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Dadashri: The fact that you see disorganization and carelessness is the same as saying that the support of the worldly life is now disintegrating. Would the worldly life remain when that happens? Once the support of the worldly life collapses, can the worldly life continue to exist? People will begin to wonder 'what's happening here?' But it is when one becomes carefree and disorganized, without any mental notes that he goes to moksha. Otherwise, the same old clothes and guise, being particular about this and particular about that, particular about money; how can one achieve anything this way? There should not be any note taking. Here you keep a note of everything someone told you yesterday.
What do people assert? They say "Only this man can go to moksha. Only when one is so particular and alert will he go to moksha.' Whereas I say that only a carefree and disorganized person will go to moksha. The solution will arise when you become bankrupt in the worldly shop. So you will have to bankrupt this worldly shop (sansar) if you want moksha. You want to be careful, exact and organized and at the same time you want to go to moksha, both are not possible. How many persons amongst all these seekers of moksha are there who are without intense mental notes?
Questioner: The desire of moksha is only in words, is it not?
Dadashri: That is why I am asking who has come into spiritualism? Who has come closer to the Self? When one becomes desire-less and keeps no note of anything, then he comes closer to the Self. It is not possible to be careful, exact and precise in the worldly life and come closer to the Self at the same time. That is why the Lord had said that one will have to leave home and come to Him if he wants moksha. Why is that? That is because it will not happen by remaining at home.
For us here in Akram Vignan however, we have to
achieve all that while living at home. So what do 'we' make people do? 'We'make them stop making intense mental notes. Remain at home but without keeping intense mental notes. What you need to keep in the worldly life is not to be kept here and what is to be kept here is not to be kept there. Intense mental note taker is not You: Do
not agree with him Questioner: What should one who is desirous of liberation do if making intense mental notes (nondha) has become part of his prakruti?
Dadashri: You have to tell Chandulal (the relative self). *Now stop making notes'.
Questioner: But what should he do about this prakruti that is bent on keeping intense mental notes?
Dadashri: 'We' (the Self and the awakened Lord within) do not have a problem with the prakruti doing it, do we? In fact 'we' are doing it in collaboration with the prakruti. There will not be any note if our' collaboration (agreement) goes away. The prakruti will not even do it: it will get tired of it. If you do not make a note then the other person will not do it either. If I do not make a note of what you take from my shop then you will not do it either. You yourself will say, 'He does not make a note so why should I?' Is that not the rule?
Questioner: Does the making of notes stop naturally and spontaneously or does it occur when one gets to taste the sweet bliss of Your Gnan, Dada?
Dadashri: Yes, otherwise such habits do not leave.
Questioner: Otherwise and until then, it is very difficult to let go of making intense mental notes.
Dadashri: Arey! A person will say, 'I would rather die than let go of the note. I would rather throw myself off the cliff
