Atamgyani Shraman Kahave

Author(s): Kumarpal Desai
Publisher: Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra Koba
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008703/1

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra lekhaka kumArapALa desAI preraka 5. pU. AcAryazrI padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. www.kobatirth.org prakAzaka zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA mudraka rAkeza ke. desAI caMdrikA prinTarI, lesara DivIjhana) mirajhApura roDa, amadAvAda-380 001. phona. 20578 AvRtti Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir dvitIya, kArtika vada trIja vi. saM. 2048, kiMmata 20 rU. A pustakanA sarvahaka prakAzakane svAdhIna che. 2 For Private And Personal Use Only

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prApti sthAna zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA. ji. gAMdhInagara phona naM. ra 134ra-2 1343 zrI jayabhikhkhuM sAhitya TrasTa, 13-bI caMdranagara sosAyaTI, jayabhikhu mArga, pAlaDI amadAvAda-380007 kiraNa zAha zItalanAtha sosAyaTI chake mALe, e-vIMga zAhapura bAhAI seTara amadAvAda zrI sarasvatI pustaka bhaMDAra ratanapoLa, hAthIkhAnA amadAvAda-380001. zrI sImaMdhara svAmI jinamaMdira peDhI, hAIve roDa, mahesANA-384 002. zrI kalyANa pAzvanAthe jaina maMdira 35, sI phesa, copATI muMbaI-400 009. sumatilAla eca. haraDe 40/5, "upendra" bilDIMga, arorA sinemA pAse, mATuMgA, muMbaI-400 019. phona naM. 474795 megharAja pustaka bhaMDAra goDIjI cAla, bIje mALe, pAyadhunI muMbaI-400 003. gIradharalAla je. vorA 48, sItArAma pATakara mArga, muMbaI-400 007. phona naM 8113689 For Private And Personal Use Only

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lekhakanI vAta prasiddha pheMca caritra-lekhaka ke movae jIvanacaritranI vibhAvanA 4012 sedi sei, Biography is the story of evolution of a human soul' arthAtu jIvanacaritra e to mAnavaAtmAnA vikAsanuM vRttAMta che. pa. pU. gacchAdhipati AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. nA jIvanamAM paNa mAnavaAtmAnA bhavya vikAsanuM darzana thAya che. lakhanAra dhanya bane tevuM pAvana A jIvana che. bahu virala vyaktionuM bAhyajIvana evuM punita ane prabhAvaka hoya che ke jemAMthI ApoApa AMtarajIvananA vikAsanI rekhAo UpasatI, phUTatI ane pragaTatI hoya. A caritramAM pUjya AcAryazrInA bAhya dharmakAryanI sAthosAtha emano virala AMtarika vikAsa pragaTa thAya che. AvI vibhUtinuM caritra-Alekhana karavAnuM kAma svAbhAvika rIte ja kaparuM gaNAya. vaLI mAre mATe to vizeSa paDakArabharyuM gaNAya. eka to pUjaya AcAryazrI kailAsAgarasUrIzvarajIne mAtra eka ja vakhata maLavAnuM banyuM hatuM ane te paNa sAva alapa-jhalapa ! emanA jIvananI ghaNI vAto sAMbhaLI hatI. emanI preraNAthI sarjAyelAM derAsaronA pratyakSa darzana karyA hatAM, paraMtu gADha paricayanA abhAve A caritra AlekhavAnI AraMbhamAM to meM AnADAnI dAkhavI. pa. pU. AcAryazrI padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. e kahyuM, 'yoganiSTha AcArya buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajInuM caritra tamArA pitAzrI 'jayabhikhu'e lakheluM che. A caritra tamArI pAse ja mAre lakhAvavuM che.' aMte emanA saddabhAvapUrNa Adezane vaza thaIne A caritra lakhavAnI javAbadArI zire lIdhI. kharI muzkelIno anubhava to tyAre thayo ke jyAre pUjya AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA.ne kALadharma pAmyAne mAMDa eka varSa vItyuM hovA chatAM emanA jIvana vizenI zraddheya mAhitI bahu ochI sAMpaDatI hatI. emanI paMnyAsapadavI, upAdhyAyapadavI vagere padavIonI tithiomAM paNa dvidhA pravartatI hatI. Ane mATe Thera Thera tapAsa karI. jahonsananuM caritra lakhatAM agAu eka tArIkhanI khAtarI karavA mATe bojhavela aDadhuM laMDana zahera pharI vaLyo hato. kaMIka AvI sthiti ahIM thaI. Thera Thera A tithinI tapAsa karI. prasaMganI tasavIro ane zrIsaMdhanI nimaMtraNa patrikA joI. nikaTanA sAthIone maLyo. aMte emanA jIvananI mahattvanI ghaTanAo, teozrInA cAturmAsa tathA teonA dvArA thayelI aMjanazalAkA pratiSThAnI mAhitI maLI. pa. For Private And Personal Use Only

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AmAM khUTatI mAhitI athavA to vadhu zraddheya mAhitI koInI pAse hoya to jaNAvavA vinaMtI che. sauthI moTI muzkelI e hatI ke A sAva ni:spRhI mahAtmA hamezAM prasidhdhithI aLagA rahyA hatA. emane vize bhAgye ja koI lekha maLe. vaLI emaNe pote potAnAM pravacanonAM koI pustaka pragaTa karyA nahotAM koi rojanIzI lakhI nahotI. emano patravyavahAra paNa bahu ocho maLyo, AthI emanA samakAlInone maLIne bane teTalAM smaraNo ekaThA karyA iDA mina TArabele paNa amerikAnA mAnavatAvAdI pramukha abrAhama liMkananuM caritra lakhatAM pahelAM emanA aneka samakAlIno pAsethI smaraNA bhegAM karyAM hatAM ne! ApaNe tyAM ghaNAM caritro lakhAya che. sAdhumahArAjanA caritramAM kyAMka mAtra dhArmika anuSThAnonI lAMbI lAMbI vigato maLe che. vAstavamAM racaritra e nathI zuSka ItihAsa ke nathI mAtra mAhitIno khaDakalo. caritranuM Alekhana evuM rasaprada rIte thavuM joIe ke caritranAyakanA AMtara-bAhya vyakitatvanI vAca kane anubhUti thAya. caritramAM mAtra "satyam' nahIM, balake "suMdaramuMnA sumeLa sadhAvo joIe. caritralekhaka tathyo. vigato ke mAhitIne eka vaijJAnikanI mAphaka cakAse che kharA. paraMtu enuM Alekhana to eka kalAkAranI peTe kare che. pariNAme A caritramAM paNa lAMbA purva itihAsa, nIrasa pUrvabhUmikA ke mAtra dharmaanuSThAnAnI vigato ApavAne badale mAnavaAtmAnA vikAsano mArmika paricaya maLI rahe tevo Azaya rAkhyA che. samabhAva ane tATadhyathI rasaprada caritralekhana karavAno prayAsa karyo che. caritranAyakanA Urmijagata ane vicArasRSTinAM saMvedanone AlakhIne emanA AMtara jIvanamAM AvelI bharatI-oTanI oLakha ApI che. parama pUjaya AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjasAhebanA jIvananA aneka prasaMgA parama pUjaya AcAryazrI pamasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAja ane emanA munirvAda pAsethI maLyA che. sAcI guru bhakti ane sAcI guruaMjali ApatA hoya tema teoe divasonA divaso sudhI Ana mATe samaya phALavyo ane jarUrI mAhitI ApI. parama pUjaya AcAryazrI bhakarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjasAheba tathA parama pUjaya AcAryazrI subodhasAgarasUrIzvarajI mAM 2AjasAheba paNa ghaNA mArmika prasaMgA kahyA. samagra cara nuM Alekhana thayA bAda parama pUjaya AcAryazrI kalyANasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAja sAheba AkhuM caritra joI gayA ane emAM jarUrI sudhArA-vadhArA sucavIne A caritrane pramANabhUtatAnI mahora mArI. munirAja zrI saMyamasAgarajI mahArAja - sAheba, munirAja zrI zivasAgarajI mahArAjasAheba. munirAja zrI For Private And Personal Use Only

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aruNodayajI mahArAjasAheba pAsethI pAsethI ghaNI upayogI mAhitI maLI. tathA anya sAdhubhagavato pUjya AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajInA saMsArI jIvana vize emanA bhatrIjA zrI rAmaprakAzajI jaina pAsethI mUlyavAna vigato maLI. mahesANAmAM pUjya AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajIne abhyAsa karAvanAra paMDita zrI pukharAjI amIcaMdajIe svAsthyanI pratikULatA hovA chatAM mArI jijJAsAnA uttara vigate lakhIne ApyA. sarvazrI sumatibhAI haraDe, ramaNalAla maNilAla zAha (sANaMdavALA), yu. ena. mahetA, hemataMbhAI brokara, phtehacaMda kesarIcaMda, zAMtilAla mohanalAla zAha, zanAlAla TI. zAha, hitendrabhAI ke. zAha, bAbubhAI kaDIvALA, rAjendrabhAI zAha, caMpakalAla maNiyAra tathA anya aneka mahAnubhavonA ame AbhArI chIe ke jemaNe A jIvanacaritranA Alekhana mATe sAmagrI ane suvidhA pUrI pADI. gurabhaktithI prerAIne zrI giradharalAla vorAe A suMdara prakAzana mATe jarUrI Arthika sahayoga Apyo, teonA paNa ame AbhArI chIe. pustakanI bhASAzuddhi aMge zrI jayanta paramAranA sahayogane smaruM chuM. AvA caritranA AlekhanamAM jANyeajANye kaMI truTi rahI gaI hoya to kSamA ApIne dhyAna doravA vinaMtI che. A caritranuM Alekhana thatAM eka prakAranA AtmasaMtoSa ane AnaMdano anubhava thAya che. jema jema AnA AlekhanamAM tAdAtmya anubhavato gayo, tema tema AtmAmAM anerA ullAsano anubhava thayo. AvI vibhUtinuM jIvana zabda rUpe sAkAra karavA mATe parama pUjya AcAryazrI padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjasAhebe mArAmAM je zraddhA mUkI te mATe teono huM sadAno RNI chuM. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir caritra cAritryane ghaDe che ane emAM paNa AvuM caritra to AtmaghaDatara ane AtmavikAsa sAdhanAruM che. e vibhUtinA jIvananI samagra mahattA to zabdothI sAkAra karavI muzkela che, paraMtu AmAMthI kaMIka jhalaka paNa adhyAtmajijJAsuone maLI raheze to mAro zrama sArthaka lekhIza. kumArapALa desAI jJAnapaMcamI kArataka suda pAMcama, vi. saM. 2045. 7 For Private And Personal Use Only

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sevA-dharmanI suvAsa "AtamajJAnI zamaNa kahAve" e paramapUjaya gacchAdhipati kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjasAhebanA adhyAtmajIvanane AlekhatA graMthane eka saMskArI ane dharmaparAyaNa kuTuMbano Arthika sahayoga maLyo che te kai rIte bhUlI zakAya . AvA dharmakAryamAM paNa e vizALa kuTuMbanI saMskAravAse satata praTatI dekhAya che. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir jUnA graMthI paMdara mAila dUra AvelA magharavADA gAmamAM jIvAnA lakSmIcaMda vorAnuM bhAvanAzIla kuTuMba rahetuM hatuM. kuTuMbanA mobhI jIvaNabhAinA hRdayamAM jinazAsana pratye agAdha lAgaNI hatI. magharavADAmAM sAdhujanono yo thatA emanuM haiyu nAcI UThatuM hatuM. emanI vaiyAvaccano bane teTalo lAbha meLavavA sadA tatpara rahetA. junAgaDhathI sAdhu-sAdhvIo vihara karIne galI jAya,tyAMthI magharavADA Ave ane e raste thaine mAMgaroLa, coravADa, verAvaLa ke prabhAsapATo tarapha vihAra karatA hatA. jIvaNabhAi jeTalA dharmaparAyaNa hatA, eTalA ja emanA patnI maNibahena mAnavatAcAhaka hatAM. koi garIbane jue ane ene madada karavA doDI jAya. koi bhukhyAne jue ane ene bhojana ApavA pahoMcI jAya. emane vaidaka paNa Ave. magharavADAmAM koi bImAra paDayuM hoya, to maNibahenane bolAvavAmAM Ave. koi aDadhI rAte Ave, to paNa maNibahena hozabhera ene davA Ape. potAnI pAse dhaMdhArovaja rAkha. koine kAnamAM pIDA thAya to davAnAM TIpAM Ape. khAma bIjAnI sevAmAM jAta ghasI nAkhavAmAM emane khUba AnaMda Avato. kayAreka moDI rAtre maNibahenane yAda Ave ke gAyane khaDa nAkhavAnuM rahI gayuM che to dIkarAne uThADa. kaheke ApaNe khAie to ene kema bhUkhyuM rAkhI kAya ? dIkarAne ghAsa nAkhavA mokale, AvI ja rIte jenA gharanI Arthika sthiti nabaLI hoya. ene anAja, bhojana vagerenI madada karatA. keTalAka maNibahena praMsa madada levA AvatA, paNa jo koi zaramasaMkocane kAraNe emanA ghara Ave na tA pAMte jAte jaine ApI AvatA. roja jarUra karatAM vadhu roTalA banAvatA. da -zAka paNa vadhu kare ane pachI dIkarAone kahe ke amukane dhera A bhojana pI Avo. bhUkhyAne bhojana ApavuM-e saMskAro maNibahene sanata potAnA vyavahAra potAnA bALakomAM reDayAM. emanA gharane kayAMya sAMkaLa ke tA hoya nahIM. bIjAne ApavAmAM ja mAne, ene tyAM corI thAya kema " emanuM ghara sAva khulluM hoya. emane kadI corInI dhAstI lAgatI nahIM. roTalo banAve to pahelAM kUtarAnI cAnakI banAve. pahelA kUtarAne roTalo Ape pachI ja sahue javAnuM hoya. 8 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jIvaNabhAi parizramabhera dhaMdho kare, ghoDApara besIne baDodara jAya. baDodaramAM emanI kapAsIyAnI dukAna cAle. aDadho divasa kAma kare. sAMje ghera pAchA phare. paNa dIkarAne keLavaNI ApavAmAM kadI pAchI pAnI kare nahi. dukAnethI koi udhAra lai gayuM hoya. ugharANI karavA chatAM rakama pAchI AvatI na hoya to kadI enI sAthe takarAra kare nahIM. ene dhamakI Ape nahIM. manomana eTaluM ja vicAre ke enI sthiti sArI nahi hoya to ja paisA Apato nahi hoya. bAkI Ama to mANasa sAro che. jIvaNabhAine mAnavInA sad-aMzamAM UMDI zradhdhA hatI. jIvaNabhAine pAMca dIkarA. narottamadAsabhAi, giradharabhAi, jeThAlAlabhAi, jayaMtIbhAi, amIcaMdabhAi ane traNa dikarIo sAMkALIbena, samaratabena, tathA navalabena. potAnA kuTuMbIjanone haMmezA kahetA ke mANasane sAcA ane sArA mAnavI banAve tenuM nAma ja dharma. ApaNe ApaNA dharmanuM pAlana karavuM ane bIjAne madada karavI. teo kahetA ke jevuM vAvazo tevuM laNazo. sukhI thavA mATe ke saMyukata kuTuMba jALavavA mATe sArI, sAcI ane udAra bhAvanA rAkhajo. evAmAM vi.saM. 1991mAM A kuTuMba para AphatanA oLA UtarI AvyA. maNibenanuM sarpadaMzathI mRtyu thayuM ane AkhuM kuTuMba ekAeka chatrachAyA gumAvI beThuM. A samaye jIvaNabhAinA sauthI moTA dIkarA narottamabhAi muMbaimAM vepAra karatA hatA. i.sa. 1919nI 19mI eprile janmelA giradharabhAI mAtAnA avasAna samaye meTrikano abhyAsa karatA hatA. magharavADAmAM to abhyAsanI sagavaDa kyAMthI maLe ? AthI giradharabhAi jUnAgaDhanI bahAdurakhAnajI hAiskUlamAM bhaNe ane zeTha devakaraNa mULajI sau. vi. jaina borDiMgamAM rahe. abhyAsa cAlato hato tyAMja mAtAnuM AvasAna thayuM. vi.saM. 1993mAM giradharabhAinA samaratabahena (samajubahena) sAthe lagna thayA. pachInA varSe muMbai AvyA. muMbaimAM AvIne nokarI zarU karI. dhIre dhIre potAno vyavasAya karavAno vicAra karyo. eka sukhada paLe emaNe bAMdhakAmanA dhaMdhAmAM jhaMpalAvyuM. ekale hAye Akho sAgara taravA jevI A vAta hatI. pAse moTI mUDI nahIM. pAchaLa koi moTuM pIThabaLa nahIM. vaLI bAMdhakAmanA dhaMdhAno kazoya anubhava nahIM, chatAM giradharabhAi rAta-divasa eka karIne mahenata karavA lAgyA. dhIre dhIre nAnAM kAmothI zarUAta karI. A vyavasAyamAM emanuM nAma jANItuM banyuM. emanI pramANikatA, namratA ane mahenatuvRtti joine bAMdhakAmanA moTAM moTAM 'konTrAkTa' maLavA lAgyA. mAtra makAnanA ja nahi, paNa moTI-moTI milonuM bAMdhakAma karavA lAgyA. remanDa vulana mila, nyU kaisare hiMda mila jevI milonuM bAMdhakAma karyuM. i.sa. 1965 sudhI emaNe A vyavasAyamAM kheDANa karyuM ane ghaNI moTI nAmanA meLavI. For Private And Personal Use Only

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I. sa. 1961mAM luzALAmAM jhIMka oksAIDanI phekaTarI zarU karI. 1967mAM ekasaporTanA vyavasAyamAM jhaMpalAvyuM. emAM paNa giradharabhAIe AgavI nAmanA meLavI. kendra sarakAre emane ekasaporTanI yazasvI kAmagIrI mATe traNa eNvorDa enAyata karyA. gujarAta sarakAre paNa emanA para sanmAnanI navAjeza karI. I. sa. 1973mAM 'kejalsa' nAmanI kApaDanI vizALa dukAna zarU karI. 1974mAM bhArata krAuna enDa meTala inDasTrIjha nAmanA kArakhAnAno kAryabhAra saMbhALyo. giradharabhAI vyavasAyamAM DUbelA hatA, chatAM putronI keLavaNI tarapha khUba dhyAna ApyuM. zazIkAMta, dineza, pradIpa, jitendra, manoja ane azvina jevA putro ane putrI maMjulAne abhyAsa ke vyavasAyamAM satata preraNA ane protsAhana pUrAM pADyAM. giradharabhAI eka bAju vepAranA judAM judAM kSetromAM kheDANa kare, bIjI bAju vizALa kuTuMbanuM dhyAna rAkhe. paNa A badhAnI sAthosAtha teo dharmaparAyaNa jIvana paNa gALatA hatA. upAzraya bAMdhavo hoya to sahu giradharabhAInI salAha levA Ave. teo kahe che ke parama pUjya kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanA AzIrvAdano emanA jIvana para prabaLa prabhAva paDelo che ane tethI ja e mahAna gacchAdhipattinA caraNakamaLamAM samarpita thatuM A zabdapuSpa pragaTa karavA mATe emaNe sadbhAva dAkhavyo, te sarvathA ucita che. ma Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 10 TrasTIgaNa zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobA For Private And Personal Use Only

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1 3 ra 6 38 45 56 66 77 anukrama 1 agama piyAlA pIo 2 kaSTathI ISTanI prApti 3 bhAvanAnI khetI 4 gaNimAMthI gacchAdhipati 5 karUNAsAgara 6 sAdhutAnuM zikhara 7 AtmasAdhakanI aMtarayAtrA 8 laghutAmAM prabhutA 9 pIDa parAI jANe re ! 10 vAtsalyamUrti 11 AtmabaLanuM ojasa 1ra zaraNuM eka sAcuM 13 mRtyu vijetA | jIvana-rekhA | jIvana-paricaya [] cAturmAsanI yAdI [] aMjanazalAkAo [C] ziSyasamudAya 104 117 132 149 158 159 160 16 ra 16 4 11 For Private And Personal Use Only

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'mane jIvavAno moha nathI, maravAno Dara nathI, jIvazuM to soha soha karazuM, marazuM to mahAvideha jaizuM.' --5.pU. A. gacchAdhipati AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir 12 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jIvananI eka kaTokaTIbharI kSaNe kAzIrAmano AtmA bhAre gaDamathala anubhavato hato. jIvanamAM aneka kSaNo AvatI hoya che, paraMtu ene ghaDanArI ke enuM parivartana karanArI virala kSaNa ja hoya che. evI kSaNe mAnavInuM AtmakuMdana vicAronI bhaThThImAM tavAya che ane emAMthI je bahAra nIkaLe che te sAcuM sonuM hoya che. vAMcana, ciMtana ane mananane pariNAme yuvAna kAzIrAmanA cittamAM tIvra saMgharSa cAlato hato. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir yuvAna kAzIrAma ekabAjuthI potAnI AsapAsanA saMsArano vicAra kare che,to bIjIbAju enuM jIvanadhyeya A yuvAnane pokArI-paDakArIne AhvAna Ape che. kAzIrAmanI najara emanA patnI zAMtAdevInA sukomaLa mukha para paDe che. dharmaparAyaNa pitA rAmakizanadAsajInA saMskAra yAda Ave che. vaLI hamaNAM ja vyavasAyanI javAbadArI svIkArI che. ekAeka enuM mana pokArI UThe che ke tAre A gRhasthI nibhAvavAnI ja che. khabaradAra ! saMsAranA A barAnI bahAra paga mUkyo to! paNa tyAM ja aMdarano AtamarAma jAgI UThe che. e kahe che ke zuM tAre bhogavilAsanuM bhautika jIvana gALavuM che? AkhuMya jIvana kSaNika AnaMda ane vyavahArika goThavaNomAM ja vyatIta karI devuM che? bALapaNathI ja AvA AnaMda-ullAsamAM koi dilacazpI nahotI, saMsAra-vyavahAramAM koi rasa nahoto. sAdhu-saMtonA satsaMgamAM je meLavyuM te saghaLuM eLe jaze? varSonAM varSo svAdhyAya karyo enuM phaLa zuM? phaLanI vAta AvatAM ja ene bhagavAna mahAvIranuM cetavaNIsUcaka daSTAMta yAda Ave che. bhagavAna mahAvIre rAjagRhanA comAsAmAM eka aeSTAMta ApyuM hatuM. emaNe kahyuM--- "keTalAka loko atithi mATe gheTAne pALe che, ene khUba lADa laDAve che, sAro ghAsa-cAro khavarAve che. ene coLA ne java khavarAvI hRSTapuSTa banAve che. gheTo khAya che ne moja kare che. e gheTo moTI kAyAvALo ane moTA peTavALo thAya che. gheTo mAne che ke mArA jIvanamAM AnaMda che, moja che,masta thaine khAvA-pIvAnuM che. juone, bIjA gheTAM kevAM rakhaDe che! kevAM bhUkhe mare che! "evAmAM eka divasa gharadhaNI mahemAnane jamADavA rAtA-mAtA gheTAne pakaDIne bAMdhe che ane eno vadha kare che. enA nAnA TukaDA karI enI svAdiSTa vAnagI banAve che. gheTAne maratI vakhate atithi AvyAno zoka thAya che! 'paNa jarA UMDA UtarIne vicAra karo ke ghaDapaNarUpI atithi kone nathI Avato? to vaLI mRtyurUpI charI kone halAla nathI karatI? e atithi ane charI AvyA pahelAM ja cete te ja khage cetyo kahevAya.' 14 For Private And Personal Use Only

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da) ane Aje kAzIrAma jAgI gayo hato. cetIne vicAra karato hato. ekabAju vartamAna gRhasthajIvana ane bIjIbAju sanyasta jIvananI abhIpsA. gharamAM snehanuM vAtAvaraNa hatuM. kuTuMbamAM sahune lAgaNI hatI. premabharyo e parivAra hato, tema chatAM tIrthaMkara paramAtmA nahAvIrasvAmInuM jIvana yuvAna kAzIrAmanI najara AgaLathI khasatuM nahotuM. rAjamahela, vaibhava, patnI ane putrI - e badhuM ja bhagavAne kevuM paLavAramAM choDI dIdhuM! evAmAMuttarAdhyayana sUtra'nI eka gAthA kAzIrAmanA hRdayane khaLabhaLAvI mUke che. emAM kahevAyuM che ke, "vItI gayelI rAta kadI pAchI AvatI nathI. adharma AcanAranI je rAtrio vItI gaI che te niSphaLa gaI samajavI ane saddharma AcanAranI e rAtrio saphaLa gaI mAnavI." * jIvanane kayA patha para laI javuM? 'uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM mokSano mArga batAvavAmAM Avyo che e tarapha javuM ke pachI enA tarapha pITha pheravIne saMsAranA sukhadu:khomAM DUkhyA rahevuM sukhI saMsAra vacce rahelA kAzIrAmane koI anAhata nAda becena banAvI rahyo hato. e kaheto hato ke jIvananuM to eka ja dhyeya ane te karma-AvaraNathI raMka ane dIna banelA AtmAnI divyajayoti pragaTAvavI. paramAtma-svarUpa pAmavAno prayAsa e ja jIvananI eka mAtra maMjhila. enA para eka eka Daga bharatA jaIe ane krodha, mAna, moha, lobha, IcchA Adi vAsanAo para vijaya meLavatA jaIe. kAzIrAma vicAre che ke ene jIvanamAM sAco AnaMda kyAre Ave che? eNe joyuM ke moTI DIgrI maLavAM chatA evo AnaMda na thayo. suMdara ane suzIla nArI maLavAM chatAM evo AnaMda na thayo, jevo AnaMda ene svAdhyAyathI yo. manomana vicAre che ke mAre to jIvanabhara vizvazALAnA eka vidyArthI banI rahevuM che ane vidyAnA arthIne yogya namratA dhAraNa karavo che. eka bAju saMsArasukha che to bIjIbAju karyasaMgrAma che. eka tarapha jIvananA bhoga ane saMsAranA sukha vacce jIvavAnuM che, bIjI tarapha saMyamasAdhanAnA kaThina mArge cAlIne nirmaLa AnaMda tarapha prayANa karavAnuM che ane yogI AnaMdaghanajInI vANI emanA aMtarane DolAve che. "AtamarasakA pyAlA, pIe matavAlA' jevI paMktio kAzIrAmanA hRdayamAM guMjavA lAgI. * jA jA vaccai rayaNI, na sA pddiniyttii| ahammaM kuNamANassa, aphalA janti rAio // jA jA vaccai rayaNI. na sA pddiniyttii| dhammaM ca kuNamANassa, saphalA janti raaio|| (uttarA. 14/24-ra 5) 1 5. For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAzIrAmanI najara emanAM yuvAna patnI zAMtAdevI para paDe che. hajI lagnane mAMDa traNa varSa paNa thayAM nathI. potAnA A jIvanasAthI adhyAtmasAthI paNa lAge che. zAMtAdevIe abhyAsa to pAMca dhoraNa sudhIno ja karyo hato, paraMtu dhArmika pustakonuM emanuM UMDuM vAMcana hatuM. patinI aghyAtmajijJAsA emanI najara bahAra nahotI. kAzIrAme eka divasa zAMtAdevIne potAnA hRdayanI vAta karI dIdhI. emaNe kahyuM, "mAre saMyamamArge saMcaravuM che. aMtaramAM dIkSA levAno bhAva che. tame emAM mane sAtha Apo." Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir zAMtAdevI uttara Ape te pahelAM namra ane saumya kAzIrAme kahyuM, "jo tamane A vizvAsaghAta jevuM lAgatuM hoya to mane sAtha na Apazo. paNa jo mAro mArga tamane ucita lAgato hoya to mane saMyamanA mArge javAnI anumati Apo." kudaratanI lIlA paNa kevI akaLa che! kAzIrAma ane zAMtAdevI lagnanA baMdhanathI joDAyelAM hatAM tema chatAM e baMne vacce dharma ane adhyAtmanI eka samAna bhUmikAno setu sadhAyelo hato. baMnene emanA kuTuMbamAMthI dharmasaMskAro maLyo hatA. temanA hradayamAM yauvananA niraMkuza thanaganATane badale sAttvikatAno saumya prabhAva vilasato hato. kudaratano kevo madhura saMketa ke kAzIrAmane emanA ucca vicArone anurupa evA ja sahadharmacAriNI maLyAM. zAMtAdevIe potAnA patinI saMyamamArge javAnI vAta sAMbhaLI. paLavAra emanA manamAM vaToLa jAgI gayo. potAnI umara mAtra vIsa varSanI paNa nahotI ane have Akho jIvanapaMtha ekalA kai rIte pasAra thaze? potAnI yuvAnInA divaso kema vItaze? ghaDapaNano bhAra koNa veThaze? janmAro kai rIte gALI zakAze? vaLI zAMtAdevInA manamAM eka zubha taraMga jAgyo. oha ! kevI jIvanadhanyatAnI che A vAta! moMdherA mAnavajIvananI sAcI maheka prasarAvavAnI kevI tIvra che laganI! yauvananA ghoDAo to kAma ane arthanI sapATa bhUmi para doDatA hoya che, paraMtu ahIM to juvAnInA azvo dharma ane mokSanA uttuMga zikharo AMbavA cAhe che. paLavAra zAMtAdevInuM mana vimAsaNamAM paDayuM, paNa tarata ja dharmasaMskAronI jAgRtie zAMtAdevIne svastha banAvyAM. emanA suMdara caherA para koi apUrva ullAsa phelAi gayo. zAMtAdevIe potAnA yuvAna patine kahyuM, "Apano mArga e ja sAcA sukhano mArga che. Apa jarUra saMyamamArga svIkAro. jIvanamAM zakaya banaze to mArI paNa e ja mArge javAnI bhAvanA che." 16 For Private And Personal Use Only

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yuvAna kAzIrAma vicAre che ke dharmasaMskAranuM kevuM prAbalya che.! manomana thAya che ke mArA karatAM zAMtAdevIno tyAga keTalo badho mahAna che! strI sAce ja tyAgamUrti che. enA mUMgA balidAna para keTalAya puruSonI sidhdhio racAyelI che. kAzIrAma jANatA hatA ke zAMtAdevIne mATe A kAma ati muzkela hatuM. AkhIye jiMdagI ekalavAyA gALavI e ramatavAta nahotI. vaLI hajI lagnane mAMDa traNa ja varSa thayAM hatAM. kAzIrAma manomana zAMtAdevInI bhAvanAne abhivaMdA Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir rahyA. kAzIrAme potAnA bhAgamAM AveluM makAna patnInA nAme karI dIdhuM. vaLI evo paNa vicAra karyo ke kadAca zAMtAdevIne saMyamanA mArge jatAM samaya lAge to emane kayAMya hAtha lAMbo na karavo paDe te mATe beMkamAM emanA nAme lagabhaga vIseka hajAra rUpiyA paNa jamA karAvI dIdhA tema ja sonu ane dAgInA ApyAM. zAMtAdevInuM vyaktitva kuTuMbane mATe zILI chAyA jevuM hatuM, jethI kadAca kuTuMbIjano emane dIkSAne mArge jatAM vinaMtIpUrvaka aTakAve topaNa emane kazo vAMdho Ave nahIM evI goThavaNa karI dIdhI. kAzIrAma vicAre che ke kayA jaine dIkSA lauM? konI pAse dIkSita thAuM ? emanI icchA dIkSita thavAnI hatI. kolejakALamAM upAdhyAya yazovijayajI mahArAjano graMtha 'adhyAtmasAra' pacAseka vakhata vAMcyo hato. A graMthe ja adhyAtmanI jhaMkhanA ane AtmAnI laganI jagADI hatI. vicAra sahaja che, paNa AcAra kiThana che. kAzIrAma mATe ghara choDavuM eTale mAtra bhautika aMtarane ja oLaMgavAnuM nahotuM. sthaLa choDavuM to saheluM hatuM, paraMtu lAgaNInA avarodho oLaMgavA e agharuM hatuM. ghara choDavuM kai rIte?mitronI mAyA mUkavI kairIte? vaLI potAnA javAthI pitA kopAyamAna thaze e nakkI hatuM. emAMthI ugaravuM kai rIte? vahAlasoyA kuTuMbIjanone kahevA jAya to javA de nahi, kahyA vagara jAya to kalpAMta kare. Akhare kaTokaTInI eka kSaNa AvI. kAzIrAmano gRhatyAga karavAno nirNaya makkama hato. jIvanane to joi lIdhuM hatuM, paNa have adhyAtmanA UMcA zikhare prayANa karavAno nirdhAra karyo hato. Aja sudhI pragaTa sAthe nAto hato, paNa apragaTa sAthe saMbaMdha bAMdhavo hato. saMsAra choDavAnI saghaLI taiyArI karI lIdhI hatI. manobaLa daDha hatuM. nizcaya aDaga hato ane kAzIrAme UMcAM zikharo para UrdhArohaNa sAdhavA mATe eka DagaluM bharyuM. gharamAMthI nIkaLatI vakhate emaNe mAtA rAmarakhIdevIne kahyuM, 17 For Private And Personal Use Only

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huM jarA zAstrIjI pAse jaine AvuM chuM.' mAtAe svAbhAvika rIte ja rajA ApI. kAzIrAma vAraMvAra jagarAvamAM rahetA jagannAthajI zAstrIne tyAM dhArmika pustako vAMcavA, levA ke eno svAdhyAya karavA jatA hatA. sAtamA varSe thayelI zItaLAnI bImArIne kAraNe jagannAthajI zAstrIe banne AMkhonI rozanI gumAvI hatI, paraMtu emanI prajJAnAM cakSu tejasvI hatAM. dharmagraMthono emano gahana abhyAsa hato. jijJAsuone khUba bhAvathI zIkhavatA. kAzIrAma avAranavAra zAstrIjI pAse jatA. potAnI zaMkAonuM samAdhAna meLavatA. jagannAthajI grejayueTa thayelA yuvAnanI dharmabhAvanA joine emane amuka graMtho vAMcavAnuM sUcavatA. koika vAra to Agraha karIne potAnI pAseno amuka graMtha ApatA ane e vAMcI javAnI tAkIda karatA. kAzIrAme dharamAM kahyuM ke teo zAstrIjIne tyAM jAya che tyAre koine kazI phikara na thai, paraMtu zAstrIjIne tyAM javAne badale teo jagarAvanA relave sTezana para pahoMcI gayA. A juvAna vicAre che ke kyAM haze e gujarAta ? ane kyAre darzana thaze koi pratApI mahApuruSanA ? pUjaya choTelAlajI mahArAje kahyuM hatuM ke tane dIkSA na ApuM. eka to huM vRdhdha chuM ane vaLI AnAthI vivAda jAge. gujarAtamAM jA, tyAM tane koI dIkSA Apaze. kAzIrAmanA khissAmAM thoDI rakama hatI. emaNe jagarAvathI ludhiyANAnI TikiTa lIdhI. ludhiyANAthI dilhI pahoMcyA ane pATanagara dilhIthI TrenamAM besIne muMbai AvyA. muMbainA relave sTezana bombe senTrala para UtaryA. manamAM eka ja bhAva ke sAdhupuruSanA darzana kyAMthI thAya? eka bAju darzananI tIvra tAlAvelI, bIjI bAju dIkSAnI utkaTa bhAvanA. paNa zaramALa svabhAvanA kAzIrAmajI sAdhujanonA darzana-vaMdana kare. kyAMka saMkocavaza bolI zake nahi ane kyAreka emanuM citta vicAre caDe ke mAre to sAdhu thaine sAdhanA karavI che evI sAdhanAnI anukULatA ahIM che kharI? bahoLA piravAravALA sAdhu samudAyamAM potAne sAdhanAnI phAvaTa Avaze nahIM. vaLI AtmazreyanI bhAvanAthI jagarAva choDavuM hatuM. have jagatamAM Atmazreya sivAya bIjuM kazuM vicAravuM nathI. e kALe muMbaimAM sAdhuo paNa ghaNA ochA hatA, vaLI potAnA cAritramAM ke abhyAsamAM vRdhdhikAraka koi vAtAvaraNa najare na paDyuM. muMbaithI Abu gayA. AbunI nIrava zAMtimAM pU. zAMtisUrijI mahArAjano meLApa thayo ane traNa divasa tyAM rahyA. AtmapaMthane ajavALe evA sAdhunI zodha to manamAM avirata cAlatI hatI. koie kahyuM ke pAlItANA jAva. pAlItANAmAM aneka sAdhu-sAdhvI birAjamAna che. tyAMthI koi sadguru maLI jaze. jIvananI vATane ajavALe evA koi guru maLI jaze. zatruMjaya e to zAzvatu tIrtha. ahIMnA sAdhujanone joine kAzIrAmanuM hRdaya AnaMdita banI UThayuM. evAmAM koie salAha ApI, 18. For Private And Personal Use Only

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"pahelAM jJAna to meLava pachI sAdhu thaje jJAna vinAnI sAdhutA na zobhe." gurunI zodhamAM nIkaLelA kAzIrAma jJAnanI khojamAM lAgI gayA. ; C bIjIbAju kAzIrAmanA ghera khaLabhaLATa macI gayo. enA pitA rAmakizananA gussAno pAra na rahyo. rAmakizanane AkhuM jagarAva Adara-sanmAna Ape. emanI salAha ane mArgadarzana levA sahu Ave ane potAno dIkaro ja Ama kahyA vinA cAlyo jAya e emanAthI kaI rIte sahana thAya? gAmaloko rAmakizanane ghera ekaThA thavA lAgyA. zAMtAdevIne patinI bhAvanAnI khabara hatI paNa emanA gaMtavyasthAnanI jANa nahotI. pitA rAmakizana ane moTAbhAI biracaMda emane zodhavA nIkaLyA. AkhA jagarAMvamAM ghUmI vaLyA. kAzIrAmanI dharmaparAyaNatAno khyAla hovAthI badhAM sthAnako joyAM. jagannAthajI zAstrIne ghera jaI AvyA. e pachI bAjunAM bIjAM gAmomAM tapAsa karAvI, paNa kyAMya pyArA kAzIrAmanI bhALa na maLI. cheka kAMgaDAvelInI pahADIomAM jaIne eka jayotiSIne paNa maLI AvyA. sagAM-vahAlAMone patra lakhyA, paNa kyAMya kAzIrAmanI bhALa maLI nahi. koI jayotiSI ema kahe ke kAzIrAma uttara bAjunA eka zaheramAM gayA che. koI ema kahe ke e dakSiNanA koI sthaLe gayA che. rAmakizanajI ane biracaMdajI uttara ane dakSiNanI e badhI jagAoe tapAsa karI Ave. jayAM kahe tyAM doDI jAya. evAmAM koIke kahyuM ke kAzIrAmajIne to emaNe lAhoramAM pharatA joyA, to lAhoramAM paNa tapAsa karAvI. DUbato mANasa taraNuM pakaDe, tethI evI paNa zaMkA jAgI ke koI sAdhue dhArmika vRttinA yuvAna kAzIrAmane chUpAvI rAkhyA haze. evAM sthaLoe paNa tapAsa karAvI. badhAne eTalo vizvAsa hato ke kAzIrAma bIje kayAMya nahIM, paNa koI dharmasthAnamAM beThA haze athavA to kyAMka jaIne koI dharmakArya karatA haze. e AtmahatyA kare evI zaMkA nahotI. paNa e kyAMka jIvatA ja haze evI zradhdhAe ja emanI zodha satata cAlu rakhAvI.. sAdhu thavAnI icchAvALA kAzIrAmano koI paricaya mAge to kahe ke paMjAbanA jagarAva gAmano rahevAsI chuM. gharano sukhI chuM. pitA zrImaMta vepArI che. aMgrejI bhaNelo grejayueTa chuM. traNeka varSa pahelAM lagna thayAM che, paNa patnIne samajAvIne dIkSA levA Avyo chuM. mAruM kuTuMba sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyamAM AgaLa paDatuM gaNAya che. kAzIrAmanI ekeeka vAta vadhu ne vadhu zaMkA janmAvanArI hatI. satya paNa kavacita vicitra lAge che! potAne paMjAbanA kahe eTale tarata ja lokonA manamAM thatuM ke paMjAba e to krAntinuM kendra, nakI A koI chUpo krAMtikArI hovo joIe. aMgreja sarakArane thApa ApIne paMjAbathI bhAgI chUTayo hovo 19 For Private And Personal Use Only

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joie. kadAca ene mAthe briTiza sarakAranuM voranTa paNa hoya. sAdhu banIne enI jAtane chUpAvavA mAgato haze.! aMgreja sarakAranA paMjAmAMthI bacavA mAgato haze! AvA rAjakIya gunegArane Azraya ApIe to to ApaNuM AvI ja bane. enI sAthe ApaNane paNa jela ane AkarI sajA thAya! vaLI jagarAva gAmanuM nAma AvatAM to sahunA kAna camakI UThe. lAla, bAla ne pAlanI krAMtikArI tripuTimAMnA eka prasidhdha krAMtikArI lAlA lajapatarAya A ja gAmanA hatA. emaNe jagarAvamAM krAMtino Ataza jagAvyo hato, AthI gAmanuM nAma sAMbhaLIne kAzIrAma chUpA krAMtikArI hovAnI mAnyatA dRDha thatI. koine ema paNa thatuM ke zrImaMta ane sUTa-bUTa paherelo A aMgrejI bhaNelo grejayueTa zA kAraNe dIkSA leto haze? emAM koi navI zaMkAnuM umeraNa karatA ke eNe lagna karyA che. kahe che ke patnInI saMmati lIdhI che. bhalA, koi lagna karyA bAda phakta traNa varSe kaThina sAdhutA svIkAre kharuM? koi rUpavatI nArI hajI UgatI juvAnImAM ja saMyamamArge javAnI anumati Ape kharI? jayAre A to kahe che ke e patnInI saMmati laine AvyA che. jo saMmati hoya to patnIne sAthe lAvyA kema nahi? dIkSA levI hatI to paMjAbamAM kyAM ochA sAdhu hatA, te dIkSA levA cheka gujarAtamAM AvyA ane teya sAva ekalA koi jhINI najare jonArane ema paNa thatuM, ke eNe dIkSA levI hota to sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyamAM kema na lIdhI? zA mATe e zvetAmbara jinendra mUrtipUjaka jaina saMghamAM dIkSita thavAnuM pasaMda kare che? Ama kAzIrAma vize eka nahi paNa aneka prazno ane zaMkA sahune thatI. koi ema paNa kahetuM ke pahelAM tamArA kuTuMbIjanone bolAvo, pachI emanI oLakha ane saMmati bAda ame dIkSA ApIe. koi thoDA udAra banIne AvI mAgaNI karatA nahIM, paNa eTaluM to cokkasa kahetA ke ahIM tamArA koi paricita hoya tenI oLakha Apo. tamArI yogya oLakha maLye ame jarUra dIkSA ApIzuM. paNa gujarAtamAM kAzIrAmane oLakhe koNa? yuvAna kAzIrAmanI kaThinAino pAra na rahyo. e vicAre che ke eka to gherathI koineya kahyA vinA nIkaLI gayo chuM. pitA keTalA badhA roSe bharAyA haze? moTAbhAi biracaMdajI keTalA badhA akaLAyA haze? kAzIrAmane paga nIcethI dharatI sarakatI lAgI. gharamAMthI koineya kahyA vinA dIkSAnI bhAvanAe nIkaLI gayA hatA ane kevI dazA thai? hRdayamAM saMsAra choDavAnI keTalI badhI tAlAvelI hatI ane saMsAra choDayA pachI saMnyastano koi mArga ja maLato nathI. keTalA badhA bhAvathI gujarAta Avyo ane cotaraphathI kevo a-bhAva maLyo? he paramAtmA ! tAre keTalI kasoTI karavI che mArI? saMsArI jIvana to tyajI dIdhuM. rAga-dveSanAM baMdhano aLagAM karyAM ane chatAM kevI vipattinAM baMdhano mArI ra0 For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAme Ave che? Ave samaye tIrthaMkara paramAtmA bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmInA jIvananA upasargo yAda Ave che. rAjakumAra vardhamAnamAMthI yogI banelA mahAvIra prabhue keTaluM sahana karyuM! emanI AgaLa mArI vipatti kayAM?. vaLI ekAeka viSAda gherAI AvatAM manamAM vicAre che ke pUrvajanmanA puNyanA baLe ja manamAM sAdhutAnI jhaMkhanA jAgI ane zuM huM sAdhu nahi thaI zakuM? mane badhA ja jAkAro Apaze to huM kyAM jaIza? jeNe ghara ane kuTuMba choDayAM che, saMsAra choDayo che ene sAdhutAmAM sthAna na maLe to enI dazA AkAza ane dharatI vacce laTakato trizaMku jevI thAya! Akhare kAzIrAma mahesANA gayA. mahesANAnI pAThazALAmAM pahoMcyA. A paMjAbI yuvAnane ahIM paNa sau zaMkAnI najare jovA lAgyA. moTAbhAganA mAnavIo anya vyakti vize zradhdhAthI nahi, paNa zaMkAthI vicAravAno prAraMbha karatA hoya che. emAM paNa kAzIrAma jema jema sAcuM bolatA jAya, tema tema sAmI vyaktinI emanA vizenI zaMkA vadhatI jAya. sAcI vAta kyAreka ghaNI zaMkApreraka bane che! mahesANAnI pAThazALAmAM jaIne emaNe vinaMtI karI ke mAre ahIM rahIne abhyAsa karavo che. saMcAlakoe emanI vigato pUchI ane hajI bAkI hoya tema vaLI eka navI muzkelI UbhI thaI. pAThazALAnA saMcAlakoe kahyuM. "A pAThazALAmAM rahIne tame jarUra dharmazAstrano abhyAsa karI zakazo, paraMtu tamArA mATe chAtrAlayanA praveza niSiddha che, kAraNake pariNIta vyaktine amArA chAtra layamAM praveza ApavAmAM Avato nathI." kAzIrAmanuM hRdaya dravI gayuM. gadagadita manathI vicAravA lAgyA ke A mUMjhavaNono koI aMta ja nathI? jayAM jAya tyAM koI ne koI samasyA ja sAmI maLe che ! AphatamAM umero ja thato rahe che! zuM potAne badhethI jAkAro ja maLavAno che? dIkSita thavA to na maLyuM, paNa zikSita thavAnuMye potAne mATe muzkela che! majhadhAramAM to tophAna hoya, paNa ahIM kinAreya kitI aphaLAya che. kAzIrAmanA manamAM aneka vicAro dhUmarIo levA mAMDayA viSAdanA bojathI haiyuM dabAI gayuM. AMkhamAM AsuM AvyAM! mahesANA gAmamAM potAne koI oLakhe nahi ane jo chAtrAlayamAM rahevA na maLe to oTalo kyAM meLavavo e moTo savAla hato. roTalAnI to kAzIrAme kadI paravA karI na hatI, paNa oTalAe mUMjhavaNa UbhI karI. chevaTe manomana prArthanA karavA lAgyA, he tIrthaMkara paramAtmA! mArI mokSaprAptinI tAlAvelI viphaLa jaze? huM 'bAhmaNa' to banuM chuM. paNa zuM huM bhikSuka nahi banI zakuM? 'uttarAdhyayana sUtra" re 1 For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAM maLatuM bAhmaNanuM varNana kAzIrAmanA cittamAM gUMjavA lAgyuM 'jahittA pumcasaMjogaM, nAisaMge ya bandhave / / jo na sajjai bhogesu, taM vayaM bUma mAhaNaM // "je strI-puruSa vagerenA saMbaMdhono, jJAtijano tathA baMdhuvarganA saMbaMdhono eka vAra tyAga karIne tathA kAmabhogono tyAga karIne pharI emAM Asakta nathI thato, tene ame brAhmaNa kahIe chIe." (uttarA. 25/29) kAzIrAmanI icchA ane jhaMkhanA to bhiluM thavAnI che. 'dazavaikAlika sUtra'mAM ApelI bhikSunI oLakha kAzIrAmanA manamAM taravarI rahI : "taM dehavAsaM asuI asAsayaM, sayA cae niccahiyaTThiyappA / chiMdittu jAImaraNassa baMdhaNaM, uvei bhikkhU apuNAgamaM gaI / / (dazavai. 10/ra 1) "potAnA AtmAnuM nitya hita karavAmAM sthira karavAvALo bhikSa, apavitra ane kSaNabhaMgura zarIramAM nivAsa karavAnuM nitya mATe tyAgI de che tathA baMdhanarUpa janma-maraNanA pherAne kApI nAkhIne nitya mATe mokSane prApta thAya che." kAzIrAma vicAre che ke teo AvA 'bhikSu' thaI zakaze kharA ? koNa emane dIkSA Apaze? manamAM thayuM ke A gAmamAM paNa koI sAdhumahArAja birAjamAna to haze ne? AthI kAzIrAme derAsaramAM darzanArthe pravezatA eka zrAvakane pUchayuM, 'bhAI, ahIM koI upAzraya che kharo ? emAM koI sAdhumahArAja birAjamAna che kharA?" darzanArthIe ApelI mAhitIne AdhAre kAzIrAma upAzrayamAM pahoMcyA ane tyAM pUjaya tapasvI munizrI jitendrasAgarajI mahArAja birAjamAna hatA. emAMya khabara paDI ke teo to yoganiSTha AcArya budhdhisAgarasurIzvarajInA praziSya ane AcArya kIrtisAgarasUrijInA ziSya che, tyAre kAzIrAmanA AnaMdano pAra na rahyo. emaNe pUjaya jitendrasAgarajI mahArAjane vaMdana kayAM. 65 varSanA jitendrasAgarajIe AzIrvAda ApyA ane moTA avAje pUchyuM, kyAMthI Avo cho ? zuM karo cho ?" kAzIrAmane dahezata jAgI ke emano paricaya kadAca pharI navuM saMkaTa UbhuM nahi karene? chatAM emaNe kahyuM ke paMjAbathI AvuM chuM. jaina zrAvaka chuM. pachI to baMne vacce nikhAlasa vAto cAlI. jitendrasAgarajIe pUchayuM, ahIM kema AvavuM thayuM?' kAzIrAme kahyuM, "dIkSA levAnI bhAvanAthI nIkaLyo chuM.' 2 2 For Private And Personal Use Only

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pUjaya jitendrasAgarajIe kahyuM, 'jo tamAre dIkSA levI hoya to huM ApIza.' jitendrasAgarajI gRhastha avasthAmAM mahesANAnA gAyakavADI rAjanA phojadAra hatA. moTI umare phojadArI choDIne dIkSA lIdhI. manamAM evo vicAra Avyo ke have mArAthI abhyAsa karavo zakya nathI. paraMtu tapa to karI zake? pariNAme ugra tapazcaryA kare. chaThThanA pAraNe chaThTha kare. moTI avasthAne kAraNe svabhAva thoDo gussAbhaya ane jalada thaI gayelo, tethI koI sAdhu emanI pAse Take nahi. AsapAsanA gAmaDAMmAM pharIne Ave, paNa moTebhAge mahesANAmAM ja rahe. kAzIrAma to sAdhudarzananA pavitra bhAvathI gayA hatA. emaNe vicAryuM hatuM ke pahelAM saMtapuruSanA darzana karI lauM, pachI bIjI badhI vAta. kAzIrAma vicAre che ke mAre to cAritryabaLa, abhyAsa vageremAM AgaLa vadhavuM che. AvA ekAkI ane ni:spRha guru mArA mATe yogya ja gaNAya. emane to sevA karavA ane saMyamamArge cAlavA gurunI jarUra hatI. gurunA paricayanI zI jarUra ? pUjaya jitendrasAgarajI mahArAje dIkSA ApavAnI saMmati ApI. kAzIrAma mATe A apAra AnaMdano prasaMga hato. kAzIrAmano dIkSA mATeno tIvra talasATa zuM sUcave che? bIjI vyakita, hArIne, thAkIne ane nAsIpAsa thaIne pAchA pharI jAya tyAre kAzIrAme saMyamamArge cAlavA mATe jANe saMgrAma khelyo. eka pachI eka Apatti AvI. keTalIka navI muzkelIo UbhI thaI tema chatAM dhyeyanI Arata ane AtmabaLanuM teja eTale ke saMyamamArge gayA vinA rahyA nahi. sAce ja koI pUrvajanmanI sAdhanA hoya to ja AvI sthitimAM dIkSAmArga sUjhe ane e mArga para aDola ane aDIkhama rahe. sAmAnya rIte mANasa dIkSita thayA pachI dhIme dhIme samaja to hoya che evo ApaNo anubhava che, paNa kAzIrAma pahelAM samajayA ane pachI dIkSita thayA. daramiyAnamAM mahesANAmAM rahelA pUjaya jitendrasAgarajIne agraNI zrAvaka prabhudAsabhAIe kahyuM paNa kharuM ke "A juvAnane dIkSA ApavAnI utAvaLa karazo nahi. atyAre caLavaLamAM ghaNA yuvAno pAchaLa dharapakaDanuM voranTa hoya che. paMjAba ke kalakattA taraphathI teo koInuM khUna karIne nAsI Ave che, AthI evo koI krAMtikArI na hoya." paraMtu pUjaya jitendrasAgarajI dIkSA ApavAmAM makkama hatA. emaNe kAzIrAma mATe veza taiyAra karAvyo. mahesANAmAM to kAzIrAmane khAnagImAM dIkSA apAya tevI koI zakyatA nahotI. AthI pU. jitendrasAgarajI emane laIne kheravA gayA. emano vicAra najIkanA kheravA gAmamAM kAzIrAmane dIkSA ApI devAno hato. nAnuM gAma eTale vAta phelAya nahi. khoTI carcA thAya nahi. kheravA gAmanA zrAvako bhegA thayA. emaNe kAzIrAmane ghaNA prazno karyA. koIe pUchayuM, "tame dIkSA zA For Private And Personal Use Only

