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Questioner: We will tackle those thoughts when they come!
Dadashri: How will they come in the first place? You will not have to tackle them even if they come: You have nothing to do with them. They are of a different caste and so are You. Different caste and different lineage! So nothing can happen, in fact nothing really happens either. One has not even seen anything happen. All are just suspicions and that too it is merely a pudgal bhaav i.e. it is all inanimate and of the non-Self. Nothing happens to you and it is a waste of time and energy. Yes indeed if it were of the chetan bhaav, of the Self, it would overcome You but that is not so, so then? What can the inanimate do to the animate? It would be a different matter if it were chetan. The Gnan says that all that anoints, the anointing tendencies of the mind-speech-body are inanimate - manvachan-kayana tammam lepaymaan bhaavo, ey jada na bhaavo chhe' and the 'Self" is nirleyp i.e. it can never be affected; it can never be anointed. So what is going to anoint you? Do we not say that the inanimate bhaav are those of the prakruti (non-Self)?
Questioner: Yes we do.
Dadashri: Then the questions and the speculation of 'what could it be, what could it not be?' would never arise. All the anointing tendencies of the mind-body-speech are inanimate attributes, tendencies of matter (the non-Self): they are not of the Self. Their form, their caste and their guise are different. What do they have to do with You?
Awareness of Gnan against suspicion
Questioner: Now after Gnan, what do we have to do, when suspicion arises?
Dadashri: You just have to continue to see that suspicion has arisen.
Questioner: Should we not show our opposition towards the suspicion?
Dadashri: You don't have to do anything! The adjustments will be taken on their own. You just have to keep observing "Oh hol Chandulal has suspicion. When suspicion arises, he is always in serious torment (santaap). He is in tremendous misery. The Lord has said that suspicion is the biggest mistake that gives instant misery. That suspicion will give misery to the other person whenever it will, but before it does, it will cause tremendous misery to the one having suspicion. By retaliating (pratibhav), the pain of suspicion will increase.
Questioner: So do we have to remain separate with awareness at the time of suspicion?
Dadashri: You have to remain separate at that time but also you have to remain separate all other times too. Try to remain separate for one day; try to do it one day out of the week. Then you will realize that there is nothing to it if you have to do it the next day. You will not fall.
Questioner: The problem is not with the falling: it is with the entanglements it creates.
Dadashri: The entanglement is due to your prior practices and habits and that is why it does not go away. It does not leave. But there is no need for suspicion now.
Questioner: Does suspicion get destroyed when I remain separate?
Dadashri: Yes, suspicion dissipates on its own.
Questioner: So from now on all that is needed is for us to maintain this awakened awareness (jagruti after Gnan).
Dadashri: The 'seer' (onaar) is always aware. If one is a 'seer' then he is jagrut (awake). One is knower-seer (gnatadrashta) only when he is aware or awake. Otherwise, the
