Aptavani 09

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Mahavideh Foundation

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Dadashri: Each obstinacy is different. Are all vegetables the same? There are all kinds of vegetables; obstinacies too are of different kind. Everyone's kadhee (soup) is different and varies; everyone's height is different and so is their color. Is everything not different?
Obstinacy leaves when one attains this Gnan. If obstinacy remains in a person, can one not see it within? No one wishes to hang on to their obstinacy or to keep it safe in a bank vault! Those obstinacies will end
Questioner: We are unable to adjust even when we make a decision to adjust. What is the reason behind this? Is it due to our obstinacy or does our vyavasthit not allow our efforts to succeed?
Dadashri: No, it is because obstinacies are still there. It is all obstinacy. For the one whose obstinacy is gone, all entanglements clear. Your obstinacy is starting to leave and one day it will end. This is because the faucet of the 'tank' (pending karmic accounts) is wide open and running and nothing more or new (no new causes are created) is coming into the tank (karmic tank) and that is why one day the tank will empty. From now on, nothing new is taking place in your factory of obstinacy and your old ones continue to dissipate. One obstinacy will surface and it will come to an end, then another one will come to surface and it too will clear and a third one will surface. Obstinacies that come to surface will leave.
Straight and yet there were subtle obstinacies
Questioner: In the Aptasutra (Dadashri's major volume of 4237 Gnan aphorisms) it says, "Before attaining Gnan, 'we' had crossed the entire ocean of obstinacy. Meaning, this Gnan only manifested after every obstinacy was broken."
Dadashri: Yes, there was a lot of obstinacy (aadayee).
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People could not see it but 'we' could tell there was obstinacy (aadayee) within. On the contrary, people saw me as being straight (sarad). There were small obstinacies, subtle obstinacies, and egotistic ones. They were not of the body; not the kind of becoming upset and non-communicative (risavu). They were obstinacies of the ego. I could tell that the inner adjustment has taken a wrong turn with reference to an interaction with a certain person even though that person would not be aware of it.
Questioner: Does that count as obstinacy (aadayee)?
Dadashri: Then what else? If the other person is right and we do not accept it within, is that not madness of the ego?
Questioner: So is obstinacy not a distortion of the ego? Dadashri: It is definitely the ego. The buddhi (intellect) has nothing to do with it.
Questioner: But is it not a distorted ego?
Dadashri: Distorted indeed. What kind of a distortion? People will say behind your back, 'Just leave him alone, he is a little 'crack (mad)' Don't even mention his name.' Hey you! How can there be a crack in the head if the engine is still running?
In those situations you should be alert.
Questioner: There are many who pounce on us the moment we gently suggest, 'Sir, it is like this..."
Dadashri: Yes, there are some who will react that way but you should be careful before you say anything, otherwise anything is likely to happen. A fight will ensue because they do not understand what you are trying to say. They will misunderstand you. The other person will not understand your good intentions and will take it the wrong way and so he will fight you. If that happens then you should realize that what you are saying is not reaching that person and you should not say