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mATe lo cho ?" koie kAzIrAmane pUchayuM ke emano abhyAsa kyAM sudhI che? to koIe emanI jainadarzananI jANakArInI cakAsaNI karI. kAzIrAme 'tatvArtha sUtra'no UMDo abhyAsa karyo hato. AthI dharmatattvane lagatA praznono saMtoSakAraka javAba Apyo ane kahyuM ke pUrI samajaNa sAthe dIkSA lau chuM kAraNake A ja mArga jIvanano sAco mArga che ane AnAthI ja vyakti mokSamArga para gati karI zake che. uttarAdhyayana sUtra' nI eka gAthA TAMkIne emaNe kahyuM. "nANassa savassa pagAsaNAya, annANamohassa vivajjaNAe / rAgassa dosassa ca saMkhaeNaM, egantasokkhaM samavei mokkhaM // (uttarA. 3ra 2) "saMpUrNa jJAnanA prakAzathI, ajJAna ane motanA tyAgathI tema ja rAga ane dveSanA kSayathI ekAMta sukhakArI mokSapada pAmI zakAya che." AvuM ekAMta, sukhakArI mokSapada pAmavAnI bhAvanA che ane tethI ja dIkSA levA nIkaLyo chuM. kAzIrAmanI bolavAnI chaTA, vAta karavAnI rIta ane sUtrono abhyAsa joine zrAvakone lAgyuM ke A celo to tarata vyAkhanAra ApI zake tevo che, Ama chatAM kheravAnA zrAvako kAzIrAmane dIkSA ApavA mATe saMmata na thayA. dIkSA Ape ane kaMI musIbata UbhI thAya to bAjumAM AvelA mahesANA gAmanA zrAvako ja emanI hAMsI uDAve. kAzIrAmane thayuM ke mAMDa kinAre AveluM vahANa DUbavA lAgyuM. emaNe khAtarI ApatAM ema paNa kahyuM ke jo polIsa Ave ane mane koI kAraNasara pakaDe to tamAre mAro bacAva karavAno nathI, to pachI dIkSA ApatA tamane kaI muzkelI naDe che? kheravAnA zrAvako zaMkAzAla banI gayA hatA. kAzIrAmane saMzayanI najare jotA hatA. vaLI e samaye amadAvAda ane muMbaImAM bALadIkSA pratibaMdhanI caLavaLa cAlatI hatI. kAzIrAma to yuvAne hatA tema chatAM gAmanA mANasone Dara lAgyo ke kadAca AvI dIkSAmAM paNa avarodha Ave. lAMbo samaya vicAra karyA pachI kheravAnA zrAvakoe kAzIrAmane dIkSA ApavAnI nA pADI. pharI nirAzA gherI vaLI. kAzIrAme pU. jitendrasAgarajIne kahyuM, "gurujI, tamAre mane dIkSA ApavI che. mAre dIkSA levI che, pachI bIjAno AdhAra zA mATe ? cAlone, gAma bahAra koI jhADa nIce mane dIkSA ApI dejo." pU. jitendrasAgarajI kahe, "bhale, tamArI bhAvanA joIne huM khuza thayo chuM. ane tethI ja koI paNa saMjogomAM tane dIkSA ApavA pUrNa bhAvanAzIla chuM." pU. jitendrasAgarajI potAnA ziSyane tAraMgA tIrthamAM laI gayA. eka to A ra 4 For Private And Personal Use Only

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ekAMta sthaLa, janasamudAyanI avarajavara paNa ghaNI ochI, vaLI TekarInI sauthI najIkanA TIMbA gAmanuM aMtara cAra kilomITaranuM. gAmanI vastI paNa ghaNI ochI. AthI kAzIrAmane ahIM dIkSA ApavAnuM nakkI karyuM, jethI koi avarodha na Ave. tAraMgAmAM kAzIrAmane dIkSA ApavAmAM AvI ane emanuM nAma munizrI AnaMdasAgarajI rAkhavAmAM AvyuM. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir paMjAbanA juvAna kAzIrAmanI icchA Akhare saphaLa thaI. sAhasa karIne saMsAranI vADakUdI gayelA kAzIrAmane aneka muzkelIo ane pratikULatAono sAmano karyA pachI Akhare sAdhutAno paMtha maLyo kharo! kAzIrAmamAMthI AnaMdasAgarajI banyA ane jIvananI parama dhanyatAno AnaMda anubhavavA lAgyA. munizrI AnaMdasAgara to jainonA pAMca mukhya tIrthomAMnA eka mahAtIrtha tAraMgA tIrtha sAthe joDAyelI kalikAlasarvajJa hemacaMdrAcArya, paramArhata mahArAjA kumArapALa ane gujarAtanA pratApI maMtrIo vastupALa-tejapALanI amITa yazagAthAo sAMbhaLIne bhAvivabhora thai gayA. 150 phUTa lAMbA, 76 phUTa pahoLA ane 130 phUTa UMcA derAsaranI emaNe kadI kalpanA paNa karI nahotI. 'ajitaprAsAda' nA nAme oLakhAtA derAsaramAM jaine emaNe dvitIya tIrthaMkara ajitanAtha bhagavAnanA darzana karyA. ekabAju nisarganI zobhA jue ane bIjIbAju dharmabhAvanAe sarjelI anerI kaLA jue. tAraMgA tIrthanA darzanathI manane zAMti, cittane ekAgratA ane hRdayane bhaktibhAvathI bharelI AdhyAtmikatAno anubhava thayo. A tAraNa-giri emane kharekhara tAraNa-giri lAgyo, kAraNa ke te bhavyAtmAono saMsArasamudrathI tAraNahAra ane qhAhya tathA AMtarazatruono nAza karanAra tarIke sarvatra pracalita che. tAraMgAmAM dIkSA grahaNa karyA pachI thoDA divasa vyatIta karyA. tyArabAda vihAra karIne mahesANAmAM AvyA. emaNe eka ja divasamAM cauda mAilano vihAra karyo. pahelI ja vAra garamImAM satata ATaluM cAlavAno anubhava thayo. pagamAM phollA UThI AvyA. vaLI vAparavAmAM phakta bhAtAno eka lADavo ane gAMThiyA ja hatA, Ama chatAM emanA manamAM to prAptino AnaMda hato. pUjaya AnaMdasAgarajInA sAdhujIvanamAM tapa, tyAga ane svAdhyAyano AraMbha thayo. emanA hRdayamAM AnaMdano sAgara uchaLavA lAgyo. aneka muzkelIo, avarodho ane musIbatonI oTa pachI AvatI bharatIno AhlAdaka anubhava thato hato. paNa bhAvinA bheda koNa kaLI zakyuM che? A bharatImAM hajI eka AkarI oTa AvavAnI bAkI hatI. ra5 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jagarAva gAmanA mahollA cAvalAmAM rahetA dharmaparAyaNa rAmakizanajInA gharamAM bhAre ajaMpo ane becenI pravartatAM hatAM. kAzIrAmanA zikSaNa ane saMskAra mATe satata saMbhALa rAkhanAra enA pitA rAmakizanajIne e samajAtuM nahotuM ke potAno dIkaro zA mATe Ama kahyA vinA cAlyo gayo? AvA vinayI putrane A zuM sUjhayuM haze? pote enA mATe kazI vAtanI maNA rAkhe tema na hatAM, chatAM zA mATe jANa karyA vinA jato rahyo haze? rAmakizanajInA manamAM bhAre glAni ane viSAda jAgyAM. Ave samaye dharma emane sAMtvanA ApI. je bhavitavyatA che te thavAnI ja che. vaLI potAnA dharmasaMskArone kAraNe kAzIrAme AtmahatyA nahIM ja karI hoya, evI emane daDha zradhdhA hatI. dharmano kevo asIma upakAra ! sthAnakavAsI samAjanA AgevAna rAmakizanajI sAdhu-munirAjo pAse jatA. teo rAmakizanane sAMtvanA ApatA ane jIvanamAM vairya rAkhavA salAha ApatA. kAzIrAmanA gRhatyAga pachI yuvAna zAMtAdevIe sAMsArika sukhanI cAdara choDIne vairAgyanI kAmaLI oDhI lIdhI hatI. emanI moTIbahena vidyAvatInA kAzIrAmanA moTAbhAI biracaMdajI sAthe lagna thayAM hatAM. moTIbahenanI hUMpha ane kuTuMbanI lAgaNIne kAraNe zAMtAdevI svasthatAthI jIvananA eka mahAna parivartanane pAra karI zakyAM. hajI dAmpatyanA pagathAre mAMDa thoDAM Daga bharyA hatAM ane vikhUTA paDavAnI veLA AvI. patinI tyAgabhAvanAne zAMtAdevI barAbara jANatA hatAM paNa teo kayAM che tenI ciMtA satata satAvatI hatI. emaNe vairAgyano bhekha bhale lIdho, paNa je rIte teo saMsArasAgaranA koI adrazya taLiye jatA rahyA. te zAMtAdevI mATe AkarI tAvaNI jevuM hatuM. kyAM haze teo? kSemakuzaLa to haze ne? emanI vairAgyanI manokAmanA saphaLa thaI haze ke nahIM ? emane emanI bhAvanAne anurUpa vAtAvaraNa maLyuM haze kharuM? paNa AnI to koIne khabara na hatI. kAzIrAmanI zodha mahinAo sudhI aviratapaNe cAlI, paNa kyAMya emano patto na lAgyo. zodhanA prayAso to cAlu rAkhyA hatA, paNa maLavAnI AzA ogaLavA mAMDI hatI. kAzIrAmanA gRhatyAgane nava-nava mahinAno samaya pasAra thaI gayo. gharamAM ekabAju kAzIrAmanA gRhatyAgane kAraNe khAlIpo lAgato, bIjIbAju emanA khabaraaMtara vinA chUpo saMtApa ane bhArelo uga ghara para satata jhaLuMbato raheto. rAmakizanadAsajIne jayAMthI thoDI paNa mAhitI maLI. ke doDI jaIne For Private And Personal Use Only

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tyAM tapAsa karI, paNa koi sthaLethI kAzIrAmano patto lAgyo nahi. kAzIrAma gujarAtanA mahesANA jevA gAmamAM hoya evo to emane svapneya khyAla Ave kyAMthI? Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir jagarAva gAmanA eka phojadAra rAzinadAsajInA mitra hatA. rAmakizanadAsajI emanI pAse gayA ane emane zodhakhoLamAM madada karavA vinaMtI karI. phojadArane kahyuM, "mahinAo vItI gayA chatAM mArA putrano koi patto nathI. tame game tema karIne bhALa meLavI Apo. tamArI pAse polIsataMtra che. tame paMjAba to zuM, AkhA dezamAMthI zodhI kADho tema cho." phojadAre kahyuM, "mArI pAse sarcavoraMTa hoya to huM traNa divasamAM emano patto meLavI ApuM." "sarcavoraMTa mATe mAre zuM karavuM paDe?" rAmikazanajIne eka navI AzA baMdhAi. phojadAre kahyuM, "basa, tame eTalI phariyAda karo ke mAro putra mArA gharamAMthI kImatI dAgInA corIne gUpacUpa nAsI chUTayo che. AvI phirayAda parathI sarcavoraTa kADhIne huM traNa divasamAM eno patto tamane meLavI ApIza." rAmakizanadAsajI, mauna thai gayA. emanI najara sAme dhArmika pustakono bhAvapUrvaka abhyAsa karato kAzIrAma taravarI uThThayo. pitAnI AjJA UThAvato bhaNelo-gaNelo juvAna dekhAvA lAgyo. enA para corInuM sAva khoTuM ALa kai rIte mUkI zakAya? phojadArane thayuM ke rAmakizanajI koi upAya vicAre che. mauna tUTayuM. rAmakizanadAsajIe kahyuM, "mArA putrane nAhaka badanAma karIne mAre kazuM karavuM nathI." evAmAM pIMdharAja paryuSaNaparva AvyAM. AkhA gharamAM pharI kAzIrAmanI yAda sajIvana thai gai. A parvanA divasomAM kAzIrAma kevI sarasa dharma-ArAdhanA karatA hatA enI smRti sahunA manamAM saLavaLI UThI. A pavitra divasomAM kAzIrAmanA dhArmika abhyAsano lAbha sahune sAMpaDato. sAMvatsarika kSamApanAno divasa paNa pasAra thai gayo. gharamAM satata sahune kAzIrAmanI khoTa khaTakatI rahI. evAmAM eka divasa navI AzAno sUraja Ugyo. rAmakizanadAsajIne ghera urdU bhASAmAM lakhAyelI eka TapAla AvI. sAmAnya rIte rAmakizanadAsajInI badhI TapAla jagarAMvanA bajAramAM kamiTI geiTa nIce AvelI emanI anAja-kariyANAnI dukAna para. AvatI hatI. Aje bhalA, AvI haze? rAmakizanadAsajInI mAtAe TapAla ghera kema TapAla 28 For Private And Personal Use Only

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lIdhI. emaNe e TapAla vidyAvatIjIne ApI. urdUmAM lakhAyelI A TapAla vAMcavI muzkela hatI, paraMtu akSaronA maroDa jotAM ja vidyAvatIjIe umaMgabhera pArakhI ApyuM, "oha! A to mArA diyara kAzIrAmanA akSaro ! emanI ja TapAla lAge che!'' AkhuM ghara ekAeka khaLabhaLI UThayuM. badhA e TapAla jovA lAgyA, paNa urdUnA jJAnane abhAve vAMce kai rIte? tarata ja kamiTI geiTanI dukAne mANasane mokalyo ane biracaMdajIne utAvaLe ghera bolAvyA. emaNe A patra hAthamAM lIdho. hAtha saheja kaMpavA lAgyA. AMkho bhInI thai. hRdayanA dhabakArA vadhI gayA. rAmakizanadAsajInI vRdhdha mAtA to codhAra AMsue raDavA lAgI. zAMtAdevInI AMkhamAM svastha utsukatA najare paDatI hatI. biracaMdajIe dhrUjatA avAje patra vAMcyo. emAM parvAdhirAja paryuSaNa nimitte pU. AnaMdasAgarajIe pitAnI kSamApanA mAgI hatI. pitAne na khamAve tyAM sudhI emanI kSamApanA adhUrI gaNAya. patramAM lakhyuM hatuM ke guru pAse meM dIkSA lai lIdhI che. mane ahIM kazI takalIpha ke muzkelI nathI, tethI mArI phikara karazo nahi. gharanA sarvene emaNe khamAvyA hatA. chellA naveka mahinAthI je gharamAM viSAdanI gherI chAyA chavAi gai hatI, tyAM AzAno navo prakAza pragaTayo. ajaMpAbharyA divaso ane becenIbharI rAtamAM jIvatA A gharamAM zAMtinI thoDIka kSaNo AvIne sthira dhai gai. A patra paranI posTanI chApa joi. pethApuranI chApa hatI. thoDIvAramAM to badhA ja svajano ekaThAM thai gayAM. rAmikazanadAsajIne tatkALa ghera bolAvavAmAM AvyAM emanA harSano koi pAra na rahyo nahi. o! mAro pyAro kAzIrAma sukharUpa che! paNa manamAM vaLI udvega jAgyo ke e sAdhu thayo zA mATe? sahue nakkI karyuM ke banatI utAvaLe pethApura pahoMcavuM. tyAM jaine samajAvIne kAzIrAmane pAchA lAvavA. e ja rAtre rAmakizanadAsajI, sasarA kAkurAmajI ane emanA kAkA jayarAmadAsajI gujarAtanA pethApuramAM AvavA nIkaLyA. jayarAmadAsajI jagarAMvamAM myunisipala heltha inspekTara hatA. vaLI A traNee jagarAvanA koMgresa pramukhanI amadAvAdanA koMgresa pramukha patnI bhalAmaNaciThThI lIdhI hatI. kAzIrAmane pAchA lAvavA mATe jarUra paDe to sthAnika koMgresI AgevAnono sahakAra maLI zake. traNe mahAnubhAvo pahelI ja vAra paMjAbanI bahAra paga mUkatA hatA ane cheka gujarAtanA pethApuramAM pahoMcavAnuM hatuM. Akhare teo amadAvAda AvyA. amadAvAdathI jIpa bhADe karIne pethApura gayA. pethApuramAM jaine tapAsa karI, to khabara maLI ke kAzIrAmanuM nAma AnaMdasAgarajI che ane loko pAsethI muni AnaMdasAgarajInI jJAnapipAsA ane gurubhaktinI vAto sAMbhaLI. 29 For Private And Personal Use Only

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Ameya pethApuramAM e vakhate jinazAsananI bhAre jAhojalAlI hatI. gAmamAM moTI saMkhyAmAM jainonI vastI hatI. vaLI pethApura eTale pa.pU. yoganiSTha AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajInI sAdhanAbhUmi. ahIM AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajIe ghaNA cAturmAsa karyA hatA. e bhUmi para emanA ja saMdhADAnA pUjaya tapasvI munizrI jitendrasAgarajI mahArAja sAthe munizrI AnaMdasAgarajI vicaratA hatA eTale sahune emanA tarapha aMtaranI lAgaNI - hatI. vaLI munizrI AnaMdasAgarajInI gurubhakti joIne to sahu dhanya dhanya uccAre che. kevI apratima gurubhakti! kevo advitIya Adara! A kALamAM duSkara gaNAya evo vinaya pU. AnaMdasAgarajI dAkhavatA hatA. guru pU. jitendrasAgarajI vAraMvAra gusse thatA. koI nimitta maLe ane emano gusso bhabhUkI UThato. basa pachI to zabdonA cAbakhA para cAbakhA lagAvyuM jAya. ziSyane vAraMvAra apamAnita kare, AthI to emanI sAthe koi ziSya nahoto. paNa emanA puNyayoge pU. AnaMdasAgarajI jevA ziSya maLyA. guru game teTalA UMcA avAje bole,chatAM 'jI' ane 'tahatti' karIne UbhA rahe. A kALamAM eka Azcarya gaNAya tevo vinaya temanAmAM pragaTa thato hato. Avo vinaya joIne caMdrAcArya ane navadIkSita kSullaka muninI smRti tAjI thaI jatI. caMDarudrAcArya svabhAve ja krodhita hatA. navadIkSita kSullaka muni para emaNe 'pUba gusso karyo. mAthAmAM daDo mAryo. ghora apamAnabharyA kaTu vacano kahyA, Ama chatAM kSullaka muni gurunI sAme kazuM na bole. kSamApUrNa vinayayukta vacano ja bole. bhUtakALanI e kathA pU. tapasvI munizrI jitendrasAgarajI ane pU. munizrI AnaMdasAgarajInA guru-ziSyanA saMbaMdhamAM pharI jIvaMta banI. gurunI evI sevA kare che ke jethI emane krodha-kaSAyanuM nimitta na maLe. gurunI avasthA hovAthI emanI ekeeka vAtanuM dhyAna rAkhe. koI pUrvanuM RNAnubaMdha hoya 2-1thavA to bhavAMtarano saMbaMdha hoya tevuM lAge. pU. munizrI AnaMdasAgarajI vere che ke guno doSa jovo nahi. eno vicAra karIe to gurunA AzIrvAda kadI phaLe nahi. vaLI Avo doSa joIe to khuda gunegAra banIe. vaLI ema thAya che ke A guruno potAnA para keTalo badho asIma upakAra che! emanA kAraNe to AvuM bhavya saMyamajIvana pAmyo! pethApura gAmanA zrAvakomAM badhe pU. AnaMdasAgarajInI gurubhaktinAM ja guNa gavAya. koI kahe, "A navA sAdhu to grejayueTa thayelA che. chatAM keTalA badhA namra che!" koI emanA jJAnane to koI emanI svAdhyAyazIlatAne vakhANe. phUlane game teTaluM gopavI rAkho, paNa enI suvAsa to praryA vinA raheze 30 For Private And Personal Use Only

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chuM? nahIM. munizrIe prathama cAturmAsa pethApura kayoM. A samaye pethApuramAM AvelA yoganiSTha AcAryazrI budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajInA cotarAmAM besIne teo kalAko sudhI dhyAna karatA ane bAkIno samaya adhyayana karatA. pUjaya munizrI AnaMdasAgarajI pethApuramAM AvyA. yoganiSTha AcAryazrI budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajInA sAdhakajIvana sAthe jenuM nAma sadAne mATe jaDAI gayuM che tevuM A gAma. ahI eka navI ja ghaTanA munizrI AnaMdasAgarajInA cittaprAsAdamAM banI. vAta evI hatI ke munizrI AnaMdasAgarajInI janmabhUmi paMjAba hatI. e samaye paMjAbamAM svAmI dayAnaMda sarasvatIe krAMtino zaMkha phUMkyo hato. baMdhiyAra samAjajIvananI beDIo toDavAno prayAsa karyo. dharmamAM pesI gayelI vikRtio ane dUSaNo para prahAra karIne dharmacetanA ane prajA-asmitA jagADI. te samaye paMjAbanuM nAnakaDuM jagarAMva gAma paNa AryasamAjanA raMge raMgAyeluM hatuM. khara! kAzIrAma je kolejamAM mAyA e kolejanA adhyApako AryasamAjamAM 84 zradhdhA dharAvatA hatA. emanA pravacanamAM paNa khAyaMsamAjanI vicArasaraNInI chAMTa AvI jatI. yuvAna kArakIrAmanA citta para AnI gADha asara thaI. ane pariNAme mana mUrtipUjAno prabaLa virodha jAgyo. gharanA sa-kAra amUrtipujaka hovAthI emanI A bhAvanAne vega maLyo. A kAzIrAma munizrI AnaMdasAgara jI banyA. paNa hajI prabhupratimA pratye eTalI laganI jAgI nahotI. pathApuramAM teo roja bAvana jinAlayanA mULa nAyakajI zrI suvidhinAthajI paramAtmAnA darzana karavA jatA. paraMtu manomana evuM vicAratA ke A pratimA to pApaNanA che. mArA namaskAra ane caityavaMdana A paththaranA pratimAjIne nahi. balake siddhazilA para birAjamAna evA he suvidhinAtha paramAtmAnuM Apane huM vadana-namaskAra karuM chuM. A samaye yoganiSTha AcArya buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajInuM "jaina sUtramAM mUrtipUjA"nAmanuM mUrtipUjAno mahimA batAvatuM eka pustaka emanA hAthamAM AvyuM. A pustake munizrI AnaMdasAgarajInI TimAM AmUla parivartana karyuM. "jaina sUtramAM mUrtipUjA" nAmanA A graMthamAM AcAryazrI buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajIe dRSTAMto sahita pratimApUjananI prAcInatA siddha karI batAvI hatI. A pustaka vAMcatAM emanA vicArAM palaTAvA lAgyA. emAM AcAryazrIe darzAvyuM hatuM ke "prema e mUrtipUjAnuM kAraNa che. jayAM sudhI jagatamAM prema che tyAM sudhI mUrtipUjA che ja. sAkAra premathI ja sAkAra mUrtinI pUjA thAya che ane nirAkAra premathI nirAkAranI pUjA thAya che, paraMtu For Private And Personal Use Only

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NOVE nirAkAramAM paNa enI pratimA hradayamaMdiramAM to UbhI hoya che ja. vaLI AvA prema vinA sevA, bhakti, vinaya jevA guNo AvatA nathI." yoganiSTha AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajIe khristI dharma, islAma dharma, baudhdha dharma ane hiMdu dharmamAM mUrtipUjAnuM mahattva darzAvIne kahyuM ke koi ne koi rUpe prema ane pUjayabudhdhithI mUrtipUjA kAyama rahe che. yoganiSTha AcAryazrI budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajInA A pustakamAM AryasamAjIo vize kahyuM che "AryasamAjIo sahasrazIrSAH sahasrapAvAH e vedamaMtrane vairATa prabhunA maMtrarUpe svIkArIne prabhunI sAkAratAno svIkAra kare che, tethI te paNa eka jAtanI sAkAra jagatamAM prabhu jovAnI mUrtipUjA ja che. AryasamAjIo, AryasamAjanA sthApaka zrI dayAnaMda sarasvatInI chabIne mAna Ape che ane te chabI dvArA svAmIjInuM saMsmaraNa kare che te paNa eka jAtanI prema dvArA mUrtipUjA ja che tathA AryasamAjIo jaDa evA yajJonI mAnyatA mAne che ane tenA upara prema dhAraNa kare che te paNa eka prakAranI prema dvArA thatI jaDa yajJa sAkAra mUrtipUjA ja che." vaLI A ja pustakamAMthI jaina zAstromAM mUrtipUjAnA prAcIna ullekho maLyA. sthAnakavAsI samudAyanI mAnyatAonI paNa AmAM AcAryazrI budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajIe carcA karI che. dhyAna mATe AlaMbanarUpa mUrtinu mahattva darzAvyuM ane e rIte mUrtipUjA vize zAstrasidhdha jANakArI maLI. munizrI AnaMdasAgaranA hRdayamAM bhAre AghAta thayo. Aja sudhI pote asatya ane aMdhakAramAM rahyA tethI khUba glAni thai. manamAM prAyazcittano bhAva jAgyo. ema thayuM ke pote ajJAnamAM mUrtipUjAno kevo AMdhaLo virodha karyo! munizrI AnaMdasAgarajIne thayuM ke pote mUrtine paththara kahIne moTI AzAtanA karI che tenuM prAyazcitta karavuM jarUrI che. A pazcAttApano bhAva emanAmAM jIvanabhara rahyo. sAthosAtha zrI jinendra mUrtipUjA pratye akhaMDa ane atUTa zradhdhA jAgI. adhyAtmano navo prakAza maLyo. e pachI teo zrI suvidhinAtha paramAtmAnI pratimAne sAkSAt jinendra paramAtmA mAnIne ja vaMdana ane caityavaMdana karatA hatA - * kAzIrAmanA pitA, kAkA ane sasarA pethApura pahoMcyA. upAzrayanI mAhitI meLavI. teo upAzrayamAM pahoMcyA tyAre pU. munizrI AnaMdasAgarajI gocarI patAvIne svAdhyAyamAM tallIna thaine beThA hatA. upAzrayanI bahAranA haoNlamAM besIne teo ekAgratAthI abhyAsa karatA hatA, jayAre bAjunA oraDAmAM emanA guru mahArAja vizrAma letA hatA. guru mahArAjanI vRdhdha avasthA hatI ane temAM paNa satata tapazcaryA cAlatI hatI. 3ra For Private And Personal Use Only

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potAnA traNe vaDIlone sanmukha UbhelA joine pU. munizrI AnaMdasAgarajI atyaMta Azcarya pAmyA. rAmakizanadAsajIe potAnA putra samakSa pahelAM roSa ThAlavyo. rAta-divasa karelI ciMtAnI vAta karI. gharamAM kevo kalpAMta thayo, te kahyuM. have kRpA karIne ghare pAchA pharavA jaNAvyuM. sasarA kAkurAmajIe kahyuM ke, 'emaNe zAMtAdevIno paNa vicAra karavo joie.' kAkA jayarAmadAsajIe kahyuM ke ame tane levA AvyA chIe. koi paNa saMjogomAM tane lIdhA vinA ame pAchA javAnA nathI. jarUra paDaze to koMgresanA AgevAnonI madada laizuM. muni AnaMdasAgarajIe kahyuM, "have to huM dIkSita thayo chuM. mAre ghera AvavuM nathI" emaNe aThThamanuM paccakhANa karyuM. rAmakizanadAsajI potAnA vicAramAM dRDha ane eTalA ja makkama hatA. emaNe kahyuM ke, 'tuM amArI sAthe AvIza nahi tyAM sudhI ame badhA ahIM ja anazana karIzuM.' vaLI gaLagaLA avAje rAmakizanadAsajIe vinaMtI karI ke ekavAra ghera AvI jA. pachI huM tane dIkSA apAvIza. Ama baMne makkama hatA. koi koine macaka Ape nahi. eka divasa pasAra thai gayo. bIjo divasa paNa vItI gayo. Akhare guru mahArAje AvI vikaTa paristhiti joine munizrI AMnadasAgarajIne kahyuM, "hajI to tame kAcI dIkSA lIdhI che. bhAva jAge to pharI Avajo. paNa A badhA anazana para beThA che ane emano ATalo badho Agraha che to tame pAchA jAva.' pUjaya AnaMdasAgarajI mahArAja manomana vicAravA lAgyA ke mAro dharma to kahe che ke nAnAmAM nAnA jIvanI ciMtA karavI ane mArA nimitte mArA kuTuMbane keTalo badho saMtApa thayo! sahune satApa ApIne huM sAdhu baneM eno artha zo? emanA hRdayamAM karuNA jAgI UThI. vicAra karavA lAgyA ke tIrthaMkara paramAtmA bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmIe dIkSA grahaNa karatAM pUrve potAnA moTAbhAinI rajA lIdhI ane pote prabhu mahAvIranA anuyAyI bane ane moTAbhAinI ke pitAnI vAta na svIkAre te kema cAle? AthI nakkI karyuM ke mAruM paheluM kAma mArA gharano saMtApa dUra karavAnuM che. najIkanA lokone saMtApamAM rAkhIne kai rIte pote bIje samatA pragaTAvI zake? vaLI vicAra karyo ke anaMtAjIvonI dravyadayA karatAM eka jIvanI bhAvadayA anaMtaguNI vizeSa upakAraka hovAthI prANAMte paNa mArAthI dIkSAno bhaMga na ja thAya. kuTuMbIjanonuM kalpAMta joyuM jatuM nahotuM. pUjaya tapasvIjI mahArAja paNa vimAsaNamAM paDI gayA, Ama chatAM munizrI AnaMdasAgarajIno nirdhAra hajI aDaga hato. have karavuM zuM? Akhare vacalo mArga zodhavAmAM Avyo. pitA 33 For Private And Personal Use Only

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rAmakizanadAsajIe pUjaya munizrI jitendrasAgarajI mahArAjane vinaMtI karI ke traNa mahinA mATe pUjaya munizrI AnaMdasAgarajIne mArI sAthe mokalo. traNa mahinA bAda huM ja ApazrInA caraNomAM AvIne emane dIkSA apAvIza. AvA abhigrahanuM paccakhANa paNa karyuM. pariNAme anicchAe munizrI AnaMdasAgarajIe atyaMta vedanAbharyA haiye muniveza tyajIne gRhasthanI vezabhUSA dhAraNa karI. pUjaya gura mahArAjane vaMdana-namaskAra karIne munizrI AnaMdasAgarajI pAchA pharyA. Aso suda pUnama pachIno e samaya hato. badhA amadAvAda sTezana para AvyA ane paMjAba tarapha ravAnA thayA. kAzIrAmanA jIvanamAM kevA kevA palaTA AvyA. sidhdhi mATe khUba prayAsa karyo ane jayAM mArga maLyo tyAM badhI dizAo ekAeka baMdha thaI gaI. jIvana kevuM cakarAve caDyuM. Thera Thera pharyA. mAMDa guru maLyA. koI pUrvanA RNAnuMbaMdha saMbaMdhe pUjaya tapasvIjI mahArAje dIkSA ApI. ATalI mahenata ane pravAsanuM A pariNAma? daLI daLIne DhAMkaNImAM ugharAvyA jevuM thayuM. oha deva! mAruM bhAvi zuM haze? mArI gati zuM haze? zuM adhyAtmanI jhaMkhanA atRpta raheze? sAdhutAnI sidhdhi nahI thAya? kAzIrAma AnaMdasAgaramAMthI punaH kAzIrAma banI gayA. sAta mahinAnI dIkSA bAda pharI ghera pAchA pharyA, paNa have mana palaTAI cUkayuM hatuM. dizA nakakI thaI cUkI hatI. dhyeya dIvA jevuM spaSTa hatuM. je divase kAzIrAma jagarAMvamAM paheMcyA tyAre temanA kuTuMmbIjanoe jagarAMvamAM AvelI rUpacaMdajI mahArAjanI samAdhi pAse cokhkhA ghInA lADu vaheMcyA. kAzIrAmanA dAdA gaMgArAmajI bajAranI koI cIja lAda: nahi ke khAtA paNa nahi. vaLI gharamAM haMmezAM cokhA ghIno upayoga karavAno Agraha rAkhatA. A samaye kAzIrAmanA manamAM pArAvAra vedanA thatI hatI. pitAjI emanA para khUba nArAja hatA. emanI sAthe bolavAnuM paNa baMdha karyuM hatuM. emanI mAtA rAmarakhIdevIe koI Thapako Apyo nahi. aMtaranA bhAvathI emaNe potAnA putrane AvakAra Apyo. A samaye kAzIrAma para satata cokI pahero hato. teo kayAMya ekalA jaI zaktA nahi. emanI sAthe emanA para koI dhyAna rAkhanAra to hoya ja. emanA svajanoe khUba Agraha karyo ke tame zvetAmbara AmnAyanI dIkSA na lo. tamAre dIkSA levI hoya to bhale lo paraMtu ApaNA saMpradAyamAM lo. rAmakizanajInI icchA evI hatI ke emanAM putre dIkSA levI ja hoya to sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyanA mahArAja pU. phUlacaMdajI pAse dIkSA le. e mahArAja pratye kAzIrAmajIne UMDo Adara hato. mahArAja paNa kAzIrAma tarapha prema 34 For Private And Personal Use Only

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rAkhatA hatA. pU. phUlacaMdajI mahArAje kAzIrAmane bolAvyo ane ekAMtamAM samajAvavAnI koziza karI. kAzIrAme dRDhatAthI kahyuM ke jema pitA eka ja hoya tema guru paNa eka ja hoya. jemaNe mArA para asIma upakAra karyo, temane mUkIne huM bIje dIkSA lau N to kevo apakArI gaNAuM? mArA jevo kRtaghnI bIjo koNa hoi zake? Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir kAzIrAmajI para satata dabANa vadhatuM hatuM. emane samajAvavA badhA judI judI rIte koziza karatA hatA. pU. phUlacaMdajI mahArAje emane pharI samajAvavA koziza karI, tyAre makkama kAzIrAme ekAMtamAM kahyuM, "huM ahIM tamArI pAse dIkSA lauM pachI tame mane gujarAtamAM javA dezo kharA? huM tyAM jaine tapAgacchamAM dIkSA levA mAguM chuM. emAM tame saMmati Apazo kharA?" pU. phUlacaMdajI mahArAje kahyuM, "evuM to kai rIte banI zake? emAM to mAruM nAka kapAI jAya." kAzIrAme ghera AvyA pachI mIThAi ane dUdhano paNa tyAga karyo hato. phakta eka ghI vigai ane dALa-zAka letA hatA. vaLI hamezAM ekAsaNuM to hoya ja. A samaye palaMga para sUtA nahi, kAcuM pANI pItA nahi ane Akho divasa sAmAyikamAM ja rahetA. Ama gharamAM hovA chatAM saMpUrNa sAdhaka jIvana emaNe zarU karyuM. bhAgye ja koinI sAthe vAtacIta karatA. moTe bhAge mauna rahetA. kyAreka koi gusse thaine ema paNa kahetuM ke 'tu to mUrtipUjaka thaine paththaranI mUrti jevo jaDa thai gayo che. koi vAta ja samajato nathI.' kAzIrAma Ano uttara ApavAne badale mauna ja rahetA. rAmikezanadAsajI kAzIrAmane samajAvavA khUba koziza karatA, paNa kAzIrAma to makkama hatA ke mAre dIkSA to tapAgaccha mUrtipUjakamAM ja levI che. rAmakizanadAsajIne mATe dharmasaMkaTa hatuM. pote sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyanA AgevAna hatA. teo kai rIte putrane mUrtipUjakamAM dIkSA kAje vidAya ApI zake? chevaTe vicAryuM ke koi nimitte zodhIne kAzIrAmane bahAra mokalI devA ane pachI emane je karavuM hoya te kare. kAzIrAmano vicAra sahunI saMmati laine javAno hato, paNa mahArAjazrIe samajAvyuM ke e saraLa nathI, kAraNa ke gharanA loko emane hasate mukhe vidAya Ape tevI koi zakayatA nathI. mAtA potAno agAdha prema kai rIte haiyAmAM samAvI zake? vaLI bIjI bAju gharamAM sahune raDatA-kakaLatA ane vilApa karatA mUkIne cAlyA javuM e paNa barAbara na gaNAya. AvI karuNa paristhitine 35 For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAraNe ja kAzIrAme traNa mahinAne badale thoDo vadhu samaya rahevAno vicAra karyo, jethI sahunA dravita cittane zAMti maLe. poNA cAra mahinA jeTalo samaya vItI gayo. have kAzIrAma yogya takanI ane paLanI rAha jovA lAgyA. evo suMdara moko paNa maLI gayo. eka divasa kAzIrAmanAM mAtA rAmarakhIdevI emanA piyaramAM emanA bhAine tyAM lagnanimitte gayAM hatAM. zAMtAdevI emanA pitA kAkurAmajI pAse gayA hatA, AthI gRhatyAgano ghaNo suMdara moko maLI gayo. bapore kAzIrAme potAnI kapaDAMnI bega taiyAra karI ane jagarAva sTezananI bAjumAM AvelI oLakhItAnI dukAnamAM mUkI dIdhI. aMdhAruM thayA pachI AvyA. dukAnamAMthI bega lIdhI ane rAtre gADImAM besIne jagarAvathI nIkaLI gayA. sAmAnya rIte rAtrinA bAreka vAgyA sudhI kAzIrAma upAzrayamAM besatA hatA, AthI madharAta sudhI to koine zaMkA na gai, paNa pachI kAzIrAma na AvyA tethI rAkizanadAsajI upAzrayamAM pUchavA gayA. maharAjazrIe kahyuM ke kAzIrAma to Aje ahIM Avyo ja nathI. koi mitrane tyAM gayA haze ema mAnI rAtre vizeSa tapAsa na karI. cheka savAra sudhI nahi AvatAM rAmikazanadAsajIe pharI badhe tapAsa cAlu karI. manamAM thayuM ke nakkI e gujarAta gayo haze. kAzIrAma pharI gujarAtamAM AvyA. gujarAtano pradeza joine sUkI dharatIne varSAthI jevo AnaMda thAya tevo AnaMda kAzIrAmanA hRdayamAM thayo. kyA paMjAbanuM jagarAva ane kayAM A gujarAta? yoganiSTha AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajInuM gujarAta vizenuM kAvya emanA manamAM guMjavA lAgyuM : hindu varNo dayA kare re, jeno sauthI vizeSa, maMdiro sahu dharmanA re, pUrNa rasALa pradeza, A kAvyanI eka paMkti AvI "cAritra lAyaka bhUminI re, jagamAM na jaDe na joDa." A paMkti bolatAM, kAzIrAmanuM hRdaya gadita thai gayuM. cArita levA mATe pote to paMjAbathI bIjI vAra ahIM AvI rahyA che. pharI eka vAra kAzIrAmanA jIvanamAM AnaMda ane ullAsanI bharatI AvI. chellA keTalAya samayathI jene mATe mathI rahyA hatA, jhajhUmI rahyA hatA, e virala bhAgyavAna ghaDI AvI pahoMcI. vi. saM. 1994nA poSa vadi 10nA zubha divase, 1938nI 25mI jAnyuArI ne maMgaLavAre 24 varSanI bhara yuvAna vaye saraLasvabhAvI pU. A. 36 For Private And Personal Use Only

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zrI RdhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajInA varada haste kAzIrAmane puna:dIkSA ApavAmAM AvI. kAzIrAmamAMthI e divase muni kailAsasAgara banyA. amadAvAdamAM kocaraba Azrama najIka eka baMgalAmAM A dIkSAno utsava thayo. jIvanamAM pharI bhAgyodaya jAgyo. have pIchehaTha karIne saMsAramAM javAnI leza paNa taiyArI nathI. have to sAdhutAnA kailAsazikhara para vegabharyuM ArohaNa karavAnI prabaLa icchA ja jIvanano AdhAra che, AthI tarata ja pitAne patra lakhyo. hakIkata jaNAvI. emAM spaSTa lakhyuM ke have mane pAcho levA Avazo nahi. jo Avazo to huM jIvato nahIM AvuM. mAro mRtadeha ja Avaze. rAmakizanadAsajInA gharamAM patra Avyo badhAe vAMcyo. poNA cAra mahinAnA samayamAM sahue kAzIrAmanI vairAgyabhAvanAno paricaya meLavyo hato. enI daDhatA ane makkamatAno khyAla AvI gayo hato. virala mAnavIo ja saMyamanA mArge jaI zake che. e kaThina patha para ATalI utkaTa dhagazathI prayANa karanAranA hIrane parivAre pArakhI lIdhuM. patranA pratyuttaramAM pitA rAmakizanadAsajIe jaNAvyuM ke tame Avo koI aghaTita vicAra karazo nahi. Akhoya parivAra tamArI bhAvanA mATe dhanyatA anubhave che ane zvetAmbara mUrtipUjaka dIkSA rahevAnI anumati Ape che. muni kailAsasAgarajIne mana dIkSAno bhAre mahimA hato. jIvanasArthakyano mArga maLI gayo hoya eTalo AnaMda emane dIkSA maLatAM thayo. teo jANatA hatA ke khuda tIrthaMkara paramAtmAne paNa dIkSA grahaNa karyA pachI ja cothuM mana:paryavajJAna utpanna thayuM hatuM. jainanA jIvananI sarvocca abhilASA eTale ja dIkSA.AthI ja jIvananI game teTalI Adhi, vyAdhi ane upAdhithI gherAyelo jaine dilamAM dIkSAnI bhAvanA sevato hoya che. kAzIrAmanI varSonI bhAvanA aneka avarodho pAra karyA pachI sAkAra thaI. emanI dIkSA zAMtithI paripUrNa thaI. potAnA jIvananI romAMcaka, bhAvapUrNa ane kaTokaTIbharI A ghaTanA kahetA pU. kailAsasAgarajI ema kahetA, "kaSTathI ja ISTanI prApti thAya che.' ghaNI muzkelIo ane mUMjhavaNa vezyA pachI emane dIkSA sAMpaDI hatI, AthI kyAreka potAnA sAdhuvargane ema paNa kahetA : 'tame mArA karatAM vadhAre bhAgyazALI che. tamane sahajamAM dIkSA maLI, jayAre mAre to eka vAra saMsAramAM javuM paDayuM hatuM. 37 For Private And Personal Use Only

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zItaLa chAyA Apato ane aneka jhUmatI vaDavAivALo vizALa vaDalo jeTalo G5 mahattvano che, eTaluM ja mahattva enA mULane potAnI godamAM samAvIne beThelI dharatInuM che. AkAza sAthe vAto karatI gaganacuMbI ImArata jeTalI AkarSaka che. eTalo ja eno AdhAra enA pAyAmAM paDelA paththarono che mAnavInI saMskAritA enA kuTuMbanI paraMparAmAMthI mahorI UThatI hoya che. enA deDha dharmasaMskAronA bIjanuM siMcana bAlyAvasthAmAM ja thatuM hoya che. enAmAM ucca bhAvanAono udghoSa saMbhaLAya che, enA mULamAM kuTuMbanA prema ane preraNA hoya che. eka dharmaparAyaNa kuTuMbamAM kAzIrAmano janma thayo hato. emanA pUrvajo hAla pAkistAnamAM AvelA lAhoramAM vasatA hatA. chellA eka saikAthI emanuM kuTuMba ludhiyANA jillAnA jagaDAMvamAM rahetuM hatuM ane pATanagara dilhI sudhI vepArI saMbaMdho dharAvatuM hatuM. dilhImAM emanI sonA-cAMdInI dukAna hatI. biracaMdajI eno kArabhAra saMbhALatA. paMjAbanA jagarAMvamAM eTalo ja moTo kArobAra hato. rAmakizanadAsajI e saMbhALatA. kAzIrAmanA pUrvajonI aTaka arorA hatI. A kuTuMbanA pUrvajo mULa kSatriya hatA. AjanA ghaNA jainono bhUtakALa tapAsIe to emanA pUrvajo mULa kSatriya hatA. jainonA tIrthakaro paNa mULe to kSatriya hatA. kSAtratejamAMthI ja tyAga-teja pragaTe. kAzIrAmanA kuTuMbanI aTaka arorA hatI, paraMtu jagarAMvamAM AvyA pachI kAzIrAmanA dAdA gaMgArAmajIne pU. kuMdanalAlajI mahArAjano paricaya thayo. gaMgArAmajI emanI pAsethI dharmabodha pAmyA ane vakhata jatAM kSatriyajAtinA gaMgArAmajIe jaina dharmanuM pAlana zarU karyuM. teo gaMgArAma arorAmAMthI gaMgArAma jaina banI gayA. kAzIrAmanA pitA rAmakizanajI ludhiyANA jillAnA jagarAMva gAmanA mahollA cAvalAmAM rahetA hatA. AkhA jagarAMvamAM rAmakizanajIne mATe sahune bhAre Adara. custa dhArmika manovRtti dharAvanArA rAmakizana pAse mAtra potAnI ja jJAtinA nahi, paNa AkhA gAmanA loko dhArmika ke sAmAjika prazno aMge salAha levA AvatA. dharmaparAyaNa rAmakizanajI sahunne snehathI yogya mArgadarzana ApatA. dukhiyA hoya to emane madada karatA. mUMjhAyelAne rasto batAvatA. rAmakizanajI sthAnakavAsI samAjanA AgevAna hatA, AthI emane tyAM satata dharmapravRtti cAlatI. sAdhu-munirAjo padhAratA hoya. emanA cAturmAsa aMge vyavasthA thatI hoya. rAmakizanajInA gharamAM sAMpradAyika saMkIrNatA nahotI. emanA sauthI moTA putra biracaMdajInA patnI vidyAvatIjI jaina dharmamAM mAnatA 39 For Private And Personal Use Only

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hatA, paraMtu emane sanAtana hiMdu dharmamAM paNa eTalI ja ruci hatI. kAzIrAmanA dAdA gaMgArAmajIne pU. kuMdanalAlajI mahArAja pAsethI jaina dharmanI preraNA maLI. gaMgArAmajInA kuTuMbamAM bALamaraNanuM pramANa ghaNuM hatuM. bahu ochAM bALako jIvita rahetAM. Ave samaye A kuTuMba para pU. kuMdanalAlajI mahArAjanI amIdRSTi thai. emanI kRpAne pariNAme ja bALamaraNa baMdha thayAM evI sahunI mAnyatA hatI. e pachI kuTuMbanAM saMtAna jIvatAM rahyA. gaMgArAmajIne pU. kuMdanalAlajI mahArAjano paricaya hato to rAmakazanane pU. choTelAlajI mahArAjano paricaya thayo. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir AvA dhArmika vAtAvaraNamAM vi. saM. 1971nA mAgazara vada 6 nA divase kAzIrAmano janma thayo. rAmakizanadAsajIne biracaMda nAmano putra ane durgAdevI nAmanI putrI hatI. kAzIrAma emanAM cha saMtAnomAM trIjuM saMtAna hatA. kAzIrAmanI mAtA rAmarakhIdevI bALakane khUba pyArathI ucheratI hatI. kAzIrAma paNa mAtAnI AgaLa bhAre lADa kare. emAMya khAsa karIne bhojananI bAtamAMto haMmeza jIda kare. bALaka kAzIrAmane amuka ja zAka bhAvatuM ane teo Agraha rAkhatA ke roja e ja zAka banavuM joie. kAzIrAma bALapaNathI ja udAra hRdayanA hatA. zerImAM rahetA cimanalAla arorA emanA khAsa dosta hatA. teo nAnI vayathI ja hamezAM bIjAnA du:khamAM bhAga paDAvatA ane madada karatA. bIjAne du:khI joi emanuM haiyuM bharAi AvatuM. bALapaNathI ja kAzIrAmamAM dhArmika vRtti hatI. jagarAvanI bajAramAM kamiTI geiTanI nIce AvelI anAja-kariyANAnI dukAnamAM besIne bajAranI dhamAlano AnaMda meLavavAmAM ke AvatAjatA lokone jovAmAM bALaka kAzIrAmane kayAreya rasa paDayo nahi. ene badale e to sthAnakamAM jAya. tyAM jaine dhArmika pustakonuM vAMcana kare. gharamAM paNa A prakAranAM ja pustakonuM vAMcana thatuM hovAthI khUba bhAvathI sAMbhaLatAM. emAM emane eTalo ja rasa paDato. tIrthaMkaronAM ciratro ke sAdhu-mahAtmAonI jIvanakathA emane khUba gamatI. 'putranA lakSaNa pAraNAmAMthI' e kahevata mujaba bALapaNathI ja kAzIrAma nokhI mATInA mAnavI hatA. je uMmare bIjAM bALako dhIMgAmastI karavA jAya e uMmare kAzIrAma ekalIna banIne dharmagraMthonuM vAMcana kare. tophAna ke TIkhaLamAM potAno samaya pasAra karavAne badale sAdhu-mahArAjanA satsaMgamAM samaya vItAvatA hatA. dharmanA pUrva-saMskArone kAraNe jIvananA AraMbhathI ja e bIjAthI judA paDatA hatA. kAzIrAmane dharmasaMskAranAM bIja sau prathama sthAnakavAsI saMpradAyanA pU. choTelAlajI mahArAja pAsethI maLyAM. emanA pavitra sAnidhyanA puNyapratApe kAzIrAma covihAra karavAnuM ane sAmAyika karavAnuM zIkhyA. emaNe 40 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jIvanabhara namaskAra mahAmaMtranI bhavya ArAdhanA karI, enI mULa preraNA pUjaya choTelAlajI mahArAja pAsethI maLI. e samaye dhArmika pustako paNa emanI pAsethI vAMcavA maLyAM. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir eka vAra kAzIrAmano vicAra choTelAlajI mahArAja pAse dIkSA levAno hato, paraMtu rAmakizanajI gusse thaze evA bhayathI emaNe dIkSA lIdhI nahi. A samaye choTelAlajI mahArAjanA ziSya suzIla munino*kAzIrAmane paricaya thayo. suzIla muninI A prAraMbhika avasthA hatI. kAzIrAma roja savAra-sAMja eka-eka kalAka sAdhu mahArAja pAse besatA. varSo pachI kalakattAmAM eka cAturmAsa nimitte jayAre baMne bhegA thayA tyAre khUba bhAvathI prasannatA vyakata karI. kAzIrAma nizALamAM hatA tyAre eka zAMta ane mahenatu vidyArthI tarIke jANItA hatA. nizALanA AcAryano emane hamezA prema maLato rahyo. emanA kuTuMbamAM zArIrika svAsthya aMge khUba jAgRti rAkhavAmAM AvatI. gharamAM bhAgye ja koi bImAra paDatuM. ghauM varNanA kAzIrAmano bAMdho ghaNo majabUta hato. jagarAvanI rAdhA-kizana hAiskUlamAM vidyAbhyAsamAM tejasvI kAzIrAme meTrikanI parIkSA prathama vargamAM uttIrNa karI. kAzIrAma kolejamAM AvyA. phekalTI opha ArTsamAM dAkhala thavA mATe emaNe mogAnI dayAnaMda matharAdAsa koleja (DI.ema. koleja)mAM praveza meLavyo. ahIM emaNe inTara ArTsa sudhI abhyAsa karyo. e pachI lAhoranI sanAtana dharma kolejamAM dAkhala thayA. ahIMthI IMglIza, Ikonomikasa, hindI (pharajiyAta) sAthe bI. e. nI DIgrI meLavI. kaoNlejakALamAM kAzIrAmanA dharmasaMskAro evA ja aDaga ane akhaMDita rahyA. emaNe yuvAnImAM kyAreya sinemA joyuM nahi. pattAM ramavA saheje pasaMda nahi. teo kahetA ke A ramata nathI paNa bImArInuM ghara che. eka to e kalezanuM kAraNa bane ane emAMya vaLI kuTeva paDe te judI. jIvanamAM emaNe kadI cA pIdhI nahotI. emaNe kadI lasaNa ke DuMgaLIne sparza karyo nahoto. jaina thaine kaTu vacana na kahevAya tevuM teo zIkhyA hatA ane tethI ja emanAmAM mananI dRDhatA ane svabhAvanI namratA AvI hatI. emanA kuTuMbano evo sidhdhAMta hato ke 'Respect and be respected.' kAzIrAma ATalA bhaNelA-gaNelA hovA chatAM nAnAmoTA sahune Adara ApatA hatA. muzkelInA samaye madada karavA doDI jatA hatA. navAinI vAta to e che ke cheka bALapaNathI emaNe kayAreya divasamAM be vAra bhojana lIdhuM nathI. teo savAre kAcAM zAkajI ane phaLo letA. A * amerikAmAM nyUjarsI pAse 'sidhdhAcalana'nI sthApanA karanAra 41 For Private And Personal Use Only

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phaLamAM paNa keLAM ane saMtarA emanAM priya phaLa hatAM. mAlTA paNa khUba ja bhAve. nizALamAM hatA tyAM sudhI mIThAinA paNa bhAre zokhIna hatA. e kALe paMjAbamAM comera svAmI dAyAnaMdanI bhAvanAno zaMkha phUMkAyo hato. samAjajIvana ane dharmajIvananA saDA para AryasamAjanI nastara-chUrI pharavA lAgI hatI. nAnakaDA jagarAvamAM paNa AryasamAjanI pravRttino jayadhoSa gujato hato. vaLI vIronA paNa vIra evA lAlA lajapatarAyanI zahIdInAM gAna comera saMbhaLAtAM hatAM. i.sa. 1928nI 27mI navembare savAre naravIra lAlA lajapatarAyano deha aMgrejonA lAThInAghAne kAraNe DhaLI gayo, paraMtu emanI rASTrabhakita ane emanAM kAryonI suvAsa jagarAMvamAM jANItI hatI. Ama kolejakALamAM kAzIrAmanA mAnasa para AryasamAjanA saMskAroe gherI asara karI. lAhoranI sanAtana dharma kolejamAM abhyAsa karatA hatA tyAre kAzIrAma para rASTrabhaktino raMga paNa lAgyo. e samaye kaoNlejanA adhyApako paNa rASTrIya vicAradhArA dharAvatA hatA. Ama kaoNlejakALa daramiyAna AryasamAjanI pravRttio ane rASTrIya vicAradhArAno kAzIrAmane pratyakSa saMparka thayo. A samaye eka vAra teo paMDita javAharalAla naherunuM pravacana sAMbhaLavA gayA hatA. emanA manane dezamukitanA vicAroe gherI lIdhuM hatuM. kolejakALamAM kAzIrAmane kanaiyAlAla kapUra nAmanA mitra maLyA. baMne aMgrejI bhASA ane sAhityano abhyAsa kare. samaya jatAM zrI kanaiyAlAla ela. kapUra lAhoranI DI. e. vI. kaoNlejanA aMgrejI vibhAganA adhyakSa banyA hatA. cheka bALapaNathI ja kAzIrAmane vyAyAmamAMruci hatI. teo mAnatA ke ramata evI ramavI joie ke jenAthI zarIranI barAbara kasoTI thAya. kaoNlejamAM teo krikeTanA kuzaLa beTsamena tarIke jANItA hatA. kyAMya koi krikeTaspardhA khelAvAnI hoya to kAzIrAmane potAnI TImamAM sAmela karavA mATe huMsAtuMzI cAle. badhA emane potAnI TIma taraphathI ramavA Agraha kare. volIbolanI ramatamAM paNa eTalA ja pAvaradhA. putra rAmaprakAza zrI gaMgArAmajI 1 Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir mAMgIrAma rAmakizana : rAmarakhIdevI biracaMdajI durgAdevIjI kAzIrAma sarasvatIdevIjI zAMtidevIjI vIrAvatI patnI-vidyAvatIjI (kai. sA. mahArAja) patnI zAMtAdevI 42 jayarAmadAsa For Private And Personal Use Only

