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greed (alacha) to move away from Dada in an independent direction. You have now become independent, you are not dependent are you? It would be a different matter if you were suppressed or controlled by me. It is a different matter if you were under the control of those other gurus and you tried to be independent. Here no one is suppressed, there is no control over you and I even say, 'I am everyone's disciple, so where is the problem? But because of the habit of endless past lives, one has fun in being independent; there is interest in that. Let go of this interest! Why don't you remain only in this satsang?
Questioner: But Dada, rather than independence, it is to show off to people 'I know something'.
Dadashri: That is the problem, he believes 'I know everything and yet he knows nothing.
Now spend one life in total surrender (adheenta) to the Grani.
Questioner: It is better to remain surrendered: at least we will not have any externally induced problems (upadhi).
Dadashri: Yes, no upadhi. Everyone has surrendered and is free from upadhi. But if someone has a root that is crooked, it will not refrain from playing its part. He will start a different group. He will dance to a different tune.
Life surrender to gnan There are many who tell me, 'Do you not hold back some 'keys' with you?' Why would I hang on to some keys? I would do that only if I want to remain as a guru and show my superiority. But I neither want to be anyone's guru nor do I want to be a superior. To me, you are the guru now. Those who want to be gurus will not bestow their full knowledge (gnan) on to others. They do that so that their disciples will not run away and their business' can remain in operation.
And here, everyone has freedom. I tell those who live
here that they are free to leave whenever they like. I will not stop them even if they were to put me in a difficulty. So then where is the problem? Why would I want to take on their responsibility? The gurus who have intense greed (alacha) for reverence will resort to doing such things.
Even the Lord would not question the one who has no intense greed (alacha). Because if the Lord were to question him 'where have you been?'' then the Lord would be in trouble How can he question the one who has no lalacha at all? It would be a mistake on His part. No one has the right to question the one who is free from all intense greed (lalacha), not even God! Once a person lets go of intense greed (alacha), he has attained everything. Your intention should be for the absolute
state Have you seen excessive intense greed (alacha)?
Questioner: You know what Dada? I myself was very covetous and greedy.
Dadashri: Is that so? In what matters?
Questioner: Oh! In everything: I was excessively greedy about satsang too!
Dadashri: Greed for me (Dada, the Gnani purush) is not considered greed but it is considered greed if it is for all other things. Greed for satsang is not called greed. Selfishness is not considered selfishness if it is for me, it is considered the ultimate aim (parmarth).
Questioner: Now we are greedy for Dada.
Dadashri: No, with me it is not considered greed. With me it is not considered selfishness. With me if you become selfish it is for the ultimate good (parmarth). With the world even if you try to do the ultimate good it becomes a selfish
