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your wife says, 'Your nature is bad. I am going to my parents' home and I am not coming back,' because everything is under the control of vyavasthit. Is it under her control? Is it under her control or in the control of vyavasthit? So then what happens it you make an intense mental note in response of, 'Is that so? What arrogance on her part! Who the hell does she think she is? Let her try it!'? What will happen then? A war will break out!
Questioner: If she talks like that, the mind will go berserk. One will get very excited.
Dadashri: Yes, he will get all excited and a mental war will break out. That mental war will lead to a verbal one. It may even turn into a physical war. What if you remove the cause of all this from its very root? Everything will clear when you remove it from its root. So it is not worth getting into all these problems.
Therefore, it is not worth keeping an intense mental note of anything. What is vyavasthit? Vyavasthit is when you do not keep a note of anything, that is vyavasthit. How can you call it vyavasthit when you make notes and keep them? Being exact in worldly life will impede your
liberation If you do not make an intense mental note in the first place, then where is the problem? Wanting moksha and making an intense mental note; both these cannot occur together. Do people refrain from keeping an intense mental note? You have to stop making notes if you desire moksha. You have to get rid of such a notebook.
In our business naïve that I was, I was not concerned with making notes of everything, if things become documented, it was fine and if it did not, that was fine too. I do not want such an 'account' at all; people like me do not keep notes even if they
have a shop. Otherwise, people keep a note of everything: "Chandulal took one pair...Chaturbhai took one pair'. They write everything down, but they also make an intense mental note.
We used to keep one notebook in the shop but we would forget to write in it and so the business suffered. Therefore making notes improves efficiency of business and brings precision to worldly interaction, but it will not let you get out of your worldly life. And now, we do not have to trouble 'ourselves' by making notes of anything: 'We' do not even have to carry a notebook. What is the point of picking up a pen? It is good that 'we' are so naïve that 'we' do not keep any notes. And therefore, no one keeps any notes about 'us'. So 'our' problem is solved and we are free. No note and no problems! Is that not helpful towards your goal? Intense mental notes perpetuates the
worldly life Questioner: It is important Dada but in the worldly life we have been taught to keep notes.
Dadashri: You need such teachings as long as you want to remain in the worldly life but if you want to go to moksha, you need to learn not to keep notes (nondha).
Questioner: In the worldly life one is taught to keep precise notes of, 'what he did, what the other person did, and what I have to do.'
Dadashri: When you keep such notes you become deeply entrenched in the worldly life (sansari) and the world will not let you go as long as you maintain such notes. The worldly life ends when you cease to keep notes.
Questioner: In the worldly life, I am in the habit of making notes like, 'this man is very careful and well organized' or 'this is what happens when one is careless and disorganized'.