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kaoNlejakALa daramiyAna yuvAna kAzIrAme brahmacarya vize UMDu adhyayana karyuM. brahmacaryanA rakSaNa mATe kevA prakArano AhAra joie enI vistRta jANakArI meLavI. koi AryasamAjIe caNA khAvAnuM sUcana karyuM. teo brahmacaryane poSaNarUpa caNA Adi levA mAMDayA, jethI zarIra TakI rahe ane cittamAM vikRti na jAge. saMnyasta lIdhA pachI paNa vihAramAM kazuM na maLe to gAmamAMthI caNA ane goLa lAvavAnuM kahe. Ama jIvanabhara emaNe zuddha ane sAtvika AhArano Agraha sevyo. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir kaoNlejamAM vekezana hoya tyAre kAzIrAma ghera jatA. ghera jAya eTale dukAne javuM paDe. dukAne Akho divasa mahenata-majUrI karavI paDe. manamAM vicAre ke jo Ama ne Ama majUrImAM ja divaso pasAra thai jaze ane kai dharmakArya nahIM thAya to evA jIvanano artha zo? A vakhate manamAM vairAgyano raMga jAmato hato. sAdhu saMtonA samAgama ane dhArmika pustakonA abhyAsane kAraNe UMDe UMDe saMsAra tarapha virakita jAgatI hatI. evAmAM 'uttarAdhyayana sUtra' vAMcyuM. bhagavAna mahAvIranI sanAtana vANI jANI. jIvanano artha samajavA ane mokSa meLavavAnI tIvra jhaMkhanA jAgI. 'paramAtmaprakAza' tathA sthAnakavAsI muni taraphathI maLelAM pustako dhera rAkhatA. grejayueTa thayA pachI kAzIrAmane sanAtana dharma kaoNlejamAM prAdhyApaka thavAnI ophara maLI hatI, paraMtu eno emaNe namrapaNe asvIkAra karyo hato. kaoNleja choDayA pachI kAzIrAma jagarAMvamAM rahe, dukAne jAya ane divaso vItAve. vicAra kare che ke AvI jiMdagIno artha zo ? emane jIvananI kSaNabhaMgaratA vadhu pratyakSa dekhAi AvI ane vairAgyabhAva vizeSa tIvra banyo. kAzIrAme manamAM vicAra karyo ke dIkSA lai lauM, paNa pitA rAmakizanajI eka sthAnika AgevAna hatA. teo dIkSAnI saMmati Ape tema lAgatuM nahotuM. vaLI pitAno Dara paNa kharo ane pote svabhAve saMkocazIla hatA. mAtA-pitA tarapha atyaMta pUjayabhAva rAkhatA hatA. A saMkocane kAraNe ja potAnA hRdayamAM jAgelI saMsAra-tyAganI dharmabhAvanAno koi saMketa mAtA-pitAne Apyo nahi, paraMtu mAtA-pitA putranI vairAgyavRtti ane anAsakti joine ene sAMsArika saMbaMdhathI joDI devA utsuka hatA. kAzIrAmanuM muni choTelAla pAse javA-AvavAnuM cAlu ja hatuM. teo savAra-sAMja eka-eka kalAka munizrI pAse besatA. vaLI sAthe ghera vAMcavA mATe dhArmika pustako lai AvatA. e pustaka vAMcIne bIjA divase pAchuM ApI detA. eka vAra munizrIe svAbhAvika rIte ja pUchayuM, "kAzIrAma, tuM Aje pustaka lai jAya che ane AvatI kAle to pAchuM ApI 43 For Private And Personal Use Only

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de che. mane samajAtuM nathI ke ATalI jhaDapathI AvA gahana tattvajJAna pustaka tuM kai rIte vAMcato hoiza?ke pachI upara uparathI joine ke vAMcyA vinA ja pustako pAchAM Ape che ?" Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir vinIta kAzIrAme uttara Apyo, "mahArAja, huM anya koi paNa bAbatamAM eka miniTano samaya bagADayA vinA mAtra vAMcana ja karato houM chuM. ApanI pAsethI jeTalAM pustako lai gayo te badhAM meM barAbara vAMcyAM che. Apa emAMthI mane kaMi paNa pUchI zako cho. e ja pustaka vAMcyAnI khAtarI gaNAya." munizrIe kAzIrAmane eNe vAMcelA pustakamAMthI eka prazna pUchayo. kAzIrAme atyaMta saraLa bhASAmAM eno uttara Apyo. muninI Akha AnaMdathI chalakAi Gol! mAtA-pitAe kAzIrAmanAM lagna goThavyAM. paMjAbanA bhaTIMDA jillAnA rAmapurAphula gAmanA zrI kAkurAmajInI putrI zAMtAdevI sAthe kAzIrAmanAM lagna thayAM. vidyAvatIjI emano rizto laine AvyAM hatAM. mAtApitAe bhAre dhAmadhUmathI lagna karAvyAM. kAzIrAmanA jIvanamAM eka navI ja paristhiti UbhI thai. eka bAju vairAgyanI tIvra jhaMkhanA ane bIjI bAju thara-gRhasthI saMbhALavAnI javAbadArI. have karavuM zuM? yuvAna kAzIrAmanA jIvanamAM zAMtAdevIno praveza thayo ane saMsArasAgara para emanI naukA gati karavA lAgI. 44 For Private And Personal Use Only

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"hRdayanI gati eka ane caraNanAM cAlavA judA!" gujarAtanA kavivara nhAnAlAlanI A paMktimAM mAnavahRdayane bhedatI vedanAno aNasAra maLe che. mAnavInuM hRdaya koI unnata patha para yAtrA karavA cAhatuM hoya. paNa saMsArano vyavahAra e mAnavIne kyAMka bIje ja kheMcI jAya che. kAzIrAma judI ja mATInA mAnavI hatA. emanuM jIvanadhyeya ane Adarza judAM hatAM. zAMtAdevI sAthe saMsAra mAMDyo hato, paNa manamAM saheje zAtA nahotI. emanuM citta vicAra karatuM ke zuM mArI adhyAtmajhakhanA choDIne A saMsArasAgaranA pravAhamAM sAmAnya mAnavInI jema taNAvA lAguM? ke pachI ene sAme pUra tarIne saMsAranA vamaLanA AvatamAMthI bahAra nIkaLIne Urdhvagati sAdhuM? so DUbatAmAMthI eka tarI nIkaLe ema tarI nIkaLavuM ke pachI saMsArano sAmAnya mAnavI jIve che tevuM mRtyuthI vyAkuLa evuM sAmAnya bhautika jIvana jIvI javuM.? saMsArano sAgara pAra karavA mATe apratima puruSArtha joIe. prabaLa AtmabaLa vinA vyakita AvA sAgarane pAra karI zake nahi. zuM pote saMsArasAgaramAM ja Agraho ane durAgrahonA magaramacchonI vacce tema ja rAga ane dveSanI bharatI-oTa vacce ja jIvaze ke pachI dIkSArUpa puruSArthathI samyak jJAna, darzana ane cAritranI ArAdhanA karIne ene pAra pahoMcaze? kAzIrAma vicAre che ke AjasudhI karelI adhyAtmanI upAsanA ane svAdhyAyano saMga choDIne avidyAnA araNyamAM ke vRttionA vanamAM jaIne vasavuM che? nA, nA' aMtaranI UMDI guphAomAMthI kAzIrAmane koI sAda karI rahyuM che. eno AtamarAma kahe che ke have game te paristhitimAM pAchAM pagalAM bharavAM nathI. hRdayano utsAha kahe che, "kAzIrAma! AgaLa vadha! jJAna meLavIne jJAnI thA! bhakata banI bhakita karI jANa. mukitanI sAcI jhaMkhanA haze to mukitanAM dvAra tAre kAje khullAM thaze." kAzIrAmanA cittamAM dharmAbhyAsanA saMskAro jAgI UThe che. bhagavAna mahAvIranI vANI kAzIrAmanA hRdayamAM guMjavA lAge che 'mANusattaM bhave mUla lAbho devagaI bhve| mUlaccheeNaM jIvANaM, naragatirikakhattaNaM dhuuvN|| manuSyabhava pAmavo e to mULa saMpattine surakSita rAkhavA jevuM che. devagati meLavavI e ja lAbha che, paraMtu manuSyabhava pachI naraka ke tiryaMcagati pAmavI e to potAnI mULa paMjI (manuSyatva) khoI nAkhyA jevuM gaNAya.' kAzIrAmane bhagavAna mahAvIranI eka kathA yAda AvI. traNa vepArI thoDI rakama laIne paradezamAM kamAvA gayA. eke vepAramAM khoTa karI. naphAnI vAta 46 For Private And Personal Use Only

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to bAjue rahI, paNa potAnI mUDI paNa gumAvI. bIjAe mUDI jALavI rAkhI ane trIjAe mUDImAM vadhAro karyo. bhagavAna mahAvIre A dRSTAMta ApIne kahyuM ke keTalAka mANaso evA hoya che ke je manuSyatvarUpI mULa mUDI paNa gumAve che ane dAnava banI jAya che. keTalAka A jIvanamAM mAtra e mUDI jALavI rAkhe che, jayAre keTalAka e mUDIne bamaNI kare che, arthAt manuSyatvano vikAsa sAdhIne ucca gati pAme vepArInA dIkarA kAzIrAma vicAre che ke A jIvanamAM kevo vepAra karavo che? manuSyatvanI mUDI jALavI rAkhavI che ke pachI emAM umero karIne ucca gati pAmavI che? kAzIrAma vicAre kare che tyAM emanI najara sAme beThelAM svastha ane suzIla zAMtAdevI paNa kAzIrAmanA ucca bhAvone pArakhI gayAM. saMsArano saMga kare tevA sAthI meLavavA sahaja che, paNa adhyAtmanA mArge unnata jIvananAM sAthI maLavA dohyalAM che. koI khuzanasIbane ja AvI jIvanasaMginI maLe je mAtra sahadharmacAriNI nahi, paNa dharmano sahayoga sAdhanArI hoya. zAMtAdevI atyaMta saumya, zAMta ane svarUpavAna hatAM. ethIya vadhu kudaratano saMketa to kevo ke e emanA vicArane badhI rIte anukULa hatAM. jIvanamAM kyAMka nasIba tapAve che, to kyAMka zILo chAMyaDo paNa Ape che. zAMtAdevI kAzIrAmanI dhArmika vRttine barAbara jANatAM hatAM. emanA hRdayamAM paNa adhyAtmajJAna mATenI adamya jijJAsA hatI. vyavahArakAryamAMthI avakAza maLe ke tarata koI dharmapustaka vAMcavA besI jatAM. kAzIrAma sAthenI vAtacItamAM emanI dharmapArAyaNatA satata pragaTa thatI, koI vAra mahelamAM rahevA chatAM vairAgI evA bhagavAna mahAvIranI vAta kAzIrAma kare, to zAMtAdevI pitAnA vacanane khAtara rAjasiMhAsana choDIne vanavAsInuM jIvana jIvatA rAmanI vAta kare. baMnenI vAta bhinna hatI, paNa eno marma samAna hato. yuvAna daMpatInA jIvanamAM praNayanI helI varasavAne badale saMyamanI svasthatA pragaTa thaI. yauvananA dhasamasatA uchALane badale jIvanadarzananI nakkara ghITatA pragaTa thaI ane ethI ja kAzIrAmanI sAdhu thavAnI bhAvanA jANI tyAre A daMpatInA jIvanamAM sonAno sUraja Ugyo. A sAdhutA pAmavA mATe kAzIrAmane jIvanamAM aneka avarodho veThavA paDayA. ene pAra karyA bAda kAzIrAme pUjaya kailAsasAgarajI banyA! kAzIrAmanA gRhatyAga pachI zAMtAdevInuM jIvana paNa saMsAramAM hovA chatAM eka sAdhvInuM jIvana banI rahyuM. gharamAM sahu koI emano Adara karatAM. vidyAvatIjI hoya ke rAmarakhIdevI hoya, paNa badhAM ja zAMtAdevIne sAkSAta devI ja mAnatAM. 47 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jagarAMvanI vRddha strIo paNa zAMtAdevIne sanmAnanI najare jotI. roja cAreka kalAka zAMtAdevI satsaMga kare. A satsaMgamAM jaMgarAMvanI tattvajijJAsu evI cAlIsa-pacAsa strIo roja Ave. zAMtAdevI AmAM jaina dharmanAM pustako vAMce. avakAza maLe gItA ane rAmAyaNanAM pustakonuM paThana kare. bIjIbAju kAzIrAmamAMthI pU. kailAsasAgarajI banelA sAdhupuruSe mAtra eka ja varSamAM 'ladhuvRttino abhyAsa karyo. e pachI 'sidhdhahema' vyAkaraNa taiyAra karyuM. pU. kailAsasAgarajIe sANaMdamAM abhyAsa zarU kayoM. sANaMdanA saMdhe emane mATe jJAnI paMDitanI vyavasthA karI ApI. soLa mahinA sudhI sANaMdamAM satata abhyAsa karyo. comAsuM karavA anyatra jAya topaNa pAchA sANaMda AvI jAya ane potAno abhyAsa aviratapaNe cAlu rAkhe. Ama kula sAteka varSa jeTalo samaya emaNe sANaMdamAM abhyAsa karyo. amadAvAda, pethApura, vijApura, mahesANA ane samau paNa emanI svAdhyAyabhUmi banyAM. vaLI paMDita bahAragAmathI AvyA hoya eTale mAtra thoDA samaya sivAya satata jJAnopAsanA ja cAlu rahetI. eka vAra pU. kailAsasAgarajIe potAnA A samayanI vAta kahetAM pU. jJAnasAgarajIne kahyuM hatuM, "paMDitajI pAse ochAmAM ochA pAMca kalAka to abhyAsa karato. zarUAtamAM to phakta be vigaInI chUTa hatI, chatAM kyAreka dUdha paNa choDI deto. sADAtraNa-cAra vAge covihAra vALato. chaThThane pAraNe chaTTa thAya to kevuM sAruM? haMmezA cauda upakaraNa vAparato. mArA gurune paNa mane bhaNAvavAnI hoMza hatI. kAmakAja karavA na de. pote gocarI laI Ave. huM paNa pANI lAvIne-gALIne ghaDAmAM bharI lau. UnuM TADhuM jevuM hoya tevuM banene cAlatuM. ekAsaNuM karIne paMDitajIno pATha leto. rAtre AvRtti ane manana karato." A sAMbhaLIne pU. jJAnasAgarajIe pU. kailAsasAgarajIne pUchayuM, "Apa hamezAM. keTalI gAthA karI zakatA hatA?" tyAre pU. kailAsasAgarajIe uttara Apyo, "jayAre 'prakaraNa' vagere gAthA karato hato tyAre vihAramAM eka kalAkamAM dasa gAthA thatI. vadhIne koI koI divase eka divasamAM cAlIsa-pacAsa gAthA moDhe thatI hatI. 'ladhuvRtti pachI kalikAlasarvajJa hemacaMdrAcAryanA siddhahema" nAmanA vyAkaraNanA graMthano abhyAsa kayoM. A aMge eka mArmika vigata 5. jJAnasAgarajIe nodhelI maLe che. pU. jJAnasAgarajIe pU. kailAsasAgarajI pAsethI emanA jIvananI keTalIka vigato meLavavAno prayAsa karyo hato, tyAre kailAsasAgarajInI keTalIka vAta emanA zabdomAM jJAnasAgarajI A pramANe noMdhe che'huM jayAre sidhdhahema vyAkaraNa karato hato tyAre paMDita girajAzaMkara kahe ke - temAM tamane 48 For Private And Personal Use Only

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samudAyamAM tame bIjA cho ke jeNe "siddhahema' karyuM hoya. pahelA sAdhu te pU. A. zrI buddhisAgarasUrijInA ziSya pU. amRtasAgarajI. temaNe siddhahema karyuM hatuM. teo jAte kSatriya hatA, paraMtu gurumahArAja buddhisAgarasUrijInI ananya bhaktivALA. gurumahArAja mATe prANa ApavA paDe topaNa vicAra na kare. AvA bhakitavALA hatA. teo kALadharma pAmyA, te TAIma ane mArA (AcArya zrI kelAsasAgarajI mahArAjanA) janmasamaya vacce lagabhaga nava mAsano phera che. mAro janma kyAM paMjAbamAM - jagarAMva gAmamAM ! ane dIkSA ane AkhuM jIvana gujarAtamAM ane vijApura-sattAvIza sAthe sAro pAreya. te anusaMdhAnamAM koI ema kahetAM ke te amRtasAgarajI no AmAM kadAca tame nahi ho ! A samudAyamAM AvavAmAM, pUrvano AvA ! eno jaNAnuM baMdha karo e hoya ! "satya kevalI gayuM.' pUjaya kelAsasAgarajI potAnA svAdhyAya jo mAM pahAyarUpa thanArA sANaMdanA saMghane potAnA mAtA pitA sapat mAgata. teo sANaMdamAM khUba rahyA ane pa. pU. A. zrI subodhasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAje e smaraNane yAda karatAM ema kahyuM ke sANaMdanAM thAko emano svAdhyAya nirvika cAle te mATe emano khaMDa baMdha karI detA ane mAtra gocarI pUratA samaya mATe teo bahAra AvatA. A rIte pasAra mAM zAstrAbhyAsanI eka suvarNa taka pUjaya kailAsasAgarajIne maLo. ahIM to pAse zAstrAbhyAsa karyo ane dharmagraMthonuM gahana adhayayana karyuM. A sANaMdanA zrIsaMghe emane saMyamamArganI anukULatA karI ApI. AthI teo kahetA, huM sANaMdano upakAra jIvanaparyaMta nahi bhUlI zakuM.' lagabhaga prativarSa teo sANaMdamAM AvatA. mAtra kyAreka rAjasthAna ke pAlitANA jeTale dUra hoya to AvavAnuM banatuM nahi. sANaMdamAM navo upAzraya baMdhAvavAno hato. sANaMda saMghanA AgevAna muMbaInA sAyanamAM birAjamAna pUjya upAdhyAyazrI kailAsasAgarajIne maLavA gayA. upAdhyAyazrI kailAsasAgarajIe vyAkhyAnamAM kahyuM, 'sANaMdanA gRhastho AvyA che. emane upAya karavo che. ema na mAnazo ke saMghanA gRhastho AvyA che. hakIkatamAM to mArAM mA-bApa AvyAM che.' koIe kahyuM, 'Apa ATaluM badhuM kema kaho cho ?" tyAre pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAje sANaMda saMghe dIkSAkALanA AraMbhamAM jeTaluM bharyuM hoya teTaluM bhaNavAnI je suMdara anukULatA karI ApI hatI. enI vAta karI. je upAzraya mATe pacAsa hajAra jeTalI rakama paNa bhegI karavI muzakela hatI, ene mATe For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghaNI moTI rakama ekaThI thai gai. sANaMdanA derAsaranI pAchaLa lagabhaga traNeka lAkhanA kharce taiyAra thayelo e moTo upAzraya pU. kailAsasAgarajInI kRpAthI mAtra bAra mahinAmAM ja taiyAra thai gayo. Ama eka bAju AtmavikAsanI prakriyA cAlatI hatI to bIjI bAju jJAnAbhyAsanI pravRtti cAlatI hatI. potAnI apUrva pratibhAne kAraNe alpa samayamAM ja emaNe Agamika, dArzanaka tema ja sAhityika Adi gaMdhonu UMDANathI ciMtana-manana karyuM. vidyAprAptinI dhagaza eTalI ke ene mATe mAilo sudhI jatAM paNa teo acakAtA nahi. sAMja paDaye bArI pAse UbhA rahIne paNa vAMce. ajavALAno pUrepUro upayoga kare. satata vicAra kare ke saMdha potAne mATe paMDita rAkhe che, eno kharca upADe che to pote paNa pUrepUrI mahenata karIne satata grahaNazIla rahevuM joie. sANaMdanA saMghanuM nAma Ave ke koi kAma Ave, to kailAsasAgarajIne AnaMda-AnaMda thai jato. kailAsasAgarajIne yoganiSTha AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajInAM pustako mATe ananya cAhanA hatI. emanA badhAM pustako emaNe vAMcyAM hatAM. e ja rIte kalikAlasarvajJa hemacaMdrAcArya, mahAyogI AnaMdathanajI ane upAdhyAya yazovijayajI mATe emanA aMtaramAM anahada lAgaNI hatI. uttarAdhyayana sUtra', 'paramAtma prakAza', yazovijayajI mahArAjanA 'aSTaka', hemacaMdrAcAryanuM 'yogazAstra' e emanA priya graMtho hatA. emanI dRSTi sAragrAhI hatI, ethI 'samayasAra' jevA digambara saMpradAyanA graMthamAMthI paNa teo amuka zlokono svAdhyAya karatA ane emAMthI navanIta tAravIne enA para AtmAnukULa ciMtana karatA. prAraMbhamAM mahesANAmAM paMDita pukharAjajI amIcaMdajI pAse abhyAsa karyo. Aje ativRdhdha paMDitajI emanA guNonuM smaraNa karavAnuM cUkatA nathI. teoe ghaNA AcArya bhagavaMtone bhaNAvyA, paraMtu A AcArya bhagavaMta pAse emane anokhI namratA, svAdhyAyazIlatA ane paragajuvRttinA darzana thayA hatA. panyAsa kAMtivijayajI mahArAja ane pUjaya vijayodayasUrIzvarajI mahArAja pAse AgamasUtrono svAdhyAya karyo. pU. naMdanasUrijI mahArAjanA ziSya paMDita zivAnaMdavijayajI pAse nyAyano abhyAsa karyo. pU. dharmadhUraMdharasUrijI ane pU. bhadraMkarasUrijI pAse paNa teoe abhyAsa karyo hato. zrI prabhudAsa becaradAsa paMDita pAse 'tattvArtha sUtra'no svAdhyAya karyo . vyAkaraNa,nyAya ane kAvyae traNemAM nipuNatA meLavI. emanI smaraNazakti ghaNI tIvra hatI. eka sAthe pacAsa zloka kaMThastha karI zakatA. kaoNlejanA abhyAsakALa daramiyAna itihAsa ke bhUgoLanuM koi pAThayapustaka vAMce to te viSaya uparAMta tenA lekhaka, prakAzaka, mudraka ane prakAzanavarSa ema AkheAkhuM pustaka kaMThastha thai jatuM. jemanI pAse emaNe abhyAsa karyo hato emanA tarapha teo agAdha 50 For Private And Personal Use Only

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Adara dAkhavatA hatA. emanI jJAnanI tAlAvelIne kAraNe sAdhujano ane paMDitavargamAM bhAre cAhanA meLavI hatI. najIkanA gAmamAM koI jJAnI sAdhupuruSa hoya to pote savAre jAya. emanI pAse besI jJAnAbhyAsa kare. bapAre pAchA Ave. badhuM choDIne bhaNavA doDI jAya. dhomadhakhatA tApamAM kharA bapore eka mAIla dUra vAcanA levA jAya ane pAcho Ave. AhArapANI vagere zArIrika bAbatonI upekSA karIne teoe vinayapUrvaka abhyAsa cAlu rAkhyo. teonI dRDha zradhdhA hatI ke jJAnanA abhAvamAM saMyamanI sAdhanA zakya nathI. jJAnI AtmA ja "sva" ane "para" kalyA sAdhI zake che. vaLI zAstrAbhyAsathI ja zreya-azreyanuM jJAna thAya che. ane AvI jJAnI vyakita ja ahitakara bAbato choDIne zreyanuM AcaraNa kare che. mAthI pU. kailAsasAgarajIe vicAryuM ke pote sAdhu thayA che, sAdhaka thayA che ane tethI emane sAdhutAne samajavA jJAnAbhyAsanI khAsa jarUra lA potAnI javAbadArI pUrNa karavA kartavyarUpe paNa abhyAsa jarUrI che tema mar. A samaye gurunA kaDavA vacano sAMbhaLatA, tema chatAM emanI rajA laIne ja rA-vatra maLavA jatA. vaLI guru kyAreka gusse thatA to emanI AMkhamAM Asu AvI jatAM. eka vAra pU. bhadrakarasUrijIe pUchayuM ke, tamArA caherA para vivAda ane glAni kema che ?" A samaye 5 kailAsasAgarajI e kahyuM, 'mArA nimitte mArA gurune gusse thavuM paDe che tenuM mane aharniza du:kha che. mane ema lAge che ke huM keTalo durbhAgI ke emane prasanna rAkhI zakato nathI.' Ama gurunI rajA maLe to ja pU. kailAsasAgarajI anyatra jaIne zAstrAbhyAsa karI zakatA. vidyAne vADA hotA nathI. ema potAnAthI padavImAM nAnA hoya, paNa vidyAvAna hoya to emanI pAse vidyA meLavavA pahoMcI jatA. pU. udayasUrijI, pU. lAvaNyasUrijI, pU. nemisUrijI, pU. naMdanasUrijI, pU. bhadrakarasUrijI ane pU. abhayasAgarajI jevA aneka sAdhujano pAsethI emaNe potAnI asIma jJAnapipAsAne kaMIka aMze tRpta karI hatI. vaLI A badhAne potAnA vidyAguru tarIke haMmezA Adara ApatA. emanI gurubhakti eka ja udAharaNa joIe. pU. kailAsasAgarajI dIkSAnA bIjA varSe sAMNadamAM hatA. A samaye bhadrakarasUrijI pAse emaNe 'karmagraMthano abhyAsa zarU karyo. guru jitendrasAgarajI rajA Ape to teo pU. bhadrasUrijI birAjamAna hatA e upAzraye jaI zake ane abhyAsa karI zake. AvI rIte paMdara mahinA sudhI pU. bhadrakarasUrijI pAse abhyAsa karyo, paraMtu enuM RNa kailAsasAgarajI jIvanabhara yAda karatA. vyAkhyAna karatA hoya topaNa saMdhanI mnd h nd pa 1 For Private And Personal Use Only

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AgaLa ema kahe ke pU. bhadrakarasUrijI mArA vidyAguru che. A aMge pU. makarasUrijIe kahyuM ke, pachI to pU. kailAsasAgarajIno abhyAsa eTalo badho thayo ke huM emanI pAse bhaNuM evI emaNe yogyatA meLavI hatI, chatAM jiMdagIbhara e RNane emaNe yAda karyuM. pU. kailAsasAgarajInA puNyodaya ke emane pU. udayasUrijI pAse zAstrAbhyAsanI taka maLI. eka samaye amadAvAdanA pAMjarApoLanA upAzrayamAM pU. udayasUrijI mahArAjano cAturmAsa hato. kalAsasAgarajIne emaNe abhyAsa mATe baporanA be vAgyAno samaya Apyo hato. amadAvAdanA dhomadhakhatA tApamAM pU. kailAsasAgarajI hAjara thaI jatA. emanI pAtratA koIne pU. udayasAgarajIe emane gahana jJAna ApyuM. AcArya udayasUrijI ma. sA. AcArya vijayanemisUrIzvarajI mahArAjanA : paTTadhara hatA. teo gItArtha, AgamanA jJAtA tathA zilpa ane jayotiSanA marmajJa hatA. vaLI emanA jIvanamAM saMyamanI nirmaLa sAdhanA jovA maLatI hatI. sAdhujIvananA mULa sUtro - chaMda sUtro te emanI pAsethI zIkhyA ane sAdhutAno kharo marma pAmyA. koI vAra pU. udayasUri mahArAjane maLavA gayA hoya to emanAM kapaDAM laine Ave. kApa kADhavA bese. kyAreka to emanI AgaLa kapaDAMno Dhagalo thaI jAya. teo kahetA ke guru maLe to AvA maLe ke jemanA jJAna ane cAritrathI jIvana dhanya thaI jAya. teo pU. udayasUrijI mahArAjane praNAma karatA tyAre potAnA mAthAthI emanA caraNano sparza karatA. koI vAra koI sAdhu ke zrAvaka pUche, "mahArAja, ATalI badhI sevA kema karo cho?" tyAre pU. kailAsasAgarajI javAba ApatA, "tame prophesara pAse jAva cho to keTalA badhA paisA ApavA paDe che? keTalo badho kharca karavo paDe che ? jayAre mane to A gurujanoe kevuM ni:svArthabhAve rAAna ApyuM che. emanI jeTalI sevA karIe teTalI ochI. emanA AzIrvAda ane sevAthI ja mArI vidyA phaLe." jIvanabhara pU. kailAsasAgarajI potAnA vidyAguruonuM sanmAnapUrvaka smaraNa karatA hatA. pote AcArya thayA, chatAM emane vaMdana karatA. koI nAno sAdhu hoya tema chatAM e vidyAvAna hoya to emanA caraNamAM besavAmAM kadI kSobha anubhavatA nahi. talasparzI adhyayananI sAthe emanI guruonI sevA paNa evI ja hatI. A guruone teo vAraMvAra vinaMtI karatA ke emanI sevAno lAbha Ape. Avo hato guru pratyeno apUrva samarpaNabhAva. koI eka zAstranI nahi, paNa aneka viSayanI jANakArI meLavavAnI pU. para For Private And Personal Use Only

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kailAsasAgarajIne dhagaza hatI. jainadarzana hoya ke jaina bhUgoLa hoya, paNa badhe ja emanI jJAnapipAsA vihAra karatI. emanA jIvanakALamAM lagabhaga daseka hajAra jeTalAM pustako emaNe vAMcyAM haze. 'svAdhyAyata mA pramItra' (svAdhyAyamAM kadI pramAda karavo nahi) e pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAjanuM sUtra hatuM. teo roja e jAgRti rAkhatA ke be hajAra zlokapramANa thavuM joIe. jo eTalo svAdhyAya na thAya to bIje divase nIvI kare. cha vigaIno tyAga kare. teo kahetA, "svAdhyAya e sAdhujIvanano prANa che." kailAsasAgarajInI eka vizeSatA e emanI smaraNazakti hatI. emaNe jeTalA pustako vAMcyAM hoya e badhAM emane yAda rahI jatAM. koI divasa carcA thAya, koI zAstrano AdhAra TAMkavAmAM Ave, e samaye pU. kailAsasAgarajI e prakArano zAstrIya AdhAra ke ene pramANita karatuM kathana anya pustakomAM che. eno havAlo ApatA hatA. ethIya vizeSa e pustakanA kyA adhyAyamAM yA keTalAmAM prakaraNamAM che paNa te yAdadAstanA AdhAre kahI detA.AvI ja rIte teo AgamanI vAcanA ApatA hoya, tyAre bIjA AgamomAM A viSaya para lakhAyuM hoya to tenuM paNa uddharaNa ApatA hatA. koI sidhdhAMtanuM bIjA AgamamAM vizeSa spaSTIkaraNa karavAmAM AvyuM hoya to teonI smRti eTalI tIvra hatI ke tarata ja koI paNa pustako pheMdyA vinA kahI ApatA ke AnuM vizeSa spaSTIka che. amuka AgamamAM amuka sthAne maLaze. pU. kailAsasAgarajI 'hemavyAkaraNano abhyAsa karatA, tyAre bIjA badhA agharA sUtronI nodha karatA hatA. pU. kailAsasAgarajI AvI koI noMdha kare nahi ane tema chatAM bIje divase emane badhuM ja yAda hoya.parama pUjaya lAvaNyasUri mahArAja vyAkaraNanA prakAMDa paMDita hatA. emanI pAse kailAsasAgarajIe vyAkaraNano abhyAsa karyo. pU. lAvaNyasUri mahArAjano gaNadharavAda paNa khUba prakhyAta hato. jainadarzananI evI mArmika dRSTAMtasaha vAta kare ke sAMbhaLanAra sahunA manamAM e sidhdhAMta barAbara UtarI jato. vaLI gaNadharavAdanI to evI rajUAta kare ke sAMbhaLanArane raDAvI de. teo mAlakausa rAgamAM pravacana ApatA. pU. kailAsasAgarajI A pravacana ekadhyAne sAMbhaLatA hatA. bIjA badhA noTamAM pravacana utAratA hoya, jayAre kailAsasAgarajI to upAzrayamAM AvyA bAda mahattvanA zloka noMdhI le. vyAkhyAnamAM sAMbhaLelA zloka emane barAbara yAda rahI jatA. koI bIjA sAdhuthI zloka barAbara na lakhAyo hoya to ene potAnI nodha ApatA hatA. eka bAju pU. kailAsasAgarajInA jJAnanA sImADA vistaratA hatA. to bIjI bAju adhyAtmasAdhanAnI gahana duniyAmAM vadhu ne vadhu UMDe gati karatA hatA. pa3 For Private And Personal Use Only

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ratnano prakAza lAMbA samaya sudhI chUpo rAkhI zakAto nathI, tema prAraMbhanI sAMsArika muzkelIo pachI emanI AdhyAtmikatAnuM teja vadhu ne vadhu pragaTa thavA mAMDayuM. emanI apUrva yogyatAne kAraNe vi. saM. 2004nA mAgazara vada 10nA divase pUnAmAM pUjaya AcAryazrI kIrtisAgarasUrijI mahArAjanA varadahaste emane gaNipada pradAna karavAmAM AvyuM. e pachI emanA AtmajJAnano prakAza vadhu ne vadhu jhaLahaLato rahyo. saMghasevA ane AtmakalyANa bane sAthosAtha cAlavA lAgyAM. vi.saM. 2005nA mAgazara suda 10nA divase muMbaInA goDIjI jaina upAzraya(pAyadhUnI)mAM emane panyAsapada ApavAmAM AvyuM. vi. saM. 2011nA mAgazara suda chaThThanA roja sANaMdamAM upAdhyAyapada ApavAmAM AvyuM. e pachInAM varSomAM kailAsasAgarajIne badhA AcAryapadavI mATe Agraha karatA hatA. A samaye teo badhAne kahetA, "huM AcAryapadane yogya nathI. AcArya to emane banAvavA joIe ke jeo kaDaka thaIne anuzAsana kare. mArAmAM evI koI kaDakAI nathI." Akhare ati Agrahane vaza thaIne vi.saM. 2022nA mahA vada 11nA divase sANaMdanI mAnItI bhUmi para kailAsasAgarajIne AcAryapadathI vibhUSita karavAmAM AvyA. teo pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanA nAmathI sarvatra jANItA banyA. vi. sa. 2016mAM emanA para samudAyanI badhI javAbadArI AvI paDI ane kailAsasAgarajI gacchanAyaka banyA. mahuDI saMghane kailAsasAgarajI mahArAjanA be lAbha maLyA. eka to vi. saM. 2021mAM emaNe mahuDImAM upadhAna karAvyA, vi. saM. 2024mAM aMjanazalAkA pratiSThA karAvI. tyArabAda mahuDI saMghe temane gacchAdhipatinI padavI levAnI vinaMtI karI, tyAre kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM ke Ane mATe yogya to pUjaya subodhasAgarajI mahArAja che. AnuM kAraNa e hatuM ke pUjaya subodhasAgarajI mahArAja AcArya kIrtisAgarajInA ziSya hatA. jayAre pote to AcArya kIrtisAgarasUrijInA ziSya jitendrasAgarasUrijInA ziSya hatA. AthI pU. kailAsasAgarajIe pU. subodhasAgarajIne gacchAdhipatinI padavI levA kahyuM paNa kharuM, "Apa Ano svIkAra karo, tamArI AjJA huM mAnIza." pUjaya subodhasAgarajI mahArAje vaLato javAba Apyo ke, "AvuM kadI bane nahi. Ane mATe Apa yogya cho, tethI Apa A padavI dhAraNa karo." mahuDI saMghe ati Agraha karyo, tyAre kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM ke dasa lAkha rUpiyA ekatrita karIne te rUpiyAthI sarakhA bhAge deva, guru ane sAdharmikonI 54 For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhakitano lAbha levAnuM saMgha nakkI kare to huM gacchAdhipatipada levA vicAra karuM. pU. A. zrI subodhasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAje kahyuM ke emaNe A eka kutUhala pheMkayuM ane ame jhIlI lIdhuM. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir mahuDI saMgha saMmata thayo ane vi. sa. 2039nA jeTha suda 11nA divase (21-6-1983, maMgaLavAra) mahuDI tIrthamAM vizALa mAnavamaherAmaNanI vacce sAgarasamudAyanI ucca praNAlikA anusAra kailAsasAgarajI mahArAjane vidhivat gacchAdhipatipade vibhUSita karavAmAM AvyA. 55 For Private And Personal Use Only

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"karuNA sarva para karavI, bUrAnuM paNa bhaluM karavuM. dharo mahAvIranI AjJA, hukama mArA ziSyone." * 1 nA aYi ? tA rA pa paranI UMcAI mAnavI sparzI cUkayo che. paraMtu maranA puruSonA guNasamUhanI UMcAIne samagratayA sparzavI muzkela che. jemanI vANImAM madhuratA hoya, vyavahAramAM vinaya hoya, jIvanamAM ni:spRhatA hoya, saMsamamAM daDhatA hoya, yogamAM lInatA hoya evI vibhUtinA jIvanane sarvAze pA 'khavuM zakya bane kharuM? kAnA sAgara pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInA vyaktitvanI UMcAI kesa jeTalI hatI to gahanatA ane vizALatA mahAsAgara jeTalI hatI. AvA mahAsAgaramAMthI ApaNe to thoDAM pANIdAra, navalakhAM motI ja meLavI zakIe. prakrizcithI keTalAMya jojana dUra rahetI AvI niHspRha vibhUtinI jIvanaghaTanAo moTebhAge ajANI ane apragaTa rahetI hoya che. emanI gahana sAdhanAnA kaThina paMthano janasamAjamAM bhAgye ja koine paricaya hoya che. emanA pratyakSa paricayamAM AvanArane AvI vibhUtinI AcherI jhalaka malI hoya che. paraMtu zabdo pAse kyAM che saMtane pragaTa karavAnuM sAmarthya? zabdothI to mahApu SonI mAtra AchI pAtaLI rekhA ja dorI zakAya. AcArya kailAsasAgaranA virATa vyaktitvanI thoDI ghaNI jhAMkhI ke jhalaka ja ApaNe zabdothI pAmI zakIe. jIvanamAM traNa mauna mahattvanA che. prathama mauna che vANInuM jenA abhAve jagatamAM mahAbhArata sarjAyu. bIjuM mauna che kAnanuM. ke jemAM kAnaparaniMdA sAMbhaLavA saheje rAjI na hoya. trIjuM ane kaparuM mauna che AMkhonuM je AMkha sadA namratAthI namelI ane vibhUSita hoya, vAtsalyathI nItaratI hoya. pUjaya AcArya kailAsasAgarasUrijInA paricayamAM AvanArane sauthI pahelI najare emanI AMkhonuM mauna sparzI jatuM. sAmAnya mAnavI vicAre caDI jato ke AvA moTA gacchAdhipati keTalI badhI namratA dhAraNa kare che. teo derAsaramAM darzana karatA hoya, koI zrAvaka sAthe vArtAlApa karatA hoya, ke pachI vyAkhyAna ApatA hoya ke vihAra karatA hoya, paraMtu emanI dRSTi sadAya nIcI ja hoya. AnuM kAraNa zuM haze? & AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrijI likhita bhajanapada saMgraha' bhAga-6 pa3 For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka to AnAthI bhUmi paranA jIvajaMtuonI jayaNA rAkhI zakAya. paNa ethIye vizeSa to A emanI netrasaMyamanI UMcI sAdhanAnuM prAgaTya hatuM. teo mAnatA hatA ke TaiSTinuM kAma to svAdhyAya, darzana ane jayaNAnuM che. teo kahetA, "A AMkho to bhagavAnanA darzana mATe ane jJAnanA prakAza mATe che, atratatra jovA mATe nahi." kavicat koi zrAvaka ema pUchI bese ke Apa sadAya nIcI dRSTi zA mATe rAkho cho?'' to teo kahe, "jovAnA hoya to te tIrthaMkara paramAtmAne. bIjuM saMsAramAM jovAnuM che zuM?" A rIte emanA dRSTisaMyamamAMthI jagatavyavahAranI emanI nirlepatA satata pragaTa thatI hatI. aSTapravacanamAtAnuM yathArthapaNe pAlana karatA hatA. ApaNe sthUlIbhadranuM jIvana jANIe chIe. zAstra ane graMtha emane netrasaMyama ajoDa hovAnuM varNave che. AjanA samayamAM enI AchI jhAMkhI thai pU. kailAsasAgarasUrijInA jIvanamAMthI. kayAreka koi zrAvikA vAsakSepa naMkhAvavA Ave tyAre, pU. AcAryazrI vAsakSepa nAkhe paNa AMkha to nIcIja hoya. e pachI zrAvaka vAsakSepa nakhAvavA Ave ane e kahe ke Aje savAre ja zrAvikA ApanA darzana-vaMdana karavA AvyAM hatAM. AcAryazrIe UMcI najare joyuM hoya to khyAla hoya ne? teo nikhAlasatAthI kahebhAi, mane enI khabara nathI" Avo ja adbhuta emano vANIsaMyama hato. teo pUrNa vicAra karIne ja bolatA. bolatAM pahelAM vicAra karatA ke huM je vacano kahevA mAguM chuM enAthI koine du:kha to nahi thAya ne? vaLI potAnAthI khoTuM na bolAi jAya ke khoTA upadeza na apAi jAya tenI pUrNa jAgRti rAkhatA. teo vAraMvAra kahetA, "A bhava jIbhano durupayoga karIe to pachI jIbha nahi maLe. kAnano durupayoga karIe to pachI kAna nahi maLe. parabhavamAM A badhI vastuo durlabha banI jaze." AthI potAnA sAdhujIvanamAM teo parinaMdAthI sadAya dUra rahyA. emanA mukhethI koi gRhastha ke sAdhu vize koi TIkA-TippaNa sAMbhaLavA na maLe. kadI koinA doSanI vAta pote kare nahi ane koi kare to tarata ja ene aTakAvI de. koi sAdhu ke gRhastha kyAreka asAvadhAnIthI emanI AgaLa AvI koi TIkA karavA jAya to ene tarata ja rokIne pU. AcArya kailAsasAgarasUrijI kahe ke, "jIva chadmastha che. karmane AdhIna che. koi vyakti bhUla ke doSa kare,paraMtu ApaNe to emAMthI enA saddaguNa ja jovAnA ane grahaNa karavAnA hoya, durguNa nahi.' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir vi. saM. 2004mAM muMbainA koTa vistAramAM padharAja paryuSaNa ujavAtAM hatAM. A samaye pUjaya paMnyAsa zrI kailAsasAgarajI koTanA upAzrayamAM birAjamAna hatA. zrAvako jAya tyAre bahu ochuM bole. moTe bhAge to dhyAnamAM ane jApamAM hoya. bahAra hoya tyAre mAtra nIcI najare vAsakSepa nAkhe. 58 For Private And Personal Use Only

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eka zrAvakane lAgyuM ke pUnyAsajI to bhAre rIsALa che. koinI sAthe kazuM bolatA nathI. A zrAvake akrama karyo. ene khyAla Avyo ke A sAdhu mahAtmA rIsALa nathI, paNa sahaja ja ochuM ane khapa pUratuM ja bolanArA che. ethIye vizeSa pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijInI bhASAsamiti anokhI hatI. cha varSano nAnakaDo bALaka hoya to tenI sAthe paNa 'bhAi' ke 'lAla' jevA mAnavAcaka pratyayo lagADIne ja vAta karatA hoya. bALakathI mAMDIne moTI uMmaranA sahu koine mAnArthe ja bolAve. zrAvakane haMmezAM 'zrAvakajI' kahetA teo kahetA ke A pai toparamAtmA dvArA pratiSThita che.mATe saheje toDachAi cAle nahi. e ja rIte koi sAdhvI hoya to emane paNa 'sAdhvIjI mahArAja' kahetA. sAmI vyaktine bolAvavA mATe 'Apa' sivAya bIjo koi zabda vApare nahi. koine patra lakhe to samApanamAM potAnI 'vaMdanA' lakhatA. e ja rIte nAnA sAdhune mATe teo 'zAsanaprabhAvaka' evo zabda vAparatA jethI eno ullAsa jaLavAi rahe. pahelA ja divasathI ene'muni bhagavaMta ke 'sAdhu bhagavaMta kahIne bolAvatA. vahelI savAre pote UThe tyAre nAnA sAdhune bhAre premathI uThADatA. A samaye teo kahetA, 'sAdhu bhagavaMto, samaya thayo, UTho!' emanI A madhura vANI sAMbhaLatAM ja pratyeka sAdhu jAgI jatA. emanA samagra jIvanamAM kyAMya vANInI kaTutA jovA nahi maLe. emano evo Agraha raheto ke koi ziSTAcAranuM pAlana na kare, topaNa ApaNe ziSTAcAranuM pAlana karavuM. koine madhura zabdothI ke lAgaNIbharyA vinayathI bolAvIe to ene anicchA haze topaNa sArA zabdo vinayapUrvaka bolavA paDaze. AcArya kailAsasAgarasUrijIne vANInI mRdutA sahajasidhdha hatI. laghutA ane namratA e emanA vyaktitvanA abhinna aMza hatA. koi paNa zrAvaka Ave tyAre temane teo haMmezAM bhAgyazALI AnaMdamAM? ema kahetA hatA. rAtanA bAra vAgye koi mUMjhAyelo zrAvaka mArgadarzana mATe Ave topaNa e ja lAgaNI ane bhAva jovA maLe. e zrAvakane tarata ja pUche ke, 'kema cho bhAgyazALI ?' emanI vANImAM kyAMya tucchakAra nahi, mAtra Adara ane vinaya ja nItarato hoya. kayAreka vihAra cAlato hoya tyAre koi gAmamAM pravezyA pachI koi sAdhu ema pUche, "ahIM vANiyAnAM ghara keTalA che?" to AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI tarata ja e sAdhune premathI kahe, "tamArAthI AvuM na bolAya. e tamane anna Ape che, pANI Ape che. tamArA saMyamanuM poSaNa kare che. mAtA-pitA tulya zrAvakane 'vANiyA' na kahevAya. bhagavAnanA 59 For Private And Personal Use Only

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upAsaka zrAvaka hoya, vANiyo na hoya. AthI tamAre pUchavuM hoya to ema pUcho ke A gAmamAM zrAvakanA dhara keTalA che?? Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir AcAryazrI kahetA ke kadAca janasamudAyanI bhASAmAM tucchakAro hoya to kSamya gaNIne calAvI levAya, paNa sAdhunI vANImAM kadI tucchakAra na hoya. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI eka zikhAmaNa vAraMvAra ApatA ane bhArapUrvaka kahetA, "jagatanI bhASAmAM nahi, paNa jagatapatinI bhASAmAM bolo. juo, samavasaraNamAM uccArAyelI bhagavAnanI vANImAM keTaluM apAra mAdhurya ane akhUTa viveka pragaTelAM che, bhagavAnanAM saMbodhano paNa keTalAM badhAM namratAyukta che! teo 'moH levAnupriya' ema kahIne ja saMbodhana kare che.' emanA vidhAguru mahesANAnA paMDita pukharAjIe kahayuM, " saMyamanA sAcA tyAgI hovA chatAM teozrInI bhASAmAM hamezAM madhuratA ja hatI. nAnA, moTA, tyAgI ane gRhasthane paNa teozrI 'jI' kahIne ja bolAvatA ane tarata ja kAMi kAmakAja hoya to jaNAvavAnuM kahetA." vyakti pote vANIsaiMyama dharAvatI hoya, paNa jayAre sAmI vyakti gusse thai hoya, akaLAi hoya, bhAna bhUlIne bolatI hoya tyAre vANIsaMyamanI sAcI kasoTI thatI hoya che. eka vAra emanI najIka beThelA eka nAnA sAdhue koine kaMika kaThora zabdo kahyA. pU. AcAryazrIe ene Thapako Apyo nahi. evo upadeza paNa Apyo nahi ke sAdhune Avo AcAra zobhe niha,balke e sAdhune premathI pAse bolAvIne enI pAse traNa vAra bAlAvaDAvyuM | WILL NEVER BE ANGRY' (huM kadI gusse thaiza nahi) AvI premabharI emanI samajAvavAnI ane zikhAmaNa ApavAnI rIta hatI. sAdhujanono samudAya beTho hoya ane kayAreka koi zrAvaka uttejanAmAM bolI jAya, tyAre bIjA sAdhuo sAhijaka rIte ja jaDabAtoDa javAba ApavAno prayatna karatA. A samaye pU. AcAryazrI kahetA, "tamArA manane kahI do ke A 'roga naMbara' che.ApaNe dhera phona Avyo hoya, mANasa game teTaluM bolatuM hoya, paNa tame mAtra eTaluM ja kaho ke A roMga naMbara che,to te kevo ThaMDogAra thai jAya che !'' AvI gammatathI pU. AcAryazrI paristhitine saMbhALI letA hatA. gusse thayelo zrAvaka ke gusse thavA jatA sAdhu zaramAi jatA. emanA jIvanamAM nakhazikha vinaya hato. teo kayAreya maLavA AvelA zrAvakane UbhA thavAnuM kahe nahi. koi maLavA AvyuM hoya ane vAtacIta pUrI thai gai hoya ane te ApameLe UbhA thAya to barAbara che, paNa pote kadI ene UbhA thavAnuM kahe nahi. AmAM kyAreka to gocarIno samaya vItI jato. G For Private And Personal Use Only

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gocarI paDI rahI hoya paNa sAmAne UbhA thavAnuM na kahe, bIjAne AvuM kaI rIte kahI zakAya? sAmAnya rIte teo bAra vAgyA pachI vahoravA Ave ane ekAda vastu grahaNa kare. e pachI upAzrayamAM koI maLavA AvyuM hoya to gocarI mATe UThe nahi. nAnuM bALaka AvyuM hoya topaNa enI sAthe vAta kare. ghaNI vAra agiyAra vAgyAnI gocarI cheka doDha-be vAgyA sudhI ema ne ema paDI hoya. bIjA sAdhuo akaLAI jAya, paNa pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI to eTaluM ja kahe, "huM pachI vAparIza. tame vAparI lo," ane aMte cheka be vAgye gocarI vAparavAnuM bane! vaizAkha mahinAnI asahya garamI ane asvastha tabita hovA chatAM hiMmatanagaramAM pratiSThA karAvI. zvAsanuM darda hovA chatAM emaNe dardana ka zI paravA karI nahi. A samaye teo pote pravacana ApatA hatA. satata zrama laIne vidhividhAne karAvatA hatA. emanA darzanArthe AvanAra ! paNe satata dhasAro raheto hato. Ave samaye anya koI hoya to kahI de ke amuka samaye ja maLI zake che athavA to atyAre maLI zakAze nahi, paraMtu A lAgaNIbhInA A cArya tAra sahune mATe sadAkALa khullAM hatAM. emaNe kayAreya koIne aTakAvyA nathI nAno mANasa Ave ke moTo mANasa Ave - sahune Aja thI nA lAve ane potAnI pAse besADe. teo haMmezA eka vAkaya kahetA :. sAdhunAM kAra sadAya khullAM ja hoya, kayAreka kaparI paristhiti sarjAI jatI. darzanArthIono dhasAro khALavo muzkela banato. pU. AcAryazrIne lAMbA ArAmanI jarUra hoya ane kSaNano paNa virAma maLe nahi. Ave vakhate bIjA sAdhuo akaLAI jatA. pU. AcAryazrI emanI akaLAmaNa pArakhIne tarata kahI detA, "koI paNa vyakita Ave to dila ane dvAra khullAM rAkhavA joIe. ApaNe sAdhuo to AdhyAtmika haoNspiTala calAvIe chIe. upAzraya e imarjansI vaoNrDa' kahevAya, koI dhAyala thaine game te samaye Ave, paNa ApaNuM kAma to ene saMtoSanI sAravAra ApavAnuM che, sAMtvanAthI ghA rUjhavavAnuM che. enA cittane samAdhAnanI svasthatA ApavAnuM che. " Ama sArI ke narasI paristhiti hoya. kaphoDI ke kaTutAbharI hAlata hoya, tema chatAM pU. AcAryazrIe koI divasa emanI bhASA-samitimAM doSa AvavA dIdho nathI. emanA satsaMgamAM AvanAra sahune Ano pratyakSa anubhava thato hato. koI 6 1 For Private And Personal Use Only

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zrAvaka jIvananI paristhitithI khUba akaLAyelo hoya, kaTutAne kAraNe gusse bharAyo hoya, paraMtu AcAryazrI pAse jato tyAre sAva badalAi jato ! AcAryazrInI AsapAsanuM vAtAvaraNa eTaluM badhuM sAtvikatApUrNa ane saraLatAbharyuM rahetuM ke bhalabhalAno gusso emane joine ogaLI jato. emanA zabdomAM kayAreya Aveza ke uzkerATa hoya nahi. sAmI vyakitane nitAMta svasthatAno anubhava thAya. keTalAka to ema kahetA ke emanI AsapAsa daivika paramANunA samUhathI vAtAvaraNa bhareluM rahetuM ke jethI mananI nadhI viTaMbaNA bhUlI jatA ane cittane eka prakAranI zAMtino anubhava thato. sahune emanI AsapAsa premanA eka vartuLano anubhava thate.. enI paridhimAM AvyA bAda vyakti potAno Akroza khoi besatI. pANahradayano mAnavI paNa pIgaLI jato. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir vicAra eka prakAranuM megneTa che ane emanI pAse vicAronI eTalI zuddhatA hatI ke keTalAka to emanI pAse mAtra besavA ja AvatA, kAraNake jhaMpanI samIpa besavAthI vyakitane avarNanIya zAMtino anubhava thatAM. ema paNa jarUra pUratuM bolavuM. jhaghaDAmAM paDavuM niha. iyAM samiti sacavAya tenuM dhyAna rAkhavuM. A badhuM emanA saMparkamAM AvanArane sparzI jatuM. zAMta, zudhdha, saMyamamaya jIvana prabhubhakitathI ane ArAdhanAthI evuM bharyuM bharyuM hatuM ke temAMthI utpanna thatA prakAza ane saumyatA ja temane je kahevAnuM hoya te bAlyA vagara pragaTa karI detAM hatAM. pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijInuM jIvana eTale zrApako pratye apAra karuNAbharyuM jIvana. ATalI UMcI padavI hovA chatAM zrAvakane aMtaranA umaLakAthI bolAve. koi zrAvakane tyAM pUjana hoya to AgrahanI kadApi apekSA na rAkhe, zrAvaka aupacArika rIte bolAvavA na Ave toye sAme cAlIne AvA dharmakAryamAM pahoMcI jAya. emanA jIvanano eka prasaMga avismaraNIya che. amadAvAdano unALAno dhomadhakhato tApa hato. e divase emane zrama paNa ghaNo lAgyo hato. devakInaMdananA upAzrayathI baLabaLatA bapore emane sidhdhacakra pUjanamAM nAraNapurA javAnuM hatuM. pU. AcAryazrI pUjanamAM javA UbhA thayA. A joine pU. jJAnasAgarajIe lAgaNIbharyAM avAje kahyuM, "AvA taDakAmAM jazo to paga zekAi jaze. rastAmAM jhADa nathI, chAMyo nathI ane ATalI badhI garamI che." pU.AcAryazrIe mArmika uttara Apyo, taDakAno vicAra karIe to taDako lAge. huM mAthe kAmaLI oDhI navakAra gaNato gaNato pahoMcI jaiza. mane taDako koi divasa naDato nathI ' 6 ra For Private And Personal Use Only

