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accomplished during the course of my life?' I say, 'Mokshafinal liberation can be attained in one or two more life times. What is the point of expecting anything else?' What is the benefit of wrong expectations?
All this is also 'I-ness' There will not be any more garva or garavata once the 'I-ness' has dissolved away. Here the garva and garavata still remain (in discharge). What are the attributes of the one without 'I-ness'? Such a person will accept whatever abuse people give him. He will accept any beating. To side with the ego is considered 'I-ness. To lose upayog - to lose the awareness of I am separate from the body is called 'I-ness.
Even when you lose upayog for a little while; it is called 'I-ness'. You say that you become one with whatever goes on inside, you become tanmayakar (engrossed) with it but later you become aware of it', all that occurs because of your 'Tness Purusharth is needed in whatever is
unfolding in front of you Questioner: Is vyavasthit formed in such a way that it makes one remain absorbed (tanmayakar) in the unfolding karma (udaya)?
Dadashri: That is precisely how vyavasthit is; that is the definition of udaya - unfolding karma. Vyavasthit is such that one will become engrossed in the unfolding karma, he will become the owner of thoughts, speech and actions (tanmayakar). And that is where purusharth - independent spiritual endeavor - is to be applied. At that moment (apa) inner penance will occur for sure.
When will one arrive at such a subtle understanding? It will happen only when one gets into it, with applied awareness (purusharth).
Questioner: I used to become tanmayakar in my prakruti when I did not have Gnan.
Dadashri: Yes, you did it customarily and happily. What is more; you even liked it. The moment one has a thought about drinking alcohol; he becomes tanmayakar (absorbed) in it. He likes that. But what happens now after Gnan? Now the Self (potey) remains separate from within, where situations arise which the Self does not like. When dislike arises, this dislike is in the form of penance (apa).
Questioner: So, does that mean that what he previously used to like is precisely what he does not like anymore?
Dadashri: Yes. Liking binds prakruti and disliking dissolves it
The unfolding karma (udaya karma) that has to be dealt with according to the unfolding (vyavasthit) is very harmful. As it is, everything is a discharge (nikali) but it is very detrimental to the goal of exposing the full Gnan of the Self.
Questioner: I did not really understand that.
Dadashri: Vyavasthit should be such that it supports the purusharth. Vyavasthit working against purusharth is negative vyavasthit; wrong vyavasthit. If it is not to your liking, let it be. Even if you do not like it, the fact that you do not like it, shows that it is the Atma (the Self). Where there is I do not like means that you are there as Atma.
Questioner: But vyavasthit is whatever that has come, has come, but now, what should one do?
Dadashri: You have to do the purusharth in whatever comes along There lies the strength of Pragnya - the
direct light of the Soul Questioner: So when 'he' becomes absorbed
