Aptavani 09

Author(s): Dada Bhagwan
Publisher: Mahavideh Foundation

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man. Suspicion causes the greatest of miseries and will uproot your entire Gnan and throw it out. Nothing is going to happen outside of vyavasthit. What is; is and what is not; is not. Instead you can ask your sister to serve you your dinner and you can separate the two in this way but you should never become suspicious. Suspicion can only make you miserable. Whatever is in vyavasthit is, and what is not, is not. Do not become suspicious.
Questioner: But is suspicion not due to the fruition of karma?
Dadashri: To have suspicions is not considered fruition of karma. Suspicion is spoiling your inner intent; it means you are meddling and therefore it will give you misery. Never have any suspicions.
If someone is talking to your sister do not get suspicious because now you want to go to moksha, and besides nothing is going to happen outside of vyavasthit in one lifetime. It will happen regardless of whether you have awareness of Gnan or not. No change is going to occur whether you are a Gnani or agnani. So there is no reason to have suspicions.
Questioner: Because nothing is going to change.
Dadashri: Yes, nothing is going to change and there is great harm in suspicion.
Questioner: But there is no charging after this Gnan, is there?
Dadashri: There is no charging, but there is 'charging' if you harbor such suspicions for a very prolonged time to the extent that you become shankashil obsessed) with suspicion. In this state your ego has arisen to the level of a worldly being Chandulal. You cannot have suspicions if you want moksha. Still in the absence of Self-realization, that is exactly what happens. Whereas here, you get the benefit of Gnan, you get the benefit
of freedom and only that which is destined to occur, will occur. Therefore, there is no reason to have suspicions. You have to stop being suspicious. Dada has said 'no' to suspicions.
It is your own weakness Questioner: Suspicions first hurts one's own self, does it not?
Dadashri: Yes, suspicion destroys only the person who is being suspicious. The other person has nothing to do with it. What harm comes to the other person? He does not care, he will tell you, 'whatever is going to happen to me will happen, why you are being suspicious?
Now if you have suspicions, it is your weakness. It is different if there is no weakness but there is always weakness in humans, it is naturally present, no matter how little. When that weakness goes away, you become God. There is only one thing he, whose weaknesses go away, is God. Dada listens to suspicions through the magic
of Gnan If a person becomes suspicious of 'us', is he likely to be spared? It will haunt him even in sleep. Because of the purity within 'us', 'we' can make others pure (shuddha) too. 'We'do not have any problems even if someone has suspicions about ‘usSuspicion is his own weakness.
That is why Kaviraj has written: 'Even though we are full of suspicions from a misguided intellect, He (the Gnani) observed with the profound magic of Gnan, And yet never punished us. And He did not differentiate between Him and us.
What is Kaviraj trying to say? When does suspicion about Dada arise? It arises when there is wrong intellect.
This happened one time. 'We' had placed our hand on