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ane baLabaLatA tApamAM teo zrAvakane tyAM sidhdhacakra pUjanamAM pahoMcI gayA. koi zrAvaka maLavA Avyo hoya ane pU. AcAryazrI vizrAma karatA hoya to anya sAdhujano zrAvakane thoDI vAra potAnI pAse besavA kahe, paNa pU. AcAryazrIne jevo emano avAja saMbhaLAya ke tarata ja zrAvakane potAnI pAse bolAvI letA. Ave vakhate koi zrAvaka ema kahe, "mane kSamA karajo, meM ApanA ArAmamAM khalela pADI." pUjaya AcAryazrI ane bhAvathI kahe, "koi anivArya saMjogone kAraNe ja tame tamArA vizrAmano samaya choDIne mane maLavA AvyA cho ane hu vizrAma karuM barAbara kahevAya?" Akho divasa atyaMta vyasta jato. loko maLavA Ave. saMghA salAha levA Ave. koi muhUrta kaDhAvavA Ave to kayAreka gacchanuM kAma cAlatuM hoya. khUba thAkyo hoya ane saheja vizrAma levA jatA hoya tyAre jo koi AvI pahoMce to sAdhanA sAdhu kavicat aLAi jatA, paraMtu pU. AcAryazrI saumya mukhamudrA sAthe prasannatApUrvaka kahetA ke "emaNe to ApaNo pramAda dUra karyo. koi vAra koi najIkanA zrAvaka pAse potAnAM pustakonuM poTakuM maMgAvyuM hoya. Ave samaye ghaNI vAra teo pUchatA ke poTakuM kai rIte lAvyA ? rikSAmAM lAvyA hoya to pUchatA keTalo kharca thayuM? potAnA nimitte zrAvakone kharcano bojo Arthika saMjogone kAraNe veThavo na paDe tenI bhAre cIvaTa rAkhatA. koi garIba zrAvaka hoya to koine sadupadeza ApIne ene yogya madada maLe tenI khevanA rAkhatA. pAchalI avasthAmAM anicchAe anivAryapaNe DoLIno upayoga karavo paDato hato, tyAre hitendrabhAi zAha DoLInI vyavasthA karavAnuM kArya saMbhALatA. teo DoLIvALAne khAsa tAkIda karatA ke pU. AcAryazrI pUche ke keTalI rakama ApavAnI nakkI karI che to kahevuM nahi. AnuM kAraNa e hatuM ke potAne nimitte ATalI rakama vaparAya te jANIne teo DoLI karavAnI nA paNa pADe. dara mahine amuka zrAvako emane vaMdana karavAno niyama rAkhatA. kvacit koi zrAvakane koi kAraNasara AvatA moDuM thAya to teo phikara karatA hatA. vaLI koi zrAvaka lAMbA samaye vaMdana karavA Ave to temane pUche ke tamArI dharmaArAdhanA to prasannatApUrvaka zAMtacitte thAya che ne? temAM koi kSati nathI AvI ne? pU. AcAryazrI ATalA badhA jAgrata hatA. . pUjaya AcAryazrI sAdharmika bhakitano suMdara upadeza ApatA ane zrAvako para enI ghaNI asara thatI. AgaMtuka sAdharmikonI bhaktino acUka lAbha levAno sthAnika zrAvakone khAsa upadeza ApatA. vaLI sthAnika zrAvako paNa sAdharmika bhakitano umaMgathI lAbha letA. AcAryazrI pAse zubha muhUrta meLavavA AvelA 63 For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAdharmiko sAdharmika bhakitano lAbha ApyA pachI ja teozrI pAsethI zubha muhUrta meLavI zakatA hatA. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir bALapaNathI ja pU. kailAsasAgarajIne nAnAM bALako pratye khUba prema hato. potAnI gRhastha avasthAmAM potAnA moTAbhAi biracaMdajInA putra rAmaprakAzane roja sAikala para besADIne bAgamAM lai jAya. khUba pherave. bhAre AnaMda karAve. AthI rAmaprakAzajI Aje paNa ema kahe che ke emanA pitAzrI biracaMdajI karatAM vadhu prema kAzIrAmajIe Apyo hato. pote mahAna AcArya thayA chatAM nAnAM bALako sAthe nAnA bALaka jevA thai jatA. bALako AgaLa emano AnaMdI svabhAva khIlI UThato. eka vAra teo rastA parathI pasAra thatA hatA. eka nAnA chokarAne AcAryazrI para bhAre anurAga hato. nAnA bALake emane vinaMtI karI ke najIkamAM ja mAruM ghara che. AcAryazrI Apa padhAro to huM dhanya banI jaiza. tarata ja AcAryazrIe kahyuM, "cAla, mane tArA gharano rasto batAva." bALako Ave to ene navakAra bolAve. emane mAthe premathI vAsakSepa nAkha ane paropakAra karavAnI tathA mAbApanI sevA karavAnI zIkha Ape. teo jayAM jayAM jatA tyAM bALakone be bAbato khAsa kahetA: eka to mAtApitAno Adara karavo ane bIjuM jinamaMdiramAM darzana karavAM. bALakomAM saMskArasiMcana karavAnI emanI rIta anokhI hatI. bALaka javA banIne emanI sAthe bhaLI jatA ane pachI teo premathI je vAta kahetA ta bALako paNa svIkAratAM hatAM. AcAryazrIno AnaMdI svabhAva bapore bALamunione bhaNAve tyAre jovA maLato. khUba AnaMdathI bhaNAve. vacce vacce ramUja paNa kare. dIkSArthI bALakane bahAra mokale tyAre zrAvakane ene badhe pheravavAnuM kahe. eka vAra eka sajajana AcAryazrInI gocarI laine guMdI gayA hatA. ahIMthI koI dIkSArthI bALakane phedarA gAmamAM javAnuM hatuM. AcAryazrIe AvelA sajajanane kahyuM ke Ane sAva najIka AvelA phedarA gAme mUkI dejo. e pachI dIkSArthI bALakane majAka karatAM kahyuM., 'cAla, tAre phedarA javuM che ne? jo,tAre mATe khAsa gADI AvI che. pUjaya AcAryazrInA jIvanamAM aMtima aMjanazalAkA hatI pAlI (rAjasthAna)nI. A mahAmAgalika puNya prasaMge nAnA sAdhuoe AcAryazrIne AgrahapUrvaka navAM kapaDAM paheravA kahyuM. anya sAdhuonI paNa evI icchA hatI ke AcAryazrI navAM kapaDAM pahere to sAruM. nAnA sAdhuoe amane A vinaMtI karI, tyAre AcAryazrIe hasatAM hasatAM kahyuM, "tame to gharaDAMne zaNagAravAnI vAta karo cho.' 6 4 For Private And Personal Use Only

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padavI kadI AcAryazrIne pajavI zakI nahi. nAnA hoya ke moTA, garIba hoya ke amIra, du:khI hoya ke sukhI sahunA tarapha jIvanabhara emanuM apAra vAtsalya vahetuM rahyuM. emanI pAse ucca sAdhutA hatI, paNa zuSkatA nahotI, saMyamanI anerI ArAdhanA hatI, paNa saMsArIo mATe leza paNa tiraskAra nahoto. emanA manamAM satata eka ja bhAvanA rahetI ke sAdhu hoya ke zrAvaka hoya, kaI rIte enA jIvanane dharmabodha pamADI zakAya? jIvananI sAdhanA kailAsa jeTalI UMcI hatI paNa tethI kaMI aspRzya nahotI. zrIsaMdhanI vacce rahIne ane samudAya sAthe jIvIne emaNe potAnA hRdayanI agAdha karuNAno paricaya Apyo hato. 6 5 For Private And Personal Use Only

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'vadanaM prasAdasadanaM; sadayaMhRdayaM sudhAmuco vaacH| karaNaM paropakAramaM yeSAM keSAM na te vanyAH // ' 'prasannatAthI bhareluM mukha, dayAthI chalakAtuM hRdaya, amRta jharatI madhura vANI ane jenA kArya mAtra paropakAranAM hoya, te kone vaMdanIya na bane? arthAt te sarvanA vaMdanIya bane che." AcAryazrInA jIvanane A subhASita yArthatharUpe pragaTa kare che. emanA AtmAnI nirmaLatA emanI saumya mukhamudrAmAM pragaTa thatI hatI. emanAM vyavahAramAM dRSTisaMyama hato. emanI vANImAM viveka hato. emanA AhAramAM paNa tapa taraphanI ruci hatI. je vAparavA maLe temAM rAga-dveSa na thAya teno khyAla rAkhe. bhASAsamiti. eSaNAsamiti ane anya samitionI jALavaNI evI ke parama sAdhutAnI zucitA dekhAya. * emanI pratyeka kriyA saMyamapathanA yAtrInI nirdezaka hatI. emane sAdhupadano bhAre mahimA hato. teo vAraMvAra 'uttarAdhyayana sUtra' ke 'dazakAlika sUtra'no AdhAra TAMkIne sAdhutAnI mahattA darzAvatA. teo kahetA ke, "jema gAyo carAvavAvALA govALa ane dhananI rakSA karavAvALA koSAdhyakSa tenA svAmI hotA nathI tema sAdhuveza dhAraNa karavAthI koI sAdhutvano adhikArI banI jato nathI." AvA ' bhikhusunta' nI bhagavAnanI vANIthI teo sAcA sAdhunI mahattA darzAvatA rahetA. sAdhu mamatvarahita, nirahaMkArI temaja arcanA, vaMdanA tathA pUjananI manathI kadI IcchA karanAro hoya nahi, teo pote sAdhutvanA gaurava aMge sadA jAgrata hatA. pUjaya AcArya bhadrakarasUrijIe emanA vyaktitvane pragaTa karatAM kahyuM ke jIvatattva para emane khUba karuNA hatI.. teo mAnatA hatA ke jIva eTale kImatImAM kImatI padArtha. enA pratye akhUTa vAtsalya dharAvatA hatA. vaLI sAdhu ke zrAvaka koinA paNa paricayamAM Ave to emanuM lakSa e ja rahetuM ke mAruM kartavya zuM che? sAmI vyakti game te hoya, paNa emanI dRSTi to * sAdhue pAMca samiti ane traNa guptinA pAlana vaDe cAritraghaDatara karavAnuM hoya che. A pAMca samiti te: :1: IryAsamiti-sAdhue kaI rIte cAlavuM, gamanAgamana karavuM tenA niyama. ra: bhASAsamiti-sAdhue kaI rIte bolavuM tenA niyama. 3: eSaNAsamiti-sAdhue kaI rIte AhAra pANI meLavavA tenA niyama :4: AdAnanikSepasamiti-sAdhue nitya upayoganI vastuonI parimArjanA karavA tathA levA-mUkavAmAM sAvadhAnI rAkhavI tenA niyamo :: pAriSThApanikA samiti-sAdhue nirvadhabhUmi para maLamUtra vagere visarjana karavA For Private And Personal Use Only

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mAre zuM karavuM joie, enA para ja rahetI hatI. teo vAraMvAra kahetA, "sAdhu bhikhArI nathI, balke samrATa che. eNe zrAvaka pAse kazI yAcanA karavI joie nahi." pUjaya A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAje kadI koi zrAvaka pAse kazuM mAMgyuM nahotu. lakhavAnI eka nAnakaDI pena suddhAM mAgI nahotI. teo kahetA ke sAdhue to dharmakAryano upadeza ApavAno hoya. kazuM mAMgavAnuM, meLavavAnuM na hoya, e to dharmapravRttino upadezaka che, AthI svayaMbhUpaNe sAme cAlIne zrAvaka Ape topaNa AvazyakatA hoya to ja svIkAravI. bAkI yAcanAnI koi vAta nahi. pU. mA. zrI subodhasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAje emanA vyaktitvanuM varNana karatAM kahayuM, 'game te mANasa jhADa pAse jAya, paNa jhADa pAsethI e zAMti laine jAya. ApaNe paNa vyathA laine gayA hoie ane emanI pAsethI zAMti laine pAchA pharIe. pUro khAkhI mANasa. inDIpena na maLe. ghaDiyALa na maLe. kapaDAMnI eka joDa sAthe hoya emanAmAM saMpUrNa tyAga jovA maLe. potAnA sAdhuone teo kahetA, 'sAdhu to tyAganI mastIthI jIvato hoya. kaMdI potAnI pAse posTakArDa na hoya topaNa calAvI letAM zIkhavuM joie.' kayAreka teo bhArapUrvaka ema paNa kahetA, "posTakArDa maLe to vAparo, na hoya to calAvI lo. kayAM ApaNI peDhI cAle che ?' haMmezAM sAdA ane jIrNa vastro ja vAparatA. A aMge paMDita zrI pukharAjajI amIcaMdajI emanA asAdhAraNa tyAgane darzAvatAM kahe che, Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir "teozrInA hajAro zrImaMta bhakto hatA ane tethI ja mahesANAmAM hAi-ve roDa para zrI sImaMdhara svAmInA bhavya jInAlayanuM nirmANa thayuM. aneka bhaktajano kImatI vastro teozrIne arpaNa karatAM, paraMtu teozrI to hamezAM taddana sAdAM ane jIrNa kapaDAM ja vAparatA eka vAra teozrInA aMtevAsI ziSya mane kaheluM ke paMDitajI,pUjaya AcArya mahArAja sAhebane Apa vinaMtI karo. amane zarama Ave che ke AvAM jIrNa colapaTTA ne kapaDAM na vApare ane kaMika sArA vApare. ame aneka vAravinaMtI karIe chIe paNa amAruM evuM sadbhAgya na hovAthI amArI vinaMtI svIkArAtI nathI. paNa kadAca ApanI vinaMtI svIkArAya to nA nahIM." hakIkatamAM pU. AcAryazrIne AvI koi darakAra ja nahotI. game tevo ziyALo hoya, kaDakaDatI TADha hoya, topaNa mahadaMze zarIra para aMtarapaTa nAkhela pAlInI eka kAmaLI oDhe. vRddhAvasthAmAM ziSyono ati Agraha hoya to kavacit UnanA dhAbaLAno upayoga karatA hatA. bIjuM kAMi oDhavAnuM nahi. pote anya sAdhuone be ke tethI vadhu kAmaLI Ape paNa potAne mATe to mAtra eka ja kAmaLI. e ja oDhavAnI. vaLI koinI paNa sAthe vAtacIta 68 For Private And Personal Use Only

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kare tyAre potAnA vastranI pUrI kALajI rAkhe. paganI mAtra pAnI ja dekhAvI joIe ema mAnatA hatA. AthI koI sAdhu aMgone barAbara DhAMkIne na beThA hoya to temane haLavethI mITho Thapako paNa ApatA ane kahetA ke mahAnubhAvA vastro saMyamanI rakSA kAje che. vastrono barAbara upayoga rAkhavo joIe. koI zrAvaka mahArAjazrIne potAnA ghera padhAravA be hAtha joDI, praNAma karIne vinaMtI kare. temane mATe to sahu sarakhA. rAya-rakano koI bheda nahIM. teo mAtra eTaluM ja jaNAve ke tame nava lAkha navakAra gaNavAnuM svIkAro to huM tamAre tyAM AvI zakuM. pUjaya kailAsasAgarasUrijInA jIvanamAM navakAra pratye akhUTa AsthA pragaTa thAya che. teo kahetA ke A navakAra mAtra parama maMtra ke zAstra che eTaluM ja na samajatA, paraMtu sarva maMtromAM ane zAstromAM ziromaNibhUta mahAmaMtra ane mahAzAstra che. enI upAsanAthI bhautika Apattio dUra thAya che. vyAdhi, jaLa, agni jevA bhayano nAza thAya che. iSTanI prApti karAvato A mahAmaMtra apUrva ciMtAmaNi che, apUrva kalpavRkSa che ane parama amRta samAna che. arthAt mokSano parama hetu che ane tarata ja teo zrI mahAnizItha zrutaskaMdhanuM udhdharaNa, ApatA tAva na jAyai citteNa, citia patthiya vaayaae| kAeNa samADhattaM, jAva' na sario nmukkaaro|| 'cittathI citaveluM, vacanathI prArtheluM ane kAyAthI prAraMbheluM kArya tyAM sudhI ja siddha thatuM nathI ke jayAM sudhI zrI paMcaparameSThi namaskArane smaravAmAM nathI Avyo." eka vAra aDapodarAmAM teonA cAturmAsa hatA. gAmaloko emane bhAvukatAthI potAne ghera padhAravAnuM kahe ane pU. kailAsasAgarasUrijI emanI sAme navA lAkha navakAra gaNavAnI zarata mUke. eka zrAvake nava lAkha navakAra gaNavAno saMkalpa karyo ane pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne potAnA ghera pagalAM karavA vinaMtI karI. zrAvakanuM nivAsasthAna ghaNuM dUra hatuM. ati zrama laIne zrAvakanA ghera pagalAM karyA ane upAzraye pAchA padhAryA. zvAsanuM darda hatuM. AthI zvAsa khUba caDayo hato. hajI Asana para bese tyAM ja eka bIjo zrAvaka AvI pahoMcyo. eNe kahayuM mahArAja meM paNa nava lAkha navakAra gaNavAno mahAsaMkalpa karyo che. Apa mAre tyAM pagalAM karo, to mArA dhanya bhAgya." hajI hamaNAM ja khUba parizrama veDhIne pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijI AvyA hatA. zvAsanI takalIpha to herAna karatI ja hatI. paNa jayAM dharmanI bhAvanA hoya tyAM zramano zo hisAba? dharmanI prabhAvanA thAya, tyAM pramAda kevo? paLano paNa vilaMba karyA vinA teo tarata ja taiyAra thayA ane ene ghera pagalAM 69 For Private And Personal Use Only

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karavA gayA.'navakAra para emane ananya zraddhA hatI. koi zrAvaka bImAra hoya ane emane patra lakhe to javAbamAM eTaluM khAsa lakhatA ke navakAra maMtrano jApa barAbara karajo ane pUjaya upAdhyAya yazovijayajI mahArAjanI paMktio gAi UThatA : vi maMtramAM sAro, bhAkhyo zrI navakAra, kahyA na jAyere ehanA, jeha che bahu upakAra. 'navakAra maMtra e badhA ja maMtromAM sArabhUta che. enA upakAra eTalA badhA che ke tene vANI varNavI zake tema nathI.' vahelI savAre UThIne sarvaprathama zrI namaskAra mahAmaMtranuM smaraNa karatA. e pachI ziSyone UThADavA mATe 'namo arihaMtANa" bolIne pachI kahetA, "muni bhagavaMto! UTho. samaya thayo che. pramAdano tyAga karI UbhA thAo." A pachI munivara jAgrata thayA ke nahIM teno pratyuttara meLavavA punaH 'namo arihaMtANa' bolatA. jAgrata thayelA munivaro 'martyaeNa vaMdAmi' kahIne 'namo arihaMtANa" bolatA. koi munine pramAdatyAga karavo na game ane akaLAi jAya topaNa pUjaya AcAryazrI akaLAyA vinA 'namo arihaMtANa' bolye jatA. pramAdagrasta muni AcAryazrIne 'micchAmi dukkaDam' detA tyAre pU. AcAryazrI paNa sAme micchAmi dukkaDam' kahetA. pU. AcAryazrI bImAra hoya tyAre DaoNkaTara tapAsavA Ave ane teozrIne pUche, 'Apane kema che?' enA pratyuttaramAM dardanI vAta ke bImArInI vyathA kadI kahetA nahIM mAtra eka ja javAba Ape, 'namo arihaMtANaM.' zarIramAM vyAdhie ugra rUpa dhAraNa karyuM hoya, sahu koi citiMta hoya tyAre AcAryazrI sahune sAMtvanA ApatAM kahe, "zarIra ane karma eno dharma bajAve to AtmAe AtmAno dharma bajAvavo ja joie. Atmadharmano dhruvatAraka ane dIvA-dAMDIrUpa bhagavaMtano muniveza mane sadA sajAga rAkhe che. eka divasa jenI rAkha ane dhULa thavAnI ja che te dehanI zAne kAje ciMtA karavI ?'' potAnI sAthenA sAdhuone teo A zloka vAraMvAra kahetA'sucirNpi tavo taviyaM, cinna caraNa suya ca bahu paDhiyaM / jatA na namukkAre raI, tao taM gaya vihala / / " lAMbA kALa sudhI tapa karyuM hoya, cAritra pALyuM hoya tema ja ghaNAM zAstro bhaNyA hoya, paraMtu jo navakAra maMtra vize prIti na thai to saghaLuM niSphaLa thayeluM samajavuM.' navakAra maMtranI mahattA darzAvatA teo vAravAra kahetA eSa paMcanamaskAraH, sarvapApapraNAzana | maGgalAnA~ ca sarveSAm, mukhya bhavati maMGgalam // ' 70 For Private And Personal Use Only

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'pAMceya parameSThione karelo A namaskAra sarva pApono prakarSe karIne nAza karanAro che tathA sarva maMgalomAM sarvotkRSTa maMgala svarUpa che.' eka vAra zrAvakoe emanI zvAsanI vedanAbharI takalIphane kAraNe amadAvAdanI vADIlAla hospiTalamAM cikitsA karAvavAnuM nakkI karyuM. DaoNkaTare emano kArDiyogrAma lIdho. nidAna karyuM ke emanuM hArTa 'enlArja' (pahoLuM) thai gayuM che, AthI ati zrama karavo nahi. khAsa to dAdarA caDhavA nahi. anivAryapaNe dAdarA caDavA paDe tema hoya topaNa be-traNa pagathiyAM caDayA pachI thoDI vAra UbhA rahevuM. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir DaoNkaTare emane ekasa-re kaDhAvavAnI sUcanA ApI. teo to dAdaro caDIne ekasa-re vibhAgamAM pahoMcI gayA. pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIno ekasa-re lIdho,paNa sAthe DaoNkaTare pUchyuM, "are! tame kevI rIte ahIM upara AvyA' pU.A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe kahayuM, navakAra gaNatAM gaNatAM upara AvI gayo.' teo eka pagathiyuM caDe ane bIjo paga mUke te pahelAM eka navakAra maMtra bole. teo kahe ke Ama karavAthI be phAyadA thAya. zarIrane vizrAma rahe ane navakAranI ArAdhanA paNa thAya. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI cAlatA hoya ke dAdara caDatA hoya, paNa emanI navakAranI ArAdhanA satata cAlatI hoya. UThatAM-besatAM samaya maLe tyAre navakAra maMtranuM smaraNa satata cAlu ja hoya. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAje jIvanabhara custa rIte kriyA pALavAno Agraha sevyo. kriyAnI saheje upekSA na kare, balke ene pUrepUrI pALavA mATe jAgRta prayAsa kare. jayAM sudhI zArIrika zakti hatI tyAM sudhI badhI ja kriyA jAte UbhA rahIne karatA hatA. sametazikhara javAno prasaMga thayo tyAre paNa eTalI ja jayaNA rAkhI. bhikata nimitte AvelI AhAranI koi paNa vastu teo vAparatA nahi. saheja kSati thai hoya to prAyazcitta mAgI letA. jIvanazuddhi ane AtmavikAsamAM prAyazcittane ghaNuM mahattva ApatA. eka vAra pAlItANAthI amadAvAda AvatA hatA. vacce pU. udayasUrijI mahArAjano meLApa thayo. emanI pAsethI teoe prAyazcita mAgyuM. sAdhanAmAM saheja paNa kSati thAya ke nAnIzI cUka thai jAya te cAle nahi. kyAreka emanI najIkanI vyakita evuM kaMika kare ke je emane pasaMda na hoya to koine kazuMya kahyA vinA pote AyaMbila karI le. bIjAnI bhUla hoya topaNa teo pote enuM prAyazcitta karatA ane jarUra paDaye A bAbata ke enI zAstrIyatA 71 For Private And Personal Use Only

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aMge potAnA karatAM vadhu gItArtha hoya tevA sAdhujanone pUchAvatA ane prAyazcitta maMgAvatA. koika saidhdhAMtika bAbatamAM paNa spaSTatA joitI hoya to potAnAthI vadhu gItArtha sAdhu-puruSone teo pUchAvatA hatA. kavicat koie AcAramaryAdA barAbara pALI na hoya ane emane Thapako ApavAno prasaMga Ubho thato, to paNa emanAM hRdayamAM to kSamA ane vAtsalya ja ubharAtAM hoya. vaLI pratikramaNa agAu emanI pAse jaine ene 'micchAmi dukakaDam' kahI detA teo kSamA vizenuM yoganiSTha AcAryazrI budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajInuM A kAvya bhAvapUrvaka gAtA hatA: "mIThAM mIThAM hRdayajharaNAM, khAmaNAM nIra jevAM, dhUe sarve hRdaya-maLane, divya dRSTi khilAve; vALe mArge sahaja zivanA, du:khanA ogha TALe, UMcA UMcA sakala guNanI, zIvratA sagha Ave. sAthe maitrI nayana-mananI, tucchatAM TALanArA, vahAlA mArAM pratidina vaso dilanAM AMgaNAmAM. saMdezo e parama sukhano, mukitanuM bAraNuM e, khAm jIvo, sakala jaganA, sarva jIvo khamAvo." saMyamanI ArAdhanA eTalI badhI hatI ke emAM saheje kleza cAle nahi. emanI Atmazuddhi paNa evI ke manamAM koi zalya rAkhe nahi. teo muhapattIno khUba upayoga rAkhatA. teo vyAkhyAna karatA hoya ke koinI sAthe vAta karatA hoya, paNa haMmezAM mukhavastrikA mukha pAse ja rAkhatA. kayAreya nakAmI carcA karatA nahi. koinI muzkelI sAMbhaLatA to ene zAMtirmavattA' no maMtra ApatA. pUjaya A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI dunyavI bAbatothI ghaNA dUra rahetA. sAmAnya rIte koi sAdhu kayAreka to chApuM jotA hoya, paraMtu pUjaya A.zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI chApuM vAMcatA na hatA. chApAmAM AvelI jAherakhabara jovAnI ke chApAmAM lakhANa chapAvavAnI spRhA to AvI vyakitane aDI zake kharI? koi zrAvaka AvIne ema kahe ke amuka dhArmika lekha jovA jevo che athavA to amuka sthaLe viziSTa prakAranA dhArmika kAryakramanuM Ayojana karavAmAM AvyuM che jenI vigata akhabAramAM pragaTa thai che tyAre paNa e akhabAra meLavavAnI ke jovAnI koi tAlAvelI nahi. koi chApuM laine Ave to ene mAtra e vigato vAMcI saMbhaLAvavAnuM ja kahe. keTaluM badhuM ni:spRhapaNa ! jene AtmAnA 'nyUjha' sAMbhaLavAnI phikara hoya, ene A jagatanA 'nyUjha' jANIne zuM karavuM? pU. AcAryazrI ucca pada dharAvatA hatA, paraMtu namratA to eTalI hatI ke 7ra For Private And Personal Use Only

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90 teo kadI pATa para bese nahi. jamIna para Asana rAkhIne ja beThA hoya. kvacit koI pATa vAparavAnuM kahe to uttara ApatA ke bahuzruta pUjaya sAgarajI mahArAja temaja udayasUrijI mahArAja jevA jJAnI sAdhupuruSo paNa pATa vAparatA nathI, to pachI huM AvA UMcA Asane kaI rIte besuM? emane thatuM ke pATathI caDiyAtApaNAno bhAva Ave che, AthI upAzrayamAM mAtra rAtre jayaNA mATe pATa vAparatA hatA A sivAya e hamezA nIce Asana para ja beThelA jovA maLe. ethIye vizeSa ziSyo sAthe guru jevo caDiyAtApaNAno vartAva karatA nahi. ziSyanA Asana para paNa besavAmAM kadI kSobha anubhavyo nahoto. sAdhutAnI caramasImA jevA AcAryazrInI dinacarcA vItarAga tIrthakara paramAtmAnA anuyAyIne zobhe tevI hatI. emAM AcAranI zudhdhi, vicAranuM teja, doSa pratye jAgRti ane AtmakalyANanI avirata jhaMkhanA satata pragaTa thato. Avo! sAdhutAnA AgAra samA AcAryazrInI preraNAdAyI dinacarcA para najara karIe. sAdhu to e ke je sUryodaya pahelAM vahelA UThe. pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijI vahelI savAre traNa ke sADA traNa vAgye UThe. UThIne jApamAM bese. jApa pUrNa thAya pachI pratikramaNa kare, cha vAgye paDilehaNa kare, e pachI derAsaramAM jAya. derAsaramAM jAya tyAre prabhubhaktimAM tallIna banI jatA. bhagavAnanA darzana kare. pachI ekAMtamAM caityavaMdana kare. gabhArAmAM ke derAsaranI bhamatimAM besI jAya. koIne khalela na paDe evuM zAMtibharyuM sthaLa zodhI kADhe ane evI jagyAe besIne caityavaMdana kare. teo kahetA, bhojana ane bhajana ekAMtamAM ja joIe." prabhubhakitamAM doDhathI be kalAka pasAra thaI jatA. AcAryazrIne prabhubhakita karatAM jovA e jIvanano eka lahAvo hato. teo paramAtmA sAthe tallIna banI jatA. kayAreka ekITaze paramAtmAnI mUrtine joI rahetA, to kayAreka bhAvavibhora banIne caityavaMdana karatA. prabhubhakita. pUrNa thayA bAda upAzrayamAM pAchA AvIne vyAkhyAna ApatA. AcAryazrInI vyAkhyAnazailI paNa anokhI hatI. tadana sIdhI, sAdI ane saraLa bhASAmAM teo pravacana karatAM, paNa emanI pAse lokamAnasanI jabarI parakha hatI. kuzAgra dRSTithI kayA loko samakSa kevI bhASA prayojana enI emane sUjha hatI. e pramANe ja dRSTAMto ane ciMtana AlekhatA. bALako sAthe vAta karatA hoya to kathAnuyogathI emane AnaMda sAthe samajAve. vidvAno sAthe vAta kare to dravyAnuyogathI vAta kare. paMDito samakSa zAstranA gahana tatvo skUTa karI Ape. vyAkhyAnamAM potAnI vAtane vedhakatAthI darzAvavA mATe zAyarI paNa banAvI detA. 73 For Private And Personal Use Only

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AcAryazrIne urdU bhASAnuM paNa jJAna hatuM. teo je pradezamAM janmyA hatA te pradezamAM rojiMdA vyavahAramAM paMjAbI bhASA vaparAtI hatI, paraMtu lakhavAmAM urdU bhASAno upayoga thato, AthI to AcAryazrInA akSaronA maroDamAM urdU lipinI chAyA vartAya che. teo gujarAtI, hindI, prAkRta, saMskRta, urdU ane aMgrejI-e badhI bhASAo para samAna kAbU dharAvatA hatA. kolejamAM emaNe aMgrejI bhASAno UMDo abhyAsa karyo hato. AcAryazrI zIdhra kavi hatA. vyAkhyAnamAM prasaMga anusAra pote ja kavitA racIne sahune saMbhaLAvatA. vyAkhyAna karatI vakhate teo eTalA badhA AtmalIna banI jatA ke emanA zabdo jIbhathI bolatA hoya ema nahi, balka hRdayamAMthI sIdhesIdhA pragaTa thatA hoya tema lAgatuM. vyAkhyAna pachI paccakhANa pALatA. pU.AcAryazrI e potAnA jIvanamAM ghaNAM varSo sudhI ekAsaNA karyA hatA. chellAM paMdareka varSathI bimaNA karatA hatA. kayAreka ja traNa TaMka bhojana lIdhuM haze. gRhastha avasthAmAM paNa teo eka TaMka bhojana letA. dIkSAjIvananA AraMbhe teo gocarI mATe jatA tyAre "dharmalAbha' kahIne koinA gharamAM praveze ane e zrAvaka pahelI ja vastu bole te ja vahoravAno temano niyama hato. dasa ghera gocarI vahoravA gayA hoya ane tyAM zrAvaka pahelAM zAkanuM nAma bolyo hoya to mAtra zAka ja vahore. varSo sudhI tarANI ane dAbaDiyuM banemAM dALa, zAka ane bhAta bhegA vahoratA hatA. bapore gocarImAM bahu parimita dravyo grahaNa karatA. teo emanA pAtramAM je gocarI AvI hoya te pahelAM bALa munivara Adi ziSyone Ape ane pachI teo letA. kayAreka ugharasa hoya te pahelAM haLadara AvI hoya, dUdhamAM haLadara nAkhe, paNa bAkI vadhe tenuM zuM karavuM? sAmAnya rIte AcArya potAnA ziSyone haLadara ApI de tevuM banatuM, paraMtu saujanyanA sAgara pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI kaMI AvuM kare kharA? teo pote ja vadhelI haLadarane zAkamAM nAkhIne ke roTalI sAthe vAparI jAya. AsapAsanA sAdhuo haLadara mAge to hasatAM hasatAM kahe, " A to mArA mATe lAvelI cIja che. huM bIjAne kaI rIte ApuM?" Ama kahIne e pote ja vadhelI haLadara bhojanamAM vAparI letA. AcAryazrInAM aMtima varSomAM emano eka cAturmAsa pAlImAM hato. emanA ziSyo emane mATe ghI ane phaLo lAve. ziSyonI bhAvanA evI ke AcAryazrI ghI ane phaLa le to emanA zarIramAM thoDI zakita Ave. paraMtu pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijI kone kahevAya? teo A badhuM pahelAM potAnA ziSyone ApatA ane pachI pote levAno vicAra karatA. koI ziSya kahe, "sAhebajI, ame to Apane mATe A lAvyA chIe ane 74 For Private And Personal Use Only

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tame to kazuM letA nathI." A samaye AcAryazrI javAba ApatAM, "juo, have huM gharaDo thayo chuM. tame lo ane khAva. tamAre hajI ghaNuM bhaNavAnuM che ane zAsananI ghaNI sevA karavAnI che." bhojana pachI ekaso pagalAM cAlavuM evo AcAryazrvano niyama hato ane tethI gocarI lIdhA pachI badhe phare. nAnAmAM nAnA sAdhuthI mAMDIne sahunI sukhazAtA pUche. emane kahe ke koi sevAkArya hoya to mane lAbha Apo. koi pustakanI jarUra hoya to jaNAvo. koi upakaraNa joituM hoya to mAgo. Ama nAnAmAM nAnA sAdhu pratye emanI udAra bhAvanA jovA maLatI. teo rAto'haM sarva sAdhUnAm' evuM vAraMvAra bolatA ane emanA jIvanavyavahAramAM paNa A bhAvanA pragaTa thatI hatI. mAtra saMta-mahAtmAo pratye ja nahi balke nAnAmAM nAnA sAdhu mATe AvA ja bhAva ane bhikata rahetAM. bapore gocarI lIdhA pachI ekAda kalAka vizrAma kare. be vAgye AgamanI vAcanA Ape. koi paMDita dvArA nahi, paNa pote jAte ja bALasAdhuone bhaNAve. baporanA be thI cAra sudhI A vAcanA cAle. cAra vAgyA pachI paDilehaNa karIne zAsananAM zubhakAryo karatAM. koi derAsara mATe AvyuM hoya, koine pratiSThA aMge pUchavuM hoya to koi vaLI muhUrta kaDhAvavA mATe Ave. mahadaMze sAMje to gocarI karatA na hatA. teo badhAnA praznonA zAMtithI ukela ApatA ane sahunAM kAryo karatAM. daivasika pratikramaNa pachI adhyayana ane adhyApananuM punarAvartana karatA ane rAtre mauna rAkhatA. sAdhuonI A rAtrizALAnuM kAraNa e ke koi prasAda na kare ane ulaTabhera svAdhyAya karato rahe. lagabhaga eka prahara rAtri vyatIta thatA "saMthArA porisI sUtra" bhaNAvI saMthAro kare. nidrA na Ave tyAM sudhI navakAra maMtrano jApa manamAM cAlu rAkhe. saMthAro karatI vakhate mAtra saMthAro ane uttara paTTo- e be upakaraNono ja mahaddaaMze upayoga karatA. mAthA nIce vIMTyA(ozIkA jevu) na mUke. pAchaLanA samayamAM lakavA thayo tyAre sahue emane ozIkuM rAkhavA Agraha karyo. tethI pU. AcAryazrIne nAnuMzuM vIMTayuM mAthe mUkavAnuM svIkAryuM. rAtre hAtha vagere dhovA mATe, sthaMDila javA mATe pANImAM cUno nAkhe. Ane pariNAme pANImAM jIvo utpanna thAya nahi. rAtre bhUlI gayA hoya to cUnAno upayoga na kare. Dila mATe paNa bIjuM ukALeluM pANI Ave tyAre vAparatA. Ama jIvananI nAnAmAM nAnI kriyAmAM jayaNAno upayoga rAkhatA hatA. AcAryazrIe jIvanamAM kadI sAbu vAparyo nahi. pANI vAparavAnI bAbatamA 75 For Private And Personal Use Only

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Na bhAre jayaNA rAkhatA. sthaDilathI AvyA pachI mAtra saheja pANI nAkhIne paganA taLiyA ghasI letA. Akho paga ke moDhuM dhovAnI to sAva vAta ja nahi. mAtra AMkho khUba dhAkI gai hoya to hatheLImAM thoDuM pANI laine AMkhone aDADo AvuM kaThora ane saMyamapUrNa jIvana hovA chatA botera varSanI avasthA sudhI emanA zarIramAMthI durgaMdha AvatI hoya evo anubhava koine na thayo. navakAranuM mahAtmya darzAvatAM teo mahAnizatha sUtranuM udhdharaNa ApatAM. 'zrI mahAnizItha sUtra' e ApaNuM eka prAcIna Agama che. temAM kahyuM cha--- 'namo arihaMtANaM sattapakkhararimANaM aNaM tagamapajjavattha, pasAhagaM savvamahAmatapavaravijgANa paramabIamUaM.' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir namo arihaMtANaM e sAta akSaranA parimANavALuM, anaMta gama, paryava ane arthane prakarSathI sAdhanAruM tathA sarva mahAmaMtro ane pravara vidyAonuM parama bIjabhUta che. potAnA vihAra aMge koine agAuthI samAcAra Ape nahIM. jIvanamAM kadI potAnA vihArano kAryakrama banAvyo nahIM. je gAmamAM javAnuM hoya tyAM aNadhAryAja pahoMcI jAya. pote vihAra karIne A samaye Avaze evI bhAgye 4 koine jANa hoya. potAnuM sAmaiyuM ke bhavya svAgata thAya tenI koi khevanA nahi. sAdhutvane saheje AMca na Ave enI satata takedArI rAkhe. teo moTebhAge pensila ja vAparatA. bolapenano vyApaka pracAra thavAthI pAchaLanA samayamAM teo bolapena vAparatA hatA. jemaNe jIvanamAM taDako ane chAyaDo eka sarakho mAnyo hoya, jeo e sukha ke du:khamAM sadAya taTasthabhAva sevyo hoya-emane unALAno baLabaLato tApa ke ziyALAnI kaDakaDatI ThaMDI kazI asara karI zake kharA? AcAryazrI kayAreya vAtAvaraNathI vikSubdha thatAM nahi. emaNe kadIye evuM kahyuM nathI ke, 'Aje bahu garamI che.,' athavA to 'Aje ThaMDI che.' evI ja rIte 'Aje pavana nathI to bArI pAse jAuM chuM' ema paNa teo kadI bolyA nathI. ghaNo zrama lIdho hoya ke tabiyata bImAra ke narama hoya topaNa enI kadI koine phariyAda na kare. koi zAtA pUche to mAtra eTaluM ja kahe ke sAruM che. sAcA saMyamI sAdhu e jaina dharmanI sauthI moTI kIrtivaMta yazapatAkA che. jaina sAdhuno tyAga jagatabharamAM virala ane dohyalo manAyo che. evA tyAga, tapa, cAritra, 'saMyama ane svAdhyAyane jIvananI sAthe svAbhAvikatAthI vaNI letAM AvA sAdhutAnA zikharane ApaNA vaMdana hajo. 76 For Private And Personal Use Only

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AcAryazrInA jIvanamAM, AcAramAM ahiMsA, vicAramAM anekAnta ane vANImAM syAdvAda pragaTa thatA hatA. bhagavAna mahAvIre kahyuM che ke, "je mAnavImAM AvA guNo haze te jema vAyu bhaDabhaDatI javALAo vaccethI pasAra thaI jAya e ja rIte saMsAranI saLagatI Aga vaccethI pasAra thaIne mokSasukha pAme che." AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInA jIvanamAM pU. A. buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanAM pustakonA abhyAsathI parivartana AvyuM hatuM. yoganiSTha AcAryazrI buddhisAgarasUrijIe yoganAM ucca zikharo sara karyA hatAM. jaina paraMparAnI yogasAdhanAne jIvana sAthe vaNI levAno yoganiSTha AcAryazrI buddhisAgarasUrijI mahArAje samartha prayatna karyo. evA karmayogI, dhyAnayogI, ane jJAnayogI AcAryanI paraMparAnA pote eka sAdhu hatA, te hakIkata pU. A-kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAja kadI bhUlyA nahi. temane AtmadhyAnanI anerI laganI hatI. zrI saMghanA judA judA vyavahAro cAlatA hoya, enI vacce paNa emanI AtmalInatA kayAMya lopAtI nahi. ekabAju AtmajAgRti ane bIjI bAju AtmalInatA emanA jIvanamAM tANA ane vANAnI mAphaka vaNAI gayAM hatAM. teo ghaNI vAra nadInA kinAre, khetaromAM ke nirjane ekAMtamAM dhyAna lagAvIne satata besI jatA. jaMgalamAM dhyAna karavuM emane vizeSa pasaMda hatuM. kalAko sudhI AnaMdaghanajI mahArAjanAM padonI satata raTaNA karanAra AcAryazrI AtmAnI mastImAM DUbelo rahetA. mahuDImAM hoya to enAM kotaromAM cAlyA jatA ane be-be kalAka sudhI AtmasAdhanA karIne pAchA AvatA. koI paNa gAmamAM jAya to nokArazI vAparIne bahAra nIkaLI jAya. gAmanI bahAra koI vRkSa nIce ke oTalA para besIne dhyAna lagAve.keTalo samaya vItI gayo enI emane kazI khabara na hoya. bIjI bAju emanI sAthenA sAdhuone enI jANa paNa na hoya ke teo kyAM gayA che. AcAryazrInI moTAmAM moTI sidhdhi yoganI hatI ane e yoga sidhdhinI AchI jhalaka bAbubhAI kaDIvALAne maLI hatI. vi.saM. 2037nI Aso suda chaThThano e divasa hato. pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAja e samaye aDapodarAmAM birAjamAna hatA. A vakhate bAbubhAI emane maLyA ane emaNe prazna karyo, "jIvanamAM kyAreka na icchIe tevo banAva bane. evI ghaTanA thAya che ke je samajavI muzkela bane, eve samaye samAdhAna kaI rIte meLavavuM?" pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAje bAbubhAInI DAyarImAM A pramANe eka zloka lakhI Apyo: 78 For Private And Personal Use Only

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'jaM jassa jammi desaMmi jeNa vihANeNa jammi kAlaMmi nAdaM jiNeNa niyadaM jmma vA ahavA maraNaM vA taM tassa tammi dese teNa vihANeNa tammi kAlaMmi ko vAsakai cAledUM iMdo vA ahavA jiNiMdo vA "je puruSane je je dezamAM je je vidhi vaDe je je kALamAM divase ke rAtre, jinezvara bhagavaMtoe kevaLajJAnamAM je thavAnuM joyuM che. sukha-du:kha, janma-maraNa, lAbha-alAbha te puruSane te te dezamAM te ja vidhi vaDe te ja kALamAM thAya che. Indra athavA jinezvara bhagavaMto paNa pheraphAra karavA zaktimAna nathI." zlokano artha paNa pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAje lakhAvyo ane samajAvyuM ke je kAMI bane che temAM bhavitavyatA che. je jJAnI puruSoe joyuM che temaja banyuM che ane bane che. bhagavAna mahAvIra ke jemane traNe kALanuM jJAna hatuM teo jANatA hatA ke je tejovezyAnI vidyA teo gozAlakane ApI rahyA che e ja gozAlaka e ja vidyAno emanI sAme upayoga karavAno che. pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijInA AMtarajIvanane jANavAthI ja emanI abhuta saumyatA ane samatAnuM kAraNa prApta thAya che. bhavitavyatA vizenI emanI UMDI samajaNane kAraNe teo viSama paristhitimAM paNa samatA rAkhI zakatA hatA. saumyatA jALavI zakatA hatA. pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijIe keTalAka sUtronI samajaNa ApI. paheluM sUtra che'naahN kartA pudgalabhAvAnAm jJAtA dRSTA eva ahaM' eTale ke pugalano kartA huM nathI. huM to mAtra eno jJAtA ane dRSTA ja chuM. AthI huM kamAyo ke meM meLavyuM evuM nathI. huM to mAtra eno jJAtA-draSTA ja chuM. emaNe bIjuM sUtra ApyuM'shuddhaatm dravya mevA ahaM zuddha jJAna guNo mam' huM zuddha Atmadravya chuM ane zuddha jJAna e mAro guNa che. teo Atma anubhavanI dazAmAM hatA. potAnI yogakhumArI vyakata karatAM teo gAI UThatA 9 For Private And Personal Use Only

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ame ustAdanA celA, phakIrI vezamAM pharatAM nathI duniyA taNI paravA, alakhanI dhUnamAM rahetAM. jagAvIzuM hRdayaguphA, dhrujAvIzuM vikalpone; jagAvIzuM cidAtmAne, nathI levuM nathI devuM." * eka vAra zanAlAlabhAIe ema kahyuM ke amArA jevA vyavahAramAM paDelA mAnavIo ApanI pAse AtmakalyANanI AzAe AvIe chIe, to Apa kaMIka evuM jJAna Apo ke jethI amane e mArge cAlavAnuM sUjhe. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe emane rAtre upAzrayamAM AvavAnuM kahyuM. rAtre e AvyA eTale pustaka kADhIne ApyuM. emAM keTalAka zloko nIce nizAna paNa karyuM hatuM. pustaka ApatAM ema kahyuM. "jenAthI mane vairAgyanI praraNA maLI che te tamane ApuM chuM. mana thAya tyAre vAMcajo." Ama nAnAmAM nAnA zrAvakanI adhyAtmajhaMkhanAnA teo preraka banatA hatA. AtmazlAghA ke svaprazaMsAthI teo keTalAya jojana dUra hatA. emanI pAse ujavaNuM pratiSThA vagere mATe koI saMdha Ave to teo mATe pote jANatA hoya tevA ke AsapAsamAM vicaratA hoya tevA sAdhu mahArAjanuM nAma Ape. emanI pAse e badhI vidhi karAvavAnI salAha Ape. Ama chatAM saMgha jo emanI pAse ja e dharmotsava karAvavAno Agraha seve, to pahelAM potAnA ziSyonAM nAma ApatA. anivAryapaNe, koI upAya na hoya tyAre ja teo pote ujavaNuM ke pratiSThA mATe jatA hatA. eka vAra eka saMghamAM vicitra vivAda jAgyo. saMghanA baMdhAraNamAM keTalAka bhAIoe upakAravaza evuM lakhavAnuM vicAryuM ke saMghanA baMdhAraNamAM koI matabheda jAge to AcArya bhagavaMta kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjano nirNaya mAnya rAkhavo. ekAda vyakitane ema lAgyuM ke Avo spaSTa nAmollekha na karIe to ? A vAte vivAdanuM svarUpa lIdhuM. emAMthI ugra carcA jAgI. eka ravivAre bapore A aMge saMghanI sabhA bolAvavAmAM AvI. sANaMdamAM birAjamAna AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne AvA koi vivAdano khyAla nahoto, paNa sabhAnA divase savAre emane koI zrAvake A ghaTanAnI jANa karI. * yoganiSTha AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajI likhita bhajanapada saMgraha bhAga-5' 8) For Private And Personal Use Only

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yogI e ke je potAnuM nAma bhUlIne paramAtmAnA nAmamAM DUbI jAya. pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijIne bhAre du:kha thayuM. potAne kAraNe koine kleza na thAya enI satata jAgRti rAkhanAra AcAryazrIne thayuM ke A to bhAre anartha thayo. potAne kAraNe Avo vivAda thayo. emaNe eka zrAvakane ciThThI lakhIne khAsa sANaMdathI mokalyo. emAM saMghanA pramukhane udezIne AcAryazrIe spaSTa lakhyuM hatuM ke 'tamArA baMdhAraNamAM kayAMya mAro nAmollekha karazo nahi.' saMghanA pramukhane sabhA pahelAM ciThThI maLI. sabhAmAM e jayAre vAMcavAmAM AvI tyAre virodha karanArAo ThaMDAgAra banI gayA. emane potAnI bhUla samajAi. sahune vasavaso thayo ke ApaNe kevA pAmara ke emanA nAmane mATe laDIe chIe ane teo kevA mahAna ke jemane kazIya spRhA nathI! vi. saM. 2020mAM mahuDIno saMgha AcAryazrIne mahuDI padhAravA mATe vinaMtI karavA Avyo. e samaye pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijI upAdhyAyapada dharAvatA hatA. teo jANatA hatA ke mahuDInA zrAvakonI icchA emane AcArya padavIthI vibhUSita karavAnI che. AthI upAdhyAya kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM ke tame AcArya padavI svIkAravA mane Agraha ke dabANa na karo to ja AvavA vicAra karuM. vi. sa. 2039mAM amadAvAdamAM upadhAna tapanI ArAdhanA cAlatI hatI. pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI umaMgabhera A ArAdhanA karAvatA hatA. te divasomAM temano sitteramo janmadivasa Avato hato. saMghanA zrAvakomAM AnaMdanI lahera pharI vaLI. eka to A saMgha AcAryazrInI preraNAnA baLe ja racAyo hato. emAM upadhAna tapanI ArAdhanA thatI hoya ane eve samaye AcAryazrIno janmadina Avato hoya, e to madhura triveNI-saMgama gaNAya. A divase saMghe bhagavAnanI bhavya AMgI karAvI ane pachI eka sabhA yojIne AcAryazrInI prazasti karavAnuM vicAryuM. saMdhanA zrAvakonI sarasa sabhA thaI. sahunA hRdayamAM AcAryazrI mATe prema ubharAto hato. lAgaNInA uchaLatA sAgara vacce pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijI pATa para birAjayA. emanI bAjumAM pUjaya jJAnasAgarajI beThA. pUjaya jJAnasAgarajIe emanA vyAkhyAnano prAraMbha karyo ane pachI pU. kailAsasAgarajInA 70mA janmadinanI vAta karI. potAnI vAtane AgaLa vadhAratA emaNe AcAryazrInI prazasti karavAnI zarUAta karI. A sAMbhaLatAM ja AcAryazrI pATa uparathI UbhA thaine bahAra nIkaLI gayA. badhAe emane pAchA AvavA khUba vinaMtI karI. AcAryazrIe kahyuM,' huM pATa para nahi besuM. jo tamAre guNanI ArAdhanA karavI hoya to tIrthaMkara paramAtmAnI karo. prabhunI bhikata karo. amArI niha.' 81 For Private And Personal Use Only

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- - bhagavAna mahAvIra svAmInAM e vacanomAM AcAryazrIne daMDha zradhdhA hatI bhagavAne ema kahyuM ke sAdhupuruSa arcanA, racanA, vandanA, pUjana, Rdhdhi, satkAra ane sanmAnanI manathI paNa kadI IcchA na kara. * AzcaryabharI hakIkata e che ke AcAryazrIe jIvanamAM kadI potAnA nAmanuM chApeluM leTarapeDa banAvyuM nahotuM. moTebhAge teo noTabukanA kAgaLa para saMdezo lakhatA hatA. potAnuM kAma teo jAte ja karatA hatA. ATalo moTo ziSyasamudAya hovA chatAM emaNe jIvanabhara jAte ja patra-vyavahAra karyo. mAtra pratiSThA jevA moTA prasaMgoe ja bIjA zrAvaka pAse patro lakhAvatA. e sivAya badhuM ja jAte karatA. svAvalaMbana sAdhune mATe Avazyaka mAnatA hatA. kayAMya potAnuM nAma ke eDresa chapAya nahi tenI kALajI rAkhatA. koI tasavIrakAra emanI tasavIra pADavA mATe Ave to mukha AgaLa ADI muhapattI dharI detA. pratiSThAno bhavya prasaMga hoya, ke jemAM ghaNA phoTogrAphara satata tasavIra kheMcatA hoya tyAre paNa AcAryazrIe kadI tasavIrakAranI paravA karI nathI. enA tarapha lezamAtra dhyAna ApyuM nathI. moTebhAge to emanuM mukha nIcuM hoya ane vidhividhAna karAvatA hoya. jo mukha thoDuM UMcuM hoya to mukhavastrikA ADI hoya. temaNe potAnA jIvanakALamAM kadI koI upAzrayamAM potAno phoTo mukAvyo nathI. eka vAra koI zrAvaka upAzrayamAM temano phoTo mUkI dIdho. AcAryazrInI enA tarapha najara gaI. namra chatAM dRDha avAje emaNe kahyuM : "A phoTogrApha utarAvI lo." phoTogrApha mUkanAra zrAvakane kahyuM, "tamAre mAro phoTo mUkavo hato to mane pUchavuM joItuM hatuM. have tame bAdhA laI lo ke koI paNa upAzrayamAM kadI mAro phoTo mUkAvazo nahi." ane kharekhara emaNe e zrAvaka pAse A prakAranI bAdhA paNa levaDAvI. teo vAraMvAra kahetA ke Atmaprasiddhi ane AtmaprazaMsA e ArAdhanAmAM vighnarUpa bane che, eTaluM ja nahi paNa e mahA kAtila viSa che. pU. AcAryazrI pAse phAilamAM bhAgye ja emanI prazaMsAno koI patra maLe. Avo prazaMsAbhayo koI patra lakhe to vAMcIne phADI nAkhatA. koI ziSya ema kahe, "Avo kAgaLa to rAkhavo joIe. AmAM eNe ApanI keTalI badhI prazaMsA karI che." A samaye AcAryazrI javAba ApatA, " A patromAM to prazaMsA ja hoya, paNa sAdhune mATe prazaMsA jhera samAna che. A jhera rAkhIne mAre karavuM zuM?" 'accarNa rayaNa ceva, vaMdaNa pUrNa tahA IDUDhIsakakArasammANa, maNe sA vi na patnae. 80 For Private And Personal Use Only

