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market, even then your mind you will say, 'Don't do that...don't do that.' So if a lawyer wants to do anything, suspicions will first arise in him saying, 'If I do that, such and such a law will apply to me,' and so he will miss the target and he will end up somewhere else.
Such is the evident problem of the excessive knowledge that you have attained. That is why it continues to push and prod you. One continues to suffer because of this knowing. That is why 'we' say to you to say, 'I do not know anything.' Destroy all the goods' within you by doing this. They are like chewed pieces of sugarcane which have been discarded. It has not helped you at all. You simply believe it has, but it has not been of any help at all. Your worries have not decreased, your ego has not gone down and neither have your anger-pride-deceitgreed. So just get rid of all the quarrelsome goods' within you that have accumulated from your countless past lives. That is why 'we' tell you to keep the intent (bhaav) of, 'I do not know anything. All the knowledge you have makes you suffer; it has not reduced your kashayas of anger-pride-deceit-pride, has it? So, that means that you have not really known anything. If you had, then your kashayas would not be so evident to others. Nevertheless, even in the situation where your kashayas are not evident on the outside, you do not achieve anything because you never know when the not-so-evident kashayas, will erupt again. You keep feeding them through your intellect but that has led you to suffer in countless past lives. That is why, you will find a solution if you have the inner intent of, 'I do not know anything
One seeker had read many scriptures. When he came to receive this Gnan. I told him, 'Can you show me the clay container that holds your doodhpaak (a delicacy of sweet milk)?' When he showed me what he had, I told to him, 'If you take this to a vendor who sells hot peppers and you ask him if it was okay for you to put his hot peppers in it, he will tell you,
you can put a little in it, because he wants to sell his goods to you. Then if you go to the salt merchant and ask him the same, he will tell you that you can. If you go and ask any vendors, they will tell you it is okay for you to add whatever they are selling to your sweet dish. In this way, your precious sweet dish will become ruined, it will ruin the taste in your mouth.
That is why 'we' make you throw away the sweet dish along with the container. We do not want even the smell of it. So, everything that you have known so far is wrong. What is the point of knowing something that did not help you, it did not destroy your anger-pride-deceit-greed and it did not help you attain the Self? And after attaining the knowledge of the Self, there is no need to know anything more. If someone feels that he has attained the Self from what he knows, then there is no need for him to know this Akram Vignan. This is the science of Akram Vignan and the other is the Kramic path. So if a person feels he has attained the Self, then there is no need for him to mix the two. He will not gain anything from mixing the two. He has to continue taking the medicine he normally takes. On the contrary, he may create some other problems by mixing the two medicines. So why would you want to mix the two? Krupadudev has said to follow the path that removes impurities within. Because all we want to see and need is to remove the impurities, what else do we need?
So this worldly life does not let go of those who have suspicions. This world will not let go of anyone who has the slightest of doubt, delusion, or suspicion. That is exactly why one remains bound to the worldly life. Your work will not be accomplished successfully if suspicions arise. Instead uneducated people are better off. These so-called experts of scriptures are
all engrossed in their suspicions. Suspicion has not arisen for our mahatmas who have attained Gnan. Suspicion will arise if you have read a lot, will it not? For the one who becomes suspicionfree, his Self is there with eternal bliss.
