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that is why he continues to do so. Now that he understands this, he will tend to do less of it.
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You are now convinced (pratiti) that it is wrong to keep intense mental notes. Now you will experience (anubhav) the benefits of not doing so. You will gradually taste the benefits of this and then it will manifest in your conduct (charitra). This is how it works.
So if one wants to be free of such conduct (acharan), one must first have a conviction (pratiti) of it, then he will come to experience (anubhav) it and then the negative conduct (charitra) will go away. So everything happens through a scientific process and hence the results are scientific. If you want to climb stairs, can you do it in one leap? You can only do it step by step. You cannot do it in one leap.
You have never heard this word nondha (keeping mental notes), before, have you? Is this not the first time?
Making intense mental notes increases enmity
So do not keep an intense mental note of anything. What have you gained so far by keeping such notes? On the contrary, miseries have increased. So do not keep intense mental notes. Have you not observed that Dada does not keep any notes?
Questioner: I experienced that today. Otherwise, we would not know that you do not make mental notes.
Dadashri: But you must be seeing that Dada does not keep a note, do you not?
Questioner: Yes, you do not keep notes but you remember everything, do you not?
Dadashri: Yes, I remember but I do not keep notes. Questioner: What is the difference between the two,
Dada?
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Dadashri: When an intense mental note (nondha) is made on someone, it means that you are harboring vengeance within towards him. And to remember (yaad) means it is merely related to 'this man has certain weakness in him', that is all. I remember that he has certain weakness within him so that I can bless him; that is the reason for remembering. Otherwise, I do not make a note of anything. If I made a note (nondha) of something then I would have a tendency to take revenge. So 'we' do not make notes. And that is why you do not make notes against 'us', even when 'Dadaji' scolds you.
Questioner: There is love from Dadaji, even when he scolds us.
Dadashri: Yes, so you should not make a note. Half your miseries will go away if you stop making and keeping such notes.
Do people in the world keep intense mental notes?
It is their business to keep intense mental notes. They will say, 'He did this to me and he did that to me.'
It is because I do not keep notes that you do not keep notes on me. People will definitely keep intense mental notes on you if you keep intense mental notes on them. If you take something from my shop, I will keep a note of it. So then will you refrain from keeping a note in your own shop? If I do not make a note to begin with, then the other person will not do so either. Who will keep notes when dealing with me? Even when I tell them off or do anything to them! Everything will be fine if you do not keep intense mental notes. It is not worth keeping such notes.
Vyavasthit eliminates intense mental notes
The relative knowledge is illusionary knowledge. So then what is the use of keeping intense mental notes about anyone in this world? You should not make an intense mental note even if