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pU. AcAryazrI zihoramAM hatA tyAre pU. jJAnasAgarajIe emanI pAse dIkSA lIdhI. AtmalIna AcAryazrInA pUrvajIvana vize bhAgye ja koInI pAse mAhitI maLatI. pU.jJAnasAgarajI AcAryazrIne roja rAtre emanA jIvana vize pUche. pU. AcArya kailAsasAgarasUrijI emanA jIvananI ghaTanAo kahe. vahelI savAre UThIne jJAnasAgarajI A vigato TapakAvI le. thoDA divasa Ama cAlyuM, paNa eka vAra pU. AcAryazrIne khabara paDI gaI ke teo je vAta pU. jJAnasAgarane kahe che e pU. jJAnasAgara emanI noTabukamAM nodhI le che. potAnA jIvananI koI AvI noMdha kare te paNa A ni:spRhI mahAtmAne pasaMda nahotuM. AthI e divasa pachI rAtre pUjaya jJAnasAgarajI emane kaMI pUche to AcAryazrI kazuM kahe nahi. pU. jJAnasAgarajI vAta kaDhAvavA ghaNI koziza kare paNa AcAryazrI kAM to mauna dhAraNa karatA athavA to vAtane bIje pATe vALI detA. koI paNa vartamAnapatra, sAmayika ke patrikAmAM teo potAnuM nAma ApavAnI nA kahetA. koI sAdhu ke zrAvaka emanI pAse lekha mAgavA Ave to teo eTalo javAba ApatA, "huM je vyAkhyAna ApuM chuM te ja lekha che. bIjo lekha lakhavAnuM zA mATe ?" eka vAra jANItA vidvAna zrI hIrAlAlajI duggaDa "madhya eziyA aura paMjAbame jaina dharma"nAmanuM vigatapracura pustaka taiyAra karatA hatA. pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAja paMjAbanA hovAthI emanI pAsethI emanA jIvananI vigato levA AvyA. ghaNuM pUchavA chatAM pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijIe emAM lakhavAnuM zuM 'ema kahIne kazI vigata ApI nahi. Akhare hIrAlAlajI duggaDane bIjA sAdhuo pAsethI e vigato jANIne lakhavI paDI. eka vAra pAlImAM pUjaya vimalasAgarajI ane bIjA ghaNA sAdhuoe kahyuM ke amArI icchA ApanI jIvanakathA lakhavAnI che. tyAre AcAryazrIe kahyuM ke, "mArI to evI koI zAsanaprabhAvanA nathI. ene badale tamArA guru mahArAjanI (pUjaya padmasAgarajInI) jIvanakathA lakho". Ama kIrti ane kAmanA banethI teo para thaI gayA hatA. bhagavAna mahAvIranA paMthe vicaranAra kazAya mamatva vinAno hoya. pU. AcAryazrImAM Avo ja bhAva jovA maLyo hato. potAno game teTalo anurAgI zrAvaka hoya, paNa teo koI divasa enA vize ema na kahe ke, A mAro bhakata che athavA to "A mAro rAgI che : sAdhune mAruM zuM hoya? jayAM e khuda potAno rahyo nathI ane paramAtmAno sevaka banI gayo che, tyAM mAruM zuM? 83 For Private And Personal Use Only

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kadI koI sAdhu koIne ema kahe ke "mArI amuka vastu lAvo,' 'mArI DAyarI lAvo," to tarata ja AcAryazrI emane rokatA ane TokatA. teo kahetA : DAyarI ke vastune "mArI' na kahevAya. sAdhunI A bhASA ke vRtti nathI." mamatvabhAva emaNe ogALI nAkhyo hato. mahesANAmAM zrI sImaMdharasvAmInA bhavya derAsaranI emanI preraNAthI racanA thai. AvA kalpanAtIta derAsaranI ke enI AsapAsanI ATalI badhI dharmazALAo ane bhojanAlaya hovA chatAM emaNe kadI tyAnI bhojanazALAmAMthI gocarI lIdhI nathI. AnAthI vizeSa ni:spRha prabhubhakitanuM kayuM moTuM udAharaNa hoI zake ? teo kahe, "tIrtha to prabhubhakita mATe che. ahIMnuM huM kazuMya vAparuM to mArI Asakita vadhe." Ama A tIrthane mATe emaNe badhuM ja karyuM paraMtu potAnI gocarI to haMmezAM bahArathI ja lAvatA. AnI pAchaLa emanI evI bhAvanA hatI ke sAdhue saMyamanI barAbara kALajI rAkhavI joIe. jo ahIMthI ja gocarI kare to sAdhu pramAdI banI jAya. jIvana-jAgRtinI kevI sUkSma dRSTi! vaLI zrAvako lAbhathI vaMcita rahe. potAnuM pANI paNa mahesANAnI bhojanazALAnA rasoDAmAMthI maMgAvavAne badale bahArathI ja maMgAvatA hatA. e mATe judA ghaDA paNa rAkhyA hatA. AvA bhavya ane mahAna zrI sImaMdharasvAmInA mahAtIrtha mATe preraNA ApI, chatAM AcAryazrI mahesANAmAM mAtra eka ja cAturmAsa rahyA. AnuM kAraNa eTaluM ja ke teo vinA kAraNe A saMsthAmAM rahevA cAhatA nahotA. A eka cAturmAsa emaNe e mATe gALyo ke derAsara aMge mArgadarzana mATe pratyakSa jarUra hatI ane ethIye vizeSa jJAnabhaMDAranuM moTuM kAma pAra pADavAnuM hatuM. teo satata kahetA ke ApaNA upadezathI A tIrtha thayuM ane tyAM ApaNe ja rahIe to te maTha banI jAya. zAsanamAM apUrva cAhanA ane UMcI pada-pratiSThA meLavI hovA chatAM aMgata siddhi, prasiddhi ke mamatvathI teo sadAya dUra rahyA e ja emanI AtmalInatAno sauthI moTo purAvo che. zrAvako emano paDayo bola jhIlavA taiyAra hatA. saMdha emanA vacana para badhuM nyochAvara karavA taiyAra hato. AvuM janahRdayamAM mAna-sanmAna meLavyuM hovA chatAM AcAryazrInA jIvanamAM to e ja ni:spRhatA ane anAsakita pragaTatA hatA. koI paNa prakAranI AzA, AkAMkSA, eSaNA ke apekSAthI para hatA. AtmasAdhanAnI yAtrA satata cAlu rahI. emanA jIvanano eka ja uddeza hato. emano eka ja mahAmaMtra hato"Atmazreya mATe haMmezAM jAgRta raho !" For Private And Personal Use Only

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jJAna hoya paNa garva na hoya. siddhi hoya paNa ahaMkAra na hoya. saMyama hoya paNa zuSkatA na hoya. padavI hoya paNa padano aham na hoya. AvI vyakita vibhUti bane che. zAstro kahe che ke jIvanamAM vinaya pAMca prakAranA hoya che. A pAMca vinaya te jJAnavinaya, darzanavinaya, cAritravinaya, tapavinaya ane aupacArikavinaya. A pAMceya vinayanI ArAdhanA je sAdhaka karato hoya che te potAnA ahaMkAranuM nigaraNa kare che ane potAnI jAta vize laghutAbhAva keLave che. pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInuM jIvana eTale AvI ladhutAnI parAkASThA. A laghutA e ja vyApAkatAnI jananI che ane tethI teonI sahRdayatAnI suvAsa mAtra potAnA samudAyanA sImADAomAM pratibaddha na rahI, balka anya samudAyonA sAdhuo ane jainetaro sudhI pahoMcI gaI. mahesANAnI jaina pAThazALAmAM emane zAstronuM paThana-pAThana karAvanAra paMDita zrI pukharAjajI to kahe che ke emanAmAM laghutAno guNa to "ajaba' hato. banyuM evuM ke AcAryazrIno cAturmAsa mahesANAmAM hato. A samaye teo paMnyAsapadathI vibhUSita hatA. pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijInI IcchA 'tatvArtha sUtra'nI sidhdhi rSigaNiracita TIkA vAMcavAnI hatI. emane paMDita pukharAjajI samakSa A prastAva mUkayo, jeno paMDitajIe saharSa svIkAra karyo. paMnyAsa pU. kailAsasAgarasUrijIe kahyuM ke huM AvatI kAlathI ApanI pAse bhaNavA AvIza. mahesANAnI zrImad yazovijayajI jaina saMskRta pAThazALAno evo niyama hato ke padastha munibhagavaMtone emanA upAzraye jaine paMDito tema ja zikSakoe bhaNAvavA. jayAre pU. paMnyAsazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe to pote upAzrayathI paMDitajI pAse pAThazALAmAM Avaze ema nivedana karyuM. paMDitajIe saMsthAnA niyamanI vAta karI. te sAMbhaLatA ja pU. paMnyAsazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe kahyuM, "vidyAguru sAme Ave ane bhaNAve e kema bane? ane e rIte mArAthI bhaNI paNa kema zakAya? mATe huM to pAThazALAmAM ja AvIza." paMDitajIe tema ja saMsthAnA mAnadmaMtrI DaoN. maganabhAIe pU. paMnyAsazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajIne vinaMtI karI ke Apa pAThazALAmAM Avazo nahi. ApanA upAzraye paMDitajI Avaze. vidyA ane guru tarapha agAdha Adara dharAvanAra vinayazIla pU. paM.zrI kailAsasAgarasUri Ano svIkAra kare kharA? emaNe kahyuM ke paMDitajI ahIM AvIne bhaNAve to huM abhyAsa nahi karuM. pU. paM.zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInI 86 For Private And Personal Use Only

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ddaDhatA joIne saMsthAne vicAravuM paDyuM. teo roja pAThazALAmAM AvIne paMDitajI pAse besIne abhyAsa karatA. jemaNe vidyA ApI che temanA tarapha pU. paMnyAsazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne agAdha Adara hato. paMDitajI koI vAra pU. paM. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI pAse jaIne vAsakSepa nAkhavAnI vinaMtI karatA, tyAre seMkaDonI hAjarI vacce nikhAlasabhAve pU. kailAsasAgarasUrijI kahetA ke Apa to mArA vidyAguru cho. Apane vAsakSepa nAkhatAM mane saMkoca thAya che. mAre to ApanI pAsethI hajI jJAnopArjana karavuM che. A rIte pU. kailAsasAgarasUrijI AcArya ke gacchAdhipati banyA pachI paNa emanA jIvanamAM satata laghutAno bhAva vaheto rahyo. emanI namratA ja kaMIka anokhI hatI. teo nAnAmAM nAnA sAdhune vANIthI to Adara ApatA paNa ethIye vizeSa dharmapravRttiomAM paNa emane mokhare rAkhatA. jema pitAne potAno putra savAyo thAya ane e jeTalA AnaMdano anubhava kare eTalo ja AnaMda sAdhune potAno ziSya savAyo thAya tethI thAya che tema kahetA. iMglenDanA lesTara zaheramAM jaina samAja, yuropa dvArA racAtA jaina derAsara mATe AcAryazrIe mUrti taiyAra karAvI. A samaye ghaNAM paMthamAM 'sAgara' zabda hovAthI kyAreya kaleza na thAya e mATe mUrti para lekha kotaravAno hato. AcAryazrIe kArIgarane kahyuM ke enA para tapAgacchIya zrImadbhuddhisAgarasUri paTTaparaMparaka AcAryazrI padmasAgarasUrijI mahArAjanA upadezAt' evo lekha kare. kArIgare AcAryazrInI AjJA mujaba evo lekha taiyAra karI dIdho. eka kAma aMge A kArIgara pUjya padmasAgarasUrijIne maLavA gayo. eNe vAtavAtamAM taiyAra thayelo lekha batAvyo. A joIne pUjya padmasAgarajI to stabdha banI gayA. ekabAju AcAryazrInA vizALa hRdaya ane parama ziSyavAtsalyano emane anubhava thayo to bIjI bAju teo vicAravA lAgyA ke AnA jevuM bIjuM anaucitya kayuM kahevAya ? emaNe tarata ja lekhamAM pheraphAra karAvyo ane potAnA nAmanA sthaLe AcArya zrImad kailAsasAgarasUrijI' ema lakhAvyuM. A ghaTanA bAda pUjya padmasAgarajI mUrtino ekeeka lekha jovAno Agraha rAkhatA thaI gayA. laghutAnA sAgarasamA AcAryazrIe ahaMkAra para vijaya meLavyo hato. tapanA guNa samA saraLatA, laghutA ane samabhAvadRSTi pAmyA hatA. Atmazuddhi tarapha jenuM lakSa hoya ane jenA tAretAra paramAtmA sAthe joDAyA hoya ene vaLI potAnuM zuM ? saMyamazIla sAdhumAM saheje mamatva ke aham Ave eTale AkhI sAdhutA lajavAya. emanI A laghutA eka sAdhu tarIkenA vyavahAramAM paNa pragaTa thatI hatI. koI anya sAdhu Ave 87 For Private And Personal Use Only

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to tene teo Adara Ape. koI anya samudAyanA sAdhumahArAja hoya topaNa enI sAdhutAne vaMdana karavAnuM cUke nahi. AcAryazrInI apAra udAra bhAvanAne kAraNe teo ajAtazatru rahyA. pratyeka samudAyanA sAdhune emanA pratye agAdha Adara ane cAhanA rahetI. dareka sAdhu bhagavaMtanI sevAno lAbha meLavavA tatpara rahetA. AnI pAchaLa emanA hRdayamAM rahelo namratA, udAratA ane vaiyAvaccano guNa hato. emanI udAratA to evI ke koI sAruM pustaka vAMce to moTI saMkhyAmAM enI nakalo maMgAve. je koI sAdhu Ave emane sAdara samarpaNa kare. bAkInI vadhelI nakalo jJAnabhaMDAramAM mUkAve. eka vAra padmasAgarajI mahArAje bhagavAna mahAvIrasvAmInI sukhaDanI kalAtmaka mUrti AcAryazrIne ApI. emaNe kahyuM ke A mUrti ApanA dhyAna mATe ja ApuM . koI mAge to ApI dezo nahi. thoDA divasa bAda eka zrAvaka AcAryazrIne maLavA Avyo. sukhaDanI kalAtmaka mUrti joI AnaMdavibhora banI gayo. eNe jijJAsAbhera AcAryazrIne pUchayuM. 'mahArAjasAheba, A mUrti kharekhara nayanaraMjaka ane bhAvapreraka che. kevI sarasa che A mUrti ! AvI mUrti kyAM maLe che te kahezo ?" pU. AcAryazrIe zrAvakanI AturatA pArakhI lIdhI ane ene potAnI pAsenI e mUrti ApI dIdhI. thoDA divasa vItI gayA. padmasAgarajIe joyuM to pelI mUrti dekhAya nahi. emaNe AcAryazrIne pUchayuM prabhu mahAvIranI pelI manorama mUrti kayAM gaI ?" pU. AcAryazrIe kahyuM 'e mUrti to meM zrAvakane ApI dIdhI. tame mane rAkhavAnuM kahyuM hatuM paNa mArI pAse rAkhavA karatAM enI pAse rahe temAM vadhu lAbha che. ochAmAM ochuM zrAvakane sAdhanA to thazene ?" mirAmbikA sosAyaTImAM upadhAnatapano prasaMga hato. A samaye rAmasUrIzvarajI (DahelAvALA) mahArAjasAheba padhAryA hatA. A prasaMge AcAryazrI emanI bAjumAM beThA, eTaluM ja nahi paNa prathama mALa ane mukhya zAlanuM mAna paNa emane ApyuM. anyane AgaLa karavAnI emanI bhAvanA ananya hatI ane enI pAchaLa emanA hRdayanI samaNizIlatA paNa pragaTa thatI. eka vAra pUjaya yazodevasUrijI rAjasthAna tarapha jatA hatA. vihAramAM rastAmAM mahesANA AvatuM hatuM. pU. AcAryazrIe emane bahumAnapUrvaka bolAvyA. eTaluM ja nahi paNa emanI pAse vidhi paNa karAvI. sANaMdamAM sAgaragaccha ane vijayagaccha ema be gacchano moTo prabhAva. banne gacchanA judA cAtumasi thAya. AcAryazrIe A baMnene bhegA karyA sAgaragaccha ane vijayagacchano gocarIvyavahAra judo hato. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI vijayagacchanA bhakasUrijI pAse AvyA ane 88 For Private And Personal Use Only

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kahyuM ke Aje to tamArA hAthanI gocarI mATe vAparavI che. ane emanI sAthe gocarImAM besI gayA. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI ane pU. bhadraMkarasUrijInA gaccha judA hatA, paNa gati eka hatI. baMneno paraspara pratyeno maitrIbhAva ane Adara paNa akhUTa. baMne jaNAM bhegA thAya tyAM eka ja upAzrayamAM UtaravAnuM rAkhe. vyAkhyAna paNa sAthe ja Ape. pU. A. zrI bhadraMkarasUrijI karatAM pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne vahelI AcArya padavI maLI hatI. Ama chatAM pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI maLe tyAre khUba ja maitrIbhAva ane vinaya dAkhave. A aMge pU. bhadrakarasUrijIe kahyuM. teo to khUba ja vinaya kare. mane zarama Ave teTalo vinaya kare." A samaye pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI ane bhadrakarasUrijI mahArAja sANaMdamAM bhegA thayA hatA. vi. saM. 203mAM pU. A. zrI bhadrakarasUrijI mahArAja pArzvanAtha bhagavAnanA derAsaranA zatAbdI mahotsava nimitte AvyA hatA. saM. 2040nA mahA suda 6nA divase nayapaghasAgarajInI yojAyelI dIkSA arthe pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI sANaMda AvyA hatA. pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAja pU. A. zrI bhadraMkarasUrijI mahArAjane AgrahapUrvaka kahe "Apa mArA vidyAguru cho. Apa pATa para beso." pU. A. zrI bhadrakarasUrijI kahe che, "Apa amArA saunA vaDIla cho. Apa beso te ja yogya gaNAya.' Ama pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI ane pU. A. zrI bhadraMkarasUrijI mahArAja eka ja pATa para besIne vyAkhyAna ApatA eTaluM ja nahi paNa sANaMdanA zrAvakone kahetA ke ame bhegA thaIne vyAkhyAna ApIe chIe to tame sAthe pratikramaNa kema na karo ? ane A rIte AcAryazrInI bhAvanAe be gacchane eka sAthe dharmaArAdhanA karatA karyA nayapadmasAgarajInI dIkSAnuM kArya pUrNa thatAM pU. A. zrI. kailAsasAgarasUrijI vihAra karavAnA hatA. pU. A. zrI bhadraMkarasUrijI mahArAje kahyuM ke Apa utsavanA divaso hovAthI thoDuM vadhu rahI java to? pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI be divasa rahyA. pU. A. zrI bhadraMkarasUrijI mahArAjane emanI namra prakRtinI khabara hatI. mahesAsAmAM aneka dharmakAryo karavAnAM hovAthI AcAryazrIne javAnI paNa jarUra hatI. dharmakArya aMgenI patrikA paNa bahAra paDI gaI hatI. paNa ghakSiya eTale ke pU. A. zrI. bhadrakarasUrijI mahArAja kahe pachI ja javuM. pU. A. zrI. bhadraMkarasUrijI mahArAja AcAryazrIno svabhAva jANatA hatA. tethI emane bolAvIne kahyuM have Apa padhAro. Apane mahesANAnA ghaNAM For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAmo karavAnAM che te huM jANuM chuM." Ama emanI anumati maLyA pachI ja AcAryazrIe vihAra karyo. anya samudAyanA sAdhuo paNa kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAja pratye agAdha Adara sevatA. eka khyAtanAma AcArya mahArAja paNa kahetA ke amArA tapAgacchIya sAdhuomAM eka pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI evA che ke jemaNe STi para kAbU meLavyo che, je ame paNa nathI meLavI zakatA. moTA moTA vivAdo hoya tyAM paNa sahu AcAryazrIne eka taTastha vyakti tarIke svIkAratA hatA. eka vAra oDhava mukAme pUjaya meruprabhasUrIzvarajI mahArAje paNa pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne kahyuM hatuM ke tithicarcAno jhaghaDo miTAvavA mATe tame eka ja taTastha ane zaktimAna cho. eka samAcArIvALA anya samudAyanA vaDIla sAdhu hoya to temane vaMdana karavA jatA. potAnA ziSyone paNa kahetA ke bIjA koI mahAtmAo mane agara ApaNA koI paNa sAdhune vaMdana kare tyA na kare, paNa tamane jayAM tyAgI puruSo dekhAya ane mAthuM namAvavAnuM mana thAya to game te samudAyanA mahAtmAne tamAre saharSa vaMdana karavAM. sAdhue to guNo grahaNa karavAnA hoya. zrAvaka pAse paNa jo koI guNa dekhAya to te paNa grahaNa karavo joIe evI temanI bhAvanA hatI. 'dazavaikAlika sUtramAM kahyuM che, "guNothI sAdhu thavAya. avaguNothI asAdhu thavAya. AthI sAdhu sArA guNo grahaNa karIne naThArA avaguNo tyajI de che." * AvI sAdhunI chabI AcAryazrInA mAnasamaMdiramAM aMkita thayelI hatI. jayAre ApavaDAIno asta thAya che tyAre vinayano udaya thAya che. potAnAthI vizeSa guNavAnano vinaya karavo te ApaNuM kartavya che. samakakSano vinaya karavo te saujanya che. alpa guNavAnano vinaya karavo te kulInatA che ane sarvano vinaya karavo te samaSTi prApta thayAnuM sUcaka che. AcAryazrInA hRdayamAM AvI samaSTi : jAta thaI hatI. tyAga mATeno anupama anurAga hato. teo eka vAra eka vaDIla AcAryazrIne vaMdana karavA gayA. emane vaMdana karyA, paNa e vaDIla AcAryazrInA sAdhuoe pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI vaDIla hovA chatAM vaMdana na karyA. vaMdana karIne pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe vidAya lIdhI tyAre emanI sAthenA eka sAdhuthI rahevAyuM nahi. emaNe pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne kahyuM, 'Ape to e * guNehi sAhU aguNehi'sAhU, jiNhAhi sAhU guNa mujva'sAhU (daza ve._ 9-3/11) 90 For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAdhupuruSane vaDIla mAnIne vaMdana karyA paNa Apane vaDIla mAnIne emanA bIjA sAdhuoe vaMdana na karyA e kema cAle?" AcAryazrIe emane premathI samajAvatAM kahyuM, "jo bhAI, ApaNe AvuM nahi jovAnuM. ApaNe vaMdana karavA gayA hatA, vaMdana karAvavA nahi.' AvI virala sAMpradAyika udAratA AcAryazrInA jIvanamAM jovA maLatI hatI. jayAre vyaktinuM darzana vizALa bane che tyAre nAnA-nAnA sImADAo lopAI jAya che. gaganamAM uDanArane sAgara dekhAya che, nAnakaDA khAbociyAM nahi. AvI mahAna vyaktine kadI krodha ke kAma kaMpAvI zakatA nathI. kAzIrAmamAMthI pu. kailAsasAgarajI banelA AcAryazrI potAnA ziSyone kahetA ke krodha karavAthI bhaya Ave che. sAmI vyakti veranI vasUlAta karaze evI dahezata satAvatI rahe che ane enAthI tana ane mana baMnenuM svAthya bagaDe che. vi.saM. 2022mAM sANaMdamAM aMjanazalAkA hatI. e nimitte judA judA pratimAjIonI nIce lekha taiyAra karavAmAM AvyA hatA. evAmAM bhUlathI evuM banI gayuM ke eka pratimAjI nIce anya vyaktino lekha kotarAI gayo. e amadAvAdanA gRhastha hatA ane emaNe A vAMcyuM tyAre emanA gussAno pAra na rahyo. tarata ja pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAja pAse AvyA ane atyaMta ugrapaNe bolavA lAgyA. emaNe kahyuM ke, "AvuM thAya ja kema? A huM calAvI levAno nathI.' kailAsasAgarajI mahArAja kahe, "A lekha lagADanAra mANasa che ane mANasathI bhUla thaI paNa jAya. AnI pAchaLa kArIgarano koI IrAdo nahi hoya, paNa saratacUka thaI haze." amadAvAdanA e gRhastha mamate caDyA hatA. e to eka ja vAta pakaDIne beThA ke AvuM thAya kaI rIte? pUjaya kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM, 'tame kaho to navI mUrti maMgAvIne bharAvI ApuM. paNa zAMta thAva." chatAM pelI vyakti haThAgraha choDatI na hatI. doDheka kalAka sudhI rakajhaka cAlI. pU. kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM "kArIgarathI bhUla thaI che to tene kSamA Apo. tame kaho teTalA paisA ApIne A ja prakAranI mUrti jayapurathI maMgAvI dauM. pachI bIjuM kAMI?" pelA gRhastha kAMI sAMbhaLavA taiyAra nahotA. Akhare pUjaya padmasAgarajI mahArAje emane pUchayuM ke tame koNa cho? ane kailAsasAgarajI vize kahyuM ke tame emane AkhI rAta game teTaluM kahezo, topaNa teo gusse nahi thAya. vaLI A bhUla to saMghanI kahevAya. eTale saMghane doSa lAgaze. evAmAM saMghanA For Private And Personal Use Only

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AgevAno bhegA thayA. emaNe e gRhasthane barAbara sakaMjAmAM lIdho. chevaTe eNe pU. kailAsasAgarajInI mAphI mAgI. gRhasthanA gayA pachI pUjaya padmasAgarajIe pUchayuM, "A mANasa ATaluM badhuM bolato hato. ApaNo koI doSa nathI chatAM ATaluM ukaLI-ukaLIne kaheto hato. chatAM tame ene cokhecokhkhuM kema kahI dIdhuM nahi?" pUjaya kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM "juo, A to pudgalathI pudgala TakarAya che. pugala bole che ane pugala sAMbhaLe che. ApaNAM koI azubha karmono udaya thayo haze eTale ja AvuM banyuM haze." pelA gRhastha gussAmAM ghaNuM ghaNuM bolI gayA hovA chatAM pU. kailAsasAgarajIe emane vize TIkAno eka zabda paNa na kahyo. AvuM hatuM emanuM upazama bhAvavALuM audAryamaya jIvana! teo ghaNI vAra kahetA, "kAnane sAunDaprUpha karo ane dimAgane erakanDizana banAvo. A dehanuM makAna to AtmArAmabhAIe "lIjha' para lIdheluM che. e makAnane erakanDizanamAM rAkhavAne badale dimAgane erakanDizanamAM rAkho. enAthI zuM thAya te tame sArI rIte jANo cho. kAna sAunDaprUpha haze to bahAra game teTalo ghoghATa haze, paNa magajamAM eno kacaro nahi Ave. magajamAM garamI nahi caDe.' manane erakanDizana karavAnI vAta paNa teo potAnA sAdhu-samudAyane vAraMvAra kahetA hatA. kvacit koI sAdhu gusse thAya to emane Thapako ApavAnI emanI A rIta hatI. "sahana karavuM. kSamA karavI ane sevA karavI" e emano jIvanamaMtra hato. teo koInI vAta koIne karatA nahi. satata amISTanI ja varSA cAlatI hoya. koI apazabda kahe ke dago Acare to paNa enuM bhaluM thajo ema ja kahe. emanI pAse Arasa pArasa banI hatA. kyAreka koI sAdhu ema pUchatA paNa kharA ke vinA kAraNe Apane hAni karanArI vyakti para paNa kema gusse thatA nathI ? to enA javAbamAM pU.A.zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI kahetA, "juo, bhale e game tema bole. tenAthI ApaNA kapaDAne DAgha paDato nathI. jJAtA-decchA bhAva jema jema keLavIe tema tema samabhAva Ave che. rAga-dveSa jItavAno upAya sAkSIbhAvathI rahevuM e ja che" Ama dAkSiNya ane karuNAthI emanuM hRdaya sabhara hatuM. koI sAdhu vakhatovakhata bhUla kare to tenA pratye kvacit puNyaprakopa dAkhavatA, paraMtu eTalI ja jaladIthI enI bhUlane kSamA ApI detA. emanA hRdayamAM sahunA prati apAra vAtsalya vahetuM hatuM. emanAmAM ajoDa koTino guNAnurAga hato. 92 For Private And Personal Use Only

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- - kvacit saheja AkarA thaIne gRhasthane kaMI kahevuM paDe topaNa tarata ja bolI UThatA ke mArA kahevAthI duHkha lAgyuM hoya to " micchAmi dukkaDam'. Ama gAMTha baMdhAya tevA kaSAya thAya nahIM tenI aharniza jAgRti rAkhatA. eka vAra teo vihAra karIne kalakattA tarapha jatA hatA. rastAmAM eka skUla AvI. nizALanA saMcAlakoe to skUlamAM UtaravAnI paravAnagI ApI hatI. paratu nizALanA vidyArthIoe eno virodha karyo. emaNe kahyuM ke, ame amArI skUlamAM A jaina sAdhune UtaravA daIzuM nahi. pU. kailAsasAgarasUrijIe kahyuM ke ame kaMI rahevAnA nathI. amAre to sahune maLavuM che. thoDI vAramAM nizALanA badhA chokarAo bhegA thaI gayA. emaNe aMgrejImAM keTalIka preraNAdAyI vAto kahI. chokarAo to khuzakhuzAla thaI gayA. teo to A sAdhunI pAchaLa pAchaLa bhamavA lAgyA. chokarAoe ja vinaMtI karI ke Apa sahu ahI jarUra raho. jevo emano krodha para vijaya hato evo ja vijaye svAdendriya para hato. emaNe jIvanabhara AhAranA svAdanI kadI khevanA karI nahi. gocarImAM mIThuM che ke nahi eno emane kadI khyAla Ave nahi. mIThAI khAvAnI to emane jIvanabharanI bAdhA hatI. derAsaranI pratiSThA yojAI hoya tyAre to moTA pAyA para mIThAI thAya. vaLI pratiSThAnA prasaMgane kAraNe sAdhujano bahAra gocarI mATe jaI zake nahi. Ave samaye nAnA ziSyo AcAryazrIne mIThAI vAparavA Agraha karatA. AcAryazrI emane lAgaNIbhera kahetA, "mAre ahIM mIThAI vAparavI nathI. huM to mahAvideha kSetramAM jaIne devAdhideva zrI sImaMdharasvAmIne pUchIza, "bhagavana! AjIvana AyaMbila karavAno abhigraha karuM?" bhagavAna je pharamAvaze te karIza." AvI ja rIte emaNe taLelA svAdiSTa pharasANane kadI sparza karyo nahi. cAnA vyasana aMge teo kahetA, "cA vyasana che ane tapamAM bAdhaka che." teo cAne badale ukALo pIvAnuM kahetA ane ukALAnA guNo paNa varNavatA. hasatAM hasatAM emeya kahetA ke "A to sarasa majAnI dezI davA che." pU. AcAryazrIe jIvanamAM kadI bapore koI nAsto lIdho nahoto. gocarImAM mukhavAsa to kyAreya hoya nahi. tithie AyaMbila hoya ane ghaNAM varSo sudhI dara sudi pAMcame upavAsa karatA. zAsananA ghaNAM moTAM kAryo karavA chatAM kyAMya potAnuM nAma lakhyuM ke lakhAvyuM nahi. koI ati Agraha karIne emano phoTogrApha levA vinaMtI kare to agiyAra ke ekavIsa AyaMbila karIne enuM prAyazcitta paNa karI letA. teo bhAta ke kaDhI kadI vAparatA na hatA. eka vAra emaNe evuM sAMbhaLyuM ke derAsaramAM je cokhA ane badAma mUkavAmAM --- For Private And Personal Use Only

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Ave che te keTalAMka loko laI jaIne bajAramAM vece che. AnAthI emanuM saMvedanazIla hRdaya dravI UThayuM ane nakkI karyuM ke jIvanabhara cokhA ke badAma levAM nahi. gocarI samaye kvacit koI sAdhuthI ema bolAI jAya ke, "A vastu bahu sArI banI che." to e sAdhune haLavethI TokatA ane kahetA ke sAdhune mATe AhAra zarIra TakAvavA mATe che ethI vizeSa eno koI upayoga nathI. Ama AhAra aMge emane koI Asakti nahotI. emanI sAthenA sAdhuo paNa khAsa takedArI rAkhatA ke amuka vastu sArI che ke kharAba evuM bolAI jAya nahi. jo AvuM bolAI jAya to acUka emano Thapako maLe ja. teo kahetA ke tIrthaMkara paramAtmAe A aMge 'uttarAdhyayana sUtra" mAM ema kahyuM che ke jinazAsananA sAdhue khAtAM khAtAM teNe "A sAruM raMdhAyuM che, "A ThIka svAdavALuM che' ke "A ThIka rasavALuM che' evuM na bolavuM. anAsakta bhAve mokSanA sAdhanabhUta dehane TakAvavA mATe bhojana anivArya hovAthI levuM. saMyamajIvananA prathama cAra dAyakAo sudhI to AcAryazrI haMmezAM ekAsaNAM karatA. emaNe kAyamane mATe cAra vigaIono tyAga karyo hato. mAtra be vigaIonI chUTa hatI. teo dahIM ane dUdha letA ane temAM paNa DerInuM dUdha vajarya hatuM. pU. kailAsasAgarajIe dIkSA lIdhI tyAre emanA gurumahArAja chaThThanA pAraNe chaThTha karatA hatA. kailAsasAgarajInI IcchA AvI tapazcaryA karavAnI hatI. ekabAju abhyAsa cAle. vaLI pittaprakRti paNa kharI. tethI ATalI kaThina tapazcaryA muzkela hatI tema chatAM kAyama AyaMbila, ekAsaNuM ane upavAsa to cAlatA ja. vaLI AhAra pUro thAya ke tarata ja UThatAM pahelAM abhigraha laI letA. be ke traNa vakhata pANI vAparavAnuM rAkhatA hatA. chelle chelle svAthya barAbara na rahetAM auSadho levA paDatAM hatAM. ziSyavarganA atyaMta Agrahane vaza thaIne emaNe du:khI hRdaye ekAsaNAM choDInebiAsaNAM zarU karyA. AvuM thayA pachI paNa teo divasanA moTAbhAganA samayamAM abhigraha paccakhANa dvArA cAre AhArano tyAga karatA. Ama zarIranI pratikuLatAne lIdhe ekAsaNAM thatAM nahotAM, tema chatAM emano tapano Adarza kevo mahAna hato te AnA parathI pragaTa thAya che. pU. AcAryazrInuM jIvana eTale ja mAnavamAMthI mahAmAnava banavAnI prakriyA. jANe aneka madhubharI pAMkhaDIovALuM e suvarNakamaLa na hoya! A kamaLanA jalakamalavatu' jIvanamAM vinayanI parAkASThA najare paDe che to vidyA taraphano agAdha Adara jovA maLe che. parama ziSyavAtsalya varasatuM jovA maLe che to sahune bhIjavI detI apAra udAra bhAvanAnI helI anubhavAya che. kyAMka For Private And Personal Use Only

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mastaphakIrIno Ahleka saMbhaLAya che, to kyAMka anekAMta dRSTimAMthI ekatA pragaTe che. e namratA, e Adara, e dAkSiNya ane e kSamAzIlatA, e dilanI dilAvarI anokhI che. emaNe jhera pIne amRta ApyuM. emanA guNone jotAM ApoApa ema kahevAi jAya, 'e ekamAM aneka hatA, anekamAM e eka hatA.' 95

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vAtarAga paramAtmAnuM zAsana eka vizvavyApI mahAna zAsana che. e zAsanamAM che? sAdhune niHspRhI, nirmohI ane svAzrayI darzAvavAmAM Avyo che. bhagavAna . - mahAvIra kahe che-- alolabhikhuM na rasesu giLe, uchuM care jIviya nAbhinaMkhe, IDhiMca sakAraNa - pUrNa ca, cae ThiyappA aNihe je sa bhikhu je sAdhu lolupa nathI hoto, rasalAlacI nathI hoto, ajJAta parivAro pAsethI bhikSA mAge che, je jIvananI AkAMkSA nathI karato, je Rdhdhi, satkAra tathA pUjA-pratiSThAno moha tyAgI cUkayo che, je sthirAtmA tathA ni:spRha che, te ja sAdhu che." pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI jIvanabhara ni:spRha rahyA. mAtra vRttithI ja nahi, balka rojiMdA vyavahAramAM paNa apekSAthI para rahyA. jIvananA cheka aMtima samaya sudhI potAnuM kAma pote jAte ja karyuM. game tevI mAMdagI hoya, tema chatAM koI ziSya ke gRhastha pAse emaNe kadI sevA karAvI nathI. lAMbA vihArano zrama hoya, AkhA divasano thAka hoya, hRdayanI bImArInI asara hoya, tema chatAM bIjAnI pAse paga dabAvavAnI vAta to dUra rahI, paraMtu pagane sparza paNa karavA na de! pAchaLanA samayamAM zvAsanI ghaNI takalIpha rahetI. paNa kadI parAzrita banyA nahi. aMtima divasomAM paNa khUba nabaLAI hovA chatAM dIvAlane Teke Teke Thale ke mAtru jatA. teo ATalA lAMbA dIkSAparyAyamAM mAtrunI kuMDI kvacita ja koIne pAriSThApanikAvidhi mATe ApatA hatA. bALapaNathI teone vyAyAmamAM UMDo rasa hovAthI ghaNAM varSo sudhI emanI zArIrika zakita TakI rahI hatI. koI sAdhu upAzrayamAM dIvAlono Teko laI aDhelIne bese to tarata ja AcAryazrI kahetA, "juvAnImAM Teko lo cho, to buDhApAmAM sUvuM paDaze." hRdaya pahoLuM thavAthI chellAM daseka varSothI emane aneka prakAranI takalIpha thatI hatI. chellAM varSomAM vihAranA prasaMge DoLIno upayoga karavo paDato hato, jo ke zvAsa caDI jAya ane anivArya bane tyAre ja DoLImAM besatA. DoLImAM besIne vihAra karavAnuM emane pasaMda nahotuM tethI, aMtaramAM UDe UDe koI eka sthaLe sthiravAsa karavAnuM paNa vicAratA hatA. vaLI DoLImAM bese to potAnA karatAM DoLIvALAnI vadhu ciMtA karatA hatA. thoDe AgaLa jAya eTale DoLIvALAne kahetA ke have jarAka thobhI jAva. tame thoDo ArAma laI lo. A samaye pote moDA pahoMcaze athavA to taDako thaI jaze enI kadI kayAreya ciMtA karatA nahi For Private And Personal Use Only

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pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI hiMmatanagaramAM pratiSThA karAvIne DoLImAM amadAvAda AvatA hatA. prAMtijathI thoDe AgaLa salAla pAse AvyA haze ane ekAeka madhamAkhIonuM jhUMDa emane gherI vaLyuM. koIe madhapUDA pAse Aga lagAvI hoya ke enA para paththarano ghA karyo hoya, paNa game te kAraNe madhamAkhIo vipharI hatI. cAre bAju UDatI, DaMkha detI hatI. A madhamAkhIo DoLIvALA para tUTI paDI. AcAryazrI e potAnI UnanI kAmaLI AkhA zarIra para oDhI lIdhI. ene pariNAme mAtra moM para ja cAra-pAMca madhamAkhI karaDI gaI. bIje kyAMya DaMkha lAgyA nahi. tarata ja AcAryazrIne najIkanA gAmamAM lAvavAmAM AvyA. madhamAkhIno DaMkha kADhavA mATe tAbaDatoba DaoNkaTarone bolAvavAmAM AvyA. DaoNkTaro AvyA eTale pUjaya A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe kahyuM, "mArI phikara karazo nahIM. mane to be-cAra DaMkha ja lAgyA che. pahelAM A hoLIvALAonI sAravAra karo. emanA para to madhamAkhIo tUTI paDI hatI" Ama, DaoNkTaro pAse potAne badale DoLIvALAonI sAravAra emaNe pahelA karAvI. zrAvakone A vAtanI khabara paDI eTale keTalAka zrAvako doDI AvyA. teo pU. AcAryazrI pAse AvyA ane sukhazAtAnI pRcchA karavA lAgyA tyAre pU. AcAryazrIe eTaluM ja kahyuM, "mane khAsa kAMI thayuM nathI.khabara pUchavI hoya to DoLIvALAnI pUcho.' amadAvAdathI paNa keTalAka zrA vako AvI pahoMcyA. zrAvakoe ciMtita banIne pUchyuM. tyAre prasanna citte AcAryazrIe kahyuM, "juone, A kAnanI pAse DaMkha lAgyA che eTale jarUra A madhamAkhIo mane kazuMka kahevA AvI hovI joie." pU. AcAryazrI mAnavInA jeTalI ja prANInI paNa ciMtA karatA. eka samaye bhAvanagaramAM emano cAturmAsa hato. vihAra karatI vakhate dhaMdhukAthI AgaLa eka kUtaruM chellA zvAsa letuM taraphaDatuM hatuM. enI A AkharanI ghaDI hatI. tarata ja pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijI aTakI gayA. enI pAse jaIne ene navakAra saMbhaLAvavA lAgyA ane vicAryuM ke AnAthI e jIvanI sadgati thAya to sAruM vi. saM. 2014nI A vAta che. pAlItANAno eka saMgha nIkaLyo hato. rAjasthAnanA sihorInA zreSThi dhanarAja gAMdhI ane emanA parivAra taraphathI pAlItANAno saMgha kADhavAmAM Avyo hato. A saMghamAM hAthI paNa sAthe hato. pAlItANA pahoMcatA pahelAM hastagiri tIrtha AvyuM. saMghamAM pratidina avanavI mIThAio thatI, tyAre pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInA manamAM thayuM ke A 98 For Private And Personal Use Only

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hAthI zuM khAto haze? keTalAka zrAvako emaneM bhakita mATe pUchavA AvyA to kahyuM, "juo, A saMghayAtrAmAM hAthIe sAtha Apyo che. e to eka pazu che chatAM ApaNI bhakitamAM sAthe rahyo che. to tame badhA gajarAjanI bhakita karo. pariNAme be maNa lADu banAvavAmAM AvyA ane gajarAjane bhakitapUrvaka khavaDAvavAmAM AvyA! pU. AcAryazrIne brahmacarya tarapha agAgha Adara hato. AthI emanA manamAM satata eka vAta ghoLAyA karatI ane kayAreka potAnA nAnA ziSyone hasatAM hasatAM kahetA paNa kharA ke meM kevuM pApa karyuM haze ke jethI mArI dIkSA vilaMbathI thaI? tame badhA puNyazALI cho. tamArI dIkSA vahelI thaI. kayAreka pU. AcAryazrI potAnA nAnA sAdhuone ema paNa kahetA ke tame brahmacArI cho. huM to lagna karIne ahIM Avyo. tamArA jevA bahmacArIne vaMdana karuM chuM jethI have pachI mArI dIkSA paNa nAnI umaramAMja thAya. AjIvana brahmacArI rahuM samabhAva e pU. AcAryazrIno eka mahAna guNa hato. sAmAnyamAM sAmAnya mANasa jAya topaNa ene bhAvathI bolAve. koI zrAvakane anya sAdhu para vizeSa anurAga hoya. koI zrAvaka anya paMthano ke saMpradAyano hoya, tema chatAM emanI samadaSTi AgaLa badhA ja sarakhA hatA. emanA manamAM saheje evo khyAla Avato nahi ke A bIjA sAdhu ke saMpradAyano rAgI che. emano eka ja siddhAMta hato ke jema aMtaranA AzIrvAda phaLe che te ja rIte bIjAnA aMtarAtmAne du:kha ApanArA duHkhI thAya che, AthI satata jAgrata rahIne bIjA emanAthI dubhAya nahi te rIte vartatA hatA. saMyamajIvananI sAcavaNa aMgenI emanI jAgRti to virala hatI. Ane kAraNe ja teo muMbaI zaheramAM cAturmAsa pasaMda karatA nahotA. vadhumAM vadhu eka cAturmAsa rahe. bIjA cAturmAsanI to vAta ja nahi. teo sAyanamAM eka cAturmAsa rahyA. e pachI muMbaImAM cAturmAsa karavAnI ghaNI vinaMtIo thaI. zrAvakoe ati Agraha karyo, tema chatAM teo muMbaI gayA nahi. pAchaLanA samayamAM to nAnAM nAnAM gAmaDAMmAM cAturmAsa kayo. sANaMda, lodarA, aDapodarA jevAM gAmomAM cAturmAsa gALyo. teo kahetA, "AvA gAmaDAmAM cAturmAsa karavAthI mAnasika zAMti. maLe ane niravarodha svAdhyAya cAle.' bapore pustaka laIne teo gAmanI bahAra nIkaLI jAya. koI hariyALA khetaramAM ke koI gheghUra vaDalAnI chAyAmAM besIne svAdhyAya kare, AtmaciMtana kare ane pachI dhyAna lagAve. ziyALo hoya ke unALo, paNa emanI A aMtarmukhatA evI ne evI ja rahetI. kayAreka avadhUta yogI AnaMdadhananAM pado gAI UThatA, For Private And Personal Use Only

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"avadhU anubhava-kalikA jAgI, mati merI Atama sumirana lAgI." to vaLI yogIrAja AnaMdaghanajInAM padonI jema upAdhyAya yazovijayajInAM pado paNa pU. AcAryazrInA kaMThamAM satata vasatAM hatAM ane kayAreka mastImAM DolatA DolatA gAvA lAgatA---- "hama magana bhaye prabhudhyAname dhyAname prabhudhyAname! bisara gaI duvidA tana-manakI, acirAsuta guNa-gAname harihara brahma purandara kI ridhdhi, Avata nAhiM koI mAnameM cidAnanda kI mauja macI hai, samatA-rasake pAnameM " pU. AcAryazrI moTA gacchAdhipati thayA hovA chatAM emanI namratA evI ne evI rahI hatI. nAraNapurA vistAranA keTalAka jaino emane maLavA AvyA. A vistAramAM madhyama varganA jainonI sArI evI vastI thaI hatI ane sahue saMgha sthApavAno vicAra karyo. teo pU. gacchAdhipati A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAjane maLavA gayA. AvA samartha pU. gacchAdhipatie emane evo hUphALo AvakAra Apyo ke sahunA hRdayanI bhAvanAonAM dvAra khUlI gayAM. eTaluM ja nahi paNa Arthika muzkelInA kAraNe koI dharmakArya aTakatuM hoya to pU. AcAryazrI yogya upadeza ApIne saMghanuM kArya pUrNa karAvI ApatA. vaLI dharmakAryamAM cIvaTa paNa eTalI ja rAkhe. je koIe dharmakArya karavAnuM mAthe lIdhuM hoya te kArya tatkALa pUruM thavuM joIe evI sadAya emanI bhAvanA rahetI. teo e aMge satata dhyAna doryA karatA hatA. Ama emanI pAse je koI Ave te sArA kArya mATe preraNA laIne jatA. zrAvaka Ave to emane kahetA ke sukRta kAryamAM sadvyaya thAya to ja pUrvapuNyAithI prApta thayelI lakSmI sArthaka thaze. zrAvako paNa kadI emanI vAtane TALatA nahi. emanA kAraNe Arthika dRSTie madhyama sthitinA ghaNA saMdhone moTo lAbha thayo. saMgha pote yathAzakti bhaMDoLa ekaThuM kare ane bAkInuM bhaMDoLa AcAryazrInA sadupadezathI khUba saraLatAthI thaI jatuM. A rIte ghaNA. zrAvakoe prabhubhaktino lAbha lIdho ane AmAMnA ghaNA sukhI thayA. A joIne kayAreka koI AcAryazrIne pUchatuM "pelA bhAie dharmakAryamAM ATalo kharca karyo ane te to khUba sukhI thayA." A samaye pU. AcAryazrI namratAthI kahetA, "e to bhagavaMtanA puNyano prabhAva che. sArA bhAvathI karelI bhakita kadI niSphaLa jatI nathI. ratnapAtramAM (dharmasthAno mATe apAyeluM dAna) je apAya che, te anaMtagaNuM UgI nIkaLe che. te koI divasa niSphaLa jatuM nathI." 100 para kAma For Private And Personal Use Only

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ja evuM paNa banatuM ke je zrAvako sAmAnya rIte dharmakAryamAM koI divasa paiso vAparatA na hoya temanA bhAva paNa AcAryazrI pAse AvatAM ApoApa badalAI jatA. teo kahevA mAMDatA ke amane Adeza Apo. prabhubhakitano koI lAbha Apo. sAyananA zrI giradharalAla vorAno paNa Avo ja anubhava che. teo kahetA ke AcAryazrInA darzana thatAM ja vicAromAM parivartana thaI jatuM. emanI pAse jatAM AtmAne zAMti maLatI. emanI pAsethI ja giradharabhAInA kuTuMbIjanone preraNA maLI ke sAyanamAM upAzraya hovo joIe. pU. AcAryazrIe upadeza karyo ke gharadITha puruSo 1000 rUpiyA arpaNa kare ane baheno 251 rUpiyA arpaNa kare to upAzrayanuM kAma jhaDapathI pUrNa thaI zake. zrIsaMghe emanA upadezane mAthe caDAvyo ane upAzrayanI rakama ekaThI thaI gaI. e samaye giradharabhAIne bilDiMga kansTrakazanano anubhava hato eTale upAzrayanI dekharekha rAkhavAnuM kAma zrIsaMgha dvArA emane sopavAmAM AvyuM. pachI derAsaranuM kAma paNa mAthe lIdhuM ane Ama mahArAjazrInImUkapreraNAnA baLe sAyanamAM upAzraya ane derAsara bane thayAM. AvI ja rIte visaM. 2016mAM mahuDI saMghano vahIvaTa AjanI kamiTIe lIdho tyAre enI bAra mahinAnI Avaka pacAsa hajAranI hatI, paraMtu pUjaya AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAjanA saupadezathI ane pUjaya A. zrI subodhasAgarasUrijI mahArAjanA sahayogane kAraNe Aje enI Avaka lAkhonI thaI gaI che. mahuDInA AraMbhakALanI varSo pUrvenI A vAta che. eka vAra eka zrAvaka moTI rakama ApavAnuM vacana ApIne pharI gayA. have karavuM zuM? ATalI rakama lAvavI kyAMthI? badhA bhegA maLIne pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAja pAse gayA. emaNe kahyuM, "bIjanA divase jAjama nAkho ane gAmanA saMghane bolAvIne phALo karo." Ama karyuM ane thoDA ja samayamAM dasa hajAra rUpiyA ekatra thaI gayA. zUnyamAMthI sarjana thayuM ane sahune rAhata thaI. emanI saMghabhakita paNa anerI hatI. ati parizrama thayo hoya tyAre zrAvako emane ArAma levAno Agraha karatA. A samaye pU. AcAryazrI evo uttara ApatA ke "AtmA sajAga che tyAM sudhI saMghanuM kAma karato rahuM evI IcchA che. ema karatAM kALadharma pAmIe to kevuM sAruM!" jo koI saMgha Avyo hoya to teo badhuM bAjue mUkIne emanI sAthe vAta kare. tabiyatanI anukULatA na hoya athavA to samayano abhAva hoya topaNa emanI sAthe bese. gocarI bAjue rahe. baporano vizrAma visarAI jAya. ane vaLI kahetA ke "saMghanA kAma mATe zarIra ghasAya, enAthI vaLI rUDuM zuM?" 101 - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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potAnA cAturmAsa samaye pote je saMghamAM hoya, enAM ja kAyane mahattva ApatA. sAteya kSetromAM kAma karavuM ane tenI puSTi karavI evo bhAva satata rAkhatAM. jinamUrti ane jinamaMdira viSayaka mArgadarzana meLavavA mATe aneka loko emanI pAse AvatA. dUra hoya e patra pAThavIne pUchAvatA. evI ja rIte zAsananuM nAnuM-moTuM koI paNa kAma hoya to tene niSThApUrvaka pUrNa karavA kaTibadhdha rahetA hatA. teo jANe zAsana subhaTa banIne pU. yoganiSTha AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrijInI paDakArabharI vANI chaTAthI bolatA--- "prabhu mahAvIranA dharme, kharI zraddhA dharI preme; thazo jAgrata sadAcAre, karI zakazo udaya tyAre. maryA viNa mALavo kyAMthI, samapyathI jIvana saghaLuM; tajIne dehanI mamatA, karI zakazo udaya tyAre. tyajIne lokasaMjJAne, tyajIne mRtyunI bhIti; pravRttimAM paDo jayAre karI zakazo udaya tyAre. jinevara dharmasevAmAM gaNo nA deha-prANone; thazo o marajIvA jayAre, karI zakazo udaya tyAre." emanAM bAraNAM sahune mATe khullAM hatAM. nAnA bALakathI mAMDIne jJAnI-dhyAnI AcArya bhagavato emane maLavA AvatA. je rIte prasannatA sacavAya e rIte vihArAdimAM saMmata thatA. mAMdA vRdhdhonI satata ciMtA sevatA ane emanI sevAno prabaMdha karatA. A badhAnI pAchaLa kyo guNa kAma karato haze? AcArya pUjaya bhadrakarasUrijI mahArAje kahyuM, 'jIvatattva para apAra karuNA." ane sAce ja pU. AcAryazrI koI paNa jIvane duHkhI joine pote vyAkuLa thaI jatA. ane te dUra karavA aharniza prayAsa karatA. tana, mana ane vacanathI koI paNa prANIne lezamAtra pIDA nahi ApatAM AvA uttama puruSanuM darzana aneka pApakarmono nAza kare bhagavAna mahAvIre paNa aDhAra sthAnamAM paheluM sthAna ahiMsAne ApyuM che ane kahyuM che ke jAte hiMsA na karavI, bIjA pAse karAvavI nahi ane koI karatuM hoya to tene anumodana ApavuM nahi. jJAnI hovAno artha ja eTalo ke e hiMsA na kare. hiMsAthI vera jAge che. enI pAchaLa bhayAnaka duHkho Ave che ane pApakarma baMdhAya che. AthI ja 'uttarAdhyayana sUtramAM kahyuM che, 'jaganissiehiM. bhUehiM, tasanAmehiM thAvare hiM c| no tesimArabhe daMDaM, maNasA vayasA kAyasA cev||' (uttarAdhyayana sUtra 8/10). 102 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jagatamAM je kAMi trasta ane Azrita jIvo che temanA pratye mana, vacana ane kAyAthI koi paNa prakArano samAraMbha nahi karavo. 103

