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they say something good, they swell with pride and say, 'I spoke so well. Look how well I spoke!' Whereas 'we' say, 'it is a taped record that is speaking,' because it is the speech that has no ownership. Then there is no question of garva or garavata. There is nothing of the sort. There is no other hassle. The only sense of bondage is the inner intent (bhaav) from the past life of wanting others to attain the same bliss that I have attained. That is the only activity (kriya). This (the status of Gnani) is the fruit of that intent.
Therefore, this is considered alaukik - beyond this world; it is not worldly (laukik). Here 'our' speech (vani), conduct (vartan) and humility (vinaya), all three win over your mind. That eventually has to happen. You too will have to become like that. If you follow the one who has become like that, will you not become like Him too?
Questioner: Yes, we will.
Dadashri: That is all; there is nothing else to be done. You should go after Him. Losses of countless past lives have to be recouped in this one life. So you will have to be careful, won't you? This loss is from how many lifetimes? From countless past lives!
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Laghutam Gurutam
(Laghutam - smallest, lightest, lowest, absolute humility. Gurutam - largest, heaviest, highest)
The state of the Gnani is laghutam and gurutam
'We' are not concerned even if 'our' liberation is delayed by one more lifetime, but 'our' wish is that this Vignan be propagated and that the world should benefit from it. That is why I have come to explain it. I have the time. I have nothing to do. I do not have any problems because I am the idlest person in the world and absolutely without any intellect. I am on my own and so I do not have any hassles. You have many hassles. Otherwise, I am no better than you. Do you feel that? It is only for the worldly interactions I am sitting on this high seat.
In addition to that, do you know what my 'height' is (how high I am)? Laghutam! What does laghutam mean? I am the smallest and the lightest of all the jivas (living beings) in this world. That is my 'height'. As far as the worldly life is concerned, I am the smallest. When it comes to name, fame, looks, wealth, pride etc., I am laghutam (the lightest; lowest) and from the perspective of the Self (the Soul), I am gurutam (heaviest, highest). Therefore, in the home department - the Self -I am gurutam and in the foreign department - the non-SelfI am laghutam.
So what is laghutam?
