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Questioner: But what are the consequences of gathering people and 'blowing your own horn' (preaching Gnan) and becoming a "Gnani?
Dadashri: That is nothing but a ravaging fire! A life in hell! He will experience a life in hell and then return here to the same old thing. Intense greed (alacha) that exists within will not go away, will it? He will change a little in the presence of a Gnani Purush.
Not even a moth will hover (bother) around you if you have no intense greed (alacha). A man without lalacha for reverence is the king of the world. And the one with such greed will achieve nothing, no matter how hard he tries.
Intense greed can stay alive and get stronger only if you give it a cause to. Then you have to do pratikraman. You should say to the relative self, Chandulal, you should not go there again.'
You may have a lalacha (strong desire) to become free from the need to be worshipped and respected, but this lalacha will obstruct you. If you keep this in mind to eradicate it, just as one keeps in mind an external enemy, then you will be able to do so. Otherwise it is not easy to get rid of this desire to be worshipped.
Questioner: This intense greed (alacha) is a dangerous disease!
Dadashri: It is a disease that has prevailed from countless past lives. This disease makes him want others to listen to him and follow him. He is preoccupied with, 'how can I make them listen and follow me?' The moment one sees a mango dangling on the tree, something within starts stirring too. Just the mere site of a mango stirring in the wind will cause stirring within him. The lalacha within will take over the minute he encounters the right circumstances.
Questioner: Some people are such that they want to be
the center of attention in a group of a hundred, no matter what it takes.
Dadashri: That is because he has a habit of being a guru of five or ten. He does not even know how to be a disciple and he wants to be a guru. Such a person will sit down wherever he finds a 'customer' (anyone who would listen to him). It is all because of his intense greed (alacha) to enjoy everything. He does not want to leave out a single thing Live one life by surrendering to the Gnani
That is why I have told you not to leave the oneness of this satsang. Otherwise one would want to start something on his own. But he will not know anything. People will throw him out.
This is not acceptable, how can it be? For how long can a fake tiger last? Would it work if one disguises himself as a tiger? That is why I have told you so that you do not let any such root grow here. You have to spend this life of yours in surrender, do not let go of your dependency on the Gnani Purush. You will be able to form your own group or crowd if you try, you will have one, but it will harm you as well as others.
One man had gone off and started a 'business' of his own in the name of Dada. He attracted large crowds and conducted satsang. I told him, 'You will pay a heavy price eventually. How long will you be able to hide under covers?' He would return to us on and off. He was not obstinate. But his intense greed (lalacha) would lead him astray again and he would say, "Now I will go and do something, and he was capable of doing that. One time he managed to gather over a thousand people. He could do that because his face was attractive and he had an aura about him. But I cautioned him, 'If you fail in your obedience to Dada, you will go to hell. Where are you going to get the words? You will have to use my words for people. If you try to use new words, you will spend a life in hell.'
Therefore, I have to caution you. There is this intense