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sAdhutA hamezA samanvayanI khapI hoya che. sadAcAra, sadvicAra ane sazradhdhAmAM mAnanArI hoya che. pAMDityathI bharelI pratibhA kadIka vAdavivAdamAM ke ekAMta AgrahamAM phasAI jAya che, tapanA tejathI jhaLahaLatI sAdhutA kadIka tejodveSamAM sarI paDe che, paraMtu narI saraLatAnI pUjaka sAdhutA sahuthI para rahIne sva ane paranuM kalyANa sAdhe che. e zAstrArtha karatI nathI. vAdavivAdamAM paDatI nathI ane chatAM sarvatra jIta meLave che. e chaTAdAra vAkcAturIthI sahunAM mana DolAvI detI nathI, chatAM enI saumya pratibhAno anubhava mAnavacittane sIdho sparzI jato hoya che. e pada ke padavI bIjA para sthApatI nathI ane chatAM moTA moTA padavIdhArIo karatAM paNa e vadhu Adara meLavI jAya che. emanA upadezamAM moTI-moTI vAto hotI nathI, paraMtu emanA AcArathI ja mAnavatAnI moTAIno sahune paricaya thato hoya che. e sadA ane sarvadA aikyamAM mAnanArI hoya che, tethI e ajAtazatru bane che. duzmana paNa ene dilathI name che. e kleza, viSAda ne vikhavAda pasaMda karatI nathI ane tethI ja enI AsapAsa eka divya vAtAvaraNa racAtuM rahe che. pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI zAsananA mahAna prabhAvaka sAdhu hatA. AjanI sadInA pratApI ane prabhAvazALI sAdhujanomAM emanuM nAma ane kAma AgavuM tarI Ave che. aneka kaSTa ane Apatti sara karyA pachI emanuM sAdhutAnuM svapna sidhdha thayuM hatuM ane ethI ja emane sAdhu ke sAdhutA mATe apAra Adara hato. "dAsonuM hama - sarvasAdhUnAmu"e emanuM priya sutra hatuM. koI paNa samudAyanA sAdhu mAMdA hoya ta emanI pAse pahoMcI jatA. e koI paNa saMdhADAnA hoya to paNa temanI vaiyAvacca karatA. teo kahetA ke "je. sAdhu bhagavaMto zAsananI sevA karatA hoya to temanuM anumodana karajo.emAMthI puNyabaLa prApta thaze.bhavAMtaramAM jinazAsananI prApti thaze ane prabhuzAsananI anumodanA jauine AtmA nirmaLa banaze." vaLI kahetA ke, "jo Ama nahi karo to bhavAMtaramAM prabhunuM zAsana maLavuM dularbha bane topaNa nA nahi". rastAmAM vihAra karatI vakhate koI sAdhumahAtmA maLI jAya to teo pote pahelAM emane AdarapUrvaka "mayUeNa vaMdAmi " kahe. vaLI sAdhune jotAM ja teo khUba namra ane gaLagaLA thaI jatA ane vicAra karatA ke emanI sevAnI taka kayAre maLe? 105 - - - - - -- - -- - - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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koI zaheramAM judA judA samudAyanA sAdhujano birAjatA hoya, dareka judA judA upAzrayamAM hoya, Ave samaye bIjA sAdhuo potAnA vaDIla sAdhune pUchayA vinA anya koIne vaMdana na kare. jayAre AcAryazrI udAravRtti dharAvatA hatA. teo kahetA ke ApaNe vaMdana karavA joIe. koI ema kahe ke teo to ApaNane vaMdana karatA nathI to pachI ApaNe zA mATe vaMdana karavA? A samaye saujanyamUrti AcAryazrI emanI premasabhara vANIthI samajAvatAM, "juo, AtolAbhanuM kAraNa che. AmAMthI ApaNane ekAMte nirjarA thAya che. Ama, ApaNane ekAMte lAbha to maLe ja che ne?" AcAryazrInA jIvanamAM vaiyAvaccano Adarza utkRSTapaNe pragaTa thAya che. emanI vaiyAvaccanI bhAvanAne ADe gaccha ke saMpradAyanA sImADA AvI zakatA nahotA. pote je gAmamAM AvyA hoya tyAM bahArathI koI sAdhu padhAre to kadI evI rAha na jue ke kyAre e sAdhu emane maLavA ke vaMdana karavA Avaze? huM moTo chuM ane te nAno che evo garva emanA cittane kadI sparzato nahi. emanA jIvanamAM kyAMya moTAIno bhAra dekhAto nahi. pote sAme cAlIne e sAdhune maLavA jatA. pAlItANAmAM kanakabena baida nAmanA zrImaMta zrAvikAnA jIvanano hetu ja sAdhu-sAdhvIonI bhakti karavAno. koI sAdhu-mahAtmA bImAra hoya, koI sAdhujanone oparezana karAvavuM hoya ke koI sAdhu-mahAtmAne cAritranAM upakaraNonI jarUra hoya to e sahune kanakabena upayogI bane. sAdhu-sAdhvInI sevAmAM sarvasva samarpaNa karavAnI emanI jhaMkhanA jovA maLe. vaLI AvI sevA pAchaLa hRdayano bhAva hoya, cittano AnaMda hoya ane saMpattino saMtoSa hoya. AvAM anokhA zrAvikA kanakabenane AcAryazrI "kanakamA' kahetA ane ema paNa kahetA ke, "kanakamA to sAdhujanonI mAtA che." AcAryazrI pote pAlItANA gayA hoya to sAme cAlIne kanakabenane vivekapUrNa vANImAM pUche ke sAdhu-sAdhvInI bhakitamAM kaMI sevAno lAbha Apavo hoya to mane kahejo. koI sAdhujananuM puNyabaLa ochuM hoya athavA to zrAvako dvArA emanI yogya saMbhALa levAtI na hoya to pU. AcAryazrI emane saheje ochuM AvavA detA nahi. emanI sevA karatA jAya ane kahetA jAya, "sAdhujananI vaiyAvacca kyAMthI maLe? juo, bAhubaline kevuM baLa maLyuM? pUrvabhavamAM sAdhunI sevA karI to enA phaLarUpe keTalA badhA zaktizALI banyA? ane e zaktino upayoga ane emaNe kevo saMyamanI sAdhanAmAM karyo?" pU. AcAryazrI pAlItANA jAya tyAre ghaNA sAdhuo emanI pAse Ave ane koIne nirAza na kare. pU. AcAryazrInA upadezathI ja ghaNA zrAvakoe vaiyAvacca mATe ghaNI moTI rakama vAparI hatI. koI sAdhu saMyama upayogI 106 For Private And Personal Use Only

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game te mUlyavAna vastunI mAgaNI kare to paNa ene niHsaMkoca pUrNabhAvathI tatkALa arpaNa karatA. eka vAra eka sAdhujana emane maLavA AvyA. AcAryazrI pAse oghorajoharaNa paDayo hato. sAdhujana e joIne svAbhAvika rIte bolI UThayA ke kevuM sarasa rajoharaNa che'. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe tarata ja e rajoharaNa emane arpaNa karI dIdho! pUjaya A. zrI labdhisUrijInA samudAyanA mu. zrI zubhavijayajI nAmanA eka sAdhu thaI gayA. teo uttara gujarAtanA mANasAnA vatanI hatA. emanI umara sittera varSanI hatI. teo eka divasa bharabapore pU. AcAryazrIne maLavA AvyA. pU. AcAryazrI bIje divase to amadAvAdathI vihAra karIne khaMbhAta javAnA hatA. sittera varSanA zubhavijayajInI AMkho AMsuthI ekAeka chalakAI UThI. teo dhrusake ne dhrusake raDavA lAgyA. emaNe kahyuM, "mAre motiyo utarAvavo che, paNa konI pAse jAu? mArI sAthe koI sAdhu nathI ke je mArI saMbhALa rAkhe. TrasTIo paNa mAruM sAMbhaLatA nathI, ke je oNparezananA kharcanI yogya vyavasthA kare. have huM karuM zuM? pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe A vaDIla sAdhujanane sAMtvanA ApI. emane kahyuM, "tame kazI phikara karazo nahi. badhuM barAbara thaI jaze. " pU. AcAryazrI bIje divase to khaMbhAta tarapha vihAra karavAnA hatA, paNa emaNe vihAra mokUpha rAkhyo. eka sAdhunI AvI avasthA hoya ane pote kaI rIte jaI zake ? sAdhunI vaiyAvacca karavAnI dhanya ghaDI sAMpaDI hoya e kaI rIte jatI karAya? AthI AcAryazrIe jAhera karyuM ke teo dasa divasa bAda khaMbhAta bhaNI vihAra karaze. bIje divase pote pU. munizrI zubhavijayajIne laIne amadAvAdanA rilIpharoDa para AvelA eka davAkhAnAmAM AMkha batAvavA gayA. emanuM oNperazana thayuM. AcAryazrIe pUrI saMbhALa lIdhI. Akho divasa pU. padmasAgarajI emanI saMbhALa rAkhe. rAtre pU.A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI pote emanI pAse rahe. Ama traNa divasa sudhI satata emaNe kALajI rAkhI. eTaluM ja nahi paNa e pachI camAM paNa karAvI ApyAM. vaLI zubhavijayajIne cAturmAsamAM anukULatA rahe te mATe mANasA saMgha para ciThThI paNa lakhI ApI. kharataragacchanA haramunijI ekalA sAdhu hatA. emanuM cAritra atyaMta nirmaLa hatuM. 65 varSanA hIranijIne AcAryazrIe kahyuM ke tamArI avasthA thaI gaI che. tame ekalA raho te barAbara nathI. paNa haramunine koNa rAkhe?bIjIbAju 107 -- For Private And Personal Use Only

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AcAryazrI karatAM kharataragacchanA haramuninI samAcArI judI hatI. teo ati kiyApAtra sAdhu hatA. vi.saM. 2026nI A vAta che ke jayAre haramuninI tabiyata khUba bagaDI gaI hatI. A samaye AcAryazrI usmAnapurAmAM hatA. haramunijInI pIThamAM pATuM thayuM. emAM paruM thayuM. ene kAraNe khUba durgadha Ave. koI emanI najIka javAnI hiMmata na kare. e samaye AcAryazrIe jAte emanI khUba sevA karI. pITha paranA pAThAmAMthI paru sApha karatA. pote ja emane pATo bAMdhatA. I.sa. 1974mAM amadAvAdanA jainanagaramAM paramapUjaya paMnyAsazrI (hAla AcAya) padmasAgarajInA praziSya muni vinayasAgarajIne eka divasa ekAeka maleriyAno sakhata tAva Avyo. vaLI unALAnI sakhata garamInA divaso hovAthI emanAthI tApa jIravAto nahoto. peTamAM paNa bhAre pIDA thatI hatI. A samaye AcAryazrIe kolana vaoNTaranA potAM emanA mAthA para mUkayAM. be kalAka sudhI A nAnA sAdhunA paga dALyA. potAnA gacchano hoya ke anya gacchano hoya athavA to nAnAmAM nAno sAdhu hoya, topaNa bImAra sAdhunI sevA karavAnuM teo kadI cUkatA nahi. teo kahetA ke, bImAra sAdhunI sevA te mahAvIra paramAtmAnI sevA che." bhagavAna mahAvIre kahyuM che, 'ne bhilAInuM paDavaM te mam parivaMpha / he gautama, je mAMdA sAdhunI sevA kare che te mArI sevA che." vaLI anya koI samudAyanA sAdhune bhaNavAnI IcchA hoya, paNa paMDitajInA pagAranI anukULatA na hoya to teo pU. AcAryazrIne vinaMtI karavA AvatA. pU. AcAryazrI kahe ke emanA vetanano prabaMdha zrAvako dvArA thaI jaze. tame ciMtA na karazo. karavo hoya teTalo abhyAsa karo. pU. A.zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInuM jIvana jotAM vicAra thAya che ke jeo pote mAtra eka ja kAmaLI rAkhatA, teo bIjA sAdhu-sAdhvIjI mahArAjane jeTalI apekSA hoya teTalI kAmaLIo ApavAnuM virATa audArya dharAvatA hatA. potAnA jIvanamAM ochAmAM ochI vastuono upayoga kare, kintu anyanI vaiyAvacca karavAmAM kadI pAchA na paDe. jenA hRdayamAM sAgara jevI virATatA ane vizALatA hoya, te ja Avo vyApaka samabhAva ane draSTAMtarUpa audArya dAkhavI zake. emanA ziSyasamudAya pAse to AcAryazrInA audAryanA anubhavono koI pAra nathI. vi.saM. 2014nI A vAta che. eka sAdhujanane varSItapa hovAthI pU. upAdhyAyazrI kailAsasAgarajI pAlItANA jaI rahyA hatA. emanI sAthe bIjA be-traNa sAdhuo paNa hatA. bhAlapradezamAMthI vihAra karIne jatA hatA. AcAryazrI to navakArazI kare nahi. emanA bIjA sAdhuo navakArazI karavA 108 For Private And Personal Use Only

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gAmamAM rokAyA ane AcAryazrI AgaLa cAlyA. AgaLa boru gAma AvatuM hatuM. AcAryazrIe vicAryuM ke sAdhuone AvatAM moDuM thaze. Avaze tyAre teo khUba tRSAtura haze. AcAryazrI hAthamAM hamezAM tarapaNI rAkhatA. teo kahetA ke "sAdhu pAtra vinA zobhe nahi." AthI tarANImAMthI doro kADhIne ghaDAnuM paDilehaNa karIne doro ghaDAmAM nAkhIne be ghaDA zrAvakanA gharethI ukALeluM pANI pratilAjIne dharmalAbha kahIne upAzraye lAvIne pANI ThAryuM. evAmAM emanA ziSyo AvI pahoMcyA. sahu bhAre tRSAtura thayA hatA, tethI ziSyone A pANI amRtasamuM lAgyuM. pANI pIdhA pachI emaNe AcAryazrIne pUchayuMATaluM badhuM ThaMDu pANI ahIM AvyuM kaI rIte?" AcAryazrIe kahyuM, "huM vahelo Avyo hato. pANI UnuM hoya to tamArI tRSA na chIe, tethI meM ThArIne rAkhyuM hatuM AcAryazrInI vAta saMbhALIne ziSyone pArAvAra vedanA thaI. emane khyAla Avyo ke pote gaMbhIra bhUla karI dIdhI. pariNAme e pachI vihAramAM eka sAdhu to navakArazI choDIne paNa emanI sAthe ja rahetA hatA. potAnA ziSyo pratye AvI apAra vatsalatA hatI. manamAM evo bhAva kadI jAgato nahi ke huM moTo chuM huM guru chuM huM zI rIte pANI lAvIne ThAruM? pUjaya padmasAgarajI dakSiNa bhAratanI saphaLa tIrthayAtrA karIne gujarAtamAM pAchA pharatA hatA ane pU. AcAryazrIne zihoramAM maLavAnA hatA. pUjaya padmasAgarajI sAthe nAnA sAdhuo paNa hatA. A prasaMge zihoranA saMghane bolAvIne AcAryazrIe kahyuM, "juo, ghaNA nAnA sAdhuo Ave che. emanI barAbara bhakita karajo.' AcAryazrIne nAnA sAdhuo pratye apAra prema ane vAtsalya hatAM. dakSiNa bhAratanI yAtrA pachI sAta varSa bAda AcAryazrIne pUjaya padmasAgarajI maLI rahyA hatA. AcAryazrIe savArathI kazuM vAparyuM nahotuM. teo kahetA: "nAnA sAdhuo Avaze tyAre badhAnI sAthe vAparIza." e divase eka bapore cAra vAgye emaNe badhAnI sAthe vAparyuM ane ekAsaNuM hovA chatAM ATalo badho samaya potAnA ziSyonI vatsalatAbharI rAha joI. pote pAse besIne potAnA ziSyone vyAkhyAna karavAnuM zIkhavatA hatA. pachI vyAkhyAna taiyAra karAvatA. e mATenI badhI sagavaDa karI ApatA. vaLI vyAkhyAnanA mahattvanA muddAo tene agAuthI lakhI ApatA, eTaluM ja nahi paNa potAnI hAjarImAM ja ziSyane pravacana karavAnuM sopatA. pote aMjana - zalAkA ke pratiSThAmAM satata hAjarI Ape kharA, paNa kriyAno dora to potAnA 109 For Private And Personal Use Only

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ziSyone ja sopI dIdho hoya. ziSya AgaLa vadhe to emanA aMtarane adhika nahIM, balka avarNanIya AnaMda thato. enA dharmakAryanI anumodanA karIne satata eno utsAha vadhAratA. sadAya eka zikhAmaNa ApatA ke, "tame zAsanaprabhAvaka bano. nIDara bano. pApa karazo to bhaya raheze. pApathI mukata thAva." sAmAnya rIte dIkSA ApyA pachI sAdhune bhaNavA mATe paMDita ke zAstrInI vyavasthA karI ApavAmAM Ave che, paNa AcAryazrI to nokhI mATInA mAnavI hatA. teo pote ja bapore A sAdhuone potAnI pAse bolAvatA. emane pratikramaNano artha samajAvatA. pApakSaya, pApahAni, pApamocana ke pApazuddhi e pratikramaNano hetu che ema kahIne eno vizeSa artha paNa kahetA. teo darzAvatA ke pramAdane lIdhe sva-sthAnamAMthI para-sthAnamAM gayelo AtmA pAcho te ja sthAne javAnI kriyA kare tene pratikramaNa kahevAya che. A pramAda eTale dhyeyanuM vismaraNa, pramAda eTale sva-sthAnamAMthI para-sthAnamAM javuM te. pramAda eTale jJAna, darzana, cAritrarUpa sva-sthAna choDIne paudagalika bhAvomAM pravRtti. AvI pApapravRtti ane paudagalika bhAvonA para-sthAnamAM rahelA enA mULa sthAna jJAna, darzana, cAritramAM lAvanArI kriyA pratikramaNa' kahevAya che. pratikramaNa'no eka anya artha paNa teo darzAvatA ane kahetA, prati prati vartanaM vA, zubheSu yogeSu mokSaphaleSu niHzalyasya yateryat tadvo royaM pratikramaNam / / ' ni:zalya thayelA yatinuM mokSaphaLa ApanAra zubha yogone viSe punaH punaH pravRtta thavuM, te ja pratikramaNa jANavuM. saheje kSati vinA pratikramaNa kaI rIte bolAya te darzAvavA mATe jAte ja pratikramaNa bhaNAvatA. Ave samaye kriyAmAM koI kSati thAya to teo kadI gusse na thatA. Thapako ApavAne badale evI mIThAzathI vAta samajAve ke jethI sAmI vyakitanA manamAM saheje khaTako na rahe ane potAnA doSano khyAla Ave. kaTuvacanane priyavacanamAM palaTAvavAno emanI pAse jAdu hato, AthI kaDavAza pedA kare tevI vAta paNa teo sAhajika mIThAza ane lAgaNIthI kahI zakatA siddhahema vyAkaraNa ' jevo koI graMtha hoya athavA to AgamanuM koI sUtra hoya. koI eka zloka ke koI eka gAthA hoya, topaNa teo evI sarasa chaNAvaTa karIne bhaNAvatA ke gahana bAbato paNa saraLatAthI samajAI jatI. teo pATha ApatA hoya tyAre eka anupama drazya jovA maLatuM. AjubAjuM * svasthAnAt yat parasthAnaM, pramAdasya vazaM gataH / tatraiva kramaNaM bhUyaH, prtikrmnnmucyte||" 1 10 For Private And Personal Use Only

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ziSyasamudAya beTho hoya, pote madhyamAM birAjelA hoya ane pATha ApavAmAM pUrepUrA tanmaya thai gayA hoya. sAhijaka rIte ja eka pachI eka zloko emanI yAdadAstamAMthI saratA hoya. Ama, AcAryazrI eTale ke jIvata yunivarsiTI. eka jaMgama pAThazALA. sAdhujano abhyAsa kare e mATe AcAryazrIe abhyAsakrama ghaDyo hato. cha dhoraNa sudhI bhaNelA sAdhune mATe sAta varSanA dhArmika abhyAsanuM emaNe Ayojana karyuM hatuM. ziSya pratyenA agAdha vAtsalyanuM udAharaNa to AcAryazrInI gaNi pU. jJAnasAgarajI mahArAjanI sevAne kahI zakAya. pUjya jJAnasAgarajI mahArAja gaLAnA kensaranI bImArIthI dherAyelA hatA. A samaye pAlImAM pratiSThAnuM kAma cAlatuM hatuM. ziSyanI AvI avasthA hoya tyAre AcAryazrInuM karuNAbharyuM hRdaya saheje vilaMba kai rIte sahI zake ? emaNe evu vicAryuM nahi pratiSThAnuM kAma jaladI ATopIne pahoMcI jAu. potAnA ziSya jJAnasAgarajInuM citta samAdhimAM rahe, te mATe tatkALa emanI pAse AvI pahoMcyA. teo jJAnasAgarajI pAse be-be kalAka sudhI karuNAmUrti pArzvanAtha bhagavAnanuM dhyAna karatA hatA. potAnA hAthamAM vAsakSepa laine AcAryazrI 'uvasaggaharam' strota gaNIne jJAnasAgarajInA gaLA para vAsakSepa nAkhatA. AmAM emanuM ziSya taraphanuM agAdha vAtsalya pragaTa thatuM hatuM. ziSyonA svAdhyAya aMge paNa AcAryazrI hamezAM jAgarUka rahetA. teo pustaka vAMcatA vAMcatAM enA mahatvanA muddA nIce lITI karatA jAya. emano hetu eTalo ke, mane AkhuM pustaka vAMcavAno bhale zrama po, paNa mArA ziSyone to enuM navanIta maLe. vaLI A lITI karelAM (anDaralAina karelA) vAkayonI noTa ziSyo pAse taiyAra karAve. teo be-traNa ziSyone e kAma sopI detA. AnI pAchaLa emanI dIrghadRSTi rahelI hatI. AvuM kAma hoya eTale koi vyartha kAmamAM parovAya niha. pramAda seve nahi. vaLI A rIte lakhavAthI ApoApa jJAnopArjana thAya ane enA akSaro sudhare. Ama sAdhu Akho divasa svAdhyAya ane lekhana pravRttimAM vyasta rahe.vaLI eka pustakanI noMdha karavAnuM kAma pUruM thAya tyAM bIjuM pustaka taiyAra ja hoya. Ama sAdhu kSaNano paNa pramAda kare e emane pasaMda nahotuM teo kahetA ke paMDita kone kahevAya ? abhyAsa kare te paMDita nahi, paNa samayanuM mUlya samaje te paMDita. zAstramAM paNa kahyuM che: lAM nAnehi paMDitA 'kSaNane samaje te paMDita' teo potAnA ziSyone vAraMvAra A vAkaya kahetA ane pratyeka kSaNane dharmaArAdhanAmAM palaTAvavAnI jikara karatA. vaLI ema paNa kahetA ke mAro koi upAzraya nathI. milakata nathI. are, 111 For Private And Personal Use Only

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ghaDiyALa paNa nathI. paraMtu mArI pAse vArasAmAM ApavA lAyaka eka vastu che ane te judA judA pustakamAMthI tAraNarUpe taiyAra karelI A noTsa ke DAyarI mArA dareka ziSyone huM mAro A vAraso vaheMcI ApIza. AvI DAyarI para e nAma lakhe ane te ziSyane DAyarI ApI detA. nAnAmAM nAno sAdhu hoya, topaNa ene haiyAnA AdarathI DAyarI arpaNa karatA. jemake rAjasthAnanA bArameDa jillAnA pAdaru gAmamAM vi. saM. 2041mAM jemanI dIkSA thaI evA pakvodayasAgarane DAyarI ApatI vakhate emaNe lakhyuM hatuM, "munirAja zrI padmAdayasAgarajI mahArAjane bheTa.' pUjaya pAsAgarajI mahArAjane AvI DAyarI ApI ane ApatI vakhate emaNe lakhyuM, "mahAna zAsanaprabhAvaka padmasAgarasUrijI mahArAjane arpaNa." potAnA ziSyo prati keTalo badho agAdha Adara ! mAnavaprakRttinI oLakha ane kasoTI Aptajano sAthenA vyavahAramAM thAya che. vyakita samartha hoya, paraMtu enA nikaTanA svajano ke paricArako sAtheno eno vyavahAra tochaDo, hIna ke gussAbhayo hoya. mahAna ciMtaka kArlAila viziSTa prakArano vicAraka hato chatAM tenuM tenI patnI taraphanuM vartana sadaiva tochaDuM ane apamAnajanaka hatuM. guranuM ziSya pratyenuM vartana e ja emanA svabhAvanI kharI pArAzIzI che. pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI potAnA nAnAmAM nAnA ziSyanI ghaNI moTI kiMmata AMkatA hatA. moTAI choDIne emaNe mahAnatA meLavI hatI guru tarIke uccAsane besIne kaThora AcaraNa karAvavAne badale pArAvAra ahobhAva ApIne ziSyonI cetanAne hetathI jagADavA prayAsa karatA hatA. zAstrajJAnano ADaMbara karavAne badale ziSyo para jJAnanI avirata dhArA varasAvI svAdhyAyanI ruci poSatA hatA. pU. A.zrI. kailAsasAgarasUrijIe pote guruvacananA cAbakhA khAdhA hatA, paraMtu ziSyone to sadA sarvadA amIsAgaramAM bhIjavatA rahyA. vaLI navAInI vAta e ke bIjAnI padavI lakhavAnuM barAbara dhyAna ApanAra pU. A. zrI. kailAsasAgarasUrijI khuda potAnA nAmamAM kayAreya "AcArya' ke 'sUri' evuM lakhatA nahi. mAtra lakhANanI nIce kailAsasAgara' evo eka zabda lakhatA. potAnA ziSyo para emane apAra vAtsalya hatuM. pU. padmasAgarajI mahArAjane kayAreka teo padmasarovara kahetA. nAnAmAM nAnA sAdhune paNa 'jI'thI saMbodhatA. A 'jInA uccAraNamAM koI aupacArikatA nahotI, paNa janmajAta svAbhAvika namratA ane sarvajanavyApI Adara hato. pU. AcAryazrI svAdhyAyanI anupama mahattA karatA hatA. uttama zAstrono paddhatisara abhyAsa karavA mATe teo khAsa bhAra mUkatA hatA. mokSano mArga jANyA vinA mokSamArgamAM cAlI zakAtuM nathI, tethI uttama zAstronA adhyayana 11 ra For Private And Personal Use Only

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dvArA mokSano mArga jANavo joie. pU.AcAryazrI vAraMvAra svAdhyAyanA aneka lAbha kahetA. svAdhyAyathI saMzaya haTe, buddhi khIle, bhakita jAge, kuyukita chUTe, satyA-satyano viveka jAge ane abAdhitapaNe tattvano nirNaya thai zake. Atmazakti vadhe. cAritranI nirmaLatA jAge. vaLI AcAryazrI kahetA ke svAdhyAyathI be mahAna guNalAbha thAya. enAthI tejasvitA Ave ane anAsakita jAge. teo ziSyopaniSada'mAM yoganiSTha AcArya buddhisAgarasUrijIe lakhelAM A vacano vAraMvAra potAnA ziSyone yAda karAvatA hatA: "siddhAMtanA svAdhyAya ane zravaNa-mananathI cAra gatinA janma ane maraNa AdinAM du:kho satvare nAza pAme che. bhavabhIru ziSyoe niyamita svacAritrapAlaka banIne yogyatAe siddhAMtanuM zravaNa-mananathI ja vAMcana karavuM joie."(pR. 97) sAdhuonA svAdhyAya mATe eTalI badhI cIvaTa rAkhe ke teo anya sthaLe hoya to kayA dharmagraMthono abhyAsa kare che tenI satata pRcchA karAvatA. emAM jarUra lAge to mArgadarzana ApatA. pote patra lakhe temAM paNa potAnI sAthenA sAdhuo atyAre kyA graMthano svAdhyAya kare che te lakhatA. koi sAdhu vihAra karIne Ave to ene paheluM ja pUche ke hAlamAM zeno abhyAsa cAlI rahyo che? nAnI vayanA sAdhuone to teo satata svAdhyAyanI preraNA ApatA ane emane vakhatovakhata kahetA ke, A ja tamArI pUMjI che. "" koi evo garva le ke me mArA jIvanamAM ATalI aMjanazalAkAo ane pratiSThAo karAvI. AcAryazrIe aneka aMjanazalAkAo ane pratiSThAo karAvI hovA chatAM emanI e ja niHspRhatA hatI. ekavAra zanAlAla TI. zAha nAmanA muMbainA zrAvake AcAryazrIne pUchyuM, "ApanA hAthe keTalI pratiSThA ane aMjanazalAkA thai haze?" AcAryazrIe nikhAlasatAthI kahyuM, "juo bhAi, meM eno AMkaDo mAMDyo nathI ke kadI saravALo karyo nathI. A badhuM meM karyuM che evuM mithyAbhimAna laine pharIe to e vAta khoTI che." AvI AcAryazrInI ni:spRhavRtti hatI. vANImAM saMyama, vRttimAM niHspRha ane jIvananAM vAdivavAdanAM jhera pacAvI jANanAra AcAryazrI jIvananI kaTokaTInI paLomAM paNa kayAreya mijAja gumAvI beThA na hatA. lIMbodarAnA derAsaranI pratiSThA prasaMge dvAra-udghATananI vidhi pUrNa karIne AcAryazrIe vihAra karyo. najIkanA alluvA gAmamAM bapore vihAra karIne 113 For Private And Personal Use Only

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pahoMcavAnA hatA. tyAM thoDo vizrAma laIne AgaLa javAnA hatA. A gAmamAM mukhyatve digaMbaronI vastI hatI. emanA eka upAzrayamAM zrI kailAsasAgarajI mahArAjane UtaravAnI vyavasthA karavAmAM AvI hatI. badhuM pahelethI nakakI hatuM tema chatAM, koNa jANe kema e upAzrayano vyavasthApaka upAzrayane tALuM mArIne kayAMka jato rahyo. pUjaya kailAsasAgarajI tyAM pahoMcyA. joyuM to upAzrayane tALuM. saheje phikara karyA vinA emaNe kahyuM ke gAmanI bahAra koI makAna haze to tyAM paNa utAro karI zakAze. gAma bahAra AvelI zALAnI eka osarImAM teo vizrAma mATe beThA. garamInA divaso hatA. luthI bhaDabhaDato pavana vAto hato. jagyA gAma bahAra hatI. AvI jagyAe AcAryazrIne besavuM paDayuM. lIMbodarAmAM kAma patAvIne zrAvako nIkaLyA. aluvA AvyA. joyuM to upAzrayane tALuM hatuM. evAmAM jANa thaI ke AcAryazrI to osarImAM beThA che. zrAvako tarata tyAM gayA. potAnA dharmagurunI AvI sthiti joIne emanuM haiyuM kakaLI UThyuM. zrAvakoe mAphI mAMgatA kahyuM "are, ApazrIne keTalI badhI takalIpha paDI ? ApaNe upAzrayamAM vyavasthA karI hatI, paNa vyavasthApake dago karyo.' pU. AcAryazrI kahe, "are, juo ! kevI khullI jagyA che ! kevo pavana Ave che?" zrAvako bolI UThyA, " sAhebajI, A pavana nathI. A to garama garama luM che. ATalI badhI garamImAM Apa osarImAM beThA cho ?" pU. AcAryazrI kahe, "garamI garamInuM kAma kare. emAM ApaNe zuM ? " zrAvako manomana AcAryazrIne vaMdI rahyA. temane thayuM ke AcAryazrIne khullA taDakAmAM besADIe topaNa te AvuM ja kahe. saMyamajIvananI sAcI sAdhanAno sahune pratyakSa paricaya thayo. AcAryazrI samanvayavAdI hatA. AthI sahu koIne emanA nirNayamAM akhUTa zraddhA rahetI. muMbaInA goregAMvanA javAharanagaranA zrAvakomAM eka savAla Ubho thayo. emaNe ghara derAsarane sthAne zilpa paddhatithI derAsaranuM nirmANa karavAnuM nakakI karyuM. A tIrthakara dharmanAthajInI pratimAjIne kAraNe zrAvako ghaNA sukhI thayA hatA, tethI pratimAjInuM utthApana karavuM ke nahi evo savAla Ubho thayo. te aMge matabheda jAgyA. eka sabhA maLI. pAMcaso jeTalA zrAvako AvyA. ghaNI carcA thaI, paNa aMte sahue nakakI karyuM ke ApaNe AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjane pUchavuM ane emanA Adeza pramANe karavuM. saMghanA sabhyo pU. AcAryazrI pAse gayA ane pratimAjInA utthApana aMgenI dvidhA pragaTa karI. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajIe kahyuM ke je zubha muhUrta 114 For Private And Personal Use Only

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mdrn ( pratiSThA thaI che ane jemane hAthe thaI che tenAthI vadhu zubha samaye puNyazALI AtmAne hAthe tamArA derAsaranI pratiSThA thaze. saMghanI khUba ja AbAdI ane unnati thaze mATe AvuM zubha kArya satvare zrIsaMghane karavA mArA tamane AzIrvAda che. AcAryazrInA AzIrvAdathI saMghanA agraNIoe saMghane vAta karI ane sahue temano Adeza bhAvapUrvaka svIkAryo. pU. yoganiSTha buddhisAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanA vakhatathI A gacchamAM eka evI praNAlikA cAlatI hatI ke strIne ciThThI ke patra lakhavA nahi. eTaluM ja nahi paNa vyAkhyAna sivAya bahenoe AvavAnuM nahi. mAtra bahAragAmathI AvelA mahemAnone ja darzananI chUTa hatI ane te paNa dUrathI vaMdana karIne cAlyA javAnuM. eka vAra eka nAnA mahArAjanAM bahena bapore mahArAjazrIne maLavA AvyAM. bapore upAzrayamAM AvavAnI to sAva baMdhI ja rahetI hatI. AthI A bahenane jotAM ja kailAsasAgarajIno pracaMDa avAja gAjI UDyo, "khabaradAra ! kadI A rIte bapore AvavAnuM nahi. cAlo, nIce UtarI jAva." cAtumasanA prAraMbha samaye pATa parathI vyAkhyAnanI zarUAtamAM ja kahI detA ke vyAkhyAna sivAya sAdhvIjIoe ke strIoe AvavuM nahi kavacit anivArya hoya ane AvavuM paDe tema hoya to sAthe koIne lIdhA sivAya AvavuM nahi. eka sAdhune dhArmika zikSaka pAse bhaNavA mUkyA hatA. teo AcAramayadiAthI viruddha strIparicaya keLavatA hoya evI AcAryazrIne jANa thaI. AmAM dhArmika zikSaka sahAyabhUta thatA hatA enI khabara paDI. kyAreya vANIthI paNa koIne IjA na thAya tenuM dhyAna rAkhanArA AcAryazrIno gusso bhabhUkI UThyo. emaNe sAdhune sakhata zabdomAM Thapako Apyo. ethIye vizeSa zikSakane paNa upAlaMbha ApatAM kahyuM. huM zuM zikSA Ape che ? meM A sAdhune tamArA para vizvAsa rAkhIne sopyA hatA. mAre tyAM AvI saheje zithilatA nahIM cAle." AvI ja rIte eka vAra AcAryazrI mahuDI hatA tyAre potAnI jAtane "bhagavAna" kahevaDAvatI eka vyakti potAnA anuyAyIonA jUtha sAthe maLavA AvI. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarajIe jANyuM ke teo potAne bhagavAna tarIke oLakhAve che tyAre emaNe gusse thaIne kahyuM. tame tamArI jAtane bhagavAna mAno cho ! bhagavAna koNa banI zake enI tamane khabara che ? bhagavAna kone kahevAya eno kazo khyAla che kharo ? kyAreya ghora jaMgalamAM jaIne varSonI sAdhanA karI che kharI ? bhagavAnanA jIvanamAM tapa-tyAga kevAM hoya tenI tamane jANa che kharI ? 115 For Private And Personal Use Only

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evAmAM sImaMdharasvAmInI vAta nIkaLI. pelI vyakitae potAnAmAM sImaMdharasvAmInuM daivata hovAnuM kahyuM. pU. AcAryazrIe pahelAM emanI vAta sAMbhaLI ane pachI emanA paMjAbI svabhAva pramANe emaNe kahyuM, "kyAM sImaMdharasvAmInI jagyA ane kyAM tame? pahelAM to badho tyAga karIne jaMgalamAM jaI sAdhanA karo, kaSTa sahana karo, tapa karo. pachI bhagavAna thavAnI vAta karo." A prasaMge hAjara rahelA zrAvakoe kadI AcAryazrInuM AvuM rudra svarUpe joyuM nahotuM. AcAryazrIne dharma pratye, bhagavAna pratye ane sImaMdharasvAmI pratye agAdha prIti hatI. ene vize koI pAkhaMDa, banAvaTa ke daMbha sAMkhI zakatA nahotA, AcArazudhdhino emano Agraha emanA jIvanamAM satata jIvaMta hato. AcAranI nAnAmAM nAnI kSatinI zudhdhi mATe paNa ati makkama rahetA hatA. AcArazuddhi mATe aMzamAtra zeha zarama rAkhyA vinA bhalabhalA mAMdhAtAne paNa spaSTa saMbhaLAvI detA hatA. tenI pAchaLa pUjayazrInI dharma pratyenI acala zradhdhA, AcArazudhdhinI jhaMkhanA ane e AtmA pratye apAra vAtsalyano vistAra ja kAraNebhUta hatAM. 116 For Private And Personal Use Only

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na hoye nI su khINa nI raphona lAvanuM lava DI ne ! cha , zA che tenI sAtheno ) nA | zraddhA che. 5. sAma 5.0 9 khAya la Ave te mATe che tema sI / vAgora rajI karI za ke che . tuM ne ne ? (khAra nA mATe e pa to have tene teDI, e ja . vi bit ja prahanI Ima che. . . kAzI ) vANI , (11) AtmabaLanuM ojasa 1 1 7 For Private And Personal Use Only

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sAmAnya AMkho jene "camatkAra' mAne che, te hakIkatamAM to AtmAnI apratima tAkAtamAMthI ApoApa sarjAtI sahaja prakriyA ja hoya che. cAritrabaLamAMthI je pragaTe tene ApaNe vacanasidhdhi kahIe chIe. AtmabaLamAMthI je sarjAya ene ApaNe camatkAra gaNIe chIe. pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAja camatkAramAM mAnatA nahotA, paraMtu AvA saMyamI AtmAo ke AvA mahApuruSo potAnA pavitra aMta:karaNa ane ucca cAAine vaza vartIne je kAMI kare che te camatkAra bane che. pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajInA paricayamAM AvanAra sahu koI AvI koIne koI ghaTanAnI vAta kaheze. hakIkatamAM cAritravAna vyakitano zabda kadI viphaLa jato nathI. __ laukikAnAM hi sAdhunAma vAganuvartute / RSINAM punarAdyAnAM vAcanarthoDanudhAvati // sAmAnya puruSonI vANI arthane anusaratI hoya che, jayAre parama RSivaronI vANI pramANe artha anusare che. ' kayAreka evuM banatuM ke Trenano samaya thavA Avyo hoya, zrAvako svabhAva mujaba raghavATa karatA hoya, tyAre pU. kailAsasAgarajI kahe, "bahu ciMtA na karo. tamane Trena maLI jaze." ane pachI nIkaLavAmAM moDuM thAya. vAhana maLavAmAM vilaMba thAya. gADInA samayathI vIseka miniTa moDA hAMphaLA-phAMphaLA sTezana para pahoMce tyAre jANa thAya ke Trena aDadho kalAka moDI che! koI agiyAra rUpiyA dharmakAryamAM kharcI zake tema na hoya ane pU. AcAryazrI kahetA ke agiyAra lAkha vAparo. tyAre sahune Azcarya thatuM. paNa e vyakitanA jIvanamAM parivartana AvatuM ane eTalI rakama dharmakAryamAM vAparavAno lAbha paNa pAmatI. pU. A. zrI kalyANasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAja sAhebe kahyuM ke teo sahaja bolI jatA ane sAruM thaI jatuM. AvI rIte teozrInA prabhAve vyakitano vaLagADa paNa dUra thayo hato. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI sama gAmamAM hatA. niyama mujaba roja bapore pustaka ane pANI laIne gAma bahAra koI zAMta jagyAe besIne svAdhyAyadhyAna karatA hatA. samo gAmanI bahAra AvelA eka khetaramAM roja jAya. tyAM zAMta sthaLe besIne svAdhyAya kare, svaciMtana kare ane pachI AtmadhyAna kare. khetarano mAlika sAva kAma vinAno hato, kAraNa ke khetaramAM varSothI kazuM UgatuM ja nahotuM. paNa A mahApuruSanAM pagalAM paDayAM pachI enA AnaMdano pAra na rahyo.. e varSe khetaramAM eTaluM badhuM dhAna pAkayuM ke ene zradhdhA besI gaI ke AvA mahApuruSonAM pagalAMthI ja mArI dharatI mahorI UThI. ujajaDa bhUmi hariyALI banI gaI 1 1 18 - C] - For Private And Personal Use Only

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sANaMda tarapha pUjaya A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne prazastabhAva hato. A kSetramAM rahIne teo zAstrAbhyAsa karIne taiyAra thayA hatA, tethI sANaMdano upakAra teo avAranavAra pragaTa karatA hatA. eka vAra sANaMdanA saMghanA AgevAna ane viziSTa vyakita kezavalAla mahetA emanI pAse AvyA. teo codhAra AMsue raDavA mAMDayA. sittera varSanA kezavalAlabhAIne mAthe himAlaya tUTI paDayo hato. emanA ekanA eka putra rasikalAlabhAIne lagna bAda thoDA divasomAM cittabhrama thaI gayo hato. putranA upacAra karavAmAM kezavalAlabhAIe pAchuM vaLIne joyuM nahi. koI upacAra kAragata nIvaDayA nahi, tyAre Akhare mahArAjazrI pAse AvIne AjIjIbharI vinaMtI karatAM kahayuM, "gurudeva ! A umare ekanA eka dIkarAnI AvI durdazA mArAthI jovAtI nathI. Apa kaMIka karo, nahi to AnI haiyAvarALamAM ja huM cAlyo jaiza." pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAje emane sAMtvana ApyuM. kahayuM ke, jIvanamAM Apatti to Ave, paNa jema rAtri pachI divasa hoya che e ja rIte Apatti haMmezA rahetI nathI. sukhanA divaso paNa Ave che. emaNe kahayuM ke, "A vAsakSepa ApuM chuM te kAle savAre ene nAkhajo ane mahinA sudhI nava smaraNano pATha karajo. " yogAnuyoga evuM banyuM ke bIjA divase savAre kezavalAlabhAIe navakAramaMtra gaNIne vAsakSepa nAkhyo ane rasikabhAInI bImArI adRzya thaI gaI. e jamAnAmAM pacAsa hajArano kharca karavA chatAM na maTeluM darda ekAeka a zya thaI gayuM. A rasikabhAIe paNa sANaMda saMghanI pravRttimAM mahattvano phALo Apyo. teo kailAsasAgarajI mATe jIvanabhara agAdha Adara rAkhatA ane kahetA ke "huM jIvuM chuM te emano upakArathI." mahArAjasAheba kaDImAM hatA te samayano A prasaMga che. eka dukhiyArI strIe emane vinaMti karI ke mArA bALakanA mAthAmAM pANI bharAI gayuM che ane mAthuM rabaranI jema phUlI gayuM che. garIba hovA chatAM, ghara nIcovIne zakita pramANe badhA IlAja karI cUkI chuM. dara paMdara divase dIkarAne laIne sAravAra karAvavA amadAvAda jAuM chuM. A bALaka Aje cAra varSanuM thayuM che, paNa enI bImArI gaI nathI." pU.kailAsasAgarajI mahArAja ciMtAmaNi pArzvanAthanA derAsaranI pratiSThA mATe tema ja nItisAgaranI dIkSA mATe kaDImAM padhAryA hatA ane emanI samakSa pelA chokarAnI mAtAe AjIjIbharI vinaMtI karI ane kahyuM, "sAhebajI, have to eka ja IcchA rahI che. bALaka bace tevI koI AzA nathI. mAtra Apa padhAro ane bALakane AzIrvAda Apo eTaluM ja have bAkI che." 119 For Private And Personal Use Only

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pU. kailAsasAgarajIe hasatAM-hasatAM kahyuM, "jo e chokaro bacI jAya ane enI prasannatA hoya to ene dIkSA ApatA rokazo nahi ne ?" Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir mAtAe kahyuM, "mArA jevI abhAgaNanA AvA bhAgya kayAMthI ? guru mahArAja! Apa jaladI padhAro. e chokaro jIvana-maraNa vacce jholAM khAya che. kadAca moDA na paDIe." yU- kailAsasAgarajI e bALakane AzIrvAda ApavA gayA ane kudaratI banyuM evuM ke e bALakanI tabiyata sudharavA lAgI. moTo thatAM ene ApoApa dIkSAno bhAva jAgyo. pU. kailAsasAgarajIe ene zAstrAbhyAsamAM barAbara taiyAra karyo, paNa dIkSA potAne badale pU. padmasAgarasUrijI pAse pAdaruM (rAjasthAna) mAM vi.sa.2040mAM levaDAvI ane sahune kahyuM ke enA bhaviSyano khyAla rAkhIne huM ene pU. padmasAgarajI pAse dIkSA levaDAvuM chuM. AcaryazrI je koi dharmapravRtti karatA te utsAhabhera karatA. koi paNa dharmakArya lIdhuM hoya to ene sAMgopAMga pAra pADavAnI emanAmAM naisargika zakita hatI. vi. sa. 2024mAM mahuDImAM upadhAna tapanI ArAdhanA rAkhI hatI. A samaye doDheka lAkha jeTalI rakama khUTatI hatI. AgevAnonI mUMjhavaNa hatI ke ATalI badhI rakama kai rIte bhegI thaze? toTo paDaze, tenuM zuM karIzuM? badhA pU. A. zrI. kailAsasAgarasUrijI pAse gayA ane AcAryazrIne pUchyuM ke Apa kaMika mArgadarzana Apo. pU. AcAryazrIe kahyuM ke tame ciMtA na karo. badhuM thai raheze. Ama chatAM zrAvako ciMtita hatA. emane ema thatuM ke ATalI moTI rakama bhegI karavI nAnI sUnI vAta nathI. paNa hakIkatamAM e samaye paMcakalyANaka pUjAmAM ja ATalI rakama bhegI thai gai. Ama pU. kailAsasAgarajImAM evI zakti hatI ke je prasaMga le te niSphaLa jato nahi. Arthika sagavaDanA abhAve kazuM aTakatuM nahi. emanI bhAvanAnuM baLa ja eTaluM ke teo je dhAre te sidhdha thatuM. na A ja mahuDImAM pratiSThA samaye dhAryA karatAM khUba moTI saMkhyAmAM aDhAre AlamanA bhAvikajano ekatrita thayA. badhAne thayuM ke have rasoi khUTI paDaze. emaNe eka kapaDuM laine rasoi para DhAMkayuM ane kahyuM ke A kapaDuM rahevA dejo. tamAre AmAMthI jeTalI rasoi kADhavI hoya teTalI kADhajo. banyuM paNa evuM ke badhA nirAMte jamI rahe eTalI rasoi to thai ane thoDIka vadhI paNa kharI. AvI ja rIte lIMbodarAmAM derAsaranI ekaso varSanI ujavaNI prasaMge padhAravAnI vinaMtI karavA mATe keTalAka zrAvako AcAryazrInI pAse aDapodarA gayA.lIMbodarA gAma para AcAryazrIno moTo upakAra hato ane tethI ja sahune teo padhAre tevo Agraha rAkhyo. sAMje ATha vAgye zrAvako aDapodarA pahoMcyA, 120 For Private And Personal Use Only

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G.5 tyAre pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgasUrijI pratikramaNa karatA hatA. pratikramaNa pUruM thAya tyAM sudhI zrAvako bahAra beThA. jevA aMdara pravezyA ke tarata ja pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe zanAbhAIne joIne kahyuM, "kema, lIMbodarAmAM koI dhArmika prasaMga yojayo lAge che? huM jarUra AvIza." badhA zrAvako vicAramAM paDI gayA. hajI ApaNe kazuM kahyuM paNa nathI ane ApaNA manano bhAva kaI rIte pUjaya kailAsasAgarajI kaLI gayA haze?badhAnAM mastaka A mahApuruSanA caraNe jhUkI gayA. lIMbodarA gAmanAM derAsaranAM ekaso varSa pUrAM thatAM hovAne nimitte dhumADAbaMdha gAma jamADayuM. gAmanA jaino ja nahi, paNa jainetaro paNa AmAM Agrahabhera sAmela karavAmAM AvyA. badhAnI ekasAthe rasoI karavAmAM AvI. evAmAM janasamUha ghaNo vadhI gayo. ATalI rasoI to khUTI paDaze evI dahezata jAgI. zrI popaTalAla ravacaMda ane zrI zanAbhAI zAha jevA AgevAnoe AcAryazrI AgaLa potAnI ciMtA pragaTa karI. AcAryazrIe kahyuM ke je rasoI taiyAra karI hoya tenA para A cAdara pAtharajo ane A vAsakSepa nAkhajo. paNa saheje ciMtA na karazo. banyuM paNa evuM ja ke rasoI khUTI nahi. kailAsasAgarajI mANasA ane agAsamAM hatA tyAre paNa AvI ghaTanA banI hatI. zuM A camatkAra haze? khuda pU. kailAsasAgarajI AvA camatkAramAM mAnatA nahotA, to A thatuM haze kaI rIte? AcAryazrI bhadrakarasUrIzvarajI mahArAje kahyuM, "AvI vyakitanA udgAra ja du:khanA ghAtaka bane che, pApanA nAzaka bane che, muzkelInA nivAraka bane che. emanAmAM apAra vAtsalya hatuM ane ene pariNAme evA AtmAmAMthI nIkaLelA zabdo svAbhAvikapaNe ja sAcA paDe." I.sa. 1948nI A vAta che. me-jUna mahinAmAM kailAsasAgarajIe potAnA bhatrIjA rAmaprakAzajIne eka patra lakhyo hato. e patramAM lakhyuM hatuM ke tame dAdAjInI khUba sevA karajo. A sevAno lAbha lAMbo samaya maLavAno nathI. hakIkatamAM te samaye to rAmakizanadAsajI ghaNA taMdurasta hatA. okaTobara mahinAnA AraMbhe bImArI AvI ane 1948nI 20mI okaTobara dazerAno divasa e emano aMtima divasa banyo. rAmaprakAzajI kahe che, "pU. kailAsasAgarajIne potAnA pitAnA mRtyuno jANe saMketa maLI gayo na hoya! Avo ja banAva ratilAla kAmadAra nAmanA taMtravidhInA abhyAsInA jIvanamAM maLe che. ratilAla kAmadAra sthAnakavAsI jaina hatA, tema chatAM emane pU. kailAsasAgarajI sAthe gADha paricayamAM AvavAnI taka maLI hatI. teone haMmezAM kahetA ke tamArI sidhdhiono lokakalyANamAM ja upayoga karajo. eka 1 2 1 For Private And Personal Use Only

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vAra mahArAjazrI amadAvAdamAM hatA. ratibhAi emanA darzane AvyA. pharI bIje divase paNa darzana-vaMdana mATe AvyA. e divase ratibhAIe kahyuM ke "AvatI kAle rAtre ahIMthI nIkaLIne muMbai javAno chuM. koNa jANe kema, paNa mahArAjazrIe kahyuM, "ratibhAi, kAle nahi, Aje ja jAva." ritabhAine guruvANImAM apAra zradhdhA hatI. mahArAjasAhebane maLyA bAda amadAvAdathI muMbainI TrenanI TikiTa maLe che ke nahi tenI tapAsa karI. TrenanI TikiTa paNa maLI gai ane ratibhAi bIje divase savAre muMbai pahoMcI gayA. muMbai pahoMcyA bAda sAMje sophA para beThA hatA. dharA loko sAthe vAtacIta karatA hatA ane vAta karatA ja ekAeka DhaLI paDayA. emanA mitro vicAravA lAgyA ke zuM mahArAjazrIne Avo koi saMketa maLI gayo haze ke emanA hrayamAMthI ApoApa AvI vANI sarI paDI haze? AvI ja eka ghaTanA mahArAjazrInAM aMtima varSomAM maLe che. 1985nuM e varSa hatuM. A varSe potAnA gRhasthaavasthAnA bhatrIjA rAmaprakAzajIno putra maheza maLavA Avyo. mahezane haMmezAM kahetAM ke navakAra maMtranuM raTaNa karato raheje. eka vAra AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarajI beThA hatA. maheza paNa beTho hato. bAjumAM pU. aruNodayasAgarajI beThA hatA. pU. aruNodayasAgarajI ane maheza bALapaNamAM sAthe rahyA hatA. dIkSA pahelAnI emanI dostI hatI. vAtavAtamAM pU. kailAsasAgarajIe mahezane kahyuM, 'A 1985nA varSamAM tAre be paiDAMvALA (Tu vhIlara) para savArI karavI nahi. vimAnamAM, basamAM ke moTaramAM jaje, paNa Tu vhIlaramAM jato nahi.' mahezane AcAryazrImAM akhUTa zradhdhA hatI. eNe moTara-sAikala 'laoNka' karIne mUkI dIdhI. najIkamAM ja cArTara basa jatI. A basa lakajharI jevI hatI, jemAM' mAtra nakakI karelI vyakitaonI beThaka anAmata rahetI. koine UbhA rAkhavAmAM AvatA nahi. e cArTara basamA roja nokarIe jAya ane pAcho Ave. evAmAM dilhImAM tophAno thayAM. cArTara basano DrAyavara zIkha hato ethI e Avyo nahi. basanA sTenDa para Ubhelo maheza ghera pAcho Avyo ane vicAra karavA lAgyo ke traNa paiDAMvALI rikSAmAM jAuM. enI mammIne paNa kahyuM ke huM rikSAmAM jAuM chuM. evAmAM mahezano mitra vijaya sehagala nIkaLyo, e enI ja kaMpanImAM enjiniara hato. eNe mahezane kahyuM, 'Aje basa nathI to mArI moTara-sAikala para AvI jA.' mahezanA manamAM thoDI dvidhA thai, vijaye pharI Agraha karyo. kahyuM ke moDuM thai gayu che. cAla, jaldI pahoMcI jaie. baMne ophisamAM pahoMcyA. potAnuM kAma karyuM.savAre cArTara basa nahotI AvI, 122 For Private And Personal Use Only

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eTale sAMje paNa maLavAnI zakayatA nahotI. AthI maheza cAlIne javAno vicAra karato hato, paNa enA mitra vijaye kahyuM ke ghaNe dUra gayA pachI tane basa maLaze, ene badale mArI moTara sAikala para AvI jA. mahezanI ophisethI enuM ghara 14 kilomITara dUra hatuM. 13 kilomITara jeTaluM aMtara pasAra thayuM. eka kilomITaranuM aMtara bAkI haze, tyAM eka Traka AvI ane Trake ovaraTeka karavA jatAM moTarasAikala pADI dIdhI. maheza bebhAna banIne rastA para DhaLI paDayo. enA mAthAmAMthI puSkaLa lohI vahetuM hatuM. vijaya sahegalanuM khabhAnuM hADakuM tUTI gayuM, paNa e sadbhAgye bhAnamAM hato. eNe potAnA khamIza ane rUmAlathI mahezanA mAthAmAMthI nIkaLatuM lohI rokyuM. koie ene hospiTalamAM pahoMcADayo. dhIredhIre e bhAnamAM Avyo. paNa hajI bhayamukata thayo nahoto. ene viziSTa sAravAra maLe te mATe akasmAtathI thayelI IjAnI sAravAranA niSNAta (ekasIDanTa spezyAlIsTa) DaoNkaTarane bolAvavAmAM AvyA, baso kesamAMthI aDadho Tako paNa na bace evI gaMbhIra ijA mahezane thai hatI. bhAnamAM AvelA mahezane dRDha zradhdhA hatI ke ene kazuM nahi thAya. enA gaLAmAM pU. kailAsasAgarajInI mudrAvALuM tAvIja paDayuM hatuM. be-traNa divasa bAda mahezane rajA maLI, paNa ene mAnasika zrama levAnI DokaTare nA pADI hatI. vIsa-ekavIsa divasa pachI e ophisamAM potAnI nokarI para Avyo. maheza jayAre bhAnamAM Avyo tyAre e tadaina nirbhaya hato. eNe kahyuM ke enA para to guru mahArAjanA AzIrvAda che. Aje paNa e maheza nokarI karavA jAya te agAu pAMceka miniTa AcAryazrInI chabI samakSa Ubho rahe che. manomana AzIrvAdanI prArthanA kare che ane pachI ja nokarI karavA jAya che. ja AcAryazrInI pratibhAnA sparze aneka vyaktionA jIvanamAM dhArmikatA ane sAttvikatAe praveza karyo che. e badhAmAMthI eka dRSTAMtarUpa sumatibhAi haraDenI vAta joie. vi. sa. 2017mAM pU. kailAsasAgarajI sametazikharanI pratiSThA karAvIne muMbai AvyA, tyAre sumatibhAine pahelIvAra emano paricaya thayo. vi. saM. 2017no pU. kailAsasAgarajIno cAturmAsa mATuMgAmAM hato. sumitabhAi kApaDano vepAra kare. tamAkunA pAnanI bhAre Adata. rAtanA bAra vAge paNa pAna vinA na cAle. ekavAra pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAjanuM vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLavA gayA. tyAM temanI sAdI, saraLa ane hRdayasosarI UtarI jAya tevI vANI sumatibhAinA hRdayane sparzI gai. vyAkhyAnamAM bhArekhama alaMkAro nahi. agharI vAto nahi. 123 For Private And Personal Use Only

