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is going to happen to the other person, will happen but suspicion will destroy you in the process. Suspicion will not leave a person until it destroys him. Do you think suspicion is healthy? With suspicion, a person lives like a corpse.
Therefore, it is best not to be suspicious about anything: it should be removed from its roots. Suspicion should also be removed from worldly interactions. Avoid any interaction that leads to the possibility of suspicion. Suspicion does not help; it destroys a person. Certain words only cause harm. This word risavu (being upset and non-communicative) is one such word. If there is benefit and a loss, it is acceptable but there is only harm in these words. It is better to get rid of them.
Intellect ruins the worldly life
Questioner: Why does a man with lot of buddhi (intellect) have more suspicion?
Dadashri: He can see all the phases through his intellect. He can see, it must be this way, this is how he must have put his arm around her etc. If some man were to put his arm around his wife, that would give rise to suspicions of all kind and all the phases (paryaya) of, 'what must be going on?' And that chain of phases initiated by the intellect will continue, whereas an abuddha person i.e. a person without excess buddhi (intellect) will not be concerned with it much. Actually, such a person is not truly abuddha i.e. he is not truly without intellect. The Gnani has gone beyond the intellect; he has enough intellect to run his daily life. He does not have any other unnecessary intellect with its other complications. Something will happen within and then it will stop. He will use whatever intellect is necessary and then stop.
Questioner: So are you talking about those who lack worldly intelligence; those whose intellect has not developed yet?
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Dadashri: No there are very few such people; people like the laborers and such people.
Questioner: But do people not attain intellect first and then attain the state of abuddha (the state of being without excess intellect)?
Dadashri: That is a different thing altogether. That is a parmatma state - the state of the supreme Soul. After attaining intellect, when one becomes abuddha, that is the state of parmatma (the state of the absolute Self).
But this worldly life becomes very difficult for a person with intellect. If a man with excess intellect has five daughters, when the daughters grow up and start going out, he will start to recall all the phases. He can understand everything with his intellect. He can visualize everything and then he becomes very troubled and entangled. Nevertheless, he has no choice but send his daughters off to college and yet he has to see all the phases his intellect shows him. Whether something happens or not God only knows but he dies of suspicions.
He has no knowledge of events that are actually taking places and so he has no suspicions about them but he has endless suspicions where there is nothing going on. He is scorched by endless suspicions and he becomes fearful. So, the moment suspicion arises in a person, he is doomed.
Suspicion, continued suspicion and destructive suspicion
Questioner: Please explain shanka (suspicion), aashanka (repeated suspicion), and kushanka (destructive suspicion)?
Dadashri: A father with intellect has a grown up daughter. He does not have a lot of attachment towards her, so he will automatically understand that he has to keep a suspicious eye (shanka) on his daughter. He will have to keep a careful eye on her. A man with awareness will always be alert. One can
