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A miser thinks he knows how to use a razor very well. He will keep sharpening the blade with a sharpening stone. You fool this blade is not something that can be sharpened on a sharpening stone. There is no relation between the blade and the sharpening stone. It is a wonder if one knows how to use it correctly. Once I told someone, 'I do not know how to use the blade and neither do you, so whom should we ask?' You bring stainless steel blades for me but I do not know how to use them, so what can the stainless steel do about it? It becomes useless in the hands of the one who does not know how to use it.
Therefore all this is misuse of intellect, being over-wise (vikalpi, thoka thok). All worldly knowledge is such that it will never lead you to liberation.
The zero ego state of The Gnani
I do not even know how to give lectures. I know only this Gnan. I don't know anything else in the world. I came to know this Gnan because I did not know anything else. And I have not gone anywhere to learn the worldly things. Otherwise anyone and everyone will want to be my guru. Instead, why not become an expert in the Self? This will make me nirleypabsolutely unaffected?
I do not even know anything about the worldly life. I did not know anything in school either. All I knew was that I did not want a boss (upari). That was the only thing that bothered me. I did not have any problems with whatever I got to eat or drink, but I did not want anyone as a boss over me. This body has brought forth with it all its adjustments, and necessities for this life.
Now this Gnan is such that it will do everything. I do not know anything related to the worldly life but even then the work continues very well, better than everyone else's. Everyone else has to complain and shout to get things done. I do not have to shout or say anything. Yet the work gets done better than one's
expertise and know-how. Those who know how to mend shoes have to continue mending shoes. Those who know how to stitch clothes have to continue stitching clothes and those who do not know anything: they have to sit around idle. What can the one who knows nothing, do?
The Lord has said that whatever knowledge of learning one has is sustained on the basis of the ego. The one, who knows nothing, does not have the ego, does he? If the ego is there, then he will know what to do for sure. I know only this one thing; the Gnan. Yet people have an illusion that Dada knows everything! But what does 'He'know? He does not know anything
I know only this: 'I' know only about 'the Self'. T know that the Self is the knower-seer (gnata-drashta). 'I' can see whatever the Self sees', but I do not know anything else.
T' would know only if I' had the ego (ahamkar). The ego has been absolutely uprooted. It has no roots left whatsoever. There is no trace or sign of where it was. All its rootlets are gone. How great a state that must be!
It must be due to sadhana (spiritual endeavor) of so many past lives that this current state of ours has manifested so abruptly. Otherwise, I have not learnt anything from this current life at all. I have not seen any proficiency in any man. I have not seen any human being as a doer at all.
If a shoemaker is not proficient in his trade, he will continue making shoes but at the end of the year, he will have incurred nothing but a loss. This is how people in this time cycle, are. They incur nothing but a loss. Those who misuse the intellect incur more losses than profits. They ruin all the leather They make the shoes but they also waste leather worth five hundred pairs. Where is the profit in that? They will put in the effort but incur unnecessary loss as well. This is the story of the worldly people. They work and struggle hard in their pursuits of