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mahArAjazrInA vyAkhyAnanuM eka ja vAkya sumatibhAInuM jIvanaparivartana karI gayuM. pUjaya kailAsasAgarajI mahArAje kahyuM, "peTa bharAya eTaluM AjIvikAnuM sAdhana hoya to paTAro bharI manuSyajIvana veDaphI nAMkhavuM nahi." A vAkya sumatibhAInA aMta:karaNane coTa lagAvI gayuM. pachI emaNe pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAja pAse maLavAno samaya mAgyo. rAtre maLavA gayA. pachI to roja saMta-samAgama cAle ane sumatibhAInA hRdayamAM navI navI bhAvanAo jAge. dhIre dhIre teo eka nirNaya para AvyA. have manuSyajIvana veDaphI nAMkhavuM nathI. mULajI jeThA mArkeTamAM emano cAluM dhaMdho sameTI lIdho. ghaNAe kahyuM ke "chokarAo nAnAM che. hajI emane bhaNAvavA-paraNAvavA paDaze. vaLI dhaMdho cAlu haze to tarata dukAneya lAgI jaze. nahi to muzkelIno pAra nahi rahe. AjIvikA calAvazo kaI rIte?" sumatibhAIne dharmano raMga lAgI gayo hato. emaNe kahyuM, "juo, Aje tame chokarAMone dhaMdho ApIne jAva, mUDI ApIne jAva, paNa emanA karmamAM kazuM nahi hoya to kaMI nahi thAya. karmamAM haze to maLaze.". Ama sumatibhAIe dhaMdho baMdha kayo. pUjaya kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM ke sumatibhAI, AMbelanI oLI karo. paNa AMbelanI oLI thAya kaI rIte? tamAkunA pAna vinA to saheje na cAle. ekavAra mahArAjazrInA upadezathI covIsa kalAka pAna choDayuM hatuM to have AMbelanI oLImAM choDI do. AMbelanI oLI pUrI thaI. pachI pharI pU. kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM ke "have pAna choDayuM che to choDI ja jANo." eka vakhata evo hato ke sumatibhAIne rAtanA bAra vAgyA sudhI pAna joIe. divasanI daseka kapa cA joIe ene badale emaNe pa00 bela karyA. traNa upadhAna karyA. chellAM vIsa varSathI kAyama AMbela pachI besaNuM kare che. AvuM parivartana muMbaInA zanAlAla zAhanA jIvanamAM jovA maLe che. teo AcArya rajanIzanI vicArasaraNImAM rasa dharAvatA hatA ane emanI traNa zibiromAM bhAga lIdho hato. zanAbhAI jANatA hatA ke zarIra ane AtmA judA che, paraMtu jayAre emanA moTAbhAI gujarI gayA tyAre zanAbhAInA dilane kArI ghA lAgyo. zarIranI nazvaratA ane AtmAnI zAzvatatAnI jANakArI hovA chatAM emanA manane koI samAdhAna thatuM nahotuM. 1964mAM mahuDImAM zanAbhAIne pUjaya kailAsasAgarajIno meLApa thayo. evAmAM pUjaya kailAsasAgarajInA svAthya aMge vAta nIkaLI ane emaNe kahyuM 1 2 4 For Private And Personal Use Only

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ke DaoNkaTara ema kahe che ke mAruM hRdaya pahoLuM thai gayuM che. zanAbhAie pUchayuM, "paNa Apane enAthI koi takalIpha che kharI? pUjaya kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM, 'zarIrane vyAdhi che e sAcuM, paNa enAthI mArI Atmika zAMtimAM koi pharaka paDayo nathI. huM apUrva zAMti anubhavuM chuM.' A samaye . zanAbhAine deha ane AtmAno bheda samajAyo. emaNe potAnA vaDIla baMdhunA du:khada avasAnanI gaLagaLA avAje vAta karI. e sAMbhaLIne pU. kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM, 'A bhinnatA jANIe pachI bAhya vighna Ave to paNa AtmAne koi dhakko lAgato nathI. tamArA vaDIla baMdhunA avasAnathI tamane bhAre AghAta lAgyo, paNa je kALe je samaye je jayAM banavAnuM ja che te thaze ja. khuda bhagavAna mahAvIra jevAne upasarga sahana karavA paDayAM che. AvA upasarga samaye devarAja indrae kahyuM ke ame tamArI sahAyamAM UbhA rahIe. koi ajJAnI herAna na kare e mATe ame ApanI cokI karIe. tyAre bhagavAnane nA pADI. jo bhagavAnane karmanI nirjarA karavI paDe to pachI ApaNe koNa ?' pU. kailAsasAgarajInI saraLa vANI zanAbhAine sparzI gai ane e pachI emaNe gurusvarUpe ja AcAryazrIne joyA. vi. saM. 2025nI sAyananI pratiSThA pahelAM phatehacaMdajI kesarIcaMdajI roja pUjA-sevA-darzana kare. paryuSaNanA vyAkhyAna sAMbhaLe, paraMtu kailAsasAgarajI mahArAjanA samAgamamAM AvyA pachI emaNe eka varSItapa karyu. emanA patnI caMdrAvatIbahene be varSItapa karyAM. baMne varSothI ukALeluM pANI pIve che ane emanA patnIe to rAtribhojanano tyAga paNa karyo che. zrI phatehacaMdabhAi AcAryazrInA najIkanA saMparkamAM AvyA ane emane paNa AcAryazrInI prabhAvaka zaktino paricaya thayo. enA keTalAka mArmika prasaMgo joie. ekavAra phatehacadajInA patnInA peTamAM sakhata du:khAvo thayo. DaoNkTare kahyuM ke emane oparezana karAvavuM paDaze. du:khAvo keme sahana thAya nahi. AthI DaoNkTara phatehacaMdajInA patnI caMdrAvatIbahenane ghenamAM ja rAkhatAM. pU. kailAsasAgarajI pAlItANAmAM birAjamAna hatA. emaNe tyAMthI vAsakSepa mokalAvyo. caMdrAvatIjIne vAsakSepa nAMkhyo ane traNa divasamAM sAruM thai gayuM. sAyananI vi. saM. 2025nI pratiSThA vakhate phiyATa gADI para mUkIne maganuM tapeluM lAvavAmAM AvatuM hatuM. A tapeluM moTaranI boneTa para paDayuM. 125 For Private And Personal Use Only

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krizciyana DrAyavara to mUMjhAI gayo. ene hatuM ke moTaranA kevA hAlahavAla thaze, paNa hakIkatamAM moTarane kazuM ja na thayuM. eka gobo paNa na paDyo! krizciyana DrAyavare pUchayuM ke Ama kema? eNe to jiMdagImAM AvuM kadI joyuM ja nahotuM. phatehacaMdajIe kahyuM ke A to dharmano pratApa che! sAyananI pratiSThA vakhate mANaso vadhI gayA. ATalA badhA mANasone mIThAI kaI rIte pUrI paDaze? rasoI karI hatI 15,000 mANasanI paNa jamanArA eka-be hajAra nahi paNa pUrA 22 hajArathI vadhu hatA. pUjaya kailAsasAgarajI rasoDAmAM padhAryA, kahyuM ke dIvo karo ane mIThAIne kapaDuM DhAMkI rAkho. banyuM evuM ke paMdara hajAranI rasoImAM 2 2 hajAra mANaso nirAMte jamyA! vi. saM. 202 panI jeTha suda 6nA divase sAyanamAM pratiSThA hatI. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAje sAyananI jaina sosAyaTImAM rahetA phatehacaMda kesarIcaMdane bhagavAnanA mAtA pitA thavA mATe ane aMjanazalAkA mATe preraNA ApI. tera divasa bhavya ujavaNI karavAmAM AvI. navAInI vAta e che ke jayAM sudhI pratiSThA hatI tyAM sudhI A vistAramAM koI DaoNkaTarane tyAM davA levA gayuM nahi. Avo pratiSThAno prabhAva hato! pratiSThA vakhate phatehacaMdajI pAse je kaMI mUDI hatI, te vAparI nAkhI. Ama chatAM pU. kailAsasAgarajIe pahelI mALa paheravAnuM kahyuM. emane kahyuM hatuM ke barAbara Teko Apajo. phatehacaMdajI cAhIne moDA gayA. mahArAjasAhebanuM vyAkhyAna cAlatuM hatuM. emaNe phatehacaMdajIne AgaLa bolAvyA. phatehacaMdajIe kahyuM ke, huM ghI boluM ane kAle kAMI thAya to?" mahArAjasAhebe kahyuM ke, "tamane devAdAra nahi thavA daIe." hakIkatamAM banatuM paNa evuM ke phatehacaMdajI jeTalo kharca kare, tenAthI bamaNI ene prApti thatI. emaNe kaLaza para sonuM caDhAvyuM. bAra mahinAmAM eTaluM ja prApta thayuM. amadAvAdanI mirAmbikA sosAyaTInA zrAvako oraNa gAmamAMthI gharaderAsara lAvyA hatA. sumatinAtha bhagavAnanI manorama pratimAjI hatI, paranuM cAra-cAra varSathI jamInanA abhAve kazuM thatuM nahotuM. sahue e ghara derAsara pAchuM ApI AvavAno vicAra karyo. tera varSa pahelAMnI A vAta che. vi. saM. 2032nuM varSa hatuM. pU. kailAsasAgarajI mahArAja ahIM padhAryA hatA. teo rAjendra zAhane tyAM hatA. rAtre be thI cAra daramiyAna dhyAna karavAnA hovAthI zrAvakane paNa nahi 1ra6 For Private And Personal Use Only

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Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir EAS pravezavA tAkIda karI hatI ane savAre cAra vAge UThIne teo ekAeka bahAra cAlI nIkaLyA. emanI sAthe rAjendrabhAi zAha hatA. temaNe eka jamIna para vAsakSepa nAkhyo ane kahyuM ke A jamIna para derAsara banAvo. banyuM evuM ke jamInanA mAlika naTavarabhAi jIvAbhAi paTela sAme cAlIne maLavA AvyA ane pariNAme cAra varSathI je kAma khoraMbhe paDayuM hatuM ane sahu koi nAsIpAsa thai gayA hatA te mahArAjazrInI preraNAthI saphaLa thayuM. mirAmbikA derAsaranI zilAropaNa-vidhinA prasaMganuM Ayojana thayuM hatuM. pANI Ave tyAM sudhI khanana karavAnuM hatuM. AgalA divase rAtre konTrAkTare 20 phUTa UMDe khodyuM hatuM, paNa pANI AvyuM na hatuM. eNe AvIne kahyuM ke zilAropaNa-vidhi kAle thai zakaze nahi. pU. kailAsasAgarajI kahe ke, "kAle zilAropaNa-vidhi thavI joie. tame AkhI rAta mahenata karo. jarUra pANI sudhI pahoMcI jazo." eTalA ja majUro hovA chatAM ane kazIya vizeSa madada vinA khodakAma cAlu rAkhyuM. savAre 42 phUTa jeTaluM UMDuM khodAi gayuM ane pANI AvyuM. eka rAtamAM 42 phUTa UMDe sudhI khodAi jAya te camatkAra ja kahevAya! kALanA pravAhamAM paNa na bhUMsAya ke bhulAya evI eka ghaTanA vi. saM. 2029mAM banI. amadAvAdanA elisabrIja vistAramAM AvelI vItarAga sosAyaTInA upAzrayamAM pUjaya pravartaka munizrI indrasAgara mahArAja kALadharma pAmyA. A kAraNe AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajIne vItarAga sosAyaTImAM padhAravAnuM banyuM. pachInA divase vahelI savAre teo devakInaMdana sosAyaTInA upAzraye pAchA javAnA hatA. A divasomAM varasAde mAjhA mUkI hatI. satata mUzaLadhAra varasAda cAlu rahyo ane bIjI bAju najIkamAM AvelI sAbaramatImAM pUra vadhatuM rahyuM. have karavuM zuM? AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarajIno cAturmAsa devakInaMdana upAzrayamAM hato. saMvatsarIno puNya divasa Avyo. paNa bhAdaravA suda cothanA A divase mUzaLadhAra varasAda cAlu rahyo. zrAvako vicAramAM paDayA. karavuM zuM? varasAda cAlu hoya ane AcAryazrI Ave e to azakya hatuM. ATalI moTI ghora virAdhanA A saumyamUrti AcAryazrI kare ja nahIM. kSamApanAno divasa Avyo. vItarAga sosAyaTInA upAzrayamAM ja pUjaya kailAsasAgarasUrijIe sAMvatsarika pratikramaNa karyuM. varasAda cAlu hato. pUra vadhatAM jatAM hatAM. najIkanI giranAra sosAyaTI AkhI taNAi gai hatI. AjubAjunA vistAromAM pUranAM pANI dhasI rahyAM hatAM. 127 For Private And Personal Use Only

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rAtanA nava vAgyA. cAre bAju pANI vadhatuM jatuM hatuM. Thera Thera pUramAM sapaDAyelAonA karuNa avAjo saMbhaLAtA hatA. polIsa moTaramAM pharIne cetavaNI ApatI hatI. lokone potAnAM makAna khAlI karI surakSita sthaLe javA mAIka dvArA kahetI hatI. zrAvaka upAzrayamAM dhasI AvyA. pUjya AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajIne vinaMtI karI. zrAvakoe kahyuM pUranAM pANI vadhI rahyAM che. najIkanI AkhI sosAyaTI pUranAM pANImAM ghasaDAI gaI che. bIjI sosAyaTIonAM makAnomAM pUranuM pANI pharI vaLyuM che. koInA makAnano eka mALa DUbI gayo che, to koInuM AkhuM makAna DUbI gayuM che. koI jIva bacAvavA bhAgI chUTyA che to koI makAnanI agAsI para caDI madada mATe bUmo lagAve che. polIse paNa A sthAna khAlI karavAnI cetavaNI ApI dIdhI che. have Apa cAlo.' - AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarajIe svasthatAthI kahyuM "juo, devAdhideva sImaMdharasvAmInA jJAnamAM je samaye je sthaLe je thavAnuM haze tene vizvanI koI zakti mithyA karI zakaze nahIM. pachI ATalI badhI phikara zAne ?" zrAvakoe pharI karagaratAMmAM kahyuM, "ame Apane mUkIne javAnA nathI. Apa nahIM Avo to ame paNa nahIM jaIe. paraMtu amane ahIM rahevAmAM sahunA jAnanuM jokhama lAge che.' AcAryazrIe kahyuM "juo, Aje sAMvatsarika pratikramaNa karatAM meM jIvamAtrane khamAvyA che. have varasatA varasAdamAM huM bahAra jAuM to keTalA badhA jIvonI virAdhanA thaze. A mane saheje maMjUra nathI. A upAzrayanuM eka pagathiyuM paNa huM nIce UtaravA mAMgato nathI.' zrAvakoe joyuM ke AcAryazrI emanA nirNayamAM makkama hatA. pUrano bhaya emane leza mAtra calita karI zake tema nahoto. jIvanabhara saMyamadharmanuM pAlana karanAra kasoTInI paLe to saheje cUke nahIM. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarajI mahArAja e bhayaMkara kALarAtrie upAzrayamAM rahyA. saMyamadharmanI je pratijJA devAdhideva samakSa lIdhI hatI, ene aMza mAtra paNa aticAra lAge nahIM tenI jAgRti rAkhI. upAzrayamAM pUranA pANI dhasavA lAgyo ane vadhavA lAgyAM. cha thI sAta phUTa pANI bharAI gayuM. sAthe rahelA zrAvakonA jIva adhdhara thaI gayA, paraMtu saMsArI ane sAdhunI sthiti ane gatimAM bheda hoya che. AcAryazrI to upAzrayanA mALiyA para caDI gayA ane prasannatApUrvaka kAusagna dhyAnamAM rahyA hatA. cAre bAju mahAsAgaranI mAphaka hiloLA letuM pANI, najIkamAM ja ciMtAgrasta zrAvako ane chatAM AcAryazrInI Atmika zAMtimAM kyAMya ciMtAnI eka rekhA paNa najare paDe nahIM 128 For Private And Personal Use Only

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zrAvakoe A kALarAtri mAMDa mAMDa pasAra karI. prabhAta thayuM chatAM cAre bAju pANIno mahAsAgara, jalazAyI thayelAM makAno ane sapaDAyelA lokonI cIso sivAya kazuM saMbhaLAtuM nahotuM. evAmAM khabara AvI ke najIkanI giranAra sosAyaTInA batrIse batrIsa baMgalA pANInA pUramAM taNAi gayA. sosAyaTInI jagyAe vipharelI vAghaNa jevI sAbaramatIna jaLa hiloLA letA hatAM. vItarAga sosAyaTInA A upAzrayamAM paNa pUranAM pANI dhasamasatAM AvatAM hatAM. sAteka phUTa jeTaluM pANI hatuM, chatAM koI evo prabhAva kAma karato hato ke A upAzrayanI eka kAMkarI paNa kharI nahIM. hajI pUra vadhavAnI pAkI zakyatA hatI. amadAvAdanA jaina agraNIo pUjaya AcAryazrI aMge bhAre ciMtA sevI rahyA hatA. zreSThIvarya kastUrabhAI lAlabhAiM, jIvAbhAI pratApazI, kAntilAla ghIyA jevA rAjanagaranA pratiSThita zrAvako AcAryazrIne sthaLAMtara mATe vinaMtI karatA hatA. helikopTaranI sahAyathI anya sthaLe javA kahetA hatA. AcAryazrIe kahyuM, "mArA AyuSyano aMta ahIM ja thavAno hoya to niraticAra rIte saMyamadharmanI ArAdhanApUrvaka kALadharma pAmavA dejo. paraMtu vAhanAdino upayoga karavAnI apavAda rUpe paNa chUTa jANI nathI. je samaye je sthaLe je thavAnuM haze tema ja thaze." AcAryazrInA draDha AtmavizvAsane joIne sahu daMga thaI gayA. ciMtAgrasta zrAvakone saMyama dharmanA prabhAvano khyAla Avyo. zrAvakone motanI ciMtA hatI, tyAre AcAryazrI to jIvana ane mRtyune AMbI gayA hatA. dhIre dhIre pUranA pANI osaravA lAgyAM. daseka vAgye pANI UtarI gayuM. varasAda aTakI gayo. AcAryazrI tyAMthI vihAra karIne devakInaMdana AvyA. AcAryazrInA jIvanamAM satata AvI jAgRti jovA maLatI. kavacitu. svAthyane kAraNe vaidya DaoNkaTara Adi pAse sAravAra levI paDatI. AmAM nAnAmAM nAno aticAra lAge to paNa AcAryazrIno AtmA kakaLI UThato. eTaluM ja nahIM paNa bIje divase AyaMbila AdithI prAyazcitta karI letA. dharaNIdhara sosAyaTImAM rahetA zAMtibhAI emanuM oparezana karAvavA amerikA gayA. hRdayanuM oparezana ghaNuM gaMbhIra hatuM. DaoNkaTarone paNa bahu AzA nahotI. jatA agAu teo mahArAjazrInA AzIrvAda levA AvyA. tyAre emaNe vAsakSepa nAkhIne kahyuM. "tamane kAMI nahIM thAya. basa, navakAra gaNajo." 129 For Private And Personal Use Only

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dharaNIdharamAM pratiSThAnuM muhUrta mAgavAmAM AvyuM. emaNe kahyuM ke zAMtibhAi amerikAthI Avaze pachI ApIza. hakIkatamAM zAMtibhAi amerikAmAM atyaMta jokhamI oparezana karAvavA gayA hatA. zAMtibhAi oparezana karAvIne hemakhema pAchA AvyA. AvI ja ghaTanA zrI yu. ena. mahetA (ToranTa leboreTarIjha)nA jIvanamAM banI hatI. teone korDomA nAmano kensarano vyAdhi thayo hato. AnA upacAra mATe amerikA jatA hatA. DaoNkaTaroe kahyuM ke AvA dardInuM AyuSya bahu TUMkuM hoya che. vadhumAM vadhu chaeka mAsa. teo pUjaya AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarajI mahArAjanA AzIrvAda levA gayA, tyAre AcAryazrIe kahyuM, "kazo bhaya rAkhazo nahi. navakAranuM satata smaraNa karajo. tamAre to saMdha kADhavAno che." Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir ane hakIkatamAM banyuM paNa evuM ke zrI yu. ena. mahetA videzanI sAravAra laine pAchA AvyA ane saMgha kADhayo. pUjaya padmasAgarajI mahArAja dakSiNa bhAratanI dharmayAtrAe jatA hatA. pahelI ja vAra ajANI bhUmi para teo pravAsa karI rahyA hatA. vaLI tyAM koi vizeSa paricaya paNa nahoto. gurudevanA AzIrvAda levA mATe mahesANA gayA. A samaye AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarajIe kahyuM ke, "tame jinazAsananI suMdara prabhAvanA karazo. tamAro ziSyaparivAra paNa vadhaze. eka Dajhana ziSyone laine Avazo ane tamArA hAthe ghaNAM jinamaMdironI aMjanazalAkA ane pratiSThA thaze." pUjaya padmasAgarajIe natamastake gurunA AzIrvAda svIkAryA. emane kalpanA paNa nahotI ke ATaluM badhuM thaze, paraMtu dakSiNa bhAratanI yAtrAmAM pUjaya padmasAgarajI dvArA apUrva dharmabhAvanA thai. aneka ziSyo thayA. jinazAsananI prabhAvanA thai. gurudevanA aMtaranA AzIrvAda evA hatA ke teo gujarAta choDe te pahelAM ja pU. padmasAgarajInI preraNAthI traNa pratiSThA thaI. zreSThIvarya zeTha zrI kastUrabhAi lAlabhAie amadAvAdamAM atulanI pratiSThA emane hAthe karAvavAnI vinaMtI karI. bIjI pratiSThA sUrata najIkanA taDakezvaramAM thai ne trIjI pratiSThA muMbainA vAlakezvaramAM thai. Ama eka varSamAM traNa to pratiSThA thai ane te pachI pUjaya padmasAgarajI mahArAjano dakSiNano pravAsa atyaMta dharmaprabhAvanA karanAro banyo. A badhI ghaTanAo zuM sUcave che? Ane camatkAra na kahI zakAya. AcAryazrIe pote jIvanabhara AvA camatkArono virodha karyo che. Ane AtmabaLanuM teja kahevAya. cAritrazIla prabhuparAyaNa AtmAmAMthI je kaMi 130 For Private And Personal Use Only

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svAbhAvika rIte pragaTa thAya che e jagatanI racanAmAM ane vyavahAranI paristhatimAM ghaNuM parivartana sarje che. AcAryazrInA jIvanamAMthI AvA aneka prasaMgo sAMpaDe che. ahIM to mAtra AtmabaLanAM osano paricaya sAMpaDe teTalA pramANabhUta prasaMgo ja AlekhyA che. 131 For Private And Personal Use Only

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mahAna vibhUtinI vizeSatA e che ke emane jayAre potAnI bhUla samajAya che tyAre mAtra pazcAttApa karIne aTakI jatA nathI, paraMtu bIjAo AvI bhUla na kare te mATe sakriya prayatna paNa kare che. potAnA jAgaraNano sahune lAbha maLe, tema vAMche che. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAja to bIjAnI bhUla hoya ane pote prAyazcitta karanAra mAnavI hatA, jayAre potAnI bhUla aMge to te keTalo badho vicAra karatA haze! AthI emanA sAdhujIvanamAM satata pratimAjI bharAvavAnI cAhanA dekhAya che. zakya hoya teTalA pratimAjInI aMjanazalAkA karAvavI tema ja pratiSThA karAvavI, e aMge emanAmAM apAra utsAha pragaTyo hato. bAra mahine eka lAkha pratimAjI bharAvavAnI teo bhAvanA rAkhatA hatA. Ama karIne teo kahetA ke pote bhUtakALamAM bhagavaMta pratimAjInI AzAtanA karI che, tenA doSamAMthI mukta thavA mATe teoe jayAM jayAM derAsaronA jIrNodhdhAra cAlatA hoya tyAM sukhI-saMpanna zrAvakone upadeza ApIne zrAvako dvArA moTI rakamono lAbha levaDAvatA. cheka aMtimakALe paNa teo mevADanAM derAsarano jINodhdhAra thAya tenI bhAvanA dharAvatA hatA. A aMge teo kahetA ke bhavAMtaramAM paNa A paramAtmA pratye e paththara che evo aMzamAtra paNa vikalpa na Ave te mATe pratimAjI bharAvuM chuM tIrthAdhirAja zatruMjaya pratye emane akhUTa zradhdhA hatI. eka divasa pa. pU. AcAryazrI kalyANasAgarasUrIzvarajIe pUchayuM ke zatruMjaya mahAtIrthamAM vagara mAMgye ghaNI Avaka thAya che to tene badale bIjA sthaLe jayAM jarUra che tyAM apAvavA upadeza Apo to kevuM? ghaNI vAra to koIne jANa na thAya te rIte keTalIye rakama teo zatruMjaya tIrthAdhirAjane arpaNa karavAno sadupadeza karatA. A aMge pU. AcAryazrIe kahyuM ke potAnA dIkSAkALanA AraMbhamAM tIrthAdhirAja zatruMjapa para gayA hatA. paraMtu e samaye emane mUrtipUjAmAM vizvAsa nahoto. eka vakhata Ane paththara kahenArA pote keTalI badhI azAtanA karI? je mahAtIrtha para sidhdhasena divAkara ane kaLikALasarvajJa hemacaMdrAcArya jevA samartha jJAnI bhagavaMto saMgha laIne AvyA, evA mahAna tIrtha pratye pote kevI daiSTi dAkhavI? Ano zoka ane pazcAttApa emanA jIvanamAM satata rahyo. e pachI to A tIrthanI yAtrAe jatAM emanuM haiyuM nAcI UThatuM hatuM. zrI sidhdhAcalajInuM caityavaMdana lAgaNIthI gadgadita avAje gAI UThatA hatA, "zrI zatruMjaya sidhdha-kSetra, dIThe durgati vAre, bhAva dharIne je caDe, tene bhava pAra utAre (1) aMnata sidhdhano eha ThAma, sakala tIrthano rAya, 133 For Private And Personal Use Only

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pUrva navANuM rikhavadeva, jayAM ThaviA prabhu pAya (2) sUraja kuMDa sohAmaNo, kavaDa jakSa abhirAma, nAbhi-rAyA-kula-maMDaNo, jinavara karUM praNAma (3) teozrI vicAre che ke A kevuM bhavya tIrtha ke jayAM prathama tIrthakara ane mAnavasaMskRtinA Adi-sthApaka bhagavAna RSabhadeva pUrva navvANuM vAra samosaryA hatA! covIsa tIrthakaromAMthI zrI neminAtha bhagavAna sivAyanA trevIsa tIrthakaroe sakala tIrthamAM rAjA samA zatruMjaya parathI vizvane jaina dharmano saMdeza Apyo. jenA darzana mAtrathI AtmA mokSe javAnI yogyatA prApta kare evuM A bhavya tIrtha jotAM emano AtmA pulakita thaI UThayo! AMkhamAM AMsu sAthe pote karelA aparAdhanuM prAyazcitta karyuM. tIrthaMkara paramAtmAne vinaMtI karI. potAne hAthe thayelA doSanuM visarjana thAya ane Atmazudhdhino ujALanAro paMtha maLe. tIrthAdhirAja zatruMjayanI bhAre bhAvavibhora banIne pUjA karatA hatA. potAnA jIvanamAM pU. A. zrI. kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAje lagabhaga naveka hajAra jeTalI pratimAjIonI aMjanazalAkA karAvI haze. je koI gAmamAM ke zaheramAM jeTalI pratimAjInI jarUriyAta hoya te pramANamAM pratimAjI bharAvavAno upadeza ApatA ane zrAvako teTalA pratimAjI bharAvIne teozrInA zubhahaste aMjanavidhi karAvIne sabahumAne arpaNa karatA. ATalI badhI pratimAonI aMjanazalAkA karAvI, chatAM Aje ekeya pratimAjI upalabdha nathI. koI ne koI derAsaramAM emanI kriyApUrvaka pratiSThA thaI che. lokomAM eka evI dhAraNA hatI ke emanA hAthe aMjanazalAkA pAmelI pratimA Ave to gAmamAM sukha, zAMti ane AbAdI vadhe. dharmanI khUba prabhAvanA thAya. vaLI kudaratI rIte banyuM paNa evuM ke jayAM jayAM emanA hAthe aMjanazalAkA pAmelA pratimAjI gayA, tyAM tyAM zrAvakonI sukha, zAMti ane AbAdImAM ghaNo vadhAro thayo. Ano eka ja dAkhalo joIe to mirAmbikA roDa para AvelA sumatinAthajI jina derAsaranI emaNe pratiSThA karAvI hatI. A samaye 300 pratimAjInI aMjanazalAkA karI hatI. pote jAte vedikAmAM Asana jamAvIne besatA. bhAvathI mUrti jue, nAma jue ane lakhe. aMjanazalAkA vakhate pratimAjIne bhAvapUrvaka nihALatA pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne jovA e eka anero lahAvo hato. mirAmbikA vistAramAM madhyama varganA loko vase che, paraMtu ahIMnA rahIzoe kahyuM ke emanA AzIrvAdathI ame ghaNA sukhI thayA chIe. 134 nuM For Private And Personal Use Only

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t madhyama varganA zrAvakonI sosAyaTI hovAthI mirAmbikAnA derAsaranI pratiSThA mATe pUratuM phaMDa nahotuM. A samaye mahesANAnA sImaMdharasvAmInI peDhIe eka lAkha rUpiyA jinamaMdira nirmANamAM arpaNa karyA. paraMtu AcAryazrInA prabhAvane kAraNe mirAmbikA derAsaranI pratiSThAnA trIjA divase sArI evI rakama bhegI thai ane ekane badale doDha lAkha rUpiyA zrI sImaMdharasvAmI jinamaMdiramAM pAchA mokalI ApyA. pU. AcAryazrIne sImaMdharasvAmI tIrthaMkara paramAtmA pratye dRDha ane apAra zradhdhA hatI. A tIrthaMkaradeva atyAre paNa A lokamAM vidyamAna che. teo tIrthaMkaradevarUpe Thera Thera vicaraNa karIne Aje dharmatIrthanI prabhAvanA karatA rahIne jagatanA jIvo para mahAna upakAra kare che. A kAraNe to prAtaH kALe jainasaMgha teonuM smaraNa karIne potAnA jIvanane kRtArtha kare che. AvA tIrthaMkara paramAtmA ApaNI budhdhine nirmaLa banAvIne tene AtmasAdhanA mATe cAlavAnI zakti Ape tevI bhAvanA pratyeka sAdhu ane zrAvakanA hRdayamAM hoya che. yoganiSTha AcAryazrI budhdhisAgarasUrijIe A bhAvanAne sAkAra karatAM lakhyuM che, "zrI sImaMdhara svAmInuM, zaraNuM eka sAcuM; premImAM premI prabhu, tava viNa sahu kAcuM. zrI sImaMdhara. Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir saMskRta, prAkRta ane gujarAtI bhASAmAM mahAna graMtho racanAra AcAryazrI jJAnavimalasUrine prAkRta bhASAnA hemacaMdrAcAryanuM biruda ApavAmAM AvyuM hatuM. AvA pU. A. jJAnavimalasUrijI zrI sImaMdharasvAmI paramAtmAne vinaMtI karatAM kahe che- "suNa sImaMdhara sAhibA jI! zaraNAgata pratipALa, samartha jaga jana tAravA jI, kara mhArI saMbhALa, kRpAnidhi ! suNa morI aradAsa, huM bhave bhave tumaco dAsa. kRpAnidhi. kRpAnidhi. pUro amArI Aza-- kRpAnidhi. hAro che vizvAsa -- For Private And Personal Use Only AvA sImaMdharasvAmInuM AyuSya 84 lAkha pUrvanuM che. temanI kAyA 500 dhanuSya jeTalI vizALa che. 83 lAkha pUrva sudhI rAjapATa bhogavIne emaNe saMsArano tyAga karyo. dIkSA lIdhA pachI eka hajAra varSa sudhI sAdhanA ane 135

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MOJ AJ tapazcaryA dvArA ghAtI karmono nAza karyo ane teone kevaLajJAna utpanna thayuM. emano dIkSAparyAya eka lAkha pUrvano che. emAMthI eka hajAra varSa bAda karatAM, bAkInAM varSo sudhI teo dharatI para jinezvaradeva tarIke vicaratA rahIne dharmatIrthanI prabhAvanA karaze. AvA sImaMdharasvAmI pratye pU. AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrijI jeTalI ja bhAvanA pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne hatI. pU. yoganiSTha AcArya budhdhisAgarajInI "karuNAvatane vinatI' kAvyamAM je bhAvanA jovA maLe che te ja pU. A zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInA hRdayamAM aharniza guMjatI hatI. AmAM yoganiSTha AcArya budhdhisAgarasUrijI sImaMdharasvAmI paramAtmAne uddezIne kahe che- "sImaMdhara jinarAja! kRpALu tArajo, janma-jarAnA du:khathI, prabhujI! ugArajo; vidyamAna prabhu vAta hRdayanI jANatA, sAcA svAmI sukhakara vinati mAnatA. kALa anAdi mohavaze bahu du:kha lahyAM, cAra gatinAM du:kha vicitra bahu sahyAM; moha vaze dhAmadhUmamAM dharmapaNuM rahyuM, zudhdha svarUpa syAdvAda tattvathI sahyuM. gADariyA pravAhamAM dRSTirAge rahyo, bAhya kriyAruci dhAmadhUmamAM huM paDyo lokottara jinadharma parakhIne navi lahyo gurugama jJAna vinA huM bhavobhava AthaDyo. 3 prabhu! tuma zAsana puNyathI pAmI meM jANIyuM, mithyA darzana jora kumatinuM vyApIyuM, paranuM satya svarUpa jinezvara-dharmanuM raheze jora have kema AThe karmanuM? tuja karuNA eka zaraNa sevakane jANazo, jANI bALaka hAro karuNA ANazo, hAre zaraNuM eka jinezvara jagadhaNI, tAro karuNAvaMta! mahezvara! dinamaNi! budhdhisAgara bALa tumAro karagare, sAcA-svAmi-pasAthe sevaka sukhavare upAdAnanI zudhdhi prabhutA jAgaze, jIta-nagArUM anubhavajJAne vAgaze." pU. AcAryazrI vAraMvAra kahetA ke mAre devalokamAM javuM nathI. mAre to 136 For Private And Personal Use Only

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sImaMdharasvAmI pAse javuM che. emanI pAse jaine dIkSA levI che. teo kahetA ke mArA guru kaheze ke tAre jIvanaparyaMta AyaMbila karavAnuM che to karIza. Ama kahIne hasatAM-hasatAM bALaka jevI saraLatAthI ema paNa kahetA ke, 'paccakhANamAM kadI pola nahi calAvuM. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIno cAturmAsa mahesANAmAM hato tyAre eka rAtre emanI tabiyata bagaDI. ghaNI UlaTIo thai. lohInuM dabANa ghaNuM nIcuM thai gayuM. e samaya daramiyAna pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAjane eka vilakSaNa anubhava thayo, emane evo bhAsa thayo ke teo pote mahAvideha kSetramAM gayA che, jemanI aharniza ArAdhanA karI evA sImaMdharasvAmI emane tyAM maLyA ane kahyuM ke tAro mokSa ahIM thavAno che. AvA virala svapnathI pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInA hRdayamAM AnaMdanI bharatI UThI AvI. AkhuM aMtara utsAhathI UbharAi gayuM. bhAvanAthI chalakAi UThayuM. emaNe vicAra karyo ke A kevuM apUrva svapna kahevAya! AcAryazrI potAnI sAdhanAmAM UMDA UtarI gayA. sImaMdharasvAmInuM ciMtana karavA lAgyA. emaNe vicAra karyo ke bIjAM to ghaNAM tIrtha che, paNa sImaMdharasvAmInuM koi tIrtha nathI. AthI sImaMdharasvAmInuM tIrtha thAya evI manamAM utkaTa bhAvanA jAgI. AcAryazrIe A tIrtha karavAnuM nakkI karyuM. te sthaLa to mahesANA gAmathI be kilomITara dUra hatuM. enI AjubAju bAvaLiyAnI gIca jhADI hatI. ATale badhe dUra kai rIte derAsara thai zake? vaLI AvI jagyAe derAsaranI jALavaNI karavI paNa kaThina hatI. paramAtmAnI pUjA karavA koNa Avaze evo paNa koie savAla karyo. AcAryazrIe kahyuM ke, "mAre to ahIM ja derAsara karavuM che. rAjaya dhorImArga para AvelA A derAsaranI dUra dUra AkAzamAM UMce laherAtI dhajAne joine sahune jijJAsA thavI joie ke A dhajA kyA devamaMdira para laherAtI haze? enuM UMcuM zikhara joine enA haiyAmAM dUrathI ja darzana karavAnI puNyabhAvanA jAgavI joie. AcAryazrIe kahyuM ke dhorImArga parathI AvatAM jatAM loko ahIM vizrAma le, prabhubhakti kare, mATe derAsara to ahIM ja karavuM che. zrAvakomAM paNa derAsara aMge jAtajAtanI ciMtA jovA maLatI hatI, paNa AcAryazrImAM apAra zradhdhA hatI. AcAryazrIe kahyuM, "tame kazI ciMtA na karo. badhuM AnaMdamaMgaLa thaze.". na ochAbolA AcAryazrInA ATalAM vAkyo sUjhavALA zrAvakone pUratAM thai rahyA. emaNe zilpazAstramAM "kailAsaprAsAda" kahevAmAM Ave che tevA maMdiranI 137 For Private And Personal Use Only

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yojanA karI. kailAsa parvatanA jevuM unnata ane vizALa devamaMdira evo Ano bhAva che. AcAryazrI mahesANAthI amadAvAdamAM AvyA. dasa lAkhanA kharcathI taiyAra thanArA vizALa ane bhavya derAsaranuM Ayojana karyuM. AcAryazrIe koI kAma potAne mAthe rAkhIne karyuM nathI. teo to mAtra preraNA ApatA. AnuM kAraNa e ke saMsthAnA kAmamAM ghaNuM sahana karavuM paDe. sAdhunI ArAdhanAmAM paNa aMtarAya Ubho thAya ane tethI teo mAtra preraNA ApIne aTakI jatA, paNa preraNAnA pratApe kAma sAkAra thatuM. emaNe. ramaNabhAI zAha, caMpakabhAI haraDe tathA nivRtti bhogavatA sumatibhAI Adine mahesANAnI javAbadArI sopI. emanA eka ziSyaratna te zrI kalyANasAgarasUrijI mahArAjane paNa sImaMdharasvAmI para annaya zradhdhA hatI. teonA aMtaramAM paNa AvI ja bhAvanAno pratighoSa thayo. emAM pU. padmasAgarajI mahArAjanI utkaTa bhAvanA ane adamya tamannA paNa sahayogI banI. A tripuTInA prayatnone pariNAme mahesANAnuM vizALa jinamaMdira taiyAra thayuM. zrI sImaMdharasvAmI tIrthakaranI prazamarasa varasAvatI 145 IMca jeTalI UMcI ane lagabhaga 23 Tana vajananI pratimAjI taiyAra karavAmAM AvI. ATalI bhavya mUrti mATe vizALa paththara meLavavAno je mahAprayAsa karavo paDyo eno paNa Agavo ItihAsa che. - pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAjanI bhAvanA evI hatI ke ochAmAM ochI 1ra1 IcanI sImaMdharasvAmInI pratimA taiyAra karavI. Ane mATe ATalo moTo akhaMDa paththara maLe kaI rIte? emaNe jayapuranA kArIgarone bolAvyA. kArIgaroe kahyuM ke DAyanemAiTathI paththara kADhavo paDe. e keTalo moTo nIkaLe te vize kazuM nakakI na kahevAya. - pU. kailAsasAgarasUrijI kahe ke mAre to 121 IcanI pratimA karavI che ane tene mATe akhaMDa paththara joIe che. jayapuranA kArIgaroe kahyuM ke ame paththaranA kada aMge koI bAMhedharI ApIe nahi. eka bhAIe kahyuM ke huM 121 IcanI pratimA thAya tevo paththara ApIza. doDheka varSa rAha joI paNa e paththara meLavI zakyA nahi. eka vAra jayapurathI tAra Avyo ke paththara maLyo che. tame ahIM Avo. sumatibhAI tathA Ara. DI. zAha jayapura gayA ane kahyuM ke paththara batAva eTale rakama ApI daIe. pelA kArIgare kahyuM ke e paththara to makarANAmAM che. tame paisA ApohuM sodo karI laIza. tame Avazo to vadhu bhAva leze. kArIgaranI vAta koIe maMjUra rAkhI nahi. paththaramAM taDa paDI hoya to 138 For Private And Personal Use Only

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zuM? joyA vinA to paisA na apAya. pelo makarANA laI gayo, paNa evo paththara maLyo nahi. A samaye pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI surata hatA. emane A vAta karI. emaNe kahyuM ke jAherAta thaI gaI che. Avo paththara koI paNa hisAbe meLavavo ja paDe. kailAsasAgarasUrijIe kahyuM, "huM muhUrta kADhI ApuM chuM. A muhUrta jajo. e vakhate e je kiMmata kahe temAM thoDA rUpiyA vadhArIne Apajo. ene kasazo nahIM, balka enI praphullatA jojo." AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe muhUrta kADhI ApyuM. pharI sumatibhAI haraDe ane emanA sAthIo makarANA gayA. badhA konTrAkTarone bhegA karyA. paraMtu sahue kahyuM ke ATalo moTo paththara kADhavo zakya ja nathI. cAre bAju nirAzA gherAI vaLI. evAmAM rAtanA bAra vAgye eka musalamAna konTrAkTara Avyo. bIjA karatAM eNe eka judI yojanA batAvI. eNe kahyuM ke mAtra suraMgo phoDavAthI ATalo vizALa paththara maLavo zakya nathI. ene mATe bIjo upAya karavo paDe. jeTalA mApano paththara joIto hoya te mApane najaramAM rAkhIne cAre bAju jharI (kANA) pADavAmAM Ave ane pachI ene nIcenA taLathI chUTo pADavA mATe suraMgano upayoga thaI zake. joke AmAMya eNe evI dahezata batAvI ke suraMgane kAraNe kadAca paththaramAM tirADa paNa paDe. Ama chatAM eNe A cAturyapUrNa sAhasa karavAnuM mAthe lIdhuM. eNe kahyuM ke tamArA bhagavAna ane mArA khudA madada karaze to A kAma jarUra pAra paDaze. pUjaya AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjasAhebanI sUcanA mujaba tenI sAthe karAra karyo. konTrAkTare enuM kAma zarU karyuM. 38 phUTa lAMbA paththara para jharI (kANA) pADavAnuM kAma ghaNo samaya le tevuM hatuM. vaLI emAM saphaLatA maLe ke niSphaLatA te paNa savAla hato. ghaNA samaya sudhI A kAma cAlyuM ane have kasoTIno tabakko zarU thayo. cAre bAju jharI pADI paththara toDayo to kharo, paraMtu have ene taLiyethI chUTo pADavA suraMga phoDavAnI hatI. konTrAkaTare sumatibhAIne A kAma jovA mATe makarANA AvavA jANa karI. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarajInA AzIrvAda laIne sumatibhAI AvyA. temaNe eka bhAI pAsethI paMcatIrthanI mUrti ane sidhdhacakrajI meLavyA ane ene tyAM AcAryazrInI sUcanA mujaba snAtra bhaNAvyuM. devone AhvAna karavAnI vidhi AcAryazrIe samajAvI hatI te pramANe karI. paththara para cAre bAju namaNano chaMTakAva karyo ane suraMga mAravAnuM kAma zarU karyuM. - paththaranI traNa bAju suraMgo mAravAmAM AvI. musalamAna konTrAkaTarane lAgyuM ke vizALa paththarane traNa bAjuthI chUTo pADavAmAM ene phateha maLI che. 139 For Private And Personal Use Only

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eno vizvAsa vadhyo. ene thayuM ke cothI bAju suraMga phoDIza to vAMdho nahIM Ave. suraMga phUTI ane pelo musalamAna konTrAkaTara bhAvAvezamAM nAcI UThayo. AkhI jiMdagI moTA moTA paththaro kADhavAnuM kAma karyuM paNa kayAreya ATalo vizALa paththara jiMdagImAM kADhayo na hato. A paththara jovA mATe AkhuM gAma hele caDayuM. badhA manomana paramAtmAno AbhAra mAnavA mAMDayA. A khANa makarANAthI cha mAIla dUra hatI. khANa pAse boravaDa gAma hatuM. paththaranuM vajana ochuM karavA kArIgaroe aMdara ja ghaDavo zarU karyo. cha IcanA caDAvA rAkhIne mUrtinA AkArano paththara ghaDI dIdho. eka mahinAnI mahenata pachI dhakako karIne paththara upara lAvyA. trIsa TananA A paththarane laI javo kaI rIte ? AnuM kAraNa e hatuM ke AsapAsa badhe retI ja retI hatI. paga UDe sudhI khuMpI jAya teTalI retI hatI .AvI retImAMthI paththarane laI javo kaI rIte? paththara laIne Traka dvArA bahAra nIkaLavuM muzkela hatuM. emAM paiDuM phasAya to aMdaranuM vajana bahAra gabaDI paDe ! TrAnsaporTavALA pAse gayA to eNe Traka ApavAnI cokhI nA pADI. kreInavALA pAse gayA to emaNe kreIna ApavAnI nA pADI. darekane bhaya hato ke AvA retALa raste javuM ja muzkela. khAlI TrakanA paiDAM khUMpI jAya, tyAM vajanadAra paththara sAthenI TrakanI to zI dazA thAya ? Akhare mANekalAla savANIne vAta karI. emane AcAryazrI para atUTa zradhdhA hatI. emaNe kahyuM ke game te saMjogomAM paNa huM A kArya pAra pADIza. tamAma jarUrI sAdhanothI sajaja evuM moTuM Treilara emaNe mokalyuM. Treilara para paththara caDAvyo. Treilara cAlyuM paNa kharuM paraMtu aDadho mAIla pasAra thayo haze ke TreIlaranAM paiDAM retImAM phasAI gayA. TreilaramAMthI paththarane bahAra kADhI rasto pasAra karI zake tema hatuM paNa pachI paththaranuM karavuM zuM? eka bIjo upAya karyo. cAra AnI jADI lokhaMDanI pleTa meLavIne retI para mUkI. ane pachI tenA para Treilara calAvyuM to paNa niSphaLa. jADA slIparo mUkI prayatna karyo to temAM paNa saphaLatA maLI nahIM. chevaTe eka navo upAya ajamAvyo. retI para ghAsa pAtharavAmAM AvyuM ane ghAsa para Treilara doDatAM saphaLatA maLI. Akhare ghAsa nAkhIne sADA cAra mAIlano retIbharyo rasto TreIlare pasAra karyo. vizALa paththara sAthe retALa rasto pasAra karatAM cha divasano samaya lAgyo. hajI kasoTI bAMkI hoya tema eka bIjI muzkelI UbhI thaI. makarANA gAmano rasto dasa phUTano hato ane Treilara tathA tenA paranA paththaranuM mApa agiyAra phUTanuM hatI. have e rastethI kaI rIte pasAra thavuM ? eka ja zakayatA hatI ke najIkanA makAnanI thoDI pachItano bhAga toDavAmAM Ave to ja paththara sAthe TreIlara pasAra thAya tema hatuM. AnI rajA to koNa Ape ? A mATe makarANA 14) -- - - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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myunisipAliTInA ceramenane sahu maLavA gayA. emane khAtarI ApI ke ame makAnano je bhAga toDIzuM te navesarathI bAMdhI ApIzuM. AvI khAtarI ane jAmIna pachI makAnanI pachIta tathA kampAunDanI dIvAla thoDI toDavAmAM AvI. Treilara e rastethI pasAra thayuM. lagabhaga cha divasane aMte A kAma zAsanadevanI anahada kRpAne kAraNe pAra paDayuM. A divasomAM mahesANAmAM apUrva utsAha pravartato hato. sahu tIrthaMkara paramAtmAne prArthanA karatA hatA. kyAMka namaskAra maMtranI dhUna cAlatI hatI. poLe poLe Abila thatAM hatAM. A kaparI kAmagIrI bajAvatI vakhate sumatibhAi svastha hatA, kAraNake ezradhdhALu hatA. teomAnatA ke pUjaya kailAsasAgarajI vacanasidhdha sAdhu che. bhale Apattio Ave, kasoTIo thAya, thoDo samaya kAma muzkela lAge, paNa aMte to upAya maLavAno ja. kAma to pAra paDavAnuM ja, ane paDayuM paNa! 167 phUTa 5 IMca lAMbuM, 97 phUTa ane 1 IMca pahoLuM ane 107 phUTa ane 1 IMca UMcuM jinAlaya taiyAra thayuM. enA dhvajadaMDa sAthe enI UMcAi 125 phUTa ane 1 IMca jeTalI thAya che. A parathI A jinaprAsAdanI vizALatA ane bhavyatAno khyAla Ave che. A jinAlayanI koNa pUjA karaze evo eka samaye prazna hato, paraMtu vizALa jinamaMdira taiyAra thatAM AjubAju aneka dharmazALAo ane sosAyaTIo thai gai ane Aje to e bhavya sImaMdharasvAmI tIrthamAM pUjA karanArAonI bhIDa jAme che. A jinAlaya mAtra traNa varSa jeTalA TUMkA gALAmAM taiyAra thai gayuM. eno bhUmi-khanana-vidhi vi. saM. 2025mAM vaizAkha sudI bIja ane zukravAranA zubha divase karavAmAM Avyo. e ja varSe vaizAkha sudI sAtama ane guruvAre jinAlayano zilA-sthApanavidhi karAyo. vi. saM. 2027nA phAgaNa suda AThamanA zubha coghaDiye mULanAyaka sImaMdharasvAmInI virATa pratimA mATe meLevelA ArasanA vizALa zilAkhaMDane vidhipUrvaka garbhagRhamAM padharAvavAmAM Avyo. vi. saM. 2028nA bIjA vaizAkha suda chaThTha, guruvAre prAta:kALe maMgaLa muhUrta jinabiMbono prANapratiSThAvidhi karavAmAM Avyo. mAgha mahinAnI kaDakaDatI ThaMDInA divaso hatA. AcAryazrI A sakhata ThaMDImAM kaDIthI mahesANA tarapha AvI rahyA hatA. prezaranuM darda emane parezAna karatuM hatuM. vAraMvAra lo-prezara thai jatuM hatuM. evAmAM ekAeka emanA hAtha para lakavAnI asara thai. mahesANAnA derAsaranI ghaNI kAmagIrI bAkI hatI. emaNe koine kazuM kahyu nahi ! mAtra sImaMdharasvAmIne prArthanA karI, "he prabhu! hajI ghaNuM kAma bAkI che. mane svastha karI dejo." paramAtmAne AvI vinaMtI karIne emaNe hAtha para mAliza karavAnuM zarU karyuM. 141 For Private And Personal Use Only

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dhIre dhIre lakavAnI asara dUra thaI. teo sAjA thaI gayA. e pachI eka DaoNkaTara emane tapAsavA AvyA. tapAsatAM mAluma paDayuM ke temano hAtha lakavAgrasta banyo hoya tema lAgatuM hatuM. DaoNkaTare pUchyuM, "zuM tamane lakavA thayo hato kharo ? kaMI davA karI hatI ? " pU. AcAryazrIe kahyuM, "thoDA divasa pahelAM ja davA karI hatI", DaoNkaTare vadhu vigata mAMgatA pUchayuM, "davAmAM zuM zuM letA hatA? kaI kaMpanInI TebaleTsa upayogamAM lIdhI hatI ?" pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInA vizALa mukha para smita camakI UThayuM emaNe kahyuM, "mArI pAse to prabhunA nAmanI davA che, pachI bIjI davAnI jarUra zI? ". pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInA zarIrane rogo gherI vaLyA hatA, paraMtu AtmabaLane AdhAre jIvanArA AvI paravA kare kharA ? evAmAM zrI sImaMdharasvAmItIrthanI pratiSThAno prasaMga Avyo. e samaye sAdhaka AcAryazrIe nakakI karyuM hatuM ke rAtre sUIne paDakhAM badalavAM emAM paNa hiMsA thAya che. AkhI rAta eka ja paDakhe sUvAnuM nakakI karyuM. oDhavA-pAtharavA mATe to mAtra eka kAmaLI rAkhe. ozIkAnI to vAta ja zI ? eka hAtha mAthA nIce rAkhIne saMthArI jAya. A samaye emane jamInamAMthI ThaMDI lAgI gaI. jamaNo hAthe kAma karato aTakI gayo. DaoNkaTare kahyuM ke lohInuM pUruM paribhramaNa thatuM nathI. lakavAnI asara thaI gaI che. pratiSThAnA divaso AvyA. AcAryazrIne thatuM ke svahaste aMjanazalAkA karI zakuM to mAruM keTaluM bhAgya paNa aMjanazalAkA karI zakAze kharI ? vikalAMga hoya ke dehamAM kAMI khoDakhAMpaNa hoya to aMjanazalAkA thaI zake nahIM. jo jamaNA hAthanI AvI sthiti haze to aMjanazalAkA zakaya nathI. e samaye mahesANAnI zrImad yazovijayajI jaina saMskRta pAThazALAnA zikSaka pukharAjajI amIcaMdajI koThArI AcAryazrIne maLavA AvyA. AcAryazrIe emanI pAse abhyAsa karyo hato eTale pukharAjajIne potAnA vidyAguru mAnatA hatA. A samaye pukharAjajIe AcAryazrIne lakavAnI asara hovAthI zAtA pUchI, tyAre emaNe kahyuM "mRtyu to koIka divasa AvavAnuM che ene mATe huM taiyAra chuM. paraMtu sImaMgharasvAmInI pratimAjIne aMjanazalAkA ane pratiSThAno tAraka puNyaprasaMga nirvighna sAnaMda saMpanna thAya eTale saMtoSa." Ama sImaMdharasvAmI pratyenI emanI bhakita satata pragaTa thatI hatI. bIjA vaizAkha suda chaThanA divase sImaMdharasvAmInI bhavya pratimAjIno mahA 142 For Private And Personal Use Only

