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(nirbhayta) and because of that one attains the state without any association (nisangata).'
Now the suspicion referred to here is different from worldly suspicion. It means suspicion that occurs starting point of gnan, the pursuit of spiritual knowledge, the entry into path of liberation to the final liberation. All this suspicion is regarding the Self. Up to what point is it considered suspicion? To the point where one no longer has suspicions about the Self, to the point where there are no suspicions or uncertainties about what the Soul is and what it may not be. Until then one will not attain the state devoid of suspicions (nihshankta). When one attains the state free of suspicions, then no energy in this world can create fear. Absolute fearlessness is nirbhayta. And when one attains the state of fearlessness, then despite all company and associations, he is nisang - meaning he is aloof, without association (independent). Despite grave and threatening associations and connections, there prevails a state of absolute freedom and that is moksha. That is what Krupadudev is saying
There is not a single person in this world that has become completely free from suspicions about the Soul. Had anyone attained this state, he would have found liberation and he would have helped another five people or more achieve the same. But instead people are wandering aimlessly and so is he.
This is what happens in the Gnan Vidhi
Otherwise, man has not become suspicion-free in any of his past lives, and especially in matters of the Soul, no one has become suspicion-free (nihshankta). It is not easy to be suspicion-free about the Soul.
This Gnan makes you suspicion-free (nihshank). How does it happen? When the component of mind-intellect-chit-ego (antahkaran), the sense organs (gnanendriyas), organs of action (karmendriyas) all become unanimously accepting (ekmata) that is when one becomes suspicion-free (nihshank).
When everything of the body becomes unified in agreement (ekmata), when the Gnan that is spoken by 'Dada' becomes one voice, all accept it, then one becomes suspicion-free (nihshank).
You no longer have suspicions within, do you? Otherwise, one cannot go even one hour without having suspicions; there is such a 'big crowd within. There is no knowledge which all (the aforementioned components of the antahkaran, gnanendriyas etc.) within will accept. Either the mind will shout and complain, or the chit will shout'. One entity or other within will be upset and find faults. Therefore, they are such that they will not become unanimous. There is a densely packed' 'community' within. Even if one entity within questions, 'What if this happens?' it will give rise to suspicion. And for You (the one who has taken the Gnan in the Gnan Vidhi), there is no uprising within anymore, is there? They are all united and present, are they not? So it is only when everything within is uniformly unanimous, that one becomes suspicion-free.
Never before have all entities within the body become unanimous and uniformly united. It is a different thing when one becomes focused in a deluded state (moorchha) in worldly matters. This worldly state is like the state of one intoxicated with alcohol. Once you give them some 'alcohol', all within fall under the spell of worldly fun (masti); whereas this Gnan is without such moorchha (delusion). This Gnan is such that even if one is intoxicated with a little delusion, it will bring it down.
So wherever you go, everyone has suspicions about the Soul and because of that they remain here caught up in the worldly life. They do not become suspicion-free and they do not achieve anything. Without a Gnani Purush, not a single person has ever become suspicion-free, in matters of the Self. People are looking for knowledge that removes all suspicion, it is not to be found anywhere in anyone. It is not to be found even in the Kramic path. It is only possible here because of Akram Vignan.
