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expectations. The Lord has made 'us' the only exception. He has made 'us' 'the one with a life free from all expectations (nirpeksha). There is complete purity here. There are no stains of any kind here.
Not even a hint of mamata
(attachment; 'my-ness') People of this world cannot be free from expectations: there is always some expectation. This Gnani is without any expectation (nirpeksha). He has no attachments (mamata or mamatva) such as 'this is my body, my mind, my chit, this is mine or that is mine. He has no such attachments (mamata) and that is why this is a wonderful Vignan.
'We' had gone to Surat. There 'we' met an ascetic who was a great renunciant. He practiced renunciation with strict discipline. Many people would come to do his darshan, that was the kind of man he was. He told everyone, "Come look! Look! Who is this Dada? If ever I have seen a man completely free of all attachment (mamata). He is the one. He is completely free from expectations. I have met some two hundred or so saints and very religious men but I have not seen a single saint who is without any expectations. Everyone I met had at least some expectation or the other, whereas this Dada is the only man without any expectation that I have seen in my life.' 'We' understood that this ascetic was truly blessed that he could see this and he knew how to test this criteria in the spiritual path. I can say this because I knew that there was absolutely no attachment (mamatva; 'my-ness') in me: I did not have such attachment from a very young age. Therefore, there is no one in this world without any mamata. Without attachment (mamata) means a person without ego. You do not have to look for ego where there is no attachment. A person without mamata means a person without ego. You don't have to look for ego there.
So what is a Gnani Purush like? He is without any attachment and He is ego-less. He lives the way nature keeps him. He does not have any 'I-ness' (potapanu). Where there is no 'my-ness' there exists the
supreme Self Where one has any selfish interest, where there is even a trace of my-ness (mamata), there cannot be any salvation. God manifests where there is no my-ness. Ego exists only due to attachment (this is mine; mamata).
Questioner: Is it possible that mamata gives rise to the ego, which in turn gives rise to raag (attachment)?
Dadashri: No, it is mamata which gives rise to everything. Why does the 'I' exist? It exists because of 'my. Otherwise, the 'I' is the absolute Self (parmatma). 'My' means mamata. Once there is a separation between the 'I' and the 'my', then what is left? The 'I' and that I' verily is the pure Soul
Questioner: Would everyone become a Gnani if they became free from mamata?
Dadashri: Yes. A person will become a Gnani if he becomes free of mamata. All those who became tirthankaras, they were all free from mamata. Mamata can never exist there.
Questioner: What gives rise to this 'my-ness' (mamatva)?
Dadashri: It arises out of greed (lalacha): greed of any kind
Questioner: Is it because of what had been done in the past life?
Dadashri: It is only because you have come into this Gnan that you are able to understand that everything one
