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becoming a disciple of young children, the foolish and all the rest of the people.
Liberation with the laghutam ego
Questioner: How do you define laghutam? Is bringing our ego to a zero level considered being laghutam?
Dadashri: No. The ego remains the same but it is also an ego to say 'I am smaller than everyone. 'Laghu means 'I am small', laghutar means 'I am even smaller than small' and laghutam means 'everyone is bigger than me.' That too is a kind of an ego (ahamkar).
Now the world is based on the ego of gurutam, which is the intent to be bigger than everyone; it is the belief of 'I am greater than everyone', this verily is the cause of the worldly life (sansar), whereas with a laghutam ego, one goes towards attaining liberation (moksha). Laghutam ego means to conduct interactions of worldly life with the intent, 'I am smaller than everyone.' That will take him towards liberation. By believing. 'I am greater than everyone', one enters into a 'race course (competition) and on to the wrong path through unawareness. With laghutam ego one gradually becomes smaller and smaller until he becomes completely laghutam; therefore one becomes Parmatma, the absolute Self.
There is no racecourse in laghutam
Up until now, all efforts have been towards becoming gurutam, have they not? I want to be greater than him; I want to be greater than him.' See, the competition has begun, has it not? Who wins the prize? The prize goes only to the horse that comes first. What about the rest? There is no prize for them even after running so hard.
Questioner: Dada is there a racecourse in a laghutam
Dadashri: No there cannot be any racecourse in the state of laghutam. The racecourse is in the gurutam state. So I have no intellect (abuddha) and I am in a laghutam state and therefore I do not have a relationship of exchange of kashaya with anyone. There is not an iota of intellect in me. The racecourses of the worldly life and
competitiveness (spardha) Questioner: Everyone has a desire to be something and here around you, we have the desire of not wanting to be anything, we want to be free from any semblance of superiority (visheshata). In the worldly interactions, one feels, 'I am something. And I want to be something
Dadashri: That is because they enter a racecourse there, do they not? He wants to run because so many other horses are running. Hey you! You are sick so why don't you relax and take it easy? All the others are strong horses, besides only the one who comes first will get the prize and the rest will die huffing and puffing
So, not even a fool would take part in a competition (racecourse). Yes if they were going to award five hundred prizes or so, then one can believe that he may get lucky and win a prize. But you are not going to come first, so why are you in the competition? Go home and go to sleep. Who would enter the competition? How can you enter their racecourse? Some horses may be so strong from a diet of chick peas (garbanzo beans) while others may be eating grass.
Therefore, I did not enter the racecourse of the worldly life. That is how I found this Lord within.
And the prize goes only to the one who comes first, does it not? The rest are left wandering around life after life. They die huffing and puffing and gain nothing. How can one enter a racecourse of the world with that kind of justice? What do you think?
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