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and nature are prone to use excessive intellect, will continue to have suspicions about this.
Where is the basis for suspicion?
Questioner: Now through your grace, finally we feel and are convinced that no suspicions remain.
Dadashri: Yes, no suspicions can remain here. And this world is not worth having any suspicions over. I would not tell you not to have suspicions in my absence if there were any merit in it. On the contrary, I have told you to eat, drink and be merry and I have also told you not to have suspicions because I have seen the suspicion-free world. That is why I am telling you. I have seen a suspicion-free world on the one side and a world with suspicions on the other. Once I show you the direction of the suspicion-free world, there will be no problem.
Can You function without suspicion?
Questioner: We can function very well! But that should (suspicion-free state) occur, should it not?
Dadashri: That will happen. People of India have been destroyed by doubts, suspicion and fear. So I am trying to get rid of the word suspicion from this world. That word is worth getting rid of. There is no ghost worse than that in the world. That is why many people are in misery: misery caused by suspicion
Why do they have doubts (vahem)? It is not worth having doubts (vahem) of any kind. It is not a problem that helps; it is harmful. It makes worse, whatever bad situation that already exists. And whatever damage is going to occur - there will not be any problems in that. So let go of any doubts. That is what I have been telling you all along and I have helped many get rid of it.
Now all this Gnan is based on my own experiences. I am
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giving you my own experiences and they are appropriate. They are experiences of my awareness (jagruti) which prevails every second; they are not just of this life but also of countless past lives. What is more, they are original. There is no problem if you do not find this knowledge in any scripture but it is original, coming out for the first time in this world.
Dealings are of the pudgal (the relative-Self) and the Self is vitarag
Questioner: I have read in the scriptures about the vitarag (the detached One) and the description about their state of being vitarag, but I have never seen a living vitarag.
Dadashri: You will not find one. You will not be able to do darshan of a vitarag. I failed in this time cycle and that is why I am still wandering. However, that is also why all of you are able to do the darshan. Otherwise, you will not even get to do darshan of the one who is very close to the Absolute state of full enlightenment (kevalgnan)! It is because you are able to do the darshan of the vitarag that you can understand vitarag. That is how 'we' remain.
See, do 'we' have any differences of opinion (matbhed) or problems with anyone even when they say negative things? 'We' know how to deal with such people. 'We' know how to remain 'vitarag' (detached) and deal with them at the same time. The pudgal, the non-Self complex, does the dealing and 'we' remain vitarag. So people have a chance to see a vitarag in this time cycle; that is if they understand this. You will be able to see pure vitarag if You delve deeper. 'We' never keep a mental note of any events that transpire. Once an incident takes place, it is over; 'we' never keep a mental note of it. 'We' got rid of our 'notebook' a long time ago.
Questioner: You do not make note of any compliments or praises given, or being showered with flower garlands or someone hurling insults or stones at You!
