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What does garva mean? I will explain this to you. When someone tells you he did four samayiks (introspective meditation). you will see great happiness on his face. Then if you ask him how many samayik some other person did, he will tell you, 'He cannot do samayik. He did only one'. If you ask him, 'You do four samayiks?' he will respond, "Then who else? I am the one who did them. That is when we realize how intoxicated he is with the sense of doer-ship (keyf of garvaras)! He may have all kinds of notions of greatness. Then if you ask him the next day 'How many samayiks did you do today?' he will tell you he could not do any because his legs were hurting or he had a headache. So did he do the samayik yesterday or his legs? Who did it? If you did the samayik then do not use your legs as an excuse. You were able to do a samayik because your legs were fine and your head or your stomach was not hurting you. When everything is regular and the circumstances are conducive, then you can do the samayik. So why do you alone take the doer-ship for it; take credit for it? Therefore when something is dependent on other circumstances, what part in it is yours? Do people take such doer-ship or not? It is just egoism that one continues to do so. Scientific circumstantial evidences do everything but one claims 'I am doing it' and that is garvaras. The worldly life continues as long as this habit of tasting garvaras continues. Will you not have to understand this? Can such wrong belief continue to prevail?
Questioner: But are we not born with all this?
Dadashri: Yes, one is born with it but that awareness does not stay does it? And he continues to enjoy garvaras. 'He' likes the garvaras a lot. The moment he says, 'I did four samayiks,' he swells with pride and then he feels sorry for the person who does only one samayik. He will say that this poor man cannot do samayiks. First, he feels sorry for the man and then he becomes contemptuous; he has tiraskar towards him. So the worldly life is perpetuated as a result of garvaras. That
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is a big mistake. What can the Lord do in all this? That is why Krupadudev has said,
Das varshey re dhara ullasi, mityon udaya karma no garva re.'
'At the age of ten, the brim of the ocean of bliss was reached, along with the loss of the sense of doer-ship in the fruition of karma.'
Does any man understand 'udaya karma no garva' - the sweetness of doer ship of the fruition of karma? Who in India can understand this? One can understand it only after 'we' explain it to him.
Fruition of karma (udayakarma) means that the udaya (fruition of karma) is doing the samayik, not me. Then he has no garva (doer-ship) if he maintains this. But people cannot refrain from tasting the garvaras, right? Do they taste it or not? 'I did four samayiks' one will say and when you ask 'why do you say four?' he will reply, this man did only one'. I will understand right away that this man is headed for moksha, for sure (!)
What happens by taking garva? Your 'neck' gets caught in a noose. Forget about moksha, but you create thousands of lifetimes worth of obstacles towards moksha. He did garva of samayik! Garva of the worldly life such as 'we went to this place' and 'we went to that place' occurs. Does one not take garva about going to different places? As if he achieved something! As if his worries are gone. That is called garva.
That is why people use the expression 'a noose on the neck'. It is a noose around your neck when you say you did samayik, or you did pratikraman, or you did penance; that is called taking garva.
Now what does it mean when people say, 'A Sat Purush
