 'I will have to go there for a visit. I will have to go there to give darshan, but there is no such thing within.
Therefore, all this is nothing but a drama. The whole daylong I am doing a 'drama'. When I sit in the satsang and answer questions, that too is a drama. But the drama starts only when the 'I-ness' (potapanu), decreases and not otherwise.
