Aptavani 09

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Mahavideh Foundation

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deeper hole for yourself. They linger on for a much longer time. You will not be able to crawl out of it. Even if it is true do not harbor suspicion
All these miseries are caused by suspicions. Suspicion will show you all kinds of things about a person when it arises. It will say, 'He did such and such a thingThat suspicion will then eat you away from the inside. Even if the other person has indeed done something wrong and suspicion (shanka) about him bothers you, just tell the suspicion, 'hey shanka, you leave. He is my brother.'
Questioner: If a man swears at me, how can I believe that he did not swear at me? How can I convince my mind of this?
Dadashri: You can never say that anyway! How can you when in fact he did swear at you. There is no question about it. But what am I saying? Do not be suspicious of him. Suspicion even after entrusting someone?
If you ask someone on the train to take care of five thousand rupees for you so that you can use the restroom, what should you do when a suspicion of what if he runs away with the money?' arises while you are in the restroom? You should tell the suspicion, 'Go away, I have given the five thousand rupees. What is done is done! If the money is meant to go, it will go and if it is meant to stay, it will.' Suspicion makes you create unnecessary bondage by seeing faults in the other person And if a person were to give money to someone like me for safekeeping, what would become of him if he were to have suspicions about me? Therefore, this world is not worth being suspicious about, over anything.
When you remember what you loaned. When you are in bed and suddenly at eleven o'clock in
the night, you get a thought, 'I forgot to get an official document for the five lakh rupees I had loaned. What if he does not sign it tomorrow?' That is it! Then you become like a living corpse.
Say a man pays you interest of a thousand rupees every month on a principle of one hundred thousand he has borrowed from you. This man incurs a loss of two or three hundred thousand rupees in his business. Even though he sends you payment of interest this month, knowing that he has sustained a loss, if you suspect 'What if he does not pay back the hundred thousand? What will I do if he does not give me the money?' Once this suspicion takes hold in your mind, where will it end? A suspicion has no end, and it kills the one who suspects.
Suspicion will arise at odd times at night, what if he does not return the money? This suspicion did not arise during the day time and then it causes you misery when it arises at night. Was there no misery, during the entire daytime? When you have given the money, and if suspicion of, 'will he return it or not?' arises, then you will feel the pain, will you not? Why did you have the suspicion at night and not during the day?
Questioner: What is the reason?
Dadashri: It is our foolishness. If you are going to be suspicious, then be suspicious constantly. Be suspicious with so much awareness that you are suspicious from the time you lend the money
So if you lend a hundred thousand rupees to someone and later at some point in time you feel that man is not reliable, even then you should not let suspicion arise. 'What is going to happen now?' is creating another suspicion. And what do you think is going to happen? This body is going to go away and so is the money. Is everything not going to go away eventually? Ultimately you will have to cry. Ultimately, it will all burn in a pyre, will it not? So then why are you killing yourself prematurely? Why not live peacefully?