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and surrendered everything only to the Lord. The Lord now takes care of everything for A. M. Patel, and He (the Lord) does take care of everything, does He not? The 'I-ness' that was there before, left with the departure of the ego. Otherwise, the ego is not such that it will leave.
The separation exists only as long as there is the presence of I-ness' (potapanu) and until then the Lord stays away. The Lord is with you as soon as you let go of the 'I-ness! Why don't you let it go? It is so easy! If you let go of the 'I-ness, then God Himself will take care of everything for you. You will not have to do anything if you let go of the 'I-ness.
Who do you know as 'Dada Bhagwan in this? The one you see sitting in front of you is a public trust' called A. M. Patel. And people take him to satsang wherever they can, whenever the circumstance arises because there is no sense of 'I-ness' within us!
What has Shrimad Rajchandra said about a Gnani Purush? The Gnani Purush is the one who does not have even the slightest inclination (spruha). He has no beggary of any kind. He has no beggary for giving updesh (spiritual discourse): He has no beggary for disciples. He has no beggary to change anyone for the better. He has no garva or garavata - no doership or wallowing in worldly pleasures; no 'I-ness' (potapanu). All the above are inherent in 'I-ness.
ness? What does it mean to have no 'I-ness' (potapanu)? If you were to tell a Gnani Purush, 'Let us go to Mumbai today.' he will not say, 'No'. If people take him to Mumbai, he will go like a 'piece of baggage' and he will return to Ahmedabad like a piece of baggage. So he does not have 'I-ness! If people ask 'us' 'Dadaji when shall we go?' 'We' tell them, 'Whenever it suits you.' 'We' do not say anything more. So when they take this piece of baggage, there is nothing wrong in it. 'We' tell them, 'Son, take 'us' when it suits you', because 'we' do not have any 'I-ness' 'Do you think anyone who has 'I-ness' will go anywhere like a piece of luggage? He will say, 'I am not coming today. Would anyone be ready to become a piece of luggage? Would anyone say such a thing?
Many people in Mumbai and Vadodara tell 'us' 'Dada, it would have been nice if you had come early.' They say such things, so 'we' tell them, "They bring me like a baggage and take me away like a baggage.' Then they understand, but they ask me, 'Why do you say "like a baggage '?' Alas! If this is not like a baggage then what is it? The Lord is within for sure, but on the outside if this is not a baggage, then what is it? Hence, there is no 'I-ness:
I will go wherever they carry 'us'. Often there are many things 'we' do not want to eat and yet we do, there are times 'we' do not want to drink and yet 'we' do. 'We'even do other things that we do not want to. 'We do not have a say in these matters. It is all mandatory (farajiyat). 'We will drink your tea to give you encouragement. Even if the tea is too strong and it does not suit the prakruti, 'we' will still drink it because it will make you happy that 'Dada drank my tea! That is why 'we' will drink it.
During this journey that 'we' just made, 'we' did what others asked 'us' to. If they say, 'You have to stay here 'we' will stay there. If they say, "Now let us go from here,' then 'we' will do that.' 'We do not have any amaarapanu - 'we-ness!
In this world there is not a single man that does not have a sense of I-ness. It is a different matter when we talk about the universe, there we have the tirthankaras. But as far as this world is concerned, there is no one without 'I-ness. Only those who have fallen short of attaining the tirthankara lineage are free of 'I-ness' in this world.
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