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how you will have to play the role of Chandulal' in your worldly interactions. Your work is done when you realize the answer to, 'Who am I? Suspicion-free about 'I am Chandulal' for
countless past lives No one has really any suspicions or doubts regarding the issue of, 'Who am I?' Even the greatest of ascetics and spiritual masters have never had suspicions over their identity with their name. If suspicions were to arise then we can know that they are approaching samyak darshan - the right vision. However, that suspicion does not arise in the first place! On the contrary, they strengthen their ignorance of their identity and because of that, anger-pride-attachment-greed remain intact. One has held on to the non-truth, this has caused an awareness of this nontruth to be the truth. If one hangs on to the non-truth for a long period of time, that non-truth becomes the truth for him. If the non-truth becomes deeply engrained in his belief, it becomes the truth and then he will never come to the realization that it is the non-truth; it will always be the truth for him.
Hence anger-pride-attachment-greed will go away if suspicions about one's true identity arises, but such suspicions never do. How would they? Who would help you in doing so? Man has been suspicion-free about his real identity for endless past lives, who can create suspicion in this matter? Whatever name one has been given in any life, he assumed it to be the truth. Suspicion has never arisen about it, has it? How tremendously difficult this is? And anger-pride-attachment-greed remains intact because of that. You do not need anger-prideattachment-greed if you are the pure Soul and if you are Chandulal, then you need them. The 'solution of all the scriptures comes from knowing only this - the knowledge of the Self. But how can one attain the knowledge of the Self? After attaining the knowledge of the Self, nothing more remains to be known, but how is one to know this?
Suspicion-free in regards to the Soul
The Lord has said that one cannot become suspicion free regarding the Self. This had indeed happened for Lord Krishna Otherwise, suspicion over what the Soul must be like will always remain: 'Is the Soul like this? What must the Soul be like? Surely there must be some doer-ship in the Soul?' Uncertainties such as these are bound to remain. Otherwise people will claim, "How can everything function without doer-ship?' Alas only the Gnani Purush can know how everything works. The Gnani has come to know the Soul (the Self). The Gnani knows and experiences the Self and it is not the kind that is described in the scriptures. Nothing related to the Self is to be found in books.
No one has become suspicion free in matters of the Self. People claim, 'Surely the soul must have at least this much intent (bhavna)? Now the soul that people believe to be the Soul is the soul I call nischetan-chetan (lifeless life' or the charged soul' or 'charged consciousness'). So how can anyone attain the Soul based on these beliefs? Suspicion is bound to remain here.
The whole world has suspicion in matters of the Soul. People tell me, the soul is doing anger-pride-attachment-greed' I respond, 'So then we don't have to worry about anything. The matter is over!' They go on to justify, 'because matter which is inanimate (ada) can never do anything. 'I tell them, 'Yes, the inanimate cannot do anything but, how can the Soul? When the energy or the power to 'do' is not an inherent property of an entity, how can that entity do anything?' In fact, people do not have knowledge of the vyatirek (tertiary) property that arises when jada matter (inanimate) and chetan (Soul) the animate, come in close proximity with each other. They do not know that when these two elements come together, a third property arises spontaneously. Neither the Soul nor the matter loses its intrinsic (anvaya) property but a new, a third property (vyatirek) arises. However, only the Gnani can make one understand this.
