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Questioner: How do these passions (kashayas) overcome
residual, it is a discharging ego (nikali ahamkar); it is not true charge ego i.e. ego that charges new karmas. But even then one goes on protecting and siding with it. Who are you to judge what is right and what is wrong? This should not be so.
When one becomes adamant (akka), it creates more veils of ignorance over the soul. However, after this Gnan, all that is left is the vyavahar i.e. only discharging worldly interactions remain. As far as nischaya (the Self) is concerned, jakka (insistence) is gone, dwesh (abhorrence) is gone, raag (attachment) is gone, everything is gone. Now after Gnan, the worldly life (vyavahar) is no longer chetan; it is no longer living (there is no more karma bondage, it is all a discharge). Vyavahar now has become achetan (it is inanimate): there is no life in it. Achetan means that it will reignite if You instigate it again (meaning if you become Chandulal again). Otherwise the non-Self (prakruti) will show its traits and dissipate, nothing more. Do you understand? It will manifest its trait: you will know what it is like when it expresses. You can know and identify all its traits. So different prakruti will express in different manner and intensity, and thus the stock within (bharelo maal) becomes evident. Then having expressed itself, it will dissipate.
The ego is rendered lifeless on the basis of this Akram Vignan of ours. So sooner or later it is going to leave completely. In the Kramic path the ego is alive whereas here in the Akram path, it is lifeless, everything remains 'dramatic' - superficial. The kashayas of anger, pride, deceit and greed, are all 'dramatic' also - they are superficial and lifeless. However the kashayas that remain within now need to be dealt with, with equanimity. Deceit (kapat) and craftiness (chaturai)
If someone is verbally abusing one, in that too one's kashayas - inner passions of anger, pride, deceit and greed will engulf him all over during that moment.
Dadashri: They render you unconscious in regards to awareness of Gnan. A person will not have any awareness at that time!
Questioner: How can we tell when the kashayas have arisen? What are the signs?
Dadashri: Will you not know when the ego has been hurt? Deceit (kapat) is the main culprit that does not allow you to be aware. This deceit means total darkness; complete absence of awareness. In other forms of kashayas namely greed, pride and anger, there would be some light; some awareness.
Questioner: Please explain all these in detail. This deceit, kashaya, ego...
Dadashri: These are all the obstacles in the path of liberation.
Questioner: How does deceit operate and create a puzzle in this?
Dadashri: Deceit (kapat), makes everything pleasant and acceptable, and thus makes one wander (lose spiritual goal) here, there and everywhere.
Questioner: Where again is the role of deceit in all these wanderings?
Dadashri: Anger, pride, greed create fewer obstructions. Deceit will create lot more obstructions. Deceit (kapat) does not let one remain in the normality of worldly interaction; it takes one below the level of what is normal, it is lower than the state of worldly self (sansari). Persons without kapat are sarad; they are straight and simple-hearted. Deceitful prakruti creates major problems.
