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than forget.' It is because he feels that, it is his basis for living. Then if you ask him, 'will it work if we take away your food?' He will say, "No, I do need the food.' And yet keeping notes keeps him going. Keeping intense mental notes will not let go of anything. 'We are separate from the one making the
note An intense mental note (nondha) is made because there remains a tanto (tanto is a link connected to a specific incident, internal or external) If a person continues to be upset and noncommunicative (risavu); that is a tanto within him. One cannot see the tanto (link); it is not evident. But when one makes a nondha, then know that the link (tanto) exists there.
If someone insulted you yesterday and you make an intense mental note of it, then I will know that you have a tanto. This tanto - this link is a very dangerous thing to have. There should not be any nondha (intense mental note), at all. The essence of all this is that nothing happens on its own; everything is vyavasthit. How can there be a nondha in the face of vyavasthit? A link of intense mental note is a tanto.
Questioner: Even when we do not have a habit of doing so, we end up making an intense mental note.
Dadashri: Yes, that will happen but you have to erase it later by saying, 'making an intense mental note was a mistake! Just by saying this, it will be erased. You should be of the opinion that you are separate from the one taking the note. Then You are not one (in agreement) with the one making that note. Therefore, You are not of that vote and opinion. If you do not say anything' from within then it implies that you are in agreement with the opinion of the note. This note-making is an age-old habit but this Gnan is such that no note will remain. All your current problems are due to the intense mental notes
Questioner: We have made a habit of making intense mental notes only.
Dadashri: Yes, but that habit will have to be broken, will it not? Until now you were 'Chandulal' and now You have become 'Shuddhatma'. So if that has changed, should this not change too? Will You not have to let go of the intense mental notes? How long can you keep making such notes? 'We do not have any kind of notes, no matter what anyone might say. From the very beginning, 'we' have not kept any notes. What do worldly people call that? They call it dissipation of previously held opinions (purvagraha). Call it what you will call it prejudice or anything else, but keeping intense mental notes is harmful. Intense mental note itself is a tanto. How can there be even the slightest of misery? If there is any misery, it is due to nondha (mental notes). How can there be any misery in the ocean of bliss? Is this Gnan not the ocean of bliss?
Questioner: It is Dada, it is. Dadashri: But do you still not make intense mental notes? Questioner: Dada, they linger on.
Dadashri: Do not harbor them anymore and if that happens, erase them. To keep a tanto means to be obstinate. It means to insist! Don't you think that people come and say things to 'us' too?
Questioner: But what is the reason to keep a tanto (link of intense mental note) now?
Dadashri: Yes, keeping a tanto has not helped; it has only caused the account of karma to fill up.
Why keep a note of changing karmas?
What is the justice of nature when someone insults you? That person insults you due to the fruition of your karma. The time of expression of that karma is over for him, and it is over
