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time your ego will increase and those people will not gain any benefit. It simply 'smells' good, that is all. It is like enjoying the aroma of the jalebee (sweet delicacy), without getting a taste of it.
If you want to keep your path to liberation weak, then this other path, the traditional Kramic path, will be good for you. You will even get to enjoy the sweetness along the way. However, in this path of ours, with the slightest weakness, the ego and everything else within are just waiting ready to pounce the moment they get something to eat. The ego within is constantly looking for food and nourishment. This is the case for everyone. Everyone has ego waiting within. When the ego takes over it will not look for just some commission. At the moment, it is simply looking for commission, but later on, it will take over the entire wealth, including you. It is there, already present within. You should always continue to be aware that the presence of the ego is always there. And until then do not fall prey to anything. Do not give the ego any opportunity or the scope to become strong.
People will readily flock after you if you speak even a little about our Gnan. People have never experienced peace such as this before. They have never heard of anything like this before so naturally they will jump at the opportunity. And the ego sitting within you will be laughing. 'Yes, great I get to eat!' It has been looking for this opportunity from the very beginning. Do You want to attain the Absolute state or do you want to leave it unfinished? If You want to attain the Absolute state, then You cannot afford to be weak about anything. Even if someone asks you a question, do not fall prey to this weakness. Upsham - it is nothing but a smoldering fire
First You will understand the Gnan through the medium of the intellect (buddhigamya) and that too it will come by listening intently to the Gnani Purush for a long time. It will be of worth only if you study it slowly and gradually.
'We have to seriously caution the one whose awareness (agruti) increases significantly. He is safe if he abides by the Agnas. But it is very difficult to have a safe side.
The fact that you can see your ego, it is very good awareness (jagruti). Otherwise you will see everything but your own ego. Everything else will be evident. That which is going to aggressively overpower you, is the only one that will not be evident.
The intellect (buddhi) must come to an end, then the ego and then all the rest of the desires of the pudgal (the non-Self complex). At the moment, these desires fichchha) are not evident within, but they are there for sure, latent and smoldering lupsham) within. They are suppressed within and they must all come to an end (kshay). At the moment one is not aware of all these desires. As long as thoughts of sexuality (vishaya) arise, it proves that desires of the pudgal (the non-Self complex) are indeed present. As long as sexual thoughts arise within, it is evident that the physical desires are real and until then the fire within is smoldering and latent.
Therefore, be cautious. This is very dangerous, it will topple you over and there is no telling where you will land. Not only will the awareness (jagruti) go away but even this state of samkit - the right vision that you have acquired - will go away too. That ego and everything else within will then take control over you. That is why the Lord called them "upsham goon" - smoldering attributes (latent kashayas), which are likely to reignite anytime and make you fall for sure.
Questioner: But since you have placed us on the twelfth gunasthanak - the twelfth spiritual stage, we will not fall will we?
Dadashri: No, You will not fall. Who is likely to fall? The one who is in the worldly life will fall. The twelfth spiritual stage is for the nischaya; the Self, and vyavahar is on the eleventh