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ja maMgalakArI aMjana-pratiSThA vidhi karavAno hato, paNa potAnA jamaNA aMge pakSAghAtanI asara hatI. e hAthathI pensila pakaDavA jAya to pakaDamAM na Ave. aMgopAMgamAM saheja khoDakhAMpaNa hoya tenAthI aMjana-pratiSThA vidhi na thaI zake. AvI paristhitimAM pUjaya AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe pratikramaNa karyA bAda devAdhideva zrI sImaMgharasvAmI paramAtmAne manomana prArthanA karIne pUchayuM ke mAre karavuM zuM? bhAre tanmayatApUrvaka e prArthanA ane pRcchA hatI. pU AcAryazrIne ardhajAgRta ane adhanidrA jevI taMdrAvasthAmAM bharyA samavasaraNamAM birAjamAna zrI sImaMdharasvAmInA sAkSAt darzana thayA. emaNe vinaMtI karI, "he bhagavan! pakSAghAtanI asara TaLe to ja mArAthI A vidhi thaI zake. meM mArI jAta mATe jIvanamAM koI prArthanA karI nathI, paNa A dhArmika prasaMga nirvibe pUrNa thAya eTalA pUratI ja mArI A prArthanA che." te ja kSaNe devAdhidevanA mahAprabhAvathI AcAryazrI pakSAghAtanI asarathI sarvathA mukata thayA. A prArthanA daseka miniTa cAlI haze. pakSAghAta ane aMjanapratiSThA vidhinI vacamAM traNeka mahinAno gALo hato. ezI TakA asara ochI thaI gaI hatI. paraMtu bAkInI asara paNa prArthanA karatAM paramAtmAnA mahAprabhAve TaLI gaI. taddana svastha ane pakSAghAtanI asarathI sAva mukata evA AcAryazrIe aMjanapratiSThA vidhi karI. devAdhideva sImaMgharasvAmInI anahada karuNAnI vAta karatAM teo lAgaNIvibhora banI jatA ane bolI UThatA, "oha, paramAtmAnI kevI asIma karuNA !"'. mahesANAmAM A bhavya mahotsavanI ujavaNI*khUba harSa ane ullAsapUrvaka thaI. AvI ujavaNI pAchaLa paNa amITa dharmazradhdhAnAM kevAM cihno paDelAM hoya che te AmAM dekhAya che. pU. AcAryazrIe pachI vADajathI cheka sarakheja sudhI dharmanI cirasmaraNIya bhavya prabhAvanA karI, Arthika sthitie madhyama varganA zrAvakonA A vistAramAM emaNe anerI dharmajAgRti ANI. zUnyamAMthI sRSTi UbhI karI. vijayanagara, aMkura sosAyaTI, mirAmbikA sosAyaTI, nAraNapurA, devakInaMdana, AMbAvADI, navapada sosAyaTI, dharaNIdhara ane eka vAsaNA pAsenA godAvarI phaleTa sudhI jinAlayonuM nirmANa ane aMjanapratiSThAo teozrInA upakAranI ja phalazruti che. A vistAramAM madhyama Arthika sthiti dharAvatA zrAvako hovA chatAM yAdagAra pratiSThA-mahotsavo yojayA. AcAryazrInA varada haste trevIsa aMjanazalAkAo, jinamaMdiranI pratiSThAo ane aneka jinamaMdiranA jIrNodhdhAro thayA. upadhAna tapanI soLa ArAdhanAo ane pAMceka charI pALatA saMgho jevA zAsanaprabhAvanAnAM agaNita kAryo karyA 143 For Private And Personal Use Only

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emane hAthe aneka jinamUrtionI aMjanazalAkA thaI. AnI pAchaLa emanI ajoDa puNyAInuM baLa hatuM. emaNe keTalAM jinamaMdiro banAvyAM, keTalAM jinamaMdiro ke upAzrayo banAvavAnI preraNA ApI ke keTalAM upadhAna tapa karAvyAM, enA AMkaDA parathI ApaNe A sAdhaka vibhUtinuM sAcuM mApa kADhI zakIe nahi. kinAre cAlavAthI sAmAnya hakIkato hAtha lAge che. sAgaranI sapATIne bhedIne enI bhItaramAM rahelAM motInI mAphaka emanA vyakitatvanA mahAna guNo ja emano sAco paricaya che. emanuM zudhdha, saMyamamaya jIvana ja sahune mATe dIvAdAMDIrUpa hatuM. emanI devadravyanI cIvaTa anokhI hatI. AcAryazrI budhdhisAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjano "zudhdha upayoga" graMthanuM aneka vAra adhyayana karyuM hatuM. mahesANAnA sImaMgharasvAmI mahAtIrthamAM hoya tyAre tIrtha saMcAlita bhojanAlayanI gocarI vAparatA na hatA. derAsaramAM caDhAvelA cokhA jAye ajANya kharIdIne zrAvakathI lavAI gayA hoya ane gocarImAM AvI jAya to te vAparavAthI budhdhi doSita bane. adhyavasAya maMda bane. AvI samaja ane sAvadhAnIne kAraNe ja cokhA na vAparavAno emaNe abhigraha karyo hato. A ja kAraNe emaNe badAma ane pAchaLathI phaLano tyAga karyo. koI paMDita, koI DoLIvALA ke koI mANasane pagAra apAvavo hoya to te rakama kadI peDhImAMthI apAve nahi. koI vastu peDhImAM potAne nAme noMdhAya te emane saheje pasaMda nahotuM. AthI eka paNa paisAno khoTo kharca thAya tenA teo virodhI hatA. koI zrAvaka paMDitanA pagAra mATe rakama ApI jAya. paMDitajI te rAtrie na Ave to sUryAsta pachI te rakama devadravya khAte arpaNa karAvI detA hatA. potAne kAraNe koI rakama eka rAtri puratI paNa rahe to temAM parigrahano doSa jotA hatA. potAnA nimittathI eka paiso paNa eka rAta rAkhavAmAM mAnatA nahi, AthI AvI rakama teo devadravyamAM ApI detA je jINodhdhAramAM vaparAtI. AvI rIte aMdAje eka lAkha pacAseka hajAra rUpiyAthI adhika pagAranI rakama devadravyamAM apAvI dIdhI haze. devadravya pratye emane akhaMDa zradhdhA hatI. devadravyanuM kayAMya nukazAna na thAya enI satata takedArI rAkhatA hatA. enI zudhdhi mATeno emano Agraha paNa virala hato. jANe ajANye paNa devadravyano upayoga ke hAni thaI hoya te bhItithI zrAvakone upadeza karIne pAMca lAkhathI vadhu rakama devadravya ane jINodhdhAramAM apAvI hatI. devadravyanI zudhdhi ane rakSAno eTalo badho Agraha ke koI paNa gAma - nagaranA jina maMdiranA pUjArI pAse kazI sevA na karAve. 144 For Private And Personal Use Only

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) devadravyanA durbayane teo zrI saMdha pratyeno vizvAsaghAta gaNatA hatA. je bhAvanAthI rakama ApI hoya teno e bhAvanA mujaba yogya upayoga thavo joIe. teo vAraMvAra kahetA ke mANasa potAnA dravya rakSaNanI jeTalI kALajI rAkhe che tethI paNa adhika kALajI teNe devadravyanI rakSA-zudhdhi bAbatamAM rAkhavI joie. eka vAra mAravADanA be bhAIo vacce vivAda jAgyo. emaNe sAmasAme kesa karyA. koIke kahyuM ke AcAryazrI pAse jAva ane samAdhAna meLavo. AmAM je bhAI derAsarano vahIvaTa karatA hatA, teo derAsaranI saMpatti potAne mATe vAparatA hatA. derAsarane paise relavenA prathama vargamAM musApharI karatA hatA. AcAryazrIne AnI jANa thaI. emaNe zrAvakane mahApApathI bacavA mATe hitabudhdhithI sakhata zabdomAM Thapako ApatAM kahyuM, "A mahApApa baMdha karo. devadravyano jeTalo durvyaya karyo hoya tenuM vyAjanuM vyAja gaNIne je rakama thAya te mULa rakama sahita zrI saMghane arpaNa karI do ane " micchAmi dukakaDa" daIne Atmazudhdhi karo. Ama nahIM karo to tamArA gherathI gocarI vahoravI pUjaya sAdhu-sAdhvIjIne na kahyuM, bhUlecUke koI munivara vahorI Ave to te temanA mATe kAtila viSa samAna che. AvI gocarI vAparanAranI budhdhi bhraSTa thAya. loko prabhu pratyenA atUTa bhaktibhAvathI paisA Ape che. tamArA bhADA mATe nathI ApatA'. kayAMya paNa evo khyAla Ave ke A vyakita devadravyano aMgata rIte upayoga kare che, to tene tyAM AcAryazrI gocarI levA javAno sarvathA niSedha karatA hatA. vaLI saMdha ke derAsaranA vahIvaTamAM amuka sukhI-saMpanna pApabhIru vyakitaone ja nANAMkIyataMtra sopatA hatA. A samaye teo bhArapUrvaka upadeza ApatA ke dhArmika dravyano vahIvaTa karanAre bhUlecUke paNa dharmadravyanI hAni na thAya te aMge paNa khUba sajAga rahevuM joie. koI mANasa ke paMDitane eka mahinA mATe rAkhyo hoya ane koI zrAvaka eno eka mahinAno pagAra ApIne jAya, paNa jo e mANasa paMdara divasamAM chUTo thaI jAya to bAkInA paMdara divasanI rakama devadravyamAM apAvI detA hatA. A samaye teo kahetA ke, "je nimitte rakama AvI hoya teno te nimitte upayoga na thAya to paramAtmAnuM khAtuM khulluM che." pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahArAjanA sadghapadezathI aneka nUtana jinamaMdirono ItihAsa racAyo. pU. AcAryazrInA AtmAnI nirmaLatA pragaTAvatI saumya mukhamudrA. pratyeka kriyAmAM saMyamanuM prAgaTaya, virala udAratA ane parama vAtsalyabhAva Aje paNa aneka bhAvikonA hRdayamaMdiramAM jIvaMta pratimArUpe birAjamAna che. 145 For Private And Personal Use Only

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potAnA saMyamajIvananAM 47 varSa daramiyAna pU. AcAryazrIe gujarAta, rAjasthAna, madhyapradeza, bihAra, baMgALa, mahArASTra vagere rAjayomAM vihAra karyo. teo Thera Thera mahAmithyAtvAdinA kAraNe zrI saMghamAM vyApelA aMdhakArane dUra karavA satata ane sacoTa prayAsa karatA. emanI sacoTa amRtavANIthI keTalAMya kALamIMDha hRdayo pIgaLI jaIne temanuM parivartana thayuM. teo dArU, jugAra, mAMsAhAra jevAM vyasanomAMthI mukata rahevA sacoTa upadeza ApatA. emanI AsapAsa evuM sAtvika vAtAvaraNa pragaTeluM rahetuM ke game tevo kuTila mAnavI paNa emanI saumyatAthI parAjita thato. emaNe aneka mahAnagaromAM cAturmAsa karyA. vijApura, pethApura, sANaMda, muMbaI, pUnA, kalakattA, amadAvAda, rAjakoTa, bhAvanagara, jAmanagara, sAdaDI, rANI, pAlI, pAlItANA jevAM nagaroma cAturmAsa kayAM. jayAre lodarA, aDapodarA jevAM nAnAM gAmonAM cAturmAsa emanA sAdhanAjIvanamAM ghaNuM mahattva dharAve che. vihAra daramiyAna ghaNA sAdhu-saMtono paricaya thayo. emanI sIdhI, saraLa jJAnapUrNa ane saMsArIjanone kalyANamArge doratI amIjharatI vANImAM paramAtmAnA aciMtya mahAprabhAve evI zakita pragaTI hatI ke kuTilakhala-kAmI mAnavInA jIvananuM parivartana thaI jatuM. emapo aneka jinAlayo, dharmazALAo, upAzrayo ane jJAnazALAonA nirmANanI preraNA ApI hatI. emanA ziSyasamudAyamAM guru tarIke bhAre cAhanA meLavI. potAnA pratyeka ziSyano udhdhAra kema thAya e ja emanuM lakSa hatuM. vaLI mArI pAse ja dIkSA le evo Agraha kadI sevatA nahi. jemaNe karagarIne dIkSAo mAgI emane ja dIkSA ApI che. vi. saM. 1996mAM pU. sUryasAgarajI emanA prathama ziSya banyA. A. pU. sUryasAgarajI mahArAje 70 oLI, 6 mAsakhamaNa ane navakAra maMtranA jApathI 68 upavAsa karyA hatA. e pachI vi. saM. 2001mAM pU. zrI bhadrasAgarajI, vi. saM. 2002mAM pU. zrI IndrasAgarajI, vi. saM. 2005mAM pU. zrI kalyANasAgarajI, vi. saM. 2006mAM pU. zrI kaMcanasAgarajI, vi. saM. 2023mAM pU. zrI jJAnasAgarajI, vi. saM. 2028mAM pU. zrI nItisAgarajI ane vi. saM. 2035mAM pU. zrI saMyamasAgarajI eTalA ziSyo thayA. paMnyAsa zrI sUryasAgarajI ane pravartakazrI indrasAgarajI AcAryazrInI hayAtImAM kALadharma pAmyA. pU. zrI bhadrasAgarajI tathA pU. zrI kalyANasAgarajIne AcAryapadathI vibhUSita karyA tathA pU. zrI jJAnasAgarajIne gaNipada prApta thayuM. AcArya mahArAje potAnA parivAramAM A. kalyANasAgarasUrijIne, A. padmasAgarasurijIne ane A. bhadrabAhusAgarasUrijIne AcAryapada ApyuM. A traNeyane bhinna bhinna kAryakSetra ApyAM. AcArya kalyANasAgarasUrIzvarajI 146 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jinamaMdira, zilpakaLA ane muhUrtazAstra vageremAM UMDo abhyAsa dharAve che. guru bhagavaMtanA AzIrvAdathI emane zAstronI UMDI jANakArI prApta thaI che. mahesANAnA bhavya evA zrI sImaMdharasvAmI tIrthanI racanAmAM teo AcAryazrInI aMtarabhAvanA puSTa karavAmAM nimitta banyA. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI ane kalyANasAgarajI banne sImaMdharasvAmI paramAtmAnA khAsa upAsaka. AcArya kalyANasAgarasUrijIne koI suyogya sthAne A tIrthaMkara paramAtmAnuM bhavya jinamaMdira nirmANa thAya evI prabaLa zubha bhAvanA emanA aMtaramAM jAgI UThI ane e ja zubha bhAvanA mahesANAnA vizALa zrI sImaMdharasvAmInA tIrthadhAmanI sthApanAnuM bIja banI gai. e samaye pa. pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe avasara joine e kAma hAtha dharyuM. amadAvAdamAM mahesANAnA e tIrthanuM Ayojana thayuM. vaLI usmAnapurA saMghamAM vahana thayela upadhAnatapa nI mALa paridhAnanI devadravyanI upajamAMthI sArI evI rakama maLI. e pachI muMbaI ane tyArabAda dareka saMghoe jinamaMdiranA devadravyamAMthI A bhavya jinamaMdira nirmANamAM sAro evo phALo Apyo. A jinAlayonI racanA pAchaLa enI saMkhyA vadhArI prasidhdhi meLavavAno koI moha AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne ke AcArya zrI kalyANasAgarajIne nahoto. emanI to eTalI ja jhaMkhanA hatI ke sAdhu-saMtonI vadhu ne vadhu sevA thAya. dharmAnurAgI zrAvakomAM prabhubhakitano mahimA vadhe. yAtriko devamaMdiranA sAMnidhyamAM sahakuTuMba rahIne tapazcaryA kare. vRdhdho ane azakato uttarakALamAM AnaMdathI paramAtmAnI atUTa bhakita karIne sadgatine vare. AthI ja emaNe zaMkhezvara, tAraMgAjI, mahuDI, zerIsA, pAnasara, bhoyaNI jevAM gujarAtanAM tIrtho ane rAjasthAnanAM aneka tIrthonI yAtrA karanAra yAtrikone mATe madhyanuM ane anukULa gAma mahesANA pasaMda karyuM ane emAMya dhorImArga para derAsaranI racanA karIne aneka lokone upakAraka A tIrthasthAna banyuM. pote sthAnakavAsI avasthAmAM ajJAnapaNAmAM maMdira-mUrtino virodha karyo hato. te bhUlamAMthI mukata thavA mATe AthI bIjo kayo vadhu sAro mArga hoI. zake ? jinamaMdira ane jinamUrtiothI lokone mAyAmAMthI mukata karavA prayAsa kayAM. vaLI emanuM puNya evuM ke badhA karatAM vizeSa saphaLa thayA. AcAryazrI bhadrakarasUrIzvarajI mahArAje emanA vyakitatvanI vizeSatA darzAvatAM kahyuM ke, " emane joIne ja sAmI vyakitane bhakita karavAnuM mana thaI jatuM. sAmI vyakita ja prasannatAthI mAgaNI kare ke AcAryazrI amane kaMIka lAbha Apo". vAtsalyamUrti pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne eka vAta bhAre khaTakatI hatI. teone tithinA vibhAgonI bAbatamAM saMghamAM ekatA karavI hatI. 147 For Private And Personal Use Only

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anekAntamAM mAnanAro jainadharma ATalo bheda paNa na mITAvI zake ? AthI vi.saM. 2041nA kArataka mahinAmAM devakInaMdanamAM pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI ane AcAryazrI bhadrakarasUrijI mahArAja maLyA. eka pakSamAM pU.A. kailAsasAgarasUrijI hatA ane bIjA pakSamAM mAnanArAomAM pU. A. zrIbhakarasUrijI hatA. emaNe vicAryuM ke ApaNe eka nirNaya karI jAheramAM mUkIe. baMne vacce saMghaprIti ane snehabhAva puSkaLa hato. baMnee nakakI karIne eka musaddo taiyAra karyo. paNa pachI lAgaNI ane premanI eka spardhA thaI. pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIne pahelI sahI karavAnuM pU A zrI bhadrakarasUrijIe kahyuM, jayAre pU. A. zrI bhadrakarasUrijIe kahyuM ke, "Apa AcArya cho. ApanI padavI moTI che. Apa pahelI sahI karo." " pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe kahyuM ke Apa to mArA vaDIla cho. mArA vidyAguru cho. pahelAM ApanI sahI joIe. Ama pahelI sahI konI hoya e aMge mITho vivAda thayo. tyArabAda vihAra karavAnuM banyuM ane e pachI bane judA paDayA bAda maLavAnuM banyuM nahi. thoDA ja divasamAM pU. A. zrI. kailAsasAgarasUrijI kALadharma pAmyA. eka uttama bhAvanA adhUrI ja ATopAI gaI ! saMghanI eka tA mATe pU. A. zrI kailAsAgarasUrijI mahArAjamAM bhAre hiMmata hatI ane ene mATe game te bhoga ApavA teo taiyAra hatA. pU. AcAryazrI bhadrakarasUrijIe kahyuM ke emane vizvAsa hato ke ApaNe baMne jo nakakI karIzuM to Akho saMgha jarUra mAnaze. A ghaTanAnuM varNana karyA pachI vyathita hRdaye pU. AcAryazrI bhadrakarasUrijIe kahyuM ke, "AvA udAra vicAra dharAvanArA AtmAnA darzana thavA durlabha che." 148 For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra Qiu Chang www.kobatirth.org (13) mRtyuvijetA 149

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AcArya zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI anerA AtmasAdhaka hatA. emanuM lakSa sadAya AtmA tarapha ja rahetuM. jenI najara AtmA para hoya, jene raTaNA ke ciMtana AtmAnuM cAlatuM hoya, ene A dehanI zI paravA hoya ? emanI AgaLa zArIrika pIDA gauNa banI jatI. sAmAnya dardanI to emaNe kadI paravA ja karI nathI. bhAre zArIrika vedanA thatI hoya, tyAre paNa emanA udgAro zarIra aMgenA nahi paNa AtmAne lagatA ja hoya. game tevuM darda hoya, game teTalo tAva hoya, paNa kayAreya emanA mukhamAMthI UMhakAro nIkaLato nahi. teo kahetA ke mArI to traNa davA che: eka triphaLA, bIjI sudarzana ghanavaTI ane trIjuM eraMDiyu. kayAreka traNa-traNa divasathI tAva Avato hoya chatAM sAdhujIvananI badhI ja kriyAo cAlatI hoya. jAte ja pratikramaNa kare. sAthenA sAdhune paNa khyAla AvavA na de ke emane khUba tAva che ke chAtImAM sakhata duHkhAvo che. pAlImAM emano cAturmAsa hato tyAre emane laoN blaDa prezaranI takalIpha UbhI thaI. chAtImAM pIDA thavA lAgI. koineya kahyA vagara eka jaina DaoNkaTarane tyAM pahoMcI gayA. emaNe kahyuM ke mane blaDa prezara che ke nahi enI jarA tapAsa karavAnI che. potAnI sAthe vizALa ziSyasamudAya hovA chatAM koIneya kaSTa na ApavAnI keTalI badhI jAgRti ! A cAturmAsa samaye AcAryazrI pAse betraNa jayotiSavid AvI caDayA. emaNe pU. AcAryazrIne kahyuM ke, "sAheba, amAre ApanI kuMDaLI jovI che." A samaye pU. AcAryazrIe eTaluM ja kahyuM, "mAre bIjuM kazuM jovuM nathI. mAtra aMtima samayamAM samAdhi raheze ke nahi te juo." pU. AcAryazrI pote paNa jayotiSamAM pAraMgata hatA. emanA kALadharmanA pAMca varSa agAu eka evI vAta vahetI thaI ke kArataka suda pUname azubha banavAnuM che. keTalIka vAto page cAlatI nathI, paNa pavana vege UDatI hoya che. Ama A vAta sarvatra phelAI gaI. koIe kahyuM ke eka bhAIne AcAryazrI budhdhisAgarasUrijIno sAkSAtkAra thayo ane yoganiSTha AcAryazrIe Avo saMketa karyo. kArataka suda pUnamanA divase pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI mahesANAmAM birAjamAna hatA. keTalAka zrAvako emanI pAse doDI gayA ane kahyuM, "AcAryazrI, tamArA vinA to ame nirAdhAra thai jaizuM." AcAryazrI to tadana svastha hatA. jANe jIvana ke maraNanI to kaMI paravA ja na hoya. zrAvakoe vinaMtI karI ke, "Apa to bhIMtanI pAchaLanuM paNa joI zako cho. amane kharekhara sAcuM kaho." 150 For Private And Personal Use Only

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AcAryazrIe kahyuM " huM covIse kalAka mRtyunuM svAgata karavA taiyAra chuM. meM mArI jiMdagImAM zakaya prayatne pApane pravezavA na devAnI takedArI rAkhI che. mane mRtyu Ave to paNa koi jAtano aphasosa nathI." Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir ATaluM kahIne emaNe zrAvakone sAMtvanA ApatAM kahyuM, "meM badhuM joi lIdhuM che. mane evuM lAgatuM nathI. 17 Ama, mRtyuno emane leza paNa bhaya nahoto. koi DaoNkaTarane laine Ave to kahetA ke mArA peTI bistarA taiyAra ja rAkhyA che. e game tyAre bolAve, huM taiyAra ja chuM. teo kahetA "musAphara sau prANIo che, dehavastro choDatA, e avara tanunA vAsI thaine veSa letA navA navA; jaga raDavuM kone, zoka kono, kSaNikatA sahu dehanI ! e nityacetana te mare nahi, karmathI deho vare". kayAreka darda vadhI jAya ane sAdhu tathA zrAvako davA levAno Agraha kare tyAre pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI prasanna vadane kahetA, "coyanI pAMcama thavAnI nathI, to pachI ATalI ciMtA zA mATe ?" pa. pU. A. zrI. kailAsasAgarasUrijI pAlImAM cAturmAsa hatA tyAre kayAreka vAtavAtamAM nAnA munivarone kahetA ke prAyaH bIjuM cAturmAsa paNa sAthe karavA bhAvanA che. nAnA munio kahetA, "trIjuM cAturmAsa sAthe nahi ?" tyAre AzcaryathI mauna rahetA. .. pAlImAM emaNe be-traNa vAra vAtavAtamAM ema paNa kahyuM, " have mArA zarIrano bahu vizvAsa nathI. ATaluM bolIne teo aTakI jatA. AgaLa kazuM bolatA nahIM. emanA ziSyoe emane vAraMvAra pUchayuM ke, Apa AvuM kema bolo cho ? tyAre kahetA ke "have zarIrano bahu sAtha nahIM rahe. mAre mArI taiyArImAM samaya Apavo che. ArAdhanA karavI che. bahAranI pravRtti ghaTADI nAkhavI che."' ane hakIkatamAM emaNe bAhya pravRttio ghaTADavA mAMDI. dareka bAbatamAMthI rasa ocho karI dIdho. agAu pU. AcArya durlabhasAgarasUrijI sAthe manadu:kha thayuM hatuM. emane paNa kSamApanAno patra lakhavAnI vAta AgalI rAtre karI hatI. jenI jenI sAthe saMbaMdha hato, e badhAne kSamApanAnA patro lakhavAnI vAta karI hatI. jANe mRtyunA mahotsavano mRtyuMjaya mahAmAnave dudubhinAdana karyo hoya ! jANe mAyA saMkelI lIdhI hoya evo sahune anughdha thato hato. pU. AcAryazrIe pAlIthI vihAra karyo. rANakapurathI pUjaya padmasAgarajIthI judA paDayA. paNa e pachI pU. AcAryazrInA je patro pU. A. padmasAgarajI para temAM spaSTa nahi paNa pracantarUpe vidAyasaMdeza vAMcI zakAto hato. AvatA, 151 For Private And Personal Use Only

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blaDaprezara, vAyu ane zvAsanI bImArI gherI vaLI hatI. pU. AcAryazrI koIneya potAnI zArIrika vedanAno khyAla AvavA detA nahi. zakaya hoya tyAM sudhI jIvasevA ane jinasevAnuM kAma akhaMDa rIte cAlu rAkhatA hatA. khUba azakita hovA chatAM hiMmatanagaramAM pratiSThA paNa karAvI ApI. A samaye AcAryazrInA darzane AvelA muMbaInA zanAbhAI zAhane pU. AcAryazrIe kahyuM hatuM ke, "pApakArya to nathI karavuM, paNa have puNya paNa nathI karavuM, puNya karyAthI zubhakarmano baMdha to thAya ja che. zubha-azubha karmano cheda UDato nathI. bane sadehe bhogavavA paDe che ane te bhogavavA mATe janma levo paDe che. have janma levAnI icchA nathI ane te mATe puNyathI zubhakarmano baMdha thAya tevuM karavuM nathI." pU. AcAryazrI amadAvAdamAM zAMtinagaranA upAzraye AvyA. emane laIne AvelA DoLIvALAo tAraMgAnA hatA. pU. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe DoLIvALAone kahyuM, "mAre have DoLInI jarUra nathI ane jarUra paDavAnI paNa nathI". DoLIvALA AcAryazrInI vANI samajI zakayA nahi. emane thayuM ke nakakI emanAthI koI bhUla thaI gaI lAge che. nahi to AcAryazrI AvuM kema kahe ? DoLIvALAe kahyuM ke, "amArAthI kaMI bhUla thaI gaI hoya to amane kSamA karo. pU. AcAryazrI kahe, "nA, evuM kazuM nathI, paNa have mAre besavuM nathI. tamatamAre AnaMda karo". AcAryazrIne kayAMya saheja paNa du:khAvo thato to kAusagna karavA besI jatA hatA ane kahetA, " huM prabhune prArthanA karuM chuM ke mArA prANa kAusagnamAM ja jAya". beMglorathI pU. A. padmasAgarasUrijI mahArAjano patra Avyo. tyAre AcAryazrIe javAba Apyo ke, " tame ciMtA karazo nahi. derAsaramAM jAuM chuM tyAre hRdayamAM thoDI pIDA thAya che. zvAsa vadhI jAya che. paNa tarata ja prabhu pAse prArthanA karuM chuM ke mArI to pUrNa taiyArI che. mAtra maraNa evuM Apaje ke huM dhyAnastha hou ane mRtyu thAya". emanA aMtevAsI zamamUrti gaNi zrI jJAnasAgarajI mahArAjane teo chelle vAraMvAra kahetA, " A varSe ja mAre javAnuM che. ane huM pUrNa taiyArI karIne beTho chuM." mahAbhaya evA maraNanA bhayane AcAryazrIe jItI lIdho hato. vi. saM. 2041no jeTha suda ekamano divasa hato. pU. AcAryazrI aMkuranA upAzrayamAM hatA. besato mahino hovAthI vAsakSepa nakhAvavA mATe zrAvakonI 15 re For Private And Personal Use Only

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bhIDa jAmI hatI. pU. AcAryazrIne damano vyAdhi upaDayo hato. zvAsa 9:03 dhamaNanI mAphaka cAlato hato. mAMgalika bolatAM bolatAM paNa hAMphI jatA hatA. pANI gaLAthI nIce utAravAmAM paNa ghaNI vAra lAgatI hatI. Ave samaye bIjA sAdhu kahetA ke ame zrAvakone vAsakSepa nAkhIe tyAre pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI e sAdhuone kahetA, chelle chelle nAkhI levA do. juone, e badhA keTalI badhI AzA sAthe AvyA che ! " A divase ghaNA sAdhu bhagavaMto pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijInI sukhazAtA pUchavA AvatA. sAdhuonI vaiyAvacca karavAnI emanI ucca bhAvanA je jIvanamAM pragaTa thatI rahI hatI te aMtima samaye paNa jovA maLI. je koI sAdhu sukhazAtA pUchavA Ave emane prasannatAthI kahetA, "Aje ahIM vAparIne jAo. mane tamArI sevAno lAbha Apo." kevI apUrva laghutA! ekamanI rAtre aMkuranA upAzrayamAM zAMtinagaranA zrAvako emane maLavA AvyA. zamamUrti gaNi jJAnasAgarajI bImAra hovAthI pU. AcAryazrI emanI sAthe rahetA hatA. e rAtre zAMtinagaranA zrAvakoe pUchayuM "sAhebajI, kAMI sevAkArya hoya to kaho." pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijIe kahyuM, "mAre kaMI sevAnI jarUra nathI, paNa jJAnasAgarajInI sevA jarUra karajo " koI zrAvaka emanA svAstha aMge pUche to eka ja javAba maLato. "mane jIvavAno moha nathI ane mane maravAno Dara nathI. jIvazuM to soham soham karazuM, marazuM to mahAvideha jaizuM." A zabdonI pAchaLa rahelo gUDhArtha koNa pAmI zake ? mahApuruSano gUDha saMketono pAra pAmI zakavAvALA ApaNe koNa ? pU. AcAryazrIe potAnI aMgata DAyarImAM A noMdha karI hatI. emaNe traNa tArIkha nodhI hatI. pahelI tArIkha 22mI me hatI ane pachI bIjA be divaso lakhyA hatA. DAyarInA A pAnA para emanI janma tArIkha hatI ane pachI emanI janmakuMDaLI hatI. A traNa tArIkhanI noMdha bAda "ArAdhanA divasa" ema lakhyuM hatuM. Ano artha ke ra ramI me e potAno aMtima ArAdhanA divasa che enI AcAryazrInA pUrepUrI jANa hatI. jeTha suda ekamanI rAte pU. AcAryazrI mAtra javA mATe UThayA tyAre emane zvAsanI ghaNI takalIpha hatI. jIvanabhara svAvalaMbanathI rahenArA pU. AcAryazrI koInIya sevA lIdhA vinA UbhA thayA. cAlavAmAM muzkelI paDatI hatI, chatA bhIMtano Teko laIne teo mAtru gayA. A samaye pU. saMyamasAgarajIe emane 153 For Private And Personal Use Only

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pUchyuM. "Apane takalIpha vadhI gaI lAge che. DaoNkTarane bolAvIzuM ?" pU. AcAryazrIe kahyuM, mane have zarIrano koI moha nathI. mRtyuno koI Dara nathI mArI davA mArI pAse ja che. DaoNkTarane bolAvavAnI koI jarUra nathI.' Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir bIje divase vahelI savAre sAdhuo sAthe pratikramaNa karavA beThA. sAdhuone je Avazyaka kriyAo karavAnI hoya che te aMge AcAryazrI satata jAgRti rakhAvatA. emaNe colapaTTo badalyo. kapaDAM badalyAM. pote jAte cAlIne hAtha zuddha karavA mATe aMdara gayA. pANIthI hastazuddhi karIne sthApanAjInuM pratilekhana karavA mATe kAyotsarga karyo. jJAnasAgarajInA sthApanAcAryanuM paDilehaNa karavA mATe iriyAvahiyaM'karIne gappAAM yosAmi (AtmAne vosarAvuM chuM) ema bolyA. tIrthaMkaranuM smaraNa karato logsasa zarU karyo ane hajI aDadhI miniTa thaI tyAM ja barAbara 5-47 miniTe kAryotsarga avasthAmAM ja logassanuM dhyAna karatAM dehAtsarga karIne vidAya laI lIdhI. emanI bAjumAM ja gaNi jJAnasAgarajI birAjamAna hatA. AcAryazrIno hAtha kheMcAto hoya tema emane lAgyuM. emaNe pUchyuM, sAhebajI, zuM thAya che ?" paNa koI javAba maLyo nahi, tarata ja DaoNkTarane bolAvavAmAM AvyA, paNa eno kazo artha rahyo nahi. eka mahAna AtmAnI kevI bhavya bhAvapUrNa vidAya ! jIvanamAM je pavitra dhArmika bhAvanAono Ahaleka jagADyo, e ja ucca bhAvanAne sAkAra karatuM mRtyu maLyuM. je caturvizati stavamAM samAhivara muttamaMdiMtu' jevA maMgala zabdo dvArA samAdhimRtyunI prArthanA hoya, e ja caturviti stavanA kAyotsargamAM samAdhimRtyu prApta thAya eTale e kevI virala ghaTanA kahevAya !! mahAna puruSone samAdhimRtyu keTaluM badhuM saraLa hoya che ! mRtyu e jIvanano saravALo che pU. AcAryazrInA bhavya jIvanano kevo bhavya aMta ? emaNe IriyAvahiyaMmAM prANI mAtra tarapha micchAmI dukkaDam mAgyuM ane pApaM cosami dvArA tIrthaMkaranA smaraNa tarapha gati karI. pU. AcAryazrIe vanabhara koInI sevA lIdhI nahi. koInA sAtha ke sahArAnI yAcanA karI nahi. jIvanamAM koI paNa prakArano kaleza ke kaSAya nahi. mAgavA chatAM na maLe evuM A mUlyavAna mRtyu hatuM. AvA bhavya mRtyune Ine aMtima samaye emanI sAthe rahelA gaNi jJAnasAgarajIe eTaluM ja kahyuM "teo mRtyune jItI gayA. 154 For Private And Personal Use Only

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gai sAmAnya mAnavIne mRtyu mArI nAkhe che. AcAryazrI AgaLa mRtyu marI gayuM. emanI jIvanabharanI jhaMkhanA pUrNa thaI. A aMge pUjaya padmasAgarajI mahArAje AcAryazrInI guNAnuvAdanI sabhAmAM kahyuM, "duniyA mauta kI zikAra hotI hai, isa vyakitane mauta kA zikAra kiyA / " AkhuMya vAtAvaraNa zokanA ghanaghora vAdaLothI gherAI gayuM. mAtra jaino nahi, paNa jainetaroya raDI paDayA. badhAnA caherA para du:kha ane zokanI udAsInatA jovA maLI hatI. jANe potAnA parivAranuM koi najIkanuM svajana cAlyuM gayuM na hoya! amIra hoya ke garIba, zrAvaka hoya ke zrAvikA, jaina hoya ke jainetarabadhAnI AMkhamAM AMsu hatAM. maMdiranA pUjArI hoya ke DoLIvALA hoya, paNa badhA emanA kALadharmane kAraNe DUsakAM bharatA hatA. pU. AcAryazrI to sahunA hatA. muMbaImAM zirAjhabhAI nAmanA AcAryazrInA eka paricita rahetA hatA. AcAryazrI pAsethI dharmabhAvanA ane upadeza maLyA hatA. zirAjhabhAIne jayAre kALadharmanA samAcAra maLyA, tyAre dhrusake dhrusake raDI paDayA hatA. emaNe lakhyuM ke pU. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrijI to IzvaranA saMdezavAhaka hatA. emanA javAthI mane eTalo AghAta lAgyo che ke jene mATe mane zabdo nathI jaDatA. AthI eka zAyarImAM mArA dilanA bojane pragaTa karatAM lakhuM chuM, * karI sArI na ho vAna, samuMdara do yAdI , phira bhI likhA nahI jA sakatA, sadamA usakI judAI kA / 198panI 23mI me savAre sADA ATha vAgye aMkura sosAyaTInA upAzrayathI emanA smazAnayAtrA nIkaLI. pAlakhImAM birAjelA emanA zarIramAM aMtima darzana mATe doDheka lAkha mANaso ekatrita thayA hatA. jaya jaya naMdA, jaya jaya bhadrAnA gaganabhedI avAja sAthe pU. AcAryazrInI jayAre pAlakhI upADavAmAM AvI tyAre hRdayabhedaka dazyo sarjAyAM. ziSyagaNa mUka rudana karatuM hatuM. zrAvakonA caherA para AMsu hatAM. zrAvikAo darzana mATe Atura hatI. vAtAvaraNamAM 'jaya jaya naMdA, jaya jaya bhadrA'nI ghoSaNAo gAjI UThI. emanA pratyenI bhakita ane bhAvanA ajoDa hatI. AdaranA pratIka samuM sukhaDa kayAMthI lAvIzuM, evo agraNIonA manamAM prazna hato, paNa jotajotAmAM to pAMca kavInTala sukhaDa bheguM thaI gayuM. Aja sudhI kadI na thaI hoya teTalI moTI uchAmaNI thaI. koI paNa pU. AcArya bhagavaMtanA aMtima samaye ATalI moTI uchAmaNI thayAnuM bhAgye ja koIne yAda che. caudeka lAkha rUpiyAnI uchAmaNI thaI ane amadAvAdathI zrI mahAvIra jaina ArAdhanA kendra, kobAno aDhAra kilomITara lAMbo rasto zokAtura janasamudAyathI ubharAto hato. vaizAkhanA dhomadhakhatA tApamAM badhA khullA page jhaDapabhera jaI rahyA hatA. 155 For Private And Personal Use Only

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gujarAtanA mukhya pradhAne emane eka sAcA saMta tarIke aMjali ApI. lokasabhA ane dhArAsabhAnA sabhyo paNa emane zradhdhAMjali ApavA AvyA hatA. e divasomAM amadAvAdamAM satata tophAno ane ramakhANo thatAM hatAM paraMtu 2 ramI ane 23mI me e ramakhANagrasta amadAvAdamAM nIrava zAMti hatI. kayAMya koI goLIbAra nahi. koI lUMTaphATa nahi. mahApuruSonA jIvaMta dehano prabhAva to sahue joyo hato, paraMtu emanA kALadharma samaye paNa lokone emanA zAMta ane saumya prabhAvano paricaya thayo. AcAryazrInI A aMtimayAtrA vijayayAtrA banI rahI. jaina darzana janma ane mRtyunA cakramAMthI nIkaLIne kadI janmavuM na paDe evI sthitine jhaMkhe che. pharI vAra na janmavuM paDe evuM bhavya A mRtyu hatuM. AvA mRtyunI sidhdhi e ja sAdhutAnuM aMtima sopAna hatuM. AcAryazrInA aMtima saMskAra vakhate pacAsa hajArathI paNa vadhu mAnavamedanI bhegI thaI hatI. dareka saMdhe pAlakhI lIdhI. varSIdAna karyA. anukaMpAna kArya karyA. jainazAsananA itihAsanA mahAna yugadraSTA, apUrva puNyanidhi. mahApratApI AcAryazrInA pArthiva dehane azrubharI vidAya ApI. eka jhaLahaLato AtmaprakAza jagata uparathI vidAya pAmyo. e amRtasamI vANI, e AMkhomAM nItaratI karuNA, e caherA paranuM smita have jovA maLe nahi eno vasavaso sahune hato judA mata, gaccha, ke saMpradAyavALAne paNa premanI kaDIe joDanArA vAtsalyamUrtie vidAya lIdhI.jemanA pade pade niHspRhatA pragaTa thatI hatI evA satyazodhaka pU. AcAryazrInI sahune khoTa paDI. ekabAju dharmaprasAranI avirata dhagaza hatI, to bIjI bAju jIvanamAM AnaMdaghananI mastI hatI. sAdhutAnI caramasImA ane saMyamajIvananI parAkASThA ApaNA vaccethI cAlI gaI. AvA mahAna vyakitatvanuM avataraNa vaSo pachI thatuM hoya che. ApaNe enI guNagAthA gAIe ane natamastake vaMdanA karIne eTaluM ja kahIzuM kailAsasAgaraM ri, kailAsa iva nizcalam, gaNAdhIzaM gaNAdhIzaM, sAdaraM praNidadhmahe. 157 For Private And Personal Use Only

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parama pUjaya gacchAdhipati AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajInI Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir jIvanarekhA [sAce ja vibhUtionI vAta virala hoya che. AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAjanuM sAdhujIvana aneka vyaktionI najara samakSa pasAra thayuM, paraMtu sAco sAdhu potAnA nAma-smaraNamAM nahi, paNa nAmavismaraNamAM mAne. teno anubhava paramapUjaya AcAryazrInI mahattvanI ghaTanAonI sAla ane tithi meLavavAmAM thayo. paramapUjaya jJAnasAgarajI ma.nI DAyarI, pUjaya AcAryazrI kalyANasAgarajI tathA pUjaya AcAryazrI padmasAgarajI ma. pAsethI maLelI vigato, pUjaya munizrI saMyamasAgarajIe ApelI mAhitI temaja zrI ramaNalAla maNilAle (sANaMdavALA) judI judI tasavIro tathA saMsthAnA TharAvo parathI tAravelI mAhitInA AdhAre A vigato taiyAra karI che. Ane mATe khUba tapAsa karI che, paraMtu AmAM koine vizeSa mAhitI maLe jarUrathI jaNAve.] to lekhakane 158 For Private And Personal Use Only

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jIvana-paricaya 1. sAMsArika nAma : kAzIrAma ra. janmatithi : vi. saM. 1971 3. janma sthaLa : jagarAva (paMjAba) 4. dAdAnuM nAma : gaMgArAmajI 5. pitAnuM nAma : rAmakizanadAsajI 6. mAtAnuM nAma : rAmarakhIdevI 7. patnInuM nAma : zAMtAdevI 8. bhAInuM nAma : biracaMdajI 9. bahenonAM nAma : durgAdevIjI, sarasvatIdevIjI, zAMtidevIjI, vIrAMvatIjI. 10. dIkSAdAtA : mahAtapasvI munizrI jitendrasAgarajI 11. dIkSAguru : mahAtapasvI munizrI jitendrasAgarajI 12. dIkSAtithi : vi. saM. 1994, poSa vada 10, 13. dIkSAsthAna : amadAvAda 14. dIkSAnAma ; munizrI kailAsasAgarajI 15. gaNivaryapada tithi : vi. saM. 2004, mAgazara vada 10, pUnA 16. paMnyAsapada tithi : vi.saM. 2005, mAgazara suda 10, muMbaI 17. upAdhyAyapada tithi : vi.saM. 2011, mAgazara suda 6, sANaMda 18. AcAryapada tithi : vi.saM. 202 2, mahA vada 11, sANaMda, 19. gacchAdhipatipada tithi : vi.saM. 2039, jeTha suda 11, mahuDI 20. kALadharma tithi : vi. saM. 2041 jeTha suda 2, amadAvAda 1 59 For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra krama :1 :2: :3: :8: :5: :6 :9: :: AcAryazrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajInAM cAturmAsa cAturmAsanuM sthaLa amadAvAda :6: :10: : 11: :12: :13: :14: :15: :16: : 17: :18: :19: :20: :21: :22: :23: :24: :25: vi.saM. 1994 1995 1996 1997 1998 1999 2000 2001 2002 2003 2004 2005 2006 2007 2008 2009 2010 2011 2012 2013 www.kobatirth.org 2014 2015 2016 2017 2018 sANaMda same pethApura sANaMda * mahesANA mahesANA sarma (guru jitendrasAgarajInI sAthe,jayAM pUjaya tapasvIjI jitendrasAgarajI ma. no kALadharma thayo.) Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir goDIjI, muMbai (pa. pU. kIrtisAgarasUrIzvarajI mahArAja sAheba sAthe) pUnA koTa, muMbai Dabhoi mahesANA sANaMda UMjhA AMbalIpoLa, amadAvAda sANaMda sAdaDI (mAravADa) rANI sTezana (mAravADa) jaina sosAyaTI, amadAvAda rAjakoTa bhAvanagara kalakattA mATuMgA, muMbai sAyana, muMbai * sANaMdanI saMsthAnA prosIDIMgamAM A varSe sANaMdamAM cAturmAsa karyAno ullekha che. 160 For Private And Personal Use Only

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: 26 : : 27: : 28: : 29: : 30: :31 : :3ra : : 33: :34: :35 : : 36 : :37: : 38: : 39 : : 40: : 41 : : 4ra : : 43: :44: :45 : : 46 : : 47: 2019 2020 2021 2022 2023 2024 2025 202 2027 2028 2029 2030 2031 203ra 2033 2034 2035 2036 2037 2038 2039 204) bhAvanagara pAlItANA sANaMda zihora vIjApura mahesANA sAyana, muMbaI usmAnapurA, amadAvAda mahesANA zihora devakInaMdana sosAyaTI, amadAvAda jAmanagara pAlItANA jAmanagara bhAvanagara AMbAvADI, amadAvAda lodarA mahesANA (zrI sImaMdharasvAmI jinAlaya) aDapodarA sANaMda sAbaramatI, amadAvAda pAlI 16 1 For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra krama zrI mULanAyaka prabhujInuM nAma 1 zrI pArzvanAthajI 5. pUjayapAda gacchAdhipatizrI nA varada parama puNyavaMta kara kamaLe thayela zrI aMjana pratiSThA vidhinuM bIjaka 23 7 zrI AdIzvarajI www.kobatirth.org 2 zrI munisuvratasvAmIjI 100 3 zrI munisuvratasvAmIjI 100 4 zrI sImaMdharasvAmIjI 5 zrI mahAvIrasvAmIjI 350 100 6 zrI pArzvanAthajI 8 zrI AdIzvarajI 9 zrI AdIzvarajI pratimA sthaLa nIsaMkhyA 100 1100 zrI sANaMda 50 25 350 vi.saMvat mAsa zrI sammetazikharajI 2017 mAdha mahAtIrtha zrI rAjagRhI tIrtha 2017 phAgaNa zrI mATuMgA-muMbai 2017 zrAvaNa zrI aMdherI-muMbai 2018 vaizAkha zrI boDelI(vaDodarA) 2019 mAtha 13 zrI sImandharasvAmIjI 750 sAgaragaccha (amadAvAda) zrI dahegAma zatruMjaya (amadAvAda) zrI baravALA (saurASTra) zrI mahuDI (u. gUja.) zrI mANasA muMbai zrI rakhiyAla Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir (amadAvAda) zrI mahesANA (u.guja.) 10 zrI vAsUpUjayasvAmIjI 100 (u. gUja) 11 zrI abhinaMdanasvAmIjI 200 zrI ziva (sAyana) 2025 jayeSTha 12 zrI mahAvIrasvAmIjI 100 2027 vaizAkha 2028 vaizAkha 162 For Private And Personal Use Only 2022 phAgaNa 2022 vaizAkha 2023 vaizAkha 2024 vaizAkha 2025 mAdha

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2033 vaizAkha 14 zrI vAsupUjayasvAmIjI 300 zrI nAraNapurA 2029 mAdya (amadAvAda) 1pa zrI neminAthajI 200 zrI jAmanagara 2032 zrAvaNa. (saurASTra) 16 zrI vAsupUjayasvAmIjI 350 zrI AMbAvADI 2033 amadAvAda 17 zrI pArzvanAthajI 350 zrI devakInaMdana 2033 mAdya amadAvAda 18 zrI munisuvratasvAmIjI 25 zrI zivagaMja mAravADa 19 zrI naminAthajI (2 1) 300 zrI zAhapura 2034 vaizAkha (amadAvAda) 20 zrI AdIzvarajI pa0 zrI AMbAvADI 2035 mAgazara amadAvAda 21 zrI vAsupUjayasvAmIjI 350 zrI vijayanagara 2035 vaizAkha amadAvAda 22 zrI sumatinAthajI 300 zrI mIrAmbikA 2037 mAdya amadAvAda 23 zrI vAsupUjayasvAmIjI 200 zrI mahuDI 2038 vaizAkha (u. gUja) 24 zrI sImanvarasvAmIjI 750 zrI pAlI-mAravADa 2041 mAgazara zrI jinendra paramAtmAnI covIsa aMjanazalAkA uparAMta 25 ke tethI adhika pratiSThA karAvela. 1 63 For Private And Personal Use Only

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5. pU. gacchAdhipati A. zrI kailAsasAgarasurIzvarajI ma.sA.nA ziSyaaziSyonI yAdI A con ca are no * 1 pa. pU. A. zrI kalyANasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. 2 pa. pU. A. zrI padmasAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. * 3 pa. pU. A. zrI bhadrabAhusAgarasUrIzvarajI ma. sA. *o 4 pa. pU. panyAsa zrI sUryasAgarajI ma. sA. - pa. pU. panyAsa zrI dharaNendrasAgarajI ma. sA. - pa. pU. gaNivarya zrI vardhamAnasAgarajI ma. sA. 7 pa. pU. gaNivarya zrI jJAnasAgarajI ma. sA. 8. pravartaka zrI IndrasAgarajI ma. sA. * 9 pa. pU. mu. zrI kaMcanasAgarajI ma. sA. 10 pa. pU. muM. zrI abhayasAgarajI ma. sA. 11 pa. pU. mu. zrI lAvaNyasAgarajI ma. sA. 0 12 pa. pU. mu. zrI bhAvasAgarajI ma. sA. 13 pa. pU. mu. zrI amRtasAgarajI ma. sA. pa. pU. muM. zrI sumatisAgarajI ma. sA. 0 15 pa. pU. mu. zrI dharmasAgarajI ma. sA. pa. pU. mu. zrI aruNodayasAgarajI ma. sA. pa. pU. mu. zrI vinayasAgarajI ma. sA. pa. pU. mu. zrI nItisAgarajI ma. sA. pU. muM. zrI vidyutaratnasAgarajI ma. sA. 20 pa. pU. mu. zrI devendrasAgarajI ma. sA. 21 pa. pU. mu. zrI mitrAnaMdasAgarajI ma. sA. 22 pa. pU. mu. zrI nirmalasAgarajI ma. sA. 23 5. pU. mu. zrI premasAgarajI ma. sA. 24 pa. pU. muM. zrI hemacaMdrasAgarajI ma. sA. 25 pa. pU. mu. zrI saMyamasAgarajI ma. sA. 1 6 4 : cchn rm rm 5% rm rm rm rm rm rm rm rm rm For Private And Personal Use Only

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Shri Mahavir Jain Aradhana Kendra 265. pU. mu. zrI nirvANasAgarajI ma. sA. 27 5. pU. mu. zrI zivasAgarajI ma. sA. zrI vivekasAgarajI ma. sA. 28 5. pU. mu. 29 5. pU. mu. 30 5. pU. mu. 31 3ra 33 34 5. pU. mu. 35 pa. pU. mu. pa. pU. mu. pa. pU. mu. pa. pU. mu. 36 5. pU. mu. 37 pa. pU. mu. www.kobatirth.org 38 5. pU. mu. 39 40 zrI ajayasAgarajI ma. sA. zrI vimalasAgaraMjI ma. sA. zrI arihaMtasAgarajI ma. sA. zrI araviMdasAgarajI ma. sA. zrI mahendrasAgarajI ma. sA. zrI nayapadmasAgarajI ma. sA. zrI padmodayasAgarajI ma. sA. zrI prazAMtasAgarajI ma. sA. zrI udayasAgarajI ma. sA. zrI padmaratnasAgarajI ma. sA. pa. pU. mu. zrI amarapadmasAgarajI ma. sA. pa. pU. mu. zrI amamasAgarajI ma. sA. 0 jayAM A nizAna che te svargastha che. jyAM nizAna che te pa. pU. ga. A. zrI kailAsasAgarasUrIzvarajInA ziSyo che. 16 5

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AcAryazrInI amRtavANI jagatamAM jovAnA hoya to te tIrthaMkara paramAtmAne. bIjuM saMsAramAM jovAnuM che zuM ? Acharya Shri Kailassagarsuri Gyanmandir zarIra ane karma eno dharma bajAve to AtmAe AtmAno dharma bajAvavo joie. eka divasa jenI rAkha ane dhULa thavAnI che e dehanI zAne kAje ciMtA karavI joIe ? jagatanI bhASAmAM nahi, paNa jagatapatinI bhASAmAM bolo. kadAca janasamudAyanI bhASAmAM tucchakAra hoya to kSamya gaNIne calAvI levAya, paNa sAdhunI vANImAM kadI tucchakAra na hoya. tIrtha to prabhunI bhakita mATe che. A tIrthanuM huM kazuMya vAparuM to mArI Akita vadhe. koi uttejanAmAM game tema bole tyAre tamArA manane kahI do ke A roga naMbara che. ApaNe ghera phona Avyo hoya. mANasa game teTaluM bolato hoya, paNa tame mAtra ATaluM ja kaho ke A roga naMbara che to kevo ThaMDogAra thaI jAya che ! juvAnI mAM Teko lezo to buDhApAmAM sUvuM paDaze. koi vyakita bhUla ke doSa kare paraMtu ApaNe to emAMthI enA sadguNa ja jovAnA ane grahaNa karavAnA hoya, durguNa nahIM. 166 For Private And Personal Use Only

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kAnane sAunDaprUpha karo ane dimAgane erakanDIzana banAvo. A dehanuM){ makAna to AtmArAbhAIe "lIjha para lIdheluM che. e makAnane erakanDIzanamAM rAkhavAne badale dimAgane erakanDIzanamAM rAkho. ApaNe sAdhuo to AdhyAtmika haoNspiTala calAvIe chIe. upAzraya e "ImarjansI vaoNrDa" kahevAya. koI ghAyala thaIne game tyAre Ave paNa ApaNuM kAma to ene saMtoSanI sAravAra ane cittanI svasthatA ApavAnuM che. A bhAve jIbhano durupayoga karIe to jIbha nahIM maLe. kAnano durupayoga karIe to kAna nahIM maLe. parabhavamAM A badhI vastu durlabha banI jaze jo tamAre guNanI ArAdhanA karavI hoya to tIrthaMkara paramAtmAnI karo. prabhunI bhakita karo, amArI nahI. sAdhune mATe prazaMsA jhera samAna che. jJAtA-daSTa bhAva je jema keLavIe tema tema samabhAva Ave che. rAga-dveSa jItavAno upAya sAkSIbhAvathI rahevuM e ja che. | gurunI jeTalI sevA karIe teTalI ochI. emanA AzIrvAda ane sevAthI ja vidyA phaLe. sAdhunA dvAra sadAya khullA ja hoya che. sahana karavuM kSamA karavI ane sevA karavI e ja che jIvanamaMtra. Atmazreya mATe haMmezA jAgRta raho. 167 - - - - - - - For Private And Personal Use Only

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pU. A. kailAsasAgarasUrijInA zrI guru maMdira ke sarvathA sau sukhI thAo pApanA koI Acaro rAga dveSathI dUra rahI mokSa sukha jagavaro. 168 For Private And Personal Use Only

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