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Everywhere else in the Kramic path) Gnan manifests only when all other smoldering fires (upsham kashayas) have been put out i.e. when all the latent kashayas within have been eradicated. Kshayo-psham - the state of partial purity - means that the ego is still there, but it is not visible at the moment. There is fire underneath but it is covered. Therefore, you cannot see it from the surface. You think there are only ashes there, but you will realize it when it ignites with the slightest of air. That is when awareness leads to the
experience of Gnan It will be beneficial if you keep increasing awareness (jagruti). You will not bind karma when Your awareness increases. There is no karma bondage with awareness (jagruti) and so everything will become clear from within. In the meantime the ego continues to melt away.
There is no deceit (kapat) in pride (maan); if there were, then awareness (jagruti) would not arise. Kapat is the curtain; it is a veil. A veil obscures whatever it covers; it renders one blind.
Questioner: What is deceit (kapat)?
Dadashri: It is where one tries to hide the vastu - the element - the Soul. All of this is nothing but deceit (kapat), is it not? Is this kapat not responsible for doing everything wrong within? It only happens when deceit (kapat) and ego get together. Who takes you on the wrong path? It is anger-pridedeceit-greed. These four will take you on the wrong path when they get together. The ego is the root cause. And what does one have greed (lobh) for within? He enjoys tasting the sweetness that lies within
Before awareness fagruti) can give result (parinaam) of the experience of Gnan, not a single percent of deceit (kapat) can remain within. There should not be any element of deceit
(kapat) of any kind. There should be no thoughts of sexuality whatsoever.
So what all must leave? The ego must come to an end. The intellect (buddhi) must come to an end; it will not do if it is smoldering or appears to be dead. It has to die. When all the karmas are destroyed (kshay), then anger-pride deceit-greed will also be destroyed. When all these attributes are annihilated. then speech will become syadvaad; it will not hurt any living being and it will be acceptable to all. Until then there is danger. There is tremendous danger, extreme danger!
Starve the kashayas for three years
The energies of anger, pride, deceit and greed are sitting within, waiting in anticipation of when will he let go of Dada so that we can grab him.' They are always ready to entice you one way or another and lead you away from the Self. As long as they are present within, as long as there is evidence of their existence within, they cannot be eliminated. There is no merit in saying anything (speaking to others about this Gnan) unless they are destroyed. Such speech will be blown away in the air without any effect. Hence, it is not worth saying anything.
When the sweetness (meethash) is experienced within, it is the same as the kashayas getting nourishment. The kashayas of anger-pride-deceit-greed get nourishment and they use their strength and energies in full force on the other side. They become weak because they remain hungry from not getting any food for a while. They will go away if you do not feed them, if you were to starve them for three years. But people continue to feed them a little at a time. People are compassionate aren't they? So they keep feeding the kashayas. However, if you were to starve them completely, they would not remain past three years. Once they leave, the entire kingdom comes into your hands.
Are you aware that these kashayas are being fed? Are
