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does not have garva?' No matter how much peace a Sat Purush gives to others, he does not have a sense of, 'I am giving him peace, I am doing it.' He knows that He is merely instrumental (nimit) in the process and that He is merely unfolding His own bliss for him.
Therefore He (the Gnani) does not have garva of anything because when there is no ego at all, how can there be any garva? There is garva when the ego is present.
'We do not have that garva. 'We do not have any sense of, 'I performed this action or I did this. It is because people indulge in the taste of doer-ship that they are able to live. Today even renowned readers of scriptures live on the basis of taking garva, 'I am doing it'; they are caught up in its euphoria!
In the presence of this garvaras, which he enjoys so much, he does not like anything else. One will say, 'I renounced everything. I renounced my wife, I have come here leaving millions of rupees behind, so I must be here for liberation!' So I tell him, you know the reason you have come here but how can we tell what other tastes you like to enjoy? You do not like money, but there are many other tastes of garva out there, there is garva of fame. As long as a person enjoys any garvaras, he should not talk about liberation (moksha).
If we pour water on a drunk, will he not lose his intoxication? The poor man will say, 'Sir, there is no fool like me. I do not understand anything. Sir punish me if you have to but give me something.' 'We will liberate him first, because he has become worthy of liberation. This is all the worthiness one needs for liberation The intoxication (keyf) of 'I know' increases
with garvaras One has read scriptures for many lives without attaining anything. That is why Krupadudev said, there is no solution (for
liberation) in the scriptures; the solution is through experiential knowledge. Therefore, go to a Gnani instead of wrecking your brain and ruining your eyes reading the scriptures. But then people brag unnecessarily! Then the intoxication (keyf) of I know' increases. That is a very strong intoxication. The intoxication from alcohol comes down if we pour water over a drunk but this intoxication can never come down, not even if the Lord himself was to come down to decrease it. People also have their own ideas about God because of the intoxication (keyf) of 'I know it'has arisen within. When will all this end for them?
Along with this keyf, one also harbors a desire for maan; he wants importance and respect from others. As it is, he has the habit of enjoying garvaras (taste of doer-ship). He would not let go of garvaras, would he? It is very sweet. His garvaras keeps increasing every time he says, "I did this and 'I did that.' How good he feels when he tells people what he has done! Does he not feel good? Have the ego of 'I don't know anything'
When does one attain the essence (dharma) of anything? When he reads with intense devotion the words of great men; highly evolved spiritual being with an inner intent of (bhavna) 1 do not know anything, he binds merit karma (punya) and when he does it with the intent of 'I know it', then he binds demerit karma (paap) for sure.
Questioner: But it used to happen with only the bhaav of 'I know it'
Dadashri: Nevertheless, what I am saying is that this is all contrary. People merely believe they are binding merit karmas, at least it is better than gambling.
Questioner: But how does that bind demerit karma (paap)? That is not his intention. No one even gets hurt.
